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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/22063-8.txt b/22063-8.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..22430ed --- /dev/null +++ b/22063-8.txt @@ -0,0 +1,14695 @@ +The Project Gutenberg eBook, The Trail of '98, by Robert W. Service, +Illustrated by Maynard Dixon + + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + + + + +Title: The Trail of '98 + A Northland Romance + + +Author: Robert W. Service + + + +Release Date: July 13, 2007 [eBook #22063] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE TRAIL OF '98*** + + +E-text prepared by Roger Frank and the Project Gutenberg Online +Distributed Proofreading Team (https://www.pgdp.net) + + + +Note: Project Gutenberg also has an HTML version of this + file which includes the original illustrations. + See 22063-h.htm or 22063-h.zip: + (https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/0/6/22063/22063-h/22063-h.htm) + or + (https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/0/6/22063/22063-h.zip) + + + + + +THE TRAIL OF '98 + +A Northland Romance + +by + +ROBERT W. SERVICE + +Author of +"The Spell of the Yukon" and "Ballads of a Cheechako" + +With illustrations by Maynard Dixon + + + + + + + +[Illustration: We were in a caldron of fire. The roar of doom was in our +ears (page 143)] + + +New York +Dodd, Mead and Company +1911 + +Copyright, 1910, by +Dodd, Mead and Company + +Entered at Stationers' Hall + +The Quinn & Boden Co. Press +Rahway, N. J. + + + + +PRELUDE + +The north wind is keening overhead. It minds me of the howl of a +wolf-dog under the Arctic stars. Sitting alone by the glow of the +great peat fire I can hear it high up in the braeside firs. It is +the voice, inexorably scornful, of the Great White Land. + +Oh, I hate it, I hate it! Why cannot a man be allowed to forget? It is +near ten years since I joined the Eager Army. I have travelled: I have +been a pilgrim to the shrines of beauty; I have pursued the phantom of +happiness even to the ends of the earth. Still it is always the same--I +cannot forget. + +Why should a man be ever shadowed by the vampire wing of his past? Have +I not a right to be happy? Money, estate, name, are mine, all that means +an open sesame to the magic door. Others go in, but I beat against its +flinty portals with hands that bleed. No! I have no right to be happy. +The ways of the world are open; the banquet of life is spread; the +wonder-workers plan their pageants of beauty and joy, and yet there is +no praise in my heart. I have seen, I have tasted, I have tried. Ashes +and dust and bitterness are all my gain. I will try no more. It is the +shadow of the vampire wing. + +So I sit in the glow of the great peat fire, tired and sad beyond +belief. Thank God! at least I am home. Everything is so little changed. +The fire lights the oak-panelled hall; the crossed claymores gleam; the +eyes in the mounted deer-heads shine glassily; rugs of fur cover the +polished floor; all is comfort, home and the haunting atmosphere of my +boyhood. Sometimes I fancy it has been a dream, the Great White Silence, +the lure of the gold-spell, the delirium of the struggle; a dream, and I +will awake to hear Garry calling me to shoot over the moor, to see dear +little Mother with her meek, sensitive mouth, and her cheeks as +delicately tinted as the leaves of a briar rose. But no! The hall is +silent. Mother has gone to her long rest. Garry sleeps under the snow. +Silence everywhere; I am alone, alone. + +So I sit in the big, oak-carved chair of my forefathers, before the +great peat fire, a peak-faced drooping figure of a man with hair +untimely grey. My crutch lies on the floor by my side. My old nurse +comes up quietly to look at the fire. Her rosy, wrinkled face smiles +cheerfully, but I can see the anxiety in her blue eyes. She is afraid +for me. Maybe the doctor has told her--_something_. + +No doubt my days are numbered, so I am minded to tell of it all: of the +Big Stampede, of the Treasure Trail, of the Gold-born City; of those who +followed the gold-lure into the Great White Land, of the evil that +befell them, of Garry and of Berna. Perhaps it will comfort me to tell +of these things. To-morrow I will begin; to-night, leave me to my +memories. + +Berna! I spoke of her last. She rises before me now with her spirit-pale +face and her great troubleful grey eyes, a little tragic figure, +ineffably pitiful. Where are you now, little one? I have searched the +world for you. I have scanned a million faces. Day and night have I +sought, always hoping, always baffled, for, God help me, dear, I love +you. Among that mad, lusting horde you were so weak, so helpless, yet so +hungry for love. + +With the aid of my crutch I unlatch one of the long windows, and step +out onto the terrace. From the cavernous dark the snowflakes sting my +face. Yet as I stand there, once more I have a sense of another land, of +imperious vastitudes, of a silent empire, unfathomably lonely. + +Ghosts! They are all around me. The darkness teems with them, Garry, my +brother, among them. Then they all fade and give way to one face.... + +_Berna, I love you always. Out of the night I cry to you, Berna, the cry +of a broken heart. Is it your little, pitiful ghost that comes down to +me? Oh, I am waiting, waiting! Here will I wait, Berna, till we meet +once more. For meet we will, beyond the mists, beyond the dreaming, at +last, dear love, at last._ + + + +CONTENTS + +BOOK I +The Road to Anywhere 1 + +BOOK II +The Trail 49 + +BOOK III +The Camp 169 + +BOOK IV +The Vortex 321 + + + +ILLUSTRATIONS + +We were in a caldron of fire. The roar of doom was +in our ears (p. 143) Frontispiece + + FACING + PAGE + +"No," she said firmly, "you can't see the girl" 116 + +Then, as I hung half in, half out of the window, +he clutched me by the throat 316 + +"Garry," I said, "this is--this is Berna" 476 + + + +This is the law of the Yukon, and ever she makes it plain: +"Send not your foolish and feeble; send me your strong and your sane. +Strong for the red rage of battle; sane, for I harry them sore; +Send me men girt for the combat, men who are grit to the core; +Swift as the panther in triumph, fierce as the bear in defeat, +Sired of a bulldog parent, steeled in the furnace heat. +Send me the best of your breeding, lend me your chosen ones; +Them will I take to my bosom, them will I call my sons; +Them will I gild with my treasure, them will I glut with my meat; +But the others--the misfits, the failures--I trample under my feet." + + --"Songs of a Sourdough." + + + + + + +BOOK I + +THE ROAD TO ANYWHERE + + +Can you recall, dear comrade, when we tramped God's land together, + And we sang the old, old Earth-Song, for our youth was very sweet; +When we drank and fought and lusted, as we mocked at tie and tether, + Along the road to Anywhere, the wide world at our feet. + +Along the road to Anywhere, when each day had its story; + When time was yet our vassal, and life's jest was still unstale; +When peace unfathomed filled our hearts as, bathed in amber glory, + Along the road to Anywhere we watched the sunsets pale. + +Alas! the road to Anywhere is pitfalled with disaster; + There's hunger, want, and weariness, yet O we loved it so! +As on we tramped exultantly, and no man was our master, + And no man guessed what dreams were ours, as swinging heel and toe, +We tramped the road to Anywhere, the magic road to Anywhere, + The tragic road to Anywhere such dear, dim years ago. + +--"Songs of a Sourdough." + + + + +CHAPTER I + + +As far back as I can remember I have faithfully followed the banner of +Romance. It has given colour to my life, made me a dreamer of dreams, a +player of parts. As a boy, roaming alone the wild heather hills, I have +heard the glad shouts of the football players on the green, yet never +ettled to join them. Mine was the richer, rarer joy. Still can I see +myself in those days, a little shy-mannered lad in kilts, bareheaded to +the hill breezes, with health-bright cheeks, and a soul happed up in +dreams. + +And, indeed, I lived in an enchanted land, a land of griffins and +kelpies, of princesses and gleaming knights. From each black tarn I +looked to see a scaly reptile rise, from every fearsome cave a corby +emerge. There were green spaces among the heather where the fairies +danced, and every scaur and linn had its own familiar spirit. I peopled +the good green wood with the wild creatures of my thought, nymph and +faun, naiad and dryad, and would have been in nowise surprised to meet +in the leafy coolness the great god Pan himself. + +It was at night, however, that my dreams were most compelling. I strove +against the tyranny of sleep. Lying in my small bed, I revelled in +delectable imaginings. Night after night I fought battles, devised +pageants, partitioned empires. I gloried in details. My rugged +war-lords were very real to me, and my adventures sounded many periods +of history. I was a solitary caveman with an axe of stone; I was a Roman +soldier of fortune; I was a Highland outlaw of the Rebellion. Always I +fought for a lost cause, and always my sympathies were with the rebel. I +feasted with Robin Hood on the King's venison; I fared forth with Dick +Turpin on the gibbet-haunted heath; I followed Morgan, the Buccaneer, +into strange and exotic lands of trial and treasure. It was a wonderful +gift of visioning that was mine in those days. It was the bird-like +flight of the pure child-mind to whom the unreal is yet the real. + +Then, suddenly, I arrived at a second phase of my mental growth in which +fancy usurped the place of imagination. The modern equivalents of +Romance attracted me, and, with my increasing grasp of reality, my gift +of vision faded. As I had hitherto dreamed of knight-errants, of +corsairs and of outlaws, I now dreamed of cowboys, of gold-seekers, of +beach-combers. Fancy painted scenes in which I, too, should play a +rousing part. I read avidly all I could find dealing with the Far West, +and ever my wistful gaze roved over the grey sea. The spirit of Romance +beaconed to me. I, too, would adventure in the stranger lands, and face +their perils and brave their dangers. The joy of the thought exulted in +my veins, and scarce could I bide the day when the roads of chance and +change would be open to my feet. + +It is strange that in all these years I confided in no one. Garry, who +was my brother and my dearest friend, would have laughed at me in that +affectionate way of his. You would never have taken us for brothers. We +were so different in temperament and appearance that we were almost the +reverse of each other. He was the handsomest boy I have ever seen, +frank, fair-skinned and winning, while I was dark, dour and none too +well favoured. He was the best runner and swimmer in the parish, and the +idol of the village lads. I cared nothing for games, and would be found +somewhere among the heather hills, always by my lone self, and nearly +always with a story book in my pocket. He was clever, practical and +ambitious, excelling in all his studies; whereas, except in those which +appealed to my imagination, I was a dullard and a dreamer. + +Yet we loved each others as few brothers do. Oh, how I admired him! He +was my ideal, and too often the hero of my romances. Garry would have +laughed at my hero-worship; he was so matter-of-fact, effective and +practical. Yet he understood me, my Celtic ideality, and that shy +reserve which is the armour of a sensitive soul. Garry in his fine +clever way knew me and shielded me and cheered me. He was so buoyant and +charming he heartened you like Spring sunshine, and braced you like a +morning wind on the mountain top. Yes, not excepting Mother, Garry knew +me better than any one has ever done, and I loved him for it. It seems +overfond to say this, but he did not have a fault: tenderness, humour, +enthusiasm, sympathy and the beauty of a young god--all that was +manfully endearing was expressed in this brother of mine. + +So we grew to manhood there in that West Highland country, and surely +our lives were pure and simple and sweet. I had never been further from +home than the little market town where we sold our sheep. Mother managed +the estate till Garry was old enough, when he took hold with a vigour +and grasp that delighted every one. I think our little Mother stood +rather in awe of my keen, capable, energetic brother. There was in her a +certain dreamy, wistful idealism that made her beautiful in my eyes, and +to look on she was as fair as any picture. Specially do I remember the +delicate colouring of her face and her eyes, blue like deep +corn-flowers. She was not overstrong, and took much comfort from +religion. Her lips, which were fine and sensitive, had a particularly +sweet expression, and I wish to record of her that never once did I see +her cross, always sweet, gentle, smiling. + +Thus our home was an ideal one; Garry, tall, fair and winsome; myself, +dark, dreamy, reticent; and between us, linking all three in a perfect +bond of love and sympathy, our gentle, delicate Mother. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +So in serenity and sunshine the days of my youth went past. I still +maintained my character as a drone and a dreamer. I used my time +tramping the moorland with a gun, whipping the foamy pools of the burn +for trout, or reading voraciously in the library. Mostly I read books of +travel, and especially did I relish the literature of Vagabondia. I had +come under the spell of Stevenson. His name spelled Romance to me, and +my fancy etched him in his lonely exile. Forthright I determined I too +would seek these ultimate islands, and from that moment I was a changed +being. I nursed the thought with joyous enthusiasm. I would be a +frontiersman, a trail-breaker, a treasure-seeker. The virgin prairies +called to me; the susurrus of the giant pines echoed in my heart; but +most of all, I felt the spell of those gentle islands where care is a +stranger, and all is sunshine, song and the glowing bloom of eternal +summer. + +About this time Mother must have worried a good deal over my future. +Garry was now the young Laird, and I was but an idler, a burden on the +estate. At last I told her I wanted to go abroad, and then it seemed as +if a great difficulty was solved. We remembered of a cousin who was +sheep-ranching in the Saskatchewan valley and had done well. It was +arranged that I should join him as a pupil, then, when I had learned +enough, buy a place of my own. It may be imagined that while I +apparently acquiesced in this arrangement, I had already determined that +as soon as I reached the new land I would take my destiny into my own +hands. + +I will never forget the damp journey to Glasgow and the misty landscape +viewed through the streaming window pane of a railway carriage. I was in +a wondrous state of elation. When we reached the great smoky city I was +lost in amazement not unmixed with fear. Never had I imagined such +crowds, such houses, such hurry. The three of us, Mother, Garry and I, +wandered and wondered for three days. Folks gazed at us curiously, +sometimes admiringly, for our cheeks were bright with Highland health, +and our eyes candid as the June skies. Garry in particular, tall, fair +and handsome, seemed to call forth glances of interest wherever he went. +Then as the hour of my departure drew near a shadow fell on us. + +I will not dwell on our leave-taking. If I broke down in unmanly grief, +it must be remembered I had never before been from home. I was but a +lad, and these two were all in all to me. Mother gave up trying to be +brave, and mingled her tears with mine. Garry alone contrived to make +some show of cheerfulness. Alas! all my elation had gone. In its place +was a sense of guilt, of desertion, of unconquerable gloom. I had an +inkling then of the tragedy of motherhood, the tender love that would +hold yet cannot, the world-call and the ruthless, estranging years, all +the memories of clinging love given only to be taken away. + +"Don't cry, sweetheart Mother," I said; "I'll be back again in three +years." + +"Mind you do, my boy, mind you do." + +She looked at me woefully sad, and I had a queer, heartrending prevision +I would never see her more. Garry was supporting her, and she seemed to +have suddenly grown very frail. He was pale and quiet, but I could see +he was vastly moved. + +"Athol," said he, "if ever you need me just send for me. I'll come, no +matter how long or how hard the way." + +I can see them to this day standing there in the drenching rain, Garry +fine and manly, Mother small and drooping. I can see her with her +delicate rose colour, her eyes like wood violets drowned in tears, her +tender, sensitive lips quivering with emotion. + +"Good-bye, laddie, good-bye." + +I forced myself away, and stumbled on board. When I looked back again +they were gone, but through the grey shadows there seemed to come back +to me a cry of heartache and irremediable loss. + +"Good-bye, good-bye." + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +It was on a day of early Autumn when I stood knee-deep in the heather of +Glengyle, and looked wistfully over the grey sea. 'Twas but a month +later when, homeless and friendless, I stood on the beach by the Cliff +House of San Francisco, and gazed over the fretful waters of another +ocean. Such is the romance of destiny. + +Consigned, so to speak, to my cousin the sheep-raiser of the +Saskatchewan, I found myself setting foot on the strange land with but +little heart for my new vocation. My mind, cramful of book notions, +craved for the larger life. I was valiantly mad for adventure; to fare +forth haphazardly; to come upon naked danger; to feel the bludgeonings +of mischance; to tramp, to starve, to sleep under the stars. It was the +callow boy-idea perpetuated in the man, and it was to lead me a sorry +dance. But I could not overbear it. Strong in me was the spirit of the +gypsy. The joy of youth and health was brawling in my veins. A few +thistledown years, said I, would not matter. And there was Stevenson and +his glamorous islands winning me on. + +So it came about I stood solitary on the beach by the seal rocks, with a +thousand memories confusing in my head. There was the long train ride +with its strange pictures: the crude farms, the glooming forests, the +gleaming lakes that would drown my whole country, the aching plains, +the mountains that rip-sawed the sky, the fear-made-eternal of the +desert. Lastly, a sudden, sunlit paradise, California. + +I had lived through a week of wizardry such as I had never dreamed of, +and here was I at the very throne of Western empire. And what a place it +was, and what a people--with the imperious mood of the West softened by +the spell of the Orient and mellowed by the glamour of Old Spain. San +Francisco! A score of tongues clamoured in her streets and in her +byways a score of races lurked austerely. She suckled at her breast the +children of the old grey nations and gave them of her spirit, that swift +purposeful spirit so proud of past achievement and so convinced of +glorious destiny. + +I marvelled at the rush of affairs and the zest of amusement. Every one +seemed to be making money easily and spending it eagerly. Every one was +happy, sanguine, strenuous. At night Market Street was a dazzling alley +of light, where stalwart men and handsome women jostled in and out of +the glittering restaurants. Yet amid this eager, passionate life I felt +a dreary sense of outsideness. At times my heart fairly ached with +loneliness, and I wandered the pathways of the park, or sat forlornly in +Portsmouth Square as remote from it all as a gazer on his mountain top +beneath the stars. + +I became a dreamer of the water front, for the notion of the South Seas +was ever in my head. I loafed in the sunshine, sitting on the pier-edge, +with eyes fixed on the lazy shipping. These were care-free, +irresponsible days, and not, I am now convinced, entirely misspent. I +came to know the worthies of the wharfside, and plunged into an +under-world of fascinating repellency. Crimpdom eyed and tempted me, but +it was always with whales or seals, and never with pearls or copra. I +rubbed shoulders with eager necessity, scrambled for free lunches in +frowsy bar-rooms, and amid the scum and débris of the waterside found +much food for sober thought. Yet at times I blamed myself for thus +misusing my days, and memories of Glengyle and Mother and Garry loomed +up with reproachful vividness. + +I was, too, a seeker of curious experience, and this was to prove my +undoing. The night-side of the city was unveiled to me. With the +assurance of innocence I wandered everywhere. I penetrated the warrens +of underground Chinatown, wondering why white women lived there, and why +they hid at sight of me. Alone I poked my way into the opium joints and +the gambling dens. Vice, amazingly unabashed, flaunted itself in my +face. I wondered what my grim, Covenanting ancestors would have made of +it all. I never thought to have seen the like, and in my inexperience it +was like a shock to me. + +My nocturnal explorations came to a sudden end. One foggy midnight, +coming up Pacific Street with its glut of saloons, I was clouted +shrewdly from behind and dropped most neatly in the gutter. When I came +to, very sick and dizzy in a side alley, I found I had been robbed of my +pocketbook with nearly all my money therein. Fortunately I had left my +watch in the hotel safe, and by selling it was not entirely destitute; +but the situation forced me from my citadel of pleasant dreams, and +confronted me with the grimmer realities of life. + +I became a habitué of the ten-cent restaurant. I was amazed to find how +excellent a meal I could have for ten cents. Oh for the uncaptious +appetite of these haphazard days! With some thirty-odd dollars standing +between me and starvation, it was obvious I must become a hewer of wood +and a drawer of water, and to this end I haunted the employment offices. +They were bare, sordid rooms, crowded by men who chewed, swapped +stories, yawned and studied the blackboards where the day's wants were +set forth. Only driven to labour by dire necessity, their lives, I +found, held three phases--looking for work, working, spending the +proceeds. They were the Great Unskilled, face to face with the necessary +evil of toil. + +One morning, on seeking my favourite labour bureau, I found an unusual +flutter among the bench-warmers. A big contractor wanted fifty men +immediately. No experience was required, and the wages were to be two +dollars a day. With a number of others I pressed forward, was +interviewed and accepted. The same day we were marched in a body to the +railway depot and herded into a fourth-class car. + +Where we were going I knew not; of what we were going to do I had no +inkling. I only knew we were southbound, and at long last I might fairly +consider myself to be the shuttlecock of fortune. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +I left San Francisco blanketed in grey fog and besomed by a roaring +wind; when I opened my eyes I was in a land of spacious sky and broad, +clean sunshine. Orange groves rushed to welcome us; orchards of almond +and olive twinkled joyfully in the limpid air; tall, gaunt and ragged, +the scaly eucalyptus fluttered at us a morning greeting, while snowy +houses, wallowing in greenery, flashed a smile as we rumbled past. It +seemed like a land of promise, of song and sunshine, and silent and +apart I sat to admire and to enjoy. + +"Looks pretty swell, don't it?" + +I will call him the Prodigal. He was about my own age, thin, but +sun-browned and healthy. His hair was darkly red and silky, his teeth +white and even as young corn. His eyes twinkled with a humorsome light, +but his face was shrewd, alert and aggressive. + +"Yes," I said soberly, for I have always been backward with strangers. + +"Pretty good line. The banana belt. Old Sol working overtime. Blossom +and fruit cavorting on the same tree. Eternal summer. Land of the +_mañana_, the festive frijole, the never-chilly chili. Ever been here +before?" + +"No." + +"Neither have I. Glad I came, even if it's to do the horny-handed son +of toil stunt. Got the makings?" + +"No, I'm sorry; I don't smoke." + +"All right, guess I got enough." + +He pulled forth a limp sack of powdery tobacco, and spilled some grains +into a brown cigarette paper, twisting it deftly and bending over the +ends. Then he smoked with such enjoyment that I envied him. + +"Where are we going, have you any idea?" I asked. + +"Search me," he said, inhaling deeply; "the guy in charge isn't exactly +a free information bureau. When it comes to peddling the bull con he's +there, but when you try to pry off a few slabs of cold hard fact it's +his Sunday off." + +"But," I persisted, "have you no idea?" + +"Well, one thing you can bank on, they'll work the Judas out of us. The +gentle grafter nestles in our midst. This here's a cinch game and we are +the fall guys. The contractors are a bum outfit. They'll squeeze us at +every turn. There was two plunks to the employment man; they got half. +Twenty for railway fare; they come in on that. Stop at certain hotels: a +rake-off there. Stage fare: more graft. Five dollars a week for board: +costs them two-fifty, and they will be stomach robbers at that. Then +they'll ring in twice as many men as they need, and lay us off half the +time, so that we just about even up on our board bill. Oh, I'm onto +their curves all right." + +"Then," I said, "if you know so much why did you come with us?" + +"Well, if I know so much you just bet I know some more. I'll go one +better. You watch my smoke." + +He talked on with a wonderful vivid manner and an outpouring knowledge +of life, so that I was hugely interested. Yet ever and anon an allusion +of taste would betray him, and at no time did I fail to see that his +roughness was only a veneer. As it turned out he was better educated by +far than I, a Yale boy taking a post-graduate course in the University +of Hard Luck. + +My reserve once thawed, I told him much of my simple life. He listened, +intently sympathetic. + +"Say," said he earnestly when I had finished, "I'm rough-and-ready in my +ways. Life to me's a game, sort of masquerade, and I'm the worst +masquerader in the bunch. But I know how to handle myself, and I can +jolly my way along pretty well. Now, you're green, if you'll excuse me +saying it, and maybe I can help you some. Likewise you're the only one +in all the gang of hoboes that's my kind. Come on, let's be partners." + +I felt greatly drawn to him and agreed gladly. + +"Now," said he, "I must go and jolly along the other boys. Aren't they a +fierce bunch? Coloured gentlemen, Slavonians, Polaks, Dagoes, +Swedes--well, I'll go prospecting, and see what I can strike." + +He went among them with a jabber of strange terms, a bright smile and +ready banter, and I could see that he was to be a quick favourite. I +envied him for his ease of manner, a thing I could never compass. +Presently he returned to me. + +"Say, partner, got any money?" + +There was something frank and compelling in his manner, so that I +produced the few dollars I had left, and spread them before him. + +"That's all my wealth," I said smilingly. + +He divided it into two equal portions and returned one to me. He took a +note of the other, saying: + +"All right, I'll settle up with you later on." + +He went off with my money. He seemed to take it for granted I would not +object, and on my part I cared little, being only too eager to show I +trusted him. A few minutes later behold him seated at a card-table with +three rough-necked, hard-bitten-looking men. They were playing poker, +and, thinks I: "Here's good-bye to my money." It minded me of wolves and +a lamb. I felt sorry for my new friend, and I was only glad he had so +little to lose. + +We were drawing in to Los Angeles when he rejoined me. To my surprise he +emptied his pockets of wrinkled notes and winking silver to the tune of +twenty dollars, and dividing it equally, handed half to me. + +"Here," says he, "plant that in your dip." + +"No," I said, "just give me back what you borrowed; that's all I want." + +"Oh, forget it! You staked me, and it's well won. These guinneys took me +for a jay. Thought I was easy, but I've forgotten more than they ever +knew, and I haven't forgotten so much either." + +"No, you keep it, please. I don't want it." + +"Oh, come! put your Scotch scruples in your pocket. Take the money." + +"No," I said obstinately. + +"Look here, this partnership of ours is based on financial equality. If +you don't like my gate, you don't need to swing on it." + +"All right," said I tartly, "I don't want to." + +Then I turned on my heel. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +On either side of us were swift hills mottled with green and gold, ahead +a curdle of snow-capped mountains, above a sky of robin's-egg blue. The +morning was lyric and set our hearts piping as we climbed the canyon. We +breathed deeply of the heady air, exclaimed at sight of a big bee ranch, +shouted as a mule team with jingling bells came swinging down the trail. +With cries of delight we forded the little crystal stream wherever the +trail plunged knee-deep through it. Higher and higher we climbed, mile +after mile, our packs on our shoulders, our hearts very merry. I was as +happy as a holiday schoolboy, willing this should go on for ever, +dreading to think of the grim-visaged toil that awaited us. + +About midday we reached the end. Gangs of men were everywhere, ripping +and tearing at the mountain side. There was a roar of blasting, and +rocks hurtled down on us. Bunkhouses of raw lumber sweated in the sun. +Everywhere was the feverish activity of a construction camp. + +We were assigned to a particular bunkhouse, and there was a great rush +for places. It was floorless, doorless and in part roofless. Above the +medley of voices I heard that of the Prodigal: + +"Say, fellows, let's find the softest side of this board! Strikes me the +Company's mighty considerate. All kinds of ventilation. Good chance to +study astronomy. Wonder if I couldn't borrow a mattress somewhere? Ha! +Good eye! Watch me, fellows!" + +We saw him make for a tent nearby where horses were stabled. He +reconnoitred carefully, then darted inside to come out in a twinkling, +staggering under a bale of hay. + +"How's that for rustling? I guess I'm slow--hey, what? Guess this is +poor!" + +He was wadding his bunk with the hay, while the others looked on rather +enviously. Then, as a bell rang, he left off. + +"Hash is ready, boys; last call to the dining-car. Come on and see the +pigs get their heads in the trough." + +We hurried to the cookhouse, where a tin plate, a tin cup, a tin spoon +and a cast-iron knife was laid for each of us at a table of unplaned +boards. A great mess of hash was ready, and excepting myself every one +ate voraciously. I found something more to my taste, a can of honey and +some soda crackers, on which I supped gratefully. + +When I returned to the bunkhouse I found my bunk had been stuffed with +nice soft hay, and my blankets spread on top. I looked over to the +Prodigal. He was reading, a limp cigarette between his yellow-stained +fingers. I went up to him. + +"It's very good of you to do this," I said. + +"Oh no! Not at all. Don't mention it," he answered with much +politeness, never raising his eyes from the book. + +"Well," I said, "I've just got to thank you. And look here, let's make +it up. Don't let the business of that wretched money come between us. +Can't we be friends anyway?" + +He sprang up and gripped my hand. + +"Sure! nothing I want more. I'm sorry. Another time I'll make allowance +for that shorter-catechism conscience of yours. Now let's go over to +that big fire they've made and chew the rag." + +So we sat by the crackling blaze of mesquite, sagebrush and live-oak +limbs, while over us twinkled the friendly stars, and he told me many a +strange story of his roving life. + +"You know, the old man's all broke up at me playing the fool like this. +He's got a glue factory back in Massachusetts. Guess he stacks up about +a million or so. Wanted me to go into the glue factory, begin at the +bottom, stay with it. 'Stick to glue, my boy,' he says; 'become the Glue +King,' and so on. But not with little Willie. Life's too interesting a +proposition to be turned down like that. I'm not repentant. I know the +fatted calf's waiting for me, getting fatter every day. One of these +days I'll go back and sample it." + +It was he I first heard talk of the Great White Land, and it stirred me +strangely. + +"Every one's crazy about it. They're rushing now in thousands, to get +there before the winter begins. Next spring there will be the biggest +stampede the world has ever seen. Say, Scotty, I've the greatest notion +to try it. Let's go, you and I. I had a partner once, who'd been up +there. It's a big, dark, grim land, but there's the gold, shining, +shining, and it's calling us to go. Somehow it haunts me, that soft, +gleamy, virgin gold there in the solitary rivers with not a soul to pick +it up. I don't care one rip for the value of it. I can make all I want +out of glue. But the adventure, the excitement, it's that that makes me +fit for the foolish house." + +He was silent a long time while my imagination conjured up terrible, +fascinating pictures of the vast, unawakened land, and a longing came +over me to dare its shadows. + +As we said good-night, his last words were: + +"Remember, Scotty, we're both going to join the Big Stampede, you and +I." + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +I slept but fitfully, for the night air was nipping, and the bunkhouse +nigh as open as a cage. A bonny morning it was, and the sun warmed me +nicely, so that over breakfast I was in a cheerful humour. Afterwards I +watched the gang labouring, and showed such an injudicious interest that +that afternoon I too was put to work. + +It was very simple. Running into the mountain there was a tunnel, which +they were lining with concrete, and it was the task of I and another to +push cars of the stuff from the outlet to the scene of operations. My +partner was a Swede who had toiled from boyhood, while I had never done +a day's work in my life. It was as much as I could do to lift the loaded +boxes into the car. Then we left the sunshine behind us, and for a +quarter of a mile of darkness we strained in an uphill effort. + +From the roof, which we stooped to avoid, sheets of water descended. +Every now and then the heavy cars would run off the rails, which were of +scantling, worn and frayed by friction. Then my Swede would storm in +Berserker rage, and we would lift till the veins throbbed in my head. +Never had time seemed so long. A convict working in the salt mines of +Siberia did not revolt more against his task than I. The sweat blinded +me; a bright steel pain throbbed in my head; my heart seemed to hammer. +Never so thankful was I as when we had made our last trip, and sick and +dizzy I put on my coat to go home. + +It was dark. There was a cable line running from the tunnel to the camp, +and down this we shot in buckets two at a clip. The descent gave me a +creepy sensation, but it saved a ten minutes' climb down the mountain +side, and I was grateful. + +Tired, wet and dirty, how I envied the Prodigal lying warm and cosy on +his fragrant hay. He was reading a novel. But the thought that I had +earned a dollar comforted me. After supper he, with Ginger and Dutchy, +played solo till near midnight, while I tossed on my bunk too weary and +sore to sleep. + +Next day was a repetition of the first, only worse. I ached as if I had +been beaten. Stiff and sore I dragged myself to the tunnel again. I +lifted, strained, tugged and shoved with a set and tragic face. Five +hours of hell passed. It was noon. I nursed my strength for the after +effort. Angrily I talked to myself, and once more I pulled through. +Weary and slimy with wet mud, I shot down the cable line. Snugly settled +in his bunk, the Prodigal had read another two hundred pages of "Les +Misérables." Yet--I reflected somewhat sadly--I had made two dollars. + +On the third day sheer obstinacy forced me to the tunnel. My +self-respect goaded me on. I would not give in. I must hold this job +down, I _must_, I MUST. Then at the noon hour I fainted. + +No one saw me, so I gritted my teeth and once more threw my weight +against the cars. Once more night found me waiting to descend in the +bucket. Then as I stood there was a crash and shouts from below. The +cable had snapped. My Swede and another lay among the rocks with sorely +broken bones. Poor beggars! how they must have suffered jolting down +that boulder-strewn trail to the hospital. + +Somehow that destroyed my nerve. I blamed myself indeed. I flogged +myself with reproaches, but it was of no avail. I would sooner beg my +bread than face that tunnel once again. The world seemed to be divided +into two parts, the rest of it and that tunnel. Thank God, I didn't +_have_ to go into it again. I was exultantly happy that I didn't. The +Prodigal had finished his book, and was starting another. That night he +borrowed some of my money to play solo with. + +Next day I saw the foreman. I said: + +"I want to go. The work up there's too hard for me." + +He looked at me kindly. + +"All right, sonny," says he, "don't quit. I'll put you in the gravel +pit." + +So next day I found a more congenial task. There were four of us. We +threw the gravel against a screen where the finer stuff that sifted +through was used in making concrete. + +The work was heart-breaking in its monotony. In the biting cold of the +morning we made a start, long before the sun peeped above the wall of +mountain. + +We watched it crawl, snail-like, over the virgin sky. We panted in its +heat. We saw it drop again behind the mountain wall, leaving the sky +gorgeously barred with colour from a tawny orange glow to an ice-pale +green--a regular _pousse café_ of a sunset. Then when the cold and the +dark surged back, by the light of the evening star we straightened our +weary spines, and throwing aside pick and shovel hurried to supper. + +Heigh-ho! what a life it was. Resting, eating, sleeping; negative +pleasures became positive ones. Life's great principle of compensation +worked on our behalf, and to lie at ease, reading an old paper, seemed +an exquisite enjoyment. + +I was much troubled about the Prodigal. He complained of muscular +rheumatism, and except to crawl to meals was unable to leave his bunk. +Every day came the foreman to inquire anxiously if he was fit to go to +work, but steadily he grew worse. Yet he bore his suffering with great +spirit, and, among that nondescript crew, he was a thing of joy and +brightness, a link with that other world which was mine own. They +nicknamed him "Happy," his cheerfulness was so invincible. He played +cards on every chance, and he must have been unlucky, for he borrowed +the last of my small hoard. + +One morning I woke about six, and found, pinned to my blanket, a note +from my friend. + + "Dear Scotty: + + "I grieve to leave you thus, but the cruel foreman insists on me + working off my ten days' board. Racked with pain as I am, there + appears to be no alternative but flight. Accordingly I fade away + once more into the unknown. Will write you general delivery, Los + Angeles. Good luck and good-bye. Yours to a cinder, + + "Happy." + +There was a hue and cry after him, but he was gone, and a sudden disgust +for the place came over me. For two more days I worked, crushed by a +gloom that momently intensified. Clamant and imperative in me was the +voice of change. I could not become toil-broken, so I saw the foreman. + +"Why do you want to go?" he asked reproachfully. + +"Well, sir, the work's too monotonous." + +"Monotonous! Well, that's the rummest reason I ever heard a man give for +quitting. But every man knows his own business best. I'll give you a +time-cheque." + +While he was making it out I wondered if, indeed, I did know my own +business best; but if it had been the greatest folly in the world, I was +bound to get out of that canyon. + +Treasuring the slip of paper representing my labour, I sought one of the +bosses, a sour, stiff man of dyspeptic tendencies. With a smile of +malicious sweetness he returned it to me. + +"All right, take it to our Oakland office, and you'll get the cash." + +Expectantly I had been standing there, thinking to receive my money, the +first I had ever earned (and to me so distressfully earned, at that). +Now I gazed at him very sick at heart: for was not Oakland several +hundred miles away, and I was penniless. + +"Couldn't you cash it here?" I faltered at last. + +"No!" (very sourly). + +"Couldn't you discount it, then?" + +"No!" (still more tartly). + +I turned away, crestfallen and smarting. When I told the other boys they +were indignant, and a good deal alarmed on their own account. I made my +case against the Company as damning as I could, then, slinging my +blankets on my back, set off once more down the canyon. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +I was gaining in experience, and as I hurried down the canyon and the +morning burgeoned like a rose, my spirits mounted invincibly. It was the +joy of the open road and the care-free heart. Like some hideous +nightmare was the memory of the tunnel and the gravel pit. The bright +blood in me rejoiced; my muscles tensed with pride in their toughness; I +gazed insolently at the world. + +So, as I made speed to get the sooner to the orange groves, I almost set +heel on a large blue envelope which lay face up on the trail. I examined +it and, finding it contained plans and specifications of the work we had +been at, I put it in my pocket. + +Presently came a rider, who reined up by me. + +"Say, young man, you haven't seen a blue envelope, have you?" + +Something in the man's manner aroused in me instant resentment. I was +the toiler in mud-stiffened overalls, he arrogant and supercilious in +broadcloth and linen. + +"No," I said sourly, and, going on my way, heard him clattering up the +canyon. + +It was about evening when I came onto a fine large plain. Behind me was +the canyon, gloomy like the lair of some evil beast, while before me the +sun was setting, and made the valley like a sea of golden glaze. I +stood, knight-errant-wise, on the verge of one of those enchanted lands +of precious memory, seeking the princess of my dreams; but all I saw was +a man coming up the trail. He was reeling homeward, with under one arm a +live turkey, and swinging from the other a demijohn of claret. + +He would have me drink. He represented the Christmas spirit, and his +accent was Scotch, so I up-tilted his demijohn gladly enough. Then, for +he was very merry, he would have it that we sing "Auld Lang Syne." So +there, on the heath, in the golden dance of the light, we linked our +hands and lifted our voices like two daft folk. Yet, for that it was +Christmas Eve, it seemed not to be so mad after all. + +There was my first orange grove. I ran to it eagerly, and pulled four of +the largest fruit I could see. They were green-like of rind and bitter +sour, but I heeded not, eating the last before I was satisfied. Then I +went on my way. + +As I entered the town my spirits fell. I remembered I was quite without +money and had not yet learned to be gracefully penniless. However, I +bethought me of the time-cheque, and entering a saloon asked the +proprietor if he would cash it. He was a German of jovial face that +seemed to say: "Welcome, my friend," and cold, beady eyes that queried: +"How much can I get of your wad?" It was his eyes I noticed. + +"No, I don'd touch dot. I haf before been schvindled. Himmel, no! You +take him avay." + +I sank into a chair. Catching a glimpse of my face in a bar mirror, I +wondered if that hollow-cheeked, weary-looking lad was I. The place was +crowded with revellers of the Christmastide, and geese were being diced +for. There were three that pattered over the floor, while in the corner +the stage-driver and a red-haired man were playing freeze-out for one of +them. + +I drowsed quietly. Wafts of bar-front conversation came to me. "Envelope +... lost plans ... great delay." Suddenly I sat up, remembering the +package I had found. + +"Were you looking for some lost plans?" I asked. + +"Yes," said one man eagerly, "did you find them?" + +"I didn't say I did, but if I could get them for you, would you cash +this time-cheque for me?" + +"Sure," he says, "one good turn deserves another. Deliver the goods and +I'll cash your time-cheque." + +His face was frank and jovial. I drew out the envelope and handed it +over. He hurriedly ran through the contents and saw that all were there. + +"Ha! That saves a trip to 'Frisco," he said, gay with relief. + +He turned to the bar and ordered a round of drinks. They all had a drink +on him, while he seemed to forget about me. I waited a little, then +pressed forward with my time-cheque. + +"Oh that," said he, "I won't cash that. I was only joshing." + +A feeling of bitter anger welled up within me. I trembled like a leaf. + +"You won't go back on your word?" I said. + +He became flustered. + +"Well, I can't do it anyway. I've got no loose cash." + +What I would have said or done I know not, for I was nigh desperate; but +at this moment the stage-driver, flushed with his victory at freeze-out, +snatched the paper from my hand. + +"Here, I'll discount that for you. I'll only give you five dollars for +it, though." + +It called for fourteen, but by this time I was so discouraged I gladly +accepted the five-dollar goldpiece he held out to tempt me. + +Thus were my fortunes restored. It was near midnight and I asked the +German for a room. He replied that he was full up, but as I had my +blankets there was a nice dry shed at the back. Alas! it was also used +by his chickens. They roosted just over my head, and I lay on the filthy +floor at the mercy of innumerable fleas. To complete my misery the green +oranges I had eaten gave me agonizing cramps. Glad, indeed, was I when +day dawned, and once more I got afoot, with my face turned towards Los +Angeles. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +Los Angeles will always be written in golden letters in the archives of +my memory. Crawling, sore and sullen, from the clutch of toil, I +revelled in a lotus life of ease and idleness. There was infinite +sunshine, and the quiet of a public library through whose open windows +came the fragrance of magnolias. Living was incredibly cheap. For +seventy-five cents a week I had a little sunlit attic, and for ten cents +I could dine abundantly. There was soup, fish, meat, vegetables, salad, +pudding and a bottle of wine. So reading, dreaming and roaming the +streets, I spent my days in a state of beatitude. + +But even five dollars will not last for ever, and the time came when +once more the grim face of toil confronted me. I must own that I had now +little stomach for hard labour, yet I made several efforts to obtain it. +However, I had a bad manner, being both proud and shy, and one rebuff in +a day always was enough. I lacked that self-confidence that readily +finds employment, and again I found myself mixing with the spineless +residuum of the employment bureau. + +At last the morning came when twenty-five cents was all that remained to +me in the world. I had just been seeking a position as a dish-washer, +and had been rather sourly rejected. Sitting solitary on the bench in +that dreary place, I soliloquized: + +"And so it has come to this, that I, Athol Meldrum, of gentle birth and +Highland breeding, must sue in vain to understudy a scullion in a +third-rate hash joint. I am, indeed, fallen. What mad folly is this that +sets me lower than a menial? Here I might be snug in the Northwest +raising my own fat sheep. A letter home would bring me instant help. Yet +what would it mean? To own defeat; to lose my self-esteem; to call +myself a failure. No, I won't. Come what may, I will play the game." + +At that moment the clerk wrote:-- + + "Man Wanted to Carry Banner." + +"How much do you want for that job?" I asked. + +"Oh, two bits will hold you," he said carelessly. + +"Any experience required?" I asked again. + +"No, I guess even you'll do for that," he answered cuttingly. + +So I parted with my last quarter and was sent to a Sheeny store in +Broadway. Here I was given a vociferous banner announcing: + +"Great retiring sale," and so forth. + +With this hoisted I sallied forth, at first very conscious and not a +little ashamed. Yet by and by this feeling wore off, and I wandered up +and down with no sense of my employment, which, after all, was one +adapted to philosophic thought. I might have gone through the day in +this blissful coma of indifference had not a casual glance at my banner +thrilled me with horror. There it was in hideous, naked letters of red: + + "Retireing Sale." + +I reeled under the shock. I did not mind packing a banner, but a +misspelt one.... + +I hurried back to the store, resolved to throw up my position. Luckily +the day was well advanced, and as I had served my purpose I was given a +silver dollar. + +On this dollar I lived for a month. Not every one has done that, yet it +is easy to do. This is how I managed. + +In the first place I told the old lady who rented me my room that I +could not pay her until I got work, and I gave her my blankets as +security. There remained only the problem of food. This I solved by +buying every day or so five cents' worth of stale bread, which I ate in +my room, washing it down with pure spring water. A little imagination +and lo! my bread was beef, my water wine. Thus breakfast and dinner. For +supper there was the Pacific Gospel Hall, where we gathered nightly one +hundred strong, bawled hymns, listened to sundry good people and +presently were given mugs of coffee and chunks of bread. How good the +fragrant coffee tasted and how sweet the fresh bread! + +At the end of the third week I got work as an orange-picker. It was a +matter of swinging long ladders into fruit-flaunting trees, of sunshiny +days and fluttering leaves, of golden branches plundered, and boxes +filled from sagging sacks. There is no more ideal occupation. I revelled +in it. The others were Mexicans; I was "El Gringo." But on an average I +only made fifty cents a day. On one day, when the fruit was unusually +large, I made seventy cents. + +Possibly I would have gone on, contentedly enough, perched on a ladder, +high up in the sunlit sway of treetops, had not the work come to an end. +I had been something of a financier on a picayune scale, and when I +counted my savings and found that I had four hundred and ninety-five +cents, such a feeling of affluence came over me that I resolved to +gratify my taste for travel. Accordingly I purchased a ticket for San +Diego, and once more found myself southward bound. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +A few days in San Diego reduced my small capital to the vanishing point, +yet it was with a light heart I turned north again and took the All-Tie +route for Los Angeles. If one of the alluring conditions of a walking +tour is not to be overburdened with cash surely I fulfilled it, for I +was absolutely penniless. The Lord looks after his children, said I, and +when I became too inexorably hungry I asked for bread, emphasising my +willingness to do a stunt on the woodpile. Perhaps it was because I was +young and notably a novice in vagrancy, but people were very good to me. + +The railway track skirts the ocean side for many a sonorous league. The +mile-long waves roll in majestically, as straight as if drawn with a +ruler, and crash in thunder on the sandy beach. There were glorious +sunsets and weird storms, with underhanded lightning stabs at the sky. I +built little huts of discarded railway ties, and lit camp-fires, for I +was fearful of the crawling things I saw by day. The coyote called from +the hills. Uneasy rustlings came from the sagebrush. My teeth, +a-chatter with cold, kept me awake, till I cinched a handkerchief around +my chin. Yet, drenched with night-dews, half-starved and travel-worn, I +seemed to grow every day stronger and more fit. Between bondage and +vagabondage I did not hesitate to choose. + +Leaving the sea, I came to a country of grass and she-oaks very pretty +to see, like an English park. I passed horrible tulé swamps, and reached +a cattle land with corrals and solitary cowboys. There was a quaint old +Spanish Mission that lingers in my memory, then once again I came into +the land of the orange-groves and the irrigating ditch. Here I fell in +with two of the hobo fraternity, and we walked many miles together. One +night we slept in a refrigerator car, where I felt as if icicles were +forming on my spine. But walking was not much in their line, so next +morning they jumped a train and we separated. I was very thankful, as +they did not look over-clean, and I had a wholesome horror of +"seam-squirrels." + +On arriving in Los Angeles I went to the Post Office. There was a letter +from the Prodigal dated New York, and inclosing fourteen dollars, the +amount he owed me. He said: + + "I returned to the paternal roof, weary of my rôle. The fatted calf + awaited me. Nevertheless, I am sick again for the unhallowed + swine-husks. Meet me in 'Frisco about the end of February, and I + will a glorious proposition unfold. Don't fail. I must have a + partner and I want you. Look for a letter in the General Delivery." + +There was no time to lose, as February was nearly over. I took a +steerage passage to San Francisco, resolving that I would mend my +fortunes. It is so easy to drift. I was already in the social slough, a +hobo and an outcast. I saw that as long as I remained friendless and +unknown nothing but degraded toil was open to me. Surely I could climb +up, but was it worth while? A snug farm in the Northwest awaited me. I +would work my way back there, and arrive decently clad. Then none would +know of my humiliation. I had been wayward and foolish, but I had +learned something. + +The men who toiled, endured and suffered were kind and helpful, their +masters mean and rapacious. Everywhere was the same sordid grasping for +the dollar. With my ideals and training nothing but discouragement and +defeat would be my portion. Oh, it is so easy to drift! + +I was sick of the whole business. + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +What with steamer fare and a few small debts to settle, I found when I +landed in San Francisco that once more I was flatly broke. I was +arrestively seedy, literally on my uppers, for owing to my long tramp my +boots were barely holding together. There was no letter for me, and +perhaps it was on account of my disappointment, perhaps on account of my +extreme shabbiness, but I found I had quite lost heart. Looking as I +did, I would not ask any one for work. So I tightened my belt and sat in +Portsmouth Square, cursing myself for the many nickels I had squandered +in riotous living. + +Two days later I was still drawing in my belt. All I had eaten was one +meal, which I had earned by peeling half a sack of potatoes for a +restaurant. I slept beneath the floor of an empty house out the Presidio +way. + +On this day I was drowsing on my bench when some one addressed me. + +"Say, young fellow, you look pretty well used up." + +I saw an elderly, grey-haired man. + +"Oh no!" I said, "I'm not. That's just my acting. I'm a millionaire in +disguise, studying sociology." + +He came and sat by me. + +"Come, buck up, kid, you're pretty near down and out. I've been +studyin' you them two days." + +"Two days," I echoed drearily. "It seems like two years." Then, with +sudden fierceness: + +"Sir, I am a stranger to you. Never in my life before have I tried to +borrow money. It is asking a great deal of you to trust me, but it will +be a most Christian act. I am starving. If you have ten cents that isn't +working lend it to me for the love of God. I'll pay you back if it takes +me ten years." + +"All right, son," he said cheerfully; "let's go and feed." + +He took me to a restaurant where he ordered a dinner that made my head +swim. I felt near to fainting, but after I had had some brandy, I was +able to go on with the business of eating. By the time I got to the +coffee I was as much excited by the food as if I had been drinking wine. +I now took an opportunity to regard my benefactor. + +He was rather under medium height, but so square and solid you felt he +was a man to be reckoned with. His skin was as brown as an Indian's, his +eyes light-blue and brightly cheerful, as from some inner light. His +mouth was firm and his chin resolute. Altogether his face was a curious +blend of benevolence and ruthless determination. + +Now he was regarding me in a manner entirely benevolent. + +"Feel better, son? Well, go ahead an' tell me as much of your story as +you want to." + +I gave an account of all that had happened to me since I had set foot +on the new land. + +"Huh!" he ejaculated when I had finished. "That's the worst of your +old-country boys. You haven't got the get-up an' nerve to rustle a job. +You go to a boss an' tell him: 'You've no experience, but you'll do your +best.' An American boy says: 'I can do anything. Give me the job an' +I'll just show you.' Who's goin' to be hired? Well, I think I can get +you a job helpin' a gardener out Alameda way." + +I expressed my gratitude. + +"That's all right," he said; "I'm glad by the grace of God I've been the +means of givin' you a hand-up. Better come to my room an' stop with me +till somethin' turns up. I'm goin' North in three days." + +I asked if he was going to the Yukon. + +"Yes, I'm goin' to join this crazy rush to the Klondike. I've been +minin' for twenty years, Arizona, Colorado, all over, an' now I am +a-goin' to see if the North hasn't got a stake for me." + +Up in his room he told me of his life. + +"I'm saved by the grace of God, but I've been a Bad Man. I've been +everything from a city marshal to boss gambler. I have gone heeled for +two years, thinking to get my pass to Hell at any moment." + +"Ever killed any one?" I queried. + +He was beginning to pace up and down the room. + +"Glory to God, I haven't, but I've shot.... There was a time when I +could draw a gun an' drive a nail in the wall. I was quick, but there +was lots that could give me cards and spades. Quiet men, too, you would +never think it of 'em. The quiet ones was the worst. Meek, friendly, +decent men, to see them drinkin' at a bar, but they didn't know Fear, +an' every one of 'em had a dozen notches on his gun. I know lots of +them, chummed with them, an' princes they were, the finest in the land, +would give the shirts off their backs for a friend. You'd like them--but +Lord be praised, I'm a saved man." + +I was deeply interested. + +"I know I'm talking as I shouldn't. It's all over now, an' I've seen the +evil of my ways, but I've got to talk once in a while. I'm Jim Hubbard, +known as 'Salvation Jim,' an' I know minin' from Genesis to Revelation. +Once I used to gamble an' drink the limit. One morning I got up from the +card-table after sitting there thirty-six hours. I'd lost five thousand +dollars. I knew they'd handed me out 'cold turkey,' but I took my +medicine. + +"Right then I said I'd be a crook too. I learned to play with marked +cards. I could tell every card in the deck. I ran a stud-poker game, +with a Jap an' a Chinaman for partners. They were quicker than white +men, an' less likely to lose their nerve. It was easy money, like taking +candy from a kid. Often I would play on the square. No man can bluff +strong without showing it. Maybe it's just a quiver of the eyelash, +maybe a shuffle of the foot. I've studied a man for a month till I found +the sign that gave him away. Then I've raised an' raised him till the +sweat pricked through his brow. He was my meat. I went after the men +that robbed me, an' I went one better. Here, shuffle this deck." + +He produced a pack of cards from a drawer. + +"I'll never go back to the old trade. I'm saved. I trust in God, but +just for diversion I keep my hand in." + +Talking to me, he shuffled the pack a few times. + +"Here, I'm dealing; what do you want? Three kings?" + +I nodded. + +He dealt four hands. In mine there were three kings. + +Taking up another he showed me three aces. + +"I'm out of practice," he said apologetically. "My hands are calloused. +I used to keep them as soft as velvet." + +He showed me some false shuffles, dealing from under the deck, and other +tricks. + +"Yes, I got even with the ones that got my money. It was eat or be +eaten. I went after the suckers. There was never a man did me dirt but I +paid him with interest. Of course, it's different now. The Good Book +says: 'Do good unto them that harm you.' I guess I would, but I wouldn't +recommend no one to try and harm me. I might forget." + +The heavy, aggressive jaw shot forward; the eyes gleamed with a fearless +ferocity, and for a moment the man took on an air that was almost +tigerish. I could scarce believe my sight; yet the next instant it was +the same cheerful, benevolent face, and I thought my eyes must have +played me some trick. + +Perhaps it was that sedate Puritan strain in me that appealed to him, +but we became great friends. We talked of many things, and most of all I +loved to get him to tell of his early life. It was just like a story: +thrown on the world while yet a child; a shoeblack in New York, fighting +for his stand; a lumber-jack in the woods of Michigan; lastly a miner in +Arizona. He told me of long months on the desert with only his pipe for +company, talking to himself over the fire at night, and trying not to go +crazy. He told me of the girl he married and worshipped, and of the man +who broke up his home. Once more I saw that flitting tiger-look appear +on his face and vanish immediately. He told me of his wild days. + +"I was always a fighter, an' I never knew what fear meant. I never saw +the man that could beat me in a rough-an'-tumble scrap. I was uncommon +husky an' as quick as a cat, but it was my fierceness that won out for +me. Get a man down an' give him the leather. I've kicked a man's face to +a jelly. It was kick, bite an' gouge in them days--anything went. + +"Yes, I never knew fear. I've gone up unarmed to a man I knew was heeled +to shoot me on sight, an' I've dared him to do it. Just by the power of +the eye I've made him take water. He thought I had a gun an' could draw +quicker'n him. Then, as the drink got hold of me, I got worse and worse. +Time was when I would have robbed a bank an' shot the man that tried to +stop me. Glory to God! I've seen the evil of my ways." + +"Are you sure you'll never backslide?" I asked. + +"Never! I'm born again. I don't smoke, drink or gamble, an' I'm as happy +as the day's long. There was the drink. I would go on the water-wagon +for three months at a stretch, but day and night, wherever I went, the +glass of whisky was there right between my eyes. Sooner or later it got +the better of me. Then one night I went half-sober into a Gospel Hall. +The glass was there, an' I was in agony tryin' to resist it. The speaker +was callin' sinners to come forward. I thought I'd try the thing anyway, +so I went to the penitents' bench. When I got up the glass was gone. Of +course it came back, but I got rid of it again in the same way. Well, I +had many a struggle an' many a defeat, but in the end I won. It's a +divine miracle." + +I wish I could paint or act the man for you. Words cannot express his +curious character. I came to have a great fondness for him, and +certainly owed him a huge debt of gratitude. + +One day I was paying my usual visit to the Post Office, when some one +gripped me by the arm. + +"Hullo, Scotty! By all that's wonderful. I was just going to mail you a +letter." + +It was the Prodigal, very well dressed and spruce-looking. + +"Say, I'm so tickled I got you; we're going to start in two days." + +"Start! Where?" I asked. + +"Why, for the Golden North, for the land of the Midnight Sun, for the +treasure-troves of the Klondike Valley." + +"You maybe," I said soberly; "but I can't." + +"Yes you can, and you are, old sport. I fixed all that. Come on, I want +to talk to you. I went home and did the returned prodigal stunt. The old +man was mighty decent when I told him it was no good, I couldn't go into +the glue factory yet awhile. Told him I had the gold-bug awful bad and +nothing but a trip up there would cure me. He was rather tickled with +the idea. Staked me handsomely, and gave me a year to make good. So here +I am, and you're in with me. I'm going to grubstake you. Mind, it's a +business proposition. I've got to have some one, and when you make the +big strike you've got to divvy up." + +I said something about having secured employment as an under-gardener. + +"Pshaw! you'll soon be digging gold-nuggets instead of potatoes. Why, +man, it's the chance of a lifetime, and anybody else would jump at it. +Of course, if you're afraid of the hardships and so on----" + +"No," I said quickly, "I'll go." + +"Ha!" he laughed, "you're too much of a coward to be afraid. Well, we're +going to be blighted Argonauts, but we've got to get busy over our +outfits. We haven't got any too much time." + +So we hustled around. It seemed as if half of San Francisco was +Klondike-crazy. On every hand was there speculation and excitement. All +the merchants had their outfitting departments, and wild and vague were +their notions as to what was required. We did not do so badly, though +like every one else we bought much that was worthless and foolish. +Suddenly I bethought me of Salvation Jim, and I told the Prodigal of my +new friend. + +"He's an awfully good sort," I said; "white all through; all kinds of +experience, and he's going alone." + +"Why," said the Prodigal, "that's just the man we want. We'll ask him to +join us." + +I brought the two together, and it was arranged. So it came about that +we three left San Francisco on the fourth day of March to seek our +fortunes in the Frozen North. + + + + +BOOK II + +THE TRAIL + + +Gold! We leaped from our benches. Gold! We sprang from our stools. +Gold! We wheeled in the furrow, fired with the faith of fools. +Fearless, unfound, unfitted, far from the night and the cold, +Heard we the clarion summons, followed the master-lure--Gold! + + + + +CHAPTER I + + +"Say! you're looking mighty blue. Cheer up, darn you! What's the +matter?" said the Prodigal affectionately. + +And indeed there was matter enough, for had I not just received letters +from home, one from Garry and one from Mother? Garry's was gravely +censorious, almost remonstrant. Mother, he said, was poorly, and greatly +put out over my escapade. He pointed out that I was in a fair way of +being a rolling stone, and hoped that I would at once give up my mad +notion of the South Seas and soberly proceed to the Northwest. + +Mother's letter was reproachful, in parts almost distressful. She was +failing, she said, and she begged me to be a good son, give up my +wanderings and join my cousin at once. Also she enclosed post-office +orders for forty pounds. Her letter, written in a fine faltering hand +and so full of gentle affection, brought the tears to my eyes; so that +it was very bleakly I leaned against the ship's rail and watched the +bustle of departure. Poor Mother! Dear old Garry! With what tender +longing I thought of those two in far-away Glengyle, the Scotch mist +silvering the heather and the wind blowing caller from the sea. Oh, for +the clean, keen breath of it! Yet alas, every day was the memory +fading, and every day was I fitting more snugly into the new life. + +"I've just heard from the folks," I said, "and I feel like going back on +you." + +"Oh, beat it," he cried; "you can't renig now. You've got to see the +thing through. Mothers are all like that when you cut loose from their +apron-strings. Ma's scared stiff about me, thinks the devil's got an +option on my future sure. They get wised up pretty soon. What you want +to do is to get busy and make yourself acquainted. Here I've been +snooping round for the last two hours, and got a line on nearly every +one on board. Say! Of all the locoed outfits this here aggregation has +got everything else skinned to a hard-boiled finish. Most of them are +indoor men, ink-slingers and calico snippers; haven't done a day's hard +work in their lives, and don't know a pick from a mattock. They've got a +notion they've just got to get up there and pick big nuggets out of the +water like cherries out of a cocktail. It's the limit." + +"Tell me about them," I said. + +"Well, see that young fellow standing near us?" + +I looked. He was slim, with gentle, refined features and an unnaturally +fresh complexion. + +"That fellow was a pen-pusher in a mazuma emporium--I mean a bank clerk. +Pinklove's his name. He wanted to get hitched to some girl, but the +directors wouldn't stand for it. Now he's chucked his job and staked his +savings on this trip. There's his girl in the crowd." + +Bedded in that mosaic of human faces I saw one that was all sweetness, +yet shamelessly tear-stained. + +"Lucky beggar," I said, "to have some one who cares so much about his +going." + +"Unlucky, you mean, lad. You don't want to have any strings on you when +you play this game." + +He pointed to a long-haired young man in a flowing-end tie. + +"See that pale-faced, artistic-looking guy alongside him. That's his +partner. Ineffectual, moony sort of a mut. He's a wood-carver; they call +him Globstock; told me his knowledge of wood-carving would come in handy +when we came to make boats at Lake Bennett. Then there's a third. See +that little fellow shooting off his face?" + +I saw a weazened, narrow-chested mannikin, with an aggressive certainty +of feature. + +"He's a professor, plumb-full of book dope on the Yukon. He's Mister +Wise Mike. He knows it all. Hear his monologue on 'How It Should Be +Done.' He's going to live on deck to inure himself to the rigours of the +Arctic climate. Works with a pair of spring dumb-bells to get up his +muscle so's he can shovel out the nuggets." + +Our eyes roved round from group to group, picking out characteristic +figures. + +"See that big bleached-blond Englishman? Came over with me on the +Pullman from New York. 'Awfully bored, don't you know.' When we got to +'Frisco, he says to me: 'Thank God, old chappie, the worst part of the +journey's over.' Then there's Romulus and Remus, the twins, strapping +young fellows. Only way I know them apart is one laces his boots tight, +the other slack. They think the world of each other." + +He swung around to where Salvation Jim was talking to two men. + +"There's a pair of winners. I put my money on them. Nothing on earth can +stop those fellows, native-born Americans, all grit and get-up. See that +tall one smoking a cigar and looking at the women? He's an athlete. +Name's Mervin; all whipcord and whalebone; springy as a bent bow. He's a +type of the Swift. He's bound to get there. See the other. Hewson's his +name; solid as a tower; muscled like a bear; built from the ground up. +He represents the Strong. Look at the grim, determined face of him. You +can't down a man like that." + +He indicated another group. + +"Now there's three birds of prey. Bullhammer, Marks and Mosher. The big, +pig-eyed heavy-jowled one is Bullhammer. He's in the saloon business. +The middle-sized one in the plug hat is Marks. See his oily, yellow face +dotted with pimples. He's a phoney piece of work; calls himself a mining +broker. The third's Jake Mosher. He's an out-and-out gambler, a +sure-thing man, once was a parson." + +I looked again. Mosher had just taken off his hat. His high-domed head +was of monumental baldness, his eyes close-set and crafty, his nose +negligible. The rest of his face was mostly beard. It grew black as the +Pit to near the bulge of his stomach, and seemed to have drained his +scalp in its rank luxuriance. Across the deck came the rich, oily tones +of his voice. + +"A bad-looking bunch," I said. + +"Yes, there's heaps like them on board. There's a crowd of dance-hall +girls going up, and the usual following of parasites. Look at that +Halfbreed. There's a man for the country now, part Scotch, part Indian; +the quietest man on the boat; light, but tough as wire nails." + +I saw a lean, bright-eyed brown man with flat features, smoking a +cigarette. + +"Say! Just get next to those two Jews, Mike and Rebecca Winklestein. +They're going to open up a sporty restaurant." + +The man was a small bandy-legged creature, with eyes that squinted, a +complexion like ham fat and waxed moustaches. But it was the woman who +seized my attention. Never did I see such a strapping Amazon, six foot +if an inch, and massive in proportion. She was handsome too, in a +swarthy way, though near at hand her face was sensuous and bold. Yet she +had a suave, flattering manner and a coarse wit that captured the crowd. +Dangerous, unscrupulous and cruel, I thought; a man-woman, a shrew, a +termagant! + +But I was growing weary of the crowd and longed to go below. I was no +longer interested, yet the voice of the Prodigal droned in my ear. + +"There's an old man and his granddaughter, relatives of the +Winklesteins, I believe. I think the old fellow's got a screw loose. +Handsome old boy, though; looks like a Hebrew prophet out of a job. +Comes from Poland. Speaks Yiddish or some such jargon; Only English he +knows is 'Klondike, Klondike.' The girl looks heartbroken, poor little +beggar." + +"Poor little beggar!" I heard the words indeed, but my mind was far +away. To the devil with Polish Jews and their granddaughters. I wished +the Prodigal would leave me to my own thoughts, thoughts of my Highland +home and my dear ones. But no! he persisted: + +"You're not listening to what I'm saying. Look, why don't you!" + +So, to please him, I turned full round and looked. An old man, +patriarchal in aspect, crouched on the deck. Erect by his side, with her +hand on his shoulder, stood a slim figure in black, the figure of a +girl. Indifferently my eyes travelled from her feet to her face. There +they rested. I drew a deep breath. I forgot everything else. Then for +the first time I saw--Berna. + +I will not try to depict the girl. Pen descriptions are so futile. I +will only say that her face was very pale, and that she had large +pathetic grey eyes. For the rest, her cheeks were woefully pinched and +her lips drooped wistfully. 'Twas the face, I thought, of a virgin +martyr with a fear-haunted look hard to forget. All this I saw, but most +of all I saw those great, grey eyes gazing unseeingly over the crowd, +ever so sadly fixed on that far-away East of her dreams and memories. + +"Poor little beggar!" + +Then I cursed myself for a sentimental impressionist and I went below. +Stateroom forty-seven was mine. We three had been separated in the +shuffle, and I knew not who was to be my room-mate. Feeling very +downhearted, I stretched myself on the upper berth, and yielded to a +mood of penitential sadness. I heard the last gang-plank thrown off, the +great crowd cheer, the measured throb of the engines, yet still I +sounded the depths of reverie. There was a bustle outside and growing +darkness. Then, as I lay, there came voices to my door, guttural tones +blended with liquid ones; lastly a timid knock. Quickly I answered it. + +"Is this room number forty-seven?" a soft voice asked. + +Even ere she spoke I divined it was the Jewish girl of the grey eyes, +and now I saw her hair was like a fair cloud, and her face fragile as a +flower. + +"Yes," I answered her. + +She led forward the old man. + +"This is my grandfather. The Steward told us this was his room." + +"Oh, all right; he'd better take the lower berth." + +"Thank you, indeed; he's an old man and not very strong." + +Her voice was clear and sweet, and there was an infinite tenderness in +the tone. + +"You must come in," I said. "I'll leave you with him for a while so +that you can make him comfortable." + +"Thank you again," she responded gratefully. + +So I withdrew, and when I returned she was gone; but the old man slept +peacefully. + +It was late before I turned in. I went on deck for a time. We were +cleaving through blue-black night, and on our right I could dimly +discern the coast festooned by twinkling lights. Every one had gone +below, I thought, and the loneliness pleased me. I was very quiet, +thinking how good it all was, the balmy wind, the velvet vault of the +night frescoed with wistful stars, the freedom-song of the sea; how +restful, how sane, how loving! + +Suddenly I heard a sound of sobbing, the merciless sobbing of a woman's +breast. Distinct above the hollow breathing of the sea it assailed me, +poignant and insistent. Wonderingly I looked around. Then, in a shadow +of the upper deck, I made out a slight girl-figure, crouching all alone. +It was Grey Eyes, crying fit to break her heart. + +"Poor little beggar!" I muttered. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +"Gr-r-r--you little brat! If you open your face to him I'll kill you, +kill you, see!" + +The voice was Madam Winklestein's, and the words, hissed in a whisper of +incredible malignity, arrested me as if I had been struck by a live +wire. I listened. Behind the stateroom door there followed a silence, +grimly intense; then a dull pounding; then the same savage undertone. + +"See here, Berna, we're next to you two--we're onto your curves. We know +the old man's got the stuff in his gold-belt, two thousand in bills. +Now, my dear, my sweet little angel what thinks she's too good to mix +with the likes o' us, we need the mon, see!" (Knock, knock.) "And we're +goin' to have it, see!" (Knock, knock.) "That's where you come in, +honey, you're goin' to get it for us. Ain't you now, darlin'!" (Knock, +knock, knock.) + +Faintly, very faintly, I heard a voice: + +"No." + +If it be possible to scream in a whisper, the woman did it. + +"You will! you will! Oh! oh! oh! There's the cursed mule spirit of your +mother in you. She'd never tell us the name of the man that was the ruin +of 'er, blast 'er." + +"Don't speak of my mother, you vile woman!" + +The voice of the virago contracted to an intensity of venom I have +never heard the equal of. + +"Vile woman! Vile woman! You, you to call _me_ a vile woman, me that's +been three times jined in holy wedlock.... Oh, you bastard brat! You +whelp of sin! You misbegotten scum! Oh, I'll fix you for that, if I've +got to swing for it." + +Her scalding words were capped with an oath too foul to repeat, and once +more came the horrible pounding, like a head striking the woodwork. +Unable to bear it any longer, I rapped sharply on the door. + +Silence, a long, panting silence; then the sound of a falling body; then +the door opened a little and the twitching face of Madam appeared. + +"Is there somebody sick?" I asked. "I'm sorry to trouble you, but I was +thinking I heard groans and--I might be able to do something." + +Piercingly she looked at me. Her eyes narrowed to slits and stabbed me +with their spite. Her dark face grew turgid with impotent anger. As I +stood there she was like to have killed me. Then like a flash her +expression changed. With a dirty bejewelled hand she smoothed her +tousled hair. Her coarse white teeth gleamed in a gold-capped smile. +There was honey in her tone. + +"Why, no! my niece in here's got a toothache, but I guess we can fix it +between us. We don't need no help, thanks, young feller." + +"Oh, that's all right," I said. "If you should, you know, I'll be +nearby." + +Then I moved away, conscious that her eyes followed me malevolently. + +The business worried me sorely. The poor girl was being woefully abused, +that was plain. I felt indignant, angry and, last of all, anxious. +Mingled with my feelings was a sense of irritation that I should have +been elected to overhear the affair. I had no desire just then to +champion distressed damsels, least of all to get mixed up in the family +brawls of unknown Jewesses. Confound her, anyway! I almost hated her. +Yet I felt constrained to watch and wait, and even at the cost of my own +ease and comfort to prevent further violence. + +For that matter there were all kinds of strange doings on board, +drinking, gambling, nightly orgies and hourly brawls. It seemed as if we +had shipped all the human dregs of the San Francisco deadline. Never, I +believe, in those times when almost daily the Argonaut-laden boats were +sailing for the Golden North, was there one in which the sporting +element was so dominant. The social hall reeked with patchouli and stale +whiskey. From the staterooms came shrill outbursts of popular melody, +punctuated with the popping of champagne corks. Dance-hall girls, +babbling incoherently, reeled in the passageways, danced on the cabin +table, and were only held back from licentiousness by the restraint of +their bullies. The day was one long round of revelry, and the night was +pregnant with sinister sound. + +Already among the better element a moral secession was apparent. +Convention they had left behind with their boiled shirts and their +store clothes, and crazed with the idea of speedy fortune, they were +even now straining at the leash of decency. It was a howling mob, +elately riotous, and already infected by the virus of the goldophobia. + +Oh, it was good to get on deck of a night, away from this saturnalia, to +watch the beacon stars strewn vastly in the skyey uplift, to listen to +the ancient threnody of the outcast sea. Blue and silver the nights +were, and crystal clear, with a keen wind that painted the cheek and +kindled the eye. And as I sat in silent thought there came to me +Salvation Jim. His face was grim, his eyes brooding. From the +brilliantly lit social hall came a blare of music-hall melody. + +"I don't like the way of things a bit," he said; "I don't like it. Look +here now, lad, I've lived round mining camps for twenty years, I've +followed the roughest callings on earth, I've tramped the States all +over, yet never have I seen the beat of this. Mind you, I ain't +prejudiced, though I've seen the error of my ways, glory to God! I can +make allowance once in a while for the boys gettin' on a jamboree, but +by Christmas! Say! There's enough evil on this boat to stake a +sub-section in Hell. There's men should be at home with their dinky +little mothers an' their lovin' wives an' children, down there right now +in that cabin buyin' wine for them painted Jezebels. + +"There's doctors an' lawyers an' deacons in the church back in old Ohio, +that never made a bad break in their lives, an' now they're rowin' like +barroom bullies for the kisses of a baggage. In the bay-window of their +souls the devil lolls an' grins an' God is freezin' in the attic. You +mark my words, boy; there's a curse on this northern gold. The Yukon's +a-goin' to take its toll. You mark my words." + +"Oh, Jim," I said, "you're superstitious." + +"No, I ain't. I've just got a hunch. Here we are a bit of floatin' +iniquity glidin' through the mystery of them strange seas, an' the very +officers on dooty sashed to the neck an' reekin' from the arms of the +scented hussies below. It'll be God's mercy if we don't crash on a rock, +an' go down good an' all to the bitter bottom. But it don't matter. +Sooner or later there's goin' to be a reckonin'. There's many a one +shoutin' an' singin' to-night'll leave his bones to bleach up in that +bleak wild land." + +"No, Jim," I protested, "they will be all right once they get ashore." + +"Right nothin'! They're a pack of fools. They think they've got a bulge +on fortune. Hear them a-howlin' now. They're all millionaires in their +minds. There's no doubt with them. It's a cinch. They're spendin' it +right now. You mark my words, young feller, for I'll never live to see +them fulfilled--there's ninety in a hundred of all them fellers that's +goin' to this here Klondike will never make good, an' of the other ten, +nine won't _do_ no good." + +"One per cent. that will keep their stakes--that's absurd, Jim." + +"Well, you'll see. An' as for me, I feel as sure as God's above us +guidin' us through the mazes of the night, I'll never live to make the +trip back. I've got a hunch. Old Jim's on his last stampede." + +He sighed, then said sharply: + +"Did you see that feller that passed us?" + +It was Mosher, the gambler and ex-preacher. + +"That man's a skunk, a renegade sky-pilot. I'm keepin' tabs on that man. +Maybe him an' me's got a score to settle one of them days. Maybe." + +He went off abruptly, leaving me to ponder long over his gloomy words. + +We were now three days out. The weather was fine, and nearly every one +was on deck in the sunshine. Even Bullhammer, Marks and Mosher had +deserted the card-room for a time. The Bank clerk and the Wood-carver +talked earnestly, planned and dreamed. The Professor was busy expounding +a theory of the gold origin to a party of young men from Minnesota. +Silent and watchful the athletic Mervin smoked his big cigar, while, +patient and imperturbable, the iron Hewson chewed stolidly. The twins +were playing checkers. The Winklesteins were making themselves solid +with the music-hall clique. In and out among the different groups darted +the Prodigal, as volatile as a society reporter at a church bazaar. And +besides these, always alone, austerely aloof as if framed in a picture +by themselves, a picture of dignity and sweetness, were the Jewish maid +and her aged grandfather. + +Although he was my room-mate I had seen but little of him. He was abed +before I retired and I was up and out ere he awoke. For the rest I +avoided the two because of their obvious connection with the +Winklesteins. Surely, thought I, she cannot be mixed up with those two +and be everything that's all right. Yet there was something in the +girl's clear eyes, and in the old man's fine face, that reproached me +for my doubt. + +It was while I was thus debating, and covertly studying the pair, that +something occurred. + +Bullhammer and Marks were standing by me, and across the deck came the +acridly nasal tones of the dance-hall girls. I saw the libertine eyes of +Bullhammer rove incontinently from one unlovely demirep to another, till +at last they rested on the slender girl standing by the side of her +white-haired grandfather. Appreciatively he licked his lips. + +"Say, Monkey, who's the kid with old Whiskers there?" + +"Search me, Pete," said Marks; "want a knockdown?" + +"Betcher! Seems kind-a standoffish, though, don't she?" + +"Standoffish be darned! Never yet saw the little bit of all right that +could stand off Sam Marks. I'm a winner, I am, an' don' you forget it. +Just watch my splash." + +I must say the man was expensively dressed in a flashy way. His oily, +pimple-garnished face wreathed itself in a smirk of patronising +familiarity, and with the bow of a dancing master he advanced. I saw her +give a quick start, bite her lip and shrink back. "Good for you, little +girl," I thought. But the man was in no way put out. + +"Say, Sis, it's all right. Just want to interdooce you to a gentleman +fren' o' mine." + +The girl gazed at him, and her dilated eyes were eloquent of fear and +distrust. It minded me of the panic of a fawn run down by the hunter, so +that I found myself trembling in sympathy. A startled moment she gazed; +then swiftly she turned her back. + +This was too much for Marks. He flushed angrily. + +"Say! what's the matter with you? Come off the perch there. Ain't we +good enough to associate with you? Who the devil are you, anyhow?" + +His face was growing red and aggressive. He closed in on her. He laid a +rough hand on her shoulder. Thinking the thing had gone far enough I +stepped forward to interfere, when the unexpected happened. + +Suddenly the old man had risen to his feet, and it was a surprise to me +how tall he was. Into his face there had come the ghost of ancient power +and command. His eyes blazed with wrath, and his clenched fist was +raised high in anathema. Then it came swiftly down on the head of Marks, +crushing his stiff hat tightly over his eyes. + +The climax was ludicrous in a way. There was a roar of laughter, and +hearing it Marks spluttered as he freed himself. With a curse of rage he +would have rushed the old man, but a great hand seized him by the +shoulder. It was the grim, taciturn Hewson, and judging by the way his +captive squirmed, his grip must have been peculiarly vise-like. The old +man was pale as death, the girl crying, the passengers crowding round. +Every one was gabbling and curious, so feeling I could do no good, I +went below. + +What was there about this slip of a girl that interested me so? Ever and +anon I found myself thinking of her. Was it the conversation I had +overheard? Was it the mystery that seemed to surround her? Was it the +irrepressible instinct of my heart for the romance of life? With the old +man, despite our stateroom propinquity, I had made no advances. With the +girl I had passed no further words. + +But the Gods of destiny act in whimsical ways. Doubtless the voyage +would have finished without the betterment of our acquaintance; +doubtless our paths would have parted, nevermore to cross; doubtless our +lives would have been lived out to their fulness and this story never +have been told--had it not been for the luckless fatality of the Box of +Grapes. + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +Puget Sound was behind us and we had entered on that great sea that +stretched northward to the Arctic barrens. Misty and wet was the wind, +and cold with the kiss of many icebergs. Under a grey sky, glooming to +purple, the gelid water writhed nakedly. Spectral islands elbowed each +other, to peer at us as we flitted past. Still more wraithlike the +mainland, fringed to the sea foam with saturnine pine, faded away into +fastnesses of impregnable desolation. There was a sense of deathlike +passivity in the land, of overwhelming vastitude, of unconquerable +loneliness. It was as if I had felt for the first time the Spirit of the +Wild; the Wild where God broods amid His silence; the Wild, His infinite +solace and His sanctuary. + +As we forged through the vague sea lanes, we were like a glittering +trinket on the bosom of the night. Our mad merriment scarce ever abated. +We were a blare of revelry and a blaze of light. Excitement mounted to +fever heat. In the midst of it the women with the enamelled cheeks +reaped a bountiful harvest. I marvel now that, with all the besotted +recklessness of those that were our pilots, we met with no serious +mishap. + +"Don't mind you much of a Sunday-school picnic, does it?" commented the +Prodigal. "It's fierce the way the girls are prying some of these crazy +jays loose from their wads. They're all plumb batty. I'm tired trying to +wise them up. 'Go and chase yourself,' they say; 'we're all right. Don't +matter if we do loosen up a bit now, there's all kinds of easy money +waiting for us up there.' Then they talk of what they're going to do +when they've got the dough. One gazebo wants to buy a castle in the old +country; another wants a racing stable; another a steam yacht. Oh, +they're a hot bunch of sports. They're all planning to have a purple +time in the sweet by-and-bye. I don't hear any of them speak of endowing +a home for decrepit wash-ladies or pensioning off their aged +grandmothers. They make me sick. There's a cold juicy awakening coming." + +He was right. In their visionary leaps to affluence they soared to giddy +heights. They strutted and bragged as if the millions were already +theirs. To hear them, you would think they had an exclusive option on +the treasure-troves of the Klondike. Yet, before and behind us, were +dozens of similar vessels, bearing just as eager a mob of +fortune-hunters, all drawn irresistibly northward by the Golden Magnet. + +Nevertheless, it was hard not to be affected by the prevailing spirit of +optimism. For myself the gold had but little attraction, but the +adventure was very dear to my heart. Once more the clarion call of +Romance rang in my ears, and I leapt to its summons. And indeed, I +reflected, it was a wonderful kaleidoscope of a world, wherein I, but a +half-year back cooling my heels in a highland burn, should be now part +and parcel of this great Argonaut army. Already my native uncouthness +was a thing of the past, and the quaint mannerisms of my Scots tongue +were yielding to the racy slang of the frontier. More to the purpose, +too, I was growing in strength and wiry endurance. As I looked around me +I realised that there were many less fitted for the trail than I, and +there was none with such a store of glowing health. You may picture me +at this time, a tallish young man, with a fine colour in my cheeks, +black hair that curled crisply, and dark eyes that were either alight +with eagerness or agloom with dreams. + +I have said that we were all more or less in a ferment of excitement, +but to this I must make a reservation. One there was who, amid all our +unrest, remained cold, distant and alien--the Jewish girl, Berna. Even +in the old man the gold fever betrayed itself in a visionary eye and a +tremor of the lips; but the girl was a statue of patient resignation, a +living reproof to our febrile and purblind imaginings. + +The more I studied her, the more out of place she seemed in my picture, +and, almost unconsciously, I found myself weaving about her a fabric of +romance. I endowed her with a mystery that piqued and fascinated me, yet +without it I have no doubt I would have been attracted to her. I longed +to know her uncommon well, to win her regard, to do something for her +that should make her eyes rest very kindly on me. In short, as is the +way of young men, I was beginning to grope blindly for that affection +and sympathy which are the forerunners of passion and love. + +The land was wintry and the wind shrilled so that the attendant gulls +flapped their wings hard in the face of it. The wolf-pack of the sea +were snarling whitely as they ran. The decks were deserted, and so many +of the brawlers were sick and lay like dead folk that it almost seemed +as if a Sabbath quiet lay on the ship. That day I had missed the old +man, and on going below, found him lying as one sore stricken. A +withered hand lay on his brow, and from his lips, which were almost +purple, thin moans issued. + +"Poor old beggar," I thought; "I wonder if I cannot do anything for +him." And while I was thus debating, a timid knock came to the door. I +opened it, and there was the girl, Berna. + +There was a nervous anxiety in her manner, and a mute interrogation in +her grey eyes. + +"I'm afraid he's a little sick to-day," I said gently; "but come in, +won't you, and see him?" + +"Thank you." Pity, tenderness and love seemed to struggle in her face as +she softly brushed past me. With some words of endearment, she fell on +her knees beside him, and her small white hand sought his thin gnarled +one. As if galvanised into life, the old man turned gratefully to her. + +"Maybe he would care for some coffee," I said. "I think I could rustle +him some." + +She gave me a queer, sad look of thanks. + +"If you could," she answered. + +When I returned she had the old man propped up with pillows. She took +the coffee from me, and held the cup to his lips; but after a few sips +he turned away wearily. + +"I'm afraid he doesn't care for that," I said. + +"No, I'm afraid he won't take it." + +She was like an anxious nurse hovering over a patient. She thought a +while. + +"Oh, if I only had some fruit!" + +Then it was I bethought me of the box of grapes. I had bought them just +before leaving, thinking they would be a grateful surprise to my +companions. Obviously I had been inspired, and now I produced them in +triumph, big, plump, glossy fellows, buried in the fragrant cedar dust. +I shook clear a large bunch, and once more we tried the old man. It +seemed as if we had hit on the one thing needful, for he ate eagerly. +She watched him for a while with a growing sense of relief, and when he +had finished and was resting quietly, she turned to me. + +"I don't know how I can thank you, sir, for your kindness." + +"Very easily," I said quickly; "if you will yourself accept some of the +fruit, I shall be more than repaid." + +She gave me a dubious look; then such a bright, merry light flashed into +her eyes that she was radiant in my sight. It was as if half a dozen +years had fallen from her, revealing a heart capable of infinite joy and +happiness. + +"If you will share them with me," she said simply. + +So, for the lack of chairs, we squatted on the narrow stateroom floor, +under the old man's kindly eye. The fruit minded us of sunlit vines, and +the careless rapture of the South. To me the situation was one of rare +charm. She ate daintily, and as we talked, I studied her face as if I +would etch it on my memory forever. + +In particular I noticed the wistful contour of her cheek, her sensitive +mouth, and the fine modelling of her chin. She had clear, candid eyes +and sweeping lashes, too. Her ears were shell-like, and her hair soft, +wavy and warm. These things I marked minutely, thinking she was more +than beautiful--she was even pretty. I was in a state of extraordinary +elation, like a man that has found a jewel in the mire. + +It must be remembered, lest I appear to be taking a too eager interest +in the girl, that up till now the world of woman had been _terra +incognita_ to me; that I had lived a singularly cloistered life, and +that first and last I was an idealist. This girl had distinction, +mystery and charm, and it is not to be wondered at that I found a joy in +her presence. I proved myself a perfect artesian well of conversation, +talking freely of the ship, of our fellow-passengers and of the chances +of the venture. I found her wonderfully quick in the uptake. Her mind +seemed nimbly to outrun mine, and she divined my words ere I had them +uttered. Yet she never spoke of herself, and when I left them together I +was full of uneasy questioning. + +Next day the old man was still abed, and again the girl came to visit +him. This time I noticed that much of her timid manner was gone, and in +its stead was a shy friendliness. Once more the box of grapes proved a +mediator between us, and once more I found in her a reticent but +sympathetic audience--so much so that I was frank in telling her of +myself, my home and my kinsfolk. I thought that maybe my talk would +weary her, but she listened with a bright-eyed regard, nodding her head +eagerly at times. Yet she spoke no word of her own affairs, so that when +again I left them together I was as much in the dark as ever. + +It was on the third day I found the old man up and dressed, and Berna +with him. She looked brighter and happier than I had yet seen her, and +she greeted me with a smiling face. Then, after a little, she said: + +"My grandfather plays the violin. Would you mind if he played over some +of our old-country songs? It would comfort him." + +"No, go ahead," I said; "I wish he would." + +So she got an ancient violin, and the old man cuddled it lovingly and +played soft, weird melodies, songs of the Czech race, that made me think +of Romance, of love and hate, and passion and despair. Piece after +piece he played, as if pouring out the sadness and heart-hunger of a +burdened people, until my own heart ached in sympathy. + +The wild music throbbed with passionate sweetness and despair. +Unobserved, the pale twilight stole into the little cabin. The ruggedly +fine face of the old man was like one inspired, and with clasped hands, +the girl sat, very white-faced and motionless. Then I saw a gleam on her +cheek, the soft falling of tears. Somehow, at that moment, I felt drawn +very near to those two, the music, the tears, the fervent sadness of +their faces. I felt as if I had been allowed to share with them a few +moments consecrated to their sorrow, and that they knew I understood. + +That day as I was leaving, I said to her: + +"Berna, this is our last night on board." + +"Yes." + +"To-morrow our trails divide, maybe never again to cross. Will you come +up on deck for a little while to-night? I want to talk to you." + +"Talk to me?" + +She looked startled, incredulous. She hesitated. + +"Please, Berna, it's the last time." + +"All right," she answered in a low tone. + +Then she looked at me curiously. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +She came to meet me, lily-white and sweet. She was but thinly wrapped, +and shivered so that I put my coat around her. We ventured forward, +climbing over a huge anchor to the very bow of the boat, and crouching +down in its peak, were sheltered from the cold breeze. + +We were cutting through smooth water, and crowding in on us were haggard +mountains, with now and then the greenish horror of a glacier. Overhead, +in the desolate sky, the new moon nursed the old moon in her arms. + +"Berna!" + +"Yes." + +"You're not happy, Berna. You're in sore trouble, little girl. I don't +know why you come up to this God-forsaken country or why you are with +those people. I don't want to know; but if there's anything I can do for +you, any way I can prove myself a true friend, tell me, won't you?" + +My voice betrayed emotion. I could feel her slim form, very close to me, +all a-tremble. In the filtered silver of the crescent moon, I could see +her face, wan and faintly sweet. Gently I prisoned one of her hands in +mine. + +She did not speak at once. Indeed, she was quiet for a long time, so +that it seemed as if she must be stricken dumb, or as if some feelings +were conflicting within her. Then at last, very gently, very quietly, +very sweetly, as if weighing her words, she spoke. + +"No, there's nothing you can do. You've been too kind all along. You're +the only one on the boat that's been kind. Most of the others have +looked at me--well, you know how men look at a poor, unprotected girl. +But you, you're different; you're good, you're honourable, you're +sincere. I could see it in your face, in your eyes. I knew I could trust +you. You've been kindness itself to grandfather and I, and I never can +thank you enough." + +"Nonsense! Don't talk of thanks, Berna. You don't know what a happiness +it's been to help you. I'm sorry I've done so little. Oh, I'm going to +be sincere and frank with you. The few hours I've had with you have made +me long for others. I'm a lonely beggar. I never had a sister, never a +girl friend. You're the first, and it's been like sudden sunshine to me. +Now, can't I be really and truly your friend, Berna; your friend that +would do much for you? Let me do something, anything, to show how +earnestly I mean it?" + +"Yes, I know. Well, then, you are my dear, true friend--there, now." + +"Yes,--but, Berna! To-morrow you'll go and we'll likely never see each +other again. What's the good of it all?" + +"Well, what do you want? We will both have a memory, a very sweet, nice +memory, won't we? Believe me, it's better so. You don't want to have +anything to do with a girl like me. You don't know anything about me, +and you see the kind of people I'm going with. Perhaps I am just as bad +as they." + +"Don't say that, Berna," I interposed sternly; "you're all that's good +and pure and sweet." + +"No, I'm not, either. We're all of us pretty mixed. But I'm not so bad, +and it's nice of you to think those things.... Oh! if I had never come +on this terrible trip! I don't even know where we are going, and I'm +afraid, afraid." + +"No, little girl." + +"Yes, I can't tell you how afraid I am. The country's so savage and +lonely; the men are so like brute beasts; the women--well, they're +worse. And here are we in the midst of it. I don't know what's going to +become of us." + +"Well, Berna, if it's like that, why don't you and your grandfather turn +back? Why go on?" + +"He will never turn back. He'll go on till he dies. He only knows one +word of English and that's Klondike, Klondike. He mutters it a thousand +times a day. He has visions of gold, glittering heaps of it, and he'll +stagger and struggle on till he finds it." + +"But can't you reason with him?" + +"Oh, it's all no use. He's had a dream. He's like a man that's crazy. He +thinks he has been chosen, and that to him will a great treasure be +revealed. You might as well reason with a stone. All I can do is to +follow him, is to take care of him." + +"What about the Winklesteins, Berna?" + +"Oh, they're at the bottom of it all. It is they who have inflamed his +mind. He has a little money, the savings of a lifetime, about two +thousand dollars; and ever since he came to this country, they've been +trying to get it. They ran a little restaurant in New York. They tried +to get him to put his little store in that. Now they are using the gold +as a bait, and luring him up here. They'll rob and kill him in the end, +and the cruel part is--he's not greedy, he doesn't want it for +himself--but for me. That's what breaks my heart." + +"Surely you're mistaken, Berna; they can't be so bad as that." + +"Bad! I tell you they're _vile_. The man's a worm, and the woman, she's +a devil incarnate. She's so strong and so violent in her tempers that +when she gets drinking--well, it's just awful. I should know it, I lived +with them for three years." + +"Where?" + +"In New York. I came from the old country to them. They worked me in the +restaurant at first. Then, after a bit, I got employment in a +shirt-waist factory. I was quick and handy, and I worked early and late. +I attended a night school. I read till my eyes ached. They said I was +clever. The teacher wanted me to train and be a teacher too. But what +was the good of thinking of it? I had my living to get, so I stayed at +the factory and worked and worked. Then when I had saved a few dollars, +I sent for grandfather, and he came and we lived in the tenement and +were very happy for a while. But the Winklesteins never gave us any +peace. They knew he had a little money laid away, and they itched to get +their hands on it. The man was always telling us of get-rich-quick +schemes, and she threatened me in horrible ways. But I wasn't afraid in +New York. Up here it's different. It's all so shadowy and sinister." + +I could feel her shudder. + +"Oh, Berna," I said, "can't I help you?" + +She shook her head sadly. + +"No, you can't; you have enough trouble of your own. Besides it doesn't +matter about me. I didn't mean to tell you all this, but now, if you +want to be a true friend, just go away and forget me. You don't want to +have anything to do with me. Wait! I'll tell you something more. I'm +called Berna Wilovich. That's my grandfather's name. My mother ran away +from home. Two years later she came back--with me. Soon after she died +of consumption. She would never tell my father's name, but said he was a +Christian, and of good family. My grandfather tried to find out. He +would have killed the man. So, you see, I am nameless, a child of shame +and sorrow. And you are a gentleman, and proud of your family. Now, see +the kind of friend you've made. You don't want to make friends with such +as I." + +"I want to make friends with such as need my friendship. What is going +to happen to you, Berna?" + +"Happen! God knows! It doesn't matter. Oh, I've always been in trouble. +I'm used to it. I never had a really happy day in my life. I never +expect to. I'll just go on to the end, enduring patiently, and getting +what comfort I can out of things. It's what I was made for, I suppose." + +She shrugged her shoulders and shivered a little. + +"Let me go now, my friend. It's cold up here; I'm chilled. Don't look so +terribly downcast. I expect I'll come out all right. Something may +happen. Cheer up! Maybe you'll see me a Klondike queen yet." + +I could see that her sudden brightness but hid a black abyss of +bitterness and apprehension. What she had told me had somehow stricken +me dumb. There seemed a stark sordidness in the situation that repelled +me. She had arisen and was about to step over the fluke of the great +anchor, when I aroused myself. + +"Berna," I said, "what you have told me wrings my heart. I can't tell +you how terribly sorry I feel. Is there nothing I can do for you, +nothing to show I am not a mere friend of words and phrases? Oh, I hate +to let you go like this." + +The moon had gone behind a cloud. We were in a great shadow. She halted, +so that, as we stood, we were touching each other. Her voice was full of +pathetic resignation. + +"What can you do? If we were going in together it might be different. +When I met you at first I hoped, oh, I hoped--well, it doesn't matter +what I hoped. But, believe me, I'll be all right. You won't forget me, +will you?" + +"Forget you! No, Berna, I'll never forget you. It cuts me to the heart I +can do nothing now, but we'll meet up there. We can't be divided for +long. And you'll be all right, believe me too, little girl. Be good and +sweet and true and every one will love and help you. Ah, you must go. +Well, well--God bless you, Berna." + +"And I wish you happiness and success, dear friend of mine." + +Her voice trembled. Something seemed to choke her. She stood a moment as +if reluctant to go. + +Suddenly a great impulse of tenderness and pity came over me, and before +I knew it, my arms were around her. She struggled faintly, but her face +was uplifted, her eyes starlike. Then, for a moment of bewildering +ecstasy, her lips lay on mine, and I felt them faintly answer. + +Poor yielding lips! They were cold as ice. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +Never shall I forget the last I saw of her, a forlorn, pathetic figure +in black, waving a farewell to me as I stood on the wharf. She wore, I +remember, a low collar, and well do I mind the way it showed off the +slim whiteness of her throat; well do I mind the high poise of her head, +and the silken gloss of her hair. The grey eyes were clear and steady as +she bade good-bye to me, and from where we stood apart, her face had all +the pathetic sweetness of a Madonna. + +Well, she was going, and sad enough her going seemed to me. They were +all for Dyea, and the grim old Chilcoot, with its blizzard-beaten +steeps, while we had chosen the less precipitous, but more drawn-out, +Skagway trail. Among them I saw the inseparable twins; the grim Hewson, +the silent Mervin, each quiet and watchful, as if storing up power for a +tremendous effort. There was the large unwholesomeness of Madam +Winklestein, all jewellery, smiles and coarse badinage, and near her, +her perfumed husband, squinting and smirking abominably. There was the +old man, with his face of a Hebrew Seer, his visionary eye now aglow +with fanatical enthusiasm, his lips ever muttering: "Klondike, +Klondike"; and lastly, by his side, with a little wry smile on her lips, +there was the white-faced girl. + +How my heart ached for her! But the time for sentiment was at an end. +The clarion call to action rang out. Inflexibly the trail was mustering +us. The hour was come for every one to give of the best that was in him, +even as he had never given it before. The reign of peace was over; the +fight was on. + +On all sides were indescribable bustle, confusion and excitement; men +shouting, swearing, rushing hither, thither; wrangling, anxious-eyed and +distracted over their outfits. A mood of unsparing energy dominated +them. Their only thought was to get away on the gold-trail. A frantic +eagerness impelled them; insistent, imperative; the trail called to +them, and the light of the gold-lust smouldered and flamed in their +uneasy eyes. Already the spirit of the gold-trail was awakening. + +Hundreds of scattered tents; a few frame buildings, mostly saloons, +dance-halls and gambling joints; an eager, excited mob crowding on the +loose sidewalks, floundering knee-deep in the mire of the streets, +struggling and squabbling and cursing over their outfits--that is all I +remember of Skagway. The mountains, stark and bare to the bluff, seemed +to overwhelm the flimsy town, and between them, like a giant funnel, a +great wind was roaring. + +Lawlessness was rampant, but it did not touch us. The thugs lay in wait +for the men with pokes from the "inside." To the great Cheechako army, +they gave little heed. They were captained by one Smith, known as +"Soapy," whom I had the fortune to meet. He was a pleasant-appearing, +sociable man, and no one would have taken him for a desperado, a killer +of men. + +One picture of Skagway is still vivid in my memory. The scene is a +saloon, and along with the Prodigal, I am having a glass of beer. In a +corner sits a befuddled old man, half asleep. He is long and lank, with +a leathery face and a rusty goatee beard--as ragged, disreputable an old +sinner as ever bellied up to a bar. Suddenly there is a sound of +shooting. We rush out and there are two toughs blazing away at each +other from the sheltering corners of an opposite building. + +"Hey, Dad! There's some shootin' goin' on," says the barkeeper. + +The old man rouses and cocks up a bleary, benevolent eye. + +"Shooting', did ye say? Pshaw! Them fellers don't know how to shoot. Old +Dad'll show 'em how to shoot." + +He comes to the door, and lugging out a big rusty revolver, blazes away +at one of the combatants. The man, with a howl of surprise and pain, +limps away. The old man turns to the other fellow. Bang! We see +splinters fly, and a man running for dear life. + +"Told you I'd show 'em how to shoot," remarks old Dad to us. "Thanks, +I'll have a gin-fizz for mine." + +The Prodigal developed a wonderful executive ability about this time; he +was a marvel of activity, seemed to think of everything and to glory in +his responsibility as a leader. Always cheerful, always thoughtful, he +was the brains of our party. He never abated in his efforts a moment, +and was an example and a stimulus to us all. I say "all," for we had +added the "Jam-wagon"[A] to our number. It was the Prodigal who +discovered him. He was a tall, dissolute Englishman, gaunt, ragged and +verminous, but with the earmarks of a gentleman. He seemed indifferent +to everything but whiskey and only anxious to hide himself from his +friends. I discovered he had once been an officer in a Hussar regiment, +but he was obviously reluctant to speak of his past. A lost soul in +every sense of the word, the North was to him a refuge and an +unrestricted stamping-ground. So, partly in pity, partly in hope of +winning back his manhood, we allowed him to join the party. + +Pack animals were in vast demand, for it was considered a pound of grub +was the equal of a pound of gold. Old horses, fit but for the knacker's +yard, and burdened till they could barely stand, were being goaded +forward through the mud. Any kind of a dog was a prize, quickly stolen +if left unwatched. Sheep being taken in for the butcher were driven +forward with packs on their backs. Even was there an effort to make pack +animals out of pigs, but they grunted, squealed and rolled their +precious burdens in the mire. What crazy excitement, what urging and +shouting, what desperate device to make a start! + +We were lucky in buying a yoke of oxen from a packer for four hundred +dollars. On the first day we hauled half of our outfit to Canyon City, +and on the second we transferred the balance. This was our plan all +through, though in bad places we had to make many relays. It was simple +enough, yet, oh, the travail of it! Here is an extract from my diary of +these days. + + "Turn out at 4 A.M. Breakfasted on flapjacks and coffee. Find one + of our oxen dying. Dies at seven o'clock. Harness remaining ox and + start to remove goods up Canyon. Find trail in awful condition, yet + thousands are struggling to get through. Horses often fall in pools + of water ten to fifteen feet deep, trying to haul loads over the + boulders that render trail almost impassable. Drive with sleigh + over places that at other times one would be afraid to walk over + without any load. Two feet of snow fell during the night, but it is + now raining. Rains and snows alternately. At night bitterly cold. + Hauled five loads up Canyon to-day. Finished last trip near + midnight and turned in, cold, wet and played out." + +The above is a fairly representative day and of such days we were to +have many ere we reached the water. Slowly, with infinite effort, with +stress and strain to every step of the way, we moved our bulky outfit +forward from camp to camp. All days were hard, all exasperating, all +crammed with discomfort; yet, bit by bit, we forged ahead. The army +before us and the army behind never faltered. Like a stream of black +ants they were, between mountains that reared up swiftly to +storm-smitten palisades of ice. In the darkness of night the army +rested uneasily, yet at the first streak of dawn it was in motion. It +was an endless procession, in which every man was for himself. I can see +them now, bent under their burdens, straining at their hand-sleighs, +flogging their horses and oxen, their faces crimped and puckered with +fatigue, the air acrid with their curses and heavy with their moans. Now +a horse stumbles and slips into one of the sump-holes by the trail side. +No one can pass, the army is arrested. Frenzied fingers unhitch the poor +frozen brute and drag it from the water. Men, frantic with rage, beat +savagely at their beasts of burden to make up the precious time lost. +There is no mercy, no humanity, no fellowship. All is blasphemy, fury +and ruthless determination. It is the spirit of the gold-trail. + +At the canyon head was a large camp, and there, very much in evidence, +the gambling fraternity. Dozens of them with their little green tables +were doing a roaring business. On one side of the canyon they had +established a camp. It was evening and we three, the Prodigal, Salvation +Jim and myself, strolled over to where a three-shell man was holding +forth. + +"Hullo!" says the Prodigal. "It's our old friend Jake. Jake skinned me +out of a hundred on the boat. Wonder how he's making out?" + +It was Mosher, with his bald head, his crafty little eyes, his flat +nose, his black beard. I saw Jim's face harden. He had always shown a +bitter hatred of this man, and often I wondered why. + +We stood a little way off. The crowd thinned and filtered away until +but one remained, one of the tall young men from Minnesota. We heard +Mosher's rich voice. + +"Say, pard, bet ten dollars you can't place the bean. See! I put the +little joker under here, right before your eyes. Now, where is it?" + +"Here," said the man, touching one of the shells. + +"Right you are, my hearty! Well, here's your ten." + +The man from Minnesota took the money and was going away. + +"Hold on," said Mosher; "how do I know you had the money to cover that +bet?" + +The man laughed and took from his pocket a wad of bills an inch thick. + +"Guess that's enough, ain't it?" + +Quick as lightning Mosher had snatched the bills from him, and the man +from Minnesota found himself gazing into the barrel of a six-shooter. + +"This here's my money," said Mosher; "now you _git_." + +A moment only--a shot rang out. I saw the gun fall from Mosher's hand, +and the roll of bills drop to the ground. Quickly the man from Minnesota +recovered them and rushed off to tell his party. Then the men from +Minnesota got their Winchesters, and the shooting began. + +From their camp the gamblers took refuge behind the boulders that +strewed the sides of the canyon, and blazed away at their opponents. A +regular battle followed, which lasted till the fall of night. As far as +I heard, only one casualty resulted. A Swede, about half a mile down the +trail, received a spent bullet in the cheek. He complained to the Deputy +Marshal. That worthy, sitting on his horse, looked at him a moment. Then +he spat comprehensively. + +"Can't do anything, Ole. But I'll tell you what. Next time there's +bullets flying round this section of the country, don't go sticking your +darned whiskers in the way. See!" + +That night I said to Jim: + +"How did you do it?" + +He laughed and showed me a hole in his coat pocket which a bullet had +burned. + +"You see, having been in the game myself, I knew what was comin' and +acted accordin'." + +"Good job you didn't hit him worse." + +"Wait a while, sonny, wait a while. There's something mighty familiar +about Jake Mosher. He's mighty like a certain Sam Mosely I'm interested +in. I've just written a letter outside to see, an' if it's him--well, +I'm saved; I'm a good Christian, but--God help him!" + +"And who was Sam Mosely, Jim?" + +"Sam Mosely? Sam Mosely was the skunk that busted up my home an' stole +my wife, blast him!" + +[A: A Jam-wagon was the general name given to an Englishman on the +trail.] + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +Day after day, each man of us poured out on the trail the last heel-tap +of his strength, and the coming of night found us utterly played out. +Salvation Jim was full of device and resource, the Prodigal, a dynamo of +eager energy; but it was the Jam-wagon who proved his mettle in a +magnificent and relentless way. Whether it was from a sense of +gratitude, or to offset the cravings that assailed him, I know not, but +he crammed the days with merciless exertion. + +A curious man was the Jam-wagon, Brian Wanless his name, a world tramp, +a derelict of the Seven Seas. His story, if ever written, would be a +human document of moving and poignant interest. He must once have been a +magnificent fellow, and even now, with strength and will-power impaired, +he was a man among men, full of quick courage and of a haughty temper. +It was ever a word and a blow with him, and a fight to the desperate +finish. He was insular, imperious and aggressive, and he was always +looking for trouble. + +Though taciturn and morose with men, the Jam-wagon showed a tireless +affection for animals. From the first he took charge of our ox; but it +was for horses his fondness was most expressed, so that on the trail, +where there was so much cruelty, he was constantly on the verge of +combat. + +"That's a great man," said the Prodigal to me, "a fighter from heel to +head. There's one he can't fight, though, and that's old man Booze." + +But on the trail every man was a fighter. It was fight or fall, for the +trail would brook no weaklings. Good or bad, a man must be a man in the +primal sense, dominant, savage and enduring. The trail was implacable. +From the start it cried for strong men; it weeded out its weaklings. I +had seen these fellows on the ship feed their vanity with foolish +fancies; kindled to ardours of hope, I had seen debauch regnant among +them; now I was to see them crushed, cowed, overwhelmed, realising each, +according to his kind, the menace and antagonism of the way. I was to +see the weak falter and fall by the trail side; I was to see the +fainthearted quail and turn back; but I was to see the strong, the +brave, grow grim, grow elemental in their desperate strength, and +tightening up their belts, go forward unflinchingly to the bitter end. +Thus it was the trail chose her own. Thus it was, from passion, despair +and defeat, the spirit of the trail was born. + +The spirit of the Gold Trail, how shall I describe it? It was based on +that primal instinct of self-preservation that underlies our thin veneer +of humanity. It was rebellion, anarchy; it was ruthless, aggressive, +primitive; it was the man of the stone age in modern garb waging his +fierce, incessant warfare with the forces of nature. Spurred on by the +fever of the gold-lust, goaded by the fear of losing in the race; +maddened by the difficulties and obstacles of the way, men became +demons of cruelty and aggression, ruthlessly thrusting aside and +trampling down the weaker ones who thwarted their progress. Of pity, +humanity, love, there was none, only the gold-lust, triumphant and +repellent. It was the survival of the fittest, the most tenacious, the +most brutal. Yet there was something grandly terrible about it all. It +was a barbaric invasion, an army, each man fighting for his own hand +under the banner of gold. It was conquest. Every day, as I watched that +human torrent, I realised how vast, how irresistible it was. It was +Epic, it was Historical. + +Many pitiful things I saw--men with haggard, hopeless faces, throwing +their outfits into the snow and turning back broken-hearted; men +staggering blindly on, exhausted to despair, then dropping wearily by +the trail side in the bitter cold and sinister gloom; weaklings, every +one. Many terrible things I saw--men cursing each other, cursing the +trail, cursing their God, and in the echo of their curses, grinding +their teeth and stumbling on. Then they would vent their fury and spite +on the poor dumb animals. Oh, what cruelty there was! The life of the +brute was as nothing; it was the tribute of the trail; it was a +sacrifice on the altar of human greed. + +Long before dawn the trail awakened and the air was full of breakfast +smells, chiefly that of burnt porridge: for pots were seldom scraped, +neither were dishes washed. Soon the long-drawn-out army was on the +march, jaded animals straining at their loads, their drivers reviling +and beating them. All the men were bearded, and many of them wore +parkas. As many of the women had discarded petticoats, it was often +difficult at a short distance to tell the sex of a person. There were +tents built on sleighs, with faces of women and children peering out +from behind. It was a wonderful procession, all classes, all +nationalities, greybeards and striplings, parsons and prostitutes, rich +and poor, filing past in their thousands, drawn desperately on by the +golden magnet. + +One day we were making a trip with a load of our stuff when, just ahead, +there was a check in the march, so I and the Jam-wagon went forward to +investigate. It was our old friend Bullhammer in difficulties. He had +rather a fine horse, and in passing a sump-hole, his sled had skidded +and slipped downhill into the water. Now he was belabouring the animal +unmercifully, acting like a crazy man, shouting in a frenzy of rage. + +The horse was making the most gallant efforts I ever saw, but, with +every fresh attempt, its strength weakened. Time and again it came down +on its knees, which were raw and bleeding. It was shining with sweat so +that there was not a dry hair on its body, and if ever a dumb brute's +eyes spoke of agony and fear, that horse's did. But Bullhammer grew +every moment more infuriated, wrenching its mouth and beating it over +the head with a club. It was a sickening sight and, used as I was to the +inhumanity of the trail, I would have interfered had not the Jam-wagon +jumped in. He was deadly pale and his eyes burned. + +"You infernal brute! If you strike that horse another blow, I'll break +your club over your shoulders." + +Bullhammer turned on him. Surprise paralysed the man, rage choked him. +They were both big husky fellows, and they drew up face to face. Then +Bullhammer spoke. + +"Curse you, anyway. Don't interfere with me. I'll beat bloody hell out +of the horse if I like, an' you won't say one word, see?" + +With that he struck the horse another vicious blow on the head. There +was a quick scuffle. The club was wrenched from Bullhammer's hand. I saw +it come down twice. The man sprawled on his back, while over him stood +the Jam-wagon, looking very grim. The horse slipped quietly back into +the water. + +"You ugly blackguard! I've a good mind to beat you within an ace of your +life. But you're not worth it. Ah, you cur!" + +He gave Bullhammer a kick. The man got on his feet. He was a coward, but +his pig eyes squinted in impotent rage. He looked at his horse lying +shivering in the icy water. + +"Get the horse out yourself, then, curse you. Do what you please with +him. But, mark you--I'll get even with you for this--I'll--get--even." + +He shook his fist and, with an ugly oath, went away. The block in the +traffic was relieved. The trail was again in motion. When we got abreast +of the submerged horse, we hitched on the ox and hastily pulled it out, +and (the Jam-wagon proving to have no little veterinary skill) in a few +days it was fit to work again. + + * * * * * + +Another week had gone and we were still on the trail, between the head +of the canyon and the summit of the Pass. Day after day was the same +round of unflinching effort, under conditions that would daunt any but +the stoutest hearts. The trail was in a terrible condition, sometimes +well-nigh impassable, and many a time, but for the invincible spirit of +the Prodigal, would I have turned back. He had a way of laughing at +misfortune and heartening one when things seemed to have passed the +limit of all endurance. + +Here is another day selected from my diary: + + "Rose at 4:30 A.M. and started for summit with load. Trail all + filled in with snow, and had dreadful time shovelling it out. Load + upsets number of times. Got to summit at three o'clock. Ox almost + played out. Snowing and blowing fearfully on summit. Ox tired; + tries to lie down every few yards. Bitterly cold and have hard time + trying to keep hands and feet from freezing. Keep on going to make + Balsam City. Arrived there about ten o'clock at night. Clothing + frozen stiff. Snow from seven to one hundred feet deep. No wood + within a quarter mile and then only soft balsam. Had to go for + wood. Almost impossible to start fire. Was near midnight when I had + fire going well and supper cooked. Eighteen hours on the trail + without a square meal. The way of the Klondike is hard, hard." + +And yet I believe, compared with others, we were getting along finely. +Every day, as the difficulties of the trail increased, I saw more and +more instances of suffering and privation, and to many the name of the +White Pass was the death-knell of hope. I could see their faces blanch +as they gazed upward at that white immensity; I could see them tighten +their pack-straps, clench their teeth and begin the ascent; could see +them straining every muscle as they climbed, the grim lines harden round +their mouths, their eyes full of hopeless misery and despair; I could +see them panting at every step, ghastly with fatigue, lurching and +stumbling on under their heavy packs. These were the weaker ones, who, +sooner or later, gave up the struggle. + +Then there were the strong, ruthless ones, who had left humanity at +home, who flogged their staggering skin-and-bone pack animals till they +dropped, then, with a curse, left them to die. + +Far, far above us the monster mountains nuzzled among the clouds till +cloud and mountain were hard to tell apart. These were giant heights +heaved up to the stars, where blizzards were cradled and the storm-winds +born, stupendous horrific familiars of the tempest and the thunder. I +was conscious of their absolute sublimity. It was like height piled on +height as one would pile up sacks of flour. As Jim remarked: "Say, +wouldn't it give you crick in the neck just gazin' at them there +mountains?" + +How ant-like seemed the black army crawling up the icy pass, clinging to +its slippery face in the blinding buffet of snow and rain! Men dropped +from its ranks uncared for and unpitied. Heedless of those that fell, +the gap closed up, the march went on. The great army crawled up and over +the summit. Far behind could we see them, hundreds, thousands, a +countless host, all with "Klondike" on their lips and the lust of the +gold-lure in their hearts. It was the Great Stampede. + +"Klondike or bust," was the slogan. It was ever on the lips of those +bearded men. "Klondike or bust"--the strong man, with infinite patience, +righted his overturned sleigh, and in the face of the blinding blizzard, +pushed on through the clogging snow. "Klondike or bust"--the weary, +trail-worn one raised himself from the hole where he had fallen, and +stiff, cold, racked with pain, gritted his teeth doggedly and staggered +on a few feet more. "Klondike or bust"--the fanatic of the trail, crazed +with the gold-lust, performed mad feats of endurance, till nature +rebelled, and raving and howling, he was carried away to die. + +"'Member Joe?" some one would say, as a pack-horse came down the trail +with, strapped on it, a dead, rigid shape. "Joe used to be plumb-full of +fun; always joshin' or takin' some guy off; well--that's Joe." + +Two weary, woe-begone men were pulling a hand-sleigh down from the +summit. On it was lashed a man. He was in a high fever, raving, +delirious. Half-crazed with suffering themselves, his partners plodded +on unheedingly. I recognised in them the Bank clerk and the Professor, +and I hailed them. From black hollows their eyes stared at me +unrememberingly, and I saw how emaciated were their faces. + +"Spinal meningitis," they said laconically, and they were taking him +down to the hospital. I took a look and saw in that mask of terror and +agony the familiar face of the Wood-carver. + +He gazed at me eagerly, wildly: "I'm rich," he cried, "rich. I've found +it--the gold--in millions, millions. Now I'm going outside to spend it. +No more cold and suffering and poverty. I'm going down there to _live_, +thank God, to live." + +Poor Globstock! He died down there. He was buried in a nameless grave. +To this day I fancy his old mother waits for his return. He was her sole +support, the one thing she lived for, a good, gentle son, a man of sweet +simplicity and loving kindness. Yet he lies under the shadow of those +hard-visaged mountains in a nameless grave. + +The trail must have its tribute. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +It was at Balsam City, and things were going badly. Marks and Bullhammer +had formed a partnership with the Halfbreed, the Professor and the Bank +clerk, and the arrangement was proving a regrettable one for the latter +two. It was all due to Marks. At the best of times, he was a +cross-grained, domineering bully, and on the trail, which would have +worn to a wire edge the temper of an angel, his yellow streak became an +eyesore. He developed a chronic grouch, and it was not long before he +had the two weaker men toeing the mark. He had a way of speaking of +those who had gone up against him in the past and were "running yet," of +shooting scrapes and deadly knife-work in which he had displayed a +spirit of cold-blooded ferocity. Both the Professor and the Bank clerk +were men of peace and very impressionable. Consequently, they conceived +for Marks a shuddering respect, not unmixed with fear, and were ready to +stand on their heads at his bidding. + +On the Halfbreed, however, his intimidation did not work. While the +other two trembled at his frown, and waited on him hand and foot, the +man of Indian blood ignored him, and his face was expressionless. +Whereby he incurred the intense dislike of Marks. + +Things were going from bad to worse. The man's aggressions were daily +becoming more unbearable. He treated the others like Dagoes and on every +occasion he tried to pick a quarrel with the Halfbreed, but the latter, +entrenching himself behind his Indian phlegm, regarded him stolidly. +Marks mistook this for cowardice and took to calling the Halfbreed nasty +names, particularly reflecting on the good character of his mother. +Still the Halfbreed took no notice, yet there was a contempt in his +manner that stung more than words. This was the state of affairs when +one evening the Prodigal and I paid them a visit. + +Marks had been drinking all day, and had made life a little hell for the +others. When we arrived he was rotten-ripe for a quarrel. Then the +Prodigal suggested a game of poker, so four of them, himself, Marks, +Bullhammer and the Halfbreed, sat in. + +At first they made a ten-cent limit, which soon they raised to +twenty-five; then, at last, there was no limit but the roof. A bottle +passed from mouth to mouth and several big jack-pots were made. +Bullhammer and the Prodigal were about breaking even, Marks was losing +heavily, while steadily the Halfbreed was adding to his pile of chips. + +Through one of those freaks of chance the two men seemed to buck one +another continually. Time after time they would raise and raise each +other, till at last Marks would call, and always his opponent had the +cards. It was exasperating, maddening, especially as several times Marks +himself was called on a bluff. The very fiend of ill-luck seemed to have +gotten into him, and as the game proceeded, Marks grew more flushed and +excited. He cursed audibly. He always had good cards, but always somehow +the other just managed to beat him. He became explosively angry and +abusive. The Halfbreed offered to retire from the game, but Marks would +not hear of it. + +"Come on, you nigger!" he shouted. "Don't sneak away. Give me a chance +to get my money back." + +So they sat down once more, and a hand was dealt. The Halfbreed called +for cards, but Marks did not draw. Then the betting began. After the +second round the others dropped out, and Marks and the Halfbreed were +left. The Halfbreed was inimitably cool, his face was a perfect mask. +Marks, too, had suddenly grown very calm. They started to boost each +other. + +Both seemed to have plenty of money and at first they raised in tens and +twenties, then at last fifty dollars at a clip. It was getting exciting. +You could hear a pin drop. Bullhammer and the Prodigal watched very +quietly. Sweat stood on Marks's forehead, though the Halfbreed was +utterly calm. The jack-pot held about three hundred dollars. Then Marks +could stand it no longer. + +"I'll bet a hundred," he cried, "and see you." + +He triumphantly threw down a straight. + +"There, now," he snarled, "beat that, you stinking Malamute." + +There was a perceptible pause. I felt sorry for the Halfbreed. He could +not afford to lose all that money, but his face showed no shade of +emotion. He threw down his cards and there arose from us all a roar of +incredulous surprise. + +For the Halfbreed had thrown down a royal flush in diamonds. Marks rose. +He was now livid with passion. + +"You cheating swine," he cried; "you crooked devil!" + +Quickly he struck the other on the face, a blow that drew blood. I +thought for a moment the Halfbreed would return the blow. Into his eyes +there came a look of cold and deadly fury. But, no! quickly bending +down, he scooped up the money and left the tent. + +We stared at each other. + +"Marvellous luck!" said the Prodigal. + +"Marvellous hell!" shouted Marks. "Don't tell me it's luck. He's a +sharper, a dirty thief. But I'll get even. He's got to fight now. He'll +fight with guns and I'll kill the son of a dog." + +He was drinking from the bottle in big gulps, fanning himself into an +ungovernable fury with fiery objurgations. At last he went out, and +again swearing he would kill the Halfbreed, he made for another tent, +from which a sound of revelry was coming. + +Vaguely fearing trouble, the Prodigal and I did not go to bed, but sat +talking. Suddenly I saw him listen intently. + +"Hist! Did you hear that?" + +I seemed to hear a sound like the fierce yelling of a wild animal. + +We hurried out. It was Marks running towards us. He was crazy with +liquor, and in one hand he flourished a gun. There was foam on his lips +and he screamed as he ran. Then we saw him stop before the tent occupied +by the Halfbreed, and throw open the flap. + +"Come out, you dirty tin-horn, you crook, you Indian bastard; come out +and fight." + +He rushed in and came out again, dragging the Halfbreed at arm's length. +They were tussling together, and we flung ourselves on them and +separated them. + +I was holding Marks, when suddenly he hurled me off, and flourishing a +revolver, fired one chamber, crying: + +"Stand back, all of you; stand back! Let me shoot at him. He's my meat." + +We stepped back pretty briskly, for Marks had cut loose. In fact, we +ducked for shelter, all but the Halfbreed, who stood straight and still. + +Marks took aim at the man waiting there so coolly. He fired, and a tide +of red stained the other man's shirt, near the shoulder. Then something +happened. The Halfbreed's arm rose quickly. A six-shooter spat twice. + +He turned to us. "I didn't want to do it, boys, but you see he druv' me +to it. I'm sorry. He druv' me to it." + +Marks lay in a huddled, quivering heap. He was shot through the heart +and quite dead. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +We were camping in Paradise Valley. Before us and behind us the great +Cheechako army laboured along with infinite travail. We had suffered, +but the trail of the land was near its end. And what an end! With every +mile the misery and difficulty of the way seemed to increase. Then we +came to the trail of Rotting Horses. + +Dead animals we had seen all along the trail in great numbers, but the +sight as we came on this particular place beggared description. There +were thousands of them. One night we dragged away six of them before we +could find room to put up the tent. There they lay, sprawling horribly, +their ribs protruding through their hides, their eyes putrid in the +sunshine. It was like a battlefield, hauntingly hideous. + +And every day was adding to their numbers. The trail ran over great +boulders covered with icy slush, through which the weary brutes sank to +their bellies. Struggling desperately, down they would come between two +boulders. Then their legs would snap like pipe-stems, and there usually +they were left to die. + +One would see, jammed in the cleft of a rock, the stump of a hoof, or +sticking up sharply, the jagged splinter of a leg; while far down the +bluff lay the animal to which it belonged. One would see the poor dead +brutes lying head and tail for an hundred yards at a stretch. One would +see them deserted and desperate, wandering round foraging for food. They +would come to the camp at night whinnying pitifully, and with a look of +terrible entreaty on their starved faces. Then one would take pity on +them--and shoot them. + +I remember stumbling across a big, heavy horse one night in the gloom. +It was swaying from side to side, and as I drew near I saw its throat +was hideously cut. It looked at me with such agony in its eyes that I +put my handkerchief over its face, and, with the blow of an axe, ended +its misery. The most spirited of the horses were the first to fall. They +broke their hearts in gallant effort. Goaded to desperation, sometimes +they would destroy themselves, throw themselves frantically over the +bluff. Oh, it was horrible! horrible! + +Our own horse proved a ready victim. To tell the truth, no one but the +Jam-wagon was particularly sorry. If there was a sump-hole in sight, +that horse was sure to flounder into it. Sometimes twice in one day we +had to unhitch the ox and pull him out. There was a place dug out of the +snow alongside the trail, which was being used as a knacker's yard, and +here we took him with a broken leg and put a bullet in his brain. While +we waited there were six others brought in to be shot. + +It was a Sunday and we were in the tent, indescribably glad of a day's +rest. The Jam-wagon was mending a bit of harness; the Prodigal was +playing solitaire. Salvation Jim had just returned from a trip to +Skagway, where he had hoped to find a letter from the outside regarding +one Jake Mosher. His usually hale and kindly face was drawn and +troubled. Wearily he removed his snow-sodden clothes. + +"I always did say there was God's curse on this Klondike gold," he said; +"now I'm sure of it. There's a hoodoo on it. What it's a-goin' to cost, +what hearts it's goin' to break, what homes it's goin' to wreck no +man'll ever know. God only knows what it's cost already. But this last +is the worst yet." + +"What's the matter, Jim?" I said; "what last?" + +"Why, haven't you heard? Well, there's just been a snow-slide on the +Chilcoot an' several hundred people buried." + +I stared aghast. Living as we did in daily danger of snow-slides, this +disaster struck us with terror. + +"You don't say!" said the Prodigal. "Where?" + +"Oh, somewhere's near Lindeman. Hundreds of poor sinners cut off without +a chance to repent." + +He was going to improve on the occasion when the Prodigal cut in. + +"Poor devils! I guess we must know some of them too." He turned to me. +"I wonder if your little Polak friend's all right?" + +Indeed my thoughts had just flown to Berna. Among the exigencies of the +trail (when we had to fix our minds on the trouble of the moment and +every moment had its trouble) there was little time for reflection. +Nevertheless, I had found at all times visions of her flitting before +me, thoughts of her coming to me when I least expected them. Pity, +tenderness and a good deal of anxiety were in my mind. Often I wondered +if ever I would see her again. A feeling of joy and a great longing +would sweep over me in the hope. At these words then of the Prodigal, it +seemed as if all my scattered sentiments crystallised into one, and a +vast desire that was almost pain came over me. I suppose I was silent, +grave, and it must have been some intuition of my thoughts that made the +Prodigal say to me: + +"Say, old man, if you would like to take a run over the Dyea trail, I +guess I can spare you for a day or so." + +"Yes, indeed, I'd like to see the trail." + +"Oh, yes, we've observed your enthusiastic interest in trails. Why don't +you marry the girl? Well, cut along, old chap. Don't be gone too long." + +So next morning, travelling as lightly as possible, I started for +Bennett. How good it seemed to get off unimpeded by an outfit, and I +sped past the weary mob, struggling along on the last lap of their +journey. I had been in some expectation of the trail bettering itself, +but indeed it appeared at every step to grow more hopelessly terrible. +It was knee-deep in snowy slush, and below that seemed to be literally +paved with dead horses. + +I only waited long enough at Bennett to have breakfast. A pie nailed to +a tent-pole indicated a restaurant, and there, for a dollar, I had a +good meal of beans and bacon, coffee and flapjacks. It was yet early +morning when I started for Linderman. + +The air was clear and cold, ideal mushing weather, and already parties +were beginning to struggle into Bennett, looking very weary and jaded. +On the trail a man did a day's work by nine in the morning, another by +four in the afternoon, and a third by nightfall. You were lucky to get +off at that. + +I was jogging along past the advance guard of the oncoming army, when +who should I see but Mervin and Hewson. They looked thoroughly seasoned, +and had made record time with a large outfit. In contrast to the worn, +weary-eyed men with faces pinched and puckered, they looked insolently +fit and full of fight. They had heard of the snow-slide but could give +me no particulars. I inquired for Berna and the old man. They were +somewhere behind, between Chilcoot and Lindeman. "Yes, they were +probably buried under the slide. Good-bye." + +I hurried forward, full of apprehension. A black stream of Cheechakos +were surging across Lindeman; then I realised the greatness of the other +advancing army, and the vastness of the impulse that was urging these +indomitable atoms to the North. It was blowing quite hard and many had +put up sails on their sleds with good effect. I saw a Jew driving an ox, +to which he had four small sleds harnessed. On each of these he had +hoisted a small sail. Suddenly the ox looked round and saw the sails. +Here was something that did not come within the scope of his +experience. With a bellow of fear, he stampeded, pursued by a yelling +Hebrew, while from the chain of sleds articles scattered in all +directions. When last I saw them in the far distance, Jew and ox were +still going. + +Why was I so anxious about Berna? I did not know, but with every mile my +anxiety increased. A dim unreasoning fear possessed me. I imagined that +if anything happened to her I would forever blame myself. I saw her +lying white and cold as the snow itself, her face peaceful in death. Why +had I not thought more of her? I had not appreciated her enough, her +precious sweetness and her tenderness. If only she was spared, I would +show her what a good friend I could be. I would protect her and be near +her in case of need. But then how foolish to think anything could have +happened to her. The chances were one in a hundred. Nevertheless, I +hurried forward. + +I met the Twins. They had just escaped the slide, they told me, and had +not yet recovered from the shock. A little way back on the trail it was. +I would see men digging out the bodies. They had dug out seventeen that +morning. Some were crushed as flat as pancakes. + +Again, with a pain at my heart, I asked after Berna and her grandfather. +Twin number one said they were both buried under the slide. I gasped and +was seized with sudden faintness. "No," said twin number two, "the old +man is missing, but the girl has escaped and is nearly crazy with +grief. Good-bye." + +Once more I hurried on. Gangs of men were shovelling for the dead. Every +now and then a shovel would strike a hand or a skull. Then a shout would +be raised and the poor misshapen body turned out. + +Again I put my inquiries. A busy digger paused in his work. He was a +sottish-looking fellow, and there was something of the glare of a ghoul +in his eyes. + +"Yes, that must have been the old guy with the whiskers they dug out +early on from the lower end of the slide. Relative, name of Winklestein, +took charge of him. Took him to the tent yonder. Won't let any one go +near." + +He pointed to a tent on the hillside, and it was with a heavy heart I +went forward. The poor old man, so gentle, so dignified, with his dream +of a golden treasure that might bring happiness to others. It was cruel, +cruel.... + +"Say, what d'ye want here? Get to hell outa this." + +The words came with a snarl. I looked up in surprise. + +There at the door of the tent, all a-bristle like a gutter-bred cur, was +Winklestein. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +I stared at the man a moment, for little had I expected so gracious a +reception. + +"Mush on, there," he repeated truculently; "you're not wanted 'round +here. Mush! Pretty darned smart." + +I felt myself grow suddenly, savagely angry. I measured the man for a +moment and determined I could handle him. + +"I want," I said soberly, "to see the body of my old friend." + +"You do, do you? Well, you darned well won't. Besides, there ain't no +body here." + +"You're a liar!" I observed. "But it's no use wasting words on you. I'm +going on anyhow." + +With that I gripped him suddenly and threw him sideways with some force. +One of the tent ropes took away his feet violently, and there on the +snow he sprawled, glowering at me with evil eyes. + +"Now," said I, "I've got a gun, and if you try any monkey business, I'll +fix you so quick you won't know what's happened." + +The bluff worked. He gathered himself up and followed me into the tent, +looking the picture of malevolent impotence. On the ground lay a longish +object covered with a blanket. With a strange feeling of reluctant +horror I lifted the covering. Beneath it lay the body of the old man. + +He was lying on his back, and had not been squeezed out of all human +semblance like so many of the others. Nevertheless, he was ghastly +enough, with his bluish face and wide bulging eyes. What had worn his +fingers to the bone so? He must have made a desperate struggle with his +bare hands to dig himself out. I will never forget those torn, nailless +fingers. I felt around his waist. Ha! the money belt was gone! + +"Winklestein," I said, turning suddenly on the little Jew, "this man had +two thousand dollars on him. What have you done with it?" + +He started violently. A look of fear came into his eyes. It died away, +and his face was convulsed with rage. + +"He did not," he screamed; "he didn't have a red cent. He's no more than +an old pauper I was taking in to play the fiddle. He owes _me_, curse +him! And who are you anyways, you blasted meddler, that accuses a decent +man of being a body robber?" + +"I was this dead man's friend. I'm still his granddaughter's friend. I'm +going to see justice done. This man had two thousand dollars in a gold +belt round his waist. It belongs to the girl now. You've got to give it +up, Winklestein, or by----" + +"Prove it, prove it!" he spluttered. "You're a liar; she's a liar; +you're all a pack of liars, trying to blackmail a decent man. He had no +money, I say! He had no money, and if ever he said so, he's a liar." + +"Oh, you vile wretch!" I cried. "It's you that's lying. I've a mind to +choke your dirty throat. But I'll hound you till I make you cough up +that money. Where's Berna?" + +Suddenly he had become quietly malicious. + +"Find her," he jibed; "find her for yourself. And take yourself out of +my sight as quickly as you please." + +I saw he had me over a barrel, so, with a parting threat, I left him. A +tent nearby was being run as a restaurant, and there I had a cup of +coffee. Of the man who kept it, a fat, humorous cockney, I made +enquiries regarding the girl. Yes, he knew her. She was living in yonder +tent with Madam Winklestein. + +"They sy she's tykin' on horful baht th' old man, pore kid!" + +I thanked him, gulped down my coffee, and made for the tent. The flap +was down, but I rapped on the canvas, and presently the dark face of +Madam appeared. When she saw me, it grew darker. + +"What d'you want?" she demanded. + +"I want to see Berna," I said. + +"Then you can't. Can't you hear her? Isn't that enough?" + +Surely I could hear a very low, pitiful sound coming from the tent, +something between a sob and a moan, like the wailing of an Indian woman +over her dead, only infinitely subdued and anguished. I was shocked, +awed, immeasurably grieved. + +"Thank you," I said; "I'm sorry. I don't want to intrude on her in her +hour of affliction. I'll come again." + +"All right," she laughed tauntingly; "come again." + +I had failed. I thought of turning back, then I thought I might as well +see what I could of the far-famed Chikoot, so once more I struck out. + +The faces of the hundreds I met were the same faces I had passed by the +thousand, stamped with the seal of the trail, seamed with lines of +suffering, wan with fatigue, blank with despair. There was the same +desperate hurry, the same indifference to calamity, the same grim +stoical endurance. + +A snowstorm was raging on the summit of the Chikoot and the snow was +drifting, covering the thousands of caches to the depth of ten and +fifteen feet. I stood on the summit of that nearly perpendicular ascent +they call the "Scales." Steps had been cut in the icy steep, and up +these men were straining, each with a huge pack on his back. They could +only go in single file. It was the famous "Human Chain." At regular +distances, platforms had been cut beside the trail, where the exhausted +ones might leave the ranks and rest; but if a worn-out climber reeled +and crawled into one of the shelters, quickly the line closed up and +none gave him a glance. + +The men wore ice-creepers, so that their feet would clutch the slippery +surface. Many of them had staffs, and all were bent nigh double under +their burdens. They did not speak, their lips were grimly sealed, their +eyes fixed and stern. They bowed their heads to thwart the buffetings of +the storm-wind, but every way they turned it seemed to meet them. The +snow lay thick on their shoulders and covered their breasts. On their +beards the spiked icicles glistened. As they moved up step by step, it +seemed as if their feet were made of lead, so heavily did they lift +them. And the resting-places by the trail were never empty. + +You saw them in the canyon at the trail top, staggering in the wind that +seemed to blow every way at once. You saw them blindly groping for the +caches they had made but yesterday and now fathoms deep under the +snowdrift. You saw them descending swiftly, dizzily, leaning back on +their staffs, for the down trail was like a slide. In a moment they were +lost to sight, but to-morrow they would come again, and to-morrow and +to-morrow, the men of the Chilcoot. + +The Trail of Travail--surely it was all epitomised in the tribulations +of that stark ascent. From my eyrie on its blizzard-beaten crest I could +see the Human Chain drag upward link by link, and every link a man. And +as he climbed that pitiless treadmill, on each man's face there could be +deciphered the palimpsest of his soul. + +Oh, what a drama it was, and what a stage! The Trail of '98--high +courage, frenzied fear, despotic greed, unflinching sacrifice. But over +all--its hunger and its hope, its passion and its pain--triumphed the +dauntless spirit of the Pathfinder--the mighty Pioneer. + +[Illustration: "No," she said firmly, "you can't see the girl"] + +Then I knew, I knew. These silent, patient, toiling ones were the +Conquerors of the Great White Land; the Men of the High North, the +Brotherhood of the Arctic Wild. No saga will ever glorify their deeds, +no epic make them immortal. Their names will be written in the snows +that melt and vanish at the smile of Spring; but in their works will +they live, and their indomitable spirit will be as a beacon-light, +shining down the dim corridors of Eternity. + + * * * * * + +I slept at a bunkhouse that night, and next morning I again made a call +at the tent within which lay Berna. Again Madam, in a gaudy wrapper, +answered my call, but this time, to my surprise, she was quite pleasant. + +"No," she said firmly, "you can't see the girl. She's all prostrated. +We've given her a sleeping powder and she's asleep now. But she's mighty +sick. We've sent for a doctor." + +There was indeed nothing to be done. With a heavy heart I thanked her, +expressed my regrets and went away. What had got into me, I wondered, +that I was so distressed about the girl. I thought of her continually, +with tenderness and longing. I had seen so little of her, yet that +little had meant so much. I took a sad pleasure in recalling her to mind +in varying aspects; always she appeared different to me somehow. I could +get no definite idea of her; ever was there something baffling, +mysterious, half revealed. + +To me there was in her, beauty, charm, every ideal quality. Yet must my +eyes have been anointed, for others passed her by without a second +glance. Oh, I was young and foolish, maybe; but I had never before known +a girl that appealed to me, and it was very, very sweet. + +So I went back to the restaurant and gave the fat cockney a note which +he promised to deliver into her own hands. I wrote: + + "Dear Berna: I cannot tell you how deeply grieved I am over your + grandfather's death, and how I sympathise with you in your sorrow. + I came over from the other trail to see you, but you were too ill. + Now I must go back at once. If I could only have said a word to + comfort you! I feel terribly about it. + + "Oh, Berna, dear, go back, go back. This is no country for you. If + I can help you, Berna, let me know. If you come on to Bennett, then + I will see you. + + "Believe me again, dear, my heart aches for you. + + "Be brave. + + "Always affectionately yours, + + "Athol Meldrum." + +Then once more I struck out for Bennett. + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +Our last load was safely landed in Bennett and the trail of the land was +over. We had packed an outfit of four thousand pounds over a +thirty-seven-mile trail and it had taken us nearly a month. For an +average of fifteen hours a day we had worked for all that was in us; +yet, looking back, it seems to have been more a matter of dogged +persistence and patience than desperate endeavour and endurance. + +There is no doubt that to the great majority, the trail spelt privation, +misery and suffering; but they were of the poor, deluded multitude that +never should have left their ploughs, their desks and their benches. +Then there were others like ourselves to whom it meant hardship, more or +less extreme, but who managed to struggle along fairly well. Lastly, +there was a minority to whom it was little more than discomfort. They +were the seasoned veterans of the trail to whom its trials were all in +the day's work. It was as if the Great White Land was putting us to the +test, was weeding out the fit from the unfit, was proving itself a land +of the Strong, a land for men. + +And indeed our party was well qualified to pass the test of the trail. +The Prodigal was full of irrepressible enthusiasm, and always loaded to +the muzzle with ideas. Salvation Jim was a mine of foresight and +resource, while the Jam-wagon proved himself an insatiable glutton for +work. Altogether we fared better than the average party. + +We were camped on the narrow neck of water between Lindeman and Bennett, +and as hay was two hundred and fifty dollars a ton, the first thing we +did was to butcher the ox. The next was to see about building a boat. We +thought of whipsawing our own boards, but the timber near us was poor or +thinned out, so that in the end we bought lumber, paying for it twenty +cents a foot. We were all very unexpert carpenters; however, by watching +others, we managed to make a decent-looking boat. + +These were the busy days. At Bennett the two great Cheechako armies +converged, and there must have been thirty thousand people camped round +the lake. The night was ablaze with countless camp-fires, the day a buzz +of busy toil. Everywhere you heard the racket of hammer and saw, beheld +men in feverish haste over their boat-building. There were many fine +boats, but the crude makeshift effort of the amateur predominated. Some +of them, indeed, had no more shape than a packing-case, and not a few +resembled a coffin. Anything that would float and keep out the water was +a "boat." + +Oh, it was good to think that from thenceforward, the swift, clear +current would bear us to our goal. No more icy slush to the knee, no +more putrid horse-flesh under foot, no more blinding blizzards and +heart-breaking drift of snows. But the blue sky would canopy us, the +gentle breezes fan us, the warm sun lock us in her arms. No more bitter +freezings and sinister dawns and weary travail of mind and body. The +hills would busk themselves in emerald green, the wild crocus come to +gladden our eyes, the long nights glow with sunsets of theatric +splendour. No wonder, in the glory of reaction, we exulted and laboured +on our boat with brimming hearts. And always before us gleamed the +Golden Magnet, making us chafe and rage against the stubborn ice that +stayed our progress. + +The days were full of breezy sunshine and at all times the Eager Army +watched the rotting ice with anxious eyes. In places it was fairly +honeycombed now, in others corroded and splintered into silver spears. +Here and there it heaved up and cracked across in gaping chasms; again +it sagged down suddenly. There were sheets of surface water and +stretches of greenish slush that froze faintly overnight. In large, +flaming letters of red, the lake was dangerous, near to a break-up, a +death trap; yet every day the reckless ones were going over it to be +that much nearer the golden goal. + +In this game of taking desperate chances, many a wild player lost, many +a foolhardy one never reached the shore. No one will ever know the +number of victims claimed by these black unfathomable waters. + +It was the Professor who opened our eyes to the danger of crossing the +lake. He and the Bank clerk quarrelled over the wisdom of delay. The +Professor was positive it was quite safe. The ice was four feet thick. +Go fast over the weak spots and you would be all right. He argued, fumed +and ranted. They were losing precious time, time which might mean all +the difference between failure and success. It was expedient to get +ahead of the rabble. He, for one, was no craven; he had staked his all +on this trip. He had studied the records of Arctic explorers. He thought +he was no man's fool. If others were cowardly enough to hold back, he +would go alone. + +The upshot of it was that one grey morning he took his share of the +outfit and started off by himself. + +Said the Bank clerk, half crying: + +"Poor old Pondersby! In spite of the words we had, we parted the best of +friends. We shook hands and I wished him all good-speed. I saw him +twisting and wriggling among the patches of black and white ice. For a +long time I watched him with a heavy heart. Yet he seemed to be getting +along nicely, and I was beginning to think he was right and to call +myself a fool. He was getting quite small in the distance, when suddenly +he seemed to disappear. I got the glasses. There was a big hole in the +ice, no sleigh, no Pondersby. Poor old fellow!" + +There were many such cases of separation on the shores of Lake Bennett. +Parties who had started out on that trail as devoted chums, finished it +as lifelong enemies. Tempers were ground to a razor-edge; words dropped +crudely; anger flamed to meet anger. You could scarcely blame them. They +did not realise that the trail demanded all that was in a man of +gentleness, patience and forbearance. Poor human nature was strained and +tested inexorably, and the most loving friends became the most deadly +foes forevermore. + +One instance of this was the twins. + +"Say," said the Prodigal, "you ought to see Romulus and Remus. They're +scrapping like cat and dog. Seems they've had a bunch of trouble right +along the line--you know how the trail brings out the yellow streak in a +man. Well, they're both fiery as Hades, so after a particularly warm +evening they swore that as soon as they got to Bennett, they'd divvy up +the stuff and each go off by his lonesome. Somehow, they patched it up +when they reached here and got busy on their boat. Now it seems they've +quarrelled worse than ever. Romulus is telling Remus his real name and +_vice-versa_. They're raking up old grievances of their childhood days, +and the end of it is they've once more decided to halve tip the outfit. +They're mad enough to kill each other. They've even decided to cut their +boat in two." + +It was truly so. We went and watched them. Each had a bitter +determination on his face. They were sawing the boat through the middle. +Afterwards, I believe, they patched up their ends and made a successful +trip to Dawson. + +The ice was going fast. Strangers were still coming in over the trail +with awful tales of its horrors. Bennett was all excitement and seething +life. Thousands of ungainly boats, rafts and scows were waiting to be +launched. Already craft were beginning to come through from Lindeman, +rushing down the fierce torrent between the two lakes. From where we +were camped we saw them pass. There were ugly rapids and a fang-like +rock, against which many a luckless craft was piled up. + +It was the most fascinating thing in the world to watch these daring +Argonauts rush the rapids, to speculate whether or not they would get +through. The stroke of an oar, a few feet to right or left, meant +unspeakable calamity. Poor souls! Their faces of utter despair as they +landed dripping from the water and saw their precious goods disappearing +in the angry foam would have moved a heart of stone. As one man said, in +the bitterness of his heart: + +"Oh, boys, what a funny God we've got!" + +There was a man who came sailing through the passage with a fine boat +and a rich outfit. He had lugged it over the trail at the cost of +infinite toil and weariness. Now his heart was full of hope. Suddenly he +was in the whirl of the current, then all at once loomed up the cruel +rock. His face blanched with horror. Frantically he tried to avoid it. +No use. Crash! and his frail boat splintered like matchwood. + +But this man was a fighter. He set his jaw. Once more he went back over +that deadly trail. He bought, at great expense, a new outfit and had +packers hustle it over the trail. He procured a new boat. Once more he +sailed through the narrow canyon. His face was set and grim. + +Suddenly, like some iron Nemesis, once more loomed up the fatal rock. He +struggled gallantly, but again the current seemed to grip him and throw +him on that deadly fang. With another sickening crash he saw his goods +sink in the seething waters. + +Did he give up? No! A third time he struggled, weary, heartbroken, over +that trail. He had little left now, and with that little he bought his +third outfit, a poor, pathetic shadow of the former ones, but enough for +a desperate man. + +Once more he packed it over the trail, now a perfect Avernus of horror. +He reached the river, and in a third poor little boat, again he sailed +down the passage. There was the swift-leaping current, the ugly tusk of +rock staked with wreckage. A moment, a few feet, a turn of the +oar-blade, and he would have been past. But, no! The rock seemed to +fascinate him as the eyes of a snake fascinate a bird. He stared at it +fearfully, a look of terror and despair. Then for the third time, with a +hideous crash, his frail boat was piled up in a pitiful ruin. + +He was beaten now. + +He climbed on the bank, and there, with a last look at the ugly snarl of +waters, and the jagged up-thrust of that evil rock, he put a bullet +smashing through his brain. + + * * * * * + +The ice was loose and broken. We were all ready to start in a few days. +The mighty camp was in a ferment of excitement. Every one seemed elated +beyond words. On, once more, to Eldorado! + +It was near midnight, but the sky, where the sun had dipped below the +mountain rim, was a sea of translucent green, weirdly and wildly +harmonious with the desolation of the land. On the bleak lake one could +hear the lap of waves, while the high, rocky shore to the left was a +black wall of shadow. I stood by the beach near our boat, all alone in +the wan light, and tried to think calmly of the strange things that had +happened to me. + +Surely there was something of Romance left in this old world yet if one +would only go to seek it. Here I was, sun-browned, strong, healthy, +having come through many trials and still on the edge of adventure, when +I might, but for my own headstrong perversity, have yet been vegetating +on the hills of Glengyle. A great exultation welled up in me, the voice +of youth and ambition, the lust to conquer. I would succeed, I would +wrest from the vast, lonely, mysterious North some of its treasure. I +would be a conqueror. + +Silent and abstracted, I looked into the brooding disk of sheeny sky, my +eyes dream-troubled. + +Then I felt a ghostly hand touch my arm, and with a great start of +surprise, I turned. + +"Berna!" + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + +The girl was wearing a thin black shawl around her shoulders, but in the +icy wind blowing from the lake, she trembled like a wand. Her face was +pale, waxen, almost spiritual in its expression, and she looked at me +with just the most pitiably sweet smile in the world. + +"I'm sorry I startled you; but I wanted to thank you for your letter and +for your sympathy." + +It was the same clear voice, with the throb of tender feeling in it. + +"You see, I'm all alone now." The voice faltered, but went on bravely. +"I've got no one that cares about me any more, and I've been sick, so +sick I wonder I lived. I knew you'd forgotten me, and I don't blame you. +But I've never forgotten you, and I wanted to see you just once more." + +She was speaking quite calmly and unemotionally. + +"Berna!" I cried; "don't say that. Your reproach hurts me so. Indeed I +did try to find you, but it's such a vast camp. There are so many +thousands of people here. Time and again I inquired, but no one seemed +to know. Then I thought you must surely have gone back, and it's been +such a busy time, building our boat and getting ready. No, Berna, I +didn't forget. Many's and many's a night I've lain awake thinking of +you, wondering, longing to see you again--but haven't you forgotten a +little?" + +I saw the sensitive lips smile almost bitterly. + +"No! not even a little." + +"Oh! I'm sorry, Berna. I'm sorry I've looked after you so badly. I'll +never forgive myself. You've been terribly sick, too. What a little +white whisp you are! You look as if a breeze would blow you away. You +shouldn't be out this night, girl. Put my coat around you, come now." + +I wrapped her in it and saw with gladness her shivering cease. As I +buttoned it at her throat I marvelled at the thinness of her, and at the +delicacy of her face. In the opal light of the luminous sky her great +grey eyes were lustrous. + +"Berna," I said again, "why did you come in here, why? You should have +gone back." + +"Gone back," she repeated; "indeed I would have, oh, so gladly. But you +don't understand--they wouldn't let me. After they had got all his +money--and they _did_ get it, though they swear he had nothing--they +made me come on with them. They said I owed them for his burial, and for +the care and attention they gave me when I was sick. They said I must +come on with them and work for them. I protested, I struggled. But +what's the use? I can't do anything against them any more. I'm weak, and +I'm terribly afraid of her." + +She shuddered, then a look of fear came into her eyes. I put my hand on +her arm and drew her close to me. + +"I just slipped away to-night. She thinks I'm asleep in the tent. She +watches me like a cat, and will scarce let me speak to any one. She's so +big and strong, and I'm so slight and weak. She would kill me in one of +her rages. Then she tells every one I'm no good, an ingrate, everything +that's bad. Once when I threatened to run away, she said she would +accuse me of stealing and have me put in gaol. That's the kind of woman +she is." + +"This is terrible, Berna. What have you been doing all the time?" + +"Oh, I've been working, working for them. They've been running a little +restaurant and I've waited on table. I saw you several times, but you +were always too busy or too far away in dreams to see me, and I couldn't +get a chance to speak. But we're going down the lake to-morrow, so I +thought I would just slip away and say good-bye." + +"Not good-bye," I faltered; "not good-bye." + +Her tone was measured, her eyes closed almost. + +"Yes, I'm afraid I must say it. When we get down there, it's good-bye, +good-bye. The less you have to do with me, the better." + +"What do you mean?" + +"Well, I mean this. These people are not decent. They're vile. I must go +with them; I cannot get away. Already, though I'm as pure as your sister +would be, already my being with them has smirched me in everybody's +eyes. I can see it by the way the men look at me. No, go your way and +leave me to whatever fate is in store for me." + +"Never!" I said harshly. "What do you take me for, Berna?" + +"My friend ... you know, after his death, when I was so sick, I wanted +to die. Then I got your letter, and I felt I must see you again for--I +thought a lot of you. No man's ever been so kind to me as you have. +They've all been--the other sort. I used to think of you a good deal, +and I wanted to do some little thing to show you I was really grateful. +On the boat I used to notice you because you were so quiet and +abstracted. Then you were grandfather's room-mate and gentle and kind to +him. You looked different from the others, too; your eyes were good----" + +"Oh, come, Berna, never mind that." + +"Yes, I mean it. I just wanted to tell you the things a poor girl +thought of you. But now it's all nearly over. We've neither of us got to +think of each other any more ... and I just wanted to give you this--to +remind you sometimes of Berna." + +It was a poor little locket and it contained a lock of her silken hair. + +"It's worth nothing, I know, but just keep it for me." + +"Indeed I will, Berna, keep it always, and wear it for you. But I can't +let you go like this. See here, girl, is there nothing I can do? +Nothing? Surely there must be some way. Berna, Berna, look at me, listen +to me! Is there? What can I do? Tell me, tell me, my girl." + +She seemed to sway to me gently. Indeed I did not intend it, but +somehow she was in my arms. She felt so slight and frail a thing, I +feared to hurt her. + +Then I felt her bosom heaving greatly, and I knew she was crying. For a +little I let her cry, but presently I lifted up the white face that lay +on my shoulder. It was wet with tears. Again and again I kissed her. She +lay passively in my arms. Never did she try to escape nor hide her face, +but seemed to give herself up to me. Her tears were salt upon my lips, +yet her own lips were cold, and she did not answer to my kisses. + +At last she spoke. Her voice was like a little sigh. + +"Oh, if it could only be!" + +"What, Berna? Tell me what?" + +"If you could only take me away from them, protect me, care for me. Oh, +if you could only _marry_ me, make me your wife. I would be the best +wife in the world to you; I would work my fingers to the bone for you; I +would starve and suffer for you, and walk the world barefoot for your +sake. Oh, my dear, my dear, pity me!" + +It seemed as if a sudden light had flashed upon my brain, stunning me, +bewildering me. I thought of the princess of my dreams. I thought of +Garry and of Mother. Could I take her to them? + +"Berna," I said sternly, "look at me." + +She obeyed. + +"Berna, tell me, by all you regard as pure and holy, do you love me?" + +She was silent and averted her eyes. + +"No, Berna," I said, "you don't; you're afraid. It's not the sort of +love you've dreamed of. It's not your ideal. It would be gratitude and +affection, love of a kind, but never that great dazzling light, that +passion that would raise to heaven or drag to hell." + +"How do I know? Perhaps that would come in time. I care a great deal for +you. I think of you always. I would be a true, devoted wife----" + +"Yes, I know, Berna; but you don't love me, love me; see, dear. It's so +different. You might care and care till doomsday, but it wouldn't be the +other thing; it wouldn't be love as I have conceived of it, dreamed of +it. Listen, Berna! Here's where our difference in race comes in. You +would rush blindly into this. You would not consider, test and prove +yourself. It's the most serious matter in life to me, something to be +looked at from every side, to be weighed and balanced." + +As I said this, my conscience was whispering fiercely: "Oh, fool! +Coward! Paltering, despicable coward! This girl throws herself on you, +on your honour, chivalry, manhood, and you screen yourself behind a +barrier of convention." + +However, I went on. + +"You might come to love me in time, but we must wait a while, little +girl. Surely that is reasonable? I care for you a great, great deal, but +I don't know if I love you in the great way people should love. Can't we +wait a little, Berna? I'll look after you, dear; won't that do?" + +She disengaged herself from me, sighing woefully. + +"Yes, I suppose that'll do. Oh, I'll never forgive myself for saying +that to you. I shouldn't, but I was so desperate. You don't know what it +meant to me. Please forget it, won't you?" + +"No, Berna, I'll never forget it, and I'll always bless you for having +said it. Believe me, dear, it will all come right. Things aren't so bad. +You're just scared, little one. I'll watch no one harms you, and love +will come to both of us in good time, that love that means life and +death, hate and adoration, rapture and pain, the greatest thing in the +world. Oh, my dear, my dear, trust me! We have known each other such a +brief space. Let us wait a little longer, just a little longer." + +"Yes, that's right, a little longer." + +Her voice was faint and toneless. She disengaged herself. + +"Now, good-night; they may have missed me." + +Almost before I could realise it she had disappeared amid the tents, +leaving me there in the gloom with my heart full of doubt, self-reproach +and pain. + +Oh, despicable, paltering coward! + + + + +CHAPTER XII + + +Spring in the Yukon! Majestic mountains crowned with immemorial snow! +The mad midnight melodies of birds! From the kindly stars to the leaves +of grass that glimmer in the wind, a world pregnant with joy, a land +jewel-bright and virgin-sweet! + +After the obsession of the long, long night, Spring leaps into being +with a sudden sun-thrilled joy, a radiant uplift. The shy emerald +mantles the valleys and fledges the heights; the pussy-willows tremble +by lake and stream; the wild crocus brims the hollows with a haze of +violet; trailing his last ragged pennants of snow on the hills, winter +makes his sullen retreat. + +Perhaps I am over-sensitive, but I have ecstasied moments when to me it +seems the grass is greener, the sky bluer than they are to most; I +surrender my heart to wonder and joy; I am in tune with the triumphant +cadence of Things; I am an atom of praise; I live, therefore I exult. + +Only in hyperbole could I express that golden Spring, as we set sail on +the sunlit waters of Lake Bennett. Never had I felt so glad. And indeed +it was a vastly merry mob that sailed with us, straining their eyes once +more to the Eldorado of their dreams. Bottled-up spirits effervesced +wildly; hearts beat bravely; hopes were high. The bitter landtrail was +forgotten. The clear, bright water leaped laughingly at the bow; the +gallant breeze was blowing behind. The strong men bared their breasts +and drank of it deeply. + +Yes, they were the strong, the fit, suffered by the North to survive, +stiffened and braced and seasoned, the Chosen of the Test, the Proven of +the Trail. Songs of jubilation rang in the night air; men, eager-eyed +and watchful, roared snatches of melody as they toiled at sweep and oar; +banjos, mandolins, fiddles, flutes, mingled in maddest confusion. Once +more the great invading army of the Cheechakos moved forward +tumultuously, but now with mirth and rejoicing. + +The great calm night was never dark, the great deep lakes infinitely +serene, the great mountains majestically solemn. In the lighted sky the +pale ghost-moon seemed ever apologising for itself. The world was a +grand harmonious symphony that even the advancing tide of the Argonauts +could not mar. + +Yet, under all the mirth and gaiety, you could feel, tense, ruthless and +dominant, the spirit of the trail. In that invincible onrush of human +effort, as the oars bent with their strokes of might, as the sail +bellied before the breeze, as the eager wave leapt at the bow, you could +feel the passion that quickened their hearts and steeled their arms. +Klondike or bust! Once more the slogan rang on bearded lips; once more +the gold-lust smouldered in their eyes. The old primal lust resurged: to +win at any cost, to thrust down those in the way, to fight fiercely, +brutally, even as wolf-dogs fight, this was the code, the terrible code +of the Gold-trail. The basic passions up-leapt, envy and hate and fear +triumphed, and with ever increasing excitement the great fleet of the +gold-hunters strained onward to the valley of the treasure. + +Of all who had started out with us but a few had got this far. Of these +Mervin and Hewson were far in front, victors of the trail, qualified to +rank with the Men of the High North, the Sourdoughs of the Yukon Valley. +Somewhere in the fleet were the Bank clerk, the Halfbreed and +Bullhammer, while three days' start ahead were the Winklesteins. + +"These Jews have the only system," commented the Prodigal; "they ran the +'Elight' Restaurant in Bennett and got action on their beans and flour +and bacon. The Madam cooked, the old man did the chores and the girl +waited on table. They've roped in a bunch of money, and now they've lit +out for Dawson in a nice, tight little scow with their outfits turned +into wads of the long green." + +I kept a keen lookout for them and every day I hoped we would overtake +their scow, for constantly I thought of Berna. Her little face, so +wistfully tender, haunted me, and over and over in my mind I kept +recalling our last meeting. + +At times I blamed myself for letting her go so easily, and then again I +was thankful that I had not allowed my heart to run away with my head. +For I was beginning to wonder if I had not given her my heart, given it +easily, willingly and without reserve. And in truth at the idea I felt +a strange thrill of joy. The girl seemed to me all that was fair, +lovable and sweet. + +We were now skimming over Tagish Lake. With grey head bared to the +breeze and a hymn stave on his lips, Salvation Jim steered in the strong +sunlight. His face was full of cheer, his eyes alight with kindly hope. +Leaning over the side, the Prodigal was dragging a spoon-bait to catch +the monster trout that lived in those depths. The Jam-wagon, as if +disgusted at our enforced idleness, slumbered at the bow. As he slept I +noticed his fine nostrils, his thin, bitter lips, his bare brawny arms, +tattooed with strange devices. How clean he kept his teeth and nails! +There was the stamp of the thoroughbred all over him. In what strange +parts of the world had he run amuck? What fair, gracious women mourned +for him in far-away England? + +Ah, those enchanted days, the sky spaces abrim with light, the +gargantuan mountains, the eager army of adventurers, undismayed at the +gloomy vastness! + +We came to Windy Arm, rugged, desolate and despairful. Down it, with +menace and terror on its wings, rushes the furious wind, driving boats +and scows crashing on an iron shore. In the night we heard shouts; we +saw wreckage piled up on the beach, but we pulled away. For twelve weary +hours we pulled at the oars, and in the end our danger was past. + +We came to Lake Tagish; a dead calm, a blazing sun, a seething mist of +mosquitoes. We sweltered in the heat; we strained, with blistered +hands, at the oars; we cursed and toiled like a thousand others of that +grotesque fleet. There were boats of every shape, square, oblong, +circular, three-cornered, flat, round--anything that would float. They +were made mostly of boards, laboriously hand-sawn in the woods, and from +a half-inch to four inches thick. Black pitch smeared the seams of the +raw lumber. They travelled sideways as well as in any other fashion. And +in such crazy craft were thousands of amateur boatmen, sailing serenely +along, taking danger with sang-froid, and at night, over their +camp-fires, hilariously telling of their hairbreadth escapes. + +We entered the Fifty-mile River; we were in a giant valley; tier after +tier of benchland rose to sentinel mountains of austerest grandeur. +There at the bottom the little river twisted like a silver wire, and +down it rowed the eager army. They shattered the silence into wildest +echo, they roused the bears out of their frozen sleep; the forest flamed +from their careless fires. + +The river was our beast of burden now, a tireless, gentle beast. +Serenely and smoothly it bore us onward, yet there was a note of menace +in its song. They had told us of the canyon and of the rapids, and as we +pulled at the oars and battled with the mosquitoes, we wondered when the +danger was coming, how we would fare through it when it came. + +Then one evening as we were sweeping down the placid river, the current +suddenly quickened. The banks were sliding past at a strange speed. +Swiftly we whirled around a bend, and there we were right on top of the +dreadful canyon. Straight ahead was what seemed to be a solid wall of +rock. The river looked to have no outlet; but as we drew nearer we saw +that there was a narrow chasm in the stony face, and at this the water +was rearing and charging with an angry roar. + +The current was gripping us angrily now; there was no chance to draw +back. At his post stood the Jam-wagon with the keen, alert look of the +man who loves danger. A thrill of excitement ran through us all. With +set faces we prepared for the fight. + +I was in the bow. All at once I saw directly in front a scow struggling +to make the shore. In her there were three people, two women and a man. +I saw the man jump out with a rope and try to snub the scow to a tree. +Three times he failed, running along the bank and shouting frantically. +I saw one of the women jump for the shore. Then at the same instant the +rope parted, and the scow, with the remaining woman, went swirling on +into the canyon. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + +All this I saw, and so fascinated was I that I forgot our own peril. I +heard a shrill scream of fear; I saw the solitary woman crouch down in +the bottom of the scow, burying her face in her hands; I saw the scow +rise, hover, and then plunge downward into the angry maw of the canyon. + +The river hurried us on helplessly. We were in the canyon now. The air +grew dark. On each side, so close it seemed we could almost touch them +with our oars, were black, ancient walls, towering up dizzily. The river +seemed to leap and buck, its middle arching four feet higher than its +sides, a veritable hog-back of water. It bounded on in great billows, +green, hillocky and terribly swift, like a liquid toboggan slide. We +plunged forward, heaved aloft, and the black, moss-stained walls +brindled past us. + +About midway in the canyon is a huge basin, like the old crater of a +volcano, sloping upwards to the pine-fringed skyline. Here was a giant +eddy, and here, circling round and round, was the runaway scow. The +forsaken woman was still crouching on it. The light was quite wan, and +we were half blinded by the flying spray, but I clung to my place at the +bow and watched intently. + +"Keep clear of that scow," I heard some one shout. "Avoid the eddy." + +It was almost too late. The ill-fated scow spun round and swooped down +on us. In a moment we would have been struck and overturned, but I saw +Jim and the Jam-wagon give a desperate strain at the oars. I saw the +scow swirling past, just two feet from us. I looked again--then with a +wild panic of horror I saw that the crouching figure was that of Berna. + +I remember jumping--it must have been five feet--and I landed half in, +half out of the water. I remember clinging a moment, then pulling myself +aboard. I heard shouts from the others as the current swept them into +the canyon. I remember looking round and cursing because both sweeps had +been lost overboard, and lastly I remember bending over Berna and +shouting in her ear: + +"All right, I'm with you!" + +If an angel had dropped from high heaven to her rescue I don't believe +the girl could have been more impressed. For a moment she stared at me +unbelievingly. I was kneeling by her and she put her hands on my +shoulders as if to prove to herself that I was real. Then, with a +half-sob, half-cry of joy, she clasped her arms tightly around me. +Something in her look, something in the touch of her slender, clinging +form made my heart exult. Once again I shouted in her ear. + +"It's all right, don't be frightened. We'll pull through, all right." + +Once more we had whirled off into the main current; once more we were in +that roaring torrent, with its fearsome dips and rises, its columned +walls corroded with age and filled with the gloom of eternal twilight. +The water smashed and battered us, whirled us along relentlessly, lashed +us in heavy sprays; yet with closed eyes and thudding hearts we waited. +Then suddenly the light grew strong again. The primæval walls were gone. +We were sweeping along smoothly, and on either side of us the valley +sloped in green plateaus up to the smiling sky. + +I unlocked my arms and peered down to where her face lay half hidden on +my breast. + +"Thank God, I was able to reach you!" + +"Yes, thank God!" she answered faintly. "Oh, I thought it was all over. +I nearly died with fear. It was terrible. Thank God for you!" + +But she had scarce spoken when I realised, with a vast shock, that the +danger was far from over. We were hurrying along helplessly in that +fierce current, and already I heard the roar of the Squaw Rapids. Ahead, +I could see them dancing, boiling, foaming, blood-red in the sunset +glow. + +"Be brave, Berna," I had to shout again; "we'll be all right. Trust me, +dear!" + +She, too, was staring ahead with dilated eyes of fear. Yet at my words +she became wonderfully calm, and in her face there was a great, glad +look that made my heart rejoice. She nestled to my side. Once more she +waited. + +We took the rapids broadside on, but the scow was light and very strong. +Like a cork in a mill-stream we tossed and spun around. The vicious, +mauling wolf-pack of the river heaved us into the air, and worried us +as we fell. Drenched, deafened, stunned with fierce, nerve-shattering +blows, every moment we thought to go under. We were in a caldron of +fire. The roar of doom was in our ears. Giant hands with claws of foam +were clutching, buffeting us. Shrieks of fury assailed us, as demon +tossed us to demon. Was there no end to it? Thud, crash, roar, sickening +us to our hearts; lurching, leaping, beaten, battered ... then all at +once came a calm; we must be past; we opened our eyes. + +We were again sweeping round a bend in the river in the shadow of a high +bluff. If we could only make the bank--but, no! The current hurled us +along once more. I saw it sweep under a rocky face of the hillside, and +then I knew that the worst was coming. For there, about two hundred +yards away, were the dreaded Whitehorse Rapids. + +"Close your eyes, Berna!" I cried. "Lie down on the bottom. Pray as you +never prayed before." + +We were on them now. The rocky banks close in till they nearly meet. +They form a narrow gateway of rock, and through those close-set jaws the +raging river has to pass. Leaping, crashing over its boulder-strewn bed, +gaining in terrible impetus at every leap, it gathers speed for its last +desperate burst for freedom. Then with a great roar it charges the gap. + +But there, right in the way, is a giant boulder. Water meets rock in a +crash of terrific onset. The river is beaten, broken, thrown back on +itself, and with a baffled roar rises high in the air in a raging hell +of spume and tempest. For a moment the chasm is a battleground of the +elements, a fierce, titanic struggle. Then the river, wrenching free, +falls into the basin below. + +"Lie down, Berna, and hold on to me!" + +We both dropped down in the bottom of the scow, and she clasped me so +tightly I marvelled at the strength of her. I felt her wet cheek pressed +to mine, her lips clinging to my lips. + +"Now, dear, just a moment and it will all be over." + +Once again the angry thunder of the waters. The scow took them nose on, +riding gallantly. Again we were tossed like a feather in a whirlwind, +pitchforked from wrath to wrath. Once more, swinging, swerving, +straining, we pelted on. On pinnacles of terror our hearts poised +nakedly. The waters danced a fiery saraband; each wave was a demon +lashing at us as we passed; or again they were like fear-maddened horses +with whipping manes of flame. We clutched each other convulsively. Would +it never, never end ... then ... then ... + +It seemed the last had come. Up, up we went. We seemed to hover +uncertainly, tilted, hair-poised over a yawning gulf. Were we going to +upset? Mental agony screamed in me. But, no! We righted. Dizzily we +dipped over; steeply we plunged down. Oh! it was terrible! We were in a +hornets' nest of angry waters and they were stinging us to death; we +were in a hollow cavern roofed over with slabs of seething foam; the +fiery horses were trampling us under their myriad hoofs. I gave up all +hope. I felt the girl faint in my arms. How long it seemed! I wished for +the end. _The flying hammers of hell were pounding us, pounding us--Oh, +God! Oh, God!..._ + +Then, swamped from bow to stern, half turned over, wrecked and broken, +we swept into the peaceful basin of the river below. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + +On the flats around the Whitehorse Rapids was a great largess of wild +flowers. The shooting stars gladdened the glade with gold; the bluebells +brimmed the woodland hollow with amethyst; the fire-weed splashed the +hills with the pink of coral. Daintily swinging, like clustered pearls, +were the petals of the orchid. In glorious profusion were begonias, +violets, and Iceland poppies, and all was in a setting of the keenest +emerald. But over the others dominated the wild rose, dancing everywhere +and flinging its perfume to the joyful breeze. + +Boats and scows were lined up for miles along the river shore. On the +banks water-soaked outfits lay drying in the sun. We, too, had shipped +much water in our passage, and a few days would be needed to dry out +again. So it was that I found some hours of idleness and was able to see +a good deal of Berna. + +Madam Winklestein I found surprisingly gracious. She smiled on me, and +in her teeth, like white quartz, the creviced gold gleamed. She had a +smooth, flattering way with her that disarmed enmity. Winklestein, too, +had conveniently forgotten our last interview, and extended to me the +paw of spurious friendship. I was free to see Berna as much as I chose. + +Thus it came about that we rambled among the woods and hills, picking +wild flowers and glad almost with the joy of children. In these few days +I noted a vast change in the girl. Her cheeks, pale as the petals of the +wild orchid, seemed to steal the tints of the briar-rose, and her eyes +beaconed with the radiance of sun-waked skies. It was as if in the poor +child a long stifled capacity for joy was glowing into being. + +One golden day, with her cheeks softly flushed, her eyes shining, she +turned to me. + +"Oh, I could be so happy if I only had a chance, if I only had the +chance other girls have. It would take so little to make me the happiest +girl in the world--just to have a home, a plain, simple home where all +was sunshine and peace; just to have the commonest comforts, to be +care-free, to love and be loved. That would be enough." She sighed and +went on: + +"Then if I might have books, a little music, flowers--oh, it seems like +a dream of heaven; as well might I sigh for a palace." + +"No palace could be too fair for you, Berna, no prince too noble. Some +day, your prince will come, and you will give him that great love I told +you of once." + +Swiftly a shadow came into the bright eyes, the sweet mouth curved +pathetically. + +"Not even a beggar will seek me, a poor nameless girl travelling in the +train of dishonour ... and again, I will never love." + +"Yes, you will indeed, girl--infinitely, supremely. I know you, Berna; +you'll love as few women do. Your dearest will be all your world, his +smile your heaven, his frown your death. Love was at the fashioning of +you, dear, and kissed your lips and sent you forth, saying, 'There goeth +my handmaiden.'" + +I thought for a while ere I went on. + +"You cared for your grandfather; you gave him your whole heart, a love +full of self-sacrifice, of renunciation. Now he is gone, you will love +again, but the next will be to the last as wine is to water. And the day +will come when you will love grandly. Yours will be a great, consuming +passion that knows no limit, no assuagement. It will be your glory and +your shame. For him will your friends be foes, your light darkness. You +will go through fire and water for your beloved's sake; your parched +lips will call his name, your frail hands cling to him in the shadow of +death. Oh, I know, I know. Love has set you apart. You will immolate +yourself on his altars. You will dare, defy and die for him. I'm sorry +for you, Berna." + +Her face hung down, her lips quivered. As for me, I was surprised at my +words and scarce knew what I was saying. + +At last she spoke. + +"If ever I loved like that, the man I loved must be a king among men, a +hero, almost a god." + +"Perhaps, Berna, perhaps; but not needfully. He may be a grim man with a +face of power and passion, a virile, dominant brute, but--well, I think +he will be more of a god. Let's change the subject." + +I found she had all the sad sophistication of the lowly-born, yet with +it an invincible sense of purity, a delicate horror of the physical +phases of love. She was a finely motived creature with impossible +ideals, but out of her stark knowledge of life she was naïvely +outspoken. + +Once I asked of her: + +"Berna, if you had to choose between death and dishonour, which would +you prefer?" + +"Death, of course," she answered promptly. + +"Death's a pretty hard proposition," I commented. + +"No, it's easy; physical death, compared with the other, compared with +moral death." + +She was very emphatic and angry with me for my hazarded demur. In an +atmosphere of disillusionment and moral miasma she clung undauntedly to +her ideals. Never was such a brave spirit, so determined in goodness, so +upright in purity, and I blessed her for her unfaltering words. "May +such sentiments as yours," I prayed, "be ever mine. In doubt, despair, +defeat, oh Life, take not away from me my faith in the pure heart of +woman!" + +Often I watched her thoughtfully, her slim, well-poised figure, her grey +eyes that were fuller of soul than any eyes I have ever seen, her brown +hair wherein the sunshine loved to pick out threads of gold, her +delicate features with their fine patrician quality. We were dreamers +twain, but while my outlook was gay with hope, hers was dark with +despair. Since the episode of the scow I had never ventured to kiss her, +but had treated her with a curious reserve, respect and courtesy. + +Indeed, I was diagnosing my case, wondering if I loved her, affirming, +doubting on a very see-saw of indetermination. When with her I felt for +her an intense fondness and at times an almost irresponsible tenderness. +My eyes rested longingly on her, noting with tremulous joy the curves +and shading of her face, and finding in its very defects, beauties. + +When I was away from her--oh, the easeless longing that was almost pain, +the fanciful elaboration of our last talk, the hint of her graces in +bird and flower and tree! I wanted her wildly, and the thought of a +world empty of her was monstrous. I wondered how in the past we had both +existed and how I had lived, carelessly, happy and serenely indifferent. +I tried to think of a time when she should no longer have power to make +my heart quicken with joy or contract with fear--and the thought of such +a state was insufferable pain. Was I in love? Poor, fatuous fool! I +wanted her more than everything else in all the world, yet I hesitated +and asked myself the question. + +Hundreds of boats and scows were running the rapids, and we watched them +with an untiring fascination. That was the most exciting spectacle in +the whole world. The issue was life or death, ruin or salvation, and +from dawn till dark, and with every few minutes of the day, was the +breathless climax repeated. The faces of the actors were sick with +dread and anxiety. It was curious to study the various expressions of +the human countenance unmasked and confronted with gibbering fear. Yes, +it was a vivid drama, a drama of cheers and tears, always thrilling and +often tragic. Every day were bodies dragged ashore. The rapids demanded +their tribute. The men of the trail must pay the toll. Sullen and +bloated the river disgorged its prey, and the dead, without prayer or +pause, were thrown into nameless graves. + +On our first day at the rapids we met the Halfbreed. He was on the point +of starting downstream. Where was the Bank clerk? Oh, yes; they had +upset coming through; when last he had seen little Pinklove he was +struggling in the water. However, they expected to get the body every +hour. He had paid two men to find and bury it. He had no time to wait. + +We did not blame him. In those wild days of headstrong hurry and +gold-delirium human life meant little. "Another floater," one would say, +and carelessly turn away. A callousness to death that was almost +mediæval was in the air, and the friends of the dead hurried on, the +richer by a partner's outfit. It was all new, strange, sinister to me, +this unveiling of life's naked selfishness and lust. + +Next morning they found the body, a poor, shapeless, sodden thing with +such a crumpled skull. My thoughts went back to the sweet-faced girl who +had wept so bitterly at his going. Even then, maybe, she was thinking +of him, fondly dreaming of his return, seeing the glow of triumph in his +boyish eyes. She would wait and hope; then she would wait and despair; +then there would be another white-faced woman saying, "He went to the +Klondike, and never came back. We don't know what became of him." + +Verily, the way of the gold-trail was cruel. + +Berna was with me when they buried him. + +"Poor boy, poor boy!" she repeated. + +"Yes, poor little beggar! He was so quiet and gentle. He was no man for +the trail. It's a funny world." + +The coffin was a box of unplaned boards loosely nailed together, and the +men were for putting him into a grave on top of another coffin. I +protested, so sullenly they proceeded to dig a new grave. Berna looked +very unhappy, and when she saw that crude, shapeless pine coffin she +broke down and cried bitterly. + +At last she dried her tears and with a happier look in her eyes bade me +wait a little until she returned. Soon again she came back, carrying +some folds of black sateen over her arm. As she ripped at this with a +pair of scissors, I noticed there was a deep frilling to it. Also a +bright blush came into her cheek at the curious glance I gave to the +somewhat skimpy lines of her skirt. But the next instant she was busy +stretching and tacking the black material over the coffin. + +The men had completed the new grave. It was only three feet deep, but +the water coming in had prevented them from digging further. As we laid +the coffin in the hole it looked quite decent now in its black covering. +It floated on the water, but after some clods had been thrown down, it +sank with many gurglings. It was as if the dead man protested against +his bitter burial. We watched the grave-diggers throw a few more +shovelsful of earth over the place, then go off whistling. Poor little +Berna! she cried steadily. At last she said: + +"Let's get some flowers." + +So out of briar-roses she fashioned a cross and a wreath, and we laid +them reverently on the muddy heap that marked the Bank clerk's grave. + +Oh, the pitiful mockery of it! + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + +Soon I knew that Berna and I must part, and but two nights later it +came. It was near midnight, yet in no ways dark, and everywhere the camp +was astir. We were sitting by the river, I remember, a little way from +the boats. Where the sun had set, the sky was a luminous veil of +ravishing green, and in the elusive light her face seemed wanly sweet +and dreamlike. + +A sad spirit rustled amid the shivering willows and a great sadness had +come over the girl. All the happiness of the past few days seemed to +have ebbed away from her and left her empty of hope. As she sat there, +silent and with hands clasped, it was as if the shadows that for a +little had lifted, now enshrouded her with a greater gloom. + +"Tell me your trouble, Berna." + +She shook her head, her eyes wide as if trying to read the future. + +"Nothing." + +Her voice was almost a whisper. + +"Yes, there is, I know. Tell me, won't you?" + +Again she shook her head. + +"What's the matter, little chum?" + +"It's nothing; it's only my foolishness. If I tell you, it wouldn't help +me any. And then--it doesn't matter. You wouldn't care. Why should you +care?" + +She turned away from me and seemed absorbed in bitter thought. + +"Care! why, yes, I would care; I do care. You know I would do anything +in the world to help you. You know I would be unhappy if you were +unhappy. You know----" + +"Then it would only worry you." + +She was regarding me anxiously. + +"Now you must tell me, Berna. It will worry me indeed if you don't." + +Once more she refused. I pleaded with her gently. I coaxed, I entreated. +She was very reluctant, yet at last she yielded. + +"Well, if I must," she said; "but it's all so sordid, so mean, I hate +myself; I despise myself that I should have to tell it." + +She kneaded a tiny handkerchief nervously in her fingers. + +"You know how nice Madam Winklestein's been to me lately--bought me new +clothes, given me trinkets. Well, there's a reason--she's got her eye on +a man for me." + +I gave an exclamation of surprise. + +"Yes; you know she's let us go together--it's all to draw him on. Oh, +couldn't you see it? Didn't you suspect something? You don't know how +bitterly they hate you." + +I bit my lip. + +"Who's the man?" + +"Jack Locasto." + +I started. + +"Have you heard of him?" she asked. "He's got a million-dollar claim on +Bonanza." + +Had I heard of him! Who had not heard of Black Jack, his spectacular +poker plays, his meteoric rise, his theatric display? + +"Of course he's married," she went on, "but that doesn't matter up here. +There's such a thing as a Klondike marriage, and they say he behaves +well to his discarded mis----" + +"Berna!" angry and aghast, I had stopped her. "Never let me hear you +utter that word. Even to say it seems pollution." + +She laughed harshly, bitterly. + +"What's this whole life but pollution?... Well, anyway, he wants me." + +"But you wouldn't, surely you wouldn't?" + +She turned on me fiercely. + +"What do you take me for? Surely you know me better than that. Oh, you +almost make me hate you." + +Suddenly she pressed the little handkerchief to her eyes. She fell to +sobbing convulsively. Vainly I tried to soothe her, whispering: + +"Oh, my dear, tell me all about it. I'm sorry, girl, I'm sorry." + +She ceased crying. She went on in her fierce, excited way. + +"He came to the restaurant in Bennett. He used to watch me a lot. His +eyes were always following me. I was afraid. I trembled when I served +him. He liked to see me tremble, it gave him a feeling of power. Then he +took to giving me presents, a diamond ring, a heart-shaped locket, +costly gifts. I wanted to return them, but she wouldn't let me, took +them from me, put them away. Then he and she had long talks. I know it +was all about me. That was why I came to you that night and begged you +to marry me--to save me from him. Now it's gone from bad to worse. The +net's closing round me in spite of my flutterings." + +"But he can't get you against your will," I cried. + +"No! no! but he'll never give up. He'll try so long as I resist him. I'm +nice to him just to humour him and gain time. I can't tell you how much +I fear him. They say he always gets his way with women. He's masterly +and relentless. There's a cold, sneering command in his smile. You hate +him but you obey him." + +"He's an immoral monster, Berna. He spares neither time nor money to +gratify his whims where a woman is concerned. And he has no pity." + +"I know, I know." + +"He's intensely masculine, handsome in a vivid, gipsy sort of way; big, +strong and compelling, but a callous libertine." + +"Yes, he's all that. And can you wonder then my heart is full of fear, +that I am distracted, that I asked you what I did? He is relentless and +of all women he wants me. He would break me on the wheel of dishonour. +Oh, God!" + +Her face grew almost tragic in its despair. + +"And everything's against me; they're all helping him. I haven't a +single friend, not one to stand by me, to aid me. Once I thought of you, +and you failed me. Can you wonder I'm nearly crazy with the terror of +it? Can you wonder I was desperate enough to ask you to save me? I'm all +alone, friendless, a poor, weak girl. No, I'm wrong. I've one +friend--death; and I'll die, I'll die, I swear it, before I let him get +me." + +Her words came forth in a torrent, half choked by sobs. It was hard to +get her calmed. Never had I thought her capable of such force, such +passion. I was terribly distressed and at a loss how to comfort her. + +"Hush, Berna," I pleaded, "please don't say such things. Remember you +have a friend in me, one that would do anything in his power to help +you." + +She looked at me a moment. + +"How can you help me?" + +I held both of her hands firmly, looking into her eyes. + +"By marrying you. Will you marry me, dear? Will you be my wife?" + +"No!" + +I started. "Berna!" + +"No! I wouldn't marry you if you were the last man left in the world," +she cried vehemently. + +"Why?" I tried to be calm. + +"Why! why, you don't love me; you don't care for me." + +"Yes, I do, Berna. I do indeed, girl. Care for you! Well, I care so much +that--I beg you to marry me." + +"Yes, yes, but you don't love me right, not in your great, grand way. +Not in the way you told me of. Oh, I know; it's part pity, part +friendship. It would be different if I cared in the same way, if--if I +didn't care so very much more." + +"You do, Berna; you love me like that?" + +"How do I know? How can I tell? How can any of us tell?" + +"No, dear," I said, "love has no limits, no bounds, it is always holding +something in reserve. There are yet heights beyond the heights, that +mock our climbing, never perfection; no great love but might have been +eclipsed by a greater. There's a master key to every heart, and we poor +fools delude ourselves with the idea we are opening all the doors. We +are on sufferance, we are only understudies in the love drama, but +fortunately the star seldom appears on the scene. However, this I +know----" + +I rose to my feet. + +"Since the moment I set eyes on you, I loved you. Long before I ever met +you, I loved you. I was just waiting for you, waiting. At first I could +not understand, I did not know what it meant, but now I do, beyond the +peradventure of a doubt; there never was any but you, never will be any +but you. Since the beginning of time it was all planned that I should +love you. And you, how do you care?" + +She stood up to hear my words. She would not let me touch her, but there +was a great light in her eyes. Then she spoke and her voice was vibrant +with passion, all indifference gone from it. + +"Oh, you blind! you coward! Couldn't you see? Couldn't you feel? That +day on the scow it came to me--Love. It was such as I had never dreamed +of, rapture, ecstasy, anguish. Do you know what I wished as we went +through the rapids? I wished that it might be the end, that in such a +supreme moment we might go down clinging together, and that in death I +might hold you in my arms. Oh, if you'd only been like that afterwards, +met love open-armed with love. But, no! you slipped back to friendship. +I feel as if there were a barrier of ice between us now. I will try +never to care for you any more. Now leave me, leave me, for I never want +to see you again." + +"Yes, you will, you must, you must, Berna. I'd sell my immortal soul to +win that love from you, my dearest, my dearest; I'd crawl around the +world to kiss your shadow. If you called to me I would come from the +ends of the earth, through storm and darkness, to your side. I love you +so, I love you so." + +I crushed her to me, I kissed her madly, yet she was cold. + +"Have you nothing more to say than fine words?" she asked. + +"Marry me, marry me," I repeated. + +"Now?" + +Now! I hesitated again. The suddenness of it was like a cold douche. God +knows, I burned for the girl, yet somehow convention clamped me. + +"Now if you wish," I faltered; "but better when we get to Dawson. Better +when I've made good up there. Give me one year, Berna, one year and +then----" + +"One year!" + +The sudden gleam of hope vanished from her eyes. For the third time I +was failing her, yet my cursed prudence overrode me. + +"Oh, it will pass swiftly, dear. You will be quite safe. I will be near +you and watch over you." + +I reassured her, anxiously explaining how much better it would be if we +waited a little. + +"One year!" she repeated, and it seemed to me her voice was toneless. +Then she turned to me in a sudden spate of passion, her face pleading, +furrowed, wretchedly sad. + +"Oh, my dear, my dear, I love you better than the whole world, but I +hoped you would care enough for me to marry me now. It would have been +best, believe me. I thought you would rise to the occasion, but you've +failed me. Well, be it so, we'll wait one year." + +"Yes, believe me, trust me, dear; it will be all right. I'll work for +you, slave for you, think only of you, and in twelve short months--I'll +give my whole life to make you happy." + +"Will you, dear? Well, it doesn't matter now.... I've loved you." + + * * * * * + +All that night I wrestled with myself. I felt I ought to marry her at +once to shield her from the dangers that encompassed her. She was like a +lamb among a pack of wolves. I juggled with my conscience. I was young +and marriage to me seemed such a terribly all-important step. + +Yet in the end my better nature triumphed, and ere the camp was astir I +arose. I was going to marry Berna that day. A feeling of relief came +over me. How had it ever seemed possible to delay? I was elated beyond +measure. + +I hurried to tell her, I pictured her joy. I was almost breathless. Love +words trembled on my tongue tip. It seemed to me I could not bear to +wait a moment. + +Then as I reached the place where they had rested I gazed unbelievingly. +A sickening sense of loss and failure crushed me. + +For the scow was gone. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + + +It was three days before we made a start again, and to me each day was +like a year. I chafed bitterly at the delay. Would those sacks of flour +never dry? Longingly I gazed down the big, blue Yukon and cursed the +current that was every moment carrying her farther from me. Why her +sudden departure? I had no doubt it was enforced. I dreaded danger. Then +in a while I grew calmer. I was foolish to worry. She was safe enough. +We would meet in Dawson. + +At last we were under way. Once more we sped down that devious river, +now swirling under the shadow of a steep bank, now steering around a +sandspit. The scenery was hideous to me, bluffs of clay with pines +peeping over their rims, willow-fringed flats, swamps of niggerhead, +ugly drab hills in endless monotony. + +How full of kinks and hooks was the river! How vicious with snags! How +treacherous with eddies! It was beginning to bulk in my thoughts almost +like an obsession. Then one day Lake Labarge burst on my delighted eyes. +The trail was nearing its end. + +Once more with swelling sail we drove before the wind. Once more we were +in a fleet of Argonaut boats, and now, with the goal in sight, each man +redoubled his efforts. Perhaps the rich ground would all be gone ere we +reached the valley. Maddening thought after what we had endured! We must +get on. + +There was not a man in all that fleet but imagined that fortune awaited +him with open arms. They talked exultantly. Their eyes shone with the +gold-lust. They strained at sweep and oar. To be beaten at the last! Oh, +it was inconceivable! A tigerish eagerness filled them; a panic of fear +and cupidity spurred them on. + +Labarge was a dream lake, mirroring noble mountains in its depths (for +soon after we made it, a dead calm fell). But we had no eyes for its +beauty. The golden magnet was drawing us too strongly now. We cursed +that exquisite serenity that made us sweat at the oars; we cursed the +wind that never would arise; the currents that always were against us. +In that breathless tranquillity myriads of mosquitoes assailed us, +blinded us, covered our food as we ate, made our lives a perfect hell of +misery. Yet the trail was nearing its finish. + +What a relief it was when a sudden storm came up! White-caps tossed +around us, and the wind drove us on a precipitous shore, so that we +nearly came to a sorry end. But it was over at last, and we swept on +into the Thirty-mile River. + +A furious, hurling stream was this, that matched our mad, impatient +mood; but it was staked with hidden dangers. We gripped our weary oars. +Keenly alert we had to be, steering and watching for rocks that would +have ripped us from bow to stern. There was a famously terrible one, on +which scows smashed like egg-shells under a hammer, and we missed it by +a bare hand's-breadth. I felt sick to think of our bitterness had we +piled up on it. That was an evil, ugly river, full of capricious turns +and eddies, and the bluffs were high and steep. + +Hootalinqua, Big Salmon, Little Salmon, these are names to me now. All I +can remember is long days of toil at the oar, fighting the growing +obsession of mosquitoes, ever pressing on to the golden valley. The +ceaseless strain was beginning to tell on us. We suffered from +rheumatism, we barked with cold. Oh, we were weary, weary, yet the trail +was nearing its end. + +One sunlit Sabbath evening I remember well. We were drifting along and +we came on a lovely glade where a creek joined the river. It was a +green, velvety, sparkling place, and by the creek were two men +whipsawing lumber. We hailed them jauntily and asked them if they had +found prospects. Were they getting out lumber for sluice-boxes? + +One of the men came forward. He was very tired, very quiet, very solemn. +"No," he said, "we are sawing out a coffin for our dead." + +Then we saw a limp shape in their boat and we hurried on, awed and +abashed. + +The river was mud colour now, swirling in great eddies or convulsed from +below with sudden upheavals. Drifting on that oily current one seemed to +be quite motionless, and only the gliding banks assured us of progress. +The country seemed terrible to me, sinister, guilty, God-forsaken. At +the horizon, jagged mountains stabbed viciously at the sky. + +The river overwhelmed me. Sometimes it was a stream of blood, running +into the eye of the setting sun, beautiful, yet weird and menacing. It +broadened, deepened, and every day countless streams swelled its volume. +Islands waded in it greenly. Always we heard it _singing_, a seething, +hissing noise supposed to be the pebbles shuffling on the bottom. + +The days were insufferably hot and mosquito-curst; the nights chilly, +damp and mosquito-haunted. I suffered agonies from neuralgia. Never +mind, it would soon be over. We were on our last lap. The trail was near +its end. + +Yes, it was indeed the homestretch. Suddenly sweeping round a bend we +raised a shout of joy. There was that great livid scar on the mountain +face--the "Slide," and clustered below it like shells on the seashore, +an army of tents. It was the gold-born city. + +Trembling with eagerness we pulled ashore. Our troubles were over. At +last we had gained our Eldorado, thank God, thank God! + +A number of loafers were coming to meet us. They were strangely calm. + +"How about the gold?" said the Prodigal; "lots of ground left to stake?" + +One of them looked at us contemptuously. He chewed a moment ere he +spoke. + +"You Cheechakers better git right home. There ain't a foot of ground to +stake. Everything in sight was staked last Fall. The rest is all mud. +There's nothing doin' an' there's ten men for every job! The whole +thing's a fake. You Cheechakers better git right home." + +Yes, after all our travail, all our torment, we had better go right +home. Already many were preparing to do so. Yet what of that great +oncoming horde of which we were but the vanguard? What of the eager +army, the host of the Cheechakos? For hundreds of miles were lake and +river white with their grotesque boats. Beyond them again were thousands +and thousands of others struggling on through mosquito-curst morasses, +bent under their inexorable burdens. Reckless, indomitable, +hope-inspired, they climbed the passes and shot the rapids; they drowned +in the rivers, they rotted in the swamps. Nothing could stay them. The +golden magnet was drawing them on; the spell of the gold-lust was in +their hearts. + +And this was the end. For this they had mortgaged homes and broken +hearts. For this they had faced danger and borne suffering: to be told +to return. + +The land was choosing its own. All along it had weeded out the +weaklings. Now let the fainthearted go back. This land was only for the +Strong. + +Yet it was sad, so much weariness, and at the end disenchantment and +failure. + +Verily the ways of the gold-trail were cruel. + + + + +BOOK III + +THE CAMP + + +For once you've panned the speckled sand and seen the bonny dust, + Its peerless brightness blinds you like a spell; +It's little else you care about; you go because you must, + And you feel that you could follow it to hell. +You'd follow it in hunger, and you'd follow it in cold; + You'd follow it in solitude and pain; +And when you're stiff and battened down let some one whisper "Gold," + You're lief to rise and follow it again. + +--"The Prospector." + + + + +CHAPTER I + + +I will always remember my first day in the gold-camp. We were well in +front of the Argonaut army, but already thousands were in advance of us. +The flat at the mouth of Bonanza was a congestion of cabins; shacks and +tents clustered the hillside, scattered on the heights and massed again +on the slope sweeping down to the Klondike. An intense vitality charged +the air. The camp was alive, ahum, vibrant with fierce, dynamic energy. + +In effect the town was but one street stretching alongside the water +front. It was amazingly packed with men from side to side, from end to +end. They lounged in the doorways of oddly assorted buildings, and +jostled each other on the dislocated sidewalks. Stores of all kinds, +saloons, gambling joints flourished without number, and in one block +alone there were half a dozen dance-halls. Yet all seemed plethorically +prosperous. + +Many of the business houses were installed in tents. That huge canvas +erection was a mining exchange; that great log barn a dance-hall. +Dwarfish log cabins impudently nestled up to pretentious three-story +hotels. The effect was oddly staccato. All was grotesque, makeshift, +haphazard. Back of the main street lay the red-light quarter, and behind +it again a swamp of niggerheads, the breeding-place of fever and +mosquito. + +The crowd that vitalised the street was strikingly cosmopolitan. Mostly +big, bearded fellows they were, with here the full-blooded face of the +saloon man, and there the quick, pallid mask of the gambler. Women too I +saw in plenty, bold, free, predacious creatures, a rustle of silk and a +reek of perfume. Till midnight I wandered up and down the long street; +but there was no darkness, no lull in its clamorous life. + +I was looking for Berna. My heart hungered for her; my eyes ached for +her; my mind was so full of her there seemed no room for another single +thought. But it was like looking for a needle in a strawstack to find +her in that seething multitude. I knew no one, and it seemed futile to +inquire regarding her. These keen-eyed men with eager talk of claims and +pay-dirt could not help me. There seemed to be nothing for it but to +wait. So with spirits steadily sinking zerowards I waited. + +We found, indeed, that there was little ground left to stake. The mining +laws were in some confusion, and were often changing. Several creeks +were closed to location, but always new strikes were being made and +stampedes started. So, after a session of debate, we decided to reserve +our rights to stake till a good chance offered. It was a bitter +awakening. Like all the rest we had expected to get ground that was gold +from the grass-roots down. But there was work to be had, and we would +not let ourselves be disheartened. + +The Jam-wagon had already deserted us. He was off up on Eldorado +somewhere, shovelling dirt into a sluice-box for ten dollars a day. I +made up my mind I would follow him. Jim also would get to work, while +the Prodigal, we agreed, would look after all our interests, and stake +or buy a good claim. + +Thus we planned, sitting in our little tent near the beach. We were in a +congeries of tents. The beach was fast whitening with them. If one was +in a hurry it was hard to avoid tripping over ropes and pegs. As each +succeeding party arrived they had to go further afield to find +camping-ground. And they were arriving in thousands daily. The shore for +a mile was lined five deep with boats. Scows had been hauled high and +dry on the gravel, and there the owners were living. A thousand stoves +were eloquent of beans and bacon. I met a man taking home a prize, a +porterhouse steak. He was carrying it over his arm like a towel, paper +was so scarce. The camp was a hive of energy, a hum of occupation. + +But how many, after they had paraded that mile-long street with its mud, +its seething foam of life, its blare of gramophones and its blaze of +dance-halls, ached for their southland homes again! You could read the +disappointment in their sun-tanned faces. Yet they were the eager +navigators of the lakes, the reckless amateurs of the rivers. This was a +something different from the trail. It was as if, after all their +efforts, they had butted up against a stone wall. There was "nothing +doing," no ground left, and only hard work, the hardest on earth. + +Moreover, the country was at the mercy of a gang of corrupt officials +who were using the public offices for their own enrichment. Franchises +were being given to the favourites of those in power, concessions sold, +liquor permits granted, and abuses of every kind practised on the free +miner. All was venality, injustice and exaction. + +"Go home," said the Man in the Street; "the mining laws are rotten. All +kinds of ground is tied up. Even if you get hold of something good, them +dam-robber government sharks will flim-flam you out of it. There's no +square deal here. They tax you to mine; they tax you to cut a tree; they +tax you to sell a fish; pretty soon they'll be taxing you to breathe. Go +home!" + +And many went, many of the trail's most indomitable. They could face +hardship and danger, the blizzards, the rapids, nature savage and +ravening; but when it came to craft, graft and the duplicity of their +fellow men they were discouraged, discomfited. + +"Say, boys, I guess I've done a slick piece of work," said the Prodigal +with some satisfaction, as he entered the tent. "I've bought three whole +outfits on the beach. Got them for twenty-five per cent. less than the +cost price in Seattle. I'll pull out a hundred per cent. on the deal. +Now's the time to get in and buy from the quitters. They so soured at +the whole frame-up they're ready to pull their freights at any moment. +All they want's to get away. They want to put a few thousand miles +between them and this garbage dump of creation. They never want to hear +the name of Yukon again except as a cuss-word. I'm going to keep on +buying outfits. You boys see if I don't clean up a bunch of money." + +"It's too bad to take advantage of them," I suggested. + +"Too bad nothing! That's business; your necessity, my opportunity. Oh, +you'd never make a money-getter, my boy, this side of the +millennium--and you Scotch too." + +"That's nothing," said Jim; "wait till I tell you of the deal I made +to-day. You recollect I packed a flat-iron among my stuff, an' you boys +joshed me about it, said I was bughouse. But I figured out: there's +camp-meetin's an' socials up there, an' a nice, dinky, white shirt once +in a way goes pretty good. Anyway, thinks I, if there ain't no one else +to dress for in that wilderness, I'll dress for the Almighty. So I +sticks to my old flat-iron." + +He looked at us with a twinkle in his eye and then went on. + +"Well, it seems there's only three more flat-irons in camp, an' all the +hot sports wantin' boiled shirts done up, an' all the painted Jezebels +hollerin' to have their lingery fixed, an' the wash-ladies just goin' +round crazy for flat-irons. Well, I didn't want to sell mine, but the +old coloured lady that runs the Bong Tong Laundry (an' a sister in the +Lord) came to me with tears in her eyes, an' at last I was prevailed on +to separate from it." + +"How much, Jim?" + +"Well, I didn't want to be too hard on the old girl, so I let her down +easy." + +"How much?" + +"Well, you see there's only three or four of them flat-irons in camp, so +I asked a hundred an' fifty dollars, an' quick's a flash, she took me +into a store an' paid me in gold-dust." + +He flourished a little poke of dust in our laughing faces. + +"That's pretty good," I said; "everything seems topsy-turvy up here. +Why, to-day I saw a man come in with a box of apples which the crowd +begged him to open. He was selling those apples at a dollar apiece, and +the folks were just fighting to get them." + +It was so with everything. Extraordinary prices ruled. Eggs and candles +had been sold for a dollar each, and potatoes for a dollar a pound; +while on the trail in '97 horse-shoe nails were selling at _a dollar a +nail_. + +Once more I roamed the long street with that awful restless agony in my +heart. Where was she, my girl, so precious now it seemed I had lost her? +Why does love mean so much to some, so little to others? Perhaps I am +the victim of an intensity of temperament, but I craved for her; I +visioned evils befalling her; I pierced my heart with dagger-thrusts of +fear for her. Oh, if I only knew she was safe and well! Every slim woman +I saw in the distance looked to be her, and made my heart leap with +emotion. Yet always I chewed on the rind of disappointment. There was +never a sign of Berna. + +In the agitation and unrest of my mind I climbed the hill that +overshadows the gold-born city. The Dome they call it, and the face of +it is vastly scarred, blanched as by a cosmic blow. There on its topmost +height by a cairn of stone I stood at gaze, greatly awestruck. + +The view was a spacious one, and of an overwhelming grandeur. Below me +lay the mighty Yukon, here like a silken ribbon, there broadening out to +a pool of quicksilver. It seemed motionless, dead, like a piece of +tinfoil lying on a sable shroud. + +The great valley was preternaturally still, and pall-like as if steeped +in the colours of the long, long night. The land so vast, so silent, so +lifeless, was round in its contours, full of fat creases and bold +curves. The mountains were like sleeping giants; here was the swell of a +woman's breast, there the sweep of a man's thigh. And beyond that huddle +of sprawling Titans, far, far beyond, as if it were an enclosing +stockade, was the jagged outline of the Rockies. + +Quite suddenly they seemed to stand up against the blazing sky, +monstrous, horrific, smiting the senses like a blow. Their primordial +faces were hacked and hewed fantastically, and there they posed in their +immemorial isolation, virgin peaks, inviolate valleys, impregnably +desolate and savagely sublime. + +And beyond their stormy crests, surely a world was consuming in the +kilns of chaos. Was ever anything so insufferably bright as the +incandescent glow that brimmed those jagged clefts? That fierce +crimson, was it not the hue of a cooling crucible, that deep vermillion +the rich glory of a rose's heart? Did not that tawny orange mind you of +ripe wheat-fields and the exquisite intrusion of poppies? That pure, +clear gold, was it not a bank of primroses new washed in April rain? +What was that luminous opal but a lagoon, a pearly lagoon, with floating +in it islands of amber, their beaches crisped with ruby foam? And, over +all the riot of colour, that shimmering chrysoprase so tenderly +luminous--might it not fitly veil the splendours of paradise? + +I looked to where gulped the mouth of Bonanza, cavernously wide and +filled with the purple smoke of many fires. There was the golden valley, +silent for centuries, now strident with human cries, vehement with human +strife. There was the timbered basin of the Klondike bleakly rising to +mountains eloquent of death. It was dominating, appalling, this vastness +without end, this unappeasable loneliness. Glad was I to turn again to +where, like white pebbles on a beach, gleamed the tents of the gold-born +city. + +Somewhere amid that confusion of canvas, that muddle of cabins, was +Berna, maybe lying in some wide-eyed vigil of fear, maybe staining with +hopeless tears her restless pillow. Somewhere down there--Oh, I must +find her! + +I returned to the town. I was tramping its long street once more, that +street with its hundreds of canvas signs. It was a city of signs. Every +place of business seemed to have its fluttering banner, and beneath +these banners moved the ever restless throng. There were men from the +mines in their flannel shirts and corduroys, their Stetsons and high +boots. There were men from the trail in sweaters and mackinaws, German +socks and caps with ear-flaps. But all were bronzed and bearded, +fleshless and clean-limbed. I marvelled at the seriousness of their +faces, till I remembered that here was no problem of a languorous +sunland, but one of grim emergency. It was a man's game up here in the +North, a man's game in a man's land, where the sunlight of the long, +long day is ever haunted by the shadow of the long, long night. + +Oh, if I could only find her! The land was a great symphony; she the +haunting theme of it. + +I bought a copy of the "Nugget" and went into the Sourdough Restaurant +to read it. As I lingered there sipping my coffee and perusing the paper +indifferently, a paragraph caught my eye and made my heart glow with +sudden hope. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +Here was the item: + + Jack Locasto loses $19,000. + + "One of the largest gambling plays that ever occurred in Dawson + came off last night in the Malamute Saloon. Jack Locasto of + Eldorado, well known as one of the Klondike's wealthiest + claim-owners, Claude Terry and Charlie Haw were the chief actors in + the game, which cost the first-named the sum of $19,000. + + "Locasto came to Dawson from his claim yesterday. It is said that + before leaving the Forks he lost a sum ranging in the neighbourhood + of $5,000. Last night he began playing in the Malamute with Haw and + Terry in an effort, it is supposed, to recoup his losses at the + Forks. The play continued nearly all night, and at the wind-up, + Locasto, as stated above, was loser to the amount of $19,000. This + is probably the largest individual loss ever sustained at one + sitting in the history of Klondike poker playing." + +Jack Locasto! Why had I not thought of him before? Surely if any one +knew of the girl's whereabouts, it would be he. I determined I would ask +him at once. + +So I hastily finished my coffee and inquired of the emasculated-looking +waiter where I might find the Klondike King. + +"Oh, Black Jack," he said: "well, at the Green Bay Tree, or the Tivoli, +or the Monte Carlo. But there's a big poker game on and he's liable to +be in it." + +Once more I paraded the seething street. It was long after midnight, but +the wondrous glow, still burning in the Northern sky, filled the land +with strange enchantment. In spite of the hour the town seemed to be +more alive than ever. Parties with pack-laden mules were starting off +for the creeks, travelling at night to avoid the heat and mosquitoes. +Men with lean brown faces trudged sturdily along carrying extraordinary +loads on their stalwart shoulders. A stove, blankets, cooking utensils, +axe and shovel usually formed but a part of their varied accoutrement. + +Constables of the Mounted Police were patrolling the streets. In the +drab confusion their scarlet tunics were a piercing note of colour. They +walked very stiffly, with grim mouths and eyes sternly vigilant under +the brims of their Stetsons. Women were everywhere, smoking cigarettes, +laughing, chaffing, strolling in and out of the wide-open saloons. Their +cheeks were rouged, their eye-lashes painted, their eyes bright with +wine. They gazed at the men like sleek animals, with looks that were +wanton and alluring. A libertine spirit was in the air, a madcap +freedom, an effluence of disdainful sin. + +I found myself by the stockade that surrounded the Police reservation. +On every hand I saw traces of a recent overflow of the river that had +transformed the street into a navigable canal. Now in places there were +mudholes in which horses would flounder to their bellies. One of the +Police constables, a tall, slim Englishman with a refined manner, proved +to me a friend in need. + +"Yes," he said, in answer to my query, "I think I can find your man. +He's downtown somewhere with some of the big sporting guns. Come on, +we'll run him to earth." + +As we walked along we compared notes, and he talked of himself in a +frank, friendly way. + +"You're not long out from the old country? Thought not. Left there +myself about four years ago--I joined the Force in Regina. It's +altogether different 'outside,' patrol work, a free life on the open +prairie. Here they keep one choring round barracks most of the time. +I've been for six months now on the town station. I'm not sorry, though. +It's all devilish interesting. Wouldn't have missed it for a farm. When +I write the people at home about it they think I'm yarning--stringing +them, as they say here. The governor's a clergyman. Sent me to Harrow, +and wanted to make a Bishop out of me. But I'm restless; never could +study; don't seem to fit in, don't you know." + +I recognised his type, the clean, frank, breezy Englishman that has +helped to make an Empire. He went on: + +"Yes, how the old dad would stare if I could only have him in Dawson for +a day. He'd never be able to get things just in focus any more. He would +be knocked clean off the pivot on which he's revolved these thirty +years. Seems to me every one's travelling on a pivot in the old country. +It's no use trying to hammer it into their heads there are more points +of view than one. If you don't just see things as they see them, you're +troubled with astigmatism. Come, let's go in here." + +He pushed his way through a crowded doorway and I followed. It was the +ordinary type of combined saloon and gambling-joint. In one corner was a +very ornate bar, and all around the capacious room were gambling devices +of every kind. There were crap-tables, wheel of fortune, the Klondike +game, Keno, stud poker, roulette and faro outfits. The place was +chock-a-block with rough-looking men, either looking on or playing the +games. The men who were running the tables wore shades of green over +their eyes, and their strident cries of "Come on, boys," pierced the +smoky air. + +In a corner, presiding over a stud-poker game, I was surprised to see +our old friend Mosher. He was dealing with one hand, holding the pack +delicately and sending the cards with a dexterous flip to each player. +Miners were buying chips from a man at the bar, who with a pair of gold +scales was weighing out dust in payment. + +My companion pointed to an inner room with a closed door. + +"The Klondike Kings are in there, hard at it. They've been playing now +for twenty-four hours, and goodness knows when they'll let up." + +At that moment a peremptory bell rang from the room and a waiter +hurried up. + +"There they are," said my friend, as the door opened. "There's Black +Jack and Stillwater Willie and Claude Terry and Charlie Haw." + +Eagerly I looked in. The men were wearied, their faces haggard and +ghastly pale. Quickly and coolly they fingered the cards, but in their +hollow eyes burned the fever of the game, a game where golden eagles +were the chips and thousand-dollar jack-pots were unremarkable. No doubt +they had lost and won greatly, but they gave no sign. What did it +matter? In the dumps waiting to be cleaned up were hundreds of thousands +more; while in the ground were millions, millions. + +All but Locasto were medium-sized men. Stillwater Willie was in +evening-dress. He wore a red tie in which glittered a huge diamond pin, +and yellow tan boots covered with mud. + +"How did he get his name?" I asked. + +"Well, you see, they say he was the only one that funked the Whitehorse +Rapids. He's a high flier, all right." + +The other two were less striking. Haw was a sandy-haired man with +shifty, uneasy eyes; Terry of a bulldog type, stocky and powerful. But +it was Locasto who gripped and riveted my attention. + +He was a massive man, heavy of limb and brutal in strength. There was a +great spread to his shoulders and a conscious power in his every +movement. He had a square, heavy chin, a grim, sneering mouth, a falcon +nose, black eyes that were as cold as the water in a deserted shaft. His +hair was raven dark, and his skin betrayed the Mexican strain in his +blood. Above the others he towered, strikingly masterful, and I felt +somehow the power that emanated from the man, the brute force, the +remorseless purpose. + +Then the waiter returned with a tray of drinks and the door was closed. + +"Well, you've seen him now," said Chester of the Police. "Your only +plan, if you want to speak to him, is to wait till the game breaks up. +When poker interferes with your business, to the devil with your +business. They won't be interrupted. Well, old man, if you can't be +good, be careful; and if you want me any time, ring up the town station. +Bye, bye." + +He sauntered off. For a time I strolled from game to game, watching the +expressions on the faces of the players, and trying to take an interest +in the play. Yet my mind was ever on the closed door and my ear strained +to hear the click of chips. I heard the hoarse murmurs of their voices, +an occasional oath or a yawn of fatigue. How I wished they would come +out! Women went to the door, peered in cautiously, and beat a hasty +retreat to the tune of reverberated curses. The big guns were busy; even +the ladies must await their pleasure. + +Oh, the weariness of that waiting! In my longing for Berna I had worked +myself up into a state that bordered on distraction. It seemed as if a +cloud was in my brain, obsessing me at all times. I felt I must +question this man, though it raised my gorge even to speak of her in his +presence. In that atmosphere of corruption the thought of the girl was +intolerably sweet, as of a ray of sunshine penetrating a noisome +dungeon. + +It was in the young morn when the game broke up. The outside air was +clear as washed gold; within it was foul and fetid as a drunkard's +breath. Men with pinched and pallid faces came out and inhaled the +breeze, which was buoyant as champagne. Beneath the perfect blue of the +spring sky the river seemed a shimmer of violet, and the banks dipped +down with the green of chrysoprase. + +Already a boy was sweeping up the dirty, nicotine-frescoed sawdust from +the floor. (It was his perquisite, and from the gold he panned out he +ultimately made enough to put him through college.) Then the inner door +opened and Black Jack appeared. + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +He was wan and weary. Around his sombre eyes were chocolate-coloured +hollows. His thick raven hair was disordered. He had lost heavily, and, +bidding a curt good-bye to the others, he strode off. In a moment I had +followed and overtaken him. + +"Mr. Locasto." + +He turned and gave me a stare from his brooding eyes. They were vacant +as those of a dope-fiend, vacant with fatigue. + +"Jack Locasto's my name," he answered carelessly. + +I walked alongside him. + +"Well, sir," I said, "my name's Meldrum, Athol Meldrum." + +"Oh, I don't care what the devil your name is," he broke in petulantly. +"Don't bother me just now. I'm tired." + +"So am I," I said, "infernally tired; but it won't hurt you to listen to +my name." + +"Well, Mr. Athol Meldrum, good-day." + +His voice was cold, his manner galling in its indifference, and a sudden +anger glowed in me. + +"Hold on," I said; "just a moment. You can very easily do me an immense +favour. Listen to me." + +"Well, what do you want," he demanded roughly; "work?" + +"No," I said, "I just want a scrap of information. I came into the +country with some Jews the name of Winklestein. I've lost track of them +and I think you may be able to tell me where they are." + +He was all attention now. He turned half round and scrutinised me with +deliberate intensity. Then, like a flash, his rough manner changed. He +was the polished gentleman, the San Francisco club-lounger, the man of +the world. + +He rasped the stubble on his chin; his eyes were bland, his voice smooth +as cream. + +"Winklestein," he echoed reflectively, "Winklestein; seems to me I do +remember the name, but for the life of me I can't recall where." + +He was watching me like a cat, and pretending to think hard. + +"Was there a girl with them?" + +"Yes," I said eagerly, "a young girl." + +"A young girl, ah!" He seemed to reflect hard again. "Well, my friend, +I'm afraid I can't help you. I remember noticing the party on the way +in, but what became of them I can't think. I don't usually bother about +that kind of people. Well, good-night, or good-morning rather. This is +my hotel." + +He had half entered when he paused and turned to me. His face was +urbane, his voice suave to sweetness; but it seemed to me there was a +subtle mockery in his tone. + +"I say, if I should hear anything of them, I'll let you know. Your +name? Athol Meldrum--all right, I'll let you know. Good-bye." + +He was gone and I had failed. I cursed myself for a fool. The man had +baffled me. Nay, even I had hurt myself by giving him an inkling of my +search. Berna seemed further away from me than ever. Home I went, +discouraged and despairful. + +Then I began to argue with myself. He must know where they were, and if +he really had designs on the girl and was keeping her in hiding my +interview with him would alarm him. He would take the first opportunity +of warning the Winklesteins. When would he do it? That very night in all +likelihood. So I reasoned; and I resolved to watch. + +I stationed myself in a saloon from where I could command a view of his +hotel, and there I waited. I think I must have watched the place for +three hours, but I know it was a weariful business, and I was heartsick +of it. Doggedly I stuck to my post. I was beginning to think he must +have evaded me, when suddenly coming forth alone from the hotel I saw my +man. + +It was about midnight, neither light nor dark, but rather an absence of +either quality, and the Northern sky was wan and ominous. In the crowded +street I saw Locasto's hat overtopping all others, so that I had no +difficulty in shadowing him. Once he stopped to speak to a woman, once +to light a cigar; then he suddenly turned up a side street that ran +through the red-light district. + +He was walking swiftly and he took a path that skirted the swamp behind +the town. I had no doubt of his mission. My heart began to beat with +excitement. The little path led up the hill, clothed with fresh foliage +and dotted with cabins. Once I saw him pause and look round. I had +barely time to dodge behind some bushes, and feared for a moment he had +seen me. But no! on he went again faster than ever. + +I knew now I had divined his errand. He was at too great pains to cover +his tracks. The trail had plunged among a maze of slender cotton-woods, +and twisted so that I was sore troubled to keep him in view. Always he +increased his gait and I followed breathlessly. There were few cabins +hereabouts; it was a lonely place to be so near to town, very quiet and +thickly screened from sight. Suddenly he seemed to disappear, and, +fearing my pursuit was going to be futile, I rushed forward. + +I came to a dead stop. There was no one to be seen. He had vanished +completely. The trail climbed steeply up, twisty as a corkscrew. These +cursed poplars, how densely they grew! Blindly I blundered forward. Then +I came to a place where the trail forked. Panting for breath I hesitated +which way to take, and it was in that moment of hesitation that a heavy +hand was laid on my shoulder. + +"Where away, my young friend?" It was Locasto. His face was +Mephistophelian, his voice edged with irony. I was startled I admit, but +I tried to put a good face on it. + +"Hello," I said; "I'm just taking a stroll." + +His black eyes pierced me, his black brows met savagely. The heavy jaw +shot forward, and for a moment the man, menacing and terrible, seemed to +tower above me. + +"You lie!" like explosive steam came the words, and wolf-like his lips +parted, showing his powerful teeth. "You lie!" he reiterated. "You +followed me. Didn't I see you from the hotel? Didn't I determine to +decoy you away? Oh, you fool! you fool! who are you that would pit your +weakness against my strength, your simplicity against my cunning? You +would try to cross me, would you? You would champion damsels in +distress? You pretty fool, you simpleton, you meddler----" + +Suddenly, without warning, he struck me square on the face, a blinding, +staggering blow that brought me to my knees as falls a pole-axed steer. +I was stunned, swaying weakly, trying vainly to get on my feet. I +stretched out my clenched hands to him. Then he struck me again, a +bitter, felling blow. + +I was completely at his mercy now and he showed me none. He was like a +fiend. Rage seemed to rend him. Time and again he kicked me, brutally, +relentlessly, on the ribs, on the chest, on the head. Was the man going +to do me to death? I shielded my head. I moaned in agony. Would he never +stop? Then I became unconscious, knowing that he was still kicking me, +and wondering if I would ever open my eyes again. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +"Long live the cold-feet tribe! Long live the soreheads!" + +It was the Prodigal who spoke. "This outfit buying's got gold-mining +beaten to a standstill. Here I've been three weeks in the burg and got +over ten thousand dollars' worth of grub cached away. Every pound of it +will net me a hundred per cent. profit. I'm beginning to look on myself +as a second John D. Rockefeller." + +"You're a confounded robber," I said. "You're working a cinch-game. +What's your first name? Isaac?" + +He turned the bacon he was frying and smiled gayly. + +"Snort away all you like, old sport. So long as I get the mon you can +call me any old name you please." + +He was very sprightly and elate, but I was in no sort of mood to share +in his buoyancy. Physically I had fully recovered from my terrible +manhandling, but in spirit I still writhed at the outrage of it. And the +worst was I could do nothing. The law could not help me, for there were +no witnesses to the assault. I could never cope with this man in bodily +strength. Why was I not a stalwart? If I had been as tall and strong as +Garry, for instance. True, I might shoot; but there the Police would +take a hand in the game, and I would lose out badly. There seemed to be +nothing for it but to wait and pray for some means of retaliation. + +Yet how bitterly I brooded over the business. At times there was even +black murder in my heart. I planned schemes of revenge, grinding my +teeth in impotent rage the while; and my feelings were complicated by +that awful gnawing hunger for Berna that never left me. It was a perfect +agony of heart, a panic-fear, a craving so intense that at times I felt +I would go distracted with the pain of it. + +Perhaps I am a poor sort of being. I have often wondered. I either feel +intensely, or I am quite indifferent. I am a prey to my emotions, a +martyr to my moods. Apart from my great love for Berna it seemed to me +as if nothing mattered. All through these stormy years it was like +that--nothing else mattered. And now that I am nearing the end of my +life I can see that nothing else has ever mattered. Everything that +happened appealed to me in its relation to her. It seemed to me as if I +saw all the world through the medium of my love for her, and that all +beauty, all truth, all good was but a setting for this girl of mine. + +"Come on," said Jim; "let's go for a walk in the town." + +The "Modern Gomorrah" he called it, and he was never tired of +expatiating on its iniquity. + +"See that man there?" he said, pointing to a grey-haired pedestrian, who +was talking to an emphatic blonde. "That man's a lawyer. He's got a +lovely home in Los Angeles, an' three of the sweetest girls you ever +saw. A young fellow needed to have his credentials O. K.'d by the Purity +Committee before he came butting round that man's home. Now he's off to +buy wine for Daisy of the Deadline." + +The grey-haired man had turned into a saloon with his companion. + +"Yes, that's Dawson for you. We're so far from home. The good old +moralities don't apply here. The hoary old Yukon won't tell on us. We've +been a Sunday School Superintendent for ten years. For fifty more we've +passed up the forbidden fruit. Every one else is helping themselves. +Wonder what it tastes like? Wine is flowing like water. Money's the +cheapest thing in sight. Cut loose, drink up. The orchestra's a-goin'. +Get your partners for a nice juicy two-step. Come on, boys!" + +He was particularly bitter, and it really seemed in that general lesion +of the moral fibre that civilisation was only a makeshift, a veneer of +hypocrisy. + +"Why should we marvel," I said, "at man's brutality, when but an æon ago +we all were apes?" + +Just then we met the Jam-wagon. He had mushed in from the creeks that +very day. Physically he looked supreme. He was berry-brown, lean, +muscular and as full of suppressed energy as an unsprung bear-trap. +Financially he was well ballasted. Mentally and morally he was in the +state of a volcano before an eruption. + +You could see in the quick breathing, in the restlessness of this man, +a pent-up energy that clamoured to exhaust itself in violence and +debauch. His fierce blue eyes were wild and roving, his lips twitched +nervously. He was an atavism; of the race of those white-bodied, +ferocious sea-kings that drank deep and died in the din of battle. He +must live in the white light of excitement, or sink in the gloom of +despair. I could see his fine nostrils quiver like those of a charger +that scents the smoke of battle, and I realised that he should have been +a soldier still, a leader of forlorn hopes, a partner of desperate +hazards. + +As we walked along, Jim did most of the talking in his favourite +morality vein. The Jam-wagon puffed silently at his briar pipe, while I, +very listless and downhearted, thought largely of my own troubles. Then, +in the middle of the block, where most of the music-halls were situated, +suddenly we met Locasto. + +When I saw him my heart gave a painful leap, and I think my face must +have gone as white as paper. I had thought much over this meeting, and +had dreaded it. There are things which no man can overlook, and, if it +meant death to me, I must again try conclusions with the brute. + +He was accompanied by a little bald-headed Jew named Spitzstein, and we +were almost abreast of them when I stepped forward and arrested them. My +teeth were clenched; I was all a-quiver with passion; my heart beat +violently. For a moment I stood there, confronting him in speechless +excitement. + +He was dressed in that miner's costume in which he always looked so +striking. From his big Stetson to his high boots he was typically the +big, strong man of Alaska, the Conqueror of the Wild. But his mouth was +grim as granite, and his black eyes hard and repellent as those of a +toad. + +"Oh, you coward!" I cried. "You vile, filthy coward!" + +He was looking down on me from his imperious height, very coolly, very +cynically. + +"Who are you?" he drawled; "I don't know you." + +"Liar as well as coward," I panted. "Liar to your teeth. Brute, coward, +liar----" + +"Here, get out of my way," he snarled; "I've got to teach you a lesson." + +Once more before I could guard he landed on me with that terrible +right-arm swing, and down I went as if a sledgehammer had struck me. +But instantly I was on my feet, a thing of blind passion, of desperate +fight. I made one rush to throw myself on this human tower of brawn and +muscle, when some one pinioned me from behind. It was Jim. + +"Easy, boy," he was saying; "you can't fight this big fellow." + +Spitzstein was looking on curiously. With wonderful quickness a crowd +had collected, all avidly eager for a fight. Above them towered the +fierce, domineering figure of Locasto. There was a breathless pause, +then, at the psychological moment, the Jam-wagon intervened. + +The smouldering fire in his eye had brightened into a fierce joy; his +twitching mouth was now grim and stern as a prison door. For days he had +been fighting a dim intangible foe. Here at last was something human and +definite. He advanced to Locasto. + +"Why don't you strike some one nearer your own size?" he demanded. His +voice was tense, yet ever so quiet. + +Locasto flashed at him a look of surprise, measuring him from head to +foot. + +"You're a brute," went on the Jam-wagon evenly; "a cowardly brute." + +Black Jack's face grew dark and terrible. His eyes glinted sparks of +fire. + +"See here, Englishman," he said, "this isn't your scrap. What are you +butting in about?" + +"It isn't," said the Jam-wagon, and I could see the flame of fight +brighten joyously in him. "It isn't, but I'll soon make it mine. There!" + +Quick as a flash he dealt the other a blow on the cheek, an open-handed +blow that stung like a whiplash. + +"Now, fight me, you coward." + +There and then Locasto seemed about to spring on his challenger. With +hands clenched and teeth bared, he half bent as if for a charge. Then, +suddenly, he straightened up. + +"All right," he said softly; "Spitzstein, can we have the Opera House?" + +"Yes, I guess so. We can clear away the benches." + +"Then tell the crowd to come along; we'll give them a free show." + + * * * * * + +I think there must have been five hundred men around that ring. A big +Australian pugilist was umpire. Some one suggested gloves, but Locasto +would not hear of it. + +"No," he said, "I want to mark the son of a dog so his mother will never +know him again." + +He had become frankly brutal, and prepared for the fray exultantly. Both +men fought in their underclothing. + +Stripped down, the Jam-wagon was seen to be much the smaller man, not +only in height, but in breadth and weight. Yet he was a beautiful figure +of a fighter, clean, well-poised, firm-limbed, with a body that seemed +to taper from the shoulders down. His fair hair glistened; his eyes were +wary and cool, his lips set tightly. In the person of this living +adversary he was fighting an unseen one vastly more dread and terrific. + +Locasto looked almost too massive. His muscles bulged out. The veins in +his forearms were cord-like. His great chest seemed as broad as a door. +His legs were statuesque in their size and strength. In that camp of +strong men probably he was the most powerful. + +And nowhere in the world could a fight have been awaited with greater +zest. These men, miners, gamblers, adventurers of all kinds, pushed and +struggled for a place. A great joy surged through them at the thought +of the approaching combat. Keen-eyed, hard-breathing, a-thrill with +expectation, the crowd packed closer and closer. Outside, people were +clamouring for admission. They climbed on the stage, and into the boxes. +They hung over the galleries. All told, there must have been a thousand +of them. + +As the two men stood up it was like the lithe Greek athlete compared +with the brawny Roman gladiator. "Three to one on Locasto," some one +shouted. Then a great hush came over the house, so that it might have +been empty and deserted. Time was called. The fight began. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +With one tiger-rush Locasto threw himself on his man. There was no +preliminary fiddling here; they were out for blood, and the sooner they +wallowed in it the better. Right and left he struck with mighty swings +that would have felled an ox, but the Jam-wagon was too quick for him. +Twice he ducked in time to avoid a furious blow, and, before Locasto +could recover, he had hopped out of reach. The big man's fist swished +through the empty air. He almost overbalanced with the force of his +effort, but he swung round quickly, and there was the Jam-wagon, cool +and watchful, awaiting his next attack. + +Locasto's face grew fiendish in its sinister wrath; he shot forth a foul +imprecation, and once more he hurled himself resistlessly on his foe. +This time I thought my champion must go down, but no! With a dexterity +that seemed marvellous, he dodged, ducked and side-stepped; and once +more Locasto's blows went wide and short. Jeers began to go up from the +throng. "Even money on the little fellow," sang out a voice with the +flat twang of a banjo. + +Locasto glared round on the crowd. He was accustomed to lord it over +these men, and the jeers goaded him like banderilleros goad a bull. +Again and again he repeated his tremendous rushes, only to find his +powerful arms winnowing the empty air, only to see his agile antagonist +smiling at him in mockery from the centre of the ring. Not one of his +sledgehammer smashes reached their mark, and the round closed without a +blow having landed. + +From the mob of onlookers a chorus of derisive cheers went up. The +little man with the banjo voice was holding up a poke of dust. "Even +money on the little one." A hum of eager conversation broke forth. + +I was at the ring-side. At the beginning I had been in an agony of fear +for the Jam-wagon. Looking at the two men, it seemed as if he could +hardly hope to escape terrible punishment at the hands of one so +massively powerful, and every blow inflicted on him would have been like +one inflicted on myself. But now I took heart and looked forward with +less anxiety. + +Again time was called, and Locasto sprang up, seemingly quite refreshed +by his rest. Once more he plunged after his man, but now I could see his +rushes were more under control, his smashing blows better timed, his +fierce jabs more shrewdly delivered. Again I began to quake for the +Jam-wagon, but he showed a wonderful quickness in his footwork, darting +in and out, his hands swinging at his sides, a smile of mockery on his +lips. He was deft as a dancing-master; he twinkled like a gleam of +light, and amid that savage thresh of blows he was as cool as if he were +boxing in the school gymnasium. + +"Who is he?" those at the ring-side began to whisper. Time and again it +seemed as if he were cornered, but in a marvellous way he wormed +himself free. I held my breath as he evaded blow after blow, some of +which seemed to miss him by a mere hair's breadth. He was taking +chances, I thought, so narrowly did he permit the blows to miss him. I +was all keyed up, on edge with excitement, eager for my man to strike, +to show he was not a mere ring-tactician. But the Jam-wagon bided his +time. + +And so the round ended, and it was evident that the crowd was of the +same opinion as myself. "Why don't he mix up a little?" said one. "Give +him time," said another. "He's all right: there's some class to that +work." + +Locasto came up for the third round looking sobered, subdued, grimly +determined. Evidently he had made up his mind to force his opponent out +of his evasive tactics. He was wary as a cat. He went cautiously. Yet +again he assumed the aggressive, gradually working the Jam-wagon into a +corner. A collision was inevitable; there was no means of escape for my +friend; that huge bulk, with its swinging, flail-like arms, menaced him +hopelessly. + +Suddenly Locasto closed in. He swooped down on the Jam-wagon. He had +him. He shortened his right arm for a jab like the crash of a +pile-driver. The arm shot out, but once again the Jam-wagon was not +there. He ducked quickly, and Locasto's great fist brushed his hair. + +Then, like lightning, the two came to a clinch. Now, thought I, it's all +off with the Jam-wagon. I saw Locasto's eyes dilate with ferocious joy. +He had the other in his giant arms; he could crush him in a mighty hug, +the hug of a grizzly, crush him like an egg-shell. But, quick as the +snap of a trap, the Jam-wagon had pinioned his arms at the elbow, so +that he was helpless. For a moment he held him, then, suddenly releasing +his arms, he caught him round the body, shook him with a mighty +side-heave, gave him the cross-buttock, and, before he could strike a +single blow, threw him in the air and dashed him to the ground. + +"Time!" called the umpire. It was all done so quickly it was hard for +the eye to follow, but a mighty cheer went up from the house. "Two to +one on the little fellow," called the banjo-voice. Suddenly Locasto rose +to his feet. He was shamed, angered beyond all expression. Heaving and +panting, he lurched to his corner, and in his eyes there was a look that +boded ill for his adversary. + +Time again. With the lightness of a panther the Jam-wagon sprang into +the centre of the ring. More than halfway he met Locasto, and now his +intention seemed to be to draw his man on rather than to avoid him. I +watched his every movement with a sense of thrilling fascination. He had +resumed his serpentine movements, advancing and retreating with +shadow-like quickness, feinting, side-stepping, pawing the air till he +had his man baffled and bewildered. Yet he never struck a blow. + +All this seemed to be getting on Locasto's nerves. He was going steadily +enough, trying by every means in his power to get the other man to "mix +it up." He shouted the foulest abuse at him. "Stand up like a man, you +son of a dog, and fight." The smile left the Jam-wagon's lips, and he +settled down to business. + +I saw him edging up to Locasto. He feinted wildly, then, stepping in +closely, he swung a right and left to Black Jack's face. A moment later +he was six feet away, with a bitter smile on his lips. + +With a fierce bellow of rage Locasto, forgetting all his caution, +charged him. He smashed his heavy right with all its might for the +other's face, but, quick as the quiver of a bow-string, the Jam-wagon +side-stepped and the blow missed. Then the Jam-wagon shifted and brought +his left, full-weight, crash on Locasto's mouth. + +At that fierce triumphant blow there was the first dazzling blood-gleam, +and the crowd screeched with excitement. In a wild whirlwind of fury +Locasto hurled himself on the Jam-wagon, his arms going like windmills. +Any one of these blows, delivered in a vital spot, would have meant +death, but his opponent was equal to this blind assault. Dodging, +ducking, side-stepping, blocking, he foiled the other at every turn, +and, just before the round ended, drove his left into the pit of the big +man's stomach, with a thwack that resounded throughout the building. + +Once more time was called. The Jam-wagon was bleeding about the +knuckles. Several of Locasto's teeth had been loosened, and he spat +blood frequently. Otherwise he looked as fit as ever. He pursued his +man with savage determination, and seemed resolved to get in a deadly +body-blow that would end the fight. + +It was pretty to see the Jam-wagon work. He was sprightly as a ballet +dancer, as, weaving in and out, he dodged the other's blows. His arms +swung at his sides, and he threw his head about in a manner insufferably +mocking and tantalising. Then he took to landing light body-blows, that +grew more frequent till he seemed to be beating a regular tattoo on +Locasto's ribs. He was springy as a panther, elusive as an eel. As for +Locasto, his face was sober now, strained, anxious, and he seemed to be +waiting with menacing eyes to get in that vital smash that meant the +end. + +The Jam-wagon began to put more force into his arms. He drove in a +short-arm left to the stomach, then brought his right up to the other's +chin. Locasto swung a deadly knock-out blow at the Jam-wagon, which just +grazed his jaw, and the Jam-wagon retaliated with two lightning rights +and a nervous left, all on the big man's face. + +Then he sprang back, for he was excited now. In and out he wove. Once +more he landed a hard left on Locasto's heaving stomach, and then, +rushing in, he rained blow after blow on his antagonist. It was a +furious mix-up, a whirling storm of blows, brutal, savage and murderous. +No two men could keep up such a gait. They came into a clinch, but this +time the Jam-wagon broke away, giving the deadly kidney blow as they +parted. When time was called both men were panting hard, bruised and +covered with blood. + +How the house howled with delight! All the primordial brute in these men +was glowing in their hearts. Nothing but blood could appease it. Their +throats were parched, their eyes wild. + +Round six. Locasto sprang into the centre of the ring. His face was +hideously disfigured. Only in that battered, blood-stained mask could I +recognise the black eyes gleaming deadly hatred. Rushing for the +Jam-wagon, he hurled him across the ring. Again charging, he overbore +him to the floor, but failed to hold him. + +Then in the Jam-wagon there awoke the ancient spirit of the Berserker. +He cared no more for punishment. He was insensible to pain. He was the +sea-pirate again, mad with the lust of battle. Like a fiend he tore +himself loose, and went after his man, rushing him with a swift, +battering hail of blows around the ring. Like a tiger he was, and the +violent lunges of Locasto only infuriated him the more. + +Now they were in a furious mix-up, and suddenly Locasto, seizing him +savagely, tried to whip him smashing to the floor. Then the wonderful +agility of the Englishman was displayed. In a distance of less than a +two-foot drop he turned completely like a cat. Leaping up, he was free, +and, getting a waist-hold with a Cornish heave, he bore Locasto to the +floor. Quickly he changed to a crotch-lock, and, lastly, holding +Locasto's legs, he brought him to a bridge and worked his weight up on +his body. + +Black Jack, with a mighty heave, broke away and again regained his +feet. This seemed to enrage the Jam-wagon the more, for he tore after +his man like a maddened bull. Getting a hold with incredible strength, +he lifted him straight up in the air and hurled him to the ground with +sickening force. + +Locasto lay there. His eyes were closed. He did not move. Several men +rushed forward. "He's all right," said a medical-looking individual; +"just stunned. I guess you can call the fight over." + +The Jam-wagon slowly put on his clothes. Once more, in the person of +Locasto, he had successfully grappled with "Old Man Booze." He was badly +bruised about the body, but not seriously hurt in any way. Shudderingly +I looked down at Locasto's face, beaten to a pulp, his body livid from +head to foot. And then, as they bore him off to the hospital, I realised +I was revenged. + +"Did you know that man Spitzstein was charging a dollar for admission?" +queried the Prodigal. + +"No!" + +"That's right. That darned little Jew netted nearly a thousand dollars." + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +"Let me introduce you," said the Prodigal, "to my friend the 'Pote.'" + +"Glad to meet you," said the Pote cheerfully, extending a damp hand. +"Just been having a dishwashing bee. Excuse my dishybeel." + +He wore a pale-blue undershirt, white flannel trousers girt round the +waist with a red silk handkerchief, very gaudy moccasins, and a rakish +Panama hat with a band of chocolate and gold. + +"Take a seat, won't you?" Through his gold-rimmed spectacles his eyes +shone benevolently as he indicated an easy-looking chair. I took it. It +promptly collapsed under me. + +"Ah, excuse me," he said; "you're not onto the combination of that +chair. I'll fix it." + +He performed some operation on it which made it less unstable, and I sat +down gingerly. + +I was in a little log-cabin on the hill overlooking the town. Through +the bottle window the light came dimly. The walls showed the bark of +logs and tufts of intersecting moss. In the corner was a bunk over which +lay a bearskin robe, and on the little oblong stove a pot of beans was +simmering. + +The Pote finished his dishwashing and joined us, pulling on an old +Tuxedo jacket. + +"Whew! Glad that job's over. You know, I guess I'm fastidious, but I +can't bear to use a plate for more than three meals without passing a +wet rag over it. That's the worst of having refined ideas, they make +life so complex. However, I mustn't complain. There's a monastic +simplicity about this joint that endears it to me. And now, having +immolated myself on the altar of cleanliness, I will solace my soul with +a little music." + +He took down a banjo from the wall and, striking a few chords, began to +sing. His songs seemed to be original, even improvisations, and he sang +them with a certain quaintness and point that made them very piquant. I +remember one of the choruses. It went like this: + + "In the land of pale blue snow + Where it's ninety-nine below, + And the polar bears are dancing on the plain, + In the shadow of the pole, + Oh, my Heart, my Life, my Soul, + I will meet thee when the ice-worms nest again." + +Every now and then he would pause to make some lively comment. + +"You've never heard of the blue snow, Cheechako? The rabbits have blue +fur, and the ptarmigans' feathers are a bright azure. You've never had +an ice-worm cocktail? We must remedy that. Great dope. Nothing like +ice-worm oil for salads. Oh, I forgot, didn't give you my card." + +I took it. It was engraved thus: + + OLLIE GABOODLER. + + Poetic Expert. + +Turning it over, I read: + + Graduate of the University of Hard Knocks. + All kinds of verse made to order with efficiency and + dispatch. + Satisfaction guaranteed or money returned. + A trial solicited. + In Memoriam Odes a specialty. + Ballads, Rondeaux and Sonnets at modest prices. + Try our lines of Love Lyrics. + Leave orders at the Comet Saloon. + + +I stared at him curiously. He was smoking a cigarette and watching me +with shrewd, observant eyes. He was a blond, blue-eyed, cherubic youth, +with a whimsical mouth that seemed to alternate between seriousness and +fun. + +He laughed merrily at my look of dismay. + +"Oh, you think it's a josh, but it's not. I've been a 'ghost' ever since +I could push a pen. You know Will Wilderbush, the famous novelist? Well, +Bill died six years ago from over-assiduous cultivation of John +Barleycorn, and they hushed it up. But every year there's a new novel +comes from his pen. It's 'ghosts.' I was Bill number three. Isn't it +rummy?" + +I expressed my surprise. + +"Yes, it's a great joke this book-faking. Wouldn't Thackeray have +lambasted the best sellers? A fancy picture of a girl on the cover, +something doing all the time, and a happy ending--that's the recipe. Or +else be as voluptuous as velvet. Wait till my novel, 'Three Minutes,' +comes out. Order in advance." + +"Indeed I will," I said. + +He suddenly became grave. + +"If I only could take the literary game seriously I might make good. But +I'm too much of a 'farceur.' Well, one day we'll see. Maybe the North +will inspire me. Maybe I'll yet become the Spokesman of the Frozen +Silence, the Avatar of the Great White Land." + +He strutted up and down, inflating his chest. + +"Have you framed up any dope lately?" asked the Prodigal. + +"Why, yes; only this morning, while I was eating my beans and bacon, I +dashed off a few lines. I always write best when I'm eating. Want to +hear them?" + +He drew from his pocket an old envelope. + +"They were written to the order of Stillwater Willie. He wants to +present them to one of the Labelle Sisters. You know--that fat lymphatic +blonde, Birdie Labelle. It is short and sweet. He wants to have it +engraved on a gold-backed hand-mirror he's giving her. + + "I see within my true love's eyes + The wide blue spaces of the skies; + I see within my true love's face + The rose and lily vie in grace; + I hear within my true love's voice + The songsters of the Spring rejoice. + Oh, why need I seek Nature's charms-- + I hold my true love in my arms. + +"How'll that hit her? There's such a lot of natural beauty about +Birdie." + +"Do you get much work?" I asked. + +"No, it's dull. Poetry's rather a drug on the market up here. It's just +a side-line. For a living I clean shoes at the 'Elight' Barbershop--I, +who have lingered on the sunny slopes of Parnassus, and quenched my +soul-thirst at the Heliconian spring--gents' tans a specialty." + +"Did you ever publish a book?" I asked. + +"Sure! Did you never read my 'Rhymes of a Rustler'? One reviewer would +say I was the clear dope, the genuine eighteen-carat, jewelled-movement +article; the next would aver I was the rankest dub that ever came down +the pike. They said I'd imitated people, people I'd never read, people +I'd never heard of, people I never dreamt existed. I was accused of +imitating over twenty different writers. Then the pedants got after me, +said I didn't conform to academic formulas, advised me to steep myself +in tradition. They talked about form, about classic style and so on. As +if it matters so long as you get down the thing itself so that folks can +see it, and feel it go right home to their hearts. I can write in all +the artificial verse forms, but they're mouldy with age, back numbers. +Forget them. Quit studying that old Greek dope: study life, modern life, +palpitating with colour, crying for expression. Life! Life! The sunshine +of it was in my heart, and I just naturally tried to be its singer." + +"I say," said the Prodigal from the bunk where he was lounging, in a +haze of cigarette smoke, "read us that thing you did the other day, 'The +Last Supper.'" + +The Pote's eyes twinkled with pleasure. + +"All right," he said. Then, in a clear voice, he repeated the following +lines: + + "THE LAST SUPPER. + + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips, + And the mouth so mocking gay; + A wanton you to the finger tips, + That break men's hearts in play; + A thing of dust I have striven for, + Honour and Manhood given for, + Headlong for ruin driven for-- + And this is the last, you say: + + Drinking your wine with dainty sips, + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips. + + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips, + Long have you held your sway; + I have laughed at your merry quips, + Now is my time to pay. + What we sow we must reap again; + When we laugh we must weep again; + So to-night we will sleep again, + Nor wake till the Judgment Day. + + 'Tis a prison wine that your palate sips, + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips. + + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips, + Down on your knees and pray; + Pray your last ere the moment slips, + Pray ere the dark and the terror grips, + And the bright world fades away: + Pray for the good unguessed of us, + Pray for the peace and rest of us. + Here comes the Shape in quest of us, + Now must we go away-- + + You and I in the grave's eclipse, + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips." + +Just as he finished there came a knock at the door, and a young man +entered. He had the broad smiling face of a comedian, and the bulgy +forehead of a Baptist Missionary. The Pote introduced him to me. + +"The Yukon Yorick." + +"Hello," chuckled the newcomer, "how's the bunch? Don't let me stampede +you. How d'ye do, Horace! Glad to meet you." (He called everybody +Horace.) "Just come away from a meeting of my creditors. What's that? +Have a slab of booze? Hardly that, old fellow, hardly that. Don't tempt +me, Horace, don't tempt me. Remember I'm only a poor working-girl." + +He seemed brimming over with jovial acceptance of life in all its +phases. He lit a cigar. + +"Say, boys, you know old Dingbats the lawyer. Ha, yes. Well, met him on +Front Street just now. Says I: 'Horace, that was a pretty nifty spiel +you gave us last night at the Zero Club.' He looked at me all tickled up +the spine. Ha, yes. He was pleased as Punch. 'Say, Horace,' I says, 'I'm +on, but I won't give you away. I've got a book in my room with every +word of that speech in it.' He looked flabbergasted. So I have--ha, yes, +the dictionary." + +He rolled his cigar unctuously in his mouth, with many chuckles and a +histrionic eye. + +"No, don't tempt me, Horace. Remember, I'm only a poor working-girl. +Thanks, I'll just sit down on this soap-box. Knew a man once, Jobcroft +was his name, Charles Alfred Jobcroft, sat down on a custard pie at a +pink tea; was so embarrassed he wouldn't get up. Just sat on till every +one else was gone. Every one was wondering why he wouldn't budge: just +sat tight." + +"I guess he _cussed hard_," ventured the Prodigal. + +"Oh, Horace, spare me that! Remember I'm only a poor working-girl. +Hardly that, old fellow. Say, hit me with a slab of booze quick. Make +things sparkle, boys, make things sparkle." + +He drank urbanely of the diluted alcohol that passed for whisky. + +"Hit me easy, boys, hit me easy," he said, as they refilled his glass. +"I can't hold my hootch so well as I could a few summers ago--and many +hard Falls. Talking about holding your 'hooch,' the best I ever saw was +a man called Podstreak, Arthur Frederick Podstreak. You couldn't get +that man going. The way he could lap up the booze was a caution. He +would drink one bunch of boys under the table, then leave them and go on +to another. He would start in early in the morning and keep on going +till the last thing at night. And he never got hilarious even; it didn't +seem to phase him; he was as sober after the twentieth drink as when he +started. Gee! but he was a wonder." + +The others nodded their heads appreciatively. + +"He was a fine, healthy-looking chap, too; the booze didn't seem to hurt +him. Never saw such a constitution. I often watched him, for I suspected +him of 'sluffing,' but no! He always had a bigger drink than every one +else, always drank whisky, always drank it neat, and always had a chaser +of water after. I said to myself: 'What's your system?' and I got to +studying him hard. Then, one day, I found him out." + +"What was it?" + +"Well, one day I noticed something. I noticed he always held his glass +in a particular way when he drank, and at the same time he pressed his +stomach in the region of the 'solar plexus.' So that night I took him +aside. + +"'Look here, Podstreak,' I said, 'I'm next to you.' I really wasn't, but +the bluff worked. He grew white. + +"'For Heaven's sake, don't give me away,' he cried; 'the boys'll lynch +me.' + +"'All right,' I said; 'if you'll promise to quit.' + +"Then he made a full confession, and showed me how he did it. He had an +elastic rubber bag under his shirt, and a tube going up his arm and down +his sleeve, ending in a white nozzle inside his cuff. When he went to +empty his glass of whisky he simply pressed some air out of the rubber +bag, put the nozzle in the glass, and let it suck up all the whisky. At +night he used to empty all the liquor out of the bag and sell it to a +saloon-keeper. Oh, he was a phoney piece of work. + +"'I've been a total abstainer (in private) for seven years,' he told me. +'Yes,' I said, 'and you'll become one in public for another seven.' And +he did." + +Several men had dropped in to swell this Bohemian circle. Some had +brought bottles. There was a painter who had been "hung," a Mus Bac., an +ex-champion amateur pugilist, a silver-tongued orator, a man who had +"suped" for Mansfield, and half a dozen others. The little cabin was +crowded, the air hazy with smoke, the conversation animated. But mostly +it was a monologue by the inimitable Yorick. + +Suddenly the conversation turned to the immorality of the town. + +"Now, I have a theory," said the Pote, "that the regeneration of Dawson +is at hand. You know Good is the daughter of Evil, Virtue the offspring +of Vice. You know how virtuous a man feels after a jag. You've got to +sin to feel really good. Consequently, Sin must be good to be the means +of good, to be the raw material of good, to be virtue in the making, +mustn't it? The dance-halls are a good foil to the gospel-halls. If we +were all virtuous, there would be no virtue in virtue, and if we were +all bad no one would be bad. And because there's so much bad in this old +burg of ours, it makes the good seem unnaturally good." + +The Pote had the floor. + +"A friend of mine had a beautiful pond of water-lilies. They painted the +water exultantly and were a triumphant challenge to the soul. Folks came +from far and near to see them. Then, one winter, my friend thought he +would clean out his pond, so he had all the nasty, slimy mud scraped +away till you could see the silver gravel glimmering on the bottom. But +the lilies, with all their haunting loveliness, never came back." + +"Well, what are you driving at, you old dreamer?" + +"Oh, just this: in the nasty mud and slime of Dawson I saw a lily-girl. +She lives in a cabin by the Slide along with a Jewish couple. I only +caught a glimpse of her twice. They are unspeakable, but she is fair +and sweet and pure. I would stake my life on her goodness. She looks +like a young Madonna----" + +He was interrupted by a shout of cynical laughter. + +"Oh, get off your foot! A Madonna in Dawson--Ra! Ra!" + +He shut up abashed, but I had my clue. I waited until the last noisy +roisterer had gone. + +"In the cabin by the Slide?" I asked. + +He started, looked at me searchingly: "You know her?" + +"She means a good deal to me." + +"Oh, I understand. Yes, that long, queer cabin highest up the hill." + +"Thanks, old chap." + +"All right, good luck." He accompanied me to the door, staring at the +marvel of the glamorous Northern midnight. + +"Oh, for a medium to express it all! Your pedantic poetry isn't big +enough; prose isn't big enough. What we want is something between the +two, something that will interpret life, and stir the great heart of the +people. Good-night." + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +Very softly I approached the cabin, for a fear of encountering her +guardians was in my heart. It was in rather a lonely place, perched at +the base of that vast mountain abrasion they call the Slide, a long, low +cabin, quiet and dark, and surrounded by rugged boulders. Carefully I +reconnoitered, and soon, to my infinite joy, I saw the Jewish couple +come forth and make their way townward. The girl was alone. + +How madly beat my heart! It was a glooming kind of a night, and the +cabin looked woefully bleak and solitary. No light came through the +windows, no sound through the moss-chinked walls. I drew near. + +Why this wild commotion of my being? What was it? Anxiety, joy, dread? I +was poised on the pinnacle of hope that overhangs the abyss of despair. +Fearfully I paused. I was racked with suspense, conscious of a longing +so poignant that the thought of disappointment became insufferable pain. +So violent was my emotion that a feeling almost of nausea overcame me. + +I knew now that I cared for this girl more than I had ever thought to +care for woman. I knew that she was dearer to me than all the world +else; I knew that my love for her would live as long as life is long. + +I knocked at the door. No answer. + +"Berna," I cried in a faltering whisper. + +Came the reply: "Who is there?" + +"Love, love, dear; love is waiting." + +Then, at my words, the door was opened, and the girl was before me. I +think she had been lying down, for her soft hair was a little ruffled, +but her eyes were far too bright for sleep. She stood gazing at me, and +a little fluttering hand went up to her heart as if to still its +beating. + +"Oh, my dear, I knew you were coming." + +A great radiance of joy seemed to descend on her. + +"You knew?" + +"I knew, yes, I knew. Something told me you were come at last. And I've +waited--how I've waited! I've dreamed, but it's not a dream now, is it, +dear; it's you?" + +"Yes, it's me. I've tried so hard to find you. Oh, my dear, my dear!" + +I seized the sweet, soft hand and covered it with kisses. At that moment +I could have kissed the shadow of that little hand; I could have fallen +before her in speechless adoration; I could have made my heart a +footstool for her feet; I could have given her, O, so gladly, my paltry +life to save her from a moment's sorrow--I loved her so, I loved her so! + +"High and low I've sought you, beloved. Morning, noon and night you've +been in my brain, my heart, my soul. I've loved you every moment of my +life. It's been desire feeding despair, and, O, the agony of it! Thank +God, I've found you, dear! thank God! thank God!" + +O Love, look down on us and choir your harmonies! Transported was I, +speaking with whirling words of sweetest madness, tremulous, uplifted +with rapture, scarce conscious of my wild, impassioned metaphors. It was +she, most precious of all creation; she, my beloved. And there, in the +doorway, she poised, white as a lily, lustrous-eyed, and with hair soft +as sunlit foam. O Divinity of Love, look down on us thy children; fold +us in thy dove-soft wings; illumine us in thy white radiance; touch us +with thy celestial hands. Bless us, Love! + +How vastly alight were the grey eyes! How ineffably tender the sweet +lips! A faint glow had come into her cheeks. + +"O, it's you, really, really you at last," she cried again, and there +was a tremor, the surface ripple of a sob in that clear voice. She +fetched a deep sigh: "And I thought I'd lost you forever. Wait a moment. +I'll come out." + +Endlessly long the moment seemed, yet wondrously irradiate. The shadow +had lifted from the world; the skies were alight with gladness; my heart +was heaven-aspiring in its ecstasy. Then, at last, she came. + +She had thrown a shawl around her shoulders, and coaxed her hair into +charming waves and ripples. + +"Come, let us go up the trail a little distance. They won't be back for +nearly an hour." + +She led the way along that narrow path, looking over her shoulder with a +glorious smile, sometimes extending her hand back to me as one would +with a child. + +Along the brow of the bluff the way wound dizzily, while far below the +river swept in a giant eddy. For a long time we spoke no word. 'Twas as +if our hearts were too full for utterance, our happiness too vast for +expression. Yet, O, the sweetness of that silence! The darkling gloom +had silvered into lustrous light, the birds were beginning again their +mad midnight melodies. Then, suddenly turning a bend in the narrow +trail, a blaze of glory leapt upon our sight. + +"Look, Berna," I cried. + +The swelling river was a lake of saffron fire; the hills a throne of +rosy garnet; the sky a dazzling panoply of rubies, girdled with flames +of gold. We almost cringed, so gorgeous was its glow, so fierce its +splendour. + +Then, when we had seated ourselves on the hillside, facing the +conflagration, she turned to me. + +"And so you found me, dear. I knew you would, somehow. In my heart I +knew you would not fail me. So I waited and waited. The time seemed +pitilessly long. I only thought of you once, and that was always. It was +cruel we left so suddenly, not even time to say good-bye. I can't tell +you how bad I felt about it, but I could not help myself. They dragged +me away. They began to be afraid of you, and he bade them leave at once. +So in the early morning we started." + +"I see, I see." I looked into the pools of her eyes; I sheathed her +white hands in my brown ones, thrilling greatly at the contact of them. + +"Tell me about it, child. Has he bothered you?" + +"Oh, not so much. He thinks he has me safe enough, trapped, awaiting his +pleasure. But he's taken up with some woman of the town just now. +By-and-bye he'll turn his attention to me." + +"Terrible! Terrible! Berna, you wring my heart. How can you talk of such +things in that matter-of-fact way--it maddens me." + +An odd, hard look ridged the corners of her mouth. + +"I don't know. Sometimes I'm surprised at myself how philosophical I'm +getting." + +"But, Berna, surely nothing in this world would ever make you yield? O, +it's horrible! horrible!" + +She leaned to me tenderly. She put my arms around her neck; she looked +at me till I saw my face mirrored in her eyes. + +"Nothing in the world, dear, so long as I have you to love me and help +me. If ever you fail me, well, then it wouldn't matter much what became +of me." + +"Even then," I said, "it would be too awful for words. I would rather +drag your body from that river than see you yield to him. He's a +monster. His very touch is profanation. He could not look on a woman +without cynical lust in his heart." + +"I know, my boy, I know. Believe me and trust me. I would rather throw +myself from the bluff here than let him put a hand on me. And so long as +I have your love, dear, I'm safe enough. Don't fear. O, it's been +terrible not seeing you! I've craved for you ceaselessly. I've never +been out since we came here. They wouldn't let me. They kept in +themselves. He bade them. He has them both under his thumb. But now, for +some reason, he has relaxed. They're going to open a restaurant +downtown, and I'm to wait on table." + +"No, you're not!" I cried, "not if I have anything to say in the matter. +Berna, I can't bear to think of you in that garbage-heap of corruption +down there. You must marry me--now." + +"Now," she echoed, her eyes wide with surprise. + +"Yes, right away, dear. There's nothing to prevent us. Berna, I love +you, I want you, I need you. I'm just distracted, dear. I never know a +moment's peace. I cannot take an interest in anything. When I speak to +others I'm thinking of you, you all the time. O, I can't bear it, +dearest; have pity on me: marry me now." + +In an agony of suspense I waited for her answer. For a long time she sat +there, thoughtful and quiet, her eyes cast down. At last she raised them +to me. + +"You said one year." + +"Yes, but I was sorry afterwards. I want you now. I can't wait." + +She looked at me gravely. Her voice was very soft, very tender. + +"I think it better we should wait, dear. This is a blind, sudden desire +on your part. I mustn't take advantage of it. You pity me, fear for me, +and you have known so few other girls. It's generosity, chivalry, not +love for poor little me. O, we mustn't, we mustn't. And then--you might +change." + +"Change! I'll never, never change," I pleaded. "I'll always be yours, +absolutely, wholly yours, little girl; body and soul, to make or to mar, +for ever and ever and ever." + +"Well, it seems so sudden, so burning, so intense, your love, dear. I'm +afraid, I'm afraid. Maybe it's not the kind that lasts. Maybe you'll +tire. I'm not worth it, indeed I'm not. I'm only a poor ignorant girl. +If there were others near, you would never think of me." + +"Berna," I said, "if you were among a thousand, and they were the most +adorable in all the world, I would pass over them all and turn with joy +and gratitude to you. Then, if I were an Emperor on a throne, and you +the humblest in all that throng, I would raise you up beside me and call +you 'Queen.'" + +"Ah, no," she said sadly, "you were wise once. I saw it afterwards. +Better wait one year." + +"Oh, my dearest," I reproached her, "once you offered yourself to me +under any conditions. Why have you changed?" + +"I don't know. I'm bitterly ashamed of that. Never speak of it again." + +She went on very quietly, full of gentle patience. + +"You know, I've been thinking a great deal since then. In the long, long +days and longer nights, when I waited here in misery, hoping always you +would come to me, I had time to reflect, to weight your words. I +remember them all: 'love that means life and death, that great dazzling +light, that passion that would raise to heaven or drag to hell.' You +have awakened the woman in me; I must have a love like that." + +"You have, my precious; you have, indeed." + +"Well, then, let me have time to test it. This is June. Next June, if +you have not made up your mind you were foolish, blind, hasty, I will +give myself to you with all the love in the world." + +"Perhaps _you_ will change." + +She smiled a peculiar little smile. + +"Never, never fear that. I will be waiting for you, longing for you, +loving you more and more every day." + +I was bitterly cast down, crestfallen, numbed with the blow of her +refusal. + +"Just now," she said, "I would only be a drag on you. I believe in you. +I have faith in you. I want to see you go out and mix in the battle of +life. I know you will win. For my sake, dear, win. I would handicap you +just now. There are all kinds of chances. Let us wait, boy, just a +year." + +I saw the pathetic wisdom of her words. + +"I know you fear something will happen to me. No! I think I will be +quite safe. I can withstand him. After a while he will leave me alone. +And if it should come to the worst I can call on you. You mustn't go too +far away. I will die rather than let him lay a hand on me. Till next +June, dear, not a day longer. We will both be the better for the wait." + +I bowed my head. "Very well," I said huskily; "and what will I do in the +meantime?" + +"Do! Do what you would have done otherwise. Do not let a woman divert +the current of your life; let her swim with it. Go out on the creeks! +Work! It will be better for you to go away. It will make it easier for +me. Here we will both torture each other. I, too, will work and live +quietly, and long for you. The time will pass quickly. You will come and +see me sometimes?" + +"Yes," I answered. My voice choked with emotion. + +"Now we must go home," she said; "I'm afraid they will be back." + +She rose, and I followed her down the narrow trail. Once or twice she +turned and gave me a bright, tender look. I worshipped her more than +ever. Was there ever maid more sweet, more gentle, more quick with +anxious love? "Bless her, O bless her," I sighed. "Whatever comes, may +she be happy." I adored her, but a great sadness filled my heart, and +never a word I spoke. + +We reached the cabin, and on the threshold she paused. The others had +not yet returned. She held out both hands to me, and her eyes were +glittering with tears. + +"Be brave, my dearest; it's all for my sake--if you love me." + +"I love you, my darling; anything for your sake. I'll go to-morrow." + +"We're betrothed now, aren't we, dearest?" + +"We're betrothed, my love." + +She swayed to me and seemed to fit into my arms as a sword fits into its +sheath. My lips lay on hers, and I kissed her with a passionate joy. She +took my face between her hands and gazed at me long and earnestly. + +"I love you, I love you," she murmured; "next June, my darling, next +June." + +Then she gently slipped away from me, and I was gazing blankly at the +closed door. + +"Next June," I heard a voice echo; and there, looking at me with a +smile, was Locasto. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +It comes like a violent jar to be awakened so rudely from a trance of +love, to turn suddenly from the one you care for most in all the world, +and behold the one you have best reason to hate. Nevertheless, it is not +in human nature to descend rocket-wise from the ethereal heights of +love. I was still in an exalted state of mind when I turned and +confronted Locasto. Hate was far from my heart, and when I saw the man +himself was regarding me with no particular unfriendliness, I was +disposed to put aside for the moment all feelings of enmity. The +generosity of the victor glowed within me. + +As he advanced to me his manner was almost urbane in its geniality. + +"You must forgive me," he said, not without dignity, "for overhearing +you; but by chance I was passing and dropped upon you before I realised +it." + +He extended his hand frankly. + +"I trust my congratulations on your good luck will not be entirely +obnoxious. I know that my conduct in this affair cannot have impressed +you in a very favourable light; but I am a badly beaten man. Can't you +be generous and let by-gones be by-gones? Won't you?" + +I had not yet come down to earth. I was still soaring in the rarefied +heights of love, and inclined to a general amnesty towards my enemies. + +As he stood there, quiet and compelling, there was an assumption of +frankness and honesty about this man that it was hard to withstand. For +the nonce I was persuaded of his sincerity, and weakly I surrendered my +hand. His grip made me wince. + +"Yes, again I congratulate you. I know and admire her. They don't make +them any better. She's pure gold. She's a little queen, and the man she +cares for ought to be proud and happy. Now, I'm a man of the world, I'm +cynical about woman as a rule. I respect my mother and my +sisters--beyond that----" He shrugged his shoulders expressively. + +"But this girl's different. I always felt in her presence as I used to +feel twenty-five years ago when I was a youth, with all my ideals +untarnished, my heart pure, and woman holy in my sight." + +He sighed. + +"You know, young man, I've never told it to a soul before, but I'd give +all I'm worth--a clear million--to have those days back. I've never been +happy since." + +He drew away quickly from the verge of sentiment. + +"Well, you mustn't mind me taking an interest in your sweetheart. I'm +old enough to be her father, you know, and she touches me strangely. +Now, don't distrust me. I want to be a friend to you both. I want to +help you to be happy. Jack Locasto's not such a bad lot, as you'll find +when you know him. Is there anything I can do for you? What are you +going to do in this country?" + +"I don't quite know yet," I said. "I hope to stake a good claim when the +chance comes. Meantime I'm going to get work on the creeks." + +"You are?" he said thoughtfully; "do you know any one?" + +"No." + +"Well, I'll tell you what: I've got laymen working on my Eldorado claim; +I'll give you a note to them if you like." + +I thanked him. + +"Oh, that's all right," he said. "I'm sorry I played such a mean part in +the past, and I'll do anything in my power to straighten things out. +Believe me, I mean it. Your English friend gave me the worst drubbing of +my life, but three days after I went round and shook hands with him. +Fine fellow that. We opened a case of wine to celebrate the victory. Oh, +we're good friends now. I always own up when I'm beaten, and I never +bear ill-will. If I can help you in any way, and hasten your marriage to +that little girl there, well, you can just bank on Jack Locasto: that's +all." + +I must say the man could be most conciliating when he chose. There was a +gravity in his manner, a suave courtesy in his tone, the heritage of his +Spanish forefathers, that convinced me almost in spite of my better +judgment. No doubt he was magnetic, dominating, a master of men. I +thought: there are two Locastos, the primordial one, the Indian, who had +assaulted me; and the dignified genial one, the Spaniard, who was +willing to own defeat and make amends. Why should I not take him as I +found him? + +So, as he talked entertainingly to me, my fears were dissipated, my +suspicions lulled. And when we parted we shook hands cordially. + +"Don't forget," he said; "if you want help bank on me. I mean it now, I +mean it." + + * * * * * + +'Twas early in the bright and cool of the morning when we started for +Eldorado, Jim and I. I had a letter from Locasto to Ribwood and Hoofman, +the laymen, and I showed it to Jim. He frowned. + +"You don't mean to say you've palled up with that devil," he said. + +"Oh, he's not so bad," I expostulated. "He came to me like a man and +offered me his hand in friendship. Said he was ashamed of himself. What +could I do? I've no reason to doubt his sincerity." + +"Sincerity be danged. He's about as sincere as a tame rattlesnake. Put +his letter in the creek." + +But no! I refused to listen to the old man. + +"Well, go your own gait," he said; "but don't say that I didn't warn +you." + +We had crossed over the Klondike to its left limit, and were on a +hillside trail beaten down by the feet of miners and packers. Cabins +clustered on the flat, and from them plumes of violet smoke mounted into +the golden air. Already the camp was astir. Men were chopping their +wood, carrying their water. The long, long day was beginning. + +Following the trail, we struck up Bonanza, a small muddy stream in a +narrow valley. Down in the creek-bed we could see ever-increasing signs +of an intense mining activity. On every claim were dozens of cabins, and +many high cones of greyish muck. We saw men standing on raised platforms +turning windlasses. We saw buckets come up filled with the same dark +grey dirt, to be dumped over the edge of the platform. Sometimes, where +the dump had gradually arisen around man and windlass, the platform in +the centre of that dark-greyish cone was twenty feet high. + +Every mile the dumps grew more numerous, till some claims seemed covered +with them. Looking down from the trail, they were like innumerable +anthills blocking up the narrow channel, and around them swarmed the +little ant-men in never-resting activity. The golden valley opened out +to us in a vista of green curves, and the cleft of it was packed with +tents, cabins, dumps and tailing piles, all bedded in a blue haze of +wood fires. + +"Look at that great centipede striding across the valley," I said. + +"Yes," said Jim, "it's a long line of sluice-boxes. See the water +a-shinin' in the sun. Looks like some big golden-backed caterpillar." + +The little ants were shovelling into it from one of their heaps, and +from that point it swirled on into the stream, a current of mud and +stone. + +"Seems to me that stream would wash away all the gold," I said. "I know +it's all caught in the riffles, but I think if that dump was mine I +would want sluice-boxes a mile long and about sixteen hundred riffles. +But I guess they know what they are doing." + +About noon we descended into the creek-bed and came to the Forks. It was +a little town, a Dawson in miniature, with all its sordid aspects +infinitely accentuated. It had dance-halls, gambling dens and many +saloons: every convenience to ease the miner of the plethoric poke. +There in the din and daze and dirt we tarried awhile; then, after eating +heartily, we struck up Eldorado. + +Here was the same feverish activity of gold-getting. Every claim was +valued at millions, and men who had rarely owned enough to buy a decent +coat were crying in the saloons because life was not long enough to +allow them to spend their sudden wealth. Nevertheless, they were making +a good stab at it. At the Forks I enquired regarding Ribwood and +Hoofman: "Goin' to work for them, are you? Well, they've got a blamed +hard name. If you get a job elsewhere, don't turn it down." + +Jim left me; he would work on no claim of Locasto's, he said. He had a +friend, a layman, who was a good man, belonged to the Army. He would try +him. So we parted. + +Ribwood was a tall, gaunt Cornishman, with a narrow, jutting face and a +gloomy air; Hoofman, a burly, beet-coloured Australian with a bulging +stomach. + +"Yes, we'll put you to work," said Hoofman, reading the letter. "Get +your coat off and shovel in." + +So, right away, I found myself in the dump-pile, jamming a shovel into +the pay-dirt and swinging it into a sluice-box five feet higher than my +head. Keeping at this hour after hour was no fun, and if ever a man +desisted for a moment the hard eyes of Hoofman were upon him, and the +gloomy Ribwood had snatched up a shovel and was throwing in the muck +furiously. + +"Come on, boys," he would shout; "make the dirt fly. 'Taint every part +of the world you fellers can make your ten bucks a day." + +And it can be said that never labourer proved himself more worthy of his +hire than the pick-and-shovel man of those early days. Few could stand +it long without resting. They were lean as wolves those men of the dump +and drift, and their faces were gouged and grooved with relentless toil. + +Well, for three days I made the dirt fly; but towards quitting time, I +must say, its flight was a very uncertain one. Again I suffered all the +tortures of becoming toil-broken, the old aches and pains of the tunnel +and the gravel-pit. Towards evening every shovelful of dirt seemed to +weigh as much as if it was solid gold; indeed, the stuff seemed to get +richer and richer as the day advanced, and during the last half-hour I +judged it must be nearly all nuggets. The constant hoisting into the +overhead sluice-box somehow worked muscles that had never gone into +action before, and I ached elaborately. + +In the morning the pains were fiercest. How I groaned until the muscles +became limber. I found myself using very rough language, groaning, +gritting my teeth viciously. But I stayed with the work and held up my +end, while the laymen watched us sedulously, and seemed to grudge us +even a moment to wipe the sweat out of our blinded eyes. + +I was glad, indeed, when, on the evening of the third day, Ribwood came +to me and said: + +"I guess you'd better work up at the shaft to-morrow. We want a man to +wheel muck." + +They had a shaft sunk on the hillside. They were down some forty feet +and were drifting in, wheeling the pay-dirt down a series of planks +placed on trestles to the dump. I gripped the handles of a wheelbarrow +loaded to overspilling, and steered it down that long, unsteady gangway +full of uneven joins and sudden angles. Time and again I ran off the +track, but after the first day I became quite an expert at the business. +My spirits rose. I was on the way of becoming a miner. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +Turning the windlass over the shaft was a little, tough mud-rat, who +excited in me the liveliest sense of aversion. Pat Doogan was his name, +but I will call him the "Worm." + +The Worm was the foulest-mouthed specimen I have yet met. He had the +lowest forehead I have ever seen in a white man, and such a sharp, +ferrety little face. His reddish hair had the prison clip, and his +little reddish eyes were alive with craft and cruelty. I noticed he +always regarded me with a peculiarly evil grin, that wrinkled up his +cheeks and revealed his hideously blackened teeth. From the first he +gave me a creepy feeling, a disgust as if I were near some slimy +reptile. + +Yet the Worm tried to make up to me. He would tell me stories blended of +the horrible and the grotesque. One in particular I remember. + +"Youse wanta know how I lost me last job. I'll tell youse. You see, it +was like dis. Dere was two Blackmoor guys dat got into de country dis +Spring; came by St. Michaels; Hindoos dey was. One of dem 'Sicks' (an' +dey looked sick, dey was so loose an' weary in der style) got a job from +old man Gustafson down de shaft muckin' up and fillin' de buckets. + +"Well, dere was dat Blackmoor down in de deep hole one day when I comes +along, an' strikes old Gus for a job. So, seein' as de man on de +windlass wanted to quit, he passed it up to me, an' I took right hold +an' started in. + +"Say, I was feelin' powerful mean. I'd just finished up a two weeks' +drunk, an' you tink de booze wasn't workin' in me some. I was seein' all +kinds of funny t'ings. Why, as I was a-turnin' away at dat ol' windlass +dere was red spiders crawlin' up me legs. But I was wise. I wouldn't +look at dem, give dem de go-by. Den a yeller rat got gay wid me an' did +some stunts on me windlass. But still I wouldn't let on. Den dere was +some green snakes dat wriggled over de platform like shiny streaks on de +water. Sure, I didn't like dat one bit, but I says, 'Dere ain't no +snakes in de darned country, Pat, and you knows it. It's just a touch of +de horrors, dat's all. Just pass 'em up, boy; don't take no notice of +dem.' + +"Well, dis went on till I begins to get all shaky an' jumpy, an' I was +mighty glad when de time came to quit, an' de boys down below gives me +de holler to pull dem up. + +"So I started hoistin' wid dose snakes an' spiders an' rats jus' +cavortin' round me like mad, when all to once who should I hoist outa de +bowels of de earth but de very devil himself. + +"His face was black. I could see de whites of his eyes, an' he had a big +dirty towel tied round his head. Well, say, it was de limit. At de sight +of dat ferocious monster comin' after old Pat I gives one yell, drops +de crank-handle of de windlass, an' makes a flyin' leap down de dump. I +hears an awful shriek, an' de bucket an' de devil goes down smash to de +bottom of de shaft, t'irty-five feet. But I kep' on runnin'. I was so +scared. + +"Well, how was I to know dey had a Blackmoor down dere? He was a stiff +when dey got him up, but how was I to know? So I lost me job." + +On another occasion he told me: + +"Say, kid, youse didn't know as I was liable to fits, did youse? Dat's +so; eppylepsy de doctor tells me. Dat's what I am scared of. You see, +it's like dis: if one of dem fits should hit me when I'm hoistin' de +boys outer de shaft, den it would be a pity. I would sure lose me job +like de oder time." + +He was the most degraded type of man I had yet met on my travels, a +typical degenerate, dirty, drunken, diseased. He had three suits of +underclothing, which he never washed. He would wear through all three in +succession, and when the last got too dirty for words he would throw it +under his trunk and sorrowfully go back to the first, keeping up this +rotation, till all were worn out. + +One day Hoofman told me he wanted me to go down the shaft and work in +the drift. Accordingly, next morning I and a huge Slav, by name Dooley +Rileyvich, were lowered down into the darkness. + +The Slav initiated me. Every foot of dirt had to be thawed out by means +of wood fires. We built a fire at the far end of the drift every night, +covering the face we were working. First we would lay kindling, then +dry spruce lying lengthways, then a bank of green wood standing on end +to keep in the heat and shed the dirt that sloughed down from the roof. +In the morning our fire would be burned out, and enough pay-dirt thawed +to keep us picking all day. + +Down there I found it the hardest work of all. We had to be careful that +the smoke had cleared from the drift before we ventured in, for +frequently miners were asphyxiated. Indeed, the bad air never went +entirely away. It made my eyes sore, my head ache. Yet, curiously +enough, so long as you were below it did not affect you so much. It was +when you stepped out of the bucket and struck the pure outer air that +you reeled and became dizzy. It was blinding, too. Often at supper have +my eyes been so blurred and sore I had to grope around uncertainly for +the sugar bowl and the tin of cream. + +In the drift it was always cool. The dirt kept sloughing down on us, and +we had really gone in too far for our own safety, but the laymen cared +little for that. At the end of the drift the roof was so low we were +bent almost double, picking at the face in all kinds of cramped +positions, and dragging after us the heavy bucket. To the big Slav it +was all in the day's work, but to me it was hard, hard. + +The shaft was almost forty feet deep. For the first ten feet a ladder +ran down it, then stopped suddenly as if the excavators had decided to +abandon it. I often looked at this useless bit of ladder and wondered +why it had been left unfinished. + +Every morning the Worm hoisted us down into the darkness, and at night +drew us up. Once he said to me: + +"Say, wouldn't it be de tough luck if I was to take a fit when I was +hoistin' youse up? Such a nice bit of a boy, too, an' I guess I'd lose +my job over de head of it." + +I said: "Cut that out, or you'll have me so scared I won't go down." + +He grinned unpleasantly and said nothing more. Yet somehow he was +getting on my nerves terribly. + +It was one evening we had banked our fires and were ready to be hoisted +up. Dooley Rileyvich went first, and I watched him blot out the bit of +blue for a while. Then, slowly, down came the bucket for me. + +I got in. I was feeling uneasy all of a sudden, and devoutly wished I +were anywhere else but in that hideous hole. I felt myself leave the +ground and rise steadily. The walls of the shaft glided past me. Up, up +I went. The bit of blue sky grew bigger, bigger. There was a star +shining there. I watched it. I heard the creak, creak of the windlass +crank. Somehow it seemed to have a sinister sound. It seemed to say: +"Have a care, have a care, have a care." I was now ten feet from the +top. The bucket was rocking a little, so I put out my hand and grasped +the lowest rung of the ladder to steady myself. + +Then, at that instant, it seemed the weight of the bucket pressing up +against my feet was suddenly removed, and my arm was nigh jerked out of +its socket. There I was hanging desperately on the lowest rung of the +ladder, while, with a crash that made my heart sick, the bucket dashed +to the bottom. At last, I realised, the Worm had had his fit. + +Quickly I gripped with both hands. With a great effort I raised myself +rung by rung on the ladder. I was panic-stricken, faint with fear; but +some instinct had made me hold on desperately. Dizzily I hung all +a-shudder, half-sobbing. A minute seemed like a year. + +Ah! there was the face of Dooley looking down on me. He saw me clinging +there. He was anxiously shouting to me to come up. Mastering an +overpowering nausea I raised myself. At last I felt his strong arm +around me, and here I swear it on a stack of Bibles that brutish Slav +seemed to me like one of God's own angels. + +I was on firm ground once more. The Worm was lying stiff and rigid. +Without a word the stalwart Slav took him on his brawny shoulder. The +creek was downhill but fifty yards. Ere we reached it the Worm had +begun to show signs of reviving consciousness. When we got to the edge +of the icy water he was beginning to groan and open his eyes in a dazed +way. + +"Leave me alone," he says to Rileyvich; "you Slavonian swine, lemme go." + +Not so the Slav. Holding the wriggling, writhing little man in his +powerful arms he plunged him heels over head in the muddy current of the +creek. + +"I guess I cure dose fits anyway," he said grimly. + +Struggling, spluttering, blaspheming, the little man freed himself at +last and staggered ashore. He cursed Rileyvich most comprehensively. He +had not yet seen me, and I heard him wailing: + +"Sure de boy's a stiff. Just me luck; I've lost me job." + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +"You'd better quit," said the Prodigal. + +It was the evening of my mishap, and he had arrived unexpectedly from +town. + +"Yes, I mean to," I answered. "I wouldn't go down there again for a +farm. I feel as weak as a sick baby. I couldn't stay another day." + +"Well, that goes," said he. "It just fits in with my plans. I'm getting +Jim to come in, too. I've realised on that stuff I bought, made over +three thousand clear profit, and with it I've made a dicker for a +property on the bench above Bonanza, Gold Hill they call it. I've a +notion it's all right. Anyway, we'll tunnel in and see. You and Jim will +have a quarter share each for your work, while I'll have an extra +quarter for the capital I've put in. Is it a go?" + +I said it was. + +"Thought it would be. I've had the papers made out; you can sign right +now." + +So I signed, and next day found us all three surveying our claim. We put +up a tent, but the first thing to do was to build a cabin. Right away we +began to level off the ground. The work was pleasant, and conducted in +such friendship that the time passed most happily. Indeed, my only worry +was about Berna. She had never ceased to be at the forefront of my mind. +I schooled myself into the belief that she was all right, but, thank +God, every moment was bringing her nearer to me. + +One morning, when we were out in the woods cutting timber for the cabin, +I said to Jim: + +"Did you ever hear anything more about that man Mosely?" + +He stopped chopping, and lowered the axe he had poised aloft. + +"No, boy; I've had no mail at all. Wait awhile." + +He swung his axe with viciously forceful strokes. His cheery face had +become so downcast that I bitterly blamed myself for my want of tact. +However, the cloud soon passed. + +About two days after that the Prodigal said to me: + +"I saw your little guttersnipe friend to-day." + +"Indeed, where?" I asked; for I had often thought of the Worm, thought +of him with fear and loathing. + +"Well, sir, he was just getting the grandest dressing-down I ever saw a +man get. And do you know who was handing it to him--Locasto, no less." + +He lit a cigarette and inhaled the smoke. + +"I was just coming along the trail from the Forks when I suddenly heard +voices in the bush. The big man was saying: + +"'Lookee here, Pat, you know if I just liked to say half a dozen words I +could land you in the penitentiary for the rest of your days.' + +"Then the little man's wheedling voice: + +"'Well, I did me best, Jack. I know I bungled the job, but youse don't +want to cast dem t'ings up to me. Dere's more dan me orter be in de +pen. Dere's no good in de pot callin' de kettle black, is dere?' + +"Then Black Jack flew off the handle. You know he's got a system of +manhandling that's near the record in these parts. Well, he just landed +on the little man. He got him down and started to lambast the Judas out +of him. He gave him the 'leather,' and then some. I guess he'd have done +him to a finish hadn't I been Johnnie on the spot. At sight of me he +gives a curse, jumps on his horse and goes off at a canter. Well, I +propped the little man against a tree, and then some fellows came along, +and we got him some brandy. But he was badly done up. He kept saying: +'Oh, de devil, de big devil, sure I'll give him his before I get +t'rough.' Funny, wasn't it?" + +"Yes, it's strange;" and for some time I pondered over the remarkable +strangeness of it. + +"That reminds me," said Jim; "has any one seen the Jam-wagon?" + +"Oh yes," answered the Prodigal; "poor beggar! he's down and out. After +the fight he went to pieces, every one treating him, and so on. You +remember Bullhammer?" + +"Yes." + +"Well, the last I saw of the Jam-wagon--he was cleaning cuspidors in +Bullhammer's saloon." + + * * * * * + +We had hauled the logs for the cabin, and the foundation was laid. Now +we were building up the walls, placing between every log a thick +wadding of moss. Every day saw our future home nearer completion. + +One evening I spied the saturnine Ribwood climbing the hill to our tent. +He hailed me: + +"Say, you're just the man I want." + +"What for?" I asked; "not to go down that shaft again?" + +"No. Say! we want a night watchman up at the claim to go on four hours a +night at a dollar an hour. You see, there's been a lot of sluice-box +robberies lately, and we're scared for our clean-up. We're running two +ten-hour shifts now and cleaning up every three days; but there's four +hours every night the place is deserted, and Hoofman proposed we should +get you to keep watch." + +"Yes," I said; "I'll run up every evening if the others don't object." + +They did not; so the next night, and for about a dozen after that, I +spent the darkest hours watching on the claim where previously I had +worked. + +There was never any real darkness down there in that narrow valley, but +there was dusk of a kind that made everything grey and uncertain. It was +a vague, nebulous atmosphere in which objects merged into each other +confusedly. Bushes came down to within a few feet of where we were +working, dense-growing alder and birch that would have concealed a whole +regiment of sluice-robbers. + +It was the dimmest and most uncertain hour of the four, and I was +sitting at my post of guard. As the night was chilly I had brought +along an old grey blanket, similar in colour to the mound of the +pay-dirt. There had been quite a cavity dug in the dump during the day, +and into this I crawled and wrapped myself in my blanket. From my +position I could see the string of boxes containing the riffles. Over me +brooded the vast silence of the night. By my side lay a loaded shot-gun. + +"If the swine comes," said Ribwood, "let him have a clean-up of lead +instead of gold." + +Lying there, I got to thinking of the robberies. They were remarkable. +All had been done by an expert. In some cases the riffles had been +extracted and the gold scooped out; in others a quantity of mercury had +been poured in at the upper end of the boxes, and, as it passed down, +the "quick" had gathered up the dust. Each time the robbers had cleaned +up from two to three thousand dollars, and all within the past month. +There was some mysterious master-crook in our midst, one who operated +swiftly and surely, and left absolutely no clue of his identity. + +It was strange, I thought. What nerve, what cunning, what skill must +this midnight thief be possessed of! What desperate chances was he +taking! For, in the miners' eyes, cache-stealing and sluice-box robbing +were in the same category, and the punishment was--well, a rope and the +nearest tree of size. Among those strong, grim men justice would be +stern and swift. + +I was very quiet for a while, watching dreamily the dark shadows of the +dusk. + +Hist! What was that? Surely the bushes were moving over there by the +hillside. I strained my eyes. I was right: they were. + +I was all nerves and excitement now, my heart beating wildly, my eyes +boring through the gloom. Very softly I put out my hand and grasped the +shot-gun. + +I watched and waited. A man was parting the bushes. Stealthily, very +stealthily, he peered around. He hesitated, paused, peered again, +crouched on all-fours, crept forward a little. Everything was quiet as a +grave. Down in the cabins the tired men slept peacefully; stillness and +solitude. + +Cautiously the man, crawling like a snake, worked his way to the +sluice-boxes. None but a keen watcher could have seen him. Again and +again he paused, peered around, listened intently. Very carefully, with +my eyes fixed on him, I lifted the gun. + +Now he had gained the shadow of the nearest sluice-box. He clung to the +trestle-work, clung so closely you could scarce tell him apart from it. +He was like a rat, dark, furtive, sinister. Slowly I lifted the gun to +my shoulder. I had him covered. + +I waited. Somehow I was loath to shoot. My nerves were a-quiver. Proof, +more proof, I said. I saw him working busily, lying flat alongside the +boxes. How crafty, how skilful he was! He was disconnecting the boxes. +He would let the water run to the ground; then, there in the exposed +riffles, would be his harvest. Would I shoot ... now ... now.... + +Then, in the midnight hush, my gun blazed forth. With one scream the man +tumbled down, carrying along with him the disconnected box. The water +rushed over the ground in a deluge. I must capture him. There he lay in +that pouring stream.... Now I had him. + +In that torrent of icy water I grappled with my man. Over and over we +rolled. He tried to gouge me. He was small, but oh, how strong! He held +down his face. Fiercely I wrenched it up to the light. Heavens! it was +the Worm. + +I gave a cry of surprise, and my clutch on him must have weakened, for +at that moment he gave a violent wrench, a cat-like twist, and tore +himself free. Men were coming, were shouting, were running in from all +directions. + +"Catch him!" I cried. "Yonder he goes." + +But the little man was shooting forward like a deer. He was in the +bushes now, bursting through everything, dodging and twisting up the +hill. Right and left ran his pursuers, mistaking each other for the +robber in the semi-gloom, yelling frantically, mad with the excitement +of a man-hunt. And in the midst of it all I lay in a pool of mud and +water, with a sprained wrist and a bite on my leg. + +"Why didn't you hold him?" shouted Ribwood. + +"I couldn't," I answered. "I saved your clean-up, and he got some of the +lead. Besides, I know who he is." + +"You don't! Who is he?" + +"Pat Doogan." + +"You don't say. Well, I'm darned. You're sure?" + +"Dead sure." + +"Swear it in Court?" + +"I will." + +"Well, that's all right. We'll get him. I'll go into town first thing in +the morning and get out a warrant for him." + +He went, but the next evening back he returned, looking very surly and +disgruntled. + +"Well, what about the warrant?" said Hoofman. + +"Didn't get it." + +"Didn't get----" + +"No, didn't get it," snapped Ribwood. "Look here, Hoofman, I met +Locasto. Black Jack says Pat was cached away, dead to all the world, in +the backroom of the Omega Saloon all night. There's two loafers and the +barkeeper to back him up. What can we do in the face of that? Say, young +feller, I guess you mistook your man." + +"I guess I did not," I protested stoutly. + +They both looked at me for a moment and shrugged their shoulders. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + +Time went on and the cabin was quietly nearing completion. The roof of +poles was in place. It only remained to cover it with moss and +thawed-out earth to make it our future home. I think these were the +happiest days I spent in the North. We were such a united trio. Each was +eager to do more than the other, and we vied in little acts of mutual +consideration. + +Once again I congratulated myself on my partners. Jim, though sometimes +bellicosely evangelical, was the soul of kindly goodness, cheerfulness +and patience. It was refreshing to know among so many sin-calloused men +one who always rang true, true as the gold in the pan. As for the +Prodigal, he was a Prince. I often thought that God at the birth of him +must have reached out to the sunshine and crammed a mighty handful of it +into the boy. Surely it is better than all the riches in the world to +have a temperament of eternal cheer. + +As for me, I have ever been at the mercy of my moods, easily elated, +quickly cast down. I have always been abnormally sensitive, affected by +sunshine and by shadows, vacillating, intense in my feelings. I was +truly happy in those days, finding time in the long evenings to think of +the scenes of stress and sorrow I had witnessed, reconstructing the +past, and having importune me again and again the many characters in my +life drama. + +Always and always I saw the Girl, elusively sweet, almost unreal, a +thing to enshrine in that ideal alcove of our hearts we keep for our +saints. (And God help us always to keep shining there a great light.) + +Many others importuned me: Pinklove, Globstock, Pondersby, Marks, old +Wilovich, all dead; Bullhammer, the Jam-wagon, Mosher, the Winklesteins, +plunged in the vortex of the gold-born city; and lastly, looming over +all, dark and ominous, the handsome, bold, sinister face of Locasto. +Well, maybe I would never see any of them again. + +Yet more and more my dream hours were jealously consecrated to Berna. +How ineffably sweet were they! How full of delicious imaginings! How +pregnant of high hope! O, I was born to love, I think, and I never loved +but one. This story of my life is the story of Berna. It is a thing of +words and words and words, yet every word is Berna, Berna. Feel the +heartache behind it all. Read between the lines, Berna, Berna. + +Often in the evenings we went to the Forks, which was a lively place +indeed. Here was all the recklessness and revel of Dawson on a smaller +scale, and infinitely more gross. Here were the dance-hall girls, not +the dazzling creatures in diamonds and Paris gowns, the belles of the +Monte Carlo and the Tivoli, but drabs self-convicted by their coarse, +puffy faces. Here the men, fresh from their day's work, the mud of the +claim hardly dry on their boot-tops, were buying wine with nuggets they +had filched from sluice-box, dump and drift. + +There was wholesale robbery going on in the gold-camp. On many claims +where the owners were known to be unsuspicious, men would work for small +wages because of the gold they were able to filch. On the other hand, +many of the operators were paying their men in trade-dust valued at +sixteen dollars an ounce, yet so adulterated with black sand as to be +really worth about fourteen. All these things contributed to the low +morale of the camp. Easy come, easy go with money, a wild intoxication +of success in the air; gold gouged in glittering heaps from the ground +during the day, and at night squandered in a carnival of lust and sin. + +The Prodigal was always "snooping" around and gleaning information from +most mysterious sources. One evening he came to us. + +"Boys, get ready, quick. There's a rumour of a stampede for a new creek, +Ophir Creek they call it, away on the other side of the divide +somewhere. A prospector went down ten feet and got fifty-cent dirt. +We've got to get in on this. There's a mob coming from Dawson, but we'll +get there before the rush." + +Quickly we got together blankets and a little grub, and, keeping out of +sight, we crawled up the hill under cover of the brush. Soon we came to +a place from which we could command a full view of the valley. Here we +lay down, awaiting developments. + +It was at the hour of dusk. Scarfs of smoke wavered over the cabins down +in the valley. On the far slope of Eldorado I saw a hawk soar upwards. +Surely a man was moving amid the brush, two men, a dozen men, moving in +single file very stealthily. I pointed them out. + +"It's the stampede," whispered Jim. "We've got to get on to the trail of +that crowd. Travel like blazes. We can cut them off at the head of the +valley." + +So we struck into the stampede gait, a wild, jolting, desperate pace, +that made the wind pant in our lungs like bellows, and jarred our bones +in their sockets. Through brush and scrub timber we burst. Thorny vines +tore at us detainingly, swampy niggerheads impeded us; but the +excitement of the stampede was in our blood, and we plunged down +gulches, floundered over marshes, climbed steep ridges and crashed +through dense masses of underwood. + +"Throw away your blankets, boys," said the Prodigal. "Just keep a little +grub. Eldorado was staked on a stampede. Maybe we're in on another +Eldorado. We must connect with that bunch if we break our necks." + +It was hours after when we overtook them, about a dozen men, all in the +maddest hurry, and casting behind them glances of furtive apprehension. +When they saw us they were hugely surprised. Ribwood was one of the +party. + +"Hello," he says roughly; "any more coming after you boys?" + +"Don't see them," said the Prodigal breathlessly. "We spied you and +cottoned on to what was up, so we made a fierce hike to get in on it. +Gee, I'm all tuckered out." + +"All right, get in line. I guess there's lots for us all. You're in on a +good thing, all right. Come along." + +So off we started again. The leader was going like one possessed. We +blundered on behind. We were on the other side of the divide looking +into another vast valley. What a magnificent country it was! What a +great manoeuvring-ground it would make for an army! What splendid +open spaces, and round smooth hills, and dimly blue valleys, and silvery +winding creeks! It was veritably a park of the Gods, and enclosing it +was the monstrous, corrugated palisade of the Rockies. + +But there was small time to look around. On we went in the same mad, +heart-breaking hurry, mile after mile, hour after hour. + +"This is going to be a banner creek, boys," the whisper ran down the +line. "We're in luck. We'll all be Klondike Kings yet." + +Cheering, wasn't it? So on we went, hotter than ever, content to follow +the man of iron who was guiding us to the virgin treasure. + +We had been pounding along all night, up hill and down dale. The sun +rose, the dawn blossomed, the dew dried on the blueberry; it was +morning. Still we kept up our fierce gait. Would our leader never come +to his destination? By what roundabout route was he guiding us? The sun +climbed up in the blue sky, the heat quivered; it was noon. We panted as +we pelted on, parched and weary, faint and footsore. The excitement of +the stampede had sustained us, and we scarcely had noted the flight of +time. We had been walking for fourteen hours, yet not a man faltered. I +was ready to drop with fatigue; my feet were a mass of blisters, and +every step was intolerable pain to me. But still our leader kept on. + +"I guess we'll fool those trying to follow us," snapped Ribwood grimly. + +Suddenly the Prodigal said to me: "Say, you boys will have to go on +without me. I'm all in. Go ahead, I'll follow after I'm rested up." + +He dropped in a limp heap on the ground and instantly fell asleep. +Several of the others had dropped out too. They fell asleep where they +gave up, utterly exhausted. We had now been going sixteen hours, and +still our leader kept on. + +"You're pretty tough for a youngster," growled one of them to me. "Keep +it up, we're almost there." + +So I hobbled along painfully, though the desire to throw myself down was +becoming imperative. Just ahead was Jim, sturdily holding his own. The +others were reduced to a bare half-dozen. + +It was about four in the afternoon when we reached the creek. Up it our +leader plunged, till he came to a place where a rude shaft had been dug. +We gathered around him. He was a typical prospector, a child of hope, +lean, swarthy, clear-eyed. + +"Here it is, boys," he said. "Here's my discovery stake. Now you fellows +go up or down, anywhere you've a notion to, and put in your stakes. You +all know what a lottery it is. Maybe you'll stake a million-dollar +claim, maybe a blank. Mining's all a gamble. But go ahead, boys. I wish +you luck." + +So we strung out, and, coming in rotation, Jim and I staked seven and +eight below discovery. + +"Seven's a lucky number for me," said Jim; "I've a notion this claim's a +good one." + +"I don't care," I said, "for all the gold in the world. What I want is +sleep, sleep, rest and sleep." + +So I threw myself down on a bit of moss, and, covering my head with my +coat to ward off the mosquitoes, in a few minutes I was dead to the +world. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + + +I was awakened by the Prodigal. + +"Rouse up," he was saying; "you've slept right round the clock. We've +got to get back to town and record those claims. Jim's gone three hours +ago." + +It was five o'clock of a crystal Yukon morning, with the world clear-cut +and fresh as at the dawn of Things. I was sleep-stupid, sore, stiff in +every joint. Racking pains made me groan at every movement, and the +chill night air had brought on twinges of rheumatism. I looked at my +location stake, beside which I had fallen. + +"I can't do it," I said; "my feet are out of business." + +"You must," he insisted. "Come, buck up, old man. Bathe your feet in the +creek, and then you'll feel as fit as a fighting-cock. We've got to get +into town hot-foot. They've got a bunch of crooks at the gold office, +and we're liable to lose our claims if we are late." + +"Have you staked, too?" + +"You bet. I've got thirteen below. Hurry up. There's a wild bunch coming +from town." + +I groaned grievously, yet felt mighty refreshed by a dip in the creek. +Then we started off once more. Every few moments we would meet parties +coming post-haste from town. They looked worn and jaded, but spread +eagerly up and down. There must have been several hundred of them, all +sustained by the mad excitement of the stampede. + +We did not take the circuitous route of the day before, but one that +shortened the distance by some ten miles. We travelled a wild country, +crossing unknown creeks that have since proved gold-bearing, and +climbing again the high ridge of the divide. Then once more we dropped +down into the Bonanza basin, and by nightfall we had reached our own +cabin. + +We lay down for a few hours. It seemed my weary head had just touched +the pillow when once more the inexorable Prodigal awakened me. + +"Come on, kid, we've got to get to Dawson when the recording office +opens." So once more we pelted down Bonanza. Fast as we had come, we +found many of those who had followed us were ahead. The North is the +land of the musher. In that pure, buoyant air a man can walk away from +himself. Any one of us thought nothing of a fifty-mile tramp, and one of +eighty was scarcely considered notable. + +It was about nine in the morning when we got to the gold office. Already +a crowd of stampeders were waiting. Foremost in the crowd I saw Jim. The +Prodigal looked thoughtful. + +"Look here," he said, "I guess it's all right to push in with that +bunch, but there's a slicker way of doing it for those that are 'next.' +Of course, it's not according to Hoyle. There's a little side-door where +you can get in ahead of the gang. See that fellow, Ten-Dollar Jim they +call him; well, they say he can work the oracle for us." + +"No," I said, "you can pay him ten dollars if you like. I'll take my +chance in the regulation way." + +So the Prodigal slipped away from me, and presently I saw him admitted +at the side entrance. Surely, thought I, there must be some mistake. The +public would not "stand for" such things. + +There was quite a number ahead of me, and I knew I was in for a long +wait. I will never forget it. For three days, with the exception of two +brief sleep-spells, I had been in a fierce helter-skelter of excitement, +and I had eaten no very satisfying food. As I stood in that sullen crowd +I swayed with weariness, and my legs were doubling under me. Invisible +hands were dragging me down, throwing dust in my eyes, hypnotising me +with soporific gestures. I staggered forward and straightened up +suddenly. On the outskirts of the crowd I saw the Prodigal trying to +locate me. When he saw me he waved a paper. + +"Come on, you goat," he shouted; "have a little sense. I'm all fixed +up." + +I shook my head. An odd sense of fair play in me made me want to win the +game squarely. I would wait my turn. Noon came. I saw Jim coming out, +tired but triumphant. + +"All right," he megaphoned to me; "I'm through. Now I'll go and sleep my +head off." + +How I envied him. I felt I, too, had a "big bunch" of sleep coming to +me. I was moving forward slowly. Bit by bit I was wedging nearer the +door. I watched man after man push past the coveted threshold. They +were all miners, brawny, stubble-chinned fellows with grim, determined +faces. I was certainly the youngest there. + +"What have you got?" asked a thick-set man on my right. + +"Eight below," I answered. + +"Gee! you're lucky." + +"What'll you take for it?" asked a tall, keen-looking fellow on my left. + +"Five thousand." + +"Give you two." + +"No." + +"Well, come round and see me to-morrow at the Dominion, and we'll talk +it over. My name's Gunson. Bring your papers." + +"All right." + +Something like dizziness seized me. Five thousand! The crowd seemed to +be composed of angels and the sunshine to have a new and brilliant +quality of light and warmth. Five thousand! Would I take it? If the +claim was worth a cent it ought to be worth fifty thousand. I soared on +rosy wings of optimism. I revelled in dreams. My claim! Mine! Eight +below! Other men had bounded into affluence. Why not I? + +No longer did I notice the flight of time. I was ready to wait till +doomsday. A new lease of strength came to me. I was near the wicket now. +Only two were ahead of me. A clerk was recording their claims. One had +thirty-four above, the other fifty-two below. The clerk looked +flustered, fatigued. His dull eyes were pursy with midnight debauches; +his flesh sagged. In contrast with the clean, hard, hawk-eyed miners, he +looked blotched and unwholesome. + +Crossly he snatched from the other two their miner's certificates, made +the entries in his book, and gave them their receipts. It was my turn +now. I dashed forward eagerly. Then I stopped, for the man with the +bleary eyes had shut the wicket in my face. + +"Three o'clock," he snapped. + +"Couldn't you take mine?" I faltered; "I've been waiting now these +seven hours." + +"Closing time," he ripped out still more tartly; "come again to-morrow." + +There was a growling thunder from the crowd behind, and the weary, +disappointed stampeders slouched away. + +Body and soul of me craved for sleep. Beyond an overwhelming desire for +rest, I was conscious of nothing else. My eyelids were weighted with +lead. I lagged along dejectedly. At the hotel I saw the Prodigal. + +"Get fixed up?" + +"No, too late." + +"You'd better take advantage of the general corruption and the services +of Ten-Dollar Jim." + +I was disheartened, disgusted, desperate. + +"I will," I said. Then, throwing myself on the bed, I launched on a +dreamless sea of sleep. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + +Next morning bright and early found me at the side-door, and the tall man +admitted me. I slipped a ten-dollar gold piece into his palm, and +presently found myself waiting at the yet unopened wicket. Outside I +could see the big crowd gathering for their weary wait. I felt a +sneaking sense of meanness, but I did not have long to enjoy my +despicable sensations. + +The recording clerk came to the wicket. He was very red-faced and +watery-eyed. Involuntarily I turned my head away at the reek of his +breath. + +"I want to record eight below on Ophir," I said. + +He looked at me curiously. He hesitated. + +"What name?" he asked. + +I gave it. He turned up his book. + +"Eight below, you say. Why, that's already recorded." + +"Can't be," I retorted. "I just got down from there yesterday after +planting my stakes." + +"Can't help it. It's recorded by some one else, recorded early +yesterday." + +"Look here," I exclaimed; "what kind of a game are you putting up on me? +I tell you I was the first on the ground. I alone staked the claim." + +"That's strange," he said. "There must be some mistake. Anyway, you'll +have to move on and let the others get up to the wicket. You're +blocking the way. All I can do is to look into the matter for you, and +I've got no time now. Come back to-morrow. Next, please." + +The next man pushed me aside, and there I stood, gaping and gasping. A +man in the waiting line looked at me pityingly. + +"It's no use, young fellow; you'd better make up your mind to lose that +claim. They'll flim-flam you out of it somehow. They've sent some one +out now to stake over you. If you kick, they'll say you didn't stake +proper." + +"But I have witnesses." + +"It don't matter if you call the Angel Gabriel to witness, they're going +to grab your claim. Them government officials is the crookedest bunch +that ever made fuel for hell-fire. You won't get a square deal; they're +going to get the fat anyhow. They've got the best claims spotted, an' +men posted to jump them at the first chance. Oh, they're feathering +their nests all right. They're like a lot of greedy pike just waiting to +gobble down all they can. A man can't buy wine at twenty dollars per, +and make dance-hall Flossies presents of diamond tararas on a government +salary. That's what a lot of them are doing. Wine and women, and their +wives an' daughters outside thinkin' they're little tin gods. Somehow +they've got to foot the bill. Oh, it's a great country." + +I was stunned with disappointment. + +"What you want," he continued, "is to get a pull with some of the +officials. Why, there's friends of mine don't need to go out of town to +stake a claim. Only the other day a certain party known to me, went +to--well, I mustn't mention names, anyway, he's high up in the +government, and a friend of Quebec Suzanne's,--and says to him,'I want +you to get number so and so on Hunker recorded for me. Of course I +haven't been able to get out there, but--' + +"The government bug puts his hands to his ears. 'Don't give me any +unnecessary information,' he says; 'you want so and so recorded, Sam. +Well, that's all right. I'll fix it.' + +"That was all there was to it, and when next day a man comes in +post-haste claiming to have staked it, it was there recorded in Sam's +name. Get a stand-in, young fellow." + +"But surely," I said, "somehow, somewhere there must be justice. Surely +if these facts were represented at Ottawa and proof forthcoming----" + +"Ottawa!" He gave a sniffing laugh. "Ottawa! Why, it's some of the big +guns at Ottawa that's gettin' the cream of it all. The little fellows +are just lapping up the drips. Look at them big concessions they're +selling for a song, good placer ground that would mean pie to the poor +miner, closed tight and everlastingly tied up. How is it done? Why, +there's some politician at the bottom of the whole business. Look at the +liquor permits--crude alcohol sent into the country by the thousand +gallons, diluted to six times its bulk, and sold to the poor prospector +for whisky at a dollar a drink. An' you can't pour your own drinks at +that." + +"Well," I said, "I'm not going to be cheated out of my claim. If I've +got to move Heaven and earth----" + +"You'll do nothing of the kind. If you get sassy there's the police to +put the lid on you. You can talk till you're purple round the gills. It +won't cut no figure. They've got us all cinched. We've just got to take +our medicine. It's no use goin' round bellyaching. You'd better go away +and sit down." + +And I did. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + +I had to see Berna at once. Already I had paid a visit to the Paragon +Restaurant, that new and glittering place of resort run by the +Winklesteins, but she was not on duty. I saw Madam, resplendent in her +false jewellery, with her beetle-black hair elaborately coiffured, and +her large, bold face handsomely enamelled. She looked the picture of +fleshy prosperity, a big handsome Jewess, hawk-eyed and rapacious. In +the background hovered Winklestein, his little, squeezed-up, tallowy +face beaded with perspiration. But he was dressed quite superbly, and +his moustache was more wondrously waxed than ever. + +I mingled with the crowd of miners, and in my rough garb, swarthy and +bearded as I was, the Jewish couple did not know me. As I paid her, +Madam gave me a sharp glance. But there was no recognisant gleam in her +eyes. + +In the evening I returned. I took a seat in one of the curtained boxes. +At the long lunch-counter rough-necked fellows perched on tripod stools +were guzzling food. The place was brilliantly lit up, many-mirrored and +flashily ornate in gilt and white. The bill of fare was elaborate, the +prices exalted. In the box before me a white-haired lawyer was +entertaining a lady of easy virtue; in the box behind, a larrikin +quartette from the Pavilion Theatre were holding high revelry. There +was no mistaking the character of the place. In the heart of the city's +tenderloin it was a haunt of human riff-raff, a palace of gilt and +guilt, a first scene in the nightly comedy of "The Lobster." + +I was feeling profoundly depressed, miserable, disgusted with +everything. For the first time I began to regret ever leaving home. Out +on the creeks I was happy. Here in the town the glaring corruption of +things jarred on my nerves. + +And it was in this place Berna worked. She waited on these wantons; she +served those swine. She heard their loose talk, their careless oaths. +She saw them foully drunk, staggering off to their shameful +assignations. She knew everything. O, it was pitiful; it sickened me to +the soul. I sat down and buried my face in my hands. + +"Order, please." + +I knew that sweet voice. It thrilled me, and I looked up suddenly. There +was Berna standing before me. + +She gave a quick start, then recovered herself. A look of delight came +into her eyes, eager, vivid delight. + +"My, how you frightened me, I wasn't expecting you. Oh, I am so glad to +see you again." + +I looked at her. I was conscious of a change in her, and the +consciousness came with a sense of shearing pain. + +"Berna," I said, "what are you doing with that paint on your face?" + +"Oh, I'm sorry." She was rubbing distressfully at a dab of rouge on her +cheek. "I knew you would be cross, but I had to; they made me. They said +I looked like a spectre at the feast with my chalk face; I frightened +away the customers. It's just a little pink,--all the women do it. It +makes me look happier, and it doesn't hurt me any." + +"What I want is to see in your cheeks, dear, the glow of health, not the +flush of a cosmetic. However, never mind. How are you?" + +"Pretty well----" hesitatingly. + +"Berna," boomed the rough, contumacious voice of Madam, "attend to the +customers." + +"All right," I said; "get me anything. I just wanted to see you." + +She hurried away. I saw her go behind the curtains of one of the closed +boxes carrying a tray of dishes. I heard coarse voices chaffing her. I +saw her come out, her cheeks flushed, yet not with rouge. A miner had +tried to detain her. Somehow it all made me writhe, agitated me so that +I could hardly keep my seat. + +Presently she came hurrying round, bringing me some food. + +"When can I see you, girl?" I asked. + +"To-night. See me home. I'm off at midnight." + +"All right. I'll be waiting." + +She was kept very busy, and, though once or twice a tipsy roysterer +ventured on some rough pleasantry, I noticed with returning satisfaction +that most of the big, bearded miners treated her with chivalrous +respect. She was quite friendly with them. They called her by name, and +seemed to have a genuine affection for her. There was a protective +manliness in the manner of these men that reassured me. So I swallowed +my meal and left the place. + +"That's a good little girl," said a grizzled old fellow to me, as he +stood picking his teeth energetically outside the restaurant. "Straight +as a string, and there ain't many up here you can say that of. If any +one was to try any monkey business with that little girl, sir, there's a +dozen of the boys would make him a first-rate case for the hospital +ward. Yes, siree, that's a jim-dandy little girl. I just wish she was my +darter." + +In my heart I blessed him for his words, and pressed on him a fifty-cent +cigar. + +Again I wandered up and down the now familiar street, but the keen edge +of my impression had been blunted. I no longer took the same interest in +its sights. More populous it was, noisier, livelier than ever. In the +gambling-annex of the Paystreak Saloon was Mr. Mosher shuffling and +dealing methodically. Everywhere I saw flushed and excited miners, each +with his substantial poke of dust. It was usually as big as a +pork-sausage, yet it was only his spending-poke. Safely in the bank he +had cached half a dozen of them ten times as big. + +These were the halcyon days. Success was in the air. Men were drunk with +it; carried off their feet, delirious. Money! It had lost its value. +Every one you met was "lousy" with it; threw it away with both hands, +and fast as they emptied one pocket it filled up the others. Little +wonder a mad elation, a semi-frenzy of prodigality prevailed, for every +day the golden valley was pouring into the city a seemingly exhaustless +stream of treasure. + +I saw big Alec, one of the leading operators, coming down the street +with his men. He carried a Winchester, and he had a pack-train of +burros, each laden down with gold. At the bank flushed and eager mobs +were clamouring to have their pokes weighed. In buckets, coal-oil cans, +every kind of receptacle, lay the precious dust. Sweating clerks were +handling it as carelessly as a grocer handles sugar. Goldsmiths were +making it into wonders of barbaric jewellery. There seemed no limit to +the camp's wealth. Every one was mad, and the demi-mondaine was queen of +all. + +I saw Hewson and Mervin. They had struck it rich on a property they had +bought on Hunker. Fortune was theirs. + +"Come and have a drink," said Hewson. Already he had had many. His face +was relaxed, flushed, already showing signs of a flabby degeneration. In +this man of iron sudden success was insidiously at work, enervating his +powers. + +Mervin, too. I caught a glimpse of him, in the doorway of the Green Bay +Tree. The Maccaroni Kid had him in tow, and he was buying wine. + +I looked in vain for Locasto. He was on a big debauch, they told me. +Viola Lennoir had "got him going." + +At midnight, at the door of the Paragon, I was waiting in a fever of +impatience when Berna came out. + +"I'm living up at the cabin," she said; "you can walk with me as far as +that. That is, if you want to," she added coquettishly. + +She was very bright and did most of the talking. She showed a vast joy +at seeing me. + +"Tell me what you've been doing, dear--everything. Have you made a +stake? So many have. I have prayed you would, too. Then we'll go away +somewhere and forget all this. We'll go to Italy, where it's always +beautiful. We'll just live for each other. Won't we, honey?" + +She nestled up to me. She seemed to have lost much of her shyness. I +don't know why, but I preferred my timid, shrinking Berna. + +"It will take a whole lot to make me forget this," I said grimly. + +"Yes, I know. Isn't it frightful? Somehow I don't seem to mind so much +now. I'm getting used to it, I suppose. But at first--O, it was +terrible! I thought I never could stand it. It's wonderful how we get +accustomed to things, isn't it?" + +"Yes," I answered bitterly. + +"You know, those rough miners are good to me. I'm a queen among them, +because they know I'm--all right. I've had several offers of marriage, +too, really, really good ones from wealthy claim-owners." + +"Yes," still more bitterly. + +"Yes, young man; so you want to make a strike and take me away to +Italy. Oh, how I plan and plan for us two. I don't care, my dearest, if +you haven't got a cent in the world, I'm yours, always yours." + +"That's all right, Berna," I said. "I'm going to make good. I've just +lost a fifty-thousand dollar claim, but there's more coming up. By the +first of June next I'll come to you with a bank account of six figures. +You'll see, my little girl. I'm going to make this thing stick." + +"You foolish boy," she said; "it doesn't matter if you come to me a +beggar in rags. Come to me anyway. Come, and do not fail." + +"What about Locasto?" I asked. + +"I've scarcely seen anything of him. He leaves me alone. I think he's +interested elsewhere." + +"And are you sure you're all right, dear, down there?" + +"Quite sure. These men would risk their lives for me. The other kind +know enough to leave me alone. Besides, I know better now how to take +care of myself. You remember the frightened cry-baby I used to be--well, +I've learned to hold my own." + +She was extraordinarily affectionate, full of unexpected little ways of +endearment, and clung to me when we parted, making me promise to return +very soon. Yes, she was my girl, devoted to me, attached to me by every +tendril of her being. Every look, every word, every act of her expressed +a bright, fine, radiant love. I was satisfied, yet unsatisfied, and once +again I entreated her. + +"Berna, are you sure, quite sure, you're all right in that place among +all that folly and drunkenness and vice? Let me take you away, dear." + +"Oh, no," she said very tenderly; "I'm all right. I would tell you at +once, my boy, if I had any fear. That's just what a poor girl has to put +up with all the time; that's what I've had to put up with all my life. +Believe me, boy, I'm wonderfully blind and deaf at times. I don't think +I'm very bad, am I?" + +"You're as good as gold." + +"For your sake I'll always try to be," she answered. + +As we were kissing good-bye she asked timidly: + +"What about the rouge, dear? Shall I cease to use it?" + +"Poor little girl! Oh no, I don't suppose it matters. I've got very +old-fashioned ideas. Good-bye, darling." + +"Good-bye, beloved." + +I went away treading on sunshine, trembling with joy, thrilled with love +for her, blessing her anew. + +Yet still the rouge stuck in my crop as if it were the symbol of some +insidious decadence. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + +It was about two months later when I returned from a flying visit to +Dawson. + +"Lots of mail for you two," I cried, exultantly bursting into the cabin. + +"Mail? Hooray!" + +Jim and the Prodigal, who were lying on their bunks, leapt up eagerly. +No one longs for his letters like your Northern exile, and for two whole +months we had not heard from the outside. + +"Yes, I got over fifty letters between us three. Drew about a dozen +myself, there's half a dozen for you, Jim, and the balance for you, old +sport." + +I handed the Prodigal about two dozen letters. + +"Ha! now we'll have the whole evening just to browse on them. My, what a +stack! How was it you had a time getting them?" + +"Well, you see, when I got into town the mail had just been sorted, and +there was a string of over three hundred men waiting at the general +delivery wicket. I took my place at the tail-end of the line, and every +newcomer fell in behind me. My! but it was such weary waiting, moving up +step by step; but I'd just about got there when closing-time came. They +wouldn't give out any more mail--after my three hours' wait, too." + +"What did you do?" + +"Well, it seems every one gives way to the womenfolk. So I happened to +see a girl friend of mine, and she said she would go round first thing +in the morning and enquire if there were any letters for us. She brought +me this bunch." + +I indicated the pile of letters. + +"I'm told lots of women in town make a business of getting letters for +men, and charge a dollar a letter. It's awful how hard it is to get +mail. Half of the clerks seem scarcely able to read the addresses on the +envelopes. It's positively sad to watch the faces of the poor wretches +who get nothing, knowing, too, that the chances are there is really +something for them sorted away in a wrong box." + +"That's pretty tough." + +"Yes, you should have seen them; men just ravenous to hear from their +families; a clerk carelessly shuffling through a pile of letters. +'Beachwood, did you say? Nope, nothing for you.' 'Hold on there! what's +that in your hand? Surely I know my wife's writing.' 'Beachwood--yep, +that's right. Looked like Peachwood to me. All right. Next there.' Then +the man would go off with his letter, looking half-wrathful, +half-radiant. Well, I enjoyed my trip, but I'm glad I'm home." + +I threw myself on my bunk voluptuously, and began re-reading my letters. +There were some from Garry and some from Mother. While still +unreconciled to the life I was leading, they were greatly interested in +my wildly cheerful accounts of the country. They were disposed to be +less censorious, and I for my part was only too glad Mother was well +enough to write, even if she did scold me sometimes. So I was able to +open my mail without misgivings. + +But I was still aglow with memories of the last few hours. Once more I +had seen Berna, spent moments with her of perfect bliss, left her with +my mind full of exaltation and bewildered gratitude. She was the perfect +answer to my heart's call, a mirror that seemed to flash back the +challenge of my joy. I saw the love mists gather in her eyes, I felt her +sweet lips mould themselves to mine, I thrilled with the sheathing +ardour of her arms. Never in my fondest imaginings had I conceived that +such a wealth of affection would ever be for me. Buoyant she was, brave, +inspiring, and always with her buoyancy so wondrous tender I felt that +willingly would I die for her. + +Once again I told her of my fear, my anxiety for her safety among those +rough men in that cesspool of iniquity. Very earnestly she strove to +reassure me. + +"Oh, my dear, it is in those rough men, the uncouth, big-hearted miners, +that I place my trust. They know I'm a good girl. They wouldn't say a +coarse thing before me for the world. You've no idea the chivalrous +respect they show for me, and the rougher they are the finer their +instincts seem to be. It's the others, the so-called gentlemen, who +would like to take advantage of me if they could." + +She looked at me with bright, clear eyes, fearless in their scorn of +sham and pretence. + +"Then there are the women. It's strange, but no matter how degraded +they are they try to shield and protect me. Only last week Kimona Kate +made a fearful scene with her escort because he said something bad +before me. I'm getting tolerant. Oh, you've no idea until you know them +what good qualities some of these women have. Often their hearts are as +big as all outdoors; they would nurse you devotedly if you were sick; +they would give you their last dollar if you were in want. Many of them +have old mothers and little children they're supporting outside, and +they would rather die than that their dear ones should know the life +they are living. It's the men, the men that are to blame." + +I shook my head sadly. + +"I don't like it, Berna, I don't like it at all. I hate you to know the +like of such people, such things. I just want you to be again the dear, +sweet little girl I first knew, all maidenly modesty and shuddering +aversion of evil." + +"I'm afraid, dear, I shall never be that again," she said sorrowfully; +"but am I any the worse for knowing? Why should you men want to keep all +such knowledge to yourselves? Is our innocence simply to be another name +for ignorance?" + +She put her arms round my neck and kissed me fervently. + +"Oh, no, my dear, my dear. I have seen the vileness of things, and it +only makes me more in love with love and beauty. We'll go, you and I, to +Italy very soon, and forget, forget. Even if we have to toil like +peasants in the vineyards we'll go, far, far away." + +So I felt strengthened, stimulated, gladdened, and, as I lay on my bunk +listening to the merry crackle of the wood fire, I was in a purring +lethargy of content. Then I remembered something. + +"Oh, say, boys, I forgot to tell you. I met McCrimmon down the creek. +You remember him on the trail, the Halfbreed. He was asking after you +both; then all at once he said he wanted to see us on important +business. He has a proposal to make, he says, that would be greatly to +our advantage. He's coming along this evening.--What's the matter, Jim?" + +Jim was staring blankly at one of the letters he had received. His face +was a picture of distress, misery, despair. Without replying, he went +and knelt down by his bed. He sighed deeply. Slowly his face grew calm +again; then I saw that he was praying. We were silent in respectful +sympathy, but when, in a little, he got up and went out, I followed him. + +"Had bad news, old man?" + +"I've had a letter that's upset me. I'm in a terrible position. If ever +I wanted strength and guidance, I want it now." + +"Heard about that man?" + +"Yes, it's him, all right; it's Mosher. I suspicioned it all along. +Here's a letter from my brother. He says there's no doubt that Mosher is +Moseley." + +His eyes were stormy, his face tragic in its bitterness. + +"Oh, you don't know how I worshipped that woman, trusted her, would have +banked my life on her; and when I was away making money for her she ups +and goes away with that slimy reptile. In the old days I would have torn +him to pieces, but now----" + +He sighed distractedly. + +"What am I to do? What am I to do? The Good Book says forgive your +enemies, but how can I forgive a wrong like that? And my poor girl--he +deserted her, drove her to the streets. Ugh! if I could kill him by slow +torture, gloat over his agony--but I can't, can I?" + +"No, Jim, you can't do anything. Vengeance is the Lord's." + +"Yes, I know, I know. But it's hard, it's hard. O my girl, my girl!" + +Tears overran his cheeks. He sat down on a log, burying his face in his +hands. + +"O God, help and sustain me in this my hour of need." + +I was at a loss how to comfort him, and it was while I was waiting there +that suddenly we saw the Halfbreed coming up the trail. + +"Better come in, Jim," I said, "and hear what he's got to say." + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + + +We made McCrimmon comfortable. We kept no whisky in the cabin, but we +gave him some hot coffee, which he drank with great satisfaction. Then +he twisted a cigarette, lit it, and looked at us keenly. On his brown, +flattish face were remarkable the impassivity of the Indian and the +astuteness of the Scot. We were regarding him curiously. Jim had +regained his calm, and was quietly watchful. The Prodigal seemed to have +his ears cocked to listen. There was a feeling amongst us as if we had +reached a crisis in our fortunes. + +The Halfbreed lost no time in coming to the point. + +"I like you boys. You're square and above-board. You're workers, and you +don't drink--that's the main thing. + +"Well, to get right down to cases. I'm a bit of a mining man. I've mined +at Cassiar and Caribou, and I know something of the business. Now I've +got next to a good thing.--I don't know how good yet, but I'll swear to +you it's a tidy bit. There may be only ten thousand in it, and there may +be one hundred and ten. It's a gambling proposition, and I want +pardners, pardners that'll work like blazes and keep their faces shut. +Are you on?" + +"That's got us kodaked," said the Prodigal. "We're that sort, and if the +proposition looks good to us we're with you. Anyway, we're clams at +keeping our food-traps tight." + +"All right; listen. You know the Arctic Transportation Co. have claims +on upper Bonanza--well, a month back I was working for them. We were +down about twenty feet and were drifting in. They set me to work in the +drift. The roof kept sloughing in on me, and it was mighty dangerous. So +far we hadn't got pay-dirt, but their mining manager wanted us to drift +in a little further. If we didn't strike good pay in a few more feet we +were to quit. + +"Well, one morning I went down and cleaned away the ash of my fire. The +first stroke of my pick on the thawed face made me jump, stare, stand +stock-still, thinking hard. For there, right in the hole I had made, was +the richest pocket I ever seen." + +"You don't say! Are you sure?" + +"Why, boys, as I'm alive there was nuggets in it as thick as raisins in +a Christmas plum-duff. I could see the yellow gleam where the pick had +grazed them, and the longer I looked the more could I see." + +"Good Lord! What did you do?" + +"What did I do! I just stepped back and picked at the roof for all I was +worth. A big bunch of muck came down, covering up the face. Then, like a +crazy man, I picked wherever the dirt seemed loose all the way down the +drift. Great heaps of dirt caved in on me. I was stunned, nearly buried, +but I did the trick. There were tons of dirt between me and my find." + +We gasped with amazement. + +"The rest was easy. I went up the shaft groaning and cursing. I +pretended to faint. I told them the roof of the drift had fallen in on +me. It was rotten stuff, anyway, and they knew it. They didn't mind me +risking my life. I cursed them, said I would sue the Company, and went +off looking too sore for words. The Manager was disgusted, he went down +and took a look at things; declared he would throw up the work at that +place; the ground was no good. He made that report to the Company." + +The Halfbreed looked round triumphantly. + +"Now, here's the point. We can get a lay on that ground. One of you boys +must apply for it. They mustn't know I'm in with you, or they would +suspect right away. They're none too scrupulous themselves in their +dealings." + +He paused impressively. + +"You cinch that lay agreement. Get it signed right away. We'll go in and +work like Old Nick. We'll make a big clean-up by Spring. I'll take you +right to the gold. There's thousands and thousands lying snug in the +ground just waiting for us. It's right in our mit. Oh, it's a cinch, a +cinch!" + +The Halfbreed almost grew excited. Bending forward, he eyed us keenly. +In a breathless silence we stared at each other. + +"Well," I objected, "seems to be putting up rather a job on the +Company." + +Jim was silent, but the Prodigal cut in sharply: + +"Job nothing--it's a square proposition. We don't know for certain that +gold's there. Maybe it's only a piffling pocket, and we'll get souped +for our pains. No, it seems to me it's a fair gambling proposition. +We're taking all kinds of chances. It means awful hard work; it means +privation and, maybe, bitter disappointment. It's a gamble, I tell you, +and are we going to be such poor sports as turn it down? I for one am +strongly in favour of it. What do you say? A big sporting chance--are +you there, boys, are you there?" + +He almost shouted in his excitement. + +"Hush! Some one might hear you," warned the Halfbreed. + +"Yes, that's right. Well, it looks mighty good to me, and if you boys +are willing we'll just draw up papers and sign an agreement right away. +Is it a go?" + +We nodded, so he got ink and paper and drew up a form of partnership. + +"Now," said he, his eyes dancing, "now, to secure that lay before any +one else cuts in on us. Gee! but it's getting dark and cold outdoors +these days. Snow falling; well, I must mush to Dawson to-night." + +He hurried on some warm, yet light, clothing, all the time talking +excitedly of the chance that fortune had thrown in our way, and gleeful +as a schoolboy. + +"Now, boys," he says, "hope I'll have good luck. Jim, put in a prayer +for me. Well, see you all to-morrow. Good-bye." + + * * * * * + +It was late next night when he returned. We were sitting in the cabin, +anxious and expectant, when he threw open the door. He was tired, wet, +dirty, but irrepressibly jubilant. + +"Hurrah, boys!" he cried. "I've cinched it. I saw Mister Manager of the +big Company. He was very busy, very important, very patronising. I was +the poor miner seeking a lay. I played the part well. He began by +telling me he didn't want to give any lays at present; just wanted to +stand me off, you know; make me more keen. I spoke about some of their +ground on Hunker. He didn't seem enthusiastic. Then, at last, as if in +despair, I mentioned this bit on Bonanza. I could see he was itching to +let me have it, but he was too foxy to show it. He actually told me it +was an extra rich piece of ground, when all the time he knew his own +mining engineer had condemned it." + +The Prodigal's eyes danced delightedly. + +"Well, we sparred round a bit like two fake fighters. My! but he was +wily, that old Jew. Finally he agreed to let me have it on a +fifty-per-cent. basis. Don't faint, boys. Fifty per cent., I said. I'm +sorry. It was the best I could do, and you know I'm not slow. That means +they get half of all we take out. Oh, the old shark! the robber! I tried +to beat him down, but he stood pat; wouldn't budge. So I gave in, and we +signed the lay agreement, and now everything's in shape. Gee whiz! +didn't I give a sigh of relief when I got outside! He thinks I'm the +fall guy, and went off chuckling." + +He raised his voice triumphantly. + +"And now, boys, we've got the ground cinched, so get action on +yourselves. Here's where we make our first real stab at fortune. Here's +where we even up on the hard jabs she's handed us in the past; here's +where we score a bull's-eye, or I miss my guess. The gold's there, boys, +you can bank on that; and the harder we work the more we're going to get +of it. Now, we're going to work hard. We're going to make ordinary hard +work look like a Summer vacation. We're going to work for all we're +worth--and then some. Are you there, boys, are you there?" + +"We are," we shouted with one accord. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + + +There was no time to lose. Every hour for us meant so much more of that +precious pay-dirt that lay under the frozen surface. The Winter leapt on +us with a swoop, a harsh, unconciliating Winter, that made out-door work +an unmitigated hardship. But there was the hope of fortune nerving and +bracing us, till we lost in it all thought of self. Nothing short of +desperate sickness, death even, would drive us from our posts. It was +with this dauntless spirit we entered on the task before us. + +And, indeed, it was one that called for all in a man of energy and +self-sacrifice. There was wood to get for the thawing of the ground; +there was a cabin to be built on the claim; and, lastly, there was a +vast dump to be taken out of the ground for the spring sluicing. We +planned things so that no man would be idle for a moment, and so that +every ounce of strength expended would show its result. + +The Halfbreed took charge, and we, recognising it as his show, obeyed +him implicitly. He decided to put down two holes to bed-rock, and, after +much deliberation, selected the places. This was a matter for the +greatest judgment and experience, and we were satisfied that he had +both. + +We ran up a little cabin and banked it nearly to the low eaves with +snow. By-and-bye more fell on the roof to the depth of three feet, so +that the place seemed like a huge white hummock. Only in front could you +recognise it as a cabin by the low doorway, where we had always to stoop +on entering. Within were our bunks, a tiny stove, a few boxes to sit on, +a few dishes, our grub; that was all. Often we regretted our big cabin +on the hill, with its calico-lined "den" and its separate kitchen. But +in this little box of a home we were to put in many weary months. + +Not that the time seemed long to us; we were too busy for that. Indeed, +often we wished it were twice as long. Snow had fallen in September, and +by December we were in an Arctic world of uncompromising harshness. Day +after day the glass stood between forty and fifty below zero. It was +hatefully, dangerously cold. It seemed as if the frost-fiend had a cruel +grudge against us. It made us grim--and careful. We didn't talk much in +those days. We just worked, worked, worked, and when we did talk it was +of our work, our ceaseless work. + +Would we strike it rich? It was all a gamble, the most exciting gamble +in the world. It thrilled our day hours with excitement; it haunted our +sleep; it lent strength to the pick-stroke and vigour to the +windlass-crank. It made us forget the bitter cold, till some one would +exclaim, and gently knead the fresh snow on our faces. The cold burned +our cheeks a fierce brick-red, and a frostbite showed on them like a +patch of white putty. The old scars, never healing, were like blotches +of lamp-black. + +But neither cold nor fatigue could keep us away from the shaft and the +drift. We had gone down to bed-rock, and were tunnelling in to meet the +hole the Halfbreed had covered up. So far we had found nothing. Every +day we panned samples of the dirt, always getting colours, sometimes a +fifty-cent pan, but never what we dreamed of, hoped for. + +"Wait, boys, till we get a two-hundred-dollar pan, then we'll begin to +whoop it up some." + +Once the Company Manager came down on a dog-team. He looked over our +shaft. He wore a coon coat, with a cap of beaver, and huge fur mits hung +by a cord around his neck. He was massive and impassive. Spiky icicles +bristled around his mouth. + +"What luck, boys?" His breath came like steam. + +"None, so far," we told him, wearily, and off he went into the frozen +gloom, saying he hoped we would strike it before long. + +"Wait a while." + +We were working two men to a shaft, burning our ground over night. The +Prodigal and I manned the windlasses, while the old miners went down the +drifts. It was a cold, cold job standing there on that rugged platform +turning the windlass-crank. Long before it was fairly light we got to +our posts, and lowered our men into the hole. The air was warmer down +there; but the work was harder, more difficult, more dangerous. + +At noon there was no sunshine, only a wan, ashen light that suffused the +sky. A deathlike stillness lay on the valley, not a quiver or movement +in leaf or blade. The snow was a shroud, smooth save where the funereal +pines pricked through. In that intensity of cold, that shivering agony +of desolation, it seemed as if nature was laughing at us--the Cosmic +Laugh. + +Our meals were hurriedly cooked and bolted. We grudged every moment of +our respite from toil. At night we often were far too weary to undress. +We lost our regard for cleanliness; we neglected ourselves. Always we +talked of the result of the day's panning and the chances of to-morrow. +Surely we would strike it soon. + +"Wait awhile." + +Colder it grew and colder. Our kerosene flowed like mush. The water +froze solid in our kettle. Our bread was full of icy particles. +Everything had to be thawed out continually. It was tiresome, +exasperating, when we were in such a devil of a hurry. It kept us back; +it angered us, this pest of a cold. Our tempers began to suffer. We were +short, taciturn. The strain was beginning to tell on us. + +"Wait awhile." + +Then, one afternoon, the Something happened. It was Jim who was the +chosen one. About three o'clock he signalled to be hoisted up, and when +he appeared he was carrying a pan of dirt. "Call the others," he said. + +All together in the little cabin we stood round, while Jim washed out +the pan in snow-water melt over our stove. I will never forget how +eagerly we watched the gravel, and the whirling, dexterous movements of +the old man. We could see gleams of yellow in the muddy water. Thrills +of joy and hope went through us. We had got the thing, the big thing, at +last. + +"Hurry, Jim," I said, "or I'll die of suspense." + +Patiently he went on. There it was at last in the bottom of the +pan--sweeter to our eyes than to a woman the sight of her first-born. +There it lay, glittering, gleaming gold, fine gold, coarse gold, nuggety +gold. + +"Now, boys, you can whoop it up," said Jim quietly; "for there's many +and many a pan like it down there in the drift." + +But never a whoop. What was the matter with us? When the fortune we had +longed for so eagerly came at last, we did not greet it even with a +cheer. Oh, we were painfully silent. + +Solemnly we shook hands all round. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + + +"Now to weigh it," said the Prodigal. + +On the tiny pair of scales we turned it out--ninety-five dollars' worth. + +Well, it was a good start, and we were all possessed with a frantic +eagerness to go down in the drift. I crawled along the tunnel. There, in +the face of it, I could see the gold shining, and the longer I looked +the more I seemed to see. It was rich, rich. I picked out and burnished +a nugget as large as a filbert. There were lots of others like it. It +was a strike. The question was: how much was there of it? The Halfbreed +soon settled our doubts on that score. + +"It stands to reason the pay runs between where I first found it and +where we've struck it now. That alone means a tidy stake for each of us. +Say, boys, if you were to cover all that distance with twenty-dollar +gold pieces six feet wide, and packed edge to edge, I wouldn't take them +for our interest in that bit of ground. I see a fine big ranch in +Manitoba for my share; ay, and hired help to run it. The only thing that +sticks in my gullet is that fifty per cent. to the Company." + +"Well, we can't kick," I said; "we'd never have got the lay if they'd +had a hunch. My! won't they be sore?" + +Sure enough, in a few days the news leaked out, and the Manager came +post-haste. + +"Hear you've struck it rich, boys." + +"So rich that I guess we'll have to pack down gravel from the benches to +mix in before we can sluice it," said the Prodigal. + +"You don't say. Well, I'll have to have a man on the ground to look +after our interests." + +"All right. It means a good thing for you." + +"Yes, but it would have meant a better if we had worked it ourselves. +However, you boys deserve your luck. Hello, the devil----" + +He turned round and saw the Halfbreed. He gave a long whistle and went +away, looking pensive. + + * * * * * + +It was the night of the discovery when the Prodigal made us an address. + +"Look here, boys; do you know what this means? It means victory; it +means freedom, happiness, the things we want, the life we love. To me it +means travel, New York, Paris, evening dress, the opera. To McCrimmon +here it means his farm. To each according to his notion, it means the +'Things That Matter.' + +"Now, we've just begun. The hardest part is to come, is to get out the +fortune that's right under our feet. We're going to get every cent of +it, boys. There's a little over three months to do it in, leaving about +a month to make sluice-boxes and clean up the dirt. We've got to work +like men at a burning barn. We've worked hard, but we've got to go some +yet. For my part, I'm willing to do stunts that will make my previous +record look like a plugged dime. I guess you boys all feel the same +way." + +"You bet we do." + +"Well, nuf sed; let's get busy." + +So, once more, with redoubled energy, we resumed our tense, unremitting +round of toil. Now, however, it was vastly different. Every bucket of +dirt meant money in our pockets, every stroke of the pick a dollar. Not +that it was all like the first rich pocket we had struck. It proved a +most erratic and puzzling paystreak--one day rich beyond our dreams, +another too poor to pay for the panning. We swung on a pendulum of hope +and despair. Perhaps this made it all the more exciting, and stimulated +us unnaturally, and always we cursed that primitive method of mining +that made every bucket of dirt the net result of infinite labor. + +Every day our two dumps increased in size (for we had struck pay on the +other shaft), and every day our assurance and elation increased +correspondingly. It was bruited around that we had one of the richest +bits of ground in the country, and many came to gaze at us. It used to +lighten my labours at the windlass to see their looks of envy and to +hear their awe-stricken remarks. + +"That's one of them," they would say; "one of the lucky four, the lucky +laymen." + +So, as the facts, grossly exaggerated, got noised abroad, they came to +call us the "Lucky Laymen." + +Looking back, there will always seem to me something weird and +incomprehensible in those twilight days, an unreality, a vagueness like +some dreary, feverish dream. For three months I did not see my face in a +mirror. Not that I wanted to, but I mention this just to show how little +we thought of ourselves. + +In like manner, never did I have a moment's time to regard my inner self +in the mirror of consciousness. No mental analysis now; no long hours of +retrospection, no tête-à-tête interviews with my soul. At times I felt +as if I had lost my identity. I was a slave of the genie Gold, releasing +it from its prison in the frozen bowels of the earth. I was an automaton +turning a crank in the frozen stillness of the long, long night. + +It was a life despotically objective, and now, as I look back, it seems +as if I had never lived it at all. I seem to look down a long, dark +funnel and see a little machine-man bearing my semblance, patiently, +steadily, wearily turning the handle of a windlass in the clear, +lancinating cold of those sombre, silent days. + +I say "bearing my outward semblance," and yet I sometimes wonder if that +rough-bearded figure in heavy woollen clothes looked the least like me. +I wore heavy sweaters, mackinaw trousers, thick German socks and +moccasins. From frequent freezing my cheeks were corroded. I was +miserably thin, and my eyes had a wild, staring expression through the +pupils dilating in the long darkness. Yes, mentally and physically I was +no more like myself than a convict enduring out his life in the soulless +routine of a prison. + +The days were lengthening marvellously. We noted the fact with dull +joy. It meant more light, more time, more dirt in the dump. So it came +about that, from ten hours of toil, we went to twelve, to fourteen; +then, latterly, to sixteen, and the tension of it was wearing us down to +skin and bone. + +We were all feeling wretched, overstrained, ill-nourished, and it was +only voicing the general sentiment when, one day, the Prodigal remarked: + +"I guess I'll have to let up for a couple of days. My teeth are all on +the bum. I'm going to town to see a dentist." + +"Let me look at them," said the Halfbreed. + +He looked. The gums were sullen, unwholesome-looking. + +"Why, it's a touch of scurvy, lad; a little while, and you'd be spitting +out your teeth like orange pips; your legs would turn black, and when +you squeezed your fingers into the flesh the hole would stay. You'd get +rotten, then you'd mortify and die. But it's the easiest thing in the +world to cure. Nothing responds to treatment so readily." + +He made a huge brew of green-spruce tea, of which we all partook, and in +a few days the Prodigal was fit again. + +It was mid-March when we finished working out our ground. We had done +well, not so well, perhaps, as we had hoped for, but still magnificently +well. Never had men worked harder, never fought more desperately for +success. There were our two dumps, pyramids of gold-permeated dirt at +whose value we could only guess. We had wrested our treasure from the +icy grip of the eternal frost. Now it remained--and O, the sweetness of +it--to glean the harvest of our toil. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + + +"The water's beginning to run, boys," said the Halfbreed. "A few more +days and we'll be able to start sluicing." + +The news was like a flood of sunshine to us. For days we had been fixing +up the boxes and getting everything in readiness. The sun beat strongly +on the snow, which almost visibly seemed to retreat before it. The +dazzlingly white surface was crisp and flaky, and around the tree boles +curving hollows had formed. Here and there brown earth peered nakedly +through. Every day the hillside runnels grew in strength. + +We were working at the mouth of a creek down which ran a copious little +stream all through the Springtime. We tapped it some distance above us, +and ran part of it along our line of sluice-boxes. These boxes went +between our two dumps, so that it was easy to shovel in from both sides. +Nothing could have been more convenient. + +At last, after a day of hot sunshine, we found quite a freshet of water +coming down the boxes, leaping and dancing in the morning light. I +remember how I threw in the first shovelful of dirt, and how good it was +to see the bright stream discolour as our friend the water began his +magic work. For three days we shovelled in, and on the fourth we made a +clean-up. + +"I guess it's time," said Jim, "or those riffles will be gettin' choked +up." + +And, sure enough, when we ran off the water there were some of them +almost full of the yellow metal, wet and shiny, gloriously agleam in the +morning light. + +"There's ten thousand dollars if there's an ounce," said the Company's +man, and the weigh-up proved he was right. So the gold was packed in two +long buckskin pokes and sent into town to be deposited in the bank. + +Day after day we went on shovelling in, and about twice a week we made a +clean-up. The month of May was half over when we had only a third of our +dirt run through the boxes. We were terribly afraid of the water failing +us, and worked harder than ever. Indeed, it was difficult to tell when +to leave off. The nights were never dark now; the daylight was over +twenty hours in duration. The sun described an ellipse, rising a little +east of north and setting a little west of north. We shovelled in till +we were too exhausted to lift another ounce. Then we lay down in our +clothes and slept as soon as we touched the pillow. + +"There's eighty thousand to our credit in the bank, and only a third of +our dump's gone. Hooray, boys!" said the Prodigal. + +About one o'clock in the morning the birds began to sing, and the sunset +glow had not faded from the sky ere the sunrise quickened it with life +once more. Who that has lived in the North will ever forget the charm, +the witchery of those midnight skies, where the fires of the sun are +banked and never cold? Surely, long after all else is forgotten, will +linger the memory of those mystic nights with all their haunting spell +of weird, disconsolate solitude. + +One afternoon I was working on the dump, intent on shovelling in as much +dirt as possible before supper, when, on looking up, who should greet me +but Locasto. Since our last interview in town I had not seen him, and, +somehow, this sudden sight of him came as a kind of a shock. Yet the +manner of the man as he approached me was hearty in the extreme. He held +out his great hand to me, and, as I had no desire to antagonise him, I +gave him my own. + +He was riding. His big, handsome face was bronzed, his black eyes clear +and sparkling, his white teeth gleamed like mammoth ivory. He certainly +was a dashing, dominant figure of a man, and, in spite of myself, I +admired him. + +His manner in his salutation was cordial, even winning. + +"I've just been visiting some of my creek properties," he said. "I heard +you fellows had made a good strike, and I thought I'd come down and +congratulate you. It is pretty good, isn't it?" + +"Yes," I said; "not quite so good as we expected, but we'll all have a +tidy sum." + +"I'm glad. Well, I suppose you'll go outside this Fall." + +"No, I think I'll stay in. You see, we've the Gold Hill property, which +looks promising; and then we have two claims on Ophir." + +"Oh, Ophir! I don't think you'll ever take a fortune out of Ophir. I +bought a claim there the other day. The man pestered me, so I gave him +five thousand for it, just to get rid of him. It's eight below." + +"Why," I said, "that's the claim I staked and got beaten out of." + +"You don't say so. Well, now, that's too bad. I bought it from a man +named Spankiller; his brother's a clerk in the gold office. Tell you +what I'll do. I'll let you have it for the five thousand I gave for it." + +"No," I answered, "I don't think I want it now." + +"All right; think it over, anyway. If you should change your mind, let +me know. Well, I must go. I've got to get into town to-night. That's my +mule-train back there on the trail. I've got pretty nearly ten thousand +ounces over there." + +I looked and saw the mules with the gold-packs slung over their backs. +There were four men to guard them, and it seemed to me that in one of +these men I recognised the little wizened figure of the Worm. + +I shivered. + +"Yes, I've done pretty well," he continued; "but it don't make any +difference. I spend it as fast as I get it. A month ago I didn't have +enough ready cash to pay my cigar bill, yet I could have gone to the +bank and borrowed a hundred thousand. It was there in the dump. Oh, it's +a rum business this mining. Well, good-bye." + +He was turning to go when, suddenly, he stopped. + +"Oh, by the way, I saw a friend of yours before I left. No need to +mention names, you lucky dog. When's the big thing coming off? Well, I +must congratulate you again. She looks sweeter than ever. Bye-bye." + +He was off, leaving a very sinister impression on my mind. In his +parting smile there was a trace of mockery that gravely disquieted me. I +had thought much of Berna during the past few months, but as the gold +fever took hold of me I put her more and more from my mind. I told +myself that all this struggle was for her. In the thought that she was +safe I calmed all anxious fear. Sometimes by not thinking so much of +dear ones, one can be more thoughtful of them. So it was with me. I knew +that all my concentration of effort was for her sake, and would bring +her nearer to me. Yet at Locasto's words all my old longing and +heartache vehemently resurged. + +In spite of myself, I was the prey of a growing uneasiness. Things +seemed vastly different, now success had come to me. I could not bear to +think of her working in that ambiguous restaurant, rubbing shoulders +with its unspeakable habitués. I wondered how I had ever deceived myself +into thinking it was all right. I began to worry, so that I knew only a +trip into Dawson would satisfy me. Accordingly, I hired a big Swede to +take my place at the shovel, and set out once more on the hillside trail +for town. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + + +I found the town more animated than ever, the streets more populous, the +gaiety more unrestrained. Everywhere were flaunting signs of a plethoric +wealth. The anxious Cheechako had vanished from the scene, and the +victorious miner masqueraded in his place. He swaggered along in the +glow of the Spring sunshine, a picture of perfect manhood, bronzed and +lean and muscular. He was brimming over with the exuberance of health. +He had come into town to "live" things, to transmute this yellow dust +into happiness, to taste the wine of life, to know the lips of flame. + +It was the day of the Man with the Poke. He was King. The sheer +animalism of him overflowed in midnight roysterings, in bacchanalian +revels, in debauches among the human débris of the tenderloin. + +Every one was waiting for him, to fleece him, rob him, strip him. It was +also the day of the man behind the bar, of the gambler, of the harpy. + +My strange, formless fears for Berna were soon set at rest. She was +awaiting me. She looked better than I had ever seen her, and she +welcomed me with an eager delight that kindled me to rapture. + +"Just think of it," she said, "only two weeks, and we'll be together for +always. It seems too good to be true. Oh, my dear, how can I ever love +you enough? How happy we are going to be, aren't we?" + +"We're going to be happier than any two people ever were before," I +assured her. + +We crossed the Yukon to the green glades of North Dawson, and there, on +a little rise, we sat down, side by side. How I wish I could put into +words the joy that filled my heart! Never was lad so happy as I. I spoke +but little, for love's silences are sweeter than all words. Well, well I +mind me how she looked: just like a picture, her hands clasped on her +lap, her eyes star-bright, angel-sweet, mother-tender. From time to time +she would give me a glance so full of trust and love that my heart would +leap to her, and wave on wave of passionate tenderness come sweeping +over me. + +It may be there was something humble in my stintless adoration; it may +be I was like a child for the pleasure of her nearness; it may be my +eyes told all too well of the fire that burned within me, but O, the +girl was kind, gentler than forgiveness, sweeter than all heaven. +Caressingly she touched my hair. I kissed her fingers, kissed them again +and again; and then she lifted my hand to her lips, and I felt her kiss +fall upon it. How wondrously I tingled at the touch. My hand seemed mine +no longer--a consecrated thing. Proud, happy me! + +"Yes," she went on, "doesn't it seem as if we were dreaming? You know, I +always thought it was a dream, and now it's coming true. You'll take me +away from this place, won't you, boy?--far, far away. I'll tell you +now, dear, I've borne it all for your sake, but I don't think I could +bear it any longer. I would rather die than sink in the mire, and yet +you can't imagine how this life affects one. It's sad, sad, but I don't +get shocked at things in the way I used to. You know, I sometimes think +a girl, no matter how good, sweet, modest to begin with, placed in such +surroundings could fall gradually." + +I agreed with her. Too well I knew I was becoming calloused to the evils +around me. Such was the insidious corruption of the gold-camp, I now +regarded with indifference things that a year ago I would have shrunk +from with disgust. + +"Well, it will be all over very soon, won't it, dear? I don't know what +I'd have done if it hadn't been for the rough miners. They've been so +kind to me. When they saw I was straight and honest they couldn't be +good enough. They shielded me in every way, and kept back the other kind +of men. Even the women have been my friends and helped me." + +She looked at me archly. + +"And, you know, I've had ever so many offers of marriage, too, from +honest, rough, kindly men--and I've refused them ever so gracefully." + +"Has Locasto ever made any more overtures?" + +Her face grew grave. + +"Yes, about a month ago he besieged me, gave me no rest, made all kinds +of proposals and promises. He wanted to divorce his 'outside' wife and +marry me. He wanted to settle a hundred thousand dollars on me. He tried +everything in his power to force me to his will. Then, when he saw it +was no use, he turned round and begged me to let him be my friend. He +spoke so nicely of you. He said he would help us in any way he could. +He's everything that's kind to me now. He can't do enough for me. Yet, +somehow, I don't trust him." + +"Well, my precious," I assured her, "all danger, doubt, despair, will +soon be over. Locasto and the rest of them will be as shadows, never to +haunt my little girl again. The Great, Black North will fade away, will +dissolve into the land of sunshine and flowers and song. You will forget +it." + +"The Great Black North.--I will never forget it, and I will always bless +it. It has given me my love, the best love in all the world." + +"O my darling, my Life, I'll take you away from it all soon, soon. We'll +go to my home, to Garry, to Mother. They will love you as I love you." + +"I'm sure I will love them. What you have told me of them makes them +seem very real to me. Will you not be ashamed of me?" + +"I will be proud, proud of you, my girl." + +Ah, would I not! I looked at that flower-like face the sunshine +glorified so, the pretty, bright hair falling away from her low brow in +little waves, the lily throat, the delicately patrician features, the +proud poise of her head. Who would not have been proud of her? She awoke +all that was divine in me. I looked as one might look on a vision, +scarce able to believe it real. + +Suddenly she pointed excitedly. + +"Look, dear, look at the rainbow. Isn't it wonderful? Isn't it +beautiful?" + +I gazed in rapt admiration. Across the river a shower had fallen, and +the clouds, clearing away abruptly, had left there a twin rainbow of +matchless perfection. Its double arch was poised as accurately over the +town as if it had been painted there. Each hoop was flawless in form, +lovely in hue, tenderly luminous, exquisite in purity. Never had I seen +the double iris so immaculate in colouring, and, with its bases resting +on the river, it curved over the gold-born city like a frame of ethereal +beauty. + +"Does it not seem, dear, like an answer to our prayer, an omen of good +hope, a promise for the future?" + +"Yes, beloved, our future, yours and mine. The clouds are rolling away. +All is bright with sunshine once again, and God sends His rainbow to +cheer and comfort us. It will not be long now. On the first day of June, +beloved, I will come to you, and we will be made man and wife. You will +be waiting for me, will you not?" + +"Yes, yes, waiting ever so eagerly, my lover, counting every hour, every +minute." + +I kissed her passionately, and we held each other tightly for a moment. +I saw come into her eyes that look which comes but once into the eyes of +a maid, that look of ineffable self-surrender, of passionate +abandonment. Life is niggard of such moments, yet can our lives be +summed up in them. + +She rested her head on my shoulder; her lips lay on mine, and they +moved faintly. + +"Yes, lover, yes, the first of June. Don't fail me, honey, don't fail +me." + +We parted, buoyant with hope, in an ecstasy of joy. She was for me, this +beautiful, tender girl, for me. And the time was nigh when she should be +mine, mine to adore until the end. Always would she be by my side; daily +could I plot and plan to give her pleasure; every hour by word and look +and act could I lavish on her the exhaustless measure of my love. Ah! +life would be too short for me. Could aught in this petty purblind +existence of ours redeem it and exalt it so: her love, this pure sweet +girl's, and mine. Let nations grapple, let Mammon triumph, let +pestilence o'erwhelm; what matter, we love, we love. O proud, happy me! + + * * * * * + +I got back to the claim. Everything was going merrily, but I felt little +desire to resume my toil. I was strangely wearied, worn out somehow. Yet +I took up my shovel again with a body that rebelled in every tissue. +Never had I felt like this before. Something was wrong with me. I was +weak. At night I sweated greatly. I cared not to eat. + + * * * * * + +"Well," said the Prodigal, "it's all over but the shouting. From my +calculations we've cleaned up two hundred and six thousand dollars. +That's a hundred and three between us four. It's cost us about three to +get out the stuff; so there will be, roughly speaking, about +twenty-five thousand for each of us." + +How jubilant every one was looking--every one but me. Somehow I felt as +if money didn't matter just then, for I was sick, sick. + +"Why, what's the matter?" said the Prodigal, staring at me curiously. +"You look like a ghost." + +"I feel like one, too," I answered. "I'm afraid I'm in for a bad spell. +I want to lie down awhile, boys ... I'm tired.... The first of June, +I've got a date on the first of June. I must keep it, I must.... Don't +let me sleep too long, boys. I mustn't fail. It's a matter of life and +death. The first of June...." + +Alas, on the first of June I lay in the hospital, raving and tossing in +the clutches of typhoid fever. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + + +I was lying in bed, and a heavy weight was pressing on me, so that, in +spite of my struggles, I could not move. I was hot, insufferably hot. +The blood ran boiling through my veins. My flesh was burning up. My +brain would not work. It was all cobwebs, murky and stale as a +charnel-house. Yet at times were strange illuminations, full of terror +and despair. Blood-red lights and purple shadows alternated in my +vision. Then came the dreams. + + * * * * * + +There was always Berna. Through a mass of grimacing, greed-contorted +faces gradually there formed and lingered her sweet and pensive one. We +were in a strange costume, she and I. It seemed like that of the early +Georges. We were running away, fleeing from some one. For her sake a +great fear and anxiety possessed me. We were eloping, I fancied. + +There was a marsh to cross, a hideous quagmire, and our pursuers were +close. We started over the quaking ground, then, suddenly, I saw her +sink. I rushed to aid her, and I, too, sank. We were to our necks in the +soft ooze, and there on the bank, watching us, was the foremost of our +hunters. He laughed at our struggles; he mocked us; he rejoiced to see +us drown. And in my dream the face of the man seemed strangely like +Locasto. + + * * * * * + +We were in a bower of roses, she and I. It was still further back in +history. We seemed to be in the garden of a palace. I was in doublet and +hose, and she wore a long, flowing kirtle. The air was full of fragrance +and sunshine. Birds were singing. A fountain scattered a shower of +glittering diamonds on the breeze. She was sitting on the grass, while I +reclined by her side, my head lying on her lap. Above me I could see her +face like a lily bending over me. With dainty fingers she crumpled a +rose and let the petals snow down on me. + +Then, suddenly, I was seized, torn away from her by men in black, who +roughly choked her screams. I was dragged off, thrown into a foul cell, +left many days. Then, one night, I was dragged forth and brought before +a grim tribunal in a hall of gloom and horror. They pronounced my +doom--Death. The chief Inquisitor raised his mask, and in those gloating +features I recognised--Locasto. + + * * * * * + +Again it seemed as if I were still further back in history, in some city +under the Roman rule. I was returning from the Temple with my bride. How +fair and fresh and beautiful she was, garlanded with flowers and +radiantly happy. Again it was Berna. + +Suddenly there are shouts, the beating of drums, the clash of cymbals. +The great Governor of the Province is coming. He passes with his +retinue. Suddenly he catches sight of her whom I have but newly wed. He +stops. He asks who is the maid. They tell him. He looks at me with +haughty contempt. He gives a sign. His servants seize her and drag her +screaming away. I try to follow, to kill him. I, too, am seized, +overpowered. They bind me, put out my eyes. The Roman sees them do it. +He laughs as the red-hot iron kisses my eye-balls. He mocks me, telling +me what a dainty feast awaits him in my bride. Again I see Locasto. + + * * * * * + +Then came another phase of my delirium, in which I struggled to get to +her. She was waiting for me, wanting me, breaking her heart at my delay. +O, Berna, my soul, my life, since the beginning of things we were fated. +'Tis no flesh love, but something deeper, something that has its source +at the very core of being. It is not for your sweet face, your gentle +spirit, my own, that you are dearer to me than all else: it is +because--you are you. If all the world were to turn against you, flout +you, stone you, then would I rush to your side, shield you, die with +you. If you were attainted with leprosy, I would enter the lazar-house +for your sake. + +"O Berna, I must see you, I must, I must. Let me go to her ... now ... +dear! She's calling me. She's in trouble. Oh, for the love of God, let +me go ... let me go, I say.... Curse you, I will. She's in trouble. You +can't hold me. I'm stronger than you all when she calls.... Let me ... +let me.... Oh, oh, oh ... you're hurting me so. I'm weak, yes, weak as +a baby.... Berna, my child, my poor little girl, I can do nothing. +There's a mountain weighing me down. There's a slab of gold on my chest. +They're burning me up. My veins are on fire. I can't come.... I can't, +dear.... I'm tired...." + +Then the fever, the ravings, the wild threshing of my pillow, all passed +away, and I was left limp, weak, helpless, resigned to my fate. + +I was on the sunny slope of convalescence. The Prodigal had remained +with me as long as I was in danger, but now that I had turned the +corner, he had gone back to the creeks, so that I was left with only my +thoughts for company. As I turned and twisted on my narrow cot it seemed +as if the time would never pass. All I wanted was to get better fast, +and to get out again. Then, I thought, I would marry Berna and go +"outside." I was sick of the country, of everything. + +I was lying thinking over these things, when I became aware that the man +in the cot to the right was trying to attract my attention. He had been +brought in that very morning, said to have been kicked by a horse. One +of his ribs was broken, and his face badly smashed. He was in great +pain, but quite conscious, and he was making stealthy motions to me. + +"Say, mate," he said, "I piped you off soon's I set me lamps on you. +Don't youse know me?" + +I looked at the bandaged face wonderingly. + +"Don't you spot de man dat near let youse down de shaft?" + +Then, with a great start, I saw it was the Worm. + +"'Taint no horse done me up," he said in a hoarse whisper; "'twas a man. +You know de man, de worst devil in all Alaska, Black Jack. Bad luck to +him! He knocked me down and give me de leather. But I'm goin' to get +even some day. I'm just laying for him. I wouldn't be in his shoes for +de richest claim in de Klondike." + +The man's eyes glittered vengefully between the white bandages. + +"'Twas all on account of de little girl he done it. You know de girl I +mean. Black Jack's dead stuck on her, an' de furder she stands him off +de more set he is to get her. Youse don't know dat man. He's never had +de cold mit yet." + +"Tell me what's the matter, for Heaven's sake." + +"Well, when youse didn't come, de little girl she got worried. I used to +be doin' chores round de restaurant, an' she asks me to take a note up +to you. So I said I would. But I got on a drunk dat day, an' for a week +after I didn't draw a sober breath. When I gets around again I told her +I'd seen you an' given you de note an' you was comin' in right away." + +"Heaven forgive you for that." + +[Illustration: Then, as I hung half in, half out of the window, he +clutched me by the throat] + +"Yep, dat's what I say now. But it's all too late. Well, a week went on +an' you never showed up, an' meantime Locasto was pesterin' her cruel. +She got mighty peaked like, pale as a ghost, an' I could see she cried +most all her nights. Den she gives me anudder note. She gives me a +hundred dollars to take dat note to you. I said she could lay on me dis +time. I was de hurry-up kid, an' I starts off. But Black Jack must have +cottoned on, for he meets me back of de town an' taxes me wid takin' a +message. Den he sets on me like a wild beast an' does me up good and +proper. But I'll fix him yet." + +"Where are the notes?" I cried. + +"In de pocket of me coat. Tell de nurse to fetch in me clothes, an' I'll +give dem to youse." + +The nurse brought the clothes, but the little man was too sore to move. + +"Feel in de inside pocket." + +There were the notes, folded very small, and written in pencil. There +was a strange faintness at my heart, and my fingers trembled as I opened +them. Fear, fear was clutching me, compressing me in an agonising grip. + +Here was the first. + + "My Darling Boy: Why didn't you come? I was all ready for you. O, + it was such a terrible disappointment. I've cried myself to sleep + every night since. Has anything happened to you, dear? For Heaven's + sake write or send a message. I can't bear the suspense. + + "Your loving + + "Berna." + +Blankly, dully, almost mechanically, I read the second. + + "O, come, my dear, at once. I'm in serious danger. He's grown + desperate. Swears if he can't get me by fair means he'll have me by + foul. I'm terribly afraid. Why ar'n't you here to protect me? Why + have you failed me? O, my darling, have pity on your poor little + girl. Come quickly before it is too late." + +It was unsigned. + +Heavens! I must go to her at once. I was well enough. I was all right +again. Why would they not let me go to her? I would crawl on my hands +and knees if need be. I was strong, so strong now. + +Ha! there were the Worm's clothes. It was after midnight. The nurse had +just finished her rounds. All was quiet in the ward. + +Dizzily I rose and slipped into the frayed and greasy garments. There +were the hospital slippers. I must wear them. Never mind a hat. + +I was out in the street. I shuffled along, and people stared at me, but +no one delayed me. I was at the restaurant now. She wasn't there. Ah! +the cabin on the hill. + +I was weaker than I had thought. Once or twice in a half-fainting +condition I stopped and steadied myself by holding a sapling tree. Then +the awful intuition of her danger possessed me, and gave me fresh +strength. Many times I stumbled, cutting myself on the sharp boulders. +Once I lay for a long time, half-unconscious, wondering if I would ever +be able to rise. I reeled like a drunken man. The way seemed endless, +yet stumbling, staggering on, there was the cabin at last. + +A light was burning in the front room. Some one was at home at all +events. Only a few steps more, yet once again I fell. I remember +striking my face against a sharp rock. Then, on my hands and knees, I +crawled to the door. + +I raised myself and hammered with clenched fists. There was silence +within, then an agitated movement. I knocked again. Was the door ever +going to be opened? At last it swung inward, with a suddenness that +precipitated me inside the room. + +The Madam was standing over me where I had fallen. At sight of me she +screamed. Surprise, fear, rage, struggled for mastery on her face. "It's +him," she cried, "_him_." Peering over her shoulder, with ashy, +horrified face, I saw her trembling husband. + +"Berna," I gasped hoarsely. "Where is she? I want Berna. What are you +doing to her, you devils? Give her to me. She's mine, my promised bride. +Let me go to her, I say." + +The woman barred the way. + +All at once I realised that the air was heavy with a strange odour, the +odour of _chloroform_. Frenzied with fear, I rushed forward. + +Then the Amazon roused herself. With a cry of rage she struck me. +Savagely both of them came for me. I struggled, I fought; but, weak as I +was, they carried me before them and threw me from the door. I heard the +lock shoot; I was outside; I was impotent. Yet behind those log +walls.... Oh, it was horrible! horrible! Could such things be in God's +world? And I could do nothing. + +I was strong once more. I ran round to the back of the cabin. She was in +there, I knew. I rushed at the window and threw myself against it. The +storm frame had not been taken off. Crash! I burst through both sheets +of glass. I was cruelly cut, bleeding in a dozen places, yet I was half +into the room. There, in the dirty, drab light, I saw a face, the +fiendish, rage-distorted face of my dream. It was Locasto. + +He turned at the crash. With a curse he came at me. Then, as I hung half +in, half out of the window, he clutched me by the throat. Using all his +strength, he raised me further into the room, then he hurled me +ruthlessly out onto the rocks outside. + +I rose, reeling, covered with blood, blind, sick, speechless. Weakly I +staggered to the window. My strength was leaving me. "O God, sustain me! +Help me to save her." + +Then I felt the world go blank. I swayed; I clutched at the walls; I +fell. + +There I lay in a ghastly, unconscious heap. + +I had lost! + + + + +BOOK IV + +THE VORTEX + + +He burned a hole in the frozen muck; +He scratched the icy mould; +And there in six-foot dirt he struck +A sack or so of gold. + + He burned a hole in the Decalogue, + And then it came about-- + For Fortune's only a lousy rogue-- + His "pocket" petered out. + +And lo! it was but a year all told, +When there in the shadow grim, +But six feet deep in the icy mould, +They burned a hole for him. + +--"The Yukoner." + + + + +CHAPTER I + + +"No, no, I'm all right. Really I am. Please leave me alone. You want me +to laugh? Ha! Ha! There! Is that all right now?" + +"No, it isn't all right. It's very far from all right, my boy; and this +is where you and your little uncle here are going to have a real heart +to heart talk." + +It was in the big cabin on Gold Hill, and the Prodigal was addressing +me. He went on: + +"Now, look here, kid, when it comes to expressing my feelings I'm in the +kindergarten class; when it comes to handing out the high-toned dope I +drop my cue every time; but when I'm needed to do the solid pardner +stunt then you don't need to holler for me--I'm there. Well, I'm giving +you a straight line of talk. Ever since the start I've taken a strong +notion to you. You've always been ace-high with me, and there never will +come the day when you can't eat on my meal-ticket. We tackled the Trail +of Trouble together. You were always wanting to lift the heavy end of +the log, and when the God of Cussedness was doing his best to rasp a man +down to his yellow streak, you showed up white all through. Say, kid, +we've been in tight places together; we've been stacked up against hard +times together: and now I'll be gol-darned if I'm going to stand by and +see you go downhill, while the devil oils the bearings." + +"Oh, I'm all right," I protested. + +"Yes, you're all right," he echoed grimly. "In an impersonation of an +'all-right' man it's the hook for yours. I've seen 'all-right' men like +you hitting the hurry trail for the boneyard before now. You're 'all +right'! Why, for the last two hours you've been sitting with that +'just-break-the-news-to mother' expression of yours, and paying no more +heed to my cheerful brand of conversation than if I had been a measly +four-flusher. You don't eat more than a sick sparrow, and often you +don't bat an eye all night. You're looking worse than the devil in a +gale of wind. You've lost your grip, my boy. You don't care whether +school keeps or not. In fact, if it wasn't for your folks, you'd as lief +take a short cut across the Great Divide." + +"You're going it a little strong, old man." + +"Oh no, I'm not. You know you're sick of everything. Feel as if life's a +sort of penitentiary, and you've just got to do time. You don't expect +to get any more fun out of it. Look at me. Every day's my sunshine day. +If the sky's blue I like it; if it's grey I like it just as well. I +never worry. What's the use? Yesterday's a dead one; to-morrow's always +to-morrow. All we've got's the 'now,' and it's up to us to live it for +all we're worth. You can use up more human steam to the square inch in +worrying than you can to the square yard in hard work. Eliminate worry +and you've got the only system." + +"It's all very well for you to preach," I said, "you forget I've been a +pretty sick man." + +"That's no nursemaid's dream. You almost cashed in. Typhoid's a serious +proposition at the best; but when you take a crazy streak on top of it, +make a midnight getaway from the sick-ward and land up on the Slide +looking as if you'd been run through a threshing machine, well, you're +sure letting death get a short option on you. And you gave up. You +didn't want to fight. You shirked, but your youth and constitution +fought for you. They healed your wounds, they soothed your ravings, they +cooled your fever. They were a great team, and they pulled you through. +Seems as if they'd pulled you through a knot-hole, but they were on to +their job. And you weren't one bit grateful--seemed to think they had no +business to butt in." + +"My hurts are more than physical." + +"Yes, I know; there was that girl. You seemed to have a notion that that +was the only girl on God's green brush-pile. As I camped there by your +bedside listening to your ravings, and getting a strangle-hold on you +when you took it into your head to get funny, you blabbed out the whole +yarn. Oh, sonny, why didn't you tell your uncle? Why didn't you put me +wise? I could have given you the right steer. Have you ever known me +handle a job I couldn't make good at? I'm a whole matrimonial bureau +rolled into one. I'd have had you prancing to the tune of the wedding +march before now. But you kept mum as a mummy. Wouldn't even tell your +old pard. Now you've lost her." + +"Yes, I've lost her." + +"Did you ever see her after you came out of the hospital?" + +"Once, once only. It was the first day. I was as thin as a rail, as +white as the pillow from which I had just raised my head. Death's +reprieve was written all over me. I dragged along wearily, leaning on a +stick. I was thinking of her, thinking, thinking always. As I scanned +the faces of the crowds that thronged the streets, I thought only of her +face. Then suddenly she was before me. She looked like a ghost, poor +little thing; and for a fluttering moment we stared at each other, she +and I, two wan, weariful ghosts." + +"Yes, what did she say?" + +"Say! she said nothing. She just looked at me. Her face was cold as ice. +She looked at me as if she wanted to _pity_ me. Then into her eyes there +came a shadow of bitterness, of bitterness and despair such as might +gloom the eyes of a lost soul. It unnerved me. It seemed as if she was +regarding me almost with horror, as if I were a sort of a leper. As I +stood there, I thought she was going to faint. She seemed to sway a +moment. Then she drew a great, gasping breath, and turning on her heel +she was gone." + +"She cut you?" + +"Yes, cut me dead, old fellow. And my only thought was of love for her, +eternal love. But I'll never forget the look on her face as she turned +away. It was as if I had lashed her with a whip. My God!" + +"And you've never seen her since?" + +"No, never. That was enough, wasn't it? She didn't want to speak to me +any more, never wanted to set eyes on me any more. I went back to the +ward; then, in a little, I came on here. My body was living, but my +heart was dead. It will never live again." + +"Oh, rot! You mustn't let the thing down you like that. It's going to +kill you in the end. Buck up! Be a man! If you don't care to live for +yourself, live for others. Anyway, it's likely all for the best. Maybe +love had you locoed. Maybe she wasn't really good. See now how she lives +openly with Locasto. They call her the Madonna; they say she looks more +like a virgin-martyr than the mistress of a dissolute man." + +I rose and looked at him, conscious that my face was all twisted with +the pain of the thought. + +"Look here," I said, "never did God put the breath of life into a better +girl. There's been foul play. I know that girl better than any one in +the world, and if every living being were to tell me she wasn't good I +would tell them they lied, they lied. I would burn at the stake +upholding that girl." + +"Then why did she turn you down so cruelly?" + +"I don't know; I can't understand it. I know so little about women. I +have not wavered a moment. To-day in my loneliness and heartbreak I +care and hunger for her more than ever. She's always here, right here in +my head, and no power can drive her out. Let them say of her what they +will, I would marry her to-morrow. It's killing me. I've aged ten years +in the last few months. Oh, if I only could forget." + +He looked at me thoughtfully. + +"I say, old man, do you ever hear from your old lady?" + +"Every mail." + +"You've often told me of your home. Say! just give us a mental frame-up +of it." + +"Glengyle? Yes. I can see the old place now, as plainly as a picture: +the green, dimpling hills all speckled with sheep; the grey house +nestling snugly in a grove of birch; the wild water of the burn leaping +from black pool to pool, just mad with the joy of life; the midges +dancing over the water in the still sunshine, and the trout jumping for +them--oh, it's the bonny, bonny place. You would think so too. You would +like it, tramping knee-deep in the heather, to see the moorcock rise +whirring at your feet; you would like to set sail with the fisher folk +after the silver herring. It would make you feel good to see the calm +faces of the shepherds, the peace in the eyes of the women. Ay, that was +the best of it all, the Rest of it, the calm of it. I was pretty happy +in those days." + +"You were happy--then why not go back? That's your proper play; go back +to your Mother. She wants you. You're pretty well heeled now. A little +money goes a long way over there. You can count on thirty thousand. +You'll be comfortable; you'll devote yourself to the old lady; you'll be +happy again. Time's a regular steam-roller when it comes to smoothing +out the rough spots in the past. You'll forget it all, this place, this +girl. It'll all seem like the after effects of a midnight Welsh rabbit. +You've got mental indigestion. I hate to see you go. I'm really sorry to +lose you; but it's your only salvation, so go, go!" + +Never had I thought of it before. Home! how sweet the word seemed. +Mother! yes, Mother would comfort me as no one else could. She would +understand. Mother and Garry! A sudden craving came over me to see them +again. Maybe with them I could find relief from this awful agony of +heart, this thing that I could scarce bear to think of, yet never ceased +to think of. Home! that was the solution of it all. Ah me! I would go +home. + +"Yes," I said, "I can't go too soon; I'll start to-morrow." + +So I rose and proceeded to gather together my few belongings. In the +early morning I would start out. No use prolonging the business of my +going. I would say good-bye to those two partners of mine, with a grip +of the hand, a tear in the eye, a husky: "Take care of yourself." That +would be all. Likely I would never see them again. + +Jim came in and sat down quietly. The old man had been very silent of +late. Putting on his spectacles, he took out his well-worn Bible and +opened it. Back in Dawson there was a man whom he hated with the hate +that only death can end, but for the peace of his soul he strove to +conquer it. The hate slumbered, yet at times it stirred, and into the +old man's eyes there came the tiger-look that had once made him a force +and a fear. Woe betide his enemy if that tiger ever woke. + +"I've been a-thinkin' out a scheme," said Jim suddenly, "an' I'm a-goin' +to put all of that twenty-five thousand of mine back into the ground. +You know us old miners are gamblers to the end. It's not the gold, but +the gettin' of it. It's the excitement, the hope, the anticipation of +one's luck that counts. We're fighters, an' we've just got to keep on +fightin'. We can't quit. There's the ground, and there's the precious +metals it's a-tryin' to hold back on us. It's up to us to get them out. +It's for the good of humanity. The miner an' the farmer rob no one. They +just get down to that old ground an' coax it an' beat it an' bully it +till it gives up. They're working for the good of humanity--the farmer +an' the miner." The old man paused sententiously. + +"Well, I can't quit this minin' business. I've just got to go on so +long's I've got health an' strength; an' I'm a-goin' to shove all I've +got once more into the muck. I stand to make a big pile, or lose my +wad." + +"What's your scheme, Jim?" + +"It's just this: I'm goin' to install a hydraulic plant on my Ophir +Creek claim, I've got a great notion of that claim. It's an +out-of-sight proposition for workin' with water. There's a little stream +runs down the hill, an' the hill's steep right there. There's one +hundred feet of fall, an' in Spring a mighty powerful bunch of water +comes a-tumblin' down. Well, I'm goin' to dam it up above, bring it down +a flume, hitch on a little giant, an' turn it loose to rip an' tear at +that there ground. I'm goin' to begin a new era in Klondike minin'." + +"Bully for you, Jim." + +"The values are there in the ground, an' I'm sick of the old slow way of +gettin' them out. This looks mighty good to me. Anyway, I'm a-goin' to +give it a trial. It's just the start of things; you'll see others will +follow suit. The individual miner's got to go; it's only a matter of +time. Some day you'll see this whole country worked over by them big +power dredges they've got down in Californy. You mark my words, boys; +the old-fashioned miner's got to go." + +"What are you going to do?" + +"Well, I've written out for piping an' a monitor, an' next Spring I hope +I'll have the plant in workin' order. The stuff's on the way now. Hullo! +Come in!" + +The visitors were Mervin and Hewson on their way to Dawson. These two +men had been successful beyond their dreams. It was just like finding +money the way fortune had pushed it in front of their noses. They were +offensively prosperous; they reeked of success. + +In both of them a great change had taken place, a change only too +typical of the gold-camp. They seemed to have thawed out; they were +irrepressibly genial; yet instead of that restraint that had formerly +distinguished them, there was a grafted quality of weakness, of +flaccidity, of surrender to the enervating vices of the town. + +Mervin was remarkably thin. Dark hollows circled his eyes, and a curious +nervousness twisted his mouth. He was "a terror for the women," they +said. He lavished his money on them faster than he made it. He was +vastly more companionable than formerly, but somehow you felt his +virility, his fighting force had gone. + +In Hewson the change was even more marked. Those iron muscles had +couched themselves in easy flesh; his cheeks sagged; his eyes were +bloodshot and untidy. Nevertheless he was more of a good fellow, talked +rather vauntingly of his wealth, and affected a patronising manner. He +was worth probably two hundred thousand, and he drank a bottle of brandy +a day. + +In the case of these two men, as in the case of a thousand others in the +gold-camp, it seemed as if easy, unhoped-for affluence was to prove +their undoing. On the trail they had been supreme; in fen or forest, on +peak or plain, they were men among men, fighting with nature savagely, +exultantly. But when the fight was over their arms rested, their muscles +relaxed, they yielded to sensuous pleasures. It seemed as if to them +victory really meant defeat. + +As I went on with my packing I paid but little heed to their talk. What +mattered it to me now, this babble of dumps and dust, of claims and +clean-ups? I was going to thrust it all behind me, blot it clean out of +my memory, begin my life anew. It would be a larger, more luminous life. +I would live for others. Home! Mother! again how exquisitely my heart +glowed at the thought of them. + +Then all at once I pricked up my ears. They were talking of the town, of +the men and women who were making it famous (or rather infamous), when +suddenly they spoke the name of Locasto. + +"He's gone off," Mervin was saying; "gone off on a big stampede. He got +pretty thick with some of the Peel River Indians, and found they knew of +a ledge of high-grade, free-milling quartz somewhere out there in the +Land Back of Beyond. He had a sample of it, and you could just see the +gold shining all through it. It was great stuff. Jack Locasto's the last +man to turn down a chance like that. He's the worst gambler in the +Northland, and no amount of wealth will ever satisfy him. So he's off +with an Indian and one companion, that little Irish satellite of his, +Pat Doogan. They have six months' grub. They'll be away all winter." + +"What's become of that girl of his?" asked Hewson, "the last one he's +been living with? You remember she came in on the boat with us. Poor +little kid! Blast that man anyway. He's not content with women of his +own kind, he's got to get his clutches on the best of them. That was a +good little girl before he got after her. If she was a friend of mine +I'd put a bullet in his ugly heart." + +Hewson growled like a wrathful bear, but Mervin smiled his cynical +smile. + +"Oh, you mean the Madonna," he said; "why, she's gone on the +dance-halls." + +They continued to talk of other things, but I did not hear them any +more. I was in a trance, and I only aroused when they rose to go. + +"Better say good-bye to the kid here," said the Prodigal; "he's going to +the old country to-morrow." + +"No, I'm not," I answered sullenly; "I'm just going as far as Dawson." + +He stared and expostulated, but my mind was made up. I would fight, +fight to the last. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +Berna on the dance-halls--words cannot convey all that this simple +phrase meant to me. For two months I had been living in a dull apathy of +pain, but this news galvanised me into immediate action. + +For although there were many degrees of dance-hall depravity, at the +best it meant a brand of ineffaceable shame. She had lived with Locasto, +had been recognised as his mistress--that was bad enough; but the +other--to be at the mercy of all, to be classed with the harpies that +preyed on the Man with the Poke, the vampires of the gold-camp. +Berna-- Oh, it was unspeakable! The thought maddened me. The +needle-point of suffering that for weeks had been boring into my brain +seemed to have pierced its core at last. + +When the Prodigal expostulated with me I laughed--a bitter, mirthless +laugh. + +"I'm going to Dawson," I said, "and if it was hell itself, I'd go there +for that girl. I don't care what any one thinks. Home, society, honour +itself, let them all go; they don't matter now. I was a fool to think I +could ever give her up, a fool. Now I know that as long as there's life +and strength in my body, I'll fight for her. Oh, I'm not the +sentimentalist I was six months ago. I've lived since then. I can hold +my own now. I can meet men on their own level. I can fight, I can win. +I don't care any more, after what I've gone through. I don't set any +particular value on my life. I'll throw it away as recklessly as the +best of them. I'm going to have a fierce fight for that girl, and if I +lose there'll be no more 'me' left to fight. Don't try to reason with +me. Reason be damned! I'm going to Dawson, and a hundred men couldn't +hold me." + +"You seem to have some new stunts in your repertoire," he said, looking +at me curiously; "you've got me guessing. Sometimes I think you're a +candidate for the dippy-house, then again I think you're on to yourself. +There's a grim set to your mouth and a hard look in your eyes that I +didn't use to see. Maybe you can hold up your end. Well, anyway, if you +will go I wish you good luck." + +So, bidding good-bye to the big cabin, with my two partners looking +ruefully after me, I struck off down Bonanza. It was mid-October. A +bitter wind chilled me to the marrow. Once more the land lay stark +beneath its coverlet of snow, and the sky was wan and ominous. I +travelled fast, for a painful anxiety gripped me, so that I scarce took +notice of the improved trail, of the increased activity, of the heaps of +tailings built up with brush till they looked like walls of a +fortification. All I thought of was Dawson and Berna. + +How curious it was, this strange new strength, this indifference to +self, to physical suffering, to danger, to public opinion! I thought +only of the girl. I would make her marry me. I cared nothing for what +had happened to her. I might be a pariah, an outcast for the rest of my +days; at least I would save her, shield her, cherish her. The thought +uplifted me, exalted me. I had suffered beyond expression. I had +rearranged my set of ideas; my concept of life, of human nature, had +broadened and deepened. What did it matter if physically they had +wronged her? Was not the pure, virgin soul of her beyond their reach? + +I was just in time to see the last boat go out. Already the river was +"throwing ice," and every day the jagged edges of it crept further +towards midstream. An immense and melancholy mob stood on the wharf as +the little steamer backed off into the channel. There were uproarious +souls on board, and many women of the town screaming farewells to their +friends. On the boat all was excited, extravagant joy; on the wharf, a +sorry attempt at resignation. + +The last boat! they watched her as her stern paddle churned the freezing +water; they watched her forge her slow way through the ever-thickening +ice-flakes; they watched her in the far distance battling with the +Klondike current; then, sad and despondent, they turned away to their +lonely cabins. Never had their exile seemed so bitter. A few more days +and the river would close tight as a drum. The long, long night would +fall on them, and for nigh on eight weary months they would be cut off +from the outside world. + +Yet soon, very soon, a mood of reconciliation would set in. They would +begin to make the best of things. To feed that great Octopus, the town, +the miners would flock in from the creeks with treasure hoarded up in +baking-powder tins; the dance-halls and gambling-places would absorb +them; the gaiety would go on full swing, and there would seem but little +change in the glittering abandon of the gold-camp. As I paced its +sidewalks once more I marvelled at its growth. New streets had been +made; the stores boasted expensive fittings and gloried in costly goods; +in the bar-rooms were splendid mirrors and ornate woodwork; the +restaurants offered European delicacies; all was on a new scale of +extravagance, of garish display, of insolent wealth. + +Everywhere the man with the fat "poke" was in evidence. He came into +town unshorn, wild-looking, often raggedly clad, yet always with the +same wistful hunger in his eyes. You saw that look, and it took you back +to the dark and dirt and drudgery of the claim, the mirthless months of +toil, the crude cabin with its sugar barrel of ice behind the door, its +grease light dimly burning, its rancid smell of stale food. You saw him +lying smoking his strong pipe, looking at that can of nuggets on the +rough shelf, and dreaming of what it would mean to him--out there where +the lights glittered and the gramophones blared. Surely, if patience, +endurance, if grim, unswerving purpose, if sullen, desperate toil +deserved a reward, this man had a peckful of pleasure for his due. + +And always that hungry, wistful look. The women with the painted cheeks +knew that look; the black-jack boosters knew it; the barkeeper with his +knock-out drops knew it. They waited for him; he was their "meat." + +Yet in a few days your wild and woolly man is transformed, and no longer +does your sympathy go out towards him. Shaven and shorn, clad in silken +underwear, with patent leather shoes, and a suit in New York style, you +absolutely fail to recognise him as your friend of the moccasins and +mackinaw coat. He is smoking a dollar Laranago, he has half a dozen +whiskies "under his belt," and later on he has a "date" with a lady +singer of the Pavilion Theatre. He is having a "whale" of a good time, +he tells you; you wonder how long he will last. + +Not for long. Sharp and short and sweet it is. He is brought up with a +jerk, and the Dago Queen, for whom he has bought so much wine at twenty +dollars a bottle, has no recognition for him in her flashing eyes. He +has been "taken down the line," "trimmed to a finish" by an artist in +the business. Ruefully he turns his poke inside out--not a "colour." He +cannot even command the price of a penitential three-fingers of rye. +Such is one of the commonest phases of life in the gold-camp. + +As I strolled the streets I saw many a familiar face. Mosher I saw. He +had grown very fat, and was talking to a diminutive woman with heavy +blond hair (she must have weighed about ninety-five pounds, I think). +They went off together. + +A knife-edged wind was sweeping down from the north, and men in bulging +coonskin coats filled up the sidewalks. At the Aurora corner I came +across the Jam-wagon. He was wearing a jacket of summer flannels, and, +as if to suggest extra warmth, he had turned up its narrow collar. In +his trembling fingers he held an emaciated cigarette, which he inhaled +avidly. He looked wretched, pinched with hunger, peaked with cold, but +he straightened up when he saw me into a semblance of well-being. Then, +in a little, he sagged forward, and his eyes went dull and abject. It +was a business of the utmost delicacy to induce him to accept a small +loan. I knew it would only plunge him more deeply into the mire; but I +could not bear to see him suffer. + +I went into the Parisian Restaurant. It was more glittering, more +raffish, more clamant of the tenderloin than ever. There were men +waiters in the conventional garb of waiterdom, and there was Madam, +harder looking and more vulturish. You wondered if such a woman could +have a soul, and what was the end and aim of her being. There she sat, a +creature of rapacity and sordid lust. I marched up to her and asked +abruptly: + +"Where's Berna?" + +She gave a violent start. There was a quality of fear in her bold eyes. +Then she laughed, a hard, jarring laugh. + +"In the Tivoli," she said. + +Strange again! Now that the worst had come to pass, and I had suffered +all that it was in my power to suffer, this new sense of strength and +mastery had come to me. It seemed as if some of the iron spirit of the +land had gotten into my blood, a grim, insolent spirit that made me +fearless; at times a cold cynical spirit, a spirit of rebellion, of +anarchy, of aggression. The greatest evil had befallen me. Life could do +no more to harm me. I had everything to gain and nothing to lose. I +cared for no man. I despised them, and, to back me in my bitterness, I +had twenty-five thousand dollars in the bank. + +I was still weak from my illness and my long mush had wearied me, so I +went into a saloon and called for drinks. I felt the raw whisky burn my +throat. I tingled from head to foot with a strange, pleasing warmth. +Suddenly the bar, with its protecting rod of brass, seemed to me a very +desirable place, bright, warm, suggestive of comfort and +good-fellowship. How agreeably every one was smiling! Indeed, some were +laughing for sheer joy. A big, merry-hearted miner called for another +round, and I joined in. + +Where was that bitter feeling now? Where that morbid pain at my heart? +As I drank it all seemed to pass away. Magical change! What a fool I +was! What was there to make such a fuss about? Take life easy. Laugh +alike at the good and bad of it. It was all a farce anyway. What would +it matter a hundred years from now? Why were we put into this world to +be tortured? I, for one, would protest. I would writhe no more in the +strait-jacket of existence. Here was escape, heartsease, happiness--here +in this bottled impishness. Again I drank. + +What a rotten world it all was! But I had no hand in the making of it, +and it wasn't my task to improve it. I was going to get the best I could +out of it. Eat, drink and be merry, that was the last word of +philosophy. Others seemed to be able to extract all kinds of happiness +from things as they are, so why not I? In any case, here was the +solution of my troubles. Better to die happily drunk than miserably +sober. I was not drinking from weakness. Oh no! I was drinking with +deliberate intent to kill pain. + +How wonderfully strong I felt! I smashed my clenched fist against the +bar. My knuckles were bruised and bleeding, but I felt no pain. I was so +light of foot, I imagined I could jump over the counter. I ached to +fight some one. Then all at once came the thought of Berna. It came with +tragical suddenness, with poignant force. Intensely it smote me as never +before. I could have burst into maudlin tears. + +"What's the matter, Slim?" asked a mouldy mannikin, affectionately +hanging on to my arm. + +Disgustedly I looked at him. + +"Take your filthy paws off me," I said. + +His jaw dropped and he stared at me. Then, before he could draw on his +fund of profanity, I burst through the throng and made for the door. + +I was drunk, deplorably drunk, and I was bound for the Tivoli. + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +I wish it to be understood that I make no excuses for myself at this +particular stage of my chronicle. I am only conscious of a desire to +tell the truth. Many of the stronger-minded will no doubt condemn me; +many of those inclined to a rigid system of morality will be disgusted +with me; but, however it may be, I will write plainly and without +reserve. + +When I reeled out of the Grubstake Saloon I was in a peculiar state of +exaltation. No longer was I conscious of the rasping cold, and it seemed +to me I could have couched me in the deep snow as cosily as in a bed of +down. Surpassingly brilliant were the lights. They seemed to convey to +me a portentous wink. They twinkled with jovial cheer. What a desirable +place the world was, after all! + +With an ebullient sense of eloquence, of extravagant oratory, I longed +for a sympathetic ear. An altruistic emotion pervaded me. Who would +suspect, thought I, as I walked a little too circumspectly amid the +throng, that my heart was aglow, that I was tensing my muscles in the +pride of their fitness, that my brain was a bewildering kaleidoscope of +thoughts and images? + +Gramophones were braying in every conceivable key. Brazen women were +leering at me. Potbellied men regarded me furtively. Alluringly the +gambling-dens and dancing-dives invited me. The town was a giant spider +drawing in its prey, and I was the prey, it seemed. Others there were in +plenty, men with the eager, wistful eyes; but who was there so eager and +wistful as I? And I didn't care any more. Strike up the music! On with +the dance! Only one life have we to live. Ah! there was the Tivoli. + +To the right as I entered was a palatial bar set off with burnished +brass, bevelled mirrors and glittering, vari-coloured pyramids of costly +liqueurs. Up to the bar men were bellying, and the bartenders in white +jackets were mixing drinks with masterly dexterity. It was a motley +crowd. There were men in broadcloth and fine linen, men in blue shirts +and mud-stiffened overalls, grey-bearded elders and beardless boys. It +was a noisy crowd, laughing, brawling, shouting, singing. Here was the +foam of life, with never a hint of the muddy sediment underneath. + +To the left I had a view of the gambling-room, a glimpse of green +tables, of spinning balls, of cool men, with shades over their eyes, +impassively dealing. There were huge wheels of fortune, keno tables, +crap outfits, faro layouts, and, above all, the dainty, fascinating +roulette. Everything was in full swing. Miners with flushed faces and a +wild excitement in their eyes were plunging recklessly; others, calm, +alert, anxious, were playing cautiously. Here and there were the fevered +faces of women. Gold coin was stacked on the tables, while a man with a +pair of scales was weighing dust from the tendered pokes. + +In front of me was a double swing-door painted in white and gold, and, +pushing through this, for the first time I found myself in a Dawson +dance-hall. + +I remember being struck by the gorgeousness of it, its glitter and its +glow. Who would have expected, up in this bleak-visaged North, to find +such a fairyland of a place? It was painted in white and gold, and set +off by clusters of bunched lights. There was much elaborate scroll-work +and ornate decoration. Down each side, raised about ten feet from the +floor, and supported on gilt pillars, were little private boxes hung +with curtains of heliotrope silk. At the further end of the hall was a +stage, and here a vaudeville performance was going on. + +I sat down on a seat at the very back of the audience. Before me were +row after row of heads, mostly rough, rugged and unwashed. Their faces +were eager, rapt as those of children. They were enjoying, with the deep +satisfaction of men who for many a weary month had been breathing the +free, unbranded air of the Wild. The sensuous odour of patchouli was +strangely pleasant to them; the sight of a woman was thrillingly sweet; +the sound of a song was ravishing. Looking at many of those toil-grooved +faces one could see that there was no harm in their hearts. They were +honest, uncouth, simple; they were just like children, the children of +the Wild. + +A woman of generous physique was singing in a shrill, nasal voice a +pathetic ballad. She sang without expression, bringing her hands with +monotonous gestures alternately to her breast. Her squat, matronly +figure, beef from the heels up, looked singularly absurd in her short +skirt. Her face was excessively over-painted, her mouth good-naturedly +large, and her eyes out of their slit-like lids leered at the audience. + +"Ain't she great?" said a tall bean-pole of a man on my right, as she +finished off with a round of applause. "There's some class to her work." + +He looked at me in a confidential way, and his pale-blue eyes were full +of rapturous appreciation. Then he did something that surprised me. He +tugged open his poke and, dipping into it, he produced a big nugget. +Twisting this in a scrap of paper, he rose up, long, lean and awkward, +and with careful aim he threw it on the stage. + +"Here ye are, Lulu," he piped in his shrill voice. The woman, turning in +her exit, picked up the offering, gave her admirer a wide, gold-toothed +smile, and threw him an emphatic kiss. As the man sat down I could see +his mouth twisting with excitement, and his watery blue eyes snapped +with pleasure. + +"By heck," he said, "she's great, ain't she? Many's the bottle of wine +I've opened for that there girl. Guess she'll be glad when she hears old +Henry's in town again. Henry's my name, Hard-pan Henry they call me, an' +I've got a claim on Hunker. Many's the wallopin' poke have I toted into +town an' blowed in on that there girl. An' I just guess this one'll go +the same gait. Well, says I, what's the odds? I'm havin' a good time +for my money. When it's gone there's lots more in the ground. It ain't +got no legs. It can't run away." + +He chuckled and hefted his poke in a horny hand. There was a flutter of +the heliotrope curtains, and the face of Lulu, peeping over the plush +edge of a box, smiled bewitchingly upon him. With another delighted +chuckle the old man went to join her. + +"Darned old fool," said a young man on my left. He looked as if his +veins were chuckful of health; his skin was as clear as a girl's, his +eye honest and fearless. He was dressed in mackinaw, and wore a fur cap +with drooping ear-flaps. + +"He's the greatest mark in the country," the Youth went on. "He's got no +more brains than God gave geese. All the girls are on to him. Before he +can turn round that old bat up there will have him trimmed to a finish. +He'll be doing flip-flaps, and singing ''Way Down on the Suwanee River' +standing on his head. Then the girl will pry him loose from his poke, +and to-morrow he'll start off up the creek, teetering and swearing he's +had a dooce of a good time. He's the easiest thing on earth." + +The Youth paused to look on a new singer. She was a soubrette, trim, +dainty and confident. She wore a blond wig, and her eyes in their pits +of black were alluringly bright. Paint was lavished on her face in +violent dabs of rose and white, and the inevitable gold teeth gleamed in +her smile. She wore a black dress trimmed with sequins, stockings of +black, a black velvet band around her slim neck. She was greeted with +much applause, and she began to sing in a fairly sweet voice. + +"That's Nellie Lestrange," said the Youth. "She's a great +rustler--Touch-the-button-Nell, they call her. They say that when she +gets a jay into a box it's all day with him. She's such a nifty +wine-winner the end of her thumb's calloused pressing the button for +fresh bottles." + +Touch-the-button-Nell was singing a comic ditty of a convivial order. +She put into it much vivacity, appealing to the audience to join in the +chorus with a pleading, "Now all together, boys." She had tripping steps +and dainty kicks that went well with the melody. When she went off half +a dozen men rose in their places, and aimed nuggets at her. She captured +them, then, with a final saucy flounce of her skirt, made her smiling +exit. + +"By Gosh!" said the Youth, "I wonder these fellows haven't got more +savvy. You wouldn't catch _me_ chucking away an ounce on one of those +fairies. No, sir! Nothing doing! I've got a five-thousand-dollar poke in +the bank, and to-morrow I'll be on my way outside with a draft for every +cent of it. A certain little farm 'way back in Vermont looks pretty good +to me, and a little girl that don't know the use of face powder, bless +her. She's waiting for me." + +The excitement of the liquor had died away in me, and what with the heat +and smoke of the place, I was becoming very drowsy. I was almost dozing +off to sleep when some one touched me on the arm. It was a negro waiter +I had seen dodging in and out of the boxes, and known as the Black +Prince. + +"Dey's a lady up'n de box wants to speak with yuh, sah," he said +politely. + +"Who is it?" I asked in surprise. + +"Miss Labelle, sah, Miss Birdie Labelle." + +I started. Who in the Klondike had not heard of Birdie Labelle, the +eldest of the three sisters, who married Stillwater Willie? A thought +flashed through me that she could tell me something of Berna. + +"All right," I said; "I'll come." + +I followed him upstairs, and in a moment I was ushered into the presence +of the famous soubrette. + +"Hullo, kid!" she exclaimed, "sit down. I saw you in the audience and +kind-a took a notion to your face. How d'ye do?" + +She extended a heavily bejewelled hand. She was plump, pleasant-looking, +with a piquant smile and flaxen hair. I ordered the waiter to bring her +a bottle of wine. + +"I've heard a lot about you," I said tentatively. + +"Yes, I guess so," she answered. "Most folks have up here. It's a sort +of reflected glory. I guess if it hadn't been for Bill I'd never have +got into the limelight at all." + +She sipped her champagne thoughtfully. + +"I came in here in '97, and it was then I met Bill. He was there with +the coin all right. We got hitched up pretty quick, but he was such a +mut I soon got sick of him. Then I got skating round with another guy. +Well, an egg famine came along. There was only nine hundred samples of +hen fruit in town, and one store had a corner on them. I went down to +buy some. Lord! how I wanted them eggs. I kept thinking how I'd have +them done, shipwrecked, two on a raft or sunny side up, when who should +come along but Bill. He sees what I want, and quick as a flash what does +he do but buy up the whole bunch at a dollar apiece! 'Now,' says he to +me, 'if you want eggs for breakfast just come home where you belong.' + +"Well, say, I was just dying for them eggs, so I comes to my milk like a +lady. I goes home with Bill." + +She shook her head sadly, and once more I filled up her glass. + +She prattled on with many a gracious smile, and I ordered another bottle +of wine. In the next box I could hear the squeaky laugh of Hard-pan +Henry and the teasing tones of his inamorata. The visits of the Black +Prince to this box with fresh bottles had been fast and furious, and at +last I heard the woman cry in a querulous voice: "Say, that black man +coming in so often gives me a pain. Why don't you order a case?" + +Then the man broke in with his senile laugh: + +"All right, Lulu, whatever you say goes. Say, Prince, tote along a case, +will you?" + +Surely, thought I, there's no fool like an old fool. + +A little girl was singing, a little, winsome girl with a sweet childish +voice and an innocent face. How terribly out of place she looked in that +palace of sin. She sang a simple, old-world song full of homely pathos +and gentle feeling. As she sang she looked down on those furrowed faces, +and I saw that many eyes were dimmed with tears. The rough men listened +in rapt silence as the childish treble rang out: + + "Darling, I am growing old; + Silver threads among the gold + Shine upon my brow to-day; + Life is fading fast away." + +Then from behind the scenes a pure alto joined in and the two voices, +blending in exquisite harmony, went on: + + "But, my darling, you will be, will be, + Always young and fair to me. + Yes, my darling, you will be + Always young and fair to me." + +As the last echo died away the audience rose as one man, and a shower of +nuggets pelted on the stage. Here was something that touched their +hearts, stirred in them strange memories of tenderness, brought before +them half-forgotten scenes of fireside happiness. + +"It's a shame to let that kid work in the halls," said Miss Labelle. +There were tears in her eyes, too, and she hurriedly blinked them away. + +Then the curtain fell. Men were clearing the floor for the dance, so, +bidding the lady adieu, I went downstairs. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +I found the Youth awaiting me. + +"Say, pardner," said he, "I was just getting a bit anxious about you. I +thought sure that fairy had you in tow for a sucker. I'm going to stay +right with you, and you're not going to shake me. See!" + +"All right," I said; "come on and we'll watch the dance." + +So we got in the front row of spectators, while behind us the crowd +packed as closely as matches in a box. The champagne I had taken had +again aroused in me that vivid sense of joy and strength and colour. +Again the lights were effulgent, the music witching, the women divine. +As I swayed a little I clutched unsteadily at the Youth. He looked at me +curiously. + +"Brace up, old man," he said. "Guess you're not often in town. You're +not much used to the dance-hall racket." + +"No," I assured him. + +"Well," he continued, "it's the rottenest game ever. I've seen more poor +beggars put plumb out of business by the dance-halls than by all the +saloons and gambling-joints put together. It's the game of catching the +sucker brought to the point of perfection, and there's very few cases +where it fails." + +He perceived I was listening earnestly, and he warmed up to his +subject. + +"You see, the boys get in after they've been out on the claim for six +months at a stretch, and town looks mighty good to them. The music +sounds awful nice, and the women, well, they look just like angels. The +boys are all right, but they've got that mad craving for the sight of a +woman a man gets after he's been off out in the Wild, and these women +have got the captivation of men down to a fine art. Once one of them +gets to looking at you with eyes that eat right into you, and soft white +hands, and pretty coaxing ways, well, it's mighty hard to hold back. A +man's a fool to come near these places if he's got a poke--'cept, like +me, he knows the ropes and he's right onto himself." + +The Youth said this with quite a complacent air. He went on: + +"These girls work on a percentage basis. You'll notice every time you +buy them a drink the waiter gives them a check. That means that when the +night's over they cash in and get twenty-five per cent, of the money +you've spent on them. That's how they're so keen on ordering fresh +bottles. Sometimes they'll say a bottle's gone flat before it's empty, +and have you order another. Or else they'll pour half of it into the +cuspidor when you're not looking. Then, when you get too full to notice +the difference, they'll run in ginger ale on you. Or else they'll get +you ordering by the case, and have half a dozen dummy bottles in it. Oh, +there's all kinds of schemes these box rustlers are on to. When you pay +for a drink you toss over your poke, and they take the price out. Do you +think they're particular to a quarter ounce or so? No, sir! and you +always get the short end of it. It's a bad game to go up against." + +The Youth looked at me as though proud of his superior sophistication. + +The floor was cleared. Girls were now coming from behind the stage, +preening themselves and chaffing with the crowd. The orchestra struck up +some jubilant ragtime that set the heart dancing and the heels tapping +in tune. Brighter than ever seemed the lights; more dazzling the white +and gilt of the walls. Some of the girls were balancing lightly to a +waltz rhythm. There was a witching grace in their movements, and the +Youth watched them intently. He looked down at his feet clad in old +moccasins. + +"Gee, I'd like just to have one spin," he said; "just one before I leave +the darned old country for good. I was always crazy about dancing. I'd +ride thirty miles to attend a dance back home." + +His eyes grew very wistful. Suddenly the music stopped and the +floor-master came forward. He was a tall, dark man with a rich and +vibrant baritone voice. + +"That's the best spieler in the Yukon," said the Youth. + +"Come on, boys," boomed the spieler. "Look alive there. Don't keep the +ladies waiting. Take your hands out of your pockets and get in the game. +Just going to begin, a dreamy waltz or a nice juicy two-step, whichever +you prefer. Hey, professor, strike up that waltz!" + +Once more the music swelled out. + +"How's that, boys? Doesn't that make your feet like feathers? Come on, +boys! Here you are for the nice, glossy floor and the nice, flossy +girls. Here you are! Here you are! That's right, select your partners! +Swing your honeys! Hurry up there! Just a-goin' to begin. What's the +matter with you fellows? Wake up! a dance won't break you. Come on! +don't be a cheap skate. The girls are fine, fit and fairy-like, the +music's swell and the floor's elegant. Come on, boys!" + +There was a compelling power in his voice, and already a number of +couples were waltzing round. The women were exquisite in their grace and +springy lightness. They talked as they danced, gazing with languishing +eyes and siren smiles at the man of the moment. + +Some of them, who had not got partners, were picking out individuals +from the crowd and coaxing them to come forward. A drunken fellow +staggered onto the floor and grabbed a girl. She was young, dainty and +pretty, but she showed no repugnance for him. Round and round he +cavorted, singing and whooping, a wild, weird object; when, suddenly, he +tripped and fell, bringing her down with him. The crowd roared; but the +girl good-naturedly picked him up, and led him off to the bar. + +A man in a greasy canvas suit with mucklucks on his feet had gone onto +the floor. His hair was long and matted, his beard wild and rank. He +was dancing vehemently, and there was the glitter of wild excitement in +his eyes. He looked as if he had not bathed for years, but again I could +see no repulsion in the face of the handsome brunette with whom he was +waltzing. Dance after dance they had together, locked in each other's +arms. + +"That's a 'live one,'" said the Youth. "He's just come in from Dominion +with a hundred ounces, and it won't last him over the night. Amber, +there, will get it all. She won't let the other girls go near. He's her +game." + +Between dances the men promenaded to the bar and treated their +companions to a drink. In the same free, trusting way they threw over +their pokes to the bartender and had the price weighed out. The dances +were very short, and the drinks very frequent. + +Madder and madder grew the merriment. The air was hot; the odour of +patchouli mingled with the stench of stale garments and the reek of +alcohol. Men dripping with sweat whirled round in wild gyrations. Some +of them danced beautifully; some merely shuffled over the floor. It did +not make any difference to the girls. They were superbly muscular and +used to the dragging efforts of novices. After a visit to the bar back +they came once more, licking their lips, and fell to with fresh energy. + +There was no need to beg the crowd now. A wave of excitement seemed to +have swept over them. They clamoured to get a dance. The "live one" +whooped and pranced on his wild career, while Amber steered him calmly +through the mazes of the waltz. Touch-the-button-Nell was talking to a +tall fair-moustached man whom I recognised as a black-jack booster. +Suddenly she left him and came over to us. She went up to the Youth. + +She had discarded her blond wig, and her pretty brown hair parted in the +middle and rippled behind her ears. Her large violet-blue eyes had a +devouring look that would stir the pulse of a saint. She accosted the +Youth with a smile of particular witchery. + +"Say, kid, won't you come and have a two-step with me? I've been looking +at you for the last half-hour and wishing you'd ask me." + +The Youth had advised me: "If any of them asks you, tell them to go to +the devil;" but now he looked at her and his boyish face flushed. + +"Nothing doing," he said stoutly. + +"Oh, come now," she pleaded; "honest to goodness, kid, I've turned down +the other fellow for you. You won't refuse me, will you? Come on; just +one, sweetheart." + +She was holding the lapels of his coat and dragging him gently forward. +I could see him biting his lip in embarrassment. + +"No, thanks, I'm sorry," he stammered. "I don't know how to dance. +Besides, I've got no money." + +She grew more coaxing. + +"Never mind about the coin, honey. Come on, have one on me. Don't turn +me down, I've taken such a notion to you. Come on now; just one turn." + +I watched his face. His eyes clouded with emotion, and I knew the +psychology of it. He was thinking: + +"Just one--surely it wouldn't hurt. Surely I'm man enough to trust +myself, to know when to quit. Oh, lordy, wouldn't it be sweet just to +get my arm round a woman's waist once more! The sight of them's honey to +me; surely it wouldn't matter. One round and I'll shake her and go +home." + +The hesitation was fatal. By an irresistible magnetism the Youth was +drawn to this woman whose business it ever was to lure and beguile. By +her siren strength she conquered him as she had conquered many another, +and as she led him off there was a look of triumph on her face. Poor +Youth! At the end of the dance he did not go home, nor did he "shake" +her. He had another and another and another. The excitement began to +paint his cheeks, the drink to stoke wild fires in his eyes. As I stood +deserted I tried to attract him, to get him back; but he no longer +heeded me. + +"I don't see the Madonna to-night," said a little, dark individual in +spectacles. Somehow he looked to me like a newspaper man "chasing" copy. + +"No," said one of the girls; "she ain't workin'. She's sick; she don't +take very kindly to the business, somehow. Don't seem to get broke in +easy. She's funny, poor kid." + +Carelessly they went on to talk of other things, while I stood there +gasping, staring, sick at heart. All my vinous joy was gone, leaving me +a haggard, weary wretch of a man, disenchanted and miserable to the +verge of--what? I shuddered. The lights seemed to have gone blurred and +dim. The hall was tawdry, cheap and vulgar. The women, who but a moment +before had seemed creatures of grace and charm, were now nothing more +than painted, posturing harridans, their seductive smiles the leers of +shameless sin. + +And this was a Dawson dance-hall, the trump card in the nightly game of +despoliation. Dance-halls, saloons, gambling-dens, brothels, the heart +of the town was a cancer, a hive of iniquity. Here had flocked the most +rapacious of gamblers, the most beautiful and unscrupulous women on the +Pacific slope. Here in the gold-born city they waited for their prey, +the Man with the Poke. Back there in the silent Wild, with pain and +bloody sweat, he toiled for them. Sooner or later must he come within +reach of their talons to be fleeced, flouted and despoiled. It was an +organised system of sharpers, thugs, harpies, and birds of prey of every +kind. It was a blot on the map. It was a great whirlpool, and the eddy +of it encircled the furthest outpost of the golden valley. It was a +vortex of destruction, of ruin and shame. And here was I, hovering on +its brink, likely to be soon sucked down into its depths. + +I pressed my way to the door, and stood there staring and swaying, but +whether with wine or weakness I knew not. In the vociferous and +flamboyant street I could hear the raucous voices of the spielers, the +jigging tunes of the orchestras, the click of ivory balls, the popping +of corks, the hoarse, animal laughter of men, the shrill, inane giggles +of women. Day and night the game went on without abatement, the game of +despoliation. + +And I was on the verge of the vortex. Memories of Glengyle, the laughing +of the silver-scaled sea, the tawny fisher-lads with their honest eyes, +the herring glittering like jewels in the brown nets, the women with +their round health-hued cheeks and motherly eyes. Oh, Home, with your +peace and rest and content, can you not save me from this? + +And as I stood there wretchedly a timid little hand touched my arm. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +It is odd how people who have been parted a weary while, yet who have +thought of each other constantly, will often meet with as little show of +feeling as if they had but yesterday bid good-bye. I looked at her and +she at me, and I don't think either of us betrayed any emotion. Yet must +we both have been infinitely moved. + +She was changed, desperately, pitifully changed. All the old sweetness +was there, that pathetic sweetness which had made the miners call her +the Madonna; but alas, forever gone from her was the fragrant flower of +girlhood. Her pallor was excessive, and the softness had vanished out of +her face, leaving there only lines of suffering. Sorrow had kindled in +her grey eyes a spiritual lustre, a shining, tearless brightness. Ah me, +sad, sad, indeed, was the change in her! + +So she looked at me, a long and level look in which I could see neither +love nor hate. The bright, grey eyes were clear and steady, and the +pinched and pitiful lips did not quiver. And as I gazed on her I felt +that nothing ever would be the same again. Love could no more be the +radiant spirit of old, the prompter of impassioned words, the painter of +bewitching scenes. Never again could we feel the world recede from us as +we poised on bright wings of fancy; never again compare our joy with +that of the heaven-born; never again welcome that pure ideal that comes +to youth alone, and that pitifully dies in the disenchantment of graver +days. We could sacrifice all things for each other; joy and grieve for +each other; live and die for each other,--but the Hope, the Dream, the +exaltation of love's dawn, the peerless white glory of it--had gone from +us forever and forever. + +Her lips moved: + +"How you have changed!" + +"Yes, Berna, I have been ill. But you, you too have changed." + +"Yes," she said very slowly. "I have been--dead." + +There was no faltering in her voice, never a throb of pathos. It was +like the voice of one who has given up all hope, the voice of one who +has arisen from the grave. In that cold mask of a face I could see no +glimmer of the old-time joy, the joy of the season when wild roses were +aglow. We both were silent, two pitifully cold beings, while about us +the howling bedlam of pleasure-plotters surged and seethed. + +"Come upstairs where we can talk," said she. So we sat down in one of +the boxes, while a great freezing shadow seemed to fall and wrap us +around. It was so strange, this silence between us. We were like two +pale ghosts meeting in the misty gulfs beyond the grave. + +"And why did you not come?" she asked. + +"Come--I tried to come." + +"But you did not." Her tone was measured, her face averted. + +"I would have sold my soul to come. I was ill, desperately ill, nigh to +death. I was in the hospital. For two weeks I was delirious, raving of +you, trying to get to you, making myself a hundred times worse because +of you. But what could I do? No man could have been more helpless. I was +out of my mind, weak as a child, fighting for my life. That was why I +did not come." + +When I began to speak she started. As I went on she drew a quick, +choking breath. Then she listened ever so intently, and when I had +finished a great change came over her. Her eyes stared glassily, her +head dropped, her hands clutched at the chair, she seemed nigh to +fainting. When she spoke her voice was like a whisper. + +"And they lied to me. They told me you were too eager gold-getting to +think of me; that you were in love with some other woman out there; that +you cared no more for me. They lied to me. Well, it's too late now." + +She laughed, and the once tuneful voice was harsh and grating. Still +were her eyes blank with misery. Again and again she murmured: "Too +late, too late." + +Quietly I sat and watched her, yet in my heart was a vast storm of +agony. I longed to comfort her, to kiss that face so white and worn and +weariful, to bring tears to those hopeless eyes. There seemed to grow +in me a greater hunger for the girl than ever before, a longing to bring +joy to her again, to make her forget. What did it all matter? She was +still my love. I yearned for her. We both had suffered, both been +through the furnace. Surely from it would come the love that passeth +understanding. We would rear no lily walls, but out of our pain would we +build an abiding place that would outlast the tomb. + +"Berna," I said, "it is not too late." + +There was a desperate bitterness in her face. "Yes, yes, it is. You do +not understand. You--it's all right for you, you are blameless; but +I----" + +"You too are blameless, dear. We have both been miserably duped. Never +mind, Berna, we will forget all. I love you, Oh how much I never can +tell you, girl! Come, let us forget and go away and be happy." + +It seemed as if my every word was like a stab to her. The sweet face was +tragically wretched. + +"Oh no," she answered, "it can never be. You think it can, but it can't. +You could not forget. I could not forget. We would both be thinking; +always, always torturing each other. To you the thought would be like a +knife thrust, and the more you loved me the deeper would pierce its +blade. And I, too, can you not realise how fearfully I would look at +you, always knowing you were thinking of THAT, and what an agony it +would be to me to watch your agony? Our home would be a haunted one, a +place of ghosts. Never again can there be joy between you and me. It's +too late, too late!" + +She was choking back the sobs now, but still the tears did not come. + +"Berna," I said gently, "I think I could forget. Please give me a chance +to prove it. Other men have forgotten. I know it was not your fault. I +know that spiritually you are the same pure girl you were before. You +are an angel, dear; my angel." + +"No, I was not to blame. When you failed to come I grew desperate. When +I wrote you and still you failed to come I was almost distracted. Night +and day he was persecuting me. The others gave me no peace. If ever a +poor girl was hounded to dishonour I was. Yet I had made up my mind to +die rather than yield. Oh, it's too horrible." + +She shuddered. + +"Never mind, dear, don't tell me about it." + +"When I awoke to life sick, sick for many days, I wanted to die, but I +could not. There seemed to be nothing for it but to stay on there. I was +so weak, so ill, so indifferent to everything that it did not seem to +matter. That was where I made my mistake. I should have killed myself. +Oh, there's something in us all that makes us cling to life in spite of +shame! But I would never let him come near me again. You believe me, +don't you?" + +"I believe you." + +"And though, when he went away, I've gone into this life, there's never +been any one else. I've danced with them, laughed with them, but that's +all. You believe me?" + +"Yes, dear." + +"Thank God for that! And now we must say good-bye." + +"_Good-bye?_" + +"I said--good-bye. I would not spoil your life. You know how proud I am, +how sensitive. I would not give you such as I. Once I would have given +myself to you gladly, but now--please go away." + +"Impossible." + +"No, the other is impossible. You don't know what these things mean to a +woman. Leave me, please." + +"Leave you--to what?" + +"To death, ruin--I don't know what. If I'm strong enough I will die. If +I am weak I will sink in the mire. Oh, and I am only a girl too, a young +girl!" + +"Berna, will you marry me?" + +"No! No! No!" + +"Berna, I will never leave you. Here I tell you frankly, plainly, I +don't know whether or not you still love me--you haven't said a word to +show it--but I know I love you, and I will love you as long as life +lasts. I will never leave you. Listen to me, dear: let us go away, far, +far away. You will forget, I will forget. It will never be the same, but +perhaps it will be better, greater than before. Come with me, O my love! +Have pity on me, Berna, have pity. Marry me. Be my wife." + +She merely shook her head, sitting there cold as a stone. + +"Then," I said, "if you call yourself dishonoured, I too will become +dishonoured. If you choose to sink in the mire, I too will sink. We will +go down together, you and I. Oh, I would rather sink with you, dear, +than rise with the angels. You have chosen--well, I too have chosen. We +stand on the edge of the vortex, now will we plunge down. You will see +me steep myself in shame, then when I am a hundred shades blacker than +you can ever hope to be, my angel, you will stoop and pity me. Oh, I +don't care any more. I've played the fool too long; now I'll play the +devil, and you'll stand by and watch me. Sometimes it's nice to make +those we love suffer, isn't it? I would break my arm to make you feel +sorry for me. But now you'll see me in the vortex. We'll go down +together, dear. Hand in hand hell-ward we'll go down, we'll go down." + +She was looking at me in a frightened way. A madness seemed to have +gotten into me. + +"Berna, you're on the dance-halls. You're at the mercy of the vilest +wretch that's got an ounce of gold in his filthy poke. They can buy you +as they buy white flesh everywhere on earth. You must dance with them, +drink with them, go away with them. Berna, I can buy you. Come, dance +with me, drink with me. We'll live, live. We'll eat, drink and be merry. +On with the dance! Oh, for the joy of life! Since you'll not be my love +you'll be my light-of-love. Come, Berna, come!" + +I paused. With her head lying on the cushioned edge of the box she was +crying. The plush was streaky with her tears. + +"Will you come?" I asked again. + +She did not move. + +"Then," said I, "there are others, and I have money, lots of it. I can +buy them. I am going down into the vortex. Look on and watch me." + +I left her crying. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +It is with shame I write the following pages. Would I could blot them +out of my life. To this day there must be many who remember my meteoric +career in the firmament of fast life. It did not last long, but in less +than a week I managed to squander a small fortune. + +Those were the days when Dawson might fitly have been called the +dissolute. It was the régime of the dance-hall girl, and the taint of +the tenderloin was over the town. So far there were few decent women to +be seen on the streets. Respectable homes were being established, but +even there social evils were discussed with an astonishing frankness and +indifference. In the best society men were welcomed who were known to be +living in open infamy. A general callousness to social corruption +prevailed. + +For Dawson was at this time the Mecca of the gambler and the courtesan. +Of its population probably two-thirds began their day when most people +finished it. It was only towards nightfall that the town completely +roused up, that the fever of pleasure providing began. Nearly every one +seemed to be affected by the spirit of degeneracy. On the faces of many +of the business men could be seen the stamp of the pace they were going. +Cases in Court had to be adjourned because of the debauches of lawyers. +Bank tellers stepped into their cages sleepless from all-night orgies. +Government officials lived openly with wanton women. High and low were +attainted by the corruption. In those days of headstrong excitement, of +sudden fortune, of money to be had almost for the picking up, when the +gold-camp was a reservoir into which poured by a thousand channels the +treasure of the valley, few were those among the men who kept a steady +head, whose private records were pure and blameless. + +No town of its size has ever broken up more homes. Men in the +intoxication of fast-won wealth in that far-away land gave way to +excesses of every kind. Fathers of families paraded the streets arm in +arm with demi-mondaines. To be seen talking to a loose woman was +unworthy of comment, not to have a mistress was not to be in the swim. +Words cannot express the infinite and general degradation. It is +scarcely possible to exaggerate it. That teeming town at the mouth of +the Klondike set a pace in libertinism that has never been equalled. + +I would divide its population into three classes: the sporting +fraternity, whose business it was to despoil and betray; the business +men, drawn more or less into the vortex of dissipation; the miners from +the creeks, the Man with the Poke, here to-day, gone, to-morrow, and of +them all the most worthy of respect. He was the prop and mainstay of the +town. It was like a vast trap set to catch him. He would "blow in" +brimming with health and high spirits; for a time he would "get into the +game;" sooner or later he would cut loose and "hit the high places"; +then, at last, beggared and broken, he would crawl back in shame and +sorrow to the claim. O, that grey city! could it ever tell its woes and +sorrows the great, white stars above would melt into compassionate +tears. + +Ah well, to the devil with all moralising! A short life and a merry one. +Switch on the lights! Ring up the curtain! On with the play! + + * * * * * + +In the casino a crowd is gathering round the roulette wheel. Three-deep +they stand. A woman rushes out from the dance-hall and pushes her way +through the throng. She is very young, very fair and redundant of life. +A man jostles her. From frank blue eyes she flashes a look at him, and +from lips sweet as those of a child there comes the remonstrance: "Curse +you; take care." + +The men make way for her, and she throws a poke of dust on the red. "A +hundred dollars out of that," she says. The coupier nods; the wheel +spins round; she loses. + +"Give me another two hundred in chips," she cries eagerly. The dealer +hands them to her, and puts her poke in a drawer. Again and again she +plays, placing chips here and there round the table. Sometimes she wins, +sometimes she loses. At last she has quite a pile of chips before her. +She laughs gleefully. "I guess I'll cash in now," she says. "That's good +enough for to-night." + +The man hands her back her poke, writes out a cheque for her winnings, +and off she goes like a happy child. + +"Who's that?" I ask. + +"That? that's Blossom. She's a 'bute,' she is. Want a knockdown? Come on +round to the dance-hall." + + * * * * * + +Once more I see the Youth. He is nearing the end of his tether. He +borrows a few hundred dollars from me. "One more night," he says with a +bitter grin, "and the hog goes back to wallow in the mire. They've got +you going too-- Oh, Lord, it's a great game! Ha! ha!" + +He goes off unsteadily; then from out of the luminous mists there +appears the Jam-wagon. In a pained way he looks at me. "Here, chuck it, +old man," he says; "come home to my cabin and straighten up." + +"All right," I answer; "just one drink more." + +One more means still one more. Poor old Jam-wagon! It's the blind +leading the blind. + +Mosher haunts me with his gleaming bald head and his rat-like eyes. He +is living with the little ninety-five-pound woman, the one with the mop +of hair. + +Oh, it is a hades of a life I am steeped in! I drink and I drink. It +seems to me I am always drinking. Rarely do I eat. I am one of half a +dozen spectacular "live ones." All the camp is talking of us, but it +seems to me I lead the bunch in the race to ruin. I wonder what Berna +thinks of it all. Was there ever such a sensitive creature? Where did +she get that obstinate pride? Child of misfortune! She minded me of a +delicate china cup that gets mixed in with the coarse crockery of a hash +joint. + +Remonstrantly the Prodigal speeds to town. + +"Are you crazy?" he cries. "I don't mind you making an ass of yourself, +but lushing around all that coin the way you're doing--it's wicked; it +makes me sick. Come home at once." + +"I won't," I say. "What if I am crazy? Isn't it my money? I've never +sown my wild oats yet. I'm trying to catch up, that's all. When the +money's done I'll quit. I'm having the time of my life. Don't come +spoiling it with your precepts. What a lot of fun I've missed by being +good. Come along; 'listen to the last word of human philosophy--have a +drink.'" + +He goes away shaking his head. There's no fear of him ever breaking +loose. He, with his smile of sunshine, would make misfortune pay. He is +a rolling stone that gathers no moss, but manages to glue itself to +greenbacks at every turn. + + * * * * * + +I am in a box at the Palace Grand. The place is packed with rowdy men +and ribald women. I am at the zenith of my shame. Right and left I am +buying wine. Like vultures at a feast they bunch into the box. Like +carrion flies they buzz around me. That is what I feel myself to +be--carrion. + +How I loathe myself! but I think of Berna, and the thought goads me to +fresh excesses. I will go on till flesh and blood can stand it no +longer, till I drop in my tracks. I realise that somehow I must make +her pity me, must awake in her that guardian angel which exists in every +woman. Only in that way can I break down the barrier of her pride and +arouse the love latent in her heart. + +There are half a dozen girls in the box, a bevy of beauties, and I buy a +case of wine for each, over a thousand dollars' worth. Screaming with +laughter they toss it in bottles down to their friends in the audience. +It is a scene of riotous excitement. The audience roars, the girls +shriek, the orchestra tries to make itself heard. Madder and madder +grows the merriment. The fierce fever of it scorches in my veins. I am +mad to spend, to throw away money, to outdo all others in bitter, +reckless prodigality. I fling twenty-dollar gold pieces to the singers. +I open bottle after bottle of wine. The girls are spraying the crowd +with it, the floor of the box swims with it. I drop my pencil signing a +tab, and when I look down it is floating in a pool of champagne. + +Then comes the last. The dance has begun. Men in fur caps, mackinaw +coats and mucklucks are waltzing with women clad in Paris gowns and +sparkling with jewels. The floor is thronged. I have a large, +hundred-ounce poke of dust, and I unloose the thong. Suddenly with a mad +shout I scatter its contents round the hall. Like a shower of golden +rain it falls on men and women alike. See how they grovel for it, the +brutes, the vampires! How they fight and grab and sprawl over it! How +they shriek and howl and curse! It is like an arena of wild beasts; it +is pandemonium. Oh, how I despise them! My gorge rises, but--to the end, +to the end. I must play my part. + + * * * * * + +Always amid that lurid carnival of sin floats the figure of Blossom, +Blossom with her child-face of dazzling fairness, her china-blue eyes, +her round, smooth cheeks. How different from the pinched pallid face of +Berna! Poor, poor Berna! I never see her, but amid all the saturnalia +she haunts me. The thought of her is agony, agony. I cannot bear to +think of her. I know she watches me. If she would only stoop and save me +now! Or have I not fallen low enough? What a faith I have in that deep +mother-love of hers that will redeem me in the end. I must go deeper +yet. Faster and faster must I swirl into the vortex. + +Oh, these women, how in my heart I loathe them! I laugh with them, I +quaff with them, I let them rob me; but that's all. + + * * * * * + +In all that fierce madness of debauch, thank God, I retained my honour. +They beguiled me, they tried to lure me into their rooms; but at the +moment I went to enter I recoiled. It was as if an invisible arm +stretched across the doorway and barred me out. + +And Blossom, she, too, tried so hard to lure me, and because I resisted +it inflamed her. Half angel, half devil was Blossom, a girl in years, +but woefully wise, a soft siren when pleased, a she-devil when roused. +She made me her special quarry. She fought for me. She drove off all +the other girls. We talked together, we drank together, we "played the +tables" together, but nothing more. She would coax me with the +prettiest gestures, and cajole me with the sweetest endearments; then, +when I steadfastly resisted her, she would fly into a fury and flout me +with the foulness of the stews. She was beautiful, but born to be bad. +No power on heaven or earth could have saved her. Yet in her badness she +was frank, natural and untroubled as a child. + +It was in one of the corridors of the dance-hall in the early hours of +the morning. The place was deserted, strewed with débris of the night's +debauch. The air was fetid, and from the gambling-hall down below arose +the shouts of the players. We were up there, Blossom and I. I was in a +strange state of mind, a state bordering on frenzy. Not much longer, I +felt, could I keep up this pace. Something had to happen, and that soon. + +She put her arms around me. I could feel her cheek pressed to mine. I +could see her bosom rise and fall. + +"Come," she said. + +She led me towards her room. No longer was I able to resist. My foot was +on the threshold and I was almost over when---- + +"Telegram, sir." + +It was a messenger. Confusedly I took the flimsy envelope and tore it +open. Blankly I stared at the line of type. I stared like a man in a +dream. I was sober enough now. + +"Ain't you coming?" said Blossom, putting her arms round me. + +"No," I said hoarsely, "leave me, please leave me. Oh, my God!" + +Her face changed, became vindictive, the face of a fury. + +"Curse you!" she hissed, gnashing her teeth. "Oh, I knew. It's that +other, that white-faced doll you care for. Look at me! Am I not better +than her? And you scorn me. Oh, I hate you. I'll get even with you and +her. Curse you, curse you----" + +She snatched up an empty wine bottle. Swinging it by the neck she struck +me square on the forehead. I felt a stunning blow, a warm rush of blood. +Then I fell limply forward, and all the lights seemed to go out. + +There I lay in a heap, and the blood spurting from my wound soaked the +little piece of paper. On it was written: + + "Mother died this morning. Garry." + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +"Where am I?" + +"Here, with me." + +Low and sweet and tender was the voice. I was in bed and my head was +heavily bandaged, so that the cloths weighed upon my eyelids. It was +difficult to see, and I was too weak to raise myself, but I seemed to be +in semi-darkness. A lamp burning on a small table nearby was turned low. +By my bedside some one was sitting, and a soft, gentle hand was holding +mine. + +"Where is _here_?" I asked faintly. + +"Here--my cabin. Rest, dear." + +"Is that you, Berna?" + +"Yes, please don't talk." + +I thrilled with a sudden sweetness of joy. A flood of sunshine bathed +me. It was all over, then, the turmoil, the storm, the shipwreck. I was +drifting on a tranquil ocean of content. Blissfully I closed my eyes. +Oh, I was happy, happy! + +In her cabin, with her, and she was nursing me--what had happened? What +new turn of events had brought about this wonderful thing? As I lay +there in the quiet, trying to recall the something that went before, my +poor sick brain groped but feebly amid a murk of sinister shadows. + +"Berna," I said, "I've had a bad dream." + +"Yes, dear, you've been sick, very sick. You've had an attack of fever, +brain fever. But don't try to think, just rest quietly." + +So for a while longer I lay there, thrilled with a strange new joy, +steeped in the ineffable comfort of her presence, and growing better, +stronger with every breath. Memories came thronging back, memories that +made me cringe and wince, and shudder with the shame of them. Yet ever +the thought that she was with me was like a holy blessing. Surely it was +all good since it had ended in this. + +Yet there was something else, some memory darker than the others, some +shadow of shadows that baffled me. Then as I battled with a growing +terror and suspense, it all came back to me, the telegram, the news, my +collapse. A great grief welled up in me, and in my agony I spoke to the +girl. + +"Berna, tell me, is it true? Is my Mother dead?" + +"Yes, it's true, dear. You must try to bear it bravely." + +I could feel her bending over me, could feel her hand holding mine, +could feel her hair brush my cheek, yet I forgot even her just then. I +thought only of Mother, of her devotion and of how little I had done to +deserve it. So this was the end: a narrow grave, a rending grief and the +haunting spectre of reproach. + +I saw my Mother sitting at that window that faced the west, her hands +meekly folded on her lap, her eyes wistfully gazing over the grey sea. I +knew there was never a day of her life when she did not sit thus and +think of me. I could guess at the heartache that gentle face would not +betray, the longing those tender lips would not speak, the grief those +sweet eyes studied to conceal. As, sitting there in the strange clouded +sunset of my native land, she let her knitting drop on her lap, I knew +she prayed for me. Oh, Mother! Mother! + +My sobs were choking me, and Berna was holding my hand very tightly. Yet +in a little I grew calmer. + +"Berna," I said, "I've only got you now, only you, little girl. So you +must love me, you mustn't leave me." + +"I'll never leave you--if you want me to stay." + +"God bless you, dear. I can't tell you the comfort you are to me. I'll +try to be quiet now." + +I will always remember those days as I grew slowly well again. The cot +in which I lay stood in the sitting-room of the cabin, and from the +window I could overlook the city. Snow had fallen, the days were diamond +bright, and the smoke ascended sharply in the glittering air. The little +room was papered with a design of wild roses that minded me of the +Whitehorse Rapids. On the walls were some little framed pictures; the +floor was carpeted in dull brown, and a little heater gave out a +pleasant warmth. Through a doorway draped with a curtain I could see her +busy in her little kitchen. + +She left me much alone, alone with my thoughts. Often when all was quiet +I knew she was sitting there beyond the curtain, sitting thinking, just +as I was thinking. Quiet was the keynote of our life, quiet and +sunshine. That little cabin might have been a hundred miles from the +gold-born city, it was so quiet. Here drifted no echo of its abandoned +gaiety, its glory of demoralisation. How sweet she looked in her +spotless home attire, her neat waist, her white apron with bib and +sleeves, her general air of a little housewife. And never was there so +devoted a nurse. + +Sometimes she would read to me from one of the few books I had taken +everywhere on my travels, a page or two from my beloved Stevenson, a +poem from my great-hearted Henley, a luminous passage from my Thoreau. +How those readings brought back the time when, tired of flicking the +tawny pools, I would sit on the edge of the boisterous little burn and +read till the grey shadows sifted down! I was so happy then, and I did +not know it. Now everything seemed changed. Life had lost its zest. Its +savour was no longer sweet. Its very success was more bitter than +failure. Would I ever get back that old-time rapture, that youthful joy, +that satisfaction with all the world? + +It was sweet prolonging my convalescence, yet the time came when I could +no longer let her wait upon me. What was going to happen to us? I +thought of that at all times, and she knew I thought of it. Sometimes I +could see a vivid colour in her cheeks, an eager brightness in her eye. +Was ever a stranger situation? She slept in the little kitchen, and +between us there was but that curtain. The faintest draught stirred it. +There I lay through the long, long night in that quiet cabin. I heard +her breathing. Sometimes even I heard her murmur in her sleep. I knew +she was there, within a few yards of me. I thought of her always. I +loved her beyond all else on earth. I was gaining daily in health and +strength, yet not for the wealth of the world would I have passed that +little curtain. She was as safe there as if she were guarded with +swords. And she knew it. + +Once when I was in agony I called to her in the night, and she came to +me. She came with a mother's tenderness, with exquisite endearments, +with the great love shining in her eyes. She leaned over me, she kissed +me. As she bent over my bed I put my arm round her. There in the +darkness were we, she and I, her kisses warm upon my lips, her hair +brushing my brow, and a great love devouring us. Oh, it was hard, but I +released her, put her from me, told her to go away. + +"I'll play the game fair," I said to myself. I must be very, very +careful. Our position was full of danger. So I forced myself to be cold +to her, and she looked both surprised and pained at the change in me. +Then she seemed to put forth special efforts to please me. She changed +the fashion of her hair, she wore pretty bows of ribbon. She talked +brightly and lightly in a febrile way. She showed little coquettish +tricks of manner that were charming to my mind. Ever she looked at me +with wistful concern. Her heart was innocent, and she could not +understand my sudden coldness. Yet that night had given me a lightning +glimpse of my nature that frightened me. The girl was winsome beyond +words, and I knew I had but to say it and she would come to me. Yet I +checked myself. I retreated behind a barrier of reserve. "Play the +game," I said; "play the game." + +So as I grew better and stronger she seemed to lose her cheerfulness. +Always she had that anxious, wistful look. Once came a sound from the +kitchen like stifled sobbing, and again in the night I heard her cry. +Then the time came when I was well enough to get up, to go away. + +I dressed, looking like the cadaverous ghost I felt myself to be. She +was there in the kitchen, sitting quietly, waiting. + +"Berna," I called. + +She came, with a smile lighting up her face. + +"I'm going." + +The smile vanished, and left her with that high proud look, yet behind +it was a lurking fear. + +"You're going?" she faltered. + +"Yes," I said roughly, "I'm going." + +She did not speak. + +"Are you ready?" I went on. + +"Ready?" + +"Yes, you're going, too." + +"Where?" + +I took her suddenly in my arms. + +"Why, you dear little angel, to get married, of course. Come on, Berna, +we'll find the nearest parson. We won't lose any more precious time." + +Then a great rush of tears came into her eyes. But still she hung back. +She shook her head. + +"Why, Berna, what's the matter? Won't you come?" + +"I think not." + +"In Heaven's name, what is wrong, dear? Don't you love me?" + +"Yes, I love you. It's because I love you I won't come." + +"Won't you marry me?" + +"No, no, I can't. You know what I said before. I haven't changed any. +I'm still the same--dishonoured girl. You could never give me your +name." + +"You're as pure as the driven snow, little one." + +"No one thinks so but you, and it's that that makes all the difference. +Everybody knows. No, I could never marry you, never take your name, +never bind you to me." + +"Well, what's to be done?" + +"You must go away, or--stay." + +"Stay?" + +"Yes. You've been living alone with me for a month. I picked you up that +night in the dance-hall. I had you brought here. I nursed you. Do you +think people don't give us credit for the worst? We are as innocent as +children, yet do you think I have a shred of reputation left? Already I +am supposed to be your mistress. Everybody knows; nobody cares. There +are so many living that way here. If you told them we were innocent they +would scoff at us. If you go they will say you have discarded me." + +"What shall I do?" + +"Just stay. Oh, why can't we go on as we've been doing? It's been so +like home. Don't leave me, dear. I don't want to bind you. I just want +to be of some use to you, to help you, to be with you always. Love me +for a little, anyway. Then when you're tired of me you can go, but don't +go now." + +I was dazed, but she went on. + +"What does the ceremony matter? We love each other. Isn't that the real +marriage? It's more; it's an ideal. We'll both be free to go if we wish. +There will be no bonds but those of love. Is not that beautiful, two +people cleaving together for love's sake, living for each other, +sacrificing for each other, yet with no man-made law to tell them: 'This +must ye do'? Oh, stay, stay!" + +Her arms were round my neck. The grey eyes were full of pleading. The +sweet lips had the old, pathetic droop. I yielded to the empery of love. + +"Well," I said, "we will go on awhile, on one condition--that by-and-bye +you marry me." + +"Yes, I will, I will; I promise. If you don't tire of me; if you are +sure beyond all doubt you will never regret it, then I will marry you +with the greatest joy in the world." + +So it came about that I stayed. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +In this infernal irony of an existence why do the good things of life +always come when we no longer have the same appetite to enjoy them? The +year following, in which Berna and I kept house, was not altogether a +happy one. Somehow we had both just missed something. We had suffered +too much to recover our poise very easily. We were sick, not in body, +but in mind. The thought of her terrible experience haunted her. She was +as sensitive as the petal of a delicate flower, and often would I see +her lips quiver and a look of pain come into her eyes. Then I knew of +what she was thinking. I knew, and I, too, suffered. + +I tried to make her forget, yet I could not succeed; and even in my most +happy moments there was always a shadow, the shadow of Locasto; there +was always a fear, the fear of his return. Yes, it seemed at times as if +we were two unfortunates, as if our happiness had come too late, as if +our lives were irretrievably shipwrecked. + +Locasto! where was he? For near a year had he been gone, somewhere in +that wild country at the Back of Beyond. Somewhere amid the wilder peaks +and valleys of the Rockies he fought his desperate battle with the Wild. +There had been sinister rumours of two lone prospectors who had perished +up in that savage country, of two bodies that lay rotting and half +buried by a landslide. I had a sudden, wild hope that one of them might +be my enemy; for I hated him and I would have joyed at his death. When I +loved Berna most exquisitely, when I gazed with tender joy upon her +sweetness, when, with glad, thankful eyes, I blessed her for the +sympathy and sunshine of her presence, then between us would come a +shadow, dark, menacing and mordant. So the joy-light would vanish from +my eyes and a great sadness fall upon me. + +What would I do if he returned? I wondered. Perhaps if he left us alone +I might let by-gones be by-gones; but if he ever came near her +again--well, I oiled the chambers of my Colt and heard its joyous click +as it revolved. "That's for him," I said, "that's for him, if by look, +by word, or by act he ever molests her again." And I meant it, too. +Suffering had hardened me, made me dangerous. I would have killed him. + +Then, as the months went past and the suspicion of his fate deepened +almost to a certainty, I began to breathe more freely. I noticed, too, a +world of difference in Berna. She grew light-hearted. She sang and +laughed a good deal. The sunshine came back to her eyes, and the shadow +seldom lingered there. Sometimes the thought that we were not legally +married troubled me, but on all sides were men living with their +Klondike wives, either openly or secretly, and where this domestic +ménage was conducted in quietness there was little comment on it. We +lived to ourselves, and for ourselves. We left our neighbours alone. We +made few friends, and in the ferment of social life we were almost +unnoticed. + +Of course, the Prodigal expostulated with me in severe terms. I did not +attempt to argue with him. He would not have understood my point of +view. There are heights and depths in life to which he with his +practical mind could never attain. Yet he became very fond of Berna, and +often visited us. + +"Why don't you go and get churched decently, if you love her?" he +demanded. + +"So I will," I answered calmly; "give me a little time. Wait till we get +more settled." + +And, indeed, we were up to our necks in business these days. Our Gold +Hill property had turned out well. We had a gang of men employed there, +and I made frequent trips out to Bonanza. We had given the Halfbreed a +small interest, and installed him as manager. The Jam-wagon, too, we had +employed as a sort of assistant foreman. Jim was busy installing his +hydraulic plant on Ophir Creek, and altogether we had enough to think +about. I had set my heart on making a hundred thousand dollars, and as +things were looking it seemed as if two more years would bring me to +that mark. + +"Then," said I to Berna, "we'll go and travel all over the world, and do +it in style." + +"Will we, dear?" she answered tenderly. "But I don't want money much +now, and I don't know that I care so much about travel either. What I +would like would be to go to your home, and settle down and live +quietly. What I want is a nice flower garden, and a pony to drive into +town, and a home to fuss about. I would embroider, and read, and play a +little, and cook things, and--just be with you." + +She was greatly interested in my description of Glengyle. She never +tired of questioning me about it. Particularly was she interested in my +accounts of Garry, and rather scoffed at my enthusiastic description of +him. + +"Oh, that wonderful brother of yours! One would think he was a small +god, to hear you talk. I declare I'm half afraid of him. Do you think he +would like me?" + +"He would love you, little girl; any one would." + +"Don't be foolish," she chided me. And then she drew my head down and +kissed me. + +I think we had the prettiest little cabin in all Dawson. The big logs +were peeled smooth, and the ends squarely cut. The chinks were filled in +with mortar. The whole was painted a deep rich crimson. The roof was +covered with sheet-iron, and it, too, was painted crimson. There was a +deep porch to it. It was the snuggest, neatest little home in the world. + +Windows hung with dainty lace curtains peeped through its clustering +greenery of vines, but the glory of it all was the flower garden. There +was a bewildering variety of flowers, but mostly I remember stocks and +pinks, Iceland poppies, marguerites, asters, marigolds, verbenas, +hollyhocks, pansies and petunias, growing in glorious profusion. Even +the roughest miner would stand and stare at them as he tramped past on +the board sidewalk. + +They were a mosaic of glowing colour, yet the crowning triumph was the +poppies and sweet peas. Set in the centre of the lawn was a circle that +was a leaping glow of poppies. Of every shade were they, from starry +pink to luminous gold, from snowy white to passionate crimson. Like +vari-coloured lamps they swung, and wakened you to wonder and joy with +the exultant challenge of their beauty. And the sweet peas! All up the +south side of the cabin they grew, overtopping the eaves in their +riotous perfection. They rivalled the poppies in the radiant confusion +of their colour, and they were so lavish of blossom we could not pick +them fast enough. I think ours was the pioneer garden of the gold-born +city, and awakened many to the growth-giving magic of the long, long +day. + +And it was the joy and pride of Berna's heart. I would sit on the porch +of a summer's evening when down the mighty Yukon a sunset of vast and +violent beauty flamed and languished, and I would watch her as she +worked among her flowers. I can see her flitting figure in a dress of +dainty white as she hovered over a beautiful blossom. I can hear her +calling me, her voice like the music of a flute, calling me to come and +see some triumph of her skill. I have a picture of her coming towards me +with her arms full of flowers, burying her face lovingly among the +velvet petals, and raising it again, the sweetest flower of all. How +radiantly outshone her eyes, and her face, delicate as a cameo, seemed +to have stolen the fairest tints of the lily and the rose. + +Starry vines screened the porch, and everywhere were swinging baskets of +silver birch, brimming over with the delicate green of smilax or clouded +in an amethystine mist of lobelias. I can still see the little +sitting-room with its piano, its plenitude of cushions, its book-rack, +its Indian corner, its tasteful paper, its pictures, and always and +everywhere flowers, flowers. The air was heavy with the fragrance of +them. They glorified the crudest corner, and made our home like a nook +in fairyland. + +I remember one night as I sat reading she came to me. Never did I see +her look so happy. She was almost childlike in her joy. She sat down by +my chair and looked up at me. Then she put her arms around me. + +"Oh, I'm so happy," she said with a sigh. + +"Are you, dearest?" I caressed the soft floss of her hair. + +"Yes, I just wish we could live like this forever;" and she nestled up +to me ever so fondly. + +Aye, she was happy, and I will always bless the memory of those days, +and thank God I was the means of bringing a little gladness into her +marred life. She was happy, and yet we were living in what society would +call sin. Conventionally we were not man and wife, yet never were man +and wife more devoted, more self-respecting. Never were man and wife +endowed with purer ideals, with a more exalted conception of the +sanctity of love. Yet there were many in the town not half so delicate, +so refined, so spiritual, who would have passed my little lady like a +pariah. But what cared we? + +And perhaps it was the very greatness of my love for her that sometimes +made me fear; so that often in the ecstasy of a moment I would catch my +breath and wonder if it all could last. And when the poplars turned to +gold, and up the valley stole a shuddering breath of desolation, my fear +grew apace. The sky was all resplendent with the winter stars, and keen +and hard their facets sparkled. And I knew that somewhere underneath +those stars there slept Locasto. But was it the sleep of the living or +of the dead? Would he return? + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +Two men were crawling over the winter-locked plain. In the aching circle +of its immensity they were like little black ants. One, the leader, was +of great bulk and of a vast strength; while the other was small and +wiry, of the breed that clings like a louse to life while better men +perish. + +On all sides of the frozen lake over which they were travelling were +hills covered with harsh pine, that pricked funereally up to the +boulder-broken snows. Above that was a stormy and fantastic sea of +mountains baring many a fierce peak-fang to the hollow heavens. The sky +was a waxen grey, cold as a corpse-light. The snow was an immaculate +shroud, unmarked by track of bird or beast. Death-sealed the land lay in +its silent vastitude, in its despairful desolation. + +The small man was breaking trail. Down almost to his knees in the soft +snow, he sank at every step; yet ever he dragged a foot painfully +upward, and made another forward plunge. The snowshoe thong, jagged with +ice, chafed him cruelly. The muscles of his legs ached as insistently as +if clamped in a vice. He lurched forward with fatigue, so that he seemed +to be ever stumbling, yet recovering himself. + +"Come on there, you darned little shrimp; get a move on you," growled +the big man from within the frost-fringed hood of his parka. + +The little man started as if galvanised into sudden life. His breath +steamed and almost hissed as it struck the icy air. At each raw intake +of it his chest heaved. He beat his mittened hands on his breast to keep +them from freezing. Under the hood of his parka great icicles had +formed, hanging to the hairs of his beard, walrus-like, and his eyes, +thickly wadded with frost, glared out with the furtive fear of a hunted +beast. + +"Curse him, curse him," he whimpered; but once more he lifted those +leaden snowshoes and staggered on. + +The big man lashed fiercely at the dogs, and as they screamed at his +blows he laughed cruelly. They were straining forward in the harness, +their bellies almost level with the ground, their muscles standing out +like whalebone. Great, gaunt brutes they were, with ribs like +barrel-staves, and hip-bones sharp as stakes. Their woolly coats were +white with frost, their sly, slit-eyed faces ice-sheathed, their feet +torn so that they left a bloody track on the snow at every step. + +"Mush on there, you curs, or I'll cut you in two," stormed the big man, +and once again the heavy whip fell on the yelling pack. They were +pulling for all they were worth, their heads down, their shoulders +squared. Their breath came pantingly, their tongues gleamed redly, their +white teeth shone. They were fighting, fighting for life, fighting to +placate a cruel master in a world where all was cruelty and oppression. + +For there in the Winter Wild pity was not even a name. It was the +struggle for life, desperate and never-ending. The Wild abhorred life, +abhorred most of all these atoms of heat and hurry in the midst of her +triumphant stillness. The Wild would crush those defiant pigmies that +disputed the majesty of her invincible calm. + +A dog was hanging back in the harness. It whined; then as the husky +following snapped at it savagely, it gave a lurch and fell. The big man +shot forward with a sudden fury in his eyes. Swinging the heavy-thonged +whip, again and again he brought it down on the writhing brute. Then he +twisted the thong around his hand and belaboured its hollow ribs with +the butt. It screamed for a while, but soon it ceased to scream; it only +moaned a little. With glistening fangs and ears up-pricked the other +dogs looked at their fallen comrade. They longed to leap on it, to rend +its gaunt limbs apart, to tear its quivering flesh; but there was the +big man with his murderous whip, and they cowered before him. + +The big man kicked the fallen dog repeatedly. The little man paused in +his painful progress to look on apathetically. + +"You'll stave in its ribs," he remarked presently; "and then we'll never +make timber by nightfall." + +The big man had failed in his efforts to rouse the dog. There in that +lancinating cold, in an ecstasy of rage, despairfully he poised over it. + +"Who told you to put in your lip?" he snarled. "Who's running this +show, you or I? I'll stave in its ribs if I choose, and I'll hitch you +to the sled and make you pull your guts out, too." + +The little man said no more. Then, the dog still refusing to rise, the +big man leapt over the harness and came down on the animal with both +feet. There was a scream of pitiful agony, and the snap of breaking +bones. But the big man slipped and fell. Down he came, and like a flash +the whole pack piled onto him. + +For a moment there was a confused muddle of dogs and master. This was +the time for which they had waited, these savage semi-wolves. This man +had beaten them, had starved them, had been a devil to them, and now he +was down and at their mercy. Ferociously they sprang on him, and their +white fangs snapped like traps in his face. They fought to get at his +throat. They tore at his parka. Oh, if they could only make their teeth +meet in his warm flesh! But no; they were all tangled up in the harness, +and the man was fighting like a giant. He had the leader by the throat +and was using her as a shield against the others. His right hand swung +the whip with flail-like blows. Foiled and confused the dogs fell to +fighting among themselves, and triumphantly the man leapt to his feet. + +He was like a fiend now. Fiercely he raged among the snarling pack, +kicking, clubbing, cursing, till one and all he had them beaten into +cowering subjection. + +He was still panting from his struggle. His face was deathly pale, and +his eyes were glittering. He strode up to the little man, who had +watched the performance stolidly. + +"Why didn't you help me, you dirty little whelp?" he hissed. "You wanted +to see them chew me up; you know you did. You'd like to have them rip me +to ribbons. You wouldn't move a finger to save me. Oh, I know, I know. +I've had enough of you this trip to last me a lifetime. You've bucked me +right along. Now, blast your dirty little soul, I hate you, and for the +rest of the way I'm going to make your life hell. See! Now I'll begin." + +The little man was afraid. He seemed to grow smaller, while over him +towered the other, dark, fierce and malignant. The little man was +desperate. Defensively he crouched, yet the next instant he was +overthrown. Then, as he lay sprawling in the snow, the big man fell to +lashing him with the whip. Time after time he struck, till the screams +of his victim became one long, drawn-out wail of agony. Then he +desisted. Jerking the other on his feet once more, he bade him go on +breaking trail. + +Again they struggled on. The light was beginning to fail, and there was +no thought in their minds but to reach that dark belt of timber before +darkness came. There was no sound but the crunch of their snowshoes, the +panting of the dogs, the rasping of the sleigh. When they paused the +silence seemed to fall on them like a blanket. There was something awful +in the quality of this deathly silence. It was as if something material, +something tangible, hovered over them, closed in on them, choked them, +throttled them. It was almost like a Presence. + +Weary and worn were men and dogs as they struggled onwards in the +growing gloom, but because of the feeling in his heart the little man no +longer was conscious of bodily pain. It was black murder that raged +there. + +With straining sinews and bones that cracked, the dogs bent to a heavy +pull, while at the least sign of shirking down swished the relentless +whip. And the big man, as if proud of his strength, gazed insolently +round on the Wild. He was at home in this land, this stark wolf-land, so +callous, so cruel. Was he not cruel, too? Surely this land cowered +before him. Its hardships could not daunt him, nor its terrors dismay. +As he urged on his bloody-footed dogs, he exulted greatly. Of all Men of +the High North was he not king? + +At last they reached the forest fringe, and after a few harsh directions +he had the little man making camp. The little man worked with a strange +willingness. All his taciturnity had gone. As he gathered the firewood +and filled the Yukon stove, he hummed a merry air. He had the water +boiling and soon there was the fragrance of tea in the little tent. He +produced sourdough bread (which he fried in bacon fat), and some dried +moose-meat. + +To men of the trail this was a treat. They ate ravenously, but they did +not speak. Yet the little man was oddly cheerful. Time and again the big +man looked at him suspiciously. Outside it was a steely night, with an +icicle of a moon. The cold leapt on one savagely. To step from the tent +was like plunging into icy water, yet within those canvas walls the men +were warm and snug. The stove crackled its cheer. A grease-light +sputtered, and by its rays the little man was mending his ice-stiffened +moccasins. He hummed an Irish air, and he seemed to be tickled with some +thought he had. + +"Stop that tune," growled the other. "If you don't know anything else, +cut it out. I'm sick of it." + +The little man shut up meekly. Again there was silence, broken by a +whining and a scratching outside. It was the five dogs crying for their +supper, crying for the frozen fish they had earned so well. They +wondered why it was not forthcoming. When they received it they would +lie on it, to warm it with the heat of their bodies, and then gnaw off +the thawed portions. They were very wise, these dogs. But to-night there +was no fish, and they whined for it. + +"Dog feed all gone?" + +"Yep," said the small man. + +"Hell! I'll silence these brutes anyway." + +He went to the door and laid onto them so that they slunk away into the +shadows. But they did not bury themselves in the snow and sleep. They +continued to prowl round the tent, hunger-mad and desperate. + +"We've only got enough grub left for ourselves now," said the big man; +"and none too much at that. I guess I'll put you on half-rations." + +He laughed as if it was the hugest joke. Then rolling himself in a +robe, he lay down and slept. + +The little man did not sleep. He was still turning over the thought that +had come to him. Outside in the atrocious cold the whining malamutes +crept nearer and nearer. Savage were they, Indian raised and sired by a +wolf. And now, in the agonies of hunger, they cried for fish, and there +was none for them, only kicks and curses. Oh, it was a world of ghastly +cruelty! They howled their woes to the weary moon. + +"Short rations, indeed," mumbled the little man. He crawled into his +sleeping bag, but he did not close his eyes. He was watching. + +About dawn he rose. An evil dawn it was, sallow, sinister and askew. + +The little man selected the heavy-handled whip for the job. Carefully he +felt its butt, then he struck. It was a shrewd blow and a neatly +delivered, for the little man had been in the business before. It fell +on the big man's head, and he crumpled up. Then the little man took some +rawhide thongs and trussed up his victim. There lay the big man, bound +and helpless, with a clotted blood-hole in his black hair. + +Then the little man gathered up the rest of the provisions. He looked +around carefully, as if fearful of leaving anything behind. He made a +pack of the food and lashed it on his back. Now he was ready to start. +He knew that within fifty miles, travelling to the south, he would +strike a settlement. He was safe. + +He turned to where lay the unconscious body of his partner. Again and +again he kicked it; he cursed it; he spat on it. Then, after a final +look of gloating hate, he went off and left the big man to his fate. + +At last, at long last, the Worm had turned. + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +The dogs! The dogs were closing in. Nearer and nearer they drew, headed +by a fierce Mackenzie River bitch. They wondered why their master did +not wake; they wondered why the little tent was so still; why no plume +of smoke rose from the slim stovepipe. All was oddly quiet and lifeless. +No curses greeted them; no whiplash cut into them; no strong arm jerked +them over the harness. Perhaps it was a primordial instinct that drew +them on, that made them strangely bold. Perhaps it was only the despair +of their hunger, the ache of empty bellies. Closer and closer they crept +to the silent tent. + +Locasto opened his eyes. Within a foot of his face were the fangs of a +malamute. At his slight movement it drew back with a snarl, and +retreated to the door. Locasto could see the other dogs crouching and +eyeing him fixedly. What could be the matter? What had gotten into the +brutes? Where was the Worm? Where were the provisions? Why was the tent +flap open and the stove stone-cold? Then with a dawning comprehension +that he had been deserted, Locasto uttered a curse and tried to rise. + +At first he thought he was stiff with cold, but a downward glance showed +him his condition. He was helpless. He grew sick at the pit of his +stomach, and glared at the dogs. They were drawing in on him. They +seemed to bulk suddenly, to grow huge and menacing. Their gleaming teeth +snapped in his face. He could fancy these teeth stripping the flesh from +his body, gnawing at his bones with drooling jaws. Violently he +shuddered. He must try to free himself, so that at least he could fight. + +Grimly the Worm had done his work, but he had hardly reckoned on the +strength of this man. With a vast throe of fear Locasto tried to free +himself. Tenser, tenser grew the thongs; they strained, they bit into +his flesh, but they would not break. Yet as he relaxed it seemed to him +they were less tight. Then he rested for another effort. + +Once again the gaunt, grey bitch was crawling up. He remembered how +often he had starved it, clubbed it until it could barely stand. Now it +was going to get even. It would snap at his throat, rip out his +windpipe, bury its fangs in his bleeding flesh. He cursed it in the old +way. With a spring it backed out again and stood with the others. He +made another giant effort. Once again he felt the thongs strain and +strain; then, when he ceased, he imagined they were still looser. + +The dogs seemed to have lost all fear. They stood in a circle within a +few feet of him, regarding him intently. They smelled the blood on his +head, and a slaver ran from their jaws. Again he cursed them, but this +time they did not move. They seemed to realise he could not harm them. +With their evilly-slanted eyes they watched his struggles. Strange, +wise, uncanny brutes, they were biding their time, waiting to rush in on +him, to rend him. + +Again he tried to get free. Now he fancied he could move his arm a +little. He must hurry, for every instant the malamutes were growing +bolder. Another strain and a wrench. Ha! he was able to squeeze his +right arm from under the rawhide. + +He felt the foul breath of the dogs on his face, and quickly he struck +at them. They jumped back, then, as if at a signal, they sprang in +again. There was no time to lose. They were attacking him in earnest. +Quickly he wrenched out his other arm. He was just in time, for the dogs +were upon him. + +He struggled to his knees and shielded his head with his arms. Wildly he +swung at the nearest dog. Full on the face he struck it, and it shot +back as if hit by a bullet. But the others were on him. They had him +down, snarling and ripping, a mad ferment of fury. Two of them were +making for his face. As he lay on his back he gripped each by the +throat. His hands were torn and bleeding, but he had them fast. In his +grip of steel they struggled to free themselves in vain. They backed, +they writhed, they twisted in a bow. With his huge hands he was choking +them, choking them to death, using them as a shield against the other +three. Then slowly he worked himself into a sitting position. He hurled +one of the dogs to the tent door. He swung bludgeon blows at the others. +They fled yelping and howling. He still held the Mackenzie River bitch. +Getting his knee on her body, he bent her almost into a circle, bent +her till her back broke with a snap. + +Then he rose and freed himself from the remaining thongs. He was torn +and cut and bleeding, but he had triumphed. + +"Oh, the devil!" he growled, grinding his teeth. "He would have me +chewed to rags by malamutes." + +He stared around. + +"He's taken everything, the scum! left me to starve. Ha! one thing he's +forgotten--the matches. At least I can keep warm." + +He picked up the canister of matches and relit the stove. + +"I'll kill him for this," he muttered. "Night and day I'll follow him. +I'll camp on his trail till I find him. Then--I'll torture him; I'll +strip him and leave him naked in the snow." + +He slipped into his snowshoes, gave a last look around to see that no +food had been left, and with a final growl of fury he started in +pursuit. + + * * * * * + +Ahead of him, ploughing their way through the virgin snow, he could see +the dragging track of the long snowshoes. He examined it, and noted that +it was sharp and crisp at the edges. + +"He's got a good five hours' start of me! Travelling fast, too, by the +length of the track." + +He had a thought of capturing the dogs and hitching them up; but, +thoroughly terrified, they had retreated into the woods. To overtake +this man, to glut his lust for revenge, he must depend on his own +strength and endurance. + +"Now, Jack Locasto," he told himself grimly, "you've got a fight on your +hands, such a fight as you never had before. Get right down to it." + +So, with head bowed and shoulders sloping forward, he darted on the +track of the Worm. + +"He's got to break trail, the viper! and that's where I score. I can +make twice the time. Oh, just wait, you little devil! just wait!" + +He ground his teeth vindictively, and put an inch more onto his stride. +He was descending a long, open valley that seemed from its trackless +snows to have been immemorially life-shunned and accursed. Black, +witch-like pines sentinelled its flanks, and accentuated its desolation. +And over all there was the silence of the Wild, that double-strong +solution of silence from which all other silences are distilled, and +spread out. Yet, as he gazed around him in this everlasting solitude, +there was no fear in his heart. + +"I can fight this accursed land and beat it out every time," he exulted. +"It can't get any the better of me." + +It was cold, so cold that it was difficult to imagine it could ever be +warm again. To expose flesh was to feel instantly the sharp sting that +heralds frostbite. As he ran, the sharp intake of icy air made his lungs +seem to contract. His eyes smarted and tingled. The lashes froze +closely. Ice formed in his nostrils and his nose began to bleed. He +pulled up a moment. + +"Curse this infernal country!" + +He had not eaten and the icy air begot a ravenous hunger. He dreamed of +food, but chiefly of bacon, fat, greasy bacon. How glorious it would be +just to eat of it, raw, tallow bacon! He had nothing to eat. He would +have nothing till he had overtaken the Worm. On! On! + +He came to where the Worm had made a camp. There were the ashes of a +fire. + +"Curse him; he's got some matches after all," he said with bitter +chagrin. Eagerly he searched all around in the snow to see if he could +not find even a crumb of food. There was nothing. He pushed on. Night +fell and he was forced to make camp. + +Oh, he was hungry! The night was vastly resplendent, a spendthrift night +scattering everywhere its largess of stars. The cold had a crystalline +quality and the trees detonated strangely in the silence. He built a +huge fire: that at least he could have, and through eighteen hours of +darkness he crouched by it, afraid to sleep for fear of freezing. + +"If I only had a tin to boil water in," he muttered; "there's lots of +reindeer moss, and I could stew some of my mucklucks. Ah! I'll try and +roast a bit of them." + +He cut a strip from the Indian boots he was wearing, and held it over +the fire. The hair singed away and the corners crisped and charred. He +put it in his mouth. It was pleasantly warm, but even his strong teeth +refused to meet in it. However, he tore it into smaller pieces, and +bolted them. + +At last the dawn came, that evil, sneaking, corpse-like dawn, and +Locasto flung himself once more on the trail. He was not feeling so fit +now. Hunger and loss of blood had weakened him so that his stride +insensibly shortened, and his step had lost its spring. However, he +plodded on doggedly, an incarnation of vengeance and hate. Again he +examined the snowshoe trail ever stretching in front, and noticed how +crisped and hard was its edge. He was not making the time he had +reckoned on. The Worm must be a long way ahead. + +Still he did not despair. The little man might rest a day, or oversleep, +or strain a sinew, then-- Locasto pictured with gloating joy the +terror of the Worm as he awoke to find himself overtaken. Oh, the snake! +the vermin! On! On! + +Beyond a doubt he was growing weaker. Once or twice he stumbled, and the +last time he lay a few moments before rising. He wanted to rest badly. +The cold was keener than ever; it was merciless; it was excruciating. He +no longer had the vitality to withstand it. It stabbed and stung him +whenever he exposed bare flesh. He pulled the parka hood very close, so +that only his eyes peered out. So he moved through the desolation of the +Arctic Wild, a dark, muffled figure, a demon of vengeance, fierce and +menacing. + +He stood on a vast, still plateau. The sky was like a great grotto of +ice. The land lay in a wan apathy of suffering, dumb, hopeless, drear. +Icy land and icy sky met in a trap, a trap that held him fast; and over +all, vast, titanic, terrible, the Spirit of the Wild seemed to brood. It +laughed at him, a laugh of derision, of mockery, of callous gloating +triumph. Locasto shuddered. Then night came and he built another giant +fire. + +Again he bolted down some roasted muckluck. Overhead the stars glittered +vindictively. They were green and blue and red, and they had spiny rays +like starfish on which they danced. This night he had to make tremendous +efforts to keep from sleeping. Several times he drowsed forward, and +almost fell into the fire. As he crouched there his beard was singeing +and his face scorched, but his back seemed as if it was cased in ice. +Often he would turn and warm it at the fire, but not for long. He hated +to face the terror of the silence and the dark, the shadow where waited +Death. Better the crackling cheer of the spruce flame. + +At dawn the sky was leaden and the cold less despotic. Stretching +interminably ahead was that lonely snowshoe trail. Locasto was puzzled. + +"Where in creation is the little devil going to, anyway?" he said, +knitting his brows. "I figured he'd make direct for Dawson, but he's +either changed his mind or got a wrong steer. By Heavens, that's it--the +little varmint's lost his way." + +Locasto had an Indian's unerring sense of location. + +"I guess I can't afford to follow him any more," he reflected. "I've +gone too far already. I'm all petered out. I'll have to let him go in +the meantime. It's save yourself, Jack Locasto, while there's yet time. +Me for Dawson." + +He struck off almost at right angles to the trail he had been following, +over a low range of hills. It was evil going, and as he broke through +the snow-crust mile after wearing mile, he felt himself grow weaker and +weaker. "Buck up, old man," he adjured himself fiercely. "You've got to +fight, fight." + +There was a strange stillness in the air, not the natural stillness of +the Wild, but an unhealthy one, as of a suspension of something, of a +vacuum, of bated breath. It was curiously full of terror. More and more +he felt like a trapped animal, caught in a vast cage. The sky to the +north was glooming ominously. Every second the horizon grew blacker, +more bodeful, and Locasto stared at it, with a sudden quake at his +heart. + +"Blizzard, by thunder!" he gasped. + +Was that a breath of wind that stung his cheek? Was it a snowflake that +drifted along with it? Denser and denser grew the gloom, and now there +was a roaring as of a great wind. King Blizzard was come. + +"I guess I'm done for," he hissed through clenched teeth. "But I'll +fight to the finish. I'll die game." + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + +It was on him now with a swoop and a roar. He was in the thick of a +mud-grey darkness, a bitter, blank darkness full of whirling wind-eddies +and vast flurries of snow. He could not see more than a few feet before +him. The stinging flakes blinded him; the coal-black night engulfed him. +In that seething turmoil of the elements he was as helpless as a child. + +"I guess you're on your last trail, Jack Locasto," he muttered grimly. + +Nevertheless he lowered his head and butted desperately into the heart +of the storm. He was very faint from lack of food, but despair had given +him a new strength, and he plunged through drift and flurry with the +fury of a goaded bull. + +The night had fallen black as the pit. He was in an immensity of +darkness, a darkness that packed close up to him, and hugged him, and +enfolded him like a blanket. And in the black void winds were raging +with an insane fury, whirling aloft mountains of snow and hurling them +along plain and valley. The forests shrieked in fear; the creatures of +the Wild cowered in their lairs, but the solitary man stumbled on and +on. As if by magic barriers of snow piled up before him, and almost to +his shoulders he floundered through them. The wind had a hatchet edge +that pierced his clothes and hacked him viciously. He knew his only +plan was to keep moving, to stumble, stagger on. It was a fight for +life. + +He had forgotten his hunger. Those wild visions of gluttony had gone +from him. He had forgotten his thirst for revenge, forgotten everything +but his own dire peril. + +"Keep moving, keep moving for God's sake," he urged himself hoarsely. +"You'll freeze if you let up a moment. Don't let up, don't!" + +But oh, how hard it was not to rest! Every muscle in his body seemed to +beg and pray for rest, yet the spirit in him drove them to work anew. He +was making a certain mad headway, travelling, always travelling. He +doubted not he was doomed, but instinct made him fight on as long as an +atom of strength remained. + +He floundered to his armpits in a snowdrift. He struggled out and +staggered on once more. In the mad buffoonery of that cutting wind he +scarce could stand upright. His parka was frozen stiff as a board. He +could feel his hands grow numb in his mits. From his fingers the icy +cold crept up and up. Long since he had lost all sensation in his feet. +From the ankles down they were like wooden clogs. He had an idea they +were frozen. He lifted them, and watched them sink and disappear in the +clinging snow. He beat his numb hands against his breast. It was of no +use--he could not get back the feeling in them. A craving to lie down in +the snow assailed him. + +Life was so sweet. He had visions of cities, of banquets, of theatres, +of glittering triumphs, of glorious excitements, of women he had loved, +conquered and thrown aside. Never again would he see that world. He +would die here, and they would find him rigid and brittle, frozen so +hard they would have to thaw him out before they buried him. He fancied +he saw himself frozen in a grotesque position. There would be +ice-crystals in the very centre of his heart, that heart that had glowed +so fiercely with the lust of life. Yes, life was sweet. A vast self-pity +surged over him. Well, he had done his best; he could struggle no more. + +But struggle he did, another hour, two hours, three hours. Where was he +going? Maybe round in a circle. He was like an automaton now. He did not +think any more, he just kept moving. His feet clumped up and down. He +lifted himself out of snowpits; he staggered a few steps, fell, crawled +on all fours in the darkness, then in a lull of the furious wind rose +once more to his feet. The night was abysmal; closer and closer it +hugged him. The wind was charging him from all points, baffling him like +a merry monster, beating him down. The snow whirled around him in a +narrow eddy, and he tried to grope out of it and failed. Oh, he was +tired, tired! + +He must give up. It was too bad. He was so strong, and capable of so +much for good or bad. Alas! it had been all for bad. Oh, if he had but +another chance he might make his life tell a different tale! Well, he +wasn't going to whine or cower. He would die game. + +His feet were frozen; his arms were frozen. Here he would lie down +and--quit. It would soon be over, and it was a pleasant death, they +said. One more look he gave through the writhing horror of the darkness; +one more look before he closed his eyes to the horror of the Greater +Darkness.... + +Ha! what was that? He fancied he saw a dim glow just ahead. It could not +be. It was one of those cheating dreams that came to a dying man, an +illusion, a mockery. He closed his eyes. Then he opened them again--the +glow was still there. + +Surely it must be real! It was steady. As he fell forward it seemed to +grow more bright. On hands and knees he crawled to it. Brighter and +brighter it grew. It was but a few feet away. Oh, God! could it be? + +Then there was a lull in the storm, and with a final plunge Locasto fell +forward, fell towards a lamp lighted in a window, fell against the +closed door of a little cabin. + + * * * * * + +The Worm suffered acutely from the intense cold. He cursed it in his +prolific and exhaustive way. He cursed the leaden weight of his +snowshoes, and the thongs that chafed his feet. He cursed the pack he +carried on his back, which momently grew heavier. He cursed the country; +then, after a general debauch of obscenity, he decided it was time to +feed. + +He gathered some dry twigs and built a fire on the snow. He hurried, for +the freezing process was going on in his carcase, and he was afraid. It +was all ready. Now to light it--the matches. + +Where in hell were the matches? Surely he could not have left them at +the camp. With feverish haste he overturned his pack. No, they were not +there. Could he have dropped them on the trail? He had a wild idea of +going back. Then he thought of Locasto lying in the tent. He could never +face that. But he must have a fire. He was freezing to death--right now. +Already his fingers were tingling and stiffening. + +Huh! maybe he had some matches in his pockets. No--yes, he had--one, +two, three, four, five, that was all. Five slim sulphur matches, part of +a block, and jammed in a corner of his waistcoat pocket. Eagerly he lit +one. The twigs caught. The flame leapt up. Oh it was good! He had a +fire, a fire. + +He made tea, and ate some bread and meat. Then he felt his strength and +courage return. He had four matches left. Four matches meant four fires. +That would mean four more days' travel. By that time he would have +reached the Dawson country. + +That night he made a huge blaze, chopping down several trees and setting +them alight. There, lying in his sleeping-bag, he rested well. In the +early dawn he was afoot once more. + +Was there ever such an atrocious soul-freezing cold! He cursed it with +every breath he drew. At noon he felt a vast temptation to make another +fire, but he refrained. Then that night he had bad luck, for one of his +precious matches proved little more than a sliver tipped with the shadow +of pink. In spite of his efforts it was abortive, and he was compelled +to use another. He was down to his last match. + +Well, he must travel extra hard. So next day in a panic of fear he +covered a vast stretch of country. He must be getting near to one of the +gold creeks. As he surmounted the crest of every ridge he expected to +see the blue smoke of cabin fires, yet always was there the same empty +desolation. Then night came and he prepared to camp. + +Once more he chopped down some trees and piled them in a heap. He was +very hungry, very cold, very tired. What a glorious blaze he would soon +have! How gallantly the flames would leap and soar! He collected some +dry moss and twigs. Never had he felt the cold so bitter. It was growing +dusk. Above him the sky had a corpse-like glimmer, and on the snow +strange bale-fires glinted. It was a weird, sardonic light that waited, +keeping tryst with darkness. + +He shuddered and his fingers trembled. Then ever so carefully he drew +forth that most precious of things, the last match. + +He must hurry; his fingers were tingling, freezing, stiffening fast. He +would lie down on the snow, and strike it quickly.... "O God!" + +From his numb fingers the slim little match had dropped. There it lay on +the snow. Gingerly he picked it up, with a wild hope that it would be +all right. He struck it, but it doubled up. Again he struck it: the head +came off--he was lost. + +He fell forward on his face. His hands were numb, dead. He lay supported +by his elbows, his eyes gazing blankly at the unlit fire. Five minutes +passed; he did not rise. He seemed dazed, stupid, terror-stricken. Five +more minutes passed. He did not move. He seemed to stiffen, to grow +rigid, and the darkness gathered around him. + +A thought came to his mind that he would straighten out, so that when +they found him he would be in good shape to fit in a coffin. He did not +want them to break his legs and arms. Yes, he would straighten out. He +tried--but he could not, so he let it go at that. + +Over him the Wild seemed to laugh, a laugh of scorn, of mockery, of +exquisite malice. + +And there in fifteen minutes the cold slew him. When they found him he +lay resting on his elbows and gazing with blank eyes of horror at his +unlit fire. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + + +"It's a beast of a night," said the Halfbreed. + +He and I were paying a visit to Jim in the cabin he had built on Ophir. +Jim was busy making ready for his hydraulic work of the coming Spring, +and once in a while we took a run up to see him. I was much worried +about the old man. He was no longer the cheerful, optimistic Jim of the +trail. He had taken to living alone. He had become grim and taciturn. He +cared only for his work, and, while he read his Bible more than ever, it +was with a growing fondness for the stern old prophets. There was no +doubt the North was affecting him strangely. + +"Lord! don't it blow? Seems as if the wind had a spite against us, +wanted to put us out of business. It minds me of the blizzards we have +in the Northwest, only it seems ten times worse." + +The Halfbreed went on to tell us of snowstorms he had known, while +huddled round the stove we listened to the monstrous uproar of the gale. + +"Why don't you chink your cabin better, Jim?" I asked; "the snow's +sifting through in spots." + +He shoved more wood into the stove, till it glowed to a dull red, +starred with little sparks that came and went. + +"Snow with that wind would sift through a concrete wall," he said. "It's +part an' parcel of the awful land. I tell you there's a curse on this +country. Long, long ago godless people have lived in it, lived an' +sinned an' perished. An' for its wickedness in the past the Lord has put +His everlasting curse on it." + +Sharply I looked at him. His eyes were staring. His face was drawn into +a knot of despair. He sat down and fell into a mood of gloomy silence. + +How the storm was howling! The Half breed smoked his cigarette stolidly, +while I listened and shuddered, mightily thankful that I was so safe and +warm. + +"Say, I wonder if there's any one out in this bedlam of a night?" + +"If there is, God help him," said the Halfbreed. "He'll last about as +long as a snowball in hell." + +"Yes, fancy wandering round out there, dazed and desperate; fancy the +wind knocking you down and heaping the snow on you; fancy going on and +on in the darkness till you freeze stiff. Ugh!" + +Again I shuddered. Then, as the other two sat in silence, my mind +strayed to other things. Chiefly I thought of Berna, all alone in +Dawson. I longed to be back with her again. I thought of Locasto. Where +in his wild wanderings had he got to? I thought of Glengyle and Garry. +How had he fared after Mother died? Why did he not marry? Once a week I +got a letter from him, full of affection and always urging me to come +home. In my letters I had never mentioned Berna. There was time enough +for that. + +Lord! a terrific gust of wind shook the cabin. It howled and screamed +insanely through the heaving night. Then there came a lull, a strange, +deep lull, deathlike after the mighty blast. And in the sudden quiet it +seemed to me I heard a hollow cry. + +"Hist! What was that?" whispered the Halfbreed. + +Jim, too, was listening intently. + +"Seems to me I heard a moan." + +"Sounded like the cry of an outcast soul. Maybe it's the spirit of some +poor devil that's lost away out in the night. I hate to open the door +for nothing. It will make the place like an ice-house." + +Once more we listened intently, holding our breath. There it was again, +a low, faint moan. + +"It's some one outside," gasped the Halfbreed. Horror-stricken, we +stared at each other, then he rushed to the door. A great gust of wind +came in on us. + +"Hurry up, you fellows," he cried; "lend a hand. I think it's a man." + +Frantically we pulled it in, an unconscious form that struck a strange +chill to our hearts. Anxiously we bent over it. + +"He's not dead," said the Halfbreed, "only badly frozen, hands and feet +and face. Don't take him near the fire." + +He had been peering inside the parka hood and suddenly he turned to me. + +"Well, I'm darned--it's Locasto." + +Locasto! I shrank back and stood there staring blankly. Locasto! all +the old hate resurged into my heart. Many a time had I wished him dead; +and even dying, never could I have forgiven him. As I would have shrank +from a reptile, I drew back. + +"No, no," I said hoarsely, "I won't touch him. Curse him! Curse him! He +can die." + +"Come on there," said Jim fiercely. "You wouldn't let a man die, would +you? There's the brand of a dog on you if you do. You'll be little +better than a murderer. It don't matter what wrong he's done you, it's +your duty as a man to help him. He's only a human soul, an' he's like to +die anyway. Come on. Get these mits off his hands." + +Mechanically I obeyed him. I was dazed. It was as if I was impelled by a +stronger will than my own. I began pulling off the mits. The man's hands +were white as putty. I slit the sleeves and saw that the awful whiteness +went clear up the arm. It was horrible. + +Jim and the Halfbreed had cut open his mucklucks and taken off his +socks, and there stretched out were two naked limbs, clay-white almost +to the knees. Never did I see anything so ghastly. Tearing off his +clothing we laid him on the bed, and forced some brandy between his +lips. + +At last heat was beginning to come back to the frozen frame. He moaned, +and opened his eyes in a wild gaze. He did not know us. He was still +fighting the blizzard. He raised himself up. + +"Keep a-going, keep a-going," he panted. + +"Keep that bucket a-going," said the Halfbreed. "Thank God, we've got +plenty of ice-water. We've got to thaw him out." + +Then for this man began a night of agony, such as few have endured. We +lifted him onto a chair and put one of those clay-cold feet into the +water. At the contact he screamed, and I could see ice crystallise on +the edge of the bucket. I had forgotten my hatred of the man. I only +thought of those frozen hands and feet, and how to get life into them +once more. Our struggle began. + +"The blood's beginning to circulate back," said the Halfbreed. "I guess +that water feels scalding hot to him right now. We'll have to hold him +down presently. Ugh--hold on, boys, for all you're worth." + +He had not warned us any too soon. In a terrible spasm of agony Locasto +threw us off quickly. We grasped him again. Now we were struggling with +him. He fought like a demon. He was cursing us, praying us to leave him +alone, raving, shrieking. Grimly we held on, yet, all three, it was as +much as we could do to keep him down. + +"One would think we were murdering him," said the Halfbreed. "Keep his +foot in the bucket there. I wish we'd some kind of dope to give him. +There's boiling lead running through his veins right now. Keep him down, +boys; keep him down." + +It was hard, but keep him down we did; though his cries of anguish +deafened us through that awful night, and our muscles knotted as we +gripped. Hour after hour we held him, plunging now a hand, now a foot +in the ice-water, and holding it there. How long he fought! How strong +he was! But the time came when he could fight no more. He was like a +child in our hands. + +There, at last it was done. We wrapped the tender flesh in pieces of +blanket. We laid him moaning on the bed. Then, tired out with our long +struggle, we threw ourselves down and slept like logs. + +Next morning he was still unconscious. He suffered intense pain, so that +Jim or the Halfbreed had to be ever by him. I, for my part, refused to +go near. Indeed, I watched with a growing hatred his slow recovery. I +was sorry, sorry. I wished he had died. + +At last he opened his eyes, and feebly he asked where he was. After the +Halfbreed had told him, he lay silent awhile. + +"I've had a close call," he groaned. Then he went on triumphantly: "I +guess the Wild hasn't got the bulge on me yet. I can give it another +round." + +He began to pick up rapidly, and there in that narrow cabin I sat within +a few feet of him, and beheld him grow strong again. I suppose my face +must have showed my bitter hate, for often I saw him watching me through +half-closed eyes, as if he realised my feelings. Then a sneering smile +would curve his lips, a smile of satanic mockery. Again and again I +thought of Berna. Fear and loathing convulsed me, and at times a great +rage burned in me so that I was like to kill him. + +"Seems to me everything's healing up but that hand," said the +Halfbreed. "I guess it's too far gone. Gangrene's setting in. Say, +Locasto, looks like you'll have to lose it." + +Locasto had been favouring me with a particularly sardonic look, but at +these words the sneer was wiped out, and horror crowded into his eyes. + +"Lose my hand--don't tell me that! Kill me at once! I don't want to be +maimed. Lose my hand! Oh, that's terrible! terrible!" + +He gazed at the discoloured flesh. Already the stench of him was making +us sick, but this hand with its putrid tissues was disgusting to a +degree. + +"Yes," said the Halfbreed, "there's the line of the gangrene, and it's +spreading. Soon mortification will extend all up your arm, then you'll +die of blood poison. Locasto, better let me take off that hand. I've +done jobs like that before. I'm a handy man, I am. Come, let me take it +off." + +"Heavens! you're a cold-blooded butcher. You're going to kill me, +between you all. You're in a plot leagued against me, and that +long-faced fool over there's at the bottom of it. Damn you, then, go on +and do what you want." + +"You're not very grateful," said the Halfbreed. "All right, lie there +and rot." + +At his words Locasto changed his tune. He became alarmed to the point of +terror. He knew the hand was doomed. He lay staring at it, staring, +staring. Then he sighed, and thrust its loathsomeness into our faces. + +"Come on," he growled. "Do something for me, you devils, or I'll do it +myself." + + * * * * * + +The hour of the operation was at hand. The Halfbreed got his jack-knife +ready. He had filed the edge till it was like a rough saw. He cut the +skin of the wrist just above the gangrene line, and raised it up an inch +or so. It was here Locasto showed wonderful nerve. He took a large bite +of tobacco and chewed steadily, while his keen black eyes watched every +move of the knife. + +"Hurry up and get the cursed thing off," he snarled. + +The Halfbreed nicked the flesh down to the bone, then with the ragged +jack-knife he began to saw. I could not bear to look. It made me deathly +sick. I heard the grit, grit of the jagged blade. I will remember the +sound to my dying day. How long it seemed to take! No man could stand +such torture. A groan burst from Locasto's lips. He fell back on the +bed. His jaws no longer worked, and a thin stream of brown saliva +trickled down his chin. He had fainted. + +Quickly the Halfbreed finished his work. The hand dropped on the floor. +He pulled down the flaps of skin and sewed them together. + +"How's that for home-made surgery?" he chuckled. He was vastly proud of +his achievement. He took the severed hand upon a shovel and, going to +the door, he threw it far out into the darkness. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + +"WHY don't you go outside?" I asked of the Jam-wagon. + +I had rescued him from one of his periodical plunges into the cesspool +of debauch, and he was peaked, pallid, penitent. Listlessly he stared at +me a long moment, the dull, hollow-eyed stare of the recently +regenerate. + +"Well," he said at last, "I think I stay for the same reason many +another man stays--pride. I feel that the Yukon owes me one of two +things, a stake or a grave--and she's going to pay." + +"Seems to me, the way you're shaping you're more liable to get the +latter." + +"Yes--well, that'll be all right." + +"Look here," I remonstrated, "don't be a rotter. You're a man, a +splendid one. You might do anything, be anything. For Heaven's sake stop +slipping cogs, and get into the game." + +His thin, handsome face hardened bitterly. + +"I don't know. Sometimes I think I'm not fit to play the game; sometimes +I wonder if it's all worth while; sometimes I'm half inclined to end +it." + +"Oh, don't talk nonsense." + +"I'm not; I mean it, every word. I don't often speak of myself. It +doesn't matter who I am, or what I've been. I've gone through a +lot--more than most men. For years I've been a sort of a human +derelict, drifting from port to port of the seven seas. I've sprawled in +their mire; I've eaten of their filth; I've wallowed in their moist, +barbaric slime. Time and time again I've gone to the mat, but somehow I +would never take the count. Something's always saved me at the last." + +"Your guardian angel." + +"Maybe. Somehow I wouldn't be utterly downed. I'm a bit of a fighter, +and every day's been a battle with me. Oh, you don't know, you can't +believe how I suffer! Often I pray, and my prayer always is: 'O dear +God, don't allow me to _think_. Lash me with Thy wrath; heap burdens on +me, but don't let me _think_.' They say there's a hell hereafter. They +lie: it's here, now." + +I was astonished at his vehemence. His face was wrenched with pain, and +his eyes full of remorseful misery. + +"What about your friends?" + +"Oh, them--I died long ago, died in the early '80's. In a little French +graveyard there's a tombstone that bears my name, my real name, the name +of the 'me' that was. Heart, soul and body, I died. My sisters mourned +me, my friends muttered, 'Poor devil.' A few women cried, and a +girl--well, I mustn't speak of that. It's all over long ago; but I must +eternally do something, fight, drink, work like the devil--anything but +think. I mustn't _think_." + +"What about your guardian angel?" + +"Yes, sometimes I think he's going to give me another chance. This is +no life for a man like me, slaving in the drift, burning myself up in +the dissipation of the town. A great, glad fight with a good sweet woman +to fight for--that would save me. Oh, to get away from it all, get a +clean start!" + +"Well, I believe in you. I'm sure you'll be all right. Let me lend you +the money." + +"Thank you, a thousand thanks; but I cannot take it. There it is +again--my pride. Maybe I'm all wrong. Maybe I'm a lost soul, and my +goal's the potter's field. No; thanks! In a day or two I'll be +fighting-fit again. I wouldn't have bored you with this talk, but I'm +weak, and my nerve's gone." + +"How much money have you got?" I asked. + +He pulled a poor piece of silver from his pocket. + +"Enough to do me till I join the pick-and-shovel gang." + +"What are those tickets in your hand?" + +He laughed carelessly. + +"Chances in the ice pools. Funny thing, I don't remember buying them. +Must have been drunk." + +"Yes, and you seem to have had a 'hunch.' You've got the same time on +all three: seven seconds, seven minutes past one, on the ninth--that's +to-day. It's noon now. That old ice will have to hurry up if you're +going to win. Fancy, if you did! You'd clean up over three thousand +dollars. There would be your new start." + +"Yes, fancy," he echoed mockingly. "Over five thousand betting, and the +guesses as close as peas in a pod." + +"Well, the ice may go out any moment. It's awful rotten." + +With a curious fascination, we gazed down at the mighty river. Around us +was a glow of spring sunshine, above us the renaissance of blue skies. +Rags of snow still glimmered on the hills, and the brown earth, as if +ashamed of its nakedness, was bursting greenly forth. On the slope +overlooking the Klondike, girls in white dresses were gathering the wild +crocus. All was warmth, colour, awakening life. + +Surely the river ice could not hold much longer. It was patchy, netted +with cracks, heaved up in ridges, mottled with slushy pools, corroded to +the bottom. Decidedly it was rotten, rotten. Still it held stubbornly. +The Klondike hammered it with mighty bergs, black and heavy as a house. +Down the swift current they sped, crashing, grinding, roaring, to batter +into the unbroken armour of the Yukon. And along its banks, watching +even as we watched, were thousands of others. On every lip was the +question--"The ice--when will it go out?" For to these exiles of the +North, after eight months of isolation, the sight of open water would be +like Heaven. It would mean boats, freedom, friendly faces, and a step +nearer to that "outside" of their dreams. + +Towards the centre of the vast mass of ice that belted in the city was a +post, and on this lonely post thousands of eyes were constantly turning. +For an electric wire connected it with the town, so that when it moved +down a certain distance a clock would register the exact moment. Thus, +thousands gazing at that solitary post thought of the bets they had +made, and wondered if this year they would be the lucky ones. It is a +unique incident in Dawson life, this gambling on the ice. There are +dozens of pools, large and small, and both men and women take part in +the betting, with an eagerness and excitement that is almost childish. + +I sat on a bench on the N. C. trail overlooking the town, and watched +the Jam-wagon crawl down the hill to his cabin. Poor fellow! How drawn +and white was his face, and his long, clean frame--how gaunt and weary! +I felt sorry for him. What would become of him? He was a splendid +"misfit." If he only had another chance! Somehow I believed in him, and +fervently I hoped he would have that good clean start again. + +Up in the cold remoteness of the North are many of his kind--the black +sheep, the undesirables, the discards of the pack. Their lips are +sealed; their eyes are cold as glaciers, and often they drink deep. Oh, +they are a mighty company, the men you don't enquire about; but it is +the code of the North to take them as you find them, so they go their +way unregarded. + +How clear the air was! It was like looking through a crystal lens--every +leaf seemed to stand out vividly. Sounds came up to me with marvellous +distinctness. Summer was coming, and with it the assurance of a new +peace. Down there I could see our home, and on its veranda, +hammock-swung, the white figure of Berna. How precious she was to me! +How anxiously I watched over her! A look, a word meant more to me than +volumes. If she was happy I was full of joy; if she was sad the sunshine +paled, the flowers drooped, there was no gladness in the day. Often as +she slept I watched her, marvelling at the fine perfection of her face. +Always was she an object of wonder to me--something to be adored, to +demand all that was fine and high in me. + +Yet sometimes it was the very intensity of my love that made me fear; so +that in the ecstasy of a moment I would catch my breath and wonder if it +all could last. And always the memory of Locasto was a sinister shadow. +He had gone "outside," terribly broken in health, gone cursing me +hoarsely and vowing he would return. Would he? + +Who that knows the North can ever deny its lure? Wherever you be, it +will call and call to you. In the sluggish South you will hear it, will +long for the keen tingle of its silver days, the vaster glory of its +star-strewn nights. In the city's heart it will come to you till you +hunger for its big, clean spaces, its racing rivers, its purple tundras. +In the homes of the rich its voice will seek you out, and you will ache +for your lonely camp-fire, a sunset splendouring to golden death, the +night where the silence clutches and the heavens vomit forth white fire. +Yes, you will hear it, and hear it, till a madness comes over you, till +you leave the crawling men of the sticky pavements to seek it out once +more, the sapphire of its lustrous lakes, the white yearning of its +peaks to the myriad stars. Then, as a child comes home, will you come +home. And I knew that some day to the land wherein he had reigned a +conqueror, Locasto, too, would return. + +As I looked down on the grey town, the wonder of its growth came over +me. How changed from the muddle of tents and cabins, the boat-lined +river, the swarming hordes of the Argonauts! Where was the niggerhead +swamp, the mud, the unrest, the mad fever of '98? I looked for these +things and saw in their stead fine residences, trim gardens, well-kept +streets. I almost rubbed my eyes as I realised the magic of the +transformation. + +And great as was the city's outward change, its change of spirit was +still greater. The day of dance-hall domination was over. Vice walked +very circumspectly. No longer was it possible on the street to speak to +a lady of easy virtue without causing comment. + +The demireps of the deadline had been banished over the Klondike, where, +in a colony reached by a crazy rope bridge, their red lights gleamed +like semaphores of sin. The dance-halls were still running, but the +picturesque impunity of the old muckluck days was gone forever. You +looked in vain for the crude scenes where the wilder passions were +unleashed, and human nature revealed itself in primal nakedness. +Heroism, brutality, splendid achievement, unbridled license, the North +seems to bring out all that is best and worst in a man. It breeds an +exuberant vitality, a madness for action, whether it be for good or +evil. + +In the town, too, life was becoming a thing of more sober hues. Sick of +slipshod morality, men were sending for their wives and children. The +old ideals of home and love and social purity were triumphing. With the +advent of the good woman, the dance-hall girl was doomed. The city was +finding itself. Society divided into sets. The more pretentious were +called Ping-pongs, while a majority rejoiced in the name of Rough-necks. +The post-office abuses were remedied, the grafters ousted from the +government offices. Rapidly the gold-camp was becoming modernised. + +Yes, its spectacular days were over. No more would the "live one" +disport himself in his wild and woolly glory. The delirium of '98 was +fast becoming a memory. The leading actors in that fateful drama--where +were they? Dead: some by their own hands; down and out many, drivelling +sottishly of by-gone days; poor prospectors a few, dreaming of a new +gold strike. + +And, as I think of it, it comes over me that the thing is vastly tragic. +Where are they now, these Klondike Kings, these givers of champagne +baths, these plungers of the gold-camp? How many of those that stood out +in the limelight of '98 can tell the tale to-day? Ladue is dead, leaving +little behind. Big Alec MacDonald, after lavishing a dozen fortunes on +his friends, dies at last, almost friendless and alone. Nigger Jim and +Stillwater Willie--in what back slough of vicissitude do they languish +to-day? Dick Low lies in a drunkard's grave. Skookum Jim would fain +qualify for one. Dawson Charlie, reeling home from a debauch, drowns in +the river. In impecunious despair, Harry Waugh hangs himself. Charlie +Anderson, after squandering a fortune on a thankless wife, works for a +labourer's hire. + +So I might go on and on. Their stories would fill volumes. And as I sat +on the quiet hillside, listening to the drowsy hum of the bees, the +inner meaning of it all came home to me. Once again the great lone land +was sifting out and choosing its own. Far-reaching was its vengeance, +and it worked in divers ways. It fell on them, even as it had fallen on +their brethren of the trail. In the guise of fortune it dealt their +ruin. From the austere silence of its snows it was mocking them, +beguiling them to their doom. Again it was the Land of the Strong. +Before all it demanded strength, moral and physical strength. I was +minded of the words of old Jim, "Where one wins ninety and nine will +fail"; and time had proved him true. The great, grim land was weeding +out the unfit, was rewarding those who could understand it, the faithful +brotherhood of the high North. + +Full of such thoughts as these, I raised my eyes and looked down the +river towards the Moosehide Bluffs. Hullo! There, just below the town, +was a great sheet of water, and even as I watched I saw it spread and +spread. People were shouting, running from their houses, speeding to the +beach. I was conscious of a thrill of excitement. Ever widening was the +water, and now it stretched from bank to bank. It crept forward to the +solitary post. Now it was almost there. Suddenly the post started to +move. The vast ice-field was sliding forward. Slowly, serenely it went, +on, on. + +Then, all at once, the steam-whistles shrilled out, the bells pealed, +and from the black mob of people that lined the banks there went up an +exultant cheer. "The ice is going out--the ice is going out!" + +I looked at my watch. Could I believe my eyes? Seven seconds, seven +minutes past one--his "hunch" was right; his guardian angel had +intervened; the Jam-wagon had been given his chance to make a new start. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + +The waters were wild with joy. From the mountain snows the sun had set +them free. Down hill and dale they sparkled, trickling from boulders, +dripping from mossy crannies, rioting in narrow runlets. Then, leaping +and laughing in a mad ecstasy of freedom, they dashed into the dam. + +Here was something they did not understand, some contrivance of the +tyrant Man to curb them, to harness them, to make them his slaves. The +waters were angry. They gloomed fearsomely. As they swelled higher in +the broad basin their wrath grew apace. They chafed against their prison +walls, they licked and lapped at the stolid bank. Higher and higher they +mounted, growing stronger with every leap. More and more bitterly they +fretted at their durance. Behind them other waters were pressing, just +as eager to escape as they. They lashed and writhed in savage spite. Not +much longer could these patient walls withstand their anger. Something +must happen. + +The "something" was a man. He raised the floodgate, and there at last +was a way of escape. How joyously the eager waters rushed at it! They +tumbled and tossed in their mad hurry to get out. They surged and swept +and roared about the narrow opening. + +But what was this? They had come on a wooden box that streaked down the +slope as straight as an arrow from the bow. It was some other scheme of +the tyrant Man. Nevertheless, they jostled and jammed to get into it. On +its brink they poised a moment, then down, down they dashed. + +Like a cataract they rushed, ever and ever growing faster. Ho! this was +motion now, this was action, strength, power. As they shot down that +steep hill they shrieked for very joy. Freedom, freedom at last! No more +trickling feebly from snowbanks; no more boring devious channels in oozy +clay, no more stagnating in sullen dams. They were alive, alive, swift, +intense, terrific. They gloried in their might. They roared the raucous +song of freedom, and faster and faster they charged. Like a stampede of +maddened horses they thundered on. What power on earth could stop them? +"We must be free! We must be free!" they cried. + +Suddenly they saw ahead the black hole of a great pipe, a hollow shard +of steel. Prison-like it looked, again some contrivance of the tyrant +Man. They would fain have overleapt it, but it was too late. Countless +other waters were behind them, forcing them forward with irresistible +power. And, faster and faster still, they crashed into the shard of +steel. + +They were trapped, atrociously trapped, cabined, confined, rammed +forward by a vast and remorseless pressure. Yet there was escape just +ahead. It was a tiny point of light, an outlet. They must squeeze +through it. They were crushed and pinioned in that prison of steel, and +mightily they tried to burst it. No! there was only that orifice; they +must pass through it. Then with that great force behind them, tortured, +maddened, desperate, the waters crashed through the shard of steel, to +serve the will of Man. + +The man stood by his water-gun and from its nozzle, the gleaming terror +leapt. At first it was only a slim volley of light, compact and solid as +a shaft of steel. To pierce it would have splintered to pieces the +sharpest sword. It was a core of water, round, glistening and smooth, +yet in its mighty power it was a monster of destruction. + +The man was directing it here and there on the face of the hill. It flew +like an arrow from the bow, and wherever he aimed it the hillside seemed +to reel and shudder at the shock. Great cataracts of gravel shot out, +avalanches of clay toppled over; vast boulders were hurled into the air +like heaps of fleecy wool. + +Yes, the waters were mad. They were like an angry bull that gored the +hillside. It seemed to melt and dissolve before them. Nothing could +withstand that assault. In a few minutes they would reduce the stoutest +stronghold to a heap of pitiful ruins. + +There, where the waters shot forth in their fury, stood their conqueror. +He was one man, yet he was doing the work of a hundred. As he battered +at that bank of clay he exulted in his power. A little turn of the wrist +and a huge mass of gravel crumbled into nothingness. He bored deep holes +in the frozen muck, he hammered his way down to bed rock, he swept it +clean as a floor. There, with the solid force of a battering-ram, he +pounded at the heart of the hill. + +The roar deafened him. He heard the crash of falling rock, but he was so +intent on his work he did not hear another man approach. Suddenly he +looked up and saw. + +He gave a mighty start, then at once he was calm again. This was the +meeting he had dreaded, longed for, fought against, desired. Primordial +emotions surged within him, but outwardly he gave no sign. Almost +savagely, and with a curious blaze in his eyes he redirected the little +giant. + +He waved his hand to the other man. + +"Go away!" he shouted. + +Mosher refused to budge. The generous living of Dawson had made him +pursy, almost porcine. His pig eyes glittered, and he took off his hat +to wipe some beads of sweat from the monumental baldness of his +forehead. He caressed his coal-black beard with a podgy hand on which a +large diamond sparkled. His manner was arrogance personified. He seemed +to say, "I'll make this man dance to my music." + +His rich, penetrating voice pierced through the roar of the "giant." + +"Here, turn off your water. I want to speak to you. Got a business +proposition to make." + +Still Jim was dumb. + +Mosher came close to him and shouted into his ear. The two men were very +calm. + +"Say, your wife's in town. Been there for the last year. Didn't you +know it?" + +Jim shook his head. He was particularly interested in his work just +then. There was a great saddle of clay, and he scooped it up magically. + +"Yes, she's in town--living respectable." + +Jim redirected his giant with a savage swish. + +"Say, I'm a sort of a philant'ropic guy," went on Mosher, "an' there's +nothing I like better than doing the erring wife restitootion act. I +think I could induce that little woman of yours to come back to you." + +Jim gave him a swift glance, but the man went on. + +"To tell the truth, she's a bit stuck on me. Not my fault, of course. +Can't help it if a girl gets daffy on me. But say, I think I could get +her switched on to you if you made it worth my while. It's a business +proposition." + +He was sneering now, frankly villainous. Jim gave no sign. + +"What d'ye say? This is a likely bit of ground--give me a half-share in +this ground, an' I'll guarantee to deliver that little piece of goods to +you. There's an offer." + +Again that smug look of generosity beamed on the man's face. Once more +Jim motioned him to go, but Mosher did not heed. He thought the gesture +was a refusal. His face grew threatening. "All right, if you won't," he +snarled, "look out! I know you love her still. Let me tell you, I own +that woman, body and soul, and I'll make life hell for her. I'll +torture you through her. Yes, I've got a cinch. You'd better change your +mind." + +He had stepped back as if to go. Then, whether it was an accident or not +no one will ever know--but the little giant swung round till it bore on +him. + +It lifted him up in the air. It shot him forward like a stone from a +catapult. It landed him on the bank fifty feet away with a sickening +crash. Then, as he lay, it pounded and battered him out of all semblance +of a man. + +The waters were having their revenge. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + +"There's something the matter with Jim," the Prodigal 'phoned to me from +the Forks; "he's gone off and left the cabin on Ophir, taken to the +hills. Some prospectors have just come in and say they met him heading +for the White Snake Valley. Seemed kind of queer, they say. Wouldn't +talk much. They thought he was in a fair way to go crazy." + +"He's never been right since the accident," I answered; "we'll have to +go after him." + +"All right. Come up at once. I'll get McCrimmon. He's a good man in the +woods. We'll be ready to start as soon as you arrive." + +So the following day found the three of us on the trail to Ophir. We +travelled lightly, carrying very little food, for we thought to find +game in the woods. On the evening of the following day we reached the +cabin. + +Jim must have gone very suddenly. There were the remains of a meal on +the table, and his Bible was gone from its place. There was nothing for +it but to follow and find him. + +"By going to the headwaters of Ophir Creek," said the Halfbreed, "we can +cross a divide into the valley of the White Snake, and there we'll +corral him, I guess." + +So we left the trail and plunged into the virgin Wild. Oh, but it was +hard travelling! Often we would keep straight up the creek-bed, plunging +through pools that were knee-deep, and walking over shingly bars. Then, +to avoid a big bend of the stream, we would strike off through the bush. +Every yard seemed to have its obstacle. There were windfalls and tangled +growths of bush that defied our uttermost efforts to penetrate them. +There were viscid sloughs, from whose black depths bubbles arose +wearily, with grey tree-roots like the legs of spiders clutching the +slimy mud of their banks. There were oozy bottoms, rankly speared with +rush-grass. There were leprous marshes spotted with unsightly +niggerheads. Dripping with sweat, we fought our way under the hot sun. +Thorny boughs tore at us detainingly. Fallen trees delighted to bar our +way. Without let or cease we toiled, yet at the day's end our progress +was but a meagre one. + +Our greatest bane was the mosquitoes. Night and day they never ceased to +nag us. We wore veils and had gloves on our hands, so that under our +armour we were able to grin defiance at them. But on the other side of +that netting they buzzed in an angry grey cloud. To raise our veils and +take a drink was to be assaulted ferociously. As we walked we could feel +them resisting our progress, and it seemed as if we were forcing our way +through solid banks of them. If we rested, they alighted in such myriads +that soon we appeared literally sheathed in tiny atoms of insect life, +vainly trying to pierce the mesh of our clothing. To bare a hand was to +have it covered with blood in a moment, and the thought of being at +their mercy was an exquisitely horrible one. Night and day their voices +blended in a vast drone, so that we ate, drank and slept under our +veils. + +In that rankly growing wilderness we saw no sign of life, not even a +rabbit. It was all desolate and God-forsaken. By nightfall our packs +seemed very heavy, our limbs very tired. Three days, four days, five +days passed. The creek was attenuated and hesitating, so we left it and +struck off over the mountains. Soon we climbed to where the timber +growth was less obstructive. The hillside was steep, almost vertical in +places, and was covered with a strange, deep growth of moss. Down in it +we sank, in places to our knees, and beneath it we could feel the points +of sharp boulders. As we climbed we plunged our hands deep into the cool +cushion of the moss, and half dragged ourselves upward. It was like an +Oriental rug covering the stony ribs of the hill, a rug of bizarre +colouring, strangely patterned in crimson and amber, in emerald and +ivory. Birch-trees of slim, silvery beauty arose in it, and aided us as +we climbed. + +So we came at last, after a weary journey, to a bleak, boulder-studded +plateau. It was above timber-line, and carpeted with moss of great depth +and gaudy hue. Suddenly we saw two vast pillars of stone upstanding on +the aching barren. I think they must have been two hundred feet high, +and, like monstrous sentinels in their lonely isolation, they +overlooked that vast tundra. They startled us. We wondered by what +strange freak of nature they were stationed there. + +Then we dropped down into a vast, hush-filled valley, a valley that +looked as if it had been undisturbed since the beginning of time. Like a +spirit-haunted place it was, so strange and still. It was loneliness +made visible. It was stillness written in wood and stone. I would have +been afraid to enter it alone, and even as we sank in its death-haunted +dusk I shuddered with a horror of the place. + +The Indians feared and shunned this valley. They said, of old, strange +things had happened there; it had been full of noise and fire and steam; +the earth had opened up, belching forth great dragons that destroyed the +people. And indeed it was all like the vast crater of an extinct +volcano, for hot springs bubbled forth and a grey ash cropped up through +the shallow soil. + +There was no game in the valley. In its centre was a solitary lake, +black and bottomless, and haunted by a giant white water-snake, +sluggish, blind and very old. Stray prospectors swore they had seen it, +just at dusk, and its sightless, staring eyes were too terrible ever to +forget. + +And into this still, cobweb-hued hollow we dropped--dropped almost +straight down over the flanks of those lean, lank mountains that fringed +it so forlornly. Here, ringed all around by desolate heights, we were as +remote from the world as if we were in some sallow solitude of the moon. +Sometimes the valley was like a gaping mouth, and the lips of it were +livid grey. Sometimes it was like a cup into which the sunset poured a +golden wine and filled it quivering to the brim. Sometimes it was like a +grey grave full of silence. And here in this place of shadows, where the +lichen strangled the trees, and under-foot the moss hushed the tread, +where we spoke in whispers, and mirth seemed a mockery, where every +stick and stone seemed eloquent of disenchantment and despair, here in +this valley of Dead Things we found Jim. + +He was sitting by a dying camp-fire, all huddled up, his arms embracing +his knees, his eyes on the fading embers. As we drew near he did not +move, did not show any surprise, did not even raise his head. His face +was very pale and drawn into a pucker of pain. It was the queerest look +I ever saw on a man's face. It made me creep. + +His eyes followed us furtively. Silently we squatted in a ring round his +camp-fire. For a while we said no word, then at last the Prodigal spoke: + +"Jim, you're coming back with us, aren't you?" + +Jim looked at him. + +"Hush!" says he, "don't speak so loud. You'll waken all them dead +fellows." + +"What d'ye mean?" + +"Them dead fellows. The woods is full of them, them that can't rest. +They're all around, ghosts. At night, when I'm a-sittin' over the fire, +they crawl out of the darkness, an' they get close to me, closer, +closer, an' they whisper things. Then I get scared an' I shoo them +away." + +"What do they whisper, Jim?" + +"Oh say! they tell me all kinds of things, them fellows in the woods. +They tell me of the times they used to have here in the valley; an' how +they was a great people, an' had women an' slaves; how they fought an' +sang an' got drunk, an' how their kingdom was here, right here where +it's all death an' desolation. An' how they conquered all the other +folks around an' killed the men an' captured the women. Oh, it was long, +long ago, long before the flood!" + +"Well, Jim, never mind them. Get your pack ready. We're going home right +now." + +"Goin' home?--I've no home any more. I'm a fugitive an' a vagabond in +the earth. The blood of my brother crieth unto me from the ground. From +the face of the Lord shall I be hid an' every one that findeth me shall +slay me. I have no home but the wilderness. Unto it I go with prayer an' +fastin'. I have killed, I have killed!" + +"Nonsense, Jim; it was an accident." + +"Was it? Was it? God only knows; I don't. Only I know the thought of +murder was black in my heart. It was there for ever an' ever so long. +How I fought against it! Then, just at that moment, everything seemed to +come to a head. I don't know that I meant what I did, but I thought it." + +"Come home, Jim, and forget it." + +"When the rivers start to run up them mountain peaks I'll forget it. +No, they won't let me forget it, them ghosts. They whisper to me all the +time. Hist! don't you hear them? They're whispering to me now. 'You're a +murderer, Jim, a murderer,' they say. 'The brand of Cain is on you, Jim, +the brand of Cain.' Then the little leaves of the trees take up the +whisper, an' the waters murmur it, an' the very stones cry out ag'in me, +an' I can't shut out the sound. I can't, I can't." + +"Hush, Jim!" + +"No, no, the devil's a-hoein' out a place in the embers for me. I can't +turn no more to the Lord. He's cast me out, an' the light of His +countenance is darkened to me. Never again; oh, never again!" + +"Oh come, Jim, for the sake of your old partners, come home." + +"Well, boys, I'll come. But it's no good. I'm down an' out." + +Wearily we gathered together his few belongings. He had been living on +bread, and but little remained. Had we not reached him, he would have +starved. He came like a child, but seemed a prey to acute melancholy. + +It was indeed a sad party that trailed down that sad, dead valley. The +trees were hung with a dreary drapery of grey, and the ashen moss +muffled our footfalls. I think it was the _deadest_ place I ever saw. +The very air seemed dead and stale, as if it were eternally still, +unstirred by any wind. Spiders and strange creeping things possessed the +trees, and at every step, like white gauze, a mist of mosquitoes was +thrown up. And the way seemed endless. + +A great weariness weighed upon our spirits. Our feet flagged and our +shoulders were bowed. As we looked into each other's faces we saw there +a strange lassitude, a chill, grey despair. Our voices sounded hollow +and queer, and we seldom spoke. It was as if the place was a vampire +that was sucking the life and health from our veins. + +"I'm afraid the old man's going to play out on us," whispered the +Prodigal. + +Jim lagged forlornly behind, and it was very anxiously we watched him. +He seemed to know that he was keeping us back. His efforts to keep up +were pitiful. We feigned an equal weariness, not to distress him, and +our progress was slow, slow. + +"Looks as if we'll have to go on half-rations," said the Halfbreed. +"It's taking longer to get out of this valley than I figured on." + +And indeed it was like a vast prison, and those peaks that brindled in +the sunset glow were like bars to hold us in. Every day the old man's +step was growing slower, so that at last we were barely crawling along. +We were ascending the western slope of the valley, climbing a few miles +a day, and every step we rose from that sump-hole of the gods was like +the lifting of a weight. We were tired, tired, and in the wan light that +filtered through the leaden clouds our faces were white and strained. + +"I guess we'll have to go on quarter-rations from now," said the +Halfbreed, a few days later. He ranged far and wide, looking for game, +but never a sign did he see. Once, indeed, we heard a shot. Eagerly we +waited his return, but all he had got was a great, grey owl, which we +cooked and ate ravenously. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + + +At last, at last we had climbed over the divide, and left behind us +forever the vampire valley. Oh, we were glad! But other troubles were +coming. Soon the day came when the last of our grub ran out. I remember +how solemnly we ate it. We were already more than three-parts starved, +and that meal was but a mouthful. + +"Well," said the Halfbreed, "we can't be far from the Yukon now. It must +be the valley beyond this one. Then, in a few days, we can make a raft +and float down to Dawson." + +This heartened us, so once more we took up our packs and started. Jim +did not move. + +"Come on, Jim." + +Still no movement. + +"What's the matter, Jim? Come on." + +He turned to us a face that was grey and deathlike. + +"Go on, boys. Don't mind me. My time's up. I'm an old man. I'm only +keeping you back. Without me you've got a chance; with me you've got +none. Leave me here with a gun. I can shoot an' rustle grub. You boys +can come back for me. You'll find old Jim spry an' chipper, awaitin' you +with a smile on his face. Now go, boys. You'll go, won't you?" + +"Go be darned!" said the Prodigal. "You know we'll never leave you, +Jim. You know the code of the trail. What d'ye take us for--skunks? Come +on, we'll carry you if you can't walk." + +He shook his head pitifully, but once more he crawled after us. We +ourselves were making no great speed. Lack of food was beginning to tell +on us. Our stomachs were painfully empty and dead. + +"How d'ye feel?" asked the Prodigal. His face had an arrestively hollow +look, but that frozen smile was set on it. + +"All right," I said, "only terribly weak. My head aches at times, but +I've got no pain." + +"Neither have I. This starving racket's a cinch. It's dead easy. What +rot they talk about the gnawing pains of hunger, an' ravenous men +chewing up their boot-tops. It's easy. There's no pain. I don't even +feel hungry any more." + +None of us did. It was as if our stomachs, in despair at not receiving +any food, had sunk into apathy. Yet there was no doubt we were terribly +weak. We only made a few miles a day now, and even that was an effort. +The distance seemed to be elastic, to stretch out under our feet. Every +few yards we had to help Jim over a bad place. His body was emaciated +and he was getting very feeble. A hollow fire burned in his eyes. The +Halfbreed persisted that beyond those despotic mountains lay the Yukon +Valley, and at night he would rouse us up: + +"Say, boys, I hear the 'toot' of a steamer. Just a few more days and +we'll get there." + +Running through the valley, we found a little river. It was muddy in +colour and appeared to contain no fish. We ranged along it eagerly, +hoping to find a few minnows, but without success. It seemed to me, as I +foraged here and there for food, it was not hunger that impelled me so +much as the instinct of self-preservation. I knew that if I did not get +something into my stomach I would surely die. + +Down the river we trailed forlornly. For a week we had eaten nothing. +Jim had held on bravely, but now he gave up. + +"For God's sake, leave me, boys! Don't make me feel guilty of your +death. Haven't I got enough on my soul already? For God's pity, lads, +save yourselves! Leave me here to die." + +He pleaded brokenly. His legs seemed to have become paralysed. Every +time we stopped he would pitch forward on his face, or while walking he +would fall asleep and drop. The Prodigal and I supported him, but it was +truly hard to support ourselves, and sometimes we collapsed, coming down +all three together in a confused and helpless heap. The Prodigal still +wore that set grin. His face was nigh fleshless, and, through the +straggling beard, it sometimes minded me of a grinning skull. Always Jim +moaned and pleaded: + +"Leave me, dear boys, leave me!" + +He was like a drunken man, and his every step was agony. + +We threw away our packs. We no longer had the strength to bear them. The +last thing to go was the Halfbreed's rifle. Several times it dropped out +of his hand. He picked it up in a dazed way. Again and again it +dropped, but at last the time came when he no longer picked it up. He +looked at it for a stupid while, then staggered on without it. + +At night we would rest long hours round the camp-fire. Often far into the +day would we rest. Jim lay like a dead man, moaning continually, while +we, staring into each other's ghastly faces, talked in jerks. It was an +effort to hunt food. It was an effort to goad ourselves to continue the +journey. + +"Sure the river empties into the Yukon, boys," said the Halfbreed. +"'Tain't so far, either. If we can just make a few miles more we'll be +all right." + +At night, in my sleep, I was a prey to the strangest hallucinations. +People I had known came and talked to me. They were so real that, when I +awoke, I could scarce believe I had been dreaming. Berna came to me +often. She came quite close, with great eyes of pity that looked into +mine. Her lips moved. + +"Be brave, my boy. Don't despair," she pleaded. Always in my dreams she +pleaded like that, and I think that but for her I would have given up. + +The Halfbreed was the most resolute of the party. He never lost his +head. At times we others raved a little, or laughed a little, or cried a +little, but the Halfbreed remained cool and grim. Ceaselessly he foraged +for food. Once he found a nest of grouse eggs, and, breaking them open, +discovered they contained half-formed birds. We ate them just as they +were, crunched them between our swollen gums. Snails, too, we ate +sometimes, and grass roots and moss which we scraped from the trees. +But our greatest luck was the decayed grouse eggs. + +Early one afternoon we were all resting by a camp-fire on which was +boiling some moss, when suddenly the Halfbreed pointed. There, in a +glade down by the river's edge, were a cow moose and calf. They were +drinking. Stupidly we gazed. I saw the Halfbreed's hand go out as if to +clutch the rifle. Alas! his fingers closed on the empty air. So near +they were we could have struck them with a stone. Taking his sheath +knife in his mouth, the Halfbreed started to crawl on his belly towards +them. He had gone but a few yards when they winded him. One look they +gave, and in a few moments they were miles away. That was the only time +I saw the Halfbreed put out. He fell on his face and lay there for a +long time. + +Often we came to sloughs that we could not cross, and we had to go round +them. We tried to build rafts, but we were too weak to navigate them. We +were afraid we would roll off into the deep black water and drown +feebly. So we went round, which in one case meant ten miles. Once, over +a slough a few yards wide, the Halfbreed built a bridge of willows, and +we crawled on hands and knees to the other side. + +From a certain point our trip seems like a nightmare to me. I can only +remember parts of it here and there. We reeled like drunken men. We +sobbed sometimes, and sometimes we prayed. There was no word from Jim +now, not even a whimper, as we half dragged, half carried him on. Our +eyes were large with fever, our hands were like claws. Long sickly +beards grew on our faces. Our clothes were rags, and vermin overran us. +We had lost all track of time. Latterly we had been travelling about +half a mile a day, and we must have been twenty days without proper +food. + +The Halfbreed had crawled ahead a mile or so, and he came back to where +we lay. In a voice hoarse almost to a whisper he told us a bigger river +joined ours down there, and on the bar was an old Indian camp. Perhaps +in that place some one might find us. It seemed on the route of travel. +So we made a last despairing effort and reached it. Indians had visited +it quite recently. We foraged around and found some putrid fish bones, +with which we made soup. + +There was a grave set high on stilts, and within it a body covered with +canvas. The Halfbreed wrenched the canvas from the body, and with it he +made a boat eight feet in length by six in breadth. It was too rotten to +hold him up, and he nearly drowned trying to float it, so he left it +lying on the edge of the bar. I remember this was a terrible +disappointment to us, and we wept bitterly. I think that about this time +we were all half-crazy. We lay on that bar like men already dead, with +no longer hope of deliverance. + + * * * * * + +Then Jim passed in his checks. In the night he called me. + +"Boy," he whispered, "you an' I'se been good pals, ain't we?" + +"Yes, old man." + +"Boy, I'm in agony. I'm suffering untold pain. Get the gun, for God's +sake, an' put me out of my misery." + +"There's no gun, Jim; we left it back on the trail." + +"Then take your knife." + +"No, no." + +"Give me your knife." + +"Jim, you're crazy. Where's your faith in God?" + +"Gone, gone; I've no longer any right to look to Him. I've killed. I've +taken life He gave. 'Vengeance is mine,' He said, an' I've taken it out +of His hands. God's curse is on me now. Oh, let me die, let me die!" + +I sat by him all night. He moaned in agony, and his passing was hard. It +was about three in the morning when he spoke again: + +"Say, boy, I'm going. I'm a useless old man. I've lived in sin, an' I've +repented, an' I've backslid. The Lord don't want old Jim any more. Say, +kid, see that little girl of mine down in Dawson gets what money's +comin' to me. Tell her to keep straight, an' tell her I loved her. Tell +her I never let up on lovin' her all these years. You'll remember that, +boy, won't you?" + +"I'll remember, Jim." + +"Oh, it's all a hoodoo, this Northern gold," he moaned. "See what it's +done for all of us. We came to loot the land an' it's a-takin' its +revenge on us. It's accursed. It's got me at last, but maybe I can help +you boys to beat it yet. Call the others." + +I called them. + +"Boys," said Jim, "I'm a-goin'. I've been a long time about it. I've +been dying by inches, but I guess I'll finish the job pretty slick this +time. Well, boys, I'm in possession of all my faculties. I want you to +know that. I was crazy when I started off, but that's passed away. My +mind's clear. Now, pardners, I've got you into this scrape. I'm +responsible, an' it seems to me I'd die happier if you'd promise me one +thing. Livin', I can't help you; dead, I can--_you know how_. Well, I +want you to promise me you'll do it. It's a reasonable proposition. +Don't hesitate. Don't let sentiment stop you. I wish it. It's my dying +wish. You're starvin', an' I can help you, can give you strength. Will +you promise, if it comes to the last pass, you'll do it?" + +We were afraid to look each other in the face. + +"Oh, promise, boys, promise!" + +"Promise him anyway," said the Halfbreed. "He'll die easier." + +So we nodded our heads as we bent over him, and he turned away his face, +content. + +'Twas but a little after he called me again. + +"Boy, give me your hand. Say a prayer for me, won't you? Maybe it'll +help some, a prayer for a poor old sinner that's backslid. I can never +pray again." + +"Yes, try to pray, Jim, try. Come on; say it after me: 'Our Father--'" + +"'Our Father--'" + +"'Which art in Heaven--'" + +"'Which art in--'" + +His head fell forward. "Bless you, my boy. Father, forgive, forgive--" + +He sank back very quietly. + +He was dead. + + * * * * * + +Next morning the Halfbreed caught a minnow. We divided it into three and +ate it raw. Later on he found some water-lice under a stone. We tried to +cook them, but they did not help us much. Then, as night fell once more, +a thought came into our minds and stuck there. It was a hidden thought, +and yet it grew and grew. As we sat round in a circle we looked into +each other's faces, and there we read the same revolting thought. Yet +did it not seem so revolting after all. It was as if the spirit of the +dead man was urging us to this thing, so insistent did the thought +become. It was our only hope of life. It meant strength again, strength +and energy to make a raft and float us down the river. Oh, if only--but, +no! We could not do it. Better, a hundred times better, die. + +Yet life was sweet, and for twenty-three days we had starved. Here was a +chance to live, with the dead man whispering in our ears to do it. You +who have never starved a day in your lives, would you blame us? Life is +sweet to you, too. What would you have done? The dead man was urging +us, and life was sweet. + +But we struggled, God knows we struggled. We did not give in without +agony. In our hopeless, staring eyes there was the anguish of the great +temptation. We looked in each other's death's-head faces. We clasped +skeleton hands round our rickety knees, and swayed as we tried to sit +upright. Vermin crawled over us in our weakness. We were half-crazy, and +muttered in our beards. + +It was the Halfbreed who spoke, and his voice was just a whisper: + +"It's our only chance, boys, and we've promised him. God forgive me, but +I've a wife and children, and I'm a-goin' to do it." + +He was too weak to rise, and with his knife in his mouth he crawled to +the body. + + * * * * * + +It was ready, but we had not eaten. We waited and waited, hoping against +hope. Then, as we waited, God was merciful to us. He saved us from this +thing. + +"Say, I guess I've got a pipe-dream, but I think I see two men coming +downstream on a raft." + +"No, it's no dream," I said; "two men." + +"Shout to them; I can't," said the Prodigal. + +I tried to shout, but my voice came as a whisper. The Halfbreed, too, +tried to shout. There was scarcely any sound to it. The men did not see +us as we lay on that shingly bar. Faster and faster they came. In +hopeless, helpless woe we watched them. We could do nothing. In a few +moments they would be past. With eyes of terror we followed them, tried +to make signals to them. O God, help us! + +Suddenly they caught sight of that crazy boat of ours made of canvas and +willows. They poled the raft in close, then one of them saw those three +strange things writhing impotently on the sand. They were skeletons, +they were in rags, they were covered with vermin.-- * * * + +We were saved; thank God, we were saved! + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + + +"Berna, we must get married." + +"Yes, dearest, whenever you wish." + +"Well, to-morrow." + +She smiled radiantly; then her face grew very serious. + +"What will I wear?" she asked plaintively. + +"Wear? Oh, anything. That white dress you've got on--I never saw you +looking so sweet. You mind me of a picture I know of Saint Cecilia, the +same delicacy of feature, the same pure colouring, the same grace of +expression." + +"Foolish one!" she chided; but her voice was deliciously tender, and her +eyes were love-lit. And indeed, as she stood by the window holding her +embroidery to the failing light, you scarce could have imagined a girl +more gracefully sweet. In a fine mood of idealising, my eyes rested on +her. + +"Yes, fairy girl, that briar rose you are doing in the centre of your +little canvas hoop is not more delicate in the tinting than are your +cheeks; your hands that ply the needle so daintily are whiter than the +May blossoms on its border; those coils of shining hair that crown your +head would shame the silk you use for softness." + +"Don't," she sighed; "you spoil me." + +"Oh no, it's true, true. Sometimes I wish you were not so lovely. It +makes me care so much for you that--it hurts. Sometimes I wish you were +plain, then I would feel more sure of you. Sometimes I fear, fear some +one will steal you away from me." + +"No, no," she cried; "no one ever will. There will never be any one but +you." + +She came over to me, and knelt by my chair, putting her arms around me +prettily. The pure, sweet face looked up into mine. + +"We have been happy here, haven't we, boy?" she asked. + +"Exquisitely happy. Yet I have always been afraid." + +"Of what, dearest?" + +"I don't know. Somehow it seems too good to last." + +"Well, to-morrow we'll be married." + +"Yes, we should have done that a year ago. It's all been a mistake. It +didn't matter at first; nobody noticed, nobody cared. But now it's +different. I can see it by the way the wives of the men look at us. I +wonder do women resent the fact that virtue is only its own reward--they +are so down on those who stray. Well, we don't care anyway. We'll marry +and live our lives. But there are other reasons." + +"Yes?" + +"Yes. Garry talks of coming out. You wouldn't like him to find us living +like this--without benefit of the clergy?" + +"Not for the world!" she cried, in alarm. + +"Well, he won't. Garry's old-fashioned and terribly conventional, but +you'll take to him at once. There's a wonderful charm about him. He's so +good-looking, yet so clever. I think he could win any woman if he tried, +only he's too upright and sincere." + +"What will he think of me, I wonder, poor, ignorant me? I believe I'm +afraid of him. I wish he'd stay away and leave us alone. Yet for your +sake, dear, I do wish him to think well of me." + +"Don't fear, Berna. He'll be proud of you. But there's a second reason." + +"What?" + +I drew her up beside me on the great Morris-chair. + +"Oh, my beloved! perhaps we'll not always be alone as we are now. +Perhaps, perhaps some day there will be others--little ones--for their +sakes." + +She did not speak. I could feel her nestle closer to me. Her cheek was +pressed to mine; her hair brushed my brow and her lips were like +rose-petals on my own. So we sat there in the big, deep chair, in the +glow of the open fire, silent, dreaming, and I saw on her lashes the +glimmer of a glorious tear. + +"Why do you cry, beloved?" + +"Because I'm so happy. I never thought I could be so happy. I want it to +last forever, I never want to leave this little cabin of ours. It will +always be home to me. I love it; oh, how I love it!--every stick and +stone of it! This dear little room--there will never be another like it +in the world. Some day we may have a fine home, but I think I'll always +leave some of my heart here in the little cabin." + +I kissed away her tears. Foolish tears! I blessed her for them. I held +her closer to me. I was wondrous happy. No longer did the shadow of the +past hang over us. Even as children forget, were we forgetting. Outside +the winter's day was waning fast. The ruddy firelight danced around us. +It flickered on the walls, the open piano, the glass front of the +bookcase. It lit up the Indian corner, the lounge with its cushions and +brass reading-lamp, the rack of music, the pictures, the lace curtains, +the gleaming little bit of embroidery. Yes, to me, too, these things +were wistfully precious, for it seemed as if part of her had passed into +them. It would have been like tearing out my heart-strings to part with +the smallest of them. + +"_Husband_, I'm so happy," she sighed. + +"Wife, dear, dear wife, I too." + +There was no need for words. Our lips met in passionate kisses, but the +next moment we started apart. Some one was coming up the garden path--a +tall figure of a man. I started as if I had seen a ghost. Could it +be?--then I rushed to the door. + +There on the porch stood Garry. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + + +As he stood before me once again it seemed as if the years had rolled +away, and we were boys together. A spate of tender memories came over +me, memories of the days of dreams and high resolves, when life rang +true, when men were brave and women pure. Once more I stood upon that +rock-envisaged coast, while below me the yeasty sea charged with a roar +the echoing caves. The gulls were glinting in the sunshine, and by their +little brown-thatched homes the fishermen were spreading out their nets. +High on the hillside in her garden I could see my mother idling among +her flowers. It all came back to me, that sunny shore, the whitewashed +cottages, the old grey house among the birches, the lift of +sheep-starred pasture, and above it the glooming dark of the heather +hills. + +And it was but three years ago. How life had changed! A thousand things +had happened. Fortune had come to me, love had come to me. I had lived, +I had learned. I was no longer a callow, uncouth lad. Yet, alas! I no +longer looked futurewards with joy; the savour of life was no more +sweet. It was another "me" I saw in my mirror that day, a "me" with a +face sorely lined, with hair grey-flecked, with eyes sad and bitter. +Little wonder Garry, as he stood there, stared at me so sorrowfully. + +"How you've changed, lad!" said he at last. + +"Have I, Garry? You're just about the same." + +But indeed he, too, had changed, had grown finer than my fondest +thoughts of him. He seemed to bring into the room the clean, sweet +breath of Glengyle, and I looked at him with admiration in my eyes. +Coming out of the cold, his colour was dazzling as that of a woman; his +deep blue eyes sparkled; his fair silky hair, from the pressure of his +cap, was moulded to the shape of his fine head. Oh, he was handsome, +this brother of mine, and I was proud, proud of him! + +"By all that's wonderful, what brought you here?" + +His teeth flashed in that clever, confident smile. + +"The stage. I just arrived a few minutes ago, and hurried here at once. +Aren't you glad to see me?" + +"Glad? Yes, indeed! I can't tell you how glad. But it's a shock to me +your coming so suddenly. You might have let me know." + +"Yes, it was a sudden resolve; I should have wired you. However, I +thought I would give you a surprise. How are you, old man?" + +"Me--oh, I'm all right, thanks." + +"Why, what's the matter with you, lad? You look ten years older. You +look older than your big brother now." + +"Yes, I daresay. It's the life, it's the land. A hard life and a hard +land." + +"Why don't you go out?" + +"I don't know, I don't know. I keep on planning to go out and then +something turns up, and I put it off a little longer. I suppose I ought +to go, but I'm tied up with mining interests. My partner is away in the +East, and I promised to stay in and look after things. I'm making money, +you see." + +"Not sacrificing your youth and health for that, are you?" + +"I don't know, I don't know." + +There was a puzzled look in his frank face, and for my part I was +strangely ill at ease. With all my joy at his coming, there was a sense +of anxiety, even of fear. I had not wanted him to come just then, to see +me there. I was not ready for him. I had planned otherwise. + +He was fixing me with a clear, penetrating look. For a moment his eyes +seemed to bore into me, then like a flash the charm came back into his +face. He laughed that ringing laugh of his. + +"Well, I was tired of roaming round the old place. Things are in good +order now. I've saved a little money and I thought I could afford to +travel a little, so I came up to see my wandering brother, and his +wonderful North." + +His gaze roved round the room. Suddenly it fell on the piece of +embroidery. He started slightly and I saw his eyes narrow, his mouth +set. His glance shifted to the piano with its litter of music. He looked +at me again, in an odd, bewildered way. He went on speaking, but there +was a queer constraint in his manner. + +"I'm going to stay here for a month, and then I want you to come back +with me. Come back home and get some of the old colour into your cheeks. +The country doesn't agree with you, but we'll have you all right pretty +soon. We'll have you flogging the trout pools and tramping over the +heather with a gun. You remember how--whir-r-r--the black-cock used to +rise up right at one's very feet. They've been very plentiful the last +two years. Oh, we'll have the good old times over again! You'll see, +we'll soon put you right." + +"It's good of you, Garry, to think so much of me; but I'm afraid, I'm +afraid I can't come just yet. I've got so much to do. I've got thirty +men working for me. I've just got to stay." + +He sighed. + +"Well, if you stay I'll stay, too. I don't like the way you're looking. +You're working too hard. Perhaps I can help you." + +"All right; I'm afraid you'll find it rather awful, though. No one lives +up here in winter if they possibly can avoid it. But for a time it will +interest you." + +"I think it will." And again his eyes stared fixedly at that piece of +embroidery on its little hoop. + +"I'm terribly, glad to see you anyway, Garry. There's no use talking, +words can't express things like that between us two. You know what I +mean. I'm glad to see you, and I'll do my best to make your visit a +happy one." + +Between the curtains that hung over the bedroom door I could see Berna +standing motionless. I wondered if he could see her too. His eyes +followed mine. They rested on the curtains and the strong, stern look +came into his face. Yet again he banished it with a sunny smile. + +"Mother's one regret was that you were not with her when she died. Do +you know, old man, I think she was always fonder of you than of me? You +were the sentimental one of the family, and Mother was always a gentle +dreamer. I took more after Dad; dry and practical, you know. Well, +Mother used to worry a good deal about you. She missed you dreadfully, +and before she died she made me promise I'd always stand by you, and +look after you if anything happened." + +"There's not much need of that, Garry. But thanks all the same, old man. +I've seen a lot in the past few years. I know something of the world +now. I've changed. I'm sort of disillusioned. I seem to have lost my +zest for things--but I know how to handle men, how to fight and how to +win." + +"It's not that, lad. You know that to win is often to lose. You were +never made for the fight, my brother. It's all been a mistake. You're +too sensitive, too high-strung for a fighting-man. You have too much +sentiment in you. Your spirit urged you to fields of conquest and +romance, yet by nature you were designed for the gentler life. If you +could have curbed your impulse and only dreamed your adventures, you +would have been the happier. Imagination's been a curse to you, boy. +You've tortured yourself all these years, and now you're paying the +penalty." + +"What penalty?" + +"You've lost your splendid capacity for happiness; your health's +undermined; your faith in mankind is destroyed. Is it worth while? +You've plunged into the fight and you've won. What does your victory +mean? Can it compare with what you've lost? Here, I haven't a third of +what you have, and yet I'm magnificently happy. I don't envy you. I am +going to enjoy every moment of my life. Oh, my brother, you've been +making a sad mistake, but it's not too late! You're young, young. It's +not too late." + +Then I saw that his words were true. I saw that I had never been meant +for the fierce battle of existence. Like those high-strung horses that +were the first to break their hearts on the trail, I was unsuited for it +all. Far better would I have been living the sweet, simple life of my +forefathers. My spirit had upheld me, but now I knew there was a poison +in my veins, that I was a sick man, that I had played the game and +won--at too great a cost. I was like a sprinter that breasts the tape, +only to be carried fainting from the field. Alas! I had gained success +only to find it was another name for failure. + +"Now," said Garry, "you must come home. Back there on the countryside we +can find you a sweet girl to marry. You will love her, have children and +forget all this. Come." + +I rose. I could no longer put it off. + +"Excuse me one moment," I said. I parted the curtains and entered the +bedroom. + +She was standing there, white to the lips and trembling. She looked at +me piteously. + +"I'm afraid," she faltered. + +"Be brave, little girl," I whispered, leading her forward. Then I threw +aside the curtain. + +"Garry," I said, "this is--this is Berna." + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + + +Garry, Berna--there they stood, face to face at last. Long ago I had +visioned this meeting, planned for, yet dreaded it, and now with utter +suddenness it had come. + +The girl had recovered her calm, and I must say she bore herself well. +In her clinging dress of simple white her figure was as slimly graceful +as that of a wood-nymph, her head poised as sweetly as a lily on its +stem. The fair hair rippled away in graceful lines from the fine brow, +and as she gazed at my brother there was a proud, high look in her eyes. + +And Garry--his smile had vanished. His face was cold and stern. There +was a stormy antagonism in his bearing. No doubt he saw in her a +creature who was preying on me, an influence for evil, an overwhelming +indictment against me of sin and guilt. All this I read in his eyes; +then Berna advanced to him with outstretched hand. + +"How do you do? I've heard so much about you I feel as if I'd known you +long ago." + +She was so winning, I could see he was quite taken aback. He took the +little white hand and looked down from his splendid height to the sweet +eyes that gazed into his. He bowed with icy politeness. + +"I feel flattered, I assure you, that my brother should have mentioned +me to you." + +Here he shot a dark look at me. + +"Sit down again, Garry," I said. "Berna and I want to talk to you." + +He complied, but with an ill grace. We all three sat down and a grave +constraint was upon us. Berna broke the silence. + +"What sort of a trip have you had?" + +He looked at her keenly. He saw a simple girl, shy and sweet, gazing at +him with a flattering interest. + +"Oh, not so bad. Travelling sixty miles a day on a jolting stage gets +monotonous, though. The road-houses were pretty decent as a rule, but +some were vile. However, it's all new and interesting to me." + +"You will stay with us for a time, won't you?" + +He favoured me with another grim look. + +"Well, that all depends--I haven't quite decided yet. I want to take +Athol here home with me." + +"Home----" There was a pathetic catch in her voice. Her eyes went round +the little room that meant "home" to her. + +"Yes, that will be nice," she faltered. Then, with a brave effort, she +broke into a lively conversation about the North. As she talked an +inspiration seemed to come to her. A light beaconed in her eyes. Her +face, fine as a cameo, became eager, rapt. She was telling him of the +magical summers, of the midnight sunsets, of the glorious largess of the +flowers, of the things that meant so much to her. She was wonderfully +animated. As I watched her I thought what a perfect little lady she was; +and I felt proud of her. + +He was listening carefully, with evident interest. Gradually his look of +stern antagonism had given way to one of attention. Yet I could see he +was not listening so much to her as he was studying her. His intent gaze +never moved from her face. + +Then I talked a while. The darkness had descended upon us, but the +embers in the open fireplace lighted the room with a rosy glow. I could +not see his eyes now, but I knew he was still watching us keenly. He +merely answered "yes" and "no" to our questions, and his voice was very +grave. Then, after a little, he rose to go. + +"I'll return to the hotel with you," I said. + +Berna gave us a pathetically anxious little look. There was a red spot +on each cheek and her eyes were bright. I could see she wanted to cry. + +"I'll be back in half an hour, dear," I said, while Garry gravely shook +hands with her. + +We did not speak on the way to his room. When we reached it he switched +on the light and turned to me. + +"Brother, who's this girl?" + +"She's--she's my housekeeper. That's all I can say at present, Garry." + +"Married?" + +"No." + +"Good God!" + +Stormily he paced the floor, while I watched him with a great calm. At +last he spoke. + +"Tell me about her." + +"Sit down, Garry; light a cigar. We may as well talk this thing over +quietly." + +"All right. Who is she?" + +"Berna," I said, lighting my cigar, "is a Jewess. She was born of an +unwed mother, and reared in the midst of misery and corruption." + +He stared at me. His mouth hardened; his brow contracted. + +"But," I went on, "I want to say this. You remember, Garry, Mother used +to tell us of our sister who died when she was a baby. I often used to +dream of my dead sister, and in my old, imaginative days I used to think +she had never died at all, but she had grown up and was with us. How we +would have loved her, would we not, Garry? Well, I tell you this--if our +sister had grown up she could have been no sweeter, purer, gentler than +this girl of mine, this Berna." + +He smiled ironically. + +"Then," he said, "if she is so wonderful, why, in the name of Heaven, +haven't you married her?" + +His manner towards her in the early part of the interview had hurt me, +had roused in me a certain perversity. I determined to stand by my guns. + +[Illustration: "Garry," I said, "this is--this is Berna"] + +"Marriage," said I, "isn't everything; often isn't anything. Love is, +and always will be, the great reality. It existed long before marriage +was ever thought of. Marriage is a good thing. It protects the wife and +the children. As a rule, it enforces constancy. But there's a higher +ideal of human companionship that is based on love alone, love so +perfect, so absolute that legal bondage insults it; love that is its own +justification. Such a love is ours." + +The ironical look deepened to a sneer. + +"And look you here, Garry," I went on; "I am living in Dawson in what +you would call 'shame.' Well, let me tell you, there's not ninety-nine +in a hundred legally married couples that have formed such a sweet, +love-sanctified union as we have. That girl is purest gold, a pearl of +untold price. There has never been a jar in the harmony of our lives. We +love each other absolutely. We trust and believe in each other. We would +make any sacrifice for each other. And, I say it again, our marriage is +tenfold holier than ninety-nine out of a hundred of those performed with +all the pomp of surplice and sacristy." + +"Oh, man! man!" he said crushingly, "what's got into you? What nonsense, +what clap-trap is this? I tell you that the old way, the way that has +stood for generations, is the best, and it's a sorry day I find a +brother of mine talking such nonsense. I'm almost glad Mother's dead. It +would surely have broken her heart to know that her son was living in +sin and shame, living with a----" + +"Easy now, Garry," I cautioned him. We faced each other with the table +between us. + +"I'm going to have my say out. I've come all this way to say it, and +you've got to hear me. You're my brother. God knows I love you. I +promised I'd look after you, and now I'm going to save you if I can." + +"Garry," I broke in, "I'm younger than you, and I respect you; but in +the last few years I've grown to see things different from the way we +were taught; broader, clearer, saner, somehow. We can't always follow in +the narrow path of our forefathers. We must think and act for ourselves +in these days. I see no sin and shame in what I'm doing. We love each +other--that is our vindication. It's a pure, white light that dims all +else. If you had seen and striven and suffered as I have done, you might +think as I do. But you've got your smug old-fashioned notions. You gaze +at the trees so hard you can't see the forest. Yours is an ideal, too; +but mine is a purer, more exalted one." + +"Balderdash!" he cried. "Oh, you anger me! Look here, Athol, I came all +this way to see you about this matter. It's a long way to come, but I +knew my brother was needing me and I'd have gone round the world for +you. You never told me anything of this girl in your letters. You were +ashamed." + +"I knew I could never make you understand." + +"You might have tried. I'm not so dense in the understanding. No, you +would not tell me, and I've had letters, warning letters. It was left to +other people to tell me how you drank and gambled and squandered your +money; how you were like to a madman. They told me you had settled down +to live with one of the creatures, a woman who had made her living in +the dance-halls, and every one knows no woman ever did that and remained +straight. They warned me of the character of this girl, of your +infatuation, of your callousness to public opinion. They told me how +barefaced, how shameless you were. They begged me to try and save you. I +would not believe it, but now I've come to see for myself, and it's all +true, it's all true." + +He bowed his head in emotion. + +"Oh, she's good!" I cried. "If you knew her you would think so, too. +You, too, would love her." + +"Heaven forbid! Boy, I must save you. I must, for the honour of the old +name that's never been tarnished. I must make you come home with me." + +He put both hands on my shoulders, looking commandingly into my face. + +"No, no," I said, "I'll never leave her." + +"It will be all right. We can pay her. It can be arranged. Think of the +honour of the old name, lad." + +I shook him off. "Pay!"--I laughed ironically. "Pay" in connection with +the name of Berna--again I laughed. + +"She's good," I said once again. "Wait a little till you know her. Don't +judge her yet. Wait a little." + +He saw it was of no use to waste further words on me. He sighed. + +"Well, well," he said, "have it your own way. I think she's ruining you. +She's dragging you down, sapping your moral principles, lowering your +standard of pure living. She must be bad, bad, or she wouldn't live with +you like that. But have it your own way, boy; I'll wait and see." + + + + +CHAPTER XX + + +In the crystalline days that followed I did much to bring about a +friendship between Garry and Berna. At first I had difficulty in +dragging him to the house, but in a little while he came quite +willingly. The girl, too, aided me greatly. In her sweet, shy way she +did her best to win his regard, so that as the winter advanced a great +change came over him. He threw off that stern manner of his as an actor +throws off a part, and once again he was the dear old Garry I knew and +loved. + +His sunny charm returned, and with it his brilliant smile, his warm, +endearing frankness. He was now twenty-eight, and if there was a +handsomer man in the Northland I had yet to see him. I often envied him +for his fine figure and his clean, vivid colour. It was a wonderfully +expressive face that looked at you, firm and manly, and, above all, +clever. You found a pleasure in the resonant sweetness of his voice. You +were drawn irresistibly to the man, even as you would have been drawn to +a beautiful woman. He was winning, lovable, yet back of all his charm +there was that great quality of strength, of austere purpose. + +He made a hit with every one, and I verily believe that half the women +in the town were in love with him. However, he was quite unconscious of +it, and he stalked through the streets with the gait of a young god. I +knew there were some who for a smile would have followed him to the ends +of the earth, but Garry was always a man's man. Never do I remember the +time when he took an interest in a woman. I often thought, if women +could have the man of their choice, a few handsome ones like Garry would +monopolise them, while we common mortals would go wifeless. Sometimes it +has seemed to me that love is but a second-hand article, and that our +matings are at best only makeshifts. + +I must say I tried very hard to reconcile those two. I threw them +together on every opportunity, for I wanted him to understand and to +love her. I felt he had but to know her to appreciate her at her true +value, and, although he spoke no word to me, I was soon conscious of a +vast change in him. Short of brotherly regard, he was everything that +could be desired to her--cordial, friendly, charming. Once I asked Berna +what she thought of him. + +"I think he's splendid," she said quietly. "He's the handsomest man I've +ever seen, and he's as nice as he's good-looking. In many ways you +remind me of him--and yet there's a difference." + +"I remind you of him--no, girl. I'm not worthy to be his valet. He's as +much above me as I am above--say a siwash. He has all the virtues; I, +all the faults. Sometimes I look at him and I see in him my ideal self. +He is all strength, all nobility, while I am but a commonplace mortal, +full of human weaknesses. He is the self I should have been if the worst +had been the best." + +"Hush! you are my sweetheart," she assured me with a caress, "and the +dearest in the world." + +"By the way, Berna," I said, "you remember something we talked about +before he came? Don't you think that now----?" + +"Now----?" + +"Yes." + +"All right." She flashed a glad, tender look at me and left the room. +That night she was strangely elated. + +Every evening Garry would drop in and talk to us. Berna would look at +him as he talked and her eyes would brighten and her cheeks flush. On +both of us he had a strangely buoyant effect. How happy we could be, +just we three. It was splendid having near me the two I loved best on +earth. + +That was a memorable winter, mild and bright and buoyant. At last Spring +came with gracious days of sunshine. The sleighing was glorious, but I +was busy, very busy, so that I was glad to send Garry and Berna off +together in a smart cutter, and see them come home with their cheeks +like roses, their eyes sparkling and laughter in their voices. I never +saw Berna looking so well and happy. + +I was head over ears in work. In a mail just arrived I had a letter from +the Prodigal, and a certain paragraph in it set me pondering. Here it +was: + + "You must look out for Locasto. He was in New York a week ago. He's + down and out. Blood-poisoning set in in his foot after he got + outside, and eventually he had to have it taken off. He's got a + false mit for the one Mac sawed off. But you should see him. He's + all shot to pieces with the 'hooch.' It's a fright the pace he's + gone. I had an interview with him, and he raved and blasphemed + horribly. Seemed to have a terrible pick at you. Seems you have + copped out his best girl, the only one he ever cared a red cent + for. Said he would get even with you if he swung for it. I think + he's dangerous, even a madman. He is leaving for the North now, so + be on your guard." + +Locasto coming! I had almost forgotten his existence. Well, I no longer +cared for him. I could afford to despise him. Surely he would never dare +to molest us. If he did--he was a broken, discredited blackguard. I +could crush him. + +Coming here! He must even now be on the way. I had a vision of him +speeding along that desolate trail, sitting in the sleigh wrapped in +furs, and brooding, brooding. As day after day the spell of the great +and gloomy land grew on his spirit, I could see the sombre eyes darken +and deepen. I could see him in the road-house at night, gaunt and +haggard, drinking at the bar, a desperate, degraded cripple. I could see +him growing more reckless every day, every hour. He was coming back to +the scene of his ruined fortunes, and God knows with what wild schemes +of vengeance his heart was full. Decidedly I must beware. + +As I sat there dreaming, a ring came to the 'phone. It was the foreman +at Gold Hill. + +"The hoisting machine has broken down," he told me. "Can you come out +and see what is required?" + +"All right," I replied. "I'll leave at once." + +"Berna," I said, "I'll have to go out to the Forks to-night. I'll be +back early to-morrow. Get me a bite to eat, dear, while I go round and +order the horse." + +On my way I met Garry and told him I would be gone over night. "Won't +you come?" I asked. + +"No, thanks, old man, I don't feel like a night drive." + +"All right. Good-bye." + +So I hurried off, and soon after, with a jingle of bells, I drove up to +my door. Berna had made supper. She seemed excited. Her eyes were starry +bright, her cheeks burned. + +"Aren't you well, sweetheart?" I asked. "You look feverish." + +"Yes, dear, I'm well. But I don't want you to go to-night. Something +tells me you shouldn't. Please don't go, dear. Please, for my sake." + +"Oh, nonsense, Berna! You know I've been away before. Get one of the +neighbour's wives to sleep with you. Get in Mrs. Brooks." + +"Oh, don't go, don't go, I beg you, dear. I don't want you to. I'm +afraid, I'm afraid. Won't some one else do?" + +"Nonsense, girl. You mustn't be so foolish. It's only for a few hours. +Here, I'll ring up Mrs. Brooks and you can ask her." + +She sighed. "No, never mind. I'll ring her up after you've gone." + +She clung to me tightly, so that I wondered what had got into the girl. +Then gently I kissed her, disengaged her hands, and bade her good-night. + +As I was rattling off through the darkness, a boy handed me a note. I +put it in my pocket, thinking I would read it when I reached Ogilvie +Bridge. Then I whipped up the horse. + +The night was crisp and exhilarating. I had one of the best trotters in +the country, and the sleighing was superb. As I sped along, with a +jingle of bells, my spirits rose. Things were looking splendid. The mine +was turning out far better than we had expected. Surely we could sell +out soon, and I would have all the money I wanted. Even then the +Prodigal was putting through a deal in New York that would realise our +fortunes. My life-struggle was nearly over. + +Then again, I had reconciled Garry to Berna. When I told him of a +certain secret I was hugging to my breast he would capitulate entirely. +How happy we would all be! I would buy a small estate near home, and we +would settle down. But first we would spend a few years in travel. We +would see the whole world. What good times we would have, Berna and I! +Bless her! It had all worked out beautifully. + +Why was she so frightened, so loath to let me go? I wondered vaguely and +flicked up the horse so that it plunged sharply forward. The vast +blue-black sky was like an inverted gold-pan and the stars were flake +colours adhering to it. The cold snapped at me till my cheeks tingled, +and my eyes felt as if they could spark. Oh, life was sweet! + +Bother! In my elation I had forgotten to get off at the Old Inn and +read my note. Never mind, I would keep it till I reached the Forks. + +As I spun along, I thought of how changed it all was from the Bonanza I +first knew. How I remembered tramping along that hillside slope, packing +a sack of flour over a muddy trail, a poor miner in muddy overalls! Now +I was driving a smart horse on a fine road. I was an operator of a +first-class mine. I was a man of business, of experience. Higher and +higher my spirits rose. + +How fast the horse flew! I would be at the Forks in no time. I flashed +past cabin windows. I saw the solitary oil-lamp and the miner reading +his book or filling his pipe. Never was there a finer, more intelligent +man; but his day was passing. The whole country was falling into the +hands of companies. Soon, thought I, one or two big combines would +control the whole wealth of that land. Already they had their eyes on +it. The gold-ships would float and roar where the old-time miner toiled +with pick and pan. Change! Change! + +I almost fancied I could see the monster dredges ploughing up the +valley, where now men panted at the windlass. I could see vast heaps of +tailings filling the creek-bed; I could hear the crash of the steel +grizzlies; I could see the buckets scooping up the pay-dirt. I felt +strangely prophetic. My imagination ran riot in all kinds of wonders, +great power plants, quartz discoveries. Change! Change! + +Yes, the stamp-mill would add its thunder to the other voices; the +country would be netted with wires, and clamorous for far and wide. Man +had sought out this land where Silence had reigned so long. He had +awakened the echoes with the shot of his rifle and the ring of his axe. +Silence had raised a startled head and poised there, listening. Then, +with crack of pick and boom of blast, man had hurled her back. Further +and further had he driven her. With his advancing horde, mad in their +lust for the loot of the valley, he had banished her. His engines had +frightened her with their canorous roar. His crashing giants had driven +her cowering to the inviolate fastnesses of her hills. And there she +broods and waits. + +But Silence will return. To her was given the land that she might rule +and have dominion over it forever. And in a few years the clamour will +cease, the din will die away. In a few years the treasure will be +exhausted, and the looters will depart. The engines will lie in rust and +ruin; the wind will sweep through the empty homes; the tailing-piles lie +pallid in the moon. Then the last man will strike the last blow, and +Silence will come again into her own. + +Yea, Silence will come home once more. Again will she rule despotic over +peak and plain. She is only waiting, brooding in the impregnable +desolation of her hills. To her has been given empery of the land, and +hand in hand with Darkness will she return. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + + +Ha! here I had reached the Forks at last. As I drew up at the hotel, the +clerk came out to meet me. + +"Gent wants to speak to you at the 'phone, sir." + +It was Murray of Dawson, an old-timer, and rather a friend of mine. + +"Hello!" + +"Hello! Say, Meldrum, this is Murray speaking. Say, just wanted to let +you know there's a stage due some time before morning. Locasto's on +board, and they say he's heeled for you. Thought I'd better tell you +so's you can get fixed up for him." + +"All right," I answered. "Thank you. I'll turn and come right back." + +So I switched round the horse, and once more I drove over the glistening +road. No longer did I plan and exult. Indeed a grim fear was gripping +me. Of a sudden the shadow of Locasto loomed up sinister and menacing. +Even now he was speeding Dawsonward with a great hatred of me in his +heart. Well, I would get back and prepare for him. + +There came to my mind a comic perception of the awkwardness of returning +to one's own home unexpectedly, in the dead of night. At first I decided +I would go to a hotel, then on second thoughts I determined to try the +house, for I had a desire to be near Berna. + +I knocked gently, then a little louder, then at last quite loudly. +Within all was still, dark as a sepulchre. Curious! she was such a light +sleeper, too. Why did she not hear me? + +Once more I decided to go to the hotel; once more that vague, indefinite +fear assailed me and again I knocked. And now my fear was becoming a +panic. I had my latch-key in my pocket, so very quietly I opened the +door. + +I was in the front room, and it was dark, very dark and quiet. I could +not even hear her breathe. + +"Berna," I whispered. + +No reply. + +That dim, nameless dread was clutching at my heart, and I groped +overhead in the darkness for the drop-light. How hard it was to find! A +dozen times my hand circled in the air before I knocked my knuckles +against it. I switched it on. + +Instantly the cabin was flooded with light. In the dining-room I could +see the remains of our supper lying untidily. That was not like her. She +had a horror of dirty dishes. I passed into the bedroom--Ah! the bed had +never been slept on. + +What a fool I was! It flashed on me she had gone over to Mrs. Brooks' to +sleep. She was afraid of being alone. Poor little girl! How surprised +she would be to see me in the morning! + +Well, I would go to bed. As I was pulling off my coat, I found the note +that had been given to me. Blaming myself for my carelessness, I pulled +it out of my pocket and opened it. As I unfolded the sheet, I noticed +it was written in what looked like a disguised hand. Strange! I thought. +The writing was small and faint. I rubbed my eyes and held it up to the +light. + +Merciful God! What was this? Oh no, it could not be! My eyes were +deceiving me. It was some illusion. Feverishly I read again. Yes, they +were the same words. What could they mean? Surely, surely--Oh, horror on +horrors! They could not mean THAT. Again I read them. Yes, there they +were: + + "If you are fool enough to believe that Berna is faithful to you + visit your brother's room to-night. + + "A wellwisher." + +Berna! Garry!--the two I loved. Oh, it could not be! It was monstrous! +It was too horrible! I would not believe it; I would not. Curse the vile +wretch that wrote such words! I would kill him. Berna! my Berna! she was +as good as gold, as true as steel. Garry! I would lay my life on his +honour. Oh, vile calumny! what devil had put so foul a thing in words? +God! it hurt me so, it hurt me so! + +Dazedly I sat down. A sudden rush of heat was followed by a sweat that +pricked out of me and left me cold. I trembled. I saw a ghastly vision +of myself in a mirror. I felt sick, sick. Going to the decanter on the +bureau, I poured myself a stiff jolt of whisky. + +Again I sat down. The paper lay on the hearthrug, and I stared at it +hatefully. It was unspeakably loathsome, yet I was fascinated by it. I +longed to take it up, to read it again. Somehow I did not dare. I was +becoming a coward. + +Well, it was a lie, a black devil's lie. She was with one of the +neighbours. I trusted her. I would trust her with my life. I would go to +bed. In the morning she would return, and then I would unearth the +wretch who had dared to write such things. I began to undress. + +Slowly I unfastened my collar--that cursed paper; there it lay. Again it +fascinated me. I stood glaring at it. Oh, fool! fool! go to bed. + +Wearily I took off my clothes--Oh, that devilish note! It was burning +into my brain--it would drive me mad. In a frenzy of rage, I took it up +as if it were some leprous thing, and dropped it in the fire. + +There I lay in bed with the darkness enfolding me, and I closed my eyes +to make a double darkness. Ha! right in the centre of my eyes, burned +the fatal paper with its atrocious suggestion. I sprang up. It was of no +use. I must settle this thing once and for all. I turned on the light +and deliberately dressed again. + +I was going to the hotel where Garry had his room. I would tell him I +had come back unexpectedly and ask to share his room. I was not acting +on the note! I did not suspect her. Heaven forbid! But the thing had +unnerved me. I could not stay in this place. + +The hotel was quiet. A sleepy night-clerk stared at me, and I pushed +past him. Garry's rooms were on the third floor. As I climbed the long +stairway, my heart was beating painfully, and when I reached his door I +was sadly out of breath. Through the transom I could see his light was +burning. + +I knocked faintly. + +There was a sudden stir. + +Again I knocked. + +Did my ears deceive me or did I hear a woman's startled cry? There was +something familiar about it--Oh, my God! + +I reeled. I almost fell. I clutched at the doorframe. I leaned sickly +against the door for support. Heaven help me! + +"I'm coming," I heard him say. + +The door was unlocked, and there he stood. He was fully dressed. He +looked at me with an expression on his face I could not define, but he +was very calm. + +"Come in," he said. + +I went into his sitting-room. Everything was in order. I would have +sworn I heard a woman scream, and yet no one was in sight. The bedroom +door was slightly ajar. I eyed it in a fascinated way. + +"I'm sorry to disturb you, Garry," I said, and I was conscious how +strained and queer my voice sounded. "I got back suddenly, and there's +no one at home. I want to stay here with you, if you don't mind." + +"Certainly, old man; only too glad to have you." + +His voice was steady. I sat down on the edge of a chair. My eyes were +riveted on that bedroom door. + +"Had a good drive?" he went on genially. "You must be cold. Let me give +you some whisky." + +My teeth were chattering. I clutched the chair. Oh, that door! My eyes +were fastened on it. I was convinced I heard some one in there. He rose +to get the whisky. + +"Say when?" + +I held the glass with a shaking hand: + +"When." + +"What's the matter, old man? You're ill." + +I clutched him by the arm. + +"Garry, there's some one in that room." + +"Nonsense! there's no one there." + +"There is, I tell you. Listen! Don't you hear them breathing?" + +He was quiet. Distinctly I could hear the panting of human breath. I was +going mad, mad. I could stand it no longer. + +"Garry," I gasped, "I'm going to see, I'm going to see." + +"Don't----" + +"Yes, I must, I say. Let me go. I'll drag them out." + +"Hold on----" + +"Leave go, man! I'm going, I say. You won't hold me. Let go, I tell you, +let go--Now come out, come out, whoever you are--Ah!" + +It was a woman. + +"Ha!" I cried, "I told you so, brother; a woman. I think I know her, +too. Here, let me see--I thought so." + +I had clutched her, pulled her to the light. It was Berna. + +Her face was white as chalk, her eyes dilated with terror. She trembled. +She seemed near fainting. + +"I thought so." + +Now that it seemed the worst was betrayed to me, I was strangely calm. + +"Berna, you're faint. Let me lead you to a chair." + +I made her sit down. She said no word, but looked at me with a wild +pleading in her eyes. No one spoke. + +There we were, the three of us: Berna faint with fear, ghastly, pitiful; +I calm, yet calm with a strange, unnatural calmness, and Garry--he +surprised me. He had seated himself, and with the greatest _sang-froid_ +he was lighting a cigarette. + +A long tense silence. At last I broke it. + +"What have you got to say for yourself, Garry?" I asked. + +It was wonderful how calm he was. + +"Looks pretty bad, doesn't it, brother?" he said gravely. + +"Yes, it couldn't look worse." + +"Looks as if I was a pretty base, despicable specimen of a man, doesn't +it?" + +"Yes, about as base as a man could be." + +"That's so." He rose and turned up the light of a large reading-lamp, +then coming to me he looked me square in the face. Abruptly his casual +manner dropped. He grew sharp, forceful; his voice rang clear. + +"Listen to me." + +"I'm listening." + +"I came out here to save you, and I'm going to save you. You wanted me +to believe that this girl was good. You believed it. You were bewitched, +befooled, blinded. I could see it, but I had to make you see it. I had +to make you realise how worthless she was, how her love for you was a +sham, a pretence to prey on you. How could I prove it? You would not +listen to reason: I had to take other means. Now, hear me." + +"I hear." + +"I laid my plans. For three months I've tried to conquer her, to win her +love, to take her from you. She was truer to you than I had bargained +for; I must give her credit for that. She made a good fight, but I think +I have triumphed. To-night she came to my room at my invitation." + +"Well?" + +"Well. You got a note. _Now, I wrote that note._ I planned this scene, +this discovery. I planned it so that your eyes would be opened, so that +you would see what she was, so that you would cast her from +you--unfaithful, a wanton, a----" + +"Hold on there," I broke in; "brother of mine or no, I won't hear you +call her those names; no, not if she were ten times as unfaithful. You +won't, I say. I'll choke the words in your throat. I'll kill you, if +you utter a word against her. Oh, what have you done?" + +"What have I done! Try to be calm, man. What have I done? Well, this is +what I've done, and it's the lucky day for you I've done it. I've saved +you from shame; I've freed you from sin; I've shown you the baseness of +this girl." + +He rose to his feet. + +"Oh, my brother, I've stolen from you your mistress; that's what I've +done." + +"Oh, no, you haven't," I groaned. "God forgive you, Garry; God forgive +you! She's not my--not what you think. She's my _wife_!" + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + + +I thought that he would faint. His face went white as paper and he +shrank back. He gazed at me with wild, straining eyes. + +"God forgive me! Oh, why didn't you tell me, boy? Why didn't you tell +me?" + +In his voice there was a note more poignant than a sob. + +"You should have trusted me," he went on. "You should have told me. When +were you married?" + +"Just a month ago. I was keeping it as a surprise for you. I was waiting +till you said you liked and thought well of her. Oh, I thought you would +be pleased and glad, and I was treasuring it up to tell you." + +"This is terrible, terrible!" + +His voice was choked with agony. On her chair, Berna drooped wearily. +Her wide, staring eyes were fixed on the floor in pitiful perplexity. + +"Yes, it's terrible enough. We were so happy. We lived so joyously +together. Everything was perfect, a heaven for us both. And then you +came, you with your charm that would lure an angel from high heaven. You +tried your power on my poor little girl, the girl that never loved but +me. And I trusted you, I tried to make you and her friends. I left you +together. In my blind innocence I aided you in every way--a simple, +loving fool. Oh, now I see!" + +"Yes, yes, I know. Your words stab me. It's all true, true." + +"You came like a serpent, a foul, crawling thing, to steal her from me, +to wrong me. She was loving, faithful, pure. You would have dragged her +in the mire. You----" + +"Stop, brother, stop, for Heaven's sake! You wrong me." + +He held out his hand commandingly. A wonderful change had come over him. +His face had regained its calm. It was proud, stern. + +"You must not think I would have been guilty of that," he said quietly. +"I've played a part I never thought to play; I've done a thing I never +thought to have dirtied my hands in the doing, and I'm sorry and ashamed +for it. But I tell you, Athol--that's all. As God's my witness, I've +done you no wrong. Surely you don't think me as low as that? Surely you +don't believe that of me? I did what I did for my very love for you, for +your honour's sake. I asked her here that you might see what she +was--but that's all, I swear it. She's been as safe as if in a cage of +steel." + +"I know it," I said; "I know it. You don't need to tell me that. You +brought her here to expose her, to show me what a fool I was. It didn't +matter how much it hurt me, the more the better, anything to save the +name. You would have broken my heart, sacrificed me on the altar of +your accursed pride. Oh, I can see plainly now! There's a thousand years +of prejudice and bigotry concentrated in you. Thank God, I have a human +heart!" + +"I thought I was acting for the best!" he cried. + +I laughed scornfully. + +"I know it--according to your lights. You asked her here that I might +see what she was. You tell me you have gained her love; you say she came +here at your bidding; you swear she would have been unfaithful to me. +Well, I tell you, brother of mine, in your teeth I tell you--_I don't +believe you!_" + +Suddenly the little, drooping figure on the chair had raised itself; the +white, woe-begone face with the wide, staring eyes was turned towards +me; the pitiful look had gone, and in its stead was one of wild, +unspeakable joy. + +"It's all right, Berna," I said; "I don't believe him, and if a million +others were to say the same, if they were to thunder it in my ears down +all eternity, I would tell them they lied, they lied!" + +A heaven-lit radiance was in the grey eyes. She made as if to come to +me, but she swayed, and I caught her in my arms. + +"Don't be frightened, little girl. Give me your hand. See! I'll kiss it, +dear. Now, don't cry; don't, honey." + +Her arms were around me. She clung to me ever so tightly. + +"Garry," I said, "this is my wife. When I have lost my belief in all +else, I will believe in her. You have made us both suffer. As for what +you've said--you're mistaken. She's a good, good girl. I will not +believe that by thought, word or deed she has been untrue to me. She +will explain everything. Now, good-bye. Come, Berna." + +Suddenly she stopped me. Her hand was on my arm, and she turned towards +Garry. She held herself as proudly as a queen. + +"I want to explain now," she said, "before you both." + +She pulled from her bosom a little crumpled note, and handed it to me. +Then, as I read it, a great light burst on me. Here it was: + + "Dear Berna: + + "For heaven's sake be on your guard. Jack Locasto is on his way + north again. I think he's crazy. I know he'll stick at nothing, and + I don't want to see blood spilt. He says he means to wipe out all + old scores. For your sake, and for the sake of one dear to you, be + warned. + + "In haste, + + "Viola Lennoir." + +"I got it two days ago," she said. "Oh, I've been distracted with fear. +I did not like to show it to you. I've brought you nothing but trouble, +and I've never spoken of him, never once. You understand, don't you?" + +"Yes, little girl, I understand." + +"I wanted to save you, no matter at what cost. To-night I tried to +prevent you going out there, for I feared you might meet him. I knew he +was very near. Then, when you had gone, my fear grew and grew. There I +sat, thinking over everything. Oh, if I only had a friend, I thought; +some one to help me. Then, as I sat, dazed, distracted, the 'phone rang. +It was your brother." + +"Yes, go on, dear." + +"He told me he wanted to see me; he begged me to come at once. I thought +of you, of your danger, of some terrible mishap. I was terrified. I +went." + +She paused a moment, as if the recital was infinitely painful to her, +then she went on. + +"I found my way to his room. My mind was full of you, of that man, of +how to save you. I did not think of myself, of my position. At first I +was too agitated to speak. He bade me sit down, compose myself. His +manner was quiet, grave. Again I feared for you. He asked me to excuse +him for a moment, and left the room. He seemed to be gone an age, while +I sat there, trying to fight down my terror. The suspense was killing +me. Then he came back. He closed and locked the door. All at once I +heard a step outside, a knock. 'Hush! go in there,' he said. He opened +the door. I heard him speaking to some one. I waited, then you burst in +on me. You know the rest." + +"Yes, yes." + +"As for your brother, I've tried, oh, so hard, to be nice to him for +your sake. I liked him; I wanted to be to him as a sister, but never an +unfaithful thought has entered my head, never a wrong feeling sullied my +heart. I've been true to you. You told me once of a love that gives all +and asks for nothing; a love that would turn its back on friends and +kindred for the sake of its beloved. You said: 'His smile will be your +rapture, his frown your anguish. For him will you dare all, bear all. To +him will you cling in sorrow, suffering and poverty. Living, you would +follow him round the world; dying, you would desire but him.'--Well, I +think I love you like that." + +"Oh, my dear, my dear!" + +"I want to bring you happiness, but I only bring you trouble, sorrow. +Sometimes, for your sake, I wish we had never met." + +She turned to Garry. + +"As for you, you've done me a great wrong. I can never forget it. Will +you go now, and leave us in peace?" + +His head was bent, so that I could not see his face. + +"Can you not forgive?" he groaned. + +She shook her head sadly. "No, I am afraid I can never forgive." + +"Can I do nothing to atone?" + +"No, I'm afraid your punishment must be--that you can do nothing." + +He said never a word. She turned to me: + +"Come, my husband, we will go." + +I was opening the door to leave him forever. Suddenly I heard a step +coming up the stairs, a heavy, hurried tread. I looked down a moment, +then I pushed her back into the room. + +"Be prepared, Berna," I said quietly; "here comes Locasto." + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + + +There we waited, Garry and I, and between us Berna. We heard that heavy +tread come up, up the creaking stairway, stumble a moment, then pause on +the landing. There was something ominous, something pregnant in that +pause. The steps halted, wavered a little, then, inflexible as doom, on +they came towards us. The next instant the door was thrown open, and +Locasto stood in the entrance. + +Even in that brief moment I was struck by the change in him. He seemed +to have aged by twenty years. He was gaunt and lank as a starved timber +wolf; his face was hollow almost as a death's head; his hair was long +and matted, and his eyes burned with a strange, unnatural fire. In that +dark, aquiline face the Indian was never more strongly revealed. He +limped, and I noticed his left hand was gloved. + +From under his bristling brows he glared at us. As he swayed there he +minded me of an evil beast, a savage creature, a mad, desperate thing. +He reeled in the doorway, and to steady himself put out his gloved hand. +Then with a malignant laugh, the fleering laugh of a fiend, he stepped +into the room. + +"So! Seems as if I'd lighted on a pretty nest of love-birds. Ho! ho! my +sweet! You're not satisfied with one lover, you must have two. Well, you +are going to be satisfied with one from now on, and that's Jack +Locasto. I've stood enough from you, you white-faced jade. You've +haunted me, you've put some kind of a spell on me. You've lured me back +to this land, and now I'm going to have you or die! You've played with +me long enough. The jig's up. Stand out from between those two. Stand +out, I say! March out of that door." + +She only shrank back the farther. + +"You won't come, curse you; you won't come, you milk-faced witch, with +your great eyes that bore holes in me, that turn my heart to fire, that +make me mad. You won't come. Stand back there, you two, and let the girl +come." + +We shielded her. + +"Ha! that's it--you defy me. You won't let me get her. Well, it'll be +all the worse for her. I'll make her life a hell. I'll beat her. You +won't stand back. You, the dark one--don't I know you; haven't I hated +you more than the devil hates a saint; hated you worse than bitter +poison? These three black years you've balked me, you've kept her from +me. Oh, I've itched to kill you times without number, and I've spared +you. But now it's my call. Stand back there, stand back I say. Your +time's come. Here's where I shoot." + +His hand leapt up and I saw it gripped a revolver. He had me covered. +His face was contorted with devilish triumph, and I knew he meant to +kill. At last, at last my time had come. I saw his fingers twitching on +the trigger, I gazed into the hollow horror of that barrel. My heart +turned to ice. I could not breathe. Oh, for a respite, a moment--Ugh!... +he pulled the trigger, and, _at the same instant, Garry sprang at him_! + +What had happened? The shot rang in my ears. I was still standing there. +I felt no wound. I felt no pain. Then, as I stared at my enemy, I heard +a heavy fall. Oh, God! there at my feet lay Garry, lay in a huddled, +quivering heap, lay on his face, and in his fair hair I saw a dark stain +start and spread. Then, in a moment, I realised what my brother had +done. + +I fell on my knees beside him. + +"Garry, Garry!" I moaned. I heard Berna scream, and I saw that Locasto +was coming for me. He was a man no longer. He had killed. He was a +brute, a fury, a devil, mad with the lust of slaughter. With a snarl he +dashed at me. Again I thought he was going to shoot, but no! He raised +the heavy revolver and brought it crashing down on my head. I felt the +blow fall, and with it my strength seemed to shoot out of me. My legs +were paralysed. I could not move. And, as I lay there in a misty daze, +he advanced on Berna. + +There she stood at bay, a horror-stricken thing, weak, panting, +desperate. I saw him corner her. His hands were stretched out to clutch +her; a moment more and he would have her in his arms, a moment--ah! With +a suddenness that was like a flash she had raised the heavy reading-lamp +and dashed it in his face. + +I heard his shriek of fear; I saw him fall as the thing crashed between +his eyes; I saw the flames spurt and leap. High in the air he rose, +awful in his agony. He was in a shroud of fire; he was in a pool of +flame. He howled like a dog and fell over on the bed. + +Then suddenly the oil-soaked bedding caught. The curtains seemed to leap +and change into flame. As he rolled and roared in his agony, the blaze +ran up the walls, and caught the roof. Help, help! the room was afire, +was burning up. Fire! Fire! + +Out in the corridor I heard a great running about, shouting of men, +screaming of women. The whole place seemed to be alive, panic-stricken, +frenzied with fear. Everything was in flames now, burning fiercely, +madly, and there was no stopping them. The hotel was burning, and I, +too, must burn. What a horrible end! Oh, if I could only do something! +But I could not move. From the waist down I was like a dead man. Where +was Berna? Pray God she was safe. I could not cry for aid. The room was +reeling round and round. I was faint, dizzy, helpless. + +The hotel was ablaze. In the streets below crowds were gathering. People +were running up and down the stairway, fighting to get free, mad with +terror, leaping from the windows. Oh, it was awful, to burn, to burn! I +seemed to be caged in flames that were darting at me savagely, +spitefully. Would nobody save me? + +Yes, some one was trying to save me, was dragging my body across the +floor. Consciousness left me, and it seemed for ages I lay in a stupor. +When I opened my eyes again some one was still tugging at me. We were +going down the stairway, and on all sides of us were sheets of flapping +flame. I was wrapped in a blanket. How had it got there? Who was that +dark figure pulling at me so desperately, trying to lift me, staggering +a few paces with me, stumbling blindly on? Brave one, noble one, whoever +you be! Foolhardy one, reckless one, whoever you be! Save yourself while +yet there is time. Leave me to my fate. But, oh, the agony of it to +burn, to burn ...! + + * * * * * + +Another desperate effort and we are almost at the door. Flames are +darting at us like serpents, leaping kitten-like at our heels. Above us +is a billowy canopy of fire soaring upward with a vast crackling roar. +Fiery splinters shoot around us, while before us is a black pit of +smoke. Smooth walls of fire uprear about us. We are in a cavern of fire, +and in another moment it will engulf us. Oh, my rescuer, a last frenzied +effort! We are almost at the door. Then I am lifted up and we both +tumble out into the street. Not a second too soon, for, like a savage +beast foiled of its prey, a blast of flame shoots after us, and the +doorway is a gulf of blazing wrath. + + * * * * * + +I am lying in the snow, lying on a blanket, and some one holds my head. + +"Berna, is that you?" + +She nods. She does not speak. I shudder as I look at her. Her face is +like a great burn, a black mask in which her eyes and teeth gleam +whitely.... + +"Oh, Berna, Berna, and it was you that dragged me out...!" + + * * * * * + +My eyes go to the fiery hell in front. As I look the roof crashes in and +we are showered by falling sparks. I see a fireman run back. He is +swathed in flame. Madly he rolls in the snow. The hotel is like a +cascade of flame; it spouts outward like water, beautiful golden water. +In its centre is a wonderful whirlpool. I see the line of a black girder +leap out, and hanging over it a limp, charred shape. A moment it hangs +uncertainly, then plunges downward into the roasting heart of the pit. +And I know it for Locasto. + + * * * * * + +Oh, Berna, Berna! I can't bear to look at her. Why did she do it? It's +pitiful, pitiful.... + +The fire is spreading. Right and left it swings and leaps in giant +strides. Sudden flames shoot out, curl over and roll like golden velvet +down the black faces of the buildings. The fire leaps the street. All is +pandemonium now. Mad with fear and excitement, men and women rave and +curse and pray. Water! water! is the cry; but no water comes. Suddenly a +mob of terror-goaded men comes surging down the street. They bring the +long hose line that connects with the pump-station on the river. Hurrah! +now they will soon have the flames under control. Water, water is +coming. + +The line is laid and a cry goes up to turn on the water. Hurry there! +But no water comes. What can be the matter? Then the dread whisper goes +round that the man in charge of the pumping-station has neglected his +duty, and the engine fires are cold. A howl of fury and despair goes up +to the lurid heavens. Women wring their hands and moan; men stand by in +a stupor of hopeless agony. And the fire, as if it knew of its victory, +leaps up in a roaring ecstasy of triumph. + +There we watched, Berna and I, lying in the snow that melts all around +us in the fierce, scorching glare. Through the lurid rift of smoke I can +see the friendly stars. Against that curtain of blaze, strangely +beautiful in its sinuous strength, I watch the black silhouettes of men +running hither and thither like rats, gutting the houses, looting the +stores, tearing the hearts out of the homes. The fire seems a great +bird, and from its nest of furnace heat it spreads its flapping wings +over the city. + +Yes, there is no hope. The gold-born city is doomed. From where I lie +the scene is one long vista of blazing gables, ribs and rafters hugged +by tawny arms of fire. Squat cabins swirling in mad eddies of flame; +hotels, dance-halls, brothels swathed and smothered in flame-rent +blankets of swirling smoke. There is no hope. The fire is a vast +avenger, and before its wrath the iniquity of the tenderloin is swept +away. That flimsy hive of humanity, with its sins and secrets and +sorrows, goes up in smoke and ashes to the silent stars. + +The gold-born city is doomed. Yet, as I lay there, it seemed to me like +a judgment, and that from its ruins would arise a new city, clean, +upright, incorruptible. Yes, the gold-camp would find itself. Even as +the gold, must it pass through the furnace to be made clean. And from +the site where in the olden days the men who toiled for the gold were +robbed by every device of human guile, a new city would come to be--a +great city, proud and prosperous, beloved of homing hearts, and blessed +in its purity and peace. + +"Beloved," I sighed through a gathering mist of consciousness. I felt +some hot tears falling on my face. I felt a kiss seal my lips. I felt a +breathing in my ear. + +"Oh, my dear, my dear!" she said. "I've only brought you sorrow and +pain, but you've brought me love, that love that is a dazzling light, +beside which the sunshine is as darkness." + +"Berna!" I raised myself; I put out my arms to clasp her. They clasped +the empty air. Wildly, wildly I looked around. She was gone! + +"Berna!" Again I cried, but there was no reply. I was alone, alone. Then +a great weakness came over me.... + +I never saw her again. + + + + +THE LAST + + +It is finished. I have written here the story of my life, or of that +portion of it which means everything to me, for the rest means nothing. +Now that it is done, I too have done, so I sit me down and wait. For +what am I waiting? A divine miracle perhaps. + +Somehow I feel I will see her again, somehow, somewhere. Surely God +would not reveal to us the shining light of the Great Reality only to +plunge us again into outer darkness? Love cannot be in vain. I will not +believe it. Somehow, somewhere! + +So in the glow of the great peat fire I sit me down and wait, and the +faith grows in me that she will come to me again; that I will feel the +soft caress of her hand upon my pillow, that I will hear her voice all +tuned to tenderness, that I will see through my tear-blinded eyes her +sweet compassionate face. Somehow, somewhere! + +With the aid of my crutch I unlatch one of the long windows and step out +onto the terrace. I peer through the darkness and once more I have a +sense of that land of imperious vastitudes so unfathomably lonely. With +an unspeakable longing in my heart, I try to pierce the shadows that +surround me. From the cavernous dark the snowflakes sting my face, but +the great night seems good to me, and I sink into a garden seat. Oh, I +am tired, tired.... + +I am waiting, waiting. I close my eyes and wait. I know she will come. +The snow is covering me. White as a statue, I sit and wait. + + * * * * * + +Ah, Berna, my dear, my dear! I knew you would return; I knew, I knew. +Come to me, little one. I'm tired, so tired. Put your arms around me, +girl; kiss me, kiss me. I'm weak and ill, but now you've come I'll soon +be well again. You won't leave me any more; will you, honey? Oh, it's +good to have you once again! It seems like a dream. Kiss me once more, +sweetheart. It's all so cold and dark. Put your arms around me.... + +Oh, Berna, Berna, light of my life, I knew all would come right at +last--beyond the mists, beyond the dreaming; at last, dear love, at +last!... + + + +***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE TRAIL OF '98*** + + +******* This file should be named 22063-8.txt or 22063-8.zip ******* + + +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: +https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/0/6/22063 + + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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Service, +Illustrated by Maynard Dixon</h1> +<pre> +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at <a href = "http://www.gutenberg.org">www.gutenberg.org</a></pre> +<p>Title: The Trail of '98</p> +<p> A Northland Romance</p> +<p>Author: Robert W. Service</p> +<p>Release Date: July 13, 2007 [eBook #22063]</p> +<p>Language: English</p> +<p>Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1</p> +<p>***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE TRAIL OF '98***</p> +<p> </p> +<h3 class="pg">E-text prepared by Roger Frank<br /> + and the Project Gutenberg Online Distributed Proofreading Team<br /> + (http://www.pgdp.net)</h3> +<p> </p> +<hr class="full" /> +<p> </p> +<p> </p> + +<div class="figcenter" style='width:400px'> +<a name="illus-000" id="illus-000"></a> +<img src="images/illus-fpc.jpg" alt="We were in a caldron of fire. The roar of doom was in our ears (page 143)" title="" /><br /> +<span class="caption">We were in a caldron of fire. The roar of doom was in our ears (page 143)</span> +</div> + +<hr class='major' /> + +<table style="margin: auto; border: black 1px solid; width: 400px;" summary=""><tr><td> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 200%; margin-top:40px; margin-bottom:30px;">THE TRAIL OF ’98</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 180%; margin-bottom:30px;">A Northland Romance</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 100%; margin-bottom:25px;">BY</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 120%; margin-bottom:10px;">ROBERT W. SERVICE</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 80%; margin-bottom:0px;">Author of</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 80%; margin-bottom:40px;">"The Spell of the Yukon" and "Ballads of a Cheechako"</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 100%; margin-bottom:10px;"><i>With illustrations by</i></p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 120%; margin-bottom:40px;">MAYNARD DIXON</p> +<div style='text-align: center'> + <img alt='emblem' src='images/illus-emb.jpg' /> +</div> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 110%; margin-top:40px;">NEW YORK</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 110%; margin-bottom:0px;">DODD, MEAD AND COMPANY</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 100%; margin-bottom:40px;">1911</p> +</td></tr></table> + +<hr class='major' /> + +<table style="margin: auto; width: 400px;" summary=""><tr><td> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 80%; margin-top:10px;">Copyright, 1910, by</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 100%; margin-bottom:10px;">DODD, MEAD AND COMPANY</p> +<hr style='width:10%' /> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 80%; margin-bottom:40px;">Entered at Stationers' Hall</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 70%; margin-bottom:0px;">THE QUINN & BODEN CO. PRESS</p> +<p class="titlepage" style="font-size: 70%; margin-bottom:10px;">RAHWAY, N. J.</p> +</td></tr></table> + +<hr class='major' /> + +<h2><span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_v" id="Page_v">[Pg v]</a></span>PRELUDE</h2> + +<p>The north wind is keening overhead. It minds me of the howl of a +wolf-dog under the Arctic stars. Sitting alone by the glow of the great +peat fire I can hear it high up in the braeside firs. It is the voice, +inexorably scornful, of the Great White Land.</p> + +<p>Oh, I hate it, I hate it! Why cannot a man be allowed to forget? It is +near ten years since I joined the Eager Army. I have travelled: I have +been a pilgrim to the shrines of beauty; I have pursued the phantom of +happiness even to the ends of the earth. Still it is always the same—I +cannot forget.</p> + +<p>Why should a man be ever shadowed by the vampire wing of his past? Have +I not a right to be happy? Money, estate, name, are mine, all that means +an open sesame to the magic door. Others go in, but I beat against its +flinty portals with hands that bleed. No! I have no right to be happy. +The ways of the world are open; the banquet of life is spread; the +wonder-workers plan their pageants of beauty and joy, and yet there is +no praise in my heart. I have seen, I have tasted, I have tried. Ashes +and dust and bitterness are all my gain. I will try no more. It is the +shadow of the vampire wing.</p> + +<p>So I sit in the glow of the great peat fire, tired and sad beyond +belief. Thank God! at least I am home. Everything is so little changed. +The fire lights the <span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_vi" id="Page_vi">[Pg vi]</a></span>oak-panelled hall; the crossed claymores gleam; the +eyes in the mounted deer-heads shine glassily; rugs of fur cover the +polished floor; all is comfort, home and the haunting atmosphere of my +boyhood. Sometimes I fancy it has been a dream, the Great White Silence, +the lure of the gold-spell, the delirium of the struggle; a dream, and I +will awake to hear Garry calling me to shoot over the moor, to see dear +little Mother with her meek, sensitive mouth, and her cheeks as +delicately tinted as the leaves of a briar rose. But no! The hall is +silent. Mother has gone to her long rest. Garry sleeps under the snow. +Silence everywhere; I am alone, alone.</p> + +<p>So I sit in the big, oak-carved chair of my forefathers, before the +great peat fire, a peak-faced drooping figure of a man with hair +untimely grey. My crutch lies on the floor by my side. My old nurse +comes up quietly to look at the fire. Her rosy, wrinkled face smiles +cheerfully, but I can see the anxiety in her blue eyes. She is afraid +for me. Maybe the doctor has told her—<i>something</i>.</p> + +<p>No doubt my days are numbered, so I am minded to tell of it all: of the +Big Stampede, of the Treasure Trail, of the Gold-born City; of those who +followed the gold-lure into the Great White Land, of the evil that +befell them, of Garry and of Berna. Perhaps it will comfort me to tell +of these things. To-morrow I will begin; to-night, leave me to my +memories.</p> + +<p>Berna! I spoke of her last. She rises before me now with her spirit-pale +face and her great troubleful <span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_vii" id="Page_vii">[Pg vii]</a></span>grey eyes, a little tragic figure, +ineffably pitiful. Where are you now, little one? I have searched the +world for you. I have scanned a million faces. Day and night have I +sought, always hoping, always baffled, for, God help me, dear, I love +you. Among that mad, lusting horde you were so weak, so helpless, yet so +hungry for love.</p> + +<p>With the aid of my crutch I unlatch one of the long windows, and step +out onto the terrace. From the cavernous dark the snowflakes sting my +face. Yet as I stand there, once more I have a sense of another land, of +imperious vastitudes, of a silent empire, unfathomably lonely.</p> + +<p>Ghosts! They are all around me. The darkness teems with them, Garry, my +brother, among them. Then they all fade and give way to one face....</p> + +<p><i>Berna, I love you always. Out of the night I cry to you, Berna, the cry +of a broken heart. Is it your little, pitiful ghost that comes down to +me? Oh, I am waiting, waiting! Here will I wait, Berna, till we meet +once more. For meet we will, beyond the mists, beyond the dreaming, at +last, dear love, at last.</i></p> + +<hr class='major' /> + +<h2 class="toc"><a name="Contents" id="Contents"></a>CONTENTS</h2> +<table border="0" width="500" cellpadding="2" cellspacing="0" summary="Contents" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto"> +<col style="width:85%;" /> +<col style="width:15%;" /> +<tr> + <td align="center" colspan='2'>BOOK I</td> +</tr> +<tr><td align="left"></td><td align="right" valign="top"><span style='font-size:x-small'>PAGE</span></td></tr> +<tr> + <td align="left"><span class='smcap'>The Road to Anywhere</span></td> + <td align="right"><a href="#THE_ROAD_TO_ANYWHERE_205">1</a></td> +</tr> +<tr> + <td align="center" colspan='2'>BOOK II</td> +</tr> +<tr> + <td align="left"><span class='smcap'>The Trail</span></td> + <td align="right"><a href="#THE_TRAIL_1476">49</a></td> +</tr> +<tr> + <td align="center" colspan='2'>BOOK III</td> +</tr> +<tr> + <td align="left"><span class='smcap'>The Camp</span></td> + <td align="right"><a href="#THE_CAMP_4765">167</a></td> +</tr> +<tr> + <td align="center" colspan='2'>BOOK IV</td> +</tr> +<tr> + <td align="left"><span class='smcap'>The Vortex</span></td> + <td align="right"><a href="#THE_VORTEX_9034">321</a></td> +</tr> +</table> + +<hr class='major' /> + +<h2 class="loi"><a name="Illustrations" id="Illustrations"></a>ILLUSTRATIONS</h2> +<table border="0" width="500" cellpadding="2" cellspacing="0" summary="Illustrations" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto"> +<col style="width:80%;" /> +<col style="width:20%;" /> +<tr><td align="left">We were in a caldron of fire. The roar of doom was in our ears (page 143)</td><td align="right" valign="top"><a href="#illus-000"><i>Frontispiece</i></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left"></td><td align="right" valign="top"><span style='font-size:x-small'>FACING PAGE</span></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">"No," she said firmly, "you can't see the girl"</td><td align="right" valign="top"><a href="#illus-001">116</a></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">Then, as I hung half in, half out of the window, he clutched me by the throat</td><td align="right" valign="top"><a href="#illus-002">316</a></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">"Garry," I said, "this is—this is Berna"</td><td align="right" valign="top"><a href="#illus-003">476</a></td></tr> +</table> + +<hr class='major' /> + +<table summary=""><tr><td> +This is the law of the Yukon, and ever she makes it plain:<br /> +"Send not your foolish and feeble; send me your strong and your sane.<br /> +Strong for the red rage of battle; sane, for I harry them sore;<br /> +Send me men girt for the combat, men who are grit to the core;<br /> +Swift as the panther in triumph, fierce as the bear in defeat,<br /> +Sired of a bulldog parent, steeled in the furnace heat.<br /> +Send me the best of your breeding, lend me your chosen ones;<br /> +Them will I take to my bosom, them will I call my sons;<br /> +Them will I gild with my treasure, them will I glut with my meat;<br /> +But the others—the misfits, the failures—I trample under my feet."<br /> +</td></tr> +<tr><td align='right'>—"Songs of a Sourdough." +</td></tr></table> + +<hr class='major' /> + +<div style="margin: auto; text-align: center; padding-top: 1em; padding-bottom: 1em"> +<h2><a name="BOOK_I" id="BOOK_I"></a>BOOK I</h2> +<a name="THE_ROAD_TO_ANYWHERE_205" id="THE_ROAD_TO_ANYWHERE_205"></a> +<h3>THE ROAD TO ANYWHERE</h3> +</div> + +<table summary=""><tr><td> +Can you recall, dear comrade, when we tramped God's land together,<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">And we sang the old, old Earth-Song, for our youth was very sweet;</span><br /> +When we drank and fought and lusted, as we mocked at tie and tether,<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">Along the road to Anywhere, the wide world at our feet.</span><br /> +<br /> +Along the road to Anywhere, when each day had its story;<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">When time was yet our vassal, and life's jest was still unstale;</span><br /> +When peace unfathomed filled our hearts as, bathed in amber glory,<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">Along the road to Anywhere we watched the sunsets pale.</span><br /> +<br /> +Alas! the road to Anywhere is pitfalled with disaster;<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">There's hunger, want, and weariness, yet O we loved it so!</span><br /> +As on we tramped exultantly, and no man was our master,<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">And no man guessed what dreams were ours, as swinging heel and toe,</span><br /> +We tramped the road to Anywhere, the magic road to Anywhere,<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">The tragic road to Anywhere such dear, dim years ago.</span><br /> +</td></tr> +<tr><td align='right'>—"Songs of a Sourdough." +</td></tr></table> + +<div> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_3" id="page_3" title="3"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER I</h2> +</div> + +<p>As far back as I can remember I have faithfully followed the banner of +Romance. It has given colour to my life, made me a dreamer of dreams, a +player of parts. As a boy, roaming alone the wild heather hills, I have +heard the glad shouts of the football players on the green, yet never +ettled to join them. Mine was the richer, rarer joy. Still can I see +myself in those days, a little shy-mannered lad in kilts, bareheaded to +the hill breezes, with health-bright cheeks, and a soul happed up in +dreams.</p> + +<p>And, indeed, I lived in an enchanted land, a land of griffins and +kelpies, of princesses and gleaming knights. From each black tarn I +looked to see a scaly reptile rise, from every fearsome cave a corby +emerge. There were green spaces among the heather where the fairies +danced, and every scaur and linn had its own familiar spirit. I peopled +the good green wood with the wild creatures of my thought, nymph and +faun, naiad and dryad, and would have been in nowise surprised to meet +in the leafy coolness the great god Pan himself.</p> + +<p>It was at night, however, that my dreams were most compelling. I strove +against the tyranny of sleep. Lying in my small bed, I revelled in +delectable imaginings. Night after night I fought battles, devised +pageants, partitioned empires. I gloried in details. <a class="pagenum" name="page_4" id="page_4" title="4"></a>My rugged +war-lords were very real to me, and my adventures sounded many periods +of history. I was a solitary caveman with an axe of stone; I was a Roman +soldier of fortune; I was a Highland outlaw of the Rebellion. Always I +fought for a lost cause, and always my sympathies were with the rebel. I +feasted with Robin Hood on the King's venison; I fared forth with Dick +Turpin on the gibbet-haunted heath; I followed Morgan, the Buccaneer, +into strange and exotic lands of trial and treasure. It was a wonderful +gift of visioning that was mine in those days. It was the bird-like +flight of the pure child-mind to whom the unreal is yet the real.</p> + +<p>Then, suddenly, I arrived at a second phase of my mental growth in which +fancy usurped the place of imagination. The modern equivalents of +Romance attracted me, and, with my increasing grasp of reality, my gift +of vision faded. As I had hitherto dreamed of knight-errants, of +corsairs and of outlaws, I now dreamed of cowboys, of gold-seekers, of +beach-combers. Fancy painted scenes in which I, too, should play a +rousing part. I read avidly all I could find dealing with the Far West, +and ever my wistful gaze roved over the grey sea. The spirit of Romance +beaconed to me. I, too, would adventure in the stranger lands, and face +their perils and brave their dangers. The joy of the thought exulted in +my veins, and scarce could I bide the day when the roads of chance and +change would be open to my feet.</p> + +<p>It is strange that in all these years I confided in <a class="pagenum" name="page_5" id="page_5" title="5"></a>no one. Garry, who +was my brother and my dearest friend, would have laughed at me in that +affectionate way of his. You would never have taken us for brothers. We +were so different in temperament and appearance that we were almost the +reverse of each other. He was the handsomest boy I have ever seen, +frank, fair-skinned and winning, while I was dark, dour and none too +well favoured. He was the best runner and swimmer in the parish, and the +idol of the village lads. I cared nothing for games, and would be found +somewhere among the heather hills, always by my lone self, and nearly +always with a story book in my pocket. He was clever, practical and +ambitious, excelling in all his studies; whereas, except in those which +appealed to my imagination, I was a dullard and a dreamer.</p> + +<p>Yet we loved each others as few brothers do. Oh, how I admired him! He +was my ideal, and too often the hero of my romances. Garry would have +laughed at my hero-worship; he was so matter-of-fact, effective and +practical. Yet he understood me, my Celtic ideality, and that shy +reserve which is the armour of a sensitive soul. Garry in his fine +clever way knew me and shielded me and cheered me. He was so buoyant and +charming he heartened you like Spring sunshine, and braced you like a +morning wind on the mountain top. Yes, not excepting Mother, Garry knew +me better than any one has ever done, and I loved him for it. It seems +overfond to say this, but he did not have a fault: tenderness, humour, +enthusiasm, sympathy and the beauty of a young god—all <a class="pagenum" name="page_6" id="page_6" title="6"></a>that was +manfully endearing was expressed in this brother of mine.</p> + +<p>So we grew to manhood there in that West Highland country, and surely +our lives were pure and simple and sweet. I had never been further from +home than the little market town where we sold our sheep. Mother managed +the estate till Garry was old enough, when he took hold with a vigour +and grasp that delighted every one. I think our little Mother stood +rather in awe of my keen, capable, energetic brother. There was in her a +certain dreamy, wistful idealism that made her beautiful in my eyes, and +to look on she was as fair as any picture. Specially do I remember the +delicate colouring of her face and her eyes, blue like deep +corn-flowers. She was not overstrong, and took much comfort from +religion. Her lips, which were fine and sensitive, had a particularly +sweet expression, and I wish to record of her that never once did I see +her cross, always sweet, gentle, smiling.</p> + +<p>Thus our home was an ideal one; Garry, tall, fair and winsome; myself, +dark, dreamy, reticent; and between us, linking all three in a perfect +bond of love and sympathy, our gentle, delicate Mother.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_7" id="page_7" title="7"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER II</h2> +</div> + +<p>So in serenity and sunshine the days of my youth went past. I still +maintained my character as a drone and a dreamer. I used my time +tramping the moorland with a gun, whipping the foamy pools of the burn +for trout, or reading voraciously in the library. Mostly I read books of +travel, and especially did I relish the literature of Vagabondia. I had +come under the spell of Stevenson. His name spelled Romance to me, and +my fancy etched him in his lonely exile. Forthright I determined I too +would seek these ultimate islands, and from that moment I was a changed +being. I nursed the thought with joyous enthusiasm. I would be a +frontiersman, a trail-breaker, a treasure-seeker. The virgin prairies +called to me; the susurrus of the giant pines echoed in my heart; but +most of all, I felt the spell of those gentle islands where care is a +stranger, and all is sunshine, song and the glowing bloom of eternal +summer.</p> + +<p>About this time Mother must have worried a good deal over my future. +Garry was now the young Laird, and I was but an idler, a burden on the +estate. At last I told her I wanted to go abroad, and then it seemed as +if a great difficulty was solved. We remembered of a cousin who was +sheep-ranching in the Saskatchewan valley and had done well. It was +arranged that I should join him as a pupil, then, <a class="pagenum" name="page_8" id="page_8" title="8"></a>when I had learned +enough, buy a place of my own. It may be imagined that while I +apparently acquiesced in this arrangement, I had already determined that +as soon as I reached the new land I would take my destiny into my own +hands.</p> + +<p>I will never forget the damp journey to Glasgow and the misty landscape +viewed through the streaming window pane of a railway carriage. I was in +a wondrous state of elation. When we reached the great smoky city I was +lost in amazement not unmixed with fear. Never had I imagined such +crowds, such houses, such hurry. The three of us, Mother, Garry and I, +wandered and wondered for three days. Folks gazed at us curiously, +sometimes admiringly, for our cheeks were bright with Highland health, +and our eyes candid as the June skies. Garry in particular, tall, fair +and handsome, seemed to call forth glances of interest wherever he went. +Then as the hour of my departure drew near a shadow fell on us.</p> + +<p>I will not dwell on our leave-taking. If I broke down in unmanly grief, +it must be remembered I had never before been from home. I was but a +lad, and these two were all in all to me. Mother gave up trying to be +brave, and mingled her tears with mine. Garry alone contrived to make +some show of cheerfulness. Alas! all my elation had gone. In its place +was a sense of guilt, of desertion, of unconquerable gloom. I had an +inkling then of the tragedy of motherhood, the tender love that would +hold yet cannot, the world-call and the ruthless, estranging years, <a class="pagenum" name="page_9" id="page_9" title="9"></a>all +the memories of clinging love given only to be taken away.</p> + +<p>"Don't cry, sweetheart Mother," I said; "I'll be back again in three +years."</p> + +<p>"Mind you do, my boy, mind you do."</p> + +<p>She looked at me woefully sad, and I had a queer, heartrending prevision +I would never see her more. Garry was supporting her, and she seemed to +have suddenly grown very frail. He was pale and quiet, but I could see +he was vastly moved.</p> + +<p>"Athol," said he, "if ever you need me just send for me. I'll come, no +matter how long or how hard the way."</p> + +<p>I can see them to this day standing there in the drenching rain, Garry +fine and manly, Mother small and drooping. I can see her with her +delicate rose colour, her eyes like wood violets drowned in tears, her +tender, sensitive lips quivering with emotion.</p> + +<p>"Good-bye, laddie, good-bye."</p> + +<p>I forced myself away, and stumbled on board. When I looked back again +they were gone, but through the grey shadows there seemed to come back +to me a cry of heartache and irremediable loss.</p> + +<p>"Good-bye, good-bye."</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /><a class="pagenum" name="page_10" id="page_10" title="10"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER III</h2> +</div> + +<p>It was on a day of early Autumn when I stood knee-deep in the heather of +Glengyle, and looked wistfully over the grey sea. 'Twas but a month +later when, homeless and friendless, I stood on the beach by the Cliff +House of San Francisco, and gazed over the fretful waters of another +ocean. Such is the romance of destiny.</p> + +<p>Consigned, so to speak, to my cousin the sheep-raiser of the +Saskatchewan, I found myself setting foot on the strange land with but +little heart for my new vocation. My mind, cramful of book notions, +craved for the larger life. I was valiantly mad for adventure; to fare +forth haphazardly; to come upon naked danger; to feel the bludgeonings +of mischance; to tramp, to starve, to sleep under the stars. It was the +callow boy-idea perpetuated in the man, and it was to lead me a sorry +dance. But I could not overbear it. Strong in me was the spirit of the +gypsy. The joy of youth and health was brawling in my veins. A few +thistledown years, said I, would not matter. And there was Stevenson and +his glamorous islands winning me on.</p> + +<p>So it came about I stood solitary on the beach by the seal rocks, with a +thousand memories confusing in my head. There was the long train ride +with its strange pictures: the crude farms, the glooming forests, the +gleaming lakes that would drown my whole <a class="pagenum" name="page_11" id="page_11" title="11"></a>country, the aching plains, +the mountains that rip-sawed the sky, the fear-made-eternal of the +desert. Lastly, a sudden, sunlit paradise, California.</p> + +<p>I had lived through a week of wizardry such as I had never dreamed of, +and here was I at the very throne of Western empire. And what a place it +was, and what a people—with the imperious mood of the West softened by +the spell of the Orient and mellowed by the glamour of Old Spain. San +Francisco! A score of tongues clamoured in her streets and in her +byways a score of races lurked austerely. She suckled at her breast the +children of the old grey nations and gave them of her spirit, that swift +purposeful spirit so proud of past achievement and so convinced of +glorious destiny.</p> + +<p>I marvelled at the rush of affairs and the zest of amusement. Every one +seemed to be making money easily and spending it eagerly. Every one was +happy, sanguine, strenuous. At night Market Street was a dazzling alley +of light, where stalwart men and handsome women jostled in and out of +the glittering restaurants. Yet amid this eager, passionate life I felt +a dreary sense of outsideness. At times my heart fairly ached with +loneliness, and I wandered the pathways of the park, or sat forlornly in +Portsmouth Square as remote from it all as a gazer on his mountain top +beneath the stars.</p> + +<p>I became a dreamer of the water front, for the notion of the South Seas +was ever in my head. I loafed in the sunshine, sitting on the pier-edge, +with eyes fixed on the lazy shipping. These were care-free, +<a class="pagenum" name="page_12" id="page_12" title="12"></a>irresponsible days, and not, I am now convinced, entirely misspent. I +came to know the worthies of the wharfside, and plunged into an +under-world of fascinating repellency. Crimpdom eyed and tempted me, but +it was always with whales or seals, and never with pearls or copra. I +rubbed shoulders with eager necessity, scrambled for free lunches in +frowsy bar-rooms, and amid the scum and débris of the waterside found +much food for sober thought. Yet at times I blamed myself for thus +misusing my days, and memories of Glengyle and Mother and Garry loomed +up with reproachful vividness.</p> + +<p>I was, too, a seeker of curious experience, and this was to prove my +undoing. The night-side of the city was unveiled to me. With the +assurance of innocence I wandered everywhere. I penetrated the warrens +of underground Chinatown, wondering why white women lived there, and why +they hid at sight of me. Alone I poked my way into the opium joints and +the gambling dens. Vice, amazingly unabashed, flaunted itself in my +face. I wondered what my grim, Covenanting ancestors would have made of +it all. I never thought to have seen the like, and in my inexperience it +was like a shock to me.</p> + +<p>My nocturnal explorations came to a sudden end. One foggy midnight, +coming up Pacific Street with its glut of saloons, I was clouted +shrewdly from behind and dropped most neatly in the gutter. When I came +to, very sick and dizzy in a side alley, I found I had been robbed of my +pocketbook with nearly all my money therein. Fortunately I had left <a class="pagenum" name="page_13" id="page_13" title="13"></a>my +watch in the hotel safe, and by selling it was not entirely destitute; +but the situation forced me from my citadel of pleasant dreams, and +confronted me with the grimmer realities of life.</p> + +<p>I became a habitué of the ten-cent restaurant. I was amazed to find how +excellent a meal I could have for ten cents. Oh for the uncaptious +appetite of these haphazard days! With some thirty-odd dollars standing +between me and starvation, it was obvious I must become a hewer of wood +and a drawer of water, and to this end I haunted the employment offices. +They were bare, sordid rooms, crowded by men who chewed, swapped +stories, yawned and studied the blackboards where the day's wants were +set forth. Only driven to labour by dire necessity, their lives, I +found, held three phases—looking for work, working, spending the +proceeds. They were the Great Unskilled, face to face with the necessary +evil of toil.</p> + +<p>One morning, on seeking my favourite labour bureau, I found an unusual +flutter among the bench-warmers. A big contractor wanted fifty men +immediately. No experience was required, and the wages were to be two +dollars a day. With a number of others I pressed forward, was +interviewed and accepted. The same day we were marched in a body to the +railway depot and herded into a fourth-class car.</p> + +<p>Where we were going I knew not; of what we were going to do I had no +inkling. I only knew we were southbound, and at long last I might fairly +consider myself to be the shuttlecock of fortune.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /><a class="pagenum" name="page_14" id="page_14" title="14"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER IV</h2> +</div> + +<p>I left San Francisco blanketed in grey fog and besomed by a roaring +wind; when I opened my eyes I was in a land of spacious sky and broad, +clean sunshine. Orange groves rushed to welcome us; orchards of almond +and olive twinkled joyfully in the limpid air; tall, gaunt and ragged, +the scaly eucalyptus fluttered at us a morning greeting, while snowy +houses, wallowing in greenery, flashed a smile as we rumbled past. It +seemed like a land of promise, of song and sunshine, and silent and +apart I sat to admire and to enjoy.</p> + +<p>"Looks pretty swell, don't it?"</p> + +<p>I will call him the Prodigal. He was about my own age, thin, but +sun-browned and healthy. His hair was darkly red and silky, his teeth +white and even as young corn. His eyes twinkled with a humorsome light, +but his face was shrewd, alert and aggressive.</p> + +<p>"Yes," I said soberly, for I have always been backward with strangers.</p> + +<p>"Pretty good line. The banana belt. Old Sol working overtime. Blossom +and fruit cavorting on the same tree. Eternal summer. Land of the +<i>mañana</i>, the festive frijole, the never-chilly chili. Ever been here +before?"</p> + +<p>"No."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_15" id="page_15" title="15"></a>"Neither have I. Glad I came, even if it's to do the horny-handed son +of toil stunt. Got the makings?"</p> + +<p>"No, I'm sorry; I don't smoke."</p> + +<p>"All right, guess I got enough."</p> + +<p>He pulled forth a limp sack of powdery tobacco, and spilled some grains +into a brown cigarette paper, twisting it deftly and bending over the +ends. Then he smoked with such enjoyment that I envied him.</p> + +<p>"Where are we going, have you any idea?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"Search me," he said, inhaling deeply; "the guy in charge isn't exactly +a free information bureau. When it comes to peddling the bull con he's +there, but when you try to pry off a few slabs of cold hard fact it's +his Sunday off."</p> + +<p>"But," I persisted, "have you no idea?"</p> + +<p>"Well, one thing you can bank on, they'll work the Judas out of us. The +gentle grafter nestles in our midst. This here's a cinch game and we are +the fall guys. The contractors are a bum outfit. They'll squeeze us at +every turn. There was two plunks to the employment man; they got half. +Twenty for railway fare; they come in on that. Stop at certain hotels: a +rake-off there. Stage fare: more graft. Five dollars a week for board: +costs them two-fifty, and they will be stomach robbers at that. Then +they'll ring in twice as many men as they need, and lay us off half the +time, so that we just about even up on our board bill. Oh, I'm onto +their curves all right."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_16" id="page_16" title="16"></a>"Then," I said, "if you know so much why did you come with us?"</p> + +<p>"Well, if I know so much you just bet I know some more. I'll go one +better. You watch my smoke."</p> + +<p>He talked on with a wonderful vivid manner and an outpouring knowledge +of life, so that I was hugely interested. Yet ever and anon an allusion +of taste would betray him, and at no time did I fail to see that his +roughness was only a veneer. As it turned out he was better educated by +far than I, a Yale boy taking a post-graduate course in the University +of Hard Luck.</p> + +<p>My reserve once thawed, I told him much of my simple life. He listened, +intently sympathetic.</p> + +<p>"Say," said he earnestly when I had finished, "I'm rough-and-ready in my +ways. Life to me's a game, sort of masquerade, and I'm the worst +masquerader in the bunch. But I know how to handle myself, and I can +jolly my way along pretty well. Now, you're green, if you'll excuse me +saying it, and maybe I can help you some. Likewise you're the only one +in all the gang of hoboes that's my kind. Come on, let's be partners."</p> + +<p>I felt greatly drawn to him and agreed gladly.</p> + +<p>"Now," said he, "I must go and jolly along the other boys. Aren't they a +fierce bunch? Coloured gentlemen, Slavonians, Polaks, Dagoes, +Swedes—well, I'll go prospecting, and see what I can strike."</p> + +<p>He went among them with a jabber of strange terms, a bright smile and +ready banter, and I could <a class="pagenum" name="page_17" id="page_17" title="17"></a>see that he was to be a quick favourite. I +envied him for his ease of manner, a thing I could never compass. +Presently he returned to me.</p> + +<p>"Say, partner, got any money?"</p> + +<p>There was something frank and compelling in his manner, so that I +produced the few dollars I had left, and spread them before him.</p> + +<p>"That's all my wealth," I said smilingly.</p> + +<p>He divided it into two equal portions and returned one to me. He took a +note of the other, saying:</p> + +<p>"All right, I'll settle up with you later on."</p> + +<p>He went off with my money. He seemed to take it for granted I would not +object, and on my part I cared little, being only too eager to show I +trusted him. A few minutes later behold him seated at a card-table with +three rough-necked, hard-bitten-looking men. They were playing poker, +and, thinks I: "Here's good-bye to my money." It minded me of wolves and +a lamb. I felt sorry for my new friend, and I was only glad he had so +little to lose.</p> + +<p>We were drawing in to Los Angeles when he rejoined me. To my surprise he +emptied his pockets of wrinkled notes and winking silver to the tune of +twenty dollars, and dividing it equally, handed half to me.</p> + +<p>"Here," says he, "plant that in your dip."</p> + +<p>"No," I said, "just give me back what you borrowed; that's all I want."</p> + +<p>"Oh, forget it! You staked me, and it's well won. These guinneys took me +for a jay. Thought I was <a class="pagenum" name="page_18" id="page_18" title="18"></a>easy, but I've forgotten more than they ever +knew, and I haven't forgotten so much either."</p> + +<p>"No, you keep it, please. I don't want it."</p> + +<p>"Oh, come! put your Scotch scruples in your pocket. Take the money."</p> + +<p>"No," I said obstinately.</p> + +<p>"Look here, this partnership of ours is based on financial equality. If +you don't like my gate, you don't need to swing on it."</p> + +<p>"All right," said I tartly, "I don't want to."</p> + +<p>Then I turned on my heel.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_19" id="page_19" title="19"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER V</h2> +</div> + +<p>On either side of us were swift hills mottled with green and gold, ahead +a curdle of snow-capped mountains, above a sky of robin's-egg blue. The +morning was lyric and set our hearts piping as we climbed the canyon. We +breathed deeply of the heady air, exclaimed at sight of a big bee ranch, +shouted as a mule team with jingling bells came swinging down the trail. +With cries of delight we forded the little crystal stream wherever the +trail plunged knee-deep through it. Higher and higher we climbed, mile +after mile, our packs on our shoulders, our hearts very merry. I was as +happy as a holiday schoolboy, willing this should go on for ever, +dreading to think of the grim-visaged toil that awaited us.</p> + +<p>About midday we reached the end. Gangs of men were everywhere, ripping +and tearing at the mountain side. There was a roar of blasting, and +rocks hurtled down on us. Bunkhouses of raw lumber sweated in the sun. +Everywhere was the feverish activity of a construction camp.</p> + +<p>We were assigned to a particular bunkhouse, and there was a great rush +for places. It was floorless, doorless and in part roofless. Above the +medley of voices I heard that of the Prodigal:</p> + +<p>"Say, fellows, let's find the softest side of this board! Strikes me the +Company's mighty considerate. <a class="pagenum" name="page_20" id="page_20" title="20"></a>All kinds of ventilation. Good chance to +study astronomy. Wonder if I couldn't borrow a mattress somewhere? Ha! +Good eye! Watch me, fellows!"</p> + +<p>We saw him make for a tent nearby where horses were stabled. He +reconnoitred carefully, then darted inside to come out in a twinkling, +staggering under a bale of hay.</p> + +<p>"How's that for rustling? I guess I'm slow—hey, what? Guess this is +poor!"</p> + +<p>He was wadding his bunk with the hay, while the others looked on rather +enviously. Then, as a bell rang, he left off.</p> + +<p>"Hash is ready, boys; last call to the dining-car. Come on and see the +pigs get their heads in the trough."</p> + +<p>We hurried to the cookhouse, where a tin plate, a tin cup, a tin spoon +and a cast-iron knife was laid for each of us at a table of unplaned +boards. A great mess of hash was ready, and excepting myself every one +ate voraciously. I found something more to my taste, a can of honey and +some soda crackers, on which I supped gratefully.</p> + +<p>When I returned to the bunkhouse I found my bunk had been stuffed with +nice soft hay, and my blankets spread on top. I looked over to the +Prodigal. He was reading, a limp cigarette between his yellow-stained +fingers. I went up to him.</p> + +<p>"It's very good of you to do this," I said.</p> + +<p>"Oh no! Not at all. Don't mention it," he answered <a class="pagenum" name="page_21" id="page_21" title="21"></a>with much +politeness, never raising his eyes from the book.</p> + +<p>"Well," I said, "I've just got to thank you. And look here, let's make +it up. Don't let the business of that wretched money come between us. +Can't we be friends anyway?"</p> + +<p>He sprang up and gripped my hand.</p> + +<p>"Sure! nothing I want more. I'm sorry. Another time I'll make allowance +for that shorter-catechism conscience of yours. Now let's go over to +that big fire they've made and chew the rag."</p> + +<p>So we sat by the crackling blaze of mesquite, sagebrush and live-oak +limbs, while over us twinkled the friendly stars, and he told me many a +strange story of his roving life.</p> + +<p>"You know, the old man's all broke up at me playing the fool like this. +He's got a glue factory back in Massachusetts. Guess he stacks up about +a million or so. Wanted me to go into the glue factory, begin at the +bottom, stay with it. 'Stick to glue, my boy,' he says; 'become the Glue +King,' and so on. But not with little Willie. Life's too interesting a +proposition to be turned down like that. I'm not repentant. I know the +fatted calf's waiting for me, getting fatter every day. One of these +days I'll go back and sample it."</p> + +<p>It was he I first heard talk of the Great White Land, and it stirred me +strangely.</p> + +<p>"Every one's crazy about it. They're rushing now in thousands, to get +there before the winter begins. Next spring there will be the biggest +stampede <a class="pagenum" name="page_22" id="page_22" title="22"></a>the world has ever seen. Say, Scotty, I've the greatest notion +to try it. Let's go, you and I. I had a partner once, who'd been up +there. It's a big, dark, grim land, but there's the gold, shining, +shining, and it's calling us to go. Somehow it haunts me, that soft, +gleamy, virgin gold there in the solitary rivers with not a soul to pick +it up. I don't care one rip for the value of it. I can make all I want +out of glue. But the adventure, the excitement, it's that that makes me +fit for the foolish house."</p> + +<p>He was silent a long time while my imagination conjured up terrible, +fascinating pictures of the vast, unawakened land, and a longing came +over me to dare its shadows.</p> + +<p>As we said good-night, his last words were:</p> + +<p>"Remember, Scotty, we're both going to join the Big Stampede, you and +I."</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_23" id="page_23" title="23"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VI</h2> +</div> + +<p>I slept but fitfully, for the night air was nipping, and the bunkhouse +nigh as open as a cage. A bonny morning it was, and the sun warmed me +nicely, so that over breakfast I was in a cheerful humour. Afterwards I +watched the gang labouring, and showed such an injudicious interest that +that afternoon I too was put to work.</p> + +<p>It was very simple. Running into the mountain there was a tunnel, which +they were lining with concrete, and it was the task of I and another to +push cars of the stuff from the outlet to the scene of operations. My +partner was a Swede who had toiled from boyhood, while I had never done +a day's work in my life. It was as much as I could do to lift the loaded +boxes into the car. Then we left the sunshine behind us, and for a +quarter of a mile of darkness we strained in an uphill effort.</p> + +<p>From the roof, which we stooped to avoid, sheets of water descended. +Every now and then the heavy cars would run off the rails, which were of +scantling, worn and frayed by friction. Then my Swede would storm in +Berserker rage, and we would lift till the veins throbbed in my head. +Never had time seemed so long. A convict working in the salt mines of +Siberia did not revolt more against his task than I. The sweat blinded +me; a bright steel pain <a class="pagenum" name="page_24" id="page_24" title="24"></a>throbbed in my head; my heart seemed to hammer. +Never so thankful was I as when we had made our last trip, and sick and +dizzy I put on my coat to go home.</p> + +<p>It was dark. There was a cable line running from the tunnel to the camp, +and down this we shot in buckets two at a clip. The descent gave me a +creepy sensation, but it saved a ten minutes' climb down the mountain +side, and I was grateful.</p> + +<p>Tired, wet and dirty, how I envied the Prodigal lying warm and cosy on +his fragrant hay. He was reading a novel. But the thought that I had +earned a dollar comforted me. After supper he, with Ginger and Dutchy, +played solo till near midnight, while I tossed on my bunk too weary and +sore to sleep.</p> + +<p>Next day was a repetition of the first, only worse. I ached as if I had +been beaten. Stiff and sore I dragged myself to the tunnel again. I +lifted, strained, tugged and shoved with a set and tragic face. Five +hours of hell passed. It was noon. I nursed my strength for the after +effort. Angrily I talked to myself, and once more I pulled through. +Weary and slimy with wet mud, I shot down the cable line. Snugly settled +in his bunk, the Prodigal had read another two hundred pages of "Les +Misérables." Yet—I reflected somewhat sadly—I had made two dollars.</p> + +<p>On the third day sheer obstinacy forced me to the tunnel. My +self-respect goaded me on. I would not give in. I must hold this job +down, I <i>must</i>, I <span class="smcap">MUST</span>. Then at the noon hour I fainted.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_25" id="page_25" title="25"></a>No one saw me, so I gritted my teeth and once more threw my weight +against the cars. Once more night found me waiting to descend in the +bucket. Then as I stood there was a crash and shouts from below. The +cable had snapped. My Swede and another lay among the rocks with sorely +broken bones. Poor beggars! how they must have suffered jolting down +that boulder-strewn trail to the hospital.</p> + +<p>Somehow that destroyed my nerve. I blamed myself indeed. I flogged +myself with reproaches, but it was of no avail. I would sooner beg my +bread than face that tunnel once again. The world seemed to be divided +into two parts, the rest of it and that tunnel. Thank God, I didn't +<i>have</i> to go into it again. I was exultantly happy that I didn't. The +Prodigal had finished his book, and was starting another. That night he +borrowed some of my money to play solo with.</p> + +<p>Next day I saw the foreman. I said:</p> + +<p>"I want to go. The work up there's too hard for me."</p> + +<p>He looked at me kindly.</p> + +<p>"All right, sonny," says he, "don't quit. I'll put you in the gravel +pit."</p> + +<p>So next day I found a more congenial task. There were four of us. We +threw the gravel against a screen where the finer stuff that sifted +through was used in making concrete.</p> + +<p>The work was heart-breaking in its monotony. In the biting cold of the +morning we made a start, long before the sun peeped above the wall of +mountain.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_26" id="page_26" title="26"></a>We watched it crawl, snail-like, over the virgin sky. We panted in its +heat. We saw it drop again behind the mountain wall, leaving the sky +gorgeously barred with colour from a tawny orange glow to an ice-pale +green—a regular <i>pousse café</i> of a sunset. Then when the cold and the +dark surged back, by the light of the evening star we straightened our +weary spines, and throwing aside pick and shovel hurried to supper.</p> + +<p>Heigh-ho! what a life it was. Resting, eating, sleeping; negative +pleasures became positive ones. Life's great principle of compensation +worked on our behalf, and to lie at ease, reading an old paper, seemed +an exquisite enjoyment.</p> + +<p>I was much troubled about the Prodigal. He complained of muscular +rheumatism, and except to crawl to meals was unable to leave his bunk. +Every day came the foreman to inquire anxiously if he was fit to go to +work, but steadily he grew worse. Yet he bore his suffering with great +spirit, and, among that nondescript crew, he was a thing of joy and +brightness, a link with that other world which was mine own. They +nicknamed him "Happy," his cheerfulness was so invincible. He played +cards on every chance, and he must have been unlucky, for he borrowed +the last of my small hoard.</p> + +<p>One morning I woke about six, and found, pinned to my blanket, a note +from my friend.</p> + +<div class="blockquot"><p>"<span class="smcap">Dear Scotty:</span></p> + +<p>"I grieve to leave you thus, but the cruel foreman insists on me +working off my ten days' board. Racked with <a class="pagenum" name="page_27" id="page_27" title="27"></a>pain as I am, there +appears to be no alternative but flight. Accordingly I fade away +once more into the unknown. Will write you general delivery, Los +Angeles. Good luck and good-bye. Yours to a cinder,</p> + +<p style='text-align:right'> +"<span class="smcap">Happy.</span>"<br /> +</p> +</div> + +<p>There was a hue and cry after him, but he was gone, and a sudden disgust +for the place came over me. For two more days I worked, crushed by a +gloom that momently intensified. Clamant and imperative in me was the +voice of change. I could not become toil-broken, so I saw the foreman.</p> + +<p>"Why do you want to go?" he asked reproachfully.</p> + +<p>"Well, sir, the work's too monotonous."</p> + +<p>"Monotonous! Well, that's the rummest reason I ever heard a man give for +quitting. But every man knows his own business best. I'll give you a +time-cheque."</p> + +<p>While he was making it out I wondered if, indeed, I did know my own +business best; but if it had been the greatest folly in the world, I was +bound to get out of that canyon.</p> + +<p>Treasuring the slip of paper representing my labour, I sought one of the +bosses, a sour, stiff man of dyspeptic tendencies. With a smile of +malicious sweetness he returned it to me.</p> + +<p>"All right, take it to our Oakland office, and you'll get the cash."</p> + +<p>Expectantly I had been standing there, thinking to receive my money, the +first I had ever earned (and to <a class="pagenum" name="page_28" id="page_28" title="28"></a>me so distressfully earned, at that). +Now I gazed at him very sick at heart: for was not Oakland several +hundred miles away, and I was penniless.</p> + +<p>"Couldn't you cash it here?" I faltered at last.</p> + +<p>"No!" (very sourly).</p> + +<p>"Couldn't you discount it, then?"</p> + +<p>"No!" (still more tartly).</p> + +<p>I turned away, crestfallen and smarting. When I told the other boys they +were indignant, and a good deal alarmed on their own account. I made my +case against the Company as damning as I could, then, slinging my +blankets on my back, set off once more down the canyon.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_29" id="page_29" title="29"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VII</h2> +</div> + +<p>I was gaining in experience, and as I hurried down the canyon and the +morning burgeoned like a rose, my spirits mounted invincibly. It was the +joy of the open road and the care-free heart. Like some hideous +nightmare was the memory of the tunnel and the gravel pit. The bright +blood in me rejoiced; my muscles tensed with pride in their toughness; I +gazed insolently at the world.</p> + +<p>So, as I made speed to get the sooner to the orange groves, I almost set +heel on a large blue envelope which lay face up on the trail. I examined +it and, finding it contained plans and specifications of the work we had +been at, I put it in my pocket.</p> + +<p>Presently came a rider, who reined up by me.</p> + +<p>"Say, young man, you haven't seen a blue envelope, have you?"</p> + +<p>Something in the man's manner aroused in me instant resentment. I was +the toiler in mud-stiffened overalls, he arrogant and supercilious in +broadcloth and linen.</p> + +<p>"No," I said sourly, and, going on my way, heard him clattering up the +canyon.</p> + +<p>It was about evening when I came onto a fine large plain. Behind me was +the canyon, gloomy like the lair of some evil beast, while before me the +sun was setting, and made the valley like a sea of golden <a class="pagenum" name="page_30" id="page_30" title="30"></a>glaze. I +stood, knight-errant-wise, on the verge of one of those enchanted lands +of precious memory, seeking the princess of my dreams; but all I saw was +a man coming up the trail. He was reeling homeward, with under one arm a +live turkey, and swinging from the other a demijohn of claret.</p> + +<p>He would have me drink. He represented the Christmas spirit, and his +accent was Scotch, so I up-tilted his demijohn gladly enough. Then, for +he was very merry, he would have it that we sing "Auld Lang Syne." So +there, on the heath, in the golden dance of the light, we linked our +hands and lifted our voices like two daft folk. Yet, for that it was +Christmas Eve, it seemed not to be so mad after all.</p> + +<p>There was my first orange grove. I ran to it eagerly, and pulled four of +the largest fruit I could see. They were green-like of rind and bitter +sour, but I heeded not, eating the last before I was satisfied. Then I +went on my way.</p> + +<p>As I entered the town my spirits fell. I remembered I was quite without +money and had not yet learned to be gracefully penniless. However, I +bethought me of the time-cheque, and entering a saloon asked the +proprietor if he would cash it. He was a German of jovial face that +seemed to say: "Welcome, my friend," and cold, beady eyes that queried: +"How much can I get of your wad?" It was his eyes I noticed.</p> + +<p>"No, I don'd touch dot. I haf before been schvindled. Himmel, no! You +take him avay."</p> + +<p>I sank into a chair. Catching a glimpse of my <a class="pagenum" name="page_31" id="page_31" title="31"></a>face in a bar mirror, I +wondered if that hollow-cheeked, weary-looking lad was I. The place was +crowded with revellers of the Christmastide, and geese were being diced +for. There were three that pattered over the floor, while in the corner +the stage-driver and a red-haired man were playing freeze-out for one of +them.</p> + +<p>I drowsed quietly. Wafts of bar-front conversation came to me. "Envelope +... lost plans ... great delay." Suddenly I sat up, remembering the +package I had found.</p> + +<p>"Were you looking for some lost plans?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"Yes," said one man eagerly, "did you find them?"</p> + +<p>"I didn't say I did, but if I could get them for you, would you cash +this time-cheque for me?"</p> + +<p>"Sure," he says, "one good turn deserves another. Deliver the goods and +I'll cash your time-cheque."</p> + +<p>His face was frank and jovial. I drew out the envelope and handed it +over. He hurriedly ran through the contents and saw that all were there.</p> + +<p>"Ha! That saves a trip to 'Frisco," he said, gay with relief.</p> + +<p>He turned to the bar and ordered a round of drinks. They all had a drink +on him, while he seemed to forget about me. I waited a little, then +pressed forward with my time-cheque.</p> + +<p>"Oh that," said he, "I won't cash that. I was only joshing."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_32" id="page_32" title="32"></a>A feeling of bitter anger welled up within me. I trembled like a leaf.</p> + +<p>"You won't go back on your word?" I said.</p> + +<p>He became flustered.</p> + +<p>"Well, I can't do it anyway. I've got no loose cash."</p> + +<p>What I would have said or done I know not, for I was nigh desperate; but +at this moment the stage-driver, flushed with his victory at freeze-out, +snatched the paper from my hand.</p> + +<p>"Here, I'll discount that for you. I'll only give you five dollars for +it, though."</p> + +<p>It called for fourteen, but by this time I was so discouraged I gladly +accepted the five-dollar goldpiece he held out to tempt me.</p> + +<p>Thus were my fortunes restored. It was near midnight and I asked the +German for a room. He replied that he was full up, but as I had my +blankets there was a nice dry shed at the back. Alas! it was also used +by his chickens. They roosted just over my head, and I lay on the filthy +floor at the mercy of innumerable fleas. To complete my misery the green +oranges I had eaten gave me agonizing cramps. Glad, indeed, was I when +day dawned, and once more I got afoot, with my face turned towards Los +Angeles.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_33" id="page_33" title="33"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VIII</h2> +</div> + +<p>Los Angeles will always be written in golden letters in the archives of +my memory. Crawling, sore and sullen, from the clutch of toil, I +revelled in a lotus life of ease and idleness. There was infinite +sunshine, and the quiet of a public library through whose open windows +came the fragrance of magnolias. Living was incredibly cheap. For +seventy-five cents a week I had a little sunlit attic, and for ten cents +I could dine abundantly. There was soup, fish, meat, vegetables, salad, +pudding and a bottle of wine. So reading, dreaming and roaming the +streets, I spent my days in a state of beatitude.</p> + +<p>But even five dollars will not last for ever, and the time came when +once more the grim face of toil confronted me. I must own that I had now +little stomach for hard labour, yet I made several efforts to obtain it. +However, I had a bad manner, being both proud and shy, and one rebuff in +a day always was enough. I lacked that self-confidence that readily +finds employment, and again I found myself mixing with the spineless +residuum of the employment bureau.</p> + +<p>At last the morning came when twenty-five cents was all that remained to +me in the world. I had just been seeking a position as a dish-washer, +and had been rather sourly rejected. Sitting solitary on the bench in +that dreary place, I soliloquized:</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_34" id="page_34" title="34"></a>"And so it has come to this, that I, Athol Meldrum, of gentle birth and +Highland breeding, must sue in vain to understudy a scullion in a +third-rate hash joint. I am, indeed, fallen. What mad folly is this that +sets me lower than a menial? Here I might be snug in the Northwest +raising my own fat sheep. A letter home would bring me instant help. Yet +what would it mean? To own defeat; to lose my self-esteem; to call +myself a failure. No, I won't. Come what may, I will play the game."</p> + +<p>At that moment the clerk wrote:—</p> + +<p style='text-align:center;'> +"<i>Man Wanted to Carry Banner.</i>" +</p> + +<p>"How much do you want for that job?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"Oh, two bits will hold you," he said carelessly.</p> + +<p>"Any experience required?" I asked again.</p> + +<p>"No, I guess even you'll do for that," he answered cuttingly.</p> + +<p>So I parted with my last quarter and was sent to a Sheeny store in +Broadway. Here I was given a vociferous banner announcing:</p> + +<p>"Great retiring sale," and so forth.</p> + +<p>With this hoisted I sallied forth, at first very conscious and not a +little ashamed. Yet by and by this feeling wore off, and I wandered up +and down with no sense of my employment, which, after all, was one +adapted to philosophic thought. I might have gone through the day in +this blissful coma of indifference had not a casual glance at my banner +thrilled me with <a class="pagenum" name="page_35" id="page_35" title="35"></a>horror. There it was in hideous, naked letters of red:</p> + +<p style='text-align:center;'> +"<i>Retireing Sale.</i>"<br /> +</p> + +<p>I reeled under the shock. I did not mind packing a banner, but a +misspelt one....</p> + +<p>I hurried back to the store, resolved to throw up my position. Luckily +the day was well advanced, and as I had served my purpose I was given a +silver dollar.</p> + +<p>On this dollar I lived for a month. Not every one has done that, yet it +is easy to do. This is how I managed.</p> + +<p>In the first place I told the old lady who rented me my room that I +could not pay her until I got work, and I gave her my blankets as +security. There remained only the problem of food. This I solved by +buying every day or so five cents' worth of stale bread, which I ate in +my room, washing it down with pure spring water. A little imagination +and lo! my bread was beef, my water wine. Thus breakfast and dinner. For +supper there was the Pacific Gospel Hall, where we gathered nightly one +hundred strong, bawled hymns, listened to sundry good people and +presently were given mugs of coffee and chunks of bread. How good the +fragrant coffee tasted and how sweet the fresh bread!</p> + +<p>At the end of the third week I got work as an orange-picker. It was a +matter of swinging long ladders into fruit-flaunting trees, of sunshiny +days and fluttering leaves, of golden branches plundered, and <a class="pagenum" name="page_36" id="page_36" title="36"></a>boxes +filled from sagging sacks. There is no more ideal occupation. I revelled +in it. The others were Mexicans; I was "El Gringo." But on an average I +only made fifty cents a day. On one day, when the fruit was unusually +large, I made seventy cents.</p> + +<p>Possibly I would have gone on, contentedly enough, perched on a ladder, +high up in the sunlit sway of treetops, had not the work come to an end. +I had been something of a financier on a picayune scale, and when I +counted my savings and found that I had four hundred and ninety-five +cents, such a feeling of affluence came over me that I resolved to +gratify my taste for travel. Accordingly I purchased a ticket for San +Diego, and once more found myself southward bound.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_37" id="page_37" title="37"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER IX</h2> +</div> + +<p>A few days in San Diego reduced my small capital to the vanishing point, +yet it was with a light heart I turned north again and took the All-Tie +route for Los Angeles. If one of the alluring conditions of a walking +tour is not to be overburdened with cash surely I fulfilled it, for I +was absolutely penniless. The Lord looks after his children, said I, and +when I became too inexorably hungry I asked for bread, emphasising my +willingness to do a stunt on the woodpile. Perhaps it was because I was +young and notably a novice in vagrancy, but people were very good to me.</p> + +<p>The railway track skirts the ocean side for many a sonorous league. The +mile-long waves roll in majestically, as straight as if drawn with a +ruler, and crash in thunder on the sandy beach. There were glorious +sunsets and weird storms, with underhanded lightning stabs at the sky. I +built little huts of discarded railway ties, and lit camp-fires, for I +was fearful of the crawling things I saw by day. The coyote called from +the hills. Uneasy rustlings came from the sagebrush. My teeth, +a-chatter with cold, kept me awake, till I cinched a handkerchief around +my chin. Yet, drenched with night-dews, half-starved and travel-worn, I +seemed to grow every day stronger and more fit. Between bondage and +vagabondage I did not hesitate to choose.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_38" id="page_38" title="38"></a>Leaving the sea, I came to a country of grass and she-oaks very pretty +to see, like an English park. I passed horrible tulé swamps, and reached +a cattle land with corrals and solitary cowboys. There was a quaint old +Spanish Mission that lingers in my memory, then once again I came into +the land of the orange-groves and the irrigating ditch. Here I fell in +with two of the hobo fraternity, and we walked many miles together. One +night we slept in a refrigerator car, where I felt as if icicles were +forming on my spine. But walking was not much in their line, so next +morning they jumped a train and we separated. I was very thankful, as +they did not look over-clean, and I had a wholesome horror of +"seam-squirrels."</p> + +<p>On arriving in Los Angeles I went to the Post Office. There was a letter +from the Prodigal dated New York, and inclosing fourteen dollars, the +amount he owed me. He said:</p> + +<div class="blockquot"><p>"I returned to the paternal roof, weary of my rôle. The fatted calf +awaited me. Nevertheless, I am sick again for the unhallowed +swine-husks. Meet me in 'Frisco about the end of February, and I +will a glorious proposition unfold. Don't fail. I must have a +partner and I want you. Look for a letter in the General Delivery."</p></div> + +<p>There was no time to lose, as February was nearly over. I took a +steerage passage to San Francisco, resolving that I would mend my +fortunes. It is so easy to drift. I was already in the social slough, a +hobo and an outcast. I saw that as long as I remained <a class="pagenum" name="page_39" id="page_39" title="39"></a>friendless and +unknown nothing but degraded toil was open to me. Surely I could climb +up, but was it worth while? A snug farm in the Northwest awaited me. I +would work my way back there, and arrive decently clad. Then none would +know of my humiliation. I had been wayward and foolish, but I had +learned something.</p> + +<p>The men who toiled, endured and suffered were kind and helpful, their +masters mean and rapacious. Everywhere was the same sordid grasping for +the dollar. With my ideals and training nothing but discouragement and +defeat would be my portion. Oh, it is so easy to drift!</p> + +<p>I was sick of the whole business.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_40" id="page_40" title="40"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER X</h2> +</div> + +<p>What with steamer fare and a few small debts to settle, I found when I +landed in San Francisco that once more I was flatly broke. I was +arrestively seedy, literally on my uppers, for owing to my long tramp my +boots were barely holding together. There was no letter for me, and +perhaps it was on account of my disappointment, perhaps on account of my +extreme shabbiness, but I found I had quite lost heart. Looking as I +did, I would not ask any one for work. So I tightened my belt and sat in +Portsmouth Square, cursing myself for the many nickels I had squandered +in riotous living.</p> + +<p>Two days later I was still drawing in my belt. All I had eaten was one +meal, which I had earned by peeling half a sack of potatoes for a +restaurant. I slept beneath the floor of an empty house out the Presidio +way.</p> + +<p>On this day I was drowsing on my bench when some one addressed me.</p> + +<p>"Say, young fellow, you look pretty well used up."</p> + +<p>I saw an elderly, grey-haired man.</p> + +<p>"Oh no!" I said, "I'm not. That's just my acting. I'm a millionaire in +disguise, studying sociology."</p> + +<p>He came and sat by me.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_41" id="page_41" title="41"></a>"Come, buck up, kid, you're pretty near down and out. I've been +studyin' you them two days."</p> + +<p>"Two days," I echoed drearily. "It seems like two years." Then, with +sudden fierceness:</p> + +<p>"Sir, I am a stranger to you. Never in my life before have I tried to +borrow money. It is asking a great deal of you to trust me, but it will +be a most Christian act. I am starving. If you have ten cents that isn't +working lend it to me for the love of God. I'll pay you back if it takes +me ten years."</p> + +<p>"All right, son," he said cheerfully; "let's go and feed."</p> + +<p>He took me to a restaurant where he ordered a dinner that made my head +swim. I felt near to fainting, but after I had had some brandy, I was +able to go on with the business of eating. By the time I got to the +coffee I was as much excited by the food as if I had been drinking wine. +I now took an opportunity to regard my benefactor.</p> + +<p>He was rather under medium height, but so square and solid you felt he +was a man to be reckoned with. His skin was as brown as an Indian's, his +eyes light-blue and brightly cheerful, as from some inner light. His +mouth was firm and his chin resolute. Altogether his face was a curious +blend of benevolence and ruthless determination.</p> + +<p>Now he was regarding me in a manner entirely benevolent.</p> + +<p>"Feel better, son? Well, go ahead an' tell me as much of your story as +you want to."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_42" id="page_42" title="42"></a>I gave an account of all that had happened to me since I had set foot +on the new land.</p> + +<p>"Huh!" he ejaculated when I had finished. "That's the worst of your +old-country boys. You haven't got the get-up an' nerve to rustle a job. +You go to a boss an' tell him: 'You've no experience, but you'll do your +best.' An American boy says: 'I can do anything. Give me the job an' +I'll just show you.' Who's goin' to be hired? Well, I think I can get +you a job helpin' a gardener out Alameda way."</p> + +<p>I expressed my gratitude.</p> + +<p>"That's all right," he said; "I'm glad by the grace of God I've been the +means of givin' you a hand-up. Better come to my room an' stop with me +till somethin' turns up. I'm goin' North in three days."</p> + +<p>I asked if he was going to the Yukon.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I'm goin' to join this crazy rush to the Klondike. I've been +minin' for twenty years, Arizona, Colorado, all over, an' now I am +a-goin' to see if the North hasn't got a stake for me."</p> + +<p>Up in his room he told me of his life.</p> + +<p>"I'm saved by the grace of God, but I've been a Bad Man. I've been +everything from a city marshal to boss gambler. I have gone heeled for +two years, thinking to get my pass to Hell at any moment."</p> + +<p>"Ever killed any one?" I queried.</p> + +<p>He was beginning to pace up and down the room.</p> + +<p>"Glory to God, I haven't, but I've shot.... There was a time when I +could draw a gun an' drive a nail in the wall. I was quick, but there +was <a class="pagenum" name="page_43" id="page_43" title="43"></a>lots that could give me cards and spades. Quiet men, too, you would +never think it of 'em. The quiet ones was the worst. Meek, friendly, +decent men, to see them drinkin' at a bar, but they didn't know Fear, +an' every one of 'em had a dozen notches on his gun. I know lots of +them, chummed with them, an' princes they were, the finest in the land, +would give the shirts off their backs for a friend. You'd like them—but +Lord be praised, I'm a saved man."</p> + +<p>I was deeply interested.</p> + +<p>"I know I'm talking as I shouldn't. It's all over now, an' I've seen the +evil of my ways, but I've got to talk once in a while. I'm Jim Hubbard, +known as 'Salvation Jim,' an' I know minin' from Genesis to Revelation. +Once I used to gamble an' drink the limit. One morning I got up from the +card-table after sitting there thirty-six hours. I'd lost five thousand +dollars. I knew they'd handed me out 'cold turkey,' but I took my +medicine.</p> + +<p>"Right then I said I'd be a crook too. I learned to play with marked +cards. I could tell every card in the deck. I ran a stud-poker game, +with a Jap an' a Chinaman for partners. They were quicker than white +men, an' less likely to lose their nerve. It was easy money, like taking +candy from a kid. Often I would play on the square. No man can bluff +strong without showing it. Maybe it's just a quiver of the eyelash, +maybe a shuffle of the foot. I've studied a man for a month till I found +the sign that gave him away. Then I've raised an' raised him till the +sweat pricked through his brow. He was my meat. I <a class="pagenum" name="page_44" id="page_44" title="44"></a>went after the men +that robbed me, an' I went one better. Here, shuffle this deck."</p> + +<p>He produced a pack of cards from a drawer.</p> + +<p>"I'll never go back to the old trade. I'm saved. I trust in God, but +just for diversion I keep my hand in."</p> + +<p>Talking to me, he shuffled the pack a few times.</p> + +<p>"Here, I'm dealing; what do you want? Three kings?"</p> + +<p>I nodded.</p> + +<p>He dealt four hands. In mine there were three kings.</p> + +<p>Taking up another he showed me three aces.</p> + +<p>"I'm out of practice," he said apologetically. "My hands are calloused. +I used to keep them as soft as velvet."</p> + +<p>He showed me some false shuffles, dealing from under the deck, and other +tricks.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I got even with the ones that got my money. It was eat or be +eaten. I went after the suckers. There was never a man did me dirt but I +paid him with interest. Of course, it's different now. The Good Book +says: 'Do good unto them that harm you.' I guess I would, but I wouldn't +recommend no one to try and harm me. I might forget."</p> + +<p>The heavy, aggressive jaw shot forward; the eyes gleamed with a fearless +ferocity, and for a moment the man took on an air that was almost +tigerish. I could scarce believe my sight; yet the next instant it was +the same cheerful, benevolent face, and I thought my eyes must have +played me some trick.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_45" id="page_45" title="45"></a>Perhaps it was that sedate Puritan strain in me that appealed to him, +but we became great friends. We talked of many things, and most of all I +loved to get him to tell of his early life. It was just like a story: +thrown on the world while yet a child; a shoeblack in New York, fighting +for his stand; a lumber-jack in the woods of Michigan; lastly a miner in +Arizona. He told me of long months on the desert with only his pipe for +company, talking to himself over the fire at night, and trying not to go +crazy. He told me of the girl he married and worshipped, and of the man +who broke up his home. Once more I saw that flitting tiger-look appear +on his face and vanish immediately. He told me of his wild days.</p> + +<p>"I was always a fighter, an' I never knew what fear meant. I never saw +the man that could beat me in a rough-an'-tumble scrap. I was uncommon +husky an' as quick as a cat, but it was my fierceness that won out for +me. Get a man down an' give him the leather. I've kicked a man's face to +a jelly. It was kick, bite an' gouge in them days—anything went.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I never knew fear. I've gone up unarmed to a man I knew was heeled +to shoot me on sight, an' I've dared him to do it. Just by the power of +the eye I've made him take water. He thought I had a gun an' could draw +quicker'n him. Then, as the drink got hold of me, I got worse and worse. +Time was when I would have robbed a bank an' shot the man that tried to +stop me. Glory to God! I've seen the evil of my ways."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_46" id="page_46" title="46"></a>"Are you sure you'll never backslide?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"Never! I'm born again. I don't smoke, drink or gamble, an' I'm as happy +as the day's long. There was the drink. I would go on the water-wagon +for three months at a stretch, but day and night, wherever I went, the +glass of whisky was there right between my eyes. Sooner or later it got +the better of me. Then one night I went half-sober into a Gospel Hall. +The glass was there, an' I was in agony tryin' to resist it. The speaker +was callin' sinners to come forward. I thought I'd try the thing anyway, +so I went to the penitents' bench. When I got up the glass was gone. Of +course it came back, but I got rid of it again in the same way. Well, I +had many a struggle an' many a defeat, but in the end I won. It's a +divine miracle."</p> + +<p>I wish I could paint or act the man for you. Words cannot express his +curious character. I came to have a great fondness for him, and +certainly owed him a huge debt of gratitude.</p> + +<p>One day I was paying my usual visit to the Post Office, when some one +gripped me by the arm.</p> + +<p>"Hullo, Scotty! By all that's wonderful. I was just going to mail you a +letter."</p> + +<p>It was the Prodigal, very well dressed and spruce-looking.</p> + +<p>"Say, I'm so tickled I got you; we're going to start in two days."</p> + +<p>"Start! Where?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"Why, for the Golden North, for the land of the <a class="pagenum" name="page_47" id="page_47" title="47"></a>Midnight Sun, for the +treasure-troves of the Klondike Valley."</p> + +<p>"You maybe," I said soberly; "but I can't."</p> + +<p>"Yes you can, and you are, old sport. I fixed all that. Come on, I want +to talk to you. I went home and did the returned prodigal stunt. The old +man was mighty decent when I told him it was no good, I couldn't go into +the glue factory yet awhile. Told him I had the gold-bug awful bad and +nothing but a trip up there would cure me. He was rather tickled with +the idea. Staked me handsomely, and gave me a year to make good. So here +I am, and you're in with me. I'm going to grubstake you. Mind, it's a +business proposition. I've got to have some one, and when you make the +big strike you've got to divvy up."</p> + +<p>I said something about having secured employment as an under-gardener.</p> + +<p>"Pshaw! you'll soon be digging gold-nuggets instead of potatoes. Why, +man, it's the chance of a lifetime, and anybody else would jump at it. +Of course, if you're afraid of the hardships and so on——"</p> + +<p>"No," I said quickly, "I'll go."</p> + +<p>"Ha!" he laughed, "you're too much of a coward to be afraid. Well, we're +going to be blighted Argonauts, but we've got to get busy over our +outfits. We haven't got any too much time."</p> + +<p>So we hustled around. It seemed as if half of San Francisco was +Klondike-crazy. On every hand was there speculation and excitement. All +the <a class="pagenum" name="page_48" id="page_48" title="48"></a>merchants had their outfitting departments, and wild and vague were +their notions as to what was required. We did not do so badly, though +like every one else we bought much that was worthless and foolish. +Suddenly I bethought me of Salvation Jim, and I told the Prodigal of my +new friend.</p> + +<p>"He's an awfully good sort," I said; "white all through; all kinds of +experience, and he's going alone."</p> + +<p>"Why," said the Prodigal, "that's just the man we want. We'll ask him to +join us."</p> + +<p>I brought the two together, and it was arranged. So it came about that +we three left San Francisco on the fourth day of March to seek our +fortunes in the Frozen North.</p> + +<hr class='major' /> + +<h2><a name="BOOK_II" id="BOOK_II"></a>BOOK II</h2> + +<div style="margin: auto; text-align: center; padding-top: 1em; padding-bottom: 1em"> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_49" id="page_49" title="49"></a> +<a name="THE_TRAIL_1476" id="THE_TRAIL_1476"></a> +<h3>THE TRAIL</h3> +</div> + +<table summary=""><tr><td> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_50" id="page_50" title="50"></a> +Gold! We leaped from our benches. Gold! We sprang from our stools.<br /> +Gold! We wheeled in the furrow, fired with the faith of fools.<br /> +Fearless, unfound, unfitted, far from the night and the cold,<br /> +Heard we the clarion summons, followed the master-lure—Gold!<br /> +</td></tr></table> + +<div> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_51" id="page_51" title="51"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER I</h2> +</div> + +<p>"Say! you're looking mighty blue. Cheer up, darn you! What's the +matter?" said the Prodigal affectionately.</p> + +<p>And indeed there was matter enough, for had I not just received letters +from home, one from Garry and one from Mother? Garry's was gravely +censorious, almost remonstrant. Mother, he said, was poorly, and greatly +put out over my escapade. He pointed out that I was in a fair way of +being a rolling stone, and hoped that I would at once give up my mad +notion of the South Seas and soberly proceed to the Northwest.</p> + +<p>Mother's letter was reproachful, in parts almost distressful. She was +failing, she said, and she begged me to be a good son, give up my +wanderings and join my cousin at once. Also she enclosed post-office +orders for forty pounds. Her letter, written in a fine faltering hand +and so full of gentle affection, brought the tears to my eyes; so that +it was very bleakly I leaned against the ship's rail and watched the +bustle of departure. Poor Mother! Dear old Garry! With what tender +longing I thought of those two in far-away Glengyle, the Scotch mist +silvering the heather and the wind blowing caller from the sea. Oh, for +the clean, keen breath of it! Yet alas, every day was the memory +<a class="pagenum" name="page_52" id="page_52" title="52"></a>fading, and every day was I fitting more snugly into the new life.</p> + +<p>"I've just heard from the folks," I said, "and I feel like going back on +you."</p> + +<p>"Oh, beat it," he cried; "you can't renig now. You've got to see the +thing through. Mothers are all like that when you cut loose from their +apron-strings. Ma's scared stiff about me, thinks the devil's got an +option on my future sure. They get wised up pretty soon. What you want +to do is to get busy and make yourself acquainted. Here I've been +snooping round for the last two hours, and got a line on nearly every +one on board. Say! Of all the locoed outfits this here aggregation has +got everything else skinned to a hard-boiled finish. Most of them are +indoor men, ink-slingers and calico snippers; haven't done a day's hard +work in their lives, and don't know a pick from a mattock. They've got a +notion they've just got to get up there and pick big nuggets out of the +water like cherries out of a cocktail. It's the limit."</p> + +<p>"Tell me about them," I said.</p> + +<p>"Well, see that young fellow standing near us?"</p> + +<p>I looked. He was slim, with gentle, refined features and an unnaturally +fresh complexion.</p> + +<p>"That fellow was a pen-pusher in a mazuma emporium—I mean a bank clerk. +Pinklove's his name. He wanted to get hitched to some girl, but the +directors wouldn't stand for it. Now he's chucked his job and staked his +savings on this trip. There's his girl in the crowd."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_53" id="page_53" title="53"></a>Bedded in that mosaic of human faces I saw one that was all sweetness, +yet shamelessly tear-stained.</p> + +<p>"Lucky beggar," I said, "to have some one who cares so much about his +going."</p> + +<p>"Unlucky, you mean, lad. You don't want to have any strings on you when +you play this game."</p> + +<p>He pointed to a long-haired young man in a flowing-end tie.</p> + +<p>"See that pale-faced, artistic-looking guy alongside him. That's his +partner. Ineffectual, moony sort of a mut. He's a wood-carver; they call +him Globstock; told me his knowledge of wood-carving would come in handy +when we came to make boats at Lake Bennett. Then there's a third. See +that little fellow shooting off his face?"</p> + +<p>I saw a weazened, narrow-chested mannikin, with an aggressive certainty +of feature.</p> + +<p>"He's a professor, plumb-full of book dope on the Yukon. He's Mister +Wise Mike. He knows it all. Hear his monologue on 'How It Should Be +Done.' He's going to live on deck to inure himself to the rigours of the +Arctic climate. Works with a pair of spring dumb-bells to get up his +muscle so's he can shovel out the nuggets."</p> + +<p>Our eyes roved round from group to group, picking out characteristic +figures.</p> + +<p>"See that big bleached-blond Englishman? Came over with me on the +Pullman from New York. 'Awfully bored, don't you know.' When we got to +'Frisco, he says to me: 'Thank God, old chappie, the worst part of the +journey's over.' Then there's <a class="pagenum" name="page_54" id="page_54" title="54"></a>Romulus and Remus, the twins, strapping +young fellows. Only way I know them apart is one laces his boots tight, +the other slack. They think the world of each other."</p> + +<p>He swung around to where Salvation Jim was talking to two men.</p> + +<p>"There's a pair of winners. I put my money on them. Nothing on earth can +stop those fellows, native-born Americans, all grit and get-up. See that +tall one smoking a cigar and looking at the women? He's an athlete. +Name's Mervin; all whipcord and whalebone; springy as a bent bow. He's a +type of the Swift. He's bound to get there. See the other. Hewson's his +name; solid as a tower; muscled like a bear; built from the ground up. +He represents the Strong. Look at the grim, determined face of him. You +can't down a man like that."</p> + +<p>He indicated another group.</p> + +<p>"Now there's three birds of prey. Bullhammer, Marks and Mosher. The big, +pig-eyed heavy-jowled one is Bullhammer. He's in the saloon business. +The middle-sized one in the plug hat is Marks. See his oily, yellow face +dotted with pimples. He's a phoney piece of work; calls himself a mining +broker. The third's Jake Mosher. He's an out-and-out gambler, a +sure-thing man, once was a parson."</p> + +<p>I looked again. Mosher had just taken off his hat. His high-domed head +was of monumental baldness, his eyes close-set and crafty, his nose +negligible. <a class="pagenum" name="page_55" id="page_55" title="55"></a>The rest of his face was mostly beard. It grew black as the +Pit to near the bulge of his stomach, and seemed to have drained his +scalp in its rank luxuriance. Across the deck came the rich, oily tones +of his voice.</p> + +<p>"A bad-looking bunch," I said.</p> + +<p>"Yes, there's heaps like them on board. There's a crowd of dance-hall +girls going up, and the usual following of parasites. Look at that +Halfbreed. There's a man for the country now, part Scotch, part Indian; +the quietest man on the boat; light, but tough as wire nails."</p> + +<p>I saw a lean, bright-eyed brown man with flat features, smoking a +cigarette.</p> + +<p>"Say! Just get next to those two Jews, Mike and Rebecca Winklestein. +They're going to open up a sporty restaurant."</p> + +<p>The man was a small bandy-legged creature, with eyes that squinted, a +complexion like ham fat and waxed moustaches. But it was the woman who +seized my attention. Never did I see such a strapping Amazon, six foot +if an inch, and massive in proportion. She was handsome too, in a +swarthy way, though near at hand her face was sensuous and bold. Yet she +had a suave, flattering manner and a coarse wit that captured the crowd. +Dangerous, unscrupulous and cruel, I thought; a man-woman, a shrew, a +termagant!</p> + +<p>But I was growing weary of the crowd and longed to go below. I was no +longer interested, yet the voice of the Prodigal droned in my ear.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_56" id="page_56" title="56"></a>"There's an old man and his granddaughter, relatives of the +Winklesteins, I believe. I think the old fellow's got a screw loose. +Handsome old boy, though; looks like a Hebrew prophet out of a job. +Comes from Poland. Speaks Yiddish or some such jargon; Only English he +knows is 'Klondike, Klondike.' The girl looks heartbroken, poor little +beggar."</p> + +<p>"Poor little beggar!" I heard the words indeed, but my mind was far +away. To the devil with Polish Jews and their granddaughters. I wished +the Prodigal would leave me to my own thoughts, thoughts of my Highland +home and my dear ones. But no! he persisted:</p> + +<p>"You're not listening to what I'm saying. Look, why don't you!"</p> + +<p>So, to please him, I turned full round and looked. An old man, +patriarchal in aspect, crouched on the deck. Erect by his side, with her +hand on his shoulder, stood a slim figure in black, the figure of a +girl. Indifferently my eyes travelled from her feet to her face. There +they rested. I drew a deep breath. I forgot everything else. Then for +the first time I saw—Berna.</p> + +<p>I will not try to depict the girl. Pen descriptions are so futile. I +will only say that her face was very pale, and that she had large +pathetic grey eyes. For the rest, her cheeks were woefully pinched and +her lips drooped wistfully. 'Twas the face, I thought, of a virgin +martyr with a fear-haunted look hard to forget. All this I saw, but most +of all I <a class="pagenum" name="page_57" id="page_57" title="57"></a>saw those great, grey eyes gazing unseeingly over the crowd, +ever so sadly fixed on that far-away East of her dreams and memories.</p> + +<p>"Poor little beggar!"</p> + +<p>Then I cursed myself for a sentimental impressionist and I went below. +Stateroom forty-seven was mine. We three had been separated in the +shuffle, and I knew not who was to be my room-mate. Feeling very +downhearted, I stretched myself on the upper berth, and yielded to a +mood of penitential sadness. I heard the last gang-plank thrown off, the +great crowd cheer, the measured throb of the engines, yet still I +sounded the depths of reverie. There was a bustle outside and growing +darkness. Then, as I lay, there came voices to my door, guttural tones +blended with liquid ones; lastly a timid knock. Quickly I answered it.</p> + +<p>"Is this room number forty-seven?" a soft voice asked.</p> + +<p>Even ere she spoke I divined it was the Jewish girl of the grey eyes, +and now I saw her hair was like a fair cloud, and her face fragile as a +flower.</p> + +<p>"Yes," I answered her.</p> + +<p>She led forward the old man.</p> + +<p>"This is my grandfather. The Steward told us this was his room."</p> + +<p>"Oh, all right; he'd better take the lower berth."</p> + +<p>"Thank you, indeed; he's an old man and not very strong."</p> + +<p>Her voice was clear and sweet, and there was an infinite tenderness in +the tone.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_58" id="page_58" title="58"></a>"You must come in," I said. "I'll leave you with him for a while so +that you can make him comfortable."</p> + +<p>"Thank you again," she responded gratefully.</p> + +<p>So I withdrew, and when I returned she was gone; but the old man slept +peacefully.</p> + +<p>It was late before I turned in. I went on deck for a time. We were +cleaving through blue-black night, and on our right I could dimly +discern the coast festooned by twinkling lights. Every one had gone +below, I thought, and the loneliness pleased me. I was very quiet, +thinking how good it all was, the balmy wind, the velvet vault of the +night frescoed with wistful stars, the freedom-song of the sea; how +restful, how sane, how loving!</p> + +<p>Suddenly I heard a sound of sobbing, the merciless sobbing of a woman's +breast. Distinct above the hollow breathing of the sea it assailed me, +poignant and insistent. Wonderingly I looked around. Then, in a shadow +of the upper deck, I made out a slight girl-figure, crouching all alone. +It was Grey Eyes, crying fit to break her heart.</p> + +<p>"Poor little beggar!" I muttered.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_59" id="page_59" title="59"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER II</h2> +</div> + +<p>"Gr-r-r—you little brat! If you open your face to him I'll kill you, +kill you, see!"</p> + +<p>The voice was Madam Winklestein's, and the words, hissed in a whisper of +incredible malignity, arrested me as if I had been struck by a live +wire. I listened. Behind the stateroom door there followed a silence, +grimly intense; then a dull pounding; then the same savage undertone.</p> + +<p>"See here, Berna, we're next to you two—we're onto your curves. We know +the old man's got the stuff in his gold-belt, two thousand in bills. +Now, my dear, my sweet little angel what thinks she's too good to mix +with the likes o' us, we need the mon, see!" (Knock, knock.) "And we're +goin' to have it, see!" (Knock, knock.) "That's where you come in, +honey, you're goin' to get it for us. Ain't you now, darlin'!" (Knock, +knock, knock.)</p> + +<p>Faintly, very faintly, I heard a voice:</p> + +<p>"No."</p> + +<p>If it be possible to scream in a whisper, the woman did it.</p> + +<p>"You will! you will! Oh! oh! oh! There's the cursed mule spirit of your +mother in you. She'd never tell us the name of the man that was the ruin +of 'er, blast 'er."</p> + +<p>"Don't speak of my mother, you vile woman!"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_60" id="page_60" title="60"></a>The voice of the virago contracted to an intensity of venom I have +never heard the equal of.</p> + +<p>"Vile woman! Vile woman! You, you to call <i>me</i> a vile woman, me that's +been three times jined in holy wedlock.... Oh, you bastard brat! You +whelp of sin! You misbegotten scum! Oh, I'll fix you for that, if I've +got to swing for it."</p> + +<p>Her scalding words were capped with an oath too foul to repeat, and once +more came the horrible pounding, like a head striking the woodwork. +Unable to bear it any longer, I rapped sharply on the door.</p> + +<p>Silence, a long, panting silence; then the sound of a falling body; then +the door opened a little and the twitching face of Madam appeared.</p> + +<p>"Is there somebody sick?" I asked. "I'm sorry to trouble you, but I was +thinking I heard groans and—I might be able to do something."</p> + +<p>Piercingly she looked at me. Her eyes narrowed to slits and stabbed me +with their spite. Her dark face grew turgid with impotent anger. As I +stood there she was like to have killed me. Then like a flash her +expression changed. With a dirty bejewelled hand she smoothed her +tousled hair. Her coarse white teeth gleamed in a gold-capped smile. +There was honey in her tone.</p> + +<p>"Why, no! my niece in here's got a toothache, but I guess we can fix it +between us. We don't need no help, thanks, young feller."</p> + +<p>"Oh, that's all right," I said. "If you should, you know, I'll be +nearby."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_61" id="page_61" title="61"></a>Then I moved away, conscious that her eyes followed me malevolently.</p> + +<p>The business worried me sorely. The poor girl was being woefully abused, +that was plain. I felt indignant, angry and, last of all, anxious. +Mingled with my feelings was a sense of irritation that I should have +been elected to overhear the affair. I had no desire just then to +champion distressed damsels, least of all to get mixed up in the family +brawls of unknown Jewesses. Confound her, anyway! I almost hated her. +Yet I felt constrained to watch and wait, and even at the cost of my own +ease and comfort to prevent further violence.</p> + +<p>For that matter there were all kinds of strange doings on board, +drinking, gambling, nightly orgies and hourly brawls. It seemed as if we +had shipped all the human dregs of the San Francisco deadline. Never, I +believe, in those times when almost daily the Argonaut-laden boats were +sailing for the Golden North, was there one in which the sporting +element was so dominant. The social hall reeked with patchouli and stale +whiskey. From the staterooms came shrill outbursts of popular melody, +punctuated with the popping of champagne corks. Dance-hall girls, +babbling incoherently, reeled in the passageways, danced on the cabin +table, and were only held back from licentiousness by the restraint of +their bullies. The day was one long round of revelry, and the night was +pregnant with sinister sound.</p> + +<p>Already among the better element a moral secession was apparent. +Convention they had left behind <a class="pagenum" name="page_62" id="page_62" title="62"></a>with their boiled shirts and their +store clothes, and crazed with the idea of speedy fortune, they were +even now straining at the leash of decency. It was a howling mob, +elately riotous, and already infected by the virus of the goldophobia.</p> + +<p>Oh, it was good to get on deck of a night, away from this saturnalia, to +watch the beacon stars strewn vastly in the skyey uplift, to listen to +the ancient threnody of the outcast sea. Blue and silver the nights +were, and crystal clear, with a keen wind that painted the cheek and +kindled the eye. And as I sat in silent thought there came to me +Salvation Jim. His face was grim, his eyes brooding. From the +brilliantly lit social hall came a blare of music-hall melody.</p> + +<p>"I don't like the way of things a bit," he said; "I don't like it. Look +here now, lad, I've lived round mining camps for twenty years, I've +followed the roughest callings on earth, I've tramped the States all +over, yet never have I seen the beat of this. Mind you, I ain't +prejudiced, though I've seen the error of my ways, glory to God! I can +make allowance once in a while for the boys gettin' on a jamboree, but +by Christmas! Say! There's enough evil on this boat to stake a +sub-section in Hell. There's men should be at home with their dinky +little mothers an' their lovin' wives an' children, down there right now +in that cabin buyin' wine for them painted Jezebels.</p> + +<p>"There's doctors an' lawyers an' deacons in the church back in old Ohio, +that never made a bad <a class="pagenum" name="page_63" id="page_63" title="63"></a>break in their lives, an' now they're rowin' like +barroom bullies for the kisses of a baggage. In the bay-window of their +souls the devil lolls an' grins an' God is freezin' in the attic. You +mark my words, boy; there's a curse on this northern gold. The Yukon's +a-goin' to take its toll. You mark my words."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Jim," I said, "you're superstitious."</p> + +<p>"No, I ain't. I've just got a hunch. Here we are a bit of floatin' +iniquity glidin' through the mystery of them strange seas, an' the very +officers on dooty sashed to the neck an' reekin' from the arms of the +scented hussies below. It'll be God's mercy if we don't crash on a rock, +an' go down good an' all to the bitter bottom. But it don't matter. +Sooner or later there's goin' to be a reckonin'. There's many a one +shoutin' an' singin' to-night'll leave his bones to bleach up in that +bleak wild land."</p> + +<p>"No, Jim," I protested, "they will be all right once they get ashore."</p> + +<p>"Right nothin'! They're a pack of fools. They think they've got a bulge +on fortune. Hear them a-howlin' now. They're all millionaires in their +minds. There's no doubt with them. It's a cinch. They're spendin' it +right now. You mark my words, young feller, for I'll never live to see +them fulfilled—there's ninety in a hundred of all them fellers that's +goin' to this here Klondike will never make good, an' of the other ten, +nine won't <i>do</i> no good."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_64" id="page_64" title="64"></a>"One per cent. that will keep their stakes—that's absurd, Jim."</p> + +<p>"Well, you'll see. An' as for me, I feel as sure as God's above us +guidin' us through the mazes of the night, I'll never live to make the +trip back. I've got a hunch. Old Jim's on his last stampede."</p> + +<p>He sighed, then said sharply:</p> + +<p>"Did you see that feller that passed us?"</p> + +<p>It was Mosher, the gambler and ex-preacher.</p> + +<p>"That man's a skunk, a renegade sky-pilot. I'm keepin' tabs on that man. +Maybe him an' me's got a score to settle one of them days. Maybe."</p> + +<p>He went off abruptly, leaving me to ponder long over his gloomy words.</p> + +<p>We were now three days out. The weather was fine, and nearly every one +was on deck in the sunshine. Even Bullhammer, Marks and Mosher had +deserted the card-room for a time. The Bank clerk and the Wood-carver +talked earnestly, planned and dreamed. The Professor was busy expounding +a theory of the gold origin to a party of young men from Minnesota. +Silent and watchful the athletic Mervin smoked his big cigar, while, +patient and imperturbable, the iron Hewson chewed stolidly. The twins +were playing checkers. The Winklesteins were making themselves solid +with the music-hall clique. In and out among the different groups darted +the Prodigal, as volatile as a society reporter at a church bazaar. And +besides these, always alone, austerely aloof as if framed in a picture +by themselves, <a class="pagenum" name="page_65" id="page_65" title="65"></a>a picture of dignity and sweetness, were the Jewish maid +and her aged grandfather.</p> + +<p>Although he was my room-mate I had seen but little of him. He was abed +before I retired and I was up and out ere he awoke. For the rest I +avoided the two because of their obvious connection with the +Winklesteins. Surely, thought I, she cannot be mixed up with those two +and be everything that's all right. Yet there was something in the +girl's clear eyes, and in the old man's fine face, that reproached me +for my doubt.</p> + +<p>It was while I was thus debating, and covertly studying the pair, that +something occurred.</p> + +<p>Bullhammer and Marks were standing by me, and across the deck came the +acridly nasal tones of the dance-hall girls. I saw the libertine eyes of +Bullhammer rove incontinently from one unlovely demirep to another, till +at last they rested on the slender girl standing by the side of her +white-haired grandfather. Appreciatively he licked his lips.</p> + +<p>"Say, Monkey, who's the kid with old Whiskers there?"</p> + +<p>"Search me, Pete," said Marks; "want a knockdown?"</p> + +<p>"Betcher! Seems kind-a standoffish, though, don't she?"</p> + +<p>"Standoffish be darned! Never yet saw the little bit of all right that +could stand off Sam Marks. I'm a winner, I am, an' don' you forget it. +Just watch my splash."</p> + +<p>I must say the man was expensively dressed in <a class="pagenum" name="page_66" id="page_66" title="66"></a>a flashy way. His oily, +pimple-garnished face wreathed itself in a smirk of patronising +familiarity, and with the bow of a dancing master he advanced. I saw her +give a quick start, bite her lip and shrink back. "Good for you, little +girl," I thought. But the man was in no way put out.</p> + +<p>"Say, Sis, it's all right. Just want to interdooce you to a gentleman +fren' o' mine."</p> + +<p>The girl gazed at him, and her dilated eyes were eloquent of fear and +distrust. It minded me of the panic of a fawn run down by the hunter, so +that I found myself trembling in sympathy. A startled moment she gazed; +then swiftly she turned her back.</p> + +<p>This was too much for Marks. He flushed angrily.</p> + +<p>"Say! what's the matter with you? Come off the perch there. Ain't we +good enough to associate with you? Who the devil are you, anyhow?"</p> + +<p>His face was growing red and aggressive. He closed in on her. He laid a +rough hand on her shoulder. Thinking the thing had gone far enough I +stepped forward to interfere, when the unexpected happened.</p> + +<p>Suddenly the old man had risen to his feet, and it was a surprise to me +how tall he was. Into his face there had come the ghost of ancient power +and command. His eyes blazed with wrath, and his clenched fist was +raised high in anathema. Then it came swiftly down on the head of Marks, +crushing his stiff hat tightly over his eyes.</p> + +<p>The climax was ludicrous in a way. There was <a class="pagenum" name="page_67" id="page_67" title="67"></a>a roar of laughter, and +hearing it Marks spluttered as he freed himself. With a curse of rage he +would have rushed the old man, but a great hand seized him by the +shoulder. It was the grim, taciturn Hewson, and judging by the way his +captive squirmed, his grip must have been peculiarly vise-like. The old +man was pale as death, the girl crying, the passengers crowding round. +Every one was gabbling and curious, so feeling I could do no good, I +went below.</p> + +<p>What was there about this slip of a girl that interested me so? Ever and +anon I found myself thinking of her. Was it the conversation I had +overheard? Was it the mystery that seemed to surround her? Was it the +irrepressible instinct of my heart for the romance of life? With the old +man, despite our stateroom propinquity, I had made no advances. With the +girl I had passed no further words.</p> + +<p>But the Gods of destiny act in whimsical ways. Doubtless the voyage +would have finished without the betterment of our acquaintance; +doubtless our paths would have parted, nevermore to cross; doubtless our +lives would have been lived out to their fulness and this story never +have been told—had it not been for the luckless fatality of the Box of +Grapes.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_68" id="page_68" title="68"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER III</h2> +</div> + +<p>Puget Sound was behind us and we had entered on that great sea that +stretched northward to the Arctic barrens. Misty and wet was the wind, +and cold with the kiss of many icebergs. Under a grey sky, glooming to +purple, the gelid water writhed nakedly. Spectral islands elbowed each +other, to peer at us as we flitted past. Still more wraithlike the +mainland, fringed to the sea foam with saturnine pine, faded away into +fastnesses of impregnable desolation. There was a sense of deathlike +passivity in the land, of overwhelming vastitude, of unconquerable +loneliness. It was as if I had felt for the first time the Spirit of the +Wild; the Wild where God broods amid His silence; the Wild, His infinite +solace and His sanctuary.</p> + +<p>As we forged through the vague sea lanes, we were like a glittering +trinket on the bosom of the night. Our mad merriment scarce ever abated. +We were a blare of revelry and a blaze of light. Excitement mounted to +fever heat. In the midst of it the women with the enamelled cheeks +reaped a bountiful harvest. I marvel now that, with all the besotted +recklessness of those that were our pilots, we met with no serious +mishap.</p> + +<p>"Don't mind you much of a Sunday-school picnic, does it?" commented the +Prodigal. "It's <a class="pagenum" name="page_69" id="page_69" title="69"></a>fierce the way the girls are prying some of these crazy +jays loose from their wads. They're all plumb batty. I'm tired trying to +wise them up. 'Go and chase yourself,' they say; 'we're all right. Don't +matter if we do loosen up a bit now, there's all kinds of easy money +waiting for us up there.' Then they talk of what they're going to do +when they've got the dough. One gazebo wants to buy a castle in the old +country; another wants a racing stable; another a steam yacht. Oh, +they're a hot bunch of sports. They're all planning to have a purple +time in the sweet by-and-bye. I don't hear any of them speak of endowing +a home for decrepit wash-ladies or pensioning off their aged +grandmothers. They make me sick. There's a cold juicy awakening coming."</p> + +<p>He was right. In their visionary leaps to affluence they soared to giddy +heights. They strutted and bragged as if the millions were already +theirs. To hear them, you would think they had an exclusive option on +the treasure-troves of the Klondike. Yet, before and behind us, were +dozens of similar vessels, bearing just as eager a mob of +fortune-hunters, all drawn irresistibly northward by the Golden Magnet.</p> + +<p>Nevertheless, it was hard not to be affected by the prevailing spirit of +optimism. For myself the gold had but little attraction, but the +adventure was very dear to my heart. Once more the clarion call of +Romance rang in my ears, and I leapt to its summons. And indeed, I +reflected, it was a wonderful <a class="pagenum" name="page_70" id="page_70" title="70"></a>kaleidoscope of a world, wherein I, but a +half-year back cooling my heels in a highland burn, should be now part +and parcel of this great Argonaut army. Already my native uncouthness +was a thing of the past, and the quaint mannerisms of my Scots tongue +were yielding to the racy slang of the frontier. More to the purpose, +too, I was growing in strength and wiry endurance. As I looked around me +I realised that there were many less fitted for the trail than I, and +there was none with such a store of glowing health. You may picture me +at this time, a tallish young man, with a fine colour in my cheeks, +black hair that curled crisply, and dark eyes that were either alight +with eagerness or agloom with dreams.</p> + +<p>I have said that we were all more or less in a ferment of excitement, +but to this I must make a reservation. One there was who, amid all our +unrest, remained cold, distant and alien—the Jewish girl, Berna. Even +in the old man the gold fever betrayed itself in a visionary eye and a +tremor of the lips; but the girl was a statue of patient resignation, a +living reproof to our febrile and purblind imaginings.</p> + +<p>The more I studied her, the more out of place she seemed in my picture, +and, almost unconsciously, I found myself weaving about her a fabric of +romance. I endowed her with a mystery that piqued and fascinated me, yet +without it I have no doubt I would have been attracted to her. I longed +to know her uncommon well, to win her regard, to do something <a class="pagenum" name="page_71" id="page_71" title="71"></a>for her +that should make her eyes rest very kindly on me. In short, as is the +way of young men, I was beginning to grope blindly for that affection +and sympathy which are the forerunners of passion and love.</p> + +<p>The land was wintry and the wind shrilled so that the attendant gulls +flapped their wings hard in the face of it. The wolf-pack of the sea +were snarling whitely as they ran. The decks were deserted, and so many +of the brawlers were sick and lay like dead folk that it almost seemed +as if a Sabbath quiet lay on the ship. That day I had missed the old +man, and on going below, found him lying as one sore stricken. A +withered hand lay on his brow, and from his lips, which were almost +purple, thin moans issued.</p> + +<p>"Poor old beggar," I thought; "I wonder if I cannot do anything for +him." And while I was thus debating, a timid knock came to the door. I +opened it, and there was the girl, Berna.</p> + +<p>There was a nervous anxiety in her manner, and a mute interrogation in +her grey eyes.</p> + +<p>"I'm afraid he's a little sick to-day," I said gently; "but come in, +won't you, and see him?"</p> + +<p>"Thank you." Pity, tenderness and love seemed to struggle in her face as +she softly brushed past me. With some words of endearment, she fell on +her knees beside him, and her small white hand sought his thin gnarled +one. As if galvanised into life, the old man turned gratefully to her.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_72" id="page_72" title="72"></a>"Maybe he would care for some coffee," I said. "I think I could rustle +him some."</p> + +<p>She gave me a queer, sad look of thanks.</p> + +<p>"If you could," she answered.</p> + +<p>When I returned she had the old man propped up with pillows. She took +the coffee from me, and held the cup to his lips; but after a few sips +he turned away wearily.</p> + +<p>"I'm afraid he doesn't care for that," I said.</p> + +<p>"No, I'm afraid he won't take it."</p> + +<p>She was like an anxious nurse hovering over a patient. She thought a +while.</p> + +<p>"Oh, if I only had some fruit!"</p> + +<p>Then it was I bethought me of the box of grapes. I had bought them just +before leaving, thinking they would be a grateful surprise to my +companions. Obviously I had been inspired, and now I produced them in +triumph, big, plump, glossy fellows, buried in the fragrant cedar dust. +I shook clear a large bunch, and once more we tried the old man. It +seemed as if we had hit on the one thing needful, for he ate eagerly. +She watched him for a while with a growing sense of relief, and when he +had finished and was resting quietly, she turned to me.</p> + +<p>"I don't know how I can thank you, sir, for your kindness."</p> + +<p>"Very easily," I said quickly; "if you will yourself accept some of the +fruit, I shall be more than repaid."</p> + +<p>She gave me a dubious look; then such a bright, merry light flashed into +her eyes that she was radiant <a class="pagenum" name="page_73" id="page_73" title="73"></a>in my sight. It was as if half a dozen +years had fallen from her, revealing a heart capable of infinite joy and +happiness.</p> + +<p>"If you will share them with me," she said simply.</p> + +<p>So, for the lack of chairs, we squatted on the narrow stateroom floor, +under the old man's kindly eye. The fruit minded us of sunlit vines, and +the careless rapture of the South. To me the situation was one of rare +charm. She ate daintily, and as we talked, I studied her face as if I +would etch it on my memory forever.</p> + +<p>In particular I noticed the wistful contour of her cheek, her sensitive +mouth, and the fine modelling of her chin. She had clear, candid eyes +and sweeping lashes, too. Her ears were shell-like, and her hair soft, +wavy and warm. These things I marked minutely, thinking she was more +than beautiful—she was even pretty. I was in a state of extraordinary +elation, like a man that has found a jewel in the mire.</p> + +<p>It must be remembered, lest I appear to be taking a too eager interest +in the girl, that up till now the world of woman had been <i>terra +incognita</i> to me; that I had lived a singularly cloistered life, and +that first and last I was an idealist. This girl had distinction, +mystery and charm, and it is not to be wondered at that I found a joy in +her presence. I proved myself a perfect artesian well of conversation, +talking freely of the ship, of our fellow-passengers and of the chances +of the venture. I found her <a class="pagenum" name="page_74" id="page_74" title="74"></a>wonderfully quick in the uptake. Her mind +seemed nimbly to outrun mine, and she divined my words ere I had them +uttered. Yet she never spoke of herself, and when I left them together I +was full of uneasy questioning.</p> + +<p>Next day the old man was still abed, and again the girl came to visit +him. This time I noticed that much of her timid manner was gone, and in +its stead was a shy friendliness. Once more the box of grapes proved a +mediator between us, and once more I found in her a reticent but +sympathetic audience—so much so that I was frank in telling her of +myself, my home and my kinsfolk. I thought that maybe my talk would +weary her, but she listened with a bright-eyed regard, nodding her head +eagerly at times. Yet she spoke no word of her own affairs, so that when +again I left them together I was as much in the dark as ever.</p> + +<p>It was on the third day I found the old man up and dressed, and Berna +with him. She looked brighter and happier than I had yet seen her, and +she greeted me with a smiling face. Then, after a little, she said:</p> + +<p>"My grandfather plays the violin. Would you mind if he played over some +of our old-country songs? It would comfort him."</p> + +<p>"No, go ahead," I said; "I wish he would."</p> + +<p>So she got an ancient violin, and the old man cuddled it lovingly and +played soft, weird melodies, songs of the Czech race, that made me think +of Romance, of love and hate, and passion and despair. <a class="pagenum" name="page_75" id="page_75" title="75"></a>Piece after +piece he played, as if pouring out the sadness and heart-hunger of a +burdened people, until my own heart ached in sympathy.</p> + +<p>The wild music throbbed with passionate sweetness and despair. +Unobserved, the pale twilight stole into the little cabin. The ruggedly +fine face of the old man was like one inspired, and with clasped hands, +the girl sat, very white-faced and motionless. Then I saw a gleam on her +cheek, the soft falling of tears. Somehow, at that moment, I felt drawn +very near to those two, the music, the tears, the fervent sadness of +their faces. I felt as if I had been allowed to share with them a few +moments consecrated to their sorrow, and that they knew I understood.</p> + +<p>That day as I was leaving, I said to her:</p> + +<p>"Berna, this is our last night on board."</p> + +<p>"Yes."</p> + +<p>"To-morrow our trails divide, maybe never again to cross. Will you come +up on deck for a little while to-night? I want to talk to you."</p> + +<p>"Talk to me?"</p> + +<p>She looked startled, incredulous. She hesitated.</p> + +<p>"Please, Berna, it's the last time."</p> + +<p>"All right," she answered in a low tone.</p> + +<p>Then she looked at me curiously.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_76" id="page_76" title="76"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER IV</h2> +</div> + +<p>She came to meet me, lily-white and sweet. She was but thinly wrapped, +and shivered so that I put my coat around her. We ventured forward, +climbing over a huge anchor to the very bow of the boat, and crouching +down in its peak, were sheltered from the cold breeze.</p> + +<p>We were cutting through smooth water, and crowding in on us were haggard +mountains, with now and then the greenish horror of a glacier. Overhead, +in the desolate sky, the new moon nursed the old moon in her arms.</p> + +<p>"Berna!"</p> + +<p>"Yes."</p> + +<p>"You're not happy, Berna. You're in sore trouble, little girl. I don't +know why you come up to this God-forsaken country or why you are with +those people. I don't want to know; but if there's anything I can do for +you, any way I can prove myself a true friend, tell me, won't you?"</p> + +<p>My voice betrayed emotion. I could feel her slim form, very close to me, +all a-tremble. In the filtered silver of the crescent moon, I could see +her face, wan and faintly sweet. Gently I prisoned one of her hands in +mine.</p> + +<p>She did not speak at once. Indeed, she was quiet for a long time, so +that it seemed as if she must be <a class="pagenum" name="page_77" id="page_77" title="77"></a>stricken dumb, or as if some feelings +were conflicting within her. Then at last, very gently, very quietly, +very sweetly, as if weighing her words, she spoke.</p> + +<p>"No, there's nothing you can do. You've been too kind all along. You're +the only one on the boat that's been kind. Most of the others have +looked at me—well, you know how men look at a poor, unprotected girl. +But you, you're different; you're good, you're honourable, you're +sincere. I could see it in your face, in your eyes. I knew I could trust +you. You've been kindness itself to grandfather and I, and I never can +thank you enough."</p> + +<p>"Nonsense! Don't talk of thanks, Berna. You don't know what a happiness +it's been to help you. I'm sorry I've done so little. Oh, I'm going to +be sincere and frank with you. The few hours I've had with you have made +me long for others. I'm a lonely beggar. I never had a sister, never a +girl friend. You're the first, and it's been like sudden sunshine to me. +Now, can't I be really and truly your friend, Berna; your friend that +would do much for you? Let me do something, anything, to show how +earnestly I mean it?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, I know. Well, then, you are my dear, true friend—there, now."</p> + +<p>"Yes,—but, Berna! To-morrow you'll go and we'll likely never see each +other again. What's the good of it all?"</p> + +<p>"Well, what do you want? We will both have a memory, a very sweet, nice +memory, won't we? Believe me, it's better so. You don't want to have +<a class="pagenum" name="page_78" id="page_78" title="78"></a>anything to do with a girl like me. You don't know anything about me, +and you see the kind of people I'm going with. Perhaps I am just as bad +as they."</p> + +<p>"Don't say that, Berna," I interposed sternly; "you're all that's good +and pure and sweet."</p> + +<p>"No, I'm not, either. We're all of us pretty mixed. But I'm not so bad, +and it's nice of you to think those things.... Oh! if I had never come +on this terrible trip! I don't even know where we are going, and I'm +afraid, afraid."</p> + +<p>"No, little girl."</p> + +<p>"Yes, I can't tell you how afraid I am. The country's so savage and +lonely; the men are so like brute beasts; the women—well, they're +worse. And here are we in the midst of it. I don't know what's going to +become of us."</p> + +<p>"Well, Berna, if it's like that, why don't you and your grandfather turn +back? Why go on?"</p> + +<p>"He will never turn back. He'll go on till he dies. He only knows one +word of English and that's Klondike, Klondike. He mutters it a thousand +times a day. He has visions of gold, glittering heaps of it, and he'll +stagger and struggle on till he finds it."</p> + +<p>"But can't you reason with him?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, it's all no use. He's had a dream. He's like a man that's crazy. He +thinks he has been chosen, and that to him will a great treasure be +revealed. You might as well reason with a stone. All I can do is to +follow him, is to take care of him."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_79" id="page_79" title="79"></a>"What about the Winklesteins, Berna?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, they're at the bottom of it all. It is they who have inflamed his +mind. He has a little money, the savings of a lifetime, about two +thousand dollars; and ever since he came to this country, they've been +trying to get it. They ran a little restaurant in New York. They tried +to get him to put his little store in that. Now they are using the gold +as a bait, and luring him up here. They'll rob and kill him in the end, +and the cruel part is—he's not greedy, he doesn't want it for +himself—but for me. That's what breaks my heart."</p> + +<p>"Surely you're mistaken, Berna; they can't be so bad as that."</p> + +<p>"Bad! I tell you they're <i>vile</i>. The man's a worm, and the woman, she's +a devil incarnate. She's so strong and so violent in her tempers that +when she gets drinking—well, it's just awful. I should know it, I lived +with them for three years."</p> + +<p>"Where?"</p> + +<p>"In New York. I came from the old country to them. They worked me in the +restaurant at first. Then, after a bit, I got employment in a +shirt-waist factory. I was quick and handy, and I worked early and late. +I attended a night school. I read till my eyes ached. They said I was +clever. The teacher wanted me to train and be a teacher too. But what +was the good of thinking of it? I had my living to get, so I stayed at +the factory and worked and worked. Then when I had saved a few dollars, +I sent for grandfather, and he came and we <a class="pagenum" name="page_80" id="page_80" title="80"></a>lived in the tenement and +were very happy for a while. But the Winklesteins never gave us any +peace. They knew he had a little money laid away, and they itched to get +their hands on it. The man was always telling us of get-rich-quick +schemes, and she threatened me in horrible ways. But I wasn't afraid in +New York. Up here it's different. It's all so shadowy and sinister."</p> + +<p>I could feel her shudder.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Berna," I said, "can't I help you?"</p> + +<p>She shook her head sadly.</p> + +<p>"No, you can't; you have enough trouble of your own. Besides it doesn't +matter about me. I didn't mean to tell you all this, but now, if you +want to be a true friend, just go away and forget me. You don't want to +have anything to do with me. Wait! I'll tell you something more. I'm +called Berna Wilovich. That's my grandfather's name. My mother ran away +from home. Two years later she came back—with me. Soon after she died +of consumption. She would never tell my father's name, but said he was a +Christian, and of good family. My grandfather tried to find out. He +would have killed the man. So, you see, I am nameless, a child of shame +and sorrow. And you are a gentleman, and proud of your family. Now, see +the kind of friend you've made. You don't want to make friends with such +as I."</p> + +<p>"I want to make friends with such as need my friendship. What is going +to happen to you, Berna?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_81" id="page_81" title="81"></a>"Happen! God knows! It doesn't matter. Oh, I've always been in trouble. +I'm used to it. I never had a really happy day in my life. I never +expect to. I'll just go on to the end, enduring patiently, and getting +what comfort I can out of things. It's what I was made for, I suppose."</p> + +<p>She shrugged her shoulders and shivered a little.</p> + +<p>"Let me go now, my friend. It's cold up here; I'm chilled. Don't look so +terribly downcast. I expect I'll come out all right. Something may +happen. Cheer up! Maybe you'll see me a Klondike queen yet."</p> + +<p>I could see that her sudden brightness but hid a black abyss of +bitterness and apprehension. What she had told me had somehow stricken +me dumb. There seemed a stark sordidness in the situation that repelled +me. She had arisen and was about to step over the fluke of the great +anchor, when I aroused myself.</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said, "what you have told me wrings my heart. I can't tell +you how terribly sorry I feel. Is there nothing I can do for you, +nothing to show I am not a mere friend of words and phrases? Oh, I hate +to let you go like this."</p> + +<p>The moon had gone behind a cloud. We were in a great shadow. She halted, +so that, as we stood, we were touching each other. Her voice was full of +pathetic resignation.</p> + +<p>"What can you do? If we were going in together it might be different. +When I met you at first I hoped, oh, I hoped—well, it doesn't matter +<a class="pagenum" name="page_82" id="page_82" title="82"></a>what I hoped. But, believe me, I'll be all right. You won't forget me, +will you?"</p> + +<p>"Forget you! No, Berna, I'll never forget you. It cuts me to the heart I +can do nothing now, but we'll meet up there. We can't be divided for +long. And you'll be all right, believe me too, little girl. Be good and +sweet and true and every one will love and help you. Ah, you must go. +Well, well—God bless you, Berna."</p> + +<p>"And I wish you happiness and success, dear friend of mine."</p> + +<p>Her voice trembled. Something seemed to choke her. She stood a moment as +if reluctant to go.</p> + +<p>Suddenly a great impulse of tenderness and pity came over me, and before +I knew it, my arms were around her. She struggled faintly, but her face +was uplifted, her eyes starlike. Then, for a moment of bewildering +ecstasy, her lips lay on mine, and I felt them faintly answer.</p> + +<p>Poor yielding lips! They were cold as ice.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_83" id="page_83" title="83"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER V</h2> +</div> + +<p>Never shall I forget the last I saw of her, a forlorn, pathetic figure +in black, waving a farewell to me as I stood on the wharf. She wore, I +remember, a low collar, and well do I mind the way it showed off the +slim whiteness of her throat; well do I mind the high poise of her head, +and the silken gloss of her hair. The grey eyes were clear and steady as +she bade good-bye to me, and from where we stood apart, her face had all +the pathetic sweetness of a Madonna.</p> + +<p>Well, she was going, and sad enough her going seemed to me. They were +all for Dyea, and the grim old Chilcoot, with its blizzard-beaten +steeps, while we had chosen the less precipitous, but more drawn-out, +Skagway trail. Among them I saw the inseparable twins; the grim Hewson, +the silent Mervin, each quiet and watchful, as if storing up power for a +tremendous effort. There was the large unwholesomeness of Madam +Winklestein, all jewellery, smiles and coarse badinage, and near her, +her perfumed husband, squinting and smirking abominably. There was the +old man, with his face of a Hebrew Seer, his visionary eye now aglow +with fanatical enthusiasm, his lips ever muttering: "Klondike, +Klondike"; and lastly, by his side, with a little wry smile on her lips, +there was the white-faced girl.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_84" id="page_84" title="84"></a>How my heart ached for her! But the time for sentiment was at an end. +The clarion call to action rang out. Inflexibly the trail was mustering +us. The hour was come for every one to give of the best that was in him, +even as he had never given it before. The reign of peace was over; the +fight was on.</p> + +<p>On all sides were indescribable bustle, confusion and excitement; men +shouting, swearing, rushing hither, thither; wrangling, anxious-eyed and +distracted over their outfits. A mood of unsparing energy dominated +them. Their only thought was to get away on the gold-trail. A frantic +eagerness impelled them; insistent, imperative; the trail called to +them, and the light of the gold-lust smouldered and flamed in their +uneasy eyes. Already the spirit of the gold-trail was awakening.</p> + +<p>Hundreds of scattered tents; a few frame buildings, mostly saloons, +dance-halls and gambling joints; an eager, excited mob crowding on the +loose sidewalks, floundering knee-deep in the mire of the streets, +struggling and squabbling and cursing over their outfits—that is all I +remember of Skagway. The mountains, stark and bare to the bluff, seemed +to overwhelm the flimsy town, and between them, like a giant funnel, a +great wind was roaring.</p> + +<p>Lawlessness was rampant, but it did not touch us. The thugs lay in wait +for the men with pokes from the "inside." To the great Cheechako army, +they gave little heed. They were captained by one Smith, known as +"Soapy," whom I had the fortune to meet. He was a pleasant-appearing, +sociable <a class="pagenum" name="page_85" id="page_85" title="85"></a>man, and no one would have taken him for a desperado, a killer +of men.</p> + +<p>One picture of Skagway is still vivid in my memory. The scene is a +saloon, and along with the Prodigal, I am having a glass of beer. In a +corner sits a befuddled old man, half asleep. He is long and lank, with +a leathery face and a rusty goatee beard—as ragged, disreputable an old +sinner as ever bellied up to a bar. Suddenly there is a sound of +shooting. We rush out and there are two toughs blazing away at each +other from the sheltering corners of an opposite building.</p> + +<p>"Hey, Dad! There's some shootin' goin' on," says the barkeeper.</p> + +<p>The old man rouses and cocks up a bleary, benevolent eye.</p> + +<p>"Shooting', did ye say? Pshaw! Them fellers don't know how to shoot. Old +Dad'll show 'em how to shoot."</p> + +<p>He comes to the door, and lugging out a big rusty revolver, blazes away +at one of the combatants. The man, with a howl of surprise and pain, +limps away. The old man turns to the other fellow. Bang! We see +splinters fly, and a man running for dear life.</p> + +<p>"Told you I'd show 'em how to shoot," remarks old Dad to us. "Thanks, +I'll have a gin-fizz for mine."</p> + +<p>The Prodigal developed a wonderful executive ability about this time; he +was a marvel of activity, seemed to think of everything and to glory in +his <a class="pagenum" name="page_86" id="page_86" title="86"></a>responsibility as a leader. Always cheerful, always thoughtful, he +was the brains of our party. He never abated in his efforts a moment, +and was an example and a stimulus to us all. <a name="ft01"></a>I say "all," for we had +added the "Jam-wagon"<a class="fn" href="#fn01"> 1 </a> to our number. It was the Prodigal who +discovered him. He was a tall, dissolute Englishman, gaunt, ragged and +verminous, but with the earmarks of a gentleman. He seemed indifferent +to everything but whiskey and only anxious to hide himself from his +friends. I discovered he had once been an officer in a Hussar regiment, +but he was obviously reluctant to speak of his past. A lost soul in +every sense of the word, the North was to him a refuge and an +unrestricted stamping-ground. So, partly in pity, partly in hope of +winning back his manhood, we allowed him to join the party.</p> + +<p>Pack animals were in vast demand, for it was considered a pound of grub +was the equal of a pound of gold. Old horses, fit but for the knacker's +yard, and burdened till they could barely stand, were being goaded +forward through the mud. Any kind of a dog was a prize, quickly stolen +if left unwatched. Sheep being taken in for the butcher were driven +forward with packs on their backs. Even was there an effort to make pack +animals out of pigs, but they grunted, squealed and rolled their +precious burdens in the mire. What crazy excitement, what urging and +shouting, what desperate device to make a start!</p> + +<p>We were lucky in buying a yoke of oxen from a <a class="pagenum" name="page_87" id="page_87" title="87"></a>packer for four hundred +dollars. On the first day we hauled half of our outfit to Canyon City, +and on the second we transferred the balance. This was our plan all +through, though in bad places we had to make many relays. It was simple +enough, yet, oh, the travail of it! Here is an extract from my diary of +these days.</p> + +<div class="blockquot"><p>"Turn out at 4 <span class="smcap">A.M.</span> Breakfasted on flapjacks and coffee. Find one +of our oxen dying. Dies at seven o'clock. Harness remaining ox and +start to remove goods up Canyon. Find trail in awful condition, yet +thousands are struggling to get through. Horses often fall in pools +of water ten to fifteen feet deep, trying to haul loads over the +boulders that render trail almost impassable. Drive with sleigh +over places that at other times one would be afraid to walk over +without any load. Two feet of snow fell during the night, but it is +now raining. Rains and snows alternately. At night bitterly cold. +Hauled five loads up Canyon to-day. Finished last trip near +midnight and turned in, cold, wet and played out."</p></div> + +<p>The above is a fairly representative day and of such days we were to +have many ere we reached the water. Slowly, with infinite effort, with +stress and strain to every step of the way, we moved our bulky outfit +forward from camp to camp. All days were hard, all exasperating, all +crammed with discomfort; yet, bit by bit, we forged ahead. The army +before us and the army behind never faltered. Like a stream of black +ants they were, between mountains that reared up swiftly to +storm-smitten palisades of <a class="pagenum" name="page_88" id="page_88" title="88"></a>ice. In the darkness of night the army +rested uneasily, yet at the first streak of dawn it was in motion. It +was an endless procession, in which every man was for himself. I can see +them now, bent under their burdens, straining at their hand-sleighs, +flogging their horses and oxen, their faces crimped and puckered with +fatigue, the air acrid with their curses and heavy with their moans. Now +a horse stumbles and slips into one of the sump-holes by the trail side. +No one can pass, the army is arrested. Frenzied fingers unhitch the poor +frozen brute and drag it from the water. Men, frantic with rage, beat +savagely at their beasts of burden to make up the precious time lost. +There is no mercy, no humanity, no fellowship. All is blasphemy, fury +and ruthless determination. It is the spirit of the gold-trail.</p> + +<p>At the canyon head was a large camp, and there, very much in evidence, +the gambling fraternity. Dozens of them with their little green tables +were doing a roaring business. On one side of the canyon they had +established a camp. It was evening and we three, the Prodigal, Salvation +Jim and myself, strolled over to where a three-shell man was holding +forth.</p> + +<p>"Hullo!" says the Prodigal. "It's our old friend Jake. Jake skinned me +out of a hundred on the boat. Wonder how he's making out?"</p> + +<p>It was Mosher, with his bald head, his crafty little eyes, his flat +nose, his black beard. I saw Jim's face harden. He had always shown a +bitter hatred of this man, and often I wondered why.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_89" id="page_89" title="89"></a>We stood a little way off. The crowd thinned and filtered away until +but one remained, one of the tall young men from Minnesota. We heard +Mosher's rich voice.</p> + +<p>"Say, pard, bet ten dollars you can't place the bean. See! I put the +little joker under here, right before your eyes. Now, where is it?"</p> + +<p>"Here," said the man, touching one of the shells.</p> + +<p>"Right you are, my hearty! Well, here's your ten."</p> + +<p>The man from Minnesota took the money and was going away.</p> + +<p>"Hold on," said Mosher; "how do I know you had the money to cover that +bet?"</p> + +<p>The man laughed and took from his pocket a wad of bills an inch thick.</p> + +<p>"Guess that's enough, ain't it?"</p> + +<p>Quick as lightning Mosher had snatched the bills from him, and the man +from Minnesota found himself gazing into the barrel of a six-shooter.</p> + +<p>"This here's my money," said Mosher; "now you <i>git</i>."</p> + +<p>A moment only—a shot rang out. I saw the gun fall from Mosher's hand, +and the roll of bills drop to the ground. Quickly the man from Minnesota +recovered them and rushed off to tell his party. Then the men from +Minnesota got their Winchesters, and the shooting began.</p> + +<p>From their camp the gamblers took refuge behind the boulders that +strewed the sides of the canyon, and blazed away at their opponents. A +regular <a class="pagenum" name="page_90" id="page_90" title="90"></a>battle followed, which lasted till the fall of night. As far as +I heard, only one casualty resulted. A Swede, about half a mile down the +trail, received a spent bullet in the cheek. He complained to the Deputy +Marshal. That worthy, sitting on his horse, looked at him a moment. Then +he spat comprehensively.</p> + +<p>"Can't do anything, Ole. But I'll tell you what. Next time there's +bullets flying round this section of the country, don't go sticking your +darned whiskers in the way. See!"</p> + +<p>That night I said to Jim:</p> + +<p>"How did you do it?"</p> + +<p>He laughed and showed me a hole in his coat pocket which a bullet had +burned.</p> + +<p>"You see, having been in the game myself, I knew what was comin' and +acted accordin'."</p> + +<p>"Good job you didn't hit him worse."</p> + +<p>"Wait a while, sonny, wait a while. There's something mighty familiar +about Jake Mosher. He's mighty like a certain Sam Mosely I'm interested +in. I've just written a letter outside to see, an' if it's him—well, +I'm saved; I'm a good Christian, but—God help him!"</p> + +<p>"And who was Sam Mosely, Jim?"</p> + +<p>"Sam Mosely? Sam Mosely was the skunk that busted up my home an' stole +my wife, blast him!"</p> + +<p>———</p> +<p class="fn"><span><a class="fn" href="#ft01"> 1 </a></span><a name="fn01"></a> +A Jam-wagon was the general name given to an Englishman on the trail.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_91" id="page_91" title="91"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VI</h2> +</div> + +<p>Day after day, each man of us poured out on the trail the last heel-tap +of his strength, and the coming of night found us utterly played out. +Salvation Jim was full of device and resource, the Prodigal, a dynamo of +eager energy; but it was the Jam-wagon who proved his mettle in a +magnificent and relentless way. Whether it was from a sense of +gratitude, or to offset the cravings that assailed him, I know not, but +he crammed the days with merciless exertion.</p> + +<p>A curious man was the Jam-wagon, Brian Wanless his name, a world tramp, +a derelict of the Seven Seas. His story, if ever written, would be a +human document of moving and poignant interest. He must once have been a +magnificent fellow, and even now, with strength and will-power impaired, +he was a man among men, full of quick courage and of a haughty temper. +It was ever a word and a blow with him, and a fight to the desperate +finish. He was insular, imperious and aggressive, and he was always +looking for trouble.</p> + +<p>Though taciturn and morose with men, the Jam-wagon showed a tireless +affection for animals. From the first he took charge of our ox; but it +was for horses his fondness was most expressed, so that on the trail, +where there was so much cruelty, he was constantly on the verge of +combat.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_92" id="page_92" title="92"></a>"That's a great man," said the Prodigal to me, "a fighter from heel to +head. There's one he can't fight, though, and that's old man Booze."</p> + +<p>But on the trail every man was a fighter. It was fight or fall, for the +trail would brook no weaklings. Good or bad, a man must be a man in the +primal sense, dominant, savage and enduring. The trail was implacable. +From the start it cried for strong men; it weeded out its weaklings. I +had seen these fellows on the ship feed their vanity with foolish +fancies; kindled to ardours of hope, I had seen debauch regnant among +them; now I was to see them crushed, cowed, overwhelmed, realising each, +according to his kind, the menace and antagonism of the way. I was to +see the weak falter and fall by the trail side; I was to see the +fainthearted quail and turn back; but I was to see the strong, the +brave, grow grim, grow elemental in their desperate strength, and +tightening up their belts, go forward unflinchingly to the bitter end. +Thus it was the trail chose her own. Thus it was, from passion, despair +and defeat, the spirit of the trail was born.</p> + +<p>The spirit of the Gold Trail, how shall I describe it? It was based on +that primal instinct of self-preservation that underlies our thin veneer +of humanity. It was rebellion, anarchy; it was ruthless, aggressive, +primitive; it was the man of the stone age in modern garb waging his +fierce, incessant warfare with the forces of nature. Spurred on by the +fever of the gold-lust, goaded by the fear of losing in the race; +maddened by the difficulties and obstacles <a class="pagenum" name="page_93" id="page_93" title="93"></a>of the way, men became +demons of cruelty and aggression, ruthlessly thrusting aside and +trampling down the weaker ones who thwarted their progress. Of pity, +humanity, love, there was none, only the gold-lust, triumphant and +repellent. It was the survival of the fittest, the most tenacious, the +most brutal. Yet there was something grandly terrible about it all. It +was a barbaric invasion, an army, each man fighting for his own hand +under the banner of gold. It was conquest. Every day, as I watched that +human torrent, I realised how vast, how irresistible it was. It was +Epic, it was Historical.</p> + +<p>Many pitiful things I saw—men with haggard, hopeless faces, throwing +their outfits into the snow and turning back broken-hearted; men +staggering blindly on, exhausted to despair, then dropping wearily by +the trail side in the bitter cold and sinister gloom; weaklings, every +one. Many terrible things I saw—men cursing each other, cursing the +trail, cursing their God, and in the echo of their curses, grinding +their teeth and stumbling on. Then they would vent their fury and spite +on the poor dumb animals. Oh, what cruelty there was! The life of the +brute was as nothing; it was the tribute of the trail; it was a +sacrifice on the altar of human greed.</p> + +<p>Long before dawn the trail awakened and the air was full of breakfast +smells, chiefly that of burnt porridge: for pots were seldom scraped, +neither were dishes washed. Soon the long-drawn-out army was on the +march, jaded animals straining at their loads, their drivers reviling +and beating them. All the <a class="pagenum" name="page_94" id="page_94" title="94"></a>men were bearded, and many of them wore +parkas. As many of the women had discarded petticoats, it was often +difficult at a short distance to tell the sex of a person. There were +tents built on sleighs, with faces of women and children peering out +from behind. It was a wonderful procession, all classes, all +nationalities, greybeards and striplings, parsons and prostitutes, rich +and poor, filing past in their thousands, drawn desperately on by the +golden magnet.</p> + +<p>One day we were making a trip with a load of our stuff when, just ahead, +there was a check in the march, so I and the Jam-wagon went forward to +investigate. It was our old friend Bullhammer in difficulties. He had +rather a fine horse, and in passing a sump-hole, his sled had skidded +and slipped downhill into the water. Now he was belabouring the animal +unmercifully, acting like a crazy man, shouting in a frenzy of rage.</p> + +<p>The horse was making the most gallant efforts I ever saw, but, with +every fresh attempt, its strength weakened. Time and again it came down +on its knees, which were raw and bleeding. It was shining with sweat so +that there was not a dry hair on its body, and if ever a dumb brute's +eyes spoke of agony and fear, that horse's did. But Bullhammer grew +every moment more infuriated, wrenching its mouth and beating it over +the head with a club. It was a sickening sight and, used as I was to the +inhumanity of the trail, I would have interfered had not the Jam-wagon +jumped in. He was deadly pale and his eyes burned.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_95" id="page_95" title="95"></a>"You infernal brute! If you strike that horse another blow, I'll break +your club over your shoulders."</p> + +<p>Bullhammer turned on him. Surprise paralysed the man, rage choked him. +They were both big husky fellows, and they drew up face to face. Then +Bullhammer spoke.</p> + +<p>"Curse you, anyway. Don't interfere with me. I'll beat bloody hell out +of the horse if I like, an' you won't say one word, see?"</p> + +<p>With that he struck the horse another vicious blow on the head. There +was a quick scuffle. The club was wrenched from Bullhammer's hand. I saw +it come down twice. The man sprawled on his back, while over him stood +the Jam-wagon, looking very grim. The horse slipped quietly back into +the water.</p> + +<p>"You ugly blackguard! I've a good mind to beat you within an ace of your +life. But you're not worth it. Ah, you cur!"</p> + +<p>He gave Bullhammer a kick. The man got on his feet. He was a coward, but +his pig eyes squinted in impotent rage. He looked at his horse lying +shivering in the icy water.</p> + +<p>"Get the horse out yourself, then, curse you. Do what you please with +him. But, mark you—I'll get even with you for this—I'll—get—even."</p> + +<p>He shook his fist and, with an ugly oath, went away. The block in the +traffic was relieved. The trail was again in motion. When we got abreast +of the submerged horse, we hitched on the ox and hastily pulled it out, +and (the Jam-wagon proving <a class="pagenum" name="page_96" id="page_96" title="96"></a>to have no little veterinary skill) in a few +days it was fit to work again.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Another week had gone and we were still on the trail, between the head +of the canyon and the summit of the Pass. Day after day was the same +round of unflinching effort, under conditions that would daunt any but +the stoutest hearts. The trail was in a terrible condition, sometimes +well-nigh impassable, and many a time, but for the invincible spirit of +the Prodigal, would I have turned back. He had a way of laughing at +misfortune and heartening one when things seemed to have passed the +limit of all endurance.</p> + +<p>Here is another day selected from my diary:</p> + +<div class="blockquot"><p>"Rose at 4:30 <span class="smcap">A.M.</span> and started for summit with load. Trail all +filled in with snow, and had dreadful time shovelling it out. Load +upsets number of times. Got to summit at three o'clock. Ox almost +played out. Snowing and blowing fearfully on summit. Ox tired; +tries to lie down every few yards. Bitterly cold and have hard time +trying to keep hands and feet from freezing. Keep on going to make +Balsam City. Arrived there about ten o'clock at night. Clothing +frozen stiff. Snow from seven to one hundred feet deep. No wood +within a quarter mile and then only soft balsam. Had to go for +wood. Almost impossible to start fire. Was near midnight when I had +fire going well and supper cooked. Eighteen hours on the trail +without a square meal. The way of the Klondike is hard, hard."</p></div> + +<p>And yet I believe, compared with others, we were getting along finely. +Every day, as the difficulties <a class="pagenum" name="page_97" id="page_97" title="97"></a>of the trail increased, I saw more and +more instances of suffering and privation, and to many the name of the +White Pass was the death-knell of hope. I could see their faces blanch +as they gazed upward at that white immensity; I could see them tighten +their pack-straps, clench their teeth and begin the ascent; could see +them straining every muscle as they climbed, the grim lines harden round +their mouths, their eyes full of hopeless misery and despair; I could +see them panting at every step, ghastly with fatigue, lurching and +stumbling on under their heavy packs. These were the weaker ones, who, +sooner or later, gave up the struggle.</p> + +<p>Then there were the strong, ruthless ones, who had left humanity at +home, who flogged their staggering skin-and-bone pack animals till they +dropped, then, with a curse, left them to die.</p> + +<p>Far, far above us the monster mountains nuzzled among the clouds till +cloud and mountain were hard to tell apart. These were giant heights +heaved up to the stars, where blizzards were cradled and the storm-winds +born, stupendous horrific familiars of the tempest and the thunder. I +was conscious of their absolute sublimity. It was like height piled on +height as one would pile up sacks of flour. As Jim remarked: "Say, +wouldn't it give you crick in the neck just gazin' at them there +mountains?"</p> + +<p>How ant-like seemed the black army crawling up the icy pass, clinging to +its slippery face in the blinding buffet of snow and rain! Men dropped +from its ranks uncared for and unpitied. Heedless of those <a class="pagenum" name="page_98" id="page_98" title="98"></a>that fell, +the gap closed up, the march went on. The great army crawled up and over +the summit. Far behind could we see them, hundreds, thousands, a +countless host, all with "Klondike" on their lips and the lust of the +gold-lure in their hearts. It was the Great Stampede.</p> + +<p>"Klondike or bust," was the slogan. It was ever on the lips of those +bearded men. "Klondike or bust"—the strong man, with infinite patience, +righted his overturned sleigh, and in the face of the blinding blizzard, +pushed on through the clogging snow. "Klondike or bust"—the weary, +trail-worn one raised himself from the hole where he had fallen, and +stiff, cold, racked with pain, gritted his teeth doggedly and staggered +on a few feet more. "Klondike or bust"—the fanatic of the trail, crazed +with the gold-lust, performed mad feats of endurance, till nature +rebelled, and raving and howling, he was carried away to die.</p> + +<p>"'Member Joe?" some one would say, as a pack-horse came down the trail +with, strapped on it, a dead, rigid shape. "Joe used to be plumb-full of +fun; always joshin' or takin' some guy off; well—that's Joe."</p> + +<p>Two weary, woe-begone men were pulling a hand-sleigh down from the +summit. On it was lashed a man. He was in a high fever, raving, +delirious. Half-crazed with suffering themselves, his partners plodded +on unheedingly. I recognised in them the Bank clerk and the Professor, +and I hailed them. From black hollows their eyes stared at me +unrememberingly, <a class="pagenum" name="page_99" id="page_99" title="99"></a>and I saw how emaciated were their faces.</p> + +<p>"Spinal meningitis," they said laconically, and they were taking him +down to the hospital. I took a look and saw in that mask of terror and +agony the familiar face of the Wood-carver.</p> + +<p>He gazed at me eagerly, wildly: "I'm rich," he cried, "rich. I've found +it—the gold—in millions, millions. Now I'm going outside to spend it. +No more cold and suffering and poverty. I'm going down there to <i>live</i>, +thank God, to live."</p> + +<p>Poor Globstock! He died down there. He was buried in a nameless grave. +To this day I fancy his old mother waits for his return. He was her sole +support, the one thing she lived for, a good, gentle son, a man of sweet +simplicity and loving kindness. Yet he lies under the shadow of those +hard-visaged mountains in a nameless grave.</p> + +<p>The trail must have its tribute.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_100" id="page_100" title="100"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VII</h2> +</div> + +<p>It was at Balsam City, and things were going badly. Marks and Bullhammer +had formed a partnership with the Halfbreed, the Professor and the Bank +clerk, and the arrangement was proving a regrettable one for the latter +two. It was all due to Marks. At the best of times, he was a +cross-grained, domineering bully, and on the trail, which would have +worn to a wire edge the temper of an angel, his yellow streak became an +eyesore. He developed a chronic grouch, and it was not long before he +had the two weaker men toeing the mark. He had a way of speaking of +those who had gone up against him in the past and were "running yet," of +shooting scrapes and deadly knife-work in which he had displayed a +spirit of cold-blooded ferocity. Both the Professor and the Bank clerk +were men of peace and very impressionable. Consequently, they conceived +for Marks a shuddering respect, not unmixed with fear, and were ready to +stand on their heads at his bidding.</p> + +<p>On the Halfbreed, however, his intimidation did not work. While the +other two trembled at his frown, and waited on him hand and foot, the +man of Indian blood ignored him, and his face was expressionless. +Whereby he incurred the intense dislike of Marks.</p> + +<p>Things were going from bad to worse. The man's <a class="pagenum" name="page_101" id="page_101" title="101"></a>aggressions were daily +becoming more unbearable. He treated the others like Dagoes and on every +occasion he tried to pick a quarrel with the Halfbreed, but the latter, +entrenching himself behind his Indian phlegm, regarded him stolidly. +Marks mistook this for cowardice and took to calling the Halfbreed nasty +names, particularly reflecting on the good character of his mother. +Still the Halfbreed took no notice, yet there was a contempt in his +manner that stung more than words. This was the state of affairs when +one evening the Prodigal and I paid them a visit.</p> + +<p>Marks had been drinking all day, and had made life a little hell for the +others. When we arrived he was rotten-ripe for a quarrel. Then the +Prodigal suggested a game of poker, so four of them, himself, Marks, +Bullhammer and the Halfbreed, sat in.</p> + +<p>At first they made a ten-cent limit, which soon they raised to +twenty-five; then, at last, there was no limit but the roof. A bottle +passed from mouth to mouth and several big jack-pots were made. +Bullhammer and the Prodigal were about breaking even, Marks was losing +heavily, while steadily the Halfbreed was adding to his pile of chips.</p> + +<p>Through one of those freaks of chance the two men seemed to buck one +another continually. Time after time they would raise and raise each +other, till at last Marks would call, and always his opponent had the +cards. It was exasperating, maddening, especially as several times Marks +himself was called on a bluff. The very fiend of ill-luck seemed to have +gotten into him, and as the game proceeded, Marks <a class="pagenum" name="page_102" id="page_102" title="102"></a>grew more flushed and +excited. He cursed audibly. He always had good cards, but always somehow +the other just managed to beat him. He became explosively angry and +abusive. The Halfbreed offered to retire from the game, but Marks would +not hear of it.</p> + +<p>"Come on, you nigger!" he shouted. "Don't sneak away. Give me a chance +to get my money back."</p> + +<p>So they sat down once more, and a hand was dealt. The Halfbreed called +for cards, but Marks did not draw. Then the betting began. After the +second round the others dropped out, and Marks and the Halfbreed were +left. The Halfbreed was inimitably cool, his face was a perfect mask. +Marks, too, had suddenly grown very calm. They started to boost each +other.</p> + +<p>Both seemed to have plenty of money and at first they raised in tens and +twenties, then at last fifty dollars at a clip. It was getting exciting. +You could hear a pin drop. Bullhammer and the Prodigal watched very +quietly. Sweat stood on Marks's forehead, though the Halfbreed was +utterly calm. The jack-pot held about three hundred dollars. Then Marks +could stand it no longer.</p> + +<p>"I'll bet a hundred," he cried, "and see you."</p> + +<p>He triumphantly threw down a straight.</p> + +<p>"There, now," he snarled, "beat that, you stinking Malamute."</p> + +<p>There was a perceptible pause. I felt sorry for the Halfbreed. He could +not afford to lose all that <a class="pagenum" name="page_103" id="page_103" title="103"></a>money, but his face showed no shade of +emotion. He threw down his cards and there arose from us all a roar of +incredulous surprise.</p> + +<p>For the Halfbreed had thrown down a royal flush in diamonds. Marks rose. +He was now livid with passion.</p> + +<p>"You cheating swine," he cried; "you crooked devil!"</p> + +<p>Quickly he struck the other on the face, a blow that drew blood. I +thought for a moment the Halfbreed would return the blow. Into his eyes +there came a look of cold and deadly fury. But, no! quickly bending +down, he scooped up the money and left the tent.</p> + +<p>We stared at each other.</p> + +<p>"Marvellous luck!" said the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>"Marvellous hell!" shouted Marks. "Don't tell me it's luck. He's a +sharper, a dirty thief. But I'll get even. He's got to fight now. He'll +fight with guns and I'll kill the son of a dog."</p> + +<p>He was drinking from the bottle in big gulps, fanning himself into an +ungovernable fury with fiery objurgations. At last he went out, and +again swearing he would kill the Halfbreed, he made for another tent, +from which a sound of revelry was coming.</p> + +<p>Vaguely fearing trouble, the Prodigal and I did not go to bed, but sat +talking. Suddenly I saw him listen intently.</p> + +<p>"Hist! Did you hear that?"</p> + +<p>I seemed to hear a sound like the fierce yelling of a wild animal.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_104" id="page_104" title="104"></a>We hurried out. It was Marks running towards us. He was crazy with +liquor, and in one hand he flourished a gun. There was foam on his lips +and he screamed as he ran. Then we saw him stop before the tent occupied +by the Halfbreed, and throw open the flap.</p> + +<p>"Come out, you dirty tin-horn, you crook, you Indian bastard; come out +and fight."</p> + +<p>He rushed in and came out again, dragging the Halfbreed at arm's length. +They were tussling together, and we flung ourselves on them and +separated them.</p> + +<p>I was holding Marks, when suddenly he hurled me off, and flourishing a +revolver, fired one chamber, crying:</p> + +<p>"Stand back, all of you; stand back! Let me shoot at him. He's my meat."</p> + +<p>We stepped back pretty briskly, for Marks had cut loose. In fact, we +ducked for shelter, all but the Halfbreed, who stood straight and still.</p> + +<p>Marks took aim at the man waiting there so coolly. He fired, and a tide +of red stained the other man's shirt, near the shoulder. Then something +happened. The Halfbreed's arm rose quickly. A six-shooter spat twice.</p> + +<p>He turned to us. "I didn't want to do it, boys, but you see he druv' me +to it. I'm sorry. He druv' me to it."</p> + +<p>Marks lay in a huddled, quivering heap. He was shot through the heart +and quite dead.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_105" id="page_105" title="105"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VIII</h2> +</div> + +<p>We were camping in Paradise Valley. Before us and behind us the great +Cheechako army laboured along with infinite travail. We had suffered, +but the trail of the land was near its end. And what an end! With every +mile the misery and difficulty of the way seemed to increase. Then we +came to the trail of Rotting Horses.</p> + +<p>Dead animals we had seen all along the trail in great numbers, but the +sight as we came on this particular place beggared description. There +were thousands of them. One night we dragged away six of them before we +could find room to put up the tent. There they lay, sprawling horribly, +their ribs protruding through their hides, their eyes putrid in the +sunshine. It was like a battlefield, hauntingly hideous.</p> + +<p>And every day was adding to their numbers. The trail ran over great +boulders covered with icy slush, through which the weary brutes sank to +their bellies. Struggling desperately, down they would come between two +boulders. Then their legs would snap like pipe-stems, and there usually +they were left to die.</p> + +<p>One would see, jammed in the cleft of a rock, the stump of a hoof, or +sticking up sharply, the jagged splinter of a leg; while far down the +bluff lay the <a class="pagenum" name="page_106" id="page_106" title="106"></a>animal to which it belonged. One would see the poor dead +brutes lying head and tail for an hundred yards at a stretch. One would +see them deserted and desperate, wandering round foraging for food. They +would come to the camp at night whinnying pitifully, and with a look of +terrible entreaty on their starved faces. Then one would take pity on +them—and shoot them.</p> + +<p>I remember stumbling across a big, heavy horse one night in the gloom. +It was swaying from side to side, and as I drew near I saw its throat +was hideously cut. It looked at me with such agony in its eyes that I +put my handkerchief over its face, and, with the blow of an axe, ended +its misery. The most spirited of the horses were the first to fall. They +broke their hearts in gallant effort. Goaded to desperation, sometimes +they would destroy themselves, throw themselves frantically over the +bluff. Oh, it was horrible! horrible!</p> + +<p>Our own horse proved a ready victim. To tell the truth, no one but the +Jam-wagon was particularly sorry. If there was a sump-hole in sight, +that horse was sure to flounder into it. Sometimes twice in one day we +had to unhitch the ox and pull him out. There was a place dug out of the +snow alongside the trail, which was being used as a knacker's yard, and +here we took him with a broken leg and put a bullet in his brain. While +we waited there were six others brought in to be shot.</p> + +<p>It was a Sunday and we were in the tent, indescribably glad of a day's +rest. The Jam-wagon was <a class="pagenum" name="page_107" id="page_107" title="107"></a>mending a bit of harness; the Prodigal was +playing solitaire. Salvation Jim had just returned from a trip to +Skagway, where he had hoped to find a letter from the outside regarding +one Jake Mosher. His usually hale and kindly face was drawn and +troubled. Wearily he removed his snow-sodden clothes.</p> + +<p>"I always did say there was God's curse on this Klondike gold," he said; +"now I'm sure of it. There's a hoodoo on it. What it's a-goin' to cost, +what hearts it's goin' to break, what homes it's goin' to wreck no +man'll ever know. God only knows what it's cost already. But this last +is the worst yet."</p> + +<p>"What's the matter, Jim?" I said; "what last?"</p> + +<p>"Why, haven't you heard? Well, there's just been a snow-slide on the +Chilcoot an' several hundred people buried."</p> + +<p>I stared aghast. Living as we did in daily danger of snow-slides, this +disaster struck us with terror.</p> + +<p>"You don't say!" said the Prodigal. "Where?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, somewhere's near Lindeman. Hundreds of poor sinners cut off without +a chance to repent."</p> + +<p>He was going to improve on the occasion when the Prodigal cut in.</p> + +<p>"Poor devils! I guess we must know some of them too." He turned to me. +"I wonder if your little Polak friend's all right?"</p> + +<p>Indeed my thoughts had just flown to Berna. Among the exigencies of the +trail (when we had to fix our minds on the trouble of the moment and +<a class="pagenum" name="page_108" id="page_108" title="108"></a>every moment had its trouble) there was little time for reflection. +Nevertheless, I had found at all times visions of her flitting before +me, thoughts of her coming to me when I least expected them. Pity, +tenderness and a good deal of anxiety were in my mind. Often I wondered +if ever I would see her again. A feeling of joy and a great longing +would sweep over me in the hope. At these words then of the Prodigal, it +seemed as if all my scattered sentiments crystallised into one, and a +vast desire that was almost pain came over me. I suppose I was silent, +grave, and it must have been some intuition of my thoughts that made the +Prodigal say to me:</p> + +<p>"Say, old man, if you would like to take a run over the Dyea trail, I +guess I can spare you for a day or so."</p> + +<p>"Yes, indeed, I'd like to see the trail."</p> + +<p>"Oh, yes, we've observed your enthusiastic interest in trails. Why don't +you marry the girl? Well, cut along, old chap. Don't be gone too long."</p> + +<p>So next morning, travelling as lightly as possible, I started for +Bennett. How good it seemed to get off unimpeded by an outfit, and I +sped past the weary mob, struggling along on the last lap of their +journey. I had been in some expectation of the trail bettering itself, +but indeed it appeared at every step to grow more hopelessly terrible. +It was knee-deep in snowy slush, and below that seemed to be literally +paved with dead horses.</p> + +<p>I only waited long enough at Bennett to have breakfast. A pie nailed to +a tent-pole indicated a <a class="pagenum" name="page_109" id="page_109" title="109"></a>restaurant, and there, for a dollar, I had a +good meal of beans and bacon, coffee and flapjacks. It was yet early +morning when I started for Linderman.</p> + +<p>The air was clear and cold, ideal mushing weather, and already parties +were beginning to struggle into Bennett, looking very weary and jaded. +On the trail a man did a day's work by nine in the morning, another by +four in the afternoon, and a third by nightfall. You were lucky to get +off at that.</p> + +<p>I was jogging along past the advance guard of the oncoming army, when +who should I see but Mervin and Hewson. They looked thoroughly seasoned, +and had made record time with a large outfit. In contrast to the worn, +weary-eyed men with faces pinched and puckered, they looked insolently +fit and full of fight. They had heard of the snow-slide but could give +me no particulars. I inquired for Berna and the old man. They were +somewhere behind, between Chilcoot and Lindeman. "Yes, they were +probably buried under the slide. Good-bye."</p> + +<p>I hurried forward, full of apprehension. A black stream of Cheechakos +were surging across Lindeman; then I realised the greatness of the other +advancing army, and the vastness of the impulse that was urging these +indomitable atoms to the North. It was blowing quite hard and many had +put up sails on their sleds with good effect. I saw a Jew driving an ox, +to which he had four small sleds harnessed. On each of these he had +hoisted a small sail. Suddenly the ox looked round and saw the sails. +Here <a class="pagenum" name="page_110" id="page_110" title="110"></a>was something that did not come within the scope of his +experience. With a bellow of fear, he stampeded, pursued by a yelling +Hebrew, while from the chain of sleds articles scattered in all +directions. When last I saw them in the far distance, Jew and ox were +still going.</p> + +<p>Why was I so anxious about Berna? I did not know, but with every mile my +anxiety increased. A dim unreasoning fear possessed me. I imagined that +if anything happened to her I would forever blame myself. I saw her +lying white and cold as the snow itself, her face peaceful in death. Why +had I not thought more of her? I had not appreciated her enough, her +precious sweetness and her tenderness. If only she was spared, I would +show her what a good friend I could be. I would protect her and be near +her in case of need. But then how foolish to think anything could have +happened to her. The chances were one in a hundred. Nevertheless, I +hurried forward.</p> + +<p>I met the Twins. They had just escaped the slide, they told me, and had +not yet recovered from the shock. A little way back on the trail it was. +I would see men digging out the bodies. They had dug out seventeen that +morning. Some were crushed as flat as pancakes.</p> + +<p>Again, with a pain at my heart, I asked after Berna and her grandfather. +Twin number one said they were both buried under the slide. I gasped and +was seized with sudden faintness. "No," said twin number two, "the old +man is missing, but the <a class="pagenum" name="page_111" id="page_111" title="111"></a>girl has escaped and is nearly crazy with +grief. Good-bye."</p> + +<p>Once more I hurried on. Gangs of men were shovelling for the dead. Every +now and then a shovel would strike a hand or a skull. Then a shout would +be raised and the poor misshapen body turned out.</p> + +<p>Again I put my inquiries. A busy digger paused in his work. He was a +sottish-looking fellow, and there was something of the glare of a ghoul +in his eyes.</p> + +<p>"Yes, that must have been the old guy with the whiskers they dug out +early on from the lower end of the slide. Relative, name of Winklestein, +took charge of him. Took him to the tent yonder. Won't let any one go +near."</p> + +<p>He pointed to a tent on the hillside, and it was with a heavy heart I +went forward. The poor old man, so gentle, so dignified, with his dream +of a golden treasure that might bring happiness to others. It was cruel, +cruel....</p> + +<p>"Say, what d'ye want here? Get to hell outa this."</p> + +<p>The words came with a snarl. I looked up in surprise.</p> + +<p>There at the door of the tent, all a-bristle like a gutter-bred cur, was +Winklestein.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_112" id="page_112" title="112"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER IX</h2> +</div> + +<p>I stared at the man a moment, for little had I expected so gracious a +reception.</p> + +<p>"Mush on, there," he repeated truculently; "you're not wanted 'round +here. Mush! Pretty darned smart."</p> + +<p>I felt myself grow suddenly, savagely angry. I measured the man for a +moment and determined I could handle him.</p> + +<p>"I want," I said soberly, "to see the body of my old friend."</p> + +<p>"You do, do you? Well, you darned well won't. Besides, there ain't no +body here."</p> + +<p>"You're a liar!" I observed. "But it's no use wasting words on you. I'm +going on anyhow."</p> + +<p>With that I gripped him suddenly and threw him sideways with some force. +One of the tent ropes took away his feet violently, and there on the +snow he sprawled, glowering at me with evil eyes.</p> + +<p>"Now," said I, "I've got a gun, and if you try any monkey business, I'll +fix you so quick you won't know what's happened."</p> + +<p>The bluff worked. He gathered himself up and followed me into the tent, +looking the picture of malevolent impotence. On the ground lay a longish +object covered with a blanket. With a strange feeling <a class="pagenum" name="page_113" id="page_113" title="113"></a>of reluctant +horror I lifted the covering. Beneath it lay the body of the old man.</p> + +<p>He was lying on his back, and had not been squeezed out of all human +semblance like so many of the others. Nevertheless, he was ghastly +enough, with his bluish face and wide bulging eyes. What had worn his +fingers to the bone so? He must have made a desperate struggle with his +bare hands to dig himself out. I will never forget those torn, nailless +fingers. I felt around his waist. Ha! the money belt was gone!</p> + +<p>"Winklestein," I said, turning suddenly on the little Jew, "this man had +two thousand dollars on him. What have you done with it?"</p> + +<p>He started violently. A look of fear came into his eyes. It died away, +and his face was convulsed with rage.</p> + +<p>"He did not," he screamed; "he didn't have a red cent. He's no more than +an old pauper I was taking in to play the fiddle. He owes <i>me</i>, curse +him! And who are you anyways, you blasted meddler, that accuses a decent +man of being a body robber?"</p> + +<p>"I was this dead man's friend. I'm still his granddaughter's friend. I'm +going to see justice done. This man had two thousand dollars in a gold +belt round his waist. It belongs to the girl now. You've got to give it +up, Winklestein, or by——"</p> + +<p>"Prove it, prove it!" he spluttered. "You're a liar; she's a liar; +you're all a pack of liars, trying to blackmail a decent man. He had no +money, I say! <a class="pagenum" name="page_114" id="page_114" title="114"></a>He had no money, and if ever he said so, he's a liar."</p> + +<p>"Oh, you vile wretch!" I cried. "It's you that's lying. I've a mind to +choke your dirty throat. But I'll hound you till I make you cough up +that money. Where's Berna?"</p> + +<p>Suddenly he had become quietly malicious.</p> + +<p>"Find her," he jibed; "find her for yourself. And take yourself out of +my sight as quickly as you please."</p> + +<p>I saw he had me over a barrel, so, with a parting threat, I left him. A +tent nearby was being run as a restaurant, and there I had a cup of +coffee. Of the man who kept it, a fat, humorous cockney, I made +enquiries regarding the girl. Yes, he knew her. She was living in yonder +tent with Madam Winklestein.</p> + +<p>"They sy she's tykin' on horful baht th' old man, pore kid!"</p> + +<p>I thanked him, gulped down my coffee, and made for the tent. The flap +was down, but I rapped on the canvas, and presently the dark face of +Madam appeared. When she saw me, it grew darker.</p> + +<p>"What d'you want?" she demanded.</p> + +<p>"I want to see Berna," I said.</p> + +<p>"Then you can't. Can't you hear her? Isn't that enough?"</p> + +<p>Surely I could hear a very low, pitiful sound coming from the tent, +something between a sob and a moan, like the wailing of an Indian woman +over <a class="pagenum" name="page_115" id="page_115" title="115"></a>her dead, only infinitely subdued and anguished. I was shocked, +awed, immeasurably grieved.</p> + +<p>"Thank you," I said; "I'm sorry. I don't want to intrude on her in her +hour of affliction. I'll come again."</p> + +<p>"All right," she laughed tauntingly; "come again."</p> + +<p>I had failed. I thought of turning back, then I thought I might as well +see what I could of the far-famed Chikoot, so once more I struck out.</p> + +<p>The faces of the hundreds I met were the same faces I had passed by the +thousand, stamped with the seal of the trail, seamed with lines of +suffering, wan with fatigue, blank with despair. There was the same +desperate hurry, the same indifference to calamity, the same grim +stoical endurance.</p> + +<p>A snowstorm was raging on the summit of the Chikoot and the snow was +drifting, covering the thousands of caches to the depth of ten and +fifteen feet. I stood on the summit of that nearly perpendicular ascent +they call the "Scales." Steps had been cut in the icy steep, and up +these men were straining, each with a huge pack on his back. They could +only go in single file. It was the famous "Human Chain." At regular +distances, platforms had been cut beside the trail, where the exhausted +ones might leave the ranks and rest; but if a worn-out climber reeled +and crawled into one of the shelters, quickly the line closed up and +none gave him a glance.</p> + +<p>The men wore ice-creepers, so that their feet would clutch the slippery +surface. Many of them <a class="pagenum" name="page_116" id="page_116" title="116"></a>had staffs, and all were bent nigh double under +their burdens. They did not speak, their lips were grimly sealed, their +eyes fixed and stern. They bowed their heads to thwart the buffetings of +the storm-wind, but every way they turned it seemed to meet them. The +snow lay thick on their shoulders and covered their breasts. On their +beards the spiked icicles glistened. As they moved up step by step, it +seemed as if their feet were made of lead, so heavily did they lift +them. And the resting-places by the trail were never empty.</p> + +<p>You saw them in the canyon at the trail top, staggering in the wind that +seemed to blow every way at once. You saw them blindly groping for the +caches they had made but yesterday and now fathoms deep under the +snowdrift. You saw them descending swiftly, dizzily, leaning back on +their staffs, for the down trail was like a slide. In a moment they were +lost to sight, but to-morrow they would come again, and to-morrow and +to-morrow, the men of the Chilcoot.</p> + +<p>The Trail of Travail—surely it was all epitomised in the tribulations +of that stark ascent. From my eyrie on its blizzard-beaten crest I could +see the Human Chain drag upward link by link, and every link a man. And +as he climbed that pitiless treadmill, on each man's face there could be +deciphered the palimpsest of his soul.</p> + +<p>Oh, what a drama it was, and what a stage! The Trail of '98—high +courage, frenzied fear, despotic greed, unflinching sacrifice. But over +all—its hunger and its hope, its passion and its pain—triumphed the +dauntless spirit of the Pathfinder—the mighty Pioneer.</p> + +<div class="figcenter" style='width:400px'> +<a name="illus-001" id="illus-001"></a> +<img src="images/illus-116.jpg" alt=""No," she said firmly, "you can't see the girl"" title="" /><br /> +<span class="caption">"No," she said firmly, "you can't see the girl"</span> +</div> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_117" id="page_117" title="117"></a>Then I knew, I knew. These silent, patient, toiling ones were the +Conquerors of the Great White Land; the Men of the High North, the +Brotherhood of the Arctic Wild. No saga will ever glorify their deeds, +no epic make them immortal. Their names will be written in the snows +that melt and vanish at the smile of Spring; but in their works will +they live, and their indomitable spirit will be as a beacon-light, +shining down the dim corridors of Eternity.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>I slept at a bunkhouse that night, and next morning I again made a call +at the tent within which lay Berna. Again Madam, in a gaudy wrapper, +answered my call, but this time, to my surprise, she was quite pleasant.</p> + +<p>"No," she said firmly, "you can't see the girl. She's all prostrated. +We've given her a sleeping powder and she's asleep now. But she's mighty +sick. We've sent for a doctor."</p> + +<p>There was indeed nothing to be done. With a heavy heart I thanked her, +expressed my regrets and went away. What had got into me, I wondered, +that I was so distressed about the girl. I thought of her continually, +with tenderness and longing. I had seen so little of her, yet that +little had meant so much. I took a sad pleasure in recalling her to mind +in varying aspects; always she appeared different to me somehow. I could +get no definite idea of her; <a class="pagenum" name="page_118" id="page_118" title="118"></a>ever was there something baffling, +mysterious, half revealed.</p> + +<p>To me there was in her, beauty, charm, every ideal quality. Yet must my +eyes have been anointed, for others passed her by without a second +glance. Oh, I was young and foolish, maybe; but I had never before known +a girl that appealed to me, and it was very, very sweet.</p> + +<p>So I went back to the restaurant and gave the fat cockney a note which +he promised to deliver into her own hands. I wrote:</p> + +<div class="blockquot"><p><span class="smcap">"Dear Berna</span>: I cannot tell you how deeply grieved I am over your +grandfather's death, and how I sympathise with you in your sorrow. +I came over from the other trail to see you, but you were too ill. +Now I must go back at once. If I could only have said a word to +comfort you! I feel terribly about it.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Berna, dear, go back, go back. This is no country for you. If +I can help you, Berna, let me know. If you come on to Bennett, then +I will see you.</p> + +<p>"Believe me again, dear, my heart aches for you.</p> + +<p>"Be brave.</p> + +<p style='text-align:right'> +"Always affectionately yours, <br /> +"<span class="smcap">Athol Meldrum</span>." +</p> +</div> + +<p>Then once more I struck out for Bennett.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_119" id="page_119" title="119"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER X</h2> +</div> + +<p>Our last load was safely landed in Bennett and the trail of the land was +over. We had packed an outfit of four thousand pounds over a +thirty-seven-mile trail and it had taken us nearly a month. For an +average of fifteen hours a day we had worked for all that was in us; +yet, looking back, it seems to have been more a matter of dogged +persistence and patience than desperate endeavour and endurance.</p> + +<p>There is no doubt that to the great majority, the trail spelt privation, +misery and suffering; but they were of the poor, deluded multitude that +never should have left their ploughs, their desks and their benches. +Then there were others like ourselves to whom it meant hardship, more or +less extreme, but who managed to struggle along fairly well. Lastly, +there was a minority to whom it was little more than discomfort. They +were the seasoned veterans of the trail to whom its trials were all in +the day's work. It was as if the Great White Land was putting us to the +test, was weeding out the fit from the unfit, was proving itself a land +of the Strong, a land for men.</p> + +<p>And indeed our party was well qualified to pass the test of the trail. +The Prodigal was full of irrepressible enthusiasm, and always loaded to +the muzzle with ideas. Salvation Jim was a mine of <a class="pagenum" name="page_120" id="page_120" title="120"></a>foresight and +resource, while the Jam-wagon proved himself an insatiable glutton for +work. Altogether we fared better than the average party.</p> + +<p>We were camped on the narrow neck of water between Lindeman and Bennett, +and as hay was two hundred and fifty dollars a ton, the first thing we +did was to butcher the ox. The next was to see about building a boat. We +thought of whipsawing our own boards, but the timber near us was poor or +thinned out, so that in the end we bought lumber, paying for it twenty +cents a foot. We were all very unexpert carpenters; however, by watching +others, we managed to make a decent-looking boat.</p> + +<p>These were the busy days. At Bennett the two great Cheechako armies +converged, and there must have been thirty thousand people camped round +the lake. The night was ablaze with countless camp-fires, the day a buzz +of busy toil. Everywhere you heard the racket of hammer and saw, beheld +men in feverish haste over their boat-building. There were many fine +boats, but the crude makeshift effort of the amateur predominated. Some +of them, indeed, had no more shape than a packing-case, and not a few +resembled a coffin. Anything that would float and keep out the water was +a "boat."</p> + +<p>Oh, it was good to think that from thenceforward, the swift, clear +current would bear us to our goal. No more icy slush to the knee, no +more putrid horse-flesh under foot, no more blinding blizzards and +heart-breaking drift of snows. But the blue sky would canopy us, the +gentle breezes fan us, the warm <a class="pagenum" name="page_121" id="page_121" title="121"></a>sun lock us in her arms. No more bitter +freezings and sinister dawns and weary travail of mind and body. The +hills would busk themselves in emerald green, the wild crocus come to +gladden our eyes, the long nights glow with sunsets of theatric +splendour. No wonder, in the glory of reaction, we exulted and laboured +on our boat with brimming hearts. And always before us gleamed the +Golden Magnet, making us chafe and rage against the stubborn ice that +stayed our progress.</p> + +<p>The days were full of breezy sunshine and at all times the Eager Army +watched the rotting ice with anxious eyes. In places it was fairly +honeycombed now, in others corroded and splintered into silver spears. +Here and there it heaved up and cracked across in gaping chasms; again +it sagged down suddenly. There were sheets of surface water and +stretches of greenish slush that froze faintly overnight. In large, +flaming letters of red, the lake was dangerous, near to a break-up, a +death trap; yet every day the reckless ones were going over it to be +that much nearer the golden goal.</p> + +<p>In this game of taking desperate chances, many a wild player lost, many +a foolhardy one never reached the shore. No one will ever know the +number of victims claimed by these black unfathomable waters.</p> + +<p>It was the Professor who opened our eyes to the danger of crossing the +lake. He and the Bank clerk quarrelled over the wisdom of delay. The +Professor was positive it was quite safe. The ice was four <a class="pagenum" name="page_122" id="page_122" title="122"></a>feet thick. +Go fast over the weak spots and you would be all right. He argued, fumed +and ranted. They were losing precious time, time which might mean all +the difference between failure and success. It was expedient to get +ahead of the rabble. He, for one, was no craven; he had staked his all +on this trip. He had studied the records of Arctic explorers. He thought +he was no man's fool. If others were cowardly enough to hold back, he +would go alone.</p> + +<p>The upshot of it was that one grey morning he took his share of the +outfit and started off by himself.</p> + +<p>Said the Bank clerk, half crying:</p> + +<p>"Poor old Pondersby! In spite of the words we had, we parted the best of +friends. We shook hands and I wished him all good-speed. I saw him +twisting and wriggling among the patches of black and white ice. For a +long time I watched him with a heavy heart. Yet he seemed to be getting +along nicely, and I was beginning to think he was right and to call +myself a fool. He was getting quite small in the distance, when suddenly +he seemed to disappear. I got the glasses. There was a big hole in the +ice, no sleigh, no Pondersby. Poor old fellow!"</p> + +<p>There were many such cases of separation on the shores of Lake Bennett. +Parties who had started out on that trail as devoted chums, finished it +as lifelong enemies. Tempers were ground to a razor-edge; words dropped +crudely; anger flamed to meet anger. You could scarcely blame them. They +did <a class="pagenum" name="page_123" id="page_123" title="123"></a>not realise that the trail demanded all that was in a man of +gentleness, patience and forbearance. Poor human nature was strained and +tested inexorably, and the most loving friends became the most deadly +foes forevermore.</p> + +<p>One instance of this was the twins.</p> + +<p>"Say," said the Prodigal, "you ought to see Romulus and Remus. They're +scrapping like cat and dog. Seems they've had a bunch of trouble right +along the line—you know how the trail brings out the yellow streak in a +man. Well, they're both fiery as Hades, so after a particularly warm +evening they swore that as soon as they got to Bennett, they'd divvy up +the stuff and each go off by his lonesome. Somehow, they patched it up +when they reached here and got busy on their boat. Now it seems they've +quarrelled worse than ever. Romulus is telling Remus his real name and +<i>vice-versa</i>. They're raking up old grievances of their childhood days, +and the end of it is they've once more decided to halve tip the outfit. +They're mad enough to kill each other. They've even decided to cut their +boat in two."</p> + +<p>It was truly so. We went and watched them. Each had a bitter +determination on his face. They were sawing the boat through the middle. +Afterwards, I believe, they patched up their ends and made a successful +trip to Dawson.</p> + +<p>The ice was going fast. Strangers were still coming in over the trail +with awful tales of its horrors. Bennett was all excitement and seething +life. Thousands <a class="pagenum" name="page_124" id="page_124" title="124"></a>of ungainly boats, rafts and scows were waiting to be +launched. Already craft were beginning to come through from Lindeman, +rushing down the fierce torrent between the two lakes. From where we +were camped we saw them pass. There were ugly rapids and a fang-like +rock, against which many a luckless craft was piled up.</p> + +<p>It was the most fascinating thing in the world to watch these daring +Argonauts rush the rapids, to speculate whether or not they would get +through. The stroke of an oar, a few feet to right or left, meant +unspeakable calamity. Poor souls! Their faces of utter despair as they +landed dripping from the water and saw their precious goods disappearing +in the angry foam would have moved a heart of stone. As one man said, in +the bitterness of his heart:</p> + +<p>"Oh, boys, what a funny God we've got!"</p> + +<p>There was a man who came sailing through the passage with a fine boat +and a rich outfit. He had lugged it over the trail at the cost of +infinite toil and weariness. Now his heart was full of hope. Suddenly he +was in the whirl of the current, then all at once loomed up the cruel +rock. His face blanched with horror. Frantically he tried to avoid it. +No use. Crash! and his frail boat splintered like matchwood.</p> + +<p>But this man was a fighter. He set his jaw. Once more he went back over +that deadly trail. He bought, at great expense, a new outfit and had +packers hustle it over the trail. He procured a new <a class="pagenum" name="page_125" id="page_125" title="125"></a>boat. Once more he +sailed through the narrow canyon. His face was set and grim.</p> + +<p>Suddenly, like some iron Nemesis, once more loomed up the fatal rock. He +struggled gallantly, but again the current seemed to grip him and throw +him on that deadly fang. With another sickening crash he saw his goods +sink in the seething waters.</p> + +<p>Did he give up? No! A third time he struggled, weary, heartbroken, over +that trail. He had little left now, and with that little he bought his +third outfit, a poor, pathetic shadow of the former ones, but enough for +a desperate man.</p> + +<p>Once more he packed it over the trail, now a perfect Avernus of horror. +He reached the river, and in a third poor little boat, again he sailed +down the passage. There was the swift-leaping current, the ugly tusk of +rock staked with wreckage. A moment, a few feet, a turn of the +oar-blade, and he would have been past. But, no! The rock seemed to +fascinate him as the eyes of a snake fascinate a bird. He stared at it +fearfully, a look of terror and despair. Then for the third time, with a +hideous crash, his frail boat was piled up in a pitiful ruin.</p> + +<p>He was beaten now.</p> + +<p>He climbed on the bank, and there, with a last look at the ugly snarl of +waters, and the jagged up-thrust of that evil rock, he put a bullet +smashing through his brain.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_126" id="page_126" title="126"></a>The ice was loose and broken. We were all ready to start in a few days. +The mighty camp was in a ferment of excitement. Every one seemed elated +beyond words. On, once more, to Eldorado!</p> + +<p>It was near midnight, but the sky, where the sun had dipped below the +mountain rim, was a sea of translucent green, weirdly and wildly +harmonious with the desolation of the land. On the bleak lake one could +hear the lap of waves, while the high, rocky shore to the left was a +black wall of shadow. I stood by the beach near our boat, all alone in +the wan light, and tried to think calmly of the strange things that had +happened to me.</p> + +<p>Surely there was something of Romance left in this old world yet if one +would only go to seek it. Here I was, sun-browned, strong, healthy, +having come through many trials and still on the edge of adventure, when +I might, but for my own headstrong perversity, have yet been vegetating +on the hills of Glengyle. A great exultation welled up in me, the voice +of youth and ambition, the lust to conquer. I would succeed, I would +wrest from the vast, lonely, mysterious North some of its treasure. I +would be a conqueror.</p> + +<p>Silent and abstracted, I looked into the brooding disk of sheeny sky, my +eyes dream-troubled.</p> + +<p>Then I felt a ghostly hand touch my arm, and with a great start of +surprise, I turned.</p> + +<p>"Berna!"</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_127" id="page_127" title="127"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XI</h2> +</div> + +<p>The girl was wearing a thin black shawl around her shoulders, but in the +icy wind blowing from the lake, she trembled like a wand. Her face was +pale, waxen, almost spiritual in its expression, and she looked at me +with just the most pitiably sweet smile in the world.</p> + +<p>"I'm sorry I startled you; but I wanted to thank you for your letter and +for your sympathy."</p> + +<p>It was the same clear voice, with the throb of tender feeling in it.</p> + +<p>"You see, I'm all alone now." The voice faltered, but went on bravely. +"I've got no one that cares about me any more, and I've been sick, so +sick I wonder I lived. I knew you'd forgotten me, and I don't blame you. +But I've never forgotten you, and I wanted to see you just once more."</p> + +<p>She was speaking quite calmly and unemotionally.</p> + +<p>"Berna!" I cried; "don't say that. Your reproach hurts me so. Indeed I +did try to find you, but it's such a vast camp. There are so many +thousands of people here. Time and again I inquired, but no one seemed +to know. Then I thought you must surely have gone back, and it's been +such a busy time, building our boat and getting ready. No, Berna, I +didn't forget. Many's and many's a night I've lain awake thinking of +you, wondering, longing <a class="pagenum" name="page_128" id="page_128" title="128"></a>to see you again—but haven't you forgotten a +little?"</p> + +<p>I saw the sensitive lips smile almost bitterly.</p> + +<p>"No! not even a little."</p> + +<p>"Oh! I'm sorry, Berna. I'm sorry I've looked after you so badly. I'll +never forgive myself. You've been terribly sick, too. What a little +white whisp you are! You look as if a breeze would blow you away. You +shouldn't be out this night, girl. Put my coat around you, come now."</p> + +<p>I wrapped her in it and saw with gladness her shivering cease. As I +buttoned it at her throat I marvelled at the thinness of her, and at the +delicacy of her face. In the opal light of the luminous sky her great +grey eyes were lustrous.</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said again, "why did you come in here, why? You should have +gone back."</p> + +<p>"Gone back," she repeated; "indeed I would have, oh, so gladly. But you +don't understand—they wouldn't let me. After they had got all his +money—and they <i>did</i> get it, though they swear he had nothing—they +made me come on with them. They said I owed them for his burial, and for +the care and attention they gave me when I was sick. They said I must +come on with them and work for them. I protested, I struggled. But +what's the use? I can't do anything against them any more. I'm weak, and +I'm terribly afraid of her."</p> + +<p>She shuddered, then a look of fear came into her eyes. I put my hand on +her arm and drew her close to me.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_129" id="page_129" title="129"></a>"I just slipped away to-night. She thinks I'm asleep in the tent. She +watches me like a cat, and will scarce let me speak to any one. She's so +big and strong, and I'm so slight and weak. She would kill me in one of +her rages. Then she tells every one I'm no good, an ingrate, everything +that's bad. Once when I threatened to run away, she said she would +accuse me of stealing and have me put in gaol. That's the kind of woman +she is."</p> + +<p>"This is terrible, Berna. What have you been doing all the time?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, I've been working, working for them. They've been running a little +restaurant and I've waited on table. I saw you several times, but you +were always too busy or too far away in dreams to see me, and I couldn't +get a chance to speak. But we're going down the lake to-morrow, so I +thought I would just slip away and say good-bye."</p> + +<p>"Not good-bye," I faltered; "not good-bye."</p> + +<p>Her tone was measured, her eyes closed almost.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I'm afraid I must say it. When we get down there, it's good-bye, +good-bye. The less you have to do with me, the better."</p> + +<p>"What do you mean?"</p> + +<p>"Well, I mean this. These people are not decent. They're vile. I must go +with them; I cannot get away. Already, though I'm as pure as your sister +would be, already my being with them has smirched me in everybody's +eyes. I can see it by the way the men look at me. No, go your way and +leave me to whatever fate is in store for me."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_130" id="page_130" title="130"></a>"Never!" I said harshly. "What do you take me for, Berna?"</p> + +<p>"My friend ... you know, after his death, when I was so sick, I wanted +to die. Then I got your letter, and I felt I must see you again for—I +thought a lot of you. No man's ever been so kind to me as you have. +They've all been—the other sort. I used to think of you a good deal, +and I wanted to do some little thing to show you I was really grateful. +On the boat I used to notice you because you were so quiet and +abstracted. Then you were grandfather's room-mate and gentle and kind to +him. You looked different from the others, too; your eyes were good——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, come, Berna, never mind that."</p> + +<p>"Yes, I mean it. I just wanted to tell you the things a poor girl +thought of you. But now it's all nearly over. We've neither of us got to +think of each other any more ... and I just wanted to give you this—to +remind you sometimes of Berna."</p> + +<p>It was a poor little locket and it contained a lock of her silken hair.</p> + +<p>"It's worth nothing, I know, but just keep it for me."</p> + +<p>"Indeed I will, Berna, keep it always, and wear it for you. But I can't +let you go like this. See here, girl, is there nothing I can do? +Nothing? Surely there must be some way. Berna, Berna, look at me, listen +to me! Is there? What can I do? Tell me, tell me, my girl."</p> + +<p>She seemed to sway to me gently. Indeed I did <a class="pagenum" name="page_131" id="page_131" title="131"></a>not intend it, but +somehow she was in my arms. She felt so slight and frail a thing, I +feared to hurt her.</p> + +<p>Then I felt her bosom heaving greatly, and I knew she was crying. For a +little I let her cry, but presently I lifted up the white face that lay +on my shoulder. It was wet with tears. Again and again I kissed her. She +lay passively in my arms. Never did she try to escape nor hide her face, +but seemed to give herself up to me. Her tears were salt upon my lips, +yet her own lips were cold, and she did not answer to my kisses.</p> + +<p>At last she spoke. Her voice was like a little sigh.</p> + +<p>"Oh, if it could only be!"</p> + +<p>"What, Berna? Tell me what?"</p> + +<p>"If you could only take me away from them, protect me, care for me. Oh, +if you could only <i>marry</i> me, make me your wife. I would be the best +wife in the world to you; I would work my fingers to the bone for you; I +would starve and suffer for you, and walk the world barefoot for your +sake. Oh, my dear, my dear, pity me!"</p> + +<p>It seemed as if a sudden light had flashed upon my brain, stunning me, +bewildering me. I thought of the princess of my dreams. I thought of +Garry and of Mother. Could I take her to them?</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said sternly, "look at me."</p> + +<p>She obeyed.</p> + +<p>"Berna, tell me, by all you regard as pure and holy, do you love me?"</p> + +<p>She was silent and averted her eyes.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_132" id="page_132" title="132"></a>"No, Berna," I said, "you don't; you're afraid. It's not the sort of +love you've dreamed of. It's not your ideal. It would be gratitude and +affection, love of a kind, but never that great dazzling light, that +passion that would raise to heaven or drag to hell."</p> + +<p>"How do I know? Perhaps that would come in time. I care a great deal for +you. I think of you always. I would be a true, devoted wife——"</p> + +<p>"Yes, I know, Berna; but you don't love me, love me; see, dear. It's so +different. You might care and care till doomsday, but it wouldn't be the +other thing; it wouldn't be love as I have conceived of it, dreamed of +it. Listen, Berna! Here's where our difference in race comes in. You +would rush blindly into this. You would not consider, test and prove +yourself. It's the most serious matter in life to me, something to be +looked at from every side, to be weighed and balanced."</p> + +<p>As I said this, my conscience was whispering fiercely: "Oh, fool! +Coward! Paltering, despicable coward! This girl throws herself on you, +on your honour, chivalry, manhood, and you screen yourself behind a +barrier of convention."</p> + +<p>However, I went on.</p> + +<p>"You might come to love me in time, but we must wait a while, little +girl. Surely that is reasonable? I care for you a great, great deal, but +I don't know if I love you in the great way people should love. Can't we +wait a little, Berna? I'll look after you, dear; won't that do?"</p> + +<p>She disengaged herself from me, sighing woefully.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_133" id="page_133" title="133"></a>"Yes, I suppose that'll do. Oh, I'll never forgive myself for saying +that to you. I shouldn't, but I was so desperate. You don't know what it +meant to me. Please forget it, won't you?"</p> + +<p>"No, Berna, I'll never forget it, and I'll always bless you for having +said it. Believe me, dear, it will all come right. Things aren't so bad. +You're just scared, little one. I'll watch no one harms you, and love +will come to both of us in good time, that love that means life and +death, hate and adoration, rapture and pain, the greatest thing in the +world. Oh, my dear, my dear, trust me! We have known each other such a +brief space. Let us wait a little longer, just a little longer."</p> + +<p>"Yes, that's right, a little longer."</p> + +<p>Her voice was faint and toneless. She disengaged herself.</p> + +<p>"Now, good-night; they may have missed me."</p> + +<p>Almost before I could realise it she had disappeared amid the tents, +leaving me there in the gloom with my heart full of doubt, self-reproach +and pain.</p> + +<p>Oh, despicable, paltering coward!</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_134" id="page_134" title="134"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XII</h2> +</div> + +<p>Spring in the Yukon! Majestic mountains crowned with immemorial snow! +The mad midnight melodies of birds! From the kindly stars to the leaves +of grass that glimmer in the wind, a world pregnant with joy, a land +jewel-bright and virgin-sweet!</p> + +<p>After the obsession of the long, long night, Spring leaps into being +with a sudden sun-thrilled joy, a radiant uplift. The shy emerald +mantles the valleys and fledges the heights; the pussy-willows tremble +by lake and stream; the wild crocus brims the hollows with a haze of +violet; trailing his last ragged pennants of snow on the hills, winter +makes his sullen retreat.</p> + +<p>Perhaps I am over-sensitive, but I have ecstasied moments when to me it +seems the grass is greener, the sky bluer than they are to most; I +surrender my heart to wonder and joy; I am in tune with the triumphant +cadence of Things; I am an atom of praise; I live, therefore I exult.</p> + +<p>Only in hyperbole could I express that golden Spring, as we set sail on +the sunlit waters of Lake Bennett. Never had I felt so glad. And indeed +it was a vastly merry mob that sailed with us, straining their eyes once +more to the Eldorado of their dreams. Bottled-up spirits effervesced +wildly; hearts beat bravely; hopes were high. The bitter landtrail <a class="pagenum" name="page_135" id="page_135" title="135"></a>was +forgotten. The clear, bright water leaped laughingly at the bow; the +gallant breeze was blowing behind. The strong men bared their breasts +and drank of it deeply.</p> + +<p>Yes, they were the strong, the fit, suffered by the North to survive, +stiffened and braced and seasoned, the Chosen of the Test, the Proven of +the Trail. Songs of jubilation rang in the night air; men, eager-eyed +and watchful, roared snatches of melody as they toiled at sweep and oar; +banjos, mandolins, fiddles, flutes, mingled in maddest confusion. Once +more the great invading army of the Cheechakos moved forward +tumultuously, but now with mirth and rejoicing.</p> + +<p>The great calm night was never dark, the great deep lakes infinitely +serene, the great mountains majestically solemn. In the lighted sky the +pale ghost-moon seemed ever apologising for itself. The world was a +grand harmonious symphony that even the advancing tide of the Argonauts +could not mar.</p> + +<p>Yet, under all the mirth and gaiety, you could feel, tense, ruthless and +dominant, the spirit of the trail. In that invincible onrush of human +effort, as the oars bent with their strokes of might, as the sail +bellied before the breeze, as the eager wave leapt at the bow, you could +feel the passion that quickened their hearts and steeled their arms. +Klondike or bust! Once more the slogan rang on bearded lips; once more +the gold-lust smouldered in their eyes. The old primal lust resurged: to +win at any cost, to thrust down those in the way, to fight fiercely, +brutally, <a class="pagenum" name="page_136" id="page_136" title="136"></a>even as wolf-dogs fight, this was the code, the terrible code +of the Gold-trail. The basic passions up-leapt, envy and hate and fear +triumphed, and with ever increasing excitement the great fleet of the +gold-hunters strained onward to the valley of the treasure.</p> + +<p>Of all who had started out with us but a few had got this far. Of these +Mervin and Hewson were far in front, victors of the trail, qualified to +rank with the Men of the High North, the Sourdoughs of the Yukon Valley. +Somewhere in the fleet were the Bank clerk, the Halfbreed and +Bullhammer, while three days' start ahead were the Winklesteins.</p> + +<p>"These Jews have the only system," commented the Prodigal; "they ran the +'Elight' Restaurant in Bennett and got action on their beans and flour +and bacon. The Madam cooked, the old man did the chores and the girl +waited on table. They've roped in a bunch of money, and now they've lit +out for Dawson in a nice, tight little scow with their outfits turned +into wads of the long green."</p> + +<p>I kept a keen lookout for them and every day I hoped we would overtake +their scow, for constantly I thought of Berna. Her little face, so +wistfully tender, haunted me, and over and over in my mind I kept +recalling our last meeting.</p> + +<p>At times I blamed myself for letting her go so easily, and then again I +was thankful that I had not allowed my heart to run away with my head. +For I was beginning to wonder if I had not given her my heart, given it +easily, willingly and without reserve. <a class="pagenum" name="page_137" id="page_137" title="137"></a>And in truth at the idea I felt +a strange thrill of joy. The girl seemed to me all that was fair, +lovable and sweet.</p> + +<p>We were now skimming over Tagish Lake. With grey head bared to the +breeze and a hymn stave on his lips, Salvation Jim steered in the strong +sunlight. His face was full of cheer, his eyes alight with kindly hope. +Leaning over the side, the Prodigal was dragging a spoon-bait to catch +the monster trout that lived in those depths. The Jam-wagon, as if +disgusted at our enforced idleness, slumbered at the bow. As he slept I +noticed his fine nostrils, his thin, bitter lips, his bare brawny arms, +tattooed with strange devices. How clean he kept his teeth and nails! +There was the stamp of the thoroughbred all over him. In what strange +parts of the world had he run amuck? What fair, gracious women mourned +for him in far-away England?</p> + +<p>Ah, those enchanted days, the sky spaces abrim with light, the +gargantuan mountains, the eager army of adventurers, undismayed at the +gloomy vastness!</p> + +<p>We came to Windy Arm, rugged, desolate and despairful. Down it, with +menace and terror on its wings, rushes the furious wind, driving boats +and scows crashing on an iron shore. In the night we heard shouts; we +saw wreckage piled up on the beach, but we pulled away. For twelve weary +hours we pulled at the oars, and in the end our danger was past.</p> + +<p>We came to Lake Tagish; a dead calm, a blazing sun, a seething mist of +mosquitoes. We sweltered <a class="pagenum" name="page_138" id="page_138" title="138"></a>in the heat; we strained, with blistered +hands, at the oars; we cursed and toiled like a thousand others of that +grotesque fleet. There were boats of every shape, square, oblong, +circular, three-cornered, flat, round—anything that would float. They +were made mostly of boards, laboriously hand-sawn in the woods, and from +a half-inch to four inches thick. Black pitch smeared the seams of the +raw lumber. They travelled sideways as well as in any other fashion. And +in such crazy craft were thousands of amateur boatmen, sailing serenely +along, taking danger with sang-froid, and at night, over their +camp-fires, hilariously telling of their hairbreadth escapes.</p> + +<p>We entered the Fifty-mile River; we were in a giant valley; tier after +tier of benchland rose to sentinel mountains of austerest grandeur. +There at the bottom the little river twisted like a silver wire, and +down it rowed the eager army. They shattered the silence into wildest +echo, they roused the bears out of their frozen sleep; the forest flamed +from their careless fires.</p> + +<p>The river was our beast of burden now, a tireless, gentle beast. +Serenely and smoothly it bore us onward, yet there was a note of menace +in its song. They had told us of the canyon and of the rapids, and as we +pulled at the oars and battled with the mosquitoes, we wondered when the +danger was coming, how we would fare through it when it came.</p> + +<p>Then one evening as we were sweeping down the placid river, the current +suddenly quickened. The banks were sliding past at a strange speed. +Swiftly <a class="pagenum" name="page_139" id="page_139" title="139"></a>we whirled around a bend, and there we were right on top of the +dreadful canyon. Straight ahead was what seemed to be a solid wall of +rock. The river looked to have no outlet; but as we drew nearer we saw +that there was a narrow chasm in the stony face, and at this the water +was rearing and charging with an angry roar.</p> + +<p>The current was gripping us angrily now; there was no chance to draw +back. At his post stood the Jam-wagon with the keen, alert look of the +man who loves danger. A thrill of excitement ran through us all. With +set faces we prepared for the fight.</p> + +<p>I was in the bow. All at once I saw directly in front a scow struggling +to make the shore. In her there were three people, two women and a man. +I saw the man jump out with a rope and try to snub the scow to a tree. +Three times he failed, running along the bank and shouting frantically. +I saw one of the women jump for the shore. Then at the same instant the +rope parted, and the scow, with the remaining woman, went swirling on +into the canyon.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_140" id="page_140" title="140"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XIII</h2> +</div> + +<p>All this I saw, and so fascinated was I that I forgot our own peril. I +heard a shrill scream of fear; I saw the solitary woman crouch down in +the bottom of the scow, burying her face in her hands; I saw the scow +rise, hover, and then plunge downward into the angry maw of the canyon.</p> + +<p>The river hurried us on helplessly. We were in the canyon now. The air +grew dark. On each side, so close it seemed we could almost touch them +with our oars, were black, ancient walls, towering up dizzily. The river +seemed to leap and buck, its middle arching four feet higher than its +sides, a veritable hog-back of water. It bounded on in great billows, +green, hillocky and terribly swift, like a liquid toboggan slide. We +plunged forward, heaved aloft, and the black, moss-stained walls +brindled past us.</p> + +<p>About midway in the canyon is a huge basin, like the old crater of a +volcano, sloping upwards to the pine-fringed skyline. Here was a giant +eddy, and here, circling round and round, was the runaway scow. The +forsaken woman was still crouching on it. The light was quite wan, and +we were half blinded by the flying spray, but I clung to my place at the +bow and watched intently.</p> + +<p>"Keep clear of that scow," I heard some one shout. "Avoid the eddy."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_141" id="page_141" title="141"></a>It was almost too late. The ill-fated scow spun round and swooped down +on us. In a moment we would have been struck and overturned, but I saw +Jim and the Jam-wagon give a desperate strain at the oars. I saw the +scow swirling past, just two feet from us. I looked again—then with a +wild panic of horror I saw that the crouching figure was that of Berna.</p> + +<p>I remember jumping—it must have been five feet—and I landed half in, +half out of the water. I remember clinging a moment, then pulling myself +aboard. I heard shouts from the others as the current swept them into +the canyon. I remember looking round and cursing because both sweeps had +been lost overboard, and lastly I remember bending over Berna and +shouting in her ear:</p> + +<p>"All right, I'm with you!"</p> + +<p>If an angel had dropped from high heaven to her rescue I don't believe +the girl could have been more impressed. For a moment she stared at me +unbelievingly. I was kneeling by her and she put her hands on my +shoulders as if to prove to herself that I was real. Then, with a +half-sob, half-cry of joy, she clasped her arms tightly around me. +Something in her look, something in the touch of her slender, clinging +form made my heart exult. Once again I shouted in her ear.</p> + +<p>"It's all right, don't be frightened. We'll pull through, all right."</p> + +<p>Once more we had whirled off into the main current; once more we were in +that roaring torrent, with <a class="pagenum" name="page_142" id="page_142" title="142"></a>its fearsome dips and rises, its columned +walls corroded with age and filled with the gloom of eternal twilight. +The water smashed and battered us, whirled us along relentlessly, lashed +us in heavy sprays; yet with closed eyes and thudding hearts we waited. +Then suddenly the light grew strong again. The primæval walls were gone. +We were sweeping along smoothly, and on either side of us the valley +sloped in green plateaus up to the smiling sky.</p> + +<p>I unlocked my arms and peered down to where her face lay half hidden on +my breast.</p> + +<p>"Thank God, I was able to reach you!"</p> + +<p>"Yes, thank God!" she answered faintly. "Oh, I thought it was all over. +I nearly died with fear. It was terrible. Thank God for you!"</p> + +<p>But she had scarce spoken when I realised, with a vast shock, that the +danger was far from over. We were hurrying along helplessly in that +fierce current, and already I heard the roar of the Squaw Rapids. Ahead, +I could see them dancing, boiling, foaming, blood-red in the sunset +glow.</p> + +<p>"Be brave, Berna," I had to shout again; "we'll be all right. Trust me, +dear!"</p> + +<p>She, too, was staring ahead with dilated eyes of fear. Yet at my words +she became wonderfully calm, and in her face there was a great, glad +look that made my heart rejoice. She nestled to my side. Once more she +waited.</p> + +<p>We took the rapids broadside on, but the scow was light and very strong. +Like a cork in a mill-stream we tossed and spun around. The vicious, +<a class="pagenum" name="page_143" id="page_143" title="143"></a>mauling wolf-pack of the river heaved us into the air, and worried us +as we fell. Drenched, deafened, stunned with fierce, nerve-shattering +blows, every moment we thought to go under. We were in a caldron of +fire. The roar of doom was in our ears. Giant hands with claws of foam +were clutching, buffeting us. Shrieks of fury assailed us, as demon +tossed us to demon. Was there no end to it? Thud, crash, roar, sickening +us to our hearts; lurching, leaping, beaten, battered ... then all at +once came a calm; we must be past; we opened our eyes.</p> + +<p>We were again sweeping round a bend in the river in the shadow of a high +bluff. If we could only make the bank—but, no! The current hurled us +along once more. I saw it sweep under a rocky face of the hillside, and +then I knew that the worst was coming. For there, about two hundred +yards away, were the dreaded Whitehorse Rapids.</p> + +<p>"Close your eyes, Berna!" I cried. "Lie down on the bottom. Pray as you +never prayed before."</p> + +<p>We were on them now. The rocky banks close in till they nearly meet. +They form a narrow gateway of rock, and through those close-set jaws the +raging river has to pass. Leaping, crashing over its boulder-strewn bed, +gaining in terrible impetus at every leap, it gathers speed for its last +desperate burst for freedom. Then with a great roar it charges the gap.</p> + +<p>But there, right in the way, is a giant boulder. Water meets rock in a +crash of terrific onset. The river is beaten, broken, thrown back on +itself, and <a class="pagenum" name="page_144" id="page_144" title="144"></a>with a baffled roar rises high in the air in a raging hell +of spume and tempest. For a moment the chasm is a battleground of the +elements, a fierce, titanic struggle. Then the river, wrenching free, +falls into the basin below.</p> + +<p>"Lie down, Berna, and hold on to me!"</p> + +<p>We both dropped down in the bottom of the scow, and she clasped me so +tightly I marvelled at the strength of her. I felt her wet cheek pressed +to mine, her lips clinging to my lips.</p> + +<p>"Now, dear, just a moment and it will all be over."</p> + +<p>Once again the angry thunder of the waters. The scow took them nose on, +riding gallantly. Again we were tossed like a feather in a whirlwind, +pitchforked from wrath to wrath. Once more, swinging, swerving, +straining, we pelted on. On pinnacles of terror our hearts poised +nakedly. The waters danced a fiery saraband; each wave was a demon +lashing at us as we passed; or again they were like fear-maddened horses +with whipping manes of flame. We clutched each other convulsively. Would +it never, never end ... then ... then ...</p> + +<p>It seemed the last had come. Up, up we went. We seemed to hover +uncertainly, tilted, hair-poised over a yawning gulf. Were we going to +upset? Mental agony screamed in me. But, no! We righted. Dizzily we +dipped over; steeply we plunged down. Oh! it was terrible! We were in a +hornets' nest of angry waters and they were stinging us to death; we +were in a hollow cavern roofed over with slabs <a class="pagenum" name="page_145" id="page_145" title="145"></a>of seething foam; the +fiery horses were trampling us under their myriad hoofs. I gave up all +hope. I felt the girl faint in my arms. How long it seemed! I wished for +the end. <i>The flying hammers of hell were pounding us, pounding us—Oh, +God! Oh, God!...</i></p> + +<p>Then, swamped from bow to stern, half turned over, wrecked and broken, +we swept into the peaceful basin of the river below.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_146" id="page_146" title="146"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XIV</h2> +</div> + +<p>On the flats around the Whitehorse Rapids was a great largess of wild +flowers. The shooting stars gladdened the glade with gold; the bluebells +brimmed the woodland hollow with amethyst; the fire-weed splashed the +hills with the pink of coral. Daintily swinging, like clustered pearls, +were the petals of the orchid. In glorious profusion were begonias, +violets, and Iceland poppies, and all was in a setting of the keenest +emerald. But over the others dominated the wild rose, dancing everywhere +and flinging its perfume to the joyful breeze.</p> + +<p>Boats and scows were lined up for miles along the river shore. On the +banks water-soaked outfits lay drying in the sun. We, too, had shipped +much water in our passage, and a few days would be needed to dry out +again. So it was that I found some hours of idleness and was able to see +a good deal of Berna.</p> + +<p>Madam Winklestein I found surprisingly gracious. She smiled on me, and +in her teeth, like white quartz, the creviced gold gleamed. She had a +smooth, flattering way with her that disarmed enmity. Winklestein, too, +had conveniently forgotten our last interview, and extended to me the +paw of spurious friendship. I was free to see Berna as much as I chose.</p> + +<p>Thus it came about that we rambled among the <a class="pagenum" name="page_147" id="page_147" title="147"></a>woods and hills, picking +wild flowers and glad almost with the joy of children. In these few days +I noted a vast change in the girl. Her cheeks, pale as the petals of the +wild orchid, seemed to steal the tints of the briar-rose, and her eyes +beaconed with the radiance of sun-waked skies. It was as if in the poor +child a long stifled capacity for joy was glowing into being.</p> + +<p>One golden day, with her cheeks softly flushed, her eyes shining, she +turned to me.</p> + +<p>"Oh, I could be so happy if I only had a chance, if I only had the +chance other girls have. It would take so little to make me the happiest +girl in the world—just to have a home, a plain, simple home where all +was sunshine and peace; just to have the commonest comforts, to be +care-free, to love and be loved. That would be enough." She sighed and +went on:</p> + +<p>"Then if I might have books, a little music, flowers—oh, it seems like +a dream of heaven; as well might I sigh for a palace."</p> + +<p>"No palace could be too fair for you, Berna, no prince too noble. Some +day, your prince will come, and you will give him that great love I told +you of once."</p> + +<p>Swiftly a shadow came into the bright eyes, the sweet mouth curved +pathetically.</p> + +<p>"Not even a beggar will seek me, a poor nameless girl travelling in the +train of dishonour ... and again, I will never love."</p> + +<p>"Yes, you will indeed, girl—infinitely, supremely. <a class="pagenum" name="page_148" id="page_148" title="148"></a>I know you, Berna; +you'll love as few women do. Your dearest will be all your world, his +smile your heaven, his frown your death. Love was at the fashioning of +you, dear, and kissed your lips and sent you forth, saying, 'There goeth +my handmaiden.'"</p> + +<p>I thought for a while ere I went on.</p> + +<p>"You cared for your grandfather; you gave him your whole heart, a love +full of self-sacrifice, of renunciation. Now he is gone, you will love +again, but the next will be to the last as wine is to water. And the day +will come when you will love grandly. Yours will be a great, consuming +passion that knows no limit, no assuagement. It will be your glory and +your shame. For him will your friends be foes, your light darkness. You +will go through fire and water for your beloved's sake; your parched +lips will call his name, your frail hands cling to him in the shadow of +death. Oh, I know, I know. Love has set you apart. You will immolate +yourself on his altars. You will dare, defy and die for him. I'm sorry +for you, Berna."</p> + +<p>Her face hung down, her lips quivered. As for me, I was surprised at my +words and scarce knew what I was saying.</p> + +<p>At last she spoke.</p> + +<p>"If ever I loved like that, the man I loved must be a king among men, a +hero, almost a god."</p> + +<p>"Perhaps, Berna, perhaps; but not needfully. He may be a grim man with a +face of power and passion, a virile, dominant brute, but—well, I think +<a class="pagenum" name="page_149" id="page_149" title="149"></a>he will be more of a god. Let's change the subject."</p> + +<p>I found she had all the sad sophistication of the lowly-born, yet with +it an invincible sense of purity, a delicate horror of the physical +phases of love. She was a finely motived creature with impossible +ideals, but out of her stark knowledge of life she was naïvely +outspoken.</p> + +<p>Once I asked of her:</p> + +<p>"Berna, if you had to choose between death and dishonour, which would +you prefer?"</p> + +<p>"Death, of course," she answered promptly.</p> + +<p>"Death's a pretty hard proposition," I commented.</p> + +<p>"No, it's easy; physical death, compared with the other, compared with +moral death."</p> + +<p>She was very emphatic and angry with me for my hazarded demur. In an +atmosphere of disillusionment and moral miasma she clung undauntedly to +her ideals. Never was such a brave spirit, so determined in goodness, so +upright in purity, and I blessed her for her unfaltering words. "May +such sentiments as yours," I prayed, "be ever mine. In doubt, despair, +defeat, oh Life, take not away from me my faith in the pure heart of +woman!"</p> + +<p>Often I watched her thoughtfully, her slim, well-poised figure, her grey +eyes that were fuller of soul than any eyes I have ever seen, her brown +hair wherein the sunshine loved to pick out threads of gold, her +delicate features with their fine patrician quality. We were dreamers +twain, but while my <a class="pagenum" name="page_150" id="page_150" title="150"></a>outlook was gay with hope, hers was dark with +despair. Since the episode of the scow I had never ventured to kiss her, +but had treated her with a curious reserve, respect and courtesy.</p> + +<p>Indeed, I was diagnosing my case, wondering if I loved her, affirming, +doubting on a very see-saw of indetermination. When with her I felt for +her an intense fondness and at times an almost irresponsible tenderness. +My eyes rested longingly on her, noting with tremulous joy the curves +and shading of her face, and finding in its very defects, beauties.</p> + +<p>When I was away from her—oh, the easeless longing that was almost pain, +the fanciful elaboration of our last talk, the hint of her graces in +bird and flower and tree! I wanted her wildly, and the thought of a +world empty of her was monstrous. I wondered how in the past we had both +existed and how I had lived, carelessly, happy and serenely indifferent. +I tried to think of a time when she should no longer have power to make +my heart quicken with joy or contract with fear—and the thought of such +a state was insufferable pain. Was I in love? Poor, fatuous fool! I +wanted her more than everything else in all the world, yet I hesitated +and asked myself the question.</p> + +<p>Hundreds of boats and scows were running the rapids, and we watched them +with an untiring fascination. That was the most exciting spectacle in +the whole world. The issue was life or death, ruin or salvation, and +from dawn till dark, and with every few minutes of the day, was the +breathless <a class="pagenum" name="page_151" id="page_151" title="151"></a>climax repeated. The faces of the actors were sick with +dread and anxiety. It was curious to study the various expressions of +the human countenance unmasked and confronted with gibbering fear. Yes, +it was a vivid drama, a drama of cheers and tears, always thrilling and +often tragic. Every day were bodies dragged ashore. The rapids demanded +their tribute. The men of the trail must pay the toll. Sullen and +bloated the river disgorged its prey, and the dead, without prayer or +pause, were thrown into nameless graves.</p> + +<p>On our first day at the rapids we met the Halfbreed. He was on the point +of starting downstream. Where was the Bank clerk? Oh, yes; they had +upset coming through; when last he had seen little Pinklove he was +struggling in the water. However, they expected to get the body every +hour. He had paid two men to find and bury it. He had no time to wait.</p> + +<p>We did not blame him. In those wild days of headstrong hurry and +gold-delirium human life meant little. "Another floater," one would say, +and carelessly turn away. A callousness to death that was almost +mediæval was in the air, and the friends of the dead hurried on, the +richer by a partner's outfit. It was all new, strange, sinister to me, +this unveiling of life's naked selfishness and lust.</p> + +<p>Next morning they found the body, a poor, shapeless, sodden thing with +such a crumpled skull. My thoughts went back to the sweet-faced girl who +had wept so bitterly at his going. Even then, maybe, <a class="pagenum" name="page_152" id="page_152" title="152"></a>she was thinking +of him, fondly dreaming of his return, seeing the glow of triumph in his +boyish eyes. She would wait and hope; then she would wait and despair; +then there would be another white-faced woman saying, "He went to the +Klondike, and never came back. We don't know what became of him."</p> + +<p>Verily, the way of the gold-trail was cruel.</p> + +<p>Berna was with me when they buried him.</p> + +<p>"Poor boy, poor boy!" she repeated.</p> + +<p>"Yes, poor little beggar! He was so quiet and gentle. He was no man for +the trail. It's a funny world."</p> + +<p>The coffin was a box of unplaned boards loosely nailed together, and the +men were for putting him into a grave on top of another coffin. I +protested, so sullenly they proceeded to dig a new grave. Berna looked +very unhappy, and when she saw that crude, shapeless pine coffin she +broke down and cried bitterly.</p> + +<p>At last she dried her tears and with a happier look in her eyes bade me +wait a little until she returned. Soon again she came back, carrying +some folds of black sateen over her arm. As she ripped at this with a +pair of scissors, I noticed there was a deep frilling to it. Also a +bright blush came into her cheek at the curious glance I gave to the +somewhat skimpy lines of her skirt. But the next instant she was busy +stretching and tacking the black material over the coffin.</p> + +<p>The men had completed the new grave. It was only three feet deep, but +the water coming in had <a class="pagenum" name="page_153" id="page_153" title="153"></a>prevented them from digging further. As we laid +the coffin in the hole it looked quite decent now in its black covering. +It floated on the water, but after some clods had been thrown down, it +sank with many gurglings. It was as if the dead man protested against +his bitter burial. We watched the grave-diggers throw a few more +shovelsful of earth over the place, then go off whistling. Poor little +Berna! she cried steadily. At last she said:</p> + +<p>"Let's get some flowers."</p> + +<p>So out of briar-roses she fashioned a cross and a wreath, and we laid +them reverently on the muddy heap that marked the Bank clerk's grave.</p> + +<p>Oh, the pitiful mockery of it!</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_154" id="page_154" title="154"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XV</h2> +</div> + +<p>Soon I knew that Berna and I must part, and but two nights later it +came. It was near midnight, yet in no ways dark, and everywhere the camp +was astir. We were sitting by the river, I remember, a little way from +the boats. Where the sun had set, the sky was a luminous veil of +ravishing green, and in the elusive light her face seemed wanly sweet +and dreamlike.</p> + +<p>A sad spirit rustled amid the shivering willows and a great sadness had +come over the girl. All the happiness of the past few days seemed to +have ebbed away from her and left her empty of hope. As she sat there, +silent and with hands clasped, it was as if the shadows that for a +little had lifted, now enshrouded her with a greater gloom.</p> + +<p>"Tell me your trouble, Berna."</p> + +<p>She shook her head, her eyes wide as if trying to read the future.</p> + +<p>"Nothing."</p> + +<p>Her voice was almost a whisper.</p> + +<p>"Yes, there is, I know. Tell me, won't you?"</p> + +<p>Again she shook her head.</p> + +<p>"What's the matter, little chum?"</p> + +<p>"It's nothing; it's only my foolishness. If I tell you, it wouldn't help +me any. And then—it doesn't <a class="pagenum" name="page_155" id="page_155" title="155"></a>matter. You wouldn't care. Why should you +care?"</p> + +<p>She turned away from me and seemed absorbed in bitter thought.</p> + +<p>"Care! why, yes, I would care; I do care. You know I would do anything +in the world to help you. You know I would be unhappy if you were +unhappy. You know——"</p> + +<p>"Then it would only worry you."</p> + +<p>She was regarding me anxiously.</p> + +<p>"Now you must tell me, Berna. It will worry me indeed if you don't."</p> + +<p>Once more she refused. I pleaded with her gently. I coaxed, I entreated. +She was very reluctant, yet at last she yielded.</p> + +<p>"Well, if I must," she said; "but it's all so sordid, so mean, I hate +myself; I despise myself that I should have to tell it."</p> + +<p>She kneaded a tiny handkerchief nervously in her fingers.</p> + +<p>"You know how nice Madam Winklestein's been to me lately—bought me new +clothes, given me trinkets. Well, there's a reason—she's got her eye on +a man for me."</p> + +<p>I gave an exclamation of surprise.</p> + +<p>"Yes; you know she's let us go together—it's all to draw him on. Oh, +couldn't you see it? Didn't you suspect something? You don't know how +bitterly they hate you."</p> + +<p>I bit my lip.</p> + +<p>"Who's the man?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_156" id="page_156" title="156"></a>"Jack Locasto."</p> + +<p>I started.</p> + +<p>"Have you heard of him?" she asked. "He's got a million-dollar claim on +Bonanza."</p> + +<p>Had I heard of him! Who had not heard of Black Jack, his spectacular +poker plays, his meteoric rise, his theatric display?</p> + +<p>"Of course he's married," she went on, "but that doesn't matter up here. +There's such a thing as a Klondike marriage, and they say he behaves +well to his discarded mis——"</p> + +<p>"Berna!" angry and aghast, I had stopped her. "Never let me hear you +utter that word. Even to say it seems pollution."</p> + +<p>She laughed harshly, bitterly.</p> + +<p>"What's this whole life but pollution?... Well, anyway, he wants me."</p> + +<p>"But you wouldn't, surely you wouldn't?"</p> + +<p>She turned on me fiercely.</p> + +<p>"What do you take me for? Surely you know me better than that. Oh, you +almost make me hate you."</p> + +<p>Suddenly she pressed the little handkerchief to her eyes. She fell to +sobbing convulsively. Vainly I tried to soothe her, whispering:</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear, tell me all about it. I'm sorry, girl, I'm sorry."</p> + +<p>She ceased crying. She went on in her fierce, excited way.</p> + +<p>"He came to the restaurant in Bennett. He used to watch me a lot. His +eyes were always following <a class="pagenum" name="page_157" id="page_157" title="157"></a>me. I was afraid. I trembled when I served +him. He liked to see me tremble, it gave him a feeling of power. Then he +took to giving me presents, a diamond ring, a heart-shaped locket, +costly gifts. I wanted to return them, but she wouldn't let me, took +them from me, put them away. Then he and she had long talks. I know it +was all about me. That was why I came to you that night and begged you +to marry me—to save me from him. Now it's gone from bad to worse. The +net's closing round me in spite of my flutterings."</p> + +<p>"But he can't get you against your will," I cried.</p> + +<p>"No! no! but he'll never give up. He'll try so long as I resist him. I'm +nice to him just to humour him and gain time. I can't tell you how much +I fear him. They say he always gets his way with women. He's masterly +and relentless. There's a cold, sneering command in his smile. You hate +him but you obey him."</p> + +<p>"He's an immoral monster, Berna. He spares neither time nor money to +gratify his whims where a woman is concerned. And he has no pity."</p> + +<p>"I know, I know."</p> + +<p>"He's intensely masculine, handsome in a vivid, gipsy sort of way; big, +strong and compelling, but a callous libertine."</p> + +<p>"Yes, he's all that. And can you wonder then my heart is full of fear, +that I am distracted, that I asked you what I did? He is relentless and +of all women he wants me. He would break me on the wheel of dishonour. +Oh, God!"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_158" id="page_158" title="158"></a>Her face grew almost tragic in its despair.</p> + +<p>"And everything's against me; they're all helping him. I haven't a +single friend, not one to stand by me, to aid me. Once I thought of you, +and you failed me. Can you wonder I'm nearly crazy with the terror of +it? Can you wonder I was desperate enough to ask you to save me? I'm all +alone, friendless, a poor, weak girl. No, I'm wrong. I've one +friend—death; and I'll die, I'll die, I swear it, before I let him get +me."</p> + +<p>Her words came forth in a torrent, half choked by sobs. It was hard to +get her calmed. Never had I thought her capable of such force, such +passion. I was terribly distressed and at a loss how to comfort her.</p> + +<p>"Hush, Berna," I pleaded, "please don't say such things. Remember you +have a friend in me, one that would do anything in his power to help +you."</p> + +<p>She looked at me a moment.</p> + +<p>"How can you help me?"</p> + +<p>I held both of her hands firmly, looking into her eyes.</p> + +<p>"By marrying you. Will you marry me, dear? Will you be my wife?"</p> + +<p>"No!"</p> + +<p>I started. "Berna!"</p> + +<p>"No! I wouldn't marry you if you were the last man left in the world," +she cried vehemently.</p> + +<p>"Why?" I tried to be calm.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_159" id="page_159" title="159"></a>"Why! why, you don't love me; you don't care for me."</p> + +<p>"Yes, I do, Berna. I do indeed, girl. Care for you! Well, I care so much +that—I beg you to marry me."</p> + +<p>"Yes, yes, but you don't love me right, not in your great, grand way. +Not in the way you told me of. Oh, I know; it's part pity, part +friendship. It would be different if I cared in the same way, if—if I +didn't care so very much more."</p> + +<p>"You do, Berna; you love me like that?"</p> + +<p>"How do I know? How can I tell? How can any of us tell?"</p> + +<p>"No, dear," I said, "love has no limits, no bounds, it is always holding +something in reserve. There are yet heights beyond the heights, that +mock our climbing, never perfection; no great love but might have been +eclipsed by a greater. There's a master key to every heart, and we poor +fools delude ourselves with the idea we are opening all the doors. We +are on sufferance, we are only understudies in the love drama, but +fortunately the star seldom appears on the scene. However, this I +know——"</p> + +<p>I rose to my feet.</p> + +<p>"Since the moment I set eyes on you, I loved you. Long before I ever met +you, I loved you. I was just waiting for you, waiting. At first I could +not understand, I did not know what it meant, but now I do, beyond the +peradventure of a doubt; there never was any but you, never will be any +but you. Since the beginning of time it was all planned <a class="pagenum" name="page_160" id="page_160" title="160"></a>that I should +love you. And you, how do you care?"</p> + +<p>She stood up to hear my words. She would not let me touch her, but there +was a great light in her eyes. Then she spoke and her voice was vibrant +with passion, all indifference gone from it.</p> + +<p>"Oh, you blind! you coward! Couldn't you see? Couldn't you feel? That +day on the scow it came to me—Love. It was such as I had never dreamed +of, rapture, ecstasy, anguish. Do you know what I wished as we went +through the rapids? I wished that it might be the end, that in such a +supreme moment we might go down clinging together, and that in death I +might hold you in my arms. Oh, if you'd only been like that afterwards, +met love open-armed with love. But, no! you slipped back to friendship. +I feel as if there were a barrier of ice between us now. I will try +never to care for you any more. Now leave me, leave me, for I never want +to see you again."</p> + +<p>"Yes, you will, you must, you must, Berna. I'd sell my immortal soul to +win that love from you, my dearest, my dearest; I'd crawl around the +world to kiss your shadow. If you called to me I would come from the +ends of the earth, through storm and darkness, to your side. I love you +so, I love you so."</p> + +<p>I crushed her to me, I kissed her madly, yet she was cold.</p> + +<p>"Have you nothing more to say than fine words?" she asked.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_161" id="page_161" title="161"></a>"Marry me, marry me," I repeated.</p> + +<p>"Now?"</p> + +<p>Now! I hesitated again. The suddenness of it was like a cold douche. God +knows, I burned for the girl, yet somehow convention clamped me.</p> + +<p>"Now if you wish," I faltered; "but better when we get to Dawson. Better +when I've made good up there. Give me one year, Berna, one year and +then——"</p> + +<p>"One year!"</p> + +<p>The sudden gleam of hope vanished from her eyes. For the third time I +was failing her, yet my cursed prudence overrode me.</p> + +<p>"Oh, it will pass swiftly, dear. You will be quite safe. I will be near +you and watch over you."</p> + +<p>I reassured her, anxiously explaining how much better it would be if we +waited a little.</p> + +<p>"One year!" she repeated, and it seemed to me her voice was toneless. +Then she turned to me in a sudden spate of passion, her face pleading, +furrowed, wretchedly sad.</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear, my dear, I love you better than the whole world, but I +hoped you would care enough for me to marry me now. It would have been +best, believe me. I thought you would rise to the occasion, but you've +failed me. Well, be it so, we'll wait one year."</p> + +<p>"Yes, believe me, trust me, dear; it will be all right. I'll work for +you, slave for you, think only of you, and in twelve short months—I'll +give my whole life to make you happy."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_162" id="page_162" title="162"></a>"Will you, dear? Well, it doesn't matter now.... I've loved you."</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>All that night I wrestled with myself. I felt I ought to marry her at +once to shield her from the dangers that encompassed her. She was like a +lamb among a pack of wolves. I juggled with my conscience. I was young +and marriage to me seemed such a terribly all-important step.</p> + +<p>Yet in the end my better nature triumphed, and ere the camp was astir I +arose. I was going to marry Berna that day. A feeling of relief came +over me. How had it ever seemed possible to delay? I was elated beyond +measure.</p> + +<p>I hurried to tell her, I pictured her joy. I was almost breathless. Love +words trembled on my tongue tip. It seemed to me I could not bear to +wait a moment.</p> + +<p>Then as I reached the place where they had rested I gazed unbelievingly. +A sickening sense of loss and failure crushed me.</p> + +<p>For the scow was gone.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_163" id="page_163" title="163"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XVI</h2> +</div> + +<p>It was three days before we made a start again, and to me each day was +like a year. I chafed bitterly at the delay. Would those sacks of flour +never dry? Longingly I gazed down the big, blue Yukon and cursed the +current that was every moment carrying her farther from me. Why her +sudden departure? I had no doubt it was enforced. I dreaded danger. Then +in a while I grew calmer. I was foolish to worry. She was safe enough. +We would meet in Dawson.</p> + +<p>At last we were under way. Once more we sped down that devious river, +now swirling under the shadow of a steep bank, now steering around a +sandspit. The scenery was hideous to me, bluffs of clay with pines +peeping over their rims, willow-fringed flats, swamps of niggerhead, +ugly drab hills in endless monotony.</p> + +<p>How full of kinks and hooks was the river! How vicious with snags! How +treacherous with eddies! It was beginning to bulk in my thoughts almost +like an obsession. Then one day Lake Labarge burst on my delighted eyes. +The trail was nearing its end.</p> + +<p>Once more with swelling sail we drove before the wind. Once more we were +in a fleet of Argonaut boats, and now, with the goal in sight, each man +redoubled his efforts. Perhaps the rich ground would <a class="pagenum" name="page_164" id="page_164" title="164"></a>all be gone ere we +reached the valley. Maddening thought after what we had endured! We must +get on.</p> + +<p>There was not a man in all that fleet but imagined that fortune awaited +him with open arms. They talked exultantly. Their eyes shone with the +gold-lust. They strained at sweep and oar. To be beaten at the last! Oh, +it was inconceivable! A tigerish eagerness filled them; a panic of fear +and cupidity spurred them on.</p> + +<p>Labarge was a dream lake, mirroring noble mountains in its depths (for +soon after we made it, a dead calm fell). But we had no eyes for its +beauty. The golden magnet was drawing us too strongly now. We cursed +that exquisite serenity that made us sweat at the oars; we cursed the +wind that never would arise; the currents that always were against us. +In that breathless tranquillity myriads of mosquitoes assailed us, +blinded us, covered our food as we ate, made our lives a perfect hell of +misery. Yet the trail was nearing its finish.</p> + +<p>What a relief it was when a sudden storm came up! White-caps tossed +around us, and the wind drove us on a precipitous shore, so that we +nearly came to a sorry end. But it was over at last, and we swept on +into the Thirty-mile River.</p> + +<p>A furious, hurling stream was this, that matched our mad, impatient +mood; but it was staked with hidden dangers. We gripped our weary oars. +Keenly alert we had to be, steering and watching for rocks that would +have ripped us from bow to stern. <a class="pagenum" name="page_165" id="page_165" title="165"></a>There was a famously terrible one, on +which scows smashed like egg-shells under a hammer, and we missed it by +a bare hand's-breadth. I felt sick to think of our bitterness had we +piled up on it. That was an evil, ugly river, full of capricious turns +and eddies, and the bluffs were high and steep.</p> + +<p>Hootalinqua, Big Salmon, Little Salmon, these are names to me now. All I +can remember is long days of toil at the oar, fighting the growing +obsession of mosquitoes, ever pressing on to the golden valley. The +ceaseless strain was beginning to tell on us. We suffered from +rheumatism, we barked with cold. Oh, we were weary, weary, yet the trail +was nearing its end.</p> + +<p>One sunlit Sabbath evening I remember well. We were drifting along and +we came on a lovely glade where a creek joined the river. It was a +green, velvety, sparkling place, and by the creek were two men +whipsawing lumber. We hailed them jauntily and asked them if they had +found prospects. Were they getting out lumber for sluice-boxes?</p> + +<p>One of the men came forward. He was very tired, very quiet, very solemn. +"No," he said, "we are sawing out a coffin for our dead."</p> + +<p>Then we saw a limp shape in their boat and we hurried on, awed and +abashed.</p> + +<p>The river was mud colour now, swirling in great eddies or convulsed from +below with sudden upheavals. Drifting on that oily current one seemed to +be quite motionless, and only the gliding banks assured us of progress. +The country seemed terrible <a class="pagenum" name="page_166" id="page_166" title="166"></a>to me, sinister, guilty, God-forsaken. At +the horizon, jagged mountains stabbed viciously at the sky.</p> + +<p>The river overwhelmed me. Sometimes it was a stream of blood, running +into the eye of the setting sun, beautiful, yet weird and menacing. It +broadened, deepened, and every day countless streams swelled its volume. +Islands waded in it greenly. Always we heard it <i>singing</i>, a seething, +hissing noise supposed to be the pebbles shuffling on the bottom.</p> + +<p>The days were insufferably hot and mosquito-curst; the nights chilly, +damp and mosquito-haunted. I suffered agonies from neuralgia. Never +mind, it would soon be over. We were on our last lap. The trail was near +its end.</p> + +<p>Yes, it was indeed the homestretch. Suddenly sweeping round a bend we +raised a shout of joy. There was that great livid scar on the mountain +face—the "Slide," and clustered below it like shells on the seashore, +an army of tents. It was the gold-born city.</p> + +<p>Trembling with eagerness we pulled ashore. Our troubles were over. At +last we had gained our Eldorado, thank God, thank God!</p> + +<p>A number of loafers were coming to meet us. They were strangely calm.</p> + +<p>"How about the gold?" said the Prodigal; "lots of ground left to stake?"</p> + +<p>One of them looked at us contemptuously. He chewed a moment ere he +spoke.</p> + +<p>"You Cheechakers better git right home. There ain't a foot of ground to +stake. Everything in sight <a class="pagenum" name="page_167" id="page_167" title="167"></a>was staked last Fall. The rest is all mud. +There's nothing doin' an' there's ten men for every job! The whole +thing's a fake. You Cheechakers better git right home."</p> + +<p>Yes, after all our travail, all our torment, we had better go right +home. Already many were preparing to do so. Yet what of that great +oncoming horde of which we were but the vanguard? What of the eager +army, the host of the Cheechakos? For hundreds of miles were lake and +river white with their grotesque boats. Beyond them again were thousands +and thousands of others struggling on through mosquito-curst morasses, +bent under their inexorable burdens. Reckless, indomitable, +hope-inspired, they climbed the passes and shot the rapids; they drowned +in the rivers, they rotted in the swamps. Nothing could stay them. The +golden magnet was drawing them on; the spell of the gold-lust was in +their hearts.</p> + +<p>And this was the end. For this they had mortgaged homes and broken +hearts. For this they had faced danger and borne suffering: to be told +to return.</p> + +<p>The land was choosing its own. All along it had weeded out the +weaklings. Now let the fainthearted go back. This land was only for the +Strong.</p> + +<p>Yet it was sad, so much weariness, and at the end disenchantment and +failure.</p> + +<p>Verily the ways of the gold-trail were cruel.</p> + +<hr class="major" /> + +<h2><a name="BOOK_III" id="BOOK_III"></a>BOOK III</h2> + +<div style="margin: auto; text-align: center; padding-top: 1em; padding-bottom: 1em"> +<a name="THE_CAMP_4765" id="THE_CAMP_4765"></a> +<h3>THE CAMP</h3> +</div> + +<table summary=""><tr><td> +For once you've panned the speckled sand and seen the bonny dust,<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1em;">Its peerless brightness blinds you like a spell;</span><br /> +It's little else you care about; you go because you must,<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1em;">And you feel that you could follow it to hell.</span><br /> +You'd follow it in hunger, and you'd follow it in cold;<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1em;">You'd follow it in solitude and pain;</span><br /> +And when you're stiff and battened down let some one whisper "Gold,"<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1em;">You're lief to rise and follow it again.</span><br /> +</td></tr> +<tr><td align='right'>—"The Prospector."</td></tr> +</table> + +<div> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_171" id="page_171" title="171"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER I</h2> +</div> + +<p>I will always remember my first day in the gold-camp. We were well in +front of the Argonaut army, but already thousands were in advance of us. +The flat at the mouth of Bonanza was a congestion of cabins; shacks and +tents clustered the hillside, scattered on the heights and massed again +on the slope sweeping down to the Klondike. An intense vitality charged +the air. The camp was alive, ahum, vibrant with fierce, dynamic energy.</p> + +<p>In effect the town was but one street stretching alongside the water +front. It was amazingly packed with men from side to side, from end to +end. They lounged in the doorways of oddly assorted buildings, and +jostled each other on the dislocated sidewalks. Stores of all kinds, +saloons, gambling joints flourished without number, and in one block +alone there were half a dozen dance-halls. Yet all seemed plethorically +prosperous.</p> + +<p>Many of the business houses were installed in tents. That huge canvas +erection was a mining exchange; that great log barn a dance-hall. +Dwarfish log cabins impudently nestled up to pretentious three-story +hotels. The effect was oddly staccato. All was grotesque, makeshift, +haphazard. Back of the main street lay the red-light quarter, and behind +it again a swamp of niggerheads, the breeding-place of fever and +mosquito.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_172" id="page_172" title="172"></a>The crowd that vitalised the street was strikingly cosmopolitan. Mostly +big, bearded fellows they were, with here the full-blooded face of the +saloon man, and there the quick, pallid mask of the gambler. Women too I +saw in plenty, bold, free, predacious creatures, a rustle of silk and a +reek of perfume. Till midnight I wandered up and down the long street; +but there was no darkness, no lull in its clamorous life.</p> + +<p>I was looking for Berna. My heart hungered for her; my eyes ached for +her; my mind was so full of her there seemed no room for another single +thought. But it was like looking for a needle in a strawstack to find +her in that seething multitude. I knew no one, and it seemed futile to +inquire regarding her. These keen-eyed men with eager talk of claims and +pay-dirt could not help me. There seemed to be nothing for it but to +wait. So with spirits steadily sinking zerowards I waited.</p> + +<p>We found, indeed, that there was little ground left to stake. The mining +laws were in some confusion, and were often changing. Several creeks +were closed to location, but always new strikes were being made and +stampedes started. So, after a session of debate, we decided to reserve +our rights to stake till a good chance offered. It was a bitter +awakening. Like all the rest we had expected to get ground that was gold +from the grass-roots down. But there was work to be had, and we would +not let ourselves be disheartened.</p> + +<p>The Jam-wagon had already deserted us. He was <a class="pagenum" name="page_173" id="page_173" title="173"></a>off up on Eldorado +somewhere, shovelling dirt into a sluice-box for ten dollars a day. I +made up my mind I would follow him. Jim also would get to work, while +the Prodigal, we agreed, would look after all our interests, and stake +or buy a good claim.</p> + +<p>Thus we planned, sitting in our little tent near the beach. We were in a +congeries of tents. The beach was fast whitening with them. If one was +in a hurry it was hard to avoid tripping over ropes and pegs. As each +succeeding party arrived they had to go further afield to find +camping-ground. And they were arriving in thousands daily. The shore for +a mile was lined five deep with boats. Scows had been hauled high and +dry on the gravel, and there the owners were living. A thousand stoves +were eloquent of beans and bacon. I met a man taking home a prize, a +porterhouse steak. He was carrying it over his arm like a towel, paper +was so scarce. The camp was a hive of energy, a hum of occupation.</p> + +<p>But how many, after they had paraded that mile-long street with its mud, +its seething foam of life, its blare of gramophones and its blaze of +dance-halls, ached for their southland homes again! You could read the +disappointment in their sun-tanned faces. Yet they were the eager +navigators of the lakes, the reckless amateurs of the rivers. This was a +something different from the trail. It was as if, after all their +efforts, they had butted up against a stone wall. There was "nothing +doing," no ground left, and only hard work, the hardest on earth.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_174" id="page_174" title="174"></a>Moreover, the country was at the mercy of a gang of corrupt officials +who were using the public offices for their own enrichment. Franchises +were being given to the favourites of those in power, concessions sold, +liquor permits granted, and abuses of every kind practised on the free +miner. All was venality, injustice and exaction.</p> + +<p>"Go home," said the Man in the Street; "the mining laws are rotten. All +kinds of ground is tied up. Even if you get hold of something good, them +dam-robber government sharks will flim-flam you out of it. There's no +square deal here. They tax you to mine; they tax you to cut a tree; they +tax you to sell a fish; pretty soon they'll be taxing you to breathe. Go +home!"</p> + +<p>And many went, many of the trail's most indomitable. They could face +hardship and danger, the blizzards, the rapids, nature savage and +ravening; but when it came to craft, graft and the duplicity of their +fellow men they were discouraged, discomfited.</p> + +<p>"Say, boys, I guess I've done a slick piece of work," said the Prodigal +with some satisfaction, as he entered the tent. "I've bought three whole +outfits on the beach. Got them for twenty-five per cent. less than the +cost price in Seattle. I'll pull out a hundred per cent. on the deal. +Now's the time to get in and buy from the quitters. They so soured at +the whole frame-up they're ready to pull their freights at any moment. +All they want's to get away. They want to put a few thousand miles +between them and <a class="pagenum" name="page_175" id="page_175" title="175"></a>this garbage dump of creation. They never want to hear +the name of Yukon again except as a cuss-word. I'm going to keep on +buying outfits. You boys see if I don't clean up a bunch of money."</p> + +<p>"It's too bad to take advantage of them," I suggested.</p> + +<p>"Too bad nothing! That's business; your necessity, my opportunity. Oh, +you'd never make a money-getter, my boy, this side of the +millennium—and you Scotch too."</p> + +<p>"That's nothing," said Jim; "wait till I tell you of the deal I made +to-day. You recollect I packed a flat-iron among my stuff, an' you boys +joshed me about it, said I was bughouse. But I figured out: there's +camp-meetin's an' socials up there, an' a nice, dinky, white shirt once +in a way goes pretty good. Anyway, thinks I, if there ain't no one else +to dress for in that wilderness, I'll dress for the Almighty. So I +sticks to my old flat-iron."</p> + +<p>He looked at us with a twinkle in his eye and then went on.</p> + +<p>"Well, it seems there's only three more flat-irons in camp, an' all the +hot sports wantin' boiled shirts done up, an' all the painted Jezebels +hollerin' to have their lingery fixed, an' the wash-ladies just goin' +round crazy for flat-irons. Well, I didn't want to sell mine, but the +old coloured lady that runs the Bong Tong Laundry (an' a sister in the +Lord) came to me with tears in her eyes, an' at last I was prevailed on +to separate from it."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_176" id="page_176" title="176"></a>"How much, Jim?"</p> + +<p>"Well, I didn't want to be too hard on the old girl, so I let her down +easy."</p> + +<p>"How much?"</p> + +<p>"Well, you see there's only three or four of them flat-irons in camp, so +I asked a hundred an' fifty dollars, an' quick's a flash, she took me +into a store an' paid me in gold-dust."</p> + +<p>He flourished a little poke of dust in our laughing faces.</p> + +<p>"That's pretty good," I said; "everything seems topsy-turvy up here. +Why, to-day I saw a man come in with a box of apples which the crowd +begged him to open. He was selling those apples at a dollar apiece, and +the folks were just fighting to get them."</p> + +<p>It was so with everything. Extraordinary prices ruled. Eggs and candles +had been sold for a dollar each, and potatoes for a dollar a pound; +while on the trail in '97 horse-shoe nails were selling at <i>a dollar a +nail</i>.</p> + +<p>Once more I roamed the long street with that awful restless agony in my +heart. Where was she, my girl, so precious now it seemed I had lost her? +Why does love mean so much to some, so little to others? Perhaps I am +the victim of an intensity of temperament, but I craved for her; I +visioned evils befalling her; I pierced my heart with dagger-thrusts of +fear for her. Oh, if I only knew she was safe and well! Every slim woman +I saw in the distance looked to be her, and made my heart leap with +emotion. Yet always <a class="pagenum" name="page_177" id="page_177" title="177"></a>I chewed on the rind of disappointment. There was +never a sign of Berna.</p> + +<p>In the agitation and unrest of my mind I climbed the hill that +overshadows the gold-born city. The Dome they call it, and the face of +it is vastly scarred, blanched as by a cosmic blow. There on its topmost +height by a cairn of stone I stood at gaze, greatly awestruck.</p> + +<p>The view was a spacious one, and of an overwhelming grandeur. Below me +lay the mighty Yukon, here like a silken ribbon, there broadening out to +a pool of quicksilver. It seemed motionless, dead, like a piece of +tinfoil lying on a sable shroud.</p> + +<p>The great valley was preternaturally still, and pall-like as if steeped +in the colours of the long, long night. The land so vast, so silent, so +lifeless, was round in its contours, full of fat creases and bold +curves. The mountains were like sleeping giants; here was the swell of a +woman's breast, there the sweep of a man's thigh. And beyond that huddle +of sprawling Titans, far, far beyond, as if it were an enclosing +stockade, was the jagged outline of the Rockies.</p> + +<p>Quite suddenly they seemed to stand up against the blazing sky, +monstrous, horrific, smiting the senses like a blow. Their primordial +faces were hacked and hewed fantastically, and there they posed in their +immemorial isolation, virgin peaks, inviolate valleys, impregnably +desolate and savagely sublime.</p> + +<p>And beyond their stormy crests, surely a world was consuming in the +kilns of chaos. Was ever anything so insufferably bright as the +incandescent glow that <a class="pagenum" name="page_178" id="page_178" title="178"></a>brimmed those jagged clefts? That fierce +crimson, was it not the hue of a cooling crucible, that deep vermillion +the rich glory of a rose's heart? Did not that tawny orange mind you of +ripe wheat-fields and the exquisite intrusion of poppies? That pure, +clear gold, was it not a bank of primroses new washed in April rain? +What was that luminous opal but a lagoon, a pearly lagoon, with floating +in it islands of amber, their beaches crisped with ruby foam? And, over +all the riot of colour, that shimmering chrysoprase so tenderly +luminous—might it not fitly veil the splendours of paradise?</p> + +<p>I looked to where gulped the mouth of Bonanza, cavernously wide and +filled with the purple smoke of many fires. There was the golden valley, +silent for centuries, now strident with human cries, vehement with human +strife. There was the timbered basin of the Klondike bleakly rising to +mountains eloquent of death. It was dominating, appalling, this vastness +without end, this unappeasable loneliness. Glad was I to turn again to +where, like white pebbles on a beach, gleamed the tents of the gold-born +city.</p> + +<p>Somewhere amid that confusion of canvas, that muddle of cabins, was +Berna, maybe lying in some wide-eyed vigil of fear, maybe staining with +hopeless tears her restless pillow. Somewhere down there—Oh, I must +find her!</p> + +<p>I returned to the town. I was tramping its long street once more, that +street with its hundreds of canvas signs. It was a city of signs. Every +place of business seemed to have its fluttering banner, and beneath +<a class="pagenum" name="page_179" id="page_179" title="179"></a>these banners moved the ever restless throng. There were men from the +mines in their flannel shirts and corduroys, their Stetsons and high +boots. There were men from the trail in sweaters and mackinaws, German +socks and caps with ear-flaps. But all were bronzed and bearded, +fleshless and clean-limbed. I marvelled at the seriousness of their +faces, till I remembered that here was no problem of a languorous +sunland, but one of grim emergency. It was a man's game up here in the +North, a man's game in a man's land, where the sunlight of the long, +long day is ever haunted by the shadow of the long, long night.</p> + +<p>Oh, if I could only find her! The land was a great symphony; she the +haunting theme of it.</p> + +<p>I bought a copy of the "Nugget" and went into the Sourdough Restaurant +to read it. As I lingered there sipping my coffee and perusing the paper +indifferently, a paragraph caught my eye and made my heart glow with +sudden hope.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_180" id="page_180" title="180"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER II</h2> +</div> + +<p>Here was the item:</p> + +<div class="blockquot"><p style='text-align:center'><i>Jack Locasto loses $19,000.</i></p> + +<p>"One of the largest gambling plays that ever occurred in Dawson +came off last night in the Malamute Saloon. Jack Locasto of +Eldorado, well known as one of the Klondike's wealthiest +claim-owners, Claude Terry and Charlie Haw were the chief actors in +the game, which cost the first-named the sum of $19,000.</p> + +<p>"Locasto came to Dawson from his claim yesterday. It is said that +before leaving the Forks he lost a sum ranging in the neighbourhood +of $5,000. Last night he began playing in the Malamute with Haw and +Terry in an effort, it is supposed, to recoup his losses at the +Forks. The play continued nearly all night, and at the wind-up, +Locasto, as stated above, was loser to the amount of $19,000. This +is probably the largest individual loss ever sustained at one +sitting in the history of Klondike poker playing."</p></div> + +<p>Jack Locasto! Why had I not thought of him before? Surely if any one +knew of the girl's whereabouts, it would be he. I determined I would ask +him at once.</p> + +<p>So I hastily finished my coffee and inquired of the emasculated-looking +waiter where I might find the Klondike King.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_181" id="page_181" title="181"></a>"Oh, Black Jack," he said: "well, at the Green Bay Tree, or the Tivoli, +or the Monte Carlo. But there's a big poker game on and he's liable to +be in it."</p> + +<p>Once more I paraded the seething street. It was long after midnight, but +the wondrous glow, still burning in the Northern sky, filled the land +with strange enchantment. In spite of the hour the town seemed to be +more alive than ever. Parties with pack-laden mules were starting off +for the creeks, travelling at night to avoid the heat and mosquitoes. +Men with lean brown faces trudged sturdily along carrying extraordinary +loads on their stalwart shoulders. A stove, blankets, cooking utensils, +axe and shovel usually formed but a part of their varied accoutrement.</p> + +<p>Constables of the Mounted Police were patrolling the streets. In the +drab confusion their scarlet tunics were a piercing note of colour. They +walked very stiffly, with grim mouths and eyes sternly vigilant under +the brims of their Stetsons. Women were everywhere, smoking cigarettes, +laughing, chaffing, strolling in and out of the wide-open saloons. Their +cheeks were rouged, their eye-lashes painted, their eyes bright with +wine. They gazed at the men like sleek animals, with looks that were +wanton and alluring. A libertine spirit was in the air, a madcap +freedom, an effluence of disdainful sin.</p> + +<p>I found myself by the stockade that surrounded the Police reservation. +On every hand I saw traces of a recent overflow of the river that had +transformed <a class="pagenum" name="page_182" id="page_182" title="182"></a>the street into a navigable canal. Now in places there were +mudholes in which horses would flounder to their bellies. One of the +Police constables, a tall, slim Englishman with a refined manner, proved +to me a friend in need.</p> + +<p>"Yes," he said, in answer to my query, "I think I can find your man. +He's downtown somewhere with some of the big sporting guns. Come on, +we'll run him to earth."</p> + +<p>As we walked along we compared notes, and he talked of himself in a +frank, friendly way.</p> + +<p>"You're not long out from the old country? Thought not. Left there +myself about four years ago—I joined the Force in Regina. It's +altogether different 'outside,' patrol work, a free life on the open +prairie. Here they keep one choring round barracks most of the time. +I've been for six months now on the town station. I'm not sorry, though. +It's all devilish interesting. Wouldn't have missed it for a farm. When +I write the people at home about it they think I'm yarning—stringing +them, as they say here. The governor's a clergyman. Sent me to Harrow, +and wanted to make a Bishop out of me. But I'm restless; never could +study; don't seem to fit in, don't you know."</p> + +<p>I recognised his type, the clean, frank, breezy Englishman that has +helped to make an Empire. He went on:</p> + +<p>"Yes, how the old dad would stare if I could only have him in Dawson for +a day. He'd never be able to get things just in focus any more. He would +be <a class="pagenum" name="page_183" id="page_183" title="183"></a>knocked clean off the pivot on which he's revolved these thirty +years. Seems to me every one's travelling on a pivot in the old country. +It's no use trying to hammer it into their heads there are more points +of view than one. If you don't just see things as they see them, you're +troubled with astigmatism. Come, let's go in here."</p> + +<p>He pushed his way through a crowded doorway and I followed. It was the +ordinary type of combined saloon and gambling-joint. In one corner was a +very ornate bar, and all around the capacious room were gambling devices +of every kind. There were crap-tables, wheel of fortune, the Klondike +game, Keno, stud poker, roulette and faro outfits. The place was +chock-a-block with rough-looking men, either looking on or playing the +games. The men who were running the tables wore shades of green over +their eyes, and their strident cries of "Come on, boys," pierced the +smoky air.</p> + +<p>In a corner, presiding over a stud-poker game, I was surprised to see +our old friend Mosher. He was dealing with one hand, holding the pack +delicately and sending the cards with a dexterous flip to each player. +Miners were buying chips from a man at the bar, who with a pair of gold +scales was weighing out dust in payment.</p> + +<p>My companion pointed to an inner room with a closed door.</p> + +<p>"The Klondike Kings are in there, hard at it. They've been playing now +for twenty-four hours, and goodness knows when they'll let up."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_184" id="page_184" title="184"></a>At that moment a peremptory bell rang from the room and a waiter +hurried up.</p> + +<p>"There they are," said my friend, as the door opened. "There's Black +Jack and Stillwater Willie and Claude Terry and Charlie Haw."</p> + +<p>Eagerly I looked in. The men were wearied, their faces haggard and +ghastly pale. Quickly and coolly they fingered the cards, but in their +hollow eyes burned the fever of the game, a game where golden eagles +were the chips and thousand-dollar jack-pots were unremarkable. No doubt +they had lost and won greatly, but they gave no sign. What did it +matter? In the dumps waiting to be cleaned up were hundreds of thousands +more; while in the ground were millions, millions.</p> + +<p>All but Locasto were medium-sized men. Stillwater Willie was in +evening-dress. He wore a red tie in which glittered a huge diamond pin, +and yellow tan boots covered with mud.</p> + +<p>"How did he get his name?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"Well, you see, they say he was the only one that funked the Whitehorse +Rapids. He's a high flier, all right."</p> + +<p>The other two were less striking. Haw was a sandy-haired man with +shifty, uneasy eyes; Terry of a bulldog type, stocky and powerful. But +it was Locasto who gripped and riveted my attention.</p> + +<p>He was a massive man, heavy of limb and brutal in strength. There was a +great spread to his shoulders and a conscious power in his every +movement. He had a square, heavy chin, a grim, sneering mouth, a <a class="pagenum" name="page_185" id="page_185" title="185"></a>falcon +nose, black eyes that were as cold as the water in a deserted shaft. His +hair was raven dark, and his skin betrayed the Mexican strain in his +blood. Above the others he towered, strikingly masterful, and I felt +somehow the power that emanated from the man, the brute force, the +remorseless purpose.</p> + +<p>Then the waiter returned with a tray of drinks and the door was closed.</p> + +<p>"Well, you've seen him now," said Chester of the Police. "Your only +plan, if you want to speak to him, is to wait till the game breaks up. +When poker interferes with your business, to the devil with your +business. They won't be interrupted. Well, old man, if you can't be +good, be careful; and if you want me any time, ring up the town station. +Bye, bye."</p> + +<p>He sauntered off. For a time I strolled from game to game, watching the +expressions on the faces of the players, and trying to take an interest +in the play. Yet my mind was ever on the closed door and my ear strained +to hear the click of chips. I heard the hoarse murmurs of their voices, +an occasional oath or a yawn of fatigue. How I wished they would come +out! Women went to the door, peered in cautiously, and beat a hasty +retreat to the tune of reverberated curses. The big guns were busy; even +the ladies must await their pleasure.</p> + +<p>Oh, the weariness of that waiting! In my longing for Berna I had worked +myself up into a state that bordered on distraction. It seemed as if a +cloud was in my brain, obsessing me at all times. I <a class="pagenum" name="page_186" id="page_186" title="186"></a>felt I must +question this man, though it raised my gorge even to speak of her in his +presence. In that atmosphere of corruption the thought of the girl was +intolerably sweet, as of a ray of sunshine penetrating a noisome +dungeon.</p> + +<p>It was in the young morn when the game broke up. The outside air was +clear as washed gold; within it was foul and fetid as a drunkard's +breath. Men with pinched and pallid faces came out and inhaled the +breeze, which was buoyant as champagne. Beneath the perfect blue of the +spring sky the river seemed a shimmer of violet, and the banks dipped +down with the green of chrysoprase.</p> + +<p>Already a boy was sweeping up the dirty, nicotine-frescoed sawdust from +the floor. (It was his perquisite, and from the gold he panned out he +ultimately made enough to put him through college.) Then the inner door +opened and Black Jack appeared.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_187" id="page_187" title="187"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER III</h2> +</div> + +<p>He was wan and weary. Around his sombre eyes were chocolate-coloured +hollows. His thick raven hair was disordered. He had lost heavily, and, +bidding a curt good-bye to the others, he strode off. In a moment I had +followed and overtaken him.</p> + +<p>"Mr. Locasto."</p> + +<p>He turned and gave me a stare from his brooding eyes. They were vacant +as those of a dope-fiend, vacant with fatigue.</p> + +<p>"Jack Locasto's my name," he answered carelessly.</p> + +<p>I walked alongside him.</p> + +<p>"Well, sir," I said, "my name's Meldrum, Athol Meldrum."</p> + +<p>"Oh, I don't care what the devil your name is," he broke in petulantly. +"Don't bother me just now. I'm tired."</p> + +<p>"So am I," I said, "infernally tired; but it won't hurt you to listen to +my name."</p> + +<p>"Well, Mr. Athol Meldrum, good-day."</p> + +<p>His voice was cold, his manner galling in its indifference, and a sudden +anger glowed in me.</p> + +<p>"Hold on," I said; "just a moment. You can very easily do me an immense +favour. Listen to me."</p> + +<p>"Well, what do you want," he demanded roughly; "work?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_188" id="page_188" title="188"></a>"No," I said, "I just want a scrap of information. I came into the +country with some Jews the name of Winklestein. I've lost track of them +and I think you may be able to tell me where they are."</p> + +<p>He was all attention now. He turned half round and scrutinised me with +deliberate intensity. Then, like a flash, his rough manner changed. He +was the polished gentleman, the San Francisco club-lounger, the man of +the world.</p> + +<p>He rasped the stubble on his chin; his eyes were bland, his voice smooth +as cream.</p> + +<p>"Winklestein," he echoed reflectively, "Winklestein; seems to me I do +remember the name, but for the life of me I can't recall where."</p> + +<p>He was watching me like a cat, and pretending to think hard.</p> + +<p>"Was there a girl with them?"</p> + +<p>"Yes," I said eagerly, "a young girl."</p> + +<p>"A young girl, ah!" He seemed to reflect hard again. "Well, my friend, +I'm afraid I can't help you. I remember noticing the party on the way +in, but what became of them I can't think. I don't usually bother about +that kind of people. Well, good-night, or good-morning rather. This is +my hotel."</p> + +<p>He had half entered when he paused and turned to me. His face was +urbane, his voice suave to sweetness; but it seemed to me there was a +subtle mockery in his tone.</p> + +<p>"I say, if I should hear anything of them, I'll let <a class="pagenum" name="page_189" id="page_189" title="189"></a>you know. Your +name? Athol Meldrum—all right, I'll let you know. Good-bye."</p> + +<p>He was gone and I had failed. I cursed myself for a fool. The man had +baffled me. Nay, even I had hurt myself by giving him an inkling of my +search. Berna seemed further away from me than ever. Home I went, +discouraged and despairful.</p> + +<p>Then I began to argue with myself. He must know where they were, and if +he really had designs on the girl and was keeping her in hiding my +interview with him would alarm him. He would take the first opportunity +of warning the Winklesteins. When would he do it? That very night in all +likelihood. So I reasoned; and I resolved to watch.</p> + +<p>I stationed myself in a saloon from where I could command a view of his +hotel, and there I waited. I think I must have watched the place for +three hours, but I know it was a weariful business, and I was heartsick +of it. Doggedly I stuck to my post. I was beginning to think he must +have evaded me, when suddenly coming forth alone from the hotel I saw my +man.</p> + +<p>It was about midnight, neither light nor dark, but rather an absence of +either quality, and the Northern sky was wan and ominous. In the crowded +street I saw Locasto's hat overtopping all others, so that I had no +difficulty in shadowing him. Once he stopped to speak to a woman, once +to light a cigar; then he suddenly turned up a side street that ran +through the red-light district.</p> + +<p>He was walking swiftly and he took a path that <a class="pagenum" name="page_190" id="page_190" title="190"></a>skirted the swamp behind +the town. I had no doubt of his mission. My heart began to beat with +excitement. The little path led up the hill, clothed with fresh foliage +and dotted with cabins. Once I saw him pause and look round. I had +barely time to dodge behind some bushes, and feared for a moment he had +seen me. But no! on he went again faster than ever.</p> + +<p>I knew now I had divined his errand. He was at too great pains to cover +his tracks. The trail had plunged among a maze of slender cotton-woods, +and twisted so that I was sore troubled to keep him in view. Always he +increased his gait and I followed breathlessly. There were few cabins +hereabouts; it was a lonely place to be so near to town, very quiet and +thickly screened from sight. Suddenly he seemed to disappear, and, +fearing my pursuit was going to be futile, I rushed forward.</p> + +<p>I came to a dead stop. There was no one to be seen. He had vanished +completely. The trail climbed steeply up, twisty as a corkscrew. These +cursed poplars, how densely they grew! Blindly I blundered forward. Then +I came to a place where the trail forked. Panting for breath I hesitated +which way to take, and it was in that moment of hesitation that a heavy +hand was laid on my shoulder.</p> + +<p>"Where away, my young friend?" It was Locasto. His face was +Mephistophelian, his voice edged with irony. I was startled I admit, but +I tried to put a good face on it.</p> + +<p>"Hello," I said; "I'm just taking a stroll."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_191" id="page_191" title="191"></a>His black eyes pierced me, his black brows met savagely. The heavy jaw +shot forward, and for a moment the man, menacing and terrible, seemed to +tower above me.</p> + +<p>"You lie!" like explosive steam came the words, and wolf-like his lips +parted, showing his powerful teeth. "You lie!" he reiterated. "You +followed me. Didn't I see you from the hotel? Didn't I determine to +decoy you away? Oh, you fool! you fool! who are you that would pit your +weakness against my strength, your simplicity against my cunning? You +would try to cross me, would you? You would champion damsels in +distress? You pretty fool, you simpleton, you meddler——"</p> + +<p>Suddenly, without warning, he struck me square on the face, a blinding, +staggering blow that brought me to my knees as falls a pole-axed steer. +I was stunned, swaying weakly, trying vainly to get on my feet. I +stretched out my clenched hands to him. Then he struck me again, a +bitter, felling blow.</p> + +<p>I was completely at his mercy now and he showed me none. He was like a +fiend. Rage seemed to rend him. Time and again he kicked me, brutally, +relentlessly, on the ribs, on the chest, on the head. Was the man going +to do me to death? I shielded my head. I moaned in agony. Would he never +stop? Then I became unconscious, knowing that he was still kicking me, +and wondering if I would ever open my eyes again.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_192" id="page_192" title="192"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER IV</h2> +</div> + +<p>"Long live the cold-feet tribe! Long live the soreheads!"</p> + +<p>It was the Prodigal who spoke. "This outfit buying's got gold-mining +beaten to a standstill. Here I've been three weeks in the burg and got +over ten thousand dollars' worth of grub cached away. Every pound of it +will net me a hundred per cent. profit. I'm beginning to look on myself +as a second John D. Rockefeller."</p> + +<p>"You're a confounded robber," I said. "You're working a cinch-game. +What's your first name? Isaac?"</p> + +<p>He turned the bacon he was frying and smiled gayly.</p> + +<p>"Snort away all you like, old sport. So long as I get the mon you can +call me any old name you please."</p> + +<p>He was very sprightly and elate, but I was in no sort of mood to share +in his buoyancy. Physically I had fully recovered from my terrible +manhandling, but in spirit I still writhed at the outrage of it. And the +worst was I could do nothing. The law could not help me, for there were +no witnesses to the assault. I could never cope with this man in bodily +strength. Why was I not a stalwart? If I had been as tall and strong as +Garry, for instance. True, I might shoot; but there the Police would +take a hand <a class="pagenum" name="page_193" id="page_193" title="193"></a>in the game, and I would lose out badly. There seemed to be +nothing for it but to wait and pray for some means of retaliation.</p> + +<p>Yet how bitterly I brooded over the business. At times there was even +black murder in my heart. I planned schemes of revenge, grinding my +teeth in impotent rage the while; and my feelings were complicated by +that awful gnawing hunger for Berna that never left me. It was a perfect +agony of heart, a panic-fear, a craving so intense that at times I felt +I would go distracted with the pain of it.</p> + +<p>Perhaps I am a poor sort of being. I have often wondered. I either feel +intensely, or I am quite indifferent. I am a prey to my emotions, a +martyr to my moods. Apart from my great love for Berna it seemed to me +as if nothing mattered. All through these stormy years it was like +that—nothing else mattered. And now that I am nearing the end of my +life I can see that nothing else has ever mattered. Everything that +happened appealed to me in its relation to her. It seemed to me as if I +saw all the world through the medium of my love for her, and that all +beauty, all truth, all good was but a setting for this girl of mine.</p> + +<p>"Come on," said Jim; "let's go for a walk in the town."</p> + +<p>The "Modern Gomorrah" he called it, and he was never tired of +expatiating on its iniquity.</p> + +<p>"See that man there?" he said, pointing to a grey-haired pedestrian, who +was talking to an emphatic blonde. "That man's a lawyer. He's got a +lovely <a class="pagenum" name="page_194" id="page_194" title="194"></a>home in Los Angeles, an' three of the sweetest girls you ever +saw. A young fellow needed to have his credentials O. K.'d by the Purity +Committee before he came butting round that man's home. Now he's off to +buy wine for Daisy of the Deadline."</p> + +<p>The grey-haired man had turned into a saloon with his companion.</p> + +<p>"Yes, that's Dawson for you. We're so far from home. The good old +moralities don't apply here. The hoary old Yukon won't tell on us. We've +been a Sunday School Superintendent for ten years. For fifty more we've +passed up the forbidden fruit. Every one else is helping themselves. +Wonder what it tastes like? Wine is flowing like water. Money's the +cheapest thing in sight. Cut loose, drink up. The orchestra's a-goin'. +Get your partners for a nice juicy two-step. Come on, boys!"</p> + +<p>He was particularly bitter, and it really seemed in that general lesion +of the moral fibre that civilisation was only a makeshift, a veneer of +hypocrisy.</p> + +<p>"Why should we marvel," I said, "at man's brutality, when but an æon ago +we all were apes?"</p> + +<p>Just then we met the Jam-wagon. He had mushed in from the creeks that +very day. Physically he looked supreme. He was berry-brown, lean, +muscular and as full of suppressed energy as an unsprung bear-trap. +Financially he was well ballasted. Mentally and morally he was in the +state of a volcano before an eruption.</p> + +<p>You could see in the quick breathing, in the restlessness <a class="pagenum" name="page_195" id="page_195" title="195"></a>of this man, +a pent-up energy that clamoured to exhaust itself in violence and +debauch. His fierce blue eyes were wild and roving, his lips twitched +nervously. He was an atavism; of the race of those white-bodied, +ferocious sea-kings that drank deep and died in the din of battle. He +must live in the white light of excitement, or sink in the gloom of +despair. I could see his fine nostrils quiver like those of a charger +that scents the smoke of battle, and I realised that he should have been +a soldier still, a leader of forlorn hopes, a partner of desperate +hazards.</p> + +<p>As we walked along, Jim did most of the talking in his favourite +morality vein. The Jam-wagon puffed silently at his briar pipe, while I, +very listless and downhearted, thought largely of my own troubles. Then, +in the middle of the block, where most of the music-halls were situated, +suddenly we met Locasto.</p> + +<p>When I saw him my heart gave a painful leap, and I think my face must +have gone as white as paper. I had thought much over this meeting, and +had dreaded it. There are things which no man can overlook, and, if it +meant death to me, I must again try conclusions with the brute.</p> + +<p>He was accompanied by a little bald-headed Jew named Spitzstein, and we +were almost abreast of them when I stepped forward and arrested them. My +teeth were clenched; I was all a-quiver with passion; my heart beat +violently. For a moment I stood there, confronting him in speechless +excitement.</p> + +<p>He was dressed in that miner's costume in which <a class="pagenum" name="page_196" id="page_196" title="196"></a>he always looked so +striking. From his big Stetson to his high boots he was typically the +big, strong man of Alaska, the Conqueror of the Wild. But his mouth was +grim as granite, and his black eyes hard and repellent as those of a +toad.</p> + +<p>"Oh, you coward!" I cried. "You vile, filthy coward!"</p> + +<p>He was looking down on me from his imperious height, very coolly, very +cynically.</p> + +<p>"Who are you?" he drawled; "I don't know you."</p> + +<p>"Liar as well as coward," I panted. "Liar to your teeth. Brute, coward, +liar——"</p> + +<p>"Here, get out of my way," he snarled; "I've got to teach you a lesson."</p> + +<p>Once more before I could guard he landed on me with that terrible +right-arm swing, and down I went as if a sledgehammer had struck me. +But instantly I was on my feet, a thing of blind passion, of desperate +fight. I made one rush to throw myself on this human tower of brawn and +muscle, when some one pinioned me from behind. It was Jim.</p> + +<p>"Easy, boy," he was saying; "you can't fight this big fellow."</p> + +<p>Spitzstein was looking on curiously. With wonderful quickness a crowd +had collected, all avidly eager for a fight. Above them towered the +fierce, domineering figure of Locasto. There was a breathless pause, +then, at the psychological moment, the Jam-wagon intervened.</p> + +<p>The smouldering fire in his eye had brightened into <a class="pagenum" name="page_197" id="page_197" title="197"></a>a fierce joy; his +twitching mouth was now grim and stern as a prison door. For days he had +been fighting a dim intangible foe. Here at last was something human and +definite. He advanced to Locasto.</p> + +<p>"Why don't you strike some one nearer your own size?" he demanded. His +voice was tense, yet ever so quiet.</p> + +<p>Locasto flashed at him a look of surprise, measuring him from head to +foot.</p> + +<p>"You're a brute," went on the Jam-wagon evenly; "a cowardly brute."</p> + +<p>Black Jack's face grew dark and terrible. His eyes glinted sparks of +fire.</p> + +<p>"See here, Englishman," he said, "this isn't your scrap. What are you +butting in about?"</p> + +<p>"It isn't," said the Jam-wagon, and I could see the flame of fight +brighten joyously in him. "It isn't, but I'll soon make it mine. There!"</p> + +<p>Quick as a flash he dealt the other a blow on the cheek, an open-handed +blow that stung like a whiplash.</p> + +<p>"Now, fight me, you coward."</p> + +<p>There and then Locasto seemed about to spring on his challenger. With +hands clenched and teeth bared, he half bent as if for a charge. Then, +suddenly, he straightened up.</p> + +<p>"All right," he said softly; "Spitzstein, can we have the Opera House?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, I guess so. We can clear away the benches."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_198" id="page_198" title="198"></a>"Then tell the crowd to come along; we'll give them a free show."</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>I think there must have been five hundred men around that ring. A big +Australian pugilist was umpire. Some one suggested gloves, but Locasto +would not hear of it.</p> + +<p>"No," he said, "I want to mark the son of a dog so his mother will never +know him again."</p> + +<p>He had become frankly brutal, and prepared for the fray exultantly. Both +men fought in their underclothing.</p> + +<p>Stripped down, the Jam-wagon was seen to be much the smaller man, not +only in height, but in breadth and weight. Yet he was a beautiful figure +of a fighter, clean, well-poised, firm-limbed, with a body that seemed +to taper from the shoulders down. His fair hair glistened; his eyes were +wary and cool, his lips set tightly. In the person of this living +adversary he was fighting an unseen one vastly more dread and terrific.</p> + +<p>Locasto looked almost too massive. His muscles bulged out. The veins in +his forearms were cord-like. His great chest seemed as broad as a door. +His legs were statuesque in their size and strength. In that camp of +strong men probably he was the most powerful.</p> + +<p>And nowhere in the world could a fight have been awaited with greater +zest. These men, miners, gamblers, adventurers of all kinds, pushed and +struggled for a place. A great joy surged through <a class="pagenum" name="page_199" id="page_199" title="199"></a>them at the thought +of the approaching combat. Keen-eyed, hard-breathing, a-thrill with +expectation, the crowd packed closer and closer. Outside, people were +clamouring for admission. They climbed on the stage, and into the boxes. +They hung over the galleries. All told, there must have been a thousand +of them.</p> + +<p>As the two men stood up it was like the lithe Greek athlete compared +with the brawny Roman gladiator. "Three to one on Locasto," some one +shouted. Then a great hush came over the house, so that it might have +been empty and deserted. Time was called. The fight began.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_200" id="page_200" title="200"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER V</h2> +</div> + +<p>With one tiger-rush Locasto threw himself on his man. There was no +preliminary fiddling here; they were out for blood, and the sooner they +wallowed in it the better. Right and left he struck with mighty swings +that would have felled an ox, but the Jam-wagon was too quick for him. +Twice he ducked in time to avoid a furious blow, and, before Locasto +could recover, he had hopped out of reach. The big man's fist swished +through the empty air. He almost overbalanced with the force of his +effort, but he swung round quickly, and there was the Jam-wagon, cool +and watchful, awaiting his next attack.</p> + +<p>Locasto's face grew fiendish in its sinister wrath; he shot forth a foul +imprecation, and once more he hurled himself resistlessly on his foe. +This time I thought my champion must go down, but no! With a dexterity +that seemed marvellous, he dodged, ducked and side-stepped; and once +more Locasto's blows went wide and short. Jeers began to go up from the +throng. "Even money on the little fellow," sang out a voice with the +flat twang of a banjo.</p> + +<p>Locasto glared round on the crowd. He was accustomed to lord it over +these men, and the jeers goaded him like banderilleros goad a bull. +Again and again he repeated his tremendous rushes, only to find his +powerful arms winnowing the empty air, <a class="pagenum" name="page_201" id="page_201" title="201"></a>only to see his agile antagonist +smiling at him in mockery from the centre of the ring. Not one of his +sledgehammer smashes reached their mark, and the round closed without a +blow having landed.</p> + +<p>From the mob of onlookers a chorus of derisive cheers went up. The +little man with the banjo voice was holding up a poke of dust. "Even +money on the little one." A hum of eager conversation broke forth.</p> + +<p>I was at the ring-side. At the beginning I had been in an agony of fear +for the Jam-wagon. Looking at the two men, it seemed as if he could +hardly hope to escape terrible punishment at the hands of one so +massively powerful, and every blow inflicted on him would have been like +one inflicted on myself. But now I took heart and looked forward with +less anxiety.</p> + +<p>Again time was called, and Locasto sprang up, seemingly quite refreshed +by his rest. Once more he plunged after his man, but now I could see his +rushes were more under control, his smashing blows better timed, his +fierce jabs more shrewdly delivered. Again I began to quake for the +Jam-wagon, but he showed a wonderful quickness in his footwork, darting +in and out, his hands swinging at his sides, a smile of mockery on his +lips. He was deft as a dancing-master; he twinkled like a gleam of +light, and amid that savage thresh of blows he was as cool as if he were +boxing in the school gymnasium.</p> + +<p>"Who is he?" those at the ring-side began to whisper. Time and again it +seemed as if he were <a class="pagenum" name="page_202" id="page_202" title="202"></a>cornered, but in a marvellous way he wormed +himself free. I held my breath as he evaded blow after blow, some of +which seemed to miss him by a mere hair's breadth. He was taking +chances, I thought, so narrowly did he permit the blows to miss him. I +was all keyed up, on edge with excitement, eager for my man to strike, +to show he was not a mere ring-tactician. But the Jam-wagon bided his +time.</p> + +<p>And so the round ended, and it was evident that the crowd was of the +same opinion as myself. "Why don't he mix up a little?" said one. "Give +him time," said another. "He's all right: there's some class to that +work."</p> + +<p>Locasto came up for the third round looking sobered, subdued, grimly +determined. Evidently he had made up his mind to force his opponent out +of his evasive tactics. He was wary as a cat. He went cautiously. Yet +again he assumed the aggressive, gradually working the Jam-wagon into a +corner. A collision was inevitable; there was no means of escape for my +friend; that huge bulk, with its swinging, flail-like arms, menaced him +hopelessly.</p> + +<p>Suddenly Locasto closed in. He swooped down on the Jam-wagon. He had +him. He shortened his right arm for a jab like the crash of a +pile-driver. The arm shot out, but once again the Jam-wagon was not +there. He ducked quickly, and Locasto's great fist brushed his hair.</p> + +<p>Then, like lightning, the two came to a clinch. Now, thought I, it's all +off with the Jam-wagon. I saw Locasto's eyes dilate with ferocious joy. +He had <a class="pagenum" name="page_203" id="page_203" title="203"></a>the other in his giant arms; he could crush him in a mighty hug, +the hug of a grizzly, crush him like an egg-shell. But, quick as the +snap of a trap, the Jam-wagon had pinioned his arms at the elbow, so +that he was helpless. For a moment he held him, then, suddenly releasing +his arms, he caught him round the body, shook him with a mighty +side-heave, gave him the cross-buttock, and, before he could strike a +single blow, threw him in the air and dashed him to the ground.</p> + +<p>"Time!" called the umpire. It was all done so quickly it was hard for +the eye to follow, but a mighty cheer went up from the house. "Two to +one on the little fellow," called the banjo-voice. Suddenly Locasto rose +to his feet. He was shamed, angered beyond all expression. Heaving and +panting, he lurched to his corner, and in his eyes there was a look that +boded ill for his adversary.</p> + +<p>Time again. With the lightness of a panther the Jam-wagon sprang into +the centre of the ring. More than halfway he met Locasto, and now his +intention seemed to be to draw his man on rather than to avoid him. I +watched his every movement with a sense of thrilling fascination. He had +resumed his serpentine movements, advancing and retreating with +shadow-like quickness, feinting, side-stepping, pawing the air till he +had his man baffled and bewildered. Yet he never struck a blow.</p> + +<p>All this seemed to be getting on Locasto's nerves. He was going steadily +enough, trying by every means in his power to get the other man to "mix +it up." <a class="pagenum" name="page_204" id="page_204" title="204"></a>He shouted the foulest abuse at him. "Stand up like a man, you +son of a dog, and fight." The smile left the Jam-wagon's lips, and he +settled down to business.</p> + +<p>I saw him edging up to Locasto. He feinted wildly, then, stepping in +closely, he swung a right and left to Black Jack's face. A moment later +he was six feet away, with a bitter smile on his lips.</p> + +<p>With a fierce bellow of rage Locasto, forgetting all his caution, +charged him. He smashed his heavy right with all its might for the +other's face, but, quick as the quiver of a bow-string, the Jam-wagon +side-stepped and the blow missed. Then the Jam-wagon shifted and brought +his left, full-weight, crash on Locasto's mouth.</p> + +<p>At that fierce triumphant blow there was the first dazzling blood-gleam, +and the crowd screeched with excitement. In a wild whirlwind of fury +Locasto hurled himself on the Jam-wagon, his arms going like windmills. +Any one of these blows, delivered in a vital spot, would have meant +death, but his opponent was equal to this blind assault. Dodging, +ducking, side-stepping, blocking, he foiled the other at every turn, +and, just before the round ended, drove his left into the pit of the big +man's stomach, with a thwack that resounded throughout the building.</p> + +<p>Once more time was called. The Jam-wagon was bleeding about the +knuckles. Several of Locasto's teeth had been loosened, and he spat +blood frequently. Otherwise he looked as fit as ever. He <a class="pagenum" name="page_205" id="page_205" title="205"></a>pursued his +man with savage determination, and seemed resolved to get in a deadly +body-blow that would end the fight.</p> + +<p>It was pretty to see the Jam-wagon work. He was sprightly as a ballet +dancer, as, weaving in and out, he dodged the other's blows. His arms +swung at his sides, and he threw his head about in a manner insufferably +mocking and tantalising. Then he took to landing light body-blows, that +grew more frequent till he seemed to be beating a regular tattoo on +Locasto's ribs. He was springy as a panther, elusive as an eel. As for +Locasto, his face was sober now, strained, anxious, and he seemed to be +waiting with menacing eyes to get in that vital smash that meant the +end.</p> + +<p>The Jam-wagon began to put more force into his arms. He drove in a +short-arm left to the stomach, then brought his right up to the other's +chin. Locasto swung a deadly knock-out blow at the Jam-wagon, which just +grazed his jaw, and the Jam-wagon retaliated with two lightning rights +and a nervous left, all on the big man's face.</p> + +<p>Then he sprang back, for he was excited now. In and out he wove. Once +more he landed a hard left on Locasto's heaving stomach, and then, +rushing in, he rained blow after blow on his antagonist. It was a +furious mix-up, a whirling storm of blows, brutal, savage and murderous. +No two men could keep up such a gait. They came into a clinch, but this +time the Jam-wagon broke away, giving the deadly kidney blow as they +parted. When time was called both <a class="pagenum" name="page_206" id="page_206" title="206"></a>men were panting hard, bruised and +covered with blood.</p> + +<p>How the house howled with delight! All the primordial brute in these men +was glowing in their hearts. Nothing but blood could appease it. Their +throats were parched, their eyes wild.</p> + +<p>Round six. Locasto sprang into the centre of the ring. His face was +hideously disfigured. Only in that battered, blood-stained mask could I +recognise the black eyes gleaming deadly hatred. Rushing for the +Jam-wagon, he hurled him across the ring. Again charging, he overbore +him to the floor, but failed to hold him.</p> + +<p>Then in the Jam-wagon there awoke the ancient spirit of the Berserker. +He cared no more for punishment. He was insensible to pain. He was the +sea-pirate again, mad with the lust of battle. Like a fiend he tore +himself loose, and went after his man, rushing him with a swift, +battering hail of blows around the ring. Like a tiger he was, and the +violent lunges of Locasto only infuriated him the more.</p> + +<p>Now they were in a furious mix-up, and suddenly Locasto, seizing him +savagely, tried to whip him smashing to the floor. Then the wonderful +agility of the Englishman was displayed. In a distance of less than a +two-foot drop he turned completely like a cat. Leaping up, he was free, +and, getting a waist-hold with a Cornish heave, he bore Locasto to the +floor. Quickly he changed to a crotch-lock, and, lastly, holding +Locasto's legs, he brought him to a bridge and worked his weight up on +his body.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_207" id="page_207" title="207"></a>Black Jack, with a mighty heave, broke away and again regained his +feet. This seemed to enrage the Jam-wagon the more, for he tore after +his man like a maddened bull. Getting a hold with incredible strength, +he lifted him straight up in the air and hurled him to the ground with +sickening force.</p> + +<p>Locasto lay there. His eyes were closed. He did not move. Several men +rushed forward. "He's all right," said a medical-looking individual; +"just stunned. I guess you can call the fight over."</p> + +<p>The Jam-wagon slowly put on his clothes. Once more, in the person of +Locasto, he had successfully grappled with "Old Man Booze." He was badly +bruised about the body, but not seriously hurt in any way. Shudderingly +I looked down at Locasto's face, beaten to a pulp, his body livid from +head to foot. And then, as they bore him off to the hospital, I realised +I was revenged.</p> + +<p>"Did you know that man Spitzstein was charging a dollar for admission?" +queried the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>"No!"</p> + +<p>"That's right. That darned little Jew netted nearly a thousand dollars."</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_208" id="page_208" title="208"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VI</h2> +</div> + +<p>"Let me introduce you," said the Prodigal, "to my friend the 'Pote.'"</p> + +<p>"Glad to meet you," said the Pote cheerfully, extending a damp hand. +"Just been having a dishwashing bee. Excuse my dishybeel."</p> + +<p>He wore a pale-blue undershirt, white flannel trousers girt round the +waist with a red silk handkerchief, very gaudy moccasins, and a rakish +Panama hat with a band of chocolate and gold.</p> + +<p>"Take a seat, won't you?" Through his gold-rimmed spectacles his eyes +shone benevolently as he indicated an easy-looking chair. I took it. It +promptly collapsed under me.</p> + +<p>"Ah, excuse me," he said; "you're not onto the combination of that +chair. I'll fix it."</p> + +<p>He performed some operation on it which made it less unstable, and I sat +down gingerly.</p> + +<p>I was in a little log-cabin on the hill overlooking the town. Through +the bottle window the light came dimly. The walls showed the bark of +logs and tufts of intersecting moss. In the corner was a bunk over which +lay a bearskin robe, and on the little oblong stove a pot of beans was +simmering.</p> + +<p>The Pote finished his dishwashing and joined us, pulling on an old +Tuxedo jacket.</p> + +<p>"Whew! Glad that job's over. You know, I <a class="pagenum" name="page_209" id="page_209" title="209"></a>guess I'm fastidious, but I +can't bear to use a plate for more than three meals without passing a +wet rag over it. That's the worst of having refined ideas, they make +life so complex. However, I mustn't complain. There's a monastic +simplicity about this joint that endears it to me. And now, having +immolated myself on the altar of cleanliness, I will solace my soul with +a little music."</p> + +<p>He took down a banjo from the wall and, striking a few chords, began to +sing. His songs seemed to be original, even improvisations, and he sang +them with a certain quaintness and point that made them very piquant. I +remember one of the choruses. It went like this:</p> + +<table summary=""><tr><td> +"In the land of pale blue snow<br /> +Where it's ninety-nine below,<br /> +And the polar bears are dancing on the plain,<br /> +In the shadow of the pole,<br /> +Oh, my Heart, my Life, my Soul,<br /> +I will meet thee when the ice-worms nest again."<br /> +</td></tr></table> + +<p>Every now and then he would pause to make some lively comment.</p> + +<p>"You've never heard of the blue snow, Cheechako? The rabbits have blue +fur, and the ptarmigans' feathers are a bright azure. You've never had +an ice-worm cocktail? We must remedy that. Great dope. Nothing like +ice-worm oil for salads. Oh, I forgot, didn't give you my card."</p> + +<p>I took it. It was engraved thus:</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_210" id="page_210" title="210"></a></p> + +<table style="margin: auto; border: black 1px solid; width: 400px; height: 15em;" summary=""><tr><td> +<p style='text-align:center'>OLLIE GABOODLER.<br /> +Poetic Expert.</p> +</td></tr></table> + +<p>Turning it over, I read:</p> + +<table style="margin: auto; border: black 1px solid; width: 400px; height: 15em;" summary=""> +<tr><td> +<p style='text-align:center'>Graduate of the University of Hard Knocks.<br /> +All kinds of verse made to order with efficiency and<br /> +dispatch.<br /> +Satisfaction guaranteed or money returned.<br /> +A trial solicited.<br /> +In Memoriam Odes a specialty.<br /> +Ballads, Rondeaux and Sonnets at modest prices.<br /> +Try our lines of Love Lyrics.<br /> +Leave orders at the Comet Saloon.</p> +</td></tr></table> + +<p>I stared at him curiously. He was smoking a cigarette and watching me +with shrewd, observant eyes. He was a blond, blue-eyed, cherubic youth, +with a whimsical mouth that seemed to alternate between seriousness and +fun.</p> + +<p>He laughed merrily at my look of dismay.</p> + +<p>"Oh, you think it's a josh, but it's not. I've been a 'ghost' ever since +I could push a pen. You know Will Wilderbush, the famous novelist? Well, +Bill <a class="pagenum" name="page_211" id="page_211" title="211"></a>died six years ago from over-assiduous cultivation of John +Barleycorn, and they hushed it up. But every year there's a new novel +comes from his pen. It's 'ghosts.' I was Bill number three. Isn't it +rummy?"</p> + +<p>I expressed my surprise.</p> + +<p>"Yes, it's a great joke this book-faking. Wouldn't Thackeray have +lambasted the best sellers? A fancy picture of a girl on the cover, +something doing all the time, and a happy ending—that's the recipe. Or +else be as voluptuous as velvet. Wait till my novel, 'Three Minutes,' +comes out. Order in advance."</p> + +<p>"Indeed I will," I said.</p> + +<p>He suddenly became grave.</p> + +<p>"If I only could take the literary game seriously I might make good. But +I'm too much of a 'farceur.' Well, one day we'll see. Maybe the North +will inspire me. Maybe I'll yet become the Spokesman of the Frozen +Silence, the Avatar of the Great White Land."</p> + +<p>He strutted up and down, inflating his chest.</p> + +<p>"Have you framed up any dope lately?" asked the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>"Why, yes; only this morning, while I was eating my beans and bacon, I +dashed off a few lines. I always write best when I'm eating. Want to +hear them?"</p> + +<p>He drew from his pocket an old envelope.</p> + +<p>"They were written to the order of Stillwater Willie. He wants to +present them to one of the Labelle Sisters. You know—that fat lymphatic +blonde, <a class="pagenum" name="page_212" id="page_212" title="212"></a>Birdie Labelle. It is short and sweet. He wants to have it +engraved on a gold-backed hand-mirror he's giving her.</p> + +<table summary=""><tr><td> +"I see within my true love's eyes<br /> +The wide blue spaces of the skies;<br /> +I see within my true love's face<br /> +The rose and lily vie in grace;<br /> +I hear within my true love's voice<br /> +The songsters of the Spring rejoice.<br /> +Oh, why need I seek Nature's charms—<br /> +I hold my true love in my arms. +</td></tr></table> + +<p>"How'll that hit her? There's such a lot of natural beauty about +Birdie."</p> + +<p>"Do you get much work?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"No, it's dull. Poetry's rather a drug on the market up here. It's just +a side-line. For a living I clean shoes at the 'Elight' Barbershop—I, +who have lingered on the sunny slopes of Parnassus, and quenched my +soul-thirst at the Heliconian spring—gents' tans a specialty."</p> + +<p>"Did you ever publish a book?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"Sure! Did you never read my 'Rhymes of a Rustler'? One reviewer would +say I was the clear dope, the genuine eighteen-carat, jewelled-movement +article; the next would aver I was the rankest dub that ever came down +the pike. They said I'd imitated people, people I'd never read, people +I'd never heard of, people I never dreamt existed. I was accused of +imitating over twenty different writers. Then the pedants got after me, +said I didn't conform <a class="pagenum" name="page_213" id="page_213" title="213"></a>to academic formulas, advised me to steep myself +in tradition. They talked about form, about classic style and so on. As +if it matters so long as you get down the thing itself so that folks can +see it, and feel it go right home to their hearts. I can write in all +the artificial verse forms, but they're mouldy with age, back numbers. +Forget them. Quit studying that old Greek dope: study life, modern life, +palpitating with colour, crying for expression. Life! Life! The sunshine +of it was in my heart, and I just naturally tried to be its singer."</p> + +<p>"I say," said the Prodigal from the bunk where he was lounging, in a +haze of cigarette smoke, "read us that thing you did the other day, 'The +Last Supper.'"</p> + +<p>The Pote's eyes twinkled with pleasure.</p> + +<p>"All right," he said. Then, in a clear voice, he repeated the following +lines:</p> + +<table summary=""><tr><td> +"THE LAST SUPPER.<br /> +<br /> +Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips,<br /> +And the mouth so mocking gay;<br /> +A wanton you to the finger tips,<br /> +That break men's hearts in play;<br /> +A thing of dust I have striven for,<br /> +Honour and Manhood given for,<br /> +Headlong for ruin driven for—<br /> +And this is the last, you say:<br /> +<br /> +<i>Drinking your wine with dainty sips,<br /> +Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips.</i><br /> +<br /> +Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips,<br /><a class="pagenum" name="page_214" id="page_214" title="214"></a> +Long have you held your sway;<br /> +I have laughed at your merry quips,<br /> +Now is my time to pay.<br /> +What we sow we must reap again;<br /> +When we laugh we must weep again;<br /> +So to-night we will sleep again,<br /> +Nor wake till the Judgment Day.<br /> +<br /> +'<i>Tis a prison wine that your palate sips,<br /> +Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips</i>.<br /> +<br /> +Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips,<br /> +Down on your knees and pray;<br /> +Pray your last ere the moment slips,<br /> +Pray ere the dark and the terror grips,<br /> +And the bright world fades away:<br /> +Pray for the good unguessed of us,<br /> +Pray for the peace and rest of us.<br /> +Here comes the Shape in quest of us,<br /> +Now must we go away—<br /> +<br /> +<i>You and I in the grave's eclipse,<br /> +Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips</i>." +</td></tr></table> + +<p>Just as he finished there came a knock at the door, and a young man +entered. He had the broad smiling face of a comedian, and the bulgy +forehead of a Baptist Missionary. The Pote introduced him to me.</p> + +<p>"The Yukon Yorick."</p> + +<p>"Hello," chuckled the newcomer, "how's the bunch? Don't let me stampede +you. How d'ye do, <a class="pagenum" name="page_215" id="page_215" title="215"></a>Horace! Glad to meet you." (He called everybody +Horace.) "Just come away from a meeting of my creditors. What's that? +Have a slab of booze? Hardly that, old fellow, hardly that. Don't tempt +me, Horace, don't tempt me. Remember I'm only a poor working-girl."</p> + +<p>He seemed brimming over with jovial acceptance of life in all its +phases. He lit a cigar.</p> + +<p>"Say, boys, you know old Dingbats the lawyer. Ha, yes. Well, met him on +Front Street just now. Says I: 'Horace, that was a pretty nifty spiel +you gave us last night at the Zero Club.' He looked at me all tickled up +the spine. Ha, yes. He was pleased as Punch. 'Say, Horace,' I says, 'I'm +on, but I won't give you away. I've got a book in my room with every +word of that speech in it.' He looked flabbergasted. So I have—ha, yes, +the dictionary."</p> + +<p>He rolled his cigar unctuously in his mouth, with many chuckles and a +histrionic eye.</p> + +<p>"No, don't tempt me, Horace. Remember, I'm only a poor working-girl. +Thanks, I'll just sit down on this soap-box. Knew a man once, Jobcroft +was his name, Charles Alfred Jobcroft, sat down on a custard pie at a +pink tea; was so embarrassed he wouldn't get up. Just sat on till every +one else was gone. Every one was wondering why he wouldn't budge: just +sat tight."</p> + +<p>"I guess he <i>cussed hard</i>," ventured the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Horace, spare me that! Remember I'm only a poor working-girl. +Hardly that, old fellow. <a class="pagenum" name="page_216" id="page_216" title="216"></a>Say, hit me with a slab of booze quick. Make +things sparkle, boys, make things sparkle."</p> + +<p>He drank urbanely of the diluted alcohol that passed for whisky.</p> + +<p>"Hit me easy, boys, hit me easy," he said, as they refilled his glass. +"I can't hold my hootch so well as I could a few summers ago—and many +hard Falls. Talking about holding your 'hooch,' the best I ever saw was +a man called Podstreak, Arthur Frederick Podstreak. You couldn't get +that man going. The way he could lap up the booze was a caution. He +would drink one bunch of boys under the table, then leave them and go on +to another. He would start in early in the morning and keep on going +till the last thing at night. And he never got hilarious even; it didn't +seem to phase him; he was as sober after the twentieth drink as when he +started. Gee! but he was a wonder."</p> + +<p>The others nodded their heads appreciatively.</p> + +<p>"He was a fine, healthy-looking chap, too; the booze didn't seem to hurt +him. Never saw such a constitution. I often watched him, for I suspected +him of 'sluffing,' but no! He always had a bigger drink than every one +else, always drank whisky, always drank it neat, and always had a chaser +of water after. I said to myself: 'What's your system?' and I got to +studying him hard. Then, one day, I found him out."</p> + +<p>"What was it?"</p> + +<p>"Well, one day I noticed something. I noticed he always held his glass +in a particular way when he <a class="pagenum" name="page_217" id="page_217" title="217"></a>drank, and at the same time he pressed his +stomach in the region of the 'solar plexus.' So that night I took him +aside.</p> + +<p>"'Look here, Podstreak,' I said, 'I'm next to you.' I really wasn't, but +the bluff worked. He grew white.</p> + +<p>"'For Heaven's sake, don't give me away,' he cried; 'the boys'll lynch +me.'</p> + +<p>"'All right,' I said; 'if you'll promise to quit.'</p> + +<p>"Then he made a full confession, and showed me how he did it. He had an +elastic rubber bag under his shirt, and a tube going up his arm and down +his sleeve, ending in a white nozzle inside his cuff. When he went to +empty his glass of whisky he simply pressed some air out of the rubber +bag, put the nozzle in the glass, and let it suck up all the whisky. At +night he used to empty all the liquor out of the bag and sell it to a +saloon-keeper. Oh, he was a phoney piece of work.</p> + +<p>"'I've been a total abstainer (in private) for seven years,' he told me. +'Yes,' I said, 'and you'll become one in public for another seven.' And +he did."</p> + +<p>Several men had dropped in to swell this Bohemian circle. Some had +brought bottles. There was a painter who had been "hung," a Mus Bac., an +ex-champion amateur pugilist, a silver-tongued orator, a man who had +"suped" for Mansfield, and half a dozen others. The little cabin was +crowded, the air hazy with smoke, the conversation animated. But mostly +it was a monologue by the inimitable Yorick.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_218" id="page_218" title="218"></a>Suddenly the conversation turned to the immorality of the town.</p> + +<p>"Now, I have a theory," said the Pote, "that the regeneration of Dawson +is at hand. You know Good is the daughter of Evil, Virtue the offspring +of Vice. You know how virtuous a man feels after a jag. You've got to +sin to feel really good. Consequently, Sin must be good to be the means +of good, to be the raw material of good, to be virtue in the making, +mustn't it? The dance-halls are a good foil to the gospel-halls. If we +were all virtuous, there would be no virtue in virtue, and if we were +all bad no one would be bad. And because there's so much bad in this old +burg of ours, it makes the good seem unnaturally good."</p> + +<p>The Pote had the floor.</p> + +<p>"A friend of mine had a beautiful pond of water-lilies. They painted the +water exultantly and were a triumphant challenge to the soul. Folks came +from far and near to see them. Then, one winter, my friend thought he +would clean out his pond, so he had all the nasty, slimy mud scraped +away till you could see the silver gravel glimmering on the bottom. But +the lilies, with all their haunting loveliness, never came back."</p> + +<p>"Well, what are you driving at, you old dreamer?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, just this: in the nasty mud and slime of Dawson I saw a lily-girl. +She lives in a cabin by the Slide along with a Jewish couple. I only +caught a glimpse of her twice. They are unspeakable, but <a class="pagenum" name="page_219" id="page_219" title="219"></a>she is fair +and sweet and pure. I would stake my life on her goodness. She looks +like a young Madonna——"</p> + +<p>He was interrupted by a shout of cynical laughter.</p> + +<p>"Oh, get off your foot! A Madonna in Dawson—Ra! Ra!"</p> + +<p>He shut up abashed, but I had my clue. I waited until the last noisy +roisterer had gone.</p> + +<p>"In the cabin by the Slide?" I asked.</p> + +<p>He started, looked at me searchingly: "You know her?"</p> + +<p>"She means a good deal to me."</p> + +<p>"Oh, I understand. Yes, that long, queer cabin highest up the hill."</p> + +<p>"Thanks, old chap."</p> + +<p>"All right, good luck." He accompanied me to the door, staring at the +marvel of the glamorous Northern midnight.</p> + +<p>"Oh, for a medium to express it all! Your pedantic poetry isn't big +enough; prose isn't big enough. What we want is something between the +two, something that will interpret life, and stir the great heart of the +people. Good-night."</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_220" id="page_220" title="220"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VII</h2> +</div> + +<p>Very softly I approached the cabin, for a fear of encountering her +guardians was in my heart. It was in rather a lonely place, perched at +the base of that vast mountain abrasion they call the Slide, a long, low +cabin, quiet and dark, and surrounded by rugged boulders. Carefully I +reconnoitered, and soon, to my infinite joy, I saw the Jewish couple +come forth and make their way townward. The girl was alone.</p> + +<p>How madly beat my heart! It was a glooming kind of a night, and the +cabin looked woefully bleak and solitary. No light came through the +windows, no sound through the moss-chinked walls. I drew near.</p> + +<p>Why this wild commotion of my being? What was it? Anxiety, joy, dread? I +was poised on the pinnacle of hope that overhangs the abyss of despair. +Fearfully I paused. I was racked with suspense, conscious of a longing +so poignant that the thought of disappointment became insufferable pain. +So violent was my emotion that a feeling almost of nausea overcame me.</p> + +<p>I knew now that I cared for this girl more than I had ever thought to +care for woman. I knew that she was dearer to me than all the world +else; I knew that my love for her would live as long as life is long.</p> + +<p>I knocked at the door. No answer.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_221" id="page_221" title="221"></a>"Berna," I cried in a faltering whisper.</p> + +<p>Came the reply: "Who is there?"</p> + +<p>"Love, love, dear; love is waiting."</p> + +<p>Then, at my words, the door was opened, and the girl was before me. I +think she had been lying down, for her soft hair was a little ruffled, +but her eyes were far too bright for sleep. She stood gazing at me, and +a little fluttering hand went up to her heart as if to still its +beating.</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear, I knew you were coming."</p> + +<p>A great radiance of joy seemed to descend on her.</p> + +<p>"You knew?"</p> + +<p>"I knew, yes, I knew. Something told me you were come at last. And I've +waited—how I've waited! I've dreamed, but it's not a dream now, is it, +dear; it's you?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, it's me. I've tried so hard to find you. Oh, my dear, my dear!"</p> + +<p>I seized the sweet, soft hand and covered it with kisses. At that moment +I could have kissed the shadow of that little hand; I could have fallen +before her in speechless adoration; I could have made my heart a +footstool for her feet; I could have given her, O, so gladly, my paltry +life to save her from a moment's sorrow—I loved her so, I loved her so!</p> + +<p>"High and low I've sought you, beloved. Morning, noon and night you've +been in my brain, my heart, my soul. I've loved you every moment of my +life. It's been desire feeding despair, and, O, the agony of it! Thank +God, I've found you, dear! thank God! thank God!"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_222" id="page_222" title="222"></a>O Love, look down on us and choir your harmonies! Transported was I, +speaking with whirling words of sweetest madness, tremulous, uplifted +with rapture, scarce conscious of my wild, impassioned metaphors. It was +she, most precious of all creation; she, my beloved. And there, in the +doorway, she poised, white as a lily, lustrous-eyed, and with hair soft +as sunlit foam. O Divinity of Love, look down on us thy children; fold +us in thy dove-soft wings; illumine us in thy white radiance; touch us +with thy celestial hands. Bless us, Love!</p> + +<p>How vastly alight were the grey eyes! How ineffably tender the sweet +lips! A faint glow had come into her cheeks.</p> + +<p>"O, it's you, really, really you at last," she cried again, and there +was a tremor, the surface ripple of a sob in that clear voice. She +fetched a deep sigh: "And I thought I'd lost you forever. Wait a moment. +I'll come out."</p> + +<p>Endlessly long the moment seemed, yet wondrously irradiate. The shadow +had lifted from the world; the skies were alight with gladness; my heart +was heaven-aspiring in its ecstasy. Then, at last, she came.</p> + +<p>She had thrown a shawl around her shoulders, and coaxed her hair into +charming waves and ripples.</p> + +<p>"Come, let us go up the trail a little distance. They won't be back for +nearly an hour."</p> + +<p>She led the way along that narrow path, looking over her shoulder with a +glorious smile, sometimes extending <a class="pagenum" name="page_223" id="page_223" title="223"></a>her hand back to me as one would +with a child.</p> + +<p>Along the brow of the bluff the way wound dizzily, while far below the +river swept in a giant eddy. For a long time we spoke no word. 'Twas as +if our hearts were too full for utterance, our happiness too vast for +expression. Yet, O, the sweetness of that silence! The darkling gloom +had silvered into lustrous light, the birds were beginning again their +mad midnight melodies. Then, suddenly turning a bend in the narrow +trail, a blaze of glory leapt upon our sight.</p> + +<p>"Look, Berna," I cried.</p> + +<p>The swelling river was a lake of saffron fire; the hills a throne of +rosy garnet; the sky a dazzling panoply of rubies, girdled with flames +of gold. We almost cringed, so gorgeous was its glow, so fierce its +splendour.</p> + +<p>Then, when we had seated ourselves on the hillside, facing the +conflagration, she turned to me.</p> + +<p>"And so you found me, dear. I knew you would, somehow. In my heart I +knew you would not fail me. So I waited and waited. The time seemed +pitilessly long. I only thought of you once, and that was always. It was +cruel we left so suddenly, not even time to say good-bye. I can't tell +you how bad I felt about it, but I could not help myself. They dragged +me away. They began to be afraid of you, and he bade them leave at once. +So in the early morning we started."</p> + +<p>"I see, I see." I looked into the pools of her <a class="pagenum" name="page_224" id="page_224" title="224"></a>eyes; I sheathed her +white hands in my brown ones, thrilling greatly at the contact of them.</p> + +<p>"Tell me about it, child. Has he bothered you?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, not so much. He thinks he has me safe enough, trapped, awaiting his +pleasure. But he's taken up with some woman of the town just now. +By-and-bye he'll turn his attention to me."</p> + +<p>"Terrible! Terrible! Berna, you wring my heart. How can you talk of such +things in that matter-of-fact way—it maddens me."</p> + +<p>An odd, hard look ridged the corners of her mouth.</p> + +<p>"I don't know. Sometimes I'm surprised at myself how philosophical I'm +getting."</p> + +<p>"But, Berna, surely nothing in this world would ever make you yield? O, +it's horrible! horrible!"</p> + +<p>She leaned to me tenderly. She put my arms around her neck; she looked +at me till I saw my face mirrored in her eyes.</p> + +<p>"Nothing in the world, dear, so long as I have you to love me and help +me. If ever you fail me, well, then it wouldn't matter much what became +of me."</p> + +<p>"Even then," I said, "it would be too awful for words. I would rather +drag your body from that river than see you yield to him. He's a +monster. His very touch is profanation. He could not look on a woman +without cynical lust in his heart."</p> + +<p>"I know, my boy, I know. Believe me and trust me. I would rather throw +myself from the bluff here than let him put a hand on me. And so long as +<a class="pagenum" name="page_225" id="page_225" title="225"></a>I have your love, dear, I'm safe enough. Don't fear. O, it's been +terrible not seeing you! I've craved for you ceaselessly. I've never +been out since we came here. They wouldn't let me. They kept in +themselves. He bade them. He has them both under his thumb. But now, for +some reason, he has relaxed. They're going to open a restaurant +downtown, and I'm to wait on table."</p> + +<p>"No, you're not!" I cried, "not if I have anything to say in the matter. +Berna, I can't bear to think of you in that garbage-heap of corruption +down there. You must marry me—now."</p> + +<p>"Now," she echoed, her eyes wide with surprise.</p> + +<p>"Yes, right away, dear. There's nothing to prevent us. Berna, I love +you, I want you, I need you. I'm just distracted, dear. I never know a +moment's peace. I cannot take an interest in anything. When I speak to +others I'm thinking of you, you all the time. O, I can't bear it, +dearest; have pity on me: marry me now."</p> + +<p>In an agony of suspense I waited for her answer. For a long time she sat +there, thoughtful and quiet, her eyes cast down. At last she raised them +to me.</p> + +<p>"You said one year."</p> + +<p>"Yes, but I was sorry afterwards. I want you now. I can't wait."</p> + +<p>She looked at me gravely. Her voice was very soft, very tender.</p> + +<p>"I think it better we should wait, dear. This is a blind, sudden desire +on your part. I mustn't take advantage <a class="pagenum" name="page_226" id="page_226" title="226"></a>of it. You pity me, fear for me, +and you have known so few other girls. It's generosity, chivalry, not +love for poor little me. O, we mustn't, we mustn't. And then—you might +change."</p> + +<p>"Change! I'll never, never change," I pleaded. "I'll always be yours, +absolutely, wholly yours, little girl; body and soul, to make or to mar, +for ever and ever and ever."</p> + +<p>"Well, it seems so sudden, so burning, so intense, your love, dear. I'm +afraid, I'm afraid. Maybe it's not the kind that lasts. Maybe you'll +tire. I'm not worth it, indeed I'm not. I'm only a poor ignorant girl. +If there were others near, you would never think of me."</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said, "if you were among a thousand, and they were the most +adorable in all the world, I would pass over them all and turn with joy +and gratitude to you. Then, if I were an Emperor on a throne, and you +the humblest in all that throng, I would raise you up beside me and call +you 'Queen.'"</p> + +<p>"Ah, no," she said sadly, "you were wise once. I saw it afterwards. +Better wait one year."</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dearest," I reproached her, "once you offered yourself to me +under any conditions. Why have you changed?"</p> + +<p>"I don't know. I'm bitterly ashamed of that. Never speak of it again."</p> + +<p>She went on very quietly, full of gentle patience.</p> + +<p>"You know, I've been thinking a great deal since then. In the long, long +days and longer nights, when <a class="pagenum" name="page_227" id="page_227" title="227"></a>I waited here in misery, hoping always you +would come to me, I had time to reflect, to weight your words. I +remember them all: 'love that means life and death, that great dazzling +light, that passion that would raise to heaven or drag to hell.' You +have awakened the woman in me; I must have a love like that."</p> + +<p>"You have, my precious; you have, indeed."</p> + +<p>"Well, then, let me have time to test it. This is June. Next June, if +you have not made up your mind you were foolish, blind, hasty, I will +give myself to you with all the love in the world."</p> + +<p>"Perhaps <i>you</i> will change."</p> + +<p>She smiled a peculiar little smile.</p> + +<p>"Never, never fear that. I will be waiting for you, longing for you, +loving you more and more every day."</p> + +<p>I was bitterly cast down, crestfallen, numbed with the blow of her +refusal.</p> + +<p>"Just now," she said, "I would only be a drag on you. I believe in you. +I have faith in you. I want to see you go out and mix in the battle of +life. I know you will win. For my sake, dear, win. I would handicap you +just now. There are all kinds of chances. Let us wait, boy, just a +year."</p> + +<p>I saw the pathetic wisdom of her words.</p> + +<p>"I know you fear something will happen to me. No! I think I will be +quite safe. I can withstand him. After a while he will leave me alone. +And if it should come to the worst I can call on you. You mustn't go too +far away. I will die rather than let <a class="pagenum" name="page_228" id="page_228" title="228"></a>him lay a hand on me. Till next +June, dear, not a day longer. We will both be the better for the wait."</p> + +<p>I bowed my head. "Very well," I said huskily; "and what will I do in the +meantime?"</p> + +<p>"Do! Do what you would have done otherwise. Do not let a woman divert +the current of your life; let her swim with it. Go out on the creeks! +Work! It will be better for you to go away. It will make it easier for +me. Here we will both torture each other. I, too, will work and live +quietly, and long for you. The time will pass quickly. You will come and +see me sometimes?"</p> + +<p>"Yes," I answered. My voice choked with emotion.</p> + +<p>"Now we must go home," she said; "I'm afraid they will be back."</p> + +<p>She rose, and I followed her down the narrow trail. Once or twice she +turned and gave me a bright, tender look. I worshipped her more than +ever. Was there ever maid more sweet, more gentle, more quick with +anxious love? "Bless her, O bless her," I sighed. "Whatever comes, may +she be happy." I adored her, but a great sadness filled my heart, and +never a word I spoke.</p> + +<p>We reached the cabin, and on the threshold she paused. The others had +not yet returned. She held out both hands to me, and her eyes were +glittering with tears.</p> + +<p>"Be brave, my dearest; it's all for my sake—if you love me."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_229" id="page_229" title="229"></a>"I love you, my darling; anything for your sake. I'll go to-morrow."</p> + +<p>"We're betrothed now, aren't we, dearest?"</p> + +<p>"We're betrothed, my love."</p> + +<p>She swayed to me and seemed to fit into my arms as a sword fits into its +sheath. My lips lay on hers, and I kissed her with a passionate joy. She +took my face between her hands and gazed at me long and earnestly.</p> + +<p>"I love you, I love you," she murmured; "next June, my darling, next +June."</p> + +<p>Then she gently slipped away from me, and I was gazing blankly at the +closed door.</p> + +<p>"Next June," I heard a voice echo; and there, looking at me with a +smile, was Locasto.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_230" id="page_230" title="230"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VIII</h2> +</div> + +<p>It comes like a violent jar to be awakened so rudely from a trance of +love, to turn suddenly from the one you care for most in all the world, +and behold the one you have best reason to hate. Nevertheless, it is not +in human nature to descend rocket-wise from the ethereal heights of +love. I was still in an exalted state of mind when I turned and +confronted Locasto. Hate was far from my heart, and when I saw the man +himself was regarding me with no particular unfriendliness, I was +disposed to put aside for the moment all feelings of enmity. The +generosity of the victor glowed within me.</p> + +<p>As he advanced to me his manner was almost urbane in its geniality.</p> + +<p>"You must forgive me," he said, not without dignity, "for overhearing +you; but by chance I was passing and dropped upon you before I realised +it."</p> + +<p>He extended his hand frankly.</p> + +<p>"I trust my congratulations on your good luck will not be entirely +obnoxious. I know that my conduct in this affair cannot have impressed +you in a very favourable light; but I am a badly beaten man. Can't you +be generous and let by-gones be by-gones? Won't you?"</p> + +<p>I had not yet come down to earth. I was still <a class="pagenum" name="page_231" id="page_231" title="231"></a>soaring in the rarefied +heights of love, and inclined to a general amnesty towards my enemies.</p> + +<p>As he stood there, quiet and compelling, there was an assumption of +frankness and honesty about this man that it was hard to withstand. For +the nonce I was persuaded of his sincerity, and weakly I surrendered my +hand. His grip made me wince.</p> + +<p>"Yes, again I congratulate you. I know and admire her. They don't make +them any better. She's pure gold. She's a little queen, and the man she +cares for ought to be proud and happy. Now, I'm a man of the world, I'm +cynical about woman as a rule. I respect my mother and my +sisters—beyond that——" He shrugged his shoulders expressively.</p> + +<p>"But this girl's different. I always felt in her presence as I used to +feel twenty-five years ago when I was a youth, with all my ideals +untarnished, my heart pure, and woman holy in my sight."</p> + +<p>He sighed.</p> + +<p>"You know, young man, I've never told it to a soul before, but I'd give +all I'm worth—a clear million—to have those days back. I've never been +happy since."</p> + +<p>He drew away quickly from the verge of sentiment.</p> + +<p>"Well, you mustn't mind me taking an interest in your sweetheart. I'm +old enough to be her father, you know, and she touches me strangely. +Now, don't distrust me. I want to be a friend to you both. I want to +help you to be happy. Jack Locasto's not such a bad lot, as you'll find +when you know him. Is <a class="pagenum" name="page_232" id="page_232" title="232"></a>there anything I can do for you? What are you +going to do in this country?"</p> + +<p>"I don't quite know yet," I said. "I hope to stake a good claim when the +chance comes. Meantime I'm going to get work on the creeks."</p> + +<p>"You are?" he said thoughtfully; "do you know any one?"</p> + +<p>"No."</p> + +<p>"Well, I'll tell you what: I've got laymen working on my Eldorado claim; +I'll give you a note to them if you like."</p> + +<p>I thanked him.</p> + +<p>"Oh, that's all right," he said. "I'm sorry I played such a mean part in +the past, and I'll do anything in my power to straighten things out. +Believe me, I mean it. Your English friend gave me the worst drubbing of +my life, but three days after I went round and shook hands with him. +Fine fellow that. We opened a case of wine to celebrate the victory. Oh, +we're good friends now. I always own up when I'm beaten, and I never +bear ill-will. If I can help you in any way, and hasten your marriage to +that little girl there, well, you can just bank on Jack Locasto: that's +all."</p> + +<p>I must say the man could be most conciliating when he chose. There was a +gravity in his manner, a suave courtesy in his tone, the heritage of his +Spanish forefathers, that convinced me almost in spite of my better +judgment. No doubt he was magnetic, dominating, a master of men. I +thought: there are two Locastos, the primordial one, the Indian, who had +assaulted <a class="pagenum" name="page_233" id="page_233" title="233"></a>me; and the dignified genial one, the Spaniard, who was +willing to own defeat and make amends. Why should I not take him as I +found him?</p> + +<p>So, as he talked entertainingly to me, my fears were dissipated, my +suspicions lulled. And when we parted we shook hands cordially.</p> + +<p>"Don't forget," he said; "if you want help bank on me. I mean it now, I +mean it."</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>'Twas early in the bright and cool of the morning when we started for +Eldorado, Jim and I. I had a letter from Locasto to Ribwood and Hoofman, +the laymen, and I showed it to Jim. He frowned.</p> + +<p>"You don't mean to say you've palled up with that devil," he said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, he's not so bad," I expostulated. "He came to me like a man and +offered me his hand in friendship. Said he was ashamed of himself. What +could I do? I've no reason to doubt his sincerity."</p> + +<p>"Sincerity be danged. He's about as sincere as a tame rattlesnake. Put +his letter in the creek."</p> + +<p>But no! I refused to listen to the old man.</p> + +<p>"Well, go your own gait," he said; "but don't say that I didn't warn +you."</p> + +<p>We had crossed over the Klondike to its left limit, and were on a +hillside trail beaten down by the feet of miners and packers. Cabins +clustered on the flat, and from them plumes of violet smoke mounted into +the golden air. Already the camp was astir. Men were chopping their +wood, carrying their water. The long, long day was beginning.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_234" id="page_234" title="234"></a>Following the trail, we struck up Bonanza, a small muddy stream in a +narrow valley. Down in the creek-bed we could see ever-increasing signs +of an intense mining activity. On every claim were dozens of cabins, and +many high cones of greyish muck. We saw men standing on raised platforms +turning windlasses. We saw buckets come up filled with the same dark +grey dirt, to be dumped over the edge of the platform. Sometimes, where +the dump had gradually arisen around man and windlass, the platform in +the centre of that dark-greyish cone was twenty feet high.</p> + +<p>Every mile the dumps grew more numerous, till some claims seemed covered +with them. Looking down from the trail, they were like innumerable +anthills blocking up the narrow channel, and around them swarmed the +little ant-men in never-resting activity. The golden valley opened out +to us in a vista of green curves, and the cleft of it was packed with +tents, cabins, dumps and tailing piles, all bedded in a blue haze of +wood fires.</p> + +<p>"Look at that great centipede striding across the valley," I said.</p> + +<p>"Yes," said Jim, "it's a long line of sluice-boxes. See the water +a-shinin' in the sun. Looks like some big golden-backed caterpillar."</p> + +<p>The little ants were shovelling into it from one of their heaps, and +from that point it swirled on into the stream, a current of mud and +stone.</p> + +<p>"Seems to me that stream would wash away all the gold," I said. "I know +it's all caught in the riffles, but I think if that dump was mine I +would want sluice-boxes <a class="pagenum" name="page_235" id="page_235" title="235"></a>a mile long and about sixteen hundred riffles. +But I guess they know what they are doing."</p> + +<p>About noon we descended into the creek-bed and came to the Forks. It was +a little town, a Dawson in miniature, with all its sordid aspects +infinitely accentuated. It had dance-halls, gambling dens and many +saloons: every convenience to ease the miner of the plethoric poke. +There in the din and daze and dirt we tarried awhile; then, after eating +heartily, we struck up Eldorado.</p> + +<p>Here was the same feverish activity of gold-getting. Every claim was +valued at millions, and men who had rarely owned enough to buy a decent +coat were crying in the saloons because life was not long enough to +allow them to spend their sudden wealth. Nevertheless, they were making +a good stab at it. At the Forks I enquired regarding Ribwood and +Hoofman: "Goin' to work for them, are you? Well, they've got a blamed +hard name. If you get a job elsewhere, don't turn it down."</p> + +<p>Jim left me; he would work on no claim of Locasto's, he said. He had a +friend, a layman, who was a good man, belonged to the Army. He would try +him. So we parted.</p> + +<p>Ribwood was a tall, gaunt Cornishman, with a narrow, jutting face and a +gloomy air; Hoofman, a burly, beet-coloured Australian with a bulging +stomach.</p> + +<p>"Yes, we'll put you to work," said Hoofman, reading the letter. "Get +your coat off and shovel in."</p> + +<p>So, right away, I found myself in the dump-pile, jamming a shovel into +the pay-dirt and swinging it <a class="pagenum" name="page_236" id="page_236" title="236"></a>into a sluice-box five feet higher than my +head. Keeping at this hour after hour was no fun, and if ever a man +desisted for a moment the hard eyes of Hoofman were upon him, and the +gloomy Ribwood had snatched up a shovel and was throwing in the muck +furiously.</p> + +<p>"Come on, boys," he would shout; "make the dirt fly. 'Taint every part +of the world you fellers can make your ten bucks a day."</p> + +<p>And it can be said that never labourer proved himself more worthy of his +hire than the pick-and-shovel man of those early days. Few could stand +it long without resting. They were lean as wolves those men of the dump +and drift, and their faces were gouged and grooved with relentless toil.</p> + +<p>Well, for three days I made the dirt fly; but towards quitting time, I +must say, its flight was a very uncertain one. Again I suffered all the +tortures of becoming toil-broken, the old aches and pains of the tunnel +and the gravel-pit. Towards evening every shovelful of dirt seemed to +weigh as much as if it was solid gold; indeed, the stuff seemed to get +richer and richer as the day advanced, and during the last half-hour I +judged it must be nearly all nuggets. The constant hoisting into the +overhead sluice-box somehow worked muscles that had never gone into +action before, and I ached elaborately.</p> + +<p>In the morning the pains were fiercest. How I groaned until the muscles +became limber. I found myself using very rough language, groaning, +gritting my teeth viciously. But I stayed with the work and <a class="pagenum" name="page_237" id="page_237" title="237"></a>held up my +end, while the laymen watched us sedulously, and seemed to grudge us +even a moment to wipe the sweat out of our blinded eyes.</p> + +<p>I was glad, indeed, when, on the evening of the third day, Ribwood came +to me and said:</p> + +<p>"I guess you'd better work up at the shaft to-morrow. We want a man to +wheel muck."</p> + +<p>They had a shaft sunk on the hillside. They were down some forty feet +and were drifting in, wheeling the pay-dirt down a series of planks +placed on trestles to the dump. I gripped the handles of a wheelbarrow +loaded to overspilling, and steered it down that long, unsteady gangway +full of uneven joins and sudden angles. Time and again I ran off the +track, but after the first day I became quite an expert at the business. +My spirits rose. I was on the way of becoming a miner.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_238" id="page_238" title="238"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER IX</h2> +</div> + +<p>Turning the windlass over the shaft was a little, tough mud-rat, who +excited in me the liveliest sense of aversion. Pat Doogan was his name, +but I will call him the "Worm."</p> + +<p>The Worm was the foulest-mouthed specimen I have yet met. He had the +lowest forehead I have ever seen in a white man, and such a sharp, +ferrety little face. His reddish hair had the prison clip, and his +little reddish eyes were alive with craft and cruelty. I noticed he +always regarded me with a peculiarly evil grin, that wrinkled up his +cheeks and revealed his hideously blackened teeth. From the first he +gave me a creepy feeling, a disgust as if I were near some slimy +reptile.</p> + +<p>Yet the Worm tried to make up to me. He would tell me stories blended of +the horrible and the grotesque. One in particular I remember.</p> + +<p>"Youse wanta know how I lost me last job. I'll tell youse. You see, it +was like dis. Dere was two Blackmoor guys dat got into de country dis +Spring; came by St. Michaels; Hindoos dey was. One of dem 'Sicks' (an' +dey looked sick, dey was so loose an' weary in der style) got a job from +old man Gustafson down de shaft muckin' up and fillin' de buckets.</p> + +<p>"Well, dere was dat Blackmoor down in de deep <a class="pagenum" name="page_239" id="page_239" title="239"></a>hole one day when I comes +along, an' strikes old Gus for a job. So, seein' as de man on de +windlass wanted to quit, he passed it up to me, an' I took right hold +an' started in.</p> + +<p>"Say, I was feelin' powerful mean. I'd just finished up a two weeks' +drunk, an' you tink de booze wasn't workin' in me some. I was seein' all +kinds of funny t'ings. Why, as I was a-turnin' away at dat ol' windlass +dere was red spiders crawlin' up me legs. But I was wise. I wouldn't +look at dem, give dem de go-by. Den a yeller rat got gay wid me an' did +some stunts on me windlass. But still I wouldn't let on. Den dere was +some green snakes dat wriggled over de platform like shiny streaks on de +water. Sure, I didn't like dat one bit, but I says, 'Dere ain't no +snakes in de darned country, Pat, and you knows it. It's just a touch of +de horrors, dat's all. Just pass 'em up, boy; don't take no notice of +dem.'</p> + +<p>"Well, dis went on till I begins to get all shaky an' jumpy, an' I was +mighty glad when de time came to quit, an' de boys down below gives me +de holler to pull dem up.</p> + +<p>"So I started hoistin' wid dose snakes an' spiders an' rats jus' +cavortin' round me like mad, when all to once who should I hoist outa de +bowels of de earth but de very devil himself.</p> + +<p>"His face was black. I could see de whites of his eyes, an' he had a big +dirty towel tied round his head. Well, say, it was de limit. At de sight +of dat ferocious monster comin' after old Pat I gives one yell, <a class="pagenum" name="page_240" id="page_240" title="240"></a>drops +de crank-handle of de windlass, an' makes a flyin' leap down de dump. I +hears an awful shriek, an' de bucket an' de devil goes down smash to de +bottom of de shaft, t'irty-five feet. But I kep' on runnin'. I was so +scared.</p> + +<p>"Well, how was I to know dey had a Blackmoor down dere? He was a stiff +when dey got him up, but how was I to know? So I lost me job."</p> + +<p>On another occasion he told me:</p> + +<p>"Say, kid, youse didn't know as I was liable to fits, did youse? Dat's +so; eppylepsy de doctor tells me. Dat's what I am scared of. You see, +it's like dis: if one of dem fits should hit me when I'm hoistin' de +boys outer de shaft, den it would be a pity. I would sure lose me job +like de oder time."</p> + +<p>He was the most degraded type of man I had yet met on my travels, a +typical degenerate, dirty, drunken, diseased. He had three suits of +underclothing, which he never washed. He would wear through all three in +succession, and when the last got too dirty for words he would throw it +under his trunk and sorrowfully go back to the first, keeping up this +rotation, till all were worn out.</p> + +<p>One day Hoofman told me he wanted me to go down the shaft and work in +the drift. Accordingly, next morning I and a huge Slav, by name Dooley +Rileyvich, were lowered down into the darkness.</p> + +<p>The Slav initiated me. Every foot of dirt had to be thawed out by means +of wood fires. We built a fire at the far end of the drift every night, +covering the face we were working. First we would lay <a class="pagenum" name="page_241" id="page_241" title="241"></a>kindling, then +dry spruce lying lengthways, then a bank of green wood standing on end +to keep in the heat and shed the dirt that sloughed down from the roof. +In the morning our fire would be burned out, and enough pay-dirt thawed +to keep us picking all day.</p> + +<p>Down there I found it the hardest work of all. We had to be careful that +the smoke had cleared from the drift before we ventured in, for +frequently miners were asphyxiated. Indeed, the bad air never went +entirely away. It made my eyes sore, my head ache. Yet, curiously +enough, so long as you were below it did not affect you so much. It was +when you stepped out of the bucket and struck the pure outer air that +you reeled and became dizzy. It was blinding, too. Often at supper have +my eyes been so blurred and sore I had to grope around uncertainly for +the sugar bowl and the tin of cream.</p> + +<p>In the drift it was always cool. The dirt kept sloughing down on us, and +we had really gone in too far for our own safety, but the laymen cared +little for that. At the end of the drift the roof was so low we were +bent almost double, picking at the face in all kinds of cramped +positions, and dragging after us the heavy bucket. To the big Slav it +was all in the day's work, but to me it was hard, hard.</p> + +<p>The shaft was almost forty feet deep. For the first ten feet a ladder +ran down it, then stopped suddenly as if the excavators had decided to +abandon it. I often looked at this useless bit of ladder and wondered +why it had been left unfinished.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_242" id="page_242" title="242"></a>Every morning the Worm hoisted us down into the darkness, and at night +drew us up. Once he said to me:</p> + +<p>"Say, wouldn't it be de tough luck if I was to take a fit when I was +hoistin' youse up? Such a nice bit of a boy, too, an' I guess I'd lose +my job over de head of it."</p> + +<p>I said: "Cut that out, or you'll have me so scared I won't go down."</p> + +<p>He grinned unpleasantly and said nothing more. Yet somehow he was +getting on my nerves terribly.</p> + +<p>It was one evening we had banked our fires and were ready to be hoisted +up. Dooley Rileyvich went first, and I watched him blot out the bit of +blue for a while. Then, slowly, down came the bucket for me.</p> + +<p>I got in. I was feeling uneasy all of a sudden, and devoutly wished I +were anywhere else but in that hideous hole. I felt myself leave the +ground and rise steadily. The walls of the shaft glided past me. Up, up +I went. The bit of blue sky grew bigger, bigger. There was a star +shining there. I watched it. I heard the creak, creak of the windlass +crank. Somehow it seemed to have a sinister sound. It seemed to say: +"Have a care, have a care, have a care." I was now ten feet from the +top. The bucket was rocking a little, so I put out my hand and grasped +the lowest rung of the ladder to steady myself.</p> + +<p>Then, at that instant, it seemed the weight of the bucket pressing up +against my feet was suddenly removed, and my arm was nigh jerked out of +its socket. <a class="pagenum" name="page_243" id="page_243" title="243"></a>There I was hanging desperately on the lowest rung of the +ladder, while, with a crash that made my heart sick, the bucket dashed +to the bottom. At last, I realised, the Worm had had his fit.</p> + +<p>Quickly I gripped with both hands. With a great effort I raised myself +rung by rung on the ladder. I was panic-stricken, faint with fear; but +some instinct had made me hold on desperately. Dizzily I hung all +a-shudder, half-sobbing. A minute seemed like a year.</p> + +<p>Ah! there was the face of Dooley looking down on me. He saw me clinging +there. He was anxiously shouting to me to come up. Mastering an +overpowering nausea I raised myself. At last I felt his strong arm +around me, and here I swear it on a stack of Bibles that brutish Slav +seemed to me like one of God's own angels.</p> + +<p>I was on firm ground once more. The Worm was lying stiff and rigid. +Without a word the stalwart Slav took him on his brawny shoulder. The +creek was downhill but fifty yards. Ere we reached it the Worm had +begun to show signs of reviving consciousness. When we got to the edge +of the icy water he was beginning to groan and open his eyes in a dazed +way.</p> + +<p>"Leave me alone," he says to Rileyvich; "you Slavonian swine, lemme go."</p> + +<p>Not so the Slav. Holding the wriggling, writhing little man in his +powerful arms he plunged him heels over head in the muddy current of the +creek.</p> + +<p>"I guess I cure dose fits anyway," he said grimly.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_244" id="page_244" title="244"></a>Struggling, spluttering, blaspheming, the little man freed himself at +last and staggered ashore. He cursed Rileyvich most comprehensively. He +had not yet seen me, and I heard him wailing:</p> + +<p>"Sure de boy's a stiff. Just me luck; I've lost me job."</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_245" id="page_245" title="245"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER X</h2> +</div> + +<p>"You'd better quit," said the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>It was the evening of my mishap, and he had arrived unexpectedly from +town.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I mean to," I answered. "I wouldn't go down there again for a +farm. I feel as weak as a sick baby. I couldn't stay another day."</p> + +<p>"Well, that goes," said he. "It just fits in with my plans. I'm getting +Jim to come in, too. I've realised on that stuff I bought, made over +three thousand clear profit, and with it I've made a dicker for a +property on the bench above Bonanza, Gold Hill they call it. I've a +notion it's all right. Anyway, we'll tunnel in and see. You and Jim will +have a quarter share each for your work, while I'll have an extra +quarter for the capital I've put in. Is it a go?"</p> + +<p>I said it was.</p> + +<p>"Thought it would be. I've had the papers made out; you can sign right +now."</p> + +<p>So I signed, and next day found us all three surveying our claim. We put +up a tent, but the first thing to do was to build a cabin. Right away we +began to level off the ground. The work was pleasant, and conducted in +such friendship that the time passed most happily. Indeed, my only worry +was about Berna. She had never ceased to be at the forefront of my mind. +I schooled myself into the belief <a class="pagenum" name="page_246" id="page_246" title="246"></a>that she was all right, but, thank +God, every moment was bringing her nearer to me.</p> + +<p>One morning, when we were out in the woods cutting timber for the cabin, +I said to Jim:</p> + +<p>"Did you ever hear anything more about that man Mosely?"</p> + +<p>He stopped chopping, and lowered the axe he had poised aloft.</p> + +<p>"No, boy; I've had no mail at all. Wait awhile."</p> + +<p>He swung his axe with viciously forceful strokes. His cheery face had +become so downcast that I bitterly blamed myself for my want of tact. +However, the cloud soon passed.</p> + +<p>About two days after that the Prodigal said to me:</p> + +<p>"I saw your little guttersnipe friend to-day."</p> + +<p>"Indeed, where?" I asked; for I had often thought of the Worm, thought +of him with fear and loathing.</p> + +<p>"Well, sir, he was just getting the grandest dressing-down I ever saw a +man get. And do you know who was handing it to him—Locasto, no less."</p> + +<p>He lit a cigarette and inhaled the smoke.</p> + +<p>"I was just coming along the trail from the Forks when I suddenly heard +voices in the bush. The big man was saying:</p> + +<p>"'Lookee here, Pat, you know if I just liked to say half a dozen words I +could land you in the penitentiary for the rest of your days.'</p> + +<p>"Then the little man's wheedling voice:</p> + +<p>"'Well, I did me best, Jack. I know I bungled the job, but youse don't +want to cast dem t'ings up <a class="pagenum" name="page_247" id="page_247" title="247"></a>to me. Dere's more dan me orter be in de +pen. Dere's no good in de pot callin' de kettle black, is dere?'</p> + +<p>"Then Black Jack flew off the handle. You know he's got a system of +manhandling that's near the record in these parts. Well, he just landed +on the little man. He got him down and started to lambast the Judas out +of him. He gave him the 'leather,' and then some. I guess he'd have done +him to a finish hadn't I been Johnnie on the spot. At sight of me he +gives a curse, jumps on his horse and goes off at a canter. Well, I +propped the little man against a tree, and then some fellows came along, +and we got him some brandy. But he was badly done up. He kept saying: +'Oh, de devil, de big devil, sure I'll give him his before I get +t'rough.' Funny, wasn't it?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, it's strange;" and for some time I pondered over the remarkable +strangeness of it.</p> + +<p>"That reminds me," said Jim; "has any one seen the Jam-wagon?"</p> + +<p>"Oh yes," answered the Prodigal; "poor beggar! he's down and out. After +the fight he went to pieces, every one treating him, and so on. You +remember Bullhammer?"</p> + +<p>"Yes."</p> + +<p>"Well, the last I saw of the Jam-wagon—he was cleaning cuspidors in +Bullhammer's saloon."</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>We had hauled the logs for the cabin, and the foundation was laid. Now +we were building up the <a class="pagenum" name="page_248" id="page_248" title="248"></a>walls, placing between every log a thick +wadding of moss. Every day saw our future home nearer completion.</p> + +<p>One evening I spied the saturnine Ribwood climbing the hill to our tent. +He hailed me:</p> + +<p>"Say, you're just the man I want."</p> + +<p>"What for?" I asked; "not to go down that shaft again?"</p> + +<p>"No. Say! we want a night watchman up at the claim to go on four hours a +night at a dollar an hour. You see, there's been a lot of sluice-box +robberies lately, and we're scared for our clean-up. We're running two +ten-hour shifts now and cleaning up every three days; but there's four +hours every night the place is deserted, and Hoofman proposed we should +get you to keep watch."</p> + +<p>"Yes," I said; "I'll run up every evening if the others don't object."</p> + +<p>They did not; so the next night, and for about a dozen after that, I +spent the darkest hours watching on the claim where previously I had +worked.</p> + +<p>There was never any real darkness down there in that narrow valley, but +there was dusk of a kind that made everything grey and uncertain. It was +a vague, nebulous atmosphere in which objects merged into each other +confusedly. Bushes came down to within a few feet of where we were +working, dense-growing alder and birch that would have concealed a whole +regiment of sluice-robbers.</p> + +<p>It was the dimmest and most uncertain hour of the four, and I was +sitting at my post of guard. As the <a class="pagenum" name="page_249" id="page_249" title="249"></a>night was chilly I had brought +along an old grey blanket, similar in colour to the mound of the +pay-dirt. There had been quite a cavity dug in the dump during the day, +and into this I crawled and wrapped myself in my blanket. From my +position I could see the string of boxes containing the riffles. Over me +brooded the vast silence of the night. By my side lay a loaded shot-gun.</p> + +<p>"If the swine comes," said Ribwood, "let him have a clean-up of lead +instead of gold."</p> + +<p>Lying there, I got to thinking of the robberies. They were remarkable. +All had been done by an expert. In some cases the riffles had been +extracted and the gold scooped out; in others a quantity of mercury had +been poured in at the upper end of the boxes, and, as it passed down, +the "quick" had gathered up the dust. Each time the robbers had cleaned +up from two to three thousand dollars, and all within the past month. +There was some mysterious master-crook in our midst, one who operated +swiftly and surely, and left absolutely no clue of his identity.</p> + +<p>It was strange, I thought. What nerve, what cunning, what skill must +this midnight thief be possessed of! What desperate chances was he +taking! For, in the miners' eyes, cache-stealing and sluice-box robbing +were in the same category, and the punishment was—well, a rope and the +nearest tree of size. Among those strong, grim men justice would be +stern and swift.</p> + +<p>I was very quiet for a while, watching dreamily the dark shadows of the +dusk.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_250" id="page_250" title="250"></a>Hist! What was that? Surely the bushes were moving over there by the +hillside. I strained my eyes. I was right: they were.</p> + +<p>I was all nerves and excitement now, my heart beating wildly, my eyes +boring through the gloom. Very softly I put out my hand and grasped the +shot-gun.</p> + +<p>I watched and waited. A man was parting the bushes. Stealthily, very +stealthily, he peered around. He hesitated, paused, peered again, +crouched on all-fours, crept forward a little. Everything was quiet as a +grave. Down in the cabins the tired men slept peacefully; stillness and +solitude.</p> + +<p>Cautiously the man, crawling like a snake, worked his way to the +sluice-boxes. None but a keen watcher could have seen him. Again and +again he paused, peered around, listened intently. Very carefully, with +my eyes fixed on him, I lifted the gun.</p> + +<p>Now he had gained the shadow of the nearest sluice-box. He clung to the +trestle-work, clung so closely you could scarce tell him apart from it. +He was like a rat, dark, furtive, sinister. Slowly I lifted the gun to +my shoulder. I had him covered.</p> + +<p>I waited. Somehow I was loath to shoot. My nerves were a-quiver. Proof, +more proof, I said. I saw him working busily, lying flat alongside the +boxes. How crafty, how skilful he was! He was disconnecting the boxes. +He would let the water run to the ground; then, there in the exposed +riffles, would be his harvest. Would I shoot ... now ... now....</p> + +<p>Then, in the midnight hush, my gun blazed forth. With one scream the man +tumbled down, carrying <a class="pagenum" name="page_251" id="page_251" title="251"></a>along with him the disconnected box. The water +rushed over the ground in a deluge. I must capture him. There he lay in +that pouring stream.... Now I had him.</p> + +<p>In that torrent of icy water I grappled with my man. Over and over we +rolled. He tried to gouge me. He was small, but oh, how strong! He held +down his face. Fiercely I wrenched it up to the light. Heavens! it was +the Worm.</p> + +<p>I gave a cry of surprise, and my clutch on him must have weakened, for +at that moment he gave a violent wrench, a cat-like twist, and tore +himself free. Men were coming, were shouting, were running in from all +directions.</p> + +<p>"Catch him!" I cried. "Yonder he goes."</p> + +<p>But the little man was shooting forward like a deer. He was in the +bushes now, bursting through everything, dodging and twisting up the +hill. Right and left ran his pursuers, mistaking each other for the +robber in the semi-gloom, yelling frantically, mad with the excitement +of a man-hunt. And in the midst of it all I lay in a pool of mud and +water, with a sprained wrist and a bite on my leg.</p> + +<p>"Why didn't you hold him?" shouted Ribwood.</p> + +<p>"I couldn't," I answered. "I saved your clean-up, and he got some of the +lead. Besides, I know who he is."</p> + +<p>"You don't! Who is he?"</p> + +<p>"Pat Doogan."</p> + +<p>"You don't say. Well, I'm darned. You're sure?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_252" id="page_252" title="252"></a>"Dead sure."</p> + +<p>"Swear it in Court?"</p> + +<p>"I will."</p> + +<p>"Well, that's all right. We'll get him. I'll go into town first thing in +the morning and get out a warrant for him."</p> + +<p>He went, but the next evening back he returned, looking very surly and +disgruntled.</p> + +<p>"Well, what about the warrant?" said Hoofman.</p> + +<p>"Didn't get it."</p> + +<p>"Didn't get——"</p> + +<p>"No, didn't get it," snapped Ribwood. "Look here, Hoofman, I met +Locasto. Black Jack says Pat was cached away, dead to all the world, in +the backroom of the Omega Saloon all night. There's two loafers and the +barkeeper to back him up. What can we do in the face of that? Say, young +feller, I guess you mistook your man."</p> + +<p>"I guess I did not," I protested stoutly.</p> + +<p>They both looked at me for a moment and shrugged their shoulders.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_253" id="page_253" title="253"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XI</h2> +</div> + +<p>Time went on and the cabin was quietly nearing completion. The roof of +poles was in place. It only remained to cover it with moss and +thawed-out earth to make it our future home. I think these were the +happiest days I spent in the North. We were such a united trio. Each was +eager to do more than the other, and we vied in little acts of mutual +consideration.</p> + +<p>Once again I congratulated myself on my partners. Jim, though sometimes +bellicosely evangelical, was the soul of kindly goodness, cheerfulness +and patience. It was refreshing to know among so many sin-calloused men +one who always rang true, true as the gold in the pan. As for the +Prodigal, he was a Prince. I often thought that God at the birth of him +must have reached out to the sunshine and crammed a mighty handful of it +into the boy. Surely it is better than all the riches in the world to +have a temperament of eternal cheer.</p> + +<p>As for me, I have ever been at the mercy of my moods, easily elated, +quickly cast down. I have always been abnormally sensitive, affected by +sunshine and by shadows, vacillating, intense in my feelings. I was +truly happy in those days, finding time in the long evenings to think of +the scenes of stress and sorrow I had witnessed, reconstructing the +past, and having <a class="pagenum" name="page_254" id="page_254" title="254"></a>importune me again and again the many characters in my +life drama.</p> + +<p>Always and always I saw the Girl, elusively sweet, almost unreal, a +thing to enshrine in that ideal alcove of our hearts we keep for our +saints. (And God help us always to keep shining there a great light.)</p> + +<p>Many others importuned me: Pinklove, Globstock, Pondersby, Marks, old +Wilovich, all dead; Bullhammer, the Jam-wagon, Mosher, the Winklesteins, +plunged in the vortex of the gold-born city; and lastly, looming over +all, dark and ominous, the handsome, bold, sinister face of Locasto. +Well, maybe I would never see any of them again.</p> + +<p>Yet more and more my dream hours were jealously consecrated to Berna. +How ineffably sweet were they! How full of delicious imaginings! How +pregnant of high hope! O, I was born to love, I think, and I never loved +but one. This story of my life is the story of Berna. It is a thing of +words and words and words, yet every word is Berna, Berna. Feel the +heartache behind it all. Read between the lines, Berna, Berna.</p> + +<p>Often in the evenings we went to the Forks, which was a lively place +indeed. Here was all the recklessness and revel of Dawson on a smaller +scale, and infinitely more gross. Here were the dance-hall girls, not +the dazzling creatures in diamonds and Paris gowns, the belles of the +Monte Carlo and the Tivoli, but drabs self-convicted by their coarse, +puffy faces. Here the men, fresh from their day's work, the mud of the +claim hardly dry on their boot-tops, were buying <a class="pagenum" name="page_255" id="page_255" title="255"></a>wine with nuggets they +had filched from sluice-box, dump and drift.</p> + +<p>There was wholesale robbery going on in the gold-camp. On many claims +where the owners were known to be unsuspicious, men would work for small +wages because of the gold they were able to filch. On the other hand, +many of the operators were paying their men in trade-dust valued at +sixteen dollars an ounce, yet so adulterated with black sand as to be +really worth about fourteen. All these things contributed to the low +morale of the camp. Easy come, easy go with money, a wild intoxication +of success in the air; gold gouged in glittering heaps from the ground +during the day, and at night squandered in a carnival of lust and sin.</p> + +<p>The Prodigal was always "snooping" around and gleaning information from +most mysterious sources. One evening he came to us.</p> + +<p>"Boys, get ready, quick. There's a rumour of a stampede for a new creek, +Ophir Creek they call it, away on the other side of the divide +somewhere. A prospector went down ten feet and got fifty-cent dirt. +We've got to get in on this. There's a mob coming from Dawson, but we'll +get there before the rush."</p> + +<p>Quickly we got together blankets and a little grub, and, keeping out of +sight, we crawled up the hill under cover of the brush. Soon we came to +a place from which we could command a full view of the valley. Here we +lay down, awaiting developments.</p> + +<p>It was at the hour of dusk. Scarfs of smoke wavered over the cabins down +in the valley. On the <a class="pagenum" name="page_256" id="page_256" title="256"></a>far slope of Eldorado I saw a hawk soar upwards. +Surely a man was moving amid the brush, two men, a dozen men, moving in +single file very stealthily. I pointed them out.</p> + +<p>"It's the stampede," whispered Jim. "We've got to get on to the trail of +that crowd. Travel like blazes. We can cut them off at the head of the +valley."</p> + +<p>So we struck into the stampede gait, a wild, jolting, desperate pace, +that made the wind pant in our lungs like bellows, and jarred our bones +in their sockets. Through brush and scrub timber we burst. Thorny vines +tore at us detainingly, swampy niggerheads impeded us; but the +excitement of the stampede was in our blood, and we plunged down +gulches, floundered over marshes, climbed steep ridges and crashed +through dense masses of underwood.</p> + +<p>"Throw away your blankets, boys," said the Prodigal. "Just keep a little +grub. Eldorado was staked on a stampede. Maybe we're in on another +Eldorado. We must connect with that bunch if we break our necks."</p> + +<p>It was hours after when we overtook them, about a dozen men, all in the +maddest hurry, and casting behind them glances of furtive apprehension. +When they saw us they were hugely surprised. Ribwood was one of the +party.</p> + +<p>"Hello," he says roughly; "any more coming after you boys?"</p> + +<p>"Don't see them," said the Prodigal breathlessly. "We spied you and +cottoned on to what was up, so <a class="pagenum" name="page_257" id="page_257" title="257"></a>we made a fierce hike to get in on it. +Gee, I'm all tuckered out."</p> + +<p>"All right, get in line. I guess there's lots for us all. You're in on a +good thing, all right. Come along."</p> + +<p>So off we started again. The leader was going like one possessed. We +blundered on behind. We were on the other side of the divide looking +into another vast valley. What a magnificent country it was! What a +great manœuvring-ground it would make for an army! What splendid +open spaces, and round smooth hills, and dimly blue valleys, and silvery +winding creeks! It was veritably a park of the Gods, and enclosing it +was the monstrous, corrugated palisade of the Rockies.</p> + +<p>But there was small time to look around. On we went in the same mad, +heart-breaking hurry, mile after mile, hour after hour.</p> + +<p>"This is going to be a banner creek, boys," the whisper ran down the +line. "We're in luck. We'll all be Klondike Kings yet."</p> + +<p>Cheering, wasn't it? So on we went, hotter than ever, content to follow +the man of iron who was guiding us to the virgin treasure.</p> + +<p>We had been pounding along all night, up hill and down dale. The sun +rose, the dawn blossomed, the dew dried on the blueberry; it was +morning. Still we kept up our fierce gait. Would our leader never come +to his destination? By what roundabout route was he guiding us? The sun +climbed up in the blue sky, the heat quivered; it was noon. We panted as +<a class="pagenum" name="page_258" id="page_258" title="258"></a>we pelted on, parched and weary, faint and footsore. The excitement of +the stampede had sustained us, and we scarcely had noted the flight of +time. We had been walking for fourteen hours, yet not a man faltered. I +was ready to drop with fatigue; my feet were a mass of blisters, and +every step was intolerable pain to me. But still our leader kept on.</p> + +<p>"I guess we'll fool those trying to follow us," snapped Ribwood grimly.</p> + +<p>Suddenly the Prodigal said to me: "Say, you boys will have to go on +without me. I'm all in. Go ahead, I'll follow after I'm rested up."</p> + +<p>He dropped in a limp heap on the ground and instantly fell asleep. +Several of the others had dropped out too. They fell asleep where they +gave up, utterly exhausted. We had now been going sixteen hours, and +still our leader kept on.</p> + +<p>"You're pretty tough for a youngster," growled one of them to me. "Keep +it up, we're almost there."</p> + +<p>So I hobbled along painfully, though the desire to throw myself down was +becoming imperative. Just ahead was Jim, sturdily holding his own. The +others were reduced to a bare half-dozen.</p> + +<p>It was about four in the afternoon when we reached the creek. Up it our +leader plunged, till he came to a place where a rude shaft had been dug. +We gathered around him. He was a typical prospector, a child of hope, +lean, swarthy, clear-eyed.</p> + +<p>"Here it is, boys," he said. "Here's my discovery stake. Now you fellows +go up or down, anywhere <a class="pagenum" name="page_259" id="page_259" title="259"></a>you've a notion to, and put in your stakes. You +all know what a lottery it is. Maybe you'll stake a million-dollar +claim, maybe a blank. Mining's all a gamble. But go ahead, boys. I wish +you luck."</p> + +<p>So we strung out, and, coming in rotation, Jim and I staked seven and +eight below discovery.</p> + +<p>"Seven's a lucky number for me," said Jim; "I've a notion this claim's a +good one."</p> + +<p>"I don't care," I said, "for all the gold in the world. What I want is +sleep, sleep, rest and sleep."</p> + +<p>So I threw myself down on a bit of moss, and, covering my head with my +coat to ward off the mosquitoes, in a few minutes I was dead to the +world.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_260" id="page_260" title="260"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XII</h2> +</div> + +<p>I was awakened by the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>"Rouse up," he was saying; "you've slept right round the clock. We've +got to get back to town and record those claims. Jim's gone three hours +ago."</p> + +<p>It was five o'clock of a crystal Yukon morning, with the world clear-cut +and fresh as at the dawn of Things. I was sleep-stupid, sore, stiff in +every joint. Racking pains made me groan at every movement, and the +chill night air had brought on twinges of rheumatism. I looked at my +location stake, beside which I had fallen.</p> + +<p>"I can't do it," I said; "my feet are out of business."</p> + +<p>"You must," he insisted. "Come, buck up, old man. Bathe your feet in the +creek, and then you'll feel as fit as a fighting-cock. We've got to get +into town hot-foot. They've got a bunch of crooks at the gold office, +and we're liable to lose our claims if we are late."</p> + +<p>"Have you staked, too?"</p> + +<p>"You bet. I've got thirteen below. Hurry up. There's a wild bunch coming +from town."</p> + +<p>I groaned grievously, yet felt mighty refreshed by a dip in the creek. +Then we started off once more. Every few moments we would meet parties +coming post-haste from town. They looked worn <a class="pagenum" name="page_261" id="page_261" title="261"></a>and jaded, but spread +eagerly up and down. There must have been several hundred of them, all +sustained by the mad excitement of the stampede.</p> + +<p>We did not take the circuitous route of the day before, but one that +shortened the distance by some ten miles. We travelled a wild country, +crossing unknown creeks that have since proved gold-bearing, and +climbing again the high ridge of the divide. Then once more we dropped +down into the Bonanza basin, and by nightfall we had reached our own +cabin.</p> + +<p>We lay down for a few hours. It seemed my weary head had just touched +the pillow when once more the inexorable Prodigal awakened me.</p> + +<p>"Come on, kid, we've got to get to Dawson when the recording office +opens." So once more we pelted down Bonanza. Fast as we had come, we +found many of those who had followed us were ahead. The North is the +land of the musher. In that pure, buoyant air a man can walk away from +himself. Any one of us thought nothing of a fifty-mile tramp, and one of +eighty was scarcely considered notable.</p> + +<p>It was about nine in the morning when we got to the gold office. Already +a crowd of stampeders were waiting. Foremost in the crowd I saw Jim. The +Prodigal looked thoughtful.</p> + +<p>"Look here," he said, "I guess it's all right to push in with that +bunch, but there's a slicker way of doing it for those that are 'next.' +Of course, it's not according to Hoyle. There's a little side-door where +you can get in ahead of the gang. See that <a class="pagenum" name="page_262" id="page_262" title="262"></a>fellow, Ten-Dollar Jim they +call him; well, they say he can work the oracle for us."</p> + +<p>"No," I said, "you can pay him ten dollars if you like. I'll take my +chance in the regulation way."</p> + +<p>So the Prodigal slipped away from me, and presently I saw him admitted +at the side entrance. Surely, thought I, there must be some mistake. The +public would not "stand for" such things.</p> + +<p>There was quite a number ahead of me, and I knew I was in for a long +wait. I will never forget it. For three days, with the exception of two +brief sleep-spells, I had been in a fierce helter-skelter of excitement, +and I had eaten no very satisfying food. As I stood in that sullen crowd +I swayed with weariness, and my legs were doubling under me. Invisible +hands were dragging me down, throwing dust in my eyes, hypnotising me +with soporific gestures. I staggered forward and straightened up +suddenly. On the outskirts of the crowd I saw the Prodigal trying to +locate me. When he saw me he waved a paper.</p> + +<p>"Come on, you goat," he shouted; "have a little sense. I'm all fixed +up."</p> + +<p>I shook my head. An odd sense of fair play in me made me want to win the +game squarely. I would wait my turn. Noon came. I saw Jim coming out, +tired but triumphant.</p> + +<p>"All right," he megaphoned to me; "I'm through. Now I'll go and sleep my +head off."</p> + +<p>How I envied him. I felt I, too, had a "big bunch" of sleep coming to +me. I was moving forward slowly. Bit by bit I was wedging nearer the +<a class="pagenum" name="page_263" id="page_263" title="263"></a>door. I watched man after man push past the coveted threshold. They +were all miners, brawny, stubble-chinned fellows with grim, determined +faces. I was certainly the youngest there.</p> + +<p>"What have you got?" asked a thick-set man on my right.</p> + +<p>"Eight below," I answered.</p> + +<p>"Gee! you're lucky."</p> + +<p>"What'll you take for it?" asked a tall, keen-looking fellow on my left.</p> + +<p>"Five thousand."</p> + +<p>"Give you two."</p> + +<p>"No."</p> + +<p>"Well, come round and see me to-morrow at the Dominion, and we'll talk +it over. My name's Gunson. Bring your papers."</p> + +<p>"All right."</p> + +<p>Something like dizziness seized me. Five thousand! The crowd seemed to +be composed of angels and the sunshine to have a new and brilliant +quality of light and warmth. Five thousand! Would I take it? If the +claim was worth a cent it ought to be worth fifty thousand. I soared on +rosy wings of optimism. I revelled in dreams. My claim! Mine! Eight +below! Other men had bounded into affluence. Why not I?</p> + +<p>No longer did I notice the flight of time. I was ready to wait till +doomsday. A new lease of strength came to me. I was near the wicket now. +Only two were ahead of me. A clerk was recording their claims. One had +thirty-four above, the other fifty-two <a class="pagenum" name="page_264" id="page_264" title="264"></a>below. The clerk looked +flustered, fatigued. His dull eyes were pursy with midnight debauches; +his flesh sagged. In contrast with the clean, hard, hawk-eyed miners, he +looked blotched and unwholesome.</p> + +<p>Crossly he snatched from the other two their miner's certificates, made +the entries in his book, and gave them their receipts. It was my turn +now. I dashed forward eagerly. Then I stopped, for the man with the +bleary eyes had shut the wicket in my face.</p> + +<p>"Three o'clock," he snapped.</p> + +<p>"Couldn't you take mine?" I faltered; "I've been waiting now these +seven hours."</p> + +<p>"Closing time," he ripped out still more tartly; "come again to-morrow."</p> + +<p>There was a growling thunder from the crowd behind, and the weary, +disappointed stampeders slouched away.</p> + +<p>Body and soul of me craved for sleep. Beyond an overwhelming desire for +rest, I was conscious of nothing else. My eyelids were weighted with +lead. I lagged along dejectedly. At the hotel I saw the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>"Get fixed up?"</p> + +<p>"No, too late."</p> + +<p>"You'd better take advantage of the general corruption and the services +of Ten-Dollar Jim."</p> + +<p>I was disheartened, disgusted, desperate.</p> + +<p>"I will," I said. Then, throwing myself on the bed, I launched on a +dreamless sea of sleep.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_265" id="page_265" title="265"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XIII</h2> +</div> + +<p>Next morning bright and early found me at the side-door, and the tall man +admitted me. I slipped a ten-dollar gold piece into his palm, and +presently found myself waiting at the yet unopened wicket. Outside I +could see the big crowd gathering for their weary wait. I felt a +sneaking sense of meanness, but I did not have long to enjoy my +despicable sensations.</p> + +<p>The recording clerk came to the wicket. He was very red-faced and +watery-eyed. Involuntarily I turned my head away at the reek of his +breath.</p> + +<p>"I want to record eight below on Ophir," I said.</p> + +<p>He looked at me curiously. He hesitated.</p> + +<p>"What name?" he asked.</p> + +<p>I gave it. He turned up his book.</p> + +<p>"Eight below, you say. Why, that's already recorded."</p> + +<p>"Can't be," I retorted. "I just got down from there yesterday after +planting my stakes."</p> + +<p>"Can't help it. It's recorded by some one else, recorded early +yesterday."</p> + +<p>"Look here," I exclaimed; "what kind of a game are you putting up on me? +I tell you I was the first on the ground. I alone staked the claim."</p> + +<p>"That's strange," he said. "There must be some mistake. Anyway, you'll +have to move on and let the <a class="pagenum" name="page_266" id="page_266" title="266"></a>others get up to the wicket. You're +blocking the way. All I can do is to look into the matter for you, and +I've got no time now. Come back to-morrow. Next, please."</p> + +<p>The next man pushed me aside, and there I stood, gaping and gasping. A +man in the waiting line looked at me pityingly.</p> + +<p>"It's no use, young fellow; you'd better make up your mind to lose that +claim. They'll flim-flam you out of it somehow. They've sent some one +out now to stake over you. If you kick, they'll say you didn't stake +proper."</p> + +<p>"But I have witnesses."</p> + +<p>"It don't matter if you call the Angel Gabriel to witness, they're going +to grab your claim. Them government officials is the crookedest bunch +that ever made fuel for hell-fire. You won't get a square deal; they're +going to get the fat anyhow. They've got the best claims spotted, an' +men posted to jump them at the first chance. Oh, they're feathering +their nests all right. They're like a lot of greedy pike just waiting to +gobble down all they can. A man can't buy wine at twenty dollars per, +and make dance-hall Flossies presents of diamond tararas on a government +salary. That's what a lot of them are doing. Wine and women, and their +wives an' daughters outside thinkin' they're little tin gods. Somehow +they've got to foot the bill. Oh, it's a great country."</p> + +<p>I was stunned with disappointment.</p> + +<p>"What you want," he continued, "is to get a pull with some of the +officials. Why, there's friends of <a class="pagenum" name="page_267" id="page_267" title="267"></a>mine don't need to go out of town to +stake a claim. Only the other day a certain party known to me, went +to—well, I mustn't mention names, anyway, he's high up in the +government, and a friend of Quebec Suzanne's,—and says to him,'I want +you to get number so and so on Hunker recorded for me. Of course I +haven't been able to get out there, but—'</p> + +<p>"The government bug puts his hands to his ears. 'Don't give me any +unnecessary information,' he says; 'you want so and so recorded, Sam. +Well, that's all right. I'll fix it.'</p> + +<p>"That was all there was to it, and when next day a man comes in +post-haste claiming to have staked it, it was there recorded in Sam's +name. Get a stand-in, young fellow."</p> + +<p>"But surely," I said, "somehow, somewhere there must be justice. Surely +if these facts were represented at Ottawa and proof forthcoming——"</p> + +<p>"Ottawa!" He gave a sniffing laugh. "Ottawa! Why, it's some of the big +guns at Ottawa that's gettin' the cream of it all. The little fellows +are just lapping up the drips. Look at them big concessions they're +selling for a song, good placer ground that would mean pie to the poor +miner, closed tight and everlastingly tied up. How is it done? Why, +there's some politician at the bottom of the whole business. Look at the +liquor permits—crude alcohol sent into the country by the thousand +gallons, diluted to six times its bulk, and sold to the poor prospector +for whisky at a dollar a drink. An' you can't pour your own drinks at +that."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_268" id="page_268" title="268"></a>"Well," I said, "I'm not going to be cheated out of my claim. If I've +got to move Heaven and earth——"</p> + +<p>"You'll do nothing of the kind. If you get sassy there's the police to +put the lid on you. You can talk till you're purple round the gills. It +won't cut no figure. They've got us all cinched. We've just got to take +our medicine. It's no use goin' round bellyaching. You'd better go away +and sit down."</p> + +<p>And I did.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_269" id="page_269" title="269"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XIV</h2> +</div> + +<p>I had to see Berna at once. Already I had paid a visit to the Paragon +Restaurant, that new and glittering place of resort run by the +Winklesteins, but she was not on duty. I saw Madam, resplendent in her +false jewellery, with her beetle-black hair elaborately coiffured, and +her large, bold face handsomely enamelled. She looked the picture of +fleshy prosperity, a big handsome Jewess, hawk-eyed and rapacious. In +the background hovered Winklestein, his little, squeezed-up, tallowy +face beaded with perspiration. But he was dressed quite superbly, and +his moustache was more wondrously waxed than ever.</p> + +<p>I mingled with the crowd of miners, and in my rough garb, swarthy and +bearded as I was, the Jewish couple did not know me. As I paid her, +Madam gave me a sharp glance. But there was no recognisant gleam in her +eyes.</p> + +<p>In the evening I returned. I took a seat in one of the curtained boxes. +At the long lunch-counter rough-necked fellows perched on tripod stools +were guzzling food. The place was brilliantly lit up, many-mirrored and +flashily ornate in gilt and white. The bill of fare was elaborate, the +prices exalted. In the box before me a white-haired lawyer was +entertaining a lady of easy virtue; in the box behind, a larrikin +quartette from the Pavilion Theatre were holding <a class="pagenum" name="page_270" id="page_270" title="270"></a>high revelry. There +was no mistaking the character of the place. In the heart of the city's +tenderloin it was a haunt of human riff-raff, a palace of gilt and +guilt, a first scene in the nightly comedy of "The Lobster."</p> + +<p>I was feeling profoundly depressed, miserable, disgusted with +everything. For the first time I began to regret ever leaving home. Out +on the creeks I was happy. Here in the town the glaring corruption of +things jarred on my nerves.</p> + +<p>And it was in this place Berna worked. She waited on these wantons; she +served those swine. She heard their loose talk, their careless oaths. +She saw them foully drunk, staggering off to their shameful +assignations. She knew everything. O, it was pitiful; it sickened me to +the soul. I sat down and buried my face in my hands.</p> + +<p>"Order, please."</p> + +<p>I knew that sweet voice. It thrilled me, and I looked up suddenly. There +was Berna standing before me.</p> + +<p>She gave a quick start, then recovered herself. A look of delight came +into her eyes, eager, vivid delight.</p> + +<p>"My, how you frightened me, I wasn't expecting you. Oh, I am so glad to +see you again."</p> + +<p>I looked at her. I was conscious of a change in her, and the +consciousness came with a sense of shearing pain.</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said, "what are you doing with that paint on your face?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_271" id="page_271" title="271"></a>"Oh, I'm sorry." She was rubbing distressfully at a dab of rouge on her +cheek. "I knew you would be cross, but I had to; they made me. They said +I looked like a spectre at the feast with my chalk face; I frightened +away the customers. It's just a little pink,—all the women do it. It +makes me look happier, and it doesn't hurt me any."</p> + +<p>"What I want is to see in your cheeks, dear, the glow of health, not the +flush of a cosmetic. However, never mind. How are you?"</p> + +<p>"Pretty well——" hesitatingly.</p> + +<p>"Berna," boomed the rough, contumacious voice of Madam, "attend to the +customers."</p> + +<p>"All right," I said; "get me anything. I just wanted to see you."</p> + +<p>She hurried away. I saw her go behind the curtains of one of the closed +boxes carrying a tray of dishes. I heard coarse voices chaffing her. I +saw her come out, her cheeks flushed, yet not with rouge. A miner had +tried to detain her. Somehow it all made me writhe, agitated me so that +I could hardly keep my seat.</p> + +<p>Presently she came hurrying round, bringing me some food.</p> + +<p>"When can I see you, girl?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"To-night. See me home. I'm off at midnight."</p> + +<p>"All right. I'll be waiting."</p> + +<p>She was kept very busy, and, though once or twice a tipsy roysterer +ventured on some rough pleasantry, I noticed with returning satisfaction +that most of the big, bearded miners treated her with chivalrous +respect. <a class="pagenum" name="page_272" id="page_272" title="272"></a>She was quite friendly with them. They called her by name, and +seemed to have a genuine affection for her. There was a protective +manliness in the manner of these men that reassured me. So I swallowed +my meal and left the place.</p> + +<p>"That's a good little girl," said a grizzled old fellow to me, as he +stood picking his teeth energetically outside the restaurant. "Straight +as a string, and there ain't many up here you can say that of. If any +one was to try any monkey business with that little girl, sir, there's a +dozen of the boys would make him a first-rate case for the hospital +ward. Yes, siree, that's a jim-dandy little girl. I just wish she was my +darter."</p> + +<p>In my heart I blessed him for his words, and pressed on him a fifty-cent +cigar.</p> + +<p>Again I wandered up and down the now familiar street, but the keen edge +of my impression had been blunted. I no longer took the same interest in +its sights. More populous it was, noisier, livelier than ever. In the +gambling-annex of the Paystreak Saloon was Mr. Mosher shuffling and +dealing methodically. Everywhere I saw flushed and excited miners, each +with his substantial poke of dust. It was usually as big as a +pork-sausage, yet it was only his spending-poke. Safely in the bank he +had cached half a dozen of them ten times as big.</p> + +<p>These were the halcyon days. Success was in the air. Men were drunk with +it; carried off their feet, delirious. Money! It had lost its value. +Every one you met was "lousy" with it; threw it away <a class="pagenum" name="page_273" id="page_273" title="273"></a>with both hands, +and fast as they emptied one pocket it filled up the others. Little +wonder a mad elation, a semi-frenzy of prodigality prevailed, for every +day the golden valley was pouring into the city a seemingly exhaustless +stream of treasure.</p> + +<p>I saw big Alec, one of the leading operators, coming down the street +with his men. He carried a Winchester, and he had a pack-train of +burros, each laden down with gold. At the bank flushed and eager mobs +were clamouring to have their pokes weighed. In buckets, coal-oil cans, +every kind of receptacle, lay the precious dust. Sweating clerks were +handling it as carelessly as a grocer handles sugar. Goldsmiths were +making it into wonders of barbaric jewellery. There seemed no limit to +the camp's wealth. Every one was mad, and the demi-mondaine was queen of +all.</p> + +<p>I saw Hewson and Mervin. They had struck it rich on a property they had +bought on Hunker. Fortune was theirs.</p> + +<p>"Come and have a drink," said Hewson. Already he had had many. His face +was relaxed, flushed, already showing signs of a flabby degeneration. In +this man of iron sudden success was insidiously at work, enervating his +powers.</p> + +<p>Mervin, too. I caught a glimpse of him, in the doorway of the Green Bay +Tree. The Maccaroni Kid had him in tow, and he was buying wine.</p> + +<p>I looked in vain for Locasto. He was on a big debauch, they told me. +Viola Lennoir had "got him going."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_274" id="page_274" title="274"></a>At midnight, at the door of the Paragon, I was waiting in a fever of +impatience when Berna came out.</p> + +<p>"I'm living up at the cabin," she said; "you can walk with me as far as +that. That is, if you want to," she added coquettishly.</p> + +<p>She was very bright and did most of the talking. She showed a vast joy +at seeing me.</p> + +<p>"Tell me what you've been doing, dear—everything. Have you made a +stake? So many have. I have prayed you would, too. Then we'll go away +somewhere and forget all this. We'll go to Italy, where it's always +beautiful. We'll just live for each other. Won't we, honey?"</p> + +<p>She nestled up to me. She seemed to have lost much of her shyness. I +don't know why, but I preferred my timid, shrinking Berna.</p> + +<p>"It will take a whole lot to make me forget this," I said grimly.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I know. Isn't it frightful? Somehow I don't seem to mind so much +now. I'm getting used to it, I suppose. But at first—O, it was +terrible! I thought I never could stand it. It's wonderful how we get +accustomed to things, isn't it?"</p> + +<p>"Yes," I answered bitterly.</p> + +<p>"You know, those rough miners are good to me. I'm a queen among them, +because they know I'm—all right. I've had several offers of marriage, +too, really, really good ones from wealthy claim-owners."</p> + +<p>"Yes," still more bitterly.</p> + +<p>"Yes, young man; so you want to make a strike <a class="pagenum" name="page_275" id="page_275" title="275"></a>and take me away to +Italy. Oh, how I plan and plan for us two. I don't care, my dearest, if +you haven't got a cent in the world, I'm yours, always yours."</p> + +<p>"That's all right, Berna," I said. "I'm going to make good. I've just +lost a fifty-thousand dollar claim, but there's more coming up. By the +first of June next I'll come to you with a bank account of six figures. +You'll see, my little girl. I'm going to make this thing stick."</p> + +<p>"You foolish boy," she said; "it doesn't matter if you come to me a +beggar in rags. Come to me anyway. Come, and do not fail."</p> + +<p>"What about Locasto?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"I've scarcely seen anything of him. He leaves me alone. I think he's +interested elsewhere."</p> + +<p>"And are you sure you're all right, dear, down there?"</p> + +<p>"Quite sure. These men would risk their lives for me. The other kind +know enough to leave me alone. Besides, I know better now how to take +care of myself. You remember the frightened cry-baby I used to be—well, +I've learned to hold my own."</p> + +<p>She was extraordinarily affectionate, full of unexpected little ways of +endearment, and clung to me when we parted, making me promise to return +very soon. Yes, she was my girl, devoted to me, attached to me by every +tendril of her being. Every look, every word, every act of her expressed +a bright, fine, radiant love. I was satisfied, yet unsatisfied, and once +again I entreated her.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_276" id="page_276" title="276"></a>"Berna, are you sure, quite sure, you're all right in that place among +all that folly and drunkenness and vice? Let me take you away, dear."</p> + +<p>"Oh, no," she said very tenderly; "I'm all right. I would tell you at +once, my boy, if I had any fear. That's just what a poor girl has to put +up with all the time; that's what I've had to put up with all my life. +Believe me, boy, I'm wonderfully blind and deaf at times. I don't think +I'm very bad, am I?"</p> + +<p>"You're as good as gold."</p> + +<p>"For your sake I'll always try to be," she answered.</p> + +<p>As we were kissing good-bye she asked timidly:</p> + +<p>"What about the rouge, dear? Shall I cease to use it?"</p> + +<p>"Poor little girl! Oh no, I don't suppose it matters. I've got very +old-fashioned ideas. Good-bye, darling."</p> + +<p>"Good-bye, beloved."</p> + +<p>I went away treading on sunshine, trembling with joy, thrilled with love +for her, blessing her anew.</p> + +<p>Yet still the rouge stuck in my crop as if it were the symbol of some +insidious decadence.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_277" id="page_277" title="277"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XV</h2> +</div> + +<p>It was about two months later when I returned from a flying visit to +Dawson.</p> + +<p>"Lots of mail for you two," I cried, exultantly bursting into the cabin.</p> + +<p>"Mail? Hooray!"</p> + +<p>Jim and the Prodigal, who were lying on their bunks, leapt up eagerly. +No one longs for his letters like your Northern exile, and for two whole +months we had not heard from the outside.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I got over fifty letters between us three. Drew about a dozen +myself, there's half a dozen for you, Jim, and the balance for you, old +sport."</p> + +<p>I handed the Prodigal about two dozen letters.</p> + +<p>"Ha! now we'll have the whole evening just to browse on them. My, what a +stack! How was it you had a time getting them?"</p> + +<p>"Well, you see, when I got into town the mail had just been sorted, and +there was a string of over three hundred men waiting at the general +delivery wicket. I took my place at the tail-end of the line, and every +newcomer fell in behind me. My! but it was such weary waiting, moving up +step by step; but I'd just about got there when closing-time came. They +wouldn't give out any more mail—after my three hours' wait, too."</p> + +<p>"What did you do?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_278" id="page_278" title="278"></a>"Well, it seems every one gives way to the womenfolk. So I happened to +see a girl friend of mine, and she said she would go round first thing +in the morning and enquire if there were any letters for us. She brought +me this bunch."</p> + +<p>I indicated the pile of letters.</p> + +<p>"I'm told lots of women in town make a business of getting letters for +men, and charge a dollar a letter. It's awful how hard it is to get +mail. Half of the clerks seem scarcely able to read the addresses on the +envelopes. It's positively sad to watch the faces of the poor wretches +who get nothing, knowing, too, that the chances are there is really +something for them sorted away in a wrong box."</p> + +<p>"That's pretty tough."</p> + +<p>"Yes, you should have seen them; men just ravenous to hear from their +families; a clerk carelessly shuffling through a pile of letters. +'Beachwood, did you say? Nope, nothing for you.' 'Hold on there! what's +that in your hand? Surely I know my wife's writing.' 'Beachwood—yep, +that's right. Looked like Peachwood to me. All right. Next there.' Then +the man would go off with his letter, looking half-wrathful, +half-radiant. Well, I enjoyed my trip, but I'm glad I'm home."</p> + +<p>I threw myself on my bunk voluptuously, and began re-reading my letters. +There were some from Garry and some from Mother. While still +unreconciled to the life I was leading, they were greatly interested in +my wildly cheerful accounts of the country. They were disposed to be +less censorious, and I <a class="pagenum" name="page_279" id="page_279" title="279"></a>for my part was only too glad Mother was well +enough to write, even if she did scold me sometimes. So I was able to +open my mail without misgivings.</p> + +<p>But I was still aglow with memories of the last few hours. Once more I +had seen Berna, spent moments with her of perfect bliss, left her with +my mind full of exaltation and bewildered gratitude. She was the perfect +answer to my heart's call, a mirror that seemed to flash back the +challenge of my joy. I saw the love mists gather in her eyes, I felt her +sweet lips mould themselves to mine, I thrilled with the sheathing +ardour of her arms. Never in my fondest imaginings had I conceived that +such a wealth of affection would ever be for me. Buoyant she was, brave, +inspiring, and always with her buoyancy so wondrous tender I felt that +willingly would I die for her.</p> + +<p>Once again I told her of my fear, my anxiety for her safety among those +rough men in that cesspool of iniquity. Very earnestly she strove to +reassure me.</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear, it is in those rough men, the uncouth, big-hearted miners, +that I place my trust. They know I'm a good girl. They wouldn't say a +coarse thing before me for the world. You've no idea the chivalrous +respect they show for me, and the rougher they are the finer their +instincts seem to be. It's the others, the so-called gentlemen, who +would like to take advantage of me if they could."</p> + +<p>She looked at me with bright, clear eyes, fearless in their scorn of +sham and pretence.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_280" id="page_280" title="280"></a>"Then there are the women. It's strange, but no matter how degraded +they are they try to shield and protect me. Only last week Kimona Kate +made a fearful scene with her escort because he said something bad +before me. I'm getting tolerant. Oh, you've no idea until you know them +what good qualities some of these women have. Often their hearts are as +big as all outdoors; they would nurse you devotedly if you were sick; +they would give you their last dollar if you were in want. Many of them +have old mothers and little children they're supporting outside, and +they would rather die than that their dear ones should know the life +they are living. It's the men, the men that are to blame."</p> + +<p>I shook my head sadly.</p> + +<p>"I don't like it, Berna, I don't like it at all. I hate you to know the +like of such people, such things. I just want you to be again the dear, +sweet little girl I first knew, all maidenly modesty and shuddering +aversion of evil."</p> + +<p>"I'm afraid, dear, I shall never be that again," she said sorrowfully; +"but am I any the worse for knowing? Why should you men want to keep all +such knowledge to yourselves? Is our innocence simply to be another name +for ignorance?"</p> + +<p>She put her arms round my neck and kissed me fervently.</p> + +<p>"Oh, no, my dear, my dear. I have seen the vileness of things, and it +only makes me more in love with love and beauty. We'll go, you and I, to +Italy very soon, and forget, forget. Even if we have to <a class="pagenum" name="page_281" id="page_281" title="281"></a>toil like +peasants in the vineyards we'll go, far, far away."</p> + +<p>So I felt strengthened, stimulated, gladdened, and, as I lay on my bunk +listening to the merry crackle of the wood fire, I was in a purring +lethargy of content. Then I remembered something.</p> + +<p>"Oh, say, boys, I forgot to tell you. I met McCrimmon down the creek. +You remember him on the trail, the Halfbreed. He was asking after you +both; then all at once he said he wanted to see us on important +business. He has a proposal to make, he says, that would be greatly to +our advantage. He's coming along this evening.—What's the matter, Jim?"</p> + +<p>Jim was staring blankly at one of the letters he had received. His face +was a picture of distress, misery, despair. Without replying, he went +and knelt down by his bed. He sighed deeply. Slowly his face grew calm +again; then I saw that he was praying. We were silent in respectful +sympathy, but when, in a little, he got up and went out, I followed him.</p> + +<p>"Had bad news, old man?"</p> + +<p>"I've had a letter that's upset me. I'm in a terrible position. If ever +I wanted strength and guidance, I want it now."</p> + +<p>"Heard about that man?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, it's him, all right; it's Mosher. I suspicioned it all along. +Here's a letter from my brother. He says there's no doubt that Mosher is +Moseley."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_282" id="page_282" title="282"></a>His eyes were stormy, his face tragic in its bitterness.</p> + +<p>"Oh, you don't know how I worshipped that woman, trusted her, would have +banked my life on her; and when I was away making money for her she ups +and goes away with that slimy reptile. In the old days I would have torn +him to pieces, but now——"</p> + +<p>He sighed distractedly.</p> + +<p>"What am I to do? What am I to do? The Good Book says forgive your +enemies, but how can I forgive a wrong like that? And my poor girl—he +deserted her, drove her to the streets. Ugh! if I could kill him by slow +torture, gloat over his agony—but I can't, can I?"</p> + +<p>"No, Jim, you can't do anything. Vengeance is the Lord's."</p> + +<p>"Yes, I know, I know. But it's hard, it's hard. O my girl, my girl!"</p> + +<p>Tears overran his cheeks. He sat down on a log, burying his face in his +hands.</p> + +<p>"O God, help and sustain me in this my hour of need."</p> + +<p>I was at a loss how to comfort him, and it was while I was waiting there +that suddenly we saw the Halfbreed coming up the trail.</p> + +<p>"Better come in, Jim," I said, "and hear what he's got to say."</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_283" id="page_283" title="283"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XVI</h2> +</div> + +<p>We made McCrimmon comfortable. We kept no whisky in the cabin, but we +gave him some hot coffee, which he drank with great satisfaction. Then +he twisted a cigarette, lit it, and looked at us keenly. On his brown, +flattish face were remarkable the impassivity of the Indian and the +astuteness of the Scot. We were regarding him curiously. Jim had +regained his calm, and was quietly watchful. The Prodigal seemed to have +his ears cocked to listen. There was a feeling amongst us as if we had +reached a crisis in our fortunes.</p> + +<p>The Halfbreed lost no time in coming to the point.</p> + +<p>"I like you boys. You're square and above-board. You're workers, and you +don't drink—that's the main thing.</p> + +<p>"Well, to get right down to cases. I'm a bit of a mining man. I've mined +at Cassiar and Caribou, and I know something of the business. Now I've +got next to a good thing.—I don't know how good yet, but I'll swear to +you it's a tidy bit. There may be only ten thousand in it, and there may +be one hundred and ten. It's a gambling proposition, and I want +pardners, pardners that'll work like blazes and keep their faces shut. +Are you on?"</p> + +<p>"That's got us kodaked," said the Prodigal. "We're that sort, and if the +proposition looks good <a class="pagenum" name="page_284" id="page_284" title="284"></a>to us we're with you. Anyway, we're clams at +keeping our food-traps tight."</p> + +<p>"All right; listen. You know the Arctic Transportation Co. have claims +on upper Bonanza—well, a month back I was working for them. We were +down about twenty feet and were drifting in. They set me to work in the +drift. The roof kept sloughing in on me, and it was mighty dangerous. So +far we hadn't got pay-dirt, but their mining manager wanted us to drift +in a little further. If we didn't strike good pay in a few more feet we +were to quit.</p> + +<p>"Well, one morning I went down and cleaned away the ash of my fire. The +first stroke of my pick on the thawed face made me jump, stare, stand +stock-still, thinking hard. For there, right in the hole I had made, was +the richest pocket I ever seen."</p> + +<p>"You don't say! Are you sure?"</p> + +<p>"Why, boys, as I'm alive there was nuggets in it as thick as raisins in +a Christmas plum-duff. I could see the yellow gleam where the pick had +grazed them, and the longer I looked the more could I see."</p> + +<p>"Good Lord! What did you do?"</p> + +<p>"What did I do! I just stepped back and picked at the roof for all I was +worth. A big bunch of muck came down, covering up the face. Then, like a +crazy man, I picked wherever the dirt seemed loose all the way down the +drift. Great heaps of dirt caved in on me. I was stunned, nearly buried, +but I did the trick. There were tons of dirt between me and my find."</p> + +<p>We gasped with amazement.</p> + +<p>"The rest was easy. I went up the shaft groaning <a class="pagenum" name="page_285" id="page_285" title="285"></a>and cursing. I +pretended to faint. I told them the roof of the drift had fallen in on +me. It was rotten stuff, anyway, and they knew it. They didn't mind me +risking my life. I cursed them, said I would sue the Company, and went +off looking too sore for words. The Manager was disgusted, he went down +and took a look at things; declared he would throw up the work at that +place; the ground was no good. He made that report to the Company."</p> + +<p>The Halfbreed looked round triumphantly.</p> + +<p>"Now, here's the point. We can get a lay on that ground. One of you boys +must apply for it. They mustn't know I'm in with you, or they would +suspect right away. They're none too scrupulous themselves in their +dealings."</p> + +<p>He paused impressively.</p> + +<p>"You cinch that lay agreement. Get it signed right away. We'll go in and +work like Old Nick. We'll make a big clean-up by Spring. I'll take you +right to the gold. There's thousands and thousands lying snug in the +ground just waiting for us. It's right in our mit. Oh, it's a cinch, a +cinch!"</p> + +<p>The Halfbreed almost grew excited. Bending forward, he eyed us keenly. +In a breathless silence we stared at each other.</p> + +<p>"Well," I objected, "seems to be putting up rather a job on the +Company."</p> + +<p>Jim was silent, but the Prodigal cut in sharply:</p> + +<p>"Job nothing—it's a square proposition. We don't know for certain that +gold's there. Maybe it's only a piffling pocket, and we'll get souped +for our <a class="pagenum" name="page_286" id="page_286" title="286"></a>pains. No, it seems to me it's a fair gambling proposition. +We're taking all kinds of chances. It means awful hard work; it means +privation and, maybe, bitter disappointment. It's a gamble, I tell you, +and are we going to be such poor sports as turn it down? I for one am +strongly in favour of it. What do you say? A big sporting chance—are +you there, boys, are you there?"</p> + +<p>He almost shouted in his excitement.</p> + +<p>"Hush! Some one might hear you," warned the Halfbreed.</p> + +<p>"Yes, that's right. Well, it looks mighty good to me, and if you boys +are willing we'll just draw up papers and sign an agreement right away. +Is it a go?"</p> + +<p>We nodded, so he got ink and paper and drew up a form of partnership.</p> + +<p>"Now," said he, his eyes dancing, "now, to secure that lay before any +one else cuts in on us. Gee! but it's getting dark and cold outdoors +these days. Snow falling; well, I must mush to Dawson to-night."</p> + +<p>He hurried on some warm, yet light, clothing, all the time talking +excitedly of the chance that fortune had thrown in our way, and gleeful +as a schoolboy.</p> + +<p>"Now, boys," he says, "hope I'll have good luck. Jim, put in a prayer +for me. Well, see you all to-morrow. Good-bye."</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>It was late next night when he returned. We were sitting in the cabin, +anxious and expectant, when he threw open the door. He was tired, wet, +dirty, but irrepressibly jubilant.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_287" id="page_287" title="287"></a>"Hurrah, boys!" he cried. "I've cinched it. I saw Mister Manager of the +big Company. He was very busy, very important, very patronising. I was +the poor miner seeking a lay. I played the part well. He began by +telling me he didn't want to give any lays at present; just wanted to +stand me off, you know; make me more keen. I spoke about some of their +ground on Hunker. He didn't seem enthusiastic. Then, at last, as if in +despair, I mentioned this bit on Bonanza. I could see he was itching to +let me have it, but he was too foxy to show it. He actually told me it +was an extra rich piece of ground, when all the time he knew his own +mining engineer had condemned it."</p> + +<p>The Prodigal's eyes danced delightedly.</p> + +<p>"Well, we sparred round a bit like two fake fighters. My! but he was +wily, that old Jew. Finally he agreed to let me have it on a +fifty-per-cent. basis. Don't faint, boys. Fifty per cent., I said. I'm +sorry. It was the best I could do, and you know I'm not slow. That means +they get half of all we take out. Oh, the old shark! the robber! I tried +to beat him down, but he stood pat; wouldn't budge. So I gave in, and we +signed the lay agreement, and now everything's in shape. Gee whiz! +didn't I give a sigh of relief when I got outside! He thinks I'm the +fall guy, and went off chuckling."</p> + +<p>He raised his voice triumphantly.</p> + +<p>"And now, boys, we've got the ground cinched, so get action on +yourselves. Here's where we make our first real stab at fortune. Here's +where we even <a class="pagenum" name="page_288" id="page_288" title="288"></a>up on the hard jabs she's handed us in the past; here's +where we score a bull's-eye, or I miss my guess. The gold's there, boys, +you can bank on that; and the harder we work the more we're going to get +of it. Now, we're going to work hard. We're going to make ordinary hard +work look like a Summer vacation. We're going to work for all we're +worth—and then some. Are you there, boys, are you there?"</p> + +<p>"We are," we shouted with one accord.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_289" id="page_289" title="289"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XVII</h2> +</div> + +<p>There was no time to lose. Every hour for us meant so much more of that +precious pay-dirt that lay under the frozen surface. The Winter leapt on +us with a swoop, a harsh, unconciliating Winter, that made out-door work +an unmitigated hardship. But there was the hope of fortune nerving and +bracing us, till we lost in it all thought of self. Nothing short of +desperate sickness, death even, would drive us from our posts. It was +with this dauntless spirit we entered on the task before us.</p> + +<p>And, indeed, it was one that called for all in a man of energy and +self-sacrifice. There was wood to get for the thawing of the ground; +there was a cabin to be built on the claim; and, lastly, there was a +vast dump to be taken out of the ground for the spring sluicing. We +planned things so that no man would be idle for a moment, and so that +every ounce of strength expended would show its result.</p> + +<p>The Halfbreed took charge, and we, recognising it as his show, obeyed +him implicitly. He decided to put down two holes to bed-rock, and, after +much deliberation, selected the places. This was a matter for the +greatest judgment and experience, and we were satisfied that he had +both.</p> + +<p>We ran up a little cabin and banked it nearly to the low eaves with +snow. By-and-bye more fell <a class="pagenum" name="page_290" id="page_290" title="290"></a>on the roof to the depth of three feet, so +that the place seemed like a huge white hummock. Only in front could you +recognise it as a cabin by the low doorway, where we had always to stoop +on entering. Within were our bunks, a tiny stove, a few boxes to sit on, +a few dishes, our grub; that was all. Often we regretted our big cabin +on the hill, with its calico-lined "den" and its separate kitchen. But +in this little box of a home we were to put in many weary months.</p> + +<p>Not that the time seemed long to us; we were too busy for that. Indeed, +often we wished it were twice as long. Snow had fallen in September, and +by December we were in an Arctic world of uncompromising harshness. Day +after day the glass stood between forty and fifty below zero. It was +hatefully, dangerously cold. It seemed as if the frost-fiend had a cruel +grudge against us. It made us grim—and careful. We didn't talk much in +those days. We just worked, worked, worked, and when we did talk it was +of our work, our ceaseless work.</p> + +<p>Would we strike it rich? It was all a gamble, the most exciting gamble +in the world. It thrilled our day hours with excitement; it haunted our +sleep; it lent strength to the pick-stroke and vigour to the +windlass-crank. It made us forget the bitter cold, till some one would +exclaim, and gently knead the fresh snow on our faces. The cold burned +our cheeks a fierce brick-red, and a frostbite showed on them like a +patch of white putty. The old scars, never healing, were like blotches +of lamp-black.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_291" id="page_291" title="291"></a>But neither cold nor fatigue could keep us away from the shaft and the +drift. We had gone down to bed-rock, and were tunnelling in to meet the +hole the Halfbreed had covered up. So far we had found nothing. Every +day we panned samples of the dirt, always getting colours, sometimes a +fifty-cent pan, but never what we dreamed of, hoped for.</p> + +<p>"Wait, boys, till we get a two-hundred-dollar pan, then we'll begin to +whoop it up some."</p> + +<p>Once the Company Manager came down on a dog-team. He looked over our +shaft. He wore a coon coat, with a cap of beaver, and huge fur mits hung +by a cord around his neck. He was massive and impassive. Spiky icicles +bristled around his mouth.</p> + +<p>"What luck, boys?" His breath came like steam.</p> + +<p>"None, so far," we told him, wearily, and off he went into the frozen +gloom, saying he hoped we would strike it before long.</p> + +<p>"Wait a while."</p> + +<p>We were working two men to a shaft, burning our ground over night. The +Prodigal and I manned the windlasses, while the old miners went down the +drifts. It was a cold, cold job standing there on that rugged platform +turning the windlass-crank. Long before it was fairly light we got to +our posts, and lowered our men into the hole. The air was warmer down +there; but the work was harder, more difficult, more dangerous.</p> + +<p>At noon there was no sunshine, only a wan, ashen light that suffused the +sky. A deathlike stillness lay <a class="pagenum" name="page_292" id="page_292" title="292"></a>on the valley, not a quiver or movement +in leaf or blade. The snow was a shroud, smooth save where the funereal +pines pricked through. In that intensity of cold, that shivering agony +of desolation, it seemed as if nature was laughing at us—the Cosmic +Laugh.</p> + +<p>Our meals were hurriedly cooked and bolted. We grudged every moment of +our respite from toil. At night we often were far too weary to undress. +We lost our regard for cleanliness; we neglected ourselves. Always we +talked of the result of the day's panning and the chances of to-morrow. +Surely we would strike it soon.</p> + +<p>"Wait awhile."</p> + +<p>Colder it grew and colder. Our kerosene flowed like mush. The water +froze solid in our kettle. Our bread was full of icy particles. +Everything had to be thawed out continually. It was tiresome, +exasperating, when we were in such a devil of a hurry. It kept us back; +it angered us, this pest of a cold. Our tempers began to suffer. We were +short, taciturn. The strain was beginning to tell on us.</p> + +<p>"Wait awhile."</p> + +<p>Then, one afternoon, the Something happened. It was Jim who was the +chosen one. About three o'clock he signalled to be hoisted up, and when +he appeared he was carrying a pan of dirt. "Call the others," he said.</p> + +<p>All together in the little cabin we stood round, while Jim washed out +the pan in snow-water melt over our stove. I will never forget how +eagerly we watched the gravel, and the whirling, dexterous movements <a class="pagenum" name="page_293" id="page_293" title="293"></a>of +the old man. We could see gleams of yellow in the muddy water. Thrills +of joy and hope went through us. We had got the thing, the big thing, at +last.</p> + +<p>"Hurry, Jim," I said, "or I'll die of suspense."</p> + +<p>Patiently he went on. There it was at last in the bottom of the +pan—sweeter to our eyes than to a woman the sight of her first-born. +There it lay, glittering, gleaming gold, fine gold, coarse gold, nuggety +gold.</p> + +<p>"Now, boys, you can whoop it up," said Jim quietly; "for there's many +and many a pan like it down there in the drift."</p> + +<p>But never a whoop. What was the matter with us? When the fortune we had +longed for so eagerly came at last, we did not greet it even with a +cheer. Oh, we were painfully silent.</p> + +<p>Solemnly we shook hands all round.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_294" id="page_294" title="294"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XVIII</h2> +</div> + +<p>"Now to weigh it," said the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>On the tiny pair of scales we turned it out—ninety-five dollars' worth.</p> + +<p>Well, it was a good start, and we were all possessed with a frantic +eagerness to go down in the drift. I crawled along the tunnel. There, in +the face of it, I could see the gold shining, and the longer I looked +the more I seemed to see. It was rich, rich. I picked out and burnished +a nugget as large as a filbert. There were lots of others like it. It +was a strike. The question was: how much was there of it? The Halfbreed +soon settled our doubts on that score.</p> + +<p>"It stands to reason the pay runs between where I first found it and +where we've struck it now. That alone means a tidy stake for each of us. +Say, boys, if you were to cover all that distance with twenty-dollar +gold pieces six feet wide, and packed edge to edge, I wouldn't take them +for our interest in that bit of ground. I see a fine big ranch in +Manitoba for my share; ay, and hired help to run it. The only thing that +sticks in my gullet is that fifty per cent. to the Company."</p> + +<p>"Well, we can't kick," I said; "we'd never have got the lay if they'd +had a hunch. My! won't they be sore?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_295" id="page_295" title="295"></a>Sure enough, in a few days the news leaked out, and the Manager came +post-haste.</p> + +<p>"Hear you've struck it rich, boys."</p> + +<p>"So rich that I guess we'll have to pack down gravel from the benches to +mix in before we can sluice it," said the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>"You don't say. Well, I'll have to have a man on the ground to look +after our interests."</p> + +<p>"All right. It means a good thing for you."</p> + +<p>"Yes, but it would have meant a better if we had worked it ourselves. +However, you boys deserve your luck. Hello, the devil——"</p> + +<p>He turned round and saw the Halfbreed. He gave a long whistle and went +away, looking pensive.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>It was the night of the discovery when the Prodigal made us an address.</p> + +<p>"Look here, boys; do you know what this means? It means victory; it +means freedom, happiness, the things we want, the life we love. To me it +means travel, New York, Paris, evening dress, the opera. To McCrimmon +here it means his farm. To each according to his notion, it means the +'Things That Matter.'</p> + +<p>"Now, we've just begun. The hardest part is to come, is to get out the +fortune that's right under our feet. We're going to get every cent of +it, boys. There's a little over three months to do it in, leaving about +a month to make sluice-boxes and clean up the dirt. We've got to work +like men at a burning barn. We've worked hard, but we've got to go <a class="pagenum" name="page_296" id="page_296" title="296"></a>some +yet. For my part, I'm willing to do stunts that will make my previous +record look like a plugged dime. I guess you boys all feel the same +way."</p> + +<p>"You bet we do."</p> + +<p>"Well, nuf sed; let's get busy."</p> + +<p>So, once more, with redoubled energy, we resumed our tense, unremitting +round of toil. Now, however, it was vastly different. Every bucket of +dirt meant money in our pockets, every stroke of the pick a dollar. Not +that it was all like the first rich pocket we had struck. It proved a +most erratic and puzzling paystreak—one day rich beyond our dreams, +another too poor to pay for the panning. We swung on a pendulum of hope +and despair. Perhaps this made it all the more exciting, and stimulated +us unnaturally, and always we cursed that primitive method of mining +that made every bucket of dirt the net result of infinite labor.</p> + +<p>Every day our two dumps increased in size (for we had struck pay on the +other shaft), and every day our assurance and elation increased +correspondingly. It was bruited around that we had one of the richest +bits of ground in the country, and many came to gaze at us. It used to +lighten my labours at the windlass to see their looks of envy and to +hear their awe-stricken remarks.</p> + +<p>"That's one of them," they would say; "one of the lucky four, the lucky +laymen."</p> + +<p>So, as the facts, grossly exaggerated, got noised abroad, they came to +call us the "Lucky Laymen."</p> + +<p>Looking back, there will always seem to me something <a class="pagenum" name="page_297" id="page_297" title="297"></a>weird and +incomprehensible in those twilight days, an unreality, a vagueness like +some dreary, feverish dream. For three months I did not see my face in a +mirror. Not that I wanted to, but I mention this just to show how little +we thought of ourselves.</p> + +<p>In like manner, never did I have a moment's time to regard my inner self +in the mirror of consciousness. No mental analysis now; no long hours of +retrospection, no tête-à-tête interviews with my soul. At times I felt +as if I had lost my identity. I was a slave of the genie Gold, releasing +it from its prison in the frozen bowels of the earth. I was an automaton +turning a crank in the frozen stillness of the long, long night.</p> + +<p>It was a life despotically objective, and now, as I look back, it seems +as if I had never lived it at all. I seem to look down a long, dark +funnel and see a little machine-man bearing my semblance, patiently, +steadily, wearily turning the handle of a windlass in the clear, +lancinating cold of those sombre, silent days.</p> + +<p>I say "bearing my outward semblance," and yet I sometimes wonder if that +rough-bearded figure in heavy woollen clothes looked the least like me. +I wore heavy sweaters, mackinaw trousers, thick German socks and +moccasins. From frequent freezing my cheeks were corroded. I was +miserably thin, and my eyes had a wild, staring expression through the +pupils dilating in the long darkness. Yes, mentally and physically I was +no more like myself than a convict enduring out his life in the soulless +routine of a prison.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_298" id="page_298" title="298"></a>The days were lengthening marvellously. We noted the fact with dull +joy. It meant more light, more time, more dirt in the dump. So it came +about that, from ten hours of toil, we went to twelve, to fourteen; +then, latterly, to sixteen, and the tension of it was wearing us down to +skin and bone.</p> + +<p>We were all feeling wretched, overstrained, ill-nourished, and it was +only voicing the general sentiment when, one day, the Prodigal remarked:</p> + +<p>"I guess I'll have to let up for a couple of days. My teeth are all on +the bum. I'm going to town to see a dentist."</p> + +<p>"Let me look at them," said the Halfbreed.</p> + +<p>He looked. The gums were sullen, unwholesome-looking.</p> + +<p>"Why, it's a touch of scurvy, lad; a little while, and you'd be spitting +out your teeth like orange pips; your legs would turn black, and when +you squeezed your fingers into the flesh the hole would stay. You'd get +rotten, then you'd mortify and die. But it's the easiest thing in the +world to cure. Nothing responds to treatment so readily."</p> + +<p>He made a huge brew of green-spruce tea, of which we all partook, and in +a few days the Prodigal was fit again.</p> + +<p>It was mid-March when we finished working out our ground. We had done +well, not so well, perhaps, as we had hoped for, but still magnificently +well. Never had men worked harder, never fought more desperately for +success. There were our two <a class="pagenum" name="page_299" id="page_299" title="299"></a>dumps, pyramids of gold-permeated dirt at +whose value we could only guess. We had wrested our treasure from the +icy grip of the eternal frost. Now it remained—and O, the sweetness of +it—to glean the harvest of our toil.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_300" id="page_300" title="300"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XIX</h2> +</div> + +<p>"The water's beginning to run, boys," said the Halfbreed. "A few more +days and we'll be able to start sluicing."</p> + +<p>The news was like a flood of sunshine to us. For days we had been fixing +up the boxes and getting everything in readiness. The sun beat strongly +on the snow, which almost visibly seemed to retreat before it. The +dazzlingly white surface was crisp and flaky, and around the tree boles +curving hollows had formed. Here and there brown earth peered nakedly +through. Every day the hillside runnels grew in strength.</p> + +<p>We were working at the mouth of a creek down which ran a copious little +stream all through the Springtime. We tapped it some distance above us, +and ran part of it along our line of sluice-boxes. These boxes went +between our two dumps, so that it was easy to shovel in from both sides. +Nothing could have been more convenient.</p> + +<p>At last, after a day of hot sunshine, we found quite a freshet of water +coming down the boxes, leaping and dancing in the morning light. I +remember how I threw in the first shovelful of dirt, and how good it was +to see the bright stream discolour as our friend the water began his +magic work. For three days we shovelled in, and on the fourth we made a +clean-up.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_301" id="page_301" title="301"></a>"I guess it's time," said Jim, "or those riffles will be gettin' choked +up."</p> + +<p>And, sure enough, when we ran off the water there were some of them +almost full of the yellow metal, wet and shiny, gloriously agleam in the +morning light.</p> + +<p>"There's ten thousand dollars if there's an ounce," said the Company's +man, and the weigh-up proved he was right. So the gold was packed in two +long buckskin pokes and sent into town to be deposited in the bank.</p> + +<p>Day after day we went on shovelling in, and about twice a week we made a +clean-up. The month of May was half over when we had only a third of our +dirt run through the boxes. We were terribly afraid of the water failing +us, and worked harder than ever. Indeed, it was difficult to tell when +to leave off. The nights were never dark now; the daylight was over +twenty hours in duration. The sun described an ellipse, rising a little +east of north and setting a little west of north. We shovelled in till +we were too exhausted to lift another ounce. Then we lay down in our +clothes and slept as soon as we touched the pillow.</p> + +<p>"There's eighty thousand to our credit in the bank, and only a third of +our dump's gone. Hooray, boys!" said the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>About one o'clock in the morning the birds began to sing, and the sunset +glow had not faded from the sky ere the sunrise quickened it with life +once more. Who that has lived in the North will ever forget the charm, +the witchery of those midnight skies, where <a class="pagenum" name="page_302" id="page_302" title="302"></a>the fires of the sun are +banked and never cold? Surely, long after all else is forgotten, will +linger the memory of those mystic nights with all their haunting spell +of weird, disconsolate solitude.</p> + +<p>One afternoon I was working on the dump, intent on shovelling in as much +dirt as possible before supper, when, on looking up, who should greet me +but Locasto. Since our last interview in town I had not seen him, and, +somehow, this sudden sight of him came as a kind of a shock. Yet the +manner of the man as he approached me was hearty in the extreme. He held +out his great hand to me, and, as I had no desire to antagonise him, I +gave him my own.</p> + +<p>He was riding. His big, handsome face was bronzed, his black eyes clear +and sparkling, his white teeth gleamed like mammoth ivory. He certainly +was a dashing, dominant figure of a man, and, in spite of myself, I +admired him.</p> + +<p>His manner in his salutation was cordial, even winning.</p> + +<p>"I've just been visiting some of my creek properties," he said. "I heard +you fellows had made a good strike, and I thought I'd come down and +congratulate you. It is pretty good, isn't it?"</p> + +<p>"Yes," I said; "not quite so good as we expected, but we'll all have a +tidy sum."</p> + +<p>"I'm glad. Well, I suppose you'll go outside this Fall."</p> + +<p>"No, I think I'll stay in. You see, we've the Gold Hill property, which +looks promising; and then we have two claims on Ophir."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_303" id="page_303" title="303"></a>"Oh, Ophir! I don't think you'll ever take a fortune out of Ophir. I +bought a claim there the other day. The man pestered me, so I gave him +five thousand for it, just to get rid of him. It's eight below."</p> + +<p>"Why," I said, "that's the claim I staked and got beaten out of."</p> + +<p>"You don't say so. Well, now, that's too bad. I bought it from a man +named Spankiller; his brother's a clerk in the gold office. Tell you +what I'll do. I'll let you have it for the five thousand I gave for it."</p> + +<p>"No," I answered, "I don't think I want it now."</p> + +<p>"All right; think it over, anyway. If you should change your mind, let +me know. Well, I must go. I've got to get into town to-night. That's my +mule-train back there on the trail. I've got pretty nearly ten thousand +ounces over there."</p> + +<p>I looked and saw the mules with the gold-packs slung over their backs. +There were four men to guard them, and it seemed to me that in one of +these men I recognised the little wizened figure of the Worm.</p> + +<p>I shivered.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I've done pretty well," he continued; "but it don't make any +difference. I spend it as fast as I get it. A month ago I didn't have +enough ready cash to pay my cigar bill, yet I could have gone to the +bank and borrowed a hundred thousand. It was there in the dump. Oh, it's +a rum business this mining. Well, good-bye."</p> + +<p>He was turning to go when, suddenly, he stopped.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_304" id="page_304" title="304"></a>"Oh, by the way, I saw a friend of yours before I left. No need to +mention names, you lucky dog. When's the big thing coming off? Well, I +must congratulate you again. She looks sweeter than ever. By-by."</p> + +<p>He was off, leaving a very sinister impression on my mind. In his +parting smile there was a trace of mockery that gravely disquieted me. I +had thought much of Berna during the past few months, but as the gold +fever took hold of me I put her more and more from my mind. I told +myself that all this struggle was for her. In the thought that she was +safe I calmed all anxious fear. Sometimes by not thinking so much of +dear ones, one can be more thoughtful of them. So it was with me. I knew +that all my concentration of effort was for her sake, and would bring +her nearer to me. Yet at Locasto's words all my old longing and +heartache vehemently resurged.</p> + +<p>In spite of myself, I was the prey of a growing uneasiness. Things +seemed vastly different, now success had come to me. I could not bear to +think of her working in that ambiguous restaurant, rubbing shoulders +with its unspeakable habitués. I wondered how I had ever deceived myself +into thinking it was all right. I began to worry, so that I knew only a +trip into Dawson would satisfy me. Accordingly, I hired a big Swede to +take my place at the shovel, and set out once more on the hillside trail +for town.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_305" id="page_305" title="305"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XX</h2> +</div> + +<p>I found the town more animated than ever, the streets more populous, the +gaiety more unrestrained. Everywhere were flaunting signs of a plethoric +wealth. The anxious Cheechako had vanished from the scene, and the +victorious miner masqueraded in his place. He swaggered along in the +glow of the Spring sunshine, a picture of perfect manhood, bronzed and +lean and muscular. He was brimming over with the exuberance of health. +He had come into town to "live" things, to transmute this yellow dust +into happiness, to taste the wine of life, to know the lips of flame.</p> + +<p>It was the day of the Man with the Poke. He was King. The sheer +animalism of him overflowed in midnight roysterings, in bacchanalian +revels, in debauches among the human débris of the tenderloin.</p> + +<p>Every one was waiting for him, to fleece him, rob him, strip him. It was +also the day of the man behind the bar, of the gambler, of the harpy.</p> + +<p>My strange, formless fears for Berna were soon set at rest. She was +awaiting me. She looked better than I had ever seen her, and she +welcomed me with an eager delight that kindled me to rapture.</p> + +<p>"Just think of it," she said, "only two weeks, and we'll be together for +always. It seems too good to be true. Oh, my dear, how can I ever love +you <a class="pagenum" name="page_306" id="page_306" title="306"></a>enough? How happy we are going to be, aren't we?"</p> + +<p>"We're going to be happier than any two people ever were before," I +assured her.</p> + +<p>We crossed the Yukon to the green glades of North Dawson, and there, on +a little rise, we sat down, side by side. How I wish I could put into +words the joy that filled my heart! Never was lad so happy as I. I spoke +but little, for love's silences are sweeter than all words. Well, well I +mind me how she looked: just like a picture, her hands clasped on her +lap, her eyes star-bright, angel-sweet, mother-tender. From time to time +she would give me a glance so full of trust and love that my heart would +leap to her, and wave on wave of passionate tenderness come sweeping +over me.</p> + +<p>It may be there was something humble in my stintless adoration; it may +be I was like a child for the pleasure of her nearness; it may be my +eyes told all too well of the fire that burned within me, but O, the +girl was kind, gentler than forgiveness, sweeter than all heaven. +Caressingly she touched my hair. I kissed her fingers, kissed them again +and again; and then she lifted my hand to her lips, and I felt her kiss +fall upon it. How wondrously I tingled at the touch. My hand seemed mine +no longer—a consecrated thing. Proud, happy me!</p> + +<p>"Yes," she went on, "doesn't it seem as if we were dreaming? You know, I +always thought it was a dream, and now it's coming true. You'll take me +away from this place, won't you, boy?—far, far away. <a class="pagenum" name="page_307" id="page_307" title="307"></a>I'll tell you +now, dear, I've borne it all for your sake, but I don't think I could +bear it any longer. I would rather die than sink in the mire, and yet +you can't imagine how this life affects one. It's sad, sad, but I don't +get shocked at things in the way I used to. You know, I sometimes think +a girl, no matter how good, sweet, modest to begin with, placed in such +surroundings could fall gradually."</p> + +<p>I agreed with her. Too well I knew I was becoming calloused to the evils +around me. Such was the insidious corruption of the gold-camp, I now +regarded with indifference things that a year ago I would have shrunk +from with disgust.</p> + +<p>"Well, it will be all over very soon, won't it, dear? I don't know what +I'd have done if it hadn't been for the rough miners. They've been so +kind to me. When they saw I was straight and honest they couldn't be +good enough. They shielded me in every way, and kept back the other kind +of men. Even the women have been my friends and helped me."</p> + +<p>She looked at me archly.</p> + +<p>"And, you know, I've had ever so many offers of marriage, too, from +honest, rough, kindly men—and I've refused them ever so gracefully."</p> + +<p>"Has Locasto ever made any more overtures?"</p> + +<p>Her face grew grave.</p> + +<p>"Yes, about a month ago he besieged me, gave me no rest, made all kinds +of proposals and promises. He wanted to divorce his 'outside' wife and +marry me. He wanted to settle a hundred thousand dollars on me. He tried +everything in his power to force <a class="pagenum" name="page_308" id="page_308" title="308"></a>me to his will. Then, when he saw it +was no use, he turned round and begged me to let him be my friend. He +spoke so nicely of you. He said he would help us in any way he could. +He's everything that's kind to me now. He can't do enough for me. Yet, +somehow, I don't trust him."</p> + +<p>"Well, my precious," I assured her, "all danger, doubt, despair, will +soon be over. Locasto and the rest of them will be as shadows, never to +haunt my little girl again. The Great, Black North will fade away, will +dissolve into the land of sunshine and flowers and song. You will forget +it."</p> + +<p>"The Great Black North.—I will never forget it, and I will always bless +it. It has given me my love, the best love in all the world."</p> + +<p>"O my darling, my Life, I'll take you away from it all soon, soon. We'll +go to my home, to Garry, to Mother. They will love you as I love you."</p> + +<p>"I'm sure I will love them. What you have told me of them makes them +seem very real to me. Will you not be ashamed of me?"</p> + +<p>"I will be proud, proud of you, my girl."</p> + +<p>Ah, would I not! I looked at that flower-like face the sunshine +glorified so, the pretty, bright hair falling away from her low brow in +little waves, the lily throat, the delicately patrician features, the +proud poise of her head. Who would not have been proud of her? She awoke +all that was divine in me. I looked as one might look on a vision, +scarce able to believe it real.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_309" id="page_309" title="309"></a>Suddenly she pointed excitedly.</p> + +<p>"Look, dear, look at the rainbow. Isn't it wonderful? Isn't it +beautiful?"</p> + +<p>I gazed in rapt admiration. Across the river a shower had fallen, and +the clouds, clearing away abruptly, had left there a twin rainbow of +matchless perfection. Its double arch was poised as accurately over the +town as if it had been painted there. Each hoop was flawless in form, +lovely in hue, tenderly luminous, exquisite in purity. Never had I seen +the double iris so immaculate in colouring, and, with its bases resting +on the river, it curved over the gold-born city like a frame of ethereal +beauty.</p> + +<p>"Does it not seem, dear, like an answer to our prayer, an omen of good +hope, a promise for the future?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, beloved, our future, yours and mine. The clouds are rolling away. +All is bright with sunshine once again, and God sends His rainbow to +cheer and comfort us. It will not be long now. On the first day of June, +beloved, I will come to you, and we will be made man and wife. You will +be waiting for me, will you not?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, yes, waiting ever so eagerly, my lover, counting every hour, every +minute."</p> + +<p>I kissed her passionately, and we held each other tightly for a moment. +I saw come into her eyes that look which comes but once into the eyes of +a maid, that look of ineffable self-surrender, of passionate +abandonment. Life is niggard of such moments, yet can our lives be +summed up in them.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_310" id="page_310" title="310"></a>She rested her head on my shoulder; her lips lay on mine, and they +moved faintly.</p> + +<p>"Yes, lover, yes, the first of June. Don't fail me, honey, don't fail +me."</p> + +<p>We parted, buoyant with hope, in an ecstasy of joy. She was for me, this +beautiful, tender girl, for me. And the time was nigh when she should be +mine, mine to adore until the end. Always would she be by my side; daily +could I plot and plan to give her pleasure; every hour by word and look +and act could I lavish on her the exhaustless measure of my love. Ah! +life would be too short for me. Could aught in this petty purblind +existence of ours redeem it and exalt it so: her love, this pure sweet +girl's, and mine. Let nations grapple, let Mammon triumph, let +pestilence o'erwhelm; what matter, we love, we love. O proud, happy me!</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>I got back to the claim. Everything was going merrily, but I felt little +desire to resume my toil. I was strangely wearied, worn out somehow. Yet +I took up my shovel again with a body that rebelled in every tissue. +Never had I felt like this before. Something was wrong with me. I was +weak. At night I sweated greatly. I cared not to eat.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>"Well," said the Prodigal, "it's all over but the shouting. From my +calculations we've cleaned up two hundred and six thousand dollars. +That's a hundred and three between us four. It's cost us about three to +get out the stuff; so there will be, <a class="pagenum" name="page_311" id="page_311" title="311"></a>roughly speaking, about +twenty-five thousand for each of us."</p> + +<p>How jubilant every one was looking—every one but me. Somehow I felt as +if money didn't matter just then, for I was sick, sick.</p> + +<p>"Why, what's the matter?" said the Prodigal, staring at me curiously. +"You look like a ghost."</p> + +<p>"I feel like one, too," I answered. "I'm afraid I'm in for a bad spell. +I want to lie down awhile, boys ... I'm tired.... The first of June, +I've got a date on the first of June. I must keep it, I must.... Don't +let me sleep too long, boys. I mustn't fail. It's a matter of life and +death. The first of June...."</p> + +<p>Alas, on the first of June I lay in the hospital, raving and tossing in +the clutches of typhoid fever.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_312" id="page_312" title="312"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XXI</h2> +</div> + +<p>I was lying in bed, and a heavy weight was pressing on me, so that, in +spite of my struggles, I could not move. I was hot, insufferably hot. +The blood ran boiling through my veins. My flesh was burning up. My +brain would not work. It was all cobwebs, murky and stale as a +charnel-house. Yet at times were strange illuminations, full of terror +and despair. Blood-red lights and purple shadows alternated in my +vision. Then came the dreams.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>There was always Berna. Through a mass of grimacing, greed-contorted +faces gradually there formed and lingered her sweet and pensive one. We +were in a strange costume, she and I. It seemed like that of the early +Georges. We were running away, fleeing from some one. For her sake a +great fear and anxiety possessed me. We were eloping, I fancied.</p> + +<p>There was a marsh to cross, a hideous quagmire, and our pursuers were +close. We started over the quaking ground, then, suddenly, I saw her +sink. I rushed to aid her, and I, too, sank. We were to our necks in the +soft ooze, and there on the bank, watching us, was the foremost of our +hunters. He laughed at our struggles; he mocked us; he rejoiced to see +us <a class="pagenum" name="page_313" id="page_313" title="313"></a>drown. And in my dream the face of the man seemed strangely like +Locasto.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>We were in a bower of roses, she and I. It was still further back in +history. We seemed to be in the garden of a palace. I was in doublet and +hose, and she wore a long, flowing kirtle. The air was full of fragrance +and sunshine. Birds were singing. A fountain scattered a shower of +glittering diamonds on the breeze. She was sitting on the grass, while I +reclined by her side, my head lying on her lap. Above me I could see her +face like a lily bending over me. With dainty fingers she crumpled a +rose and let the petals snow down on me.</p> + +<p>Then, suddenly, I was seized, torn away from her by men in black, who +roughly choked her screams. I was dragged off, thrown into a foul cell, +left many days. Then, one night, I was dragged forth and brought before +a grim tribunal in a hall of gloom and horror. They pronounced my +doom—Death. The chief Inquisitor raised his mask, and in those gloating +features I recognised—Locasto.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Again it seemed as if I were still further back in history, in some city +under the Roman rule. I was returning from the Temple with my bride. How +fair and fresh and beautiful she was, garlanded with flowers and +radiantly happy. Again it was Berna.</p> + +<p>Suddenly there are shouts, the beating of drums, the clash of cymbals. +The great Governor of the <a class="pagenum" name="page_314" id="page_314" title="314"></a>Province is coming. He passes with his +retinue. Suddenly he catches sight of her whom I have but newly wed. He +stops. He asks who is the maid. They tell him. He looks at me with +haughty contempt. He gives a sign. His servants seize her and drag her +screaming away. I try to follow, to kill him. I, too, am seized, +overpowered. They bind me, put out my eyes. The Roman sees them do it. +He laughs as the red-hot iron kisses my eye-balls. He mocks me, telling +me what a dainty feast awaits him in my bride. Again I see Locasto.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Then came another phase of my delirium, in which I struggled to get to +her. She was waiting for me, wanting me, breaking her heart at my delay. +O, Berna, my soul, my life, since the beginning of things we were fated. +'Tis no flesh love, but something deeper, something that has its source +at the very core of being. It is not for your sweet face, your gentle +spirit, my own, that you are dearer to me than all else: it is +because—you are you. If all the world were to turn against you, flout +you, stone you, then would I rush to your side, shield you, die with +you. If you were attainted with leprosy, I would enter the lazar-house +for your sake.</p> + +<p>"O Berna, I must see you, I must, I must. Let me go to her ... now ... +dear! She's calling me. She's in trouble. Oh, for the love of God, let +me go ... let me go, I say.... Curse you, I will. She's in trouble. You +can't hold me. I'm stronger than you all when she calls.... Let me ... +let <a class="pagenum" name="page_315" id="page_315" title="315"></a>me.... Oh, oh, oh ... you're hurting me so. I'm weak, yes, weak as +a baby.... Berna, my child, my poor little girl, I can do nothing. +There's a mountain weighing me down. There's a slab of gold on my chest. +They're burning me up. My veins are on fire. I can't come.... I can't, +dear.... I'm tired...."</p> + +<p>Then the fever, the ravings, the wild threshing of my pillow, all passed +away, and I was left limp, weak, helpless, resigned to my fate.</p> + +<p>I was on the sunny slope of convalescence. The Prodigal had remained +with me as long as I was in danger, but now that I had turned the +corner, he had gone back to the creeks, so that I was left with only my +thoughts for company. As I turned and twisted on my narrow cot it seemed +as if the time would never pass. All I wanted was to get better fast, +and to get out again. Then, I thought, I would marry Berna and go +"outside." I was sick of the country, of everything.</p> + +<p>I was lying thinking over these things, when I became aware that the man +in the cot to the right was trying to attract my attention. He had been +brought in that very morning, said to have been kicked by a horse. One +of his ribs was broken, and his face badly smashed. He was in great +pain, but quite conscious, and he was making stealthy motions to me.</p> + +<p>"Say, mate," he said, "I piped you off soon's I set me lamps on you. +Don't youse know me?"</p> + +<p>I looked at the bandaged face wonderingly.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_316" id="page_316" title="316"></a>"Don't you spot de man dat near let youse down de shaft?"</p> + +<p>Then, with a great start, I saw it was the Worm.</p> + +<p>"'Taint no horse done me up," he said in a hoarse whisper; "'twas a man. +You know de man, de worst devil in all Alaska, Black Jack. Bad luck to +him! He knocked me down and give me de leather. But I'm goin' to get +even some day. I'm just laying for him. I wouldn't be in his shoes for +de richest claim in de Klondike."</p> + +<p>The man's eyes glittered vengefully between the white bandages.</p> + +<p>"'Twas all on account of de little girl he done it. You know de girl I +mean. Black Jack's dead stuck on her, an' de furder she stands him off +de more set he is to get her. Youse don't know dat man. He's never had +de cold mit yet."</p> + +<p>"Tell me what's the matter, for Heaven's sake."</p> + +<p>"Well, when youse didn't come, de little girl she got worried. I used to +be doin' chores round de restaurant, an' she asks me to take a note up +to you. So I said I would. But I got on a drunk dat day, an' for a week +after I didn't draw a sober breath. When I gets around again I told her +I'd seen you an' given you de note an' you was comin' in right away."</p> + +<p>"Heaven forgive you for that."</p> + +<div class="figcenter" style='width:500px'> +<a name="illus-002" id="illus-002"></a> +<img src="images/illus-316.jpg" alt="Then, as I hung half in, half out of the window, he clutched me by the throat" title="" /><br /> +<span class="caption">Then, as I hung half in, half out of the window, he clutched me by the throat</span> +</div> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_317" id="page_317" title="317"></a>"Yep, dat's what I say now. But it's all too late. Well, a week went on +an' you never showed up, an' meantime Locasto was pesterin' her cruel. +She got mighty peaked like, pale as a ghost, an' I could see she cried +most all her nights. Den she gives me anudder note. She gives me a +hundred dollars to take dat note to you. I said she could lay on me dis +time. I was de hurry-up kid, an' I starts off. But Black Jack must have +cottoned on, for he meets me back of de town an' taxes me wid takin' a +message. Den he sets on me like a wild beast an' does me up good and +proper. But I'll fix him yet."</p> + +<p>"Where are the notes?" I cried.</p> + +<p>"In de pocket of me coat. Tell de nurse to fetch in me clothes, an' I'll +give dem to youse."</p> + +<p>The nurse brought the clothes, but the little man was too sore to move.</p> + +<p>"Feel in de inside pocket."</p> + +<p>There were the notes, folded very small, and written in pencil. There +was a strange faintness at my heart, and my fingers trembled as I opened +them. Fear, fear was clutching me, compressing me in an agonising grip.</p> + +<p>Here was the first.</p> + +<div class="blockquot"><p>"<span class="smcap">My Darling Boy</span>: Why didn't you come? I was all ready for you. O, +it was such a terrible disappointment. I've cried myself to sleep +every night since. Has anything happened to you, dear? For Heaven's +sake write or send a message. I can't bear the suspense.</p> + +<p style='text-align:right'> +"Your loving <br /> +"<span class="smcap">Berna</span>."<br /> +</p> +</div> + +<p>Blankly, dully, almost mechanically, I read the second.</p> +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_318" id="page_318" title="318"></a></p> +<div class="blockquot"><p>"O, come, my dear, at once. I'm in serious danger. He's grown +desperate. Swears if he can't get me by fair means he'll have me by +foul. I'm terribly afraid. Why ar'n't you here to protect me? Why +have you failed me? O, my darling, have pity on your poor little +girl. Come quickly before it is too late."</p></div> + +<p>It was unsigned.</p> + +<p>Heavens! I must go to her at once. I was well enough. I was all right +again. Why would they not let me go to her? I would crawl on my hands +and knees if need be. I was strong, so strong now.</p> + +<p>Ha! there were the Worm's clothes. It was after midnight. The nurse had +just finished her rounds. All was quiet in the ward.</p> + +<p>Dizzily I rose and slipped into the frayed and greasy garments. There +were the hospital slippers. I must wear them. Never mind a hat.</p> + +<p>I was out in the street. I shuffled along, and people stared at me, but +no one delayed me. I was at the restaurant now. She wasn't there. Ah! +the cabin on the hill.</p> + +<p>I was weaker than I had thought. Once or twice in a half-fainting +condition I stopped and steadied myself by holding a sapling tree. Then +the awful intuition of her danger possessed me, and gave me fresh +strength. Many times I stumbled, cutting myself on the sharp boulders. +Once I lay for a long time, half-unconscious, wondering if I would ever +be able to rise. I reeled like a drunken man. The way seemed endless, +yet stumbling, staggering on, there was the cabin at last.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_319" id="page_319" title="319"></a>A light was burning in the front room. Some one was at home at all +events. Only a few steps more, yet once again I fell. I remember +striking my face against a sharp rock. Then, on my hands and knees, I +crawled to the door.</p> + +<p>I raised myself and hammered with clenched fists. There was silence +within, then an agitated movement. I knocked again. Was the door ever +going to be opened? At last it swung inward, with a suddenness that +precipitated me inside the room.</p> + +<p>The Madam was standing over me where I had fallen. At sight of me she +screamed. Surprise, fear, rage, struggled for mastery on her face. "It's +him," she cried, "<i>him</i>." Peering over her shoulder, with ashy, +horrified face, I saw her trembling husband.</p> + +<p>"Berna," I gasped hoarsely. "Where is she? I want Berna. What are you +doing to her, you devils? Give her to me. She's mine, my promised bride. +Let me go to her, I say."</p> + +<p>The woman barred the way.</p> + +<p>All at once I realised that the air was heavy with a strange odour, the +odour of <i>chloroform</i>. Frenzied with fear, I rushed forward.</p> + +<p>Then the Amazon roused herself. With a cry of rage she struck me. +Savagely both of them came for me. I struggled, I fought; but, weak as I +was, they carried me before them and threw me from the door. I heard the +lock shoot; I was outside; I was impotent. Yet behind those log +walls.... Oh, it <a class="pagenum" name="page_320" id="page_320" title="320"></a>was horrible! horrible! Could such things be in God's +world? And I could do nothing.</p> + +<p>I was strong once more. I ran round to the back of the cabin. She was in +there, I knew. I rushed at the window and threw myself against it. The +storm frame had not been taken off. Crash! I burst through both sheets +of glass. I was cruelly cut, bleeding in a dozen places, yet I was half +into the room. There, in the dirty, drab light, I saw a face, the +fiendish, rage-distorted face of my dream. It was Locasto.</p> + +<p>He turned at the crash. With a curse he came at me. Then, as I hung half +in, half out of the window, he clutched me by the throat. Using all his +strength, he raised me further into the room, then he hurled me +ruthlessly out onto the rocks outside.</p> + +<p>I rose, reeling, covered with blood, blind, sick, speechless. Weakly I +staggered to the window. My strength was leaving me. "O God, sustain me! +Help me to save her."</p> + +<p>Then I felt the world go blank. I swayed; I clutched at the walls; I +fell.</p> + +<p>There I lay in a ghastly, unconscious heap.</p> + +<p>I had lost!</p> + +<hr class='major' /> + +<div style="margin: auto; text-align: center; padding-top: 1em; padding-bottom: 1em"> +<h2><a name="BOOK_IV" id="BOOK_IV"></a>BOOK IV</h2> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_321" id="page_321" title="321"></a> +<a name="THE_VORTEX_9034" id="THE_VORTEX_9034"></a> +<h3>THE VORTEX</h3> +</div> + +<table summary=""><tr><td><a class="pagenum" name="page_322" id="page_322" title="322"></a> +He burned a hole in the frozen muck; <br /> +He scratched the icy mould;<br /> +And there in six-foot dirt he struck<br /> +A sack or so of gold.<br /> +<br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">He burned a hole in the Decalogue,</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">And then it came about—</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">For Fortune's only a lousy rogue—</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2em;">His "pocket" petered out.</span><br /> +<br /> +And lo! it was but a year all told,<br /> +When there in the shadow grim,<br /> +But six feet deep in the icy mould,<br /> +They burned a hole for him. +</td></tr> +<tr><td align='right'>—"The Yukoner."</td></tr> +</table> + +<div> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_323" id="page_323" title="323"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER I</h2> +</div> + +<p>"No, no, I'm all right. Really I am. Please leave me alone. You want me +to laugh? Ha! Ha! There! Is that all right now?"</p> + +<p>"No, it isn't all right. It's very far from all right, my boy; and this +is where you and your little uncle here are going to have a real heart +to heart talk."</p> + +<p>It was in the big cabin on Gold Hill, and the Prodigal was addressing +me. He went on:</p> + +<p>"Now, look here, kid, when it comes to expressing my feelings I'm in the +kindergarten class; when it comes to handing out the high-toned dope I +drop my cue every time; but when I'm needed to do the solid pardner +stunt then you don't need to holler for me—I'm there. Well, I'm giving +you a straight line of talk. Ever since the start I've taken a strong +notion to you. You've always been ace-high with me, and there never will +come the day when you can't eat on my meal-ticket. We tackled the Trail +of Trouble together. You were always wanting to lift the heavy end of +the log, and when the God of Cussedness was doing his best to rasp a man +down to his yellow streak, you showed up white all through. Say, kid, +we've been in tight places together; we've been stacked up against hard +times together: <a class="pagenum" name="page_324" id="page_324" title="324"></a>and now I'll be gol-darned if I'm going to stand by and +see you go downhill, while the devil oils the bearings."</p> + +<p>"Oh, I'm all right," I protested.</p> + +<p>"Yes, you're all right," he echoed grimly. "In an impersonation of an +'all-right' man it's the hook for yours. I've seen 'all-right' men like +you hitting the hurry trail for the boneyard before now. You're 'all +right'! Why, for the last two hours you've been sitting with that +'just-break-the-news-to mother' expression of yours, and paying no more +heed to my cheerful brand of conversation than if I had been a measly +four-flusher. You don't eat more than a sick sparrow, and often you +don't bat an eye all night. You're looking worse than the devil in a +gale of wind. You've lost your grip, my boy. You don't care whether +school keeps or not. In fact, if it wasn't for your folks, you'd as lief +take a short cut across the Great Divide."</p> + +<p>"You're going it a little strong, old man."</p> + +<p>"Oh no, I'm not. You know you're sick of everything. Feel as if life's a +sort of penitentiary, and you've just got to do time. You don't expect +to get any more fun out of it. Look at me. Every day's my sunshine day. +If the sky's blue I like it; if it's grey I like it just as well. I +never worry. What's the use? Yesterday's a dead one; to-morrow's always +to-morrow. All we've got's the 'now,' and it's up to us to live it for +all we're worth. You can use up more human steam to the square inch in +worrying than you can to the square yard in hard <a class="pagenum" name="page_325" id="page_325" title="325"></a>work. Eliminate worry +and you've got the only system."</p> + +<p>"It's all very well for you to preach," I said, "you forget I've been a +pretty sick man."</p> + +<p>"That's no nursemaid's dream. You almost cashed in. Typhoid's a serious +proposition at the best; but when you take a crazy streak on top of it, +make a midnight getaway from the sick-ward and land up on the Slide +looking as if you'd been run through a threshing machine, well, you're +sure letting death get a short option on you. And you gave up. You +didn't want to fight. You shirked, but your youth and constitution +fought for you. They healed your wounds, they soothed your ravings, they +cooled your fever. They were a great team, and they pulled you through. +Seems as if they'd pulled you through a knot-hole, but they were on to +their job. And you weren't one bit grateful—seemed to think they had no +business to butt in."</p> + +<p>"My hurts are more than physical."</p> + +<p>"Yes, I know; there was that girl. You seemed to have a notion that that +was the only girl on God's green brush-pile. As I camped there by your +bedside listening to your ravings, and getting a strangle-hold on you +when you took it into your head to get funny, you blabbed out the whole +yarn. Oh, sonny, why didn't you tell your uncle? Why didn't you put me +wise? I could have given you the right steer. Have you ever known me +handle a job I couldn't make good at? I'm a whole matrimonial bureau +rolled into one. I'd have had you prancing to the tune of the wedding +<a class="pagenum" name="page_326" id="page_326" title="326"></a>march before now. But you kept mum as a mummy. Wouldn't even tell your +old pard. Now you've lost her."</p> + +<p>"Yes, I've lost her."</p> + +<p>"Did you ever see her after you came out of the hospital?"</p> + +<p>"Once, once only. It was the first day. I was as thin as a rail, as +white as the pillow from which I had just raised my head. Death's +reprieve was written all over me. I dragged along wearily, leaning on a +stick. I was thinking of her, thinking, thinking always. As I scanned +the faces of the crowds that thronged the streets, I thought only of her +face. Then suddenly she was before me. She looked like a ghost, poor +little thing; and for a fluttering moment we stared at each other, she +and I, two wan, weariful ghosts."</p> + +<p>"Yes, what did she say?"</p> + +<p>"Say! she said nothing. She just looked at me. Her face was cold as ice. +She looked at me as if she wanted to <i>pity</i> me. Then into her eyes there +came a shadow of bitterness, of bitterness and despair such as might +gloom the eyes of a lost soul. It unnerved me. It seemed as if she was +regarding me almost with horror, as if I were a sort of a leper. As I +stood there, I thought she was going to faint. She seemed to sway a +moment. Then she drew a great, gasping breath, and turning on her heel +she was gone."</p> + +<p>"She cut you?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, cut me dead, old fellow. And my only <a class="pagenum" name="page_327" id="page_327" title="327"></a>thought was of love for her, +eternal love. But I'll never forget the look on her face as she turned +away. It was as if I had lashed her with a whip. My God!"</p> + +<p>"And you've never seen her since?"</p> + +<p>"No, never. That was enough, wasn't it? She didn't want to speak to me +any more, never wanted to set eyes on me any more. I went back to the +ward; then, in a little, I came on here. My body was living, but my +heart was dead. It will never live again."</p> + +<p>"Oh, rot! You mustn't let the thing down you like that. It's going to +kill you in the end. Buck up! Be a man! If you don't care to live for +yourself, live for others. Anyway, it's likely all for the best. Maybe +love had you locoed. Maybe she wasn't really good. See now how she lives +openly with Locasto. They call her the Madonna; they say she looks more +like a virgin-martyr than the mistress of a dissolute man."</p> + +<p>I rose and looked at him, conscious that my face was all twisted with +the pain of the thought.</p> + +<p>"Look here," I said, "never did God put the breath of life into a better +girl. There's been foul play. I know that girl better than any one in +the world, and if every living being were to tell me she wasn't good I +would tell them they lied, they lied. I would burn at the stake +upholding that girl."</p> + +<p>"Then why did she turn you down so cruelly?"</p> + +<p>"I don't know; I can't understand it. I know so little about women. I +have not wavered a moment. <a class="pagenum" name="page_328" id="page_328" title="328"></a>To-day in my loneliness and heartbreak I +care and hunger for her more than ever. She's always here, right here in +my head, and no power can drive her out. Let them say of her what they +will, I would marry her to-morrow. It's killing me. I've aged ten years +in the last few months. Oh, if I only could forget."</p> + +<p>He looked at me thoughtfully.</p> + +<p>"I say, old man, do you ever hear from your old lady?"</p> + +<p>"Every mail."</p> + +<p>"You've often told me of your home. Say! just give us a mental frame-up +of it."</p> + +<p>"Glengyle? Yes. I can see the old place now, as plainly as a picture: +the green, dimpling hills all speckled with sheep; the grey house +nestling snugly in a grove of birch; the wild water of the burn leaping +from black pool to pool, just mad with the joy of life; the midges +dancing over the water in the still sunshine, and the trout jumping for +them—oh, it's the bonny, bonny place. You would think so too. You would +like it, tramping knee-deep in the heather, to see the moorcock rise +whirring at your feet; you would like to set sail with the fisher folk +after the silver herring. It would make you feel good to see the calm +faces of the shepherds, the peace in the eyes of the women. Ay, that was +the best of it all, the Rest of it, the calm of it. I was pretty happy +in those days."</p> + +<p>"You were happy—then why not go back? That's your proper play; go back +to your Mother. She <a class="pagenum" name="page_329" id="page_329" title="329"></a>wants you. You're pretty well heeled now. A little +money goes a long way over there. You can count on thirty thousand. +You'll be comfortable; you'll devote yourself to the old lady; you'll be +happy again. Time's a regular steam-roller when it comes to smoothing +out the rough spots in the past. You'll forget it all, this place, this +girl. It'll all seem like the after effects of a midnight Welsh rabbit. +You've got mental indigestion. I hate to see you go. I'm really sorry to +lose you; but it's your only salvation, so go, go!"</p> + +<p>Never had I thought of it before. Home! how sweet the word seemed. +Mother! yes, Mother would comfort me as no one else could. She would +understand. Mother and Garry! A sudden craving came over me to see them +again. Maybe with them I could find relief from this awful agony of +heart, this thing that I could scarce bear to think of, yet never ceased +to think of. Home! that was the solution of it all. Ah me! I would go +home.</p> + +<p>"Yes," I said, "I can't go too soon; I'll start to-morrow."</p> + +<p>So I rose and proceeded to gather together my few belongings. In the +early morning I would start out. No use prolonging the business of my +going. I would say good-bye to those two partners of mine, with a grip +of the hand, a tear in the eye, a husky: "Take care of yourself." That +would be all. Likely I would never see them again.</p> + +<p>Jim came in and sat down quietly. The old man had been very silent of +late. Putting on his <a class="pagenum" name="page_330" id="page_330" title="330"></a>spectacles, he took out his well-worn Bible and +opened it. Back in Dawson there was a man whom he hated with the hate +that only death can end, but for the peace of his soul he strove to +conquer it. The hate slumbered, yet at times it stirred, and into the +old man's eyes there came the tiger-look that had once made him a force +and a fear. Woe betide his enemy if that tiger ever woke.</p> + +<p>"I've been a-thinkin' out a scheme," said Jim suddenly, "an' I'm a-goin' +to put all of that twenty-five thousand of mine back into the ground. +You know us old miners are gamblers to the end. It's not the gold, but +the gettin' of it. It's the excitement, the hope, the anticipation of +one's luck that counts. We're fighters, an' we've just got to keep on +fightin'. We can't quit. There's the ground, and there's the precious +metals it's a-tryin' to hold back on us. It's up to us to get them out. +It's for the good of humanity. The miner an' the farmer rob no one. They +just get down to that old ground an' coax it an' beat it an' bully it +till it gives up. They're working for the good of humanity—the farmer +an' the miner." The old man paused sententiously.</p> + +<p>"Well, I can't quit this minin' business. I've just got to go on so +long's I've got health an' strength; an' I'm a-goin' to shove all I've +got once more into the muck. I stand to make a big pile, or lose my +wad."</p> + +<p>"What's your scheme, Jim?"</p> + +<p>"It's just this: I'm goin' to install a hydraulic plant on my Ophir +Creek claim, I've got a great notion of <a class="pagenum" name="page_331" id="page_331" title="331"></a>that claim. It's an +out-of-sight proposition for workin' with water. There's a little stream +runs down the hill, an' the hill's steep right there. There's one +hundred feet of fall, an' in Spring a mighty powerful bunch of water +comes a-tumblin' down. Well, I'm goin' to dam it up above, bring it down +a flume, hitch on a little giant, an' turn it loose to rip an' tear at +that there ground. I'm goin' to begin a new era in Klondike minin'."</p> + +<p>"Bully for you, Jim."</p> + +<p>"The values are there in the ground, an' I'm sick of the old slow way of +gettin' them out. This looks mighty good to me. Anyway, I'm a-goin' to +give it a trial. It's just the start of things; you'll see others will +follow suit. The individual miner's got to go; it's only a matter of +time. Some day you'll see this whole country worked over by them big +power dredges they've got down in Californy. You mark my words, boys; +the old-fashioned miner's got to go."</p> + +<p>"What are you going to do?"</p> + +<p>"Well, I've written out for piping an' a monitor, an' next Spring I hope +I'll have the plant in workin' order. The stuff's on the way now. Hullo! +Come in!"</p> + +<p>The visitors were Mervin and Hewson on their way to Dawson. These two +men had been successful beyond their dreams. It was just like finding +money the way fortune had pushed it in front of their noses. They were +offensively prosperous; they reeked of success.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_332" id="page_332" title="332"></a>In both of them a great change had taken place, a change only too +typical of the gold-camp. They seemed to have thawed out; they were +irrepressibly genial; yet instead of that restraint that had formerly +distinguished them, there was a grafted quality of weakness, of +flaccidity, of surrender to the enervating vices of the town.</p> + +<p>Mervin was remarkably thin. Dark hollows circled his eyes, and a curious +nervousness twisted his mouth. He was "a terror for the women," they +said. He lavished his money on them faster than he made it. He was +vastly more companionable than formerly, but somehow you felt his +virility, his fighting force had gone.</p> + +<p>In Hewson the change was even more marked. Those iron muscles had +couched themselves in easy flesh; his cheeks sagged; his eyes were +bloodshot and untidy. Nevertheless he was more of a good fellow, talked +rather vauntingly of his wealth, and affected a patronising manner. He +was worth probably two hundred thousand, and he drank a bottle of brandy +a day.</p> + +<p>In the case of these two men, as in the case of a thousand others in the +gold-camp, it seemed as if easy, unhoped-for affluence was to prove +their undoing. On the trail they had been supreme; in fen or forest, on +peak or plain, they were men among men, fighting with nature savagely, +exultantly. But when the fight was over their arms rested, their muscles +relaxed, they yielded to sensuous pleasures. It seemed as if to them +victory really meant defeat.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_333" id="page_333" title="333"></a>As I went on with my packing I paid but little heed to their talk. What +mattered it to me now, this babble of dumps and dust, of claims and +clean-ups? I was going to thrust it all behind me, blot it clean out of +my memory, begin my life anew. It would be a larger, more luminous life. +I would live for others. Home! Mother! again how exquisitely my heart +glowed at the thought of them.</p> + +<p>Then all at once I pricked up my ears. They were talking of the town, of +the men and women who were making it famous (or rather infamous), when +suddenly they spoke the name of Locasto.</p> + +<p>"He's gone off," Mervin was saying; "gone off on a big stampede. He got +pretty thick with some of the Peel River Indians, and found they knew of +a ledge of high-grade, free-milling quartz somewhere out there in the +Land Back of Beyond. He had a sample of it, and you could just see the +gold shining all through it. It was great stuff. Jack Locasto's the last +man to turn down a chance like that. He's the worst gambler in the +Northland, and no amount of wealth will ever satisfy him. So he's off +with an Indian and one companion, that little Irish satellite of his, +Pat Doogan. They have six months' grub. They'll be away all winter."</p> + +<p>"What's become of that girl of his?" asked Hewson, "the last one he's +been living with? You remember she came in on the boat with us. Poor +little kid! Blast that man anyway. He's not content with women of his +own kind, he's got to get his clutches on the best of them. That was a +good little <a class="pagenum" name="page_334" id="page_334" title="334"></a>girl before he got after her. If she was a friend of mine +I'd put a bullet in his ugly heart."</p> + +<p>Hewson growled like a wrathful bear, but Mervin smiled his cynical +smile.</p> + +<p>"Oh, you mean the Madonna," he said; "why, she's gone on the +dance-halls."</p> + +<p>They continued to talk of other things, but I did not hear them any +more. I was in a trance, and I only aroused when they rose to go.</p> + +<p>"Better say good-bye to the kid here," said the Prodigal; "he's going to +the old country to-morrow."</p> + +<p>"No, I'm not," I answered sullenly; "I'm just going as far as Dawson."</p> + +<p>He stared and expostulated, but my mind was made up. I would fight, +fight to the last.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_335" id="page_335" title="335"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER II</h2> +</div> + +<p>Berna on the dance-halls—words cannot convey all that this simple +phrase meant to me. For two months I had been living in a dull apathy of +pain, but this news galvanised me into immediate action.</p> + +<p>For although there were many degrees of dance-hall depravity, at the +best it meant a brand of ineffaceable shame. She had lived with Locasto, +had been recognised as his mistress—that was bad enough; but the +other—to be at the mercy of all, to be classed with the harpies that +preyed on the Man with the Poke, the vampires of the gold-camp. +Berna— Oh, it was unspeakable! The thought maddened me. The +needle-point of suffering that for weeks had been boring into my brain +seemed to have pierced its core at last.</p> + +<p>When the Prodigal expostulated with me I laughed—a bitter, mirthless +laugh.</p> + +<p>"I'm going to Dawson," I said, "and if it was hell itself, I'd go there +for that girl. I don't care what any one thinks. Home, society, honour +itself, let them all go; they don't matter now. I was a fool to think I +could ever give her up, a fool. Now I know that as long as there's life +and strength in my body, I'll fight for her. Oh, I'm not the +sentimentalist I was six months ago. I've lived since then. I can hold +my own now. I can meet men on <a class="pagenum" name="page_336" id="page_336" title="336"></a>their own level. I can fight, I can win. +I don't care any more, after what I've gone through. I don't set any +particular value on my life. I'll throw it away as recklessly as the +best of them. I'm going to have a fierce fight for that girl, and if I +lose there'll be no more 'me' left to fight. Don't try to reason with +me. Reason be damned! I'm going to Dawson, and a hundred men couldn't +hold me."</p> + +<p>"You seem to have some new stunts in your repertoire," he said, looking +at me curiously; "you've got me guessing. Sometimes I think you're a +candidate for the dippy-house, then again I think you're on to yourself. +There's a grim set to your mouth and a hard look in your eyes that I +didn't use to see. Maybe you can hold up your end. Well, anyway, if you +will go I wish you good luck."</p> + +<p>So, bidding good-bye to the big cabin, with my two partners looking +ruefully after me, I struck off down Bonanza. It was mid-October. A +bitter wind chilled me to the marrow. Once more the land lay stark +beneath its coverlet of snow, and the sky was wan and ominous. I +travelled fast, for a painful anxiety gripped me, so that I scarce took +notice of the improved trail, of the increased activity, of the heaps of +tailings built up with brush till they looked like walls of a +fortification. All I thought of was Dawson and Berna.</p> + +<p>How curious it was, this strange new strength, this indifference to +self, to physical suffering, to danger, to public opinion! I thought +only of the girl. I would make her marry me. I cared nothing for what +<a class="pagenum" name="page_337" id="page_337" title="337"></a>had happened to her. I might be a pariah, an outcast for the rest of my +days; at least I would save her, shield her, cherish her. The thought +uplifted me, exalted me. I had suffered beyond expression. I had +rearranged my set of ideas; my concept of life, of human nature, had +broadened and deepened. What did it matter if physically they had +wronged her? Was not the pure, virgin soul of her beyond their reach?</p> + +<p>I was just in time to see the last boat go out. Already the river was +"throwing ice," and every day the jagged edges of it crept further +towards midstream. An immense and melancholy mob stood on the wharf as +the little steamer backed off into the channel. There were uproarious +souls on board, and many women of the town screaming farewells to their +friends. On the boat all was excited, extravagant joy; on the wharf, a +sorry attempt at resignation.</p> + +<p>The last boat! they watched her as her stern paddle churned the freezing +water; they watched her forge her slow way through the ever-thickening +ice-flakes; they watched her in the far distance battling with the +Klondike current; then, sad and despondent, they turned away to their +lonely cabins. Never had their exile seemed so bitter. A few more days +and the river would close tight as a drum. The long, long night would +fall on them, and for nigh on eight weary months they would be cut off +from the outside world.</p> + +<p>Yet soon, very soon, a mood of reconciliation would set in. They would +begin to make the best of things. To feed that great Octopus, the town, +the miners <a class="pagenum" name="page_338" id="page_338" title="338"></a>would flock in from the creeks with treasure hoarded up in +baking-powder tins; the dance-halls and gambling-places would absorb +them; the gaiety would go on full swing, and there would seem but little +change in the glittering abandon of the gold-camp. As I paced its +sidewalks once more I marvelled at its growth. New streets had been +made; the stores boasted expensive fittings and gloried in costly goods; +in the bar-rooms were splendid mirrors and ornate woodwork; the +restaurants offered European delicacies; all was on a new scale of +extravagance, of garish display, of insolent wealth.</p> + +<p>Everywhere the man with the fat "poke" was in evidence. He came into +town unshorn, wild-looking, often raggedly clad, yet always with the +same wistful hunger in his eyes. You saw that look, and it took you back +to the dark and dirt and drudgery of the claim, the mirthless months of +toil, the crude cabin with its sugar barrel of ice behind the door, its +grease light dimly burning, its rancid smell of stale food. You saw him +lying smoking his strong pipe, looking at that can of nuggets on the +rough shelf, and dreaming of what it would mean to him—out there where +the lights glittered and the gramophones blared. Surely, if patience, +endurance, if grim, unswerving purpose, if sullen, desperate toil +deserved a reward, this man had a peckful of pleasure for his due.</p> + +<p>And always that hungry, wistful look. The women with the painted cheeks +knew that look; the black-jack boosters knew it; the barkeeper with his +<a class="pagenum" name="page_339" id="page_339" title="339"></a>knock-out drops knew it. They waited for him; he was their "meat."</p> + +<p>Yet in a few days your wild and woolly man is transformed, and no longer +does your sympathy go out towards him. Shaven and shorn, clad in silken +underwear, with patent leather shoes, and a suit in New York style, you +absolutely fail to recognise him as your friend of the moccasins and +mackinaw coat. He is smoking a dollar Laranago, he has half a dozen +whiskies "under his belt," and later on he has a "date" with a lady +singer of the Pavilion Theatre. He is having a "whale" of a good time, +he tells you; you wonder how long he will last.</p> + +<p>Not for long. Sharp and short and sweet it is. He is brought up with a +jerk, and the Dago Queen, for whom he has bought so much wine at twenty +dollars a bottle, has no recognition for him in her flashing eyes. He +has been "taken down the line," "trimmed to a finish" by an artist in +the business. Ruefully he turns his poke inside out—not a "colour." He +cannot even command the price of a penitential three-fingers of rye. +Such is one of the commonest phases of life in the gold-camp.</p> + +<p>As I strolled the streets I saw many a familiar face. Mosher I saw. He +had grown very fat, and was talking to a diminutive woman with heavy +blond hair (she must have weighed about ninety-five pounds, I think). +They went off together.</p> + +<p>A knife-edged wind was sweeping down from the north, and men in bulging +coonskin coats filled up the <a class="pagenum" name="page_340" id="page_340" title="340"></a>sidewalks. At the Aurora corner I came +across the Jam-wagon. He was wearing a jacket of summer flannels, and, +as if to suggest extra warmth, he had turned up its narrow collar. In +his trembling fingers he held an emaciated cigarette, which he inhaled +avidly. He looked wretched, pinched with hunger, peaked with cold, but +he straightened up when he saw me into a semblance of well-being. Then, +in a little, he sagged forward, and his eyes went dull and abject. It +was a business of the utmost delicacy to induce him to accept a small +loan. I knew it would only plunge him more deeply into the mire; but I +could not bear to see him suffer.</p> + +<p>I went into the Parisian Restaurant. It was more glittering, more +raffish, more clamant of the tenderloin than ever. There were men +waiters in the conventional garb of waiterdom, and there was Madam, +harder looking and more vulturish. You wondered if such a woman could +have a soul, and what was the end and aim of her being. There she sat, a +creature of rapacity and sordid lust. I marched up to her and asked +abruptly:</p> + +<p>"Where's Berna?"</p> + +<p>She gave a violent start. There was a quality of fear in her bold eyes. +Then she laughed, a hard, jarring laugh.</p> + +<p>"In the Tivoli," she said.</p> + +<p>Strange again! Now that the worst had come to pass, and I had suffered +all that it was in my power to suffer, this new sense of strength and +mastery had come to me. It seemed as if some of the iron spirit <a class="pagenum" name="page_341" id="page_341" title="341"></a>of the +land had gotten into my blood, a grim, insolent spirit that made me +fearless; at times a cold cynical spirit, a spirit of rebellion, of +anarchy, of aggression. The greatest evil had befallen me. Life could do +no more to harm me. I had everything to gain and nothing to lose. I +cared for no man. I despised them, and, to back me in my bitterness, I +had twenty-five thousand dollars in the bank.</p> + +<p>I was still weak from my illness and my long mush had wearied me, so I +went into a saloon and called for drinks. I felt the raw whisky burn my +throat. I tingled from head to foot with a strange, pleasing warmth. +Suddenly the bar, with its protecting rod of brass, seemed to me a very +desirable place, bright, warm, suggestive of comfort and +good-fellowship. How agreeably every one was smiling! Indeed, some were +laughing for sheer joy. A big, merry-hearted miner called for another +round, and I joined in.</p> + +<p>Where was that bitter feeling now? Where that morbid pain at my heart? +As I drank it all seemed to pass away. Magical change! What a fool I +was! What was there to make such a fuss about? Take life easy. Laugh +alike at the good and bad of it. It was all a farce anyway. What would +it matter a hundred years from now? Why were we put into this world to +be tortured? I, for one, would protest. I would writhe no more in the +strait-jacket of existence. Here was escape, heartsease, happiness—here +in this bottled impishness. Again I drank.</p> + +<p>What a rotten world it all was! But I had no <a class="pagenum" name="page_342" id="page_342" title="342"></a>hand in the making of it, +and it wasn't my task to improve it. I was going to get the best I could +out of it. Eat, drink and be merry, that was the last word of +philosophy. Others seemed to be able to extract all kinds of happiness +from things as they are, so why not I? In any case, here was the +solution of my troubles. Better to die happily drunk than miserably +sober. I was not drinking from weakness. Oh no! I was drinking with +deliberate intent to kill pain.</p> + +<p>How wonderfully strong I felt! I smashed my clenched fist against the +bar. My knuckles were bruised and bleeding, but I felt no pain. I was so +light of foot, I imagined I could jump over the counter. I ached to +fight some one. Then all at once came the thought of Berna. It came with +tragical suddenness, with poignant force. Intensely it smote me as never +before. I could have burst into maudlin tears.</p> + +<p>"What's the matter, Slim?" asked a mouldy mannikin, affectionately +hanging on to my arm.</p> + +<p>Disgustedly I looked at him.</p> + +<p>"Take your filthy paws off me," I said.</p> + +<p>His jaw dropped and he stared at me. Then, before he could draw on his +fund of profanity, I burst through the throng and made for the door.</p> + +<p>I was drunk, deplorably drunk, and I was bound for the Tivoli.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_343" id="page_343" title="343"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER III</h2> +</div> + +<p>I wish it to be understood that I make no excuses for myself at this +particular stage of my chronicle. I am only conscious of a desire to +tell the truth. Many of the stronger-minded will no doubt condemn me; +many of those inclined to a rigid system of morality will be disgusted +with me; but, however it may be, I will write plainly and without +reserve.</p> + +<p>When I reeled out of the Grubstake Saloon I was in a peculiar state of +exaltation. No longer was I conscious of the rasping cold, and it seemed +to me I could have couched me in the deep snow as cosily as in a bed of +down. Surpassingly brilliant were the lights. They seemed to convey to +me a portentous wink. They twinkled with jovial cheer. What a desirable +place the world was, after all!</p> + +<p>With an ebullient sense of eloquence, of extravagant oratory, I longed +for a sympathetic ear. An altruistic emotion pervaded me. Who would +suspect, thought I, as I walked a little too circumspectly amid the +throng, that my heart was aglow, that I was tensing my muscles in the +pride of their fitness, that my brain was a bewildering kaleidoscope of +thoughts and images?</p> + +<p>Gramophones were braying in every conceivable key. Brazen women were +leering at me. Potbellied men regarded me furtively. Alluringly the +<a class="pagenum" name="page_344" id="page_344" title="344"></a>gambling-dens and dancing-dives invited me. The town was a giant spider +drawing in its prey, and I was the prey, it seemed. Others there were in +plenty, men with the eager, wistful eyes; but who was there so eager and +wistful as I? And I didn't care any more. Strike up the music! On with +the dance! Only one life have we to live. Ah! there was the Tivoli.</p> + +<p>To the right as I entered was a palatial bar set off with burnished +brass, bevelled mirrors and glittering, vari-coloured pyramids of costly +liqueurs. Up to the bar men were bellying, and the bartenders in white +jackets were mixing drinks with masterly dexterity. It was a motley +crowd. There were men in broadcloth and fine linen, men in blue shirts +and mud-stiffened overalls, grey-bearded elders and beardless boys. It +was a noisy crowd, laughing, brawling, shouting, singing. Here was the +foam of life, with never a hint of the muddy sediment underneath.</p> + +<p>To the left I had a view of the gambling-room, a glimpse of green +tables, of spinning balls, of cool men, with shades over their eyes, +impassively dealing. There were huge wheels of fortune, keno tables, +crap outfits, faro layouts, and, above all, the dainty, fascinating +roulette. Everything was in full swing. Miners with flushed faces and a +wild excitement in their eyes were plunging recklessly; others, calm, +alert, anxious, were playing cautiously. Here and there were the fevered +faces of women. Gold coin was stacked on the tables, while a man with a +<a class="pagenum" name="page_345" id="page_345" title="345"></a>pair of scales was weighing dust from the tendered pokes.</p> + +<p>In front of me was a double swing-door painted in white and gold, and, +pushing through this, for the first time I found myself in a Dawson +dance-hall.</p> + +<p>I remember being struck by the gorgeousness of it, its glitter and its +glow. Who would have expected, up in this bleak-visaged North, to find +such a fairyland of a place? It was painted in white and gold, and set +off by clusters of bunched lights. There was much elaborate scroll-work +and ornate decoration. Down each side, raised about ten feet from the +floor, and supported on gilt pillars, were little private boxes hung +with curtains of heliotrope silk. At the further end of the hall was a +stage, and here a vaudeville performance was going on.</p> + +<p>I sat down on a seat at the very back of the audience. Before me were +row after row of heads, mostly rough, rugged and unwashed. Their faces +were eager, rapt as those of children. They were enjoying, with the deep +satisfaction of men who for many a weary month had been breathing the +free, unbranded air of the Wild. The sensuous odour of patchouli was +strangely pleasant to them; the sight of a woman was thrillingly sweet; +the sound of a song was ravishing. Looking at many of those toil-grooved +faces one could see that there was no harm in their hearts. They were +honest, uncouth, simple; they were just like children, the children of +the Wild.</p> + +<p>A woman of generous physique was singing in a shrill, nasal voice a +pathetic ballad. She sang without <a class="pagenum" name="page_346" id="page_346" title="346"></a>expression, bringing her hands with +monotonous gestures alternately to her breast. Her squat, matronly +figure, beef from the heels up, looked singularly absurd in her short +skirt. Her face was excessively over-painted, her mouth good-naturedly +large, and her eyes out of their slit-like lids leered at the audience.</p> + +<p>"Ain't she great?" said a tall bean-pole of a man on my right, as she +finished off with a round of applause. "There's some class to her work."</p> + +<p>He looked at me in a confidential way, and his pale-blue eyes were full +of rapturous appreciation. Then he did something that surprised me. He +tugged open his poke and, dipping into it, he produced a big nugget. +Twisting this in a scrap of paper, he rose up, long, lean and awkward, +and with careful aim he threw it on the stage.</p> + +<p>"Here ye are, Lulu," he piped in his shrill voice. The woman, turning in +her exit, picked up the offering, gave her admirer a wide, gold-toothed +smile, and threw him an emphatic kiss. As the man sat down I could see +his mouth twisting with excitement, and his watery blue eyes snapped +with pleasure.</p> + +<p>"By heck," he said, "she's great, ain't she? Many's the bottle of wine +I've opened for that there girl. Guess she'll be glad when she hears old +Henry's in town again. Henry's my name, Hard-pan Henry they call me, an' +I've got a claim on Hunker. Many's the wallopin' poke have I toted into +town an' blowed in on that there girl. An' I just guess this one'll go +the same gait. Well, says I, <a class="pagenum" name="page_347" id="page_347" title="347"></a>what's the odds? I'm havin' a good time +for my money. When it's gone there's lots more in the ground. It ain't +got no legs. It can't run away."</p> + +<p>He chuckled and hefted his poke in a horny hand. There was a flutter of +the heliotrope curtains, and the face of Lulu, peeping over the plush +edge of a box, smiled bewitchingly upon him. With another delighted +chuckle the old man went to join her.</p> + +<p>"Darned old fool," said a young man on my left. He looked as if his +veins were chuckful of health; his skin was as clear as a girl's, his +eye honest and fearless. He was dressed in mackinaw, and wore a fur cap +with drooping ear-flaps.</p> + +<p>"He's the greatest mark in the country," the Youth went on. "He's got no +more brains than God gave geese. All the girls are on to him. Before he +can turn round that old bat up there will have him trimmed to a finish. +He'll be doing flip-flaps, and singing ''Way Down on the Suwanee River' +standing on his head. Then the girl will pry him loose from his poke, +and to-morrow he'll start off up the creek, teetering and swearing he's +had a dooce of a good time. He's the easiest thing on earth."</p> + +<p>The Youth paused to look on a new singer. She was a soubrette, trim, +dainty and confident. She wore a blond wig, and her eyes in their pits +of black were alluringly bright. Paint was lavished on her face in +violent dabs of rose and white, and the inevitable gold teeth gleamed in +her smile. She wore a black dress trimmed with sequins, stockings of +black, a black velvet band around her slim neck. She <a class="pagenum" name="page_348" id="page_348" title="348"></a>was greeted with +much applause, and she began to sing in a fairly sweet voice.</p> + +<p>"That's Nellie Lestrange," said the Youth. "She's a great +rustler—Touch-the-button-Nell, they call her. They say that when she +gets a jay into a box it's all day with him. She's such a nifty +wine-winner the end of her thumb's calloused pressing the button for +fresh bottles."</p> + +<p>Touch-the-button-Nell was singing a comic ditty of a convivial order. +She put into it much vivacity, appealing to the audience to join in the +chorus with a pleading, "Now all together, boys." She had tripping steps +and dainty kicks that went well with the melody. When she went off half +a dozen men rose in their places, and aimed nuggets at her. She captured +them, then, with a final saucy flounce of her skirt, made her smiling +exit.</p> + +<p>"By Gosh!" said the Youth, "I wonder these fellows haven't got more +savvy. You wouldn't catch <i>me</i> chucking away an ounce on one of those +fairies. No, sir! Nothing doing! I've got a five-thousand-dollar poke in +the bank, and to-morrow I'll be on my way outside with a draft for every +cent of it. A certain little farm 'way back in Vermont looks pretty good +to me, and a little girl that don't know the use of face powder, bless +her. She's waiting for me."</p> + +<p>The excitement of the liquor had died away in me, and what with the heat +and smoke of the place, I was becoming very drowsy. I was almost dozing +off to sleep when some one touched me on the arm. It <a class="pagenum" name="page_349" id="page_349" title="349"></a>was a negro waiter +I had seen dodging in and out of the boxes, and known as the Black +Prince.</p> + +<p>"Dey's a lady up'n de box wants to speak with yuh, sah," he said +politely.</p> + +<p>"Who is it?" I asked in surprise.</p> + +<p>"Miss Labelle, sah, Miss Birdie Labelle."</p> + +<p>I started. Who in the Klondike had not heard of Birdie Labelle, the +eldest of the three sisters, who married Stillwater Willie? A thought +flashed through me that she could tell me something of Berna.</p> + +<p>"All right," I said; "I'll come."</p> + +<p>I followed him upstairs, and in a moment I was ushered into the presence +of the famous soubrette.</p> + +<p>"Hullo, kid!" she exclaimed, "sit down. I saw you in the audience and +kind-a took a notion to your face. How d'ye do?"</p> + +<p>She extended a heavily bejewelled hand. She was plump, pleasant-looking, +with a piquant smile and flaxen hair. I ordered the waiter to bring her +a bottle of wine.</p> + +<p>"I've heard a lot about you," I said tentatively.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I guess so," she answered. "Most folks have up here. It's a sort +of reflected glory. I guess if it hadn't been for Bill I'd never have +got into the limelight at all."</p> + +<p>She sipped her champagne thoughtfully.</p> + +<p>"I came in here in '97, and it was then I met Bill. He was there with +the coin all right. We got hitched up pretty quick, but he was such a +mut I soon got sick of him. Then I got skating round with another guy. +Well, an egg famine came along. <a class="pagenum" name="page_350" id="page_350" title="350"></a>There was only nine hundred samples of +hen fruit in town, and one store had a corner on them. I went down to +buy some. Lord! how I wanted them eggs. I kept thinking how I'd have +them done, shipwrecked, two on a raft or sunny side up, when who should +come along but Bill. He sees what I want, and quick as a flash what does +he do but buy up the whole bunch at a dollar apiece! 'Now,' says he to +me, 'if you want eggs for breakfast just come home where you belong.'</p> + +<p>"Well, say, I was just dying for them eggs, so I comes to my milk like a +lady. I goes home with Bill."</p> + +<p>She shook her head sadly, and once more I filled up her glass.</p> + +<p>She prattled on with many a gracious smile, and I ordered another bottle +of wine. In the next box I could hear the squeaky laugh of Hard-pan +Henry and the teasing tones of his inamorata. The visits of the Black +Prince to this box with fresh bottles had been fast and furious, and at +last I heard the woman cry in a querulous voice: "Say, that black man +coming in so often gives me a pain. Why don't you order a case?"</p> + +<p>Then the man broke in with his senile laugh:</p> + +<p>"All right, Lulu, whatever you say goes. Say, Prince, tote along a case, +will you?"</p> + +<p>Surely, thought I, there's no fool like an old fool.</p> + +<p>A little girl was singing, a little, winsome girl with a sweet childish +voice and an innocent face. How terribly out of place she looked in that +palace of sin. <a class="pagenum" name="page_351" id="page_351" title="351"></a>She sang a simple, old-world song full of homely pathos +and gentle feeling. As she sang she looked down on those furrowed faces, +and I saw that many eyes were dimmed with tears. The rough men listened +in rapt silence as the childish treble rang out:</p> + +<table summary=""><tr><td> +"Darling, I am growing old;<br /> +Silver threads among the gold<br /> +Shine upon my brow to-day;<br /> +Life is fading fast away." +</td></tr></table> + +<p>Then from behind the scenes a pure alto joined in and the two voices, +blending in exquisite harmony, went on:</p> + +<table summary=""><tr><td> +"But, my darling, you will be, will be,<br /> +Always young and fair to me.<br /> +Yes, my darling, you will be<br /> +Always young and fair to me." +</td></tr></table> + +<p>As the last echo died away the audience rose as one man, and a shower of +nuggets pelted on the stage. Here was something that touched their +hearts, stirred in them strange memories of tenderness, brought before +them half-forgotten scenes of fireside happiness.</p> + +<p>"It's a shame to let that kid work in the halls," said Miss Labelle. +There were tears in her eyes, too, and she hurriedly blinked them away.</p> + +<p>Then the curtain fell. Men were clearing the floor for the dance, so, +bidding the lady adieu, I went downstairs.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_352" id="page_352" title="352"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER IV</h2> +</div> + +<p>I found the Youth awaiting me.</p> + +<p>"Say, pardner," said he, "I was just getting a bit anxious about you. I +thought sure that fairy had you in tow for a sucker. I'm going to stay +right with you, and you're not going to shake me. See!"</p> + +<p>"All right," I said; "come on and we'll watch the dance."</p> + +<p>So we got in the front row of spectators, while behind us the crowd +packed as closely as matches in a box. The champagne I had taken had +again aroused in me that vivid sense of joy and strength and colour. +Again the lights were effulgent, the music witching, the women divine. +As I swayed a little I clutched unsteadily at the Youth. He looked at me +curiously.</p> + +<p>"Brace up, old man," he said. "Guess you're not often in town. You're +not much used to the dance-hall racket."</p> + +<p>"No," I assured him.</p> + +<p>"Well," he continued, "it's the rottenest game ever. I've seen more poor +beggars put plumb out of business by the dance-halls than by all the +saloons and gambling-joints put together. It's the game of catching the +sucker brought to the point of perfection, and there's very few cases +where it fails."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_353" id="page_353" title="353"></a>He perceived I was listening earnestly, and he warmed up to his +subject.</p> + +<p>"You see, the boys get in after they've been out on the claim for six +months at a stretch, and town looks mighty good to them. The music +sounds awful nice, and the women, well, they look just like angels. The +boys are all right, but they've got that mad craving for the sight of a +woman a man gets after he's been off out in the Wild, and these women +have got the captivation of men down to a fine art. Once one of them +gets to looking at you with eyes that eat right into you, and soft white +hands, and pretty coaxing ways, well, it's mighty hard to hold back. A +man's a fool to come near these places if he's got a poke—'cept, like +me, he knows the ropes and he's right onto himself."</p> + +<p>The Youth said this with quite a complacent air. He went on:</p> + +<p>"These girls work on a percentage basis. You'll notice every time you +buy them a drink the waiter gives them a check. That means that when the +night's over they cash in and get twenty-five per cent, of the money +you've spent on them. That's how they're so keen on ordering fresh +bottles. Sometimes they'll say a bottle's gone flat before it's empty, +and have you order another. Or else they'll pour half of it into the +cuspidor when you're not looking. Then, when you get too full to notice +the difference, they'll run in ginger ale on you. Or else they'll get +you ordering by the case, and have half a dozen dummy bottles in it. Oh, +there's all kinds of schemes <a class="pagenum" name="page_354" id="page_354" title="354"></a>these box rustlers are on to. When you pay +for a drink you toss over your poke, and they take the price out. Do you +think they're particular to a quarter ounce or so? No, sir! and you +always get the short end of it. It's a bad game to go up against."</p> + +<p>The Youth looked at me as though proud of his superior sophistication.</p> + +<p>The floor was cleared. Girls were now coming from behind the stage, +preening themselves and chaffing with the crowd. The orchestra struck up +some jubilant ragtime that set the heart dancing and the heels tapping +in tune. Brighter than ever seemed the lights; more dazzling the white +and gilt of the walls. Some of the girls were balancing lightly to a +waltz rhythm. There was a witching grace in their movements, and the +Youth watched them intently. He looked down at his feet clad in old +moccasins.</p> + +<p>"Gee, I'd like just to have one spin," he said; "just one before I leave +the darned old country for good. I was always crazy about dancing. I'd +ride thirty miles to attend a dance back home."</p> + +<p>His eyes grew very wistful. Suddenly the music stopped and the +floor-master came forward. He was a tall, dark man with a rich and +vibrant baritone voice.</p> + +<p>"That's the best spieler in the Yukon," said the Youth.</p> + +<p>"Come on, boys," boomed the spieler. "Look alive there. Don't keep the +ladies waiting. Take your hands out of your pockets and get in the game. +Just going to begin, a dreamy waltz or a nice juicy <a class="pagenum" name="page_355" id="page_355" title="355"></a>two-step, whichever +you prefer. Hey, professor, strike up that waltz!"</p> + +<p>Once more the music swelled out.</p> + +<p>"How's that, boys? Doesn't that make your feet like feathers? Come on, +boys! Here you are for the nice, glossy floor and the nice, flossy +girls. Here you are! Here you are! That's right, select your partners! +Swing your honeys! Hurry up there! Just a-goin' to begin. What's the +matter with you fellows? Wake up! a dance won't break you. Come on! +don't be a cheap skate. The girls are fine, fit and fairy-like, the +music's swell and the floor's elegant. Come on, boys!"</p> + +<p>There was a compelling power in his voice, and already a number of +couples were waltzing round. The women were exquisite in their grace and +springy lightness. They talked as they danced, gazing with languishing +eyes and siren smiles at the man of the moment.</p> + +<p>Some of them, who had not got partners, were picking out individuals +from the crowd and coaxing them to come forward. A drunken fellow +staggered onto the floor and grabbed a girl. She was young, dainty and +pretty, but she showed no repugnance for him. Round and round he +cavorted, singing and whooping, a wild, weird object; when, suddenly, he +tripped and fell, bringing her down with him. The crowd roared; but the +girl good-naturedly picked him up, and led him off to the bar.</p> + +<p>A man in a greasy canvas suit with mucklucks on his feet had gone onto +the floor. His hair was long <a class="pagenum" name="page_356" id="page_356" title="356"></a>and matted, his beard wild and rank. He +was dancing vehemently, and there was the glitter of wild excitement in +his eyes. He looked as if he had not bathed for years, but again I could +see no repulsion in the face of the handsome brunette with whom he was +waltzing. Dance after dance they had together, locked in each other's +arms.</p> + +<p>"That's a 'live one,'" said the Youth. "He's just come in from Dominion +with a hundred ounces, and it won't last him over the night. Amber, +there, will get it all. She won't let the other girls go near. He's her +game."</p> + +<p>Between dances the men promenaded to the bar and treated their +companions to a drink. In the same free, trusting way they threw over +their pokes to the bartender and had the price weighed out. The dances +were very short, and the drinks very frequent.</p> + +<p>Madder and madder grew the merriment. The air was hot; the odour of +patchouli mingled with the stench of stale garments and the reek of +alcohol. Men dripping with sweat whirled round in wild gyrations. Some +of them danced beautifully; some merely shuffled over the floor. It did +not make any difference to the girls. They were superbly muscular and +used to the dragging efforts of novices. After a visit to the bar back +they came once more, licking their lips, and fell to with fresh energy.</p> + +<p>There was no need to beg the crowd now. A wave of excitement seemed to +have swept over them. They clamoured to get a dance. The "live one" +whooped <a class="pagenum" name="page_357" id="page_357" title="357"></a>and pranced on his wild career, while Amber steered him calmly +through the mazes of the waltz. Touch-the-button-Nell was talking to a +tall fair-moustached man whom I recognised as a black-jack booster. +Suddenly she left him and came over to us. She went up to the Youth.</p> + +<p>She had discarded her blond wig, and her pretty brown hair parted in the +middle and rippled behind her ears. Her large violet-blue eyes had a +devouring look that would stir the pulse of a saint. She accosted the +Youth with a smile of particular witchery.</p> + +<p>"Say, kid, won't you come and have a two-step with me? I've been looking +at you for the last half-hour and wishing you'd ask me."</p> + +<p>The Youth had advised me: "If any of them asks you, tell them to go to +the devil;" but now he looked at her and his boyish face flushed.</p> + +<p>"Nothing doing," he said stoutly.</p> + +<p>"Oh, come now," she pleaded; "honest to goodness, kid, I've turned down +the other fellow for you. You won't refuse me, will you? Come on; just +one, sweetheart."</p> + +<p>She was holding the lapels of his coat and dragging him gently forward. +I could see him biting his lip in embarrassment.</p> + +<p>"No, thanks, I'm sorry," he stammered. "I don't know how to dance. +Besides, I've got no money."</p> + +<p>She grew more coaxing.</p> + +<p>"Never mind about the coin, honey. Come on, have one on me. Don't turn +me down, I've taken <a class="pagenum" name="page_358" id="page_358" title="358"></a>such a notion to you. Come on now; just one turn."</p> + +<p>I watched his face. His eyes clouded with emotion, and I knew the +psychology of it. He was thinking:</p> + +<p>"Just one—surely it wouldn't hurt. Surely I'm man enough to trust +myself, to know when to quit. Oh, lordy, wouldn't it be sweet just to +get my arm round a woman's waist once more! The sight of them's honey to +me; surely it wouldn't matter. One round and I'll shake her and go +home."</p> + +<p>The hesitation was fatal. By an irresistible magnetism the Youth was +drawn to this woman whose business it ever was to lure and beguile. By +her siren strength she conquered him as she had conquered many another, +and as she led him off there was a look of triumph on her face. Poor +Youth! At the end of the dance he did not go home, nor did he "shake" +her. He had another and another and another. The excitement began to +paint his cheeks, the drink to stoke wild fires in his eyes. As I stood +deserted I tried to attract him, to get him back; but he no longer +heeded me.</p> + +<p>"I don't see the Madonna to-night," said a little, dark individual in +spectacles. Somehow he looked to me like a newspaper man "chasing" copy.</p> + +<p>"No," said one of the girls; "she ain't workin'. She's sick; she don't +take very kindly to the business, somehow. Don't seem to get broke in +easy. She's funny, poor kid."</p> + +<p>Carelessly they went on to talk of other things, <a class="pagenum" name="page_359" id="page_359" title="359"></a>while I stood there +gasping, staring, sick at heart. All my vinous joy was gone, leaving me +a haggard, weary wretch of a man, disenchanted and miserable to the +verge of—what? I shuddered. The lights seemed to have gone blurred and +dim. The hall was tawdry, cheap and vulgar. The women, who but a moment +before had seemed creatures of grace and charm, were now nothing more +than painted, posturing harridans, their seductive smiles the leers of +shameless sin.</p> + +<p>And this was a Dawson dance-hall, the trump card in the nightly game of +despoliation. Dance-halls, saloons, gambling-dens, brothels, the heart +of the town was a cancer, a hive of iniquity. Here had flocked the most +rapacious of gamblers, the most beautiful and unscrupulous women on the +Pacific slope. Here in the gold-born city they waited for their prey, +the Man with the Poke. Back there in the silent Wild, with pain and +bloody sweat, he toiled for them. Sooner or later must he come within +reach of their talons to be fleeced, flouted and despoiled. It was an +organised system of sharpers, thugs, harpies, and birds of prey of every +kind. It was a blot on the map. It was a great whirlpool, and the eddy +of it encircled the furthest outpost of the golden valley. It was a +vortex of destruction, of ruin and shame. And here was I, hovering on +its brink, likely to be soon sucked down into its depths.</p> + +<p>I pressed my way to the door, and stood there staring and swaying, but +whether with wine or weakness I knew not. In the vociferous and +flamboyant <a class="pagenum" name="page_360" id="page_360" title="360"></a>street I could hear the raucous voices of the spielers, the +jigging tunes of the orchestras, the click of ivory balls, the popping +of corks, the hoarse, animal laughter of men, the shrill, inane giggles +of women. Day and night the game went on without abatement, the game of +despoliation.</p> + +<p>And I was on the verge of the vortex. Memories of Glengyle, the laughing +of the silver-scaled sea, the tawny fisher-lads with their honest eyes, +the herring glittering like jewels in the brown nets, the women with +their round health-hued cheeks and motherly eyes. Oh, Home, with your +peace and rest and content, can you not save me from this?</p> + +<p>And as I stood there wretchedly a timid little hand touched my arm.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_361" id="page_361" title="361"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER V</h2> +</div> + +<p>It is odd how people who have been parted a weary while, yet who have +thought of each other constantly, will often meet with as little show of +feeling as if they had but yesterday bid good-bye. I looked at her and +she at me, and I don't think either of us betrayed any emotion. Yet must +we both have been infinitely moved.</p> + +<p>She was changed, desperately, pitifully changed. All the old sweetness +was there, that pathetic sweetness which had made the miners call her +the Madonna; but alas, forever gone from her was the fragrant flower of +girlhood. Her pallor was excessive, and the softness had vanished out of +her face, leaving there only lines of suffering. Sorrow had kindled in +her grey eyes a spiritual lustre, a shining, tearless brightness. Ah me, +sad, sad, indeed, was the change in her!</p> + +<p>So she looked at me, a long and level look in which I could see neither +love nor hate. The bright, grey eyes were clear and steady, and the +pinched and pitiful lips did not quiver. And as I gazed on her I felt +that nothing ever would be the same again. Love could no more be the +radiant spirit of old, the prompter of impassioned words, the painter of +bewitching scenes. Never again could we feel the world recede from us as +we poised on bright wings of fancy; <a class="pagenum" name="page_362" id="page_362" title="362"></a>never again compare our joy with +that of the heaven-born; never again welcome that pure ideal that comes +to youth alone, and that pitifully dies in the disenchantment of graver +days. We could sacrifice all things for each other; joy and grieve for +each other; live and die for each other,—but the Hope, the Dream, the +exaltation of love's dawn, the peerless white glory of it—had gone from +us forever and forever.</p> + +<p>Her lips moved:</p> + +<p>"How you have changed!"</p> + +<p>"Yes, Berna, I have been ill. But you, you too have changed."</p> + +<p>"Yes," she said very slowly. "I have been—dead."</p> + +<p>There was no faltering in her voice, never a throb of pathos. It was +like the voice of one who has given up all hope, the voice of one who +has arisen from the grave. In that cold mask of a face I could see no +glimmer of the old-time joy, the joy of the season when wild roses were +aglow. We both were silent, two pitifully cold beings, while about us +the howling bedlam of pleasure-plotters surged and seethed.</p> + +<p>"Come upstairs where we can talk," said she. So we sat down in one of +the boxes, while a great freezing shadow seemed to fall and wrap us +around. It was so strange, this silence between us. We were like two +pale ghosts meeting in the misty gulfs beyond the grave.</p> + +<p>"And why did you not come?" she asked.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_363" id="page_363" title="363"></a>"Come—I tried to come."</p> + +<p>"But you did not." Her tone was measured, her face averted.</p> + +<p>"I would have sold my soul to come. I was ill, desperately ill, nigh to +death. I was in the hospital. For two weeks I was delirious, raving of +you, trying to get to you, making myself a hundred times worse because +of you. But what could I do? No man could have been more helpless. I was +out of my mind, weak as a child, fighting for my life. That was why I +did not come."</p> + +<p>When I began to speak she started. As I went on she drew a quick, +choking breath. Then she listened ever so intently, and when I had +finished a great change came over her. Her eyes stared glassily, her +head dropped, her hands clutched at the chair, she seemed nigh to +fainting. When she spoke her voice was like a whisper.</p> + +<p>"And they lied to me. They told me you were too eager gold-getting to +think of me; that you were in love with some other woman out there; that +you cared no more for me. They lied to me. Well, it's too late now."</p> + +<p>She laughed, and the once tuneful voice was harsh and grating. Still +were her eyes blank with misery. Again and again she murmured: "Too +late, too late."</p> + +<p>Quietly I sat and watched her, yet in my heart was a vast storm of +agony. I longed to comfort her, to kiss that face so white and worn and +weariful, to bring tears to those hopeless eyes. There seemed to <a class="pagenum" name="page_364" id="page_364" title="364"></a>grow +in me a greater hunger for the girl than ever before, a longing to bring +joy to her again, to make her forget. What did it all matter? She was +still my love. I yearned for her. We both had suffered, both been +through the furnace. Surely from it would come the love that passeth +understanding. We would rear no lily walls, but out of our pain would we +build an abiding place that would outlast the tomb.</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said, "it is not too late."</p> + +<p>There was a desperate bitterness in her face. "Yes, yes, it is. You do +not understand. You—it's all right for you, you are blameless; but +I——"</p> + +<p>"You too are blameless, dear. We have both been miserably duped. Never +mind, Berna, we will forget all. I love you, Oh how much I never can +tell you, girl! Come, let us forget and go away and be happy."</p> + +<p>It seemed as if my every word was like a stab to her. The sweet face was +tragically wretched.</p> + +<p>"Oh no," she answered, "it can never be. You think it can, but it can't. +You could not forget. I could not forget. We would both be thinking; +always, always torturing each other. To you the thought would be like a +knife thrust, and the more you loved me the deeper would pierce its +blade. And I, too, can you not realise how fearfully I would look at +you, always knowing you were thinking of <span class="smcap">THAT</span>, and what an agony it +would be to me to watch your agony? Our home would be a haunted one, a +place of ghosts. Never again can there be joy between you and me. It's +too late, too late!"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_365" id="page_365" title="365"></a>She was choking back the sobs now, but still the tears did not come.</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said gently, "I think I could forget. Please give me a chance +to prove it. Other men have forgotten. I know it was not your fault. I +know that spiritually you are the same pure girl you were before. You +are an angel, dear; my angel."</p> + +<p>"No, I was not to blame. When you failed to come I grew desperate. When +I wrote you and still you failed to come I was almost distracted. Night +and day he was persecuting me. The others gave me no peace. If ever a +poor girl was hounded to dishonour I was. Yet I had made up my mind to +die rather than yield. Oh, it's too horrible."</p> + +<p>She shuddered.</p> + +<p>"Never mind, dear, don't tell me about it."</p> + +<p>"When I awoke to life sick, sick for many days, I wanted to die, but I +could not. There seemed to be nothing for it but to stay on there. I was +so weak, so ill, so indifferent to everything that it did not seem to +matter. That was where I made my mistake. I should have killed myself. +Oh, there's something in us all that makes us cling to life in spite of +shame! But I would never let him come near me again. You believe me, +don't you?"</p> + +<p>"I believe you."</p> + +<p>"And though, when he went away, I've gone into this life, there's never +been any one else. I've danced with them, laughed with them, but that's +all. You believe me?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, dear."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_366" id="page_366" title="366"></a>"Thank God for that! And now we must say good-bye."</p> + +<p>"<i>Good-bye?</i>"</p> + +<p>"I said—good-bye. I would not spoil your life. You know how proud I am, +how sensitive. I would not give you such as I. Once I would have given +myself to you gladly, but now—please go away."</p> + +<p>"Impossible."</p> + +<p>"No, the other is impossible. You don't know what these things mean to a +woman. Leave me, please."</p> + +<p>"Leave you—to what?"</p> + +<p>"To death, ruin—I don't know what. If I'm strong enough I will die. If +I am weak I will sink in the mire. Oh, and I am only a girl too, a young +girl!"</p> + +<p>"Berna, will you marry me?"</p> + +<p>"No! No! No!"</p> + +<p>"Berna, I will never leave you. Here I tell you frankly, plainly, I +don't know whether or not you still love me—you haven't said a word to +show it—but I know I love you, and I will love you as long as life +lasts. I will never leave you. Listen to me, dear: let us go away, far, +far away. You will forget, I will forget. It will never be the same, but +perhaps it will be better, greater than before. Come with me, O my love! +Have pity on me, Berna, have pity. Marry me. Be my wife."</p> + +<p>She merely shook her head, sitting there cold as a stone.</p> + +<p>"Then," I said, "if you call yourself dishonoured, <a class="pagenum" name="page_367" id="page_367" title="367"></a>I too will become +dishonoured. If you choose to sink in the mire, I too will sink. We will +go down together, you and I. Oh, I would rather sink with you, dear, +than rise with the angels. You have chosen—well, I too have chosen. We +stand on the edge of the vortex, now will we plunge down. You will see +me steep myself in shame, then when I am a hundred shades blacker than +you can ever hope to be, my angel, you will stoop and pity me. Oh, I +don't care any more. I've played the fool too long; now I'll play the +devil, and you'll stand by and watch me. Sometimes it's nice to make +those we love suffer, isn't it? I would break my arm to make you feel +sorry for me. But now you'll see me in the vortex. We'll go down +together, dear. Hand in hand hell-ward we'll go down, we'll go down."</p> + +<p>She was looking at me in a frightened way. A madness seemed to have +gotten into me.</p> + +<p>"Berna, you're on the dance-halls. You're at the mercy of the vilest +wretch that's got an ounce of gold in his filthy poke. They can buy you +as they buy white flesh everywhere on earth. You must dance with them, +drink with them, go away with them. Berna, I can buy you. Come, dance +with me, drink with me. We'll live, live. We'll eat, drink and be merry. +On with the dance! Oh, for the joy of life! Since you'll not be my love +you'll be my light-of-love. Come, Berna, come!"</p> + +<p>I paused. With her head lying on the cushioned edge of the box she was +crying. The plush was streaky with her tears.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_368" id="page_368" title="368"></a>"Will you come?" I asked again.</p> + +<p>She did not move.</p> + +<p>"Then," said I, "there are others, and I have money, lots of it. I can +buy them. I am going down into the vortex. Look on and watch me."</p> + +<p>I left her crying.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_369" id="page_369" title="369"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VI</h2> +</div> + +<p>It is with shame I write the following pages. Would I could blot them +out of my life. To this day there must be many who remember my meteoric +career in the firmament of fast life. It did not last long, but in less +than a week I managed to squander a small fortune.</p> + +<p>Those were the days when Dawson might fitly have been called the +dissolute. It was the régime of the dance-hall girl, and the taint of +the tenderloin was over the town. So far there were few decent women to +be seen on the streets. Respectable homes were being established, but +even there social evils were discussed with an astonishing frankness and +indifference. In the best society men were welcomed who were known to be +living in open infamy. A general callousness to social corruption +prevailed.</p> + +<p>For Dawson was at this time the Mecca of the gambler and the courtesan. +Of its population probably two-thirds began their day when most people +finished it. It was only towards nightfall that the town completely +roused up, that the fever of pleasure providing began. Nearly every one +seemed to be affected by the spirit of degeneracy. On the faces of many +of the business men could be seen the stamp of the pace they were going. +Cases in Court had to be adjourned because of the debauches of lawyers. +Bank <a class="pagenum" name="page_370" id="page_370" title="370"></a>tellers stepped into their cages sleepless from all-night orgies. +Government officials lived openly with wanton women. High and low were +attainted by the corruption. In those days of headstrong excitement, of +sudden fortune, of money to be had almost for the picking up, when the +gold-camp was a reservoir into which poured by a thousand channels the +treasure of the valley, few were those among the men who kept a steady +head, whose private records were pure and blameless.</p> + +<p>No town of its size has ever broken up more homes. Men in the +intoxication of fast-won wealth in that far-away land gave way to +excesses of every kind. Fathers of families paraded the streets arm in +arm with demi-mondaines. To be seen talking to a loose woman was +unworthy of comment, not to have a mistress was not to be in the swim. +Words cannot express the infinite and general degradation. It is +scarcely possible to exaggerate it. That teeming town at the mouth of +the Klondike set a pace in libertinism that has never been equalled.</p> + +<p>I would divide its population into three classes: the sporting +fraternity, whose business it was to despoil and betray; the business +men, drawn more or less into the vortex of dissipation; the miners from +the creeks, the Man with the Poke, here to-day, gone, to-morrow, and of +them all the most worthy of respect. He was the prop and mainstay of the +town. It was like a vast trap set to catch him. He would "blow in" +brimming with health and high spirits; for a time he would "get into the +game;" sooner or <a class="pagenum" name="page_371" id="page_371" title="371"></a>later he would cut loose and "hit the high places"; +then, at last, beggared and broken, he would crawl back in shame and +sorrow to the claim. O, that grey city! could it ever tell its woes and +sorrows the great, white stars above would melt into compassionate +tears.</p> + +<p>Ah well, to the devil with all moralising! A short life and a merry one. +Switch on the lights! Ring up the curtain! On with the play!</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>In the casino a crowd is gathering round the roulette wheel. Three-deep +they stand. A woman rushes out from the dance-hall and pushes her way +through the throng. She is very young, very fair and redundant of life. +A man jostles her. From frank blue eyes she flashes a look at him, and +from lips sweet as those of a child there comes the remonstrance: "Curse +you; take care."</p> + +<p>The men make way for her, and she throws a poke of dust on the red. "A +hundred dollars out of that," she says. The coupier nods; the wheel +spins round; she loses.</p> + +<p>"Give me another two hundred in chips," she cries eagerly. The dealer +hands them to her, and puts her poke in a drawer. Again and again she +plays, placing chips here and there round the table. Sometimes she wins, +sometimes she loses. At last she has quite a pile of chips before her. +She laughs gleefully. "I guess I'll cash in now," she says. "That's good +enough for to-night."</p> + +<p>The man hands her back her poke, writes out a <a class="pagenum" name="page_372" id="page_372" title="372"></a>cheque for her winnings, +and off she goes like a happy child.</p> + +<p>"Who's that?" I ask.</p> + +<p>"That? that's Blossom. She's a 'bute,' she is. Want a knockdown? Come on +round to the dance-hall."</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Once more I see the Youth. He is nearing the end of his tether. He +borrows a few hundred dollars from me. "One more night," he says with a +bitter grin, "and the hog goes back to wallow in the mire. They've got +you going too— Oh, Lord, it's a great game! Ha! ha!"</p> + +<p>He goes off unsteadily; then from out of the luminous mists there +appears the Jam-wagon. In a pained way he looks at me. "Here, chuck it, +old man," he says; "come home to my cabin and straighten up."</p> + +<p>"All right," I answer; "just one drink more."</p> + +<p>One more means still one more. Poor old Jam-wagon! It's the blind +leading the blind.</p> + +<p>Mosher haunts me with his gleaming bald head and his rat-like eyes. He +is living with the little ninety-five-pound woman, the one with the mop +of hair.</p> + +<p>Oh, it is a hades of a life I am steeped in! I drink and I drink. It +seems to me I am always drinking. Rarely do I eat. I am one of half a +dozen spectacular "live ones." All the camp is talking of us, but it +seems to me I lead the bunch in the race to ruin. I wonder what Berna +thinks of it all. Was there ever such a sensitive creature? Where did +she get <a class="pagenum" name="page_373" id="page_373" title="373"></a>that obstinate pride? Child of misfortune! She minded me of a +delicate china cup that gets mixed in with the coarse crockery of a hash +joint.</p> + +<p>Remonstrantly the Prodigal speeds to town.</p> + +<p>"Are you crazy?" he cries. "I don't mind you making an ass of yourself, +but lushing around all that coin the way you're doing—it's wicked; it +makes me sick. Come home at once."</p> + +<p>"I won't," I say. "What if I am crazy? Isn't it my money? I've never +sown my wild oats yet. I'm trying to catch up, that's all. When the +money's done I'll quit. I'm having the time of my life. Don't come +spoiling it with your precepts. What a lot of fun I've missed by being +good. Come along; 'listen to the last word of human philosophy—have a +drink.'"</p> + +<p>He goes away shaking his head. There's no fear of him ever breaking +loose. He, with his smile of sunshine, would make misfortune pay. He is +a rolling stone that gathers no moss, but manages to glue itself to +greenbacks at every turn.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>I am in a box at the Palace Grand. The place is packed with rowdy men +and ribald women. I am at the zenith of my shame. Right and left I am +buying wine. Like vultures at a feast they bunch into the box. Like +carrion flies they buzz around me. That is what I feel myself to +be—carrion.</p> + +<p>How I loathe myself! but I think of Berna, and the thought goads me to +fresh excesses. I will go on till flesh and blood can stand it no +longer, till I drop <a class="pagenum" name="page_374" id="page_374" title="374"></a>in my tracks. I realise that somehow I must make +her pity me, must awake in her that guardian angel which exists in every +woman. Only in that way can I break down the barrier of her pride and +arouse the love latent in her heart.</p> + +<p>There are half a dozen girls in the box, a bevy of beauties, and I buy a +case of wine for each, over a thousand dollars' worth. Screaming with +laughter they toss it in bottles down to their friends in the audience. +It is a scene of riotous excitement. The audience roars, the girls +shriek, the orchestra tries to make itself heard. Madder and madder +grows the merriment. The fierce fever of it scorches in my veins. I am +mad to spend, to throw away money, to outdo all others in bitter, +reckless prodigality. I fling twenty-dollar gold pieces to the singers. +I open bottle after bottle of wine. The girls are spraying the crowd +with it, the floor of the box swims with it. I drop my pencil signing a +tab, and when I look down it is floating in a pool of champagne.</p> + +<p>Then comes the last. The dance has begun. Men in fur caps, mackinaw +coats and mucklucks are waltzing with women clad in Paris gowns and +sparkling with jewels. The floor is thronged. I have a large, +hundred-ounce poke of dust, and I unloose the thong. Suddenly with a mad +shout I scatter its contents round the hall. Like a shower of golden +rain it falls on men and women alike. See how they grovel for it, the +brutes, the vampires! How they fight and grab and sprawl over it! How +they shriek and howl and curse! It is like an arena of wild <a class="pagenum" name="page_375" id="page_375" title="375"></a>beasts; it +is pandemonium. Oh, how I despise them! My gorge rises, but—to the end, +to the end. I must play my part.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Always amid that lurid carnival of sin floats the figure of Blossom, +Blossom with her child-face of dazzling fairness, her china-blue eyes, +her round, smooth cheeks. How different from the pinched pallid face of +Berna! Poor, poor Berna! I never see her, but amid all the saturnalia +she haunts me. The thought of her is agony, agony. I cannot bear to +think of her. I know she watches me. If she would only stoop and save me +now! Or have I not fallen low enough? What a faith I have in that deep +mother-love of hers that will redeem me in the end. I must go deeper +yet. Faster and faster must I swirl into the vortex.</p> + +<p>Oh, these women, how in my heart I loathe them! I laugh with them, I +quaff with them, I let them rob me; but that's all.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>In all that fierce madness of debauch, thank God, I retained my honour. +They beguiled me, they tried to lure me into their rooms; but at the +moment I went to enter I recoiled. It was as if an invisible arm +stretched across the doorway and barred me out.</p> + +<p>And Blossom, she, too, tried so hard to lure me, and because I resisted +it inflamed her. Half angel, half devil was Blossom, a girl in years, +but woefully wise, a soft siren when pleased, a she-devil when roused. +She made me her special quarry. She <a class="pagenum" name="page_376" id="page_376" title="376"></a>fought for me. She drove off all +the other girls. We talked together, we drank together, we "played the +tables" together, but nothing more. She would coax me with the +prettiest gestures, and cajole me with the sweetest endearments; then, +when I steadfastly resisted her, she would fly into a fury and flout me +with the foulness of the stews. She was beautiful, but born to be bad. +No power on heaven or earth could have saved her. Yet in her badness she +was frank, natural and untroubled as a child.</p> + +<p>It was in one of the corridors of the dance-hall in the early hours of +the morning. The place was deserted, strewed with débris of the night's +debauch. The air was fetid, and from the gambling-hall down below arose +the shouts of the players. We were up there, Blossom and I. I was in a +strange state of mind, a state bordering on frenzy. Not much longer, I +felt, could I keep up this pace. Something had to happen, and that soon.</p> + +<p>She put her arms around me. I could feel her cheek pressed to mine. I +could see her bosom rise and fall.</p> + +<p>"Come," she said.</p> + +<p>She led me towards her room. No longer was I able to resist. My foot was +on the threshold and I was almost over when——</p> + +<p>"Telegram, sir."</p> + +<p>It was a messenger. Confusedly I took the flimsy envelope and tore it +open. Blankly I stared at the line of type. I stared like a man in a +dream. I was sober enough now.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_377" id="page_377" title="377"></a>"Ain't you coming?" said Blossom, putting her arms round me.</p> + +<p>"No," I said hoarsely, "leave me, please leave me. Oh, my God!"</p> + +<p>Her face changed, became vindictive, the face of a fury.</p> + +<p>"Curse you!" she hissed, gnashing her teeth. "Oh, I knew. It's that +other, that white-faced doll you care for. Look at me! Am I not better +than her? And you scorn me. Oh, I hate you. I'll get even with you and +her. Curse you, curse you——"</p> + +<p>She snatched up an empty wine bottle. Swinging it by the neck she struck +me square on the forehead. I felt a stunning blow, a warm rush of blood. +Then I fell limply forward, and all the lights seemed to go out.</p> + +<p>There I lay in a heap, and the blood spurting from my wound soaked the +little piece of paper. On it was written:</p> + +<p> +"<i>Mother died this morning. Garry.</i>"<br /> +</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_378" id="page_378" title="378"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VII</h2> +</div> + +<p>"Where am I?"</p> + +<p>"Here, with me."</p> + +<p>Low and sweet and tender was the voice. I was in bed and my head was +heavily bandaged, so that the cloths weighed upon my eyelids. It was +difficult to see, and I was too weak to raise myself, but I seemed to be +in semi-darkness. A lamp burning on a small table nearby was turned low. +By my bedside some one was sitting, and a soft, gentle hand was holding +mine.</p> + +<p>"Where is <i>here</i>?" I asked faintly.</p> + +<p>"Here—my cabin. Rest, dear."</p> + +<p>"Is that you, Berna?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, please don't talk."</p> + +<p>I thrilled with a sudden sweetness of joy. A flood of sunshine bathed +me. It was all over, then, the turmoil, the storm, the shipwreck. I was +drifting on a tranquil ocean of content. Blissfully I closed my eyes. +Oh, I was happy, happy!</p> + +<p>In her cabin, with her, and she was nursing me—what had happened? What +new turn of events had brought about this wonderful thing? As I lay +there in the quiet, trying to recall the something that went before, my +poor sick brain groped but feebly amid a murk of sinister shadows.</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said, "I've had a bad dream."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_379" id="page_379" title="379"></a>"Yes, dear, you've been sick, very sick. You've had an attack of fever, +brain fever. But don't try to think, just rest quietly."</p> + +<p>So for a while longer I lay there, thrilled with a strange new joy, +steeped in the ineffable comfort of her presence, and growing better, +stronger with every breath. Memories came thronging back, memories that +made me cringe and wince, and shudder with the shame of them. Yet ever +the thought that she was with me was like a holy blessing. Surely it was +all good since it had ended in this.</p> + +<p>Yet there was something else, some memory darker than the others, some +shadow of shadows that baffled me. Then as I battled with a growing +terror and suspense, it all came back to me, the telegram, the news, my +collapse. A great grief welled up in me, and in my agony I spoke to the +girl.</p> + +<p>"Berna, tell me, is it true? Is my Mother dead?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, it's true, dear. You must try to bear it bravely."</p> + +<p>I could feel her bending over me, could feel her hand holding mine, +could feel her hair brush my cheek, yet I forgot even her just then. I +thought only of Mother, of her devotion and of how little I had done to +deserve it. So this was the end: a narrow grave, a rending grief and the +haunting spectre of reproach.</p> + +<p>I saw my Mother sitting at that window that faced the west, her hands +meekly folded on her lap, her eyes wistfully gazing over the grey sea. I +knew there was never a day of her life when she did not sit thus <a class="pagenum" name="page_380" id="page_380" title="380"></a>and +think of me. I could guess at the heartache that gentle face would not +betray, the longing those tender lips would not speak, the grief those +sweet eyes studied to conceal. As, sitting there in the strange clouded +sunset of my native land, she let her knitting drop on her lap, I knew +she prayed for me. Oh, Mother! Mother!</p> + +<p>My sobs were choking me, and Berna was holding my hand very tightly. Yet +in a little I grew calmer.</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said, "I've only got you now, only you, little girl. So you +must love me, you mustn't leave me."</p> + +<p>"I'll never leave you—if you want me to stay."</p> + +<p>"God bless you, dear. I can't tell you the comfort you are to me. I'll +try to be quiet now."</p> + +<p>I will always remember those days as I grew slowly well again. The cot +in which I lay stood in the sitting-room of the cabin, and from the +window I could overlook the city. Snow had fallen, the days were diamond +bright, and the smoke ascended sharply in the glittering air. The little +room was papered with a design of wild roses that minded me of the +Whitehorse Rapids. On the walls were some little framed pictures; the +floor was carpeted in dull brown, and a little heater gave out a +pleasant warmth. Through a doorway draped with a curtain I could see her +busy in her little kitchen.</p> + +<p>She left me much alone, alone with my thoughts. Often when all was quiet +I knew she was sitting there beyond the curtain, sitting thinking, just +as I was thinking. Quiet was the keynote of our life, quiet <a class="pagenum" name="page_381" id="page_381" title="381"></a>and +sunshine. That little cabin might have been a hundred miles from the +gold-born city, it was so quiet. Here drifted no echo of its abandoned +gaiety, its glory of demoralisation. How sweet she looked in her +spotless home attire, her neat waist, her white apron with bib and +sleeves, her general air of a little housewife. And never was there so +devoted a nurse.</p> + +<p>Sometimes she would read to me from one of the few books I had taken +everywhere on my travels, a page or two from my beloved Stevenson, a +poem from my great-hearted Henley, a luminous passage from my Thoreau. +How those readings brought back the time when, tired of flicking the +tawny pools, I would sit on the edge of the boisterous little burn and +read till the grey shadows sifted down! I was so happy then, and I did +not know it. Now everything seemed changed. Life had lost its zest. Its +savour was no longer sweet. Its very success was more bitter than +failure. Would I ever get back that old-time rapture, that youthful joy, +that satisfaction with all the world?</p> + +<p>It was sweet prolonging my convalescence, yet the time came when I could +no longer let her wait upon me. What was going to happen to us? I +thought of that at all times, and she knew I thought of it. Sometimes I +could see a vivid colour in her cheeks, an eager brightness in her eye. +Was ever a stranger situation? She slept in the little kitchen, and +between us there was but that curtain. The faintest draught stirred it. +There I lay through the long, <a class="pagenum" name="page_382" id="page_382" title="382"></a>long night in that quiet cabin. I heard +her breathing. Sometimes even I heard her murmur in her sleep. I knew +she was there, within a few yards of me. I thought of her always. I +loved her beyond all else on earth. I was gaining daily in health and +strength, yet not for the wealth of the world would I have passed that +little curtain. She was as safe there as if she were guarded with +swords. And she knew it.</p> + +<p>Once when I was in agony I called to her in the night, and she came to +me. She came with a mother's tenderness, with exquisite endearments, +with the great love shining in her eyes. She leaned over me, she kissed +me. As she bent over my bed I put my arm round her. There in the +darkness were we, she and I, her kisses warm upon my lips, her hair +brushing my brow, and a great love devouring us. Oh, it was hard, but I +released her, put her from me, told her to go away.</p> + +<p>"I'll play the game fair," I said to myself. I must be very, very +careful. Our position was full of danger. So I forced myself to be cold +to her, and she looked both surprised and pained at the change in me. +Then she seemed to put forth special efforts to please me. She changed +the fashion of her hair, she wore pretty bows of ribbon. She talked +brightly and lightly in a febrile way. She showed little coquettish +tricks of manner that were charming to my mind. Ever she looked at me +with wistful concern. Her heart was innocent, and she could not +understand my sudden coldness. Yet that night had given me a lightning +glimpse of my nature that <a class="pagenum" name="page_383" id="page_383" title="383"></a>frightened me. The girl was winsome beyond +words, and I knew I had but to say it and she would come to me. Yet I +checked myself. I retreated behind a barrier of reserve. "Play the +game," I said; "play the game."</p> + +<p>So as I grew better and stronger she seemed to lose her cheerfulness. +Always she had that anxious, wistful look. Once came a sound from the +kitchen like stifled sobbing, and again in the night I heard her cry. +Then the time came when I was well enough to get up, to go away.</p> + +<p>I dressed, looking like the cadaverous ghost I felt myself to be. She +was there in the kitchen, sitting quietly, waiting.</p> + +<p>"Berna," I called.</p> + +<p>She came, with a smile lighting up her face.</p> + +<p>"I'm going."</p> + +<p>The smile vanished, and left her with that high proud look, yet behind +it was a lurking fear.</p> + +<p>"You're going?" she faltered.</p> + +<p>"Yes," I said roughly, "I'm going."</p> + +<p>She did not speak.</p> + +<p>"Are you ready?" I went on.</p> + +<p>"Ready?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, you're going, too."</p> + +<p>"Where?"</p> + +<p>I took her suddenly in my arms.</p> + +<p>"Why, you dear little angel, to get married, of course. Come on, Berna, +we'll find the nearest parson. We won't lose any more precious time."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_384" id="page_384" title="384"></a>Then a great rush of tears came into her eyes. But still she hung back. +She shook her head.</p> + +<p>"Why, Berna, what's the matter? Won't you come?"</p> + +<p>"I think not."</p> + +<p>"In Heaven's name, what is wrong, dear? Don't you love me?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, I love you. It's because I love you I won't come."</p> + +<p>"Won't you marry me?"</p> + +<p>"No, no, I can't. You know what I said before. I haven't changed any. +I'm still the same—dishonoured girl. You could never give me your +name."</p> + +<p>"You're as pure as the driven snow, little one."</p> + +<p>"No one thinks so but you, and it's that that makes all the difference. +Everybody knows. No, I could never marry you, never take your name, +never bind you to me."</p> + +<p>"Well, what's to be done?"</p> + +<p>"You must go away, or—stay."</p> + +<p>"Stay?"</p> + +<p>"Yes. You've been living alone with me for a month. I picked you up that +night in the dance-hall. I had you brought here. I nursed you. Do you +think people don't give us credit for the worst? We are as innocent as +children, yet do you think I have a shred of reputation left? Already I +am supposed to be your mistress. Everybody knows; nobody cares. There +are so many living that way here. If you told them we were innocent they +would scoff at us. If you go they will say you have discarded me."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_385" id="page_385" title="385"></a>"What shall I do?"</p> + +<p>"Just stay. Oh, why can't we go on as we've been doing? It's been so +like home. Don't leave me, dear. I don't want to bind you. I just want +to be of some use to you, to help you, to be with you always. Love me +for a little, anyway. Then when you're tired of me you can go, but don't +go now."</p> + +<p>I was dazed, but she went on.</p> + +<p>"What does the ceremony matter? We love each other. Isn't that the real +marriage? It's more; it's an ideal. We'll both be free to go if we wish. +There will be no bonds but those of love. Is not that beautiful, two +people cleaving together for love's sake, living for each other, +sacrificing for each other, yet with no man-made law to tell them: 'This +must ye do'? Oh, stay, stay!"</p> + +<p>Her arms were round my neck. The grey eyes were full of pleading. The +sweet lips had the old, pathetic droop. I yielded to the empery of love.</p> + +<p>"Well," I said, "we will go on awhile, on one condition—that by-and-bye +you marry me."</p> + +<p>"Yes, I will, I will; I promise. If you don't tire of me; if you are +sure beyond all doubt you will never regret it, then I will marry you +with the greatest joy in the world."</p> + +<p>So it came about that I stayed.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_386" id="page_386" title="386"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER VIII</h2> +</div> + +<p>In this infernal irony of an existence why do the good things of life +always come when we no longer have the same appetite to enjoy them? The +year following, in which Berna and I kept house, was not altogether a +happy one. Somehow we had both just missed something. We had suffered +too much to recover our poise very easily. We were sick, not in body, +but in mind. The thought of her terrible experience haunted her. She was +as sensitive as the petal of a delicate flower, and often would I see +her lips quiver and a look of pain come into her eyes. Then I knew of +what she was thinking. I knew, and I, too, suffered.</p> + +<p>I tried to make her forget, yet I could not succeed; and even in my most +happy moments there was always a shadow, the shadow of Locasto; there +was always a fear, the fear of his return. Yes, it seemed at times as if +we were two unfortunates, as if our happiness had come too late, as if +our lives were irretrievably shipwrecked.</p> + +<p>Locasto! where was he? For near a year had he been gone, somewhere in +that wild country at the Back of Beyond. Somewhere amid the wilder peaks +and valleys of the Rockies he fought his desperate battle with the Wild. +There had been sinister rumours of two lone prospectors who had perished +up <a class="pagenum" name="page_387" id="page_387" title="387"></a>in that savage country, of two bodies that lay rotting and half +buried by a landslide. I had a sudden, wild hope that one of them might +be my enemy; for I hated him and I would have joyed at his death. When I +loved Berna most exquisitely, when I gazed with tender joy upon her +sweetness, when, with glad, thankful eyes, I blessed her for the +sympathy and sunshine of her presence, then between us would come a +shadow, dark, menacing and mordant. So the joy-light would vanish from +my eyes and a great sadness fall upon me.</p> + +<p>What would I do if he returned? I wondered. Perhaps if he left us alone +I might let by-gones be by-gones; but if he ever came near her +again—well, I oiled the chambers of my Colt and heard its joyous click +as it revolved. "That's for him," I said, "that's for him, if by look, +by word, or by act he ever molests her again." And I meant it, too. +Suffering had hardened me, made me dangerous. I would have killed him.</p> + +<p>Then, as the months went past and the suspicion of his fate deepened +almost to a certainty, I began to breathe more freely. I noticed, too, a +world of difference in Berna. She grew light-hearted. She sang and +laughed a good deal. The sunshine came back to her eyes, and the shadow +seldom lingered there. Sometimes the thought that we were not legally +married troubled me, but on all sides were men living with their +Klondike wives, either openly or secretly, and where this domestic +ménage was conducted in quietness there was little comment on it. We +lived <a class="pagenum" name="page_388" id="page_388" title="388"></a>to ourselves, and for ourselves. We left our neighbours alone. We +made few friends, and in the ferment of social life we were almost +unnoticed.</p> + +<p>Of course, the Prodigal expostulated with me in severe terms. I did not +attempt to argue with him. He would not have understood my point of +view. There are heights and depths in life to which he with his +practical mind could never attain. Yet he became very fond of Berna, and +often visited us.</p> + +<p>"Why don't you go and get churched decently, if you love her?" he +demanded.</p> + +<p>"So I will," I answered calmly; "give me a little time. Wait till we get +more settled."</p> + +<p>And, indeed, we were up to our necks in business these days. Our Gold +Hill property had turned out well. We had a gang of men employed there, +and I made frequent trips out to Bonanza. We had given the Halfbreed a +small interest, and installed him as manager. The Jam-wagon, too, we had +employed as a sort of assistant foreman. Jim was busy installing his +hydraulic plant on Ophir Creek, and altogether we had enough to think +about. I had set my heart on making a hundred thousand dollars, and as +things were looking it seemed as if two more years would bring me to +that mark.</p> + +<p>"Then," said I to Berna, "we'll go and travel all over the world, and do +it in style."</p> + +<p>"Will we, dear?" she answered tenderly. "But I don't want money much +now, and I don't know that I care so much about travel either. What I +would like would be to go to your home, and settle down <a class="pagenum" name="page_389" id="page_389" title="389"></a>and live +quietly. What I want is a nice flower garden, and a pony to drive into +town, and a home to fuss about. I would embroider, and read, and play a +little, and cook things, and—just be with you."</p> + +<p>She was greatly interested in my description of Glengyle. She never +tired of questioning me about it. Particularly was she interested in my +accounts of Garry, and rather scoffed at my enthusiastic description of +him.</p> + +<p>"Oh, that wonderful brother of yours! One would think he was a small +god, to hear you talk. I declare I'm half afraid of him. Do you think he +would like me?"</p> + +<p>"He would love you, little girl; any one would."</p> + +<p>"Don't be foolish," she chided me. And then she drew my head down and +kissed me.</p> + +<p>I think we had the prettiest little cabin in all Dawson. The big logs +were peeled smooth, and the ends squarely cut. The chinks were filled in +with mortar. The whole was painted a deep rich crimson. The roof was +covered with sheet-iron, and it, too, was painted crimson. There was a +deep porch to it. It was the snuggest, neatest little home in the world.</p> + +<p>Windows hung with dainty lace curtains peeped through its clustering +greenery of vines, but the glory of it all was the flower garden. There +was a bewildering variety of flowers, but mostly I remember stocks and +pinks, Iceland poppies, marguerites, asters, marigolds, verbenas, +hollyhocks, pansies and petunias, growing in glorious profusion. Even +the <a class="pagenum" name="page_390" id="page_390" title="390"></a>roughest miner would stand and stare at them as he tramped past on +the board sidewalk.</p> + +<p>They were a mosaic of glowing colour, yet the crowning triumph was the +poppies and sweet peas. Set in the centre of the lawn was a circle that +was a leaping glow of poppies. Of every shade were they, from starry +pink to luminous gold, from snowy white to passionate crimson. Like +vari-coloured lamps they swung, and wakened you to wonder and joy with +the exultant challenge of their beauty. And the sweet peas! All up the +south side of the cabin they grew, overtopping the eaves in their +riotous perfection. They rivalled the poppies in the radiant confusion +of their colour, and they were so lavish of blossom we could not pick +them fast enough. I think ours was the pioneer garden of the gold-born +city, and awakened many to the growth-giving magic of the long, long +day.</p> + +<p>And it was the joy and pride of Berna's heart. I would sit on the porch +of a summer's evening when down the mighty Yukon a sunset of vast and +violent beauty flamed and languished, and I would watch her as she +worked among her flowers. I can see her flitting figure in a dress of +dainty white as she hovered over a beautiful blossom. I can hear her +calling me, her voice like the music of a flute, calling me to come and +see some triumph of her skill. I have a picture of her coming towards me +with her arms full of flowers, burying her face lovingly among the +velvet petals, and raising it again, the sweetest flower of all. How +radiantly outshone her eyes, and her <a class="pagenum" name="page_391" id="page_391" title="391"></a>face, delicate as a cameo, seemed +to have stolen the fairest tints of the lily and the rose.</p> + +<p>Starry vines screened the porch, and everywhere were swinging baskets of +silver birch, brimming over with the delicate green of smilax or clouded +in an amethystine mist of lobelias. I can still see the little +sitting-room with its piano, its plenitude of cushions, its book-rack, +its Indian corner, its tasteful paper, its pictures, and always and +everywhere flowers, flowers. The air was heavy with the fragrance of +them. They glorified the crudest corner, and made our home like a nook +in fairyland.</p> + +<p>I remember one night as I sat reading she came to me. Never did I see +her look so happy. She was almost childlike in her joy. She sat down by +my chair and looked up at me. Then she put her arms around me.</p> + +<p>"Oh, I'm so happy," she said with a sigh.</p> + +<p>"Are you, dearest?" I caressed the soft floss of her hair.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I just wish we could live like this forever;" and she nestled up +to me ever so fondly.</p> + +<p>Aye, she was happy, and I will always bless the memory of those days, +and thank God I was the means of bringing a little gladness into her +marred life. She was happy, and yet we were living in what society would +call sin. Conventionally we were not man and wife, yet never were man +and wife more devoted, more self-respecting. Never were man and wife +endowed with purer ideals, with a more exalted conception of the +sanctity of love. Yet there were <a class="pagenum" name="page_392" id="page_392" title="392"></a>many in the town not half so delicate, +so refined, so spiritual, who would have passed my little lady like a +pariah. But what cared we?</p> + +<p>And perhaps it was the very greatness of my love for her that sometimes +made me fear; so that often in the ecstasy of a moment I would catch my +breath and wonder if it all could last. And when the poplars turned to +gold, and up the valley stole a shuddering breath of desolation, my fear +grew apace. The sky was all resplendent with the winter stars, and keen +and hard their facets sparkled. And I knew that somewhere underneath +those stars there slept Locasto. But was it the sleep of the living or +of the dead? Would he return?</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_393" id="page_393" title="393"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER IX</h2> +</div> + +<p>Two men were crawling over the winter-locked plain. In the aching circle +of its immensity they were like little black ants. One, the leader, was +of great bulk and of a vast strength; while the other was small and +wiry, of the breed that clings like a louse to life while better men +perish.</p> + +<p>On all sides of the frozen lake over which they were travelling were +hills covered with harsh pine, that pricked funereally up to the +boulder-broken snows. Above that was a stormy and fantastic sea of +mountains baring many a fierce peak-fang to the hollow heavens. The sky +was a waxen grey, cold as a corpse-light. The snow was an immaculate +shroud, unmarked by track of bird or beast. Death-sealed the land lay in +its silent vastitude, in its despairful desolation.</p> + +<p>The small man was breaking trail. Down almost to his knees in the soft +snow, he sank at every step; yet ever he dragged a foot painfully +upward, and made another forward plunge. The snowshoe thong, jagged with +ice, chafed him cruelly. The muscles of his legs ached as insistently as +if clamped in a vice. He lurched forward with fatigue, so that he seemed +to be ever stumbling, yet recovering himself.</p> + +<p>"Come on there, you darned little shrimp; get a <a class="pagenum" name="page_394" id="page_394" title="394"></a>move on you," growled +the big man from within the frost-fringed hood of his parka.</p> + +<p>The little man started as if galvanised into sudden life. His breath +steamed and almost hissed as it struck the icy air. At each raw intake +of it his chest heaved. He beat his mittened hands on his breast to keep +them from freezing. Under the hood of his parka great icicles had +formed, hanging to the hairs of his beard, walrus-like, and his eyes, +thickly wadded with frost, glared out with the furtive fear of a hunted +beast.</p> + +<p>"Curse him, curse him," he whimpered; but once more he lifted those +leaden snowshoes and staggered on.</p> + +<p>The big man lashed fiercely at the dogs, and as they screamed at his +blows he laughed cruelly. They were straining forward in the harness, +their bellies almost level with the ground, their muscles standing out +like whalebone. Great, gaunt brutes they were, with ribs like +barrel-staves, and hip-bones sharp as stakes. Their woolly coats were +white with frost, their sly, slit-eyed faces ice-sheathed, their feet +torn so that they left a bloody track on the snow at every step.</p> + +<p>"Mush on there, you curs, or I'll cut you in two," stormed the big man, +and once again the heavy whip fell on the yelling pack. They were +pulling for all they were worth, their heads down, their shoulders +squared. Their breath came pantingly, their tongues gleamed redly, their +white teeth shone. They were fighting, fighting for life, fighting to +placate a cruel <a class="pagenum" name="page_395" id="page_395" title="395"></a>master in a world where all was cruelty and oppression.</p> + +<p>For there in the Winter Wild pity was not even a name. It was the +struggle for life, desperate and never-ending. The Wild abhorred life, +abhorred most of all these atoms of heat and hurry in the midst of her +triumphant stillness. The Wild would crush those defiant pigmies that +disputed the majesty of her invincible calm.</p> + +<p>A dog was hanging back in the harness. It whined; then as the husky +following snapped at it savagely, it gave a lurch and fell. The big man +shot forward with a sudden fury in his eyes. Swinging the heavy-thonged +whip, again and again he brought it down on the writhing brute. Then he +twisted the thong around his hand and belaboured its hollow ribs with +the butt. It screamed for a while, but soon it ceased to scream; it only +moaned a little. With glistening fangs and ears up-pricked the other +dogs looked at their fallen comrade. They longed to leap on it, to rend +its gaunt limbs apart, to tear its quivering flesh; but there was the +big man with his murderous whip, and they cowered before him.</p> + +<p>The big man kicked the fallen dog repeatedly. The little man paused in +his painful progress to look on apathetically.</p> + +<p>"You'll stave in its ribs," he remarked presently; "and then we'll never +make timber by nightfall."</p> + +<p>The big man had failed in his efforts to rouse the dog. There in that +lancinating cold, in an ecstasy of rage, despairfully he poised over it.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_396" id="page_396" title="396"></a>"Who told you to put in your lip?" he snarled. "Who's running this +show, you or I? I'll stave in its ribs if I choose, and I'll hitch you +to the sled and make you pull your guts out, too."</p> + +<p>The little man said no more. Then, the dog still refusing to rise, the +big man leapt over the harness and came down on the animal with both +feet. There was a scream of pitiful agony, and the snap of breaking +bones. But the big man slipped and fell. Down he came, and like a flash +the whole pack piled onto him.</p> + +<p>For a moment there was a confused muddle of dogs and master. This was +the time for which they had waited, these savage semi-wolves. This man +had beaten them, had starved them, had been a devil to them, and now he +was down and at their mercy. Ferociously they sprang on him, and their +white fangs snapped like traps in his face. They fought to get at his +throat. They tore at his parka. Oh, if they could only make their teeth +meet in his warm flesh! But no; they were all tangled up in the harness, +and the man was fighting like a giant. He had the leader by the throat +and was using her as a shield against the others. His right hand swung +the whip with flail-like blows. Foiled and confused the dogs fell to +fighting among themselves, and triumphantly the man leapt to his feet.</p> + +<p>He was like a fiend now. Fiercely he raged among the snarling pack, +kicking, clubbing, cursing, till one and all he had them beaten into +cowering subjection.</p> + +<p>He was still panting from his struggle. His face <a class="pagenum" name="page_397" id="page_397" title="397"></a>was deathly pale, and +his eyes were glittering. He strode up to the little man, who had +watched the performance stolidly.</p> + +<p>"Why didn't you help me, you dirty little whelp?" he hissed. "You wanted +to see them chew me up; you know you did. You'd like to have them rip me +to ribbons. You wouldn't move a finger to save me. Oh, I know, I know. +I've had enough of you this trip to last me a lifetime. You've bucked me +right along. Now, blast your dirty little soul, I hate you, and for the +rest of the way I'm going to make your life hell. See! Now I'll begin."</p> + +<p>The little man was afraid. He seemed to grow smaller, while over him +towered the other, dark, fierce and malignant. The little man was +desperate. Defensively he crouched, yet the next instant he was +overthrown. Then, as he lay sprawling in the snow, the big man fell to +lashing him with the whip. Time after time he struck, till the screams +of his victim became one long, drawn-out wail of agony. Then he +desisted. Jerking the other on his feet once more, he bade him go on +breaking trail.</p> + +<p>Again they struggled on. The light was beginning to fail, and there was +no thought in their minds but to reach that dark belt of timber before +darkness came. There was no sound but the crunch of their snowshoes, the +panting of the dogs, the rasping of the sleigh. When they paused the +silence seemed to fall on them like a blanket. There was something awful +in the quality of this deathly silence. It was as if something material, +something tangible, hovered <a class="pagenum" name="page_398" id="page_398" title="398"></a>over them, closed in on them, choked them, +throttled them. It was almost like a Presence.</p> + +<p>Weary and worn were men and dogs as they struggled onwards in the +growing gloom, but because of the feeling in his heart the little man no +longer was conscious of bodily pain. It was black murder that raged +there.</p> + +<p>With straining sinews and bones that cracked, the dogs bent to a heavy +pull, while at the least sign of shirking down swished the relentless +whip. And the big man, as if proud of his strength, gazed insolently +round on the Wild. He was at home in this land, this stark wolf-land, so +callous, so cruel. Was he not cruel, too? Surely this land cowered +before him. Its hardships could not daunt him, nor its terrors dismay. +As he urged on his bloody-footed dogs, he exulted greatly. Of all Men of +the High North was he not king?</p> + +<p>At last they reached the forest fringe, and after a few harsh directions +he had the little man making camp. The little man worked with a strange +willingness. All his taciturnity had gone. As he gathered the firewood +and filled the Yukon stove, he hummed a merry air. He had the water +boiling and soon there was the fragrance of tea in the little tent. He +produced sourdough bread (which he fried in bacon fat), and some dried +moose-meat.</p> + +<p>To men of the trail this was a treat. They ate ravenously, but they did +not speak. Yet the little man was oddly cheerful. Time and again the big +man looked at him suspiciously. Outside it was a <a class="pagenum" name="page_399" id="page_399" title="399"></a>steely night, with an +icicle of a moon. The cold leapt on one savagely. To step from the tent +was like plunging into icy water, yet within those canvas walls the men +were warm and snug. The stove crackled its cheer. A grease-light +sputtered, and by its rays the little man was mending his ice-stiffened +moccasins. He hummed an Irish air, and he seemed to be tickled with some +thought he had.</p> + +<p>"Stop that tune," growled the other. "If you don't know anything else, +cut it out. I'm sick of it."</p> + +<p>The little man shut up meekly. Again there was silence, broken by a +whining and a scratching outside. It was the five dogs crying for their +supper, crying for the frozen fish they had earned so well. They +wondered why it was not forthcoming. When they received it they would +lie on it, to warm it with the heat of their bodies, and then gnaw off +the thawed portions. They were very wise, these dogs. But to-night there +was no fish, and they whined for it.</p> + +<p>"Dog feed all gone?"</p> + +<p>"Yep," said the small man.</p> + +<p>"Hell! I'll silence these brutes anyway."</p> + +<p>He went to the door and laid onto them so that they slunk away into the +shadows. But they did not bury themselves in the snow and sleep. They +continued to prowl round the tent, hunger-mad and desperate.</p> + +<p>"We've only got enough grub left for ourselves now," said the big man; +"and none too much at that. I guess I'll put you on half-rations."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_400" id="page_400" title="400"></a>He laughed as if it was the hugest joke. Then rolling himself in a +robe, he lay down and slept.</p> + +<p>The little man did not sleep. He was still turning over the thought that +had come to him. Outside in the atrocious cold the whining malamutes +crept nearer and nearer. Savage were they, Indian raised and sired by a +wolf. And now, in the agonies of hunger, they cried for fish, and there +was none for them, only kicks and curses. Oh, it was a world of ghastly +cruelty! They howled their woes to the weary moon.</p> + +<p>"Short rations, indeed," mumbled the little man. He crawled into his +sleeping bag, but he did not close his eyes. He was watching.</p> + +<p>About dawn he rose. An evil dawn it was, sallow, sinister and askew.</p> + +<p>The little man selected the heavy-handled whip for the job. Carefully he +felt its butt, then he struck. It was a shrewd blow and a neatly +delivered, for the little man had been in the business before. It fell +on the big man's head, and he crumpled up. Then the little man took some +rawhide thongs and trussed up his victim. There lay the big man, bound +and helpless, with a clotted blood-hole in his black hair.</p> + +<p>Then the little man gathered up the rest of the provisions. He looked +around carefully, as if fearful of leaving anything behind. He made a +pack of the food and lashed it on his back. Now he was ready to start. +He knew that within fifty miles, travelling to the south, he would +strike a settlement. He was safe.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_401" id="page_401" title="401"></a>He turned to where lay the unconscious body of his partner. Again and +again he kicked it; he cursed it; he spat on it. Then, after a final +look of gloating hate, he went off and left the big man to his fate.</p> + +<p>At last, at long last, the Worm had turned.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_402" id="page_402" title="402"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER X</h2> +</div> + +<p>The dogs! The dogs were closing in. Nearer and nearer they drew, headed +by a fierce Mackenzie River bitch. They wondered why their master did +not wake; they wondered why the little tent was so still; why no plume +of smoke rose from the slim stovepipe. All was oddly quiet and lifeless. +No curses greeted them; no whiplash cut into them; no strong arm jerked +them over the harness. Perhaps it was a primordial instinct that drew +them on, that made them strangely bold. Perhaps it was only the despair +of their hunger, the ache of empty bellies. Closer and closer they crept +to the silent tent.</p> + +<p>Locasto opened his eyes. Within a foot of his face were the fangs of a +malamute. At his slight movement it drew back with a snarl, and +retreated to the door. Locasto could see the other dogs crouching and +eyeing him fixedly. What could be the matter? What had gotten into the +brutes? Where was the Worm? Where were the provisions? Why was the tent +flap open and the stove stone-cold? Then with a dawning comprehension +that he had been deserted, Locasto uttered a curse and tried to rise.</p> + +<p>At first he thought he was stiff with cold, but a downward glance showed +him his condition. He was helpless. He grew sick at the pit of his +stomach, <a class="pagenum" name="page_403" id="page_403" title="403"></a>and glared at the dogs. They were drawing in on him. They +seemed to bulk suddenly, to grow huge and menacing. Their gleaming teeth +snapped in his face. He could fancy these teeth stripping the flesh from +his body, gnawing at his bones with drooling jaws. Violently he +shuddered. He must try to free himself, so that at least he could fight.</p> + +<p>Grimly the Worm had done his work, but he had hardly reckoned on the +strength of this man. With a vast throe of fear Locasto tried to free +himself. Tenser, tenser grew the thongs; they strained, they bit into +his flesh, but they would not break. Yet as he relaxed it seemed to him +they were less tight. Then he rested for another effort.</p> + +<p>Once again the gaunt, grey bitch was crawling up. He remembered how +often he had starved it, clubbed it until it could barely stand. Now it +was going to get even. It would snap at his throat, rip out his +windpipe, bury its fangs in his bleeding flesh. He cursed it in the old +way. With a spring it backed out again and stood with the others. He +made another giant effort. Once again he felt the thongs strain and +strain; then, when he ceased, he imagined they were still looser.</p> + +<p>The dogs seemed to have lost all fear. They stood in a circle within a +few feet of him, regarding him intently. They smelled the blood on his +head, and a slaver ran from their jaws. Again he cursed them, but this +time they did not move. They seemed to realise he could not harm them. +With their evilly-slanted <a class="pagenum" name="page_404" id="page_404" title="404"></a>eyes they watched his struggles. Strange, +wise, uncanny brutes, they were biding their time, waiting to rush in on +him, to rend him.</p> + +<p>Again he tried to get free. Now he fancied he could move his arm a +little. He must hurry, for every instant the malamutes were growing +bolder. Another strain and a wrench. Ha! he was able to squeeze his +right arm from under the rawhide.</p> + +<p>He felt the foul breath of the dogs on his face, and quickly he struck +at them. They jumped back, then, as if at a signal, they sprang in +again. There was no time to lose. They were attacking him in earnest. +Quickly he wrenched out his other arm. He was just in time, for the dogs +were upon him.</p> + +<p>He struggled to his knees and shielded his head with his arms. Wildly he +swung at the nearest dog. Full on the face he struck it, and it shot +back as if hit by a bullet. But the others were on him. They had him +down, snarling and ripping, a mad ferment of fury. Two of them were +making for his face. As he lay on his back he gripped each by the +throat. His hands were torn and bleeding, but he had them fast. In his +grip of steel they struggled to free themselves in vain. They backed, +they writhed, they twisted in a bow. With his huge hands he was choking +them, choking them to death, using them as a shield against the other +three. Then slowly he worked himself into a sitting position. He hurled +one of the dogs to the tent door. He swung bludgeon blows at the others. +They fled yelping and howling. He still held the Mackenzie River bitch. +Getting <a class="pagenum" name="page_405" id="page_405" title="405"></a>his knee on her body, he bent her almost into a circle, bent +her till her back broke with a snap.</p> + +<p>Then he rose and freed himself from the remaining thongs. He was torn +and cut and bleeding, but he had triumphed.</p> + +<p>"Oh, the devil!" he growled, grinding his teeth. "He would have me +chewed to rags by malamutes."</p> + +<p>He stared around.</p> + +<p>"He's taken everything, the scum! left me to starve. Ha! one thing he's +forgotten—the matches. At least I can keep warm."</p> + +<p>He picked up the canister of matches and relit the stove.</p> + +<p>"I'll kill him for this," he muttered. "Night and day I'll follow him. +I'll camp on his trail till I find him. Then—I'll torture him; I'll +strip him and leave him naked in the snow."</p> + +<p>He slipped into his snowshoes, gave a last look around to see that no +food had been left, and with a final growl of fury he started in +pursuit.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Ahead of him, ploughing their way through the virgin snow, he could see +the dragging track of the long snowshoes. He examined it, and noted that +it was sharp and crisp at the edges.</p> + +<p>"He's got a good five hours' start of me! Travelling fast, too, by the +length of the track."</p> + +<p>He had a thought of capturing the dogs and hitching them up; but, +thoroughly terrified, they had retreated into the woods. To overtake +this man, to <a class="pagenum" name="page_406" id="page_406" title="406"></a>glut his lust for revenge, he must depend on his own +strength and endurance.</p> + +<p>"Now, Jack Locasto," he told himself grimly, "you've got a fight on your +hands, such a fight as you never had before. Get right down to it."</p> + +<p>So, with head bowed and shoulders sloping forward, he darted on the +track of the Worm.</p> + +<p>"He's got to break trail, the viper! and that's where I score. I can +make twice the time. Oh, just wait, you little devil! just wait!"</p> + +<p>He ground his teeth vindictively, and put an inch more onto his stride. +He was descending a long, open valley that seemed from its trackless +snows to have been immemorially life-shunned and accursed. Black, +witch-like pines sentinelled its flanks, and accentuated its desolation. +And over all there was the silence of the Wild, that double-strong +solution of silence from which all other silences are distilled, and +spread out. Yet, as he gazed around him in this everlasting solitude, +there was no fear in his heart.</p> + +<p>"I can fight this accursed land and beat it out every time," he exulted. +"It can't get any the better of me."</p> + +<p>It was cold, so cold that it was difficult to imagine it could ever be +warm again. To expose flesh was to feel instantly the sharp sting that +heralds frostbite. As he ran, the sharp intake of icy air made his lungs +seem to contract. His eyes smarted and tingled. The lashes froze +closely. Ice formed in his nostrils and his nose began to bleed. He +pulled up a moment.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_407" id="page_407" title="407"></a>"Curse this infernal country!"</p> + +<p>He had not eaten and the icy air begot a ravenous hunger. He dreamed of +food, but chiefly of bacon, fat, greasy bacon. How glorious it would be +just to eat of it, raw, tallow bacon! He had nothing to eat. He would +have nothing till he had overtaken the Worm. On! On!</p> + +<p>He came to where the Worm had made a camp. There were the ashes of a +fire.</p> + +<p>"Curse him; he's got some matches after all," he said with bitter +chagrin. Eagerly he searched all around in the snow to see if he could +not find even a crumb of food. There was nothing. He pushed on. Night +fell and he was forced to make camp.</p> + +<p>Oh, he was hungry! The night was vastly resplendent, a spendthrift night +scattering everywhere its largess of stars. The cold had a crystalline +quality and the trees detonated strangely in the silence. He built a +huge fire: that at least he could have, and through eighteen hours of +darkness he crouched by it, afraid to sleep for fear of freezing.</p> + +<p>"If I only had a tin to boil water in," he muttered; "there's lots of +reindeer moss, and I could stew some of my mucklucks. Ah! I'll try and +roast a bit of them."</p> + +<p>He cut a strip from the Indian boots he was wearing, and held it over +the fire. The hair singed away and the corners crisped and charred. He +put it in his mouth. It was pleasantly warm, but even his strong teeth +refused to meet in it. However, he tore it into smaller pieces, and +bolted them.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_408" id="page_408" title="408"></a>At last the dawn came, that evil, sneaking, corpse-like dawn, and +Locasto flung himself once more on the trail. He was not feeling so fit +now. Hunger and loss of blood had weakened him so that his stride +insensibly shortened, and his step had lost its spring. However, he +plodded on doggedly, an incarnation of vengeance and hate. Again he +examined the snowshoe trail ever stretching in front, and noticed how +crisped and hard was its edge. He was not making the time he had +reckoned on. The Worm must be a long way ahead.</p> + +<p>Still he did not despair. The little man might rest a day, or oversleep, +or strain a sinew, then— Locasto pictured with gloating joy the +terror of the Worm as he awoke to find himself overtaken. Oh, the snake! +the vermin! On! On!</p> + +<p>Beyond a doubt he was growing weaker. Once or twice he stumbled, and the +last time he lay a few moments before rising. He wanted to rest badly. +The cold was keener than ever; it was merciless; it was excruciating. He +no longer had the vitality to withstand it. It stabbed and stung him +whenever he exposed bare flesh. He pulled the parka hood very close, so +that only his eyes peered out. So he moved through the desolation of the +Arctic Wild, a dark, muffled figure, a demon of vengeance, fierce and +menacing.</p> + +<p>He stood on a vast, still plateau. The sky was like a great grotto of +ice. The land lay in a wan apathy of suffering, dumb, hopeless, drear. +Icy land and icy sky met in a trap, a trap that held him fast; <a class="pagenum" name="page_409" id="page_409" title="409"></a>and over +all, vast, titanic, terrible, the Spirit of the Wild seemed to brood. It +laughed at him, a laugh of derision, of mockery, of callous gloating +triumph. Locasto shuddered. Then night came and he built another giant +fire.</p> + +<p>Again he bolted down some roasted muckluck. Overhead the stars glittered +vindictively. They were green and blue and red, and they had spiny rays +like starfish on which they danced. This night he had to make tremendous +efforts to keep from sleeping. Several times he drowsed forward, and +almost fell into the fire. As he crouched there his beard was singeing +and his face scorched, but his back seemed as if it was cased in ice. +Often he would turn and warm it at the fire, but not for long. He hated +to face the terror of the silence and the dark, the shadow where waited +Death. Better the crackling cheer of the spruce flame.</p> + +<p>At dawn the sky was leaden and the cold less despotic. Stretching +interminably ahead was that lonely snowshoe trail. Locasto was puzzled.</p> + +<p>"Where in creation is the little devil going to, anyway?" he said, +knitting his brows. "I figured he'd make direct for Dawson, but he's +either changed his mind or got a wrong steer. By Heavens, that's it—the +little varmint's lost his way."</p> + +<p>Locasto had an Indian's unerring sense of location.</p> + +<p>"I guess I can't afford to follow him any more," he reflected. "I've +gone too far already. I'm all petered out. I'll have to let him go in +the meantime. <a class="pagenum" name="page_410" id="page_410" title="410"></a>It's save yourself, Jack Locasto, while there's yet time. +Me for Dawson."</p> + +<p>He struck off almost at right angles to the trail he had been following, +over a low range of hills. It was evil going, and as he broke through +the snow-crust mile after wearing mile, he felt himself grow weaker and +weaker. "Buck up, old man," he adjured himself fiercely. "You've got to +fight, fight."</p> + +<p>There was a strange stillness in the air, not the natural stillness of +the Wild, but an unhealthy one, as of a suspension of something, of a +vacuum, of bated breath. It was curiously full of terror. More and more +he felt like a trapped animal, caught in a vast cage. The sky to the +north was glooming ominously. Every second the horizon grew blacker, +more bodeful, and Locasto stared at it, with a sudden quake at his +heart.</p> + +<p>"Blizzard, by thunder!" he gasped.</p> + +<p>Was that a breath of wind that stung his cheek? Was it a snowflake that +drifted along with it? Denser and denser grew the gloom, and now there +was a roaring as of a great wind. King Blizzard was come.</p> + +<p>"I guess I'm done for," he hissed through clenched teeth. "But I'll +fight to the finish. I'll die game."</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_411" id="page_411" title="411"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XI</h2> +</div> + +<p>It was on him now with a swoop and a roar. He was in the thick of a +mud-grey darkness, a bitter, blank darkness full of whirling wind-eddies +and vast flurries of snow. He could not see more than a few feet before +him. The stinging flakes blinded him; the coal-black night engulfed him. +In that seething turmoil of the elements he was as helpless as a child.</p> + +<p>"I guess you're on your last trail, Jack Locasto," he muttered grimly.</p> + +<p>Nevertheless he lowered his head and butted desperately into the heart +of the storm. He was very faint from lack of food, but despair had given +him a new strength, and he plunged through drift and flurry with the +fury of a goaded bull.</p> + +<p>The night had fallen black as the pit. He was in an immensity of +darkness, a darkness that packed close up to him, and hugged him, and +enfolded him like a blanket. And in the black void winds were raging +with an insane fury, whirling aloft mountains of snow and hurling them +along plain and valley. The forests shrieked in fear; the creatures of +the Wild cowered in their lairs, but the solitary man stumbled on and +on. As if by magic barriers of snow piled up before him, and almost to +his shoulders he floundered through them. The wind had a hatchet edge +that pierced his clothes and hacked him viciously. <a class="pagenum" name="page_412" id="page_412" title="412"></a>He knew his only +plan was to keep moving, to stumble, stagger on. It was a fight for +life.</p> + +<p>He had forgotten his hunger. Those wild visions of gluttony had gone +from him. He had forgotten his thirst for revenge, forgotten everything +but his own dire peril.</p> + +<p>"Keep moving, keep moving for God's sake," he urged himself hoarsely. +"You'll freeze if you let up a moment. Don't let up, don't!"</p> + +<p>But oh, how hard it was not to rest! Every muscle in his body seemed to +beg and pray for rest, yet the spirit in him drove them to work anew. He +was making a certain mad headway, travelling, always travelling. He +doubted not he was doomed, but instinct made him fight on as long as an +atom of strength remained.</p> + +<p>He floundered to his armpits in a snowdrift. He struggled out and +staggered on once more. In the mad buffoonery of that cutting wind he +scarce could stand upright. His parka was frozen stiff as a board. He +could feel his hands grow numb in his mits. From his fingers the icy +cold crept up and up. Long since he had lost all sensation in his feet. +From the ankles down they were like wooden clogs. He had an idea they +were frozen. He lifted them, and watched them sink and disappear in the +clinging snow. He beat his numb hands against his breast. It was of no +use—he could not get back the feeling in them. A craving to lie down in +the snow assailed him.</p> + +<p>Life was so sweet. He had visions of cities, of banquets, of theatres, +of glittering triumphs, of glorious <a class="pagenum" name="page_413" id="page_413" title="413"></a>excitements, of women he had loved, +conquered and thrown aside. Never again would he see that world. He +would die here, and they would find him rigid and brittle, frozen so +hard they would have to thaw him out before they buried him. He fancied +he saw himself frozen in a grotesque position. There would be +ice-crystals in the very centre of his heart, that heart that had glowed +so fiercely with the lust of life. Yes, life was sweet. A vast self-pity +surged over him. Well, he had done his best; he could struggle no more.</p> + +<p>But struggle he did, another hour, two hours, three hours. Where was he +going? Maybe round in a circle. He was like an automaton now. He did not +think any more, he just kept moving. His feet clumped up and down. He +lifted himself out of snowpits; he staggered a few steps, fell, crawled +on all fours in the darkness, then in a lull of the furious wind rose +once more to his feet. The night was abysmal; closer and closer it +hugged him. The wind was charging him from all points, baffling him like +a merry monster, beating him down. The snow whirled around him in a +narrow eddy, and he tried to grope out of it and failed. Oh, he was +tired, tired!</p> + +<p>He must give up. It was too bad. He was so strong, and capable of so +much for good or bad. Alas! it had been all for bad. Oh, if he had but +another chance he might make his life tell a different tale! Well, he +wasn't going to whine or cower. He would die game.</p> + +<p>His feet were frozen; his arms were frozen. Here <a class="pagenum" name="page_414" id="page_414" title="414"></a>he would lie down +and—quit. It would soon be over, and it was a pleasant death, they +said. One more look he gave through the writhing horror of the darkness; +one more look before he closed his eyes to the horror of the Greater +Darkness....</p> + +<p>Ha! what was that? He fancied he saw a dim glow just ahead. It could not +be. It was one of those cheating dreams that came to a dying man, an +illusion, a mockery. He closed his eyes. Then he opened them again—the +glow was still there.</p> + +<p>Surely it must be real! It was steady. As he fell forward it seemed to +grow more bright. On hands and knees he crawled to it. Brighter and +brighter it grew. It was but a few feet away. Oh, God! could it be?</p> + +<p>Then there was a lull in the storm, and with a final plunge Locasto fell +forward, fell towards a lamp lighted in a window, fell against the +closed door of a little cabin.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>The Worm suffered acutely from the intense cold. He cursed it in his +prolific and exhaustive way. He cursed the leaden weight of his +snowshoes, and the thongs that chafed his feet. He cursed the pack he +carried on his back, which momently grew heavier. He cursed the country; +then, after a general debauch of obscenity, he decided it was time to +feed.</p> + +<p>He gathered some dry twigs and built a fire on the snow. He hurried, for +the freezing process was going on in his carcase, and he was afraid. It +was all ready. Now to light it—the matches.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_415" id="page_415" title="415"></a>Where in hell were the matches? Surely he could not have left them at +the camp. With feverish haste he overturned his pack. No, they were not +there. Could he have dropped them on the trail? He had a wild idea of +going back. Then he thought of Locasto lying in the tent. He could never +face that. But he must have a fire. He was freezing to death—right now. +Already his fingers were tingling and stiffening.</p> + +<p>Huh! maybe he had some matches in his pockets. No—yes, he had—one, +two, three, four, five, that was all. Five slim sulphur matches, part of +a block, and jammed in a corner of his waistcoat pocket. Eagerly he lit +one. The twigs caught. The flame leapt up. Oh it was good! He had a +fire, a fire.</p> + +<p>He made tea, and ate some bread and meat. Then he felt his strength and +courage return. He had four matches left. Four matches meant four fires. +That would mean four more days' travel. By that time he would have +reached the Dawson country.</p> + +<p>That night he made a huge blaze, chopping down several trees and setting +them alight. There, lying in his sleeping-bag, he rested well. In the +early dawn he was afoot once more.</p> + +<p>Was there ever such an atrocious soul-freezing cold! He cursed it with +every breath he drew. At noon he felt a vast temptation to make another +fire, but he refrained. Then that night he had bad luck, for one of his +precious matches proved little more than a sliver tipped with the shadow +of pink. In spite of his efforts it was abortive, and he was compelled +<a class="pagenum" name="page_416" id="page_416" title="416"></a>to use another. He was down to his last match.</p> + +<p>Well, he must travel extra hard. So next day in a panic of fear he +covered a vast stretch of country. He must be getting near to one of the +gold creeks. As he surmounted the crest of every ridge he expected to +see the blue smoke of cabin fires, yet always was there the same empty +desolation. Then night came and he prepared to camp.</p> + +<p>Once more he chopped down some trees and piled them in a heap. He was +very hungry, very cold, very tired. What a glorious blaze he would soon +have! How gallantly the flames would leap and soar! He collected some +dry moss and twigs. Never had he felt the cold so bitter. It was growing +dusk. Above him the sky had a corpse-like glimmer, and on the snow +strange bale-fires glinted. It was a weird, sardonic light that waited, +keeping tryst with darkness.</p> + +<p>He shuddered and his fingers trembled. Then ever so carefully he drew +forth that most precious of things, the last match.</p> + +<p>He must hurry; his fingers were tingling, freezing, stiffening fast. He +would lie down on the snow, and strike it quickly.... "O God!"</p> + +<p>From his numb fingers the slim little match had dropped. There it lay on +the snow. Gingerly he picked it up, with a wild hope that it would be +all right. He struck it, but it doubled up. Again he struck it: the head +came off—he was lost.</p> + +<p>He fell forward on his face. His hands were numb, dead. He lay supported +by his elbows, his <a class="pagenum" name="page_417" id="page_417" title="417"></a>eyes gazing blankly at the unlit fire. Five minutes +passed; he did not rise. He seemed dazed, stupid, terror-stricken. Five +more minutes passed. He did not move. He seemed to stiffen, to grow +rigid, and the darkness gathered around him.</p> + +<p>A thought came to his mind that he would straighten out, so that when +they found him he would be in good shape to fit in a coffin. He did not +want them to break his legs and arms. Yes, he would straighten out. He +tried—but he could not, so he let it go at that.</p> + +<p>Over him the Wild seemed to laugh, a laugh of scorn, of mockery, of +exquisite malice.</p> + +<p>And there in fifteen minutes the cold slew him. When they found him he +lay resting on his elbows and gazing with blank eyes of horror at his +unlit fire.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_418" id="page_418" title="418"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XII</h2> +</div> + +<p>"It's a beast of a night," said the Halfbreed.</p> + +<p>He and I were paying a visit to Jim in the cabin he had built on Ophir. +Jim was busy making ready for his hydraulic work of the coming Spring, +and once in a while we took a run up to see him. I was much worried +about the old man. He was no longer the cheerful, optimistic Jim of the +trail. He had taken to living alone. He had become grim and taciturn. He +cared only for his work, and, while he read his Bible more than ever, it +was with a growing fondness for the stern old prophets. There was no +doubt the North was affecting him strangely.</p> + +<p>"Lord! don't it blow? Seems as if the wind had a spite against us, +wanted to put us out of business. It minds me of the blizzards we have +in the Northwest, only it seems ten times worse."</p> + +<p>The Halfbreed went on to tell us of snowstorms he had known, while +huddled round the stove we listened to the monstrous uproar of the gale.</p> + +<p>"Why don't you chink your cabin better, Jim?" I asked; "the snow's +sifting through in spots."</p> + +<p>He shoved more wood into the stove, till it glowed to a dull red, +starred with little sparks that came and went.</p> + +<p>"Snow with that wind would sift through a concrete wall," he said. "It's +part an' parcel of the <a class="pagenum" name="page_419" id="page_419" title="419"></a>awful land. I tell you there's a curse on this +country. Long, long ago godless people have lived in it, lived an' +sinned an' perished. An' for its wickedness in the past the Lord has put +His everlasting curse on it."</p> + +<p>Sharply I looked at him. His eyes were staring. His face was drawn into +a knot of despair. He sat down and fell into a mood of gloomy silence.</p> + +<p>How the storm was howling! The Half breed smoked his cigarette stolidly, +while I listened and shuddered, mightily thankful that I was so safe and +warm.</p> + +<p>"Say, I wonder if there's any one out in this bedlam of a night?"</p> + +<p>"If there is, God help him," said the Halfbreed. "He'll last about as +long as a snowball in hell."</p> + +<p>"Yes, fancy wandering round out there, dazed and desperate; fancy the +wind knocking you down and heaping the snow on you; fancy going on and +on in the darkness till you freeze stiff. Ugh!"</p> + +<p>Again I shuddered. Then, as the other two sat in silence, my mind +strayed to other things. Chiefly I thought of Berna, all alone in +Dawson. I longed to be back with her again. I thought of Locasto. Where +in his wild wanderings had he got to? I thought of Glengyle and Garry. +How had he fared after Mother died? Why did he not marry? Once a week I +got a letter from him, full of affection and always urging me to come +home. In my letters I had never mentioned Berna. There was time enough +for that.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_420" id="page_420" title="420"></a>Lord! a terrific gust of wind shook the cabin. It howled and screamed +insanely through the heaving night. Then there came a lull, a strange, +deep lull, deathlike after the mighty blast. And in the sudden quiet it +seemed to me I heard a hollow cry.</p> + +<p>"Hist! What was that?" whispered the Halfbreed.</p> + +<p>Jim, too, was listening intently.</p> + +<p>"Seems to me I heard a moan."</p> + +<p>"Sounded like the cry of an outcast soul. Maybe it's the spirit of some +poor devil that's lost away out in the night. I hate to open the door +for nothing. It will make the place like an ice-house."</p> + +<p>Once more we listened intently, holding our breath. There it was again, +a low, faint moan.</p> + +<p>"It's some one outside," gasped the Halfbreed. Horror-stricken, we +stared at each other, then he rushed to the door. A great gust of wind +came in on us.</p> + +<p>"Hurry up, you fellows," he cried; "lend a hand. I think it's a man."</p> + +<p>Frantically we pulled it in, an unconscious form that struck a strange +chill to our hearts. Anxiously we bent over it.</p> + +<p>"He's not dead," said the Halfbreed, "only badly frozen, hands and feet +and face. Don't take him near the fire."</p> + +<p>He had been peering inside the parka hood and suddenly he turned to me.</p> + +<p>"Well, I'm darned—it's Locasto."</p> + +<p>Locasto! I shrank back and stood there staring <a class="pagenum" name="page_421" id="page_421" title="421"></a>blankly. Locasto! all +the old hate resurged into my heart. Many a time had I wished him dead; +and even dying, never could I have forgiven him. As I would have shrank +from a reptile, I drew back.</p> + +<p>"No, no," I said hoarsely, "I won't touch him. Curse him! Curse him! He +can die."</p> + +<p>"Come on there," said Jim fiercely. "You wouldn't let a man die, would +you? There's the brand of a dog on you if you do. You'll be little +better than a murderer. It don't matter what wrong he's done you, it's +your duty as a man to help him. He's only a human soul, an' he's like to +die anyway. Come on. Get these mits off his hands."</p> + +<p>Mechanically I obeyed him. I was dazed. It was as if I was impelled by a +stronger will than my own. I began pulling off the mits. The man's hands +were white as putty. I slit the sleeves and saw that the awful whiteness +went clear up the arm. It was horrible.</p> + +<p>Jim and the Halfbreed had cut open his mucklucks and taken off his +socks, and there stretched out were two naked limbs, clay-white almost +to the knees. Never did I see anything so ghastly. Tearing off his +clothing we laid him on the bed, and forced some brandy between his +lips.</p> + +<p>At last heat was beginning to come back to the frozen frame. He moaned, +and opened his eyes in a wild gaze. He did not know us. He was still +fighting the blizzard. He raised himself up.</p> + +<p>"Keep a-going, keep a-going," he panted.</p> + +<p>"Keep that bucket a-going," said the Halfbreed. <a class="pagenum" name="page_422" id="page_422" title="422"></a>"Thank God, we've got +plenty of ice-water. We've got to thaw him out."</p> + +<p>Then for this man began a night of agony, such as few have endured. We +lifted him onto a chair and put one of those clay-cold feet into the +water. At the contact he screamed, and I could see ice crystallise on +the edge of the bucket. I had forgotten my hatred of the man. I only +thought of those frozen hands and feet, and how to get life into them +once more. Our struggle began.</p> + +<p>"The blood's beginning to circulate back," said the Halfbreed. "I guess +that water feels scalding hot to him right now. We'll have to hold him +down presently. Ugh—hold on, boys, for all you're worth."</p> + +<p>He had not warned us any too soon. In a terrible spasm of agony Locasto +threw us off quickly. We grasped him again. Now we were struggling with +him. He fought like a demon. He was cursing us, praying us to leave him +alone, raving, shrieking. Grimly we held on, yet, all three, it was as +much as we could do to keep him down.</p> + +<p>"One would think we were murdering him," said the Halfbreed. "Keep his +foot in the bucket there. I wish we'd some kind of dope to give him. +There's boiling lead running through his veins right now. Keep him down, +boys; keep him down."</p> + +<p>It was hard, but keep him down we did; though his cries of anguish +deafened us through that awful night, and our muscles knotted as we +gripped. Hour after hour we held him, plunging now a hand, now <a class="pagenum" name="page_423" id="page_423" title="423"></a>a foot +in the ice-water, and holding it there. How long he fought! How strong +he was! But the time came when he could fight no more. He was like a +child in our hands.</p> + +<p>There, at last it was done. We wrapped the tender flesh in pieces of +blanket. We laid him moaning on the bed. Then, tired out with our long +struggle, we threw ourselves down and slept like logs.</p> + +<p>Next morning he was still unconscious. He suffered intense pain, so that +Jim or the Halfbreed had to be ever by him. I, for my part, refused to +go near. Indeed, I watched with a growing hatred his slow recovery. I +was sorry, sorry. I wished he had died.</p> + +<p>At last he opened his eyes, and feebly he asked where he was. After the +Halfbreed had told him, he lay silent awhile.</p> + +<p>"I've had a close call," he groaned. Then he went on triumphantly: "I +guess the Wild hasn't got the bulge on me yet. I can give it another +round."</p> + +<p>He began to pick up rapidly, and there in that narrow cabin I sat within +a few feet of him, and beheld him grow strong again. I suppose my face +must have showed my bitter hate, for often I saw him watching me through +half-closed eyes, as if he realised my feelings. Then a sneering smile +would curve his lips, a smile of satanic mockery. Again and again I +thought of Berna. Fear and loathing convulsed me, and at times a great +rage burned in me so that I was like to kill him.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_424" id="page_424" title="424"></a>"Seems to me everything's healing up but that hand," said the +Halfbreed. "I guess it's too far gone. Gangrene's setting in. Say, +Locasto, looks like you'll have to lose it."</p> + +<p>Locasto had been favouring me with a particularly sardonic look, but at +these words the sneer was wiped out, and horror crowded into his eyes.</p> + +<p>"Lose my hand—don't tell me that! Kill me at once! I don't want to be +maimed. Lose my hand! Oh, that's terrible! terrible!"</p> + +<p>He gazed at the discoloured flesh. Already the stench of him was making +us sick, but this hand with its putrid tissues was disgusting to a +degree.</p> + +<p>"Yes," said the Halfbreed, "there's the line of the gangrene, and it's +spreading. Soon mortification will extend all up your arm, then you'll +die of blood poison. Locasto, better let me take off that hand. I've +done jobs like that before. I'm a handy man, I am. Come, let me take it +off."</p> + +<p>"Heavens! you're a cold-blooded butcher. You're going to kill me, +between you all. You're in a plot leagued against me, and that +long-faced fool over there's at the bottom of it. Damn you, then, go on +and do what you want."</p> + +<p>"You're not very grateful," said the Halfbreed. "All right, lie there +and rot."</p> + +<p>At his words Locasto changed his tune. He became alarmed to the point of +terror. He knew the hand was doomed. He lay staring at it, staring, +staring. Then he sighed, and thrust its loathsomeness into our faces.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_425" id="page_425" title="425"></a>"Come on," he growled. "Do something for me, you devils, or I'll do it +myself."</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>The hour of the operation was at hand. The Halfbreed got his jack-knife +ready. He had filed the edge till it was like a rough saw. He cut the +skin of the wrist just above the gangrene line, and raised it up an inch +or so. It was here Locasto showed wonderful nerve. He took a large bite +of tobacco and chewed steadily, while his keen black eyes watched every +move of the knife.</p> + +<p>"Hurry up and get the cursed thing off," he snarled.</p> + +<p>The Halfbreed nicked the flesh down to the bone, then with the ragged +jack-knife he began to saw. I could not bear to look. It made me deathly +sick. I heard the grit, grit of the jagged blade. I will remember the +sound to my dying day. How long it seemed to take! No man could stand +such torture. A groan burst from Locasto's lips. He fell back on the +bed. His jaws no longer worked, and a thin stream of brown saliva +trickled down his chin. He had fainted.</p> + +<p>Quickly the Halfbreed finished his work. The hand dropped on the floor. +He pulled down the flaps of skin and sewed them together.</p> + +<p>"How's that for home-made surgery?" he chuckled. He was vastly proud of +his achievement. He took the severed hand upon a shovel and, going to +the door, he threw it far out into the darkness.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_426" id="page_426" title="426"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XIII</h2> +</div> + +<p>"WHY don't you go outside?" I asked of the Jam-wagon.</p> + +<p>I had rescued him from one of his periodical plunges into the cesspool +of debauch, and he was peaked, pallid, penitent. Listlessly he stared at +me a long moment, the dull, hollow-eyed stare of the recently +regenerate.</p> + +<p>"Well," he said at last, "I think I stay for the same reason many +another man stays—pride. I feel that the Yukon owes me one of two +things, a stake or a grave—and she's going to pay."</p> + +<p>"Seems to me, the way you're shaping you're more liable to get the +latter."</p> + +<p>"Yes—well, that'll be all right."</p> + +<p>"Look here," I remonstrated, "don't be a rotter. You're a man, a +splendid one. You might do anything, be anything. For Heaven's sake stop +slipping cogs, and get into the game."</p> + +<p>His thin, handsome face hardened bitterly.</p> + +<p>"I don't know. Sometimes I think I'm not fit to play the game; sometimes +I wonder if it's all worth while; sometimes I'm half inclined to end +it."</p> + +<p>"Oh, don't talk nonsense."</p> + +<p>"I'm not; I mean it, every word. I don't often speak of myself. It +doesn't matter who I am, or what I've been. I've gone through a +lot—more than <a class="pagenum" name="page_427" id="page_427" title="427"></a>most men. For years I've been a sort of a human +derelict, drifting from port to port of the seven seas. I've sprawled in +their mire; I've eaten of their filth; I've wallowed in their moist, +barbaric slime. Time and time again I've gone to the mat, but somehow I +would never take the count. Something's always saved me at the last."</p> + +<p>"Your guardian angel."</p> + +<p>"Maybe. Somehow I wouldn't be utterly downed. I'm a bit of a fighter, +and every day's been a battle with me. Oh, you don't know, you can't +believe how I suffer! Often I pray, and my prayer always is: 'O dear +God, don't allow me to <i>think</i>. Lash me with Thy wrath; heap burdens on +me, but don't let me <i>think</i>.' They say there's a hell hereafter. They +lie: it's here, now."</p> + +<p>I was astonished at his vehemence. His face was wrenched with pain, and +his eyes full of remorseful misery.</p> + +<p>"What about your friends?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, them—I died long ago, died in the early '80's. In a little French +graveyard there's a tombstone that bears my name, my real name, the name +of the 'me' that was. Heart, soul and body, I died. My sisters mourned +me, my friends muttered, 'Poor devil.' A few women cried, and a +girl—well, I mustn't speak of that. It's all over long ago; but I must +eternally do something, fight, drink, work like the devil—anything but +think. I mustn't <i>think</i>."</p> + +<p>"What about your guardian angel?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, sometimes I think he's going to give me <a class="pagenum" name="page_428" id="page_428" title="428"></a>another chance. This is +no life for a man like me, slaving in the drift, burning myself up in +the dissipation of the town. A great, glad fight with a good sweet woman +to fight for—that would save me. Oh, to get away from it all, get a +clean start!"</p> + +<p>"Well, I believe in you. I'm sure you'll be all right. Let me lend you +the money."</p> + +<p>"Thank you, a thousand thanks; but I cannot take it. There it is +again—my pride. Maybe I'm all wrong. Maybe I'm a lost soul, and my +goal's the potter's field. No; thanks! In a day or two I'll be +fighting-fit again. I wouldn't have bored you with this talk, but I'm +weak, and my nerve's gone."</p> + +<p>"How much money have you got?" I asked.</p> + +<p>He pulled a poor piece of silver from his pocket.</p> + +<p>"Enough to do me till I join the pick-and-shovel gang."</p> + +<p>"What are those tickets in your hand?"</p> + +<p>He laughed carelessly.</p> + +<p>"Chances in the ice pools. Funny thing, I don't remember buying them. +Must have been drunk."</p> + +<p>"Yes, and you seem to have had a 'hunch.' You've got the same time on +all three: seven seconds, seven minutes past one, on the ninth—that's +to-day. It's noon now. That old ice will have to hurry up if you're +going to win. Fancy, if you did! You'd clean up over three thousand +dollars. There would be your new start."</p> + +<p>"Yes, fancy," he echoed mockingly. "Over five thousand betting, and the +guesses as close as peas in a pod."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_429" id="page_429" title="429"></a>"Well, the ice may go out any moment. It's awful rotten."</p> + +<p>With a curious fascination, we gazed down at the mighty river. Around us +was a glow of spring sunshine, above us the renaissance of blue skies. +Rags of snow still glimmered on the hills, and the brown earth, as if +ashamed of its nakedness, was bursting greenly forth. On the slope +overlooking the Klondike, girls in white dresses were gathering the wild +crocus. All was warmth, colour, awakening life.</p> + +<p>Surely the river ice could not hold much longer. It was patchy, netted +with cracks, heaved up in ridges, mottled with slushy pools, corroded to +the bottom. Decidedly it was rotten, rotten. Still it held stubbornly. +The Klondike hammered it with mighty bergs, black and heavy as a house. +Down the swift current they sped, crashing, grinding, roaring, to batter +into the unbroken armour of the Yukon. And along its banks, watching +even as we watched, were thousands of others. On every lip was the +question—"The ice—when will it go out?" For to these exiles of the +North, after eight months of isolation, the sight of open water would be +like Heaven. It would mean boats, freedom, friendly faces, and a step +nearer to that "outside" of their dreams.</p> + +<p>Towards the centre of the vast mass of ice that belted in the city was a +post, and on this lonely post thousands of eyes were constantly turning. +For an electric wire connected it with the town, so that when <a class="pagenum" name="page_430" id="page_430" title="430"></a>it moved +down a certain distance a clock would register the exact moment. Thus, +thousands gazing at that solitary post thought of the bets they had +made, and wondered if this year they would be the lucky ones. It is a +unique incident in Dawson life, this gambling on the ice. There are +dozens of pools, large and small, and both men and women take part in +the betting, with an eagerness and excitement that is almost childish.</p> + +<p>I sat on a bench on the N. C. trail overlooking the town, and watched +the Jam-wagon crawl down the hill to his cabin. Poor fellow! How drawn +and white was his face, and his long, clean frame—how gaunt and weary! +I felt sorry for him. What would become of him? He was a splendid +"misfit." If he only had another chance! Somehow I believed in him, and +fervently I hoped he would have that good clean start again.</p> + +<p>Up in the cold remoteness of the North are many of his kind—the black +sheep, the undesirables, the discards of the pack. Their lips are +sealed; their eyes are cold as glaciers, and often they drink deep. Oh, +they are a mighty company, the men you don't enquire about; but it is +the code of the North to take them as you find them, so they go their +way unregarded.</p> + +<p>How clear the air was! It was like looking through a crystal lens—every +leaf seemed to stand out vividly. Sounds came up to me with marvellous +distinctness. Summer was coming, and with it the assurance of a new +peace. Down there I could see <a class="pagenum" name="page_431" id="page_431" title="431"></a>our home, and on its veranda, +hammock-swung, the white figure of Berna. How precious she was to me! +How anxiously I watched over her! A look, a word meant more to me than +volumes. If she was happy I was full of joy; if she was sad the sunshine +paled, the flowers drooped, there was no gladness in the day. Often as +she slept I watched her, marvelling at the fine perfection of her face. +Always was she an object of wonder to me—something to be adored, to +demand all that was fine and high in me.</p> + +<p>Yet sometimes it was the very intensity of my love that made me fear; so +that in the ecstasy of a moment I would catch my breath and wonder if it +all could last. And always the memory of Locasto was a sinister shadow. +He had gone "outside," terribly broken in health, gone cursing me +hoarsely and vowing he would return. Would he?</p> + +<p>Who that knows the North can ever deny its lure? Wherever you be, it +will call and call to you. In the sluggish South you will hear it, will +long for the keen tingle of its silver days, the vaster glory of its +star-strewn nights. In the city's heart it will come to you till you +hunger for its big, clean spaces, its racing rivers, its purple tundras. +In the homes of the rich its voice will seek you out, and you will ache +for your lonely camp-fire, a sunset splendouring to golden death, the +night where the silence clutches and the heavens vomit forth white fire. +Yes, you will hear it, and hear it, till a madness comes over you, till +you leave the crawling men of the sticky pavements to seek it out once +more, the sapphire of <a class="pagenum" name="page_432" id="page_432" title="432"></a>its lustrous lakes, the white yearning of its +peaks to the myriad stars. Then, as a child comes home, will you come +home. And I knew that some day to the land wherein he had reigned a +conqueror, Locasto, too, would return.</p> + +<p>As I looked down on the grey town, the wonder of its growth came over +me. How changed from the muddle of tents and cabins, the boat-lined +river, the swarming hordes of the Argonauts! Where was the niggerhead +swamp, the mud, the unrest, the mad fever of '98? I looked for these +things and saw in their stead fine residences, trim gardens, well-kept +streets. I almost rubbed my eyes as I realised the magic of the +transformation.</p> + +<p>And great as was the city's outward change, its change of spirit was +still greater. The day of dance-hall domination was over. Vice walked +very circumspectly. No longer was it possible on the street to speak to +a lady of easy virtue without causing comment.</p> + +<p>The demireps of the deadline had been banished over the Klondike, where, +in a colony reached by a crazy rope bridge, their red lights gleamed +like semaphores of sin. The dance-halls were still running, but the +picturesque impunity of the old muckluck days was gone forever. You +looked in vain for the crude scenes where the wilder passions were +unleashed, and human nature revealed itself in primal nakedness. +Heroism, brutality, splendid achievement, unbridled license, the North +seems to bring out all that is best and worst in a man. It <a class="pagenum" name="page_433" id="page_433" title="433"></a>breeds an +exuberant vitality, a madness for action, whether it be for good or +evil.</p> + +<p>In the town, too, life was becoming a thing of more sober hues. Sick of +slipshod morality, men were sending for their wives and children. The +old ideals of home and love and social purity were triumphing. With the +advent of the good woman, the dance-hall girl was doomed. The city was +finding itself. Society divided into sets. The more pretentious were +called Ping-pongs, while a majority rejoiced in the name of Rough-necks. +The post-office abuses were remedied, the grafters ousted from the +government offices. Rapidly the gold-camp was becoming modernised.</p> + +<p>Yes, its spectacular days were over. No more would the "live one" +disport himself in his wild and woolly glory. The delirium of '98 was +fast becoming a memory. The leading actors in that fateful drama—where +were they? Dead: some by their own hands; down and out many, drivelling +sottishly of by-gone days; poor prospectors a few, dreaming of a new +gold strike.</p> + +<p>And, as I think of it, it comes over me that the thing is vastly tragic. +Where are they now, these Klondike Kings, these givers of champagne +baths, these plungers of the gold-camp? How many of those that stood out +in the limelight of '98 can tell the tale to-day? Ladue is dead, leaving +little behind. Big Alec MacDonald, after lavishing a dozen fortunes on +his friends, dies at last, almost friendless and alone. Nigger Jim and +Stillwater Willie—in what <a class="pagenum" name="page_434" id="page_434" title="434"></a>back slough of vicissitude do they languish +to-day? Dick Low lies in a drunkard's grave. Skookum Jim would fain +qualify for one. Dawson Charlie, reeling home from a debauch, drowns in +the river. In impecunious despair, Harry Waugh hangs himself. Charlie +Anderson, after squandering a fortune on a thankless wife, works for a +labourer's hire.</p> + +<p>So I might go on and on. Their stories would fill volumes. And as I sat +on the quiet hillside, listening to the drowsy hum of the bees, the +inner meaning of it all came home to me. Once again the great lone land +was sifting out and choosing its own. Far-reaching was its vengeance, +and it worked in divers ways. It fell on them, even as it had fallen on +their brethren of the trail. In the guise of fortune it dealt their +ruin. From the austere silence of its snows it was mocking them, +beguiling them to their doom. Again it was the Land of the Strong. +Before all it demanded strength, moral and physical strength. I was +minded of the words of old Jim, "Where one wins ninety and nine will +fail"; and time had proved him true. The great, grim land was weeding +out the unfit, was rewarding those who could understand it, the faithful +brotherhood of the high North.</p> + +<p>Full of such thoughts as these, I raised my eyes and looked down the +river towards the Moosehide Bluffs. Hullo! There, just below the town, +was a great sheet of water, and even as I watched I saw it spread and +spread. People were shouting, running from their houses, speeding to the +beach. I was conscious <a class="pagenum" name="page_435" id="page_435" title="435"></a>of a thrill of excitement. Ever widening was the +water, and now it stretched from bank to bank. It crept forward to the +solitary post. Now it was almost there. Suddenly the post started to +move. The vast ice-field was sliding forward. Slowly, serenely it went, +on, on.</p> + +<p>Then, all at once, the steam-whistles shrilled out, the bells pealed, +and from the black mob of people that lined the banks there went up an +exultant cheer. "The ice is going out—the ice is going out!"</p> + +<p>I looked at my watch. Could I believe my eyes? Seven seconds, seven +minutes past one—his "hunch" was right; his guardian angel had +intervened; the Jam-wagon had been given his chance to make a new start.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_436" id="page_436" title="436"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XIV</h2> +</div> + +<p>The waters were wild with joy. From the mountain snows the sun had set +them free. Down hill and dale they sparkled, trickling from boulders, +dripping from mossy crannies, rioting in narrow runlets. Then, leaping +and laughing in a mad ecstasy of freedom, they dashed into the dam.</p> + +<p>Here was something they did not understand, some contrivance of the +tyrant Man to curb them, to harness them, to make them his slaves. The +waters were angry. They gloomed fearsomely. As they swelled higher in +the broad basin their wrath grew apace. They chafed against their prison +walls, they licked and lapped at the stolid bank. Higher and higher they +mounted, growing stronger with every leap. More and more bitterly they +fretted at their durance. Behind them other waters were pressing, just +as eager to escape as they. They lashed and writhed in savage spite. Not +much longer could these patient walls withstand their anger. Something +must happen.</p> + +<p>The "something" was a man. He raised the floodgate, and there at last +was a way of escape. How joyously the eager waters rushed at it! They +tumbled and tossed in their mad hurry to get out. They surged and swept +and roared about the narrow opening.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_437" id="page_437" title="437"></a>But what was this? They had come on a wooden box that streaked down the +slope as straight as an arrow from the bow. It was some other scheme of +the tyrant Man. Nevertheless, they jostled and jammed to get into it. On +its brink they poised a moment, then down, down they dashed.</p> + +<p>Like a cataract they rushed, ever and ever growing faster. Ho! this was +motion now, this was action, strength, power. As they shot down that +steep hill they shrieked for very joy. Freedom, freedom at last! No more +trickling feebly from snowbanks; no more boring devious channels in oozy +clay, no more stagnating in sullen dams. They were alive, alive, swift, +intense, terrific. They gloried in their might. They roared the raucous +song of freedom, and faster and faster they charged. Like a stampede of +maddened horses they thundered on. What power on earth could stop them? +"We must be free! We must be free!" they cried.</p> + +<p>Suddenly they saw ahead the black hole of a great pipe, a hollow shard +of steel. Prison-like it looked, again some contrivance of the tyrant +Man. They would fain have overleapt it, but it was too late. Countless +other waters were behind them, forcing them forward with irresistible +power. And, faster and faster still, they crashed into the shard of +steel.</p> + +<p>They were trapped, atrociously trapped, cabined, confined, rammed +forward by a vast and remorseless pressure. Yet there was escape just +ahead. It was a tiny point of light, an outlet. They must squeeze +through it. They were crushed and pinioned in that <a class="pagenum" name="page_438" id="page_438" title="438"></a>prison of steel, and +mightily they tried to burst it. No! there was only that orifice; they +must pass through it. Then with that great force behind them, tortured, +maddened, desperate, the waters crashed through the shard of steel, to +serve the will of Man.</p> + +<p>The man stood by his water-gun and from its nozzle, the gleaming terror +leapt. At first it was only a slim volley of light, compact and solid as +a shaft of steel. To pierce it would have splintered to pieces the +sharpest sword. It was a core of water, round, glistening and smooth, +yet in its mighty power it was a monster of destruction.</p> + +<p>The man was directing it here and there on the face of the hill. It flew +like an arrow from the bow, and wherever he aimed it the hillside seemed +to reel and shudder at the shock. Great cataracts of gravel shot out, +avalanches of clay toppled over; vast boulders were hurled into the air +like heaps of fleecy wool.</p> + +<p>Yes, the waters were mad. They were like an angry bull that gored the +hillside. It seemed to melt and dissolve before them. Nothing could +withstand that assault. In a few minutes they would reduce the stoutest +stronghold to a heap of pitiful ruins.</p> + +<p>There, where the waters shot forth in their fury, stood their conqueror. +He was one man, yet he was doing the work of a hundred. As he battered +at that bank of clay he exulted in his power. A little turn of the wrist +and a huge mass of gravel crumbled into nothingness. He bored deep holes +in the frozen muck, he hammered his way down to bed <a class="pagenum" name="page_439" id="page_439" title="439"></a>rock, he swept it +clean as a floor. There, with the solid force of a battering-ram, he +pounded at the heart of the hill.</p> + +<p>The roar deafened him. He heard the crash of falling rock, but he was so +intent on his work he did not hear another man approach. Suddenly he +looked up and saw.</p> + +<p>He gave a mighty start, then at once he was calm again. This was the +meeting he had dreaded, longed for, fought against, desired. Primordial +emotions surged within him, but outwardly he gave no sign. Almost +savagely, and with a curious blaze in his eyes he redirected the little +giant.</p> + +<p>He waved his hand to the other man.</p> + +<p>"Go away!" he shouted.</p> + +<p>Mosher refused to budge. The generous living of Dawson had made him +pursy, almost porcine. His pig eyes glittered, and he took off his hat +to wipe some beads of sweat from the monumental baldness of his +forehead. He caressed his coal-black beard with a podgy hand on which a +large diamond sparkled. His manner was arrogance personified. He seemed +to say, "I'll make this man dance to my music."</p> + +<p>His rich, penetrating voice pierced through the roar of the "giant."</p> + +<p>"Here, turn off your water. I want to speak to you. Got a business +proposition to make."</p> + +<p>Still Jim was dumb.</p> + +<p>Mosher came close to him and shouted into his ear. The two men were very +calm.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_440" id="page_440" title="440"></a>"Say, your wife's in town. Been there for the last year. Didn't you +know it?"</p> + +<p>Jim shook his head. He was particularly interested in his work just +then. There was a great saddle of clay, and he scooped it up magically.</p> + +<p>"Yes, she's in town—living respectable."</p> + +<p>Jim redirected his giant with a savage swish.</p> + +<p>"Say, I'm a sort of a philant'ropic guy," went on Mosher, "an' there's +nothing I like better than doing the erring wife restitootion act. I +think I could induce that little woman of yours to come back to you."</p> + +<p>Jim gave him a swift glance, but the man went on.</p> + +<p>"To tell the truth, she's a bit stuck on me. Not my fault, of course. +Can't help it if a girl gets daffy on me. But say, I think I could get +her switched on to you if you made it worth my while. It's a business +proposition."</p> + +<p>He was sneering now, frankly villainous. Jim gave no sign.</p> + +<p>"What d'ye say? This is a likely bit of ground—give me a half-share in +this ground, an' I'll guarantee to deliver that little piece of goods to +you. There's an offer."</p> + +<p>Again that smug look of generosity beamed on the man's face. Once more +Jim motioned him to go, but Mosher did not heed. He thought the gesture +was a refusal. His face grew threatening. "All right, if you won't," he +snarled, "look out! I know you love her still. Let me tell you, I own +that woman, body and soul, and I'll make life hell <a class="pagenum" name="page_441" id="page_441" title="441"></a>for her. I'll +torture you through her. Yes, I've got a cinch. You'd better change your +mind."</p> + +<p>He had stepped back as if to go. Then, whether it was an accident or not +no one will ever know—but the little giant swung round till it bore on +him.</p> + +<p>It lifted him up in the air. It shot him forward like a stone from a +catapult. It landed him on the bank fifty feet away with a sickening +crash. Then, as he lay, it pounded and battered him out of all semblance +of a man.</p> + +<p>The waters were having their revenge.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_442" id="page_442" title="442"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XV</h2> +</div> + +<p>"There's something the matter with Jim," the Prodigal 'phoned to me from +the Forks; "he's gone off and left the cabin on Ophir, taken to the +hills. Some prospectors have just come in and say they met him heading +for the White Snake Valley. Seemed kind of queer, they say. Wouldn't +talk much. They thought he was in a fair way to go crazy."</p> + +<p>"He's never been right since the accident," I answered; "we'll have to +go after him."</p> + +<p>"All right. Come up at once. I'll get McCrimmon. He's a good man in the +woods. We'll be ready to start as soon as you arrive."</p> + +<p>So the following day found the three of us on the trail to Ophir. We +travelled lightly, carrying very little food, for we thought to find +game in the woods. On the evening of the following day we reached the +cabin.</p> + +<p>Jim must have gone very suddenly. There were the remains of a meal on +the table, and his Bible was gone from its place. There was nothing for +it but to follow and find him.</p> + +<p>"By going to the headwaters of Ophir Creek," said the Halfbreed, "we can +cross a divide into the valley of the White Snake, and there we'll +corral him, I guess."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_443" id="page_443" title="443"></a>So we left the trail and plunged into the virgin Wild. Oh, but it was +hard travelling! Often we would keep straight up the creek-bed, plunging +through pools that were knee-deep, and walking over shingly bars. Then, +to avoid a big bend of the stream, we would strike off through the bush. +Every yard seemed to have its obstacle. There were windfalls and tangled +growths of bush that defied our uttermost efforts to penetrate them. +There were viscid sloughs, from whose black depths bubbles arose +wearily, with grey tree-roots like the legs of spiders clutching the +slimy mud of their banks. There were oozy bottoms, rankly speared with +rush-grass. There were leprous marshes spotted with unsightly +niggerheads. Dripping with sweat, we fought our way under the hot sun. +Thorny boughs tore at us detainingly. Fallen trees delighted to bar our +way. Without let or cease we toiled, yet at the day's end our progress +was but a meagre one.</p> + +<p>Our greatest bane was the mosquitoes. Night and day they never ceased to +nag us. We wore veils and had gloves on our hands, so that under our +armour we were able to grin defiance at them. But on the other side of +that netting they buzzed in an angry grey cloud. To raise our veils and +take a drink was to be assaulted ferociously. As we walked we could feel +them resisting our progress, and it seemed as if we were forcing our way +through solid banks of them. If we rested, they alighted in such myriads +that soon we appeared literally sheathed in tiny atoms of insect life, +vainly trying to pierce the mesh of our <a class="pagenum" name="page_444" id="page_444" title="444"></a>clothing. To bare a hand was to +have it covered with blood in a moment, and the thought of being at +their mercy was an exquisitely horrible one. Night and day their voices +blended in a vast drone, so that we ate, drank and slept under our +veils.</p> + +<p>In that rankly growing wilderness we saw no sign of life, not even a +rabbit. It was all desolate and God-forsaken. By nightfall our packs +seemed very heavy, our limbs very tired. Three days, four days, five +days passed. The creek was attenuated and hesitating, so we left it and +struck off over the mountains. Soon we climbed to where the timber +growth was less obstructive. The hillside was steep, almost vertical in +places, and was covered with a strange, deep growth of moss. Down in it +we sank, in places to our knees, and beneath it we could feel the points +of sharp boulders. As we climbed we plunged our hands deep into the cool +cushion of the moss, and half dragged ourselves upward. It was like an +Oriental rug covering the stony ribs of the hill, a rug of bizarre +colouring, strangely patterned in crimson and amber, in emerald and +ivory. Birch-trees of slim, silvery beauty arose in it, and aided us as +we climbed.</p> + +<p>So we came at last, after a weary journey, to a bleak, boulder-studded +plateau. It was above timber-line, and carpeted with moss of great depth +and gaudy hue. Suddenly we saw two vast pillars of stone upstanding on +the aching barren. I think they must have been two hundred feet high, +and, like monstrous sentinels in their lonely isolation, they +<a class="pagenum" name="page_445" id="page_445" title="445"></a>overlooked that vast tundra. They startled us. We wondered by what +strange freak of nature they were stationed there.</p> + +<p>Then we dropped down into a vast, hush-filled valley, a valley that +looked as if it had been undisturbed since the beginning of time. Like a +spirit-haunted place it was, so strange and still. It was loneliness +made visible. It was stillness written in wood and stone. I would have +been afraid to enter it alone, and even as we sank in its death-haunted +dusk I shuddered with a horror of the place.</p> + +<p>The Indians feared and shunned this valley. They said, of old, strange +things had happened there; it had been full of noise and fire and steam; +the earth had opened up, belching forth great dragons that destroyed the +people. And indeed it was all like the vast crater of an extinct +volcano, for hot springs bubbled forth and a grey ash cropped up through +the shallow soil.</p> + +<p>There was no game in the valley. In its centre was a solitary lake, +black and bottomless, and haunted by a giant white water-snake, +sluggish, blind and very old. Stray prospectors swore they had seen it, +just at dusk, and its sightless, staring eyes were too terrible ever to +forget.</p> + +<p>And into this still, cobweb-hued hollow we dropped—dropped almost +straight down over the flanks of those lean, lank mountains that fringed +it so forlornly. Here, ringed all around by desolate heights, we were as +remote from the world as if we were in some sallow solitude of the moon. +Sometimes <a class="pagenum" name="page_446" id="page_446" title="446"></a>the valley was like a gaping mouth, and the lips of it were +livid grey. Sometimes it was like a cup into which the sunset poured a +golden wine and filled it quivering to the brim. Sometimes it was like a +grey grave full of silence. And here in this place of shadows, where the +lichen strangled the trees, and under-foot the moss hushed the tread, +where we spoke in whispers, and mirth seemed a mockery, where every +stick and stone seemed eloquent of disenchantment and despair, here in +this valley of Dead Things we found Jim.</p> + +<p>He was sitting by a dying camp-fire, all huddled up, his arms embracing +his knees, his eyes on the fading embers. As we drew near he did not +move, did not show any surprise, did not even raise his head. His face +was very pale and drawn into a pucker of pain. It was the queerest look +I ever saw on a man's face. It made me creep.</p> + +<p>His eyes followed us furtively. Silently we squatted in a ring round his +camp-fire. For a while we said no word, then at last the Prodigal spoke:</p> + +<p>"Jim, you're coming back with us, aren't you?"</p> + +<p>Jim looked at him.</p> + +<p>"Hush!" says he, "don't speak so loud. You'll waken all them dead +fellows."</p> + +<p>"What d'ye mean?"</p> + +<p>"Them dead fellows. The woods is full of them, them that can't rest. +They're all around, ghosts. At night, when I'm a-sittin' over the fire, +they crawl out of the darkness, an' they get close to me, <a class="pagenum" name="page_447" id="page_447" title="447"></a>closer, +closer, an' they whisper things. Then I get scared an' I shoo them +away."</p> + +<p>"What do they whisper, Jim?"</p> + +<p>"Oh say! they tell me all kinds of things, them fellows in the woods. +They tell me of the times they used to have here in the valley; an' how +they was a great people, an' had women an' slaves; how they fought an' +sang an' got drunk, an' how their kingdom was here, right here where +it's all death an' desolation. An' how they conquered all the other +folks around an' killed the men an' captured the women. Oh, it was long, +long ago, long before the flood!"</p> + +<p>"Well, Jim, never mind them. Get your pack ready. We're going home right +now."</p> + +<p>"Goin' home?—I've no home any more. I'm a fugitive an' a vagabond in +the earth. The blood of my brother crieth unto me from the ground. From +the face of the Lord shall I be hid an' every one that findeth me shall +slay me. I have no home but the wilderness. Unto it I go with prayer an' +fastin'. I have killed, I have killed!"</p> + +<p>"Nonsense, Jim; it was an accident."</p> + +<p>"Was it? Was it? God only knows; I don't. Only I know the thought of +murder was black in my heart. It was there for ever an' ever so long. +How I fought against it! Then, just at that moment, everything seemed to +come to a head. I don't know that I meant what I did, but I thought it."</p> + +<p>"Come home, Jim, and forget it."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_448" id="page_448" title="448"></a>"When the rivers start to run up them mountain peaks I'll forget it. +No, they won't let me forget it, them ghosts. They whisper to me all the +time. Hist! don't you hear them? They're whispering to me now. 'You're a +murderer, Jim, a murderer,' they say. 'The brand of Cain is on you, Jim, +the brand of Cain.' Then the little leaves of the trees take up the +whisper, an' the waters murmur it, an' the very stones cry out ag'in me, +an' I can't shut out the sound. I can't, I can't."</p> + +<p>"Hush, Jim!"</p> + +<p>"No, no, the devil's a-hoein' out a place in the embers for me. I can't +turn no more to the Lord. He's cast me out, an' the light of His +countenance is darkened to me. Never again; oh, never again!"</p> + +<p>"Oh come, Jim, for the sake of your old partners, come home."</p> + +<p>"Well, boys, I'll come. But it's no good. I'm down an' out."</p> + +<p>Wearily we gathered together his few belongings. He had been living on +bread, and but little remained. Had we not reached him, he would have +starved. He came like a child, but seemed a prey to acute melancholy.</p> + +<p>It was indeed a sad party that trailed down that sad, dead valley. The +trees were hung with a dreary drapery of grey, and the ashen moss +muffled our footfalls. I think it was the <i>deadest</i> place I ever saw. +The very air seemed dead and stale, as if it were eternally still, +unstirred by any wind. Spiders and strange creeping things possessed the +trees, and at <a class="pagenum" name="page_449" id="page_449" title="449"></a>every step, like white gauze, a mist of mosquitoes was +thrown up. And the way seemed endless.</p> + +<p>A great weariness weighed upon our spirits. Our feet flagged and our +shoulders were bowed. As we looked into each other's faces we saw there +a strange lassitude, a chill, grey despair. Our voices sounded hollow +and queer, and we seldom spoke. It was as if the place was a vampire +that was sucking the life and health from our veins.</p> + +<p>"I'm afraid the old man's going to play out on us," whispered the +Prodigal.</p> + +<p>Jim lagged forlornly behind, and it was very anxiously we watched him. +He seemed to know that he was keeping us back. His efforts to keep up +were pitiful. We feigned an equal weariness, not to distress him, and +our progress was slow, slow.</p> + +<p>"Looks as if we'll have to go on half-rations," said the Halfbreed. +"It's taking longer to get out of this valley than I figured on."</p> + +<p>And indeed it was like a vast prison, and those peaks that brindled in +the sunset glow were like bars to hold us in. Every day the old man's +step was growing slower, so that at last we were barely crawling along. +We were ascending the western slope of the valley, climbing a few miles +a day, and every step we rose from that sump-hole of the gods was like +the lifting of a weight. We were tired, tired, and in the wan light that +filtered through the leaden clouds our faces were white and strained.</p> + +<p>"I guess we'll have to go on quarter-rations from now," said the +Halfbreed, a few days later. He <a class="pagenum" name="page_450" id="page_450" title="450"></a>ranged far and wide, looking for game, +but never a sign did he see. Once, indeed, we heard a shot. Eagerly we +waited his return, but all he had got was a great, grey owl, which we +cooked and ate ravenously.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_451" id="page_451" title="451"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XVI</h2> +</div> + +<p>At last, at last we had climbed over the divide, and left behind us +forever the vampire valley. Oh, we were glad! But other troubles were +coming. Soon the day came when the last of our grub ran out. I remember +how solemnly we ate it. We were already more than three-parts starved, +and that meal was but a mouthful.</p> + +<p>"Well," said the Halfbreed, "we can't be far from the Yukon now. It must +be the valley beyond this one. Then, in a few days, we can make a raft +and float down to Dawson."</p> + +<p>This heartened us, so once more we took up our packs and started. Jim +did not move.</p> + +<p>"Come on, Jim."</p> + +<p>Still no movement.</p> + +<p>"What's the matter, Jim? Come on."</p> + +<p>He turned to us a face that was grey and deathlike.</p> + +<p>"Go on, boys. Don't mind me. My time's up. I'm an old man. I'm only +keeping you back. Without me you've got a chance; with me you've got +none. Leave me here with a gun. I can shoot an' rustle grub. You boys +can come back for me. You'll find old Jim spry an' chipper, awaitin' you +with a smile on his face. Now go, boys. You'll go, won't you?"</p> + +<p>"Go be darned!" said the Prodigal. "You <a class="pagenum" name="page_452" id="page_452" title="452"></a>know we'll never leave you, +Jim. You know the code of the trail. What d'ye take us for—skunks? Come +on, we'll carry you if you can't walk."</p> + +<p>He shook his head pitifully, but once more he crawled after us. We +ourselves were making no great speed. Lack of food was beginning to tell +on us. Our stomachs were painfully empty and dead.</p> + +<p>"How d'ye feel?" asked the Prodigal. His face had an arrestively hollow +look, but that frozen smile was set on it.</p> + +<p>"All right," I said, "only terribly weak. My head aches at times, but +I've got no pain."</p> + +<p>"Neither have I. This starving racket's a cinch. It's dead easy. What +rot they talk about the gnawing pains of hunger, an' ravenous men +chewing up their boot-tops. It's easy. There's no pain. I don't even +feel hungry any more."</p> + +<p>None of us did. It was as if our stomachs, in despair at not receiving +any food, had sunk into apathy. Yet there was no doubt we were terribly +weak. We only made a few miles a day now, and even that was an effort. +The distance seemed to be elastic, to stretch out under our feet. Every +few yards we had to help Jim over a bad place. His body was emaciated +and he was getting very feeble. A hollow fire burned in his eyes. The +Halfbreed persisted that beyond those despotic mountains lay the Yukon +Valley, and at night he would rouse us up:</p> + +<p>"Say, boys, I hear the 'toot' of a steamer. Just a few more days and +we'll get there."</p> + +<p>Running through the valley, we found a little <a class="pagenum" name="page_453" id="page_453" title="453"></a>river. It was muddy in +colour and appeared to contain no fish. We ranged along it eagerly, +hoping to find a few minnows, but without success. It seemed to me, as I +foraged here and there for food, it was not hunger that impelled me so +much as the instinct of self-preservation. I knew that if I did not get +something into my stomach I would surely die.</p> + +<p>Down the river we trailed forlornly. For a week we had eaten nothing. +Jim had held on bravely, but now he gave up.</p> + +<p>"For God's sake, leave me, boys! Don't make me feel guilty of your +death. Haven't I got enough on my soul already? For God's pity, lads, +save yourselves! Leave me here to die."</p> + +<p>He pleaded brokenly. His legs seemed to have become paralysed. Every +time we stopped he would pitch forward on his face, or while walking he +would fall asleep and drop. The Prodigal and I supported him, but it was +truly hard to support ourselves, and sometimes we collapsed, coming down +all three together in a confused and helpless heap. The Prodigal still +wore that set grin. His face was nigh fleshless, and, through the +straggling beard, it sometimes minded me of a grinning skull. Always Jim +moaned and pleaded:</p> + +<p>"Leave me, dear boys, leave me!"</p> + +<p>He was like a drunken man, and his every step was agony.</p> + +<p>We threw away our packs. We no longer had the strength to bear them. The +last thing to go was the Halfbreed's rifle. Several times it dropped out +<a class="pagenum" name="page_454" id="page_454" title="454"></a>of his hand. He picked it up in a dazed way. Again and again it +dropped, but at last the time came when he no longer picked it up. He +looked at it for a stupid while, then staggered on without it.</p> + +<p>At night we would rest long hours round the camp-fire. Often far into the +day would we rest. Jim lay like a dead man, moaning continually, while +we, staring into each other's ghastly faces, talked in jerks. It was an +effort to hunt food. It was an effort to goad ourselves to continue the +journey.</p> + +<p>"Sure the river empties into the Yukon, boys," said the Halfbreed. +"'Tain't so far, either. If we can just make a few miles more we'll be +all right."</p> + +<p>At night, in my sleep, I was a prey to the strangest hallucinations. +People I had known came and talked to me. They were so real that, when I +awoke, I could scarce believe I had been dreaming. Berna came to me +often. She came quite close, with great eyes of pity that looked into +mine. Her lips moved.</p> + +<p>"Be brave, my boy. Don't despair," she pleaded. Always in my dreams she +pleaded like that, and I think that but for her I would have given up.</p> + +<p>The Halfbreed was the most resolute of the party. He never lost his +head. At times we others raved a little, or laughed a little, or cried a +little, but the Halfbreed remained cool and grim. Ceaselessly he foraged +for food. Once he found a nest of grouse eggs, and, breaking them open, +discovered they contained half-formed birds. We ate them just as they +were, crunched them between our swollen gums. Snails, too, we ate +sometimes, and grass roots and <a class="pagenum" name="page_455" id="page_455" title="455"></a>moss which we scraped from the trees. +But our greatest luck was the decayed grouse eggs.</p> + +<p>Early one afternoon we were all resting by a camp-fire on which was +boiling some moss, when suddenly the Halfbreed pointed. There, in a +glade down by the river's edge, were a cow moose and calf. They were +drinking. Stupidly we gazed. I saw the Halfbreed's hand go out as if to +clutch the rifle. Alas! his fingers closed on the empty air. So near +they were we could have struck them with a stone. Taking his sheath +knife in his mouth, the Halfbreed started to crawl on his belly towards +them. He had gone but a few yards when they winded him. One look they +gave, and in a few moments they were miles away. That was the only time +I saw the Halfbreed put out. He fell on his face and lay there for a +long time.</p> + +<p>Often we came to sloughs that we could not cross, and we had to go round +them. We tried to build rafts, but we were too weak to navigate them. We +were afraid we would roll off into the deep black water and drown +feebly. So we went round, which in one case meant ten miles. Once, over +a slough a few yards wide, the Halfbreed built a bridge of willows, and +we crawled on hands and knees to the other side.</p> + +<p>From a certain point our trip seems like a nightmare to me. I can only +remember parts of it here and there. We reeled like drunken men. We +sobbed sometimes, and sometimes we prayed. There was no word from Jim +now, not even a whimper, as we <a class="pagenum" name="page_456" id="page_456" title="456"></a>half dragged, half carried him on. Our +eyes were large with fever, our hands were like claws. Long sickly +beards grew on our faces. Our clothes were rags, and vermin overran us. +We had lost all track of time. Latterly we had been travelling about +half a mile a day, and we must have been twenty days without proper +food.</p> + +<p>The Halfbreed had crawled ahead a mile or so, and he came back to where +we lay. In a voice hoarse almost to a whisper he told us a bigger river +joined ours down there, and on the bar was an old Indian camp. Perhaps +in that place some one might find us. It seemed on the route of travel. +So we made a last despairing effort and reached it. Indians had visited +it quite recently. We foraged around and found some putrid fish bones, +with which we made soup.</p> + +<p>There was a grave set high on stilts, and within it a body covered with +canvas. The Halfbreed wrenched the canvas from the body, and with it he +made a boat eight feet in length by six in breadth. It was too rotten to +hold him up, and he nearly drowned trying to float it, so he left it +lying on the edge of the bar. I remember this was a terrible +disappointment to us, and we wept bitterly. I think that about this time +we were all half-crazy. We lay on that bar like men already dead, with +no longer hope of deliverance.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Then Jim passed in his checks. In the night he called me.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_457" id="page_457" title="457"></a>"Boy," he whispered, "you an' I'se been good pals, ain't we?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, old man."</p> + +<p>"Boy, I'm in agony. I'm suffering untold pain. Get the gun, for God's +sake, an' put me out of my misery."</p> + +<p>"There's no gun, Jim; we left it back on the trail."</p> + +<p>"Then take your knife."</p> + +<p>"No, no."</p> + +<p>"Give me your knife."</p> + +<p>"Jim, you're crazy. Where's your faith in God?"</p> + +<p>"Gone, gone; I've no longer any right to look to Him. I've killed. I've +taken life He gave. 'Vengeance is mine,' He said, an' I've taken it out +of His hands. God's curse is on me now. Oh, let me die, let me die!"</p> + +<p>I sat by him all night. He moaned in agony, and his passing was hard. It +was about three in the morning when he spoke again:</p> + +<p>"Say, boy, I'm going. I'm a useless old man. I've lived in sin, an' I've +repented, an' I've backslid. The Lord don't want old Jim any more. Say, +kid, see that little girl of mine down in Dawson gets what money's +comin' to me. Tell her to keep straight, an' tell her I loved her. Tell +her I never let up on lovin' her all these years. You'll remember that, +boy, won't you?"</p> + +<p>"I'll remember, Jim."</p> + +<p>"Oh, it's all a hoodoo, this Northern gold," he <a class="pagenum" name="page_458" id="page_458" title="458"></a>moaned. "See what it's +done for all of us. We came to loot the land an' it's a-takin' its +revenge on us. It's accursed. It's got me at last, but maybe I can help +you boys to beat it yet. Call the others."</p> + +<p>I called them.</p> + +<p>"Boys," said Jim, "I'm a-goin'. I've been a long time about it. I've +been dying by inches, but I guess I'll finish the job pretty slick this +time. Well, boys, I'm in possession of all my faculties. I want you to +know that. I was crazy when I started off, but that's passed away. My +mind's clear. Now, pardners, I've got you into this scrape. I'm +responsible, an' it seems to me I'd die happier if you'd promise me one +thing. Livin', I can't help you; dead, I can—<i>you know how</i>. Well, I +want you to promise me you'll do it. It's a reasonable proposition. +Don't hesitate. Don't let sentiment stop you. I wish it. It's my dying +wish. You're starvin', an' I can help you, can give you strength. Will +you promise, if it comes to the last pass, you'll do it?"</p> + +<p>We were afraid to look each other in the face.</p> + +<p>"Oh, promise, boys, promise!"</p> + +<p>"Promise him anyway," said the Halfbreed. "He'll die easier."</p> + +<p>So we nodded our heads as we bent over him, and he turned away his face, +content.</p> + +<p>'Twas but a little after he called me again.</p> + +<p>"Boy, give me your hand. Say a prayer for me, won't you? Maybe it'll +help some, a prayer for a poor old sinner that's backslid. I can never +pray again."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_459" id="page_459" title="459"></a>"Yes, try to pray, Jim, try. Come on; say it after me: 'Our Father—'"</p> + +<p>"'Our Father—'"</p> + +<p>"'Which art in Heaven—'"</p> + +<p>"'Which art in—'"</p> + +<p>His head fell forward. "Bless you, my boy. Father, forgive, forgive—"</p> + +<p>He sank back very quietly.</p> + +<p>He was dead.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Next morning the Halfbreed caught a minnow. We divided it into three and +ate it raw. Later on he found some water-lice under a stone. We tried to +cook them, but they did not help us much. Then, as night fell once more, +a thought came into our minds and stuck there. It was a hidden thought, +and yet it grew and grew. As we sat round in a circle we looked into +each other's faces, and there we read the same revolting thought. Yet +did it not seem so revolting after all. It was as if the spirit of the +dead man was urging us to this thing, so insistent did the thought +become. It was our only hope of life. It meant strength again, strength +and energy to make a raft and float us down the river. Oh, if only—but, +no! We could not do it. Better, a hundred times better, die.</p> + +<p>Yet life was sweet, and for twenty-three days we had starved. Here was a +chance to live, with the dead man whispering in our ears to do it. You +who have never starved a day in your lives, would you blame us? Life is +sweet to you, too. What would <a class="pagenum" name="page_460" id="page_460" title="460"></a>you have done? The dead man was urging +us, and life was sweet.</p> + +<p>But we struggled, God knows we struggled. We did not give in without +agony. In our hopeless, staring eyes there was the anguish of the great +temptation. We looked in each other's death's-head faces. We clasped +skeleton hands round our rickety knees, and swayed as we tried to sit +upright. Vermin crawled over us in our weakness. We were half-crazy, and +muttered in our beards.</p> + +<p>It was the Halfbreed who spoke, and his voice was just a whisper:</p> + +<p>"It's our only chance, boys, and we've promised him. God forgive me, but +I've a wife and children, and I'm a-goin' to do it."</p> + +<p>He was too weak to rise, and with his knife in his mouth he crawled to +the body.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>It was ready, but we had not eaten. We waited and waited, hoping against +hope. Then, as we waited, God was merciful to us. He saved us from this +thing.</p> + +<p>"Say, I guess I've got a pipe-dream, but I think I see two men coming +downstream on a raft."</p> + +<p>"No, it's no dream," I said; "two men."</p> + +<p>"Shout to them; I can't," said the Prodigal.</p> + +<p>I tried to shout, but my voice came as a whisper. The Halfbreed, too, +tried to shout. There was scarcely any sound to it. The men did not see +us as we lay on that shingly bar. Faster and faster they came. In +hopeless, helpless woe we watched <a class="pagenum" name="page_461" id="page_461" title="461"></a>them. We could do nothing. In a few +moments they would be past. With eyes of terror we followed them, tried +to make signals to them. O God, help us!</p> + +<p>Suddenly they caught sight of that crazy boat of ours made of canvas and +willows. They poled the raft in close, then one of them saw those three +strange things writhing impotently on the sand. They were skeletons, +they were in rags, they were covered with vermin.—* * * *</p> + +<p>We were saved; thank God, we were saved!</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_462" id="page_462" title="462"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XVII</h2> +</div> + +<p>"Berna, we must get married."</p> + +<p>"Yes, dearest, whenever you wish."</p> + +<p>"Well, to-morrow."</p> + +<p>She smiled radiantly; then her face grew very serious.</p> + +<p>"What will I wear?" she asked plaintively.</p> + +<p>"Wear? Oh, anything. That white dress you've got on—I never saw you +looking so sweet. You mind me of a picture I know of Saint Cecilia, the +same delicacy of feature, the same pure colouring, the same grace of +expression."</p> + +<p>"Foolish one!" she chided; but her voice was deliciously tender, and her +eyes were love-lit. And indeed, as she stood by the window holding her +embroidery to the failing light, you scarce could have imagined a girl +more gracefully sweet. In a fine mood of idealising, my eyes rested on +her.</p> + +<p>"Yes, fairy girl, that briar rose you are doing in the centre of your +little canvas hoop is not more delicate in the tinting than are your +cheeks; your hands that ply the needle so daintily are whiter than the +May blossoms on its border; those coils of shining hair that crown your +head would shame the silk you use for softness."</p> + +<p>"Don't," she sighed; "you spoil me."</p> + +<p>"Oh no, it's true, true. Sometimes I wish you <a class="pagenum" name="page_463" id="page_463" title="463"></a>were not so lovely. It +makes me care so much for you that—it hurts. Sometimes I wish you were +plain, then I would feel more sure of you. Sometimes I fear, fear some +one will steal you away from me."</p> + +<p>"No, no," she cried; "no one ever will. There will never be any one but +you."</p> + +<p>She came over to me, and knelt by my chair, putting her arms around me +prettily. The pure, sweet face looked up into mine.</p> + +<p>"We have been happy here, haven't we, boy?" she asked.</p> + +<p>"Exquisitely happy. Yet I have always been afraid."</p> + +<p>"Of what, dearest?"</p> + +<p>"I don't know. Somehow it seems too good to last."</p> + +<p>"Well, to-morrow we'll be married."</p> + +<p>"Yes, we should have done that a year ago. It's all been a mistake. It +didn't matter at first; nobody noticed, nobody cared. But now it's +different. I can see it by the way the wives of the men look at us. I +wonder do women resent the fact that virtue is only its own reward—they +are so down on those who stray. Well, we don't care anyway. We'll marry +and live our lives. But there are other reasons."</p> + +<p>"Yes?"</p> + +<p>"Yes. Garry talks of coming out. You wouldn't like him to find us living +like this—without benefit of the clergy?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_464" id="page_464" title="464"></a>"Not for the world!" she cried, in alarm.</p> + +<p>"Well, he won't. Garry's old-fashioned and terribly conventional, but +you'll take to him at once. There's a wonderful charm about him. He's so +good-looking, yet so clever. I think he could win any woman if he tried, +only he's too upright and sincere."</p> + +<p>"What will he think of me, I wonder, poor, ignorant me? I believe I'm +afraid of him. I wish he'd stay away and leave us alone. Yet for your +sake, dear, I do wish him to think well of me."</p> + +<p>"Don't fear, Berna. He'll be proud of you. But there's a second reason."</p> + +<p>"What?"</p> + +<p>I drew her up beside me on the great Morris-chair.</p> + +<p>"Oh, my beloved! perhaps we'll not always be alone as we are now. +Perhaps, perhaps some day there will be others—little ones—for their +sakes."</p> + +<p>She did not speak. I could feel her nestle closer to me. Her cheek was +pressed to mine; her hair brushed my brow and her lips were like +rose-petals on my own. So we sat there in the big, deep chair, in the +glow of the open fire, silent, dreaming, and I saw on her lashes the +glimmer of a glorious tear.</p> + +<p>"Why do you cry, beloved?"</p> + +<p>"Because I'm so happy. I never thought I could be so happy. I want it to +last forever, I never want to leave this little cabin of ours. It will +always be home to me. I love it; oh, how I love it!—every stick and +stone of it! This dear little room—there <a class="pagenum" name="page_465" id="page_465" title="465"></a>will never be another like it +in the world. Some day we may have a fine home, but I think I'll always +leave some of my heart here in the little cabin."</p> + +<p>I kissed away her tears. Foolish tears! I blessed her for them. I held +her closer to me. I was wondrous happy. No longer did the shadow of the +past hang over us. Even as children forget, were we forgetting. Outside +the winter's day was waning fast. The ruddy firelight danced around us. +It flickered on the walls, the open piano, the glass front of the +bookcase. It lit up the Indian corner, the lounge with its cushions and +brass reading-lamp, the rack of music, the pictures, the lace curtains, +the gleaming little bit of embroidery. Yes, to me, too, these things +were wistfully precious, for it seemed as if part of her had passed into +them. It would have been like tearing out my heart-strings to part with +the smallest of them.</p> + +<p>"<i>Husband</i>, I'm so happy," she sighed.</p> + +<p>"Wife, dear, dear wife, I too."</p> + +<p>There was no need for words. Our lips met in passionate kisses, but the +next moment we started apart. Some one was coming up the garden path—a +tall figure of a man. I started as if I had seen a ghost. Could it +be?—then I rushed to the door.</p> + +<p>There on the porch stood Garry.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_466" id="page_466" title="466"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XVIII</h2> +</div> + +<p>As he stood before me once again it seemed as if the years had rolled +away, and we were boys together. A spate of tender memories came over +me, memories of the days of dreams and high resolves, when life rang +true, when men were brave and women pure. Once more I stood upon that +rock-envisaged coast, while below me the yeasty sea charged with a roar +the echoing caves. The gulls were glinting in the sunshine, and by their +little brown-thatched homes the fishermen were spreading out their nets. +High on the hillside in her garden I could see my mother idling among +her flowers. It all came back to me, that sunny shore, the whitewashed +cottages, the old grey house among the birches, the lift of +sheep-starred pasture, and above it the glooming dark of the heather +hills.</p> + +<p>And it was but three years ago. How life had changed! A thousand things +had happened. Fortune had come to me, love had come to me. I had lived, +I had learned. I was no longer a callow, uncouth lad. Yet, alas! I no +longer looked futurewards with joy; the savour of life was no more +sweet. It was another "me" I saw in my mirror that day, a "me" with a +face sorely lined, with hair grey-flecked, with eyes sad and bitter. +Little wonder Garry, as he stood there, stared at me so sorrowfully.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_467" id="page_467" title="467"></a>"How you've changed, lad!" said he at last.</p> + +<p>"Have I, Garry? You're just about the same."</p> + +<p>But indeed he, too, had changed, had grown finer than my fondest +thoughts of him. He seemed to bring into the room the clean, sweet +breath of Glengyle, and I looked at him with admiration in my eyes. +Coming out of the cold, his colour was dazzling as that of a woman; his +deep blue eyes sparkled; his fair silky hair, from the pressure of his +cap, was moulded to the shape of his fine head. Oh, he was handsome, +this brother of mine, and I was proud, proud of him!</p> + +<p>"By all that's wonderful, what brought you here?"</p> + +<p>His teeth flashed in that clever, confident smile.</p> + +<p>"The stage. I just arrived a few minutes ago, and hurried here at once. +Aren't you glad to see me?"</p> + +<p>"Glad? Yes, indeed! I can't tell you how glad. But it's a shock to me +your coming so suddenly. You might have let me know."</p> + +<p>"Yes, it was a sudden resolve; I should have wired you. However, I +thought I would give you a surprise. How are you, old man?"</p> + +<p>"Me—oh, I'm all right, thanks."</p> + +<p>"Why, what's the matter with you, lad? You look ten years older. You +look older than your big brother now."</p> + +<p>"Yes, I daresay. It's the life, it's the land. A hard life and a hard +land."</p> + +<p>"Why don't you go out?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_468" id="page_468" title="468"></a>"I don't know, I don't know. I keep on planning to go out and then +something turns up, and I put it off a little longer. I suppose I ought +to go, but I'm tied up with mining interests. My partner is away in the +East, and I promised to stay in and look after things. I'm making money, +you see."</p> + +<p>"Not sacrificing your youth and health for that, are you?"</p> + +<p>"I don't know, I don't know."</p> + +<p>There was a puzzled look in his frank face, and for my part I was +strangely ill at ease. With all my joy at his coming, there was a sense +of anxiety, even of fear. I had not wanted him to come just then, to see +me there. I was not ready for him. I had planned otherwise.</p> + +<p>He was fixing me with a clear, penetrating look. For a moment his eyes +seemed to bore into me, then like a flash the charm came back into his +face. He laughed that ringing laugh of his.</p> + +<p>"Well, I was tired of roaming round the old place. Things are in good +order now. I've saved a little money and I thought I could afford to +travel a little, so I came up to see my wandering brother, and his +wonderful North."</p> + +<p>His gaze roved round the room. Suddenly it fell on the piece of +embroidery. He started slightly and I saw his eyes narrow, his mouth +set. His glance shifted to the piano with its litter of music. He looked +at me again, in an odd, bewildered way. He went on speaking, but there +was a queer constraint in his manner.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_469" id="page_469" title="469"></a>"I'm going to stay here for a month, and then I want you to come back +with me. Come back home and get some of the old colour into your cheeks. +The country doesn't agree with you, but we'll have you all right pretty +soon. We'll have you flogging the trout pools and tramping over the +heather with a gun. You remember how—whir-r-r—the black-cock used to +rise up right at one's very feet. They've been very plentiful the last +two years. Oh, we'll have the good old times over again! You'll see, +we'll soon put you right."</p> + +<p>"It's good of you, Garry, to think so much of me; but I'm afraid, I'm +afraid I can't come just yet. I've got so much to do. I've got thirty +men working for me. I've just got to stay."</p> + +<p>He sighed.</p> + +<p>"Well, if you stay I'll stay, too. I don't like the way you're looking. +You're working too hard. Perhaps I can help you."</p> + +<p>"All right; I'm afraid you'll find it rather awful, though. No one lives +up here in winter if they possibly can avoid it. But for a time it will +interest you."</p> + +<p>"I think it will." And again his eyes stared fixedly at that piece of +embroidery on its little hoop.</p> + +<p>"I'm terribly, glad to see you anyway, Garry. There's no use talking, +words can't express things like that between us two. You know what I +mean. I'm glad to see you, and I'll do my best to make your visit a +happy one."</p> + +<p>Between the curtains that hung over the bedroom <a class="pagenum" name="page_470" id="page_470" title="470"></a>door I could see Berna +standing motionless. I wondered if he could see her too. His eyes +followed mine. They rested on the curtains and the strong, stern look +came into his face. Yet again he banished it with a sunny smile.</p> + +<p>"Mother's one regret was that you were not with her when she died. Do +you know, old man, I think she was always fonder of you than of me? You +were the sentimental one of the family, and Mother was always a gentle +dreamer. I took more after Dad; dry and practical, you know. Well, +Mother used to worry a good deal about you. She missed you dreadfully, +and before she died she made me promise I'd always stand by you, and +look after you if anything happened."</p> + +<p>"There's not much need of that, Garry. But thanks all the same, old man. +I've seen a lot in the past few years. I know something of the world +now. I've changed. I'm sort of disillusioned. I seem to have lost my +zest for things—but I know how to handle men, how to fight and how to +win."</p> + +<p>"It's not that, lad. You know that to win is often to lose. You were +never made for the fight, my brother. It's all been a mistake. You're +too sensitive, too high-strung for a fighting-man. You have too much +sentiment in you. Your spirit urged you to fields of conquest and +romance, yet by nature you were designed for the gentler life. If you +could have curbed your impulse and only dreamed your adventures, you +would have been the happier. Imagination's been a curse to you, boy. +<a class="pagenum" name="page_471" id="page_471" title="471"></a>You've tortured yourself all these years, and now you're paying the +penalty."</p> + +<p>"What penalty?"</p> + +<p>"You've lost your splendid capacity for happiness; your health's +undermined; your faith in mankind is destroyed. Is it worth while? +You've plunged into the fight and you've won. What does your victory +mean? Can it compare with what you've lost? Here, I haven't a third of +what you have, and yet I'm magnificently happy. I don't envy you. I am +going to enjoy every moment of my life. Oh, my brother, you've been +making a sad mistake, but it's not too late! You're young, young. It's +not too late."</p> + +<p>Then I saw that his words were true. I saw that I had never been meant +for the fierce battle of existence. Like those high-strung horses that +were the first to break their hearts on the trail, I was unsuited for it +all. Far better would I have been living the sweet, simple life of my +forefathers. My spirit had upheld me, but now I knew there was a poison +in my veins, that I was a sick man, that I had played the game and +won—at too great a cost. I was like a sprinter that breasts the tape, +only to be carried fainting from the field. Alas! I had gained success +only to find it was another name for failure.</p> + +<p>"Now," said Garry, "you must come home. Back there on the countryside we +can find you a sweet girl to marry. You will love her, have children and +forget all this. Come."</p> + +<p>I rose. I could no longer put it off.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_472" id="page_472" title="472"></a>"Excuse me one moment," I said. I parted the curtains and entered the +bedroom.</p> + +<p>She was standing there, white to the lips and trembling. She looked at +me piteously.</p> + +<p>"I'm afraid," she faltered.</p> + +<p>"Be brave, little girl," I whispered, leading her forward. Then I threw +aside the curtain.</p> + +<p>"Garry," I said, "this is—this is Berna."</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_473" id="page_473" title="473"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XIX</h2> +</div> + +<p>Garry, Berna—there they stood, face to face at last. Long ago I had +visioned this meeting, planned for, yet dreaded it, and now with utter +suddenness it had come.</p> + +<p>The girl had recovered her calm, and I must say she bore herself well. +In her clinging dress of simple white her figure was as slimly graceful +as that of a wood-nymph, her head poised as sweetly as a lily on its +stem. The fair hair rippled away in graceful lines from the fine brow, +and as she gazed at my brother there was a proud, high look in her eyes.</p> + +<p>And Garry—his smile had vanished. His face was cold and stern. There +was a stormy antagonism in his bearing. No doubt he saw in her a +creature who was preying on me, an influence for evil, an overwhelming +indictment against me of sin and guilt. All this I read in his eyes; +then Berna advanced to him with outstretched hand.</p> + +<p>"How do you do? I've heard so much about you I feel as if I'd known you +long ago."</p> + +<p>She was so winning, I could see he was quite taken aback. He took the +little white hand and looked down from his splendid height to the sweet +eyes that gazed into his. He bowed with icy politeness.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_474" id="page_474" title="474"></a>"I feel flattered, I assure you, that my brother should have mentioned +me to you."</p> + +<p>Here he shot a dark look at me.</p> + +<p>"Sit down again, Garry," I said. "Berna and I want to talk to you."</p> + +<p>He complied, but with an ill grace. We all three sat down and a grave +constraint was upon us. Berna broke the silence.</p> + +<p>"What sort of a trip have you had?"</p> + +<p>He looked at her keenly. He saw a simple girl, shy and sweet, gazing at +him with a flattering interest.</p> + +<p>"Oh, not so bad. Travelling sixty miles a day on a jolting stage gets +monotonous, though. The road-houses were pretty decent as a rule, but +some were vile. However, it's all new and interesting to me."</p> + +<p>"You will stay with us for a time, won't you?"</p> + +<p>He favoured me with another grim look.</p> + +<p>"Well, that all depends—I haven't quite decided yet. I want to take +Athol here home with me."</p> + +<p>"Home——" There was a pathetic catch in her voice. Her eyes went round +the little room that meant "home" to her.</p> + +<p>"Yes, that will be nice," she faltered. Then, with a brave effort, she +broke into a lively conversation about the North. As she talked an +inspiration seemed to come to her. A light beaconed in her eyes. Her +face, fine as a cameo, became eager, rapt. <a class="pagenum" name="page_475" id="page_475" title="475"></a>She was telling him of the +magical summers, of the midnight sunsets, of the glorious largess of the +flowers, of the things that meant so much to her. She was wonderfully +animated. As I watched her I thought what a perfect little lady she was; +and I felt proud of her.</p> + +<p>He was listening carefully, with evident interest. Gradually his look of +stern antagonism had given way to one of attention. Yet I could see he +was not listening so much to her as he was studying her. His intent gaze +never moved from her face.</p> + +<p>Then I talked a while. The darkness had descended upon us, but the +embers in the open fireplace lighted the room with a rosy glow. I could +not see his eyes now, but I knew he was still watching us keenly. He +merely answered "yes" and "no" to our questions, and his voice was very +grave. Then, after a little, he rose to go.</p> + +<p>"I'll return to the hotel with you," I said.</p> + +<p>Berna gave us a pathetically anxious little look. There was a red spot +on each cheek and her eyes were bright. I could see she wanted to cry.</p> + +<p>"I'll be back in half an hour, dear," I said, while Garry gravely shook +hands with her.</p> + +<p>We did not speak on the way to his room. When we reached it he switched +on the light and turned to me.</p> + +<p>"Brother, who's this girl?"</p> + +<p>"She's—she's my housekeeper. That's all I can say at present, Garry."</p> + +<p>"Married?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_476" id="page_476" title="476"></a>"No."</p> + +<p>"Good God!"</p> + +<p>Stormily he paced the floor, while I watched him with a great calm. At +last he spoke.</p> + +<p>"Tell me about her."</p> + +<p>"Sit down, Garry; light a cigar. We may as well talk this thing over +quietly."</p> + +<p>"All right. Who is she?"</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said, lighting my cigar, "is a Jewess. She was born of an +unwed mother, and reared in the midst of misery and corruption."</p> + +<p>He stared at me. His mouth hardened; his brow contracted.</p> + +<p>"But," I went on, "I want to say this. You remember, Garry, Mother used +to tell us of our sister who died when she was a baby. I often used to +dream of my dead sister, and in my old, imaginative days I used to think +she had never died at all, but she had grown up and was with us. How we +would have loved her, would we not, Garry? Well, I tell you this—if our +sister had grown up she could have been no sweeter, purer, gentler than +this girl of mine, this Berna."</p> + +<p>He smiled ironically.</p> + +<p>"Then," he said, "if she is so wonderful, why, in the name of Heaven, +haven't you married her?"</p> + +<p>His manner towards her in the early part of the interview had hurt me, +had roused in me a certain perversity. I determined to stand by my guns.</p> + +<div class="figcenter" style='width:400px'> +<a name="illus-003" id="illus-003"></a> +<img src="images/illus-476.jpg" alt=""Garry," I said, "this is—this is Berna"" title="" /><br /> +<span class="caption">"Garry," I said, "this is—this is Berna"</span> +</div> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_477" id="page_477" title="477"></a>"Marriage," said I, "isn't everything; often isn't anything. Love is, +and always will be, the great reality. It existed long before marriage +was ever thought of. Marriage is a good thing. It protects the wife and +the children. As a rule, it enforces constancy. But there's a higher +ideal of human companionship that is based on love alone, love so +perfect, so absolute that legal bondage insults it; love that is its own +justification. Such a love is ours."</p> + +<p>The ironical look deepened to a sneer.</p> + +<p>"And look you here, Garry," I went on; "I am living in Dawson in what +you would call 'shame.' Well, let me tell you, there's not ninety-nine +in a hundred legally married couples that have formed such a sweet, +love-sanctified union as we have. That girl is purest gold, a pearl of +untold price. There has never been a jar in the harmony of our lives. We +love each other absolutely. We trust and believe in each other. We would +make any sacrifice for each other. And, I say it again, our marriage is +tenfold holier than ninety-nine out of a hundred of those performed with +all the pomp of surplice and sacristy."</p> + +<p>"Oh, man! man!" he said crushingly, "what's got into you? What nonsense, +what clap-trap is this? I tell you that the old way, the way that has +stood for generations, is the best, and it's a sorry day I find a +brother of mine talking such nonsense. I'm almost glad Mother's dead. It +would surely have broken her heart to know that her son was living in +sin and shame, living with a——"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_478" id="page_478" title="478"></a>"Easy now, Garry," I cautioned him. We faced each other with the table +between us.</p> + +<p>"I'm going to have my say out. I've come all this way to say it, and +you've got to hear me. You're my brother. God knows I love you. I +promised I'd look after you, and now I'm going to save you if I can."</p> + +<p>"Garry," I broke in, "I'm younger than you, and I respect you; but in +the last few years I've grown to see things different from the way we +were taught; broader, clearer, saner, somehow. We can't always follow in +the narrow path of our forefathers. We must think and act for ourselves +in these days. I see no sin and shame in what I'm doing. We love each +other—that is our vindication. It's a pure, white light that dims all +else. If you had seen and striven and suffered as I have done, you might +think as I do. But you've got your smug old-fashioned notions. You gaze +at the trees so hard you can't see the forest. Yours is an ideal, too; +but mine is a purer, more exalted one."</p> + +<p>"Balderdash!" he cried. "Oh, you anger me! Look here, Athol, I came all +this way to see you about this matter. It's a long way to come, but I +knew my brother was needing me and I'd have gone round the world for +you. You never told me anything of this girl in your letters. You were +ashamed."</p> + +<p>"I knew I could never make you understand."</p> + +<p>"You might have tried. I'm not so dense in the understanding. No, you +would not tell me, and I've had letters, warning letters. It was left to +other <a class="pagenum" name="page_479" id="page_479" title="479"></a>people to tell me how you drank and gambled and squandered your +money; how you were like to a madman. They told me you had settled down +to live with one of the creatures, a woman who had made her living in +the dance-halls, and every one knows no woman ever did that and remained +straight. They warned me of the character of this girl, of your +infatuation, of your callousness to public opinion. They told me how +barefaced, how shameless you were. They begged me to try and save you. I +would not believe it, but now I've come to see for myself, and it's all +true, it's all true."</p> + +<p>He bowed his head in emotion.</p> + +<p>"Oh, she's good!" I cried. "If you knew her you would think so, too. +You, too, would love her."</p> + +<p>"Heaven forbid! Boy, I must save you. I must, for the honour of the old +name that's never been tarnished. I must make you come home with me."</p> + +<p>He put both hands on my shoulders, looking commandingly into my face.</p> + +<p>"No, no," I said, "I'll never leave her."</p> + +<p>"It will be all right. We can pay her. It can be arranged. Think of the +honour of the old name, lad."</p> + +<p>I shook him off. "Pay!"—I laughed ironically. "Pay" in connection with +the name of Berna—again I laughed.</p> + +<p>"She's good," I said once again. "Wait a little till you know her. Don't +judge her yet. Wait a little."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_480" id="page_480" title="480"></a>He saw it was of no use to waste further words on me. He sighed.</p> + +<p>"Well, well," he said, "have it your own way. I think she's ruining you. +She's dragging you down, sapping your moral principles, lowering your +standard of pure living. She must be bad, bad, or she wouldn't live with +you like that. But have it your own way, boy; I'll wait and see."</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_481" id="page_481" title="481"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XX</h2> +</div> + +<p>In the crystalline days that followed I did much to bring about a +friendship between Garry and Berna. At first I had difficulty in +dragging him to the house, but in a little while he came quite +willingly. The girl, too, aided me greatly. In her sweet, shy way she +did her best to win his regard, so that as the winter advanced a great +change came over him. He threw off that stern manner of his as an actor +throws off a part, and once again he was the dear old Garry I knew and +loved.</p> + +<p>His sunny charm returned, and with it his brilliant smile, his warm, +endearing frankness. He was now twenty-eight, and if there was a +handsomer man in the Northland I had yet to see him. I often envied him +for his fine figure and his clean, vivid colour. It was a wonderfully +expressive face that looked at you, firm and manly, and, above all, +clever. You found a pleasure in the resonant sweetness of his voice. You +were drawn irresistibly to the man, even as you would have been drawn to +a beautiful woman. He was winning, lovable, yet back of all his charm +there was that great quality of strength, of austere purpose.</p> + +<p>He made a hit with every one, and I verily believe that half the women +in the town were in love with him. However, he was quite unconscious of +it, and he stalked through the streets with the gait of <a class="pagenum" name="page_482" id="page_482" title="482"></a>a young god. I +knew there were some who for a smile would have followed him to the ends +of the earth, but Garry was always a man's man. Never do I remember the +time when he took an interest in a woman. I often thought, if women +could have the man of their choice, a few handsome ones like Garry would +monopolise them, while we common mortals would go wifeless. Sometimes it +has seemed to me that love is but a second-hand article, and that our +matings are at best only makeshifts.</p> + +<p>I must say I tried very hard to reconcile those two. I threw them +together on every opportunity, for I wanted him to understand and to +love her. I felt he had but to know her to appreciate her at her true +value, and, although he spoke no word to me, I was soon conscious of a +vast change in him. Short of brotherly regard, he was everything that +could be desired to her—cordial, friendly, charming. Once I asked Berna +what she thought of him.</p> + +<p>"I think he's splendid," she said quietly. "He's the handsomest man I've +ever seen, and he's as nice as he's good-looking. In many ways you +remind me of him—and yet there's a difference."</p> + +<p>"I remind you of him—no, girl. I'm not worthy to be his valet. He's as +much above me as I am above—say a siwash. He has all the virtues; I, +all the faults. Sometimes I look at him and I see in him my ideal self. +He is all strength, all nobility, while I am but a commonplace mortal, +full of human weaknesses. He is the self I should have been if the worst +had been the best."</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_483" id="page_483" title="483"></a>"Hush! you are my sweetheart," she assured me with a caress, "and the +dearest in the world."</p> + +<p>"By the way, Berna," I said, "you remember something we talked about +before he came? Don't you think that now——?"</p> + +<p>"Now——?"</p> + +<p>"Yes."</p> + +<p>"All right." She flashed a glad, tender look at me and left the room. +That night she was strangely elated.</p> + +<p>Every evening Garry would drop in and talk to us. Berna would look at +him as he talked and her eyes would brighten and her cheeks flush. On +both of us he had a strangely buoyant effect. How happy we could be, +just we three. It was splendid having near me the two I loved best on +earth.</p> + +<p>That was a memorable winter, mild and bright and buoyant. At last Spring +came with gracious days of sunshine. The sleighing was glorious, but I +was busy, very busy, so that I was glad to send Garry and Berna off +together in a smart cutter, and see them come home with their cheeks +like roses, their eyes sparkling and laughter in their voices. I never +saw Berna looking so well and happy.</p> + +<p>I was head over ears in work. In a mail just arrived I had a letter from +the Prodigal, and a certain paragraph in it set me pondering. Here it +was:</p> + +<div class="blockquot"><p>"You must look out for Locasto. He was in New York a week ago. He's +down and out. Blood-poisoning set in in his foot after he got +outside, and eventually he had to have <a class="pagenum" name="page_484" id="page_484" title="484"></a>it taken off. He's got a +false mit for the one Mac sawed off. But you should see him. He's +all shot to pieces with the 'hooch.' It's a fright the pace he's +gone. I had an interview with him, and he raved and blasphemed +horribly. Seemed to have a terrible pick at you. Seems you have +copped out his best girl, the only one he ever cared a red cent +for. Said he would get even with you if he swung for it. I think +he's dangerous, even a madman. He is leaving for the North now, so +be on your guard."</p></div> + +<p>Locasto coming! I had almost forgotten his existence. Well, I no longer +cared for him. I could afford to despise him. Surely he would never dare +to molest us. If he did—he was a broken, discredited blackguard. I +could crush him.</p> + +<p>Coming here! He must even now be on the way. I had a vision of him +speeding along that desolate trail, sitting in the sleigh wrapped in +furs, and brooding, brooding. As day after day the spell of the great +and gloomy land grew on his spirit, I could see the sombre eyes darken +and deepen. I could see him in the road-house at night, gaunt and +haggard, drinking at the bar, a desperate, degraded cripple. I could see +him growing more reckless every day, every hour. He was coming back to +the scene of his ruined fortunes, and God knows with what wild schemes +of vengeance his heart was full. Decidedly I must beware.</p> + +<p>As I sat there dreaming, a ring came to the 'phone. It was the foreman +at Gold Hill.</p> + +<p>"The hoisting machine has broken down," he told me. "Can you come out +and see what is required?"</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_485" id="page_485" title="485"></a>"All right," I replied. "I'll leave at once."</p> + +<p>"Berna," I said, "I'll have to go out to the Forks to-night. I'll be +back early to-morrow. Get me a bite to eat, dear, while I go round and +order the horse."</p> + +<p>On my way I met Garry and told him I would be gone over night. "Won't +you come?" I asked.</p> + +<p>"No, thanks, old man, I don't feel like a night drive."</p> + +<p>"All right. Good-bye."</p> + +<p>So I hurried off, and soon after, with a jingle of bells, I drove up to +my door. Berna had made supper. She seemed excited. Her eyes were starry +bright, her cheeks burned.</p> + +<p>"Aren't you well, sweetheart?" I asked. "You look feverish."</p> + +<p>"Yes, dear, I'm well. But I don't want you to go to-night. Something +tells me you shouldn't. Please don't go, dear. Please, for my sake."</p> + +<p>"Oh, nonsense, Berna! You know I've been away before. Get one of the +neighbour's wives to sleep with you. Get in Mrs. Brooks."</p> + +<p>"Oh, don't go, don't go, I beg you, dear. I don't want you to. I'm +afraid, I'm afraid. Won't some one else do?"</p> + +<p>"Nonsense, girl. You mustn't be so foolish. It's only for a few hours. +Here, I'll ring up Mrs. Brooks and you can ask her."</p> + +<p>She sighed. "No, never mind. I'll ring her up after you've gone."</p> + +<p>She clung to me tightly, so that I wondered what <a class="pagenum" name="page_486" id="page_486" title="486"></a>had got into the girl. +Then gently I kissed her, disengaged her hands, and bade her good-night.</p> + +<p>As I was rattling off through the darkness, a boy handed me a note. I +put it in my pocket, thinking I would read it when I reached Ogilvie +Bridge. Then I whipped up the horse.</p> + +<p>The night was crisp and exhilarating. I had one of the best trotters in +the country, and the sleighing was superb. As I sped along, with a +jingle of bells, my spirits rose. Things were looking splendid. The mine +was turning out far better than we had expected. Surely we could sell +out soon, and I would have all the money I wanted. Even then the +Prodigal was putting through a deal in New York that would realise our +fortunes. My life-struggle was nearly over.</p> + +<p>Then again, I had reconciled Garry to Berna. When I told him of a +certain secret I was hugging to my breast he would capitulate entirely. +How happy we would all be! I would buy a small estate near home, and we +would settle down. But first we would spend a few years in travel. We +would see the whole world. What good times we would have, Berna and I! +Bless her! It had all worked out beautifully.</p> + +<p>Why was she so frightened, so loath to let me go? I wondered vaguely and +flicked up the horse so that it plunged sharply forward. The vast +blue-black sky was like an inverted gold-pan and the stars were flake +colours adhering to it. The cold snapped at me till my cheeks tingled, +and my eyes felt as if they could spark. Oh, life was sweet!</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_487" id="page_487" title="487"></a>Bother! In my elation I had forgotten to get off at the Old Inn and +read my note. Never mind, I would keep it till I reached the Forks.</p> + +<p>As I spun along, I thought of how changed it all was from the Bonanza I +first knew. How I remembered tramping along that hillside slope, packing +a sack of flour over a muddy trail, a poor miner in muddy overalls! Now +I was driving a smart horse on a fine road. I was an operator of a +first-class mine. I was a man of business, of experience. Higher and +higher my spirits rose.</p> + +<p>How fast the horse flew! I would be at the Forks in no time. I flashed +past cabin windows. I saw the solitary oil-lamp and the miner reading +his book or filling his pipe. Never was there a finer, more intelligent +man; but his day was passing. The whole country was falling into the +hands of companies. Soon, thought I, one or two big combines would +control the whole wealth of that land. Already they had their eyes on +it. The gold-ships would float and roar where the old-time miner toiled +with pick and pan. Change! Change!</p> + +<p>I almost fancied I could see the monster dredges ploughing up the +valley, where now men panted at the windlass. I could see vast heaps of +tailings filling the creek-bed; I could hear the crash of the steel +grizzlies; I could see the buckets scooping up the pay-dirt. I felt +strangely prophetic. My imagination ran riot in all kinds of wonders, +great power plants, quartz discoveries. Change! Change!</p> + +<p>Yes, the stamp-mill would add its thunder to the <a class="pagenum" name="page_488" id="page_488" title="488"></a>other voices; the +country would be netted with wires, and clamorous for far and wide. Man +had sought out this land where Silence had reigned so long. He had +awakened the echoes with the shot of his rifle and the ring of his axe. +Silence had raised a startled head and poised there, listening. Then, +with crack of pick and boom of blast, man had hurled her back. Further +and further had he driven her. With his advancing horde, mad in their +lust for the loot of the valley, he had banished her. His engines had +frightened her with their canorous roar. His crashing giants had driven +her cowering to the inviolate fastnesses of her hills. And there she +broods and waits.</p> + +<p>But Silence will return. To her was given the land that she might rule +and have dominion over it forever. And in a few years the clamour will +cease, the din will die away. In a few years the treasure will be +exhausted, and the looters will depart. The engines will lie in rust and +ruin; the wind will sweep through the empty homes; the tailing-piles lie +pallid in the moon. Then the last man will strike the last blow, and +Silence will come again into her own.</p> + +<p>Yea, Silence will come home once more. Again will she rule despotic over +peak and plain. She is only waiting, brooding in the impregnable +desolation of her hills. To her has been given empery of the land, and +hand in hand with Darkness will she return.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_489" id="page_489" title="489"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XXI</h2> +</div> + +<p>Ha! here I had reached the Forks at last. As I drew up at the hotel, the +clerk came out to meet me.</p> + +<p>"Gent wants to speak to you at the 'phone, sir."</p> + +<p>It was Murray of Dawson, an old-timer, and rather a friend of mine.</p> + +<p>"Hello!"</p> + +<p>"Hello! Say, Meldrum, this is Murray speaking. Say, just wanted to let +you know there's a stage due some time before morning. Locasto's on +board, and they say he's heeled for you. Thought I'd better tell you +so's you can get fixed up for him."</p> + +<p>"All right," I answered. "Thank you. I'll turn and come right back."</p> + +<p>So I switched round the horse, and once more I drove over the glistening +road. No longer did I plan and exult. Indeed a grim fear was gripping +me. Of a sudden the shadow of Locasto loomed up sinister and menacing. +Even now he was speeding Dawsonward with a great hatred of me in his +heart. Well, I would get back and prepare for him.</p> + +<p>There came to my mind a comic perception of the awkwardness of returning +to one's own home unexpectedly, in the dead of night. At first I decided +I would go to a hotel, then on second thoughts I determined to try the +house, for I had a desire to be near Berna.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_490" id="page_490" title="490"></a>I knocked gently, then a little louder, then at last quite loudly. +Within all was still, dark as a sepulchre. Curious! she was such a light +sleeper, too. Why did she not hear me?</p> + +<p>Once more I decided to go to the hotel; once more that vague, indefinite +fear assailed me and again I knocked. And now my fear was becoming a +panic. I had my latch-key in my pocket, so very quietly I opened the +door.</p> + +<p>I was in the front room, and it was dark, very dark and quiet. I could +not even hear her breathe.</p> + +<p>"Berna," I whispered.</p> + +<p>No reply.</p> + +<p>That dim, nameless dread was clutching at my heart, and I groped +overhead in the darkness for the drop-light. How hard it was to find! A +dozen times my hand circled in the air before I knocked my knuckles +against it. I switched it on.</p> + +<p>Instantly the cabin was flooded with light. In the dining-room I could +see the remains of our supper lying untidily. That was not like her. She +had a horror of dirty dishes. I passed into the bedroom—Ah! the bed had +never been slept on.</p> + +<p>What a fool I was! It flashed on me she had gone over to Mrs. Brooks' to +sleep. She was afraid of being alone. Poor little girl! How surprised +she would be to see me in the morning!</p> + +<p>Well, I would go to bed. As I was pulling off my coat, I found the note +that had been given to me. Blaming myself for my carelessness, I pulled +it out of my pocket and opened it. As I unfolded <a class="pagenum" name="page_491" id="page_491" title="491"></a>the sheet, I noticed +it was written in what looked like a disguised hand. Strange! I thought. +The writing was small and faint. I rubbed my eyes and held it up to the +light.</p> + +<p>Merciful God! What was this? Oh no, it could not be! My eyes were +deceiving me. It was some illusion. Feverishly I read again. Yes, they +were the same words. What could they mean? Surely, surely—Oh, horror on +horrors! They could not mean <span class="smcap">that</span>. Again I read them. Yes, there they +were:</p> + +<div class="blockquot"><p>"If you are fool enough to believe that Berna is faithful to you +visit your brother's room to-night.</p> + +<p style='text-align:right'> +"<span class="smcap">A Wellwisher</span>." +</p> +</div> + +<p>Berna! Garry!—the two I loved. Oh, it could not be! It was monstrous! +It was too horrible! I would not believe it; I would not. Curse the vile +wretch that wrote such words! I would kill him. Berna! my Berna! she was +as good as gold, as true as steel. Garry! I would lay my life on his +honour. Oh, vile calumny! what devil had put so foul a thing in words? +God! it hurt me so, it hurt me so!</p> + +<p>Dazedly I sat down. A sudden rush of heat was followed by a sweat that +pricked out of me and left me cold. I trembled. I saw a ghastly vision +of myself in a mirror. I felt sick, sick. Going to the decanter on the +bureau, I poured myself a stiff jolt of whisky.</p> + +<p>Again I sat down. The paper lay on the hearthrug, <a class="pagenum" name="page_492" id="page_492" title="492"></a>and I stared at it +hatefully. It was unspeakably loathsome, yet I was fascinated by it. I +longed to take it up, to read it again. Somehow I did not dare. I was +becoming a coward.</p> + +<p>Well, it was a lie, a black devil's lie. She was with one of the +neighbours. I trusted her. I would trust her with my life. I would go to +bed. In the morning she would return, and then I would unearth the +wretch who had dared to write such things. I began to undress.</p> + +<p>Slowly I unfastened my collar—that cursed paper; there it lay. Again it +fascinated me. I stood glaring at it. Oh, fool! fool! go to bed.</p> + +<p>Wearily I took off my clothes—Oh, that devilish note! It was burning +into my brain—it would drive me mad. In a frenzy of rage, I took it up +as if it were some leprous thing, and dropped it in the fire.</p> + +<p>There I lay in bed with the darkness enfolding me, and I closed my eyes +to make a double darkness. Ha! right in the centre of my eyes, burned +the fatal paper with its atrocious suggestion. I sprang up. It was of no +use. I must settle this thing once and for all. I turned on the light +and deliberately dressed again.</p> + +<p>I was going to the hotel where Garry had his room. I would tell him I +had come back unexpectedly and ask to share his room. I was not acting +on the note! I did not suspect her. Heaven forbid! But the thing had +unnerved me. I could not stay in this place.</p> + +<p>The hotel was quiet. A sleepy night-clerk stared <a class="pagenum" name="page_493" id="page_493" title="493"></a>at me, and I pushed +past him. Garry's rooms were on the third floor. As I climbed the long +stairway, my heart was beating painfully, and when I reached his door I +was sadly out of breath. Through the transom I could see his light was +burning.</p> + +<p>I knocked faintly.</p> + +<p>There was a sudden stir.</p> + +<p>Again I knocked.</p> + +<p>Did my ears deceive me or did I hear a woman's startled cry? There was +something familiar about it—Oh, my God!</p> + +<p>I reeled. I almost fell. I clutched at the doorframe. I leaned sickly +against the door for support. Heaven help me!</p> + +<p>"I'm coming," I heard him say.</p> + +<p>The door was unlocked, and there he stood. He was fully dressed. He +looked at me with an expression on his face I could not define, but he +was very calm.</p> + +<p>"Come in," he said.</p> + +<p>I went into his sitting-room. Everything was in order. I would have +sworn I heard a woman scream, and yet no one was in sight. The bedroom +door was slightly ajar. I eyed it in a fascinated way.</p> + +<p>"I'm sorry to disturb you, Garry," I said, and I was conscious how +strained and queer my voice sounded. "I got back suddenly, and there's +no one at home. I want to stay here with you, if you don't mind."</p> + +<p>"Certainly, old man; only too glad to have you."</p> + +<p>His voice was steady. I sat down on the edge of <a class="pagenum" name="page_494" id="page_494" title="494"></a>a chair. My eyes were +riveted on that bedroom door.</p> + +<p>"Had a good drive?" he went on genially. "You must be cold. Let me give +you some whisky."</p> + +<p>My teeth were chattering. I clutched the chair. Oh, that door! My eyes +were fastened on it. I was convinced I heard some one in there. He rose +to get the whisky.</p> + +<p>"Say when?"</p> + +<p>I held the glass with a shaking hand:</p> + +<p>"When."</p> + +<p>"What's the matter, old man? You're ill."</p> + +<p>I clutched him by the arm.</p> + +<p>"Garry, there's some one in that room."</p> + +<p>"Nonsense! there's no one there."</p> + +<p>"There is, I tell you. Listen! Don't you hear them breathing?"</p> + +<p>He was quiet. Distinctly I could hear the panting of human breath. I was +going mad, mad. I could stand it no longer.</p> + +<p>"Garry," I gasped, "I'm going to see, I'm going to see."</p> + +<p>"Don't——"</p> + +<p>"Yes, I must, I say. Let me go. I'll drag them out."</p> + +<p>"Hold on——"</p> + +<p>"Leave go, man! I'm going, I say. You won't hold me. Let go, I tell you, +let go—Now come out, come out, whoever you are—Ah!"</p> + +<p>It was a woman.</p> + +<p>"Ha!" I cried, "I told you so, brother; a woman. <a class="pagenum" name="page_495" id="page_495" title="495"></a>I think I know her, +too. Here, let me see—I thought so."</p> + +<p>I had clutched her, pulled her to the light. It was Berna.</p> + +<p>Her face was white as chalk, her eyes dilated with terror. She trembled. +She seemed near fainting.</p> + +<p>"I thought so."</p> + +<p>Now that it seemed the worst was betrayed to me, I was strangely calm.</p> + +<p>"Berna, you're faint. Let me lead you to a chair."</p> + +<p>I made her sit down. She said no word, but looked at me with a wild +pleading in her eyes. No one spoke.</p> + +<p>There we were, the three of us: Berna faint with fear, ghastly, pitiful; +I calm, yet calm with a strange, unnatural calmness, and Garry—he +surprised me. He had seated himself, and with the greatest <i>sang-froid</i> +he was lighting a cigarette.</p> + +<p>A long tense silence. At last I broke it.</p> + +<p>"What have you got to say for yourself, Garry?" I asked.</p> + +<p>It was wonderful how calm he was.</p> + +<p>"Looks pretty bad, doesn't it, brother?" he said gravely.</p> + +<p>"Yes, it couldn't look worse."</p> + +<p>"Looks as if I was a pretty base, despicable specimen of a man, doesn't +it?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, about as base as a man could be."</p> + +<p>"That's so." He rose and turned up the light of a large reading-lamp, +then coming to me he looked <a class="pagenum" name="page_496" id="page_496" title="496"></a>me square in the face. Abruptly his casual +manner dropped. He grew sharp, forceful; his voice rang clear.</p> + +<p>"Listen to me."</p> + +<p>"I'm listening."</p> + +<p>"I came out here to save you, and I'm going to save you. You wanted me +to believe that this girl was good. You believed it. You were bewitched, +befooled, blinded. I could see it, but I had to make you see it. I had +to make you realise how worthless she was, how her love for you was a +sham, a pretence to prey on you. How could I prove it? You would not +listen to reason: I had to take other means. Now, hear me."</p> + +<p>"I hear."</p> + +<p>"I laid my plans. For three months I've tried to conquer her, to win her +love, to take her from you. She was truer to you than I had bargained +for; I must give her credit for that. She made a good fight, but I think +I have triumphed. To-night she came to my room at my invitation."</p> + +<p>"Well?"</p> + +<p>"Well. You got a note. <i>Now, I wrote that note.</i> I planned this scene, +this discovery. I planned it so that your eyes would be opened, so that +you would see what she was, so that you would cast her from +you—unfaithful, a wanton, a——"</p> + +<p>"Hold on there," I broke in; "brother of mine or no, I won't hear you +call her those names; no, not if she were ten times as unfaithful. You +won't, I say. I'll choke the words in your throat. I'll kill <a class="pagenum" name="page_497" id="page_497" title="497"></a>you, if +you utter a word against her. Oh, what have you done?"</p> + +<p>"What have I done! Try to be calm, man. What have I done? Well, this is +what I've done, and it's the lucky day for you I've done it. I've saved +you from shame; I've freed you from sin; I've shown you the baseness of +this girl."</p> + +<p>He rose to his feet.</p> + +<p>"Oh, my brother, I've stolen from you your mistress; that's what I've +done."</p> + +<p>"Oh, no, you haven't," I groaned. "God forgive you, Garry; God forgive +you! She's not my—not what you think. She's my <i>wife</i>!"</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_498" id="page_498" title="498"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XXII</h2> +</div> + +<p>I thought that he would faint. His face went white as paper and he +shrank back. He gazed at me with wild, straining eyes.</p> + +<p>"God forgive me! Oh, why didn't you tell me, boy? Why didn't you tell +me?"</p> + +<p>In his voice there was a note more poignant than a sob.</p> + +<p>"You should have trusted me," he went on. "You should have told me. When +were you married?"</p> + +<p>"Just a month ago. I was keeping it as a surprise for you. I was waiting +till you said you liked and thought well of her. Oh, I thought you would +be pleased and glad, and I was treasuring it up to tell you."</p> + +<p>"This is terrible, terrible!"</p> + +<p>His voice was choked with agony. On her chair, Berna drooped wearily. +Her wide, staring eyes were fixed on the floor in pitiful perplexity.</p> + +<p>"Yes, it's terrible enough. We were so happy. We lived so joyously +together. Everything was perfect, a heaven for us both. And then you +came, you with your charm that would lure an angel from high heaven. You +tried your power on my poor little girl, the girl that never loved but +me. And I trusted you, I tried to make you and her friends. I <a class="pagenum" name="page_499" id="page_499" title="499"></a>left you +together. In my blind innocence I aided you in every way—a simple, +loving fool. Oh, now I see!"</p> + +<p>"Yes, yes, I know. Your words stab me. It's all true, true."</p> + +<p>"You came like a serpent, a foul, crawling thing, to steal her from me, +to wrong me. She was loving, faithful, pure. You would have dragged her +in the mire. You——"</p> + +<p>"Stop, brother, stop, for Heaven's sake! You wrong me."</p> + +<p>He held out his hand commandingly. A wonderful change had come over him. +His face had regained its calm. It was proud, stern.</p> + +<p>"You must not think I would have been guilty of that," he said quietly. +"I've played a part I never thought to play; I've done a thing I never +thought to have dirtied my hands in the doing, and I'm sorry and ashamed +for it. But I tell you, Athol—that's all. As God's my witness, I've +done you no wrong. Surely you don't think me as low as that? Surely you +don't believe that of me? I did what I did for my very love for you, for +your honour's sake. I asked her here that you might see what she +was—but that's all, I swear it. She's been as safe as if in a cage of +steel."</p> + +<p>"I know it," I said; "I know it. You don't need to tell me that. You +brought her here to expose her, to show me what a fool I was. It didn't +matter how much it hurt me, the more the better, anything to save the +name. You would have broken <a class="pagenum" name="page_500" id="page_500" title="500"></a>my heart, sacrificed me on the altar of +your accursed pride. Oh, I can see plainly now! There's a thousand years +of prejudice and bigotry concentrated in you. Thank God, I have a human +heart!"</p> + +<p>"I thought I was acting for the best!" he cried.</p> + +<p>I laughed scornfully.</p> + +<p>"I know it—according to your lights. You asked her here that I might +see what she was. You tell me you have gained her love; you say she came +here at your bidding; you swear she would have been unfaithful to me. +Well, I tell you, brother of mine, in your teeth I tell you—<i>I don't +believe you!</i>"</p> + +<p>Suddenly the little, drooping figure on the chair had raised itself; the +white, woe-begone face with the wide, staring eyes was turned towards +me; the pitiful look had gone, and in its stead was one of wild, +unspeakable joy.</p> + +<p>"It's all right, Berna," I said; "I don't believe him, and if a million +others were to say the same, if they were to thunder it in my ears down +all eternity, I would tell them they lied, they lied!"</p> + +<p>A heaven-lit radiance was in the grey eyes. She made as if to come to +me, but she swayed, and I caught her in my arms.</p> + +<p>"Don't be frightened, little girl. Give me your hand. See! I'll kiss it, +dear. Now, don't cry; don't, honey."</p> + +<p>Her arms were around me. She clung to me ever so tightly.</p> + +<p>"Garry," I said, "this is my wife. When I have <a class="pagenum" name="page_501" id="page_501" title="501"></a>lost my belief in all +else, I will believe in her. You have made us both suffer. As for what +you've said—you're mistaken. She's a good, good girl. I will not +believe that by thought, word or deed she has been untrue to me. She +will explain everything. Now, good-bye. Come, Berna."</p> + +<p>Suddenly she stopped me. Her hand was on my arm, and she turned towards +Garry. She held herself as proudly as a queen.</p> + +<p>"I want to explain now," she said, "before you both."</p> + +<p>She pulled from her bosom a little crumpled note, and handed it to me. +Then, as I read it, a great light burst on me. Here it was:</p> + +<div class="blockquot"> +<p>"<span class="smcap">Dear Berna</span>:</p> + +<p>"For heaven's sake be on your guard. Jack Locasto is on his way +north again. I think he's crazy. I know he'll stick at nothing, and +I don't want to see blood spilt. He says he means to wipe out all +old scores. For your sake, and for the sake of one dear to you, be +warned.</p> + +<p style='text-align:right'> +"In haste,<span style='letter-spacing:8em'> </span><br /> +"<span class="smcap">Viola Lennoir</span>." +</p> +</div> + +<p>"I got it two days ago," she said. "Oh, I've been distracted with fear. +I did not like to show it to you. I've brought you nothing but trouble, +and I've never spoken of him, never once. You understand, don't you?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, little girl, I understand."</p> + +<p>"I wanted to save you, no matter at what cost. <a class="pagenum" name="page_502" id="page_502" title="502"></a>To-night I tried to +prevent you going out there, for I feared you might meet him. I knew he +was very near. Then, when you had gone, my fear grew and grew. There I +sat, thinking over everything. Oh, if I only had a friend, I thought; +some one to help me. Then, as I sat, dazed, distracted, the 'phone rang. +It was your brother."</p> + +<p>"Yes, go on, dear."</p> + +<p>"He told me he wanted to see me; he begged me to come at once. I thought +of you, of your danger, of some terrible mishap. I was terrified. I +went."</p> + +<p>She paused a moment, as if the recital was infinitely painful to her, +then she went on.</p> + +<p>"I found my way to his room. My mind was full of you, of that man, of +how to save you. I did not think of myself, of my position. At first I +was too agitated to speak. He bade me sit down, compose myself. His +manner was quiet, grave. Again I feared for you. He asked me to excuse +him for a moment, and left the room. He seemed to be gone an age, while +I sat there, trying to fight down my terror. The suspense was killing +me. Then he came back. He closed and locked the door. All at once I +heard a step outside, a knock. 'Hush! go in there,' he said. He opened +the door. I heard him speaking to some one. I waited, then you burst in +on me. You know the rest."</p> + +<p>"Yes, yes."</p> + +<p>"As for your brother, I've tried, oh, so hard, to be nice to him for +your sake. I liked him; I wanted <a class="pagenum" name="page_503" id="page_503" title="503"></a>to be to him as a sister, but never an +unfaithful thought has entered my head, never a wrong feeling sullied my +heart. I've been true to you. You told me once of a love that gives all +and asks for nothing; a love that would turn its back on friends and +kindred for the sake of its beloved. You said: 'His smile will be your +rapture, his frown your anguish. For him will you dare all, bear all. To +him will you cling in sorrow, suffering and poverty. Living, you would +follow him round the world; dying, you would desire but him.'—Well, I +think I love you like that."</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear, my dear!"</p> + +<p>"I want to bring you happiness, but I only bring you trouble, sorrow. +Sometimes, for your sake, I wish we had never met."</p> + +<p>She turned to Garry.</p> + +<p>"As for you, you've done me a great wrong. I can never forget it. Will +you go now, and leave us in peace?"</p> + +<p>His head was bent, so that I could not see his face.</p> + +<p>"Can you not forgive?" he groaned.</p> + +<p>She shook her head sadly. "No, I am afraid I can never forgive."</p> + +<p>"Can I do nothing to atone?"</p> + +<p>"No, I'm afraid your punishment must be—that you can do nothing."</p> + +<p>He said never a word. She turned to me:</p> + +<p>"Come, my husband, we will go."</p> + +<p>I was opening the door to leave him forever. Suddenly <a class="pagenum" name="page_504" id="page_504" title="504"></a>I heard a step +coming up the stairs, a heavy, hurried tread. I looked down a moment, +then I pushed her back into the room.</p> + +<p>"Be prepared, Berna," I said quietly; "here comes Locasto."</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_505" id="page_505" title="505"></a> +<h2>CHAPTER XXIII</h2> +</div> + +<p>There we waited, Garry and I, and between us Berna. We heard that heavy +tread come up, up the creaking stairway, stumble a moment, then pause on +the landing. There was something ominous, something pregnant in that +pause. The steps halted, wavered a little, then, inflexible as doom, on +they came towards us. The next instant the door was thrown open, and +Locasto stood in the entrance.</p> + +<p>Even in that brief moment I was struck by the change in him. He seemed +to have aged by twenty years. He was gaunt and lank as a starved timber +wolf; his face was hollow almost as a death's head; his hair was long +and matted, and his eyes burned with a strange, unnatural fire. In that +dark, aquiline face the Indian was never more strongly revealed. He +limped, and I noticed his left hand was gloved.</p> + +<p>From under his bristling brows he glared at us. As he swayed there he +minded me of an evil beast, a savage creature, a mad, desperate thing. +He reeled in the doorway, and to steady himself put out his gloved hand. +Then with a malignant laugh, the fleering laugh of a fiend, he stepped +into the room.</p> + +<p>"So! Seems as if I'd lighted on a pretty nest of love-birds. Ho! ho! my +sweet! You're not satisfied with one lover, you must have two. Well, you +<a class="pagenum" name="page_506" id="page_506" title="506"></a>are going to be satisfied with one from now on, and that's Jack +Locasto. I've stood enough from you, you white-faced jade. You've +haunted me, you've put some kind of a spell on me. You've lured me back +to this land, and now I'm going to have you or die! You've played with +me long enough. The jig's up. Stand out from between those two. Stand +out, I say! March out of that door."</p> + +<p>She only shrank back the farther.</p> + +<p>"You won't come, curse you; you won't come, you milk-faced witch, with +your great eyes that bore holes in me, that turn my heart to fire, that +make me mad. You won't come. Stand back there, you two, and let the girl +come."</p> + +<p>We shielded her.</p> + +<p>"Ha! that's it—you defy me. You won't let me get her. Well, it'll be +all the worse for her. I'll make her life a hell. I'll beat her. You +won't stand back. You, the dark one—don't I know you; haven't I hated +you more than the devil hates a saint; hated you worse than bitter +poison? These three black years you've balked me, you've kept her from +me. Oh, I've itched to kill you times without number, and I've spared +you. But now it's my call. Stand back there, stand back I say. Your +time's come. Here's where I shoot."</p> + +<p>His hand leapt up and I saw it gripped a revolver. He had me covered. +His face was contorted with devilish triumph, and I knew he meant to +kill. At last, at last my time had come. I saw his fingers twitching on +the trigger, I gazed into <a class="pagenum" name="page_507" id="page_507" title="507"></a>the hollow horror of that barrel. My heart +turned to ice. I could not breathe. Oh, for a respite, a moment—Ugh!... +he pulled the trigger, and, <i>at the same instant, Garry sprang at him</i>!</p> + +<p>What had happened? The shot rang in my ears. I was still standing there. +I felt no wound. I felt no pain. Then, as I stared at my enemy, I heard +a heavy fall. Oh, God! there at my feet lay Garry, lay in a huddled, +quivering heap, lay on his face, and in his fair hair I saw a dark stain +start and spread. Then, in a moment, I realised what my brother had +done.</p> + +<p>I fell on my knees beside him.</p> + +<p>"Garry, Garry!" I moaned. I heard Berna scream, and I saw that Locasto +was coming for me. He was a man no longer. He had killed. He was a +brute, a fury, a devil, mad with the lust of slaughter. With a snarl he +dashed at me. Again I thought he was going to shoot, but no! He raised +the heavy revolver and brought it crashing down on my head. I felt the +blow fall, and with it my strength seemed to shoot out of me. My legs +were paralysed. I could not move. And, as I lay there in a misty daze, +he advanced on Berna.</p> + +<p>There she stood at bay, a horror-stricken thing, weak, panting, +desperate. I saw him corner her. His hands were stretched out to clutch +her; a moment more and he would have her in his arms, a moment—ah! With +a suddenness that was like a flash she had raised the heavy reading-lamp +and dashed it in his face.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_508" id="page_508" title="508"></a>I heard his shriek of fear; I saw him fall as the thing crashed between +his eyes; I saw the flames spurt and leap. High in the air he rose, +awful in his agony. He was in a shroud of fire; he was in a pool of +flame. He howled like a dog and fell over on the bed.</p> + +<p>Then suddenly the oil-soaked bedding caught. The curtains seemed to leap +and change into flame. As he rolled and roared in his agony, the blaze +ran up the walls, and caught the roof. Help, help! the room was afire, +was burning up. Fire! Fire!</p> + +<p>Out in the corridor I heard a great running about, shouting of men, +screaming of women. The whole place seemed to be alive, panic-stricken, +frenzied with fear. Everything was in flames now, burning fiercely, +madly, and there was no stopping them. The hotel was burning, and I, +too, must burn. What a horrible end! Oh, if I could only do something! +But I could not move. From the waist down I was like a dead man. Where +was Berna? Pray God she was safe. I could not cry for aid. The room was +reeling round and round. I was faint, dizzy, helpless.</p> + +<p>The hotel was ablaze. In the streets below crowds were gathering. People +were running up and down the stairway, fighting to get free, mad with +terror, leaping from the windows. Oh, it was awful, to burn, to burn! I +seemed to be caged in flames that were darting at me savagely, +spitefully. Would nobody save me?</p> + +<p>Yes, some one was trying to save me, was dragging <a class="pagenum" name="page_509" id="page_509" title="509"></a>my body across the +floor. Consciousness left me, and it seemed for ages I lay in a stupor. +When I opened my eyes again some one was still tugging at me. We were +going down the stairway, and on all sides of us were sheets of flapping +flame. I was wrapped in a blanket. How had it got there? Who was that +dark figure pulling at me so desperately, trying to lift me, staggering +a few paces with me, stumbling blindly on? Brave one, noble one, whoever +you be! Foolhardy one, reckless one, whoever you be! Save yourself while +yet there is time. Leave me to my fate. But, oh, the agony of it to +burn, to burn ...!</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Another desperate effort and we are almost at the door. Flames are +darting at us like serpents, leaping kitten-like at our heels. Above us +is a billowy canopy of fire soaring upward with a vast crackling roar. +Fiery splinters shoot around us, while before us is a black pit of +smoke. Smooth walls of fire uprear about us. We are in a cavern of fire, +and in another moment it will engulf us. Oh, my rescuer, a last frenzied +effort! We are almost at the door. Then I am lifted up and we both +tumble out into the street. Not a second too soon, for, like a savage +beast foiled of its prey, a blast of flame shoots after us, and the +doorway is a gulf of blazing wrath.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>I am lying in the snow, lying on a blanket, and some one holds my head.</p> + +<p><a class="pagenum" name="page_510" id="page_510" title="510"></a>"Berna, is that you?"</p> + +<p>She nods. She does not speak. I shudder as I look at her. Her face is +like a great burn, a black mask in which her eyes and teeth gleam +whitely....</p> + +<p>"Oh, Berna, Berna, and it was you that dragged me out...!"</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>My eyes go to the fiery hell in front. As I look the roof crashes in and +we are showered by falling sparks. I see a fireman run back. He is +swathed in flame. Madly he rolls in the snow. The hotel is like a +cascade of flame; it spouts outward like water, beautiful golden water. +In its centre is a wonderful whirlpool. I see the line of a black girder +leap out, and hanging over it a limp, charred shape. A moment it hangs +uncertainly, then plunges downward into the roasting heart of the pit. +And I know it for Locasto.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Oh, Berna, Berna! I can't bear to look at her. Why did she do it? It's +pitiful, pitiful....</p> + +<p>The fire is spreading. Right and left it swings and leaps in giant +strides. Sudden flames shoot out, curl over and roll like golden velvet +down the black faces of the buildings. The fire leaps the street. All is +pandemonium now. Mad with fear and excitement, men and women rave and +curse and pray. Water! water! is the cry; but no water comes. Suddenly a +mob of terror-goaded men comes surging down the street. They bring the +long hose line that connects with the pump-station on the river. Hurrah! +<a class="pagenum" name="page_511" id="page_511" title="511"></a>now they will soon have the flames under control. Water, water is +coming.</p> + +<p>The line is laid and a cry goes up to turn on the water. Hurry there! +But no water comes. What can be the matter? Then the dread whisper goes +round that the man in charge of the pumping-station has neglected his +duty, and the engine fires are cold. A howl of fury and despair goes up +to the lurid heavens. Women wring their hands and moan; men stand by in +a stupor of hopeless agony. And the fire, as if it knew of its victory, +leaps up in a roaring ecstasy of triumph.</p> + +<p>There we watched, Berna and I, lying in the snow that melts all around +us in the fierce, scorching glare. Through the lurid rift of smoke I can +see the friendly stars. Against that curtain of blaze, strangely +beautiful in its sinuous strength, I watch the black silhouettes of men +running hither and thither like rats, gutting the houses, looting the +stores, tearing the hearts out of the homes. The fire seems a great +bird, and from its nest of furnace heat it spreads its flapping wings +over the city.</p> + +<p>Yes, there is no hope. The gold-born city is doomed. From where I lie +the scene is one long vista of blazing gables, ribs and rafters hugged +by tawny arms of fire. Squat cabins swirling in mad eddies of flame; +hotels, dance-halls, brothels swathed and smothered in flame-rent +blankets of swirling smoke. There is no hope. The fire is a vast +avenger, and before its wrath the iniquity of the tenderloin is swept +away. That flimsy hive of <a class="pagenum" name="page_512" id="page_512" title="512"></a>humanity, with its sins and secrets and +sorrows, goes up in smoke and ashes to the silent stars.</p> + +<p>The gold-born city is doomed. Yet, as I lay there, it seemed to me like +a judgment, and that from its ruins would arise a new city, clean, +upright, incorruptible. Yes, the gold-camp would find itself. Even as +the gold, must it pass through the furnace to be made clean. And from +the site where in the olden days the men who toiled for the gold were +robbed by every device of human guile, a new city would come to be—a +great city, proud and prosperous, beloved of homing hearts, and blessed +in its purity and peace.</p> + +<p>"Beloved," I sighed through a gathering mist of consciousness. I felt +some hot tears falling on my face. I felt a kiss seal my lips. I felt a +breathing in my ear.</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear, my dear!" she said. "I've only brought you sorrow and +pain, but you've brought me love, that love that is a dazzling light, +beside which the sunshine is as darkness."</p> + +<p>"Berna!" I raised myself; I put out my arms to clasp her. They clasped +the empty air. Wildly, wildly I looked around. She was gone!</p> + +<p>"Berna!" Again I cried, but there was no reply. I was alone, alone. Then +a great weakness came over me....</p> + +<p>I never saw her again.</p> + +<div> +<hr class='major' /> +<a class="pagenum" name="page_513" id="page_513" title="513"></a> +<h2><a name="THE_LASaT" id="THE_LASaT"></a>THE LAST</h2> +</div> + +<p>It is finished. I have written here the story of my life, or of that +portion of it which means everything to me, for the rest means nothing. +Now that it is done, I too have done, so I sit me down and wait. For +what am I waiting? A divine miracle perhaps.</p> + +<p>Somehow I feel I will see her again, somehow, somewhere. Surely God +would not reveal to us the shining light of the Great Reality only to +plunge us again into outer darkness? Love cannot be in vain. I will not +believe it. Somehow, somewhere!</p> + +<p>So in the glow of the great peat fire I sit me down and wait, and the +faith grows in me that she will come to me again; that I will feel the +soft caress of her hand upon my pillow, that I will hear her voice all +tuned to tenderness, that I will see through my tear-blinded eyes her +sweet compassionate face. Somehow, somewhere!</p> + +<p>With the aid of my crutch I unlatch one of the long windows and step out +onto the terrace. I peer through the darkness and once more I have a +sense of that land of imperious vastitudes so unfathomably lonely. With +an unspeakable longing in my heart, I try to pierce the shadows that +surround me. From the cavernous dark the snowflakes sting my face, but +the great night seems good to me, and I <a class="pagenum" name="page_514" id="page_514" title="514"></a>sink into a garden seat. Oh, I +am tired, tired....</p> + +<p>I am waiting, waiting. I close my eyes and wait. I know she will come. +The snow is covering me. White as a statue, I sit and wait.</p> + +<hr class='minor' /> + +<p>Ah, Berna, my dear, my dear! I knew you would return; I knew, I knew. +Come to me, little one. I'm tired, so tired. Put your arms around me, +girl; kiss me, kiss me. I'm weak and ill, but now you've come I'll soon +be well again. You won't leave me any more; will you, honey? Oh, it's +good to have you once again! It seems like a dream. Kiss me once more, +sweetheart. It's all so cold and dark. Put your arms around me....</p> + +<p><i>Oh, Berna, Berna, light of my life, I knew all would come right at +last—beyond the mists, beyond the dreaming; at last, dear love, at +last!...</i></p> + +<p> </p> +<p> </p> +<hr class="full" /> +<p>***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE TRAIL OF '98***</p> +<p>******* This file should be named 22063-h.txt or 22063-h.zip *******</p> +<p>This and all associated files of various formats will be found in:<br /> +<a href="http://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/0/6/22063">http://www.gutenberg.org/2/2/0/6/22063</a></p> +<p>Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed.</p> + +<p>Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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Gutenberg eBook, The Trail of '98, by Robert W. Service, +Illustrated by Maynard Dixon + + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + + + + +Title: The Trail of '98 + A Northland Romance + + +Author: Robert W. Service + + + +Release Date: July 13, 2007 [eBook #22063] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-646-US (US-ASCII) + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE TRAIL OF '98*** + + +E-text prepared by Roger Frank and the Project Gutenberg Online +Distributed Proofreading Team (https://www.pgdp.net) + + + +Note: Project Gutenberg also has an HTML version of this + file which includes the original illustrations. + See 22063-h.htm or 22063-h.zip: + (https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/0/6/22063/22063-h/22063-h.htm) + or + (https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/0/6/22063/22063-h.zip) + + + + + +THE TRAIL OF '98 + +A Northland Romance + +by + +ROBERT W. SERVICE + +Author of +"The Spell of the Yukon" and "Ballads of a Cheechako" + +With illustrations by Maynard Dixon + + + + + + + +[Illustration: We were in a caldron of fire. The roar of doom was in our +ears (page 143)] + + +New York +Dodd, Mead and Company +1911 + +Copyright, 1910, by +Dodd, Mead and Company + +Entered at Stationers' Hall + +The Quinn & Boden Co. Press +Rahway, N. J. + + + + +PRELUDE + +The north wind is keening overhead. It minds me of the howl of a +wolf-dog under the Arctic stars. Sitting alone by the glow of the +great peat fire I can hear it high up in the braeside firs. It is +the voice, inexorably scornful, of the Great White Land. + +Oh, I hate it, I hate it! Why cannot a man be allowed to forget? It is +near ten years since I joined the Eager Army. I have travelled: I have +been a pilgrim to the shrines of beauty; I have pursued the phantom of +happiness even to the ends of the earth. Still it is always the same--I +cannot forget. + +Why should a man be ever shadowed by the vampire wing of his past? Have +I not a right to be happy? Money, estate, name, are mine, all that means +an open sesame to the magic door. Others go in, but I beat against its +flinty portals with hands that bleed. No! I have no right to be happy. +The ways of the world are open; the banquet of life is spread; the +wonder-workers plan their pageants of beauty and joy, and yet there is +no praise in my heart. I have seen, I have tasted, I have tried. Ashes +and dust and bitterness are all my gain. I will try no more. It is the +shadow of the vampire wing. + +So I sit in the glow of the great peat fire, tired and sad beyond +belief. Thank God! at least I am home. Everything is so little changed. +The fire lights the oak-panelled hall; the crossed claymores gleam; the +eyes in the mounted deer-heads shine glassily; rugs of fur cover the +polished floor; all is comfort, home and the haunting atmosphere of my +boyhood. Sometimes I fancy it has been a dream, the Great White Silence, +the lure of the gold-spell, the delirium of the struggle; a dream, and I +will awake to hear Garry calling me to shoot over the moor, to see dear +little Mother with her meek, sensitive mouth, and her cheeks as +delicately tinted as the leaves of a briar rose. But no! The hall is +silent. Mother has gone to her long rest. Garry sleeps under the snow. +Silence everywhere; I am alone, alone. + +So I sit in the big, oak-carved chair of my forefathers, before the +great peat fire, a peak-faced drooping figure of a man with hair +untimely grey. My crutch lies on the floor by my side. My old nurse +comes up quietly to look at the fire. Her rosy, wrinkled face smiles +cheerfully, but I can see the anxiety in her blue eyes. She is afraid +for me. Maybe the doctor has told her--_something_. + +No doubt my days are numbered, so I am minded to tell of it all: of the +Big Stampede, of the Treasure Trail, of the Gold-born City; of those who +followed the gold-lure into the Great White Land, of the evil that +befell them, of Garry and of Berna. Perhaps it will comfort me to tell +of these things. To-morrow I will begin; to-night, leave me to my +memories. + +Berna! I spoke of her last. She rises before me now with her spirit-pale +face and her great troubleful grey eyes, a little tragic figure, +ineffably pitiful. Where are you now, little one? I have searched the +world for you. I have scanned a million faces. Day and night have I +sought, always hoping, always baffled, for, God help me, dear, I love +you. Among that mad, lusting horde you were so weak, so helpless, yet so +hungry for love. + +With the aid of my crutch I unlatch one of the long windows, and step +out onto the terrace. From the cavernous dark the snowflakes sting my +face. Yet as I stand there, once more I have a sense of another land, of +imperious vastitudes, of a silent empire, unfathomably lonely. + +Ghosts! They are all around me. The darkness teems with them, Garry, my +brother, among them. Then they all fade and give way to one face.... + +_Berna, I love you always. Out of the night I cry to you, Berna, the cry +of a broken heart. Is it your little, pitiful ghost that comes down to +me? Oh, I am waiting, waiting! Here will I wait, Berna, till we meet +once more. For meet we will, beyond the mists, beyond the dreaming, at +last, dear love, at last._ + + + +CONTENTS + +BOOK I +The Road to Anywhere 1 + +BOOK II +The Trail 49 + +BOOK III +The Camp 169 + +BOOK IV +The Vortex 321 + + + +ILLUSTRATIONS + +We were in a caldron of fire. The roar of doom was +in our ears (p. 143) Frontispiece + + FACING + PAGE + +"No," she said firmly, "you can't see the girl" 116 + +Then, as I hung half in, half out of the window, +he clutched me by the throat 316 + +"Garry," I said, "this is--this is Berna" 476 + + + +This is the law of the Yukon, and ever she makes it plain: +"Send not your foolish and feeble; send me your strong and your sane. +Strong for the red rage of battle; sane, for I harry them sore; +Send me men girt for the combat, men who are grit to the core; +Swift as the panther in triumph, fierce as the bear in defeat, +Sired of a bulldog parent, steeled in the furnace heat. +Send me the best of your breeding, lend me your chosen ones; +Them will I take to my bosom, them will I call my sons; +Them will I gild with my treasure, them will I glut with my meat; +But the others--the misfits, the failures--I trample under my feet." + + --"Songs of a Sourdough." + + + + + + +BOOK I + +THE ROAD TO ANYWHERE + + +Can you recall, dear comrade, when we tramped God's land together, + And we sang the old, old Earth-Song, for our youth was very sweet; +When we drank and fought and lusted, as we mocked at tie and tether, + Along the road to Anywhere, the wide world at our feet. + +Along the road to Anywhere, when each day had its story; + When time was yet our vassal, and life's jest was still unstale; +When peace unfathomed filled our hearts as, bathed in amber glory, + Along the road to Anywhere we watched the sunsets pale. + +Alas! the road to Anywhere is pitfalled with disaster; + There's hunger, want, and weariness, yet O we loved it so! +As on we tramped exultantly, and no man was our master, + And no man guessed what dreams were ours, as swinging heel and toe, +We tramped the road to Anywhere, the magic road to Anywhere, + The tragic road to Anywhere such dear, dim years ago. + +--"Songs of a Sourdough." + + + + +CHAPTER I + + +As far back as I can remember I have faithfully followed the banner of +Romance. It has given colour to my life, made me a dreamer of dreams, a +player of parts. As a boy, roaming alone the wild heather hills, I have +heard the glad shouts of the football players on the green, yet never +ettled to join them. Mine was the richer, rarer joy. Still can I see +myself in those days, a little shy-mannered lad in kilts, bareheaded to +the hill breezes, with health-bright cheeks, and a soul happed up in +dreams. + +And, indeed, I lived in an enchanted land, a land of griffins and +kelpies, of princesses and gleaming knights. From each black tarn I +looked to see a scaly reptile rise, from every fearsome cave a corby +emerge. There were green spaces among the heather where the fairies +danced, and every scaur and linn had its own familiar spirit. I peopled +the good green wood with the wild creatures of my thought, nymph and +faun, naiad and dryad, and would have been in nowise surprised to meet +in the leafy coolness the great god Pan himself. + +It was at night, however, that my dreams were most compelling. I strove +against the tyranny of sleep. Lying in my small bed, I revelled in +delectable imaginings. Night after night I fought battles, devised +pageants, partitioned empires. I gloried in details. My rugged +war-lords were very real to me, and my adventures sounded many periods +of history. I was a solitary caveman with an axe of stone; I was a Roman +soldier of fortune; I was a Highland outlaw of the Rebellion. Always I +fought for a lost cause, and always my sympathies were with the rebel. I +feasted with Robin Hood on the King's venison; I fared forth with Dick +Turpin on the gibbet-haunted heath; I followed Morgan, the Buccaneer, +into strange and exotic lands of trial and treasure. It was a wonderful +gift of visioning that was mine in those days. It was the bird-like +flight of the pure child-mind to whom the unreal is yet the real. + +Then, suddenly, I arrived at a second phase of my mental growth in which +fancy usurped the place of imagination. The modern equivalents of +Romance attracted me, and, with my increasing grasp of reality, my gift +of vision faded. As I had hitherto dreamed of knight-errants, of +corsairs and of outlaws, I now dreamed of cowboys, of gold-seekers, of +beach-combers. Fancy painted scenes in which I, too, should play a +rousing part. I read avidly all I could find dealing with the Far West, +and ever my wistful gaze roved over the grey sea. The spirit of Romance +beaconed to me. I, too, would adventure in the stranger lands, and face +their perils and brave their dangers. The joy of the thought exulted in +my veins, and scarce could I bide the day when the roads of chance and +change would be open to my feet. + +It is strange that in all these years I confided in no one. Garry, who +was my brother and my dearest friend, would have laughed at me in that +affectionate way of his. You would never have taken us for brothers. We +were so different in temperament and appearance that we were almost the +reverse of each other. He was the handsomest boy I have ever seen, +frank, fair-skinned and winning, while I was dark, dour and none too +well favoured. He was the best runner and swimmer in the parish, and the +idol of the village lads. I cared nothing for games, and would be found +somewhere among the heather hills, always by my lone self, and nearly +always with a story book in my pocket. He was clever, practical and +ambitious, excelling in all his studies; whereas, except in those which +appealed to my imagination, I was a dullard and a dreamer. + +Yet we loved each others as few brothers do. Oh, how I admired him! He +was my ideal, and too often the hero of my romances. Garry would have +laughed at my hero-worship; he was so matter-of-fact, effective and +practical. Yet he understood me, my Celtic ideality, and that shy +reserve which is the armour of a sensitive soul. Garry in his fine +clever way knew me and shielded me and cheered me. He was so buoyant and +charming he heartened you like Spring sunshine, and braced you like a +morning wind on the mountain top. Yes, not excepting Mother, Garry knew +me better than any one has ever done, and I loved him for it. It seems +overfond to say this, but he did not have a fault: tenderness, humour, +enthusiasm, sympathy and the beauty of a young god--all that was +manfully endearing was expressed in this brother of mine. + +So we grew to manhood there in that West Highland country, and surely +our lives were pure and simple and sweet. I had never been further from +home than the little market town where we sold our sheep. Mother managed +the estate till Garry was old enough, when he took hold with a vigour +and grasp that delighted every one. I think our little Mother stood +rather in awe of my keen, capable, energetic brother. There was in her a +certain dreamy, wistful idealism that made her beautiful in my eyes, and +to look on she was as fair as any picture. Specially do I remember the +delicate colouring of her face and her eyes, blue like deep +corn-flowers. She was not overstrong, and took much comfort from +religion. Her lips, which were fine and sensitive, had a particularly +sweet expression, and I wish to record of her that never once did I see +her cross, always sweet, gentle, smiling. + +Thus our home was an ideal one; Garry, tall, fair and winsome; myself, +dark, dreamy, reticent; and between us, linking all three in a perfect +bond of love and sympathy, our gentle, delicate Mother. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +So in serenity and sunshine the days of my youth went past. I still +maintained my character as a drone and a dreamer. I used my time +tramping the moorland with a gun, whipping the foamy pools of the burn +for trout, or reading voraciously in the library. Mostly I read books of +travel, and especially did I relish the literature of Vagabondia. I had +come under the spell of Stevenson. His name spelled Romance to me, and +my fancy etched him in his lonely exile. Forthright I determined I too +would seek these ultimate islands, and from that moment I was a changed +being. I nursed the thought with joyous enthusiasm. I would be a +frontiersman, a trail-breaker, a treasure-seeker. The virgin prairies +called to me; the susurrus of the giant pines echoed in my heart; but +most of all, I felt the spell of those gentle islands where care is a +stranger, and all is sunshine, song and the glowing bloom of eternal +summer. + +About this time Mother must have worried a good deal over my future. +Garry was now the young Laird, and I was but an idler, a burden on the +estate. At last I told her I wanted to go abroad, and then it seemed as +if a great difficulty was solved. We remembered of a cousin who was +sheep-ranching in the Saskatchewan valley and had done well. It was +arranged that I should join him as a pupil, then, when I had learned +enough, buy a place of my own. It may be imagined that while I +apparently acquiesced in this arrangement, I had already determined that +as soon as I reached the new land I would take my destiny into my own +hands. + +I will never forget the damp journey to Glasgow and the misty landscape +viewed through the streaming window pane of a railway carriage. I was in +a wondrous state of elation. When we reached the great smoky city I was +lost in amazement not unmixed with fear. Never had I imagined such +crowds, such houses, such hurry. The three of us, Mother, Garry and I, +wandered and wondered for three days. Folks gazed at us curiously, +sometimes admiringly, for our cheeks were bright with Highland health, +and our eyes candid as the June skies. Garry in particular, tall, fair +and handsome, seemed to call forth glances of interest wherever he went. +Then as the hour of my departure drew near a shadow fell on us. + +I will not dwell on our leave-taking. If I broke down in unmanly grief, +it must be remembered I had never before been from home. I was but a +lad, and these two were all in all to me. Mother gave up trying to be +brave, and mingled her tears with mine. Garry alone contrived to make +some show of cheerfulness. Alas! all my elation had gone. In its place +was a sense of guilt, of desertion, of unconquerable gloom. I had an +inkling then of the tragedy of motherhood, the tender love that would +hold yet cannot, the world-call and the ruthless, estranging years, all +the memories of clinging love given only to be taken away. + +"Don't cry, sweetheart Mother," I said; "I'll be back again in three +years." + +"Mind you do, my boy, mind you do." + +She looked at me woefully sad, and I had a queer, heartrending prevision +I would never see her more. Garry was supporting her, and she seemed to +have suddenly grown very frail. He was pale and quiet, but I could see +he was vastly moved. + +"Athol," said he, "if ever you need me just send for me. I'll come, no +matter how long or how hard the way." + +I can see them to this day standing there in the drenching rain, Garry +fine and manly, Mother small and drooping. I can see her with her +delicate rose colour, her eyes like wood violets drowned in tears, her +tender, sensitive lips quivering with emotion. + +"Good-bye, laddie, good-bye." + +I forced myself away, and stumbled on board. When I looked back again +they were gone, but through the grey shadows there seemed to come back +to me a cry of heartache and irremediable loss. + +"Good-bye, good-bye." + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +It was on a day of early Autumn when I stood knee-deep in the heather of +Glengyle, and looked wistfully over the grey sea. 'Twas but a month +later when, homeless and friendless, I stood on the beach by the Cliff +House of San Francisco, and gazed over the fretful waters of another +ocean. Such is the romance of destiny. + +Consigned, so to speak, to my cousin the sheep-raiser of the +Saskatchewan, I found myself setting foot on the strange land with but +little heart for my new vocation. My mind, cramful of book notions, +craved for the larger life. I was valiantly mad for adventure; to fare +forth haphazardly; to come upon naked danger; to feel the bludgeonings +of mischance; to tramp, to starve, to sleep under the stars. It was the +callow boy-idea perpetuated in the man, and it was to lead me a sorry +dance. But I could not overbear it. Strong in me was the spirit of the +gypsy. The joy of youth and health was brawling in my veins. A few +thistledown years, said I, would not matter. And there was Stevenson and +his glamorous islands winning me on. + +So it came about I stood solitary on the beach by the seal rocks, with a +thousand memories confusing in my head. There was the long train ride +with its strange pictures: the crude farms, the glooming forests, the +gleaming lakes that would drown my whole country, the aching plains, +the mountains that rip-sawed the sky, the fear-made-eternal of the +desert. Lastly, a sudden, sunlit paradise, California. + +I had lived through a week of wizardry such as I had never dreamed of, +and here was I at the very throne of Western empire. And what a place it +was, and what a people--with the imperious mood of the West softened by +the spell of the Orient and mellowed by the glamour of Old Spain. San +Francisco! A score of tongues clamoured in her streets and in her +byways a score of races lurked austerely. She suckled at her breast the +children of the old grey nations and gave them of her spirit, that swift +purposeful spirit so proud of past achievement and so convinced of +glorious destiny. + +I marvelled at the rush of affairs and the zest of amusement. Every one +seemed to be making money easily and spending it eagerly. Every one was +happy, sanguine, strenuous. At night Market Street was a dazzling alley +of light, where stalwart men and handsome women jostled in and out of +the glittering restaurants. Yet amid this eager, passionate life I felt +a dreary sense of outsideness. At times my heart fairly ached with +loneliness, and I wandered the pathways of the park, or sat forlornly in +Portsmouth Square as remote from it all as a gazer on his mountain top +beneath the stars. + +I became a dreamer of the water front, for the notion of the South Seas +was ever in my head. I loafed in the sunshine, sitting on the pier-edge, +with eyes fixed on the lazy shipping. These were care-free, +irresponsible days, and not, I am now convinced, entirely misspent. I +came to know the worthies of the wharfside, and plunged into an +under-world of fascinating repellency. Crimpdom eyed and tempted me, but +it was always with whales or seals, and never with pearls or copra. I +rubbed shoulders with eager necessity, scrambled for free lunches in +frowsy bar-rooms, and amid the scum and debris of the waterside found +much food for sober thought. Yet at times I blamed myself for thus +misusing my days, and memories of Glengyle and Mother and Garry loomed +up with reproachful vividness. + +I was, too, a seeker of curious experience, and this was to prove my +undoing. The night-side of the city was unveiled to me. With the +assurance of innocence I wandered everywhere. I penetrated the warrens +of underground Chinatown, wondering why white women lived there, and why +they hid at sight of me. Alone I poked my way into the opium joints and +the gambling dens. Vice, amazingly unabashed, flaunted itself in my +face. I wondered what my grim, Covenanting ancestors would have made of +it all. I never thought to have seen the like, and in my inexperience it +was like a shock to me. + +My nocturnal explorations came to a sudden end. One foggy midnight, +coming up Pacific Street with its glut of saloons, I was clouted +shrewdly from behind and dropped most neatly in the gutter. When I came +to, very sick and dizzy in a side alley, I found I had been robbed of my +pocketbook with nearly all my money therein. Fortunately I had left my +watch in the hotel safe, and by selling it was not entirely destitute; +but the situation forced me from my citadel of pleasant dreams, and +confronted me with the grimmer realities of life. + +I became a habitue of the ten-cent restaurant. I was amazed to find how +excellent a meal I could have for ten cents. Oh for the uncaptious +appetite of these haphazard days! With some thirty-odd dollars standing +between me and starvation, it was obvious I must become a hewer of wood +and a drawer of water, and to this end I haunted the employment offices. +They were bare, sordid rooms, crowded by men who chewed, swapped +stories, yawned and studied the blackboards where the day's wants were +set forth. Only driven to labour by dire necessity, their lives, I +found, held three phases--looking for work, working, spending the +proceeds. They were the Great Unskilled, face to face with the necessary +evil of toil. + +One morning, on seeking my favourite labour bureau, I found an unusual +flutter among the bench-warmers. A big contractor wanted fifty men +immediately. No experience was required, and the wages were to be two +dollars a day. With a number of others I pressed forward, was +interviewed and accepted. The same day we were marched in a body to the +railway depot and herded into a fourth-class car. + +Where we were going I knew not; of what we were going to do I had no +inkling. I only knew we were southbound, and at long last I might fairly +consider myself to be the shuttlecock of fortune. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +I left San Francisco blanketed in grey fog and besomed by a roaring +wind; when I opened my eyes I was in a land of spacious sky and broad, +clean sunshine. Orange groves rushed to welcome us; orchards of almond +and olive twinkled joyfully in the limpid air; tall, gaunt and ragged, +the scaly eucalyptus fluttered at us a morning greeting, while snowy +houses, wallowing in greenery, flashed a smile as we rumbled past. It +seemed like a land of promise, of song and sunshine, and silent and +apart I sat to admire and to enjoy. + +"Looks pretty swell, don't it?" + +I will call him the Prodigal. He was about my own age, thin, but +sun-browned and healthy. His hair was darkly red and silky, his teeth +white and even as young corn. His eyes twinkled with a humorsome light, +but his face was shrewd, alert and aggressive. + +"Yes," I said soberly, for I have always been backward with strangers. + +"Pretty good line. The banana belt. Old Sol working overtime. Blossom +and fruit cavorting on the same tree. Eternal summer. Land of the +_manana_, the festive frijole, the never-chilly chili. Ever been here +before?" + +"No." + +"Neither have I. Glad I came, even if it's to do the horny-handed son +of toil stunt. Got the makings?" + +"No, I'm sorry; I don't smoke." + +"All right, guess I got enough." + +He pulled forth a limp sack of powdery tobacco, and spilled some grains +into a brown cigarette paper, twisting it deftly and bending over the +ends. Then he smoked with such enjoyment that I envied him. + +"Where are we going, have you any idea?" I asked. + +"Search me," he said, inhaling deeply; "the guy in charge isn't exactly +a free information bureau. When it comes to peddling the bull con he's +there, but when you try to pry off a few slabs of cold hard fact it's +his Sunday off." + +"But," I persisted, "have you no idea?" + +"Well, one thing you can bank on, they'll work the Judas out of us. The +gentle grafter nestles in our midst. This here's a cinch game and we are +the fall guys. The contractors are a bum outfit. They'll squeeze us at +every turn. There was two plunks to the employment man; they got half. +Twenty for railway fare; they come in on that. Stop at certain hotels: a +rake-off there. Stage fare: more graft. Five dollars a week for board: +costs them two-fifty, and they will be stomach robbers at that. Then +they'll ring in twice as many men as they need, and lay us off half the +time, so that we just about even up on our board bill. Oh, I'm onto +their curves all right." + +"Then," I said, "if you know so much why did you come with us?" + +"Well, if I know so much you just bet I know some more. I'll go one +better. You watch my smoke." + +He talked on with a wonderful vivid manner and an outpouring knowledge +of life, so that I was hugely interested. Yet ever and anon an allusion +of taste would betray him, and at no time did I fail to see that his +roughness was only a veneer. As it turned out he was better educated by +far than I, a Yale boy taking a post-graduate course in the University +of Hard Luck. + +My reserve once thawed, I told him much of my simple life. He listened, +intently sympathetic. + +"Say," said he earnestly when I had finished, "I'm rough-and-ready in my +ways. Life to me's a game, sort of masquerade, and I'm the worst +masquerader in the bunch. But I know how to handle myself, and I can +jolly my way along pretty well. Now, you're green, if you'll excuse me +saying it, and maybe I can help you some. Likewise you're the only one +in all the gang of hoboes that's my kind. Come on, let's be partners." + +I felt greatly drawn to him and agreed gladly. + +"Now," said he, "I must go and jolly along the other boys. Aren't they a +fierce bunch? Coloured gentlemen, Slavonians, Polaks, Dagoes, +Swedes--well, I'll go prospecting, and see what I can strike." + +He went among them with a jabber of strange terms, a bright smile and +ready banter, and I could see that he was to be a quick favourite. I +envied him for his ease of manner, a thing I could never compass. +Presently he returned to me. + +"Say, partner, got any money?" + +There was something frank and compelling in his manner, so that I +produced the few dollars I had left, and spread them before him. + +"That's all my wealth," I said smilingly. + +He divided it into two equal portions and returned one to me. He took a +note of the other, saying: + +"All right, I'll settle up with you later on." + +He went off with my money. He seemed to take it for granted I would not +object, and on my part I cared little, being only too eager to show I +trusted him. A few minutes later behold him seated at a card-table with +three rough-necked, hard-bitten-looking men. They were playing poker, +and, thinks I: "Here's good-bye to my money." It minded me of wolves and +a lamb. I felt sorry for my new friend, and I was only glad he had so +little to lose. + +We were drawing in to Los Angeles when he rejoined me. To my surprise he +emptied his pockets of wrinkled notes and winking silver to the tune of +twenty dollars, and dividing it equally, handed half to me. + +"Here," says he, "plant that in your dip." + +"No," I said, "just give me back what you borrowed; that's all I want." + +"Oh, forget it! You staked me, and it's well won. These guinneys took me +for a jay. Thought I was easy, but I've forgotten more than they ever +knew, and I haven't forgotten so much either." + +"No, you keep it, please. I don't want it." + +"Oh, come! put your Scotch scruples in your pocket. Take the money." + +"No," I said obstinately. + +"Look here, this partnership of ours is based on financial equality. If +you don't like my gate, you don't need to swing on it." + +"All right," said I tartly, "I don't want to." + +Then I turned on my heel. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +On either side of us were swift hills mottled with green and gold, ahead +a curdle of snow-capped mountains, above a sky of robin's-egg blue. The +morning was lyric and set our hearts piping as we climbed the canyon. We +breathed deeply of the heady air, exclaimed at sight of a big bee ranch, +shouted as a mule team with jingling bells came swinging down the trail. +With cries of delight we forded the little crystal stream wherever the +trail plunged knee-deep through it. Higher and higher we climbed, mile +after mile, our packs on our shoulders, our hearts very merry. I was as +happy as a holiday schoolboy, willing this should go on for ever, +dreading to think of the grim-visaged toil that awaited us. + +About midday we reached the end. Gangs of men were everywhere, ripping +and tearing at the mountain side. There was a roar of blasting, and +rocks hurtled down on us. Bunkhouses of raw lumber sweated in the sun. +Everywhere was the feverish activity of a construction camp. + +We were assigned to a particular bunkhouse, and there was a great rush +for places. It was floorless, doorless and in part roofless. Above the +medley of voices I heard that of the Prodigal: + +"Say, fellows, let's find the softest side of this board! Strikes me the +Company's mighty considerate. All kinds of ventilation. Good chance to +study astronomy. Wonder if I couldn't borrow a mattress somewhere? Ha! +Good eye! Watch me, fellows!" + +We saw him make for a tent nearby where horses were stabled. He +reconnoitred carefully, then darted inside to come out in a twinkling, +staggering under a bale of hay. + +"How's that for rustling? I guess I'm slow--hey, what? Guess this is +poor!" + +He was wadding his bunk with the hay, while the others looked on rather +enviously. Then, as a bell rang, he left off. + +"Hash is ready, boys; last call to the dining-car. Come on and see the +pigs get their heads in the trough." + +We hurried to the cookhouse, where a tin plate, a tin cup, a tin spoon +and a cast-iron knife was laid for each of us at a table of unplaned +boards. A great mess of hash was ready, and excepting myself every one +ate voraciously. I found something more to my taste, a can of honey and +some soda crackers, on which I supped gratefully. + +When I returned to the bunkhouse I found my bunk had been stuffed with +nice soft hay, and my blankets spread on top. I looked over to the +Prodigal. He was reading, a limp cigarette between his yellow-stained +fingers. I went up to him. + +"It's very good of you to do this," I said. + +"Oh no! Not at all. Don't mention it," he answered with much +politeness, never raising his eyes from the book. + +"Well," I said, "I've just got to thank you. And look here, let's make +it up. Don't let the business of that wretched money come between us. +Can't we be friends anyway?" + +He sprang up and gripped my hand. + +"Sure! nothing I want more. I'm sorry. Another time I'll make allowance +for that shorter-catechism conscience of yours. Now let's go over to +that big fire they've made and chew the rag." + +So we sat by the crackling blaze of mesquite, sagebrush and live-oak +limbs, while over us twinkled the friendly stars, and he told me many a +strange story of his roving life. + +"You know, the old man's all broke up at me playing the fool like this. +He's got a glue factory back in Massachusetts. Guess he stacks up about +a million or so. Wanted me to go into the glue factory, begin at the +bottom, stay with it. 'Stick to glue, my boy,' he says; 'become the Glue +King,' and so on. But not with little Willie. Life's too interesting a +proposition to be turned down like that. I'm not repentant. I know the +fatted calf's waiting for me, getting fatter every day. One of these +days I'll go back and sample it." + +It was he I first heard talk of the Great White Land, and it stirred me +strangely. + +"Every one's crazy about it. They're rushing now in thousands, to get +there before the winter begins. Next spring there will be the biggest +stampede the world has ever seen. Say, Scotty, I've the greatest notion +to try it. Let's go, you and I. I had a partner once, who'd been up +there. It's a big, dark, grim land, but there's the gold, shining, +shining, and it's calling us to go. Somehow it haunts me, that soft, +gleamy, virgin gold there in the solitary rivers with not a soul to pick +it up. I don't care one rip for the value of it. I can make all I want +out of glue. But the adventure, the excitement, it's that that makes me +fit for the foolish house." + +He was silent a long time while my imagination conjured up terrible, +fascinating pictures of the vast, unawakened land, and a longing came +over me to dare its shadows. + +As we said good-night, his last words were: + +"Remember, Scotty, we're both going to join the Big Stampede, you and +I." + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +I slept but fitfully, for the night air was nipping, and the bunkhouse +nigh as open as a cage. A bonny morning it was, and the sun warmed me +nicely, so that over breakfast I was in a cheerful humour. Afterwards I +watched the gang labouring, and showed such an injudicious interest that +that afternoon I too was put to work. + +It was very simple. Running into the mountain there was a tunnel, which +they were lining with concrete, and it was the task of I and another to +push cars of the stuff from the outlet to the scene of operations. My +partner was a Swede who had toiled from boyhood, while I had never done +a day's work in my life. It was as much as I could do to lift the loaded +boxes into the car. Then we left the sunshine behind us, and for a +quarter of a mile of darkness we strained in an uphill effort. + +From the roof, which we stooped to avoid, sheets of water descended. +Every now and then the heavy cars would run off the rails, which were of +scantling, worn and frayed by friction. Then my Swede would storm in +Berserker rage, and we would lift till the veins throbbed in my head. +Never had time seemed so long. A convict working in the salt mines of +Siberia did not revolt more against his task than I. The sweat blinded +me; a bright steel pain throbbed in my head; my heart seemed to hammer. +Never so thankful was I as when we had made our last trip, and sick and +dizzy I put on my coat to go home. + +It was dark. There was a cable line running from the tunnel to the camp, +and down this we shot in buckets two at a clip. The descent gave me a +creepy sensation, but it saved a ten minutes' climb down the mountain +side, and I was grateful. + +Tired, wet and dirty, how I envied the Prodigal lying warm and cosy on +his fragrant hay. He was reading a novel. But the thought that I had +earned a dollar comforted me. After supper he, with Ginger and Dutchy, +played solo till near midnight, while I tossed on my bunk too weary and +sore to sleep. + +Next day was a repetition of the first, only worse. I ached as if I had +been beaten. Stiff and sore I dragged myself to the tunnel again. I +lifted, strained, tugged and shoved with a set and tragic face. Five +hours of hell passed. It was noon. I nursed my strength for the after +effort. Angrily I talked to myself, and once more I pulled through. +Weary and slimy with wet mud, I shot down the cable line. Snugly settled +in his bunk, the Prodigal had read another two hundred pages of "Les +Miserables." Yet--I reflected somewhat sadly--I had made two dollars. + +On the third day sheer obstinacy forced me to the tunnel. My +self-respect goaded me on. I would not give in. I must hold this job +down, I _must_, I MUST. Then at the noon hour I fainted. + +No one saw me, so I gritted my teeth and once more threw my weight +against the cars. Once more night found me waiting to descend in the +bucket. Then as I stood there was a crash and shouts from below. The +cable had snapped. My Swede and another lay among the rocks with sorely +broken bones. Poor beggars! how they must have suffered jolting down +that boulder-strewn trail to the hospital. + +Somehow that destroyed my nerve. I blamed myself indeed. I flogged +myself with reproaches, but it was of no avail. I would sooner beg my +bread than face that tunnel once again. The world seemed to be divided +into two parts, the rest of it and that tunnel. Thank God, I didn't +_have_ to go into it again. I was exultantly happy that I didn't. The +Prodigal had finished his book, and was starting another. That night he +borrowed some of my money to play solo with. + +Next day I saw the foreman. I said: + +"I want to go. The work up there's too hard for me." + +He looked at me kindly. + +"All right, sonny," says he, "don't quit. I'll put you in the gravel +pit." + +So next day I found a more congenial task. There were four of us. We +threw the gravel against a screen where the finer stuff that sifted +through was used in making concrete. + +The work was heart-breaking in its monotony. In the biting cold of the +morning we made a start, long before the sun peeped above the wall of +mountain. + +We watched it crawl, snail-like, over the virgin sky. We panted in its +heat. We saw it drop again behind the mountain wall, leaving the sky +gorgeously barred with colour from a tawny orange glow to an ice-pale +green--a regular _pousse cafe_ of a sunset. Then when the cold and the +dark surged back, by the light of the evening star we straightened our +weary spines, and throwing aside pick and shovel hurried to supper. + +Heigh-ho! what a life it was. Resting, eating, sleeping; negative +pleasures became positive ones. Life's great principle of compensation +worked on our behalf, and to lie at ease, reading an old paper, seemed +an exquisite enjoyment. + +I was much troubled about the Prodigal. He complained of muscular +rheumatism, and except to crawl to meals was unable to leave his bunk. +Every day came the foreman to inquire anxiously if he was fit to go to +work, but steadily he grew worse. Yet he bore his suffering with great +spirit, and, among that nondescript crew, he was a thing of joy and +brightness, a link with that other world which was mine own. They +nicknamed him "Happy," his cheerfulness was so invincible. He played +cards on every chance, and he must have been unlucky, for he borrowed +the last of my small hoard. + +One morning I woke about six, and found, pinned to my blanket, a note +from my friend. + + "Dear Scotty: + + "I grieve to leave you thus, but the cruel foreman insists on me + working off my ten days' board. Racked with pain as I am, there + appears to be no alternative but flight. Accordingly I fade away + once more into the unknown. Will write you general delivery, Los + Angeles. Good luck and good-bye. Yours to a cinder, + + "Happy." + +There was a hue and cry after him, but he was gone, and a sudden disgust +for the place came over me. For two more days I worked, crushed by a +gloom that momently intensified. Clamant and imperative in me was the +voice of change. I could not become toil-broken, so I saw the foreman. + +"Why do you want to go?" he asked reproachfully. + +"Well, sir, the work's too monotonous." + +"Monotonous! Well, that's the rummest reason I ever heard a man give for +quitting. But every man knows his own business best. I'll give you a +time-cheque." + +While he was making it out I wondered if, indeed, I did know my own +business best; but if it had been the greatest folly in the world, I was +bound to get out of that canyon. + +Treasuring the slip of paper representing my labour, I sought one of the +bosses, a sour, stiff man of dyspeptic tendencies. With a smile of +malicious sweetness he returned it to me. + +"All right, take it to our Oakland office, and you'll get the cash." + +Expectantly I had been standing there, thinking to receive my money, the +first I had ever earned (and to me so distressfully earned, at that). +Now I gazed at him very sick at heart: for was not Oakland several +hundred miles away, and I was penniless. + +"Couldn't you cash it here?" I faltered at last. + +"No!" (very sourly). + +"Couldn't you discount it, then?" + +"No!" (still more tartly). + +I turned away, crestfallen and smarting. When I told the other boys they +were indignant, and a good deal alarmed on their own account. I made my +case against the Company as damning as I could, then, slinging my +blankets on my back, set off once more down the canyon. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +I was gaining in experience, and as I hurried down the canyon and the +morning burgeoned like a rose, my spirits mounted invincibly. It was the +joy of the open road and the care-free heart. Like some hideous +nightmare was the memory of the tunnel and the gravel pit. The bright +blood in me rejoiced; my muscles tensed with pride in their toughness; I +gazed insolently at the world. + +So, as I made speed to get the sooner to the orange groves, I almost set +heel on a large blue envelope which lay face up on the trail. I examined +it and, finding it contained plans and specifications of the work we had +been at, I put it in my pocket. + +Presently came a rider, who reined up by me. + +"Say, young man, you haven't seen a blue envelope, have you?" + +Something in the man's manner aroused in me instant resentment. I was +the toiler in mud-stiffened overalls, he arrogant and supercilious in +broadcloth and linen. + +"No," I said sourly, and, going on my way, heard him clattering up the +canyon. + +It was about evening when I came onto a fine large plain. Behind me was +the canyon, gloomy like the lair of some evil beast, while before me the +sun was setting, and made the valley like a sea of golden glaze. I +stood, knight-errant-wise, on the verge of one of those enchanted lands +of precious memory, seeking the princess of my dreams; but all I saw was +a man coming up the trail. He was reeling homeward, with under one arm a +live turkey, and swinging from the other a demijohn of claret. + +He would have me drink. He represented the Christmas spirit, and his +accent was Scotch, so I up-tilted his demijohn gladly enough. Then, for +he was very merry, he would have it that we sing "Auld Lang Syne." So +there, on the heath, in the golden dance of the light, we linked our +hands and lifted our voices like two daft folk. Yet, for that it was +Christmas Eve, it seemed not to be so mad after all. + +There was my first orange grove. I ran to it eagerly, and pulled four of +the largest fruit I could see. They were green-like of rind and bitter +sour, but I heeded not, eating the last before I was satisfied. Then I +went on my way. + +As I entered the town my spirits fell. I remembered I was quite without +money and had not yet learned to be gracefully penniless. However, I +bethought me of the time-cheque, and entering a saloon asked the +proprietor if he would cash it. He was a German of jovial face that +seemed to say: "Welcome, my friend," and cold, beady eyes that queried: +"How much can I get of your wad?" It was his eyes I noticed. + +"No, I don'd touch dot. I haf before been schvindled. Himmel, no! You +take him avay." + +I sank into a chair. Catching a glimpse of my face in a bar mirror, I +wondered if that hollow-cheeked, weary-looking lad was I. The place was +crowded with revellers of the Christmastide, and geese were being diced +for. There were three that pattered over the floor, while in the corner +the stage-driver and a red-haired man were playing freeze-out for one of +them. + +I drowsed quietly. Wafts of bar-front conversation came to me. "Envelope +... lost plans ... great delay." Suddenly I sat up, remembering the +package I had found. + +"Were you looking for some lost plans?" I asked. + +"Yes," said one man eagerly, "did you find them?" + +"I didn't say I did, but if I could get them for you, would you cash +this time-cheque for me?" + +"Sure," he says, "one good turn deserves another. Deliver the goods and +I'll cash your time-cheque." + +His face was frank and jovial. I drew out the envelope and handed it +over. He hurriedly ran through the contents and saw that all were there. + +"Ha! That saves a trip to 'Frisco," he said, gay with relief. + +He turned to the bar and ordered a round of drinks. They all had a drink +on him, while he seemed to forget about me. I waited a little, then +pressed forward with my time-cheque. + +"Oh that," said he, "I won't cash that. I was only joshing." + +A feeling of bitter anger welled up within me. I trembled like a leaf. + +"You won't go back on your word?" I said. + +He became flustered. + +"Well, I can't do it anyway. I've got no loose cash." + +What I would have said or done I know not, for I was nigh desperate; but +at this moment the stage-driver, flushed with his victory at freeze-out, +snatched the paper from my hand. + +"Here, I'll discount that for you. I'll only give you five dollars for +it, though." + +It called for fourteen, but by this time I was so discouraged I gladly +accepted the five-dollar goldpiece he held out to tempt me. + +Thus were my fortunes restored. It was near midnight and I asked the +German for a room. He replied that he was full up, but as I had my +blankets there was a nice dry shed at the back. Alas! it was also used +by his chickens. They roosted just over my head, and I lay on the filthy +floor at the mercy of innumerable fleas. To complete my misery the green +oranges I had eaten gave me agonizing cramps. Glad, indeed, was I when +day dawned, and once more I got afoot, with my face turned towards Los +Angeles. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +Los Angeles will always be written in golden letters in the archives of +my memory. Crawling, sore and sullen, from the clutch of toil, I +revelled in a lotus life of ease and idleness. There was infinite +sunshine, and the quiet of a public library through whose open windows +came the fragrance of magnolias. Living was incredibly cheap. For +seventy-five cents a week I had a little sunlit attic, and for ten cents +I could dine abundantly. There was soup, fish, meat, vegetables, salad, +pudding and a bottle of wine. So reading, dreaming and roaming the +streets, I spent my days in a state of beatitude. + +But even five dollars will not last for ever, and the time came when +once more the grim face of toil confronted me. I must own that I had now +little stomach for hard labour, yet I made several efforts to obtain it. +However, I had a bad manner, being both proud and shy, and one rebuff in +a day always was enough. I lacked that self-confidence that readily +finds employment, and again I found myself mixing with the spineless +residuum of the employment bureau. + +At last the morning came when twenty-five cents was all that remained to +me in the world. I had just been seeking a position as a dish-washer, +and had been rather sourly rejected. Sitting solitary on the bench in +that dreary place, I soliloquized: + +"And so it has come to this, that I, Athol Meldrum, of gentle birth and +Highland breeding, must sue in vain to understudy a scullion in a +third-rate hash joint. I am, indeed, fallen. What mad folly is this that +sets me lower than a menial? Here I might be snug in the Northwest +raising my own fat sheep. A letter home would bring me instant help. Yet +what would it mean? To own defeat; to lose my self-esteem; to call +myself a failure. No, I won't. Come what may, I will play the game." + +At that moment the clerk wrote:-- + + "Man Wanted to Carry Banner." + +"How much do you want for that job?" I asked. + +"Oh, two bits will hold you," he said carelessly. + +"Any experience required?" I asked again. + +"No, I guess even you'll do for that," he answered cuttingly. + +So I parted with my last quarter and was sent to a Sheeny store in +Broadway. Here I was given a vociferous banner announcing: + +"Great retiring sale," and so forth. + +With this hoisted I sallied forth, at first very conscious and not a +little ashamed. Yet by and by this feeling wore off, and I wandered up +and down with no sense of my employment, which, after all, was one +adapted to philosophic thought. I might have gone through the day in +this blissful coma of indifference had not a casual glance at my banner +thrilled me with horror. There it was in hideous, naked letters of red: + + "Retireing Sale." + +I reeled under the shock. I did not mind packing a banner, but a +misspelt one.... + +I hurried back to the store, resolved to throw up my position. Luckily +the day was well advanced, and as I had served my purpose I was given a +silver dollar. + +On this dollar I lived for a month. Not every one has done that, yet it +is easy to do. This is how I managed. + +In the first place I told the old lady who rented me my room that I +could not pay her until I got work, and I gave her my blankets as +security. There remained only the problem of food. This I solved by +buying every day or so five cents' worth of stale bread, which I ate in +my room, washing it down with pure spring water. A little imagination +and lo! my bread was beef, my water wine. Thus breakfast and dinner. For +supper there was the Pacific Gospel Hall, where we gathered nightly one +hundred strong, bawled hymns, listened to sundry good people and +presently were given mugs of coffee and chunks of bread. How good the +fragrant coffee tasted and how sweet the fresh bread! + +At the end of the third week I got work as an orange-picker. It was a +matter of swinging long ladders into fruit-flaunting trees, of sunshiny +days and fluttering leaves, of golden branches plundered, and boxes +filled from sagging sacks. There is no more ideal occupation. I revelled +in it. The others were Mexicans; I was "El Gringo." But on an average I +only made fifty cents a day. On one day, when the fruit was unusually +large, I made seventy cents. + +Possibly I would have gone on, contentedly enough, perched on a ladder, +high up in the sunlit sway of treetops, had not the work come to an end. +I had been something of a financier on a picayune scale, and when I +counted my savings and found that I had four hundred and ninety-five +cents, such a feeling of affluence came over me that I resolved to +gratify my taste for travel. Accordingly I purchased a ticket for San +Diego, and once more found myself southward bound. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +A few days in San Diego reduced my small capital to the vanishing point, +yet it was with a light heart I turned north again and took the All-Tie +route for Los Angeles. If one of the alluring conditions of a walking +tour is not to be overburdened with cash surely I fulfilled it, for I +was absolutely penniless. The Lord looks after his children, said I, and +when I became too inexorably hungry I asked for bread, emphasising my +willingness to do a stunt on the woodpile. Perhaps it was because I was +young and notably a novice in vagrancy, but people were very good to me. + +The railway track skirts the ocean side for many a sonorous league. The +mile-long waves roll in majestically, as straight as if drawn with a +ruler, and crash in thunder on the sandy beach. There were glorious +sunsets and weird storms, with underhanded lightning stabs at the sky. I +built little huts of discarded railway ties, and lit camp-fires, for I +was fearful of the crawling things I saw by day. The coyote called from +the hills. Uneasy rustlings came from the sagebrush. My teeth, +a-chatter with cold, kept me awake, till I cinched a handkerchief around +my chin. Yet, drenched with night-dews, half-starved and travel-worn, I +seemed to grow every day stronger and more fit. Between bondage and +vagabondage I did not hesitate to choose. + +Leaving the sea, I came to a country of grass and she-oaks very pretty +to see, like an English park. I passed horrible tule swamps, and reached +a cattle land with corrals and solitary cowboys. There was a quaint old +Spanish Mission that lingers in my memory, then once again I came into +the land of the orange-groves and the irrigating ditch. Here I fell in +with two of the hobo fraternity, and we walked many miles together. One +night we slept in a refrigerator car, where I felt as if icicles were +forming on my spine. But walking was not much in their line, so next +morning they jumped a train and we separated. I was very thankful, as +they did not look over-clean, and I had a wholesome horror of +"seam-squirrels." + +On arriving in Los Angeles I went to the Post Office. There was a letter +from the Prodigal dated New York, and inclosing fourteen dollars, the +amount he owed me. He said: + + "I returned to the paternal roof, weary of my role. The fatted calf + awaited me. Nevertheless, I am sick again for the unhallowed + swine-husks. Meet me in 'Frisco about the end of February, and I + will a glorious proposition unfold. Don't fail. I must have a + partner and I want you. Look for a letter in the General Delivery." + +There was no time to lose, as February was nearly over. I took a +steerage passage to San Francisco, resolving that I would mend my +fortunes. It is so easy to drift. I was already in the social slough, a +hobo and an outcast. I saw that as long as I remained friendless and +unknown nothing but degraded toil was open to me. Surely I could climb +up, but was it worth while? A snug farm in the Northwest awaited me. I +would work my way back there, and arrive decently clad. Then none would +know of my humiliation. I had been wayward and foolish, but I had +learned something. + +The men who toiled, endured and suffered were kind and helpful, their +masters mean and rapacious. Everywhere was the same sordid grasping for +the dollar. With my ideals and training nothing but discouragement and +defeat would be my portion. Oh, it is so easy to drift! + +I was sick of the whole business. + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +What with steamer fare and a few small debts to settle, I found when I +landed in San Francisco that once more I was flatly broke. I was +arrestively seedy, literally on my uppers, for owing to my long tramp my +boots were barely holding together. There was no letter for me, and +perhaps it was on account of my disappointment, perhaps on account of my +extreme shabbiness, but I found I had quite lost heart. Looking as I +did, I would not ask any one for work. So I tightened my belt and sat in +Portsmouth Square, cursing myself for the many nickels I had squandered +in riotous living. + +Two days later I was still drawing in my belt. All I had eaten was one +meal, which I had earned by peeling half a sack of potatoes for a +restaurant. I slept beneath the floor of an empty house out the Presidio +way. + +On this day I was drowsing on my bench when some one addressed me. + +"Say, young fellow, you look pretty well used up." + +I saw an elderly, grey-haired man. + +"Oh no!" I said, "I'm not. That's just my acting. I'm a millionaire in +disguise, studying sociology." + +He came and sat by me. + +"Come, buck up, kid, you're pretty near down and out. I've been +studyin' you them two days." + +"Two days," I echoed drearily. "It seems like two years." Then, with +sudden fierceness: + +"Sir, I am a stranger to you. Never in my life before have I tried to +borrow money. It is asking a great deal of you to trust me, but it will +be a most Christian act. I am starving. If you have ten cents that isn't +working lend it to me for the love of God. I'll pay you back if it takes +me ten years." + +"All right, son," he said cheerfully; "let's go and feed." + +He took me to a restaurant where he ordered a dinner that made my head +swim. I felt near to fainting, but after I had had some brandy, I was +able to go on with the business of eating. By the time I got to the +coffee I was as much excited by the food as if I had been drinking wine. +I now took an opportunity to regard my benefactor. + +He was rather under medium height, but so square and solid you felt he +was a man to be reckoned with. His skin was as brown as an Indian's, his +eyes light-blue and brightly cheerful, as from some inner light. His +mouth was firm and his chin resolute. Altogether his face was a curious +blend of benevolence and ruthless determination. + +Now he was regarding me in a manner entirely benevolent. + +"Feel better, son? Well, go ahead an' tell me as much of your story as +you want to." + +I gave an account of all that had happened to me since I had set foot +on the new land. + +"Huh!" he ejaculated when I had finished. "That's the worst of your +old-country boys. You haven't got the get-up an' nerve to rustle a job. +You go to a boss an' tell him: 'You've no experience, but you'll do your +best.' An American boy says: 'I can do anything. Give me the job an' +I'll just show you.' Who's goin' to be hired? Well, I think I can get +you a job helpin' a gardener out Alameda way." + +I expressed my gratitude. + +"That's all right," he said; "I'm glad by the grace of God I've been the +means of givin' you a hand-up. Better come to my room an' stop with me +till somethin' turns up. I'm goin' North in three days." + +I asked if he was going to the Yukon. + +"Yes, I'm goin' to join this crazy rush to the Klondike. I've been +minin' for twenty years, Arizona, Colorado, all over, an' now I am +a-goin' to see if the North hasn't got a stake for me." + +Up in his room he told me of his life. + +"I'm saved by the grace of God, but I've been a Bad Man. I've been +everything from a city marshal to boss gambler. I have gone heeled for +two years, thinking to get my pass to Hell at any moment." + +"Ever killed any one?" I queried. + +He was beginning to pace up and down the room. + +"Glory to God, I haven't, but I've shot.... There was a time when I +could draw a gun an' drive a nail in the wall. I was quick, but there +was lots that could give me cards and spades. Quiet men, too, you would +never think it of 'em. The quiet ones was the worst. Meek, friendly, +decent men, to see them drinkin' at a bar, but they didn't know Fear, +an' every one of 'em had a dozen notches on his gun. I know lots of +them, chummed with them, an' princes they were, the finest in the land, +would give the shirts off their backs for a friend. You'd like them--but +Lord be praised, I'm a saved man." + +I was deeply interested. + +"I know I'm talking as I shouldn't. It's all over now, an' I've seen the +evil of my ways, but I've got to talk once in a while. I'm Jim Hubbard, +known as 'Salvation Jim,' an' I know minin' from Genesis to Revelation. +Once I used to gamble an' drink the limit. One morning I got up from the +card-table after sitting there thirty-six hours. I'd lost five thousand +dollars. I knew they'd handed me out 'cold turkey,' but I took my +medicine. + +"Right then I said I'd be a crook too. I learned to play with marked +cards. I could tell every card in the deck. I ran a stud-poker game, +with a Jap an' a Chinaman for partners. They were quicker than white +men, an' less likely to lose their nerve. It was easy money, like taking +candy from a kid. Often I would play on the square. No man can bluff +strong without showing it. Maybe it's just a quiver of the eyelash, +maybe a shuffle of the foot. I've studied a man for a month till I found +the sign that gave him away. Then I've raised an' raised him till the +sweat pricked through his brow. He was my meat. I went after the men +that robbed me, an' I went one better. Here, shuffle this deck." + +He produced a pack of cards from a drawer. + +"I'll never go back to the old trade. I'm saved. I trust in God, but +just for diversion I keep my hand in." + +Talking to me, he shuffled the pack a few times. + +"Here, I'm dealing; what do you want? Three kings?" + +I nodded. + +He dealt four hands. In mine there were three kings. + +Taking up another he showed me three aces. + +"I'm out of practice," he said apologetically. "My hands are calloused. +I used to keep them as soft as velvet." + +He showed me some false shuffles, dealing from under the deck, and other +tricks. + +"Yes, I got even with the ones that got my money. It was eat or be +eaten. I went after the suckers. There was never a man did me dirt but I +paid him with interest. Of course, it's different now. The Good Book +says: 'Do good unto them that harm you.' I guess I would, but I wouldn't +recommend no one to try and harm me. I might forget." + +The heavy, aggressive jaw shot forward; the eyes gleamed with a fearless +ferocity, and for a moment the man took on an air that was almost +tigerish. I could scarce believe my sight; yet the next instant it was +the same cheerful, benevolent face, and I thought my eyes must have +played me some trick. + +Perhaps it was that sedate Puritan strain in me that appealed to him, +but we became great friends. We talked of many things, and most of all I +loved to get him to tell of his early life. It was just like a story: +thrown on the world while yet a child; a shoeblack in New York, fighting +for his stand; a lumber-jack in the woods of Michigan; lastly a miner in +Arizona. He told me of long months on the desert with only his pipe for +company, talking to himself over the fire at night, and trying not to go +crazy. He told me of the girl he married and worshipped, and of the man +who broke up his home. Once more I saw that flitting tiger-look appear +on his face and vanish immediately. He told me of his wild days. + +"I was always a fighter, an' I never knew what fear meant. I never saw +the man that could beat me in a rough-an'-tumble scrap. I was uncommon +husky an' as quick as a cat, but it was my fierceness that won out for +me. Get a man down an' give him the leather. I've kicked a man's face to +a jelly. It was kick, bite an' gouge in them days--anything went. + +"Yes, I never knew fear. I've gone up unarmed to a man I knew was heeled +to shoot me on sight, an' I've dared him to do it. Just by the power of +the eye I've made him take water. He thought I had a gun an' could draw +quicker'n him. Then, as the drink got hold of me, I got worse and worse. +Time was when I would have robbed a bank an' shot the man that tried to +stop me. Glory to God! I've seen the evil of my ways." + +"Are you sure you'll never backslide?" I asked. + +"Never! I'm born again. I don't smoke, drink or gamble, an' I'm as happy +as the day's long. There was the drink. I would go on the water-wagon +for three months at a stretch, but day and night, wherever I went, the +glass of whisky was there right between my eyes. Sooner or later it got +the better of me. Then one night I went half-sober into a Gospel Hall. +The glass was there, an' I was in agony tryin' to resist it. The speaker +was callin' sinners to come forward. I thought I'd try the thing anyway, +so I went to the penitents' bench. When I got up the glass was gone. Of +course it came back, but I got rid of it again in the same way. Well, I +had many a struggle an' many a defeat, but in the end I won. It's a +divine miracle." + +I wish I could paint or act the man for you. Words cannot express his +curious character. I came to have a great fondness for him, and +certainly owed him a huge debt of gratitude. + +One day I was paying my usual visit to the Post Office, when some one +gripped me by the arm. + +"Hullo, Scotty! By all that's wonderful. I was just going to mail you a +letter." + +It was the Prodigal, very well dressed and spruce-looking. + +"Say, I'm so tickled I got you; we're going to start in two days." + +"Start! Where?" I asked. + +"Why, for the Golden North, for the land of the Midnight Sun, for the +treasure-troves of the Klondike Valley." + +"You maybe," I said soberly; "but I can't." + +"Yes you can, and you are, old sport. I fixed all that. Come on, I want +to talk to you. I went home and did the returned prodigal stunt. The old +man was mighty decent when I told him it was no good, I couldn't go into +the glue factory yet awhile. Told him I had the gold-bug awful bad and +nothing but a trip up there would cure me. He was rather tickled with +the idea. Staked me handsomely, and gave me a year to make good. So here +I am, and you're in with me. I'm going to grubstake you. Mind, it's a +business proposition. I've got to have some one, and when you make the +big strike you've got to divvy up." + +I said something about having secured employment as an under-gardener. + +"Pshaw! you'll soon be digging gold-nuggets instead of potatoes. Why, +man, it's the chance of a lifetime, and anybody else would jump at it. +Of course, if you're afraid of the hardships and so on----" + +"No," I said quickly, "I'll go." + +"Ha!" he laughed, "you're too much of a coward to be afraid. Well, we're +going to be blighted Argonauts, but we've got to get busy over our +outfits. We haven't got any too much time." + +So we hustled around. It seemed as if half of San Francisco was +Klondike-crazy. On every hand was there speculation and excitement. All +the merchants had their outfitting departments, and wild and vague were +their notions as to what was required. We did not do so badly, though +like every one else we bought much that was worthless and foolish. +Suddenly I bethought me of Salvation Jim, and I told the Prodigal of my +new friend. + +"He's an awfully good sort," I said; "white all through; all kinds of +experience, and he's going alone." + +"Why," said the Prodigal, "that's just the man we want. We'll ask him to +join us." + +I brought the two together, and it was arranged. So it came about that +we three left San Francisco on the fourth day of March to seek our +fortunes in the Frozen North. + + + + +BOOK II + +THE TRAIL + + +Gold! We leaped from our benches. Gold! We sprang from our stools. +Gold! We wheeled in the furrow, fired with the faith of fools. +Fearless, unfound, unfitted, far from the night and the cold, +Heard we the clarion summons, followed the master-lure--Gold! + + + + +CHAPTER I + + +"Say! you're looking mighty blue. Cheer up, darn you! What's the +matter?" said the Prodigal affectionately. + +And indeed there was matter enough, for had I not just received letters +from home, one from Garry and one from Mother? Garry's was gravely +censorious, almost remonstrant. Mother, he said, was poorly, and greatly +put out over my escapade. He pointed out that I was in a fair way of +being a rolling stone, and hoped that I would at once give up my mad +notion of the South Seas and soberly proceed to the Northwest. + +Mother's letter was reproachful, in parts almost distressful. She was +failing, she said, and she begged me to be a good son, give up my +wanderings and join my cousin at once. Also she enclosed post-office +orders for forty pounds. Her letter, written in a fine faltering hand +and so full of gentle affection, brought the tears to my eyes; so that +it was very bleakly I leaned against the ship's rail and watched the +bustle of departure. Poor Mother! Dear old Garry! With what tender +longing I thought of those two in far-away Glengyle, the Scotch mist +silvering the heather and the wind blowing caller from the sea. Oh, for +the clean, keen breath of it! Yet alas, every day was the memory +fading, and every day was I fitting more snugly into the new life. + +"I've just heard from the folks," I said, "and I feel like going back on +you." + +"Oh, beat it," he cried; "you can't renig now. You've got to see the +thing through. Mothers are all like that when you cut loose from their +apron-strings. Ma's scared stiff about me, thinks the devil's got an +option on my future sure. They get wised up pretty soon. What you want +to do is to get busy and make yourself acquainted. Here I've been +snooping round for the last two hours, and got a line on nearly every +one on board. Say! Of all the locoed outfits this here aggregation has +got everything else skinned to a hard-boiled finish. Most of them are +indoor men, ink-slingers and calico snippers; haven't done a day's hard +work in their lives, and don't know a pick from a mattock. They've got a +notion they've just got to get up there and pick big nuggets out of the +water like cherries out of a cocktail. It's the limit." + +"Tell me about them," I said. + +"Well, see that young fellow standing near us?" + +I looked. He was slim, with gentle, refined features and an unnaturally +fresh complexion. + +"That fellow was a pen-pusher in a mazuma emporium--I mean a bank clerk. +Pinklove's his name. He wanted to get hitched to some girl, but the +directors wouldn't stand for it. Now he's chucked his job and staked his +savings on this trip. There's his girl in the crowd." + +Bedded in that mosaic of human faces I saw one that was all sweetness, +yet shamelessly tear-stained. + +"Lucky beggar," I said, "to have some one who cares so much about his +going." + +"Unlucky, you mean, lad. You don't want to have any strings on you when +you play this game." + +He pointed to a long-haired young man in a flowing-end tie. + +"See that pale-faced, artistic-looking guy alongside him. That's his +partner. Ineffectual, moony sort of a mut. He's a wood-carver; they call +him Globstock; told me his knowledge of wood-carving would come in handy +when we came to make boats at Lake Bennett. Then there's a third. See +that little fellow shooting off his face?" + +I saw a weazened, narrow-chested mannikin, with an aggressive certainty +of feature. + +"He's a professor, plumb-full of book dope on the Yukon. He's Mister +Wise Mike. He knows it all. Hear his monologue on 'How It Should Be +Done.' He's going to live on deck to inure himself to the rigours of the +Arctic climate. Works with a pair of spring dumb-bells to get up his +muscle so's he can shovel out the nuggets." + +Our eyes roved round from group to group, picking out characteristic +figures. + +"See that big bleached-blond Englishman? Came over with me on the +Pullman from New York. 'Awfully bored, don't you know.' When we got to +'Frisco, he says to me: 'Thank God, old chappie, the worst part of the +journey's over.' Then there's Romulus and Remus, the twins, strapping +young fellows. Only way I know them apart is one laces his boots tight, +the other slack. They think the world of each other." + +He swung around to where Salvation Jim was talking to two men. + +"There's a pair of winners. I put my money on them. Nothing on earth can +stop those fellows, native-born Americans, all grit and get-up. See that +tall one smoking a cigar and looking at the women? He's an athlete. +Name's Mervin; all whipcord and whalebone; springy as a bent bow. He's a +type of the Swift. He's bound to get there. See the other. Hewson's his +name; solid as a tower; muscled like a bear; built from the ground up. +He represents the Strong. Look at the grim, determined face of him. You +can't down a man like that." + +He indicated another group. + +"Now there's three birds of prey. Bullhammer, Marks and Mosher. The big, +pig-eyed heavy-jowled one is Bullhammer. He's in the saloon business. +The middle-sized one in the plug hat is Marks. See his oily, yellow face +dotted with pimples. He's a phoney piece of work; calls himself a mining +broker. The third's Jake Mosher. He's an out-and-out gambler, a +sure-thing man, once was a parson." + +I looked again. Mosher had just taken off his hat. His high-domed head +was of monumental baldness, his eyes close-set and crafty, his nose +negligible. The rest of his face was mostly beard. It grew black as the +Pit to near the bulge of his stomach, and seemed to have drained his +scalp in its rank luxuriance. Across the deck came the rich, oily tones +of his voice. + +"A bad-looking bunch," I said. + +"Yes, there's heaps like them on board. There's a crowd of dance-hall +girls going up, and the usual following of parasites. Look at that +Halfbreed. There's a man for the country now, part Scotch, part Indian; +the quietest man on the boat; light, but tough as wire nails." + +I saw a lean, bright-eyed brown man with flat features, smoking a +cigarette. + +"Say! Just get next to those two Jews, Mike and Rebecca Winklestein. +They're going to open up a sporty restaurant." + +The man was a small bandy-legged creature, with eyes that squinted, a +complexion like ham fat and waxed moustaches. But it was the woman who +seized my attention. Never did I see such a strapping Amazon, six foot +if an inch, and massive in proportion. She was handsome too, in a +swarthy way, though near at hand her face was sensuous and bold. Yet she +had a suave, flattering manner and a coarse wit that captured the crowd. +Dangerous, unscrupulous and cruel, I thought; a man-woman, a shrew, a +termagant! + +But I was growing weary of the crowd and longed to go below. I was no +longer interested, yet the voice of the Prodigal droned in my ear. + +"There's an old man and his granddaughter, relatives of the +Winklesteins, I believe. I think the old fellow's got a screw loose. +Handsome old boy, though; looks like a Hebrew prophet out of a job. +Comes from Poland. Speaks Yiddish or some such jargon; Only English he +knows is 'Klondike, Klondike.' The girl looks heartbroken, poor little +beggar." + +"Poor little beggar!" I heard the words indeed, but my mind was far +away. To the devil with Polish Jews and their granddaughters. I wished +the Prodigal would leave me to my own thoughts, thoughts of my Highland +home and my dear ones. But no! he persisted: + +"You're not listening to what I'm saying. Look, why don't you!" + +So, to please him, I turned full round and looked. An old man, +patriarchal in aspect, crouched on the deck. Erect by his side, with her +hand on his shoulder, stood a slim figure in black, the figure of a +girl. Indifferently my eyes travelled from her feet to her face. There +they rested. I drew a deep breath. I forgot everything else. Then for +the first time I saw--Berna. + +I will not try to depict the girl. Pen descriptions are so futile. I +will only say that her face was very pale, and that she had large +pathetic grey eyes. For the rest, her cheeks were woefully pinched and +her lips drooped wistfully. 'Twas the face, I thought, of a virgin +martyr with a fear-haunted look hard to forget. All this I saw, but most +of all I saw those great, grey eyes gazing unseeingly over the crowd, +ever so sadly fixed on that far-away East of her dreams and memories. + +"Poor little beggar!" + +Then I cursed myself for a sentimental impressionist and I went below. +Stateroom forty-seven was mine. We three had been separated in the +shuffle, and I knew not who was to be my room-mate. Feeling very +downhearted, I stretched myself on the upper berth, and yielded to a +mood of penitential sadness. I heard the last gang-plank thrown off, the +great crowd cheer, the measured throb of the engines, yet still I +sounded the depths of reverie. There was a bustle outside and growing +darkness. Then, as I lay, there came voices to my door, guttural tones +blended with liquid ones; lastly a timid knock. Quickly I answered it. + +"Is this room number forty-seven?" a soft voice asked. + +Even ere she spoke I divined it was the Jewish girl of the grey eyes, +and now I saw her hair was like a fair cloud, and her face fragile as a +flower. + +"Yes," I answered her. + +She led forward the old man. + +"This is my grandfather. The Steward told us this was his room." + +"Oh, all right; he'd better take the lower berth." + +"Thank you, indeed; he's an old man and not very strong." + +Her voice was clear and sweet, and there was an infinite tenderness in +the tone. + +"You must come in," I said. "I'll leave you with him for a while so +that you can make him comfortable." + +"Thank you again," she responded gratefully. + +So I withdrew, and when I returned she was gone; but the old man slept +peacefully. + +It was late before I turned in. I went on deck for a time. We were +cleaving through blue-black night, and on our right I could dimly +discern the coast festooned by twinkling lights. Every one had gone +below, I thought, and the loneliness pleased me. I was very quiet, +thinking how good it all was, the balmy wind, the velvet vault of the +night frescoed with wistful stars, the freedom-song of the sea; how +restful, how sane, how loving! + +Suddenly I heard a sound of sobbing, the merciless sobbing of a woman's +breast. Distinct above the hollow breathing of the sea it assailed me, +poignant and insistent. Wonderingly I looked around. Then, in a shadow +of the upper deck, I made out a slight girl-figure, crouching all alone. +It was Grey Eyes, crying fit to break her heart. + +"Poor little beggar!" I muttered. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +"Gr-r-r--you little brat! If you open your face to him I'll kill you, +kill you, see!" + +The voice was Madam Winklestein's, and the words, hissed in a whisper of +incredible malignity, arrested me as if I had been struck by a live +wire. I listened. Behind the stateroom door there followed a silence, +grimly intense; then a dull pounding; then the same savage undertone. + +"See here, Berna, we're next to you two--we're onto your curves. We know +the old man's got the stuff in his gold-belt, two thousand in bills. +Now, my dear, my sweet little angel what thinks she's too good to mix +with the likes o' us, we need the mon, see!" (Knock, knock.) "And we're +goin' to have it, see!" (Knock, knock.) "That's where you come in, +honey, you're goin' to get it for us. Ain't you now, darlin'!" (Knock, +knock, knock.) + +Faintly, very faintly, I heard a voice: + +"No." + +If it be possible to scream in a whisper, the woman did it. + +"You will! you will! Oh! oh! oh! There's the cursed mule spirit of your +mother in you. She'd never tell us the name of the man that was the ruin +of 'er, blast 'er." + +"Don't speak of my mother, you vile woman!" + +The voice of the virago contracted to an intensity of venom I have +never heard the equal of. + +"Vile woman! Vile woman! You, you to call _me_ a vile woman, me that's +been three times jined in holy wedlock.... Oh, you bastard brat! You +whelp of sin! You misbegotten scum! Oh, I'll fix you for that, if I've +got to swing for it." + +Her scalding words were capped with an oath too foul to repeat, and once +more came the horrible pounding, like a head striking the woodwork. +Unable to bear it any longer, I rapped sharply on the door. + +Silence, a long, panting silence; then the sound of a falling body; then +the door opened a little and the twitching face of Madam appeared. + +"Is there somebody sick?" I asked. "I'm sorry to trouble you, but I was +thinking I heard groans and--I might be able to do something." + +Piercingly she looked at me. Her eyes narrowed to slits and stabbed me +with their spite. Her dark face grew turgid with impotent anger. As I +stood there she was like to have killed me. Then like a flash her +expression changed. With a dirty bejewelled hand she smoothed her +tousled hair. Her coarse white teeth gleamed in a gold-capped smile. +There was honey in her tone. + +"Why, no! my niece in here's got a toothache, but I guess we can fix it +between us. We don't need no help, thanks, young feller." + +"Oh, that's all right," I said. "If you should, you know, I'll be +nearby." + +Then I moved away, conscious that her eyes followed me malevolently. + +The business worried me sorely. The poor girl was being woefully abused, +that was plain. I felt indignant, angry and, last of all, anxious. +Mingled with my feelings was a sense of irritation that I should have +been elected to overhear the affair. I had no desire just then to +champion distressed damsels, least of all to get mixed up in the family +brawls of unknown Jewesses. Confound her, anyway! I almost hated her. +Yet I felt constrained to watch and wait, and even at the cost of my own +ease and comfort to prevent further violence. + +For that matter there were all kinds of strange doings on board, +drinking, gambling, nightly orgies and hourly brawls. It seemed as if we +had shipped all the human dregs of the San Francisco deadline. Never, I +believe, in those times when almost daily the Argonaut-laden boats were +sailing for the Golden North, was there one in which the sporting +element was so dominant. The social hall reeked with patchouli and stale +whiskey. From the staterooms came shrill outbursts of popular melody, +punctuated with the popping of champagne corks. Dance-hall girls, +babbling incoherently, reeled in the passageways, danced on the cabin +table, and were only held back from licentiousness by the restraint of +their bullies. The day was one long round of revelry, and the night was +pregnant with sinister sound. + +Already among the better element a moral secession was apparent. +Convention they had left behind with their boiled shirts and their +store clothes, and crazed with the idea of speedy fortune, they were +even now straining at the leash of decency. It was a howling mob, +elately riotous, and already infected by the virus of the goldophobia. + +Oh, it was good to get on deck of a night, away from this saturnalia, to +watch the beacon stars strewn vastly in the skyey uplift, to listen to +the ancient threnody of the outcast sea. Blue and silver the nights +were, and crystal clear, with a keen wind that painted the cheek and +kindled the eye. And as I sat in silent thought there came to me +Salvation Jim. His face was grim, his eyes brooding. From the +brilliantly lit social hall came a blare of music-hall melody. + +"I don't like the way of things a bit," he said; "I don't like it. Look +here now, lad, I've lived round mining camps for twenty years, I've +followed the roughest callings on earth, I've tramped the States all +over, yet never have I seen the beat of this. Mind you, I ain't +prejudiced, though I've seen the error of my ways, glory to God! I can +make allowance once in a while for the boys gettin' on a jamboree, but +by Christmas! Say! There's enough evil on this boat to stake a +sub-section in Hell. There's men should be at home with their dinky +little mothers an' their lovin' wives an' children, down there right now +in that cabin buyin' wine for them painted Jezebels. + +"There's doctors an' lawyers an' deacons in the church back in old Ohio, +that never made a bad break in their lives, an' now they're rowin' like +barroom bullies for the kisses of a baggage. In the bay-window of their +souls the devil lolls an' grins an' God is freezin' in the attic. You +mark my words, boy; there's a curse on this northern gold. The Yukon's +a-goin' to take its toll. You mark my words." + +"Oh, Jim," I said, "you're superstitious." + +"No, I ain't. I've just got a hunch. Here we are a bit of floatin' +iniquity glidin' through the mystery of them strange seas, an' the very +officers on dooty sashed to the neck an' reekin' from the arms of the +scented hussies below. It'll be God's mercy if we don't crash on a rock, +an' go down good an' all to the bitter bottom. But it don't matter. +Sooner or later there's goin' to be a reckonin'. There's many a one +shoutin' an' singin' to-night'll leave his bones to bleach up in that +bleak wild land." + +"No, Jim," I protested, "they will be all right once they get ashore." + +"Right nothin'! They're a pack of fools. They think they've got a bulge +on fortune. Hear them a-howlin' now. They're all millionaires in their +minds. There's no doubt with them. It's a cinch. They're spendin' it +right now. You mark my words, young feller, for I'll never live to see +them fulfilled--there's ninety in a hundred of all them fellers that's +goin' to this here Klondike will never make good, an' of the other ten, +nine won't _do_ no good." + +"One per cent. that will keep their stakes--that's absurd, Jim." + +"Well, you'll see. An' as for me, I feel as sure as God's above us +guidin' us through the mazes of the night, I'll never live to make the +trip back. I've got a hunch. Old Jim's on his last stampede." + +He sighed, then said sharply: + +"Did you see that feller that passed us?" + +It was Mosher, the gambler and ex-preacher. + +"That man's a skunk, a renegade sky-pilot. I'm keepin' tabs on that man. +Maybe him an' me's got a score to settle one of them days. Maybe." + +He went off abruptly, leaving me to ponder long over his gloomy words. + +We were now three days out. The weather was fine, and nearly every one +was on deck in the sunshine. Even Bullhammer, Marks and Mosher had +deserted the card-room for a time. The Bank clerk and the Wood-carver +talked earnestly, planned and dreamed. The Professor was busy expounding +a theory of the gold origin to a party of young men from Minnesota. +Silent and watchful the athletic Mervin smoked his big cigar, while, +patient and imperturbable, the iron Hewson chewed stolidly. The twins +were playing checkers. The Winklesteins were making themselves solid +with the music-hall clique. In and out among the different groups darted +the Prodigal, as volatile as a society reporter at a church bazaar. And +besides these, always alone, austerely aloof as if framed in a picture +by themselves, a picture of dignity and sweetness, were the Jewish maid +and her aged grandfather. + +Although he was my room-mate I had seen but little of him. He was abed +before I retired and I was up and out ere he awoke. For the rest I +avoided the two because of their obvious connection with the +Winklesteins. Surely, thought I, she cannot be mixed up with those two +and be everything that's all right. Yet there was something in the +girl's clear eyes, and in the old man's fine face, that reproached me +for my doubt. + +It was while I was thus debating, and covertly studying the pair, that +something occurred. + +Bullhammer and Marks were standing by me, and across the deck came the +acridly nasal tones of the dance-hall girls. I saw the libertine eyes of +Bullhammer rove incontinently from one unlovely demirep to another, till +at last they rested on the slender girl standing by the side of her +white-haired grandfather. Appreciatively he licked his lips. + +"Say, Monkey, who's the kid with old Whiskers there?" + +"Search me, Pete," said Marks; "want a knockdown?" + +"Betcher! Seems kind-a standoffish, though, don't she?" + +"Standoffish be darned! Never yet saw the little bit of all right that +could stand off Sam Marks. I'm a winner, I am, an' don' you forget it. +Just watch my splash." + +I must say the man was expensively dressed in a flashy way. His oily, +pimple-garnished face wreathed itself in a smirk of patronising +familiarity, and with the bow of a dancing master he advanced. I saw her +give a quick start, bite her lip and shrink back. "Good for you, little +girl," I thought. But the man was in no way put out. + +"Say, Sis, it's all right. Just want to interdooce you to a gentleman +fren' o' mine." + +The girl gazed at him, and her dilated eyes were eloquent of fear and +distrust. It minded me of the panic of a fawn run down by the hunter, so +that I found myself trembling in sympathy. A startled moment she gazed; +then swiftly she turned her back. + +This was too much for Marks. He flushed angrily. + +"Say! what's the matter with you? Come off the perch there. Ain't we +good enough to associate with you? Who the devil are you, anyhow?" + +His face was growing red and aggressive. He closed in on her. He laid a +rough hand on her shoulder. Thinking the thing had gone far enough I +stepped forward to interfere, when the unexpected happened. + +Suddenly the old man had risen to his feet, and it was a surprise to me +how tall he was. Into his face there had come the ghost of ancient power +and command. His eyes blazed with wrath, and his clenched fist was +raised high in anathema. Then it came swiftly down on the head of Marks, +crushing his stiff hat tightly over his eyes. + +The climax was ludicrous in a way. There was a roar of laughter, and +hearing it Marks spluttered as he freed himself. With a curse of rage he +would have rushed the old man, but a great hand seized him by the +shoulder. It was the grim, taciturn Hewson, and judging by the way his +captive squirmed, his grip must have been peculiarly vise-like. The old +man was pale as death, the girl crying, the passengers crowding round. +Every one was gabbling and curious, so feeling I could do no good, I +went below. + +What was there about this slip of a girl that interested me so? Ever and +anon I found myself thinking of her. Was it the conversation I had +overheard? Was it the mystery that seemed to surround her? Was it the +irrepressible instinct of my heart for the romance of life? With the old +man, despite our stateroom propinquity, I had made no advances. With the +girl I had passed no further words. + +But the Gods of destiny act in whimsical ways. Doubtless the voyage +would have finished without the betterment of our acquaintance; +doubtless our paths would have parted, nevermore to cross; doubtless our +lives would have been lived out to their fulness and this story never +have been told--had it not been for the luckless fatality of the Box of +Grapes. + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +Puget Sound was behind us and we had entered on that great sea that +stretched northward to the Arctic barrens. Misty and wet was the wind, +and cold with the kiss of many icebergs. Under a grey sky, glooming to +purple, the gelid water writhed nakedly. Spectral islands elbowed each +other, to peer at us as we flitted past. Still more wraithlike the +mainland, fringed to the sea foam with saturnine pine, faded away into +fastnesses of impregnable desolation. There was a sense of deathlike +passivity in the land, of overwhelming vastitude, of unconquerable +loneliness. It was as if I had felt for the first time the Spirit of the +Wild; the Wild where God broods amid His silence; the Wild, His infinite +solace and His sanctuary. + +As we forged through the vague sea lanes, we were like a glittering +trinket on the bosom of the night. Our mad merriment scarce ever abated. +We were a blare of revelry and a blaze of light. Excitement mounted to +fever heat. In the midst of it the women with the enamelled cheeks +reaped a bountiful harvest. I marvel now that, with all the besotted +recklessness of those that were our pilots, we met with no serious +mishap. + +"Don't mind you much of a Sunday-school picnic, does it?" commented the +Prodigal. "It's fierce the way the girls are prying some of these crazy +jays loose from their wads. They're all plumb batty. I'm tired trying to +wise them up. 'Go and chase yourself,' they say; 'we're all right. Don't +matter if we do loosen up a bit now, there's all kinds of easy money +waiting for us up there.' Then they talk of what they're going to do +when they've got the dough. One gazebo wants to buy a castle in the old +country; another wants a racing stable; another a steam yacht. Oh, +they're a hot bunch of sports. They're all planning to have a purple +time in the sweet by-and-bye. I don't hear any of them speak of endowing +a home for decrepit wash-ladies or pensioning off their aged +grandmothers. They make me sick. There's a cold juicy awakening coming." + +He was right. In their visionary leaps to affluence they soared to giddy +heights. They strutted and bragged as if the millions were already +theirs. To hear them, you would think they had an exclusive option on +the treasure-troves of the Klondike. Yet, before and behind us, were +dozens of similar vessels, bearing just as eager a mob of +fortune-hunters, all drawn irresistibly northward by the Golden Magnet. + +Nevertheless, it was hard not to be affected by the prevailing spirit of +optimism. For myself the gold had but little attraction, but the +adventure was very dear to my heart. Once more the clarion call of +Romance rang in my ears, and I leapt to its summons. And indeed, I +reflected, it was a wonderful kaleidoscope of a world, wherein I, but a +half-year back cooling my heels in a highland burn, should be now part +and parcel of this great Argonaut army. Already my native uncouthness +was a thing of the past, and the quaint mannerisms of my Scots tongue +were yielding to the racy slang of the frontier. More to the purpose, +too, I was growing in strength and wiry endurance. As I looked around me +I realised that there were many less fitted for the trail than I, and +there was none with such a store of glowing health. You may picture me +at this time, a tallish young man, with a fine colour in my cheeks, +black hair that curled crisply, and dark eyes that were either alight +with eagerness or agloom with dreams. + +I have said that we were all more or less in a ferment of excitement, +but to this I must make a reservation. One there was who, amid all our +unrest, remained cold, distant and alien--the Jewish girl, Berna. Even +in the old man the gold fever betrayed itself in a visionary eye and a +tremor of the lips; but the girl was a statue of patient resignation, a +living reproof to our febrile and purblind imaginings. + +The more I studied her, the more out of place she seemed in my picture, +and, almost unconsciously, I found myself weaving about her a fabric of +romance. I endowed her with a mystery that piqued and fascinated me, yet +without it I have no doubt I would have been attracted to her. I longed +to know her uncommon well, to win her regard, to do something for her +that should make her eyes rest very kindly on me. In short, as is the +way of young men, I was beginning to grope blindly for that affection +and sympathy which are the forerunners of passion and love. + +The land was wintry and the wind shrilled so that the attendant gulls +flapped their wings hard in the face of it. The wolf-pack of the sea +were snarling whitely as they ran. The decks were deserted, and so many +of the brawlers were sick and lay like dead folk that it almost seemed +as if a Sabbath quiet lay on the ship. That day I had missed the old +man, and on going below, found him lying as one sore stricken. A +withered hand lay on his brow, and from his lips, which were almost +purple, thin moans issued. + +"Poor old beggar," I thought; "I wonder if I cannot do anything for +him." And while I was thus debating, a timid knock came to the door. I +opened it, and there was the girl, Berna. + +There was a nervous anxiety in her manner, and a mute interrogation in +her grey eyes. + +"I'm afraid he's a little sick to-day," I said gently; "but come in, +won't you, and see him?" + +"Thank you." Pity, tenderness and love seemed to struggle in her face as +she softly brushed past me. With some words of endearment, she fell on +her knees beside him, and her small white hand sought his thin gnarled +one. As if galvanised into life, the old man turned gratefully to her. + +"Maybe he would care for some coffee," I said. "I think I could rustle +him some." + +She gave me a queer, sad look of thanks. + +"If you could," she answered. + +When I returned she had the old man propped up with pillows. She took +the coffee from me, and held the cup to his lips; but after a few sips +he turned away wearily. + +"I'm afraid he doesn't care for that," I said. + +"No, I'm afraid he won't take it." + +She was like an anxious nurse hovering over a patient. She thought a +while. + +"Oh, if I only had some fruit!" + +Then it was I bethought me of the box of grapes. I had bought them just +before leaving, thinking they would be a grateful surprise to my +companions. Obviously I had been inspired, and now I produced them in +triumph, big, plump, glossy fellows, buried in the fragrant cedar dust. +I shook clear a large bunch, and once more we tried the old man. It +seemed as if we had hit on the one thing needful, for he ate eagerly. +She watched him for a while with a growing sense of relief, and when he +had finished and was resting quietly, she turned to me. + +"I don't know how I can thank you, sir, for your kindness." + +"Very easily," I said quickly; "if you will yourself accept some of the +fruit, I shall be more than repaid." + +She gave me a dubious look; then such a bright, merry light flashed into +her eyes that she was radiant in my sight. It was as if half a dozen +years had fallen from her, revealing a heart capable of infinite joy and +happiness. + +"If you will share them with me," she said simply. + +So, for the lack of chairs, we squatted on the narrow stateroom floor, +under the old man's kindly eye. The fruit minded us of sunlit vines, and +the careless rapture of the South. To me the situation was one of rare +charm. She ate daintily, and as we talked, I studied her face as if I +would etch it on my memory forever. + +In particular I noticed the wistful contour of her cheek, her sensitive +mouth, and the fine modelling of her chin. She had clear, candid eyes +and sweeping lashes, too. Her ears were shell-like, and her hair soft, +wavy and warm. These things I marked minutely, thinking she was more +than beautiful--she was even pretty. I was in a state of extraordinary +elation, like a man that has found a jewel in the mire. + +It must be remembered, lest I appear to be taking a too eager interest +in the girl, that up till now the world of woman had been _terra +incognita_ to me; that I had lived a singularly cloistered life, and +that first and last I was an idealist. This girl had distinction, +mystery and charm, and it is not to be wondered at that I found a joy in +her presence. I proved myself a perfect artesian well of conversation, +talking freely of the ship, of our fellow-passengers and of the chances +of the venture. I found her wonderfully quick in the uptake. Her mind +seemed nimbly to outrun mine, and she divined my words ere I had them +uttered. Yet she never spoke of herself, and when I left them together I +was full of uneasy questioning. + +Next day the old man was still abed, and again the girl came to visit +him. This time I noticed that much of her timid manner was gone, and in +its stead was a shy friendliness. Once more the box of grapes proved a +mediator between us, and once more I found in her a reticent but +sympathetic audience--so much so that I was frank in telling her of +myself, my home and my kinsfolk. I thought that maybe my talk would +weary her, but she listened with a bright-eyed regard, nodding her head +eagerly at times. Yet she spoke no word of her own affairs, so that when +again I left them together I was as much in the dark as ever. + +It was on the third day I found the old man up and dressed, and Berna +with him. She looked brighter and happier than I had yet seen her, and +she greeted me with a smiling face. Then, after a little, she said: + +"My grandfather plays the violin. Would you mind if he played over some +of our old-country songs? It would comfort him." + +"No, go ahead," I said; "I wish he would." + +So she got an ancient violin, and the old man cuddled it lovingly and +played soft, weird melodies, songs of the Czech race, that made me think +of Romance, of love and hate, and passion and despair. Piece after +piece he played, as if pouring out the sadness and heart-hunger of a +burdened people, until my own heart ached in sympathy. + +The wild music throbbed with passionate sweetness and despair. +Unobserved, the pale twilight stole into the little cabin. The ruggedly +fine face of the old man was like one inspired, and with clasped hands, +the girl sat, very white-faced and motionless. Then I saw a gleam on her +cheek, the soft falling of tears. Somehow, at that moment, I felt drawn +very near to those two, the music, the tears, the fervent sadness of +their faces. I felt as if I had been allowed to share with them a few +moments consecrated to their sorrow, and that they knew I understood. + +That day as I was leaving, I said to her: + +"Berna, this is our last night on board." + +"Yes." + +"To-morrow our trails divide, maybe never again to cross. Will you come +up on deck for a little while to-night? I want to talk to you." + +"Talk to me?" + +She looked startled, incredulous. She hesitated. + +"Please, Berna, it's the last time." + +"All right," she answered in a low tone. + +Then she looked at me curiously. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +She came to meet me, lily-white and sweet. She was but thinly wrapped, +and shivered so that I put my coat around her. We ventured forward, +climbing over a huge anchor to the very bow of the boat, and crouching +down in its peak, were sheltered from the cold breeze. + +We were cutting through smooth water, and crowding in on us were haggard +mountains, with now and then the greenish horror of a glacier. Overhead, +in the desolate sky, the new moon nursed the old moon in her arms. + +"Berna!" + +"Yes." + +"You're not happy, Berna. You're in sore trouble, little girl. I don't +know why you come up to this God-forsaken country or why you are with +those people. I don't want to know; but if there's anything I can do for +you, any way I can prove myself a true friend, tell me, won't you?" + +My voice betrayed emotion. I could feel her slim form, very close to me, +all a-tremble. In the filtered silver of the crescent moon, I could see +her face, wan and faintly sweet. Gently I prisoned one of her hands in +mine. + +She did not speak at once. Indeed, she was quiet for a long time, so +that it seemed as if she must be stricken dumb, or as if some feelings +were conflicting within her. Then at last, very gently, very quietly, +very sweetly, as if weighing her words, she spoke. + +"No, there's nothing you can do. You've been too kind all along. You're +the only one on the boat that's been kind. Most of the others have +looked at me--well, you know how men look at a poor, unprotected girl. +But you, you're different; you're good, you're honourable, you're +sincere. I could see it in your face, in your eyes. I knew I could trust +you. You've been kindness itself to grandfather and I, and I never can +thank you enough." + +"Nonsense! Don't talk of thanks, Berna. You don't know what a happiness +it's been to help you. I'm sorry I've done so little. Oh, I'm going to +be sincere and frank with you. The few hours I've had with you have made +me long for others. I'm a lonely beggar. I never had a sister, never a +girl friend. You're the first, and it's been like sudden sunshine to me. +Now, can't I be really and truly your friend, Berna; your friend that +would do much for you? Let me do something, anything, to show how +earnestly I mean it?" + +"Yes, I know. Well, then, you are my dear, true friend--there, now." + +"Yes,--but, Berna! To-morrow you'll go and we'll likely never see each +other again. What's the good of it all?" + +"Well, what do you want? We will both have a memory, a very sweet, nice +memory, won't we? Believe me, it's better so. You don't want to have +anything to do with a girl like me. You don't know anything about me, +and you see the kind of people I'm going with. Perhaps I am just as bad +as they." + +"Don't say that, Berna," I interposed sternly; "you're all that's good +and pure and sweet." + +"No, I'm not, either. We're all of us pretty mixed. But I'm not so bad, +and it's nice of you to think those things.... Oh! if I had never come +on this terrible trip! I don't even know where we are going, and I'm +afraid, afraid." + +"No, little girl." + +"Yes, I can't tell you how afraid I am. The country's so savage and +lonely; the men are so like brute beasts; the women--well, they're +worse. And here are we in the midst of it. I don't know what's going to +become of us." + +"Well, Berna, if it's like that, why don't you and your grandfather turn +back? Why go on?" + +"He will never turn back. He'll go on till he dies. He only knows one +word of English and that's Klondike, Klondike. He mutters it a thousand +times a day. He has visions of gold, glittering heaps of it, and he'll +stagger and struggle on till he finds it." + +"But can't you reason with him?" + +"Oh, it's all no use. He's had a dream. He's like a man that's crazy. He +thinks he has been chosen, and that to him will a great treasure be +revealed. You might as well reason with a stone. All I can do is to +follow him, is to take care of him." + +"What about the Winklesteins, Berna?" + +"Oh, they're at the bottom of it all. It is they who have inflamed his +mind. He has a little money, the savings of a lifetime, about two +thousand dollars; and ever since he came to this country, they've been +trying to get it. They ran a little restaurant in New York. They tried +to get him to put his little store in that. Now they are using the gold +as a bait, and luring him up here. They'll rob and kill him in the end, +and the cruel part is--he's not greedy, he doesn't want it for +himself--but for me. That's what breaks my heart." + +"Surely you're mistaken, Berna; they can't be so bad as that." + +"Bad! I tell you they're _vile_. The man's a worm, and the woman, she's +a devil incarnate. She's so strong and so violent in her tempers that +when she gets drinking--well, it's just awful. I should know it, I lived +with them for three years." + +"Where?" + +"In New York. I came from the old country to them. They worked me in the +restaurant at first. Then, after a bit, I got employment in a +shirt-waist factory. I was quick and handy, and I worked early and late. +I attended a night school. I read till my eyes ached. They said I was +clever. The teacher wanted me to train and be a teacher too. But what +was the good of thinking of it? I had my living to get, so I stayed at +the factory and worked and worked. Then when I had saved a few dollars, +I sent for grandfather, and he came and we lived in the tenement and +were very happy for a while. But the Winklesteins never gave us any +peace. They knew he had a little money laid away, and they itched to get +their hands on it. The man was always telling us of get-rich-quick +schemes, and she threatened me in horrible ways. But I wasn't afraid in +New York. Up here it's different. It's all so shadowy and sinister." + +I could feel her shudder. + +"Oh, Berna," I said, "can't I help you?" + +She shook her head sadly. + +"No, you can't; you have enough trouble of your own. Besides it doesn't +matter about me. I didn't mean to tell you all this, but now, if you +want to be a true friend, just go away and forget me. You don't want to +have anything to do with me. Wait! I'll tell you something more. I'm +called Berna Wilovich. That's my grandfather's name. My mother ran away +from home. Two years later she came back--with me. Soon after she died +of consumption. She would never tell my father's name, but said he was a +Christian, and of good family. My grandfather tried to find out. He +would have killed the man. So, you see, I am nameless, a child of shame +and sorrow. And you are a gentleman, and proud of your family. Now, see +the kind of friend you've made. You don't want to make friends with such +as I." + +"I want to make friends with such as need my friendship. What is going +to happen to you, Berna?" + +"Happen! God knows! It doesn't matter. Oh, I've always been in trouble. +I'm used to it. I never had a really happy day in my life. I never +expect to. I'll just go on to the end, enduring patiently, and getting +what comfort I can out of things. It's what I was made for, I suppose." + +She shrugged her shoulders and shivered a little. + +"Let me go now, my friend. It's cold up here; I'm chilled. Don't look so +terribly downcast. I expect I'll come out all right. Something may +happen. Cheer up! Maybe you'll see me a Klondike queen yet." + +I could see that her sudden brightness but hid a black abyss of +bitterness and apprehension. What she had told me had somehow stricken +me dumb. There seemed a stark sordidness in the situation that repelled +me. She had arisen and was about to step over the fluke of the great +anchor, when I aroused myself. + +"Berna," I said, "what you have told me wrings my heart. I can't tell +you how terribly sorry I feel. Is there nothing I can do for you, +nothing to show I am not a mere friend of words and phrases? Oh, I hate +to let you go like this." + +The moon had gone behind a cloud. We were in a great shadow. She halted, +so that, as we stood, we were touching each other. Her voice was full of +pathetic resignation. + +"What can you do? If we were going in together it might be different. +When I met you at first I hoped, oh, I hoped--well, it doesn't matter +what I hoped. But, believe me, I'll be all right. You won't forget me, +will you?" + +"Forget you! No, Berna, I'll never forget you. It cuts me to the heart I +can do nothing now, but we'll meet up there. We can't be divided for +long. And you'll be all right, believe me too, little girl. Be good and +sweet and true and every one will love and help you. Ah, you must go. +Well, well--God bless you, Berna." + +"And I wish you happiness and success, dear friend of mine." + +Her voice trembled. Something seemed to choke her. She stood a moment as +if reluctant to go. + +Suddenly a great impulse of tenderness and pity came over me, and before +I knew it, my arms were around her. She struggled faintly, but her face +was uplifted, her eyes starlike. Then, for a moment of bewildering +ecstasy, her lips lay on mine, and I felt them faintly answer. + +Poor yielding lips! They were cold as ice. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +Never shall I forget the last I saw of her, a forlorn, pathetic figure +in black, waving a farewell to me as I stood on the wharf. She wore, I +remember, a low collar, and well do I mind the way it showed off the +slim whiteness of her throat; well do I mind the high poise of her head, +and the silken gloss of her hair. The grey eyes were clear and steady as +she bade good-bye to me, and from where we stood apart, her face had all +the pathetic sweetness of a Madonna. + +Well, she was going, and sad enough her going seemed to me. They were +all for Dyea, and the grim old Chilcoot, with its blizzard-beaten +steeps, while we had chosen the less precipitous, but more drawn-out, +Skagway trail. Among them I saw the inseparable twins; the grim Hewson, +the silent Mervin, each quiet and watchful, as if storing up power for a +tremendous effort. There was the large unwholesomeness of Madam +Winklestein, all jewellery, smiles and coarse badinage, and near her, +her perfumed husband, squinting and smirking abominably. There was the +old man, with his face of a Hebrew Seer, his visionary eye now aglow +with fanatical enthusiasm, his lips ever muttering: "Klondike, +Klondike"; and lastly, by his side, with a little wry smile on her lips, +there was the white-faced girl. + +How my heart ached for her! But the time for sentiment was at an end. +The clarion call to action rang out. Inflexibly the trail was mustering +us. The hour was come for every one to give of the best that was in him, +even as he had never given it before. The reign of peace was over; the +fight was on. + +On all sides were indescribable bustle, confusion and excitement; men +shouting, swearing, rushing hither, thither; wrangling, anxious-eyed and +distracted over their outfits. A mood of unsparing energy dominated +them. Their only thought was to get away on the gold-trail. A frantic +eagerness impelled them; insistent, imperative; the trail called to +them, and the light of the gold-lust smouldered and flamed in their +uneasy eyes. Already the spirit of the gold-trail was awakening. + +Hundreds of scattered tents; a few frame buildings, mostly saloons, +dance-halls and gambling joints; an eager, excited mob crowding on the +loose sidewalks, floundering knee-deep in the mire of the streets, +struggling and squabbling and cursing over their outfits--that is all I +remember of Skagway. The mountains, stark and bare to the bluff, seemed +to overwhelm the flimsy town, and between them, like a giant funnel, a +great wind was roaring. + +Lawlessness was rampant, but it did not touch us. The thugs lay in wait +for the men with pokes from the "inside." To the great Cheechako army, +they gave little heed. They were captained by one Smith, known as +"Soapy," whom I had the fortune to meet. He was a pleasant-appearing, +sociable man, and no one would have taken him for a desperado, a killer +of men. + +One picture of Skagway is still vivid in my memory. The scene is a +saloon, and along with the Prodigal, I am having a glass of beer. In a +corner sits a befuddled old man, half asleep. He is long and lank, with +a leathery face and a rusty goatee beard--as ragged, disreputable an old +sinner as ever bellied up to a bar. Suddenly there is a sound of +shooting. We rush out and there are two toughs blazing away at each +other from the sheltering corners of an opposite building. + +"Hey, Dad! There's some shootin' goin' on," says the barkeeper. + +The old man rouses and cocks up a bleary, benevolent eye. + +"Shooting', did ye say? Pshaw! Them fellers don't know how to shoot. Old +Dad'll show 'em how to shoot." + +He comes to the door, and lugging out a big rusty revolver, blazes away +at one of the combatants. The man, with a howl of surprise and pain, +limps away. The old man turns to the other fellow. Bang! We see +splinters fly, and a man running for dear life. + +"Told you I'd show 'em how to shoot," remarks old Dad to us. "Thanks, +I'll have a gin-fizz for mine." + +The Prodigal developed a wonderful executive ability about this time; he +was a marvel of activity, seemed to think of everything and to glory in +his responsibility as a leader. Always cheerful, always thoughtful, he +was the brains of our party. He never abated in his efforts a moment, +and was an example and a stimulus to us all. I say "all," for we had +added the "Jam-wagon"[A] to our number. It was the Prodigal who +discovered him. He was a tall, dissolute Englishman, gaunt, ragged and +verminous, but with the earmarks of a gentleman. He seemed indifferent +to everything but whiskey and only anxious to hide himself from his +friends. I discovered he had once been an officer in a Hussar regiment, +but he was obviously reluctant to speak of his past. A lost soul in +every sense of the word, the North was to him a refuge and an +unrestricted stamping-ground. So, partly in pity, partly in hope of +winning back his manhood, we allowed him to join the party. + +Pack animals were in vast demand, for it was considered a pound of grub +was the equal of a pound of gold. Old horses, fit but for the knacker's +yard, and burdened till they could barely stand, were being goaded +forward through the mud. Any kind of a dog was a prize, quickly stolen +if left unwatched. Sheep being taken in for the butcher were driven +forward with packs on their backs. Even was there an effort to make pack +animals out of pigs, but they grunted, squealed and rolled their +precious burdens in the mire. What crazy excitement, what urging and +shouting, what desperate device to make a start! + +We were lucky in buying a yoke of oxen from a packer for four hundred +dollars. On the first day we hauled half of our outfit to Canyon City, +and on the second we transferred the balance. This was our plan all +through, though in bad places we had to make many relays. It was simple +enough, yet, oh, the travail of it! Here is an extract from my diary of +these days. + + "Turn out at 4 A.M. Breakfasted on flapjacks and coffee. Find one + of our oxen dying. Dies at seven o'clock. Harness remaining ox and + start to remove goods up Canyon. Find trail in awful condition, yet + thousands are struggling to get through. Horses often fall in pools + of water ten to fifteen feet deep, trying to haul loads over the + boulders that render trail almost impassable. Drive with sleigh + over places that at other times one would be afraid to walk over + without any load. Two feet of snow fell during the night, but it is + now raining. Rains and snows alternately. At night bitterly cold. + Hauled five loads up Canyon to-day. Finished last trip near + midnight and turned in, cold, wet and played out." + +The above is a fairly representative day and of such days we were to +have many ere we reached the water. Slowly, with infinite effort, with +stress and strain to every step of the way, we moved our bulky outfit +forward from camp to camp. All days were hard, all exasperating, all +crammed with discomfort; yet, bit by bit, we forged ahead. The army +before us and the army behind never faltered. Like a stream of black +ants they were, between mountains that reared up swiftly to +storm-smitten palisades of ice. In the darkness of night the army +rested uneasily, yet at the first streak of dawn it was in motion. It +was an endless procession, in which every man was for himself. I can see +them now, bent under their burdens, straining at their hand-sleighs, +flogging their horses and oxen, their faces crimped and puckered with +fatigue, the air acrid with their curses and heavy with their moans. Now +a horse stumbles and slips into one of the sump-holes by the trail side. +No one can pass, the army is arrested. Frenzied fingers unhitch the poor +frozen brute and drag it from the water. Men, frantic with rage, beat +savagely at their beasts of burden to make up the precious time lost. +There is no mercy, no humanity, no fellowship. All is blasphemy, fury +and ruthless determination. It is the spirit of the gold-trail. + +At the canyon head was a large camp, and there, very much in evidence, +the gambling fraternity. Dozens of them with their little green tables +were doing a roaring business. On one side of the canyon they had +established a camp. It was evening and we three, the Prodigal, Salvation +Jim and myself, strolled over to where a three-shell man was holding +forth. + +"Hullo!" says the Prodigal. "It's our old friend Jake. Jake skinned me +out of a hundred on the boat. Wonder how he's making out?" + +It was Mosher, with his bald head, his crafty little eyes, his flat +nose, his black beard. I saw Jim's face harden. He had always shown a +bitter hatred of this man, and often I wondered why. + +We stood a little way off. The crowd thinned and filtered away until +but one remained, one of the tall young men from Minnesota. We heard +Mosher's rich voice. + +"Say, pard, bet ten dollars you can't place the bean. See! I put the +little joker under here, right before your eyes. Now, where is it?" + +"Here," said the man, touching one of the shells. + +"Right you are, my hearty! Well, here's your ten." + +The man from Minnesota took the money and was going away. + +"Hold on," said Mosher; "how do I know you had the money to cover that +bet?" + +The man laughed and took from his pocket a wad of bills an inch thick. + +"Guess that's enough, ain't it?" + +Quick as lightning Mosher had snatched the bills from him, and the man +from Minnesota found himself gazing into the barrel of a six-shooter. + +"This here's my money," said Mosher; "now you _git_." + +A moment only--a shot rang out. I saw the gun fall from Mosher's hand, +and the roll of bills drop to the ground. Quickly the man from Minnesota +recovered them and rushed off to tell his party. Then the men from +Minnesota got their Winchesters, and the shooting began. + +From their camp the gamblers took refuge behind the boulders that +strewed the sides of the canyon, and blazed away at their opponents. A +regular battle followed, which lasted till the fall of night. As far as +I heard, only one casualty resulted. A Swede, about half a mile down the +trail, received a spent bullet in the cheek. He complained to the Deputy +Marshal. That worthy, sitting on his horse, looked at him a moment. Then +he spat comprehensively. + +"Can't do anything, Ole. But I'll tell you what. Next time there's +bullets flying round this section of the country, don't go sticking your +darned whiskers in the way. See!" + +That night I said to Jim: + +"How did you do it?" + +He laughed and showed me a hole in his coat pocket which a bullet had +burned. + +"You see, having been in the game myself, I knew what was comin' and +acted accordin'." + +"Good job you didn't hit him worse." + +"Wait a while, sonny, wait a while. There's something mighty familiar +about Jake Mosher. He's mighty like a certain Sam Mosely I'm interested +in. I've just written a letter outside to see, an' if it's him--well, +I'm saved; I'm a good Christian, but--God help him!" + +"And who was Sam Mosely, Jim?" + +"Sam Mosely? Sam Mosely was the skunk that busted up my home an' stole +my wife, blast him!" + +[A: A Jam-wagon was the general name given to an Englishman on the +trail.] + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +Day after day, each man of us poured out on the trail the last heel-tap +of his strength, and the coming of night found us utterly played out. +Salvation Jim was full of device and resource, the Prodigal, a dynamo of +eager energy; but it was the Jam-wagon who proved his mettle in a +magnificent and relentless way. Whether it was from a sense of +gratitude, or to offset the cravings that assailed him, I know not, but +he crammed the days with merciless exertion. + +A curious man was the Jam-wagon, Brian Wanless his name, a world tramp, +a derelict of the Seven Seas. His story, if ever written, would be a +human document of moving and poignant interest. He must once have been a +magnificent fellow, and even now, with strength and will-power impaired, +he was a man among men, full of quick courage and of a haughty temper. +It was ever a word and a blow with him, and a fight to the desperate +finish. He was insular, imperious and aggressive, and he was always +looking for trouble. + +Though taciturn and morose with men, the Jam-wagon showed a tireless +affection for animals. From the first he took charge of our ox; but it +was for horses his fondness was most expressed, so that on the trail, +where there was so much cruelty, he was constantly on the verge of +combat. + +"That's a great man," said the Prodigal to me, "a fighter from heel to +head. There's one he can't fight, though, and that's old man Booze." + +But on the trail every man was a fighter. It was fight or fall, for the +trail would brook no weaklings. Good or bad, a man must be a man in the +primal sense, dominant, savage and enduring. The trail was implacable. +From the start it cried for strong men; it weeded out its weaklings. I +had seen these fellows on the ship feed their vanity with foolish +fancies; kindled to ardours of hope, I had seen debauch regnant among +them; now I was to see them crushed, cowed, overwhelmed, realising each, +according to his kind, the menace and antagonism of the way. I was to +see the weak falter and fall by the trail side; I was to see the +fainthearted quail and turn back; but I was to see the strong, the +brave, grow grim, grow elemental in their desperate strength, and +tightening up their belts, go forward unflinchingly to the bitter end. +Thus it was the trail chose her own. Thus it was, from passion, despair +and defeat, the spirit of the trail was born. + +The spirit of the Gold Trail, how shall I describe it? It was based on +that primal instinct of self-preservation that underlies our thin veneer +of humanity. It was rebellion, anarchy; it was ruthless, aggressive, +primitive; it was the man of the stone age in modern garb waging his +fierce, incessant warfare with the forces of nature. Spurred on by the +fever of the gold-lust, goaded by the fear of losing in the race; +maddened by the difficulties and obstacles of the way, men became +demons of cruelty and aggression, ruthlessly thrusting aside and +trampling down the weaker ones who thwarted their progress. Of pity, +humanity, love, there was none, only the gold-lust, triumphant and +repellent. It was the survival of the fittest, the most tenacious, the +most brutal. Yet there was something grandly terrible about it all. It +was a barbaric invasion, an army, each man fighting for his own hand +under the banner of gold. It was conquest. Every day, as I watched that +human torrent, I realised how vast, how irresistible it was. It was +Epic, it was Historical. + +Many pitiful things I saw--men with haggard, hopeless faces, throwing +their outfits into the snow and turning back broken-hearted; men +staggering blindly on, exhausted to despair, then dropping wearily by +the trail side in the bitter cold and sinister gloom; weaklings, every +one. Many terrible things I saw--men cursing each other, cursing the +trail, cursing their God, and in the echo of their curses, grinding +their teeth and stumbling on. Then they would vent their fury and spite +on the poor dumb animals. Oh, what cruelty there was! The life of the +brute was as nothing; it was the tribute of the trail; it was a +sacrifice on the altar of human greed. + +Long before dawn the trail awakened and the air was full of breakfast +smells, chiefly that of burnt porridge: for pots were seldom scraped, +neither were dishes washed. Soon the long-drawn-out army was on the +march, jaded animals straining at their loads, their drivers reviling +and beating them. All the men were bearded, and many of them wore +parkas. As many of the women had discarded petticoats, it was often +difficult at a short distance to tell the sex of a person. There were +tents built on sleighs, with faces of women and children peering out +from behind. It was a wonderful procession, all classes, all +nationalities, greybeards and striplings, parsons and prostitutes, rich +and poor, filing past in their thousands, drawn desperately on by the +golden magnet. + +One day we were making a trip with a load of our stuff when, just ahead, +there was a check in the march, so I and the Jam-wagon went forward to +investigate. It was our old friend Bullhammer in difficulties. He had +rather a fine horse, and in passing a sump-hole, his sled had skidded +and slipped downhill into the water. Now he was belabouring the animal +unmercifully, acting like a crazy man, shouting in a frenzy of rage. + +The horse was making the most gallant efforts I ever saw, but, with +every fresh attempt, its strength weakened. Time and again it came down +on its knees, which were raw and bleeding. It was shining with sweat so +that there was not a dry hair on its body, and if ever a dumb brute's +eyes spoke of agony and fear, that horse's did. But Bullhammer grew +every moment more infuriated, wrenching its mouth and beating it over +the head with a club. It was a sickening sight and, used as I was to the +inhumanity of the trail, I would have interfered had not the Jam-wagon +jumped in. He was deadly pale and his eyes burned. + +"You infernal brute! If you strike that horse another blow, I'll break +your club over your shoulders." + +Bullhammer turned on him. Surprise paralysed the man, rage choked him. +They were both big husky fellows, and they drew up face to face. Then +Bullhammer spoke. + +"Curse you, anyway. Don't interfere with me. I'll beat bloody hell out +of the horse if I like, an' you won't say one word, see?" + +With that he struck the horse another vicious blow on the head. There +was a quick scuffle. The club was wrenched from Bullhammer's hand. I saw +it come down twice. The man sprawled on his back, while over him stood +the Jam-wagon, looking very grim. The horse slipped quietly back into +the water. + +"You ugly blackguard! I've a good mind to beat you within an ace of your +life. But you're not worth it. Ah, you cur!" + +He gave Bullhammer a kick. The man got on his feet. He was a coward, but +his pig eyes squinted in impotent rage. He looked at his horse lying +shivering in the icy water. + +"Get the horse out yourself, then, curse you. Do what you please with +him. But, mark you--I'll get even with you for this--I'll--get--even." + +He shook his fist and, with an ugly oath, went away. The block in the +traffic was relieved. The trail was again in motion. When we got abreast +of the submerged horse, we hitched on the ox and hastily pulled it out, +and (the Jam-wagon proving to have no little veterinary skill) in a few +days it was fit to work again. + + * * * * * + +Another week had gone and we were still on the trail, between the head +of the canyon and the summit of the Pass. Day after day was the same +round of unflinching effort, under conditions that would daunt any but +the stoutest hearts. The trail was in a terrible condition, sometimes +well-nigh impassable, and many a time, but for the invincible spirit of +the Prodigal, would I have turned back. He had a way of laughing at +misfortune and heartening one when things seemed to have passed the +limit of all endurance. + +Here is another day selected from my diary: + + "Rose at 4:30 A.M. and started for summit with load. Trail all + filled in with snow, and had dreadful time shovelling it out. Load + upsets number of times. Got to summit at three o'clock. Ox almost + played out. Snowing and blowing fearfully on summit. Ox tired; + tries to lie down every few yards. Bitterly cold and have hard time + trying to keep hands and feet from freezing. Keep on going to make + Balsam City. Arrived there about ten o'clock at night. Clothing + frozen stiff. Snow from seven to one hundred feet deep. No wood + within a quarter mile and then only soft balsam. Had to go for + wood. Almost impossible to start fire. Was near midnight when I had + fire going well and supper cooked. Eighteen hours on the trail + without a square meal. The way of the Klondike is hard, hard." + +And yet I believe, compared with others, we were getting along finely. +Every day, as the difficulties of the trail increased, I saw more and +more instances of suffering and privation, and to many the name of the +White Pass was the death-knell of hope. I could see their faces blanch +as they gazed upward at that white immensity; I could see them tighten +their pack-straps, clench their teeth and begin the ascent; could see +them straining every muscle as they climbed, the grim lines harden round +their mouths, their eyes full of hopeless misery and despair; I could +see them panting at every step, ghastly with fatigue, lurching and +stumbling on under their heavy packs. These were the weaker ones, who, +sooner or later, gave up the struggle. + +Then there were the strong, ruthless ones, who had left humanity at +home, who flogged their staggering skin-and-bone pack animals till they +dropped, then, with a curse, left them to die. + +Far, far above us the monster mountains nuzzled among the clouds till +cloud and mountain were hard to tell apart. These were giant heights +heaved up to the stars, where blizzards were cradled and the storm-winds +born, stupendous horrific familiars of the tempest and the thunder. I +was conscious of their absolute sublimity. It was like height piled on +height as one would pile up sacks of flour. As Jim remarked: "Say, +wouldn't it give you crick in the neck just gazin' at them there +mountains?" + +How ant-like seemed the black army crawling up the icy pass, clinging to +its slippery face in the blinding buffet of snow and rain! Men dropped +from its ranks uncared for and unpitied. Heedless of those that fell, +the gap closed up, the march went on. The great army crawled up and over +the summit. Far behind could we see them, hundreds, thousands, a +countless host, all with "Klondike" on their lips and the lust of the +gold-lure in their hearts. It was the Great Stampede. + +"Klondike or bust," was the slogan. It was ever on the lips of those +bearded men. "Klondike or bust"--the strong man, with infinite patience, +righted his overturned sleigh, and in the face of the blinding blizzard, +pushed on through the clogging snow. "Klondike or bust"--the weary, +trail-worn one raised himself from the hole where he had fallen, and +stiff, cold, racked with pain, gritted his teeth doggedly and staggered +on a few feet more. "Klondike or bust"--the fanatic of the trail, crazed +with the gold-lust, performed mad feats of endurance, till nature +rebelled, and raving and howling, he was carried away to die. + +"'Member Joe?" some one would say, as a pack-horse came down the trail +with, strapped on it, a dead, rigid shape. "Joe used to be plumb-full of +fun; always joshin' or takin' some guy off; well--that's Joe." + +Two weary, woe-begone men were pulling a hand-sleigh down from the +summit. On it was lashed a man. He was in a high fever, raving, +delirious. Half-crazed with suffering themselves, his partners plodded +on unheedingly. I recognised in them the Bank clerk and the Professor, +and I hailed them. From black hollows their eyes stared at me +unrememberingly, and I saw how emaciated were their faces. + +"Spinal meningitis," they said laconically, and they were taking him +down to the hospital. I took a look and saw in that mask of terror and +agony the familiar face of the Wood-carver. + +He gazed at me eagerly, wildly: "I'm rich," he cried, "rich. I've found +it--the gold--in millions, millions. Now I'm going outside to spend it. +No more cold and suffering and poverty. I'm going down there to _live_, +thank God, to live." + +Poor Globstock! He died down there. He was buried in a nameless grave. +To this day I fancy his old mother waits for his return. He was her sole +support, the one thing she lived for, a good, gentle son, a man of sweet +simplicity and loving kindness. Yet he lies under the shadow of those +hard-visaged mountains in a nameless grave. + +The trail must have its tribute. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +It was at Balsam City, and things were going badly. Marks and Bullhammer +had formed a partnership with the Halfbreed, the Professor and the Bank +clerk, and the arrangement was proving a regrettable one for the latter +two. It was all due to Marks. At the best of times, he was a +cross-grained, domineering bully, and on the trail, which would have +worn to a wire edge the temper of an angel, his yellow streak became an +eyesore. He developed a chronic grouch, and it was not long before he +had the two weaker men toeing the mark. He had a way of speaking of +those who had gone up against him in the past and were "running yet," of +shooting scrapes and deadly knife-work in which he had displayed a +spirit of cold-blooded ferocity. Both the Professor and the Bank clerk +were men of peace and very impressionable. Consequently, they conceived +for Marks a shuddering respect, not unmixed with fear, and were ready to +stand on their heads at his bidding. + +On the Halfbreed, however, his intimidation did not work. While the +other two trembled at his frown, and waited on him hand and foot, the +man of Indian blood ignored him, and his face was expressionless. +Whereby he incurred the intense dislike of Marks. + +Things were going from bad to worse. The man's aggressions were daily +becoming more unbearable. He treated the others like Dagoes and on every +occasion he tried to pick a quarrel with the Halfbreed, but the latter, +entrenching himself behind his Indian phlegm, regarded him stolidly. +Marks mistook this for cowardice and took to calling the Halfbreed nasty +names, particularly reflecting on the good character of his mother. +Still the Halfbreed took no notice, yet there was a contempt in his +manner that stung more than words. This was the state of affairs when +one evening the Prodigal and I paid them a visit. + +Marks had been drinking all day, and had made life a little hell for the +others. When we arrived he was rotten-ripe for a quarrel. Then the +Prodigal suggested a game of poker, so four of them, himself, Marks, +Bullhammer and the Halfbreed, sat in. + +At first they made a ten-cent limit, which soon they raised to +twenty-five; then, at last, there was no limit but the roof. A bottle +passed from mouth to mouth and several big jack-pots were made. +Bullhammer and the Prodigal were about breaking even, Marks was losing +heavily, while steadily the Halfbreed was adding to his pile of chips. + +Through one of those freaks of chance the two men seemed to buck one +another continually. Time after time they would raise and raise each +other, till at last Marks would call, and always his opponent had the +cards. It was exasperating, maddening, especially as several times Marks +himself was called on a bluff. The very fiend of ill-luck seemed to have +gotten into him, and as the game proceeded, Marks grew more flushed and +excited. He cursed audibly. He always had good cards, but always somehow +the other just managed to beat him. He became explosively angry and +abusive. The Halfbreed offered to retire from the game, but Marks would +not hear of it. + +"Come on, you nigger!" he shouted. "Don't sneak away. Give me a chance +to get my money back." + +So they sat down once more, and a hand was dealt. The Halfbreed called +for cards, but Marks did not draw. Then the betting began. After the +second round the others dropped out, and Marks and the Halfbreed were +left. The Halfbreed was inimitably cool, his face was a perfect mask. +Marks, too, had suddenly grown very calm. They started to boost each +other. + +Both seemed to have plenty of money and at first they raised in tens and +twenties, then at last fifty dollars at a clip. It was getting exciting. +You could hear a pin drop. Bullhammer and the Prodigal watched very +quietly. Sweat stood on Marks's forehead, though the Halfbreed was +utterly calm. The jack-pot held about three hundred dollars. Then Marks +could stand it no longer. + +"I'll bet a hundred," he cried, "and see you." + +He triumphantly threw down a straight. + +"There, now," he snarled, "beat that, you stinking Malamute." + +There was a perceptible pause. I felt sorry for the Halfbreed. He could +not afford to lose all that money, but his face showed no shade of +emotion. He threw down his cards and there arose from us all a roar of +incredulous surprise. + +For the Halfbreed had thrown down a royal flush in diamonds. Marks rose. +He was now livid with passion. + +"You cheating swine," he cried; "you crooked devil!" + +Quickly he struck the other on the face, a blow that drew blood. I +thought for a moment the Halfbreed would return the blow. Into his eyes +there came a look of cold and deadly fury. But, no! quickly bending +down, he scooped up the money and left the tent. + +We stared at each other. + +"Marvellous luck!" said the Prodigal. + +"Marvellous hell!" shouted Marks. "Don't tell me it's luck. He's a +sharper, a dirty thief. But I'll get even. He's got to fight now. He'll +fight with guns and I'll kill the son of a dog." + +He was drinking from the bottle in big gulps, fanning himself into an +ungovernable fury with fiery objurgations. At last he went out, and +again swearing he would kill the Halfbreed, he made for another tent, +from which a sound of revelry was coming. + +Vaguely fearing trouble, the Prodigal and I did not go to bed, but sat +talking. Suddenly I saw him listen intently. + +"Hist! Did you hear that?" + +I seemed to hear a sound like the fierce yelling of a wild animal. + +We hurried out. It was Marks running towards us. He was crazy with +liquor, and in one hand he flourished a gun. There was foam on his lips +and he screamed as he ran. Then we saw him stop before the tent occupied +by the Halfbreed, and throw open the flap. + +"Come out, you dirty tin-horn, you crook, you Indian bastard; come out +and fight." + +He rushed in and came out again, dragging the Halfbreed at arm's length. +They were tussling together, and we flung ourselves on them and +separated them. + +I was holding Marks, when suddenly he hurled me off, and flourishing a +revolver, fired one chamber, crying: + +"Stand back, all of you; stand back! Let me shoot at him. He's my meat." + +We stepped back pretty briskly, for Marks had cut loose. In fact, we +ducked for shelter, all but the Halfbreed, who stood straight and still. + +Marks took aim at the man waiting there so coolly. He fired, and a tide +of red stained the other man's shirt, near the shoulder. Then something +happened. The Halfbreed's arm rose quickly. A six-shooter spat twice. + +He turned to us. "I didn't want to do it, boys, but you see he druv' me +to it. I'm sorry. He druv' me to it." + +Marks lay in a huddled, quivering heap. He was shot through the heart +and quite dead. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +We were camping in Paradise Valley. Before us and behind us the great +Cheechako army laboured along with infinite travail. We had suffered, +but the trail of the land was near its end. And what an end! With every +mile the misery and difficulty of the way seemed to increase. Then we +came to the trail of Rotting Horses. + +Dead animals we had seen all along the trail in great numbers, but the +sight as we came on this particular place beggared description. There +were thousands of them. One night we dragged away six of them before we +could find room to put up the tent. There they lay, sprawling horribly, +their ribs protruding through their hides, their eyes putrid in the +sunshine. It was like a battlefield, hauntingly hideous. + +And every day was adding to their numbers. The trail ran over great +boulders covered with icy slush, through which the weary brutes sank to +their bellies. Struggling desperately, down they would come between two +boulders. Then their legs would snap like pipe-stems, and there usually +they were left to die. + +One would see, jammed in the cleft of a rock, the stump of a hoof, or +sticking up sharply, the jagged splinter of a leg; while far down the +bluff lay the animal to which it belonged. One would see the poor dead +brutes lying head and tail for an hundred yards at a stretch. One would +see them deserted and desperate, wandering round foraging for food. They +would come to the camp at night whinnying pitifully, and with a look of +terrible entreaty on their starved faces. Then one would take pity on +them--and shoot them. + +I remember stumbling across a big, heavy horse one night in the gloom. +It was swaying from side to side, and as I drew near I saw its throat +was hideously cut. It looked at me with such agony in its eyes that I +put my handkerchief over its face, and, with the blow of an axe, ended +its misery. The most spirited of the horses were the first to fall. They +broke their hearts in gallant effort. Goaded to desperation, sometimes +they would destroy themselves, throw themselves frantically over the +bluff. Oh, it was horrible! horrible! + +Our own horse proved a ready victim. To tell the truth, no one but the +Jam-wagon was particularly sorry. If there was a sump-hole in sight, +that horse was sure to flounder into it. Sometimes twice in one day we +had to unhitch the ox and pull him out. There was a place dug out of the +snow alongside the trail, which was being used as a knacker's yard, and +here we took him with a broken leg and put a bullet in his brain. While +we waited there were six others brought in to be shot. + +It was a Sunday and we were in the tent, indescribably glad of a day's +rest. The Jam-wagon was mending a bit of harness; the Prodigal was +playing solitaire. Salvation Jim had just returned from a trip to +Skagway, where he had hoped to find a letter from the outside regarding +one Jake Mosher. His usually hale and kindly face was drawn and +troubled. Wearily he removed his snow-sodden clothes. + +"I always did say there was God's curse on this Klondike gold," he said; +"now I'm sure of it. There's a hoodoo on it. What it's a-goin' to cost, +what hearts it's goin' to break, what homes it's goin' to wreck no +man'll ever know. God only knows what it's cost already. But this last +is the worst yet." + +"What's the matter, Jim?" I said; "what last?" + +"Why, haven't you heard? Well, there's just been a snow-slide on the +Chilcoot an' several hundred people buried." + +I stared aghast. Living as we did in daily danger of snow-slides, this +disaster struck us with terror. + +"You don't say!" said the Prodigal. "Where?" + +"Oh, somewhere's near Lindeman. Hundreds of poor sinners cut off without +a chance to repent." + +He was going to improve on the occasion when the Prodigal cut in. + +"Poor devils! I guess we must know some of them too." He turned to me. +"I wonder if your little Polak friend's all right?" + +Indeed my thoughts had just flown to Berna. Among the exigencies of the +trail (when we had to fix our minds on the trouble of the moment and +every moment had its trouble) there was little time for reflection. +Nevertheless, I had found at all times visions of her flitting before +me, thoughts of her coming to me when I least expected them. Pity, +tenderness and a good deal of anxiety were in my mind. Often I wondered +if ever I would see her again. A feeling of joy and a great longing +would sweep over me in the hope. At these words then of the Prodigal, it +seemed as if all my scattered sentiments crystallised into one, and a +vast desire that was almost pain came over me. I suppose I was silent, +grave, and it must have been some intuition of my thoughts that made the +Prodigal say to me: + +"Say, old man, if you would like to take a run over the Dyea trail, I +guess I can spare you for a day or so." + +"Yes, indeed, I'd like to see the trail." + +"Oh, yes, we've observed your enthusiastic interest in trails. Why don't +you marry the girl? Well, cut along, old chap. Don't be gone too long." + +So next morning, travelling as lightly as possible, I started for +Bennett. How good it seemed to get off unimpeded by an outfit, and I +sped past the weary mob, struggling along on the last lap of their +journey. I had been in some expectation of the trail bettering itself, +but indeed it appeared at every step to grow more hopelessly terrible. +It was knee-deep in snowy slush, and below that seemed to be literally +paved with dead horses. + +I only waited long enough at Bennett to have breakfast. A pie nailed to +a tent-pole indicated a restaurant, and there, for a dollar, I had a +good meal of beans and bacon, coffee and flapjacks. It was yet early +morning when I started for Linderman. + +The air was clear and cold, ideal mushing weather, and already parties +were beginning to struggle into Bennett, looking very weary and jaded. +On the trail a man did a day's work by nine in the morning, another by +four in the afternoon, and a third by nightfall. You were lucky to get +off at that. + +I was jogging along past the advance guard of the oncoming army, when +who should I see but Mervin and Hewson. They looked thoroughly seasoned, +and had made record time with a large outfit. In contrast to the worn, +weary-eyed men with faces pinched and puckered, they looked insolently +fit and full of fight. They had heard of the snow-slide but could give +me no particulars. I inquired for Berna and the old man. They were +somewhere behind, between Chilcoot and Lindeman. "Yes, they were +probably buried under the slide. Good-bye." + +I hurried forward, full of apprehension. A black stream of Cheechakos +were surging across Lindeman; then I realised the greatness of the other +advancing army, and the vastness of the impulse that was urging these +indomitable atoms to the North. It was blowing quite hard and many had +put up sails on their sleds with good effect. I saw a Jew driving an ox, +to which he had four small sleds harnessed. On each of these he had +hoisted a small sail. Suddenly the ox looked round and saw the sails. +Here was something that did not come within the scope of his +experience. With a bellow of fear, he stampeded, pursued by a yelling +Hebrew, while from the chain of sleds articles scattered in all +directions. When last I saw them in the far distance, Jew and ox were +still going. + +Why was I so anxious about Berna? I did not know, but with every mile my +anxiety increased. A dim unreasoning fear possessed me. I imagined that +if anything happened to her I would forever blame myself. I saw her +lying white and cold as the snow itself, her face peaceful in death. Why +had I not thought more of her? I had not appreciated her enough, her +precious sweetness and her tenderness. If only she was spared, I would +show her what a good friend I could be. I would protect her and be near +her in case of need. But then how foolish to think anything could have +happened to her. The chances were one in a hundred. Nevertheless, I +hurried forward. + +I met the Twins. They had just escaped the slide, they told me, and had +not yet recovered from the shock. A little way back on the trail it was. +I would see men digging out the bodies. They had dug out seventeen that +morning. Some were crushed as flat as pancakes. + +Again, with a pain at my heart, I asked after Berna and her grandfather. +Twin number one said they were both buried under the slide. I gasped and +was seized with sudden faintness. "No," said twin number two, "the old +man is missing, but the girl has escaped and is nearly crazy with +grief. Good-bye." + +Once more I hurried on. Gangs of men were shovelling for the dead. Every +now and then a shovel would strike a hand or a skull. Then a shout would +be raised and the poor misshapen body turned out. + +Again I put my inquiries. A busy digger paused in his work. He was a +sottish-looking fellow, and there was something of the glare of a ghoul +in his eyes. + +"Yes, that must have been the old guy with the whiskers they dug out +early on from the lower end of the slide. Relative, name of Winklestein, +took charge of him. Took him to the tent yonder. Won't let any one go +near." + +He pointed to a tent on the hillside, and it was with a heavy heart I +went forward. The poor old man, so gentle, so dignified, with his dream +of a golden treasure that might bring happiness to others. It was cruel, +cruel.... + +"Say, what d'ye want here? Get to hell outa this." + +The words came with a snarl. I looked up in surprise. + +There at the door of the tent, all a-bristle like a gutter-bred cur, was +Winklestein. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +I stared at the man a moment, for little had I expected so gracious a +reception. + +"Mush on, there," he repeated truculently; "you're not wanted 'round +here. Mush! Pretty darned smart." + +I felt myself grow suddenly, savagely angry. I measured the man for a +moment and determined I could handle him. + +"I want," I said soberly, "to see the body of my old friend." + +"You do, do you? Well, you darned well won't. Besides, there ain't no +body here." + +"You're a liar!" I observed. "But it's no use wasting words on you. I'm +going on anyhow." + +With that I gripped him suddenly and threw him sideways with some force. +One of the tent ropes took away his feet violently, and there on the +snow he sprawled, glowering at me with evil eyes. + +"Now," said I, "I've got a gun, and if you try any monkey business, I'll +fix you so quick you won't know what's happened." + +The bluff worked. He gathered himself up and followed me into the tent, +looking the picture of malevolent impotence. On the ground lay a longish +object covered with a blanket. With a strange feeling of reluctant +horror I lifted the covering. Beneath it lay the body of the old man. + +He was lying on his back, and had not been squeezed out of all human +semblance like so many of the others. Nevertheless, he was ghastly +enough, with his bluish face and wide bulging eyes. What had worn his +fingers to the bone so? He must have made a desperate struggle with his +bare hands to dig himself out. I will never forget those torn, nailless +fingers. I felt around his waist. Ha! the money belt was gone! + +"Winklestein," I said, turning suddenly on the little Jew, "this man had +two thousand dollars on him. What have you done with it?" + +He started violently. A look of fear came into his eyes. It died away, +and his face was convulsed with rage. + +"He did not," he screamed; "he didn't have a red cent. He's no more than +an old pauper I was taking in to play the fiddle. He owes _me_, curse +him! And who are you anyways, you blasted meddler, that accuses a decent +man of being a body robber?" + +"I was this dead man's friend. I'm still his granddaughter's friend. I'm +going to see justice done. This man had two thousand dollars in a gold +belt round his waist. It belongs to the girl now. You've got to give it +up, Winklestein, or by----" + +"Prove it, prove it!" he spluttered. "You're a liar; she's a liar; +you're all a pack of liars, trying to blackmail a decent man. He had no +money, I say! He had no money, and if ever he said so, he's a liar." + +"Oh, you vile wretch!" I cried. "It's you that's lying. I've a mind to +choke your dirty throat. But I'll hound you till I make you cough up +that money. Where's Berna?" + +Suddenly he had become quietly malicious. + +"Find her," he jibed; "find her for yourself. And take yourself out of +my sight as quickly as you please." + +I saw he had me over a barrel, so, with a parting threat, I left him. A +tent nearby was being run as a restaurant, and there I had a cup of +coffee. Of the man who kept it, a fat, humorous cockney, I made +enquiries regarding the girl. Yes, he knew her. She was living in yonder +tent with Madam Winklestein. + +"They sy she's tykin' on horful baht th' old man, pore kid!" + +I thanked him, gulped down my coffee, and made for the tent. The flap +was down, but I rapped on the canvas, and presently the dark face of +Madam appeared. When she saw me, it grew darker. + +"What d'you want?" she demanded. + +"I want to see Berna," I said. + +"Then you can't. Can't you hear her? Isn't that enough?" + +Surely I could hear a very low, pitiful sound coming from the tent, +something between a sob and a moan, like the wailing of an Indian woman +over her dead, only infinitely subdued and anguished. I was shocked, +awed, immeasurably grieved. + +"Thank you," I said; "I'm sorry. I don't want to intrude on her in her +hour of affliction. I'll come again." + +"All right," she laughed tauntingly; "come again." + +I had failed. I thought of turning back, then I thought I might as well +see what I could of the far-famed Chikoot, so once more I struck out. + +The faces of the hundreds I met were the same faces I had passed by the +thousand, stamped with the seal of the trail, seamed with lines of +suffering, wan with fatigue, blank with despair. There was the same +desperate hurry, the same indifference to calamity, the same grim +stoical endurance. + +A snowstorm was raging on the summit of the Chikoot and the snow was +drifting, covering the thousands of caches to the depth of ten and +fifteen feet. I stood on the summit of that nearly perpendicular ascent +they call the "Scales." Steps had been cut in the icy steep, and up +these men were straining, each with a huge pack on his back. They could +only go in single file. It was the famous "Human Chain." At regular +distances, platforms had been cut beside the trail, where the exhausted +ones might leave the ranks and rest; but if a worn-out climber reeled +and crawled into one of the shelters, quickly the line closed up and +none gave him a glance. + +The men wore ice-creepers, so that their feet would clutch the slippery +surface. Many of them had staffs, and all were bent nigh double under +their burdens. They did not speak, their lips were grimly sealed, their +eyes fixed and stern. They bowed their heads to thwart the buffetings of +the storm-wind, but every way they turned it seemed to meet them. The +snow lay thick on their shoulders and covered their breasts. On their +beards the spiked icicles glistened. As they moved up step by step, it +seemed as if their feet were made of lead, so heavily did they lift +them. And the resting-places by the trail were never empty. + +You saw them in the canyon at the trail top, staggering in the wind that +seemed to blow every way at once. You saw them blindly groping for the +caches they had made but yesterday and now fathoms deep under the +snowdrift. You saw them descending swiftly, dizzily, leaning back on +their staffs, for the down trail was like a slide. In a moment they were +lost to sight, but to-morrow they would come again, and to-morrow and +to-morrow, the men of the Chilcoot. + +The Trail of Travail--surely it was all epitomised in the tribulations +of that stark ascent. From my eyrie on its blizzard-beaten crest I could +see the Human Chain drag upward link by link, and every link a man. And +as he climbed that pitiless treadmill, on each man's face there could be +deciphered the palimpsest of his soul. + +Oh, what a drama it was, and what a stage! The Trail of '98--high +courage, frenzied fear, despotic greed, unflinching sacrifice. But over +all--its hunger and its hope, its passion and its pain--triumphed the +dauntless spirit of the Pathfinder--the mighty Pioneer. + +[Illustration: "No," she said firmly, "you can't see the girl"] + +Then I knew, I knew. These silent, patient, toiling ones were the +Conquerors of the Great White Land; the Men of the High North, the +Brotherhood of the Arctic Wild. No saga will ever glorify their deeds, +no epic make them immortal. Their names will be written in the snows +that melt and vanish at the smile of Spring; but in their works will +they live, and their indomitable spirit will be as a beacon-light, +shining down the dim corridors of Eternity. + + * * * * * + +I slept at a bunkhouse that night, and next morning I again made a call +at the tent within which lay Berna. Again Madam, in a gaudy wrapper, +answered my call, but this time, to my surprise, she was quite pleasant. + +"No," she said firmly, "you can't see the girl. She's all prostrated. +We've given her a sleeping powder and she's asleep now. But she's mighty +sick. We've sent for a doctor." + +There was indeed nothing to be done. With a heavy heart I thanked her, +expressed my regrets and went away. What had got into me, I wondered, +that I was so distressed about the girl. I thought of her continually, +with tenderness and longing. I had seen so little of her, yet that +little had meant so much. I took a sad pleasure in recalling her to mind +in varying aspects; always she appeared different to me somehow. I could +get no definite idea of her; ever was there something baffling, +mysterious, half revealed. + +To me there was in her, beauty, charm, every ideal quality. Yet must my +eyes have been anointed, for others passed her by without a second +glance. Oh, I was young and foolish, maybe; but I had never before known +a girl that appealed to me, and it was very, very sweet. + +So I went back to the restaurant and gave the fat cockney a note which +he promised to deliver into her own hands. I wrote: + + "Dear Berna: I cannot tell you how deeply grieved I am over your + grandfather's death, and how I sympathise with you in your sorrow. + I came over from the other trail to see you, but you were too ill. + Now I must go back at once. If I could only have said a word to + comfort you! I feel terribly about it. + + "Oh, Berna, dear, go back, go back. This is no country for you. If + I can help you, Berna, let me know. If you come on to Bennett, then + I will see you. + + "Believe me again, dear, my heart aches for you. + + "Be brave. + + "Always affectionately yours, + + "Athol Meldrum." + +Then once more I struck out for Bennett. + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +Our last load was safely landed in Bennett and the trail of the land was +over. We had packed an outfit of four thousand pounds over a +thirty-seven-mile trail and it had taken us nearly a month. For an +average of fifteen hours a day we had worked for all that was in us; +yet, looking back, it seems to have been more a matter of dogged +persistence and patience than desperate endeavour and endurance. + +There is no doubt that to the great majority, the trail spelt privation, +misery and suffering; but they were of the poor, deluded multitude that +never should have left their ploughs, their desks and their benches. +Then there were others like ourselves to whom it meant hardship, more or +less extreme, but who managed to struggle along fairly well. Lastly, +there was a minority to whom it was little more than discomfort. They +were the seasoned veterans of the trail to whom its trials were all in +the day's work. It was as if the Great White Land was putting us to the +test, was weeding out the fit from the unfit, was proving itself a land +of the Strong, a land for men. + +And indeed our party was well qualified to pass the test of the trail. +The Prodigal was full of irrepressible enthusiasm, and always loaded to +the muzzle with ideas. Salvation Jim was a mine of foresight and +resource, while the Jam-wagon proved himself an insatiable glutton for +work. Altogether we fared better than the average party. + +We were camped on the narrow neck of water between Lindeman and Bennett, +and as hay was two hundred and fifty dollars a ton, the first thing we +did was to butcher the ox. The next was to see about building a boat. We +thought of whipsawing our own boards, but the timber near us was poor or +thinned out, so that in the end we bought lumber, paying for it twenty +cents a foot. We were all very unexpert carpenters; however, by watching +others, we managed to make a decent-looking boat. + +These were the busy days. At Bennett the two great Cheechako armies +converged, and there must have been thirty thousand people camped round +the lake. The night was ablaze with countless camp-fires, the day a buzz +of busy toil. Everywhere you heard the racket of hammer and saw, beheld +men in feverish haste over their boat-building. There were many fine +boats, but the crude makeshift effort of the amateur predominated. Some +of them, indeed, had no more shape than a packing-case, and not a few +resembled a coffin. Anything that would float and keep out the water was +a "boat." + +Oh, it was good to think that from thenceforward, the swift, clear +current would bear us to our goal. No more icy slush to the knee, no +more putrid horse-flesh under foot, no more blinding blizzards and +heart-breaking drift of snows. But the blue sky would canopy us, the +gentle breezes fan us, the warm sun lock us in her arms. No more bitter +freezings and sinister dawns and weary travail of mind and body. The +hills would busk themselves in emerald green, the wild crocus come to +gladden our eyes, the long nights glow with sunsets of theatric +splendour. No wonder, in the glory of reaction, we exulted and laboured +on our boat with brimming hearts. And always before us gleamed the +Golden Magnet, making us chafe and rage against the stubborn ice that +stayed our progress. + +The days were full of breezy sunshine and at all times the Eager Army +watched the rotting ice with anxious eyes. In places it was fairly +honeycombed now, in others corroded and splintered into silver spears. +Here and there it heaved up and cracked across in gaping chasms; again +it sagged down suddenly. There were sheets of surface water and +stretches of greenish slush that froze faintly overnight. In large, +flaming letters of red, the lake was dangerous, near to a break-up, a +death trap; yet every day the reckless ones were going over it to be +that much nearer the golden goal. + +In this game of taking desperate chances, many a wild player lost, many +a foolhardy one never reached the shore. No one will ever know the +number of victims claimed by these black unfathomable waters. + +It was the Professor who opened our eyes to the danger of crossing the +lake. He and the Bank clerk quarrelled over the wisdom of delay. The +Professor was positive it was quite safe. The ice was four feet thick. +Go fast over the weak spots and you would be all right. He argued, fumed +and ranted. They were losing precious time, time which might mean all +the difference between failure and success. It was expedient to get +ahead of the rabble. He, for one, was no craven; he had staked his all +on this trip. He had studied the records of Arctic explorers. He thought +he was no man's fool. If others were cowardly enough to hold back, he +would go alone. + +The upshot of it was that one grey morning he took his share of the +outfit and started off by himself. + +Said the Bank clerk, half crying: + +"Poor old Pondersby! In spite of the words we had, we parted the best of +friends. We shook hands and I wished him all good-speed. I saw him +twisting and wriggling among the patches of black and white ice. For a +long time I watched him with a heavy heart. Yet he seemed to be getting +along nicely, and I was beginning to think he was right and to call +myself a fool. He was getting quite small in the distance, when suddenly +he seemed to disappear. I got the glasses. There was a big hole in the +ice, no sleigh, no Pondersby. Poor old fellow!" + +There were many such cases of separation on the shores of Lake Bennett. +Parties who had started out on that trail as devoted chums, finished it +as lifelong enemies. Tempers were ground to a razor-edge; words dropped +crudely; anger flamed to meet anger. You could scarcely blame them. They +did not realise that the trail demanded all that was in a man of +gentleness, patience and forbearance. Poor human nature was strained and +tested inexorably, and the most loving friends became the most deadly +foes forevermore. + +One instance of this was the twins. + +"Say," said the Prodigal, "you ought to see Romulus and Remus. They're +scrapping like cat and dog. Seems they've had a bunch of trouble right +along the line--you know how the trail brings out the yellow streak in a +man. Well, they're both fiery as Hades, so after a particularly warm +evening they swore that as soon as they got to Bennett, they'd divvy up +the stuff and each go off by his lonesome. Somehow, they patched it up +when they reached here and got busy on their boat. Now it seems they've +quarrelled worse than ever. Romulus is telling Remus his real name and +_vice-versa_. They're raking up old grievances of their childhood days, +and the end of it is they've once more decided to halve tip the outfit. +They're mad enough to kill each other. They've even decided to cut their +boat in two." + +It was truly so. We went and watched them. Each had a bitter +determination on his face. They were sawing the boat through the middle. +Afterwards, I believe, they patched up their ends and made a successful +trip to Dawson. + +The ice was going fast. Strangers were still coming in over the trail +with awful tales of its horrors. Bennett was all excitement and seething +life. Thousands of ungainly boats, rafts and scows were waiting to be +launched. Already craft were beginning to come through from Lindeman, +rushing down the fierce torrent between the two lakes. From where we +were camped we saw them pass. There were ugly rapids and a fang-like +rock, against which many a luckless craft was piled up. + +It was the most fascinating thing in the world to watch these daring +Argonauts rush the rapids, to speculate whether or not they would get +through. The stroke of an oar, a few feet to right or left, meant +unspeakable calamity. Poor souls! Their faces of utter despair as they +landed dripping from the water and saw their precious goods disappearing +in the angry foam would have moved a heart of stone. As one man said, in +the bitterness of his heart: + +"Oh, boys, what a funny God we've got!" + +There was a man who came sailing through the passage with a fine boat +and a rich outfit. He had lugged it over the trail at the cost of +infinite toil and weariness. Now his heart was full of hope. Suddenly he +was in the whirl of the current, then all at once loomed up the cruel +rock. His face blanched with horror. Frantically he tried to avoid it. +No use. Crash! and his frail boat splintered like matchwood. + +But this man was a fighter. He set his jaw. Once more he went back over +that deadly trail. He bought, at great expense, a new outfit and had +packers hustle it over the trail. He procured a new boat. Once more he +sailed through the narrow canyon. His face was set and grim. + +Suddenly, like some iron Nemesis, once more loomed up the fatal rock. He +struggled gallantly, but again the current seemed to grip him and throw +him on that deadly fang. With another sickening crash he saw his goods +sink in the seething waters. + +Did he give up? No! A third time he struggled, weary, heartbroken, over +that trail. He had little left now, and with that little he bought his +third outfit, a poor, pathetic shadow of the former ones, but enough for +a desperate man. + +Once more he packed it over the trail, now a perfect Avernus of horror. +He reached the river, and in a third poor little boat, again he sailed +down the passage. There was the swift-leaping current, the ugly tusk of +rock staked with wreckage. A moment, a few feet, a turn of the +oar-blade, and he would have been past. But, no! The rock seemed to +fascinate him as the eyes of a snake fascinate a bird. He stared at it +fearfully, a look of terror and despair. Then for the third time, with a +hideous crash, his frail boat was piled up in a pitiful ruin. + +He was beaten now. + +He climbed on the bank, and there, with a last look at the ugly snarl of +waters, and the jagged up-thrust of that evil rock, he put a bullet +smashing through his brain. + + * * * * * + +The ice was loose and broken. We were all ready to start in a few days. +The mighty camp was in a ferment of excitement. Every one seemed elated +beyond words. On, once more, to Eldorado! + +It was near midnight, but the sky, where the sun had dipped below the +mountain rim, was a sea of translucent green, weirdly and wildly +harmonious with the desolation of the land. On the bleak lake one could +hear the lap of waves, while the high, rocky shore to the left was a +black wall of shadow. I stood by the beach near our boat, all alone in +the wan light, and tried to think calmly of the strange things that had +happened to me. + +Surely there was something of Romance left in this old world yet if one +would only go to seek it. Here I was, sun-browned, strong, healthy, +having come through many trials and still on the edge of adventure, when +I might, but for my own headstrong perversity, have yet been vegetating +on the hills of Glengyle. A great exultation welled up in me, the voice +of youth and ambition, the lust to conquer. I would succeed, I would +wrest from the vast, lonely, mysterious North some of its treasure. I +would be a conqueror. + +Silent and abstracted, I looked into the brooding disk of sheeny sky, my +eyes dream-troubled. + +Then I felt a ghostly hand touch my arm, and with a great start of +surprise, I turned. + +"Berna!" + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + +The girl was wearing a thin black shawl around her shoulders, but in the +icy wind blowing from the lake, she trembled like a wand. Her face was +pale, waxen, almost spiritual in its expression, and she looked at me +with just the most pitiably sweet smile in the world. + +"I'm sorry I startled you; but I wanted to thank you for your letter and +for your sympathy." + +It was the same clear voice, with the throb of tender feeling in it. + +"You see, I'm all alone now." The voice faltered, but went on bravely. +"I've got no one that cares about me any more, and I've been sick, so +sick I wonder I lived. I knew you'd forgotten me, and I don't blame you. +But I've never forgotten you, and I wanted to see you just once more." + +She was speaking quite calmly and unemotionally. + +"Berna!" I cried; "don't say that. Your reproach hurts me so. Indeed I +did try to find you, but it's such a vast camp. There are so many +thousands of people here. Time and again I inquired, but no one seemed +to know. Then I thought you must surely have gone back, and it's been +such a busy time, building our boat and getting ready. No, Berna, I +didn't forget. Many's and many's a night I've lain awake thinking of +you, wondering, longing to see you again--but haven't you forgotten a +little?" + +I saw the sensitive lips smile almost bitterly. + +"No! not even a little." + +"Oh! I'm sorry, Berna. I'm sorry I've looked after you so badly. I'll +never forgive myself. You've been terribly sick, too. What a little +white whisp you are! You look as if a breeze would blow you away. You +shouldn't be out this night, girl. Put my coat around you, come now." + +I wrapped her in it and saw with gladness her shivering cease. As I +buttoned it at her throat I marvelled at the thinness of her, and at the +delicacy of her face. In the opal light of the luminous sky her great +grey eyes were lustrous. + +"Berna," I said again, "why did you come in here, why? You should have +gone back." + +"Gone back," she repeated; "indeed I would have, oh, so gladly. But you +don't understand--they wouldn't let me. After they had got all his +money--and they _did_ get it, though they swear he had nothing--they +made me come on with them. They said I owed them for his burial, and for +the care and attention they gave me when I was sick. They said I must +come on with them and work for them. I protested, I struggled. But +what's the use? I can't do anything against them any more. I'm weak, and +I'm terribly afraid of her." + +She shuddered, then a look of fear came into her eyes. I put my hand on +her arm and drew her close to me. + +"I just slipped away to-night. She thinks I'm asleep in the tent. She +watches me like a cat, and will scarce let me speak to any one. She's so +big and strong, and I'm so slight and weak. She would kill me in one of +her rages. Then she tells every one I'm no good, an ingrate, everything +that's bad. Once when I threatened to run away, she said she would +accuse me of stealing and have me put in gaol. That's the kind of woman +she is." + +"This is terrible, Berna. What have you been doing all the time?" + +"Oh, I've been working, working for them. They've been running a little +restaurant and I've waited on table. I saw you several times, but you +were always too busy or too far away in dreams to see me, and I couldn't +get a chance to speak. But we're going down the lake to-morrow, so I +thought I would just slip away and say good-bye." + +"Not good-bye," I faltered; "not good-bye." + +Her tone was measured, her eyes closed almost. + +"Yes, I'm afraid I must say it. When we get down there, it's good-bye, +good-bye. The less you have to do with me, the better." + +"What do you mean?" + +"Well, I mean this. These people are not decent. They're vile. I must go +with them; I cannot get away. Already, though I'm as pure as your sister +would be, already my being with them has smirched me in everybody's +eyes. I can see it by the way the men look at me. No, go your way and +leave me to whatever fate is in store for me." + +"Never!" I said harshly. "What do you take me for, Berna?" + +"My friend ... you know, after his death, when I was so sick, I wanted +to die. Then I got your letter, and I felt I must see you again for--I +thought a lot of you. No man's ever been so kind to me as you have. +They've all been--the other sort. I used to think of you a good deal, +and I wanted to do some little thing to show you I was really grateful. +On the boat I used to notice you because you were so quiet and +abstracted. Then you were grandfather's room-mate and gentle and kind to +him. You looked different from the others, too; your eyes were good----" + +"Oh, come, Berna, never mind that." + +"Yes, I mean it. I just wanted to tell you the things a poor girl +thought of you. But now it's all nearly over. We've neither of us got to +think of each other any more ... and I just wanted to give you this--to +remind you sometimes of Berna." + +It was a poor little locket and it contained a lock of her silken hair. + +"It's worth nothing, I know, but just keep it for me." + +"Indeed I will, Berna, keep it always, and wear it for you. But I can't +let you go like this. See here, girl, is there nothing I can do? +Nothing? Surely there must be some way. Berna, Berna, look at me, listen +to me! Is there? What can I do? Tell me, tell me, my girl." + +She seemed to sway to me gently. Indeed I did not intend it, but +somehow she was in my arms. She felt so slight and frail a thing, I +feared to hurt her. + +Then I felt her bosom heaving greatly, and I knew she was crying. For a +little I let her cry, but presently I lifted up the white face that lay +on my shoulder. It was wet with tears. Again and again I kissed her. She +lay passively in my arms. Never did she try to escape nor hide her face, +but seemed to give herself up to me. Her tears were salt upon my lips, +yet her own lips were cold, and she did not answer to my kisses. + +At last she spoke. Her voice was like a little sigh. + +"Oh, if it could only be!" + +"What, Berna? Tell me what?" + +"If you could only take me away from them, protect me, care for me. Oh, +if you could only _marry_ me, make me your wife. I would be the best +wife in the world to you; I would work my fingers to the bone for you; I +would starve and suffer for you, and walk the world barefoot for your +sake. Oh, my dear, my dear, pity me!" + +It seemed as if a sudden light had flashed upon my brain, stunning me, +bewildering me. I thought of the princess of my dreams. I thought of +Garry and of Mother. Could I take her to them? + +"Berna," I said sternly, "look at me." + +She obeyed. + +"Berna, tell me, by all you regard as pure and holy, do you love me?" + +She was silent and averted her eyes. + +"No, Berna," I said, "you don't; you're afraid. It's not the sort of +love you've dreamed of. It's not your ideal. It would be gratitude and +affection, love of a kind, but never that great dazzling light, that +passion that would raise to heaven or drag to hell." + +"How do I know? Perhaps that would come in time. I care a great deal for +you. I think of you always. I would be a true, devoted wife----" + +"Yes, I know, Berna; but you don't love me, love me; see, dear. It's so +different. You might care and care till doomsday, but it wouldn't be the +other thing; it wouldn't be love as I have conceived of it, dreamed of +it. Listen, Berna! Here's where our difference in race comes in. You +would rush blindly into this. You would not consider, test and prove +yourself. It's the most serious matter in life to me, something to be +looked at from every side, to be weighed and balanced." + +As I said this, my conscience was whispering fiercely: "Oh, fool! +Coward! Paltering, despicable coward! This girl throws herself on you, +on your honour, chivalry, manhood, and you screen yourself behind a +barrier of convention." + +However, I went on. + +"You might come to love me in time, but we must wait a while, little +girl. Surely that is reasonable? I care for you a great, great deal, but +I don't know if I love you in the great way people should love. Can't we +wait a little, Berna? I'll look after you, dear; won't that do?" + +She disengaged herself from me, sighing woefully. + +"Yes, I suppose that'll do. Oh, I'll never forgive myself for saying +that to you. I shouldn't, but I was so desperate. You don't know what it +meant to me. Please forget it, won't you?" + +"No, Berna, I'll never forget it, and I'll always bless you for having +said it. Believe me, dear, it will all come right. Things aren't so bad. +You're just scared, little one. I'll watch no one harms you, and love +will come to both of us in good time, that love that means life and +death, hate and adoration, rapture and pain, the greatest thing in the +world. Oh, my dear, my dear, trust me! We have known each other such a +brief space. Let us wait a little longer, just a little longer." + +"Yes, that's right, a little longer." + +Her voice was faint and toneless. She disengaged herself. + +"Now, good-night; they may have missed me." + +Almost before I could realise it she had disappeared amid the tents, +leaving me there in the gloom with my heart full of doubt, self-reproach +and pain. + +Oh, despicable, paltering coward! + + + + +CHAPTER XII + + +Spring in the Yukon! Majestic mountains crowned with immemorial snow! +The mad midnight melodies of birds! From the kindly stars to the leaves +of grass that glimmer in the wind, a world pregnant with joy, a land +jewel-bright and virgin-sweet! + +After the obsession of the long, long night, Spring leaps into being +with a sudden sun-thrilled joy, a radiant uplift. The shy emerald +mantles the valleys and fledges the heights; the pussy-willows tremble +by lake and stream; the wild crocus brims the hollows with a haze of +violet; trailing his last ragged pennants of snow on the hills, winter +makes his sullen retreat. + +Perhaps I am over-sensitive, but I have ecstasied moments when to me it +seems the grass is greener, the sky bluer than they are to most; I +surrender my heart to wonder and joy; I am in tune with the triumphant +cadence of Things; I am an atom of praise; I live, therefore I exult. + +Only in hyperbole could I express that golden Spring, as we set sail on +the sunlit waters of Lake Bennett. Never had I felt so glad. And indeed +it was a vastly merry mob that sailed with us, straining their eyes once +more to the Eldorado of their dreams. Bottled-up spirits effervesced +wildly; hearts beat bravely; hopes were high. The bitter landtrail was +forgotten. The clear, bright water leaped laughingly at the bow; the +gallant breeze was blowing behind. The strong men bared their breasts +and drank of it deeply. + +Yes, they were the strong, the fit, suffered by the North to survive, +stiffened and braced and seasoned, the Chosen of the Test, the Proven of +the Trail. Songs of jubilation rang in the night air; men, eager-eyed +and watchful, roared snatches of melody as they toiled at sweep and oar; +banjos, mandolins, fiddles, flutes, mingled in maddest confusion. Once +more the great invading army of the Cheechakos moved forward +tumultuously, but now with mirth and rejoicing. + +The great calm night was never dark, the great deep lakes infinitely +serene, the great mountains majestically solemn. In the lighted sky the +pale ghost-moon seemed ever apologising for itself. The world was a +grand harmonious symphony that even the advancing tide of the Argonauts +could not mar. + +Yet, under all the mirth and gaiety, you could feel, tense, ruthless and +dominant, the spirit of the trail. In that invincible onrush of human +effort, as the oars bent with their strokes of might, as the sail +bellied before the breeze, as the eager wave leapt at the bow, you could +feel the passion that quickened their hearts and steeled their arms. +Klondike or bust! Once more the slogan rang on bearded lips; once more +the gold-lust smouldered in their eyes. The old primal lust resurged: to +win at any cost, to thrust down those in the way, to fight fiercely, +brutally, even as wolf-dogs fight, this was the code, the terrible code +of the Gold-trail. The basic passions up-leapt, envy and hate and fear +triumphed, and with ever increasing excitement the great fleet of the +gold-hunters strained onward to the valley of the treasure. + +Of all who had started out with us but a few had got this far. Of these +Mervin and Hewson were far in front, victors of the trail, qualified to +rank with the Men of the High North, the Sourdoughs of the Yukon Valley. +Somewhere in the fleet were the Bank clerk, the Halfbreed and +Bullhammer, while three days' start ahead were the Winklesteins. + +"These Jews have the only system," commented the Prodigal; "they ran the +'Elight' Restaurant in Bennett and got action on their beans and flour +and bacon. The Madam cooked, the old man did the chores and the girl +waited on table. They've roped in a bunch of money, and now they've lit +out for Dawson in a nice, tight little scow with their outfits turned +into wads of the long green." + +I kept a keen lookout for them and every day I hoped we would overtake +their scow, for constantly I thought of Berna. Her little face, so +wistfully tender, haunted me, and over and over in my mind I kept +recalling our last meeting. + +At times I blamed myself for letting her go so easily, and then again I +was thankful that I had not allowed my heart to run away with my head. +For I was beginning to wonder if I had not given her my heart, given it +easily, willingly and without reserve. And in truth at the idea I felt +a strange thrill of joy. The girl seemed to me all that was fair, +lovable and sweet. + +We were now skimming over Tagish Lake. With grey head bared to the +breeze and a hymn stave on his lips, Salvation Jim steered in the strong +sunlight. His face was full of cheer, his eyes alight with kindly hope. +Leaning over the side, the Prodigal was dragging a spoon-bait to catch +the monster trout that lived in those depths. The Jam-wagon, as if +disgusted at our enforced idleness, slumbered at the bow. As he slept I +noticed his fine nostrils, his thin, bitter lips, his bare brawny arms, +tattooed with strange devices. How clean he kept his teeth and nails! +There was the stamp of the thoroughbred all over him. In what strange +parts of the world had he run amuck? What fair, gracious women mourned +for him in far-away England? + +Ah, those enchanted days, the sky spaces abrim with light, the +gargantuan mountains, the eager army of adventurers, undismayed at the +gloomy vastness! + +We came to Windy Arm, rugged, desolate and despairful. Down it, with +menace and terror on its wings, rushes the furious wind, driving boats +and scows crashing on an iron shore. In the night we heard shouts; we +saw wreckage piled up on the beach, but we pulled away. For twelve weary +hours we pulled at the oars, and in the end our danger was past. + +We came to Lake Tagish; a dead calm, a blazing sun, a seething mist of +mosquitoes. We sweltered in the heat; we strained, with blistered +hands, at the oars; we cursed and toiled like a thousand others of that +grotesque fleet. There were boats of every shape, square, oblong, +circular, three-cornered, flat, round--anything that would float. They +were made mostly of boards, laboriously hand-sawn in the woods, and from +a half-inch to four inches thick. Black pitch smeared the seams of the +raw lumber. They travelled sideways as well as in any other fashion. And +in such crazy craft were thousands of amateur boatmen, sailing serenely +along, taking danger with sang-froid, and at night, over their +camp-fires, hilariously telling of their hairbreadth escapes. + +We entered the Fifty-mile River; we were in a giant valley; tier after +tier of benchland rose to sentinel mountains of austerest grandeur. +There at the bottom the little river twisted like a silver wire, and +down it rowed the eager army. They shattered the silence into wildest +echo, they roused the bears out of their frozen sleep; the forest flamed +from their careless fires. + +The river was our beast of burden now, a tireless, gentle beast. +Serenely and smoothly it bore us onward, yet there was a note of menace +in its song. They had told us of the canyon and of the rapids, and as we +pulled at the oars and battled with the mosquitoes, we wondered when the +danger was coming, how we would fare through it when it came. + +Then one evening as we were sweeping down the placid river, the current +suddenly quickened. The banks were sliding past at a strange speed. +Swiftly we whirled around a bend, and there we were right on top of the +dreadful canyon. Straight ahead was what seemed to be a solid wall of +rock. The river looked to have no outlet; but as we drew nearer we saw +that there was a narrow chasm in the stony face, and at this the water +was rearing and charging with an angry roar. + +The current was gripping us angrily now; there was no chance to draw +back. At his post stood the Jam-wagon with the keen, alert look of the +man who loves danger. A thrill of excitement ran through us all. With +set faces we prepared for the fight. + +I was in the bow. All at once I saw directly in front a scow struggling +to make the shore. In her there were three people, two women and a man. +I saw the man jump out with a rope and try to snub the scow to a tree. +Three times he failed, running along the bank and shouting frantically. +I saw one of the women jump for the shore. Then at the same instant the +rope parted, and the scow, with the remaining woman, went swirling on +into the canyon. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + +All this I saw, and so fascinated was I that I forgot our own peril. I +heard a shrill scream of fear; I saw the solitary woman crouch down in +the bottom of the scow, burying her face in her hands; I saw the scow +rise, hover, and then plunge downward into the angry maw of the canyon. + +The river hurried us on helplessly. We were in the canyon now. The air +grew dark. On each side, so close it seemed we could almost touch them +with our oars, were black, ancient walls, towering up dizzily. The river +seemed to leap and buck, its middle arching four feet higher than its +sides, a veritable hog-back of water. It bounded on in great billows, +green, hillocky and terribly swift, like a liquid toboggan slide. We +plunged forward, heaved aloft, and the black, moss-stained walls +brindled past us. + +About midway in the canyon is a huge basin, like the old crater of a +volcano, sloping upwards to the pine-fringed skyline. Here was a giant +eddy, and here, circling round and round, was the runaway scow. The +forsaken woman was still crouching on it. The light was quite wan, and +we were half blinded by the flying spray, but I clung to my place at the +bow and watched intently. + +"Keep clear of that scow," I heard some one shout. "Avoid the eddy." + +It was almost too late. The ill-fated scow spun round and swooped down +on us. In a moment we would have been struck and overturned, but I saw +Jim and the Jam-wagon give a desperate strain at the oars. I saw the +scow swirling past, just two feet from us. I looked again--then with a +wild panic of horror I saw that the crouching figure was that of Berna. + +I remember jumping--it must have been five feet--and I landed half in, +half out of the water. I remember clinging a moment, then pulling myself +aboard. I heard shouts from the others as the current swept them into +the canyon. I remember looking round and cursing because both sweeps had +been lost overboard, and lastly I remember bending over Berna and +shouting in her ear: + +"All right, I'm with you!" + +If an angel had dropped from high heaven to her rescue I don't believe +the girl could have been more impressed. For a moment she stared at me +unbelievingly. I was kneeling by her and she put her hands on my +shoulders as if to prove to herself that I was real. Then, with a +half-sob, half-cry of joy, she clasped her arms tightly around me. +Something in her look, something in the touch of her slender, clinging +form made my heart exult. Once again I shouted in her ear. + +"It's all right, don't be frightened. We'll pull through, all right." + +Once more we had whirled off into the main current; once more we were in +that roaring torrent, with its fearsome dips and rises, its columned +walls corroded with age and filled with the gloom of eternal twilight. +The water smashed and battered us, whirled us along relentlessly, lashed +us in heavy sprays; yet with closed eyes and thudding hearts we waited. +Then suddenly the light grew strong again. The primaeval walls were gone. +We were sweeping along smoothly, and on either side of us the valley +sloped in green plateaus up to the smiling sky. + +I unlocked my arms and peered down to where her face lay half hidden on +my breast. + +"Thank God, I was able to reach you!" + +"Yes, thank God!" she answered faintly. "Oh, I thought it was all over. +I nearly died with fear. It was terrible. Thank God for you!" + +But she had scarce spoken when I realised, with a vast shock, that the +danger was far from over. We were hurrying along helplessly in that +fierce current, and already I heard the roar of the Squaw Rapids. Ahead, +I could see them dancing, boiling, foaming, blood-red in the sunset +glow. + +"Be brave, Berna," I had to shout again; "we'll be all right. Trust me, +dear!" + +She, too, was staring ahead with dilated eyes of fear. Yet at my words +she became wonderfully calm, and in her face there was a great, glad +look that made my heart rejoice. She nestled to my side. Once more she +waited. + +We took the rapids broadside on, but the scow was light and very strong. +Like a cork in a mill-stream we tossed and spun around. The vicious, +mauling wolf-pack of the river heaved us into the air, and worried us +as we fell. Drenched, deafened, stunned with fierce, nerve-shattering +blows, every moment we thought to go under. We were in a caldron of +fire. The roar of doom was in our ears. Giant hands with claws of foam +were clutching, buffeting us. Shrieks of fury assailed us, as demon +tossed us to demon. Was there no end to it? Thud, crash, roar, sickening +us to our hearts; lurching, leaping, beaten, battered ... then all at +once came a calm; we must be past; we opened our eyes. + +We were again sweeping round a bend in the river in the shadow of a high +bluff. If we could only make the bank--but, no! The current hurled us +along once more. I saw it sweep under a rocky face of the hillside, and +then I knew that the worst was coming. For there, about two hundred +yards away, were the dreaded Whitehorse Rapids. + +"Close your eyes, Berna!" I cried. "Lie down on the bottom. Pray as you +never prayed before." + +We were on them now. The rocky banks close in till they nearly meet. +They form a narrow gateway of rock, and through those close-set jaws the +raging river has to pass. Leaping, crashing over its boulder-strewn bed, +gaining in terrible impetus at every leap, it gathers speed for its last +desperate burst for freedom. Then with a great roar it charges the gap. + +But there, right in the way, is a giant boulder. Water meets rock in a +crash of terrific onset. The river is beaten, broken, thrown back on +itself, and with a baffled roar rises high in the air in a raging hell +of spume and tempest. For a moment the chasm is a battleground of the +elements, a fierce, titanic struggle. Then the river, wrenching free, +falls into the basin below. + +"Lie down, Berna, and hold on to me!" + +We both dropped down in the bottom of the scow, and she clasped me so +tightly I marvelled at the strength of her. I felt her wet cheek pressed +to mine, her lips clinging to my lips. + +"Now, dear, just a moment and it will all be over." + +Once again the angry thunder of the waters. The scow took them nose on, +riding gallantly. Again we were tossed like a feather in a whirlwind, +pitchforked from wrath to wrath. Once more, swinging, swerving, +straining, we pelted on. On pinnacles of terror our hearts poised +nakedly. The waters danced a fiery saraband; each wave was a demon +lashing at us as we passed; or again they were like fear-maddened horses +with whipping manes of flame. We clutched each other convulsively. Would +it never, never end ... then ... then ... + +It seemed the last had come. Up, up we went. We seemed to hover +uncertainly, tilted, hair-poised over a yawning gulf. Were we going to +upset? Mental agony screamed in me. But, no! We righted. Dizzily we +dipped over; steeply we plunged down. Oh! it was terrible! We were in a +hornets' nest of angry waters and they were stinging us to death; we +were in a hollow cavern roofed over with slabs of seething foam; the +fiery horses were trampling us under their myriad hoofs. I gave up all +hope. I felt the girl faint in my arms. How long it seemed! I wished for +the end. _The flying hammers of hell were pounding us, pounding us--Oh, +God! Oh, God!..._ + +Then, swamped from bow to stern, half turned over, wrecked and broken, +we swept into the peaceful basin of the river below. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + +On the flats around the Whitehorse Rapids was a great largess of wild +flowers. The shooting stars gladdened the glade with gold; the bluebells +brimmed the woodland hollow with amethyst; the fire-weed splashed the +hills with the pink of coral. Daintily swinging, like clustered pearls, +were the petals of the orchid. In glorious profusion were begonias, +violets, and Iceland poppies, and all was in a setting of the keenest +emerald. But over the others dominated the wild rose, dancing everywhere +and flinging its perfume to the joyful breeze. + +Boats and scows were lined up for miles along the river shore. On the +banks water-soaked outfits lay drying in the sun. We, too, had shipped +much water in our passage, and a few days would be needed to dry out +again. So it was that I found some hours of idleness and was able to see +a good deal of Berna. + +Madam Winklestein I found surprisingly gracious. She smiled on me, and +in her teeth, like white quartz, the creviced gold gleamed. She had a +smooth, flattering way with her that disarmed enmity. Winklestein, too, +had conveniently forgotten our last interview, and extended to me the +paw of spurious friendship. I was free to see Berna as much as I chose. + +Thus it came about that we rambled among the woods and hills, picking +wild flowers and glad almost with the joy of children. In these few days +I noted a vast change in the girl. Her cheeks, pale as the petals of the +wild orchid, seemed to steal the tints of the briar-rose, and her eyes +beaconed with the radiance of sun-waked skies. It was as if in the poor +child a long stifled capacity for joy was glowing into being. + +One golden day, with her cheeks softly flushed, her eyes shining, she +turned to me. + +"Oh, I could be so happy if I only had a chance, if I only had the +chance other girls have. It would take so little to make me the happiest +girl in the world--just to have a home, a plain, simple home where all +was sunshine and peace; just to have the commonest comforts, to be +care-free, to love and be loved. That would be enough." She sighed and +went on: + +"Then if I might have books, a little music, flowers--oh, it seems like +a dream of heaven; as well might I sigh for a palace." + +"No palace could be too fair for you, Berna, no prince too noble. Some +day, your prince will come, and you will give him that great love I told +you of once." + +Swiftly a shadow came into the bright eyes, the sweet mouth curved +pathetically. + +"Not even a beggar will seek me, a poor nameless girl travelling in the +train of dishonour ... and again, I will never love." + +"Yes, you will indeed, girl--infinitely, supremely. I know you, Berna; +you'll love as few women do. Your dearest will be all your world, his +smile your heaven, his frown your death. Love was at the fashioning of +you, dear, and kissed your lips and sent you forth, saying, 'There goeth +my handmaiden.'" + +I thought for a while ere I went on. + +"You cared for your grandfather; you gave him your whole heart, a love +full of self-sacrifice, of renunciation. Now he is gone, you will love +again, but the next will be to the last as wine is to water. And the day +will come when you will love grandly. Yours will be a great, consuming +passion that knows no limit, no assuagement. It will be your glory and +your shame. For him will your friends be foes, your light darkness. You +will go through fire and water for your beloved's sake; your parched +lips will call his name, your frail hands cling to him in the shadow of +death. Oh, I know, I know. Love has set you apart. You will immolate +yourself on his altars. You will dare, defy and die for him. I'm sorry +for you, Berna." + +Her face hung down, her lips quivered. As for me, I was surprised at my +words and scarce knew what I was saying. + +At last she spoke. + +"If ever I loved like that, the man I loved must be a king among men, a +hero, almost a god." + +"Perhaps, Berna, perhaps; but not needfully. He may be a grim man with a +face of power and passion, a virile, dominant brute, but--well, I think +he will be more of a god. Let's change the subject." + +I found she had all the sad sophistication of the lowly-born, yet with +it an invincible sense of purity, a delicate horror of the physical +phases of love. She was a finely motived creature with impossible +ideals, but out of her stark knowledge of life she was naively +outspoken. + +Once I asked of her: + +"Berna, if you had to choose between death and dishonour, which would +you prefer?" + +"Death, of course," she answered promptly. + +"Death's a pretty hard proposition," I commented. + +"No, it's easy; physical death, compared with the other, compared with +moral death." + +She was very emphatic and angry with me for my hazarded demur. In an +atmosphere of disillusionment and moral miasma she clung undauntedly to +her ideals. Never was such a brave spirit, so determined in goodness, so +upright in purity, and I blessed her for her unfaltering words. "May +such sentiments as yours," I prayed, "be ever mine. In doubt, despair, +defeat, oh Life, take not away from me my faith in the pure heart of +woman!" + +Often I watched her thoughtfully, her slim, well-poised figure, her grey +eyes that were fuller of soul than any eyes I have ever seen, her brown +hair wherein the sunshine loved to pick out threads of gold, her +delicate features with their fine patrician quality. We were dreamers +twain, but while my outlook was gay with hope, hers was dark with +despair. Since the episode of the scow I had never ventured to kiss her, +but had treated her with a curious reserve, respect and courtesy. + +Indeed, I was diagnosing my case, wondering if I loved her, affirming, +doubting on a very see-saw of indetermination. When with her I felt for +her an intense fondness and at times an almost irresponsible tenderness. +My eyes rested longingly on her, noting with tremulous joy the curves +and shading of her face, and finding in its very defects, beauties. + +When I was away from her--oh, the easeless longing that was almost pain, +the fanciful elaboration of our last talk, the hint of her graces in +bird and flower and tree! I wanted her wildly, and the thought of a +world empty of her was monstrous. I wondered how in the past we had both +existed and how I had lived, carelessly, happy and serenely indifferent. +I tried to think of a time when she should no longer have power to make +my heart quicken with joy or contract with fear--and the thought of such +a state was insufferable pain. Was I in love? Poor, fatuous fool! I +wanted her more than everything else in all the world, yet I hesitated +and asked myself the question. + +Hundreds of boats and scows were running the rapids, and we watched them +with an untiring fascination. That was the most exciting spectacle in +the whole world. The issue was life or death, ruin or salvation, and +from dawn till dark, and with every few minutes of the day, was the +breathless climax repeated. The faces of the actors were sick with +dread and anxiety. It was curious to study the various expressions of +the human countenance unmasked and confronted with gibbering fear. Yes, +it was a vivid drama, a drama of cheers and tears, always thrilling and +often tragic. Every day were bodies dragged ashore. The rapids demanded +their tribute. The men of the trail must pay the toll. Sullen and +bloated the river disgorged its prey, and the dead, without prayer or +pause, were thrown into nameless graves. + +On our first day at the rapids we met the Halfbreed. He was on the point +of starting downstream. Where was the Bank clerk? Oh, yes; they had +upset coming through; when last he had seen little Pinklove he was +struggling in the water. However, they expected to get the body every +hour. He had paid two men to find and bury it. He had no time to wait. + +We did not blame him. In those wild days of headstrong hurry and +gold-delirium human life meant little. "Another floater," one would say, +and carelessly turn away. A callousness to death that was almost +mediaeval was in the air, and the friends of the dead hurried on, the +richer by a partner's outfit. It was all new, strange, sinister to me, +this unveiling of life's naked selfishness and lust. + +Next morning they found the body, a poor, shapeless, sodden thing with +such a crumpled skull. My thoughts went back to the sweet-faced girl who +had wept so bitterly at his going. Even then, maybe, she was thinking +of him, fondly dreaming of his return, seeing the glow of triumph in his +boyish eyes. She would wait and hope; then she would wait and despair; +then there would be another white-faced woman saying, "He went to the +Klondike, and never came back. We don't know what became of him." + +Verily, the way of the gold-trail was cruel. + +Berna was with me when they buried him. + +"Poor boy, poor boy!" she repeated. + +"Yes, poor little beggar! He was so quiet and gentle. He was no man for +the trail. It's a funny world." + +The coffin was a box of unplaned boards loosely nailed together, and the +men were for putting him into a grave on top of another coffin. I +protested, so sullenly they proceeded to dig a new grave. Berna looked +very unhappy, and when she saw that crude, shapeless pine coffin she +broke down and cried bitterly. + +At last she dried her tears and with a happier look in her eyes bade me +wait a little until she returned. Soon again she came back, carrying +some folds of black sateen over her arm. As she ripped at this with a +pair of scissors, I noticed there was a deep frilling to it. Also a +bright blush came into her cheek at the curious glance I gave to the +somewhat skimpy lines of her skirt. But the next instant she was busy +stretching and tacking the black material over the coffin. + +The men had completed the new grave. It was only three feet deep, but +the water coming in had prevented them from digging further. As we laid +the coffin in the hole it looked quite decent now in its black covering. +It floated on the water, but after some clods had been thrown down, it +sank with many gurglings. It was as if the dead man protested against +his bitter burial. We watched the grave-diggers throw a few more +shovelsful of earth over the place, then go off whistling. Poor little +Berna! she cried steadily. At last she said: + +"Let's get some flowers." + +So out of briar-roses she fashioned a cross and a wreath, and we laid +them reverently on the muddy heap that marked the Bank clerk's grave. + +Oh, the pitiful mockery of it! + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + +Soon I knew that Berna and I must part, and but two nights later it +came. It was near midnight, yet in no ways dark, and everywhere the camp +was astir. We were sitting by the river, I remember, a little way from +the boats. Where the sun had set, the sky was a luminous veil of +ravishing green, and in the elusive light her face seemed wanly sweet +and dreamlike. + +A sad spirit rustled amid the shivering willows and a great sadness had +come over the girl. All the happiness of the past few days seemed to +have ebbed away from her and left her empty of hope. As she sat there, +silent and with hands clasped, it was as if the shadows that for a +little had lifted, now enshrouded her with a greater gloom. + +"Tell me your trouble, Berna." + +She shook her head, her eyes wide as if trying to read the future. + +"Nothing." + +Her voice was almost a whisper. + +"Yes, there is, I know. Tell me, won't you?" + +Again she shook her head. + +"What's the matter, little chum?" + +"It's nothing; it's only my foolishness. If I tell you, it wouldn't help +me any. And then--it doesn't matter. You wouldn't care. Why should you +care?" + +She turned away from me and seemed absorbed in bitter thought. + +"Care! why, yes, I would care; I do care. You know I would do anything +in the world to help you. You know I would be unhappy if you were +unhappy. You know----" + +"Then it would only worry you." + +She was regarding me anxiously. + +"Now you must tell me, Berna. It will worry me indeed if you don't." + +Once more she refused. I pleaded with her gently. I coaxed, I entreated. +She was very reluctant, yet at last she yielded. + +"Well, if I must," she said; "but it's all so sordid, so mean, I hate +myself; I despise myself that I should have to tell it." + +She kneaded a tiny handkerchief nervously in her fingers. + +"You know how nice Madam Winklestein's been to me lately--bought me new +clothes, given me trinkets. Well, there's a reason--she's got her eye on +a man for me." + +I gave an exclamation of surprise. + +"Yes; you know she's let us go together--it's all to draw him on. Oh, +couldn't you see it? Didn't you suspect something? You don't know how +bitterly they hate you." + +I bit my lip. + +"Who's the man?" + +"Jack Locasto." + +I started. + +"Have you heard of him?" she asked. "He's got a million-dollar claim on +Bonanza." + +Had I heard of him! Who had not heard of Black Jack, his spectacular +poker plays, his meteoric rise, his theatric display? + +"Of course he's married," she went on, "but that doesn't matter up here. +There's such a thing as a Klondike marriage, and they say he behaves +well to his discarded mis----" + +"Berna!" angry and aghast, I had stopped her. "Never let me hear you +utter that word. Even to say it seems pollution." + +She laughed harshly, bitterly. + +"What's this whole life but pollution?... Well, anyway, he wants me." + +"But you wouldn't, surely you wouldn't?" + +She turned on me fiercely. + +"What do you take me for? Surely you know me better than that. Oh, you +almost make me hate you." + +Suddenly she pressed the little handkerchief to her eyes. She fell to +sobbing convulsively. Vainly I tried to soothe her, whispering: + +"Oh, my dear, tell me all about it. I'm sorry, girl, I'm sorry." + +She ceased crying. She went on in her fierce, excited way. + +"He came to the restaurant in Bennett. He used to watch me a lot. His +eyes were always following me. I was afraid. I trembled when I served +him. He liked to see me tremble, it gave him a feeling of power. Then he +took to giving me presents, a diamond ring, a heart-shaped locket, +costly gifts. I wanted to return them, but she wouldn't let me, took +them from me, put them away. Then he and she had long talks. I know it +was all about me. That was why I came to you that night and begged you +to marry me--to save me from him. Now it's gone from bad to worse. The +net's closing round me in spite of my flutterings." + +"But he can't get you against your will," I cried. + +"No! no! but he'll never give up. He'll try so long as I resist him. I'm +nice to him just to humour him and gain time. I can't tell you how much +I fear him. They say he always gets his way with women. He's masterly +and relentless. There's a cold, sneering command in his smile. You hate +him but you obey him." + +"He's an immoral monster, Berna. He spares neither time nor money to +gratify his whims where a woman is concerned. And he has no pity." + +"I know, I know." + +"He's intensely masculine, handsome in a vivid, gipsy sort of way; big, +strong and compelling, but a callous libertine." + +"Yes, he's all that. And can you wonder then my heart is full of fear, +that I am distracted, that I asked you what I did? He is relentless and +of all women he wants me. He would break me on the wheel of dishonour. +Oh, God!" + +Her face grew almost tragic in its despair. + +"And everything's against me; they're all helping him. I haven't a +single friend, not one to stand by me, to aid me. Once I thought of you, +and you failed me. Can you wonder I'm nearly crazy with the terror of +it? Can you wonder I was desperate enough to ask you to save me? I'm all +alone, friendless, a poor, weak girl. No, I'm wrong. I've one +friend--death; and I'll die, I'll die, I swear it, before I let him get +me." + +Her words came forth in a torrent, half choked by sobs. It was hard to +get her calmed. Never had I thought her capable of such force, such +passion. I was terribly distressed and at a loss how to comfort her. + +"Hush, Berna," I pleaded, "please don't say such things. Remember you +have a friend in me, one that would do anything in his power to help +you." + +She looked at me a moment. + +"How can you help me?" + +I held both of her hands firmly, looking into her eyes. + +"By marrying you. Will you marry me, dear? Will you be my wife?" + +"No!" + +I started. "Berna!" + +"No! I wouldn't marry you if you were the last man left in the world," +she cried vehemently. + +"Why?" I tried to be calm. + +"Why! why, you don't love me; you don't care for me." + +"Yes, I do, Berna. I do indeed, girl. Care for you! Well, I care so much +that--I beg you to marry me." + +"Yes, yes, but you don't love me right, not in your great, grand way. +Not in the way you told me of. Oh, I know; it's part pity, part +friendship. It would be different if I cared in the same way, if--if I +didn't care so very much more." + +"You do, Berna; you love me like that?" + +"How do I know? How can I tell? How can any of us tell?" + +"No, dear," I said, "love has no limits, no bounds, it is always holding +something in reserve. There are yet heights beyond the heights, that +mock our climbing, never perfection; no great love but might have been +eclipsed by a greater. There's a master key to every heart, and we poor +fools delude ourselves with the idea we are opening all the doors. We +are on sufferance, we are only understudies in the love drama, but +fortunately the star seldom appears on the scene. However, this I +know----" + +I rose to my feet. + +"Since the moment I set eyes on you, I loved you. Long before I ever met +you, I loved you. I was just waiting for you, waiting. At first I could +not understand, I did not know what it meant, but now I do, beyond the +peradventure of a doubt; there never was any but you, never will be any +but you. Since the beginning of time it was all planned that I should +love you. And you, how do you care?" + +She stood up to hear my words. She would not let me touch her, but there +was a great light in her eyes. Then she spoke and her voice was vibrant +with passion, all indifference gone from it. + +"Oh, you blind! you coward! Couldn't you see? Couldn't you feel? That +day on the scow it came to me--Love. It was such as I had never dreamed +of, rapture, ecstasy, anguish. Do you know what I wished as we went +through the rapids? I wished that it might be the end, that in such a +supreme moment we might go down clinging together, and that in death I +might hold you in my arms. Oh, if you'd only been like that afterwards, +met love open-armed with love. But, no! you slipped back to friendship. +I feel as if there were a barrier of ice between us now. I will try +never to care for you any more. Now leave me, leave me, for I never want +to see you again." + +"Yes, you will, you must, you must, Berna. I'd sell my immortal soul to +win that love from you, my dearest, my dearest; I'd crawl around the +world to kiss your shadow. If you called to me I would come from the +ends of the earth, through storm and darkness, to your side. I love you +so, I love you so." + +I crushed her to me, I kissed her madly, yet she was cold. + +"Have you nothing more to say than fine words?" she asked. + +"Marry me, marry me," I repeated. + +"Now?" + +Now! I hesitated again. The suddenness of it was like a cold douche. God +knows, I burned for the girl, yet somehow convention clamped me. + +"Now if you wish," I faltered; "but better when we get to Dawson. Better +when I've made good up there. Give me one year, Berna, one year and +then----" + +"One year!" + +The sudden gleam of hope vanished from her eyes. For the third time I +was failing her, yet my cursed prudence overrode me. + +"Oh, it will pass swiftly, dear. You will be quite safe. I will be near +you and watch over you." + +I reassured her, anxiously explaining how much better it would be if we +waited a little. + +"One year!" she repeated, and it seemed to me her voice was toneless. +Then she turned to me in a sudden spate of passion, her face pleading, +furrowed, wretchedly sad. + +"Oh, my dear, my dear, I love you better than the whole world, but I +hoped you would care enough for me to marry me now. It would have been +best, believe me. I thought you would rise to the occasion, but you've +failed me. Well, be it so, we'll wait one year." + +"Yes, believe me, trust me, dear; it will be all right. I'll work for +you, slave for you, think only of you, and in twelve short months--I'll +give my whole life to make you happy." + +"Will you, dear? Well, it doesn't matter now.... I've loved you." + + * * * * * + +All that night I wrestled with myself. I felt I ought to marry her at +once to shield her from the dangers that encompassed her. She was like a +lamb among a pack of wolves. I juggled with my conscience. I was young +and marriage to me seemed such a terribly all-important step. + +Yet in the end my better nature triumphed, and ere the camp was astir I +arose. I was going to marry Berna that day. A feeling of relief came +over me. How had it ever seemed possible to delay? I was elated beyond +measure. + +I hurried to tell her, I pictured her joy. I was almost breathless. Love +words trembled on my tongue tip. It seemed to me I could not bear to +wait a moment. + +Then as I reached the place where they had rested I gazed unbelievingly. +A sickening sense of loss and failure crushed me. + +For the scow was gone. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + + +It was three days before we made a start again, and to me each day was +like a year. I chafed bitterly at the delay. Would those sacks of flour +never dry? Longingly I gazed down the big, blue Yukon and cursed the +current that was every moment carrying her farther from me. Why her +sudden departure? I had no doubt it was enforced. I dreaded danger. Then +in a while I grew calmer. I was foolish to worry. She was safe enough. +We would meet in Dawson. + +At last we were under way. Once more we sped down that devious river, +now swirling under the shadow of a steep bank, now steering around a +sandspit. The scenery was hideous to me, bluffs of clay with pines +peeping over their rims, willow-fringed flats, swamps of niggerhead, +ugly drab hills in endless monotony. + +How full of kinks and hooks was the river! How vicious with snags! How +treacherous with eddies! It was beginning to bulk in my thoughts almost +like an obsession. Then one day Lake Labarge burst on my delighted eyes. +The trail was nearing its end. + +Once more with swelling sail we drove before the wind. Once more we were +in a fleet of Argonaut boats, and now, with the goal in sight, each man +redoubled his efforts. Perhaps the rich ground would all be gone ere we +reached the valley. Maddening thought after what we had endured! We must +get on. + +There was not a man in all that fleet but imagined that fortune awaited +him with open arms. They talked exultantly. Their eyes shone with the +gold-lust. They strained at sweep and oar. To be beaten at the last! Oh, +it was inconceivable! A tigerish eagerness filled them; a panic of fear +and cupidity spurred them on. + +Labarge was a dream lake, mirroring noble mountains in its depths (for +soon after we made it, a dead calm fell). But we had no eyes for its +beauty. The golden magnet was drawing us too strongly now. We cursed +that exquisite serenity that made us sweat at the oars; we cursed the +wind that never would arise; the currents that always were against us. +In that breathless tranquillity myriads of mosquitoes assailed us, +blinded us, covered our food as we ate, made our lives a perfect hell of +misery. Yet the trail was nearing its finish. + +What a relief it was when a sudden storm came up! White-caps tossed +around us, and the wind drove us on a precipitous shore, so that we +nearly came to a sorry end. But it was over at last, and we swept on +into the Thirty-mile River. + +A furious, hurling stream was this, that matched our mad, impatient +mood; but it was staked with hidden dangers. We gripped our weary oars. +Keenly alert we had to be, steering and watching for rocks that would +have ripped us from bow to stern. There was a famously terrible one, on +which scows smashed like egg-shells under a hammer, and we missed it by +a bare hand's-breadth. I felt sick to think of our bitterness had we +piled up on it. That was an evil, ugly river, full of capricious turns +and eddies, and the bluffs were high and steep. + +Hootalinqua, Big Salmon, Little Salmon, these are names to me now. All I +can remember is long days of toil at the oar, fighting the growing +obsession of mosquitoes, ever pressing on to the golden valley. The +ceaseless strain was beginning to tell on us. We suffered from +rheumatism, we barked with cold. Oh, we were weary, weary, yet the trail +was nearing its end. + +One sunlit Sabbath evening I remember well. We were drifting along and +we came on a lovely glade where a creek joined the river. It was a +green, velvety, sparkling place, and by the creek were two men +whipsawing lumber. We hailed them jauntily and asked them if they had +found prospects. Were they getting out lumber for sluice-boxes? + +One of the men came forward. He was very tired, very quiet, very solemn. +"No," he said, "we are sawing out a coffin for our dead." + +Then we saw a limp shape in their boat and we hurried on, awed and +abashed. + +The river was mud colour now, swirling in great eddies or convulsed from +below with sudden upheavals. Drifting on that oily current one seemed to +be quite motionless, and only the gliding banks assured us of progress. +The country seemed terrible to me, sinister, guilty, God-forsaken. At +the horizon, jagged mountains stabbed viciously at the sky. + +The river overwhelmed me. Sometimes it was a stream of blood, running +into the eye of the setting sun, beautiful, yet weird and menacing. It +broadened, deepened, and every day countless streams swelled its volume. +Islands waded in it greenly. Always we heard it _singing_, a seething, +hissing noise supposed to be the pebbles shuffling on the bottom. + +The days were insufferably hot and mosquito-curst; the nights chilly, +damp and mosquito-haunted. I suffered agonies from neuralgia. Never +mind, it would soon be over. We were on our last lap. The trail was near +its end. + +Yes, it was indeed the homestretch. Suddenly sweeping round a bend we +raised a shout of joy. There was that great livid scar on the mountain +face--the "Slide," and clustered below it like shells on the seashore, +an army of tents. It was the gold-born city. + +Trembling with eagerness we pulled ashore. Our troubles were over. At +last we had gained our Eldorado, thank God, thank God! + +A number of loafers were coming to meet us. They were strangely calm. + +"How about the gold?" said the Prodigal; "lots of ground left to stake?" + +One of them looked at us contemptuously. He chewed a moment ere he +spoke. + +"You Cheechakers better git right home. There ain't a foot of ground to +stake. Everything in sight was staked last Fall. The rest is all mud. +There's nothing doin' an' there's ten men for every job! The whole +thing's a fake. You Cheechakers better git right home." + +Yes, after all our travail, all our torment, we had better go right +home. Already many were preparing to do so. Yet what of that great +oncoming horde of which we were but the vanguard? What of the eager +army, the host of the Cheechakos? For hundreds of miles were lake and +river white with their grotesque boats. Beyond them again were thousands +and thousands of others struggling on through mosquito-curst morasses, +bent under their inexorable burdens. Reckless, indomitable, +hope-inspired, they climbed the passes and shot the rapids; they drowned +in the rivers, they rotted in the swamps. Nothing could stay them. The +golden magnet was drawing them on; the spell of the gold-lust was in +their hearts. + +And this was the end. For this they had mortgaged homes and broken +hearts. For this they had faced danger and borne suffering: to be told +to return. + +The land was choosing its own. All along it had weeded out the +weaklings. Now let the fainthearted go back. This land was only for the +Strong. + +Yet it was sad, so much weariness, and at the end disenchantment and +failure. + +Verily the ways of the gold-trail were cruel. + + + + +BOOK III + +THE CAMP + + +For once you've panned the speckled sand and seen the bonny dust, + Its peerless brightness blinds you like a spell; +It's little else you care about; you go because you must, + And you feel that you could follow it to hell. +You'd follow it in hunger, and you'd follow it in cold; + You'd follow it in solitude and pain; +And when you're stiff and battened down let some one whisper "Gold," + You're lief to rise and follow it again. + +--"The Prospector." + + + + +CHAPTER I + + +I will always remember my first day in the gold-camp. We were well in +front of the Argonaut army, but already thousands were in advance of us. +The flat at the mouth of Bonanza was a congestion of cabins; shacks and +tents clustered the hillside, scattered on the heights and massed again +on the slope sweeping down to the Klondike. An intense vitality charged +the air. The camp was alive, ahum, vibrant with fierce, dynamic energy. + +In effect the town was but one street stretching alongside the water +front. It was amazingly packed with men from side to side, from end to +end. They lounged in the doorways of oddly assorted buildings, and +jostled each other on the dislocated sidewalks. Stores of all kinds, +saloons, gambling joints flourished without number, and in one block +alone there were half a dozen dance-halls. Yet all seemed plethorically +prosperous. + +Many of the business houses were installed in tents. That huge canvas +erection was a mining exchange; that great log barn a dance-hall. +Dwarfish log cabins impudently nestled up to pretentious three-story +hotels. The effect was oddly staccato. All was grotesque, makeshift, +haphazard. Back of the main street lay the red-light quarter, and behind +it again a swamp of niggerheads, the breeding-place of fever and +mosquito. + +The crowd that vitalised the street was strikingly cosmopolitan. Mostly +big, bearded fellows they were, with here the full-blooded face of the +saloon man, and there the quick, pallid mask of the gambler. Women too I +saw in plenty, bold, free, predacious creatures, a rustle of silk and a +reek of perfume. Till midnight I wandered up and down the long street; +but there was no darkness, no lull in its clamorous life. + +I was looking for Berna. My heart hungered for her; my eyes ached for +her; my mind was so full of her there seemed no room for another single +thought. But it was like looking for a needle in a strawstack to find +her in that seething multitude. I knew no one, and it seemed futile to +inquire regarding her. These keen-eyed men with eager talk of claims and +pay-dirt could not help me. There seemed to be nothing for it but to +wait. So with spirits steadily sinking zerowards I waited. + +We found, indeed, that there was little ground left to stake. The mining +laws were in some confusion, and were often changing. Several creeks +were closed to location, but always new strikes were being made and +stampedes started. So, after a session of debate, we decided to reserve +our rights to stake till a good chance offered. It was a bitter +awakening. Like all the rest we had expected to get ground that was gold +from the grass-roots down. But there was work to be had, and we would +not let ourselves be disheartened. + +The Jam-wagon had already deserted us. He was off up on Eldorado +somewhere, shovelling dirt into a sluice-box for ten dollars a day. I +made up my mind I would follow him. Jim also would get to work, while +the Prodigal, we agreed, would look after all our interests, and stake +or buy a good claim. + +Thus we planned, sitting in our little tent near the beach. We were in a +congeries of tents. The beach was fast whitening with them. If one was +in a hurry it was hard to avoid tripping over ropes and pegs. As each +succeeding party arrived they had to go further afield to find +camping-ground. And they were arriving in thousands daily. The shore for +a mile was lined five deep with boats. Scows had been hauled high and +dry on the gravel, and there the owners were living. A thousand stoves +were eloquent of beans and bacon. I met a man taking home a prize, a +porterhouse steak. He was carrying it over his arm like a towel, paper +was so scarce. The camp was a hive of energy, a hum of occupation. + +But how many, after they had paraded that mile-long street with its mud, +its seething foam of life, its blare of gramophones and its blaze of +dance-halls, ached for their southland homes again! You could read the +disappointment in their sun-tanned faces. Yet they were the eager +navigators of the lakes, the reckless amateurs of the rivers. This was a +something different from the trail. It was as if, after all their +efforts, they had butted up against a stone wall. There was "nothing +doing," no ground left, and only hard work, the hardest on earth. + +Moreover, the country was at the mercy of a gang of corrupt officials +who were using the public offices for their own enrichment. Franchises +were being given to the favourites of those in power, concessions sold, +liquor permits granted, and abuses of every kind practised on the free +miner. All was venality, injustice and exaction. + +"Go home," said the Man in the Street; "the mining laws are rotten. All +kinds of ground is tied up. Even if you get hold of something good, them +dam-robber government sharks will flim-flam you out of it. There's no +square deal here. They tax you to mine; they tax you to cut a tree; they +tax you to sell a fish; pretty soon they'll be taxing you to breathe. Go +home!" + +And many went, many of the trail's most indomitable. They could face +hardship and danger, the blizzards, the rapids, nature savage and +ravening; but when it came to craft, graft and the duplicity of their +fellow men they were discouraged, discomfited. + +"Say, boys, I guess I've done a slick piece of work," said the Prodigal +with some satisfaction, as he entered the tent. "I've bought three whole +outfits on the beach. Got them for twenty-five per cent. less than the +cost price in Seattle. I'll pull out a hundred per cent. on the deal. +Now's the time to get in and buy from the quitters. They so soured at +the whole frame-up they're ready to pull their freights at any moment. +All they want's to get away. They want to put a few thousand miles +between them and this garbage dump of creation. They never want to hear +the name of Yukon again except as a cuss-word. I'm going to keep on +buying outfits. You boys see if I don't clean up a bunch of money." + +"It's too bad to take advantage of them," I suggested. + +"Too bad nothing! That's business; your necessity, my opportunity. Oh, +you'd never make a money-getter, my boy, this side of the +millennium--and you Scotch too." + +"That's nothing," said Jim; "wait till I tell you of the deal I made +to-day. You recollect I packed a flat-iron among my stuff, an' you boys +joshed me about it, said I was bughouse. But I figured out: there's +camp-meetin's an' socials up there, an' a nice, dinky, white shirt once +in a way goes pretty good. Anyway, thinks I, if there ain't no one else +to dress for in that wilderness, I'll dress for the Almighty. So I +sticks to my old flat-iron." + +He looked at us with a twinkle in his eye and then went on. + +"Well, it seems there's only three more flat-irons in camp, an' all the +hot sports wantin' boiled shirts done up, an' all the painted Jezebels +hollerin' to have their lingery fixed, an' the wash-ladies just goin' +round crazy for flat-irons. Well, I didn't want to sell mine, but the +old coloured lady that runs the Bong Tong Laundry (an' a sister in the +Lord) came to me with tears in her eyes, an' at last I was prevailed on +to separate from it." + +"How much, Jim?" + +"Well, I didn't want to be too hard on the old girl, so I let her down +easy." + +"How much?" + +"Well, you see there's only three or four of them flat-irons in camp, so +I asked a hundred an' fifty dollars, an' quick's a flash, she took me +into a store an' paid me in gold-dust." + +He flourished a little poke of dust in our laughing faces. + +"That's pretty good," I said; "everything seems topsy-turvy up here. +Why, to-day I saw a man come in with a box of apples which the crowd +begged him to open. He was selling those apples at a dollar apiece, and +the folks were just fighting to get them." + +It was so with everything. Extraordinary prices ruled. Eggs and candles +had been sold for a dollar each, and potatoes for a dollar a pound; +while on the trail in '97 horse-shoe nails were selling at _a dollar a +nail_. + +Once more I roamed the long street with that awful restless agony in my +heart. Where was she, my girl, so precious now it seemed I had lost her? +Why does love mean so much to some, so little to others? Perhaps I am +the victim of an intensity of temperament, but I craved for her; I +visioned evils befalling her; I pierced my heart with dagger-thrusts of +fear for her. Oh, if I only knew she was safe and well! Every slim woman +I saw in the distance looked to be her, and made my heart leap with +emotion. Yet always I chewed on the rind of disappointment. There was +never a sign of Berna. + +In the agitation and unrest of my mind I climbed the hill that +overshadows the gold-born city. The Dome they call it, and the face of +it is vastly scarred, blanched as by a cosmic blow. There on its topmost +height by a cairn of stone I stood at gaze, greatly awestruck. + +The view was a spacious one, and of an overwhelming grandeur. Below me +lay the mighty Yukon, here like a silken ribbon, there broadening out to +a pool of quicksilver. It seemed motionless, dead, like a piece of +tinfoil lying on a sable shroud. + +The great valley was preternaturally still, and pall-like as if steeped +in the colours of the long, long night. The land so vast, so silent, so +lifeless, was round in its contours, full of fat creases and bold +curves. The mountains were like sleeping giants; here was the swell of a +woman's breast, there the sweep of a man's thigh. And beyond that huddle +of sprawling Titans, far, far beyond, as if it were an enclosing +stockade, was the jagged outline of the Rockies. + +Quite suddenly they seemed to stand up against the blazing sky, +monstrous, horrific, smiting the senses like a blow. Their primordial +faces were hacked and hewed fantastically, and there they posed in their +immemorial isolation, virgin peaks, inviolate valleys, impregnably +desolate and savagely sublime. + +And beyond their stormy crests, surely a world was consuming in the +kilns of chaos. Was ever anything so insufferably bright as the +incandescent glow that brimmed those jagged clefts? That fierce +crimson, was it not the hue of a cooling crucible, that deep vermillion +the rich glory of a rose's heart? Did not that tawny orange mind you of +ripe wheat-fields and the exquisite intrusion of poppies? That pure, +clear gold, was it not a bank of primroses new washed in April rain? +What was that luminous opal but a lagoon, a pearly lagoon, with floating +in it islands of amber, their beaches crisped with ruby foam? And, over +all the riot of colour, that shimmering chrysoprase so tenderly +luminous--might it not fitly veil the splendours of paradise? + +I looked to where gulped the mouth of Bonanza, cavernously wide and +filled with the purple smoke of many fires. There was the golden valley, +silent for centuries, now strident with human cries, vehement with human +strife. There was the timbered basin of the Klondike bleakly rising to +mountains eloquent of death. It was dominating, appalling, this vastness +without end, this unappeasable loneliness. Glad was I to turn again to +where, like white pebbles on a beach, gleamed the tents of the gold-born +city. + +Somewhere amid that confusion of canvas, that muddle of cabins, was +Berna, maybe lying in some wide-eyed vigil of fear, maybe staining with +hopeless tears her restless pillow. Somewhere down there--Oh, I must +find her! + +I returned to the town. I was tramping its long street once more, that +street with its hundreds of canvas signs. It was a city of signs. Every +place of business seemed to have its fluttering banner, and beneath +these banners moved the ever restless throng. There were men from the +mines in their flannel shirts and corduroys, their Stetsons and high +boots. There were men from the trail in sweaters and mackinaws, German +socks and caps with ear-flaps. But all were bronzed and bearded, +fleshless and clean-limbed. I marvelled at the seriousness of their +faces, till I remembered that here was no problem of a languorous +sunland, but one of grim emergency. It was a man's game up here in the +North, a man's game in a man's land, where the sunlight of the long, +long day is ever haunted by the shadow of the long, long night. + +Oh, if I could only find her! The land was a great symphony; she the +haunting theme of it. + +I bought a copy of the "Nugget" and went into the Sourdough Restaurant +to read it. As I lingered there sipping my coffee and perusing the paper +indifferently, a paragraph caught my eye and made my heart glow with +sudden hope. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +Here was the item: + + Jack Locasto loses $19,000. + + "One of the largest gambling plays that ever occurred in Dawson + came off last night in the Malamute Saloon. Jack Locasto of + Eldorado, well known as one of the Klondike's wealthiest + claim-owners, Claude Terry and Charlie Haw were the chief actors in + the game, which cost the first-named the sum of $19,000. + + "Locasto came to Dawson from his claim yesterday. It is said that + before leaving the Forks he lost a sum ranging in the neighbourhood + of $5,000. Last night he began playing in the Malamute with Haw and + Terry in an effort, it is supposed, to recoup his losses at the + Forks. The play continued nearly all night, and at the wind-up, + Locasto, as stated above, was loser to the amount of $19,000. This + is probably the largest individual loss ever sustained at one + sitting in the history of Klondike poker playing." + +Jack Locasto! Why had I not thought of him before? Surely if any one +knew of the girl's whereabouts, it would be he. I determined I would ask +him at once. + +So I hastily finished my coffee and inquired of the emasculated-looking +waiter where I might find the Klondike King. + +"Oh, Black Jack," he said: "well, at the Green Bay Tree, or the Tivoli, +or the Monte Carlo. But there's a big poker game on and he's liable to +be in it." + +Once more I paraded the seething street. It was long after midnight, but +the wondrous glow, still burning in the Northern sky, filled the land +with strange enchantment. In spite of the hour the town seemed to be +more alive than ever. Parties with pack-laden mules were starting off +for the creeks, travelling at night to avoid the heat and mosquitoes. +Men with lean brown faces trudged sturdily along carrying extraordinary +loads on their stalwart shoulders. A stove, blankets, cooking utensils, +axe and shovel usually formed but a part of their varied accoutrement. + +Constables of the Mounted Police were patrolling the streets. In the +drab confusion their scarlet tunics were a piercing note of colour. They +walked very stiffly, with grim mouths and eyes sternly vigilant under +the brims of their Stetsons. Women were everywhere, smoking cigarettes, +laughing, chaffing, strolling in and out of the wide-open saloons. Their +cheeks were rouged, their eye-lashes painted, their eyes bright with +wine. They gazed at the men like sleek animals, with looks that were +wanton and alluring. A libertine spirit was in the air, a madcap +freedom, an effluence of disdainful sin. + +I found myself by the stockade that surrounded the Police reservation. +On every hand I saw traces of a recent overflow of the river that had +transformed the street into a navigable canal. Now in places there were +mudholes in which horses would flounder to their bellies. One of the +Police constables, a tall, slim Englishman with a refined manner, proved +to me a friend in need. + +"Yes," he said, in answer to my query, "I think I can find your man. +He's downtown somewhere with some of the big sporting guns. Come on, +we'll run him to earth." + +As we walked along we compared notes, and he talked of himself in a +frank, friendly way. + +"You're not long out from the old country? Thought not. Left there +myself about four years ago--I joined the Force in Regina. It's +altogether different 'outside,' patrol work, a free life on the open +prairie. Here they keep one choring round barracks most of the time. +I've been for six months now on the town station. I'm not sorry, though. +It's all devilish interesting. Wouldn't have missed it for a farm. When +I write the people at home about it they think I'm yarning--stringing +them, as they say here. The governor's a clergyman. Sent me to Harrow, +and wanted to make a Bishop out of me. But I'm restless; never could +study; don't seem to fit in, don't you know." + +I recognised his type, the clean, frank, breezy Englishman that has +helped to make an Empire. He went on: + +"Yes, how the old dad would stare if I could only have him in Dawson for +a day. He'd never be able to get things just in focus any more. He would +be knocked clean off the pivot on which he's revolved these thirty +years. Seems to me every one's travelling on a pivot in the old country. +It's no use trying to hammer it into their heads there are more points +of view than one. If you don't just see things as they see them, you're +troubled with astigmatism. Come, let's go in here." + +He pushed his way through a crowded doorway and I followed. It was the +ordinary type of combined saloon and gambling-joint. In one corner was a +very ornate bar, and all around the capacious room were gambling devices +of every kind. There were crap-tables, wheel of fortune, the Klondike +game, Keno, stud poker, roulette and faro outfits. The place was +chock-a-block with rough-looking men, either looking on or playing the +games. The men who were running the tables wore shades of green over +their eyes, and their strident cries of "Come on, boys," pierced the +smoky air. + +In a corner, presiding over a stud-poker game, I was surprised to see +our old friend Mosher. He was dealing with one hand, holding the pack +delicately and sending the cards with a dexterous flip to each player. +Miners were buying chips from a man at the bar, who with a pair of gold +scales was weighing out dust in payment. + +My companion pointed to an inner room with a closed door. + +"The Klondike Kings are in there, hard at it. They've been playing now +for twenty-four hours, and goodness knows when they'll let up." + +At that moment a peremptory bell rang from the room and a waiter +hurried up. + +"There they are," said my friend, as the door opened. "There's Black +Jack and Stillwater Willie and Claude Terry and Charlie Haw." + +Eagerly I looked in. The men were wearied, their faces haggard and +ghastly pale. Quickly and coolly they fingered the cards, but in their +hollow eyes burned the fever of the game, a game where golden eagles +were the chips and thousand-dollar jack-pots were unremarkable. No doubt +they had lost and won greatly, but they gave no sign. What did it +matter? In the dumps waiting to be cleaned up were hundreds of thousands +more; while in the ground were millions, millions. + +All but Locasto were medium-sized men. Stillwater Willie was in +evening-dress. He wore a red tie in which glittered a huge diamond pin, +and yellow tan boots covered with mud. + +"How did he get his name?" I asked. + +"Well, you see, they say he was the only one that funked the Whitehorse +Rapids. He's a high flier, all right." + +The other two were less striking. Haw was a sandy-haired man with +shifty, uneasy eyes; Terry of a bulldog type, stocky and powerful. But +it was Locasto who gripped and riveted my attention. + +He was a massive man, heavy of limb and brutal in strength. There was a +great spread to his shoulders and a conscious power in his every +movement. He had a square, heavy chin, a grim, sneering mouth, a falcon +nose, black eyes that were as cold as the water in a deserted shaft. His +hair was raven dark, and his skin betrayed the Mexican strain in his +blood. Above the others he towered, strikingly masterful, and I felt +somehow the power that emanated from the man, the brute force, the +remorseless purpose. + +Then the waiter returned with a tray of drinks and the door was closed. + +"Well, you've seen him now," said Chester of the Police. "Your only +plan, if you want to speak to him, is to wait till the game breaks up. +When poker interferes with your business, to the devil with your +business. They won't be interrupted. Well, old man, if you can't be +good, be careful; and if you want me any time, ring up the town station. +Bye, bye." + +He sauntered off. For a time I strolled from game to game, watching the +expressions on the faces of the players, and trying to take an interest +in the play. Yet my mind was ever on the closed door and my ear strained +to hear the click of chips. I heard the hoarse murmurs of their voices, +an occasional oath or a yawn of fatigue. How I wished they would come +out! Women went to the door, peered in cautiously, and beat a hasty +retreat to the tune of reverberated curses. The big guns were busy; even +the ladies must await their pleasure. + +Oh, the weariness of that waiting! In my longing for Berna I had worked +myself up into a state that bordered on distraction. It seemed as if a +cloud was in my brain, obsessing me at all times. I felt I must +question this man, though it raised my gorge even to speak of her in his +presence. In that atmosphere of corruption the thought of the girl was +intolerably sweet, as of a ray of sunshine penetrating a noisome +dungeon. + +It was in the young morn when the game broke up. The outside air was +clear as washed gold; within it was foul and fetid as a drunkard's +breath. Men with pinched and pallid faces came out and inhaled the +breeze, which was buoyant as champagne. Beneath the perfect blue of the +spring sky the river seemed a shimmer of violet, and the banks dipped +down with the green of chrysoprase. + +Already a boy was sweeping up the dirty, nicotine-frescoed sawdust from +the floor. (It was his perquisite, and from the gold he panned out he +ultimately made enough to put him through college.) Then the inner door +opened and Black Jack appeared. + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +He was wan and weary. Around his sombre eyes were chocolate-coloured +hollows. His thick raven hair was disordered. He had lost heavily, and, +bidding a curt good-bye to the others, he strode off. In a moment I had +followed and overtaken him. + +"Mr. Locasto." + +He turned and gave me a stare from his brooding eyes. They were vacant +as those of a dope-fiend, vacant with fatigue. + +"Jack Locasto's my name," he answered carelessly. + +I walked alongside him. + +"Well, sir," I said, "my name's Meldrum, Athol Meldrum." + +"Oh, I don't care what the devil your name is," he broke in petulantly. +"Don't bother me just now. I'm tired." + +"So am I," I said, "infernally tired; but it won't hurt you to listen to +my name." + +"Well, Mr. Athol Meldrum, good-day." + +His voice was cold, his manner galling in its indifference, and a sudden +anger glowed in me. + +"Hold on," I said; "just a moment. You can very easily do me an immense +favour. Listen to me." + +"Well, what do you want," he demanded roughly; "work?" + +"No," I said, "I just want a scrap of information. I came into the +country with some Jews the name of Winklestein. I've lost track of them +and I think you may be able to tell me where they are." + +He was all attention now. He turned half round and scrutinised me with +deliberate intensity. Then, like a flash, his rough manner changed. He +was the polished gentleman, the San Francisco club-lounger, the man of +the world. + +He rasped the stubble on his chin; his eyes were bland, his voice smooth +as cream. + +"Winklestein," he echoed reflectively, "Winklestein; seems to me I do +remember the name, but for the life of me I can't recall where." + +He was watching me like a cat, and pretending to think hard. + +"Was there a girl with them?" + +"Yes," I said eagerly, "a young girl." + +"A young girl, ah!" He seemed to reflect hard again. "Well, my friend, +I'm afraid I can't help you. I remember noticing the party on the way +in, but what became of them I can't think. I don't usually bother about +that kind of people. Well, good-night, or good-morning rather. This is +my hotel." + +He had half entered when he paused and turned to me. His face was +urbane, his voice suave to sweetness; but it seemed to me there was a +subtle mockery in his tone. + +"I say, if I should hear anything of them, I'll let you know. Your +name? Athol Meldrum--all right, I'll let you know. Good-bye." + +He was gone and I had failed. I cursed myself for a fool. The man had +baffled me. Nay, even I had hurt myself by giving him an inkling of my +search. Berna seemed further away from me than ever. Home I went, +discouraged and despairful. + +Then I began to argue with myself. He must know where they were, and if +he really had designs on the girl and was keeping her in hiding my +interview with him would alarm him. He would take the first opportunity +of warning the Winklesteins. When would he do it? That very night in all +likelihood. So I reasoned; and I resolved to watch. + +I stationed myself in a saloon from where I could command a view of his +hotel, and there I waited. I think I must have watched the place for +three hours, but I know it was a weariful business, and I was heartsick +of it. Doggedly I stuck to my post. I was beginning to think he must +have evaded me, when suddenly coming forth alone from the hotel I saw my +man. + +It was about midnight, neither light nor dark, but rather an absence of +either quality, and the Northern sky was wan and ominous. In the crowded +street I saw Locasto's hat overtopping all others, so that I had no +difficulty in shadowing him. Once he stopped to speak to a woman, once +to light a cigar; then he suddenly turned up a side street that ran +through the red-light district. + +He was walking swiftly and he took a path that skirted the swamp behind +the town. I had no doubt of his mission. My heart began to beat with +excitement. The little path led up the hill, clothed with fresh foliage +and dotted with cabins. Once I saw him pause and look round. I had +barely time to dodge behind some bushes, and feared for a moment he had +seen me. But no! on he went again faster than ever. + +I knew now I had divined his errand. He was at too great pains to cover +his tracks. The trail had plunged among a maze of slender cotton-woods, +and twisted so that I was sore troubled to keep him in view. Always he +increased his gait and I followed breathlessly. There were few cabins +hereabouts; it was a lonely place to be so near to town, very quiet and +thickly screened from sight. Suddenly he seemed to disappear, and, +fearing my pursuit was going to be futile, I rushed forward. + +I came to a dead stop. There was no one to be seen. He had vanished +completely. The trail climbed steeply up, twisty as a corkscrew. These +cursed poplars, how densely they grew! Blindly I blundered forward. Then +I came to a place where the trail forked. Panting for breath I hesitated +which way to take, and it was in that moment of hesitation that a heavy +hand was laid on my shoulder. + +"Where away, my young friend?" It was Locasto. His face was +Mephistophelian, his voice edged with irony. I was startled I admit, but +I tried to put a good face on it. + +"Hello," I said; "I'm just taking a stroll." + +His black eyes pierced me, his black brows met savagely. The heavy jaw +shot forward, and for a moment the man, menacing and terrible, seemed to +tower above me. + +"You lie!" like explosive steam came the words, and wolf-like his lips +parted, showing his powerful teeth. "You lie!" he reiterated. "You +followed me. Didn't I see you from the hotel? Didn't I determine to +decoy you away? Oh, you fool! you fool! who are you that would pit your +weakness against my strength, your simplicity against my cunning? You +would try to cross me, would you? You would champion damsels in +distress? You pretty fool, you simpleton, you meddler----" + +Suddenly, without warning, he struck me square on the face, a blinding, +staggering blow that brought me to my knees as falls a pole-axed steer. +I was stunned, swaying weakly, trying vainly to get on my feet. I +stretched out my clenched hands to him. Then he struck me again, a +bitter, felling blow. + +I was completely at his mercy now and he showed me none. He was like a +fiend. Rage seemed to rend him. Time and again he kicked me, brutally, +relentlessly, on the ribs, on the chest, on the head. Was the man going +to do me to death? I shielded my head. I moaned in agony. Would he never +stop? Then I became unconscious, knowing that he was still kicking me, +and wondering if I would ever open my eyes again. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +"Long live the cold-feet tribe! Long live the soreheads!" + +It was the Prodigal who spoke. "This outfit buying's got gold-mining +beaten to a standstill. Here I've been three weeks in the burg and got +over ten thousand dollars' worth of grub cached away. Every pound of it +will net me a hundred per cent. profit. I'm beginning to look on myself +as a second John D. Rockefeller." + +"You're a confounded robber," I said. "You're working a cinch-game. +What's your first name? Isaac?" + +He turned the bacon he was frying and smiled gayly. + +"Snort away all you like, old sport. So long as I get the mon you can +call me any old name you please." + +He was very sprightly and elate, but I was in no sort of mood to share +in his buoyancy. Physically I had fully recovered from my terrible +manhandling, but in spirit I still writhed at the outrage of it. And the +worst was I could do nothing. The law could not help me, for there were +no witnesses to the assault. I could never cope with this man in bodily +strength. Why was I not a stalwart? If I had been as tall and strong as +Garry, for instance. True, I might shoot; but there the Police would +take a hand in the game, and I would lose out badly. There seemed to be +nothing for it but to wait and pray for some means of retaliation. + +Yet how bitterly I brooded over the business. At times there was even +black murder in my heart. I planned schemes of revenge, grinding my +teeth in impotent rage the while; and my feelings were complicated by +that awful gnawing hunger for Berna that never left me. It was a perfect +agony of heart, a panic-fear, a craving so intense that at times I felt +I would go distracted with the pain of it. + +Perhaps I am a poor sort of being. I have often wondered. I either feel +intensely, or I am quite indifferent. I am a prey to my emotions, a +martyr to my moods. Apart from my great love for Berna it seemed to me +as if nothing mattered. All through these stormy years it was like +that--nothing else mattered. And now that I am nearing the end of my +life I can see that nothing else has ever mattered. Everything that +happened appealed to me in its relation to her. It seemed to me as if I +saw all the world through the medium of my love for her, and that all +beauty, all truth, all good was but a setting for this girl of mine. + +"Come on," said Jim; "let's go for a walk in the town." + +The "Modern Gomorrah" he called it, and he was never tired of +expatiating on its iniquity. + +"See that man there?" he said, pointing to a grey-haired pedestrian, who +was talking to an emphatic blonde. "That man's a lawyer. He's got a +lovely home in Los Angeles, an' three of the sweetest girls you ever +saw. A young fellow needed to have his credentials O. K.'d by the Purity +Committee before he came butting round that man's home. Now he's off to +buy wine for Daisy of the Deadline." + +The grey-haired man had turned into a saloon with his companion. + +"Yes, that's Dawson for you. We're so far from home. The good old +moralities don't apply here. The hoary old Yukon won't tell on us. We've +been a Sunday School Superintendent for ten years. For fifty more we've +passed up the forbidden fruit. Every one else is helping themselves. +Wonder what it tastes like? Wine is flowing like water. Money's the +cheapest thing in sight. Cut loose, drink up. The orchestra's a-goin'. +Get your partners for a nice juicy two-step. Come on, boys!" + +He was particularly bitter, and it really seemed in that general lesion +of the moral fibre that civilisation was only a makeshift, a veneer of +hypocrisy. + +"Why should we marvel," I said, "at man's brutality, when but an aeon ago +we all were apes?" + +Just then we met the Jam-wagon. He had mushed in from the creeks that +very day. Physically he looked supreme. He was berry-brown, lean, +muscular and as full of suppressed energy as an unsprung bear-trap. +Financially he was well ballasted. Mentally and morally he was in the +state of a volcano before an eruption. + +You could see in the quick breathing, in the restlessness of this man, +a pent-up energy that clamoured to exhaust itself in violence and +debauch. His fierce blue eyes were wild and roving, his lips twitched +nervously. He was an atavism; of the race of those white-bodied, +ferocious sea-kings that drank deep and died in the din of battle. He +must live in the white light of excitement, or sink in the gloom of +despair. I could see his fine nostrils quiver like those of a charger +that scents the smoke of battle, and I realised that he should have been +a soldier still, a leader of forlorn hopes, a partner of desperate +hazards. + +As we walked along, Jim did most of the talking in his favourite +morality vein. The Jam-wagon puffed silently at his briar pipe, while I, +very listless and downhearted, thought largely of my own troubles. Then, +in the middle of the block, where most of the music-halls were situated, +suddenly we met Locasto. + +When I saw him my heart gave a painful leap, and I think my face must +have gone as white as paper. I had thought much over this meeting, and +had dreaded it. There are things which no man can overlook, and, if it +meant death to me, I must again try conclusions with the brute. + +He was accompanied by a little bald-headed Jew named Spitzstein, and we +were almost abreast of them when I stepped forward and arrested them. My +teeth were clenched; I was all a-quiver with passion; my heart beat +violently. For a moment I stood there, confronting him in speechless +excitement. + +He was dressed in that miner's costume in which he always looked so +striking. From his big Stetson to his high boots he was typically the +big, strong man of Alaska, the Conqueror of the Wild. But his mouth was +grim as granite, and his black eyes hard and repellent as those of a +toad. + +"Oh, you coward!" I cried. "You vile, filthy coward!" + +He was looking down on me from his imperious height, very coolly, very +cynically. + +"Who are you?" he drawled; "I don't know you." + +"Liar as well as coward," I panted. "Liar to your teeth. Brute, coward, +liar----" + +"Here, get out of my way," he snarled; "I've got to teach you a lesson." + +Once more before I could guard he landed on me with that terrible +right-arm swing, and down I went as if a sledgehammer had struck me. +But instantly I was on my feet, a thing of blind passion, of desperate +fight. I made one rush to throw myself on this human tower of brawn and +muscle, when some one pinioned me from behind. It was Jim. + +"Easy, boy," he was saying; "you can't fight this big fellow." + +Spitzstein was looking on curiously. With wonderful quickness a crowd +had collected, all avidly eager for a fight. Above them towered the +fierce, domineering figure of Locasto. There was a breathless pause, +then, at the psychological moment, the Jam-wagon intervened. + +The smouldering fire in his eye had brightened into a fierce joy; his +twitching mouth was now grim and stern as a prison door. For days he had +been fighting a dim intangible foe. Here at last was something human and +definite. He advanced to Locasto. + +"Why don't you strike some one nearer your own size?" he demanded. His +voice was tense, yet ever so quiet. + +Locasto flashed at him a look of surprise, measuring him from head to +foot. + +"You're a brute," went on the Jam-wagon evenly; "a cowardly brute." + +Black Jack's face grew dark and terrible. His eyes glinted sparks of +fire. + +"See here, Englishman," he said, "this isn't your scrap. What are you +butting in about?" + +"It isn't," said the Jam-wagon, and I could see the flame of fight +brighten joyously in him. "It isn't, but I'll soon make it mine. There!" + +Quick as a flash he dealt the other a blow on the cheek, an open-handed +blow that stung like a whiplash. + +"Now, fight me, you coward." + +There and then Locasto seemed about to spring on his challenger. With +hands clenched and teeth bared, he half bent as if for a charge. Then, +suddenly, he straightened up. + +"All right," he said softly; "Spitzstein, can we have the Opera House?" + +"Yes, I guess so. We can clear away the benches." + +"Then tell the crowd to come along; we'll give them a free show." + + * * * * * + +I think there must have been five hundred men around that ring. A big +Australian pugilist was umpire. Some one suggested gloves, but Locasto +would not hear of it. + +"No," he said, "I want to mark the son of a dog so his mother will never +know him again." + +He had become frankly brutal, and prepared for the fray exultantly. Both +men fought in their underclothing. + +Stripped down, the Jam-wagon was seen to be much the smaller man, not +only in height, but in breadth and weight. Yet he was a beautiful figure +of a fighter, clean, well-poised, firm-limbed, with a body that seemed +to taper from the shoulders down. His fair hair glistened; his eyes were +wary and cool, his lips set tightly. In the person of this living +adversary he was fighting an unseen one vastly more dread and terrific. + +Locasto looked almost too massive. His muscles bulged out. The veins in +his forearms were cord-like. His great chest seemed as broad as a door. +His legs were statuesque in their size and strength. In that camp of +strong men probably he was the most powerful. + +And nowhere in the world could a fight have been awaited with greater +zest. These men, miners, gamblers, adventurers of all kinds, pushed and +struggled for a place. A great joy surged through them at the thought +of the approaching combat. Keen-eyed, hard-breathing, a-thrill with +expectation, the crowd packed closer and closer. Outside, people were +clamouring for admission. They climbed on the stage, and into the boxes. +They hung over the galleries. All told, there must have been a thousand +of them. + +As the two men stood up it was like the lithe Greek athlete compared +with the brawny Roman gladiator. "Three to one on Locasto," some one +shouted. Then a great hush came over the house, so that it might have +been empty and deserted. Time was called. The fight began. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +With one tiger-rush Locasto threw himself on his man. There was no +preliminary fiddling here; they were out for blood, and the sooner they +wallowed in it the better. Right and left he struck with mighty swings +that would have felled an ox, but the Jam-wagon was too quick for him. +Twice he ducked in time to avoid a furious blow, and, before Locasto +could recover, he had hopped out of reach. The big man's fist swished +through the empty air. He almost overbalanced with the force of his +effort, but he swung round quickly, and there was the Jam-wagon, cool +and watchful, awaiting his next attack. + +Locasto's face grew fiendish in its sinister wrath; he shot forth a foul +imprecation, and once more he hurled himself resistlessly on his foe. +This time I thought my champion must go down, but no! With a dexterity +that seemed marvellous, he dodged, ducked and side-stepped; and once +more Locasto's blows went wide and short. Jeers began to go up from the +throng. "Even money on the little fellow," sang out a voice with the +flat twang of a banjo. + +Locasto glared round on the crowd. He was accustomed to lord it over +these men, and the jeers goaded him like banderilleros goad a bull. +Again and again he repeated his tremendous rushes, only to find his +powerful arms winnowing the empty air, only to see his agile antagonist +smiling at him in mockery from the centre of the ring. Not one of his +sledgehammer smashes reached their mark, and the round closed without a +blow having landed. + +From the mob of onlookers a chorus of derisive cheers went up. The +little man with the banjo voice was holding up a poke of dust. "Even +money on the little one." A hum of eager conversation broke forth. + +I was at the ring-side. At the beginning I had been in an agony of fear +for the Jam-wagon. Looking at the two men, it seemed as if he could +hardly hope to escape terrible punishment at the hands of one so +massively powerful, and every blow inflicted on him would have been like +one inflicted on myself. But now I took heart and looked forward with +less anxiety. + +Again time was called, and Locasto sprang up, seemingly quite refreshed +by his rest. Once more he plunged after his man, but now I could see his +rushes were more under control, his smashing blows better timed, his +fierce jabs more shrewdly delivered. Again I began to quake for the +Jam-wagon, but he showed a wonderful quickness in his footwork, darting +in and out, his hands swinging at his sides, a smile of mockery on his +lips. He was deft as a dancing-master; he twinkled like a gleam of +light, and amid that savage thresh of blows he was as cool as if he were +boxing in the school gymnasium. + +"Who is he?" those at the ring-side began to whisper. Time and again it +seemed as if he were cornered, but in a marvellous way he wormed +himself free. I held my breath as he evaded blow after blow, some of +which seemed to miss him by a mere hair's breadth. He was taking +chances, I thought, so narrowly did he permit the blows to miss him. I +was all keyed up, on edge with excitement, eager for my man to strike, +to show he was not a mere ring-tactician. But the Jam-wagon bided his +time. + +And so the round ended, and it was evident that the crowd was of the +same opinion as myself. "Why don't he mix up a little?" said one. "Give +him time," said another. "He's all right: there's some class to that +work." + +Locasto came up for the third round looking sobered, subdued, grimly +determined. Evidently he had made up his mind to force his opponent out +of his evasive tactics. He was wary as a cat. He went cautiously. Yet +again he assumed the aggressive, gradually working the Jam-wagon into a +corner. A collision was inevitable; there was no means of escape for my +friend; that huge bulk, with its swinging, flail-like arms, menaced him +hopelessly. + +Suddenly Locasto closed in. He swooped down on the Jam-wagon. He had +him. He shortened his right arm for a jab like the crash of a +pile-driver. The arm shot out, but once again the Jam-wagon was not +there. He ducked quickly, and Locasto's great fist brushed his hair. + +Then, like lightning, the two came to a clinch. Now, thought I, it's all +off with the Jam-wagon. I saw Locasto's eyes dilate with ferocious joy. +He had the other in his giant arms; he could crush him in a mighty hug, +the hug of a grizzly, crush him like an egg-shell. But, quick as the +snap of a trap, the Jam-wagon had pinioned his arms at the elbow, so +that he was helpless. For a moment he held him, then, suddenly releasing +his arms, he caught him round the body, shook him with a mighty +side-heave, gave him the cross-buttock, and, before he could strike a +single blow, threw him in the air and dashed him to the ground. + +"Time!" called the umpire. It was all done so quickly it was hard for +the eye to follow, but a mighty cheer went up from the house. "Two to +one on the little fellow," called the banjo-voice. Suddenly Locasto rose +to his feet. He was shamed, angered beyond all expression. Heaving and +panting, he lurched to his corner, and in his eyes there was a look that +boded ill for his adversary. + +Time again. With the lightness of a panther the Jam-wagon sprang into +the centre of the ring. More than halfway he met Locasto, and now his +intention seemed to be to draw his man on rather than to avoid him. I +watched his every movement with a sense of thrilling fascination. He had +resumed his serpentine movements, advancing and retreating with +shadow-like quickness, feinting, side-stepping, pawing the air till he +had his man baffled and bewildered. Yet he never struck a blow. + +All this seemed to be getting on Locasto's nerves. He was going steadily +enough, trying by every means in his power to get the other man to "mix +it up." He shouted the foulest abuse at him. "Stand up like a man, you +son of a dog, and fight." The smile left the Jam-wagon's lips, and he +settled down to business. + +I saw him edging up to Locasto. He feinted wildly, then, stepping in +closely, he swung a right and left to Black Jack's face. A moment later +he was six feet away, with a bitter smile on his lips. + +With a fierce bellow of rage Locasto, forgetting all his caution, +charged him. He smashed his heavy right with all its might for the +other's face, but, quick as the quiver of a bow-string, the Jam-wagon +side-stepped and the blow missed. Then the Jam-wagon shifted and brought +his left, full-weight, crash on Locasto's mouth. + +At that fierce triumphant blow there was the first dazzling blood-gleam, +and the crowd screeched with excitement. In a wild whirlwind of fury +Locasto hurled himself on the Jam-wagon, his arms going like windmills. +Any one of these blows, delivered in a vital spot, would have meant +death, but his opponent was equal to this blind assault. Dodging, +ducking, side-stepping, blocking, he foiled the other at every turn, +and, just before the round ended, drove his left into the pit of the big +man's stomach, with a thwack that resounded throughout the building. + +Once more time was called. The Jam-wagon was bleeding about the +knuckles. Several of Locasto's teeth had been loosened, and he spat +blood frequently. Otherwise he looked as fit as ever. He pursued his +man with savage determination, and seemed resolved to get in a deadly +body-blow that would end the fight. + +It was pretty to see the Jam-wagon work. He was sprightly as a ballet +dancer, as, weaving in and out, he dodged the other's blows. His arms +swung at his sides, and he threw his head about in a manner insufferably +mocking and tantalising. Then he took to landing light body-blows, that +grew more frequent till he seemed to be beating a regular tattoo on +Locasto's ribs. He was springy as a panther, elusive as an eel. As for +Locasto, his face was sober now, strained, anxious, and he seemed to be +waiting with menacing eyes to get in that vital smash that meant the +end. + +The Jam-wagon began to put more force into his arms. He drove in a +short-arm left to the stomach, then brought his right up to the other's +chin. Locasto swung a deadly knock-out blow at the Jam-wagon, which just +grazed his jaw, and the Jam-wagon retaliated with two lightning rights +and a nervous left, all on the big man's face. + +Then he sprang back, for he was excited now. In and out he wove. Once +more he landed a hard left on Locasto's heaving stomach, and then, +rushing in, he rained blow after blow on his antagonist. It was a +furious mix-up, a whirling storm of blows, brutal, savage and murderous. +No two men could keep up such a gait. They came into a clinch, but this +time the Jam-wagon broke away, giving the deadly kidney blow as they +parted. When time was called both men were panting hard, bruised and +covered with blood. + +How the house howled with delight! All the primordial brute in these men +was glowing in their hearts. Nothing but blood could appease it. Their +throats were parched, their eyes wild. + +Round six. Locasto sprang into the centre of the ring. His face was +hideously disfigured. Only in that battered, blood-stained mask could I +recognise the black eyes gleaming deadly hatred. Rushing for the +Jam-wagon, he hurled him across the ring. Again charging, he overbore +him to the floor, but failed to hold him. + +Then in the Jam-wagon there awoke the ancient spirit of the Berserker. +He cared no more for punishment. He was insensible to pain. He was the +sea-pirate again, mad with the lust of battle. Like a fiend he tore +himself loose, and went after his man, rushing him with a swift, +battering hail of blows around the ring. Like a tiger he was, and the +violent lunges of Locasto only infuriated him the more. + +Now they were in a furious mix-up, and suddenly Locasto, seizing him +savagely, tried to whip him smashing to the floor. Then the wonderful +agility of the Englishman was displayed. In a distance of less than a +two-foot drop he turned completely like a cat. Leaping up, he was free, +and, getting a waist-hold with a Cornish heave, he bore Locasto to the +floor. Quickly he changed to a crotch-lock, and, lastly, holding +Locasto's legs, he brought him to a bridge and worked his weight up on +his body. + +Black Jack, with a mighty heave, broke away and again regained his +feet. This seemed to enrage the Jam-wagon the more, for he tore after +his man like a maddened bull. Getting a hold with incredible strength, +he lifted him straight up in the air and hurled him to the ground with +sickening force. + +Locasto lay there. His eyes were closed. He did not move. Several men +rushed forward. "He's all right," said a medical-looking individual; +"just stunned. I guess you can call the fight over." + +The Jam-wagon slowly put on his clothes. Once more, in the person of +Locasto, he had successfully grappled with "Old Man Booze." He was badly +bruised about the body, but not seriously hurt in any way. Shudderingly +I looked down at Locasto's face, beaten to a pulp, his body livid from +head to foot. And then, as they bore him off to the hospital, I realised +I was revenged. + +"Did you know that man Spitzstein was charging a dollar for admission?" +queried the Prodigal. + +"No!" + +"That's right. That darned little Jew netted nearly a thousand dollars." + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +"Let me introduce you," said the Prodigal, "to my friend the 'Pote.'" + +"Glad to meet you," said the Pote cheerfully, extending a damp hand. +"Just been having a dishwashing bee. Excuse my dishybeel." + +He wore a pale-blue undershirt, white flannel trousers girt round the +waist with a red silk handkerchief, very gaudy moccasins, and a rakish +Panama hat with a band of chocolate and gold. + +"Take a seat, won't you?" Through his gold-rimmed spectacles his eyes +shone benevolently as he indicated an easy-looking chair. I took it. It +promptly collapsed under me. + +"Ah, excuse me," he said; "you're not onto the combination of that +chair. I'll fix it." + +He performed some operation on it which made it less unstable, and I sat +down gingerly. + +I was in a little log-cabin on the hill overlooking the town. Through +the bottle window the light came dimly. The walls showed the bark of +logs and tufts of intersecting moss. In the corner was a bunk over which +lay a bearskin robe, and on the little oblong stove a pot of beans was +simmering. + +The Pote finished his dishwashing and joined us, pulling on an old +Tuxedo jacket. + +"Whew! Glad that job's over. You know, I guess I'm fastidious, but I +can't bear to use a plate for more than three meals without passing a +wet rag over it. That's the worst of having refined ideas, they make +life so complex. However, I mustn't complain. There's a monastic +simplicity about this joint that endears it to me. And now, having +immolated myself on the altar of cleanliness, I will solace my soul with +a little music." + +He took down a banjo from the wall and, striking a few chords, began to +sing. His songs seemed to be original, even improvisations, and he sang +them with a certain quaintness and point that made them very piquant. I +remember one of the choruses. It went like this: + + "In the land of pale blue snow + Where it's ninety-nine below, + And the polar bears are dancing on the plain, + In the shadow of the pole, + Oh, my Heart, my Life, my Soul, + I will meet thee when the ice-worms nest again." + +Every now and then he would pause to make some lively comment. + +"You've never heard of the blue snow, Cheechako? The rabbits have blue +fur, and the ptarmigans' feathers are a bright azure. You've never had +an ice-worm cocktail? We must remedy that. Great dope. Nothing like +ice-worm oil for salads. Oh, I forgot, didn't give you my card." + +I took it. It was engraved thus: + + OLLIE GABOODLER. + + Poetic Expert. + +Turning it over, I read: + + Graduate of the University of Hard Knocks. + All kinds of verse made to order with efficiency and + dispatch. + Satisfaction guaranteed or money returned. + A trial solicited. + In Memoriam Odes a specialty. + Ballads, Rondeaux and Sonnets at modest prices. + Try our lines of Love Lyrics. + Leave orders at the Comet Saloon. + + +I stared at him curiously. He was smoking a cigarette and watching me +with shrewd, observant eyes. He was a blond, blue-eyed, cherubic youth, +with a whimsical mouth that seemed to alternate between seriousness and +fun. + +He laughed merrily at my look of dismay. + +"Oh, you think it's a josh, but it's not. I've been a 'ghost' ever since +I could push a pen. You know Will Wilderbush, the famous novelist? Well, +Bill died six years ago from over-assiduous cultivation of John +Barleycorn, and they hushed it up. But every year there's a new novel +comes from his pen. It's 'ghosts.' I was Bill number three. Isn't it +rummy?" + +I expressed my surprise. + +"Yes, it's a great joke this book-faking. Wouldn't Thackeray have +lambasted the best sellers? A fancy picture of a girl on the cover, +something doing all the time, and a happy ending--that's the recipe. Or +else be as voluptuous as velvet. Wait till my novel, 'Three Minutes,' +comes out. Order in advance." + +"Indeed I will," I said. + +He suddenly became grave. + +"If I only could take the literary game seriously I might make good. But +I'm too much of a 'farceur.' Well, one day we'll see. Maybe the North +will inspire me. Maybe I'll yet become the Spokesman of the Frozen +Silence, the Avatar of the Great White Land." + +He strutted up and down, inflating his chest. + +"Have you framed up any dope lately?" asked the Prodigal. + +"Why, yes; only this morning, while I was eating my beans and bacon, I +dashed off a few lines. I always write best when I'm eating. Want to +hear them?" + +He drew from his pocket an old envelope. + +"They were written to the order of Stillwater Willie. He wants to +present them to one of the Labelle Sisters. You know--that fat lymphatic +blonde, Birdie Labelle. It is short and sweet. He wants to have it +engraved on a gold-backed hand-mirror he's giving her. + + "I see within my true love's eyes + The wide blue spaces of the skies; + I see within my true love's face + The rose and lily vie in grace; + I hear within my true love's voice + The songsters of the Spring rejoice. + Oh, why need I seek Nature's charms-- + I hold my true love in my arms. + +"How'll that hit her? There's such a lot of natural beauty about +Birdie." + +"Do you get much work?" I asked. + +"No, it's dull. Poetry's rather a drug on the market up here. It's just +a side-line. For a living I clean shoes at the 'Elight' Barbershop--I, +who have lingered on the sunny slopes of Parnassus, and quenched my +soul-thirst at the Heliconian spring--gents' tans a specialty." + +"Did you ever publish a book?" I asked. + +"Sure! Did you never read my 'Rhymes of a Rustler'? One reviewer would +say I was the clear dope, the genuine eighteen-carat, jewelled-movement +article; the next would aver I was the rankest dub that ever came down +the pike. They said I'd imitated people, people I'd never read, people +I'd never heard of, people I never dreamt existed. I was accused of +imitating over twenty different writers. Then the pedants got after me, +said I didn't conform to academic formulas, advised me to steep myself +in tradition. They talked about form, about classic style and so on. As +if it matters so long as you get down the thing itself so that folks can +see it, and feel it go right home to their hearts. I can write in all +the artificial verse forms, but they're mouldy with age, back numbers. +Forget them. Quit studying that old Greek dope: study life, modern life, +palpitating with colour, crying for expression. Life! Life! The sunshine +of it was in my heart, and I just naturally tried to be its singer." + +"I say," said the Prodigal from the bunk where he was lounging, in a +haze of cigarette smoke, "read us that thing you did the other day, 'The +Last Supper.'" + +The Pote's eyes twinkled with pleasure. + +"All right," he said. Then, in a clear voice, he repeated the following +lines: + + "THE LAST SUPPER. + + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips, + And the mouth so mocking gay; + A wanton you to the finger tips, + That break men's hearts in play; + A thing of dust I have striven for, + Honour and Manhood given for, + Headlong for ruin driven for-- + And this is the last, you say: + + Drinking your wine with dainty sips, + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips. + + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips, + Long have you held your sway; + I have laughed at your merry quips, + Now is my time to pay. + What we sow we must reap again; + When we laugh we must weep again; + So to-night we will sleep again, + Nor wake till the Judgment Day. + + 'Tis a prison wine that your palate sips, + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips. + + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips, + Down on your knees and pray; + Pray your last ere the moment slips, + Pray ere the dark and the terror grips, + And the bright world fades away: + Pray for the good unguessed of us, + Pray for the peace and rest of us. + Here comes the Shape in quest of us, + Now must we go away-- + + You and I in the grave's eclipse, + Marie Vaux of the Painted Lips." + +Just as he finished there came a knock at the door, and a young man +entered. He had the broad smiling face of a comedian, and the bulgy +forehead of a Baptist Missionary. The Pote introduced him to me. + +"The Yukon Yorick." + +"Hello," chuckled the newcomer, "how's the bunch? Don't let me stampede +you. How d'ye do, Horace! Glad to meet you." (He called everybody +Horace.) "Just come away from a meeting of my creditors. What's that? +Have a slab of booze? Hardly that, old fellow, hardly that. Don't tempt +me, Horace, don't tempt me. Remember I'm only a poor working-girl." + +He seemed brimming over with jovial acceptance of life in all its +phases. He lit a cigar. + +"Say, boys, you know old Dingbats the lawyer. Ha, yes. Well, met him on +Front Street just now. Says I: 'Horace, that was a pretty nifty spiel +you gave us last night at the Zero Club.' He looked at me all tickled up +the spine. Ha, yes. He was pleased as Punch. 'Say, Horace,' I says, 'I'm +on, but I won't give you away. I've got a book in my room with every +word of that speech in it.' He looked flabbergasted. So I have--ha, yes, +the dictionary." + +He rolled his cigar unctuously in his mouth, with many chuckles and a +histrionic eye. + +"No, don't tempt me, Horace. Remember, I'm only a poor working-girl. +Thanks, I'll just sit down on this soap-box. Knew a man once, Jobcroft +was his name, Charles Alfred Jobcroft, sat down on a custard pie at a +pink tea; was so embarrassed he wouldn't get up. Just sat on till every +one else was gone. Every one was wondering why he wouldn't budge: just +sat tight." + +"I guess he _cussed hard_," ventured the Prodigal. + +"Oh, Horace, spare me that! Remember I'm only a poor working-girl. +Hardly that, old fellow. Say, hit me with a slab of booze quick. Make +things sparkle, boys, make things sparkle." + +He drank urbanely of the diluted alcohol that passed for whisky. + +"Hit me easy, boys, hit me easy," he said, as they refilled his glass. +"I can't hold my hootch so well as I could a few summers ago--and many +hard Falls. Talking about holding your 'hooch,' the best I ever saw was +a man called Podstreak, Arthur Frederick Podstreak. You couldn't get +that man going. The way he could lap up the booze was a caution. He +would drink one bunch of boys under the table, then leave them and go on +to another. He would start in early in the morning and keep on going +till the last thing at night. And he never got hilarious even; it didn't +seem to phase him; he was as sober after the twentieth drink as when he +started. Gee! but he was a wonder." + +The others nodded their heads appreciatively. + +"He was a fine, healthy-looking chap, too; the booze didn't seem to hurt +him. Never saw such a constitution. I often watched him, for I suspected +him of 'sluffing,' but no! He always had a bigger drink than every one +else, always drank whisky, always drank it neat, and always had a chaser +of water after. I said to myself: 'What's your system?' and I got to +studying him hard. Then, one day, I found him out." + +"What was it?" + +"Well, one day I noticed something. I noticed he always held his glass +in a particular way when he drank, and at the same time he pressed his +stomach in the region of the 'solar plexus.' So that night I took him +aside. + +"'Look here, Podstreak,' I said, 'I'm next to you.' I really wasn't, but +the bluff worked. He grew white. + +"'For Heaven's sake, don't give me away,' he cried; 'the boys'll lynch +me.' + +"'All right,' I said; 'if you'll promise to quit.' + +"Then he made a full confession, and showed me how he did it. He had an +elastic rubber bag under his shirt, and a tube going up his arm and down +his sleeve, ending in a white nozzle inside his cuff. When he went to +empty his glass of whisky he simply pressed some air out of the rubber +bag, put the nozzle in the glass, and let it suck up all the whisky. At +night he used to empty all the liquor out of the bag and sell it to a +saloon-keeper. Oh, he was a phoney piece of work. + +"'I've been a total abstainer (in private) for seven years,' he told me. +'Yes,' I said, 'and you'll become one in public for another seven.' And +he did." + +Several men had dropped in to swell this Bohemian circle. Some had +brought bottles. There was a painter who had been "hung," a Mus Bac., an +ex-champion amateur pugilist, a silver-tongued orator, a man who had +"suped" for Mansfield, and half a dozen others. The little cabin was +crowded, the air hazy with smoke, the conversation animated. But mostly +it was a monologue by the inimitable Yorick. + +Suddenly the conversation turned to the immorality of the town. + +"Now, I have a theory," said the Pote, "that the regeneration of Dawson +is at hand. You know Good is the daughter of Evil, Virtue the offspring +of Vice. You know how virtuous a man feels after a jag. You've got to +sin to feel really good. Consequently, Sin must be good to be the means +of good, to be the raw material of good, to be virtue in the making, +mustn't it? The dance-halls are a good foil to the gospel-halls. If we +were all virtuous, there would be no virtue in virtue, and if we were +all bad no one would be bad. And because there's so much bad in this old +burg of ours, it makes the good seem unnaturally good." + +The Pote had the floor. + +"A friend of mine had a beautiful pond of water-lilies. They painted the +water exultantly and were a triumphant challenge to the soul. Folks came +from far and near to see them. Then, one winter, my friend thought he +would clean out his pond, so he had all the nasty, slimy mud scraped +away till you could see the silver gravel glimmering on the bottom. But +the lilies, with all their haunting loveliness, never came back." + +"Well, what are you driving at, you old dreamer?" + +"Oh, just this: in the nasty mud and slime of Dawson I saw a lily-girl. +She lives in a cabin by the Slide along with a Jewish couple. I only +caught a glimpse of her twice. They are unspeakable, but she is fair +and sweet and pure. I would stake my life on her goodness. She looks +like a young Madonna----" + +He was interrupted by a shout of cynical laughter. + +"Oh, get off your foot! A Madonna in Dawson--Ra! Ra!" + +He shut up abashed, but I had my clue. I waited until the last noisy +roisterer had gone. + +"In the cabin by the Slide?" I asked. + +He started, looked at me searchingly: "You know her?" + +"She means a good deal to me." + +"Oh, I understand. Yes, that long, queer cabin highest up the hill." + +"Thanks, old chap." + +"All right, good luck." He accompanied me to the door, staring at the +marvel of the glamorous Northern midnight. + +"Oh, for a medium to express it all! Your pedantic poetry isn't big +enough; prose isn't big enough. What we want is something between the +two, something that will interpret life, and stir the great heart of the +people. Good-night." + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +Very softly I approached the cabin, for a fear of encountering her +guardians was in my heart. It was in rather a lonely place, perched at +the base of that vast mountain abrasion they call the Slide, a long, low +cabin, quiet and dark, and surrounded by rugged boulders. Carefully I +reconnoitered, and soon, to my infinite joy, I saw the Jewish couple +come forth and make their way townward. The girl was alone. + +How madly beat my heart! It was a glooming kind of a night, and the +cabin looked woefully bleak and solitary. No light came through the +windows, no sound through the moss-chinked walls. I drew near. + +Why this wild commotion of my being? What was it? Anxiety, joy, dread? I +was poised on the pinnacle of hope that overhangs the abyss of despair. +Fearfully I paused. I was racked with suspense, conscious of a longing +so poignant that the thought of disappointment became insufferable pain. +So violent was my emotion that a feeling almost of nausea overcame me. + +I knew now that I cared for this girl more than I had ever thought to +care for woman. I knew that she was dearer to me than all the world +else; I knew that my love for her would live as long as life is long. + +I knocked at the door. No answer. + +"Berna," I cried in a faltering whisper. + +Came the reply: "Who is there?" + +"Love, love, dear; love is waiting." + +Then, at my words, the door was opened, and the girl was before me. I +think she had been lying down, for her soft hair was a little ruffled, +but her eyes were far too bright for sleep. She stood gazing at me, and +a little fluttering hand went up to her heart as if to still its +beating. + +"Oh, my dear, I knew you were coming." + +A great radiance of joy seemed to descend on her. + +"You knew?" + +"I knew, yes, I knew. Something told me you were come at last. And I've +waited--how I've waited! I've dreamed, but it's not a dream now, is it, +dear; it's you?" + +"Yes, it's me. I've tried so hard to find you. Oh, my dear, my dear!" + +I seized the sweet, soft hand and covered it with kisses. At that moment +I could have kissed the shadow of that little hand; I could have fallen +before her in speechless adoration; I could have made my heart a +footstool for her feet; I could have given her, O, so gladly, my paltry +life to save her from a moment's sorrow--I loved her so, I loved her so! + +"High and low I've sought you, beloved. Morning, noon and night you've +been in my brain, my heart, my soul. I've loved you every moment of my +life. It's been desire feeding despair, and, O, the agony of it! Thank +God, I've found you, dear! thank God! thank God!" + +O Love, look down on us and choir your harmonies! Transported was I, +speaking with whirling words of sweetest madness, tremulous, uplifted +with rapture, scarce conscious of my wild, impassioned metaphors. It was +she, most precious of all creation; she, my beloved. And there, in the +doorway, she poised, white as a lily, lustrous-eyed, and with hair soft +as sunlit foam. O Divinity of Love, look down on us thy children; fold +us in thy dove-soft wings; illumine us in thy white radiance; touch us +with thy celestial hands. Bless us, Love! + +How vastly alight were the grey eyes! How ineffably tender the sweet +lips! A faint glow had come into her cheeks. + +"O, it's you, really, really you at last," she cried again, and there +was a tremor, the surface ripple of a sob in that clear voice. She +fetched a deep sigh: "And I thought I'd lost you forever. Wait a moment. +I'll come out." + +Endlessly long the moment seemed, yet wondrously irradiate. The shadow +had lifted from the world; the skies were alight with gladness; my heart +was heaven-aspiring in its ecstasy. Then, at last, she came. + +She had thrown a shawl around her shoulders, and coaxed her hair into +charming waves and ripples. + +"Come, let us go up the trail a little distance. They won't be back for +nearly an hour." + +She led the way along that narrow path, looking over her shoulder with a +glorious smile, sometimes extending her hand back to me as one would +with a child. + +Along the brow of the bluff the way wound dizzily, while far below the +river swept in a giant eddy. For a long time we spoke no word. 'Twas as +if our hearts were too full for utterance, our happiness too vast for +expression. Yet, O, the sweetness of that silence! The darkling gloom +had silvered into lustrous light, the birds were beginning again their +mad midnight melodies. Then, suddenly turning a bend in the narrow +trail, a blaze of glory leapt upon our sight. + +"Look, Berna," I cried. + +The swelling river was a lake of saffron fire; the hills a throne of +rosy garnet; the sky a dazzling panoply of rubies, girdled with flames +of gold. We almost cringed, so gorgeous was its glow, so fierce its +splendour. + +Then, when we had seated ourselves on the hillside, facing the +conflagration, she turned to me. + +"And so you found me, dear. I knew you would, somehow. In my heart I +knew you would not fail me. So I waited and waited. The time seemed +pitilessly long. I only thought of you once, and that was always. It was +cruel we left so suddenly, not even time to say good-bye. I can't tell +you how bad I felt about it, but I could not help myself. They dragged +me away. They began to be afraid of you, and he bade them leave at once. +So in the early morning we started." + +"I see, I see." I looked into the pools of her eyes; I sheathed her +white hands in my brown ones, thrilling greatly at the contact of them. + +"Tell me about it, child. Has he bothered you?" + +"Oh, not so much. He thinks he has me safe enough, trapped, awaiting his +pleasure. But he's taken up with some woman of the town just now. +By-and-bye he'll turn his attention to me." + +"Terrible! Terrible! Berna, you wring my heart. How can you talk of such +things in that matter-of-fact way--it maddens me." + +An odd, hard look ridged the corners of her mouth. + +"I don't know. Sometimes I'm surprised at myself how philosophical I'm +getting." + +"But, Berna, surely nothing in this world would ever make you yield? O, +it's horrible! horrible!" + +She leaned to me tenderly. She put my arms around her neck; she looked +at me till I saw my face mirrored in her eyes. + +"Nothing in the world, dear, so long as I have you to love me and help +me. If ever you fail me, well, then it wouldn't matter much what became +of me." + +"Even then," I said, "it would be too awful for words. I would rather +drag your body from that river than see you yield to him. He's a +monster. His very touch is profanation. He could not look on a woman +without cynical lust in his heart." + +"I know, my boy, I know. Believe me and trust me. I would rather throw +myself from the bluff here than let him put a hand on me. And so long as +I have your love, dear, I'm safe enough. Don't fear. O, it's been +terrible not seeing you! I've craved for you ceaselessly. I've never +been out since we came here. They wouldn't let me. They kept in +themselves. He bade them. He has them both under his thumb. But now, for +some reason, he has relaxed. They're going to open a restaurant +downtown, and I'm to wait on table." + +"No, you're not!" I cried, "not if I have anything to say in the matter. +Berna, I can't bear to think of you in that garbage-heap of corruption +down there. You must marry me--now." + +"Now," she echoed, her eyes wide with surprise. + +"Yes, right away, dear. There's nothing to prevent us. Berna, I love +you, I want you, I need you. I'm just distracted, dear. I never know a +moment's peace. I cannot take an interest in anything. When I speak to +others I'm thinking of you, you all the time. O, I can't bear it, +dearest; have pity on me: marry me now." + +In an agony of suspense I waited for her answer. For a long time she sat +there, thoughtful and quiet, her eyes cast down. At last she raised them +to me. + +"You said one year." + +"Yes, but I was sorry afterwards. I want you now. I can't wait." + +She looked at me gravely. Her voice was very soft, very tender. + +"I think it better we should wait, dear. This is a blind, sudden desire +on your part. I mustn't take advantage of it. You pity me, fear for me, +and you have known so few other girls. It's generosity, chivalry, not +love for poor little me. O, we mustn't, we mustn't. And then--you might +change." + +"Change! I'll never, never change," I pleaded. "I'll always be yours, +absolutely, wholly yours, little girl; body and soul, to make or to mar, +for ever and ever and ever." + +"Well, it seems so sudden, so burning, so intense, your love, dear. I'm +afraid, I'm afraid. Maybe it's not the kind that lasts. Maybe you'll +tire. I'm not worth it, indeed I'm not. I'm only a poor ignorant girl. +If there were others near, you would never think of me." + +"Berna," I said, "if you were among a thousand, and they were the most +adorable in all the world, I would pass over them all and turn with joy +and gratitude to you. Then, if I were an Emperor on a throne, and you +the humblest in all that throng, I would raise you up beside me and call +you 'Queen.'" + +"Ah, no," she said sadly, "you were wise once. I saw it afterwards. +Better wait one year." + +"Oh, my dearest," I reproached her, "once you offered yourself to me +under any conditions. Why have you changed?" + +"I don't know. I'm bitterly ashamed of that. Never speak of it again." + +She went on very quietly, full of gentle patience. + +"You know, I've been thinking a great deal since then. In the long, long +days and longer nights, when I waited here in misery, hoping always you +would come to me, I had time to reflect, to weight your words. I +remember them all: 'love that means life and death, that great dazzling +light, that passion that would raise to heaven or drag to hell.' You +have awakened the woman in me; I must have a love like that." + +"You have, my precious; you have, indeed." + +"Well, then, let me have time to test it. This is June. Next June, if +you have not made up your mind you were foolish, blind, hasty, I will +give myself to you with all the love in the world." + +"Perhaps _you_ will change." + +She smiled a peculiar little smile. + +"Never, never fear that. I will be waiting for you, longing for you, +loving you more and more every day." + +I was bitterly cast down, crestfallen, numbed with the blow of her +refusal. + +"Just now," she said, "I would only be a drag on you. I believe in you. +I have faith in you. I want to see you go out and mix in the battle of +life. I know you will win. For my sake, dear, win. I would handicap you +just now. There are all kinds of chances. Let us wait, boy, just a +year." + +I saw the pathetic wisdom of her words. + +"I know you fear something will happen to me. No! I think I will be +quite safe. I can withstand him. After a while he will leave me alone. +And if it should come to the worst I can call on you. You mustn't go too +far away. I will die rather than let him lay a hand on me. Till next +June, dear, not a day longer. We will both be the better for the wait." + +I bowed my head. "Very well," I said huskily; "and what will I do in the +meantime?" + +"Do! Do what you would have done otherwise. Do not let a woman divert +the current of your life; let her swim with it. Go out on the creeks! +Work! It will be better for you to go away. It will make it easier for +me. Here we will both torture each other. I, too, will work and live +quietly, and long for you. The time will pass quickly. You will come and +see me sometimes?" + +"Yes," I answered. My voice choked with emotion. + +"Now we must go home," she said; "I'm afraid they will be back." + +She rose, and I followed her down the narrow trail. Once or twice she +turned and gave me a bright, tender look. I worshipped her more than +ever. Was there ever maid more sweet, more gentle, more quick with +anxious love? "Bless her, O bless her," I sighed. "Whatever comes, may +she be happy." I adored her, but a great sadness filled my heart, and +never a word I spoke. + +We reached the cabin, and on the threshold she paused. The others had +not yet returned. She held out both hands to me, and her eyes were +glittering with tears. + +"Be brave, my dearest; it's all for my sake--if you love me." + +"I love you, my darling; anything for your sake. I'll go to-morrow." + +"We're betrothed now, aren't we, dearest?" + +"We're betrothed, my love." + +She swayed to me and seemed to fit into my arms as a sword fits into its +sheath. My lips lay on hers, and I kissed her with a passionate joy. She +took my face between her hands and gazed at me long and earnestly. + +"I love you, I love you," she murmured; "next June, my darling, next +June." + +Then she gently slipped away from me, and I was gazing blankly at the +closed door. + +"Next June," I heard a voice echo; and there, looking at me with a +smile, was Locasto. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +It comes like a violent jar to be awakened so rudely from a trance of +love, to turn suddenly from the one you care for most in all the world, +and behold the one you have best reason to hate. Nevertheless, it is not +in human nature to descend rocket-wise from the ethereal heights of +love. I was still in an exalted state of mind when I turned and +confronted Locasto. Hate was far from my heart, and when I saw the man +himself was regarding me with no particular unfriendliness, I was +disposed to put aside for the moment all feelings of enmity. The +generosity of the victor glowed within me. + +As he advanced to me his manner was almost urbane in its geniality. + +"You must forgive me," he said, not without dignity, "for overhearing +you; but by chance I was passing and dropped upon you before I realised +it." + +He extended his hand frankly. + +"I trust my congratulations on your good luck will not be entirely +obnoxious. I know that my conduct in this affair cannot have impressed +you in a very favourable light; but I am a badly beaten man. Can't you +be generous and let by-gones be by-gones? Won't you?" + +I had not yet come down to earth. I was still soaring in the rarefied +heights of love, and inclined to a general amnesty towards my enemies. + +As he stood there, quiet and compelling, there was an assumption of +frankness and honesty about this man that it was hard to withstand. For +the nonce I was persuaded of his sincerity, and weakly I surrendered my +hand. His grip made me wince. + +"Yes, again I congratulate you. I know and admire her. They don't make +them any better. She's pure gold. She's a little queen, and the man she +cares for ought to be proud and happy. Now, I'm a man of the world, I'm +cynical about woman as a rule. I respect my mother and my +sisters--beyond that----" He shrugged his shoulders expressively. + +"But this girl's different. I always felt in her presence as I used to +feel twenty-five years ago when I was a youth, with all my ideals +untarnished, my heart pure, and woman holy in my sight." + +He sighed. + +"You know, young man, I've never told it to a soul before, but I'd give +all I'm worth--a clear million--to have those days back. I've never been +happy since." + +He drew away quickly from the verge of sentiment. + +"Well, you mustn't mind me taking an interest in your sweetheart. I'm +old enough to be her father, you know, and she touches me strangely. +Now, don't distrust me. I want to be a friend to you both. I want to +help you to be happy. Jack Locasto's not such a bad lot, as you'll find +when you know him. Is there anything I can do for you? What are you +going to do in this country?" + +"I don't quite know yet," I said. "I hope to stake a good claim when the +chance comes. Meantime I'm going to get work on the creeks." + +"You are?" he said thoughtfully; "do you know any one?" + +"No." + +"Well, I'll tell you what: I've got laymen working on my Eldorado claim; +I'll give you a note to them if you like." + +I thanked him. + +"Oh, that's all right," he said. "I'm sorry I played such a mean part in +the past, and I'll do anything in my power to straighten things out. +Believe me, I mean it. Your English friend gave me the worst drubbing of +my life, but three days after I went round and shook hands with him. +Fine fellow that. We opened a case of wine to celebrate the victory. Oh, +we're good friends now. I always own up when I'm beaten, and I never +bear ill-will. If I can help you in any way, and hasten your marriage to +that little girl there, well, you can just bank on Jack Locasto: that's +all." + +I must say the man could be most conciliating when he chose. There was a +gravity in his manner, a suave courtesy in his tone, the heritage of his +Spanish forefathers, that convinced me almost in spite of my better +judgment. No doubt he was magnetic, dominating, a master of men. I +thought: there are two Locastos, the primordial one, the Indian, who had +assaulted me; and the dignified genial one, the Spaniard, who was +willing to own defeat and make amends. Why should I not take him as I +found him? + +So, as he talked entertainingly to me, my fears were dissipated, my +suspicions lulled. And when we parted we shook hands cordially. + +"Don't forget," he said; "if you want help bank on me. I mean it now, I +mean it." + + * * * * * + +'Twas early in the bright and cool of the morning when we started for +Eldorado, Jim and I. I had a letter from Locasto to Ribwood and Hoofman, +the laymen, and I showed it to Jim. He frowned. + +"You don't mean to say you've palled up with that devil," he said. + +"Oh, he's not so bad," I expostulated. "He came to me like a man and +offered me his hand in friendship. Said he was ashamed of himself. What +could I do? I've no reason to doubt his sincerity." + +"Sincerity be danged. He's about as sincere as a tame rattlesnake. Put +his letter in the creek." + +But no! I refused to listen to the old man. + +"Well, go your own gait," he said; "but don't say that I didn't warn +you." + +We had crossed over the Klondike to its left limit, and were on a +hillside trail beaten down by the feet of miners and packers. Cabins +clustered on the flat, and from them plumes of violet smoke mounted into +the golden air. Already the camp was astir. Men were chopping their +wood, carrying their water. The long, long day was beginning. + +Following the trail, we struck up Bonanza, a small muddy stream in a +narrow valley. Down in the creek-bed we could see ever-increasing signs +of an intense mining activity. On every claim were dozens of cabins, and +many high cones of greyish muck. We saw men standing on raised platforms +turning windlasses. We saw buckets come up filled with the same dark +grey dirt, to be dumped over the edge of the platform. Sometimes, where +the dump had gradually arisen around man and windlass, the platform in +the centre of that dark-greyish cone was twenty feet high. + +Every mile the dumps grew more numerous, till some claims seemed covered +with them. Looking down from the trail, they were like innumerable +anthills blocking up the narrow channel, and around them swarmed the +little ant-men in never-resting activity. The golden valley opened out +to us in a vista of green curves, and the cleft of it was packed with +tents, cabins, dumps and tailing piles, all bedded in a blue haze of +wood fires. + +"Look at that great centipede striding across the valley," I said. + +"Yes," said Jim, "it's a long line of sluice-boxes. See the water +a-shinin' in the sun. Looks like some big golden-backed caterpillar." + +The little ants were shovelling into it from one of their heaps, and +from that point it swirled on into the stream, a current of mud and +stone. + +"Seems to me that stream would wash away all the gold," I said. "I know +it's all caught in the riffles, but I think if that dump was mine I +would want sluice-boxes a mile long and about sixteen hundred riffles. +But I guess they know what they are doing." + +About noon we descended into the creek-bed and came to the Forks. It was +a little town, a Dawson in miniature, with all its sordid aspects +infinitely accentuated. It had dance-halls, gambling dens and many +saloons: every convenience to ease the miner of the plethoric poke. +There in the din and daze and dirt we tarried awhile; then, after eating +heartily, we struck up Eldorado. + +Here was the same feverish activity of gold-getting. Every claim was +valued at millions, and men who had rarely owned enough to buy a decent +coat were crying in the saloons because life was not long enough to +allow them to spend their sudden wealth. Nevertheless, they were making +a good stab at it. At the Forks I enquired regarding Ribwood and +Hoofman: "Goin' to work for them, are you? Well, they've got a blamed +hard name. If you get a job elsewhere, don't turn it down." + +Jim left me; he would work on no claim of Locasto's, he said. He had a +friend, a layman, who was a good man, belonged to the Army. He would try +him. So we parted. + +Ribwood was a tall, gaunt Cornishman, with a narrow, jutting face and a +gloomy air; Hoofman, a burly, beet-coloured Australian with a bulging +stomach. + +"Yes, we'll put you to work," said Hoofman, reading the letter. "Get +your coat off and shovel in." + +So, right away, I found myself in the dump-pile, jamming a shovel into +the pay-dirt and swinging it into a sluice-box five feet higher than my +head. Keeping at this hour after hour was no fun, and if ever a man +desisted for a moment the hard eyes of Hoofman were upon him, and the +gloomy Ribwood had snatched up a shovel and was throwing in the muck +furiously. + +"Come on, boys," he would shout; "make the dirt fly. 'Taint every part +of the world you fellers can make your ten bucks a day." + +And it can be said that never labourer proved himself more worthy of his +hire than the pick-and-shovel man of those early days. Few could stand +it long without resting. They were lean as wolves those men of the dump +and drift, and their faces were gouged and grooved with relentless toil. + +Well, for three days I made the dirt fly; but towards quitting time, I +must say, its flight was a very uncertain one. Again I suffered all the +tortures of becoming toil-broken, the old aches and pains of the tunnel +and the gravel-pit. Towards evening every shovelful of dirt seemed to +weigh as much as if it was solid gold; indeed, the stuff seemed to get +richer and richer as the day advanced, and during the last half-hour I +judged it must be nearly all nuggets. The constant hoisting into the +overhead sluice-box somehow worked muscles that had never gone into +action before, and I ached elaborately. + +In the morning the pains were fiercest. How I groaned until the muscles +became limber. I found myself using very rough language, groaning, +gritting my teeth viciously. But I stayed with the work and held up my +end, while the laymen watched us sedulously, and seemed to grudge us +even a moment to wipe the sweat out of our blinded eyes. + +I was glad, indeed, when, on the evening of the third day, Ribwood came +to me and said: + +"I guess you'd better work up at the shaft to-morrow. We want a man to +wheel muck." + +They had a shaft sunk on the hillside. They were down some forty feet +and were drifting in, wheeling the pay-dirt down a series of planks +placed on trestles to the dump. I gripped the handles of a wheelbarrow +loaded to overspilling, and steered it down that long, unsteady gangway +full of uneven joins and sudden angles. Time and again I ran off the +track, but after the first day I became quite an expert at the business. +My spirits rose. I was on the way of becoming a miner. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +Turning the windlass over the shaft was a little, tough mud-rat, who +excited in me the liveliest sense of aversion. Pat Doogan was his name, +but I will call him the "Worm." + +The Worm was the foulest-mouthed specimen I have yet met. He had the +lowest forehead I have ever seen in a white man, and such a sharp, +ferrety little face. His reddish hair had the prison clip, and his +little reddish eyes were alive with craft and cruelty. I noticed he +always regarded me with a peculiarly evil grin, that wrinkled up his +cheeks and revealed his hideously blackened teeth. From the first he +gave me a creepy feeling, a disgust as if I were near some slimy +reptile. + +Yet the Worm tried to make up to me. He would tell me stories blended of +the horrible and the grotesque. One in particular I remember. + +"Youse wanta know how I lost me last job. I'll tell youse. You see, it +was like dis. Dere was two Blackmoor guys dat got into de country dis +Spring; came by St. Michaels; Hindoos dey was. One of dem 'Sicks' (an' +dey looked sick, dey was so loose an' weary in der style) got a job from +old man Gustafson down de shaft muckin' up and fillin' de buckets. + +"Well, dere was dat Blackmoor down in de deep hole one day when I comes +along, an' strikes old Gus for a job. So, seein' as de man on de +windlass wanted to quit, he passed it up to me, an' I took right hold +an' started in. + +"Say, I was feelin' powerful mean. I'd just finished up a two weeks' +drunk, an' you tink de booze wasn't workin' in me some. I was seein' all +kinds of funny t'ings. Why, as I was a-turnin' away at dat ol' windlass +dere was red spiders crawlin' up me legs. But I was wise. I wouldn't +look at dem, give dem de go-by. Den a yeller rat got gay wid me an' did +some stunts on me windlass. But still I wouldn't let on. Den dere was +some green snakes dat wriggled over de platform like shiny streaks on de +water. Sure, I didn't like dat one bit, but I says, 'Dere ain't no +snakes in de darned country, Pat, and you knows it. It's just a touch of +de horrors, dat's all. Just pass 'em up, boy; don't take no notice of +dem.' + +"Well, dis went on till I begins to get all shaky an' jumpy, an' I was +mighty glad when de time came to quit, an' de boys down below gives me +de holler to pull dem up. + +"So I started hoistin' wid dose snakes an' spiders an' rats jus' +cavortin' round me like mad, when all to once who should I hoist outa de +bowels of de earth but de very devil himself. + +"His face was black. I could see de whites of his eyes, an' he had a big +dirty towel tied round his head. Well, say, it was de limit. At de sight +of dat ferocious monster comin' after old Pat I gives one yell, drops +de crank-handle of de windlass, an' makes a flyin' leap down de dump. I +hears an awful shriek, an' de bucket an' de devil goes down smash to de +bottom of de shaft, t'irty-five feet. But I kep' on runnin'. I was so +scared. + +"Well, how was I to know dey had a Blackmoor down dere? He was a stiff +when dey got him up, but how was I to know? So I lost me job." + +On another occasion he told me: + +"Say, kid, youse didn't know as I was liable to fits, did youse? Dat's +so; eppylepsy de doctor tells me. Dat's what I am scared of. You see, +it's like dis: if one of dem fits should hit me when I'm hoistin' de +boys outer de shaft, den it would be a pity. I would sure lose me job +like de oder time." + +He was the most degraded type of man I had yet met on my travels, a +typical degenerate, dirty, drunken, diseased. He had three suits of +underclothing, which he never washed. He would wear through all three in +succession, and when the last got too dirty for words he would throw it +under his trunk and sorrowfully go back to the first, keeping up this +rotation, till all were worn out. + +One day Hoofman told me he wanted me to go down the shaft and work in +the drift. Accordingly, next morning I and a huge Slav, by name Dooley +Rileyvich, were lowered down into the darkness. + +The Slav initiated me. Every foot of dirt had to be thawed out by means +of wood fires. We built a fire at the far end of the drift every night, +covering the face we were working. First we would lay kindling, then +dry spruce lying lengthways, then a bank of green wood standing on end +to keep in the heat and shed the dirt that sloughed down from the roof. +In the morning our fire would be burned out, and enough pay-dirt thawed +to keep us picking all day. + +Down there I found it the hardest work of all. We had to be careful that +the smoke had cleared from the drift before we ventured in, for +frequently miners were asphyxiated. Indeed, the bad air never went +entirely away. It made my eyes sore, my head ache. Yet, curiously +enough, so long as you were below it did not affect you so much. It was +when you stepped out of the bucket and struck the pure outer air that +you reeled and became dizzy. It was blinding, too. Often at supper have +my eyes been so blurred and sore I had to grope around uncertainly for +the sugar bowl and the tin of cream. + +In the drift it was always cool. The dirt kept sloughing down on us, and +we had really gone in too far for our own safety, but the laymen cared +little for that. At the end of the drift the roof was so low we were +bent almost double, picking at the face in all kinds of cramped +positions, and dragging after us the heavy bucket. To the big Slav it +was all in the day's work, but to me it was hard, hard. + +The shaft was almost forty feet deep. For the first ten feet a ladder +ran down it, then stopped suddenly as if the excavators had decided to +abandon it. I often looked at this useless bit of ladder and wondered +why it had been left unfinished. + +Every morning the Worm hoisted us down into the darkness, and at night +drew us up. Once he said to me: + +"Say, wouldn't it be de tough luck if I was to take a fit when I was +hoistin' youse up? Such a nice bit of a boy, too, an' I guess I'd lose +my job over de head of it." + +I said: "Cut that out, or you'll have me so scared I won't go down." + +He grinned unpleasantly and said nothing more. Yet somehow he was +getting on my nerves terribly. + +It was one evening we had banked our fires and were ready to be hoisted +up. Dooley Rileyvich went first, and I watched him blot out the bit of +blue for a while. Then, slowly, down came the bucket for me. + +I got in. I was feeling uneasy all of a sudden, and devoutly wished I +were anywhere else but in that hideous hole. I felt myself leave the +ground and rise steadily. The walls of the shaft glided past me. Up, up +I went. The bit of blue sky grew bigger, bigger. There was a star +shining there. I watched it. I heard the creak, creak of the windlass +crank. Somehow it seemed to have a sinister sound. It seemed to say: +"Have a care, have a care, have a care." I was now ten feet from the +top. The bucket was rocking a little, so I put out my hand and grasped +the lowest rung of the ladder to steady myself. + +Then, at that instant, it seemed the weight of the bucket pressing up +against my feet was suddenly removed, and my arm was nigh jerked out of +its socket. There I was hanging desperately on the lowest rung of the +ladder, while, with a crash that made my heart sick, the bucket dashed +to the bottom. At last, I realised, the Worm had had his fit. + +Quickly I gripped with both hands. With a great effort I raised myself +rung by rung on the ladder. I was panic-stricken, faint with fear; but +some instinct had made me hold on desperately. Dizzily I hung all +a-shudder, half-sobbing. A minute seemed like a year. + +Ah! there was the face of Dooley looking down on me. He saw me clinging +there. He was anxiously shouting to me to come up. Mastering an +overpowering nausea I raised myself. At last I felt his strong arm +around me, and here I swear it on a stack of Bibles that brutish Slav +seemed to me like one of God's own angels. + +I was on firm ground once more. The Worm was lying stiff and rigid. +Without a word the stalwart Slav took him on his brawny shoulder. The +creek was downhill but fifty yards. Ere we reached it the Worm had +begun to show signs of reviving consciousness. When we got to the edge +of the icy water he was beginning to groan and open his eyes in a dazed +way. + +"Leave me alone," he says to Rileyvich; "you Slavonian swine, lemme go." + +Not so the Slav. Holding the wriggling, writhing little man in his +powerful arms he plunged him heels over head in the muddy current of the +creek. + +"I guess I cure dose fits anyway," he said grimly. + +Struggling, spluttering, blaspheming, the little man freed himself at +last and staggered ashore. He cursed Rileyvich most comprehensively. He +had not yet seen me, and I heard him wailing: + +"Sure de boy's a stiff. Just me luck; I've lost me job." + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +"You'd better quit," said the Prodigal. + +It was the evening of my mishap, and he had arrived unexpectedly from +town. + +"Yes, I mean to," I answered. "I wouldn't go down there again for a +farm. I feel as weak as a sick baby. I couldn't stay another day." + +"Well, that goes," said he. "It just fits in with my plans. I'm getting +Jim to come in, too. I've realised on that stuff I bought, made over +three thousand clear profit, and with it I've made a dicker for a +property on the bench above Bonanza, Gold Hill they call it. I've a +notion it's all right. Anyway, we'll tunnel in and see. You and Jim will +have a quarter share each for your work, while I'll have an extra +quarter for the capital I've put in. Is it a go?" + +I said it was. + +"Thought it would be. I've had the papers made out; you can sign right +now." + +So I signed, and next day found us all three surveying our claim. We put +up a tent, but the first thing to do was to build a cabin. Right away we +began to level off the ground. The work was pleasant, and conducted in +such friendship that the time passed most happily. Indeed, my only worry +was about Berna. She had never ceased to be at the forefront of my mind. +I schooled myself into the belief that she was all right, but, thank +God, every moment was bringing her nearer to me. + +One morning, when we were out in the woods cutting timber for the cabin, +I said to Jim: + +"Did you ever hear anything more about that man Mosely?" + +He stopped chopping, and lowered the axe he had poised aloft. + +"No, boy; I've had no mail at all. Wait awhile." + +He swung his axe with viciously forceful strokes. His cheery face had +become so downcast that I bitterly blamed myself for my want of tact. +However, the cloud soon passed. + +About two days after that the Prodigal said to me: + +"I saw your little guttersnipe friend to-day." + +"Indeed, where?" I asked; for I had often thought of the Worm, thought +of him with fear and loathing. + +"Well, sir, he was just getting the grandest dressing-down I ever saw a +man get. And do you know who was handing it to him--Locasto, no less." + +He lit a cigarette and inhaled the smoke. + +"I was just coming along the trail from the Forks when I suddenly heard +voices in the bush. The big man was saying: + +"'Lookee here, Pat, you know if I just liked to say half a dozen words I +could land you in the penitentiary for the rest of your days.' + +"Then the little man's wheedling voice: + +"'Well, I did me best, Jack. I know I bungled the job, but youse don't +want to cast dem t'ings up to me. Dere's more dan me orter be in de +pen. Dere's no good in de pot callin' de kettle black, is dere?' + +"Then Black Jack flew off the handle. You know he's got a system of +manhandling that's near the record in these parts. Well, he just landed +on the little man. He got him down and started to lambast the Judas out +of him. He gave him the 'leather,' and then some. I guess he'd have done +him to a finish hadn't I been Johnnie on the spot. At sight of me he +gives a curse, jumps on his horse and goes off at a canter. Well, I +propped the little man against a tree, and then some fellows came along, +and we got him some brandy. But he was badly done up. He kept saying: +'Oh, de devil, de big devil, sure I'll give him his before I get +t'rough.' Funny, wasn't it?" + +"Yes, it's strange;" and for some time I pondered over the remarkable +strangeness of it. + +"That reminds me," said Jim; "has any one seen the Jam-wagon?" + +"Oh yes," answered the Prodigal; "poor beggar! he's down and out. After +the fight he went to pieces, every one treating him, and so on. You +remember Bullhammer?" + +"Yes." + +"Well, the last I saw of the Jam-wagon--he was cleaning cuspidors in +Bullhammer's saloon." + + * * * * * + +We had hauled the logs for the cabin, and the foundation was laid. Now +we were building up the walls, placing between every log a thick +wadding of moss. Every day saw our future home nearer completion. + +One evening I spied the saturnine Ribwood climbing the hill to our tent. +He hailed me: + +"Say, you're just the man I want." + +"What for?" I asked; "not to go down that shaft again?" + +"No. Say! we want a night watchman up at the claim to go on four hours a +night at a dollar an hour. You see, there's been a lot of sluice-box +robberies lately, and we're scared for our clean-up. We're running two +ten-hour shifts now and cleaning up every three days; but there's four +hours every night the place is deserted, and Hoofman proposed we should +get you to keep watch." + +"Yes," I said; "I'll run up every evening if the others don't object." + +They did not; so the next night, and for about a dozen after that, I +spent the darkest hours watching on the claim where previously I had +worked. + +There was never any real darkness down there in that narrow valley, but +there was dusk of a kind that made everything grey and uncertain. It was +a vague, nebulous atmosphere in which objects merged into each other +confusedly. Bushes came down to within a few feet of where we were +working, dense-growing alder and birch that would have concealed a whole +regiment of sluice-robbers. + +It was the dimmest and most uncertain hour of the four, and I was +sitting at my post of guard. As the night was chilly I had brought +along an old grey blanket, similar in colour to the mound of the +pay-dirt. There had been quite a cavity dug in the dump during the day, +and into this I crawled and wrapped myself in my blanket. From my +position I could see the string of boxes containing the riffles. Over me +brooded the vast silence of the night. By my side lay a loaded shot-gun. + +"If the swine comes," said Ribwood, "let him have a clean-up of lead +instead of gold." + +Lying there, I got to thinking of the robberies. They were remarkable. +All had been done by an expert. In some cases the riffles had been +extracted and the gold scooped out; in others a quantity of mercury had +been poured in at the upper end of the boxes, and, as it passed down, +the "quick" had gathered up the dust. Each time the robbers had cleaned +up from two to three thousand dollars, and all within the past month. +There was some mysterious master-crook in our midst, one who operated +swiftly and surely, and left absolutely no clue of his identity. + +It was strange, I thought. What nerve, what cunning, what skill must +this midnight thief be possessed of! What desperate chances was he +taking! For, in the miners' eyes, cache-stealing and sluice-box robbing +were in the same category, and the punishment was--well, a rope and the +nearest tree of size. Among those strong, grim men justice would be +stern and swift. + +I was very quiet for a while, watching dreamily the dark shadows of the +dusk. + +Hist! What was that? Surely the bushes were moving over there by the +hillside. I strained my eyes. I was right: they were. + +I was all nerves and excitement now, my heart beating wildly, my eyes +boring through the gloom. Very softly I put out my hand and grasped the +shot-gun. + +I watched and waited. A man was parting the bushes. Stealthily, very +stealthily, he peered around. He hesitated, paused, peered again, +crouched on all-fours, crept forward a little. Everything was quiet as a +grave. Down in the cabins the tired men slept peacefully; stillness and +solitude. + +Cautiously the man, crawling like a snake, worked his way to the +sluice-boxes. None but a keen watcher could have seen him. Again and +again he paused, peered around, listened intently. Very carefully, with +my eyes fixed on him, I lifted the gun. + +Now he had gained the shadow of the nearest sluice-box. He clung to the +trestle-work, clung so closely you could scarce tell him apart from it. +He was like a rat, dark, furtive, sinister. Slowly I lifted the gun to +my shoulder. I had him covered. + +I waited. Somehow I was loath to shoot. My nerves were a-quiver. Proof, +more proof, I said. I saw him working busily, lying flat alongside the +boxes. How crafty, how skilful he was! He was disconnecting the boxes. +He would let the water run to the ground; then, there in the exposed +riffles, would be his harvest. Would I shoot ... now ... now.... + +Then, in the midnight hush, my gun blazed forth. With one scream the man +tumbled down, carrying along with him the disconnected box. The water +rushed over the ground in a deluge. I must capture him. There he lay in +that pouring stream.... Now I had him. + +In that torrent of icy water I grappled with my man. Over and over we +rolled. He tried to gouge me. He was small, but oh, how strong! He held +down his face. Fiercely I wrenched it up to the light. Heavens! it was +the Worm. + +I gave a cry of surprise, and my clutch on him must have weakened, for +at that moment he gave a violent wrench, a cat-like twist, and tore +himself free. Men were coming, were shouting, were running in from all +directions. + +"Catch him!" I cried. "Yonder he goes." + +But the little man was shooting forward like a deer. He was in the +bushes now, bursting through everything, dodging and twisting up the +hill. Right and left ran his pursuers, mistaking each other for the +robber in the semi-gloom, yelling frantically, mad with the excitement +of a man-hunt. And in the midst of it all I lay in a pool of mud and +water, with a sprained wrist and a bite on my leg. + +"Why didn't you hold him?" shouted Ribwood. + +"I couldn't," I answered. "I saved your clean-up, and he got some of the +lead. Besides, I know who he is." + +"You don't! Who is he?" + +"Pat Doogan." + +"You don't say. Well, I'm darned. You're sure?" + +"Dead sure." + +"Swear it in Court?" + +"I will." + +"Well, that's all right. We'll get him. I'll go into town first thing in +the morning and get out a warrant for him." + +He went, but the next evening back he returned, looking very surly and +disgruntled. + +"Well, what about the warrant?" said Hoofman. + +"Didn't get it." + +"Didn't get----" + +"No, didn't get it," snapped Ribwood. "Look here, Hoofman, I met +Locasto. Black Jack says Pat was cached away, dead to all the world, in +the backroom of the Omega Saloon all night. There's two loafers and the +barkeeper to back him up. What can we do in the face of that? Say, young +feller, I guess you mistook your man." + +"I guess I did not," I protested stoutly. + +They both looked at me for a moment and shrugged their shoulders. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + +Time went on and the cabin was quietly nearing completion. The roof of +poles was in place. It only remained to cover it with moss and +thawed-out earth to make it our future home. I think these were the +happiest days I spent in the North. We were such a united trio. Each was +eager to do more than the other, and we vied in little acts of mutual +consideration. + +Once again I congratulated myself on my partners. Jim, though sometimes +bellicosely evangelical, was the soul of kindly goodness, cheerfulness +and patience. It was refreshing to know among so many sin-calloused men +one who always rang true, true as the gold in the pan. As for the +Prodigal, he was a Prince. I often thought that God at the birth of him +must have reached out to the sunshine and crammed a mighty handful of it +into the boy. Surely it is better than all the riches in the world to +have a temperament of eternal cheer. + +As for me, I have ever been at the mercy of my moods, easily elated, +quickly cast down. I have always been abnormally sensitive, affected by +sunshine and by shadows, vacillating, intense in my feelings. I was +truly happy in those days, finding time in the long evenings to think of +the scenes of stress and sorrow I had witnessed, reconstructing the +past, and having importune me again and again the many characters in my +life drama. + +Always and always I saw the Girl, elusively sweet, almost unreal, a +thing to enshrine in that ideal alcove of our hearts we keep for our +saints. (And God help us always to keep shining there a great light.) + +Many others importuned me: Pinklove, Globstock, Pondersby, Marks, old +Wilovich, all dead; Bullhammer, the Jam-wagon, Mosher, the Winklesteins, +plunged in the vortex of the gold-born city; and lastly, looming over +all, dark and ominous, the handsome, bold, sinister face of Locasto. +Well, maybe I would never see any of them again. + +Yet more and more my dream hours were jealously consecrated to Berna. +How ineffably sweet were they! How full of delicious imaginings! How +pregnant of high hope! O, I was born to love, I think, and I never loved +but one. This story of my life is the story of Berna. It is a thing of +words and words and words, yet every word is Berna, Berna. Feel the +heartache behind it all. Read between the lines, Berna, Berna. + +Often in the evenings we went to the Forks, which was a lively place +indeed. Here was all the recklessness and revel of Dawson on a smaller +scale, and infinitely more gross. Here were the dance-hall girls, not +the dazzling creatures in diamonds and Paris gowns, the belles of the +Monte Carlo and the Tivoli, but drabs self-convicted by their coarse, +puffy faces. Here the men, fresh from their day's work, the mud of the +claim hardly dry on their boot-tops, were buying wine with nuggets they +had filched from sluice-box, dump and drift. + +There was wholesale robbery going on in the gold-camp. On many claims +where the owners were known to be unsuspicious, men would work for small +wages because of the gold they were able to filch. On the other hand, +many of the operators were paying their men in trade-dust valued at +sixteen dollars an ounce, yet so adulterated with black sand as to be +really worth about fourteen. All these things contributed to the low +morale of the camp. Easy come, easy go with money, a wild intoxication +of success in the air; gold gouged in glittering heaps from the ground +during the day, and at night squandered in a carnival of lust and sin. + +The Prodigal was always "snooping" around and gleaning information from +most mysterious sources. One evening he came to us. + +"Boys, get ready, quick. There's a rumour of a stampede for a new creek, +Ophir Creek they call it, away on the other side of the divide +somewhere. A prospector went down ten feet and got fifty-cent dirt. +We've got to get in on this. There's a mob coming from Dawson, but we'll +get there before the rush." + +Quickly we got together blankets and a little grub, and, keeping out of +sight, we crawled up the hill under cover of the brush. Soon we came to +a place from which we could command a full view of the valley. Here we +lay down, awaiting developments. + +It was at the hour of dusk. Scarfs of smoke wavered over the cabins down +in the valley. On the far slope of Eldorado I saw a hawk soar upwards. +Surely a man was moving amid the brush, two men, a dozen men, moving in +single file very stealthily. I pointed them out. + +"It's the stampede," whispered Jim. "We've got to get on to the trail of +that crowd. Travel like blazes. We can cut them off at the head of the +valley." + +So we struck into the stampede gait, a wild, jolting, desperate pace, +that made the wind pant in our lungs like bellows, and jarred our bones +in their sockets. Through brush and scrub timber we burst. Thorny vines +tore at us detainingly, swampy niggerheads impeded us; but the +excitement of the stampede was in our blood, and we plunged down +gulches, floundered over marshes, climbed steep ridges and crashed +through dense masses of underwood. + +"Throw away your blankets, boys," said the Prodigal. "Just keep a little +grub. Eldorado was staked on a stampede. Maybe we're in on another +Eldorado. We must connect with that bunch if we break our necks." + +It was hours after when we overtook them, about a dozen men, all in the +maddest hurry, and casting behind them glances of furtive apprehension. +When they saw us they were hugely surprised. Ribwood was one of the +party. + +"Hello," he says roughly; "any more coming after you boys?" + +"Don't see them," said the Prodigal breathlessly. "We spied you and +cottoned on to what was up, so we made a fierce hike to get in on it. +Gee, I'm all tuckered out." + +"All right, get in line. I guess there's lots for us all. You're in on a +good thing, all right. Come along." + +So off we started again. The leader was going like one possessed. We +blundered on behind. We were on the other side of the divide looking +into another vast valley. What a magnificent country it was! What a +great manoeuvring-ground it would make for an army! What splendid +open spaces, and round smooth hills, and dimly blue valleys, and silvery +winding creeks! It was veritably a park of the Gods, and enclosing it +was the monstrous, corrugated palisade of the Rockies. + +But there was small time to look around. On we went in the same mad, +heart-breaking hurry, mile after mile, hour after hour. + +"This is going to be a banner creek, boys," the whisper ran down the +line. "We're in luck. We'll all be Klondike Kings yet." + +Cheering, wasn't it? So on we went, hotter than ever, content to follow +the man of iron who was guiding us to the virgin treasure. + +We had been pounding along all night, up hill and down dale. The sun +rose, the dawn blossomed, the dew dried on the blueberry; it was +morning. Still we kept up our fierce gait. Would our leader never come +to his destination? By what roundabout route was he guiding us? The sun +climbed up in the blue sky, the heat quivered; it was noon. We panted as +we pelted on, parched and weary, faint and footsore. The excitement of +the stampede had sustained us, and we scarcely had noted the flight of +time. We had been walking for fourteen hours, yet not a man faltered. I +was ready to drop with fatigue; my feet were a mass of blisters, and +every step was intolerable pain to me. But still our leader kept on. + +"I guess we'll fool those trying to follow us," snapped Ribwood grimly. + +Suddenly the Prodigal said to me: "Say, you boys will have to go on +without me. I'm all in. Go ahead, I'll follow after I'm rested up." + +He dropped in a limp heap on the ground and instantly fell asleep. +Several of the others had dropped out too. They fell asleep where they +gave up, utterly exhausted. We had now been going sixteen hours, and +still our leader kept on. + +"You're pretty tough for a youngster," growled one of them to me. "Keep +it up, we're almost there." + +So I hobbled along painfully, though the desire to throw myself down was +becoming imperative. Just ahead was Jim, sturdily holding his own. The +others were reduced to a bare half-dozen. + +It was about four in the afternoon when we reached the creek. Up it our +leader plunged, till he came to a place where a rude shaft had been dug. +We gathered around him. He was a typical prospector, a child of hope, +lean, swarthy, clear-eyed. + +"Here it is, boys," he said. "Here's my discovery stake. Now you fellows +go up or down, anywhere you've a notion to, and put in your stakes. You +all know what a lottery it is. Maybe you'll stake a million-dollar +claim, maybe a blank. Mining's all a gamble. But go ahead, boys. I wish +you luck." + +So we strung out, and, coming in rotation, Jim and I staked seven and +eight below discovery. + +"Seven's a lucky number for me," said Jim; "I've a notion this claim's a +good one." + +"I don't care," I said, "for all the gold in the world. What I want is +sleep, sleep, rest and sleep." + +So I threw myself down on a bit of moss, and, covering my head with my +coat to ward off the mosquitoes, in a few minutes I was dead to the +world. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + + +I was awakened by the Prodigal. + +"Rouse up," he was saying; "you've slept right round the clock. We've +got to get back to town and record those claims. Jim's gone three hours +ago." + +It was five o'clock of a crystal Yukon morning, with the world clear-cut +and fresh as at the dawn of Things. I was sleep-stupid, sore, stiff in +every joint. Racking pains made me groan at every movement, and the +chill night air had brought on twinges of rheumatism. I looked at my +location stake, beside which I had fallen. + +"I can't do it," I said; "my feet are out of business." + +"You must," he insisted. "Come, buck up, old man. Bathe your feet in the +creek, and then you'll feel as fit as a fighting-cock. We've got to get +into town hot-foot. They've got a bunch of crooks at the gold office, +and we're liable to lose our claims if we are late." + +"Have you staked, too?" + +"You bet. I've got thirteen below. Hurry up. There's a wild bunch coming +from town." + +I groaned grievously, yet felt mighty refreshed by a dip in the creek. +Then we started off once more. Every few moments we would meet parties +coming post-haste from town. They looked worn and jaded, but spread +eagerly up and down. There must have been several hundred of them, all +sustained by the mad excitement of the stampede. + +We did not take the circuitous route of the day before, but one that +shortened the distance by some ten miles. We travelled a wild country, +crossing unknown creeks that have since proved gold-bearing, and +climbing again the high ridge of the divide. Then once more we dropped +down into the Bonanza basin, and by nightfall we had reached our own +cabin. + +We lay down for a few hours. It seemed my weary head had just touched +the pillow when once more the inexorable Prodigal awakened me. + +"Come on, kid, we've got to get to Dawson when the recording office +opens." So once more we pelted down Bonanza. Fast as we had come, we +found many of those who had followed us were ahead. The North is the +land of the musher. In that pure, buoyant air a man can walk away from +himself. Any one of us thought nothing of a fifty-mile tramp, and one of +eighty was scarcely considered notable. + +It was about nine in the morning when we got to the gold office. Already +a crowd of stampeders were waiting. Foremost in the crowd I saw Jim. The +Prodigal looked thoughtful. + +"Look here," he said, "I guess it's all right to push in with that +bunch, but there's a slicker way of doing it for those that are 'next.' +Of course, it's not according to Hoyle. There's a little side-door where +you can get in ahead of the gang. See that fellow, Ten-Dollar Jim they +call him; well, they say he can work the oracle for us." + +"No," I said, "you can pay him ten dollars if you like. I'll take my +chance in the regulation way." + +So the Prodigal slipped away from me, and presently I saw him admitted +at the side entrance. Surely, thought I, there must be some mistake. The +public would not "stand for" such things. + +There was quite a number ahead of me, and I knew I was in for a long +wait. I will never forget it. For three days, with the exception of two +brief sleep-spells, I had been in a fierce helter-skelter of excitement, +and I had eaten no very satisfying food. As I stood in that sullen crowd +I swayed with weariness, and my legs were doubling under me. Invisible +hands were dragging me down, throwing dust in my eyes, hypnotising me +with soporific gestures. I staggered forward and straightened up +suddenly. On the outskirts of the crowd I saw the Prodigal trying to +locate me. When he saw me he waved a paper. + +"Come on, you goat," he shouted; "have a little sense. I'm all fixed +up." + +I shook my head. An odd sense of fair play in me made me want to win the +game squarely. I would wait my turn. Noon came. I saw Jim coming out, +tired but triumphant. + +"All right," he megaphoned to me; "I'm through. Now I'll go and sleep my +head off." + +How I envied him. I felt I, too, had a "big bunch" of sleep coming to +me. I was moving forward slowly. Bit by bit I was wedging nearer the +door. I watched man after man push past the coveted threshold. They +were all miners, brawny, stubble-chinned fellows with grim, determined +faces. I was certainly the youngest there. + +"What have you got?" asked a thick-set man on my right. + +"Eight below," I answered. + +"Gee! you're lucky." + +"What'll you take for it?" asked a tall, keen-looking fellow on my left. + +"Five thousand." + +"Give you two." + +"No." + +"Well, come round and see me to-morrow at the Dominion, and we'll talk +it over. My name's Gunson. Bring your papers." + +"All right." + +Something like dizziness seized me. Five thousand! The crowd seemed to +be composed of angels and the sunshine to have a new and brilliant +quality of light and warmth. Five thousand! Would I take it? If the +claim was worth a cent it ought to be worth fifty thousand. I soared on +rosy wings of optimism. I revelled in dreams. My claim! Mine! Eight +below! Other men had bounded into affluence. Why not I? + +No longer did I notice the flight of time. I was ready to wait till +doomsday. A new lease of strength came to me. I was near the wicket now. +Only two were ahead of me. A clerk was recording their claims. One had +thirty-four above, the other fifty-two below. The clerk looked +flustered, fatigued. His dull eyes were pursy with midnight debauches; +his flesh sagged. In contrast with the clean, hard, hawk-eyed miners, he +looked blotched and unwholesome. + +Crossly he snatched from the other two their miner's certificates, made +the entries in his book, and gave them their receipts. It was my turn +now. I dashed forward eagerly. Then I stopped, for the man with the +bleary eyes had shut the wicket in my face. + +"Three o'clock," he snapped. + +"Couldn't you take mine?" I faltered; "I've been waiting now these +seven hours." + +"Closing time," he ripped out still more tartly; "come again to-morrow." + +There was a growling thunder from the crowd behind, and the weary, +disappointed stampeders slouched away. + +Body and soul of me craved for sleep. Beyond an overwhelming desire for +rest, I was conscious of nothing else. My eyelids were weighted with +lead. I lagged along dejectedly. At the hotel I saw the Prodigal. + +"Get fixed up?" + +"No, too late." + +"You'd better take advantage of the general corruption and the services +of Ten-Dollar Jim." + +I was disheartened, disgusted, desperate. + +"I will," I said. Then, throwing myself on the bed, I launched on a +dreamless sea of sleep. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + +Next morning bright and early found me at the side-door, and the tall man +admitted me. I slipped a ten-dollar gold piece into his palm, and +presently found myself waiting at the yet unopened wicket. Outside I +could see the big crowd gathering for their weary wait. I felt a +sneaking sense of meanness, but I did not have long to enjoy my +despicable sensations. + +The recording clerk came to the wicket. He was very red-faced and +watery-eyed. Involuntarily I turned my head away at the reek of his +breath. + +"I want to record eight below on Ophir," I said. + +He looked at me curiously. He hesitated. + +"What name?" he asked. + +I gave it. He turned up his book. + +"Eight below, you say. Why, that's already recorded." + +"Can't be," I retorted. "I just got down from there yesterday after +planting my stakes." + +"Can't help it. It's recorded by some one else, recorded early +yesterday." + +"Look here," I exclaimed; "what kind of a game are you putting up on me? +I tell you I was the first on the ground. I alone staked the claim." + +"That's strange," he said. "There must be some mistake. Anyway, you'll +have to move on and let the others get up to the wicket. You're +blocking the way. All I can do is to look into the matter for you, and +I've got no time now. Come back to-morrow. Next, please." + +The next man pushed me aside, and there I stood, gaping and gasping. A +man in the waiting line looked at me pityingly. + +"It's no use, young fellow; you'd better make up your mind to lose that +claim. They'll flim-flam you out of it somehow. They've sent some one +out now to stake over you. If you kick, they'll say you didn't stake +proper." + +"But I have witnesses." + +"It don't matter if you call the Angel Gabriel to witness, they're going +to grab your claim. Them government officials is the crookedest bunch +that ever made fuel for hell-fire. You won't get a square deal; they're +going to get the fat anyhow. They've got the best claims spotted, an' +men posted to jump them at the first chance. Oh, they're feathering +their nests all right. They're like a lot of greedy pike just waiting to +gobble down all they can. A man can't buy wine at twenty dollars per, +and make dance-hall Flossies presents of diamond tararas on a government +salary. That's what a lot of them are doing. Wine and women, and their +wives an' daughters outside thinkin' they're little tin gods. Somehow +they've got to foot the bill. Oh, it's a great country." + +I was stunned with disappointment. + +"What you want," he continued, "is to get a pull with some of the +officials. Why, there's friends of mine don't need to go out of town to +stake a claim. Only the other day a certain party known to me, went +to--well, I mustn't mention names, anyway, he's high up in the +government, and a friend of Quebec Suzanne's,--and says to him,'I want +you to get number so and so on Hunker recorded for me. Of course I +haven't been able to get out there, but--' + +"The government bug puts his hands to his ears. 'Don't give me any +unnecessary information,' he says; 'you want so and so recorded, Sam. +Well, that's all right. I'll fix it.' + +"That was all there was to it, and when next day a man comes in +post-haste claiming to have staked it, it was there recorded in Sam's +name. Get a stand-in, young fellow." + +"But surely," I said, "somehow, somewhere there must be justice. Surely +if these facts were represented at Ottawa and proof forthcoming----" + +"Ottawa!" He gave a sniffing laugh. "Ottawa! Why, it's some of the big +guns at Ottawa that's gettin' the cream of it all. The little fellows +are just lapping up the drips. Look at them big concessions they're +selling for a song, good placer ground that would mean pie to the poor +miner, closed tight and everlastingly tied up. How is it done? Why, +there's some politician at the bottom of the whole business. Look at the +liquor permits--crude alcohol sent into the country by the thousand +gallons, diluted to six times its bulk, and sold to the poor prospector +for whisky at a dollar a drink. An' you can't pour your own drinks at +that." + +"Well," I said, "I'm not going to be cheated out of my claim. If I've +got to move Heaven and earth----" + +"You'll do nothing of the kind. If you get sassy there's the police to +put the lid on you. You can talk till you're purple round the gills. It +won't cut no figure. They've got us all cinched. We've just got to take +our medicine. It's no use goin' round bellyaching. You'd better go away +and sit down." + +And I did. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + +I had to see Berna at once. Already I had paid a visit to the Paragon +Restaurant, that new and glittering place of resort run by the +Winklesteins, but she was not on duty. I saw Madam, resplendent in her +false jewellery, with her beetle-black hair elaborately coiffured, and +her large, bold face handsomely enamelled. She looked the picture of +fleshy prosperity, a big handsome Jewess, hawk-eyed and rapacious. In +the background hovered Winklestein, his little, squeezed-up, tallowy +face beaded with perspiration. But he was dressed quite superbly, and +his moustache was more wondrously waxed than ever. + +I mingled with the crowd of miners, and in my rough garb, swarthy and +bearded as I was, the Jewish couple did not know me. As I paid her, +Madam gave me a sharp glance. But there was no recognisant gleam in her +eyes. + +In the evening I returned. I took a seat in one of the curtained boxes. +At the long lunch-counter rough-necked fellows perched on tripod stools +were guzzling food. The place was brilliantly lit up, many-mirrored and +flashily ornate in gilt and white. The bill of fare was elaborate, the +prices exalted. In the box before me a white-haired lawyer was +entertaining a lady of easy virtue; in the box behind, a larrikin +quartette from the Pavilion Theatre were holding high revelry. There +was no mistaking the character of the place. In the heart of the city's +tenderloin it was a haunt of human riff-raff, a palace of gilt and +guilt, a first scene in the nightly comedy of "The Lobster." + +I was feeling profoundly depressed, miserable, disgusted with +everything. For the first time I began to regret ever leaving home. Out +on the creeks I was happy. Here in the town the glaring corruption of +things jarred on my nerves. + +And it was in this place Berna worked. She waited on these wantons; she +served those swine. She heard their loose talk, their careless oaths. +She saw them foully drunk, staggering off to their shameful +assignations. She knew everything. O, it was pitiful; it sickened me to +the soul. I sat down and buried my face in my hands. + +"Order, please." + +I knew that sweet voice. It thrilled me, and I looked up suddenly. There +was Berna standing before me. + +She gave a quick start, then recovered herself. A look of delight came +into her eyes, eager, vivid delight. + +"My, how you frightened me, I wasn't expecting you. Oh, I am so glad to +see you again." + +I looked at her. I was conscious of a change in her, and the +consciousness came with a sense of shearing pain. + +"Berna," I said, "what are you doing with that paint on your face?" + +"Oh, I'm sorry." She was rubbing distressfully at a dab of rouge on her +cheek. "I knew you would be cross, but I had to; they made me. They said +I looked like a spectre at the feast with my chalk face; I frightened +away the customers. It's just a little pink,--all the women do it. It +makes me look happier, and it doesn't hurt me any." + +"What I want is to see in your cheeks, dear, the glow of health, not the +flush of a cosmetic. However, never mind. How are you?" + +"Pretty well----" hesitatingly. + +"Berna," boomed the rough, contumacious voice of Madam, "attend to the +customers." + +"All right," I said; "get me anything. I just wanted to see you." + +She hurried away. I saw her go behind the curtains of one of the closed +boxes carrying a tray of dishes. I heard coarse voices chaffing her. I +saw her come out, her cheeks flushed, yet not with rouge. A miner had +tried to detain her. Somehow it all made me writhe, agitated me so that +I could hardly keep my seat. + +Presently she came hurrying round, bringing me some food. + +"When can I see you, girl?" I asked. + +"To-night. See me home. I'm off at midnight." + +"All right. I'll be waiting." + +She was kept very busy, and, though once or twice a tipsy roysterer +ventured on some rough pleasantry, I noticed with returning satisfaction +that most of the big, bearded miners treated her with chivalrous +respect. She was quite friendly with them. They called her by name, and +seemed to have a genuine affection for her. There was a protective +manliness in the manner of these men that reassured me. So I swallowed +my meal and left the place. + +"That's a good little girl," said a grizzled old fellow to me, as he +stood picking his teeth energetically outside the restaurant. "Straight +as a string, and there ain't many up here you can say that of. If any +one was to try any monkey business with that little girl, sir, there's a +dozen of the boys would make him a first-rate case for the hospital +ward. Yes, siree, that's a jim-dandy little girl. I just wish she was my +darter." + +In my heart I blessed him for his words, and pressed on him a fifty-cent +cigar. + +Again I wandered up and down the now familiar street, but the keen edge +of my impression had been blunted. I no longer took the same interest in +its sights. More populous it was, noisier, livelier than ever. In the +gambling-annex of the Paystreak Saloon was Mr. Mosher shuffling and +dealing methodically. Everywhere I saw flushed and excited miners, each +with his substantial poke of dust. It was usually as big as a +pork-sausage, yet it was only his spending-poke. Safely in the bank he +had cached half a dozen of them ten times as big. + +These were the halcyon days. Success was in the air. Men were drunk with +it; carried off their feet, delirious. Money! It had lost its value. +Every one you met was "lousy" with it; threw it away with both hands, +and fast as they emptied one pocket it filled up the others. Little +wonder a mad elation, a semi-frenzy of prodigality prevailed, for every +day the golden valley was pouring into the city a seemingly exhaustless +stream of treasure. + +I saw big Alec, one of the leading operators, coming down the street +with his men. He carried a Winchester, and he had a pack-train of +burros, each laden down with gold. At the bank flushed and eager mobs +were clamouring to have their pokes weighed. In buckets, coal-oil cans, +every kind of receptacle, lay the precious dust. Sweating clerks were +handling it as carelessly as a grocer handles sugar. Goldsmiths were +making it into wonders of barbaric jewellery. There seemed no limit to +the camp's wealth. Every one was mad, and the demi-mondaine was queen of +all. + +I saw Hewson and Mervin. They had struck it rich on a property they had +bought on Hunker. Fortune was theirs. + +"Come and have a drink," said Hewson. Already he had had many. His face +was relaxed, flushed, already showing signs of a flabby degeneration. In +this man of iron sudden success was insidiously at work, enervating his +powers. + +Mervin, too. I caught a glimpse of him, in the doorway of the Green Bay +Tree. The Maccaroni Kid had him in tow, and he was buying wine. + +I looked in vain for Locasto. He was on a big debauch, they told me. +Viola Lennoir had "got him going." + +At midnight, at the door of the Paragon, I was waiting in a fever of +impatience when Berna came out. + +"I'm living up at the cabin," she said; "you can walk with me as far as +that. That is, if you want to," she added coquettishly. + +She was very bright and did most of the talking. She showed a vast joy +at seeing me. + +"Tell me what you've been doing, dear--everything. Have you made a +stake? So many have. I have prayed you would, too. Then we'll go away +somewhere and forget all this. We'll go to Italy, where it's always +beautiful. We'll just live for each other. Won't we, honey?" + +She nestled up to me. She seemed to have lost much of her shyness. I +don't know why, but I preferred my timid, shrinking Berna. + +"It will take a whole lot to make me forget this," I said grimly. + +"Yes, I know. Isn't it frightful? Somehow I don't seem to mind so much +now. I'm getting used to it, I suppose. But at first--O, it was +terrible! I thought I never could stand it. It's wonderful how we get +accustomed to things, isn't it?" + +"Yes," I answered bitterly. + +"You know, those rough miners are good to me. I'm a queen among them, +because they know I'm--all right. I've had several offers of marriage, +too, really, really good ones from wealthy claim-owners." + +"Yes," still more bitterly. + +"Yes, young man; so you want to make a strike and take me away to +Italy. Oh, how I plan and plan for us two. I don't care, my dearest, if +you haven't got a cent in the world, I'm yours, always yours." + +"That's all right, Berna," I said. "I'm going to make good. I've just +lost a fifty-thousand dollar claim, but there's more coming up. By the +first of June next I'll come to you with a bank account of six figures. +You'll see, my little girl. I'm going to make this thing stick." + +"You foolish boy," she said; "it doesn't matter if you come to me a +beggar in rags. Come to me anyway. Come, and do not fail." + +"What about Locasto?" I asked. + +"I've scarcely seen anything of him. He leaves me alone. I think he's +interested elsewhere." + +"And are you sure you're all right, dear, down there?" + +"Quite sure. These men would risk their lives for me. The other kind +know enough to leave me alone. Besides, I know better now how to take +care of myself. You remember the frightened cry-baby I used to be--well, +I've learned to hold my own." + +She was extraordinarily affectionate, full of unexpected little ways of +endearment, and clung to me when we parted, making me promise to return +very soon. Yes, she was my girl, devoted to me, attached to me by every +tendril of her being. Every look, every word, every act of her expressed +a bright, fine, radiant love. I was satisfied, yet unsatisfied, and once +again I entreated her. + +"Berna, are you sure, quite sure, you're all right in that place among +all that folly and drunkenness and vice? Let me take you away, dear." + +"Oh, no," she said very tenderly; "I'm all right. I would tell you at +once, my boy, if I had any fear. That's just what a poor girl has to put +up with all the time; that's what I've had to put up with all my life. +Believe me, boy, I'm wonderfully blind and deaf at times. I don't think +I'm very bad, am I?" + +"You're as good as gold." + +"For your sake I'll always try to be," she answered. + +As we were kissing good-bye she asked timidly: + +"What about the rouge, dear? Shall I cease to use it?" + +"Poor little girl! Oh no, I don't suppose it matters. I've got very +old-fashioned ideas. Good-bye, darling." + +"Good-bye, beloved." + +I went away treading on sunshine, trembling with joy, thrilled with love +for her, blessing her anew. + +Yet still the rouge stuck in my crop as if it were the symbol of some +insidious decadence. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + +It was about two months later when I returned from a flying visit to +Dawson. + +"Lots of mail for you two," I cried, exultantly bursting into the cabin. + +"Mail? Hooray!" + +Jim and the Prodigal, who were lying on their bunks, leapt up eagerly. +No one longs for his letters like your Northern exile, and for two whole +months we had not heard from the outside. + +"Yes, I got over fifty letters between us three. Drew about a dozen +myself, there's half a dozen for you, Jim, and the balance for you, old +sport." + +I handed the Prodigal about two dozen letters. + +"Ha! now we'll have the whole evening just to browse on them. My, what a +stack! How was it you had a time getting them?" + +"Well, you see, when I got into town the mail had just been sorted, and +there was a string of over three hundred men waiting at the general +delivery wicket. I took my place at the tail-end of the line, and every +newcomer fell in behind me. My! but it was such weary waiting, moving up +step by step; but I'd just about got there when closing-time came. They +wouldn't give out any more mail--after my three hours' wait, too." + +"What did you do?" + +"Well, it seems every one gives way to the womenfolk. So I happened to +see a girl friend of mine, and she said she would go round first thing +in the morning and enquire if there were any letters for us. She brought +me this bunch." + +I indicated the pile of letters. + +"I'm told lots of women in town make a business of getting letters for +men, and charge a dollar a letter. It's awful how hard it is to get +mail. Half of the clerks seem scarcely able to read the addresses on the +envelopes. It's positively sad to watch the faces of the poor wretches +who get nothing, knowing, too, that the chances are there is really +something for them sorted away in a wrong box." + +"That's pretty tough." + +"Yes, you should have seen them; men just ravenous to hear from their +families; a clerk carelessly shuffling through a pile of letters. +'Beachwood, did you say? Nope, nothing for you.' 'Hold on there! what's +that in your hand? Surely I know my wife's writing.' 'Beachwood--yep, +that's right. Looked like Peachwood to me. All right. Next there.' Then +the man would go off with his letter, looking half-wrathful, +half-radiant. Well, I enjoyed my trip, but I'm glad I'm home." + +I threw myself on my bunk voluptuously, and began re-reading my letters. +There were some from Garry and some from Mother. While still +unreconciled to the life I was leading, they were greatly interested in +my wildly cheerful accounts of the country. They were disposed to be +less censorious, and I for my part was only too glad Mother was well +enough to write, even if she did scold me sometimes. So I was able to +open my mail without misgivings. + +But I was still aglow with memories of the last few hours. Once more I +had seen Berna, spent moments with her of perfect bliss, left her with +my mind full of exaltation and bewildered gratitude. She was the perfect +answer to my heart's call, a mirror that seemed to flash back the +challenge of my joy. I saw the love mists gather in her eyes, I felt her +sweet lips mould themselves to mine, I thrilled with the sheathing +ardour of her arms. Never in my fondest imaginings had I conceived that +such a wealth of affection would ever be for me. Buoyant she was, brave, +inspiring, and always with her buoyancy so wondrous tender I felt that +willingly would I die for her. + +Once again I told her of my fear, my anxiety for her safety among those +rough men in that cesspool of iniquity. Very earnestly she strove to +reassure me. + +"Oh, my dear, it is in those rough men, the uncouth, big-hearted miners, +that I place my trust. They know I'm a good girl. They wouldn't say a +coarse thing before me for the world. You've no idea the chivalrous +respect they show for me, and the rougher they are the finer their +instincts seem to be. It's the others, the so-called gentlemen, who +would like to take advantage of me if they could." + +She looked at me with bright, clear eyes, fearless in their scorn of +sham and pretence. + +"Then there are the women. It's strange, but no matter how degraded +they are they try to shield and protect me. Only last week Kimona Kate +made a fearful scene with her escort because he said something bad +before me. I'm getting tolerant. Oh, you've no idea until you know them +what good qualities some of these women have. Often their hearts are as +big as all outdoors; they would nurse you devotedly if you were sick; +they would give you their last dollar if you were in want. Many of them +have old mothers and little children they're supporting outside, and +they would rather die than that their dear ones should know the life +they are living. It's the men, the men that are to blame." + +I shook my head sadly. + +"I don't like it, Berna, I don't like it at all. I hate you to know the +like of such people, such things. I just want you to be again the dear, +sweet little girl I first knew, all maidenly modesty and shuddering +aversion of evil." + +"I'm afraid, dear, I shall never be that again," she said sorrowfully; +"but am I any the worse for knowing? Why should you men want to keep all +such knowledge to yourselves? Is our innocence simply to be another name +for ignorance?" + +She put her arms round my neck and kissed me fervently. + +"Oh, no, my dear, my dear. I have seen the vileness of things, and it +only makes me more in love with love and beauty. We'll go, you and I, to +Italy very soon, and forget, forget. Even if we have to toil like +peasants in the vineyards we'll go, far, far away." + +So I felt strengthened, stimulated, gladdened, and, as I lay on my bunk +listening to the merry crackle of the wood fire, I was in a purring +lethargy of content. Then I remembered something. + +"Oh, say, boys, I forgot to tell you. I met McCrimmon down the creek. +You remember him on the trail, the Halfbreed. He was asking after you +both; then all at once he said he wanted to see us on important +business. He has a proposal to make, he says, that would be greatly to +our advantage. He's coming along this evening.--What's the matter, Jim?" + +Jim was staring blankly at one of the letters he had received. His face +was a picture of distress, misery, despair. Without replying, he went +and knelt down by his bed. He sighed deeply. Slowly his face grew calm +again; then I saw that he was praying. We were silent in respectful +sympathy, but when, in a little, he got up and went out, I followed him. + +"Had bad news, old man?" + +"I've had a letter that's upset me. I'm in a terrible position. If ever +I wanted strength and guidance, I want it now." + +"Heard about that man?" + +"Yes, it's him, all right; it's Mosher. I suspicioned it all along. +Here's a letter from my brother. He says there's no doubt that Mosher is +Moseley." + +His eyes were stormy, his face tragic in its bitterness. + +"Oh, you don't know how I worshipped that woman, trusted her, would have +banked my life on her; and when I was away making money for her she ups +and goes away with that slimy reptile. In the old days I would have torn +him to pieces, but now----" + +He sighed distractedly. + +"What am I to do? What am I to do? The Good Book says forgive your +enemies, but how can I forgive a wrong like that? And my poor girl--he +deserted her, drove her to the streets. Ugh! if I could kill him by slow +torture, gloat over his agony--but I can't, can I?" + +"No, Jim, you can't do anything. Vengeance is the Lord's." + +"Yes, I know, I know. But it's hard, it's hard. O my girl, my girl!" + +Tears overran his cheeks. He sat down on a log, burying his face in his +hands. + +"O God, help and sustain me in this my hour of need." + +I was at a loss how to comfort him, and it was while I was waiting there +that suddenly we saw the Halfbreed coming up the trail. + +"Better come in, Jim," I said, "and hear what he's got to say." + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + + +We made McCrimmon comfortable. We kept no whisky in the cabin, but we +gave him some hot coffee, which he drank with great satisfaction. Then +he twisted a cigarette, lit it, and looked at us keenly. On his brown, +flattish face were remarkable the impassivity of the Indian and the +astuteness of the Scot. We were regarding him curiously. Jim had +regained his calm, and was quietly watchful. The Prodigal seemed to have +his ears cocked to listen. There was a feeling amongst us as if we had +reached a crisis in our fortunes. + +The Halfbreed lost no time in coming to the point. + +"I like you boys. You're square and above-board. You're workers, and you +don't drink--that's the main thing. + +"Well, to get right down to cases. I'm a bit of a mining man. I've mined +at Cassiar and Caribou, and I know something of the business. Now I've +got next to a good thing.--I don't know how good yet, but I'll swear to +you it's a tidy bit. There may be only ten thousand in it, and there may +be one hundred and ten. It's a gambling proposition, and I want +pardners, pardners that'll work like blazes and keep their faces shut. +Are you on?" + +"That's got us kodaked," said the Prodigal. "We're that sort, and if the +proposition looks good to us we're with you. Anyway, we're clams at +keeping our food-traps tight." + +"All right; listen. You know the Arctic Transportation Co. have claims +on upper Bonanza--well, a month back I was working for them. We were +down about twenty feet and were drifting in. They set me to work in the +drift. The roof kept sloughing in on me, and it was mighty dangerous. So +far we hadn't got pay-dirt, but their mining manager wanted us to drift +in a little further. If we didn't strike good pay in a few more feet we +were to quit. + +"Well, one morning I went down and cleaned away the ash of my fire. The +first stroke of my pick on the thawed face made me jump, stare, stand +stock-still, thinking hard. For there, right in the hole I had made, was +the richest pocket I ever seen." + +"You don't say! Are you sure?" + +"Why, boys, as I'm alive there was nuggets in it as thick as raisins in +a Christmas plum-duff. I could see the yellow gleam where the pick had +grazed them, and the longer I looked the more could I see." + +"Good Lord! What did you do?" + +"What did I do! I just stepped back and picked at the roof for all I was +worth. A big bunch of muck came down, covering up the face. Then, like a +crazy man, I picked wherever the dirt seemed loose all the way down the +drift. Great heaps of dirt caved in on me. I was stunned, nearly buried, +but I did the trick. There were tons of dirt between me and my find." + +We gasped with amazement. + +"The rest was easy. I went up the shaft groaning and cursing. I +pretended to faint. I told them the roof of the drift had fallen in on +me. It was rotten stuff, anyway, and they knew it. They didn't mind me +risking my life. I cursed them, said I would sue the Company, and went +off looking too sore for words. The Manager was disgusted, he went down +and took a look at things; declared he would throw up the work at that +place; the ground was no good. He made that report to the Company." + +The Halfbreed looked round triumphantly. + +"Now, here's the point. We can get a lay on that ground. One of you boys +must apply for it. They mustn't know I'm in with you, or they would +suspect right away. They're none too scrupulous themselves in their +dealings." + +He paused impressively. + +"You cinch that lay agreement. Get it signed right away. We'll go in and +work like Old Nick. We'll make a big clean-up by Spring. I'll take you +right to the gold. There's thousands and thousands lying snug in the +ground just waiting for us. It's right in our mit. Oh, it's a cinch, a +cinch!" + +The Halfbreed almost grew excited. Bending forward, he eyed us keenly. +In a breathless silence we stared at each other. + +"Well," I objected, "seems to be putting up rather a job on the +Company." + +Jim was silent, but the Prodigal cut in sharply: + +"Job nothing--it's a square proposition. We don't know for certain that +gold's there. Maybe it's only a piffling pocket, and we'll get souped +for our pains. No, it seems to me it's a fair gambling proposition. +We're taking all kinds of chances. It means awful hard work; it means +privation and, maybe, bitter disappointment. It's a gamble, I tell you, +and are we going to be such poor sports as turn it down? I for one am +strongly in favour of it. What do you say? A big sporting chance--are +you there, boys, are you there?" + +He almost shouted in his excitement. + +"Hush! Some one might hear you," warned the Halfbreed. + +"Yes, that's right. Well, it looks mighty good to me, and if you boys +are willing we'll just draw up papers and sign an agreement right away. +Is it a go?" + +We nodded, so he got ink and paper and drew up a form of partnership. + +"Now," said he, his eyes dancing, "now, to secure that lay before any +one else cuts in on us. Gee! but it's getting dark and cold outdoors +these days. Snow falling; well, I must mush to Dawson to-night." + +He hurried on some warm, yet light, clothing, all the time talking +excitedly of the chance that fortune had thrown in our way, and gleeful +as a schoolboy. + +"Now, boys," he says, "hope I'll have good luck. Jim, put in a prayer +for me. Well, see you all to-morrow. Good-bye." + + * * * * * + +It was late next night when he returned. We were sitting in the cabin, +anxious and expectant, when he threw open the door. He was tired, wet, +dirty, but irrepressibly jubilant. + +"Hurrah, boys!" he cried. "I've cinched it. I saw Mister Manager of the +big Company. He was very busy, very important, very patronising. I was +the poor miner seeking a lay. I played the part well. He began by +telling me he didn't want to give any lays at present; just wanted to +stand me off, you know; make me more keen. I spoke about some of their +ground on Hunker. He didn't seem enthusiastic. Then, at last, as if in +despair, I mentioned this bit on Bonanza. I could see he was itching to +let me have it, but he was too foxy to show it. He actually told me it +was an extra rich piece of ground, when all the time he knew his own +mining engineer had condemned it." + +The Prodigal's eyes danced delightedly. + +"Well, we sparred round a bit like two fake fighters. My! but he was +wily, that old Jew. Finally he agreed to let me have it on a +fifty-per-cent. basis. Don't faint, boys. Fifty per cent., I said. I'm +sorry. It was the best I could do, and you know I'm not slow. That means +they get half of all we take out. Oh, the old shark! the robber! I tried +to beat him down, but he stood pat; wouldn't budge. So I gave in, and we +signed the lay agreement, and now everything's in shape. Gee whiz! +didn't I give a sigh of relief when I got outside! He thinks I'm the +fall guy, and went off chuckling." + +He raised his voice triumphantly. + +"And now, boys, we've got the ground cinched, so get action on +yourselves. Here's where we make our first real stab at fortune. Here's +where we even up on the hard jabs she's handed us in the past; here's +where we score a bull's-eye, or I miss my guess. The gold's there, boys, +you can bank on that; and the harder we work the more we're going to get +of it. Now, we're going to work hard. We're going to make ordinary hard +work look like a Summer vacation. We're going to work for all we're +worth--and then some. Are you there, boys, are you there?" + +"We are," we shouted with one accord. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + + +There was no time to lose. Every hour for us meant so much more of that +precious pay-dirt that lay under the frozen surface. The Winter leapt on +us with a swoop, a harsh, unconciliating Winter, that made out-door work +an unmitigated hardship. But there was the hope of fortune nerving and +bracing us, till we lost in it all thought of self. Nothing short of +desperate sickness, death even, would drive us from our posts. It was +with this dauntless spirit we entered on the task before us. + +And, indeed, it was one that called for all in a man of energy and +self-sacrifice. There was wood to get for the thawing of the ground; +there was a cabin to be built on the claim; and, lastly, there was a +vast dump to be taken out of the ground for the spring sluicing. We +planned things so that no man would be idle for a moment, and so that +every ounce of strength expended would show its result. + +The Halfbreed took charge, and we, recognising it as his show, obeyed +him implicitly. He decided to put down two holes to bed-rock, and, after +much deliberation, selected the places. This was a matter for the +greatest judgment and experience, and we were satisfied that he had +both. + +We ran up a little cabin and banked it nearly to the low eaves with +snow. By-and-bye more fell on the roof to the depth of three feet, so +that the place seemed like a huge white hummock. Only in front could you +recognise it as a cabin by the low doorway, where we had always to stoop +on entering. Within were our bunks, a tiny stove, a few boxes to sit on, +a few dishes, our grub; that was all. Often we regretted our big cabin +on the hill, with its calico-lined "den" and its separate kitchen. But +in this little box of a home we were to put in many weary months. + +Not that the time seemed long to us; we were too busy for that. Indeed, +often we wished it were twice as long. Snow had fallen in September, and +by December we were in an Arctic world of uncompromising harshness. Day +after day the glass stood between forty and fifty below zero. It was +hatefully, dangerously cold. It seemed as if the frost-fiend had a cruel +grudge against us. It made us grim--and careful. We didn't talk much in +those days. We just worked, worked, worked, and when we did talk it was +of our work, our ceaseless work. + +Would we strike it rich? It was all a gamble, the most exciting gamble +in the world. It thrilled our day hours with excitement; it haunted our +sleep; it lent strength to the pick-stroke and vigour to the +windlass-crank. It made us forget the bitter cold, till some one would +exclaim, and gently knead the fresh snow on our faces. The cold burned +our cheeks a fierce brick-red, and a frostbite showed on them like a +patch of white putty. The old scars, never healing, were like blotches +of lamp-black. + +But neither cold nor fatigue could keep us away from the shaft and the +drift. We had gone down to bed-rock, and were tunnelling in to meet the +hole the Halfbreed had covered up. So far we had found nothing. Every +day we panned samples of the dirt, always getting colours, sometimes a +fifty-cent pan, but never what we dreamed of, hoped for. + +"Wait, boys, till we get a two-hundred-dollar pan, then we'll begin to +whoop it up some." + +Once the Company Manager came down on a dog-team. He looked over our +shaft. He wore a coon coat, with a cap of beaver, and huge fur mits hung +by a cord around his neck. He was massive and impassive. Spiky icicles +bristled around his mouth. + +"What luck, boys?" His breath came like steam. + +"None, so far," we told him, wearily, and off he went into the frozen +gloom, saying he hoped we would strike it before long. + +"Wait a while." + +We were working two men to a shaft, burning our ground over night. The +Prodigal and I manned the windlasses, while the old miners went down the +drifts. It was a cold, cold job standing there on that rugged platform +turning the windlass-crank. Long before it was fairly light we got to +our posts, and lowered our men into the hole. The air was warmer down +there; but the work was harder, more difficult, more dangerous. + +At noon there was no sunshine, only a wan, ashen light that suffused the +sky. A deathlike stillness lay on the valley, not a quiver or movement +in leaf or blade. The snow was a shroud, smooth save where the funereal +pines pricked through. In that intensity of cold, that shivering agony +of desolation, it seemed as if nature was laughing at us--the Cosmic +Laugh. + +Our meals were hurriedly cooked and bolted. We grudged every moment of +our respite from toil. At night we often were far too weary to undress. +We lost our regard for cleanliness; we neglected ourselves. Always we +talked of the result of the day's panning and the chances of to-morrow. +Surely we would strike it soon. + +"Wait awhile." + +Colder it grew and colder. Our kerosene flowed like mush. The water +froze solid in our kettle. Our bread was full of icy particles. +Everything had to be thawed out continually. It was tiresome, +exasperating, when we were in such a devil of a hurry. It kept us back; +it angered us, this pest of a cold. Our tempers began to suffer. We were +short, taciturn. The strain was beginning to tell on us. + +"Wait awhile." + +Then, one afternoon, the Something happened. It was Jim who was the +chosen one. About three o'clock he signalled to be hoisted up, and when +he appeared he was carrying a pan of dirt. "Call the others," he said. + +All together in the little cabin we stood round, while Jim washed out +the pan in snow-water melt over our stove. I will never forget how +eagerly we watched the gravel, and the whirling, dexterous movements of +the old man. We could see gleams of yellow in the muddy water. Thrills +of joy and hope went through us. We had got the thing, the big thing, at +last. + +"Hurry, Jim," I said, "or I'll die of suspense." + +Patiently he went on. There it was at last in the bottom of the +pan--sweeter to our eyes than to a woman the sight of her first-born. +There it lay, glittering, gleaming gold, fine gold, coarse gold, nuggety +gold. + +"Now, boys, you can whoop it up," said Jim quietly; "for there's many +and many a pan like it down there in the drift." + +But never a whoop. What was the matter with us? When the fortune we had +longed for so eagerly came at last, we did not greet it even with a +cheer. Oh, we were painfully silent. + +Solemnly we shook hands all round. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + + +"Now to weigh it," said the Prodigal. + +On the tiny pair of scales we turned it out--ninety-five dollars' worth. + +Well, it was a good start, and we were all possessed with a frantic +eagerness to go down in the drift. I crawled along the tunnel. There, in +the face of it, I could see the gold shining, and the longer I looked +the more I seemed to see. It was rich, rich. I picked out and burnished +a nugget as large as a filbert. There were lots of others like it. It +was a strike. The question was: how much was there of it? The Halfbreed +soon settled our doubts on that score. + +"It stands to reason the pay runs between where I first found it and +where we've struck it now. That alone means a tidy stake for each of us. +Say, boys, if you were to cover all that distance with twenty-dollar +gold pieces six feet wide, and packed edge to edge, I wouldn't take them +for our interest in that bit of ground. I see a fine big ranch in +Manitoba for my share; ay, and hired help to run it. The only thing that +sticks in my gullet is that fifty per cent. to the Company." + +"Well, we can't kick," I said; "we'd never have got the lay if they'd +had a hunch. My! won't they be sore?" + +Sure enough, in a few days the news leaked out, and the Manager came +post-haste. + +"Hear you've struck it rich, boys." + +"So rich that I guess we'll have to pack down gravel from the benches to +mix in before we can sluice it," said the Prodigal. + +"You don't say. Well, I'll have to have a man on the ground to look +after our interests." + +"All right. It means a good thing for you." + +"Yes, but it would have meant a better if we had worked it ourselves. +However, you boys deserve your luck. Hello, the devil----" + +He turned round and saw the Halfbreed. He gave a long whistle and went +away, looking pensive. + + * * * * * + +It was the night of the discovery when the Prodigal made us an address. + +"Look here, boys; do you know what this means? It means victory; it +means freedom, happiness, the things we want, the life we love. To me it +means travel, New York, Paris, evening dress, the opera. To McCrimmon +here it means his farm. To each according to his notion, it means the +'Things That Matter.' + +"Now, we've just begun. The hardest part is to come, is to get out the +fortune that's right under our feet. We're going to get every cent of +it, boys. There's a little over three months to do it in, leaving about +a month to make sluice-boxes and clean up the dirt. We've got to work +like men at a burning barn. We've worked hard, but we've got to go some +yet. For my part, I'm willing to do stunts that will make my previous +record look like a plugged dime. I guess you boys all feel the same +way." + +"You bet we do." + +"Well, nuf sed; let's get busy." + +So, once more, with redoubled energy, we resumed our tense, unremitting +round of toil. Now, however, it was vastly different. Every bucket of +dirt meant money in our pockets, every stroke of the pick a dollar. Not +that it was all like the first rich pocket we had struck. It proved a +most erratic and puzzling paystreak--one day rich beyond our dreams, +another too poor to pay for the panning. We swung on a pendulum of hope +and despair. Perhaps this made it all the more exciting, and stimulated +us unnaturally, and always we cursed that primitive method of mining +that made every bucket of dirt the net result of infinite labor. + +Every day our two dumps increased in size (for we had struck pay on the +other shaft), and every day our assurance and elation increased +correspondingly. It was bruited around that we had one of the richest +bits of ground in the country, and many came to gaze at us. It used to +lighten my labours at the windlass to see their looks of envy and to +hear their awe-stricken remarks. + +"That's one of them," they would say; "one of the lucky four, the lucky +laymen." + +So, as the facts, grossly exaggerated, got noised abroad, they came to +call us the "Lucky Laymen." + +Looking back, there will always seem to me something weird and +incomprehensible in those twilight days, an unreality, a vagueness like +some dreary, feverish dream. For three months I did not see my face in a +mirror. Not that I wanted to, but I mention this just to show how little +we thought of ourselves. + +In like manner, never did I have a moment's time to regard my inner self +in the mirror of consciousness. No mental analysis now; no long hours of +retrospection, no tete-a-tete interviews with my soul. At times I felt +as if I had lost my identity. I was a slave of the genie Gold, releasing +it from its prison in the frozen bowels of the earth. I was an automaton +turning a crank in the frozen stillness of the long, long night. + +It was a life despotically objective, and now, as I look back, it seems +as if I had never lived it at all. I seem to look down a long, dark +funnel and see a little machine-man bearing my semblance, patiently, +steadily, wearily turning the handle of a windlass in the clear, +lancinating cold of those sombre, silent days. + +I say "bearing my outward semblance," and yet I sometimes wonder if that +rough-bearded figure in heavy woollen clothes looked the least like me. +I wore heavy sweaters, mackinaw trousers, thick German socks and +moccasins. From frequent freezing my cheeks were corroded. I was +miserably thin, and my eyes had a wild, staring expression through the +pupils dilating in the long darkness. Yes, mentally and physically I was +no more like myself than a convict enduring out his life in the soulless +routine of a prison. + +The days were lengthening marvellously. We noted the fact with dull +joy. It meant more light, more time, more dirt in the dump. So it came +about that, from ten hours of toil, we went to twelve, to fourteen; +then, latterly, to sixteen, and the tension of it was wearing us down to +skin and bone. + +We were all feeling wretched, overstrained, ill-nourished, and it was +only voicing the general sentiment when, one day, the Prodigal remarked: + +"I guess I'll have to let up for a couple of days. My teeth are all on +the bum. I'm going to town to see a dentist." + +"Let me look at them," said the Halfbreed. + +He looked. The gums were sullen, unwholesome-looking. + +"Why, it's a touch of scurvy, lad; a little while, and you'd be spitting +out your teeth like orange pips; your legs would turn black, and when +you squeezed your fingers into the flesh the hole would stay. You'd get +rotten, then you'd mortify and die. But it's the easiest thing in the +world to cure. Nothing responds to treatment so readily." + +He made a huge brew of green-spruce tea, of which we all partook, and in +a few days the Prodigal was fit again. + +It was mid-March when we finished working out our ground. We had done +well, not so well, perhaps, as we had hoped for, but still magnificently +well. Never had men worked harder, never fought more desperately for +success. There were our two dumps, pyramids of gold-permeated dirt at +whose value we could only guess. We had wrested our treasure from the +icy grip of the eternal frost. Now it remained--and O, the sweetness of +it--to glean the harvest of our toil. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + + +"The water's beginning to run, boys," said the Halfbreed. "A few more +days and we'll be able to start sluicing." + +The news was like a flood of sunshine to us. For days we had been fixing +up the boxes and getting everything in readiness. The sun beat strongly +on the snow, which almost visibly seemed to retreat before it. The +dazzlingly white surface was crisp and flaky, and around the tree boles +curving hollows had formed. Here and there brown earth peered nakedly +through. Every day the hillside runnels grew in strength. + +We were working at the mouth of a creek down which ran a copious little +stream all through the Springtime. We tapped it some distance above us, +and ran part of it along our line of sluice-boxes. These boxes went +between our two dumps, so that it was easy to shovel in from both sides. +Nothing could have been more convenient. + +At last, after a day of hot sunshine, we found quite a freshet of water +coming down the boxes, leaping and dancing in the morning light. I +remember how I threw in the first shovelful of dirt, and how good it was +to see the bright stream discolour as our friend the water began his +magic work. For three days we shovelled in, and on the fourth we made a +clean-up. + +"I guess it's time," said Jim, "or those riffles will be gettin' choked +up." + +And, sure enough, when we ran off the water there were some of them +almost full of the yellow metal, wet and shiny, gloriously agleam in the +morning light. + +"There's ten thousand dollars if there's an ounce," said the Company's +man, and the weigh-up proved he was right. So the gold was packed in two +long buckskin pokes and sent into town to be deposited in the bank. + +Day after day we went on shovelling in, and about twice a week we made a +clean-up. The month of May was half over when we had only a third of our +dirt run through the boxes. We were terribly afraid of the water failing +us, and worked harder than ever. Indeed, it was difficult to tell when +to leave off. The nights were never dark now; the daylight was over +twenty hours in duration. The sun described an ellipse, rising a little +east of north and setting a little west of north. We shovelled in till +we were too exhausted to lift another ounce. Then we lay down in our +clothes and slept as soon as we touched the pillow. + +"There's eighty thousand to our credit in the bank, and only a third of +our dump's gone. Hooray, boys!" said the Prodigal. + +About one o'clock in the morning the birds began to sing, and the sunset +glow had not faded from the sky ere the sunrise quickened it with life +once more. Who that has lived in the North will ever forget the charm, +the witchery of those midnight skies, where the fires of the sun are +banked and never cold? Surely, long after all else is forgotten, will +linger the memory of those mystic nights with all their haunting spell +of weird, disconsolate solitude. + +One afternoon I was working on the dump, intent on shovelling in as much +dirt as possible before supper, when, on looking up, who should greet me +but Locasto. Since our last interview in town I had not seen him, and, +somehow, this sudden sight of him came as a kind of a shock. Yet the +manner of the man as he approached me was hearty in the extreme. He held +out his great hand to me, and, as I had no desire to antagonise him, I +gave him my own. + +He was riding. His big, handsome face was bronzed, his black eyes clear +and sparkling, his white teeth gleamed like mammoth ivory. He certainly +was a dashing, dominant figure of a man, and, in spite of myself, I +admired him. + +His manner in his salutation was cordial, even winning. + +"I've just been visiting some of my creek properties," he said. "I heard +you fellows had made a good strike, and I thought I'd come down and +congratulate you. It is pretty good, isn't it?" + +"Yes," I said; "not quite so good as we expected, but we'll all have a +tidy sum." + +"I'm glad. Well, I suppose you'll go outside this Fall." + +"No, I think I'll stay in. You see, we've the Gold Hill property, which +looks promising; and then we have two claims on Ophir." + +"Oh, Ophir! I don't think you'll ever take a fortune out of Ophir. I +bought a claim there the other day. The man pestered me, so I gave him +five thousand for it, just to get rid of him. It's eight below." + +"Why," I said, "that's the claim I staked and got beaten out of." + +"You don't say so. Well, now, that's too bad. I bought it from a man +named Spankiller; his brother's a clerk in the gold office. Tell you +what I'll do. I'll let you have it for the five thousand I gave for it." + +"No," I answered, "I don't think I want it now." + +"All right; think it over, anyway. If you should change your mind, let +me know. Well, I must go. I've got to get into town to-night. That's my +mule-train back there on the trail. I've got pretty nearly ten thousand +ounces over there." + +I looked and saw the mules with the gold-packs slung over their backs. +There were four men to guard them, and it seemed to me that in one of +these men I recognised the little wizened figure of the Worm. + +I shivered. + +"Yes, I've done pretty well," he continued; "but it don't make any +difference. I spend it as fast as I get it. A month ago I didn't have +enough ready cash to pay my cigar bill, yet I could have gone to the +bank and borrowed a hundred thousand. It was there in the dump. Oh, it's +a rum business this mining. Well, good-bye." + +He was turning to go when, suddenly, he stopped. + +"Oh, by the way, I saw a friend of yours before I left. No need to +mention names, you lucky dog. When's the big thing coming off? Well, I +must congratulate you again. She looks sweeter than ever. Bye-bye." + +He was off, leaving a very sinister impression on my mind. In his +parting smile there was a trace of mockery that gravely disquieted me. I +had thought much of Berna during the past few months, but as the gold +fever took hold of me I put her more and more from my mind. I told +myself that all this struggle was for her. In the thought that she was +safe I calmed all anxious fear. Sometimes by not thinking so much of +dear ones, one can be more thoughtful of them. So it was with me. I knew +that all my concentration of effort was for her sake, and would bring +her nearer to me. Yet at Locasto's words all my old longing and +heartache vehemently resurged. + +In spite of myself, I was the prey of a growing uneasiness. Things +seemed vastly different, now success had come to me. I could not bear to +think of her working in that ambiguous restaurant, rubbing shoulders +with its unspeakable habitues. I wondered how I had ever deceived myself +into thinking it was all right. I began to worry, so that I knew only a +trip into Dawson would satisfy me. Accordingly, I hired a big Swede to +take my place at the shovel, and set out once more on the hillside trail +for town. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + + +I found the town more animated than ever, the streets more populous, the +gaiety more unrestrained. Everywhere were flaunting signs of a plethoric +wealth. The anxious Cheechako had vanished from the scene, and the +victorious miner masqueraded in his place. He swaggered along in the +glow of the Spring sunshine, a picture of perfect manhood, bronzed and +lean and muscular. He was brimming over with the exuberance of health. +He had come into town to "live" things, to transmute this yellow dust +into happiness, to taste the wine of life, to know the lips of flame. + +It was the day of the Man with the Poke. He was King. The sheer +animalism of him overflowed in midnight roysterings, in bacchanalian +revels, in debauches among the human debris of the tenderloin. + +Every one was waiting for him, to fleece him, rob him, strip him. It was +also the day of the man behind the bar, of the gambler, of the harpy. + +My strange, formless fears for Berna were soon set at rest. She was +awaiting me. She looked better than I had ever seen her, and she +welcomed me with an eager delight that kindled me to rapture. + +"Just think of it," she said, "only two weeks, and we'll be together for +always. It seems too good to be true. Oh, my dear, how can I ever love +you enough? How happy we are going to be, aren't we?" + +"We're going to be happier than any two people ever were before," I +assured her. + +We crossed the Yukon to the green glades of North Dawson, and there, on +a little rise, we sat down, side by side. How I wish I could put into +words the joy that filled my heart! Never was lad so happy as I. I spoke +but little, for love's silences are sweeter than all words. Well, well I +mind me how she looked: just like a picture, her hands clasped on her +lap, her eyes star-bright, angel-sweet, mother-tender. From time to time +she would give me a glance so full of trust and love that my heart would +leap to her, and wave on wave of passionate tenderness come sweeping +over me. + +It may be there was something humble in my stintless adoration; it may +be I was like a child for the pleasure of her nearness; it may be my +eyes told all too well of the fire that burned within me, but O, the +girl was kind, gentler than forgiveness, sweeter than all heaven. +Caressingly she touched my hair. I kissed her fingers, kissed them again +and again; and then she lifted my hand to her lips, and I felt her kiss +fall upon it. How wondrously I tingled at the touch. My hand seemed mine +no longer--a consecrated thing. Proud, happy me! + +"Yes," she went on, "doesn't it seem as if we were dreaming? You know, I +always thought it was a dream, and now it's coming true. You'll take me +away from this place, won't you, boy?--far, far away. I'll tell you +now, dear, I've borne it all for your sake, but I don't think I could +bear it any longer. I would rather die than sink in the mire, and yet +you can't imagine how this life affects one. It's sad, sad, but I don't +get shocked at things in the way I used to. You know, I sometimes think +a girl, no matter how good, sweet, modest to begin with, placed in such +surroundings could fall gradually." + +I agreed with her. Too well I knew I was becoming calloused to the evils +around me. Such was the insidious corruption of the gold-camp, I now +regarded with indifference things that a year ago I would have shrunk +from with disgust. + +"Well, it will be all over very soon, won't it, dear? I don't know what +I'd have done if it hadn't been for the rough miners. They've been so +kind to me. When they saw I was straight and honest they couldn't be +good enough. They shielded me in every way, and kept back the other kind +of men. Even the women have been my friends and helped me." + +She looked at me archly. + +"And, you know, I've had ever so many offers of marriage, too, from +honest, rough, kindly men--and I've refused them ever so gracefully." + +"Has Locasto ever made any more overtures?" + +Her face grew grave. + +"Yes, about a month ago he besieged me, gave me no rest, made all kinds +of proposals and promises. He wanted to divorce his 'outside' wife and +marry me. He wanted to settle a hundred thousand dollars on me. He tried +everything in his power to force me to his will. Then, when he saw it +was no use, he turned round and begged me to let him be my friend. He +spoke so nicely of you. He said he would help us in any way he could. +He's everything that's kind to me now. He can't do enough for me. Yet, +somehow, I don't trust him." + +"Well, my precious," I assured her, "all danger, doubt, despair, will +soon be over. Locasto and the rest of them will be as shadows, never to +haunt my little girl again. The Great, Black North will fade away, will +dissolve into the land of sunshine and flowers and song. You will forget +it." + +"The Great Black North.--I will never forget it, and I will always bless +it. It has given me my love, the best love in all the world." + +"O my darling, my Life, I'll take you away from it all soon, soon. We'll +go to my home, to Garry, to Mother. They will love you as I love you." + +"I'm sure I will love them. What you have told me of them makes them +seem very real to me. Will you not be ashamed of me?" + +"I will be proud, proud of you, my girl." + +Ah, would I not! I looked at that flower-like face the sunshine +glorified so, the pretty, bright hair falling away from her low brow in +little waves, the lily throat, the delicately patrician features, the +proud poise of her head. Who would not have been proud of her? She awoke +all that was divine in me. I looked as one might look on a vision, +scarce able to believe it real. + +Suddenly she pointed excitedly. + +"Look, dear, look at the rainbow. Isn't it wonderful? Isn't it +beautiful?" + +I gazed in rapt admiration. Across the river a shower had fallen, and +the clouds, clearing away abruptly, had left there a twin rainbow of +matchless perfection. Its double arch was poised as accurately over the +town as if it had been painted there. Each hoop was flawless in form, +lovely in hue, tenderly luminous, exquisite in purity. Never had I seen +the double iris so immaculate in colouring, and, with its bases resting +on the river, it curved over the gold-born city like a frame of ethereal +beauty. + +"Does it not seem, dear, like an answer to our prayer, an omen of good +hope, a promise for the future?" + +"Yes, beloved, our future, yours and mine. The clouds are rolling away. +All is bright with sunshine once again, and God sends His rainbow to +cheer and comfort us. It will not be long now. On the first day of June, +beloved, I will come to you, and we will be made man and wife. You will +be waiting for me, will you not?" + +"Yes, yes, waiting ever so eagerly, my lover, counting every hour, every +minute." + +I kissed her passionately, and we held each other tightly for a moment. +I saw come into her eyes that look which comes but once into the eyes of +a maid, that look of ineffable self-surrender, of passionate +abandonment. Life is niggard of such moments, yet can our lives be +summed up in them. + +She rested her head on my shoulder; her lips lay on mine, and they +moved faintly. + +"Yes, lover, yes, the first of June. Don't fail me, honey, don't fail +me." + +We parted, buoyant with hope, in an ecstasy of joy. She was for me, this +beautiful, tender girl, for me. And the time was nigh when she should be +mine, mine to adore until the end. Always would she be by my side; daily +could I plot and plan to give her pleasure; every hour by word and look +and act could I lavish on her the exhaustless measure of my love. Ah! +life would be too short for me. Could aught in this petty purblind +existence of ours redeem it and exalt it so: her love, this pure sweet +girl's, and mine. Let nations grapple, let Mammon triumph, let +pestilence o'erwhelm; what matter, we love, we love. O proud, happy me! + + * * * * * + +I got back to the claim. Everything was going merrily, but I felt little +desire to resume my toil. I was strangely wearied, worn out somehow. Yet +I took up my shovel again with a body that rebelled in every tissue. +Never had I felt like this before. Something was wrong with me. I was +weak. At night I sweated greatly. I cared not to eat. + + * * * * * + +"Well," said the Prodigal, "it's all over but the shouting. From my +calculations we've cleaned up two hundred and six thousand dollars. +That's a hundred and three between us four. It's cost us about three to +get out the stuff; so there will be, roughly speaking, about +twenty-five thousand for each of us." + +How jubilant every one was looking--every one but me. Somehow I felt as +if money didn't matter just then, for I was sick, sick. + +"Why, what's the matter?" said the Prodigal, staring at me curiously. +"You look like a ghost." + +"I feel like one, too," I answered. "I'm afraid I'm in for a bad spell. +I want to lie down awhile, boys ... I'm tired.... The first of June, +I've got a date on the first of June. I must keep it, I must.... Don't +let me sleep too long, boys. I mustn't fail. It's a matter of life and +death. The first of June...." + +Alas, on the first of June I lay in the hospital, raving and tossing in +the clutches of typhoid fever. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + + +I was lying in bed, and a heavy weight was pressing on me, so that, in +spite of my struggles, I could not move. I was hot, insufferably hot. +The blood ran boiling through my veins. My flesh was burning up. My +brain would not work. It was all cobwebs, murky and stale as a +charnel-house. Yet at times were strange illuminations, full of terror +and despair. Blood-red lights and purple shadows alternated in my +vision. Then came the dreams. + + * * * * * + +There was always Berna. Through a mass of grimacing, greed-contorted +faces gradually there formed and lingered her sweet and pensive one. We +were in a strange costume, she and I. It seemed like that of the early +Georges. We were running away, fleeing from some one. For her sake a +great fear and anxiety possessed me. We were eloping, I fancied. + +There was a marsh to cross, a hideous quagmire, and our pursuers were +close. We started over the quaking ground, then, suddenly, I saw her +sink. I rushed to aid her, and I, too, sank. We were to our necks in the +soft ooze, and there on the bank, watching us, was the foremost of our +hunters. He laughed at our struggles; he mocked us; he rejoiced to see +us drown. And in my dream the face of the man seemed strangely like +Locasto. + + * * * * * + +We were in a bower of roses, she and I. It was still further back in +history. We seemed to be in the garden of a palace. I was in doublet and +hose, and she wore a long, flowing kirtle. The air was full of fragrance +and sunshine. Birds were singing. A fountain scattered a shower of +glittering diamonds on the breeze. She was sitting on the grass, while I +reclined by her side, my head lying on her lap. Above me I could see her +face like a lily bending over me. With dainty fingers she crumpled a +rose and let the petals snow down on me. + +Then, suddenly, I was seized, torn away from her by men in black, who +roughly choked her screams. I was dragged off, thrown into a foul cell, +left many days. Then, one night, I was dragged forth and brought before +a grim tribunal in a hall of gloom and horror. They pronounced my +doom--Death. The chief Inquisitor raised his mask, and in those gloating +features I recognised--Locasto. + + * * * * * + +Again it seemed as if I were still further back in history, in some city +under the Roman rule. I was returning from the Temple with my bride. How +fair and fresh and beautiful she was, garlanded with flowers and +radiantly happy. Again it was Berna. + +Suddenly there are shouts, the beating of drums, the clash of cymbals. +The great Governor of the Province is coming. He passes with his +retinue. Suddenly he catches sight of her whom I have but newly wed. He +stops. He asks who is the maid. They tell him. He looks at me with +haughty contempt. He gives a sign. His servants seize her and drag her +screaming away. I try to follow, to kill him. I, too, am seized, +overpowered. They bind me, put out my eyes. The Roman sees them do it. +He laughs as the red-hot iron kisses my eye-balls. He mocks me, telling +me what a dainty feast awaits him in my bride. Again I see Locasto. + + * * * * * + +Then came another phase of my delirium, in which I struggled to get to +her. She was waiting for me, wanting me, breaking her heart at my delay. +O, Berna, my soul, my life, since the beginning of things we were fated. +'Tis no flesh love, but something deeper, something that has its source +at the very core of being. It is not for your sweet face, your gentle +spirit, my own, that you are dearer to me than all else: it is +because--you are you. If all the world were to turn against you, flout +you, stone you, then would I rush to your side, shield you, die with +you. If you were attainted with leprosy, I would enter the lazar-house +for your sake. + +"O Berna, I must see you, I must, I must. Let me go to her ... now ... +dear! She's calling me. She's in trouble. Oh, for the love of God, let +me go ... let me go, I say.... Curse you, I will. She's in trouble. You +can't hold me. I'm stronger than you all when she calls.... Let me ... +let me.... Oh, oh, oh ... you're hurting me so. I'm weak, yes, weak as +a baby.... Berna, my child, my poor little girl, I can do nothing. +There's a mountain weighing me down. There's a slab of gold on my chest. +They're burning me up. My veins are on fire. I can't come.... I can't, +dear.... I'm tired...." + +Then the fever, the ravings, the wild threshing of my pillow, all passed +away, and I was left limp, weak, helpless, resigned to my fate. + +I was on the sunny slope of convalescence. The Prodigal had remained +with me as long as I was in danger, but now that I had turned the +corner, he had gone back to the creeks, so that I was left with only my +thoughts for company. As I turned and twisted on my narrow cot it seemed +as if the time would never pass. All I wanted was to get better fast, +and to get out again. Then, I thought, I would marry Berna and go +"outside." I was sick of the country, of everything. + +I was lying thinking over these things, when I became aware that the man +in the cot to the right was trying to attract my attention. He had been +brought in that very morning, said to have been kicked by a horse. One +of his ribs was broken, and his face badly smashed. He was in great +pain, but quite conscious, and he was making stealthy motions to me. + +"Say, mate," he said, "I piped you off soon's I set me lamps on you. +Don't youse know me?" + +I looked at the bandaged face wonderingly. + +"Don't you spot de man dat near let youse down de shaft?" + +Then, with a great start, I saw it was the Worm. + +"'Taint no horse done me up," he said in a hoarse whisper; "'twas a man. +You know de man, de worst devil in all Alaska, Black Jack. Bad luck to +him! He knocked me down and give me de leather. But I'm goin' to get +even some day. I'm just laying for him. I wouldn't be in his shoes for +de richest claim in de Klondike." + +The man's eyes glittered vengefully between the white bandages. + +"'Twas all on account of de little girl he done it. You know de girl I +mean. Black Jack's dead stuck on her, an' de furder she stands him off +de more set he is to get her. Youse don't know dat man. He's never had +de cold mit yet." + +"Tell me what's the matter, for Heaven's sake." + +"Well, when youse didn't come, de little girl she got worried. I used to +be doin' chores round de restaurant, an' she asks me to take a note up +to you. So I said I would. But I got on a drunk dat day, an' for a week +after I didn't draw a sober breath. When I gets around again I told her +I'd seen you an' given you de note an' you was comin' in right away." + +"Heaven forgive you for that." + +[Illustration: Then, as I hung half in, half out of the window, he +clutched me by the throat] + +"Yep, dat's what I say now. But it's all too late. Well, a week went on +an' you never showed up, an' meantime Locasto was pesterin' her cruel. +She got mighty peaked like, pale as a ghost, an' I could see she cried +most all her nights. Den she gives me anudder note. She gives me a +hundred dollars to take dat note to you. I said she could lay on me dis +time. I was de hurry-up kid, an' I starts off. But Black Jack must have +cottoned on, for he meets me back of de town an' taxes me wid takin' a +message. Den he sets on me like a wild beast an' does me up good and +proper. But I'll fix him yet." + +"Where are the notes?" I cried. + +"In de pocket of me coat. Tell de nurse to fetch in me clothes, an' I'll +give dem to youse." + +The nurse brought the clothes, but the little man was too sore to move. + +"Feel in de inside pocket." + +There were the notes, folded very small, and written in pencil. There +was a strange faintness at my heart, and my fingers trembled as I opened +them. Fear, fear was clutching me, compressing me in an agonising grip. + +Here was the first. + + "My Darling Boy: Why didn't you come? I was all ready for you. O, + it was such a terrible disappointment. I've cried myself to sleep + every night since. Has anything happened to you, dear? For Heaven's + sake write or send a message. I can't bear the suspense. + + "Your loving + + "Berna." + +Blankly, dully, almost mechanically, I read the second. + + "O, come, my dear, at once. I'm in serious danger. He's grown + desperate. Swears if he can't get me by fair means he'll have me by + foul. I'm terribly afraid. Why ar'n't you here to protect me? Why + have you failed me? O, my darling, have pity on your poor little + girl. Come quickly before it is too late." + +It was unsigned. + +Heavens! I must go to her at once. I was well enough. I was all right +again. Why would they not let me go to her? I would crawl on my hands +and knees if need be. I was strong, so strong now. + +Ha! there were the Worm's clothes. It was after midnight. The nurse had +just finished her rounds. All was quiet in the ward. + +Dizzily I rose and slipped into the frayed and greasy garments. There +were the hospital slippers. I must wear them. Never mind a hat. + +I was out in the street. I shuffled along, and people stared at me, but +no one delayed me. I was at the restaurant now. She wasn't there. Ah! +the cabin on the hill. + +I was weaker than I had thought. Once or twice in a half-fainting +condition I stopped and steadied myself by holding a sapling tree. Then +the awful intuition of her danger possessed me, and gave me fresh +strength. Many times I stumbled, cutting myself on the sharp boulders. +Once I lay for a long time, half-unconscious, wondering if I would ever +be able to rise. I reeled like a drunken man. The way seemed endless, +yet stumbling, staggering on, there was the cabin at last. + +A light was burning in the front room. Some one was at home at all +events. Only a few steps more, yet once again I fell. I remember +striking my face against a sharp rock. Then, on my hands and knees, I +crawled to the door. + +I raised myself and hammered with clenched fists. There was silence +within, then an agitated movement. I knocked again. Was the door ever +going to be opened? At last it swung inward, with a suddenness that +precipitated me inside the room. + +The Madam was standing over me where I had fallen. At sight of me she +screamed. Surprise, fear, rage, struggled for mastery on her face. "It's +him," she cried, "_him_." Peering over her shoulder, with ashy, +horrified face, I saw her trembling husband. + +"Berna," I gasped hoarsely. "Where is she? I want Berna. What are you +doing to her, you devils? Give her to me. She's mine, my promised bride. +Let me go to her, I say." + +The woman barred the way. + +All at once I realised that the air was heavy with a strange odour, the +odour of _chloroform_. Frenzied with fear, I rushed forward. + +Then the Amazon roused herself. With a cry of rage she struck me. +Savagely both of them came for me. I struggled, I fought; but, weak as I +was, they carried me before them and threw me from the door. I heard the +lock shoot; I was outside; I was impotent. Yet behind those log +walls.... Oh, it was horrible! horrible! Could such things be in God's +world? And I could do nothing. + +I was strong once more. I ran round to the back of the cabin. She was in +there, I knew. I rushed at the window and threw myself against it. The +storm frame had not been taken off. Crash! I burst through both sheets +of glass. I was cruelly cut, bleeding in a dozen places, yet I was half +into the room. There, in the dirty, drab light, I saw a face, the +fiendish, rage-distorted face of my dream. It was Locasto. + +He turned at the crash. With a curse he came at me. Then, as I hung half +in, half out of the window, he clutched me by the throat. Using all his +strength, he raised me further into the room, then he hurled me +ruthlessly out onto the rocks outside. + +I rose, reeling, covered with blood, blind, sick, speechless. Weakly I +staggered to the window. My strength was leaving me. "O God, sustain me! +Help me to save her." + +Then I felt the world go blank. I swayed; I clutched at the walls; I +fell. + +There I lay in a ghastly, unconscious heap. + +I had lost! + + + + +BOOK IV + +THE VORTEX + + +He burned a hole in the frozen muck; +He scratched the icy mould; +And there in six-foot dirt he struck +A sack or so of gold. + + He burned a hole in the Decalogue, + And then it came about-- + For Fortune's only a lousy rogue-- + His "pocket" petered out. + +And lo! it was but a year all told, +When there in the shadow grim, +But six feet deep in the icy mould, +They burned a hole for him. + +--"The Yukoner." + + + + +CHAPTER I + + +"No, no, I'm all right. Really I am. Please leave me alone. You want me +to laugh? Ha! Ha! There! Is that all right now?" + +"No, it isn't all right. It's very far from all right, my boy; and this +is where you and your little uncle here are going to have a real heart +to heart talk." + +It was in the big cabin on Gold Hill, and the Prodigal was addressing +me. He went on: + +"Now, look here, kid, when it comes to expressing my feelings I'm in the +kindergarten class; when it comes to handing out the high-toned dope I +drop my cue every time; but when I'm needed to do the solid pardner +stunt then you don't need to holler for me--I'm there. Well, I'm giving +you a straight line of talk. Ever since the start I've taken a strong +notion to you. You've always been ace-high with me, and there never will +come the day when you can't eat on my meal-ticket. We tackled the Trail +of Trouble together. You were always wanting to lift the heavy end of +the log, and when the God of Cussedness was doing his best to rasp a man +down to his yellow streak, you showed up white all through. Say, kid, +we've been in tight places together; we've been stacked up against hard +times together: and now I'll be gol-darned if I'm going to stand by and +see you go downhill, while the devil oils the bearings." + +"Oh, I'm all right," I protested. + +"Yes, you're all right," he echoed grimly. "In an impersonation of an +'all-right' man it's the hook for yours. I've seen 'all-right' men like +you hitting the hurry trail for the boneyard before now. You're 'all +right'! Why, for the last two hours you've been sitting with that +'just-break-the-news-to mother' expression of yours, and paying no more +heed to my cheerful brand of conversation than if I had been a measly +four-flusher. You don't eat more than a sick sparrow, and often you +don't bat an eye all night. You're looking worse than the devil in a +gale of wind. You've lost your grip, my boy. You don't care whether +school keeps or not. In fact, if it wasn't for your folks, you'd as lief +take a short cut across the Great Divide." + +"You're going it a little strong, old man." + +"Oh no, I'm not. You know you're sick of everything. Feel as if life's a +sort of penitentiary, and you've just got to do time. You don't expect +to get any more fun out of it. Look at me. Every day's my sunshine day. +If the sky's blue I like it; if it's grey I like it just as well. I +never worry. What's the use? Yesterday's a dead one; to-morrow's always +to-morrow. All we've got's the 'now,' and it's up to us to live it for +all we're worth. You can use up more human steam to the square inch in +worrying than you can to the square yard in hard work. Eliminate worry +and you've got the only system." + +"It's all very well for you to preach," I said, "you forget I've been a +pretty sick man." + +"That's no nursemaid's dream. You almost cashed in. Typhoid's a serious +proposition at the best; but when you take a crazy streak on top of it, +make a midnight getaway from the sick-ward and land up on the Slide +looking as if you'd been run through a threshing machine, well, you're +sure letting death get a short option on you. And you gave up. You +didn't want to fight. You shirked, but your youth and constitution +fought for you. They healed your wounds, they soothed your ravings, they +cooled your fever. They were a great team, and they pulled you through. +Seems as if they'd pulled you through a knot-hole, but they were on to +their job. And you weren't one bit grateful--seemed to think they had no +business to butt in." + +"My hurts are more than physical." + +"Yes, I know; there was that girl. You seemed to have a notion that that +was the only girl on God's green brush-pile. As I camped there by your +bedside listening to your ravings, and getting a strangle-hold on you +when you took it into your head to get funny, you blabbed out the whole +yarn. Oh, sonny, why didn't you tell your uncle? Why didn't you put me +wise? I could have given you the right steer. Have you ever known me +handle a job I couldn't make good at? I'm a whole matrimonial bureau +rolled into one. I'd have had you prancing to the tune of the wedding +march before now. But you kept mum as a mummy. Wouldn't even tell your +old pard. Now you've lost her." + +"Yes, I've lost her." + +"Did you ever see her after you came out of the hospital?" + +"Once, once only. It was the first day. I was as thin as a rail, as +white as the pillow from which I had just raised my head. Death's +reprieve was written all over me. I dragged along wearily, leaning on a +stick. I was thinking of her, thinking, thinking always. As I scanned +the faces of the crowds that thronged the streets, I thought only of her +face. Then suddenly she was before me. She looked like a ghost, poor +little thing; and for a fluttering moment we stared at each other, she +and I, two wan, weariful ghosts." + +"Yes, what did she say?" + +"Say! she said nothing. She just looked at me. Her face was cold as ice. +She looked at me as if she wanted to _pity_ me. Then into her eyes there +came a shadow of bitterness, of bitterness and despair such as might +gloom the eyes of a lost soul. It unnerved me. It seemed as if she was +regarding me almost with horror, as if I were a sort of a leper. As I +stood there, I thought she was going to faint. She seemed to sway a +moment. Then she drew a great, gasping breath, and turning on her heel +she was gone." + +"She cut you?" + +"Yes, cut me dead, old fellow. And my only thought was of love for her, +eternal love. But I'll never forget the look on her face as she turned +away. It was as if I had lashed her with a whip. My God!" + +"And you've never seen her since?" + +"No, never. That was enough, wasn't it? She didn't want to speak to me +any more, never wanted to set eyes on me any more. I went back to the +ward; then, in a little, I came on here. My body was living, but my +heart was dead. It will never live again." + +"Oh, rot! You mustn't let the thing down you like that. It's going to +kill you in the end. Buck up! Be a man! If you don't care to live for +yourself, live for others. Anyway, it's likely all for the best. Maybe +love had you locoed. Maybe she wasn't really good. See now how she lives +openly with Locasto. They call her the Madonna; they say she looks more +like a virgin-martyr than the mistress of a dissolute man." + +I rose and looked at him, conscious that my face was all twisted with +the pain of the thought. + +"Look here," I said, "never did God put the breath of life into a better +girl. There's been foul play. I know that girl better than any one in +the world, and if every living being were to tell me she wasn't good I +would tell them they lied, they lied. I would burn at the stake +upholding that girl." + +"Then why did she turn you down so cruelly?" + +"I don't know; I can't understand it. I know so little about women. I +have not wavered a moment. To-day in my loneliness and heartbreak I +care and hunger for her more than ever. She's always here, right here in +my head, and no power can drive her out. Let them say of her what they +will, I would marry her to-morrow. It's killing me. I've aged ten years +in the last few months. Oh, if I only could forget." + +He looked at me thoughtfully. + +"I say, old man, do you ever hear from your old lady?" + +"Every mail." + +"You've often told me of your home. Say! just give us a mental frame-up +of it." + +"Glengyle? Yes. I can see the old place now, as plainly as a picture: +the green, dimpling hills all speckled with sheep; the grey house +nestling snugly in a grove of birch; the wild water of the burn leaping +from black pool to pool, just mad with the joy of life; the midges +dancing over the water in the still sunshine, and the trout jumping for +them--oh, it's the bonny, bonny place. You would think so too. You would +like it, tramping knee-deep in the heather, to see the moorcock rise +whirring at your feet; you would like to set sail with the fisher folk +after the silver herring. It would make you feel good to see the calm +faces of the shepherds, the peace in the eyes of the women. Ay, that was +the best of it all, the Rest of it, the calm of it. I was pretty happy +in those days." + +"You were happy--then why not go back? That's your proper play; go back +to your Mother. She wants you. You're pretty well heeled now. A little +money goes a long way over there. You can count on thirty thousand. +You'll be comfortable; you'll devote yourself to the old lady; you'll be +happy again. Time's a regular steam-roller when it comes to smoothing +out the rough spots in the past. You'll forget it all, this place, this +girl. It'll all seem like the after effects of a midnight Welsh rabbit. +You've got mental indigestion. I hate to see you go. I'm really sorry to +lose you; but it's your only salvation, so go, go!" + +Never had I thought of it before. Home! how sweet the word seemed. +Mother! yes, Mother would comfort me as no one else could. She would +understand. Mother and Garry! A sudden craving came over me to see them +again. Maybe with them I could find relief from this awful agony of +heart, this thing that I could scarce bear to think of, yet never ceased +to think of. Home! that was the solution of it all. Ah me! I would go +home. + +"Yes," I said, "I can't go too soon; I'll start to-morrow." + +So I rose and proceeded to gather together my few belongings. In the +early morning I would start out. No use prolonging the business of my +going. I would say good-bye to those two partners of mine, with a grip +of the hand, a tear in the eye, a husky: "Take care of yourself." That +would be all. Likely I would never see them again. + +Jim came in and sat down quietly. The old man had been very silent of +late. Putting on his spectacles, he took out his well-worn Bible and +opened it. Back in Dawson there was a man whom he hated with the hate +that only death can end, but for the peace of his soul he strove to +conquer it. The hate slumbered, yet at times it stirred, and into the +old man's eyes there came the tiger-look that had once made him a force +and a fear. Woe betide his enemy if that tiger ever woke. + +"I've been a-thinkin' out a scheme," said Jim suddenly, "an' I'm a-goin' +to put all of that twenty-five thousand of mine back into the ground. +You know us old miners are gamblers to the end. It's not the gold, but +the gettin' of it. It's the excitement, the hope, the anticipation of +one's luck that counts. We're fighters, an' we've just got to keep on +fightin'. We can't quit. There's the ground, and there's the precious +metals it's a-tryin' to hold back on us. It's up to us to get them out. +It's for the good of humanity. The miner an' the farmer rob no one. They +just get down to that old ground an' coax it an' beat it an' bully it +till it gives up. They're working for the good of humanity--the farmer +an' the miner." The old man paused sententiously. + +"Well, I can't quit this minin' business. I've just got to go on so +long's I've got health an' strength; an' I'm a-goin' to shove all I've +got once more into the muck. I stand to make a big pile, or lose my +wad." + +"What's your scheme, Jim?" + +"It's just this: I'm goin' to install a hydraulic plant on my Ophir +Creek claim, I've got a great notion of that claim. It's an +out-of-sight proposition for workin' with water. There's a little stream +runs down the hill, an' the hill's steep right there. There's one +hundred feet of fall, an' in Spring a mighty powerful bunch of water +comes a-tumblin' down. Well, I'm goin' to dam it up above, bring it down +a flume, hitch on a little giant, an' turn it loose to rip an' tear at +that there ground. I'm goin' to begin a new era in Klondike minin'." + +"Bully for you, Jim." + +"The values are there in the ground, an' I'm sick of the old slow way of +gettin' them out. This looks mighty good to me. Anyway, I'm a-goin' to +give it a trial. It's just the start of things; you'll see others will +follow suit. The individual miner's got to go; it's only a matter of +time. Some day you'll see this whole country worked over by them big +power dredges they've got down in Californy. You mark my words, boys; +the old-fashioned miner's got to go." + +"What are you going to do?" + +"Well, I've written out for piping an' a monitor, an' next Spring I hope +I'll have the plant in workin' order. The stuff's on the way now. Hullo! +Come in!" + +The visitors were Mervin and Hewson on their way to Dawson. These two +men had been successful beyond their dreams. It was just like finding +money the way fortune had pushed it in front of their noses. They were +offensively prosperous; they reeked of success. + +In both of them a great change had taken place, a change only too +typical of the gold-camp. They seemed to have thawed out; they were +irrepressibly genial; yet instead of that restraint that had formerly +distinguished them, there was a grafted quality of weakness, of +flaccidity, of surrender to the enervating vices of the town. + +Mervin was remarkably thin. Dark hollows circled his eyes, and a curious +nervousness twisted his mouth. He was "a terror for the women," they +said. He lavished his money on them faster than he made it. He was +vastly more companionable than formerly, but somehow you felt his +virility, his fighting force had gone. + +In Hewson the change was even more marked. Those iron muscles had +couched themselves in easy flesh; his cheeks sagged; his eyes were +bloodshot and untidy. Nevertheless he was more of a good fellow, talked +rather vauntingly of his wealth, and affected a patronising manner. He +was worth probably two hundred thousand, and he drank a bottle of brandy +a day. + +In the case of these two men, as in the case of a thousand others in the +gold-camp, it seemed as if easy, unhoped-for affluence was to prove +their undoing. On the trail they had been supreme; in fen or forest, on +peak or plain, they were men among men, fighting with nature savagely, +exultantly. But when the fight was over their arms rested, their muscles +relaxed, they yielded to sensuous pleasures. It seemed as if to them +victory really meant defeat. + +As I went on with my packing I paid but little heed to their talk. What +mattered it to me now, this babble of dumps and dust, of claims and +clean-ups? I was going to thrust it all behind me, blot it clean out of +my memory, begin my life anew. It would be a larger, more luminous life. +I would live for others. Home! Mother! again how exquisitely my heart +glowed at the thought of them. + +Then all at once I pricked up my ears. They were talking of the town, of +the men and women who were making it famous (or rather infamous), when +suddenly they spoke the name of Locasto. + +"He's gone off," Mervin was saying; "gone off on a big stampede. He got +pretty thick with some of the Peel River Indians, and found they knew of +a ledge of high-grade, free-milling quartz somewhere out there in the +Land Back of Beyond. He had a sample of it, and you could just see the +gold shining all through it. It was great stuff. Jack Locasto's the last +man to turn down a chance like that. He's the worst gambler in the +Northland, and no amount of wealth will ever satisfy him. So he's off +with an Indian and one companion, that little Irish satellite of his, +Pat Doogan. They have six months' grub. They'll be away all winter." + +"What's become of that girl of his?" asked Hewson, "the last one he's +been living with? You remember she came in on the boat with us. Poor +little kid! Blast that man anyway. He's not content with women of his +own kind, he's got to get his clutches on the best of them. That was a +good little girl before he got after her. If she was a friend of mine +I'd put a bullet in his ugly heart." + +Hewson growled like a wrathful bear, but Mervin smiled his cynical +smile. + +"Oh, you mean the Madonna," he said; "why, she's gone on the +dance-halls." + +They continued to talk of other things, but I did not hear them any +more. I was in a trance, and I only aroused when they rose to go. + +"Better say good-bye to the kid here," said the Prodigal; "he's going to +the old country to-morrow." + +"No, I'm not," I answered sullenly; "I'm just going as far as Dawson." + +He stared and expostulated, but my mind was made up. I would fight, +fight to the last. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +Berna on the dance-halls--words cannot convey all that this simple +phrase meant to me. For two months I had been living in a dull apathy of +pain, but this news galvanised me into immediate action. + +For although there were many degrees of dance-hall depravity, at the +best it meant a brand of ineffaceable shame. She had lived with Locasto, +had been recognised as his mistress--that was bad enough; but the +other--to be at the mercy of all, to be classed with the harpies that +preyed on the Man with the Poke, the vampires of the gold-camp. +Berna-- Oh, it was unspeakable! The thought maddened me. The +needle-point of suffering that for weeks had been boring into my brain +seemed to have pierced its core at last. + +When the Prodigal expostulated with me I laughed--a bitter, mirthless +laugh. + +"I'm going to Dawson," I said, "and if it was hell itself, I'd go there +for that girl. I don't care what any one thinks. Home, society, honour +itself, let them all go; they don't matter now. I was a fool to think I +could ever give her up, a fool. Now I know that as long as there's life +and strength in my body, I'll fight for her. Oh, I'm not the +sentimentalist I was six months ago. I've lived since then. I can hold +my own now. I can meet men on their own level. I can fight, I can win. +I don't care any more, after what I've gone through. I don't set any +particular value on my life. I'll throw it away as recklessly as the +best of them. I'm going to have a fierce fight for that girl, and if I +lose there'll be no more 'me' left to fight. Don't try to reason with +me. Reason be damned! I'm going to Dawson, and a hundred men couldn't +hold me." + +"You seem to have some new stunts in your repertoire," he said, looking +at me curiously; "you've got me guessing. Sometimes I think you're a +candidate for the dippy-house, then again I think you're on to yourself. +There's a grim set to your mouth and a hard look in your eyes that I +didn't use to see. Maybe you can hold up your end. Well, anyway, if you +will go I wish you good luck." + +So, bidding good-bye to the big cabin, with my two partners looking +ruefully after me, I struck off down Bonanza. It was mid-October. A +bitter wind chilled me to the marrow. Once more the land lay stark +beneath its coverlet of snow, and the sky was wan and ominous. I +travelled fast, for a painful anxiety gripped me, so that I scarce took +notice of the improved trail, of the increased activity, of the heaps of +tailings built up with brush till they looked like walls of a +fortification. All I thought of was Dawson and Berna. + +How curious it was, this strange new strength, this indifference to +self, to physical suffering, to danger, to public opinion! I thought +only of the girl. I would make her marry me. I cared nothing for what +had happened to her. I might be a pariah, an outcast for the rest of my +days; at least I would save her, shield her, cherish her. The thought +uplifted me, exalted me. I had suffered beyond expression. I had +rearranged my set of ideas; my concept of life, of human nature, had +broadened and deepened. What did it matter if physically they had +wronged her? Was not the pure, virgin soul of her beyond their reach? + +I was just in time to see the last boat go out. Already the river was +"throwing ice," and every day the jagged edges of it crept further +towards midstream. An immense and melancholy mob stood on the wharf as +the little steamer backed off into the channel. There were uproarious +souls on board, and many women of the town screaming farewells to their +friends. On the boat all was excited, extravagant joy; on the wharf, a +sorry attempt at resignation. + +The last boat! they watched her as her stern paddle churned the freezing +water; they watched her forge her slow way through the ever-thickening +ice-flakes; they watched her in the far distance battling with the +Klondike current; then, sad and despondent, they turned away to their +lonely cabins. Never had their exile seemed so bitter. A few more days +and the river would close tight as a drum. The long, long night would +fall on them, and for nigh on eight weary months they would be cut off +from the outside world. + +Yet soon, very soon, a mood of reconciliation would set in. They would +begin to make the best of things. To feed that great Octopus, the town, +the miners would flock in from the creeks with treasure hoarded up in +baking-powder tins; the dance-halls and gambling-places would absorb +them; the gaiety would go on full swing, and there would seem but little +change in the glittering abandon of the gold-camp. As I paced its +sidewalks once more I marvelled at its growth. New streets had been +made; the stores boasted expensive fittings and gloried in costly goods; +in the bar-rooms were splendid mirrors and ornate woodwork; the +restaurants offered European delicacies; all was on a new scale of +extravagance, of garish display, of insolent wealth. + +Everywhere the man with the fat "poke" was in evidence. He came into +town unshorn, wild-looking, often raggedly clad, yet always with the +same wistful hunger in his eyes. You saw that look, and it took you back +to the dark and dirt and drudgery of the claim, the mirthless months of +toil, the crude cabin with its sugar barrel of ice behind the door, its +grease light dimly burning, its rancid smell of stale food. You saw him +lying smoking his strong pipe, looking at that can of nuggets on the +rough shelf, and dreaming of what it would mean to him--out there where +the lights glittered and the gramophones blared. Surely, if patience, +endurance, if grim, unswerving purpose, if sullen, desperate toil +deserved a reward, this man had a peckful of pleasure for his due. + +And always that hungry, wistful look. The women with the painted cheeks +knew that look; the black-jack boosters knew it; the barkeeper with his +knock-out drops knew it. They waited for him; he was their "meat." + +Yet in a few days your wild and woolly man is transformed, and no longer +does your sympathy go out towards him. Shaven and shorn, clad in silken +underwear, with patent leather shoes, and a suit in New York style, you +absolutely fail to recognise him as your friend of the moccasins and +mackinaw coat. He is smoking a dollar Laranago, he has half a dozen +whiskies "under his belt," and later on he has a "date" with a lady +singer of the Pavilion Theatre. He is having a "whale" of a good time, +he tells you; you wonder how long he will last. + +Not for long. Sharp and short and sweet it is. He is brought up with a +jerk, and the Dago Queen, for whom he has bought so much wine at twenty +dollars a bottle, has no recognition for him in her flashing eyes. He +has been "taken down the line," "trimmed to a finish" by an artist in +the business. Ruefully he turns his poke inside out--not a "colour." He +cannot even command the price of a penitential three-fingers of rye. +Such is one of the commonest phases of life in the gold-camp. + +As I strolled the streets I saw many a familiar face. Mosher I saw. He +had grown very fat, and was talking to a diminutive woman with heavy +blond hair (she must have weighed about ninety-five pounds, I think). +They went off together. + +A knife-edged wind was sweeping down from the north, and men in bulging +coonskin coats filled up the sidewalks. At the Aurora corner I came +across the Jam-wagon. He was wearing a jacket of summer flannels, and, +as if to suggest extra warmth, he had turned up its narrow collar. In +his trembling fingers he held an emaciated cigarette, which he inhaled +avidly. He looked wretched, pinched with hunger, peaked with cold, but +he straightened up when he saw me into a semblance of well-being. Then, +in a little, he sagged forward, and his eyes went dull and abject. It +was a business of the utmost delicacy to induce him to accept a small +loan. I knew it would only plunge him more deeply into the mire; but I +could not bear to see him suffer. + +I went into the Parisian Restaurant. It was more glittering, more +raffish, more clamant of the tenderloin than ever. There were men +waiters in the conventional garb of waiterdom, and there was Madam, +harder looking and more vulturish. You wondered if such a woman could +have a soul, and what was the end and aim of her being. There she sat, a +creature of rapacity and sordid lust. I marched up to her and asked +abruptly: + +"Where's Berna?" + +She gave a violent start. There was a quality of fear in her bold eyes. +Then she laughed, a hard, jarring laugh. + +"In the Tivoli," she said. + +Strange again! Now that the worst had come to pass, and I had suffered +all that it was in my power to suffer, this new sense of strength and +mastery had come to me. It seemed as if some of the iron spirit of the +land had gotten into my blood, a grim, insolent spirit that made me +fearless; at times a cold cynical spirit, a spirit of rebellion, of +anarchy, of aggression. The greatest evil had befallen me. Life could do +no more to harm me. I had everything to gain and nothing to lose. I +cared for no man. I despised them, and, to back me in my bitterness, I +had twenty-five thousand dollars in the bank. + +I was still weak from my illness and my long mush had wearied me, so I +went into a saloon and called for drinks. I felt the raw whisky burn my +throat. I tingled from head to foot with a strange, pleasing warmth. +Suddenly the bar, with its protecting rod of brass, seemed to me a very +desirable place, bright, warm, suggestive of comfort and +good-fellowship. How agreeably every one was smiling! Indeed, some were +laughing for sheer joy. A big, merry-hearted miner called for another +round, and I joined in. + +Where was that bitter feeling now? Where that morbid pain at my heart? +As I drank it all seemed to pass away. Magical change! What a fool I +was! What was there to make such a fuss about? Take life easy. Laugh +alike at the good and bad of it. It was all a farce anyway. What would +it matter a hundred years from now? Why were we put into this world to +be tortured? I, for one, would protest. I would writhe no more in the +strait-jacket of existence. Here was escape, heartsease, happiness--here +in this bottled impishness. Again I drank. + +What a rotten world it all was! But I had no hand in the making of it, +and it wasn't my task to improve it. I was going to get the best I could +out of it. Eat, drink and be merry, that was the last word of +philosophy. Others seemed to be able to extract all kinds of happiness +from things as they are, so why not I? In any case, here was the +solution of my troubles. Better to die happily drunk than miserably +sober. I was not drinking from weakness. Oh no! I was drinking with +deliberate intent to kill pain. + +How wonderfully strong I felt! I smashed my clenched fist against the +bar. My knuckles were bruised and bleeding, but I felt no pain. I was so +light of foot, I imagined I could jump over the counter. I ached to +fight some one. Then all at once came the thought of Berna. It came with +tragical suddenness, with poignant force. Intensely it smote me as never +before. I could have burst into maudlin tears. + +"What's the matter, Slim?" asked a mouldy mannikin, affectionately +hanging on to my arm. + +Disgustedly I looked at him. + +"Take your filthy paws off me," I said. + +His jaw dropped and he stared at me. Then, before he could draw on his +fund of profanity, I burst through the throng and made for the door. + +I was drunk, deplorably drunk, and I was bound for the Tivoli. + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +I wish it to be understood that I make no excuses for myself at this +particular stage of my chronicle. I am only conscious of a desire to +tell the truth. Many of the stronger-minded will no doubt condemn me; +many of those inclined to a rigid system of morality will be disgusted +with me; but, however it may be, I will write plainly and without +reserve. + +When I reeled out of the Grubstake Saloon I was in a peculiar state of +exaltation. No longer was I conscious of the rasping cold, and it seemed +to me I could have couched me in the deep snow as cosily as in a bed of +down. Surpassingly brilliant were the lights. They seemed to convey to +me a portentous wink. They twinkled with jovial cheer. What a desirable +place the world was, after all! + +With an ebullient sense of eloquence, of extravagant oratory, I longed +for a sympathetic ear. An altruistic emotion pervaded me. Who would +suspect, thought I, as I walked a little too circumspectly amid the +throng, that my heart was aglow, that I was tensing my muscles in the +pride of their fitness, that my brain was a bewildering kaleidoscope of +thoughts and images? + +Gramophones were braying in every conceivable key. Brazen women were +leering at me. Potbellied men regarded me furtively. Alluringly the +gambling-dens and dancing-dives invited me. The town was a giant spider +drawing in its prey, and I was the prey, it seemed. Others there were in +plenty, men with the eager, wistful eyes; but who was there so eager and +wistful as I? And I didn't care any more. Strike up the music! On with +the dance! Only one life have we to live. Ah! there was the Tivoli. + +To the right as I entered was a palatial bar set off with burnished +brass, bevelled mirrors and glittering, vari-coloured pyramids of costly +liqueurs. Up to the bar men were bellying, and the bartenders in white +jackets were mixing drinks with masterly dexterity. It was a motley +crowd. There were men in broadcloth and fine linen, men in blue shirts +and mud-stiffened overalls, grey-bearded elders and beardless boys. It +was a noisy crowd, laughing, brawling, shouting, singing. Here was the +foam of life, with never a hint of the muddy sediment underneath. + +To the left I had a view of the gambling-room, a glimpse of green +tables, of spinning balls, of cool men, with shades over their eyes, +impassively dealing. There were huge wheels of fortune, keno tables, +crap outfits, faro layouts, and, above all, the dainty, fascinating +roulette. Everything was in full swing. Miners with flushed faces and a +wild excitement in their eyes were plunging recklessly; others, calm, +alert, anxious, were playing cautiously. Here and there were the fevered +faces of women. Gold coin was stacked on the tables, while a man with a +pair of scales was weighing dust from the tendered pokes. + +In front of me was a double swing-door painted in white and gold, and, +pushing through this, for the first time I found myself in a Dawson +dance-hall. + +I remember being struck by the gorgeousness of it, its glitter and its +glow. Who would have expected, up in this bleak-visaged North, to find +such a fairyland of a place? It was painted in white and gold, and set +off by clusters of bunched lights. There was much elaborate scroll-work +and ornate decoration. Down each side, raised about ten feet from the +floor, and supported on gilt pillars, were little private boxes hung +with curtains of heliotrope silk. At the further end of the hall was a +stage, and here a vaudeville performance was going on. + +I sat down on a seat at the very back of the audience. Before me were +row after row of heads, mostly rough, rugged and unwashed. Their faces +were eager, rapt as those of children. They were enjoying, with the deep +satisfaction of men who for many a weary month had been breathing the +free, unbranded air of the Wild. The sensuous odour of patchouli was +strangely pleasant to them; the sight of a woman was thrillingly sweet; +the sound of a song was ravishing. Looking at many of those toil-grooved +faces one could see that there was no harm in their hearts. They were +honest, uncouth, simple; they were just like children, the children of +the Wild. + +A woman of generous physique was singing in a shrill, nasal voice a +pathetic ballad. She sang without expression, bringing her hands with +monotonous gestures alternately to her breast. Her squat, matronly +figure, beef from the heels up, looked singularly absurd in her short +skirt. Her face was excessively over-painted, her mouth good-naturedly +large, and her eyes out of their slit-like lids leered at the audience. + +"Ain't she great?" said a tall bean-pole of a man on my right, as she +finished off with a round of applause. "There's some class to her work." + +He looked at me in a confidential way, and his pale-blue eyes were full +of rapturous appreciation. Then he did something that surprised me. He +tugged open his poke and, dipping into it, he produced a big nugget. +Twisting this in a scrap of paper, he rose up, long, lean and awkward, +and with careful aim he threw it on the stage. + +"Here ye are, Lulu," he piped in his shrill voice. The woman, turning in +her exit, picked up the offering, gave her admirer a wide, gold-toothed +smile, and threw him an emphatic kiss. As the man sat down I could see +his mouth twisting with excitement, and his watery blue eyes snapped +with pleasure. + +"By heck," he said, "she's great, ain't she? Many's the bottle of wine +I've opened for that there girl. Guess she'll be glad when she hears old +Henry's in town again. Henry's my name, Hard-pan Henry they call me, an' +I've got a claim on Hunker. Many's the wallopin' poke have I toted into +town an' blowed in on that there girl. An' I just guess this one'll go +the same gait. Well, says I, what's the odds? I'm havin' a good time +for my money. When it's gone there's lots more in the ground. It ain't +got no legs. It can't run away." + +He chuckled and hefted his poke in a horny hand. There was a flutter of +the heliotrope curtains, and the face of Lulu, peeping over the plush +edge of a box, smiled bewitchingly upon him. With another delighted +chuckle the old man went to join her. + +"Darned old fool," said a young man on my left. He looked as if his +veins were chuckful of health; his skin was as clear as a girl's, his +eye honest and fearless. He was dressed in mackinaw, and wore a fur cap +with drooping ear-flaps. + +"He's the greatest mark in the country," the Youth went on. "He's got no +more brains than God gave geese. All the girls are on to him. Before he +can turn round that old bat up there will have him trimmed to a finish. +He'll be doing flip-flaps, and singing ''Way Down on the Suwanee River' +standing on his head. Then the girl will pry him loose from his poke, +and to-morrow he'll start off up the creek, teetering and swearing he's +had a dooce of a good time. He's the easiest thing on earth." + +The Youth paused to look on a new singer. She was a soubrette, trim, +dainty and confident. She wore a blond wig, and her eyes in their pits +of black were alluringly bright. Paint was lavished on her face in +violent dabs of rose and white, and the inevitable gold teeth gleamed in +her smile. She wore a black dress trimmed with sequins, stockings of +black, a black velvet band around her slim neck. She was greeted with +much applause, and she began to sing in a fairly sweet voice. + +"That's Nellie Lestrange," said the Youth. "She's a great +rustler--Touch-the-button-Nell, they call her. They say that when she +gets a jay into a box it's all day with him. She's such a nifty +wine-winner the end of her thumb's calloused pressing the button for +fresh bottles." + +Touch-the-button-Nell was singing a comic ditty of a convivial order. +She put into it much vivacity, appealing to the audience to join in the +chorus with a pleading, "Now all together, boys." She had tripping steps +and dainty kicks that went well with the melody. When she went off half +a dozen men rose in their places, and aimed nuggets at her. She captured +them, then, with a final saucy flounce of her skirt, made her smiling +exit. + +"By Gosh!" said the Youth, "I wonder these fellows haven't got more +savvy. You wouldn't catch _me_ chucking away an ounce on one of those +fairies. No, sir! Nothing doing! I've got a five-thousand-dollar poke in +the bank, and to-morrow I'll be on my way outside with a draft for every +cent of it. A certain little farm 'way back in Vermont looks pretty good +to me, and a little girl that don't know the use of face powder, bless +her. She's waiting for me." + +The excitement of the liquor had died away in me, and what with the heat +and smoke of the place, I was becoming very drowsy. I was almost dozing +off to sleep when some one touched me on the arm. It was a negro waiter +I had seen dodging in and out of the boxes, and known as the Black +Prince. + +"Dey's a lady up'n de box wants to speak with yuh, sah," he said +politely. + +"Who is it?" I asked in surprise. + +"Miss Labelle, sah, Miss Birdie Labelle." + +I started. Who in the Klondike had not heard of Birdie Labelle, the +eldest of the three sisters, who married Stillwater Willie? A thought +flashed through me that she could tell me something of Berna. + +"All right," I said; "I'll come." + +I followed him upstairs, and in a moment I was ushered into the presence +of the famous soubrette. + +"Hullo, kid!" she exclaimed, "sit down. I saw you in the audience and +kind-a took a notion to your face. How d'ye do?" + +She extended a heavily bejewelled hand. She was plump, pleasant-looking, +with a piquant smile and flaxen hair. I ordered the waiter to bring her +a bottle of wine. + +"I've heard a lot about you," I said tentatively. + +"Yes, I guess so," she answered. "Most folks have up here. It's a sort +of reflected glory. I guess if it hadn't been for Bill I'd never have +got into the limelight at all." + +She sipped her champagne thoughtfully. + +"I came in here in '97, and it was then I met Bill. He was there with +the coin all right. We got hitched up pretty quick, but he was such a +mut I soon got sick of him. Then I got skating round with another guy. +Well, an egg famine came along. There was only nine hundred samples of +hen fruit in town, and one store had a corner on them. I went down to +buy some. Lord! how I wanted them eggs. I kept thinking how I'd have +them done, shipwrecked, two on a raft or sunny side up, when who should +come along but Bill. He sees what I want, and quick as a flash what does +he do but buy up the whole bunch at a dollar apiece! 'Now,' says he to +me, 'if you want eggs for breakfast just come home where you belong.' + +"Well, say, I was just dying for them eggs, so I comes to my milk like a +lady. I goes home with Bill." + +She shook her head sadly, and once more I filled up her glass. + +She prattled on with many a gracious smile, and I ordered another bottle +of wine. In the next box I could hear the squeaky laugh of Hard-pan +Henry and the teasing tones of his inamorata. The visits of the Black +Prince to this box with fresh bottles had been fast and furious, and at +last I heard the woman cry in a querulous voice: "Say, that black man +coming in so often gives me a pain. Why don't you order a case?" + +Then the man broke in with his senile laugh: + +"All right, Lulu, whatever you say goes. Say, Prince, tote along a case, +will you?" + +Surely, thought I, there's no fool like an old fool. + +A little girl was singing, a little, winsome girl with a sweet childish +voice and an innocent face. How terribly out of place she looked in that +palace of sin. She sang a simple, old-world song full of homely pathos +and gentle feeling. As she sang she looked down on those furrowed faces, +and I saw that many eyes were dimmed with tears. The rough men listened +in rapt silence as the childish treble rang out: + + "Darling, I am growing old; + Silver threads among the gold + Shine upon my brow to-day; + Life is fading fast away." + +Then from behind the scenes a pure alto joined in and the two voices, +blending in exquisite harmony, went on: + + "But, my darling, you will be, will be, + Always young and fair to me. + Yes, my darling, you will be + Always young and fair to me." + +As the last echo died away the audience rose as one man, and a shower of +nuggets pelted on the stage. Here was something that touched their +hearts, stirred in them strange memories of tenderness, brought before +them half-forgotten scenes of fireside happiness. + +"It's a shame to let that kid work in the halls," said Miss Labelle. +There were tears in her eyes, too, and she hurriedly blinked them away. + +Then the curtain fell. Men were clearing the floor for the dance, so, +bidding the lady adieu, I went downstairs. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +I found the Youth awaiting me. + +"Say, pardner," said he, "I was just getting a bit anxious about you. I +thought sure that fairy had you in tow for a sucker. I'm going to stay +right with you, and you're not going to shake me. See!" + +"All right," I said; "come on and we'll watch the dance." + +So we got in the front row of spectators, while behind us the crowd +packed as closely as matches in a box. The champagne I had taken had +again aroused in me that vivid sense of joy and strength and colour. +Again the lights were effulgent, the music witching, the women divine. +As I swayed a little I clutched unsteadily at the Youth. He looked at me +curiously. + +"Brace up, old man," he said. "Guess you're not often in town. You're +not much used to the dance-hall racket." + +"No," I assured him. + +"Well," he continued, "it's the rottenest game ever. I've seen more poor +beggars put plumb out of business by the dance-halls than by all the +saloons and gambling-joints put together. It's the game of catching the +sucker brought to the point of perfection, and there's very few cases +where it fails." + +He perceived I was listening earnestly, and he warmed up to his +subject. + +"You see, the boys get in after they've been out on the claim for six +months at a stretch, and town looks mighty good to them. The music +sounds awful nice, and the women, well, they look just like angels. The +boys are all right, but they've got that mad craving for the sight of a +woman a man gets after he's been off out in the Wild, and these women +have got the captivation of men down to a fine art. Once one of them +gets to looking at you with eyes that eat right into you, and soft white +hands, and pretty coaxing ways, well, it's mighty hard to hold back. A +man's a fool to come near these places if he's got a poke--'cept, like +me, he knows the ropes and he's right onto himself." + +The Youth said this with quite a complacent air. He went on: + +"These girls work on a percentage basis. You'll notice every time you +buy them a drink the waiter gives them a check. That means that when the +night's over they cash in and get twenty-five per cent, of the money +you've spent on them. That's how they're so keen on ordering fresh +bottles. Sometimes they'll say a bottle's gone flat before it's empty, +and have you order another. Or else they'll pour half of it into the +cuspidor when you're not looking. Then, when you get too full to notice +the difference, they'll run in ginger ale on you. Or else they'll get +you ordering by the case, and have half a dozen dummy bottles in it. Oh, +there's all kinds of schemes these box rustlers are on to. When you pay +for a drink you toss over your poke, and they take the price out. Do you +think they're particular to a quarter ounce or so? No, sir! and you +always get the short end of it. It's a bad game to go up against." + +The Youth looked at me as though proud of his superior sophistication. + +The floor was cleared. Girls were now coming from behind the stage, +preening themselves and chaffing with the crowd. The orchestra struck up +some jubilant ragtime that set the heart dancing and the heels tapping +in tune. Brighter than ever seemed the lights; more dazzling the white +and gilt of the walls. Some of the girls were balancing lightly to a +waltz rhythm. There was a witching grace in their movements, and the +Youth watched them intently. He looked down at his feet clad in old +moccasins. + +"Gee, I'd like just to have one spin," he said; "just one before I leave +the darned old country for good. I was always crazy about dancing. I'd +ride thirty miles to attend a dance back home." + +His eyes grew very wistful. Suddenly the music stopped and the +floor-master came forward. He was a tall, dark man with a rich and +vibrant baritone voice. + +"That's the best spieler in the Yukon," said the Youth. + +"Come on, boys," boomed the spieler. "Look alive there. Don't keep the +ladies waiting. Take your hands out of your pockets and get in the game. +Just going to begin, a dreamy waltz or a nice juicy two-step, whichever +you prefer. Hey, professor, strike up that waltz!" + +Once more the music swelled out. + +"How's that, boys? Doesn't that make your feet like feathers? Come on, +boys! Here you are for the nice, glossy floor and the nice, flossy +girls. Here you are! Here you are! That's right, select your partners! +Swing your honeys! Hurry up there! Just a-goin' to begin. What's the +matter with you fellows? Wake up! a dance won't break you. Come on! +don't be a cheap skate. The girls are fine, fit and fairy-like, the +music's swell and the floor's elegant. Come on, boys!" + +There was a compelling power in his voice, and already a number of +couples were waltzing round. The women were exquisite in their grace and +springy lightness. They talked as they danced, gazing with languishing +eyes and siren smiles at the man of the moment. + +Some of them, who had not got partners, were picking out individuals +from the crowd and coaxing them to come forward. A drunken fellow +staggered onto the floor and grabbed a girl. She was young, dainty and +pretty, but she showed no repugnance for him. Round and round he +cavorted, singing and whooping, a wild, weird object; when, suddenly, he +tripped and fell, bringing her down with him. The crowd roared; but the +girl good-naturedly picked him up, and led him off to the bar. + +A man in a greasy canvas suit with mucklucks on his feet had gone onto +the floor. His hair was long and matted, his beard wild and rank. He +was dancing vehemently, and there was the glitter of wild excitement in +his eyes. He looked as if he had not bathed for years, but again I could +see no repulsion in the face of the handsome brunette with whom he was +waltzing. Dance after dance they had together, locked in each other's +arms. + +"That's a 'live one,'" said the Youth. "He's just come in from Dominion +with a hundred ounces, and it won't last him over the night. Amber, +there, will get it all. She won't let the other girls go near. He's her +game." + +Between dances the men promenaded to the bar and treated their +companions to a drink. In the same free, trusting way they threw over +their pokes to the bartender and had the price weighed out. The dances +were very short, and the drinks very frequent. + +Madder and madder grew the merriment. The air was hot; the odour of +patchouli mingled with the stench of stale garments and the reek of +alcohol. Men dripping with sweat whirled round in wild gyrations. Some +of them danced beautifully; some merely shuffled over the floor. It did +not make any difference to the girls. They were superbly muscular and +used to the dragging efforts of novices. After a visit to the bar back +they came once more, licking their lips, and fell to with fresh energy. + +There was no need to beg the crowd now. A wave of excitement seemed to +have swept over them. They clamoured to get a dance. The "live one" +whooped and pranced on his wild career, while Amber steered him calmly +through the mazes of the waltz. Touch-the-button-Nell was talking to a +tall fair-moustached man whom I recognised as a black-jack booster. +Suddenly she left him and came over to us. She went up to the Youth. + +She had discarded her blond wig, and her pretty brown hair parted in the +middle and rippled behind her ears. Her large violet-blue eyes had a +devouring look that would stir the pulse of a saint. She accosted the +Youth with a smile of particular witchery. + +"Say, kid, won't you come and have a two-step with me? I've been looking +at you for the last half-hour and wishing you'd ask me." + +The Youth had advised me: "If any of them asks you, tell them to go to +the devil;" but now he looked at her and his boyish face flushed. + +"Nothing doing," he said stoutly. + +"Oh, come now," she pleaded; "honest to goodness, kid, I've turned down +the other fellow for you. You won't refuse me, will you? Come on; just +one, sweetheart." + +She was holding the lapels of his coat and dragging him gently forward. +I could see him biting his lip in embarrassment. + +"No, thanks, I'm sorry," he stammered. "I don't know how to dance. +Besides, I've got no money." + +She grew more coaxing. + +"Never mind about the coin, honey. Come on, have one on me. Don't turn +me down, I've taken such a notion to you. Come on now; just one turn." + +I watched his face. His eyes clouded with emotion, and I knew the +psychology of it. He was thinking: + +"Just one--surely it wouldn't hurt. Surely I'm man enough to trust +myself, to know when to quit. Oh, lordy, wouldn't it be sweet just to +get my arm round a woman's waist once more! The sight of them's honey to +me; surely it wouldn't matter. One round and I'll shake her and go +home." + +The hesitation was fatal. By an irresistible magnetism the Youth was +drawn to this woman whose business it ever was to lure and beguile. By +her siren strength she conquered him as she had conquered many another, +and as she led him off there was a look of triumph on her face. Poor +Youth! At the end of the dance he did not go home, nor did he "shake" +her. He had another and another and another. The excitement began to +paint his cheeks, the drink to stoke wild fires in his eyes. As I stood +deserted I tried to attract him, to get him back; but he no longer +heeded me. + +"I don't see the Madonna to-night," said a little, dark individual in +spectacles. Somehow he looked to me like a newspaper man "chasing" copy. + +"No," said one of the girls; "she ain't workin'. She's sick; she don't +take very kindly to the business, somehow. Don't seem to get broke in +easy. She's funny, poor kid." + +Carelessly they went on to talk of other things, while I stood there +gasping, staring, sick at heart. All my vinous joy was gone, leaving me +a haggard, weary wretch of a man, disenchanted and miserable to the +verge of--what? I shuddered. The lights seemed to have gone blurred and +dim. The hall was tawdry, cheap and vulgar. The women, who but a moment +before had seemed creatures of grace and charm, were now nothing more +than painted, posturing harridans, their seductive smiles the leers of +shameless sin. + +And this was a Dawson dance-hall, the trump card in the nightly game of +despoliation. Dance-halls, saloons, gambling-dens, brothels, the heart +of the town was a cancer, a hive of iniquity. Here had flocked the most +rapacious of gamblers, the most beautiful and unscrupulous women on the +Pacific slope. Here in the gold-born city they waited for their prey, +the Man with the Poke. Back there in the silent Wild, with pain and +bloody sweat, he toiled for them. Sooner or later must he come within +reach of their talons to be fleeced, flouted and despoiled. It was an +organised system of sharpers, thugs, harpies, and birds of prey of every +kind. It was a blot on the map. It was a great whirlpool, and the eddy +of it encircled the furthest outpost of the golden valley. It was a +vortex of destruction, of ruin and shame. And here was I, hovering on +its brink, likely to be soon sucked down into its depths. + +I pressed my way to the door, and stood there staring and swaying, but +whether with wine or weakness I knew not. In the vociferous and +flamboyant street I could hear the raucous voices of the spielers, the +jigging tunes of the orchestras, the click of ivory balls, the popping +of corks, the hoarse, animal laughter of men, the shrill, inane giggles +of women. Day and night the game went on without abatement, the game of +despoliation. + +And I was on the verge of the vortex. Memories of Glengyle, the laughing +of the silver-scaled sea, the tawny fisher-lads with their honest eyes, +the herring glittering like jewels in the brown nets, the women with +their round health-hued cheeks and motherly eyes. Oh, Home, with your +peace and rest and content, can you not save me from this? + +And as I stood there wretchedly a timid little hand touched my arm. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +It is odd how people who have been parted a weary while, yet who have +thought of each other constantly, will often meet with as little show of +feeling as if they had but yesterday bid good-bye. I looked at her and +she at me, and I don't think either of us betrayed any emotion. Yet must +we both have been infinitely moved. + +She was changed, desperately, pitifully changed. All the old sweetness +was there, that pathetic sweetness which had made the miners call her +the Madonna; but alas, forever gone from her was the fragrant flower of +girlhood. Her pallor was excessive, and the softness had vanished out of +her face, leaving there only lines of suffering. Sorrow had kindled in +her grey eyes a spiritual lustre, a shining, tearless brightness. Ah me, +sad, sad, indeed, was the change in her! + +So she looked at me, a long and level look in which I could see neither +love nor hate. The bright, grey eyes were clear and steady, and the +pinched and pitiful lips did not quiver. And as I gazed on her I felt +that nothing ever would be the same again. Love could no more be the +radiant spirit of old, the prompter of impassioned words, the painter of +bewitching scenes. Never again could we feel the world recede from us as +we poised on bright wings of fancy; never again compare our joy with +that of the heaven-born; never again welcome that pure ideal that comes +to youth alone, and that pitifully dies in the disenchantment of graver +days. We could sacrifice all things for each other; joy and grieve for +each other; live and die for each other,--but the Hope, the Dream, the +exaltation of love's dawn, the peerless white glory of it--had gone from +us forever and forever. + +Her lips moved: + +"How you have changed!" + +"Yes, Berna, I have been ill. But you, you too have changed." + +"Yes," she said very slowly. "I have been--dead." + +There was no faltering in her voice, never a throb of pathos. It was +like the voice of one who has given up all hope, the voice of one who +has arisen from the grave. In that cold mask of a face I could see no +glimmer of the old-time joy, the joy of the season when wild roses were +aglow. We both were silent, two pitifully cold beings, while about us +the howling bedlam of pleasure-plotters surged and seethed. + +"Come upstairs where we can talk," said she. So we sat down in one of +the boxes, while a great freezing shadow seemed to fall and wrap us +around. It was so strange, this silence between us. We were like two +pale ghosts meeting in the misty gulfs beyond the grave. + +"And why did you not come?" she asked. + +"Come--I tried to come." + +"But you did not." Her tone was measured, her face averted. + +"I would have sold my soul to come. I was ill, desperately ill, nigh to +death. I was in the hospital. For two weeks I was delirious, raving of +you, trying to get to you, making myself a hundred times worse because +of you. But what could I do? No man could have been more helpless. I was +out of my mind, weak as a child, fighting for my life. That was why I +did not come." + +When I began to speak she started. As I went on she drew a quick, +choking breath. Then she listened ever so intently, and when I had +finished a great change came over her. Her eyes stared glassily, her +head dropped, her hands clutched at the chair, she seemed nigh to +fainting. When she spoke her voice was like a whisper. + +"And they lied to me. They told me you were too eager gold-getting to +think of me; that you were in love with some other woman out there; that +you cared no more for me. They lied to me. Well, it's too late now." + +She laughed, and the once tuneful voice was harsh and grating. Still +were her eyes blank with misery. Again and again she murmured: "Too +late, too late." + +Quietly I sat and watched her, yet in my heart was a vast storm of +agony. I longed to comfort her, to kiss that face so white and worn and +weariful, to bring tears to those hopeless eyes. There seemed to grow +in me a greater hunger for the girl than ever before, a longing to bring +joy to her again, to make her forget. What did it all matter? She was +still my love. I yearned for her. We both had suffered, both been +through the furnace. Surely from it would come the love that passeth +understanding. We would rear no lily walls, but out of our pain would we +build an abiding place that would outlast the tomb. + +"Berna," I said, "it is not too late." + +There was a desperate bitterness in her face. "Yes, yes, it is. You do +not understand. You--it's all right for you, you are blameless; but +I----" + +"You too are blameless, dear. We have both been miserably duped. Never +mind, Berna, we will forget all. I love you, Oh how much I never can +tell you, girl! Come, let us forget and go away and be happy." + +It seemed as if my every word was like a stab to her. The sweet face was +tragically wretched. + +"Oh no," she answered, "it can never be. You think it can, but it can't. +You could not forget. I could not forget. We would both be thinking; +always, always torturing each other. To you the thought would be like a +knife thrust, and the more you loved me the deeper would pierce its +blade. And I, too, can you not realise how fearfully I would look at +you, always knowing you were thinking of THAT, and what an agony it +would be to me to watch your agony? Our home would be a haunted one, a +place of ghosts. Never again can there be joy between you and me. It's +too late, too late!" + +She was choking back the sobs now, but still the tears did not come. + +"Berna," I said gently, "I think I could forget. Please give me a chance +to prove it. Other men have forgotten. I know it was not your fault. I +know that spiritually you are the same pure girl you were before. You +are an angel, dear; my angel." + +"No, I was not to blame. When you failed to come I grew desperate. When +I wrote you and still you failed to come I was almost distracted. Night +and day he was persecuting me. The others gave me no peace. If ever a +poor girl was hounded to dishonour I was. Yet I had made up my mind to +die rather than yield. Oh, it's too horrible." + +She shuddered. + +"Never mind, dear, don't tell me about it." + +"When I awoke to life sick, sick for many days, I wanted to die, but I +could not. There seemed to be nothing for it but to stay on there. I was +so weak, so ill, so indifferent to everything that it did not seem to +matter. That was where I made my mistake. I should have killed myself. +Oh, there's something in us all that makes us cling to life in spite of +shame! But I would never let him come near me again. You believe me, +don't you?" + +"I believe you." + +"And though, when he went away, I've gone into this life, there's never +been any one else. I've danced with them, laughed with them, but that's +all. You believe me?" + +"Yes, dear." + +"Thank God for that! And now we must say good-bye." + +"_Good-bye?_" + +"I said--good-bye. I would not spoil your life. You know how proud I am, +how sensitive. I would not give you such as I. Once I would have given +myself to you gladly, but now--please go away." + +"Impossible." + +"No, the other is impossible. You don't know what these things mean to a +woman. Leave me, please." + +"Leave you--to what?" + +"To death, ruin--I don't know what. If I'm strong enough I will die. If +I am weak I will sink in the mire. Oh, and I am only a girl too, a young +girl!" + +"Berna, will you marry me?" + +"No! No! No!" + +"Berna, I will never leave you. Here I tell you frankly, plainly, I +don't know whether or not you still love me--you haven't said a word to +show it--but I know I love you, and I will love you as long as life +lasts. I will never leave you. Listen to me, dear: let us go away, far, +far away. You will forget, I will forget. It will never be the same, but +perhaps it will be better, greater than before. Come with me, O my love! +Have pity on me, Berna, have pity. Marry me. Be my wife." + +She merely shook her head, sitting there cold as a stone. + +"Then," I said, "if you call yourself dishonoured, I too will become +dishonoured. If you choose to sink in the mire, I too will sink. We will +go down together, you and I. Oh, I would rather sink with you, dear, +than rise with the angels. You have chosen--well, I too have chosen. We +stand on the edge of the vortex, now will we plunge down. You will see +me steep myself in shame, then when I am a hundred shades blacker than +you can ever hope to be, my angel, you will stoop and pity me. Oh, I +don't care any more. I've played the fool too long; now I'll play the +devil, and you'll stand by and watch me. Sometimes it's nice to make +those we love suffer, isn't it? I would break my arm to make you feel +sorry for me. But now you'll see me in the vortex. We'll go down +together, dear. Hand in hand hell-ward we'll go down, we'll go down." + +She was looking at me in a frightened way. A madness seemed to have +gotten into me. + +"Berna, you're on the dance-halls. You're at the mercy of the vilest +wretch that's got an ounce of gold in his filthy poke. They can buy you +as they buy white flesh everywhere on earth. You must dance with them, +drink with them, go away with them. Berna, I can buy you. Come, dance +with me, drink with me. We'll live, live. We'll eat, drink and be merry. +On with the dance! Oh, for the joy of life! Since you'll not be my love +you'll be my light-of-love. Come, Berna, come!" + +I paused. With her head lying on the cushioned edge of the box she was +crying. The plush was streaky with her tears. + +"Will you come?" I asked again. + +She did not move. + +"Then," said I, "there are others, and I have money, lots of it. I can +buy them. I am going down into the vortex. Look on and watch me." + +I left her crying. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +It is with shame I write the following pages. Would I could blot them +out of my life. To this day there must be many who remember my meteoric +career in the firmament of fast life. It did not last long, but in less +than a week I managed to squander a small fortune. + +Those were the days when Dawson might fitly have been called the +dissolute. It was the regime of the dance-hall girl, and the taint of +the tenderloin was over the town. So far there were few decent women to +be seen on the streets. Respectable homes were being established, but +even there social evils were discussed with an astonishing frankness and +indifference. In the best society men were welcomed who were known to be +living in open infamy. A general callousness to social corruption +prevailed. + +For Dawson was at this time the Mecca of the gambler and the courtesan. +Of its population probably two-thirds began their day when most people +finished it. It was only towards nightfall that the town completely +roused up, that the fever of pleasure providing began. Nearly every one +seemed to be affected by the spirit of degeneracy. On the faces of many +of the business men could be seen the stamp of the pace they were going. +Cases in Court had to be adjourned because of the debauches of lawyers. +Bank tellers stepped into their cages sleepless from all-night orgies. +Government officials lived openly with wanton women. High and low were +attainted by the corruption. In those days of headstrong excitement, of +sudden fortune, of money to be had almost for the picking up, when the +gold-camp was a reservoir into which poured by a thousand channels the +treasure of the valley, few were those among the men who kept a steady +head, whose private records were pure and blameless. + +No town of its size has ever broken up more homes. Men in the +intoxication of fast-won wealth in that far-away land gave way to +excesses of every kind. Fathers of families paraded the streets arm in +arm with demi-mondaines. To be seen talking to a loose woman was +unworthy of comment, not to have a mistress was not to be in the swim. +Words cannot express the infinite and general degradation. It is +scarcely possible to exaggerate it. That teeming town at the mouth of +the Klondike set a pace in libertinism that has never been equalled. + +I would divide its population into three classes: the sporting +fraternity, whose business it was to despoil and betray; the business +men, drawn more or less into the vortex of dissipation; the miners from +the creeks, the Man with the Poke, here to-day, gone, to-morrow, and of +them all the most worthy of respect. He was the prop and mainstay of the +town. It was like a vast trap set to catch him. He would "blow in" +brimming with health and high spirits; for a time he would "get into the +game;" sooner or later he would cut loose and "hit the high places"; +then, at last, beggared and broken, he would crawl back in shame and +sorrow to the claim. O, that grey city! could it ever tell its woes and +sorrows the great, white stars above would melt into compassionate +tears. + +Ah well, to the devil with all moralising! A short life and a merry one. +Switch on the lights! Ring up the curtain! On with the play! + + * * * * * + +In the casino a crowd is gathering round the roulette wheel. Three-deep +they stand. A woman rushes out from the dance-hall and pushes her way +through the throng. She is very young, very fair and redundant of life. +A man jostles her. From frank blue eyes she flashes a look at him, and +from lips sweet as those of a child there comes the remonstrance: "Curse +you; take care." + +The men make way for her, and she throws a poke of dust on the red. "A +hundred dollars out of that," she says. The coupier nods; the wheel +spins round; she loses. + +"Give me another two hundred in chips," she cries eagerly. The dealer +hands them to her, and puts her poke in a drawer. Again and again she +plays, placing chips here and there round the table. Sometimes she wins, +sometimes she loses. At last she has quite a pile of chips before her. +She laughs gleefully. "I guess I'll cash in now," she says. "That's good +enough for to-night." + +The man hands her back her poke, writes out a cheque for her winnings, +and off she goes like a happy child. + +"Who's that?" I ask. + +"That? that's Blossom. She's a 'bute,' she is. Want a knockdown? Come on +round to the dance-hall." + + * * * * * + +Once more I see the Youth. He is nearing the end of his tether. He +borrows a few hundred dollars from me. "One more night," he says with a +bitter grin, "and the hog goes back to wallow in the mire. They've got +you going too-- Oh, Lord, it's a great game! Ha! ha!" + +He goes off unsteadily; then from out of the luminous mists there +appears the Jam-wagon. In a pained way he looks at me. "Here, chuck it, +old man," he says; "come home to my cabin and straighten up." + +"All right," I answer; "just one drink more." + +One more means still one more. Poor old Jam-wagon! It's the blind +leading the blind. + +Mosher haunts me with his gleaming bald head and his rat-like eyes. He +is living with the little ninety-five-pound woman, the one with the mop +of hair. + +Oh, it is a hades of a life I am steeped in! I drink and I drink. It +seems to me I am always drinking. Rarely do I eat. I am one of half a +dozen spectacular "live ones." All the camp is talking of us, but it +seems to me I lead the bunch in the race to ruin. I wonder what Berna +thinks of it all. Was there ever such a sensitive creature? Where did +she get that obstinate pride? Child of misfortune! She minded me of a +delicate china cup that gets mixed in with the coarse crockery of a hash +joint. + +Remonstrantly the Prodigal speeds to town. + +"Are you crazy?" he cries. "I don't mind you making an ass of yourself, +but lushing around all that coin the way you're doing--it's wicked; it +makes me sick. Come home at once." + +"I won't," I say. "What if I am crazy? Isn't it my money? I've never +sown my wild oats yet. I'm trying to catch up, that's all. When the +money's done I'll quit. I'm having the time of my life. Don't come +spoiling it with your precepts. What a lot of fun I've missed by being +good. Come along; 'listen to the last word of human philosophy--have a +drink.'" + +He goes away shaking his head. There's no fear of him ever breaking +loose. He, with his smile of sunshine, would make misfortune pay. He is +a rolling stone that gathers no moss, but manages to glue itself to +greenbacks at every turn. + + * * * * * + +I am in a box at the Palace Grand. The place is packed with rowdy men +and ribald women. I am at the zenith of my shame. Right and left I am +buying wine. Like vultures at a feast they bunch into the box. Like +carrion flies they buzz around me. That is what I feel myself to +be--carrion. + +How I loathe myself! but I think of Berna, and the thought goads me to +fresh excesses. I will go on till flesh and blood can stand it no +longer, till I drop in my tracks. I realise that somehow I must make +her pity me, must awake in her that guardian angel which exists in every +woman. Only in that way can I break down the barrier of her pride and +arouse the love latent in her heart. + +There are half a dozen girls in the box, a bevy of beauties, and I buy a +case of wine for each, over a thousand dollars' worth. Screaming with +laughter they toss it in bottles down to their friends in the audience. +It is a scene of riotous excitement. The audience roars, the girls +shriek, the orchestra tries to make itself heard. Madder and madder +grows the merriment. The fierce fever of it scorches in my veins. I am +mad to spend, to throw away money, to outdo all others in bitter, +reckless prodigality. I fling twenty-dollar gold pieces to the singers. +I open bottle after bottle of wine. The girls are spraying the crowd +with it, the floor of the box swims with it. I drop my pencil signing a +tab, and when I look down it is floating in a pool of champagne. + +Then comes the last. The dance has begun. Men in fur caps, mackinaw +coats and mucklucks are waltzing with women clad in Paris gowns and +sparkling with jewels. The floor is thronged. I have a large, +hundred-ounce poke of dust, and I unloose the thong. Suddenly with a mad +shout I scatter its contents round the hall. Like a shower of golden +rain it falls on men and women alike. See how they grovel for it, the +brutes, the vampires! How they fight and grab and sprawl over it! How +they shriek and howl and curse! It is like an arena of wild beasts; it +is pandemonium. Oh, how I despise them! My gorge rises, but--to the end, +to the end. I must play my part. + + * * * * * + +Always amid that lurid carnival of sin floats the figure of Blossom, +Blossom with her child-face of dazzling fairness, her china-blue eyes, +her round, smooth cheeks. How different from the pinched pallid face of +Berna! Poor, poor Berna! I never see her, but amid all the saturnalia +she haunts me. The thought of her is agony, agony. I cannot bear to +think of her. I know she watches me. If she would only stoop and save me +now! Or have I not fallen low enough? What a faith I have in that deep +mother-love of hers that will redeem me in the end. I must go deeper +yet. Faster and faster must I swirl into the vortex. + +Oh, these women, how in my heart I loathe them! I laugh with them, I +quaff with them, I let them rob me; but that's all. + + * * * * * + +In all that fierce madness of debauch, thank God, I retained my honour. +They beguiled me, they tried to lure me into their rooms; but at the +moment I went to enter I recoiled. It was as if an invisible arm +stretched across the doorway and barred me out. + +And Blossom, she, too, tried so hard to lure me, and because I resisted +it inflamed her. Half angel, half devil was Blossom, a girl in years, +but woefully wise, a soft siren when pleased, a she-devil when roused. +She made me her special quarry. She fought for me. She drove off all +the other girls. We talked together, we drank together, we "played the +tables" together, but nothing more. She would coax me with the +prettiest gestures, and cajole me with the sweetest endearments; then, +when I steadfastly resisted her, she would fly into a fury and flout me +with the foulness of the stews. She was beautiful, but born to be bad. +No power on heaven or earth could have saved her. Yet in her badness she +was frank, natural and untroubled as a child. + +It was in one of the corridors of the dance-hall in the early hours of +the morning. The place was deserted, strewed with debris of the night's +debauch. The air was fetid, and from the gambling-hall down below arose +the shouts of the players. We were up there, Blossom and I. I was in a +strange state of mind, a state bordering on frenzy. Not much longer, I +felt, could I keep up this pace. Something had to happen, and that soon. + +She put her arms around me. I could feel her cheek pressed to mine. I +could see her bosom rise and fall. + +"Come," she said. + +She led me towards her room. No longer was I able to resist. My foot was +on the threshold and I was almost over when---- + +"Telegram, sir." + +It was a messenger. Confusedly I took the flimsy envelope and tore it +open. Blankly I stared at the line of type. I stared like a man in a +dream. I was sober enough now. + +"Ain't you coming?" said Blossom, putting her arms round me. + +"No," I said hoarsely, "leave me, please leave me. Oh, my God!" + +Her face changed, became vindictive, the face of a fury. + +"Curse you!" she hissed, gnashing her teeth. "Oh, I knew. It's that +other, that white-faced doll you care for. Look at me! Am I not better +than her? And you scorn me. Oh, I hate you. I'll get even with you and +her. Curse you, curse you----" + +She snatched up an empty wine bottle. Swinging it by the neck she struck +me square on the forehead. I felt a stunning blow, a warm rush of blood. +Then I fell limply forward, and all the lights seemed to go out. + +There I lay in a heap, and the blood spurting from my wound soaked the +little piece of paper. On it was written: + + "Mother died this morning. Garry." + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +"Where am I?" + +"Here, with me." + +Low and sweet and tender was the voice. I was in bed and my head was +heavily bandaged, so that the cloths weighed upon my eyelids. It was +difficult to see, and I was too weak to raise myself, but I seemed to be +in semi-darkness. A lamp burning on a small table nearby was turned low. +By my bedside some one was sitting, and a soft, gentle hand was holding +mine. + +"Where is _here_?" I asked faintly. + +"Here--my cabin. Rest, dear." + +"Is that you, Berna?" + +"Yes, please don't talk." + +I thrilled with a sudden sweetness of joy. A flood of sunshine bathed +me. It was all over, then, the turmoil, the storm, the shipwreck. I was +drifting on a tranquil ocean of content. Blissfully I closed my eyes. +Oh, I was happy, happy! + +In her cabin, with her, and she was nursing me--what had happened? What +new turn of events had brought about this wonderful thing? As I lay +there in the quiet, trying to recall the something that went before, my +poor sick brain groped but feebly amid a murk of sinister shadows. + +"Berna," I said, "I've had a bad dream." + +"Yes, dear, you've been sick, very sick. You've had an attack of fever, +brain fever. But don't try to think, just rest quietly." + +So for a while longer I lay there, thrilled with a strange new joy, +steeped in the ineffable comfort of her presence, and growing better, +stronger with every breath. Memories came thronging back, memories that +made me cringe and wince, and shudder with the shame of them. Yet ever +the thought that she was with me was like a holy blessing. Surely it was +all good since it had ended in this. + +Yet there was something else, some memory darker than the others, some +shadow of shadows that baffled me. Then as I battled with a growing +terror and suspense, it all came back to me, the telegram, the news, my +collapse. A great grief welled up in me, and in my agony I spoke to the +girl. + +"Berna, tell me, is it true? Is my Mother dead?" + +"Yes, it's true, dear. You must try to bear it bravely." + +I could feel her bending over me, could feel her hand holding mine, +could feel her hair brush my cheek, yet I forgot even her just then. I +thought only of Mother, of her devotion and of how little I had done to +deserve it. So this was the end: a narrow grave, a rending grief and the +haunting spectre of reproach. + +I saw my Mother sitting at that window that faced the west, her hands +meekly folded on her lap, her eyes wistfully gazing over the grey sea. I +knew there was never a day of her life when she did not sit thus and +think of me. I could guess at the heartache that gentle face would not +betray, the longing those tender lips would not speak, the grief those +sweet eyes studied to conceal. As, sitting there in the strange clouded +sunset of my native land, she let her knitting drop on her lap, I knew +she prayed for me. Oh, Mother! Mother! + +My sobs were choking me, and Berna was holding my hand very tightly. Yet +in a little I grew calmer. + +"Berna," I said, "I've only got you now, only you, little girl. So you +must love me, you mustn't leave me." + +"I'll never leave you--if you want me to stay." + +"God bless you, dear. I can't tell you the comfort you are to me. I'll +try to be quiet now." + +I will always remember those days as I grew slowly well again. The cot +in which I lay stood in the sitting-room of the cabin, and from the +window I could overlook the city. Snow had fallen, the days were diamond +bright, and the smoke ascended sharply in the glittering air. The little +room was papered with a design of wild roses that minded me of the +Whitehorse Rapids. On the walls were some little framed pictures; the +floor was carpeted in dull brown, and a little heater gave out a +pleasant warmth. Through a doorway draped with a curtain I could see her +busy in her little kitchen. + +She left me much alone, alone with my thoughts. Often when all was quiet +I knew she was sitting there beyond the curtain, sitting thinking, just +as I was thinking. Quiet was the keynote of our life, quiet and +sunshine. That little cabin might have been a hundred miles from the +gold-born city, it was so quiet. Here drifted no echo of its abandoned +gaiety, its glory of demoralisation. How sweet she looked in her +spotless home attire, her neat waist, her white apron with bib and +sleeves, her general air of a little housewife. And never was there so +devoted a nurse. + +Sometimes she would read to me from one of the few books I had taken +everywhere on my travels, a page or two from my beloved Stevenson, a +poem from my great-hearted Henley, a luminous passage from my Thoreau. +How those readings brought back the time when, tired of flicking the +tawny pools, I would sit on the edge of the boisterous little burn and +read till the grey shadows sifted down! I was so happy then, and I did +not know it. Now everything seemed changed. Life had lost its zest. Its +savour was no longer sweet. Its very success was more bitter than +failure. Would I ever get back that old-time rapture, that youthful joy, +that satisfaction with all the world? + +It was sweet prolonging my convalescence, yet the time came when I could +no longer let her wait upon me. What was going to happen to us? I +thought of that at all times, and she knew I thought of it. Sometimes I +could see a vivid colour in her cheeks, an eager brightness in her eye. +Was ever a stranger situation? She slept in the little kitchen, and +between us there was but that curtain. The faintest draught stirred it. +There I lay through the long, long night in that quiet cabin. I heard +her breathing. Sometimes even I heard her murmur in her sleep. I knew +she was there, within a few yards of me. I thought of her always. I +loved her beyond all else on earth. I was gaining daily in health and +strength, yet not for the wealth of the world would I have passed that +little curtain. She was as safe there as if she were guarded with +swords. And she knew it. + +Once when I was in agony I called to her in the night, and she came to +me. She came with a mother's tenderness, with exquisite endearments, +with the great love shining in her eyes. She leaned over me, she kissed +me. As she bent over my bed I put my arm round her. There in the +darkness were we, she and I, her kisses warm upon my lips, her hair +brushing my brow, and a great love devouring us. Oh, it was hard, but I +released her, put her from me, told her to go away. + +"I'll play the game fair," I said to myself. I must be very, very +careful. Our position was full of danger. So I forced myself to be cold +to her, and she looked both surprised and pained at the change in me. +Then she seemed to put forth special efforts to please me. She changed +the fashion of her hair, she wore pretty bows of ribbon. She talked +brightly and lightly in a febrile way. She showed little coquettish +tricks of manner that were charming to my mind. Ever she looked at me +with wistful concern. Her heart was innocent, and she could not +understand my sudden coldness. Yet that night had given me a lightning +glimpse of my nature that frightened me. The girl was winsome beyond +words, and I knew I had but to say it and she would come to me. Yet I +checked myself. I retreated behind a barrier of reserve. "Play the +game," I said; "play the game." + +So as I grew better and stronger she seemed to lose her cheerfulness. +Always she had that anxious, wistful look. Once came a sound from the +kitchen like stifled sobbing, and again in the night I heard her cry. +Then the time came when I was well enough to get up, to go away. + +I dressed, looking like the cadaverous ghost I felt myself to be. She +was there in the kitchen, sitting quietly, waiting. + +"Berna," I called. + +She came, with a smile lighting up her face. + +"I'm going." + +The smile vanished, and left her with that high proud look, yet behind +it was a lurking fear. + +"You're going?" she faltered. + +"Yes," I said roughly, "I'm going." + +She did not speak. + +"Are you ready?" I went on. + +"Ready?" + +"Yes, you're going, too." + +"Where?" + +I took her suddenly in my arms. + +"Why, you dear little angel, to get married, of course. Come on, Berna, +we'll find the nearest parson. We won't lose any more precious time." + +Then a great rush of tears came into her eyes. But still she hung back. +She shook her head. + +"Why, Berna, what's the matter? Won't you come?" + +"I think not." + +"In Heaven's name, what is wrong, dear? Don't you love me?" + +"Yes, I love you. It's because I love you I won't come." + +"Won't you marry me?" + +"No, no, I can't. You know what I said before. I haven't changed any. +I'm still the same--dishonoured girl. You could never give me your +name." + +"You're as pure as the driven snow, little one." + +"No one thinks so but you, and it's that that makes all the difference. +Everybody knows. No, I could never marry you, never take your name, +never bind you to me." + +"Well, what's to be done?" + +"You must go away, or--stay." + +"Stay?" + +"Yes. You've been living alone with me for a month. I picked you up that +night in the dance-hall. I had you brought here. I nursed you. Do you +think people don't give us credit for the worst? We are as innocent as +children, yet do you think I have a shred of reputation left? Already I +am supposed to be your mistress. Everybody knows; nobody cares. There +are so many living that way here. If you told them we were innocent they +would scoff at us. If you go they will say you have discarded me." + +"What shall I do?" + +"Just stay. Oh, why can't we go on as we've been doing? It's been so +like home. Don't leave me, dear. I don't want to bind you. I just want +to be of some use to you, to help you, to be with you always. Love me +for a little, anyway. Then when you're tired of me you can go, but don't +go now." + +I was dazed, but she went on. + +"What does the ceremony matter? We love each other. Isn't that the real +marriage? It's more; it's an ideal. We'll both be free to go if we wish. +There will be no bonds but those of love. Is not that beautiful, two +people cleaving together for love's sake, living for each other, +sacrificing for each other, yet with no man-made law to tell them: 'This +must ye do'? Oh, stay, stay!" + +Her arms were round my neck. The grey eyes were full of pleading. The +sweet lips had the old, pathetic droop. I yielded to the empery of love. + +"Well," I said, "we will go on awhile, on one condition--that by-and-bye +you marry me." + +"Yes, I will, I will; I promise. If you don't tire of me; if you are +sure beyond all doubt you will never regret it, then I will marry you +with the greatest joy in the world." + +So it came about that I stayed. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +In this infernal irony of an existence why do the good things of life +always come when we no longer have the same appetite to enjoy them? The +year following, in which Berna and I kept house, was not altogether a +happy one. Somehow we had both just missed something. We had suffered +too much to recover our poise very easily. We were sick, not in body, +but in mind. The thought of her terrible experience haunted her. She was +as sensitive as the petal of a delicate flower, and often would I see +her lips quiver and a look of pain come into her eyes. Then I knew of +what she was thinking. I knew, and I, too, suffered. + +I tried to make her forget, yet I could not succeed; and even in my most +happy moments there was always a shadow, the shadow of Locasto; there +was always a fear, the fear of his return. Yes, it seemed at times as if +we were two unfortunates, as if our happiness had come too late, as if +our lives were irretrievably shipwrecked. + +Locasto! where was he? For near a year had he been gone, somewhere in +that wild country at the Back of Beyond. Somewhere amid the wilder peaks +and valleys of the Rockies he fought his desperate battle with the Wild. +There had been sinister rumours of two lone prospectors who had perished +up in that savage country, of two bodies that lay rotting and half +buried by a landslide. I had a sudden, wild hope that one of them might +be my enemy; for I hated him and I would have joyed at his death. When I +loved Berna most exquisitely, when I gazed with tender joy upon her +sweetness, when, with glad, thankful eyes, I blessed her for the +sympathy and sunshine of her presence, then between us would come a +shadow, dark, menacing and mordant. So the joy-light would vanish from +my eyes and a great sadness fall upon me. + +What would I do if he returned? I wondered. Perhaps if he left us alone +I might let by-gones be by-gones; but if he ever came near her +again--well, I oiled the chambers of my Colt and heard its joyous click +as it revolved. "That's for him," I said, "that's for him, if by look, +by word, or by act he ever molests her again." And I meant it, too. +Suffering had hardened me, made me dangerous. I would have killed him. + +Then, as the months went past and the suspicion of his fate deepened +almost to a certainty, I began to breathe more freely. I noticed, too, a +world of difference in Berna. She grew light-hearted. She sang and +laughed a good deal. The sunshine came back to her eyes, and the shadow +seldom lingered there. Sometimes the thought that we were not legally +married troubled me, but on all sides were men living with their +Klondike wives, either openly or secretly, and where this domestic +menage was conducted in quietness there was little comment on it. We +lived to ourselves, and for ourselves. We left our neighbours alone. We +made few friends, and in the ferment of social life we were almost +unnoticed. + +Of course, the Prodigal expostulated with me in severe terms. I did not +attempt to argue with him. He would not have understood my point of +view. There are heights and depths in life to which he with his +practical mind could never attain. Yet he became very fond of Berna, and +often visited us. + +"Why don't you go and get churched decently, if you love her?" he +demanded. + +"So I will," I answered calmly; "give me a little time. Wait till we get +more settled." + +And, indeed, we were up to our necks in business these days. Our Gold +Hill property had turned out well. We had a gang of men employed there, +and I made frequent trips out to Bonanza. We had given the Halfbreed a +small interest, and installed him as manager. The Jam-wagon, too, we had +employed as a sort of assistant foreman. Jim was busy installing his +hydraulic plant on Ophir Creek, and altogether we had enough to think +about. I had set my heart on making a hundred thousand dollars, and as +things were looking it seemed as if two more years would bring me to +that mark. + +"Then," said I to Berna, "we'll go and travel all over the world, and do +it in style." + +"Will we, dear?" she answered tenderly. "But I don't want money much +now, and I don't know that I care so much about travel either. What I +would like would be to go to your home, and settle down and live +quietly. What I want is a nice flower garden, and a pony to drive into +town, and a home to fuss about. I would embroider, and read, and play a +little, and cook things, and--just be with you." + +She was greatly interested in my description of Glengyle. She never +tired of questioning me about it. Particularly was she interested in my +accounts of Garry, and rather scoffed at my enthusiastic description of +him. + +"Oh, that wonderful brother of yours! One would think he was a small +god, to hear you talk. I declare I'm half afraid of him. Do you think he +would like me?" + +"He would love you, little girl; any one would." + +"Don't be foolish," she chided me. And then she drew my head down and +kissed me. + +I think we had the prettiest little cabin in all Dawson. The big logs +were peeled smooth, and the ends squarely cut. The chinks were filled in +with mortar. The whole was painted a deep rich crimson. The roof was +covered with sheet-iron, and it, too, was painted crimson. There was a +deep porch to it. It was the snuggest, neatest little home in the world. + +Windows hung with dainty lace curtains peeped through its clustering +greenery of vines, but the glory of it all was the flower garden. There +was a bewildering variety of flowers, but mostly I remember stocks and +pinks, Iceland poppies, marguerites, asters, marigolds, verbenas, +hollyhocks, pansies and petunias, growing in glorious profusion. Even +the roughest miner would stand and stare at them as he tramped past on +the board sidewalk. + +They were a mosaic of glowing colour, yet the crowning triumph was the +poppies and sweet peas. Set in the centre of the lawn was a circle that +was a leaping glow of poppies. Of every shade were they, from starry +pink to luminous gold, from snowy white to passionate crimson. Like +vari-coloured lamps they swung, and wakened you to wonder and joy with +the exultant challenge of their beauty. And the sweet peas! All up the +south side of the cabin they grew, overtopping the eaves in their +riotous perfection. They rivalled the poppies in the radiant confusion +of their colour, and they were so lavish of blossom we could not pick +them fast enough. I think ours was the pioneer garden of the gold-born +city, and awakened many to the growth-giving magic of the long, long +day. + +And it was the joy and pride of Berna's heart. I would sit on the porch +of a summer's evening when down the mighty Yukon a sunset of vast and +violent beauty flamed and languished, and I would watch her as she +worked among her flowers. I can see her flitting figure in a dress of +dainty white as she hovered over a beautiful blossom. I can hear her +calling me, her voice like the music of a flute, calling me to come and +see some triumph of her skill. I have a picture of her coming towards me +with her arms full of flowers, burying her face lovingly among the +velvet petals, and raising it again, the sweetest flower of all. How +radiantly outshone her eyes, and her face, delicate as a cameo, seemed +to have stolen the fairest tints of the lily and the rose. + +Starry vines screened the porch, and everywhere were swinging baskets of +silver birch, brimming over with the delicate green of smilax or clouded +in an amethystine mist of lobelias. I can still see the little +sitting-room with its piano, its plenitude of cushions, its book-rack, +its Indian corner, its tasteful paper, its pictures, and always and +everywhere flowers, flowers. The air was heavy with the fragrance of +them. They glorified the crudest corner, and made our home like a nook +in fairyland. + +I remember one night as I sat reading she came to me. Never did I see +her look so happy. She was almost childlike in her joy. She sat down by +my chair and looked up at me. Then she put her arms around me. + +"Oh, I'm so happy," she said with a sigh. + +"Are you, dearest?" I caressed the soft floss of her hair. + +"Yes, I just wish we could live like this forever;" and she nestled up +to me ever so fondly. + +Aye, she was happy, and I will always bless the memory of those days, +and thank God I was the means of bringing a little gladness into her +marred life. She was happy, and yet we were living in what society would +call sin. Conventionally we were not man and wife, yet never were man +and wife more devoted, more self-respecting. Never were man and wife +endowed with purer ideals, with a more exalted conception of the +sanctity of love. Yet there were many in the town not half so delicate, +so refined, so spiritual, who would have passed my little lady like a +pariah. But what cared we? + +And perhaps it was the very greatness of my love for her that sometimes +made me fear; so that often in the ecstasy of a moment I would catch my +breath and wonder if it all could last. And when the poplars turned to +gold, and up the valley stole a shuddering breath of desolation, my fear +grew apace. The sky was all resplendent with the winter stars, and keen +and hard their facets sparkled. And I knew that somewhere underneath +those stars there slept Locasto. But was it the sleep of the living or +of the dead? Would he return? + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +Two men were crawling over the winter-locked plain. In the aching circle +of its immensity they were like little black ants. One, the leader, was +of great bulk and of a vast strength; while the other was small and +wiry, of the breed that clings like a louse to life while better men +perish. + +On all sides of the frozen lake over which they were travelling were +hills covered with harsh pine, that pricked funereally up to the +boulder-broken snows. Above that was a stormy and fantastic sea of +mountains baring many a fierce peak-fang to the hollow heavens. The sky +was a waxen grey, cold as a corpse-light. The snow was an immaculate +shroud, unmarked by track of bird or beast. Death-sealed the land lay in +its silent vastitude, in its despairful desolation. + +The small man was breaking trail. Down almost to his knees in the soft +snow, he sank at every step; yet ever he dragged a foot painfully +upward, and made another forward plunge. The snowshoe thong, jagged with +ice, chafed him cruelly. The muscles of his legs ached as insistently as +if clamped in a vice. He lurched forward with fatigue, so that he seemed +to be ever stumbling, yet recovering himself. + +"Come on there, you darned little shrimp; get a move on you," growled +the big man from within the frost-fringed hood of his parka. + +The little man started as if galvanised into sudden life. His breath +steamed and almost hissed as it struck the icy air. At each raw intake +of it his chest heaved. He beat his mittened hands on his breast to keep +them from freezing. Under the hood of his parka great icicles had +formed, hanging to the hairs of his beard, walrus-like, and his eyes, +thickly wadded with frost, glared out with the furtive fear of a hunted +beast. + +"Curse him, curse him," he whimpered; but once more he lifted those +leaden snowshoes and staggered on. + +The big man lashed fiercely at the dogs, and as they screamed at his +blows he laughed cruelly. They were straining forward in the harness, +their bellies almost level with the ground, their muscles standing out +like whalebone. Great, gaunt brutes they were, with ribs like +barrel-staves, and hip-bones sharp as stakes. Their woolly coats were +white with frost, their sly, slit-eyed faces ice-sheathed, their feet +torn so that they left a bloody track on the snow at every step. + +"Mush on there, you curs, or I'll cut you in two," stormed the big man, +and once again the heavy whip fell on the yelling pack. They were +pulling for all they were worth, their heads down, their shoulders +squared. Their breath came pantingly, their tongues gleamed redly, their +white teeth shone. They were fighting, fighting for life, fighting to +placate a cruel master in a world where all was cruelty and oppression. + +For there in the Winter Wild pity was not even a name. It was the +struggle for life, desperate and never-ending. The Wild abhorred life, +abhorred most of all these atoms of heat and hurry in the midst of her +triumphant stillness. The Wild would crush those defiant pigmies that +disputed the majesty of her invincible calm. + +A dog was hanging back in the harness. It whined; then as the husky +following snapped at it savagely, it gave a lurch and fell. The big man +shot forward with a sudden fury in his eyes. Swinging the heavy-thonged +whip, again and again he brought it down on the writhing brute. Then he +twisted the thong around his hand and belaboured its hollow ribs with +the butt. It screamed for a while, but soon it ceased to scream; it only +moaned a little. With glistening fangs and ears up-pricked the other +dogs looked at their fallen comrade. They longed to leap on it, to rend +its gaunt limbs apart, to tear its quivering flesh; but there was the +big man with his murderous whip, and they cowered before him. + +The big man kicked the fallen dog repeatedly. The little man paused in +his painful progress to look on apathetically. + +"You'll stave in its ribs," he remarked presently; "and then we'll never +make timber by nightfall." + +The big man had failed in his efforts to rouse the dog. There in that +lancinating cold, in an ecstasy of rage, despairfully he poised over it. + +"Who told you to put in your lip?" he snarled. "Who's running this +show, you or I? I'll stave in its ribs if I choose, and I'll hitch you +to the sled and make you pull your guts out, too." + +The little man said no more. Then, the dog still refusing to rise, the +big man leapt over the harness and came down on the animal with both +feet. There was a scream of pitiful agony, and the snap of breaking +bones. But the big man slipped and fell. Down he came, and like a flash +the whole pack piled onto him. + +For a moment there was a confused muddle of dogs and master. This was +the time for which they had waited, these savage semi-wolves. This man +had beaten them, had starved them, had been a devil to them, and now he +was down and at their mercy. Ferociously they sprang on him, and their +white fangs snapped like traps in his face. They fought to get at his +throat. They tore at his parka. Oh, if they could only make their teeth +meet in his warm flesh! But no; they were all tangled up in the harness, +and the man was fighting like a giant. He had the leader by the throat +and was using her as a shield against the others. His right hand swung +the whip with flail-like blows. Foiled and confused the dogs fell to +fighting among themselves, and triumphantly the man leapt to his feet. + +He was like a fiend now. Fiercely he raged among the snarling pack, +kicking, clubbing, cursing, till one and all he had them beaten into +cowering subjection. + +He was still panting from his struggle. His face was deathly pale, and +his eyes were glittering. He strode up to the little man, who had +watched the performance stolidly. + +"Why didn't you help me, you dirty little whelp?" he hissed. "You wanted +to see them chew me up; you know you did. You'd like to have them rip me +to ribbons. You wouldn't move a finger to save me. Oh, I know, I know. +I've had enough of you this trip to last me a lifetime. You've bucked me +right along. Now, blast your dirty little soul, I hate you, and for the +rest of the way I'm going to make your life hell. See! Now I'll begin." + +The little man was afraid. He seemed to grow smaller, while over him +towered the other, dark, fierce and malignant. The little man was +desperate. Defensively he crouched, yet the next instant he was +overthrown. Then, as he lay sprawling in the snow, the big man fell to +lashing him with the whip. Time after time he struck, till the screams +of his victim became one long, drawn-out wail of agony. Then he +desisted. Jerking the other on his feet once more, he bade him go on +breaking trail. + +Again they struggled on. The light was beginning to fail, and there was +no thought in their minds but to reach that dark belt of timber before +darkness came. There was no sound but the crunch of their snowshoes, the +panting of the dogs, the rasping of the sleigh. When they paused the +silence seemed to fall on them like a blanket. There was something awful +in the quality of this deathly silence. It was as if something material, +something tangible, hovered over them, closed in on them, choked them, +throttled them. It was almost like a Presence. + +Weary and worn were men and dogs as they struggled onwards in the +growing gloom, but because of the feeling in his heart the little man no +longer was conscious of bodily pain. It was black murder that raged +there. + +With straining sinews and bones that cracked, the dogs bent to a heavy +pull, while at the least sign of shirking down swished the relentless +whip. And the big man, as if proud of his strength, gazed insolently +round on the Wild. He was at home in this land, this stark wolf-land, so +callous, so cruel. Was he not cruel, too? Surely this land cowered +before him. Its hardships could not daunt him, nor its terrors dismay. +As he urged on his bloody-footed dogs, he exulted greatly. Of all Men of +the High North was he not king? + +At last they reached the forest fringe, and after a few harsh directions +he had the little man making camp. The little man worked with a strange +willingness. All his taciturnity had gone. As he gathered the firewood +and filled the Yukon stove, he hummed a merry air. He had the water +boiling and soon there was the fragrance of tea in the little tent. He +produced sourdough bread (which he fried in bacon fat), and some dried +moose-meat. + +To men of the trail this was a treat. They ate ravenously, but they did +not speak. Yet the little man was oddly cheerful. Time and again the big +man looked at him suspiciously. Outside it was a steely night, with an +icicle of a moon. The cold leapt on one savagely. To step from the tent +was like plunging into icy water, yet within those canvas walls the men +were warm and snug. The stove crackled its cheer. A grease-light +sputtered, and by its rays the little man was mending his ice-stiffened +moccasins. He hummed an Irish air, and he seemed to be tickled with some +thought he had. + +"Stop that tune," growled the other. "If you don't know anything else, +cut it out. I'm sick of it." + +The little man shut up meekly. Again there was silence, broken by a +whining and a scratching outside. It was the five dogs crying for their +supper, crying for the frozen fish they had earned so well. They +wondered why it was not forthcoming. When they received it they would +lie on it, to warm it with the heat of their bodies, and then gnaw off +the thawed portions. They were very wise, these dogs. But to-night there +was no fish, and they whined for it. + +"Dog feed all gone?" + +"Yep," said the small man. + +"Hell! I'll silence these brutes anyway." + +He went to the door and laid onto them so that they slunk away into the +shadows. But they did not bury themselves in the snow and sleep. They +continued to prowl round the tent, hunger-mad and desperate. + +"We've only got enough grub left for ourselves now," said the big man; +"and none too much at that. I guess I'll put you on half-rations." + +He laughed as if it was the hugest joke. Then rolling himself in a +robe, he lay down and slept. + +The little man did not sleep. He was still turning over the thought that +had come to him. Outside in the atrocious cold the whining malamutes +crept nearer and nearer. Savage were they, Indian raised and sired by a +wolf. And now, in the agonies of hunger, they cried for fish, and there +was none for them, only kicks and curses. Oh, it was a world of ghastly +cruelty! They howled their woes to the weary moon. + +"Short rations, indeed," mumbled the little man. He crawled into his +sleeping bag, but he did not close his eyes. He was watching. + +About dawn he rose. An evil dawn it was, sallow, sinister and askew. + +The little man selected the heavy-handled whip for the job. Carefully he +felt its butt, then he struck. It was a shrewd blow and a neatly +delivered, for the little man had been in the business before. It fell +on the big man's head, and he crumpled up. Then the little man took some +rawhide thongs and trussed up his victim. There lay the big man, bound +and helpless, with a clotted blood-hole in his black hair. + +Then the little man gathered up the rest of the provisions. He looked +around carefully, as if fearful of leaving anything behind. He made a +pack of the food and lashed it on his back. Now he was ready to start. +He knew that within fifty miles, travelling to the south, he would +strike a settlement. He was safe. + +He turned to where lay the unconscious body of his partner. Again and +again he kicked it; he cursed it; he spat on it. Then, after a final +look of gloating hate, he went off and left the big man to his fate. + +At last, at long last, the Worm had turned. + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +The dogs! The dogs were closing in. Nearer and nearer they drew, headed +by a fierce Mackenzie River bitch. They wondered why their master did +not wake; they wondered why the little tent was so still; why no plume +of smoke rose from the slim stovepipe. All was oddly quiet and lifeless. +No curses greeted them; no whiplash cut into them; no strong arm jerked +them over the harness. Perhaps it was a primordial instinct that drew +them on, that made them strangely bold. Perhaps it was only the despair +of their hunger, the ache of empty bellies. Closer and closer they crept +to the silent tent. + +Locasto opened his eyes. Within a foot of his face were the fangs of a +malamute. At his slight movement it drew back with a snarl, and +retreated to the door. Locasto could see the other dogs crouching and +eyeing him fixedly. What could be the matter? What had gotten into the +brutes? Where was the Worm? Where were the provisions? Why was the tent +flap open and the stove stone-cold? Then with a dawning comprehension +that he had been deserted, Locasto uttered a curse and tried to rise. + +At first he thought he was stiff with cold, but a downward glance showed +him his condition. He was helpless. He grew sick at the pit of his +stomach, and glared at the dogs. They were drawing in on him. They +seemed to bulk suddenly, to grow huge and menacing. Their gleaming teeth +snapped in his face. He could fancy these teeth stripping the flesh from +his body, gnawing at his bones with drooling jaws. Violently he +shuddered. He must try to free himself, so that at least he could fight. + +Grimly the Worm had done his work, but he had hardly reckoned on the +strength of this man. With a vast throe of fear Locasto tried to free +himself. Tenser, tenser grew the thongs; they strained, they bit into +his flesh, but they would not break. Yet as he relaxed it seemed to him +they were less tight. Then he rested for another effort. + +Once again the gaunt, grey bitch was crawling up. He remembered how +often he had starved it, clubbed it until it could barely stand. Now it +was going to get even. It would snap at his throat, rip out his +windpipe, bury its fangs in his bleeding flesh. He cursed it in the old +way. With a spring it backed out again and stood with the others. He +made another giant effort. Once again he felt the thongs strain and +strain; then, when he ceased, he imagined they were still looser. + +The dogs seemed to have lost all fear. They stood in a circle within a +few feet of him, regarding him intently. They smelled the blood on his +head, and a slaver ran from their jaws. Again he cursed them, but this +time they did not move. They seemed to realise he could not harm them. +With their evilly-slanted eyes they watched his struggles. Strange, +wise, uncanny brutes, they were biding their time, waiting to rush in on +him, to rend him. + +Again he tried to get free. Now he fancied he could move his arm a +little. He must hurry, for every instant the malamutes were growing +bolder. Another strain and a wrench. Ha! he was able to squeeze his +right arm from under the rawhide. + +He felt the foul breath of the dogs on his face, and quickly he struck +at them. They jumped back, then, as if at a signal, they sprang in +again. There was no time to lose. They were attacking him in earnest. +Quickly he wrenched out his other arm. He was just in time, for the dogs +were upon him. + +He struggled to his knees and shielded his head with his arms. Wildly he +swung at the nearest dog. Full on the face he struck it, and it shot +back as if hit by a bullet. But the others were on him. They had him +down, snarling and ripping, a mad ferment of fury. Two of them were +making for his face. As he lay on his back he gripped each by the +throat. His hands were torn and bleeding, but he had them fast. In his +grip of steel they struggled to free themselves in vain. They backed, +they writhed, they twisted in a bow. With his huge hands he was choking +them, choking them to death, using them as a shield against the other +three. Then slowly he worked himself into a sitting position. He hurled +one of the dogs to the tent door. He swung bludgeon blows at the others. +They fled yelping and howling. He still held the Mackenzie River bitch. +Getting his knee on her body, he bent her almost into a circle, bent +her till her back broke with a snap. + +Then he rose and freed himself from the remaining thongs. He was torn +and cut and bleeding, but he had triumphed. + +"Oh, the devil!" he growled, grinding his teeth. "He would have me +chewed to rags by malamutes." + +He stared around. + +"He's taken everything, the scum! left me to starve. Ha! one thing he's +forgotten--the matches. At least I can keep warm." + +He picked up the canister of matches and relit the stove. + +"I'll kill him for this," he muttered. "Night and day I'll follow him. +I'll camp on his trail till I find him. Then--I'll torture him; I'll +strip him and leave him naked in the snow." + +He slipped into his snowshoes, gave a last look around to see that no +food had been left, and with a final growl of fury he started in +pursuit. + + * * * * * + +Ahead of him, ploughing their way through the virgin snow, he could see +the dragging track of the long snowshoes. He examined it, and noted that +it was sharp and crisp at the edges. + +"He's got a good five hours' start of me! Travelling fast, too, by the +length of the track." + +He had a thought of capturing the dogs and hitching them up; but, +thoroughly terrified, they had retreated into the woods. To overtake +this man, to glut his lust for revenge, he must depend on his own +strength and endurance. + +"Now, Jack Locasto," he told himself grimly, "you've got a fight on your +hands, such a fight as you never had before. Get right down to it." + +So, with head bowed and shoulders sloping forward, he darted on the +track of the Worm. + +"He's got to break trail, the viper! and that's where I score. I can +make twice the time. Oh, just wait, you little devil! just wait!" + +He ground his teeth vindictively, and put an inch more onto his stride. +He was descending a long, open valley that seemed from its trackless +snows to have been immemorially life-shunned and accursed. Black, +witch-like pines sentinelled its flanks, and accentuated its desolation. +And over all there was the silence of the Wild, that double-strong +solution of silence from which all other silences are distilled, and +spread out. Yet, as he gazed around him in this everlasting solitude, +there was no fear in his heart. + +"I can fight this accursed land and beat it out every time," he exulted. +"It can't get any the better of me." + +It was cold, so cold that it was difficult to imagine it could ever be +warm again. To expose flesh was to feel instantly the sharp sting that +heralds frostbite. As he ran, the sharp intake of icy air made his lungs +seem to contract. His eyes smarted and tingled. The lashes froze +closely. Ice formed in his nostrils and his nose began to bleed. He +pulled up a moment. + +"Curse this infernal country!" + +He had not eaten and the icy air begot a ravenous hunger. He dreamed of +food, but chiefly of bacon, fat, greasy bacon. How glorious it would be +just to eat of it, raw, tallow bacon! He had nothing to eat. He would +have nothing till he had overtaken the Worm. On! On! + +He came to where the Worm had made a camp. There were the ashes of a +fire. + +"Curse him; he's got some matches after all," he said with bitter +chagrin. Eagerly he searched all around in the snow to see if he could +not find even a crumb of food. There was nothing. He pushed on. Night +fell and he was forced to make camp. + +Oh, he was hungry! The night was vastly resplendent, a spendthrift night +scattering everywhere its largess of stars. The cold had a crystalline +quality and the trees detonated strangely in the silence. He built a +huge fire: that at least he could have, and through eighteen hours of +darkness he crouched by it, afraid to sleep for fear of freezing. + +"If I only had a tin to boil water in," he muttered; "there's lots of +reindeer moss, and I could stew some of my mucklucks. Ah! I'll try and +roast a bit of them." + +He cut a strip from the Indian boots he was wearing, and held it over +the fire. The hair singed away and the corners crisped and charred. He +put it in his mouth. It was pleasantly warm, but even his strong teeth +refused to meet in it. However, he tore it into smaller pieces, and +bolted them. + +At last the dawn came, that evil, sneaking, corpse-like dawn, and +Locasto flung himself once more on the trail. He was not feeling so fit +now. Hunger and loss of blood had weakened him so that his stride +insensibly shortened, and his step had lost its spring. However, he +plodded on doggedly, an incarnation of vengeance and hate. Again he +examined the snowshoe trail ever stretching in front, and noticed how +crisped and hard was its edge. He was not making the time he had +reckoned on. The Worm must be a long way ahead. + +Still he did not despair. The little man might rest a day, or oversleep, +or strain a sinew, then-- Locasto pictured with gloating joy the +terror of the Worm as he awoke to find himself overtaken. Oh, the snake! +the vermin! On! On! + +Beyond a doubt he was growing weaker. Once or twice he stumbled, and the +last time he lay a few moments before rising. He wanted to rest badly. +The cold was keener than ever; it was merciless; it was excruciating. He +no longer had the vitality to withstand it. It stabbed and stung him +whenever he exposed bare flesh. He pulled the parka hood very close, so +that only his eyes peered out. So he moved through the desolation of the +Arctic Wild, a dark, muffled figure, a demon of vengeance, fierce and +menacing. + +He stood on a vast, still plateau. The sky was like a great grotto of +ice. The land lay in a wan apathy of suffering, dumb, hopeless, drear. +Icy land and icy sky met in a trap, a trap that held him fast; and over +all, vast, titanic, terrible, the Spirit of the Wild seemed to brood. It +laughed at him, a laugh of derision, of mockery, of callous gloating +triumph. Locasto shuddered. Then night came and he built another giant +fire. + +Again he bolted down some roasted muckluck. Overhead the stars glittered +vindictively. They were green and blue and red, and they had spiny rays +like starfish on which they danced. This night he had to make tremendous +efforts to keep from sleeping. Several times he drowsed forward, and +almost fell into the fire. As he crouched there his beard was singeing +and his face scorched, but his back seemed as if it was cased in ice. +Often he would turn and warm it at the fire, but not for long. He hated +to face the terror of the silence and the dark, the shadow where waited +Death. Better the crackling cheer of the spruce flame. + +At dawn the sky was leaden and the cold less despotic. Stretching +interminably ahead was that lonely snowshoe trail. Locasto was puzzled. + +"Where in creation is the little devil going to, anyway?" he said, +knitting his brows. "I figured he'd make direct for Dawson, but he's +either changed his mind or got a wrong steer. By Heavens, that's it--the +little varmint's lost his way." + +Locasto had an Indian's unerring sense of location. + +"I guess I can't afford to follow him any more," he reflected. "I've +gone too far already. I'm all petered out. I'll have to let him go in +the meantime. It's save yourself, Jack Locasto, while there's yet time. +Me for Dawson." + +He struck off almost at right angles to the trail he had been following, +over a low range of hills. It was evil going, and as he broke through +the snow-crust mile after wearing mile, he felt himself grow weaker and +weaker. "Buck up, old man," he adjured himself fiercely. "You've got to +fight, fight." + +There was a strange stillness in the air, not the natural stillness of +the Wild, but an unhealthy one, as of a suspension of something, of a +vacuum, of bated breath. It was curiously full of terror. More and more +he felt like a trapped animal, caught in a vast cage. The sky to the +north was glooming ominously. Every second the horizon grew blacker, +more bodeful, and Locasto stared at it, with a sudden quake at his +heart. + +"Blizzard, by thunder!" he gasped. + +Was that a breath of wind that stung his cheek? Was it a snowflake that +drifted along with it? Denser and denser grew the gloom, and now there +was a roaring as of a great wind. King Blizzard was come. + +"I guess I'm done for," he hissed through clenched teeth. "But I'll +fight to the finish. I'll die game." + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + +It was on him now with a swoop and a roar. He was in the thick of a +mud-grey darkness, a bitter, blank darkness full of whirling wind-eddies +and vast flurries of snow. He could not see more than a few feet before +him. The stinging flakes blinded him; the coal-black night engulfed him. +In that seething turmoil of the elements he was as helpless as a child. + +"I guess you're on your last trail, Jack Locasto," he muttered grimly. + +Nevertheless he lowered his head and butted desperately into the heart +of the storm. He was very faint from lack of food, but despair had given +him a new strength, and he plunged through drift and flurry with the +fury of a goaded bull. + +The night had fallen black as the pit. He was in an immensity of +darkness, a darkness that packed close up to him, and hugged him, and +enfolded him like a blanket. And in the black void winds were raging +with an insane fury, whirling aloft mountains of snow and hurling them +along plain and valley. The forests shrieked in fear; the creatures of +the Wild cowered in their lairs, but the solitary man stumbled on and +on. As if by magic barriers of snow piled up before him, and almost to +his shoulders he floundered through them. The wind had a hatchet edge +that pierced his clothes and hacked him viciously. He knew his only +plan was to keep moving, to stumble, stagger on. It was a fight for +life. + +He had forgotten his hunger. Those wild visions of gluttony had gone +from him. He had forgotten his thirst for revenge, forgotten everything +but his own dire peril. + +"Keep moving, keep moving for God's sake," he urged himself hoarsely. +"You'll freeze if you let up a moment. Don't let up, don't!" + +But oh, how hard it was not to rest! Every muscle in his body seemed to +beg and pray for rest, yet the spirit in him drove them to work anew. He +was making a certain mad headway, travelling, always travelling. He +doubted not he was doomed, but instinct made him fight on as long as an +atom of strength remained. + +He floundered to his armpits in a snowdrift. He struggled out and +staggered on once more. In the mad buffoonery of that cutting wind he +scarce could stand upright. His parka was frozen stiff as a board. He +could feel his hands grow numb in his mits. From his fingers the icy +cold crept up and up. Long since he had lost all sensation in his feet. +From the ankles down they were like wooden clogs. He had an idea they +were frozen. He lifted them, and watched them sink and disappear in the +clinging snow. He beat his numb hands against his breast. It was of no +use--he could not get back the feeling in them. A craving to lie down in +the snow assailed him. + +Life was so sweet. He had visions of cities, of banquets, of theatres, +of glittering triumphs, of glorious excitements, of women he had loved, +conquered and thrown aside. Never again would he see that world. He +would die here, and they would find him rigid and brittle, frozen so +hard they would have to thaw him out before they buried him. He fancied +he saw himself frozen in a grotesque position. There would be +ice-crystals in the very centre of his heart, that heart that had glowed +so fiercely with the lust of life. Yes, life was sweet. A vast self-pity +surged over him. Well, he had done his best; he could struggle no more. + +But struggle he did, another hour, two hours, three hours. Where was he +going? Maybe round in a circle. He was like an automaton now. He did not +think any more, he just kept moving. His feet clumped up and down. He +lifted himself out of snowpits; he staggered a few steps, fell, crawled +on all fours in the darkness, then in a lull of the furious wind rose +once more to his feet. The night was abysmal; closer and closer it +hugged him. The wind was charging him from all points, baffling him like +a merry monster, beating him down. The snow whirled around him in a +narrow eddy, and he tried to grope out of it and failed. Oh, he was +tired, tired! + +He must give up. It was too bad. He was so strong, and capable of so +much for good or bad. Alas! it had been all for bad. Oh, if he had but +another chance he might make his life tell a different tale! Well, he +wasn't going to whine or cower. He would die game. + +His feet were frozen; his arms were frozen. Here he would lie down +and--quit. It would soon be over, and it was a pleasant death, they +said. One more look he gave through the writhing horror of the darkness; +one more look before he closed his eyes to the horror of the Greater +Darkness.... + +Ha! what was that? He fancied he saw a dim glow just ahead. It could not +be. It was one of those cheating dreams that came to a dying man, an +illusion, a mockery. He closed his eyes. Then he opened them again--the +glow was still there. + +Surely it must be real! It was steady. As he fell forward it seemed to +grow more bright. On hands and knees he crawled to it. Brighter and +brighter it grew. It was but a few feet away. Oh, God! could it be? + +Then there was a lull in the storm, and with a final plunge Locasto fell +forward, fell towards a lamp lighted in a window, fell against the +closed door of a little cabin. + + * * * * * + +The Worm suffered acutely from the intense cold. He cursed it in his +prolific and exhaustive way. He cursed the leaden weight of his +snowshoes, and the thongs that chafed his feet. He cursed the pack he +carried on his back, which momently grew heavier. He cursed the country; +then, after a general debauch of obscenity, he decided it was time to +feed. + +He gathered some dry twigs and built a fire on the snow. He hurried, for +the freezing process was going on in his carcase, and he was afraid. It +was all ready. Now to light it--the matches. + +Where in hell were the matches? Surely he could not have left them at +the camp. With feverish haste he overturned his pack. No, they were not +there. Could he have dropped them on the trail? He had a wild idea of +going back. Then he thought of Locasto lying in the tent. He could never +face that. But he must have a fire. He was freezing to death--right now. +Already his fingers were tingling and stiffening. + +Huh! maybe he had some matches in his pockets. No--yes, he had--one, +two, three, four, five, that was all. Five slim sulphur matches, part of +a block, and jammed in a corner of his waistcoat pocket. Eagerly he lit +one. The twigs caught. The flame leapt up. Oh it was good! He had a +fire, a fire. + +He made tea, and ate some bread and meat. Then he felt his strength and +courage return. He had four matches left. Four matches meant four fires. +That would mean four more days' travel. By that time he would have +reached the Dawson country. + +That night he made a huge blaze, chopping down several trees and setting +them alight. There, lying in his sleeping-bag, he rested well. In the +early dawn he was afoot once more. + +Was there ever such an atrocious soul-freezing cold! He cursed it with +every breath he drew. At noon he felt a vast temptation to make another +fire, but he refrained. Then that night he had bad luck, for one of his +precious matches proved little more than a sliver tipped with the shadow +of pink. In spite of his efforts it was abortive, and he was compelled +to use another. He was down to his last match. + +Well, he must travel extra hard. So next day in a panic of fear he +covered a vast stretch of country. He must be getting near to one of the +gold creeks. As he surmounted the crest of every ridge he expected to +see the blue smoke of cabin fires, yet always was there the same empty +desolation. Then night came and he prepared to camp. + +Once more he chopped down some trees and piled them in a heap. He was +very hungry, very cold, very tired. What a glorious blaze he would soon +have! How gallantly the flames would leap and soar! He collected some +dry moss and twigs. Never had he felt the cold so bitter. It was growing +dusk. Above him the sky had a corpse-like glimmer, and on the snow +strange bale-fires glinted. It was a weird, sardonic light that waited, +keeping tryst with darkness. + +He shuddered and his fingers trembled. Then ever so carefully he drew +forth that most precious of things, the last match. + +He must hurry; his fingers were tingling, freezing, stiffening fast. He +would lie down on the snow, and strike it quickly.... "O God!" + +From his numb fingers the slim little match had dropped. There it lay on +the snow. Gingerly he picked it up, with a wild hope that it would be +all right. He struck it, but it doubled up. Again he struck it: the head +came off--he was lost. + +He fell forward on his face. His hands were numb, dead. He lay supported +by his elbows, his eyes gazing blankly at the unlit fire. Five minutes +passed; he did not rise. He seemed dazed, stupid, terror-stricken. Five +more minutes passed. He did not move. He seemed to stiffen, to grow +rigid, and the darkness gathered around him. + +A thought came to his mind that he would straighten out, so that when +they found him he would be in good shape to fit in a coffin. He did not +want them to break his legs and arms. Yes, he would straighten out. He +tried--but he could not, so he let it go at that. + +Over him the Wild seemed to laugh, a laugh of scorn, of mockery, of +exquisite malice. + +And there in fifteen minutes the cold slew him. When they found him he +lay resting on his elbows and gazing with blank eyes of horror at his +unlit fire. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + + +"It's a beast of a night," said the Halfbreed. + +He and I were paying a visit to Jim in the cabin he had built on Ophir. +Jim was busy making ready for his hydraulic work of the coming Spring, +and once in a while we took a run up to see him. I was much worried +about the old man. He was no longer the cheerful, optimistic Jim of the +trail. He had taken to living alone. He had become grim and taciturn. He +cared only for his work, and, while he read his Bible more than ever, it +was with a growing fondness for the stern old prophets. There was no +doubt the North was affecting him strangely. + +"Lord! don't it blow? Seems as if the wind had a spite against us, +wanted to put us out of business. It minds me of the blizzards we have +in the Northwest, only it seems ten times worse." + +The Halfbreed went on to tell us of snowstorms he had known, while +huddled round the stove we listened to the monstrous uproar of the gale. + +"Why don't you chink your cabin better, Jim?" I asked; "the snow's +sifting through in spots." + +He shoved more wood into the stove, till it glowed to a dull red, +starred with little sparks that came and went. + +"Snow with that wind would sift through a concrete wall," he said. "It's +part an' parcel of the awful land. I tell you there's a curse on this +country. Long, long ago godless people have lived in it, lived an' +sinned an' perished. An' for its wickedness in the past the Lord has put +His everlasting curse on it." + +Sharply I looked at him. His eyes were staring. His face was drawn into +a knot of despair. He sat down and fell into a mood of gloomy silence. + +How the storm was howling! The Half breed smoked his cigarette stolidly, +while I listened and shuddered, mightily thankful that I was so safe and +warm. + +"Say, I wonder if there's any one out in this bedlam of a night?" + +"If there is, God help him," said the Halfbreed. "He'll last about as +long as a snowball in hell." + +"Yes, fancy wandering round out there, dazed and desperate; fancy the +wind knocking you down and heaping the snow on you; fancy going on and +on in the darkness till you freeze stiff. Ugh!" + +Again I shuddered. Then, as the other two sat in silence, my mind +strayed to other things. Chiefly I thought of Berna, all alone in +Dawson. I longed to be back with her again. I thought of Locasto. Where +in his wild wanderings had he got to? I thought of Glengyle and Garry. +How had he fared after Mother died? Why did he not marry? Once a week I +got a letter from him, full of affection and always urging me to come +home. In my letters I had never mentioned Berna. There was time enough +for that. + +Lord! a terrific gust of wind shook the cabin. It howled and screamed +insanely through the heaving night. Then there came a lull, a strange, +deep lull, deathlike after the mighty blast. And in the sudden quiet it +seemed to me I heard a hollow cry. + +"Hist! What was that?" whispered the Halfbreed. + +Jim, too, was listening intently. + +"Seems to me I heard a moan." + +"Sounded like the cry of an outcast soul. Maybe it's the spirit of some +poor devil that's lost away out in the night. I hate to open the door +for nothing. It will make the place like an ice-house." + +Once more we listened intently, holding our breath. There it was again, +a low, faint moan. + +"It's some one outside," gasped the Halfbreed. Horror-stricken, we +stared at each other, then he rushed to the door. A great gust of wind +came in on us. + +"Hurry up, you fellows," he cried; "lend a hand. I think it's a man." + +Frantically we pulled it in, an unconscious form that struck a strange +chill to our hearts. Anxiously we bent over it. + +"He's not dead," said the Halfbreed, "only badly frozen, hands and feet +and face. Don't take him near the fire." + +He had been peering inside the parka hood and suddenly he turned to me. + +"Well, I'm darned--it's Locasto." + +Locasto! I shrank back and stood there staring blankly. Locasto! all +the old hate resurged into my heart. Many a time had I wished him dead; +and even dying, never could I have forgiven him. As I would have shrank +from a reptile, I drew back. + +"No, no," I said hoarsely, "I won't touch him. Curse him! Curse him! He +can die." + +"Come on there," said Jim fiercely. "You wouldn't let a man die, would +you? There's the brand of a dog on you if you do. You'll be little +better than a murderer. It don't matter what wrong he's done you, it's +your duty as a man to help him. He's only a human soul, an' he's like to +die anyway. Come on. Get these mits off his hands." + +Mechanically I obeyed him. I was dazed. It was as if I was impelled by a +stronger will than my own. I began pulling off the mits. The man's hands +were white as putty. I slit the sleeves and saw that the awful whiteness +went clear up the arm. It was horrible. + +Jim and the Halfbreed had cut open his mucklucks and taken off his +socks, and there stretched out were two naked limbs, clay-white almost +to the knees. Never did I see anything so ghastly. Tearing off his +clothing we laid him on the bed, and forced some brandy between his +lips. + +At last heat was beginning to come back to the frozen frame. He moaned, +and opened his eyes in a wild gaze. He did not know us. He was still +fighting the blizzard. He raised himself up. + +"Keep a-going, keep a-going," he panted. + +"Keep that bucket a-going," said the Halfbreed. "Thank God, we've got +plenty of ice-water. We've got to thaw him out." + +Then for this man began a night of agony, such as few have endured. We +lifted him onto a chair and put one of those clay-cold feet into the +water. At the contact he screamed, and I could see ice crystallise on +the edge of the bucket. I had forgotten my hatred of the man. I only +thought of those frozen hands and feet, and how to get life into them +once more. Our struggle began. + +"The blood's beginning to circulate back," said the Halfbreed. "I guess +that water feels scalding hot to him right now. We'll have to hold him +down presently. Ugh--hold on, boys, for all you're worth." + +He had not warned us any too soon. In a terrible spasm of agony Locasto +threw us off quickly. We grasped him again. Now we were struggling with +him. He fought like a demon. He was cursing us, praying us to leave him +alone, raving, shrieking. Grimly we held on, yet, all three, it was as +much as we could do to keep him down. + +"One would think we were murdering him," said the Halfbreed. "Keep his +foot in the bucket there. I wish we'd some kind of dope to give him. +There's boiling lead running through his veins right now. Keep him down, +boys; keep him down." + +It was hard, but keep him down we did; though his cries of anguish +deafened us through that awful night, and our muscles knotted as we +gripped. Hour after hour we held him, plunging now a hand, now a foot +in the ice-water, and holding it there. How long he fought! How strong +he was! But the time came when he could fight no more. He was like a +child in our hands. + +There, at last it was done. We wrapped the tender flesh in pieces of +blanket. We laid him moaning on the bed. Then, tired out with our long +struggle, we threw ourselves down and slept like logs. + +Next morning he was still unconscious. He suffered intense pain, so that +Jim or the Halfbreed had to be ever by him. I, for my part, refused to +go near. Indeed, I watched with a growing hatred his slow recovery. I +was sorry, sorry. I wished he had died. + +At last he opened his eyes, and feebly he asked where he was. After the +Halfbreed had told him, he lay silent awhile. + +"I've had a close call," he groaned. Then he went on triumphantly: "I +guess the Wild hasn't got the bulge on me yet. I can give it another +round." + +He began to pick up rapidly, and there in that narrow cabin I sat within +a few feet of him, and beheld him grow strong again. I suppose my face +must have showed my bitter hate, for often I saw him watching me through +half-closed eyes, as if he realised my feelings. Then a sneering smile +would curve his lips, a smile of satanic mockery. Again and again I +thought of Berna. Fear and loathing convulsed me, and at times a great +rage burned in me so that I was like to kill him. + +"Seems to me everything's healing up but that hand," said the +Halfbreed. "I guess it's too far gone. Gangrene's setting in. Say, +Locasto, looks like you'll have to lose it." + +Locasto had been favouring me with a particularly sardonic look, but at +these words the sneer was wiped out, and horror crowded into his eyes. + +"Lose my hand--don't tell me that! Kill me at once! I don't want to be +maimed. Lose my hand! Oh, that's terrible! terrible!" + +He gazed at the discoloured flesh. Already the stench of him was making +us sick, but this hand with its putrid tissues was disgusting to a +degree. + +"Yes," said the Halfbreed, "there's the line of the gangrene, and it's +spreading. Soon mortification will extend all up your arm, then you'll +die of blood poison. Locasto, better let me take off that hand. I've +done jobs like that before. I'm a handy man, I am. Come, let me take it +off." + +"Heavens! you're a cold-blooded butcher. You're going to kill me, +between you all. You're in a plot leagued against me, and that +long-faced fool over there's at the bottom of it. Damn you, then, go on +and do what you want." + +"You're not very grateful," said the Halfbreed. "All right, lie there +and rot." + +At his words Locasto changed his tune. He became alarmed to the point of +terror. He knew the hand was doomed. He lay staring at it, staring, +staring. Then he sighed, and thrust its loathsomeness into our faces. + +"Come on," he growled. "Do something for me, you devils, or I'll do it +myself." + + * * * * * + +The hour of the operation was at hand. The Halfbreed got his jack-knife +ready. He had filed the edge till it was like a rough saw. He cut the +skin of the wrist just above the gangrene line, and raised it up an inch +or so. It was here Locasto showed wonderful nerve. He took a large bite +of tobacco and chewed steadily, while his keen black eyes watched every +move of the knife. + +"Hurry up and get the cursed thing off," he snarled. + +The Halfbreed nicked the flesh down to the bone, then with the ragged +jack-knife he began to saw. I could not bear to look. It made me deathly +sick. I heard the grit, grit of the jagged blade. I will remember the +sound to my dying day. How long it seemed to take! No man could stand +such torture. A groan burst from Locasto's lips. He fell back on the +bed. His jaws no longer worked, and a thin stream of brown saliva +trickled down his chin. He had fainted. + +Quickly the Halfbreed finished his work. The hand dropped on the floor. +He pulled down the flaps of skin and sewed them together. + +"How's that for home-made surgery?" he chuckled. He was vastly proud of +his achievement. He took the severed hand upon a shovel and, going to +the door, he threw it far out into the darkness. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + +"WHY don't you go outside?" I asked of the Jam-wagon. + +I had rescued him from one of his periodical plunges into the cesspool +of debauch, and he was peaked, pallid, penitent. Listlessly he stared at +me a long moment, the dull, hollow-eyed stare of the recently +regenerate. + +"Well," he said at last, "I think I stay for the same reason many +another man stays--pride. I feel that the Yukon owes me one of two +things, a stake or a grave--and she's going to pay." + +"Seems to me, the way you're shaping you're more liable to get the +latter." + +"Yes--well, that'll be all right." + +"Look here," I remonstrated, "don't be a rotter. You're a man, a +splendid one. You might do anything, be anything. For Heaven's sake stop +slipping cogs, and get into the game." + +His thin, handsome face hardened bitterly. + +"I don't know. Sometimes I think I'm not fit to play the game; sometimes +I wonder if it's all worth while; sometimes I'm half inclined to end +it." + +"Oh, don't talk nonsense." + +"I'm not; I mean it, every word. I don't often speak of myself. It +doesn't matter who I am, or what I've been. I've gone through a +lot--more than most men. For years I've been a sort of a human +derelict, drifting from port to port of the seven seas. I've sprawled in +their mire; I've eaten of their filth; I've wallowed in their moist, +barbaric slime. Time and time again I've gone to the mat, but somehow I +would never take the count. Something's always saved me at the last." + +"Your guardian angel." + +"Maybe. Somehow I wouldn't be utterly downed. I'm a bit of a fighter, +and every day's been a battle with me. Oh, you don't know, you can't +believe how I suffer! Often I pray, and my prayer always is: 'O dear +God, don't allow me to _think_. Lash me with Thy wrath; heap burdens on +me, but don't let me _think_.' They say there's a hell hereafter. They +lie: it's here, now." + +I was astonished at his vehemence. His face was wrenched with pain, and +his eyes full of remorseful misery. + +"What about your friends?" + +"Oh, them--I died long ago, died in the early '80's. In a little French +graveyard there's a tombstone that bears my name, my real name, the name +of the 'me' that was. Heart, soul and body, I died. My sisters mourned +me, my friends muttered, 'Poor devil.' A few women cried, and a +girl--well, I mustn't speak of that. It's all over long ago; but I must +eternally do something, fight, drink, work like the devil--anything but +think. I mustn't _think_." + +"What about your guardian angel?" + +"Yes, sometimes I think he's going to give me another chance. This is +no life for a man like me, slaving in the drift, burning myself up in +the dissipation of the town. A great, glad fight with a good sweet woman +to fight for--that would save me. Oh, to get away from it all, get a +clean start!" + +"Well, I believe in you. I'm sure you'll be all right. Let me lend you +the money." + +"Thank you, a thousand thanks; but I cannot take it. There it is +again--my pride. Maybe I'm all wrong. Maybe I'm a lost soul, and my +goal's the potter's field. No; thanks! In a day or two I'll be +fighting-fit again. I wouldn't have bored you with this talk, but I'm +weak, and my nerve's gone." + +"How much money have you got?" I asked. + +He pulled a poor piece of silver from his pocket. + +"Enough to do me till I join the pick-and-shovel gang." + +"What are those tickets in your hand?" + +He laughed carelessly. + +"Chances in the ice pools. Funny thing, I don't remember buying them. +Must have been drunk." + +"Yes, and you seem to have had a 'hunch.' You've got the same time on +all three: seven seconds, seven minutes past one, on the ninth--that's +to-day. It's noon now. That old ice will have to hurry up if you're +going to win. Fancy, if you did! You'd clean up over three thousand +dollars. There would be your new start." + +"Yes, fancy," he echoed mockingly. "Over five thousand betting, and the +guesses as close as peas in a pod." + +"Well, the ice may go out any moment. It's awful rotten." + +With a curious fascination, we gazed down at the mighty river. Around us +was a glow of spring sunshine, above us the renaissance of blue skies. +Rags of snow still glimmered on the hills, and the brown earth, as if +ashamed of its nakedness, was bursting greenly forth. On the slope +overlooking the Klondike, girls in white dresses were gathering the wild +crocus. All was warmth, colour, awakening life. + +Surely the river ice could not hold much longer. It was patchy, netted +with cracks, heaved up in ridges, mottled with slushy pools, corroded to +the bottom. Decidedly it was rotten, rotten. Still it held stubbornly. +The Klondike hammered it with mighty bergs, black and heavy as a house. +Down the swift current they sped, crashing, grinding, roaring, to batter +into the unbroken armour of the Yukon. And along its banks, watching +even as we watched, were thousands of others. On every lip was the +question--"The ice--when will it go out?" For to these exiles of the +North, after eight months of isolation, the sight of open water would be +like Heaven. It would mean boats, freedom, friendly faces, and a step +nearer to that "outside" of their dreams. + +Towards the centre of the vast mass of ice that belted in the city was a +post, and on this lonely post thousands of eyes were constantly turning. +For an electric wire connected it with the town, so that when it moved +down a certain distance a clock would register the exact moment. Thus, +thousands gazing at that solitary post thought of the bets they had +made, and wondered if this year they would be the lucky ones. It is a +unique incident in Dawson life, this gambling on the ice. There are +dozens of pools, large and small, and both men and women take part in +the betting, with an eagerness and excitement that is almost childish. + +I sat on a bench on the N. C. trail overlooking the town, and watched +the Jam-wagon crawl down the hill to his cabin. Poor fellow! How drawn +and white was his face, and his long, clean frame--how gaunt and weary! +I felt sorry for him. What would become of him? He was a splendid +"misfit." If he only had another chance! Somehow I believed in him, and +fervently I hoped he would have that good clean start again. + +Up in the cold remoteness of the North are many of his kind--the black +sheep, the undesirables, the discards of the pack. Their lips are +sealed; their eyes are cold as glaciers, and often they drink deep. Oh, +they are a mighty company, the men you don't enquire about; but it is +the code of the North to take them as you find them, so they go their +way unregarded. + +How clear the air was! It was like looking through a crystal lens--every +leaf seemed to stand out vividly. Sounds came up to me with marvellous +distinctness. Summer was coming, and with it the assurance of a new +peace. Down there I could see our home, and on its veranda, +hammock-swung, the white figure of Berna. How precious she was to me! +How anxiously I watched over her! A look, a word meant more to me than +volumes. If she was happy I was full of joy; if she was sad the sunshine +paled, the flowers drooped, there was no gladness in the day. Often as +she slept I watched her, marvelling at the fine perfection of her face. +Always was she an object of wonder to me--something to be adored, to +demand all that was fine and high in me. + +Yet sometimes it was the very intensity of my love that made me fear; so +that in the ecstasy of a moment I would catch my breath and wonder if it +all could last. And always the memory of Locasto was a sinister shadow. +He had gone "outside," terribly broken in health, gone cursing me +hoarsely and vowing he would return. Would he? + +Who that knows the North can ever deny its lure? Wherever you be, it +will call and call to you. In the sluggish South you will hear it, will +long for the keen tingle of its silver days, the vaster glory of its +star-strewn nights. In the city's heart it will come to you till you +hunger for its big, clean spaces, its racing rivers, its purple tundras. +In the homes of the rich its voice will seek you out, and you will ache +for your lonely camp-fire, a sunset splendouring to golden death, the +night where the silence clutches and the heavens vomit forth white fire. +Yes, you will hear it, and hear it, till a madness comes over you, till +you leave the crawling men of the sticky pavements to seek it out once +more, the sapphire of its lustrous lakes, the white yearning of its +peaks to the myriad stars. Then, as a child comes home, will you come +home. And I knew that some day to the land wherein he had reigned a +conqueror, Locasto, too, would return. + +As I looked down on the grey town, the wonder of its growth came over +me. How changed from the muddle of tents and cabins, the boat-lined +river, the swarming hordes of the Argonauts! Where was the niggerhead +swamp, the mud, the unrest, the mad fever of '98? I looked for these +things and saw in their stead fine residences, trim gardens, well-kept +streets. I almost rubbed my eyes as I realised the magic of the +transformation. + +And great as was the city's outward change, its change of spirit was +still greater. The day of dance-hall domination was over. Vice walked +very circumspectly. No longer was it possible on the street to speak to +a lady of easy virtue without causing comment. + +The demireps of the deadline had been banished over the Klondike, where, +in a colony reached by a crazy rope bridge, their red lights gleamed +like semaphores of sin. The dance-halls were still running, but the +picturesque impunity of the old muckluck days was gone forever. You +looked in vain for the crude scenes where the wilder passions were +unleashed, and human nature revealed itself in primal nakedness. +Heroism, brutality, splendid achievement, unbridled license, the North +seems to bring out all that is best and worst in a man. It breeds an +exuberant vitality, a madness for action, whether it be for good or +evil. + +In the town, too, life was becoming a thing of more sober hues. Sick of +slipshod morality, men were sending for their wives and children. The +old ideals of home and love and social purity were triumphing. With the +advent of the good woman, the dance-hall girl was doomed. The city was +finding itself. Society divided into sets. The more pretentious were +called Ping-pongs, while a majority rejoiced in the name of Rough-necks. +The post-office abuses were remedied, the grafters ousted from the +government offices. Rapidly the gold-camp was becoming modernised. + +Yes, its spectacular days were over. No more would the "live one" +disport himself in his wild and woolly glory. The delirium of '98 was +fast becoming a memory. The leading actors in that fateful drama--where +were they? Dead: some by their own hands; down and out many, drivelling +sottishly of by-gone days; poor prospectors a few, dreaming of a new +gold strike. + +And, as I think of it, it comes over me that the thing is vastly tragic. +Where are they now, these Klondike Kings, these givers of champagne +baths, these plungers of the gold-camp? How many of those that stood out +in the limelight of '98 can tell the tale to-day? Ladue is dead, leaving +little behind. Big Alec MacDonald, after lavishing a dozen fortunes on +his friends, dies at last, almost friendless and alone. Nigger Jim and +Stillwater Willie--in what back slough of vicissitude do they languish +to-day? Dick Low lies in a drunkard's grave. Skookum Jim would fain +qualify for one. Dawson Charlie, reeling home from a debauch, drowns in +the river. In impecunious despair, Harry Waugh hangs himself. Charlie +Anderson, after squandering a fortune on a thankless wife, works for a +labourer's hire. + +So I might go on and on. Their stories would fill volumes. And as I sat +on the quiet hillside, listening to the drowsy hum of the bees, the +inner meaning of it all came home to me. Once again the great lone land +was sifting out and choosing its own. Far-reaching was its vengeance, +and it worked in divers ways. It fell on them, even as it had fallen on +their brethren of the trail. In the guise of fortune it dealt their +ruin. From the austere silence of its snows it was mocking them, +beguiling them to their doom. Again it was the Land of the Strong. +Before all it demanded strength, moral and physical strength. I was +minded of the words of old Jim, "Where one wins ninety and nine will +fail"; and time had proved him true. The great, grim land was weeding +out the unfit, was rewarding those who could understand it, the faithful +brotherhood of the high North. + +Full of such thoughts as these, I raised my eyes and looked down the +river towards the Moosehide Bluffs. Hullo! There, just below the town, +was a great sheet of water, and even as I watched I saw it spread and +spread. People were shouting, running from their houses, speeding to the +beach. I was conscious of a thrill of excitement. Ever widening was the +water, and now it stretched from bank to bank. It crept forward to the +solitary post. Now it was almost there. Suddenly the post started to +move. The vast ice-field was sliding forward. Slowly, serenely it went, +on, on. + +Then, all at once, the steam-whistles shrilled out, the bells pealed, +and from the black mob of people that lined the banks there went up an +exultant cheer. "The ice is going out--the ice is going out!" + +I looked at my watch. Could I believe my eyes? Seven seconds, seven +minutes past one--his "hunch" was right; his guardian angel had +intervened; the Jam-wagon had been given his chance to make a new start. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + +The waters were wild with joy. From the mountain snows the sun had set +them free. Down hill and dale they sparkled, trickling from boulders, +dripping from mossy crannies, rioting in narrow runlets. Then, leaping +and laughing in a mad ecstasy of freedom, they dashed into the dam. + +Here was something they did not understand, some contrivance of the +tyrant Man to curb them, to harness them, to make them his slaves. The +waters were angry. They gloomed fearsomely. As they swelled higher in +the broad basin their wrath grew apace. They chafed against their prison +walls, they licked and lapped at the stolid bank. Higher and higher they +mounted, growing stronger with every leap. More and more bitterly they +fretted at their durance. Behind them other waters were pressing, just +as eager to escape as they. They lashed and writhed in savage spite. Not +much longer could these patient walls withstand their anger. Something +must happen. + +The "something" was a man. He raised the floodgate, and there at last +was a way of escape. How joyously the eager waters rushed at it! They +tumbled and tossed in their mad hurry to get out. They surged and swept +and roared about the narrow opening. + +But what was this? They had come on a wooden box that streaked down the +slope as straight as an arrow from the bow. It was some other scheme of +the tyrant Man. Nevertheless, they jostled and jammed to get into it. On +its brink they poised a moment, then down, down they dashed. + +Like a cataract they rushed, ever and ever growing faster. Ho! this was +motion now, this was action, strength, power. As they shot down that +steep hill they shrieked for very joy. Freedom, freedom at last! No more +trickling feebly from snowbanks; no more boring devious channels in oozy +clay, no more stagnating in sullen dams. They were alive, alive, swift, +intense, terrific. They gloried in their might. They roared the raucous +song of freedom, and faster and faster they charged. Like a stampede of +maddened horses they thundered on. What power on earth could stop them? +"We must be free! We must be free!" they cried. + +Suddenly they saw ahead the black hole of a great pipe, a hollow shard +of steel. Prison-like it looked, again some contrivance of the tyrant +Man. They would fain have overleapt it, but it was too late. Countless +other waters were behind them, forcing them forward with irresistible +power. And, faster and faster still, they crashed into the shard of +steel. + +They were trapped, atrociously trapped, cabined, confined, rammed +forward by a vast and remorseless pressure. Yet there was escape just +ahead. It was a tiny point of light, an outlet. They must squeeze +through it. They were crushed and pinioned in that prison of steel, and +mightily they tried to burst it. No! there was only that orifice; they +must pass through it. Then with that great force behind them, tortured, +maddened, desperate, the waters crashed through the shard of steel, to +serve the will of Man. + +The man stood by his water-gun and from its nozzle, the gleaming terror +leapt. At first it was only a slim volley of light, compact and solid as +a shaft of steel. To pierce it would have splintered to pieces the +sharpest sword. It was a core of water, round, glistening and smooth, +yet in its mighty power it was a monster of destruction. + +The man was directing it here and there on the face of the hill. It flew +like an arrow from the bow, and wherever he aimed it the hillside seemed +to reel and shudder at the shock. Great cataracts of gravel shot out, +avalanches of clay toppled over; vast boulders were hurled into the air +like heaps of fleecy wool. + +Yes, the waters were mad. They were like an angry bull that gored the +hillside. It seemed to melt and dissolve before them. Nothing could +withstand that assault. In a few minutes they would reduce the stoutest +stronghold to a heap of pitiful ruins. + +There, where the waters shot forth in their fury, stood their conqueror. +He was one man, yet he was doing the work of a hundred. As he battered +at that bank of clay he exulted in his power. A little turn of the wrist +and a huge mass of gravel crumbled into nothingness. He bored deep holes +in the frozen muck, he hammered his way down to bed rock, he swept it +clean as a floor. There, with the solid force of a battering-ram, he +pounded at the heart of the hill. + +The roar deafened him. He heard the crash of falling rock, but he was so +intent on his work he did not hear another man approach. Suddenly he +looked up and saw. + +He gave a mighty start, then at once he was calm again. This was the +meeting he had dreaded, longed for, fought against, desired. Primordial +emotions surged within him, but outwardly he gave no sign. Almost +savagely, and with a curious blaze in his eyes he redirected the little +giant. + +He waved his hand to the other man. + +"Go away!" he shouted. + +Mosher refused to budge. The generous living of Dawson had made him +pursy, almost porcine. His pig eyes glittered, and he took off his hat +to wipe some beads of sweat from the monumental baldness of his +forehead. He caressed his coal-black beard with a podgy hand on which a +large diamond sparkled. His manner was arrogance personified. He seemed +to say, "I'll make this man dance to my music." + +His rich, penetrating voice pierced through the roar of the "giant." + +"Here, turn off your water. I want to speak to you. Got a business +proposition to make." + +Still Jim was dumb. + +Mosher came close to him and shouted into his ear. The two men were very +calm. + +"Say, your wife's in town. Been there for the last year. Didn't you +know it?" + +Jim shook his head. He was particularly interested in his work just +then. There was a great saddle of clay, and he scooped it up magically. + +"Yes, she's in town--living respectable." + +Jim redirected his giant with a savage swish. + +"Say, I'm a sort of a philant'ropic guy," went on Mosher, "an' there's +nothing I like better than doing the erring wife restitootion act. I +think I could induce that little woman of yours to come back to you." + +Jim gave him a swift glance, but the man went on. + +"To tell the truth, she's a bit stuck on me. Not my fault, of course. +Can't help it if a girl gets daffy on me. But say, I think I could get +her switched on to you if you made it worth my while. It's a business +proposition." + +He was sneering now, frankly villainous. Jim gave no sign. + +"What d'ye say? This is a likely bit of ground--give me a half-share in +this ground, an' I'll guarantee to deliver that little piece of goods to +you. There's an offer." + +Again that smug look of generosity beamed on the man's face. Once more +Jim motioned him to go, but Mosher did not heed. He thought the gesture +was a refusal. His face grew threatening. "All right, if you won't," he +snarled, "look out! I know you love her still. Let me tell you, I own +that woman, body and soul, and I'll make life hell for her. I'll +torture you through her. Yes, I've got a cinch. You'd better change your +mind." + +He had stepped back as if to go. Then, whether it was an accident or not +no one will ever know--but the little giant swung round till it bore on +him. + +It lifted him up in the air. It shot him forward like a stone from a +catapult. It landed him on the bank fifty feet away with a sickening +crash. Then, as he lay, it pounded and battered him out of all semblance +of a man. + +The waters were having their revenge. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + +"There's something the matter with Jim," the Prodigal 'phoned to me from +the Forks; "he's gone off and left the cabin on Ophir, taken to the +hills. Some prospectors have just come in and say they met him heading +for the White Snake Valley. Seemed kind of queer, they say. Wouldn't +talk much. They thought he was in a fair way to go crazy." + +"He's never been right since the accident," I answered; "we'll have to +go after him." + +"All right. Come up at once. I'll get McCrimmon. He's a good man in the +woods. We'll be ready to start as soon as you arrive." + +So the following day found the three of us on the trail to Ophir. We +travelled lightly, carrying very little food, for we thought to find +game in the woods. On the evening of the following day we reached the +cabin. + +Jim must have gone very suddenly. There were the remains of a meal on +the table, and his Bible was gone from its place. There was nothing for +it but to follow and find him. + +"By going to the headwaters of Ophir Creek," said the Halfbreed, "we can +cross a divide into the valley of the White Snake, and there we'll +corral him, I guess." + +So we left the trail and plunged into the virgin Wild. Oh, but it was +hard travelling! Often we would keep straight up the creek-bed, plunging +through pools that were knee-deep, and walking over shingly bars. Then, +to avoid a big bend of the stream, we would strike off through the bush. +Every yard seemed to have its obstacle. There were windfalls and tangled +growths of bush that defied our uttermost efforts to penetrate them. +There were viscid sloughs, from whose black depths bubbles arose +wearily, with grey tree-roots like the legs of spiders clutching the +slimy mud of their banks. There were oozy bottoms, rankly speared with +rush-grass. There were leprous marshes spotted with unsightly +niggerheads. Dripping with sweat, we fought our way under the hot sun. +Thorny boughs tore at us detainingly. Fallen trees delighted to bar our +way. Without let or cease we toiled, yet at the day's end our progress +was but a meagre one. + +Our greatest bane was the mosquitoes. Night and day they never ceased to +nag us. We wore veils and had gloves on our hands, so that under our +armour we were able to grin defiance at them. But on the other side of +that netting they buzzed in an angry grey cloud. To raise our veils and +take a drink was to be assaulted ferociously. As we walked we could feel +them resisting our progress, and it seemed as if we were forcing our way +through solid banks of them. If we rested, they alighted in such myriads +that soon we appeared literally sheathed in tiny atoms of insect life, +vainly trying to pierce the mesh of our clothing. To bare a hand was to +have it covered with blood in a moment, and the thought of being at +their mercy was an exquisitely horrible one. Night and day their voices +blended in a vast drone, so that we ate, drank and slept under our +veils. + +In that rankly growing wilderness we saw no sign of life, not even a +rabbit. It was all desolate and God-forsaken. By nightfall our packs +seemed very heavy, our limbs very tired. Three days, four days, five +days passed. The creek was attenuated and hesitating, so we left it and +struck off over the mountains. Soon we climbed to where the timber +growth was less obstructive. The hillside was steep, almost vertical in +places, and was covered with a strange, deep growth of moss. Down in it +we sank, in places to our knees, and beneath it we could feel the points +of sharp boulders. As we climbed we plunged our hands deep into the cool +cushion of the moss, and half dragged ourselves upward. It was like an +Oriental rug covering the stony ribs of the hill, a rug of bizarre +colouring, strangely patterned in crimson and amber, in emerald and +ivory. Birch-trees of slim, silvery beauty arose in it, and aided us as +we climbed. + +So we came at last, after a weary journey, to a bleak, boulder-studded +plateau. It was above timber-line, and carpeted with moss of great depth +and gaudy hue. Suddenly we saw two vast pillars of stone upstanding on +the aching barren. I think they must have been two hundred feet high, +and, like monstrous sentinels in their lonely isolation, they +overlooked that vast tundra. They startled us. We wondered by what +strange freak of nature they were stationed there. + +Then we dropped down into a vast, hush-filled valley, a valley that +looked as if it had been undisturbed since the beginning of time. Like a +spirit-haunted place it was, so strange and still. It was loneliness +made visible. It was stillness written in wood and stone. I would have +been afraid to enter it alone, and even as we sank in its death-haunted +dusk I shuddered with a horror of the place. + +The Indians feared and shunned this valley. They said, of old, strange +things had happened there; it had been full of noise and fire and steam; +the earth had opened up, belching forth great dragons that destroyed the +people. And indeed it was all like the vast crater of an extinct +volcano, for hot springs bubbled forth and a grey ash cropped up through +the shallow soil. + +There was no game in the valley. In its centre was a solitary lake, +black and bottomless, and haunted by a giant white water-snake, +sluggish, blind and very old. Stray prospectors swore they had seen it, +just at dusk, and its sightless, staring eyes were too terrible ever to +forget. + +And into this still, cobweb-hued hollow we dropped--dropped almost +straight down over the flanks of those lean, lank mountains that fringed +it so forlornly. Here, ringed all around by desolate heights, we were as +remote from the world as if we were in some sallow solitude of the moon. +Sometimes the valley was like a gaping mouth, and the lips of it were +livid grey. Sometimes it was like a cup into which the sunset poured a +golden wine and filled it quivering to the brim. Sometimes it was like a +grey grave full of silence. And here in this place of shadows, where the +lichen strangled the trees, and under-foot the moss hushed the tread, +where we spoke in whispers, and mirth seemed a mockery, where every +stick and stone seemed eloquent of disenchantment and despair, here in +this valley of Dead Things we found Jim. + +He was sitting by a dying camp-fire, all huddled up, his arms embracing +his knees, his eyes on the fading embers. As we drew near he did not +move, did not show any surprise, did not even raise his head. His face +was very pale and drawn into a pucker of pain. It was the queerest look +I ever saw on a man's face. It made me creep. + +His eyes followed us furtively. Silently we squatted in a ring round his +camp-fire. For a while we said no word, then at last the Prodigal spoke: + +"Jim, you're coming back with us, aren't you?" + +Jim looked at him. + +"Hush!" says he, "don't speak so loud. You'll waken all them dead +fellows." + +"What d'ye mean?" + +"Them dead fellows. The woods is full of them, them that can't rest. +They're all around, ghosts. At night, when I'm a-sittin' over the fire, +they crawl out of the darkness, an' they get close to me, closer, +closer, an' they whisper things. Then I get scared an' I shoo them +away." + +"What do they whisper, Jim?" + +"Oh say! they tell me all kinds of things, them fellows in the woods. +They tell me of the times they used to have here in the valley; an' how +they was a great people, an' had women an' slaves; how they fought an' +sang an' got drunk, an' how their kingdom was here, right here where +it's all death an' desolation. An' how they conquered all the other +folks around an' killed the men an' captured the women. Oh, it was long, +long ago, long before the flood!" + +"Well, Jim, never mind them. Get your pack ready. We're going home right +now." + +"Goin' home?--I've no home any more. I'm a fugitive an' a vagabond in +the earth. The blood of my brother crieth unto me from the ground. From +the face of the Lord shall I be hid an' every one that findeth me shall +slay me. I have no home but the wilderness. Unto it I go with prayer an' +fastin'. I have killed, I have killed!" + +"Nonsense, Jim; it was an accident." + +"Was it? Was it? God only knows; I don't. Only I know the thought of +murder was black in my heart. It was there for ever an' ever so long. +How I fought against it! Then, just at that moment, everything seemed to +come to a head. I don't know that I meant what I did, but I thought it." + +"Come home, Jim, and forget it." + +"When the rivers start to run up them mountain peaks I'll forget it. +No, they won't let me forget it, them ghosts. They whisper to me all the +time. Hist! don't you hear them? They're whispering to me now. 'You're a +murderer, Jim, a murderer,' they say. 'The brand of Cain is on you, Jim, +the brand of Cain.' Then the little leaves of the trees take up the +whisper, an' the waters murmur it, an' the very stones cry out ag'in me, +an' I can't shut out the sound. I can't, I can't." + +"Hush, Jim!" + +"No, no, the devil's a-hoein' out a place in the embers for me. I can't +turn no more to the Lord. He's cast me out, an' the light of His +countenance is darkened to me. Never again; oh, never again!" + +"Oh come, Jim, for the sake of your old partners, come home." + +"Well, boys, I'll come. But it's no good. I'm down an' out." + +Wearily we gathered together his few belongings. He had been living on +bread, and but little remained. Had we not reached him, he would have +starved. He came like a child, but seemed a prey to acute melancholy. + +It was indeed a sad party that trailed down that sad, dead valley. The +trees were hung with a dreary drapery of grey, and the ashen moss +muffled our footfalls. I think it was the _deadest_ place I ever saw. +The very air seemed dead and stale, as if it were eternally still, +unstirred by any wind. Spiders and strange creeping things possessed the +trees, and at every step, like white gauze, a mist of mosquitoes was +thrown up. And the way seemed endless. + +A great weariness weighed upon our spirits. Our feet flagged and our +shoulders were bowed. As we looked into each other's faces we saw there +a strange lassitude, a chill, grey despair. Our voices sounded hollow +and queer, and we seldom spoke. It was as if the place was a vampire +that was sucking the life and health from our veins. + +"I'm afraid the old man's going to play out on us," whispered the +Prodigal. + +Jim lagged forlornly behind, and it was very anxiously we watched him. +He seemed to know that he was keeping us back. His efforts to keep up +were pitiful. We feigned an equal weariness, not to distress him, and +our progress was slow, slow. + +"Looks as if we'll have to go on half-rations," said the Halfbreed. +"It's taking longer to get out of this valley than I figured on." + +And indeed it was like a vast prison, and those peaks that brindled in +the sunset glow were like bars to hold us in. Every day the old man's +step was growing slower, so that at last we were barely crawling along. +We were ascending the western slope of the valley, climbing a few miles +a day, and every step we rose from that sump-hole of the gods was like +the lifting of a weight. We were tired, tired, and in the wan light that +filtered through the leaden clouds our faces were white and strained. + +"I guess we'll have to go on quarter-rations from now," said the +Halfbreed, a few days later. He ranged far and wide, looking for game, +but never a sign did he see. Once, indeed, we heard a shot. Eagerly we +waited his return, but all he had got was a great, grey owl, which we +cooked and ate ravenously. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + + +At last, at last we had climbed over the divide, and left behind us +forever the vampire valley. Oh, we were glad! But other troubles were +coming. Soon the day came when the last of our grub ran out. I remember +how solemnly we ate it. We were already more than three-parts starved, +and that meal was but a mouthful. + +"Well," said the Halfbreed, "we can't be far from the Yukon now. It must +be the valley beyond this one. Then, in a few days, we can make a raft +and float down to Dawson." + +This heartened us, so once more we took up our packs and started. Jim +did not move. + +"Come on, Jim." + +Still no movement. + +"What's the matter, Jim? Come on." + +He turned to us a face that was grey and deathlike. + +"Go on, boys. Don't mind me. My time's up. I'm an old man. I'm only +keeping you back. Without me you've got a chance; with me you've got +none. Leave me here with a gun. I can shoot an' rustle grub. You boys +can come back for me. You'll find old Jim spry an' chipper, awaitin' you +with a smile on his face. Now go, boys. You'll go, won't you?" + +"Go be darned!" said the Prodigal. "You know we'll never leave you, +Jim. You know the code of the trail. What d'ye take us for--skunks? Come +on, we'll carry you if you can't walk." + +He shook his head pitifully, but once more he crawled after us. We +ourselves were making no great speed. Lack of food was beginning to tell +on us. Our stomachs were painfully empty and dead. + +"How d'ye feel?" asked the Prodigal. His face had an arrestively hollow +look, but that frozen smile was set on it. + +"All right," I said, "only terribly weak. My head aches at times, but +I've got no pain." + +"Neither have I. This starving racket's a cinch. It's dead easy. What +rot they talk about the gnawing pains of hunger, an' ravenous men +chewing up their boot-tops. It's easy. There's no pain. I don't even +feel hungry any more." + +None of us did. It was as if our stomachs, in despair at not receiving +any food, had sunk into apathy. Yet there was no doubt we were terribly +weak. We only made a few miles a day now, and even that was an effort. +The distance seemed to be elastic, to stretch out under our feet. Every +few yards we had to help Jim over a bad place. His body was emaciated +and he was getting very feeble. A hollow fire burned in his eyes. The +Halfbreed persisted that beyond those despotic mountains lay the Yukon +Valley, and at night he would rouse us up: + +"Say, boys, I hear the 'toot' of a steamer. Just a few more days and +we'll get there." + +Running through the valley, we found a little river. It was muddy in +colour and appeared to contain no fish. We ranged along it eagerly, +hoping to find a few minnows, but without success. It seemed to me, as I +foraged here and there for food, it was not hunger that impelled me so +much as the instinct of self-preservation. I knew that if I did not get +something into my stomach I would surely die. + +Down the river we trailed forlornly. For a week we had eaten nothing. +Jim had held on bravely, but now he gave up. + +"For God's sake, leave me, boys! Don't make me feel guilty of your +death. Haven't I got enough on my soul already? For God's pity, lads, +save yourselves! Leave me here to die." + +He pleaded brokenly. His legs seemed to have become paralysed. Every +time we stopped he would pitch forward on his face, or while walking he +would fall asleep and drop. The Prodigal and I supported him, but it was +truly hard to support ourselves, and sometimes we collapsed, coming down +all three together in a confused and helpless heap. The Prodigal still +wore that set grin. His face was nigh fleshless, and, through the +straggling beard, it sometimes minded me of a grinning skull. Always Jim +moaned and pleaded: + +"Leave me, dear boys, leave me!" + +He was like a drunken man, and his every step was agony. + +We threw away our packs. We no longer had the strength to bear them. The +last thing to go was the Halfbreed's rifle. Several times it dropped out +of his hand. He picked it up in a dazed way. Again and again it +dropped, but at last the time came when he no longer picked it up. He +looked at it for a stupid while, then staggered on without it. + +At night we would rest long hours round the camp-fire. Often far into the +day would we rest. Jim lay like a dead man, moaning continually, while +we, staring into each other's ghastly faces, talked in jerks. It was an +effort to hunt food. It was an effort to goad ourselves to continue the +journey. + +"Sure the river empties into the Yukon, boys," said the Halfbreed. +"'Tain't so far, either. If we can just make a few miles more we'll be +all right." + +At night, in my sleep, I was a prey to the strangest hallucinations. +People I had known came and talked to me. They were so real that, when I +awoke, I could scarce believe I had been dreaming. Berna came to me +often. She came quite close, with great eyes of pity that looked into +mine. Her lips moved. + +"Be brave, my boy. Don't despair," she pleaded. Always in my dreams she +pleaded like that, and I think that but for her I would have given up. + +The Halfbreed was the most resolute of the party. He never lost his +head. At times we others raved a little, or laughed a little, or cried a +little, but the Halfbreed remained cool and grim. Ceaselessly he foraged +for food. Once he found a nest of grouse eggs, and, breaking them open, +discovered they contained half-formed birds. We ate them just as they +were, crunched them between our swollen gums. Snails, too, we ate +sometimes, and grass roots and moss which we scraped from the trees. +But our greatest luck was the decayed grouse eggs. + +Early one afternoon we were all resting by a camp-fire on which was +boiling some moss, when suddenly the Halfbreed pointed. There, in a +glade down by the river's edge, were a cow moose and calf. They were +drinking. Stupidly we gazed. I saw the Halfbreed's hand go out as if to +clutch the rifle. Alas! his fingers closed on the empty air. So near +they were we could have struck them with a stone. Taking his sheath +knife in his mouth, the Halfbreed started to crawl on his belly towards +them. He had gone but a few yards when they winded him. One look they +gave, and in a few moments they were miles away. That was the only time +I saw the Halfbreed put out. He fell on his face and lay there for a +long time. + +Often we came to sloughs that we could not cross, and we had to go round +them. We tried to build rafts, but we were too weak to navigate them. We +were afraid we would roll off into the deep black water and drown +feebly. So we went round, which in one case meant ten miles. Once, over +a slough a few yards wide, the Halfbreed built a bridge of willows, and +we crawled on hands and knees to the other side. + +From a certain point our trip seems like a nightmare to me. I can only +remember parts of it here and there. We reeled like drunken men. We +sobbed sometimes, and sometimes we prayed. There was no word from Jim +now, not even a whimper, as we half dragged, half carried him on. Our +eyes were large with fever, our hands were like claws. Long sickly +beards grew on our faces. Our clothes were rags, and vermin overran us. +We had lost all track of time. Latterly we had been travelling about +half a mile a day, and we must have been twenty days without proper +food. + +The Halfbreed had crawled ahead a mile or so, and he came back to where +we lay. In a voice hoarse almost to a whisper he told us a bigger river +joined ours down there, and on the bar was an old Indian camp. Perhaps +in that place some one might find us. It seemed on the route of travel. +So we made a last despairing effort and reached it. Indians had visited +it quite recently. We foraged around and found some putrid fish bones, +with which we made soup. + +There was a grave set high on stilts, and within it a body covered with +canvas. The Halfbreed wrenched the canvas from the body, and with it he +made a boat eight feet in length by six in breadth. It was too rotten to +hold him up, and he nearly drowned trying to float it, so he left it +lying on the edge of the bar. I remember this was a terrible +disappointment to us, and we wept bitterly. I think that about this time +we were all half-crazy. We lay on that bar like men already dead, with +no longer hope of deliverance. + + * * * * * + +Then Jim passed in his checks. In the night he called me. + +"Boy," he whispered, "you an' I'se been good pals, ain't we?" + +"Yes, old man." + +"Boy, I'm in agony. I'm suffering untold pain. Get the gun, for God's +sake, an' put me out of my misery." + +"There's no gun, Jim; we left it back on the trail." + +"Then take your knife." + +"No, no." + +"Give me your knife." + +"Jim, you're crazy. Where's your faith in God?" + +"Gone, gone; I've no longer any right to look to Him. I've killed. I've +taken life He gave. 'Vengeance is mine,' He said, an' I've taken it out +of His hands. God's curse is on me now. Oh, let me die, let me die!" + +I sat by him all night. He moaned in agony, and his passing was hard. It +was about three in the morning when he spoke again: + +"Say, boy, I'm going. I'm a useless old man. I've lived in sin, an' I've +repented, an' I've backslid. The Lord don't want old Jim any more. Say, +kid, see that little girl of mine down in Dawson gets what money's +comin' to me. Tell her to keep straight, an' tell her I loved her. Tell +her I never let up on lovin' her all these years. You'll remember that, +boy, won't you?" + +"I'll remember, Jim." + +"Oh, it's all a hoodoo, this Northern gold," he moaned. "See what it's +done for all of us. We came to loot the land an' it's a-takin' its +revenge on us. It's accursed. It's got me at last, but maybe I can help +you boys to beat it yet. Call the others." + +I called them. + +"Boys," said Jim, "I'm a-goin'. I've been a long time about it. I've +been dying by inches, but I guess I'll finish the job pretty slick this +time. Well, boys, I'm in possession of all my faculties. I want you to +know that. I was crazy when I started off, but that's passed away. My +mind's clear. Now, pardners, I've got you into this scrape. I'm +responsible, an' it seems to me I'd die happier if you'd promise me one +thing. Livin', I can't help you; dead, I can--_you know how_. Well, I +want you to promise me you'll do it. It's a reasonable proposition. +Don't hesitate. Don't let sentiment stop you. I wish it. It's my dying +wish. You're starvin', an' I can help you, can give you strength. Will +you promise, if it comes to the last pass, you'll do it?" + +We were afraid to look each other in the face. + +"Oh, promise, boys, promise!" + +"Promise him anyway," said the Halfbreed. "He'll die easier." + +So we nodded our heads as we bent over him, and he turned away his face, +content. + +'Twas but a little after he called me again. + +"Boy, give me your hand. Say a prayer for me, won't you? Maybe it'll +help some, a prayer for a poor old sinner that's backslid. I can never +pray again." + +"Yes, try to pray, Jim, try. Come on; say it after me: 'Our Father--'" + +"'Our Father--'" + +"'Which art in Heaven--'" + +"'Which art in--'" + +His head fell forward. "Bless you, my boy. Father, forgive, forgive--" + +He sank back very quietly. + +He was dead. + + * * * * * + +Next morning the Halfbreed caught a minnow. We divided it into three and +ate it raw. Later on he found some water-lice under a stone. We tried to +cook them, but they did not help us much. Then, as night fell once more, +a thought came into our minds and stuck there. It was a hidden thought, +and yet it grew and grew. As we sat round in a circle we looked into +each other's faces, and there we read the same revolting thought. Yet +did it not seem so revolting after all. It was as if the spirit of the +dead man was urging us to this thing, so insistent did the thought +become. It was our only hope of life. It meant strength again, strength +and energy to make a raft and float us down the river. Oh, if only--but, +no! We could not do it. Better, a hundred times better, die. + +Yet life was sweet, and for twenty-three days we had starved. Here was a +chance to live, with the dead man whispering in our ears to do it. You +who have never starved a day in your lives, would you blame us? Life is +sweet to you, too. What would you have done? The dead man was urging +us, and life was sweet. + +But we struggled, God knows we struggled. We did not give in without +agony. In our hopeless, staring eyes there was the anguish of the great +temptation. We looked in each other's death's-head faces. We clasped +skeleton hands round our rickety knees, and swayed as we tried to sit +upright. Vermin crawled over us in our weakness. We were half-crazy, and +muttered in our beards. + +It was the Halfbreed who spoke, and his voice was just a whisper: + +"It's our only chance, boys, and we've promised him. God forgive me, but +I've a wife and children, and I'm a-goin' to do it." + +He was too weak to rise, and with his knife in his mouth he crawled to +the body. + + * * * * * + +It was ready, but we had not eaten. We waited and waited, hoping against +hope. Then, as we waited, God was merciful to us. He saved us from this +thing. + +"Say, I guess I've got a pipe-dream, but I think I see two men coming +downstream on a raft." + +"No, it's no dream," I said; "two men." + +"Shout to them; I can't," said the Prodigal. + +I tried to shout, but my voice came as a whisper. The Halfbreed, too, +tried to shout. There was scarcely any sound to it. The men did not see +us as we lay on that shingly bar. Faster and faster they came. In +hopeless, helpless woe we watched them. We could do nothing. In a few +moments they would be past. With eyes of terror we followed them, tried +to make signals to them. O God, help us! + +Suddenly they caught sight of that crazy boat of ours made of canvas and +willows. They poled the raft in close, then one of them saw those three +strange things writhing impotently on the sand. They were skeletons, +they were in rags, they were covered with vermin.-- * * * + +We were saved; thank God, we were saved! + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + + +"Berna, we must get married." + +"Yes, dearest, whenever you wish." + +"Well, to-morrow." + +She smiled radiantly; then her face grew very serious. + +"What will I wear?" she asked plaintively. + +"Wear? Oh, anything. That white dress you've got on--I never saw you +looking so sweet. You mind me of a picture I know of Saint Cecilia, the +same delicacy of feature, the same pure colouring, the same grace of +expression." + +"Foolish one!" she chided; but her voice was deliciously tender, and her +eyes were love-lit. And indeed, as she stood by the window holding her +embroidery to the failing light, you scarce could have imagined a girl +more gracefully sweet. In a fine mood of idealising, my eyes rested on +her. + +"Yes, fairy girl, that briar rose you are doing in the centre of your +little canvas hoop is not more delicate in the tinting than are your +cheeks; your hands that ply the needle so daintily are whiter than the +May blossoms on its border; those coils of shining hair that crown your +head would shame the silk you use for softness." + +"Don't," she sighed; "you spoil me." + +"Oh no, it's true, true. Sometimes I wish you were not so lovely. It +makes me care so much for you that--it hurts. Sometimes I wish you were +plain, then I would feel more sure of you. Sometimes I fear, fear some +one will steal you away from me." + +"No, no," she cried; "no one ever will. There will never be any one but +you." + +She came over to me, and knelt by my chair, putting her arms around me +prettily. The pure, sweet face looked up into mine. + +"We have been happy here, haven't we, boy?" she asked. + +"Exquisitely happy. Yet I have always been afraid." + +"Of what, dearest?" + +"I don't know. Somehow it seems too good to last." + +"Well, to-morrow we'll be married." + +"Yes, we should have done that a year ago. It's all been a mistake. It +didn't matter at first; nobody noticed, nobody cared. But now it's +different. I can see it by the way the wives of the men look at us. I +wonder do women resent the fact that virtue is only its own reward--they +are so down on those who stray. Well, we don't care anyway. We'll marry +and live our lives. But there are other reasons." + +"Yes?" + +"Yes. Garry talks of coming out. You wouldn't like him to find us living +like this--without benefit of the clergy?" + +"Not for the world!" she cried, in alarm. + +"Well, he won't. Garry's old-fashioned and terribly conventional, but +you'll take to him at once. There's a wonderful charm about him. He's so +good-looking, yet so clever. I think he could win any woman if he tried, +only he's too upright and sincere." + +"What will he think of me, I wonder, poor, ignorant me? I believe I'm +afraid of him. I wish he'd stay away and leave us alone. Yet for your +sake, dear, I do wish him to think well of me." + +"Don't fear, Berna. He'll be proud of you. But there's a second reason." + +"What?" + +I drew her up beside me on the great Morris-chair. + +"Oh, my beloved! perhaps we'll not always be alone as we are now. +Perhaps, perhaps some day there will be others--little ones--for their +sakes." + +She did not speak. I could feel her nestle closer to me. Her cheek was +pressed to mine; her hair brushed my brow and her lips were like +rose-petals on my own. So we sat there in the big, deep chair, in the +glow of the open fire, silent, dreaming, and I saw on her lashes the +glimmer of a glorious tear. + +"Why do you cry, beloved?" + +"Because I'm so happy. I never thought I could be so happy. I want it to +last forever, I never want to leave this little cabin of ours. It will +always be home to me. I love it; oh, how I love it!--every stick and +stone of it! This dear little room--there will never be another like it +in the world. Some day we may have a fine home, but I think I'll always +leave some of my heart here in the little cabin." + +I kissed away her tears. Foolish tears! I blessed her for them. I held +her closer to me. I was wondrous happy. No longer did the shadow of the +past hang over us. Even as children forget, were we forgetting. Outside +the winter's day was waning fast. The ruddy firelight danced around us. +It flickered on the walls, the open piano, the glass front of the +bookcase. It lit up the Indian corner, the lounge with its cushions and +brass reading-lamp, the rack of music, the pictures, the lace curtains, +the gleaming little bit of embroidery. Yes, to me, too, these things +were wistfully precious, for it seemed as if part of her had passed into +them. It would have been like tearing out my heart-strings to part with +the smallest of them. + +"_Husband_, I'm so happy," she sighed. + +"Wife, dear, dear wife, I too." + +There was no need for words. Our lips met in passionate kisses, but the +next moment we started apart. Some one was coming up the garden path--a +tall figure of a man. I started as if I had seen a ghost. Could it +be?--then I rushed to the door. + +There on the porch stood Garry. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + + +As he stood before me once again it seemed as if the years had rolled +away, and we were boys together. A spate of tender memories came over +me, memories of the days of dreams and high resolves, when life rang +true, when men were brave and women pure. Once more I stood upon that +rock-envisaged coast, while below me the yeasty sea charged with a roar +the echoing caves. The gulls were glinting in the sunshine, and by their +little brown-thatched homes the fishermen were spreading out their nets. +High on the hillside in her garden I could see my mother idling among +her flowers. It all came back to me, that sunny shore, the whitewashed +cottages, the old grey house among the birches, the lift of +sheep-starred pasture, and above it the glooming dark of the heather +hills. + +And it was but three years ago. How life had changed! A thousand things +had happened. Fortune had come to me, love had come to me. I had lived, +I had learned. I was no longer a callow, uncouth lad. Yet, alas! I no +longer looked futurewards with joy; the savour of life was no more +sweet. It was another "me" I saw in my mirror that day, a "me" with a +face sorely lined, with hair grey-flecked, with eyes sad and bitter. +Little wonder Garry, as he stood there, stared at me so sorrowfully. + +"How you've changed, lad!" said he at last. + +"Have I, Garry? You're just about the same." + +But indeed he, too, had changed, had grown finer than my fondest +thoughts of him. He seemed to bring into the room the clean, sweet +breath of Glengyle, and I looked at him with admiration in my eyes. +Coming out of the cold, his colour was dazzling as that of a woman; his +deep blue eyes sparkled; his fair silky hair, from the pressure of his +cap, was moulded to the shape of his fine head. Oh, he was handsome, +this brother of mine, and I was proud, proud of him! + +"By all that's wonderful, what brought you here?" + +His teeth flashed in that clever, confident smile. + +"The stage. I just arrived a few minutes ago, and hurried here at once. +Aren't you glad to see me?" + +"Glad? Yes, indeed! I can't tell you how glad. But it's a shock to me +your coming so suddenly. You might have let me know." + +"Yes, it was a sudden resolve; I should have wired you. However, I +thought I would give you a surprise. How are you, old man?" + +"Me--oh, I'm all right, thanks." + +"Why, what's the matter with you, lad? You look ten years older. You +look older than your big brother now." + +"Yes, I daresay. It's the life, it's the land. A hard life and a hard +land." + +"Why don't you go out?" + +"I don't know, I don't know. I keep on planning to go out and then +something turns up, and I put it off a little longer. I suppose I ought +to go, but I'm tied up with mining interests. My partner is away in the +East, and I promised to stay in and look after things. I'm making money, +you see." + +"Not sacrificing your youth and health for that, are you?" + +"I don't know, I don't know." + +There was a puzzled look in his frank face, and for my part I was +strangely ill at ease. With all my joy at his coming, there was a sense +of anxiety, even of fear. I had not wanted him to come just then, to see +me there. I was not ready for him. I had planned otherwise. + +He was fixing me with a clear, penetrating look. For a moment his eyes +seemed to bore into me, then like a flash the charm came back into his +face. He laughed that ringing laugh of his. + +"Well, I was tired of roaming round the old place. Things are in good +order now. I've saved a little money and I thought I could afford to +travel a little, so I came up to see my wandering brother, and his +wonderful North." + +His gaze roved round the room. Suddenly it fell on the piece of +embroidery. He started slightly and I saw his eyes narrow, his mouth +set. His glance shifted to the piano with its litter of music. He looked +at me again, in an odd, bewildered way. He went on speaking, but there +was a queer constraint in his manner. + +"I'm going to stay here for a month, and then I want you to come back +with me. Come back home and get some of the old colour into your cheeks. +The country doesn't agree with you, but we'll have you all right pretty +soon. We'll have you flogging the trout pools and tramping over the +heather with a gun. You remember how--whir-r-r--the black-cock used to +rise up right at one's very feet. They've been very plentiful the last +two years. Oh, we'll have the good old times over again! You'll see, +we'll soon put you right." + +"It's good of you, Garry, to think so much of me; but I'm afraid, I'm +afraid I can't come just yet. I've got so much to do. I've got thirty +men working for me. I've just got to stay." + +He sighed. + +"Well, if you stay I'll stay, too. I don't like the way you're looking. +You're working too hard. Perhaps I can help you." + +"All right; I'm afraid you'll find it rather awful, though. No one lives +up here in winter if they possibly can avoid it. But for a time it will +interest you." + +"I think it will." And again his eyes stared fixedly at that piece of +embroidery on its little hoop. + +"I'm terribly, glad to see you anyway, Garry. There's no use talking, +words can't express things like that between us two. You know what I +mean. I'm glad to see you, and I'll do my best to make your visit a +happy one." + +Between the curtains that hung over the bedroom door I could see Berna +standing motionless. I wondered if he could see her too. His eyes +followed mine. They rested on the curtains and the strong, stern look +came into his face. Yet again he banished it with a sunny smile. + +"Mother's one regret was that you were not with her when she died. Do +you know, old man, I think she was always fonder of you than of me? You +were the sentimental one of the family, and Mother was always a gentle +dreamer. I took more after Dad; dry and practical, you know. Well, +Mother used to worry a good deal about you. She missed you dreadfully, +and before she died she made me promise I'd always stand by you, and +look after you if anything happened." + +"There's not much need of that, Garry. But thanks all the same, old man. +I've seen a lot in the past few years. I know something of the world +now. I've changed. I'm sort of disillusioned. I seem to have lost my +zest for things--but I know how to handle men, how to fight and how to +win." + +"It's not that, lad. You know that to win is often to lose. You were +never made for the fight, my brother. It's all been a mistake. You're +too sensitive, too high-strung for a fighting-man. You have too much +sentiment in you. Your spirit urged you to fields of conquest and +romance, yet by nature you were designed for the gentler life. If you +could have curbed your impulse and only dreamed your adventures, you +would have been the happier. Imagination's been a curse to you, boy. +You've tortured yourself all these years, and now you're paying the +penalty." + +"What penalty?" + +"You've lost your splendid capacity for happiness; your health's +undermined; your faith in mankind is destroyed. Is it worth while? +You've plunged into the fight and you've won. What does your victory +mean? Can it compare with what you've lost? Here, I haven't a third of +what you have, and yet I'm magnificently happy. I don't envy you. I am +going to enjoy every moment of my life. Oh, my brother, you've been +making a sad mistake, but it's not too late! You're young, young. It's +not too late." + +Then I saw that his words were true. I saw that I had never been meant +for the fierce battle of existence. Like those high-strung horses that +were the first to break their hearts on the trail, I was unsuited for it +all. Far better would I have been living the sweet, simple life of my +forefathers. My spirit had upheld me, but now I knew there was a poison +in my veins, that I was a sick man, that I had played the game and +won--at too great a cost. I was like a sprinter that breasts the tape, +only to be carried fainting from the field. Alas! I had gained success +only to find it was another name for failure. + +"Now," said Garry, "you must come home. Back there on the countryside we +can find you a sweet girl to marry. You will love her, have children and +forget all this. Come." + +I rose. I could no longer put it off. + +"Excuse me one moment," I said. I parted the curtains and entered the +bedroom. + +She was standing there, white to the lips and trembling. She looked at +me piteously. + +"I'm afraid," she faltered. + +"Be brave, little girl," I whispered, leading her forward. Then I threw +aside the curtain. + +"Garry," I said, "this is--this is Berna." + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + + +Garry, Berna--there they stood, face to face at last. Long ago I had +visioned this meeting, planned for, yet dreaded it, and now with utter +suddenness it had come. + +The girl had recovered her calm, and I must say she bore herself well. +In her clinging dress of simple white her figure was as slimly graceful +as that of a wood-nymph, her head poised as sweetly as a lily on its +stem. The fair hair rippled away in graceful lines from the fine brow, +and as she gazed at my brother there was a proud, high look in her eyes. + +And Garry--his smile had vanished. His face was cold and stern. There +was a stormy antagonism in his bearing. No doubt he saw in her a +creature who was preying on me, an influence for evil, an overwhelming +indictment against me of sin and guilt. All this I read in his eyes; +then Berna advanced to him with outstretched hand. + +"How do you do? I've heard so much about you I feel as if I'd known you +long ago." + +She was so winning, I could see he was quite taken aback. He took the +little white hand and looked down from his splendid height to the sweet +eyes that gazed into his. He bowed with icy politeness. + +"I feel flattered, I assure you, that my brother should have mentioned +me to you." + +Here he shot a dark look at me. + +"Sit down again, Garry," I said. "Berna and I want to talk to you." + +He complied, but with an ill grace. We all three sat down and a grave +constraint was upon us. Berna broke the silence. + +"What sort of a trip have you had?" + +He looked at her keenly. He saw a simple girl, shy and sweet, gazing at +him with a flattering interest. + +"Oh, not so bad. Travelling sixty miles a day on a jolting stage gets +monotonous, though. The road-houses were pretty decent as a rule, but +some were vile. However, it's all new and interesting to me." + +"You will stay with us for a time, won't you?" + +He favoured me with another grim look. + +"Well, that all depends--I haven't quite decided yet. I want to take +Athol here home with me." + +"Home----" There was a pathetic catch in her voice. Her eyes went round +the little room that meant "home" to her. + +"Yes, that will be nice," she faltered. Then, with a brave effort, she +broke into a lively conversation about the North. As she talked an +inspiration seemed to come to her. A light beaconed in her eyes. Her +face, fine as a cameo, became eager, rapt. She was telling him of the +magical summers, of the midnight sunsets, of the glorious largess of the +flowers, of the things that meant so much to her. She was wonderfully +animated. As I watched her I thought what a perfect little lady she was; +and I felt proud of her. + +He was listening carefully, with evident interest. Gradually his look of +stern antagonism had given way to one of attention. Yet I could see he +was not listening so much to her as he was studying her. His intent gaze +never moved from her face. + +Then I talked a while. The darkness had descended upon us, but the +embers in the open fireplace lighted the room with a rosy glow. I could +not see his eyes now, but I knew he was still watching us keenly. He +merely answered "yes" and "no" to our questions, and his voice was very +grave. Then, after a little, he rose to go. + +"I'll return to the hotel with you," I said. + +Berna gave us a pathetically anxious little look. There was a red spot +on each cheek and her eyes were bright. I could see she wanted to cry. + +"I'll be back in half an hour, dear," I said, while Garry gravely shook +hands with her. + +We did not speak on the way to his room. When we reached it he switched +on the light and turned to me. + +"Brother, who's this girl?" + +"She's--she's my housekeeper. That's all I can say at present, Garry." + +"Married?" + +"No." + +"Good God!" + +Stormily he paced the floor, while I watched him with a great calm. At +last he spoke. + +"Tell me about her." + +"Sit down, Garry; light a cigar. We may as well talk this thing over +quietly." + +"All right. Who is she?" + +"Berna," I said, lighting my cigar, "is a Jewess. She was born of an +unwed mother, and reared in the midst of misery and corruption." + +He stared at me. His mouth hardened; his brow contracted. + +"But," I went on, "I want to say this. You remember, Garry, Mother used +to tell us of our sister who died when she was a baby. I often used to +dream of my dead sister, and in my old, imaginative days I used to think +she had never died at all, but she had grown up and was with us. How we +would have loved her, would we not, Garry? Well, I tell you this--if our +sister had grown up she could have been no sweeter, purer, gentler than +this girl of mine, this Berna." + +He smiled ironically. + +"Then," he said, "if she is so wonderful, why, in the name of Heaven, +haven't you married her?" + +His manner towards her in the early part of the interview had hurt me, +had roused in me a certain perversity. I determined to stand by my guns. + +[Illustration: "Garry," I said, "this is--this is Berna"] + +"Marriage," said I, "isn't everything; often isn't anything. Love is, +and always will be, the great reality. It existed long before marriage +was ever thought of. Marriage is a good thing. It protects the wife and +the children. As a rule, it enforces constancy. But there's a higher +ideal of human companionship that is based on love alone, love so +perfect, so absolute that legal bondage insults it; love that is its own +justification. Such a love is ours." + +The ironical look deepened to a sneer. + +"And look you here, Garry," I went on; "I am living in Dawson in what +you would call 'shame.' Well, let me tell you, there's not ninety-nine +in a hundred legally married couples that have formed such a sweet, +love-sanctified union as we have. That girl is purest gold, a pearl of +untold price. There has never been a jar in the harmony of our lives. We +love each other absolutely. We trust and believe in each other. We would +make any sacrifice for each other. And, I say it again, our marriage is +tenfold holier than ninety-nine out of a hundred of those performed with +all the pomp of surplice and sacristy." + +"Oh, man! man!" he said crushingly, "what's got into you? What nonsense, +what clap-trap is this? I tell you that the old way, the way that has +stood for generations, is the best, and it's a sorry day I find a +brother of mine talking such nonsense. I'm almost glad Mother's dead. It +would surely have broken her heart to know that her son was living in +sin and shame, living with a----" + +"Easy now, Garry," I cautioned him. We faced each other with the table +between us. + +"I'm going to have my say out. I've come all this way to say it, and +you've got to hear me. You're my brother. God knows I love you. I +promised I'd look after you, and now I'm going to save you if I can." + +"Garry," I broke in, "I'm younger than you, and I respect you; but in +the last few years I've grown to see things different from the way we +were taught; broader, clearer, saner, somehow. We can't always follow in +the narrow path of our forefathers. We must think and act for ourselves +in these days. I see no sin and shame in what I'm doing. We love each +other--that is our vindication. It's a pure, white light that dims all +else. If you had seen and striven and suffered as I have done, you might +think as I do. But you've got your smug old-fashioned notions. You gaze +at the trees so hard you can't see the forest. Yours is an ideal, too; +but mine is a purer, more exalted one." + +"Balderdash!" he cried. "Oh, you anger me! Look here, Athol, I came all +this way to see you about this matter. It's a long way to come, but I +knew my brother was needing me and I'd have gone round the world for +you. You never told me anything of this girl in your letters. You were +ashamed." + +"I knew I could never make you understand." + +"You might have tried. I'm not so dense in the understanding. No, you +would not tell me, and I've had letters, warning letters. It was left to +other people to tell me how you drank and gambled and squandered your +money; how you were like to a madman. They told me you had settled down +to live with one of the creatures, a woman who had made her living in +the dance-halls, and every one knows no woman ever did that and remained +straight. They warned me of the character of this girl, of your +infatuation, of your callousness to public opinion. They told me how +barefaced, how shameless you were. They begged me to try and save you. I +would not believe it, but now I've come to see for myself, and it's all +true, it's all true." + +He bowed his head in emotion. + +"Oh, she's good!" I cried. "If you knew her you would think so, too. +You, too, would love her." + +"Heaven forbid! Boy, I must save you. I must, for the honour of the old +name that's never been tarnished. I must make you come home with me." + +He put both hands on my shoulders, looking commandingly into my face. + +"No, no," I said, "I'll never leave her." + +"It will be all right. We can pay her. It can be arranged. Think of the +honour of the old name, lad." + +I shook him off. "Pay!"--I laughed ironically. "Pay" in connection with +the name of Berna--again I laughed. + +"She's good," I said once again. "Wait a little till you know her. Don't +judge her yet. Wait a little." + +He saw it was of no use to waste further words on me. He sighed. + +"Well, well," he said, "have it your own way. I think she's ruining you. +She's dragging you down, sapping your moral principles, lowering your +standard of pure living. She must be bad, bad, or she wouldn't live with +you like that. But have it your own way, boy; I'll wait and see." + + + + +CHAPTER XX + + +In the crystalline days that followed I did much to bring about a +friendship between Garry and Berna. At first I had difficulty in +dragging him to the house, but in a little while he came quite +willingly. The girl, too, aided me greatly. In her sweet, shy way she +did her best to win his regard, so that as the winter advanced a great +change came over him. He threw off that stern manner of his as an actor +throws off a part, and once again he was the dear old Garry I knew and +loved. + +His sunny charm returned, and with it his brilliant smile, his warm, +endearing frankness. He was now twenty-eight, and if there was a +handsomer man in the Northland I had yet to see him. I often envied him +for his fine figure and his clean, vivid colour. It was a wonderfully +expressive face that looked at you, firm and manly, and, above all, +clever. You found a pleasure in the resonant sweetness of his voice. You +were drawn irresistibly to the man, even as you would have been drawn to +a beautiful woman. He was winning, lovable, yet back of all his charm +there was that great quality of strength, of austere purpose. + +He made a hit with every one, and I verily believe that half the women +in the town were in love with him. However, he was quite unconscious of +it, and he stalked through the streets with the gait of a young god. I +knew there were some who for a smile would have followed him to the ends +of the earth, but Garry was always a man's man. Never do I remember the +time when he took an interest in a woman. I often thought, if women +could have the man of their choice, a few handsome ones like Garry would +monopolise them, while we common mortals would go wifeless. Sometimes it +has seemed to me that love is but a second-hand article, and that our +matings are at best only makeshifts. + +I must say I tried very hard to reconcile those two. I threw them +together on every opportunity, for I wanted him to understand and to +love her. I felt he had but to know her to appreciate her at her true +value, and, although he spoke no word to me, I was soon conscious of a +vast change in him. Short of brotherly regard, he was everything that +could be desired to her--cordial, friendly, charming. Once I asked Berna +what she thought of him. + +"I think he's splendid," she said quietly. "He's the handsomest man I've +ever seen, and he's as nice as he's good-looking. In many ways you +remind me of him--and yet there's a difference." + +"I remind you of him--no, girl. I'm not worthy to be his valet. He's as +much above me as I am above--say a siwash. He has all the virtues; I, +all the faults. Sometimes I look at him and I see in him my ideal self. +He is all strength, all nobility, while I am but a commonplace mortal, +full of human weaknesses. He is the self I should have been if the worst +had been the best." + +"Hush! you are my sweetheart," she assured me with a caress, "and the +dearest in the world." + +"By the way, Berna," I said, "you remember something we talked about +before he came? Don't you think that now----?" + +"Now----?" + +"Yes." + +"All right." She flashed a glad, tender look at me and left the room. +That night she was strangely elated. + +Every evening Garry would drop in and talk to us. Berna would look at +him as he talked and her eyes would brighten and her cheeks flush. On +both of us he had a strangely buoyant effect. How happy we could be, +just we three. It was splendid having near me the two I loved best on +earth. + +That was a memorable winter, mild and bright and buoyant. At last Spring +came with gracious days of sunshine. The sleighing was glorious, but I +was busy, very busy, so that I was glad to send Garry and Berna off +together in a smart cutter, and see them come home with their cheeks +like roses, their eyes sparkling and laughter in their voices. I never +saw Berna looking so well and happy. + +I was head over ears in work. In a mail just arrived I had a letter from +the Prodigal, and a certain paragraph in it set me pondering. Here it +was: + + "You must look out for Locasto. He was in New York a week ago. He's + down and out. Blood-poisoning set in in his foot after he got + outside, and eventually he had to have it taken off. He's got a + false mit for the one Mac sawed off. But you should see him. He's + all shot to pieces with the 'hooch.' It's a fright the pace he's + gone. I had an interview with him, and he raved and blasphemed + horribly. Seemed to have a terrible pick at you. Seems you have + copped out his best girl, the only one he ever cared a red cent + for. Said he would get even with you if he swung for it. I think + he's dangerous, even a madman. He is leaving for the North now, so + be on your guard." + +Locasto coming! I had almost forgotten his existence. Well, I no longer +cared for him. I could afford to despise him. Surely he would never dare +to molest us. If he did--he was a broken, discredited blackguard. I +could crush him. + +Coming here! He must even now be on the way. I had a vision of him +speeding along that desolate trail, sitting in the sleigh wrapped in +furs, and brooding, brooding. As day after day the spell of the great +and gloomy land grew on his spirit, I could see the sombre eyes darken +and deepen. I could see him in the road-house at night, gaunt and +haggard, drinking at the bar, a desperate, degraded cripple. I could see +him growing more reckless every day, every hour. He was coming back to +the scene of his ruined fortunes, and God knows with what wild schemes +of vengeance his heart was full. Decidedly I must beware. + +As I sat there dreaming, a ring came to the 'phone. It was the foreman +at Gold Hill. + +"The hoisting machine has broken down," he told me. "Can you come out +and see what is required?" + +"All right," I replied. "I'll leave at once." + +"Berna," I said, "I'll have to go out to the Forks to-night. I'll be +back early to-morrow. Get me a bite to eat, dear, while I go round and +order the horse." + +On my way I met Garry and told him I would be gone over night. "Won't +you come?" I asked. + +"No, thanks, old man, I don't feel like a night drive." + +"All right. Good-bye." + +So I hurried off, and soon after, with a jingle of bells, I drove up to +my door. Berna had made supper. She seemed excited. Her eyes were starry +bright, her cheeks burned. + +"Aren't you well, sweetheart?" I asked. "You look feverish." + +"Yes, dear, I'm well. But I don't want you to go to-night. Something +tells me you shouldn't. Please don't go, dear. Please, for my sake." + +"Oh, nonsense, Berna! You know I've been away before. Get one of the +neighbour's wives to sleep with you. Get in Mrs. Brooks." + +"Oh, don't go, don't go, I beg you, dear. I don't want you to. I'm +afraid, I'm afraid. Won't some one else do?" + +"Nonsense, girl. You mustn't be so foolish. It's only for a few hours. +Here, I'll ring up Mrs. Brooks and you can ask her." + +She sighed. "No, never mind. I'll ring her up after you've gone." + +She clung to me tightly, so that I wondered what had got into the girl. +Then gently I kissed her, disengaged her hands, and bade her good-night. + +As I was rattling off through the darkness, a boy handed me a note. I +put it in my pocket, thinking I would read it when I reached Ogilvie +Bridge. Then I whipped up the horse. + +The night was crisp and exhilarating. I had one of the best trotters in +the country, and the sleighing was superb. As I sped along, with a +jingle of bells, my spirits rose. Things were looking splendid. The mine +was turning out far better than we had expected. Surely we could sell +out soon, and I would have all the money I wanted. Even then the +Prodigal was putting through a deal in New York that would realise our +fortunes. My life-struggle was nearly over. + +Then again, I had reconciled Garry to Berna. When I told him of a +certain secret I was hugging to my breast he would capitulate entirely. +How happy we would all be! I would buy a small estate near home, and we +would settle down. But first we would spend a few years in travel. We +would see the whole world. What good times we would have, Berna and I! +Bless her! It had all worked out beautifully. + +Why was she so frightened, so loath to let me go? I wondered vaguely and +flicked up the horse so that it plunged sharply forward. The vast +blue-black sky was like an inverted gold-pan and the stars were flake +colours adhering to it. The cold snapped at me till my cheeks tingled, +and my eyes felt as if they could spark. Oh, life was sweet! + +Bother! In my elation I had forgotten to get off at the Old Inn and +read my note. Never mind, I would keep it till I reached the Forks. + +As I spun along, I thought of how changed it all was from the Bonanza I +first knew. How I remembered tramping along that hillside slope, packing +a sack of flour over a muddy trail, a poor miner in muddy overalls! Now +I was driving a smart horse on a fine road. I was an operator of a +first-class mine. I was a man of business, of experience. Higher and +higher my spirits rose. + +How fast the horse flew! I would be at the Forks in no time. I flashed +past cabin windows. I saw the solitary oil-lamp and the miner reading +his book or filling his pipe. Never was there a finer, more intelligent +man; but his day was passing. The whole country was falling into the +hands of companies. Soon, thought I, one or two big combines would +control the whole wealth of that land. Already they had their eyes on +it. The gold-ships would float and roar where the old-time miner toiled +with pick and pan. Change! Change! + +I almost fancied I could see the monster dredges ploughing up the +valley, where now men panted at the windlass. I could see vast heaps of +tailings filling the creek-bed; I could hear the crash of the steel +grizzlies; I could see the buckets scooping up the pay-dirt. I felt +strangely prophetic. My imagination ran riot in all kinds of wonders, +great power plants, quartz discoveries. Change! Change! + +Yes, the stamp-mill would add its thunder to the other voices; the +country would be netted with wires, and clamorous for far and wide. Man +had sought out this land where Silence had reigned so long. He had +awakened the echoes with the shot of his rifle and the ring of his axe. +Silence had raised a startled head and poised there, listening. Then, +with crack of pick and boom of blast, man had hurled her back. Further +and further had he driven her. With his advancing horde, mad in their +lust for the loot of the valley, he had banished her. His engines had +frightened her with their canorous roar. His crashing giants had driven +her cowering to the inviolate fastnesses of her hills. And there she +broods and waits. + +But Silence will return. To her was given the land that she might rule +and have dominion over it forever. And in a few years the clamour will +cease, the din will die away. In a few years the treasure will be +exhausted, and the looters will depart. The engines will lie in rust and +ruin; the wind will sweep through the empty homes; the tailing-piles lie +pallid in the moon. Then the last man will strike the last blow, and +Silence will come again into her own. + +Yea, Silence will come home once more. Again will she rule despotic over +peak and plain. She is only waiting, brooding in the impregnable +desolation of her hills. To her has been given empery of the land, and +hand in hand with Darkness will she return. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + + +Ha! here I had reached the Forks at last. As I drew up at the hotel, the +clerk came out to meet me. + +"Gent wants to speak to you at the 'phone, sir." + +It was Murray of Dawson, an old-timer, and rather a friend of mine. + +"Hello!" + +"Hello! Say, Meldrum, this is Murray speaking. Say, just wanted to let +you know there's a stage due some time before morning. Locasto's on +board, and they say he's heeled for you. Thought I'd better tell you +so's you can get fixed up for him." + +"All right," I answered. "Thank you. I'll turn and come right back." + +So I switched round the horse, and once more I drove over the glistening +road. No longer did I plan and exult. Indeed a grim fear was gripping +me. Of a sudden the shadow of Locasto loomed up sinister and menacing. +Even now he was speeding Dawsonward with a great hatred of me in his +heart. Well, I would get back and prepare for him. + +There came to my mind a comic perception of the awkwardness of returning +to one's own home unexpectedly, in the dead of night. At first I decided +I would go to a hotel, then on second thoughts I determined to try the +house, for I had a desire to be near Berna. + +I knocked gently, then a little louder, then at last quite loudly. +Within all was still, dark as a sepulchre. Curious! she was such a light +sleeper, too. Why did she not hear me? + +Once more I decided to go to the hotel; once more that vague, indefinite +fear assailed me and again I knocked. And now my fear was becoming a +panic. I had my latch-key in my pocket, so very quietly I opened the +door. + +I was in the front room, and it was dark, very dark and quiet. I could +not even hear her breathe. + +"Berna," I whispered. + +No reply. + +That dim, nameless dread was clutching at my heart, and I groped +overhead in the darkness for the drop-light. How hard it was to find! A +dozen times my hand circled in the air before I knocked my knuckles +against it. I switched it on. + +Instantly the cabin was flooded with light. In the dining-room I could +see the remains of our supper lying untidily. That was not like her. She +had a horror of dirty dishes. I passed into the bedroom--Ah! the bed had +never been slept on. + +What a fool I was! It flashed on me she had gone over to Mrs. Brooks' to +sleep. She was afraid of being alone. Poor little girl! How surprised +she would be to see me in the morning! + +Well, I would go to bed. As I was pulling off my coat, I found the note +that had been given to me. Blaming myself for my carelessness, I pulled +it out of my pocket and opened it. As I unfolded the sheet, I noticed +it was written in what looked like a disguised hand. Strange! I thought. +The writing was small and faint. I rubbed my eyes and held it up to the +light. + +Merciful God! What was this? Oh no, it could not be! My eyes were +deceiving me. It was some illusion. Feverishly I read again. Yes, they +were the same words. What could they mean? Surely, surely--Oh, horror on +horrors! They could not mean THAT. Again I read them. Yes, there they +were: + + "If you are fool enough to believe that Berna is faithful to you + visit your brother's room to-night. + + "A wellwisher." + +Berna! Garry!--the two I loved. Oh, it could not be! It was monstrous! +It was too horrible! I would not believe it; I would not. Curse the vile +wretch that wrote such words! I would kill him. Berna! my Berna! she was +as good as gold, as true as steel. Garry! I would lay my life on his +honour. Oh, vile calumny! what devil had put so foul a thing in words? +God! it hurt me so, it hurt me so! + +Dazedly I sat down. A sudden rush of heat was followed by a sweat that +pricked out of me and left me cold. I trembled. I saw a ghastly vision +of myself in a mirror. I felt sick, sick. Going to the decanter on the +bureau, I poured myself a stiff jolt of whisky. + +Again I sat down. The paper lay on the hearthrug, and I stared at it +hatefully. It was unspeakably loathsome, yet I was fascinated by it. I +longed to take it up, to read it again. Somehow I did not dare. I was +becoming a coward. + +Well, it was a lie, a black devil's lie. She was with one of the +neighbours. I trusted her. I would trust her with my life. I would go to +bed. In the morning she would return, and then I would unearth the +wretch who had dared to write such things. I began to undress. + +Slowly I unfastened my collar--that cursed paper; there it lay. Again it +fascinated me. I stood glaring at it. Oh, fool! fool! go to bed. + +Wearily I took off my clothes--Oh, that devilish note! It was burning +into my brain--it would drive me mad. In a frenzy of rage, I took it up +as if it were some leprous thing, and dropped it in the fire. + +There I lay in bed with the darkness enfolding me, and I closed my eyes +to make a double darkness. Ha! right in the centre of my eyes, burned +the fatal paper with its atrocious suggestion. I sprang up. It was of no +use. I must settle this thing once and for all. I turned on the light +and deliberately dressed again. + +I was going to the hotel where Garry had his room. I would tell him I +had come back unexpectedly and ask to share his room. I was not acting +on the note! I did not suspect her. Heaven forbid! But the thing had +unnerved me. I could not stay in this place. + +The hotel was quiet. A sleepy night-clerk stared at me, and I pushed +past him. Garry's rooms were on the third floor. As I climbed the long +stairway, my heart was beating painfully, and when I reached his door I +was sadly out of breath. Through the transom I could see his light was +burning. + +I knocked faintly. + +There was a sudden stir. + +Again I knocked. + +Did my ears deceive me or did I hear a woman's startled cry? There was +something familiar about it--Oh, my God! + +I reeled. I almost fell. I clutched at the doorframe. I leaned sickly +against the door for support. Heaven help me! + +"I'm coming," I heard him say. + +The door was unlocked, and there he stood. He was fully dressed. He +looked at me with an expression on his face I could not define, but he +was very calm. + +"Come in," he said. + +I went into his sitting-room. Everything was in order. I would have +sworn I heard a woman scream, and yet no one was in sight. The bedroom +door was slightly ajar. I eyed it in a fascinated way. + +"I'm sorry to disturb you, Garry," I said, and I was conscious how +strained and queer my voice sounded. "I got back suddenly, and there's +no one at home. I want to stay here with you, if you don't mind." + +"Certainly, old man; only too glad to have you." + +His voice was steady. I sat down on the edge of a chair. My eyes were +riveted on that bedroom door. + +"Had a good drive?" he went on genially. "You must be cold. Let me give +you some whisky." + +My teeth were chattering. I clutched the chair. Oh, that door! My eyes +were fastened on it. I was convinced I heard some one in there. He rose +to get the whisky. + +"Say when?" + +I held the glass with a shaking hand: + +"When." + +"What's the matter, old man? You're ill." + +I clutched him by the arm. + +"Garry, there's some one in that room." + +"Nonsense! there's no one there." + +"There is, I tell you. Listen! Don't you hear them breathing?" + +He was quiet. Distinctly I could hear the panting of human breath. I was +going mad, mad. I could stand it no longer. + +"Garry," I gasped, "I'm going to see, I'm going to see." + +"Don't----" + +"Yes, I must, I say. Let me go. I'll drag them out." + +"Hold on----" + +"Leave go, man! I'm going, I say. You won't hold me. Let go, I tell you, +let go--Now come out, come out, whoever you are--Ah!" + +It was a woman. + +"Ha!" I cried, "I told you so, brother; a woman. I think I know her, +too. Here, let me see--I thought so." + +I had clutched her, pulled her to the light. It was Berna. + +Her face was white as chalk, her eyes dilated with terror. She trembled. +She seemed near fainting. + +"I thought so." + +Now that it seemed the worst was betrayed to me, I was strangely calm. + +"Berna, you're faint. Let me lead you to a chair." + +I made her sit down. She said no word, but looked at me with a wild +pleading in her eyes. No one spoke. + +There we were, the three of us: Berna faint with fear, ghastly, pitiful; +I calm, yet calm with a strange, unnatural calmness, and Garry--he +surprised me. He had seated himself, and with the greatest _sang-froid_ +he was lighting a cigarette. + +A long tense silence. At last I broke it. + +"What have you got to say for yourself, Garry?" I asked. + +It was wonderful how calm he was. + +"Looks pretty bad, doesn't it, brother?" he said gravely. + +"Yes, it couldn't look worse." + +"Looks as if I was a pretty base, despicable specimen of a man, doesn't +it?" + +"Yes, about as base as a man could be." + +"That's so." He rose and turned up the light of a large reading-lamp, +then coming to me he looked me square in the face. Abruptly his casual +manner dropped. He grew sharp, forceful; his voice rang clear. + +"Listen to me." + +"I'm listening." + +"I came out here to save you, and I'm going to save you. You wanted me +to believe that this girl was good. You believed it. You were bewitched, +befooled, blinded. I could see it, but I had to make you see it. I had +to make you realise how worthless she was, how her love for you was a +sham, a pretence to prey on you. How could I prove it? You would not +listen to reason: I had to take other means. Now, hear me." + +"I hear." + +"I laid my plans. For three months I've tried to conquer her, to win her +love, to take her from you. She was truer to you than I had bargained +for; I must give her credit for that. She made a good fight, but I think +I have triumphed. To-night she came to my room at my invitation." + +"Well?" + +"Well. You got a note. _Now, I wrote that note._ I planned this scene, +this discovery. I planned it so that your eyes would be opened, so that +you would see what she was, so that you would cast her from +you--unfaithful, a wanton, a----" + +"Hold on there," I broke in; "brother of mine or no, I won't hear you +call her those names; no, not if she were ten times as unfaithful. You +won't, I say. I'll choke the words in your throat. I'll kill you, if +you utter a word against her. Oh, what have you done?" + +"What have I done! Try to be calm, man. What have I done? Well, this is +what I've done, and it's the lucky day for you I've done it. I've saved +you from shame; I've freed you from sin; I've shown you the baseness of +this girl." + +He rose to his feet. + +"Oh, my brother, I've stolen from you your mistress; that's what I've +done." + +"Oh, no, you haven't," I groaned. "God forgive you, Garry; God forgive +you! She's not my--not what you think. She's my _wife_!" + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + + +I thought that he would faint. His face went white as paper and he +shrank back. He gazed at me with wild, straining eyes. + +"God forgive me! Oh, why didn't you tell me, boy? Why didn't you tell +me?" + +In his voice there was a note more poignant than a sob. + +"You should have trusted me," he went on. "You should have told me. When +were you married?" + +"Just a month ago. I was keeping it as a surprise for you. I was waiting +till you said you liked and thought well of her. Oh, I thought you would +be pleased and glad, and I was treasuring it up to tell you." + +"This is terrible, terrible!" + +His voice was choked with agony. On her chair, Berna drooped wearily. +Her wide, staring eyes were fixed on the floor in pitiful perplexity. + +"Yes, it's terrible enough. We were so happy. We lived so joyously +together. Everything was perfect, a heaven for us both. And then you +came, you with your charm that would lure an angel from high heaven. You +tried your power on my poor little girl, the girl that never loved but +me. And I trusted you, I tried to make you and her friends. I left you +together. In my blind innocence I aided you in every way--a simple, +loving fool. Oh, now I see!" + +"Yes, yes, I know. Your words stab me. It's all true, true." + +"You came like a serpent, a foul, crawling thing, to steal her from me, +to wrong me. She was loving, faithful, pure. You would have dragged her +in the mire. You----" + +"Stop, brother, stop, for Heaven's sake! You wrong me." + +He held out his hand commandingly. A wonderful change had come over him. +His face had regained its calm. It was proud, stern. + +"You must not think I would have been guilty of that," he said quietly. +"I've played a part I never thought to play; I've done a thing I never +thought to have dirtied my hands in the doing, and I'm sorry and ashamed +for it. But I tell you, Athol--that's all. As God's my witness, I've +done you no wrong. Surely you don't think me as low as that? Surely you +don't believe that of me? I did what I did for my very love for you, for +your honour's sake. I asked her here that you might see what she +was--but that's all, I swear it. She's been as safe as if in a cage of +steel." + +"I know it," I said; "I know it. You don't need to tell me that. You +brought her here to expose her, to show me what a fool I was. It didn't +matter how much it hurt me, the more the better, anything to save the +name. You would have broken my heart, sacrificed me on the altar of +your accursed pride. Oh, I can see plainly now! There's a thousand years +of prejudice and bigotry concentrated in you. Thank God, I have a human +heart!" + +"I thought I was acting for the best!" he cried. + +I laughed scornfully. + +"I know it--according to your lights. You asked her here that I might +see what she was. You tell me you have gained her love; you say she came +here at your bidding; you swear she would have been unfaithful to me. +Well, I tell you, brother of mine, in your teeth I tell you--_I don't +believe you!_" + +Suddenly the little, drooping figure on the chair had raised itself; the +white, woe-begone face with the wide, staring eyes was turned towards +me; the pitiful look had gone, and in its stead was one of wild, +unspeakable joy. + +"It's all right, Berna," I said; "I don't believe him, and if a million +others were to say the same, if they were to thunder it in my ears down +all eternity, I would tell them they lied, they lied!" + +A heaven-lit radiance was in the grey eyes. She made as if to come to +me, but she swayed, and I caught her in my arms. + +"Don't be frightened, little girl. Give me your hand. See! I'll kiss it, +dear. Now, don't cry; don't, honey." + +Her arms were around me. She clung to me ever so tightly. + +"Garry," I said, "this is my wife. When I have lost my belief in all +else, I will believe in her. You have made us both suffer. As for what +you've said--you're mistaken. She's a good, good girl. I will not +believe that by thought, word or deed she has been untrue to me. She +will explain everything. Now, good-bye. Come, Berna." + +Suddenly she stopped me. Her hand was on my arm, and she turned towards +Garry. She held herself as proudly as a queen. + +"I want to explain now," she said, "before you both." + +She pulled from her bosom a little crumpled note, and handed it to me. +Then, as I read it, a great light burst on me. Here it was: + + "Dear Berna: + + "For heaven's sake be on your guard. Jack Locasto is on his way + north again. I think he's crazy. I know he'll stick at nothing, and + I don't want to see blood spilt. He says he means to wipe out all + old scores. For your sake, and for the sake of one dear to you, be + warned. + + "In haste, + + "Viola Lennoir." + +"I got it two days ago," she said. "Oh, I've been distracted with fear. +I did not like to show it to you. I've brought you nothing but trouble, +and I've never spoken of him, never once. You understand, don't you?" + +"Yes, little girl, I understand." + +"I wanted to save you, no matter at what cost. To-night I tried to +prevent you going out there, for I feared you might meet him. I knew he +was very near. Then, when you had gone, my fear grew and grew. There I +sat, thinking over everything. Oh, if I only had a friend, I thought; +some one to help me. Then, as I sat, dazed, distracted, the 'phone rang. +It was your brother." + +"Yes, go on, dear." + +"He told me he wanted to see me; he begged me to come at once. I thought +of you, of your danger, of some terrible mishap. I was terrified. I +went." + +She paused a moment, as if the recital was infinitely painful to her, +then she went on. + +"I found my way to his room. My mind was full of you, of that man, of +how to save you. I did not think of myself, of my position. At first I +was too agitated to speak. He bade me sit down, compose myself. His +manner was quiet, grave. Again I feared for you. He asked me to excuse +him for a moment, and left the room. He seemed to be gone an age, while +I sat there, trying to fight down my terror. The suspense was killing +me. Then he came back. He closed and locked the door. All at once I +heard a step outside, a knock. 'Hush! go in there,' he said. He opened +the door. I heard him speaking to some one. I waited, then you burst in +on me. You know the rest." + +"Yes, yes." + +"As for your brother, I've tried, oh, so hard, to be nice to him for +your sake. I liked him; I wanted to be to him as a sister, but never an +unfaithful thought has entered my head, never a wrong feeling sullied my +heart. I've been true to you. You told me once of a love that gives all +and asks for nothing; a love that would turn its back on friends and +kindred for the sake of its beloved. You said: 'His smile will be your +rapture, his frown your anguish. For him will you dare all, bear all. To +him will you cling in sorrow, suffering and poverty. Living, you would +follow him round the world; dying, you would desire but him.'--Well, I +think I love you like that." + +"Oh, my dear, my dear!" + +"I want to bring you happiness, but I only bring you trouble, sorrow. +Sometimes, for your sake, I wish we had never met." + +She turned to Garry. + +"As for you, you've done me a great wrong. I can never forget it. Will +you go now, and leave us in peace?" + +His head was bent, so that I could not see his face. + +"Can you not forgive?" he groaned. + +She shook her head sadly. "No, I am afraid I can never forgive." + +"Can I do nothing to atone?" + +"No, I'm afraid your punishment must be--that you can do nothing." + +He said never a word. She turned to me: + +"Come, my husband, we will go." + +I was opening the door to leave him forever. Suddenly I heard a step +coming up the stairs, a heavy, hurried tread. I looked down a moment, +then I pushed her back into the room. + +"Be prepared, Berna," I said quietly; "here comes Locasto." + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + + +There we waited, Garry and I, and between us Berna. We heard that heavy +tread come up, up the creaking stairway, stumble a moment, then pause on +the landing. There was something ominous, something pregnant in that +pause. The steps halted, wavered a little, then, inflexible as doom, on +they came towards us. The next instant the door was thrown open, and +Locasto stood in the entrance. + +Even in that brief moment I was struck by the change in him. He seemed +to have aged by twenty years. He was gaunt and lank as a starved timber +wolf; his face was hollow almost as a death's head; his hair was long +and matted, and his eyes burned with a strange, unnatural fire. In that +dark, aquiline face the Indian was never more strongly revealed. He +limped, and I noticed his left hand was gloved. + +From under his bristling brows he glared at us. As he swayed there he +minded me of an evil beast, a savage creature, a mad, desperate thing. +He reeled in the doorway, and to steady himself put out his gloved hand. +Then with a malignant laugh, the fleering laugh of a fiend, he stepped +into the room. + +"So! Seems as if I'd lighted on a pretty nest of love-birds. Ho! ho! my +sweet! You're not satisfied with one lover, you must have two. Well, you +are going to be satisfied with one from now on, and that's Jack +Locasto. I've stood enough from you, you white-faced jade. You've +haunted me, you've put some kind of a spell on me. You've lured me back +to this land, and now I'm going to have you or die! You've played with +me long enough. The jig's up. Stand out from between those two. Stand +out, I say! March out of that door." + +She only shrank back the farther. + +"You won't come, curse you; you won't come, you milk-faced witch, with +your great eyes that bore holes in me, that turn my heart to fire, that +make me mad. You won't come. Stand back there, you two, and let the girl +come." + +We shielded her. + +"Ha! that's it--you defy me. You won't let me get her. Well, it'll be +all the worse for her. I'll make her life a hell. I'll beat her. You +won't stand back. You, the dark one--don't I know you; haven't I hated +you more than the devil hates a saint; hated you worse than bitter +poison? These three black years you've balked me, you've kept her from +me. Oh, I've itched to kill you times without number, and I've spared +you. But now it's my call. Stand back there, stand back I say. Your +time's come. Here's where I shoot." + +His hand leapt up and I saw it gripped a revolver. He had me covered. +His face was contorted with devilish triumph, and I knew he meant to +kill. At last, at last my time had come. I saw his fingers twitching on +the trigger, I gazed into the hollow horror of that barrel. My heart +turned to ice. I could not breathe. Oh, for a respite, a moment--Ugh!... +he pulled the trigger, and, _at the same instant, Garry sprang at him_! + +What had happened? The shot rang in my ears. I was still standing there. +I felt no wound. I felt no pain. Then, as I stared at my enemy, I heard +a heavy fall. Oh, God! there at my feet lay Garry, lay in a huddled, +quivering heap, lay on his face, and in his fair hair I saw a dark stain +start and spread. Then, in a moment, I realised what my brother had +done. + +I fell on my knees beside him. + +"Garry, Garry!" I moaned. I heard Berna scream, and I saw that Locasto +was coming for me. He was a man no longer. He had killed. He was a +brute, a fury, a devil, mad with the lust of slaughter. With a snarl he +dashed at me. Again I thought he was going to shoot, but no! He raised +the heavy revolver and brought it crashing down on my head. I felt the +blow fall, and with it my strength seemed to shoot out of me. My legs +were paralysed. I could not move. And, as I lay there in a misty daze, +he advanced on Berna. + +There she stood at bay, a horror-stricken thing, weak, panting, +desperate. I saw him corner her. His hands were stretched out to clutch +her; a moment more and he would have her in his arms, a moment--ah! With +a suddenness that was like a flash she had raised the heavy reading-lamp +and dashed it in his face. + +I heard his shriek of fear; I saw him fall as the thing crashed between +his eyes; I saw the flames spurt and leap. High in the air he rose, +awful in his agony. He was in a shroud of fire; he was in a pool of +flame. He howled like a dog and fell over on the bed. + +Then suddenly the oil-soaked bedding caught. The curtains seemed to leap +and change into flame. As he rolled and roared in his agony, the blaze +ran up the walls, and caught the roof. Help, help! the room was afire, +was burning up. Fire! Fire! + +Out in the corridor I heard a great running about, shouting of men, +screaming of women. The whole place seemed to be alive, panic-stricken, +frenzied with fear. Everything was in flames now, burning fiercely, +madly, and there was no stopping them. The hotel was burning, and I, +too, must burn. What a horrible end! Oh, if I could only do something! +But I could not move. From the waist down I was like a dead man. Where +was Berna? Pray God she was safe. I could not cry for aid. The room was +reeling round and round. I was faint, dizzy, helpless. + +The hotel was ablaze. In the streets below crowds were gathering. People +were running up and down the stairway, fighting to get free, mad with +terror, leaping from the windows. Oh, it was awful, to burn, to burn! I +seemed to be caged in flames that were darting at me savagely, +spitefully. Would nobody save me? + +Yes, some one was trying to save me, was dragging my body across the +floor. Consciousness left me, and it seemed for ages I lay in a stupor. +When I opened my eyes again some one was still tugging at me. We were +going down the stairway, and on all sides of us were sheets of flapping +flame. I was wrapped in a blanket. How had it got there? Who was that +dark figure pulling at me so desperately, trying to lift me, staggering +a few paces with me, stumbling blindly on? Brave one, noble one, whoever +you be! Foolhardy one, reckless one, whoever you be! Save yourself while +yet there is time. Leave me to my fate. But, oh, the agony of it to +burn, to burn ...! + + * * * * * + +Another desperate effort and we are almost at the door. Flames are +darting at us like serpents, leaping kitten-like at our heels. Above us +is a billowy canopy of fire soaring upward with a vast crackling roar. +Fiery splinters shoot around us, while before us is a black pit of +smoke. Smooth walls of fire uprear about us. We are in a cavern of fire, +and in another moment it will engulf us. Oh, my rescuer, a last frenzied +effort! We are almost at the door. Then I am lifted up and we both +tumble out into the street. Not a second too soon, for, like a savage +beast foiled of its prey, a blast of flame shoots after us, and the +doorway is a gulf of blazing wrath. + + * * * * * + +I am lying in the snow, lying on a blanket, and some one holds my head. + +"Berna, is that you?" + +She nods. She does not speak. I shudder as I look at her. Her face is +like a great burn, a black mask in which her eyes and teeth gleam +whitely.... + +"Oh, Berna, Berna, and it was you that dragged me out...!" + + * * * * * + +My eyes go to the fiery hell in front. As I look the roof crashes in and +we are showered by falling sparks. I see a fireman run back. He is +swathed in flame. Madly he rolls in the snow. The hotel is like a +cascade of flame; it spouts outward like water, beautiful golden water. +In its centre is a wonderful whirlpool. I see the line of a black girder +leap out, and hanging over it a limp, charred shape. A moment it hangs +uncertainly, then plunges downward into the roasting heart of the pit. +And I know it for Locasto. + + * * * * * + +Oh, Berna, Berna! I can't bear to look at her. Why did she do it? It's +pitiful, pitiful.... + +The fire is spreading. Right and left it swings and leaps in giant +strides. Sudden flames shoot out, curl over and roll like golden velvet +down the black faces of the buildings. The fire leaps the street. All is +pandemonium now. Mad with fear and excitement, men and women rave and +curse and pray. Water! water! is the cry; but no water comes. Suddenly a +mob of terror-goaded men comes surging down the street. They bring the +long hose line that connects with the pump-station on the river. Hurrah! +now they will soon have the flames under control. Water, water is +coming. + +The line is laid and a cry goes up to turn on the water. Hurry there! +But no water comes. What can be the matter? Then the dread whisper goes +round that the man in charge of the pumping-station has neglected his +duty, and the engine fires are cold. A howl of fury and despair goes up +to the lurid heavens. Women wring their hands and moan; men stand by in +a stupor of hopeless agony. And the fire, as if it knew of its victory, +leaps up in a roaring ecstasy of triumph. + +There we watched, Berna and I, lying in the snow that melts all around +us in the fierce, scorching glare. Through the lurid rift of smoke I can +see the friendly stars. Against that curtain of blaze, strangely +beautiful in its sinuous strength, I watch the black silhouettes of men +running hither and thither like rats, gutting the houses, looting the +stores, tearing the hearts out of the homes. The fire seems a great +bird, and from its nest of furnace heat it spreads its flapping wings +over the city. + +Yes, there is no hope. The gold-born city is doomed. From where I lie +the scene is one long vista of blazing gables, ribs and rafters hugged +by tawny arms of fire. Squat cabins swirling in mad eddies of flame; +hotels, dance-halls, brothels swathed and smothered in flame-rent +blankets of swirling smoke. There is no hope. The fire is a vast +avenger, and before its wrath the iniquity of the tenderloin is swept +away. That flimsy hive of humanity, with its sins and secrets and +sorrows, goes up in smoke and ashes to the silent stars. + +The gold-born city is doomed. Yet, as I lay there, it seemed to me like +a judgment, and that from its ruins would arise a new city, clean, +upright, incorruptible. Yes, the gold-camp would find itself. Even as +the gold, must it pass through the furnace to be made clean. And from +the site where in the olden days the men who toiled for the gold were +robbed by every device of human guile, a new city would come to be--a +great city, proud and prosperous, beloved of homing hearts, and blessed +in its purity and peace. + +"Beloved," I sighed through a gathering mist of consciousness. I felt +some hot tears falling on my face. I felt a kiss seal my lips. I felt a +breathing in my ear. + +"Oh, my dear, my dear!" she said. "I've only brought you sorrow and +pain, but you've brought me love, that love that is a dazzling light, +beside which the sunshine is as darkness." + +"Berna!" I raised myself; I put out my arms to clasp her. They clasped +the empty air. Wildly, wildly I looked around. She was gone! + +"Berna!" Again I cried, but there was no reply. I was alone, alone. Then +a great weakness came over me.... + +I never saw her again. + + + + +THE LAST + + +It is finished. I have written here the story of my life, or of that +portion of it which means everything to me, for the rest means nothing. +Now that it is done, I too have done, so I sit me down and wait. For +what am I waiting? A divine miracle perhaps. + +Somehow I feel I will see her again, somehow, somewhere. Surely God +would not reveal to us the shining light of the Great Reality only to +plunge us again into outer darkness? Love cannot be in vain. I will not +believe it. Somehow, somewhere! + +So in the glow of the great peat fire I sit me down and wait, and the +faith grows in me that she will come to me again; that I will feel the +soft caress of her hand upon my pillow, that I will hear her voice all +tuned to tenderness, that I will see through my tear-blinded eyes her +sweet compassionate face. Somehow, somewhere! + +With the aid of my crutch I unlatch one of the long windows and step out +onto the terrace. I peer through the darkness and once more I have a +sense of that land of imperious vastitudes so unfathomably lonely. With +an unspeakable longing in my heart, I try to pierce the shadows that +surround me. From the cavernous dark the snowflakes sting my face, but +the great night seems good to me, and I sink into a garden seat. Oh, I +am tired, tired.... + +I am waiting, waiting. I close my eyes and wait. I know she will come. +The snow is covering me. White as a statue, I sit and wait. + + * * * * * + +Ah, Berna, my dear, my dear! I knew you would return; I knew, I knew. +Come to me, little one. I'm tired, so tired. Put your arms around me, +girl; kiss me, kiss me. I'm weak and ill, but now you've come I'll soon +be well again. You won't leave me any more; will you, honey? Oh, it's +good to have you once again! It seems like a dream. Kiss me once more, +sweetheart. It's all so cold and dark. Put your arms around me.... + +Oh, Berna, Berna, light of my life, I knew all would come right at +last--beyond the mists, beyond the dreaming; at last, dear love, at +last!... + + + +***END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE TRAIL OF '98*** + + +******* This file should be named 22063.txt or 22063.zip ******* + + +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: +https://www.gutenberg.org/dirs/2/2/0/6/22063 + + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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