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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/26635-8.txt b/26635-8.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..008b700 --- /dev/null +++ b/26635-8.txt @@ -0,0 +1,4382 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of The Rose Garden Husband, by Margaret Widdemer + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Rose Garden Husband + +Author: Margaret Widdemer + +Release Date: September 16, 2008 [EBook #26635] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE ROSE GARDEN HUSBAND *** + + + + +Produced by Mark C. Orton, Linda McKeown and the Online +Distributed Proofreading Team at http://www.pgdp.net + + + + + + + + + +THE + +ROSE-GARDEN HUSBAND + +BY + +MARGARET WIDDEMER + + +WITH ILLUSTRATIONS BY + +WALTER BIGGS + + +NEW YORK GROSSET & DUNLAP PUBLISHERS + +COPYRIGHT 1914, BY J. B. LIPPINCOTT COMPANY + +COPYRIGHT 1915, BY J. B. LIPPINCOTT COMPANY + + +PUBLISHED, JANUARY 27, 1915 + +SECOND PRINTING, FEBRUARY 6, 1915 + +THIRD PRINTING, MARCH 12, 1915 + +FOURTH PRINTING, APRIL 23, 1915 + +FIFTH PRINTING, JUNE 10, 1915 + +SIXTH PRINTING, AUGUST 6, 1915 + +SEVENTH PRINTING, OCTOBER 21, 1915 + +EIGHTH PRINTING, MAY 1, 1916 + +NINTH PRINTING, OCTOBER 30, 1916 + + * * * * * + +[Illustration: "YOU KNOW, I MARRIED YOU PRINCIPALLY FOR A ROSE-GARDEN, +AND THAT'S _LOVELY_!" + +_Page 172_] + + * * * * * + +IN LOVING MEMORY + +OF + +HOWARD TAYLOR WIDDEMER + + * * * * * + + + + +THE ROSE-GARDEN HUSBAND + + + + +I + + +The Liberry Teacher lifted her eyes from a half-made catalogue-card, +eyed the relentlessly slow clock and checked a long wriggle of purest, +frankest weariness. Then she gave a furtive glance around to see if the +children had noticed she was off guard; for if they had she knew the +whole crowd might take more liberties than they ought to, and have to be +spoken to by the janitor. He could do a great deal with them, because he +understood their attitude to life, but that wasn't good for the Liberry +Teacher's record. + +It was four o'clock of a stickily wet Saturday. As long as it is +anything from Monday to Friday the average library attendant goes around +thanking her stars she isn't a school-teacher; but the last day of the +week, when the rest of the world is having its relaxing Saturday off and +coming to gloat over you as it acquires its Sunday-reading best seller, +if you work in a library you begin just at noon to wish devoutly that +you'd taken up scrubbing-by-the-day, or hack-driving, or porch-climbing +or--anything on earth that gave you a weekly half-holiday! + +So the Liberry Teacher braced herself severely, and put on her +reading-glasses with a view to looking older and more firm. "Liberry +Teacher," it might be well to explain, was not her official title. Her +description on the pay-roll ran "Assistant for the Children's +Department, Greenway Branch, City Public Library." Grown-up people, when +she happened to run across them, called her Miss Braithwaite. But +"Liberry Teacher" was the only name the children ever used, and she saw +scarcely anybody but the children, six days a week, fifty-one weeks a +year. As for her real name, that nobody ever called her by, _that_ was +Phyllis Narcissa. + +She was quite willing to have such a name as that buried out of sight. +She had a sense of fitness; and such a name belonged back in an old New +England parsonage garden full of pink roses and nice green caterpillars +and girl-dreams, and the days before she was eighteen: not in a smutty +city library, attached to a twenty-five-year-old young woman with +reading-glasses and fine discipline and a woolen shirt-waist! + +It wasn't that the Liberry Teacher didn't like her position. She not +only liked it, but she had a great deal of admiration for it, because it +had been exceedingly hard to get. She had held it firmly now for a whole +year. Before that she had been in the Cataloguing, where your eyes hurt +and you get a little pain between your shoulders, but you sit down and +can talk to other girls; and before that in the Circulation, where it +hurts your feet and you get ink on your fingers, but you see lots of +funny things happening. She had started at eighteen years old, at thirty +dollars a month. Now she was twenty-five, and she got all of fifty +dollars, so she ought to have been a very happy Liberry Teacher indeed, +and generally she was. When the children wanted to specify her +particularly they described her as "the pretty one that laughs." But at +four o'clock of a wet Saturday afternoon, in a badly ventilated, badly +lighted room full of damp little unwashed foreign children, even the +most sunny-hearted Liberry Teacher may be excused for having thoughts +that are a little tired and cross and restless. + +She flung herself back in her desk-chair and watched, with brazen +indifference, Giovanni and Liberata Bruno stickily pawing the colored +Bird Book that was supposed to be looked at only under supervision; she +ignored the fact that three little Czechs were fighting over the wailing +library cat; and the sounds of conflict caused by Jimsy Hoolan's desire +to get the last-surviving Alger book away from John Zanowski moved her +not a whit. The Liberry Teacher had stopped, for five minutes, being +grown-up and responsible, and she was wishing--wishing hard and +vengefully. This is always a risky thing to do, because you never know +when the Destinies may overhear you and take you at your exact word. +With the detailed and careful accuracy one acquires in library work, she +was wishing for a sum of money, a garden, and a husband--but +principally a husband. This is why: + +That day as she was returning from her long-deferred twenty-minute +dairy-lunch, she had charged, umbrella down, almost full into a pretty +lady getting out of a shiny gray limousine. Such an unnecessarily pretty +lady, all furs and fluffles and veils and perfumes and waved hair! Her +cheeks were pink and her expression was placid, and each of her +white-gloved hands held tight to a pretty picture-book child who was +wriggling with wild excitement. One had yellow frilly hair and one had +brown bobbed hair, and both were quaintly, immaculately, expensively +kissable. They were the kind of children every girl wishes she could +have a set like, and hugs when she gets a chance. Mother and children +were making their way, under an awning that crossed the street, to the +matinee of a fairy-play. + +The Liberry Teacher smiled at the children with more than her accustomed +goodwill, and lowered her umbrella quickly to let them pass. The mother +smiled back, a smile that changed, as the Liberry Teacher passed, to +puzzled remembrance. The gay little family went on into the theatre, and +Phyllis Braithwaite hurried on back to her work, trying to think who the +pretty lady could have been, to have seemed to almost remember her. +Somebody who took books out of the library, doubtless. Still the pretty +lady's face did not seem to fit that conjecture, though it still worried +her by its vague familiarity. Finally the solution came, just as Phyllis +was pulling off her raincoat in the dark little cloak-room. She nearly +dropped the coat. + +"Eva Atkinson!" she said. + +Eva Atkinson!... If it had been anybody else but _Eva_! + +You see, back in long-ago, in the little leisurely windblown New England +town where Phyllis Braithwaite had lived till she was almost eighteen, +there had been a Principal Grocer. And Eva Atkinson had been his +daughter, not so very pretty, not so very pleasant, not so very clever, +and about six years older than Phyllis. Phyllis, as she tried vainly to +make her damp, straight hair go back the way it should, remembered +hearing that Eva had married and come to this city to live. She had +never heard where. And this had been Eva--Eva, by the grace of gold, +radiantly complexioned, wonderfully groomed, beautifully gowned, and +looking twenty-four, perhaps, at most: with a car and a placid +expression and _heaps_ of money, and pretty, clean children! The Liberry +Teacher, severely work-garbed and weather-draggled, jerked herself away +from the small greenish cloak-room mirror that was unkind to you at your +best. + +She dashed down to the basement, harried by her usual panic-stricken +twenty-minutes-late feeling. She had only taken one glance at herself in +the wiggly mirror, but that one had been enough for her peace of mind, +supposing her to have had any left before. She felt as if she wanted to +break all the mirrors in the world, like the wicked queen in the French +fairy-tale. + +Most people rather liked the face Phyllis saw in the mirror; but to her +own eyes, fresh from the dazzling vision of that Eva Atkinson who had +been dowdy and stupid in the far-back time when seventeen-year-old +Phyllis was "growin' up as pretty as a picture," the tired, +twenty-five-year-old, workaday face in the green glass was _dreadful_. +What made her feel worst--and she entertained the thought with a +whimsical consciousness of its impertinent vanity--was that she'd had so +much more raw material than Eva! And the world had given Eva a chance +because her father was rich. And she, Phyllis, was condemned to be tidy +and accurate, and no more, just because she had to earn her living. That +face in the greenish glass, looking tiredly back at her! She gave a +little out-loud cry of vexation now as she thought of it, two hours +later. + +"I must have looked to Eva like a battered bisque doll--no wonder she +couldn't place me!" she muttered crossly. + +And it must be worse and more of it now, because in the interval between +two and four there had been many little sticky fingers pulling at her +sleeves and skirt, and you just _have_ to cuddle dear little library +children, even when they're not extra clean; and when Vera Aronsohn +burst into heartbroken tears on the Liberry Teacher's blue woolen +shoulder because her pet fairy-book was missing, she had caught several +strands of the Teacher's yellow hair in her anguish, much to the hair's +detriment. + +It was straight, heavy hair, and it would have been of a dense and +fluffy honey-color, only that it was tarnished for lack of the constant +sunnings and brushings which blonde hair must have to stay its best +self. And her skin, too, that should have been a living rose-and-cream, +was dulled by exposure to all weathers, and lack of time to pet it with +creams and powders; perhaps a little, too, by the very stupid things to +eat one gets at a dairy-lunch and boarding-house. Some of the assistants +did interesting cooking over the library gas-range, but the Liberry +Teacher couldn't do that because she hadn't time. + +She went on defiantly thinking about her looks. It isn't a noble-minded +thing to do, but when you might be so very, very pretty if you only had +a little time to be it in--"Yes, I _might_!" said Phyllis to her +shocked self defiantly.... Yes, the shape of her face was all right +still. Hard work and scant attention couldn't spoil its pretty oval. But +her eyes--well, you can't keep your eyes as blue and luminous and +childlike as they were back in the New England country, when you have +been using them hard for years in a bad light. And oh, they had been +such _nice_ eyes when she was just Phyllis Narcissa at home, so long and +blue and wondering! And now the cataloguing had heavied the lids and +etched a line between her straight brown brows. They weren't decorative +eyes now ... and they filled with indignant self-sympathy. The Liberry +Teacher laughed at herself a little here. The idea of eyes that cried +about themselves was funny, somehow. + +"Direct from producer to consumer!" she quoted half-aloud, and wiped +each eye conscientiously by itself. + +"Teacher! I want a liberry called 'Bride of Lemon Hill!' demanded a +small citizen just here. The school teacher, she says I must to have +it!" + +Phyllis thought hard. But she had to search the pinned-up list of +required reading for schools for three solid minutes before she bestowed +"The Bride of Lammermoor" on a thirteen-year-old daughter of Hungary. + +"This is it, isn't it, honey?" she asked with the flashing smile for +which her children, among other things, adored her. + +"Yes, ma'am, thank you, teacher," said the thirteen-year-old gratefully; +and went off to a corner, where she sat till closing time entranced over +her own happy choice, "The Adventures of Peter Rabbit," with colored +pictures dotting it satisfactorily. The Liberry Teacher knew that it was +her duty to go over and hypnotize the child into reading something which +would lead more directly to Browning and Strindberg. But she didn't. + +"Poor little wop!" she thought unacademically. "Let her be happy in her +own way!" + +And the Liberry Teacher herself went on being unhappy in _her_ own way. + +"I'm just a battered bisque doll!" she repeated to herself bitterly. + +But she was wrong. One is apt to exaggerate things on a workaday +Saturday afternoon. She looked more like a pretty bisque figurine; slim +and clear-cut, and a little neglected, perhaps, by its owners, and +dressed in working clothes instead of the pretty draperies it should +have had; but needing only a touch or so, a little dusting, so to speak, +to be as good as ever. + +"Eva _never_ was as pretty as I was!" her rebellious thoughts went on. +You think things, you know, that you'd never say aloud. "I'm sick of +elevating the public! I'm sick of working hard fifty-one weeks out of +fifty-two for board and lodging and carfare and shirtwaists and the +occasional society of a few girls who don't get any more out of life +than I do! I'm sick of libraries, and of being efficient! I want to be a +real girl! Oh, I wish--I wish I had a lot of money, and a rose-garden, +and a _husband_!" + +The Liberry Teacher was aghast at herself. She hadn't meant to wish such +a very unmaidenly thing so hard. She jumped up and dashed across the +room and began frantically to shelf-read books, explaining meanwhile +with most violent emphasis to the listening Destinies: + +"I didn't--oh, I _didn_'t mean a _real_ husband. It isn't that I yearn +to be married to some good man, like an old maid or a Duchess novel. +I--I just want all the lovely things Eva has, or any girl that _marries_ +them, without any trouble but taking care of a man. One man _couldn't_ +but be easier than a whole roomful of library babies. I want to be +looked after, and have time to keep pretty, and a chance to make +friends, and lovely frocks with lots of lace on them, and just months +and months and months when I never had to do anything by a +clock--and--and a rose-garden!" + +This last idea was dangerous. It isn't a good thing, if you want to be +contented with your lot, to think of rose-gardens in a stuffy city +library o' Saturdays; especially when where you were brought up +rose-gardens were one of the common necessities of life; and more +especially when you are tired almost to the crying-point, and have all +the week's big sisters back of it dragging on you, and all its little +sisters to come worrying at you, and--time not up till six. + +But the Liberry Teacher went blindly on straightening shelves nearly as +fast as the children could muss them up, and thinking about that +rose-garden she wanted, with files of masseuses and manicures and French +maids and messenger-boys with boxes banked soothingly behind every bush. +And the thought became too beautiful to dally with. + +"I'd marry _anything_ that would give me a rose-garden!" reiterated the +Liberry Teacher passionately to the Destinies, who are rather catty +ladies, and apt to catch up unguarded remarks you make. "_Anything_--so +long as it was a gentleman--and he didn't scold me--and--and--I didn't +have to associate with him!" her New England maidenliness added in +haste. + +Then, for the librarian who cannot laugh, like the one who reads, is +supposed in library circles to be lost, Phyllis shook herself and +laughed at herself a little, bravely. Then she collected the most +uproarious of her flock around her and began telling them stories out of +the "Merry Adventures of Robin Hood." It would keep the children quiet, +and her thoughts, too. She put rose-gardens, not to say manicurists and +husbands, severely out of her head. But you can't play fast and loose +with the Destinies that way. + +"Done!" they had replied quietly to her last schedule of requirements. +"We'll send our messenger over right away." It was not their fault that +the Liberry Teacher could not hear them. + + + + +II + + +He was gray-haired, pink-cheeked, curvingly side-whiskered and +immaculately gray-clad; and he did not look in the least like a +messenger of Fate. + +The Liberry Teacher was at a highly keyed part of her narrative, and +even the most fidgety children were tense and open-mouthed. + +"'And where art thou now?' cried the Stranger to Robin Hood. And Robin +roared with laughter. 'Oh, in the flood, and floating down the stream +with all the little fishes,' said he--" she was relating breathlessly. + +"_Tea_-cher!" hissed Isaac Rabinowitz, snapping his fingers at her at +this exciting point. "Teacher! There's a guy wants to speak to you!" + +"Aw, shut-_tup_!" chorused his indignant little schoolmates. "Can't you +see that Teacher's tellin' a story? Go chase yerself! Go do a tango +roun' de block!" + +Isaac, a small Polish Jew with tragic, dark eyes and one suspender, +received these and several more such suggestions with all the calm +impenetrability of his race. + +"Here's de guy," was all he vouchsafed before he went back to the +unsocial nook where, afternoon by faithful afternoon, he read away at a +fat three-volume life of Alexander Hamilton. + +The Liberry Teacher looked up without stopping her story, and smiled a +familiar greeting to the elderly gentleman, who was waiting a little +uncertainly at the Children's Room door, and had obviously been looking +for her in vain. He smiled and nodded in return. + +"Just a minute, please, Mr. De Guenther," said the Liberry Teacher +cheerfully. + +The elderly gentleman nodded again, crossed to Isaac and his ponderous +volumes, and began to talk to him with that benign lack of haste which +usually means a very competent personality. Phyllis hurried somewhat +with Robin Hood among his little fishes, and felt happier. It was +always, in her eventless life, something of a pleasant adventure to +have Mr. De Guenther or his wife drop in to see her. There was usually +something pleasant at the end of it. + +They were an elderly couple whom she had known for some years. They were +so leisurely and trim and gentle-spoken that long ago, when she was only +a timorous substitute behind the circle of the big charging-desk, she +had picked them both out as people-you'd-like-if-you-got-the-chance. +Then she had waited on them, and identified them by their cards as +belonging to the same family. Then, one day, with a pleased little +quiver of joy, she had found him in the city Who's Who, age, profession +(he was a corporation lawyer), middle names, favorite recreation, and +all. Gradually she had come to know them both very well in a waiting-on +way. She often chose love-stories that ended happily and had colored +illustrations for Mrs. De Guenther when she was at home having +rheumatism; she had saved more detective stories for Mr. De Guenther +than her superiors ever knew; and once she had found his black-rimmed +eye-glasses where he had left them between the pages of the Pri-Zuz +volume of the encyclopedia, and mailed them to him. + +When she had vanished temporarily from sight into the nunnery-promotion +of the cataloguing room the De Guenthers had still remembered her. Twice +she had been asked to Sunday dinner at their house, and had joyously +gone and remembered it as joyously for months afterward. Now that she +was out in the light of partial day again, in the Children's Room, she +ran across both of them every little while in her errands upstairs; and +once Mrs. De Guenther, gentle, lorgnetted and gray-clad, had been shown +over the Children's Room. The couple lived all alone in a great, +handsome old house that was being crowded now by the business district. +She had always thought that if she were a Theosophist she would try to +plan to have them for an uncle and aunt in her next incarnation. They +suited her exactly for the parts. + +But it's a long way down to the basement where city libraries are apt to +keep their children, and the De Guenthers hadn't been down there since +the last time they asked her to dinner. And here, with every sign of +having come to say something _very_ special, stood Mr. De Guenther! +Phyllis' irrepressibly cheerful disposition gave a little jump toward +the light. But she went on with her story--business before pleasure! + +However, she did manage to get Robin Hood out of his brook a little more +quickly than she had planned. She scattered her children with a swift +executive whisk, and made so straight for her friend that she deceived +the children into thinking they were going to see him expelled, and they +banked up and watched with anticipatory grins. + +"I do hope you want to see me especially!" she said brightly. + +The children, disappointed, relaxed their attention. + +Mr. De Guenther rose slowly and neatly from his seat beside the rather +bored Isaac Rabinowitz, who dived into his book again with alacrity. + +"Good afternoon, Miss Braithwaite," he said in the amiably precise voice +which matched so admirably his beautifully precise movements and his +immaculate gray spats. "Yes. In the language of our young friend here, +'I am the guy.'" + +Phyllis giggled before she thought. Some people in the world always make +your spirits go up with a bound, and the De Guenther pair invariably had +that effect on her. + +"Oh, Mr. De Guenther!" she said, "I am shocked at you! That's slang!" + +"It was more in the nature of a quotation," said he apologetically. "And +how are you this exceedingly unpleasant day, Miss Braithwaite? We have +seen very little of you lately, Mrs. De Guenther and I." + +The Liberry Teacher, gracefully respectful in her place, wriggled with +invisible impatience over this carefully polite conversational opening. +He had come down here on purpose to see her--there must be something +going to happen, even if it was only a request to save a seven-day book +for Mrs. De Guenther! Nobody ever wanted _something_, any kind of a +something, to happen more wildly than the Liberry Teacher did that +bored, stickily wet Saturday afternoon, with those tired seven years at +the Greenway Branch dragging at the back of her neck, and the seven +times seven to come making her want to scream. So few things can +possibly happen to you, no matter how good you are, when you work by the +day. And now maybe something--oh, please, the very smallest kind of a +something would be welcomed!--was going to occur. Maybe Mrs. De Guenther +had sent her a ticket to a concert; she had once before. Or maybe, since +you might as well wish for big things while you're at it, it might even +be a ticket to an expensive seat in a real theatre! Her pleasure-hungry, +work-heavy blue eyes burned luminous at the idea. + +"But I really shouldn't wish," she reminded her prancing mind belatedly. +"He may only have come down to talk about the weather. It mayn't any of +it be true." + +So she stood up straight and gravely, and answered very courteously and +holding-tightly all the amiable roundabout remarks the old gentleman was +shoving forward like pawns on a chessboard before the real game begins. +She answered with the same trained cheerfulness she could give her +library children when her head and her disposition ached worst; and even +warmed to a vicious enthusiasm over the state of the streets and the +wetness of the damp weather. + +"He knows lots of real things to say," she complained to herself, "why +doesn't he say them, instead of talking editorials? I suppose this is +his bedside--no, lawyers don't have bedside manners--well, his barside +manner, then----" + +It is difficult to think and listen at the same time: by this time she +had missed a beautiful long paragraph about the Street-Cleaning +Department; and something else, apparently. For her friend was holding +out to her a note addressed to her flowingly in his wife's English hand, +and was saying, + +"--which she has asked me to deliver. I trust you have no imperative +engagement for to-morrow night." + +Something _had_ happened! + +"Why, no!" said the Liberry Teacher delightedly. "No, indeed! Thank you, +and her, too. I'd love to come." + +"Teacher!" clamored a small chocolate-colored citizen in a Kewpie +muffler, "my maw she want' a book call' 'Ugwin!' She say it got a yellow +cover an' pictures in it." + +"Just a moment!" said Phyllis; and sent him upstairs with a note asking +for "Hugh Wynne" in the two-volume edition. She was used to translating +that small colored boy's demands. Last week he had described to her a +play he called "Eas' Limb", with the final comment, "But it wan't no +good. 'Twant no limb in it anywhar, ner no trees atall!" + +"Do you have much of that?" Mr. De Guenther asked idly. + +"Lots!" said Phyllis cheerfully. "You take special training in guesswork +at library school. They call them 'teasers'. They say they're good for +your intellect." + +"Ah--yes," said Mr. De Guenther absently in the barside manner. + +And then, sitting calmly with his silvery head against a Washington's +Birthday poster so that three scarlet cherries stuck above him in the +manner of a scalp-lock, he said something else remarkably real: + +"I have--we have--a little matter of business to discuss with you +to-morrow night, my dear; an offer, I may say, of a different line of +work. And I want you to satisfy yourself thoroughly--thoroughly, my dear +child, of my reputableness. Mr. Johnstone, the chief of the city +library, whose office I believe to be in this branch, is one of my +oldest friends. I am, I think I may say, well known as a lawyer in this +my native city. I should be glad to have you satisfy yourself personally +on these points, because----" could it be that the eminently poised Mr. +De Guenther was embarrassed? "Because the line of work which I wish, or +rather my wife wishes, to lay before you is--is a very different line of +work!" ended the old gentleman inconclusively. There was no mistake +about it this time--he _was_ embarrassed. + +"Oh, Mr. De Guenther!" cried Phyllis before she thought, out of the +fulness of her heart, catching his arm in her eagerness; "Oh, Mr. De +Guenther, _could_ the Very Different Line of Work have a--have a +_rose-garden_ attached to it anywhere?" + +Before she was fairly finished she knew what a silly question she had +asked. How could any line of work she was qualified to do possibly have +rose-gardens attached to it? You can't catalogue roses on neat cards, or +improve their minds by the Newark Ladder System, or do anything at all +librarious to them, except pressing them in books to mummify; and the +Liberry Teacher didn't think that was at all a courteous thing to do to +roses. So Mr. De Guenther's reply quite surprised her. + +"There--seems--to be--no good reason," he said, slowly and placidly, +as if he were dropping his words one by one out of a slot;--"why +there should not--be--a very satisfactory rose-garden, or +even--_two_--connected with it. None--whatever." + +That was all the explanation he offered. But the Liberry Teacher asked +no more. "_Oh!_" she said rapturously. + +"Then we may expect you to-morrow at seven?" he said; and smiled +politely and moved to the door. He walked out as matter-of-coursely as +if he had dropped in to ask the meaning of "circumflex," or who +invented smallpox, or the name of Adam's house-cat, or how long it would +take her to do a graduation essay for his daughter--or any such little +things that librarians are prepared for most days. + +And instead--his neat gray elderly back seemed to deny it--he had left +with her, the Liberry Teacher, her, dusty, tousled, shopworn Phyllis +Braithwaite, an invitation to consider a Line of Work which was so +mysteriously Different that she had to look up the spotless De Guenther +reputation before she came! + +One loses track of time, staring at a red George Washington poster, and +wondering about a future with a sudden Different Line in it.... It was +ten minutes past putting-out-children time! She stared aghast at the +ruthless clock, then created two Monitors for Putting Out at one royal +sweep. She managed the nightly eviction with such gay expedition that it +almost felt like ten minutes ago when the place, except for the +pride-swollen monitors, was cleared. While these officers watched the +commonalty clumping reluctantly upstairs toward the umbrella-rack, the +Liberry Teacher paced sedately around the shelves, giving the books that +routine straightening they must have before seven struck and the horde +rushed in again. It was really her relieving officer's work, but the +Liberry Teacher felt that her mind needed straightening, too, and this +always seemed to do it. + +She looked, as she moved slowly down along the shelves, very much like +most of the librarians you see; alert, pleasant, slender, a little +dishevelled, a little worn. But there was really no librarian there. +There was only Phyllis Narcissa--that dreaming young Phyllis who had had +to stay pushed out of sight all the seven years that Miss Braithwaite +had been efficiently earning her living. + +She let her mind stray happily as far as it would over the possibilities +Mr. De Guenther had held out to her, and woke to discover herself trying +to find a place under "Domestic Economy--Condiments" for "Five Little +Peppers and How They Grew." She laughed aloud in the suddenly empty +room, and then lifted her head to find Miss Black, the night-duty girl +that week, standing in the doorway ready to relieve guard. + +"Oh, Anna, see what I've done!" she laughed. Somehow everything seemed +merely light-hearted and laughable since Mr. De Guenther's most +fairy-tale visit, with its wild hints of Lines of Work. Anna Black came, +looked, laughed. + +"In the 640's!" she said. "Well, you're liable to do nearly everything +by the time it's Saturday. Last Saturday, Dolly Graham up in the +Circulation was telling me, an old colored mammy said she'd lost her +mittens in the reading-room; and the first they knew Dolly was hunting +through the Woollen Goods classification, and Mary Gayley pawing the +dictionary wildly for m-i-t!" + +"And they found the mittens hung around her neck by the cord," finished +the Liberry Teacher. "I know--it was a thrilling story. Well, good-by +till Monday, Anna Black. I'm going home now, to have some lovely prunes +and some real dried beef, and maybe a glass of almost-milk if I can +persuade the landlady I need it." + +"Mine prefers dried apricots," responded Miss Black cheerfully, "but she +never has anything but canned milk in the house, thus sparing us the +embarrassment of asking for real. Good-by--good luck!" + +But as the Liberry Teacher pinned her serviceable hat close, and +fastened her still good raincoat over her elderly sweater, neither +prunes nor mittens nor next week's work worried her at all. After all, +living among the fairy-stories with the Little People makes that +pleasant land where wanting is having, and all the impossibilities can +come true, very easy of access. Phyllis Braithwaite's mind, as she +picked her way down the bedraggled street, wandered innocently off in a +dream-place full of roses, till the muddy marble steps of her +boarding-place gleamed sloppily before her through the foggy rain. + +She sat up late that night, doing improving things to the white net +waist that went with her best suit, which was black. As her needle +nibbled busily down the seams she continued happily to wonder about that +Entirely Different Line. It sounded to her more like a reportership on +a yellow journal than anything else imaginable. Or, perhaps, could she +be wanted to join the Secret Service? + +"At any rate," she concluded light-heartedly, as she stitched the last +clean ruching into the last wrist-covering, sedate sleeve, "at any rate +I'll have a chance to-morrow to wear mother's gold earrings that I +mustn't have on in the library. And oh, how lovely it will be to have a +dinner that wasn't cooked by a poor old bored boarding-house cook or a +shiny tiled syndicate!" + +And she went to bed--to dream of Entirely Different Lines all the colors +of the rainbow, that radiated out from the Circulation Desk like +tight-ropes. She never remembered Eva Atkinson's carefully prettied +face, or her own vivid, work-worn one, at all. She only dreamed that far +at the end of the pink Entirely Different Line--a very hard one to +walk--there was a rose-garden exactly like a patchwork quilt, where she +was to be. + + + + +III + + +When Phyllis woke next morning everything in the world had a +light-hearted, holiday feeling. Her Sundays, gloriously unoccupied, +generally did, but this was extra-special. The rain had managed to clear +away every vestige of last week's slush, and had then itself most +unselfishly retired down the gutters. The sun shone as if May had come, +and the wind, through the Liberry Teacher's window, had a springy, +pussy-willowy, come-for-a-walk-in-the-country feel to it. She found that +she had slept too late to go to church, and prepared for a joyful dash +to the boarding-house bathtub. There might be--who knew but there +actually might be--on this day of days, enough hot water for a real +bath! + +"I feel as if everything was going to be lovely all day!" she said +without preface to old black Maggie, who was clumping her accustomed +bed-making way along the halls, with her woolly head tied up in her +Sunday silk handkerchief. Even she looked happier, Phyllis thought, +than she had yesterday. She grinned broadly at Phyllis, leaning +smilingly against the door in her kimona. + +"Ah dunno, Miss Braithways," she said, and entered the room and took a +pillow-case-corner in her mouth. "Ah never has dem premeditations!" + +Phyllis laughed frankly, and Maggie, much flattered at the happy +reception of her reply, grinned so widely that you might almost have +tied her mouth behind her ears. + +"You sure is a cheerful person, Miss Braithways!" said Maggie, and went +on making the bed. + +Phyllis fled on down the hall, laughing still. She had just remembered +another of old Maggie's compliments, made on one of the rare occasions +when Phyllis had sat down and sung to the boarding-house piano. (She +hadn't been able to do it long, because the Mental Science Lady on the +next floor had sent down word that it stopped her from concentrating, +and as she had a very expensive room there was nothing for the landlady +to do but make Phyllis stop.) Phyllis had come out in the hall to find +old Maggie listening rapturously. + +"Oh, Miss Braithways!" she had murmured, rolling her eyes, "you +certainly does equalize a martingale!" + +It had been a compliment Phyllis never forgot. She smiled to herself as +she found the bathroom door open. Why, the world was full of a number of +things, many of them funny. Being a Liberry Teacher was rather nice, +after all, when you were fresh from a long night's sleep. And if that +Mental Science Lady _wouldn't_ let her play the piano, why, her +thrilling tales of what she could do when her mind was unfettered were +worth the price. That story she told so seriously about how the pipes +burst--and the plumber wouldn't come, and "My dear, I gave those pipes +only half an hour's treatment, and they closed right up!" It was quite +as much fun--well, almost as much--hearing her, as it would have been to +play. + +... All of the contented, and otherwise, elderly people who inhabited +the boarding-house with Phyllis appeared to have gone off without using +hot water, for there actually was some. The Liberry Teacher found that +she could have a genuine bath, and have enough water besides to wash her +hair, which is a rite all girls who work have to reserve for Sundays. +This was surely a day of days! + +She used the water--alas for selfish human nature!--to the last warm +drop and went gayly back to her little room with no emotions whatever +for the poor other boarders, soon to find themselves wrathfully +hot-waterless. And then--she thoughtlessly curled down on the bed, and +slept and slept and slept! She wakened dimly in time for the one o'clock +dinner, dressed, and ate it in a half-sleep. She went back upstairs +planning a trolley-ride that should take her out into the country, where +a long walk might be had. And midway in changing her shoes she lay back +across the bed and--fell asleep again. The truth was, Phyllis was about +as tired as a girl can get. + +She waked at dusk, with a jerk of terror lest she should have overslept +her time for going out. But it was only six. She had a whole hour to +prink in, which is a very long time for people who are used to being in +the library half-an-hour after the alarm-clock wakes them. + + * * * * * + +Some houses, all of themselves, and before you meet a soul who lives in +them, are silently indifferent to you. Some make you feel that you are +not wanted in the least; these usually have a lot of gilt furniture, and +what are called objects of art set stiffly about. Some seem to be having +an untidy good time all to themselves, in which you are not included. + +The De Guenther house, staid and softly toned, did none of these things. +It gave the Liberry Teacher, in her neat, last year's best suit, a +feeling as of gentle welcome-home. She felt contented and _belonging_ +even before quick-smiling, slender little Mrs. De Guenther came rustling +gently in to greet her. Then followed Mr. De Guenther, pleasant and +unperturbed as usual, and after him an agreeable, back-arching gray cat, +who had copied his master's walk as exactly as it can be done with four +feet. + +All four sat amiably about the room and held precise and pleasant +converse, something like a cheerful essay written in dialogue, about +many amusing, intelligent things which didn't especially matter. The +Liberry Teacher liked it. It was pleasant beyond words to sit nestlingly +in a pluffy chair, and hear about all the little lightly-treated +scholarly day-before-yesterday things her father had used to talk of. +She carried on her own small part in the talk blithely enough. She +approved of herself and the way she was behaving, which makes very much +for comfort. There was only once that she was ashamed of herself, and +thought about it in bed afterwards and was mortified; when her eyes +filled with quick tears at a quite dry and unemotional--indeed, rather a +sarcastic--quotation from Horace on the part of Mr. De Guenther. But she +smiled, when she saw that they noticed her. + +"That's the first time I've heard a Latin quotation since I came away +from home," she found herself saying quite simply in explanation, "and +Father quoted Horace so much every day that--that I felt as if an old +friend had walked in!" + +But her hosts didn't seem to mind. Mr. De Guenther in his careful +evening clothes looked swiftly across at Mrs. De Guenther in her +gray-silk-and-cameo, and they both nodded little satisfied nods, as if +she had spoken in a way that they were glad to hear. And then dinner was +served, a dinner as different--well, she didn't want to remember in its +presence the dinners it differed from; they might have clouded the +moment. She merely ate it with a shameless inward joy. + +It ended, still to a pleasant effortless accompaniment of talk about +books and music and pictures that Phyllis was interested in, and had +found nobody to share her interest with for so long--so long! She felt +happily running though everything the general, easy taking-for-granted +of all the old, gentle, inflexible standards of breeding that she had +nearly forgotten, down in the heart of the city among her obstreperous, +affectionate little foreigners. + +They had coffee in the long old-fashioned salon parlor, and then Mr. De +Guenther straightened himself, and Mrs. De Guenther folded her veined, +ringed old white hands, and Phyllis prepared thrilledly to listen. +Surely now she would hear about that Different Line of Work. + +There was nothing, at first, about work of any sort. They merely began +to tell her alternately about some clients of theirs, a Mrs. Harrington +and her son: rather interesting people, from what Phyllis could make +out. She wondered if she was going to hear that they needed a librarian. + +"This lady, my client, Mrs. Harrington," continued her host gravely, "is +the one for whom I may ask you to consider doing some work. I say may, +but it is a practical certainty. She is absolutely alone, my dear Miss +Braithwaite, except for her son. I am afraid I must ask you to listen to +a long story about them." + +It was coming! + +"Oh, but I want to hear!" said Phyllis, with that quick, affectionate +sympathy of hers that was so winning, leaning forward and watching them +with the lighted look in her blue eyes. It all seemed to her tired, +alert mind like some story she might have read to her children, an +Arabian Nights narrative which might begin, "And the Master of the +House, ascribing praise unto Allah, repeated the following Tale." + +"There have always been just the two of them, mother and son," said the +Master of the House. "And Allan has always been a very great deal to his +mother." + +"Poor Angela!" murmured his wife. + +"They are old friends of ours," her husband explained. "My wife and Mrs. +Harrington were schoolmates. + +"Well, Allan, the boy, grew up, dowered with everything a mother could +possibly desire for her son, personally and otherwise. He was handsome +and intelligent, with much charm of manner." + +"I know now what people mean by 'talking like a book,'" thought Phyllis +irreverently. "And I don't believe any one man _could_ be all that!" + +"There was practically nothing," Mr. De Guenther went on, "which the +poor lad had not. That was one trouble, I imagine. If he had not been +highly intelligent he would not have studied so hard; if he had not been +strong and active he might not have taken up athletic sports so +whole-heartedly; and when I add that Allan possessed charm, money and +social status you may see that what he did would have broken down most +young fellows. In short, he kept studies, sports and social affairs all +going at high pressure during his four years of college. But he was +young and strong, and might not have felt so much ill effects from all +that; though his doctors said afterwards that he was nearly at the +breaking point when he graduated." + +Phyllis bent closer to the story-teller in her intense interest. Why, it +_was_ like one of her fairy-tales! She held her breath to listen, while +the old lawyer went gravely on. + +"Allan could not have been more than twenty-two when he graduated, and +it was a very short while afterwards that he became engaged to a young +girl, the daughter of a family friend. Louise Frey was her name, was it +not, love?" + +"Yes, that is right," said his wife, "Louise Frey." + +"A beautiful girl," he went on, "dark, with a brilliant color, and full +of life and good spirits. They were both very young, but there was no +good reason why the marriage should be delayed, and it was set for the +following September." + +A princess, too, in the story! But--where had she gone? "The two of them +only," he had said. + +"It must have been scarcely a month," the story went on--Mr. De Guenther +was telling it as if he were stating a case--"nearly a month before the +date set for the wedding, when the lovers went for a long automobile +ride, across a range of mountains near a country-place where they were +both staying. They were alone in the machine. + +"Allan, of course, was driving, doubtless with a certain degree of +impetuosity, as he did most things.... They were on an unfrequented part +of the road," said Mr. De Guenther, lowering his voice, "when there +occurred an unforeseen wreckage in the car's machinery. The car was +thrown over and badly splintered. Both young people were pinned under +it. + +"So far as he knew at the time, Allan was not injured, nor was he in any +pain; but he was held in absolute inability to move by the car above +him. Miss Frey, on the contrary, was badly hurt, and in suffering. She +died in about three hours, a little before relief came to them." + +Phyllis clutched the arms of her chair, thrilled and wide-eyed. She +could imagine all the horror of the happening through the old lawyer's +precise and unemotional story. The boy-lover, pinioned, helpless, +condemned to watch his sweetheart dying by inches, and unable to help +her by so much as lifting a hand--could anything be more awful not only +to endure, but to remember? + +"And yet," she thought whimsically, "it mightn't be so bad to have one +_real_ tragedy to remember, if you haven't anything else! All _I'll_ +have to remember when I'm old will be bad little children and good +little children, and books and boarding-houses, and the recollection +that people said I was a very worthy young woman once!" But she threw +off the thought. It's just as well not to think of old age when all the +idea brings up is a vision of a nice, clean Old Ladies' Home. + +"But you said he was an invalid?" she said aloud. + +"Yes, I regret to say," answered Mr. De Guenther. "You see, it was found +that the shock to the nerves, acting on an already over-keyed mind and +body, together with some spinal blow concerning which the doctors are +still in doubt, had affected Allan's powers of locomotion." (Mr. De +Guenther certainly did like long words!) "He has been unable to walk +since. And, which is sadder, his state of mind and body has become +steadily worse. He can scarcely move at all now, and his mental attitude +can only be described as painfully morbid--yes, I may say _very_ +painfully morbid. Sometimes he does not speak at all for days together, +even to his mother, or his attendant." + +"Oh, poor boy!" said Phyllis. "How long has he been this way?" + +"Seven years this fall," the answer came consideringly. "Is it not, +love?" + +"Yes," said his wife, "seven years." + +"_Oh!_" said the Liberry Teacher, with a quick catch of sympathy at her +heart. + +Just as long as she had been working for her living in the big, dusty +library. Supposing--oh, supposing she'd had to live all that time in +such suffering as this poor Allan had endured and his mother had had to +witness! She felt suddenly as if the grimy, restless Children's Room, +with its clatter of turbulent little outland voices, were a safe, sunny +paradise in comparison. + +Mr. De Guenther did not speak. He visibly braced himself and was visibly +ill-at-ease. + +"I have told most of the story, Isabel, love," said he at last. "Would +you not prefer to tell the rest? It is at your instance that I have +undertaken this commission for Mrs. Harrington, you will remember." + +It struck Phyllis that he didn't think it was quite a dignified +commission, at that. + +"Very well, my dear," said his wife, and took up the tale in her swift, +soft voice. + +"You can fancy, my dear Miss Braithwaite, how intensely his mother has +felt about it." + +"Indeed, yes!" said Phyllis pitifully. + +"Her whole life, since the accident, has been one long devotion to her +son. I don't think a half-hour ever passes that she does not see him. +But in spite of this constant care, as my husband has told you, he grows +steadily worse. And poor Angela has finally broken under the strain. She +was never strong. She is dying now--they give her maybe two months more. + +"Her one anxiety, of course, is for poor Allan's welfare. You can +imagine how you would feel if you had to leave an entirely helpless son +or brother to the mercies of hired attendants, however faithful. And +they have no relatives--they are the last of the family." + +The listening girl began to see. She was going to be asked to act as +nurse, perhaps attendant and guardian, to this morbid invalid with the +injured mind and body. + +[Illustration: "NO," SAID MRS. DE GUENTHER GRAVELY. "YOU WOULD NOT. YOU +WOULD HAVE TO BE HIS WIFE"] + +"But how would I be any better for him than a regular trained nurse?" +she wondered. "And they said he had an attendant." + +She looked questioningly at the pair. + +"Where does my part come in?" she asked with a certain sweet directness +which was sometimes hers. "Wouldn't I be a hireling too if--if I had +anything to do with it?" + +"No," said Mrs. De Guenther gravely. "You would not. You would have to +be his wife." + + + + +IV + + +The Liberry Teacher, in her sober best suit, sat down in her entirely +commonplace chair in the quiet old parlor, and looked unbelievingly at +the sedate elderly couple who had made her this wild proposition. She +caught her breath. But catching her breath did not seem to affect +anything that had been said. Mr. De Guenther took up the explanation +again, a little deprecatingly, she thought. + +"You see now why I requested you to investigate our reputability?" he +said. "Such a proposition as this, especially to a young lady who has no +parent or guardian, requires a considerable guarantee of good faith and +honesty of motive." + +"Will you please tell me more about it?" she asked quietly. She did not +feel now as if it were anything which had especially to do with her. It +seemed more like an interesting story she was unravelling sentence by +sentence. The long, softly lighted old room, with its Stuarts and +Sullys, and its gracious, gray-haired host and hostess, seemed only a +picturesque part of it.... Her hostess caught up the tale again. + +"Angela has been nearly distracted," she said. "And the idea has come to +her that if she could find some conscientious woman, a lady, and a +person to whom what she could offer would be a consideration, who would +take charge of poor Allan, that she could die in peace." + +"But why did you think of asking me?" the girl asked breathlessly. "And +why does she want me married to him? And how could you or she be sure +that I would not be as much of a hireling as any nurse she may have +now?" + +Mrs. De Guenther answered the last two questions together. + +"Mrs. Harrington's idea is, and I think rightly, that a conscientious +woman would feel the marriage tie, however nominal, a bond that would +obligate her to a certain duty toward her husband. As to why we selected +you, my dear, my husband and I have had an interest in you for some +years, as you know. We have spoken of you as a girl whom we should like +for a relative----" + +"Why, isn't that strange?" cried Phyllis, dimpling. "That's just what +I've thought about you!" + +Mrs. De Guenther flushed, with a delicate old shyness. + +"Thank you, dear child," she said. "I was about to add that we have not +seen you at your work all these years without knowing you to have the +kind heart and sense of honor requisite to poor Angela's plan. We feel +sure you could be trusted to take the place. Mr. De Guenther has asked +his friend Mr. Johnston, the head of the library, such things as we +needed to supplement our personal knowledge of you. You have everything +that could be asked, even to a certain cheerfulness of outlook which +poor Angela, naturally, lacks in a measure." + +"But--but what about _me_?" asked Phyllis Braithwaite a little +piteously, in answer to all this. + +They seemed so certain she was what they wanted--was there anything in +this wild scheme that would make _her_ life better than it was as the +tired, ill-paid, light-hearted keeper of a roomful of turbulent little +foreigners? + +"Unless you are thinking of marriage--" Phyllis shook her head--"you +would have at least a much easier life than you have now. Mrs. +Harrington would settle a liberal income on you, contingent, of course, +of your faithful wardership over Allan. We would be your only judges as +to that. You would have a couple or more months of absolute freedom +every year, control of much of your own time, ample leisure to enjoy it. +You would give only your chances of actual marriage for perhaps five +years, for poor Allan cannot live longer than that at his present state +of retrogression, and some part of every day to seeing that Allan was +not neglected. If you bestow on him half of the interest and effort I +have known of your giving any one of a dozen little immigrant boys, his +mother has nothing to fear for him." + +Mr. De Guenther stopped with a grave little bow, and he and his wife +waited for the reply. + +The Liberry Teacher sat silent, her eyes on her slim hands, that were +roughened and reddened by constant hurried washings to get off the dirt +of the library books. It was true--a good deal of it, anyhow. And one +thing they had not said was true also: her sunniness and accuracy and +strength, her stock-in-trade, were wearing thin under the pressure of +too long hours and too hard work and too few personal interests. Her +youth was worn down. And--marriage? What chance of love and marriage had +she, a working-girl alone, too poor to see anything of the class of men +she would be willing to marry? She had not for years spent six hours +with a man of her own kind and age. She had not even been specially in +love, that she could remember, since she was grown up. She did not feel +much, now, as if she ever would be. All that she had to give up in +taking this offer was her freedom, such as it was--and those fluttering +perhapses that whisper such pleasant promises when you are young. But, +then, she wouldn't be young so _very_ much longer. Should she--she put +it to herself crudely--should she wait long, hard, closed-in years in +the faith that she would learn to be absolutely contented, or that some +man she could love would come to the cheap boarding-house, or the little +church she attended occasionally when she was not too tired, fall in +love with her work-dimmed looks at sight, and--marry her? It had not +happened all these years while her girlhood had been more attractive and +her personality more untired. There was scarcely a chance in a hundred +for her of a kind lover-husband and such dear picture-book children as +she had seen Eva Atkinson convoying. Well--her mind suddenly came up +against the remembrance, as against a sober fact, that in her passionate +wishings of yesterday she had not wished for a lover-husband, nor for +children. She had asked for a husband who would give her money, and +leisure to be rested and pretty, and--a rose-garden! And here, +apparently, was her wish uncannily fulfilled. + +"Well, what are you going to do about it?" inquired the Destinies with +their traditional indifference. "We can't wait all night!" + +She lifted her head and cast an almost frightened look at the De +Guenthers, waiting courteously for her decision. In reply to the look, +Mr. De Guenther began giving her details about the money, and the +leisure time, and the business terms of the contract generally. She +listened attentively. All that--for a little guardianship, a little +kindness, and the giving-up of a little piece of life nobody wanted and +a few little hopes and dreams! + +Phyllis laughed, as she always did when there were big black problems to +be solved. + +"After all, it's fairly usual," she said. "I heard last week of a woman +who left money along with her pet dog, very much the same way." + +"Did you? Did you, dear?" asked Mrs. De Guenther, beaming. "Then you +think you will do it?" + +The Liberry Teacher rose, and squared her straight young shoulders under +the worn net waist. + +"If Mrs. Harrington thinks I'll do for the situation!" she said +gallantly,--and laughed again. + + * * * * * + +"It feels partly like going into a nunnery and partly like going into a +fairy-story," she said to herself that night as she wound her alarm. +"But--I wonder if anybody's remembered to ask the consent of the +groom!" + + + + +V + + +He looked like a young Crusader on a tomb. That was Phyllis's first +impression of Allan Harrington. He talked and acted, if a moveless man +can be said to act, like a bored, spoiled small boy. That was her +second. + +Mrs. Harrington, fragile, flushed, breathlessly intense in her +wheel-chair, had yet a certain resemblance in voice and gesture to Mrs. +De Guenther--a resemblance which puzzled Phyllis till she placed it as +the mark of that far-off ladies' school they had attended together. +There was also a graceful, mincing white wolfhound which, contrary to +the accepted notion of invalids' faithful hounds, didn't seem to care +for his master's darkened sick-room at all, but followed the one sunny +spot in Mrs. Harrington's room with a wistful persistence. It was such a +small spot for such a long wolfhound--that was the principal thing which +impressed itself on Phyllis's frightened mind throughout her visit. + +Mrs. De Guenther convoyed her to the Harrington house for inspection a +couple of days after she had accepted some one's proposal to marry Allan +Harrington. (Whether it counted as her future mother-in-law's proposal, +or her future trustee's, she was never sure. The only sure thing was +that it did not come from the groom.) She had borrowed a half-day from +the future on purpose, though she did not want to go at all. But the +reality was not bad; only a fluttering, emotional little woman who clung +to her hands and talked to her and asked useless questions with a +nervous insistence which would have been nerve-wearing for a steady +thing, but was only pitiful to a stranger. + +You see strange people all the time in library work, and learn to place +them, at length, with almost as much accuracy as you do your books. The +fact that Mrs. Harrington was not long for this world did not prevent +Phyllis from classing her, in her mental card-catalogue, as a very +perfect specimen of the Loving Nagger. She was lying back, wrapped in +something gray and soft, when her visitors came, looking as if the +lifting of her hand would be an effort. She was evidently pitifully +weak. But she had, too, an ineradicable vitality she could summon at +need. She sprang almost upright to greet her visitors, a hand out to +each, an eager flood of words on her lips. + +"And you are Miss Braithwaite, that is going to look after my boy?" she +ended. "Oh, it is so good of you--I am so glad--I can go in peace now. +Are you sure--sure you will know the minute his attendants are the least +bit negligent? I watch and watch them all the time. I tell Allan to ring +for me if anything ever is the least bit wrong--I am always begging him +to remember. I go in every night and pray with him--do you think you +could do that? But I always cry so before I'm through--I cry and cry--my +poor, helpless boy--he was so strong and bright! And you are sure you +are conscientious----" + +At this point Phyllis stopped the flow of Mrs. Harrington's conversation +firmly, if sweetly. + +"Yes, indeed," she said cheerfully. "But you know, if I'm not, Mr. De +Guenther can stop all my allowance. It wouldn't be to my own interest +not to fulfil my duties faithfully." + +"Yes, that is true," said Mrs. Harrington. "That was a good thought of +mine. My husband always said I was an unusual woman where business was +concerned." + +So they went on the principle that she had no honor beyond working for +what she would get out of it! Although she had made the suggestion +herself, Phyllis's cheeks burned, and she was about to answer sharply. +Then somehow the poor, anxious, loving mother's absolute preoccupation +with her son struck her as right after all. + +"If it were my son," thought Phyllis, "I wouldn't worry about any +strange hired girl's feelings either, maybe. I'd just think about +him.... I promise I'll look after Mr. Harrington's welfare as if he were +my own brother!" she ended aloud impulsively. "Indeed, you may trust +me." + +"I am--sure you will," panted Mrs. Harrington. "You look like--a good +girl, and--and old enough to be responsible--twenty-eight--thirty?" + +"Not very far from that," said Phyllis serenely. + +"And you are sure you will know when the attendants are neglectful? I +speak to them all the time, but I never can be sure.... And now you'd +better see poor Allan. This is one of his good days. Just think, dear +Isabel, he spoke to me twice without my speaking to him this morning!" + +"Oh--must I?" asked Phyllis, dismayed. "Couldn't I wait till--till it +happens?" + +Mrs. Harrington actually laughed a little at her shyness, lighting up +like a girl. Phyllis felt dimly, though she tried not to, that through +it all her mother-in-law-elect was taking pleasure in the dramatic side +of the situation she had engineered. + +"Oh, my dear, you must see him. He expects you," she answered almost +gayly. The procession of three moved down the long room towards a door, +Phyllis's hand guiding the wheel-chair. She was surprised to find +herself shaking with fright. Just what she expected to find beyond the +door she did not know, but it must have been some horror, for it was +with a heart-bound of wild relief that she finally made out Allan +Harrington, lying white in the darkened place. + +A Crusader on a tomb. Yes, he looked like that. In the room's half-dusk +the pallor of his still, clear-featured face and his long, clear-cut +hands was nearly the same as the whiteness of the couch-draperies. His +hair, yellow-brown and waving, flung back from his forehead like a +crest, and his dark brows and lashes made the only note of darkness +about him. To Phyllis's beauty-loving eyes he seemed so perfect an image +that she could have watched him for hours. + +"Here's Miss Braithwaite, my poor darling," said his mother. "The young +lady we have been talking about so long." + +The Crusader lifted his eyelids and let them fall again. + +"Is she?" he said listlessly. + +"Don't you want to talk to her, darling boy?" his mother persisted, half +out of breath, but still full of that unrebuffable, loving energy and +insistence which she would probably keep to the last minute of her +life. + +"No," said the Crusader, still in those empty, listless tones. "I'd +rather not talk. I'm tired." + +His mother seemed not at all put out. + +"Of course, darling," she said, kissing him. She sat by him still, +however, and poured out sentence after sentence of question, insistence, +imploration, and pity, eliciting no answer at all. Phyllis wondered how +it would feel to have to lie still and have that done to you for a term +of years. The result of her wonderment was a decision to forgive her +unenthusiastic future bridegroom for what she had at first been ready to +slap him. + +Presently Mrs. Harrington's breath flagged, and the three women went +away, back to the room they had been in before. Phyllis sat and let +herself be talked to for a little longer. Then she rose impulsively. + +"May I go back and see your son again for just a minute?" she asked, and +had gone before Mrs. Harrington had finished her permission. She darted +into the dark room before her courage had time to fail, and stood by the +white couch again. + +"Mr. Harrington," she said clearly, "I'm sorry you're tired, but I'm +afraid I am going to have to ask you to listen to me. You know, don't +you, that your mother plans to have me marry you, for a sort of +interested head-nurse? Are you willing to have it happen? Because I +won't do it unless you really prefer it." + +The heavy white lids half-lifted again. + +"I don't mind," said Allan Harrington listlessly. "I suppose you are +quiet and trustworthy, or De Guenther wouldn't have sent you. It will +give mother a little peace and it makes no difference to me." + +He closed his eyes and the subject at the same time. + +"Well, then, that's all right," said Phyllis cheerfully, and started to +go. Then, drawn back by a sudden, nervous temper-impulse, she moved back +on him. "And let me tell you," she added, half-laughing, +half-impertinently, "that if you ever get into my quiet, trustworthy +clutches you may have an awful time! You're a very spoiled invalid." + +She whisked out of the room before he could have gone very far with his +reply. But he had not cared to reply, apparently. He lay unmoved and +unmoving. + +Phyllis discovered, poising breathless on the threshold, that somehow +she had seen his eyes. They had been a little like the wolfhound's, a +sort of wistful gold-brown. + +For some reason she found that Allan Harrington's attitude of absolute +detachment made the whole affair seem much easier for her. And when Mrs. +Harrington slipped a solitaire diamond into her hand as she went, +instead of disliking it she enjoyed its feel on her finger, and the +flash of it in the light. She thanked Mrs. Harrington for it with real +gratitude. But it made her feel more than ever engaged to marry her +mother-in-law. + +She walked home rather silently with Mrs. De Guenther. Only at the foot +of the De Guenther steps, she made one absent remark. + +"He must have been delightful," she said, "when he was alive!" + + + + +VI + + +After a week of the old bustling, dusty hard work, the Liberry Teacher's +visit to the De Guenthers' and the subsequent one at the Harringtons', +and even her sparkling white ring, seemed part of a queer story she had +finished and put back on the shelf. The ring was the most real thing, +because it was something of a worry. She didn't dare leave it at home, +nor did she want to wear it. She finally sewed it in a chamois bag that +she safety-pinned under her shirt-waist. Then she dismissed it from her +mind also. There is very little time in a Liberry Teacher's life for +meditation. Only once in a while would come to her the vision of the +wistful Harrington wolfhound following his inadequate patch of sunlight, +or of the dusky room where Allan Harrington lay inert and white, and +looking like a wonderful carved statue on a tomb. + +She began to do a little to her clothes, but not very much, because she +had neither time nor money. Mr. De Guenther had wanted her to take some +money in advance, but she had refused. She did not want it till she had +earned it, and, anyway, it would have made the whole thing so real, she +knew, that she would have backed out. + +"And it isn't as if I were going to a lover," she defended herself to +Mrs. De Guenther with a little wistful smile. "Nobody will know what I +have on, any more than they do now." + +Mrs. De Guenther gave a scandalized little cry. Her attitude was +determinedly that it was just an ordinary marriage, as good an excuse +for sentiment and pretty frocks as any other. + +"My dear child," she replied firmly, "you are going to have one pretty +frock and one really good street-suit _now_, or I will know why! The +rest you may get yourself after the wedding, but you must obey me in +this. Nonsense!--you can get a half-day, as you call it, perfectly well! +What's Albert in politics for, if he can't get favors for his friends!" + +And, in effect, it proved that Albert was in politics to some purpose, +for orders came up from the Head's office within twenty minutes after +Mrs. De Guenther had used the telephone on her husband, that Miss +Braithwaite was to have a half-day immediately--as far as she could make +out, in order to transact city affairs! She felt as if the angels had +told her she could have the last fortnight over again, as a favor, or +something of the sort. A half-day out of turn was something nobody had +ever heard of. She was even too surprised to object to the frock part of +the situation. She tried to stand out a little longer, but it's a very +stoical young woman who can refuse to have pretty clothes bought for +her, and the end of it was a seat in a salon which she had always +considered so expensive that you scarcely ought to look in the window. + +"Had it better be a black suit?" asked Mrs. De Guenther doubtfully, as +the tall lady in floppy charmeuse hovered haughtily about them, +expecting orders. "It seems horrible to buy mourning when dear Angela is +not yet passed away, but it would only be showing proper respect; and I +remember my own dear mother planned all our mourning outfits while she +was dying. It was quite a pleasure to her." + +Phyllis kept her face straight, and slipped one persuasive hand through +her friend's arm. + +"I don't believe I _could_ buy mourning, dear," she said. "And--oh, if +you knew how long I'd wanted a really _blue_ blue suit! Only, it would +have been too vivid to wear well--I always knew that--because you can +only afford one every other year. And"--Phyllis rather diffidently +voiced a thought which had been in the back of her mind for a long +time--"if I'm going to be much around Mr. Harrington, don't you think +cheerful clothes would be best? Everything in that house seems sombre +enough now." + +"Perhaps you are right, dear child," said Mrs. De Guenther. "I hope you +may be the means of putting a great deal of brightness into poor Allan's +life before he joins his mother." + +"Oh, don't!" cried Phyllis impulsively. Somehow she could not bear to +think of Allan Harrington's dying. He was too beautiful to be dead, +where nobody could see him any more. Besides, Phyllis privately +considered that a long vacation before he joined his mother would be +only the fair thing for "poor Allan." Youth sides with youth. And--the +clear-cut white lines of him rose in her memory and stayed there. She +could almost hear that poor, tired, toneless voice of his, that was yet +so deep and so perfectly accented.... She bought docilely whatever her +guide directed, and woke from a species of gentle daze at the +afternoon's end to find Mrs. De Guenther beaming with the weary rapture +of the successful shopper, and herself the proprietress of a turquoise +velvet walking-suit, a hat to match, a pale blue evening frock, a pale +green between-dress with lovely clinging lines, and a heavenly white +crepe thing with rosy ribbons and filmy shadow-laces--the negligee of +one's dreams. There were also slippers and shoes and stockings and--this +was really too bad of Mrs. De Guenther--a half-dozen set of lingerie, +straight through. Mrs. De Guenther sat and continued to beam joyously +over the array, in Phyllis's little bedroom. + +"It's my present, dearie," she said calmly. "So you needn't worry about +using Angela's money. Gracious, it's been _lovely_! I haven't had such a +good time since my husband's little grand-niece came on for a week. +There's nothing like dressing a girl, after all." + +And Phyllis could only kiss her. But when her guest had gone she laid +all the boxes of finery under her bed, the only place where there was +any room. She would not take any of it out, she determined, till her +summons came. But on second thought, she wore the blue velvet +street-suit on Sunday visits to Mrs. Harrington, which became--she never +knew just when or how--a regular thing. The vivid blue made her eyes +nearly sky-color, and brightened her hair very satisfactorily. She was +taking more time and trouble over her looks now--one has to live up to a +turquoise velvet hat and coat! She found herself, too, becoming very +genuinely fond of the restless, anxiously loving, passionate, unwise +child who dwelt in Mrs. Harrington's frail elderly body and had almost +worn it out. She sat, long hours of every Sunday afternoon, holding Mrs. +Harrington's thin little hot hands, and listening to her swift, +italicised monologues about Allan--what he must do, what he must not do, +how he must be looked after, how his mother had treated him, how his +wishes must be ascertained and followed. + +"Though all he wants now is dark and quiet," said his mother piteously. +"I don't even go in there now to cry." + +She spoke as if it were an established ritual. Had she been using her +son's sick-room, Phyllis wondered, as a regular weeping-place? She could +feel in Mrs. Harrington, even in this mortal sickness, the tremendous +driving influence which is often part of a passionately active and not +very wise personality. That certitude and insistence of Mrs. +Harrington's could hammer you finally into believing or doing almost +anything. Phyllis wondered how much his mother's heartbroken adoration +and pity might have had to do with making her son as hopeless-minded as +he was. + +Naturally, the mother-in-law-elect she had acquired in such a strange +way became very fond of Phyllis. But indeed there was something very gay +and sweet and honest-minded about the girl, a something which gave +people the feeling that they were very wise in liking her. Some people +you are fond of against your will. When people cared for Phyllis it was +with a quite irrational feeling that they were doing a sensible thing. +They never gave any of the credit to her very real, though almost +invisible, charm. + +She never saw Allan Harrington on any of the Sunday visits. She was sure +the servants thought she did, for she knew that every one in the great, +dark old house knew her as the young lady who was to marry Mr. Allan. +She believed that she was supposed to be an old family friend, perhaps a +distant relative. She did not want to see Allan. But she did want to be +as good to his little, tensely-loving mother as she could, and reassure +her about Allan's future care. And she succeeded. + +It was on a Friday about two that the summons came. Phyllis had thought +she expected it, but when the call came to her over the library +telephone she found herself as badly frightened as she had been the +first time she went to the Harrington house. She shivered as she laid +down the dater she was using, and called the other librarian to take her +desk. Fortunately, between one and four the morning and evening shifts +overlapped, and there was some one to take her place. + +"Mrs. Harrington cannot last out the night," came Mr. De Guenther's +clear, precise voice over the telephone, without preface. "I have +arranged with Mr. Johnston. You can go at once. You had better pack a +suit-case, for you possibly may not be able to get back to your +boarding-place." + +So it was to happen now! Phyllis felt, with her substitute in her place, +her own wraps on, and her feet taking her swiftly towards her goal, as +if she were offering herself to be made a nun, or have a hand or foot +cut off, or paying herself away in some awful, irrevocable fashion. She +packed, mechanically, all the pretty things Mrs. De Guenther had given +her, and nothing else. She found herself at the door of her room with +the locked suit-case in her hand, and not even a nail-file of the things +belonging to her old self in it. She shook herself together, managed to +laugh a little, and returned and put in such things as she thought she +would require for the night. Then she went. She always remembered that +journey as long as she lived; her hands and feet and tongue going on, +buying tickets, giving directions--and her mind, like a naughty child, +catching at everything as they went, and screaming to be allowed to go +back home, back to the dusty, matter-of-course library and the dreary +little boarding-house bedroom! + + + + +VII + + +They were all waiting for her, in what felt like a hideously quiet +semicircle, in Allan's great dark room. Mrs. Harrington, deadly pale, +and giving an impression of keeping herself alive only by force of that +wonderful fighting vitality of hers, lay almost at length in her +wheel-chair. There was a clergyman in vestments. There were the De +Guenthers; Mr. De Guenther only a little more precise than his every-day +habit was, Mrs. De Guenther crying a little, softly and furtively. + +As for Allan Harrington, he lay just as she had seen him that other +time, white and moveless, seeming scarcely conscious except by an +effort. Only she noticed a slight contraction, as of pain, between his +brows. + +"Phyllis has come," panted Mrs. Harrington. "Now it will be--all right. +You must marry him quickly--quickly, do you hear, Phyllis? Oh, people +never will--do--what I want them to----" + +"Yes--yes, indeed, dear," said Phyllis, taking her hands soothingly. +"We're going to attend to it right away. See, everything is ready." + +It occurred to her that Mrs. Harrington was not half as correct in her +playing of the part of a dying woman as she would have seen to it that +anyone else was; also, that things did not seem legal without the +wolfhound. Then she was shocked at herself for such irrelevant thoughts. +The thing to do was to keep poor Mrs. Harrington quieted. So she +beckoned the clergyman and the De Guenthers nearer, and herself sped the +marrying of herself to Allan Harrington. + +... When you are being married to a Crusader on a tomb, the easiest way +is to kneel down by him. Phyllis registered this fact in her mind quite +blankly, as something which might be of use to remember in future.... +The marrying took an unnecessarily long time, it seemed to her. It did +not seem as if she were being married at all. It all seemed to concern +somebody else. When it came to the putting on of the wedding-ring, she +found herself, very naturally, guiding Allan's relaxed fingers to hold +it in its successive places, and finally slip it on the wedding-finger. +And somehow having to do that checked the chilly awe she had had before +of Allan Harrington. It made her feel quite simply sorry for him, as if +he were one of her poor little boys in trouble. And when it was all over +she bent pitifully before she thought, and kissed one white, cold cheek. +He seemed so tragically helpless, yet more alive, in some way, since she +had touched his hand to guide it. Then, as her lips brushed his cheek, +she recoiled and colored a little. She had felt that slight roughness +which a man's cheek, however close-shaven, always has--the _man_-feel. +It made her realize unreasonably that it was a man she had married, +after all, not a stone image nor a sick child--a live man! With the +thought, or rather instinct, came a swift terror of what she had done, +and a swift impulse to rise. She was half-way risen from her knees when +a hand on her shoulder, and the clergyman's voice in her ear, checked +her. + +"Not yet," he murmured almost inaudibly. "Stay as you are till--till +Mrs. Harrington is wheeled from the room." + +Phyllis understood. She remained as she was, her body a shield before +Allan Harrington's eyes, her hand just withdrawing from his shoulder, +till she heard the closing of the door, and a sigh as of relaxed tension +from the three people around her. Then she rose. Allan lay still with +closed eyelids. It seemed to her that he had flushed, if ever so +faintly, at the touch of her lips on his cheek. She laid his hand on the +coverlet with her own roughened, ringed one, and followed the others +out, into the room where the dead woman had been taken, leaving him with +his attendant. + +The rest of the evening Phyllis went about in a queer-keyed, almost +light-hearted frame of mind. It was only the reaction from the +long-expected terror that was over now, but it felt indecorous. It was +just as well, however. Some one's head had to be kept. The servants were +upset, of course, and there were many arrangements to be made. She and +Mr. De Guenther worked steadily together, telephoning, ordering, +guiding, straightening out all the tangles. There never was a wedding, +she thought, where the bride did so much of the work! She even +remembered to see personally that Allan's dinner was sent up to him. The +servants had doubtless been told to come to her for orders--at any rate, +they did. Phyllis had not had much experience in running a house, but a +good deal in keeping her head. And that, after all, is the main thing. +She had a far-off feeling as if she were hearing some other young woman +giving swift, poised, executive orders. She rather admired her. + +After dinner the De Guenthers went. And Phyllis Braithwaite, the little +Liberry Teacher who had been living in a hall bedroom on much less money +than she needed, found herself alone, sole mistress of the great +Harrington house, a corps of servants, a husband passive enough to +satisfy the most militant suffragette, a check-book, a wistful +wolfhound, and five hundred dollars, cash, for current expenses. The +last weighed on her mind more than all the rest put together. + +"Why, I don't know how to make Current Expenses out of all that!" she +had said to Mr. De Guenther. "It looks to me exactly like about ten +months' salary! I'm perfectly certain I shall get up in my sleep and try +to pay my board ahead with it, so I shan't have it all spent before the +ten months are up! There was a blue bead necklace," she went on +meditatively, "in the Five-and-Ten, that I always wanted to buy. Only I +never quite felt I could afford it. Oh, just imagine going to the +Five-and-Ten and buying at least five dollars' worth of things you +didn't need!" + +"You have great discretionary powers--great discretionary powers, my +dear, you will find!" Mr. De Guenther had said, as he patted her +shoulder. Phyllis took it as a compliment at the time. "Discretionary +powers" sounded as if he thought she was a quite intelligent young +person. It did not occur to her till he had gone, and she was alone with +her check-book, that it meant she had a good deal of liberty to do as +she liked. + +It seemed to be expected of her to stay. Nobody even suggested a +possibility of her going home again, even to pack her trunk. Mrs. De +Guenther casually volunteered to do that, a little after the housekeeper +had told her where her rooms were. She had been consulting with the +housekeeper for what seemed ages, when she happened to want some pins +for something, and asked for her suit-case. + +"It's in your rooms," said the housekeeper. "Mrs. Harrington--the late +Mrs. Harrington, I should say----" + +Phyllis stopped listening at this point. Who was the present Mrs. +Harrington? she wondered before she thought--and then remembered. +Why--_she_ was! So there was no Phyllis Braithwaite any more! Of course +not.... Yet she had always liked the name so--well, a last name was a +small thing to give up.... Into her mind fitted an incongruous, silly +story she had heard once at the library, about a girl whose last name +was Rose, and whose parents christened her Wild, because the combination +appealed to them. And then she married a man named Bull.... Meanwhile +the housekeeper had been going on. + +... "She had the bedroom and bath opening from the other side of Mr. +Allan's day-room ready for you, madam. It's been ready several weeks." + +"Has it?" said Phyllis. It was like Mrs. Harrington, that careful +planning of even where she should be put. "Is Mr. Harrington in his +day-room now?" + +For some reason she did not attempt to give herself, she did not want to +see him again just now. Besides, it was nearly eleven and time a very +tired girl was in bed. She wanted a good night's rest, before she had to +get up and be Mrs. Harrington, with Allan and the check-book and the +Current Expenses all tied to her. + +Some one had laid everything out for her in the bedroom; the filmy new +nightgown over a chair, the blue satin mules underneath, her plain +toilet-things on a dressing-table, and over another chair the exquisite +ivory crepe negligee with its floating rose ribbons. She took a hasty +bath--there was so much hot water that she was quite reconciled for a +moment to being a check-booked and wolf hounded Mrs. Harrington--and +slid straight into bed without even stopping to braid her loosened, +honey-colored hair. + +It seemed to her that she was barely asleep when there came an urgent +knocking at her door. + +"Yes?" she said sleepily, looking mechanically for her alarm-clock as +she switched on the light. "What is it, please?" + +"It's I, Wallis, Mr. Allan's man, Madame," said a nervous voice. "Mr. +Allan's very bad. I've done all the usual things, but nothing seems to +quiet him. He hates doctors so, and they make him so wrought up--please +could you come, ma'am? He says as how all of us are all dead--oh, +_please_, Mrs. Harrington!" + +There was panic in the man's voice. + +"All right," said Phyllis sleepily, dropping to the floor as she spoke +with the rapidity that only the alarm-clock-broken know. She snatched +the negligee around her, and thrust her feet hastily into the blue satin +slippers--why, she was actually using her wedding finery! And what an +easily upset person that man was! But everybody in the house seemed to +have nerves on edge. It was no wonder about Allan--he wanted his +mother, of course, poor boy! She felt, as she ran fleetly across the +long room that separated her sleeping quarters from her husband's, the +same mixture of pity and timidity that she had felt with him before. +Poor boy! Poor, silent, beautiful statue, with his one friend gone! She +opened the door and entered swiftly into his room. + +She was not thinking about herself at all, only of how she could help +Allan, but there must have been something about her of the picture-book +angel to the pain-racked man, lying tensely at length in the room's +darkest corner. Her long, dully gold hair, loosening from its twist, +flew out about her, and her face was still flushed with sleep. There was +a something about her that was vividly alight and alive, perhaps the +light in her blue eyes. + +From what the man had said Phyllis had thought Allan was delirious, but +she saw at once that he was only in severe pain, and talking more +disconnectedly, perhaps, than the slow-minded Englishman could follow. +He did not look like a statue now. His cheeks were burning with evident +pain, and his yellow-brown eyes, wide-open, and dilated to darkness, +stared straight out. His hands were clenching and unclenching, and his +head moved restlessly from side to side. Every nerve and muscle, she +could see, was taut. + +"They're all dead," he muttered. "Father and Mother and Louise--and +I--only I'm not dead enough to bury. Oh, God, I wish I was!" + +That wasn't delirium; it was something more like heart-break. Phyllis +moved closer to him, and dropped one of her sleep-warm hands on his +cold, clenched one. + +"Oh, poor boy!" she said. "I'm so sorry--so sorry!" She closed her hands +tight over both his. + +Some of her strong young vitality must have passed between them and +helped him, for almost immediately his tenseness relaxed a little, and +he looked at her. + +"You--you're not a nurse," he said. "They go around--like--like +a--vault----" + +She had caught his attention! That was a good deal, she felt. She +forgot everything about him, except that he was some one to be +comforted, and her charge. She sat down on the bed by him, still holding +tight to his hands. + +"No, indeed," she said, bending nearer him, her long loose hair falling +forward about her resolutely-smiling young face. "Don't you remember +seeing me? I never was a nurse." + +"What--are you?" he asked feebly. + +"I'm--why, the children call me the Liberry Teacher," she answered. It +occurred to her that it would be better to talk on brightly at random +than to risk speaking of his mother to him, as she must if she reminded +him of their marriage. "I spend my days in a basement, making bad little +boys get so interested in the Higher Culture that they'll forget to +shoot crap and smash windows." + +One of the things which had aided Phyllis to rise from desk-assistant to +one of the Children's Room librarians was a very sweet and carrying +voice--a voice which arrested even a child's attention, and held his +interest. It held Allan now; merely the sound of it, seemingly. + +"Go on--talking," he murmured. Phyllis smiled and obeyed. + +"Sometimes the Higher Culture doesn't work," she said. "Yesterday one of +my imps got hold of a volume of Shaw, and in half an hour his aunt +marched in on me and threatened I don't know what to a library that +'taught chilren to disrespect their lawful guardeens.'" + +"I remember now," said Allan. "You are the girl in the blue dress. The +girl mother had me marry. I remember." + +"Yes," said Phyllis soothingly, and a little apologetically. "I know. +But that--oh, please, it needn't make a bit of difference. It was only +so I could see that you were looked after properly, you know. I'll never +be in the way, unless you want me to do something for you." + +"I don't mind," he said listlessly, as he had before.... "_Oh, this +dreadful darkness, and mother dead in it somewhere!_" + +"Wallis," called Phyllis swiftly, "turn up the lights!" + +The man slipped the close green silk shades from the electric bulbs. +Allan shrank as if he had been hurt. + +"I can't stand the glare," he cried. + +"Yes, you can for a moment," she said firmly. "It's better than the +ghastly green glow." + +It was probably the first time Allan Harrington had been contradicted +since his accident. He said nothing more for a minute, and Phyllis +directed Wallis to bring a sheet of pink tissue paper from her +suit-case, where she remembered it lay in the folds of some new muslin +thing. Under her direction still, he wrapped the globes in it and +secured it with string. + +"There!" she told Allan triumphantly when Wallis was done. "See, there +is no glare now; only a pretty rose-colored glow. Better than the green, +isn't it?" + +Allan looked at her again. "You are--kind," he said. "Mother said--you +would be kind. Oh, mother--mother!" He tried uselessly to lift one arm +to cover his convulsed face, and could only turn his head a little +aside. + +"You can go, Wallis," said Phyllis softly, with her lips only. "Be in +the next room." The man stole out and shut the door softly. Phyllis +herself rose and went toward the window, and busied herself in braiding +up her hair. There was almost silence in the room for a few minutes. + +"Thank--you," said Allan brokenly. "Will you--come back, please?" + +She returned swiftly, and sat by him as she had before. + +"Would you mind--holding my wrists again?" he asked. "I feel quieter, +somehow, when you do--not so--lost." There was a pathetic boyishness in +his tone that the sad, clear lines of his face would never prepare you +for. + +Phyllis took his wrists in her warm, strong hands obediently. + +"Are you in pain, Allan?" she asked. "Do you mind if I call you Allan? +It's the easiest way." + +He smiled at her a little, faintly. It occurred to her that perhaps the +novelty of her was taking his mind a little from his own feelings. + +"No--no pain. I haven't had any for a very long time now. Only this +dreadful blackness dragging at my mind, a blackness the light hurts." + +"_Why!_" said Phyllis to herself, being on known ground here--"why, it's +nervous depression! I believe cheering-up _would_ help. I know," she +said aloud; "I've had it." + +"You?" he said. "But you seem so--happy!" + +"I suppose I am," said Phyllis shyly. She felt a little afraid of "poor +Allan" still, now that there was nothing to do for him, and they were +talking together. And he had not answered her question, either; +doubtless he wanted her to say "Mr. Allan" or even "Mr. Harrington!" He +replied to her thought in the uncanny way invalids sometimes do. + +"You said something about what we were to call each other," he murmured. +"It would be foolish, of course, not to use first names. Yours is Alice, +isn't it?" + +Phyllis laughed. "Oh, worse than that!" she said. "I was named out of a +poetrybook, I believe--Phyllis Narcissa. But I always conceal the +Narcissa." + +"Phyllis. Thank you," he said wearily. ... "_Phyllis, don't let go! +Talk_ to me!" His eyes were those of a man in torment. + +"What shall I talk about?" she asked soothingly, keeping the two cold, +clutching hands in her warm grasp. "Shall I tell you a story? I know a +great many stories by heart, and I will say them for you if you like. It +was part of my work." + +"Yes," he said. "Anything." + +Phyllis arranged herself more comfortably on the bed, for it looked as +if she had some time to stay, and began the story she knew best, because +her children liked it best, Kipling's "How the Elephant Got His Trunk." +"A long, long time ago, O Best Beloved...." + +Allan listened, and, she thought, at times paid attention to the words. +He almost smiled once or twice, she was nearly sure. She went straight +on to another story when the first was done. Never had she worked so +hard to keep the interest of any restless circle of children as she +worked now, sitting up in the pink light in her crepe wrappings, with +her school-girl braids hanging down over her bosom, and Allan +Harrington's agonized golden-brown eyes fixed on her pitying ones. + +"You must be tired," he said more connectedly and quietly when she had +ended the second story. "Can't you sit up here by me, propped on the +pillows? And you need a quilt or something, too." + +This from an invalid who had been given nothing but himself to think of +this seven years back! Phyllis's opinion of Allan went up very much. She +had supposed he would be very selfish. But she made herself a bank of +pillows, and arranged herself by Allan's side so that she could keep +fast to his hands without any strain, something as skaters hold. She +wrapped a down quilt from the foot of the bed around her mummy-fashion +and went on to her third story. Allan's eyes, as she talked on, grew +less intent--drooped. She felt the relaxation of his hands. She went +monotonously on, closing her own eyes--just for a minute, as she +finished her story. + + + + +VIII + + +"I've overslept the alarm!" was Phyllis's first thought next morning +when she woke. "It must be--" Where was she? So tired, so very tired, +she remembered being, and telling some one an interminable story.... She +held her sleepy eyes wide open by will-power, and found that a silent +but evidently going clock hung in sight. Six-thirty. Then she hadn't +overslept the alarm. But ... she hadn't set any alarm. And she had been +sleeping propped up in a sitting position, half on--why, it was a +shoulder. And she was rolled tight in a terra-cotta down quilt. She sat +up with a jerk--fortunately a noiseless one--and turned to look. Then +suddenly she remembered all about it, that jumbled, excited, +hard-working yesterday which had held change and death and marriage for +her, and which she had ended by perching on "poor Allan Harrington's" +bed and sending him to sleep by holding his hands and telling him +children's stories. She must have fallen asleep after he did, and slid +down on his shoulder. A wonder it hadn't disturbed him! She stole +another look at him, as he lay sleeping still, heavily and quietly. +After all, she was married to him, and she had a perfect right to recite +him to sleep if she wanted to. She unrolled herself cautiously, and slid +out like a shadow. + +She almost fell over poor Wallis, sleeping too in his clothes outside +the door, on Allan's day couch. He came quickly to his feet, as if he +were used to sudden waking. + +"Don't disturb Mr. Harrington," said Phyllis as staidly as if she had +been giving men-servants orders in her slipper-feet all her life. "He +seems to be sleeping quietly." + +"Begging your pardon, Mrs. Harrington, but you haven't been giving him +anything, have you?" asked Wallis. "He hasn't slept without a break for +two hours to my knowledge since I've been here, not without medicine." + +"Not a thing," said Phyllis, smiling with satisfaction. "He must have +been sleeping nearly three hours now! I read him to sleep, or what +amounted to it. I got his nerves quiet, I think. Please kill anybody +that tries to wake him, Wallis." + +"Very good, ma'am," said Wallis gravely. "And yourself, ma'am?" + +"I'm going to get some sleep, too," she said. "Call me if there's +anything--useful." + +She meant "necessary," but she wanted so much more sleep she never knew +the difference. When she got into her room she found that there also she +was not alone: the wistful wolfhound was curled plaintively across her +bed, which he overlapped. From his nose he seemed to have been dipping +largely into the cup of chocolate somebody had brought to her, and which +she had forgotten to drink when she found it, on her first retiring. + +"You aren't a _bit_ high-minded," said Phyllis indignantly. She was too +sleepy to do more than shove him over to the back of the bed. "All--the +beds here are so--_full_," she complained sleepily; and crawled inside, +and never woke again till nearly afternoon. + +There was all the grave business to be done, in the days that followed, +of taking Mrs. Harrington to a quiet place beside her husband, and +drawing together again the strings of the disorganized household. +Phyllis found herself whispering over and over again: + + + "The sweeping up the heart + And putting love away + We shall not need to use again. + Until the Judgment Day." + + +And with all there was to see after, it was some days before she saw +Allan again, more than to speak to brightly as she crossed their common +sitting-room. He did not ask for her. She looked after his comfort +faithfully, and tried to see to it that his man Wallis was all he should +be--a task which was almost hopeless from the fact that Wallis knew much +more about his duties than she did, even with Mrs. Harrington's +painstakingly detailed notes to help her. Also his attitude to his +master was of such untiring patience and worship that it made Phyllis +feel like a rude outsider interfering between man and wife. + +However, Wallis was inclined to approve of his new mistress, who was +not fussy, seemed kind, and had given his beloved Mr. Allan nearly three +hours of unbroken sleep. Allan had been a little better ever since. +Wallis had told Phyllis this. But she was inclined to think that the +betterment was caused by the counter-shock of his mother's death, which +had shaken him from his lethargy, and perhaps even given his nerves a +better balance. And she insisted that the pink paper stay on the +electric lights. + +After about a week of this, Phyllis suddenly remembered that she had not +been selfish at all yet. Where was her rose-garden--the garden she had +married the wolfhound and Allan and the check-book for? Where were all +the things she had intended to get? The only item she had bought as yet +ran, on the charge account she had taken over with the rest, "1 doz. +checked dish-towels"; and Mrs. Clancy, the housekeeper's, pressing +demand was responsible for these. + +"It's certainly time I was selfish," said Phyllis to the wolfhound, who +followed her round unendingly as if she had patches of sunshine in her +pocket: glorious patches, fit for a life-sized wolfhound. Perhaps he was +grateful because she had ordered him long daily walks. He wagged his +tail now as she spoke, and rubbed himself curvingly against her. He was +a rather affected dog. + +So Phyllis made herself out a list in a superlatively neat library hand: + + + One string of blue beads. + One lot of very fluffy summer frocks with flowers on them. + One rose-garden. + One banjo and a self-teacher. (And a sound-proof room.) + One set Arabian Nights. + One set of Stevenson, all but his novels. + Ever so many Maxfield Parrish pictures full of Prussian-blue skies. + A house to put them in, with fireplaces. + A lady's size motor-car that likes me. + A plain cat with a tame disposition. + A hammock. + A sun-dial. (But that might be thrown in with the garden.) + A gold watch-bracelet. + All the colored satin slippers I want. + A room big enough to put all father's books up. + + +It looked shamelessly long, but Phyllis's "discretionary powers" would +cover it, she knew. Mrs. Harrington's final will, while full of advice, +had been recklessly trusting. + +She could order everything in one afternoon, she was sure, all but the +house, the garden, the motor, which she put checks against, and the +plain cat, which she thought she could pick up in the village where her +house would be. + +Next she went to see Allan. She didn't want to bother him, but she did +feel that she ought to share her plans with him as far as possible. +Besides, it occurred to her that she could scarcely remember what he was +like to speak to, and really owed it to herself to go. She fluffed out +her hair loosely, put on her pale-green gown that had clinging lines, +and pulled some daffodils through her sash. She had resolved to avoid +anything sombre where Allan was concerned--and the green gown was very +becoming. Then, armed with her list and a pencil, she crossed boldly to +the couch where her Crusader lay in the old attitude, moveless and with +half-closed eyes. + +"Allan," she asked, standing above him, "do you think you could stand +being talked to for a little while?" + +"Why--yes," said Allan, opening his eyes a little more. "Wallis, +get--Mrs. Harrington--a chair." + +He said the name haltingly, and Phyllis wondered if he disliked her +having it. She dropped down beside him, like a smiling touch of spring +in the dark room. + +"Do you mind their calling me that?" she asked. "If there's anything +else they could use----" + +"Mother made you a present of the name," he said, smiling faintly. "No +reason why I should mind." + +"All right," said Phyllis cheerfully. After all, there was nothing else +to call her, speaking of her. The servants, she knew, generally said +"the young madam," as if her mother-in-law were still alive. + +"I want to talk to you about things," she began; and had to stop to deal +with the wolfhound, who was trying to put both paws on her shoulders. +"Oh, Ivan, _get_ down, honey! I _wish_ somebody would take a day off +some time to explain to you that you're not a lap-dog! Do you like +wolfhounds specially better than any other kind of dog, Allan?" + +"Not particularly," said Allan, patting the dog languidly as he put his +head in a convenient place for the purpose. "Mother bought him, she +said, because he would look so picturesque in my sick-room. She wanted +him to lie at my feet or something. But he never saw it that +way--neither did I. Hates sick-rooms. Don't blame him." + +This was the longest speech Allan had made yet, and Phyllis learned +several things from it that she had only guessed before. One was that +the atmosphere of embodied grief and regret in the house had been Mrs. +Harrington's, not Allan's--that he was more young and natural than she +had thought, better material for cheering; that his mother's devotion +had been something of a pressure on him at times; and that he himself +was not interested in efforts to stage his illness correctly. + +What he really had said when the dog was introduced, she learned later +from the attached Wallis, was that he might be a cripple, but he wasn't +going to be part of any confounded tableau. Whereupon his mother had +cried for an hour, kissing and pitying him in between, and his night +had been worse than usual. But the hound had stayed outside. + +Phyllis made an instant addition to her list. "One bull-pup, convenient +size, for Allan." The plain cat could wait. She had heard of publicity +campaigns; she had made up her mind, and a rather firm young mind it +was, that she was going to conduct a cheerfulness campaign in behalf of +this listless, beautiful, darkness-locked Allan of hers. Unknowingly, +she was beginning to regard him as much her property as the check-book, +and rather more so than the wolfhound. She moved back a little, and +reconciled herself to the dog, who had draped as much of his body as +would go, over her, and was batting his tail against her joyfully. + +"Poor old puppy," she said. "I want to talk over some plans with you, +Allan," she began again determinedly. She was astonished to see Allan +wince. + +"_Don't!_" he said, "for heaven's sake! You'll drive me crazy!" + +Phyllis drew back a little indignantly, but behind the couch she saw +Wallis making some sort of face that was evidently intended for a +warning. Then he slipped out of the room, as if he wished her to follow +soon and be explained to. "Plans" must be a forbidden subject. Anyhow, +crossness was a better symptom than apathy! + +"Very well," she said brightly, smiling her old, useful, +cheering-a-bad-child library smile at him. "It was mostly about things I +wanted to buy for myself, any way--satin slippers and such. I don't +suppose they _would_ interest a man much." + +"Oh, that sort of thing," said Allan relievedly. "I thought you meant +things that had to do with me. If you have plans about me, go ahead, for +you know I can't do anything to stop you--but for heaven's sake, don't +discuss it with me first!" + +He spoke carelessly, but the pity of it struck to Phyllis's heart. It +was true, he couldn't stop her. His foolish, adoring little desperate +mother, in her anxiety to have her boy taken good care of, had exposed +him to a cruel risk. Phyllis knew herself to be trustworthy. She knew +that she could no more put her own pleasures before her charge's welfare +than she could steal his watch. Her conscience was New-England rock. +But, oh! suppose Mr. De Guenther had chosen some girl who didn't care, +who would have taken the money and not have done the work! She shivered +at the thought of what Allan had escaped, and caught his hand +impulsively, as she had on that other night of terror. + +"Oh, Allan Harrington, I _wouldn't_ do anything I oughtn't to! I know +it's dreadful, having a strange girl wished on you this way, but truly I +mean to be as good as I can, and never in the way or anything! Indeed, +you may trust me! You--you don't mind having me round, do you?" + +Allan's cold hand closed kindly on hers. He spoke for the first time as +a well man speaks, quietly, connectedly, and with a little authority. + +"The fact that I am married to you does not weigh on me at all, my dear +child," he said. "I shall be dead, you know, this time five years, and +what difference does it make whether I'm married or not? I don't mind +you at all. You seem a very kind and pleasant person. I am sure I can +trust you. Now are you reassured?" + +"Oh, _yes_," said Phyllis radiantly, "and you _can_ trust me, and I +_won't_ fuss. All you have to do if I bore you is to look bored. You +can, you know. You don't know how well you do it! And I'll stop. I'm +going to ask Wallis how much of my society you'd better have, if any." + +"Why, I don't think a good deal of it would hurt me," he said +indifferently. But he smiled in a quite friendly fashion. + +"All right," said Phyllis again brightly. But she fell silent then. +There were two kinds of Allan, she reflected. This kind of Allan, who +was very much more grown-up and wise than she was, and of whom she still +stood a little in awe; and the little-boy Allan who had clung to her in +nervous dread of the dark the other night--whom she had sent to sleep +with children's stories. She wondered which was real, which he had been +when he was well. + +"I must go now and have something out with Mrs. Clancy," she said, +smiling and rising. "She's perfectly certain carpets have to come up +when you put down mattings, and I'm perfectly certain they don't." + +She tucked the despised list, to which she had furtively added her +bull-pup, into her sleeve, took her hand from his and went away. It +seemed to Allan that the room was a little darker. + + + + +IX + + +Outside the sitting-room door stood Wallis, who had been lying in wait. + +"I wanted to explain, madam, about the plans," he said. "It worries Mr. +Allan. You see, madam, the late Mrs. Harrington was a great one for +plans. She had, if I may say so, a new one every day, and she'd argue +you deaf, dumb, and blind--not to speak ill of the dead--till you were +fair beat out fighting it. Then you'd settle down to it--and next day +there be another one, with Mrs. Harrington rooting for it just as hard, +and you, with your mouth fixed for the other plan, so to speak, would +have to give in to that. The plan she happened to have last always went +through, because she fought for that as hard as she had for the others, +and you were so bothered by then you didn't care what." + +Wallis's carefully impersonal servant-English had slipped from him, and +he was talking to Phyllis as man to man, but she was very glad of it. +These were the sort of facts she had to elicit. + +"When Mr. Allan was well," he went on, "he used to just laugh and say, +'All right, mother darling,' and pet her and do his own way--he was +always laughing and carrying on then, Mr. Allan--but after he was hurt, +of course, he couldn't get away, and the old madam, she'd sit by his +couch by the hour, and he nearly wild, making plans for him. She'd spend +weeks planning details of things over and over, never getting tired. And +then off again to the next thing! It was all because she was so fond of +him, you see. But if you'll pardon my saying so, madam"--Wallis was +resuming his man-servant manners--"it was not always good for Mr. +Allan." + +"I think I understand," said Phyllis thoughtfully, as she and the +wolfhound went to interview Mrs. Clancy. So that was why! She had +imagined something of the sort. And she--she herself--was doubtless the +outcome of one of Mrs. Harrington's long-detailed plans, insisted on to +Allan till he had acquiesced for quiet's sake! ... But he said now he +didn't mind. She was somehow sure he wouldn't have said it if it had not +been true. Then Wallis's other words came to her, "He was always +laughing then," and suddenly there surged up in Phyllis a passionate +resolve to give Allan back at least a little of his lightness of heart. +He might be going to die--though she didn't believe it--but at least she +could make things less monotonous and dark for him; and she wouldn't +offer him plans! And if he objected when the plans rose up and hit him, +why, the shock might do him good. She thought she was fairly sure of an +ally in Wallis. + +She cut her interview with Mrs. Clancy short. Allan, lying motionless, +caught a green flash of her, crossing into her room to dress, another +blue flash as she went out; dropped his eyelids and crossed his hands to +doze a little, an innocent and unwary Crusader. He did not know it, but +a Plan was about to rise up and hit him. The bride his mother had left +him as a parting legacy had gone out to order a string of blue beads, a +bull-pup, a house, a motor, a banjo, and a rose-garden; as she went she +added a talking machine to the list; and he was to be planted in the +very centre of everything. + +"Seems like a nice girl, Wallis," said Allan dreamily. And the discreet +Wallis said nothing (though he knew a good deal) about his mistress's +shopping-list. + +"Yes, Mr. Allan," he conceded. + + * * * * * + +It was Phyllis Harrington's firm belief that Mr. De Guenther could +produce anything anybody wanted at any time, or that if he couldn't his +wife could. So it was to him that she went on her quest for the +rose-garden, with its incidental house. The rest of the items she +thought she could get for herself. It was nearly the last of April, and +she wanted a well-heated elderly mansion, preferably Colonial, not too +unwieldily large, with as many rose-trees around it as her discretionary +powers would stand. And she wanted it as near and as soon as possible. +By the help of Mr. De Guenther, amused but efficient, Mrs. De Guenther, +efficient but sentimental; and an agent who was efficient merely, she +got very nearly what she wanted. Money could do a great deal more than a +country minister's daughter had ever had any way of imagining. By its +aid she found it possible to have furniture bought and placed inside a +fortnight, even to a list of books set up in sliding sectional cases. +She had hoped to buy those cases some day, one at a time, and getting +them at one fell swoop seemed to her more arrogantly opulent than the +purchase of the house and grounds--than even the big shiny victrola. She +had bought that herself, before there was a house to put it in, going on +the principle that all men not professional musicians have a concealed +passion for music that they can create themselves by merely winding up +something. And--to anticipate--she found that as far as Allan was +concerned she was quite right. + +"But why do you take this very radical step, my dear?" asked Mrs. De +Guenther gently, as she helped Phyllis choose furniture. + +"I am going to try the only thing Allan's mother seems to have +omitted," said Phyllis dauntlessly. "A complete change of surroundings." + +"Oh, my dear!" breathed Mrs. De Guenther. "It may help poor Allan more +than we know! And dear Angela did discuss moving often, but she could +never bear to leave the city house, where so many of her dear ones have +passed away." + +"Well, none of _my_ dear ones are going to pass away there," said +Phyllis irreverently, "unless Mrs. Clancy wants to. I'm not even taking +any servants but Wallis. The country-house doesn't need any more than a +cook, a chambermaid, and outdoor man. Mrs. Clancy is getting them. I +told her I didn't care what age or color she chose, but they had to be +cheerful. She will stay in the city and keep the others straight, in +something she calls board-wages. I'm starting absolutely fresh." + +They were back at Mrs. De Guenther's house by the time Phyllis was done +telling her plans, Phyllis sitting in the identical pluffy chair where +she had made her decision to marry Allan. Mrs. De Guenther sprang from +her own chair, and came over and impulsively kissed her. + +"God bless you, dear!" she said. "I believe it was Heaven that inspired +Albert and myself to choose you to carry on poor Angela's work." + +Phyllis flushed indignantly. + +"I'm undoing a little of it, I hope," she said passionately. "If I can +only make that poor boy forget some of those dreadful years she spent +crying over him, I shan't have lived in vain!" + +Mrs. De Guenther looked at Phyllis earnestly--and, most unexpectedly, +burst into a little tinkling laugh. + +"My dear," she said mischievously, "what about all the fine things you +were going to do for yourself to make up for being tied to poor Allan? +You should really stop being unselfish, and enjoy yourself a little." + +Phyllis felt herself flushing crimson. Elderly people did seem to be so +sentimental! + +"I've bought myself lots of things," she defended herself. "Most of this +is really for me. And--I can't help being good to him. It's only common +humanity. I was never so sorry for anybody in my life--you'd be, too, if +it were Mr. De Guenther!" + +She thought her explanation was complete. But she must have said +something that she did not realize, for Mrs. De Guenther only laughed +her little tinkling laugh again, and--as is the fashion of elderly +people--kissed her. + +"I would, indeed, my dear," said she. + + + + +X + + +Allan Harrington lay in his old attitude on his couch in the darkened +day-room, his tired, clear-cut face a little thrown back, eyes +half-closed. He was not thinking of anything or any one especially; +merely wrapped in a web of the dragging, empty, gray half-thoughts of +weariness in general that had hung about him so many years. Wallis was +not there. Wallis had been with him much less lately, and he had +scarcely seen Phyllis for a fortnight; or, for the matter of that, the +dog, or any one at all. Something was going on, he supposed, but he +scarcely troubled himself to wonder what. The girl was doubtless making +herself boudoirs or something of the sort in a new part of the house. He +closed his eyes entirely, there in the dusky room, and let the web of +dreary, gray, formless thought wrap him again. + +Phyllis's gay, sweetly carrying voice rang from outside the door: + +"The three-thirty, then, Wallis, and I feel as if I were going to steal +Charlie Ross! Well----" + +On the last word she broke off and pushed the sitting-room door softly +open and slid in. She walked in a pussy-cat fashion which would have +suggested to any one watching her a dark burden on her conscience. + +She crossed straight to the couch, looked around for the chair that +should have been by it but wasn't, and sat absently down on the floor. +She liked floors. + +"Allan!" she said. + +No answer. + +"Allan _Harrington_!" + +Still none. Allan was half-asleep, or what did instead, in one of his +abstracted moods. + +"_All-an Harrington!_" + +This time she reached up and pulled at his heavy silk sleeve as she +spoke. + +"Yes," said Allan courteously, as if from an infinite distance. + +"Would you mind," asked Phyllis guilelessly, "if Wallis--we--moved +you--a little? I can tell you all about everything, unless you'd rather +not have the full details of the plan----" + +"Anything," said Allan wearily from the depths of his gray cloud; "only +don't _bother_ me about it!" + +Phyllis jumped to her feet, a whirl of gay blue skirts and cheerfully +tossing blue feathers. "Good-by, dear Crusader!" she said with a catch +in her voice that might have been either a laugh or a sob. "The next +time you see me you'll probably _hate_ me! Wallis!" + +Wallis appeared like the Slave of the Lamp. "It's all right, Wallis," +she said, and ran. Wallis proceeded thereupon to wheel his master's +couch into the bedroom. + +"If you're going to be moved, you'd better be dressed a little heavier, +sir," he said with the same amiable guilelessness, if the victim had but +noticed it, which Phyllis had used from her seat on the floor not long +before. + +"Very well," said Allan resignedly from his cloud. And Wallis proceeded +to suit the action to the word. + +Allan let him go on in unnoticing silence till it came to that totally +unfamiliar thing these seven years, a stand-up collar. A shiningly new +linen collar of the newest cut, a beautiful golden-brown knit tie, a +gray suit---- + +"What on earth?" inquired Allan, awakening from his lethargy. "I don't +need a collar and tie to keep me from getting cold on a journey across +the house. And where did you get those clothes? They look new." + +Wallis laid his now fully dressed master back to a reclining +position--he had been propped up--and tucked a handkerchief into the +appropriate pocket as he replied, "Grant & Moxley's, sir, where you +always deal." And he wheeled the couch back to the day-room, over to its +very door. + +It did not occur to Allan, as he was being carried downstairs by Wallis +and Arthur, another of the servants, that anything more than a change of +rooms was intended; nor, as he was carried out at its door to a long +closed carriage, that it was anything worse than his new keeper's +mistaken idea that drives would be good for him. He was a little +irritable at the length and shutupness of the drive, though, as his cot +had been swung deftly from the ceiling of the carriage, he was not +jarred. But when Wallis and Arthur carried the light pallet on which he +lay swiftly up a plank walk laid to the door of a private car--why then +it began to occur to Allan Harrington that something was happening. +And--which rather surprised himself--he did not lift a supercilious +eyebrow and say in a soft, apathetic voice, "Very we-ell!" Instead, he +turned his head towards the devoted Wallis, who had helped two +conductors swing the cot from the ceiling, and was now waiting for the +storm to break. And what he said to Wallis was this: + +"What the deuce does this tomfoolery mean?" As he spoke he felt the +accumulated capacity for temper of the last seven years surging up +toward Wallis, and Arthur, and Phyllis, and the carriage-horses, and +everything else, down to the two conductors. Wallis seemed rather +relieved than otherwise. Waiting for a storm to break is rather wearing. + +"Well, sir, Mrs. Harrington, she thought, sir, that--that a little move +would do you good. And you didn't want to be bothered, sir----" + +"Bothered!" shouted Allan, not at all like a bored and dying invalid. "I +should think I did, when a change in my whole way of life is made! Who +gave you, or Mrs. Harrington, permission for this outrageous +performance! It's sheer, brutal, insulting idiocy!" + +"Nobody, sir--yes, sir," replied Wallis meekly. "Would you care for a +drink, sir--or anything?" + +"_No!_" thundered Allan. + +"Or a fan?" ventured Wallis, approaching near with that article and +laying it on the coverlid. Allan's hand snatched the fan angrily--and +before he thought he had hurled it at Wallis! Weakly, it is true, for it +lighted ingloriously about five feet away; but he had _thrown_ it, with +a movement that must have put to use the muscles of the long-disused +upper arm. Wallis sat suddenly down and caught his breath. + +"Mr. Allan!" he said. "Do you know what you did then? You _threw_, and +you haven't been able to use more than your forearm before! Oh, Mr. +Allan, you're getting better!" + +Allan himself lay in astonishment at his feat, and forgot to be angry +for a moment. "I certainly did!" he said. + +"And the way you lost your temper!" went on Wallis enthusiastically. +"Oh, Mr. Allan, it was beautiful! You haven't been more than to say +snarly since the accident! It was so like the way you used to throw +hair-brushes----" + +But at the mention of his lost temper Allan remembered to lose it still +further. His old capacity for storming, a healthy lad's healthy young +hot-temperedness, had been weakened by long disuse, but he did fairly +well. Secretly it was a pleasure to him to find that he was alive enough +to care what happened, enough for anger. He demanded presently where he +was going. + +"Not more than two hours' ride, sir, I heard Mr. De Guenther mention," +answered Wallis at once. "A little place called Wallraven--quite +country, sir, I believe." + +"So the De Guenthers are in it, too!" said Allan. "What the dickens has +this girl done to them, to hypnotize them so?" + +"But I've heard say it's a very pretty place, sir," was all Wallis +vouchsafed to this. The De Guenthers were not the only people Phyllis +had hypnotized. + +He gave Allan other details as they went on, however. His clothes and +personal belongings were coming on immediately. There were two +suit-cases, perhaps he had noticed, in the car with them. The young +madam was planning to stay all the summer, he believed. Mrs. Clancy had +been left behind to look after the other servants, and he understood +that she had seen to the engagement of a fresh staff of servants for the +country. And Allan, still awakened by his fit of temper, and fresh from +the monotony of his seven years' seclusion, found all the things Wallis +could tell him very interesting. + + * * * * * + +Phyllis's rose-garden house had, among other virtues, the charm of being +near the little station: a new little mission station which had +apparently been called Wallraven by some poetic young real-estate +agency, for the surrounding countryside looked countrified enough to be +a Gray's Corners, or Smith's Crossing, or some other such placid old +country name. There were more trees to be seen in Allan's quick passage +from the train to the long old carryall (whose seats had been removed to +make room for his cot) than he had remembered existed. There were sleepy +birds to be heard, too, talking about how near sunset and their bedtime +had come, and a little brook splashed somewhere out of sight. Altogether +spring was to be seen and heard and felt, winningly insistent. Allan +forgave Wallis, not to speak of Phyllis and the conductors, to a certain +degree. He ordered the flapping black oilcloth curtain in front rolled +up so he could see out, and secretly enjoyed the drive, unforeseen +though it had been. His spine never said a word. Perhaps it, too, +enjoyed having a change from a couch in a dark city room. + +They saw no one in their passage through the long, low old house. +Phyllis evidently had learned that Allan didn't like his carryings +about done before people. + +Wallis seemed to be acting under a series of detailed orders. He and +Arthur carried their master to a long, well-lighted room at the end of +the house, and deftly transferred him to a couch much more convenient, +being newer, than the old one. On this he was wheeled to his adjoining +bedroom, and when Wallis had made him comfortable there, he left him +mysteriously for a while. It was growing dark by now, and the lights +were on. They were rose-shaded, Allan noticed, as the others had been at +home. Allan watched the details of his room with that vivid interest in +little changes which only invalids can know. There was an old-fashioned +landscape story paper on the walls, with very little repeat. Over it, +but not where they interfered with tracing out the adventures of the +paper people, were a good many pictures, quite incongruous, for they +were of the Remington type men like, but pleasant to see nevertheless. +The furniture was chintz-covered and gay. There was not one thing in +the room to remind a man that he was an invalid. It occurred to Allan +that Phyllis must have put a good deal of deliberate work on the place. +He lay contentedly, watching the grate fire, and trying to trace out the +story of the paper, for at least a half-hour. He found himself, at +length, much to his own surprise, thinking with a certain longing of his +dinner-tray. He was thinking of it more and more interestedly by the +time Wallis--trayless--came back. + +"Mr. and Mrs. De Guenther and the young madam are waiting for you in the +living-room," he announced. "They would be glad if you would have supper +with them." + +"Very well," said Allan amiably, still much to his own surprise. The +truth was, he was still enough awake and interested to want to go on +having things happen. + +The room Wallis wheeled him back into was a long, low one, wainscoted +and bare-floored. It was furnished with the best imitation Chippendale +to be obtained in a hurry, but over and above there were cushioned +chairs and couches enough for solid comfort. There were more cheerful +pictures, the Maxfield Parrishes Phyllis had wanted, over the +green-papered walls. There was a fire here also. The room had no more +period than a girl's sentence, but there was a bright air of welcomeness +and informality that was winning. An old-fashioned half-table against +the wall was covered with a great many picknicky things to eat. Another +table had more things, mostly to eat with, on it. And there were the De +Guenthers and Phyllis. On the whole it felt very like a welcome-home. + +Phyllis, in a satiny rose-colored gown he had never seen before, came +over to his couch to meet him. She looked very apprehensive and young +and wistful for the rôle of Bold Bad Hypnotist. She bent towards him +with her hand out, seemed about to speak, then backed, flushed, and +acted as if something had frightened her badly. + +"Is she as afraid of me as all that?" thought Allan. Wallis must have +given her a lurid account of how he had behaved. His quick impulse was +to reassure her. + +"Well, Phyllis, my dear, you certainly didn't bother me with plans +_this_ time!" he said, smiling. "This is a bully surprise!" + +"I--I'm glad you like it," said his wife shyly, still backing away. + +"Of course he'd like it," said Mrs. De Guenther's kind staccato voice +behind him. "Kiss your husband, and tell him he's welcome home, Phyllis +child!" + +Now, Phyllis was tired with much hurried work, and overstrung. And +Allan, lying there smiling boyishly up at her, Allan seen for the first +time in these usual-looking gray man-clothes, was like neither the +marble Crusader she had feared nor the heartbroken little boy she had +pitied. He was suddenly her contemporary, a very handsome and attractive +young fellow, a little her senior. From all appearances, he might have +been well and normal, and come home to her only a little tired, perhaps, +by the day's work or sport, as he lay smiling at her in that friendly, +intimate way! It was terrifyingly different. Everything felt different. +All her little pieces of feeling for him, pity and awe and friendliness +and love of service, seemed to spring suddenly together and make +something else--something unplaced and disturbing. Her cheeks burned +with a childish embarrassment as she stood there before him in her +ruffled pink gown. What should she do? + +It was just then that Mrs. De Guenther's crisply spoken advice came. +Phyllis was one of those people whose first unconscious instinct is to +obey an unspoken order. She bent blindly to Allan's lips, and kissed him +with a child's obedience, then straightened up, aghast. He would think +her very bold! + +But he did not, for some reason. It may have seemed only comforting and +natural to him, that swift childish kiss, and Phyllis's honey-colored, +violet-scented hair brushing his face. Men take a great deal without +question as their rightful due. + +The others closed around him then, welcoming him, laughing at the +surprise and the way he had taken it, telling him all about it as if +everything were as usual and pleasant as possible, and the present state +of things had always been a pleasant commonplace. And Wallis began to +serve the picnic supper. + + + + +XI + + +There were trays and little tables, and the food itself would have +betrayed a southern darky in the kitchen if nothing else had. It was the +first meal Allan had eaten with any one for years, and he found it so +interesting as to be almost exciting. Wallis took the plates invisibly +away when they were done, and they continued to stay in their +half-circle about the fire and talk it all over. Phyllis, tired to death +still, had slid to her favorite floor-seat, curled on cushions and +leaning against the couch-side. Allan could have touched her hair with +his hand. She thought of this, curled there, but she was too tired to +move. It was exciting to be near him, somehow, tired as she was. + +Most of the short evening was spent celebrating the fact that Allan had +thrown something at Wallis, who was recalled to tell the story three +times in detail. Then there was the house to discuss, its good and bad +points, its nearnesses and farnesses. + +"Let me tell you, Allan," said Mrs. De Guenther warmly at this point, +from her seat at the foot of the couch, "this wife of yours is a wonder. +Not many girls could have had a house in this condition two weeks after +it was bought." + +Allan looked down at the heap of shining hair below him, all he could +see of Phyllis. + +"Yes," he said consideringly. "She certainly is." + +At a certain slowness in his tone, Phyllis sprang up. "You must be tired +to _death_!" she said. "It must be nearly ten. Do you feel worn out?" + +Before he could say anything, Mrs. De Guenther had also risen, and was +sweeping away her husband. + +"Of course he is," she said decisively. "What have we all been thinking +of? And we must go to bed, too, Albert, if you insist on taking that +early train in the morning, and I insist on going with you. Good-night, +children." + +Wallis had appeared by this time, and was wheeling Allan from the room +before he had a chance to say much of anything but good-night. The De +Guenthers talked a little longer to Phyllis, and were gone also. Phyllis +flung herself full-length on the rugs and pillows before the fire, too +tired to move further. + +Well, she had everything that she had wished for on that wet February +day in the library. Money, leisure to be pretty, a husband whom she +"didn't have to associate with much," rest, if she ever gave herself +leave to take it, and the rose-garden. She had her wishes, as uncannily +fulfilled as if she had been ordering her fate from a department store, +and had money to pay for it.... And back there in the city it was +somebody's late night, and that somebody--it would be Anna Black's turn, +wouldn't it?--was struggling with John Zanowskis and Sadie Rabinowitzes +by the lapful, just as she had. And yet--and yet they had really cared +for her, those dirty, dear little foreigners of hers. But she'd had to +work for their liking.... Perhaps--perhaps she could make Allan +Harrington like her as much as the children did. He had been so kind +to-night about the move and all, and so much brighter, her handsome +Allan in his gray, every-day-looking man-clothes! If she could stay +brave enough and kind enough and bright enough ... her eyelids +drooped.... Wallis was standing respectfully over her. + +"Mrs. Harrington," he was saying, with a really masterly ignoring of her +attitude on the rug, "Mr. Harrington says you haven't bid him good-night +yet." + +An amazing message! Had she been in the habit of it, that he demanded it +like a small boy? But she sprang up and followed Wallis into Allan's +room. He was lying back in his white silk sleeping things among the +white bed-draperies, looking as he always had before. Only, he seemed +too alive and awake still for his old rôle of Crusader-on-a-tomb. + +"Phyllis," he began eagerly, as she sat down beside him, "what made you +so frightened when I first came? Wallis hadn't worried you, had he?" + +"Oh, no; it wasn't that at all," said Phyllis. "And thank you for being +so generous about it all." + +"I wasn't generous," said her husband. "I behaved like everything to old +Wallis about it. Well, what was it, then?" + +"I--I--only--you looked so different in--_clothes_," pleaded Phyllis, +"like any man my age or older--as if you might get up and go to +business, or play tennis, or anything, and--and I was _afraid_ of you! +That's all, truly!" + +She was sitting on the bed's edge, her eyes down, her hands quivering in +her lap, the picture of a school-girl who isn't quite sure whether she's +been good or not. + +"Why, that sounds truthful!" said Allan, and laughed. It was the first +time she had heard him, and she gave a start. Such a clear, cheerful, +_young_ laugh! Maybe he would laugh more, by and by, if she worked hard +to make him. + +"Good-night, Allan," she said. + +"Aren't you going to kiss me good-night?" demanded this new Allan, +precisely as if she had been doing it ever since she met him. Evidently +that kiss three hours ago had created a precedent. Phyllis colored to +her ears. She seemed to herself to be always coloring now. But she +mustn't cross Allan, tired as he must be! + +"Good-night, Allan," she said again sedately, and kissed his cheek as +she had done a month ago--years ago!--when they had been married. Then +she fled. + +"Wallis," said his master dreamily when his man appeared again, "I want +some more real clothes. Tired of sleeping-suits. Get me some, please. +Good-night." + +As for Phyllis, in her little green-and-white room above him, she was +crying comfortably into her pillow. She had not the faintest idea why, +except that she liked doing it. She felt, through her sleepiness, a +faint, hungry, pleasant want of something, though she hadn't an idea +what it could be. She had everything, except that it wasn't time for the +roses to be out yet. Probably that was the trouble.... Roses.... She, +too, went to sleep. + + * * * * * + +"How did Mr. Allan pass the night?" Phyllis asked Wallis anxiously, +standing outside his door next morning. She had been up since seven, +speeding the parting guests and interviewing the cook and chambermaid. +Mrs. Clancy's choice had been cheerful to a degree, and black, all of +it; a fat Virginia cook, a slim young Tuskegee chambermaid of a pale +saddle-color, and a shiny brown outdoor man who came from nowhere in +particular, but was very useful now he was here. Phyllis had seen them +all this morning, and found them everything servants should be. Now she +was looking after Allan, as her duty was. + +Wallis beamed from against the door-post, his tray in his hands. + +"Mrs. Harrington, it's one of the best sleeps Mr. Allan's had! Four +hours straight, and then sleeping still, if broken, till six! And still +taking interest in things. Oh, ma'am, you should have heard him +yesterday on the train, as furious as furious! It was beautiful!" + +"Then his spine wasn't jarred," said Phyllis thoughtfully. "Wallis, I +believe there was more nervous shock and nervous depression than ever +the doctors realized. And I believe all he needs is to be kept happy, to +be much, much better. Wouldn't it be wonderful if he got so he could +move freely from the waist up? I believe that may happen if we can keep +him cheered and interested." + +Wallis looked down at his tray. "Yes, ma'am," he said. "Not to speak ill +of the dead, Mrs. Harrington, the late Mrs. Harrington was always saying +'My poor stricken boy,' and things like that--'Do not jar him with +ill-timed light or merriment,' and reminding him how bad he was. And she +certainly didn't jar him with any merriment, ma'am." + +"What were the doctors thinking about?" demanded Phyllis indignantly. + +"Well, ma'am, they did all sorts of things to poor Mr. Allan for the +first year or so. And then, as nothing helped, and they couldn't find +out what was wrong to have paralyzed him so, he begged to have them +stopped hurting him. So we haven't had one for the past five years." + +"I think a masseur and a wheel-chair are the next things to get," said +Phyllis decisively. "And remember, Wallis, there's something the matter +with Mr. Allan's shutters. They won't always close the sunshine out as +they should." + +Wallis almost winked, if an elderly, mutton-chopped servitor can be +imagined as winking. + +"No, ma'am," he promised. "Something wrong with 'em. I'll remember, +ma'am." + +Phyllis went singing on down the sunny old house, swinging her colored +muslin skirts and prancing a little with sheer joy of being twenty-five, +and prettily dressed, with a dear house all her own, and--yes--a dear +Allan a little her own, too! Doing well for a man what another woman has +done badly has a perennial joy for a certain type of woman, and this was +what Phyllis was in the very midst of. She pranced a little more, and +came almost straight up against a long old mirror with gilt cornices, +which had come with the house and was staying with it. Phyllis stopped +and looked critically at herself. + +"I haven't taken time yet to be pretty," she reminded the girl in the +glass, and began then and there to take account of stock, by way of +beginning. Why--a good deal had done itself! Her hair had been washed +and sunned and sunned and washed about every ten minutes since she had +been away from the library. It was springy and three shades more golden. +She had not been rushing out in all weathers unveiled, nor washing +hastily with hard water and cheap library soap eight or ten times a day, +because private houses are comparatively clean places. So her complexion +had been getting back, unnoticed, a good deal of its original country +rose-and-cream, with a little gold glow underneath. And the tired +heaviness was gone from her eyelids, because she had scarcely used her +eyes since she had married Allan--there had been too much else to do! +The little frown-lines between the brows had gone, too, with the need of +reading-glasses and work under electricity. She was more rounded, and +her look was less intent. The strained Liberry Teacher look was gone. +The luminous long blue eyes in the glass looked back at her girlishly. +"Would you think we were twenty-five even?" they said. Phyllis smiled +irrepressibly at the mirrored girl. + +"Yas'm," said the rich and comfortable voice of Lily-Anna, the cook, +from the dining-room door; "you sholy is pretty. Yas'm--a lady _wants_ +to stay pretty when she's married. Yo' don' look much mo'n a bride, +ma'am, an' dat's a fac'. Does you want yo' dinnehs brought into de +sittin'-room regular till de gem'man gits well?" + +"Yes--no--yes--for the present, any way," said Phyllis, with a mixture +of confusion and dignity. Fortunately the doorbell chose this time to +ring. + +A business-like young messenger with a rocking crate wanted to speak to +the madam. The last item on Phyllis's shopping list had come. + +"The wolfhound's doing fine, ma'am," the messenger answered in response +to her questions. "Like a different dog already. All he needed was +exercise and a little society. Yes'm, this pup's broken--in a manner, +that is. Your man picked you out the best-tempered little feller in the +litter. Here, Foxy--careful, lady! Hold on to his leash!" + +There was the passage of the check, a few directions about +dog-biscuits, and then the messenger from the kennels drove back to the +station, the crate, which had been emptied of a wriggling six-months +black bull-dog, on the seat beside him. + + + + +XII + + +Allan, lying at the window of the sunny bedroom, and wondering if they +had been having springs like this all the time he had lived in the city, +heard a scuffle outside the door. His wife's voice inquired breathlessly +of Wallis, "Can Mr. Allan--see me?... Oh, gracious--_don't_, Foxy, you +little black gargoyle! Open the door, or--shut it--quick, Wallis!" + +But the door, owing to circumstances over which nobody but the black dog +had any control, flew violently open here, and Allan had a flying vision +of his wife, flushed, laughing, and badly mussed, being railroaded +across the room by a prancingly exuberant French bull at the end of a +leash. + +"He's--he's a cheerful dog," panted Phyllis, trying to bring Foxy to +anchor near Allan, "and I don't think he knows how to keep still long +enough to pose across your feet--he wouldn't become them anyhow--he's a +real man-dog, Allan, not an interior decoration.... Oh, Wallis, he has +Mr. Allan's slipper! Foxy, you little fraud! Did him want a drink, +angel-puppy?" + +"Did you get him for me, Phyllis?" asked Allan when the tumult and the +shouting had died, and the caracoling Foxy had buried his hideous little +black pansy-face in a costly Belleek dish of water. + +"Yes," gasped Phyllis from her favorite seat, the floor; "but you +needn't keep him unless you want to. I can keep him where you'll never +see him--can't I, honey-dog-gums? Only I thought he'd be company for +you, and don't you think he seems--cheerful?" + +Allan threw his picturesque head back on the cushions, and laughed and +laughed. + +"Cheerful!" he said. "Most assuredly! Why--thank you, ever so much, +Phyllis. You're an awfully thoughtful girl. I always did like bulls--had +one in college, a Nelson. Come here, you little rascal!" + +He whistled, and the puppy lifted its muzzle from the water, made a +dripping dash to the couch, and scrambled up over Allan as if they had +owned each other since birth. Never was a dog less weighed down by the +glories of ancestry. + +Allan pulled the flopping bat-ears with his most useful hand, and asked +with interest, "Why on earth did they call a French bull Foxy?" + +"Yes, sir," said Wallis. "I understand, sir, that he was the most active +and playful of the litter, and chewed up all his brothers' ears, sir. +And the kennel people thought it was so clever that they called him +Foxy." + +"The best-tempered dog in the litter!" cried Phyllis, bursting into +helpless laughter from the floor. + +"That doesn't mean he's bad-tempered," explained master and man eagerly +together. Phyllis began to see that she had bought a family pet as much +for Wallis as for Allan. She left them adoring the dog with that +reverent emotion which only very ugly bull-dogs can wake in a man's +breast, and flitted out, happy over the success of her new toy for +Allan. + +"Take him out when he gets too much for Mr. Allan," she managed to say +softly to Wallis as she passed him. But, except for a run or so for his +health, Wallis and Allan between them kept the dog in the bedroom most +of the day. Phyllis, in one of her flying visits, found the little +fellow, tired with play, dog-biscuits, and other attentions, snuggled +down by his master, his little crumpled black muzzle on the pillow close +to Allan's contented, sleeping face. She felt as if she wanted to cry. +The pathetic lack of interests which made the coming of a new little dog +such an event! + +Before she hung one more picture, before she set up even a book from the +boxes which had been her father's, before she arranged one more article +of furniture, she telephoned to the village for the regular delivery of +four daily papers, and a half-dozen of the most masculine magazines she +could think of on the library lists. She had never known of Allan's +doing any reading. That he had cared for books before the accident, she +knew. At any rate, she was resolved to leave no point uncovered that +might, just possibly _might_, help her Allan just a little way to +interest in life, which she felt to be the way to recovery. He liked +being told stories to, any way. + +"Do you think Mr. Allan will feel like coming into the living-room +to-day?" she asked Wallis, meeting him in the hall about two o'clock. + +"Why, he's dressed, ma'am," was Wallis's astonishing reply, "and him and +the pup is having a fine game of play. He's got more use of that hand +an' arm, ma'am, than we thought." + +"Do you think he'd care to be wheeled into the living-room about four?" +asked Phyllis. + +"For tea, ma'am?" inquired Wallis, beaming. "I should think so, ma'am. +I'll ask, anyhow." + +Phyllis had not thought of tea--one does not stop for such leisurely +amenities in a busy public library--but she saw the beauty of the idea, +and saw to it that the tea was there. Lily-Anna was a jewel. She built +the fire up to a bright flame, and brought in some daffodils from the +garden without a word from her mistress. Phyllis herself saw that the +victrola was in readiness, and cleared a space for the couch near the +fire. There was quite a festal feeling. + +The talking-machine was also a surprise for Allan. Phyllis thought +afterward that she should have saved it for another day, but the +temptation to grace the occasion with it was too strong. She and Allan +were as excited over it as a couple of children, and the only drawback +to Allan's enjoyment was that he obviously wanted to take the records +out of her unaccustomed fingers and adjust them himself. He knew how, it +appeared, and Phyllis naturally didn't. However, she managed to follow +his directions successfully. She had bought recklessly of rag-time +discs, and provided a fair amount of opera selections. Allan seemed +equally happy over both. After the thing had been playing for +three-quarters of an hour, and most of the records were exhausted, +Phyllis rang for tea. It was getting a little darker now, and the +wood-fire cast fantastic red and black lights and shadows over the room. +It was very intimate and thrilling to Phyllis suddenly, the fire-lit +room, with just their two selves there. Allan, on his couch before the +fire, looked bright and contented. The adjustable couch-head had been +braced to such a position that he was almost sitting up. The bull-dog, +who had lately come back from a long walk with the gratified outdoor +man, snored regularly on the rug near his master, wakening enough to bat +his tail on the floor if he was referred to. The little tea-table was +between Allan and Phyllis, crowned with a bunch of apple-blossoms, whose +spring-like scent dominated the warm room. Phyllis, in her green gown, +her cheeks pink with excitement, was waiting on her lord and master a +little silently. + +Allan watched her amusedly for awhile--she was as intent as a good child +over her tea-ball and her lemon and her little cakes. + +"Say something, Phyllis," he suggested with the touch of mischief she +was not yet used to, coming from him. + +"This is a serious matter," she replied gravely. "Do you know I haven't +made tea--afternoon tea, that is--for so long it's a wonder I know which +is the cup and which is the saucer?" + +"Why not?" he asked idly, yet interestedly too. + +"I was otherwise occupied. I was a Daughter of Toil," explained Phyllis +serenely, setting down her own cup to relax in her chair, hands behind +her head; looking, in her green gown, the picture of graceful, strong, +young indolence. "I was a librarian--didn't you know?" + +"No. I wish you'd tell me, if you don't mind," said Allan. "About you, I +mean, Phyllis. Do you know, I feel awfully married to you this +afternoon--you've bullied me so much it's no wonder--and I really ought +to know about my wife's dark past." + +Phyllis's heart beat a little faster. She, too, had felt "awfully +married" here alone in the fire-lit living-room, dealing so intimately +and gayly with Allan. + +"There isn't much to tell," she said soberly. + +"Come over here closer," commanded Allan the spoilt. "We've both had all +the tea we want. Come close by the couch. I want to see you when you +talk." + +Phyllis did as he ordered. + +"I was a New England country minister's daughter," she began. "New +England country ministers always know lots about Greek and Latin and how +to make one dollar do the work of one-seventy-five, but they never have +any dollars left when the doing's over. Father and I lived alone +together always, and he taught me things, and I petted him--fathers need +it, specially when they have country congregations--and we didn't bother +much about other folks. Then he--died. I was eighteen, and I had six +hundred dollars. I couldn't do arithmetic, because Father had always +said it was left out of my head, and I needn't bother with it. So I +couldn't teach. Then they said, 'You like books, and you'd better be a +librarian.' As a matter of fact, a librarian never gets a chance to +read, but you can't explain that to the general public. So I came to the +city and took the course at library school. Then I got a position in the +Greenway Branch--two years in the circulating desk, four in the +cataloguing room, and one in the Children's Department. The short and +simple annals of the poor!" + +"Go on," said Allan. + +"I believe it's merely that you like the sound of the human voice," said +Phyllis, laughing. "I'm going to go on with the story of the Five Little +Pigs--you'll enjoy it just as much!" + +"Exactly," said Allan. "Tell me what it was like in the library, +please." + +"It was rather interesting," said Phyllis, yielding at once. "There are +so many different things to be done that you never feel any monotony, as +I suppose a teacher does. But the hours are not much shorter than a +department store's, and it's exacting, on-your-feet work all the time. I +liked the work with the children best. Only--you never have any time to +be anything but neat in a library, and you do get so tired of being just +neat, if you're a girl." + +"And a pretty one," said Allan. "I don't suppose the ugly ones mind as +much." + +It was the first thing he had said about her looks. Phyllis's ready +color came into her cheeks. So he thought she was pretty! + +"Do you--think I'm pretty?" she asked breathlessly. She couldn't help +it. + +"Of course I do, you little goose," said Allan, smiling at her. + +Phyllis plunged back into the middle of her story: + +"You see, you can't sit up nights to sew much, or practise doing your +hair new ways, because you need all your strength to get up when the +alarm-clock barks next morning. And then, there's always the +money-worry, if you have nothing but your salary. Of course, this last +year, when I've been getting fifty dollars a month, things have been all +right. But when it was only thirty a month in the Circulation--well, +that was pretty hard pulling," said Phyllis thoughtfully. "But the +worst--the worst, Allan, was waking up nights and wondering what would +happen if you broke down for a long time. Because you _can't_ very well +save for sickness-insurance on even fifty a month. And the work--well, +of course, most girls' work is just a little more than they have the +strength for, always. But I was awfully lucky to get into children's +work. Some of my imps, little Poles and Slovaks and Hungarians mostly, +are the cleverest, most affectionate babies----" + +She began to tell him stories of wonderful ten-year-olds who were +Socialists by conviction, and read economics, and dazed little atypical +sixteen-year-olds who read Mother Goose, and stopped even that because +they got married. + +"You poor little girl!" said Allan, unheeding. "What brutes they were to +you! Well, thank Heaven, that's over now!" + +"Why, Allan!" she said, laying a soothing hand on his. "Nobody was a +brute. There's never more than one crank-in-authority in any library, +they say. Ours was the Supervisor of the Left Half of the Desk, and +after I got out of Circulation I never saw anything of her." + +Allan burst into unexpected laughter. "It sounds like a Chinese title of +honor," he explained. "'Grand Warder of the Emperor's Left +Slipper-Rosette,' or something of the sort." + +"The Desk's where you get your books stamped," she explained, "and the +two shifts of girls who attend to that part of the work each have a +supervisor--the Right and Left halves. The one that was horrid had +favorites, and snapped at the ones that weren't. I wasn't under her, +though. My Supervisor was lovely, an Irishwoman with the most florid +hats, and the kindest, most just disposition, and always laughing. We +all adored her, she was so fair-minded." + +"You think a good deal about laughing," said Allan thoughtfully. "Does it +rank as a virtue in libraries, or what?" + +"You have to laugh," explained Phyllis. "If you don't see the laugh-side +of things, you see the cry-side. And you can't afford to be unhappy if +you have to earn your living. People like brightness best. And it's more +comfortable for yourself, once you get used to it." + +"So that was your philosophy of life," said Allan. His hand tightened +compassionately on hers. "You _poor_ little girl!... Tell me about the +cry-side, Phyllis." + +His voice was very moved and caressing, and the darkness was deepening +as the fire sank. Only an occasional tongue of flame glinted across +Phyllis's silver slipper-buckle and on the seal-ring Allan wore. It was +easy to tell things there in the perfumed duskiness. It was a great many +years since any one had cared to hear the cry-side. And it was so dark, +and the hand keeping hers in the shadows might have been any kind, +comforting hand. She found herself pouring it all out to Allan, there +close by her; the loneliness, the strain, the hard work, the lack of all +the woman-things in her life, the isolation and dreariness at night, the +over-fatigue, and the hurt of watching youth and womanhood sliding away, +unused, with nothing to show for all the years; only a cold hope that +her flock of little transient aliens might be a little better for the +guidance she could give them-- + + + Years hence in rustic speech a phrase, + As in rude earth a Grecian vase. + + +And then, that wet, discouraged day in February, and the vision of Eva +Atkinson, radiantly fresh and happy, kept young and pretty by unlimited +money and time. + +"Her children were so pretty," said Phyllis wistfully, "and mine, dear +little villains, were such dirty, untaught, rude little things--oh, it +sounds snobbish, but I'd have given everything I had to have a dainty, +clean little _lady_-child throw her arms around me and kiss me, instead +of my pet little handsome, sticky Polish Jewess. Up at home everything +had been so clean and old and still that you always could remember it +had been finished for three hundred years. And Father's clean, still old +library----" + +Phyllis did not know how she was revealing to Allan the unconscious +motherhood in her; but Allan, femininely sensitive to unspoken things +from his long sojourn in the dark--Allan did. It was the mother-instinct +that she was spending on him, but mother-instinct of a kind he had never +known before; gayly self-effacing, efficient, shown only in its results. +And she could never have anything else to spend it on, he thought. Well, +he was due to die in a few years.... But he didn't want to. Living was +just beginning to be interesting again, somehow. There seemed no +satisfactory solution for the two of them.... Well, he'd be unselfish +and die, any way. Meanwhile, why not be happy? Here was Phyllis. His +hand clasped hers more closely. + +"And when Mr. De Guenther made me that offer," she murmured, coloring in +the darkness, "I was tired and discouraged, and the years seemed so +endless! It didn't seem as though I'd be harming any one--but I wouldn't +have done it if you'd said a word against it--truly I wouldn't, dear." + +The last little word slipped out unnoticed. She had been calling her +library children "dear" for a year now, and the word slipped out of +itself. But Allan liked it. + +"My poor little girl!" he said. "In your place I'd have married the +devil himself--up against a life like that." + +"Then--then you don't--mind?" asked Phyllis anxiously, as she had asked +before. + +"No, indeed!" said Allan, with a little unnecessary firmness. "I _told_ +you that, didn't I? I like it." + +"So you did tell me," she said penitently. + +"But supposing De Guenther hadn't picked out some one like you----" + +"That's just what I've often thought myself," said Phyllis naively. "She +might have been much worse than I.... Oh, but I was frightened when I +saw you first! I didn't know what you'd be like. And then, when I looked +at you----" + +"Well, when you looked at me?" demanded Allan. + +But Phyllis refused to go on. + +"But that's not all," said Allan. "What about--men?" + +"What men?" asked Phyllis innocently. + +"Why, men you were interested in, of course," he answered. + +"There weren't any," said Phyllis. "I hadn't any place to meet them, or +anywhere to entertain them if I had met them. Oh, yes, there was one--an +old bookkeeper at the boarding-house. All the boarders there were old. +That was why the people at home had chosen it. They thought it would be +safe. It was all of that!" + +"Well, the bookkeeper?" demanded Allan. "You're straying off from your +narrative. The bookkeeper, Phyllis, my dear!" + +"I'm telling you about him," protested Phyllis. "He was awfully cross +because I wouldn't marry him, but I didn't see any reason why I should. +I didn't like him especially, and I would probably have gone on with my +work afterwards. There didn't seem to me to be anything to it for any +one but him--for of course I'd have had his mending and all that to do +when I came home from the library, and I scarcely got time for my own. +But he lost his temper fearfully because I didn't want to. Then, of +course, men would try to flirt in the library, but the janitor always +made them go out when you asked him to. He loved doing it.... Why, +Allan, it must be seven o'clock! Shall I turn on more lights?" + +"No.... Then you were quite as shut up in your noisy library as I was in +my dark rooms," said Allan musingly. + +"I suppose I was," she said, "though I never thought of it before. You +mustn't think it was horrid. It was fun, lots of it. Only, there wasn't +any being a real girl in it." + +"There isn't much in this, I should think," said Allan savagely, +"except looking after a big doll." + +Phyllis's laugh tinkled out. "Oh, I _love_ playing with dolls," she said +mischievously. "And you ought to see my new slippers! I have pink ones, +and blue ones, and lavender and green, all satin and suede. And when I +get time I'm going to buy dresses to match. And a banjo, maybe, with a +self-teacher. There's a room upstairs where nobody can hear a thing you +do. I've wanted slippers and a banjo ever since I can remember." + +"Then you're fairly happy?" demanded Allan suddenly. + +"Why, of course!" said Phyllis, though she had not really stopped to ask +herself before whether she was or not. There had been so many exciting +things to do. "Wouldn't you be happy if you could buy everything you +wanted, and every one was lovely to you, and you had pretty clothes and +a lovely house--and a rose-garden?" + +"Yes--if I could buy everything I wanted," said Allan. His voice dragged +a little. Phyllis sprang up, instantly penitent. + +"You're tired, and I've been talking and talking about my silly little +woes till I've worn you out!" she said. "But--Allan, you're getting +better. Try to move this arm. The hand I'm holding. There! That's a lot +more than you could do when I first came. I think--I think it would be a +good plan for a masseur to come down and see it." + +"Now look here, Phyllis," protested Allan, "I like your taste in houses +and music-boxes and bull-dogs, but I'll be hanged if I'll stand for a +masseur. There's no use, they can't do me any good, and the last one +almost killed me. There's no reason why I should be tormented simply +because a professional pounder needs the money." + +"No, no!" said Phyllis. "Not that kind! Wallis can have orders to shoot +him or something if he touches your spinal column. All I meant was a man +who would give the muscles of your arms and shoulders a little exercise. +That couldn't hurt, and might help you use them. That wouldn't be any +trouble, would it? _Please!_ The first minute he hurts, you can send him +flying. You know they call massage lazy people's exercise." + +"I believe you're really interested in making me better," said Allan, +after a long silence. + +"Why, of course," said Phyllis, laughing. "That's what I'm here for!" + +But this answer did not seem to suit Allan, for some reason. Phyllis +said no more about the masseur. She only decided to summon him, any way. +And presently Wallis came in and turned all the lights on. + + + + +XIII + + +In due course of time June came. So did the masseur, and more flowered +frocks for Phyllis, and the wheel-chair for Allan. The immediate effect +of June was to bring out buds all over the rose-trees; of the flowered +dresses, to make Phyllis very picturesquely pretty. As for the masseur, +he had more effect than anything else. It was as Phyllis had hoped: the +paralysis of Allan's arms had been less permanent than any one had +thought, and for perhaps the last three years there had been little more +the matter than entire loss of strength and muscle-control, from long +disuse. By the time they had been a month in the country Allan's use of +his arms and shoulders was nearly normal, and Phyllis was having wild +hopes, that she confided to no one but Wallis, of even more sweeping +betterments. Allan slept much better, from the slight increase of +activity, and also perhaps because Phyllis had coaxed him outdoors as +soon as the weather became warm, and was keeping him there. Sometimes +he lay in the garden on his couch, sometimes he sat up in the +wheel-chair, almost always with Phyllis sitting, or lying in her hammock +near him, and the devoted Foxy pretending to hunt something near by. + +There were occasional fits of the old depression and silence, when Allan +would lie silently in his own room with his hands crossed and his eyes +shut, answering no one--not even Foxy. Wallis and Phyllis respected +these moods, and left him alone till they were over, but the adoring +Foxy had no such delicacy of feeling. And it is hard to remain silently +sunk in depression when an active small dog is imploring you by every +means he knows to throw balls for him to run after. For the rest, Allan +proved to have naturally a lighter heart and more carefree disposition +than Phyllis. His natural disposition was buoyant. Wallis said that he +had never had a mood in his life till the accident. + +His attitude to his wife became more and more a taking-for-granted +affection and dependence. It is to be feared that Phyllis spoiled him +badly. But it was so long since she had been needed by any one person as +Allan needed her! And he had such lovable, illogical, masculine ways of +being wronged if he didn't get the requisite amount of petting, and +grateful for foolish little favors and taking big ones for granted, +that--entirely, as Phyllis insisted to herself, from a sense of combined +duty and grateful interest--she would have had her pretty head removed +and sent him by parcel-post, if he had idly suggested his possible need +of a girl's head some time. + +And it was so heavenly--oh, but it was heavenly there in Phyllis's +rose-garden, with the colored flowers coming out, and the little green +caterpillars roaming over the leaves, and pretty dresses to wear, and +Foxy-dog to play with--and Allan! Allan demanded--no, not exactly +demanded, but expected and got--so much of Phyllis's society in these +days that she had learned to carry on all her affairs, even the +housekeeping, out in her hammock by his wheel-chair or couch. She wore +large, floppy white hats with roses on them, by way of keeping the sun +off; but Allan, it appeared, did not think much of hats except as an +ornament for girls, and his uncovered curly hair was burned to a sort of +goldy-russet all through, and his pallor turned to a clear pale brown. + +Phyllis looked up from her work one of these heavenly last-of-June days, +and tried to decide whether she really liked the change or not. Allan +was handsomer unquestionably, though that had hardly been necessary. But +the resignedly statuesque look was gone. + +Allan felt her look, and looked up at her. He had been reading a +magazine, for Phyllis had succeeded in a large measure in reviving his +taste for magazines and books. "Well, Phyllis, my dear," said he, +smiling, "what's the problem now? I feel sure there is something new +going to be sprung on me--get the worst over!" + +"You wrong me," she said, beginning to thread some more pink embroidery +silk. "I was only wondering whether I liked you as well tanned as I did +when you were so nice and white, back in the city." + +"Cheerful thought!" said Allan, laying down his magazine entirely. +"Shall I ring for Wallis and some peroxide? As you said the other day, +'I have to be approved of or I'm unhappy!'" + +"Oh, it really doesn't matter," said Phyllis mischievously. "You know, I +married you principally for a rose-garden, and that's _lovely_!" + +"I suppose I spoil the perspective," said Allan, unexpectedly ruffled. + +Phyllis leaned forward in her blossom-dotted draperies and stroked his +hand, that long carven hand she so loved to watch. + +"Not a bit, Allan," she said, laughing at him. "You're exceedingly +decorative! I remember the first time I saw you I thought you looked +exactly like a marble knight on a tomb." + +Allan--Allan the listless, tranced invalid of four months before--threw +his head back and shouted with laughter. + +"I suppose I serve the purpose of garden statuary," he said. "We used to +have some horrors when I was a kid. I remember two awful bronze deer +that always looked as if they were trying not to get their feet wet, +and a floppy bronze dog we called Fido. He was meant for a Gordon +setter, I think, but it didn't go much further than intention. Louise +and I used to ride the deer." + +His face shadowed a little as he spoke, for nearly the first time, of +the dead girl. + +"Allan," Phyllis said, bending closer to him, all rosy and golden in her +green hammock, "tell me about--Louise Frey--if you don't mind talking +about her? Would it be bad for you, do you think?" + +Allan's eyes dwelt on his wife pleasurably. She was very real and near +and lovable, and Louise Frey seemed far away and shadowy in his +thoughts. He had loved her very dearly and passionately, that +boisterous, handsome young Louise, but that gay boy-life she had +belonged to seemed separated now from this pleasant rose-garden, with +its golden-haired, wisely-sweet young chatelaine, by thousands of black +years. The blackness came back when he remembered what lay behind it. + +"There's nothing much to tell, Phyllis," he said, frowning a little. +"She was pretty and full of life. She had black hair and eyes and a +good deal of color. We were more or less friends all our lives, for our +country-places adjoined. She was eighteen when--it happened." + +"Eighteen," said Phyllis musingly. "She would have been just my age.... +We won't talk about it, then, Allan ... Well, Viola?" + +The pretty Tuskegee chambermaid was holding out a tray with a card on +it. + +"The doctor, ma'am," she said. + +"The doctor!" echoed Allan, half-vexed, half-laughing. "I _knew_ you had +something up your sleeve, Phyllis! What on earth did you have him for?" + +Phyllis's face was a study of astonishment. "On my honor, I hadn't a +notion he was even in existence," she protested. "He's not _my_ doctor!" + +"He must have 'just growed,' or else Lily-Anna's called him in," +suggested Allan sunnily. "Bring him along, Viola." + +Viola produced him so promptly that nobody had time to remember the +professional doctor's visits don't usually have cards, or thought to +look at the card for enlightenment. So the surprise was complete when +the doctor appeared. + +"Johnny Hewitt!" ejaculated Allan, throwing out both hands in greeting. +"Of all people! Well, you old fraud, pretending to be a doctor! The last +I heard about you, you were trying to prove that you weren't the man +that tied a mule into old Sumerley's chair at college." + +"I never did prove it," responded Johnny Hewitt, shaking hands +vigorously, "but the fellows said afterwards that I ought to +apologize--to the mule. He was a perfectly good mule. But I'm a doctor +all right. I live here in Wallraven. I wondered if it might be you by +any chance, Allan, when I heard some Harringtons had bought here. But +this is the first chance a promising young chickenpox epidemic has given +me to find out." + +"It's what's left of me," said Allan, smiling ruefully. "And--Phyllis, +this doctor-person turns out to be an old friend of mine. This is Mrs. +Harrington, Johnny." + +"Oh, I'm so glad!" beamed Phyllis, springing up from her hammock, and +looking as if she loved Johnny. Here was exactly what was +needed--somebody for Allan to play with! She made herself delightful to +the newcomer for a few minutes, and then excused herself. They would +have a better time alone, for awhile, any way, and there was dinner to +order. Maybe this Johnny Hewitt-doctor would stay for dinner. He should +if she could make him! She sang a little on her way to the house, and +almost forgot the tiny hurt it had been when Allan seemed so saddened by +speaking of Louise Frey. She had no right to feel hurt, she knew. It was +only to be expected that Allan would always love Louise's memory. She +didn't know much about men, but that was the way it always was in +stories. A man's heart would die, under an automobile or anywhere else, +and all there was left for anybody else was leavings. It wasn't fair! +And then Phyllis threw back her shoulders and laughed, as she had +sometimes in the library days, and reminded herself what a nice world it +was, any way, and that Allan was going to be much helped by Johnny +Hewitt. That was a cheering thought, anyhow. She went on singing, and +ordered a beautiful, festively-varied dinner, a very poem of gratitude. +Then she pounced on the doctor as he was leaving and made him stay for +it. + +Allan's eyes were bright and his face lighted with interest. Phyllis, at +the head of the table, kept just enough in the talk to push the men on +when it seemed flagging, which was not often. She learned more about +Allan, and incidentally Johnny Hewitt, in the talk as they lingered +about the table, than she had ever known before. She and Allan had lived +so deliberately in the placid present, with its almost childish +brightnesses and interests, that she knew scarcely more about her +husband's life than the De Guenthers had told her before she married +him. But she could see the whole picture of it as she listened now: the +active, merry, brilliant boy who had worked and played all day and +danced half the night; who had lived, it almost seemed to her, two or +three lives in one. And then the change to the darkened room--helpless, +unable to move, with the added sorrow of his sweetheart's death, and +his mother's deliberate fostering of that sorrow. It was almost a shock +to see him in the wheel-chair at the foot of the table, his face lighted +with interest in what he and his friend were saying. What if he did care +for Louise Frey's memory still! He'd had such a hard time that anything +Phyllis could do for him oughtn't to be too much! + +When Dr. Hewitt went at last Phyllis accompanied him to the door. She +kept him there for a few minutes, talking to him about Allan and making +him promise to come often. He agreed with her that, this much progress +made, a good deal more might follow. He promised to come back very soon, +and see as much of them as possible. + +Allan, watching them, out of earshot, from the living-room where he had +been wheeled, saw Phyllis smiling warmly up at his friend, lingering in +talk with him, giving him both hands in farewell; and he saw, too, +Hewitt's rapt interest and long leave-taking. At last the door closed, +and Phyllis came back to him, flushed and animated. He realized, +watching her return with that swift lightness of foot her long years of +work had lent her, how young and strong and lovely she was, with the +rose-color in her cheeks and the light from above making her hair +glitter. And suddenly her slim young strength and her bright vitality +seemed to mock him, instead of being a comfort and support as +heretofore. A young, beautiful, kind girl like that--it was natural she +should like Hewitt. And it was going to come natural to Hewitt to like +Phyllis. He could see that plainly enough. + +"Tired, Allan Harrington?" she asked brightly, coming over to him and +dropping a light hand on his chair, in a caressing little way she had +dared lately.... Kindness! Yes, she was the incarnation of kindness. +Doubtless she had spoken to and touched those little ragamuffins she had +told him of just so. + +He had got into a habit of feeling that Phyllis belonged to him +absolutely. He had forgotten--what was it she had said to him that +afternoon, half in fun--but oh, doubtless half in earnest!--about +marrying him for a rose-garden? She had done just that. She had never +made any secret of it--why, how could she, marrying him before she had +spoken a half-dozen words to him? But how wonderful she had been to him +since--sometimes almost as if she cared for him.... + +He moved ungraciously. "Don't _touch_ me, Phyllis!" he said irritably. +"Wallis! You can wheel me into my room." + +"Oh-h!" said Phyllis, behind him. The little forlorn sound hurt him, but +it pleased him, too. So he could hurt her, if only by rudeness? Well, +that was a satisfaction. "Shut the door," he ordered Wallis swiftly. + +Phyllis, her hands at her throat, stood hurt and frightened in the +middle of the room. It never occurred to her that Allan was jealous, or +indeed that he could care enough for her to be jealous. + +"It was talking about Louise Frey," she said. "That, and Dr. Hewitt +bringing up old times. Oh, _why_ did I ask about her? He was +contented--I know he was contented! He'd gotten to like having me with +him--he even wanted me. Oh, Allan, Allan!" + +She did not want to cry downstairs, so she ran for her own room. There +she threw herself down and cried into a pillow till most of the case was +wet. She was silly--she knew she was silly. She tried to think of all +the things that were still hers, the garden, the watch-bracelet, the +leisure, the pretty gowns--but nothing, _nothing_ seemed of any +consequence beside the fact that--she had not kissed Allan good-night! +It seemed the most intolerable thing that had ever happened to her. + + + + +XIV + + +It was just as well, perhaps, that Phyllis did not do much sleeping that +night, for at about two Wallis knocked at her door. It seemed like +history repeating itself when he said: "Could you come to Mr. Allan, +please? He seems very bad." + +She threw on the silk crepe negligee and followed him, just as she had +done before, on that long-ago night after her mother-in-law had died. + +"Did Dr. Hewitt's visit overexcite him, do you think?" he asked as they +went. + +"I don't know, ma'am," Wallis said. "He's almost as bad as he was after +the old madam died--you remember?" + +"Oh, yes," said Phyllis mechanically. "I remember." + + * * * * * + +Allan lay so exactly as he had on that other night, that the strange +surroundings seemed incongruous. Just the same, except that his +restlessness was more visible, because he had more power of motion. + +She bent and held the nervously clenching hands, as she had before. +"What is it, Allan?" she said soothingly. + +"Nothing," said her husband savagely. "Nerves, hysteria--any other silly +womanish thing a cripple could have. Let me alone, Phyllis. I wish you +could put me out of the way altogether!" + +Phyllis made herself laugh, though her heart hurried with fright. She +had seen Allan suffer badly before--be apathetic, irritable, despondent, +but never in a state where he did not cling to her. + +"I can't let you alone," she said brightly. "I've come to stay with you +till you feel quieter.... Would you rather I talked to you, or kept +quiet?" + +"Oh, do your wifely duty, whatever it is," he said.... "It was a +mistake, the whole thing. You've done more than your duty, child, +but--oh, you'd better go away." + +Phyllis's heart turned over. Was it as bad as this? Was he as sick of +her as this? + +"You mean--you think," she faltered, "it was a mistake--our marriage?" + +"Yes," he said restlessly. "Yes.... It wasn't fair." + +She had no means of knowing that he meant it was unfair to her. She held +on to herself, though she felt her face turning cold with the sudden +pallor of fright. + +"I think it can be annulled," she said steadily. "No, I suppose it +wasn't fair." + +She stopped to get her breath and catch at the only things that +mattered--steadiness, quietness, ability to soothe Allan! + +"It can be annulled," she said again evenly. "But listen to me now, +Allan. It will take quite a while. It can't be done to-night, or before +you are stronger. So for your own sake you must try to rest now. +Everything shall come right. I promise you it shall be annulled. But +forget it now, please. I am going to hold your wrists and talk to you, +recite things for you, till you go back to sleep." + +She wondered afterwards how she could have spoken with that hard +serenity, how she could have gone steadily on with story after story, +poem after poem, till Allan's grip on her hands relaxed, and he fell +into a heavy, tired sleep. + +[Illustration: "BUT YOU SEE--HE'S--ALL I HAVE ... GOOD-NIGHT, WALLIS"] + +She sat on the side of the bed and looked at him, lying still against +his white pillows. She looked and looked, and presently the tears began +to slide silently down her cheeks. She did not lift her hands to wipe +them away. She sat and cried silently, openly, like a desolate, unkindly +treated child. + +"Mrs. Allan! Mrs. Allan, ma'am!" came Wallis's concerned whisper from +the doorway. "Don't take it as hard as that. It's just a little relapse. +He was overtired. I shouldn't have called you, but you always quiet him +so." + +Phyllis brushed off her tears, and smiled. You seemed to have to do so +much smiling in this house! + +"I know," she said. "I worry about his condition too much. But you +see--he's--all I have.... Good-night, Wallis." + +Once out of Allan's room, she ran at full speed till she gained her own +bed, where she could cry in peace till morning if she wanted to, with no +one to interrupt. That was all right. The trouble was going to be next +morning. + +But somehow, when morning came, the old routine was dragged through +with. Directions had to be given the servants as usual, Allan's comfort +and amusement seen to, just as if nothing had happened. It was a perfect +day, golden and perfumed, with just that little tang of fresh windiness +that June days have in the northern states. And Allan must not lose +it--he must be wheeled out into the garden. + +She came out to him, in the place where they usually sat, and sank for a +moment in the hammock, that afternoon. She had avoided him all the +morning. + +"I just came to see if everything was all right," she said, leaning +toward him in that childlike, earnest way he knew so well. "I don't need +to stay here if I worry you." + +"I'd rather you'd stay, if you don't mind," he answered. Phyllis looked +at him intently. He was white and dispirited, and his voice was +listless. Oh, Phyllis thought, if Louise Frey had only been kind enough +to die in babyhood, instead of under Allan's automobile! What could +there have been about her to hold Allan so long? She glanced at his +weary face again. This would never do! What had come to be her dominant +instinct, keeping Allan's spirits up, emboldened her to bend forward, +and even laugh a little. + +"Come, Allan!" she said. "Even if we're not going to stay together +always, we might as well be cheerful till we do part. We used to be good +friends enough. Can't we be so a little longer?" It sounded heartless to +her after she had said it, but it seemed the only way to speak. She +smiled at him bravely. + +Allan looked at her mutely for a moment, as if she had hurt him. + +"You're right," he said suddenly. "There's no time but the present, +after all. Come over here, closer to me, Phyllis. You've been awfully +good to me, child--isn't there anything--_anything_ I could do for +you--something you could remember afterwards, and say, 'Well, he did +that for me, any way?'" + +Phyllis's eyes filled with tears. "You have given me everything +already," she said, catching her breath. She didn't feel as if she could +stand much more of this. + +"Everything!" he said bitterly. "No, I haven't. I can't give you what +every girl wants--a well, strong man to be her husband--the health and +strength that any man in the street has." + +"Oh, don't speak that way, Allan!" + +She bent over him sympathetically, moved by his words. In another moment +the misunderstanding might have been straightened out, if it had not +been for his reply. + +"I wish I never had to see you at all!" he said involuntarily. In her +sensitive state of mind the hurt was all she felt--not the deeper +meaning that lay behind the words. + +"I'll relieve you of my presence for awhile," she flashed back. Before +she gave herself time to think, she had left the garden, with something +which might be called a flounce. "When people say things like that to +you," she said as she walked away from him, "it's carrying being an +invalid a little _too_ far!" + +Allan heard the side-door slam. He had never suspected before that +Phyllis had a temper. And yet, what could he have said? But she gave him +no opportunity to find out. In just about the time it might take to +find gloves and a parasol, another door clanged in the distance. The +street door. Phyllis had evidently gone out. + + * * * * * + +Phyllis, on her swift way down the street, grew angrier and angrier. She +tried to persuade herself to make allowances for Allan, but they refused +to be made. She felt more bitterly toward him than she ever had toward +any one in her life. If she only hadn't leaned over him and been sorry +for him, just before she got a slap in the face like that! + +She walked rapidly down the main street of the little village. She +hardly knew where she was going. She had been called on by most of the +local people, but she did not feel like being agreeable, or making +formal calls, just now. And what was the use of making friends, any way, +when she was going back to her rags, poor little Cinderella that she +was! Below and around and above everything else came the stinging +thought that she had given Allan so much--that she had taken so much for +granted. + +Her quick steps finally took her to the outskirts of the village, to a +little green stretch of woods. There she walked up and down for awhile, +trying to think more quietly. She found the tide of her anger ebbing +suddenly, and her mind forming all sorts of excuses for Allan. But that +was not the way to get quiet--thinking of Allan! She tried to put him +resolutely from her mind, and think about her own future plans. The +first thing to do, she decided, was to rub up her library work a little. + +It was with an unexpected feeling of having returned to her own place +that she crossed the marble floor of the village library. She felt as if +she ought to hurry down to the cloak-room, instead of waiting leisurely +at the desk for her card. It all seemed uncannily like home--there was +even a girl inside the desk who looked like Anna Black of her own +Greenway Branch. Phyllis could hear, with a faint amusement, that the +girl was scolding energetically in Anna Black's own way. The words +struck on her quick ears, though they were not intended to carry. + +"That's what comes of trusting to volunteer help. Telephones at the last +moment 'she has a headache,' and not a single soul to look after the +story-hour! And the children are almost all here already." + +"We'll just have to send them home," said the other girl, looking up +from her trayful of cards. "It's too late to get anybody else, and +goodness knows _we_ can't get it in!" + +"They ought to have another librarian," fretted the girl who looked like +Anna. "They could afford it well enough, with their Soldiers' Monuments +and all." + +Phyllis smiled to herself from where she was investigating the +card-catalogue. It all sounded so exceedingly natural. Then that swift +instinct of hers to help caught her over to the desk, and she heard +herself saying: + +"I've had some experience in story telling; maybe I could help you with +the story-hour. I couldn't help hearing that your story-teller has +disappointed you." + +The girl like Anna fell on her with rapture. + +"Heaven must have sent you," she said. The other one, evidently slower +and more cautious by nature, rose too, and came toward her. "You have a +card here, haven't you?" she said. "I think I've seen you." + +"Yes," Phyllis said, with a pang at speaking the name she had grown to +love bearing; "I'm Mrs. Harrington--Phyllis Harrington. We live at the +other end of the village." + +"Oh, in the house with the garden all shut off from the lane!" said the +girl like Anna, delightedly. "That lovely old house that used to belong +to the Jamesons. Oh, yes, I know. You're here for the summer, aren't +you, and your husband has been very ill?" + +"Exactly," said Phyllis, smiling, though she wished people wouldn't talk +about Allan! They seemed possessed to mention him! + +"We'll be obliged forever if you'll do it," said the other girl, +evidently the head librarian. "Can you do it now? The children are +waiting." + +"Certainly," said Phyllis, and followed the younger girl straightway to +the basement, where, it seemed, the story-hour was held. She wondered, +as they went, if the girl envied her her expensively perishable summer +organdie, with its flying sashes and costly accessories; if the girl +thought about her swinging jewelries and endless leisure with a wish to +have them for herself. She had wanted such things, she knew, when she +was being happy on fifty dollars a month. And perhaps some of the women +she had watched then had had heartaches under their furs.... + +The children, already sitting in a decorous ring on their low chairs, +seemed after the first surprise to approve of Phyllis. The librarian +lingered for a little by way of keeping order if it should be necessary, +watched the competent sweep with which Phyllis gathered the children +around her, heard the opening of the story, and left with an air of +astonished approval. Phyllis, late best story-teller of the Greenway +Branch, watched her go with a bit of professional triumph in her heart. + +She told the children stories till the time was up, and then "just one +story more." She had not forgotten how, she found. But she never told +them the story of "How the Elephant Got His Trunk," that foolish, +fascinating story-hour classic that she had told Allan the night his +mother had died; the story that had sent him to sleep quietly for the +first time in years.... Oh, dear, was everything in the world connected +with Allan in some way or other? + +It was nearly six when she went up, engulfed in children, to the +circulating room. There the night-librarian caught her. She had +evidently been told to try to get Phyllis for more story-hours, for she +did her best to make her promise. They talked shop together for perhaps +an hour and a half. Then the growing twilight reminded Phyllis that it +was time to go back. She had been shirking going home, she realized now, +all the afternoon. She said good-by to the night-librarian, and went on +down the village street, lagging unconsciously. It must have been about +eight by this time. + +It was a mile back to the house. She could have taken the trolley part +of the way, but she felt restless and like walking. She had forgotten +that walking at night through well-known, well-lighted city streets, and +going in half-dusk through country byways, were two different things. +She was destined to be reminded of the difference. + +"Can you help a poor man, lady?" said a whining voice behind her, when +she had a quarter of the way yet to go. She turned to see a big tramp, a +terrifying brute with a half-propitiating, half-fierce look on his +heavy, unshaven face. She was desperately frightened. She had been +spoken to once or twice in the city, but there there was always a +policeman, or a house you could run into if you had to. But here, in the +unguarded dusk of a country lane, it was a different matter. The long +gold chain that swung below her waist, the big diamond on her finger, +the gold mesh-purse--all the jewelry she took such a childlike delight +in wearing--she remembered them in terror. She was no brown-clad little +working-girl now, to slip along disregarded. And the tramp did not look +like a deserving object. + +"If you will come to the house to-morrow," she said, hurrying on as she +spoke, "I'll have some work for you. The first house on this street that +you come to." She did not dare give him anything, or send him away. + +"Won't you gimme somethin' now, lady?" whined the tramp, continuing to +follow. "I'm a starvin' man." + +She dared not open her purse and appease him by giving him money--she +had too much with her. That morning she had received the check for her +monthly income from Mr. De Guenther, sent Wallis down to cash it, and +then stuffed it in her bag and forgotten it in the distress of the day. +The man might take the money and strike her senseless, even kill her. + +"To-morrow," she said, going rapidly on. She had now what would amount +to about three city blocks to traverse still. There was a short way from +outside the garden-hedge through to the garden, which cut off about a +half-block. If she could gain this she would be safe. + +"Naw, yeh don't," snarled the tramp, as she fled on. "Ye'll set that +bull-pup o' yours on me. I been there, an' come away again. You just +gimme some o' them rings an' things an' we'll call it square, me fine +lady!" + +Phyllis's heart stood still at this open menace, but she ran on still. A +sudden thought came to her. She snatched her gilt sash-buckle--a pretty +thing but of small value--from her waist, and hurled it far behind the +tramp. In the half-light it might have been her gold mesh-bag. + +"There's my money--go get it!" she gasped--and ran for her life. The +tramp, as she had hoped he would, dashed back after it and gave her the +start she needed. Breathless, terrified to death, she raced on, tearing +her frock, dropping the library cards and parasol she still had held in +her hand. Once she caught her sash on a tree-wire. Once her slipper-heel +caught and nearly threw her. The chase seemed unending. She could hear +the dreadful footsteps of the tramp behind her, and his snarling, +swearing voice panting out threats. He was drunk, she realized with +another thrill of horror. It was a nightmare happening. + +On and on--she stumbled, fell, caught herself--but the tramp had gained. +Then at last the almost invisible gap in the hedge, and she fled +through. + +"_Allan! Allan! Allan!_" she screamed, fleeing instinctively to his +chair. + +The rose-garden was like a place of enchanted peace after the terror of +outside. Her quick vision as she rushed in was of Allan still there, +moveless in his chair, with the little black bull-dog lying asleep +across his arms and shoulder like a child. It often lay so. As she +entered, the scene broke up before her eyes like a dissolving view. She +saw the little dog wake and make what seemed one flying spring to the +tramp's throat, and sink his teeth in it--and Allan, at her scream, +_spring from his chair_! + +Phyllis forgot everything at the sight of Allan, standing. Wallis and +the outdoor man, who had run to the spot at Phyllis's screams, were +dealing with the tramp, who was writhing on the grass, choking and +striking out wildly. But neither Phyllis nor Allan saw that. Which +caught the other in an embrace they never knew. They stood locked +together, forgetting everything else, he in the idea of her peril, she +in the wonder of his standing. + +"Oh, darling, darling!" Allan was saying over and over again. "You are +safe--thank heaven you are safe! Oh, Phyllis, I could never forgive +myself if you had been hurt! Phyllis! Speak to me!" + +But Phyllis's own safety did not concern her now. She could only think +of one thing. "_You can stand! You can stand!_" she reiterated. Then a +wonderful thought came to her, striking across the others, as she stood +locked in this miraculously raised Allan's arms. She spoke without +knowing that she had said it aloud. "_Do you care, too?_" she said very +low. Then the dominant thought returned. "You must sit down again," she +said hurriedly, to cover her confusion, and what she had said. "Please, +Allan, sit down. Please, dear--you'll tire yourself." + +Allan sank into his chair again, still holding her. She dropped on her +knees beside him, with her arms around him. She had a little leisure +now to observe that Wallis, the ever-resourceful, had tied the tramp +neatly with the outdoor man's suspenders, which were nearer the surface +than his own, and succeeded in prying off the still unappeased Foxy, who +evidently was wronged at not having the tramp to finish. They carried +him off, into the back kitchen garden. Allan, now that he was certain of +Phyllis's safety, paid them not the least attention. + +"Did you mean it?" he said passionately. "Tell me, did you mean what you +said?" + +Phyllis dropped her dishevelled head on Allan's shoulder. + +"I'm afraid--I'm going to cry, and--and I know you don't like it!" she +panted. Allan half drew, half guided her up into his arms. + +"Was it true?" he insisted, giving her an impulsive little shake. She sat +up on his knees, wide-eyed and wet-cheeked like a child. + +"But you knew that all along!" she said. "That was why I felt so +humiliated. It was _you_ that _I_ thought didn't care----" + +Allan laughed joyously. "Care!" he said. "I should think I did, first, +last, and all the time! Why, Phyllis, child, didn't I behave like a +brute because I was jealous enough of John Hewitt to throw him in the +river? He was the first man you had seen since you married +me--attractive, and well, and clever, and all that--it would have been +natural enough if you'd liked him." + +"Liked him!" said Phyllis in disdain. "When there was you? And I +thought--I thought it was the memory of Louise Frey that made you act +that way. You didn't want to talk about her, and you said it was all a +mistake----" + +"I was a brute," said Allan again. "It was the memory that I was about +as useful as a rag doll, and that the world was full of live men with +real legs and arms, ready to fall in love with you. + +"There's nobody but _you_ in the world," whispered Phyllis.... "But +you're well now, or you will be soon," she added joyously. She slipped +away from him. "Allan, don't you want to try to stand again? If you did +it then, you can do it now." + +"Yes, by Jove, I do!" he said. But this time the effort to rise was +noticeable. Still, he could do it, with Phyllis's eager help. + +"It must have been what Dr. Hewitt called neurasthenic inhibition," said +Phyllis, watching the miracle of a standing Allan. "That was what we +were talking about by the door that night, you foolish boy!... Oh, how +tall you are! I never realized you were tall, lying down, somehow!" + +"I don't have to bend very far to kiss you, though," suggested Allan, +suiting the action to the word. + +But Phyllis, when this was satisfactorily concluded, went back to the +great business of seeing how much Allan could walk. He sat down again +after a half-dozen steps, a little tired in spite of his excitement. + +"I can't do much at a time yet, I suppose," he said a little ruefully. +"Do you mean to tell me, sweetheart--come over here closer, where I can +touch you--you're awfully far away--do you mean to tell me that all that +ailed me was I thought I couldn't move?" + +"Oh, no!" explained Phyllis, moving her chair close, and then, as that +did not seem satisfactory, perching on the arm of Allan's. "You'd been +unable to move for so long that when you were able to at last your +subconscious mind clamped down on your muscles and was convinced you +couldn't. So no matter how much you consciously tried, you couldn't make +the muscles go till you were so strongly excited it broke the +inhibition--just as people can lift things in delirium or excitement +that they couldn't possibly move at other times. Do you see?" + +"I do," said Allan, kissing the back of her neck irrelevantly. "If +somebody'd tried to shoot me up five years ago I might be a well man +now. That's a beautiful word of yours, Phyllis, inhibition. What a lot +of big words you know!" + +"Oh, if you won't be serious!" said she. + +"We'll have to be," said Allan, laughing, "for here's Wallis, and, as I +live, from the direction of the house. I thought they carried our friend +the tramp out through the hedge--he must have gone all the way around." + +Phyllis was secretly certain that Wallis had been crying a little, but +all he said was, "We've taken the tramp to the lock-up, sir." + +But his master and his mistress were not so dignified. They showed him +exhaustively that Allan could really stand and walk, and Allan +demonstrated it, and Wallis nearly cried again. Then they went in, for +Phyllis was sure Allan needed a thorough rest after all this. She was +shaking from head to foot herself with joyful excitement, but she did +not even know it. And it was long past dinner-time, though every one but +Lily-Anna, to whom the happy news had somehow filtered, had forgotten +it. + +"I've always wanted to hold you in my arms, this way," said Allan late +that evening, as they stood in the rose-garden again; "but I thought I +never would.... Phyllis, did you ever want me to?" + +It was too beautiful a moonlight night to waste in the house, or even on +the porch. The couch had been wheeled to its accustomed place in the +rose-garden, and Allan was supposed to be lying on it as he often did in +the evenings. But it was hard to make him stay there. + +"Oh, you _must_ lie down," said Phyllis hurriedly, trying to move out of +the circle of his arms. "You mustn't stand till we find how much is +enough.... I'm going to send for the wolfhound next week. You won't mind +him now, will you?" + +"Did you ever want to be here in my arms, Phyllis?" + +"Of course not!" said Phyllis, as a modest young person should. +"But--but----" + +"Well, my wife?" + +"I've often wondered just where I'd reach to," said Phyllis in a +rush.... "Allan, _please_ don't stand any longer!" + +"I'll lie down if you'll sit on the couch by me." + +"Very well," said Phyllis; and sat obediently in the curve of his arm +when he had settled himself in the old position, the one that looked so +much more natural for him. + +"Mine, every bit of you!" he said exultantly. "Heaven bless that +tramp!... And to think we were talking about annulments!... Do you +remember that first night, dear, after mother died? I was half-mad with +grief and physical pain. And Wallis went after you. I didn't want him +to. But he trusted you from the first--good old Wallis! And you came in +with that swift, sweeping step of yours, as I've seen you come fifty +times since--half-flying, it seemed to me then--with all your pretty +hair loose, and an angelic sort of a white thing on. I expect I was a +brute to you--I don't remember how I acted--but I know you sat on the +bed by me and took both my wrists in those strong little hands of yours, +and talked to me and quieted me till I fell fast asleep. You gave me the +first consecutive sleep I'd had in four months. It felt as if life and +calmness and strength were pouring from you to me. You stayed till I +fell asleep." + +"I remember," said Phyllis softly. She laid her cheek by his, as it had +been on that strange marriage evening that seemed so far away now. "I +was afraid of you at first. But I felt that, too, as if I were giving +you my strength. I was so glad I could! And then I fell asleep, too, +over on your shoulder." + +"You never told me that," said Allan reproachfully. Phyllis laughed a +little. + +"There never seemed to be any point in our conversations where it fitted +in neatly," she said demurely. Allan laughed, too. + +"You should have made one. But what I was going to tell you was--I think +I began to be in love with you then. I didn't know it, but I did. And it +got worse and worse but I didn't know what ailed me till Johnny drifted +in, bless his heart! Then I did. Oh, Phyllis, it was awful! To have you +with me all the time, acting like an angel, waiting on me hand and foot, +and not knowing whether you had any use for me or not!... And you never +kissed me good-night last night." + +Phyllis did not answer. She only bent a little, and kissed her husband +on the lips, very sweetly and simply, of her own accord. But she said +nothing then of the long, restless, half-happy, half-wretched time when +she had loved him and never even hoped he would care for her. There was +time for all that. There were going to be long, joyous years together, +years of being a "real woman," as she had so passionately wished to be +that day in the library. She would never again need to envy any woman +happiness or love or laughter. It was all before her now, youth and joy +and love, and Allan, her Allan, soon to be well, and loving her--loving +nobody else but her! + +"Oh, I love you, Allan!" was all she said. + + + + + +End of Project Gutenberg's The Rose Garden Husband, by Margaret Widdemer + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE ROSE GARDEN HUSBAND *** + +***** This file should be named 26635-8.txt or 26635-8.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + http://www.gutenberg.org/2/6/6/3/26635/ + +Produced by Mark C. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Rose Garden Husband + +Author: Margaret Widdemer + +Release Date: September 16, 2008 [EBook #26635] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE ROSE GARDEN HUSBAND *** + + + + +Produced by Mark C. Orton, Linda McKeown and the Online +Distributed Proofreading Team at http://www.pgdp.net + + + + + + +</pre> + + +<p> </p> + +<div class="figcenter" style="width: 372px;"> +<img src="images/fcover.jpg" width="372" height="600" alt="" title="cover" /> +</div> + + +<h1>THE ROSE-GARDEN HUSBAND</h1> + + +<h3>BY</h3> + +<h2>MARGARET WIDDEMER</h2> + + + +<p class="center">WITH ILLUSTRATIONS BY</p> + +<h3>WALTER BIGGS<br /><br /></h3> + + +<p class="center">NEW YORK GROSSET & DUNLAP PUBLISHERS<br /> + +COPYRIGHT 1914, BY J. B. LIPPINCOTT COMPANY<br /> + +COPYRIGHT 1915, BY J. B. LIPPINCOTT COMPANY<br /> + +<br /><br /> + +PUBLISHED, JANUARY 27, 1915<br /> + +SECOND PRINTING, FEBRUARY 6, 1915<br /> + +THIRD PRINTING, MARCH 12, 1915<br /> + +FOURTH PRINTING, APRIL 23, 1915<br /> + +FIFTH PRINTING, JUNE 10, 1915<br /> + +SIXTH PRINTING, AUGUST 6, 1915<br /> + +SEVENTH PRINTING, OCTOBER 21, 1915<br /> + +EIGHTH PRINTING, MAY 1, 1916<br /> + +NINTH PRINTING, OCTOBER 30, 1916</p> + +<div class="figcenter" style="width: 442px;"> +<img src="images/illus-004.jpg" width="442" height="600" alt="YOU KNOW, I MARRIED YOU PRINCIPALLY FOR A ROSE-GARDEN" title="" /> +<span class="caption">"YOU KNOW, I MARRIED YOU PRINCIPALLY FOR A ROSE-GARDEN, +AND THAT'S <i>LOVELY</i>!"</span> +<br /><i>Page <a href='#Page_172'><b>172</b></a></i> +</div> + + + +<hr style="width: 45%;" /> + +<h3><br /><br />IN LOVING MEMORY</h3> + +<h4>OF</h4> + +<h2>HOWARD TAYLOR WIDDEMER<br /><br /></h2> + +<p><span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_7" id="Page_7">[Pg 7]</a></span></p> +<hr style="width: 45%;" /> + + +<h3>CONTENTS</h3> + +<div class='centered'> +<table border="0" cellpadding="4" width="50%" cellspacing="0" summary="CONTENTS"> + + +<tr><td rowspan="14"><img src="images/spine.jpg" width="121" height="600" alt="book spine" title="" /></td><td align='left'><a href="#I"><b>CHAPTER I</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#II"><b>CHAPTER II</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#III"><b>CHAPTER III</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#IV"><b>CHAPTER IV</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#V"><b>CHAPTER V</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#VI"><b>CHAPTER VI</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#VII"><b>CHAPTER VII</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#VIII"><b>CHAPTER VIII</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#IX"><b>CHAPTER IX</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#X"><b>CHAPTER X</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#XI"><b>CHAPTER XI</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#XII"><b>CHAPTER XII</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#XIII"><b>CHAPTER XIII</b></a></td></tr> +<tr><td align='left'><a href="#XIV"><b>CHAPTER XIV</b></a></td></tr> +</table></div> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><br /><br /><a name="THE_ROSE-GARDEN_HUSBAND" id="THE_ROSE-GARDEN_HUSBAND"></a>THE ROSE-GARDEN HUSBAND<br /><br /></h2> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="I" id="I"></a>I</h2> + + +<p>The Liberry Teacher lifted her eyes from a half-made catalogue-card, +eyed the relentlessly slow clock and checked a long wriggle of purest, +frankest weariness. Then she gave a furtive glance around to see if the +children had noticed she was off guard; for if they had she knew the +whole crowd might take more liberties than they ought to, and have to be +spoken to by the janitor. He could do a great deal with them, because he +understood their attitude to life, but that wasn't good for the Liberry +Teacher's record.</p> + +<p>It was four o'clock of a stickily wet Saturday. As long as it is +anything from Monday to Friday the average library attendant goes around +thanking her stars she isn't a school-teacher; but the last day of the +week, when the rest of the world is having its relaxing Saturday off and +coming<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_8" id="Page_8">[Pg 8]</a></span> to gloat over you as it acquires its Sunday-reading best seller, +if you work in a library you begin just at noon to wish devoutly that +you'd taken up scrubbing-by-the-day, or hack-driving, or porch-climbing +or—anything on earth that gave you a weekly half-holiday!</p> + +<p>So the Liberry Teacher braced herself severely, and put on her +reading-glasses with a view to looking older and more firm. "Liberry +Teacher," it might be well to explain, was not her official title. Her +description on the pay-roll ran "Assistant for the Children's +Department, Greenway Branch, City Public Library." Grown-up people, when +she happened to run across them, called her Miss Braithwaite. But +"Liberry Teacher" was the only name the children ever used, and she saw +scarcely anybody but the children, six days a week, fifty-one weeks a +year. As for her real name, that nobody ever called her by, <i>that</i> was +Phyllis Narcissa.</p> + +<p>She was quite willing to have such a name as that buried out of sight. +She had a sense of fitness; and such a name belonged back<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_9" id="Page_9">[Pg 9]</a></span> in an old New +England parsonage garden full of pink roses and nice green caterpillars +and girl-dreams, and the days before she was eighteen: not in a smutty +city library, attached to a twenty-five-year-old young woman with +reading-glasses and fine discipline and a woolen shirt-waist!</p> + +<p>It wasn't that the Liberry Teacher didn't like her position. She not +only liked it, but she had a great deal of admiration for it, because it +had been exceedingly hard to get. She had held it firmly now for a whole +year. Before that she had been in the Cataloguing, where your eyes hurt +and you get a little pain between your shoulders, but you sit down and +can talk to other girls; and before that in the Circulation, where it +hurts your feet and you get ink on your fingers, but you see lots of +funny things happening. She had started at eighteen years old, at thirty +dollars a month. Now she was twenty-five, and she got all of fifty +dollars, so she ought to have been a very happy Liberry Teacher indeed, +and generally she was. When the children wanted to specify her +particularly they described her<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_10" id="Page_10">[Pg 10]</a></span> as "the pretty one that laughs." But at +four o'clock of a wet Saturday afternoon, in a badly ventilated, badly +lighted room full of damp little unwashed foreign children, even the +most sunny-hearted Liberry Teacher may be excused for having thoughts +that are a little tired and cross and restless.</p> + +<p>She flung herself back in her desk-chair and watched, with brazen +indifference, Giovanni and Liberata Bruno stickily pawing the colored +Bird Book that was supposed to be looked at only under supervision; she +ignored the fact that three little Czechs were fighting over the wailing +library cat; and the sounds of conflict caused by Jimsy Hoolan's desire +to get the last-surviving Alger book away from John Zanowski moved her +not a whit. The Liberry Teacher had stopped, for five minutes, being +grown-up and responsible, and she was wishing—wishing hard and +vengefully. This is always a risky thing to do, because you never know +when the Destinies may overhear you and take you at your exact word. +With the detailed and careful accuracy one acquires in library work, she +was wishing<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_11" id="Page_11">[Pg 11]</a></span> for a sum of money, a garden, and a husband—but +principally a husband. This is why:</p> + +<p>That day as she was returning from her long-deferred twenty-minute +dairy-lunch, she had charged, umbrella down, almost full into a pretty +lady getting out of a shiny gray limousine. Such an unnecessarily pretty +lady, all furs and fluffles and veils and perfumes and waved hair! Her +cheeks were pink and her expression was placid, and each of her +white-gloved hands held tight to a pretty picture-book child who was +wriggling with wild excitement. One had yellow frilly hair and one had +brown bobbed hair, and both were quaintly, immaculately, expensively +kissable. They were the kind of children every girl wishes she could +have a set like, and hugs when she gets a chance. Mother and children +were making their way, under an awning that crossed the street, to the +matinee of a fairy-play.</p> + +<p>The Liberry Teacher smiled at the children with more than her accustomed +goodwill, and lowered her umbrella quickly to<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_12" id="Page_12">[Pg 12]</a></span> let them pass. The mother +smiled back, a smile that changed, as the Liberry Teacher passed, to +puzzled remembrance. The gay little family went on into the theatre, and +Phyllis Braithwaite hurried on back to her work, trying to think who the +pretty lady could have been, to have seemed to almost remember her. +Somebody who took books out of the library, doubtless. Still the pretty +lady's face did not seem to fit that conjecture, though it still worried +her by its vague familiarity. Finally the solution came, just as Phyllis +was pulling off her raincoat in the dark little cloak-room. She nearly +dropped the coat.</p> + +<p>"Eva Atkinson!" she said.</p> + +<p>Eva Atkinson!... If it had been anybody else but <i>Eva</i>!</p> + +<p>You see, back in long-ago, in the little leisurely windblown New England +town where Phyllis Braithwaite had lived till she was almost eighteen, +there had been a Principal Grocer. And Eva Atkinson had been his +daughter, not so very pretty, not so very pleasant, not so very clever, +and about six years older than Phyllis. Phyllis,<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_13" id="Page_13">[Pg 13]</a></span> as she tried vainly to +make her damp, straight hair go back the way it should, remembered +hearing that Eva had married and come to this city to live. She had +never heard where. And this had been Eva—Eva, by the grace of gold, +radiantly complexioned, wonderfully groomed, beautifully gowned, and +looking twenty-four, perhaps, at most: with a car and a placid +expression and <i>heaps</i> of money, and pretty, clean children! The Liberry +Teacher, severely work-garbed and weather-draggled, jerked herself away +from the small greenish cloak-room mirror that was unkind to you at your +best.</p> + +<p>She dashed down to the basement, harried by her usual panic-stricken +twenty-minutes-late feeling. She had only taken one glance at herself in +the wiggly mirror, but that one had been enough for her peace of mind, +supposing her to have had any left before. She felt as if she wanted to +break all the mirrors in the world, like the wicked queen in the French +fairy-tale.</p> + +<p>Most people rather liked the face Phyllis saw in the mirror; but to her +own eyes, fresh from the dazzling vision of that Eva Atkinson<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_14" id="Page_14">[Pg 14]</a></span> who had +been dowdy and stupid in the far-back time when seventeen-year-old +Phyllis was "growin' up as pretty as a picture," the tired, +twenty-five-year-old, workaday face in the green glass was <i>dreadful</i>. +What made her feel worst—and she entertained the thought with a +whimsical consciousness of its impertinent vanity—was that she'd had so +much more raw material than Eva! And the world had given Eva a chance +because her father was rich. And she, Phyllis, was condemned to be tidy +and accurate, and no more, just because she had to earn her living. That +face in the greenish glass, looking tiredly back at her! She gave a +little out-loud cry of vexation now as she thought of it, two hours +later.</p> + +<p>"I must have looked to Eva like a battered bisque doll—no wonder she +couldn't place me!" she muttered crossly.</p> + +<p>And it must be worse and more of it now, because in the interval between +two and four there had been many little sticky fingers pulling at her +sleeves and skirt, and you just <i>have</i> to cuddle dear little library +children, even when they're not extra clean;<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_15" id="Page_15">[Pg 15]</a></span> and when Vera Aronsohn +burst into heartbroken tears on the Liberry Teacher's blue woolen +shoulder because her pet fairy-book was missing, she had caught several +strands of the Teacher's yellow hair in her anguish, much to the hair's +detriment.</p> + +<p>It was straight, heavy hair, and it would have been of a dense and +fluffy honey-color, only that it was tarnished for lack of the constant +sunnings and brushings which blonde hair must have to stay its best +self. And her skin, too, that should have been a living rose-and-cream, +was dulled by exposure to all weathers, and lack of time to pet it with +creams and powders; perhaps a little, too, by the very stupid things to +eat one gets at a dairy-lunch and boarding-house. Some of the assistants +did interesting cooking over the library gas-range, but the Liberry +Teacher couldn't do that because she hadn't time.</p> + +<p>She went on defiantly thinking about her looks. It isn't a noble-minded +thing to do, but when you might be so very, very pretty if you only had +a little time to be it in—"Yes, I <i>might</i>!" said Phyllis to her +shocked<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_16" id="Page_16">[Pg 16]</a></span> self defiantly.... Yes, the shape of her face was all right +still. Hard work and scant attention couldn't spoil its pretty oval. But +her eyes—well, you can't keep your eyes as blue and luminous and +childlike as they were back in the New England country, when you have +been using them hard for years in a bad light. And oh, they had been +such <i>nice</i> eyes when she was just Phyllis Narcissa at home, so long and +blue and wondering! And now the cataloguing had heavied the lids and +etched a line between her straight brown brows. They weren't decorative +eyes now ... and they filled with indignant self-sympathy. The Liberry +Teacher laughed at herself a little here. The idea of eyes that cried +about themselves was funny, somehow.</p> + +<p>"Direct from producer to consumer!" she quoted half-aloud, and wiped +each eye conscientiously by itself.</p> + +<p>"Teacher! I want a liberry called 'Bride of Lemon Hill!' demanded a +small citizen just here. The school teacher, she says I must to have +it!"</p> + +<p>Phyllis thought hard. But she had to<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_17" id="Page_17">[Pg 17]</a></span> search the pinned-up list of +required reading for schools for three solid minutes before she bestowed +"The Bride of Lammermoor" on a thirteen-year-old daughter of Hungary.</p> + +<p>"This is it, isn't it, honey?" she asked with the flashing smile for +which her children, among other things, adored her.</p> + +<p>"Yes, ma'am, thank you, teacher," said the thirteen-year-old gratefully; +and went off to a corner, where she sat till closing time entranced over +her own happy choice, "The Adventures of Peter Rabbit," with colored +pictures dotting it satisfactorily. The Liberry Teacher knew that it was +her duty to go over and hypnotize the child into reading something which +would lead more directly to Browning and Strindberg. But she didn't.</p> + +<p>"Poor little wop!" she thought unacademically. "Let her be happy in her +own way!"</p> + +<p>And the Liberry Teacher herself went on being unhappy in <i>her</i> own way.</p> + +<p>"I'm just a battered bisque doll!" she repeated to herself bitterly.</p> + +<p>But she was wrong. One is apt to exag<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_18" id="Page_18">[Pg 18]</a></span>gerate things on a workaday +Saturday afternoon. She looked more like a pretty bisque figurine; slim +and clear-cut, and a little neglected, perhaps, by its owners, and +dressed in working clothes instead of the pretty draperies it should +have had; but needing only a touch or so, a little dusting, so to speak, +to be as good as ever.</p> + +<p>"Eva <i>never</i> was as pretty as I was!" her rebellious thoughts went on. +You think things, you know, that you'd never say aloud. "I'm sick of +elevating the public! I'm sick of working hard fifty-one weeks out of +fifty-two for board and lodging and carfare and shirtwaists and the +occasional society of a few girls who don't get any more out of life +than I do! I'm sick of libraries, and of being efficient! I want to be a +real girl! Oh, I wish—I wish I had a lot of money, and a rose-garden, +and a <i>husband</i>!"</p> + +<p>The Liberry Teacher was aghast at herself. She hadn't meant to wish such +a very unmaidenly thing so hard. She jumped up and dashed across the +room and began frantically to shelf-read books, explaining<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_19" id="Page_19">[Pg 19]</a></span> meanwhile +with most violent emphasis to the listening Destinies:</p> + +<p>"I didn't—oh, I <i>didn</i>'t mean a <i>real</i> husband. It isn't that I yearn +to be married to some good man, like an old maid or a Duchess novel. +I—I just want all the lovely things Eva has, or any girl that <i>marries</i> +them, without any trouble but taking care of a man. One man <i>couldn't</i> +but be easier than a whole roomful of library babies. I want to be +looked after, and have time to keep pretty, and a chance to make +friends, and lovely frocks with lots of lace on them, and just months +and months and months when I never had to do anything by a +clock—and—and a rose-garden!"</p> + +<p>This last idea was dangerous. It isn't a good thing, if you want to be +contented with your lot, to think of rose-gardens in a stuffy city +library o' Saturdays; especially when where you were brought up +rose-gardens were one of the common necessities of life; and more +especially when you are tired almost to the crying-point, and have all +the week's big sisters back of it dragging on you, and all its little +sisters to come<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_20" id="Page_20">[Pg 20]</a></span> worrying at you, and—time not up till six.</p> + +<p>But the Liberry Teacher went blindly on straightening shelves nearly as +fast as the children could muss them up, and thinking about that +rose-garden she wanted, with files of masseuses and manicures and French +maids and messenger-boys with boxes banked soothingly behind every bush. +And the thought became too beautiful to dally with.</p> + +<p>"I'd marry <i>anything</i> that would give me a rose-garden!" reiterated the +Liberry Teacher passionately to the Destinies, who are rather catty +ladies, and apt to catch up unguarded remarks you make. "<i>Anything</i>—so +long as it was a gentleman—and he didn't scold me—and—and—I didn't +have to associate with him!" her New England maidenliness added in +haste.</p> + +<p>Then, for the librarian who cannot laugh, like the one who reads, is +supposed in library circles to be lost, Phyllis shook herself and +laughed at herself a little, bravely. Then she collected the most +uproarious of her flock around her and began telling them stories out of +the "Merry Adventures of<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_21" id="Page_21">[Pg 21]</a></span> Robin Hood." It would keep the children quiet, +and her thoughts, too. She put rose-gardens, not to say manicurists and +husbands, severely out of her head. But you can't play fast and loose +with the Destinies that way.</p> + +<p>"Done!" they had replied quietly to her last schedule of requirements. +"We'll send our messenger over right away." It was not their fault that +the Liberry Teacher could not hear them.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_22" id="Page_22">[Pg 22]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="II" id="II"></a>II</h2> + + +<p>He was gray-haired, pink-cheeked, curvingly side-whiskered and +immaculately gray-clad; and he did not look in the least like a +messenger of Fate.</p> + +<p>The Liberry Teacher was at a highly keyed part of her narrative, and +even the most fidgety children were tense and open-mouthed.</p> + +<p>"'And where art thou now?' cried the Stranger to Robin Hood. And Robin +roared with laughter. 'Oh, in the flood, and floating down the stream +with all the little fishes,' said he—" she was relating breathlessly.</p> + +<p>"<i>Tea</i>-cher!" hissed Isaac Rabinowitz, snapping his fingers at her at +this exciting point. "Teacher! There's a guy wants to speak to you!"</p> + +<p>"Aw, shut-<i>tup</i>!" chorused his indignant little schoolmates. "Can't you +see that Teacher's tellin' a story? Go chase yerself! Go do a tango +roun' de block!"</p> + +<p>Isaac, a small Polish Jew with tragic, dark<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_23" id="Page_23">[Pg 23]</a></span> eyes and one suspender, +received these and several more such suggestions with all the calm +impenetrability of his race.</p> + +<p>"Here's de guy," was all he vouchsafed before he went back to the +unsocial nook where, afternoon by faithful afternoon, he read away at a +fat three-volume life of Alexander Hamilton.</p> + +<p>The Liberry Teacher looked up without stopping her story, and smiled a +familiar greeting to the elderly gentleman, who was waiting a little +uncertainly at the Children's Room door, and had obviously been looking +for her in vain. He smiled and nodded in return.</p> + +<p>"Just a minute, please, Mr. De Guenther," said the Liberry Teacher +cheerfully.</p> + +<p>The elderly gentleman nodded again, crossed to Isaac and his ponderous +volumes, and began to talk to him with that benign lack of haste which +usually means a very competent personality. Phyllis hurried somewhat +with Robin Hood among his little fishes, and felt happier. It was +always, in her eventless life, something of a pleasant<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_24" id="Page_24">[Pg 24]</a></span> adventure to +have Mr. De Guenther or his wife drop in to see her. There was usually +something pleasant at the end of it.</p> + +<p>They were an elderly couple whom she had known for some years. They were +so leisurely and trim and gentle-spoken that long ago, when she was only +a timorous substitute behind the circle of the big charging-desk, she +had picked them both out as people-you'd-like-if-you-got-the-chance. +Then she had waited on them, and identified them by their cards as +belonging to the same family. Then, one day, with a pleased little +quiver of joy, she had found him in the city Who's Who, age, profession +(he was a corporation lawyer), middle names, favorite recreation, and +all. Gradually she had come to know them both very well in a waiting-on +way. She often chose love-stories that ended happily and had colored +illustrations for Mrs. De Guenther when she was at home having +rheumatism; she had saved more detective stories for Mr. De Guenther +than her superiors ever knew; and once she had found his black-rimmed +eye-glasses where he had left them between the pages<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_25" id="Page_25">[Pg 25]</a></span> of the Pri-Zuz +volume of the encyclopedia, and mailed them to him.</p> + +<p>When she had vanished temporarily from sight into the nunnery-promotion +of the cataloguing room the De Guenthers had still remembered her. Twice +she had been asked to Sunday dinner at their house, and had joyously +gone and remembered it as joyously for months afterward. Now that she +was out in the light of partial day again, in the Children's Room, she +ran across both of them every little while in her errands upstairs; and +once Mrs. De Guenther, gentle, lorgnetted and gray-clad, had been shown +over the Children's Room. The couple lived all alone in a great, +handsome old house that was being crowded now by the business district. +She had always thought that if she were a Theosophist she would try to +plan to have them for an uncle and aunt in her next incarnation. They +suited her exactly for the parts.</p> + +<p>But it's a long way down to the basement where city libraries are apt to +keep their children, and the De Guenthers hadn't been down there since +the last time they<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_26" id="Page_26">[Pg 26]</a></span> asked her to dinner. And here, with every sign of +having come to say something <i>very</i> special, stood Mr. De Guenther! +Phyllis' irrepressibly cheerful disposition gave a little jump toward +the light. But she went on with her story—business before pleasure!</p> + +<p>However, she did manage to get Robin Hood out of his brook a little more +quickly than she had planned. She scattered her children with a swift +executive whisk, and made so straight for her friend that she deceived +the children into thinking they were going to see him expelled, and they +banked up and watched with anticipatory grins.</p> + +<p>"I do hope you want to see me especially!" she said brightly.</p> + +<p>The children, disappointed, relaxed their attention.</p> + +<p>Mr. De Guenther rose slowly and neatly from his seat beside the rather +bored Isaac Rabinowitz, who dived into his book again with alacrity.</p> + +<p>"Good afternoon, Miss Braithwaite," he said in the amiably precise voice +which matched so admirably his beautifully precise<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_27" id="Page_27">[Pg 27]</a></span> movements and his +immaculate gray spats. "Yes. In the language of our young friend here, +'I am the guy.'"</p> + +<p>Phyllis giggled before she thought. Some people in the world always make +your spirits go up with a bound, and the De Guenther pair invariably had +that effect on her.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Mr. De Guenther!" she said, "I am shocked at you! That's slang!"</p> + +<p>"It was more in the nature of a quotation," said he apologetically. "And +how are you this exceedingly unpleasant day, Miss Braithwaite? We have +seen very little of you lately, Mrs. De Guenther and I."</p> + +<p>The Liberry Teacher, gracefully respectful in her place, wriggled with +invisible impatience over this carefully polite conversational opening. +He had come down here on purpose to see her—there must be something +going to happen, even if it was only a request to save a seven-day book +for Mrs. De Guenther! Nobody ever wanted <i>something</i>, any kind of a +something, to happen more wildly than the Liberry Teacher did<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_28" id="Page_28">[Pg 28]</a></span> that +bored, stickily wet Saturday afternoon, with those tired seven years at +the Greenway Branch dragging at the back of her neck, and the seven +times seven to come making her want to scream. So few things can +possibly happen to you, no matter how good you are, when you work by the +day. And now maybe something—oh, please, the very smallest kind of a +something would be welcomed!—was going to occur. Maybe Mrs. De Guenther +had sent her a ticket to a concert; she had once before. Or maybe, since +you might as well wish for big things while you're at it, it might even +be a ticket to an expensive seat in a real theatre! Her pleasure-hungry, +work-heavy blue eyes burned luminous at the idea.</p> + +<p>"But I really shouldn't wish," she reminded her prancing mind belatedly. +"He may only have come down to talk about the weather. It mayn't any of +it be true."</p> + +<p>So she stood up straight and gravely, and answered very courteously and +holding-tightly all the amiable roundabout remarks the old gentleman was +shoving forward like pawns on a chessboard before the real game<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_29" id="Page_29">[Pg 29]</a></span> begins. +She answered with the same trained cheerfulness she could give her +library children when her head and her disposition ached worst; and even +warmed to a vicious enthusiasm over the state of the streets and the +wetness of the damp weather.</p> + +<p>"He knows lots of real things to say," she complained to herself, "why +doesn't he say them, instead of talking editorials? I suppose this is +his bedside—no, lawyers don't have bedside manners—well, his barside +manner, then——"</p> + +<p>It is difficult to think and listen at the same time: by this time she +had missed a beautiful long paragraph about the Street-Cleaning +Department; and something else, apparently. For her friend was holding +out to her a note addressed to her flowingly in his wife's English hand, +and was saying,</p> + +<p>"—which she has asked me to deliver. I trust you have no imperative +engagement for to-morrow night."</p> + +<p>Something <i>had</i> happened!</p> + +<p>"Why, no!" said the Liberry Teacher delightedly. "No, indeed! Thank you, +and her, too. I'd love to come."<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_30" id="Page_30">[Pg 30]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Teacher!" clamored a small chocolate-colored citizen in a Kewpie +muffler, "my maw she want' a book call' 'Ugwin!' She say it got a yellow +cover an' pictures in it."</p> + +<p>"Just a moment!" said Phyllis; and sent him upstairs with a note asking +for "Hugh Wynne" in the two-volume edition. She was used to translating +that small colored boy's demands. Last week he had described to her a +play he called "Eas' Limb", with the final comment, "But it wan't no +good. 'Twant no limb in it anywhar, ner no trees atall!"</p> + +<p>"Do you have much of that?" Mr. De Guenther asked idly.</p> + +<p>"Lots!" said Phyllis cheerfully. "You take special training in guesswork +at library school. They call them 'teasers'. They say they're good for +your intellect."</p> + +<p>"Ah—yes," said Mr. De Guenther absently in the barside manner.</p> + +<p>And then, sitting calmly with his silvery head against a Washington's +Birthday poster so that three scarlet cherries stuck above him in the +manner of a scalp-lock, he said something else remarkably real:<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_31" id="Page_31">[Pg 31]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I have—we have—a little matter of business to discuss with you +to-morrow night, my dear; an offer, I may say, of a different line of +work. And I want you to satisfy yourself thoroughly—thoroughly, my dear +child, of my reputableness. Mr. Johnstone, the chief of the city +library, whose office I believe to be in this branch, is one of my +oldest friends. I am, I think I may say, well known as a lawyer in this +my native city. I should be glad to have you satisfy yourself personally +on these points, because——" could it be that the eminently poised Mr. +De Guenther was embarrassed? "Because the line of work which I wish, or +rather my wife wishes, to lay before you is—is a very different line of +work!" ended the old gentleman inconclusively. There was no mistake +about it this time—he <i>was</i> embarrassed.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Mr. De Guenther!" cried Phyllis before she thought, out of the +fulness of her heart, catching his arm in her eagerness; "Oh, Mr. De +Guenther, <i>could</i> the Very Different Line of Work have a—have a +<i>rose-garden</i> attached to it anywhere?"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_32" id="Page_32">[Pg 32]</a></span></p> + +<p>Before she was fairly finished she knew what a silly question she had +asked. How could any line of work she was qualified to do possibly have +rose-gardens attached to it? You can't catalogue roses on neat cards, or +improve their minds by the Newark Ladder System, or do anything at all +librarious to them, except pressing them in books to mummify; and the +Liberry Teacher didn't think that was at all a courteous thing to do to +roses. So Mr. De Guenther's reply quite surprised her.</p> + +<p>"There—seems—to be—no good reason," he said, slowly and placidly, as +if he were dropping his words one by one out of a slot;—"why there +should not—be—a very satisfactory rose-garden, or +even—<i>two</i>—connected with it. None—whatever."</p> + +<p>That was all the explanation he offered. But the Liberry Teacher asked +no more. "<i>Oh!</i>" she said rapturously.</p> + +<p>"Then we may expect you to-morrow at seven?" he said; and smiled +politely and moved to the door. He walked out as matter-of-coursely as +if he had dropped in to ask the meaning of "circumflex," or who<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_33" id="Page_33">[Pg 33]</a></span> +invented smallpox, or the name of Adam's house-cat, or how long it would +take her to do a graduation essay for his daughter—or any such little +things that librarians are prepared for most days.</p> + +<p>And instead—his neat gray elderly back seemed to deny it—he had left +with her, the Liberry Teacher, her, dusty, tousled, shopworn Phyllis +Braithwaite, an invitation to consider a Line of Work which was so +mysteriously Different that she had to look up the spotless De Guenther +reputation before she came!</p> + +<p>One loses track of time, staring at a red George Washington poster, and +wondering about a future with a sudden Different Line in it.... It was +ten minutes past putting-out-children time! She stared aghast at the +ruthless clock, then created two Monitors for Putting Out at one royal +sweep. She managed the nightly eviction with such gay expedition that it +almost felt like ten minutes ago when the place, except for the +pride-swollen monitors, was cleared. While these officers watched the +commonalty clumping reluctantly upstairs toward the<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_34" id="Page_34">[Pg 34]</a></span> umbrella-rack, the +Liberry Teacher paced sedately around the shelves, giving the books that +routine straightening they must have before seven struck and the horde +rushed in again. It was really her relieving officer's work, but the +Liberry Teacher felt that her mind needed straightening, too, and this +always seemed to do it.</p> + +<p>She looked, as she moved slowly down along the shelves, very much like +most of the librarians you see; alert, pleasant, slender, a little +dishevelled, a little worn. But there was really no librarian there. +There was only Phyllis Narcissa—that dreaming young Phyllis who had had +to stay pushed out of sight all the seven years that Miss Braithwaite +had been efficiently earning her living.</p> + +<p>She let her mind stray happily as far as it would over the possibilities +Mr. De Guenther had held out to her, and woke to discover herself trying +to find a place under "Domestic Economy—Condiments" for "Five Little +Peppers and How They Grew." She laughed aloud in the suddenly empty +room, and then lifted her head to find Miss<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_35" id="Page_35">[Pg 35]</a></span> Black, the night-duty girl +that week, standing in the doorway ready to relieve guard.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Anna, see what I've done!" she laughed. Somehow everything seemed +merely light-hearted and laughable since Mr. De Guenther's most +fairy-tale visit, with its wild hints of Lines of Work. Anna Black came, +looked, laughed.</p> + +<p>"In the 640's!" she said. "Well, you're liable to do nearly everything +by the time it's Saturday. Last Saturday, Dolly Graham up in the +Circulation was telling me, an old colored mammy said she'd lost her +mittens in the reading-room; and the first they knew Dolly was hunting +through the Woollen Goods classification, and Mary Gayley pawing the +dictionary wildly for m-i-t!"</p> + +<p>"And they found the mittens hung around her neck by the cord," finished +the Liberry Teacher. "I know—it was a thrilling story. Well, good-by +till Monday, Anna Black. I'm going home now, to have some lovely prunes +and some real dried beef, and maybe a glass of almost-milk if I can +persuade the landlady I need it."<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_36" id="Page_36">[Pg 36]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Mine prefers dried apricots," responded Miss Black cheerfully, "but she +never has anything but canned milk in the house, thus sparing us the +embarrassment of asking for real. Good-by—good luck!"</p> + +<p>But as the Liberry Teacher pinned her serviceable hat close, and +fastened her still good raincoat over her elderly sweater, neither +prunes nor mittens nor next week's work worried her at all. After all, +living among the fairy-stories with the Little People makes that +pleasant land where wanting is having, and all the impossibilities can +come true, very easy of access. Phyllis Braithwaite's mind, as she +picked her way down the bedraggled street, wandered innocently off in a +dream-place full of roses, till the muddy marble steps of her +boarding-place gleamed sloppily before her through the foggy rain.</p> + +<p>She sat up late that night, doing improving things to the white net +waist that went with her best suit, which was black. As her needle +nibbled busily down the seams she continued happily to wonder about that +Entirely Different Line. It sounded<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_37" id="Page_37">[Pg 37]</a></span> to her more like a reportership on +a yellow journal than anything else imaginable. Or, perhaps, could she +be wanted to join the Secret Service?</p> + +<p>"At any rate," she concluded light-heartedly, as she stitched the last +clean ruching into the last wrist-covering, sedate sleeve, "at any rate +I'll have a chance to-morrow to wear mother's gold earrings that I +mustn't have on in the library. And oh, how lovely it will be to have a +dinner that wasn't cooked by a poor old bored boarding-house cook or a +shiny tiled syndicate!"</p> + +<p>And she went to bed—to dream of Entirely Different Lines all the colors +of the rainbow, that radiated out from the Circulation Desk like +tight-ropes. She never remembered Eva Atkinson's carefully prettied +face, or her own vivid, work-worn one, at all. She only dreamed that far +at the end of the pink Entirely Different Line—a very hard one to +walk—there was a rose-garden exactly like a patchwork quilt, where she +was to be.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_38" id="Page_38">[Pg 38]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="III" id="III"></a>III</h2> + + +<p>When Phyllis woke next morning everything in the world had a +light-hearted, holiday feeling. Her Sundays, gloriously unoccupied, +generally did, but this was extra-special. The rain had managed to clear +away every vestige of last week's slush, and had then itself most +unselfishly retired down the gutters. The sun shone as if May had come, +and the wind, through the Liberry Teacher's window, had a springy, +pussy-willowy, come-for-a-walk-in-the-country feel to it. She found that +she had slept too late to go to church, and prepared for a joyful dash +to the boarding-house bathtub. There might be—who knew but there +actually might be—on this day of days, enough hot water for a real +bath!</p> + +<p>"I feel as if everything was going to be lovely all day!" she said +without preface to old black Maggie, who was clumping her accustomed +bed-making way along the halls, with her woolly head tied up in her +Sunday silk handkerchief. Even she looked happier,<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_39" id="Page_39">[Pg 39]</a></span> Phyllis thought, +than she had yesterday. She grinned broadly at Phyllis, leaning +smilingly against the door in her kimona.</p> + +<p>"Ah dunno, Miss Braithways," she said, and entered the room and took a +pillow-case-corner in her mouth. "Ah never has dem premeditations!"</p> + +<p>Phyllis laughed frankly, and Maggie, much flattered at the happy +reception of her reply, grinned so widely that you might almost have +tied her mouth behind her ears.</p> + +<p>"You sure is a cheerful person, Miss Braithways!" said Maggie, and went +on making the bed.</p> + +<p>Phyllis fled on down the hall, laughing still. She had just remembered +another of old Maggie's compliments, made on one of the rare occasions +when Phyllis had sat down and sung to the boarding-house piano. (She +hadn't been able to do it long, because the Mental Science Lady on the +next floor had sent down word that it stopped her from concentrating, +and as she had a very expensive room there was nothing for the landlady +to do but make Phyllis<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_40" id="Page_40">[Pg 40]</a></span> stop.) Phyllis had come out in the hall to find +old Maggie listening rapturously.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Miss Braithways!" she had murmured, rolling her eyes, "you +certainly does equalize a martingale!"</p> + +<p>It had been a compliment Phyllis never forgot. She smiled to herself as +she found the bathroom door open. Why, the world was full of a number of +things, many of them funny. Being a Liberry Teacher was rather nice, +after all, when you were fresh from a long night's sleep. And if that +Mental Science Lady <i>wouldn't</i> let her play the piano, why, her +thrilling tales of what she could do when her mind was unfettered were +worth the price. That story she told so seriously about how the pipes +burst—and the plumber wouldn't come, and "My dear, I gave those pipes +only half an hour's treatment, and they closed right up!" It was quite +as much fun—well, almost as much—hearing her, as it would have been to +play.</p> + +<p>... All of the contented, and otherwise, elderly people who inhabited +the boarding-house with Phyllis appeared to<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_41" id="Page_41">[Pg 41]</a></span> have gone off without using +hot water, for there actually was some. The Liberry Teacher found that +she could have a genuine bath, and have enough water besides to wash her +hair, which is a rite all girls who work have to reserve for Sundays. +This was surely a day of days!</p> + +<p>She used the water—alas for selfish human nature!—to the last warm +drop and went gayly back to her little room with no emotions whatever +for the poor other boarders, soon to find themselves wrathfully +hot-waterless. And then—she thoughtlessly curled down on the bed, and +slept and slept and slept! She wakened dimly in time for the one o'clock +dinner, dressed, and ate it in a half-sleep. She went back upstairs +planning a trolley-ride that should take her out into the country, where +a long walk might be had. And midway in changing her shoes she lay back +across the bed and—fell asleep again. The truth was, Phyllis was about +as tired as a girl can get.</p> + +<p>She waked at dusk, with a jerk of terror lest she should have overslept +her time for going out. But it was only six. She had a<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_42" id="Page_42">[Pg 42]</a></span> whole hour to +prink in, which is a very long time for people who are used to being in +the library half-an-hour after the alarm-clock wakes them.</p> + +<hr style='width: 45%;' /> + +<p>Some houses, all of themselves, and before you meet a soul who lives in +them, are silently indifferent to you. Some make you feel that you are +not wanted in the least; these usually have a lot of gilt furniture, and +what are called objects of art set stiffly about. Some seem to be having +an untidy good time all to themselves, in which you are not included.</p> + +<p>The De Guenther house, staid and softly toned, did none of these things. +It gave the Liberry Teacher, in her neat, last year's best suit, a +feeling as of gentle welcome-home. She felt contented and <i>belonging</i> +even before quick-smiling, slender little Mrs. De Guenther came rustling +gently in to greet her. Then followed Mr. De Guenther, pleasant and +unperturbed as usual, and after him an agreeable, back-arching gray cat, +who had copied his master's walk as exactly as it can be done with four +feet.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_43" id="Page_43">[Pg 43]</a></span></p> + +<p>All four sat amiably about the room and held precise and pleasant +converse, something like a cheerful essay written in dialogue, about +many amusing, intelligent things which didn't especially matter. The +Liberry Teacher liked it. It was pleasant beyond words to sit nestlingly +in a pluffy chair, and hear about all the little lightly-treated +scholarly day-before-yesterday things her father had used to talk of. +She carried on her own small part in the talk blithely enough. She +approved of herself and the way she was behaving, which makes very much +for comfort. There was only once that she was ashamed of herself, and +thought about it in bed afterwards and was mortified; when her eyes +filled with quick tears at a quite dry and unemotional—indeed, rather a +sarcastic—quotation from Horace on the part of Mr. De Guenther. But she +smiled, when she saw that they noticed her.</p> + +<p>"That's the first time I've heard a Latin quotation since I came away +from home," she found herself saying quite simply in explanation, "and +Father quoted Horace<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_44" id="Page_44">[Pg 44]</a></span> so much every day that—that I felt as if an old +friend had walked in!"</p> + +<p>But her hosts didn't seem to mind. Mr. De Guenther in his careful +evening clothes looked swiftly across at Mrs. De Guenther in her +gray-silk-and-cameo, and they both nodded little satisfied nods, as if +she had spoken in a way that they were glad to hear. And then dinner was +served, a dinner as different—well, she didn't want to remember in its +presence the dinners it differed from; they might have clouded the +moment. She merely ate it with a shameless inward joy.</p> + +<p>It ended, still to a pleasant effortless accompaniment of talk about +books and music and pictures that Phyllis was interested in, and had +found nobody to share her interest with for so long—so long! She felt +happily running though everything the general, easy taking-for-granted +of all the old, gentle, inflexible standards of breeding that she had +nearly forgotten, down in the heart of the city among her obstreperous, +affectionate little foreigners.</p> + +<p>They had coffee in the long old-fashioned<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_45" id="Page_45">[Pg 45]</a></span> salon parlor, and then Mr. De +Guenther straightened himself, and Mrs. De Guenther folded her veined, +ringed old white hands, and Phyllis prepared thrilledly to listen. +Surely now she would hear about that Different Line of Work.</p> + +<p>There was nothing, at first, about work of any sort. They merely began +to tell her alternately about some clients of theirs, a Mrs. Harrington +and her son: rather interesting people, from what Phyllis could make +out. She wondered if she was going to hear that they needed a librarian.</p> + +<p>"This lady, my client, Mrs. Harrington," continued her host gravely, "is +the one for whom I may ask you to consider doing some work. I say may, +but it is a practical certainty. She is absolutely alone, my dear Miss +Braithwaite, except for her son. I am afraid I must ask you to listen to +a long story about them."</p> + +<p>It was coming!</p> + +<p>"Oh, but I want to hear!" said Phyllis, with that quick, affectionate +sympathy of hers that was so winning, leaning forward and watching them +with the lighted look<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_46" id="Page_46">[Pg 46]</a></span> in her blue eyes. It all seemed to her tired, +alert mind like some story she might have read to her children, an +Arabian Nights narrative which might begin, "And the Master of the +House, ascribing praise unto Allah, repeated the following Tale."</p> + +<p>"There have always been just the two of them, mother and son," said the +Master of the House. "And Allan has always been a very great deal to his +mother."</p> + +<p>"Poor Angela!" murmured his wife.</p> + +<p>"They are old friends of ours," her husband explained. "My wife and Mrs. +Harrington were schoolmates.</p> + +<p>"Well, Allan, the boy, grew up, dowered with everything a mother could +possibly desire for her son, personally and otherwise. He was handsome +and intelligent, with much charm of manner."</p> + +<p>"I know now what people mean by 'talking like a book,'" thought Phyllis +irreverently. "And I don't believe any one man <i>could</i> be all that!"</p> + +<p>"There was practically nothing," Mr. De Guenther went on, "which the +poor lad had not. That was one trouble, I imagine. If<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_47" id="Page_47">[Pg 47]</a></span> he had not been +highly intelligent he would not have studied so hard; if he had not been +strong and active he might not have taken up athletic sports so +whole-heartedly; and when I add that Allan possessed charm, money and +social status you may see that what he did would have broken down most +young fellows. In short, he kept studies, sports and social affairs all +going at high pressure during his four years of college. But he was +young and strong, and might not have felt so much ill effects from all +that; though his doctors said afterwards that he was nearly at the +breaking point when he graduated."</p> + +<p>Phyllis bent closer to the story-teller in her intense interest. Why, it +<i>was</i> like one of her fairy-tales! She held her breath to listen, while +the old lawyer went gravely on.</p> + +<p>"Allan could not have been more than twenty-two when he graduated, and +it was a very short while afterwards that he became engaged to a young +girl, the daughter of a family friend. Louise Frey was her name, was it +not, love?"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_48" id="Page_48">[Pg 48]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Yes, that is right," said his wife, "Louise Frey."</p> + +<p>"A beautiful girl," he went on, "dark, with a brilliant color, and full +of life and good spirits. They were both very young, but there was no +good reason why the marriage should be delayed, and it was set for the +following September."</p> + +<p>A princess, too, in the story! But—where had she gone? "The two of them +only," he had said.</p> + +<p>"It must have been scarcely a month," the story went on—Mr. De Guenther +was telling it as if he were stating a case—"nearly a month before the +date set for the wedding, when the lovers went for a long automobile +ride, across a range of mountains near a country-place where they were +both staying. They were alone in the machine.</p> + +<p>"Allan, of course, was driving, doubtless with a certain degree of +impetuosity, as he did most things.... They were on an unfrequented part +of the road," said Mr. De Guenther, lowering his voice, "when there +occurred an unforeseen wreckage in<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_49" id="Page_49">[Pg 49]</a></span> the car's machinery. The car was +thrown over and badly splintered. Both young people were pinned under +it.</p> + +<p>"So far as he knew at the time, Allan was not injured, nor was he in any +pain; but he was held in absolute inability to move by the car above +him. Miss Frey, on the contrary, was badly hurt, and in suffering. She +died in about three hours, a little before relief came to them."</p> + +<p>Phyllis clutched the arms of her chair, thrilled and wide-eyed. She +could imagine all the horror of the happening through the old lawyer's +precise and unemotional story. The boy-lover, pinioned, helpless, +condemned to watch his sweetheart dying by inches, and unable to help +her by so much as lifting a hand—could anything be more awful not only +to endure, but to remember?</p> + +<p>"And yet," she thought whimsically, "it mightn't be so bad to have one +<i>real</i> tragedy to remember, if you haven't anything else! All <i>I'll</i> +have to remember when I'm old will be bad little children and good +little children, and books and boarding-houses, and the recollection +that people said I was a very<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_50" id="Page_50">[Pg 50]</a></span> worthy young woman once!" But she threw +off the thought. It's just as well not to think of old age when all the +idea brings up is a vision of a nice, clean Old Ladies' Home.</p> + +<p>"But you said he was an invalid?" she said aloud.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I regret to say," answered Mr. De Guenther. "You see, it was found +that the shock to the nerves, acting on an already over-keyed mind and +body, together with some spinal blow concerning which the doctors are +still in doubt, had affected Allan's powers of locomotion." (Mr. De +Guenther certainly did like long words!) "He has been unable to walk +since. And, which is sadder, his state of mind and body has become +steadily worse. He can scarcely move at all now, and his mental attitude +can only be described as painfully morbid—yes, I may say <i>very</i> +painfully morbid. Sometimes he does not speak at all for days together, +even to his mother, or his attendant."</p> + +<p>"Oh, poor boy!" said Phyllis. "How long has he been this way?"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_51" id="Page_51">[Pg 51]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Seven years this fall," the answer came consideringly. "Is it not, +love?"</p> + +<p>"Yes," said his wife, "seven years."</p> + +<p>"<i>Oh!</i>" said the Liberry Teacher, with a quick catch of sympathy at her +heart.</p> + +<p>Just as long as she had been working for her living in the big, dusty +library. Supposing—oh, supposing she'd had to live all that time in +such suffering as this poor Allan had endured and his mother had had to +witness! She felt suddenly as if the grimy, restless Children's Room, +with its clatter of turbulent little outland voices, were a safe, sunny +paradise in comparison.</p> + +<p>Mr. De Guenther did not speak. He visibly braced himself and was visibly +ill-at-ease.</p> + +<p>"I have told most of the story, Isabel, love," said he at last. "Would +you not prefer to tell the rest? It is at your instance that I have +undertaken this commission for Mrs. Harrington, you will remember."</p> + +<p>It struck Phyllis that he didn't think it was quite a dignified +commission, at that.</p> + +<p>"Very well, my dear," said his wife, and took up the tale in her swift, +soft voice.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_52" id="Page_52">[Pg 52]</a></span></p> + +<p>"You can fancy, my dear Miss Braithwaite, how intensely his mother has +felt about it."</p> + +<p>"Indeed, yes!" said Phyllis pitifully.</p> + +<p>"Her whole life, since the accident, has been one long devotion to her +son. I don't think a half-hour ever passes that she does not see him. +But in spite of this constant care, as my husband has told you, he grows +steadily worse. And poor Angela has finally broken under the strain. She +was never strong. She is dying now—they give her maybe two months more.</p> + +<p>"Her one anxiety, of course, is for poor Allan's welfare. You can +imagine how you would feel if you had to leave an entirely helpless son +or brother to the mercies of hired attendants, however faithful. And +they have no relatives—they are the last of the family."</p> + +<p>The listening girl began to see. She was going to be asked to act as +nurse, perhaps attendant and guardian, to this morbid invalid with the +injured mind and body.</p> + + +<div class="figcenter" style="width: 460px;"> +<img src="images/illus-055.jpg" width="460" height="600" alt="NO," SAID MRS. DE GUENTHER GRAVELY." title="" /> +<span class="caption">"NO," SAID MRS. DE GUENTHER GRAVELY. "YOU WOULD NOT. YOU +WOULD HAVE TO BE HIS WIFE"</span> +</div> + + +<p>"But how would I be any better for him<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_53" id="Page_53">[Pg 53]</a></span> than a regular trained nurse?" +she wondered. "And they said he had an attendant."</p> + +<p>She looked questioningly at the pair.</p> + +<p>"Where does my part come in?" she asked with a certain sweet directness +which was sometimes hers. "Wouldn't I be a hireling too if—if I had +anything to do with it?"</p> + +<p>"No," said Mrs. De Guenther gravely. "You would not. You would have to +be his wife."<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_54" id="Page_54">[Pg 54]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="IV" id="IV"></a>IV</h2> + + +<p>The Liberry Teacher, in her sober best suit, sat down in her entirely +commonplace chair in the quiet old parlor, and looked unbelievingly at +the sedate elderly couple who had made her this wild proposition. She +caught her breath. But catching her breath did not seem to affect +anything that had been said. Mr. De Guenther took up the explanation +again, a little deprecatingly, she thought.</p> + +<p>"You see now why I requested you to investigate our reputability?" he +said. "Such a proposition as this, especially to a young lady who has no +parent or guardian, requires a considerable guarantee of good faith and +honesty of motive."</p> + +<p>"Will you please tell me more about it?" she asked quietly. She did not +feel now as if it were anything which had especially to do with her. It +seemed more like an interesting story she was unravelling sentence by +sentence. The long, softly lighted old room, with its Stuarts and<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_55" id="Page_55">[Pg 55]</a></span> +Sullys, and its gracious, gray-haired host and hostess, seemed only a +picturesque part of it.... Her hostess caught up the tale again.</p> + +<p>"Angela has been nearly distracted," she said. "And the idea has come to +her that if she could find some conscientious woman, a lady, and a +person to whom what she could offer would be a consideration, who would +take charge of poor Allan, that she could die in peace."</p> + +<p>"But why did you think of asking me?" the girl asked breathlessly. "And +why does she want me married to him? And how could you or she be sure +that I would not be as much of a hireling as any nurse she may have +now?"</p> + +<p>Mrs. De Guenther answered the last two questions together.</p> + +<p>"Mrs. Harrington's idea is, and I think rightly, that a conscientious +woman would feel the marriage tie, however nominal, a bond that would +obligate her to a certain duty toward her husband. As to why we selected +you, my dear, my husband and I have had an interest in you for<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_56" id="Page_56">[Pg 56]</a></span> some +years, as you know. We have spoken of you as a girl whom we should like +for a relative——"</p> + +<p>"Why, isn't that strange?" cried Phyllis, dimpling. "That's just what +I've thought about you!"</p> + +<p>Mrs. De Guenther flushed, with a delicate old shyness.</p> + +<p>"Thank you, dear child," she said. "I was about to add that we have not +seen you at your work all these years without knowing you to have the +kind heart and sense of honor requisite to poor Angela's plan. We feel +sure you could be trusted to take the place. Mr. De Guenther has asked +his friend Mr. Johnston, the head of the library, such things as we +needed to supplement our personal knowledge of you. You have everything +that could be asked, even to a certain cheerfulness of outlook which +poor Angela, naturally, lacks in a measure."</p> + +<p>"But—but what about <i>me</i>?" asked Phyllis Braithwaite a little +piteously, in answer to all this.</p> + +<p>They seemed so certain she was what they<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_57" id="Page_57">[Pg 57]</a></span> wanted—was there anything in +this wild scheme that would make <i>her</i> life better than it was as the +tired, ill-paid, light-hearted keeper of a roomful of turbulent little +foreigners?</p> + +<p>"Unless you are thinking of marriage—" Phyllis shook her head—"you +would have at least a much easier life than you have now. Mrs. +Harrington would settle a liberal income on you, contingent, of course, +of your faithful wardership over Allan. We would be your only judges as +to that. You would have a couple or more months of absolute freedom +every year, control of much of your own time, ample leisure to enjoy it. +You would give only your chances of actual marriage for perhaps five +years, for poor Allan cannot live longer than that at his present state +of retrogression, and some part of every day to seeing that Allan was +not neglected. If you bestow on him half of the interest and effort I +have known of your giving any one of a dozen little immigrant boys, his +mother has nothing to fear for him."</p> + +<p>Mr. De Guenther stopped with a grave<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_58" id="Page_58">[Pg 58]</a></span> little bow, and he and his wife +waited for the reply.</p> + +<p>The Liberry Teacher sat silent, her eyes on her slim hands, that were +roughened and reddened by constant hurried washings to get off the dirt +of the library books. It was true—a good deal of it, anyhow. And one +thing they had not said was true also: her sunniness and accuracy and +strength, her stock-in-trade, were wearing thin under the pressure of +too long hours and too hard work and too few personal interests. Her +youth was worn down. And—marriage? What chance of love and marriage had +she, a working-girl alone, too poor to see anything of the class of men +she would be willing to marry? She had not for years spent six hours +with a man of her own kind and age. She had not even been specially in +love, that she could remember, since she was grown up. She did not feel +much, now, as if she ever would be. All that she had to give up in +taking this offer was her freedom, such as it was—and those fluttering +perhapses that whisper such pleasant promises when you are young. But, +then, she<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_59" id="Page_59">[Pg 59]</a></span> wouldn't be young so <i>very</i> much longer. Should she—she put +it to herself crudely—should she wait long, hard, closed-in years in +the faith that she would learn to be absolutely contented, or that some +man she could love would come to the cheap boarding-house, or the little +church she attended occasionally when she was not too tired, fall in +love with her work-dimmed looks at sight, and—marry her? It had not +happened all these years while her girlhood had been more attractive and +her personality more untired. There was scarcely a chance in a hundred +for her of a kind lover-husband and such dear picture-book children as +she had seen Eva Atkinson convoying. Well—her mind suddenly came up +against the remembrance, as against a sober fact, that in her passionate +wishings of yesterday she had not wished for a lover-husband, nor for +children. She had asked for a husband who would give her money, and +leisure to be rested and pretty, and—a rose-garden! And here, +apparently, was her wish uncannily fulfilled.</p> + +<p>"Well, what are you going to do about<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_60" id="Page_60">[Pg 60]</a></span> it?" inquired the Destinies with +their traditional indifference. "We can't wait all night!"</p> + +<p>She lifted her head and cast an almost frightened look at the De +Guenthers, waiting courteously for her decision. In reply to the look, +Mr. De Guenther began giving her details about the money, and the +leisure time, and the business terms of the contract generally. She +listened attentively. All that—for a little guardianship, a little +kindness, and the giving-up of a little piece of life nobody wanted and +a few little hopes and dreams!</p> + +<p>Phyllis laughed, as she always did when there were big black problems to +be solved.</p> + +<p>"After all, it's fairly usual," she said. "I heard last week of a woman +who left money along with her pet dog, very much the same way."</p> + +<p>"Did you? Did you, dear?" asked Mrs. De Guenther, beaming. "Then you +think you will do it?"</p> + +<p>The Liberry Teacher rose, and squared her straight young shoulders under +the worn net waist.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_61" id="Page_61">[Pg 61]</a></span></p> + +<p>"If Mrs. Harrington thinks I'll do for the situation!" she said +gallantly,—and laughed again.</p> + +<hr style='width: 45%;' /> + +<p>"It feels partly like going into a nunnery and partly like going into a +fairy-story," she said to herself that night as she wound her alarm. +"But—I wonder if anybody's remembered to ask the consent of the +groom!"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_62" id="Page_62">[Pg 62]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="V" id="V"></a>V</h2> + + +<p>He looked like a young Crusader on a tomb. That was Phyllis's first +impression of Allan Harrington. He talked and acted, if a moveless man +can be said to act, like a bored, spoiled small boy. That was her +second.</p> + +<p>Mrs. Harrington, fragile, flushed, breathlessly intense in her +wheel-chair, had yet a certain resemblance in voice and gesture to Mrs. +De Guenther—a resemblance which puzzled Phyllis till she placed it as +the mark of that far-off ladies' school they had attended together. +There was also a graceful, mincing white wolfhound which, contrary to +the accepted notion of invalids' faithful hounds, didn't seem to care +for his master's darkened sick-room at all, but followed the one sunny +spot in Mrs. Harrington's room with a wistful persistence. It was such a +small spot for such a long wolfhound—that was the principal thing which +impressed itself on Phyllis's frightened mind throughout her visit.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_63" id="Page_63">[Pg 63]</a></span></p> + +<p>Mrs. De Guenther convoyed her to the Harrington house for inspection a +couple of days after she had accepted some one's proposal to marry Allan +Harrington. (Whether it counted as her future mother-in-law's proposal, +or her future trustee's, she was never sure. The only sure thing was +that it did not come from the groom.) She had borrowed a half-day from +the future on purpose, though she did not want to go at all. But the +reality was not bad; only a fluttering, emotional little woman who clung +to her hands and talked to her and asked useless questions with a +nervous insistence which would have been nerve-wearing for a steady +thing, but was only pitiful to a stranger.</p> + +<p>You see strange people all the time in library work, and learn to place +them, at length, with almost as much accuracy as you do your books. The +fact that Mrs. Harrington was not long for this world did not prevent +Phyllis from classing her, in her mental card-catalogue, as a very +perfect specimen of the Loving Nagger. She was lying back, wrapped in +something gray and<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_64" id="Page_64">[Pg 64]</a></span> soft, when her visitors came, looking as if the +lifting of her hand would be an effort. She was evidently pitifully +weak. But she had, too, an ineradicable vitality she could summon at +need. She sprang almost upright to greet her visitors, a hand out to +each, an eager flood of words on her lips.</p> + +<p>"And you are Miss Braithwaite, that is going to look after my boy?" she +ended. "Oh, it is so good of you—I am so glad—I can go in peace now. +Are you sure—sure you will know the minute his attendants are the least +bit negligent? I watch and watch them all the time. I tell Allan to ring +for me if anything ever is the least bit wrong—I am always begging him +to remember. I go in every night and pray with him—do you think you +could do that? But I always cry so before I'm through—I cry and cry—my +poor, helpless boy—he was so strong and bright! And you are sure you +are conscientious——"</p> + +<p>At this point Phyllis stopped the flow of Mrs. Harrington's conversation +firmly, if sweetly.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_65" id="Page_65">[Pg 65]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Yes, indeed," she said cheerfully. "But you know, if I'm not, Mr. De +Guenther can stop all my allowance. It wouldn't be to my own interest +not to fulfil my duties faithfully."</p> + +<p>"Yes, that is true," said Mrs. Harrington. "That was a good thought of +mine. My husband always said I was an unusual woman where business was +concerned."</p> + +<p>So they went on the principle that she had no honor beyond working for +what she would get out of it! Although she had made the suggestion +herself, Phyllis's cheeks burned, and she was about to answer sharply. +Then somehow the poor, anxious, loving mother's absolute preoccupation +with her son struck her as right after all.</p> + +<p>"If it were my son," thought Phyllis, "I wouldn't worry about any +strange hired girl's feelings either, maybe. I'd just think about +him.... I promise I'll look after Mr. Harrington's welfare as if he were +my own brother!" she ended aloud impulsively. "Indeed, you may trust +me."</p> + +<p>"I am—sure you will," panted Mrs. Harrington. "You look like—a good +girl,<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_66" id="Page_66">[Pg 66]</a></span> and—and old enough to be responsible—twenty-eight—thirty?"</p> + +<p>"Not very far from that," said Phyllis serenely.</p> + +<p>"And you are sure you will know when the attendants are neglectful? I +speak to them all the time, but I never can be sure.... And now you'd +better see poor Allan. This is one of his good days. Just think, dear +Isabel, he spoke to me twice without my speaking to him this morning!"</p> + +<p>"Oh—must I?" asked Phyllis, dismayed. "Couldn't I wait till—till it +happens?"</p> + +<p>Mrs. Harrington actually laughed a little at her shyness, lighting up +like a girl. Phyllis felt dimly, though she tried not to, that through +it all her mother-in-law-elect was taking pleasure in the dramatic side +of the situation she had engineered.</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear, you must see him. He expects you," she answered almost +gayly. The procession of three moved down the long room towards a door, +Phyllis's hand guiding the wheel-chair. She was surprised to find +herself shaking with fright. Just what she expected to find beyond the +door<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_67" id="Page_67">[Pg 67]</a></span> she did not know, but it must have been some horror, for it was +with a heart-bound of wild relief that she finally made out Allan +Harrington, lying white in the darkened place.</p> + +<p>A Crusader on a tomb. Yes, he looked like that. In the room's half-dusk +the pallor of his still, clear-featured face and his long, clear-cut +hands was nearly the same as the whiteness of the couch-draperies. His +hair, yellow-brown and waving, flung back from his forehead like a +crest, and his dark brows and lashes made the only note of darkness +about him. To Phyllis's beauty-loving eyes he seemed so perfect an image +that she could have watched him for hours.</p> + +<p>"Here's Miss Braithwaite, my poor darling," said his mother. "The young +lady we have been talking about so long."</p> + +<p>The Crusader lifted his eyelids and let them fall again.</p> + +<p>"Is she?" he said listlessly.</p> + +<p>"Don't you want to talk to her, darling boy?" his mother persisted, half +out of breath, but still full of that unrebuffable, loving energy and +insistence which she<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_68" id="Page_68">[Pg 68]</a></span> would probably keep to the last minute of her +life.</p> + +<p>"No," said the Crusader, still in those empty, listless tones. "I'd +rather not talk. I'm tired."</p> + +<p>His mother seemed not at all put out.</p> + +<p>"Of course, darling," she said, kissing him. She sat by him still, +however, and poured out sentence after sentence of question, insistence, +imploration, and pity, eliciting no answer at all. Phyllis wondered how +it would feel to have to lie still and have that done to you for a term +of years. The result of her wonderment was a decision to forgive her +unenthusiastic future bridegroom for what she had at first been ready to +slap him.</p> + +<p>Presently Mrs. Harrington's breath flagged, and the three women went +away, back to the room they had been in before. Phyllis sat and let +herself be talked to for a little longer. Then she rose impulsively.</p> + +<p>"May I go back and see your son again for just a minute?" she asked, and +had gone before Mrs. Harrington had finished her<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_69" id="Page_69">[Pg 69]</a></span> permission. She darted +into the dark room before her courage had time to fail, and stood by the +white couch again.</p> + +<p>"Mr. Harrington," she said clearly, "I'm sorry you're tired, but I'm +afraid I am going to have to ask you to listen to me. You know, don't +you, that your mother plans to have me marry you, for a sort of +interested head-nurse? Are you willing to have it happen? Because I +won't do it unless you really prefer it."</p> + +<p>The heavy white lids half-lifted again.</p> + +<p>"I don't mind," said Allan Harrington listlessly. "I suppose you are +quiet and trustworthy, or De Guenther wouldn't have sent you. It will +give mother a little peace and it makes no difference to me."</p> + +<p>He closed his eyes and the subject at the same time.</p> + +<p>"Well, then, that's all right," said Phyllis cheerfully, and started to +go. Then, drawn back by a sudden, nervous temper-impulse, she moved back +on him. "And let me tell you," she added, half-laughing, +half-impertinently, "that if you ever get into my quiet, trustworthy +clutches you may have an<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_70" id="Page_70">[Pg 70]</a></span> awful time! You're a very spoiled invalid."</p> + +<p>She whisked out of the room before he could have gone very far with his +reply. But he had not cared to reply, apparently. He lay unmoved and +unmoving.</p> + +<p>Phyllis discovered, poising breathless on the threshold, that somehow +she had seen his eyes. They had been a little like the wolfhound's, a +sort of wistful gold-brown.</p> + +<p>For some reason she found that Allan Harrington's attitude of absolute +detachment made the whole affair seem much easier for her. And when Mrs. +Harrington slipped a solitaire diamond into her hand as she went, +instead of disliking it she enjoyed its feel on her finger, and the +flash of it in the light. She thanked Mrs. Harrington for it with real +gratitude. But it made her feel more than ever engaged to marry her +mother-in-law.</p> + +<p>She walked home rather silently with Mrs. De Guenther. Only at the foot +of the De Guenther steps, she made one absent remark.</p> + +<p>"He must have been delightful," she said, "when he was alive!"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_71" id="Page_71">[Pg 71]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="VI" id="VI"></a>VI</h2> + + +<p>After a week of the old bustling, dusty hard work, the Liberry Teacher's +visit to the De Guenthers' and the subsequent one at the Harringtons', +and even her sparkling white ring, seemed part of a queer story she had +finished and put back on the shelf. The ring was the most real thing, +because it was something of a worry. She didn't dare leave it at home, +nor did she want to wear it. She finally sewed it in a chamois bag that +she safety-pinned under her shirt-waist. Then she dismissed it from her +mind also. There is very little time in a Liberry Teacher's life for +meditation. Only once in a while would come to her the vision of the +wistful Harrington wolfhound following his inadequate patch of sunlight, +or of the dusky room where Allan Harrington lay inert and white, and +looking like a wonderful carved statue on a tomb.</p> + +<p>She began to do a little to her clothes, but not very much, because she +had neither<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_72" id="Page_72">[Pg 72]</a></span> time nor money. Mr. De Guenther had wanted her to take some +money in advance, but she had refused. She did not want it till she had +earned it, and, anyway, it would have made the whole thing so real, she +knew, that she would have backed out.</p> + +<p>"And it isn't as if I were going to a lover," she defended herself to +Mrs. De Guenther with a little wistful smile. "Nobody will know what I +have on, any more than they do now."</p> + +<p>Mrs. De Guenther gave a scandalized little cry. Her attitude was +determinedly that it was just an ordinary marriage, as good an excuse +for sentiment and pretty frocks as any other.</p> + +<p>"My dear child," she replied firmly, "you are going to have one pretty +frock and one really good street-suit <i>now</i>, or I will know why! The +rest you may get yourself after the wedding, but you must obey me in +this. Nonsense!—you can get a half-day, as you call it, perfectly well! +What's Albert in politics for, if he can't get favors for his friends!"</p> + +<p>And, in effect, it proved that Albert was<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_73" id="Page_73">[Pg 73]</a></span> in politics to some purpose, +for orders came up from the Head's office within twenty minutes after +Mrs. De Guenther had used the telephone on her husband, that Miss +Braithwaite was to have a half-day immediately—as far as she could make +out, in order to transact city affairs! She felt as if the angels had +told her she could have the last fortnight over again, as a favor, or +something of the sort. A half-day out of turn was something nobody had +ever heard of. She was even too surprised to object to the frock part of +the situation. She tried to stand out a little longer, but it's a very +stoical young woman who can refuse to have pretty clothes bought for +her, and the end of it was a seat in a salon which she had always +considered so expensive that you scarcely ought to look in the window.</p> + +<p>"Had it better be a black suit?" asked Mrs. De Guenther doubtfully, as +the tall lady in floppy charmeuse hovered haughtily about them, +expecting orders. "It seems horrible to buy mourning when dear Angela is +not yet passed away, but it would only<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_74" id="Page_74">[Pg 74]</a></span> be showing proper respect; and I +remember my own dear mother planned all our mourning outfits while she +was dying. It was quite a pleasure to her."</p> + +<p>Phyllis kept her face straight, and slipped one persuasive hand through +her friend's arm.</p> + +<p>"I don't believe I <i>could</i> buy mourning, dear," she said. "And—oh, if +you knew how long I'd wanted a really <i>blue</i> blue suit! Only, it would +have been too vivid to wear well—I always knew that—because you can +only afford one every other year. And"—Phyllis rather diffidently +voiced a thought which had been in the back of her mind for a long +time—"if I'm going to be much around Mr. Harrington, don't you think +cheerful clothes would be best? Everything in that house seems sombre +enough now."</p> + +<p>"Perhaps you are right, dear child," said Mrs. De Guenther. "I hope you +may be the means of putting a great deal of brightness into poor Allan's +life before he joins his mother."</p> + +<p>"Oh, don't!" cried Phyllis impulsively.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_75" id="Page_75">[Pg 75]</a></span> Somehow she could not bear to +think of Allan Harrington's dying. He was too beautiful to be dead, +where nobody could see him any more. Besides, Phyllis privately +considered that a long vacation before he joined his mother would be +only the fair thing for "poor Allan." Youth sides with youth. And—the +clear-cut white lines of him rose in her memory and stayed there. She +could almost hear that poor, tired, toneless voice of his, that was yet +so deep and so perfectly accented.... She bought docilely whatever her +guide directed, and woke from a species of gentle daze at the +afternoon's end to find Mrs. De Guenther beaming with the weary rapture +of the successful shopper, and herself the proprietress of a turquoise +velvet walking-suit, a hat to match, a pale blue evening frock, a pale +green between-dress with lovely clinging lines, and a heavenly white +crepe thing with rosy ribbons and filmy shadow-laces—the negligee of +one's dreams. There were also slippers and shoes and stockings and—this +was really too bad of Mrs. De Guenther—a half-dozen set of<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_76" id="Page_76">[Pg 76]</a></span> lingerie, +straight through. Mrs. De Guenther sat and continued to beam joyously +over the array, in Phyllis's little bedroom.</p> + +<p>"It's my present, dearie," she said calmly. "So you needn't worry about +using Angela's money. Gracious, it's been <i>lovely</i>! I haven't had such a +good time since my husband's little grand-niece came on for a week. +There's nothing like dressing a girl, after all."</p> + +<p>And Phyllis could only kiss her. But when her guest had gone she laid +all the boxes of finery under her bed, the only place where there was +any room. She would not take any of it out, she determined, till her +summons came. But on second thought, she wore the blue velvet +street-suit on Sunday visits to Mrs. Harrington, which became—she never +knew just when or how—a regular thing. The vivid blue made her eyes +nearly sky-color, and brightened her hair very satisfactorily. She was +taking more time and trouble over her looks now—one has to live up to a +turquoise velvet hat and coat! She found<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_77" id="Page_77">[Pg 77]</a></span> herself, too, becoming very +genuinely fond of the restless, anxiously loving, passionate, unwise +child who dwelt in Mrs. Harrington's frail elderly body and had almost +worn it out. She sat, long hours of every Sunday afternoon, holding Mrs. +Harrington's thin little hot hands, and listening to her swift, +italicised monologues about Allan—what he must do, what he must not do, +how he must be looked after, how his mother had treated him, how his +wishes must be ascertained and followed.</p> + +<p>"Though all he wants now is dark and quiet," said his mother piteously. +"I don't even go in there now to cry."</p> + +<p>She spoke as if it were an established ritual. Had she been using her +son's sick-room, Phyllis wondered, as a regular weeping-place? She could +feel in Mrs. Harrington, even in this mortal sickness, the tremendous +driving influence which is often part of a passionately active and not +very wise personality. That certitude and insistence of Mrs. +Harrington's could hammer you finally into believing or doing almost +anything. Phyllis wondered how much<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_78" id="Page_78">[Pg 78]</a></span> his mother's heartbroken adoration +and pity might have had to do with making her son as hopeless-minded as +he was.</p> + +<p>Naturally, the mother-in-law-elect she had acquired in such a strange +way became very fond of Phyllis. But indeed there was something very gay +and sweet and honest-minded about the girl, a something which gave +people the feeling that they were very wise in liking her. Some people +you are fond of against your will. When people cared for Phyllis it was +with a quite irrational feeling that they were doing a sensible thing. +They never gave any of the credit to her very real, though almost +invisible, charm.</p> + +<p>She never saw Allan Harrington on any of the Sunday visits. She was sure +the servants thought she did, for she knew that every one in the great, +dark old house knew her as the young lady who was to marry Mr. Allan. +She believed that she was supposed to be an old family friend, perhaps a +distant relative. She did not want to see Allan. But she did want to be +as good to his little, tensely-loving mother<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_79" id="Page_79">[Pg 79]</a></span> as she could, and reassure +her about Allan's future care. And she succeeded.</p> + +<p>It was on a Friday about two that the summons came. Phyllis had thought +she expected it, but when the call came to her over the library +telephone she found herself as badly frightened as she had been the +first time she went to the Harrington house. She shivered as she laid +down the dater she was using, and called the other librarian to take her +desk. Fortunately, between one and four the morning and evening shifts +overlapped, and there was some one to take her place.</p> + +<p>"Mrs. Harrington cannot last out the night," came Mr. De Guenther's +clear, precise voice over the telephone, without preface. "I have +arranged with Mr. Johnston. You can go at once. You had better pack a +suit-case, for you possibly may not be able to get back to your +boarding-place."</p> + +<p>So it was to happen now! Phyllis felt, with her substitute in her place, +her own wraps on, and her feet taking her swiftly towards her goal, as +if she were offering<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_80" id="Page_80">[Pg 80]</a></span> herself to be made a nun, or have a hand or foot +cut off, or paying herself away in some awful, irrevocable fashion. She +packed, mechanically, all the pretty things Mrs. De Guenther had given +her, and nothing else. She found herself at the door of her room with +the locked suit-case in her hand, and not even a nail-file of the things +belonging to her old self in it. She shook herself together, managed to +laugh a little, and returned and put in such things as she thought she +would require for the night. Then she went. She always remembered that +journey as long as she lived; her hands and feet and tongue going on, +buying tickets, giving directions—and her mind, like a naughty child, +catching at everything as they went, and screaming to be allowed to go +back home, back to the dusty, matter-of-course library and the dreary +little boarding-house bedroom!<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_81" id="Page_81">[Pg 81]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="VII" id="VII"></a>VII</h2> + + +<p>They were all waiting for her, in what felt like a hideously quiet +semicircle, in Allan's great dark room. Mrs. Harrington, deadly pale, +and giving an impression of keeping herself alive only by force of that +wonderful fighting vitality of hers, lay almost at length in her +wheel-chair. There was a clergyman in vestments. There were the De +Guenthers; Mr. De Guenther only a little more precise than his every-day +habit was, Mrs. De Guenther crying a little, softly and furtively.</p> + +<p>As for Allan Harrington, he lay just as she had seen him that other +time, white and moveless, seeming scarcely conscious except by an +effort. Only she noticed a slight contraction, as of pain, between his +brows.</p> + +<p>"Phyllis has come," panted Mrs. Harrington. "Now it will be—all right. +You must marry him quickly—quickly, do you hear, Phyllis? Oh, people +never will—do—what I want them to——"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_82" id="Page_82">[Pg 82]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Yes—yes, indeed, dear," said Phyllis, taking her hands soothingly. +"We're going to attend to it right away. See, everything is ready."</p> + +<p>It occurred to her that Mrs. Harrington was not half as correct in her +playing of the part of a dying woman as she would have seen to it that +anyone else was; also, that things did not seem legal without the +wolfhound. Then she was shocked at herself for such irrelevant thoughts. +The thing to do was to keep poor Mrs. Harrington quieted. So she +beckoned the clergyman and the De Guenthers nearer, and herself sped the +marrying of herself to Allan Harrington.</p> + +<p>... When you are being married to a Crusader on a tomb, the easiest way +is to kneel down by him. Phyllis registered this fact in her mind quite +blankly, as something which might be of use to remember in future.... +The marrying took an unnecessarily long time, it seemed to her. It did +not seem as if she were being married at all. It all seemed to concern +somebody else. When it came to the putting on of the<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_83" id="Page_83">[Pg 83]</a></span> wedding-ring, she +found herself, very naturally, guiding Allan's relaxed fingers to hold +it in its successive places, and finally slip it on the wedding-finger. +And somehow having to do that checked the chilly awe she had had before +of Allan Harrington. It made her feel quite simply sorry for him, as if +he were one of her poor little boys in trouble. And when it was all over +she bent pitifully before she thought, and kissed one white, cold cheek. +He seemed so tragically helpless, yet more alive, in some way, since she +had touched his hand to guide it. Then, as her lips brushed his cheek, +she recoiled and colored a little. She had felt that slight roughness +which a man's cheek, however close-shaven, always has—the <i>man</i>-feel. +It made her realize unreasonably that it was a man she had married, +after all, not a stone image nor a sick child—a live man! With the +thought, or rather instinct, came a swift terror of what she had done, +and a swift impulse to rise. She was half-way risen from her knees when +a hand on her shoulder, and the clergyman's voice in her ear, checked +her.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_84" id="Page_84">[Pg 84]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Not yet," he murmured almost inaudibly. "Stay as you are till—till +Mrs. Harrington is wheeled from the room."</p> + +<p>Phyllis understood. She remained as she was, her body a shield before +Allan Harrington's eyes, her hand just withdrawing from his shoulder, +till she heard the closing of the door, and a sigh as of relaxed tension +from the three people around her. Then she rose. Allan lay still with +closed eyelids. It seemed to her that he had flushed, if ever so +faintly, at the touch of her lips on his cheek. She laid his hand on the +coverlet with her own roughened, ringed one, and followed the others +out, into the room where the dead woman had been taken, leaving him with +his attendant.</p> + +<p>The rest of the evening Phyllis went about in a queer-keyed, almost +light-hearted frame of mind. It was only the reaction from the +long-expected terror that was over now, but it felt indecorous. It was +just as well, however. Some one's head had to be kept. The servants were +upset, of course, and there were many arrangements to be made. She and +Mr. De Guenther worked steadily<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_85" id="Page_85">[Pg 85]</a></span> together, telephoning, ordering, +guiding, straightening out all the tangles. There never was a wedding, +she thought, where the bride did so much of the work! She even +remembered to see personally that Allan's dinner was sent up to him. The +servants had doubtless been told to come to her for orders—at any rate, +they did. Phyllis had not had much experience in running a house, but a +good deal in keeping her head. And that, after all, is the main thing. +She had a far-off feeling as if she were hearing some other young woman +giving swift, poised, executive orders. She rather admired her.</p> + +<p>After dinner the De Guenthers went. And Phyllis Braithwaite, the little +Liberry Teacher who had been living in a hall bedroom on much less money +than she needed, found herself alone, sole mistress of the great +Harrington house, a corps of servants, a husband passive enough to +satisfy the most militant suffragette, a check-book, a wistful +wolfhound, and five hundred dollars, cash, for current expenses. The +last weighed on her mind more than all the rest put together.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_86" id="Page_86">[Pg 86]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Why, I don't know how to make Current Expenses out of all that!" she +had said to Mr. De Guenther. "It looks to me exactly like about ten +months' salary! I'm perfectly certain I shall get up in my sleep and try +to pay my board ahead with it, so I shan't have it all spent before the +ten months are up! There was a blue bead necklace," she went on +meditatively, "in the Five-and-Ten, that I always wanted to buy. Only I +never quite felt I could afford it. Oh, just imagine going to the +Five-and-Ten and buying at least five dollars' worth of things you +didn't need!"</p> + +<p>"You have great discretionary powers—great discretionary powers, my +dear, you will find!" Mr. De Guenther had said, as he patted her +shoulder. Phyllis took it as a compliment at the time. "Discretionary +powers" sounded as if he thought she was a quite intelligent young +person. It did not occur to her till he had gone, and she was alone with +her check-book, that it meant she had a good deal of liberty to do as +she liked.</p> + +<p>It seemed to be expected of her to stay. Nobody even suggested a +possibility of her<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_87" id="Page_87">[Pg 87]</a></span> going home again, even to pack her trunk. Mrs. De +Guenther casually volunteered to do that, a little after the housekeeper +had told her where her rooms were. She had been consulting with the +housekeeper for what seemed ages, when she happened to want some pins +for something, and asked for her suit-case.</p> + +<p>"It's in your rooms," said the housekeeper. "Mrs. Harrington—the late +Mrs. Harrington, I should say——"</p> + +<p>Phyllis stopped listening at this point. Who was the present Mrs. +Harrington? she wondered before she thought—and then remembered. +Why—<i>she</i> was! So there was no Phyllis Braithwaite any more! Of course +not.... Yet she had always liked the name so—well, a last name was a +small thing to give up.... Into her mind fitted an incongruous, silly +story she had heard once at the library, about a girl whose last name +was Rose, and whose parents christened her Wild, because the combination +appealed to them. And then she married a man named Bull.... Meanwhile +the housekeeper had been going on.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_88" id="Page_88">[Pg 88]</a></span></p> + +<p>... "She had the bedroom and bath opening from the other side of Mr. +Allan's day-room ready for you, madam. It's been ready several weeks."</p> + +<p>"Has it?" said Phyllis. It was like Mrs. Harrington, that careful +planning of even where she should be put. "Is Mr. Harrington in his +day-room now?"</p> + +<p>For some reason she did not attempt to give herself, she did not want to +see him again just now. Besides, it was nearly eleven and time a very +tired girl was in bed. She wanted a good night's rest, before she had to +get up and be Mrs. Harrington, with Allan and the check-book and the +Current Expenses all tied to her.</p> + +<p>Some one had laid everything out for her in the bedroom; the filmy new +nightgown over a chair, the blue satin mules underneath, her plain +toilet-things on a dressing-table, and over another chair the exquisite +ivory crepe negligee with its floating rose ribbons. She took a hasty +bath—there was so much hot water that she was quite reconciled for a +moment to being a check-booked and wolf hounded Mrs. Harrington—and +slid<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_89" id="Page_89">[Pg 89]</a></span> straight into bed without even stopping to braid her loosened, +honey-colored hair.</p> + +<p>It seemed to her that she was barely asleep when there came an urgent +knocking at her door.</p> + +<p>"Yes?" she said sleepily, looking mechanically for her alarm-clock as +she switched on the light. "What is it, please?"</p> + +<p>"It's I, Wallis, Mr. Allan's man, Madame," said a nervous voice. "Mr. +Allan's very bad. I've done all the usual things, but nothing seems to +quiet him. He hates doctors so, and they make him so wrought up—please +could you come, ma'am? He says as how all of us are all dead—oh, +<i>please</i>, Mrs. Harrington!"</p> + +<p>There was panic in the man's voice.</p> + +<p>"All right," said Phyllis sleepily, dropping to the floor as she spoke +with the rapidity that only the alarm-clock-broken know. She snatched +the negligee around her, and thrust her feet hastily into the blue satin +slippers—why, she was actually using her wedding finery! And what an +easily upset person that man was! But everybody in the house seemed to +have<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_90" id="Page_90">[Pg 90]</a></span> nerves on edge. It was no wonder about Allan—he wanted his +mother, of course, poor boy! She felt, as she ran fleetly across the +long room that separated her sleeping quarters from her husband's, the +same mixture of pity and timidity that she had felt with him before. +Poor boy! Poor, silent, beautiful statue, with his one friend gone! She +opened the door and entered swiftly into his room.</p> + +<p>She was not thinking about herself at all, only of how she could help +Allan, but there must have been something about her of the picture-book +angel to the pain-racked man, lying tensely at length in the room's +darkest corner. Her long, dully gold hair, loosening from its twist, +flew out about her, and her face was still flushed with sleep. There was +a something about her that was vividly alight and alive, perhaps the +light in her blue eyes.</p> + +<p>From what the man had said Phyllis had thought Allan was delirious, but +she saw at once that he was only in severe pain, and talking more +disconnectedly, perhaps, than the slow-minded Englishman could follow.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_91" id="Page_91">[Pg 91]</a></span> +He did not look like a statue now. His cheeks were burning with evident +pain, and his yellow-brown eyes, wide-open, and dilated to darkness, +stared straight out. His hands were clenching and unclenching, and his +head moved restlessly from side to side. Every nerve and muscle, she +could see, was taut.</p> + +<p>"They're all dead," he muttered. "Father and Mother and Louise—and +I—only I'm not dead enough to bury. Oh, God, I wish I was!"</p> + +<p>That wasn't delirium; it was something more like heart-break. Phyllis +moved closer to him, and dropped one of her sleep-warm hands on his +cold, clenched one.</p> + +<p>"Oh, poor boy!" she said. "I'm so sorry—so sorry!" She closed her hands +tight over both his.</p> + +<p>Some of her strong young vitality must have passed between them and +helped him, for almost immediately his tenseness relaxed a little, and +he looked at her.</p> + +<p>"You—you're not a nurse," he said. "They go around—like—like +a—vault——"</p> + +<p>She had caught his attention! That was<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_92" id="Page_92">[Pg 92]</a></span> a good deal, she felt. She +forgot everything about him, except that he was some one to be +comforted, and her charge. She sat down on the bed by him, still holding +tight to his hands.</p> + +<p>"No, indeed," she said, bending nearer him, her long loose hair falling +forward about her resolutely-smiling young face. "Don't you remember +seeing me? I never was a nurse."</p> + +<p>"What—are you?" he asked feebly.</p> + +<p>"I'm—why, the children call me the Liberry Teacher," she answered. It +occurred to her that it would be better to talk on brightly at random +than to risk speaking of his mother to him, as she must if she reminded +him of their marriage. "I spend my days in a basement, making bad little +boys get so interested in the Higher Culture that they'll forget to +shoot crap and smash windows."</p> + +<p>One of the things which had aided Phyllis to rise from desk-assistant to +one of the Children's Room librarians was a very sweet and carrying +voice—a voice which arrested even a child's attention, and held<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_93" id="Page_93">[Pg 93]</a></span> his +interest. It held Allan now; merely the sound of it, seemingly.</p> + +<p>"Go on—talking," he murmured. Phyllis smiled and obeyed.</p> + +<p>"Sometimes the Higher Culture doesn't work," she said. "Yesterday one of +my imps got hold of a volume of Shaw, and in half an hour his aunt +marched in on me and threatened I don't know what to a library that +'taught chilren to disrespect their lawful guardeens.'"</p> + +<p>"I remember now," said Allan. "You are the girl in the blue dress. The +girl mother had me marry. I remember."</p> + +<p>"Yes," said Phyllis soothingly, and a little apologetically. "I know. +But that—oh, please, it needn't make a bit of difference. It was only +so I could see that you were looked after properly, you know. I'll never +be in the way, unless you want me to do something for you."</p> + +<p>"I don't mind," he said listlessly, as he had before.... "<i>Oh, this +dreadful darkness, and mother dead in it somewhere!</i>"</p> + +<p>"Wallis," called Phyllis swiftly, "turn up the lights!"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_94" id="Page_94">[Pg 94]</a></span></p> + +<p>The man slipped the close green silk shades from the electric bulbs. +Allan shrank as if he had been hurt.</p> + +<p>"I can't stand the glare," he cried.</p> + +<p>"Yes, you can for a moment," she said firmly. "It's better than the +ghastly green glow."</p> + +<p>It was probably the first time Allan Harrington had been contradicted +since his accident. He said nothing more for a minute, and Phyllis +directed Wallis to bring a sheet of pink tissue paper from her +suit-case, where she remembered it lay in the folds of some new muslin +thing. Under her direction still, he wrapped the globes in it and +secured it with string.</p> + +<p>"There!" she told Allan triumphantly when Wallis was done. "See, there +is no glare now; only a pretty rose-colored glow. Better than the green, +isn't it?"</p> + +<p>Allan looked at her again. "You are—kind," he said. "Mother said—you +would be kind. Oh, mother—mother!" He tried uselessly to lift one arm +to cover his convulsed face, and could only turn his head a little +aside.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_95" id="Page_95">[Pg 95]</a></span></p> + +<p>"You can go, Wallis," said Phyllis softly, with her lips only. "Be in +the next room." The man stole out and shut the door softly. Phyllis +herself rose and went toward the window, and busied herself in braiding +up her hair. There was almost silence in the room for a few minutes.</p> + +<p>"Thank—you," said Allan brokenly. "Will you—come back, please?"</p> + +<p>She returned swiftly, and sat by him as she had before.</p> + +<p>"Would you mind—holding my wrists again?" he asked. "I feel quieter, +somehow, when you do—not so—lost." There was a pathetic boyishness in +his tone that the sad, clear lines of his face would never prepare you +for.</p> + +<p>Phyllis took his wrists in her warm, strong hands obediently.</p> + +<p>"Are you in pain, Allan?" she asked. "Do you mind if I call you Allan? +It's the easiest way."</p> + +<p>He smiled at her a little, faintly. It occurred to her that perhaps the +novelty of her was taking his mind a little from his own feelings.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_96" id="Page_96">[Pg 96]</a></span></p> + +<p>"No—no pain. I haven't had any for a very long time now. Only this +dreadful blackness dragging at my mind, a blackness the light hurts."</p> + +<p>"<i>Why!</i>" said Phyllis to herself, being on known ground here—"why, it's +nervous depression! I believe cheering-up <i>would</i> help. I know," she +said aloud; "I've had it."</p> + +<p>"You?" he said. "But you seem so—happy!"</p> + +<p>"I suppose I am," said Phyllis shyly. She felt a little afraid of "poor +Allan" still, now that there was nothing to do for him, and they were +talking together. And he had not answered her question, either; +doubtless he wanted her to say "Mr. Allan" or even "Mr. Harrington!" He +replied to her thought in the uncanny way invalids sometimes do.</p> + +<p>"You said something about what we were to call each other," he murmured. +"It would be foolish, of course, not to use first names. Yours is Alice, +isn't it?"</p> + +<p>Phyllis laughed. "Oh, worse than that!" she said. "I was named out of a +poetry<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_97" id="Page_97">[Pg 97]</a></span>book, I believe—Phyllis Narcissa. But I always conceal the +Narcissa."</p> + +<p>"Phyllis. Thank you," he said wearily. ... "<i>Phyllis, don't let go! +Talk</i> to me!" His eyes were those of a man in torment.</p> + +<p>"What shall I talk about?" she asked soothingly, keeping the two cold, +clutching hands in her warm grasp. "Shall I tell you a story? I know a +great many stories by heart, and I will say them for you if you like. It +was part of my work."</p> + +<p>"Yes," he said. "Anything."</p> + +<p>Phyllis arranged herself more comfortably on the bed, for it looked as +if she had some time to stay, and began the story she knew best, because +her children liked it best, Kipling's "How the Elephant Got His Trunk." +"A long, long time ago, O Best Beloved...."</p> + +<p>Allan listened, and, she thought, at times paid attention to the words. +He almost smiled once or twice, she was nearly sure. She went straight +on to another story when the first was done. Never had she worked so +hard to keep the interest of any restless circle of children as she +worked now,<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_98" id="Page_98">[Pg 98]</a></span> sitting up in the pink light in her crepe wrappings, with +her school-girl braids hanging down over her bosom, and Allan +Harrington's agonized golden-brown eyes fixed on her pitying ones.</p> + +<p>"You must be tired," he said more connectedly and quietly when she had +ended the second story. "Can't you sit up here by me, propped on the +pillows? And you need a quilt or something, too."</p> + +<p>This from an invalid who had been given nothing but himself to think of +this seven years back! Phyllis's opinion of Allan went up very much. She +had supposed he would be very selfish. But she made herself a bank of +pillows, and arranged herself by Allan's side so that she could keep +fast to his hands without any strain, something as skaters hold. She +wrapped a down quilt from the foot of the bed around her mummy-fashion +and went on to her third story. Allan's eyes, as she talked on, grew +less intent—drooped. She felt the relaxation of his hands. She went +monotonously on, closing her own eyes—just for a minute, as she +finished her story.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_99" id="Page_99">[Pg 99]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="VIII" id="VIII"></a>VIII</h2> + + +<p>"I've overslept the alarm!" was Phyllis's first thought next morning +when she woke. "It must be—" Where was she? So tired, so very tired, +she remembered being, and telling some one an interminable story.... She +held her sleepy eyes wide open by will-power, and found that a silent +but evidently going clock hung in sight. Six-thirty. Then she hadn't +overslept the alarm. But ... she hadn't set any alarm. And she had been +sleeping propped up in a sitting position, half on—why, it was a +shoulder. And she was rolled tight in a terra-cotta down quilt. She sat +up with a jerk—fortunately a noiseless one—and turned to look. Then +suddenly she remembered all about it, that jumbled, excited, +hard-working yesterday which had held change and death and marriage for +her, and which she had ended by perching on "poor Allan Harrington's" +bed and sending him to sleep by holding his hands and telling him +children's stories. She<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_100" id="Page_100">[Pg 100]</a></span> must have fallen asleep after he did, and slid +down on his shoulder. A wonder it hadn't disturbed him! She stole +another look at him, as he lay sleeping still, heavily and quietly. +After all, she was married to him, and she had a perfect right to recite +him to sleep if she wanted to. She unrolled herself cautiously, and slid +out like a shadow.</p> + +<p>She almost fell over poor Wallis, sleeping too in his clothes outside +the door, on Allan's day couch. He came quickly to his feet, as if he +were used to sudden waking.</p> + +<p>"Don't disturb Mr. Harrington," said Phyllis as staidly as if she had +been giving men-servants orders in her slipper-feet all her life. "He +seems to be sleeping quietly."</p> + +<p>"Begging your pardon, Mrs. Harrington, but you haven't been giving him +anything, have you?" asked Wallis. "He hasn't slept without a break for +two hours to my knowledge since I've been here, not without medicine."</p> + +<p>"Not a thing," said Phyllis, smiling with satisfaction. "He must have +been sleeping nearly three hours now! I read him to<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_101" id="Page_101">[Pg 101]</a></span> sleep, or what +amounted to it. I got his nerves quiet, I think. Please kill anybody +that tries to wake him, Wallis."</p> + +<p>"Very good, ma'am," said Wallis gravely. "And yourself, ma'am?"</p> + +<p>"I'm going to get some sleep, too," she said. "Call me if there's +anything—useful."</p> + +<p>She meant "necessary," but she wanted so much more sleep she never knew +the difference. When she got into her room she found that there also she +was not alone: the wistful wolfhound was curled plaintively across her +bed, which he overlapped. From his nose he seemed to have been dipping +largely into the cup of chocolate somebody had brought to her, and which +she had forgotten to drink when she found it, on her first retiring.</p> + +<p>"You aren't a <i>bit</i> high-minded," said Phyllis indignantly. She was too +sleepy to do more than shove him over to the back of the bed. "All—the +beds here are so—<i>full</i>," she complained sleepily; and crawled inside, +and never woke again till nearly afternoon.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_102" id="Page_102">[Pg 102]</a></span></p> + +<p>There was all the grave business to be done, in the days that followed, +of taking Mrs. Harrington to a quiet place beside her husband, and +drawing together again the strings of the disorganized household. +Phyllis found herself whispering over and over again:</p> + +<p> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">"The sweeping up the heart</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2.5em;">And putting love away</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">We shall not need to use again.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 2.5em;">Until the Judgment Day."</span><br /> +</p> + +<p>And with all there was to see after, it was some days before she saw +Allan again, more than to speak to brightly as she crossed their common +sitting-room. He did not ask for her. She looked after his comfort +faithfully, and tried to see to it that his man Wallis was all he should +be—a task which was almost hopeless from the fact that Wallis knew much +more about his duties than she did, even with Mrs. Harrington's +painstakingly detailed notes to help her. Also his attitude to his +master was of such untiring patience and worship that it made Phyllis +feel like a rude outsider interfering between man and wife.</p> + +<p>However, Wallis was inclined to approve<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_103" id="Page_103">[Pg 103]</a></span> of his new mistress, who was +not fussy, seemed kind, and had given his beloved Mr. Allan nearly three +hours of unbroken sleep. Allan had been a little better ever since. +Wallis had told Phyllis this. But she was inclined to think that the +betterment was caused by the counter-shock of his mother's death, which +had shaken him from his lethargy, and perhaps even given his nerves a +better balance. And she insisted that the pink paper stay on the +electric lights.</p> + +<p>After about a week of this, Phyllis suddenly remembered that she had not +been selfish at all yet. Where was her rose-garden—the garden she had +married the wolfhound and Allan and the check-book for? Where were all +the things she had intended to get? The only item she had bought as yet +ran, on the charge account she had taken over with the rest, "1 doz. +checked dish-towels"; and Mrs. Clancy, the housekeeper's, pressing +demand was responsible for these.</p> + +<p>"It's certainly time I was selfish," said Phyllis to the wolfhound, who +followed her<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_104" id="Page_104">[Pg 104]</a></span> round unendingly as if she had patches of sunshine in her +pocket: glorious patches, fit for a life-sized wolfhound. Perhaps he was +grateful because she had ordered him long daily walks. He wagged his +tail now as she spoke, and rubbed himself curvingly against her. He was +a rather affected dog.</p> + +<p>So Phyllis made herself out a list in a superlatively neat library hand:</p> + +<p> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">One string of blue beads.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">One lot of very fluffy summer frocks with flowers on them.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">One rose-garden.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">One banjo and a self-teacher. (And a sound-proof room.)</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">One set Arabian Nights.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">One set of Stevenson, all but his novels.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">Ever so many Maxfield Parrish pictures full of Prussian-blue skies.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">A house to put them in, with fireplaces.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">A lady's size motor-car that likes me.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">A plain cat with a tame disposition.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">A hammock.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">A sun-dial. (But that might be thrown in with the garden.)</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">A gold watch-bracelet.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">All the colored satin slippers I want.</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">A room big enough to put all father's books up.</span><br /> +</p> + +<p>It looked shamelessly long, but Phyllis's "discretionary powers" would +cover it, she knew. Mrs. Harrington's final will, while full of advice, +had been recklessly trusting.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_105" id="Page_105">[Pg 105]</a></span></p> + +<p>She could order everything in one afternoon, she was sure, all but the +house, the garden, the motor, which she put checks against, and the +plain cat, which she thought she could pick up in the village where her +house would be.</p> + +<p>Next she went to see Allan. She didn't want to bother him, but she did +feel that she ought to share her plans with him as far as possible. +Besides, it occurred to her that she could scarcely remember what he was +like to speak to, and really owed it to herself to go. She fluffed out +her hair loosely, put on her pale-green gown that had clinging lines, +and pulled some daffodils through her sash. She had resolved to avoid +anything sombre where Allan was concerned—and the green gown was very +becoming. Then, armed with her list and a pencil, she crossed boldly to +the couch where her Crusader lay in the old attitude, moveless and with +half-closed eyes.</p> + +<p>"Allan," she asked, standing above him, "do you think you could stand +being talked to for a little while?"</p> + +<p>"Why—yes," said Allan, opening his<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_106" id="Page_106">[Pg 106]</a></span> eyes a little more. "Wallis, +get—Mrs. Harrington—a chair."</p> + +<p>He said the name haltingly, and Phyllis wondered if he disliked her +having it. She dropped down beside him, like a smiling touch of spring +in the dark room.</p> + +<p>"Do you mind their calling me that?" she asked. "If there's anything +else they could use——"</p> + +<p>"Mother made you a present of the name," he said, smiling faintly. "No +reason why I should mind."</p> + +<p>"All right," said Phyllis cheerfully. After all, there was nothing else +to call her, speaking of her. The servants, she knew, generally said +"the young madam," as if her mother-in-law were still alive.</p> + +<p>"I want to talk to you about things," she began; and had to stop to deal +with the wolfhound, who was trying to put both paws on her shoulders. +"Oh, Ivan, <i>get</i> down, honey! I <i>wish</i> somebody would take a day off +some time to explain to you that you're not a lap-dog! Do you like +wolfhounds specially better than any other kind of dog, Allan?"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_107" id="Page_107">[Pg 107]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Not particularly," said Allan, patting the dog languidly as he put his +head in a convenient place for the purpose. "Mother bought him, she +said, because he would look so picturesque in my sick-room. She wanted +him to lie at my feet or something. But he never saw it that +way—neither did I. Hates sick-rooms. Don't blame him."</p> + +<p>This was the longest speech Allan had made yet, and Phyllis learned +several things from it that she had only guessed before. One was that +the atmosphere of embodied grief and regret in the house had been Mrs. +Harrington's, not Allan's—that he was more young and natural than she +had thought, better material for cheering; that his mother's devotion +had been something of a pressure on him at times; and that he himself +was not interested in efforts to stage his illness correctly.</p> + +<p>What he really had said when the dog was introduced, she learned later +from the attached Wallis, was that he might be a cripple, but he wasn't +going to be part of any confounded tableau. Whereupon his mother had +cried for an hour, kissing and<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_108" id="Page_108">[Pg 108]</a></span> pitying him in between, and his night +had been worse than usual. But the hound had stayed outside.</p> + +<p>Phyllis made an instant addition to her list. "One bull-pup, convenient +size, for Allan." The plain cat could wait. She had heard of publicity +campaigns; she had made up her mind, and a rather firm young mind it +was, that she was going to conduct a cheerfulness campaign in behalf of +this listless, beautiful, darkness-locked Allan of hers. Unknowingly, +she was beginning to regard him as much her property as the check-book, +and rather more so than the wolfhound. She moved back a little, and +reconciled herself to the dog, who had draped as much of his body as +would go, over her, and was batting his tail against her joyfully.</p> + +<p>"Poor old puppy," she said. "I want to talk over some plans with you, +Allan," she began again determinedly. She was astonished to see Allan +wince.</p> + +<p>"<i>Don't!</i>" he said, "for heaven's sake! You'll drive me crazy!"</p> + +<p>Phyllis drew back a little indignantly,<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_109" id="Page_109">[Pg 109]</a></span> but behind the couch she saw +Wallis making some sort of face that was evidently intended for a +warning. Then he slipped out of the room, as if he wished her to follow +soon and be explained to. "Plans" must be a forbidden subject. Anyhow, +crossness was a better symptom than apathy!</p> + +<p>"Very well," she said brightly, smiling her old, useful, +cheering-a-bad-child library smile at him. "It was mostly about things I +wanted to buy for myself, any way—satin slippers and such. I don't +suppose they <i>would</i> interest a man much."</p> + +<p>"Oh, that sort of thing," said Allan relievedly. "I thought you meant +things that had to do with me. If you have plans about me, go ahead, for +you know I can't do anything to stop you—but for heaven's sake, don't +discuss it with me first!"</p> + +<p>He spoke carelessly, but the pity of it struck to Phyllis's heart. It +was true, he couldn't stop her. His foolish, adoring little desperate +mother, in her anxiety to have her boy taken good care of, had exposed +him to a cruel risk. Phyllis knew herself<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_110" id="Page_110">[Pg 110]</a></span> to be trustworthy. She knew +that she could no more put her own pleasures before her charge's welfare +than she could steal his watch. Her conscience was New-England rock. +But, oh! suppose Mr. De Guenther had chosen some girl who didn't care, +who would have taken the money and not have done the work! She shivered +at the thought of what Allan had escaped, and caught his hand +impulsively, as she had on that other night of terror.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Allan Harrington, I <i>wouldn't</i> do anything I oughtn't to! I know +it's dreadful, having a strange girl wished on you this way, but truly I +mean to be as good as I can, and never in the way or anything! Indeed, +you may trust me! You—you don't mind having me round, do you?"</p> + +<p>Allan's cold hand closed kindly on hers. He spoke for the first time as +a well man speaks, quietly, connectedly, and with a little authority.</p> + +<p>"The fact that I am married to you does not weigh on me at all, my dear +child," he said. "I shall be dead, you know, this time five years, and +what difference does it<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_111" id="Page_111">[Pg 111]</a></span> make whether I'm married or not? I don't mind +you at all. You seem a very kind and pleasant person. I am sure I can +trust you. Now are you reassured?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, <i>yes</i>," said Phyllis radiantly, "and you <i>can</i> trust me, and I +<i>won't</i> fuss. All you have to do if I bore you is to look bored. You +can, you know. You don't know how well you do it! And I'll stop. I'm +going to ask Wallis how much of my society you'd better have, if any."</p> + +<p>"Why, I don't think a good deal of it would hurt me," he said +indifferently. But he smiled in a quite friendly fashion.</p> + +<p>"All right," said Phyllis again brightly. But she fell silent then. +There were two kinds of Allan, she reflected. This kind of Allan, who +was very much more grown-up and wise than she was, and of whom she still +stood a little in awe; and the little-boy Allan who had clung to her in +nervous dread of the dark the other night—whom she had sent to sleep +with children's stories. She wondered which was real, which he had been +when he was well.</p> + +<p>"I must go now and have something out<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_112" id="Page_112">[Pg 112]</a></span> with Mrs. Clancy," she said, +smiling and rising. "She's perfectly certain carpets have to come up +when you put down mattings, and I'm perfectly certain they don't."</p> + +<p>She tucked the despised list, to which she had furtively added her +bull-pup, into her sleeve, took her hand from his and went away. It +seemed to Allan that the room was a little darker.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_113" id="Page_113">[Pg 113]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="IX" id="IX"></a>IX</h2> + + +<p>Outside the sitting-room door stood Wallis, who had been lying in wait.</p> + +<p>"I wanted to explain, madam, about the plans," he said. "It worries Mr. +Allan. You see, madam, the late Mrs. Harrington was a great one for +plans. She had, if I may say so, a new one every day, and she'd argue +you deaf, dumb, and blind—not to speak ill of the dead—till you were +fair beat out fighting it. Then you'd settle down to it—and next day +there be another one, with Mrs. Harrington rooting for it just as hard, +and you, with your mouth fixed for the other plan, so to speak, would +have to give in to that. The plan she happened to have last always went +through, because she fought for that as hard as she had for the others, +and you were so bothered by then you didn't care what."</p> + +<p>Wallis's carefully impersonal servant-English had slipped from him, and +he was talking to Phyllis as man to man, but she<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_114" id="Page_114">[Pg 114]</a></span> was very glad of it. +These were the sort of facts she had to elicit.</p> + +<p>"When Mr. Allan was well," he went on, "he used to just laugh and say, +'All right, mother darling,' and pet her and do his own way—he was +always laughing and carrying on then, Mr. Allan—but after he was hurt, +of course, he couldn't get away, and the old madam, she'd sit by his +couch by the hour, and he nearly wild, making plans for him. She'd spend +weeks planning details of things over and over, never getting tired. And +then off again to the next thing! It was all because she was so fond of +him, you see. But if you'll pardon my saying so, madam"—Wallis was +resuming his man-servant manners—"it was not always good for Mr. +Allan."</p> + +<p>"I think I understand," said Phyllis thoughtfully, as she and the +wolfhound went to interview Mrs. Clancy. So that was why! She had +imagined something of the sort. And she—she herself—was doubtless the +outcome of one of Mrs. Harrington's long-detailed plans, insisted on to +Allan till he had acquiesced for quiet's sake!<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_115" id="Page_115">[Pg 115]</a></span> ... But he said now he +didn't mind. She was somehow sure he wouldn't have said it if it had not +been true. Then Wallis's other words came to her, "He was always +laughing then," and suddenly there surged up in Phyllis a passionate +resolve to give Allan back at least a little of his lightness of heart. +He might be going to die—though she didn't believe it—but at least she +could make things less monotonous and dark for him; and she wouldn't +offer him plans! And if he objected when the plans rose up and hit him, +why, the shock might do him good. She thought she was fairly sure of an +ally in Wallis.</p> + +<p>She cut her interview with Mrs. Clancy short. Allan, lying motionless, +caught a green flash of her, crossing into her room to dress, another +blue flash as she went out; dropped his eyelids and crossed his hands to +doze a little, an innocent and unwary Crusader. He did not know it, but +a Plan was about to rise up and hit him. The bride his mother had left +him as a parting legacy had gone out to order a string of blue beads, a +bull-pup, a house, a motor, a banjo, and a rose<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_116" id="Page_116">[Pg 116]</a></span>-garden; as she went she +added a talking machine to the list; and he was to be planted in the +very centre of everything.</p> + +<p>"Seems like a nice girl, Wallis," said Allan dreamily. And the discreet +Wallis said nothing (though he knew a good deal) about his mistress's +shopping-list.</p> + +<p>"Yes, Mr. Allan," he conceded.</p> + +<hr style='width: 45%;' /> + +<p>It was Phyllis Harrington's firm belief that Mr. De Guenther could +produce anything anybody wanted at any time, or that if he couldn't his +wife could. So it was to him that she went on her quest for the +rose-garden, with its incidental house. The rest of the items she +thought she could get for herself. It was nearly the last of April, and +she wanted a well-heated elderly mansion, preferably Colonial, not too +unwieldily large, with as many rose-trees around it as her discretionary +powers would stand. And she wanted it as near and as soon as possible. +By the help of Mr. De Guenther, amused but efficient, Mrs. De Guenther, +efficient but sentimental; and an agent who was efficient<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_117" id="Page_117">[Pg 117]</a></span> merely, she +got very nearly what she wanted. Money could do a great deal more than a +country minister's daughter had ever had any way of imagining. By its +aid she found it possible to have furniture bought and placed inside a +fortnight, even to a list of books set up in sliding sectional cases. +She had hoped to buy those cases some day, one at a time, and getting +them at one fell swoop seemed to her more arrogantly opulent than the +purchase of the house and grounds—than even the big shiny victrola. She +had bought that herself, before there was a house to put it in, going on +the principle that all men not professional musicians have a concealed +passion for music that they can create themselves by merely winding up +something. And—to anticipate—she found that as far as Allan was +concerned she was quite right.</p> + +<p>"But why do you take this very radical step, my dear?" asked Mrs. De +Guenther gently, as she helped Phyllis choose furniture.</p> + +<p>"I am going to try the only thing Allan's<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_118" id="Page_118">[Pg 118]</a></span> mother seems to have +omitted," said Phyllis dauntlessly. "A complete change of surroundings."</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear!" breathed Mrs. De Guenther. "It may help poor Allan more +than we know! And dear Angela did discuss moving often, but she could +never bear to leave the city house, where so many of her dear ones have +passed away."</p> + +<p>"Well, none of <i>my</i> dear ones are going to pass away there," said +Phyllis irreverently, "unless Mrs. Clancy wants to. I'm not even taking +any servants but Wallis. The country-house doesn't need any more than a +cook, a chambermaid, and outdoor man. Mrs. Clancy is getting them. I +told her I didn't care what age or color she chose, but they had to be +cheerful. She will stay in the city and keep the others straight, in +something she calls board-wages. I'm starting absolutely fresh."</p> + +<p>They were back at Mrs. De Guenther's house by the time Phyllis was done +telling her plans, Phyllis sitting in the identical pluffy chair where +she had made her decision to marry Allan. Mrs. De Guenther<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_119" id="Page_119">[Pg 119]</a></span> sprang from +her own chair, and came over and impulsively kissed her.</p> + +<p>"God bless you, dear!" she said. "I believe it was Heaven that inspired +Albert and myself to choose you to carry on poor Angela's work."</p> + +<p>Phyllis flushed indignantly.</p> + +<p>"I'm undoing a little of it, I hope," she said passionately. "If I can +only make that poor boy forget some of those dreadful years she spent +crying over him, I shan't have lived in vain!"</p> + +<p>Mrs. De Guenther looked at Phyllis earnestly—and, most unexpectedly, +burst into a little tinkling laugh.</p> + +<p>"My dear," she said mischievously, "what about all the fine things you +were going to do for yourself to make up for being tied to poor Allan? +You should really stop being unselfish, and enjoy yourself a little."</p> + +<p>Phyllis felt herself flushing crimson. Elderly people did seem to be so +sentimental!</p> + +<p>"I've bought myself lots of things," she defended herself. "Most of this +is really for me. And—I can't help being good to<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_120" id="Page_120">[Pg 120]</a></span> him. It's only common +humanity. I was never so sorry for anybody in my life—you'd be, too, if +it were Mr. De Guenther!"</p> + +<p>She thought her explanation was complete. But she must have said +something that she did not realize, for Mrs. De Guenther only laughed +her little tinkling laugh again, and—as is the fashion of elderly +people—kissed her.</p> + +<p>"I would, indeed, my dear," said she.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_121" id="Page_121">[Pg 121]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="X" id="X"></a>X</h2> + + +<p>Allan Harrington lay in his old attitude on his couch in the darkened +day-room, his tired, clear-cut face a little thrown back, eyes +half-closed. He was not thinking of anything or any one especially; +merely wrapped in a web of the dragging, empty, gray half-thoughts of +weariness in general that had hung about him so many years. Wallis was +not there. Wallis had been with him much less lately, and he had +scarcely seen Phyllis for a fortnight; or, for the matter of that, the +dog, or any one at all. Something was going on, he supposed, but he +scarcely troubled himself to wonder what. The girl was doubtless making +herself boudoirs or something of the sort in a new part of the house. He +closed his eyes entirely, there in the dusky room, and let the web of +dreary, gray, formless thought wrap him again.</p> + +<p>Phyllis's gay, sweetly carrying voice rang from outside the door:</p> + +<p>"The three-thirty, then, Wallis, and I<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_122" id="Page_122">[Pg 122]</a></span> feel as if I were going to steal +Charlie Ross! Well——"</p> + +<p>On the last word she broke off and pushed the sitting-room door softly +open and slid in. She walked in a pussy-cat fashion which would have +suggested to any one watching her a dark burden on her conscience.</p> + +<p>She crossed straight to the couch, looked around for the chair that +should have been by it but wasn't, and sat absently down on the floor. +She liked floors.</p> + +<p>"Allan!" she said.</p> + +<p>No answer.</p> + +<p>"Allan <i>Harrington</i>!"</p> + +<p>Still none. Allan was half-asleep, or what did instead, in one of his +abstracted moods.</p> + +<p>"<i>All-an Harrington!</i>"</p> + +<p>This time she reached up and pulled at his heavy silk sleeve as she +spoke.</p> + +<p>"Yes," said Allan courteously, as if from an infinite distance.</p> + +<p>"Would you mind," asked Phyllis guilelessly, "if Wallis—we—moved +you—a little? I can tell you all about everything, unless<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_123" id="Page_123">[Pg 123]</a></span> you'd rather +not have the full details of the plan——"</p> + +<p>"Anything," said Allan wearily from the depths of his gray cloud; "only +don't <i>bother</i> me about it!"</p> + +<p>Phyllis jumped to her feet, a whirl of gay blue skirts and cheerfully +tossing blue feathers. "Good-by, dear Crusader!" she said with a catch +in her voice that might have been either a laugh or a sob. "The next +time you see me you'll probably <i>hate</i> me! Wallis!"</p> + +<p>Wallis appeared like the Slave of the Lamp. "It's all right, Wallis," +she said, and ran. Wallis proceeded thereupon to wheel his master's +couch into the bedroom.</p> + +<p>"If you're going to be moved, you'd better be dressed a little heavier, +sir," he said with the same amiable guilelessness, if the victim had but +noticed it, which Phyllis had used from her seat on the floor not long +before.</p> + +<p>"Very well," said Allan resignedly from his cloud. And Wallis proceeded +to suit the action to the word.</p> + +<p>Allan let him go on in unnoticing silence<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_124" id="Page_124">[Pg 124]</a></span> till it came to that totally +unfamiliar thing these seven years, a stand-up collar. A shiningly new +linen collar of the newest cut, a beautiful golden-brown knit tie, a +gray suit——</p> + +<p>"What on earth?" inquired Allan, awakening from his lethargy. "I don't +need a collar and tie to keep me from getting cold on a journey across +the house. And where did you get those clothes? They look new."</p> + +<p>Wallis laid his now fully dressed master back to a reclining +position—he had been propped up—and tucked a handkerchief into the +appropriate pocket as he replied, "Grant & Moxley's, sir, where you +always deal." And he wheeled the couch back to the day-room, over to its +very door.</p> + +<p>It did not occur to Allan, as he was being carried downstairs by Wallis +and Arthur, another of the servants, that anything more than a change of +rooms was intended; nor, as he was carried out at its door to a long +closed carriage, that it was anything worse than his new keeper's +mistaken idea that drives would be good for him. He was a little +irritable at the length and shut<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_125" id="Page_125">[Pg 125]</a></span>upness of the drive, though, as his cot +had been swung deftly from the ceiling of the carriage, he was not +jarred. But when Wallis and Arthur carried the light pallet on which he +lay swiftly up a plank walk laid to the door of a private car—why then +it began to occur to Allan Harrington that something was happening. +And—which rather surprised himself—he did not lift a supercilious +eyebrow and say in a soft, apathetic voice, "Very we-ell!" Instead, he +turned his head towards the devoted Wallis, who had helped two +conductors swing the cot from the ceiling, and was now waiting for the +storm to break. And what he said to Wallis was this:</p> + +<p>"What the deuce does this tomfoolery mean?" As he spoke he felt the +accumulated capacity for temper of the last seven years surging up +toward Wallis, and Arthur, and Phyllis, and the carriage-horses, and +everything else, down to the two conductors. Wallis seemed rather +relieved than otherwise. Waiting for a storm to break is rather wearing.</p> + +<p>"Well, sir, Mrs. Harrington, she thought,<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_126" id="Page_126">[Pg 126]</a></span> sir, that—that a little move +would do you good. And you didn't want to be bothered, sir——"</p> + +<p>"Bothered!" shouted Allan, not at all like a bored and dying invalid. "I +should think I did, when a change in my whole way of life is made! Who +gave you, or Mrs. Harrington, permission for this outrageous +performance! It's sheer, brutal, insulting idiocy!"</p> + +<p>"Nobody, sir—yes, sir," replied Wallis meekly. "Would you care for a +drink, sir—or anything?"</p> + +<p>"<i>No!</i>" thundered Allan.</p> + +<p>"Or a fan?" ventured Wallis, approaching near with that article and +laying it on the coverlid. Allan's hand snatched the fan angrily—and +before he thought he had hurled it at Wallis! Weakly, it is true, for it +lighted ingloriously about five feet away; but he had <i>thrown</i> it, with +a movement that must have put to use the muscles of the long-disused +upper arm. Wallis sat suddenly down and caught his breath.</p> + +<p>"Mr. Allan!" he said. "Do you know what you did then? You <i>threw</i>, and +you<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_127" id="Page_127">[Pg 127]</a></span> haven't been able to use more than your forearm before! Oh, Mr. +Allan, you're getting better!"</p> + +<p>Allan himself lay in astonishment at his feat, and forgot to be angry +for a moment. "I certainly did!" he said.</p> + +<p>"And the way you lost your temper!" went on Wallis enthusiastically. +"Oh, Mr. Allan, it was beautiful! You haven't been more than to say +snarly since the accident! It was so like the way you used to throw +hair-brushes——"</p> + +<p>But at the mention of his lost temper Allan remembered to lose it still +further. His old capacity for storming, a healthy lad's healthy young +hot-temperedness, had been weakened by long disuse, but he did fairly +well. Secretly it was a pleasure to him to find that he was alive enough +to care what happened, enough for anger. He demanded presently where he +was going.</p> + +<p>"Not more than two hours' ride, sir, I heard Mr. De Guenther mention," +answered Wallis at once. "A little place called Wallraven—quite +country, sir, I believe."</p> + +<p>"So the De Guenthers are in it, too!"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_128" id="Page_128">[Pg 128]</a></span> said Allan. "What the dickens has +this girl done to them, to hypnotize them so?"</p> + +<p>"But I've heard say it's a very pretty place, sir," was all Wallis +vouchsafed to this. The De Guenthers were not the only people Phyllis +had hypnotized.</p> + +<p>He gave Allan other details as they went on, however. His clothes and +personal belongings were coming on immediately. There were two +suit-cases, perhaps he had noticed, in the car with them. The young +madam was planning to stay all the summer, he believed. Mrs. Clancy had +been left behind to look after the other servants, and he understood +that she had seen to the engagement of a fresh staff of servants for the +country. And Allan, still awakened by his fit of temper, and fresh from +the monotony of his seven years' seclusion, found all the things Wallis +could tell him very interesting.</p> + +<hr style='width: 45%;' /> + +<p>Phyllis's rose-garden house had, among other virtues, the charm of being +near the little station: a new little mission station<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_129" id="Page_129">[Pg 129]</a></span> which had +apparently been called Wallraven by some poetic young real-estate +agency, for the surrounding countryside looked countrified enough to be +a Gray's Corners, or Smith's Crossing, or some other such placid old +country name. There were more trees to be seen in Allan's quick passage +from the train to the long old carryall (whose seats had been removed to +make room for his cot) than he had remembered existed. There were sleepy +birds to be heard, too, talking about how near sunset and their bedtime +had come, and a little brook splashed somewhere out of sight. Altogether +spring was to be seen and heard and felt, winningly insistent. Allan +forgave Wallis, not to speak of Phyllis and the conductors, to a certain +degree. He ordered the flapping black oilcloth curtain in front rolled +up so he could see out, and secretly enjoyed the drive, unforeseen +though it had been. His spine never said a word. Perhaps it, too, +enjoyed having a change from a couch in a dark city room.</p> + +<p>They saw no one in their passage through the long, low old house. +Phyllis evidently<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_130" id="Page_130">[Pg 130]</a></span> had learned that Allan didn't like his carryings +about done before people.</p> + +<p>Wallis seemed to be acting under a series of detailed orders. He and +Arthur carried their master to a long, well-lighted room at the end of +the house, and deftly transferred him to a couch much more convenient, +being newer, than the old one. On this he was wheeled to his adjoining +bedroom, and when Wallis had made him comfortable there, he left him +mysteriously for a while. It was growing dark by now, and the lights +were on. They were rose-shaded, Allan noticed, as the others had been at +home. Allan watched the details of his room with that vivid interest in +little changes which only invalids can know. There was an old-fashioned +landscape story paper on the walls, with very little repeat. Over it, +but not where they interfered with tracing out the adventures of the +paper people, were a good many pictures, quite incongruous, for they +were of the Remington type men like, but pleasant to see nevertheless. +The furniture was chintz-covered and gay. There was not one thing in +the<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_131" id="Page_131">[Pg 131]</a></span> room to remind a man that he was an invalid. It occurred to Allan +that Phyllis must have put a good deal of deliberate work on the place. +He lay contentedly, watching the grate fire, and trying to trace out the +story of the paper, for at least a half-hour. He found himself, at +length, much to his own surprise, thinking with a certain longing of his +dinner-tray. He was thinking of it more and more interestedly by the +time Wallis—trayless—came back.</p> + +<p>"Mr. and Mrs. De Guenther and the young madam are waiting for you in the +living-room," he announced. "They would be glad if you would have supper +with them."</p> + +<p>"Very well," said Allan amiably, still much to his own surprise. The +truth was, he was still enough awake and interested to want to go on +having things happen.</p> + +<p>The room Wallis wheeled him back into was a long, low one, wainscoted +and bare-floored. It was furnished with the best imitation Chippendale +to be obtained in a hurry, but over and above there were cushioned +chairs and couches enough for<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_132" id="Page_132">[Pg 132]</a></span> solid comfort. There were more cheerful +pictures, the Maxfield Parrishes Phyllis had wanted, over the +green-papered walls. There was a fire here also. The room had no more +period than a girl's sentence, but there was a bright air of welcomeness +and informality that was winning. An old-fashioned half-table against +the wall was covered with a great many picknicky things to eat. Another +table had more things, mostly to eat with, on it. And there were the De +Guenthers and Phyllis. On the whole it felt very like a welcome-home.</p> + +<p>Phyllis, in a satiny rose-colored gown he had never seen before, came +over to his couch to meet him. She looked very apprehensive and young +and wistful for the rôle of Bold Bad Hypnotist. She bent towards him +with her hand out, seemed about to speak, then backed, flushed, and +acted as if something had frightened her badly.</p> + +<p>"Is she as afraid of me as all that?" thought Allan. Wallis must have +given her a lurid account of how he had behaved. His quick impulse was +to reassure her.</p> + +<p>"Well, Phyllis, my dear, you certainly<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_133" id="Page_133">[Pg 133]</a></span> didn't bother me with plans +<i>this</i> time!" he said, smiling. "This is a bully surprise!"</p> + +<p>"I—I'm glad you like it," said his wife shyly, still backing away.</p> + +<p>"Of course he'd like it," said Mrs. De Guenther's kind staccato voice +behind him. "Kiss your husband, and tell him he's welcome home, Phyllis +child!"</p> + +<p>Now, Phyllis was tired with much hurried work, and overstrung. And +Allan, lying there smiling boyishly up at her, Allan seen for the first +time in these usual-looking gray man-clothes, was like neither the +marble Crusader she had feared nor the heartbroken little boy she had +pitied. He was suddenly her contemporary, a very handsome and attractive +young fellow, a little her senior. From all appearances, he might have +been well and normal, and come home to her only a little tired, perhaps, +by the day's work or sport, as he lay smiling at her in that friendly, +intimate way! It was terrifyingly different. Everything felt different. +All her little pieces of feeling for him, pity and awe and friendliness +and love of service, seemed to spring suddenly<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_134" id="Page_134">[Pg 134]</a></span> together and make +something else—something unplaced and disturbing. Her cheeks burned +with a childish embarrassment as she stood there before him in her +ruffled pink gown. What should she do?</p> + +<p>It was just then that Mrs. De Guenther's crisply spoken advice came. +Phyllis was one of those people whose first unconscious instinct is to +obey an unspoken order. She bent blindly to Allan's lips, and kissed him +with a child's obedience, then straightened up, aghast. He would think +her very bold!</p> + +<p>But he did not, for some reason. It may have seemed only comforting and +natural to him, that swift childish kiss, and Phyllis's honey-colored, +violet-scented hair brushing his face. Men take a great deal without +question as their rightful due.</p> + +<p>The others closed around him then, welcoming him, laughing at the +surprise and the way he had taken it, telling him all about it as if +everything were as usual and pleasant as possible, and the present state +of things had always been a pleasant commonplace. And Wallis began to +serve the picnic supper.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_135" id="Page_135">[Pg 135]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="XI" id="XI"></a>XI</h2> + + +<p>There were trays and little tables, and the food itself would have +betrayed a southern darky in the kitchen if nothing else had. It was the +first meal Allan had eaten with any one for years, and he found it so +interesting as to be almost exciting. Wallis took the plates invisibly +away when they were done, and they continued to stay in their +half-circle about the fire and talk it all over. Phyllis, tired to death +still, had slid to her favorite floor-seat, curled on cushions and +leaning against the couch-side. Allan could have touched her hair with +his hand. She thought of this, curled there, but she was too tired to +move. It was exciting to be near him, somehow, tired as she was.</p> + +<p>Most of the short evening was spent celebrating the fact that Allan had +thrown something at Wallis, who was recalled to tell the story three +times in detail. Then there was the house to discuss, its good and bad +points, its nearnesses and farnesses.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_136" id="Page_136">[Pg 136]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Let me tell you, Allan," said Mrs. De Guenther warmly at this point, +from her seat at the foot of the couch, "this wife of yours is a wonder. +Not many girls could have had a house in this condition two weeks after +it was bought."</p> + +<p>Allan looked down at the heap of shining hair below him, all he could +see of Phyllis.</p> + +<p>"Yes," he said consideringly. "She certainly is."</p> + +<p>At a certain slowness in his tone, Phyllis sprang up. "You must be tired +to <i>death</i>!" she said. "It must be nearly ten. Do you feel worn out?"</p> + +<p>Before he could say anything, Mrs. De Guenther had also risen, and was +sweeping away her husband.</p> + +<p>"Of course he is," she said decisively. "What have we all been thinking +of? And we must go to bed, too, Albert, if you insist on taking that +early train in the morning, and I insist on going with you. Good-night, +children."</p> + +<p>Wallis had appeared by this time, and was wheeling Allan from the room +before he had a chance to say much of anything<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_137" id="Page_137">[Pg 137]</a></span> but good-night. The De +Guenthers talked a little longer to Phyllis, and were gone also. Phyllis +flung herself full-length on the rugs and pillows before the fire, too +tired to move further.</p> + +<p>Well, she had everything that she had wished for on that wet February +day in the library. Money, leisure to be pretty, a husband whom she +"didn't have to associate with much," rest, if she ever gave herself +leave to take it, and the rose-garden. She had her wishes, as uncannily +fulfilled as if she had been ordering her fate from a department store, +and had money to pay for it.... And back there in the city it was +somebody's late night, and that somebody—it would be Anna Black's turn, +wouldn't it?—was struggling with John Zanowskis and Sadie Rabinowitzes +by the lapful, just as she had. And yet—and yet they had really cared +for her, those dirty, dear little foreigners of hers. But she'd had to +work for their liking.... Perhaps—perhaps she could make Allan +Harrington like her as much as the children did. He had been so kind +to-night about<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_138" id="Page_138">[Pg 138]</a></span> the move and all, and so much brighter, her handsome +Allan in his gray, every-day-looking man-clothes! If she could stay +brave enough and kind enough and bright enough ... her eyelids +drooped.... Wallis was standing respectfully over her.</p> + +<p>"Mrs. Harrington," he was saying, with a really masterly ignoring of her +attitude on the rug, "Mr. Harrington says you haven't bid him good-night +yet."</p> + +<p>An amazing message! Had she been in the habit of it, that he demanded it +like a small boy? But she sprang up and followed Wallis into Allan's +room. He was lying back in his white silk sleeping things among the +white bed-draperies, looking as he always had before. Only, he seemed +too alive and awake still for his old rôle of Crusader-on-a-tomb.</p> + +<p>"Phyllis," he began eagerly, as she sat down beside him, "what made you +so frightened when I first came? Wallis hadn't worried you, had he?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, no; it wasn't that at all," said Phyllis. "And thank you for being +so generous about it all."<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_139" id="Page_139">[Pg 139]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I wasn't generous," said her husband. "I behaved like everything to old +Wallis about it. Well, what was it, then?"</p> + +<p>"I—I—only—you looked so different in—<i>clothes</i>," pleaded Phyllis, +"like any man my age or older—as if you might get up and go to +business, or play tennis, or anything, and—and I was <i>afraid</i> of you! +That's all, truly!"</p> + +<p>She was sitting on the bed's edge, her eyes down, her hands quivering in +her lap, the picture of a school-girl who isn't quite sure whether she's +been good or not.</p> + +<p>"Why, that sounds truthful!" said Allan, and laughed. It was the first +time she had heard him, and she gave a start. Such a clear, cheerful, +<i>young</i> laugh! Maybe he would laugh more, by and by, if she worked hard +to make him.</p> + +<p>"Good-night, Allan," she said.</p> + +<p>"Aren't you going to kiss me good-night?" demanded this new Allan, +precisely as if she had been doing it ever since she met him. Evidently +that kiss three hours ago had created a precedent. Phyllis colored to +her ears. She seemed to herself to be<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_140" id="Page_140">[Pg 140]</a></span> always coloring now. But she +mustn't cross Allan, tired as he must be!</p> + +<p>"Good-night, Allan," she said again sedately, and kissed his cheek as +she had done a month ago—years ago!—when they had been married. Then +she fled.</p> + +<p>"Wallis," said his master dreamily when his man appeared again, "I want +some more real clothes. Tired of sleeping-suits. Get me some, please. +Good-night."</p> + +<p>As for Phyllis, in her little green-and-white room above him, she was +crying comfortably into her pillow. She had not the faintest idea why, +except that she liked doing it. She felt, through her sleepiness, a +faint, hungry, pleasant want of something, though she hadn't an idea +what it could be. She had everything, except that it wasn't time for the +roses to be out yet. Probably that was the trouble.... Roses.... She, +too, went to sleep.</p> + +<hr style='width: 45%;' /> + +<p>"How did Mr. Allan pass the night?" Phyllis asked Wallis anxiously, +standing outside his door next morning. She had been up since seven, +speeding the parting<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_141" id="Page_141">[Pg 141]</a></span> guests and interviewing the cook and chambermaid. +Mrs. Clancy's choice had been cheerful to a degree, and black, all of +it; a fat Virginia cook, a slim young Tuskegee chambermaid of a pale +saddle-color, and a shiny brown outdoor man who came from nowhere in +particular, but was very useful now he was here. Phyllis had seen them +all this morning, and found them everything servants should be. Now she +was looking after Allan, as her duty was.</p> + +<p>Wallis beamed from against the door-post, his tray in his hands.</p> + +<p>"Mrs. Harrington, it's one of the best sleeps Mr. Allan's had! Four +hours straight, and then sleeping still, if broken, till six! And still +taking interest in things. Oh, ma'am, you should have heard him +yesterday on the train, as furious as furious! It was beautiful!"</p> + +<p>"Then his spine wasn't jarred," said Phyllis thoughtfully. "Wallis, I +believe there was more nervous shock and nervous depression than ever +the doctors realized. And I believe all he needs is to be kept happy, to +be much, much better. Wouldn't<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_142" id="Page_142">[Pg 142]</a></span> it be wonderful if he got so he could +move freely from the waist up? I believe that may happen if we can keep +him cheered and interested."</p> + +<p>Wallis looked down at his tray. "Yes, ma'am," he said. "Not to speak ill +of the dead, Mrs. Harrington, the late Mrs. Harrington was always saying +'My poor stricken boy,' and things like that—'Do not jar him with +ill-timed light or merriment,' and reminding him how bad he was. And she +certainly didn't jar him with any merriment, ma'am."</p> + +<p>"What were the doctors thinking about?" demanded Phyllis indignantly.</p> + +<p>"Well, ma'am, they did all sorts of things to poor Mr. Allan for the +first year or so. And then, as nothing helped, and they couldn't find +out what was wrong to have paralyzed him so, he begged to have them +stopped hurting him. So we haven't had one for the past five years."</p> + +<p>"I think a masseur and a wheel-chair are the next things to get," said +Phyllis decisively. "And remember, Wallis, there's something the matter +with Mr. Allan's<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_143" id="Page_143">[Pg 143]</a></span> shutters. They won't always close the sunshine out as +they should."</p> + +<p>Wallis almost winked, if an elderly, mutton-chopped servitor can be +imagined as winking.</p> + +<p>"No, ma'am," he promised. "Something wrong with 'em. I'll remember, +ma'am."</p> + +<p>Phyllis went singing on down the sunny old house, swinging her colored +muslin skirts and prancing a little with sheer joy of being twenty-five, +and prettily dressed, with a dear house all her own, and—yes—a dear +Allan a little her own, too! Doing well for a man what another woman has +done badly has a perennial joy for a certain type of woman, and this was +what Phyllis was in the very midst of. She pranced a little more, and +came almost straight up against a long old mirror with gilt cornices, +which had come with the house and was staying with it. Phyllis stopped +and looked critically at herself.</p> + +<p>"I haven't taken time yet to be pretty," she reminded the girl in the +glass, and began then and there to take account of stock, by way of +beginning. Why—a good deal had<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_144" id="Page_144">[Pg 144]</a></span> done itself! Her hair had been washed +and sunned and sunned and washed about every ten minutes since she had +been away from the library. It was springy and three shades more golden. +She had not been rushing out in all weathers unveiled, nor washing +hastily with hard water and cheap library soap eight or ten times a day, +because private houses are comparatively clean places. So her complexion +had been getting back, unnoticed, a good deal of its original country +rose-and-cream, with a little gold glow underneath. And the tired +heaviness was gone from her eyelids, because she had scarcely used her +eyes since she had married Allan—there had been too much else to do! +The little frown-lines between the brows had gone, too, with the need of +reading-glasses and work under electricity. She was more rounded, and +her look was less intent. The strained Liberry Teacher look was gone. +The luminous long blue eyes in the glass looked back at her girlishly. +"Would you think we were twenty-five even?" they said. Phyllis smiled +irrepressibly at the mirrored girl.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_145" id="Page_145">[Pg 145]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Yas'm," said the rich and comfortable voice of Lily-Anna, the cook, +from the dining-room door; "you sholy is pretty. Yas'm—a lady <i>wants</i> +to stay pretty when she's married. Yo' don' look much mo'n a bride, +ma'am, an' dat's a fac'. Does you want yo' dinnehs brought into de +sittin'-room regular till de gem'man gits well?"</p> + +<p>"Yes—no—yes—for the present, any way," said Phyllis, with a mixture +of confusion and dignity. Fortunately the doorbell chose this time to +ring.</p> + +<p>A business-like young messenger with a rocking crate wanted to speak to +the madam. The last item on Phyllis's shopping list had come.</p> + +<p>"The wolfhound's doing fine, ma'am," the messenger answered in response +to her questions. "Like a different dog already. All he needed was +exercise and a little society. Yes'm, this pup's broken—in a manner, +that is. Your man picked you out the best-tempered little feller in the +litter. Here, Foxy—careful, lady! Hold on to his leash!"</p> + +<p>There was the passage of the check, a<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_146" id="Page_146">[Pg 146]</a></span> few directions about +dog-biscuits, and then the messenger from the kennels drove back to the +station, the crate, which had been emptied of a wriggling six-months +black bull-dog, on the seat beside him.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_147" id="Page_147">[Pg 147]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="XII" id="XII"></a>XII</h2> + + +<p>Allan, lying at the window of the sunny bedroom, and wondering if they +had been having springs like this all the time he had lived in the city, +heard a scuffle outside the door. His wife's voice inquired breathlessly +of Wallis, "Can Mr. Allan—see me?... Oh, gracious—<i>don't</i>, Foxy, you +little black gargoyle! Open the door, or—shut it—quick, Wallis!"</p> + +<p>But the door, owing to circumstances over which nobody but the black dog +had any control, flew violently open here, and Allan had a flying vision +of his wife, flushed, laughing, and badly mussed, being railroaded +across the room by a prancingly exuberant French bull at the end of a +leash.</p> + +<p>"He's—he's a cheerful dog," panted Phyllis, trying to bring Foxy to +anchor near Allan, "and I don't think he knows how to keep still long +enough to pose across your feet—he wouldn't become them anyhow—he's a +real man-dog, Allan, not an interior decoration.... Oh, Wallis,<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_148" id="Page_148">[Pg 148]</a></span> he has +Mr. Allan's slipper! Foxy, you little fraud! Did him want a drink, +angel-puppy?"</p> + +<p>"Did you get him for me, Phyllis?" asked Allan when the tumult and the +shouting had died, and the caracoling Foxy had buried his hideous little +black pansy-face in a costly Belleek dish of water.</p> + +<p>"Yes," gasped Phyllis from her favorite seat, the floor; "but you +needn't keep him unless you want to. I can keep him where you'll never +see him—can't I, honey-dog-gums? Only I thought he'd be company for +you, and don't you think he seems—cheerful?"</p> + +<p>Allan threw his picturesque head back on the cushions, and laughed and +laughed.</p> + +<p>"Cheerful!" he said. "Most assuredly! Why—thank you, ever so much, +Phyllis. You're an awfully thoughtful girl. I always did like bulls—had +one in college, a Nelson. Come here, you little rascal!"</p> + +<p>He whistled, and the puppy lifted its muzzle from the water, made a +dripping dash to the couch, and scrambled up over Allan as if they had +owned each other<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_149" id="Page_149">[Pg 149]</a></span> since birth. Never was a dog less weighed down by the +glories of ancestry.</p> + +<p>Allan pulled the flopping bat-ears with his most useful hand, and asked +with interest, "Why on earth did they call a French bull Foxy?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, sir," said Wallis. "I understand, sir, that he was the most active +and playful of the litter, and chewed up all his brothers' ears, sir. +And the kennel people thought it was so clever that they called him +Foxy."</p> + +<p>"The best-tempered dog in the litter!" cried Phyllis, bursting into +helpless laughter from the floor.</p> + +<p>"That doesn't mean he's bad-tempered," explained master and man eagerly +together. Phyllis began to see that she had bought a family pet as much +for Wallis as for Allan. She left them adoring the dog with that +reverent emotion which only very ugly bull-dogs can wake in a man's +breast, and flitted out, happy over the success of her new toy for +Allan.</p> + +<p>"Take him out when he gets too much for Mr. Allan," she managed to say +softly<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_150" id="Page_150">[Pg 150]</a></span> to Wallis as she passed him. But, except for a run or so for his +health, Wallis and Allan between them kept the dog in the bedroom most +of the day. Phyllis, in one of her flying visits, found the little +fellow, tired with play, dog-biscuits, and other attentions, snuggled +down by his master, his little crumpled black muzzle on the pillow close +to Allan's contented, sleeping face. She felt as if she wanted to cry. +The pathetic lack of interests which made the coming of a new little dog +such an event!</p> + +<p>Before she hung one more picture, before she set up even a book from the +boxes which had been her father's, before she arranged one more article +of furniture, she telephoned to the village for the regular delivery of +four daily papers, and a half-dozen of the most masculine magazines she +could think of on the library lists. She had never known of Allan's +doing any reading. That he had cared for books before the accident, she +knew. At any rate, she was resolved to leave no point uncovered that +might, just possibly <i>might</i>, help her Allan just a little way to +interest in life, which she felt to be<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_151" id="Page_151">[Pg 151]</a></span> the way to recovery. He liked +being told stories to, any way.</p> + +<p>"Do you think Mr. Allan will feel like coming into the living-room +to-day?" she asked Wallis, meeting him in the hall about two o'clock.</p> + +<p>"Why, he's dressed, ma'am," was Wallis's astonishing reply, "and him and +the pup is having a fine game of play. He's got more use of that hand +an' arm, ma'am, than we thought."</p> + +<p>"Do you think he'd care to be wheeled into the living-room about four?" +asked Phyllis.</p> + +<p>"For tea, ma'am?" inquired Wallis, beaming. "I should think so, ma'am. +I'll ask, anyhow."</p> + +<p>Phyllis had not thought of tea—one does not stop for such leisurely +amenities in a busy public library—but she saw the beauty of the idea, +and saw to it that the tea was there. Lily-Anna was a jewel. She built +the fire up to a bright flame, and brought in some daffodils from the +garden without a word from her mistress. Phyllis herself saw that the +victrola was in readi<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_152" id="Page_152">[Pg 152]</a></span>ness, and cleared a space for the couch near the +fire. There was quite a festal feeling.</p> + +<p>The talking-machine was also a surprise for Allan. Phyllis thought +afterward that she should have saved it for another day, but the +temptation to grace the occasion with it was too strong. She and Allan +were as excited over it as a couple of children, and the only drawback +to Allan's enjoyment was that he obviously wanted to take the records +out of her unaccustomed fingers and adjust them himself. He knew how, it +appeared, and Phyllis naturally didn't. However, she managed to follow +his directions successfully. She had bought recklessly of rag-time +discs, and provided a fair amount of opera selections. Allan seemed +equally happy over both. After the thing had been playing for +three-quarters of an hour, and most of the records were exhausted, +Phyllis rang for tea. It was getting a little darker now, and the +wood-fire cast fantastic red and black lights and shadows over the room. +It was very intimate and thrilling to Phyllis suddenly, the fire-lit +room, with just their two<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_153" id="Page_153">[Pg 153]</a></span> selves there. Allan, on his couch before the +fire, looked bright and contented. The adjustable couch-head had been +braced to such a position that he was almost sitting up. The bull-dog, +who had lately come back from a long walk with the gratified outdoor +man, snored regularly on the rug near his master, wakening enough to bat +his tail on the floor if he was referred to. The little tea-table was +between Allan and Phyllis, crowned with a bunch of apple-blossoms, whose +spring-like scent dominated the warm room. Phyllis, in her green gown, +her cheeks pink with excitement, was waiting on her lord and master a +little silently.</p> + +<p>Allan watched her amusedly for awhile—she was as intent as a good child +over her tea-ball and her lemon and her little cakes.</p> + +<p>"Say something, Phyllis," he suggested with the touch of mischief she +was not yet used to, coming from him.</p> + +<p>"This is a serious matter," she replied gravely. "Do you know I haven't +made tea—afternoon tea, that is—for so long it's a wonder I know which +is the cup and which is the saucer?"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_154" id="Page_154">[Pg 154]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Why not?" he asked idly, yet interestedly too.</p> + +<p>"I was otherwise occupied. I was a Daughter of Toil," explained Phyllis +serenely, setting down her own cup to relax in her chair, hands behind +her head; looking, in her green gown, the picture of graceful, strong, +young indolence. "I was a librarian—didn't you know?"</p> + +<p>"No. I wish you'd tell me, if you don't mind," said Allan. "About you, I +mean, Phyllis. Do you know, I feel awfully married to you this +afternoon—you've bullied me so much it's no wonder—and I really ought +to know about my wife's dark past."</p> + +<p>Phyllis's heart beat a little faster. She, too, had felt "awfully +married" here alone in the fire-lit living-room, dealing so intimately +and gayly with Allan.</p> + +<p>"There isn't much to tell," she said soberly.</p> + +<p>"Come over here closer," commanded Allan the spoilt. "We've both had all +the tea we want. Come close by the couch. I want to see you when you +talk."<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_155" id="Page_155">[Pg 155]</a></span></p> + +<p>Phyllis did as he ordered.</p> + +<p>"I was a New England country minister's daughter," she began. "New +England country ministers always know lots about Greek and Latin and how +to make one dollar do the work of one-seventy-five, but they never have +any dollars left when the doing's over. Father and I lived alone +together always, and he taught me things, and I petted him—fathers need +it, specially when they have country congregations—and we didn't bother +much about other folks. Then he—died. I was eighteen, and I had six +hundred dollars. I couldn't do arithmetic, because Father had always +said it was left out of my head, and I needn't bother with it. So I +couldn't teach. Then they said, 'You like books, and you'd better be a +librarian.' As a matter of fact, a librarian never gets a chance to +read, but you can't explain that to the general public. So I came to the +city and took the course at library school. Then I got a position in the +Greenway Branch—two years in the circulating desk, four in the +cataloguing room, and one in the Children's<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_156" id="Page_156">[Pg 156]</a></span> Department. The short and +simple annals of the poor!"</p> + +<p>"Go on," said Allan.</p> + +<p>"I believe it's merely that you like the sound of the human voice," said +Phyllis, laughing. "I'm going to go on with the story of the Five Little +Pigs—you'll enjoy it just as much!"</p> + +<p>"Exactly," said Allan. "Tell me what it was like in the library, +please."</p> + +<p>"It was rather interesting," said Phyllis, yielding at once. "There are +so many different things to be done that you never feel any monotony, as +I suppose a teacher does. But the hours are not much shorter than a +department store's, and it's exacting, on-your-feet work all the time. I +liked the work with the children best. Only—you never have any time to +be anything but neat in a library, and you do get so tired of being just +neat, if you're a girl."</p> + +<p>"And a pretty one," said Allan. "I don't suppose the ugly ones mind as +much."</p> + +<p>It was the first thing he had said about her looks. Phyllis's ready +color came into her cheeks. So he thought she was pretty!<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_157" id="Page_157">[Pg 157]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Do you—think I'm pretty?" she asked breathlessly. She couldn't help +it.</p> + +<p>"Of course I do, you little goose," said Allan, smiling at her.</p> + +<p>Phyllis plunged back into the middle of her story:</p> + +<p>"You see, you can't sit up nights to sew much, or practise doing your +hair new ways, because you need all your strength to get up when the +alarm-clock barks next morning. And then, there's always the +money-worry, if you have nothing but your salary. Of course, this last +year, when I've been getting fifty dollars a month, things have been all +right. But when it was only thirty a month in the Circulation—well, +that was pretty hard pulling," said Phyllis thoughtfully. "But the +worst—the worst, Allan, was waking up nights and wondering what would +happen if you broke down for a long time. Because you <i>can't</i> very well +save for sickness-insurance on even fifty a month. And the work—well, +of course, most girls' work is just a little more than they have the +strength for, always. But I was awfully lucky to get<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_158" id="Page_158">[Pg 158]</a></span> into children's +work. Some of my imps, little Poles and Slovaks and Hungarians mostly, +are the cleverest, most affectionate babies——"</p> + +<p>She began to tell him stories of wonderful ten-year-olds who were +Socialists by conviction, and read economics, and dazed little atypical +sixteen-year-olds who read Mother Goose, and stopped even that because +they got married.</p> + +<p>"You poor little girl!" said Allan, unheeding. "What brutes they were to +you! Well, thank Heaven, that's over now!"</p> + +<p>"Why, Allan!" she said, laying a soothing hand on his. "Nobody was a +brute. There's never more than one crank-in-authority in any library, +they say. Ours was the Supervisor of the Left Half of the Desk, and +after I got out of Circulation I never saw anything of her."</p> + +<p>Allan burst into unexpected laughter. "It sounds like a Chinese title of +honor," he explained. "'Grand Warder of the Emperor's Left +Slipper-Rosette,' or something of the sort."</p> + +<p>"The Desk's where you get your books<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_159" id="Page_159">[Pg 159]</a></span> stamped," she explained, "and the +two shifts of girls who attend to that part of the work each have a +supervisor—the Right and Left halves. The one that was horrid had +favorites, and snapped at the ones that weren't. I wasn't under her, +though. My Supervisor was lovely, an Irishwoman with the most florid +hats, and the kindest, most just disposition, and always laughing. We +all adored her, she was so fair-minded."</p> + +<p>"You think a good deal about laughing," said Allan thoughtfully. "Does it +rank as a virtue in libraries, or what?"</p> + +<p>"You have to laugh," explained Phyllis. "If you don't see the laugh-side +of things, you see the cry-side. And you can't afford to be unhappy if +you have to earn your living. People like brightness best. And it's more +comfortable for yourself, once you get used to it."</p> + +<p>"So that was your philosophy of life," said Allan. His hand tightened +compassionately on hers. "You <i>poor</i> little girl!... Tell me about the +cry-side, Phyllis."</p> + +<p>His voice was very moved and caressing, and the darkness was deepening +as the fire<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_160" id="Page_160">[Pg 160]</a></span> sank. Only an occasional tongue of flame glinted across +Phyllis's silver slipper-buckle and on the seal-ring Allan wore. It was +easy to tell things there in the perfumed duskiness. It was a great many +years since any one had cared to hear the cry-side. And it was so dark, +and the hand keeping hers in the shadows might have been any kind, +comforting hand. She found herself pouring it all out to Allan, there +close by her; the loneliness, the strain, the hard work, the lack of all +the woman-things in her life, the isolation and dreariness at night, the +over-fatigue, and the hurt of watching youth and womanhood sliding away, +unused, with nothing to show for all the years; only a cold hope that +her flock of little transient aliens might be a little better for the +guidance she could give them—</p> + +<p> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">Years hence in rustic speech a phrase,</span><br /> +<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">As in rude earth a Grecian vase.</span><br /> +</p> + +<p>And then, that wet, discouraged day in February, and the vision of Eva +Atkinson, radiantly fresh and happy, kept young and pretty by unlimited +money and time.</p> + +<p>"Her children were so pretty," said<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_161" id="Page_161">[Pg 161]</a></span> Phyllis wistfully, "and mine, dear +little villains, were such dirty, untaught, rude little things—oh, it +sounds snobbish, but I'd have given everything I had to have a dainty, +clean little <i>lady</i>-child throw her arms around me and kiss me, instead +of my pet little handsome, sticky Polish Jewess. Up at home everything +had been so clean and old and still that you always could remember it +had been finished for three hundred years. And Father's clean, still old +library——"</p> + +<p>Phyllis did not know how she was revealing to Allan the unconscious +motherhood in her; but Allan, femininely sensitive to unspoken things +from his long sojourn in the dark—Allan did. It was the mother-instinct +that she was spending on him, but mother-instinct of a kind he had never +known before; gayly self-effacing, efficient, shown only in its results. +And she could never have anything else to spend it on, he thought. Well, +he was due to die in a few years.... But he didn't want to. Living was +just beginning to be interesting again, somehow. There seemed no +satis<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_162" id="Page_162">[Pg 162]</a></span>factory solution for the two of them.... Well, he'd be unselfish +and die, any way. Meanwhile, why not be happy? Here was Phyllis. His +hand clasped hers more closely.</p> + +<p>"And when Mr. De Guenther made me that offer," she murmured, coloring in +the darkness, "I was tired and discouraged, and the years seemed so +endless! It didn't seem as though I'd be harming any one—but I wouldn't +have done it if you'd said a word against it—truly I wouldn't, dear."</p> + +<p>The last little word slipped out unnoticed. She had been calling her +library children "dear" for a year now, and the word slipped out of +itself. But Allan liked it.</p> + +<p>"My poor little girl!" he said. "In your place I'd have married the +devil himself—up against a life like that."</p> + +<p>"Then—then you don't—mind?" asked Phyllis anxiously, as she had asked +before.</p> + +<p>"No, indeed!" said Allan, with a little unnecessary firmness. "I <i>told</i> +you that, didn't I? I like it."</p> + +<p>"So you did tell me," she said penitently.</p> + +<p>"But supposing De Guenther hadn't picked out some one like you——"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_163" id="Page_163">[Pg 163]</a></span></p> + +<p>"That's just what I've often thought myself," said Phyllis naively. "She +might have been much worse than I.... Oh, but I was frightened when I +saw you first! I didn't know what you'd be like. And then, when I looked +at you——"</p> + +<p>"Well, when you looked at me?" demanded Allan.</p> + +<p>But Phyllis refused to go on.</p> + +<p>"But that's not all," said Allan. "What about—men?"</p> + +<p>"What men?" asked Phyllis innocently.</p> + +<p>"Why, men you were interested in, of course," he answered.</p> + +<p>"There weren't any," said Phyllis. "I hadn't any place to meet them, or +anywhere to entertain them if I had met them. Oh, yes, there was one—an +old bookkeeper at the boarding-house. All the boarders there were old. +That was why the people at home had chosen it. They thought it would be +safe. It was all of that!"</p> + +<p>"Well, the bookkeeper?" demanded Allan. "You're straying off from your +narrative. The bookkeeper, Phyllis, my dear!"</p> + +<p>"I'm telling you about him," protested<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_164" id="Page_164">[Pg 164]</a></span> Phyllis. "He was awfully cross +because I wouldn't marry him, but I didn't see any reason why I should. +I didn't like him especially, and I would probably have gone on with my +work afterwards. There didn't seem to me to be anything to it for any +one but him—for of course I'd have had his mending and all that to do +when I came home from the library, and I scarcely got time for my own. +But he lost his temper fearfully because I didn't want to. Then, of +course, men would try to flirt in the library, but the janitor always +made them go out when you asked him to. He loved doing it.... Why, +Allan, it must be seven o'clock! Shall I turn on more lights?"</p> + +<p>"No.... Then you were quite as shut up in your noisy library as I was in +my dark rooms," said Allan musingly.</p> + +<p>"I suppose I was," she said, "though I never thought of it before. You +mustn't think it was horrid. It was fun, lots of it. Only, there wasn't +any being a real girl in it."</p> + +<p>"There isn't much in this, I should think,"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_165" id="Page_165">[Pg 165]</a></span> said Allan savagely, +"except looking after a big doll."</p> + +<p>Phyllis's laugh tinkled out. "Oh, I <i>love</i> playing with dolls," she said +mischievously. "And you ought to see my new slippers! I have pink ones, +and blue ones, and lavender and green, all satin and suede. And when I +get time I'm going to buy dresses to match. And a banjo, maybe, with a +self-teacher. There's a room upstairs where nobody can hear a thing you +do. I've wanted slippers and a banjo ever since I can remember."</p> + +<p>"Then you're fairly happy?" demanded Allan suddenly.</p> + +<p>"Why, of course!" said Phyllis, though she had not really stopped to ask +herself before whether she was or not. There had been so many exciting +things to do. "Wouldn't you be happy if you could buy everything you +wanted, and every one was lovely to you, and you had pretty clothes and +a lovely house—and a rose-garden?"</p> + +<p>"Yes—if I could buy everything I wanted," said Allan. His voice dragged +a little. Phyllis sprang up, instantly penitent.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_166" id="Page_166">[Pg 166]</a></span></p> + +<p>"You're tired, and I've been talking and talking about my silly little +woes till I've worn you out!" she said. "But—Allan, you're getting +better. Try to move this arm. The hand I'm holding. There! That's a lot +more than you could do when I first came. I think—I think it would be a +good plan for a masseur to come down and see it."</p> + +<p>"Now look here, Phyllis," protested Allan, "I like your taste in houses +and music-boxes and bull-dogs, but I'll be hanged if I'll stand for a +masseur. There's no use, they can't do me any good, and the last one +almost killed me. There's no reason why I should be tormented simply +because a professional pounder needs the money."</p> + +<p>"No, no!" said Phyllis. "Not that kind! Wallis can have orders to shoot +him or something if he touches your spinal column. All I meant was a man +who would give the muscles of your arms and shoulders a little exercise. +That couldn't hurt, and might help you use them. That wouldn't be any +trouble, would it? <i>Please!</i> The first minute he hurts, you can send him +flying.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_167" id="Page_167">[Pg 167]</a></span> You know they call massage lazy people's exercise."</p> + +<p>"I believe you're really interested in making me better," said Allan, +after a long silence.</p> + +<p>"Why, of course," said Phyllis, laughing. "That's what I'm here for!"</p> + +<p>But this answer did not seem to suit Allan, for some reason. Phyllis +said no more about the masseur. She only decided to summon him, any way. +And presently Wallis came in and turned all the lights on.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_168" id="Page_168">[Pg 168]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="XIII" id="XIII"></a>XIII</h2> + + +<p>In due course of time June came. So did the masseur, and more flowered +frocks for Phyllis, and the wheel-chair for Allan. The immediate effect +of June was to bring out buds all over the rose-trees; of the flowered +dresses, to make Phyllis very picturesquely pretty. As for the masseur, +he had more effect than anything else. It was as Phyllis had hoped: the +paralysis of Allan's arms had been less permanent than any one had +thought, and for perhaps the last three years there had been little more +the matter than entire loss of strength and muscle-control, from long +disuse. By the time they had been a month in the country Allan's use of +his arms and shoulders was nearly normal, and Phyllis was having wild +hopes, that she confided to no one but Wallis, of even more sweeping +betterments. Allan slept much better, from the slight increase of +activity, and also perhaps because Phyllis had coaxed him outdoors as +soon as the weather became warm, and was keeping<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_169" id="Page_169">[Pg 169]</a></span> him there. Sometimes +he lay in the garden on his couch, sometimes he sat up in the +wheel-chair, almost always with Phyllis sitting, or lying in her hammock +near him, and the devoted Foxy pretending to hunt something near by.</p> + +<p>There were occasional fits of the old depression and silence, when Allan +would lie silently in his own room with his hands crossed and his eyes +shut, answering no one—not even Foxy. Wallis and Phyllis respected +these moods, and left him alone till they were over, but the adoring +Foxy had no such delicacy of feeling. And it is hard to remain silently +sunk in depression when an active small dog is imploring you by every +means he knows to throw balls for him to run after. For the rest, Allan +proved to have naturally a lighter heart and more carefree disposition +than Phyllis. His natural disposition was buoyant. Wallis said that he +had never had a mood in his life till the accident.</p> + +<p>His attitude to his wife became more and more a taking-for-granted +affection and dependence. It is to be feared that<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_170" id="Page_170">[Pg 170]</a></span> Phyllis spoiled him +badly. But it was so long since she had been needed by any one person as +Allan needed her! And he had such lovable, illogical, masculine ways of +being wronged if he didn't get the requisite amount of petting, and +grateful for foolish little favors and taking big ones for granted, +that—entirely, as Phyllis insisted to herself, from a sense of combined +duty and grateful interest—she would have had her pretty head removed +and sent him by parcel-post, if he had idly suggested his possible need +of a girl's head some time.</p> + +<p>And it was so heavenly—oh, but it was heavenly there in Phyllis's +rose-garden, with the colored flowers coming out, and the little green +caterpillars roaming over the leaves, and pretty dresses to wear, and +Foxy-dog to play with—and Allan! Allan demanded—no, not exactly +demanded, but expected and got—so much of Phyllis's society in these +days that she had learned to carry on all her affairs, even the +housekeeping, out in her hammock by his wheel-chair or couch. She wore +large, floppy white hats with roses on them, by way of<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_171" id="Page_171">[Pg 171]</a></span> keeping the sun +off; but Allan, it appeared, did not think much of hats except as an +ornament for girls, and his uncovered curly hair was burned to a sort of +goldy-russet all through, and his pallor turned to a clear pale brown.</p> + +<p>Phyllis looked up from her work one of these heavenly last-of-June days, +and tried to decide whether she really liked the change or not. Allan +was handsomer unquestionably, though that had hardly been necessary. But +the resignedly statuesque look was gone.</p> + +<p>Allan felt her look, and looked up at her. He had been reading a +magazine, for Phyllis had succeeded in a large measure in reviving his +taste for magazines and books. "Well, Phyllis, my dear," said he, +smiling, "what's the problem now? I feel sure there is something new +going to be sprung on me—get the worst over!"</p> + +<p>"You wrong me," she said, beginning to thread some more pink embroidery +silk. "I was only wondering whether I liked you as well tanned as I did +when you were so nice and white, back in the city."<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_172" id="Page_172">[Pg 172]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Cheerful thought!" said Allan, laying down his magazine entirely. +"Shall I ring for Wallis and some peroxide? As you said the other day, +'I have to be approved of or I'm unhappy!'"</p> + +<p>"Oh, it really doesn't matter," said Phyllis mischievously. "You know, I +married you principally for a rose-garden, and that's <i>lovely</i>!"</p> + +<p>"I suppose I spoil the perspective," said Allan, unexpectedly ruffled.</p> + +<p>Phyllis leaned forward in her blossom-dotted draperies and stroked his +hand, that long carven hand she so loved to watch.</p> + +<p>"Not a bit, Allan," she said, laughing at him. "You're exceedingly +decorative! I remember the first time I saw you I thought you looked +exactly like a marble knight on a tomb."</p> + +<p>Allan—Allan the listless, tranced invalid of four months before—threw +his head back and shouted with laughter.</p> + +<p>"I suppose I serve the purpose of garden statuary," he said. "We used to +have some horrors when I was a kid. I remember two awful bronze deer +that always looked<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_173" id="Page_173">[Pg 173]</a></span> as if they were trying not to get their feet wet, +and a floppy bronze dog we called Fido. He was meant for a Gordon +setter, I think, but it didn't go much further than intention. Louise +and I used to ride the deer."</p> + +<p>His face shadowed a little as he spoke, for nearly the first time, of +the dead girl.</p> + +<p>"Allan," Phyllis said, bending closer to him, all rosy and golden in her +green hammock, "tell me about—Louise Frey—if you don't mind talking +about her? Would it be bad for you, do you think?"</p> + +<p>Allan's eyes dwelt on his wife pleasurably. She was very real and near +and lovable, and Louise Frey seemed far away and shadowy in his +thoughts. He had loved her very dearly and passionately, that +boisterous, handsome young Louise, but that gay boy-life she had +belonged to seemed separated now from this pleasant rose-garden, with +its golden-haired, wisely-sweet young chatelaine, by thousands of black +years. The blackness came back when he remembered what lay behind it.</p> + +<p>"There's nothing much to tell, Phyllis," he said, frowning a little. +"She was pretty<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_174" id="Page_174">[Pg 174]</a></span> and full of life. She had black hair and eyes and a +good deal of color. We were more or less friends all our lives, for our +country-places adjoined. She was eighteen when—it happened."</p> + +<p>"Eighteen," said Phyllis musingly. "She would have been just my age.... +We won't talk about it, then, Allan ... Well, Viola?"</p> + +<p>The pretty Tuskegee chambermaid was holding out a tray with a card on +it.</p> + +<p>"The doctor, ma'am," she said.</p> + +<p>"The doctor!" echoed Allan, half-vexed, half-laughing. "I <i>knew</i> you had +something up your sleeve, Phyllis! What on earth did you have him for?"</p> + +<p>Phyllis's face was a study of astonishment. "On my honor, I hadn't a +notion he was even in existence," she protested. "He's not <i>my</i> doctor!"</p> + +<p>"He must have 'just growed,' or else Lily-Anna's called him in," +suggested Allan sunnily. "Bring him along, Viola."</p> + +<p>Viola produced him so promptly that nobody had time to remember the +professional doctor's visits don't usually have<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_175" id="Page_175">[Pg 175]</a></span> cards, or thought to +look at the card for enlightenment. So the surprise was complete when +the doctor appeared.</p> + +<p>"Johnny Hewitt!" ejaculated Allan, throwing out both hands in greeting. +"Of all people! Well, you old fraud, pretending to be a doctor! The last +I heard about you, you were trying to prove that you weren't the man +that tied a mule into old Sumerley's chair at college."</p> + +<p>"I never did prove it," responded Johnny Hewitt, shaking hands +vigorously, "but the fellows said afterwards that I ought to +apologize—to the mule. He was a perfectly good mule. But I'm a doctor +all right. I live here in Wallraven. I wondered if it might be you by +any chance, Allan, when I heard some Harringtons had bought here. But +this is the first chance a promising young chickenpox epidemic has given +me to find out."</p> + +<p>"It's what's left of me," said Allan, smiling ruefully. "And—Phyllis, +this doctor-person turns out to be an old friend of mine. This is Mrs. +Harrington, Johnny."</p> + +<p>"Oh, I'm so glad!" beamed Phyllis,<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_176" id="Page_176">[Pg 176]</a></span> springing up from her hammock, and +looking as if she loved Johnny. Here was exactly what was +needed—somebody for Allan to play with! She made herself delightful to +the newcomer for a few minutes, and then excused herself. They would +have a better time alone, for awhile, any way, and there was dinner to +order. Maybe this Johnny Hewitt-doctor would stay for dinner. He should +if she could make him! She sang a little on her way to the house, and +almost forgot the tiny hurt it had been when Allan seemed so saddened by +speaking of Louise Frey. She had no right to feel hurt, she knew. It was +only to be expected that Allan would always love Louise's memory. She +didn't know much about men, but that was the way it always was in +stories. A man's heart would die, under an automobile or anywhere else, +and all there was left for anybody else was leavings. It wasn't fair! +And then Phyllis threw back her shoulders and laughed, as she had +sometimes in the library days, and reminded herself what a nice world it +was, any way, and that Allan was going to be<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_177" id="Page_177">[Pg 177]</a></span> much helped by Johnny +Hewitt. That was a cheering thought, anyhow. She went on singing, and +ordered a beautiful, festively-varied dinner, a very poem of gratitude. +Then she pounced on the doctor as he was leaving and made him stay for +it.</p> + +<p>Allan's eyes were bright and his face lighted with interest. Phyllis, at +the head of the table, kept just enough in the talk to push the men on +when it seemed flagging, which was not often. She learned more about +Allan, and incidentally Johnny Hewitt, in the talk as they lingered +about the table, than she had ever known before. She and Allan had lived +so deliberately in the placid present, with its almost childish +brightnesses and interests, that she knew scarcely more about her +husband's life than the De Guenthers had told her before she married +him. But she could see the whole picture of it as she listened now: the +active, merry, brilliant boy who had worked and played all day and +danced half the night; who had lived, it almost seemed to her, two or +three lives in one. And then the change to the darkened room—helpless, +unable<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_178" id="Page_178">[Pg 178]</a></span> to move, with the added sorrow of his sweetheart's death, and +his mother's deliberate fostering of that sorrow. It was almost a shock +to see him in the wheel-chair at the foot of the table, his face lighted +with interest in what he and his friend were saying. What if he did care +for Louise Frey's memory still! He'd had such a hard time that anything +Phyllis could do for him oughtn't to be too much!</p> + +<p>When Dr. Hewitt went at last Phyllis accompanied him to the door. She +kept him there for a few minutes, talking to him about Allan and making +him promise to come often. He agreed with her that, this much progress +made, a good deal more might follow. He promised to come back very soon, +and see as much of them as possible.</p> + +<p>Allan, watching them, out of earshot, from the living-room where he had +been wheeled, saw Phyllis smiling warmly up at his friend, lingering in +talk with him, giving him both hands in farewell; and he saw, too, +Hewitt's rapt interest and long leave-taking. At last the door closed, +and Phyllis<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_179" id="Page_179">[Pg 179]</a></span> came back to him, flushed and animated. He realized, +watching her return with that swift lightness of foot her long years of +work had lent her, how young and strong and lovely she was, with the +rose-color in her cheeks and the light from above making her hair +glitter. And suddenly her slim young strength and her bright vitality +seemed to mock him, instead of being a comfort and support as +heretofore. A young, beautiful, kind girl like that—it was natural she +should like Hewitt. And it was going to come natural to Hewitt to like +Phyllis. He could see that plainly enough.</p> + +<p>"Tired, Allan Harrington?" she asked brightly, coming over to him and +dropping a light hand on his chair, in a caressing little way she had +dared lately.... Kindness! Yes, she was the incarnation of kindness. +Doubtless she had spoken to and touched those little ragamuffins she had +told him of just so.</p> + +<p>He had got into a habit of feeling that Phyllis belonged to him +absolutely. He had forgotten—what was it she had said to him<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_180" id="Page_180">[Pg 180]</a></span> that +afternoon, half in fun—but oh, doubtless half in earnest!—about +marrying him for a rose-garden? She had done just that. She had never +made any secret of it—why, how could she, marrying him before she had +spoken a half-dozen words to him? But how wonderful she had been to him +since—sometimes almost as if she cared for him....</p> + +<p>He moved ungraciously. "Don't <i>touch</i> me, Phyllis!" he said irritably. +"Wallis! You can wheel me into my room."</p> + +<p>"Oh-h!" said Phyllis, behind him. The little forlorn sound hurt him, but +it pleased him, too. So he could hurt her, if only by rudeness? Well, +that was a satisfaction. "Shut the door," he ordered Wallis swiftly.</p> + +<p>Phyllis, her hands at her throat, stood hurt and frightened in the +middle of the room. It never occurred to her that Allan was jealous, or +indeed that he could care enough for her to be jealous.</p> + +<p>"It was talking about Louise Frey," she said. "That, and Dr. Hewitt +bringing up old times. Oh, <i>why</i> did I ask about her? He was +contented—I know he was con<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_181" id="Page_181">[Pg 181]</a></span>tented! He'd gotten to like having me with +him—he even wanted me. Oh, Allan, Allan!"</p> + +<p>She did not want to cry downstairs, so she ran for her own room. There +she threw herself down and cried into a pillow till most of the case was +wet. She was silly—she knew she was silly. She tried to think of all +the things that were still hers, the garden, the watch-bracelet, the +leisure, the pretty gowns—but nothing, <i>nothing</i> seemed of any +consequence beside the fact that—she had not kissed Allan good-night! +It seemed the most intolerable thing that had ever happened to her.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_182" id="Page_182">[Pg 182]</a></span></p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="XIV" id="XIV"></a>XIV</h2> + + +<p>It was just as well, perhaps, that Phyllis did not do much sleeping that +night, for at about two Wallis knocked at her door. It seemed like +history repeating itself when he said: "Could you come to Mr. Allan, +please? He seems very bad."</p> + +<p>She threw on the silk crepe negligee and followed him, just as she had +done before, on that long-ago night after her mother-in-law had died.</p> + +<p>"Did Dr. Hewitt's visit overexcite him, do you think?" he asked as they +went.</p> + +<p>"I don't know, ma'am," Wallis said. "He's almost as bad as he was after +the old madam died—you remember?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, yes," said Phyllis mechanically. "I remember."</p> + +<hr style='width: 45%;' /> + +<p>Allan lay so exactly as he had on that other night, that the strange +surroundings seemed incongruous. Just the same, except that his +restlessness was more visible, because he had more power of motion.</p> + +<p>She bent and held the nervously clench<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_183" id="Page_183">[Pg 183]</a></span>ing hands, as she had before. +"What is it, Allan?" she said soothingly.</p> + +<p>"Nothing," said her husband savagely. "Nerves, hysteria—any other silly +womanish thing a cripple could have. Let me alone, Phyllis. I wish you +could put me out of the way altogether!"</p> + +<p>Phyllis made herself laugh, though her heart hurried with fright. She +had seen Allan suffer badly before—be apathetic, irritable, despondent, +but never in a state where he did not cling to her.</p> + +<p>"I can't let you alone," she said brightly. "I've come to stay with you +till you feel quieter.... Would you rather I talked to you, or kept +quiet?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, do your wifely duty, whatever it is," he said.... "It was a +mistake, the whole thing. You've done more than your duty, child, +but—oh, you'd better go away."</p> + +<p>Phyllis's heart turned over. Was it as bad as this? Was he as sick of +her as this?</p> + +<p>"You mean—you think," she faltered, "it was a mistake—our marriage?"</p> + +<p>"Yes," he said restlessly. "Yes.... It wasn't fair."<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_184" id="Page_184">[Pg 184]</a></span></p> + +<p>She had no means of knowing that he meant it was unfair to her. She held +on to herself, though she felt her face turning cold with the sudden +pallor of fright.</p> + +<p>"I think it can be annulled," she said steadily. "No, I suppose it +wasn't fair."</p> + +<p>She stopped to get her breath and catch at the only things that +mattered—steadiness, quietness, ability to soothe Allan!</p> + +<p>"It can be annulled," she said again evenly. "But listen to me now, +Allan. It will take quite a while. It can't be done to-night, or before +you are stronger. So for your own sake you must try to rest now. +Everything shall come right. I promise you it shall be annulled. But +forget it now, please. I am going to hold your wrists and talk to you, +recite things for you, till you go back to sleep."</p> + +<p>She wondered afterwards how she could have spoken with that hard +serenity, how she could have gone steadily on with story after story, +poem after poem, till Allan's grip on her hands relaxed, and he fell +into a heavy, tired sleep.</p> + + +<div class="figcenter" style="width: 386px;"> +<img src="images/illus-189.jpg" width="386" height="600" alt="BUT YOU SEE—HE'S—ALL I HAVE" title="" /> +<span class="caption">"BUT YOU SEE—HE'S—ALL I HAVE ... GOOD-NIGHT, WALLIS"</span> +</div> + + +<p>She sat on the side of the bed and looked<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_185" id="Page_185">[Pg 185]</a></span> at him, lying still against +his white pillows. She looked and looked, and presently the tears began +to slide silently down her cheeks. She did not lift her hands to wipe +them away. She sat and cried silently, openly, like a desolate, unkindly +treated child.</p> + +<p>"Mrs. Allan! Mrs. Allan, ma'am!" came Wallis's concerned whisper from +the doorway. "Don't take it as hard as that. It's just a little relapse. +He was overtired. I shouldn't have called you, but you always quiet him +so."</p> + +<p>Phyllis brushed off her tears, and smiled. You seemed to have to do so +much smiling in this house!</p> + +<p>"I know," she said. "I worry about his condition too much. But you +see—he's—all I have.... Good-night, Wallis."</p> + +<p>Once out of Allan's room, she ran at full speed till she gained her own +bed, where she could cry in peace till morning if she wanted to, with no +one to interrupt. That was all right. The trouble was going to be next +morning.</p> + +<p>But somehow, when morning came, the old routine was dragged through +with. Direc<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_186" id="Page_186">[Pg 186]</a></span>tions had to be given the servants as usual, Allan's comfort +and amusement seen to, just as if nothing had happened. It was a perfect +day, golden and perfumed, with just that little tang of fresh windiness +that June days have in the northern states. And Allan must not lose +it—he must be wheeled out into the garden.</p> + +<p>She came out to him, in the place where they usually sat, and sank for a +moment in the hammock, that afternoon. She had avoided him all the +morning.</p> + +<p>"I just came to see if everything was all right," she said, leaning +toward him in that childlike, earnest way he knew so well. "I don't need +to stay here if I worry you."</p> + +<p>"I'd rather you'd stay, if you don't mind," he answered. Phyllis looked +at him intently. He was white and dispirited, and his voice was +listless. Oh, Phyllis thought, if Louise Frey had only been kind enough +to die in babyhood, instead of under Allan's automobile! What could +there have been about her to hold Allan so long? She glanced at his +weary face again. This would never do! What had<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_187" id="Page_187">[Pg 187]</a></span> come to be her dominant +instinct, keeping Allan's spirits up, emboldened her to bend forward, +and even laugh a little.</p> + +<p>"Come, Allan!" she said. "Even if we're not going to stay together +always, we might as well be cheerful till we do part. We used to be good +friends enough. Can't we be so a little longer?" It sounded heartless to +her after she had said it, but it seemed the only way to speak. She +smiled at him bravely.</p> + +<p>Allan looked at her mutely for a moment, as if she had hurt him.</p> + +<p>"You're right," he said suddenly. "There's no time but the present, +after all. Come over here, closer to me, Phyllis. You've been awfully +good to me, child—isn't there anything—<i>anything</i> I could do for +you—something you could remember afterwards, and say, 'Well, he did +that for me, any way?'"</p> + +<p>Phyllis's eyes filled with tears. "You have given me everything +already," she said, catching her breath. She didn't feel as if she could +stand much more of this.</p> + +<p>"Everything!" he said bitterly. "No, I<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_188" id="Page_188">[Pg 188]</a></span> haven't. I can't give you what +every girl wants—a well, strong man to be her husband—the health and +strength that any man in the street has."</p> + +<p>"Oh, don't speak that way, Allan!"</p> + +<p>She bent over him sympathetically, moved by his words. In another moment +the misunderstanding might have been straightened out, if it had not +been for his reply.</p> + +<p>"I wish I never had to see you at all!" he said involuntarily. In her +sensitive state of mind the hurt was all she felt—not the deeper +meaning that lay behind the words.</p> + +<p>"I'll relieve you of my presence for awhile," she flashed back. Before +she gave herself time to think, she had left the garden, with something +which might be called a flounce. "When people say things like that to +you," she said as she walked away from him, "it's carrying being an +invalid a little <i>too</i> far!"</p> + +<p>Allan heard the side-door slam. He had never suspected before that +Phyllis had a temper. And yet, what could he have said? But she gave him +no opportunity to<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_189" id="Page_189">[Pg 189]</a></span> find out. In just about the time it might take to +find gloves and a parasol, another door clanged in the distance. The +street door. Phyllis had evidently gone out.</p> + +<hr style='width: 45%;' /> + +<p>Phyllis, on her swift way down the street, grew angrier and angrier. She +tried to persuade herself to make allowances for Allan, but they refused +to be made. She felt more bitterly toward him than she ever had toward +any one in her life. If she only hadn't leaned over him and been sorry +for him, just before she got a slap in the face like that!</p> + +<p>She walked rapidly down the main street of the little village. She +hardly knew where she was going. She had been called on by most of the +local people, but she did not feel like being agreeable, or making +formal calls, just now. And what was the use of making friends, any way, +when she was going back to her rags, poor little Cinderella that she +was! Below and around and above everything else came the stinging +thought that she had given Allan so much—that she had taken so much for +granted.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_190" id="Page_190">[Pg 190]</a></span></p> + +<p>Her quick steps finally took her to the outskirts of the village, to a +little green stretch of woods. There she walked up and down for awhile, +trying to think more quietly. She found the tide of her anger ebbing +suddenly, and her mind forming all sorts of excuses for Allan. But that +was not the way to get quiet—thinking of Allan! She tried to put him +resolutely from her mind, and think about her own future plans. The +first thing to do, she decided, was to rub up her library work a little.</p> + +<p>It was with an unexpected feeling of having returned to her own place +that she crossed the marble floor of the village library. She felt as if +she ought to hurry down to the cloak-room, instead of waiting leisurely +at the desk for her card. It all seemed uncannily like home—there was +even a girl inside the desk who looked like Anna Black of her own +Greenway Branch. Phyllis could hear, with a faint amusement, that the +girl was scolding energetically in Anna Black's own way. The words +struck on her quick ears, though they were not intended to carry.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_191" id="Page_191">[Pg 191]</a></span></p> + +<p>"That's what comes of trusting to volunteer help. Telephones at the last +moment 'she has a headache,' and not a single soul to look after the +story-hour! And the children are almost all here already."</p> + +<p>"We'll just have to send them home," said the other girl, looking up +from her trayful of cards. "It's too late to get anybody else, and +goodness knows <i>we</i> can't get it in!"</p> + +<p>"They ought to have another librarian," fretted the girl who looked like +Anna. "They could afford it well enough, with their Soldiers' Monuments +and all."</p> + +<p>Phyllis smiled to herself from where she was investigating the +card-catalogue. It all sounded so exceedingly natural. Then that swift +instinct of hers to help caught her over to the desk, and she heard +herself saying:</p> + +<p>"I've had some experience in story telling; maybe I could help you with +the story-hour. I couldn't help hearing that your story-teller has +disappointed you."</p> + +<p>The girl like Anna fell on her with rapture.</p> + +<p>"Heaven must have sent you," she said.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_192" id="Page_192">[Pg 192]</a></span> The other one, evidently slower +and more cautious by nature, rose too, and came toward her. "You have a +card here, haven't you?" she said. "I think I've seen you."</p> + +<p>"Yes," Phyllis said, with a pang at speaking the name she had grown to +love bearing; "I'm Mrs. Harrington—Phyllis Harrington. We live at the +other end of the village."</p> + +<p>"Oh, in the house with the garden all shut off from the lane!" said the +girl like Anna, delightedly. "That lovely old house that used to belong +to the Jamesons. Oh, yes, I know. You're here for the summer, aren't +you, and your husband has been very ill?"</p> + +<p>"Exactly," said Phyllis, smiling, though she wished people wouldn't talk +about Allan! They seemed possessed to mention him!</p> + +<p>"We'll be obliged forever if you'll do it," said the other girl, +evidently the head librarian. "Can you do it now? The children are +waiting."</p> + +<p>"Certainly," said Phyllis, and followed<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_193" id="Page_193">[Pg 193]</a></span> the younger girl straightway to +the basement, where, it seemed, the story-hour was held. She wondered, +as they went, if the girl envied her her expensively perishable summer +organdie, with its flying sashes and costly accessories; if the girl +thought about her swinging jewelries and endless leisure with a wish to +have them for herself. She had wanted such things, she knew, when she +was being happy on fifty dollars a month. And perhaps some of the women +she had watched then had had heartaches under their furs....</p> + +<p>The children, already sitting in a decorous ring on their low chairs, +seemed after the first surprise to approve of Phyllis. The librarian +lingered for a little by way of keeping order if it should be necessary, +watched the competent sweep with which Phyllis gathered the children +around her, heard the opening of the story, and left with an air of +astonished approval. Phyllis, late best story-teller of the Greenway +Branch, watched her go with a bit of professional triumph in her heart.</p> + +<p>She told the children stories till the time<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_194" id="Page_194">[Pg 194]</a></span> was up, and then "just one +story more." She had not forgotten how, she found. But she never told +them the story of "How the Elephant Got His Trunk," that foolish, +fascinating story-hour classic that she had told Allan the night his +mother had died; the story that had sent him to sleep quietly for the +first time in years.... Oh, dear, was everything in the world connected +with Allan in some way or other?</p> + +<p>It was nearly six when she went up, engulfed in children, to the +circulating room. There the night-librarian caught her. She had +evidently been told to try to get Phyllis for more story-hours, for she +did her best to make her promise. They talked shop together for perhaps +an hour and a half. Then the growing twilight reminded Phyllis that it +was time to go back. She had been shirking going home, she realized now, +all the afternoon. She said good-by to the night-librarian, and went on +down the village street, lagging unconsciously. It must have been about +eight by this time.</p> + +<p>It was a mile back to the house. She<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_195" id="Page_195">[Pg 195]</a></span> could have taken the trolley part +of the way, but she felt restless and like walking. She had forgotten +that walking at night through well-known, well-lighted city streets, and +going in half-dusk through country byways, were two different things. +She was destined to be reminded of the difference.</p> + +<p>"Can you help a poor man, lady?" said a whining voice behind her, when +she had a quarter of the way yet to go. She turned to see a big tramp, a +terrifying brute with a half-propitiating, half-fierce look on his +heavy, unshaven face. She was desperately frightened. She had been +spoken to once or twice in the city, but there there was always a +policeman, or a house you could run into if you had to. But here, in the +unguarded dusk of a country lane, it was a different matter. The long +gold chain that swung below her waist, the big diamond on her finger, +the gold mesh-purse—all the jewelry she took such a childlike delight +in wearing—she remembered them in terror. She was no brown-clad little +working-girl now, to slip along disregarded. And the<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_196" id="Page_196">[Pg 196]</a></span> tramp did not look +like a deserving object.</p> + +<p>"If you will come to the house to-morrow," she said, hurrying on as she +spoke, "I'll have some work for you. The first house on this street that +you come to." She did not dare give him anything, or send him away.</p> + +<p>"Won't you gimme somethin' now, lady?" whined the tramp, continuing to +follow. "I'm a starvin' man."</p> + +<p>She dared not open her purse and appease him by giving him money—she +had too much with her. That morning she had received the check for her +monthly income from Mr. De Guenther, sent Wallis down to cash it, and +then stuffed it in her bag and forgotten it in the distress of the day. +The man might take the money and strike her senseless, even kill her.</p> + +<p>"To-morrow," she said, going rapidly on. She had now what would amount +to about three city blocks to traverse still. There was a short way from +outside the garden-hedge through to the garden, which cut off about a +half-block. If she could gain this she would be safe.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_197" id="Page_197">[Pg 197]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Naw, yeh don't," snarled the tramp, as she fled on. "Ye'll set that +bull-pup o' yours on me. I been there, an' come away again. You just +gimme some o' them rings an' things an' we'll call it square, me fine +lady!"</p> + +<p>Phyllis's heart stood still at this open menace, but she ran on still. A +sudden thought came to her. She snatched her gilt sash-buckle—a pretty +thing but of small value—from her waist, and hurled it far behind the +tramp. In the half-light it might have been her gold mesh-bag.</p> + +<p>"There's my money—go get it!" she gasped—and ran for her life. The +tramp, as she had hoped he would, dashed back after it and gave her the +start she needed. Breathless, terrified to death, she raced on, tearing +her frock, dropping the library cards and parasol she still had held in +her hand. Once she caught her sash on a tree-wire. Once her slipper-heel +caught and nearly threw her. The chase seemed unending. She could hear +the dreadful footsteps of the tramp behind her, and his snarling, +swearing voice panting out threats. He was drunk,<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_198" id="Page_198">[Pg 198]</a></span> she realized with +another thrill of horror. It was a nightmare happening.</p> + +<p>On and on—she stumbled, fell, caught herself—but the tramp had gained. +Then at last the almost invisible gap in the hedge, and she fled +through.</p> + +<p>"<i>Allan! Allan! Allan!</i>" she screamed, fleeing instinctively to his +chair.</p> + +<p>The rose-garden was like a place of enchanted peace after the terror of +outside. Her quick vision as she rushed in was of Allan still there, +moveless in his chair, with the little black bull-dog lying asleep +across his arms and shoulder like a child. It often lay so. As she +entered, the scene broke up before her eyes like a dissolving view. She +saw the little dog wake and make what seemed one flying spring to the +tramp's throat, and sink his teeth in it—and Allan, at her scream, +<i>spring from his chair</i>!</p> + +<p>Phyllis forgot everything at the sight of Allan, standing. Wallis and +the outdoor man, who had run to the spot at Phyllis's screams, were +dealing with the tramp, who was writhing on the grass, choking and +striking out wildly. But neither Phyllis<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_199" id="Page_199">[Pg 199]</a></span> nor Allan saw that. Which +caught the other in an embrace they never knew. They stood locked +together, forgetting everything else, he in the idea of her peril, she +in the wonder of his standing.</p> + +<p>"Oh, darling, darling!" Allan was saying over and over again. "You are +safe—thank heaven you are safe! Oh, Phyllis, I could never forgive +myself if you had been hurt! Phyllis! Speak to me!"</p> + +<p>But Phyllis's own safety did not concern her now. She could only think +of one thing. "<i>You can stand! You can stand!</i>" she reiterated. Then a +wonderful thought came to her, striking across the others, as she stood +locked in this miraculously raised Allan's arms. She spoke without +knowing that she had said it aloud. "<i>Do you care, too?</i>" she said very +low. Then the dominant thought returned. "You must sit down again," she +said hurriedly, to cover her confusion, and what she had said. "Please, +Allan, sit down. Please, dear—you'll tire yourself."</p> + +<p>Allan sank into his chair again, still holding her. She dropped on her +knees<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_200" id="Page_200">[Pg 200]</a></span> beside him, with her arms around him. She had a little leisure +now to observe that Wallis, the ever-resourceful, had tied the tramp +neatly with the outdoor man's suspenders, which were nearer the surface +than his own, and succeeded in prying off the still unappeased Foxy, who +evidently was wronged at not having the tramp to finish. They carried +him off, into the back kitchen garden. Allan, now that he was certain of +Phyllis's safety, paid them not the least attention.</p> + +<p>"Did you mean it?" he said passionately. "Tell me, did you mean what you +said?"</p> + +<p>Phyllis dropped her dishevelled head on Allan's shoulder.</p> + +<p>"I'm afraid—I'm going to cry, and—and I know you don't like it!" she +panted. Allan half drew, half guided her up into his arms.</p> + +<p>"Was it true?" he insisted, giving her an impulsive little shake. She sat +up on his knees, wide-eyed and wet-cheeked like a child.</p> + +<p>"But you knew that all along!" she said. "That was why I felt so +humiliated. It was <i>you</i> that <i>I</i> thought didn't care——"<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_201" id="Page_201">[Pg 201]</a></span></p> + +<p>Allan laughed joyously. "Care!" he said. "I should think I did, first, +last, and all the time! Why, Phyllis, child, didn't I behave like a +brute because I was jealous enough of John Hewitt to throw him in the +river? He was the first man you had seen since you married +me—attractive, and well, and clever, and all that—it would have been +natural enough if you'd liked him."</p> + +<p>"Liked him!" said Phyllis in disdain. "When there was you? And I +thought—I thought it was the memory of Louise Frey that made you act +that way. You didn't want to talk about her, and you said it was all a +mistake——"</p> + +<p>"I was a brute," said Allan again. "It was the memory that I was about +as useful as a rag doll, and that the world was full of live men with +real legs and arms, ready to fall in love with you.</p> + +<p>"There's nobody but <i>you</i> in the world," whispered Phyllis.... "But +you're well now, or you will be soon," she added joyously. She slipped +away from him. "Allan, don't you want to try to stand again? If you did +it then, you can do it now."<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_202" id="Page_202">[Pg 202]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Yes, by Jove, I do!" he said. But this time the effort to rise was +noticeable. Still, he could do it, with Phyllis's eager help.</p> + +<p>"It must have been what Dr. Hewitt called neurasthenic inhibition," said +Phyllis, watching the miracle of a standing Allan. "That was what we +were talking about by the door that night, you foolish boy!... Oh, how +tall you are! I never realized you were tall, lying down, somehow!"</p> + +<p>"I don't have to bend very far to kiss you, though," suggested Allan, +suiting the action to the word.</p> + +<p>But Phyllis, when this was satisfactorily concluded, went back to the +great business of seeing how much Allan could walk. He sat down again +after a half-dozen steps, a little tired in spite of his excitement.</p> + +<p>"I can't do much at a time yet, I suppose," he said a little ruefully. +"Do you mean to tell me, sweetheart—come over here closer, where I can +touch you—you're awfully far away—do you mean to tell me that all that +ailed me was I thought I couldn't move?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, no!" explained Phyllis, moving her<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_203" id="Page_203">[Pg 203]</a></span> chair close, and then, as that +did not seem satisfactory, perching on the arm of Allan's. "You'd been +unable to move for so long that when you were able to at last your +subconscious mind clamped down on your muscles and was convinced you +couldn't. So no matter how much you consciously tried, you couldn't make +the muscles go till you were so strongly excited it broke the +inhibition—just as people can lift things in delirium or excitement +that they couldn't possibly move at other times. Do you see?"</p> + +<p>"I do," said Allan, kissing the back of her neck irrelevantly. "If +somebody'd tried to shoot me up five years ago I might be a well man +now. That's a beautiful word of yours, Phyllis, inhibition. What a lot +of big words you know!"</p> + +<p>"Oh, if you won't be serious!" said she.</p> + +<p>"We'll have to be," said Allan, laughing, "for here's Wallis, and, as I +live, from the direction of the house. I thought they carried our friend +the tramp out through the hedge—he must have gone all the way around."</p> + +<p>Phyllis was secretly certain that Wallis<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_204" id="Page_204">[Pg 204]</a></span> had been crying a little, but +all he said was, "We've taken the tramp to the lock-up, sir."</p> + +<p>But his master and his mistress were not so dignified. They showed him +exhaustively that Allan could really stand and walk, and Allan +demonstrated it, and Wallis nearly cried again. Then they went in, for +Phyllis was sure Allan needed a thorough rest after all this. She was +shaking from head to foot herself with joyful excitement, but she did +not even know it. And it was long past dinner-time, though every one but +Lily-Anna, to whom the happy news had somehow filtered, had forgotten +it.</p> + +<p>"I've always wanted to hold you in my arms, this way," said Allan late +that evening, as they stood in the rose-garden again; "but I thought I +never would.... Phyllis, did you ever want me to?"</p> + +<p>It was too beautiful a moonlight night to waste in the house, or even on +the porch. The couch had been wheeled to its accustomed place in the +rose-garden, and Allan was supposed to be lying on it as he often did in +the evenings. But it was hard to make him stay there.<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_205" id="Page_205">[Pg 205]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh, you <i>must</i> lie down," said Phyllis hurriedly, trying to move out of +the circle of his arms. "You mustn't stand till we find how much is +enough.... I'm going to send for the wolfhound next week. You won't mind +him now, will you?"</p> + +<p>"Did you ever want to be here in my arms, Phyllis?"</p> + +<p>"Of course not!" said Phyllis, as a modest young person should. +"But—but——"</p> + +<p>"Well, my wife?"</p> + +<p>"I've often wondered just where I'd reach to," said Phyllis in a +rush.... "Allan, <i>please</i> don't stand any longer!"</p> + +<p>"I'll lie down if you'll sit on the couch by me."</p> + +<p>"Very well," said Phyllis; and sat obediently in the curve of his arm +when he had settled himself in the old position, the one that looked so +much more natural for him.</p> + +<p>"Mine, every bit of you!" he said exultantly. "Heaven bless that +tramp!... And to think we were talking about annulments!... Do you +remember that first night, dear, after mother died? I was half-mad with +grief and physical pain. And<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_206" id="Page_206">[Pg 206]</a></span> Wallis went after you. I didn't want him +to. But he trusted you from the first—good old Wallis! And you came in +with that swift, sweeping step of yours, as I've seen you come fifty +times since—half-flying, it seemed to me then—with all your pretty +hair loose, and an angelic sort of a white thing on. I expect I was a +brute to you—I don't remember how I acted—but I know you sat on the +bed by me and took both my wrists in those strong little hands of yours, +and talked to me and quieted me till I fell fast asleep. You gave me the +first consecutive sleep I'd had in four months. It felt as if life and +calmness and strength were pouring from you to me. You stayed till I +fell asleep."</p> + +<p>"I remember," said Phyllis softly. She laid her cheek by his, as it had +been on that strange marriage evening that seemed so far away now. "I +was afraid of you at first. But I felt that, too, as if I were giving +you my strength. I was so glad I could! And then I fell asleep, too, +over on your shoulder."</p> + +<p>"You never told me that," said Allan<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_207" id="Page_207">[Pg 207]</a></span> reproachfully. Phyllis laughed a +little.</p> + +<p>"There never seemed to be any point in our conversations where it fitted +in neatly," she said demurely. Allan laughed, too.</p> + +<p>"You should have made one. But what I was going to tell you was—I think +I began to be in love with you then. I didn't know it, but I did. And it +got worse and worse but I didn't know what ailed me till Johnny drifted +in, bless his heart! Then I did. Oh, Phyllis, it was awful! To have you +with me all the time, acting like an angel, waiting on me hand and foot, +and not knowing whether you had any use for me or not!... And you never +kissed me good-night last night."</p> + +<p>Phyllis did not answer. She only bent a little, and kissed her husband +on the lips, very sweetly and simply, of her own accord. But she said +nothing then of the long, restless, half-happy, half-wretched time when +she had loved him and never even hoped he would care for her. There was +time for all that. There were going to be long, joyous years together, +years of being a "real woman," as she had so passionately<span class='pagenum'><a name="Page_208" id="Page_208">[Pg 208]</a></span> wished to be +that day in the library. She would never again need to envy any woman +happiness or love or laughter. It was all before her now, youth and joy +and love, and Allan, her Allan, soon to be well, and loving her—loving +nobody else but her!</p> + +<p>"Oh, I love you, Allan!" was all she said.</p> + +<p class="center">Transcriber's note:</p> + +<p class="center">There was no Table of Contents in the original, one has been placed in this etext to assist with navigation.</p> + + + + + + + + +<pre> + + + + + +End of Project Gutenberg's The Rose Garden Husband, by Margaret Widdemer + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE ROSE GARDEN HUSBAND *** + +***** This file should be named 26635-h.htm or 26635-h.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + http://www.gutenberg.org/2/6/6/3/26635/ + +Produced by Mark C. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Rose Garden Husband + +Author: Margaret Widdemer + +Release Date: September 16, 2008 [EBook #26635] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE ROSE GARDEN HUSBAND *** + + + + +Produced by Mark C. Orton, Linda McKeown and the Online +Distributed Proofreading Team at http://www.pgdp.net + + + + + + + + + +THE + +ROSE-GARDEN HUSBAND + +BY + +MARGARET WIDDEMER + + +WITH ILLUSTRATIONS BY + +WALTER BIGGS + + +NEW YORK GROSSET & DUNLAP PUBLISHERS + +COPYRIGHT 1914, BY J. B. LIPPINCOTT COMPANY + +COPYRIGHT 1915, BY J. B. LIPPINCOTT COMPANY + + +PUBLISHED, JANUARY 27, 1915 + +SECOND PRINTING, FEBRUARY 6, 1915 + +THIRD PRINTING, MARCH 12, 1915 + +FOURTH PRINTING, APRIL 23, 1915 + +FIFTH PRINTING, JUNE 10, 1915 + +SIXTH PRINTING, AUGUST 6, 1915 + +SEVENTH PRINTING, OCTOBER 21, 1915 + +EIGHTH PRINTING, MAY 1, 1916 + +NINTH PRINTING, OCTOBER 30, 1916 + + * * * * * + +[Illustration: "YOU KNOW, I MARRIED YOU PRINCIPALLY FOR A ROSE-GARDEN, +AND THAT'S _LOVELY_!" + +_Page 172_] + + * * * * * + +IN LOVING MEMORY + +OF + +HOWARD TAYLOR WIDDEMER + + * * * * * + + + + +THE ROSE-GARDEN HUSBAND + + + + +I + + +The Liberry Teacher lifted her eyes from a half-made catalogue-card, +eyed the relentlessly slow clock and checked a long wriggle of purest, +frankest weariness. Then she gave a furtive glance around to see if the +children had noticed she was off guard; for if they had she knew the +whole crowd might take more liberties than they ought to, and have to be +spoken to by the janitor. He could do a great deal with them, because he +understood their attitude to life, but that wasn't good for the Liberry +Teacher's record. + +It was four o'clock of a stickily wet Saturday. As long as it is +anything from Monday to Friday the average library attendant goes around +thanking her stars she isn't a school-teacher; but the last day of the +week, when the rest of the world is having its relaxing Saturday off and +coming to gloat over you as it acquires its Sunday-reading best seller, +if you work in a library you begin just at noon to wish devoutly that +you'd taken up scrubbing-by-the-day, or hack-driving, or porch-climbing +or--anything on earth that gave you a weekly half-holiday! + +So the Liberry Teacher braced herself severely, and put on her +reading-glasses with a view to looking older and more firm. "Liberry +Teacher," it might be well to explain, was not her official title. Her +description on the pay-roll ran "Assistant for the Children's +Department, Greenway Branch, City Public Library." Grown-up people, when +she happened to run across them, called her Miss Braithwaite. But +"Liberry Teacher" was the only name the children ever used, and she saw +scarcely anybody but the children, six days a week, fifty-one weeks a +year. As for her real name, that nobody ever called her by, _that_ was +Phyllis Narcissa. + +She was quite willing to have such a name as that buried out of sight. +She had a sense of fitness; and such a name belonged back in an old New +England parsonage garden full of pink roses and nice green caterpillars +and girl-dreams, and the days before she was eighteen: not in a smutty +city library, attached to a twenty-five-year-old young woman with +reading-glasses and fine discipline and a woolen shirt-waist! + +It wasn't that the Liberry Teacher didn't like her position. She not +only liked it, but she had a great deal of admiration for it, because it +had been exceedingly hard to get. She had held it firmly now for a whole +year. Before that she had been in the Cataloguing, where your eyes hurt +and you get a little pain between your shoulders, but you sit down and +can talk to other girls; and before that in the Circulation, where it +hurts your feet and you get ink on your fingers, but you see lots of +funny things happening. She had started at eighteen years old, at thirty +dollars a month. Now she was twenty-five, and she got all of fifty +dollars, so she ought to have been a very happy Liberry Teacher indeed, +and generally she was. When the children wanted to specify her +particularly they described her as "the pretty one that laughs." But at +four o'clock of a wet Saturday afternoon, in a badly ventilated, badly +lighted room full of damp little unwashed foreign children, even the +most sunny-hearted Liberry Teacher may be excused for having thoughts +that are a little tired and cross and restless. + +She flung herself back in her desk-chair and watched, with brazen +indifference, Giovanni and Liberata Bruno stickily pawing the colored +Bird Book that was supposed to be looked at only under supervision; she +ignored the fact that three little Czechs were fighting over the wailing +library cat; and the sounds of conflict caused by Jimsy Hoolan's desire +to get the last-surviving Alger book away from John Zanowski moved her +not a whit. The Liberry Teacher had stopped, for five minutes, being +grown-up and responsible, and she was wishing--wishing hard and +vengefully. This is always a risky thing to do, because you never know +when the Destinies may overhear you and take you at your exact word. +With the detailed and careful accuracy one acquires in library work, she +was wishing for a sum of money, a garden, and a husband--but +principally a husband. This is why: + +That day as she was returning from her long-deferred twenty-minute +dairy-lunch, she had charged, umbrella down, almost full into a pretty +lady getting out of a shiny gray limousine. Such an unnecessarily pretty +lady, all furs and fluffles and veils and perfumes and waved hair! Her +cheeks were pink and her expression was placid, and each of her +white-gloved hands held tight to a pretty picture-book child who was +wriggling with wild excitement. One had yellow frilly hair and one had +brown bobbed hair, and both were quaintly, immaculately, expensively +kissable. They were the kind of children every girl wishes she could +have a set like, and hugs when she gets a chance. Mother and children +were making their way, under an awning that crossed the street, to the +matinee of a fairy-play. + +The Liberry Teacher smiled at the children with more than her accustomed +goodwill, and lowered her umbrella quickly to let them pass. The mother +smiled back, a smile that changed, as the Liberry Teacher passed, to +puzzled remembrance. The gay little family went on into the theatre, and +Phyllis Braithwaite hurried on back to her work, trying to think who the +pretty lady could have been, to have seemed to almost remember her. +Somebody who took books out of the library, doubtless. Still the pretty +lady's face did not seem to fit that conjecture, though it still worried +her by its vague familiarity. Finally the solution came, just as Phyllis +was pulling off her raincoat in the dark little cloak-room. She nearly +dropped the coat. + +"Eva Atkinson!" she said. + +Eva Atkinson!... If it had been anybody else but _Eva_! + +You see, back in long-ago, in the little leisurely windblown New England +town where Phyllis Braithwaite had lived till she was almost eighteen, +there had been a Principal Grocer. And Eva Atkinson had been his +daughter, not so very pretty, not so very pleasant, not so very clever, +and about six years older than Phyllis. Phyllis, as she tried vainly to +make her damp, straight hair go back the way it should, remembered +hearing that Eva had married and come to this city to live. She had +never heard where. And this had been Eva--Eva, by the grace of gold, +radiantly complexioned, wonderfully groomed, beautifully gowned, and +looking twenty-four, perhaps, at most: with a car and a placid +expression and _heaps_ of money, and pretty, clean children! The Liberry +Teacher, severely work-garbed and weather-draggled, jerked herself away +from the small greenish cloak-room mirror that was unkind to you at your +best. + +She dashed down to the basement, harried by her usual panic-stricken +twenty-minutes-late feeling. She had only taken one glance at herself in +the wiggly mirror, but that one had been enough for her peace of mind, +supposing her to have had any left before. She felt as if she wanted to +break all the mirrors in the world, like the wicked queen in the French +fairy-tale. + +Most people rather liked the face Phyllis saw in the mirror; but to her +own eyes, fresh from the dazzling vision of that Eva Atkinson who had +been dowdy and stupid in the far-back time when seventeen-year-old +Phyllis was "growin' up as pretty as a picture," the tired, +twenty-five-year-old, workaday face in the green glass was _dreadful_. +What made her feel worst--and she entertained the thought with a +whimsical consciousness of its impertinent vanity--was that she'd had so +much more raw material than Eva! And the world had given Eva a chance +because her father was rich. And she, Phyllis, was condemned to be tidy +and accurate, and no more, just because she had to earn her living. That +face in the greenish glass, looking tiredly back at her! She gave a +little out-loud cry of vexation now as she thought of it, two hours +later. + +"I must have looked to Eva like a battered bisque doll--no wonder she +couldn't place me!" she muttered crossly. + +And it must be worse and more of it now, because in the interval between +two and four there had been many little sticky fingers pulling at her +sleeves and skirt, and you just _have_ to cuddle dear little library +children, even when they're not extra clean; and when Vera Aronsohn +burst into heartbroken tears on the Liberry Teacher's blue woolen +shoulder because her pet fairy-book was missing, she had caught several +strands of the Teacher's yellow hair in her anguish, much to the hair's +detriment. + +It was straight, heavy hair, and it would have been of a dense and +fluffy honey-color, only that it was tarnished for lack of the constant +sunnings and brushings which blonde hair must have to stay its best +self. And her skin, too, that should have been a living rose-and-cream, +was dulled by exposure to all weathers, and lack of time to pet it with +creams and powders; perhaps a little, too, by the very stupid things to +eat one gets at a dairy-lunch and boarding-house. Some of the assistants +did interesting cooking over the library gas-range, but the Liberry +Teacher couldn't do that because she hadn't time. + +She went on defiantly thinking about her looks. It isn't a noble-minded +thing to do, but when you might be so very, very pretty if you only had +a little time to be it in--"Yes, I _might_!" said Phyllis to her +shocked self defiantly.... Yes, the shape of her face was all right +still. Hard work and scant attention couldn't spoil its pretty oval. But +her eyes--well, you can't keep your eyes as blue and luminous and +childlike as they were back in the New England country, when you have +been using them hard for years in a bad light. And oh, they had been +such _nice_ eyes when she was just Phyllis Narcissa at home, so long and +blue and wondering! And now the cataloguing had heavied the lids and +etched a line between her straight brown brows. They weren't decorative +eyes now ... and they filled with indignant self-sympathy. The Liberry +Teacher laughed at herself a little here. The idea of eyes that cried +about themselves was funny, somehow. + +"Direct from producer to consumer!" she quoted half-aloud, and wiped +each eye conscientiously by itself. + +"Teacher! I want a liberry called 'Bride of Lemon Hill!' demanded a +small citizen just here. The school teacher, she says I must to have +it!" + +Phyllis thought hard. But she had to search the pinned-up list of +required reading for schools for three solid minutes before she bestowed +"The Bride of Lammermoor" on a thirteen-year-old daughter of Hungary. + +"This is it, isn't it, honey?" she asked with the flashing smile for +which her children, among other things, adored her. + +"Yes, ma'am, thank you, teacher," said the thirteen-year-old gratefully; +and went off to a corner, where she sat till closing time entranced over +her own happy choice, "The Adventures of Peter Rabbit," with colored +pictures dotting it satisfactorily. The Liberry Teacher knew that it was +her duty to go over and hypnotize the child into reading something which +would lead more directly to Browning and Strindberg. But she didn't. + +"Poor little wop!" she thought unacademically. "Let her be happy in her +own way!" + +And the Liberry Teacher herself went on being unhappy in _her_ own way. + +"I'm just a battered bisque doll!" she repeated to herself bitterly. + +But she was wrong. One is apt to exaggerate things on a workaday +Saturday afternoon. She looked more like a pretty bisque figurine; slim +and clear-cut, and a little neglected, perhaps, by its owners, and +dressed in working clothes instead of the pretty draperies it should +have had; but needing only a touch or so, a little dusting, so to speak, +to be as good as ever. + +"Eva _never_ was as pretty as I was!" her rebellious thoughts went on. +You think things, you know, that you'd never say aloud. "I'm sick of +elevating the public! I'm sick of working hard fifty-one weeks out of +fifty-two for board and lodging and carfare and shirtwaists and the +occasional society of a few girls who don't get any more out of life +than I do! I'm sick of libraries, and of being efficient! I want to be a +real girl! Oh, I wish--I wish I had a lot of money, and a rose-garden, +and a _husband_!" + +The Liberry Teacher was aghast at herself. She hadn't meant to wish such +a very unmaidenly thing so hard. She jumped up and dashed across the +room and began frantically to shelf-read books, explaining meanwhile +with most violent emphasis to the listening Destinies: + +"I didn't--oh, I _didn_'t mean a _real_ husband. It isn't that I yearn +to be married to some good man, like an old maid or a Duchess novel. +I--I just want all the lovely things Eva has, or any girl that _marries_ +them, without any trouble but taking care of a man. One man _couldn't_ +but be easier than a whole roomful of library babies. I want to be +looked after, and have time to keep pretty, and a chance to make +friends, and lovely frocks with lots of lace on them, and just months +and months and months when I never had to do anything by a +clock--and--and a rose-garden!" + +This last idea was dangerous. It isn't a good thing, if you want to be +contented with your lot, to think of rose-gardens in a stuffy city +library o' Saturdays; especially when where you were brought up +rose-gardens were one of the common necessities of life; and more +especially when you are tired almost to the crying-point, and have all +the week's big sisters back of it dragging on you, and all its little +sisters to come worrying at you, and--time not up till six. + +But the Liberry Teacher went blindly on straightening shelves nearly as +fast as the children could muss them up, and thinking about that +rose-garden she wanted, with files of masseuses and manicures and French +maids and messenger-boys with boxes banked soothingly behind every bush. +And the thought became too beautiful to dally with. + +"I'd marry _anything_ that would give me a rose-garden!" reiterated the +Liberry Teacher passionately to the Destinies, who are rather catty +ladies, and apt to catch up unguarded remarks you make. "_Anything_--so +long as it was a gentleman--and he didn't scold me--and--and--I didn't +have to associate with him!" her New England maidenliness added in +haste. + +Then, for the librarian who cannot laugh, like the one who reads, is +supposed in library circles to be lost, Phyllis shook herself and +laughed at herself a little, bravely. Then she collected the most +uproarious of her flock around her and began telling them stories out of +the "Merry Adventures of Robin Hood." It would keep the children quiet, +and her thoughts, too. She put rose-gardens, not to say manicurists and +husbands, severely out of her head. But you can't play fast and loose +with the Destinies that way. + +"Done!" they had replied quietly to her last schedule of requirements. +"We'll send our messenger over right away." It was not their fault that +the Liberry Teacher could not hear them. + + + + +II + + +He was gray-haired, pink-cheeked, curvingly side-whiskered and +immaculately gray-clad; and he did not look in the least like a +messenger of Fate. + +The Liberry Teacher was at a highly keyed part of her narrative, and +even the most fidgety children were tense and open-mouthed. + +"'And where art thou now?' cried the Stranger to Robin Hood. And Robin +roared with laughter. 'Oh, in the flood, and floating down the stream +with all the little fishes,' said he--" she was relating breathlessly. + +"_Tea_-cher!" hissed Isaac Rabinowitz, snapping his fingers at her at +this exciting point. "Teacher! There's a guy wants to speak to you!" + +"Aw, shut-_tup_!" chorused his indignant little schoolmates. "Can't you +see that Teacher's tellin' a story? Go chase yerself! Go do a tango +roun' de block!" + +Isaac, a small Polish Jew with tragic, dark eyes and one suspender, +received these and several more such suggestions with all the calm +impenetrability of his race. + +"Here's de guy," was all he vouchsafed before he went back to the +unsocial nook where, afternoon by faithful afternoon, he read away at a +fat three-volume life of Alexander Hamilton. + +The Liberry Teacher looked up without stopping her story, and smiled a +familiar greeting to the elderly gentleman, who was waiting a little +uncertainly at the Children's Room door, and had obviously been looking +for her in vain. He smiled and nodded in return. + +"Just a minute, please, Mr. De Guenther," said the Liberry Teacher +cheerfully. + +The elderly gentleman nodded again, crossed to Isaac and his ponderous +volumes, and began to talk to him with that benign lack of haste which +usually means a very competent personality. Phyllis hurried somewhat +with Robin Hood among his little fishes, and felt happier. It was +always, in her eventless life, something of a pleasant adventure to +have Mr. De Guenther or his wife drop in to see her. There was usually +something pleasant at the end of it. + +They were an elderly couple whom she had known for some years. They were +so leisurely and trim and gentle-spoken that long ago, when she was only +a timorous substitute behind the circle of the big charging-desk, she +had picked them both out as people-you'd-like-if-you-got-the-chance. +Then she had waited on them, and identified them by their cards as +belonging to the same family. Then, one day, with a pleased little +quiver of joy, she had found him in the city Who's Who, age, profession +(he was a corporation lawyer), middle names, favorite recreation, and +all. Gradually she had come to know them both very well in a waiting-on +way. She often chose love-stories that ended happily and had colored +illustrations for Mrs. De Guenther when she was at home having +rheumatism; she had saved more detective stories for Mr. De Guenther +than her superiors ever knew; and once she had found his black-rimmed +eye-glasses where he had left them between the pages of the Pri-Zuz +volume of the encyclopedia, and mailed them to him. + +When she had vanished temporarily from sight into the nunnery-promotion +of the cataloguing room the De Guenthers had still remembered her. Twice +she had been asked to Sunday dinner at their house, and had joyously +gone and remembered it as joyously for months afterward. Now that she +was out in the light of partial day again, in the Children's Room, she +ran across both of them every little while in her errands upstairs; and +once Mrs. De Guenther, gentle, lorgnetted and gray-clad, had been shown +over the Children's Room. The couple lived all alone in a great, +handsome old house that was being crowded now by the business district. +She had always thought that if she were a Theosophist she would try to +plan to have them for an uncle and aunt in her next incarnation. They +suited her exactly for the parts. + +But it's a long way down to the basement where city libraries are apt to +keep their children, and the De Guenthers hadn't been down there since +the last time they asked her to dinner. And here, with every sign of +having come to say something _very_ special, stood Mr. De Guenther! +Phyllis' irrepressibly cheerful disposition gave a little jump toward +the light. But she went on with her story--business before pleasure! + +However, she did manage to get Robin Hood out of his brook a little more +quickly than she had planned. She scattered her children with a swift +executive whisk, and made so straight for her friend that she deceived +the children into thinking they were going to see him expelled, and they +banked up and watched with anticipatory grins. + +"I do hope you want to see me especially!" she said brightly. + +The children, disappointed, relaxed their attention. + +Mr. De Guenther rose slowly and neatly from his seat beside the rather +bored Isaac Rabinowitz, who dived into his book again with alacrity. + +"Good afternoon, Miss Braithwaite," he said in the amiably precise voice +which matched so admirably his beautifully precise movements and his +immaculate gray spats. "Yes. In the language of our young friend here, +'I am the guy.'" + +Phyllis giggled before she thought. Some people in the world always make +your spirits go up with a bound, and the De Guenther pair invariably had +that effect on her. + +"Oh, Mr. De Guenther!" she said, "I am shocked at you! That's slang!" + +"It was more in the nature of a quotation," said he apologetically. "And +how are you this exceedingly unpleasant day, Miss Braithwaite? We have +seen very little of you lately, Mrs. De Guenther and I." + +The Liberry Teacher, gracefully respectful in her place, wriggled with +invisible impatience over this carefully polite conversational opening. +He had come down here on purpose to see her--there must be something +going to happen, even if it was only a request to save a seven-day book +for Mrs. De Guenther! Nobody ever wanted _something_, any kind of a +something, to happen more wildly than the Liberry Teacher did that +bored, stickily wet Saturday afternoon, with those tired seven years at +the Greenway Branch dragging at the back of her neck, and the seven +times seven to come making her want to scream. So few things can +possibly happen to you, no matter how good you are, when you work by the +day. And now maybe something--oh, please, the very smallest kind of a +something would be welcomed!--was going to occur. Maybe Mrs. De Guenther +had sent her a ticket to a concert; she had once before. Or maybe, since +you might as well wish for big things while you're at it, it might even +be a ticket to an expensive seat in a real theatre! Her pleasure-hungry, +work-heavy blue eyes burned luminous at the idea. + +"But I really shouldn't wish," she reminded her prancing mind belatedly. +"He may only have come down to talk about the weather. It mayn't any of +it be true." + +So she stood up straight and gravely, and answered very courteously and +holding-tightly all the amiable roundabout remarks the old gentleman was +shoving forward like pawns on a chessboard before the real game begins. +She answered with the same trained cheerfulness she could give her +library children when her head and her disposition ached worst; and even +warmed to a vicious enthusiasm over the state of the streets and the +wetness of the damp weather. + +"He knows lots of real things to say," she complained to herself, "why +doesn't he say them, instead of talking editorials? I suppose this is +his bedside--no, lawyers don't have bedside manners--well, his barside +manner, then----" + +It is difficult to think and listen at the same time: by this time she +had missed a beautiful long paragraph about the Street-Cleaning +Department; and something else, apparently. For her friend was holding +out to her a note addressed to her flowingly in his wife's English hand, +and was saying, + +"--which she has asked me to deliver. I trust you have no imperative +engagement for to-morrow night." + +Something _had_ happened! + +"Why, no!" said the Liberry Teacher delightedly. "No, indeed! Thank you, +and her, too. I'd love to come." + +"Teacher!" clamored a small chocolate-colored citizen in a Kewpie +muffler, "my maw she want' a book call' 'Ugwin!' She say it got a yellow +cover an' pictures in it." + +"Just a moment!" said Phyllis; and sent him upstairs with a note asking +for "Hugh Wynne" in the two-volume edition. She was used to translating +that small colored boy's demands. Last week he had described to her a +play he called "Eas' Limb", with the final comment, "But it wan't no +good. 'Twant no limb in it anywhar, ner no trees atall!" + +"Do you have much of that?" Mr. De Guenther asked idly. + +"Lots!" said Phyllis cheerfully. "You take special training in guesswork +at library school. They call them 'teasers'. They say they're good for +your intellect." + +"Ah--yes," said Mr. De Guenther absently in the barside manner. + +And then, sitting calmly with his silvery head against a Washington's +Birthday poster so that three scarlet cherries stuck above him in the +manner of a scalp-lock, he said something else remarkably real: + +"I have--we have--a little matter of business to discuss with you +to-morrow night, my dear; an offer, I may say, of a different line of +work. And I want you to satisfy yourself thoroughly--thoroughly, my dear +child, of my reputableness. Mr. Johnstone, the chief of the city +library, whose office I believe to be in this branch, is one of my +oldest friends. I am, I think I may say, well known as a lawyer in this +my native city. I should be glad to have you satisfy yourself personally +on these points, because----" could it be that the eminently poised Mr. +De Guenther was embarrassed? "Because the line of work which I wish, or +rather my wife wishes, to lay before you is--is a very different line of +work!" ended the old gentleman inconclusively. There was no mistake +about it this time--he _was_ embarrassed. + +"Oh, Mr. De Guenther!" cried Phyllis before she thought, out of the +fulness of her heart, catching his arm in her eagerness; "Oh, Mr. De +Guenther, _could_ the Very Different Line of Work have a--have a +_rose-garden_ attached to it anywhere?" + +Before she was fairly finished she knew what a silly question she had +asked. How could any line of work she was qualified to do possibly have +rose-gardens attached to it? You can't catalogue roses on neat cards, or +improve their minds by the Newark Ladder System, or do anything at all +librarious to them, except pressing them in books to mummify; and the +Liberry Teacher didn't think that was at all a courteous thing to do to +roses. So Mr. De Guenther's reply quite surprised her. + +"There--seems--to be--no good reason," he said, slowly and placidly, +as if he were dropping his words one by one out of a slot;--"why +there should not--be--a very satisfactory rose-garden, or +even--_two_--connected with it. None--whatever." + +That was all the explanation he offered. But the Liberry Teacher asked +no more. "_Oh!_" she said rapturously. + +"Then we may expect you to-morrow at seven?" he said; and smiled +politely and moved to the door. He walked out as matter-of-coursely as +if he had dropped in to ask the meaning of "circumflex," or who +invented smallpox, or the name of Adam's house-cat, or how long it would +take her to do a graduation essay for his daughter--or any such little +things that librarians are prepared for most days. + +And instead--his neat gray elderly back seemed to deny it--he had left +with her, the Liberry Teacher, her, dusty, tousled, shopworn Phyllis +Braithwaite, an invitation to consider a Line of Work which was so +mysteriously Different that she had to look up the spotless De Guenther +reputation before she came! + +One loses track of time, staring at a red George Washington poster, and +wondering about a future with a sudden Different Line in it.... It was +ten minutes past putting-out-children time! She stared aghast at the +ruthless clock, then created two Monitors for Putting Out at one royal +sweep. She managed the nightly eviction with such gay expedition that it +almost felt like ten minutes ago when the place, except for the +pride-swollen monitors, was cleared. While these officers watched the +commonalty clumping reluctantly upstairs toward the umbrella-rack, the +Liberry Teacher paced sedately around the shelves, giving the books that +routine straightening they must have before seven struck and the horde +rushed in again. It was really her relieving officer's work, but the +Liberry Teacher felt that her mind needed straightening, too, and this +always seemed to do it. + +She looked, as she moved slowly down along the shelves, very much like +most of the librarians you see; alert, pleasant, slender, a little +dishevelled, a little worn. But there was really no librarian there. +There was only Phyllis Narcissa--that dreaming young Phyllis who had had +to stay pushed out of sight all the seven years that Miss Braithwaite +had been efficiently earning her living. + +She let her mind stray happily as far as it would over the possibilities +Mr. De Guenther had held out to her, and woke to discover herself trying +to find a place under "Domestic Economy--Condiments" for "Five Little +Peppers and How They Grew." She laughed aloud in the suddenly empty +room, and then lifted her head to find Miss Black, the night-duty girl +that week, standing in the doorway ready to relieve guard. + +"Oh, Anna, see what I've done!" she laughed. Somehow everything seemed +merely light-hearted and laughable since Mr. De Guenther's most +fairy-tale visit, with its wild hints of Lines of Work. Anna Black came, +looked, laughed. + +"In the 640's!" she said. "Well, you're liable to do nearly everything +by the time it's Saturday. Last Saturday, Dolly Graham up in the +Circulation was telling me, an old colored mammy said she'd lost her +mittens in the reading-room; and the first they knew Dolly was hunting +through the Woollen Goods classification, and Mary Gayley pawing the +dictionary wildly for m-i-t!" + +"And they found the mittens hung around her neck by the cord," finished +the Liberry Teacher. "I know--it was a thrilling story. Well, good-by +till Monday, Anna Black. I'm going home now, to have some lovely prunes +and some real dried beef, and maybe a glass of almost-milk if I can +persuade the landlady I need it." + +"Mine prefers dried apricots," responded Miss Black cheerfully, "but she +never has anything but canned milk in the house, thus sparing us the +embarrassment of asking for real. Good-by--good luck!" + +But as the Liberry Teacher pinned her serviceable hat close, and +fastened her still good raincoat over her elderly sweater, neither +prunes nor mittens nor next week's work worried her at all. After all, +living among the fairy-stories with the Little People makes that +pleasant land where wanting is having, and all the impossibilities can +come true, very easy of access. Phyllis Braithwaite's mind, as she +picked her way down the bedraggled street, wandered innocently off in a +dream-place full of roses, till the muddy marble steps of her +boarding-place gleamed sloppily before her through the foggy rain. + +She sat up late that night, doing improving things to the white net +waist that went with her best suit, which was black. As her needle +nibbled busily down the seams she continued happily to wonder about that +Entirely Different Line. It sounded to her more like a reportership on +a yellow journal than anything else imaginable. Or, perhaps, could she +be wanted to join the Secret Service? + +"At any rate," she concluded light-heartedly, as she stitched the last +clean ruching into the last wrist-covering, sedate sleeve, "at any rate +I'll have a chance to-morrow to wear mother's gold earrings that I +mustn't have on in the library. And oh, how lovely it will be to have a +dinner that wasn't cooked by a poor old bored boarding-house cook or a +shiny tiled syndicate!" + +And she went to bed--to dream of Entirely Different Lines all the colors +of the rainbow, that radiated out from the Circulation Desk like +tight-ropes. She never remembered Eva Atkinson's carefully prettied +face, or her own vivid, work-worn one, at all. She only dreamed that far +at the end of the pink Entirely Different Line--a very hard one to +walk--there was a rose-garden exactly like a patchwork quilt, where she +was to be. + + + + +III + + +When Phyllis woke next morning everything in the world had a +light-hearted, holiday feeling. Her Sundays, gloriously unoccupied, +generally did, but this was extra-special. The rain had managed to clear +away every vestige of last week's slush, and had then itself most +unselfishly retired down the gutters. The sun shone as if May had come, +and the wind, through the Liberry Teacher's window, had a springy, +pussy-willowy, come-for-a-walk-in-the-country feel to it. She found that +she had slept too late to go to church, and prepared for a joyful dash +to the boarding-house bathtub. There might be--who knew but there +actually might be--on this day of days, enough hot water for a real +bath! + +"I feel as if everything was going to be lovely all day!" she said +without preface to old black Maggie, who was clumping her accustomed +bed-making way along the halls, with her woolly head tied up in her +Sunday silk handkerchief. Even she looked happier, Phyllis thought, +than she had yesterday. She grinned broadly at Phyllis, leaning +smilingly against the door in her kimona. + +"Ah dunno, Miss Braithways," she said, and entered the room and took a +pillow-case-corner in her mouth. "Ah never has dem premeditations!" + +Phyllis laughed frankly, and Maggie, much flattered at the happy +reception of her reply, grinned so widely that you might almost have +tied her mouth behind her ears. + +"You sure is a cheerful person, Miss Braithways!" said Maggie, and went +on making the bed. + +Phyllis fled on down the hall, laughing still. She had just remembered +another of old Maggie's compliments, made on one of the rare occasions +when Phyllis had sat down and sung to the boarding-house piano. (She +hadn't been able to do it long, because the Mental Science Lady on the +next floor had sent down word that it stopped her from concentrating, +and as she had a very expensive room there was nothing for the landlady +to do but make Phyllis stop.) Phyllis had come out in the hall to find +old Maggie listening rapturously. + +"Oh, Miss Braithways!" she had murmured, rolling her eyes, "you +certainly does equalize a martingale!" + +It had been a compliment Phyllis never forgot. She smiled to herself as +she found the bathroom door open. Why, the world was full of a number of +things, many of them funny. Being a Liberry Teacher was rather nice, +after all, when you were fresh from a long night's sleep. And if that +Mental Science Lady _wouldn't_ let her play the piano, why, her +thrilling tales of what she could do when her mind was unfettered were +worth the price. That story she told so seriously about how the pipes +burst--and the plumber wouldn't come, and "My dear, I gave those pipes +only half an hour's treatment, and they closed right up!" It was quite +as much fun--well, almost as much--hearing her, as it would have been to +play. + +... All of the contented, and otherwise, elderly people who inhabited +the boarding-house with Phyllis appeared to have gone off without using +hot water, for there actually was some. The Liberry Teacher found that +she could have a genuine bath, and have enough water besides to wash her +hair, which is a rite all girls who work have to reserve for Sundays. +This was surely a day of days! + +She used the water--alas for selfish human nature!--to the last warm +drop and went gayly back to her little room with no emotions whatever +for the poor other boarders, soon to find themselves wrathfully +hot-waterless. And then--she thoughtlessly curled down on the bed, and +slept and slept and slept! She wakened dimly in time for the one o'clock +dinner, dressed, and ate it in a half-sleep. She went back upstairs +planning a trolley-ride that should take her out into the country, where +a long walk might be had. And midway in changing her shoes she lay back +across the bed and--fell asleep again. The truth was, Phyllis was about +as tired as a girl can get. + +She waked at dusk, with a jerk of terror lest she should have overslept +her time for going out. But it was only six. She had a whole hour to +prink in, which is a very long time for people who are used to being in +the library half-an-hour after the alarm-clock wakes them. + + * * * * * + +Some houses, all of themselves, and before you meet a soul who lives in +them, are silently indifferent to you. Some make you feel that you are +not wanted in the least; these usually have a lot of gilt furniture, and +what are called objects of art set stiffly about. Some seem to be having +an untidy good time all to themselves, in which you are not included. + +The De Guenther house, staid and softly toned, did none of these things. +It gave the Liberry Teacher, in her neat, last year's best suit, a +feeling as of gentle welcome-home. She felt contented and _belonging_ +even before quick-smiling, slender little Mrs. De Guenther came rustling +gently in to greet her. Then followed Mr. De Guenther, pleasant and +unperturbed as usual, and after him an agreeable, back-arching gray cat, +who had copied his master's walk as exactly as it can be done with four +feet. + +All four sat amiably about the room and held precise and pleasant +converse, something like a cheerful essay written in dialogue, about +many amusing, intelligent things which didn't especially matter. The +Liberry Teacher liked it. It was pleasant beyond words to sit nestlingly +in a pluffy chair, and hear about all the little lightly-treated +scholarly day-before-yesterday things her father had used to talk of. +She carried on her own small part in the talk blithely enough. She +approved of herself and the way she was behaving, which makes very much +for comfort. There was only once that she was ashamed of herself, and +thought about it in bed afterwards and was mortified; when her eyes +filled with quick tears at a quite dry and unemotional--indeed, rather a +sarcastic--quotation from Horace on the part of Mr. De Guenther. But she +smiled, when she saw that they noticed her. + +"That's the first time I've heard a Latin quotation since I came away +from home," she found herself saying quite simply in explanation, "and +Father quoted Horace so much every day that--that I felt as if an old +friend had walked in!" + +But her hosts didn't seem to mind. Mr. De Guenther in his careful +evening clothes looked swiftly across at Mrs. De Guenther in her +gray-silk-and-cameo, and they both nodded little satisfied nods, as if +she had spoken in a way that they were glad to hear. And then dinner was +served, a dinner as different--well, she didn't want to remember in its +presence the dinners it differed from; they might have clouded the +moment. She merely ate it with a shameless inward joy. + +It ended, still to a pleasant effortless accompaniment of talk about +books and music and pictures that Phyllis was interested in, and had +found nobody to share her interest with for so long--so long! She felt +happily running though everything the general, easy taking-for-granted +of all the old, gentle, inflexible standards of breeding that she had +nearly forgotten, down in the heart of the city among her obstreperous, +affectionate little foreigners. + +They had coffee in the long old-fashioned salon parlor, and then Mr. De +Guenther straightened himself, and Mrs. De Guenther folded her veined, +ringed old white hands, and Phyllis prepared thrilledly to listen. +Surely now she would hear about that Different Line of Work. + +There was nothing, at first, about work of any sort. They merely began +to tell her alternately about some clients of theirs, a Mrs. Harrington +and her son: rather interesting people, from what Phyllis could make +out. She wondered if she was going to hear that they needed a librarian. + +"This lady, my client, Mrs. Harrington," continued her host gravely, "is +the one for whom I may ask you to consider doing some work. I say may, +but it is a practical certainty. She is absolutely alone, my dear Miss +Braithwaite, except for her son. I am afraid I must ask you to listen to +a long story about them." + +It was coming! + +"Oh, but I want to hear!" said Phyllis, with that quick, affectionate +sympathy of hers that was so winning, leaning forward and watching them +with the lighted look in her blue eyes. It all seemed to her tired, +alert mind like some story she might have read to her children, an +Arabian Nights narrative which might begin, "And the Master of the +House, ascribing praise unto Allah, repeated the following Tale." + +"There have always been just the two of them, mother and son," said the +Master of the House. "And Allan has always been a very great deal to his +mother." + +"Poor Angela!" murmured his wife. + +"They are old friends of ours," her husband explained. "My wife and Mrs. +Harrington were schoolmates. + +"Well, Allan, the boy, grew up, dowered with everything a mother could +possibly desire for her son, personally and otherwise. He was handsome +and intelligent, with much charm of manner." + +"I know now what people mean by 'talking like a book,'" thought Phyllis +irreverently. "And I don't believe any one man _could_ be all that!" + +"There was practically nothing," Mr. De Guenther went on, "which the +poor lad had not. That was one trouble, I imagine. If he had not been +highly intelligent he would not have studied so hard; if he had not been +strong and active he might not have taken up athletic sports so +whole-heartedly; and when I add that Allan possessed charm, money and +social status you may see that what he did would have broken down most +young fellows. In short, he kept studies, sports and social affairs all +going at high pressure during his four years of college. But he was +young and strong, and might not have felt so much ill effects from all +that; though his doctors said afterwards that he was nearly at the +breaking point when he graduated." + +Phyllis bent closer to the story-teller in her intense interest. Why, it +_was_ like one of her fairy-tales! She held her breath to listen, while +the old lawyer went gravely on. + +"Allan could not have been more than twenty-two when he graduated, and +it was a very short while afterwards that he became engaged to a young +girl, the daughter of a family friend. Louise Frey was her name, was it +not, love?" + +"Yes, that is right," said his wife, "Louise Frey." + +"A beautiful girl," he went on, "dark, with a brilliant color, and full +of life and good spirits. They were both very young, but there was no +good reason why the marriage should be delayed, and it was set for the +following September." + +A princess, too, in the story! But--where had she gone? "The two of them +only," he had said. + +"It must have been scarcely a month," the story went on--Mr. De Guenther +was telling it as if he were stating a case--"nearly a month before the +date set for the wedding, when the lovers went for a long automobile +ride, across a range of mountains near a country-place where they were +both staying. They were alone in the machine. + +"Allan, of course, was driving, doubtless with a certain degree of +impetuosity, as he did most things.... They were on an unfrequented part +of the road," said Mr. De Guenther, lowering his voice, "when there +occurred an unforeseen wreckage in the car's machinery. The car was +thrown over and badly splintered. Both young people were pinned under +it. + +"So far as he knew at the time, Allan was not injured, nor was he in any +pain; but he was held in absolute inability to move by the car above +him. Miss Frey, on the contrary, was badly hurt, and in suffering. She +died in about three hours, a little before relief came to them." + +Phyllis clutched the arms of her chair, thrilled and wide-eyed. She +could imagine all the horror of the happening through the old lawyer's +precise and unemotional story. The boy-lover, pinioned, helpless, +condemned to watch his sweetheart dying by inches, and unable to help +her by so much as lifting a hand--could anything be more awful not only +to endure, but to remember? + +"And yet," she thought whimsically, "it mightn't be so bad to have one +_real_ tragedy to remember, if you haven't anything else! All _I'll_ +have to remember when I'm old will be bad little children and good +little children, and books and boarding-houses, and the recollection +that people said I was a very worthy young woman once!" But she threw +off the thought. It's just as well not to think of old age when all the +idea brings up is a vision of a nice, clean Old Ladies' Home. + +"But you said he was an invalid?" she said aloud. + +"Yes, I regret to say," answered Mr. De Guenther. "You see, it was found +that the shock to the nerves, acting on an already over-keyed mind and +body, together with some spinal blow concerning which the doctors are +still in doubt, had affected Allan's powers of locomotion." (Mr. De +Guenther certainly did like long words!) "He has been unable to walk +since. And, which is sadder, his state of mind and body has become +steadily worse. He can scarcely move at all now, and his mental attitude +can only be described as painfully morbid--yes, I may say _very_ +painfully morbid. Sometimes he does not speak at all for days together, +even to his mother, or his attendant." + +"Oh, poor boy!" said Phyllis. "How long has he been this way?" + +"Seven years this fall," the answer came consideringly. "Is it not, +love?" + +"Yes," said his wife, "seven years." + +"_Oh!_" said the Liberry Teacher, with a quick catch of sympathy at her +heart. + +Just as long as she had been working for her living in the big, dusty +library. Supposing--oh, supposing she'd had to live all that time in +such suffering as this poor Allan had endured and his mother had had to +witness! She felt suddenly as if the grimy, restless Children's Room, +with its clatter of turbulent little outland voices, were a safe, sunny +paradise in comparison. + +Mr. De Guenther did not speak. He visibly braced himself and was visibly +ill-at-ease. + +"I have told most of the story, Isabel, love," said he at last. "Would +you not prefer to tell the rest? It is at your instance that I have +undertaken this commission for Mrs. Harrington, you will remember." + +It struck Phyllis that he didn't think it was quite a dignified +commission, at that. + +"Very well, my dear," said his wife, and took up the tale in her swift, +soft voice. + +"You can fancy, my dear Miss Braithwaite, how intensely his mother has +felt about it." + +"Indeed, yes!" said Phyllis pitifully. + +"Her whole life, since the accident, has been one long devotion to her +son. I don't think a half-hour ever passes that she does not see him. +But in spite of this constant care, as my husband has told you, he grows +steadily worse. And poor Angela has finally broken under the strain. She +was never strong. She is dying now--they give her maybe two months more. + +"Her one anxiety, of course, is for poor Allan's welfare. You can +imagine how you would feel if you had to leave an entirely helpless son +or brother to the mercies of hired attendants, however faithful. And +they have no relatives--they are the last of the family." + +The listening girl began to see. She was going to be asked to act as +nurse, perhaps attendant and guardian, to this morbid invalid with the +injured mind and body. + +[Illustration: "NO," SAID MRS. DE GUENTHER GRAVELY. "YOU WOULD NOT. YOU +WOULD HAVE TO BE HIS WIFE"] + +"But how would I be any better for him than a regular trained nurse?" +she wondered. "And they said he had an attendant." + +She looked questioningly at the pair. + +"Where does my part come in?" she asked with a certain sweet directness +which was sometimes hers. "Wouldn't I be a hireling too if--if I had +anything to do with it?" + +"No," said Mrs. De Guenther gravely. "You would not. You would have to +be his wife." + + + + +IV + + +The Liberry Teacher, in her sober best suit, sat down in her entirely +commonplace chair in the quiet old parlor, and looked unbelievingly at +the sedate elderly couple who had made her this wild proposition. She +caught her breath. But catching her breath did not seem to affect +anything that had been said. Mr. De Guenther took up the explanation +again, a little deprecatingly, she thought. + +"You see now why I requested you to investigate our reputability?" he +said. "Such a proposition as this, especially to a young lady who has no +parent or guardian, requires a considerable guarantee of good faith and +honesty of motive." + +"Will you please tell me more about it?" she asked quietly. She did not +feel now as if it were anything which had especially to do with her. It +seemed more like an interesting story she was unravelling sentence by +sentence. The long, softly lighted old room, with its Stuarts and +Sullys, and its gracious, gray-haired host and hostess, seemed only a +picturesque part of it.... Her hostess caught up the tale again. + +"Angela has been nearly distracted," she said. "And the idea has come to +her that if she could find some conscientious woman, a lady, and a +person to whom what she could offer would be a consideration, who would +take charge of poor Allan, that she could die in peace." + +"But why did you think of asking me?" the girl asked breathlessly. "And +why does she want me married to him? And how could you or she be sure +that I would not be as much of a hireling as any nurse she may have +now?" + +Mrs. De Guenther answered the last two questions together. + +"Mrs. Harrington's idea is, and I think rightly, that a conscientious +woman would feel the marriage tie, however nominal, a bond that would +obligate her to a certain duty toward her husband. As to why we selected +you, my dear, my husband and I have had an interest in you for some +years, as you know. We have spoken of you as a girl whom we should like +for a relative----" + +"Why, isn't that strange?" cried Phyllis, dimpling. "That's just what +I've thought about you!" + +Mrs. De Guenther flushed, with a delicate old shyness. + +"Thank you, dear child," she said. "I was about to add that we have not +seen you at your work all these years without knowing you to have the +kind heart and sense of honor requisite to poor Angela's plan. We feel +sure you could be trusted to take the place. Mr. De Guenther has asked +his friend Mr. Johnston, the head of the library, such things as we +needed to supplement our personal knowledge of you. You have everything +that could be asked, even to a certain cheerfulness of outlook which +poor Angela, naturally, lacks in a measure." + +"But--but what about _me_?" asked Phyllis Braithwaite a little +piteously, in answer to all this. + +They seemed so certain she was what they wanted--was there anything in +this wild scheme that would make _her_ life better than it was as the +tired, ill-paid, light-hearted keeper of a roomful of turbulent little +foreigners? + +"Unless you are thinking of marriage--" Phyllis shook her head--"you +would have at least a much easier life than you have now. Mrs. +Harrington would settle a liberal income on you, contingent, of course, +of your faithful wardership over Allan. We would be your only judges as +to that. You would have a couple or more months of absolute freedom +every year, control of much of your own time, ample leisure to enjoy it. +You would give only your chances of actual marriage for perhaps five +years, for poor Allan cannot live longer than that at his present state +of retrogression, and some part of every day to seeing that Allan was +not neglected. If you bestow on him half of the interest and effort I +have known of your giving any one of a dozen little immigrant boys, his +mother has nothing to fear for him." + +Mr. De Guenther stopped with a grave little bow, and he and his wife +waited for the reply. + +The Liberry Teacher sat silent, her eyes on her slim hands, that were +roughened and reddened by constant hurried washings to get off the dirt +of the library books. It was true--a good deal of it, anyhow. And one +thing they had not said was true also: her sunniness and accuracy and +strength, her stock-in-trade, were wearing thin under the pressure of +too long hours and too hard work and too few personal interests. Her +youth was worn down. And--marriage? What chance of love and marriage had +she, a working-girl alone, too poor to see anything of the class of men +she would be willing to marry? She had not for years spent six hours +with a man of her own kind and age. She had not even been specially in +love, that she could remember, since she was grown up. She did not feel +much, now, as if she ever would be. All that she had to give up in +taking this offer was her freedom, such as it was--and those fluttering +perhapses that whisper such pleasant promises when you are young. But, +then, she wouldn't be young so _very_ much longer. Should she--she put +it to herself crudely--should she wait long, hard, closed-in years in +the faith that she would learn to be absolutely contented, or that some +man she could love would come to the cheap boarding-house, or the little +church she attended occasionally when she was not too tired, fall in +love with her work-dimmed looks at sight, and--marry her? It had not +happened all these years while her girlhood had been more attractive and +her personality more untired. There was scarcely a chance in a hundred +for her of a kind lover-husband and such dear picture-book children as +she had seen Eva Atkinson convoying. Well--her mind suddenly came up +against the remembrance, as against a sober fact, that in her passionate +wishings of yesterday she had not wished for a lover-husband, nor for +children. She had asked for a husband who would give her money, and +leisure to be rested and pretty, and--a rose-garden! And here, +apparently, was her wish uncannily fulfilled. + +"Well, what are you going to do about it?" inquired the Destinies with +their traditional indifference. "We can't wait all night!" + +She lifted her head and cast an almost frightened look at the De +Guenthers, waiting courteously for her decision. In reply to the look, +Mr. De Guenther began giving her details about the money, and the +leisure time, and the business terms of the contract generally. She +listened attentively. All that--for a little guardianship, a little +kindness, and the giving-up of a little piece of life nobody wanted and +a few little hopes and dreams! + +Phyllis laughed, as she always did when there were big black problems to +be solved. + +"After all, it's fairly usual," she said. "I heard last week of a woman +who left money along with her pet dog, very much the same way." + +"Did you? Did you, dear?" asked Mrs. De Guenther, beaming. "Then you +think you will do it?" + +The Liberry Teacher rose, and squared her straight young shoulders under +the worn net waist. + +"If Mrs. Harrington thinks I'll do for the situation!" she said +gallantly,--and laughed again. + + * * * * * + +"It feels partly like going into a nunnery and partly like going into a +fairy-story," she said to herself that night as she wound her alarm. +"But--I wonder if anybody's remembered to ask the consent of the +groom!" + + + + +V + + +He looked like a young Crusader on a tomb. That was Phyllis's first +impression of Allan Harrington. He talked and acted, if a moveless man +can be said to act, like a bored, spoiled small boy. That was her +second. + +Mrs. Harrington, fragile, flushed, breathlessly intense in her +wheel-chair, had yet a certain resemblance in voice and gesture to Mrs. +De Guenther--a resemblance which puzzled Phyllis till she placed it as +the mark of that far-off ladies' school they had attended together. +There was also a graceful, mincing white wolfhound which, contrary to +the accepted notion of invalids' faithful hounds, didn't seem to care +for his master's darkened sick-room at all, but followed the one sunny +spot in Mrs. Harrington's room with a wistful persistence. It was such a +small spot for such a long wolfhound--that was the principal thing which +impressed itself on Phyllis's frightened mind throughout her visit. + +Mrs. De Guenther convoyed her to the Harrington house for inspection a +couple of days after she had accepted some one's proposal to marry Allan +Harrington. (Whether it counted as her future mother-in-law's proposal, +or her future trustee's, she was never sure. The only sure thing was +that it did not come from the groom.) She had borrowed a half-day from +the future on purpose, though she did not want to go at all. But the +reality was not bad; only a fluttering, emotional little woman who clung +to her hands and talked to her and asked useless questions with a +nervous insistence which would have been nerve-wearing for a steady +thing, but was only pitiful to a stranger. + +You see strange people all the time in library work, and learn to place +them, at length, with almost as much accuracy as you do your books. The +fact that Mrs. Harrington was not long for this world did not prevent +Phyllis from classing her, in her mental card-catalogue, as a very +perfect specimen of the Loving Nagger. She was lying back, wrapped in +something gray and soft, when her visitors came, looking as if the +lifting of her hand would be an effort. She was evidently pitifully +weak. But she had, too, an ineradicable vitality she could summon at +need. She sprang almost upright to greet her visitors, a hand out to +each, an eager flood of words on her lips. + +"And you are Miss Braithwaite, that is going to look after my boy?" she +ended. "Oh, it is so good of you--I am so glad--I can go in peace now. +Are you sure--sure you will know the minute his attendants are the least +bit negligent? I watch and watch them all the time. I tell Allan to ring +for me if anything ever is the least bit wrong--I am always begging him +to remember. I go in every night and pray with him--do you think you +could do that? But I always cry so before I'm through--I cry and cry--my +poor, helpless boy--he was so strong and bright! And you are sure you +are conscientious----" + +At this point Phyllis stopped the flow of Mrs. Harrington's conversation +firmly, if sweetly. + +"Yes, indeed," she said cheerfully. "But you know, if I'm not, Mr. De +Guenther can stop all my allowance. It wouldn't be to my own interest +not to fulfil my duties faithfully." + +"Yes, that is true," said Mrs. Harrington. "That was a good thought of +mine. My husband always said I was an unusual woman where business was +concerned." + +So they went on the principle that she had no honor beyond working for +what she would get out of it! Although she had made the suggestion +herself, Phyllis's cheeks burned, and she was about to answer sharply. +Then somehow the poor, anxious, loving mother's absolute preoccupation +with her son struck her as right after all. + +"If it were my son," thought Phyllis, "I wouldn't worry about any +strange hired girl's feelings either, maybe. I'd just think about +him.... I promise I'll look after Mr. Harrington's welfare as if he were +my own brother!" she ended aloud impulsively. "Indeed, you may trust +me." + +"I am--sure you will," panted Mrs. Harrington. "You look like--a good +girl, and--and old enough to be responsible--twenty-eight--thirty?" + +"Not very far from that," said Phyllis serenely. + +"And you are sure you will know when the attendants are neglectful? I +speak to them all the time, but I never can be sure.... And now you'd +better see poor Allan. This is one of his good days. Just think, dear +Isabel, he spoke to me twice without my speaking to him this morning!" + +"Oh--must I?" asked Phyllis, dismayed. "Couldn't I wait till--till it +happens?" + +Mrs. Harrington actually laughed a little at her shyness, lighting up +like a girl. Phyllis felt dimly, though she tried not to, that through +it all her mother-in-law-elect was taking pleasure in the dramatic side +of the situation she had engineered. + +"Oh, my dear, you must see him. He expects you," she answered almost +gayly. The procession of three moved down the long room towards a door, +Phyllis's hand guiding the wheel-chair. She was surprised to find +herself shaking with fright. Just what she expected to find beyond the +door she did not know, but it must have been some horror, for it was +with a heart-bound of wild relief that she finally made out Allan +Harrington, lying white in the darkened place. + +A Crusader on a tomb. Yes, he looked like that. In the room's half-dusk +the pallor of his still, clear-featured face and his long, clear-cut +hands was nearly the same as the whiteness of the couch-draperies. His +hair, yellow-brown and waving, flung back from his forehead like a +crest, and his dark brows and lashes made the only note of darkness +about him. To Phyllis's beauty-loving eyes he seemed so perfect an image +that she could have watched him for hours. + +"Here's Miss Braithwaite, my poor darling," said his mother. "The young +lady we have been talking about so long." + +The Crusader lifted his eyelids and let them fall again. + +"Is she?" he said listlessly. + +"Don't you want to talk to her, darling boy?" his mother persisted, half +out of breath, but still full of that unrebuffable, loving energy and +insistence which she would probably keep to the last minute of her +life. + +"No," said the Crusader, still in those empty, listless tones. "I'd +rather not talk. I'm tired." + +His mother seemed not at all put out. + +"Of course, darling," she said, kissing him. She sat by him still, +however, and poured out sentence after sentence of question, insistence, +imploration, and pity, eliciting no answer at all. Phyllis wondered how +it would feel to have to lie still and have that done to you for a term +of years. The result of her wonderment was a decision to forgive her +unenthusiastic future bridegroom for what she had at first been ready to +slap him. + +Presently Mrs. Harrington's breath flagged, and the three women went +away, back to the room they had been in before. Phyllis sat and let +herself be talked to for a little longer. Then she rose impulsively. + +"May I go back and see your son again for just a minute?" she asked, and +had gone before Mrs. Harrington had finished her permission. She darted +into the dark room before her courage had time to fail, and stood by the +white couch again. + +"Mr. Harrington," she said clearly, "I'm sorry you're tired, but I'm +afraid I am going to have to ask you to listen to me. You know, don't +you, that your mother plans to have me marry you, for a sort of +interested head-nurse? Are you willing to have it happen? Because I +won't do it unless you really prefer it." + +The heavy white lids half-lifted again. + +"I don't mind," said Allan Harrington listlessly. "I suppose you are +quiet and trustworthy, or De Guenther wouldn't have sent you. It will +give mother a little peace and it makes no difference to me." + +He closed his eyes and the subject at the same time. + +"Well, then, that's all right," said Phyllis cheerfully, and started to +go. Then, drawn back by a sudden, nervous temper-impulse, she moved back +on him. "And let me tell you," she added, half-laughing, +half-impertinently, "that if you ever get into my quiet, trustworthy +clutches you may have an awful time! You're a very spoiled invalid." + +She whisked out of the room before he could have gone very far with his +reply. But he had not cared to reply, apparently. He lay unmoved and +unmoving. + +Phyllis discovered, poising breathless on the threshold, that somehow +she had seen his eyes. They had been a little like the wolfhound's, a +sort of wistful gold-brown. + +For some reason she found that Allan Harrington's attitude of absolute +detachment made the whole affair seem much easier for her. And when Mrs. +Harrington slipped a solitaire diamond into her hand as she went, +instead of disliking it she enjoyed its feel on her finger, and the +flash of it in the light. She thanked Mrs. Harrington for it with real +gratitude. But it made her feel more than ever engaged to marry her +mother-in-law. + +She walked home rather silently with Mrs. De Guenther. Only at the foot +of the De Guenther steps, she made one absent remark. + +"He must have been delightful," she said, "when he was alive!" + + + + +VI + + +After a week of the old bustling, dusty hard work, the Liberry Teacher's +visit to the De Guenthers' and the subsequent one at the Harringtons', +and even her sparkling white ring, seemed part of a queer story she had +finished and put back on the shelf. The ring was the most real thing, +because it was something of a worry. She didn't dare leave it at home, +nor did she want to wear it. She finally sewed it in a chamois bag that +she safety-pinned under her shirt-waist. Then she dismissed it from her +mind also. There is very little time in a Liberry Teacher's life for +meditation. Only once in a while would come to her the vision of the +wistful Harrington wolfhound following his inadequate patch of sunlight, +or of the dusky room where Allan Harrington lay inert and white, and +looking like a wonderful carved statue on a tomb. + +She began to do a little to her clothes, but not very much, because she +had neither time nor money. Mr. De Guenther had wanted her to take some +money in advance, but she had refused. She did not want it till she had +earned it, and, anyway, it would have made the whole thing so real, she +knew, that she would have backed out. + +"And it isn't as if I were going to a lover," she defended herself to +Mrs. De Guenther with a little wistful smile. "Nobody will know what I +have on, any more than they do now." + +Mrs. De Guenther gave a scandalized little cry. Her attitude was +determinedly that it was just an ordinary marriage, as good an excuse +for sentiment and pretty frocks as any other. + +"My dear child," she replied firmly, "you are going to have one pretty +frock and one really good street-suit _now_, or I will know why! The +rest you may get yourself after the wedding, but you must obey me in +this. Nonsense!--you can get a half-day, as you call it, perfectly well! +What's Albert in politics for, if he can't get favors for his friends!" + +And, in effect, it proved that Albert was in politics to some purpose, +for orders came up from the Head's office within twenty minutes after +Mrs. De Guenther had used the telephone on her husband, that Miss +Braithwaite was to have a half-day immediately--as far as she could make +out, in order to transact city affairs! She felt as if the angels had +told her she could have the last fortnight over again, as a favor, or +something of the sort. A half-day out of turn was something nobody had +ever heard of. She was even too surprised to object to the frock part of +the situation. She tried to stand out a little longer, but it's a very +stoical young woman who can refuse to have pretty clothes bought for +her, and the end of it was a seat in a salon which she had always +considered so expensive that you scarcely ought to look in the window. + +"Had it better be a black suit?" asked Mrs. De Guenther doubtfully, as +the tall lady in floppy charmeuse hovered haughtily about them, +expecting orders. "It seems horrible to buy mourning when dear Angela is +not yet passed away, but it would only be showing proper respect; and I +remember my own dear mother planned all our mourning outfits while she +was dying. It was quite a pleasure to her." + +Phyllis kept her face straight, and slipped one persuasive hand through +her friend's arm. + +"I don't believe I _could_ buy mourning, dear," she said. "And--oh, if +you knew how long I'd wanted a really _blue_ blue suit! Only, it would +have been too vivid to wear well--I always knew that--because you can +only afford one every other year. And"--Phyllis rather diffidently +voiced a thought which had been in the back of her mind for a long +time--"if I'm going to be much around Mr. Harrington, don't you think +cheerful clothes would be best? Everything in that house seems sombre +enough now." + +"Perhaps you are right, dear child," said Mrs. De Guenther. "I hope you +may be the means of putting a great deal of brightness into poor Allan's +life before he joins his mother." + +"Oh, don't!" cried Phyllis impulsively. Somehow she could not bear to +think of Allan Harrington's dying. He was too beautiful to be dead, +where nobody could see him any more. Besides, Phyllis privately +considered that a long vacation before he joined his mother would be +only the fair thing for "poor Allan." Youth sides with youth. And--the +clear-cut white lines of him rose in her memory and stayed there. She +could almost hear that poor, tired, toneless voice of his, that was yet +so deep and so perfectly accented.... She bought docilely whatever her +guide directed, and woke from a species of gentle daze at the +afternoon's end to find Mrs. De Guenther beaming with the weary rapture +of the successful shopper, and herself the proprietress of a turquoise +velvet walking-suit, a hat to match, a pale blue evening frock, a pale +green between-dress with lovely clinging lines, and a heavenly white +crepe thing with rosy ribbons and filmy shadow-laces--the negligee of +one's dreams. There were also slippers and shoes and stockings and--this +was really too bad of Mrs. De Guenther--a half-dozen set of lingerie, +straight through. Mrs. De Guenther sat and continued to beam joyously +over the array, in Phyllis's little bedroom. + +"It's my present, dearie," she said calmly. "So you needn't worry about +using Angela's money. Gracious, it's been _lovely_! I haven't had such a +good time since my husband's little grand-niece came on for a week. +There's nothing like dressing a girl, after all." + +And Phyllis could only kiss her. But when her guest had gone she laid +all the boxes of finery under her bed, the only place where there was +any room. She would not take any of it out, she determined, till her +summons came. But on second thought, she wore the blue velvet +street-suit on Sunday visits to Mrs. Harrington, which became--she never +knew just when or how--a regular thing. The vivid blue made her eyes +nearly sky-color, and brightened her hair very satisfactorily. She was +taking more time and trouble over her looks now--one has to live up to a +turquoise velvet hat and coat! She found herself, too, becoming very +genuinely fond of the restless, anxiously loving, passionate, unwise +child who dwelt in Mrs. Harrington's frail elderly body and had almost +worn it out. She sat, long hours of every Sunday afternoon, holding Mrs. +Harrington's thin little hot hands, and listening to her swift, +italicised monologues about Allan--what he must do, what he must not do, +how he must be looked after, how his mother had treated him, how his +wishes must be ascertained and followed. + +"Though all he wants now is dark and quiet," said his mother piteously. +"I don't even go in there now to cry." + +She spoke as if it were an established ritual. Had she been using her +son's sick-room, Phyllis wondered, as a regular weeping-place? She could +feel in Mrs. Harrington, even in this mortal sickness, the tremendous +driving influence which is often part of a passionately active and not +very wise personality. That certitude and insistence of Mrs. +Harrington's could hammer you finally into believing or doing almost +anything. Phyllis wondered how much his mother's heartbroken adoration +and pity might have had to do with making her son as hopeless-minded as +he was. + +Naturally, the mother-in-law-elect she had acquired in such a strange +way became very fond of Phyllis. But indeed there was something very gay +and sweet and honest-minded about the girl, a something which gave +people the feeling that they were very wise in liking her. Some people +you are fond of against your will. When people cared for Phyllis it was +with a quite irrational feeling that they were doing a sensible thing. +They never gave any of the credit to her very real, though almost +invisible, charm. + +She never saw Allan Harrington on any of the Sunday visits. She was sure +the servants thought she did, for she knew that every one in the great, +dark old house knew her as the young lady who was to marry Mr. Allan. +She believed that she was supposed to be an old family friend, perhaps a +distant relative. She did not want to see Allan. But she did want to be +as good to his little, tensely-loving mother as she could, and reassure +her about Allan's future care. And she succeeded. + +It was on a Friday about two that the summons came. Phyllis had thought +she expected it, but when the call came to her over the library +telephone she found herself as badly frightened as she had been the +first time she went to the Harrington house. She shivered as she laid +down the dater she was using, and called the other librarian to take her +desk. Fortunately, between one and four the morning and evening shifts +overlapped, and there was some one to take her place. + +"Mrs. Harrington cannot last out the night," came Mr. De Guenther's +clear, precise voice over the telephone, without preface. "I have +arranged with Mr. Johnston. You can go at once. You had better pack a +suit-case, for you possibly may not be able to get back to your +boarding-place." + +So it was to happen now! Phyllis felt, with her substitute in her place, +her own wraps on, and her feet taking her swiftly towards her goal, as +if she were offering herself to be made a nun, or have a hand or foot +cut off, or paying herself away in some awful, irrevocable fashion. She +packed, mechanically, all the pretty things Mrs. De Guenther had given +her, and nothing else. She found herself at the door of her room with +the locked suit-case in her hand, and not even a nail-file of the things +belonging to her old self in it. She shook herself together, managed to +laugh a little, and returned and put in such things as she thought she +would require for the night. Then she went. She always remembered that +journey as long as she lived; her hands and feet and tongue going on, +buying tickets, giving directions--and her mind, like a naughty child, +catching at everything as they went, and screaming to be allowed to go +back home, back to the dusty, matter-of-course library and the dreary +little boarding-house bedroom! + + + + +VII + + +They were all waiting for her, in what felt like a hideously quiet +semicircle, in Allan's great dark room. Mrs. Harrington, deadly pale, +and giving an impression of keeping herself alive only by force of that +wonderful fighting vitality of hers, lay almost at length in her +wheel-chair. There was a clergyman in vestments. There were the De +Guenthers; Mr. De Guenther only a little more precise than his every-day +habit was, Mrs. De Guenther crying a little, softly and furtively. + +As for Allan Harrington, he lay just as she had seen him that other +time, white and moveless, seeming scarcely conscious except by an +effort. Only she noticed a slight contraction, as of pain, between his +brows. + +"Phyllis has come," panted Mrs. Harrington. "Now it will be--all right. +You must marry him quickly--quickly, do you hear, Phyllis? Oh, people +never will--do--what I want them to----" + +"Yes--yes, indeed, dear," said Phyllis, taking her hands soothingly. +"We're going to attend to it right away. See, everything is ready." + +It occurred to her that Mrs. Harrington was not half as correct in her +playing of the part of a dying woman as she would have seen to it that +anyone else was; also, that things did not seem legal without the +wolfhound. Then she was shocked at herself for such irrelevant thoughts. +The thing to do was to keep poor Mrs. Harrington quieted. So she +beckoned the clergyman and the De Guenthers nearer, and herself sped the +marrying of herself to Allan Harrington. + +... When you are being married to a Crusader on a tomb, the easiest way +is to kneel down by him. Phyllis registered this fact in her mind quite +blankly, as something which might be of use to remember in future.... +The marrying took an unnecessarily long time, it seemed to her. It did +not seem as if she were being married at all. It all seemed to concern +somebody else. When it came to the putting on of the wedding-ring, she +found herself, very naturally, guiding Allan's relaxed fingers to hold +it in its successive places, and finally slip it on the wedding-finger. +And somehow having to do that checked the chilly awe she had had before +of Allan Harrington. It made her feel quite simply sorry for him, as if +he were one of her poor little boys in trouble. And when it was all over +she bent pitifully before she thought, and kissed one white, cold cheek. +He seemed so tragically helpless, yet more alive, in some way, since she +had touched his hand to guide it. Then, as her lips brushed his cheek, +she recoiled and colored a little. She had felt that slight roughness +which a man's cheek, however close-shaven, always has--the _man_-feel. +It made her realize unreasonably that it was a man she had married, +after all, not a stone image nor a sick child--a live man! With the +thought, or rather instinct, came a swift terror of what she had done, +and a swift impulse to rise. She was half-way risen from her knees when +a hand on her shoulder, and the clergyman's voice in her ear, checked +her. + +"Not yet," he murmured almost inaudibly. "Stay as you are till--till +Mrs. Harrington is wheeled from the room." + +Phyllis understood. She remained as she was, her body a shield before +Allan Harrington's eyes, her hand just withdrawing from his shoulder, +till she heard the closing of the door, and a sigh as of relaxed tension +from the three people around her. Then she rose. Allan lay still with +closed eyelids. It seemed to her that he had flushed, if ever so +faintly, at the touch of her lips on his cheek. She laid his hand on the +coverlet with her own roughened, ringed one, and followed the others +out, into the room where the dead woman had been taken, leaving him with +his attendant. + +The rest of the evening Phyllis went about in a queer-keyed, almost +light-hearted frame of mind. It was only the reaction from the +long-expected terror that was over now, but it felt indecorous. It was +just as well, however. Some one's head had to be kept. The servants were +upset, of course, and there were many arrangements to be made. She and +Mr. De Guenther worked steadily together, telephoning, ordering, +guiding, straightening out all the tangles. There never was a wedding, +she thought, where the bride did so much of the work! She even +remembered to see personally that Allan's dinner was sent up to him. The +servants had doubtless been told to come to her for orders--at any rate, +they did. Phyllis had not had much experience in running a house, but a +good deal in keeping her head. And that, after all, is the main thing. +She had a far-off feeling as if she were hearing some other young woman +giving swift, poised, executive orders. She rather admired her. + +After dinner the De Guenthers went. And Phyllis Braithwaite, the little +Liberry Teacher who had been living in a hall bedroom on much less money +than she needed, found herself alone, sole mistress of the great +Harrington house, a corps of servants, a husband passive enough to +satisfy the most militant suffragette, a check-book, a wistful +wolfhound, and five hundred dollars, cash, for current expenses. The +last weighed on her mind more than all the rest put together. + +"Why, I don't know how to make Current Expenses out of all that!" she +had said to Mr. De Guenther. "It looks to me exactly like about ten +months' salary! I'm perfectly certain I shall get up in my sleep and try +to pay my board ahead with it, so I shan't have it all spent before the +ten months are up! There was a blue bead necklace," she went on +meditatively, "in the Five-and-Ten, that I always wanted to buy. Only I +never quite felt I could afford it. Oh, just imagine going to the +Five-and-Ten and buying at least five dollars' worth of things you +didn't need!" + +"You have great discretionary powers--great discretionary powers, my +dear, you will find!" Mr. De Guenther had said, as he patted her +shoulder. Phyllis took it as a compliment at the time. "Discretionary +powers" sounded as if he thought she was a quite intelligent young +person. It did not occur to her till he had gone, and she was alone with +her check-book, that it meant she had a good deal of liberty to do as +she liked. + +It seemed to be expected of her to stay. Nobody even suggested a +possibility of her going home again, even to pack her trunk. Mrs. De +Guenther casually volunteered to do that, a little after the housekeeper +had told her where her rooms were. She had been consulting with the +housekeeper for what seemed ages, when she happened to want some pins +for something, and asked for her suit-case. + +"It's in your rooms," said the housekeeper. "Mrs. Harrington--the late +Mrs. Harrington, I should say----" + +Phyllis stopped listening at this point. Who was the present Mrs. +Harrington? she wondered before she thought--and then remembered. +Why--_she_ was! So there was no Phyllis Braithwaite any more! Of course +not.... Yet she had always liked the name so--well, a last name was a +small thing to give up.... Into her mind fitted an incongruous, silly +story she had heard once at the library, about a girl whose last name +was Rose, and whose parents christened her Wild, because the combination +appealed to them. And then she married a man named Bull.... Meanwhile +the housekeeper had been going on. + +... "She had the bedroom and bath opening from the other side of Mr. +Allan's day-room ready for you, madam. It's been ready several weeks." + +"Has it?" said Phyllis. It was like Mrs. Harrington, that careful +planning of even where she should be put. "Is Mr. Harrington in his +day-room now?" + +For some reason she did not attempt to give herself, she did not want to +see him again just now. Besides, it was nearly eleven and time a very +tired girl was in bed. She wanted a good night's rest, before she had to +get up and be Mrs. Harrington, with Allan and the check-book and the +Current Expenses all tied to her. + +Some one had laid everything out for her in the bedroom; the filmy new +nightgown over a chair, the blue satin mules underneath, her plain +toilet-things on a dressing-table, and over another chair the exquisite +ivory crepe negligee with its floating rose ribbons. She took a hasty +bath--there was so much hot water that she was quite reconciled for a +moment to being a check-booked and wolf hounded Mrs. Harrington--and +slid straight into bed without even stopping to braid her loosened, +honey-colored hair. + +It seemed to her that she was barely asleep when there came an urgent +knocking at her door. + +"Yes?" she said sleepily, looking mechanically for her alarm-clock as +she switched on the light. "What is it, please?" + +"It's I, Wallis, Mr. Allan's man, Madame," said a nervous voice. "Mr. +Allan's very bad. I've done all the usual things, but nothing seems to +quiet him. He hates doctors so, and they make him so wrought up--please +could you come, ma'am? He says as how all of us are all dead--oh, +_please_, Mrs. Harrington!" + +There was panic in the man's voice. + +"All right," said Phyllis sleepily, dropping to the floor as she spoke +with the rapidity that only the alarm-clock-broken know. She snatched +the negligee around her, and thrust her feet hastily into the blue satin +slippers--why, she was actually using her wedding finery! And what an +easily upset person that man was! But everybody in the house seemed to +have nerves on edge. It was no wonder about Allan--he wanted his +mother, of course, poor boy! She felt, as she ran fleetly across the +long room that separated her sleeping quarters from her husband's, the +same mixture of pity and timidity that she had felt with him before. +Poor boy! Poor, silent, beautiful statue, with his one friend gone! She +opened the door and entered swiftly into his room. + +She was not thinking about herself at all, only of how she could help +Allan, but there must have been something about her of the picture-book +angel to the pain-racked man, lying tensely at length in the room's +darkest corner. Her long, dully gold hair, loosening from its twist, +flew out about her, and her face was still flushed with sleep. There was +a something about her that was vividly alight and alive, perhaps the +light in her blue eyes. + +From what the man had said Phyllis had thought Allan was delirious, but +she saw at once that he was only in severe pain, and talking more +disconnectedly, perhaps, than the slow-minded Englishman could follow. +He did not look like a statue now. His cheeks were burning with evident +pain, and his yellow-brown eyes, wide-open, and dilated to darkness, +stared straight out. His hands were clenching and unclenching, and his +head moved restlessly from side to side. Every nerve and muscle, she +could see, was taut. + +"They're all dead," he muttered. "Father and Mother and Louise--and +I--only I'm not dead enough to bury. Oh, God, I wish I was!" + +That wasn't delirium; it was something more like heart-break. Phyllis +moved closer to him, and dropped one of her sleep-warm hands on his +cold, clenched one. + +"Oh, poor boy!" she said. "I'm so sorry--so sorry!" She closed her hands +tight over both his. + +Some of her strong young vitality must have passed between them and +helped him, for almost immediately his tenseness relaxed a little, and +he looked at her. + +"You--you're not a nurse," he said. "They go around--like--like +a--vault----" + +She had caught his attention! That was a good deal, she felt. She +forgot everything about him, except that he was some one to be +comforted, and her charge. She sat down on the bed by him, still holding +tight to his hands. + +"No, indeed," she said, bending nearer him, her long loose hair falling +forward about her resolutely-smiling young face. "Don't you remember +seeing me? I never was a nurse." + +"What--are you?" he asked feebly. + +"I'm--why, the children call me the Liberry Teacher," she answered. It +occurred to her that it would be better to talk on brightly at random +than to risk speaking of his mother to him, as she must if she reminded +him of their marriage. "I spend my days in a basement, making bad little +boys get so interested in the Higher Culture that they'll forget to +shoot crap and smash windows." + +One of the things which had aided Phyllis to rise from desk-assistant to +one of the Children's Room librarians was a very sweet and carrying +voice--a voice which arrested even a child's attention, and held his +interest. It held Allan now; merely the sound of it, seemingly. + +"Go on--talking," he murmured. Phyllis smiled and obeyed. + +"Sometimes the Higher Culture doesn't work," she said. "Yesterday one of +my imps got hold of a volume of Shaw, and in half an hour his aunt +marched in on me and threatened I don't know what to a library that +'taught chilren to disrespect their lawful guardeens.'" + +"I remember now," said Allan. "You are the girl in the blue dress. The +girl mother had me marry. I remember." + +"Yes," said Phyllis soothingly, and a little apologetically. "I know. +But that--oh, please, it needn't make a bit of difference. It was only +so I could see that you were looked after properly, you know. I'll never +be in the way, unless you want me to do something for you." + +"I don't mind," he said listlessly, as he had before.... "_Oh, this +dreadful darkness, and mother dead in it somewhere!_" + +"Wallis," called Phyllis swiftly, "turn up the lights!" + +The man slipped the close green silk shades from the electric bulbs. +Allan shrank as if he had been hurt. + +"I can't stand the glare," he cried. + +"Yes, you can for a moment," she said firmly. "It's better than the +ghastly green glow." + +It was probably the first time Allan Harrington had been contradicted +since his accident. He said nothing more for a minute, and Phyllis +directed Wallis to bring a sheet of pink tissue paper from her +suit-case, where she remembered it lay in the folds of some new muslin +thing. Under her direction still, he wrapped the globes in it and +secured it with string. + +"There!" she told Allan triumphantly when Wallis was done. "See, there +is no glare now; only a pretty rose-colored glow. Better than the green, +isn't it?" + +Allan looked at her again. "You are--kind," he said. "Mother said--you +would be kind. Oh, mother--mother!" He tried uselessly to lift one arm +to cover his convulsed face, and could only turn his head a little +aside. + +"You can go, Wallis," said Phyllis softly, with her lips only. "Be in +the next room." The man stole out and shut the door softly. Phyllis +herself rose and went toward the window, and busied herself in braiding +up her hair. There was almost silence in the room for a few minutes. + +"Thank--you," said Allan brokenly. "Will you--come back, please?" + +She returned swiftly, and sat by him as she had before. + +"Would you mind--holding my wrists again?" he asked. "I feel quieter, +somehow, when you do--not so--lost." There was a pathetic boyishness in +his tone that the sad, clear lines of his face would never prepare you +for. + +Phyllis took his wrists in her warm, strong hands obediently. + +"Are you in pain, Allan?" she asked. "Do you mind if I call you Allan? +It's the easiest way." + +He smiled at her a little, faintly. It occurred to her that perhaps the +novelty of her was taking his mind a little from his own feelings. + +"No--no pain. I haven't had any for a very long time now. Only this +dreadful blackness dragging at my mind, a blackness the light hurts." + +"_Why!_" said Phyllis to herself, being on known ground here--"why, it's +nervous depression! I believe cheering-up _would_ help. I know," she +said aloud; "I've had it." + +"You?" he said. "But you seem so--happy!" + +"I suppose I am," said Phyllis shyly. She felt a little afraid of "poor +Allan" still, now that there was nothing to do for him, and they were +talking together. And he had not answered her question, either; +doubtless he wanted her to say "Mr. Allan" or even "Mr. Harrington!" He +replied to her thought in the uncanny way invalids sometimes do. + +"You said something about what we were to call each other," he murmured. +"It would be foolish, of course, not to use first names. Yours is Alice, +isn't it?" + +Phyllis laughed. "Oh, worse than that!" she said. "I was named out of a +poetrybook, I believe--Phyllis Narcissa. But I always conceal the +Narcissa." + +"Phyllis. Thank you," he said wearily. ... "_Phyllis, don't let go! +Talk_ to me!" His eyes were those of a man in torment. + +"What shall I talk about?" she asked soothingly, keeping the two cold, +clutching hands in her warm grasp. "Shall I tell you a story? I know a +great many stories by heart, and I will say them for you if you like. It +was part of my work." + +"Yes," he said. "Anything." + +Phyllis arranged herself more comfortably on the bed, for it looked as +if she had some time to stay, and began the story she knew best, because +her children liked it best, Kipling's "How the Elephant Got His Trunk." +"A long, long time ago, O Best Beloved...." + +Allan listened, and, she thought, at times paid attention to the words. +He almost smiled once or twice, she was nearly sure. She went straight +on to another story when the first was done. Never had she worked so +hard to keep the interest of any restless circle of children as she +worked now, sitting up in the pink light in her crepe wrappings, with +her school-girl braids hanging down over her bosom, and Allan +Harrington's agonized golden-brown eyes fixed on her pitying ones. + +"You must be tired," he said more connectedly and quietly when she had +ended the second story. "Can't you sit up here by me, propped on the +pillows? And you need a quilt or something, too." + +This from an invalid who had been given nothing but himself to think of +this seven years back! Phyllis's opinion of Allan went up very much. She +had supposed he would be very selfish. But she made herself a bank of +pillows, and arranged herself by Allan's side so that she could keep +fast to his hands without any strain, something as skaters hold. She +wrapped a down quilt from the foot of the bed around her mummy-fashion +and went on to her third story. Allan's eyes, as she talked on, grew +less intent--drooped. She felt the relaxation of his hands. She went +monotonously on, closing her own eyes--just for a minute, as she +finished her story. + + + + +VIII + + +"I've overslept the alarm!" was Phyllis's first thought next morning +when she woke. "It must be--" Where was she? So tired, so very tired, +she remembered being, and telling some one an interminable story.... She +held her sleepy eyes wide open by will-power, and found that a silent +but evidently going clock hung in sight. Six-thirty. Then she hadn't +overslept the alarm. But ... she hadn't set any alarm. And she had been +sleeping propped up in a sitting position, half on--why, it was a +shoulder. And she was rolled tight in a terra-cotta down quilt. She sat +up with a jerk--fortunately a noiseless one--and turned to look. Then +suddenly she remembered all about it, that jumbled, excited, +hard-working yesterday which had held change and death and marriage for +her, and which she had ended by perching on "poor Allan Harrington's" +bed and sending him to sleep by holding his hands and telling him +children's stories. She must have fallen asleep after he did, and slid +down on his shoulder. A wonder it hadn't disturbed him! She stole +another look at him, as he lay sleeping still, heavily and quietly. +After all, she was married to him, and she had a perfect right to recite +him to sleep if she wanted to. She unrolled herself cautiously, and slid +out like a shadow. + +She almost fell over poor Wallis, sleeping too in his clothes outside +the door, on Allan's day couch. He came quickly to his feet, as if he +were used to sudden waking. + +"Don't disturb Mr. Harrington," said Phyllis as staidly as if she had +been giving men-servants orders in her slipper-feet all her life. "He +seems to be sleeping quietly." + +"Begging your pardon, Mrs. Harrington, but you haven't been giving him +anything, have you?" asked Wallis. "He hasn't slept without a break for +two hours to my knowledge since I've been here, not without medicine." + +"Not a thing," said Phyllis, smiling with satisfaction. "He must have +been sleeping nearly three hours now! I read him to sleep, or what +amounted to it. I got his nerves quiet, I think. Please kill anybody +that tries to wake him, Wallis." + +"Very good, ma'am," said Wallis gravely. "And yourself, ma'am?" + +"I'm going to get some sleep, too," she said. "Call me if there's +anything--useful." + +She meant "necessary," but she wanted so much more sleep she never knew +the difference. When she got into her room she found that there also she +was not alone: the wistful wolfhound was curled plaintively across her +bed, which he overlapped. From his nose he seemed to have been dipping +largely into the cup of chocolate somebody had brought to her, and which +she had forgotten to drink when she found it, on her first retiring. + +"You aren't a _bit_ high-minded," said Phyllis indignantly. She was too +sleepy to do more than shove him over to the back of the bed. "All--the +beds here are so--_full_," she complained sleepily; and crawled inside, +and never woke again till nearly afternoon. + +There was all the grave business to be done, in the days that followed, +of taking Mrs. Harrington to a quiet place beside her husband, and +drawing together again the strings of the disorganized household. +Phyllis found herself whispering over and over again: + + + "The sweeping up the heart + And putting love away + We shall not need to use again. + Until the Judgment Day." + + +And with all there was to see after, it was some days before she saw +Allan again, more than to speak to brightly as she crossed their common +sitting-room. He did not ask for her. She looked after his comfort +faithfully, and tried to see to it that his man Wallis was all he should +be--a task which was almost hopeless from the fact that Wallis knew much +more about his duties than she did, even with Mrs. Harrington's +painstakingly detailed notes to help her. Also his attitude to his +master was of such untiring patience and worship that it made Phyllis +feel like a rude outsider interfering between man and wife. + +However, Wallis was inclined to approve of his new mistress, who was +not fussy, seemed kind, and had given his beloved Mr. Allan nearly three +hours of unbroken sleep. Allan had been a little better ever since. +Wallis had told Phyllis this. But she was inclined to think that the +betterment was caused by the counter-shock of his mother's death, which +had shaken him from his lethargy, and perhaps even given his nerves a +better balance. And she insisted that the pink paper stay on the +electric lights. + +After about a week of this, Phyllis suddenly remembered that she had not +been selfish at all yet. Where was her rose-garden--the garden she had +married the wolfhound and Allan and the check-book for? Where were all +the things she had intended to get? The only item she had bought as yet +ran, on the charge account she had taken over with the rest, "1 doz. +checked dish-towels"; and Mrs. Clancy, the housekeeper's, pressing +demand was responsible for these. + +"It's certainly time I was selfish," said Phyllis to the wolfhound, who +followed her round unendingly as if she had patches of sunshine in her +pocket: glorious patches, fit for a life-sized wolfhound. Perhaps he was +grateful because she had ordered him long daily walks. He wagged his +tail now as she spoke, and rubbed himself curvingly against her. He was +a rather affected dog. + +So Phyllis made herself out a list in a superlatively neat library hand: + + + One string of blue beads. + One lot of very fluffy summer frocks with flowers on them. + One rose-garden. + One banjo and a self-teacher. (And a sound-proof room.) + One set Arabian Nights. + One set of Stevenson, all but his novels. + Ever so many Maxfield Parrish pictures full of Prussian-blue skies. + A house to put them in, with fireplaces. + A lady's size motor-car that likes me. + A plain cat with a tame disposition. + A hammock. + A sun-dial. (But that might be thrown in with the garden.) + A gold watch-bracelet. + All the colored satin slippers I want. + A room big enough to put all father's books up. + + +It looked shamelessly long, but Phyllis's "discretionary powers" would +cover it, she knew. Mrs. Harrington's final will, while full of advice, +had been recklessly trusting. + +She could order everything in one afternoon, she was sure, all but the +house, the garden, the motor, which she put checks against, and the +plain cat, which she thought she could pick up in the village where her +house would be. + +Next she went to see Allan. She didn't want to bother him, but she did +feel that she ought to share her plans with him as far as possible. +Besides, it occurred to her that she could scarcely remember what he was +like to speak to, and really owed it to herself to go. She fluffed out +her hair loosely, put on her pale-green gown that had clinging lines, +and pulled some daffodils through her sash. She had resolved to avoid +anything sombre where Allan was concerned--and the green gown was very +becoming. Then, armed with her list and a pencil, she crossed boldly to +the couch where her Crusader lay in the old attitude, moveless and with +half-closed eyes. + +"Allan," she asked, standing above him, "do you think you could stand +being talked to for a little while?" + +"Why--yes," said Allan, opening his eyes a little more. "Wallis, +get--Mrs. Harrington--a chair." + +He said the name haltingly, and Phyllis wondered if he disliked her +having it. She dropped down beside him, like a smiling touch of spring +in the dark room. + +"Do you mind their calling me that?" she asked. "If there's anything +else they could use----" + +"Mother made you a present of the name," he said, smiling faintly. "No +reason why I should mind." + +"All right," said Phyllis cheerfully. After all, there was nothing else +to call her, speaking of her. The servants, she knew, generally said +"the young madam," as if her mother-in-law were still alive. + +"I want to talk to you about things," she began; and had to stop to deal +with the wolfhound, who was trying to put both paws on her shoulders. +"Oh, Ivan, _get_ down, honey! I _wish_ somebody would take a day off +some time to explain to you that you're not a lap-dog! Do you like +wolfhounds specially better than any other kind of dog, Allan?" + +"Not particularly," said Allan, patting the dog languidly as he put his +head in a convenient place for the purpose. "Mother bought him, she +said, because he would look so picturesque in my sick-room. She wanted +him to lie at my feet or something. But he never saw it that +way--neither did I. Hates sick-rooms. Don't blame him." + +This was the longest speech Allan had made yet, and Phyllis learned +several things from it that she had only guessed before. One was that +the atmosphere of embodied grief and regret in the house had been Mrs. +Harrington's, not Allan's--that he was more young and natural than she +had thought, better material for cheering; that his mother's devotion +had been something of a pressure on him at times; and that he himself +was not interested in efforts to stage his illness correctly. + +What he really had said when the dog was introduced, she learned later +from the attached Wallis, was that he might be a cripple, but he wasn't +going to be part of any confounded tableau. Whereupon his mother had +cried for an hour, kissing and pitying him in between, and his night +had been worse than usual. But the hound had stayed outside. + +Phyllis made an instant addition to her list. "One bull-pup, convenient +size, for Allan." The plain cat could wait. She had heard of publicity +campaigns; she had made up her mind, and a rather firm young mind it +was, that she was going to conduct a cheerfulness campaign in behalf of +this listless, beautiful, darkness-locked Allan of hers. Unknowingly, +she was beginning to regard him as much her property as the check-book, +and rather more so than the wolfhound. She moved back a little, and +reconciled herself to the dog, who had draped as much of his body as +would go, over her, and was batting his tail against her joyfully. + +"Poor old puppy," she said. "I want to talk over some plans with you, +Allan," she began again determinedly. She was astonished to see Allan +wince. + +"_Don't!_" he said, "for heaven's sake! You'll drive me crazy!" + +Phyllis drew back a little indignantly, but behind the couch she saw +Wallis making some sort of face that was evidently intended for a +warning. Then he slipped out of the room, as if he wished her to follow +soon and be explained to. "Plans" must be a forbidden subject. Anyhow, +crossness was a better symptom than apathy! + +"Very well," she said brightly, smiling her old, useful, +cheering-a-bad-child library smile at him. "It was mostly about things I +wanted to buy for myself, any way--satin slippers and such. I don't +suppose they _would_ interest a man much." + +"Oh, that sort of thing," said Allan relievedly. "I thought you meant +things that had to do with me. If you have plans about me, go ahead, for +you know I can't do anything to stop you--but for heaven's sake, don't +discuss it with me first!" + +He spoke carelessly, but the pity of it struck to Phyllis's heart. It +was true, he couldn't stop her. His foolish, adoring little desperate +mother, in her anxiety to have her boy taken good care of, had exposed +him to a cruel risk. Phyllis knew herself to be trustworthy. She knew +that she could no more put her own pleasures before her charge's welfare +than she could steal his watch. Her conscience was New-England rock. +But, oh! suppose Mr. De Guenther had chosen some girl who didn't care, +who would have taken the money and not have done the work! She shivered +at the thought of what Allan had escaped, and caught his hand +impulsively, as she had on that other night of terror. + +"Oh, Allan Harrington, I _wouldn't_ do anything I oughtn't to! I know +it's dreadful, having a strange girl wished on you this way, but truly I +mean to be as good as I can, and never in the way or anything! Indeed, +you may trust me! You--you don't mind having me round, do you?" + +Allan's cold hand closed kindly on hers. He spoke for the first time as +a well man speaks, quietly, connectedly, and with a little authority. + +"The fact that I am married to you does not weigh on me at all, my dear +child," he said. "I shall be dead, you know, this time five years, and +what difference does it make whether I'm married or not? I don't mind +you at all. You seem a very kind and pleasant person. I am sure I can +trust you. Now are you reassured?" + +"Oh, _yes_," said Phyllis radiantly, "and you _can_ trust me, and I +_won't_ fuss. All you have to do if I bore you is to look bored. You +can, you know. You don't know how well you do it! And I'll stop. I'm +going to ask Wallis how much of my society you'd better have, if any." + +"Why, I don't think a good deal of it would hurt me," he said +indifferently. But he smiled in a quite friendly fashion. + +"All right," said Phyllis again brightly. But she fell silent then. +There were two kinds of Allan, she reflected. This kind of Allan, who +was very much more grown-up and wise than she was, and of whom she still +stood a little in awe; and the little-boy Allan who had clung to her in +nervous dread of the dark the other night--whom she had sent to sleep +with children's stories. She wondered which was real, which he had been +when he was well. + +"I must go now and have something out with Mrs. Clancy," she said, +smiling and rising. "She's perfectly certain carpets have to come up +when you put down mattings, and I'm perfectly certain they don't." + +She tucked the despised list, to which she had furtively added her +bull-pup, into her sleeve, took her hand from his and went away. It +seemed to Allan that the room was a little darker. + + + + +IX + + +Outside the sitting-room door stood Wallis, who had been lying in wait. + +"I wanted to explain, madam, about the plans," he said. "It worries Mr. +Allan. You see, madam, the late Mrs. Harrington was a great one for +plans. She had, if I may say so, a new one every day, and she'd argue +you deaf, dumb, and blind--not to speak ill of the dead--till you were +fair beat out fighting it. Then you'd settle down to it--and next day +there be another one, with Mrs. Harrington rooting for it just as hard, +and you, with your mouth fixed for the other plan, so to speak, would +have to give in to that. The plan she happened to have last always went +through, because she fought for that as hard as she had for the others, +and you were so bothered by then you didn't care what." + +Wallis's carefully impersonal servant-English had slipped from him, and +he was talking to Phyllis as man to man, but she was very glad of it. +These were the sort of facts she had to elicit. + +"When Mr. Allan was well," he went on, "he used to just laugh and say, +'All right, mother darling,' and pet her and do his own way--he was +always laughing and carrying on then, Mr. Allan--but after he was hurt, +of course, he couldn't get away, and the old madam, she'd sit by his +couch by the hour, and he nearly wild, making plans for him. She'd spend +weeks planning details of things over and over, never getting tired. And +then off again to the next thing! It was all because she was so fond of +him, you see. But if you'll pardon my saying so, madam"--Wallis was +resuming his man-servant manners--"it was not always good for Mr. +Allan." + +"I think I understand," said Phyllis thoughtfully, as she and the +wolfhound went to interview Mrs. Clancy. So that was why! She had +imagined something of the sort. And she--she herself--was doubtless the +outcome of one of Mrs. Harrington's long-detailed plans, insisted on to +Allan till he had acquiesced for quiet's sake! ... But he said now he +didn't mind. She was somehow sure he wouldn't have said it if it had not +been true. Then Wallis's other words came to her, "He was always +laughing then," and suddenly there surged up in Phyllis a passionate +resolve to give Allan back at least a little of his lightness of heart. +He might be going to die--though she didn't believe it--but at least she +could make things less monotonous and dark for him; and she wouldn't +offer him plans! And if he objected when the plans rose up and hit him, +why, the shock might do him good. She thought she was fairly sure of an +ally in Wallis. + +She cut her interview with Mrs. Clancy short. Allan, lying motionless, +caught a green flash of her, crossing into her room to dress, another +blue flash as she went out; dropped his eyelids and crossed his hands to +doze a little, an innocent and unwary Crusader. He did not know it, but +a Plan was about to rise up and hit him. The bride his mother had left +him as a parting legacy had gone out to order a string of blue beads, a +bull-pup, a house, a motor, a banjo, and a rose-garden; as she went she +added a talking machine to the list; and he was to be planted in the +very centre of everything. + +"Seems like a nice girl, Wallis," said Allan dreamily. And the discreet +Wallis said nothing (though he knew a good deal) about his mistress's +shopping-list. + +"Yes, Mr. Allan," he conceded. + + * * * * * + +It was Phyllis Harrington's firm belief that Mr. De Guenther could +produce anything anybody wanted at any time, or that if he couldn't his +wife could. So it was to him that she went on her quest for the +rose-garden, with its incidental house. The rest of the items she +thought she could get for herself. It was nearly the last of April, and +she wanted a well-heated elderly mansion, preferably Colonial, not too +unwieldily large, with as many rose-trees around it as her discretionary +powers would stand. And she wanted it as near and as soon as possible. +By the help of Mr. De Guenther, amused but efficient, Mrs. De Guenther, +efficient but sentimental; and an agent who was efficient merely, she +got very nearly what she wanted. Money could do a great deal more than a +country minister's daughter had ever had any way of imagining. By its +aid she found it possible to have furniture bought and placed inside a +fortnight, even to a list of books set up in sliding sectional cases. +She had hoped to buy those cases some day, one at a time, and getting +them at one fell swoop seemed to her more arrogantly opulent than the +purchase of the house and grounds--than even the big shiny victrola. She +had bought that herself, before there was a house to put it in, going on +the principle that all men not professional musicians have a concealed +passion for music that they can create themselves by merely winding up +something. And--to anticipate--she found that as far as Allan was +concerned she was quite right. + +"But why do you take this very radical step, my dear?" asked Mrs. De +Guenther gently, as she helped Phyllis choose furniture. + +"I am going to try the only thing Allan's mother seems to have +omitted," said Phyllis dauntlessly. "A complete change of surroundings." + +"Oh, my dear!" breathed Mrs. De Guenther. "It may help poor Allan more +than we know! And dear Angela did discuss moving often, but she could +never bear to leave the city house, where so many of her dear ones have +passed away." + +"Well, none of _my_ dear ones are going to pass away there," said +Phyllis irreverently, "unless Mrs. Clancy wants to. I'm not even taking +any servants but Wallis. The country-house doesn't need any more than a +cook, a chambermaid, and outdoor man. Mrs. Clancy is getting them. I +told her I didn't care what age or color she chose, but they had to be +cheerful. She will stay in the city and keep the others straight, in +something she calls board-wages. I'm starting absolutely fresh." + +They were back at Mrs. De Guenther's house by the time Phyllis was done +telling her plans, Phyllis sitting in the identical pluffy chair where +she had made her decision to marry Allan. Mrs. De Guenther sprang from +her own chair, and came over and impulsively kissed her. + +"God bless you, dear!" she said. "I believe it was Heaven that inspired +Albert and myself to choose you to carry on poor Angela's work." + +Phyllis flushed indignantly. + +"I'm undoing a little of it, I hope," she said passionately. "If I can +only make that poor boy forget some of those dreadful years she spent +crying over him, I shan't have lived in vain!" + +Mrs. De Guenther looked at Phyllis earnestly--and, most unexpectedly, +burst into a little tinkling laugh. + +"My dear," she said mischievously, "what about all the fine things you +were going to do for yourself to make up for being tied to poor Allan? +You should really stop being unselfish, and enjoy yourself a little." + +Phyllis felt herself flushing crimson. Elderly people did seem to be so +sentimental! + +"I've bought myself lots of things," she defended herself. "Most of this +is really for me. And--I can't help being good to him. It's only common +humanity. I was never so sorry for anybody in my life--you'd be, too, if +it were Mr. De Guenther!" + +She thought her explanation was complete. But she must have said +something that she did not realize, for Mrs. De Guenther only laughed +her little tinkling laugh again, and--as is the fashion of elderly +people--kissed her. + +"I would, indeed, my dear," said she. + + + + +X + + +Allan Harrington lay in his old attitude on his couch in the darkened +day-room, his tired, clear-cut face a little thrown back, eyes +half-closed. He was not thinking of anything or any one especially; +merely wrapped in a web of the dragging, empty, gray half-thoughts of +weariness in general that had hung about him so many years. Wallis was +not there. Wallis had been with him much less lately, and he had +scarcely seen Phyllis for a fortnight; or, for the matter of that, the +dog, or any one at all. Something was going on, he supposed, but he +scarcely troubled himself to wonder what. The girl was doubtless making +herself boudoirs or something of the sort in a new part of the house. He +closed his eyes entirely, there in the dusky room, and let the web of +dreary, gray, formless thought wrap him again. + +Phyllis's gay, sweetly carrying voice rang from outside the door: + +"The three-thirty, then, Wallis, and I feel as if I were going to steal +Charlie Ross! Well----" + +On the last word she broke off and pushed the sitting-room door softly +open and slid in. She walked in a pussy-cat fashion which would have +suggested to any one watching her a dark burden on her conscience. + +She crossed straight to the couch, looked around for the chair that +should have been by it but wasn't, and sat absently down on the floor. +She liked floors. + +"Allan!" she said. + +No answer. + +"Allan _Harrington_!" + +Still none. Allan was half-asleep, or what did instead, in one of his +abstracted moods. + +"_All-an Harrington!_" + +This time she reached up and pulled at his heavy silk sleeve as she +spoke. + +"Yes," said Allan courteously, as if from an infinite distance. + +"Would you mind," asked Phyllis guilelessly, "if Wallis--we--moved +you--a little? I can tell you all about everything, unless you'd rather +not have the full details of the plan----" + +"Anything," said Allan wearily from the depths of his gray cloud; "only +don't _bother_ me about it!" + +Phyllis jumped to her feet, a whirl of gay blue skirts and cheerfully +tossing blue feathers. "Good-by, dear Crusader!" she said with a catch +in her voice that might have been either a laugh or a sob. "The next +time you see me you'll probably _hate_ me! Wallis!" + +Wallis appeared like the Slave of the Lamp. "It's all right, Wallis," +she said, and ran. Wallis proceeded thereupon to wheel his master's +couch into the bedroom. + +"If you're going to be moved, you'd better be dressed a little heavier, +sir," he said with the same amiable guilelessness, if the victim had but +noticed it, which Phyllis had used from her seat on the floor not long +before. + +"Very well," said Allan resignedly from his cloud. And Wallis proceeded +to suit the action to the word. + +Allan let him go on in unnoticing silence till it came to that totally +unfamiliar thing these seven years, a stand-up collar. A shiningly new +linen collar of the newest cut, a beautiful golden-brown knit tie, a +gray suit---- + +"What on earth?" inquired Allan, awakening from his lethargy. "I don't +need a collar and tie to keep me from getting cold on a journey across +the house. And where did you get those clothes? They look new." + +Wallis laid his now fully dressed master back to a reclining +position--he had been propped up--and tucked a handkerchief into the +appropriate pocket as he replied, "Grant & Moxley's, sir, where you +always deal." And he wheeled the couch back to the day-room, over to its +very door. + +It did not occur to Allan, as he was being carried downstairs by Wallis +and Arthur, another of the servants, that anything more than a change of +rooms was intended; nor, as he was carried out at its door to a long +closed carriage, that it was anything worse than his new keeper's +mistaken idea that drives would be good for him. He was a little +irritable at the length and shutupness of the drive, though, as his cot +had been swung deftly from the ceiling of the carriage, he was not +jarred. But when Wallis and Arthur carried the light pallet on which he +lay swiftly up a plank walk laid to the door of a private car--why then +it began to occur to Allan Harrington that something was happening. +And--which rather surprised himself--he did not lift a supercilious +eyebrow and say in a soft, apathetic voice, "Very we-ell!" Instead, he +turned his head towards the devoted Wallis, who had helped two +conductors swing the cot from the ceiling, and was now waiting for the +storm to break. And what he said to Wallis was this: + +"What the deuce does this tomfoolery mean?" As he spoke he felt the +accumulated capacity for temper of the last seven years surging up +toward Wallis, and Arthur, and Phyllis, and the carriage-horses, and +everything else, down to the two conductors. Wallis seemed rather +relieved than otherwise. Waiting for a storm to break is rather wearing. + +"Well, sir, Mrs. Harrington, she thought, sir, that--that a little move +would do you good. And you didn't want to be bothered, sir----" + +"Bothered!" shouted Allan, not at all like a bored and dying invalid. "I +should think I did, when a change in my whole way of life is made! Who +gave you, or Mrs. Harrington, permission for this outrageous +performance! It's sheer, brutal, insulting idiocy!" + +"Nobody, sir--yes, sir," replied Wallis meekly. "Would you care for a +drink, sir--or anything?" + +"_No!_" thundered Allan. + +"Or a fan?" ventured Wallis, approaching near with that article and +laying it on the coverlid. Allan's hand snatched the fan angrily--and +before he thought he had hurled it at Wallis! Weakly, it is true, for it +lighted ingloriously about five feet away; but he had _thrown_ it, with +a movement that must have put to use the muscles of the long-disused +upper arm. Wallis sat suddenly down and caught his breath. + +"Mr. Allan!" he said. "Do you know what you did then? You _threw_, and +you haven't been able to use more than your forearm before! Oh, Mr. +Allan, you're getting better!" + +Allan himself lay in astonishment at his feat, and forgot to be angry +for a moment. "I certainly did!" he said. + +"And the way you lost your temper!" went on Wallis enthusiastically. +"Oh, Mr. Allan, it was beautiful! You haven't been more than to say +snarly since the accident! It was so like the way you used to throw +hair-brushes----" + +But at the mention of his lost temper Allan remembered to lose it still +further. His old capacity for storming, a healthy lad's healthy young +hot-temperedness, had been weakened by long disuse, but he did fairly +well. Secretly it was a pleasure to him to find that he was alive enough +to care what happened, enough for anger. He demanded presently where he +was going. + +"Not more than two hours' ride, sir, I heard Mr. De Guenther mention," +answered Wallis at once. "A little place called Wallraven--quite +country, sir, I believe." + +"So the De Guenthers are in it, too!" said Allan. "What the dickens has +this girl done to them, to hypnotize them so?" + +"But I've heard say it's a very pretty place, sir," was all Wallis +vouchsafed to this. The De Guenthers were not the only people Phyllis +had hypnotized. + +He gave Allan other details as they went on, however. His clothes and +personal belongings were coming on immediately. There were two +suit-cases, perhaps he had noticed, in the car with them. The young +madam was planning to stay all the summer, he believed. Mrs. Clancy had +been left behind to look after the other servants, and he understood +that she had seen to the engagement of a fresh staff of servants for the +country. And Allan, still awakened by his fit of temper, and fresh from +the monotony of his seven years' seclusion, found all the things Wallis +could tell him very interesting. + + * * * * * + +Phyllis's rose-garden house had, among other virtues, the charm of being +near the little station: a new little mission station which had +apparently been called Wallraven by some poetic young real-estate +agency, for the surrounding countryside looked countrified enough to be +a Gray's Corners, or Smith's Crossing, or some other such placid old +country name. There were more trees to be seen in Allan's quick passage +from the train to the long old carryall (whose seats had been removed to +make room for his cot) than he had remembered existed. There were sleepy +birds to be heard, too, talking about how near sunset and their bedtime +had come, and a little brook splashed somewhere out of sight. Altogether +spring was to be seen and heard and felt, winningly insistent. Allan +forgave Wallis, not to speak of Phyllis and the conductors, to a certain +degree. He ordered the flapping black oilcloth curtain in front rolled +up so he could see out, and secretly enjoyed the drive, unforeseen +though it had been. His spine never said a word. Perhaps it, too, +enjoyed having a change from a couch in a dark city room. + +They saw no one in their passage through the long, low old house. +Phyllis evidently had learned that Allan didn't like his carryings +about done before people. + +Wallis seemed to be acting under a series of detailed orders. He and +Arthur carried their master to a long, well-lighted room at the end of +the house, and deftly transferred him to a couch much more convenient, +being newer, than the old one. On this he was wheeled to his adjoining +bedroom, and when Wallis had made him comfortable there, he left him +mysteriously for a while. It was growing dark by now, and the lights +were on. They were rose-shaded, Allan noticed, as the others had been at +home. Allan watched the details of his room with that vivid interest in +little changes which only invalids can know. There was an old-fashioned +landscape story paper on the walls, with very little repeat. Over it, +but not where they interfered with tracing out the adventures of the +paper people, were a good many pictures, quite incongruous, for they +were of the Remington type men like, but pleasant to see nevertheless. +The furniture was chintz-covered and gay. There was not one thing in +the room to remind a man that he was an invalid. It occurred to Allan +that Phyllis must have put a good deal of deliberate work on the place. +He lay contentedly, watching the grate fire, and trying to trace out the +story of the paper, for at least a half-hour. He found himself, at +length, much to his own surprise, thinking with a certain longing of his +dinner-tray. He was thinking of it more and more interestedly by the +time Wallis--trayless--came back. + +"Mr. and Mrs. De Guenther and the young madam are waiting for you in the +living-room," he announced. "They would be glad if you would have supper +with them." + +"Very well," said Allan amiably, still much to his own surprise. The +truth was, he was still enough awake and interested to want to go on +having things happen. + +The room Wallis wheeled him back into was a long, low one, wainscoted +and bare-floored. It was furnished with the best imitation Chippendale +to be obtained in a hurry, but over and above there were cushioned +chairs and couches enough for solid comfort. There were more cheerful +pictures, the Maxfield Parrishes Phyllis had wanted, over the +green-papered walls. There was a fire here also. The room had no more +period than a girl's sentence, but there was a bright air of welcomeness +and informality that was winning. An old-fashioned half-table against +the wall was covered with a great many picknicky things to eat. Another +table had more things, mostly to eat with, on it. And there were the De +Guenthers and Phyllis. On the whole it felt very like a welcome-home. + +Phyllis, in a satiny rose-colored gown he had never seen before, came +over to his couch to meet him. She looked very apprehensive and young +and wistful for the role of Bold Bad Hypnotist. She bent towards him +with her hand out, seemed about to speak, then backed, flushed, and +acted as if something had frightened her badly. + +"Is she as afraid of me as all that?" thought Allan. Wallis must have +given her a lurid account of how he had behaved. His quick impulse was +to reassure her. + +"Well, Phyllis, my dear, you certainly didn't bother me with plans +_this_ time!" he said, smiling. "This is a bully surprise!" + +"I--I'm glad you like it," said his wife shyly, still backing away. + +"Of course he'd like it," said Mrs. De Guenther's kind staccato voice +behind him. "Kiss your husband, and tell him he's welcome home, Phyllis +child!" + +Now, Phyllis was tired with much hurried work, and overstrung. And +Allan, lying there smiling boyishly up at her, Allan seen for the first +time in these usual-looking gray man-clothes, was like neither the +marble Crusader she had feared nor the heartbroken little boy she had +pitied. He was suddenly her contemporary, a very handsome and attractive +young fellow, a little her senior. From all appearances, he might have +been well and normal, and come home to her only a little tired, perhaps, +by the day's work or sport, as he lay smiling at her in that friendly, +intimate way! It was terrifyingly different. Everything felt different. +All her little pieces of feeling for him, pity and awe and friendliness +and love of service, seemed to spring suddenly together and make +something else--something unplaced and disturbing. Her cheeks burned +with a childish embarrassment as she stood there before him in her +ruffled pink gown. What should she do? + +It was just then that Mrs. De Guenther's crisply spoken advice came. +Phyllis was one of those people whose first unconscious instinct is to +obey an unspoken order. She bent blindly to Allan's lips, and kissed him +with a child's obedience, then straightened up, aghast. He would think +her very bold! + +But he did not, for some reason. It may have seemed only comforting and +natural to him, that swift childish kiss, and Phyllis's honey-colored, +violet-scented hair brushing his face. Men take a great deal without +question as their rightful due. + +The others closed around him then, welcoming him, laughing at the +surprise and the way he had taken it, telling him all about it as if +everything were as usual and pleasant as possible, and the present state +of things had always been a pleasant commonplace. And Wallis began to +serve the picnic supper. + + + + +XI + + +There were trays and little tables, and the food itself would have +betrayed a southern darky in the kitchen if nothing else had. It was the +first meal Allan had eaten with any one for years, and he found it so +interesting as to be almost exciting. Wallis took the plates invisibly +away when they were done, and they continued to stay in their +half-circle about the fire and talk it all over. Phyllis, tired to death +still, had slid to her favorite floor-seat, curled on cushions and +leaning against the couch-side. Allan could have touched her hair with +his hand. She thought of this, curled there, but she was too tired to +move. It was exciting to be near him, somehow, tired as she was. + +Most of the short evening was spent celebrating the fact that Allan had +thrown something at Wallis, who was recalled to tell the story three +times in detail. Then there was the house to discuss, its good and bad +points, its nearnesses and farnesses. + +"Let me tell you, Allan," said Mrs. De Guenther warmly at this point, +from her seat at the foot of the couch, "this wife of yours is a wonder. +Not many girls could have had a house in this condition two weeks after +it was bought." + +Allan looked down at the heap of shining hair below him, all he could +see of Phyllis. + +"Yes," he said consideringly. "She certainly is." + +At a certain slowness in his tone, Phyllis sprang up. "You must be tired +to _death_!" she said. "It must be nearly ten. Do you feel worn out?" + +Before he could say anything, Mrs. De Guenther had also risen, and was +sweeping away her husband. + +"Of course he is," she said decisively. "What have we all been thinking +of? And we must go to bed, too, Albert, if you insist on taking that +early train in the morning, and I insist on going with you. Good-night, +children." + +Wallis had appeared by this time, and was wheeling Allan from the room +before he had a chance to say much of anything but good-night. The De +Guenthers talked a little longer to Phyllis, and were gone also. Phyllis +flung herself full-length on the rugs and pillows before the fire, too +tired to move further. + +Well, she had everything that she had wished for on that wet February +day in the library. Money, leisure to be pretty, a husband whom she +"didn't have to associate with much," rest, if she ever gave herself +leave to take it, and the rose-garden. She had her wishes, as uncannily +fulfilled as if she had been ordering her fate from a department store, +and had money to pay for it.... And back there in the city it was +somebody's late night, and that somebody--it would be Anna Black's turn, +wouldn't it?--was struggling with John Zanowskis and Sadie Rabinowitzes +by the lapful, just as she had. And yet--and yet they had really cared +for her, those dirty, dear little foreigners of hers. But she'd had to +work for their liking.... Perhaps--perhaps she could make Allan +Harrington like her as much as the children did. He had been so kind +to-night about the move and all, and so much brighter, her handsome +Allan in his gray, every-day-looking man-clothes! If she could stay +brave enough and kind enough and bright enough ... her eyelids +drooped.... Wallis was standing respectfully over her. + +"Mrs. Harrington," he was saying, with a really masterly ignoring of her +attitude on the rug, "Mr. Harrington says you haven't bid him good-night +yet." + +An amazing message! Had she been in the habit of it, that he demanded it +like a small boy? But she sprang up and followed Wallis into Allan's +room. He was lying back in his white silk sleeping things among the +white bed-draperies, looking as he always had before. Only, he seemed +too alive and awake still for his old role of Crusader-on-a-tomb. + +"Phyllis," he began eagerly, as she sat down beside him, "what made you +so frightened when I first came? Wallis hadn't worried you, had he?" + +"Oh, no; it wasn't that at all," said Phyllis. "And thank you for being +so generous about it all." + +"I wasn't generous," said her husband. "I behaved like everything to old +Wallis about it. Well, what was it, then?" + +"I--I--only--you looked so different in--_clothes_," pleaded Phyllis, +"like any man my age or older--as if you might get up and go to +business, or play tennis, or anything, and--and I was _afraid_ of you! +That's all, truly!" + +She was sitting on the bed's edge, her eyes down, her hands quivering in +her lap, the picture of a school-girl who isn't quite sure whether she's +been good or not. + +"Why, that sounds truthful!" said Allan, and laughed. It was the first +time she had heard him, and she gave a start. Such a clear, cheerful, +_young_ laugh! Maybe he would laugh more, by and by, if she worked hard +to make him. + +"Good-night, Allan," she said. + +"Aren't you going to kiss me good-night?" demanded this new Allan, +precisely as if she had been doing it ever since she met him. Evidently +that kiss three hours ago had created a precedent. Phyllis colored to +her ears. She seemed to herself to be always coloring now. But she +mustn't cross Allan, tired as he must be! + +"Good-night, Allan," she said again sedately, and kissed his cheek as +she had done a month ago--years ago!--when they had been married. Then +she fled. + +"Wallis," said his master dreamily when his man appeared again, "I want +some more real clothes. Tired of sleeping-suits. Get me some, please. +Good-night." + +As for Phyllis, in her little green-and-white room above him, she was +crying comfortably into her pillow. She had not the faintest idea why, +except that she liked doing it. She felt, through her sleepiness, a +faint, hungry, pleasant want of something, though she hadn't an idea +what it could be. She had everything, except that it wasn't time for the +roses to be out yet. Probably that was the trouble.... Roses.... She, +too, went to sleep. + + * * * * * + +"How did Mr. Allan pass the night?" Phyllis asked Wallis anxiously, +standing outside his door next morning. She had been up since seven, +speeding the parting guests and interviewing the cook and chambermaid. +Mrs. Clancy's choice had been cheerful to a degree, and black, all of +it; a fat Virginia cook, a slim young Tuskegee chambermaid of a pale +saddle-color, and a shiny brown outdoor man who came from nowhere in +particular, but was very useful now he was here. Phyllis had seen them +all this morning, and found them everything servants should be. Now she +was looking after Allan, as her duty was. + +Wallis beamed from against the door-post, his tray in his hands. + +"Mrs. Harrington, it's one of the best sleeps Mr. Allan's had! Four +hours straight, and then sleeping still, if broken, till six! And still +taking interest in things. Oh, ma'am, you should have heard him +yesterday on the train, as furious as furious! It was beautiful!" + +"Then his spine wasn't jarred," said Phyllis thoughtfully. "Wallis, I +believe there was more nervous shock and nervous depression than ever +the doctors realized. And I believe all he needs is to be kept happy, to +be much, much better. Wouldn't it be wonderful if he got so he could +move freely from the waist up? I believe that may happen if we can keep +him cheered and interested." + +Wallis looked down at his tray. "Yes, ma'am," he said. "Not to speak ill +of the dead, Mrs. Harrington, the late Mrs. Harrington was always saying +'My poor stricken boy,' and things like that--'Do not jar him with +ill-timed light or merriment,' and reminding him how bad he was. And she +certainly didn't jar him with any merriment, ma'am." + +"What were the doctors thinking about?" demanded Phyllis indignantly. + +"Well, ma'am, they did all sorts of things to poor Mr. Allan for the +first year or so. And then, as nothing helped, and they couldn't find +out what was wrong to have paralyzed him so, he begged to have them +stopped hurting him. So we haven't had one for the past five years." + +"I think a masseur and a wheel-chair are the next things to get," said +Phyllis decisively. "And remember, Wallis, there's something the matter +with Mr. Allan's shutters. They won't always close the sunshine out as +they should." + +Wallis almost winked, if an elderly, mutton-chopped servitor can be +imagined as winking. + +"No, ma'am," he promised. "Something wrong with 'em. I'll remember, +ma'am." + +Phyllis went singing on down the sunny old house, swinging her colored +muslin skirts and prancing a little with sheer joy of being twenty-five, +and prettily dressed, with a dear house all her own, and--yes--a dear +Allan a little her own, too! Doing well for a man what another woman has +done badly has a perennial joy for a certain type of woman, and this was +what Phyllis was in the very midst of. She pranced a little more, and +came almost straight up against a long old mirror with gilt cornices, +which had come with the house and was staying with it. Phyllis stopped +and looked critically at herself. + +"I haven't taken time yet to be pretty," she reminded the girl in the +glass, and began then and there to take account of stock, by way of +beginning. Why--a good deal had done itself! Her hair had been washed +and sunned and sunned and washed about every ten minutes since she had +been away from the library. It was springy and three shades more golden. +She had not been rushing out in all weathers unveiled, nor washing +hastily with hard water and cheap library soap eight or ten times a day, +because private houses are comparatively clean places. So her complexion +had been getting back, unnoticed, a good deal of its original country +rose-and-cream, with a little gold glow underneath. And the tired +heaviness was gone from her eyelids, because she had scarcely used her +eyes since she had married Allan--there had been too much else to do! +The little frown-lines between the brows had gone, too, with the need of +reading-glasses and work under electricity. She was more rounded, and +her look was less intent. The strained Liberry Teacher look was gone. +The luminous long blue eyes in the glass looked back at her girlishly. +"Would you think we were twenty-five even?" they said. Phyllis smiled +irrepressibly at the mirrored girl. + +"Yas'm," said the rich and comfortable voice of Lily-Anna, the cook, +from the dining-room door; "you sholy is pretty. Yas'm--a lady _wants_ +to stay pretty when she's married. Yo' don' look much mo'n a bride, +ma'am, an' dat's a fac'. Does you want yo' dinnehs brought into de +sittin'-room regular till de gem'man gits well?" + +"Yes--no--yes--for the present, any way," said Phyllis, with a mixture +of confusion and dignity. Fortunately the doorbell chose this time to +ring. + +A business-like young messenger with a rocking crate wanted to speak to +the madam. The last item on Phyllis's shopping list had come. + +"The wolfhound's doing fine, ma'am," the messenger answered in response +to her questions. "Like a different dog already. All he needed was +exercise and a little society. Yes'm, this pup's broken--in a manner, +that is. Your man picked you out the best-tempered little feller in the +litter. Here, Foxy--careful, lady! Hold on to his leash!" + +There was the passage of the check, a few directions about +dog-biscuits, and then the messenger from the kennels drove back to the +station, the crate, which had been emptied of a wriggling six-months +black bull-dog, on the seat beside him. + + + + +XII + + +Allan, lying at the window of the sunny bedroom, and wondering if they +had been having springs like this all the time he had lived in the city, +heard a scuffle outside the door. His wife's voice inquired breathlessly +of Wallis, "Can Mr. Allan--see me?... Oh, gracious--_don't_, Foxy, you +little black gargoyle! Open the door, or--shut it--quick, Wallis!" + +But the door, owing to circumstances over which nobody but the black dog +had any control, flew violently open here, and Allan had a flying vision +of his wife, flushed, laughing, and badly mussed, being railroaded +across the room by a prancingly exuberant French bull at the end of a +leash. + +"He's--he's a cheerful dog," panted Phyllis, trying to bring Foxy to +anchor near Allan, "and I don't think he knows how to keep still long +enough to pose across your feet--he wouldn't become them anyhow--he's a +real man-dog, Allan, not an interior decoration.... Oh, Wallis, he has +Mr. Allan's slipper! Foxy, you little fraud! Did him want a drink, +angel-puppy?" + +"Did you get him for me, Phyllis?" asked Allan when the tumult and the +shouting had died, and the caracoling Foxy had buried his hideous little +black pansy-face in a costly Belleek dish of water. + +"Yes," gasped Phyllis from her favorite seat, the floor; "but you +needn't keep him unless you want to. I can keep him where you'll never +see him--can't I, honey-dog-gums? Only I thought he'd be company for +you, and don't you think he seems--cheerful?" + +Allan threw his picturesque head back on the cushions, and laughed and +laughed. + +"Cheerful!" he said. "Most assuredly! Why--thank you, ever so much, +Phyllis. You're an awfully thoughtful girl. I always did like bulls--had +one in college, a Nelson. Come here, you little rascal!" + +He whistled, and the puppy lifted its muzzle from the water, made a +dripping dash to the couch, and scrambled up over Allan as if they had +owned each other since birth. Never was a dog less weighed down by the +glories of ancestry. + +Allan pulled the flopping bat-ears with his most useful hand, and asked +with interest, "Why on earth did they call a French bull Foxy?" + +"Yes, sir," said Wallis. "I understand, sir, that he was the most active +and playful of the litter, and chewed up all his brothers' ears, sir. +And the kennel people thought it was so clever that they called him +Foxy." + +"The best-tempered dog in the litter!" cried Phyllis, bursting into +helpless laughter from the floor. + +"That doesn't mean he's bad-tempered," explained master and man eagerly +together. Phyllis began to see that she had bought a family pet as much +for Wallis as for Allan. She left them adoring the dog with that +reverent emotion which only very ugly bull-dogs can wake in a man's +breast, and flitted out, happy over the success of her new toy for +Allan. + +"Take him out when he gets too much for Mr. Allan," she managed to say +softly to Wallis as she passed him. But, except for a run or so for his +health, Wallis and Allan between them kept the dog in the bedroom most +of the day. Phyllis, in one of her flying visits, found the little +fellow, tired with play, dog-biscuits, and other attentions, snuggled +down by his master, his little crumpled black muzzle on the pillow close +to Allan's contented, sleeping face. She felt as if she wanted to cry. +The pathetic lack of interests which made the coming of a new little dog +such an event! + +Before she hung one more picture, before she set up even a book from the +boxes which had been her father's, before she arranged one more article +of furniture, she telephoned to the village for the regular delivery of +four daily papers, and a half-dozen of the most masculine magazines she +could think of on the library lists. She had never known of Allan's +doing any reading. That he had cared for books before the accident, she +knew. At any rate, she was resolved to leave no point uncovered that +might, just possibly _might_, help her Allan just a little way to +interest in life, which she felt to be the way to recovery. He liked +being told stories to, any way. + +"Do you think Mr. Allan will feel like coming into the living-room +to-day?" she asked Wallis, meeting him in the hall about two o'clock. + +"Why, he's dressed, ma'am," was Wallis's astonishing reply, "and him and +the pup is having a fine game of play. He's got more use of that hand +an' arm, ma'am, than we thought." + +"Do you think he'd care to be wheeled into the living-room about four?" +asked Phyllis. + +"For tea, ma'am?" inquired Wallis, beaming. "I should think so, ma'am. +I'll ask, anyhow." + +Phyllis had not thought of tea--one does not stop for such leisurely +amenities in a busy public library--but she saw the beauty of the idea, +and saw to it that the tea was there. Lily-Anna was a jewel. She built +the fire up to a bright flame, and brought in some daffodils from the +garden without a word from her mistress. Phyllis herself saw that the +victrola was in readiness, and cleared a space for the couch near the +fire. There was quite a festal feeling. + +The talking-machine was also a surprise for Allan. Phyllis thought +afterward that she should have saved it for another day, but the +temptation to grace the occasion with it was too strong. She and Allan +were as excited over it as a couple of children, and the only drawback +to Allan's enjoyment was that he obviously wanted to take the records +out of her unaccustomed fingers and adjust them himself. He knew how, it +appeared, and Phyllis naturally didn't. However, she managed to follow +his directions successfully. She had bought recklessly of rag-time +discs, and provided a fair amount of opera selections. Allan seemed +equally happy over both. After the thing had been playing for +three-quarters of an hour, and most of the records were exhausted, +Phyllis rang for tea. It was getting a little darker now, and the +wood-fire cast fantastic red and black lights and shadows over the room. +It was very intimate and thrilling to Phyllis suddenly, the fire-lit +room, with just their two selves there. Allan, on his couch before the +fire, looked bright and contented. The adjustable couch-head had been +braced to such a position that he was almost sitting up. The bull-dog, +who had lately come back from a long walk with the gratified outdoor +man, snored regularly on the rug near his master, wakening enough to bat +his tail on the floor if he was referred to. The little tea-table was +between Allan and Phyllis, crowned with a bunch of apple-blossoms, whose +spring-like scent dominated the warm room. Phyllis, in her green gown, +her cheeks pink with excitement, was waiting on her lord and master a +little silently. + +Allan watched her amusedly for awhile--she was as intent as a good child +over her tea-ball and her lemon and her little cakes. + +"Say something, Phyllis," he suggested with the touch of mischief she +was not yet used to, coming from him. + +"This is a serious matter," she replied gravely. "Do you know I haven't +made tea--afternoon tea, that is--for so long it's a wonder I know which +is the cup and which is the saucer?" + +"Why not?" he asked idly, yet interestedly too. + +"I was otherwise occupied. I was a Daughter of Toil," explained Phyllis +serenely, setting down her own cup to relax in her chair, hands behind +her head; looking, in her green gown, the picture of graceful, strong, +young indolence. "I was a librarian--didn't you know?" + +"No. I wish you'd tell me, if you don't mind," said Allan. "About you, I +mean, Phyllis. Do you know, I feel awfully married to you this +afternoon--you've bullied me so much it's no wonder--and I really ought +to know about my wife's dark past." + +Phyllis's heart beat a little faster. She, too, had felt "awfully +married" here alone in the fire-lit living-room, dealing so intimately +and gayly with Allan. + +"There isn't much to tell," she said soberly. + +"Come over here closer," commanded Allan the spoilt. "We've both had all +the tea we want. Come close by the couch. I want to see you when you +talk." + +Phyllis did as he ordered. + +"I was a New England country minister's daughter," she began. "New +England country ministers always know lots about Greek and Latin and how +to make one dollar do the work of one-seventy-five, but they never have +any dollars left when the doing's over. Father and I lived alone +together always, and he taught me things, and I petted him--fathers need +it, specially when they have country congregations--and we didn't bother +much about other folks. Then he--died. I was eighteen, and I had six +hundred dollars. I couldn't do arithmetic, because Father had always +said it was left out of my head, and I needn't bother with it. So I +couldn't teach. Then they said, 'You like books, and you'd better be a +librarian.' As a matter of fact, a librarian never gets a chance to +read, but you can't explain that to the general public. So I came to the +city and took the course at library school. Then I got a position in the +Greenway Branch--two years in the circulating desk, four in the +cataloguing room, and one in the Children's Department. The short and +simple annals of the poor!" + +"Go on," said Allan. + +"I believe it's merely that you like the sound of the human voice," said +Phyllis, laughing. "I'm going to go on with the story of the Five Little +Pigs--you'll enjoy it just as much!" + +"Exactly," said Allan. "Tell me what it was like in the library, +please." + +"It was rather interesting," said Phyllis, yielding at once. "There are +so many different things to be done that you never feel any monotony, as +I suppose a teacher does. But the hours are not much shorter than a +department store's, and it's exacting, on-your-feet work all the time. I +liked the work with the children best. Only--you never have any time to +be anything but neat in a library, and you do get so tired of being just +neat, if you're a girl." + +"And a pretty one," said Allan. "I don't suppose the ugly ones mind as +much." + +It was the first thing he had said about her looks. Phyllis's ready +color came into her cheeks. So he thought she was pretty! + +"Do you--think I'm pretty?" she asked breathlessly. She couldn't help +it. + +"Of course I do, you little goose," said Allan, smiling at her. + +Phyllis plunged back into the middle of her story: + +"You see, you can't sit up nights to sew much, or practise doing your +hair new ways, because you need all your strength to get up when the +alarm-clock barks next morning. And then, there's always the +money-worry, if you have nothing but your salary. Of course, this last +year, when I've been getting fifty dollars a month, things have been all +right. But when it was only thirty a month in the Circulation--well, +that was pretty hard pulling," said Phyllis thoughtfully. "But the +worst--the worst, Allan, was waking up nights and wondering what would +happen if you broke down for a long time. Because you _can't_ very well +save for sickness-insurance on even fifty a month. And the work--well, +of course, most girls' work is just a little more than they have the +strength for, always. But I was awfully lucky to get into children's +work. Some of my imps, little Poles and Slovaks and Hungarians mostly, +are the cleverest, most affectionate babies----" + +She began to tell him stories of wonderful ten-year-olds who were +Socialists by conviction, and read economics, and dazed little atypical +sixteen-year-olds who read Mother Goose, and stopped even that because +they got married. + +"You poor little girl!" said Allan, unheeding. "What brutes they were to +you! Well, thank Heaven, that's over now!" + +"Why, Allan!" she said, laying a soothing hand on his. "Nobody was a +brute. There's never more than one crank-in-authority in any library, +they say. Ours was the Supervisor of the Left Half of the Desk, and +after I got out of Circulation I never saw anything of her." + +Allan burst into unexpected laughter. "It sounds like a Chinese title of +honor," he explained. "'Grand Warder of the Emperor's Left +Slipper-Rosette,' or something of the sort." + +"The Desk's where you get your books stamped," she explained, "and the +two shifts of girls who attend to that part of the work each have a +supervisor--the Right and Left halves. The one that was horrid had +favorites, and snapped at the ones that weren't. I wasn't under her, +though. My Supervisor was lovely, an Irishwoman with the most florid +hats, and the kindest, most just disposition, and always laughing. We +all adored her, she was so fair-minded." + +"You think a good deal about laughing," said Allan thoughtfully. "Does it +rank as a virtue in libraries, or what?" + +"You have to laugh," explained Phyllis. "If you don't see the laugh-side +of things, you see the cry-side. And you can't afford to be unhappy if +you have to earn your living. People like brightness best. And it's more +comfortable for yourself, once you get used to it." + +"So that was your philosophy of life," said Allan. His hand tightened +compassionately on hers. "You _poor_ little girl!... Tell me about the +cry-side, Phyllis." + +His voice was very moved and caressing, and the darkness was deepening +as the fire sank. Only an occasional tongue of flame glinted across +Phyllis's silver slipper-buckle and on the seal-ring Allan wore. It was +easy to tell things there in the perfumed duskiness. It was a great many +years since any one had cared to hear the cry-side. And it was so dark, +and the hand keeping hers in the shadows might have been any kind, +comforting hand. She found herself pouring it all out to Allan, there +close by her; the loneliness, the strain, the hard work, the lack of all +the woman-things in her life, the isolation and dreariness at night, the +over-fatigue, and the hurt of watching youth and womanhood sliding away, +unused, with nothing to show for all the years; only a cold hope that +her flock of little transient aliens might be a little better for the +guidance she could give them-- + + + Years hence in rustic speech a phrase, + As in rude earth a Grecian vase. + + +And then, that wet, discouraged day in February, and the vision of Eva +Atkinson, radiantly fresh and happy, kept young and pretty by unlimited +money and time. + +"Her children were so pretty," said Phyllis wistfully, "and mine, dear +little villains, were such dirty, untaught, rude little things--oh, it +sounds snobbish, but I'd have given everything I had to have a dainty, +clean little _lady_-child throw her arms around me and kiss me, instead +of my pet little handsome, sticky Polish Jewess. Up at home everything +had been so clean and old and still that you always could remember it +had been finished for three hundred years. And Father's clean, still old +library----" + +Phyllis did not know how she was revealing to Allan the unconscious +motherhood in her; but Allan, femininely sensitive to unspoken things +from his long sojourn in the dark--Allan did. It was the mother-instinct +that she was spending on him, but mother-instinct of a kind he had never +known before; gayly self-effacing, efficient, shown only in its results. +And she could never have anything else to spend it on, he thought. Well, +he was due to die in a few years.... But he didn't want to. Living was +just beginning to be interesting again, somehow. There seemed no +satisfactory solution for the two of them.... Well, he'd be unselfish +and die, any way. Meanwhile, why not be happy? Here was Phyllis. His +hand clasped hers more closely. + +"And when Mr. De Guenther made me that offer," she murmured, coloring in +the darkness, "I was tired and discouraged, and the years seemed so +endless! It didn't seem as though I'd be harming any one--but I wouldn't +have done it if you'd said a word against it--truly I wouldn't, dear." + +The last little word slipped out unnoticed. She had been calling her +library children "dear" for a year now, and the word slipped out of +itself. But Allan liked it. + +"My poor little girl!" he said. "In your place I'd have married the +devil himself--up against a life like that." + +"Then--then you don't--mind?" asked Phyllis anxiously, as she had asked +before. + +"No, indeed!" said Allan, with a little unnecessary firmness. "I _told_ +you that, didn't I? I like it." + +"So you did tell me," she said penitently. + +"But supposing De Guenther hadn't picked out some one like you----" + +"That's just what I've often thought myself," said Phyllis naively. "She +might have been much worse than I.... Oh, but I was frightened when I +saw you first! I didn't know what you'd be like. And then, when I looked +at you----" + +"Well, when you looked at me?" demanded Allan. + +But Phyllis refused to go on. + +"But that's not all," said Allan. "What about--men?" + +"What men?" asked Phyllis innocently. + +"Why, men you were interested in, of course," he answered. + +"There weren't any," said Phyllis. "I hadn't any place to meet them, or +anywhere to entertain them if I had met them. Oh, yes, there was one--an +old bookkeeper at the boarding-house. All the boarders there were old. +That was why the people at home had chosen it. They thought it would be +safe. It was all of that!" + +"Well, the bookkeeper?" demanded Allan. "You're straying off from your +narrative. The bookkeeper, Phyllis, my dear!" + +"I'm telling you about him," protested Phyllis. "He was awfully cross +because I wouldn't marry him, but I didn't see any reason why I should. +I didn't like him especially, and I would probably have gone on with my +work afterwards. There didn't seem to me to be anything to it for any +one but him--for of course I'd have had his mending and all that to do +when I came home from the library, and I scarcely got time for my own. +But he lost his temper fearfully because I didn't want to. Then, of +course, men would try to flirt in the library, but the janitor always +made them go out when you asked him to. He loved doing it.... Why, +Allan, it must be seven o'clock! Shall I turn on more lights?" + +"No.... Then you were quite as shut up in your noisy library as I was in +my dark rooms," said Allan musingly. + +"I suppose I was," she said, "though I never thought of it before. You +mustn't think it was horrid. It was fun, lots of it. Only, there wasn't +any being a real girl in it." + +"There isn't much in this, I should think," said Allan savagely, +"except looking after a big doll." + +Phyllis's laugh tinkled out. "Oh, I _love_ playing with dolls," she said +mischievously. "And you ought to see my new slippers! I have pink ones, +and blue ones, and lavender and green, all satin and suede. And when I +get time I'm going to buy dresses to match. And a banjo, maybe, with a +self-teacher. There's a room upstairs where nobody can hear a thing you +do. I've wanted slippers and a banjo ever since I can remember." + +"Then you're fairly happy?" demanded Allan suddenly. + +"Why, of course!" said Phyllis, though she had not really stopped to ask +herself before whether she was or not. There had been so many exciting +things to do. "Wouldn't you be happy if you could buy everything you +wanted, and every one was lovely to you, and you had pretty clothes and +a lovely house--and a rose-garden?" + +"Yes--if I could buy everything I wanted," said Allan. His voice dragged +a little. Phyllis sprang up, instantly penitent. + +"You're tired, and I've been talking and talking about my silly little +woes till I've worn you out!" she said. "But--Allan, you're getting +better. Try to move this arm. The hand I'm holding. There! That's a lot +more than you could do when I first came. I think--I think it would be a +good plan for a masseur to come down and see it." + +"Now look here, Phyllis," protested Allan, "I like your taste in houses +and music-boxes and bull-dogs, but I'll be hanged if I'll stand for a +masseur. There's no use, they can't do me any good, and the last one +almost killed me. There's no reason why I should be tormented simply +because a professional pounder needs the money." + +"No, no!" said Phyllis. "Not that kind! Wallis can have orders to shoot +him or something if he touches your spinal column. All I meant was a man +who would give the muscles of your arms and shoulders a little exercise. +That couldn't hurt, and might help you use them. That wouldn't be any +trouble, would it? _Please!_ The first minute he hurts, you can send him +flying. You know they call massage lazy people's exercise." + +"I believe you're really interested in making me better," said Allan, +after a long silence. + +"Why, of course," said Phyllis, laughing. "That's what I'm here for!" + +But this answer did not seem to suit Allan, for some reason. Phyllis +said no more about the masseur. She only decided to summon him, any way. +And presently Wallis came in and turned all the lights on. + + + + +XIII + + +In due course of time June came. So did the masseur, and more flowered +frocks for Phyllis, and the wheel-chair for Allan. The immediate effect +of June was to bring out buds all over the rose-trees; of the flowered +dresses, to make Phyllis very picturesquely pretty. As for the masseur, +he had more effect than anything else. It was as Phyllis had hoped: the +paralysis of Allan's arms had been less permanent than any one had +thought, and for perhaps the last three years there had been little more +the matter than entire loss of strength and muscle-control, from long +disuse. By the time they had been a month in the country Allan's use of +his arms and shoulders was nearly normal, and Phyllis was having wild +hopes, that she confided to no one but Wallis, of even more sweeping +betterments. Allan slept much better, from the slight increase of +activity, and also perhaps because Phyllis had coaxed him outdoors as +soon as the weather became warm, and was keeping him there. Sometimes +he lay in the garden on his couch, sometimes he sat up in the +wheel-chair, almost always with Phyllis sitting, or lying in her hammock +near him, and the devoted Foxy pretending to hunt something near by. + +There were occasional fits of the old depression and silence, when Allan +would lie silently in his own room with his hands crossed and his eyes +shut, answering no one--not even Foxy. Wallis and Phyllis respected +these moods, and left him alone till they were over, but the adoring +Foxy had no such delicacy of feeling. And it is hard to remain silently +sunk in depression when an active small dog is imploring you by every +means he knows to throw balls for him to run after. For the rest, Allan +proved to have naturally a lighter heart and more carefree disposition +than Phyllis. His natural disposition was buoyant. Wallis said that he +had never had a mood in his life till the accident. + +His attitude to his wife became more and more a taking-for-granted +affection and dependence. It is to be feared that Phyllis spoiled him +badly. But it was so long since she had been needed by any one person as +Allan needed her! And he had such lovable, illogical, masculine ways of +being wronged if he didn't get the requisite amount of petting, and +grateful for foolish little favors and taking big ones for granted, +that--entirely, as Phyllis insisted to herself, from a sense of combined +duty and grateful interest--she would have had her pretty head removed +and sent him by parcel-post, if he had idly suggested his possible need +of a girl's head some time. + +And it was so heavenly--oh, but it was heavenly there in Phyllis's +rose-garden, with the colored flowers coming out, and the little green +caterpillars roaming over the leaves, and pretty dresses to wear, and +Foxy-dog to play with--and Allan! Allan demanded--no, not exactly +demanded, but expected and got--so much of Phyllis's society in these +days that she had learned to carry on all her affairs, even the +housekeeping, out in her hammock by his wheel-chair or couch. She wore +large, floppy white hats with roses on them, by way of keeping the sun +off; but Allan, it appeared, did not think much of hats except as an +ornament for girls, and his uncovered curly hair was burned to a sort of +goldy-russet all through, and his pallor turned to a clear pale brown. + +Phyllis looked up from her work one of these heavenly last-of-June days, +and tried to decide whether she really liked the change or not. Allan +was handsomer unquestionably, though that had hardly been necessary. But +the resignedly statuesque look was gone. + +Allan felt her look, and looked up at her. He had been reading a +magazine, for Phyllis had succeeded in a large measure in reviving his +taste for magazines and books. "Well, Phyllis, my dear," said he, +smiling, "what's the problem now? I feel sure there is something new +going to be sprung on me--get the worst over!" + +"You wrong me," she said, beginning to thread some more pink embroidery +silk. "I was only wondering whether I liked you as well tanned as I did +when you were so nice and white, back in the city." + +"Cheerful thought!" said Allan, laying down his magazine entirely. +"Shall I ring for Wallis and some peroxide? As you said the other day, +'I have to be approved of or I'm unhappy!'" + +"Oh, it really doesn't matter," said Phyllis mischievously. "You know, I +married you principally for a rose-garden, and that's _lovely_!" + +"I suppose I spoil the perspective," said Allan, unexpectedly ruffled. + +Phyllis leaned forward in her blossom-dotted draperies and stroked his +hand, that long carven hand she so loved to watch. + +"Not a bit, Allan," she said, laughing at him. "You're exceedingly +decorative! I remember the first time I saw you I thought you looked +exactly like a marble knight on a tomb." + +Allan--Allan the listless, tranced invalid of four months before--threw +his head back and shouted with laughter. + +"I suppose I serve the purpose of garden statuary," he said. "We used to +have some horrors when I was a kid. I remember two awful bronze deer +that always looked as if they were trying not to get their feet wet, +and a floppy bronze dog we called Fido. He was meant for a Gordon +setter, I think, but it didn't go much further than intention. Louise +and I used to ride the deer." + +His face shadowed a little as he spoke, for nearly the first time, of +the dead girl. + +"Allan," Phyllis said, bending closer to him, all rosy and golden in her +green hammock, "tell me about--Louise Frey--if you don't mind talking +about her? Would it be bad for you, do you think?" + +Allan's eyes dwelt on his wife pleasurably. She was very real and near +and lovable, and Louise Frey seemed far away and shadowy in his +thoughts. He had loved her very dearly and passionately, that +boisterous, handsome young Louise, but that gay boy-life she had +belonged to seemed separated now from this pleasant rose-garden, with +its golden-haired, wisely-sweet young chatelaine, by thousands of black +years. The blackness came back when he remembered what lay behind it. + +"There's nothing much to tell, Phyllis," he said, frowning a little. +"She was pretty and full of life. She had black hair and eyes and a +good deal of color. We were more or less friends all our lives, for our +country-places adjoined. She was eighteen when--it happened." + +"Eighteen," said Phyllis musingly. "She would have been just my age.... +We won't talk about it, then, Allan ... Well, Viola?" + +The pretty Tuskegee chambermaid was holding out a tray with a card on +it. + +"The doctor, ma'am," she said. + +"The doctor!" echoed Allan, half-vexed, half-laughing. "I _knew_ you had +something up your sleeve, Phyllis! What on earth did you have him for?" + +Phyllis's face was a study of astonishment. "On my honor, I hadn't a +notion he was even in existence," she protested. "He's not _my_ doctor!" + +"He must have 'just growed,' or else Lily-Anna's called him in," +suggested Allan sunnily. "Bring him along, Viola." + +Viola produced him so promptly that nobody had time to remember the +professional doctor's visits don't usually have cards, or thought to +look at the card for enlightenment. So the surprise was complete when +the doctor appeared. + +"Johnny Hewitt!" ejaculated Allan, throwing out both hands in greeting. +"Of all people! Well, you old fraud, pretending to be a doctor! The last +I heard about you, you were trying to prove that you weren't the man +that tied a mule into old Sumerley's chair at college." + +"I never did prove it," responded Johnny Hewitt, shaking hands +vigorously, "but the fellows said afterwards that I ought to +apologize--to the mule. He was a perfectly good mule. But I'm a doctor +all right. I live here in Wallraven. I wondered if it might be you by +any chance, Allan, when I heard some Harringtons had bought here. But +this is the first chance a promising young chickenpox epidemic has given +me to find out." + +"It's what's left of me," said Allan, smiling ruefully. "And--Phyllis, +this doctor-person turns out to be an old friend of mine. This is Mrs. +Harrington, Johnny." + +"Oh, I'm so glad!" beamed Phyllis, springing up from her hammock, and +looking as if she loved Johnny. Here was exactly what was +needed--somebody for Allan to play with! She made herself delightful to +the newcomer for a few minutes, and then excused herself. They would +have a better time alone, for awhile, any way, and there was dinner to +order. Maybe this Johnny Hewitt-doctor would stay for dinner. He should +if she could make him! She sang a little on her way to the house, and +almost forgot the tiny hurt it had been when Allan seemed so saddened by +speaking of Louise Frey. She had no right to feel hurt, she knew. It was +only to be expected that Allan would always love Louise's memory. She +didn't know much about men, but that was the way it always was in +stories. A man's heart would die, under an automobile or anywhere else, +and all there was left for anybody else was leavings. It wasn't fair! +And then Phyllis threw back her shoulders and laughed, as she had +sometimes in the library days, and reminded herself what a nice world it +was, any way, and that Allan was going to be much helped by Johnny +Hewitt. That was a cheering thought, anyhow. She went on singing, and +ordered a beautiful, festively-varied dinner, a very poem of gratitude. +Then she pounced on the doctor as he was leaving and made him stay for +it. + +Allan's eyes were bright and his face lighted with interest. Phyllis, at +the head of the table, kept just enough in the talk to push the men on +when it seemed flagging, which was not often. She learned more about +Allan, and incidentally Johnny Hewitt, in the talk as they lingered +about the table, than she had ever known before. She and Allan had lived +so deliberately in the placid present, with its almost childish +brightnesses and interests, that she knew scarcely more about her +husband's life than the De Guenthers had told her before she married +him. But she could see the whole picture of it as she listened now: the +active, merry, brilliant boy who had worked and played all day and +danced half the night; who had lived, it almost seemed to her, two or +three lives in one. And then the change to the darkened room--helpless, +unable to move, with the added sorrow of his sweetheart's death, and +his mother's deliberate fostering of that sorrow. It was almost a shock +to see him in the wheel-chair at the foot of the table, his face lighted +with interest in what he and his friend were saying. What if he did care +for Louise Frey's memory still! He'd had such a hard time that anything +Phyllis could do for him oughtn't to be too much! + +When Dr. Hewitt went at last Phyllis accompanied him to the door. She +kept him there for a few minutes, talking to him about Allan and making +him promise to come often. He agreed with her that, this much progress +made, a good deal more might follow. He promised to come back very soon, +and see as much of them as possible. + +Allan, watching them, out of earshot, from the living-room where he had +been wheeled, saw Phyllis smiling warmly up at his friend, lingering in +talk with him, giving him both hands in farewell; and he saw, too, +Hewitt's rapt interest and long leave-taking. At last the door closed, +and Phyllis came back to him, flushed and animated. He realized, +watching her return with that swift lightness of foot her long years of +work had lent her, how young and strong and lovely she was, with the +rose-color in her cheeks and the light from above making her hair +glitter. And suddenly her slim young strength and her bright vitality +seemed to mock him, instead of being a comfort and support as +heretofore. A young, beautiful, kind girl like that--it was natural she +should like Hewitt. And it was going to come natural to Hewitt to like +Phyllis. He could see that plainly enough. + +"Tired, Allan Harrington?" she asked brightly, coming over to him and +dropping a light hand on his chair, in a caressing little way she had +dared lately.... Kindness! Yes, she was the incarnation of kindness. +Doubtless she had spoken to and touched those little ragamuffins she had +told him of just so. + +He had got into a habit of feeling that Phyllis belonged to him +absolutely. He had forgotten--what was it she had said to him that +afternoon, half in fun--but oh, doubtless half in earnest!--about +marrying him for a rose-garden? She had done just that. She had never +made any secret of it--why, how could she, marrying him before she had +spoken a half-dozen words to him? But how wonderful she had been to him +since--sometimes almost as if she cared for him.... + +He moved ungraciously. "Don't _touch_ me, Phyllis!" he said irritably. +"Wallis! You can wheel me into my room." + +"Oh-h!" said Phyllis, behind him. The little forlorn sound hurt him, but +it pleased him, too. So he could hurt her, if only by rudeness? Well, +that was a satisfaction. "Shut the door," he ordered Wallis swiftly. + +Phyllis, her hands at her throat, stood hurt and frightened in the +middle of the room. It never occurred to her that Allan was jealous, or +indeed that he could care enough for her to be jealous. + +"It was talking about Louise Frey," she said. "That, and Dr. Hewitt +bringing up old times. Oh, _why_ did I ask about her? He was +contented--I know he was contented! He'd gotten to like having me with +him--he even wanted me. Oh, Allan, Allan!" + +She did not want to cry downstairs, so she ran for her own room. There +she threw herself down and cried into a pillow till most of the case was +wet. She was silly--she knew she was silly. She tried to think of all +the things that were still hers, the garden, the watch-bracelet, the +leisure, the pretty gowns--but nothing, _nothing_ seemed of any +consequence beside the fact that--she had not kissed Allan good-night! +It seemed the most intolerable thing that had ever happened to her. + + + + +XIV + + +It was just as well, perhaps, that Phyllis did not do much sleeping that +night, for at about two Wallis knocked at her door. It seemed like +history repeating itself when he said: "Could you come to Mr. Allan, +please? He seems very bad." + +She threw on the silk crepe negligee and followed him, just as she had +done before, on that long-ago night after her mother-in-law had died. + +"Did Dr. Hewitt's visit overexcite him, do you think?" he asked as they +went. + +"I don't know, ma'am," Wallis said. "He's almost as bad as he was after +the old madam died--you remember?" + +"Oh, yes," said Phyllis mechanically. "I remember." + + * * * * * + +Allan lay so exactly as he had on that other night, that the strange +surroundings seemed incongruous. Just the same, except that his +restlessness was more visible, because he had more power of motion. + +She bent and held the nervously clenching hands, as she had before. +"What is it, Allan?" she said soothingly. + +"Nothing," said her husband savagely. "Nerves, hysteria--any other silly +womanish thing a cripple could have. Let me alone, Phyllis. I wish you +could put me out of the way altogether!" + +Phyllis made herself laugh, though her heart hurried with fright. She +had seen Allan suffer badly before--be apathetic, irritable, despondent, +but never in a state where he did not cling to her. + +"I can't let you alone," she said brightly. "I've come to stay with you +till you feel quieter.... Would you rather I talked to you, or kept +quiet?" + +"Oh, do your wifely duty, whatever it is," he said.... "It was a +mistake, the whole thing. You've done more than your duty, child, +but--oh, you'd better go away." + +Phyllis's heart turned over. Was it as bad as this? Was he as sick of +her as this? + +"You mean--you think," she faltered, "it was a mistake--our marriage?" + +"Yes," he said restlessly. "Yes.... It wasn't fair." + +She had no means of knowing that he meant it was unfair to her. She held +on to herself, though she felt her face turning cold with the sudden +pallor of fright. + +"I think it can be annulled," she said steadily. "No, I suppose it +wasn't fair." + +She stopped to get her breath and catch at the only things that +mattered--steadiness, quietness, ability to soothe Allan! + +"It can be annulled," she said again evenly. "But listen to me now, +Allan. It will take quite a while. It can't be done to-night, or before +you are stronger. So for your own sake you must try to rest now. +Everything shall come right. I promise you it shall be annulled. But +forget it now, please. I am going to hold your wrists and talk to you, +recite things for you, till you go back to sleep." + +She wondered afterwards how she could have spoken with that hard +serenity, how she could have gone steadily on with story after story, +poem after poem, till Allan's grip on her hands relaxed, and he fell +into a heavy, tired sleep. + +[Illustration: "BUT YOU SEE--HE'S--ALL I HAVE ... GOOD-NIGHT, WALLIS"] + +She sat on the side of the bed and looked at him, lying still against +his white pillows. She looked and looked, and presently the tears began +to slide silently down her cheeks. She did not lift her hands to wipe +them away. She sat and cried silently, openly, like a desolate, unkindly +treated child. + +"Mrs. Allan! Mrs. Allan, ma'am!" came Wallis's concerned whisper from +the doorway. "Don't take it as hard as that. It's just a little relapse. +He was overtired. I shouldn't have called you, but you always quiet him +so." + +Phyllis brushed off her tears, and smiled. You seemed to have to do so +much smiling in this house! + +"I know," she said. "I worry about his condition too much. But you +see--he's--all I have.... Good-night, Wallis." + +Once out of Allan's room, she ran at full speed till she gained her own +bed, where she could cry in peace till morning if she wanted to, with no +one to interrupt. That was all right. The trouble was going to be next +morning. + +But somehow, when morning came, the old routine was dragged through +with. Directions had to be given the servants as usual, Allan's comfort +and amusement seen to, just as if nothing had happened. It was a perfect +day, golden and perfumed, with just that little tang of fresh windiness +that June days have in the northern states. And Allan must not lose +it--he must be wheeled out into the garden. + +She came out to him, in the place where they usually sat, and sank for a +moment in the hammock, that afternoon. She had avoided him all the +morning. + +"I just came to see if everything was all right," she said, leaning +toward him in that childlike, earnest way he knew so well. "I don't need +to stay here if I worry you." + +"I'd rather you'd stay, if you don't mind," he answered. Phyllis looked +at him intently. He was white and dispirited, and his voice was +listless. Oh, Phyllis thought, if Louise Frey had only been kind enough +to die in babyhood, instead of under Allan's automobile! What could +there have been about her to hold Allan so long? She glanced at his +weary face again. This would never do! What had come to be her dominant +instinct, keeping Allan's spirits up, emboldened her to bend forward, +and even laugh a little. + +"Come, Allan!" she said. "Even if we're not going to stay together +always, we might as well be cheerful till we do part. We used to be good +friends enough. Can't we be so a little longer?" It sounded heartless to +her after she had said it, but it seemed the only way to speak. She +smiled at him bravely. + +Allan looked at her mutely for a moment, as if she had hurt him. + +"You're right," he said suddenly. "There's no time but the present, +after all. Come over here, closer to me, Phyllis. You've been awfully +good to me, child--isn't there anything--_anything_ I could do for +you--something you could remember afterwards, and say, 'Well, he did +that for me, any way?'" + +Phyllis's eyes filled with tears. "You have given me everything +already," she said, catching her breath. She didn't feel as if she could +stand much more of this. + +"Everything!" he said bitterly. "No, I haven't. I can't give you what +every girl wants--a well, strong man to be her husband--the health and +strength that any man in the street has." + +"Oh, don't speak that way, Allan!" + +She bent over him sympathetically, moved by his words. In another moment +the misunderstanding might have been straightened out, if it had not +been for his reply. + +"I wish I never had to see you at all!" he said involuntarily. In her +sensitive state of mind the hurt was all she felt--not the deeper +meaning that lay behind the words. + +"I'll relieve you of my presence for awhile," she flashed back. Before +she gave herself time to think, she had left the garden, with something +which might be called a flounce. "When people say things like that to +you," she said as she walked away from him, "it's carrying being an +invalid a little _too_ far!" + +Allan heard the side-door slam. He had never suspected before that +Phyllis had a temper. And yet, what could he have said? But she gave him +no opportunity to find out. In just about the time it might take to +find gloves and a parasol, another door clanged in the distance. The +street door. Phyllis had evidently gone out. + + * * * * * + +Phyllis, on her swift way down the street, grew angrier and angrier. She +tried to persuade herself to make allowances for Allan, but they refused +to be made. She felt more bitterly toward him than she ever had toward +any one in her life. If she only hadn't leaned over him and been sorry +for him, just before she got a slap in the face like that! + +She walked rapidly down the main street of the little village. She +hardly knew where she was going. She had been called on by most of the +local people, but she did not feel like being agreeable, or making +formal calls, just now. And what was the use of making friends, any way, +when she was going back to her rags, poor little Cinderella that she +was! Below and around and above everything else came the stinging +thought that she had given Allan so much--that she had taken so much for +granted. + +Her quick steps finally took her to the outskirts of the village, to a +little green stretch of woods. There she walked up and down for awhile, +trying to think more quietly. She found the tide of her anger ebbing +suddenly, and her mind forming all sorts of excuses for Allan. But that +was not the way to get quiet--thinking of Allan! She tried to put him +resolutely from her mind, and think about her own future plans. The +first thing to do, she decided, was to rub up her library work a little. + +It was with an unexpected feeling of having returned to her own place +that she crossed the marble floor of the village library. She felt as if +she ought to hurry down to the cloak-room, instead of waiting leisurely +at the desk for her card. It all seemed uncannily like home--there was +even a girl inside the desk who looked like Anna Black of her own +Greenway Branch. Phyllis could hear, with a faint amusement, that the +girl was scolding energetically in Anna Black's own way. The words +struck on her quick ears, though they were not intended to carry. + +"That's what comes of trusting to volunteer help. Telephones at the last +moment 'she has a headache,' and not a single soul to look after the +story-hour! And the children are almost all here already." + +"We'll just have to send them home," said the other girl, looking up +from her trayful of cards. "It's too late to get anybody else, and +goodness knows _we_ can't get it in!" + +"They ought to have another librarian," fretted the girl who looked like +Anna. "They could afford it well enough, with their Soldiers' Monuments +and all." + +Phyllis smiled to herself from where she was investigating the +card-catalogue. It all sounded so exceedingly natural. Then that swift +instinct of hers to help caught her over to the desk, and she heard +herself saying: + +"I've had some experience in story telling; maybe I could help you with +the story-hour. I couldn't help hearing that your story-teller has +disappointed you." + +The girl like Anna fell on her with rapture. + +"Heaven must have sent you," she said. The other one, evidently slower +and more cautious by nature, rose too, and came toward her. "You have a +card here, haven't you?" she said. "I think I've seen you." + +"Yes," Phyllis said, with a pang at speaking the name she had grown to +love bearing; "I'm Mrs. Harrington--Phyllis Harrington. We live at the +other end of the village." + +"Oh, in the house with the garden all shut off from the lane!" said the +girl like Anna, delightedly. "That lovely old house that used to belong +to the Jamesons. Oh, yes, I know. You're here for the summer, aren't +you, and your husband has been very ill?" + +"Exactly," said Phyllis, smiling, though she wished people wouldn't talk +about Allan! They seemed possessed to mention him! + +"We'll be obliged forever if you'll do it," said the other girl, +evidently the head librarian. "Can you do it now? The children are +waiting." + +"Certainly," said Phyllis, and followed the younger girl straightway to +the basement, where, it seemed, the story-hour was held. She wondered, +as they went, if the girl envied her her expensively perishable summer +organdie, with its flying sashes and costly accessories; if the girl +thought about her swinging jewelries and endless leisure with a wish to +have them for herself. She had wanted such things, she knew, when she +was being happy on fifty dollars a month. And perhaps some of the women +she had watched then had had heartaches under their furs.... + +The children, already sitting in a decorous ring on their low chairs, +seemed after the first surprise to approve of Phyllis. The librarian +lingered for a little by way of keeping order if it should be necessary, +watched the competent sweep with which Phyllis gathered the children +around her, heard the opening of the story, and left with an air of +astonished approval. Phyllis, late best story-teller of the Greenway +Branch, watched her go with a bit of professional triumph in her heart. + +She told the children stories till the time was up, and then "just one +story more." She had not forgotten how, she found. But she never told +them the story of "How the Elephant Got His Trunk," that foolish, +fascinating story-hour classic that she had told Allan the night his +mother had died; the story that had sent him to sleep quietly for the +first time in years.... Oh, dear, was everything in the world connected +with Allan in some way or other? + +It was nearly six when she went up, engulfed in children, to the +circulating room. There the night-librarian caught her. She had +evidently been told to try to get Phyllis for more story-hours, for she +did her best to make her promise. They talked shop together for perhaps +an hour and a half. Then the growing twilight reminded Phyllis that it +was time to go back. She had been shirking going home, she realized now, +all the afternoon. She said good-by to the night-librarian, and went on +down the village street, lagging unconsciously. It must have been about +eight by this time. + +It was a mile back to the house. She could have taken the trolley part +of the way, but she felt restless and like walking. She had forgotten +that walking at night through well-known, well-lighted city streets, and +going in half-dusk through country byways, were two different things. +She was destined to be reminded of the difference. + +"Can you help a poor man, lady?" said a whining voice behind her, when +she had a quarter of the way yet to go. She turned to see a big tramp, a +terrifying brute with a half-propitiating, half-fierce look on his +heavy, unshaven face. She was desperately frightened. She had been +spoken to once or twice in the city, but there there was always a +policeman, or a house you could run into if you had to. But here, in the +unguarded dusk of a country lane, it was a different matter. The long +gold chain that swung below her waist, the big diamond on her finger, +the gold mesh-purse--all the jewelry she took such a childlike delight +in wearing--she remembered them in terror. She was no brown-clad little +working-girl now, to slip along disregarded. And the tramp did not look +like a deserving object. + +"If you will come to the house to-morrow," she said, hurrying on as she +spoke, "I'll have some work for you. The first house on this street that +you come to." She did not dare give him anything, or send him away. + +"Won't you gimme somethin' now, lady?" whined the tramp, continuing to +follow. "I'm a starvin' man." + +She dared not open her purse and appease him by giving him money--she +had too much with her. That morning she had received the check for her +monthly income from Mr. De Guenther, sent Wallis down to cash it, and +then stuffed it in her bag and forgotten it in the distress of the day. +The man might take the money and strike her senseless, even kill her. + +"To-morrow," she said, going rapidly on. She had now what would amount +to about three city blocks to traverse still. There was a short way from +outside the garden-hedge through to the garden, which cut off about a +half-block. If she could gain this she would be safe. + +"Naw, yeh don't," snarled the tramp, as she fled on. "Ye'll set that +bull-pup o' yours on me. I been there, an' come away again. You just +gimme some o' them rings an' things an' we'll call it square, me fine +lady!" + +Phyllis's heart stood still at this open menace, but she ran on still. A +sudden thought came to her. She snatched her gilt sash-buckle--a pretty +thing but of small value--from her waist, and hurled it far behind the +tramp. In the half-light it might have been her gold mesh-bag. + +"There's my money--go get it!" she gasped--and ran for her life. The +tramp, as she had hoped he would, dashed back after it and gave her the +start she needed. Breathless, terrified to death, she raced on, tearing +her frock, dropping the library cards and parasol she still had held in +her hand. Once she caught her sash on a tree-wire. Once her slipper-heel +caught and nearly threw her. The chase seemed unending. She could hear +the dreadful footsteps of the tramp behind her, and his snarling, +swearing voice panting out threats. He was drunk, she realized with +another thrill of horror. It was a nightmare happening. + +On and on--she stumbled, fell, caught herself--but the tramp had gained. +Then at last the almost invisible gap in the hedge, and she fled +through. + +"_Allan! Allan! Allan!_" she screamed, fleeing instinctively to his +chair. + +The rose-garden was like a place of enchanted peace after the terror of +outside. Her quick vision as she rushed in was of Allan still there, +moveless in his chair, with the little black bull-dog lying asleep +across his arms and shoulder like a child. It often lay so. As she +entered, the scene broke up before her eyes like a dissolving view. She +saw the little dog wake and make what seemed one flying spring to the +tramp's throat, and sink his teeth in it--and Allan, at her scream, +_spring from his chair_! + +Phyllis forgot everything at the sight of Allan, standing. Wallis and +the outdoor man, who had run to the spot at Phyllis's screams, were +dealing with the tramp, who was writhing on the grass, choking and +striking out wildly. But neither Phyllis nor Allan saw that. Which +caught the other in an embrace they never knew. They stood locked +together, forgetting everything else, he in the idea of her peril, she +in the wonder of his standing. + +"Oh, darling, darling!" Allan was saying over and over again. "You are +safe--thank heaven you are safe! Oh, Phyllis, I could never forgive +myself if you had been hurt! Phyllis! Speak to me!" + +But Phyllis's own safety did not concern her now. She could only think +of one thing. "_You can stand! You can stand!_" she reiterated. Then a +wonderful thought came to her, striking across the others, as she stood +locked in this miraculously raised Allan's arms. She spoke without +knowing that she had said it aloud. "_Do you care, too?_" she said very +low. Then the dominant thought returned. "You must sit down again," she +said hurriedly, to cover her confusion, and what she had said. "Please, +Allan, sit down. Please, dear--you'll tire yourself." + +Allan sank into his chair again, still holding her. She dropped on her +knees beside him, with her arms around him. She had a little leisure +now to observe that Wallis, the ever-resourceful, had tied the tramp +neatly with the outdoor man's suspenders, which were nearer the surface +than his own, and succeeded in prying off the still unappeased Foxy, who +evidently was wronged at not having the tramp to finish. They carried +him off, into the back kitchen garden. Allan, now that he was certain of +Phyllis's safety, paid them not the least attention. + +"Did you mean it?" he said passionately. "Tell me, did you mean what you +said?" + +Phyllis dropped her dishevelled head on Allan's shoulder. + +"I'm afraid--I'm going to cry, and--and I know you don't like it!" she +panted. Allan half drew, half guided her up into his arms. + +"Was it true?" he insisted, giving her an impulsive little shake. She sat +up on his knees, wide-eyed and wet-cheeked like a child. + +"But you knew that all along!" she said. "That was why I felt so +humiliated. It was _you_ that _I_ thought didn't care----" + +Allan laughed joyously. "Care!" he said. "I should think I did, first, +last, and all the time! Why, Phyllis, child, didn't I behave like a +brute because I was jealous enough of John Hewitt to throw him in the +river? He was the first man you had seen since you married +me--attractive, and well, and clever, and all that--it would have been +natural enough if you'd liked him." + +"Liked him!" said Phyllis in disdain. "When there was you? And I +thought--I thought it was the memory of Louise Frey that made you act +that way. You didn't want to talk about her, and you said it was all a +mistake----" + +"I was a brute," said Allan again. "It was the memory that I was about +as useful as a rag doll, and that the world was full of live men with +real legs and arms, ready to fall in love with you. + +"There's nobody but _you_ in the world," whispered Phyllis.... "But +you're well now, or you will be soon," she added joyously. She slipped +away from him. "Allan, don't you want to try to stand again? If you did +it then, you can do it now." + +"Yes, by Jove, I do!" he said. But this time the effort to rise was +noticeable. Still, he could do it, with Phyllis's eager help. + +"It must have been what Dr. Hewitt called neurasthenic inhibition," said +Phyllis, watching the miracle of a standing Allan. "That was what we +were talking about by the door that night, you foolish boy!... Oh, how +tall you are! I never realized you were tall, lying down, somehow!" + +"I don't have to bend very far to kiss you, though," suggested Allan, +suiting the action to the word. + +But Phyllis, when this was satisfactorily concluded, went back to the +great business of seeing how much Allan could walk. He sat down again +after a half-dozen steps, a little tired in spite of his excitement. + +"I can't do much at a time yet, I suppose," he said a little ruefully. +"Do you mean to tell me, sweetheart--come over here closer, where I can +touch you--you're awfully far away--do you mean to tell me that all that +ailed me was I thought I couldn't move?" + +"Oh, no!" explained Phyllis, moving her chair close, and then, as that +did not seem satisfactory, perching on the arm of Allan's. "You'd been +unable to move for so long that when you were able to at last your +subconscious mind clamped down on your muscles and was convinced you +couldn't. So no matter how much you consciously tried, you couldn't make +the muscles go till you were so strongly excited it broke the +inhibition--just as people can lift things in delirium or excitement +that they couldn't possibly move at other times. Do you see?" + +"I do," said Allan, kissing the back of her neck irrelevantly. "If +somebody'd tried to shoot me up five years ago I might be a well man +now. That's a beautiful word of yours, Phyllis, inhibition. What a lot +of big words you know!" + +"Oh, if you won't be serious!" said she. + +"We'll have to be," said Allan, laughing, "for here's Wallis, and, as I +live, from the direction of the house. I thought they carried our friend +the tramp out through the hedge--he must have gone all the way around." + +Phyllis was secretly certain that Wallis had been crying a little, but +all he said was, "We've taken the tramp to the lock-up, sir." + +But his master and his mistress were not so dignified. They showed him +exhaustively that Allan could really stand and walk, and Allan +demonstrated it, and Wallis nearly cried again. Then they went in, for +Phyllis was sure Allan needed a thorough rest after all this. She was +shaking from head to foot herself with joyful excitement, but she did +not even know it. And it was long past dinner-time, though every one but +Lily-Anna, to whom the happy news had somehow filtered, had forgotten +it. + +"I've always wanted to hold you in my arms, this way," said Allan late +that evening, as they stood in the rose-garden again; "but I thought I +never would.... Phyllis, did you ever want me to?" + +It was too beautiful a moonlight night to waste in the house, or even on +the porch. The couch had been wheeled to its accustomed place in the +rose-garden, and Allan was supposed to be lying on it as he often did in +the evenings. But it was hard to make him stay there. + +"Oh, you _must_ lie down," said Phyllis hurriedly, trying to move out of +the circle of his arms. "You mustn't stand till we find how much is +enough.... I'm going to send for the wolfhound next week. You won't mind +him now, will you?" + +"Did you ever want to be here in my arms, Phyllis?" + +"Of course not!" said Phyllis, as a modest young person should. +"But--but----" + +"Well, my wife?" + +"I've often wondered just where I'd reach to," said Phyllis in a +rush.... "Allan, _please_ don't stand any longer!" + +"I'll lie down if you'll sit on the couch by me." + +"Very well," said Phyllis; and sat obediently in the curve of his arm +when he had settled himself in the old position, the one that looked so +much more natural for him. + +"Mine, every bit of you!" he said exultantly. "Heaven bless that +tramp!... And to think we were talking about annulments!... Do you +remember that first night, dear, after mother died? I was half-mad with +grief and physical pain. And Wallis went after you. I didn't want him +to. But he trusted you from the first--good old Wallis! And you came in +with that swift, sweeping step of yours, as I've seen you come fifty +times since--half-flying, it seemed to me then--with all your pretty +hair loose, and an angelic sort of a white thing on. I expect I was a +brute to you--I don't remember how I acted--but I know you sat on the +bed by me and took both my wrists in those strong little hands of yours, +and talked to me and quieted me till I fell fast asleep. You gave me the +first consecutive sleep I'd had in four months. It felt as if life and +calmness and strength were pouring from you to me. You stayed till I +fell asleep." + +"I remember," said Phyllis softly. She laid her cheek by his, as it had +been on that strange marriage evening that seemed so far away now. "I +was afraid of you at first. But I felt that, too, as if I were giving +you my strength. I was so glad I could! And then I fell asleep, too, +over on your shoulder." + +"You never told me that," said Allan reproachfully. Phyllis laughed a +little. + +"There never seemed to be any point in our conversations where it fitted +in neatly," she said demurely. Allan laughed, too. + +"You should have made one. But what I was going to tell you was--I think +I began to be in love with you then. I didn't know it, but I did. And it +got worse and worse but I didn't know what ailed me till Johnny drifted +in, bless his heart! Then I did. Oh, Phyllis, it was awful! To have you +with me all the time, acting like an angel, waiting on me hand and foot, +and not knowing whether you had any use for me or not!... And you never +kissed me good-night last night." + +Phyllis did not answer. She only bent a little, and kissed her husband +on the lips, very sweetly and simply, of her own accord. But she said +nothing then of the long, restless, half-happy, half-wretched time when +she had loved him and never even hoped he would care for her. There was +time for all that. There were going to be long, joyous years together, +years of being a "real woman," as she had so passionately wished to be +that day in the library. She would never again need to envy any woman +happiness or love or laughter. It was all before her now, youth and joy +and love, and Allan, her Allan, soon to be well, and loving her--loving +nobody else but her! + +"Oh, I love you, Allan!" was all she said. + + + + + +End of Project Gutenberg's The Rose Garden Husband, by Margaret Widdemer + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE ROSE GARDEN HUSBAND *** + +***** This file should be named 26635.txt or 26635.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + http://www.gutenberg.org/2/6/6/3/26635/ + +Produced by Mark C. 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