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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Sir Tom + +Author: Mrs. Oliphant + +Release Date: December 17, 2009 [EBook #30692] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK SIR TOM *** + + + + +Produced by Brenda Lewis, woodie4 and the Online Distributed +Proofreading Canada Team at http://www.pgdpcanada.net (This +file was produced from images generously made available +by The Internet Archive/Canadian Libraries) + + + + + + + + + + SIR TOM + + + BY + + MRS. OLIPHANT + + AUTHOR OF "THE WIZARD'S SON," "HESTER," ETC. + + + London + + MACMILLAN AND CO. + + AND NEW YORK + + 1893 + + _All rights reserved_ + + + _First Edition (3 Vols. Crown 8vo) Sept. 1884_ + + _Second Edition (1 Vol. Crown 8vo) 1884_ + + _Reprinted (Globe 8vo) 1888, (Crown 8vo) 1893_ + + + + + CONTENTS. + + PAGE + + CHAPTER I. + + HOW SIR TOM BECAME A GREAT PERSONAGE 1 + + + CHAPTER II. + + HIS WIFE 9 + + + CHAPTER III. + + OLD MR. TREVOR'S WILL 20 + + + CHAPTER IV. + + YOUNG MR. TREVOR 29 + + + CHAPTER V. + + CONSULTATIONS 39 + + + CHAPTER VI. + + A SHADOW OF COMING EVENTS 48 + + + CHAPTER VII. + + A WARNING 58 + + + CHAPTER VIII. + + THE SHADOW OF DEATH 67 + + + CHAPTER IX. + + A CHRISTMAS VISIT 77 + + + CHAPTER X. + + LUCY'S ADVISERS 86 + + + CHAPTER XI. + + AN INNOCENT CONSPIRACY 96 + + + CHAPTER XII. + + THE FIRST STRUGGLE 105 + + + CHAPTER XIII. + + AN IDLE MORNING 115 + + + CHAPTER XIV. + + AN UNWILLING MARTYR 126 + + + CHAPTER XV. + + ON BUSINESS 135 + + + CHAPTER XVI. + + AN UNEXPECTED ARRIVAL 146 + + + CHAPTER XVII. + + FOREWARNED 157 + + + CHAPTER XVIII. + + THE VISITORS 167 + + + CHAPTER XIX. + + THE OPENING OF THE DRAMA 179 + + + CHAPTER XX. + + AN ANXIOUS CRITIC 189 + + + CHAPTER XXI. + + AN UNEXPECTED ENCOUNTER 200 + + + CHAPTER XXII. + + A PAIR OF FRIENDS 211 + + + CHAPTER XXIII. + + THE BREAKFAST TABLE 221 + + + CHAPTER XXIV. + + THE ORACLE SPEAKS 230 + + + CHAPTER XXV. + + THE CONTESSA'S BOUDOIR 242 + + + CHAPTER XXVI. + + THE TWO STRANGERS 259 + + + CHAPTER XXVII. + + AN ADVENTURESS 269 + + + CHAPTER XXVIII. + + THE SERPENT AND THE DOVE 280 + + + CHAPTER XXIX. + + THE CONTESSA'S TRIUMPH 291 + + + CHAPTER XXX. + + DIFFERENT VIEWS 301 + + + CHAPTER XXXI. + + TWO FRIENDS 311 + + + CHAPTER XXXII. + + YOUTHFUL UNREST 321 + + + CHAPTER XXXIII. + + THE CONTESSA PREPARES THE WAY 332 + + + CHAPTER XXXIV. + + IN SUSPENSE 342 + + + CHAPTER XXXV. + + THE DÉBUT 354 + + + CHAPTER XXXVI. + + THE EVENING AFTER 366 + + + CHAPTER XXXVII. + + THE CONTESSA'S TACTICS 377 + + + CHAPTER XXXVIII. + + DISCOVERIES 388 + + + CHAPTER XXXIX. + + LUCY'S DISCOVERY 397 + + + CHAPTER XL. + + THE DOWAGER'S EXPLANATION 409 + + + CHAPTER XLI. + + SEVERED 417 + + + CHAPTER XLII. + + LADY RANDOLPH WINDS UP HER AFFAIRS 427 + + + CHAPTER XLIII. + + THE LITTLE HOUSE IN MAYFAIR 437 + + + CHAPTER XLIV. + + THE SIEGE OF LONDON 448 + + + CHAPTER XLV. + + THE BALL 458 + + + CHAPTER XLVI. + + THE BALL CONTINUED 469 + + + CHAPTER XLVII. + + NEXT MORNING 480 + + + CHAPTER XLVIII. + + THE LAST BLOW 491 + + + CHAPTER XLIX. + + THE EXPERIENCES OF BICE 502 + + + CHAPTER L. + + THE EVE OF SORROW 514 + + + CHAPTER LI. + + THE LAST CRISIS 522 + + + CHAPTER LII. + + THE END 538 + + + + +CHAPTER I. + +HOW SIR TOM BECAME A GREAT PERSONAGE. + + +Sir Thomas Randolph had lived a somewhat stormy life during the earliest +half of his career. He had gone through what the French called a +_jeunesse orageuse_; nothing very bad had ever been laid to his charge; +but he had been adventurous, unsettled, a roamer about the world even +after the period at which youthful extravagances cease. Nobody ever knew +when or where he might appear. He set off to the farthest parts of the +earth at a day's notice, sometimes on pretext of sport, sometimes on no +pretext at all, and re-appeared again as unexpectedly as he had gone +away. He had run out his fortune by these and other extravagances, and +was at forty in one of the most uncomfortable positions in which a man +can find himself, with the external appearance of large estates and an +established and important position, but in reality with scarcely any +income at all, just enough to satisfy the mortgagees, and leave himself +a pittance not much more than the wages of a gamekeeper. If his aunt, +Lady Randolph, had not been so good to him it was uncertain whether he +could have existed at all, and when the heiress, whom an eccentric will +had consigned to her charge, fell in his way, all her friends concluded +as a matter of certainty that Sir Tom would jump at this extraordinary +windfall, this gift of a too kind Providence, which sometimes will care +for a prodigal in a way which he is quite unworthy of, while leaving the +righteous man to struggle on unaided. But for some time it appeared as +if society for once was out in its reckoning. Sir Tom did not pounce +upon the heiress. He was a person of very independent mind, and there +were some who thought he was happier in his untrammelled poverty, doing +what he pleased, than he ever had been as a great proprietor. Even when +it became apparent to the wise and far-seeing that little Miss Trevor +was only waiting till his handkerchief was thrown at her to become the +happiest of women, still he did nothing. He exasperated his kind aunt, +he made all his friends indignant, and what was more, he exposed the +young heiress hourly to many attempts on the part of the inferior class, +from which as a matter of fact she herself sprang; and it was not until +she was driven nearly desperate by those attempts that Sir Tom suddenly +appeared upon the scene, and moved, it was thought, more by a +half-fatherly kindness and sympathy for her, than either by love or +desire of wealth, took her to himself, and made her his wife, to the +great and grateful satisfaction of the girl herself, whose strange +upbringing and brief introduction into a higher sphere had spoiled her +for that homely country-town existence in which every woman flattered +and every man made love to her. + +Whether Lucy Trevor was in love with him was as uncertain as whether he +was in love with her. So far as any one knew neither one nor the other +had asked themselves this question. She had, as it were, thrown herself +into his arms in sudden delight and relief of mind when he appeared and +saved her from her suitors; while he had received her tenderly when she +did this, out of kindness and pleasure in her genuine, half-childish +appreciation of him. There were, of course, people who said that Lucy +had been violently in love with Sir Tom, and that he had made up his +mind to marry her money from the first moment he saw her; but neither of +these things was true. They married with a great deal more pleasure and +ease of mind than many people do who are very much in love, for they had +mutual faith in each other, and felt a mutual repose and satisfaction in +their union. Each supplied something the other wanted. Lucy obtained a +secure and settled home, a protector and ever kind and genial guardian, +while Sir Tom got not only a good and dutiful and pleasant companion, +with a great deal of sense, and good-nature and good looks,--all of +which gifts he prized highly,--but at the same time the control of a +great fortune, and money enough at once to clear his estates and restore +him to his position as a great landowner. + +There were very peculiar conditions attached to the great fortune, but +to these for the moment he paid very little heed, considering them as +fantastic follies not worth thinking about, which were never likely to +become difficulties in his way. The advantage he derived from the +marriage was enormous. All at once, at a bound, it restored him to what +he had lost, to the possession of his own property, which had been not +more than nominally his for so many years, and to the position of a man +of weight and importance, whose opinion told with all his neighbours and +the county generally, as did those of few others in the district. + +Sir Tom, the wanderer, had not been thought very highly of in his +younger days. He had been called wild. He had been thought +untrustworthy, a fellow here to-day and gone to-morrow, who had no +solidity in him. But when the mortgages were all paid off, and the old +hall restored, and Sir Thomas Randolph came to settle down at home, with +his pretty little wife, and an establishment quite worthy of his name, +the county discovered in a day, almost in a moment, that he was very +much improved. He had always been clever enough, they said, for +anything, and now that he had sown his wild oats and learned how to +conduct himself, and attained an age when follies are naturally over, +there was no reason why he should not be received with open arms. Such a +man had a great many more experiences, the county thought with a certain +pride, than other men who had sown no wild oats, and had never gone +farther afield than the recognised round of European cities. Sir Tom had +been in all the four quarters of the globe; he had travelled in America +long before it became fashionable to do so, and even had been in Africa +while it was as yet untrod by any white foot but that of a missionary. +And it was whispered that in the days when he was "wild" he had +penetrated into regions nearer at hand, but more obscure and mysterious +even than Africa. All this made the county think more of him now when he +appeared staid yet genial, in the fulness of manhood, with a crisp brown +beard and a few gray hairs about his temples mingled with his abundant +locks, and that capability of paying his way which is dear to every +well-regulated community. But for this last particular the county would +not have been so tolerant, nay almost pleased, with the fact that he had +been "wild." They saw all his qualities in the halo that surrounded the +newly-decorated hall, the liberated farms, the lands upon which no +creditor had now any claim. He was the most popular man in the district +when Parliament was dissolved, and he was elected for the county almost +without opposition, he, at whom all the sober people had shaken their +heads only a few years before. The very name of "Sir Tom," which had +been given rather contemptuously to denote a somewhat careless fellow, +who minded nothing, became all at once the sign of popular amity and +kindness. And if it had been necessary to gain votes for him by any +canvassing tricks, this name of his would have carried away all +objections. "Sir Tom!" it established a sort of affectionate +relationship at once between him and his constituency. The people felt +that they had known him all his life, and had always called him by his +Christian name. + +Lady Randolph was much excited and delighted with her husband's success. +She canvassed for him in a modest way, making herself pleasant to the +wives of his supporters in a unique manner of her own which was not +perhaps quite dignified considering her position, but yet was found very +captivating by those good women. She did not condescend to them as other +titled ladies do, but she took their advice about her baby, and how he +was to be managed, with a pretty humility which made her irresistible. +They all felt an individual interest thenceforward in the heir of the +Randolphs, as if they had some personal concern in him; and Lady +Randolph's gentle accost, and the pretty blush upon her cheeks, and her +way of speaking to them all, "as if they were just as good as she was," +had a wonderful effect. When she received him in the hotel which was the +headquarters of his party, as soon as the result of the election was +known, Sir Tom, coming in flushed with applauses and victory, took his +wife into his arms and kissed her. "I owe this to you, as well as so +much else, Lucy," he said. + +"Oh, don't say that! when you know I don't understand much, and never +can do anything; but I am so glad, nobody could be more glad," said +Lucy. Little Tom had been brought in, too, in his nurse's arms, and +crowed and clapped his fat little baby hands for his father; and when +his mother took him and stepped out upon the balcony, from which her +husband was speaking an impromptu address to his new constituents, with +the child in her arms, not suspecting that she would be seen, the cheers +and outcries ran into an uproar of applause. "Three cheers for my lady +and the baby," the crowd shouted at the top of its many voices; and +Lucy, blushing and smiling and crying with pleasure, instead of +shrinking away as everybody feared she would do, stood up in her modest, +pretty youthfulness, shy, but full of sense and courage, and held up the +child, who stared at them all solemnly with big blue eyes, and, after a +moment's consideration, again patted his fat little hands together, an +action which put the multitude beside itself with delight. Sir Tom's +speech did not make nearly so much impression as the baby's +"patti-cake." Every man in the crowd, not to say every woman, and with +still more reason every child, clapped his or her hands too, and shouted +and laughed and hurrahed. + +The incident of the baby's appearance before the public, and the early +success he had gained--the earliest on record, the newspapers said--made +quite a sensation throughout the county, and made Farafield famous for +a week. It was mentioned in a leading article in the first newspaper in +the world. It appeared in large headlines in the placards under such +titles as "Baby in Politics," "The Nursery and the Hustings," and such +like. As for the little hero of the moment, he was handed down to his +anxious nurse just as symptoms of a whimper of fear at the alarming +tumult outside began to appear about the corners of his mouth. "For +heaven's sake take him away; he mustn't cry, or he will spoil all," said +the chairman of Sir Tom's committee. And the young mother, disappearing +too into the room behind, sat down in a great chair behind their backs, +and cried to relieve her feelings. Never had there been such a day. If +Sir Tom had not been the thoroughly good-humoured man he was, it is +possible that he might have objected to the interruption thus made in +his speech, which was altogether lost in the tumult of delight which +followed his son's appearance. But as a matter of fact he was as much +delighted as any one, and proud as man could be of his pretty little +wife and his splendid boy. He took "the little beggar," as he called +him, in his arms, and kissed the mother again, soothing and laughing at +her in the tender, kindly, fatherly way which had won Lucy. + +"It is you who have got the seat," he said; "I vote that you go and sit +in it, Lady Randolph. You are a born legislator, and your son is a +favourite of the public, whereas I am only an old fogey." + +"Oh, Tom!" Lucy said, lifting her simple eyes to his with a mist of +happiness in them. She was accustomed to his nonsense. She never said +anything more than "Oh, Tom!" and indeed it was not very long since she +had given up the title and ceased to say "Oh, Sir Tom!" which seemed +somehow to come more natural. It was what she had said when he came +suddenly to see her in the midst of her early embarrassments and +troubles; when the cry of relief and delight with which she turned to +him, uttering in her surprise that title of familiarity, "Oh, Sir Tom!" +had signified first to her middle-aged hero, with the most flattering +simplicity and completeness, that he had won the girl's pure and +inexperienced heart. + +There was no happier evening in their lives than this, when, after all +the commotion, threatenings of the ecstatic crowd to take the horses +from their carriage, and other follies, they got off at last together +and drove home through roads that wound among the autumn fields, on some +of which the golden sheaves were still standing in the sunshine. Sir Tom +held Lucy's hand in his own. He had told her a dozen times over that he +owed it all to her. + +"You have made me rich, and you have made me happy," he said, "though I +am old enough to be your father, and you are only a little girl. If +there is any good to come out of me, it will all be to your credit, +Lucy. They say in story books that a man should be ashamed to own so +much to his wife, but I am not the least ashamed." + +"Oh, Tom!" she said, "how can you talk so much nonsense," with a laugh, +and the tears in her eyes. + +"I always did talk nonsense," he said; "that was why you got to like me. +But this is excellent sense and quite true. And that little beggar; I am +owing you for him, too. There is no end to my indebtedness. When they +put the return in the papers it should be Sir Thomas Randolph, etc., +returned as representative of his wife, Lucy, a little woman worth as +much as any county in England." + +"O, Sir Tom," Lucy cried. + +"Well, so you are, my dear," he said, composedly. "That is a mere matter +of fact, you know, and there can be no question about it at all." + +For the truth was that she was so rich as to have been called the +greatest heiress in England in her day. + + + + +CHAPTER II. + +HIS WIFE. + + +Young Lady Randolph had herself been much changed by the progress of +these years. Marriage is always the great touchstone of character at +least with women; but in her case the change from a troubled and +premature independence, full of responsibilities and an extremely +difficult and arduous duty, to the protection and calm of early married +life, in which everything was done for her, and all her burdens taken +from her shoulders, rather arrested than aided in the development of her +character. She had lived six months with the Dowager Lady Randolph after +her father's death; but those six months had been all she knew of the +larger existence of the wealthy and great. All she knew--and even in +that short period she had learned less than she might have been expected +to learn; for Lucy had not been introduced into society, partly on +account of her very youthful age, and partly because she was still in +mourning, so that her acquaintance with life on the higher line +consisted merely in a knowledge of certain simple luxuries, of larger +rooms and prettier furniture, and more careful service than in her +natural condition. And by birth she belonged to the class of small +townsfolk who are nobody, and whose gentility is more appalling than +their homeliness. So that when she came to be Sir Thomas Randolph's wife +and a great lady, not merely the ward of an important personage, but +herself occupying that position, the change was so wonderful that it +required all Lucy's mental resources to encounter and accustom herself +to it. + +Sir Tom was the kindest of middle-aged husbands. If he did not adore his +young wife with the fervour of passion, he had a sincere affection for +her, and the warmest desire to make her happy. She had done a great deal +for him, she had changed his position unspeakably, and he was fully +determined that no lady in England should have more observance, more +honour and luxury, and what was better, more happiness, than the little +girl who had made a man of him. There had always been a sweet and +serious simplicity about her, an air of good sense and reasonableness, +which had attracted everybody whose opinion was worth having to Lucy; +but she was neither beautiful nor clever. She had been so brought up +that, though she was not badly educated, she had no accomplishments, and +not more knowledge than falls to the lot of an ordinary schoolgirl. The +farthest extent of her mild experiences was Sloane Street and Cadogan +Place: and there were people who thought it impossible that Sir Tom, who +had been everywhere, and run through the entire gamut of pleasures and +adventures, should find anything interesting in this bread-and-butter +girl, whom, of course, it was his duty to marry, and having married to +be kind to. But when he found himself set down in an English country +house with this little piece of simplicity opposite to him, what would +he do, the sympathising spectators said? Even his kind aunt, who felt +that she had brought about the marriage, and who, as a matter of fact, +had fully intended it from the first, though she herself liked Lucy, had +a little terror in her soul as she asked herself the same question. He +would fill the house with company and get over it in that way, was what +the most kind and moderate people thought. But Sir Tom laughed at all +their prognostications. He said afterwards that he had never known +before how pretty it was to know nothing, and to have seen nothing, when +these defects were conjoined with intelligence and delightful curiosity +and never-failing interest. He declared that he had never truly enjoyed +his own adventures and experiences as he did when he told them over to +his young wife. You may be sure there were some of them which were not +adapted for Lucy's ears: but these Sir Tom left religiously away in the +background. He had been a careless liver no doubt, like so many men, but +he would rather have cut off his right hand, as the Scripture bids, than +have soiled Lucy's white soul with an idea, or an image, that was +unworthy of her. She knew him under all sorts of aspects, but not one +that was evil. Their solitary evenings together were to her more +delightful than any play, and to him nearly as delightful. When the +dinner was over and the cold shut out, she would wait his appearance in +the inner drawing-room, which she had chosen for her special abode, with +some of the homely cares that had been natural to her former condition, +drawing his chair to the fire, taking pride in making his coffee for +him, and a hundred little attentions. "Now begin," she would say, +recalling with a child's eager interest and earnest recollection the +point at which he had left off. This was the greater part of Lucy's +education. She travelled with him through very distant regions, and went +through all kinds of adventure. + +And in the season they went to London, where she made her appearance in +society, not perhaps with _éclat_, but with a modest composure which +delighted him. She understood then, for the first time, what it was to +be rich, and was amused and pleased--amused above all by the position +which she occupied with the utmost simplicity. People said it would turn +the little creature's head, but it never even disturbed her imagination. +She took it with a calm that was extraordinary. Thus her education +progressed, and Lucy was so fully occupied with it, with learning her +husband and her life and the world, that she had no time to think of the +responsibilities which once had weighed so heavily upon her. When now +and then they occurred to her and she made some passing reference to +them, there were so many other things to do that she forgot +again--forgot everything except to be happy and learn and see, as she +had now so many ways of doing. She forgot herself altogether, and +everything that had been hers, not in excitement, but in the soft +absorbing influence of her new life, which drew her away into endless +novelties and occupations, such as were, indeed, duties and necessities +of her altered sphere. + +If this was the case in the first three or four years of her marriage, +when she had only Sir Tom to think of, you may suppose what it was when +the baby came, to add a hundredfold to the interests of her existence. +Everything else in life, it may be believed, dwindled into nothing in +comparison with this boy of boys--this wonderful infant. There had +never been one in the world like him it is unnecessary to say: and +everything was so novel to her, and she felt the importance of being +little Tom's mother so deeply, that her mind was quite carried away from +all other thoughts. She grew almost beautiful in the light of this new +addition to her happiness. And how happy she was! The child grew and +throve. He was a splendid boy. His mother did not sing litanies in his +praise in public, for her good sense never forsook her: but his little +being seemed to fill up her life like a new stream flowing into it, and +she expanded in life, in thought, and in understanding. She began to see +a reason for her own position, and to believe in it, and take it +seriously. She was a great lady, the first in the neighbourhood, and she +felt that, as little Tom's mother, it was natural and befitting that she +should be so. She began to be sensible of ambition within herself, as +well as something that felt like pride. It was so little like ordinary +pride, however, that Lucy was sorry for everybody who had not all the +noble surroundings which she began to enjoy. She would have liked that +every child should have a nursery like little Tom's, and every mother +the same prospects for her infant, and was charitable and tender beyond +measure to all the mothers and children within reach on little Tom's +account, which was an extravagance which her husband did not grudge, but +liked and encouraged, knowing the sentiment from which it sprang. It was +with no view to popularity that the pair thus endeavoured to diffuse +happiness about them, being so happy themselves; but it answered the +same purpose, and their popularity was great. + +When the county conferred the highest honour in its power upon Sir Tom, +his immediate neighbours in the villages about took the honour as their +own, and rejoiced as, even at a majority or a marriage, they had never +rejoiced before, for so kind a landlord, so universal a friend, had +never been. + +The villages were model villages on the Randolph lands. Sir Tom and his +young wife had gone into every detail about the labourers' cottages with +as much interest as if they had themselves meant to live in one of them. +There were no such trim gardens or bright flower-beds to be seen +anywhere, and it was well for the people that the Rector of the parish +was judicious, and kept Lady Randolph's charities within bounds. There +had been no small amount of poverty and distress among these rustics +when the Squire was poor and absent, when they lived in tumbledown old +houses, which nobody took any interest in, and where neither decency nor +comfort was considered; but now little industries sprang up and +prospered, and the whole landscape smiled. A wise landlord with +unlimited sway over his neighbourhood and no rivals in the field can do +so much to increase the comfort of everybody about him; and such a small +matter can make a poor household comfortable. Political economists, no +doubt, say it is demoralising: but when it made Lucy happy and the poor +women happy, how could Sir Tom step in and arrest the genial bounty? He +gave the Rector a hint to see that she did not go too far, and walked +about with his hands in his pockets and looked on. All this amused him +greatly; even the little ingratitudes she met with, which went to Lucy's +heart, made her husband laugh. It pleased his satirical vein to see how +human nature displayed itself, and the black sheep appeared among the +white even in a model village. But as for Lucy, though she would +sometimes cry over these spots upon the general goodness, it satisfied +every wish of her heart to be able to do so much for the cottagers. They +did not, perhaps, stand so much in awe of her as they ought to have +done, but they brought all their troubles to her with the most perfect +and undoubting confidence. + +All this time, however, Lucy, following the dictates of her own heart, +and using what after all was only a little running over of her great +wealth to secure the comfort of the people round, was neglecting what +she had once thought the great duty of her life as entirely as if she +had been the most selfish of worldly women. Her life had been so +entirely changed--swung, as one might say, out of one orbit into +another--that the burdens of the former existence seemed to have been +taken from her shoulders along with its habits and external +circumstances. Her husband thought of these as little as herself; yet +even he was somewhat surprised to find that he had no trouble in weaning +Lucy from the extravagances of her earlier independence. He had not +expected much trouble, but still it had seemed likely enough that she +would at least propose things that his stronger sense condemned, and +would have to be convinced and persuaded that they were impracticable; +but nothing of the kind occurred, and when he thought of it Sir Tom +himself was surprised, as also were various other people who knew what +Lucy's obstinacy on the subject before her marriage had been, and +especially the Dowager Lady Randolph, who paid her nephew a yearly +visit, and never failed to question him on the subject. + +"And Lucy?" she would say. "Lucy never makes any allusion? She has +dismissed everything from her mind? I really think you must be a +magician, Tom. I could not have believed it, after all the trouble she +gave us, and all the money she threw away. Those Russells, you know, +that she was so ridiculously liberal to, they are as bad as ever. That +sort of extravagant giving of money is never successful. But I never +thought you would have got it out of her mind." + +"Don't flatter me," he said; "it is not I that have got it out of her +mind. It is life and all the novelties in it--and small Tom, who is more +of a magician than I am----" + +"Oh, the baby!" said the dowager, with the indifference of a woman who +has never had a child, and cannot conceive why a little sprawling +tadpole in long clothes should make such a difference. "Yes, I suppose +that's a novelty," she said, "to be mother of a bit of a thing like that +naturally turns a girl's head. It is inconceivable the airs they give +themselves, as if there was nothing so wonderful in creation. And so far +as I can see you are just as bad, though you ought to know better, Tom." + +"Oh, just as bad," he said, with his large laugh. "I never had a share +in anything so wonderful. If you only could see the superiority of this +bit of a thing to all other things about him----" + +"Oh! spare me," cried Lady Randolph the elder, holding up her hands. "Of +course I don't undervalue the importance of an heir to the property," +she said in a different tone. "I have heard enough about it to be pretty +sensible of that." + +This the Dowager said with a slight tone of bitterness, which indeed was +comprehensible enough: for she had suffered much in her day from the +fact that no such production had been possible to her. Had it been so, +her nephew who stood by her would not (she could scarcely help +reflecting with some grudge against Providence) have been the great man +he now was, and no child of his would have mattered to the family. Lady +Randolph was a very sensible woman, and had long been reconciled to the +state of affairs, and liked her nephew, whom she had been the means of +providing for so nobly; and she was glad there was a baby; still, for +the sake of her own who had never existed, she resented the +self-exaltation of father and mother over this very common and in no way +extraordinary phenomenon of a child. + +Sir Tom laughed again with a sense of superiority, which was in itself +somewhat ludicrous; but as nobody is clear-sighted in their own +concerns, he was quite unconscious of this. His laugh nettled Lady +Randolph still more. She said, with a certain disdain in her tone,-- + +"And so you think you have sailed triumphantly over all that +difficulty--thanks to your charms and the baby's, and are going to hear +nothing of it any more?" + +Sir Tom felt that he was suddenly pulled up, and was a little resentful +in return. + +"I hope," he said, "that is, I do more than hope, I feel convinced, that +my wife, who has great sense, has outgrown that nonsense, and that she +has sufficient confidence in me to leave her business matters in my +hands." + +Lady Randolph shook her head. + +"Outgrown nonsense--at three and twenty?" she said. "Don't you think +that's premature? and, my dear boy, take my word for it, a woman when +she has the power, likes to keep the control of her own business just as +well as a man does. I advise you not to holloa till you are out of the +wood." + +"I don't expect to have any occasion to holloa; there is no wood for +that matter; Lucy, though perhaps you may not think it, is one of the +most reasonable of creatures." + +"She is everything that is nice and good," said the Dowager, "but how +about the will? Lucy may be reasonable, but that is not. And she cannot +forget it always." + +"Pshaw! The will is a piece of folly," cried Sir Tom. He grew red at the +very thought with irritation and opposition. "I believe the old man was +mad. Nothing else could excuse such imbecility. Happily there is no +question of the will." + +"But there must be, some time or other." + +"I see no occasion for it," said Sir Tom coldly; and as his aunt was a +reasonable woman, she did not push the matter any farther. But if the +truth must be told this sensible old lady contemplated the great +happiness of these young people with a sort of interested and alarmed +spectatorship (for she wished them nothing but good), watching and +wondering when the explosion would come which might in all probability +shatter it to ruins. For she felt thoroughly convinced in her own mind +that Lucy would not always forget the conditions by which she held her +fortune, and that all the reason and good sense in the world would not +convince her that it was right to ignore and baulk her father's +intentions, as conveyed with great solemnity in his will. And when the +question should come to be raised, Lady Randolph felt that it would be +no trifling one. Lucy was very simple and sweet, but when her conscience +spoke even the influence of Sir Tom would not suffice to silence it. She +was a girl who would stand to what she felt to be right if all the world +and even her husband were against her--and the Dowager, who wished them +no harm, felt a little alarmed as to the issue. Sir Tom was not a man +easy to manage, and the reddening of his usually smiling countenance at +the mere suggestion of the subject was very ominous. It would be better, +far better, for Lucy if she would yield at once and say nothing about +it. But that was not what it was natural for her to do. She would stand +by her duty to her father, just as, were it assailed, she would stand by +her duty to her husband; but she would never be got to understand that +the second cancelled the first. The Dowager Lady Randolph watched the +young household with something of the interest with which a playgoer +watches the stage. She felt sure that the explosion would come, and that +a breath, a touch, might bring it on at any moment; and then what was to +be the issue? Would Lucy yield? would Lucy conquer? or would the easy +temper with which everybody credited Sir Tom support this trial? The old +lady, who knew him so well, believed that there was a certain fiery +element below, and she trembled for the peace of the household which was +so happy and triumphant, and had no fear whatever for itself. She +thought of "the torrent's smoothness ere it dash below," of the calm +that precedes a storm, and many other such images, and so frightened did +she become at the dangers she had conjured up that she put the will +hurriedly out of her thoughts, as Sir Tom had done, and would think no +more of it. "Sufficient," she said to herself, "is the evil to the day." + +In the meantime, the married pair smiled serenely at any doubts of their +perfect union, and Lucy felt a great satisfaction in showing her +husband's aunt (who had not thought her good enough for Sir Tom, +notwithstanding that she so warmly promoted the match) how satisfied he +was with his home, and how exultant in his heir. + +In the following chapters the reader will discover what was the cause +which made the Dowager shake her head when she got into the carriage to +drive to the railway at the termination of her visit. It was all very +pretty and very delightful, and thoroughly satisfactory; but still Lady +Randolph, the elder, shook her experienced head. + + + + +CHAPTER III. + +OLD MR. TREVOR'S WILL. + + +Lucy Trevor, when she married Sir Thomas Randolph, was the heiress of so +great a fortune that no one ventured to state it in words or figures. +She was not old enough, indeed, to have the entire control of it in her +hands, but she had unlimited control over a portion of it in a certain +sense, not for her own advantage, but for the aggrandisement of others. +Her father, who was eccentric and full of notions, had so settled it +that a large portion of the money should eventually return, as he +phrased it, to the people from whom it had come, and this not in the way +of public charities and institutions, as is the common idea in such +cases, but by private and individual aid to struggling persons and +families. Lucy, who was then all conscience and devotion to the +difficult yet exciting duty which her father had left to her to do, had +made a beginning of this extraordinary work before her marriage, +resisting all the arguments that were brought to bear upon her as to +the folly of the will, and the impossibility of carrying it out. It is +likely, indeed, that the trustees and guardians would have taken steps +at once to have old Trevor's will set aside but for the fact that Lucy +had a brother, who in that case would divide the inheritance with her, +but who was specially excluded by the will, as being a son of Mr. +Trevor's second wife, and entirely unconnected with the source from +which the fortune came. It was Lucy's mother who had brought it into the +family, although she was not herself aware of its magnitude, and did not +live long enough to have any enjoyment of it. Neither did old Trevor +himself have any enjoyment of it, save in the making of the will by +which he laid down exactly his regulations for its final disposal. In +any case Lucy was to retain the half, which was of itself a great sum; +but the condition of her inheritance, and indeed the occupation of her +life, according to her father's intention, was that she should select +suitable persons to whom to distribute the other half of her fortune. It +is needless to say that this commission had seriously occupied the +thoughts of the serious girl who, without any sense of personal +importance, found herself thus placed in the position of an official +bestower of fortune, having it in her power to confer comfort, +independence, and even wealth; for she was left almost entirely +unrestricted as to her disposition of the money, and might at her +pleasure confer a very large sum upon a favourite. Everybody who had +ever heard of old Trevor's will considered it the very maddest upon +record, and there were many who congratulated themselves that Lucy's +husband, if she was so lucky as to marry a man of sense, would certainly +put a stop to it--or even that Lucy herself, when she came to years of +serious judgment, would see the folly; for there was no stipulation as +to the time at which the distributions should be made, these, as well as +the selection of the objects of her bounty, being left to herself. She +had been very full of this strange duty before her marriage, and had +selected several persons who, as it turned out, did but little credit to +her choice, almost forcing her will upon the reluctant trustees, who had +no power to hinder her from carrying it out, and whose efforts at +reasoning with her had been totally unsuccessful. In these early +proceedings Sir Tom, who was intensely amused by the oddity of the +business altogether, and who had then formed no idea of appropriating +her and her money to himself, gave her a delighted support. + +He had never in his life encountered anything which amused him so much, +and his only regret was that he had not known the absurd but high-minded +old English Quixote who, wiser in his generation than that noble knight, +left it to his heir to redress the wrongs of the world, while he himself +had the pleasure of the anticipation only, not perhaps unmixed with a +malicious sense of all the confusions and exhibitions of the weakness of +humanity it would produce. Sir Tom himself had humour enough to +appreciate the philosophy of the old humorist, and the droll spectator +position which he had evidently chosen for himself, as though he could +somehow see and enjoy all the struggles of self-interest raised by his +will, with one of those curious self-delusions which so often seem to +actuate the dying. Sir Tom, however, had thought it little more than a +folly even at the moment when it had amused him the most. He had thought +that in time Lucy would come to see how ridiculous it was, and would +tacitly, without saying anything, give it up, so sensible a girl being +sure in the long run to see how entirely unsuited to modern times and +habits such a disposition was. And had she done so, there was nobody who +was likely to awaken her to a sense of her duty. Her trustees, who +considered old Trevor mad, and Lucy a fool to humour him, would +certainly make no objection; and little Jock, the little brother to whom +Lucy was everything in the world, was still less likely to interfere. +When it came about that Lucy herself, and her fortune, and all her +right, were in Sir Tom's own hands, he was naturally more and more sure +that this foolish will (after giving him a great deal of amusement, and +perhaps producing a supernatural chuckle, if such an expression of +feeling is possible in the spiritual region where old Trevor might be +supposed to be) would be henceforward like a testament in black letter, +voided by good sense and better knowledge and time, the most certain +agency of all. And his conviction had been more than carried out in the +first years of his married life. Lucy forgot what was required of her. +She thought no more of her father's will. It glided away into the unseen +along with so many other things, extravagances, or if not extravagances, +still phantasies of youth. She found enough in her new life--in her +husband, her baby, and the humble community which looked up to her and +claimed everything from her--to occupy both her mind and her hands. Life +seemed to be so full that there was no time for more. + +It had been no doing of Sir Tom's that little Jock, the brother who had +been Lucy's child, her Mentor, her counsellor and guide, had been +separated from her for so long. Jock had been sent to school with his +own entire concurrence and control. He was a little philosopher with a +mind beyond his years, and he had seemed to understand fully, without +any childish objection, the reason why he should be separated from her, +and even why it was necessary to give up the hope of visiting his +sister. The first year it was because she was absent on her prolonged +wedding tour: the next because Jock was himself away on a long and +delightful expedition with a tutor, who had taken a special fancy to +him. Afterwards the baby was expected, and all exciting visits and +visitors were given up. They had met in the interval. Lucy had visited +Jock at his school, and he had been with them in London on several + occasions. But there had been little possibility of anything like their +old intercourse. Perhaps they could never again be to each other what +they had been when these two young creatures, strangely separated from +all about them, had been alone in the world, having entire and perfect +confidence in each other. They both looked back upon these bygone times +with a sort of regretful consciousness of the difference; but Lucy was +very happy in her new life, and Jock was a perfectly natural boy, given +to no sentimentalities, not jealous, and enjoying his existence too +completely to sigh for the time when he was a quaint old-fashioned +child, and knew no life apart from his sister. + +Their intercourse then had been so pretty, so tender and touching; the +child being at once his sister's charge and her superior in his +old-fashioned reflectiveness, her pupil and her teacher, the little +judge of whose opinions she stood in awe, while at the same time quite +subject and submissive to her--that it was a pity it should ever come to +an end; but it is a pity, too, when children grow up, when they grow out +of all the softness and keen impressions of youth into the harder stuff +of man and woman. To their parents it is a change which has often +little to recommend it--but it is inevitable, as we all know; and so it +was a pity that Lucy and Jock were no longer all in all to each other; +but the change was in their case, too, inevitable, and accepted by both. +When, however, the time came that Jock was to arrive really on his first +long visit at the Hall, Lucy prepared for this event with a little +excitement, with a lighting up of her eyes and countenance, and a +pleasant warmth of anticipation in which even little Tom was for the +moment set aside. She asked her husband a dozen times in the previous +day if he thought the boy would be altered. "I know he must be taller +and all that," Lucy said. "I do not mean the outside of him. But do you +think he will be changed?" + +"It is to be hoped so," said Sir Tom, serenely. "He is sixteen. I trust +he is not what he was at ten. That would be a sad business, indeed----" + +"Oh, Tom, you know that's not what I mean!--of course he has grown +older; but he always was very old for his age. He has become a real boy +now. Perhaps in some things he will seem younger too." + +"I always said you were very reasonable," said her husband, admiringly. +"That is just what I wanted you to be prepared for--not a wise little +old man as he was when he had the charge of your soul, Lucy." + +She smiled at him, shaking her head. "What ridiculous things you say. +But Jock was always the wise one. He knew much better than I did. He did +take care of me whatever you may think, though he was such a child." + +"Perhaps it was as well that he did not continue to take care of you. On +the whole, though I have no such lofty views, I am a better guide." + +Lucy looked at him once more without replying for a moment. Was her mind +ever crossed by the idea that there were perhaps certain particulars in +which little Jock was the best guide? If so the blasphemy was +involuntary. She shook it off with a little movement of her head, and +met his glance with her usual serene confidence. "You ought to be," she +said, "Tom; but you liked him always. Didn't you like him? I always +thought so; and you will like him now?" + +"I hope so," said Sir Tom. + +Then a slight gleam of anxiety came into Lucy's eyes. This seemed the +only shape in which evil could come to her, and with one of those +forewarnings of Nature always prone to alarm, which come when we are +most happy, she looked wistfully at her husband, saying nothing, but +with an anxious question and prayer combined in her look. He smiled at +her, laying his hand upon her head, which was one of his caressing ways, +for Lucy, not an imposing person in any particular, was short, and Sir +Tom was tall. + +"Does that frighten you, Lucy? I shall like him for your sake, if not +for his own, never fear." + +"That is kind," she said, "but I want you to like him for his own sake. +Indeed, I should like you if you would, Tom," she added almost timidly, +"to like him for your own. Perhaps you think that is presuming, as if +he, a little boy, could be anything to you; but I almost think that is +the only real way--if you know what I mean." + +"Now this is humbling," said Sir Tom, "that one's wife should consider +one too dull to know what she means. You are quite right, and a complete +philosopher, Lucy. I will like the boy for my own sake. I always did +like him, as you say. He was the quaintest little beggar, an old man +and a child in one. But it would have been bad for him had you kept on +cultivating him in that sort of hot-house atmosphere. It was well for +Jock, whatever it might be for you, that I arrived in time." + +Lucy pondered for a little without answering; and then she said, "Why +should it be considered so necessary for a boy to be sent away from +home?" + +"Why!" cried Sir Tom, in astonishment; and then he added, laughingly, +"It shows your ignorance, Lucy, to ask such a question. He must be sent +to school, and there is an end of it. There are some things that are +like axioms in Euclid, though you don't know very much about that--they +are made to be acted upon, not to be discussed. A boy must go to +school." + +"But why?" said Lucy undaunted. "That is no answer." She was +untrammelled by any respect for Euclid, and would have freely questioned +the infallibility of an axiom, with a courage such as only ignorance +possesses. She was thinking not only of Jock, but had an eye to distant +contingencies, when there might be question of a still more precious +boy. "God," she said, reverentially, "must have meant surely that the +father and mother should have something to do in bringing them up." + +"In the holidays, my dear," said Sir Tom; "that is what we are made for. +Have you never found that out?" + +Lucy never felt perfectly sure whether he was in jest or earnest. She +looked at him again to see what he meant--which was not very easy, for +Sir Tom meant two things directly opposed to each other. He meant what +he said, and yet said what he knew was nonsense, and laughed at himself +inwardly with a keen recognition of this fact. Notwithstanding, he was +as much determined to act upon it as if it had been the most certain +truth, and in a way pinned his faith to it as such. + +"I suppose you are laughing," said Lucy, "and I wish you would not, +because it is so important. I am sure we are not meant only for the +holidays, and you don't really think so, Tom; and to take a child away +from his natural teachers, and those that love him best in the world, to +throw him among strangers! Oh, I cannot think that is the best way, +whatever Euclid may make you think." + +At this Sir Tom laughed, as he generally did, though never +disrespectfully, at Lucy's decisions. He said, "That is a very just +expression, my dear, though Euclid never made us think so much as he +ought to have done. You are thinking of that little beggar. Wait till he +is out of long clothes." + +"Which shows all you know about it. He was shortcoated at the proper +time, I hope," said Lucy, with some indignation, "do you call these long +clothes?" + +_These_ were garments which showed when he sprawled, as he always did, a +great deal of little Tom's person, and as his mother was at that time +holding him by them, while he "felt his feet," upon the carpet, the +spectacle of two little dimpled knees without any covering at all +triumphantly proved her right. Sir Tom threw himself upon the carpet to +kiss those sturdy, yet wavering little limbs, which were not quite under +the guidance of Tommy's will as yet, and taking the child from his +mother, propped it up against his own person. "For the present, I allow +that fathers and mothers are the best," he said. + +Lucy stood and gazed at them in that ecstasy of love and pleasure with +which a young mother beholds her husband's adoration for their child. +Though she feels it to be the highest pride and crown of their joint +existence, yet there is always in her mind a sense of admiration and +gratitude for his devotion. She looked down upon them at her feet, with +eyes running over with happiness. It is to be feared that at such a +moment Lucy forgot even Jock, the little brother who had been as a child +to her in her earlier days; and yet there was no want of love for Jock +in her warm and constant heart. + + + + +CHAPTER IV. + +YOUNG MR. TREVOR. + + +John Trevor, otherwise Jock, arrived at the Hall in a state of +considerable though suppressed excitement. It was not in his nature to +show the feelings which were most profound and strongest in his nature, +even if the religion of an English public school boy had not forbidden +demonstration. But he had very strong feelings underneath his calm +exterior, and the approach to Lucy's home gave him many thoughts. The +sense of separation which had once affected him with a deep though +unspoken sentiment had passed away long ago into a faint grudge, a +feeling of something lost--but between ten and sixteen one does not +brood upon a grievance, especially when one is surrounded by everything +that can make one happy; and there was a certain innate philosophy in +the mind of Jock which enabled him to see the justice and necessity of +the separation. He it was who in very early day, had ordained his own +going to school with a realisation of the need of it which is not +usually given to his age--and he had understood without any explanation +and without any complaint that Lucy must live her own life, and that +their constant brother and sister fellowship became impossible when she +married. The curious little solemn boy, who had made so many shrewd +guesses at the ways of life while he was still only a child, accepted +this without a word, working it out in his own silent soul; but +nevertheless it had affected him deeply. And when the time came at last +for a real meeting, not a week's visit in town where she was fully +occupied, and he did not well know what to do with himself--or a hurried +rapid meeting at school, where Jock's pride in introducing his tutor to +his sister was a somewhat imperfect set-off to the loss of personal +advantage to himself in thus seeing Lucy always in the company of other +people--his being was greatly moved with diverse thoughts. Lucy was all +he had in the world to represent the homes, the fathers and mothers and +sisters and brothers of his companions. The old time when they had been +all in all to each other had a more delicate beauty than the ordinary +glow of childhood. He thought there was nobody like her, with that +mingled adoration and affectionate contempt which make up a boy's love +for the women belonging to him. She was not clever: but he regarded the +simplicity of her mind with pride. This seemed to give her her crowning +charm. "Any fellow can be clever," Jock said to himself. It was part of +Lucy's superiority that she was not so. He arrived at the railway +station at Farafield with much excitement in his mind, though his looks +were quiet enough. The place, though it was the first he had ever known, +did not attract a thought from the other and more important meeting. It +was a wet day in August, and the coachman who had been sent for him gave +him a note to say that Lucy would have come to meet him but for the +rain. He was rather glad of the rain, this being the case. He did not +want to meet her on a railway platform--he even regretted the long +stretches of the stubble fields as he whirled past, and wished that the +way had been longer, though he was so anxious to see her. And when he +jumped down at the great door of the hall and found himself in the +embrace of his sister, the youth was thrilling with excitement, hope, +and pleasure. Lucy had changed much less than he had. Jock, who had been +the smallest of pale-faced boys, was now long and weedy, with limbs and +fingers of portentous length. His hair was light and limp; his large +eyes, well set in his head, had a vague and often dreamy look. It was +impossible to call him a handsome boy. There was an entire want of +colour about him, as there had been about Lucy in her first youth, and +his gray morning clothes, like the little gray dress she had worn as a +young girl were not very becoming to him. They had been so long apart +that he met her very shyly, with an awkwardness that almost looked like +reluctance, and for the first hour scarcely knew what to say to her, so +full was he of the wonder and pleasure of being by her, and the +impossibility of expressing this. She asked him about his journey, and +he made the usual replies, scarcely knowing what he said, but looking at +her with a suppressed beatitude which made Jock dull in the very +intensity of his feeling. The rain came steadily down outside, shutting +them in as with veils of falling water. Sir Tom, in order to leave them +entirely free to have their first meeting over, had taken himself off +for the day. Lucy took her young brother into the inner drawing-room, +the centre of her own life. She made him sit down in a luxurious chair, +and stood over him gazing at the boy, who was abashed and did not know +what to say. "You are different, Jock. It is not that you are taller and +bigger altogether, but you are different. I suppose so am I." + +"Not much," he said, looking shyly at her. "You couldn't change." + +"How so?" she asked with a laugh. "I am such a great deal older I ought +to look wiser. Let me see what it is. Your eyes have grown darker, I +think, and your face is longer, Jock; and what is that? a little down, +actually, upon your upper lip. Jock, not a moustache!" + +Jock blushed with pleasure and embarrassment, and put up his hand fondly +to feel those few soft hairs. "There isn't very much of it," he said. + +"Oh, there is enough to swear by; and you like school as well as ever? +and MTutor, how is he? Are you as fond of him as you used to be, Jock?" + +"You don't say you're fond of him," said Jock, "but he's just as jolly +as ever, if that is what you mean." + +"That is what I mean, I suppose. You must tell me when I say anything +wrong," said Lucy. She took his head between her hands and gave him a +kiss upon his forehead. "I am so glad to see you here at last," she +said. + +And then there was a pause. Her first little overflow of questions had +come to an end, and she did not exactly know what to say, while Jock sat +silent, staring at her with an earnest gaze. It was all so strange, the +scene and surroundings, and Lucy in the midst, who was a great lady, +instead of being merely his sister--all these confused the boy's +faculties. He wanted time to realise it all. But Lucy, for her part, +felt the faintest little touch of disappointment. It seemed to her as if +they ought to have had so much to say to each other, such a rush of +questions and answers, and full-hearted confidence. Jock's heart would +be at his lips, she thought, ready to rush forth--and her own also, with +all the many things of which she had said to herself: "I must tell that +to Jock." But as a matter of fact, many of these things had been told by +letter, and the rest would have been quite out of place in the moment of +reunion, in which indeed it seemed inappropriate to introduce any +subject other than their pleasure in seeing each other again, and those +personal inquiries which we all so long to make face to face when we are +separated from those near to us, yet which are so little capable of +filling all the needs of the situation when that moment comes. Jock was +indeed showing his happiness much more by his expressive silence and shy +eager gaze at her than if he had plunged into immediate talk; but Lucy +felt a little disappointed, and as if the meeting had not come up to her +hopes. She said, after a pause which was almost awkward, "You would like +to see baby, Jock? How strange that you should not know baby! I wonder +what you will think of him." She rose and rang the bell while she was +speaking in a pleasant stir of fresh expectation. No doubt it would stir +Jock to the depths of his heart, and bring out all his latent feeling, +when he saw Lucy's boy. Little Tom was brought in state to see "his +uncle," a title of dignity which the nurse felt indignantly disappointed +to have bestowed upon the lanky, colourless boy who got up with great +embarrassment and came forward reluctantly to see the creature quite +unknown and unrealised, of whom Lucy spoke with so much exultation. Jock +was not jealous, but he thought it rather odd that "a little thing like +that" should excite so much attention. It seemed to him that it was a +thing all legs and arms, sprawling in every direction, and when it +seized Lucy by the hair, pulling it about her face with the most riotous +freedom, Jock felt deeply disposed to box its ears. But Lucy was +delighted. "Oh, naughty baby!" she said, with a voice of such admiration +and ecstasy as the finest poetry, Jock reflected, would never have awoke +in her; and when the thing "loved" her, at its nurse's bidding, clasping +its fat arms round her neck, and applying a wide-open wet mouth to her +cheek, the tears were in her eyes for very pleasure. "Baby, darling, +that is your uncle; won't you go to your uncle? Take him, Jock. If he is +a little shy at first he will soon get used to you," Lucy cried. To see +Jock holding back on one side, and the baby on the other, which +strenuously refused to go to its uncle, was as good as a play. + +"I'm afraid I should let it fall," said Jock, "I don't know anything +about babies." + +"Then sit down, dear, and I will put him upon your lap," said the young +mother. There never was a more complete picture of wretchedness than +poor Jock, as he placed himself unwillingly on the sofa with his knees +put firmly together and his feet slanting outwards to support them. "I +sha'n't know what to do with it," he said. It is to be feared that he +resented its existence altogether. It was to him a quite unnecessary +addition. Was he never to see Lucy any more without that thing clinging +to her? Little Tom, for his part, was equally decided in his +sentiments. He put his little fists, which were by no means without +force, against his uncle's face, and pushed him away, with squalls that +would have exasperated Job; and then, instead of consoling Jock, Lucy +took the little demon to her arms and soothed him. "Did they want it to +make friends against its will," Lucy was so ridiculous as to say, like +one of the women in _Punch_, petting and smoothing down that odious +little creature. Both she and the nurse seemed to think that it was the +baby who wanted consoling for the appearance of Jock, and not Jock who +had been insulted; for one does not like even a baby to consider one as +repulsive and disagreeable. The incident was scarcely at an end when Sir +Tom came in, fresh, smiling, and damp from the farm, where he had been +inspecting the cattle and enjoying himself. Mature age and settled life +and a sense of property had converted Sir Tom to the pleasure of +farming. He shook Jock heartily by the hand, and clapped him on the +back, and bade him welcome with great kindness. Then he took "the little +beggar" on his shoulder and carried him, shrieking with delight, about +the room. It seemed a very strange thing to Jock to see how entirely +these two full-grown people gave themselves up to the deification of +this child. It was not bringing themselves to his level, it was looking +up to him as their superior. If he had been a king his careless favours +could not have been more keenly contended for. Jock, who was fond of +poetry and philosophy and many other fine things, looked on at this new +mystery with wondering and indignant contempt. After dinner there was +the baby again. It was allowed to stay out of bed longer than usual in +honour of its uncle, and dinner was hurried over, Jock thought, in +order that it might be produced, decked out in a sash almost as broad as +its person. When it appeared rational conversation was at an end, Sir +Tom, whom Jock had always respected highly, stopped the inquiries he was +making, with all the knowledge and pleasure, of an old schoolboy, into +school life, comparing his own experiences with those of the present +generation--to play bo-peep behind Lucy's shoulder with the baby. +Bo-peep! a Member of Parliament, a fellow who had been at the +University, who had travelled, who had seen America and gone through the +Desert! There was consternation in the astonishment with which Jock +looked on at this unlooked-for, almost incredible, exhibition. It was +ridiculous in Lucy, but in Sir Tom! + +"I suppose we were all like that one time?" he said, trying to be +philosophical, as little Tom at last, half smothered with kisses, was +carried away. + +"Like _that_--do you mean like baby? You were a little darling, dear, +and I was always very, very fond of you," said Lucy, giving him the +kindest look of her soft eyes. "But you were not a beauty, like my boy." + +Sir Tom had laughed, with something of the same sentiment very evident +in his mirth, when Lucy spoke. He put out his hand and patted his young +brother-in-law on the shoulder. "It is absurd," he said, "to put that +little beggar in the foreground when we have somebody here who is in +Sixth form at sixteen, and is captain of his house, and has got a school +prize already. If Lucy does not appreciate all that, I do, Jock, and the +best I can wish for Tommy is that he should have done as much at your +age." + +"Oh, I was not thinking of that," said Jock with a violent blush. + +"Of course he was not," said Lucy calmly, "for he always had the kindest +heart though he was so clever. If you think I don't appreciate it as you +say, Tom, it is only because I knew it all the time. Do you think I am +surprised that Jock has beaten everybody? He was like that when he was +six, before he had any education. And he will be just as proud of baby +as we are when he knows him. He is a little strange at first," said +Lucy, beaming upon her brother; "but as soon as he is used to you, he +will go to you just as he does to me." + +To this Jock could not reply by betraying the shiver that went over him +at the thought, but it gave great occupation to his mind to make out how +a little thing like that could attain, as it had done, such empire over +the minds of two sensible people. He consulted MTutor on the subject by +letter, who was his great referee on difficult subjects, and he could +not help betraying his wonder to the household as he grew more familiar +and the days went on. "He can't do anything for you," Jock said. "He +can't talk; he doesn't know anything about--well, about books: I know +that's more my line than yours, Lucy--but about anything. Oh! you +needn't flare up. When he dabs his mouth at you all wet----" + +"Oh! you little wretch, you infidel, you savage," Lucy cried; "his sweet +mouth! and a dear big wet kiss that lets you know he means it." + +Jock looked at her as he had done often in the old days, with mingled +admiration and contempt. It was like Lucy, and yet how odd it was. "I +suppose, then," he said, "I was rather worse than _that_ when you took +me up and were good to me. What for, I wonder? and you were fond of me, +too, although you are fonder of _it_----" + +"If you talk of It again I will never speak to you more," Lucy said, "as +if my beautiful boy was a thing and not a person. He is not It: he is +Tom, he is Mr. Randolph: that is what Williams calls him." Williams was +the butler who had been all over the world with Sir Tom, and who was +respectful of the heir, but a little impatient and surprised, as Jock +was, of the fuss that was made about Tommy for his own small sake. + +By this time, however, Jock had recovered from his shyness--his +difficulty in talking, all the little mist that absence had made--and +roamed about after Lucy, hanging upon her, putting his arm through hers, +though he was much the taller, wherever she went. He held her back a +little now as they walked through the park in a sort of procession, Mrs. +Richens, the nurse, going first with the boy. "When I was a little +slobbering beast, like----" he stopped himself in time, "like the +t'other kind of baby, and nobody wanted me, you were the only one that +took any trouble." + +"How do you know?" said Lucy; "you don't remember and I don't remember." + +"Ah! but I remember the time in the Terrace, when I lay on the rug, and +heard papa making his will over my head. I was listening for you all the +time. I was thinking of nothing but your step coming to take me out." + +"Nonsense!" said Lucy, "you were deep in your books, and thinking of +them only; of that--gentleman with the windmills--or Shakspeare, or some +other nonsense. Oh, I don't mean Shakspeare is nonsense. I mean you were +thinking of nothing but your books, and nobody would believe you +understood all that at your age." + +"I did not understand," said Jock with a blush. "I was a little prig. +Lucy, how strange it all is, like a picture one has seen somewhere, or a +scene in a play or a dream! Sometimes I can remember little bits of it, +just as he used to read it out to old Ford. Bits of it are all in and +out of _As You Like It_, as if Touchstone had said them, or Jaques. Poor +old papa! how particular he was about it all. Are you doing everything +he told you, Lucy, in the will?" + +He did not in the least mean it as an alarming question, as he stooped +over, in his awkward way holding her arm, and looked into her face. + + + + +CHAPTER V. + +CONSULTATIONS. + + +Lucy was much startled by her brother's demand. It struck, however, not +her conscience so much as her recollection, bringing back that past +which was still so near, yet which seemed a world away, in which she had +made so many anxious efforts to carry out her father's will and +considered it the main object of her life. A young wife who is happy, +and upon whom life smiles, can scarcely help looking back upon the time +when she was a girl with a sense of superiority, an amused and +affectionate contempt for herself. "How could I be so silly?" she will +say, and laugh, not without a passing blush. This was not exactly Lucy's +feeling; but in three years she had, even in her sheltered and happy +position, attained a certain acquaintance with life, and she saw +difficulties which in those former days had not been apparent to her. +When Jock began to recall these reminiscences it seemed to her as if she +saw once more the white commonplace walls of her father's sitting-room +rising about her, and heard him laying down the law which she had +accepted with such calm. She had seen no difficulty then. She had not +even been surprised by the burden laid upon her. It had appeared as +natural to obey him in matters which concerned large external interests, +and the well-being of strangers, as it was to fill him out a cup of tea. +But the interval of time, and the change of position, had made a great +difference; and when Jock asked, "Are you doing all he told you?" the +question brought a sudden surging of the blood to her head, which made a +singing in her ears and a giddiness in her brain. It seemed to place her +in front of something which must interrupt all her life and put a stop +to the even flow of her existence. She caught her breath. "Doing all he +told me!" + +Jock, though he did not mean it, though he was no longer her +self-appointed guardian and guide, became to Lucy a monitor, recalling +her as to another world. + +But the effect though startling was not permanent. They began to talk it +all over, and by dint of familiarity the impression wore away. The +impression, but not the talk. It gave the brother and sister just what +they wanted to bring back all the habits of their old affectionate +confidential intercourse, a subject upon which they could carry on +endless discussions and consultations, which was all their own, like one +of those innocent secrets which children delight in, and which, with +arms entwined and heads close together, they can carry on endlessly for +days together. They ceased the discussion when Sir Tom appeared, not +with any fear of him as a disturbing influence, but with a tacit +understanding that this subject was for themselves alone. It involved +everything; the past with all those scenes of their strange childhood, +the homely living, the fantastic possibilities always in the air, the +old dear tender relationship between the two young creatures who alone +belonged to each other. Lucy almost forgot her present self as she +talked, and they moved about together, the tall boy clinging to her arm +as the little urchin had done, altogether dependent, yet always with a +curious leadership, suggesting a thousand things that would not have +occurred to her. + +Lucy had no occasion now for the advice which Jock at eight years old +had so freely given her. She had her husband to lead and advise her. But +in this one matter Sir Tom was put tacitly out of court, and Jock had +his old place. "It does not matter at all that you have not done +anything lately," Jock said; "there is plenty of time--and now that I am +to spend all my holidays here, it will be far easier. It was better not +to do things so hastily as you began." + +"But, Jock," said Lucy, "We must not deceive ourselves; it will be very +hard. People who are very nice do not like to take the money; and those +who are willing to take it----" + +"Does the will say the people are to be nice?" asked Jock. "Then what +does that matter? The will is all against reason, Lucy. It is wrong, you +know. Fellows who know political economy would think we are all mad; for +it just goes against it, straight." + +"That is strange, Jock; for papa was very economical. He never could +bear waste: he used to say----" + +"Yes, yes; but political economy means something different. It is a +science. It means that you should sell everything as dear as you can, +and buy it as cheap as you can--and never give anything away----" + +"That is dreadful, Jock," said Lucy. "It is all very well to be a +science, but nobody like ourselves could be expected to act upon +it--private people, you know." + +"There is something in that," Jock allowed; "there are always +exceptions. I only want to show you that the will being all against +rule, it _must_ be hard to carry it out. Don't you do anything by +yourself, Lucy. When you come across any case that is promising, just +you wait till I come, and we'll talk it all over. I don't quite +understand about nice people not taking it. Fellows I know are always +pleased with presents--or a tip, nobody refuses a tip. And that is just +the same sort of thing, you know." + +"Not just the same," said Lucy, "for a tip--that means a sovereign, +doesn't it?" + +"It sometimes means--paper," said Jock, with some solemnity. "Last time +you came to see me at school Sir Tom gave me a fiver----" + +"A what?" + +"Oh, a five-pound note," said Jock, with momentary impatience; "the +other's shorter to say and less fuss. MTutor thought he had better not; +but I didn't mind. I don't see why anybody should mind. There's a fellow +I know--his father is a curate, and there are no end of them, and +they've no money. Fellow himself is on the foundation, so he doesn't +cost much. Why they shouldn't take a big tip from you, who have too +much, I'm sure I can't tell; and I don't believe they would mind," Jock +added, after a pause. + +This, which would have inspired Lucy in the days of her dauntless +maidenhood to calculate at once how much it would take to make this +family happy, gave her a little shudder now. + +"I don't feel as if I could do it," she said. "I wish papa had found an +easier way. People don't like you afterwards when you do _that_ for +them. They are angry--they think, why should I have all that to give +away, a little thing like me?" + +"The easiest way would be an exam.," said Jock. "Everybody now goes in +for exams.; and if they passed, they would think they had won the money +all right." + +"Perhaps there is something in that, Jock; but then it is not for young +men. It is for ladies, perhaps, or old people, or----" + +"You might let them choose their own subjects," said the boy. "A lady +might do a good paper about--servants, or sewing, or that sort of thing; +or housekeeping--that would be all right. MTutor might look over the +papers----" + +"Does he know about housekeeping?" + +"He knows about most things," cried Jock, "I should like to see the +thing he didn't know. He is the best scholar we have got; and he's what +you call an all-round man besides," the boy said with pride. + +"What is an all-round man?" Lucy asked, diffidently. "He is tall and +slight, so it cannot mean his appearance." + +"Oh, what a muff you are, Lucy; you're awfully nice, but you are a muff. +It means a man who knows a little of everything. MTutor is more than +that, he knows a great deal of everything; indeed, as I was saying," +Jock added defiantly, "I should just like to see the thing he didn't +know." + +"And yet he is so nice," said Lucy, with a gentle air of astonishment. + +MTutor was a subject which was endless with Jock, so that the original +topic here glided out of sight as the exalted gifts of that model of all +the virtues became the theme. This conversation, however, was but one of +many. It was their meeting ground, the matter upon which they found each +other as of old, two beings separated from the world, which wondered at +and did not understand them. What a curious office it was for them, two +favourites of fortune as they seemed, to disperse and give away the +foundation of their own importance! for Jock owed everything to Lucy, +and Lucy, when she had accomplished this object of her existence, and +carried out her father's will, would no doubt still be a wealthy woman, +but not in any respect the great personage she was now. This was a view +of the matter which never crossed the minds of these two. Their strange +training had made Lucy less conscious of the immense personal advantage +which her money was to her than any other could have done. She knew, +indeed, that there was a great difference between her early home in +Farafield and the house in London where she had lived with Lady +Randolph, and still more, the Hall which was her home--but she had been +not less but more courted and worshipped in her lowly estate than in her +high one, and her father's curious philosophy had affected her mind and +coloured her perceptions. She had learned, indeed, to know that there +are difficulties in attempting to enact the part of Providence, and +taking upon herself the task of providing for her fellow-creatures; but +these difficulties had nothing to do with the fact that she would +herself suffer by such a dispersion. Perhaps her imagination was not +lively enough to realise this part of the situation. Jock and she +ignored it altogether. As for Jock, the delight of giving away was +strong in him, and the position was so strange that it fascinated his +boyish imagination. To act such a part as that of Haroun-al-Raschid in +real life, and change the whole life of whatsoever poor cobbler or +fruit-seller attracted him, was a vision of fairyland such as Jock had +not yet outgrown. But the chief thing that he impressed on his sister +was the necessity of doing nothing by herself. "Just wait till we can +talk it over," he said, "two are always better than one: and a fellow +learns a lot at school. You wouldn't think it, perhaps, but there's all +sorts there, and you learn a lot when you have your eyes well open. We +can talk it all over and settle if it's good enough; but don't go and be +rash, Lucy, and do anything by yourself." + +"I sha'n't, dear; I should be too frightened," Lucy said. + +This was on one of his last days, when they were walking together +through the shrubbery. It was September by this time, and he might have +been shooting partridges with Sir Tom, but Jock was not so much an +out-door boy as he ought to have been, and he preferred walking with his +sister, his arm thrust through hers, his head stooping over her. It was +perhaps the last opportunity they would have of discussing their family +secrets, a matter (they thought) which really concerned nobody else, +which no one else would care to be troubled with. Perhaps in Lucy's mind +there was a sense of unreality in the whole matter; but Jock was +entirely in earnest, and quite convinced that in such an important +business he was his sister's natural adviser, and might be of a great +deal of use. It was towards evening when they went out, and a red +autumnal sunset was accomplishing itself in the west, throwing a gleam +as of the brilliant tints which were yet to come, on the still green and +luxuriant foliage. The light was low, and came into Lucy's eyes, who +shaded them with her hand. And the paths had a touch of autumnal damp, +and a certain mistiness, mellow and golden by reason of the sunshine, +was rising among the trees. + +"We will not be hasty," said Jock; "we will take everything into +consideration: and I don't think you will find so much difficulty, Lucy, +when you have me." + +"I hope not, dear," Lucy said; and she began to talk to him about his +flannels and other precautions he was to take; for Jock was supposed not +to be very strong. He had grown fast, and he was rather weedy and long, +without strength to support it. "We have been so happy together," she +said. "We always were happy together, Jock. Remember, dear, no wet feet, +and as little football as you can help, for my sake." + +"Oh, yes," he said, with a wave of his hand; "all right, Lucy. There is +no fear about that. The first thing to think of is poor old father's +will, and what you are going to do about it. I mean to think out all +that about the examinations, and I suppose I may speak to MTutor----" + +"It is too private, don't you think, Jock? Nobody knows about it. It is +better to keep it between you and me." + +"I can put it as a supposed case," said Jock, "and ask what he would +advise; for you see, Lucy, you and even I are not very experienced, and +MTutor, he knows such a lot. It would always be a good thing to have his +advice, you know; he----" + +There was no telling how long Jock might have gone on on this subject. +But just at this moment a quick step came round the corner of a clump of +wood, and a hand was laid on the shoulder of each. "What are you +plotting about?" asked the voice of Sir Tom in their ears. It was a +curious sign of her mental condition which Lucy remembered with shame +afterwards, without being very well able to account for it, that she +suddenly dropped Jock's arm and turned round upon her husband with a +quick blush and access of breathing, as if somehow--she could not tell +how--she had been found out. It had never occurred to her before, +through all those long drawn out consultations, that she was concealing +anything from Sir Tom. She dropped Jock's arm as if it hurt her, and +turned to her husband in the twinkling of an eye. + +"Jock," she said quickly, "and I--were talking about MTutor, Tom." + +"Ah! once landed on that subject, and there is no telling when we may +come to an end," Sir Tom said, with a laugh, "but never mind, I like you +all the better for it, my boy." + +Jock gave an astonished look at Lucy, a half-defiant one at her husband. + +"That was only by the way," he said, lifting up his shoulders with a +little air of offence. He did not condescend to any further explanation, +but walked along by their side with a lofty abstraction, looking at them +now and then from the corner of his eye. Lucy had taken Sir Tom's arm, +and was hanging upon her tall husband, looking up in his face. The +little blush of surprise--or was it of guilt?--with which she had +received him was still upon her cheek. She was far more animated than +usual, almost a little agitated. She asked about the shooting, about the +bag, and how many brace was to Sir Tom's own gun, with that conciliating +interest which is one of the signs of a conscious fault; while Sir Tom, +on his side bending down to his little wife, received all her flatteries +with so complacent a smile, and such a beatific belief in her perfect +sincerity and devotion, that Jock, looking on from his superiority of +passionless youth, regarded them both with a wondering disdain. Why did +she "make up" in that way to her husband, dropping her brother as if she +had been plotting harm? Jock was amazed, he could not understand it. +Perhaps it was only because he thus fell in a moment from being the +chief object of interest to the position of nobody at all. + + + + +CHAPTER VI. + +A SHADOW OF COMING EVENTS. + + +Lucy's mind had sustained a certain shock when her husband appeared. +During her short married life there had not been a cloud, or a shadow of +a cloud, between them. But then there had been no question between them, +nothing to cause any question, no difference of opinion. Sir Tom had +taken all her business naturally into his hands. Whatever she wished she +had got--nay, before she expressed a wish it had been satisfied. He had +talked to her about everything, and she had listened with docile +attention, but without concealing the fact that she neither understood +nor wished to understand; and he had not only never chided her, but had +accepted her indifference with a smile of pleasure as the most natural +thing in the world. He had encouraged her in all her liberal charities, +shaking his head and declaring with a radiant face that she would ruin +herself, and that not even her fortune would stand it. But the one +matter which had given Lucy so much trouble before her marriage, and +which Jock had now brought back to her mind, was one that had never been +mentioned between them. He had known all about it, and her eccentric +proceedings and conflict with her guardians, backing her up, indeed, +with much laughter, and showing every symptom of amiable amusement; but +he had never given any opinion on the subject, nor made the slightest +allusion since to this grand condition of her father's will. In the +sunny years that were past Lucy had taken no notice of this omission. +She had not thought much on the subject herself. She had withdrawn from +it tacitly, as one is apt to do from a matter which has been productive +of pain and disappointment, and had been content to ignore that portion +of her responsibilities. Even when Jock forcibly revived the subject it +continued without any practical importance, and its existence was a +question between themselves to afford material for endless conversation +which had been pleasant and harmless. But when Sir Tom's hand was laid +on her shoulder, and his cheerful voice sounded in her ear, a sudden +shock was given to Lucy's being. It flashed upon her in a moment that +this question which she had been discussing with Jock had never been +mentioned between her and her husband, and with a sudden instinctive +perception she became aware that Sir Tom would look upon it with very +different eyes from theirs. She felt that she had been disloyal to him +in having a secret subject of consultation even with her brother. If he +heard he would be displeased, he would be taken by surprise, perhaps +wounded, perhaps made angry. In any wise it would introduce a new +element into their life. Lucy saw, with a sudden sensation of fright and +pain, an unknown crowd of possibilities which might pour down upon her, +were it to be communicated to Sir Tom that his wife and her brother were +debating as to a course of action on her part, unknown to him. All this +occurred in a moment, and it was not any lucid and real perception of +difficulties, but only a sudden alarmed compunctious consciousness that +filled her mind. She fled, as it were, from the circumstances which made +these horrors possible, hurrying back into her former attitude with a +penitential urgency. Jock, indeed, was very dear to her, but he was no +more than second, nay he was but third, in Lady Randolph's heart. Her +husband's supremacy he could not touch, and though he had been almost +her child in the old days, yet he was not, nor ever would be, her child +in the same ineffable sense as little Tom was, who was her very own, the +centre of her life. So she ran away (so to speak) from Jock with a real +panic, and clung to her husband, conciliating, nay almost wheedling him, +if we may use the word, with a curious feminine instinct, to make up to +him for the momentary wrong she had done, and which he was not aware of. +Sir Tom himself was a little surprised by the warmth of the reception +she gave him. Her interest in his shooting was usually very mild, for +she had never been able to get over a little horror she had, due, +perhaps, to her bourgeois training, of the slaughter of the birds. He +glanced at the pair with an unusual perception that there was something +here more than met the eye. "You have been egging her up to some +rebellion," he said; "Jock, you villain; you have been hatching treason +behind my back!" He said this with one of those cordial laughs which +nobody could refrain from joining--full of good humour and fun, and a +pleased consciousness that to teach Lucy to rebel would be beyond any +one's power. At any other moment she would have taken the accusation +with the tranquil smile which was Lucy's usual reply to her husband's +pleasantries; but this time her laugh was a little strained, and the +warmth of her denial, "No, no! there has been no treason," gave the +slightest jar of surprise to Sir Tom. It sounded like a false note in +the air; he did not understand what it could mean. + +Jock went away the next day. He went with a basket of game for MTutor +and many nice things for himself, and all the attention and care which +might have been his had he been the heir instead of only the young +brother and dependent. Lucy herself drove in with him to Farafield to +see him off, and Sir Tom, who had business in the little town and meant +to drive back with his wife, appeared on the railway platform just in +time to say good-bye. "Now, Lucy, you will not forget," were Jock's last +words as he looked out of the window when the train was already in +motion. Lucy nodded and smiled, and waved her hand, but she did not make +any other reply. Sir Tom said nothing until they were driving along the +stubble fields in the afternoon sunshine. Lucy lay back in her corner +with that mingled sense of regret and relief with which, when we are +very happy at home, we see a guest go away--a gentle sorrow to part, a +soft pleasure in being once more restored to the more intimate circle. +She had not shaken off that impression of guiltiness, but now it was +over, and nothing further could be said on the subject for a long time +to come. + +"What is it, Lucy, that you are not to forget?" + +She roused herself up, and a warm flush of colour came to her face. "Oh, +nothing, Tom, a little thing we were consulting about. It was Jock that +brought it to my mind." + +"I think it must be more than just a little thing. Mayn't I hear what +this secret is?" + +"Oh, it is nothing, Tom," Lady Randolph repeated; and then she sat up +erect and said, "I must not deceive you. It is not merely a small +matter. Still it is just between Jock and me. It was about--papa's will, +Tom." + +"Ah! that is a large matter. I don't quite see how that can be between +you and Jock, Lucy. Jock has very little to do with it. I don't want to +find fault, my dear, but I think as an adviser you will find me better +than Jock." + +"I know you are far better, Tom. You know more than both of us put +together." + +"That would not be very difficult," he said, with a smile. + +Perhaps this calm acceptance of the fact nettled Lucy. At least she +said, with a little touch of spirit, "And yet I know something about our +kind of people better than you will ever do, Tom." + +"Lucy, this is a wonderful new tone. Perhaps you may know better, but I +am doubtful if you understand the relation of things as well. What is +it, my dear?--that is to say, if you like to tell me, for I am not going +to force your confidence." + +"Tom--oh dear Tom! It is not that. It is rather that it was something to +talk to Jock about. He remembers everything. When papa was making that +will----" here Lucy stopped and sighed. It had not been doing her a good +service to make her recollect that will, which had enough in it to make +her life wretched, though that as yet nobody knew. "He recollects it +all," she said. "He used to hear it read out. He remembers everything." + +"I suppose, then," said Sir Tom, with a peculiar smile, "there is +something in particular which he thought you were likely to forget?" + +Here Lucy sighed again. "I am afraid I had forgotten it. No, not +forgotten, but--I never knew very well what to do. Perhaps you don't +remember either. It is about giving the money away." + +Sir Tom was a far more considerable person in every way than the little +girl who was his wife, and who was not clever nor of any great account +apart from her wealth; and she was devoted to him, so that he could have +very little fear how any conflict should end when he was on one side, if +all the world were on the other. But perhaps he had been spoiled by +Lucy's entire agreement and consent to whatever he pleased to wish, so +that his tone was a little sharp, not so good-humoured as usual, but +with almost a sneer in it when he replied quickly, not leaving her a +moment to get her breath, "I see; Jock having inspiration from the +fountain head, was to be your guide in that." + +She looked at him alarmed and penitent, but reproachful. "I would have +done nothing, I could have done nothing, oh Tom! without you." + +"It is very obliging of you Lucy to say so; nevertheless, Jock thought +himself entitled to remind you of what you had forgotten, and to offer +himself as your adviser. Perhaps MTutor was to come in, too," he said, +with a laugh. + +Sir Tom was not immaculate in point of temper any more than other men, +but Lucy had never suffered from it before. She was frightened, but she +did not give way. The colour went out of her cheeks, but there was more +in her than mere insipid submission. She looked at her husband with a +certain courage, though she was so pale, and felt so profoundly the +displeasure which she had never encountered before. + +"I don't think you should speak like that, Tom. I have done nothing +wrong. I have only been talking to my brother of--of--a thing that +nobody cares about but him and me in all the world." + +"And that is----" + +"Doing what papa wished," Lucy said in a low voice. A little moisture +stole into her eyes. Whether it came because of her father, or because +her husband spoke sharply to her, it perhaps would have been difficult +to say. + +This made Sir Tom ashamed of his ill-humour. It was cruel to be unkind +to a creature so gentle, who was not used to be found fault with; and +yet he felt that for Lucy to set up an independence of any kind was a +thing to be crushed in the bud. A man may have the most liberal +principles about women, and yet feel a natural indignation when his own +wife shows signs of desiring to act for herself; and besides, it was not +to be endured that a boy and girl conspiracy should be hatched under his +very nose to take the disposal of an important sum of money out of his +hands. Such an idea was not only ridiculous in itself, but apt to make +him ridiculous, a man who ought to be strong enough to keep the young +ones in order. "My dear," he said, "I have no wish to speak in any way +that vexes you; but I see no reason you can have--at least I hope there +has been nothing in my conduct to give you any reason--to withdraw your +confidence from me and give it to Jock." + +Lucy did not make him any reply. She looked at him pathetically through +the water in her eyes. If she had spoken she would have cried, and this +in an open carriage, with a village close at hand, and people coming and +going upon the road, was not to be thought of. By the time she had +mastered herself Sir Tom had cooled down, and he was ashamed of having +made Lucy's lips to quiver and taken away her voice. + +"That was a very nasty thing to say," he said, "wasn't it, Lucy? I ought +to be ashamed of myself. Still, my little woman must remember that I am +too fond of her to let her have secrets with anybody but me." + +And with this he took the hand that was nearest to him into both of his +and held it close, and throwing a temptation in her way which she could +not resist, led her to talk of the baby and forget everything else +except that precious little morsel of humanity. He was far cleverer than +Lucy; he could make her do whatever he pleased. No fear of any +opposition, any setting up of her own will against his. When they got +home he gave her a kiss, and then the momentary trouble was all over. So +he thought at least. Lucy was so little and gentle and fair, that she +appeared to her husband even younger than she was; and she was a great +deal younger than himself. He thought her a sort of child-wife, whom a +little scolding or a kiss would altogether sway. The kiss had been +quite enough hitherto. Perhaps, since Jock had come upon the scene, a +few words of admonition might prove now and then necessary, but it would +be cruel to be hard upon her, or do more than let her see what his +pleasure was. + +But Lucy was not what Sir Tom thought. She could not endure that there +should be any shadow between her husband and herself, but her mind was +not satisfied with this way of settling an important question. She took +his kiss and his apology gratefully, but if anything had been wanted to +impress more deeply upon her mind the sense of a duty before her, of +which her husband did not approve, and in doing which she could not have +his help, it would have been this little episode altogether. Even little +Tom did not efface the impression from her mind. At dinner she met her +husband with her usual smile, and even assented when he remarked upon +the pleasantness of finding themselves again alone together. There had +been other guests besides Jock, so that the remark did not offend her; +but yet Lucy was not quite like herself. She felt it vaguely, and he +felt it vaguely, and neither was entirely aware what it was. + +In the morning, at breakfast, Sir Tom received a foreign letter, which +made him start a little. He started and cried, "Hollo!" then, opening +it, and finding two or three closely-scribbled sheets, gave way to a +laugh. "Here's literature!" he said. Lucy, who had no jealousy of his +correspondents, read her own calm little letters, and poured out the +tea, with no particular notice of her husband's interjections. It did +not even move her curiosity that the letter was in a feminine hand, and +gave forth a faint perfume. She reminded him that his tea was getting +cold, but otherwise took no notice. One of her own letters was from the +Dowager Lady Randolph, full of advice about the baby. "Mrs. Russell +tells me that Katie's children are the most lovely babies that ever were +seen; but she is very fantastic about them; will not let them wear shoes +to spoil their feet, and other vagaries of that kind. I hope, my dear +Lucy, that you are not fanciful about little Tom," Lady Randolph wrote. +Lucy read this very composedly, and smiled at the suggestion. Fanciful! +Oh, no, she was not fanciful about him--she was not even silly, Lucy +thought. She was capable of allowing that other babies might be lovely, +though why the feet of Katie's children should be of so much importance +she allowed to herself she could not see. She was roused from these +tranquil thoughts by a little commotion on the other side of the table, +where Sir Tom had just thrown down his letter. He was laughing and +talking to himself. "Why shouldn't she come if she likes it?" he was +saying. "Lucy, look here, since you have set up a confidant, I shall +have one too," and with that Sir Tom went off into an immoderate fit of +laughing. The letter scattered upon the table all opened out, two large +foreign sheets, looked endless. Nobody had ever written so much to Lucy +in all her life. She could see it was largely underlined and full of +notes of admiration and interrogation, altogether an out-of-the-way +epistle. Was it possible that Sir Tom was a little excited as well as +amused? He put his roll upon a hot plate, and began to cut it with his +knife and fork in an absence of mind, which was not usual with him, and +at intervals of a minute or two would burst out with his long "Ha, ha," +again. "That will serve you out, Lucy," he said, with a shout, "if I set +up a confidant too." + + + + +CHAPTER VII. + +A WARNING. + + +"I wonder if I shall like her," Lucy said to herself. + +She had been hearing from her husband about the Contessa di +Forno-Populo, who had promised to pay them a visit at Christmas. He had +laughed a great deal while he described this lady. "What she will do +here in a country-house in the depth of winter, I cannot tell," he said, +"but if she wants to come why shouldn't she? She and I are old friends. +One time and another we have seen a great deal of each other. She will +not understand me in the character of a Benedick, but that will be all +the greater fun," he said with a laugh. Lucy looked at him with a little +surprise. She could not quite make him out. + +"If she is a friend she will not mind the country and the winter," said +Lucy; "it will be you she will want to see----" + +"That is all very well, my dear," said Sir Tom, "but she wants something +more than me. She wants a little amusement. We must have a party to meet +her, Lucy. We have never yet had the house full for Christmas. Don't you +think it will be better to furnish the Contessa with other objects +instead of letting her loose upon your husband. You don't know what it +is you are treating so lightly." + +"I--treat any one lightly that you care for, Tom! Oh, no; I was only +thinking. I thought she would come to see you, not a number of strange +people----" + +"And you would not mind, Lucy?" + +"Mind?" Lucy lifted her innocent eyes upon him with the greatest +surprise. "To be sure it is most nice of all when there is nobody with +us," she said--as if that had been what he meant. Enlightenment on this +subject had not entered her mind. She did not understand him; nor did he +understand her. He gave her a sort of friendly hug as he passed, still +with that laugh in which there was no doubt a great perception of +something comic, yet--an enlightened observer might have thought--a +little uneasiness, a tremor which was almost agitation too. Lucy too had +a perception of something a little out of the way which she did not +understand, but she offered to herself no explanation of it. She said to +herself, when he was gone, "I wonder if I shall like her?" and she did +not make herself any reply. She had been in society, and held her little +place with a simple composure which was natural to her, whoever might +come in her way. If she was indeed a little frightened of the great +ladies, that was only at the first moment before she became used to +them; and afterwards all had gone well--but there was something in the +suggestion of a foreign great lady, who perhaps might not speak English, +and who would be used to very different "ways," which alarmed her a +little; and then it occurred to her with some disappointment that this +would be the time of Jock's holidays, and that it would disappoint him +sadly to find her in the midst of a crowd of visitors. She said to +herself, however, quickly, that it was not to be expected that +everything should always go exactly as one wished it, and that no doubt +the Countess of ---- what was it she was the Countess of?--would be very +nice, and everything go well; and so Lady Randolph went away to her +baby and her household business, and put it aside for the moment. She +found other things far more important to occupy her, however, before +Christmas came. + +For that winter was very severe and cold, and there was a great deal of +sickness in the neighbourhood. Measles and colds and feverish attacks +were prevalent in the village, and there were heartrending "cases," in +which young Lady Randolph at the Hall took so close an interest that her +whole life was disturbed by them. One of the babies, who was little +Tom's age, died. When it became evident that there was danger in this +case it is impossible to describe the sensations with which Lucy's brain +was filled. She could not keep away from the house in which the child +was. She sent to Farafield for the best doctor there, and everything +that money could procure was got for the suffering infant, whose +belongings looked on with wonder and even dismay, with a secret question +like that of him who was a thief and kept the bag--to what purpose was +this waste? for they were all persuaded that the baby was going to die. + +"And the best thing for him, my lady," the grandmother said. "He'll be +better done by where he's agoing than he ever could have been here." + +"Oh, don't say so," said Lucy. The young mother, who was as young as +herself, cried; yet if Lucy had been absent would have been consoled by +that terrible philosophy of poverty that it was "for the best." But Lady +Randolph, in such a tumult of all her being as she had never known +before, with unspeakable yearning over the dying baby, and a panic +beyond all reckoning for her own, would not listen to any such easy +consolation. She shut her ears to it with a gleam of anger such as had +never been seen in her gentle face before, and would have sat up all +night with the poor little thing in her lap if death had not ended its +little plaints and suffering. Sir Tom, in this moment of trial, came out +in all his true goodness and kindness. He went with her himself to the +cottage, and when the vigil was over appeared again to take her home. It +was a wintry night, frosty and clear, the stars all twinkling with that +mysterious life and motion which makes them appear to so many wistful +eyes like persons rather than worlds, and as if there was knowledge and +sympathy in those far-shining lights of heaven. Sir Thomas was alarmed +by Lucy's colourless face, and the dumb passion of misery and awe that +was about her. He was very tender-hearted himself at sight of the dead +baby which was the same age as his lovely boy. He clasped the trembling +hand with which his wife held his arm, and tried to comfort her. "Look +at the stars, my darling," he said, "the angels must have carried the +poor little soul that way." He was not ashamed to let fall a tear for +the little dead child. But Lucy could neither weep nor think of the +angels. She hurried him on through the long avenue, clinging to his arm +but not leaning upon it, hastening home. Now and then a sob escaped her, +but no tears. She flew upstairs to her own boy's nursery, and fell down +on her knees by the side of his little crib. He was lying in rosy sleep, +his little dimpled arms thrown up over his head, a model of baby beauty. +But even that sight did not restore her. She buried her wan face in her +hands and so gasped for breath that Sir Tom, who had followed her, took +her in his arms and carrying her to her own room laid her down on the +sofa by the fire and did all that man could to soothe her. + +"Lucy, Lucy! we must thank God that all is well with our own," he said, +half terrified by the gasping and the paleness; and then she burst +forth: + +"Oh, why should it be well with him, and little Willie gone? Why should +we be happy and the others miserable? My baby safe and warm in my arms, +and poor Ellen's--poor Ellen's----" + +This name, and the recollection of the poor young mother, whom she had +left in her desolation, made Lucy's tears pour forth like a summer +storm. She flung her arms round her husband's neck, and called out to +him in an agony of anxiety and excitement: + +"Oh, what shall we do to save him? Oh, Tom, pray, pray! Little Willie +was well on Saturday--and now--How can we tell what a day may bring +forth?" Lucy cried, wildly pushing him away from her, and rising from +the sofa. + +Then she began to pace about the room as we all do in trouble, clasping +her hands in a wild and inarticulate appeal to heaven. Death had never +come across her path before save in the case of her father, an old man +whose course was run, and his end a thing necessary and to be looked +for. She could not get out of her eyes the vision of that little solemn +figure, so motionless, so marble white. The thought would not leave her. +To see the calm Lucy pacing up and down in this passion of terror and +agony made Sir Tom almost as miserable as herself. He tried to take her +into his arms, to draw her back to the sofa. + +"My darling, you are over-excited. It has been too much for you," he +said. + +"Oh, what does it matter about me?" cried Lucy; "think--oh, God! oh, God +I--if we should have _that_ to bear." + +"My dear love--my Lucy, you that have always been so reasonable--the +child is quite well; come and see him again and satisfy yourself." + +"Little Willie was quite well on Saturday," she cried again. "Oh, I +cannot bear it, I cannot bear it! and why should it be poor Ellen and +not me?" + +When a person of composed mind and quiet disposition is thus carried +beyond all the bounds of reason and self-restraint, it is natural that +everybody round her should be doubly alarmed. Lucy's maid hung about the +door, and the nurse, wrapped in a shawl, stole out of little Tom's room. +They thought their mistress had the hysterics, and almost forced their +way into the room to help her. It did Sir Tom good to send these +busybodies away. But he was more anxious himself than words could say. +He drew her arms within his, and walked up and down with her. "You know, +my darling, what the Bible says, 'that one shall be taken and another +left; and that the wind bloweth where it listeth,'" he said, with a +pardonable mingling of texts. "We must just take care of him, dear, and +hope the best." + +Here Lucy stopped, and looked him in the face with an air of solemnity +that startled him. + +"I have been thinking," she said; "God has tried us with happiness +first. That is how He always does--and if we abuse _that_ then there +comes--the other. We have been so happy. Oh, so happy!" Her face, which +had been stilled by this profounder wave of feeling, began to quiver +again. "I did not think any one could be so happy," she said. + +"Well, my darling! and you have been very thankful and good----" + +"Oh, no, no, no," she cried. "I have forgotten my trust. I have let the +poor suffer, and put aside what was laid upon me--and now, now----" Lucy +caught her husband's arm with both her hands, and drew him close to her. +"Tom, God has sent his angel to warn us," she said, in a broken voice. + +"Lucy, Lucy, this is not like you. Do you think that poor little woman +has lost her baby for our sake? Are we of so much more importance than +she is, in the sight of God, do you think? Come, come, that is not like +you." + +Lucy gazed at him for a moment with a sudden opening of her eyes, which +were contracted with misery. She was subdued by the words, though she +only partially comprehended them. + +"Don't you think," he said, "that to deprive another woman of her child +in order to warn you, would be unjust, Lucy? Come and sit down and warm +your poor little hands, and take back your reason, and do not accuse God +of wrong, for that is not possible. Poor Ellen I don't doubt is composed +and submissive, while you, who have so little cause----" + +She gave him a wild look. "With her it is over, it is over!" she cried, +"but with us----" + +Lucy had never been fanciful, but love quickens the imagination and +gives it tenfold power; and no poet could have felt with such a +breathless and agonised realisation the difference between the +accomplished and the possible, the past which nothing can alter, and the +pain and sickening terror with which we anticipate what may come. Ellen +had entered into the calm of the one. She herself stood facing wildly +the unspeakable terror of the other. "Oh, Tom, I could not bear it, I +could not bear it!" she cried. + +It was almost morning before he had succeeded in soothing her, in +making her lie down and compose herself. But by that time nature had +begun to take the task in hand, wrapping her in the calm of exhaustion. +Sir Tom had the kindest heart, though he had not been without reproach +in his life. He sat by her till she had fallen into a deep and quiet +sleep, and then he stole into the nursery and cast a glance at little +Tom by the dim light of the night lamp. His heart leaped to see the +child with its fair locks all tumbled upon the pillow, a dimpled hand +laid under a dimpled cheek, ease and comfort and well-being in every +lovely curve; and then there came a momentary spasm across his face, and +he murmured "Poor little beggar!" under his breath. He was not +panic-stricken like Lucy. He was a man made robust by much experience of +the world, and a child more or less was not a thing to affect him as it +would a young mother; but the pathos of the contrast touched him with a +keen momentary pang. He stole away again quite subdued, and went to bed +thankfully, saying an uncustomary prayer in the emotion that possessed +him: Good God, to think of it; if that poor little beggar had been +little Tom! + +Lucy woke to the sound of her boy's little babbling of happiness in the +morning, and found him blooming on her bed, brought there by his father, +that she might see him and how well he was, even before she was awake. +It was thus not till the first minute of delight was over that her +recollections came back to her and she remembered the anguish of the +previous night; and then with a softened pang, as was natural, and warm +flood of thankfulness, which carried away harsher thoughts. But her mind +was in a highly susceptible and tender state, open to every impression. +And when she knelt down to make her morning supplications, Lucy made a +dedication of herself and solemn vow. She said, like the little princess +when she first knew that she was to be made queen, "I will be good." She +put forth this promise trembling, not with any sense that she was making +a bargain with God, as more rigid minds might suppose, but with all the +remorseful loving consciousness of a child which feels that it has not +made the return it ought for the good things showered upon it, and +confronts for the first time the awful possibility that these tender +privileges might be taken away. There was a trembling all over her, body +and soul. She was shaken by the ordeal through which she had come--the +ordeal which was not hers but another's: and with the artlessness of the +child was mingled that supreme human instinct which struggles to disarm +Fate by immediate prostration and submission. She laid herself down at +the feet of the Sovereign greatness which could mar all her happiness in +a moment, with a feeling that was not much more than half Christian. +Lucy tried to remind herself that He to whom she knelt was love as well +as power. But nature, which still "trembles like a guilty thing +surprised" in that great Presence, made her heart beat once more with +passion and sickening terror. God knew, if no one else did, that she had +abandoned her father's trust and neglected her duty. "Sell all thou hast +and give to the poor." Lucy rose from her knees with anxious haste, +feeling as if she must do this, come what might and whoever should +oppose; or at least since it was not needful for her to sell all she +had, that she must hurry forth, and forestall any further discipline by +beginning at once to fulfil the duty she had neglected. She could not +yet divest herself of the thought that the baby who was dead was a +little warning messenger to recall her to a sense of the punishments +that might be hanging over her. A messenger to her of mercy, for what, +oh! what would she have done if the blow had fallen upon little Tom? + + + + +CHAPTER VIII. + +THE SHADOW OF DEATH. + + +After this it may perhaps be surprising to hear that Lucy did nothing to +carry out that great trust with which she had been charged. She had +felt, and did feel at intervals, for a long time afterwards, as if God +Himself had warned her what might come upon her if she neglected her +duty. But if you will reflect how very difficult that duty was, and how +far she was from any opportunity of being able to discharge it! In early +days, when she was fresh from her father's teaching, and deeply +impressed with the instant necessity of carrying it out, Providence +itself had sent the Russell family, poor and helpless people, who had +not the faculty of getting on by themselves, into her way, and Lucy had +promptly, or at least as promptly as indignant guardians would permit, +provided for them in the modest way which was all her ideas reached to +at the time. But around the Hall there was nobody to whom the same +summary process could be applied. The people about were either working +people, whom it is always easy to help, or well-off people, who had no +wants which Lucy could supply. And this continued to be so even after +her fright and determination to return to the work that had been +allotted to her. No doubt, could she have come down to the hearts and +lives of the neighbours who visited Lady Randolph on the externally +equal footing which society pretends to allot to all gentlefolks, she +would have found several of them who would have been glad to free her +from her money; but then she could not see into their hearts. She did +not know what a difficult thing it was for Mr. Routledge of Newby to pay +the debts of his son when he had left college, or how hardly hit was +young Archer of Fordham in the matter of the last joint-stock bank that +stopped payment. If they had not all been so determined to hold up their +heads with the best, and keep up appearances, Lucy might have managed +somehow to transfer to them a little of the money which she wanted to +get rid of, and of which they stood so much in need. But this was not to +be thought of; and when she cast her eyes around her it was with a +certain despair that Lucy saw no outlet whatever for those bounties +which it had seemed to her heaven itself was concerned about, and had +warned her not to neglect. Many an anxious thought occupied her mind on +this subject. She thought of calling her cousin Philip Rainy, who was +established and thriving at Farafield, and whose fortune had been +founded upon her liberality, to her counsels. But if Sir Tom had +disliked the confidences between her and her brother, what would he +think of Philip Rainy as her adviser? Then Lucy in her perplexity turned +again to the thought of Jock. Jock had a great deal more sense in him +than anybody knew. He had been the wisest child, respected by everybody; +and now he was almost a man, and had learned, as he said, a great deal +at school. She thought wistfully of the poor curate of whom Jock had +told her. Very likely that poor clergyman would do very well for what +Lucy wanted. Surely there could be no better use for money than to endow +such a man, with a whole family growing up, all the better for it, and a +son on the foundation! And then she remembered that Jock had entreated +her to do nothing till he came. Thus the time went on, and her +passionate resolution, her sense that heaven itself was calling upon +her, menacing her with judgment even, seemed to come to nothing--not out +of forgetfulness or sloth, or want of will--but because she saw no way +open before her, and could not tell what to do. And after that miserable +night when Ellen Bailey's baby died, and death seemed to enter in, as +novel and terrible as if he had never been known before, for the first +time into Lucy's Paradise, she had never said anything to Sir Tom. Day +after day she had meant to do it, to throw herself upon his guidance, to +appeal to him to help her; but day after day she had put it off, +shrinking from the possible contest of which some instinct warned her. +She knew, without knowing how, that in this he would not stand by her. +Impossible to have been kinder in that crisis, more tender, more +indulgent, even more understanding than her husband was; but she felt +instinctively the limits of his sympathy. He would not go that length. +When she got to that point he would change. But she could not have him +change; she could not anticipate the idea of a cloud upon his face, or +any shadow between them. And then Lucy made up her mind that she would +wait for Jock, and that he and she together, when there were two to talk +it over, would make out a way. + +All was going on well again, the grass above little Willie's grave was +green, his mother consoled and smiling as before, and at the Hall the +idea of the Christmas party had been resumed, and the invitations, +indeed, were sent off, when one morning the visitor whom Lucy had +anticipated with such dread came out of the village, where infantile +diseases always lingered, and entered the carefully-kept nursery. Little +Tom awoke crying and fretful, hot with fever, his poor little eyes heavy +with acrid tears. His mother had not been among the huts where poor men +lie for nought, and she saw at a glance what it was. Well! not anything +so very dreadful--measles, which almost all children have. There was no +reason in the world why she should be alarmed. She acknowledged as much, +with a tremor that went to her heart. There were no bad symptoms. The +baby was no more ill than it was necessary he should be. "He was having +them beautiful," the nurse said, and Lucy scarcely allowed even her +husband to see the deep, harrowing dread that was in her. By and by, +however, this dread was justified; she had been very anxious about all +the little patients in the village that they should not catch cold, +which in the careless ignorance of their attendants, and in the limited +accommodation of the cottages, was so usual, so likely, almost +inevitable. A door would be left open, a sudden blast of cold would come +upon the little sufferer; how could any one help it? Lucy had given the +poor women no peace on this subject. She had "worrited them out o' their +lives." And now, wonder above all finding out, it was in little Tom's +luxurious nursery, where everything was arranged for his safety, where +one careful nurse succeeded another by night and by day, and Lady +Randolph herself was never absent for an hour, where the ventilation was +anxiously watched and regulated, and no incautious intruder ever +entered--it was there that the evil came. When the child had shaken off +his little complaint and all was going well, he took cold, and in a few +hours more his little lungs were labouring heavily, and the fever of +inflammation consuming his strength. Little Tom, the heir, the only +child! A cloud fell over the house; from Sir Tom himself to the lowest +servant, all became partakers, unawares, of Lucy's dumb terror. It was +because the little life was so important, because so much hung upon it, +that everybody jumped to the conclusion that the worst issue might be +looked for. Humanity has an instinctive, heathenish feeling that God +will take advantage of all the special circumstances that aggravate a +blow. + +Lucy, for her part, received the stroke into her very soul. She was +outwardly more calm than when her heart had first been roused to terror +by the death of the little child in the village. That which she had +dreaded was come, and all her powers were collected to support her. The +moment had arrived--the time of trial--and she would not fail. Her hand +was steady and her head clear, as is the case with finer natures when +confronted with deadly danger. This simple girl suddenly became like one +of the women of tragedy, fighting, still and strong, with a desperation +beyond all symbols--the fight with death. But Sir Tom took it +differently. A woman can nurse her child, can do something for him; but +a man is helpless. At first he got rid of his anxieties by putting a +cheerful face upon the matter, and denying the possibility of danger. +"The measles! every child had the measles. If no fuss was made the +little chap," he declared, "would soon be all right. It was always a +mistake to exaggerate." But when there could no longer be any doubt on +the subject, a curious struggle took place in Sir Tom's mind. That +baby--die? That crowing, babbling creature pass away into the solemnity +of death! It had not seemed possible, and when he tried to get it into +his mind his brain whirled. Wonder for the moment seemed to silence even +the possibility of grief. He had himself gone through labours and +adventures that would have killed a dozen men, and had never been +conscious even of alarm about himself; and the idea of a life quenched +in its beginning by so accidental a matter as a draught in a nursery +seemed to him something incomprehensible. When he had heard of a child's +death he had been used to say that the mother would feel it, no doubt, +poor thing; but it was a small event, that scarcely counted in human +history to Sir Tom. When, however, his own boy was threatened, after the +first incredulity, Sir Tom felt a pang of anger and wretchedness which +he could not understand. It was not that the family misfortune of the +loss of the heir overwhelmed him, for it was very improbable that poor +little Tom would be his only child; it was a more intimate and personal +sensation. A sort of terrified rage came over him which he dared not +express; for if indeed his child was to be taken from him, who was it +but God that would do this? and he did not venture to turn his rage to +that quarter. And then a confusion of miserable feelings rose within +him. One night he did not go to bed. It was impossible in the midst of +the anxiety that filled the house, he said to himself. He spent the +weary hours in going softly up and down stairs, now listening at the +door of the nursery and waiting for his wife, who came out now and then +to bring him a bulletin, now dozing drearily in his library downstairs. +When the first gleams of the dawn stole in at the window he went out +upon the terrace in the misty chill morning, all damp and miserable, +with the trees standing about like ghosts. There was a dripping thaw +after a frost, and the air was raw and the prospect dismal; but even +that was less wretched than the glimmer of the shaded lights, the +muffled whispering and stealthy footsteps indoors. He took a few turns +up and down the terrace, trying to reason himself out of this misery. +How was it, after all, that the little figure of this infant should +overshadow earth and heaven to a man, a reasonable being, whose mind and +life were full of interests far more important? Love, yes! but love must +have some foundation. The feeling which clung so strongly to a child +with no power of returning it, and no personal qualities to excite it, +must be mere instinct not much above that of the animals. He would not +say this before Lucy, but there could be no doubt it was the truth. He +shook himself up mentally, and recalled himself to what he attempted to +represent as the true aspect of affairs. He was a man who had obtained +most things that this world can give. He had sounded life to its depths +(as he thought), and tasted both the bitter and the sweet; and after +having indulged in all these varied experiences it had been given to +him, as it is not given to many men, to come back from all wanderings +and secure the satisfactions of mature life, wealth, and social +importance, and the power of acting in the largest imperial concerns. +Round about him everything was his; the noble woods that swept away into +the mist on every side; the fields and farms which began to appear in +the misty paleness of the morning through the openings in the trees. And +if he had not by his side such a companion as he had once dreamed of, +the beautiful, high-minded ideal woman of romance, yet he had got one +of the best of gentle souls to tread the path of life along with him, +and sympathise even when she did not understand. For a man who had not +perhaps deserved very much, how unusual was this happiness. And was it +possible that all these things should be obscured, cast into the shade, +by so small a matter as the sickness of a child? What had the baby ever +done to make itself of so much importance? Nothing. It did not even +understand the love it excited, and was incapable of making any +response. Its very life was little more than a mechanical life. The +woman who fed it was far more to it than its father, and there was +nothing excellent or noble in the world to which it would not prefer a +glittering tinsel or a hideous doll. If the little thing had grown up, +indeed, if it had developed human tastes and sympathies, and become a +companion, an intelligence, a creature with affections and +thoughts,--but that the whole house should thus be overwhelmed with +miserable anxiety and pain because of a being in the embryo state of +existence, who could neither respond nor understand, what a strange +thing it was! No doubt this instinct had been implanted in order to +preserve the germ and keep the race going; but that it should thus +develop into an absorbing passion and overshadow everything else in life +was a proof how the natural gets exaggerated, and, if we do not take +care, changes its character altogether, mastering us instead of being +kept in its fit place, and in check, as it ought to be by sense and +reason. From time to time, as Sir Tom made these reflections, there +would flit across his mind, as across a mirror, something which was not +thought, which was like a picture momentarily presented before him. One +of the most persistent of these, which flashed out and in upon his +senses like a view in a magic lantern, was of that moment in the midst +of the flurry of the election when little Tom, held up in his mother's +arms, had clapped his baby hands for his father. This for a second would +confound all his thoughts, and give his heart a pang as if some one had +seized and pressed it with an iron grasp; but the next moment he would +pick up the thread of his reflections again, and go on with them. That, +too, was merely mechanical, like all the little chap's existence up to +this point. Poor little chap! here Sir Tom stopped in his course of +thought, impeded by a weight at his heart which he could not shake off; +nor could he see the blurred and vague landscape round him--something +more blinding even than the fog had got into his eyes. + +Then Sir Tom started and his heart sprang up to his throat beating +loudly. It was not anything of much importance, it was only the opening +of the window by which he himself had come out upon the terrace. He +turned round quickly, too anxious even to ask a question. If it had been +a king's messenger bringing him news that affected the whole kingdom, he +would have turned away with an impatient "Pshaw!" or struck the intruder +out of his way. But it was his wife, wrapped in a dressing-gown, pale +with watching, her hair pushed back upon her forehead, her eyes +unnaturally bright. "How is he?" cried Sir Tom, as if the question was +one of life or death. + +Lucy told him, catching at his arm to support herself, that she thought +there was a little improvement. "I have been thinking so for the last +hour, not daring to think it, and yet I felt sure; and now nurse says so +too. His breathing is easier. I have been on thorns to come and tell +you, but I would not till I was quite sure." + +"Thank God! God be praised!" said Sir Tom. He did not pretend to be a +religious man on ordinary occasions, but at the present moment he had no +time to think, and spoke from the bottom of his heart. He supported his +little wife tenderly on one arm, and put back the disordered hair on her +forehead. "Now you will go and take a little rest, my darling," he said. + +"Not yet, not till the doctor comes. But you want it as much as I." + +"No; I had a long sleep on the sofa. We are all making fools of +ourselves, Lucy. The poor little chap will be all right. We are queer +creatures. To think that you and I should make ourselves so miserable +over a little thing like that, that knows nothing about it, that has no +feelings, that does not care a button for you and me." + +"Tom, what are you talking of? Not of my boy, surely--not my boy!" + +"Hush, my sweet. Well," said Sir Tom, with a tremulous laugh, "what is +it but a little polypus after all? that can do nothing but eat and +sleep, and crow perhaps--and clap its little fat hands," he said, with +the tears somehow getting into his voice, and mingling with the +laughter. "I allow that I am confusing my metaphors." + +At this moment the window opening upon the terrace jarred again, and +another figure in a dressing-gown, dark and ghost-like, appeared +beckoning to Lucy, "My lady! my lady!" + +Lucy let go her husband's arm, thrust him away from her with passion, +gave him one wild look of reproach, and flew noiselessly like a spirit +after the nurse to her child. Sir Tom, with his laugh still wavering +about his mouth, half hysterically, though he was no weakling, tottered +along the terrace to the open window, and stood there leaning against +it, scarcely breathing, the light gone out of his eyes, his whole soul +suspended, and every part of his strong body, waiting for what another +moment might bring to pass. + + + + +CHAPTER IX. + +A CHRISTMAS VISIT. + + +Little Tom did not die, but he became "delicate,"--and fathers and +mothers know what that means. The entire household was possessed by one +pervading terror lest he should catch cold, and Lucy's life became +absorbed in this constant watchfulness. Naturally the Christmas guests +were put off, and it was understood in respect to the Contessa di +Forno-Populo, that she was to come at Easter. Sir Tom himself thought +this a better arrangement. The Parliamentary recess was not a long one, +and the Contessa would naturally prefer, after a short visit to her old +friend, to go to town, where she would find so many people she knew. + +"And even in the country the weather is more tolerable in April," said +Sir Tom. + +"Oh, yes, yes. The doctor says if we keep clear of the east winds that +he may begin to go out again and get up his strength," said Lucy. + +"My love, I am thinking of your visitors, and you are thinking of your +baby," Sir Tom said. + +"Oh, Tom, what do you suppose I could be thinking of?" his wife cried. + +Sir Tom himself was very solicitous about the baby, but to hear of +nothing else worried him. He was glad when old Lady Randolph, who was an +invariable visitor, arrived. + +"How is the baby?" was her first question when he met her at the train. + +"The baby would be a great deal better if there was less fuss made about +him," he said. "You must give Lucy a hint on that subject, aunt." + +Lady Randolph was a good woman, and it was her conviction that she had +made this match. But it is so pleasant to feel that you have been right, +that she was half pleased, though very sorry, to think that Sir Tom (as +she had always known) was getting a little tired of sweet simplicity. +She met Lucy with an affectionate determination to be very plain with +her, and warn her of the dangers in her path. Jock had arrived the day +before. He rose up in all the lanky length of sixteen from the side of +the fire in the little drawing-room when the Dowager came in. It was +just the room into which one likes to come after a cold journey at +Christmas; the fire shining brightly in the midst of the reflectors of +burnished steel and brass, shining like gold and silver, of the most +luxurious fireplace that skill could contrive (the day of tiled stoves +was not as yet), and sending a delicious glow on the soft mossy carpets +into which the foot sank; a table with tea, reflecting the firelight in +all the polished surfaces of the china and silver, stood near; and +chairs invitingly drawn towards the fire. The only drawback was that +there was no one to welcome the visitor. On ordinary occasions Lucy was +at the door, if not at the station, to receive the kind lady whom she +loved. Lady Randolph was somewhat surprised at the difference, and when +she saw the lengthy boy raising himself up from the fireside, turned +round to her nephew and asked, "Do I know this young gentleman? There is +not light enough to see him," with a voice in which Jock, shy and +awkward, felt all the old objection to his presence as a burden upon +Lucy, which in his precocious toleration he had accepted as reasonable, +but did not like much the better for that. And then she sat down +somewhat sullenly at the fire. The next minute Lucy came hastily in with +many apologies: "I did not hear the carriage, aunt. I was in the +nursery----" + +"And how is the child?" Lady Randolph said. + +"Oh, he is a great deal better--don't you think he is much better, Tom? +Only a little delicate, and that, we hope, will pass away." + +"Then, Lucy, my dear, though I don't want to blame you, I think you +should have heard the carriage," said Aunt Randolph. "The tea-table does +not look cheerful when the mistress of the house is away." + +"Oh, but little Tom----" Lucy said, and then stopped herself, with a +vague sense that there was not so much sympathy around her as usual. Her +husband had gone out again, and Jock stood dumb, an awkward shadow +against the mantelpiece. + +"My dear, I only speak for your good," the elder lady said. "Big Tom +wants a little attention too. I thought you were going to have quite a +merry Christmas and a great many people here." + +"But, Aunt Randolph, baby----" + +"Oh, my dear, you must think of something else besides baby. Take my +word for it, baby would be a great deal stronger if you left him a +little to himself. You have your husband, you know, to think of, and +what harm would it have done baby if there had been a little cheerful +company for his father? But you will think I have come to scold, and I +don't in the least mean that. Give me a cup of tea, Lucy. Tom tells me +that this tall person is Jock." + +"You would not have known him?" said Lucy, much subdued in tone. + +She occupied herself with the tea, arranging the cups and saucers with +hands that trembled a little at the unexpected and unaccustomed +sensation of a repulse. + +"Well, I cannot even see him. But he has certainly grown out of +knowledge--I never thought he would have been so tall; he was quite a +little pinched creature as a child. I daresay you took too much care of +him, my dear. I remember I used to think so; and then when he was tossed +into the world or sent to school--it comes to much the same thing, I +suppose--he flourished and grew." + +"I wonder," said Lucy, somewhat wistfully, "if that is really so? +Certainly it is since he has been at school that he has grown so much." +Jock all this time fidgeted about from one leg to another with +unutterable darkness upon his brow, could any one have seen it. There +are few things so irritating, especially at his age, as to be thus +discussed over one's own head. + +"My dear Lucy," said Lady Randolph, "don't you remember some one +says--who was it, I wonder? it sounds like one of those dreadfully +clever French sayings that are always so much to the point--about the +advantages of a little wholesome neglect?" + +"Can neglect ever be wholesome? Oh, I don't think so--I can't think +so--at least with children." + +"It is precisely children that are meant," said the elder Lady +Randolph. But as she talked, sitting in the warm light of the fire, with +her cup in her hand, feeling extremely comfortable, discoursing at her +ease, and putting sharp arrows as if they had been pins into the heart +of Lucy, Sir Tom's large footsteps became audible coming through the +great drawing-room, which was dark. The very sound of him was cheerful +as he came in, and he brought the scent of fresh night air, cold but +delightful, with him. He passed by Lucy's chair and said, "How is the +little 'un?" laying a kind hand upon her head. + +"Oh, better. I am sure he is better. Aunt Randolph thinks----" + +"I am giving Lucy a lecture," said Lady Randolph, "and telling her she +must not shut herself up with that child. He'll get on all the better if +he is not coddled too much." + +Sir Tom made no reply, but came to the fire, and drew a chair into the +cheerful glow. "You are all in the dark," he said, "but the fire is +pleasant this cold night. Well, now that you are thawed, what news have +you brought us out of the world? We are two hermits, Lucy and I. We +forget what kind of language you speak. We have a little sort of talk of +our own which answers common needs about babies and so forth, but we +should like to hear what you are discoursing about, just for a change." + +"There is no such thing as a world just now," said Lady Randolph, "there +are nothing but country-houses. Society is all broken up into little +bits, as you know as well as I do. One gleans a little here and a little +there, and one carries it about like a basket of eggs." + +"Jock has a world, and it is quite entire," said Sir Tom, with his +cordial laugh. "No breaking up into little bits there. If you want a +society that knows its own opinions, and will stick to them through +thick and thin, I can tell you where to find it; and to see how it holds +together and sits square whatever happens----" + +Here there came a sort of falsetto growl from Jock's corner, where he +was blushing in the firelight. "It's because you were once a fellow +yourself, and know all about it." + +"So it is, Jock; you are right, as usual," said Sir Tom; "I was once a +fellow myself, and now I'm an old fellow, and growing duller. Turn out +your basket of eggs, Aunt Randolph, and let us know what is going on. +Where did you come from last--the Mulberrys? Come; there must have been +some pretty pickings of gossip there." + +"You shall have it all in good time. I am not going to run myself dry +the first hour. I want to know about yourselves, and when you are going +to give up this honeymooning. I expected to have met all sorts of people +here." + +"Yes," said Sir Tom, and then he burst forth in a laugh, "La +Forno-Populo and a few others; but as little Tom is not quite up to +visitors, we have put them off till Easter." + +"La Forno-Populo!" said Lady Randolph, in a voice of dismay. + +"Why not?" said Sir Tom. "She wrote and offered herself. I thought she +might find it a doubtful pleasure, but if she likes it---- However, you +may make yourself easy, nobody is coming," he added, with a certain jar +of impatience in his tone. + +"Well, Tom, I must say I am very glad of that," Lady Randolph said +gravely--and then there was a pause. "I doubt whether Lucy would have +liked her," she added, after a moment. Then with another interval, "I +think, Lucy, my love, after that nice cup of tea, and my first sight of +you, that I will go to my own room. I like a little rest before +dinner--you know my lazy way." + +"And it's getting ridiculously dark in this room," Sir Tom said, kicking +a footstool out of the way. This little impatient movement was like one +of those expletives that seem to relieve a man's mind, and both the +ladies understood it as such, and knew that he was angry. Lucy, as she +rose from her tea-table to attend upon her visitor, herself in a +confused and painful mood, and vexed with what had been said to her, +thought her husband was irritated by his aunt, and felt much sympathy +with him, and anxiety to conduct Lady Randolph to her room before it +should go any farther. But the elder lady understood it very +differently. She went away, followed by Lucy through the great +drawing-room, where a solitary lamp had been placed on a table to show +the way. It had been the Dowager's own house in her day, and she did not +require any guidance to her room. Nor did she detain Lucy after the +conventional visit to see that all was comfortable. + +"That I haven't the least doubt of," Lady Randolph said, "and I am at +home, you know, and will ask for anything I want; but I must have my nap +before dinner; and do you go and talk to your husband." + +Lucy could not resist one glance into the nursery, where little Tom, a +little languid but so much better, was sitting on his nurse's knee +before the fire, amused by those little fables about his fingers and +toes which are the earliest of all dramatic performances. The sight of +him thus content, and the sound of his laugh, was sweet to her in her +anxiety. She ran downstairs again without disturbing him, closing so +carefully the double doors that shut him out from all draughts, not +without a wondering doubt as she did so, whether it was true, perhaps, +that she was "coddling" him, and if there was such a thing as wholesome +neglect. She went quickly through the dim drawing-room to the warm ruddy +flush of firelight that shone between the curtains from the smaller +room, thinking nothing less than to find her husband, who was fond of an +hour's repose in that kindly light before dinner. She had got to her old +place in front of the fire before she perceived that Sir Tom's tall +shadow was no longer there. Lucy uttered a little exclamation of +disappointment, and then she perceived remorsefully another shadow, not +like Sir Tom's, the long weedy boyish figure of her brother against the +warm light. + +"But you are here, Jock," she said, advancing to him. Jock took hold of +her arm, as he was so fond of doing. + +"I shall never have you, now _she_ has come," Jock said. + +"Why not, dear? You were never fond of Lady Randolph--you don't know how +good and kind she is. It is only when you like people that you know how +nice they are," Lucy said, all unconscious that a deeper voice than hers +had announced that truth. + +"Then I shall never know, for I don't like her," said Jock +uncompromising. "You'll have to sit and gossip with her when you're not +in the nursery, and I shall have no time to tell you, for the holidays +last only a month." + +"But you can tell me everything in a month, you silly boy; and if we +can't have our walks, Jock (for it's cold), there is one place where +she will never come," said Lucy, upon which Jock turned away with an +exclamation of impatience. + +His sister put her hand on his shoulder and looked reproachfully in his +face. + +"You too! You used to like it. You used to come and toss him up and make +him laugh----" + +"Oh, don't, Lucy! can't you see? So I would again, if he were like that. +How you can bear it!" said the boy, bursting away from her. And then +Jock returned very much ashamed and horror-stricken, and took the hand +that dropped by her side, and clumsily patted and kissed it, and held it +between his own, looking penitently, wistfully, in her face all the +while: but not knowing what to say. + +Lucy stood looking down into the glowing fire, with her head drooping +and an air of utter dejection in her little gentle figure. "Do you think +he looks so bad as that?" she said, in a broken voice. + +"Oh, no, no; that is not what I mean," the boy cried. "It's--the little +chap is not so jolly; he's--a little cross; or else he's forgotten me. I +suppose it's that. He wouldn't look at me when I ran up. He's so little +one oughtn't to mind, but it made me----your baby, Lucy! and the little +beggar cried and wouldn't look at me." + +"Is that all?" said Lucy. She only half believed him, but she pretended +to be deceived. She gave a little trembling laugh, and laid her head for +a moment upon Jock's boyish breast, where his heart was beating high +with a passion of sorrow and tender love. "Sometimes," she said, leaning +against him, "sometimes I think I shall die. I can't live to see +anything happen to him: and sometimes---- But he is ever so much better; +don't you think he looks almost himself?" she said, raising her head +hurriedly, and interrogating the scarcely visible face with her eyes. + +"Looks! I don't see much difference in his looks, if he wouldn't be so +cross," said Jock, lying boldly, but with a tremor, for he was not used +to it. And then he said hurriedly, "But there's that clergyman, the +father of the fellow on the foundation. I've found out all about him. I +must tell you, Lucy. He is the very man. There is no call to think about +it or put off any longer. What a thing it would be if he could have it +by Christmas! I have got all the particulars--they look as if they were +just made for us," Jock cried. + + + + +CHAPTER X. + +LUCY'S ADVISERS. + + +Lady Randolph found her visit dull. It is true that there had been no +guests to speak of on previous Christmases since Sir Tom's marriage; but +the house had been more cheerful, and Lucy had been ready to drive, or +walk, or call, or go out to the festivities around. But now she was +absorbed by the nursing, and never liked to be an hour out of call. The +Dowager put up with it as long as she was able. She did not say anything +more on the subject for some days. It was not, indeed, until she had +been a week at the Hall that, being disturbed by the appeals of Lucy as +to whether she did not think baby was looking better than when she came, +she burst forth at last. They were sitting by themselves in the hour +after dinner when ladies have the drawing-room all to themselves. It is +supposed by young persons in novels to be a very dreary interval, but to +the great majority of women it is a pleasant moment. The two ladies sat +before the pleasant fire; Lucy with some fleecy white wool in her lap +with which she was knitting something for her child, Lady Randolph with +a screen interposed between her and the fire, doing nothing, an +operation which she always performed gracefully and comfortably. It +could not be said that the gentlemen were lingering over their wine. +Jock had retired to the library, where he was working through all the +long-collected literary stores of the Randolph family, with an +instinctive sense that his presence in the drawing-room was not desired. +Sir Tom had business to do, or else he was tired of the domestic calm. +The ladies had been sitting for some time in silence when Lady Randolph +suddenly broke forth-- + +"You know what I said to you the first evening, Lucy? I have not said a +word on the subject since--of course I didn't come down here to enjoy +your hospitality and then to find fault." + +"Oh, Aunt Randolph! don't speak of hospitality; it is your own house." + +"My dear, it is very pretty of you to say so. I hope I am not the sort +of person to take advantage of it. But I feel a sort of responsibility, +seeing it was I that brought you together first. Lucy, I must tell you. +You are not doing what you ought by Tom. Here he is, a middle-aged man, +you know, and one of the first in the county. People look to him for a +great many things: he is the member: he is a great landowner: he is +(thanks to you) very well off. And here is Christmas, and not a visitor +in the house but myself. Oh, there's Jock! a schoolboy home for his +holidays--that does not count; not a single dinner that I can hear +of----" + +"Yes, aunt, on the 6th," said Lucy, with humility. + +"On the 6th, and it is now the 27th! and no fuss at all made about +Christmas. My dear, you needn't tell me it's a bore. I know it is a +bore--everywhere wherever one goes; still, everybody does it. It is just +a part of one's responsibilities. You don't go to balls in Lent, and you +stand on your heads, so to speak, at Christmas. The country expects it +of you; and it is always a mistake to take one's own way in such +matters. You should have had, in the first place," said Lady Randolph, +counting on her fingers, "your house full; in the second, a ball, to +which everybody should have been asked. On these occasions no one that +could possibly be imagined to be gentlefolk should be left out. I would +even stretch a point--doctors and lawyers, and so forth, go without +saying, and those big brewers, you know, I always took in; and some +people go as far as the 'vet.,' as they call him. He was a very +objectionable person in my day, and that was where I drew the line; then +three or four dinners at the least." + +"But, Aunt Randolph, how could we when baby is so poorly----" + +"What has baby to do with it, Lucy? You don't have the child down to +receive your guests. With the door of his nursery shut to keep out the +noise (if you think it necessary: I shouldn't think it would matter) +what harm would it do him? He would never be a bit the wiser, poor +little dear. Yes, I dare say your heart would be with him many a time +when you were elsewhere; but you must not think of yourself." + +"I did not mean to do so, aunt. I thought little Tom was my first duty." + +"Now, I should have thought, my dear," said the Dowager, smiling +blandly, "that it would have been big Tom who answered to that +description." + +"But, Tom----" Lucy paused, not knowing in what shape to put so obvious +a truth, "he is like me," she said. "He is far, far more anxious than he +lets you see. It is his--duty too." + +"A great many other things are his duty as well; besides, there is so +much, especially in a social point of view, which the man never sees +till his wife points it out. That's one of the uses of a woman. She must +keep up her husband's popularity, don't you see? You must never let it +be said: 'Oh, Sir Tom! he is all very well in Parliament, but he does +nothing for the county.'" + +"I never thought of that," said Lucy, with dismay. + +"But you must learn to think of it, my love. Never mind, this is the +first Christmas since the election. But one dinner, and nothing else +done, not so much as a magic lantern in the village! I do assure you, my +dearest girl, you are very much to blame." + +"I am very sorry," said Lucy, with a startled look, "but, dear aunt, +little Tom----" + +"My dear Lucy! I am sure you don't wish everybody to get sick of that +poor child's very name." + +Lucy sprang up from her chair at this outrage; she could not bear any +more. A flush of almost fury came upon her face. She went up to the +mantelpiece, which was a very fine one of carved wood, and leant her +head upon it. She did not trust herself to reply. + +"Now, I know what you are thinking," said Lady Randolph blandly. "You +are saying to yourself, that horrid old woman, who never had a child, +how can she know?--and I don't suppose I do," said the clever Dowager +pathetically. "All that sweetness has been denied to me. I have never +had a little creature that was all mine. But when I was your age, Lucy, +and far older than you, I would have given anything--almost my life--to +have had a child." + +Lucy melted in a moment, threw herself down upon the hearth-rug upon her +knees, and took Lady Randolph's hands in her own and kissed them. + +"Oh, dear aunt, dear aunt!" she cried, "to think I should have gone on +so about little Tom and never remembered that you---- But we are all your +children," she said, in the innocence and fervour of her heart. + +"Yes, my love." Lady Randolph freed one of her hands and put it up with +her handkerchief to her cheek. As a matter of fact she did not regret it +now, but felt that a woman when she is growing old is really much more +able to look after her own comforts when she has no children; and yet, +when she remembered how she had been bullied on the subject, and all the +reproaches that had been addressed to her as if it were her fault, +perhaps there was something like a tear. "That is why I venture to say +many things to you that I would not otherwise. Tom, indeed, is too old +to have been my son; but I have felt, Lucy, as if I had a daughter in +you." Then shaking off this little bit of sentiment with a laugh, the +Dowager raised Lucy and kissed her and put her into a chair by her own +side. + +"Since we are about it," she said, "there is one other thing I should +like to talk to you about. Of course your husband knows a great deal +more of the world than you do, Lucy; but it is perhaps better that he +should not decide altogether who is to be asked. Men have such strange +notions. If people are amusing it is all they think of. Well, now, there +is that Contessa di Forno-Populo. I would not have her, Lucy, if I were +you." + +"But it was she who was the special person," said Lucy, in amaze. "The +others were to come to meet her. She is an old friend." + +"Oh, I know all about the old friendship," said Lady Randolph. "I think +Tom should be ashamed of himself. He knows that in other houses where +the mistress knows more about the world. Yes, yes, she is an old friend. +All the more reason, my dear, why you should have as little to say to +her as possible; they are never to be reckoned upon. Didn't you hear +what he called her. _La_ Forno-Populo? Englishmen never talk of a lady +like that if they have any great respect for her; but it can't be denied +that this lady has a great deal of charm. And I would just keep her at +arm's length, Lucy, if I were you." + +"Dear Aunt Randolph, why should I do that?" said Lucy, gravely. "If she +is Tom's friend, she must always be welcome here. I do not know her, +therefore I can only welcome her for my husband's sake; but that is +reason enough. You must not ask me to do anything that is against Tom." + +"Against Tom! I think you are a little goose, Lucy, though you are so +sensible. Is it not all for his sake that I am talking? I want you to +see more of the world, not to shut yourself up here in the nursery +entirely on his account. If you don't understand that, then words have +no meaning." + +"I do understand it, aunt," said Lucy meekly. "Don't be angry; but why +should I be disagreeable to Tom's friend? The only thing I am afraid of +is, should she not speak English. My French is so bad----" + +"Oh, your French will do very well; and you will take your own way, my +dear," said the elder lady, getting up. "You all do, you young people. +The opinion of others never does any good; and as Tom does not seem to +be coming, I think I shall take my way to bed. Good-night, Lucy. +Remember what I said, at all events, about the magic lantern. And if you +are wise you will have as little to do as possible with La Forno-Populo +as you can--and there you have my two pieces of advice." + +Lucy was disturbed a little by her elder's counsel, both in respect to +the foreign lady, whom, however, she simply supposed Lady Randolph did +not like--and in regard to her own nursery tastes and avoidance of +society;--could that be why Tom sat so much longer in the dining-room +and did not come in to talk to his aunt? She began to think with a +little ache in her heart, and to remember that in her great +preoccupation with the child he had been left to spend many evenings +alone, and that he no longer complained of this. She stood up in front +of the fire and pressed her hot forehead to the mantel-shelf. How was a +woman to know what to do? Was not he that was most helpless and had most +need of her the one to devote her time to? There was not a thought in +her that was disloyal to Sir Tom. But what if he were to form the habit +of doing without her society? This was an idea that filled her with a +vague dread. Some one came in through the great drawing-room as she +stood thinking, and she turned round eagerly, supposing that it was her +husband; but it was only Jock, who had been on the watch to hear Lady +Randolph go upstairs. + +"I never see you at all now, Lucy," cried Jock. "I never have a chance +but in the holidays, and now they're half over, and we have not had one +good talk. And what about poor Mr. Churchill, Lucy? I thought he was the +very man for you. He has got about a dozen children and no money. +Somebody else pays for Churchill, that's the fellow I told you of that's +on the foundation. I shouldn't have found out all that, and gone and +asked questions and got myself thought an inquisitive beggar, if it +hadn't been for your sake." + +"Oh, Jock, I'm sure I am much obliged to you," said Lucy, dolefully; +"and I am so sorry for the poor gentleman. It must be dreadful to have +so many children and not to be able to give them everything they +require." + +At this speech, which was uttered with something between impatience and +despair, and which made no promise of any help or succour, her brother +regarded her with a mixture of anger and disappointment. + +"Is that all about it, Lucy?" he said. + +"Oh, no, Jock! I am sure you are right, dear. I know I ought to bestir +myself and do something, but only---- How much do you think it would take +to make them comfortable? Oh, Jock, I wish that papa had put it all into +somebody's hands, to be done like business--somebody that had nothing +else to think of!" + +"What have you to think of, Lucy?" said the boy, seriously, in the +superiority of his youth. "I suppose, you know, you are just too well +off. You can't understand what it is to be like that. You get angry at +people for not being happy, you don't want to be disturbed." He paused +remorsefully, and cast a glance at her, melting in spite of himself, for +Lucy did not look too well off. Her soft brow was contracted a little; +there was a faint quiver upon her lip. "If you really want to know," +Jock said, "people can live and get along when they have about five +hundred a year. That is, as far as I can make out. If you gave them +that, they would think it awful luck." + +"I wish I could give them all of it, and be done with it!" + +"I don't see much good that would do. It would be two rich people in +place of one, and the two would not be so grand as you. That would not +have done for father at all. He liked you to be a great heiress, and +everybody to wonder at you, and then to give your money away like a +queen. I like it too," said Jock, throwing up his head; "it satisfies +the imagination: it is a kind of a fairy tale." + +Lucy shook her head. + +"He never thought how hard it would be upon me. A woman is never so well +off as a man. Oh, if it had been you, Jock, and I only just your +sister." + +"Talking does not bring us any nearer a settlement," said Jock, with +some impatience. "When will you do it, Lucy? Have you got to speak to +old Rushton, or write to old Chervil, or what? or can't you just draw +them a cheque? I suppose about ten thousand or so would be enough. And +it is as easy to do it at one time as another. Why not to-morrow, Lucy? +and then you would have it off your mind." + +This proposal took away Lucy's breath. She thought with a gasp of Sir +Tom and the look with which he would regard her--the laugh, the amused +incredulity. He would not be unkind, and her right to do it was quite +well established and certain. But she shrank within herself when she +thought how he would look at her, and her heart jumped into her throat +as she realised that perhaps he might not laugh only. How could she +stand before him and carry her own war in opposition to his? Her whole +being trembled even with the idea of conflict. "Oh, Jock, it is not just +so easily managed as that," she said faltering; "there are several +things to think of. I will have to let the trustees know, and it must +all be calculated." + +"There is not much need for calculation," said Jock, "that is just about +it. Five per cent is what you get for money. You had better send the +cheque for it, Lucy, and then let the old duffers know of it afterwards. +One would think you were afraid!" + +"Oh, no," said Lucy, with a slight shiver, "I am not afraid." And then +she added, with growing hesitation, "I must--speak to---- Oh! Is it you, +Tom?" She made a sudden start from Jock's side, who was standing close +by her, argumentative and eager, and whose bewildered spectatorship of +her guilty surprise and embarrassment she was conscious of through all. + +"Yes, it is I," said Sir Tom, putting his hand upon her shoulders; "you +must have been up to some mischief, Jock and you, or you would not look +so frightened. What is the secret?" he said, with his genial laugh. But +when he looked from Jock, astonished but resentful and lowering, to +Lucy, all trembling and pale with guilt, even Sir Tom, who was not +suspicious, was startled. His little Lucy! What had she been plotting +that made her look so scared at his appearance? Or was it something that +had been told to her, some secret accusation against himself? This +startled Sir Tom also a little, and it was with a sudden gravity, not +unmingled with resentment, that he added, "Come! I mean to know what it +is." + + + + +CHAPTER XI. + +AN INNOCENT CONSPIRACY. + + +"It was only something that Jock was saying," said Lucy, "but, Tom, I +will tell you another time. I wish you had come in before Lady Randolph +went upstairs. I think she was a little disappointed to have only me." + +"Did she share Jock's secret?" Sir Tom said with a keen look of inquiry. +It is perhaps one advantage in the dim light which fashion delights in, +that it is less easy to scrutinise the secrets of a face. + +"We are all a little put wrong when you do not come in," said Lucy. The +cunning which weakness finds refuge in when it has to defend itself came +to her aid. "Jock is shy when you are not here. He thinks he bores Lady +Randolph; and so we ladies are left to our own devices." + +"Jock must not be so sensitive," Sir Tom said; but he was not satisfied. +It occurred to him suddenly (for schoolboys are terrible gossips) that +the boy might have heard something which he had been repeating to Lucy. +Nothing could have been more unlikely, had he thought of it, than that +Jock should carry tales on such a subject. But we do not stop to argue +out matters when our own self-regard is in question. He looked at the +two with a doubtful and suspicious eye. + +"He will get over it as he grows older," said Lucy; but she gave her +brother a look which to Sir Tom seemed one of warning, and he was +irritated by it; he looked from one to another and he laughed; but not +with the genial laugh which was his best known utterance. + +"You are prodigiously on your guard," he said. "I suppose you have your +reasons for it. Have you been confiding the Masons' secret or something +of that awful character to her, Jock?" + +"Why shouldn't I tell him?" cried Jock with great impatience. "What is +the use of making all those signs? It's nothing of the sort. It's only +I've heard of somebody that is poor--somebody she ought to know of--the +sort of thing that is meant in father's will." + +"Oh!" said Sir Tom. It was the simplest of exclamations, but it meant +much. He was partially relieved that it was not gossip, but yet more +gravely annoyed than if it had been. + +Lucy made haste to interpose. + +"I will tell you afterwards," she said. "If I made signs, as Jock said, +it was only that I might tell it you, Tom, myself, when there was more +time." + +"I am at no loss for time," said Sir Tom, placing himself in the vacant +chair. The others were both standing, as became this accidental moment +before bed-time. And Lucy had been on thorns to get away, even before +her husband appeared. She had wanted to escape from the discussion even +with Jock. She had wanted to steal into the nursery, and see that her +boy was asleep, to feel his little forehead with her soft hand, and make +sure there was no fever. To be betrayed into a prolonged and agitating +discussion now was very provoking, very undesirable; and Lucy had grown +rather cowardly and anxious to push away from her, as far as she could, +everything that did not belong to the moment. + +"Tom," she said, a little tremulously, "I wish you would put it off till +to-morrow. I am--rather sleepy; it is nearly eleven o'clock, and I +always run in to see how little Tom is going on. Besides," she added, +with a little anxiety which was quite fictitious, "it is keeping +Fletcher up----" + +"I am not afraid of Fletcher, Lucy." + +"Oh! but I am," she said. "I will tell you about it to-morrow. There is +nothing in the least settled, only Jock thought----" + +"Settled!" Sir Tom said, with a curious look. "No, I hope not." + +"Oh! nothing at all settled," said Lucy. She stood restlessly, now on +one foot now on the other, eager for flight. She did not even observe +the implied authority in this remark, at which Jock pricked up his ears +with incipient offence. "And Jock ought to be in bed--oh, yes, Jock, you +ought. I am sure you are not allowed to sit up so late at school. Come +now, there's a good boy--and I will just run and see how baby is." + +She put her hand on her brother's arm to take him away with her, but +Jock hung back, and Sir Tom interposed, "Now that I have just settled +myself for a chat, you had better leave Jock with me at least, Lucy. Run +away to your baby, that is all right. Jock and I will entertain each +other. I respect his youth, you see, and don't try to seduce him into a +cigar--you should be thankful to me for that." + +"If I was not in sixth form," said Jock sharply, nettled by this +indignity, "I should smoke; but it is bad form when you are high up in +school. In the holidays I don't mind," he added, with careless +grandeur, upon which Sir Tom, mollified, laughed as Lucy felt like +himself. + +"Off duty, eh?" he said, "that's a very fine sentiment, Jock. You may be +sure it's bad form to do anything you have promised not to do. You will +say that sounds like a copy-book. Come now, Lucy, are not you going, +little woman? Do you want to have your share in the moralities?" + +For this sudden change had somehow quenched Lucy's desire both to +inspect the baby and get to bed. But what could she do? She looked very +earnestly at Jock as she bade him good-night, but neither could she +shake his respect for her husband by giving him any warning, nor offend +her husband by any appearance of secret intelligence with Jock. Poor +little Lucy went away after this through the stately rooms and up the +grand staircase with a great tremor in her heart. There could not be a +life more guarded and happy than hers had been--full of wealth, full of +love, not a crumpled rose-leaf to disturb her comfort. But as she stole +along the dim corridor to the nursery her heart was beating full of all +the terrors that make other hearts to ache. She was afraid for the +child's life, which was the worst of all, and looked with a suppressed +yet terrible panic into the dark future which contained she knew not +what for him. And she was afraid of her husband, the kindest man in the +world, not knowing how he might take the discovery he had just made, +fearing to disclose her mind to him, finding herself guilty in the mere +idea of hiding anything from him. And she was afraid of Jock, that he +would irritate Sir Tom, or be irritated by him, or that some wretched +breach or quarrel might arise between these two. Jock was not an +ordinary boy; there was no telling how he might take any reproof that +might be addressed to him--perhaps with the utmost reasonableness, +perhaps with a rapid defiance. Lady Randolph thus, though no harm had +befallen her, had come into the usual heritage of humanity, and was as +anxious and troubled as most of us are; though she was so happy and well +off. She was on thorns to know what was passing in the room she had just +left. + +This was all that passed. Jock, standing up against the mantelpiece, +looked down somewhat lowering upon Sir Tom in the easy chair. He +expected to be questioned, and had made up his mind, though with great +indignation at the idea that any one should find fault with Lucy, to +take the whole blame upon himself. That Lucy should not be free to carry +out her duty as seemed to her best was to Jock intolerable. He had put +his boyish faith in her all his life. Even since the time, a very early +one, when Jock had felt himself much cleverer than Lucy; even when he +had been obliged to make up his mind that Lucy was not clever at all--he +had still believed in her. She had a mission in the world which +separated her from other women. Nobody else had ever had the same thing +to do. Many people had dispensed charities and founded hospitals, but +Lucy's office in the world was of a different description--and Jock had +faith in her power to do it. To see her wavering was trouble to him, and +the discovery he had just made of something beneath the surface, a +latent opposition in her husband which she plainly shrank from +encountering, gave the boy a shock from which it was not easy to +recover. He had always liked Sir Tom; but if---- One thing, however, was +apparent, if there was any blame, anything to find fault with, it was +he, Jock, and not Lucy, that must bear that blame. + +"So, Jock, Lucy thinks you should be in bed. When do they put out your +lights at school? In my time we were up to all manner of tricks. I +remember a certain dark lantern that was my joy; but that was in old +Keate's time, you know, who never trusted the fellows. You are under a +better rule now." + +This took away Jock's breath, who had been prepared for a sterner +interrogation. He answered with a sudden blush, but with the rallying of +all his forces: "I light them again sometimes. It's hard on a fellow, +don't you think, sir, when he's not sleepy and has a lot to do?" + +"I never had much experience of that," said Sir Tom. "We were always +sleepy, and never did anything in my time. It was for larking, I'm +afraid, that we wanted light. And so it is seen on me, Jock. You will be +a fellow of your college, whereas I----" + +"I don't think so," said Jock generously. "That construe you gave me, +don't you remember, last half? MTutor says it is capital. He says he +couldn't have done it so well. Of course, that is his modest way," the +boy added, "for everybody knows there isn't such another scholar! but +that's what he says." + +Sir Tom laughed, and a slight suffusion of colour appeared on his face. +He was pleased with this unexpected applause. At five-and-forty, after +knocking about the world for years, and "never opening a book," as +people say, to have given a good "construe" is a feather in one's cap. +"To be second to your tutor is all a man has to hope for," he said, with +that mellow laugh which it was so pleasant to hear. "I hope I know my +place, Jock. We had no such godlike beings in my time. Old Puck, as we +used to call him, was my tutor. He had a red nose, which was the chief +feature in his character. He looked upon us all as his natural enemies, +and we paid him back with interest. Did I ever tell of that time when we +were going to Ascot in a cab, four of us, and he caught sight of the +turn-out?" + +"I don't think so," said Jock, with a little hesitation. He remembered +every detail of this story, which indeed Sir Tom had told him perhaps +more than once; for in respect to such legends the best of us repeat +ourselves. Many were the thoughts in the boy's mind as he stood against +the mantelpiece and looked down upon the man before him, going over with +much relish the tale of boyish mischief, the delight of the urchins and +the pedagogue's discomfiture. Sir Tom threw himself back in his chair +with a peal of joyous laughter. + +"Jove! I think I can see him now with the corners of his mouth all +dropped, and his nose like a beacon," he cried. Jock meanwhile looked +down upon him very gravely, though he smiled in courtesy. He was a +different manner of boy from anything Sir Tom could ever have been, and +he wondered, as young creatures will, over the little world of mystery +and knowledge which was shut up within the elder man. What things he had +done in his life--what places he had seen! He had lived among savages, +and fought his way, and seen death and life. Jock, only on the +threshold, gazed at him with a curious mixture of awe and wonder and +kind contempt. He would himself rather look down upon a fellow (he +thought) who did that sort of practical joke now. MTutor would regard +such an individual as a natural curiosity. And yet here was this man who +had seen so much, and done so much, who ought to have profited by the +long results of time, and grown to such superiority and mental +elevation--here was he, turning back with delight to the schoolboy's +trick. It filled Jock with a great and compassionate wonder. But he was +a very civil boy. He was one who could not bear to hurt a +fellow-creature's feelings, even those of an old duffer whose +recollections were all of the bygone ages. So he did his best to laugh. +And Sir Tom enjoyed his own joke so much that he did not know that it +was from the lips only that his young companion's laugh came. He got up +and patted Jock on the shoulders with the utmost benevolence when this +pastime was done. + +"They don't indulge in that sort of fooling nowadays," he said. "So much +the better--though I don't know that it did us much harm. Now come +along, let us go to bed, according to my lady's orders. We must all, you +know, do what Lucy tells us in this house." + +Jock obeyed, feeling somewhat "shut up," as he called it, in a sort of +blank of confused discomfiture. Sir Tom had the best of it, by whatever +means he attained that end. The boy had intended to offer himself a +sacrifice, to brave anything that an angry man could say to him for +Lucy's sake, and at the same time to die if necessary for Lucy's right +to carry out her father's will, and accomplish her mission uninterrupted +and untrammelled. When lo, Sir Tom had taken to telling him schoolboy +stories, and sent him to bed with good-humoured kindness, without +leaving him the slightest opening either to defend Lucy or take blame +upon himself. He was half angry, and humbled in his own esteem, but +there was nothing for it but to submit. Sir Tom for his part, did not go +to bed. He went and smoked a lonely cigar, and his face lost its genial +smile. The light of it, indeed, disappeared altogether under a cloud, as +he sat gravely over his fire and puffed the smoke away. He had the air +of a man who had a task to do which was not congenial to him. "Poor +little soul," he said to himself. He could not bear to vex her. There +was nothing in the world that he would have grudged to his wife. Any +luxury, any adornment that he could have procured for her he would have +jumped at. But it was his fate to be compelled to oppose and subdue her +instead. The only thing was to do it quickly and decisively, since done +it must be. If she had been a warrior worthy of his steel, a woman who +would have defended herself and held her own, it would have been so much +more easy; but it was not without a compunction that Sir Tom thought of +the disproportion of their forces, of the soft and compliant creature +who had never raised her will against his or done other than accept his +suggestions and respond to his guidance. He remembered how Lucy had +stuck to her colours before her marriage, and how she had vanquished the +unwilling guardians who regarded what they thought the squandering of +her money with a consternation and fury that were beyond bounds. He had +thought it highly comic at the time, and even now there passed a gleam +of humour over his face at the recollection. He could not deny himself a +smile when he thought it all over. She had worsted her guardians, and +thrown away her money triumphantly, and Sir Tom had regarded the whole +as an excellent joke. But the recollection of this did not discourage +him now. He had no thought that Lucy would stand out against him. It +might vex her, however, dear little woman. No doubt she and Jock had +been making up some fine Quixotic plans between them, and probably it +would be a shock to her when her husband interfered. He had got to be so +fond of his little wife, and his heart was so kind, that he could not +bear the idea of vexing Lucy. But still it would have to be done. He +rose up at last, and threw away the end of his cigar with a look of +vexation and trouble. It was necessary, but it was a nuisance, however. +"If it were done when 'tis done, then 'twere well it were done quickly," +he said to himself; then laughed again, as he took his way upstairs, at +the over-significance of the words. He was not going to murder anybody; +only when the moment proved favourable, for once and only once, seeing +it was inevitable, he had to bring under lawful authority--an easy +task--the gentle little feminine creature who was his wife. + + + + +CHAPTER XII. + +THE FIRST STRUGGLE. + + +Lucy knew nothing of this till the next forenoon after breakfast, and +after the many morning occupations which a lady has in her own house. +She looked wistfully at both her brother and her husband when they met +at table, and it was a great consolation to her, and lightening of her +heart, when she perceived that they were quite at ease with each other; +but still she was burning with curiosity to know what had passed. Sir +Tom had not said a word. He had been just as usual, not even looking a +consciousness of the unexplained question between them. She was glad and +yet half sorry that all was about to blow over, and to be as if it had +not been. After going so far, perhaps it would have been better that it +had gone farther and that the matter had been settled. This she said to +herself in the security of a respite, believing that it had passed away +from Sir Tom's mind. She wanted to know, and yet she was afraid to ask, +for her heart revolted against asking questions of Jock which might +betray to him the fear of a possible quarrel. After she had +superintended little Tom's toilet, and watched him go out for his walk +(for the weather was very mild for the time of the year), and seen Mrs. +Freshwater, the housekeeper, and settled about the dinner, always with a +little quiver of anxiety in her heart, she met Jock by a happy chance, +just as she was about to join Lady Randolph in the drawing-room. She +seized his arm with energy, and drew him within the door of the library; +but after she had done this with an eagerness not to be disguised, Lucy +suddenly remembered all that it was inexpedient for her to betray to +Jock. Accordingly she stopped short, as it were, on the threshold, and +instead of saying as she had intended, "What did he say to you?" dropped +down into the routine question, "Where are you going--were you going +out?" + +"I shall some time, I suppose. What do you grip a fellow's arm for like +that? and then when I thought you had something important to say to me, +only asking am I going out?" + +"Yes, clear," said Lucy, recovering herself with an effort. "You don't +take enough exercise. I wish you would not be always among the books." + +"Stuff, Lucy!" said Jock. + +"I am sure Tom thinks the same. He was telling me--now didn't he say +something to you about it last night?" + +"That's all bosh," said the boy. "And if you want to know what he said +to me last night, he just said nothing at all, but told me old stories +of school that I've heard a hundred times. These old d---- fellows," +(Jock did not swear; he was going to say duffers, that was all) "always +talk like that. One would think they had not had much fun in their life +when they are always turning back upon school," Jock added, with fine +sarcasm. + +"Oh, only stories about school!" said Lucy with extreme relief. But the +next moment she was not quite so sure that she was comfortable about +this entire ignoring of a matter which Sir Tom had seemed to think so +grave. "What sort of stories?" she said dreamily, pursuing her own +thoughts without much attention to the answer. + +"Oh, that old stuff about Ascot and about the old master that stopped +them. It isn't much. I know it," said Jock, disrespectfully, "as well as +I know my a, b, c." + +"It is very rude of you to say so, Jock." + +"Perhaps it is rude," the boy replied, with candour; but he did not +further explain himself, and Lucy, to veil her mingled relief and +disquietude, dismissed him with an exhortation to go out. + +"You read and read," she cried, glad to throw off a little excitement in +this manner, though she really felt very little anxiety on the subject, +"till you will be all brains and nothing else. I wish you would use your +legs a little too." And then, with a little affectionate push away from +her, she left him in undisturbed possession of his books, and the +morning, which, fine as it was, was not bright enough to tempt him away +from them. + +Then Lucy pursued her way to the drawing-room: but she had not gone many +steps before she met her husband, who stopped and asked her a question +or two. Had the boy gone out? It was so fine it would do him good, poor +little beggar; and where was her ladyship going? When he heard she was +going to join the Dowager, Sir Tom smilingly took her hand and drew it +within his own. "Then come here with me for a minute first," he said. +And strange to say, Lucy had no fear. She allowed him to have his way, +thinking it was to show her something, perhaps to ask her advice on some +small matter. He took her into a little room he had, full of trophies of +his travels, a place more distinctively his own than any other in the +house. When he had closed the door a faint little thrill of alarm came +over her. She looked up at him wondering, inquiring. Sir Tom took her by +her arms and drew her towards him in the full light of the window. "Come +and let me look at you, Lucy," he said. "I want to see in your eyes what +it is that makes you afraid of me." + +She met his eyes with great bravery and self-command, but nothing could +save her from the nervous quiver which he felt as he held her, or from +the tell-tale ebb and flow of the blood from her face. "I--I am not +afraid of you, Tom." + +"Then have you ceased to trust me, Lucy? How is it that you discuss the +most important matters with Jock, who is only a boy, and leave me out? +You do not think that can be agreeable to me." + +"Tom," she said; then stopped short, her voice being interrupted by the +fluttering of her heart. + +"I told you: you are afraid. What have I ever done to make my wife +afraid of me?" he said. + +"Oh, Tom, it is not that! it is only that I felt--there has never been +anything said, and you have always done all, and more than all, that I +wished; but I have felt that you were opposed to me in one thing. I may +be wrong, perhaps," she added, looking up at him suddenly with a +catching of her breath. + +Sir Tom did not say she was wrong. He was very kind, but very grave. "In +that case," he said, "Lucy, my love, don't you think it would have been +better to speak to me about it, and ascertain what were my objections, +and why I was opposed to you--rather than turn without a word to another +instead of me?" + +"Oh!" cried Lucy, "I could not. I was a coward. I could not bear to make +sure. To stand against you, how could I do it? But if you will hear me +out, Tom, I never, never turned to another. Oh! what strange words to +say. It was not another. It was Jock, only Jock; but I did not turn even +to him. It was he who brought it forward, and I---- Now that we have +begun to talk about it, and it cannot be escaped," cried Lucy, with +sudden nervous boldness, freeing herself from his hold, "I will own +everything to you, Tom. Yes, I was afraid. I would not, I could not do +it, for I could feel that you were against it. You never said anything; +is it necessary that you should speak for me to understand you? but I +knew it all through. And to go against you and do something you did not +like was more than I could face. I should have gone on for years, +perhaps, and never had courage for it," she cried. She was tingling all +over with excitement and desperate daring now. + +"My darling," said Sir Tom, "it makes me happier to think that it was +not me you were afraid of, but only of putting yourself in opposition to +me; but still, Lucy, even that is not right, you know. Don't you think +that it would be better that we should talk it over, and that I should +show you my objections to this strange scheme you have in your head, and +convince you----" + +"Oh!" cried Lucy, stepping back a little and putting up her hands as if +in self-defence, "that was what I was most frightened for." + +"What, to be convinced?" he laughed: but his laugh jarred upon her in +her excited state. "Well, that is not at all uncommon; but few people +avow it so frankly," he said. + +She looked up at him with appealing eyes. "Oh, Tom," she cried, "I fear +you will not understand me now. I am not afraid to be convinced. I am +afraid of what you will think when you know that I cannot be convinced. +Now," she said, with a certain calm of despair, "I have said it all." + +To her astonishment her husband replied by a sudden hug and a laugh. +"Whether you are accessible to reason or not, you are always my dear +little woman," he said. "I like best to have it out. Do you know, Lucy, +that it is supposed your sex are all of that mind? You believe what you +like, and the reason for your faith does not trouble you. You must not +suppose that you are singular in that respect." + +To this she listened without any response at all either in words or +look, except, perhaps, a little lifting of her eyelids in faint +surprise; for Lucy was not concerned about what was common to her sex. +Nor did she take such questions at all into consideration. Therefore, +this speech sounded to her irrelevant; and so quick was Sir Tom's +intelligence that, though he made it as a sort of conventional +necessity, he saw that it was irrelevant too. It might have been all +very well to address a clever woman who could have given him back his +reply in such words. But to Lucy's straightforward, simple, limited +intellect such dialectics were altogether out of place. Her very want of +capacity to understand them made them a disrespect to her which she had +done nothing to deserve. He coloured in his quick sense of this, and +sudden perception that his wife in the limitation of her intellect and +fine perfection of her moral nature was such an antagonist as a man +might well be alarmed to meet, more alarmed even than she generously was +to displease him. + +"I beg your pardon, Lucy," he said, "I was talking to you as if you were +one of the ordinary people. All this must be treated between you and me +on a different footing. I have a great deal more experience than you +have, and I ought to know better. You must let me show you how it +appears to me. You see I don't pretend not to know what the point was. I +have felt for a long time that it was one that must be cleared up +between you and me. I never thought of Jock coming in," he said with a +laugh. "That is quite a new and unlooked-for feature; but begging his +pardon, though he is a clever fellow, we will leave Jock out of the +question. He can't be supposed to have much knowledge of the world." + +"No," said Lucy, with a little suspicion. She did not quite see what +this had to do with it, nor what course her husband was going to adopt, +nor indeed at all what was to follow. + +"Your father's will was a very absurd one," he said. + +At this Lucy was slightly startled, but she said after a moment, "He did +not think what hard things he was leaving me to do." + +"He did not think at all, it seems to me," said Sir Tom; "so far as I +can see he merely amused himself by arranging the world after his +fashion, and trying how much confusion he could make. I don't mean to +say anything unkind of him. I should like to have known him: he must +have been a character. But he has left us a great deal of botheration. +This particular thing, you know, that you are driving yourself crazy +about is sheer absurdity, Lucy. Solomon himself could not do it,--and +who are you, a little girl without any knowledge of the world, to see +into people's hearts, and decide whom it is safe to trust?" + +"You are putting more upon me than poor papa did, Tom," said Lucy, a +little more cheerfully. "He never said, as we do in charities, that it +was to go to deserving people. I was never intended to see into their +hearts. So long as they required it and got the money, that was all he +wanted." + +"Well, then, my dear," said Sir Tom, "if your father in his great sense +and judgment wanted nothing but to get rid of the money, I wonder he did +not tell you to stand upon Beachy Head or Dover Cliff on a certain day +in every year and throw so much of it into the sea--to be sure," he +added with a laugh, "that would come to very much the same thing--for +you can't annihilate money, you can only make it change hands--and the +London roughs would soon have found out your days for this wise purpose +and interrupted it somehow. But it would have been just as sensible. +Poor little woman! Here I am beginning to argue, and abusing your poor +father, whom, of course, you were fond of, and never so much as offering +you a chair! There is something on every one of them, I believe. Here, +my love, here is a seat for you," he said, displacing a box of +curiosities and clearing a corner for her by the fire. But Lucy resisted +quietly. + +"Wouldn't it do another time, Tom?" she said with a little anxiety, "for +Aunt Randolph is all by herself, and she will wonder what has become of +me; and baby will be coming back from his walk." Then she made a little +pause, and resumed again, folding her hands, and raising her mild eyes +to his face. "I am very sorry to go against you, Tom. I think I would +rather lose all the money altogether. But there is just one thing, and +oh, do not be angry! I must carry out papa's will if I were to die!" + +Her husband, who had begun to enter smilingly upon this discussion, with +a certainty of having the best of it, and who had listened to her +smilingly in her simple pleas for deferring the conversation, pleas +which he was very willing to yield to, was so utterly taken by surprise +at this sudden and most earnest statement, that he could do nothing but +stare at her, with a loud alarmed exclamation, "Lucy!" and a look of +utter bewilderment in his face. But she stood this without flinching, +not nervous as many a woman might have been after delivering such a +blow, but quite still, clasping her hands in each other, facing him with +a desperate quietness. Lucy was not insensible to the tremendous nature +of the utterance she had just made. + +"This is surprising, indeed, Lucy," cried Sir Tom. He grew quite pale in +that sensation of being disobeyed, which is one of the most disagreeable +that human nature is subject to. He scarcely knew what to reply to a +rebellion so complete and determined. To see her attitude, the look of +her soft girlish face (for she looked still younger than her actual +years), the firm pose of her little figure, was enough to show that it +was no rash utterance, such as many a combatant makes, to withdraw from +it one hour after. Sir Tom, in his amazement, felt his very words come +back to him; he did not know what to say. "Do you mean to tell me," he +said, almost stammering in his consternation, "that whatever I may think +or advise, and however mad this proceeding may be, you have made up your +mind to carry it out whether I will or not?" + +"Tom! in every other thing I will do what you tell me. I have always +done what you told me. You know a great deal better than I do, and never +more will I go against you; but I knew papa before I knew you. He is +dead; I cannot go to him to ask him to let me off, to tell him you don't +like it, or to say it is more than I can do. If I could I would do that. +But he is dead: all that he can have is just that I should be faithful +to him. And it is not only that he put it in his will, but I gave him my +promise that I would do it. How could I break my promise to one that is +dead, that trusted in me? Oh, no, no! It will kill me if you are angry; +but even then, even then, I must do what I promised to papa." + +The tears had risen to her eyes as she spoke: they filled her eyelids +full, till she saw her husband only through two blinding seas: then they +fell slowly one after another upon her dress: her face was raised to +him, her features all moving with the earnestness of her plea. The +anguish of the struggle against her heart, and desire to please him, was +such that Lucy felt what it was to be faithful till death. As for Sir +Tom, it was impossible for such a man to remain unmoved by emotion so +great. But it had never occurred to him as possible that Lucy could +resist his will, or, indeed, stand for a moment against his injunction; +he had believed that he had only to say to her, "You must not do it," +and that she would have cried, but given way. He felt himself utterly +defeated, silenced, put out of consideration. He did nothing but stare +and gasp at her in his consternation; and, more still, he was betrayed. +Her gentleness had deceived him and made him a fool; his pride was +touched, he who was supposed to have no pride. He stood silent for a +time, and then he burst out with a sort of roar of astonished and angry +dismay. + +"Lucy, do you mean to tell me that you will disobey me?" he cried. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII. + +AN IDLE MORNING. + + +The Dowager Lady Randolph had never found the Hall so dull. There was +nothing going on, nothing even to look forward to: one formal +dinner-party was the only thing to represent that large and cordial +hospitality which she was glad to think had in her own time +characterised the period when the Hall was open. She had never pretended +to be fond of the county society. In the late Sir Robert's time she had +not concealed the fact that the less time she spent in it the better she +was pleased. But when she was there, all the county had known it. She +was a woman who loved to live a large and liberal life. It was not so +much that she liked gaiety, or what is called pleasure, as that she +loved to have people about her, to be the dispenser of enjoyment, to +live a life in which there was always something going on. This is a +temperament which meets much censure from the world, and is stigmatised +as a love of excitement, and by many other unlovely names; but that is +hard upon the people who are born with it, and who are in many cases +benefactors to mankind. Lady Randolph's desire was that there should +always be something doing--"a magic lantern at the least," she had said. +Indeed, there can be no doubt that in managing that magic lantern she +would have given as much satisfaction to everybody, and perhaps managed +to enjoy herself as much, as if it had been the first entertainment in +Mayfair. She could not stagnate comfortably, she said; and as so much of +an ordinary woman's life must be stagnation more or less gracefully +veiled, it may be supposed that Lady Randolph had learned the useful +lesson of putting up with what she could get when what she liked was not +procurable. And it was seldom that she had been set down to so languid a +feast as the present. On former occasions a great deal more had been +going on, except the last year, which was that of the baby's birth, on +which occasion Lucy was, of course, out of the way of entertainment +altogether. Lady Randolph had, indeed, found her visits to the Hall +amusing, which was delightful, seeing they were duty visits as well. She +had stayed only a day or two at that time--just long enough to kiss the +baby and talk for half an hour at a time, on two or three distinct +opportunities, to the young mother in very subdued and caressing tones. +And she had been glad to get away again when she had performed this +duty, but yet did not grudge in the least the sacrifice she had made for +her family. The case, however, was quite different now: there was no +reason in the world why they should be quiet. The baby was +delicate!--could there be a more absurd reason for closing your house to +your friends, putting off your Christmas visits, entertaining not at +all, ignoring altogether the natural expectations of the county, which +did not elect a man to be its member in order that he might shut himself +up and superintend his nursery? It was ridiculous, his aunt felt; it +went to her nerves, and made her quite uncomfortable, to see all the +resources of the house, with which she was so well acquainted, wasted +upon four people. It was preposterous--an excellent cook, the best cook +almost she had ever come across, and only four to dine! People have +different ideas of what waste is--there are some who consider all large +expenditure, especially in the entertainment of guests, to be subject to +this censure. But Lady Randolph took a completely different view. The +wickedness of having such a cook and only a family party of four persons +to dine was that which offended her. It was scandalous, it was wicked. +If Lucy meant to live in this way let her return to her bourgeois +existence, and the small vulgar life in Farafield. It was ridiculous +living the life of a nobody here, and in Sir Tom's case was plainly +suicidal. How was he to hold up his face at another election, with the +consciousness that he had done nothing at all for his county, not even +given them a ball, nor so much as a magic lantern, she repeated, +bursting with a reprobation which could scarcely find words? + +All this went through her mind with double force when she found herself +left alone in Lucy's morning-room, which was a bright room opening out +upon the flower garden, getting all the morning sun, and the full +advantage of the flowers when there were any. There were none, it is +true, at this moment, except a few snow-drops forcing their way through +the smooth turf under a tree which stood at the corner of a little bit +of lawn. Lady Randolph was not very fond of flowers, except in their +proper place, which meant when employed in the decoration of rooms in +the proper artistic way, and after the most approved fashion. Thus she +liked sunflowers when they were approved by society, and modest violets +and pansies in other developments of popular taste, but did not for her +own individual part care much which she had, so long as they looked well +in her vases, and "came well" against her draperies and furniture. She +had come down on this bright morning with her work, as it is the proper +thing for a lady to do, but she had no more idea of being left here +calmly and undisturbed to do that work than she had of attempting a +flight into the inviting and brilliant, if cold and frosty, skies. She +sat down with it between the fire and the sunny window, enjoying both +without being quite within the range of either. It was an ideal picture +of a lady no longer young or capable of much out-door life, or personal +emotion; a pretty room; a sunny, soft winter morning, almost as warm as +summer, the sunshine pouring in, a cheerful fire in the background to +make up what was lacking in respect of warmth; the softest of easiest +chairs, yet not too low or demoralising; a subdued sound breaking in now +and then from a distance, which pleasantly betrayed the existence of a +household; and in the midst of all, in a velvet gown, which was very +pretty to look at, and very comfortable to wear, and with a lace cap on +her head that had the same characteristics, a lady of sixty, in perfect +health, rich enough for all her requirements, without even the thought +of a dentist to trouble her. She had a piece of very pretty work in her +hand, the newspapers on the table, books within reach. And yet she was +not content! What a delightful ideal sketch might not be made of such a +moment! How she might have been thinking of her past, sweetly, with a +sigh, yet with a thankful thought of all the good things that had been +hers; of those whom she had loved, and who were gone from earth, as only +awaiting her a little farther on, and of those about her, with such a +tender commendation of them to God's blessing, and cordial desire for +their happiness, as would have reached the height of a prayer. And she +might have been feeling a tranquil pleasure in the material things about +her: the stillness, the warmth, the dreamy quiet, even the pretty work, +and the exemption from care which she had arrived at in the peaceful +concluding chapter of existence. This is what we all like to think of as +the condition of mind and circumstances in which age is best met. But we +are grieved to say that this was not in the least Lady Randolph's pose. +Anything more distasteful to her than this quiet could not be. It was +her principle and philosophy to live in the present. She drew many +experiences from the past, and a vast knowledge of the constitutions and +changes of society; but personally it did not amuse her to think of it, +and the future she declined to contemplate. It had disagreeable things +in it, of that there could be no doubt; and why go out and meet the +disagreeable? It was time enough when it arrived. There was probably +illness, and certainly dying, in it; things which she was brave enough +to face when they came, and no doubt would encounter in quite a +collected and courageous way. But why anticipate them? She lived +philosophically in the day as it came. After all whatever you do or +think, you cannot do much more. Your one day, your hour, is your world. +Acquit yourself fitly in that, and you will be able to encounter +whatever occurs. + +This was the conviction on which Lady Randolph acted. But her pursuit +for the moment was not entertaining; she very quickly tired of her work. +Work is, on the whole, tiresome when there is no particular use in it, +when it is done solely for the sake of occupation, as ladies' work so +often is. It wants a meaning and a necessity to give it interest, and +Lady Randolph's had neither. She worked about ten minutes, and then she +paused and wondered what could have become of Lucy. Lucy was not a very +amusing companion, but she was somebody; and then Sir Tom would come in +occasionally to consult her, to give her some little piece of +information, and for a few minutes would talk and give his relative a +real pleasure. But even Lucy did not come; and soon Lady Randolph became +tired of looking out of the window and then walking to the fire, of +taking up the newspaper and throwing it down again, of doing a few +stitches, then letting the work fall on her lap; and above all, of +thinking, as she was forced to do, from sheer want of occupation. She +listened, and nobody came. Two or three times she thought she heard +steps approaching, but nobody came. She had thought of perhaps going out +since the morning was so fine, walking down to the village, which was +quite within her powers, and of planning several calls which might be +made in the afternoon to take advantage of the fine day. But she became +really fretted and annoyed as the morning crept along. Lucy was losing +even her politeness, the Dowager thought. This is what comes of what +people call happiness! They get so absorbed in themselves, there is no +possibility of paying ordinary attention to other people. At last, after +completely tiring herself out, Lady Randolph got up and put down her +work altogether, throwing it away with anger. She had not lived so long +in its sole company for years, and there is no describing how tired she +was of it. She got up and went out into the other rooms in search of +something to amuse her. Little Tom had just come in, but she did not go +to the nursery. She took care not to expose herself to that. She was +willing to allow that she did not understand babies; and then to see +such a pale little thing the heir of the Randolphs worried her. He ought +to have been a little Hercules; it wounded her that he was so puny and +pale. She went through the great drawing-room, and looked at all the +additions to the furniture and decorations that Tom and Lucy had made. +They had kept a number of the old things; but naturally they had added a +good deal of _bric-à-brac_, of old things that here were new. Then Lady +Randolph turned into the library. She had gone up to one of the +bookcases, and was leisurely contemplating the books, with a keen eye, +too, to the additions which had been made, when she heard a sound near +her, the unmistakable sound of turning over the leaves of a book. Lady +Randolph turned round with a start, and there was Jock, sunk into the +depths of a large chair with a tall folio supported on the arms of it. +She had not seen him when she came in, and, indeed, many people might +have come and gone without perceiving him, buried in his corner. Lady +Randolph was thankful for anybody to talk to, even a boy. + +"Is it you?" she said. "I might have known it could be nobody but you. +Do you never do anything but read?" + +"Sometimes," said Jock, who had done nothing but watch her since she +came into the room. She gave him a sort of half smile. + +"It is more reasonable now than when you were a child," she said; "for I +hear you are doing extremely well at school, and gaining golden +opinions. That is quite as it should be. It is the only way you can +repay Lucy for all she has done for you." + +"I don't think," said Jock, looking at her over his book, "that Lucy +wants to be repaid." + +"Probably not," said Lady Randolph. Then she made a pause, and looked +from him to the book he held, and then to him again. "Perhaps you don't +think," she said, "there is anything to be repaid." + +They were old antagonists; when he was a child and Lucy had insisted on +carrying him with her wherever she went, Lady Randolph had made no +objections, but she had not looked upon Jock with a friendly eye. And +afterwards, when he had interposed with his precocious wisdom, and +worsted her now and then, she had come to have a holy dread of him. But +now things had righted themselves, and Jock had attained an age of which +nobody could be afraid. The Dowager thought, as people are so apt to +think, that Jock was not grateful enough. He was very fond of Lucy, but +he took things as a matter of course, seldom or never remembering that +whereas Lucy was rich, he was poor, and all his luxuries and well-being +came from her. She was glad to take an opportunity of reminding him of +it, all the more as she was of opinion that Sir Tom did not sufficiently +impress this upon the boy, to whom she thought he was unnecessarily +kind. "I suppose," she resumed, after a pause, "that you come here +always in the holidays, and quite consider it as your home?" + +Jock still sat and looked at her across his great folio. He made her no +reply. He was not so ready in the small interchanges of talk as he had +been at eight, and, besides, it was new to him to have the subject +introduced in this way. It is not amusing to plant arrows of this sort +in any one's flesh if they show no sign of any wound, and accordingly +Lady Randolph grew angry as Jock made no reply. "Is it considered good +manners," she said, "at school--when a lady speaks to you that you +should make no answer?" + +"I was thinking," Jock said. "A fellow, whether he is at school, or not, +can't answer all that at once." + +"I hope you do not mean to be impertinent. In that case I should be +obliged to speak to my nephew," said Lady Randolph. She had not intended +to quarrel with Jock. It was only the vacancy of the morning, and her +desire for movement of some sort, that had brought her to this; and now +she grew angry with Lucy as well as with Jock, having gone so much +farther than she had intended to go. She turned from him to the books +which she had been languidly examining, and began to take them out one +after another, impatiently, as if searching for something. Jock sat and +looked at her for some time, with the same sort of deliberate +observation with which he used to regard her when he was a child, seeing +(as she had always felt) through and through her. But presently another +impulse swayed him. He got himself out behind his book, and suddenly +appeared by her side, startling her nerves, which were usually so firm. + +"If you will tell me what you want," he said, "I'll get it for you. I +know where they all are. If it is French you want, they are up there. I +like going up the ladder," he added, half to himself. + +Perhaps it was this confession of childishness, perhaps the unlooked-for +civility, that touched her. She turned round with a subdued half +frightened air, feeling that there was no telling how to take this +strange creature, and said, half apologetically, "I think I should like +a French--novel. They are not--so--long, you know, as the English," and +sat down in the chair he rolled towards her. Jock was at the top of the +ladder in a moment. She watched him, making a little comment in her own +mind about Tom's motive in placing books of this description in such a +place--in order to keep them out of Lucy's way, she said to herself. +Jock brought her down half a dozen to choose from, and even the eye of +Jock, who doubtless knew nothing about them, made Lady Randolph a little +more scrupulous than usual in choosing her book. She was one of those +women who like the piquancy and freedom of French fiction. She would say +to persons of like tastes that the English proprieties were tame beside +the other, and she thought herself old enough to be altogether beyond +any risk of harm. Perhaps this was why she divined Sir Tom's motive in +placing them at the top of the shelves; divined and approved, for though +she read all that came in her way, she would not have liked Lucy to +share that privilege. She said to Jock as he brought them to her, + +"They are shorter than the English. I can't carry three volumes about, +you know; all these are in one; but I should not advise you to take to +this sort of reading, Jock." + +"I don't want to," said Jock, briefly; then he added more gravely, "I +can't construe French like you. I suppose you just open it and go +straight on?" + +"I do," said Lady Randolph, with a smile. + +She was mollified, for her French was excellent, and she liked a little +compliment, of whatever kind. + +"You should give your mind to it; it is the most useful of all +languages," she said. + +"And Lucy is not great at it either," said Jock. + +"That is true, and it is a pity," said Lady Randolph, quite restored to +good-humour. "I would take her in hand myself, but I have so many things +to do. Do you know where she is, for I have not seen her all this +morning?" + +"No more have I," said Jock. "I think they have just gone off somewhere +together. Lucy never minds. She ought to pay a little attention when +there are people in the house." + +"That is just what I have been thinking," Lady Randolph said. "I am at +home, of course, here; it does not matter for me, and you are her +brother--but she really ought; I think I must speak seriously to her." + +"To whom are you going to speak seriously? I hope not to me, my dear +aunt," said Sir Tom, coming in. He did not look quite his usual self. He +was a little pale, and he had an air about him as of some disagreeable +surprise. He had the post-bag in his hand--for there was a post twice a +day--and opened it as he spoke. Lady Randolph, with her quick +perception, saw at once that something had happened, and jumped at the +idea of a first quarrel. It was generally the butler Williams who opened +the letter-bag; but he was out of the way, and Sir Tom had taken the +office on himself. He took out the contents with a little impatience, +throwing across to her her share of the correspondence. "Hallo," he +said. "Here is a letter for Lucy from your tutor, Jock. What have you +been doing, my young man?" + +"Oh, I know what it's about," Jock said in a tone of satisfaction. Sir +Tom turned round and looked at him with the letter in his hand, as if he +would have liked to throw it at his head. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV. + +AN UNWILLING MARTYR. + + +Lucy came into the morning-room shortly after, a little paler than +usual, but with none of the agitation about her which Lady Randolph +expected from Sir Tom's aspect to see. Lucy was not one to bear any +outward traces of emotion. When she wept her eyes recovered rapidly, and +after half an hour were no longer red. She had a quiet respect for other +people, and a determination not to betray anything which she could not +explain, which had the effect of that "proper pride" which is inculcated +upon every woman, and yet was something different. Lucy would have died +rather than give Lady Randolph ground to suppose that she had quarrelled +with her husband, and as she could not explain the matter to her, it was +necessary to efface all signs of perturbation as far as that was +possible. The elder lady was reading her letters when Lucy came in, but +she raised her eyes at once with the keenest watchfulness. Young Lady +Randolph was pale--but at no time had she much colour. She came in +quite simply, without any explanation or giving of reasons, and sat down +in her usual place near the window, from which the sunshine, as it was +now afternoon, was beginning to die away. Then Lucy gave a slight start +to see a letter placed for her on the little table beside her work. She +had few correspondents at any time, and when Jock and Lady Randolph were +both at the Hall received scarcely any letters. She took it up and +looked at its outside with a little surprise. + +"I forgot to tell you, Lucy," the Dowager said at this point, "that +there was a letter for you. Tom placed it there. He said it was from +Jock's tutor, and I hope sincerely, my dear, it does not mean that Jock +has got into any scrape----" + +"A scrape," said Lucy, "why should he have got into a scrape?" in +unbounded surprise; for this was a thing that never had happened +throughout Jock's career. + +"Oh, boys are so often in trouble," Lady Randolph said, while Lucy +opened her letter in some trepidation. But the first words of the letter +disturbed her more than any story about Jock was likely to do. It +brought the crisis nearer, and made immediate action almost +indispensable. It ran as follows:-- + + "Dear Lady Randolph--In accordance with Jock's request, which he + assured me was also yours, I have made all the inquiries you wished + about the Churchill family. It was not very difficult to do, as + there is but one voice in respect to them. Mr. Churchill himself is + represented to me as a model of all that a clergyman ought to be. + Whatever we may think of his functions, that he should have all the + virtues supposed to be attached to them is desirable in every point + of view; and he is a gentleman of good sense and intelligence + besides, which is not always implied even in the character of a + saint. It seems that the failure of an inheritance, which he had + every reason to expect, was the cause of his first disadvantage in + the world; and since then, in consonance with that curious natural + law which seems so contrary to justice, yet constantly consonant + with fact, this evil has been cumulative, and he has had nothing + but disappointments ever since. He has a very small living now, and + is never likely to get a better, for he is getting old, and + patrons, I am told, scarcely venture to give a cure to a man of his + age lest it should be said they were gratifying their personal + likings at the expense of the people. This seems contrary to + abstract justice in such a case; but it is a doctrine of our time + to which we must all bow. + + "The young people, so far as I know, are all promising and good. + Young Churchill, whom Jock knows, is a boy for whom I have the + greatest regard. He is one whom Goethe would have described as a + beautiful soul. His sisters are engaged in educational work, and + are, I am told, in their way equally high-minded and interesting; + but naturally I know little of the female portion of the family. + + "It is extremely kind of you and Sir Thomas to repeat your + invitation. I hope, perhaps at Easter, if convenient, to be able to + take advantage of it. I hear with the greatest pleasure from Jock + how much he enjoys his renewed intercourse with his home circle. It + will do him good, for his mind is full of the ideal, and it will be + of endless advantage to him to be brought back to the more ordinary + and practical interests. There are very few boys of whom it can be + said that their intellectual aspirations over-balance their + material impulses. As usual he has not only done his work this half + entirely to my satisfaction, but has more than repaid any services + I can render him by the precious companionship of a fresh and + elevated spirit. + + "Believe me, dear Lady Randolph, + "Most faithfully yours, + "MAXIMUS D. DERWENTWATER." + +A long-drawn breath, which sounded like a sigh, burst from Lucy's breast +as she closed this letter. She had, with humility and shrinking, yet +with a certain resolution, disclosed to her husband that when the +occasion occurred she must do her duty according to her father's will, +whether it pleased him or not. She had steeled herself to do this; but +she had prayed that the occasion might be slow to come. Nobody but Jock +knew anything about these Churchills, and Jock was going back to school, +and he was young and perhaps he might forget! But here was another who +would not forget. She read all the recommendations of the family and +their excellences with a sort of despair. Money, it was evident, could +not be better bestowed than in this way. There seemed no opening by +which she could escape; no way of thrusting this act away from her. She +felt a panic seize her. How was she to disobey Tom, how to do a thing of +so much importance, contrary to his will, against his advice? The whole +world around her, the solid walls, and the sky that shone in through the +great window, swam in Lucy's eyes. She drew her breath hard like a +hunted creature; there was a singing in her ears, and a dimness in her +sight. Lady Randolph's voice asking with a certain satisfaction, yet +sympathy, "What is the matter? I hope it is not anything very bad," +seemed to come to her from a distance as from a different world; and +when she added, after a moment, soothingly, "You must not vex yourself +about it, Lucy, if it is just a piece of folly. Boys are constantly in +that way coming to grief:" it was with difficulty that Lucy remembered +to what she could refer. Jock! Ah, if it had been but a boyish folly, +Sir Tom would have been the first to forgive that; he would have opened +his kind heart and taken the offender in, and laughed and persuaded him +out of his folly. He would have been like a father to the boy. To feel +all that, and how good he was; and yet determinedly to contradict his +will and go against him! Oh, how could she do it? and yet what else was +there to do? + +"It is not about Jock," she answered with a faint voice. + +"I beg your pardon, my dear. I was not aware that you knew Jock's tutor +well enough for general correspondence. These gentlemen seem to make a +great deal of themselves now-a-days, but in my time, Lucy----" + +"I do not know him very well, Aunt Randolph. He is only sending me some +information. I wish I might ask you a question," she cried suddenly, +looking into the Dowager's face with earnest eyes. This lady had perhaps +not all the qualities that make a perfect woman, but she had always been +very kind to Lucy. She was not unkind to anybody, although there were +persons, of whom Jock was one, whom she did not like. And in all +circumstances to Lucy, even when there was no immediate prospect that +the Randolph family would be any the better for her, she had always been +kind. + +"As many as you like, my love," she answered, cordially. + +"Yes," said Lucy; "but, dear Aunt Randolph, what I want is that you +should let me ask, without asking anything in return. I want to know +what you think, but I don't want to explain----" + +"It is a strange condition," said Lady Randolph; but then she thought in +her superior experience that she was very sure to find out what this +simple girl meant without explanations. "But I am not inquisitive," she +added, with a smile, "and I am quite willing, dear, to tell you anything +I know----" + +"It is this," said Lucy, leaning forward in her great earnestness; "do +you think a woman is ever justified in doing anything which her husband +disapproves?" + +"Lucy!" cried Lady Randolph, in great dismay, "when her husband is my +Tom, and the thing she wants to do is connected with Jock's tutor----" + +Lucy's gaze of astonishment, and her wondering repetition of the words, +"connected with Jock's tutor!" brought Lady Randolph to herself. In +society, such a suspicion being fostered by all the gossips, comes +naturally; but though she was a society-woman, and had not much faith in +holy ignorance, she paused here, horrified by her own suggestion, and +blushed at herself. + +"No, no," she said, "that was not what I meant; but perhaps I could not +quite advise, Lucy, where I am so closely concerned." + +At which Lucy looked at her somewhat wistfully. "I thought you would +perhaps remember," she said, "when you were like me, Aunt Randolph, and +perhaps did not know so well as you know now----" + +This touched the elder lady's heart. "Lucy," she said, "my dear, if you +were not as innocent as I know you are, you would not ask your husband's +nearest relation such a question. But I will answer you as one woman to +another, and let Tom take care of himself. I never was one that was very +strong upon a husband's rights. I always thought that to obey meant +something different from the common meaning of the word. A child must +obey; but even a grown-up child's obedience is very different from what +is natural and proper in youth; and a full-grown woman, you know, never +could be supposed to obey like a child. No wise man, for that matter, +would ever ask it or think of it." + +This did not give Lucy any help. She was very willing, for her part, to +accept his light yoke without any restriction, except in the great and +momentous exception which she did not want to specify. + +"I think," Lady Randolph went on, "that to obey means rather--keep in +harmony with your husband, pay attention to his opinions, don't take up +an opposite course, or thwart him, be united--instead of the obedience +of a servant, you know: still less of a slave." + +She was a great deal cleverer than Lucy, who was not thinking of the +general question at all. And this answer did the perplexed mind little +good. Lucy followed every word with curious attention, but at the end +slowly shook her head. + +"It is not that. Lady Randolph, if there was something that was your +duty before you were married, and that is still and always your duty, a +sacred promise you had made; and your husband said no, you must not do +it--tell me what you would have done? The rest is all so easy," cried +Lucy, "one likes what he likes, one prefers to please him. But this is +difficult. What would you have done?" + +Here Lady Randolph all at once, after giving forth the philosophical +view which was so much above her companion, found herself beyond her +depth altogether, and incapable of the fathom of that simple soul. + +"I don't understand you, Lucy. Lucy, for heaven's sake, take care what +you are doing! If it is anything about Jock, I implore of you give way +to your husband. You may be sure in dealing with a boy that he knows +best." + +Lucy sighed. "It is nothing about Jock," she said; but she did not +repeat her demand. Lady Randolph gave her a lecture upon the subject of +relations which was very wide of the question; and, with a sigh, owning +to herself that there was no light to be got from this, Lucy listened +very patiently to the irrelevant discourse. The clever dowager cut it +short when it was but half over, perceiving the same, and asked herself +not without excitement what it was possible Lucy's difficulty could be? +If it was not Jock (and a young brother hanging on to her, with no home +but hers, an inquisitive young intelligence, always in the way, was a +difficulty which anybody could perceive at a glance) what was it? But +Lucy baffled altogether this much experienced woman of the world. + +And Jock watched all the day for an opportunity to get possession of +her, and assail her on the other side of the question. She avoided him +as persistently as he sought her, and with a panic which was very +different from her usual happy confidence in him. But the moment came +when she could elude him no longer. Lady Randolph had gone to her own +room after her cup of tea, for that little nap before dinner which was +essential to her good looks and pleasantness in the evening. Sir Tom, +who was too much disturbed for the usual rules of domestic life, had not +come in for that twilight talk which he usually enjoyed; and as Lucy +found herself thus plunged into the danger she dreaded, she was hurrying +after Lady Randolph, declaring that she heard baby cry, when Jock +stepped into her way, and detained her, if not by physical, at least by +moral force-- + +"Lucy," he said, "are you not going to tell me anything? I know you have +got the letter, but you won't look at me, or speak a word." + +"Oh, Jock, how silly! why shouldn't I look at you? but I have so many +things to do, and baby--I am sure I heard baby cry." + +"He is no more crying than I am. I saw him, and he was as jolly as +possible. I want awfully to know about the Churchills, and what MTutor +says." + +"Jock, I think Mr. Derwentwater is rather grand in his writing. It looks +as if he thought a great deal of himself." + +"No, he doesn't," said Jock, hotly, "not half enough. He's the best man +we've got, and yet he can't see it. You needn't give me any information +about MTutor," added the young gentleman, "for naturally I know all that +much better than you. But I want to know about the Churchills. Lucy, is +it all right?" + +Lucy gave a little shiver though she was in front of the fire. She said, +reluctantly, "I think they seem very nice people, Jock." + +"I know they are," said Jock, exultantly. "Churchill in college is the +nicest fellow I know. He read such a paper at the Poetical Society. It +was on the Method of Sophocles; but of course you would not understand +that." + +"No, dear," said Lucy, mildly; and again she murmured something about +the baby crying, "I think indeed, Jock, I must go." + +"Just a moment," said the boy, "Now you are satisfied couldn't we drive +into Farafield to-morrow and settle about it? I want to go with you, you +and I together, and if old Rushton makes a row you can just call me." + +"But I can't leave Lady Randolph, Jock," cried Lucy, driven to her wits' +end. "It would be unkind to leave her, and a few days cannot do much +harm. When she has gone away----" + +"I shall be back at school. Let Sir Tom take her out for once. He might +as well drive her in his new phaeton that he is so proud of. If it is +fine she'll like that, and we can say we have some business." + +"Oh! Jock, don't press me so; a few days can't make much difference." + +"Lucy," said Jock, sternly, "do you think it makes no difference to keep +a set of good people unhappy, just to save you a little trouble? I +thought you had more heart than that." + +"Oh, let me go, Jock; let me go--that is little Tom, and he wants me," +Lucy cried. She had no answer to make him--the only thing she could do +was to fly. + + + + +CHAPTER XV. + +ON BUSINESS. + + +Ten thousand pounds! These words have very different meanings to +different people. Many of us can form little idea of what those simple +syllables contain. They enclose as in a golden casket, rest, freedom +from care, bounty, kindness, an easy existence, and an ending free of +anxiety to many. To others they are nothing more than a cipher on paper, +a symbol without any connection with themselves. To some it is great +fortune, to others a drop in the ocean. A merchant will risk it any day, +and think but little if the speculation is a failure. A prodigal will +throw it away in a month, perhaps in a night. But the proportion of +people to whom its possession would make all the difference between +poverty and wealth far transcends the number of those who are careless +of it. It is a pleasure to deal with such a sum of money even on paper. +To be concerned in giving it away, makes even the historian, who has +nothing to do with it, feel magnificent and all-bounteous. Jock, who had +as little experience to back him as any other boy of his age, felt a +vague elation as he drove in by Lucy's side to Farafield. To confer a +great benefit is always sweet. Perhaps if we analyse it, as is the +fashion of the day, we will find that the pleasure of giving has a +_fond_ of gratified vanity and self-consideration in it; but this +weakness is at least supposed to be generous, and Jock was generous to +his own consciousness, and full of delight at what was going to be done, +and satisfaction with his own share in it. But Lucy's sensations were +very different. She went with him with no goodwill of her own, like a +culprit being dragged to execution. Duty is not always willing, even +when we see it most clearly. Young Lady Randolph had a clear conviction +of what she was bound to do, but she had no wish to do it, though she +was so thoroughly convinced that it was incumbent upon her. Could she +have pushed it out of her own recollection, banished it from her mind, +she would have gladly done so. She had succeeded for a long time in +doing this--excluding the consideration of it, and forgetting the burden +bound upon her shoulders. But now she could forget it no longer--the +thongs which secured it seemed to cut into her flesh. Her heart was sick +with thoughts of the thing she must do, yet revolted against doing. "Oh, +papa, papa!" she said to herself, shaking her head at the grim, +respectable house in which her early days had been passed, as they drove +past it to Mr. Rushton's office. Why had the old man put such a burden +upon her? Why had not he distributed his money himself and left her +poor if he pleased, with at least no unnatural charge upon her heart and +life? + +"Why do you shake your head?" said Jock, who was full of the keenest +observation, and lost nothing. + +He had an instinctive feeling that she was by no means so much +interested in her duty as he was, and that it was his business to keep +her up to the mark. + +"Don't you remember the old house?" Lucy said, "where we used to live +when you were a child? Where poor papa died--where----" + +"Of course I remember it. I always look at it when I pass, and think +what a little ass I used to be. But why did you shake your head? That's +what I want to know." + +"Oh, Jock!" Lucy cried; and said no more. + +"That throws very little light on the question," said Jock. "You are +thinking of the difference, I suppose. Well, there is no doubt it's a +great difference. I was a little idiot in those days. I recollect I +thought the circus boy was a sort of little prince, and that it was +grand to ride along like that with all the people staring--the grandest +thing in the world----" + +"Poor little circus boy! What a pretty child he was," said Lucy. And +then she sighed to relieve the oppression on her breast, and said, "Do +you ever wonder, Jock, why people should have such different lots? You +and I driving along here in what we once would have thought such state, +and look, these people that are crossing the road in the mud are just as +good as we are----" + +Jock looked at his sister with a philosophical eye, in which for the +moment there was some contempt. "It is as easy as a, b, c," said Jock; +"it's your money. You might set me a much harder one. Of course, in the +way of horses and carriages and so forth, there is nothing that money +cannot buy." + +This matter-of-fact reply silenced Lucy. She would have asked, perhaps, +why did I have all this money? being in a questioning frame of mind; but +she knew that he would answer shortly because her father made it, and this +was not any more satisfactory. So she only looked at him with wistful eyes +that set many much harder ones, and was silent. Jock himself was too +philosophical to be satisfied with his own reply. + +"You see," he said condescendingly, "Money is the easiest explanation. +If you were to ask me why Sir Tom should be Sir Tom, and that man sweep +a crossing, I could not tell you." + +"Oh," cried Lucy, "I don't see any difficulty about that at all, for Tom +was born to it. You might as well say why should baby be born to be the +heir." + +Jock did not know whether to be indignant or to laugh at this feminine +begging of the question. He stared at her for a moment uncertain, and +then went on as if she had not spoken. "But money is always +intelligible. That's political economy. If you have money, as a matter +of course you have everything that money can buy; and I suppose it can +buy almost everything?" Jock said, reflectively. + +"It cannot buy a moment's happiness," cried Lucy, "nor one of those +things one wishes most for. Oh Jock, at your age don't be deceived like +that. For my part," she cried, "I think it is just the trouble of life. +If it was not for this horrible money----" + +She stopped short, the tears were in her eyes, but she would not betray +to Jock how great was the difficulty in which she found herself. She +turned her head away and was glad to wave her hand to a well known face +that was passing, an acquaintance of old times, who was greatly elated +to find that Lady Randolph in her grandeur still remembered her. Jock +looked on upon all this with a partial comprehension, mingled with +disapproval. He did not quite understand what she meant, but he +disapproved of her for meaning it all the same. + +"Money can't be horrible," he said, "unless it's badly spent: and to say +you can't buy happiness with it is nonsense. If it don't make _you_ +happy to save people from poverty it will make them happy, so somebody +will always get the advantage. What are you so silly about, Lucy? I +don't say money is so very fine a thing. I only say it's intelligible. +If you ask me why a man should be a great deal better than you or me, +only because he took the trouble to be born----" + +"I am not so silly, though you think me so silly, as to ask that," said +Lucy; "that is so easy to understand. Of course you can only be who you +are. You can't make yourself into another person; I hope I understand +that." + +She looked him so sweetly and seriously in the face as she spoke, and +was so completely unaware of any flaw in her reply, that Jock, +argumentative as he was, only gasped and said nothing more. And it was +in this pause of their conversation that they swept up to Mr. Rushton's +door. Mr. Rushton was the town-clerk of Farafield, the most important +representative of legal knowledge in the place. He had been the late Mr. +Trevor's man of business, and had still the greater part of Lucy's +affairs in his hands. He had known her from her childhood, and in the +disturbed chapter of her life before her marriage, his wife had taken a +great deal of notice, as she expressed it, of Lucy: and young Raymond, +who had now settled down in the office as his father's partner (but +never half such a man as his father, in the opinion of the community), +had done her the honour of paying her his addresses. But all that had +passed from everybody's mind. Mrs. Rushton, never very resentful, was +delighted now to receive Lady Randolph's invitation, and proud of the +character of an old friend. And if Raymond occasionally showed a little +embarrassment in Lucy's presence, that was only because he was by nature +awkward in the society of ladies, and according to his own description +never knew what to say. + +"And what can I do for your ladyship this morning?" Mr. Rushton said, +rising from his chair. His private room was very warm and comfortable, +too warm, the visitors thought, as an office always is to people going +in from the fresh air. The fire burned with concentrated heat, and Lucy, +in her furs and suppressed agitation, felt her very brain confused. As +for Jock, he lounged in the background with his hands in his pockets, +reading the names upon the boxes that lined the walls, and now that it +had come to the crisis, feeling truly helpless to aid his sister, and +considerably in the way. + +"It is a very serious business," said Lucy, drawing her breath hard. "It +is a thing you have never liked or approved of, Mr. Rushton, nor any +one," she added, in a faint voice. + +"Dear me, that is very unfortunate," said the lawyer, cheerfully; "but I +don't think you have ever been much disapproved of, Lady Randolph. Come, +there is nothing you can't talk to me about--an old friend. I was in +all your good father's secrets, and I never saw a better head for +business. Why, this is Jock, I believe, grown into a man almost! I +wonder if he has any of his father's talent? Is it about him you want to +consult me? Why, that's perfectly natural, now he's coming to an age to +look to the future," Mr. Rushton said. + +"Oh, no! it is not about Jock. He is only sixteen, and, besides, it is +something that is much more difficult," said Lucy. And then she paused, +and cleared her throat, and put down her muff among Mr. Rushton's +papers, that she might have her hands free for this tremendous piece of +business. Then she said, with a sort of desperation, looking him in the +face: "I have come to get you to--settle some money for me in obedience +to papa's will." + +Mr. Rushton started as if he had been shot. "You don't mean----" he +cried, "You don't mean---- Come, I dare say I am making a mountain out of +a mole-hill, and that what you are thinking of is quite innocent. If not +about our young friend here, some of your charities or improvements? You +are a most extravagant little lady in your improvements, Lady Randolph. +Those last cottages you know--but I don't doubt the estate will reap the +advantage, and it's an outlay that pays; oh, yes, I don't deny it's an +outlay that pays." + +Lucy's countenance betrayed the futility of this supposition long before +he had finished speaking. He had been standing with his back to the +fire, in a cheerful and easy way. Now his countenance grew grave. He +drew his chair to the table and sat down facing her. "If it is not that, +what is it?" he said. + +"Mr. Rushton," said Lucy, and she cleared her throat. She looked back +to Jock for support, but he had his back turned to her, and was still +reading the names on the lawyer's boxes. She turned round again with a +little sigh. "Mr. Rushton, I want to carry out papa's will. You know all +about it. It is codicil F. I have heard of some one who is the right +kind of person. I want you to transfer ten thousand pounds----" + +The lawyer gave a sort of shriek; he bolted out of his chair, pushing it +so far from him that the substantial mahogany shivered and tottered upon +its four legs. + +"Nonsense!" he said, "Nonsense!" increasing the firmness of his tone +until the word thundered forth in capitals, "NONSENSE!--you are going +out of your senses; you don't know what you are saying. I made sure we +had done with all this folly----" + +When it had happened to Lucy to propose such an operation as she now +proposed, for the first time, to her other trustee, she had been spoken +to in a way which young ladies rarely experience. That excellent man of +business had tried to put this young lady--then a very young lady--down, +and he had not succeeded. It may be supposed that at her present age of +twenty-three, a wife, a mother, and with a modest consciousness of her +own place and position, she was not a less difficult antagonist. She was +still a little frightened, and grew somewhat pale, but she looked +steadfastly at Mr. Rushton with a nervous smile. + +"I think you must not speak to me so," she said. "I am not a child, and +I know my father's will and what it meant. It is not nonsense, nor +folly--it may perhaps have been," she said with a little sigh--"not +wise." + +"I beg your pardon, Lady Randolph," Mr. Rushton said precipitately, +with a blush upon his middle-aged countenance, for to be sure, when you +think of it, to tell a gracious young lady with a title, one of your +chief clients, that she is talking nonsense, even if you have known her +all her life, is going perhaps a little too far. "I am sure you will +understand _that_ is what I meant," he cried, "unwise--the very word I +meant. In the heat of the moment other words slip out, but no offence +was intended." + +She made him a little bow; she was trembling, though she would not have +him see it. "We are not here," she said, "to criticise my father." Lucy +was scarcely half aware how much she had gained in composure and the art +of self-command. "I think he would have been more wise and more kind to +have done himself what he thought to be his duty; but what does that +matter? You must not try to convince me, please, but take the +directions, which are very simple. I have written them all down in this +paper. If you think you ought to make independent inquiries, you have +the right to do that; but you will spare the poor gentleman's feelings, +Mr. Rushton. It is all put down here." + +Mr. Rushton took the paper from her hand. He smiled inwardly to himself, +subduing his fret of impatience. "You will not object to let me talk it +over," he said, "first with Sir Tom?" + +Lucy coloured, and then she grew pale. "You will remember," she said, +"that it has nothing to do with my husband, Mr. Rushton." + +"My dear lady," said the lawyer, "I never expected to hear you, who I +have always known as the best of wives, say of anything that it has +nothing to do with your husband. Surely that is not how ladies speak of +their lords?" + +Lucy heard a sound behind her which seemed to imply to her quick ear +that Jock was losing patience. She had brought him with her, with the +idea of deriving some support from his presence; but if Sir Tom had +nothing to do with it, clearly on much stronger grounds neither had her +brother. She turned round and cast a hurried warning glance at him. She +had herself no words ready to reply to the lawyer's gibe. She would +neither defend herself as from a grave accusation, nor reply in the same +tone. "Mr. Rushton," she said faltering, "I don't think we need argue, +need we? I have put down all the particulars. You know about it as well +as I do. It is not for pleasure. If you think it is right, you will +inquire about the gentleman--otherwise--I don't think there need be any +more to say." + +"I will talk it over with Sir Tom," said Mr. Rushton, feeling that he +had found the only argument by which to manage this young woman. He even +chuckled a little to himself at the thought. "Evidently," he said to +himself, "she is afraid of Sir Tom, and he knows nothing about this. He +will soon put a stop to it." He added aloud, "My dear Lady Randolph, +this is far too serious a matter to be dismissed so summarily. You are +young and very inexperienced. Of course I know all about it, and so does +Sir Thomas. We will talk it over between us, and no doubt we will manage +to decide upon some course that will harmonise everything." + +Lucy looked at him with grave suspicion. "I don't know," she said, "what +there is to be harmonised, Mr. Rushton. There is a thing which I have to +do, and I have shrunk from it for a long time; but I cannot do so any +longer." + +"Look here," said Jock, "it's Lucy's affair, it's nobody else's. Just +you look at her paper and do what she says." + +"My young friend," said the lawyer blandly, "that is capital advice for +yourself: I hope you always do what your sister says." + +"Most times I do," said Jock; "not that it's your business to tell me. +But you know very well you'll have to do it. No one has got any right to +interfere with her. She has more sense than a dozen. She has got the +right on her side. You may do what you please, but you know very well +you can't stop her--neither you, nor Sir Tom, nor the old lady, nor one +single living creature; and you know it," said Jock. He confronted Mr. +Rushton with lowering brows, and with an angry sparkle in his deep-set +eyes. Lucy was half proud of and half alarmed by her champion. + +"Oh hush, Jock!" she cried. "You must not speak; you are only a boy. You +must beg Mr. Rushton's pardon for speaking to him so. But, indeed, what +he says is quite true; it is no one's duty but mine. My husband will not +interfere with what he knows I must do," she said, with a little chill +of apprehension. Would he indeed be so considerate for her? It made her +heart sick to think that she was not on this point quite certain about +Sir Tom. + +"In that case there will be no harm in talking it over with him," said +the lawyer briefly. "I thought you were far too sensible not to see that +was the right way. Oh, never mind about his asking my pardon. I forgive +him without that. He has a high idea of his sister's authority, which is +quite right; and so have I--and so have all of us. Certainly, certainly, +Master Jock, she has the right; and she will arrange it judiciously, of +that there is no fear. But first, as a couple of business men, more +experienced in the world than you young philanthropists, I will just, +the first time I see him, talk it over with Sir Tom. My dear Lady +Randolph, no trouble at all. Is that all I can do for you? Then I will +not detain you any longer this fine morning," the lawyer said. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI. + +AN UNEXPECTED ARRIVAL. + + +They drove away again with scarcely a word to each other. It was a +bright, breezy, wintry day. The roads about Farafield were wet with +recent rains, and gleamed in the sunshine. The river was as blue as +steel, and gave forth a dazzling reflection; the bare trees stood up +against the sky without a pretence of affording any shadow. The cold to +these two young people, warmly dressed and prosperous, was nothing to +object to--indeed, it was not very cold. But they both had a slight +sense of discomfiture--a feeling of having suffered in their own +opinion. Jock, who was much regarded at school as a fellow high up, and +a great friend of his tutor, was not used to such unceremonious +treatment, and he was wroth to see that even Lucy was supposed to +require the sanction of Sir Tom for what it was clearly her own business +to do. He said nothing, however, until they had quite cleared the town, +and were skimming along the more open country roads; then he said +suddenly-- + +"That old Rushton has a great deal of cheek. I should have another +fellow to manage my affairs, Lucy, if I were you." + +"Don't you know, Jock, that I can't? Papa appointed him. He is my +trustee; he has always to be consulted. Papa did not mind," said Lucy +with a little sigh. "He said it would be good for me to be contradicted, +and not to have my own way." + +"Don't you have your own way?" said Jock, opening his eyes. "Lucy, who +contradicts you? I should like to know who it was, and tell him my mind +a bit. I thought you did whatever you pleased. Do you mean to say there +is any truth in all that about Sir Tom?" + +"In what about Sir Tom?" cried Lucy, instantly on her defence; and then +she changed her tone with a little laugh. "Of course I do whatever I +please. It is not good for anybody, Jock. Don't you know we must be +crossed sometimes, or we should never do any good at all?" + +"Now I wonder which she means?" said Jock. "If she does have her own way +or if she don't? I begin to think you speak something else than English, +Lucy. I know it is the thing to say that women must do what their +husbands tell them; but do you mean that it's true like _that_? and that +a fellow may order you to do this or not to do that, with what is your +own and not his at all?" + +"I don't think I understand you, dear," said Lucy sweetly. + +"Oh! you can't be such a stupid as that," said the boy; "you understand +right enough. What did he mean by talking it over with Sir Tom? He +thought Sir Tom would put a stop to it, Lucy." + +"If Mr. Rushton forms such false ideas, dear, what does it matter? That +is not of any consequence either to you or me." + +"I wish you would give me a plain answer," said Jock, impatiently. "I +ask you one thing, and you say another; you never give me any +satisfaction." + +She smiled upon him with a look which, clever as Jock was, he did not +understand. "Isn't that conversation?" she said. + +"Conversation!" The boy repeated the word almost with a shriek of +disdain: "You don't know very much about that, down here in the country, +Lucy. You should hear MTutor; when he's got two or three fellows from +Cambridge with him, and they go at it! That's something like talk." + +"It is very nice for you, Jock, that you get on so well with Mr. +Derwentwater," said Lucy, catching with some eagerness at this way of +escape from embarrassing questions. "I hope he will come and see us at +Easter, as he promised." + +"He may," said Jock, with great gravity, "but the thing is, everybody +wants to have him; and then, you see, whenever he has an opportunity he +likes to go abroad. He says it freshens one up more than anything. After +working his brain all the half, as he does, and taking the interest he +does in everything, he has got to pay attention, you know, and not to +overdo it; he must have change, and he must have rest." + +Lucy was much impressed by this, as she was by all she heard of MTutor. +She was quite satisfied that such immense intellectual exertions as his +did indeed merit compensation. She said, "I am sure he would get rest +with us, Jock. There would be nothing to tire him, and whatever I could +do for him, dear, or Sir Tom either, we should be glad, as he is so good +to you." + +"I don't know that he's what you call fond of the country--I mean the +English country. Of course it is different abroad," said Jock +doubtfully. Then he came back to the original subject with a bound, +scattering all Lucy's hopes. "But we didn't begin about MTutor. It was +the other business we were talking of. Is it true that Sir Tom----" + +"Jock," said Lucy seriously. Her mild eyes got a look he had never seen +in them before. It was a sort of dilation of unshed tears, and yet they +were not wet. "If you know any time when Sir Tom was ever unkind or +untrue, I don't know it. He has always, always been good. I don't think +he will change now. I have always done what he told me, and I always +will. But he never told me anything. He knows a great deal better than +all of us put together. Of course, to obey him, that is my first duty. +And I always shall. But he never asks it--he is too good. What is his +will, is my will," she said. She fixed her eyes very seriously on Jock, +all the time she spoke, and he followed every movement of her lips with +a sort of astonished confusion, which it is difficult to describe. When +she had ceased Jock drew a long breath, and seemed to come to the +surface again, after much tossing in darker waters. + +"I think that it must be true," he said slowly, after a pause, "as +people say--that women are very queer, Lucy. I didn't understand one +word you said." + +"Didn't you, then?" she said, with a smile of gentle benignity; "but +what does it matter, when it will all come right in the end? Is that our +omnibus, Jock, that is going along with all that luggage? How curious +that is, for nobody was coming to-day that I know of. Don't you see it +just turning in to the avenue? Now that is very strange indeed," said +Lucy, raising herself very erect upon her cushions with a little +quickened and eager look. An arrival is always exciting in the country, +and an arrival which was quite unexpected, and of which she could form +no surmise as to who it could be, stirred up all her faculties. "I +wonder if Mrs. Freshwater will know what rooms are best?" she said, "and +if Sir Tom will be at home to receive them; or perhaps it may be some +friends of Aunt Randolph's, or perhaps--I wonder very much who it can +be." + +Jock's countenance covered itself quickly with a tinge of gloom. + +"Whoever it is, I know it will be disgusting," cried the boy. "Just when +we have got so much to talk about! and now I shall never see you any +more. Lady Randolph was bad enough, and now here's more of them! I +should just as soon go back to school at once," he said, with premature +indignation. The servants on the box perceived the other carriage in +advance with equal curiosity and excitement. They were still more +startled, perhaps, for a profound wonder as to what horses had been sent +out, and who was driving them, agitated their minds. The horses, +solicited by a private token between them and their driver which both +understood, quickened their pace with a slight dash, and the carriage +swept along as if in pursuit of the larger and heavier vehicle, which, +however, had so much the advance of them, that it had deposited its +passengers, and turned round to the servants' entrance with the luggage, +before Lady Randolph could reach the door. Williams the butler wore a +startled look upon his dignified countenance, as he came out on the +steps to receive his mistress. + +"Some one has arrived," said Lucy with a little eagerness. "We saw the +omnibus." + +"Yes, my lady. A telegram came for Sir Thomas soon after your ladyship +left; there was just time to put in the horses----" + +"But who is it, Williams?" + +Williams had a curious apologetic air. "I heard say, my lady, that it +was some of the party that were invited before Mr. Randolph fell ill. +There had been a mistake about the letters, and the lady has come all +the same--a lady with a foreign title, my lady----" + +"Oh!" said Lucy, with English brevity. She stood startled, in the hall, +lingering a little, changing colour, not with any of the deep emotions +which Williams from his own superior knowledge suspected, but with +shyness and excitement. "It will be the lady from Italy, the +Contessa---- Oh, I hope they have attended to her properly! Was Sir +Thomas at home when she came?" + +"Sir Thomas, my lady, went to meet them at the station," Williams said. + +"Oh, that is all right," cried Lucy, relieved. "I am so glad she did not +arrive and find nobody. And I hope Mrs. Freshwater----" + +"Mrs. Freshwater put the party into the east wing, my lady. There are +two ladies besides the man and the maid. We thought it would be the +warmest for them, as they came from the South." + +"It may be the warmest, but it is not the prettiest," said Lucy. "The +lady is a great friend of Sir Thomas', Williams." + +The man gave her a curious look. + +"Yes, my lady, I was aware of that," he said. + +This surprised Lucy a little, but for the moment she took no notice of +it. "And therefore," she went on, "the best rooms should have been got +ready. Mrs. Freshwater ought to have known that. However, perhaps she +will change afterwards. Jock, I will just run upstairs and see that +everything is right." + +As she turned towards the great staircase, so saying, she ran almost +into her husband's arms. Sir Tom had appeared from a side door, where he +had been on the watch, and it was certain that his face bore some traces +of the new event that had happened. He was not at his ease as usual. He +laughed a little uncomfortable laugh, and put his hand on Lucy's +shoulder as she brushed against him. "There," he said, "that will do; +don't be in such a hurry," arresting her in full career. + +"Oh, Tom!" Lucy for her part looked at her husband with the greatest +relief and happiness. There had been a cloud between them which had been +more grievous to her than anything else in the world. She had felt +hourly compelled to stand up before him and tell him that she must do +what he desired her not to do. The consternation and pain and wrath that +had risen over his face after that painful interview had not passed away +through all the intervening time. There had been a sort of desperation +in her mind when she went to Mr. Rushton, a feeling that she so hated +the duty which had risen like a ghost between her husband and herself, +that she must do it at all hazards and without delay. But this cloud had +now departed from Sir Tom's countenance. There was a little suffusion of +colour upon it which was unusual to him. Had it been anybody but Sir +Tom, it would have looked like embarrassment, shyness mingled with a +certain self-ridicule and sense of the ludicrous in the position +altogether. He caught his wife in his arms and met her eyes with a +certain laughing shamefacedness, "Don't," he said, "be in such a hurry, +Lucy. _Ces dames_ have gone to their rooms; they have been travelling +all night, and they are not fit to be seen. It is only silly little +English girls like you that can bear to be looked at at all times and +seasons." And with this he stooped over her and gave her a kiss on her +forehead, to Lucy's delight, yet horror--before Williams, who looked on +approving, and the footman with the traps, and Jock and all! But what a +load it took off her breast! He was not any longer vexed or disturbed or +angry. He was indeed conciliatory and apologetic, but Lucy only saw that +he was kind. + +"Poor lady," cried Lucy, "has she been travelling all night? And I am so +sorry she has been put into the east wing. If I had been at home I +should have said the blue rooms, Tom, which you know are the nicest----" + +"I think they are quite comfortable, my dear," said Sir Tom, with his +usual laugh, which was half-mocking half-serious, "you may be sure they +will ask for anything they want. They are quite accustomed to making +themselves at home." + +"Oh, I hope so, Tom," said Lucy, "but don't you think it would be more +polite, more respectful, if I were to go and ask if they have +everything? Mrs. Freshwater is very well you know, Tom, but the mistress +of the house----" + +He gave her another little hug, and laughed again. "No," he said, "you +may be sure Madame Forno-Populo is not going to let you see her till she +has repaired all ravages. It was extremely indiscreet of me to go to the +station," he continued, still with that chuckle, leading Lucy away. "I +had forgotten all these precautions after a few years of you, Lucy. I +was received with a shriek of horror and a double veil." + +Lucy looked at him with great surprise, asking: "Why? wasn't she glad to +see you?" with incipient indignation and a sense of grievance. + +"Not at all," cried Sir Tom, "indeed I heard her mutter something about +English savagery. The Contessa expresses herself strongly sometimes. +Freshwater and the maid, and the excellent breakfast Williams has +ordered, knowing her ways----" + +"Does Williams know her ways?" asked Lucy, wondering. There was not the +faintest gleam of suspicion in her mind; but she was surprised, and her +husband bit his lip for a moment, yet laughed still. + +"He knows those sort of people," he said. "I was very much about in +society at one time you must know, Lucy, though I am such a steady old +fellow now. We knew something of most countries in these days. We were +_bien vu_, he and I, in various places. Don't tell Mrs. Williams, my +love." He laughed almost violently at this mild joke, and Lucy looked +surprised. But still no shadow came upon her simple countenance. Lucy +was like Desdemona, and did not believe that there were such women. She +thought it was "fun," such fun as she sometimes saw in the newspapers, +and considered as vulgar as it was foolish. Such words could not be used +in respect to anything Sir Tom said, but even in her husband it was not +good taste, Lucy thought. She smiled at the reference to Mrs. Williams +with a kind of quiet disdain, but it never occurred to her that she too +might require to be kept in the dark. + +"I dare say most of what you are talking is nonsense," she said; "but if +Madame Forno ----"--Lucy was not very sure of the name, and +hesitated--"is really very tired, perhaps it may be kindness not to +disturb her. I hope she will go to bed, and get a thorough rest. Did she +not get your second letter, Tom? and what a thing it is that dear baby +is so much better, and that we can really pay a little attention to +her." + +"Either she did not get my letter, or I didn't write, I cannot say which +it was, Lucy. But now we have got her we must pay attention to her, as +you say. You will have to get up a few dinner parties, and ask some +people to stay. She will like to see the humours of the wilderness while +she is in it." + +"The wilderness--but, Tom, everybody says society is so good in the +county." + +"Everybody does not know the Forno-Populo," cried Sir Tom; and then he +burst out into a great laugh. "I wonder what her Grace will say to the +Contessa; they have met before now." + +"Must we ask the Duchess?" cried Lucy, with awe and alarm, coming a +little nearer to her husband's side. + +But Sir Tom did nothing but laugh. "I've seen a few passages of arms," +he said. "By Jove, you don't know what war is till you see two ---- at +it tooth and nail. Two--what, Lucy? Oh, I mean fine ladies; they have no +mercy. Her Grace will set her claws into the fair countess. And as for +the Forno-Populo herself----" + +"Dear Tom" said Lucy with gentle gravity, "Is it nice to speak of ladies +so? If any one called me the Randolph, I should be, oh, so----" + +"You," cried her husband with a hot and angry colour rising to his very +hair, and then he perceived that he was betraying himself, and paused. +"You see, my love, that's different," he said. "Madame di Forno-Populo +is--an old stager: and you are very young, and nobody ever thought of +you but with--reverence, my dear. Yes, that's the word, Lucy, though you +are only a bit of a girl." + +"Tom," said Lucy with great dignity, "I have you to take care of me, and +I have never been known in the world. But, dear, if this poor lady has +no one--and I suppose she is a widow, is she not, Tom?" + +He had been listening to her almost with emotion--with a half-abashed +look, full of fondness and admiration. But at this question he drew back +a little, with a sort of stagger, and burst into a wild fit of laughter. +When he came to himself wiping his eyes, he was, there could be no +doubt, ashamed of himself. "I beg you ten thousand pardons," he cried. +"Lucy, my darling! Yes, yes--I suppose she is a widow, as you say." + +Lucy looked at him while he laughed, with profound gravity, without the +slightest inclination to join in his merriment, which is a thing which +has a very uncomfortable effect. She waited till he was done, with a +mixture of wonder and disapproval in her seriousness, looking at his +laughter as if at some phenomenon which she did not understand. "I have +often heard gentlemen," she said, "talk about widows as if it were a +sort of laughable name, and as if they might make their jokes as they +pleased. But I did not think you would have done it, Tom. I should feel +all the other way," said Lucy. "I should think I could never do enough +to make it up, if that were possible, and to make them forget. Is it +their fault that they are left desolate, that a man should laugh?" She +turned away from her husband with a soft superiority of innocence and +true feeling which struck him dumb. + +He begged her pardon in the most abject way; and then he left her for a +moment quietly, and had his laugh out. But he was ashamed of himself all +the same. "I wonder what she will say when she sees the Forno-Populo," +he said to himself. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII. + +FOREWARNED. + + +Lucy did not see her visitors till the hour of dinner. She had expected +them to appear in the afternoon at the mystic hour of tea, which calls +an English household together, but when it was represented to her that +afternoon tea was not the same interesting institution in Italy, her +surprise ceased, and though her expectations were still more warmly +excited by this delay, she bore it with becoming patience. There was no +doubt, however, that the arrival had made a great commotion in the +house, and Lucy perceived without in the least understanding it, a +peculiarity in the looks which various of the people around her cast +upon her during the course of the day. Her own maid was one of these +people, and Mrs. Freshwater, the housekeeper, who explained in a +semi-apologetic tone all the preparations she had made for the comfort +of the guests, was another. And Williams, though he was always so +dignified, thought Lucy could not help feeling an eye upon her. He was +almost compassionately attentive to his young mistress. There was a +certain pathos in the way in which he handed her the potatoes at lunch. +He pressed a little more claret upon her with a fatherly anxiety, and an +air that seemed to say, "It will do you good." Lucy was conscious of all +this additional attention without realising the cause of it. But it +found its culmination in Lady Randolph, in whom a slightly-injured and +aggrieved air towards Sir Tom was enhanced by the extreme tenderness of +her aspect to Lucy, for whom she could not do too much. "Williams is +quite right in giving you a little more wine. You take nothing," she +said, "and I am sure you want support. After your long drive, too, my +dear: and how cold it has been this morning!" + +"Yes, it was cold; but we did not mind, we rather liked it, Jock and I. +Poor Madame di Forno-Populo! She must have felt it travelling all +night." + +"Bravo, Lucy, that is right! you have tackled the name at last, and got +through with it beautifully," said Sir Tom with a laugh. + +Lucy was pleased to be praised. "I hope I shan't forget," she said, "it +is so long: and oh, Tom, I do hope she can talk English, for you know my +French." + +"I should think she could talk English!" said Lady Randolph, with a +little scorn. And what was very extraordinary was that Williams showed a +distinct but suppressed consciousness, putting his lips tight as if to +keep in what he knew about the matter. "And I don't think you need be so +sorry for the lady, Lucy," said the dowager. "No doubt she didn't mean +to travel by night. It arose from some mistake or other in Tom's letter. +But she does not mind that, you may be sure, now that she has made out +her point." + +"What point?" said Sir Tom, with some heat. But Lady Randolph made no +reply, and he did not press the question. They were both aware that it +is sometimes better to hold one's tongue. And the curious thing to all +of those well-informed persons was that Lucy took no notice of all their +hints and innuendoes. She was in the greatest spirits, not only +interested about her unknown visitors and anxious to secure their +comfort, but in herself more gay than she had been for some time past. +In fact this arrival was a godsend to Lucy. The cloud had disappeared +entirely from her husband's brow. Instead of making any inquiries about +her visit to Farafield, or resuming the agitating discussion which had +ended in what was really a refusal on her part to do what he wished, he +was full of a desire to conciliate and please her. The matter which had +brought so stern a look to his face, and occasioned her an anxiety and +pain far more severe than anything that had occurred before in her +married life, seemed to have dropped out of his mind altogether. Instead +of that opposition and disapproval, mingled with angry suspicion, which +had been in his manner and looks, he was now on the watch to propitiate +Lucy; to show a gratitude for which she knew no reason, and a pride in +her which was still less comprehensible. What did it all mean, the +compassion on one side, the satisfaction on the other? But Lucy scarcely +asked herself the question. In her relief at having no new discussion +with her husband, and at his apparent forgetfulness of all displeasure +and of any question between them, her heart rose with all the glee of a +child's. It seemed to her that she had surmounted the difficulties of +her position by an intervention which was providential. It even occurred +to her innocent mind to make reflections as to the advantage of doing +what was right in the face of all difficulties. God, she said to +herself, evidently was protecting her. It was known in heaven what an +effort it had cost her to do her duty to fulfil her father's will, and +now heavenly succour was coming, and the difficulties disappearing out +of her way. Lucy would have been ready in any case with the most +unhesitating readiness to receive and do any kindness to her husband's +friend. No idea of jealousy had come into her unsuspicious soul. She had +taken it as a matter of course that this unknown lady should have the +best that the Hall could offer her, and that her old alliance with Sir +Tom should throw open his doors and his wife's heart. Perhaps it was +because Lucy's warm and simple-minded attachment to her husband had +little in it of the character of passion that it was thus entirely +without any impulse of jealousy. And what was so natural in common +circumstances became still more so in the exhilaration and rebound of +her troubled heart. Sir Tom was so kind to her in departing from his +opposition, in letting her have her way without a word. It was certain +that Lucy would not have relinquished her duty for any opposition he had +made. But with what a bleeding heart she would have done it, and how +hateful would have been the necessity which separated her from his +goodwill and assistance! Now she felt that terrible danger was over. +Probably he would not ask her what she had been about. He would not give +it his approval, which would have been most sweet of all, but if he did +not interfere, if he permitted it to be done without opposition, without +even demanding of his wife an account of her action, how much that would +be, and how cordially, with what a genuine impulse of the heart would +she set to work to carry out his wishes--he who had been so generous, so +kind to her! This was how it was that her gaiety, the ease and +happiness of her look, startled them all so much. That she should have +been amiable to the new comers was comprehensible. She was so amiable by +nature, and so ignorant and unsuspicious: but that their coming should +give her pleasure, this was the thing that confounded the spectators: +they could not understand how any other subject should withdraw her from +what is supposed to be a wife's master emotion--nay, they could not +understand how it was that mere instinct had not enlightened Lucy, and +pointed out to her what elements were coming together that would be +obnoxious to her peace. Even Sir Tom felt this, with a deepened +tenderness for his pure-minded little wife, and pride in her +unconsciousness. Was there another woman in England who would have been +so entirely generous, so unaware even of the possibility of evil? He +admired her for it, and wondered--if it was a little silly (which he had +a kind of undisclosed suspicion that it was), yet what a heavenly +silliness. There was nobody else who would have been so magnanimous, so +confident in his perfect honour and truth. + +The only other element that could have added to Lucy's satisfaction was +also present. Little Tom was better than usual. Notwithstanding the cold +he had been able to go out, and was all the brighter for it, not chilled +and coughing as he sometimes was. His mother had found him careering +about his nursery in wild glee, and flinging his toys about, in +perfectly boyish, almost mannish, altogether wicked, indifference to the +danger of destroying them. It was this that brought her downstairs +radiant to the luncheon table, where Lady Randolph and Williams were so +anxious to be good to her. Lucy was much surprised by the solicitude +which she felt to be so unnecessary. She was disposed to laugh at the +care they took of her; feeling in her own mind, more triumphant, more +happy and fortunate, than she had ever been before. + +As for Jock, he took no notice at all of the incident of the day. He +perceived with satisfaction, a point on which for the moment he was +unusually observant, that Sir Tom showed no intention of questioning +them as to their morning's expedition or opposing Lucy. This being the +case, what was it to the boy who went or came? A couple of ladies were +quite indifferent to him. He did not expect anything or fear anything. +His own doings interested him much more. The conversation about this new +subject floated over his head. He did not take the trouble to pay any +attention to it. As for Williams' significant looks or Lady Randolph's +anxieties, Jock was totally unconscious of their existence. He did not +pay any attention. When the party was not interesting he had plenty of +other thoughts to retire into, and the coming of new people, except in +so far as it might be a bore, did not affect him at all. + +Lucy went out dutifully for a drive with Lady Randolph after luncheon. +It was still very bright, though it was cold, and after a little demur +as to the propriety of going out when it was possible her guests might +be coming downstairs, Lucy took her place beside the fur-enveloped +Dowager with her hot water footstool and mountain of wrappings. They +talked about ordinary matters for a little, about the landscape and the +improvements, and about little Tom, whose improvement was the most +important of all. But it was not possible to continue long upon +indifferent matters in face of the remarkable events which had disturbed +the family calm. + +"I hope," said Lucy, "that Madame di Forno-Populo" (she was very +careful about all the syllables) "may not be more active than you think, +and come down while we are away." + +"Oh, there is not the least fear," said Lady Randolph, somewhat +scornfully. "She was always a candle-light beauty. She is not very fond +of the eye of day." + +"She is a beauty, then?" said Lucy. "I am very glad. There are so few. +You know I have always been--rather--disappointed. There are many pretty +people: but to be beautiful is quite different." + +"That is because you are so unsophisticated, my dear. You don't +understand that beauty in society means a fashion, and not much more. I +have seen a quantity of beauties in my day. How they came to be so, +nobody knew; but there they were, and we all bowed down to them. This +woman, however, was very pretty, there was no doubt about it," said Lady +Randolph, with reluctant candour. "I don't know what she may be now. She +was enough to turn any man's head when she was young--or even a +woman's--who ought to have known better." + +"Do you think then, Aunt Randolph, that women don't admire pretty +people?" It is to be feared that Lucy asked for the sake of making +conversation, which it is sometimes necessary to do. + +"I think that men and women see differently--as they always do," said +Lady Randolph. She was rather fond of discriminating between the ideas +of the sexes, as many ladies of a reasonable age are. "There is a +gentleman's beauty, you know, and there is a kind of beauty that women +love. I could point out the difference to you better if the specimens +were before us; but it is a little difficult to describe. I rather +think we admire expression, you know. What men care for is flesh and +blood. We like people that are good--that is to say, who have the air of +being good, for the reality doesn't by any means follow. Perhaps I am +taking too much credit to ourselves," said the old lady, "but that is +the best description I can hit upon. We like the interesting kind--the +pensive kind--which was the fashion when I was young. Your great, fat, +golden-haired, red and white women are gentlemen's beauties; they don't +commend themselves to us." + +"And is Madame di Forno-Populo," said Lucy, in her usual elaborate way, +"of that kind?" + +"Oh! my dear, she is just a witch," Lady Randolph said. "It does not +matter who it is, she can bring them to her feet if she pleases!" Then +she seemed to think she had gone too far, and stopped herself: "I mean +when she was young; she is young no longer, and I dare say all that has +come to an end." + +"It must be sad to grow old when one is like that," said Lucy, with a +look of sympathetic regret. + +"Oh, you are a great deal too charitable, Lucy!" said the old lady: and +then she stopped short, putting a sudden restraint upon herself, as if +it were possible that she might have said too much; then after a while +she resumed: "As you are in such a heavenly frame of mind, my dear, and +disposed to think so well of her, there is just one word of advice I +will give you--don't allow yourself to get intimate with this lady. She +is quite out of your way. If she liked, she could turn you round her +little finger. But it is to be hoped she will not like; and, in any +case, you must remember that I have warned you. Don't let her, my dear, +make a catspaw of you." + +"A catspaw of me!" Lucy was amused by these words--not offended, as so +many might have been--perhaps because she felt herself little likely to +be so dominated; a fact that the much older and more experienced woman +by her side was quite unaware of. "But," she said, "Tom would not have +invited her, Aunt Randolph, if he had thought her likely to do +that--indeed, how could he have been such great friends with her if she +had not been nice as well as pretty? You forget there must always be +that in her favour to me." + +"Oh, Tom!" cried Lady Randolph with indignation. "My dear Lucy," she +added after a pause, with subdued exasperation, "men are the most +unaccountable creatures! Knowing him as I do, I should have thought she +was the very last person--but how can we tell? I dare say the idea +amused him. Tom will do anything that amuses him--or tickles his vanity. +I confess it is as you say, very, very difficult to account for it; but +he has done it. He wants to show off a little to her, I suppose; or else +he---- There is really no telling, Lucy. It is the last thing in the +world I should have thought of; and you may be quite sure, my dear," she +added with emphasis, "she never would have been invited at all if he had +expected me to be here when she came." + +Lucy did not make any answer for some time. Her face, which had kept its +gaiety and radiance, grew grave, and when they had driven back towards +the hall for about ten minutes in silence, she said quietly "You do not +mean it, I am sure; but do you know, Aunt Randolph, you are trying to +make me think very badly of my husband; and no one has ever done that +before." + +"Oh, your husband is just like other people's husbands, Lucy," cried +the elder lady impatiently. Then, however, she subdued herself, with an +anxious look at her companion. "My dear, you know how fond I am of Tom: +and I know he is fond of you; he would not do anything to harm you for +the world. I suppose it is because he has such a prodigious confidence +in you that he thinks it does not matter; and I don't suppose it does +matter. The only thing is, don't be over intimate with her, Lucy; don't +let her fix herself upon you when you go to town, and talk about young +Lady Randolph as her dearest friend. She is quite capable of doing it. +And as for Tom--well, he is just a man when all is said." + +Lucy did not ask any more questions. That she was greatly perplexed +there is no doubt, and her first fervour of affectionate interest in +Tom's friend was slightly damped, or at least changed. But she was more +curious than ever; and there was in her mind the natural contradiction +of youth against the warnings addressed to her. Lucy knew very well that +she herself was not one to be twisted round anybody's little finger. She +was not afraid of being subjugated; and she had a prejudice in favour of +her husband which neither Lady Randolph nor any other witness could +impair. The drive home was more silent than the outset. Naturally, the +cold increased as the afternoon went on, and the Dowager shrunk into her +furs, and declared that she was too much chilled to talk. "Oh how +pleasant a cup of tea will be," she said. + +Lucy longed for her part to get down from the carriage and walk home +through the village, to see all the cottage fires burning, and quicken +the blood in her veins, which is a better way than fur for keeping one's +self warm. When they got in, it was exciting to think that perhaps the +stranger was coming down to tea; though that, as has been already said, +was a hope in which Lucy was disappointed. Everything was prepared for +her reception, however--a sort of throne had been arranged for her, a +special chair near the fire, shaded by a little screen, and with a +little table placed close to it to hold her cup of tea. The room was all +in a ruddy blaze of firelight, the atmosphere delightful after the cold +air outside, and all the little party a little quiet, thinking that +every sound that was heard must be the stranger. + +"She must have been very tired," Lucy said sympathetically. + +"I dare say," said Lady Randolph, "she thinks a dinner dress will make a +better effect." + +Lucy looked towards her husband almost with indignation, with eyes that +asked why he did not defend his friend. But, to be sure, Sir Tom could +not judge of their expression in the firelight, and instead of defending +her he only laughed. "One general understands another's tactics," he +said. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII. + +THE VISITORS. + + +Sir Tom paid his wife a visit when she was in the midst of her toilette +for dinner. He came in, and looked at her dress with an air of +dissatisfaction. It was a white dress, of a kind which suited Lucy very +well, and which she was in the habit of wearing for small home parties, +at which full dress was unnecessary. He looked at her from head to +foot, and gave a little pull to her skirt with a doubtful air. "It +doesn't sit, does it?" he said; "can't you pin it, or something, to make +it come better?" + +This, it need not be said, was a foolish piece of ignorance on Sir Tom's +part, and as Miss Fletcher, Lucy's maid, thought, "just like a man." +Fletcher was for the moment not well-disposed towards Sir Tom. She +said--"Oh no, Sir Thomas, my lady don't hold with pins. Some ladies may +that are all for effect; but my lady, that is not her way." + +Sir Tom felt that these words inclosed a dart as sharp as any pin, and +directed at himself; but he took no notice. He walked round his wife, +eyeing her on every side; and then he gave a little pull to her hair as +he had done to her dress. "After all," he said, "it is some time since +you left school, Lucy. Why this simplicity? I want you to look your best +to-night." + +"But, dear Tom," said Lucy, "you always say that I am not to be +over-dressed." + +"I don't want you to be under-dressed; there is plenty of time. Don't +you think you might do a little more in the way of toilette? Put on some +lace or something; Fletcher will know. Look here, Fletcher, I want Lady +Randolph to look very well to-night. Don't you think this get-up would +stand improvement? I dare say you could do it with ribbons, or +something. We must not have her look like my grandchild, you know." + +Upon which Fletcher, somewhat mollified and murmuring that Sir Thomas +was a gentleman that would always have his joke, answered boldly that +_that_ was not how she would have dressed her lady had she had the doing +of it. "But I know my place," Fletcher said, "though to see my lady +like this always goes against me, Sir Thomas, and especially with +foreigners in the house that are always dressed up to the nines and +don't think of nothing else. But if Lady Randolph would wear her blue it +could all be done in five minutes, and look far nicer and more like the +lady of the house." + +This transfer was finally made, for Lucy had no small obstinacies and +was glad to please her husband. The "blue" was of the lightest tint of +shimmering silk, and gave a little background of colour, upon which +Lucy's fairness and whiteness stood out. Sir Thomas always took an +interest in his wife's dress; but it was seldom he occupied himself so +much about it. It was he who went to the conservatory to get a flower +for her hair. He took her downstairs upon his arm "as if they were out +visiting," Lucy said, instead of at home in their own house. She was +amused at all this form and ceremony, and came down to the drawing-room +with a little flush of pleasure and merriment about her, quite different +from the demure little Lady Randolph, half frightened and very serious, +with the weight on her mind of a strange language to be spoken, who but +for Sir Tom's intervention would have been standing by the fire awaiting +her visitor. The Dowager was downstairs before her, looking grave +enough, and Jock, slim and dark, supporting a corner of the mantelpiece, +like a young Caryatides in black. Lucy's brightness, her pretty shimmer +of blue, the flower in her hair, relieved these depressing influences. +She stood in the firelight with the ruddy irregular glare playing on +her, a pretty youthful figure; and her husband's assiduities, and the +entire cessation of any apparent consciousness on his part that any +question had ever arisen between them, made Lucy's heart light in her +breast. She forgot even the possibility of having to talk French in the +ease of her mind; and before she had time to remember her former alarm +there came gliding through the subdued light of the greater drawing-room +two figures. Sir Tom stepped forward to meet the stranger, who gave him +her hand as if she saw him for the first time, and Lucy advanced with a +little tremor. Here was the Contessa--the Forno-Populo--the foreign +great lady and great beauty at last. + +She was tall--almost as tall as Sir Tom--and had the majestic grace +which only height can give. She was clothed in dark velvet, which fell +in long folds to her feet, and her hair, which seemed very abundant, was +much dressed with puffs and curlings and frizzings, which filled Lucy +with wonder, but furnished a delicate frame-work for her beautiful, +clear, high features, and the wonderful tint of her complexion--a sort +of warm ivory, which made all brighter colours look excessive. Her eyes +were large and blue, with long but not very dark eyelashes; her throat +was like a slender column out of a close circle of feathery lace. Lucy, +who had a great deal of natural taste, felt on the moment a thrill of +shame on account of her blue gown, and an almost disgust of Lady +Randolph's old-fashioned openness about the shoulders. The stranger was +one of those women whose dress always impresses other women with such a +sense of fitness that fashion itself looks vulgar or insipid beside her. +She gave Sir Tom her left hand in passing, and then she turned with both +extended to Lucy. "So this is the little wife," she said. She did not +pause for the modest little word of welcome which Lucy had prepared. She +drew her into the light, and gazed at her with benignant but dauntless +inspection, taking in, Lucy felt sure, every particular of her +appearance--the something too much of the blue gown, the deficiency of +dignity, the insignificance of the smooth fair locks, and open if +somewhat anxious countenance. "_Bel enfant_," said the Contessa, "your +husband and I are such old friends that I cannot meet you as a stranger. +You must let me kiss you, and accept me as one of yours too." The +salutation that followed made Lucy's heart jump with mingled pleasure +and distaste. She was swallowed up altogether in that embrace. When it +was over, the lady turned from her to Sir Tom without another word. "I +congratulate you, _mon ami_. Candour itself, and sweetness, and every +English quality"--upon which she proceeded to seat herself in the chair +which Lucy had set for her in the afternoon with the screen and the +footstool. "How thoughtful some one has been for my comfort," she said, +sinking into it, and distributing a gracious smile all round. There was +something in the way in which she seized the central place in the scene, +and made all the others look like surroundings which bewildered Lucy, +who did nothing but gaze, forgetting everything she meant to say, and +even that it was she who was the mistress of the house. + +"You do not see my aunt, Contessa," said Sir Tom, "and yet I think you +ought to know each other." + +"Your aunt," said the Contessa, looking round, "that dear Lady +Randolph--who is now Dowager. Chère dame!" she added, half rising, +holding out again both hands. + +Lady Randolph the elder knew the world better than Lucy. She remained in +the background into which the Contessa was looking with eyes which she +called shortsighted. "How do you do, Madame di Forno-Populo!" she said. +"It is a long time since we met. We have both grown older since that +period. I hope you have recovered from your fatigue." + +The Contessa sank back again into her chair. "Ah, _both_, yes!" she +said, with an eloquent movement of her hands. At this Sir Tom gave vent +to a faint chuckle, as if he could not contain himself any longer. + +"The passage of time is a myth," he said; "it is a fable; it goes the +other way. To look at you----" + +"Both!" said the Contessa, with a soft, little laugh, spreading out her +beautiful hands. + +Lucy hoped that Lady Randolph, who had kept behind, did not hear this +last monosyllable, but she was angry with her husband for laughing, for +abandoning his aunt's side, upon which she herself, astonished, ranged +herself without delay. But what was still more surprising to Lucy, with +her old-fashioned politeness, was to see the second stranger who had +followed the Contessa into the room, but who had not been introduced or +noticed. She had the air of being very young--a dependent probably, and +looking for no attention--and with a little curtsey to the company, +withdrew to the other side of the table on which the lamp was standing. +Lucy had only time to see that there was a second figure, very slim and +slight, and that the light of the lamp seemed to reflect itself in the +soft oval of a youthful face as she passed behind it; but save for this +noiseless movement the young lady gave not the smallest sign of +existence, nor did any one notice her. And it was only when the summons +came to dinner, and when Lucy called forth the bashful Jock to offer his +awkward arm to Lady Randolph, that the unannounced and unconsidered +guest came fully into sight. + +"There are no more gentlemen, and I think we must go in together," Lucy +said. + +"It is a great honour for me," said the girl. She had a very slight +foreign accent, but she was not in the least shy. She came forward at +once with the utmost composure. Though she was a stranger and a +dependent without a name, she was a great deal more at her ease than +Lucy was, who was the mistress of everything. Lucy for her part was +considerably embarrassed. She looked at the girl, who smiled at her, not +without a little air of encouragement and almost patronage in return. + +"I have not heard your name," Lucy at last prevailed upon herself to +say, as they went through the long drawing-room together. "It is very +stupid of me; but I was occupied with Madame di Forno-Populo----" + +"You could not hear it, for it was never mentioned," said the girl. "The +Contessa does not think it worth while. I am at present in the cocoon. +If I am pretty enough when I am quite grown up, then she will tell my +name----" + +"Pretty enough? But what does that matter? one does not talk of such +things," said the decorous little matron, startled and alarmed. + +"Oh, it means everything to me," said the anonymous. "It is doubtful +what I shall be. If I am only a little pretty I shall be sent home; but +if it should happen to me--ah! no such luck!--to be beautiful, then the +Contessa will introduce me, and everybody says I may go far--farther, +indeed, than even she has ever done. Where am I to sit? Beside you?" + +"Here, please," said Lucy, trembling a little, and confounded by the +ease of this new actor on the scene, who spoke so frankly. She was +dressed in a little black frock up to her throat; her hair in great +shining bands coiled about her head, but not an ornament of any kind +about her. A little charity girl could not have been dressed more +plainly. But she showed no consciousness of this, nor, indeed, of +anything that was embarrassing. She looked round the table with a free +and fearless look. There was not about her any appearance of timidity, +even in respect to the Contessa. She included that lady in her +inspection as well as the others, and even made a momentary pause before +she sat down, to complete her survey. Lucy, who had on ordinary +occasions a great deal of gentle composure, and had sat with a Cabinet +Minister by her side without feeling afraid, was more disconcerted than +it would be easy to say by this young creature, of whom she did not know +the name. It was so small a party that a separate little conversation +with her neighbour was scarcely practicable, but the Contessa was +talking to Sir Tom with the confidential air of one who has a great deal +to say, and Lady Randolph on his other side was keeping a stern silence, +so that Lucy was glad to make a little attempt at her end of the table. + +"You must have had a very fatiguing journey?" she said. "Travelling by +night, when you are not used to it----" + +"But we are quite used to it," said the girl. "It is our usual way. By +land it is so much easier: and even at sea one goes to bed, and one is +at the other side before one knows." + +"Then you are a good sailor, I suppose----" + +"_Pas mal_," said the young lady. She began to look at Jock, and to +turn round from time to time to the elder Lady Randolph, who sat on the +other side of her. "They are not dumb, are they?" she asked. "Not once +have I heard them speak. That is very English, so like what one reads in +books." + +"You speak English very well, Mademoiselle," said the Dowager suddenly. + +The girl turned round and examined her with a candid surprise. "I am so +glad you do," she said calmly: a little _mot_ which brought the colour +to Lady Randolph's cheeks. + +"A pupil of the Contessa naturally knows a good many languages," she +said, "and would be little at a loss wherever she went. You have come +last from Florence, Rome, or perhaps some other capital. The Contessa +has friends everywhere--still." + +This last little syllable caught the Contessa's fine ear, though it was +not directed to her. She gave the Dowager a very gracious smile across +the table. "Still," she repeated, "everywhere! People are so kind. My +invitations are so many it was with difficulty I managed to accept that +of our excellent Tom. But I had made up my mind not to disappoint him +nor his dear young wife. I was not prepared for the pleasure of finding +your ladyship here." + +"How fortunate that you were able to manage it! I have been +complimenting Mademoiselle on her English. She does credit to her +instructors. Tell me, is this your first visit," Lady Randolph said, +turning to the young lady "to England?" Even in this innocent question +there was more than met the eye. The girl, however, had begun to make a +remark to Lucy, and thus evaded it in the most easy way. + +"I saw you come home soon after our arrival," she said. "I was at my +window. You came with--Monsieur----" She cast a glance at Jock as she +spoke, with a smile in her eyes that was not without its effect. There +was a little provocation in it, which an older man would have known how +to answer. But Jock, in the awkwardness of his youth, blushed fiery red, +and turned away his gaze, which, indeed, had been dwelling upon her with +an absorbed but shy attention. The boy had never seen anything at all +like her before. + +"My brother," said Lucy, and the young lady gave him a beaming smile and +bow which made Jock's head turn round. He did not know how to reply to +it, whether he ought not to get up to answer her salutation; and being +so uncertain and abashed and excited, he did nothing at all, but gazed +again with an absorption which was not uncomplimentary. She gave him +from time to time a little encouraging glance. + +"That was what I thought. You drive out always at that early hour in +England, and always with--Monsieur?" The girl laughed now, looking at +him, so that Jock longed to say something witty and clever. Oh, why was +not MTutor here? He would have known the sort of thing to say. + +"Oh not, not always with Jock," Lucy answered, with honest +matter-of-fact. "He is still at school, and we have him only for the +holidays. Perhaps you don't know what that means?" + +"The holidays? yes, I know. Monsieur, no doubt, is at one of the great +schools that are nowhere but in England, where they stay till they are +men." + +"We stay," said Jock, making an almost convulsive effort, "till we are +nineteen. We like to stay as long as we can." + +"How innocent," said the girl with a pretty elderly look of superiority +and patronage; and then she burst into a laugh, which neither Lucy nor +Jock knew how to take, and turned back again in the twinkling of an eye +to Lady Randolph, who had relapsed into silence. "And you drive in the +afternoon," she said. "I have already made my observations. And the baby +in the middle, between. And Sir Tom always. He goes out and he goes in, +and one sees him continually. I already know all the habits of the +house." + +"You were not so very tired, then, after all. Why did you not come down +stairs and join us in what we were doing?" + +The young lady did not make any articulate reply, but her answer was +clear enough. She cast a glance across the table to the Contessa, and +laid her hand upon her own cheek. Lucy was a little mystified by this +pantomime, but to Lady Randolph there was no difficulty about it. "That +is easily understood," she said, "when one is _sur le retour_. But the +same precautions are not necessary with all." + +A smile came upon the girl's lip. "I am sympathetic," she said. "Oh, +troppo! I feel just like those that I am with. It is sometimes a +trouble, and sometimes it is an advantage." This was to Lucy like the +utterance of an oracle, and she understood it not. + +"Another time," she said kindly, "you must not only observe us from the +window, but come down and share what we are doing. Jock will show you +the park and the grounds, and I will take you to the village. It is +quite a pretty village, and the cottages are very nice now." + +The young stranger's eyes blazed with intelligence. She seemed to +perceive everything at a glance. + +"I know the village," she said, "it is at the park gates, and Milady +takes a great deal of trouble that all is nice in the cottages. And +there is an old woman that knows all about the family, and tells legends +of it; and a school and a church, and many other _objets-de-piété_. I +know it like that," she cried, holding out the pretty pink palm of her +hand. + +"This information is preternatural," said Lady Randolph. "You are +astonished, Lucy. Mademoiselle is a sorceress. I am sure that Jock +thinks so. Nothing save an alliance with something diabolical could have +made her so well instructed, she who has never been in England before." + +"Do you ask how I know all that?" the girl said laughing. "Then I +answer, novels. It is all Herr Tauchnitz and his pretty books." + +"And so you really never were in England before--not even as a baby?" +Lady Randolph said. + +The girl's gaiety had attracted even the pair at the other end of the +table, who had so much to say to each other. The Contessa and Sir Tom +exchanged a look, which Lucy remarked with a little surprise, and +remarked in spite of herself: and the great lady interfered to help her +young dependent out. + +"How glad I am to give her that advantage, dear lady! It is the crown of +the petite's education. In England she finds the most fine manners, as +well as villages full of _objets-de-piété_. It is what is needful to +form her," the Contessa said. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX. + +THE OPENING OF THE DRAMA. + + +"Come and sit beside me and tell me everything," said the Contessa. She +had appropriated the little sofa next the fire where Lady Randolph +generally sat in the evening. She had taken Lucy's arm on the way from +the dining-room, and drew her with her to this corner. Nothing could be +more caressing or tender than her manner. She seemed to be conferring +the most delightful of favours as she drew towards her the mistress of +the house. "You have been married--how long? Six years! But it is +impossible! And you have all the freshness of a child. And very happy?" +she said smiling upon Lucy. She had not a fault in her pronunciation, +but when she uttered these two words she gave a little roll of the "r" +as if she meant to assume a defect which she had not, and smiled with a +tender benevolence in which there was the faintest touch of derision. +Lucy did not make out what it was, but she felt that something lay under +the dazzling of that smile. She allowed the stranger to draw her to the +sofa, and sat down by her. + +"Yes, it is six years," she said. + +"And ver--r--y happy?" the Contessa repeated. "I am sure that dear Tom +is a model husband. I have known him a very long time. Has he told you +about me?" + +"That you were an old friend," said Lucy, looking at her. "Oh yes! The +only thing is, that we are so much afraid you will find the country +dull." + +The Contessa replied only with an eloquent look and a pressure of the +hand. Her eyes were quite capable of expressing their meaning without +words; and Lucy felt that she had guessed her rightly. + +"We wished to have a party to meet you," Lucy said, "but the baby fell +ill--and I thought as you had kindly come so far to see Tom, you would +not mind if you found us alone." + +The lady still made no direct reply. She said after a little pause, + +"The country is very dull----" still smiling upon Lucy, and allowed a +full minute to pass without another word. Then she added, "And +Milady?--is she always with you?"--with a slight shrug of the shoulders. +She did not even lower her voice to prevent Lady Randolph from hearing, +but gave Lucy's hand a special pressure, and fixed upon her a +significant look. + +"Oh! Aunt Randolph?" cried Lucy. "Oh no; she is only paying her usual +Christmas visit." + +The Contessa drew a sigh of relief, and laid her other delicate hand +upon her breast. "You take a load off my heart," she said; then gliding +gracefully from the subject, "And that excellent Tom----? you met +him--in society?" + +Lucy did not quite like the questioning, or those emphatic pressures of +her hand. She said quickly, "We met at Lady Randolph's. I was living +there." + +"Oh--I see," the stranger said, and she gave vent to a little gentle +laugh. "I see!" Her meaning was entirely unknown to Lucy; but she felt +an indefinable offence. She made a slight effort to withdraw her hand; +but this the Contessa would not permit. She pressed the imprisoned +fingers more closely in her own. "You do not like this questioning. +Pardon! I had forgotten English ways. It is because I hope you will let +me be your friend too." + +"Oh yes," cried Lucy, ashamed of her own hesitation, yet feeling every +moment more reluctant. She subdued her rising distaste with an effort. +"I hope," she said, sweetly, "that we shall be able to make you feel at +home, Madame di Forno-Populo. If there is anything you do not like, will +you tell me? Had I been at home I should have chosen other rooms for +you." + +"They are so pretty, those words, 'at home!' so English," the Contessa +said, with smiles that were more and more sweet. "But it will fatigue +you to call me all that long name." + +"Oh no!" cried Lucy, with a vivid blush. She did not know what to say, +whether this meant a little derision of her careful pronunciation, or +what it was. She went on, after a little pause, "But if you are not +quite comfortable the other rooms can be got ready directly. It was the +housekeeper who thought the rooms you have would be the warmest." + +The Contessa gave her another gentle pressure of the hand. "Everything +is perfect," she said. "The house and the wife, and all. I may call you +Lucy? You are so fresh and young. How do you keep that pretty bloom +after six years--did you say six years? Ah! the English are always those +that wear best. You are not afraid of a great deal of light--no? but it +is trying sometimes. Shades are an advantage. And he has not spoken to +you of me, that dear Tom? There was a time when he talked much of +me--oh, much--constantly! He was young then--and," she said with a +little sigh--"so was I. He was perhaps not handsome, but he was +distinguished. Many Englishmen are so who have no beauty, no +handsomeness, as you say, and English women also, though that is more +rare. And you are ver-r-y happy?" the Contessa asked again. She said it +with a smile that was quite dazzling, but yet had just the faintest +touch of ridicule in it, and rippled over into a little laugh. "When we +know each other better I will betray all his little secrets to you," she +said. + +This was so very injudicious on the part of an old friend, that a wiser +person than Lucy would have divined some malign meaning in it. But Lucy, +though suppressing an instinctive distrust, took no notice, not even in +her thoughts. It was not necessary for her to divine or try to divine +what people meant; she took what they said, simply, without requiring +interpretation. "He has told me a great deal," she said. "I think I +almost know his journeys by heart." Then Lucy carried the war into the +enemy's country without realising what she was doing. "You will think it +very stupid of me," she said, "but I did not hear Mademoiselle,--the +young lady's name?" + +The Contessa's eyes dwelt meditatively upon Lucy: she patted her hand +and smiled upon her, as if every other subject was irrelevant. "And he +has taken you into society?" she said, continuing her examination. "How +delightful is that English domesticity. You go everywhere together?" She +had no appearance of having so much as heard Lucy's question. "And you +do not fear that he will find it dull in the country? You have the +confidence of being enough for him? How sweet for me to find the +happiness of my friend so assured. And now I shall share it for a +little. You will make us all happy. Dear child!" said the lady with +enthusiasm, drawing Lucy to her and kissing her forehead. Then she broke +into a pretty laugh. "You will work for your poor, and I, who am good +for nothing--I shall take out my _tapisserie_, and he will read to us +while we work. What a tableau!" cried the Contessa. "Domestic happiness, +which one only tastes in England. The Eden before the fall!" + +It was at this moment that the gentlemen, _i.e._ Sir Tom and Jock, +appeared out of the dining-room. They had not lingered long after the +ladies. Sir Tom had been somewhat glum after they left. His look of +amusement was not so lively. He said sententiously, not so much to Jock +as to himself, "That woman is bent on mischief," and got up and walked +about the room instead of taking his wine. Then he laughed and turned to +Jock, who was musing over his orange skins. "When you get a fellow into +your house that is not much good--I suppose it must happen +sometimes--that knows too much and puts the young ones up to tricks, +what do you do with him, most noble Captain? Come, you find out a lot of +things for yourselves, you boys. Tell me what you do." + +Jock was a little startled by this demand, but he rose to the occasion. +"It has happened," he said. "You know, unless a fellow's been awfully +bad, you can't always keep him out." + +"And what then?" said Sir Tom. "MTutor sets his great wits to work?" + +"I hope, sir," cried Jock, "that you don't think I would trouble MTutor, +who has enough on his hands without that. I made great friends with the +fellow myself. You know," said the lad, looking up with splendid +confidence, "he couldn't harm _me_----" + +Sir Tom looked at him with a little drawing of his breath, such as the +experienced sometimes feel as they look at the daring of the +innocent--but with a smile, too. + +"When he tried it on with me, I just kicked him," said Jock, calmly; +"once was enough; he didn't do it again; for naturally he stood a bit in +awe of me. Then I kept him that he hadn't a moment to himself. It was +the football half, when you've not got much time to spare all day. And +in the evenings he had poenas and things. When he got with two or three +of the others, one of us would just be loafing about, and call out +'Hallo, what's up?' He never had any time to go wrong, and then he got +to find out it didn't pay." + +"Philosopher! sage!" cried Sir Tom. "It is you that should teach us; +but, alas, my boy, have you never found out that even that last argument +fails to tell--and that they don't mind even if it doesn't pay?" + +He sighed as he spoke; then laughed out, and added, "I can at all events +try the first part of your programme. Come along and let's cry, Hallo! +what's up? It simplifies matters immensely, though," said Sir Tom, with +a serious face, "when you can kick the fellow you disapprove of in that +charming candid way. Guard the privilege; it is invaluable, Jock." + +"Well," said Jock, "some fellows think it's brutal, you know. MTutor he +always says try argument first. But I just want to know how are you to +do your duty, captain of a big house, unless it's known that you will +just kick 'em when they're beastly. When it's known, even _that_ does a +deal of good." + +"Every thing you say confirms my opinion of your sense," said Sir Tom, +taking the boy by the arm, "but also of your advantages, Jock, my boy. +We cannot act, you see, in that straightforward manner, more's the +pity, in the world; but I shall try the first part of your programme, +and act on your advice," he said, as they walked into the room where the +ladies were awaiting them. The smaller room looked very warm and bright +after the large, dimly-lighted one through which they had passed. The +Contessa, in her tender conference with Lucy, formed a charming group in +the middle of the picture. Lady Randolph sat by, exiled out of her usual +place, with an illustrated magazine in her hand, and an air of quick +watchfulness about her, opposite to them. She was looking on like a +spectator at a play. In the background behind the table, on which stood +a large lamp, was the Contessa's companion, with her back turned to the +rest, lightly flitting from picture to picture, examining everything. +She had been entirely careless of the action of the piece, but she +turned round at the voices of the new-comers, as if her attention was +aroused. + +"You are going to take somebody's advice?" said the Contessa. "That is +something new; come here at once and explain. To do so is due to +your--wife; yes, to your wife. An Englishman tells every thought to his +wife; is it not so? Oh yes, _mon ami_, your sweet little wife and I are +the best of friends. It is for life," she said, looking with +inexpressible sentiment in Lucy's face, and pressing her hands. Then, +was it possible? a flash of intelligence flew from her eyes to those of +Sir Tom, and she burst into a laugh and clapped her beautiful hands +together. "He is so ridiculous, he makes one laugh at everything," she +cried. + +Lucy remained very serious, with a somewhat forced smile upon her face, +between these two, looking from one to another. + +"Nay, if you have come the length of swearing eternal friendship----" +said Sir Tom. + +Jock did not know what to do with himself. He began by stumbling over +Lady Randolph's train, which though carefully coiled about her, was so +long and so substantial that it got in his way. In getting out of its +way he almost stumbled against the slim, straight figure of the girl, +who stood behind surveying the company. She met his awkward apology with +a smile. "It doesn't matter," she said, "I am so glad you are come. I +had nobody to talk to." Then she made a little pause, regarding him with +a bright, impartial look, as if weighing all his qualities. "Don't you +talk?" she said. "Do you prefer not to say anything? because I know how +to behave: I will not trouble you if it is so. In England there are some +who do not say anything?" she added with an inquiring look. Jock, who +was conscious of blushing all over from top to toe, ventured a glance at +her, to which she replied by a peal of laughter, very merry but very +subdued, in which, in spite of himself, he was obliged to join. + +"So you can laugh!" she said; "oh, that is well; for otherwise I should +not know how to live. We must laugh low, not to make any noise and +distract the old ones; but still, one must live. Tell me, you are the +brother of Madame--Should I say Milady? In my novels they never do, but +I do not know if the novels are just or not." + +"The servants say my lady, but no one else," said Jock. + +"How fine that is," the young lady said admiringly, "in a moment to have +it all put right. I am glad we came to England; we say mi-ladi and +mi-lord as if that was the name of every one here; but it is not so in +the books. You are, perhaps Sir? like Sir Tom--or you are----" + +"I am Trevor, that is all," said Jock with a blush; "I am nobody in +particular: that is, here"--he added with a momentary gleam of natural +importance. + +"Ah!" cried the young lady, "I understand--you are a great person at +home." + +Jock had no wish to deceive, but he could not prevent a smile from +creeping about the corners of his mouth. "Not a great person at all," he +said, not wishing to boast. + +The young stranger, who was so curious about all her new surroundings, +formed her own conclusion. She had been brought up in an atmosphere full +of much knowledge, but also of theories which were but partially +tenable. She interpreted Jock according to her own ideas, which were not +at all suited to his case; but it was impossible that she could know +that. + +"I am finding people out," she said to him. "You are the only one that +is young like me. Let us form an alliance--while the old ones are +working out all their plans and fighting it out among themselves." + +"Fighting it out! I know some that are not likely to fight," cried Jock, +bewildered. + +"Was not that right?" said the girl, distressed. "I thought it was an +_idiotisme_, as the French say. Ah! they are always fighting. Look at +them now! The Contessa, she is on the war-path. That is an American +word. I have a little of all languages. Madame, you will see--ah, that +is what you meant!--does not understand, she looks from one to another. +She is silent, but Sir Tom, he knows everything. And the old lady, she +sees it too. I have gone through so many dramas, I am blasée. It +wearies at last, but yet it is exciting too. I ask myself what is going +to be done here? You have heard perhaps of the Contessa in England, +Mr.----" + +"Trevor," said Jock. + +"And you pronounce it just like this--Mis-ter? I want to know; for +perhaps I shall have to stay here. There is not known very much about +me. Nor do I know myself. But if the Contessa finds for me---- I am quite +mad," said the girl suddenly. "I am telling you--and of course it is a +secret. The old lady watches the Contessa to see what it is she intends. +But I do not myself know what the Contessa intends--except in respect to +me." + +Jock was too shy to inquire what that was: and he was confused with this +unusual confidence. Young ladies had not been in the habit of opening to +him their secrets; indeed he had little experience of these kind of +creatures at all. She looked at him as she spoke as if she wished to +provoke him to inquiry--with a gaze that was very open and withal bold, +yet innocent too. And Jock, on his side, was as entirely innocent as if +he had been a Babe in the Wood. + +"Don't you want to know what she is going to do with me, and why she has +brought me?" the girl said, talking so quickly that he could scarcely +follow the stream of words. "I was not invited, and I am not introduced, +and no one knows anything of me. Don't you want to know why I am here?" + +Jock followed the movements of her lips, the little gestures of her +hands, which were almost as eloquent, with eyes that were confused by so +great a call upon them. He could not make any reply, but only gazed at +her, entranced, as he had never been in his life before, and so anxious +not to lose the hurried words, the quick flash of the small white hands +against her dark dress, that his mind had not time to make out what she +meant. + +Lucy on her side sat between her husband and the Contessa for some time, +listening to their conversation. That was more rapid, too, than she was +used to, and it was full of allusions, understood when they were +half-said by the others, which to her were all darkness. She tried to +follow them with a wistful sort of smile, a kind of painful homage to +the Contessa's soft laugh and the ready response of Sir Tom. She tried +too, to follow, and share the brightening interest of his face, the +amusement and eagerness of his listening; but by and by she got chilled, +she knew not how--the smile grew frozen upon her face, her comprehension +seemed to fail altogether. She got up softly after a while from her +corner of the sofa, and neither her husband nor her guest took any +particular notice. She came across the room to Lady Randolph, and drew a +low chair beside her, and asked her about the pictures in the magazine +which she was still holding in her hand. + + + + +CHAPTER XX. + +AN ANXIOUS CRITIC. + + +In a few days after the arrival of Madame di Forno-Populo, there was +almost an entire change of aspect at the Hall. Nobody could tell how +this change had come about. It was involuntary, unconscious, yet +complete. The Contessa came quietly into the foreground. She made no +demonstration of power, and claimed no sort of authority. She never +accosted the mistress of the house without tender words and caresses. +Her attitude towards Lucy, indeed, was that of an admiring relation to a +delightful and promising child. She could not sufficiently praise and +applaud her. When she spoke, her visitor turned towards her with the +most tender of smiles. In whatsoever way the Contessa was occupied, she +never failed when she heard Lucy's voice to turn round upon her, to +bestow this smile, to murmur a word of affectionate approval. When they +were near enough to each other, she would take her hand and press it +with affectionate emotion. The other members of the household, except +Sir Tom, she scarcely noticed at all. The Dowager Lady Randolph +exchanged with her now and then a few words of polite defiance, but that +was all. And she had not been long at the Hall before her position there +was more commanding than that of Lady Randolph. Insensibly all the +customs of the house changed for her. There was no question as to who +was the centre of conversation in the evening. Sir Tom went to the sofa +from which she had so cleverly ousted his aunt, as soon as he came in +after dinner, and leaning over her with his arm on the mantelpiece, or +drawing a chair beside her, would laugh and talk with endless spirit and +amusement. When he talked of the people in the neighbourhood who +afforded scope for satire, she would tap him with her fan and say, "Why +do I not see these originals? bring them to see me," to Lucy's wonder +and often dismay. "They would not amuse you at all," Sir Tom would +reply, upon which the lady would turn and call Lucy to her. "My little +angel! he pretends that it is he that is so clever, that he creates +these characters. We do not believe him, my Lucy, do we? Ask them, ask +them, _cara_, then we shall judge." + +In this way the house was filled evening after evening. A reign of +boundless hospitality seemed to have begun. The other affairs of the +house slipped aside, and to provide amusement for the Contessa became +the chief object of life. She had everybody brought to see her, from the +little magnates of Farafield to the Duchess herself, and the greatest +people in the county. The nursery, which had been so much, perhaps too +much, in the foreground, regulating the whole great household according +as little Tom was better or worse, was thrust altogether into the +shadow. If neglect was wholesome, then he had that advantage. Even his +mother could do no more than run furtively to him, as she did about a +hundred times a day in the intervals of her duties. His little mendings +and fallings back ceased to be the chief things in the house. His +father, indeed, would play with his child in the mornings when he was +brought to Lucy's room; but the burden of his remarks was to point out +to her how much better the little beggar got on when there was less fuss +made about him. And Lucy's one grievance against her visitor, the only +one which she permitted herself to perceive, was that she never took any +notice of little Tom. She never asked for him, a thing which was +unexampled in Lucy's experience. When he was produced she smiled, +indeed, but contemplated him at a distance. The utmost stretch of +kindness she had ever shown was to touch his cheek with a finger +delicately when he was carried past her. Lucy made theories in her mind +about this, feeling it necessary to account in some elaborate way for +what was so entirely out of nature. "I know what it must be--she must +have lost her own," she said to her husband. Sir Tom's countenance was +almost convulsed by one of those laughs, which he now found it expedient +to suppress, but he only replied that he had never heard of such an +event. "Ah! it must have been before you knew her; but she has never got +it out of her mind," Lucy cried. That hypothesis explained everything. +At this time it is scarcely necessary to say Lucy was with her whole +soul trying to be "very fond," as she expressed it, of the Contessa. +There were some things about her which startled young Lady Randolph. For +one thing, she would go out shooting with Sir Tom, and was as good a +shot as any of the gentlemen. This wounded Lucy terribly, and took her a +great effort to swallow. It went against all her traditions. With her +bourgeois education she hated sport, and even in her husband with +difficulty made up her mind to it; but that a woman should go forth and +slay was intolerable. + +There were other things besides which were a mystery to her. Lady +Randolph's invariably defiant attitude for one, and the curious aspect +of the Duchess when suddenly brought face to face with the stranger. It +appeared that they were old friends, which astonished Lucy, but not so +much as the great lady's bewildered look when Madame di Forno-Populo +went up to her. It seemed for a moment as if the shock was too much for +her. She stammered and shook through all her dignity and greatness, as +she exclaimed. "_You_! here?" in two distinct outcries, gazing appalled +into the smiling and beautiful face before her. But then the Duchess +came to, after a while. She seemed to get over her surprise, which was +more than surprise. All these things disturbed Lucy. She did not know +what to make of them. She was uneasy at the change that had been +wrought upon her own household, which she did not understand. Yet it was +all perfectly simple, she said to herself. It was Tom's duty to devote +himself to the stranger. It was the duty of both as hosts to procure for +her such amusement as was to be found. These were things of which Lucy +convinced herself by various half unconscious processes of argument. But +it was necessary to renew these arguments from time to time, to keep +possession of them in order to feel their force as she wished to do. She +said nothing to her husband on the subject, with an instinctive sense +that it would be very difficult to handle. And Sir Tom, too, avoided it. +But it was impossible to pursue the same reticence with Lady Randolph, +who now and then insisted on opening it up. When the end of her visit +arrived she sent for Lucy into her own room, to speak to her seriously. +She said-- + +"My dear, I am due to-morrow at the Maltravers', as you know. It is a +visit I like to pay, they are always so nice; but I cannot bear the +thought of going off, Lucy, to enjoy myself and leaving you alone." + +"Alone, Aunt Randolph!" cried Lucy, "when Tom is at home!" + +"Oh, Tom! I have no patience with Tom," cried the Dowager. "I think he +must be mad to let that woman come upon you so. Of course you know very +well, my dear, it is of her that I want to speak. In the country it does +not so much matter; but you must not let her identify herself with you, +Lucy, in town." + +"In town!" Lucy said with a little dismay; "but, dear Aunt Randolph, it +will be six weeks before we go to town; and, surely, long before +that----" She paused, and blushed with a sense of the inhospitality +involved in her words, which made Lucy ashamed of herself. + +"You think so?" said Lady Randolph, smiling somewhat grimly. "Well, we +shall see. For my part, I think she will find Park Lane a very desirable +situation, and if you do not take the greatest care---- But why should I +speak to you of taking care? Of course, if Tom wished it, you would take +in all Bohemia, and never say a word----" + +"Surely," said Lucy, looking with serene eyes in the elder lady's face, +"I do not know what you mean by Bohemia, Aunt Randolph; but if you think +it possible that I should object when Tom asks his friends----" + +"Oh--his friends! I have no patience with you, either the one or the +other," said the old lady. "When Sir Robert was living, do you think it +was he who invited _my_ guests? I should think not indeed! especially +the women. If that was to be the case, marriage would soon become an +impossibility. And is it possible, Lucy, is it possible that you, with +your good sense, can like all that petting and coaxing, and the way she +talks to you as if you were a child?" + +As a matter of fact Lucy had not been able to school herself into liking +it; but when the objection was stated so plainly, she coloured high with +a vexation and annoyance which were very grievous and hard to bear. It +seemed to her that it would be disloyal both to her husband and her +guest if she complained, and at the same time Lady Randolph's shot went +straight to the mark. She did her best to smile, but it was not a very +easy task. + +"You have always taught me, Aunt Randolph," she said with great +astuteness, "that I ought not to judge of the manners of strangers by +my own little rules--especially of foreigners," she added, with a sense +of her own cleverness which half comforted her amid other feelings not +agreeable. It was seldom that Lucy felt any sense of triumph in her own +powers. + +"Foreigners?" said Lady Randolph, with disdain. But then she stopped +short with a pause of indignation. "That woman," she said, which was the +only name she ever gave the visitor, "has some scheme in her head you +may be sure. I do not know what it is. It would not do her any good that +I can see to increase her hold upon Tom." + +"Upon Tom!" cried Lucy. It was her turn now to be indignant. "I don't +know what you mean, Aunt Randolph," she said. "I cannot think that you +want to make me--uncomfortable. There are some things I do not like in +Madame di Forno-Populo. She is--different; but she is my husband's +friend. If you mean that they will become still greater friends seeing +more of each other, that is natural. For why should you be friends at +all unless you like each other? And that Tom likes her must be just a +proof that I am wrong. It is my ignorance. Perhaps the wisest way would +be to say nothing more about it," young Lady Randolph concluded, +briskly, with a sudden smile. + +The Dowager looked at her as if she were some wonder in natural history, +the nature of which it was impossible to divine. She thought she knew +Lucy very well, but yet had never understood her, it being more +difficult for a woman of the world to understand absolute +straightforwardness and simplicity than it is even for the simple to +understand the worldly. She was silent for a moment and stared at Lucy, +not knowing what to make of her. At last she resumed as if going on +without interruption. "But she has some scheme in hand, perhaps in +respect to the girl. The girl is a very handsome creature, and might +make a hit if she were properly managed. My belief is that this has been +her scheme all through. But partly the presence of Tom--an old friend as +you say of her own--and partly the want of opportunity, has kept it in +abeyance. That is my idea, Lucy; you can take it for what it is worth. +And your home will be the headquarters, the centre from which the +adventuress will carry on----" + +"Aunt Randolph!" Lucy's voice was almost loud in the pain and +indignation that possessed her. She put out her hands as if to stop the +other's mouth. "You want to make me think she is a wicked woman," she +said. "And that Tom--Tom----" + +Lucy had never permitted suspicion to enter her mind. She did not know +now what it was that penetrated her innocent soul like an arrow. It was +not jealousy. It was the wounding suggestion of a possibility which she +would not and could not entertain. + +"Lucy, Tom has no excuse at all," said the Dowager solemnly. "You'll +believe nothing against him, of course, and I can't possibly wish to +turn you against him; but I don't suppose he meant all that is likely to +come out of it. He thought it would be a joke--and in the country what +could it matter? And then things have never gone so far as that people +could refuse to receive her, you know. Oh no! the Contessa has her wits +too much about her for that. But you saw for yourself that the Duchess +was petrified; and I--not that I am an authority, like her Grace. One +thing, Lucy, is quite clear, and that I must say; you must not take upon +yourself to be answerable--you so young as you are and not accustomed to +society--for _that_ woman, before the world. You must just take your +courage in both hands, and tell Tom that though you give in to him in +the country, in town you will not have her. She means to take advantage +of you, and bring forward her girl, and make a _grand coup_. That is +what she means--I know that sort of person. It is just the greatest luck +in the world for them to get hold of some one that is so unexceptionable +and so unsuspicious as you." + +Lady Randolph insisted upon saying all this, notwithstanding the +interruptions of Lucy. "Now I wash my hands of it," she said. "If you +won't be advised, I can do no more." It was the day after the great +dinner when the Duchess had met Madame di Forno-Populo with so much +surprise. The elder lady had been in much excitement all the evening. +She had conversed with her Grace apart on several occasions, and from +the way in which they laid their heads together, and their gestures, it +was clear enough that their feeling was the same upon the point they +discussed. All the best people in the county had been collected +together, and there could be no doubt that the Contessa had achieved a +great success. She sang as no woman had ever been heard to sing for a +hundred miles round, and her beauty and her grace and her diamonds had +been enough to turn the heads of both men and women. It was remarked +that the Duchess, though she received her with a gasp of astonishment, +was evidently very well acquainted with the fascinating foreign lady, +and though there was a little natural and national distrust of her at +first, as a person too remarkable, and who sang too well for the common +occasions of life, yet not to gaze at her, watch her, and admire, was +impossible. Lucy had been gratified with the success of her visitor. +Even though she was not sure that she was comfortable about her presence +there at all, she was pleased with the effect she produced. When the +Contessa sang there suddenly appeared out of the midst of the crowd a +slim, straight figure in a black gown, which instantly sat down at the +piano, played the accompaniments, and disappeared again without a word. +The spectators thronging round the piano saw that this was a girl, as +graceful and distinguished as the Contessa herself, who passed away +without a word, and disappeared when her office was accomplished, with a +smile on her face, but without lingering for a moment or speaking to any +one; which was a pretty bit of mystery too. + +All this had happened on the night before Lady Randolph's summons to +Lucy. It was in the air that the party at the Hall was to break up after +the great entertainment; the Dowager was going, as she had said, to the +Maltravers'; Jock was going back to school; and though no limit of +Madame di Forno-Populo's visit had been mentioned, still it was natural +that she should go when the other people did. She had been a fortnight +at the Hall. That is long for a visit at a country house where generally +people are coming and going continually. And Lucy had begun to look +forward to the time when once more she would be mistress of her own +house and actions, with all visitors and interruptions gone. She had +been looking forward to the happy old evenings, the days in which baby +should be set up again on his domestic throne. The idea that the +Contessa might not be going away, the suggestion that she might still be +there when it was time to make the yearly migration to town, chilled the +very blood in her veins. But it was a thought that she would not dwell +upon. She would not betray her feeling in this respect to any one. She +returned the kiss which old Lady Randolph bestowed upon her at the end +of their interview, very affectionately; for, though she did not always +agree with her, she was attached to the lady who had been so kind to her +when she was a friendless little girl. "Thank you, Aunt Randolph, for +telling me," she said very sweetly, though, indeed, she had no intention +of taking the Dowager's advice. Lady Randolph went off in the afternoon +of the next day, for it was a very short journey to the Maltravers', +where she was going. All the party came out into the hall to see her +away, the Contessa herself as well as the others. Nothing, indeed, could +be more cordial than the Contessa. She caught up a shawl and wound it +round her, elaborately defending herself against the cold, and came out +to the steps to share in the last farewells. + +When Lady Randolph was in the carriage with her maid by her side, and +her hot-water footstool under her feet, and the coachman waiting his +signal to drive away, she put out her hand amid her furs to Lucy. "Now +remember!" Lady Randolph said. It was almost as solemn as the mysterious +reminder of the dying king to the bishop. But unfortunately, what is +solemn in certain circumstances may be ludicrous in others. The party in +the Hall scarcely restrained its merriment till the carriage had driven +away. + +"What awful compact is this between you, Lucy?" Sir Tom said. "Has she +bound you by a vow to assassinate me in my sleep?" + +The Contessa unwound herself out of her shawl, and putting her arm +caressingly round Lucy, led her back to the drawing-room. "It has +something to do with me," she said. "Come and tell me all about it." +Lucy had been disconcerted by Lady Randolph's reminder. She was still +more disconcerted now. + +"It is--something Aunt Randolph wishes me to do in the spring, when we +go to town," she said. + +"Ah! I know what that is," said the Contessa. "They see that you are too +kind to your husband's friend. Milady would wish you to be more as she +herself is. I understand her very well. I understand them all, these +women. They cannot endure me. They see a meaning in everything I do. I +have not a meaning in everything I do," she added, with a pathetic look, +which went to Lucy's heart. + +"No, no, indeed you are mistaken. It was not that. I am sure you have no +meaning," said Lucy, vehement and confused. + +The Contessa read her innocent _distraite_ countenance like a book, as +she said--or at least she thought so. She linked her own delicate arm in +hers, and clasped Lucy's hand. "One day I will tell you why all these +ladies hate me, my little angel," she said. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI. + +AN UNEXPECTED ENCOUNTER. + + +In the meantime something had been going on behind-backs of which nobody +took much notice. It had been discovered long before this, in the +family, that the Contessa's young companion had a name like other +people--that is to say, a Christian name. She was called by the +Contessa, in the rare moments when she addressed her, Bice--that is to +say, according to English pronunciation, Beeshée (you would probably +call it Beetchee if you learned to speak Italian in England, but the +Contessa had the Tuscan tongue in a Roman mouth, according to the +proverb), which, as everybody knows, is the contraction of Beatrice. She +was called Miss Beachey in the household, a name which was received--by +the servants at least--as a quite proper and natural name; a great deal +more sensible than Forno-Populo. Her position, however, in the little +party was a quite peculiar one. The Contessa took her for granted in a +way which silenced all inquisitive researches. She gave no explanation +who she was, or what she was, or why she carried this girl about with +her. If she was related to herself, if she was a dependent, nobody knew; +her manner gave no clue at all to the mystery. It was very seldom that +the two had any conversation whatsoever in the presence of the others. +Now and then the Contessa would send the girl upon an errand, telling +her to bring something, with an absence of directions where to find it +that suggested the most absolute confidence in her young companion. When +the Contessa sang, Bice, as a matter of course, produced herself at the +right moment to play her accompaniments, and got herself out of the way, +noiselessly, instantly, the moment that duty was over. These +accompaniments were played with an exquisite skill and judgment, an +exact adaptation to the necessities of the voice, which could only have +been attained by much and severe study; but she never, save on these +occasions, was seen to look at a piano. For the greater part of the time +the girl was invisible. She appeared in the Contessa's train, always in +her closely-fitting, perfectly plain, black frock, without an ornament, +at luncheon and dinner, and was present all the evening in the +drawing-room. But for the rest of the day no one knew what became of +this young creature, who nevertheless was not shy, nor showed any +appearance of feeling herself out of place, or uncomfortable in her +strange position. She looked out upon them all with frank eyes, in which +it was evident there was no sort of mist, either of timidity or +ignorance, understanding everything that was said, even allusions which +puzzled Lucy; always intelligent and observant, though often with a +shade of that benevolent contempt which the young with difficulty +prevent themselves from feeling towards their elders. The littleness of +their jokes and their philosophies was evidently quite apparent to this +observer, who sat secure in the superiority of sixteen taking in +everything; for she took in everything, even when she was not doing the +elder people the honour of attending to what they were saying, with a +faculty which belongs to that age. Opinions were divided as to Bice's +beauty. The simpler members of the party, Lucy and Jock, admired her +least; but such a competent critic as Lady Randolph, who understood what +was effective, had a great opinion and even respect for her, as of one +whose capabilities were very great indeed, and who might "go far," as +she had herself said. As there was so much difference of opinion it is +only right that the reader should be able to judge, as much as is +possible, from a description. She was very slight and rather tall, with +a great deal of the Contessa's grace, moving lightly as if she scarcely +touched the ground, but like a bird rather than a cat. There was nothing +in her of the feline grace of which we hear so much. Her movements were +all direct and rapid; her feet seemed to skim, not to tread, the ground +with an airy poise, which even when she stood still implied movement, +always light, untiring, full of energy and impulse. Her eyes were +gray--if it is possible to call by the name of the dullest of tints +those two globes of light, now dark, now golden, now liquid with dew, +and now with flame. Her hair was dusky, of no particular colour, with a +crispness about the temples; but her complexion--ay, there was the rub. +Bice had no complexion at all. By times in the evening, in artificial +light, or when she was excited, there came a little flush to her cheeks, +which miraculously chased away the shadows from her paleness, and made +her radiant; but in daylight there could be no doubt that she was +sallow, sometimes almost olive, though with a soft velvety texture which +is more often seen on the dark-complexioned through all its gradations +than on any but the most delicate of white skins. A black baby has a +bloom upon its little dusky cheek like a purple peach, and this was the +quality which gave to Bice's sallowness a certain charm. Her hands and +arms were of the same indefinite tint--not white, whatever they might be +called. Her throat was slender and beautifully-formed, but shared the +same deficiency of colour. It is impossible to say how much disappointed +Lucy was in the young stranger's appearance after the first evening. She +had thought her very pretty, and she now thought her plain. To remember +what the girl had said of her chances if she turned out beautiful filled +her with a sort of pitying contempt. + +But the more experienced people were not of Lucy's opinion. They thought +well, on the contrary, of Bice's prospects. Lady Randolph, as has been +said, regarded her with a certain respectfulness. She was not offended +by the saucy speeches which the girl might now and then make. She went +so far as to say even that if introduced under other auspices than those +of the Contessa, there was no telling what such a girl might do. "But +the chances now are that she will end on the stage," Lady Randolph said. + +This strange girl unfolded herself very little in the family. When she +spoke, she spoke with the utmost frankness, and was afraid of nobody. +But in general she sat in the regions behind the table, with its big +lamp, and said little or nothing. The others would all be collected +about the fire, but Bice never approached the fire. Sometimes she read, +sitting motionless, till the others forgot her presence altogether. +Sometimes she worked at long strips of Berlin-wool work, the +_tapisserie_ to which, by moments, the Contessa would have recourse. But +she heard and saw everything, as has been said, whether she attended or +not, in the keenness of her youthful faculties. When the Contessa rose +to sing, she was at the piano without a word; and when anything was +wanted she gave an alert mute obedience to the lady who was her relation +or her patroness, nobody knew which, almost without being told what was +wanted. Except in this way, however, they seldom approached or said a +word to each other that any one saw. During the long morning, which the +Contessa spent in her room, appearing only at luncheon, Bice too was +invisible. Thus she lived the strangest life of retirement and +seclusion, such as a crushed dependent would find intolerable in the +midst of a family, but without the least appearance of anything but +enjoyment, and a perfect and dauntless freedom. + +Bice, however, had one confidant in the house, and this, as is natural, +was the very last person who would have seemed probable--it was Jock. +Jock, it need scarcely be said, had no tendency at all to the society +of girls. Deep as he was in MTutor's confidence, captain of his house, +used to live in a little male community, and to despise (not unkindly) +the rest of the world, it is not likely that he would care much for the +antagonistic creatures who invariably interfered, he thought, with talk +and enjoyment wherever they appeared. Making an exception in favour of +Lucy and an older person now and then, who had been soothing to him when +he was ill or out of sorts, Jock held that the feminine part of the +creation was a mistake, and to be avoided in every practicable way. He +had been startled by the young stranger's advances to him on the first +evening, and her claim of fellowship on the score that he was young like +herself. But when Bice first appeared suddenly in his way, far down in +the depths of the winterly park, the boy's impulse would have been, had +that been practicable, to turn and flee. She was skimming along, singing +to herself, leaping lightly over fallen branches and the inequalities of +the humid way, when he first perceived her; and Jock had a moment's +controversy with himself as to what he ought to do. If he took to flight +across the open park she would see him and understand the reason +why--besides, it would be cowardly to fly from a girl, an inferior +creature, who probably had lost her way, and would not know how to get +back again. This reflection made him withdraw a little deeper into the +covert, with the intention of keeping her in sight lest she should +wander astray altogether, but yet keeping out of the way, that he might +exercise this secret protecting charge of his, which Jock felt was his +natural attitude even to a girl without the embarrassment of her +society. He tried to persuade himself that she was a lower boy, of an +inferior kind no doubt, but yet possessing claims upon his care; for +MTutor had a great idea of influence, and had imprinted deeply upon the +minds of his leading pupils the importance of exercising it in the most +beneficial way for those who were under them. + +Jock accordingly stayed among the brushwood watching where she went. How +light she was! her feet scarcely made a dint upon the wet and spongy +grass, in which his own had sunk. She went over everything like a bird. +Now and then she would stop to gather a handful of brown rustling +brambles, and the stiff yellow oak leaves, and here and there a rusty +bough to which some rays of autumn colour still hung, which at first +Jock supposed to mean botany, and was semi-respectful of, until she took +off her hat and arranged them in it, when he was immediately +contemptuous, saying to himself that it was just like a girl. All the +same, it was interesting to watch her as she skipped and skimmed along +with an air of enjoyment and delight in her freedom, which it was +impossible not to sympathise with. She sang, not loudly, but almost +under her breath, for pure pleasure, it seemed, but sometimes would +break off and whistle, at which Jock was much shocked at first, but +gradually got reconciled to, it was so clear and sweet. After awhile, +however, he made an incautious step upon the brushwood, and the crashing +of the branches betrayed him. She stopped suddenly with her head to the +wind like a fine hound, and caught him with her keen eyes. Then there +occurred a little incident which had a very strange effect--an effect he +was too young to understand--upon Jock. She stood perfectly still, with +her face towards the bushes in which he was, her head thrown high, her +nostrils a little dilated, a flush of sudden energy and courage on her +face. She did not know who he was or what he wanted watching her from +behind the covert. He might be a tramp, a violent beggar, for anything +she knew. These things are more tragic where Bice came from, and it was +likely enough that she took him for a brigand. It was a quick sense of +alarm that sprang over her, stringing all her nerves, and bringing the +colour to her cheeks. She never flinched or attempted to flee, but stood +at bay, with a high valour and proud scorn of her pursuer. Her attitude, +the flush which made her fair in a moment, the expanded nostrils, the +fulness which her panting breath of alarm gave to her breast, made an +impression upon the boy which was ineffable and beyond words. It was his +first consciousness that there was something in the world--not boy, or +man, or sister, something which he did not understand, which feared yet +confronted him, startled but defiant. He too paused for a moment, gazing +at her, getting up his courage. Then he came slowly out from under the +shade of the bushes and went towards her. There were a few yards of the +open park to traverse before he reached her, so that he thought it +necessary to relieve her anxiety before they met. He called out to her, +"Don't be afraid, it is only me." For a moment more that fine poise +lasted, and then she clapped her hands with a peal of laughter that +seemed to fill the entire atmosphere and ring back from the clumps of +wintry wood. "Oh," she cried, "it is you!" Jock did not know whether to +be deeply affronted or to laugh too. + +"I----thought you might have lost your way," he said, knitting his brows +and looking as forbidding as he knew how, by way of correcting the +involuntary sentiment that had stolen into his boyish heart. + +"Then why did not you come to me?" she said, "is not that what you call +to spy--to watch when one does not know you are there?" + +Jock's countenance flushed at this word. "Spy! I never spied upon any +one. I thought perhaps you might not be able to get back--so I would not +go away out of reach." + +"I see," she cried, "you meant to be kind but not friendly. Do I say it +right? Why will not you be friendly? I have so many things I want to +say, and no one, no one! to say them to. What harm would it do if you +came out from yourself, and talked with me a little? You are too young +to make it any--inconvenience," the girl said. She laughed a little and +blushed a little as she said this, eyeing him all the time with frank, +open eyes. "I am sixteen; how old are you?" she added, with a quick +breath. + +"Sixteen past," said Jock, with a little emphasis, to show his +superiority in age as well as in other things. + +"Sixteen in a boy means no more than nine or so," she said, with a light +disdain, "so you need not have any fear. Oh, come and talk! I have a +hundred and more of things to say. It is all so strange. How would you +like to plunge in a new world like the sea, and never say what you think +of it, or ask any questions, or tell when it makes you laugh or cry?" + +"I should not mind much. I should neither laugh nor cry. It is only +girls that do," said Jock, somewhat contemptuous too. + +"Well! But then I am a girl. I cannot change my nature to please you," +she said. "Sometimes I think I should have liked better to be a boy, for +you have not to do the things we have to do--but then when I saw how +awkward you were, and how clumsy, and not good for anything"--she +pointed these very plain remarks with a laugh between each and a look at +Jock, by which she very plainly applied what she said. He did not know +at all how to take this. The instinct of a gentleman to betray no angry +feeling towards a girl, who was at the same time a lady, contrasted in +him with the instinct of a child, scarcely yet aware of the distinctions +of sex, to fight fairly for itself; but the former prevailed. And then +it was scarcely possible to resist the contagion of the laugh which the +damp air seemed to hold suspended, and bring back in curls and wreaths +of pleasant sound. So Jock commanded himself and replied with an +effort-- + +"We are just as good for things that we care about as you--but not for +girls' things," he added, with another little fling of the mutual +contempt which they felt for each other. Then after a pause: "I suppose +we may as well go home, for it is getting late; and when it is dark you +would be sure to lose your way----" + +"Do you think so?" she said. "Then I will come, for I do not like to be +lost. What should you do if we were lost? Build me a hut to take shelter +in? or take off your coat to keep me warm and then go and look for the +nearest village? That is what happens in some of the Contessa's old +books--but, ah, not in the Tauchnitz now. But it would be nonsense, of +course, for there are the red chimneys of the Hall staring us in the +face, so how could we be lost?" + +"When it is dark," said Jock, "you can't see the red always; and then +you go rambling and wandering about, and hit yourself against the trees, +and get up to the ankles in the wet grass and--don't like it at all." +He laughed himself a little, with a laugh that was somewhat like a growl +at his own abrupt conclusion, to which Bice responded cordially. + +"How nice it is to laugh," she said, "it gets the air into your lungs +and then you can breathe. It is to breathe I want--large--a whole world +full," she cried, throwing out her arms and opening her mouth. "Because +you know the rooms are small here, and there is so much furniture, the +windows closed with curtains, the floors all hot with carpets. Do they +shut you up as if in a box at night, with the shutters shut and all so +dark? They do me. But as soon as they are gone I open. I like far better +our rooms with big walls, and marble that is cool, and large, large +windows that you can lie and look out at, when you wake, all painted +upon the sky." + +"I should think," said Jock, with the impulse of contradiction, "they +would not be at all comfortable----" + +"Comfortable," she cried in high disdain, "does one want to be +comfortable? One wants to live, and feel the air, and everything that is +round." + +"That's what we do at school," said Jock, waking up to a sense of the +affinities as he had already done to the diversities between them. + +"Tell me about school," she cried, with a pretty imperious air; and +Jock, who never desired any better, obeyed. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII. + +A PAIR OF FRIENDS. + + +After this it came to be a very common occurrence that Jock and Bice +should meet in the afternoon. He for one thing had lost his +companionship with Lucy, and had been straying forth forlorn not knowing +what to do with himself, taking long walks which he did not care for, +and longing for the intellectual companionship of MTutor, or even of the +other fellows who, if not intellectual, at least were acquainted with +the same things, and accustomed to the same occupations as himself. It +worked in him a tremor and commotion of a kind in which he was wholly +inexperienced, when he saw the slim figure of the girl approaching him, +through the paths of the shrubberies, or across the glades of the park. +He said to himself once or twice, "What a bore;" but those words did not +express his feelings. It was not a bore, it was something very +different. He could not explain the mingled reluctance and pleasure of +his own mood, the little tumult that arose in him when he saw her. He +wanted to turn his back and rush away, and yet he wanted to be there +waiting for her, seeing her approach step by step. He had no notion what +his own mingled sentiments meant. But Bice to all appearance had neither +the reluctance nor the excitement. She came running to her playmate +whenever she saw him with frank satisfaction. "I was looking for you," +she would say, "Let us go out into the park where nobody can see us. +Run, or some one will be coming," and then she would fly over stock and +stone, summoning him after her. There were many occasions when Jock did +not approve, but he always followed her, though with internal +grumblings, in which he indulged consciously, making out his own +annoyance to be very great. "Why can't she let me alone?" he said to +himself; but when it occurred that Bice did leave him alone, and made no +appearance, his sense of injury was almost bitter. On such occasions he +said cutting things within himself, and was very satirical as to the +stupidity of girls who were afraid to wet their feet, and estimated the +danger of catching a cold as greater than any natural advantage. For +Jock had all that instinctive hostility to womankind, which is natural +to the male bosom, except perhaps at one varying period of life. They +had no place in the economy of his existence at school, and he knew +nothing of them nor wanted to know. But Bice, though, when he was +annoyed with her, she became to him the typical girl, the epitome of +offending woman, had at other times a very different position. It +stirred his entire being, he did not know how, when she roamed with him +about the woods talking of everything, from a point of view which was +certainly different from Jock's. Occasionally, even, he did not +understand her any more than if she had been speaking a foreign +language. She had never any difficulty in penetrating his meaning as he +had in penetrating hers, but there were times when she did not +understand him any more than he understood her. She was by far the +easiest in morals, the least Puritanical. It was not easy to shock Bice, +but it was not at all difficult to shock Jock, brought up as he was in +the highest sentiments under the wing of MTutor, who believed in moral +influence. But the fashion of the intercourse held between these two, +was very remarkable in its way. They were like brother and sister, +without being brother and sister. They were strangers to each other, yet +living in the most entire intimacy, and likely to be parted for ever +to-morrow. They were of the same age, yet the girl was, in experience of +life, a world in advance of the boy, who, notwithstanding, had the +better of her in a thousand ways. In short, they were a paradox, such as +youth, more or less, is always, and the careless close companionship +that grew up between them was at once the most natural and the most +strange alliance. They told each other everything by degrees, without +being at all aware of the nature of their mutual confidence; Bice +revealing to Jock the conditions on which she was to be brought out in +England, and Jock to Bice the unusual features of his own and his +sister's position, to the unbounded astonishment and scepticism of each. + +"Beautiful?" said Jock, drawing a long breath. "But beautiful's not a +thing you can go in for, like an exam: You're born so, or you're born +not so; and you know you're not--I mean, you know you're---- Well, it +isn't your fault. Are you going to be sent away for just being--not +pretty?" + +"I told you," said the girl, with a little impatience. "Being pretty is +of no consequence. I am pretty, of course," she added regretfully. "But +it is only if I turn out beautiful that she will take the trouble. And +at sixteen, I am told, one cannot yet know." + +"But--" cried Jock with a sort of consternation, "you don't mind, do +you? I don't mean anything unkind, you know; I don't think it +matters--and I am sure it isn't your fault; you are not +even--good-looking," candour compelled the boy to say, as to an honest +comrade with whom sincerity was best. + +"Ah!" cried Bice, with a little excitement. "Do you think so? Then +perhaps there is more hope." + +Jock was confounded by this utterance, and he began to feel that he had +been uncivil. "I don't mean," he said, "that you are not--I mean that it +is not of the least consequence. What does it matter? I am sure you are +clever, which is far better. I think you could get up anything faster +than most fellows if you were to try." + +"Get up! What does that mean? And when I tell you that it does matter to +me--oh much,--very much!" she cried. "When you are beautiful, everything +is before you--you marry, you have whatever you wish, you become a great +lady; only to be pretty--that does nothing for you. Ugly, however," said +the girl reflectively; "if I am ugly, then there is some hope." + +"I did not say that," cried Jock, shocked at the suggestion. "I wouldn't +be so uncivil. You are--just like other people," he added encouragingly, +"not much either one way or another--like the rest of us," Jock said, +with the intention of soothing her ruffled feelings. At sixteen decorum +is not always the first thing we think of; and though Bice was not an +English girl, she was very young. She threw out a vigorous arm and +pushed him from her, so that the astonished critic, stumbling over some +fallen branches, measured his length upon the dewy sod. + +"That was not I," she said demurely, as he picked himself up in great +surprise--drawing a step away, and looking at him with wide-open eyes, +to which the little fright of seeing him fall, and the spark of malice +that took pleasure in it, had given sudden brilliancy. Jock was so much +astonished that he uttered no reproach, but went on by her side, after a +moment, pondering. He could not see how any offence could have lurked +in the encouraging and consolatory words he had said. + +But when they reached the other chapter, which concerned his fortunes, +Bice was not more understanding. Her gray eyes absolutely flamed upon +him when he told her of his father's will, and the conditions upon which +Lucy's inheritance was held. "To give her money away! But that is +impossible--it would be to prove one's self mad," the girl said. + +"Why? You forget it's my father you're speaking of. He was not mad, he +was just," said Jock, reddening. "What's mad in it? You've got a great +fortune--far more than you want. It all came out of other people's +pockets somehow. Oh, of course, not in a dishonest way. That is the +worst of speaking to a girl that doesn't understand political economy +and the laws of production. Of course it must come out of other people's +pockets. If I sell anything and get a profit (and nobody would sell +anything if they didn't get a profit), of course that comes out of your +pocket. Well, now, I've got a great deal more than I want, and I say you +shall have some of it back." + +"And I say," cried Bice, making him a curtsey, "Merci Monsieur! Grazia +Signor! oh thank you, thank you very much--as much as you like, sir, as +much as you like! but all the same I think you are mad. Your money! all +that makes you happy and great----" + +"Money," said Jock, loftily, "makes nobody happy. It may make you +comfortable. It gives you fine houses, horses and carriages, and all +that sort of thing. So it will do to the other people to whom it goes; +so it is wisdom to divide it, for the more good you can get out of it +the better. Lucy has money lying in the bank--or somewhere--that she +does not want, that does her no good; and there is some one else" (a +fellow I know, Jock added in a parenthesis), "who has not got enough to +live upon. So you see she just hands over what she doesn't want to him, +and that's better for both. So far from being mad, it's"--Jock paused +for a word--"it's philosophy, it's wisdom, it's statesmanship. It is +just the grandest way that was ever invented for putting things +straight." + +Bice looked at him with a sort of incredulous cynical gaze--as if asking +whether he meant her to believe this fiction--whether perhaps he was +such a fool as to think that she could be persuaded to believe it. It +was evident that she did not for a moment suppose him to be serious. She +laughed at last in ridicule and scorn. "You think," she said, "I know so +little. Ah, I know a great deal more than that. What are you without +money? You are nobody. The more you have, so much more have you +everything at your command. Without money you are nobody. Yes, you may +be a prince or an English milord, but that is nothing without money. Oh +yes! I have known princes that had nothing and the people laughed at +them. And a milord who is poor--the very donkey-boys scorn him. You can +do nothing without money," the girl said with almost fierce derision, +"and you tell me you will give it away!" She laughed again angrily, as +if such a brag was offensive and insulting to her own poverty. The boy +who had never in his life known what it was to want anything that money +could procure for him, treated the whole question lightly, and +undervalued its importance altogether. But the girl who knew by +experience what was involved in the want of it, heard with a sort of +wondering fury this slighting treatment of what was to her the +universal panacea. Her cynicism and satirical unbelief grew into +indignation. "And you tell me it is wise to give it away!" + +"Lucy has got to do it, whether it is wise or not," said Jock, almost +overawed by this high moral disapproval. "We went to the lawyer about it +the day you came. He is settling it now. She is giving away--well, a +good many thousand pounds." + +"Pounds are more than francs, eh?" said Bice quickly. + +"More than francs! just twenty-five times more," cried Jock, proud of +his knowledge, "a thousand pounds is----" + +"Then I don't believe you!" cried the girl in an outburst of passion, +and she fled from him across the park, catching up her dress and running +at a pace which even Jock with his long legs knew he could not keep up +with. He gazed with surprise, standing still and watching her with the +words arrested on his lips. "But she can't keep it up long like that," +after a moment Jock said. + +The time, however, approached when the two friends had to part. Jock +left the Hall a few days after Lady Randolph, and he was somehow not +very glad to go. The family life had been less cheerful lately, and +conversation languished when the domestic party were alone together. +When the Contessa was present she kept up the ball, maintaining at least +with Sir Tom an always animated and lively strain of talk; but at +breakfast there was not much said, and of late a little restraint had +crept even between the master and mistress of the house, no one could +tell how. The names of the guests were scarcely mentioned between them. +Sir Tom was very attentive and kind to his wife, but he was more silent +than he used to be, reading his letters and his newspapers. Lucy had +been quite satisfied when he said, though it must be allowed with a +laugh not devoid of embarrassment, that it was more important he should +master all the papers and see how public opinion was running, now when +it was so near the opening of Parliament. But a little veil of silence +had fallen over Lucy too. It cost her an effort to speak even to Jock of +common subjects and of his going away. She had thought him looking a +little disturbed, however, on the last morning, and with the newspaper +forming a sort of screen between them and Sir Tom, Lucy made an attempt +to talk to her brother as of old. + +"I shall miss you very much, Jock. We have not had so much time together +as we thought." + +"We have had no time together, Lucy." + +"You must not say that, dear. Don't you recollect that drive to +Farafield? We have not had so many walks, it is true; but then I have +been--occupied." + +"Is it ever finished yet, that business?" Jock said suddenly. + +It was all Lucy could do not to give him a warning look. "I have had +some letters about it. A thing cannot be finished in a minute like +that." Instinctively she spoke low to escape her husband's ear; he had +never referred to the subject, and she avoided it religiously. It gave +her a thrill of alarm to have it thus reintroduced. To escape it, she +said, raising her voice a little: "The Contessa's letters have not been +sent to her. You must ring the bell, Jock. There are a great many for +her." The name of the Contessa always moved Sir Tom to a certain +attention. He seemed to be on the alert for what might be said of her. +He looked round the corner of the paper with a short laugh, and said, +jocularly, with mock gravity-- + +"It is a great thing to keep up your correspondence, Lucy. You never can +know when it may prove serviceable. If it had not been for that, she +most likely never would have come here." + +Lucy smiled, though with a little restraint. "Perhaps she is sorry now," +she said, "for it must be dull." Then she hurriedly changed the subject, +afraid lest she might seem ill-natured. "Poor Miss Bice has never any +letters," she said; "she must have very few friends." + +"Oh, she has nobody at all," said Jock, "She hasn't got a relation. She +has always lived like this, in different places; and never been to +school, or--anywhere; though she has been nearly round the world." + +"Poor little thing! and she is fond of children too," said Lucy. "I +found her one day with baby on her shoulder, a wet day when he could not +get out, racing up and down the long gallery with him crowing and +laughing. It was so pretty to see him----" + +"Or to see her, Lucy, most people would say," said Sir Tom, interrupting +again. + +"Would they? Oh, yes. But I thought naturally of baby," said the young +mother. Then she made a pause and added softly, "I hope--they--are +always kind to her." + +There was a little silence. Sir Tom was behind his newspaper. He +listened, but he did not say anything, and Jock was not aware that he +was listening. + +"Oh, I don't think she minds," said Jock. "She is rather jolly when you +come to know her. I say, Lucy, it will be awfully dull for her, you +know, when----" + +"When what, Jock?" + +"When I am gone," the boy intended to have said, but some gleam of +consciousness came over him that made him pause. He did not say this, +but grew a little red in the effort to think of something else that he +could say. + +"Well, I mean here," he said, "for she hasn't been used to it. She has +been in places where there was always music playing and that sort of +thing. She never was in the country. There's plenty of books, to be +sure; but she's not very fond of reading. Few people, are, I think. +_You_ never open a book----" + +"Oh yes, Jock! I read the books from Mudie's," Lucy said, with some +spirit, "and I always send them upstairs." + +Jock had it on his lips to say something derogatory of the books from +Mudie's; but he checked himself, for he remembered to have seen MTutor +with one of those frivolous volumes, and he refrained from snubbing +Lucy. "I believe she can't read," he said. "She can do nothing but laugh +at one. And she thinks she's pretty," he added, with a little laugh yet +sense of unfaithfulness to the trust reposed in him, which once more +covered his face with crimson. + +Lucy laughed too, with hesitation and doubt. "I cannot see it," she +said, "but that is what Lady Randolph thought. It is strange that she +should talk of such things; but people are very funny who have been +brought up abroad." + +"All girls are like that," said Jock, authoritatively. "They think so +much of being pretty. But I tell her it doesn't matter. What difference +could it make? Nobody will suppose it was her fault. She says----" + +"Hallo, young man," said Sir Tom. "It is time you went back to school, I +think. What would MTutor say to all these confidences with young +ladies, and knowledge of their ways!" + +Jock gave his brother-in-law a look, in which defiant virtue struggled +with a certain consciousness; but he scorned to make any reply. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII. + +THE BREAKFAST TABLE. + + +Lucy found her life much changed when Jock had gone, and she was left +alone to face the change of circumstances which had tacitly taken place. +The Contessa said not a word of terminating her visit. The departure of +Lady Randolph apparently suggested nothing to her. She could scarcely +have filled up the foreground more entirely than she did before--but she +was now uncriticised, unremarked upon. There seemed even to be no +appropriation of more than her due, for it was very natural that a +person of experience and powers of conversation like hers should take +the leading place, and simple Lucy, so much younger and with so much +less acquaintance with the world, fall into the background. And +accordingly this was what happened. Madame di Forno-Populo knew +everybody. She had a hundred mutual acquaintances to tell Sir Tom about, +and they seemed to have an old habit of intercourse, which by this time +had been fully resumed. The evenings were the time when this was most +apparent. Then the Contessa was at her brightest. She had managed to +introduce shades upon all the lamps, so as to diffuse round her a +softened artificial illumination such as is favourable to beauty that +has passed its prime: and in this ruddy gloom she sat half seen, Sir Tom +sometimes standing by her, sometimes permitted to take the other corner +of her sofa--and talked to him, sometimes sinking her voice low as her +reminiscences took some special vein, sometimes calling sweetly to her +pretty Lucy to listen to this or that. These extensions of confidence, +generally, were brought in to make up for a long stretch of more private +communications, and the aspect of the little domestic circle was on such +occasions curious enough. By the table, in a low chair, with the full +light of the lamp upon her, sat Lucy, generally with some work in her +hands; she did not read or write (exercises to which, to tell the truth, +she was not much addicted) out of politeness, lest she should seem to be +withdrawing her attention from her guest, but sat there with her slight +occupation, so as to be open to any appeal, and ready if she were +wanted. On the other side of the table, the light making a sort of +screen and division between them, sat Bice, generally with a book before +her, which, as has been said, did not at all interfere with her power of +giving a vivid attention to what was going on around her. These two said +nothing to each other, and were often silent for the whole evening, like +pieces of still life. Bice sat with her book upon the table, so that +only the open page and the hands that held the book were within the +brightness of the light, which on the other side streamed down upon +Lucy's fair shoulders and soft young face, and upon the work in her +hands. In the corner was the light continuous murmur of talk; the +half-seen figure of the Contessa, generally leaning back, looking up to +Sir Tom, who stood with his arm on the mantelpiece with much animation, +gesticulation of her hands and subdued laughter, the most lively +current of sound, soft, intensified by little eloquent breaks, by +emphatic gestures, by sentences left incomplete, but understood all the +better for being half said. There were many evenings in which Lucy sat +there with a little wonder, but no other active feeling in her mind. It +is needless to say that it was not pleasant to her. She would sit and +wonder wistfully whether her husband had forgotten she was there, but +then reminded herself that of course it was his duty to think of the +Contessa first, and consoled herself that by and by the stranger would +go away, and all would be as it had been. As time went on, the desire +that this should happen, and longing to have possession of her home +again, grew so strong that she could scarcely subdue it, and it was with +the greatest difficulty that she kept all expression of it from her +lips. And by and by, the warmth of this restrained desire so absorbed +Lucy that she scarcely dared allow herself to speak lest it should burst +forth, and there seemed to herself to be continually going on in her +mind a calculation of the chances, a scrutiny of everything the Contessa +said which seemed to point at such a movement. But, indeed, the Contessa +said very little upon which the most sanguine could build. She said +nothing of her arrangements at all, nor spoke of what she was going to +do, and answered none of Lucy's ardent and innocent fishings after +information. The evenings became more and more intolerable to Lady +Randolph as they went on. She was glad that anybody should come, however +little she might care for their society, to break these private +conferences up. + +And this was not all, nor even perhaps the worst, of the vague evils not +yet defined in her mind, and which she was so very reluctant to define, +which Lucy had to go through. At breakfast, when she was alone with her +husband, matters were almost worse. Sir Tom, it was evident, began to +feel the _tête-à-tête_ embarrassing. He did not know what to say to his +little wife when they were alone. The presence of the Dowager and Jock +had freed him from any necessity of explanation, had kept him in his +usual easy way; but now that Lucy alone sat opposite to him, he was more +silent than his wont, and with no longer any of the little flow of +simple observations which had once been so delightful to her. Sir Tom +was more uneasy than if she had been a stern and jealous Eleanor, a +clear-sighted critic seeing through and through him. The contest was so +unequal, and the weaker creature so destitute of any intention or +thought of resistance, that he felt himself a coward and traitor for +thus deserting her and overclouding her home and her life. Then he took +to asking himself, Did he overcloud her? Was she sensible of any +difference? Did she know enough to know that this was not how she ought +to be treated, or was she not quite contented with her secondary place? +Such a simple creature, would she not cry--would she not show her anger +if she was conscious of anything to be grieved or angry about? He took +refuge in those newspapers which, he gave out, it was so necessary he +should study, to understand the mind of the country before the opening +of Parliament. And thus they would sit, Lucy dutifully filling out the +tea, taking care that he had the dish he liked for breakfast, swallowing +her own with difficulty yet lingering over it, always thinking that +perhaps Tom might have something to say. While he, on the other hand, +kept behind his newspaper, feeling himself guilty, conscious that +another sort of woman would make one of those "scenes" which men dread, +yet despising Lucy a little in spite of himself for the very quality he +most admired in her, and wondering if she were really capable of feeling +at all. Sometimes little Tom would be brought downstairs to roll about +the carpet and try his unsteady little limbs in a series of clutches at +the chairs and table; and on these occasions the meal was got through +more easily. But little Tom was not always well enough to come +downstairs, and sometimes Lucy thought that her husband might have +something to say to her which the baby's all-engrossing presence +hindered. Thus it came about that the hours in which the Contessa was +present and in the front of everything, were really less painful than +those in which the pair were alone with the shadow of the intruder, more +powerful even than her presence holding them apart. + +One of these mornings, however, Lucy's anticipations and hopes seemed +about to be realised. Sir Tom laid down his paper, looked at her frankly +without any shield, and said, as she had so often imagined him saying, +"I want to talk to you, Lucy." How glad she was that little Tom was not +downstairs that morning! + +She looked at him across the table with a brightening countenance, and +said, "Yes, Tom!" with such warm eagerness and sudden pleasure that her +look penetrated his very heart. It implied a great deal more than Sir +Tom intended and thought, and he was a man of very quick intelligence. +The expectation in her eyes touched him beyond a thousand complaints. + +"I had an interview yesterday, in which you were much concerned," he +said; then made a pause, with such a revolution going on within him as +seldom happens in a mature and self-collected mind. He had begun with +totally different sentiments from those which suddenly came over him at +the sight of her kindling face. When he said, "I want to talk to you, +Lucy," he had meant to speak of her interview with Mr. Rushton, to point +out to her the folly of what she was doing, and to show her how it was +that he should be compelled to do everything that was in his power to +oppose her. He did not mean to go to the root of the matter, as he had +done before, when he was obliged to admit to himself that he had +failed--but to address himself to the secondary view of the question, to +the small prospect there was of doing any good. But when he caught her +eager, questioning look, her eyes growing liquid and bright with +emotion, her face full of restrained anxiety and hope, Sir Tom's heart +smote him. What did she think he was going to say? Not anything about +money, important as that subject was in their life--but something far +more important, something that touched her to the quick, a revelation +upon which her very soul hung. He was startled beyond measure by this +disclosure. He had thought she did not feel, and that her heart +unawakened had regarded calmly, with no pain to speak of, the new state +of affairs of which he himself was guiltily conscious; but that eager +look put an end in a moment to his delusion. He paused and swerved +mentally as if an angel had suddenly stepped into his way. + +"It is about--that will of your father's," he said. + +Lucy, gazing at him with such hope and expectation, suddenly sank, as it +were, prostrate in the depth of a disappointment that almost took the +life out of her. She did not indeed fall physically or faint, which +people seldom do in moments of extreme mental suffering. It was only her +countenance that fell. Her brightening, beaming, hopeful face grew +blank in a moment, her eyes grew utterly dim, a kind of mist running +over them: a sound--half a sob, half a sigh, came from her breast. She +put up her hand trembling to support her head, which shook too with the +quiver that went over her. It took her at least a minute to get over the +shock of the disappointment. Then commanding herself painfully, but +without looking at him, which, indeed, she dared not do, she said again, +"Yes, Tom?" with a piteous quiver of her lip. + +It did not make Sir Tom any the less kind, and full of tender impulses, +that he was wounding his wife in the profoundest sensibilities of her +heart. In this point the greater does not include the lesser. He was +cruel in the more important matter, without intending it indeed, and +from what he considered a fatality, a painful combination of +circumstances out of which he could not escape; but in the lesser +particulars he was as kind as ever. He could not bear to see her +suffering. The quiver in her lip, the failure of the colour in her +cheeks affected him so that he could scarcely contain himself. + +"My dear love," he cried, "my little Lucy! you are not afraid of what I +am going to say to you?" These words came to his lips naturally, by the +affectionate impulse of his kind nature. But when he had said them, an +impulse, which was perhaps more crafty than loving, followed. Quick as +thought he changed his intention, his purpose altogether. He could not +resist the appeal of Lucy's face; but he slipped instinctively from the +more serious question that lay between them, and resolved to sacrifice +the other, which was indeed very important, yet could be treated in an +easier way and without involving anything more painful. Sir Tom was at +an age when money has a great value, and the mere sense of possession is +pleasant; and there was a principle involved which he had determined a +few weeks ago not to relinquish. But the position in which he found +himself placed was one out of which some way of escape had to be +invented at once. "Lucy," he said, "you are frightened; you think I am +going to cross you in the matter that lies so near your heart. But you +mistake me, my dear. I think I ought to be your chief adviser in that as +in all matters. It is my duty: but I hope you never thought that I would +exercise any force upon you to put a stop to--what you thought right." + +Lucy had overcome herself, though with a painful effort. She followed +with a quivering humility what he was saying. She acknowledged to +herself that this was, indeed, the great thing in her life, and that it +was only her childishness and foolishness which had made her place other +matters in the chief place. Most likely, she said to herself, Tom was +not aware of anything that required explanation; he would never think it +possible that she could be so ungracious and unkind as to grudge his +guests their place in his house. She gathered herself up hastily to meet +him when he entered upon the great question which was far more +important, which was indeed the only question between them. "I know," +she said, "that you were always kind, Tom. If I did not ask you first it +was because----" + +"We need not enter upon that, my dear. I was angry, and went too far. At +the same time, Lucy, it is a mad affair altogether. Your father himself, +had he realised the difficulty of carrying it out, would have seen this. +I only say so to let you know my opinion is unchanged. And you know +your trustees are of the same mind. But if you think this is your duty, +as I am sure you do----" + +It seemed to Lucy that her duty had sailed far away from her on some sea +of strange distance and dullness where she could scarcely keep it in +sight. Her own very voice seemed strange and dull to her and far away, +as she said almost mechanically: "I do think it is my duty--to my +father----" + +"I am aware that you think so, my love. As you get older you will, +perhaps, see as I do--that to carry out the spirit of your father's will +would be better than to follow so closely the letter of it. But you are +still very young, and Jock is younger; and, fortunately, you can afford +to indulge a freak of this sort. I shall let Mr. Rushton know that I +withdraw all opposition. And now, give me a kiss, and let us forget that +there ever was any controversy between us--it never went further than a +controversy, did it, darling?" Sir Tom said. + +Lucy could not speak for the moment. She looked up into his face with +her eyes all liquid with tears, and a great confusion in her soul. Was +this all? as he kissed her, and smiled, leaning over her in the old kind +way, with a tenderness that was half-fatherly and indulgent to her +weakness, she did not seem at all sure what it was that had moved like a +ghost between him and her; was it in reality only this--this and no +more? She almost thought so as she looked up into his kind face. Only +this! How glad it would have made her three weeks ago to have his +sanction for the thing she was so reluctant to attempt, which it was so +much her duty to do, which Jock urged with so much pertinacity, and +which her father from his grave enjoined. If it affected her but dully +now, whose was the fault? Not Tom's, who was so generously ready to +yield to her, although he disapproved. When he retired behind his +newspaper once more with a kind smile at her, to end the matter, Lucy +sat quite still in a curious stunned confusion trying to account for it +all to herself. There could be no doubt, she thought, that it was she +who was in the wrong. She it was who had created the embarrassment +altogether. He was not even aware of any other cause. It had never +occurred to his greater mind that she could be so petty as to fret under +the interruption which their visitors had made in her life. He had +thought that the other matter was the cause of her dullness and silence, +and generously had put an end to it, not by requiring any sacrifice from +her, but by making one in his own person. She sat silent trying to +realise all this, but unable to get quite free from the confusion and +dimness that had invaded her soul. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV. + +THE ORACLE SPEAKS. + + +Lucy went up to the nursery when breakfast was over. It was her habit to +go and take counsel of little Tom when her heart was troubled or heavy. +He was now eighteen months old, an age at which you will say the +judicial faculties are small; but a young mother has superstitions, and +there are many dilemmas in life in which it will do a woman, though the +male critic may laugh, great good to go and confide it all to her baby, +and hold that little bundle of white against her heart to conquer the +pain of it. When little Tom was lively and well, when he put his arms +about her neck and dabbed his velvety mouth against her cheek, Lucy felt +that she was approved of and her heart rose. When he was cross and cried +and pushed her away from him, as sometimes happened, she ceased to be +sure of anything, and felt dissatisfied with herself and all the world. +It was with a great longing to consult this baby oracle and see what +heaven might have to say to her through his means, that she ran +upstairs, neglecting even Mrs. Freshwater, who advanced ceremoniously +from her own retirement with her bill of fare in her hand, as Lucy +darted past. "Wait a little and I will come to you," she cried. What was +the dinner in comparison? She flew up to the nursery only to find it +vacant. The morning was clingy and damp, no weather for the delicate +child to go out, and Lucy was not alarmed but knew well enough where to +find him. The long picture gallery which ran along the front of the +house was his usual promenade on such occasions, and there she betook +herself hurriedly. There could not be much doubt as to little Tom's +whereabouts. Shrieks of baby fun were audible whenever she came within +hearing, and the sound of a flying foot careering from end to end of the +long space, which certainly was not the foot of Tom's nurse, whose voice +could be heard in cries of caution, "Oh, take care, Miss! Oh, for +goodness sake--oh, what will my lady say to me if you should trip with +him!" Lucy paused suddenly, checked by the sound of this commotion. Once +before she had surprised a scene of the kind, and she knew what it +meant. She stopped short, and stood still to get possession of herself. +It was a circumstance which pulled her up sharply and changed the +current of her mind. Her first feeling was one of disappointment and +almost irritation. Could she not even have the baby to herself, she +murmured? But there was in reality so little of the petty in Lucy's +disposition that this was but a momentary sentiment. It changed, +however, the manner of her entrance. She came in quietly, not rushing to +seize her boy as she had intended, but still with her superstition +strong in her heart, and as determined to resort to the _Sortes Tomianae_ +as ever. The sight she saw was one to make a picture of. Skimming along +the long gallery with that free light step which scarcely seemed to +touch the ground was Bice, a long stream of hair flying behind her, the +child seated on her shoulder, supported by one raised arm, while the +other held aloft the end of a red scarf which she had twisted round him. +Little Tom had one hand twisted in her hair, and with his small feet +beating upon her breast, and his little chest expanded with cries of +delight, encouraged his steed in her wild career. The dark old pictures, +some full-length Randolphs of an elder age, good for little but a +background, threw up this airy group with all the perfection of +contrast. They flew by as Lucy came in, so joyous, so careless, so +delightful in pose and movement, that she could not utter the little cry +of alarm that came to her lips. Bice had never in her life looked so +near that beauty which she considered as so serious a necessity. She was +flushed with the movement, her fine light figure, too light and slight +as yet for the full perfection of feminine form, was the very +impersonation of youth. She flew, she did not glide nor run--her elastic +foot spurned the floor. She was like a runner in a Greek game. Lucy +stood breathless between admiration and pleasure and alarm, as the +animated figure turned and came fast towards her in its airy career. +Little Tom perceived his mother as they came up. He was still more +daring than his bearer. He detached himself suddenly from Bice's +shoulder, and with a shout of pleasure threw himself upon Lucy. The +oracle had spoken. It almost brought her to her knees indeed, descending +upon her like a little thunderbolt, catching her round the throat and +tearing off with a hurried clutch the lace upon her dress; while the +flying steed, suddenly arrested, came to a dead stop in front of her, +panting, blushing, and disconcerted. "There was no fear," she cried, +with involuntary self-defence, "I held him fast." Bice forgot even in +the surprise how wildly she stood with her hair floating, and the scarf +in her hand still knotted round the baby's waist. + +"There was no danger, my lady. I was watching every step; and it do +Master Tom a world of good," cried the nurse, coming to the rescue. + +"Why should you think I am afraid?" said Lucy. "Don't you know I am most +grateful to you for being so kind to him? and it was pretty to see you. +You looked so bright and strong, and my boy so happy." + +"Miss is just our salvation, my lady," said the nurse; "these wet days +when we can't get out, I don't know what I should do without her. Master +Tom, bless him, is always cross when he don't get no air; but once set +on Miss' shoulder he crows till it do your heart good to hear him," the +woman cried. + +Bice stood with the colour still in her face, her head thrown back a +little, and her breath coming less quickly. She laughed at this +applause. "I like it," she said. "I like him; he is my only little +companion. He is pleased when he sees me." + +This went to Lucy's heart. "And so are we all," she said; "but you will +not let me see you. I am often alone, too. If you will come and--and +give me your company----" + +Bice gave her a wistful look; then shook her head. + +"I know you do not wish for us here; and why should you?" she said. + +"My dear!" cried Lucy in alarm, with a glance at the woman who stood by, +all ears. And now it was that little Tom at eighteen months showed that +precocious judgment in which his mother had an instinctive belief. He +had satisfied himself with the destruction of Lucy's lace, and with +printing the impression of his mouth all over her cheeks. That little +wet wide open mouth was delicious to Lucy. No trouble had befallen her +yet that could not be wiped out by its touch. But now a new distraction +was necessary for the little hero; and his eye caught the red sash which +still was round his waist. He transferred all his thoughts to it with an +instant revolution of idea, and holding on by it like a little sailor on +a rope, drew Bice close till he could succeed in the arduous task, not +unattended by danger, of flinging himself from one to another. This game +enchanted Master Tom. Had he been a little older it would have been +changed into that daring faltering hop from one eminence, say a +footstool, to another, which flutters the baby soul. He was too insecure +in possession of those aimless little legs to venture on any such daring +feat now; but, with a valour more desperate still, he flung himself +across the gulf from Lucy's arms to those of Bice and back again, with +cries of delight. These cries, it must be allowed, were not very +articulate, but they soon became urgent, with a demand which the little +tyrant insisted upon with increasing vehemence. + +"Oh, my lady," cried the nurse, "it is as plain as if he said it, and he +is saying of it, the pet, as pretty!---- He wants you to kiss Miss, he +do. Ain't that it, my own? Nursey knows his little talk. Ain't that it, +my darling lamb?" + +There was a momentary pause in the strange little group linked together +by the baby's clutches. The young mother and the girl with their heads +so near each other, looked in each other's faces. In Lucy's there was a +kind of awe, in Bice's a sort of wondering wistfulness mingled with +incipient defiance. They were not born to be each other's friends. They +were different in everything; they were even on different sides in this +house--the one an intruder, belonging to the party which was destroying +the other's domestic peace. It would be vain to say that there was not a +little reluctance in Lucy's soul as she gazed at the younger girl, come +from she knew not where, established under her roof she knew not how. +She hesitated for one moment, then she bent forward almost with +solemnity and kissed Bice's cheek. She seemed to communicate her own +agitation to the girl who stood straight up with her head a little back, +half eager, half defiant. When Bice felt the touch of Lucy's lips, +however, she melted in a moment. Her slight figure swayed, she took +Lucy's disengaged hand with her own, and, stooping over it, kissed it +with lips that quivered. There was not a word said between them; but a +secret compact was thus made under little Tom's inspiration. The little +oracle clambered up upon his mother afterwards, and laid down his head +upon her shoulder and dropped off to sleep with that entire confiding +and abandonment of the whole little being which is one of the deepest +charms of childhood. Who is there with any semblance of a heart in his, +much more her, bosom, who is not touched in the tenderest part when a +child goes to sleep in his arms? The appeal conveyed in the act is one +which scarcely a savage could withstand. The three women gathered round +to see this common spectacle, so universal, so touching. Bice, who was +almost too young for the maternal sentiment, and who was a stern young +Stoic by nature, never shedding a tear, could not tell how it was that +her eyes moistened. But Lucy's filled with an emotion which was sharp +and sore with alarm. "Oh, nurse, don't call my boy a little angel!" she +said, with a sentiment which a woman will understand. + +This baby scene upstairs was balanced by one of a very different +character below. Sir Tom had gone into his own room a little disturbed +and out of sorts. Circumstances had been hard upon him, he felt. The +Contessa's letter offering her visit had been a jest to him. He was one +of those who thought the best of the Contessa. He had seen a good deal +of her one time and another in his life, and she held the clue to one or +two matters which it would not have pleased him, at this mature period +of his existence, to have published abroad. She was an adventuress, he +knew, and her friends were not among the best of humanity. She had led a +life which, without being positively evil, had shut her out from the +sympathies of many good people. When a woman has to solve the problem +how to obtain all the luxuries and amusements of life without money, it +is to be expected that her attempts to do so should lead her into risky +places, where the footing was far from sure. But she had never, as Lady +Randolph acknowledged, gone so far as that society should refuse to +receive her, and Sir Tom was always an indulgent critic. If she were +coming to England, as she gave him to understand, he saw no reason why +she should not come to the Hall. For himself, it would be rather amusing +than otherwise, and Lucy would take no harm--even if there was harm in +the Forno-Populo (which he did not believe), his wife was far too +innocent even to suspect it. She would not know evil if she saw it, he +said to himself proudly; and then there was no chance that the Contessa, +who loved merriment and gaiety, could long be content with anything so +humdrum as his quiet life in the country. Thus it will be seen that Sir +Tom had got himself innocently enough into this imbroglio. He had meant +no particular harm. He had meant to be kind to a poor woman, who after +all needed kindness much; and if the comic character of the situation +touched his sense of humour, and he was not unwilling in his own person +to get a little amusement out of it, who could blame him? This was the +worst that Sir Tom meant. To amuse himself partly by the sight of the +conventional beauty and woman of the world in the midst of circumstances +so incongruous, and partly by the fluttering of the dovecotes which the +appearance of such an adventuress would cause. He liked her conversation +too, and to hear all about the more noisy company, full of talk and +diversion in which he had wasted so much of his youth. But there were +two or three things which Sir Tom did not take into his calculations. +The first was the sort of fascination which that talk, and all the +associations of the old world, and the charms of the professional +sorceress, would exercise upon himself after his settling down as the +head of a family and pillar of the State. He had not thought how much +amused he would be, how the contrast even would tickle his fancy and +affect (for the moment) his life. He laughed within himself at the +transparent way in which his old friend bade for his sympathy and +society. She was the same as ever, living upon admiration, upon +compliments whether fictitious or not, and demanding a show of devotion, +somebody always at her feet. She thought, no doubt, he said to himself, +that she had got him at her feet, and he laughed to himself when he was +alone at the thought. But, nevertheless, it did amuse him to talk to the +Contessa, and before long, what with skilful reminders of the past, what +with hints and reference to a knowledge which he would not like extended +to the world, he had begun by degrees to find himself in a confidential +position with her. "We know each other's secrets," she would say to him +with a meaning look. He was caught in her snare. On the other hand an +indefinite visit prolonged and endless had never come within his +calculation. He did not know how to put an end to the situation--perhaps +as it was an amusement for his evenings to see the siren spread her +snares, and even to be more or less caught in them, he did not sincerely +wish to put an end to it as yet. He was caught in them more or less, but +never so much as to be unaware of the skill with which the snares were +laid, which would have amused him whatever had been the seriousness of +the attendant circumstances. He did not, however, allow that he had no +desire to make an end of these circumstances, but only said to himself, +with a shrug of his shoulders, how could he do it? He could not send his +old friend away. He could not but be civil and attentive to her so long +as she was under his roof. It distressed him that Lucy should feel it, +as this morning's experience proved her to do, but how could he help it? +He made that other sacrifice to Lucy by way of reconciling her to the +inevitable, but he could do no more. When you invite a friend to be your +guest, he said to himself, you must be more or less at the mercy of that +friend. If he (or she) stays too long, what can you do? Sir Tom was not +the sort of man to be reduced to helplessness by such a difficulty. Yet +this was what he said to himself. + +It vexed him, however, that Lucy should feel it so much. He could not +throw off this uneasy feeling. He had stopped her mouth as one might +stop a child's mouth with a sugar plum; but he could not escape from the +consciousness that Lucy felt her domain invaded, and that her feeling +was just. He had thrown himself into the great chair, and was pondering +not what to do, but the impossibility of doing anything, when Williams, +his confidential man, who knew all about the Contessa almost as well as +he did, suddenly appeared before him. Williams had been all over the +world with Sir Tom before he settled down as his butler at the Hall. He +was, therefore, not one who could be dismissed summarily if he +interfered in any matter out of his sphere. He appeared on the other +side of Sir Tom's writing-table with a face as long as his arm, the face +with which Sir Tom was so well acquainted--the same face with which he +had a hundred times announced the failure of supplies, the delay of +carriages, the general hopelessness of the situation. There was tragedy +in it of the most solemn kind, but there was a certain enjoyment too. + +"What is the matter?" said Sir Tom; and then he jumped to his feet. +"Something is wrong with the baby," he cried. + +"No, Sir Thomas; Mr. Randolph is pretty well, thank you, Sir Thomas. It +is about something else that I made so bold. There is Antonio, sir, in +the servants' hall; Madame the Countess' man." + +"Oh, the Countess," cried Sir Tom, and he seated himself again; then +said, with the confidence of a man to the follower who has been his +companion in many straits, "You gave me a fright, Williams. I thought +that little shaver---- But what's the matter with Antonio? Can't you keep +a fellow like that in order without bothering me?" + +"Sir Thomas," said Williams, solemnly, "I am not one as troubles my +master when things are straightforward. But them foreigners, you never +know when you have 'em. And an idle man about an establishment, that is, +so to speak, under nobody, and for ever a-kicking of his heels, and +following the women servants about, and not a blessed hand's turn to +do"--a tone of personal offence came into Williams' complaint; "there is +a deal to do in this house," he added, "and neither me nor any of the +men haven't got a moment to spare. Why, there's your hunting things, Sir +Thomas, is just a man's work. And to see that fellow loafing, and +a-hanging on about the women--I don't wonder, Sir Thomas, that it's more +than any man can stand," said Williams, lighting up. He was a married +man himself, with a very respectable family in the village, but he was +not too old to be able to understand the feelings of John and Charles, +whose hearts were lacerated by the success of the Italian fellow with +his black eyes. + +"Well, well, don't worry me," said Sir Tom, "take him by the collar and +give him a shake. You're big enough." Then he laughed unfeelingly, which +Williams did not expect. "Too big, eh, Will? Not so ready for a shindy +as we used to be." This identification of himself with his factotum was +mere irony, and Williams felt it; for Sir Tom, if perhaps less slim than +in his young days, was still what Williams called a "fine figger of a +man;" whereas the butler had widened much round the waist, and was apt +to puff as he came upstairs, and no longer contemplated a shindy as a +possibility at all. + +"Sir Thomas," he said, with great gravity, "if I'm corpulent, which I +don't deny, but never thought to have it made a reproach, it's neither +over-feeding nor want of care, but constitootion, as derived from my +parents, Sir Thomas. There is nothing," he added with a pensive +superiority, "as is so gen'rally misunderstood." Then Williams drew +himself up to still greater dignity, stimulated by Sir Tom's laugh. "If +this fellow is to be long in the house, Sir Thomas, I won't answer for +what may happen; for he's got the devil's own temper, like all of them, +and carries a knife like all of them." + +"What do you want of me, man? Say it out! Am I to represent to Madame di +Forno-Populo that three great hulking fellows of you are afraid of her +slim Neapolitan?" Sir Tom cried impatiently. + +"Not afraid, Sir Thomas, of nothing, but of breaking the law," said +Williams, quickly. Then he added in an insinuating tone: "But I tell +them, ladies don't stop long in country visits, not at this time of the +year. And a thing can be put up with for short that any man'd kick at +for long. Madame the Countess will be moving on to pay her other visits, +Sir Thomas, if I might make so bold? She is a lady as likes variety; +leastways she was so in the old times." + +Sir Thomas stared at the bold questioner, who thus went to the heart of +the matter. Then he burst into a hearty laugh. "If you knew so much +about Madame the Countess," he cried, "my good fellow, what need have +you to come and consult me?" + + + + +CHAPTER XXV. + +THE CONTESSA'S BOUDOIR. + + +The east rooms in which Madame di Forno-Populo had been placed on her +arrival at the Hall were handsome and comfortable, though they were not +the best in the house, and they were furnished as English rooms +generally are, the bed forming the principal object in each chamber. The +Contessa had looked around her in dismay when first ushered into the +spacious room with its huge couch, and wardrobes, and its unmistakable +destination as a sleeping-room merely: and it was only the addition of a +dressing-room of tolerable proportions which had made her quarters so +agreeable to her as they proved. The transformation of this room from a +severe male dressing-room into the boudoir of a fanciful and luxurious +woman, was a work of art of which neither the master nor the mistress of +the house had the faintest conception. The Contessa was never at home; +so that she was--having that regard for her own comfort which is one of +the leading features in such a life as hers--everywhere at home, +carrying about with her wherever she went the materials for creating an +individual centre (a _chez soi_, which is something far more intimate +and personal than a home), in which everything was arranged according to +her fancy. Had Lucy, or even had Sir Tom, who knew more about such +matters, penetrated into that sacred retirement, they would not have +recognised it for a room in their own house. Out of one of the +Contessa's boxes there came a paraphernalia of decoration such as would +turn the head of the aesthetic furnisher of the present day. As she had +been everywhere, and had "taste," when it was not so usual to have taste +as it is now, she had "picked up" priceless articles, in the shape of +tapestries, embroideries, silken tissues no longer made, delicate bits +of Eastern carpet, soft falling drapery of curtains, such as +artistically arranged in almost any room, impressed upon it the +Contessa's individuality, and made something dainty and luxurious among +the meanest surroundings. The Contessa's maid, from long practice, had +become almost an artist in the arrangement of these properties, without +which her mistress could not live; and on the evening of the first day +of their arrival at the Hall, when Madame di Forno-Populo emerged from +the darkness of the chamber in which she had rested all day after her +journey, she stepped into a little paradise of subdued colour and +harmonious effect. Antonio and Marietta were the authors of these +wonders. They took down Mrs. Freshwater's curtains, which were of a +solid character adapted to the locality, and replaced them by draperies +that veiled the light tenderly and hung with studied grace. They took +to pieces the small bed and made a divan covered with old brocade of the +prosaic English mattress. They brought the finest of the furniture out +of the bedchamber to add to the contents of this, and covered tables +with Italian work, and veiled the bare wall with tapestry. This made +such a magical change that the maids who penetrated by chance now and +then into this little temple of the Graces could only stand aghast and +gaze with open mouths; but no profane hand of theirs was ever permitted +to touch those sacred things. There were even pictures on the wall, +evolved out of the depths of that great coffer, which, more dear to the +Contessa even than her wardrobe, went about with her everywhere--and +precious pieces of porcelain: Madame di Forno-Populo, it need not be +said, being quite above the mean and cheap decoration made with fans or +unmeaning scraps of colour. The maids aforesaid, who obtained perilous +and breathless glimpses from time to time of all these wonders, were at +a loss to understand why so much trouble should be taken for a room that +nobody but its inmate ever saw. The finer intelligence of the reader +will no doubt set it down as something in the Contessa's favour that she +could not live, even when in the strictest privacy, without her pretty +things about her. To be sure it was not always so; in other regions, +where other habits prevailed, this shrine so artistically prepared was +open to worshippers; but the Contessa knew better than to make any such +innovation here. She intended, indeed, nothing that was not entirely +consistent with the strictest propriety. Her objects, no doubt, were her +own interest and her own pleasure, which are more or less the objects of +most people; but she intended no harm. She believed that she had a hold +over Sir Tom which she could work for her advantage, but she did not +mean to hurt Lucy. She thought that repose and a temporary absence from +the usual scenes of her existence would be of use to her, and she +thought also that a campaign in London under the warrant of the highest +respectability would further her grand object. It amused her besides, +perhaps, to flutter the susceptibilities of the innocent little +_ingénue_ whom Sir Tom had married; but she meant no harm. As for +seizing upon Sir Tom in the evenings, and occupying all his attention, +that was the most natural and simple of proceedings. She did this as +another woman played bezique. Some entertainment was a necessity, and +everybody had something. There were people who insisted upon whist--she +insisted only upon "some one to talk to." What could be more natural? +The Contessa's "some one" had to be a man and one who could pay with +sense and spirit the homage to which she was accustomed. It was her only +stipulation--and surely it must be an ungracious hostess indeed who +could object to that. + +She had just finished her breakfast on one of those gray +mornings--seated before the fire in an easy-chair, which was covered +with a shawl of soft but bright Indian colouring. She had her back to +the light, but it was scarcely necessary even had there been any eyes to +see her save those of Marietta, who naturally was familiar with her +aspect at all times. Marietta made the Contessa's chocolate, as well as +arranged and kept in order the Contessa's boudoir. To such a retainer +nothing comes amiss. She would sit up till all hours, and perform +marvels of waiting, of working, service of every kind. It never occurred +to her that it "was not her place" to do anything that her mistress +required. Antonio was her brother, which was insipid, but she generally +managed to indemnify herself, one way or another, for the loss of this +legitimate method of flirtation. She had not great wages, and she had a +great deal of work, but Marietta felt her life amusing, and did not +object to it. Here in England the excitement indeed flagged a little. +Williams was stout and married, and the other men had ties of the heart +with which, as has been seen, Antonio ruthlessly interfered. Marietta +was not unwilling to give to Charles the footman, who was a handsome +young fellow, the means of avenging himself, but as yet this expedient +for a little amusement had not succeeded, and there had been a touch of +peevishness in the tone with which she asked whether it was true that +the Contessa intended remaining here. Madame di Forno-Populo was a woman +who disliked the bondage of question and reply. + +"You do not amuse yourself, Marietta mia?" said the Contessa. She spoke +Italian with her servants, and she was always caressing, fond of tender +appellatives. "Patience! the country even in England is very good for +the complexion, and in London there is a great deal that is amusing. +Wheel this table away and give me the other with my writing things. The +cushion for my elbow. Thanks! You forget nothing. My Marietta, you will +have a happy life." + +"Do you think so, Signora Contessa?" said the girl, a little wistfully. + +The Contessa smiled upon her and said "Cara!" with an air of tenderness +that might have made any one happy. Then she addressed herself to her +correspondence, while Marietta removed into the other room not only the +tray but the table with the tray which her mistress had used. The +Contessa did not like to know or see anything of the processes of +readjustment and restoration. She glanced over her morning's letters +again with now and then a smile of satisfaction, and addressed herself +to the task of answering them with apparent pleasure. Indeed, her own +letters amused her even more than the others had done. When she had +finished her task she took up a silver whistle and blew into it a long +melodious note. She made the most charming picture, leaning back in her +chair, in a white cashmere dressing-gown covered with lace, and a little +cap upon her dark locks. All the accessories of her toilette were +exquisite, as well as the draperies about her that relieved and set off +her whiteness. Her shoes were of white plush with a cockade of lace to +correspond. Her sleeves, a little more loose than common, showed her +beautiful arms through a mist of lace. She was not more carefully nor +more elegantly dressed when she went downstairs in all her panoply of +conquest. What a pity there was no one to see it! but the Contessa did +not even think of this. In other circumstances, no doubt, there might +have been spectators, but in the meantime she pleased herself, which +after all is the first object with every well-constituted mind. She +leaned back in her chair pleased with herself and her surroundings, in a +gentle languor after her occupation, and conscious of a yellow novel +within reach should her young companion be slow of appearing. But Bice +she knew had the ears of a savage, and would hear her summons wherever +she might be. + +Bice at this moment was in a very different scene. She was in the large +gallery, which was a little chill and dreary of a morning when all the +windows were full of a gray, indefinable mist instead of light, and the +ancestors were indistinguishable in their frames. She had just been +going through her usual exercise with the baby, and had joined Lucy at +the upper end of the gallery, that sport being over, and little Tom +carried off to his mid-day sleep. There was a fire there, in the +old-fashioned chimney, and Lucy had been sitting beside it watching the +sport. Bice seated herself on a stool at a little distance. She had a +half affection half dislike for this young woman, who was most near her +in age of any one in the house. For one thing they were on different +sides and representing different interests; and Bice had been trained to +dislike the ordinary housekeeping woman. They had been brought together, +indeed, in a moment of emotion by the instrumentality of the little +delicate child, for whom Bice had conceived a compassionate affection. +But the girl felt that they were antagonistic. She did not expect +understanding or charity, but to be judged harshly and condemned +summarily by this type of the conventional and proper. She believed that +Lucy would be "shocked" by what she said, and horrified by her freedom +and absence of prejudice. Yet, notwithstanding all this, there was an +attraction in the candid eyes and countenance of little Lady Randolph +which drew her in spite of herself. It was of her own will, though with +a little appearance of reluctance, that she drew near, and soon plunged +into talk--for to tell the truth, now that Jock was gone, Bice felt +occasionally as if she must talk to the winds and trees, and could not +at the hazard of her life keep silence any more. She could scarcely tell +how it was that she was led into confessions of all kinds and +descriptions of the details of her past life. + +"We are a little alike," said Lucy. "I was not much older than you are +when my father died, and afterwards we had no real home: to be sure, I +had always Jock. Even when papa was living it was not very homelike, not +what I should choose for a girl. I felt how different it was when I went +to Lady Randolph, who thought of everything----" + +Bice did not say anything for some time, and then she laughed. "The +Contessa does not think of everything," she said. + +Lucy looked at her with a question in her eyes. She wanted to ask if the +Contessa was kind. But there was a certain domestic treachery involved +in asking such a question. + +"People are different," she said, with a certain soothing tone. "We are +not made alike, you know; one person is good in one way and one in +another." This abstract deliverance was not at all in Lucy's way. She +returned to the particular point before them with relief. "England," she +said, "must seem strange to you after your own country. I suppose it is +much colder and less bright?" + +"I have no country" said Bice; "everywhere is my country. We have a +house in Rome, but we travel; we go from one place to another--to all +the places that are what you call for pleasure. We go in the season. +Sometimes it is for the waters, sometimes for the sports or the +games--always _festa_ wherever we go." + +"And you like that? To be sure, you are so very young; otherwise I +should think it was rather tiresome," Lucy said. + +"No, it is not rather tiresome," said Bice, with a roll of her "r," "it +is horrible! When we came here I did not know why it was, but I rejoiced +myself that there was no band playing. I thought at first it was merely +_jour de relâche_: but when morning after morning came and no band, that +was heavenly," she said, drawing a long breath. + +"A band playing!" Lucy's laugh at the absurdity of the idea rang out +with all the gaiety of a child. It amused her beyond measure, and Bice, +always encouraged by approbation, went on. + +"I expected it every morning. The house is so large. I thought the +season, perhaps, was just beginning, and the people not arrived yet. +Sometimes we go like that too soon. The rooms are cheaper. You can make +your own arrangement." + +Lucy looked at her very compassionately. "That is why you pass the +mornings in your own room," she said, "were you never then in a country +house before?" + +"I do not know what is a country house. We have been in a great castle +where there was the chase every day. No, that is not what _la chasse_ +means in England--to shoot I would say. And then in the evening the +theatre, tableaux, or music. But to be quiet all day and all night too, +that is what I have never seen. We have never known it. It is confusing. +It makes you feel as if all went on without any division; all one day, +all one night." + +Bice laughed, but Lucy looked somewhat grave. "This is our natural life +in England," she said; "we like to be quiet; though I have not thought +we were very quiet, we have had people almost every night." + +To this Bice made no reply. But at Lucy's next question she stared, not +understanding what it meant. "You go everywhere with the Contessa," she +said; "are you out?" + +"Out!" Bice's eyes opened wide. She shook her head. "What is out?" she +said. + +"It is when a girl begins to go to parties--when she comes out of her +home, out of the schoolroom, from being just a little girl----" + +"Ah, I know! From the Convent," said Bice; "but I never was there." + +"And have you always gone to parties--all your life?" asked Lucy, with +wondering eyes. + +Bice looked at her, wondering too. "We do not go to parties. What is a +party?" she said. "We go to the rooms--oh yes, and to the great +receptions sometimes, and at hotels. Parties? I don't know what that +means. Of course, I go with the Contessa to the rooms, and to the tables +d'hôte. I give her my arm ever since I was tall enough. I carry her fan +and her little things. When she sings I am always ready to play. They +call me the shadow of the Contessa, for I always wear a black frock, and +I never talk except when some one talks to me. It is most amusing how +the English look at me. They say, Miss----? and then stop that I may +tell them my name." + +"And don't you?" said Lucy. "Do you know; though it is so strange to say +it, I don't even know your name." + +Bice laughed, but she made no attempt to supply the omission. "The +Contessa thinks it is more piquant," she said. "But nothing is decided +about me, till it is known how I turn out. If I am beautiful the +Contessa will marry me well, and all will be right." + +"And is that what you--wish?" said Lucy, in a tone of horror. + +"Monsieur, your brother," said Bice, with a laugh, "says I am not +pretty, even. He says it does not matter. How ignorant men are, and +stupid! And then suddenly they are old, old, and sour. I do not know +which is the worst. I do not like men." + +"And yet you think of being married, which it is not nice to speak of," +said Lucy, with disapproval. + +"Not--nice? Why is that? Must not girls be married? and if so, why not +think of it?" said Bice, gravely. There was not the ghost of a blush +upon her cheek. "If you might live without being married that would +understand itself; but otherwise----" + +"Indeed," cried Lucy, "you can, indeed you can! In England, at least. To +marry for a living, that is terrible." + +"Ah!" cried Bice, with interest, drawing her chair nearer, "tell me how +that is to be done." + +There was the seriousness of a practical interest in the girl's manner. +The question was very vital to her. There was no other way of existence +possible so far as she knew; but if there was it was well worth taking +into consideration. + +Lucy felt the question embarrassing when it was put to her in this very +decisive way. "Oh," she cried with an Englishwoman's usual monosyllabic +appeal for help to heaven and earth: "there are now a great number of +ways. There are so many things that girls can do; there are things open +to them that never used to be--they can even be doctors when they are +clever. There are many ways in which they can maintain themselves." + +"By trades?" cried Bice, "by work?" She laughed. "We hear of that +sometimes, and the doctors; everybody laughs; the men make jokes, and +say they will have one when they are ill. If that is all, I do not +think there is anything in it. I should not like to work even if I were +a man, but a woman----! that gets no money, that is _mal vu_. If that is +all! Work," she said, with a little oracular air, "takes up all your +time, and the money that one can earn is so small. A girl avoids saying +much to men who are like this. She knows how little they can have to +offer her; and to work herself, why, it is impossible. What time would +you have for anything?" cried the girl, with an impatient sense of the +fatuity of the suggestion. Lucy was so much startled by this view of the +subject that she made no reply. + +"There is no question of working," said Bice with decision, "neither for +women, neither for men. That is not in our world. But if I am only +pretty, no more," she added, "what will become of me? It is not known. I +shall follow the Contessa as before. I will be useful to her, and +afterwards---- I prefer not to think of that. In the meantime I am young. +I do not wish for anything. It is all amusing. I become weary of the +band playing, that is true; but then sometimes it plays not badly, and +there is something always to laugh at. Afterwards, if I marry, then I +can do as I like," the girl said. + +Lucy gave her another look of surprised awe, for it was really with that +feeling that she regarded this strange little philosopher. But she did +not feel herself able to pursue the subject with so enlightened a +person. She said: "How very well you speak English. You have scarcely +any accent, and the Contessa has none at all. I was afraid she would +speak only French, and my French is so bad." + +"I have always spoken English all my life. When the Contessa is angry +she says I am English all over; and she--she is of no country--she is +of all countries; we are what you call vagabonds," the girl cried, with +a laugh. She said it so calmly, without the smallest shadow of shame or +embarrassment, that Lucy could only gaze at her and could not find a +word to say. Was it true? It was evident that Bice at least believed so, +and was not at all afraid to say it. This conversation took place, as +has been said, in the picture gallery, where Lady Randolph and her young +visitor had first found a ground of amity. The rainy weather had +continued, and this place had gradually become the scene of a great deal +of intercourse between the young mistress of the house and her guest. +They scarcely spoke to each other in the evening. But in the morning +after the game of romps with little Tom, by which Bice indemnified +herself for the absence of other society, Lucy would join the party, and +after the child had been carried off for his mid-day sleep, the others +left behind would have many a talk. To Lucy the revelations thus made +were more wonderful than any romance--so wonderful that she did not half +take in the strange life to which they gave a clue, nor realise how +perfectly right was Bice's description of herself and her patroness. +They were vagabonds, as she said; and like other vagabonds, they got a +great deal of pleasure out of their life. But to Lucy it seemed the most +terrible that mind could conceive. Without any home, without any +retirement or quietness, with a noisy band always playing, and a series +of migrations from one place to another--no work, no duties, nothing to +represent home occupations but a piece of _tapisserie_. She put her hand +very tenderly upon Bice's shoulder. There had been prejudices in her +mind against this girl--but they all melted away in a womanly pity. +"Oh," she said, "Cannot I help you in any way? Cannot Sir Tom--" But +here she paused. "I am afraid," she said, "that all we could think of +would be an occupation for you; something to do, which would be far, far +better, surely, than this wandering life." + +Bice looked at her for a moment with a doubtful air. "I don't know what +you mean by occupation," she said. + +And this, to Lucy's discomfiture, she found to be true. Bice had no idea +of occupation. Young Lady Randolph, who was herself not much instructed, +made a conscientious effort at least to persuade the strange girl to +read and improve her mind. But she flew off on all such occasions with a +laugh that was half mocking and half merry. "To what good?" she said, +with that simplicity of cynicism which is a quality of extreme youth. +"If I turn out beautiful, if I can marry whom I will, I will then get +all I want without any trouble." + +"But if not?" said Lucy, too careful of the other's feelings to express +what her own opinions were on this subject. + +"If not it will be still less good," said Bice, "for I shall never then +do anything or be of any importance at all; and why should I tr-rouble?" +she said, with that rattle of the r's which was about the only sign that +English was not her native speech. This was very distressing to Lucy, +who wished the girl well, and altogether Lady Randolph was anxious to +interfere on Bice's behalf, and put her on a more comprehensible +footing. + +"It will be very strange when you go among other people in London," she +said. "Madame di Forno-Populo does not know England. People will want +to know who you are. And if you were to be married, since you will talk +of that," Lucy added with a blush, "your name and who you are will have +to be known. I will ask Sir Tom to talk to the Contessa--or," she said +with reluctance, "I will speak to her if you think she will listen to +me." + +"I am called," said Bice, making a sweeping curtsey, and waving her hand +as she darted suddenly away, leaving Lucy in much doubt and perplexity. +Was she really called? Lucy heard nothing but a faint sound in the +distance, as of a low whistle. Was this a signal between the strange +pair who were not mother and daughter, nor mistress and servant, and yet +were so linked together. It seemed to Lucy, with all her honest English +prejudices, that to train so young a girl (and a girl so fond of +children, and, therefore, a good girl at bottom, whatever her little +faults might be) to such a wandering life, and to put her up as it were +to auction for whoever would bid highest, was too terrible to be thought +of. Better a thousand times to be a governess, or a sempstress, or any +honest occupation by which she could earn her own bread. But then to +Bice any such expedient was out of the question. Her incredulous look of +wonder and mirth came back to Lucy with a sensation of dumb +astonishment. She had no right feelings, no sense of the advantages of +independence, no horror of being sold in marriage. Lady Randolph did not +know what to think of a creature so utterly beyond all rules known to +her. She was in such a condition of mind, unsettled, unhinged, feeling +all her old landmarks breaking up, that a new interest was of great +importance to her. It withdrew her thoughts from the Contessa, and the +irksomeness of her sway, when she thought of Bice and what could be +done for her. The strange thing was that the girl wanted nothing done +for her. She was happy enough so far as could be seen. In her close +confinement and subjection she was so fearless and free that she might +have been thought the mistress of the situation. It was incomprehensible +altogether. To state the circumstances from one side was to represent a +victim of oppression. A poor girl stealing into a strange house and room +in the shadow of her patroness; unnamed, unnoticed, made no more account +of than the chair upon which she sat, held in a bondage which was almost +slavery, and intended to be disposed of when the moment came without a +reference to her own will and affections. Lucy felt her blood boil when +she thought of all this, and determined that she would leave no +expedient untried to free this white slave, this unfortunate thrall. But +the other side was one which could not pass without consideration. The +girl was careless and fearless and free, without an appearance of +bondage about her. She scoffed at the thought of escaping, of somehow +earning a personal independence--such was not for persons in her world, +she said. She was not horrified by her own probable fate. She was not +unhappy, but amused and interested in her life, and taking everything +gaily, both the present quiet and the tumult of the many "seasons" in +watering-places and other resorts of gaiety through which, young as she +was, she had already gone. She had looked at Lucy with a smile, which +was half cynical, and altogether decisive, when the anxious young matron +had pointed out to her the way of escaping from such a sale and bargain. +She did not want to escape. It seemed to her right and natural. She +walked as lightly as a bird with this yoke upon her shoulders. Lucy had +never met anything of this kind before, and it called forth a sort of +panic in her mind. She did not know how to deal with it; but neither +would she give it up. She had something else to think upon, when the +Contessa, lying back on her sofa, almost going to sleep before Sir Tom +entered, roused herself on the moment to occupy and amuse him all the +evening. Instead of thinking of that and making herself unhappy, Lucy +looked the other way at Bice reading a novel rapidly at the other side +of the table, with all her young savage faculties about her to see and +hear everything. How to get her delivered from her fate! To make her +feel that deliverance was necessary, to save her before she should be +sacrificed, and take her out of her present slavery. It was very strange +that it never occurred to Lucy to free the girl by making her one of the +recipients of the money she had to give away. She was very faithful to +the letter of her father's will, and he had excluded foreigners. But +even that was not the reason. The reason was that it did not occur to +her. She thought of every way of relieving the too-contented thrall +before her except that way. And in the meantime the time wore on, and +everything fell into a routine, and not a word was said of the +Contessa's plans. It was evident, for the time being at least, that she +meant to make no change, but was fully minded, notwithstanding the +dullness of the country, to remain where she was. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI. + +THE TWO STRANGERS. + + +The Contessa did not turn her head or change her position when Bice +entered. She said, "You have not been out?" in a tone which was half +question and half reproof. + +"It rained, and there is nothing to breathe but the damp and fog." + +"What does it matter? it is very good for the complexion, this damp; it +softens the skin, it clears your colour. I see the improvement every +day." + +"Do you think so?" said Bice, going up to the long mirror which had been +established in a sort of niche against the wall, and draped as +everything was draped, with graceful hangings. She went up to it and put +her face close, looking with some anxiety at the image which she found +there. "I do not see it," she said. "You are too sanguine. I am no +better than I was. I have been racing in the long gallery with the +child; that makes one's blood flow." + +"You do well," said the Contessa, nodding her head. "I cannot take any +notice of the child; it is too much for me. They are odious at that +age." + +"Ah! they are delightful," said Bice. "They are so good to play with, +they ask no questions, and are always pleased. I put him on my shoulder +and we fly. I wish that I might have a gymnastique, trapeze, +what-you-call it, in that long gallery; it would be heaven." + +The Contessa uttered an easy exclamation meaning nothing, which +translated into English would have been a terrible oath. "Do not do it, +in the name of----they will be shocked, oh, beyond everything." + +Bice, still standing close to the glass, examining critically her cheek +which she pinched, answered with a laugh. "She is shocked already. When +I say that you will marry me well, if I turn out as I ought, she is full +of horror. She says it is not necessary in England that a young girl +should marry, that there are other ways." + +The Contessa started to her feet. "Giove!" she cried, "Baccho! that +insipidity, that puritan. And I who have kept you from every soil. _She_ +speak of other ways. Oh, it is too much!" + +Bice turned from the glass to address a look of surprise to her +patroness. "Reassure yourself, Madama," she said. "What Milady said was +this, that I might work if I willed, and escape from marrying--that to +marry was not everything. It appears that in England one may make one's +living as if (she says) one were a man." + +"As if one were a man!" + +"That is what Milady said," Bice answered demurely. "I think she would +help me to work, to get something to do. But she did not tell me what it +would be; perhaps to teach children; perhaps to work with the needle. I +know that is how it happens in the Tauchnitz. You do not read them, and, +therefore, do not know; but I am instructed in all these things. The +girl who is poor like me is always beautiful; but she never thinks of it +as we do. She becomes a governess, or perhaps an artiste; or even she +will make dresses, or at the worst _tapisserie_." + +"And this she says to you--to you!" cried the Contessa, with flaming +eyes. + +"Oh, restrain yourself, Madama! It does not matter at all. She makes the +great marriage just the same. It is not Milady who says this, it is in +the Tauchnitz. It is the English way. Supposing," said Bice, "that I +remain as I am? Something will have to be done with me. Put me, then, as +a governess in a great family where there is a son who is a great +nobleman, or very rich; and you shall see it will so happen, though I +never should be beautiful at all." + +"My child," said the Contessa, "all this is foolishness. You will not +remain as you are. I see a little difference every day. In a little time +you will be dazzling; you will be ready to produce. A governess! It is +more likely that you will be a duchess; and then you will laugh at +everybody--except me," said Madame di Forno-Populo, tapping her breast +with her delicate fingers, "except me." + +Bice looked at her with a searching, inquiring look. "I want to ask +something," she said. "If I should be beautiful, you were so before +me--oh, more, more!--you we----are very lovely, Madama." + +The Contessa smiled--who would not smile at such a speech? made with all +the sincerity and simplicity possible--simplicity scarcely affected by +the instinct which made Bice aware before she said it, that to use the +past tense would spoil all. The Contessa smiled. "Well," she said, "and +then?" + +"They married you," said Bice with a curious tone between philosophical +remark and interrogation. + +"Ah!" the Contessa said. She leaned back in her chair making herself +very comfortable, and shook her head. "I understand. You think then it +has been a--failure in my case? Yes, they married me--that is to say +there was no they at all. I married myself, which makes a great +difference. Ah, yes, I follow your reasoning very well. This woman you +say was beautiful, was all that I hope to be, and married; and what has +come of it? It is quite true. I speak to you as I speak to no one, Bice +mia. The fact was we deceived each other. The Conte expected to make his +fortune by me, and I by him. I was English, you perceive, though no one +now remembers this. Poor Forno-Populo! He was very handsome; people were +pleased to say we were a magnificent pair--but we had not the _sous_: +and though we were fond of each other, he proceeded in one direction to +repair his fortunes, and I--on another to--_enfin_ to do as best I +could. But no such accident shall happen in your case. It is not only +your interest I have in hand; it is my own. I want a home for my +declining years." + +She said this with a smile at the absurdity of the expression in her +case, but Bice at sixteen naturally took the words _au pied de la +lettre_, and did not see any absurdity in them. To her forty was very +much the same as seventy. She nodded her head very seriously in answer +to this, and turning round to the glass surveyed herself once more, but +not with that complacency which is supposed to be excited in the +feminine bosom by the spectacle. She was far too serious for vanity--the +gaze she cast upon her own youthful countenance was severely critical, +and she ended by a shrug of her shoulders, as she turned away. "The only +thing is," she said, "that perhaps the young brother is right, and at +present I am not even pretty at all." + +The Contessa had a great deal to think of during this somewhat dull +interval. The days flowed on so regular, and with so little in them, +that it was scarcely possible to take note of the time at all. Lucy was +always scrupulously polite and sometimes had little movements of anxious +civility, as if to make up for impulses that were less kind. And Sir +Tom, though he enjoyed the evenings as much as ever, and felt this +manner of passing the heavy hours to retain a great attraction, was at +other times a little constrained, and made furtive attempts to find out +what the Contessa's intentions were for the future, which betrayed to a +woman who had always her wits about her, a certain strain of the old +bonds, and uneasiness in the indefinite length of her visit. She had +many reasons, however, for determining to ignore this uneasiness, and to +move on upon the steady tenor of her way as if unconscious of any reason +for change, opposing a smiling insensibility to all suggestions as to +the approaching removal of the household to London. It seemed to the +Contessa that the association of her _débutante_ with so innocent and +wealthy a person as Lady Randolph would do away with all the prejudices +which her own dubious antecedents might have provoked; while the very +dubiousness of those antecedents had procured her friends in high +quarters and acquaintances everywhere, so that both God and Mammon were, +so to speak, enlisted in her favour, and Bice would have all the +advantage, without any of the disadvantage, of her patroness' position, +such as it was. This was so important that she was quite fortified +against any pricks of offence, or intrusive consciousness that she was +less welcome than might have been desired. And in the end of January, +when the entire household at the Hall had begun to be anxious to make +sure of her departure, an event occurred which strengthened all her +resolutions in this respect, and made her more and more determined, +whatever might be the result, to cling to her present associations and +shelter. + +This was the arrival of a visitor, very unexpected and unthought of, who +came in one afternoon after the daily drive, often a somewhat dull +performance, which Lucy, when there was nothing more amusing to do, +dutifully took with her visitor. Madame di Forno-Populo was reclining in +the easiest of chairs after the fatigue of this expedition. There had +been a fresh wind, and notwithstanding a number of veils, her delicate +complexion had been caught by the keen touch of the breeze. Her cheeks +burned, she declared, as she held up a screen to shield her from the +glow of the fire. The waning afternoon light from the tall window behind +threw her beautiful face into shadow, but she was undeniably the most +important person in the tranquil domestic scene, occupying the central +position, so that it was not wonderful that the new comer suddenly +ushered in, who was somewhat timid and confused, and advanced with the +hesitating step of a stranger, should without any doubt have addressed +himself to her as the mistress of the house. Lucy, little and young, who +was moving about the room, with her light step and in the simple dress +of a girl, appeared to Mr. Churchill, who had many daughters of his own, +to be (no doubt) the eldest, the mother's companion. He came in with a +slightly embarrassed air and manner. He was a man beyond middle age, +gray haired, stooping, with the deprecating look of one who had been +obliged in many ways to propitiate fate in the shape of superiors, +officials, creditors, all sorts of alien forces. He came up with his +hesitating step to the Contessa's chair. "Madam," he said, with a voice +which had a tremor in it, "my name will partly tell you the confused +feelings that I don't know how to express. I am come in a kind of +bewilderment, scarcely able to believe that what I have heard is +true----" + +The Contessa gazed at him calmly from the depths of her chair. The +figure before her, thin, gray haired, submissive, with the long clerical +coat and deprecating air, did not promise very much, but she had no +objection to hear what he had to say in the absolute dearth of subjects +of interest. Lucy, to whom his name seemed vaguely familiar, without +recalling any distinct idea, and who was a little startled by his +immediate identification of the Contessa, came forward a little and put +a chair for him, then withdrew again, supposing his business to be with +her guest. + +"I will not sit down," Mr. Churchill said, faltering a little, "till I +have said what I have no words to say. If what I am told is actually +true, and your ladyship means to confer upon me a gift so--so +magnificent--oh! pardon me--I cannot help thinking still that there must +be some extraordinary mistake." + +"Oh!" Lucy began, hurriedly making a step forward again; but the +Contessa, to her surprise, accepted the address with great calm. + +"Be seated, sir," Madame di Forno-Populo said, with a dignity which Lucy +was far from being able to emulate. "And pray do not hesitate to say +anything which occurs to you. I am already interested----" She waved her +hand to him with a sort of regal grace, without moving in any other way. +She had the air of a princess not deeply concerned indeed, but +benevolently willing to listen. It was evident that this reception of +him confused the stranger more and more. He became more deeply +embarrassed in sight of the perfect composure with which he was +contemplated, and cleared his throat nervously three or four times. + +"I think," he said, "that there must be some mistake. It was, indeed, +impossible that it should be true; but as I heard it from two quarters +at once--and it was said to be something in the nature of a +trust---- But," he added, looking with a nervous intentness at the +unresponsive face which he could with difficulty see, "it must be, since +your ladyship does not recognise my name, a--mistake. I felt it was so +from the beginning. A lady of whom I know nothing!--to bestow what is +really a fortune--upon a man with no claim----" + +He gave a little nervous laugh as he went on--the disappointment, after +such a dazzling giddy hope, took away every vestige of colour from his +face. "I will sit down for a moment, if you please," he said suddenly. +"I--am a little tired with the walk--you will excuse me, Lady +Randolph----" + +"Oh, sir," cried Lucy, coming forward, "forgive me that I did not +understand at once. It is no mistake at all. Oh, I am afraid you are +very much fatigued, and I ought to have known at once when I heard your +name." + +He put out his hand in his deprecating way as she came close to the +chair into which he had dropped. "It is nothing--nothing--my dear young +lady: in a moment," he said. + +"My Lucy," said the Contessa, "this is one of your secret bounties. I am +quite interested. But do not interrupt; let us hear it out." + +"It is something which is entirely between Mr. Churchill and me," cried +Lucy. "Indeed, it would not interest you at all. But, pray, don't think +it is a mistake," she said, earnestly turning to him. "It is quite +right--it is a trust--there is nothing that need distress you. I am +obliged to do it, and you need not mind. Indeed, you must not mind. I +will tell you all about it afterwards." + +"My dear young lady!" the clergyman said. He was relieved, but he was +perplexed; he turned still towards the stately lady in the chair--"If it +is really so, which I scarcely can allow myself to believe, how can I +express my obligation? It seems more than any man ought to take; it is +like a fairy tale. I have not ventured to mention it to my children, in +case,---- Thanks are nothing," he cried, with excitement; "thanks are +for a trifle, a little every-day service; but this is a fortune; it is +something beyond belief. I have been a poor man all my life, struggling +to do my best for my children; and now, what I have never been able to +do with all my exertions, you--put me in a position to do in a moment. +What am I to say to you? Words can't reach such a case. It is simply +unspeakable--incredible; and why out of all the world you should have +chosen me----" + +He had to stop, his emotion getting the better of him. Bice had come +into the room while this strange scene was going on, and she stood in +the shadow, unseen by the speaker, listening too. + +"Pray compose yourself," said the Contessa, in her most gracious voice. +"Your expressions are full of feeling. To have a fortune given to one +must be very delightful; it is an experience that does not often happen. +Probably a little tea, as I hear tea is coming, will restore +Mr. ---- Pardon me, they are a little difficult to catch those, your +English names." + +The Contessa produced a curious idiom now and then like a work of art. +It was almost the only sign of any uncertainty in her English; and while +the poor clergyman, not quite understanding in his own emotion what she +was saying, made an effort to gulp it down and bring himself to the +level of ordinary life, the little stir of the bringing-in of tea +suddenly converted everything into commonplace. He sat in a confusion +that made all dull to him while this little stir went on. Then he rose +up and said, faltering: "If your ladyship will permit me, I will go out +into the air a little. I have got a sort of singing in my ears. I +am--not very strong; I shall come back presently if you will allow me, +and try to make my acknowledgments--in a less confused way." + +Lucy followed him out of the room; he was not confused with her. "My +dear young lady," he said, "my head is going round and round. Perhaps +you will explain it all to me." He looked at her with a helpless, +appealing air. Lucy had the appearance of a girl of his own. He was not +afraid to ask her anything. But the great lady, his benefactress, who +spoke so regally and responded so little to his emotion, alarmed him. +Lucy, too, on her side, felt as if she had been a girl of his own. She +put her arm within his, and led him to the library, where all was quiet, +and where she felt by instinct--though she was not bookish--that the +very backs of the books would console him and make him feel himself at +home. + +"It is very easy to explain," she said. "It is all through my brother +Jock and your son, who is at school with him. And it is I who am Lady +Randolph," she said, smiling, supporting him with her arm through his. +The shock would have been almost too much for poor Mr. Churchill if she +had not been so like a child of his own. + +The moment this pair had left the room the Contessa raised herself +eagerly from the chair. She looked round to Bice in the background with +an imperative question. "What does this all mean?" she said, in a voice +as different from the languor of her former address as night from day. +"Who is it that gives away fortunes, that makes a poor man rich? Did you +know all that? Is it that chit of a girl, that piece of +simplicity--that--Giove! You have been her friend; you know her secrets. +What does it mean?" + +"She has no secrets," said Bice, coming slowly forward. "She is not like +us, she is like the day." + +"Fool!" the Contessa said, stamping her foot--"don't you see there must +be something in it. I am thinking of you, though you are so ungrateful. +One knows she is rich, all the money is hers; but I thought it had gone +to Sir Tom. I thought it was he who could-- ... Happily, I have always +kept her in hand; and you, you have become her friend----" + +"Madama," said Bice, with ironical politeness, "since it happens that +Milady is gone, shall I pour out for you your cup of tea?" + +"Oh, tea! do I care for tea? when there are possibilities--possibilities!" +said the Contessa. She got up from her chair and began to pace about the +room, a grand figure in the gathering twilight. As for Bice, some demon of +perversity possessed her. She began to move about the tea-table, making +the china ring, and pouring out the tea as she had said, betook herself to +the eating of cake with a relish which was certainly much intensified by +the preoccupation of her patroness. She remembered well enough, very well, +what Jock had told her, and her own incredulity; but she would have died +rather than give a sign of this--and there was a tacit defiance in the way +in which she munched her cake under the Contessa's excited eyes, but this +was only a momentary perversity. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII. + +AN ADVENTURESS. + + +"When he told me first, I was angry like you, I would not believe it. +Money! that is a thing to keep, I said, not to give away." + +"To give away!" Few things in all her life, at least in all her later +life, had so moved the Contessa. She was walking about the pretty room +in an excitement which was like agitation, now sitting down in one +place, now in another, turning over without knowing it the things on the +table, arranging a drapery here and there instinctively. To how few +people in the world would it be a matter of indifference that money, so +to speak, was going begging, and might fall into their hands as well as +another's! The best of us on this argument would prick up our ears. +Nobody cared less for money in itself than Madame di Forno-Populo. She +liked not to spend it only, but to squander--to make it fly on all +hands. To be utterly extravagant one must be poor, and the money hunger +which belongs to poverty is almost, one might say, a disinterested +quality, so little is it concerned with the possession of the thing +coveted. "Oh," she said, "this is too wonderful! and you are sure you +have not been deceived by the language? You know English so well--are +you sure that you were not deceived?" + +Bice did not deign any reply to this question. She gave her head a +slight toss of scorn. The suggestion that she could be mistaken was +unworthy of an answer, and indeed was not put in seriousness, nor did +the Contessa wait for a reply. "What then," the Contessa went on, "is +the position of Sir Tom? Has he no control? Does he permit this? To have +it taken away from himself and his family, thrown into the sea, parted +with--Oh, it is too much! But how can it be done? I was aware that +settlements were very troublesome, but I had not thought it +possible--Bice! Bice! this is very exciting, it makes one's heart beat! +And you are her friend." + +"I am her--friend?" Bice turned one ear to her patroness with a startled +look of interrogation. + +"Oh!" cried the Contessa once more; by which exclamation, naturally +occurring when she was excited, she proved that she was of English +race. "What difficulty is there in my meaning? You have English enough +for that. What! do you feel no impatience when you hear of money running +away?--going into a different channel--to strangers--to people that have +nothing to do with it--that have no right to it--anybody--a clergyman, +a----" + +Her feelings were too much for her. She threw herself into a chair, out +of breath. + +"He looked a very good man," said Bice, with that absolute calm which is +so exasperating to an excited woman, "and what does it matter, if it has +to be given away, who gets it? I should give it to the beggars. I should +fling it for them, as you do the _bajocchi_ when you are out driving." + +"You are a fool! you are a fool!" cried the Contessa, "or rather you are +a child, and don't understand anything. Fling it to the beggars? Yes, if +it was in shillings or even sovereigns. You don't understand what money +is." + +"That is true, Madama, for I never had any," cried the girl, with a +laugh. She was perfectly unmoved--the desire of money was not in her as +yet, though she was far more enlightened as to its uses than most +persons of her age. It amused her to see the excitement of her +companion; and she knew very well what the Contessa meant, though she +would not betray any consciousness of it. "If I marry," she said, "then +perhaps I shall know." + +"Bice! you are not a fool--you are very sharp, though you choose not to +see. Why should not you have this as well as another?--oh, much better +than another! I can't stand by and see it all float into alien channels, +while you--it would not be doing my duty while you---- Oh, don't look at +me with that blank face, as if it did not move you in the least! Would +it be nothing to have it in your power to dress as you like, to do as +you like, to go into the world, to have a handsome house, to enjoy +life?----" + +"But, yes!" said Bice, "is it necessary to ask?" She was still as calm +as if the question they were discussing had been of the very smallest +importance. "But we are not good poor people that will spend the money +_comme il faut_. If we had it we should throw it away. Me also--I would +throw it away. It would be for nothing good; why should it be given to +us? Oh no, Madama. The good old clergyman had many children. He will not +waste the money--which we should. What do you care for money, but to +spend it fast, fast; and I too----" + +"You are a child," said the Contessa. "No, perhaps I am not what people +call good, though I am poor enough--but you are a child. If it was given +to you it would be invested; you would have power over the income only. +You could not throw it away, nor could I, which, perhaps, is what you +are thinking of. You are just the person she wants, so far as I can see. +She objects to my plan of putting you out in the world; she says it +would be better if you were to work; but this is the best of all. Let +her provide for you, and then it will not need that you should either +marry or work. This is, beyond all description, the best way. And you +are her friend. Tell me, was it before or after the boy informed you of +this that you advised yourself to become her friend?" + +"Contessa!" cried Bice, with a shock of angry feeling which brought the +blood to her face. She was not sensitive in many matters which would +have stung an English girl; but this suggestion, which was so +undeserved, moved her to passion. She turned away with an almost tragic +scorn, and seizing the _tapisserie_, which was part of the Contessa's +_mise en scene_, flung a long strip of the many-coloured embroidery over +her arm, and began to work with a sort of savage energy. The Contessa +watched her movements with a sudden pause in her own excitement. She +stopped short in the eagerness of her own thoughts, and looked with keen +curiosity at the young creature upon whom she had built so many +expectations. She was not an ungenerous or mercenary woman, though she +had many faults, and as she gazed a certain compunction awoke within +her, mingled with amusement. She was sorry for the unworthy suggestion +she had made, but the sight of the girl in her indignation was like a +scene in a play to this woman of the world. Her youthful dignity and +wrath, her silent scorn, the manner in which she flung her needle +through the canvas, working out her rage, were full of entertainment to +the Contessa. She was not irritated by the girl's resentment; it even +took off her thoughts from the primary matter to watch this exhibition +of feeling. She gave vent to a little laugh as she noted how the needle +flew. + +"Cara! I was nasty when I said that. I did not mean it. I suffered +myself to talk as one talks in the world. You are not of the world--it +is not applicable to you." + +"Yes, Madama, I am of the world," cried Bice. "What have I known else? +But I did not mean to become Milady's friend, as you say. It was by +accident. I was in the gallery only to amuse myself, and she came--it +was not intention. I think that Milady is----" + +Here Bice stopped, looked up from the sudden fervour of her working, +threw back her head, and said nothing more. + +"That Milady is--what?" the Contessa cried. + +A laugh so joyous, so childish, that no one could have refused to be +sympathetic, burst from Bice's lips. She gave her patroness a look of +merriment and derision, in which there was something tender and sweet. +"Milady is--sorry for me," she said. + +This speech had a strange effect upon the Contessa. She coloured, and +the tears seemed to flood in a moment to her eyes. "Poor child!" she +said--"poor child! She has reason. But that amuses you, Bice mia," she +said, in a voice full of the softest caressing, looking at her through +those sudden tears. The Contessa was an adventuress, and she had brought +up this girl after her own traditions; but it was clear as they looked +at each other that they loved each other. There was perfect confidence +between them. Bice looked with fearless laughing eyes, and a sense of +the absurdity of the fact that some one was sorry for her, into the face +of her friend. + +"She thinks I would be happier if I worked. To give lessons to little +children and be their slave would be better, she thinks. To know nothing +and see nothing, but live far away from the world and be independent, +and take no trouble about my looks, or, if I please--that is Milady's +way of thinking," Bice said. + +The Contessa's face softened more and more as she looked at the girl. +There even dropped a tear from her full eyes. She shook her head. "I am +not sure," she said, "dear child, that I am not of Milady's opinion. +There are ways in which it is better. Sometimes I think I was most happy +when I was like that--without money, without experience, with no +wishes." + +"No wishes, Madama! Did you not wish to go out into the beautiful bright +world, to see people, to hear music, to talk, to please? It is +impossible. Money, that is different, and experience that is different: +but to wish, every one must do that." + +"Bice, you have a great deal of experience for so young a girl. You have +seen so much. I ought to have brought you up otherwise, perhaps, but how +could I? You have always shared with me, and what I had I gave you. And +you know besides how little satisfaction there is in it--how sick one +becomes of a crowd of faces that are nothing to you, and of music that +goes on just the same whatever you are feeling--and this to please, as +you call it! Whom do I please? Persons who do not care at all for me +except that I amuse them sometimes--who like me to sing; who like to +look at me; who find themselves less dull when I am there. That is all. +And that will be all for you, unless you marry well, my Bice, which it +is the object of my life to make you do." + +"I hope I shall marry well," said the girl, composedly. "It would be +very pleasant to find one's self above all shifts, Madama. Still that is +not everything; and I would much rather have led the life I have led, +and enjoyed myself and seen so much, than to have been the little +governess of the English family--the little girl who is always so quiet, +who walks out with the children, and will not accept the eldest son even +when he makes love to her. I should have laughed at the eldest son. I +know what they are like--they are so stupid; they have not a word to +say; that would have amused me; but in the Tauchnitz books it is all +honour and wretchedness. I am glad I know the world, and have seen all +kinds of people, and wish for everything that is pleasant, instead of +being so good and having no wishes as you say." + +The Contessa laughed, having got rid of all her incipient tears. "There +is more life in it," she said. "You see now what it is--this life in +England; one day is like another, one does the same things. The +newspaper comes in the morning, then luncheon, then to go out, then tea, +dinner; there is no change. When we talk in the evening, and I remind +Sir Tom of the past when I lived in Florence, and he was with me every +day,"--the Contessa once more uttered that easy exclamation which would +sound so profane in English. "_Quelle vie!_" she cried, "how much we got +out of every day. There were no silences! They came in one after another +with some new thing, something to see and to do. We separated to dress, +to make ourselves beautiful for the evening, and then till the morning +light came in through the curtains, never a pause or a weariness. Yes! +sometimes one had a terrible pang. There would be a toilette, which was +ravishing, which was far superior to mine--for I never had money to +dress as I wished--or some one else would have a success, and attract +all eyes. But what did that matter?" the Contessa cried, lighting up +more and more. "One did not really grudge what lasted only for a time; +for one knew next day one would have one's turn. Ah!" she said, with a +sigh, "I knew what it was to be a queen, Bice, in those days." + +"And so you do still, Madama," said the girl, soothingly. + +Madama di Forno-Populo shook her head. "It is no longer the same," she +said. "You have known only the worst side, my _poverina_. It is no +longer one's own palace, one's own people, and the best of the +strangers, the finest company. You saw the Duchess at Milady's party the +other day. To see me made her lose her breath. She could not refuse to +speak to me--to salute me--but it was with a consternation! But, Bice, +that lady was only too happy to be invited to the Palazzo Populino. To +make one of our expeditions was her pride. I believe in my soul," cried +the Contessa, "that when she looks back she remembers those days as the +most bright of her life." + +Bice's clear shining eyes rested upon her patroness with a light in them +which was keen with indignation and wonder. She cried, "And why the +change--and why the change, Madama?" with a high indignant tone, such as +youth assumes in presence of ingratitude and meanness. Bice knew much +that a young girl does not usually know; but the reason why her best +friend should be thus slighted was not one of these things. + +The Contessa shrank a little from her gaze. She rose up again and went +to the window and looked out upon the wintry landscape, and standing +there with her face averted, shrugged her shoulders a little and made +answer in a tone of levity very different from the sincerer sound of her +previous communications. "It is poverty, my child, poverty, always the +easiest explanation! I was never rich, but then there had been no crash, +no downfall. I was in my own palace. I had the means of entertaining. I +was somebody. Ah! very different; it was not then at the baths, in the +watering-places, that the Contessa di Forno-Populo was known. It is +this, my Bice, that makes me say that sometimes I am of Milady's +opinion; that to have no wishes, to know nothing, to desire +nothing--that is best. When I knew the Duchess first I could be of +service to her. Now that I meet her again it is she only that can be of +service to me." + +"But----" Bice began and stopped short. She was, as has been said, a +girl of many experiences. When a very young creature is thus prematurely +introduced to a knowledge of human nature she approaches the subject +with an impartiality scarcely possible at an older age. She had seen +much. She had been acquainted with those vicissitudes that occur in the +lives of the seekers of pleasure almost since ever she was born. She had +been acquainted with persons of the most gay and cheerful appearance, +who had enjoyed themselves highly, and called all their acquaintances +round them to feast, and who had then suddenly collapsed and after an +interval of tears and wailings had disappeared from the scene of their +downfall. But Bice had not learnt the commonplace lesson so deeply +impressed upon the world from the Athenian Timon downwards, that a +downfall of this kind instantly cuts all ties. She was aware, on the +contrary, that a great deal of kindness, sympathy, and attempts to aid +were always called forth on such occasions; that the women used to form +a sort of rampart around the ruined with tears and outcries, and that +the men had anxious meetings and consultations and were constantly going +to see some one or other upon the affairs of the downfallen. Bice had +not seen in her experience that poverty was an argument for desertion. +She was so worldly wise that she did not press her question as a simple +girl might have done. She stopped short with an air of bewilderment and +pain, which the Contessa, as her head was turned, did not see. She gave +up the inquiry; but there arose in her mind a suspicion, a question, +such as had not ever had admission there before. + +"Ah!" cried the Contessa, suddenly turning round, clasping her hands, +"it was different indeed when my house was open to all these English, +and they came as they pleased. But now I do not know, if I am turned out +of this house, this dull house in which I have taken refuge, where I +shall go. I don't know where to go!" + +"Madama!" Bice sprang to her feet too, and clasped her hands. + +"It is true--it is quite true. We have spent everything. I have not the +means to go even to a third-rate place. As for Cannes it is impossible. +I told you so before we came here. Rome is impossible--the apartment is +let, and without that I could not live at all. Everything is gone. Here +one may manage to exist a little while, for the house is good, and Sir +Tom is rather amusing. But how to get to London unless they will take us +I know not, and London is the place to produce you, Bice. It is for that +I have been working. But Milady does not like me; she is jealous of me, +and if she can she will send us away. Is it wonderful, then, that I am +glad you are her friend? I am very glad of it, and I should wish you to +let her know that to no one could she give her money more fitly. You +see," said the Contessa, with a smile, resuming her seat and her easy +tone, "I have come back to the point we started from. It is seldom one +does that so naturally. If it is true (which seems so impossible) that +there is money to give away, no one has a better right to it than you." + +Bice went away from this interview with a mind more disturbed than it +had ever been in her life before. Naturally, the novel circumstances +which surrounded her awakened deeper questions as her mind developed, +and she began to find herself a distinct personage. They set her +wondering. Madame di Forno-Populo had been of a tenderness unparalleled +to this girl, and had sheltered her existence ever since she could +remember. It had not occurred to her mind as yet to ask what the +relations were between them, or why she had been the object of so much +affection and thought. She had accepted this with all the composure of a +child ever since she was a child. And the prospect of achieving a +marriage should she turn out beautiful, and thus being in a position to +return some of the kindness shown her, seemed to Bice the most natural +thing in the world. But the change of atmosphere had done something, and +Lucy's company, and the growth, perhaps, of her own young spirit. She +went away troubled. There seemed to be more in the world and its +philosophy than Bice's simple rules could explain. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII. + +THE SERPENT AND THE DOVE. + + +On the very next day after this conversation took place a marked change +occurred in the manner of the Contessa. She had been always caressing to +Lucy, calling her by pretty names, and using a hundred tender +expressions as if to a child; but had never pretended to talk to her +otherwise than in a condescending way. On this occasion, however, she +exerted herself to a most unusual extent during their drive to captivate +and charm Lady Randolph; and as Lucy was very simple and accessible to +everything that seemed kindness, and the Contessa very clever and with +full command of her powers, it is not wonderful that her success was +easy. She led her to talk of Mr. Churchill, who had been kept to dinner +on the previous night, and to whom Sir Tom had been very polite, and +Lucy anxiously kind, doing all that was possible to put the good man at +his ease, though with but indifferent success. For the thought of such +an obligation was too great to be easily borne, and the agitation of his +mind was scarcely settled, even by the commonplaces of the dinner, and +the devotion which young Lady Randolph showed him. Perhaps the grave +politeness of Sir Tom, which was not very encouraging, and the curiosity +of the great lady, whom he had mistaken for his benefactress, +counterbalanced Mr. Churchill's satisfaction, for he did not regain his +confidence, and it was evidently with great relief of mind that he got +up from his seat when the carriage was announced to take him away. The +Contessa had given her attention to all he said and did, with a most +lively and even anxious interest, and it was from this that she had +mastered so many details which Bice had reluctantly confirmed by her +report of the information she had derived from Jock. It was not long +before Madame di Forno-Populo managed to extract everything from Lucy. +Lady Randolph was not used to defend herself against such inquiries, nor +was there any reason why she should do so. She was glad indeed when she +saw how sweetly her companion looked, and how kind were her tones, to +talk over her own difficult position with another woman, one who was +interested, and who did not express her disapproval and horror as most +people did. The Contessa, on the contrary, took a great deal of +interest. She was astonished, indeed, but she did not represent to Lucy +that what she had to do was impossible or even vicious, as most people +seemed to suppose. She listened with the gravest attention; and she gave +a soothing sense of sympathy to Lucy's troubled soul. She was so little +prepared for sympathy from such a quarter that the unexpectedness of it +made it more soothing still. + +"This is a great charge to be laid upon you," the Contessa said, with +the most kind look. "Upon you so young and with so little experience. +Your father must have been a man of very original mind, my Lucy. I have +heard of a great many schemes of benevolence, but never one like this." + +"No?" said Lucy, anxiously watching the Contessa's eye, for it was so +strange to her to have sympathy on this point, that she felt a sort of +longing for it, and that this new critic, who treated the whole matter +with more moderation and reasonableness than usual, should approve. + +"Generally one endows hospitals or builds churches; in my country there +is a way which is a little like yours; it is to give marriage +portions--that is very good I am told. It is done by finding out who is +the most worthy. And it is said also that not the most worthy is always +taken. Don't you remember there is a Rosiere in Barbe Bleue? Oh, I +believe you have never heard of Barbe Bleue." + +"I know the story," said Lucy, with a smile, "of the many wives, and the +key, and sister Anne--sister Anne." + +"Ah! that is not precisely what I mean; but it does not matter. So it is +this which makes you so grave, my pretty Lucy. I do not wonder. What a +charge for you! To encounter all the prejudices of the world which will +think you mad. I know it. And now your husband--the excellent Tom--he," +said the Contessa, laying a caressing and significant touch upon Lucy's +arm, "does not approve?" + +"Oh, Madame di Forno-Populo, that is the worst of it," cried Lucy, whose +heart was opened, and who had taken no precaution against assault on +this side; "but how do you know? for I thought that nobody knew." + +The Contessa this time took Lucy's hand between hers, and pressed it +tenderly, looking at her all the time with a look full of meaning. "Dear +child," she said, "I have been a great deal in the world. I see much +that other people do not see. And I know his face, and yours, my little +angel. It is much for you to carry upon those young shoulders. And all +for the sake of goodness and charity." + +"I do not know," said Lucy, "that it is right to say that; for, had it +been left to me, perhaps I should never have thought of it. I should +have been content with doing just what I could for the poor. No one," +said Lucy, with a sigh, "objects to that. When people are quite poor it +is natural to give them what they want; but the others----" + +"Ah, the others," said the Contessa. "Dear child, the others are the +most to be pitied. It is a greater thing, and far more difficult to give +to this good clergyman enough to make his children happy, than it is to +supply what is wanted in a cottage. Ah yes, your father was wise, he was +a person of character. The poor are always cared for. There are none of +us, even when we are ourselves poor, who do not hold out a hand to them. +There is a society in my Florence which is like you. It is for the +_Poveri Vergognosi_. You don't understand Italian? That means those who +are ashamed to beg. These are they," said the Contessa impressively, +"who are to be the most pitied. They must starve and never cry out; they +must conceal their misery and smile; they must put always a fair front +to the world, and seem to want nothing, while they want everything. Oh!" +The Contessa ended with a sigh, which said more than words. She pressed +Lucy's hand, and turned her face away. Her feelings were too much for +her, and on the delicate cheek, which Lucy could see, there was the +trace of a tear. After a moment she looked round again, and said, with +a little quiver in her voice: "I respect your father, my Lucy. It was a +noble thought, and it is original. No one I have ever heard of had such +an intention before." + +Lucy, at this unlooked-for applause, brightened with pleasure; but at +the same time was so moved that she could only look up into her +companion's face and return the pressure of her hand. When she recovered +a little she said: "You have known people like that?" + +"Known them? In my country," said the Contessa (who was not an Italian +at all), "they are as plentiful as in England--blackberries. People with +noble names, with noble old houses, with children who must never learn +anything, never be anything, because there is no money. Know them! dear +child, who can know better? If I were to tell you my history! I have for +my own part known--what I could not trouble your gentle spirit to hear." + +"But, Madame di Forno-Populo, oh! if you think me worthy of your +confidence, tell me!" cried Lucy. "Indeed, I am not so insensible as you +may think. I have known more than you suppose. You look as if no harm +could ever have touched you," Lucy cried, with a look of genuine +admiration. The Contessa had found the right way into her heart. + +The Contessa smiled with mournful meaning and shook her head. "A great +deal of harm has touched me," she said; "I am the very person to meet +with harm in the world. A solitary woman without any one to take care of +me, and also a very silly one, with many foolish tastes and +inclinations. Not prudent, not careful, my Lucy, and with very little +money; what could be more forlorn? You see," she said, with a smile "I +do not put all this blame upon Providence, but a great deal on myself. +But to put me out of the question----" + +Lucy put a hand upon the Contessa's arm. She was much moved by this +revelation. + +"Oh! don't do that," she said; "it is you I want to hear of." + +Madame di Forno-Populo had an object in every word she was saying, and +knew exactly how much she meant to tell and how much to conceal. It was +indeed a purely artificial appeal that she was making to her companion's +feelings; and yet, when she looked upon the simple sympathy and generous +interest in Lucy's face, her heart was touched. + +"How good you are," she said; "how generous! though I have come to you +against your will, and am staying--when I am not wanted." + +"Oh! do not say so," cried Lucy with eagerness; "do not think +so--indeed, it was not against my will. I was glad, as glad as I could +be, to receive my husband's friend." + +"Few women are so," said the Contessa gravely. "I knew it when I came. +Few, very few, care for their husband's friend--especially when she is a +woman----" + +Lucy fixed her eyes upon her with earnest attention. Her look was not +suspicious, yet there was investigation in it. + +"I do not think I am like that," she said simply. + +"No, you are not like that," said the Contessa. "You are the soul of +candour and sweetness; but I have vexed you. Ah, my Lucy, I have vexed +you. I know it--innocently, my love--but still I have done it. That is +one of the curses of poverty. Now look," she said, after a momentary +pause, "how truth brings truth! I did not intend to say this when I +began" (and this was perfectly true), "but now I must open my heart to +you. I came without caring much what you would think, meaning no +harm--Oh, trust me, meaning no harm! but since I have come all the +advantages of being here have appeared to me so strongly that I have set +my heart upon remaining, though I knew it was disagreeable to you." + +"Indeed:" cried Lucy, divided between sincerity and kindness: "if it was +ever so for a moment, it was only because I did not understand." + +"My sweetest child! this I tell you is one of the curses of poverty. I +knew it was disagreeable to you; but because of the great advantage of +being in your house, not only for me, but for Bice, for whom I have +sworn to do my best--Lucy, pardon me--I could not make up my mind to go +away. Listen! I said to myself, I am poor, I cannot give her all the +advantages; and they are rich; it is nothing to them--I will stay, I +will continue, though they do not want me, not for my sake, for the sake +of Bice. They will not be sorry afterwards to have made the fortune of +Bice. Listen, dear one; hear me out. I had the intention of forcing +myself upon you--oh no! the words are not too strong--in London, always +for Bice's sake, for she has no one but me; and if her career is +stopped---- I am not a woman," said the Contessa, with dignity, "who am +used to find myself _de trop_. I have been in my life courted, I may say +it, rather than disagreeable; yet this I was willing to bear--and impose +myself upon you for Bice's sake----" + +Lucy listened to this moving address with many differing emotions. It +gave her a pang to think that her hopes of having her house to herself +were thus permanently threatened. But at the same time her heart +swelled, and all her generous feelings were stirred. Was she indeed so +poor a creature as to grudge to two lonely women the shelter and +advantage of her wealth and position? If she did this, what did it +matter if she gave money away? This would indeed be keeping to the +letter of her father's will, and abjuring its meaning. She could not +resist the pathos, the dignity, the sweetness of the Contessa's appeal, +which was not for herself but for Bice, for the girl who was so good to +baby, and whom that little oracle had bound her to with links of +gratitude and tenderness. "Oh," Lucy said to herself, "if I should ever +have to appeal to any one for kindness to him!" And Bice was the +Contessa's child--the child of her heart, at least--the voluntary charge +which she had taken upon her, and to which she was devoting herself. Was +it possible that only because she wanted to have her husband to herself +in the evenings, and objected to any interruption of their privacy, a +woman should be made to suffer who was a good woman, and to whom Lucy +could be of use? No, no, she cried within herself, the tears coming to +her eyes; and yet there was a very real pang behind. + +"But reassure yourself, dear child," said the Contessa, "for now that I +see what you are doing for others, I cannot be so selfish. No; I cannot +do it any longer. In England you do not love society; you love your home +unbroken; you do not like strangers. No, my Lucy, I will learn a lesson +from your goodness. I too will sacrifice--oh, if it was only myself and +not Bice!" + +"Contessa," said Lucy with an effort, looking up with a smile through some +tears, "I am not like that. It never was that you were--disagreeable. How +could you be disagreeable? And Bice is--oh, so kind, so good to my boy. +You must never think of it more. The town house is not so large as the +Hall, but we shall find room in it. Oh, I am not so heartless, not so +stupid, as you think! Do you suppose I would let you go away after you +have been so kind as to open your heart to me, and let me know that we +are really of use? Oh, no, no! And I am sure," she added, faltering +slightly, "that Tom--will think the same." + +"It is not Tom--excellent, _cher_ Tom! that shall be consulted," cried +the Contessa. "Lucy, my little angel! if it is really so that you will +give my Bice the advantage of your protection for her _début_---- But +that is to be an angel indeed, superior to all our little, petty, +miserable---- Is it possible, then," cried the Contessa, "that there is +some one so good, so noble in this low world?" + +This gratitude confused Lucy more than all the rest. She did her best to +deprecate and subdue; but in her heart she felt that it was a great +sacrifice she was making. "Indeed, it is nothing," she said faintly. "I +am fond of her, and she has been so good to baby; and if we can be of +any use--but oh, Madame di Forno-Populo," Lady Randolph cried, taking +courage. "Her _début_? do you really mean what she says that she must +marry----" + +"That I mean to marry her," said the Contessa, "that is how we express +it," with a very concise ending to her transports of gratitude. "Sweet +Lucy," she continued, "it is the usage of our country. The parents, or +those who stand in their place, think it their duty. We marry our +children as you clothe them in England. You do not wait till your little +boy can choose. You find him what is necessary. Just so do we. We choose +so much better than an inexperienced girl can choose. If she has an +aversion, if she says I cannot suffer him, we do not press it upon her. +Many guardians will pay no attention, but me," said the Contessa, +putting forth a little foreign accent, which she displayed very +rarely--"I have lived among the English, and I am influenced by their +ways. Neither do I think it right," she added, with an air of candour, +"to offer an old person, or one who is hideous, or even very +disagreeable. But, yes, she must marry well. What else is there that a +girl of family can do?" + +Lucy was about to answer with enthusiasm that there were many things she +could do; but stopped short, arrested by these last words. "A girl of +family,"--that, no doubt, made a difference. She paused, and looked +somewhat wistfully in her companion's face. "We think," she said, "in +England that anything is better than a marriage without----" + +The Contessa put up her hand to stay the words. "Without love---- I know +what you are going to say; but, my angel, that is a word which Bice has +never heard spoken. She knows it not. She has not the habit of thinking +it necessary--she is a good girl, and she has no sentiment. Besides, why +should we go so fast? If she produces the effect I hope---- Why should +not some one present himself whom she could also love? Oh yes; fall in +love with, as you say in English--such an innocent phrase; let us hope +that, when the proper person comes who satisfies my requirements, +Bice--to whom not a word shall be said--will fall in love with him +_comme il faut_!" + +Lucy did not make any reply. She was troubled by the light laugh with +which the Contessa concluded, and with the slight change of tone which +was perceptible. But she was still too much moved by her own emotion to +have got beyond its spell, and she had committed herself beyond recall. +While the Contessa talked on with--was it a little, little change?--a +faint difference, a levity that had not been in her voice before? Lucy's +thoughts went back upon what she had done with a little tremor. Not this +time as to what Tom might say, but with a deeper wonder and pang as to +what might come of it; was she going voluntarily into new danger, such +as she had no clue to, and could not understand? After a little while +she asked almost timidly-- + +"But if Bice should not see any one----" + +"You mean if no one suitable should present himself?" The Contessa +suddenly grew very grave. She put her hands together with a gesture of +entreaty. "My sweet one, let us not think of that. When she is dressed +as I shall dress her, and brought out--as you will enable me to bring +her out. My Lucy, we do not know what is in her. She will shine, she +will charm. Even now, if she is excited, there are moments in which she +is beautiful. If she fails altogether---- Ah, my love, as I tell you, +there is where the curse of poverty comes in. Had she even a moderate +fortune, poor child; but alas, orphan, with no one but me----" + +"Is she an orphan?" said Lucy, feeling ashamed of the momentary failure +of her interest, "and without relations--except----" + +"Relations?" said the Contessa; there was something peculiar in her tone +which attracted Lucy's attention, and came back to her mind in other +days. "Ah, my Lucy, there are many things in this life which you have +never thought of. She has relations who think nothing of her, who would +be angry, be grieved, if they knew that she existed. Yes, it is terrible +to think of, but it is true. She is, on one side, of English parentage. +But pardon me, my sweetest, I did not mean to tell you all this: only, +my Lucy, you will one time be glad to think that you have been kind to +Bice. It will be a pleasure to you. Now let us think of it no more. +Marry; yes, she must marry. She has not even so much as your poor +clergyman; she has nothing, not a penny. So I must marry her, there is +nothing more to be said." + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX. + +THE CONTESSA'S TRIUMPH. + + +And it was with very mingled sensations that Sir Tom heard from Lucy +(for it was from her lips he heard it) the intimation that Madame di +Forno-Populo was going to be so good as to remain at the Hall till they +moved to London, and then to accompany them to Park Lane. Sir Tom was +taken entirely by surprise. He was not a man who had much difficulty in +commanding himself, or showing such an aspect as he pleased to the +general world; but on this occasion he was so much surprised that his +very jaw dropped with wonder and astonishment. It was at luncheon that +the intimation was made, in the Contessa's presence, so that he did not +venture to let loose any expression of his feelings. He gave a cry, only +half uttered, of astonishment, restrained by politeness, turning his +eyes, which grew twice their size in the bewilderment of the moment, +from Lucy to the Contessa and back again. Then he burst into a +breathless laugh--a twinkle of humour lighted in those eyes which were +big with wonder, and he turned a look of amused admiration towards the +Contessa. How had she done it? There was no fathoming the cleverness of +women, he said to himself, and for the rest of the day he kept bursting +forth into little peals of laughter all by himself. How had she managed +to do it? It was a task which he himself would not have ventured to +undertake. He would not, he said to himself, have had the slightest idea +how to bring forward such a proposition. On the contrary, had not his +sense that Lucy had much to forgive in respect to this invasion of her +home and privacy induced him to make a great sacrifice, to withdraw his +opposition to those proceedings of hers of which he so much disapproved? +And yet in an afternoon, in one interview, the Contessa had got the +upper hand! Her cleverness was extraordinary. It tickled him so that he +could not take time to think how very little satisfied he was with the +result. He, too, had fallen under her enchantments in the country, in +the stillness, if not dulness, of those long evenings, and he had been +very willing to be good to her for the sake of old times, to make her as +comfortable as possible, to give her time to settle her plans for her +London campaign. But that she should begin that campaign under his own +roof, and that Lucy, his innocent and simple wife, should be visible to +the world as the friend and ally of a lady whose name was too well known +to society, was by no means satisfactory to Sir Tom. When his first +astonishment and amazement was over, he began to look grave; but what +was he to do? He had so much respect for Lucy that when the idea +occurred to him of warning her that the Contessa's antecedents were not +of a comfortable kind, and that her generosity was mistaken, he rejected +it again with a sort of panic, and did not dare, experienced and +courageous as he was, to acknowledge to his little wife that he had +ventured to bring to her house a woman of whom it could be said that she +was not above suspicion. Sir Tom had dared a great many perils in his +life, but he did not venture to face this. He recoiled from before it, +as he would not have done from any lion in the way. He could not even +suggest to her any reticence in her communications, any reserve in +showing herself at the Contessa's side, or in inviting other people to +meet her. If all his happiness depended upon it, he felt that he could +not disturb Lucy's mind by any such warning. Confess to her that he had +brought to her a woman with whom scandal had been busy, that he had +introduced to her as his friend, and recommended to honour and kindness, +one whose name had been in all men's mouths! Sir Tom ran away morally +from this suggestion as if he had been the veriest coward; he could not +breathe a word of it in Lucy's ear. How could he explain to her that +mixture of amazement at the woman's boldness, and humorous sense of the +incongruity of her appearance in the absolute quiet of an English home, +without company, which, combined with ancient kindness and careless good +humour, had made him sanction her first appearance? Still less, how +could he explain the mingling of more subtle sensations, the +recollections of a past which Sir Tom could not himself much approve of, +yet which was full of interest still, and the formation of an +intercourse which renewed that past, and brought a little tingling of +agreeable excitement into life when it had fallen to too low an ebb to +be agreeable in itself? He would not say a word of all this to Lucy. Her +purity, her simplicity, even her want of imagination and experience, her +incapacity to understand that debatable land between vice and virtue in +which so many men find little harm, and which so many women regard with +interest and curiosity, closed his mouth. And then he comforted himself +with the reflection that, as his aunt herself had admitted, the Contessa +had never brought herself openly within the ban. Men might laugh when +the name of La Forno-Populo was introduced, and women draw themselves up +with indignation, or stare with astonishment not unmingled with +consternation as the Duchess had done; but they could not refuse to +recognise her, nor could any one assert that there was sufficient reason +to exclude her from society. Not even when she was younger, and +surrounded by worshippers, could this be said. And now when she was +less---- But here Sir Tom paused to ask himself, was she less attractive +than of old? When he came to consider the question he was obliged to +allow that he did not think so; and if she really meant to bring out +that girl---- Did she mean to bring out that girl? Could she make up her +mind to exhibit beside her own waning (if they were waning) charms the +first flush of this young beauty? Sir Tom, who thought he knew women (at +least of the kind of La Forno-Populo), shook his head and felt it very +doubtful whether the Contessa was sincere, or if she could indeed make +up her mind to take a secondary place. He thought with a rueful +anticipation of the sort of people who would flock to Park Lane to renew +their acquaintance with La Forno-Populo. "By Jove! but shall they +though? Not if I know it," said Sir Tom firmly to himself. + +Williams, the butler, was still more profoundly discomposed. He had +opened his mind to Mrs. Freshwater on various occasions when his +feelings were too many for him. Naturally, Williams gave the Contessa +the benefit of no doubt as to her reputation. He was entirely convinced, +as is the fashion of his class, that all that could have been said of +her was true, and that she was as unfit for the society of the +respectable as any wretched creature could be. "That foreign madam" was +what he called her, in the privacy of the housekeeper's room, with many +opprobrious epithets. Mrs. Freshwater, who was, perhaps, more +good-natured than was advantageous to the housekeeper and manager of a +large establishment, was melted whenever she saw her, by the Contessa's +gracious looks and ways, but Williams was immovable. "If you'd seen what +I've seen," he said, shaking his head. The women, for Lucy's maid +Fletcher sometimes shared these revelations, were deeply excited by +this--longing, yet fearing to ask what it was that Williams had seen. +"And when I think of my lady, that is as innocent as the babe unborn," +he said, "mixed up in all that---- You'll see such racketing as never was +thought of," cried Williams. "I know just how things will go. Night +turned into day, carriages driving up at all hours, suppers going on +after the play all the night through, masks and dominoes +arriving;--no--to be sure this is England. There will be no _veglionis_, +at least--which in England, ladies, would be masked balls--with Madam +the Countess and her gentlemen--and even ladies too, a sort of +ladies--in all sorts of dresses." + +"O-oh!" the women cried. + +They were partially shocked, as they were intended to be, but partially +their curiosity was excited, and a feeling that they would like to see +all these gaieties and fine dresses moved their minds. The primitive +intelligence always feel certain that "racketing" and orgies that go on +all night, must be at least guiltily delightful, exciting, and amusing, +if nothing else. They were not of those who "held with" such +dissipation; still for once in a way to see it, the responsibility not +being theirs, would be something. They held their breath, but it was not +altogether in horror; there was in it a mixture of anticipation too. + +"And I know what will come of it," said Williams. "What has come afore: +the money will have to come out o' some one's pocket; and master never +knew how to keep his to himself, never, as long as I've known him. To be +sure, he hadn't got a great deal in the old days. But I know what'll +happen; he'll just have to pay up now--he's that soft," said Williams; +"a man that can't say no to a woman. Not that I care for the money. I'd +a deal sooner he gave her an allowance, or set her up in some other +place, or just give her a good round sum--as he could afford to do--and +get shut of her. That is what I should advise. Just a round sum and get +shut of her." + +"I've always heard," said Miss Fletcher, "as the money was my lady's, +and not from the Randolph side at all." + +"What's hers is his," said Williams; "what's my lady's is her husband's; +and a good bargain too--on her side." + +"I declare," cried Fletcher energetically, stung with that sense of +wrong to her own side which gives heat to party feeling--"I declare if +any man took my money to keep up his--his--his old sweetheart, I'd +murder him. I'd take his life, that's what I should do." + +"Poor dear," said Mrs. Freshwater, wiping her eyes with her apron. "Poor +dear! She'll never murder no one, my lady. Bless her innocent face. I +only hope as she'll never find it out." + +"Sooner than she don't find it out I'll tell her myself," cried +Williams. "Now I don't understand you women. You'd let my lady be +deceived and made game of, rather than tell her." + +"Made game of!" cried Fletcher, with a shriek of indignation. "I should +like to see who dared to do that." + +"Oh, they'll dare do it, soon enough, and take their fun out of +her--it's just what them foreigners are fond of," said Williams, who +knew them and all their tricks down to the ground, as he said. Still, +however, notwithstanding his evil reports, good Mrs. Freshwater, who was +as good-natured as she was fat, could scarcely make up her mind to +believe all that of the Contessa. "She do look so sweet, and talk so +pretty, not as if she was foreign at all," the housekeeper said. + +That evening, however, the Contessa herself took occasion to explain to +Sir Tom what her intentions were. She had thought the subject all over +while she dressed for dinner, with a certain elation in her success, yet +keen clear-mindedness which never deserted her. And then, to be sure, +her object had not been entirely the simple one of getting an invitation +to Park Lane. She had intended something more than this. And she was not +sure of success in that second and still more important point. She meant +that Lady Randolph should endow Bice largely, liberally. She intended to +bring every sort of motive to bear--even some that verged upon +tragedy--to procure this. She had no compunction or faltering on the +subject, for it was not for herself, she said within herself, that she +was scheming, and she did not mean to be foiled. In considering the best +means to attain this great and final object, she decided that it would +be well to go softly, not to insist too much upon the advantages she had +secured, or to give Lucy too much cause to regret her yielding. The +Contessa had the soul of a strategist, the imagination of a great +general. She did not ignore the feelings of the subject of her +experiment. She even put herself in Lucy's place, and asked herself how +she could bear this or that. She would not oppose or overwhelm the +probable benefactress to whom she, or at least Bice, might afterwards +owe so much. When Sir Tom approached her chair in the evening when he +came in after dinner, as he always did, she made room for him on the +sofa beside her. "I am going to make you my confidant," she said in her +most charming way, with that air of smiling graciousness which made Sir +Tom laugh, yet fascinated him in spite of himself. He knew that she put +on the same air for whomsoever she chose to charm; but it had a power +which he could not resist all the same. "But perhaps you don't care to +be taken into my confidence," she added, smiling, too, as if willing to +admit all he could allege as to her syren graces. She had a delightful +air of being in the joke which entirely deceived Sir Tom. + +"On the contrary," he said. "But as we have just heard your plans from +my wife----" + +The Contessa kissed her hand to Lucy, who occupied her usual place at +the table. + +"I wonder," she said, "if you understand, being only a man, what there +is in that child; for she is but a child. You and I, we are Methuselahs +in comparison." + +"Not quite so much as that," he said, with a laugh. + +"Methuselahs," she said reflectively. "Older, if that is possible; +knowing everything, while she knows nothing. She is our good angel. It +is what you would not have dared to offer, you who know me--yes, I +believe it--and like me. Oh no, I do not go beyond that English word, +never! You like the Forno-Populo. I know how you men speak. You think +that there is amusement to be got from her, and you will do me the +honour to say, no harm. That is, no permanent harm. But you would not +offer to befriend me, no, not the best of you. But she who by nature is +against such women as I am--Sweet Lucy! Yes it is you I am talking of," +the Contessa said, who was skilful to break any lengthened speeches like +this by all manner of interruptions, so that it should never tire the +person to whom it was addressed. "She, who is not amused by me, who does +not like me, whose prejudices are all against me, she it is who offers +me her little hand to help me. It is a lovely little hand, though she is +not a beauty----" + +"My wife is very well," said Sir Tom, with a certain hauteur and +abruptness, such as in all their lengthened conversations he had never +shown before. + +The Contessa gave him a look in which there was much of that feminine +contempt at which men laugh as one of the pretences of women. "I am +going to be good to her as she is to me," she said. "The Carnival will +be short this year, and in England you have no Carnival. I will find +myself a little house for the season. I will not too much impose upon +that angel. There, now, is something good for you to relieve your mind. +I can read you, _mon ami_, like a book. You are fond of me--oh yes!--but +not too long; not too much. I can read you like a book." + +"Too long, too much, are not in my vocabulary," said Sir Tom; "have they +a meaning? not certainly that has any connection with a certain charming +Contessina. If that lady has a fault, which I doubt, it is that she +gives too little of her gracious countenance to her friends." + +"She does not come down to breakfast," said the Contessa, with her soft +laugh, which in itself was a work of art. "She is not so foolish as to +put herself in competition with the lilies and the roses, the English +flowers. Poverina! she keeps herself for the afternoon which is +charitable, and the light of the lamps which is flattering. But she +remembers other days--alas! in which she was not afraid of the sun +himself, not even of the mid-day, nor of the dawn when it comes in above +the lamps. There was a certain _bal costumé_ in Florence, a year when +many English came to the Populino palace. But why do I talk of that? You +will not remember----" + +There was something apparently in the recollection that touched Sir Tom. +His eye softened. An unaccustomed colour came to his middle-aged cheek. +"I! not remember? I remember every hour, every moment," he said, and +then their voices sank lower, and a murmur of reminiscences, one filling +up another, ensued between the pair. Their tone softened, there were +broken phrases, exclamations, a rapid interchange which was far too +indistinct to be audible. Lucy sat by her table and worked, and was +vaguely conscious of it all. She had said to herself that she would take +no heed any more, that the poor Contessa was too open-hearted, too +generous to harm her, that they were but two old friends talking of the +past. And so it was; but there was a something forlorn in sitting by at +a distance, out of it all, and knowing that it was to go on and last, +alas! by her own doing, who could tell how many evenings, how many long +hours to come! + + + + +CHAPTER XXX. + +DIFFERENT VIEWS. + + +The time after this seemed to fly in the great quiet, all the +entertainments of the Christmas season being over, and the houses in the +neighbourhood gradually emptying of guests. The only visitors at the +Hall were the clergyman, the doctor, an odd man now and then whom Sir +Tom would invite in the character of a "native," for the Contessa's +amusement; and Mr. Rushton, who came from Farafield two or three times +on business, at first with a very keen curiosity, to know how it was +that Lucy had subdued her husband and got him to relinquish his +objection to her alienation of her money. This had puzzled the lawyer +very greatly. There had been no uncertainty about Sir Tom's opinion when +the subject was mooted to him first. He had looked upon it with very +proper sentiments. It had seemed to him ridiculous, incredible, that +Lucy should set up her will against his, or take her own way, when she +knew how he regarded the matter. He had told the lawyer that he had +little doubt of being able to bring her to hear reason. And then he had +written to say that he withdrew his objection! Mr. Rushton felt that +there must be some reason here more than met the eye. He made a pretence +of business that he might discover what it was, and he had done so +triumphantly, as he thought. Sir Tom, as everybody knew, had been "a +rover" in his youth, and the world was charitable enough to conclude +that in that youth there must be many things which he would not care to +expose to the eye of day. When Mr. Rushton beheld at luncheon the +Contessa, followed by the young and slim figure of Bice, it seemed to +him that everything was solved. And Lady Randolph, he thought, did not +look with very favourable eyes upon the younger lady. What doubt that +Sir Tom had bought the assent of his wife to the presence of the guests +by giving up on his side some of his reasonable rights? + +"Did you ever hear of an Italian lady that Sir Tom was thick with before +he married?" he asked his wife when he came home. + +"How can you ask me such a question," said that virtuous woman, "when +you know as well as I do that there were half-a-dozen?" + +"Did you ever hear the name of Forno-Populo?" he asked. + +Mrs. Rushton paused and did her best to look as if she was trying to +recollect. As a matter of fact all Italian names sounded alike to her, +as English names do to foreign ears. But after a moment she said boldly: +"Of course I have heard it. That was the lady from Naples, or Venice, or +some of those places, that ran away with him. You heard all about it at +the time as well as I." + +And upon this Mr. Rushton smote upon his thigh, and made a mighty +exclamation. "By George!" he said, "he's got her there, under his wife's +very nose; and that's why he has given in about the money." Nothing +could have been more clearly reasoned out--there could be no doubt upon +that subject. And the presence of Bice decided the question. Bice must +be--they said, to be sure! Dates and everything answered to this view of +the question. There could be no doubt as to who Bice was. They were very +respectable, good people themselves, and had never given any scandal to +the world; but they never hesitated for a moment or thought there was +anything unnatural in attributing the most shameful scandal and domestic +treachery to Sir Tom. In fact it would be difficult to say that they +thought much less of him in consequence. It was Lucy, rather, upon whom +their censure fell. She ought to have known better. She ought never to +have allowed it. To pretend to such simplicity was sickening, Mrs. +Rushton thought. + +It was early in February when they all went to London--a time when +society is in a sort of promissory state, full of hopes of dazzling +delights to come, but for the present not dazzling, parliamentary, +residential, a society made up of people who live in London, who are not +merely gay birds of fashion, basking in the sunshine of the seasons. +There was only a week or two of what the Contessa called Carnival, which +indeed was not Carnival at all, but a sober time in which dinner parties +began, and the men began to gather at the clubs. The Contessa did not +object to this period of quiet. She acquainted Lucy with all she meant +to do in the meantime, to the great confusion of that ingenious spirit. +"Bice must be dressed," the Contessa said, "which of itself requires no +little time and thought. Unhappily M. Worth is not in London. Even with +M. Worth I exert my own faculties. He is excellent, but he has not the +intuitions which come when one is very much interested in an object. +Sweet Lucy! you have not thought upon that matter. Your dress is as your +dressmaker sends it to you. Yes; but, my angel, Bice has her career +before her. It is different." + +"Oh, Madame di Forno-Populo," said Lucy, "do you still think in that +way--must it still be exhibiting her, marrying her?" + +"Marriage is honourable," said the Contessa. "It is what all girls are +thinking of; but me, I think it better that their parents should take it +in hand instead of the young ladies. There is something in Bice that is +difficult, oh, very difficult. If one chooses well for her, one will be +richly repaid; but if, on the contrary, one leaves it to the +conventional, the ordinary--My sweetest! your pretty white dresses, your +blues are delightful for you; but Bice is different, quite different. +And then she has no fortune. She must be piquant. She must be striking. +She must please. In England you take no trouble for that. It is not +_comme il faut_ here; but it is in our country. Each of us we like the +ways of our country best." + +"I have often wondered," said Lucy, "to hear you speak such perfect +English, and Bice too. It is, I suppose, because you are so musical and +have such good ears----" + +"Darling!" said the Contessa sweetly. She said this or a similar word +when nothing else occurred to her. She had her room full of lovely +stuffs, brought by obsequious shopmen, to whom Lady Randolph's name was +sufficient warrant for any extravagance the Contessa might think of. But +she said to herself that she was not at all extravagant; for Bice's +wardrobe was her stock-in-trade, and if she did not take the opportunity +of securing it while in her power, the Contessa thought she would be +false to Bice's interests. The girl still wore nothing but her black +frock. She went out in the park early in the morning when nobody was +there, and sometimes had riding lessons at an unearthly hour, so that +nobody should see her. The Contessa was very anxious on this point. When +Lucy would have taken Bice out driving, when she would have taken her +to the theatre, her patroness instantly interfered. "All that will come +in its time," she said. "Not now. She must not appear now. I cannot have +her seen. Recollect, my Lucy, she has no fortune. She must depend upon +herself for everything." This doctrine, at which Lucy stood aghast, was +maintained in the most matter-of-fact way by the neophyte herself. "If I +were seen," she said, "now, I should be quite stale when I appear. I +must appear before I go anywhere. Oh yes, I love the theatre. I should +like to go with you driving. But I should forestall myself. Some persons +do and they are never successful. First of all, before anything, I must +appear." + +"Oh my child," Lucy cried, "I cannot bear to hear of all this. You +should not calculate so at your age. And when you appear, as you call +it, what then, Bice? Nobody will take any particular notice, perhaps, +and you will be so disappointed you will not know what to do. Hundreds +of girls appear every season and nobody minds." + +Bice took no notice of these subduing and moderating previsions. She +smiled and repeated what the Contessa said. "I must do the best for +myself, for I have no fortune." + +No fortune! and to think that Lucy, with her mind directed to other +matters, never once realised that this was a state of affairs which she +could put an end to in a moment. It never occurred to her--perhaps, as +she certainly was matter of fact, the recollection that there was a sort +of stipulation in the will against foreigners turned her thoughts into +another channel. + +It was, however, during this time of preparation and quiet that the +household in Park Lane one day received a visit from Jock, accompanied +by no less a person than MTutor, the leader of intellectual life and +light of the world to the boy. They came to luncheon by appointment, and +after visiting some museum on which Jock's mind was set, came to remain +to dinner and go to the theatre. MTutor had a condescending appreciation +of the stage. He thought it was an educational influence, not perhaps of +any great utility to the youths under such care as his own, but of no +small importance to the less fortunate members of society; and he liked +to encourage the efforts of conscientious actors who looked upon their +own calling in this light. It was rather for this purpose than with the +idea of amusement that he patronised the play, and Jock, as in duty +bound, though there was in him a certain boyish excitement as to the +pleasure itself, did his best to regard the performance in the same +exalted light. MTutor was a young man of about thirty, slim and tall. He +was a man who had taken honours at college, though his admirers said not +such high honours as he might have taken; "For MTutor," said Jock, +"never would go in for pot-hunting, you know. What he always wanted was +to cultivate his own mind, not to get prizes." It was with heartfelt +admiration that this feature in his character was dwelt upon by his +disciples. Not a doubt that he could have got whatever he liked to go in +for, had he not been so fastidious and high-minded. He was fellow of his +college as it was, had got a poetry prize which, perhaps, was not the +Newdigate; and smiled indulgently at those who were more warm in the +arena of competition than himself. On other occasions when "men" came to +luncheon, the Contessa, though quite ready to be amused by them in her +own person, sternly forbade the appearance of Bice, the effect of whose +future was not, she was determined, to be spoilt by any such preliminary +peeps; but the Contessa's vigilance slackened when the visitors were of +no greater importance than this. She was insensible to the greatness of +MTutor. It did not seem to matter that he should be there sitting grave +and dignified by Lucy's side, and talking somewhat over Lucy's head, any +more than it mattered that Mr. Rushton should be there, or any other +person of an inferior level. It was not upon such men that Bice's +appearance was to tell. She took no precautions against such persons. +Jock himself at sixteen was not more utterly out of the question. And +the Contessa herself, as it happened, was much amused by MTutor; his +great ideas of everything, the exalted ideal that showed in all he did +or said, gave great pleasure to this woman of the world. And when they +came to the question of the educational influence of the stage, and the +conscientious character of the actors' work, she could not conceal her +satisfaction. "I will go with you, too," she said, "this evening." "We +shall all go," said Sir Tom, "even Bice. There is a big box, and behind +the curtain nobody will see her." To this the Contessa demurred, but, +after a little while, being in a yielding humour, gave way. "It is for +the play alone," she said in an undertone, raising her finger in +admonition, "You will remember, my child, for the play alone." + +"We are all going for the play alone," said Sir Tom, cheerfully. "Here +is Lucy, who is a baby for a play. She likes melodrama best, disguises +and trap-doors and long-lost sons, and all the rest of it." + +"It is a taste that is very general," said MTutor, indulgently; "but I +am sure Lady Randolph appreciates the efforts of a conscientious +interpreter--one who calls all the resources of art to his aid----" + +"I don't care for the play alone," said Bice to Jock in an undertone. "I +want to see the people. They are always the most amusing. I have seen +nobody yet in London. And though I must not be seen, I may look, that +will do no harm. Then there will be the people who come into the box." + +"The people who come into the box! but you know us all," said Jock, +astonished, "before we go----" + +"You all?" said Bice, with some disdain. "It is easy to see _you_; that +is not what I mean; this will be the first time I put my foot into the +world. The actors, that is nothing. Is it the custom in England to look +much at the play? No, you go to see your friends." + +MTutor was on the other side of this strange girl in her black frock. He +took it upon him to reply. He said: "That is the case in some countries, +but not here. In England the play is actually thought of. English actors +are not so good as the French, nor even the Italian. And the Germans are +much better trained. Nevertheless, we do what perhaps no other nation +does. We give them our attention. It is this which makes the position of +the actors more important, more interesting in England." + +"Stop a little, stop a little!" cried Sir Tom; "don't let me interrupt +you, Derwentwater, if you are instructing the young ones; but don't +forget the _Comédie Française_ and the aristocracy of art." + +"I do not forget it," said Mr. Derwentwater; "in that point of view we +are far behind France; still I uphold that nowhere else do people go to +the theatre for the sake of the play as we do; and it is this," he +said, turning to Bice, "that makes it possible that the theatre may be +an influence and a power." + +Bice lifted her eyes upon this man with a wondering gaze of contempt. +She gave him a full look which abashed him, though he was so much more +important, so much more intellectual, than she. Then, without deigning +to take any notice, she turned to Jock at her other side. "If that is +all I do not care for going," she said. "I have seen many plays--oh, +many! I like quite as well to read at home. It is not for that I wish to +go; but to see the world. The world, that is far more interesting. It is +like a novel, but living. You look at the people and you read what they +are thinking. You see their stories going on. That is what amuses +me;--but a play on the stage, what is it? People dressed in clothes that +do not belong to them, trying to make themselves look like somebody +else--but they never do. One says--that is not I, but the people that +know--Bravo, Got! Bravo Regnier! It does not matter what parts they are +acting. You do not care for the part. Then why go and look at it?" said +Bice with straightforward philosophy. + +All this she poured forth upon Jock in a low clear voice, as if there +was no one else near. Jock, for his part, was carried away by the flood. + +"I don't know about Got and Regnier. But what we are going to see is +Shakespeare," he said, with a little awe, "that is not just like a +common play." + +Mr. Derwentwater had been astonished by Bice's indifference to his own +instructive remarks. It was this perhaps more than her beauty which had +called his attention to her, and he had listened as well as he could to +the low rapid stream of her conversation, not without wonder that she +should have chosen Jock as the recipient of her confidence. What she +said, though he heard it but imperfectly, interested him still more. He +wanted to make her out--it was a new kind of study. While Lucy, by his +side, went on tranquilly with some soft talk about the theatre, of which +she knew very little, he thought, he made her a civil response, but gave +all his attention to what was going on at the other side; and there was +suddenly a lull of the general commotion, in which he heard distinctly +Bice's next words. + +"_What_ is Shakespeare?" she said; then went on with her own +reflections. "What I want to see is the world. I have never yet gone +into the world; but I must know it, for it is there I have to live. If +one could live in Shakespeare," cried the girl, "it would be easy; but I +have not been brought up for that; and I want to see the world--just a +little corner--because that is what concerns me, not a play. If it is +only for the play, I think I shall not go." + +"You had much better come," said Jock; "after all it is fun, and some of +the fellows will be good. The world is not to be seen at the theatre +that I know of," continued the boy. "Rows of people sitting one behind +another, most of them as stupid as possible--you don't call that the +world? But come--I wish you would come. It is a change--it stirs you +up." + +"I don't want to be stirred up. I am all living," cried Bice. There +seemed to breathe out from her a sort of visible atmosphere of energy +and impatient life. Looking across this thrill in the air, which somehow +was like the vibration of heat in the atmosphere, Jock's eyes +encountered those of his tutor, turned very curiously, and not without +bewilderment, to the same point as his own. It gave the boy a curious +sensation which he could not define. He had wished to exhibit to Mr. +Derwentwater this strange phenomenon in the shape of a girl, with a +sense that there was something very unusual in her, something in which +he himself had a certain proprietorship. But when MTutor's eyes +encountered Jock's with an astonished glance of discovery in them, which +seemed to say that he had found out Bice for himself without the +interposition of the original discoverer, Jock felt a thrill of +displeasure, and almost pain, which he could not explain to himself. +What did it mean? It seemed to bring with it a certain defiance of, and +opposition to, this king of men. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXI. + +TWO FRIENDS. + + +"Who was that young lady?" Mr. Derwentwater said. "I did not catch the +name." + +"What young lady?" To suppose for a moment that Jock did not know who +was meant would be ridiculous, of course; but, for some reason which he +did not explain even to himself, this was the reply he made. + +"My dear Jock, there was but one," said MTutor, with much friendliness. +"At your age you do not take much notice of the other sex, and that is +very well and right; but still it would be wrong to imagine that there +is not something interesting in girls occasionally. I did not make her +out. She was quite a study to me at the theatre. I am afraid the greater +part of the performance, and all the most meritorious portion of it, +was thrown away upon her; but still there were gleams of interest. She +is not without intelligence, that is clear." + +"You mean Bice," said Jock, with a certain dogged air which Mr. +Derwentwater had seldom seen in him before, and did not understand. He +spoke as if he intended to say as little as was practicable, and as if +he resented being made to speak at all. + +"Bice--ah! like Dante's Bice," said MTutor. "That makes her more +interesting still. Though it is not perhaps under that aspect that one +represents to oneself the Bice of Dante--_ben son, ben son, Beatrice._ +No, not exactly under that aspect. Dante's Bice must have been more +grand, more imposing, in her dress of crimson or dazzling white." + +Jock made no response. It was usual for him to regard MTutor devoutly +when he talked in this way, and to feel that no man on earth talked so +well. Jock in his omnivorous reading knew perhaps Dante better than his +instructor, but he had come to the age when the mind, confused in all +its first awakening of emotions, cannot talk of what affects it most. +The time had been at which he had discussed everything he read with +whosoever would listen, and instructed the world in a child's +straightforward way. At that period he had often improved Lucy's mind on +the subject of Dante, telling her all the details of that wonderful +pilgrimage through earth and heaven, to her great interest and wonder, +as something that had happened the other day. Lucy had not in those days +been quite able to understand how it was that the gentleman of Florence +should have met everybody he knew in the unseen, but she had taken it +all in respectfully, as was her wont. Jock, however, had passed beyond +this stage, and no longer told Lucy, or any one, stories from his +reading; and other sensations had begun to stir in him which he could +not put into words. In this way it was a constant admiration to him to +hear MTutor, who could always, he thought, say the right thing and never +was at a loss. But this evening he was dissatisfied. They were returning +from the theatre by a late train, and nothing but Jock's reputation and +high character as a boy of boys, high up in everything intellectual, and +without reproach in any way, besides the devoted friendship which +subsisted between himself and his tutor, could have justified Mr. +Derwentwater in permitting him in the middle of the half to go to London +to the theatre, and return by the twelve o'clock train. This privilege +came to him from the favour of his tutor, and yet for the first time his +tutor did not seem the superhuman being he had always previously +appeared to Jock. But Mr. Derwentwater was quite unsuspicious of this. + +"There is something very much out of the way in the young lady +altogether," he said. "That little black dress, fitting her like a +glove, and no ornament or finery of any description. It is not so with +girls in general. It was very striking--tell me----" + +"I didn't think," cried Jock, "that you paid any attention to what women +wore." + +Mr. Derwentwater yielded to a gentle smile. "Tell me," he said, as if he +had not been interrupted, "who this young lady may be. Is she a daughter +of the Italian lady, a handsome woman, too, in her way, who was with +your people?" The railway carriage in which they were coursing through +the blackness of the night was but dimly lighted, and it was not easy to +see from one corner to another the expression of Jock's face. + +"I don't know," said Jock, in a voice that sounded gruff, "I can't tell +who she is--I never asked. It did not seem any business of mine." + +"Old fellow," said MTutor, "don't cultivate those bearish ways. Some men +do, but it's not good form. I don't like to see it in you." + +This silenced Jock, and made his face flame in the darkness. He did not +know what excuse to make. He added reluctantly: "Of course I know that +she came with the Contessa; but who she is I don't know, and I don't +think Lucy knows. She is just--there." + +"Well, my boy," said Mr. Derwentwater, "if there is any mystery, all +right; I don't want to be prying;" but, as was natural, this only +increased his curiosity. After an interval, he broke forth again. "A +little mystery," he said, "suits them; a woman ought to be mysterious, +with her long robes falling round her, and her mystery of long hair, and +all the natural veils and mists that are about her. It is more poetic +and in keeping that they should only have a lovely suggestive name, what +we call a Christian name, instead of a commonplace patronymic, Miss +So-and-so! Yes; I recognise your Bice as by far the most suitable +symbol." + +It is impossible to say what an amount of unexpressed and inexpressible +irritation arose in the mind of Jock with every word. "Your Bice!" The +words excited him almost beyond his power of control. The mere fact of +having somehow got into opposition to MTutor was in itself an irritation +almost more than he could bear. How it was he could not explain to +himself; but only felt that from the moment when they had got into their +carriage together, Mr. Derwentwater, hitherto his god, had become almost +odious to him. The evening altogether had been exciting, but +uncomfortable. They had all gone to the theatre, where Jock had been +prepared to look on not so much at a fine piece of acting as at a +conscientious study, the laboriousness of which was one of its chief +qualities. Neither the Contessa nor Bice had been much impressed by that +fine view of the performance. Madame di Forno-Populo, indeed, had swept +the audience with her opera-glass, and paid very little attention to the +stage. She had yawned at the most important moments. When the curtain +fell she had woke up, looking with interest for visitors, as it +appeared, though very few visitors had come. Bice was put into the +corner under shelter of the Contessa, and thence had taken furtive +peeps, though without any opera-glass, with her own keen, intelligent +young eyes, at the people sitting near, whom Jock had declared not to be +in any sense of the word the world. Bice too looked up, when the box +door opened, with great interest. She kept well in the shade, but it was +evident that she was anxious to see whosoever might come. And very few +people came; one or two men who came to pay their respects to Lucy, one +or two who appeared with faces of excitement and surprise to ask if it +was indeed Madame di Forno-Populo whom they had seen? At these Bice from +out her corner gazed with large eyes; they were not persons of an +interesting kind. One of them was a Lord Somebody, who was red-faced and +had an air which somehow did not suit the place in which Lucy was, and +towards whom Sir Tom, though he knew him, maintained an aspect of +seriousness not at all usual to his cordial countenance. Bice, it was +evident, was struck with a contemptuous amaze at the appearance of these +visitors. There was a quick interchange of glances between her and the +Contessa with shrugs of the shoulders and much play of fans. Bice's +raised eyebrows and curled lips perhaps meant--"Are those your famous +friends? Is this all?" Whereas the Contessa answered deprecatingly, with +a sort of "wait a little" look. Jock, who generally was pleased to +stroll about the lobbies in a sort of mannish way in the intervals +between the acts, sat still in his place to watch all this with a +wondering sense that here was something going on in which there was a +still closer interest, and to notice everything almost without knowing +that he noted it, following in this respect, as in most others, the lead +of his tutor, who likewise addressed himself to the supervision of +everything that went on, discoursing in the meantime to Lucy about the +actors' "interpretation" of the part, and how far he, Mr. Derwentwater, +agreed with their view. To Lucy, indeed, the action of the play was +everything, and the intervals between tedious. She laughed and cried, +and followed every movement, and looked round, hushing the others when +they whispered, almost with indignation. Lucy was far younger, Jock +decided, than Bice or even himself. He, too, had learned already--how +had he learned it?--that the play going on upon the stage was less +interesting than that which was being performed outside. Even Jock had +found this out, though he could not have told how. Shakespeare, indeed, +was far greater, nobler; but the excitement of a living story, the +progress of events of which nobody could tell what would come next, had +an interest transcending even the poetry. That was what people said, +Jock was aware, in novels and other productions; but until to-night he +never believed it was true. + +And then there was the journey from town, with all the curious sensation +of parting at the theatre doors, and returning from that shining world +of gaslight, and ladies' dresses, into the dimness of the railway, the +tedious though not very long journey, the plunging of the carriage +through the blackness of the night; and along with these the questions +of Mr. Derwentwater, so unlike him, so uncalled-for, as Jock could not +help thinking. What had he to do with Bice? What had any one to do with +her? So far as she belonged to any one, it was to himself, Jock; her +first friend, her companion in her walks, he to whom she had spoken so +freely, and who had told her his opinion with such simplicity. When Jock +remembered that he had told her she was not pretty his cheeks burned. +There had stolen into his mind, he could not tell how, a very different +feeling now--not perhaps a different opinion. When he reflected it did +not seem to him even now that pretty was the word to use--but the +impression of Bice which was in his mind was something that made the boy +thrill. He did not understand it, nor could he tell what it was. But it +made him quiver with resentment when there was any question about +her--anything like this cold-blooded investigation which Mr. +Derwentwater had attempted to make. It troubled Jock all the more that +it should be MTutor who made it. When our god, our model of excellence, +comes down from his high state to anything that is petty, or less than +perfect, how sore is the pang with which we acknowledge it. "To be wroth +with those we love doth work like madness in the brain." Jock had both +these pangs together. He was angry because MTutor had been interfering +with matters in which he had no concern, and he was pained because +MTutor had condescended to ask questions and invite gossip, like the +smaller beings well enough known in the boy-world as in every other, +who make gossip the chief object of their existence. Could there be +anything in the idol of his youth akin to these? He felt sore and +disappointed, without knowing why, with a dim consciousness that there +were many other people whom Mr. Derwentwater might have inquired about +without awakening any such feelings in him. When the train stopped, and +they got out, it was strange to walk down the silent, midnight streets +by MTutor's side, without the old sensation of pleasure with which the +boy felt himself made into the man's companion. He was awakened out of +his maze of dark and painful feelings by the voice of Derwentwater +calling upon him to admire the effect of the moonlight upon the river as +they crossed the bridge. For long after that scene remained in Jock's +mind against a background of mysterious shadows and perplexity. The moon +rode in the midst of a wide clearing of blue between two broken banks of +clouds. She was almost full, and approaching her setting. She shone full +upon the river, sweeping from side to side in one flood of silver, +broken only by a few strange little blacknesses, the few boats, like +houseless stragglers out by night and without shelter, which lay here +and there by a wharf or at the water's edge. The scene was wonderfully +still and solemn, not a motion to be seen either on street or stream. +"How is it, do you think," said Mr. Derwentwater, "that we think so +little of the sun when it is he that lights up a scene like this, and so +much of the moon?" + +Jock was taken by surprise by this question, which was of a kind which +his tutor was fond of putting, and which brought back their old +relations instantaneously. Jock seemed to himself to wake up out of a +strange inarticulate dream of displeasure and embarrassment, and to feel +himself with sudden remorse, a traitor to his friend. He said, +faltering: "I don't know; it is always you that finds out the analogies. +I don't think that my mind is poetical at all." + +"You do yourself injustice, Jock," said Derwentwater, his arm within +that of his pupil in their old familiar way. And then he said: "The moon +is the feminine influence which charms us by showing herself clearly as +the source of the light she sheds. The sun we rarely think of at all, +but only of what he gives us--the light and the heat that are our life. +Her," he pointed to the sky, "we could dispense with, save for the +beauty of her." + +"I wish," said Jock, "I could think of anything so fine. But do you +think we could do without women like that?" said the inquiring young +spirit, ready to follow with his bosom bare whithersoever this refined +philosophy might lead. + +"You and I will," said the instructor. "There are grosser and there are +tamer spirits to whom it might be different. I would not wrong you by +supposing that you, my boy, could ever be tempted in the gross way; and +I don't think you are of the butterfly dancing kind." + +"I should rather think not!" said Jock, with a short laugh. + +"Then, except as a beautiful object, setting herself forth in conscious +brightness, like that emblem of woman yonder," said MTutor with a wave +of his hand, admiring, familiar, but somewhat contemptuous, towards the +moon, "what do we want with that feminine influence? Our lives are set +to higher uses, and occupied with other aims." + +Jock was perfectly satisfied with this profession of faith. He went +along the street with his tutor's arm in his, and a vague elation as of +something settled and concluded upon in his mind. Their footsteps rang +upon the pavement with a manly tramp as they paced away from the light +on the bridge into the shadow of the old houses with their red roofs. +They had gone some way before, being above all things loyal, Jock +thought it right to put in a proviso. "Not intellectually, perhaps," he +said, "but I can't forget how much I owe to my sister. I should have +been a most forlorn little wretch when I was a child, and I shouldn't be +much now, but for Lucy standing by me. It's not well to forget that, is +it, sir? though Lucy is not at all clever," he added in an undertone. + +"You are a loyal soul," said MTutor, with a pressure of his arm, "but +Woman does not mean our mothers and sisters." Here he permitted himself +a little laugh. "It shows me how much inferior is my position to that of +your youth, my dear boy," he said, "when you give me such an answer. +Believe me it is far finer than anything you suppose me to be able to +say." + +Jock did not know how to respond to this speech. It half angered, half +pleased him, but on the whole he was more ashamed of the supposed +youthfulness than satisfied with the approbation. No one, however young, +likes the imputation of innocence; and Jock had feelings rising within +him of which he scarcely knew the meaning, but which made him still more +sensible of the injustice of this view. He was too proud, however, to +explain himself even if he had been able to do so, and the little way +that remained was trodden in silence. The boy, however, could not help a +curious sensation of superiority as he went to his room through the +sleeping-house, feeling the stillness of the slumber into which he +stole, treading very quietly that he might not disturb any one. He +stopped for a moment with a candle in his hand and looked down the long +passage with its line of closed doors on each side, holding his breath +with a half smile of sympathy, respect for the hush of sleep, yet keen +superiority of life and emotion over all the unconscious household. His +own brain and heart seemed tingling with the activity and tumult of life +in them. It seemed to him impossible to sleep, to still the commotion in +his mind, and bring himself into harmony with that hushed atmosphere and +childish calm. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXII. + +YOUTHFUL UNREST. + + +Easter was very early that year, about as early as Easter can be, and +there was in Jock's mind a disturbing consciousness of the holidays, and +the manner in which he was likely to spend them, which no doubt +interfered to a certain extent with his work. He ought to have been +first in the competition for a certain school prize, and he was not. It +was carried off to the disappointment of Jock's house, and, indeed, of +the greater part of the school, by a King's scholar, which was the fate +of most of the prizes. Mr. Derwentwater was deeply cast down by this +disappointment. He expressed himself on the subject indeed with all the +fine feeling for which he was distinguished. "The loss of a +distinction," he said, "is not in itself a matter to disturb us; but I +own I should be sorry to think that you were failing at all in that +intellectual energy which has already placed you so often at the head of +the lists--that, my dear fellow, I should unfeignedly regret; but not a +mere prize, which is nothing." This was a very handsome way of speaking +of it; but that MTutor was disappointed there could be no doubt. To Jock +himself it gave a keen momentary pang to see his own name only third in +that beadroll of honour; but so it was. The holidays had all that to +answer for; the holidays, or rather what they were to bring. When he +thought of the Hall and the company there, Jock felt a certain high tide +in his veins, an awakening of interest and anticipation which he did not +understand. He did not say to himself that he was going to be happy. He +only looked forward with an eager heart, with a sense of something to +come, which was different from the routine of ordinary life. MTutor +after many hindrances and hesitations was at last going to accept the +invitation of Sir Tom, and accompany his pupil. This Jock had looked +forward to as the greatest of pleasures. But somehow he did not feel so +happy about it now. He did not seem to himself to want Mr. Derwentwater. +In some ways, indeed, he had become impatient of Mr. Derwentwater. Since +that visit to the theatre, involuntarily without any cause for it, there +had commenced to be moments in which MTutor was tedious. This sacrilege +was unconscious, and never yet had been put into words; but still the +feeling was there; and the beginning of any such revolution in the soul +must be accompanied with many uneasinesses. Jock was on the stroke, so +to speak, of seventeen. He was old for his age, yet he had been almost +childish too in his devotion to his books, and the subjects of his +school life. The last year had introduced many new thoughts to his mind +by restoring him to the partial society of his sister and her house; but +into these new subjects he had carried the devotion of his studious +habits and the enthusiasm of his discipleship, transferring himself +bodily with all his traditions into the new atmosphere. But a change +somehow had begun in him, he could not tell how. He was stirred beyond +the lines of his former being--sentiments, confusions of spirit quite +new to him, were vaguely fermenting, he could not tell how; and school +work, and prizes, and all the emulations of sixth form had somehow tamed +and paled. The colour seemed to have gone out of them. And the library +of MTutor, that paradise of thought, that home of conversation, where so +many fine things used to be said--that too had palled upon the boy's +uneasy soul. He felt as if he should prefer to leave everything behind +him,--books and compositions and talk, and even MTutor himself. Such a +state of mind is sure to occur some time or other in a boy's +experiences; but in this case it was too early, and Mr. Derwentwater, +who was very deeply devoted to his pupils, was much exercised on the +subject. He had lost Jock's confidence, he thought. How had he lost his +confidence? was it that some other less wholesome influence was coming +in? Thus there were feelings of discomfort between them, hesitations as +to what to say, instinctive avoidance of some subjects, concealed +allusions to others. It might even be said that in a very refined and +superior way, such as was alone possible to such a man, Mr. Derwentwater +occasionally talked at Jock. He talked of the pain and grief of seeing a +young heart closed to you which once had been open, and of the poignant +disappointment which arises in an elder spirit when its spiritual +child--its disciple--gets beyond its leading. Jock, occupied with his +own thoughts, only partially understood. + +It was in this state of mind that they set out together, amid all the +bustle of breaking up, to pay their promised visit. Jock, who up to this +moment had hated London, and looked with alarm upon society, had eagerly +accepted his tutor's proposal that after the ten days which they were to +spend at the Hall they should go to Normandy together for the rest of +the holidays, which was an arrangement very pleasant in anticipation. +But by this time neither of the two was at all anxious to carry it out. +Mr. Derwentwater had begun to talk of the expediency of giving a little +attention to one's own country. "We are just as foolish as the ignorant +masses," he said, "though we think ourselves so wise. Why not Devonshire +instead of Normandy? it is finer in natural scenery. Why not London +instead of Paris? there is no spell in mere going, as the ignorant say +'abroad.'" When you come to think of it, in just the same proportion as +one is superior to the common round of gaping British tourists, by going +on a walking tour in Normandy, one is superior to the walkers in +Normandy by choosing Devonshire. + +These remarks were preliminary to the intention of giving up the plan +altogether, and by the time they set out it was tacitly understood that +this was to be the case. It was to be given up--not for Devonshire. The +pair of friends had become two--they were to do each what was good in +his own eyes. Jock would remain "at home," whether that home meant the +Hall or Park Lane, and Mr. Derwentwater, after his week's visit, should +go on--where seemed to him good. + +There was a considerable party gathered in the inner drawing-room when +Jock and his companion presented themselves there. The scene was very +different from that to which Jock had been accustomed, when the +tea-table was a sort of fireside adjunct to the warmth and brightness +centred there. Now the windows were full of a clear yellow sky, shining +a little shrilly after rain, and promising in its too-clear and watery +brightness more rain to come; and many people were about, some standing +up against the light, some lounging in the comfortable chairs, some +talking together in groups, some hanging about Lucy and her tea service. +Lucy said, "Oh, is it you, Jock?" and kissed him, with a look of +pleasure; but she had not run out to meet him as of old. Lucy, indeed, +was changed, perhaps more evidently changed than any member of the +family. She was far more self-possessed than she had ever been before. +She did not now turn to her husband with that pretty look, half-smiling, +half-wistful, to know how she had got through her domestic duties. There +was a slight air of hurry and embarrassment about her eyes. The season +had not begun, and she could not have been overdone by her social +duties; but something had aged and changed her. Some old acquaintances +came forward and shook hands with Jock; and Sir Tom, when he saw who it +was, detached himself from the person he was talking to, and came +forward and gave him a sufficiently cordial welcome. The person with +whom he was talking was the Contessa. She was in her old place in the +room, the comfortable sofa which she had taken from Lady Randolph, and +where Sir Tom, leaning upon the mantelpiece, as an Englishman loves to +do, could talk to her in the easiest of attitudes. Jock, though he was +not discerning, thought that Sir Tom looked aged and changed too. The +people in general had a tired afternoon sort of look about them. They +were not like people exulting to get out of town, and out of darkness +and winter weather to the fresh air and April skies. Perhaps, however, +this effect was produced by the fact that looking for one special person +in the assembly Jock had not found her. He had never cared who was there +before. Except Lucy, the whole world was much the same to him. To talk +to her now and then, but by preference alone, when he could have her to +himself and nobody else was by, and then to escape to the library, had +been the height of his desire. Now he no longer thought of the library, +or even, save in a secondary way, of Lucy. He looked about for some one +else. There was the Contessa, sure enough, with one man on the sofa by +her side and another seated in front of her, and Sir Tom against the +mantelpiece lounging and talking. She was enchanting them all with her +rapid talk, with the pretty, swift movements of her hands, her +expressive looks and ways. But there was no shadow of Bice about the +room. Jock looked at once behind the table, where she had been always +visible when the Contessa was present. But Bice was not there. There was +not a trace of her among the people whom Jock neither knew nor cared to +know. But everything went on cheerfully, notwithstanding this omission, +which nobody but Jock seemed to remark. Ladies chattered softly as they +sipped their tea, men standing over them telling anecdotes of this +person and that, with runs of soft laughter here and there. Lucy at the +tea-table was the only one who was at all isolated. She was bending over +her cups and saucers, supplying now one and now another, listening to a +chance remark here and there, giving an abstracted smile to the person +who might chance to be next to her. What was she thinking of? Not of +Jock, who had only got a smile a little more animated than the others. +Mr. Derwentwater did not know anybody in this company. He stood on the +outskirts of it, with that look of mingled conciliation and defiance +which is natural to a man who feels himself overlooked. He was more +disappointed even than Jock, for he had anticipated a great deal of +attention, and not to find himself nobody in a fashionable crowd. + +Things did not mend even at dinner. Then the people were more easily +identified in their evening clothes, exposing themselves steadily to all +observers on either side of the table; but they did not seem more +interesting. There were two or three political men, friends of Sir Tom, +and some of a very different type who were attached to the +Contessa--indeed, the party consisted chiefly of men, with a few ladies +thrown in. The ladies were not much more attractive. One of them, a Lady +Anastasia something, was one of the most inveterate of gossip +collectors, a lady who not only provided piquant tales for home +consumption, but served them up to the general public afterwards in a +newspaper--the only representatives of ordinary womankind being a mother +and two daughters, who had no particular qualities, and who duly +occupied a certain amount of space, without giving anything in return. +But Bice was not visible. She who had been so little noticed, yet so far +from insignificant, where was she? Could it be that the Contessa had +left her behind, or that Lucy had objected to her, or that she was ill, +or that--Jock did not know what to think. The company was a strange one. +Those sedate, political friends of Sir Tom found themselves with a +little dismay in the society of the lady who wrote for what she called +the Press, and the gentlemen from the clubs. One of the guests was the +young Marquis Montjoie, who had quite lately come into his title and the +world. He had been at school with Jock a few years before, and he +recognised Mr. Derwentwater with a curious mixture of awe and contempt. +"Hallo!" he had cried when he perceived him first, and he had whispered +something to the Contessa which made her laugh also. All this Jock +remarked vaguely in his uneasiness and disappointment. What was the good +of coming home, he said to himself, if---- What was the use of having so +looked forward to the holidays and lost that prize, and disappointed +everybody, if---- There rose such a ferment in Jock's veins as had never +been there before. When the ladies left the room after dinner it was he +that opened the door for them, and as Lucy looked up with a smile into +her brother's face she met from him a scowl which took away her breath. +Why did he scowl at Lucy? and why think that in all his life he had +never seen so dull a company before? Their good things after dinner were +odious to his ears; and to think, that even MTutor should be able to +laugh at such miserable jokes and take an interest in such small talk! +That fellow Montjoie, above all, was intolerable to Jock. He had been +quite low down in the school when he left, a being of no account, a +creature called by opprobrious names, and not worthy to tie the shoes of +a member of Sixth Form. But when he rattled loudly on about nothing at +all, even Sir Tom did not refuse to listen. What was Montjoie doing +here? When the gentlemen streamed into the drawing-room, a procession of +black coats, Jock, who came last, could not help being aware that he was +scowling at everybody. He met the eyes of one of those inoffensive +little girls in blue, and made her jump, looking at her as if he would +eat her. And all the evening through he kept prowling about with his +hands in his pockets, now looking at the books in the shelves, now +frowning at Lucy, who could not think what was the matter with her +brother. Was Jock ill? What had happened to him? The young ladies in +blue sang an innocent little duet, and Jock stared at the Contessa, +wondering if she was going to sing, and if the door would open and the +slim figure in the black frock come in as by a signal and place herself +at the piano. But the Contessa only laughed behind her fan, and made a +little pretence at applause when the music ceased, having talked all +through it, she and the gentlemen about her, of whom Montjoie was one +and the loudest. No, she was not going to sing. When the door opened it +was only to admit the servants with their trays and the tea which nobody +wanted. What was the use of looking forward to the holidays if---- Mr. +Derwentwater, perhaps, had similar thoughts. He came up to Jock behind +the backs of the other people, and put an uneasy question to him. + +"I thought you said that Madame di Forno-Populo sang?" + +"She used to," said Jock laconically. + +"The music here does not seem of a high class," said MTutor. "I hope she +will sing. Italians, though their music is sensuous, generally know +something about the art." + +To this Jock made no reply, but hunched his shoulders a little higher, +and dug his hands down deeper into his pockets. + +"By the way, is the--young lady who was with Madame di Forno-Populo +here no longer?" said MTutor in a sort of accidental manner, as if that +had for the first time occurred to him. He raised his eyes to Jock's +face, which was foolish, and they both reddened in spite of themselves; +Mr. Derwentwater with sudden confusion, and Jock with angry dismay. + +"Not that I know of," said the boy. "I haven't heard anything." Then he +went on hurriedly: "No more than I know what Montjoie's doing here. +What's he been asked here for I wonder? He can't amuse anybody much." +These words, however, were contradicted practically as soon as they were +said by a peal of laughter which rose from the Contessa's little corner, +all caused as it was evident by some pleasantry of Montjoie's. + +"It seems that he does, though," said Mr. Derwentwater; and then he +added with a smile, "We are novices in society, you and I. We do best in +our own class; not to know that Montjoie will be in the very front of +society, the admired of all admirers at least for a season or two! Isn't +he a favourite of fortune, the best _parti_, a golden youth in every +sense of the word----" + +"Why, he was a scug!" cried Jock, with illimitable disdain. This +mysterious and terrible monosyllable was applied at school to a youth +hopelessly low down and destitute of any personal advantages to +counterbalance his inferiority. Jock launched it at the Marquis, +evidently now in a very different situation, as if it had been a stone. + +"Hush!" said MTutor blandly. "You will meet a great many such in +society, and they will think themselves quite as good as you." + +Then the mother of the young ladies in blue approached and disturbed +this _tête-à-tête_. + +"I think you were talking of Lord Montjoie," she said. "I hear he is so +clever; there are some comic songs he sings, which, I am told, are quite +irresistible. Mr. Trevor, don't you think you could induce him to sing +one?--as you were at school with him, and are a sort of son of the +house?" + +At this Jock glowered with eyes that were alarming to see under the deep +cover of his eyebrows, and MTutor laughed out. "We had not so exalted an +opinion of Montjoie," he said; and then, with a politic diversion of +which he was proud, "Would not your daughters favour us again? A comic +song in the present state of our feelings would be more than we could +bear." + +"What a clever fellow he is after all!" said Jock to himself admiringly, +"how he can manage people and say the right thing at the right moment! I +dare say Lucy will tell me if I ask her," he said, quite irrelevantly, +as the lady, well pleased to hear her daughters appreciated, sailed +away. There was something in the complete sympathy of Mr. Derwentwater's +mind, even though it irritated, which touched him. He put the question +point blank to Lucy when he found an opportunity of speaking to her. "I +say, Lucy, where is Bice? You have got all the old fogeys about the +place, and she is not here," the boy said. + +"Is that why you are glooming upon everybody so?" said the unfeeling +Lucy. "You cannot call your friend Lord Montjoie an old fogey, Jock. He +says you were such friends at school." + +"I--friends!" cried Jock with disdain. "Why, he was nothing but a scug." + +Thus Lucy, too, avoided the question; but it was not because she had any +real reluctance to speak of Bice, though this was what Jock could not +know. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIII. + +THE CONTESSA PREPARES THE WAY. + + +"I never sing," said the Contessa, with that serene smile with which she +was in the habit of accompanying a statement which her hearers knew to +be quite untrue. "Oh never! It is one of my possibilities which are +over--one of the things which you remember of me in--other days----" + +"So far back as March," said Sir Tom; "but we all recognise that in a +lady's calendar that may mean a century." + +"Put it in the plural, _mon ami_--centuries, that is more correct," said +the Contessa, with her dazzling smile. + +"And might one ask why this sudden acceleration of time?" asked one of +the gentlemen who were always in attendance, belonging, so to speak, to +the Contessa's side of the party. She opened out her lovely hands and +gave a little shrug to her shoulders, and elevation of her eyebrows. + +"It is easy to tell: but whether I shall tell you is another +question----" + +"Oh, do, do, Countess," cried young Montjoie, who was somewhat rough in +his attentions, and treated the lady with less ceremony than a less +noble youth would have ventured upon. "Come, don't keep us all in +suspense. I must hear you, don't you know; all the other fellows have +heard you. So, please, get over the preliminaries, and let's come to the +music. I'm awfully fond of music, especially singing. I'm a dab at that +myself----" + +The Contessa let her eyes dwell upon this illustrious young man. "Why," +she said, "have I been prevented from making acquaintance with the art +in which my Lord Montjoie is--a dab----" + +At this there was a laugh, in which the good-natured young nobleman did +not refuse to join. "I say, you know! it's too bad to make fun of me +like this," he cried; "but I'll tell you what, Countess, I'll make a +bargain with you. I'll sing you three of mine if you'll sing me one of +yours." + +The Contessa smiled with that gracious response which so often answered +instead of words. The other ladies had withdrawn, except Lucy, who +waited somewhat uneasily till her guest was ready. Though Madame di +Forno-Populo had never lost the ascendency which she had acquired over +Lady Randolph by throwing herself upon her understanding and sympathy, +there were still many things which Lucy could not acquiesce in without +uneasiness, in the Contessa's ways. The group of men about her chair, +when all the other ladies took their candles and made their way +upstairs, wounded Lucy's instinctive sense of what was befitting. She +waited, punctilious in her feeling of duty, though the Contessa had not +hesitated to make her understand that the precaution was quite +unnecessary--and though even Sir Tom had said something of a similar +signification. "She is old enough to take care of herself. She doesn't +want a chaperon," Sir Tom had said; but nevertheless Lucy would take up +a book and sit down at the table and wait: which was the more +troublesome that it was precisely at this moment that the Contessa was +most amusing and enjoyed herself most. Sir Tom's parliamentary friends +had disappeared to the smoking-room when the ladies left the room. It +was the other kind of visitors, the gentlemen who had known the +Contessa in former days, and were old friends likewise of Sir Tom, who +gathered round her now--they and young Lord Montjoie, who was rather out +of place in the party, but who admired the Contessa greatly, and thought +her better fun than any one he knew. + +The Contessa gave the young man one of those speaking smiles which were +more eloquent than words. And then she said: "If I were to tell you why, +you would not believe me. I am going to retire from the world." + +At this there was a little tumult of outcry and laughter. "The world +cannot spare you, Contessa." "We can't permit any such sacrifice." And, +"Retire! Till to-morrow?" her courtiers said. + +"Not till to-morrow. I do more than retire. I abdicate," said the +Contessa, waving her beautiful hands as if in farewell. + +"This sounds very mysterious; for an abdication is different from a +withdrawal; it suggests a successor." + +"Which is an impossibility," another said. + +The Contessa distributed her smiles with gracious impartiality to all, +but she kept a little watch upon young Montjoie, who was eager amid the +ring of her worshippers. "Nevertheless, it is more than a successor," +she said, playing with them, with a strange pleasure. To be thus +surrounded, flattered more openly than men ever venture to flatter a +woman whom they respect, addressed with exaggerated admiration, +contemplated with bold and unwavering eyes, had come by many descents to +be delightful to the Contessa. It reminded her of her old triumphs--of +the days when men of a different sort brought homage perhaps not much +more real but far more delicate, to her feet. A long career of baths and +watering-places, of Baden and Homburg, and every other conceivable +resort of temporary gaiety and fashion, had brought her to this. Sir +Tom, who was not taking much share in the conversation, stood with his +arm on the mantelpiece, and watched her and her little court with +compassionate eyes. He had laughed often before; but he did not laugh +now. Perhaps the fact that he was himself no longer her first object +helped to change the aspect of affairs. He had consented to invite these +men as old acquaintances; but it was intolerable to him to see this +scene going on in the room in which his wife was; and the Contessa's +radiant satisfaction seemed almost horrible to him in Lucy's presence. +Lucy was seated at some distance from the group, her face turned away, +her head bent, to all appearance very intent upon the book she was +reading. He looked at her with a sort of reverential impatience. She was +not capable of understanding the degradation which her own pure and +simple presence made apparent. He could not endure her to be there +sanctioning the indecorum;--and yet the tenacity with which she held her +place, and did what she thought her duty to her guest, filled him with a +wondering pride. No other scene, perhaps, he thought, in all England, +could have presented a contrast so curious. + +"The Contessa speaks in riddles," said one of the circle. "We want an +OEdipus." + +"Oh, come, Countess," said young Montjoie, "don't hang us up like this. +We are all of us on pins and needles, don't you know? It all began about +you singing. Why don't you sing? All the fellows say it's as good as +Grisi. I never heard Grisi, but I know every note Patti's got in her +voice; and I want to compare, don't you know?" + +The Contessa contemplated the young man with a sort of indulgent smile +like a mother who withholds a toy. + +"When are you going away?" she said. "You will soon go back to your dear +London, to your clubs and all your delights." + +"Oh, come, Countess," repeated Montjoie, "that isn't kind. You talk as +if you wanted to get rid of a fellow. I'm due at the Duke's on Friday, +don't you know?" + +"Then it shall be on Thursday," said the Contessa, with a laugh. + +"What shall be on Thursday?" + +The others all came round her with eager questions. + +"I am going on Wednesday," said one. "What is this that is going to +happen?" + +"And why am I to be excluded?" + +"And I? If there is to be anything new, tell us what it is." + +"Inquisitors! and they say that curiosity belongs to women," said the +Contessa. "Messieurs, if I were to tell you what it was, it would be no +longer new." + +"Well, but hang it all," cried young Montjoie, who was excited and had +forgotten his manners, "do tell us what it is. Don't you see we don't +even know what kind of thing you mean? If it's music----" + +Madame di Forno-Populo laughed once more. She loved to mystify and raise +expectations. "It is not music," she said. "It is my reason for +withdrawing. When you see that, you will understand. You will all say +the Contessa is wise. She has foreseen exactly the right moment to +retire." + +And with this she rose from the sofa with a sudden movement which took +her attendants by surprise. She was not given to shaking hands. She +withdrew quickly from Montjoie's effort to seize her delicate fingers, +which she waved to the company in general. "My Lucy," she said, "I have +kept you waiting! to this extent does one forget one's self in your +delightful house. But, my angel, you should not permit me to do it. You +should hold up your finger, and I would obey." + +"Bravo," said Montjoie's voice behind their backs in a murmur of +delight. "Oh, by Jove, isn't that good? Fancy, a woman like her, and +that simple----" + +One of the elder men gave Montjoie something like a kick, inappropriate +as the scene was for such a demonstration. "You little----think what you +are saying," he cried. + +But Sir Tom was opening the door for the ladies, and did not hear. Lucy +was tired and pale. She looked like a child beside the stately Contessa. +She had taken no notice of Madame di Forno-Populo's profession of +submission. In her heart she was longing to run to the nursery, to see +her boy asleep, and make sure that all was well; and she was not only +tired with her vigil, but uneasy, disapproving. She divined what the +Contessa meant, though not even Sir Tom had made it out. Perhaps it was +feminine instinct that instructed her on this point. Perhaps the strong +repugnance she had, and sense of opposition to what was about to be +done, quickened her powers of divination. She who had never suspected +anybody in all her life fathomed the Contessa's intentions at a glance. +"That boy!" she said to herself as she followed up the great staircase. +Lucy divined the Contessa, and the Contessa divined that she had +divined her. She turned round when they reached the top of the stairs +and paused for a moment looking at Lady Randolph's face, lit up with the +light of her candle. "My sweetest," said the Contessa, "you do not +approve. It breaks my heart to see it. But what can I do! This is my +way, it is not yours; but to me it is the only way." + +Lucy could do nothing but shake her head as she turned the way of the +nursery where her boy was sleeping. The contrast gave her a pang. Bice, +too, was no doubt sleeping the deep and dreamless sleep of youth behind +one of those closed doors; poor Bice! secluded there to increase the +effect of her eventual appearance, and about whom her protectress was +draping all those veils of mystery in order to tempt the fancy of a +commonplace youth not much more than a schoolboy! And yet the Contessa +loved her charge, and persuaded herself that she was acting for Bice's +good. Poor Bice, who was so good to little Tom! Was there nothing to be +done to save her? + +"What's going to happen on Thursday?" the men of the Contessa's train +asked of Sir Tom, as they followed him to the smoking-room, where Mr. +Derwentwater, in a velvet coat, was already seated smoking a mild +cigarette, and conversing with one of the parliamentary gentlemen. Jock +hung about in the background, turning over the books (for there were +books everywhere in this well-provided house) rather with the intention +of making it quite evident that he went to bed when he liked, and could +stay up as late as any one, than from any hankering after that cigar +which a Sixth Form fellow, so conscientious as Jock was, might not +trifle with. "Oh, here are those two duffers; those saps, don't you +know," Montjoie said, with a grimace, as he perceived them on entering +the room; in which remark he was perhaps justified by the epithets which +these two superior persons applied to him. The two parties did not +amalgamate in the smoking-room any more than in other places. The new +comers surrounded Sir Tom in a noisy little crowd, demanding of him an +explanation of the Contessa's meaning. This, however, was subdued +presently by a somewhat startling little incident. The gentlemen were +discussing the Contessa with the greatest freedom. "It's rather +astounding to meet her in a good house, just like any one else," one man +forgot himself sufficiently to say, but he came to his recollection very +quickly on meeting Sir Tom's eyes. "I beg your pardon, Randolph, of +course that's not what I mean. I mean after all those years." "Then I +hope you will remember to say exactly what you mean," said Sir Tom, "on +other occasions. It will simplify matters." + +This momentary incident, though it was quiet enough, and expressed in +tones rather less than more loud than the ordinary conversation, made a +sensation in the room, and produced first an involuntary stillness, and +then an eager access of talk. It had the effect, however, of making +everybody aware that the Contessa intended to make, on Thursday, some +revelation or other, an intimation which moved Jock and his tutor as +much or even more than it moved the others. Mr. Derwentwater even made +advances to Montjoie, whom he had steadily ignored, in order to +ascertain what it was. "Something's coming off, that's all we can tell," +that young patrician said. "She is going to retire, so she says, from +the world, don't you know? That's like a tradesman shutting up shop when +he's made his fortune, or a _prima donna_ going off the stage. It ain't +so easy to make out, is it, how the Forno-Populo can retire from the +world? She can't be going to take poison, like the great Sarah, and give +us a grand dying seance in Lady Randolph's drawing-room. That would be +going a bit too far, don't you know?" + +"It is going a bit too far to imagine such a thing," Derwentwater said. + +"Oh, come, you know, it isn't school-time," cried Montjoie, with a +laugh. And though Mr. Derwentwater was as much superior to the little +lordling as could be conceived, he retired disconcerted from this +passage of arms. To be reminded that you are a pedagogue is difficult to +bear, especially an unsuccessful pedagogue, attempting to exert +authority which exists no longer. MTutor prided himself on being a man +of the world, but he retired a little with an involuntary sense of +offence from this easy setting down. He rose shortly after and took Jock +by the arm and led him away. "You are not smoking, which I am glad to +see--and shows your sense," he said. "Come out and have a breath of air +before we go upstairs. Can you imagine anything more detestable than +that little precocious _roué_, that washed-out little man-about-town," +he added with some energy, as they stepped out of the open windows of +the library, left open in case the fine night should have seduced the +gentlemen on to the terrace to smoke their cigars. It was a lovely +spring night, soft and balmy, with a sensation of growth in the air, the +sky very clear, with airy white clouds all lit up by the moon. The quiet +and freshness gave to those who stepped into it a curious sensation of +superiority to the men whom they left in the warm brightly-lit room, +with its heavy atmosphere and artificial delights. It felt like a moral +atmosphere in contrast with the air all laden with human emanations, +smoke, and the careless talk of men. These two were perhaps somewhat +inclined to feel a superiority in any circumstances. They did so doubly +in these. + +"He was always a little cad," said Jock. + +"To hear a lady's name from his mouth is revolting," said Derwentwater. +"We are all too careless in that respect. I admire Madame di +Forno-Populo for keeping her--is it her daughter or niece?--out of the +way while that little animal is here." + +"Oh, Bice would soon make him know his place," said Jock; "she is not +just like one of the girls that are civil, you know. She is not afraid +of telling you what she thinks of you. I know exactly how she'd look at +Montjoie." Jock permitted himself an abrupt laugh in the pleasure of +feeling that he knew her ways far better than any one. "She would soon +set him down--the little beast!--in his right place." + +As they walked up and down the terrace their steps and voices were very +audible in the stillness of the night; and the windows were lighted in +the east wing, showing that the inhabitants were still up there and +about. While Jock spoke, one of these windows opened quite suddenly, and +for a single moment a figure like a shadow appeared in it. The light +movement, sudden as a bird's on the wing, would have betrayed her (she +felt) to Jock, even if she had not spoken. But she waved her hand and +called out "Good-night" in a voice full of laughter. "Don't talk +secrets, for we can hear you," she said. "Good-night!" And so vanished +again, with a little echo of laughter from within. The young men were +both excited and disconcerted by this interruption. It gave them a +sensation of shame for the moment as if they had been caught in a +discussion of a forbidden subject; and then a tingling ran through their +veins. Even MTutor for the moment found no fine speech in which to +express his sense of this sudden momentary tantalising appearance of the +mystic woman standing half visible out of the background of the unknown. +He did think some very fine things on the subject after a time, with a +side glance of philosophical reflection that her light laugh of mockery +as she momentarily revealed herself, was an outcome of this sceptical +century, and that in a previous age her utterance would have been a song +or a sigh. But at the moment even Mr. Derwentwater was subjugated by the +thrill of sensation and feeling, and found nothing to say. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIV. + +IN SUSPENSE. + + +It was thus that Bice was engaged while Lucy imagined her asleep in her +innocence, unaware of the net that was being spread for her unsuspecting +feet. Bice was neither asleep nor unsuspecting. She was innocent in a +way inconceivable to the ordinary home-keeping imagination, knowing no +evil in the devices to which she was a party; but she was not innocent +in the conventional sense. That any high feminine ideal should be +affected by the design of the Contessa or by her own participation in it +had not occurred to the girl. She had been accustomed to smile at the +high virtue of those ladies in the novels who would not receive the +addresses of the eldest son of their patroness, and who preferred a +humble village and the delights of self-sacrifice to all the grandeurs +of an ambitious marriage. That might be well enough in a novel, Bice +thought, but it was not so in life. In her own case there was no +question about it. The other way it was which seemed to her the virtuous +way. Had it been proposed to her to throw herself away upon a poor man +whom she might be supposed to love, and so prove herself incapable of +being of any use to the Contessa, and make all her previous training and +teaching of no effect, Bice's moral indignation would have been as +elevated as that of any English heroine at the idea of marrying for +interest instead of love. The possibility did not occur to her at all; +but it would have been rejected with disdain had it attempted to force +its way across the threshold of her mind. She loved nobody--except the +Contessa; which was a great defence and preservation to her thoughts. +She accepted the suggestion that Montjoie should be the means of raising +her to that position she was made for, with composure and without an +objection. It was not arranged upon secretly, without her knowledge, but +with her full concurrence. "He is not very much to look at. I wish he +had been more handsome," the Contessa said; but Bice's indifference on +this point was sublime. "What can it matter?" she said loftily. She was +not even very deeply interested in his disposition or mental qualities. +Everything else being so suitable, it would have been cowardly to shrink +from any minor disadvantage. She silenced the Contessa in the attempt to +make the best of him. "All these things are so secondary," the girl +said. Her devotion to the career chosen for her was above all weakly +arguments of this kind. She looked upon them even with a certain scorn. +And though there was in her mind some excitement as to her appearance +"in the world," as she phrased it, and her skill "to please," which was +as yet untried, it was, notwithstanding with the composure of a nature +quite unaware of any higher questions involved, that she took her part +in all the preparations. Her knowledge of the very doubtful world in +which she had lived had been of a philosophical character. She was quite +impartial. She had no prejudices. Those of whom she approved were those +who had carried out their intentions, whatever they might be, as she +should do by marrying an English Milord with a good title and much +money. She meant, indeed, to spend his money, but legitimately. She +meant to become a great lady by his means, but not to do him any harm. +Bice had an almost savage purity of heart, and the thought that any of +the stains she knew of should touch her was incredible, impossible; +neither was it in her to be unkind, or unjust, or envious, or +ungenerous. Nothing of all this was involved in the purely business +operation in which she was engaged. According to her code no professions +of attachment or pretence of feeling were necessary. She had indeed no +theories in her mind about being a good wife; but she would not be a bad +one. She would keep her part of the compact; there should be nothing to +complain of, nothing to object to. She would do her best to amuse the +man she had to live with and make his life agreeable to him, which is a +thing not always taken into consideration in marriage-contracts much +more ideal in character. He should not be allowed to be dull, that was +one thing certain. Regarding the matter in this reasonable point of +view, Bice prepared for the great event of Thursday with just excitement +enough to make it amusing. It might be that she should fail. Few +succeed at the very first effort without difficulty, she said to +herself; but if she failed there would be nothing tragical in the +failure, and the season was all before her. It could scarcely be hoped +that she would bring down her antagonist the first time she set lance in +rest. + +She was carefully kept out of sight during the intervening days; no one +saw her; no one had any acquaintance with the fact of her existence. The +precautions taken were such that Bice was never even encountered on the +staircase, never seen to flit in or out of a room, and indeed did not +exist at all for the party in the house. Notwithstanding these +precautions she had the needful exercise to keep her in health and good +looks, and still romped with the baby and held conversations with the +sympathetic Lucy, who did not know what to say to express her feeling of +anxious disapproval and desire to succour, without, at the same time, +injuring in Bice's mind her nearest friend and protectress. She might, +indeed, have spared herself the trouble of any such anxiety, for Bice +neither felt injured by the Contessa's scheme nor degraded by her +precautions. It amused the girl highly to be made a secret of, to run +all the risks of discovery and baffle the curious. The fun of it was +delightful to her. Sometimes she would amuse herself by hanging till the +last practicable moment in the gallery at the top of the staircase, on +the balcony at the window, or at the door of the Contessa's room which +was commanded by various other doors; but always vanished within in time +to avoid all inquisitive eyes, with the laughter and delight of a child +at the danger escaped, and the fun of the situation. In these cases the +Contessa would sometimes take fright, but never, so light was the +temper of this scheming woman, this deep plotter and conspirator, +refused to join in the laughter when the flight was made and safety +secured. They were like a couple of children with a mystification in +hand, notwithstanding that they were planning an invasion so serious of +all the proprieties, and meant to make so disreputable and revolting a +bargain. But this was not in their ideas. Bice went out very early in +the morning before any one was astir, to take needful exercise in the +park, and gather early primroses and the catkins that hung upon the +trees. On one of these occasions she met Mr. Derwentwater, of whom she +was not afraid; and at another time, when skirting the shrubberies at a +somewhat later hour to keep clear of any stragglers, Jock. Mr. +Derwentwater talked to her in a tone which amused the girl. He spoke of +Proserpina gathering flowers, herself a----and then altered and grew +confused under her eye. + +"Herself a---- What?" said Bice. "Have you forgotten what you were going +to say?" + +"I have not forgotten--herself a fairer flower. One does not forget such +lovely words as these," he said, injured by the question. "But when one +comes face to face with the impersonation of the poet's idea----" + +"It was poetry, then?" said Bice. "I know very little of that. It is not +in Tauchnitz, perhaps? All I know of English is from the Tauchnitz. I +read, chiefly, novels. You do not approve of that? But, yes, I like +them; because it is life." + +"Is it life?" said Derwentwater, who was somewhat contemptuous of +fiction. + +"At least it is England," said Bice. "The girls who will not make a good +marriage because of some one else, or because it is their parents who +arrange it. That is how Lady Randolph speaks. She says that nothing is +right but to fall--how do you call it?--in love?--It is not _comme il +faut_ even to talk of that." + +Derwentwater blushed like a girl. He was more inexperienced in many ways +than Bice. "And do you regard it in another point of view?" he said. + +Bice laughed out with frank disdain. "Certainly, I regard it +different--oh, quite different. That is not what happens in life." + +"And do you consider life is chiefly occupied with getting married?" he +continued, feeling, along with a good deal of quite unnecessary +excitement, a great desire to know what was her way of looking at this +great subject. Visions had been flashing recently through his mind, +which pointed a little this way too. + +"Altogether," said Bice, with great gravity, "how can you begin to live +till you have settled that? Till then you do not know what is going to +happen to you. When you get up in the morning you know not what may come +before the night; when you walk out you know not who may be the next +person you meet; perhaps your husband. But then you marry, and that is +all settled; henceforward nothing can happen!" said Bice, throwing out +her hands. "Then, after all is settled, you can begin to live." + +"This is very interesting," said Derwentwater, "I am so glad to get at a +real and individual view. But this, perhaps, only applies to--ladies? It +is, perhaps, not the same with men?" + +Bice gave him a careless, half-contemptuous glance. "I have never known +anything," she said, "about men." + +There are many girls, much more innocent in outward matters than Bice, +who would have said these words with an intention _agaçante_--the +intention of leading to a great deal more badinage. But Bice spoke with +a calm, almost scornful, composure. She had no desire to _agacer_. She +looked him in the face as tranquilly as if he had been an old woman. And +so far as she was concerned he might have been an old woman; for he had +virtually no existence in his capacity of young man. Had she possessed +any clue to the thoughts that had taken rise in his mind, the new +revelation which she had conveyed to him, Bice's amazement would have +been without bounds. But instinct indicated to her that the interview +should proceed no further. She waved her hand to him as she came to a +cross road which led into the woods. "I am going this way," she cried, +darting off round the corner of a great tree. He stood and looked after +her bewildered, as her light figure skimmed along into the depths of the +shadows. "Then, after all is settled, you can begin to live," he +repeated to himself. Was it true? He had got up the morning on which he +saw her first without any thought that everything might be changed for +him that day. And now it was quite true that there lay before him an +interval which must be somehow filled up before he could begin to live. +How was it to be filled up? Would _she_ have anything to do with the +settling which must precede his recommencement of existence? He went on +with his mind altogether absorbed in these thoughts, and with a thrill +and tingling through all his veins. And that was the only time he +encountered Bice, for whom in fact, though he had not hitherto allowed +it even to himself, he had come to the Hall--till the great night. + +Jock encountered her the next day not so early, at the hour indeed when +the great people were at breakfast. He had been one of the first to +come downstairs, and he had not lingered at table as persons do who have +letters to read, and the newspapers, and all that is going on to talk +about. He met her coming from the park. She put out her hand when she +saw him as if to keep him off. + +"If you wish to speak to me," she said, "you must turn back and walk +with me. I do not want any one to see me, and they will soon be coming +out from breakfast." + +"Why don't you want any one to see you?" Jock said. + +Bice had learned the secret of the Contessa's smile; but this which she +cast upon Jock had something mocking in it, and ended in a laugh. "Oh, +don't you know?" she said, "it is so silly to be a boy!" + +"You are no older than I am," cried Jock, aggrieved; "and why don't you +come down to dinner as you used to do? I always liked you to come. It is +quite different when you are not there. If I had known I should not have +come home at all this Easter," Jock cried. + +"Oh!" cried Bice, "that means that you like me, then?--and so does +Milady. If I should go away altogether----" + +"You are not going away altogether? Why should you? There is no other +place you could be so well as here. The Contessa never says a word, but +laughs at a fellow, which is scarcely civil; and she has those men about +her that are--not----; but you----why should you go away?" cried Jock +with angry vehemence. He looked at her with eyes lowering fiercely under +his eyebrows; yet in his heart he was not angry but wretched, as if +something were rending him. Jock did not understand how he felt. + +"Oh, now, you look at me as if you would eat me," said Bice, "as if I +were the little girl in the red hood and you the wolf---- But it is +silly, for how should I stay here when Milady is going away? We are all +going to London--and then! it will soon be decided, I suppose," said +Bice, herself feeling a little sad for the first time at the idea, "what +is going to be done with me." + +"What is going to be done with you?" cried Jock hoarsely, for he was +angry and grieved, and full of impatient indignation, though he scarcely +knew why. + +Bice turned upon him with that lingering smile which was like the +Contessa's. But, unlike the Contessa's, it ended as usual in a laugh. +She kissed her hand to him, and darted round the corner of the shrubbery +just as some one appeared from breakfast. "Good-bye," she said, "do not +be angry," and so vanished like lightning. This was one of the cases +which made her heart beat with fun and exhilaration, when she was, as +she told the Contessa, nearly caught. She got into the shelter of the +east rooms, panting with the run she had made, her complexion brilliant, +her eyes shining. "I thought I should certainly be seen this time," she +said. + +The Contessa looked at the girl with admiring eyes. "I could almost have +wished you had," she said. "You are superb like that." They talked +without a shade of embarrassment on this subject, upon which English +mothers and children would blush and hesitate. + +This was the day, the great day of the revelation which the Contessa had +promised. There had been a great deal of discussion and speculation +about it in the company. No one, even Sir Tom, knew what it was. Lucy, +though she was not clever, had her wits sharpened in this respect, and +she had divined; but no one else had any conception of what was coming. +Two of the elder men had gone, very sorry to miss the great event, +whatever it was. And young Montjoie had talked of nothing else since the +promise had been made. The conversation in the drawing-room late in the +afternoon chiefly turned on this subject, and the lady visitors too +heard of it, and were not less curious. She who had the two daughters +addressed herself to Lucy for information. She said: "I hear some +novelty is expected to-night, Lady Randolph, something the Contessa has +arranged. She is very clever, is she not? and sings delightfully, I +know. There is so much more talent of that kind among foreigners than +there is among us. Is it tableaux? The girls are so longing to know." + +"Oh, yes, we want so much to know," said the young ladies in blue. + +"I don't think it is tableaux," Lucy said; "but I have not been told +what it is." + +This the ladies did not believe, but they asked no further questions. +"It is clear that she does not wish us to know; so, girls, you must say +nothing," was the conclusion of the mother. + +They said a great deal, notwithstanding this warning. The house +altogether was excited on the subject, and even Mr. Derwentwater took +part in the speculations. He looked upon the Contessa as one of those +inscrutable women of the stage, the Sirens who beguile everybody. She +had some design upon Montjoie, he felt, and it was only the youth's +impertinence which prevented Mr. Derwentwater from interfering. He +watched with the natural instinct of his profession and a strong +impulse to write to the lad's parents and have him taken away. But +Montjoie had no parents. He had attained his majority, and was supposed +by the law capable of taking care of himself. What did that woman mean +to do with the boy? She had some designs upon him. But there was nobody +to whom Mr. Derwentwater could confide his suspicions, or whom he could +ask what the Contessa meant. MTutor had not on the whole a pleasant +visit. He was disappointed in that which had been his chief object--his +favourite pupil was detached from him, he knew not how--and this other +boy, whom, though he did not love him, he could not help feeling a sort +of responsibility for, was in danger from a designing woman, a woman out +of a French play, _L'Aventurière_, something of that sort. Mr. +Derwentwater felt that he could not drag himself away, the attractions +were so strong. He wanted to see the _dénoûement_; still more he wanted +to see Bice. No drama in the world had so powerful an interest. But +though it was so impossible to go away, it was not pleasant to stay. +Jock did not want him. Lucy, though she was always sweet and friendly, +had a look of haste and over-occupation; her eyes wandered when she +talked to him; her mind was occupied with other things. Most of the men +of the party were more than indifferent; were disagreeable to him. He +thought they were a danger for Jock. And Bice never was visible; that +moment on the balcony--those few minutes in the park--the half dozen +words which had been so "suggestive," he thought, which had woke so many +echoes in his mind--these were all he had had of her. Had she intended +them to awaken echoes? He asked himself this question a thousand times. +Had she willingly cast this seed of thought into his mind to +germinate--to produce--what result? If it was so, then, indeed, all the +little annoyances of his stay would be a cheap price to pay. It did not +occur to this judicious person, whose influence over his pupils was so +great, and who had studied so deeply the mind of youth, that a girl of +sixteen was but little likely to be consciously suggestive--to sow, with +any intention in her mind, seeds of meaning to develop in his. To do him +justice, he was as unconscious of the limits of sixteen in Bice's case +as we all are in the case of Juliet. She was of no age. She was the +ideal woman capable of comprehensions and intentions as far above +anything possible to the genus boy as heaven was above earth. It would +have been a profanation, a sacrilege too dreadful to be thought of, to +compare that ethereal creature with the other things of her age with +which he was so familiar. Of her age! Her age was the age of romance, of +love, of poetry, of all ineffable things. + +"I say, Countess," said Montjoie, "I hope you're not forgetting. This is +the night, don't you know. And here we are all ready for dinner and +nothing has happened. When is it coming? You are so awfully mysterious; +it ain't fair upon a fellow." + +"Is every one in the room?" said the Contessa, with an indulgent smile +at the young man's eagerness. They all looked round, for everybody was +curious. And all were there--the lady who wrote for the Press, and the +lady with the two daughters, the girls in blue; and Sir Tom's +parliamentary friends standing up against the mantelpiece, and Mr. +Derwentwater by himself, more curious than any one, keeping one eye on +Montjoie, as if he would have liked to send him to the pupil-room to do +a _poena_; and Jock indifferent, with his back to the door. All the rest +were expectant except Jock, who took no notice. The Contessa's special +friends were about her chair, rubbing their hands, and ready to back the +Forno-Populo for a new sensation. The Contessa looked round, her eye +dwelling for a moment upon Lucy, who looked a little fluttered and +uncomfortable, and upon Sir Tom, who evidently knew nothing, and was +looking on with a smile. + +"Now you shall see," she said, "why I abdicate," and made a sign, +clapping softly her beautiful hands. + +There was a momentary pause. Montjoie, who was standing out in the clear +space in the centre of the room, turned round at the Contessa's call. He +turned towards the open door, which was less lighted than the inner +room. It was he who saw first what was coming. "Oh, by Jove!" the young +Marquis said. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXV. + +THE DÉBUT. + + +The door was open. The long drawing-room afforded a sort of processional +path for the newcomer. Her dress was not white like that of the ordinary +_débutante_. It had a yellow golden glow of colour, warm yet soft. She +walked not with the confused air of a novice perceiving herself +observed, but with a slow and serene gait like a young queen. She was +not alarmed by the consciousness that everybody was looking at her. Not +to have been looked at would have been more likely to embarrass Bice. +Her beautiful throat and shoulders were uncovered, her hair dressed +more elaborately than that of English girls in general. English +girls--the two innocents in blue, who were nice girls enough, and stood +with their mouths and eyes open in speechless wonder and +admiration--seemed of an entirely different species from this dazzling +creature. She made a momentary pause on the threshold, while all the +beholders held their breath. Montjoie, for one, was struck dumb. His +commonplace countenance changed altogether. He looked at her with his +face growing longer, his jaw dropping. It was more than a sensation, it +was such a climax of excitement and surprise as does not happen above +once or twice in a lifetime. The whole company were moved by similar +feelings, all except the Contessa, lying back in her chair, and Lucy, +who stood rather troubled, moving from one foot to another, clasping and +unclasping her hands. Jock, roused by the murmur, turned round with a +start, and eyed her too with looks of wild astonishment. She stood for a +moment looking at them all--with a smile which was half mischievous, +half appealing--on the threshold, as Bice felt it, not only of Lady +Randolph's drawing-room, but of the world. + +Sir Tom had started at the sight of her as much as any one. He had not +been in the secret. He cried out, "By Jove!" like Montjoie. But he had +those instincts which are, perhaps, rather old-fashioned, of protection +and service to women. He belonged to the school which thinks a girl +should not walk across a room without some man's arm to sustain her, or +open a door for herself. He started forward with a little sense of being +to blame, and offered her his arm. "Why didn't you send for me to bring +you in if you were late?" he cried, with a tone in which there was some +tremor and vexation. The effectiveness of her appearance was terrible to +Sir Tom. She looked up at him with a look of pleasure and kindness, and +said, "I was not late," with a smile. She looked taller, more developed +in a single day. But for that little pucker of vexation on Sir Tom's +forehead they would have looked like a father and daughter, the father +proudly bringing his young princess into the circle of her adorers. Bice +swept him towards Lucy, and made a low obeisance to Lady Randolph, and +took her hand and kissed it. "I must come to you first," she said. + +"Well?" said the Contessa, turning round to her retainers with a quick +movement. They were all gazing at the _débutante_ so intently that they +had no eyes for her. One of them at length replied, with something like +solemnity: "Oh, I understand what you mean, Contessa; anybody but you +would have to abdicate." "But not you," said another, who had some +kindness in his heart. The Contessa rose up with an air of triumph. "I +do not want to be compelled," she said, "I told you. I give up. I will +take your arm Mr. St. John, as a private person, having relinquished my +claims, and leave milord to the new _régime_." + +This was how it came about, in the slight scuffle caused by the sudden +change of programme, that Bice, in all her splendour, found herself +going in to the dining-room on Lord Montjoie's arm. Notwithstanding that +he had been struck dumb by her beauty, little Montjoie was by no means +happy when this wonderful good fortune fell upon him. He would have +preferred to gaze at her from the other side of the table: on the whole, +he would have been a great deal more at his ease with the Contessa. He +would have asked her a hundred questions about this wonderful beauty; +but the beauty herself rather frightened the young man. Presently, +however, he regained his courage, and as lack of boldness was not his +weak point, soon began to lose the sense of awe which had been so strong +upon him. She smiled; she was as ready to talk as he was, as the +overwhelming impression she had made upon him began to be modified by +familiarity. "I suppose," he said, when he had reached this point, "that +you arrived to-day?" And then, after a pause, "You speak English?" he +added, in a hesitating tone. She received this question with so merry a +laugh that he was quite encouraged. + +"Always," she said, "since I was a child. Was that why you were afraid +of me?" + +"Afraid?" he said; and then he looked at her almost with a recurrence of +his first fright, till her laugh reassured him. "Yes I was frightened," +Lord Montjoie said; "you looked so--so--don't you know? I was struck all +of a heap. I suppose you came to-day? We were all on the outlook from +something the Contessa said. You must be clever to get in without +anybody seeing you." + +"I was far more clever than that," said Bice; "you don't know how clever +I am." + +"I dare say," said Lord Montjoie, admiringly, "because you don't want +it. That's always the way." + +"I am so clever that I have been here all the time," said Bice, with +another laugh so joyous,--"so jolly," Montjoie said, that his terrors +died away. But his surprise took another development at this +extraordinary information. + +"By Jove!" he cried, "you don't mean that, Miss--Mademoiselle--I am so +awfully stupid I never heard--that is to say I ain't at all clever at +foreign names." + +"Oh, never mind," cried Bice; "neither am I. But yours is delightful; it +is so easy, Milord. Ought I to say Milord?" + +"Oh," cried Montjoie, a little confused. "No; I don't think so--people +don't as a rule." + +"Lord Montjoie, that is right? I like always to know----" + +"So do I," said Montjoie; "it's always best to ask, ain't it, and then +there can be no mistakes? But you don't mean to say _that_? You here +yesterday and all the time? I shouldn't think you could have been hid. +Not the kind of person, don't you know." + +"I can't tell about being the kind of person. It has been fun," said +Bice; "sometimes I have seen you all coming, and waited till there was +just time to fly. I like leaving it till the last moment, and then there +is the excitement, don't you know." + +"By Jove, what fun!" said Montjoie. He was not clever enough, few people +are, to perceive that she had mimicked himself in tone and expression. +"And I might have caught you any day," he cried. "What a muff I have +been." + +"If I had allowed myself to be caught I should have been a greater--what +do you call it? You wear beautiful things to do your smoking in, Lord +Montjoie; what is it? Velvet? And why don't you wear them to +dinner?--you would look so much more handsome. I am very fond myself of +beautiful clothes." + +"Oh, by Jove!" cried Montjoie again, with something like a blush. +"You've seen me in those things! I only wear them when I think nobody +sees. They're something from the East," he added, with a tone of +careless complacency; for, as a matter of fact, he piqued himself very +much upon this smoking-suit which had not, at the Hall, received the +applause it deserved. + +"You go and smoke like that among other men? Yes, I perceive," said +Bice, "you are just like women, there is no difference. We put on our +pretty things for other ladies, because you cannot understand them; and +you do the same." + +"Oh, come now, Miss---- Forno-Populo! you don't mean to tell me that you +got yourself up like that for the sake of the ladies?" cried the young +man. + +"For whom, then?" said Bice, throwing up her head; but afterwards, with +the instinct of a young actress, she remembered her _rôle_, which it was +fun to carry out thoroughly. She laughed. "You are the most clever," she +said. "I see you are one that women cannot deceive." + +Montjoie laughed, too, with gratified vanity and superior knowledge. +"You are about right there," he said. "I am not to be taken in, don't +you know. It's no good trying it on with me. I see through ladies' +little pretences. If there were no men you would not care what guys you +were; and no more do we." + +Bice made no reply. She turned upon him that dazzling smile of which she +had learned the secret from the Contessa, which was unfathomable to the +observer but quite simple to the simple-minded; and then she said: "Do +you amuse yourself very much in the evening? I used to hear the voices +and think how pleasant it would have been to be there." + +"Not so pleasant as you think," said the young man. "The only fun was +the Contessa's, don't you know. She's a fine woman for her age, but +she's---- Goodness! I forgot. She's your----" + +"She is _passée_," said the girl calmly. "You make me afraid, Lord +Montjoie. How much of a critic you are, and see through women, through +and through." At this the noble Marquis laughed with true enjoyment of +his own gifts. + +"But you ain't offended?" he said. "There was no harm meant. Even a lady +can't, don't you know, be always the same age." + +"Don't you think so?" said Bice. "Oh, I think you are wrong. The +Contessa is of no age. She is the age she pleases--she has all the +secrets. I see nobody more beautiful." + +"That may be," said Montjoie; "but you can't see everybody, don't you +know. She's very handsome and all that--and when the real thing isn't +there--but when it is, don't you know----" + +"English is very perplexing," said Bice, shaking her head, but with a +smile in her eyes which somewhat belied her air of simplicity. "What may +that be--the real thing? Shall I find it in the dictionary?" she asked; +and then their eyes met and there was another burst of laughter, +somewhat boisterous on his part, but on hers with a ring of +lightheartedness which quenched the malice. She was so young that she +had a pleasure in playing her _rôle_, and did not feel any immorality +involved. + +While this conversation was going on, which was much observed and +commented on by all the company, Jock from one end of the table and Mr. +Derwentwater from the other, looked on with an eager observation and +breathless desire to make out what was being said which gave an +expression of anxiety to the features of MTutor, and one of almost +ferocity to the lowering countenance of Jock. Both of these gentlemen +were eagerly questioned by the ladies next them as to who this young +lady might be. + +"Terribly theatrical, don't you think, to come into a room like that?" +said the mother of the girls in blue. "If my Minnie or Edith had been +asked to do it they would have died of shame." + +"I do not deny," said Mr. Derwentwater, "the advantage of conventional +restraints. I like the little airs of seclusion, of retirement, that +surround young ladies. But the----" he paused a little for a name, and +then with that acquaintance with foreign ways on which Mr. Derwentwater +prided himself, added, "the Signorina was at home." + +"The Signorina! Is that what you call her--just like a person that is +going on the stage. She will be the--niece, I suppose?" + +Jock's next neighbour was the lady who was engaged in literature. She +said to Jock: "I must get you to tell me her name. She is lovely. She +will make a great sensation. I must make a few notes of her dress after +dinner--would you call that yellow or white? Whoever dressed her knew +what they were about. Mademoiselle, I imagine, one ought to call her. I +know that's French, and she's Italian, but still---- The new beauty! +that's what she will be called. I am so glad to be the first to see her; +but I must get you to tell me her name." + +Among the gentlemen there was no other subject of conversation, and but +one opinion. A little hum of curiosity ran round the table. It was far +more exciting than tableaux, which was what some of the guests had +expected to be arranged by the Contessa. Tableaux! nothing could have +been equal to the effect of that dramatic entry and sudden revelation. +"As for Montjoie, all was up with him, but the Contessa knew what she +was about. She was not going to throw away her effects," they said. +"There could be no doubt for whose benefit it all was." The Contessa +graciously baffled with her charming smile all the questions that were +poured upon her. She received the compliments addressed to her with +gracious bows, but she gave no reply to any one. As she swept out of the +room after dinner she tapped Montjoie lightly on the arm with her fan. +"I will sing for you to-night," she said. + +In the drawing-room the elements were a little heterogeneous without the +gentlemen. The two girls in blue gazed at this wonderful new competitor +with a curiosity which was almost alarm. They would have liked to make +acquaintance, to draw her into their little party of youth outside the +phalanx of the elders. But Bice took no more note of them than if they +had been cabbages. She was in great excitement, all smiles and glory. +"Do I please you like this?" she said, going up to Lucy, spreading out +all her finery with the delight of a child. Lucy shrank a little. She +had a troubled anxious look, which did not look like pleasure; but Lady +Anastasia, who wrote for the newspapers, walked round and round the +_débutante_ and took notes frankly. "Of course I shall describe her +dress. I never saw anything so lovely," the lady said. Bice, in the glow +of her golden yellow, and of her smiles and delight, with the noble +correspondent of the newspapers examining her, found the acutest +interest in the position. The Contessa from her sofa smiled upon the +scene, looking on with the air of a gratified exhibitor whose show had +succeeded beyond her hopes. Lady Randolph, with an air of anxiety in her +fair and simple countenance, stood behind, looking at Bice with +protecting yet disturbed and troubled looks. The mother and daughters at +the other side looked on, she all solid and speechless with +disapproval, they in a flutter of interest and wonder and gentle envy +and offence. More than a tableau; it was like an act out of a play. And +when the gentlemen came in what a sudden quickening of the interest! +Bice rose to the action like a heroine when the great scene has come, +and the others all gathered round with a spectatorship that was almost +breathless. The worst feature of the whole to those who were interested +in Bice was her own evident enjoyment. She talked, she distributed her +smiles right and left, she mimicked yet flattered Montjoie with a +dazzling youthful assurance which confounded Mr. Derwentwater, and made +Jock furious, and brought looks of pain not only to the face of Lucy but +also to that of Sir Tom, who was less easily shocked. She was like a +young actress in her first triumph, filling her _rôle_ with a sort of +enthusiasm, enjoying it with all her heart. And when the Contessa rose +to sing, Bice followed her to the piano with an air as different as +possible from the swift, noiseless self-effacement of her performance on +previous occasions. She looked round upon the company with a sort of +malicious triumph, a laugh on her lips as of some delightful +mystification, some surprise of which she was in the secret. "Come and +listen," she said to Jock, lightly touching him on the shoulder as she +passed him. The Contessa's singing was already known. It was considered +by some with a certain contempt, by others with admiration, as almost as +good as professional. But when instead of one of her usual performances +there arose in splendid fulness the harmony of two voices, that of Bice +suddenly breaking forth in all the freshness of youth, unexpected, +unprepared for, the climax of wonder and enthusiasm was reached. Lady +Anastasia, after the first start and thrill of wonder, rushed to the +usual writing-table and dashed off a hurried note, which she fastened to +her fan in her excitement. "Everybody must know of this!" she cried. One +of the young ladies in the background wept with admiration, crying, +"Mamma, she is heavenly," while even the virtuous mother was moved. +"They must intend her for the stage," that lady said, wondering, +withdrawing from her _rôle_ of disapproval. As for the gentlemen, those +of them who were not speechless with enthusiasm were almost noisy in +their excitement. Montjoie pressed into the first rank, almost touching +Bice's dress, which she drew away between two bars, turning half round +with a slight shake of her head and a smile in her eyes, even while the +loveliest notes were flowing forth from her melodious throat. The +listeners could hear the noble lord's "by Jove," in the midst of the +music, and even detect the slight quaver of laughter which followed in +Bice's wonderful voice. + +The commotion of applause, enthusiasm, and wonder afterwards was +indescribable. The gentlemen crowded round the singers--even the +parliamentary gentlemen had lost their self-control, while the young +lady who had wept forgot her timidity to make an eager approach to the +_débutante_. + +"It was heavenly: it was a rapture: oh, sing again!" cried Miss Edith, +which was much prettier than Lord Montjoie's broken exclamations, "Oh, +by Jove! don't you know," to which Bice was listening with delighted +mockery. + +Bice had been trained to pay very little attention to the opinions of +other girls, but she gave the young lady in blue a friendly look, and +launched over her shoulder an appeal to Jock. "Didn't you like it, +you?" she cried, with a slight clap together of her hands to call his +attention. + +Jock glared at her over Miss Edith's shoulder. "I don't understand +music," he said, in his most surly voice. These were the distinct +utterances which enchanted Bice amid the murmurs of more ordinary +applause. She was delighted with them. She clapped her hands once more +with a delight which was contagious. "Ah, I know now, this is what it is +to have _succès_," she cried. + +"Now," said the Contessa, "it is the turn of Lord Montjoie, who is a +dab--that is the word--at singing, and who promised me three for one." + +At this there rose a hubbub of laughter, in the midst of which, though +with many protestations and remonstrances, "don't you know," that young +nobleman was driven to the fulfilment of his promise. In the midst of +this commotion, a sign as swift as lightning, but, unlike lightning, +imperceptible, a lifting of the eyebrows, a movement of a finger, was +given and noted. In such a musical assembly the performance of a young +marquis, with nobody knows how many thousands a year and entirely his +own master, is rarely without interest. Mr. Derwentwater turned his back +with marked indifference, and Jock with a sort of snort went away +altogether. But of the others, the majority, though some with laughter +and some with sneers, were civil, and listened to the performance. Jock +marched off with a disdain beyond expression; but he had scarcely issued +forth into the hall before he heard a rustle behind him, and, looking +back, to his amazement saw Bice in all the glory of her golden robes. + +"Hush!" she cried, smothering a laugh, and with a quick gesture of +repression, "don't say anything. It must not be discovered that I have +run away!" + +"Why have you run away? I thought you thought no end of that little +scug," cried savage Jock. + +Bice turned upon him that smile that said everything and nothing, and +then flew like a bird upstairs. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXVI. + +THE EVENING AFTER. + + +The outcry that rose when, after Montjoie's comic song, a performance of +the broadest and silliest description, was over, it was discovered that +Bice had disappeared, and especially the blank look of the performer +himself when turning round from the piano he surveyed the company in +vain for her, gratified the Contessa beyond measure. She smiled +radiantly upon the assembly in answer to all their indignant questions. +"It has been for once an indulgence," she said; "but little girls must +keep early hours." Montjoie was wounded and disappointed beyond measure +that it should have been at the moment of his performance that she was +spirited away. His reproaches were vehement, and there was something of +the pettishness of a boy in their indignant tones. "I shouldn't have +sung a note if I'd thought what was going on," he cried. "Contessa, I +would not have believed you could have been so mean--and I singing only +to please you." + +"But think how you have pleased me--and all these ladies!" cried the +Contessa. "Does not that recompense you?" Montjoie guessed that she was +laughing at him, but he did not, in fact, see anything to laugh about. +It was natural enough that the other ladies should be pleased; still he +did not care whether they were pleased or not, and he did care much that +the object of his admiration had not waited to hear him. The Contessa +found the greatest amusement in his boyish sulk and resentment, and the +rest of the evening was passed in baffling the questions with which, now +that Bice was gone, her friends overpowered her. She gave the smallest +possible dole of reply to their interrogations, but smiled upon the +questioners with sunshiny smiles. "You must come and see me in town," +she said to Montjoie. It was the only satisfaction she would give him. +And she perceived at a much earlier hour than usual that Lucy was +waiting for her to go to bed. She gave a little cry of distress when +this seemed to flash upon her. + +"Sweet Lucy! it is for me you wait!" she cried. "How could I keep you so +late, my dear one?" + +Montjoie was the foremost of those who attended her to the door, and got +her candle for her, that indispensable but unnecessary formula. + +"Of course I shall look you up in town; but we'll talk of that +to-morrow. I don't go till three--to-morrow," the young fellow said. + +The Contessa gave him her hand with a smile, but without a word, in that +inimitable way she had, leaving Montjoie a prey to such uncertainty as +poisoned his night's rest. He was not humble-minded, and he knew that he +was a prize which no lady he had met with as yet had disregarded; but +for the first time his bosom was torn by disquietude. Of course he must +see her to-morrow. Should he see her to-morrow? The Contessa's smile, +so radiant, so inexplainable, tormented him with a thousand doubts. + +Lucy had looked on at all this with an uneasiness indescribable. She +felt like an accomplice, watching this course of intrigue, of which she +indeed disapproved entirely, but could not clear herself from a certain +guilty knowledge of. That it should all be going on under her roof was +terrible to her, though it was not for Montjoie but for Bice that her +anxieties were awakened. She followed the Contessa upstairs, bearing her +candle as if they formed part of a procession, with a countenance +absolutely opposed in expression to the smiles of Madame di +Forno-Populo. When they reached the Contessa's door, Lucy, by a sudden +impulse, followed her in. It was not the first time that she had been +allowed to cross the threshold of that little enchanted world which had +filled her with wonder on her first entrance, but which by this time she +regarded with composure, no longer bewildered to find it in her own +house. Bice sprang up from a sofa on which she was lying on their +entrance. She had taken off her beautiful dress, and her hair was +streaming over her shoulders, her countenance radiant with delight. She +threw herself upon the Contessa, without perceiving the presence of Lady +Randolph. + +"But it is enchanting; it is ravishing. I have never been so happy," she +cried. + +"My child," said the Contessa, "here is our dear lady who is of a +different opinion." + +"Of what opinion?" Bice cried. She was startled by the sudden +appearance, when she had no thought of such an apparition, of Lucy's +face so grave and uneasy. It gave a contradiction which was painful to +the girl's excitement and delight. + +"Indeed, I did not mean to find fault," said Lucy. "I was only +sorry----" and here she paused, feeling herself incapable of expressing +her real meaning, and convicted of interference and unnecessary severity +by the girl's astonished eyes. + +"My dear one," said the Contessa, "it is only that we look from two +different points of view. You will not object to little Bice that she +finds society intoxicating when she first goes into it. The child has +made what you call a sensation. She has had her little _succès_. That is +nothing to object to. An English girl is perhaps more reticent. She is +brought up to believe that she does not care for _succès_. But Bice is +otherwise. She has been trained for that, and to please makes her +happy." + +"To please--whom?" cried Lady Randolph. "Oh, don't think I am finding +fault. We are brought up to please our parents and people who--care for +us--in England." + +Here Bice and the Contessa mutually looked at each other, and the girl +laughed, putting her hands together. "_She_ is pleased most of all," she +cried; "she is all my parents. I please her first of all." + +"What you say is sweet," said the Contessa, smiling upon Lucy; "and she +is right too. She pleases me most of all. To see her have her little +triumph, looking really her very best, and her dress so successful, is +to me a delight. I am nearly as much excited as the child herself!" + +Lucy looked from one to another, and felt that it was impossible for her +to say what she wished to say. The girl's pleasure seemed so innocent, +and that of her protectress and guardian so generous, so tender. All +that had offended Lucy's instincts, the dramatic effort of the +Contessa, the careful preparation of all the effects, the singling out +of young Montjoie as the object, all seemed to melt away in the girlish +delight of Bice, and the sympathetic triumph of her guardian. She did +not know what to say to them. It was she who was the culprit, putting +thoughts of harm which had not found any entrance there into the girl's +mind. She flushed with shame and an uneasy sense that the tables were +thus turned upon her; and yet how could she depart without some warning? +It was not only her own troubled uncomfortable feeling; but had she not +read the same, still more serious and decided, in her husband's eyes? + +"I don't know what to say," said Lucy. "But Sir Tom thinks so too. He +will tell you better, he knows better. Lord Montjoie is--I do not know +why he was asked. I did not wish it. He is--dear Madame di Forno-Populo, +you have seen so much more than I--he is vulgar--a little. And Bice is +so young; she may be deceived." + +For a moment a cloud, more dark than had ever been seen there before, +overshadowed the Contessa's face. But Bice burst forth into a peal of +laughter, clapping her hands. "Is that vulgar?" the girl cried. "I am +glad. Now I know how he is different. It is what you call fun, don't you +know?" she cried with sudden mimicry, at which Lucy herself could not +refuse to laugh. + +"I waited outside to hear a little of the song. It was so wonderful that +I could not laugh; and to utter all that before you, Madama, after he +had heard you--oh, what courage! what braveness!" cried Bice. "I did not +think any one could be so brave!" + +"You mean so simple, dear child," said the Contessa, whose brow had +cleared; "that is really what is so wonderful in these English men. They +are so simple, they never see how it is different. It is brave if you +please, but still more simple-minded. Little Montjoie is so. He knows no +better; not to me only, but even to you, Bice, with that voice of yours, +so pure, so fresh, he listens, then performs as you heard. It is +wonderful, as you say. But you have not told me, Lucy, my sweetest, what +you think of the little one's voice." + +"I think," said Lucy, with that disapproval which she could not +altogether restrain, "that it is very wonderful, when it is so fine, +that we never heard it before----" + +"Ah, Bice," cried the Contessa, "our dear lady is determined that she +will not be pleased to-night. We had prepared a little surprise, and it +is a failure. She will not understand that we love to please. She will +have us to be superior, as if we were English." + +"Indeed, indeed," cried Lucy, full of compunction, "I know you are +always kind. And I know your ways are different--but----" with a sort of +regretful reflectiveness, shaking her head. + +"All England is in that but," said the Contessa. "It is what has always +been said to me. In our country we love to arrange these little effects, +to have surprises, impromptus, events that are unexpected. Bice, go, my +child, go to bed, after this excitement you must rest. You did well, and +pleased me at least. My sweet Lucy," she said, when the girl with +instant obedience had disappeared into the next room, "I know how you +see it all from your point of view. But we are not as you, rich, secure. +We must make while we can our _coup_. To succeed by one _coup_, that is +my desire. And you will not interfere?" + +"Oh, Contessa," cried Lucy, "will you not spare the child? It is like +selling her. She is too good for such a man. He is scarcely a man; he is +a boy. I am ashamed to think that you should care to please----him, or +any one like him. Oh, let it come naturally! Do not plan like this, and +scheme and take trouble for----" + +"For an establishment that will make her at once safe and sure; that +will give her so many of the things that people care for--beautiful +houses, a good name, money---- I have schemed, as you say, for little +things much of my life," said the Contessa, shaking her head with a +mournful smile; "I have told you my history: for very, very little +things--for a box at the opera, for a carriage, things which are +nothing, sweetest Lucy. You have plenty; such things are nothing to you. +You cannot understand it. But that is me, my dear one. I have not a +higher mind like you; and shall I not scheme," cried the Contessa, with +sudden energy, "for the child, to make her safe that she may never +require scheming? Ah, my Lucy! I have the heart of a mother to her, and +you know what a mother will do." + +Lucy was silent, partly touched, partly resisting. If it ever could be +right to do evil that good might come, perhaps this motive might justify +it. And then came the question how much, in the Contessa's code, was +evil, of these proceedings? She was silenced, if not satisfied. There is +a certain casuistry involved in the most Christian charity: "thinketh no +evil," sometimes even implies an effort to think that there is no harm +in evil according to the intention in it. Lucy's intellect was confused, +though not that unobtrusive faculty of judgment in her which was +infallible, yet could be kept dumb. + +"My love," said the Contessa, suddenly kissing her as a sort of +dismissal, "think that you are rich and we poor. If Bice had a +provision, if she had even as much as you give away to your poor friends +and never think of again, how different would all things be for her! But +she has nothing; and therefore I prepare my little tableaux, and study +all the effects I can think of, and produce her as in a theatre, and +shut her up to _agacer_ the audience, and keep her silent and make her +sing, all for effect; yes, all for effect. But what can I do? She has +not a penny, not a penny, not even like your poor friends." + +The sudden energy with which this was said was indescribable. The +Contessa's countenance, usually so ivory-pale, shone with a sort of +reflection as if of light within, her eyes blazed, her smile gave place +to a seriousness which was almost indignation. She looked like a heroine +maintaining her right to do all that human strength could do for the +forlorn and oppressed; and there was, in fact, a certain _abandon_ of +feeling in her which made her half unconsciously open the door, and do +what was tantamount to turning her visitor out, though her visitor was +mistress of the house. Her feelings had, indeed, for the moment, got the +better of the Contessa. She had worked herself up to the point of +indignation, that Lucy who could, if she would, deliver Bice from all +the snares of poverty, had not done so, and was not, so far as appeared, +intending to do so. To find fault with the devices of the poor, and yet +not to help them--is not that one of the things least easily supportable +of all the spurns of patient merit? The Contessa was doing what she +could, all she could in her own fashion, strenuously, anxiously. But +Lucy was doing nothing, though she could have done it so easily: and +yet she found fault and criticised. Madame di Forno-Populo was swept by +a great flood of instinctive resentment. She put her hostess to the door +in the strength of it, tenderly with a kiss but not less hotly, and with +full meaning. Such impulses had stood her instead of virtue on other +occasions; she felt a certain virtue as of superior generosity and +self-sacrifice in her proceedings now. + +As for Lucy, still much confused and scarcely recognising the full +meaning of the Contessa's warmth, she made her way to her own room in a +haze of disturbed and uneasy feeling. Somehow--she could not tell +how--she felt herself in the wrong. What was it she had done? What was +it she had left undone? To further the scheme by which young Montjoie +was to be caught and trapped and made the means of fortune and endowment +to Bice was not possible. In such cases it is usually of the possible +victim, the man against whom such plots are formed, that the bystander +thinks; but Lucy thought of young Montjoie only with an instinctive +dislike, which would have been contempt in a less calm and tolerant +mind. That Bice, with all her gifts, a creature so full of life and +sweetness and strength, should be handed over to this trifling +commonplace lad, was in itself terrible to think of. Lucy did not think +of the girl's beauty, or of that newly-developed gift of song which had +taken her by surprise, but only and simply of herself, the warm-hearted +and smiling girl, the creature full of fun and frolic whom she had +learned to be fond of, first, for the sake of little Tom, and then for +her own. Little Tom's friend, his playmate, who had found him out in his +infant weakness and made his life so much brighter! And then Lucy asked +herself what the Contessa could mean, what it was that made her own +interference a sort of impertinence, why her protests had been received +with so little of the usual caressing deference? Thoughts go fast, and +Lucy had not yet reached the door of her own room, when it flashed upon +her what it was. She put down her candle on a table in the corridor, and +stood still to realise it. This gallery at the head of the great +staircase was dimly lighted, and the hall below threw up a glimmer, +reflected in the oaken balusters and doors of the closed rooms, and +dying away in the half-lit gloom above. There were sounds below far off +that betrayed the assembly still undispersed in the smoking-room, and +some fainter still, above, of the ladies who had retired to their rooms, +but were still discussing the strange events of the evening. In the +centre of this partial darkness stood Lucy, with her candle, the only +visible representative of all the hidden life around, suddenly pausing, +asking herself-- + +Was this what it meant? Undoubtedly, this was what it meant. She had the +power, and she had not used it. With a word she could make all their +schemes unnecessary, and relieve the burden on the soul of the woman who +had the heart of a mother for Bice. Tears sprang up into Lucy's eyes +unawares as this recollection suddenly seized her. The Contessa was not +perfect--there were many things in her which Lady Randolph could with +difficulty excuse to herself: but she had the heart of a mother for +Bice. Oh, yes, it was true, quite true. The heart of a mother! and how +was it possible that another mother could look on at this and not +sympathise; and how was it that the idea had never occurred to her +before--that she had never thought how changed in a moment might be +Bice's position, if only---- Here she picked up her candle again, and +went away hastily to her room. She said to herself that she was keeping +Fletcher up, and that this was unkind. But, as a matter of fact, she was +not thinking about Fletcher. There had sprung up in her soul a fear +which was twofold and contradictory. If one of those alarms was +justified, then the other would be fallacious; and yet the existence of +the one doubled the force of the other. One of these elements of +fear--the contradiction, the new terror--was wholly unthought of, and +had never troubled her peace before. She thought--and this was her old +burden, the anxiety which had already restrained her action and made her +forego what she had never failed to feel as her duty, the carrying out +of her father's will--of her husband's objection, of his opposition, of +the terrible interview she had once had with him, when she had refused +to acquiesce in his command. And then, with a sort of stealthy horror, +she thought of his departure from that opposition, and asked herself, +would he, for Bice's sake, consent to that which he had so much objected +to in other cases? This it was that made her shrink from herself and her +own thoughts, and hurry into her room for the solace of Fletcher's +companionship, and to put off as long as she could the discussion of the +question. Would Sir Tom agree to everything? Would he make no +objections--for Bice's sake? + + + + +CHAPTER XXXVII. + +THE CONTESSA'S TACTICS. + + +That morning the whole party came down to breakfast expectant, for, +notwithstanding the Contessa's habit of not appearing, it was supposed +that the young lady whom most people supposed to have arrived very +recently must be present at the morning meal. Young Montjoie, who was +generally very late, appeared among the first; and there was a look of +curiosity and anxiety in his face as he turned towards the door every +time it was opened, which betrayed his motive. But this expectation was +not destined to be repaid. Bice did not appear at breakfast. She did not +even come downstairs, though the Contessa did, for luncheon. When Madame +di Forno-Populo came in to this meal there was a general elevation of +all heads and eager look towards her, to which she replied with her +usual smile but no explanation of any kind; nor would she make any +reply, even to direct questions. She did nothing but smile when Montjoie +demanded to know if Miss Forno-Populo was not coming downstairs, if she +had gone away, if she were ill, if she would appear before three +o'clock--with which questions he assailed her in downright fashion. When +the Contessa did not smile she put on a look of injured sweetness. +"What!" she said, "Am I then so little thought of? You have no more +pleasure, ficklest of young men, in seeing me?" "Oh, I assure you, +Countess," he cried, "that's all right, don't you know; but a fellow may +ask. And then it was your own doing to make us so excited." + +"Yes, a fellow may ask," said the Contessa, smiling; but this was all +the response she would give, nothing that could really throw the least +light upon the subject of his curiosity. The other men of her following +looked on with undisguised admiration at this skilled and accomplished +woman. To see how she held in hand the youth whom they all considered as +her victim was beautiful they thought; and bets even were going amongst +them as to the certainty that she would land her big fish. Sir Tom, at +the head of the table, did not regard the matter so lightly. There was a +curve of annoyance in his forehead. He did not understand what game she +was playing. It was, without doubt, a game of some sort, and its object +was transparent enough; and Sir Tom could not easily forgive the +dramatic efforts of the previous night, or endure the thought that his +house was the scene of tactics so little creditable. He was vexed with +the Contessa, with Bice, even with Lucy, who, he could not keep from +saying to himself, should have found some means of baulking such an +intention. He was somewhat mollified by the absence of Bice now, which +seemed to him, perhaps, a tribute to his own evident disapproval; but +still he was uneasy. It was not a fit thing to take place in his house. +He saw far more clearly than he had done before that a stop should have +been put ere now to the Contessa's operations, and in the light of last +night's proceedings perceived his own errors in judgment--those errors +which he had, indeed, been sensible of, yet condoned in himself with +that wonderful charity which we show towards our own mistakes and +follies. He ought not to have asked her to the Hall; he ought not to +have permitted himself to be flattered and amused by her society, or to +have encouraged her to remain, or to have been so weak as to ask the +people she wished, which was the crowning error of all. He had invited +Montjoie, a trifling boy in whom he felt little or no interest, to +please her, without any definite idea as to what she meant, but only +with an amused sense that she had designs on the lad which Montjoie was +quite knowing enough to deliver himself from. But the turn things had +taken displeased Sir Tom. It was too barefaced, he said to himself. He, +too, felt like his more innocent wife, as if he were an accomplice in a +social crime. + +"I've been swindled, don't you know," Montjoie said; "I've been taken a +mean advantage of. None of these other beggars are going away like me. +They will get all the good of the music to-night, and I shall be far +away. I could cry to think of it, I could, don't you know; but you don't +care a bit, Countess." + +The Contessa, as usual, smiled. "_Enfant_!" she said. + +"I am not an infant. I am just the same age as everybody, old enough to +look after myself, don't you know, and pay for myself, and all that sort +of thing. Besides, I haven't got any parents and guardians. Is that why +you take such a base advantage of me?" cried the young man. + +"It is, perhaps, why----" The Contessa was not much in the way of +answering questions; and when she had said this she broke off with a +laugh. Was she going to say that this was why she had taken any trouble +about him, with a frankness which it is sometimes part of the astutest +policy to employ. + +"Why what? why what? Oh, come, you must tell me now," the young man +said. + +"Why one takes so much interest in you," said the Contessa sweetly. +"You shall come and see me, _cher petit Marquis_, in my little house +that is to be, in Mayfair; for you have found me, _n'est ce pas_, a +little house in Mayfair?" she said, turning to another of her train. + +"Hung with rose-coloured curtains and pink glass in the windows, +according to your orders, Contessa," said the gentleman appealed to. + +"How good it is to have a friend! but those curtains will be terrible," +said the Contessa, with a shiver, "if it were not that I carry with me a +few little things in a great box." + +"Oh, my dear Contessa, how many things you must have picked up!" cried +Lady Anastasia. "That peep into your boudoir made me sick with envy; +those Eastern embroideries, those Persian rugs! They have furnished me +with a lovely paragraph for my paper, and it is such a delightful +original idea to carry about one's pet furniture like one's dresses. It +will become quite the fashion when it is known. And how I shall long to +see that little house in Mayfair!" + +The Contessa smiled upon Lady Anastasia as she smiled upon the male +friends that surrounded her. Her paper and her paragraphs were not to be +despised, and those little mysterious intimations about the new beauty +which it delighted her to make. Madame di Forno-Populo turned to +Montjoie afterwards with a little wave of the hand. "You are going?" she +said; "how sad for us! we shall have no song to make us gay to-night. +But come and you shall sing to us in Mayfair." + +"Countess, you are only laughing at me. But I shall come, don't you +know," said Montjoie, "whether you mean it or not." + +The company, who were so much interested in this conversation, did not +observe the preoccupied looks of the master and mistress of the house, +although to some of the gentlemen the gravity of Sir Tom was apparent +enough. And not much wonder that he should be grave. Even the men who were +most easy in their own code looked with a certain severity and +astonishment upon him who had opened his door to the adventuress-Contessa, +of whom they all judged the worst, without even the charitable +acknowledgment which her enemy the Dowager had made, that there was +nothing in her past history bad enough to procure her absolute expulsion +from society. The men who crowded round her when she appeared, who +flattered and paid their court to her, and even took a little credit to +themselves as intimates of the siren, were one and all of opinion that to +bring her into his house was discreditable to Sir Tom. They were even a +little less respectful to Lucy for not knowing or finding out the quality +of her guest. If Tom Randolph was beginning to find out that he had been a +fool it was wonderful he had not made the discovery sooner. For he had +been a fool, and no mistake! To bring that woman to England, to keep her +in his house, to associate her in men's minds with his wife--the worst of +his present guests found it most difficult to forgive him. But they were +all the more interested in the situation from the fact that Sir Tom was +beginning to feel the effects of his folly. He said very little during +that meal. He took no notice of the badinage going on between the Contessa +and her train. When he spoke at all it was to that virtuous mother at his +other hand, who was not at all amusing, and talked of nothing but Edith +and Minnie, and her successful treatment of them through all the nursery +troubles of their life. + +Lucy, at the other end of the table, was scarcely more expansive. She +had been relieved by the absence of Bice, which, in her innocence, she +believed to be a concession to her own anxiety, feeling a certain +gratitude to the Contessa for thus foregoing the chance of another +interview with Montjoie. It could never have occurred to Lucy to suppose +that this was policy on the Contessa's part, and that her refusal to +satisfy Montjoie was in reality planned to strengthen her hold on him, +and to increase the curiosity she pretended to baffle. Lucy had no such +artificial idea in her mind. She accepted the girl's withdrawal as a +tribute to her own powers of persuasion, and a proof that though the +Contessa had been led astray by her foreign notions, she was yet ready +to perceive and adopt the more excellent way. This touched Lucy's heart +and made her feel that she was herself bound to reciprocate the +generosity. They had done it without knowing anything about the +intention in her mind, and it should be hers to carry out that intention +liberally, generously, not like an unwilling giver. She cast many a +glance at her husband while this was going through her mind. Would he +object as before? or would he, because it was the Contessa who was to be +benefited, make no objection? Lucy did not know which of the two it +would be most painful to her to bear. She had read carefully the +paragraph in her father's will about foreigners, and had found there was +no distinct objection to foreigners, only a preference the other way. +She knew indeed, but would not permit herself to think, that these were +not persons who would have commended themselves to Mr. Trevor as objects +of his bounty. Mr. Churchill, with his large family, was very +different. But to endow two frivolous and expensive women with a portion +of his fortune was a thing to which he never would have consented. With +a certain shiver she recognised this; and then she made a rush past the +objection and turned her back upon it. It was quite a common form of +beneficence in old times to provide a dower for a girl that she might +marry. What could there be wrong in providing a poor girl with something +to live upon that she might not be forced into a mercenary marriage? +While all the talk was going on at the other end of the table she was +turning this over in her mind--the manner of it, the amount of it, all +the details. She did not hear the talk, it was immaterial to her, she +cared not for it. Now and then she gave an anxious look at Sir Tom at +the other end. He was serious. He did not laugh as usual. What was he +thinking of? Would his objections be forgotten because it was the +Contessa or would he oppose her and struggle against her? Her heart beat +at the thought of the conflict which might be before her; or perhaps if +there was no conflict, if he were too willing, might not that be the +worst of all! + +Thus the background against which the Contessa wove her web of smiles +and humorous schemes was both dark and serious. There were many shadows +behind that frivolous central light. Herself the chief actor, the +plotter, she to whom only it could be a matter of personal advantage, +was perhaps the least serious of all the agents in it. The others +thought of possibilities dark enough, of perhaps the destruction of +family peace in this house which had been so hospitable to her, which +had received her when no other house would; and some, of the success of +a plan which did not deserve to succeed, and some of the danger of a +youth to whom at present all the world was bright. All these things +seemed to be involved in the present crisis. What more likely than that +Lucy, at last enlightened, should turn upon her husband, who no doubt +had forced this uncongenial companion upon her, should turn from Sir Tom +altogether, and put her trust in him no longer! And the men who most +admired the Contessa were those who looked with the greatest horror upon +a marriage made by her, and called young Montjoie poor little beggar and +poor devil, wondering much whether he ought not to be "spoken to." The +men were not sorry for Bice, nor thought of her at all in the matter, +save to conclude her a true pupil of the guardian whom most of them +believed to be her mother. But in this point where the others were +wanting Lucy came in, whose simple heart bled for the girl about to be +sacrificed to a man whom she could not love. Thus tragical surmises +floated in the air about Madame di Forno-Populo, that arch plotter whose +heart was throbbing indeed with her success, and the hope of successes +to come, but who had no tragical alarms in her breast. She was perfectly +easy in her mind about Sir Tom and Lucy. Even if a matrimonial quarrel +should be the result, what was that to an experienced woman of the +world, who knew that such things are only for the minute? and neither +Bice nor Montjoie caused her any alarm. Bice was perfectly pleased with +the little Marquis. He amused her. She had not the slightest objection +to him; and as for Montjoie, he was perfectly well able to take care of +himself. So that while everybody else was more or less anxious, the +Contessa in the centre of all her webs was perfectly tranquil. She was +not aware that she wished harm to any man, or woman either. Her light +heart and easy conscience carried her quite triumphantly through all. + +When Montjoie had gone away, carrying in his pocket-book the address of +the little house in Mayfair, and when the party had dispersed to walk or +ride or drive, as each thought fit, Lucy, who was doing neither, met her +husband coming out of his den. Sir Tom was full of a remorseful sense +that he had wronged Lucy. He took her by both hands, and drew her into +his room. It was a long time since he had met her with the same +effusion. "You are looking very serious," he said, "you are vexed, and I +don't wonder; but I see land, Lucy. It will be over directly--only a +week more----" + +"I thought you were looking serious, Tom," she said. + +"So I was, my love. All that business last night was more than I could +stand. You may think me callous enough, but I could not stand that." + +"Tom!" said Lucy, faltering. It seemed an opportunity she could not let +slip--but how she trembled between her two terrors! "There is something +that I want to say to you." + +"Say whatever you like, Lucy," he cried; "but for God's sake don't +tremble, my little woman, when you speak to me. I've done nothing to +deserve that." + +"I am not trembling," said Lucy, with the most innocent and transparent +of falsehoods. "But oh, Tom, I am so sorry, so unhappy." + +"For what?" he said. He did not know what accusation she might be going +to bring against him; and how could he defend himself? Whatever she +might say he was sure to be half guilty; and if she thought him wholly +guilty, how could he prevent it? A hot colour came up upon his +middle-aged face. To have to blush when you are past the age of blushing +is a more terrible necessity than the young can conceive. + +"Oh, Tom!" cried Lucy again, "for Bice! Can we stand by and let her be +sacrificed? She is not much more than a child; and she is always so good +to little Tom." + +"For Bice!" he cried. In the relief of his mind he was ready to have +done anything for Bice. He laughed with a somewhat nervous tremulous +outburst. "Why, what is the matter with her?" he said. "She did her part +last night with assurance enough. She is young indeed, but she ought to +have known better than that." + +"She is very young, and it is the way she has been brought up--how +should she know any better? But, Tom, if she had any fortune she would +not be compelled to marry. How can we stand by and see her sacrificed to +that odious young man?" + +"What odious young man?" said Sir Tom, astonished, and then with another +burst of his old laughter such as had not been heard for weeks, he cried +out: "Montjoie! Why, Lucy, are you crazy? Half the girls in England are +in competition for him. Sacrificed to----! She will be in the greatest +luck if she ever has such a chance." + +Lucy gave him a reproachful look. + +"How can you say so? A little vulgar boy--a creature not worthy to----" + +"My dear, you are prejudiced. You are taking Jock's view. That worthy's +opinion of a fellow who never rose above Lower Fourth is to be received +with reservation. A fellow may be a scug, and yet not a bad fellow--that +is what Jock has yet to learn." + +"Oh, Tom, I cannot laugh," said Lucy. "What can she do, the Contessa +says? She must marry the first that offers, and in the meantime she +attracts notice _like that_. It is dreadful to think of it. I think that +some one--that we--I--ought to interfere." + +"My innocent Lucy," said Sir Tom, "how can you interfere? You know +nothing about the tactics of such people. I am very penitent for my +share in the matter. I ought not to have brought so much upon you." + +"Oh, Tom," cried Lucy again, drawing closer to him, eager to anticipate +with her pardon any blame to which he might be liable. And then she +added, returning to her own subject: "She is of English parentage--on +one side." + +Why this fact, so simply stated, should have startled her husband so +much, Lucy could not imagine. He almost gasped as he met her eyes, as if +he had received or feared a sudden blow, and underneath the brownness of +his complexion grew suddenly pale, all the ruddy colour forsaking his +face. "Of English parentage!" he said, faltering, "do you mean?--what do +you mean? Why--do you tell this to me?" + +Lucy was surprised, but saw no significance in his agitation. And her +mind was full of her own purpose. "Because of the will which is against +foreigners," she said simply. "But in that case she would not be a +foreigner, Tom. I think a great deal of this. I want to do it. Oh, don't +oppose me! It makes it so much harder when you go against me." + +He gazed at her with a sort of awe. He did not seem able to speak. What +she had said, though she was unconscious of any special meaning in it, +seemed to have acted upon him like a spell. There was something tragic +in his look which frightened Lucy. She came closer still and put her +hand upon his arm. + +"Oh, it is not to trouble you, Tom; it is not that I want to go against +you! But give me your consent this once. Baby is so fond of her, and she +is so good to him. I want to give something to Bice. Let me make a +provision for her?" she said, pleading. "Do not take all the pleasure +out of it and oppose me. Oh, dear Tom, give me your free consent!" Lucy +cried. + +He kept gazing at her with that look of awe. "Oppose you!" he said. What +was the shock he had received which made him so unlike himself? His very +lips quivered as he spoke. "God forgive me; what have I been doing?" he +cried. "Lucy, I think I will never oppose you more." + + + + +CHAPTER XXXVIII. + +DISCOVERIES. + + +This interview had an agitating and painful effect upon Lucy, though she +could not tell why. It was not what she expected or feared--neither in +one sense nor the other. He had neither distressed her by opposing her +proceedings, nor accepted her beneficence towards the Contessa with +levity and satisfaction, both of which dangers she had been prepared +for. Instead, however, of agitating her by the reception he gave to her +proposal, it was he who was agitated by something which in entire +unconsciousness she had said. But what that could be Lucy could not +divine. She had said nothing that could affect him personally so far as +she knew. She went over every word of the conversation without being +able to discover what could have had this effect. But she could find +nothing, there was no clue anywhere that her unconscious mind could +discover. She concluded finally with much compunction that it was the +implied reproach that he had taken away all pleasure in what she did by +opposing her, that had so disturbed her husband. He was so kind. He had +not been able to bear even the possibility that his opposition had been +a source of pain. "I think I will never oppose you any more." In an +answering burst of generosity Lucy said to herself that she did not +desire this; that she preferred that he should find fault and object +when he disapproved, not consent to everything. But the reflection of +the disturbance she had seen in her husband's countenance was in her +mind all day; she could not shake it off; and he was so grave that every +look she cast at him strengthened the impression. He did not approach +the circle in which the Contessa sat all the evening, but stood apart, +silent, taking little notice of anybody until Mr. Derwentwater secured +his ear, when Sir Tom, instead of his usual genial laugh at MTutor's +solemnities, discharged little caustic criticisms which astonished his +companion. Mr. Derwentwater was going away next day, and he, too, was +preoccupied. After that conversation with Sir Tom, he betook himself to +Lucy, who was very silent too, and doing little for the entertainment of +her guests. He made her sundry pretty speeches, such as are appropriate +from a departing guest. + +"Jock has made up his mind to stay behind," he said. "I am sorry, but I +am not surprised. I shall lose a most agreeable travelling companion; +but, perhaps, home influences are best for the young." + +"I don't know why Jock has changed his mind, Mr. Derwentwater. He wanted +very much to go." + +"He would say that here's metal more attractive," said the tutor with an +offended smile; and then he paused, and, clearing his throat, asked in a +still more evident tone of offence--"Does not your young friend the +Signorina appear again? I thought from her appearance last night that +she was making her _début_." + +"Yes, it was like it," said Lucy. "The Contessa is not like one of us," +she added after a moment. "She has her own ways--and, perhaps, I don't +know--that may be the Italian fashion." + +"Not at all," Mr. Derwentwater said promptly. He was an authority upon +national usages. "But I am afraid it was very transparent what the +Contessa meant," he said, after a pause. + +To this Lucy made no reply, and the tutor, who was sensitive, especially +as to bad taste, reddened at his inappropriate observation. He went on +hastily; "The Signorina--or should I say Mademoiselle di +Forno-Populo?--has a great deal of charm. I do not know if she is so +beautiful as her mother----" + +"Oh, not her mother," cried Lucy quickly, with a smile at the mistake. + +"Is she not her mother? The young lady's face indeed is different. It is +of a higher order--it is full of thought. It is noble in repose. She +does not seem made for these scenes of festivity, if you will pardon me, +Lady Randolph, but for the higher retirements----" + +"Oh, she is very fond of seeing people," said Lucy. "You must not +suppose she is too serious for her age. She enjoyed herself last night." + +"There is no age," said Mr. Derwentwater, "at which one can be too +serious--and especially in youth, when all the world is before one, when +one cannot tell what effect a careless step may have one way or another. +It is just that sweet gravity that charms me. I think she was quite out +of her element, excuse me for saying so, Lady Randolph, last night." + +"Do you think so? Oh, I am afraid not. I am afraid she liked it," said +Lucy. "Jock, don't you think Bice liked it. I should much rather think +not, but I am afraid--I am afraid----" + +"She couldn't like that little cad," said Jock, who had drawn near with +an instinctive sense that something was going on which concerned him. +"But she's never solemn either," added the boy. + +"Is that for me, Jock?" said MTutor, with a pensive gentleness of +reproach. "Well, never mind. We must all put up with little +misunderstandings from the younger generation. Some time or other you +will judge differently. I should like to have had an opportunity again +of such music as we heard last night; but I suppose I must not hope for +it." + +"Oh, do you mean Lord Montjoie's song?" cried one of the young ladies in +blue, who had drawn near. "Wasn't it fun? Of course I know it wasn't to +be compared to the Contessa; but I've no musical taste. I always confess +it--that's Edith's line. But Lord Montjoie _was_ fun. Don't you think +so, dear Lady Randolph," Miss Minnie said. + +Mr. Derwentwater gave her one glance, and retired, Jock following. +"Perhaps that's your opinion too," he said, "that Lord Montjoie's was +fun?" + +"He's a scug," said Jock, laconically, "that's all I think about him." + +Mr. Derwentwater took the lad's arm. "And yet," he said, "Jock, though +you and I consider ourselves his superiors, that is the fellow that will +carry off the prize. Beauty and genius are for him. He must have the +best that humanity can produce. You ought to be too young to have any +feeling on the subject; but it is a humiliating thought." + +"Bice will have nothing to say to him," said Jock, with straightforward +application of the abstract description; but MTutor shook his head. + +"How can we tell the persecutions to which Woman is subject?" he said. +"You and I, Jock, are in a very different position. But we should try to +realise, though it is difficult, those dangers to which she is subject. +Kept indoors," said MTutor, with pathos in his voice, "debarred from all +knowledge of the world, with all the authorities about her leading one +way. How can we tell what is said to her? with a host of petty maxims +preaching down a daughter's heart--strange!" cried Mr. Derwentwater, +with a closer pressure of the boy's arm, "that the most lovely existence +should thus continually be led to link itself with the basest. We must +not blame Woman; we must keep her idea sacred, whatever happens in our +own experience." + +"It always sets one right to talk to you," cried Jock, full of emotion. +"I was a beast to say that." + +"My boy, don't you think I understand the disturbance in your mind?" +with a sigh, MTutor said. + +They had left the drawing-room during the course of this conversation, +and were crossing the hall on the way to the library, when some one +suddenly drew back with a startled movement from the passage which led +to Sir Tom's den. Then there followed a laugh, and "Oh, is it only you!" +after which there came forth a slim shadow, as unlike as possible to the +siren of the previous night. "We have met before, and I don't mind. Is +there any one else coming?" Bice said. + +"Why do you hide and skulk in corners?" cried Jock. "Why shouldn't you +meet any one? Have you done something wrong?" + +This made Bice laugh still more. "You don't understand," she said. + +"Signorina," said Mr. Derwentwater (who was somewhat proud of having +remembered this good abstract title to give to the mysterious girl), "I +am going away to-morrow, and perhaps I shall never hear you again. Your +voice seemed to open the heavenly gates. Why, since you are so good as +to consider us different from the others, won't you sing to us once +more?" + +"Sing?" said Bice, with a little surprise; "but by myself my voice is +not much----" + +"It is like a voice out of heaven," Mr. Derwentwater said fervently. + +"Do you really, really think so?" she said with a wondering look. She +was surprised, but pleased too. "I don't think you would care for it +without the Contessa's; but, perhaps----" Then she looked round her with +a reflective look. "What can I do? There is no piano, and then these +people would hear." After this a sudden idea struck her. She laughed +aloud like a child with sudden glee. "I don't suppose it would be any +harm! You belong to the house--and then there is Marietta. Yes! Come!" +she cried suddenly, rushing up the great staircase and waving her hand +impatiently, beckoning them to follow. "Come quick, quick," she cried; +"I hear some one coming," and flew upstairs. They followed her, Mr. +Derwentwater passing Jock, who hung back a little, and did not know +what to think of this adventure. "Come quick," she cried, darting along +the dimly-lighted corridor with a laugh that rang lightly along like the +music to which her steps were set. "Oh, come in, come in. They will +hear, but they will not know where it comes from." The young men +stupefied, hesitating, followed her. They found themselves among all the +curiosities and luxuries of the Contessa's boudoir. And in a moment Bice +had placed herself at the little piano which was placed across one of +the corners, its back covered with a wonderful piece of Eastern +embroidery which would have invited Derwentwater's attention had he been +able to fix that upon anything but Bice. As it was, he gave a half +regard to these treasures. He would have examined them all with the +devotion of a connoisseur but for her presence, which exercised a spell +still more subtle than that of art. + +The sound of the singing penetrated vaguely even into the drawing-room, +where the Contessa, startled, rose from her seat much earlier than +usual. Lucy, who attended her dutifully upstairs according to her usual +custom, was dismayed beyond measure by seeing Jock and his tutor issue +from that door. Bice came with them, with an air of excitement and +triumphant satisfaction. She had been singing, and the inspiration and +applause had gone to her head. She met the ladies not with the air of a +culprit, but in all the boldness of innocence. "They like to hear me, +even by myself," she cried; "they have listened, as if I had been an +angel." And she clapped her hands with almost childish pleasure. + +"Perhaps they think you are," said the Contessa, who shook her head, yet +smiled with sympathy. "You must not say to these messieurs below that +you have been in my room. Oh, I know the confidences of a smoking-room! +You must not brag, _mes amis_. For Bice does not understand the +_convenances_, nor remember that this is England, where people meet only +in the drawing-room." + +"Divine forgetfulness!" murmured Derwentwater. Jock, for his part, +turned his back with a certain sense of shame. He had liked it, but he +had not thought it right. The room altogether, with its draperies and +mysteries, had conveyed to him a certain intoxication as of wrong-doing. +Something that was dangerous was in the air of it. It was seductive, it +was fascinating; he had felt like a man banished when Bice had started +from the piano and bidden them "Go away; go away!" in the same laughing +tone in which she had bidden them come. But the moment he was outside +the threshold his impulse was to escape--to rush out of sight--and +obliterate even from his own mind the sense that he had been there. To +meet the Contessa, and still more his sister, full in the face, was a +shock to all his susceptibilities. He turned his back upon them, and but +that his fellow-culprit made a momentary stand, would have fled away. +Lucy partook of Jock's feeling. It wounded her to see him at that door. +She gave him a glance of mingled reproach and pity; a vague sense that +these were siren-women dangerous to all mankind stole into her heart. + +But Lucy was destined to a still greater shock. The party from the +smoking-room was late in breaking up. The sound of their steps and +voices as they came upstairs roused Lady Randolph, not from sleep--for +she had been unable to sleep--but from the confused maze of +recollections and efforts to think which distracted her placid soul. She +was not made for these agitations. The constitution of her mind was +overset altogether. The moment that suspicion and distrust came in there +was no further strength in her. She was lying not thinking so much as +remembering stray words and looks which drifted across her memory as +across a dim mirror, with a meaning in them which she did not grasp. She +was not clever. She could not put this and that together with the +dolorous skill which some women possess. It is a skill which does not +promote the happiness of the possessor, but perhaps it is scarcely more +happy to stand in the midst of a vague mass of suggestions without being +able to make out what they mean, which was Lucy's case. She did not +understand her husband's sudden excitement; what it had to do with Bice, +with the Contessa, with her own resolution and plans she could not tell, +but felt vaguely that many things deeply concerning her were in the air, +and was unhappy in the confusion of her thoughts. For a long time after +the sounds of various persons coming upstairs had died away, Lucy lay +silent waiting for her husband's appearance--but at last unable to bear +the vague wretchedness of her thoughts any longer, got up and put on a +dressing-gown and stole out into the dark gallery to go to the nursery +to look at her boy asleep, which was her best anodyne. The lights were +all extinguished except the faint ray that came from the nursery door, +and Lucy went softly towards that, anxious to disturb little Tom by no +sound. As she did so a door suddenly opened, sending a glare of light +into the dark corridor. It was the door of the Contessa's room, and with +the light came Sir Tom, the Contessa herself appearing after him on the +threshold. She was still in her dinner dress, and her appearance +remained long impressed upon Lucy's imagination like a photograph +without colour, in shadow and light. She gave Sir Tom a little packet +apparently of letters, and then she held out both hands to him, which he +took in his. Something seemed to flash through Lucy's heart like a +knife, quivering like the "pale death" of the poet, in sight and sense. +The sudden surprise and pang of it was such for a moment that she seemed +turned into stone, and stood gazing like a spectre in her white flowing +dress, her face more white, her eyes and mouth open in the misery and +trouble of the moment. Then she stole back softly into her room--her +head throbbing, her heart beating--and buried her face in her pillow and +closed her eyes. Even baby could not soothe her in this unlooked-for +pang. And then she heard his step come slowly along the gallery. How was +she to look at him? how listen to him in the shock of such an +extraordinary discovery? She took refuge in a semblance of sleep. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIX. + +LUCY'S DISCOVERY. + + +When it happens to an innocent and simple soul to find out suddenly at a +stroke the falsehood of some one upon whose truth the whole universe +depends, the effect is such as perhaps has never been put forth by any +attempt at psychological investigation. When it happens to a great mind, +we have Hamlet with all the world in ruins round him--all other thoughts +as of revenge or ambition are but secondary and spasmodic, since neither +revenge nor advancement can put together again the works of life or +make man delight him, or woman either. But Lady Randolph was not a +Hamlet. She had no genius, nor even a great intellect to be +unhinged--scarcely mind enough to understand how it was that the glory +had paled out of earth and sky, and all the world seemed different when +she rose from her uneasy bed next morning, pale, after a night without +sleep, in which she had not been able to have even the relief of +restlessness, but had lain motionless, without even a sigh or tear, so +crushed by the unexpected blow that she could neither fathom nor +understand what had happened to her. She was too pure herself to jump at +any thought of gross infidelity. She felt she knew not what--that the +world had gone to pieces--that she did not know how to shape it again +into anything--that she could not look into her husband's face, or +command her voice to speak to him, for shame of the thought that he had +failed in truth. Lucy felt somehow as if she were the culprit. She was +ashamed to look him in the face. She made an early visit to the nursery, +and stayed there pretending various little occupations until she heard +Sir Tom go down stairs. He had returned so much to the old ways, and now +that the house was full, and there were other people to occupy the +Contessa, had shown so clearly (as Lucy had thought) that he was pleased +to be liberated from his attendance upon her, that the cloud that had +risen between them had melted away; and indeed, for some time back, it +had been Lucy who was the Contessa's stay and support, a change at which +Sir Tom had sometimes laughed. All had been well between the husband and +wife during the early part of the season parliamentary, the beginning of +their life in London. Sir Tom had been much engrossed with the cares of +public life, but he had been delightful to Lucy, whose faith in him and +his new occupations was great. And it was exhilarating to think that the +Contessa had secured that little house in Mayfair for her own campaign, +and that something like a new honeymoon was about to begin for the pair, +whose happiness had seemed for a moment to tremble in the balance. Lucy +had been looking forward to the return to London with a more bright and +conscious anticipation of well-being than she had ever experienced. In +the first outset of life happiness seems a necessary of existence. It is +calculated upon without misgiving; it is simple nature, beyond question. +But when the natural "of course" has once been broken, it is with a +warmer glow of content that we see the prospect once more stretching +before us bright as at first and more assured. This is how Lucy had been +regarding her life. It was not so simple, so easy as it once had been, +but the happiness to which she was looking forward, and which she had +already partially entered into possession of, was all the more sweet and +dear, that she had known, or fancied herself about to know, the loss and +absence of it. Now, in a moment, all that fair prospect, that blessed +certainty, was gone. The earth was cut away from under her feet; she +felt everything to be tottering, falling round her, and nothing in all +the universe to lay hold of to prop herself up; for when the pillars of +the world are thus unrooted the heaving of the earthquake and the +falling of the ruins impart a certain vertigo and giddy instability even +to heaven. + +Fletcher, Lucy's maid, who was usually discreet enough, waited upon her +mistress that morning with a certain air of importance, and of knowing +something which she was bursting with eagerness to tell, such as must +have attracted Lady Randolph's attention in any other circumstances. But +Lucy was far too much occupied with what was in her own mind to observe +the perturbation of the maid, who consequently had no resource, since +her mistress would not question her, than to introduce herself the +subject on which she was so anxious to utter her mind. She began by +inquiring if her ladyship had heard the music last night. "The music?" +Lucy said. + +"Oh, my lady, haven't you heard what a singer Miss Beachy has turned +out?" Fletcher cried. + +Lucy, to whom all this seemed dim and far away as if it had happened +years ago, answered with a faint smile--"Yes, she has a lovely voice." + +"It is not my place," said Fletcher, "being only a servant, to make +remarks; but, my lady, if I might make so bold, it do seem to the like +of us an 'orrible thing to take advantage of a young lady like your +ladyship that thinks no harm." + +"You should not make such remarks," said Lucy, roused a little. + +"No, my lady; but still a woman is a woman, even though but a servant. I +said to Mrs. Freshwater I was sure your ladyship would never sanction +it. I never thought that of Miss Beachy, I will allow. I always said she +was a nice young lady; but evil communications, my lady--we all know +what the Bible says. Gentlemen upstairs in her room and her singing to +them, and laughing and talking like as no housemaid in the house as +valued her character would do----" + +"Fletcher," said Lucy, "you must say no more about this. It was Mr. Jock +and Mr. Derwentwater only who were with Miss Bice--and with my +permission," she added after a moment, "as he is going away to-morrow." +Such deceits are so easy to learn. + +"Oh-oh!" Miss Fletcher cried, with a quaver in her voice. "I beg your +pardon, my lady; I'm sure--I thought--there must be something +underneath, and that Miss Beachy would never---- And when she was down +with Sir Thomas in the study it would be the same, my lady?" the woman +said. + +"With Sir Thomas in the study!" The words went vaguely into Lucy's mind. +It had not seemed possible to increase the confusion and misery in her +brain, but this produced a heightening of it, a sort of wave of +bewilderment and pain greater than before, a sense of additional +giddiness and failing. She gave a wave of her hand and said something, +she scarcely knew what, which silenced Fletcher; and then she went down +stairs to the new world. She did not go to the nursery even, as was her +wont; her heart turned from little Tom. She felt that to look at him +would be more than she could bear. There was no deceit in him, no +falsehood--as yet; but perhaps when he grew up he would cheat her too. +He would pretend to love her and betray her trust; he would kiss her, +and then go away and scoff at her; he would smile, and smile, and be a +villain. Such words were not in Lucy's mind, and it was altogether out +of nature that she should even receive the thought: which made it all +the more terrible when it was poured into her soul. And it cannot be +told what discoveries she seemed to make even in the course of that +morning in this strange condition of her mind. There was a haze over +everything, but yet there was an enlightenment even in the haze. She saw +in her little way, as Hamlet saw the falsehood of his courtiers, his +gallant young companions, and the schemes of Polonius, and even Ophelia +in the plot to trap him. She saw how false all these people were in +their civilities, in their extravagant thanks and compliments to her as +they went away; for the Easter recess was just over, and everybody was +going. The mother and her daughters said to her, "Such a delightful +visit, dear Lady Randolph!" with kisses of farewell and wreathed smiles; +and she perceived, somehow by a sort of second sight, that they added to +each other, "Oh, what a bore it has been; nobody worth meeting," and +"how thankful I am it's over!" which was indeed what Miss Minnie and +Miss Edith said. If Lucy had seen a little deeper she would have known +that this too was a sort of conventional falsity which the young ladies +said to each other, according to the fashion of the day, without any +meaning to speak of; but one must have learned a great many lessons +before one comes to that. + +Then Jock, who had been woke up in quite a different way, took leave of +MTutor, that god of his old idolatry, without being able to refrain from +some semblance of the old absorbing affection. + +"I am so sorry you are not coming with me, old fellow," Mr. Derwentwater +said. + +Jock replied, "So am I," with an effort, as if firing a parting volley +in honour of his friend: but then turned gloomily with an expression of +relief. "I'm glad he's gone, Lucy." + +"Then you did not want to go with him, Jock?" + +"I wouldn't have gone for anything. I've just got to that--that I can't +bear him," cried Jock. + +And Lucy, in the midst of the ruins, felt her head go round: though here +too it was the falsehood that was fictitious, had she but known. It is +not, however, in the nature of such a shock that any of those +alleviating circumstances which modify the character of human sentiment +can be taken into account. Lucy had taken everything for gospel in the +first chapter of existence; she had believed what everybody said; and +like every other human soul, after such a discovery as she had made, she +went to the opposite extremity now--not wittingly, not voluntarily--but +the pillars of the earth were shaken, and nothing stood fast. + +They went up to town next day. In the meantime she had little or no +intercourse with the Contessa, who was preparing for the journey and +absorbed in letter-writing, making known to everybody whom she could +think of, the existence of the little house in Mayfair. It is doubtful +whether she so much as observed any difference in the demeanour of her +hostess, having in fact the most unbounded confidence in Lucy, whom she +did not believe capable of any such revulsion of feeling. Bice was more +clear-sighted, but she thought Milady was displeased with her own +proceedings, and sought no further for a cause. And the only thing the +girl could do was to endeavour by all the little devices she could think +of to show the warm affection she really felt for Lucy--a method which +made the heart of Lucy more and more sick with that sense of falsehood +which sometimes rose in her, almost to the height of passion. A woman +who had ever learned to use harsh words, or to whose mind it had ever +been possible to do or say anything to hurt another, would no doubt have +burst forth upon the girl with some reproach or intimation of doubt +which might have cleared the matter so far as Bice went. But Lucy had no +such words at her command. She could not say anything unkind. It was not +in her. She could be silent, indeed, but not even that, so far as to +"hurt the feelings" of her companion. The effect, therefore, was only +that Lucy laboured to maintain a little artificial conversation, which +in its turn reacted upon her mind, showing that even in herself there +was the same disposition to insincerity which she had begun to discover +in the world. She could say nothing to Bice about the matters which a +little while before, when all was well, she had grieved over and +objected to. Now she had nothing to say on such subjects. That the girl +should be set up to auction, that she should put forth all those arts in +which she had been trained, to attract and secure young Montjoie, or any +like him, were things which had passed beyond her sphere. To think of +them rendered her heart more sick, her head more giddy. But if Bice +married some one whom she did not love, that was not so bad as to think +that perhaps she herself all this time had been living with, and loving, +in sacred trust and faith, a man who even by her side was full of +thoughts unknown to her, given to another. Sometimes Lucy closed her +eyes in a sort of sick despair, feeling everything about her go round +and round. But she said nothing to throw any light upon the state of her +being. Sir Tom felt a little gravity--a little distance in his wife; but +he himself was much occupied with a new and painful subject of thought. +And Jock observed nothing at all, being at a stage when man (or boy) is +wholly possessed with affairs of his own. He had his troubles, too. He +was not easy about that breach with his master now that they were +separated. When Bice was kind to him a gleam of triumph, mingled with +pity, made him remorseful towards that earlier friend; and when she was +unkind a bitter sense of fellowship turned Jock's thoughts towards that +sublime ideal of masculine friendship which is above the lighter loves +of women. How can a boy think of his sister when absorbed in such a +mystery of his own?--even if he considered his sister at all as a person +whom it was needful to think about--which he did not, Lucy being herself +one of the pillars of the earth to his unopened eyes. + +All this, however, made no difference in Lucy's determination. She wrote +to Mr. Rushton that very morning, after this revolution in her soul, to +instruct him as to her intentions in respect to Bice, and to her other +trustee in London to request him to see her immediately on her arrival +in Park Lane. Nothing should be changed in that matter, for why, she +said to herself, should Bice suffer because Sir Tom was untrue? It +seemed to her that there was more reason than ever why she should rouse +herself and throw off her inaction. No doubt there were many people whom +she could make, if not happy, yet comfortable. It was comfortable +(everybody said) to have enough of money--to be well off. Lucy had no +experience of what it was to be without it. She thought to herself she +would like to try, to have only what she actually wanted, to cook the +food for her little family, to nurse little Tom all by herself, to live +as the cottagers lived. There was in her mind no repugnance to any of +the details of poverty. Her wealth was an accident; it was the habit of +her race to be poor, and it seemed to Lucy that she would be happier +could she shake off now all those external circumstances which had +grown, like everything else, into falsehoods, giving an appearance of +well-being which did not exist. But other people thought it well to have +money, and it was her duty to give it. A kind of contempt rose within +her for all that withheld her previously. To avoid her duty because it +would displease Sir Tom--what was that but falsehood too? All was +falsehood, only she had never seen it before. + +They reached town in the afternoon of a sweet April day, the sky aglow +with a golden sunset, against which the trees in the park stood out with +their half-developed buds: and all the freshness of the spring was in +the long stretches of green, and the softened jubilee of sound to which +somehow, as the air warms towards summer, the voices of the world +outside tune themselves. The Contessa and Bice in great spirits and +happiness, like two children home from school, had left the Randolph +party at the railway, to take possession of the little house in Mayfair. +They had both waved their hands from the carriage window and called out, +"Be sure you come and see us," as they drove away. "You will come +to-night," they had stipulated with Sir Tom and Jock. It was like a new +toy which filled them with glee. Could it be possible that those two +adventurers going off to their little temporary home with smiles so +genuine, with so simple a delight in their new beginning, were not, in +their strange way, innocent, full of guile and shifts as one was, and +the other so apt a scholar? Lucy would have joined in all this pleasure +two days ago, but she could not now. She went home to her luxurious +house, where all was ready, as if she had not been absent an hour. How +wonderfully wealth smooths away the inconveniences of change! and how +little it has to do, Lucy thought, with the comfort of the soul! No need +for any exertion on her part, any scuffling for the first arrival, any +trouble of novelty. She came from the Hall to London without any sense +of change. Had she been compelled to superintend the arrangement of her +house, to make it habitable, to make it pretty, that would have done her +good. But the only thing for her to do was to see Mr. Chervil, her +trustee, who waited upon her according to her request, and who, after +the usual remonstrances, took her instructions about the gift to Bice +very unwillingly, but still with a forced submission. "If I cannot make +you see the folly of it, Lady Randolph, and if Sir Thomas does not +object, I don't know what more is to be said." "There is nothing more to +be said," Lucy said, with a smile; but there was this difficulty in the +proceeding which she had not thought of, that Bice's name all this time +was unknown to her--Beatrice di Forno-Populo, she supposed, but the +Contessa had never called her so, and it was necessary to be exact, Mr. +Chervil said. He hailed this as an occasion of delay. He was not so +violent as he had been on previous occasions when Lucy was young; and he +did not, like Mr. Rushton, assume the necessity of speaking to Sir Tom. +Mr. Chervil was a London solicitor, and knew very little about Sir Tom. +But he was glad to seize upon anything that was good for a little delay. + +After this interview was over it was a mingled vexation and relief to +Lucy to see the Dowager drive up to the door. Lady Randolph the elder +was always in London from the first moment possible. She preferred the +first bursting of the spring in the squares and parks. She liked to see +her friends arrive by degrees, and to feel that she had so far the +better of them. She came in, full as she always was of matter, with a +thousand things to say. "I have come to stay to dinner, if you will have +me," she said, "for of course Tom will be going out in the evening. They +are always so glad to get back to their life." And it was, perhaps, a +relief to have Lady Randolph to dinner, to be saved from the purely +domestic party, to which Jock scarcely added any new element; but it was +hard for Lucy to encounter even the brief questionings which were +addressed to her in the short interval before dinner. "So you have got +rid of that woman at last," Lady Randolph said; "I hear she has got a +house in Mayfair." + +"Yes, Aunt Randolph, if you mean the Contessa," said Lucy. + +"And that she intends to make a bold _coup_ to get the girl off her +hands. These sort of people so often succeed: I shouldn't wonder if she +were to succeed. I always said the girl would be handsome, but I think +she might have waited another year." + +To this Lucy made no reply, and it was necessary for the Dowager to +carry on the conversation, so to speak, at her own cost. + +"I hope most earnestly, Lucy," she said, "that now you have got clear of +them you will not mix yourself up with them again. You were placed in an +uneasy position, very difficult to get out of, I will allow; but now +that you have shaken them off, and they have proved they can get on +without you, don't, I entreat you, mix yourself up with them again." + +Lucy could not keep the blood from mounting, and colouring her face. She +had always spoken of the Contessa calmly before. She tried to keep her +composure now. "Dear Aunt Randolph, I have not shaken them off. They +have gone away of themselves, and how can I refuse to see them? There is +to be a party here for them on the 26th." + +"Oh, my dear, my dear, that was very imprudent! I had hoped you would +keep clear of them in London. It is one thing showing kindness to an old +friend in the country, and it is quite another----" + +Here Lucy made an imperative gesture, almost commanding silence. Sir Tom +was coming into the room. She was seated in the great bay window +against the early twilight, the soft radiance of which dazzled the eyes +of the elder lady, and prevented her from perceiving her nephew's +approach. But Lady Randolph, before she rose to meet him, gave a +startled look at Lucy. "Have you found it out, then?" she said +involuntarily, in her great surprise. + + + + +CHAPTER XL. + +THE DOWAGER'S EXPLANATION. + + +The Dowager was a woman far more clever than Lucy, who knew the world. +And she was apt perhaps, instead of missing the meaning of the facts +around her, to put too much significance in them. Now, when the little +party met at dinner, Lady Randolph saw in the faces of both husband and +wife more than was there, though much was there. Sir Tom was more grave +than became a man who had returned into life, as his aunt said, and was +looking forward to resuming the better part of existence--the House, the +clubs, the quick throb of living which is in London. His countenance was +full of thought, and there was both trouble and perplexity in it, but +not the excitement which the Dowager supposed she found there, and those +signs of having yielded to an evil influence which eyes accustomed to +the world are so ready to discover. Lucy for her part was pale and +silent. She had little to say, and scarcely addressed her husband at +all. Lady Randolph, and that was very natural, took those signs of heart +sickness for tokens of complete enlightenment, for the passion of a +woman who had entered upon that struggle with another woman for a man's +love which, even when the man is her husband, has something degrading in +it. There had been a disclosure, a terrible scene, no doubt, a stirring +up of all the passions, Lady Randolph thought. No doubt that was the +reason why the Contessa had loosed her clutches, and left the house free +of her presence; but Lucy was still trembling after the tempest, and had +not learned to take any pleasure in her victory. This was the conclusion +of the woman of the world. + +The dinner was not a lengthy one, and the ladies went upstairs again, +with a suppressed constraint, each anxious to know what the other was on +her guard not to tell. They sat alone expectant for some time, making +conversation, taking their coffee, listening, and watching each how the +other listened, for the coming of the gentlemen, or rather for Sir Tom; +for Jock, in his boyish insignificance, counted for little. The trivial +little words that passed between them during this interval were charged +with a sort of moral electricity, and stung and tingled in the too +conscious silence. At length, after some time had elapsed: "I am glad I +came," said Lady Randolph, "to sit with you, Lucy, this first evening; +for of course Tom cannot resist, the first evening in town, the charms +of his club." + +"His club! Oh, I think he has gone to see the house," Lucy said. "He +promised----; it is not very far off." + +"The house? You mean that woman's house. Lucy, I have no patience with +you any more than I have with Tom. Why don't you put a stop to it? why +don't you--for I suppose you have found out what sort of a woman she is +by this time, and why she came here?" + +"She came----to introduce Bice and establish her in the world," Lucy +said, in a faint tone. "Oh! Aunt Randolph, please do not let us discuss +it! It is not what I like to think of. Bice will be sacrificed to the +first rich man who asks her; or at least that is what the Contessa +means." + +"My dear Lucy," said the Dowager, calmly, "that is reasonable enough. I +wish the Contessa meant no worse than that. Most girls are persuaded to +marry a rich man if he asks them. I don't think so much of that. But it +will not be so easy as she thinks," the Dowager added. "It is true that +beauty does much--but not everything; and a girl in that position, with +no connections, or, at least, none that she would not be better +without----" + +Lucy's attention strayed from this question, which once had been so +important, and which now seemed so secondary; but the conversation must +be maintained. She said at random: "She has a beautiful voice." + +"Has she? And the Contessa herself sings very well. That will no doubt +be another attraction," said Lady Randolph, in her impartial way. "But +the end of it all is, who will she get to go, and who will invite them? +It is vain to lay snares if there is nothing to be caught." + +"They will be invited--here," said Lucy, faltering a little. "I told you +I am to have a great gathering on the 26th." + +"I could not believe my ears. You!--and she is to appear here for the +first time to make her _début_. Good heavens, Lucy! What can I say to +you--_that_ girl!" + +"Why not, Aunt Randolph?" said Lucy (oh, what does it matter--what does +it matter, that she should make so much fuss about it? she was saying +in herself); "I have always liked Bice, and she has been very good to +little Tom." + +"Well," cried the angry lady, forgetting herself, and smiling the fierce +smile of wrath, "there is no doubt that it is perfectly appropriate--the +very thing that ought to happen if we lived according to the rules of +nature, without thought of conventionalities and decorums, and so +forth--oh, perfectly appropriate! If you don't object I know no one who +has any right to say a word." + +Even now Lucy was scarcely roused enough to be surprised by the +vehemence of these words. "Why should I object?" she said; "or why +should any one say a word?" Her calm, which was almost indifference, +excited Lady Randolph more and more. + +"You are either superhuman," she said, with exasperation, "or you +are---- Lucy, I don't know what words to use. You put one out of every +reckoning. You are like nobody I ever knew before. Why should you +object? Why, good heavens! you are the only person that has any +right---- Who should object if not you?" + +"Aunt Randolph," said Lucy, rousing herself with an effort, "would you +please tell me plainly what you mean? I am not clever. I can't make +things out. I have always liked Bice. To save her from being made a +victim I am going to give her some of the money under my father's +will--and if I could give her---- What is the matter?" she cried, +stopping short suddenly, and in spite of herself growing pale. + +Lady Randolph flung up her hands in dismay. She gave something like a +shriek as she exclaimed: "And Tom is letting you do this?" with horror +in her tone. + +"He has promised that he will not oppose," Lucy said; "but why do you +speak so, and look so? Bice--has done no harm." + +"Oh, no; Bice has done no harm," cried Lady Randolph bitterly; "nothing, +except being born, which is harm enough, I think. But do you mean to +tell me, Lucy, that Tom--a man of honour, notwithstanding all his +vagaries--Tom----lets you do this and never says a word? Oh, it is too +much. I have always stood by him. I have been his support when every one +else failed. But this is too much, that he should put the burden upon +you--that he should make _you_ responsible for this girl of his----" + +"Aunt Randolph!" cried Lucy, rising up quickly and confronting the angry +woman. She put up her hand with a serious dignity that was doubly +impressive from her usual simpleness. "What is it you mean? This girl of +his! I do not understand. She is not much more than a child. You cannot, +cannot suppose that Bice--that it is she--that she is----" Here she +suddenly covered her face with her hands. "Oh, you put things in my mind +that I am ashamed to think of," Lucy cried. + +"I mean," said Lady Randolph, who in the heat of this discussion had got +beyond her own power of self-restraint, "what everybody but yourself +must have seen long ago. That woman is a shameless woman, but even she +would not have had the effrontery to bring any other girl to your house. +It was more shameless, I think, to bring that one than any other; but +she would not think so. Oh, cannot you see it even now? Why, the +likeness might have told you; that was enough. The girl is Tom's girl. +She is your husband's----" + +Lucy uncovered her face, which was perfectly colourless, with eyes +dilated and wide open. "What?" she whispered, looking intently into Lady +Randolph's face. + +"His own child--his--daughter--though I am bitterly ashamed to say it," +the Dowager said. + +For a moment everything seemed to waver and turn round in Lucy's eyes, +as if the walls were making a circuit with her in giddy space. Then she +came to her feet with the sensation of a shock, and found herself +standing erect, with the most amazing incomprehensible sense of relief. +Why should she have felt relieved by this communication which filled her +companion with horror? A softer air seemed to breathe about Lucy, she +felt solid ground under her feet. For the first moment there seemed +nothing but ease and sweet soothing and refreshment in what she heard. + +"His--daughter?" she said. Her mind went back with a sudden flash upon +the past, gathering up instantaneously pieces of corroborative evidence, +things which she had not noted at the moment, which she had forgotten, +yet which came back nevertheless when they were needed: the Contessa's +mysterious words about Bice's parentage, her intimation that Lucy would +one day be glad to have befriended her: Sir Tom's sudden agitation when +she had told him of Bice's English descent: finally, and most conclusive +of all, touching Lucy with a most unreasonable conviction and bringing a +rush of warm feeling to her heart, Baby's adoption of the girl and +recommendation of her to his mother. Was it not the voice of nature, the +voice of God? Lucy had no instinctive sense of recoil, no horror of the +discovery. She did not realise the guilt involved, nor was she painfully +struck, as some women might have been, by this evidence of her husband's +previous life "If it is so," she said quietly, "there is more reason +than ever, Aunt Randolph, that I should do everything I can for Bice. It +never came into my mind before. I see now--various things: but I do not +see why it should--make me unhappy," she added with a faint smile which +brought the water to her eyes; "it must have been--long before I knew +him. Will you tell me who was her mother? Was she a foreigner? Did she +die long ago?" + +"Oh, Lucy, Lucy," cried Lady Randolph, "is it possible you don't see? +Who would take all that trouble about her? Who would burden themselves +with another woman's girl that was no concern of theirs? Who +would--can't you see? can't you see?" + +There came over Lucy's face a hot and feverish flush. She grew red to +her hair, agitation and shame took possession of her; something seemed +to throb and swell as if it would burst in her forehead. She could not +speak. She could not look at her informant for shame of the revelation +that had been made. All the bewildered sensations which for the moment +had been stilled in her breast sprang up again with a feverish whirl and +tumult. She tottered back to the chair on which she had been sitting and +dropped down upon it, holding by it as if that were the only thing in +the world secure and steadfast. It was only now that Lady Randolph +seemed to awake to the risks and dangers of this bold step she had +taken. She had roused the placid soul at last. To what strange agony, to +what revenge might she have roused it? She had looked for tears and +misery, and fleeting rage and mad jealousy. But Lucy's look of utter +giddiness and overthrow alarmed her more than she could say. + +"Lucy! Oh, my love, you must recollect, as you say, that it was all +long before he knew you--that there was no injury to you!" + +Lucy made a movement with her hand to bar further discussion, but she +could not say anything. She pointed Lady Randolph to her chair, and made +that mute prayer for silence, for no more. But in such a moment of +excitement there is nothing that is more difficult to grant than this. + +"Oh, Lucy," the Dowager cried, "forgive me! Perhaps I ought not to have +said anything. Oh, my dear, if you will but think what a painful +position it was for me. To see you so unsuspicious, ready to do +anything, and even Tom taking advantage of you. It is not more than a +week since I found it all out, and how could I keep silence? Think what +a painful position it was for me." + +Lucy made no reply. There seemed nothing but darkness round her. She put +out her hand imploring that no more might be said; and though there was +a great deal more said, she scarcely made out what it was. Her brain +refused to take in any more. She suffered herself to be kissed and +blessed, and said good-night to, almost mechanically. And when the elder +lady at last went away, Lucy sat where Lady Randolph had left her, she +did not know how long, gazing woefully at the ruins of that crumbled +world which had all fallen to pieces about her. All was to pieces now. +What was she and what was the other? Why should she be here and not the +other? Two, were there?--two with an equal claim upon him? Was +everything false, even the law, even the external facts which made her +Tom's wife. He had another wife and a child. He was two, he was not one +true man; one for baby and her, another for Bice and the Contessa. When +she heard her husband coming in Lucy fled upstairs like a hunted thing, +and took refuge in the nursery where little Tom was sleeping. Even her +bourgeoise horror of betraying herself, of letting the servants suspect +that anything was wrong, had no effect upon her to-night. + + + + +CHAPTER XLI. + +SEVERED. + + +Sir Tom came home later, so much later than he intended that he entered +the house with such a sense of compunction as had not visited him since +the days when the alarm of being caught was a part of the pleasure. He +had no fear of a lecture from Lucy, whose gifts were not of that kind; +but he was partially conscious of having neglected her on her first +night in town, as well as having sinned against her in matters more +serious. And he did not know how to explain his detention at the +Contessa's new house, or the matters which he had been discussing there. +It was a sensible relief to him not to find her in any of the +sitting-rooms, all dark and closed up, except his own room, in which +there was no trace of her. She had gone to bed, which was so sensible, +like Lucy's unexaggerated natural good sense: he smiled to +himself--though, at the same time, a wondering question within himself, +whether she felt at all, passed through his mind--a reflection full of +mingled disappointment and satisfaction. But when, a full hour after his +return, after a tranquil period of reflection, he went leisurely +upstairs, expecting to find her peacefully asleep, and found her not, +nor any evidence that she had ever been there, a great wave of alarm +passed over the mind of Sir Tom. He paused confounded, looking at her +vacant place, startled beyond expression. "Lucy!" he cried, looking in +his dismay into every corner, into his own dressing-room, and even into +the large wardrobe where her dresses hung, like shells and husks, which +she had laid aside. And then he made an agitated pause, standing in the +middle of the room, not knowing what to think. It was by this time about +two in the morning; the middle of the night, according to Lucy. Where +could she have gone? Then he bethought himself with an immediate relief, +which was soon replaced by poignant anxiety, of the only possible reason +for her absence--a reason which would explain everything--little Tom. +When this thought occurred to him all the excitement that had been in +Sir Tom's mind disappeared in a moment, and he thought of nothing but +that baby lying, perhaps tossing uneasily, upon his little bed, his +mother watching over him; most sacred group on earth to him, who, +whatever his faults might be, loved them both dearly. He took a candle +in his hand and, stepping lightly, went up the stairs to the nursery +door. There was no sound of wailing within, no pitiful little cry to +tell the tale; all was still and dark. He tried the door softly, but it +would not open. Then another terror awoke, and for the moment took his +breath from him. What had happened to the child? Sir Tom suffered enough +at this moment to have expiated many sins. There came upon him a vision +of the child extended motionless upon his bed, and his mother by him +refusing to be comforted. What could it mean? The door looked as if hope +had departed. He knocked softly, yet imperatively, divided between the +horror of these thoughts and the gentle every-day sentiment which +forbade any noise at little Tom's door. It was some time before he got +any reply--a time which seemed to him interminable. Then he suddenly +heard Lucy's voice close to the door whispering. There had been no sound +of any footsteps. Had she been there all the time listening to all his +appeals and taking no notice? + +"Open the door," he said anxiously. "Speak to me. What is the matter? Is +he ill? Have you sent for the doctor? Let me in." + +"We are all shut up and settled for the night," said Lucy, through the +door. + +"Shut up for the night? Has he been very ill?" Sir Tom cried. + +"Oh, hush, you will wake him; no, not very ill: but I am going to stay +with him," said the voice inside with a quiver in it. + +"Lucy, what does this mean? You are concealing something from me. Have +you had the doctor? Good God, tell me. What is the matter? Can't I see +my boy?" + +"There is nothing--nothing to be alarmed about," said Lucy from within. +"He is asleep--he is--doing well. Oh! go to bed and don't mind us. I am +going to stay with him." + +"Don't mind you? that is so easy," he cried, with a broken laugh; then +the silence stealing to his heart, he cried out, "Is the child----?" But +Sir Tom could not say the word. He shivered, standing outside the closed +door. The mystery seemed incomprehensible, save on the score of some +great calamity. The bitterness of death went over him; but then he asked +himself what reason there could be to conceal from him any terrible +sudden blow. Lucy would have wanted him in such a case, not kept him +from her. In this dread moment of sudden panic he thought of everything +but the real cause, which made a more effectual barrier between them +than that closed door. + +"He is well enough now," said Lucy's voice, coming faintly out of the +darkness. "Oh, indeed, there is nothing the matter. Please go away; go +to bed. It is so late. I am going to stay with him." + +"Lucy," said Sir Tom, "I have never been shut out before. There is +something you are concealing from me. Let me see him and then you shall +do as you please." + +There was a little pause, and then slowly, reluctantly, Lucy opened the +door. She was still fully dressed as she had been for dinner. There was +not a particle of colour in her face. Her eyes had a scared look and +were surrounded by wide circles, as if the orbit had been hollowed out. +She stood aside to let him pass without a word. The room in which little +Tom slept was an inner room. There was scarcely any light in either, +nothing but the faint glimmer of the night-lamp. The sleeping-room was +hushed and full of the most tranquil quiet, the regular soft breathing +of the sleeping child in his little bed, and of his nurse by him, who +was as completely unaware as he of any intrusion. Sir Tom stole in and +looked at his boy, in the pretty baby attitude of perfect repose, his +little arms thrown up over his head. The anxiety vanished from his +heart, but not the troubled sense of something wrong, a mystery which +altogether baffled him. Mystery had no place here in this little +sanctuary of innocence. But what did it mean? He stole out again to +where Lucy stood, scared and silent in her white dress, with a jewelled +pendant at her neck which gleamed strangely in the half light. + +"He seems quite well now. What was it, and why are you so anxious?" he +asked. "Did the doctor----" + +"There was no need for a doctor. It is only--myself. I must stay with +him, he might want me----" And nobody else does, Lucy was about to say, +but pride and modesty restrained her. Her husband looked at her +earnestly. He perceived with a curious pang of astonishment that she +drew away from him, standing as far off as the limited space permitted +and avoiding his eye. + +"I don't understand it," he said; "there is something underneath; either +he has been more ill than you will let me know, or--there is something +else----" + +She gave him no answering look, made no wondering exclamation what could +there be else? as he had hoped; but replied hurriedly, as she had done +before, "I want to stay with him. I must stay with him for to-night----" + +It was with the most extraordinary sense of some change, which he could +not fathom or divine, that Sir Tom consented at last to leave his wife +in the child's room and go to his own. What did it mean? What had +happened to him, or was about to happen? He could not explain to himself +the aspect of the slight little youthful figure in her airy white dress, +with the diamonds still at her throat, careless of the hour and time, +standing there in the middle of the night, shrinking away from him, +forlorn and wakeful with her scared eyes. At this hour on ordinary +occasions Lucy was fast asleep. When she came to see her boy, if society +had kept her up late, it was in the ease of a dressing-gown, not with +any cold glitter of ornaments. And to see her shrink and draw herself +away in that strange repugnance from his touch and shadow confounded +him. He was not angry, as he might have been in another case, but +pitiful to the bottom of his heart. What could have come to Lucy? Half +a dozen times he turned back on his way to his room. What meaning could +she have in it? What could have happened to her? Her manifest shrinking +from him had terrified him, and filled his mind with confusion. But +controversy of any kind in the child's room at the risk of waking him in +the middle of the night was impossible, and no doubt, he tried to say to +himself, it must be some panic she had taken, some sudden alarm for the +child, justified by reasons which she did not like to explain to him +till the morning light restored her confidence. Women were so, he had +often heard: and the women he had known in his youth had certainly been +so--unreasoning creatures, subject to their imagination, taking fright +when no occasion for fright was, incapable of explaining. Lucy had never +been like this; but yet Lucy, though sensible, was a woman too, and if +it is not permitted to a woman to take an unreasoning panic about her +only child, she must be hardly judged indeed. Sir Tom was not a hard +judge. When he got over the painful sense that there must be something +more in this than met the eye, he was half glad to find that Lucy was +like other women--a dear little fool, not always sensible. He thought +almost the better of her for it, he said to himself. She would laugh +herself at her panic, whatever it was, when little Tom woke up fresh and +fair in the morning light. + +With this idea he did what he could to satisfy himself. The situation +was strange, unprecedented in his experience; but he had many subjects +of thought on his own part which returned to his mind as the surprise of +the moment calmed down. He had a great deal to think about. Old +difficulties which seemed to have passed away for long years were now +coming back again to embarrass and confuse him. "Our pleasant vices are +made the whips to scourge us," he said to himself. The past had come +back to him like the opening of a book, no longer merely frivolous and +amusing, as in the Contessa's talk, touched with all manner of light +emotions, but bitter, with tragedy in it, and death and desolation. +Death and life: he had heard enough of the dead to make them seem alive +again, and of the living to confuse their identity altogether; but he +had not yet succeeded in clearing up the doubt which had been thrown +into his mind. That question about Bice's parentage, "English on one +side," tormented him still. He had made again an attempt to discover the +truth, and he had been foiled. The probabilities seemed all in favour of +the solution which at the first word had presented itself to him; but +still there was a chance that it might not be so. + +His mind had been full and troubled enough, when he returned to the +still house, and thought with compunction how many thoughts which he +could not share with her he was bringing back to Lucy's side. He could +not trust them to her, or confide in her, and secure her help, as in +many other circumstances he would have done without hesitation. But he +could not do that in this case,--not so much because she was his wife, +as because she was so young, so innocent, so unaware of the +complications of existence. How could she understand the temptations +that assail a young man in the heyday of life, to whom many indulgences +appear permissible or venial, which to her limited and innocent soul +would seem unpardonable sins? To live even for a few years with a +stainless nature like that of Lucy, in whom there was not even so much +knowledge as would make the approaches of vice comprehensible, is a new +kind of education to the most experienced of men. He had not believed it +to be possible to be so altogether ignorant of evil as he had found her; +and how could he explain to her and gain her indulgent consideration of +the circumstances which had led him into what in her vocabulary would be +branded with the name of vice? Sir Tom even now did not feel it to be +vice. It was unfortunate that it had so happened. He had been a fool. It +was almost inconceivable to him now how for the indulgence of a +momentary passion he could have placed himself in a position that might +one day be so embarrassing and disagreeable. He had not behaved ill at +the moment; it was the woman who had behaved ill. But how in the name of +wonder to explain all this to Lucy? Lucy, who was not conscious of any +reason why a man's code of morals should be different from that of a +woman! When Sir Tom returned to this painful and difficult subject, the +immediate question as to Lucy's strange conduct died from his mind. It +became more easy, by dint of repeating it, to believe that a mere +unreasonable panic about little Tom was the cause of her withdrawal. It +was foolish, but a loving and lovely foolishness which a man might do +more than forgive, which he might adore and smile at, as men love to do, +feeling that for a woman to be thus silly is desirable, a counterpoise +to the selfishness and want of feeling which are so common in the world. +But how to make this spotless creature understand that a man might slip +aside and yet not be a dissolute man, that he might be betrayed into +certain proceedings which would not perhaps bear the inspection of +severe judges, and yet be neither vicious nor heartless. This problem, +after he had considered it in every possible way, Sir Tom finally gave +up with a sort of despair. He must keep his secret within his own bosom. +He must contrive some means of doing what, in case his hypothesis was +right, would now be clearly a duty, without exciting any suspicion on +Lucy's part. That, he thought with a compunction, would be easy enough. +There was no one whom it would cost less trouble to deceive. With these +thoughts he went to sleep in the room which seemed strangely lonely +without her presence. Perhaps, however, it was not ungrateful to him to +be alone to think all those thoughts without the additional sense of +treachery which must have ensued had he thought them in her presence. +There was no treachery. He had been all along, he thought to himself, a +man somewhat sinned against in the matter. To be sure it was +wrong--according to all rules of morals, it was necessary to admit this; +but not more wrong, not so much wrong, as most other men had been. And, +granting the impropriety of that first step, he had nothing to reproach +himself with afterwards. In that respect he knew he had behaved both +liberally and honourably, though he had been deceived. But +how--how--good heavens!--explain this to Lucy? In the silence of her +room, where she was not, he actually laughed out to himself at the +thought; laughed with a sense of all impossibility beyond all laws or +power of reasoning. What miracle would make her understand? It would be +easier to move the solid earth than to make her understand. + +But it was altogether a very strange night--such a night as never had +been passed in that house before; and fearful things were about in the +darkness, ill dreams, strange shadows of trouble. When Sir Tom woke in +the morning and found no sign that his wife had been in the room or any +trace of her, there arose once more a painful apprehension in his mind. +He hurried half-dressed to the nursery to ask for news of the child, but +was met by the nurse with the most cheerful countenance, with little Tom +holding by her skirts, in high spirits, and fun of babble and glee. + +"He has had a good night, then?" the father said aloud, lifting the +little fellow to his shoulder. + +"An excellent night, Sir Thomas," the woman said, "and not a bit tired +with his journey, and so pleased to see all the carriages and the folks +passing." + +Sir Tom put the boy down with a cloud upon his face. + +"What was the cause, then, of Lady Randolph's anxiety last night?" + +"Anxiety, Sir Thomas! Oh no; her ladyship was quite pleased. She do +always say he is a regular little town-bird, and always better in +London. And so she said when I was putting of him to sleep. And he never +stirred, not from the moment he went off till six o'clock this morning, +the darling. I do think now, Sir Thomas, as we may hope he's taken hold +of his strength." + +Sir Tom turned away with a blank countenance. What did it mean, then? He +went back to his dressing-room, and completed his toilette without +seeing anything of Lucy. The nurse seemed quite unconscious of her +mistress's vigil by the baby's side. Where, then, had Lucy passed the +night, and why taken refuge in that nursery? Sir Tom grew pale, and saw +his own countenance white and full of trouble, as if it had been a +stranger's, in the glass. He hurried downstairs to the breakfast-room, +into which the sun was shining. There could not have been a more +cheerful sight. Some of the flowers brought up from the Hall were on the +table; there was a merry little fire burning; the usual pile of +newspapers were arranged for him by Williams's care, who felt himself a +political character too, and understood the necessity of seeing what the +country was thinking. Jock stood at the window with a book, reading and +watching the changeful movements outside. But the chair at the head of +the table was vacant. "Have you seen Lucy?" he said to Jock, with an +anxiety which he could scarcely disguise. At this moment she came in, +very guilty, very pale, like a ghost. She gave him no greeting, save a +sort of attempt at a smile and warning look, calling his attention to +Williams, who had followed her into the room with that one special dish +which the butler always condescended to place on the table. Sir Tom sat +down to his newspapers confounded, not knowing what to think or to say. + + + + +CHAPTER XLII. + +LADY RANDOLPH WINDS UP HER AFFAIRS. + + +Lucy contrived somehow to elude all private intercourse with her husband +that morning. She was not alone with him for a moment. To his question +about little Tom and her anxiety of last night she made as slight an +answer as possible. "Nurse tells me he is all right." "He is quite well +this morning," Lucy replied with quiet dignity, as if she did not limit +herself to nurse's observations. She talked a little to Jock about his +school and how long the holidays lasted, while Sir Tom retired behind +the shield of his newspapers. He did not get much benefit from them that +morning, or instruction as to what the country was thinking. He was so +much more curious to know what his wife was thinking, that simple +little girl who knew no evil. The most astute of men could not have +perplexed Sir Tom so much. It seemed to him that something must have +happened, but what? What was there that any one could betray to her? not +the discovery that he himself thought he had made. That was impossible. +If any one else had known it he surely must have known it. It could not +be anything so unlikely as that. + +But Lucy gave him no opportunity of inquiring. She went away to see the +housekeeper, to look after her domestic affairs; and then Sir Tom made +sure he should find her in the nursery, whither he took his way, when he +thought he had left sufficient time for her other occupations. But Lady +Randolph was not there. He heard from Fletcher, whose disturbed +countenance seemed to reflect his own, that her mistress had gone out. +She was the only one of the household who shared his certainty that +something had happened out of the ordinary routine. Fletcher knew that +her mistress had not undressed in the usual way; that she had not gone +to bed. Her own services had not been required either in the morning or +evening, and she had a strong suspicion that Lady Randolph had passed +the night on a sofa in the little morning-room upstairs. To Fletcher's +mind it was not very difficult to account for this. Quarrels between +husband and wife are common enough. But her consciousness and +sympathetic significance of look struck Sir Tom with a troubled sense of +the humour of the situation which broke the spell of his increasing +agitation, if but for a moment. It was droll to think that Fletcher +should be in a manner his confidant, the only participator in his woes. + +Lucy had gone out half to avoid her husband, half with a determination +to expedite the business which she had begun, with very different +feelings the day before. The streets were very gay and bright on that +April morning, with all the quickening of life which many arrivals and +the approach of the season, with all its excitements, brings. Houses +were opening up, carriages coming out, even the groups of children and +nurse-maids in the Park making a sensible difference on the other side +of the great railing. It was very unusual for her to find herself in the +streets alone, and this increased the curious dazed sensation with which +she went out among all these real people, so lively and energetic, while +she was still little more than a dream-woman, possessed by one thought, +moving along, she knew not how, with a sense of helplessness and +unprotectedness, which made the novelty all the more sensible to her. +She went on for what seemed to be a long time, following mechanically +the line of the pavement, without knowing what she was doing, along the +long course of Park Lane, and then into the cheerful bustle of +Piccadilly, where, with a sense of morning ease and leisure, not like +the artificiality of the afternoon, so many people were coming and +going, all occupied in business of their own, though so different from +the bustle of more absorbing business, the haste and obstruction of the +city. Lucy was not beautiful enough or splendid enough to attract much +attention from the passers-by in the streets, though one or two +sympathetic and observant wayfarers were caught by the look of trouble +in her face. She had never walked about London, and she did not know +where she was going. But she did not think of this. She thought only on +one subject,--about her husband and that other life which he had, of +which she knew nothing, which might, for anything she could tell, have +been going on side by side with the life she knew and shared. This was +the point upon which Lucy's mind had given way. The revelation as to +Bice had startled and shaken her soul to its foundations; but after the +shock things had fallen into their place again, and she had felt no +anger, though much pain and pity. Her mind had thrown itself back into +the unknown past almost tenderly towards the mother who had died long +ago, to whom perhaps Bice had been what little Tom was now to herself. +But when the further statement reached her ears all that softening which +seemed to have swept over her disappeared in a moment. A horrible +bewilderment had seized her. Was he two men, with two wives, two lives, +two children dear to him? + +It is usual to talk of women as being the most severe judges of each +other's failures in one particular at least, an accusation which no +doubt is true of both sexes, though generally applied, like so many +universal truths, to one. And an injured wife is a raging fury in those +primitive characterisations which are so common in the world. But the +ideas which circled like the flakes in a snowstorm through the mind of +Lucy were of a kind incomprehensible to the vulgar critic who judges +humanity in the general. Her ways of thinking, her modes of judging were +as different as possible from those of minds accustomed to +generalisation and lightly acquainted with the vices of the world. Lucy +knew no general; she knew three persons involved in an imbroglio so +terrible that she saw no way out of it. Herself, her husband, another +woman. Her mind was the mind almost of a child. It had resisted all that +dismal information which the chatter of society conveys. She knew that +married people were "not happy" sometimes. She knew that there were +wretched stories of which she held that they could not be true. She was +of Desdemona's mind, and did not believe that there was any such woman. +And when she was suddenly strangely brought face to face with a tragedy +of her own, that was not enough to turn this innocent and modest girl +into a raging Eleanor. She was profoundly reasonable in her simple way, +unapt to blame; thinking no evil, and full of those prepossessions and +fixed canons of innocence which the world-instructed are incapable not +only of understanding, but of believing in the existence of. A +connection between a man and a woman was to her, in one way or other, a +marriage. Into the reasons, whatever they might have been, that could +have brought about any such connection without the rites that made it +sacred, she could not penetrate or inquire. It was a subject too +terrible, from which her mind retreated with awe and incomprehension. +Never could it, she felt, have been intended so, at least on the woman's +side. The mock marriage of romance, the deceits practised on the stage +and in novels upon the innocent, she believed in without hesitation, +everything in the world being more comprehensible than impurity. There +might be villainous men, betrayers, seducers, Lucy could not tell; there +might be monsters, griffins, fiery dragons, for anything she knew; but a +woman abandoned by all her natural guard of modesties and reluctances, +moved by passion, capable of being seduced, she could not understand. +And still more impossible was it to imagine such sins as the outcome of +mere levity, without any tragic circumstances; or to conceive of the +mysteries of life as outraged and intruded upon by folly, or for the +darker bait of interest. Her heart sickened at such suggestions. She +knew there were poor women in the streets, victims of want and vice, +poor degraded creatures for whom her heart bled, whom she could not +think of for the intolerable pang of pity and shame. But all these +questions had nothing to do with the sudden revelation in which she +herself had so painful a part. These broken reflections were in her mind +like the falling of snow. They whirled through the vague world of her +troubled soul without consequence or coherence; all that had nothing to +do with her. Her husband was no villain, and the woman--the beautiful, +smiling woman, so much fairer, greater, more important than Lucy, she +was no wretched, degraded creature. What was she then? His wife--his +true wife? And if so, what was Lucy? Her brain reeled and the world went +round her in a sickening whirl. The circumstances were too terrible for +resentment. What could anger do, or any other quick-springing +short-lived emotion? What did it matter even what Lucy felt, what any +one felt? It was far beyond that. Here was fact which no emotion could +undo. A wife and a child on either side, and what was to come of it; and +how could life go on with this to think of, never to be forgotten, not +to be put aside for a moment? It brought existence to a stand-still. She +did not know what was the next step she must take, or how she could go +back, or what she must say to the man who, perhaps, was not her husband, +or how she could continue under that roof, or arrange the commonest +details of life. There was but one thing clear before her, the business +which she was bent on hurrying to a conclusion now. + +She found herself in the bustle of the streets that converge upon the +circus at the end of Piccadilly as she thus went on thinking, and there +Lucy looked about her in some dismay, finding that she had reached the +limit of the little world she knew. She was afraid of plunging alone +into those bustling ways, and almost afraid of the only other +alternative, which, however, she adopted, of calling a cab and giving +the driver the address of Mr. Chervil in the city. To do this, and to +mount into the uneasy jingling cab, gave her a little shock of the +unaccustomed, which was like a breach of morals to Lucy. It seemed, +though she had been independent enough in more important matters, the +most daring step she had ever taken on her own responsibility. But the +matter of the cab, and the aspect of this unknown world into which it +conveyed her, occupied her mind a little, and stopped the tumult of her +thoughts. She seemed scarcely to know what she had come about when she +found herself set down at the door of Mr. Chervil's office, and +ascending the grimy staircase, meeting people who stared at her, and +wondered what a lady could be doing there. Mr. Chervil himself was +scarcely less surprised. He said, "Lady Randolph!" with a cry of +astonishment when she was shown in. And she found some difficulty, which +she had not thought of, in explaining her business. He reminded her that +she had given him the same instructions yesterday when he had the honour +of waiting upon her in Park Lane. He was far more respectful to Lady +Randolph than he had been to Lucy Trevor in her first attempts to carry +out her father's will. + +"I assure you," he said, "I have not neglected your wishes. I have +written to Rushton on the subject. We both know by this time, Lady +Randolph, that when you have made up your mind--and you have the most +perfect right to do so--though we may not like it, nor think it anything +but a squandering of money, still we are aware we have no right to +oppose----" + +"It is not that," said Lucy faintly. "It is that the circumstances have +changed since yesterday. I want to--I should like to----" + +"Give up your intention? I am delighted to hear it. For you must allow +me to say, as a man of business----" + +"It is not that," Lucy repeated. "I want to increase the sum. I find the +young lady has a claim--and I want it to be done immediately, without +the loss of a day. Oh, I am more, much more in earnest about it than I +was yesterday. I want it settled at once. If it is not settled at once +difficulties might arise. I want to double the amount. Could you not +telegraph to Mr. Rushton instead of writing? I have heard that people +telegraph about business." + +"Double the amount! Have you thought over this? Have you had Sir +Thomas's advice? It is a very important matter to decide so suddenly. +Pardon me, Lady Randolph, but you must know that if you bestow at this +rate you will soon not have very much left to you." + +"Ah, that would be a comfort!" cried Lucy; and then there came over her +the miserable thought that all the circumstances were changed, and to +have a subject of disagreement between her husband and herself removed +would not matter now. Once it had been the only subject, now---- The +suddenness of this realisation of the change filled her eyes with tears. +But she restrained herself with a great effort. "Yes," she said, "I +should be glad, very glad, to have done all my father wished--for many +things might happen. I might die--and then who would do it?" + +"We need not discuss that very unlikely contingency," said Mr. Chervil. +(He said to himself: Sir Tom wouldn't, that is certain.) "But even under +Mr. Trevor's will," he added, "this will be a very large sum to +give--larger, don't you think, than he intended; unless there is some +very special claim?" + +"It is a special claim," cried Lucy, "and papa made no conditions. I was +to be free in doing it. He left me quite free." + +"Without doubt," the lawyer said. "I need not repeat my opinion on the +subject, but you are certainly quite free. And you have brought me the +young lady's name, no doubt, Lady Randolph? Yesterday, you recollect you +were uncertain about her name. It is important to be quite accurate in +an affair of so much importance. She is a lucky young lady. A great many +would like to learn the secret of pleasing you to this extent." + +Lucy looked at him with a gasp. She did not understand the rest of his +speech or care to hear it. Her name? What was her name? If she had not +known it before, still less did she know it now. + +"Oh," she cried, "what does it matter about a name? People, girls, +change their names. She is Beatrice. You might leave a blank and it +could be filled up after. She is going to--marry. She is--must +everything be delayed for that?--and yet it is of no importance--no +importance that I can see," Lucy said, wringing her hands. + +"My dear Lady Randolph! Let me say that to give a very large sum of +money to a person with whose very name you are unacquainted--forgive me, +but in your own interests I must speak. Let me consult with Sir +Thomas." + +"I do not wish my husband to be consulted. He has promised me not to +interfere, and it is my business, not his," Lucy said, with a flush of +excitement. And though there was much further conversation, and the +lawyer did all he could to move her, it need not be said that Lucy was +immovable. He went down to the door with her to put her into her +carriage, as he supposed, not unwilling even in that centre of practical +life to have the surrounding population see on what confidential terms +he was with this fine young lady. But when he perceived that no carriage +was there, and Lucy, not without a tremor, as of a very strange request, +and one which might shock the nerves of her companion, asked him to get +a cab for her, Mr. Chervil's astonishment knew no bounds. + +"I never thought how far it was," Lucy said, faltering and apologetic. +"I thought I might perhaps have been able to walk." + +"Walk!" he cried, "from Park Lane?" with consternation. He stood looking +after her as she drove away, saying to himself that the old man had +undoubtedly been mad, and that this poor young thing was evidently +cracked too. He thought it would be best to write to Sir Thomas, who was +not Sir Tom to Mr. Chervil; but if it was going to happen that the poor +young lady should show what he had no doubt was the hereditary weakness, +Mr. Chervil could not restrain a devout wish that it might show itself +decisively before half her fortune was alienated. No Sir Thomas in +existence would carry out a father-in-law's will of such an insane +character as that. + +In the meanwhile Lucy jingled home in her cab, feeling more giddy, more +heartsick than ever. There now came upon her with more potency than ever, +since now it was the matter immediately before her, the question what was +she to do? What was she to do? She had eluded Sir Tom on the night before, +and obliged him to accept, without any demand for explanation, her strange +retirement. But now what was she to do? Little Tom would not answer for a +pretext again. She must either resume the former habits of her life, +subdue herself entirely, meet him with a cheerful face, ignore the sudden +chasm that had been made between them--or---- She looked with terrified +eyes at this blank wall of impossibility, and could see no way through it. +Live with him as of old, in a pretence of union where no union could be, +or explain how it was that she could not do so. Both these things were +impossible--impossible!--and what, then, was she to do? + + + + +CHAPTER XLIII. + +THE LITTLE HOUSE IN MAYFAIR. + + +The little house in Mayfair was very bright and gay. What conventional +words are those! It was nothing of the kind. It was dim and poetical. No +light that could be kept out of it was permitted to come in. The quality +of light in London, even in April, is not exquisite, and perhaps the +Contessa's long curtains and all the delicate draperies which she loved +to hang about her were more desirable to see than that very poor thing +in the way of daylight which exists in Mayfair. Bice, who was a child of +light, objected a little to this shutting out, and she would have +objected strongly, being young enough to love the sunshine for itself, +but for the exquisite reason which the Contessa gave for the interdict +she had put upon it. "Cara," she said, "if you were all white and red +like those English girls (it is _tant soit peu_ vulgar between +ourselves, and not half so effective as your _blanc mat_), then you +might have as much light as you pleased; but to put yourself in +competition with them on their own ground--no, Bice mia. But in this +light there is nothing to desire." + +"Don't you think, then, Madama," said Bice, piqued, "that no light at +all would be better still, and not to be seen the best----" + +"Darling!" said the Contessa, with that smile which embodied so many +things. It answered for encouragement and applause and gentle reproof, +and many other matters which words could but indifferently say, and it +was one of her favourite ways of turning aside a question to which she +did not think fit to give any reply. And Bice swallowed her pique and +asked no more. The lamps were all shaded like the windows in this bower +of beauty. There was scarcely a corner that was not draped with some +softly-falling, richly-tinted tissue. A delicate perfume breathed +through this half-lighted world. Thus, though neither gay nor bright, it +realised the effect which in our day, in the time when everything was +different, was meant by these words. It was a place for pleasure, for +intimate society, and conversation, and laughter, and wit; for music and +soft words; and, above all, for the setting off of beauty, and the +expression of admiration. The chairs were soft, the carpets like moss; +there were flowers everywhere betraying themselves by their odour, even +when you could not see them. The Contessa had spared no expense in +making the little place--which she laughed at softly, calling it her +doll's house--as perfect as it could be made. + +And here the two ladies began to live a life very different from that of +the Randolphs' simple dwelling. Bice, it need scarcely be said, had +fulfilled all the hopes of her patroness, else had she never been +produced with such bewildering mystery, yet deftness, to dazzle the eyes +of young Montjoie at the Hall. She had realised all the Contessa's +expectations, and justified the bills which Madame di Forno-Populo +looked upon with a certain complacency as they came in, as something +creditable to her, as proof of her magnificence of mind and devotion to +the best interests of her _protégée_. And now they had entered upon +their campaign. It had annoyed her in this new beginning, amid all its +excitements and hopes, to be called upon by Sir Tom for explanations +which it was not to her interest to give; which she had, indeed, when +she deliberately sowed the seed of mystery, resolved not to give. To +allow herself to be brought to book was not in her mind at all, and she +was clever enough to mystify even Sir Tom, and keep his mind in a +suspense and uncertainty very painful to him. But she had managed to +elude his inquiries, and though it had changed the demeanour of Sir Tom, +and entirely done away with the careless good humour which had been so +pleasant, still she felt herself now independent of the Randolphs, and +had begun her life very cheerfully and with every promise of great +enjoyment. The Contessa "received" every day and all day long, from the +time when she was visible, which was not, however, at a very early hour. +About four the day of the ladies began. Sometimes, indeed, before that +hour two favoured persons, not always the same, who had accompanied +them home from the Park, would be admitted to share a dainty little +luncheon. Bice now rode at the hour when everybody rides, with the +Contessa, who was a graceful horsewoman, and never looked to greater +advantage than in the saddle. The two beautiful Italians, as they were +called, had in this way, within a week of their arrival, caused a +sensation in the Row, and already their days overflowed with amusement +and society. Few ladies visited the little house in Mayfair, but then +they were not much wanted there. The Contessa was not one of those +vulgar practitioners who profess in words their preference for men's +society. But she said, so sweetly that it was barbarous to laugh (though +many of her friends did so), that, having one close companion of her own +sex, her dearest Bice, who was everything to her, she was independent of +the feminine element. "And then they are so busy, these ladies of +fashion; they have no leisure; they have so many things to do. It is a +thraldom, a heavy thraldom, though the chains are gilded." "Shall we see +you at Lady Blank Blank's to-night? You must be going to the Duchess's? +Of course we shall meet at the Highton Grandmodes!" "Ah!" cried the +Contessa, spreading out her white hands, "it is fatiguing even only to +hear of it. We love our ease, Bice and I; we go nowhere where we are +expected to go." + +The gentlemen to whom this speech was made laughed "consumedly." They +even made little signs to each other behind back, and exploded again. +When she looked round at them they said the Contessa was a perfect +mimic, better than anything on the stage, and that she had perfectly +caught the tone of that old Lady Barbe Montfichet, who went everywhere +(whom, indeed, the Contessa did not know), and laughed again. But it was +not at the Contessa's power of mimicry that they laughed. It was at the +delicious falsehood of her pretensions, and the thought that if she +pleased she might appear at the Highton Grandmodes, or meet the best +society at Lady Blank Blank's. These gentlemen knew better; and it was a +joke of which they never tired. They were not, perhaps, the most +desirable class of people in society who had the _entrée_ in the +Contessa's little house; they were old acquaintances who had known her +in her progress through the world, mingled with a few young men whom +they brought with them, partly because the boys admired these two lovely +foreign women; partly because, with a certain easy benevolence that cost +them nothing, they wanted the Contessa's little girl, whoever she was, +to have her chance. But few, if any, of these astute gentlemen, young or +old, was in any doubt as to the position she held. + +Nor was she altogether without female visitors. Lady Anastasia, that +authority of the press, who made the public acquainted with the +movements of distinguished strangers and was not afraid of compromising +herself, sometimes made one at the little parties and enjoyed them much. +The Dowager Lady Randolph's card was left at the Contessa's door, as was +that of the Duchess, who had looked upon her with such consternation at +Lucy's party in the country. What these ladies meant it would be curious +to know. Perhaps it was a lingering touch of kindness, perhaps a wish to +save their credit in case it should happen by some bewildering turn of +fortune that La Forno-Populo might come uppermost again. Would she dare +to have herself put forward at the Drawing-room was what these ladies +asked each other with bated breath. It was possible, nay, quite likely, +that she might succeed in doing so, for there were plenty of +good-natured people who would not refuse if she asked them, and of +course so close a scrutiny was not kept upon foreigners as upon native +subjects; while, as a matter of fact, the Dowager Lady Randolph was +right in her assertion that, so far as could be proved, there was +nothing absolutely fatal to a woman's reputation in the history of the +Contessa. Would she have the courage to dare that ordeal, or would she +set up a standard of revolt, and declare herself superior to that +hall-mark of fashion? She was clever enough, all the people who knew her +allowed, for either _rôle_; either to persuade some good woman, innocent +and ignorant enough, to be responsible for her, and elude the researches +of the Lord Chamberlain, or else to retreat bravely in gay rebellion and +declare that she was not rich enough, nor her diamonds good enough, for +that noonday display. For either part the Contessa was clever enough. + +Meanwhile Bice had all the enjoyment, without any of the drawbacks of +this new life. It was far more luxurious, splendid, and even amusing, +than the old existence of the watering-places. To ride in the Park and +feel herself one of that brilliant crowd, to be surrounded by a +succession of lively companions, to have always "something going on," +that delight of youth, and a continual incense of admiration rising +around her enough to have turned a less steady head, filled Bice's cup +with happiness. But perhaps the most penetrating pleasure of all was +that of having carried out the Contessa's expectations and fulfilled her +hopes. Had not Madame di Forno-Populo been satisfied with the beauty of +her charge, none of these expenses would have been incurred, and this +life of many delights would never have been; so that the soothing and +exhilarating consciousness of having indeed deserved and earned her +present well-being was in Bice's mind. The future, too, opened before +her a horizon of boundless hope. To have everything she now had and +more, along with that one element of happiness which had always been +wanting, the certainty that it would last, was the happy prospect within +her grasp. Her head was so steady, and the practical sense of the +advantage so great, that the excitement and pleasure did not intoxicate +her; but everything was delightful, novel, breathing confidence and +hope. The guests at the table, where she now took her place, equal in +importance to the Contessa herself, all flattered and did their best to +please her. They amused her, either because they were clever or because +they were ridiculous--Bice, with youthful cynicism, did not much mind +which it was. When they went to the opera, a similar crowd would flutter +in and out of the box, and appear afterwards to share the gay little +supper and declare that no _prime-donne_ on the stage could equal the +two lovely blending voices of the Contessa and her ward. To sit late +talking, laughing, singing, surrounded by all this worship, and to wake +up again to a dozen plans and the same routine of pleasure next day, +what heart of seventeen (and she was not quite seventeen) could resist +it? One thing, however, Bice missed amid all this. It was the long +gallery at the Hall, the nursery in Park Lane, little Tom crowing upon +her shoulder, digging his hands into her hair, and Lucy looking on--many +things, yet one. She missed this, and laughed at herself, and said she +was a fool--but missed it all the same. Lucy had come, as in duty bound, +and paid her call. She had been very grave--not like herself. And Sir +Tom was very grave; looking at her she could not tell how; no longer +with his old easy good humour, with a look of criticism and anxiety--an +uneasy look, as if he had something to say to her and could not. Bice +felt instinctively that if he ever said that something it would be +disagreeable, and avoided his presence. But it troubled her to lose this +side of her landscape, so to speak. The new was entrancing, but the old +was a loss. She missed it, and thought herself a fool for missing it, +and laughed, but felt it the more. + +The only member of the household with whom she remained on the same easy +terms as before was Jock, who came to the house in Mayfair at hours when +nobody else was admitted, though he was quite unaware of the privilege +he possessed. He came in the morning when Bice, too young to want the +renewal which the Contessa sought in bed and in the mysteries of the +toilette, sometimes fretted a little indoors at the impossibility of +getting the air into her lungs, and feeling the warmth of the morning +light. She was so glad to see him that Jock was deeply flattered, and +sweet thoughts of the most boundless foolishness got in to his head. +Bice ran to her room, and found one of her old hats which she had worn +in the country, and tied a veil over her face, and came flying +downstairs like a bird. + +"We may go out and run in the Park so long as no one sees us," she +cried. "Oh, come; nobody can see me through this veil." + +"And what good will the air do you through that veil?" said Jock +contemptuously. "You can't see the sun through it; it makes the whole +world black. I would not go out if I were you with that thing over my +face, the only chance I had for a walk. I'd rather stay at home; but +perhaps you like it. Girls are such----" + +"What? You are going to swear, and if you swear I will simply turn my +back. Well, perhaps you didn't mean it. But I mean it. Boys are +such---- What? little prudes, like the old duennas in the books, and that +is what you are. You think things are wrong that are not wrong. But it +is to an Englishman the right thing to grumble," Bice said, with a smile +of reconciliation as they stepped into the street. On that sweet morning +even the street was delightful. It restored them to perfect satisfaction +with each other as they made their way to the Park, which stretched its +long lines of waving grass almost within sight. + +"And I suppose," said Jock, after a pause, "that you like being here?" + +Bice gave him a look half friendly, half disdainful. "I like living," +she said. "In the country in what you call the quiet, it is only to be +half alive: we are always living here. But you never come to see us +ride, to be among the crowd. You are never at the opera. You don't talk +as those others do----" + +"Montjoie, for instance," said Jock, with a strange sense of jealousy +and pain. + +"Very well, Montjoie. He is what you call fun; he has always something +to say, _bêtises_ perhaps, but what does that matter? He makes me +laugh." + +"Makes you laugh! at his wit perhaps?" cried Jock. "Oh, what things +girls are! Laugh at what a duffer like that, an ass, a fellow that has +not two ideas, says." + +"You have a great many ideas," said Bice; "you are clever--you know a +number of things; but you are not so amusing, and you are not so +good-natured. You scold me; and you say another, a friend, is an +ass----" + +"He was never any friend of mine," said Jock, with a hot flush of anger. +"That fellow! I never had anything to say to him." + +"No," said Bice, with a smiling disdain which cut poor Jock like a +knife. "I made a mistake, that was not possible, for he is a man and you +are only a boy." + +To describe Jock's feelings under this blow would be beyond the power of +words. He inferior to Montjoie! he only a boy while the other was a man! +Rage was nothing in such an emergency. He looked at her with eyes that +were almost pathetic in their sense of unappreciated merit, and, deeper +sting still, of folly preferred. In spite of himself, Locksley Hall and +those musings which have become, by no fault of the poet's, the +expression of a despair which is half ridiculous, came into his mind. He +did not see the ridicule. "Having known me to decline"--his eyes became +moist with a dew of pain--"If you think that," he said slowly, +"Bice----" + +Bice answered only with a laugh. "Let us make haste; let us run," she +cried. "It is so early, no one will see us. Why don't you ride, it is +like flying? And to run is next best." She stopped after a flight, swift +as a bird, along an unfrequented path which lay still in the April +sunshine, the lilac bushes standing up on each side all athrill and +rustling with the spring, with eyes that shone like stars, and that +unusual colour which made her radiant. Jock, though he could have gone +on much faster, was behind her for the moment, and came up after her, +more occupied by the shame of being outrun and laughed at than by +admiration of the girl and her beauty. She was more conscious of her own +splendour of bloom than he was: though Bice was not vain, and he was +more occupied by the thought of her than by any other thought. + +"Girls never think of being able to stay," he said, "you do only what +can be done with a rush; but that's not running. If you had ever seen +the School Mile----" + +"Oh no, I want to see no miles," cried Bice; "this is what I like, to +have all my fingers tingle." Then she suddenly calmed down in a moment, +and walked along demurely as the paths widened out to a more frequented +thoroughfare. "What I want," she said, "is little Tom upon my shoulder, +and to hear him scream and hold by my hair. Milady does not look as if I +pleased her now. She has come once only and looked--not as she once +looked. But she is still kind. She has made this ball for me--for me +only. Did you know? do you dance then, if nothing else? Oh, you shall +dance since the ball is for me. I love dancing--to distraction; but not +once have I had a single turn, not once, since we came to England," Bice +said with a sigh, which rose into a laugh in another moment, as she +added, "It will be for me to come out, as you say, to be introduced into +society, and after that we shall go everywhere, the Contessa says." + + + + +CHAPTER XLIV. + +THE SIEGE OF LONDON. + + +The Contessa, but perhaps not more than half, believed what she said. +Everything was on the cards in this capricious society of England, which +is not governed by the same absolute laws as in other places. It seemed +to be quite possible that she and her charge might be asked everywhere +after their appearance at the ball which, she should take care to tell +everybody, Lucy was giving for Bice. It was always possible in England +that some leader of fashion, some great lady whose nod gave distinction, +might take pity upon Bice's youth and think it hard that she should +suffer, even if without any relentings towards the Contessa. And Madame +di Forno-Populo was very strong on the point, already mentioned, that +there was nothing against her which could give any one a right to shut +her out. The mere suggestion that the doors of society might or could be +closed in her face would have driven another woman into frantic +indignation, but the Contessa had passed that stage. She took the matter +quite reasonably, philosophically. There was no reason. She had been +poor and put to many shifts. Sometimes she had been compelled to permit +herself to be indebted to a man in a way no woman should allow herself +to be. She was quite aware of this, and was not, therefore, angry with +society for its reluctance to receive her; but she said to herself, with +great energy, that there was no cause. She was not hopeless even of the +drawing-room, nor of getting the Duchess herself, a model of all the +virtues, to present her, if the ball went off well at Park Lane. She +said to herself that there was nothing on her mind which would make her +shrink from seeking admission to the presence of the Queen. She was not +afraid even of that royal lady's penetrating eye. Shiftiness, poverty, +debts, modes of getting money that were, perhaps, equivocal, help too +lightly accepted, all these are bad enough; but they are not in a woman +the unpardonable sin. And a caprice in English society was always +possible. The young beauty of Bice might attract the eye of some one +whose notice would throw down all obstacles; or it might touch the heart +of some woman who was so high placed as to be able to defy prejudice. +And after that, of course, they would go everywhere, and every +prognostication of success and triumph would come true. + +Nevertheless, if things did not go on so well as this, the Contessa had +furnished herself with what to say. She would tell Bice that the women +were jealous, that she had been pursued by their hostility wherever she +went, that a woman who secured the homage of men was always an object of +their spite and malice, that it was a sort of persecution which the +lovely had to bear from the unlovely in all regions. Knowing that it was +fully more likely that she should fail than succeed, the Contessa had +carefully provided herself with this ancient plea and would not hesitate +to use it if necessary; but these were _grands moyens_, not to be +resorted to save in case of necessity. She would herself have been +willing enough to dispense with recognition and live as she was doing +now, among the old and new admirers who had never failed her, enjoying +everything except those dull drawing-rooms and heavy parties for which +her soul longed, yet which she despised heartily, which she would have +undergone any humiliation to get admission to, and turned to ridicule +afterwards with the best grace in the world. She despised them, but +there was nothing that could make up for absence from them; they alone +had in their power the _cachet_, the symbol of universal acceptance. All +these things depended upon the ball at Park Lane. Something had been +going on there since she separated herself from that household which the +Contessa did not understand. Sir Tom, indeed, was comprehensible. The +discovery which he thought he had made, the things which she had allowed +him to divine, and even permitted him to prove for himself without +making a single assertion on her own part, were quite sufficient to +account for his changed looks. But Lucy, what had she found out? It was +not likely that Sir Tom had communicated his discovery to her. Lucy's +demeanour confused the Contessa more than words can say. The simple +creature had grown into a strange dignity, which nothing could explain. +Instead of the sweet compliance and almost obedience of former days, the +deference of the younger to the older woman, Lucy looked at her with +grave composure, as of an equal or superior. What had happened to the +girl? And it was so important that she should be friendly now and kept +in good humour! Madame di Forno-Populo put forth all her attractions, +gave her dear Lucy her sweetest looks and words, but made very little +impression. This gave her a little tremor when she thought of it; for +all her plans for the future were connected with the ball on the 26th at +Park Lane. + +This ball appeared to Lucy, too, the most important crisis in her life. +She had made a sacrifice which was heroic that nothing might go wrong +upon that day. Somehow or other, she could not tell how, for the +struggle had been desperate within her, she had subdued the emotion in +her own heart and schooled herself to an acceptance of the old routine +of her life until that event should be over. All her calculations went +to that date, but not beyond. Life seemed to stop short there. It had +been arranged and settled with a light heart in the pleasure of knowing +that the Contessa had taken a house for herself, and that, consequently, +Lucy was henceforward to be once more mistress of her own. She had been +so ashamed of her own pleasure in this prospect, so full of compunctions +in respect to her guest, whose departure made her happy, that she had +thrown herself with enthusiasm into this expedient for making it up to +them. She had said it was to be Bice's ball. When the Dowager's +revelation came upon her like a thunderbolt, as soon as she was able to +think at all, she had thought of this ball with a depth of emotion which +was strange to be excited by so frivolous a matter. It was a pledge of +the warmest friendship, but those for whom it was to be, had turned out +the enemies of her peace, the destroyers of her happiness: and it was +high festival and gaiety, but her heart was breaking. Lady Randolph, +afraid of what she had done, yet virulent against the Contessa, had +suggested that it should be given up. It was easy to do such a thing--a +few notes, a paragraph in the newspaper, a report of a cousin dead, or a +sudden illness; any excuse would do. But Lucy was not to be so moved. +There was in her soft bosom a sense of justice which was almost stern, +and through all her troubles she remembered that Bice, at least, had a +claim upon all Sir Thomas Randolph could do for her, such as nobody +else could have. Under what roof but his should she make her first +appearance in the world? Lucy held sternly with a mixture of bitterness +and tenderness to Bice's rights. In all this misery Bice was without +blame, the only innocent person, the one most wronged, more wronged even +than was Lucy herself. She it was who would have to bear the deepest +stigma, without any fault of hers. Whatever could be done to advance her +(as she counted advancement), to make her happy (as she reckoned +happiness) it was right she should have it done. Lucy suppressed her own +wretchedness heroically for this cause. She bore the confusion that had +come into her life without saying a word for the sake of the other young +creature who was her fellow-sufferer. How hard it was to do she could +not have told, nor did any one suspect, except, vaguely, Sir Tom +himself, who perceived some tragic mischief that was at work without +knowing how it had come there or what it was. He tried to come to some +explanation, but Lucy would have no explanation. She avoided him as much +as it was possible to do. She had nothing to say when he questioned her. +Till the 26th! Nothing, she was resolved, should interfere with that. +And then--but not the baby in the nursery knew less than Lucy what was +to happen then. + +They had come to London on the 2d, so that this day of fate was three +weeks off, and during that time the Contessa had made no small progress +in her affairs. Three weeks is a long time in a house which is open to +visitors, even if only from four o'clock in the afternoon, every day, +and without intermission; and indeed that was not the whole, for the +ladies were accessible elsewhere than in the house in Mayfair. It had +pleased the Contessa not to be visible when Lord Montjoie called at a +somewhat early hour on the very earliest day. He was a young man who +knew the world, and not one to have things made too easy for him. He was +all aflame accordingly to gain the _entrée_ thus withheld, and when the +Contessa appeared for the first time in the Park, with her lovely +companion, Montjoie was eagerly on the watch, and lost no time in +claiming acquaintance, and joining himself to her train. He was one of +the two who were received to luncheon two or three days afterwards. When +the ladies went to the opera he was on thorns till he could join them. +He was allowed to go home with them for one song, and to come in next +afternoon for a little music. And from that time forward there was no +more question of shutting him out. He came and went almost when he +pleased, as a young man may be permitted to do when he has become one of +the intimates in an easy-going, pleasure-loving household, where there +is always "something going on." He was so little flattered that never +during all these days and nights had he once been allowed to repeat the +performance upon which he prided himself, and with which he had followed +up the singing of the Contessa and Bice at the Hall. The admirable lady +whom they had met there, with her two daughters, had been eager that +Lord Montjoie should display this accomplishment of his, and the girls +had been enchanted by his singing; but the Contessa, though not so +irreproachable, would have none of it. And Bice laughed freely at the +young nobleman who had so much to bestow, and they both threw at him +delicate little shafts of wit, which never pierced his stolid +complacency, though he was quite quick withal to see the fun when other +gentlemen looked at each other over the Contessa's shoulder, and burst +into little peals of laughter at her little speeches about the Highton +Grandmodes and other such exclusive houses. Montjoie knew all about La +Forno-Populo. "But yet that little Bice," he said, "don't you know?" No +one like her had come within Montjoie's ken. He knew all about the girls +in blue or in pink or in white, who asked him to sing. But Bice, who +laughed at his accomplishment and at himself, and was so saucy to him, +and made fun of him, he allowed, to his face, that was very different. +He described her in terms that were not chivalrous, and his own emotions +in words still less ornate; but before the fortnight was over the best +judges declared among themselves that, by Jove, the Forno-Populo had +done it this time, that the little one knew how to play her cards, that +it was all up with Montjoie, poor little beggar, with other elegances of +a similar kind. The man who had taken the Contessa's house for her, and +a great deal of trouble about all her arrangements, whom she described +as a very old friend, and whose rueful sense that house-agents and +livery stables might eventually look to him if she had no success in her +enterprise did not impair his fidelity, went so far as to speak +seriously to Montjoie on the subject. "Look here, Mont," he said, "don't +you think you are going it rather too strong? There is not a thing +against the girl, who is as nice as a girl can be, but then the aunt, +you know----" + +"I'm glad she is the aunt," said Montjoie. "I thought she was the +mother: and I always heard you were devoted to her." + +"We are very old friends," said this disinterested adviser. "There's +nothing I would not do for her. She is the best soul out, and was the +loveliest woman I can tell you--the girl is nothing to what she was. +Aunt or cousin, I am not sure what is the relationship; but that's not +the question. Don't you think you are coming it rather strong?" + +"Oh, I've got my wits about me," said Montjoie; and then he added, +rather reluctantly--for it is the fashion of his kind to be vulgar and +to keep what generosity or nobleness there is in them carefully out of +sight--"and I've no relations, don't you know? I've got nobody to please +but myself----" + +"Well, that is a piece of luck anyhow," the Mentor said; and he told the +Contessa the gist of the conversation next morning, who was highly +pleased by the news. + +The curious point in all this was that Bice had not the least objection +to Montjoie. She was a clever girl and he was a stupid young man, but +whether it was that her entirely unawakened heart had no share at all in +the matter, or that her clear practical view of affairs influenced her +sentiments as well as her mind, it is certain that she was quite pleased +with her fate, and ready to embrace it without the least sense that it +was a sacrifice or anything but the happiest thing possible. He amused +her, as she had said to Jock. He made her laugh, most frequently at +himself; but what did that matter? He had a kind of good looks, and that +good nature which is the product of prosperity and well-being, and a +sense of general superiority to the world. Perhaps the girl saw no man +of a superior order to compare him with; but, as a matter of fact, she +was perfectly satisfied with Montjoie. Mr. Derwentwater and Jock were +more ridiculous to her than he was, and were less in harmony with +everything she had previously known. Their work, their intellectual +occupations, their cleverness and aspirations were out of her world +altogether. The young man-about-town who had nothing to do but amuse +himself, who was always "knocking about," as he said, whose business was +pleasure, was the kind of being with whom she was acquainted. She had no +understanding of the other kind. He who had been her comrade in the +country, whose society had amused her there, and for whom she had a sort +of half-condescending affection, was droll to her beyond measure, with +his ambitions and great ideas as to what he was to do. He, too, made her +laugh; but not as Montjoie did. She laughed, though this would have +immeasurably surprised Jock, with much less sympathy than she had with +the other, upon whom he looked with so much contempt. They were both +silly to Bice,--silly as, in her strange experience, she thought it +usual and natural for men to be,--but Montjoie's manner of being silly +was more congenial to her than the other. He was more in tune with the +life she had known. Hamburg, Baden, Wiesbaden, and all the other Bads, +even Monaco, would have suited Montjoie well enough. The trade of +pleasure-making has its affinities like every other, and a tramp on his +way from fair to fair is more _en rapport_ with a duke than the world +dreams of. Thus Bice found that the young English marquis, with more +money than he knew how to spend, was far more like the elegant +adventurer living on his wits, than all those intervening classes of +society, to whom life is a more serious, and certainly a much less +festive and costly affair. She understood him far better. And instead of +being, as Lucy thought, a sacrifice, an unfortunate victim sold to a +loveless marriage for the money and the advantages it would bring, Bice +went on very gaily, her heart as unmoved as possible, to what she felt +to be a most congenial fate. + +And they all waited for the 26th and the ball with growing excitement. +It would decide many matters. It would settle what was to be the +character of the Contessa's campaign. It might reintroduce her into +society under better auspices than ever, or it might--but there was no +need to foretell anything unpleasant. And very likely it would conclude +at the same source as it began, Bice's triumph--a _débutante_ who was +already the affianced bride of the young Marquis of Montjoie, the +greatest _parti_ in the kingdom. The idea was like wine, and went to the +Contessa's head. + +She had in this interval of excitement a brief little note from Lucy, +which startled her beyond measure for the moment. It was to ask the +exact names of Bice. "You shall know in a few days why I ask, but it is +necessary they should be written down in full and exactly," Lucy said. +The Contessa had half forgotten, in the new flood of life about her, +what was in Lucy's power, and the further advantage that might come of +their relations, and she did not think of this even now, but felt with +momentary tremor as if some snare lay concealed under these simple +words. After a moment's consideration, however, she wrote with a bold +and flowing hand: + + "SWEET LUCY--The child's name is Beatrice Ersilia. You cannot, I am + sure, mean her anything but good by such a question. She has not + been properly introduced, I know--I am fantastic, I loved the Bice, + and no more. + + "DARLING, A TE." + +This was signed with a cipher, which it was not very easy to make out--a +little mystery which pleased the Contessa. She thus involved in a +pleasant little uncertainty her own name, which nobody knew. + + + + +CHAPTER XLV. + +THE BALL. + + +Lady Randolph's ball was one of the first of the season, and as it was +the first ball she had ever given, and both Lucy and her husband were +favourites in society, it was looked forward to as the forerunner of +much excitement and pleasure, and with a freshness of interest and +anticipation which, unless in April, is scarcely to be expected in town. +The rooms in Park Lane, though there was nothing specially exquisite or +remarkable in their equipment, were handsome and convenient. They formed +a good background for the people assembled under their many lights +without withdrawing the attention of any one from the looks, the +dresses, the bright eyes, and jewels collected within, which, perhaps, +after all, is an advantage in its way. And everybody who was in town was +there, from the Duchess, upon whom the Contessa had designs of so +momentous a character, down to those wandering young men-about-town who +form the rank and file of the great world and fill up all the corners. +There was, it is true, not much room to dance, but a bewildering amount +of people, great names, fine toilettes, and beautiful persons. + +The Contessa timed her arrival at the most effective moment, when the +rooms were almost full, but not yet crowded, and most of the more +important guests had already arrived. It was just after the first +greetings of people seeing each other for the first time were over, and +an event of some kind was wanted. At such a moment princes and +princesses are timed to arrive and bring the glory of the assembly to a +climax. Lucy had no princess to honour her. But when out of the crowd +round the doorway there were seen to emerge two beautiful and stately +women unknown, the sensation was almost as great. One of them, who had +the air of a Queen-Mother, was in dark dress studiously arranged to be a +little older, a little more massive and magnificent than a woman of the +Contessa's age required to wear (and which, accordingly, threw up all +the more, though this, to do her justice, was a coquetry more or less +unintentional, her unfaded beauty); and the other, an impersonation of +youth, contemplated the world by her side with that open-eyed and +sovereign gaze, proud and modest, but without any of the shyness or +timidity of a _débutante_ which becomes a young princess in her own +right. There was a general thrill of wonder and admiration wherever they +were seen. Who were they, everybody asked? Though the name of the +Forno-Populo was too familiarly known to a section of society, that is +not to say that the ladies of Lucy's party, or even all the men had +heard it bandied from mouth to mouth, or were aware that it had ever +been received with less than respect: and the universal interest was +spoiled only here and there in a corner by the laugh of the male +gossips, who made little signs to each other, in token of knowing more +than their neighbours. It was said among the more innocent that this was +an Italian lady of distinction with her daughter or niece, and her +appearance, if a little more marked and effective than an English lady's +might have been, was thus fully explained and accounted for by the +difference in manners and that inalienable dramatic gift, which it is +common to believe in England, foreigners possess. No doubt their +entrance was very dramatic. The way in which they contrasted and +harmonised with each other was too studied for English traditions, +which, in all circumstances, cling to something of the impromptu, an air +of accidentalism. They were a spectacle in themselves as they advanced +through the open central space, from which the ordinary guests +instinctively withdrew to leave room for them. "Is it the Princess?" +people asked, and craned their necks to see. It must at least be a +German Serenity--the Margravine of Pimpernikel, the Hereditary Princess +of Weissnichtwo--but more beautiful and graceful than English prejudice +expects German ladies to be. Ah, Italian! that explained +everything--their height, their grace, their dark beauty, their +effective pose. The Latin races alone know how to arrange a spectacle in +that easy way, how to produce themselves so that nobody could be +unimpressed. There was a dramatic pause before them, a hum of excitement +after they had passed. Who were they? Evidently the most distinguished +persons present--the guests of the evening. Sir Tom, uneasy enough, and +looking grave and preoccupied, which was so far from being his usual +aspect, led them into the great drawing-room, where the Duchess, who had +daughters who danced, had taken her place. He did not look as if he +liked it, but the Contessa, for her part, looked round her with a +radiant smile, and bowed very much as the Queen does in a state +ceremonial to the people she knew. She performed a magnificent curtsey, +half irony, half defiance, before the Dowager Lady Randolph, who looked +on at this progress speechless. How Lucy could permit it; how Tom could +have the assurance to do it; occupied the Dowager's thoughts. She had +scarcely self-command to make a stiff sweep of recognition as the +procession passed. + +The Duchess was at the upper end of the room, with all her daughters +about her. Besides the younger ones who danced, there were two +countesses supporting their mother. She was the greatest lady present, +and she felt the dignity. But when she perceived the little opening that +took place among the groups about, and, looking up, perceived the +Contessa sweeping along in that regal separation, you might have blown +her Grace away with a breath. Not only was the Duchess the most +important person in the room, but her reception of the newcomer would be +final, a sort of social life or death for the Contessa. But the +supplicant approached with the air of a queen, while the arbiter of fate +grew pale and trembled at the sight. If there was a tremor in her +Grace's breast there was no less a tremor under the Contessa's velvet. +But Madame di Forno-Populo had this great advantage, that she knew +precisely what to do, and the Duchess did not know: she was fully +prepared, and the Duchess taken by surprise: and still more that her +Grace was a shy woman, whose intellect, such as it was, moved slowly, +while the Contessa was very clever, and as prompt as lightning. She +perceived at a glance that the less time the great lady had to think the +better, and hastened forward for a step or two, hurrying her stately +pace, "Ah, Duchess!" she said, "how glad I am to meet so old an +acquaintance. And I want, above all things, to have your patronage for +my little one. Bice--the Duchess, an old friend of my prosperous days, +permits me to present you to her." She drew her young companion forward +as she spoke, while the Duchess faltered and stammered a "How d'ye do?" +and looked in vain for succour to her daughters, who were looking on. +Then Bice showed her blood. It had not been set down in the Contessa's +programme what she was to do, so that the action took her patroness by +surprise, as well as the great lady whom it was so important to +captivate. While the Duchess stood stiff and awkward, making a +conventional curtsey against her will, and with a conventional smile on +her mouth, Bice, with the air of a young princess, innocently, yet +consciously superior to all her surroundings, suddenly stepped forward, +and taking the Duchess's hand, bent her stately young head to kiss it. +There was in the sudden movement that air of accident, of impulse, which +we all love. It overcame all the tremors of the great lady. She said, +"My dear!" in the excitement of the moment, and bent forward to kiss the +cheek of this beautiful young creature, who was so deferential, so +reverent in her young pride. And the Duchess's daughters did not +disapprove! Still more wonderful than the effect on the Duchess was the +effect upon these ladies, of whose criticisms their mother stood in +dread. They drew close about the lovely stranger, and it immediately +became apparent to the less important guests that the Italian ladies, +the heroines of the evening, had amalgamated with the ducal party--as it +was natural they should. + +Never had there been a more complete triumph. The Contessa stepped in +and made hay while the sun shone. She waved off with a scarcely +perceptible movement of her hand several of her intimates who would have +gathered round her, and vouchsafed only a careless word to Montjoie, who +had hastened to present himself. The work to which she devoted herself +was the amusement of the Duchess, who was not, to tell the truth, very +easily amused. But Madame di Forno-Populo had infinite resources, and +she succeeded. She selected the Dowager Lady Randolph for her butt, and +made fun of her so completely that her Grace almost exceeded the bounds +of decorum in her laughter. + +"You must not, really; you must not--she is a great friend of mine," the +Duchess said. But perhaps there was not much love between the two +ladies. And thus by degrees the conversation was brought round to the +Populina palace and the gay scenes so long ago. + +"You must have heard of our ruin," the Contessa said, looking full into +the Duchess's face; "everybody has heard of that. I have been too poor +to live in my own house. We have wandered everywhere, Bice and I. When +one is proud it is more easy to be poor away from home. But we are in +very high spirits to-day, the child and I," she added. "All can be put +right again. My little niece has come into a fortune. She has made an +inheritance. We received the news to-night only. That is how I have +recovered my spirits--and to see you, Duchess, and renew the beautiful +old times." + +"Oh, indeed!" the Duchess said, which was not much; but then she was a +woman of few words. + +"Yes, we came to London very poor," said the Contessa. "What could I do? +It was the moment to produce the little one. We have no Court. Could I +seek for her the favour of the Piedmontese? Oh no! that was impossible. +I said to myself she shall come to that generous England, and my old +friends there will not refuse to take my Bice by the hand." + +"Oh no; I am sure not," said the Duchess. + +As for Bice she had long ere now set off with Montjoie, who had hung +round her from the moment of her entrance into the room, and whose +admiration had grown to such a height by the cumulative force of +everybody else's admiration swelling into it, that he could scarcely +keep within those bounds of compliment which are permitted to an adorer +who has not yet acquired the right to be hyperbolical. + +"Oh yes, it's pretty enough: but you don't see half how pretty it is, +for you can't see yourself, don't you know?" said this not altogether +maladroit young practitioner. Bice gave him a smile like one of the +Contessa's smiles, which said everything that was needful without giving +her any trouble. But now that the effect of her entrance was attained, +and all that dramatic business done with, the girl's soul was set upon +enjoyment. She loved dancing as she loved every other form of rapid +movement. The only drawback was that there was so little room. "Why do +they make the rooms so small?" she said pathetically; a speech which was +repeated from mouth to mouth like a witticism, as something so +characteristic of the young Italian, w hose marble halls would never be +overcrowded: though, as a matter of fact, Bice knew very little of +marble halls. + +"Were you ever in the gallery at the Hall?" she asked. "To go from one +end to the other, that was worth the while. It was as if one flew." + +"I never knew they danced down there," said Montjoie. "I thought it very +dull, don't you know, till you appeared. If I had known you had dances, +and fun going on, and other fellows cutting one out----" + +"There was but one other fellow," said Bice gravely. "I have seen in +this country no one like him. Ah, why is he not here? He is more fun +than any one, but better than fun. He is----" + +Montjoie's countenance was like a thunder-cloud big with fire and flame. + +"Trevor, I suppose you mean. I never thought that duffer could dance. He +was a great sap at school, and a hideous little prig, giving himself +such airs! But if you think all that of him----" + +"It was not Mr. Trevor," said Bice. Then catching sight of Lady Randolph +at a little distance, she made a dart towards her on her partner's arm. + +"I am telling Lord Montjoie of my partner at the Hall," she said. "Ah, +Milady, let him come and look! How he would clap his hands to see the +lights and the flowers. But we could not have our gymnastique with all +the people here." + +Lucy was very pale; standing alone, abstracted amid the gay crowd, as if +she did not very well know where she was. + +"Baby? Oh, he is quite well, he is fast asleep," she said, looking up +with dim eyes. And then there broke forth a little faint smile on her +face. "You were always good to him," she said. + +"So it was the baby," said Montjoie, delighted. "What a one you are to +frighten a fellow. If it had been Trevor I think I'd have killed him. +How jolly of you to do gymnastics with that little beggar; he's +dreadfully delicate, ain't he, not likely to live? But you're awfully +cruel to me. You think no more of giving a wring to my heart than if it +was a bit of rag. I think you'd like to see the blood come." + +"Let us dance," said Bice with great composure. She was bent upon +enjoyment. She had not calculated upon any conversation. Indeed she +objected to conversation on this point even when it did not interfere +with the waltz. All could be settled much more easily by the Contessa, +and if marriage was to be the end, that was a matter of business not +adapted for a ballroom. She would not allow herself to be led away to +the conservatory or any other retired nook such as Montjoie felt he must +find for this affecting purpose. Bice did not want to be proposed to. +She wanted to dance. She abandoned him for other partners without the +slightest evidence of regret. She even accepted, when he was just about +to seize upon her at the end of a dance, Mr. Derwentwater, preferring to +dance the Lancers with him to the bliss of sitting out with Lord +Montjoie. That forsaken one gazed at her with a consternation beyond +words. To leave him and the proposal that was on his very lips for a +square dance with a tutor! The young Marquis gazed after her as she +disappeared with a certain awe. It could not be that she preferred +Derwentwater. It must be her cleverness which he could not fathom, and +some wonderful new system of Italian subtlety to draw a fellow on. + +"I like it better than standing still--I like it--enough," said Bice. +"To dance, that is always something." Mr. Derwentwater also felt, like +Lord Montjoie, that the young lady gave but little importance to her +partner. + +"You like the rhythm, the measure, the woven paces and the waving +hands," her companion said. + +Bice stared at him a little, not comprehending. "But you prefer," he +continued, "like most ladies, the modern Bacchic dance, the whirl, the +round, though what the old Puritans call promiscuous dancing of men and +women together was not, I fear, Greek----" + +"I know nothing of the Greeks," said Bice. "Vienna is the best place for +the valse, but Greek--no, we never were there." + +"I am thinking of classic terms," said MTutor with a smile, but he liked +her all the better for not knowing. "We have in vases and in sculpture +the most exquisite examples. You have never perhaps given your attention +to ancient art? I cannot quite agree with Mr. Alma Tadema on that point. +He is a great artist, but I don't think the wild leap of his dances is +sanctioned by anything we possess." + +"Do not take wild leaps," said Bice, "but keep time. That is all you +require in a quadrille. Why does every one laugh and go wrong. But it is +a shame! One should not dance if one will not take the trouble. And why +does _he_ not do anything?" she said, in the pause between two figures, +suddenly coming in sight of Jock, who stood against the wall in their +sight, following her about with eyes over which his brows were curved +heavily; "he does not dance nor ride; he only looks on." + +"He reads," said Mr. Derwentwater. "The boy will be a great scholar if +he keeps it up." + +"One cannot read in society," said Bice. "Now, you must remember, you go +_that_ way; you do not come after me." + +"I should prefer to come after you. That is the heavenly way when one +can follow such a leader. You remember what your own Dante----" + +"Oh!" murmured Bice, with a long sigh of impatience, "I have no Dante. I +have a partner who will not give himself the pains--Now," she said, with +an emphatic little pat of her foot and movement of her hands. Her soul +was in the dance, though it was only the Lancers. With a slight line of +annoyance upon her forehead she watched his performance, taking upon +herself the responsibility, pushing him by his elbow when he went wrong, +or leading him in the right way. Mr. Derwentwater had thought to carry +off his mistakes with a laugh, but this was not Bice's way of thinking. +She made him a little speech when the dance was over. + +"I think you are a great scholar too," she said; "but it will be well +that you should not come forward again with a lady to dance the Lancers, +for you cannot do it. And that will sometimes make a girl to have the +air of being also awkward, which is not just." + +Mr. Derwentwater grew very red while this speech was making to him. He +was a man of great and varied attainments, and had any one told him that +he would blush about so trivial a matter as a Lancers----! But he grew +very red and almost stammered as he said with humility, "I am afraid I +am very deficient, but with you to guide me--Signorina, there is one +divine hour which I never forget--when you sang that evening. May I +call? May I see you for half an hour to-morrow?" + +"Oh," said Bice, with a deep-drawn breath, "here is some one else coming +who does not dance very well! Talk to him about the Greek, and Lord +Montjoie will take me. To-morrow! oh yes, with pleasure," she said as +she took Montjoie's arm and darted away into the crowd. Montjoie was +all glowing and radiant with pride and joy. + +"I thought I'd hang off and on and take my chance, don't you know? I +thought you'd soon get sick of that sort. You and I go together like two +birds. I have been watching you all this time, you and old Derwentwater. +What was that he said about to-morrow? I want to talk about to-morrow +too--unless, indeed to-night----" + +"Oh, Lord Montjoie," cried Bice, "dance! It was not to talk you came +here, and you can dance better than you talk," she added, with that +candour which distinguished her. And Montjoie flew away with her rushing +and whirling. He could dance. It was almost his only accomplishment. + + + + +CHAPTER XLVI. + +THE BALL CONTINUED. + + +Other eyes than those of her lovers followed Bice through this brilliant +scene. Sir Tom had been living a strange stagnant life since that day +before he left the Hall, when Lucy, innocently talking of Bice's English +parentage, had suddenly roused him to the question--Who was Bice, and +who her parents, English or otherwise? The suggestion was very sudden +and very simple, conveying in it no intended hint or innuendo. But it +came upon Sir Tom like a sudden thunderbolt, or rather like the firing +of some train that had been laid and prepared for explosion. The tenor +of his fears and suspicions has already been indicated. Nor has it ever +been concealed from the reader of this history that there were incidents +in Sir Tom's life upon which he did not look back with satisfaction, and +which it would have grieved him much to have revealed to his wife in her +simplicity and unsuspecting trust in him. One of these was a chapter of +existence so long past as to be almost forgotten, yet unforgettable, +which gave, when he thought of it, an instant meaning to the fact that a +half-Italian girl of English parentage on one side should have been +brought mysteriously, without warning or formal introduction, to his +house by the Contessa. From that time, as has been already said, the +disturbance in his mind was great. He could get no satisfaction one way +or another. But to-night his uneasiness had taken a new and unexpected +form. Should it so happen that Bice's identity with a certain poor baby, +born in Tuscany seventeen years before, might some day be proved, what +new cares, what new charge might it not place upon his shoulders? At +such a thought Sir Tom held his very breath. + +The first result of such a possibility was, that he might find himself +to stand in a relationship to the girl for whom he had hitherto had a +careless liking and no more, which would change both his life and hers; +and already he watched her with uneasy eyes and with a desire to +interfere which bewildered him like a new light upon his own character. +He could scarcely understand how he had taken it all so lightly before +and interested himself so little in the fate of a young creature for +whom it would not be well to be brought up according to the Contessa's +canons, and follow her example in the world. He remembered, in the light +of this new possibility, the levity with which he had received his +wife's distress about Bice, and how lightly he had laughed at Lucy's +horror as to the Contessa's ideas of marriage, and of what her +_protégée_ was to do. He had said if they could catch any decent fellow +with money enough it was the best thing that could happen to the girl, +and that Bice would be no worse off than others, and that she herself, +after the training she had gone through, was very little likely to have +any delicacy on the subject. But when it had once occurred to him that +the girl of whom he spoke so lightly might be his own child, an +extraordinary change came over Sir Tom's views. He laughed no longer--he +became so uneasy lest something should be done or said to affect Bice's +good name, or throw her into evil hands, that his thoughts had circled +unquietly round the house in Mayfair, and he had spent far more of his +time there on the watch than he himself thought right. He knew very well +the explanation that would be given of those visits of his, and he did +not feel sure that some good-natured friends might not have already +suggested suspicion to Lucy, who had certainly been very strange since +their arrival in town. But he would not give up his watch, which was in +a way, he said to himself, his duty, if---- He followed the girl's +movements with disturbed attention, and would hurry into the Park to +ride by her, to shut out an unsuitable cavalier, and make little +lectures to her as to her behaviour with an embarrassed anxiety which +Bice could not understand but which amused more than it benefited the +Contessa, to whom this result of her mystification was the best fun in +the world. But it was not amusing to Sir Tom. He regarded the society of +men who gathered about the ladies with disgust. Montjoie was about the +best--he was not old enough to be much more than silly--but even +Montjoie was not a person whom he would himself choose to be closely +connected with. Then came the question: If it should turn out that she +was _that_ child, was it expedient that any one should know of it? Would +it be better for her to be known as Sir Thomas Randolph's daughter, even +illegitimate, or as the relative and dependent of the Forno-Populo? In +the one case, her interests would have no guardian at all; in the other, +what a shock it would give to his now-established respectability and the +confidence all men had in him, to make such a connection known. Turning +over everything in his thoughts, it even occurred to Sir Tom that it +would be better for him to confess an early secret marriage, and thus +save his own reputation and give to Bice a lawful standing ground. The +poor young mother was dead long ago; there could be no harm in such an +invention. Lucy could not be wounded by anything which happened so long +before he ever saw her. And Bice would be saved from all stigma; if only +it was Bice! if only he could be sure! + +But Sir Tom, whose countenance had not the habit of expressing anything +but a large and humorous content, the careless philosophy of a happy +temper and easy mind, was changed beyond description by the surging up +of such thoughts. He became jealous and suspicious, watching Bice with a +constant impulse to interfere, and even--while disregarding all the +safeguards of his own domestic happiness for this reason--in his heart +condemned the girl because she was not like Lucy, and followed her +movements with a criticism which was as severe as that of the harshest +moralist. + +Nobody in that lighthearted house could understand what had come over +the good Sir Tom, not even the Contessa, who after a manner knew the +reason, yet never imagined that the idea, which gave her a sort of +malicious pleasure, would have led to such a result. Sir Tom had always +been the most genial of hosts, but in his present state of mind even in +this respect he was not himself. He kept his eye on Bice with a +sternness of regard quite out of keeping with his character. If she +should flirt unduly, if she began to show any of those arts which made +the Contessa so fascinating, he felt, with a mingling of self-ridicule +which tickled him in spite of his seriousness, that nothing could keep +him from interposing. He had been charmed in spite of himself, even +while he saw through and laughed at the Contessa's cunning ways; but to +see them in a girl who might, for all he knew, have his own blood in her +veins was a very different matter. He felt it was in him to interpose +roughly, imperiously--and if he did so, would Bice care? She would turn +upon him with smiling defiance, or perhaps ask what right had he to +meddle in her affairs. Thus Sir Tom was so preoccupied that the change +in Lucy, the effort she made to go through her necessary duties, the +blotting out of all her simple kindness and brightness, affected him +only dully as an element of the general confusion, and nothing more. + +But the Contessa, for her part, was radiant. She was victorious all +along the line. She had received Lucy's note informing her of the +provision she meant to make for Bice only that afternoon, and her heart +was dancing with the sense of wealth, of money to spend and endless +capability of pleasure. Whatever happened this was secure, and she had +already in the first hour planned new outlays which would make Lucy's +beneficence very little of a permanent advantage. But she said nothing +of it to Bice, who might (who could tell, girls being at all times +capricious) take into her little head that it was no longer necessary to +encourage Montjoie, on whom at present she looked complacently enough as +the probable giver of all that was best in life. This was almost enough +for one day; but the Contessa fully believed in the proverb that there +is nothing that succeeds like success, and had faith in her own +fortunate star for the other events of the evening. And she had been +splendidly successful. She had altogether vanquished the timid spirit of +the Duchess, that model of propriety. Her entry upon the London world +had been triumphant, and she had all but achieved the honours of the +drawing-room. Unless the Lord Chamberlain should interfere, and why +should he interfere? her appearance in the larger world of society would +be as triumphant as in Park Lane. Her beautiful eyes were swimming in +light, the glow of satisfaction and triumph. It fatigued her a little +indeed to play the part of a virtuous chaperon, and stand or sit in one +place all the evening, awaiting her _débutante_ between the dances, +talking with the other virtuous ladies in the same exercise of patience, +and smilingly keeping aloof from all participation at first hand in the +scene which would have helped to amuse her indeed, but interfered with +the fulfilment of her _rôle_. But she had internal happiness enough to +make up to her for her self-denial. She would order that set of pearls +for Bice and the emerald pendant for herself which had tempted her so +much, to-morrow. And the Duchess was to present her, and probably this +evening Montjoie would propose. Was it possible to expect in this world +a more perfect combination of successes? + +Mr. Derwentwater went off somewhat discomfited to make a tour of the +rooms after the remorseless address of Bice. He tried to smile at the +mock severity of her judgment. He, no more than Montjoie, would believe +that she meant only what she said. This accomplished man of letters and +parts agreed, if in nothing else, in this, with the young fool of +quality, that such extreme candour and plain speaking was some subtle +Italian way of drawing an admirer on. He put it into finer words than +Montjoie could command, and said to himself that it was that mysterious +adorable feminine instinct which attracted by seeming to repel. And even +on a more simple explanation it was comprehensible enough. A girl who +attached so much importance to the accomplishments of society would +naturally be annoyed by the failure in these of one to whom she looked +up. A regret even moved his mind that he had not given more attention to +them in earlier days. It was perhaps foolish to neglect our +acquirements, which after all would not take very much trouble, and need +only be brought forward, as Dogberry says, when there was no need for +such vanities. He determined with a little blush at himself to note +closely how other men did, and so be able another time to acquit himself +to her satisfaction. And even her severity was sweet; it implied that he +was not to her what other men were, that even in the more trifling +accessories of knowledge she would have him to excel. If he had been +quite indifferent to her, why should she have taken this trouble? And +then that "To-morrow; with pleasure." What did it mean? That though she +would not give him her attention to-night, being devoted to her dancing +(which is what girls are brought up to in this strangely imperfect +system), she would do so on the earliest possible occasion. He went +about the room like a man in a dream, following everywhere with his eyes +that vision of beauty, and looking forward to the next step in his +life-drama with an intoxication of hope which he did not attempt to +subdue. He was indeed pleased to experience a _grande passion_. It was a +thing which completed the mental equipment of a man. Love--not humdrum +household affection, such as is all that is looked for when the +exigencies of life make a wife expedient, and with full calculation of +all he requires the man sets out to look for her and marry her. This was +very different, an all-mastering passion, disdainful of every obstacle. +To-morrow! He felt an internal conviction that, though Montjoie might +dance and answer for the amusement of an evening, that bright and +peerless creature would not hesitate as to who should be her guide for +life. + +It was while he was thus roaming about in a state of great excitement +and a subdued ecstasy of anticipation, that he encountered Jock, who had +not been enjoying himself at all. At this great entertainment Jock had +been considered a boy, and no more. Even as a boy, had he danced there +might have been some notice taken of him, but he was incapable in this +way, and in no other could he secure any attention. At a party of a +graver kind there were often people who were well enough pleased to talk +to Jock, and from men who owed allegiance to his school a boy who had +distinguished himself and done credit to the old place was always sure +of notice. But then, though high up in Sixth Form, and capable of any +eminence in Greek verse, he was nobody; while a fellow like Montjoie, +who had never got beyond the rank of lower boy, was in the front of +affairs, the admired of all admirers, Bice's chosen partner and +companion. The mind develops with a bound when it has gone through such +an experience. Jock stood with his back against the wall, and watched +everything from under his eyebrows. Sometimes there was a glimmer as of +moisture in those eyes, half veiled under eyelids heavily curved and +puckered with wrath and pain, for he was very young, not much more than +a child, notwithstanding his manhood. But what with a keenness of +natural sight, and what with the bitter enlightening medium of that +moisture, Jock saw the reality of the scene more clearly than Mr. +Derwentwater, roaming about in his dream of anticipation, self-deceived, +was capable of doing. He caught sight of Jock in his progress, and, +though it was this sentiment which had separated them, its natural +effect was also to throw them together. MTutor paused and took up a +position by his pupil's side. "What a foolish scene considered +philosophically," he said; "and yet how many human interests in +solution, and floating adumbrations of human fate! I have been dancing," +Mr. Derwentwater continued, with some solemnity and a full sense of the +superior position involved, "with, I verily believe, the most beautiful +creature in the world." + +Jock looked up, fixing him with a critical, slightly cynical regard. He +had been well aware of Mr. Derwentwater's very ineffective performance, +and divined too clearly the sentiments of Bice not to feel all a +spectator's derision for this uncalled-for self-complacency; but he made +no remark. + +"There is nothing trivial in the exercise in such a combination. I +incline to think that beauty is almost the greatest of all the +spectacles that Nature sets before us. The effect she has upon us is +greater than that produced by any other influence. You are perhaps too +young to have your mind awakened on such a subject----" + +To hear this foolish wisdom pouring forth, while the listener felt at +every breath how his own bosom thrilled with an emotion too deep to be +put into words, with a passion, hopeless, ridiculous, to which no one +would accord any sympathy or comment but a laugh! Heaven and earth! and +all because a fellow was some dozen years older, thinking himself a man, +and you only a boy! + +"----but you have a fine intelligence, and it can never be amiss for you +to approach a great subject on its most elevated side. She is not much +older than you are, Jock." + +"She is not so old as I am. She is three months younger than I am," +cried Jock, in his gruffest voice. + +"And yet she is a revelation," said Mr. Derwentwater. "I feel that I am +on the eve of a great crisis in my being. You have always been my +favourite, my friend, though you are so much younger; and in this I feel +we are more than ever sympathetic. Jock, to-morrow--to-morrow I am to +see her, to tell her---- Come out on the balcony, there is no one there, +and the moonlight and the pure air of night are more fit for such heart +opening than this crowded scene." + +"What are you going to tell her?" said Jock, with his eyebrows meeting +over his eyes and his back against the wall. "If you think she'll listen +to what you tell her! She likes Montjoie. It is not that he's rich and +that, but she likes him, don't you know, better than any of us. Oh, talk +about mysteries," cried Jock, turning his head away, conscious of that +moisture which half-blinded him, but which he could not get rid of, "how +can you account for that? She likes him, that fellow, better than either +you or me!" + +Better than Jock; far better than this man, his impersonation of noble +manhood, whom the most levelling of all emotions, the more than Red +Republican Love, had suddenly brought down to, nay, below, Jock's +level--for not only was he a fool like Jock, but a hopeful fool, while +Jock had penetrated the fulness of despair, and dismissed all illusion +from his youthful bosom. The boy turned his head away, and the voice +which he had made so gruff quavered at the end. He felt in himself at +that moment all the depths of profound and visionary passion, something +more than any man ever was conscious of who had an object and a hope. +The boy had neither; he neither hoped to marry her nor to get a hearing, +nor even to be taken seriously. Not even the remorse of a serious +passion rejected, the pain of self-reproach, the afterthought of pity +and tenderness would be his. He would get a laugh, nothing more. That +schoolboy, that brother of Lady Randolph's, who does not leave school +for a year! He knew what everybody would say. And yet he loved her +better than any one of them! MTutor startled, touched, went after him as +Jock turned away, and linking his arm in his, said something of the +kind which one would naturally say to a boy. "My dear fellow, you don't +mean to tell me----? Come, Jock! This is but your imagination that +beguiles you. The heart has not learned to speak so soon," MTutor said, +leaning upon Jock's shoulder. The boy turned upon him with a fiery glow +in his eyes. + +"What were you saying about dancing?" he said. "They seem to be making +up that Lancers business again." + + + + +CHAPTER XLVII. + +NEXT MORNING. + + +"You have news to tell me, Bice mia?" + +There was a faint daylight in the streets, a blueness of dawn as the +ladies drove home. + +"Have I? I have amused myself very much. I am not fatigued, no. I could +continue as long--as long as you please," Bice answered, who was sitting +up in her corner with more bloom than at the beginning of the evening, +her eyes shining, a creature incapable of fatigue. The Contessa lay back +in hers, with a languor which was rather adapted to her _rôle_ as a +chaperon than rendered necessary by the fatigue she felt. If she had not +been amused, she was triumphant, and this supplied a still more +intoxicating exhilaration than that of mere pleasure. + +"Darling!" she said, in her most expressive tone. She added a few +moments after, "But Lord Montjoie! He has spoken? I read it in his +face----" + +"Spoken? He said a great deal--some things that made me laugh, some +things that were not amusing. After all he is perhaps a little stupid, +but to dance there is no one like him!" + +"And you go together--to perfection----" + +"Ah!" said Bice, with a long breath of pleasure, "when the people began +to go away, when there was room! Certainly we deserted our other +partners, both he and I. Does that matter in London? He says No." + +"Not, my angel, if you are to marry." + +"That was what he said," said Bice, with superb calm. "Now, I remember +that was what he said; but I answered that I knew nothing of +affairs--that it was to dance I wanted, not to talk; and that it was +you, Madama, who disposed of me. It seemed to amuse him," the girl said +reflectively. "Is it for that reason you kiss me? But it was he that +spoke, as you call it, not I." + +"You are like a little savage," cried the Contessa. "Don't you care then +to make the greatest marriage, to win the prize, to settle everything +with no trouble, before you are presented or anything has been done at +all?" + +"Is it settled then?" said Bice. She shrugged her shoulders a little +within her white cloak. "Is that all?--no more excitement, nothing to +look forward to, no tr-rouble? But it would have been more amusing if +there had been a great deal of tr-rouble," the girl said. + +This was in the blue dawn, when the better portion of the world which +does not go to balls was fast asleep, the first pioneers of day only +beginning to stir about the silent streets, through which now and then +the carriage of late revellers like themselves darted abrupt with a +clang that had in it something of almost guilt. Twelve hours after, the +Contessa in her boudoir--with not much more than light enough to see the +flushed and happy countenance of young Montjoie, who had been on thorns +all the night and morning with a horrible doubt in his mind lest, after +all, Bice's careless reply might mean nothing more than that fine system +of drawing a fellow on--settled everything in the most delightful way. + +"Nor is she without a sou, as perhaps you think. She has something that +will not bear comparison with your wealth, yet something--which has been +settled upon her by a relation. The Forno-Populi are not rich--but +neither are they without friends." + +Montjoie listened to this with a little surprise and impatience. He +scarcely believed it, for one thing; and when he was assured that all +was right as to Bice herself, he cared but little for the Forno-Populi. +"I don't know anything about the sous. I have plenty for both," he said, +"that had a great deal better go to you, don't you know. She is all I +want. Bice! oh that's too foreign. I shall call her Bee, for she must be +English, don't you know, Countess, none of your Bohem--Oh, I don't mean +that; none of your foreign ways. They draw a fellow on, but when it's +all settled and we're married and that sort of thing, she'll have to be +out and out English, don't you know?" + +"But that is reasonable," said the Contessa, who could when it was +necessary reply very distinctly. "When one has a great English name and +a position to keep up, one must be English. You shall call her what you +please." + +"There's one thing more," Montjoie said with a little redness and +hesitation, but a certain dogged air, with which the Contessa had not as +yet made acquaintance. "It's best to understand each other, don't you +know; it's sort of hard-hearted to take her right away. But, Countess, +you're a woman of the world, and you know a fellow must start fair. You +keep all those sous you were talking of, and just let us knock along our +own way. I don't want the money, and I dare say you'll find a use for +it. And let's start fair; it'll be better for all parties, don't you +know," the young man said. He reddened, but he met the Contessa's eye +unflinchingly, though the effort to respond to this distinct statement +in the spirit in which it was made cost her a struggle. She stared at +him for a moment across the dainty little table laden with knick-knacks. +It was strange in the moment of victory to receive such a sudden +decisive defeat. There was just a possibility for a moment that this +brave spirit should own itself mere woman, and break down and cry. For +one second there was a quiver on her lip; then she smiled, which for +every purpose was the better way. + +"You would like," she said, "to see Bice. She is in the little +drawing-room. The lawyers will settle the rest; but I understand your +suggestion, Lord Montjoie." She rose with all her natural stately grace, +which made the ordinary young fellow feel very small in spite of +himself. The smile she gave him had something in it that made his knees +knock together. + +"I hope," he said, faltering, "you don't mind, Countess. My people, +though I've not got any people to speak of, might make themselves +disagreeable about--don't you know? you--you're a woman of the world." + +The Contessa smiled upon him once more with dazzling sweetness. "She is +in the little drawing-room," she said. + +And so it was concluded, the excitement, the tr-rouble, as Bice said; it +would have been far more amusing if there had been a great deal more +tr-rouble. The Contessa dropped down in the corner of the sofa from +which she had risen. She closed her eyes for the moment, and swallowed +the affront that had been put upon her, and what was worse than the +affront, the blow at her heart which this trifling little lord had +delivered without flinching. This was to be the end of her schemes, that +she was to be separated summarily and remorselessly from the child she +had brought up. The Contessa knew, being of the same order of being, +that, already somewhat disappointed to find the ardour of the chase over +and all the excitement of bringing down the quarry, Bice, who cared +little more about Montjoie than about any other likely person, would be +as ready as not to throw him off if she were to communicate rashly the +conditions on which he insisted. But, though she was of the same order +of being, the Contessa was older and wiser. She had gone through a great +many experiences. She knew that rich young English peers, marquises, +uncontrolled by any parent or guardians, were fruit that did not grow on +every bush, and that if this tide of fortune was not taken at its flood +there was no telling when another might come. Now, though Bice was so +dear, the Contessa had still a great many resources of her own, and was +neither old nor tired of life. She would make herself a new career even +without Bice, in which there might still be much interest--especially +with the aid of a settled income. The careless speech about the sous was +not without an eloquence of its own. Sous make everything that is +disagreeable less disagreeable, and everything that is pleasant more +pleasant. And she had got her triumph. She had secured for her Bice a +splendid lot. She had accomplished what she had vowed to do, which many +scoffers had thought she would never do. She was about to be presented +at the English Court, and all her soils and spots from the world cleared +from her, and herself rehabilitated wherever she might go. Was it +reasonable then to break her heart over Montjoie and his miserable +conditions? He could not separate Bice's love from her, though he might +separate their lives--and that about the sous was generous. She was not +one who would have sold her affections or given up anybody whom she +loved for money. But still there were many things to be said, and for +Bice's advantage what would she not do? The Contessa ended by a +resolution which many a better woman would not have had the courage to +make. She buried Montjoie's condition in her own heart--never to hint +its existence--to ignore it as if it had not been. Many a more +satisfactory person would have flinched at this. Most of us would at +least have allowed the object of our sacrifice to be aware what we were +doing for them. The Contessa did not even, so far as this, yield to the +temptation of fate. + +In the meantime Bice had gone through her own little episode. Mr. +Derwentwater came about noon, before the Contessa was up; but he did not +know the Contessa's habits, and he was admitted, which neither Montjoie +nor any of the Contessa's friends would have been. He was overjoyed to +find the lady of his affections alone. This made everything, he thought, +simple and easy for him, and filled him with a delightful confidence +that she was prepared for the object of his visit and had contrived to +keep the Contessa out of the way. His heart was beating high, his mind +full of excitement. He took the chair she pointed him to, and then got +up again, poising his hat between his hands. + +"Signorina," he said, "they say that a woman always knows the impression +she has made." + +"Why do you call me Signorina?" said Bice. "Yes, it is quite right. But +then it is so long that I have not heard it, and it is only you that +call me so." + +"Perhaps," said Mr. Derwentwater, with a little natural complacency, +"others are not so well acquainted with your beautiful country and +language. What should I call you? Ah, I know what I should like to call +you. _Beatrice, loda di deo vera._ You are like the supreme and sovran +lady whom every one must think of who hears your name." + +Bice looked at him with a half-comic attention. "You are a very learned +man," she said, "one can see that. You always say something that is +pretty, that one does not understand." + +This piqued the suitor a little and brought the colour to his cheek. +"Teach me," he said, "to make you understand me. If I could show you my +heart, you would see that from the first moment I saw you the name of +Bice has been written----" + +"Oh, I know it already," cried Bice, "that you have a great devotion for +poetry. Unhappily I have no education. I know it so very little. But I +have found out what you mean about Bice. It is more soft than you say +it. There is no sound of _tch_ in it at all. Beeshè, like that. Your +Italian is very good," she added, "but it is Tuscan, and the _bocca +romana_ is the best." + +Mr. Derwentwater was more put out than it became a philosopher to be. "I +came," he cried, with a kind of asperity, "for a very different purpose, +not to be corrected in my Italian. I came----" but here his feelings +were too strong for him, "to lay my life and my heart at your feet. Do +you understand me now? To tell you that I love you--no, that is not +enough, it is not love, it is adoration," he said. "I have never known +what it meant before. However fair women might be, I have passed them +by; my heart has never spoken. But now! Since the first moment I saw +you, Bice----" + +The girl rose up; she became a little alarmed. Emotion was strange to +her, and she shrank from it. "I have given," she said, "to nobody +permission to call me by my name." + +"But you will give it to me! to your true lover," he cried. "No one can +admire and adore you as much as I do. It was from the first moment. +Bice, oh, listen! I have nothing to offer you but love, the devotion of +a life. What could a king give more? A true man cannot think of anything +else when he is speaking to the woman he loves. Nothing else is worthy +to offer you. Bice, I love you! I love you! Have you nothing, nothing in +return to say to me?" + +All his self-importance and intellectual superiority had abandoned him. +He was so much agitated that he saw her but dimly through the mists of +excitement and passion. He stretched out his hands appealing to her. He +might have been on his knees for anything he knew. It seemed incredible +to him that his strong passion should have no return. + +"Have you nothing, nothing to say to me?" he cried. + +Bice had been frightened, but she had regained her composure. She looked +on at this strange exhibition of feeling with the wondering calm of +extreme youth. She was touched a little, but more surprised than +anything else. She said, with a slight tremor, "I think it must be all a +mistake. One is never so serious--oh, never so serious! It is not +something of--gravity like that. Did not you know? I am intended to make +a marriage--to marry well, very well--what you call a great marriage. It +is for that I am brought here. The Contessa would never listen--Oh, it +is a mistake altogether--a mistake! You do not know what is my career. +It has all been thought of since I was born. Pray, pray, go away, and do +not say any more." + +"Bice," he cried, more earnestly than ever, "I know. I heard that you +were to be sacrificed. Who is the lady who is going to sacrifice you to +Mammon? she is not your mother; you owe her no obedience. It is your +happiness, not hers, that is at stake. And I will preserve you from her. +I will guard you like my own soul; the winds of heaven shall not visit +your cheek roughly. I will cherish you; I will adore you. Come, only +come to me." + +His voice was husky with emotion; his last words were scarcely audible, +said within his breath in a high strain of passion which had got beyond +his control. The contrast between this tremendous force of feeling and +her absolute youthful calm was beyond description. It was more wonderful +than anything ever represented on the tragic stage. Only in the depth +and mystery of human experience could such a wonderful juxtaposition be. + +"Mr. Derwentwater," she said, trembling a little, "I cannot understand +you. Go away, oh, go away!" + +"Bice!" + +"Go away, oh, go away! I am not able to bear it; no one is ever so +serious. I am not great enough, nor old enough. Don't you know," cried +Bice, with a little stamp of her foot, "I like the other way best? Oh, +go away, go away!" + +He stood quiet, silently gazing at her till he had regained his power of +speech, which was not for a moment or two. Then he said hoarsely, "You +like--the other way best?" + +She clasped her hands together with a mingling of impatience and wonder +and rising anger. "I am made like that," she cried. "I don't know how to +be so serious. Oh, go away from me. You tr-rouble me. I like the other +best." + +He never knew how he got out of the strange, unnatural atmosphere of the +house in which he seemed to leave his heart behind him. The perfumes, +the curtains, the half lights, the blending draperies, were round him +one moment; the next he found himself in the greenness of the Park, with +the breeze blowing in his face, and his dream ended and done with. + +He had a kind of vision of having touched the girl's reluctant hand, and +even of having seen a frightened look in her eyes as if he had awakened +some echo or touched some string whose sound was new to her. But if that +were so, it was not he, but only some discovery of unknown feeling that +moved her. When he came to himself, he felt that all the innocent +morning people in the Park, the children with their maids, the sick +ladies and old men sunning themselves on the benches, the people going +about their honest business, cast wondering looks at his pale face and +the agitation of his aspect. He took a long walk, he did not know how +long, with that strange sense that something capital had happened to +him, something never to be got over or altered, which follows such an +incident in life. He was even conscious by and by, habit coming to his +aid, of a curious question in his mind if this was how people usually +felt after such a wonderful incident--a thing that had happened quite +without demonstration, which nobody could ever know of, yet which made +as much change in him as if he had been sentenced to death. Sentenced to +death! that was what it felt like more or less. It had happened, and +could never be undone, and he walked away and away, but never got beyond +it, with the chain always round his neck. When he got into the streets +where nobody took any notice of him, it struck him with surprise, almost +offence. Was it possible that they did not see that something had +happened--a mystery, something that would never be shaken off but with +life? + +He met Jock as he walked, and without stopping gave him a sort of +ghastly smile, and said, "You were right; she likes that best," and went +on again, with a sense that he might go on for ever like the wandering +Jew, and never get beyond the wonder and the pain. + +And there is no doubt that Bice was glad to hear Montjoie's laugh, and +the nonsense he talked, and to throw off that sudden impression which +had frightened her. What was it? Something which was in life, but which +she had not met with before. "We are to have it all our own way, don't +you know?" Montjoie said. "I have no people, to call people, and she is +not going to interfere. We shall have it all our own way, and have a +good time, as the Yankees say. And I am not going to call you Bice, +which is a silly sort of name, and spells quite different from its +pronunciation. What are you holding back for? You have no call to be shy +with me now. Bee, you belong to me now, don't you know?" the young +fellow said, with demonstrations from which Bice shrunk a little. She +liked, yes, his way; but, but yet--she was perhaps a little savage, as +the Contessa said. + + + + +CHAPTER XLVIII. + +THE LAST BLOW. + + +Lucy stood out stoutly to the last gasp. She did not betray herself, +except by the paleness, the seriousness which she could not banish from +her countenance. Her guests thought that Lady Randolph must be ill, that +she was disguising a bad headache, or even something more serious, under +the smile with which she received them. "I am sure you ought to be in +bed," the older ladies said, and when they took their leave of her, +after their congratulations as to the success of the evening, they all +repeated this in various tones. "I am sure you are quite worn out; I +shall send in the morning to ask how you are," the Duchess said. Lucy +listened to everything with a smile which was somewhat set and painful. +She was so worn out with emotion and pain that at last neither words nor +looks made much impression upon her. She saw the Contessa and Bice +stream by to their carriage with a circle of attendants, still in all +the dazzle and flash of their triumph; and after that the less important +crowd, the insignificant people who lingered to the last, the girls who +would not give up a last waltz, and the men who returned for a final +supper, swam in her dazed eyes. She stood at the door mechanically +shaking hands and saying "Good-night." The Dowager, moved by curiosity, +anxiety, perhaps by pity, kept by her till a late hour, though Lucy was +scarcely aware of it. When she went away at last, she repeated with +earnestness and a certain compunction the advice of the other ladies. +"You don't look fit to stand," she said. "If you will go to bed I will +wait till all these tiresome people are gone. You have been doing too +much, far too much." "It does not matter," Lucy said, in her +semi-consciousness hearing her own voice like something in a dream. "Oh, +my dear, I am quite unhappy about you!" Lady Randolph cried. "If you are +thinking of what I told you, Lucy, perhaps it may not be true." There +was a bevy of people going away at that moment, and she had to shake +hands with them. She waited till they were gone and then turned, with a +laugh that frightened the old lady, towards her. + +"You should have thought of that before," she said. Perhaps it might not +be true! Can heaven be veiled and the pillars of the earth pulled down +by a perhaps? The laugh sounded even to herself unnatural, and the elder +Lady Randolph was frightened by it, and stole away almost without +another word. When everybody was gone Sir Tom stood by her in the +deserted rooms, with all the lights blazing and the blue day coming in +through the curtains, as grave and as pale as she was. They did not look +like the exhausted yet happy entertainers of the (as yet) most +successful party of the season. Lucy could scarcely stand and could not +speak at all, and he seemed little more fit for those mutual +congratulations, even the "Thank heaven it is well over," with which the +master and the mistress of the house usually salute each other in such +circumstances. They stood at different ends of the room, and made no +remark. At last, "I suppose you are going to bed," Sir Tom said. He came +up to her in a preoccupied way. "I shall go and smoke a cigar first, and +it does not seem much good lighting a candle for you." They both looked +somewhat drearily at the daylight, now no longer blue, but rosy. Then +he laid his hand upon her shoulder. "You are dreadfully tired, Lucy, and +I think there has been something the matter with you these few days. I'd +ask you what it was, but I'm dead beat, and you are dreadfully tired +too." He stopped and kissed her forehead, and took her hand in his in a +sort of languid way. "Good-night; go to bed my poor little woman," he +said. + +It is terrible to be wroth with those we love. Anger against them is +deadly to ourselves. It "works like madness in the brain;" it involves +heaven and earth in a gloom that nothing can lighten. But when that +anger being just, and such as we must not depart from, is crossed by +those unspeakable relentings, those quick revivals of love, those sudden +touches of tenderness that carry all before them, what anguish is equal +to those bitter sweetnesses? Lucy felt this as she stood there with her +husband's hand upon her shoulder, in utter fatigue, and broken down in +all her faculties. Through all those dark and bitter mists which rose +about her, his voice broke like a ray of light: her timid heart sprang +up in her bosom and went out to him with an _abandon_ which, but for the +extreme physical fatigue which produces a sort of apathy, must have +broken down everything. For a moment she swayed towards him as if she +would have thrown herself upon his breast. + +When this movement comes to both the estranged persons, there follows a +clearing away of difficulties, a revolution of the heart, a +reconciliation when that is possible, and sometimes when it is not +possible. But it very seldom happens that this comes to both at the same +time. Sir Tom remained unmoved while his wife had that sudden access of +reawakened tenderness. He was scarcely aware even how far she had been +from him, and now was quite unaware how near. His mind was full of cares +and doubts, and an embarrassing situation which he could not see how to +manage. He was not even aware that she was moved beyond the common. He +took his hand from her shoulder, and without another word let her go +away. + +Oh, those other words that are never spoken! They are counterbalanced in +the record of human misfortune by the many other words which are too +much, which should never have been spoken at all. Thus all explanation, +all ending of the desperate situation, was staved off for another night. + +Lucy woke next morning in a kind of desperation. No new event had +happened, but she could not rest. She felt that she must do something or +die, and what could she do? She spent the early morning in the nursery, +and then went out. This time she was reasonable, not like that former +time when she went out to the city. She knew very well now that nothing +was to be gained by walking or by jolting in a disagreeable cab. On the +former occasion that had been something of a relief to her; but not now. +It is scarcely so bad when some out-of-the-way proceeding like this, +some strange thing to be done, gives the hurt and wounded spirit a +little relief. She had come to the further stage now when she knew that +nothing of the sort could give any relief; nothing but mere dull +endurance, going on, and no more. She drove to Mr. Chervil's office +quietly, as she might have gone anywhere, and thus, though it seems +strange to say so, betrayed a deeper despair than before. She took with +her a list of names with sums written opposite. There was enough there +put down to make away with a large fortune. This one so much, that one +so much. This too was an impulse of the despair in her mind. She was +carrying out her father's will in a lump. It meant no exercise of +discrimination, no careful choice of persons to be benefited, such as he +had intended, but only a hurried rush at a duty which she had neglected, +a desire to be done with it. Lucy was on the eve, she felt, of some +great change in her life. She could not tell what she might be able to +do after; whether she should live through it or bring her mind and +memory unimpaired through it, or think any longer of anything that had +once been her duty. She would get it done while she could. She was very +sensible that the money she had given to Bice was not in accordance with +what her father would have wished: neither were these perhaps. She could +not tell, she did not care. At least it would be done with, and could +not be done over again. + +"Lady Randolph," said Mr. Chervil, in dismay, "have you any idea of the +sum you are--throwing away?" + +"I have no idea of any sum," said Lucy, gently, "except just the money I +spend, so much in my purse. But you have taught me how to calculate, and +that so much would--make people comfortable. Is not that what you said? +Well, if it was not you, it was--I do not remember. When I first got the +charge of this into my hands----" + +"Lady Randolph, you cannot surely think what you are doing. At the +worst," said the distressed trustee, "this was meant to be a fund +for--beneficence all your life: not to be squandered away, thousands and +thousands in a day----" + +"Is it squandered when it gives comfort--perhaps even happiness? And +how do you know how long my life may last? It may be over--in a day----" + +"You are ill," said the lawyer. "I thought so the moment I saw you. I +felt sure you were not up to business to-day." + +"I don't think I am ill," said Lucy; "a little tired, for I was late +last night--did not you know we had a ball, a very pretty ball?" she +added, with a curious smile, half of gratification, half of mockery. "It +was a strange thing to have, perhaps, just--at this moment." + +"A very natural thing," said Mr. Chervil. "I am glad to know it; you are +so young, Lady Randolph, pardon me for saying so." + +"It was not for me," said Lucy; "it was for a young lady--my +husband's----" + +Was she going out of her senses? What was she about to say? + +"A relation?" said Mr. Chervil. "Perhaps the young lady for whom you +interested yourself so much in a more important way? They are fortunate, +Lady Randolph, who have you for a friend." + +"Do you think so? I don't know that any one thinks so." She recovered +herself a little and pointed to the papers. "You will carry that out, +please. I may be going away. I am not quite sure of my movements. As +soon as you can you will carry this out." + +"Going away--at the beginning of the season!" + +"Oh, there is nothing settled; and besides you know life--life is very +insecure." + +"At your age it is very seldom one thinks so," said the lawyer, at which +she smiled only, then rose up, and without any further remark went away. +He saw her to her carriage, not now with any recollection of the +pleasant show and the exhibition of so fine a client to the admiration +of his neighbours. He had a heart after all, and daughters of his own; +and he was troubled more than he could say. He stood bare-headed and saw +her drive away, with a look of anxiety upon his face. Was it the same +bee in her bonnet which old Trevor had shown so conspicuously? was it +eccentricity verging upon madness? He went back to his office and wrote +to Sir Tom, enclosing a copy of Lucy's list. "I must ask your advice in +the matter instead of offering you mine," he wrote. "Lady Randolph has a +right, of course, if she chooses to press matters to an extremity, but I +can't fancy that this is right." + +Lucy went home still in the same strange excitement of mind. All had +been executed that was in her programme. She had gone through it without +flinching. The ball--that strange, frivolous-tragic effort of +despair--it was over, thank heaven! and Bice had got full justice in +her--was it in her--father's house? She could not have been introduced +to greater advantage, Lucy thought, with a certain forlorn, simple +pride, had she been Sir Tom's acknowledged daughter. Oh, not to so much +advantage! for the Contessa, her guardian, her----was far more skilful +than Lucy ever could have been. Bice had got her triumph; nothing had +been neglected. And the other business was in train--the disposing of +the money. She had made her wishes fully known, and even taken great +trouble, calculating and transcribing to prevent any possibility of a +mistake. And now, now the moment had come, the crisis of life when she +must tell her husband what she had heard, and say to him that this +existence could not go on any longer. A man could not have two lives. +She did not mean to upbraid him. What good would it do to upbraid? none, +none at all; that would not make things as they were again, or return +to her him whom she had lost. She had not a word to say to him, except +that it was impossible--that it could not go on any more. + +To think that she should have this to say to him made everything dark +about her as Lucy went home. She felt as if the world must come to an +end to-night. All was straightforward, now that the need of +self-restraint was over. She contemplated no delay or withdrawal from +her position. She went in to accomplish this dark and miserable +necessity like a martyr going to the cross. She would go and see baby +first, who was his boy as well as hers. Sir Tom no doubt would be in his +library, and would come out for luncheon after a while, but not until +she had spoken. But first she would go, just for a little needful +strength, and kiss her boy. + +Fletcher met her at the head of the stairs. + +"Oh, if you please, my lady--not to hurry you or frighten you--but nurse +says please would you step in and look at baby." + +Suddenly, in a moment, Lucy's whole being changed. She forgot +everything. Her languor disappeared and her fatigue. She sprang up to +where the woman was standing. "What is it? is he ill? Is it the old----" +She hurried along towards the nursery as she spoke. + +"No, my lady, nothing he has had before; but nurse thinks he looks--oh, +my lady, there will be nothing to be frightened about--we have sent for +the doctor." + +Lucy was in the room where little Tom was, before Fletcher had finished +what she was saying. The child was seated on his nurse's knee. His eyes +were heavy, yet blazing with fever. He was plucking with his little hot +hands at the woman's dress, flinging himself about her, from one arm, +from one side to the other. When he saw his mother he stretched out +towards her. Just eighteen months old; not able to express a thought; +not much, you will say, perhaps, to change to a woman the aspect of +heaven and earth. She took him into her arms without a word, and laid +her cheek--which was so cool, fresh with the morning air, though her +heart was so fevered and sick--against the little cheek, which burned +and glowed. "What is it? Can you tell what it is?" she said in a whisper +of awe. Was it God Himself who had stepped in--who had come to +interfere? + +Then the baby began to wail with that cry of inarticulate suffering +which is the most pitiful of all the utterances of humanity. He could +not tell what ailed him. He looked with his great dazed eyes pitifully +from one to another as if asking them to help him. + +"It is the fever, my lady," said the nurse. "We have sent for the +doctor. It may not be a bad attack." + +Lucy sat down, her limbs failing her, her heart failing her still more, +her bonnet and out-door dress cumbering her movements, the child tossing +and restless in her arms. This was not the form his ailments had ever +taken before. "Do you know what is to be done? Tell me what to do for +him," she said. + +There was a kind of hush over all the house. The servants would not +admit that anything was wrong until their mistress should come home. As +soon as she was in the nursery and fully aware of the state of affairs, +they left off their precautions. The maids appeared on the staircases +clandestinely as they ought not to have done. Mrs. Freshwater herself +abandoned her cosy closet, and declared in an impressive voice that no +bell must be rung for luncheon--nor anything done that could possibly +disturb the blessed baby, she said as she gave the order. And Williams +desired to know what was preparing for Mr. Randolph's dinner, and +announced his intention of taking it up himself. The other meal, the +lunch, in the dining-room, was of no importance to any one. If he could +take his beef-tea it would do him good, they all said. + +It seemed as if a long time passed before the doctor came; from Sir Tom +to the youngest kitchen-wench, the scullery-maid, all were in suspense. +There was but one breath, long drawn and stifled, when he came into the +house. He was a long time in the nursery, and when he came out he went +on talking to those who accompanied him. "You had better shut off this +part of the house altogether," he was saying, "hang a sheet over this +doorway, and let it be always kept wet. I will send in a person I can +rely upon to take the night. You must not let Lady Randolph sit up." He +repeated the same caution to Sir Tom, who came out with a bewildered air +to hear what he had said. Sir Tom was the only one who had taken no +fright. "Highly infectious," the Doctor said. "I advise you to send away +every one who is not wanted. If Lady Randolph could be kept out of the +room so much the better, but I don't suppose that is possible; anyhow, +don't let her sit up. She is just in the condition to take it. It would +be better if you did not go near the child yourself; but, of course, I +understand how difficult that is. Parents are a nuisance in such cases," +the Doctor said, with a smile which Sir Tom thought heartless, though it +was intended to cheer him. "It is far better to give the little patient +over to scientific unemotional care." + +"But you don't mean to say that there is danger, Doctor," cried Sir Tom. +"Why, the little beggar was as jolly as possible only this morning." + +"Oh, we'll pull him through, we'll pull him through," the good-natured +Doctor said. He preferred to talk all the time, not to be asked +questions, for what could he say? Nurse looked very awful as she went +upstairs, charged with private information almost too important for any +woman to contain. She stopped at the head of the stairs to whisper to +Fletcher, shaking her head the while, and Fletcher, too, shook her head +and whispered to Mrs. Freshwater that the doctor had a very bad opinion +of the case. Poor little Tom had got to be "the case" all in a moment. +And "no constitution" they said to each other under their breath. + +Thus the door closed upon Lucy and all her trouble. She forgot it clean, +as if it never had existed. Everything in the world in one moment became +utterly unimportant to her, except the fever in those heavy eyes. She +reflected dimly, with an awful sense of having forestalled fate, that +she had made a pretence that he was ill to shield herself that night, +the first night after their arrival. She had said he was ill when all +was well. And lo! sudden punishment scathing and terrible had come to +her out of the angry skies. + + + + +CHAPTER XLIX. + +THE EXPERIENCES OF BICE. + + +Sir Tom was concerned and anxious, but not alarmed like the women. After +all it was a complaint of which children recovered every day. It had +nothing to do with the child's lungs, which had been enfeebled by his +former illness. He had as good a chance as any other in the present +malady. Sir Tom was much depressed for an hour or two, but when +everything was done that could be done, and an experienced woman arrived +to whom the "case," though "anxious," as she said, did not appear +immediately alarming, he forced his mind to check that depression, and +to return to the cares which, if less grave, harassed and worried him +more. Lucy was invisible all day. She spoke to him through the closed +door from behind the curtain, but in a voice which he could scarcely +hear and which had no tone of individuality in it, but only a faint +human sound of distress. "He is no better. They say we cannot expect him +to be better," she said. "Come down, dear, and have some dinner," said +the round and large voice of Sir Tom, which even into that stillness +brought a certain cheer. But as it sounded into the shut-up room, where +nobody ventured to speak above their breath, it was like a bell pealing +or a discharge of artillery, something that broke up the quiet, and +made, or so the poor mother thought, the little patient start in his +uneasy bed. Dinner! oh how could he ask it, how could he think of it? +Sir Tom went away with a sigh of mingled uneasiness and impatience. He +had always thought Lucy a happy exception to the caprices and vagaries +of womankind. He had hoped that she was without nerves, as she had +certainly been without those whims that amuse a man in other people's +wives, but disgust him in his own. Was she going to turn out just like +the rest, with extravagant terrors, humours, fancies--like all of them? +Why should not she come to dinner, and why speak to him only from behind +the closed door? He was annoyed and almost angry with Lucy. There had +been something the matter, he reflected, for some time. She had taken +offence at something; but surely the appearance of a real trouble might, +at least, have made an end of that. He felt vexed and impatient as he +sat down with Jock alone. "You will have to get out of this, my boy," he +said, "or they won't let you go back to school; don't you know it's +catching?" To have infection in one's house, and to be considered +dangerous by one's friends, is always irritating. Sir Tom spoke with a +laugh, but it was a laugh of offence. "I ought to have thought of it +sooner," he said; "you can't go straight to school, you know, from a +house with fever in it. You must pack up and get off at once." + +"I am not afraid," cried Jock. "Do you think I am such a cad as to leave +Lucy when she's in trouble? or--or--the little one either?" Jock added, +in a husky voice. + +"We are all cads in that respect nowadays," said Sir Tom. "It is the +right thing. It is high principle. Men will elbow off and keep me at a +distance, and not a soul will come near Lucy. Well, I suppose, it's all +right. But there is some reason in it, so far as you are concerned. +Come, you must be off to-night. Get hold of MTutor, he's still in town, +and ask him what you must do." + +After dinner Sir Tom strolled forth. He did not mean to go out, but the +house was intolerable, and he was very uneasy on the subject of Bice. It +felt, indeed, something like a treason to Lucy, shut up in the child's +sick-room, to go to the house which somehow or other was felt to be in +opposition, and dimly suspected as the occasion of her changed looks and +ways. He did not even say to himself that he meant to go there. And it +was not any charm in the Contessa that drew him. It was that uneasy +sense of a possibility which involved responsibility, and which, +probably, he would never either make sure of or get rid of. The little +house in Mayfair was lighted from garret to basement. If the lights were +dim inside they looked bright without. It had the air of a house +overflowing with life, every room with its sign of occupation. When he +got in, the first sight he saw was Montjoie striding across the doorway +of the small dining-room. Montjoie was very much at home, puffing his +cigarette at the new comer. "Hallo, St. John!" he cried, then added with +a tone of disappointment, "Oh! it's you." + +"It is I, I'm sorry to say, as you don't seem to like it," said Sir Tom. + +The young fellow looked a little abashed. "I expected another fellow. +That's not to say I ain't glad to see you. Come in and have a glass of +wine." + +"Thank you," said Sir Tom. "I suppose as you are smoking the ladies are +upstairs." + +"Oh, they don't mind," said Montjoie; "at least the Contessa, don't you +know? She's up to a cigarette herself. I shouldn't stand it," he added, +after a moment, "in--Mademoiselle. Oh, perhaps you haven't heard. She +and I--have fixed it all up, don't you know?" + +"Fixed it all up?" + +"Engaged, and that sort of thing. I'm a kind of boss in this house now. +I thought, perhaps, that was why you were coming, to hear all about it, +don't you know?" + +"Engaged!" cried Sir Tom, with a surprise in which there was no +qualification. He felt disposed to catch the young fellow by the throat +and pitch him out of doors. + +"You don't seem over and above pleased," said Montjoie, throwing away +his cigarette, and confronting Sir Tom with a flush of defiance. They +stood looking at each other for a moment, while Antonio, in the +background, watched at the foot of the stairs, not without hopes of a +disturbance. + +"I don't suppose that my pleasure or displeasure matters much: but you +will pardon me if I pass, for my visit was to the Contessa," Sir Tom +said, going on quickly. He was in an irritable state of mind to begin +with. He thought he ought to have been consulted, even as an old friend, +much more as---- And the young ass was offensive. If it turned out that +Sir Tom had anything to do with it Montjoie should find that to be the +best _parti_ of the season was not a thing that would infallibly +recommend him to a father at least. The Contessa had risen from her +chair at the sound of the voices. She came forward to Sir Tom with both +her hands extended as he entered the drawing-room. "Dear old friend! +congratulate me. I have accomplished all I wished," she said. + +"That was Montjoie," said Sir Tom. He laughed, but not with his usual +laugh. "No great ambition, I am afraid. But," he said, pressing those +delicate hands not as they were used to be pressed, with a hard +seriousness and imperativeness, "you must tell me! I must have an +explanation. There can be no delay or quibbling longer." + +"You hurt me, sir," she said with a little cry, and looked at her hands, +"body and mind," she added, with one of her smiles. "Quibbling--that is +one of your English words a woman cannot be expected to understand. Come +then with me, barbarian, into my boudoir." + +Bice sat alone somewhat pensively with one of those favourite Tauchnitz +volumes from which she had obtained her knowledge of English life in her +hand. It was contraband, which made it all the dearer to her. She was +not reading, but leaning her chin against it lost in thought. She was +not pining for the presence of Montjoie, but rather glad after a long +afternoon of him that he should prefer a cigarette to her company. She +felt that this was precisely her own case, the cigarette being +represented by the book or any other expedient that answered to cover +the process of thought. + +Bice was not used to these processes. Keen observation of the ways of +mankind in all the strange exhibitions of them which she had seen in her +life had been the chief exercise of her lively intelligence. To Mr. +Derwentwater, perhaps, may be given the credit of having roused the +girl's mind, not indeed to sympathy with himself, but into a kind of +perturbation and general commotion of spirit. Events were crowding +quickly upon her. She had accepted one suitor and refused another within +the course of a few hours. Such incidents develop the being; not, +perhaps, the first in any great degree--but the second was not in the +programme, and it had perplexed and roused her. There had come into her +mind glimmerings, reflections, she could not tell what. Montjoie was +occupied in something of the same manner downstairs, thinking it all +over with his cigarette, wondering what Society and what his uncle would +say, for whom he had a certain respect. He said to himself on the whole +that he did not care that for Society! She suited him down to the +ground. She was the jolliest girl he had ever met, besides being so +awfully handsome. It was worth while going out riding with her just to +see how the fellows stared and the women grew green with envy; or coming +into a room with her, Jove! what a sensation she would make, and how +everybody would open their eyes when she appeared blazing in the +Montjoie diamonds! His satisfaction went a little deeper than this, to +do him justice. He was, in his way, very much in love with the beautiful +creature whom he had made up his mind to secure from the first moment he +saw her. But, perhaps, if it had not been for the triumph of her +appearance at Park Lane, and the hum of admiration and wonder that rose +around her, he would not have so early fixed his fate; and the shadow of +the uncle now and then came like a cloud over his glee. After the sudden +gravity with which he remembered this, there suddenly gleamed upon him a +vision of all his plain cousins gathering round his bride to scowl her +down, and blast her with criticism and disapproval, which made him burst +into a fit of laughter. Bice would hold her own; she would give as good +as she got. She was not one to be cowed or put down, wasn't Bee! He felt +himself clapping his hands and urging her on to the combat, and +celebrated in advance with a shout of laughter the discomfiture of all +those young ladies. But she should have nothing more to do with the +Forno-Populo. No; his wife should have none of that sort about her. What +did old Randolph mean always hanging about that old woman, and all the +rest of the old fogeys? It was fun enough so long as you had nothing to +do with them, but, by Jove, not for Lady Montjoie. Then he rushed +upstairs to shower a few rough caresses upon Bice and take his leave of +her, for he had an evening engagement formed before he was aware of the +change which was coming in his life. He had been about her all the +afternoon, and Bice, disturbed in her musings by this onslaught and +somewhat impatient of the caresses, beheld his departure with +satisfaction. It was the first evening since their arrival in town, +which the ladies had planned to spend alone. + +And then she recommenced these thinkings which were not so easy as those +of her lover: but she was soon subject to another inroad of a very +different kind. Jock, who had never before come in the evening, appeared +suddenly unannounced at the door of the room with a pale and heavy +countenance. Though Bice had objected to be disturbed by her lover, she +did not object to Jock; he harmonised with the state of her mind, which +Montjoie did not. It seemed even to relieve her of the necessity of +thinking when he appeared--he who did thinking enough, she felt, with +half-conscious humour, for any number of people. He came in with a sort +of eagerness, yet weariness, and explained that he had come to say +good-bye, for he was going off--at once. + +"Going off! but it is not time yet," Bice said. + +"Because of the fever. But that is not altogether why I have come +either," he said, looking at her from under his curved eyebrows. "I have +got something to say." + +"What fever?" she said, sitting upright in her chair. + +Jock took no notice of the question; his mind was full of his own +purpose. "Look here," he said huskily, "I know you'll never speak to me +again. But there's something I want to say. We've been friends----" + +"Oh yes," she said, raising her head with a gleam of frank and cordial +pleasure, "good friends--_camarades_--and I shall always, always speak +to you. You were my first friend." + +"That is" said Jock, taking no notice, "you were--friends. I can't tell +what I was. I don't know. It's something very droll. You would laugh, I +suppose. But that's not to the purpose either. You wouldn't have +Derwentwater to-day." + +Bice looked up with a half laugh. She began to consider him closely with +her clear-sighted penetrating eyes, and the agitation under which Jock +was labouring impressed the girl's quick mind. She watched every change +of his face with a surprised interest, but she did not make any reply. + +"I never expected you would. I could have told him so. I did tell him +you liked the other best. They say that's common with women," Jock said +with a little awe, "when they have the choice offered, that it is always +the worst they take." + +But still Bice did not reply. It was a sort of carrying out without any +responsibility of hers, the vague wonder and questionings of her own +mind. She had no responsibility in what Jock said. She could even +question and combat it cheerfully now that it was presented to her from +outside, but for the moment she said nothing to help him on, and he did +not seem to require it, though he paused from time to time. + +"This is what I've got to say," Jock went on almost fiercely. "If you +take Montjoie it's a mistake. He looks good-natured and all that; he +looks easy to get on with. You hear me out, and then I'll go away and +never trouble you again. He is not--a nice fellow. If you were to go and +do such a thing as--marry him, and then find it out! I want you to know. +Perhaps you think it's mean of me to say so, like sneaking, and perhaps +it is. But, look here, I can't help it. Of course you would laugh at +me--any one would. I'm a boy at school. I know that as well as you +do----" Something got into Jock's voice so that he paused, and made a +gulp before he could go on. "But, Bice, don't have that fellow. There +are such lots; don't have _him_. I don't think I could stand it," Jock +cried. "And look here, if it's because the Contessa wants money, I have +some myself. What do I want with money? When I am older I shall work. +There it is for you, if you like. But don't--have that fellow. Have a +good fellow, there are plenty--there are fellows like Sir Tom. He is a +good man. I should not," said Jock, with a sort of sob, which came in +spite of himself, and which he did not remark even, so strong was the +passion in him. "I should not--mind. I could put up with it then. So +would Derwentwater. But, Bice----" + +She had risen up, and so had he. They were neither of them aware of it. +Jock had lost consciousness, perception, all thought of anything but her +and this that he was urging upon her. While as for Bice the tide had +gone too high over her head. She felt giddy in the presence of something +so much more powerful than any feeling she had ever known, and yet +gazed at him half alarmed, half troubled as she was, with a perception +that could not be anything but humorous of the boy's voice sounding so +bass and deep, sometimes bursting into childish, womanish treble, and +the boy's aspect which contrasted so strongly with the passion in which +he spoke. When Sir Tom's voice made itself audible, coming from the +boudoir in conversation with the Contessa, the effect upon the two thus +standing in a sort of mortal encounter was extraordinary. Bice straining +up to the mark which he was setting before her, bewildered with the +flood on which she was rising, sank into ease again and a mastery of the +situation, while Jock, worn out and with a sense that all was over, sat +down abruptly, and left, as it were, the stage clear. + +"The poor little man is rather bad, I fear," said Sir Tom, coming +through the dim room. There was something in his voice, an easier tone, +a sound of relief. How had the Contessa succeeded in cheering him? "And +what is worse (for he will do well I hope) is the scattering of all her +friends from about Lucy. I am kept out of it, and it does not matter, +you see; but she, poor little woman,"--his voice softened as he named +her with a tone of tenderness--"nobody will go near her," he said. + +The Contessa gave a little shiver, and drew about her the loose shawl +she wore. "What can we say in such a case? It is not for us, it is for +those around us. It is a risk for so many----" + +"My aunt," said Sir Tom, "would be her natural ally; but I know Lady +Randolph too well to think of that. And there is Jock, whom we are +compelled to send away. We shall be like two crows all alone in the +house." + +"Is it this you told me of, fever?" cried Bice, turning to Jock. "But it +is I that will go--oh, this moment! It is no tr-rouble. I can sit up. I +never am sleepy. I am so strong nothing hurts me. I will go directly, +now." + +"You!" they all cried, but the Contessa's tones were most high. She made +a protest full of indignant virtue. + +"Do you think," she said, "if I had but myself to think of that I would +not fly to her? But, child in your position! _fiancée_ only to-day--with +all to do, all to think of, how could I leave you? Oh, it is impossible; +my good Lucy, who is never unreasonable, she will know it, she will +understand. Besides, to what use, my Bice? She has nurses for day and +night. She has her dear husband, her good husband, to be with her. What +does a woman want more? You would be _de trop_. You would be out of +place. It would be a trouble to them. It would be a blame to me. And you +would take it, and bring it back and spread it, Bice--and perhaps Lord +Montjoie----" + +Bice looked round her bewildered from one to another. + +"Should I be _de trop_?" she said, turning to Sir Tom with anxious eyes. + +Sir Tom looked at her with an air of singular emotion. He laid his hand +caressingly on her shoulder: "_De trop_? no; never in my house. But that +is not the question. Lucy will be cheered when she knows that you wanted +to come. But what the Contessa says is true; there are plenty of +nurses--and my wife--has me, if I am any good; and we would not have you +run any risk----" + +"In her position!" cried the Contessa; "_fiancée_ only to-day. She owes +herself already to Lord Montjoie, who would never consent, never; it is +against every rule. Speak to her, _mon ami_, speak to her; she is a girl +who is capable of all. Tell her that now it is thought criminal, that +one does not risk one's self and others. She might bring it here, if not +to herself, to me, Montjoie, the domestics." The Contessa sank into a +chair and began fanning herself; then got up again and went towards the +girl clasping her hands. "My sweetest," she cried, "you will not be +_entétée_, and risk everything. We shall have news, good news, every +morning, three, four times a day." + +"And Milady," said Bice, "who has done everything, will be alone and in +tr-rouble. Sir Tom, he must leave her, he must attend to his affairs. He +is a man; he must take the air; he must go out in the world. And +she--she will be alone: when we have lived with her, when she has been +more good, more good than any one could deserve. Risk! The doctor does +not take it, who is everywhere, who will, perhaps, come to you next, +Madama; and the nurses do not take it. It is a shame," cried the girl, +throwing up her fine head, "if Love is not as good as the servants, if +to have gratitude in your heart is nothing! And the risk, what is it? An +illness, a fever. I have had a fever----" + +"Bice, you might bring--what is dreadful to think of," cried the +Contessa, with a shiver. "You might die." + +"Die!" the girl cried, in a voice like a silver trumpet with a keen +sweetness of scorn and tenderness combined. "_Après_?" she said, +throwing back her head. She was not capable of those questions which Mr. +Derwentwater and his pupil had set before her. But here she was upon +different ground. + +"Oh, she is capable of all! she is a girl that is capable of all," cried +the Contessa, sinking once more into a chair. + + + + +CHAPTER L. + +THE EVE OF SORROW. + + +Sir Tom stepped out into the night some time after, holding Jock by the +arm. The boy had a sort of thrill and tremble in him as if he had been +reading poetry or witnessing some great tragic scene, which the elder +man partially understood without being at all aware that Jock had +himself been an actor in this drama. He himself had been dismissed out +of it, so to speak. His mind was relieved, and yet he was not so +satisfied as he expected to be. It had been proved to him that he had no +responsibility for Bice, and his anxiety relieved on that subject; +relieved, oh yes: and yet was he a little disappointed too. It would +have been endless embarrassment, and Lucy would not have liked it. Still +he had been accustoming himself to the idea, and, now that it was broken +clean off, he was not so much pleased as he had expected. Poor little +Bice! her little burst of generous gratitude and affection had gone to +his heart. If that little thing who (it appeared) had died in Florence +so many years ago had survived and grown a woman, as an hour ago he had +believed her to have done, that is how he should have liked her to feel +and to express herself. Such a sense of approval and admiration was in +him that he felt the disappointment the more. Yes, he supposed it was a +disappointment. He had begun to get used to the idea, and he had always +liked the girl; but of course it was a relief--the greatest relief--to +have no explanation to make to Lucy, instead of the painful one which +perhaps she would only partially believe. He had felt that it would be +most difficult to make her understand that, though this was so, he had +not been in any plot, and had not known of it any more than she did when +Bice was brought to his house. This would have been the difficult point +in the matter, and now, heaven be praised! all that was over, and there +was no mystery, nothing to explain. But so strange is human sentiment +that the world felt quite impoverished to Sir Tom, though he was much +relieved. Life became for the moment a more commonplace affair +altogether. He was free from the annoyance. It mattered nothing to him +now who she married--the best _parti_ in society, or Jock's tutor, or +anybody the girl pleased. If it had not been for that exhibition of +feeling Sir Tom would probably have said to himself, satirically, that +there could be little doubt which the Contessa's ward and pupil would +choose. But after that little scene he came out very much shaken, +touched to the heart, thinking that perhaps life would have been more +full and sweet had his apprehensions been true. She had been overcome by +the united pressure of himself and the Contessa, and for the moment +subdued, though the fire in her eye and swelling of her young bosom +seemed to say that the victory was very incomplete. He would have liked +the little one that died to have looked like that, and felt like that, +had she lived to grow a woman like Bice. Great heaven, the little one +that died! The words as they went through his mind sent a chill to Sir +Tom's breast. Might it be that they would be said again--once more--and +that far-back sin bring thus a punishment all the more bitter for being +so long delayed. Human nature will never get to believe that God is not +lying in wait somewhere to exact payment of every account. + +"She understands that," said Jock suddenly. "She don't know the meaning +of other things." + +"What may be the other things?" said Sir Tom, feeling a half jealousy of +anything that could be said to Bice's disadvantage. "I don't think she +is wanting in understanding. Ah, I see. You don't know how any one could +resist the influence of MTutor, Jock." + +Through the darkness under the feeble lamp Jock shot a glance at his +elder of that immeasurable contempt which youth feels for the absence of +all penetration shown by its seniors, and their limited powers of +observation. But he said nothing. Perhaps he could not trust himself to +speak. + +"Don't think I'm a scoffer, my boy," said Sir Tom. "MTutor's a very +decent fellow. Let us go and look him up. He would be better, to my +thinking, if he were not quite so fine, you know. But that's a trifle, +and I'm an old fogey. You are not going back to Park Lane to-night." + +"After what you heard her say? Do you think I've got no heart either? If +I could have it instead of him!" + +"But you can't, my boy," Sir Tom said with a pressure of Jock's arm. +"And you must not make Lucy more wretched by hanging about. There's the +mystery," he broke out suddenly. "You can't--none of us can. What might +be nothing to you or me may be death to that little thing, but it is he +that has to go through with it; life is a horrible sort of pleasure, +Jock." + +"Is it a pleasure?" the boy said under his breath. Life in him at that +moment was one big heavy throbbing through all his being, full of +mysterious powers unknown, of which Death was the least--yet, coming as +he did a great shadow upon the feeblest, a terrible and awe-striking +power beyond the strength of man to understand. + +After this night, so full of emotion, there came certain days which +passed without sign or mark in the dim great house looking out upon all +the lively sights and sounds of the great park. The sun rose and +reddened the windows, the noon blazed, the gray twilight touched +everything into colour. In the chamber which was the centre of all +interest no one knew or cared how the hours went, and whether it was +morning or noon or night. Instead of these common ways of reckoning, +they counted by the hours when the doctor came, when the child must have +his medicine, when it was time to refresh the little cot with cool clean +linen, or sponge the little hot hands. The other attendants took their +turns and rested, but Lucy was capable of no rest. She dozed sometimes +with her eyes half opened, hearing every movement and little cry. +Perhaps as the time went on and the watch continued her faculties were a +little blunted by this, so that she was scarcely full awake at any time, +since she never slept. She moved mechanically about, and was conscious +of nothing but a dazed and confused misery, without anticipation or +recollection. Something there was in her mind besides, which perhaps +made it worse; she could not tell. Could anything make it worse? The +heart, like any other vessel, can hold but what it is capable of, and no +more. + +It is not easy to estimate what is the greatest sorrow of human life. +It is that which has us in its grip, whatever it may be. Bereavement is +terrible until there comes to you a pang more bitter from living than +from dying: and one grief is supreme until another tops it, and the sea +comes on and on in mountain waves. But perhaps of all the endurances of +nature there is none which the general consent would agree upon as the +greatest, like that of a mother watching death approach, with noiseless, +awful step, to the bed of her only child. If humanity can approach more +near the infinite in capacity of suffering, it is hard to know how. We +must all bow down before this extremity of anguish, humbly begging the +pardon of that sufferer, that in our lesser griefs, we dare to bemoan +ourselves in her presence. And whether it is the dear companion--man or +woman grown--or the infant out of her clasping arms, would seem to +matter very little. According as it happens, so is the blow the most +terrible. To Lucy, enveloped by that woe, there could have been no +change that would not have lightened something (or so she felt) of her +intolerable burden. Could he have breathed his fever and pain into +words, could he have told what ailed him, could he have said to her only +one little phrase of love, to be laid up in her heart! But the pitiful +looks of those baby eyes, now bright with fever, now dull as dead +violets, the little inarticulate murmurings, the appeals that could not +be comprehended, added such a misery as was almost too much for flesh +and blood to bear. This terrible ordeal was what Lucy had to go through. +The child, though he had, as the maids said, no constitution, and though +he had been enfeebled by illness for half his little lifetime, fought on +hour after hour and day after day. Sometimes there was a look in his +little face as of a conscious intelligence fighting a brave battle for +life. His young mother beside him rose and fell with his breath, lived +only in him, knew nothing but the vicissitudes of the sick room, taking +her momentary broken rest when he slept, only to start up when, with a +louder breath, a little cry, the struggle was resumed. The nurses could +not, it would be unreasonable to expect it, be as entirely absorbed in +their charge as was his mother. They got to talk at last, not minding +her presence, quite freely in half whispers about other "cases," of +patients and circumstances they had known. Stories of children who had +died, and of some who had been miraculously raised from the brink of the +grave, and of families swept away and houses desolated, seemed to get +into the air of the room and float about Lucy, catching her confused +ear, which was always on the watch for other sounds. Three or four times +a day Sir Tom came to the door for news, but was not admitted, as the +doctor's orders were stringent. There was no one admitted except the +doctor; no cheer or comfort from without came into the sick room. Sir +Tom did his best to speak a cheerful word, and would fain have persuaded +Lucy to come out into the corridor, or to breathe the fresh air from a +balcony. But Lucy, had she been capable of leaving the child, had a dim +recollection in her mind that there was something, she could not tell +what, interposing between her and her husband, and turned away from him +with a sinking at her heart. She remembered vaguely that he had +something else--some other possessions to comfort him--not this child +alone as she had. He had something that he could perhaps love as +well--but she had nothing; and she turned away from him with an +instinctive sense of the difference, feeling it to be a wrong to her +boy. But for this they might have comforted each other, and consulted +each other over the fever and its symptoms. And she might have stolen a +few moments from her child's bed and thrown herself on her husband's +bosom and been consoled. But after all what did it matter? Could +anything have made it more easy to bear? When sorrow and pain occupy the +whole being, what room is there for consolation, what importance in the +lessening by an infinitesimal shred of sorrow! + +This had gone on for--Lucy could not tell how many days (though not in +reality for very many), when there came one afternoon in which +everything seemed to draw towards the close. It is the time when the +heart fails most easily and the tide of being runs most low. The light +was beginning to wane in those dim rooms, though a great golden sunset +was being enacted in purple and flame on the other side of the house. +The child's eyes were dull and glazed; they seemed to turn inward with +that awful blank which is like the soul's withdrawal; its little powers +seemed all exhausted. The little moan, the struggle, had fallen into +quiet. The little lips were parched and dry. Those pathetic looks that +seemed to plead for help and understanding came no more. The baby was +too much worn out for such painful indications of life. The women had +drawn aside, all their talk hushed, only a faint whisper now and then of +directions from the most experienced of the two to the subordinates +aiding the solemn watch. Lucy sat by the side of the little bed on the +floor, sometimes raising herself on her knees to see better. She had +fallen into the chill and apathy of despair. + +At this time a door opened, not loudly or with any breach of the decorum +of such a crisis, but with a distinct soft sound, which denoted some +one not bound by the habits of a sick room. A step equally distinct, +though soft, not the noiseless step of a watcher, came in through the +outer room and to the bed. The women, who were standing a little apart, +gave a low, involuntary cry. It looked like health and youthful vigour +embodied which came sweeping into the dim room to the bedside of the +dying child. It was Bice, who had asked no leave, who fell on her knees +beside Lucy and stooped down her beautiful head, and kissed the hand +which lay on the baby's coverlet. "Oh, pardon me," she said, "I could +not keep away any longer. They kept me by force, or I would have come +long, long since. I have come to stay, that you may have some rest, for +I can nurse him--oh, with all my heart!" + +She had said all this hurriedly in a breath before she looked at the +child. Now she turned her head to the little bed. Her countenance +underwent a sudden change. The colour forsook her cheeks, her lips +dropped apart. She turned round to the nurse with a low cry, with a +terrified question in her eyes. + +"You see," said Lucy, speaking with a gasp as if in answer to some +previous argument, "she thinks so, too----" Then there was a terrible +pause. There seemed to come another "change," as the women said, over +the little face, out of which life ebbed at every breath. Lucy started +to her feet; she seized Bice's arm and raised her, which would have been +impossible in a less terrible crisis. "Go," she said; "Go, Bice, to your +father, and tell him to come, for my boy is dying Go--go!" + + + + +CHAPTER LI. + +THE LAST CRISIS. + + +"Go to your father." Bice did not know what Lucy meant. The words +bewildered her beyond description, but she did not hesitate what to do. +She went downstairs to Sir Tom, who sat with his door opened and his +heart sinking in his bosom waiting to hear. There was no need for any +words. He followed her at once, almost as softly and as noiselessly as +she had come. And when they entered the dim room, where by this time +there was scarcely light enough for unaccustomed eyes to see, he went up +to Lucy and put his arms round her as she stood leaning on the little +bed. "My love," he said, "my love; we must be all in all to each other +now." His voice was choked and broken, but it did not reach Lucy's +heart. She put him away from her with an almost imperceptible movement. +"You have others," she said hoarsely; "I have nothing, nothing but him." +Just then the child stirred faintly in his bed, and first extending her +arms to put them all away from her, Lucy bent over him and lifted him to +her bosom. The nurse made a step forward to interfere, but then stepped +back again wringing her hands. The mother had risen into a sort of +sublimity, irresponsible in her great woe--if she had killed him to +forestall her agony a little, as is the instinct of desperation, they +could not have interfered. She sat down, and gathered the child close, +close in her embrace, his head upon her breast, holding him as if to +communicate life to him with the contact of hers. Her breath, her arms, +her whole being enveloped the little dying creature with a fulness of +passionate existence expanded to its highest. It was like taking back +the half-extinguished germ into the very bosom and core of life. They +stood round her with an awe of her, which would permit no intrusion +either of word or act. Even the experienced nurse who believed that the +little spark of life would be shaken out by this movement, only wrung +her hands and said nothing. The rest were but as spectators, gathering +round to see the tragedy accomplished and the woman's heart shattered +before their eyes. + +Which was unjust too--for the husband who stood behind was as great a +sufferer. He was struck in everything a man can feel most, the instincts +of paternal love awakened late, the pride a man has in his heir, all +were crushed in him by a blow that seemed to wring his very heart out of +his breast; but neither did any one think of him, nor did he think of +himself. The mother that bare him!--that mysterious tie that goes beyond +and before all, was acknowledged by them all without a word. It was hers +to do as she pleased. The moments are long at such a time. They seemed +to stand still on that strange scene. The light remained the same; the +darkness seemed arrested, perhaps because it had come on too early on +account of clouds overhead; perhaps because time was standing still to +witness the easy parting of a soul not yet accustomed to this earth; the +far more terrible rending of the woman's heart. + +Presently a sensation of great calm fell, no one could tell how, into +the room. The terror seemed to leave the hearts of the watchers. Was it +the angel who had arrived and shed a soothing from his very presence +though he had come to accomplish the end? + +Another little change, almost imperceptible, Lucy beginning to rock her +child softly, as if lulling him to sleep. No one moved, or even +breathed, it seemed, for how long? some minutes, half a lifetime. Then +another sound. Oh, God in heaven! had she gone distracted, the innocent +creature, the young mother, in her anguish? She began to sing--a few low +notes, a little lullaby, in a voice ineffable, indescribable, not like +any mortal voice. One of the women burst out into a wail--it was the +child's nurse--and tried to take him from the mother's arms. The other +took her by the shoulders and turned her away. "What does it matter, a +few minutes more or less; she'll come to herself soon enough, poor +dear," said the attendant with a sob. Thus the group was diminished. Sir +Tom stood with one hand on his wife's chair, his face covered with the +other, and in his heart the bitterness of death; Bice had dropped down +on her knees by the side of that pathetic group; and in the midst sat +the mother bent over, almost enfolding the child, cradling him in her +own life. Bice was herself not much more than a child; to her all things +were possible--miracles, restorations from the dead. Her eyes were full +of tears, but there was a smile upon her quivering mouth. It was at her +Lucy looked, with eyes full of something like that "awful rose of dawn" +of which the poet speaks. They were dilated to twice their natural size. +She made a slight movement, opening to Bice the little face upon her +bosom, bidding her look as at a breathless secret to be kept from all +else. Was it a reflection or a faint glow of warmth upon the little worn +cheek? The eyes were no longer open, showing the white, but closed, with +the eyelashes shadowing against the cheek. There came into Lucy's eyes a +sort of warning look to keep the secret, and the wonderful spectacle +was, as it were, closed again, hidden with her arms and bending head. +And the soft coo of the lullaby went on. + +Presently the women stole back, awed and silenced, but full of a +reviving thrill of curiosity. The elder one, who was from the hospital +and prepared for everything, drew nearer, and regarded with a +scientific, but not unsympathetic eye, the mother and the child. She +withdrew a little the shawl in which the infant was wrapped, and put her +too-experienced, instructed hands upon his little limbs, without taking +any notice of Lucy, who remained passive through this examination. "He's +beautiful and warm," said the woman, in a wondering tone. Then Bice rose +to her feet with a quick sudden movement, and went to Sir Tom and drew +his hand from his face. "He is not dying, he is sleeping," she said. +"And I think, miss, you're right. He has taken a turn for the better," +said the experienced woman from the hospital. "Don't move, my lady, +don't move; we'll prop you with cushions--we'll pull him through still, +please God," the nurse said, with a few genuine tears. + +When the doctor came some time after, instead of watching the child's +last moments, he had only to confirm their certainty of this favourable +change, and give his sanction to it; and the cloud that had seemed to +hang over it all day lifted from the house. The servants began to move +about again and bustle. The lamps were lighted. The household resumed +their occupations, and Williams himself in token of sympathy carried up +Mr. Randolph's beef-tea. When Lucy, after a long interval, was liberated +from her confined attitude and the child restored to his bed, the +improvement was so evident that she allowed herself to be persuaded to +lie down and rest. "Milady," said Bice, "I am not good for anything, +but I love him. I will not interfere, but neither will I ever take away +my eyes from him till you are again here." There was no use in this, but +it was something to the young mother. She lay down and slept, for the +first time since the illness began; slept not in broken, painful +dozings, but a real sleep. She was not in a condition to think; but +there was a vague feeling in her mind that here was some one, not as +others were, to whom little Tom was something more than to the rest. +Consciously she ought to have shrunk from Bice's presence; unconsciously +it soothed her and warmed her heart. + +Sir Tom went back to his room, shaken as with a long illness, but +feeling that the world had begun again, and life was once more liveable. +He sat down and thought over every incident, and thanked God with such +tears as men too, like women, are often fain to indulge in, though they +do it chiefly in private. Then, as the effect of this great crisis began +to go off a little, and the common round to come back, there recurred to +his mind Lucy's strange speech, "You have others----" What others was he +supposed to have? She had drawn herself away from him. She had made no +appeal to his sympathy. "You have--others. I have nothing but him." What +did Lucy mean? And then he remembered how little intercourse there had +been of late between them, how she had kept aloof from him. They might +have been separated and living in different houses for all the union +there had been between them. "You have others----" What did Lucy mean? + +He got up, moved by the uneasiness of this question, and began to pace +about the floor. He had no others; never had a man been more devoted to +his own house. She had not been exacting, nor he uxorious. He had lived +a man's life in the world, and had not neglected his duties for his +wife; but he reminded himself, with a sort of indignant satisfaction, +that he had found Lucy far more interesting than he expected, and that +her fresh curiosity, her interest in everything, and the just enough of +receptive intelligence, which is more agreeable than cleverness, had +made her the most pleasant companion he had ever known. It was not an +exercise of self-denial, of virtue on his part, as the Dowager and +indeed many other of his friends had attempted to make out, but a real +pleasure in her society. He had liked to talk to her, to tell her his +own past history (selections from it), to like, yet laugh at her simple +comments. He never despised anything she said, though he had laughed at +some of it with a genial and placid amusement. And that little beggar! +about whom Sir Tom could not even think to-day without a rush of water +to his eyes--could any man have considered the little fellow more, or +been more proud of him or fond? He could not live in the nursery, it was +true, like Lucy, but short of that--"Others." What could she mean? There +were no others. He was content to live and die, if but they might be +spared to him, with her and the boy. A sort of chill doubt that somebody +might have breathed into her ear that suggestion about Bice's parentage +did indeed cross his mind; but ever since he had ascertained that this +fear was a delusion, it had seemed to him the most ridiculous idea in +the world. It had not seemed so before; it had appeared probable enough, +nay, with many coincidences in its favour. And he had even been +conscious of something like disappointment to find that it was not true. +But now it seemed to him too absurd for credence; and what creature in +the world, except himself, could have known the circumstances that made +it possible? No one but Williams, and Williams was true. + +It was not till next morning that the ordinary habits of the household +could be said to be in any measure resumed. On that day Bice came down +to breakfast with Sir Tom with a smiling brightness which cheered his +solitary heart. She had gone back out of all her finery to the simple +black frock, which she told him had been the easiest thing to carry. +This was in answer to his question, "How had she come? Had the Contessa +sent her?" Bice clapped her hands with pleasure, and recounted how she +had run away. + +"The news were always bad, more bad; and Milady all alone. At length the +time came when I could bear it no longer. I love him, my little Tom; and +Milady has always been kind, so kind, more kind than any one. Nobody has +been kind to me like her, and also you, Sir Tom; and baby that was my +darling," the girl said. + +"God bless you, my dear," said Sir Tom; "but," he added, "you should not +have done it. You should have remembered the infection." + +Bice made a little face of merry disdain and laughed aloud. "Do I care +for infection? Love is more strong than a fever. And then," she added, +"I had a purpose too." + +Sir Tom was delighted with her girlish confidences about her frock and +her purpose. "Something very grave, I should imagine, from those looks." + +"Oh, it is very grave," said Bice, her countenance changing. "You know I +am _fiancée_. There has been a good deal said to me of Lord Montjoie; +sometimes that he was not wise, what you call silly, not clever, not +good to have to do with. That he is not clever one can see; but what +then? The clever they do not always please. Others say that he is a +great _parti_, and all that is desirable. Myself," she added with an air +of judicial impartiality, "I like him well enough; even when he does not +please me, he amuses. The clever they are not always amusing. I am +willing to marry him since it is wished, otherwise I do not care much. +For there is, you know, plenty of time, and to marry so soon--it is a +disappointment, it is no longer exciting. So it is not easy to know +distinctly what to do. That is what you call a dilemma," Bice said. + +"It is a serious dilemma," said Sir Tom, much amused and flattered too. +"You want me then to give you my advice----" + +"No," said Bice, which made his countenance suddenly blank, "not advice. +I have thought of a way. All say that it is almost wicked, at least very +wrong to come here (in the Tauchnitz it would be miserable to be afraid, +and so I think), and that the fever is more than everything. Now for me +it is not so. If Lord Montjoie is of my opinion, and if he thinks I am +right to come, then I shall know that, though he is not clever---- Yes; +that is my purpose. Do you think I shall be right?" + +"I see," said Sir Tom, though he looked somewhat crestfallen. "You have +come not so much for us, though you are kindly disposed towards us, but +to put your future husband to the test. There is only this drawback, +that he might be an excellent fellow and yet object to the step you have +taken. Also that these sort of tests are very risky, and that it is +scarcely worth while for this, to run the risk of a bad illness, perhaps +of your life." + +"That is unjust," said Bice with tears in her eyes. "I should have come +to Milady had there been no Montjoie at all. It is first and above all +for her sake. I will have a fever for her, oh willingly!" cried the +girl. Then she added after a little pause: "Why did she bid me 'go to +your father and tell him----?' What does that mean, go to my father? I +have never had any father." + +"Did she say that?" Sir Tom cried. "When? and why?" + +"It was when all seemed without hope. She was kneeling by the bed, and +he, my little boy, my little darling! Ah," cried Bice, with a shiver. +"To think it should have been so near! when God put that into her mind +to save him. She said 'Go to your father, and tell him my boy is dying.' +What did she mean? I came to you; but you are not my father." + +He had risen up in great agitation and was walking about the room. When +she said these words he came up to her and laid his hand for a moment on +her head. "No," he said, with a sense of loss which was painful; "No, +the more's the pity, Bice. God bless you, my dear." + +His voice was tremulous, his hand shook a little. The girl took it in +her pretty way and kissed it. "You have been as good to me as if it were +so. But tell me what Milady means? for at that moment she would say +nothing but what was at the bottom of her heart." + +"I cannot tell you, Bice," said Sir Tom, almost with tears. "If I have +made her unhappy, my Lucy, who is better than any of us, what do I +deserve? what should be done to me? And she has been unhappy, she has +lost her faith in me. I see it all now." + +Bice sat and looked at him with her eyes full of thought. She was not a +novice in life though she was so young. She had heard many a tale not +adapted for youthful ears. That a child might have a father whose name +she did not bear and who had never been disclosed to her was not +incomprehensible, as it would have been to an English girl. She looked +him severely in the face, like a young Daniel come to judgment. Had she +been indeed his child to what a terrible ordeal would Sir Tom have been +exposed under the light of those steady eyes. "Is it true that you have +made her unhappy?" she said, as if she had the power of death in her +hands. + +"No!" he said, with a sudden outburst of feeling. "No! there are things +in my life that I would not have raked up; but since I have known her, +nothing; there is no offence to her in any record of my life----" + +Bice looked at him still unfaltering. "You forget us--the Contessa and +me. You brought us, though she did not know. We are not like her, but +you brought us to her house. Nevertheless," said the young judge +gravely, "that might be unthoughtful, but not a wrong to her. Is it +perhaps a mistake?" + +"A mistake or a slander, or--some evil tongue," he cried. + +Bice rose up from the chair which had been her bench of justice, and +walked to the door with a stately step, befitting her office, full of +thought. Then she paused again for a moment and looked back and waved +her hand. "I think it is a pity," she said with great gravity. She +recognised the visionary fitness as he had done. They would have suited +each other, when it was thus suggested to them, for father and +daughter; and that it was not so, by some spite of fate, was a pity. She +found Lucy dressed and refreshed sitting by the bed of the child, who +had already begun to smile faintly. "Milady," said Bice, "will you go +downstairs? There is a long time that you have not spoken to Sir Tom. Is +he afraid of your fever? No more than me! But his heart is breaking for +you. Go to him, Milady, and I will stay with the boy." + +It was not for some time that Lucy could be persuaded to go. He +had--others. What was she to him but a portion of his life? and the +child was all of hers: a small portion of his life only a few years, +while the others had a far older and stronger claim. There was no anger +in her mind, all hushed in the exhaustion of great suffering past, but a +great reluctance to enter upon the question once more. Lucy wished only +to be left in quiet. She went slowly, reluctantly, downstairs. Unhappy? +No. He had not made her unhappy. Nothing could make her unhappy now that +her child was saved. It seemed to Lucy that it was she who had been ill +and was getting better, and she longed to be left alone. Sir Tom was +standing against the window with his head upon his hand. He did not hear +her light step till she was close to him. Then he turned round, but not +with the eagerness for her which Bice had represented. He took her hand +gently and drew it within his arm. + +"All is going well?" he said, "and you have had a little rest, my dear? +Bice has told me----" + +She withdrew a little the hand which lay on his arm. "He is much +better," she said; "more than one would have thought possible." + +"Thank God!" Sir Tom cried; and they were silent for a moment, united +in thanksgiving, yet so divided, with a sickening gulf between them. +Lucy felt her heart begin to stir and ache that had been so quiet. "And +you," he said, "have had a little rest? Thank God for that too. Anything +that had happened to him would have been bad enough; but to you, +Lucy----" + +"Oh, hush, hush," she cried, "that is over; let us not speak of anything +happening to him." + +"But all is not over," he said. "Something has happened--to us. What did +you mean when you spoke to me of others? 'You have others.' I scarcely +noticed it at that dreadful moment; but now---- Who are those others, +Lucy? Whom have I but him and you?" + +She did not say anything, but withdrew her hand altogether from his arm, +and looked at him. A look scarcely reproachful, wistful, sorrowful, +saying, but not in words, in its steady gaze--You know. + +He answered as if it had been speech. + +"But I don't know. What is it, Lucy? Bice too has something she asked me +to explain, and I cannot explain it. You said to her, 'Go to your +father.' What is this? You must tell what you mean." + +"Bice?" she said, faltering; "it was at a moment when I did not think +what I was saying." + +"No, when you spoke out that perilous stuff you have got in your heart. +Oh, my Lucy, what is it, and who has put it there?" + +"Tom," she said, trembling very much. "It is not Bice; she--that--is +long ago--if her mother had been dead. But a man cannot have two lives. +There cannot be two in the same place. It is not jealousy. I am not +finding fault. It has been perhaps without intention; but it is not +befitting--oh, not befitting. It cannot--oh, it is impossible! it must +not be." + +"What must not be? Of what in the name of heaven are you speaking?" he +cried. + +Once more she fixed on him that look, more reproachful this time, full +of meaning and grieved surprise. She drew away a little from his side. +"I did not want to speak," she said. "I was so thankful; I want to say +nothing. You thought you had left that other life behind; perhaps you +forgot altogether. They say that people do. And now it is here at your +side, and on the other side my little boy and me. Ah! no, no, it is not +befitting, it cannot be----" + +"I understand dimly," he said; "they have told you Bice was my child. I +wish it were so. I had a child, Lucy, it is true, who is dead in +Florence long ago. The mother is dead too, long ago. It is so long past +that, if you can believe it, I had--forgotten." + +"Dead!" she said. And there came into her mild eyes a scared and +frightened look. "And--the Contessa?" + +"The Contessa!" he cried. + +They were standing apart gazing at each other with something more like +the heat of a passionate debate than had ever arisen between them, or +indeed seemed possible to Lucy's tranquil nature, when the door was +suddenly opened and the voice of Williams saying, "Sir Thomas is here, +my lady," reduced them both in an instant to silence. Then there was a +bustle and a movement, and of all wonderful sights to meet their eyes, +the Contessa herself came with hesitation into the room. She had her +handkerchief pressed against the lower part of her face, from above +which her eyes looked out watchfully. She gave a little shriek at the +sight of Lucy. "I thought," she said, "Sir Tom was alone. Lucy, my +angel, my sweetest, do not come near me!" She recoiled to the door which +Williams had just closed. "I will say what I have to say here. Dearest +people, I love you, but you are charged with pestilence. My Lucy, how +glad I am for your little boy--but every moment they tell me increases +the danger. Where is Bice? Bice! I have come to bring her away." + +"Contessa," said Sir Tom, "you have come at a fortunate moment. Tell +Lady Randolph who Bice is. I think she has a right to know." + +"Who Bice is? But what has that to do with it? She is _fiancée_, she +belongs to more than herself. And there is the drawing-room in a +week--imagine, only in a week!--and how can she go into the presence of +the Queen full of infection? I acknowledge, I acknowledge," cried the +Contessa, through her handkerchief, "you have been very kind--oh, more +than kind. But why then now will you spoil all? It might make a +revolution--it might convey to Majesty herself---- Ah! it might spoil all +the child's prospects. Who is she? Why should you reproach me with my +little mystery now? She is all that is most natural; Guido's child, whom +you remember well enough, Sir Tom, who married my poor little sister, my +little girl who followed me, who would do as I did. You know all this, +for I have told you. They are all dead, all dead--how can you make me +talk of them? And Bice perhaps with the fever in her veins, ready to +communicate it--to Majesty herself, to me, to every one!" + +The Contessa sank down on a chair by the door. She drew forth her fan, +which hung by her side, and fanned away from her this air of pestilence. +"The child must come back at once," she said, with little cries and +sobs--an _accès de nerfs_, if these simple people had known--through her +handkerchief. "Let her come at once, and we may conceal it still. She +shall have baths. She shall be fumigated. I will not see her or let her +be seen. She shall have a succession of headaches. This is what I have +said to Montjoie. Imagine me out in the air, that is so bad for the +complexion, at this hour! But I think of nothing in comparison with the +interests of Bice. Send for her. Lucy, sweet one, you would not spoil +her prospects. Send for her--before it is known." Then she laughed with +a hysterical vehemence. "I see; some one has been telling her it was the +poor little child whom you left with me, whom I watched over--yes, I was +good to the little one. I am not a hard-hearted woman. Lucy: it was I +who put this thought into your mind. I said--of English parentage. I +meant you to believe so--that you might give something, when you were +giving so much, to my poor Bice. What was wrong? I said you would be +glad one day that you had helped her:--yes--and I allowed also my enemy +the Dowager, to believe it." + +"To believe _that_." Lucy stood out alone in the middle of the room, +notwithstanding the shrinking back to the wall of the visitor, whose +alarm was far more visible than any other emotion. "To believe +_that_--that she was your child, and----" + +Something stopped Lucy's mouth. She drew back, her pale face dyed with +crimson, her whole form quivering with remorse and pain as of one who +has given a cowardly and cruel blow. + +The Contessa rose. She stood up against the wall. It did not seem to +occur to her what kind of terrible accusation this was, but only that +it was something strange, incomprehensible. She withdrew for a moment +the handkerchief from her mouth. "My child? But I have never had a +child!" she said. + +"Lucy," cried Sir Tom in a terrible voice. + +And then Lucy stood aghast between them, looking from one to another. +The scales seemed to fall from her eyes. The perfectly innocent when +they fall under the power of suspicion go farthest in that bitter way. +They take no limit of possibility into their doubts and fears. They do +not think of character or nature. Now, in a moment the scales fell from +Lucy's eyes. Was her husband a man to treat her with such unimaginable +insult? Was the Contessa, with all her triumphant designs, her +mendacities, her mendicities, her thirst for pleasure, such a woman? +Whoever said it, could this be true? + +The Contessa perceived with a start that her hand had dropped from her +mouth. She put back the handkerchief again with tremulous eagerness. "If +I take it, all will go wrong--all will fall to pieces," she said +pathetically. "Lucy, dear one, do not come near me, but send me Bice, if +you love me," the Contessa cried. She smiled with her eyes, though her +mouth was covered. She had not so much as understood, she, so +experienced, so acquainted with the wicked world, so _connaisseuse_ in +evil tales--she had not even so much as divined what innocent Lucy meant +to say. + + + + +CHAPTER LII. + +THE END. + + +Bice was taken away in the cab, there being no reason why she should +remain in a house where Lucy was no longer lonely or heartbroken--but +not by her patroness, who was doubly her aunt, but did not love that +old-fashioned title, and did love a mystery. The Contessa would not +trust herself in the same vehicle with the girl who had come out of +little Tom's nursery, and was no doubt charged with pestilence. She +walked, marvel of marvels, with a thick veil over her face, and Sir Tom, +in amused attendance, looking with some curiosity through the gauze at +this wonder of a spring morning which she had not seen for years. Bice, +for her part, was conveyed by the old woman who waited in the cab, the +mother of one of the servants in the Mayfair house, to her humble home, +where the girl was fumigated and disinfected to the Contessa's desire. +She was presented a week after, the strictest secrecy being kept about +these proceedings; and mercifully, as a matter of fact, did not convey +infection either to the Contessa or to the still more distinguished +ladies with whom she came in contact. What a day for Madame di +Forno-Populo! There was nothing against her. The Duchess had spent an +anxious week, inquiring everywhere. She had pledged herself in a weak +hour; but though the men laughed, that was all. Not even in the clubs +was there any story to be got hold of. The Duchess had a son-in-law who +was clever in gossip. He said there was nothing, and the Lord +Chamberlain made no objection. The Contessa di Forno-Populo had not +indeed, she said loftily, ever desired to make her appearance before the +Piedmontese; but she had the stamp upon her, though partially worn out, +of the old Grand Ducal Court of Tuscany--which many people think more +of--and these two stately Italian ladies made as great a sensation by +their beauty and their stately air as had been made at any drawing-room +in the present reign. The most august and discriminating of critics +remarked them above all others. And a Lady, whose knowledge of family +history is unrivalled, like her place in the world, condescended to +remember that the Conte di Forno-Populo had married an English lady. +Their dresses were specially described by Lady Anastasia in her +favourite paper; and their portraits were almost recognisable in the +_Graphic_, which gave a special (fancy) picture of the drawing-room in +question. Triumph could not farther go. + +It was not till after this event that Bice revealed the purpose which +was one of her inducements for that visit to little Tom's sick bed. On +the evening of that great day, just before going out in all her +splendour to the Duchess's reception held on that occasion, she took her +lover aside, whose pride in her magnificence and all the applause that +had been lavished on her knew no bounds. + +"Listen," she said, "I have something to tell you. Perhaps, when you +hear it, all will be over. I have not allowed you to come near me nor +touch me----" + +"No, by Jove! It has been stand off, indeed! I don't know what you mean +by it," cried Montjoie ruefully; "that wasn't what I bargained for, +don't you know?" + +"I am going to explain," said Bice. "You shall know, then, that when I +had those headaches--you remember--and you could not see me, I had no +headaches, _mon ami_. I was with Milady Randolph in Park Lane, in the +middle of the fever, nursing the boy." + +Montjoie gazed at her with round eyes. He recoiled a step, then rushing +at his betrothed, notwithstanding her Court plumes and flounces, got +Bice in his arms. "By Jove!" he cried, "and that was why! You thought I +was frightened of the fever; that is the best joke I have heard for +ages, don't you know? What a pluck you've got, Bee! And what a beauty +you are, my pretty dear! I am going to pay myself all the arrears." + +"Don't," said Bice, plaintively; the caresses were not much to her mind, +but she endured them to a certain limit. "I wondered," she said with a +faint sigh, "what you would say." + +"It was awfully silly," said Montjoie. "I couldn't have believed you +were so soft, Bee, with your training, don't you know? And how did you +come over _her_ to let you go? She was in a dead funk all the time. It +was awfully silly; you might have caught it, or given it to me, or a +hundred things, and lost all your fun; but it was awfully plucky," cried +Montjoie, "by Jove! I knew you were a plucky one;" and he added, after a +moment's reflection, in a softened tone, "a good little girl too." + +It was thus that Bice's fate was sealed. + +That afternoon Lucy received a note from Lady Randolph in the following +words:-- + + "DEAREST LUCY--I am more glad than I can tell you to hear the good + news of the dear boy. Probably he will be stronger now than he has + ever been, having got over this so well. + + "I want to tell you not to think any more of what I said _that_ + day. I hope it has not vexed you. I find that my informant was + entirely mistaken, and acted upon a misconception all the time. I + can't tell how sorry I am ever to have mentioned such a thing; but + it seemed to be on the very best authority. I do hope it has not + made any coolness between Tom and you. + + "Don't take the trouble to answer this. There is nothing that + carries infection like letters, and I inquire after the boy every + day.--Your loving + + M. RANDOLPH." + +"It was not her fault," said Lucy, sobbing upon her husband's shoulder. +"I should have known you better, Tom." + +"I think so, my dear," he said quietly, "though I have been more foolish +than a man of my age ought to be; but there is no harm in the Contessa, +Lucy." + +"No," Lucy said, yet with a grave face. "But Bice will be made a +sacrifice: Bice, and----" she added with a guilty look, "I shall have +thrown away that money, for it has not saved her." + +"Here is a great deal of money," said Sir Tom, drawing a letter from his +pocket, "which seems also in a fair way of being thrown away." + +He took out the list which Lucy had given to her trustee, which Mr. +Chervil had returned to her husband, and held it out before her. It was +a very curious document, an experiment in the way of making poor people +rich. The names were of people of whom Lucy knew very little personally; +and yet it had not been done without thought. There was nobody there to +whom such a gift might not mean deliverance from many cares. In the +abstract it was not throwing anything away. Perhaps, had there been some +public commission to reward with good incomes the struggling and +honourable, these might not have been the chosen names; but yet it was +all legitimate, honest, in the light of Lucy's exceptional position. +The husband and wife stood and looked at it together in this moment of +their reunion, when both had escaped from the deadliest perils that +could threaten life--the loss of their child, the loss of their union. +It was hard to tell which would have been the most mortal blow. + +"He says I must prevent you; that you cannot have thought what you were +doing; that it is madness, Lucy." + +"I think I was nearly mad," said Lucy simply. "I thought to get rid of +it whatever might happen to me--that was best." + +"Let us look at it now in our full senses," said Sir Tom. + +Lucy grasped his arm with both her hands. "Tom," she said in a hurried +tone, "this is the only thing in which I ever set myself against you. It +was the beginning of all our trouble; and I might have to do that again. +What does it matter if perhaps we might do it more wisely now? All these +people are poor, and there is the money to make them well off; that is +what my father meant. He meant it to be scattered again, like seed given +back to the reaper. He used to say so. Shall not we let it go as it is, +and be done with it and avoid trouble any more?" + +He stood holding her in his arms, looking over the paper. It was a great +deal of money. To sacrifice a great deal of money does not affect a +young woman who has never known any need of it in her life, but a man in +middle age who knows all about it, that makes a great difference. Many +thoughts passed through the mind of Sir Tom. It was a moment in which +Lucy's heart was very soft. She was ready to do anything for the husband +to whom, she thought, she had been unjust. And it was hard upon him to +diminish his own importance and cut off at a stroke by such a sacrifice +half the power and importance of the wealth which was his, though Lucy +might be the source of it. Was he to consent to this loss, not even +wisely, carefully arranged, but which might do little good to any one, +and to him harm unquestionable? He stood silent for some time thinking, +almost disposed to tear up the paper and throw it away. But then he +began to reflect of other things more important than money; of unbroken +peace and happiness; of Lucy's faithful, loyal spirit that would never +be satisfied with less than the entire discharge of her trust, of the +full accord, never so entirely comprehensive and understanding as now, +that had been restored between them; and of the boy given back from the +gates of hell, from the jaws of death. It was no small struggle. He had +to conquer a hundred hesitations, the disapproval, the resistance of his +own mind. It was with a hand that shook a little that he put it back. +"That little beggar," he said, with his old laugh--though not his old +laugh, for in this one there was a sound of tears--"will be a hundred +thousand or so the poorer. Do you think he'd mind, if we were to ask +him? Come, here is a kiss upon the bargain. The money shall go, and a +good riddance, Lucy. There is now nothing between you and me." + +Bice was married at the end of the season, in the most fashionable +church, in the most correct way. Montjoie's plain cousins had +asked--asked! without a sign of enmity!--to be bridesmaids, "as she had +no sisters of her own, poor thing!" Montjoie declared that he was "ready +to split" at their cheek in asking, and in calling Bice "poor thing," +she who was the most fortunate girl in the world. The Contessa took the +good the gods provided her, without grumbling at the fate which +transferred to her the little fortune which had been given to Bice to +keep her from a mercenary marriage. It was not a mercenary marriage, in +the ordinary sense of the word. To Bice's mind it was simply fulfilling +her natural career; and she had no dislike to Montjoie. She liked him +well enough. He had answered well to her test. He was not clever, to be +sure; but what then? She was well enough content, if not rapturous, when +she walked out of the church Marchioness of Montjoie on her husband's +arm. There was a large and fashionable assembly, it need not be said. +Lucy, in a first place, looking very wistful, wondering if the girl was +happy, and Sir Tom saying to himself it was very well that he had no +more to do with it than as a friend. There were two other spectators who +looked upon the ceremony with still more serious countenances, a man and +a boy, restored to each other as dearest friends. They watched all the +details of the service with unfailing interest, but when the beautiful +bride came down the aisle on her husband's arm, they turned with one +accord and looked at each other. They had been quite still until that +point, making no remark. She passed them by, walking as if on air, as +she always walked, though ballasted now for ever by that duller being at +her side. She was not subdued under her falling veil, like so many +brides, but saw everything, them among the rest, as she passed, and +showed by a half smile her recognition of their presence. There was no +mystic veil of sentiment about her; no consciousness of any mystery. She +walked forth bravely, smiling, to meet life and the world. What was +there in that beautiful, beaming creature to suggest a thought of +future necessity, trouble, or the most distant occasion for help or +succour? Perhaps it is a kind of revenge we take upon too great +prosperity to say to ourselves: "There may come a time!" + +These two spectators made their way out slowly among the crowd. They +walked a long way towards their after destination without a word. Then +Mr. Derwentwater spoke: + +"If there should ever come a time when we can help her, or be of use to +her, you and I--for the time must come when she will find out she has +chosen evil instead of good----" + +"Oh, humbug!" cried Jock roughly, with a sharpness in his tone which was +its apology. "She has done what she always meant to do--and that is what +she likes best." + +"Nevertheless----" said MTutor with a sigh. + + + +--------------------------------------------------------------+ + | TRANSCRIBER'S NOTE:- | + | | + | The following printers spelling errors have been corrected:- | + | | + | Page 66 | + | 'direst' to 'divest' | + | 'could not yet divest himself' | + | | + | Page 278 | + | 'down' to 'done' | + | 'as a simple girl might have done' | + | | + | Page 397 | + | 'pyschological' to 'psychological' | + | 'any attempt at psychological investigation' | + | | + | Page 470 | + | 'unforgetable' to 'unforgettable' | + | 'almost forgotten, yet unforgettable' | + | | + | The following word has been changed on page 138:- | + | | + | 'uncle' to 'father' | + | There is no previous mention of an uncle and the title | + | 'father' makes more sense in the context of the story. | + | | + +--------------------------------------------------------------+ + + + THE END. + + + _Printed by_ R. & R. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Sir Tom + +Author: Mrs. Oliphant + +Release Date: December 17, 2009 [EBook #30692] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK SIR TOM *** + + + + +Produced by Brenda Lewis, woodie4 and the Online Distributed +Proofreading Canada Team at http://www.pgdpcanada.net (This +file was produced from images generously made available +by The Internet Archive/Canadian Libraries) + + + + + + +</pre> + + + + +<h1>SIR TOM<br /></h1> + +<h4>BY<br /></h4> + +<h2>MRS. OLIPHANT<br /></h2> + +<h5>AUTHOR OF "THE WIZARD'S SON," "HESTER," ETC.<br /></h5> + +<h3>London<br /></h3> + +<h2>MACMILLAN AND CO.<br /></h2> + +<h4>AND NEW YORK<br /></h4> + +<h3>1893<br /></h3> + +<h5><i>All rights reserved</i><br /><br /><br /></h5> + + +<h4><i>First Edition (3 Vols. Crown 8vo) Sept. 1884</i><br /> + +<i>Second Edition (1 Vol. Crown 8vo) 1884</i><br /> + +<i>Reprinted (Globe 8vo) 1888, (Crown 8vo) 1893</i><br /><br /><br /></h4> + + + + +<h2>CONTENTS.<br /></h2> + + +<div class="center"> +<table border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" summary="contents"> + +<tr><td align="left"></td><td align="right">PAGE</td></tr> + +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_I">I</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">HOW SIR TOM BECAME A GREAT PERSONAGE</td> +<td align="right">1</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_II">II</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">HIS WIFE</td> +<td align="right">9</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_III">III</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">OLD MR. TREVOR'S WILL</td> +<td align="right">20</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_IV">IV</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">YOUNG MR. TREVOR</td> +<td align="right">29</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_V">V</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CONSULTATIONS</td> +<td align="right">39</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_VI">VI</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">A SHADOW OF COMING EVENTS</td> +<td align="right">48</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_VII">VII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">A WARNING</td> +<td align="right">58</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_VIII">VIII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE SHADOW OF DEATH</td> +<td align="right">67</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_IX">IX</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">A CHRISTMAS VISIT</td> +<td align="right">77</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_X">X</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">LUCY'S ADVISERS</td> +<td align="right">86</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XI">XI</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">AN INNOCENT CONSPIRACY</td> +<td align="right">96</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XII">XII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE FIRST STRUGGLE</td> +<td align="right">105</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XIII">XIII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">AN IDLE MORNING</td> +<td align="right">115</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XIV">XIV</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">AN UNWILLING MARTYR</td> +<td align="right">126</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XV">XV</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">ON BUSINESS</td> +<td align="right">135</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XVI">XVI</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">AN UNEXPECTED ARRIVAL</td> +<td align="right">146</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XVII">XVII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">FOREWARNED</td> +<td align="right">157</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XVIII">XVIII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE VISITORS</td> +<td align="right">167</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XIX">XIX</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE OPENING OF THE DRAMA</td> +<td align="right">179</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XX">XX</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">AN ANXIOUS CRITIC</td> +<td align="right">189</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXI">XXI</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">AN UNEXPECTED ENCOUNTER</td> +<td align="right">200</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXII">XXII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">A PAIR OF FRIENDS</td> +<td align="right">211</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXIII">XXIII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE BREAKFAST TABLE</td> +<td align="right">221</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXIV">XXIV</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE ORACLE SPEAKS</td> +<td align="right">230</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXV">XXV</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE CONTESSA'S BOUDOIR</td> +<td align="right">242</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXVI">XXVI</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE TWO STRANGERS</td> +<td align="right">259</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXVII">XXVII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">AN ADVENTURESS</td> +<td align="right">269</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXVIII">XXVIII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE SERPENT AND THE DOVE</td> +<td align="right">280</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXIX">XXIX</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE CONTESSA'S TRIUMPH</td> +<td align="right">291</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXX">XXX</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">DIFFERENT VIEWS</td> +<td align="right">301</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXXI">XXXI</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">TWO FRIENDS</td> +<td align="right">311</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXXII">XXXII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">YOUTHFUL UNREST</td> +<td align="right">321</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXXIII">XXXIII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE CONTESSA PREPARES THE WAY</td> +<td align="right">332</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXXIV">XXXIV</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">IN SUSPENSE</td> +<td align="right">342</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXXV">XXXV</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE DÉBUT</td> +<td align="right">354</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXXVI">XXXVI</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE EVENING AFTER</td> +<td align="right">366</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXXVII">XXXVII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE CONTESSA'S TACTICS</td> +<td align="right">377</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXXVIII">XXXVIII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">DISCOVERIES</td> +<td align="right">388</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XXXIX">XXXIX</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">LUCY'S DISCOVERY</td> +<td align="right">397</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XL">XL</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE DOWAGER'S EXPLANATION</td> +<td align="right">409</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XLI">XLI</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">SEVERED</td> +<td align="right">417</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XLII">XLII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">LADY RANDOLPH WINDS UP HER AFFAIRS</td> +<td align="right">427</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XLIII">XLIII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE LITTLE HOUSE IN MAYFAIR</td> +<td align="right">437</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XLIV">XLIV</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE SIEGE OF LONDON</td> +<td align="right">448</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XLV">XLV</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE BALL</td> +<td align="right">458</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XLVI">XLVI</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE BALL CONTINUED</td> +<td align="right">469</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XLVII">XLVII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">NEXT MORNING</td> +<td align="right">480</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XLVIII">XLVIII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE LAST BLOW</td> +<td align="right">491</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_XLIX">XLIX</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE EXPERIENCES OF BICE</td> +<td align="right">502</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_L">L</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE EVE OF SORROW</td> +<td align="right">514</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_LI">LI</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE LAST CRISIS</td> +<td align="right">522</td></tr> +<tr><td></td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">CHAPTER <a href="#CHAPTER_LII">LII</a>.</td></tr> +<tr><td align="left">THE END</td> +<td align="right">538</td></tr> +</table></div> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_1" id="Page_1">[Pg 1]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_I" id="CHAPTER_I"></a>CHAPTER I.</h2> + +<h3>HOW SIR TOM BECAME A GREAT PERSONAGE.</h3> + + +<p>Sir Thomas Randolph had lived a somewhat stormy life during the earliest +half of his career. He had gone through what the French called a +<i>jeunesse orageuse</i>; nothing very bad had ever been laid to his charge; +but he had been adventurous, unsettled, a roamer about the world even +after the period at which youthful extravagances cease. Nobody ever knew +when or where he might appear. He set off to the farthest parts of the +earth at a day's notice, sometimes on pretext of sport, sometimes on no +pretext at all, and re-appeared again as unexpectedly as he had gone +away. He had run out his fortune by these and other extravagances, and +was at forty in one of the most uncomfortable positions in which a man +can find himself, with the external appearance of large estates and an +established and important position, but in reality with scarcely any +income at all, just enough to satisfy the mortgagees, and leave himself +a pittance not much more than the wages of a gamekeeper. If his aunt, +Lady Randolph, had not been so good to him it was uncertain whether he +could have existed at all, and when the heiress, whom an<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_2" id="Page_2">[Pg 2]</a></span> eccentric will +had consigned to her charge, fell in his way, all her friends concluded +as a matter of certainty that Sir Tom would jump at this extraordinary +windfall, this gift of a too kind Providence, which sometimes will care +for a prodigal in a way which he is quite unworthy of, while leaving the +righteous man to struggle on unaided. But for some time it appeared as +if society for once was out in its reckoning. Sir Tom did not pounce +upon the heiress. He was a person of very independent mind, and there +were some who thought he was happier in his untrammelled poverty, doing +what he pleased, than he ever had been as a great proprietor. Even when +it became apparent to the wise and far-seeing that little Miss Trevor +was only waiting till his handkerchief was thrown at her to become the +happiest of women, still he did nothing. He exasperated his kind aunt, +he made all his friends indignant, and what was more, he exposed the +young heiress hourly to many attempts on the part of the inferior class, +from which as a matter of fact she herself sprang; and it was not until +she was driven nearly desperate by those attempts that Sir Tom suddenly +appeared upon the scene, and moved, it was thought, more by a +half-fatherly kindness and sympathy for her, than either by love or +desire of wealth, took her to himself, and made her his wife, to the +great and grateful satisfaction of the girl herself, whose strange +upbringing and brief introduction into a higher sphere had spoiled her +for that homely country-town existence in which every woman flattered +and every man made love to her.</p> + +<p>Whether Lucy Trevor was in love with him was as uncertain as whether he +was in love with her. So far as any one knew neither one nor the other +had asked themselves this question. She had, as it were,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_3" id="Page_3">[Pg 3]</a></span> thrown herself +into his arms in sudden delight and relief of mind when he appeared and +saved her from her suitors; while he had received her tenderly when she +did this, out of kindness and pleasure in her genuine, half-childish +appreciation of him. There were, of course, people who said that Lucy +had been violently in love with Sir Tom, and that he had made up his +mind to marry her money from the first moment he saw her; but neither of +these things was true. They married with a great deal more pleasure and +ease of mind than many people do who are very much in love, for they had +mutual faith in each other, and felt a mutual repose and satisfaction in +their union. Each supplied something the other wanted. Lucy obtained a +secure and settled home, a protector and ever kind and genial guardian, +while Sir Tom got not only a good and dutiful and pleasant companion, +with a great deal of sense, and good-nature and good looks,—all of +which gifts he prized highly,—but at the same time the control of a +great fortune, and money enough at once to clear his estates and restore +him to his position as a great landowner.</p> + +<p>There were very peculiar conditions attached to the great fortune, but +to these for the moment he paid very little heed, considering them as +fantastic follies not worth thinking about, which were never likely to +become difficulties in his way. The advantage he derived from the +marriage was enormous. All at once, at a bound, it restored him to what +he had lost, to the possession of his own property, which had been not +more than nominally his for so many years, and to the position of a man +of weight and importance, whose opinion told with all his neighbours and +the county generally, as did those of few others in the district.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_4" id="Page_4">[Pg 4]</a></span></p> + +<p>Sir Tom, the wanderer, had not been thought very highly of in his +younger days. He had been called wild. He had been thought +untrustworthy, a fellow here to-day and gone to-morrow, who had no +solidity in him. But when the mortgages were all paid off, and the old +hall restored, and Sir Thomas Randolph came to settle down at home, with +his pretty little wife, and an establishment quite worthy of his name, +the county discovered in a day, almost in a moment, that he was very +much improved. He had always been clever enough, they said, for +anything, and now that he had sown his wild oats and learned how to +conduct himself, and attained an age when follies are naturally over, +there was no reason why he should not be received with open arms. Such a +man had a great many more experiences, the county thought with a certain +pride, than other men who had sown no wild oats, and had never gone +farther afield than the recognised round of European cities. Sir Tom had +been in all the four quarters of the globe; he had travelled in America +long before it became fashionable to do so, and even had been in Africa +while it was as yet untrod by any white foot but that of a missionary. +And it was whispered that in the days when he was "wild" he had +penetrated into regions nearer at hand, but more obscure and mysterious +even than Africa. All this made the county think more of him now when he +appeared staid yet genial, in the fulness of manhood, with a crisp brown +beard and a few gray hairs about his temples mingled with his abundant +locks, and that capability of paying his way which is dear to every +well-regulated community. But for this last particular the county would +not have been so tolerant, nay almost pleased, with the fact that he had +been "wild." They saw all<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_5" id="Page_5">[Pg 5]</a></span> his qualities in the halo that surrounded the +newly-decorated hall, the liberated farms, the lands upon which no +creditor had now any claim. He was the most popular man in the district +when Parliament was dissolved, and he was elected for the county almost +without opposition, he, at whom all the sober people had shaken their +heads only a few years before. The very name of "Sir Tom," which had +been given rather contemptuously to denote a somewhat careless fellow, +who minded nothing, became all at once the sign of popular amity and +kindness. And if it had been necessary to gain votes for him by any +canvassing tricks, this name of his would have carried away all +objections. "Sir Tom!" it established a sort of affectionate +relationship at once between him and his constituency. The people felt +that they had known him all his life, and had always called him by his +Christian name.</p> + +<p>Lady Randolph was much excited and delighted with her husband's success. +She canvassed for him in a modest way, making herself pleasant to the +wives of his supporters in a unique manner of her own which was not +perhaps quite dignified considering her position, but yet was found very +captivating by those good women. She did not condescend to them as other +titled ladies do, but she took their advice about her baby, and how he +was to be managed, with a pretty humility which made her irresistible. +They all felt an individual interest thenceforward in the heir of the +Randolphs, as if they had some personal concern in him; and Lady +Randolph's gentle accost, and the pretty blush upon her cheeks, and her +way of speaking to them all, "as if they were just as good as she was," +had a wonderful effect. When she received him in the hotel which was the +headquarters of his party, as soon as<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_6" id="Page_6">[Pg 6]</a></span> the result of the election was +known, Sir Tom, coming in flushed with applauses and victory, took his +wife into his arms and kissed her. "I owe this to you, as well as so +much else, Lucy," he said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, don't say that! when you know I don't understand much, and never +can do anything; but I am so glad, nobody could be more glad," said +Lucy. Little Tom had been brought in, too, in his nurse's arms, and +crowed and clapped his fat little baby hands for his father; and when +his mother took him and stepped out upon the balcony, from which her +husband was speaking an impromptu address to his new constituents, with +the child in her arms, not suspecting that she would be seen, the cheers +and outcries ran into an uproar of applause. "Three cheers for my lady +and the baby," the crowd shouted at the top of its many voices; and +Lucy, blushing and smiling and crying with pleasure, instead of +shrinking away as everybody feared she would do, stood up in her modest, +pretty youthfulness, shy, but full of sense and courage, and held up the +child, who stared at them all solemnly with big blue eyes, and, after a +moment's consideration, again patted his fat little hands together, an +action which put the multitude beside itself with delight. Sir Tom's +speech did not make nearly so much impression as the baby's +"patti-cake." Every man in the crowd, not to say every woman, and with +still more reason every child, clapped his or her hands too, and shouted +and laughed and hurrahed.</p> + +<p>The incident of the baby's appearance before the public, and the early +success he had gained—the earliest on record, the newspapers said—made +quite a sensation throughout the county, and made Farafield<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_7" id="Page_7">[Pg 7]</a></span> famous for +a week. It was mentioned in a leading article in the first newspaper in +the world. It appeared in large headlines in the placards under such +titles as "Baby in Politics," "The Nursery and the Hustings," and such +like. As for the little hero of the moment, he was handed down to his +anxious nurse just as symptoms of a whimper of fear at the alarming +tumult outside began to appear about the corners of his mouth. "For +heaven's sake take him away; he mustn't cry, or he will spoil all," said +the chairman of Sir Tom's committee. And the young mother, disappearing +too into the room behind, sat down in a great chair behind their backs, +and cried to relieve her feelings. Never had there been such a day. If +Sir Tom had not been the thoroughly good-humoured man he was, it is +possible that he might have objected to the interruption thus made in +his speech, which was altogether lost in the tumult of delight which +followed his son's appearance. But as a matter of fact he was as much +delighted as any one, and proud as man could be of his pretty little +wife and his splendid boy. He took "the little beggar," as he called +him, in his arms, and kissed the mother again, soothing and laughing at +her in the tender, kindly, fatherly way which had won Lucy.</p> + +<p>"It is you who have got the seat," he said; "I vote that you go and sit +in it, Lady Randolph. You are a born legislator, and your son is a +favourite of the public, whereas I am only an old fogey."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom!" Lucy said, lifting her simple eyes to his with a mist of +happiness in them. She was accustomed to his nonsense. She never said +anything more than "Oh, Tom!" and indeed it was not very long since she +had given up the title and ceased to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_8" id="Page_8">[Pg 8]</a></span> say "Oh, Sir Tom!" which seemed +somehow to come more natural. It was what she had said when he came +suddenly to see her in the midst of her early embarrassments and +troubles; when the cry of relief and delight with which she turned to +him, uttering in her surprise that title of familiarity, "Oh, Sir Tom!" +had signified first to her middle-aged hero, with the most flattering +simplicity and completeness, that he had won the girl's pure and +inexperienced heart.</p> + +<p>There was no happier evening in their lives than this, when, after all +the commotion, threatenings of the ecstatic crowd to take the horses +from their carriage, and other follies, they got off at last together +and drove home through roads that wound among the autumn fields, on some +of which the golden sheaves were still standing in the sunshine. Sir Tom +held Lucy's hand in his own. He had told her a dozen times over that he +owed it all to her.</p> + +<p>"You have made me rich, and you have made me happy," he said, "though I +am old enough to be your father, and you are only a little girl. If +there is any good to come out of me, it will all be to your credit, +Lucy. They say in story books that a man should be ashamed to own so +much to his wife, but I am not the least ashamed."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom!" she said, "how can you talk so much nonsense," with a laugh, +and the tears in her eyes.</p> + +<p>"I always did talk nonsense," he said; "that was why you got to like me. +But this is excellent sense and quite true. And that little beggar; I am +owing you for him, too. There is no end to my indebtedness. When they +put the return in the papers it should be Sir Thomas Randolph, etc., +returned as re<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_9" id="Page_9">[Pg 9]</a></span>presentative of his wife, Lucy, a little woman worth as +much as any county in England."</p> + +<p>"O, Sir Tom," Lucy cried.</p> + +<p>"Well, so you are, my dear," he said, composedly. "That is a mere matter +of fact, you know, and there can be no question about it at all."</p> + +<p>For the truth was that she was so rich as to have been called the +greatest heiress in England in her day.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_II" id="CHAPTER_II"></a>CHAPTER II.</h2> + +<h3>HIS WIFE.</h3> + + +<p>Young Lady Randolph had herself been much changed by the progress of +these years. Marriage is always the great touchstone of character at +least with women; but in her case the change from a troubled and +premature independence, full of responsibilities and an extremely +difficult and arduous duty, to the protection and calm of early married +life, in which everything was done for her, and all her burdens taken +from her shoulders, rather arrested than aided in the development of her +character. She had lived six months with the Dowager Lady Randolph after +her father's death; but those six months had been all she knew of the +larger existence of the wealthy and great. All she knew—and even in +that short period she had learned less than she might have been expected +to learn; for Lucy had not been introduced into society, partly on +account of her very youthful age, and partly because she was still in +mourning, so that her acquaintance with life on the higher line +consisted merely in a know<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_10" id="Page_10">[Pg 10]</a></span>ledge of certain simple luxuries, of larger +rooms and prettier furniture, and more careful service than in her +natural condition. And by birth she belonged to the class of small +townsfolk who are nobody, and whose gentility is more appalling than +their homeliness. So that when she came to be Sir Thomas Randolph's wife +and a great lady, not merely the ward of an important personage, but +herself occupying that position, the change was so wonderful that it +required all Lucy's mental resources to encounter and accustom herself +to it.</p> + +<p>Sir Tom was the kindest of middle-aged husbands. If he did not adore his +young wife with the fervour of passion, he had a sincere affection for +her, and the warmest desire to make her happy. She had done a great deal +for him, she had changed his position unspeakably, and he was fully +determined that no lady in England should have more observance, more +honour and luxury, and what was better, more happiness, than the little +girl who had made a man of him. There had always been a sweet and +serious simplicity about her, an air of good sense and reasonableness, +which had attracted everybody whose opinion was worth having to Lucy; +but she was neither beautiful nor clever. She had been so brought up +that, though she was not badly educated, she had no accomplishments, and +not more knowledge than falls to the lot of an ordinary schoolgirl. The +farthest extent of her mild experiences was Sloane Street and Cadogan +Place: and there were people who thought it impossible that Sir Tom, who +had been everywhere, and run through the entire gamut of pleasures and +adventures, should find anything interesting in this bread-and-butter +girl, whom, of course, it was his duty to marry, and having married to +be kind to. But when he found himself<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_11" id="Page_11">[Pg 11]</a></span> set down in an English country +house with this little piece of simplicity opposite to him, what would +he do, the sympathising spectators said? Even his kind aunt, who felt +that she had brought about the marriage, and who, as a matter of fact, +had fully intended it from the first, though she herself liked Lucy, had +a little terror in her soul as she asked herself the same question. He +would fill the house with company and get over it in that way, was what +the most kind and moderate people thought. But Sir Tom laughed at all +their prognostications. He said afterwards that he had never known +before how pretty it was to know nothing, and to have seen nothing, when +these defects were conjoined with intelligence and delightful curiosity +and never-failing interest. He declared that he had never truly enjoyed +his own adventures and experiences as he did when he told them over to +his young wife. You may be sure there were some of them which were not +adapted for Lucy's ears: but these Sir Tom left religiously away in the +background. He had been a careless liver no doubt, like so many men, but +he would rather have cut off his right hand, as the Scripture bids, than +have soiled Lucy's white soul with an idea, or an image, that was +unworthy of her. She knew him under all sorts of aspects, but not one +that was evil. Their solitary evenings together were to her more +delightful than any play, and to him nearly as delightful. When the +dinner was over and the cold shut out, she would wait his appearance in +the inner drawing-room, which she had chosen for her special abode, with +some of the homely cares that had been natural to her former condition, +drawing his chair to the fire, taking pride in making his coffee for +him, and a hundred little attentions. "Now begin," she would say, +recalling<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_12" id="Page_12">[Pg 12]</a></span> with a child's eager interest and earnest recollection the +point at which he had left off. This was the greater part of Lucy's +education. She travelled with him through very distant regions, and went +through all kinds of adventure.</p> + +<p>And in the season they went to London, where she made her appearance in +society, not perhaps with <i>éclat</i>, but with a modest composure which +delighted him. She understood then, for the first time, what it was to +be rich, and was amused and pleased—amused above all by the position +which she occupied with the utmost simplicity. People said it would turn +the little creature's head, but it never even disturbed her imagination. +She took it with a calm that was extraordinary. Thus her education +progressed, and Lucy was so fully occupied with it, with learning her +husband and her life and the world, that she had no time to think of the +responsibilities which once had weighed so heavily upon her. When now +and then they occurred to her and she made some passing reference to +them, there were so many other things to do that she forgot +again—forgot everything except to be happy and learn and see, as she +had now so many ways of doing. She forgot herself altogether, and +everything that had been hers, not in excitement, but in the soft +absorbing influence of her new life, which drew her away into endless +novelties and occupations, such as were, indeed, duties and necessities +of her altered sphere.</p> + +<p>If this was the case in the first three or four years of her marriage, +when she had only Sir Tom to think of, you may suppose what it was when +the baby came, to add a hundredfold to the interests of her existence. +Everything else in life, it may be believed, dwindled into nothing in +comparison with this boy of boys—this<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_13" id="Page_13">[Pg 13]</a></span> wonderful infant. There had +never been one in the world like him it is unnecessary to say: and +everything was so novel to her, and she felt the importance of being +little Tom's mother so deeply, that her mind was quite carried away from +all other thoughts. She grew almost beautiful in the light of this new +addition to her happiness. And how happy she was! The child grew and +throve. He was a splendid boy. His mother did not sing litanies in his +praise in public, for her good sense never forsook her: but his little +being seemed to fill up her life like a new stream flowing into it, and +she expanded in life, in thought, and in understanding. She began to see +a reason for her own position, and to believe in it, and take it +seriously. She was a great lady, the first in the neighbourhood, and she +felt that, as little Tom's mother, it was natural and befitting that she +should be so. She began to be sensible of ambition within herself, as +well as something that felt like pride. It was so little like ordinary +pride, however, that Lucy was sorry for everybody who had not all the +noble surroundings which she began to enjoy. She would have liked that +every child should have a nursery like little Tom's, and every mother +the same prospects for her infant, and was charitable and tender beyond +measure to all the mothers and children within reach on little Tom's +account, which was an extravagance which her husband did not grudge, but +liked and encouraged, knowing the sentiment from which it sprang. It was +with no view to popularity that the pair thus endeavoured to diffuse +happiness about them, being so happy themselves; but it answered the +same purpose, and their popularity was great.</p> + +<p>When the county conferred the highest honour in its power upon Sir Tom, +his immediate neighbours in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_14" id="Page_14">[Pg 14]</a></span> the villages about took the honour as their +own, and rejoiced as, even at a majority or a marriage, they had never +rejoiced before, for so kind a landlord, so universal a friend, had +never been.</p> + +<p>The villages were model villages on the Randolph lands. Sir Tom and his +young wife had gone into every detail about the labourers' cottages with +as much interest as if they had themselves meant to live in one of them. +There were no such trim gardens or bright flower-beds to be seen +anywhere, and it was well for the people that the Rector of the parish +was judicious, and kept Lady Randolph's charities within bounds. There +had been no small amount of poverty and distress among these rustics +when the Squire was poor and absent, when they lived in tumbledown old +houses, which nobody took any interest in, and where neither decency nor +comfort was considered; but now little industries sprang up and +prospered, and the whole landscape smiled. A wise landlord with +unlimited sway over his neighbourhood and no rivals in the field can do +so much to increase the comfort of everybody about him; and such a small +matter can make a poor household comfortable. Political economists, no +doubt, say it is demoralising: but when it made Lucy happy and the poor +women happy, how could Sir Tom step in and arrest the genial bounty? He +gave the Rector a hint to see that she did not go too far, and walked +about with his hands in his pockets and looked on. All this amused him +greatly; even the little ingratitudes she met with, which went to Lucy's +heart, made her husband laugh. It pleased his satirical vein to see how +human nature displayed itself, and the black sheep appeared among the +white even in a model village. But as for Lucy, though she would +sometimes cry over<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_15" id="Page_15">[Pg 15]</a></span> these spots upon the general goodness, it satisfied +every wish of her heart to be able to do so much for the cottagers. They +did not, perhaps, stand so much in awe of her as they ought to have +done, but they brought all their troubles to her with the most perfect +and undoubting confidence.</p> + +<p>All this time, however, Lucy, following the dictates of her own heart, +and using what after all was only a little running over of her great +wealth to secure the comfort of the people round, was neglecting what +she had once thought the great duty of her life as entirely as if she +had been the most selfish of worldly women. Her life had been so +entirely changed—swung, as one might say, out of one orbit into +another—that the burdens of the former existence seemed to have been +taken from her shoulders along with its habits and external +circumstances. Her husband thought of these as little as herself; yet +even he was somewhat surprised to find that he had no trouble in weaning +Lucy from the extravagances of her earlier independence. He had not +expected much trouble, but still it had seemed likely enough that she +would at least propose things that his stronger sense condemned, and +would have to be convinced and persuaded that they were impracticable; +but nothing of the kind occurred, and when he thought of it Sir Tom +himself was surprised, as also were various other people who knew what +Lucy's obstinacy on the subject before her marriage had been, and +especially the Dowager Lady Randolph, who paid her nephew a yearly +visit, and never failed to question him on the subject.</p> + +<p>"And Lucy?" she would say. "Lucy never makes any allusion? She has +dismissed everything from her mind? I really think you must be a +magician, Tom. I could not have believed it, after all the trouble she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_16" id="Page_16">[Pg 16]</a></span> +gave us, and all the money she threw away. Those Russells, you know, +that she was so ridiculously liberal to, they are as bad as ever. That +sort of extravagant giving of money is never successful. But I never +thought you would have got it out of her mind."</p> + +<p>"Don't flatter me," he said; "it is not I that have got it out of her +mind. It is life and all the novelties in it—and small Tom, who is more +of a magician than I am——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, the baby!" said the dowager, with the indifference of a woman who +has never had a child, and cannot conceive why a little sprawling +tadpole in long clothes should make such a difference. "Yes, I suppose +that's a novelty," she said, "to be mother of a bit of a thing like that +naturally turns a girl's head. It is inconceivable the airs they give +themselves, as if there was nothing so wonderful in creation. And so far +as I can see you are just as bad, though you ought to know better, Tom."</p> + +<p>"Oh, just as bad," he said, with his large laugh. "I never had a share +in anything so wonderful. If you only could see the superiority of this +bit of a thing to all other things about him——"</p> + +<p>"Oh! spare me," cried Lady Randolph the elder, holding up her hands. "Of +course I don't undervalue the importance of an heir to the property," +she said in a different tone. "I have heard enough about it to be pretty +sensible of that."</p> + +<p>This the Dowager said with a slight tone of bitterness, which indeed was +comprehensible enough: for she had suffered much in her day from the +fact that no such production had been possible to her. Had it been so, +her nephew who stood by her would not (she could scarcely help +reflecting with some grudge against Pro<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_17" id="Page_17">[Pg 17]</a></span>vidence) have been the great man +he now was, and no child of his would have mattered to the family. Lady +Randolph was a very sensible woman, and had long been reconciled to the +state of affairs, and liked her nephew, whom she had been the means of +providing for so nobly; and she was glad there was a baby; still, for +the sake of her own who had never existed, she resented the +self-exaltation of father and mother over this very common and in no way +extraordinary phenomenon of a child.</p> + +<p>Sir Tom laughed again with a sense of superiority, which was in itself +somewhat ludicrous; but as nobody is clear-sighted in their own +concerns, he was quite unconscious of this. His laugh nettled Lady +Randolph still more. She said, with a certain disdain in her tone,—</p> + +<p>"And so you think you have sailed triumphantly over all that +difficulty—thanks to your charms and the baby's, and are going to hear +nothing of it any more?"</p> + +<p>Sir Tom felt that he was suddenly pulled up, and was a little resentful +in return.</p> + +<p>"I hope," he said, "that is, I do more than hope, I feel convinced, that +my wife, who has great sense, has outgrown that nonsense, and that she +has sufficient confidence in me to leave her business matters in my +hands."</p> + +<p>Lady Randolph shook her head.</p> + +<p>"Outgrown nonsense—at three and twenty?" she said. "Don't you think +that's premature? and, my dear boy, take my word for it, a woman when +she has the power, likes to keep the control of her own business just as +well as a man does. I advise you not to holloa till you are out of the +wood."</p> + +<p>"I don't expect to have any occasion to holloa;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_18" id="Page_18">[Pg 18]</a></span> there is no wood for +that matter; Lucy, though perhaps you may not think it, is one of the +most reasonable of creatures."</p> + +<p>"She is everything that is nice and good," said the Dowager, "but how +about the will? Lucy may be reasonable, but that is not. And she cannot +forget it always."</p> + +<p>"Pshaw! The will is a piece of folly," cried Sir Tom. He grew red at the +very thought with irritation and opposition. "I believe the old man was +mad. Nothing else could excuse such imbecility. Happily there is no +question of the will."</p> + +<p>"But there must be, some time or other."</p> + +<p>"I see no occasion for it," said Sir Tom coldly; and as his aunt was a +reasonable woman, she did not push the matter any farther. But if the +truth must be told this sensible old lady contemplated the great +happiness of these young people with a sort of interested and alarmed +spectatorship (for she wished them nothing but good), watching and +wondering when the explosion would come which might in all probability +shatter it to ruins. For she felt thoroughly convinced in her own mind +that Lucy would not always forget the conditions by which she held her +fortune, and that all the reason and good sense in the world would not +convince her that it was right to ignore and baulk her father's +intentions, as conveyed with great solemnity in his will. And when the +question should come to be raised, Lady Randolph felt that it would be +no trifling one. Lucy was very simple and sweet, but when her conscience +spoke even the influence of Sir Tom would not suffice to silence it. She +was a girl who would stand to what she felt to be right if all the world +and even her husband were against her—and the Dowager, who wished them +no harm, felt<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_19" id="Page_19">[Pg 19]</a></span> a little alarmed as to the issue. Sir Tom was not a man +easy to manage, and the reddening of his usually smiling countenance at +the mere suggestion of the subject was very ominous. It would be better, +far better, for Lucy if she would yield at once and say nothing about +it. But that was not what it was natural for her to do. She would stand +by her duty to her father, just as, were it assailed, she would stand by +her duty to her husband; but she would never be got to understand that +the second cancelled the first. The Dowager Lady Randolph watched the +young household with something of the interest with which a playgoer +watches the stage. She felt sure that the explosion would come, and that +a breath, a touch, might bring it on at any moment; and then what was to +be the issue? Would Lucy yield? would Lucy conquer? or would the easy +temper with which everybody credited Sir Tom support this trial? The old +lady, who knew him so well, believed that there was a certain fiery +element below, and she trembled for the peace of the household which was +so happy and triumphant, and had no fear whatever for itself. She +thought of "the torrent's smoothness ere it dash below," of the calm +that precedes a storm, and many other such images, and so frightened did +she become at the dangers she had conjured up that she put the will +hurriedly out of her thoughts, as Sir Tom had done, and would think no +more of it. "Sufficient," she said to herself, "is the evil to the day."</p> + +<p>In the meantime, the married pair smiled serenely at any doubts of their +perfect union, and Lucy felt a great satisfaction in showing her +husband's aunt (who had not thought her good enough for Sir Tom, +notwithstanding that she so warmly promoted the match) how<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_20" id="Page_20">[Pg 20]</a></span> satisfied he +was with his home, and how exultant in his heir.</p> + +<p>In the following chapters the reader will discover what was the cause +which made the Dowager shake her head when she got into the carriage to +drive to the railway at the termination of her visit. It was all very +pretty and very delightful, and thoroughly satisfactory; but still Lady +Randolph, the elder, shook her experienced head.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_III" id="CHAPTER_III"></a>CHAPTER III.</h2> + +<h3>OLD MR. TREVOR'S WILL.</h3> + + +<p>Lucy Trevor, when she married Sir Thomas Randolph, was the heiress of so +great a fortune that no one ventured to state it in words or figures. +She was not old enough, indeed, to have the entire control of it in her +hands, but she had unlimited control over a portion of it in a certain +sense, not for her own advantage, but for the aggrandisement of others. +Her father, who was eccentric and full of notions, had so settled it +that a large portion of the money should eventually return, as he +phrased it, to the people from whom it had come, and this not in the way +of public charities and institutions, as is the common idea in such +cases, but by private and individual aid to struggling persons and +families. Lucy, who was then all conscience and devotion to the +difficult yet exciting duty which her father had left to her to do, had +made a beginning of this extraordinary work before her marriage, +resisting all the arguments that were brought to bear upon her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_21" id="Page_21">[Pg 21]</a></span> as to +the folly of the will, and the impossibility of carrying it out. It is +likely, indeed, that the trustees and guardians would have taken steps +at once to have old Trevor's will set aside but for the fact that Lucy +had a brother, who in that case would divide the inheritance with her, +but who was specially excluded by the will, as being a son of Mr. +Trevor's second wife, and entirely unconnected with the source from +which the fortune came. It was Lucy's mother who had brought it into the +family, although she was not herself aware of its magnitude, and did not +live long enough to have any enjoyment of it. Neither did old Trevor +himself have any enjoyment of it, save in the making of the will by +which he laid down exactly his regulations for its final disposal. In +any case Lucy was to retain the half, which was of itself a great sum; +but the condition of her inheritance, and indeed the occupation of her +life, according to her father's intention, was that she should select +suitable persons to whom to distribute the other half of her fortune. It +is needless to say that this commission had seriously occupied the +thoughts of the serious girl who, without any sense of personal +importance, found herself thus placed in the position of an official +bestower of fortune, having it in her power to confer comfort, +independence, and even wealth; for she was left almost entirely +unrestricted as to her disposition of the money, and might at her +pleasure confer a very large sum upon a favourite. Everybody who had +ever heard of old Trevor's will considered it the very maddest upon +record, and there were many who congratulated themselves that Lucy's +husband, if she was so lucky as to marry a man of sense, would certainly +put a stop to it—or even that Lucy herself, when she came to years of +serious judg<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_22" id="Page_22">[Pg 22]</a></span>ment, would see the folly; for there was no stipulation as +to the time at which the distributions should be made, these, as well as +the selection of the objects of her bounty, being left to herself. She +had been very full of this strange duty before her marriage, and had +selected several persons who, as it turned out, did but little credit to +her choice, almost forcing her will upon the reluctant trustees, who had +no power to hinder her from carrying it out, and whose efforts at +reasoning with her had been totally unsuccessful. In these early +proceedings Sir Tom, who was intensely amused by the oddity of the +business altogether, and who had then formed no idea of appropriating +her and her money to himself, gave her a delighted support.</p> + +<p>He had never in his life encountered anything which amused him so much, +and his only regret was that he had not known the absurd but high-minded +old English Quixote who, wiser in his generation than that noble knight, +left it to his heir to redress the wrongs of the world, while he himself +had the pleasure of the anticipation only, not perhaps unmixed with a +malicious sense of all the confusions and exhibitions of the weakness of +humanity it would produce. Sir Tom himself had humour enough to +appreciate the philosophy of the old humorist, and the droll spectator +position which he had evidently chosen for himself, as though he could +somehow see and enjoy all the struggles of self-interest raised by his +will, with one of those curious self-delusions which so often seem to +actuate the dying. Sir Tom, however, had thought it little more than a +folly even at the moment when it had amused him the most. He had thought +that in time Lucy would come to see how ridiculous it was, and would +tacitly, without saying anything, give it up, so sensible a girl being +sure<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_23" id="Page_23">[Pg 23]</a></span> in the long run to see how entirely unsuited to modern times and +habits such a disposition was. And had she done so, there was nobody who +was likely to awaken her to a sense of her duty. Her trustees, who +considered old Trevor mad, and Lucy a fool to humour him, would +certainly make no objection; and little Jock, the little brother to whom +Lucy was everything in the world, was still less likely to interfere. +When it came about that Lucy herself, and her fortune, and all her +right, were in Sir Tom's own hands, he was naturally more and more sure +that this foolish will (after giving him a great deal of amusement, and +perhaps producing a supernatural chuckle, if such an expression of +feeling is possible in the spiritual region where old Trevor might be +supposed to be) would be henceforward like a testament in black letter, +voided by good sense and better knowledge and time, the most certain +agency of all. And his conviction had been more than carried out in the +first years of his married life. Lucy forgot what was required of her. +She thought no more of her father's will. It glided away into the unseen +along with so many other things, extravagances, or if not extravagances, +still phantasies of youth. She found enough in her new life—in her +husband, her baby, and the humble community which looked up to her and +claimed everything from her—to occupy both her mind and her hands. Life +seemed to be so full that there was no time for more.</p> + +<p>It had been no doing of Sir Tom's that little Jock, the brother who had +been Lucy's child, her Mentor, her counsellor and guide, had been +separated from her for so long. Jock had been sent to school with his +own entire concurrence and control. He was a little philosopher with a +mind beyond his years, and he had seemed to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_24" id="Page_24">[Pg 24]</a></span> understand fully, without +any childish objection, the reason why he should be separated from her, +and even why it was necessary to give up the hope of visiting his +sister. The first year it was because she was absent on her prolonged +wedding tour: the next because Jock was himself away on a long and +delightful expedition with a tutor, who had taken a special fancy to +him. Afterwards the baby was expected, and all exciting visits and +visitors were given up. They had met in the interval. Lucy had visited +Jock at his school, and he had been with them in London on several +occasions. But there had been little possibility of anything like their +old intercourse. Perhaps they could never again be to each other what +they had been when these two young creatures, strangely separated from +all about them, had been alone in the world, having entire and perfect +confidence in each other. They both looked back upon these bygone times +with a sort of regretful consciousness of the difference; but Lucy was +very happy in her new life, and Jock was a perfectly natural boy, given +to no sentimentalities, not jealous, and enjoying his existence too +completely to sigh for the time when he was a quaint old-fashioned +child, and knew no life apart from his sister.</p> + +<p>Their intercourse then had been so pretty, so tender and touching; the +child being at once his sister's charge and her superior in his +old-fashioned reflectiveness, her pupil and her teacher, the little +judge of whose opinions she stood in awe, while at the same time quite +subject and submissive to her—that it was a pity it should ever come to +an end; but it is a pity, too, when children grow up, when they grow out +of all the softness and keen impressions of youth into the harder stuff +of man and woman. To their parents it is a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_25" id="Page_25">[Pg 25]</a></span> change which has often +little to recommend it—but it is inevitable, as we all know; and so it +was a pity that Lucy and Jock were no longer all in all to each other; +but the change was in their case, too, inevitable, and accepted by both. +When, however, the time came that Jock was to arrive really on his first +long visit at the Hall, Lucy prepared for this event with a little +excitement, with a lighting up of her eyes and countenance, and a +pleasant warmth of anticipation in which even little Tom was for the +moment set aside. She asked her husband a dozen times in the previous +day if he thought the boy would be altered. "I know he must be taller +and all that," Lucy said. "I do not mean the outside of him. But do you +think he will be changed?"</p> + +<p>"It is to be hoped so," said Sir Tom, serenely. "He is sixteen. I trust +he is not what he was at ten. That would be a sad business, indeed——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom, you know that's not what I mean!—of course he has grown +older; but he always was very old for his age. He has become a real boy +now. Perhaps in some things he will seem younger too."</p> + +<p>"I always said you were very reasonable," said her husband, admiringly. +"That is just what I wanted you to be prepared for—not a wise little +old man as he was when he had the charge of your soul, Lucy."</p> + +<p>She smiled at him, shaking her head. "What ridiculous things you say. +But Jock was always the wise one. He knew much better than I did. He did +take care of me whatever you may think, though he was such a child."</p> + +<p>"Perhaps it was as well that he did not continue to take care of you. On +the whole, though I have no such lofty views, I am a better guide."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_26" id="Page_26">[Pg 26]</a></span></p> + +<p>Lucy looked at him once more without replying for a moment. Was her mind +ever crossed by the idea that there were perhaps certain particulars in +which little Jock was the best guide? If so the blasphemy was +involuntary. She shook it off with a little movement of her head, and +met his glance with her usual serene confidence. "You ought to be," she +said, "Tom; but you liked him always. Didn't you like him? I always +thought so; and you will like him now?"</p> + +<p>"I hope so," said Sir Tom.</p> + +<p>Then a slight gleam of anxiety came into Lucy's eyes. This seemed the +only shape in which evil could come to her, and with one of those +forewarnings of Nature always prone to alarm, which come when we are +most happy, she looked wistfully at her husband, saying nothing, but +with an anxious question and prayer combined in her look. He smiled at +her, laying his hand upon her head, which was one of his caressing ways, +for Lucy, not an imposing person in any particular, was short, and Sir +Tom was tall.</p> + +<p>"Does that frighten you, Lucy? I shall like him for your sake, if not +for his own, never fear."</p> + +<p>"That is kind," she said, "but I want you to like him for his own sake. +Indeed, I should like you if you would, Tom," she added almost timidly, +"to like him for your own. Perhaps you think that is presuming, as if +he, a little boy, could be anything to you; but I almost think that is +the only real way—if you know what I mean."</p> + +<p>"Now this is humbling," said Sir Tom, "that one's wife should consider +one too dull to know what she means. You are quite right, and a complete +philosopher, Lucy. I will like the boy for my own sake. I always did +like him, as you say. He was the quaintest<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_27" id="Page_27">[Pg 27]</a></span> little beggar, an old man +and a child in one. But it would have been bad for him had you kept on +cultivating him in that sort of hot-house atmosphere. It was well for +Jock, whatever it might be for you, that I arrived in time."</p> + +<p>Lucy pondered for a little without answering; and then she said, "Why +should it be considered so necessary for a boy to be sent away from +home?"</p> + +<p>"Why!" cried Sir Tom, in astonishment; and then he added, laughingly, +"It shows your ignorance, Lucy, to ask such a question. He must be sent +to school, and there is an end of it. There are some things that are +like axioms in Euclid, though you don't know very much about that—they +are made to be acted upon, not to be discussed. A boy must go to +school."</p> + +<p>"But why?" said Lucy undaunted. "That is no answer." She was +untrammelled by any respect for Euclid, and would have freely questioned +the infallibility of an axiom, with a courage such as only ignorance +possesses. She was thinking not only of Jock, but had an eye to distant +contingencies, when there might be question of a still more precious +boy. "God," she said, reverentially, "must have meant surely that the +father and mother should have something to do in bringing them up."</p> + +<p>"In the holidays, my dear," said Sir Tom; "that is what we are made for. +Have you never found that out?"</p> + +<p>Lucy never felt perfectly sure whether he was in jest or earnest. She +looked at him again to see what he meant—which was not very easy, for +Sir Tom meant two things directly opposed to each other. He meant what +he said, and yet said what he knew was nonsense, and laughed at himself +inwardly with a keen recogni<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_28" id="Page_28">[Pg 28]</a></span>tion of this fact. Notwithstanding, he was +as much determined to act upon it as if it had been the most certain +truth, and in a way pinned his faith to it as such.</p> + +<p>"I suppose you are laughing," said Lucy, "and I wish you would not, +because it is so important. I am sure we are not meant only for the +holidays, and you don't really think so, Tom; and to take a child away +from his natural teachers, and those that love him best in the world, to +throw him among strangers! Oh, I cannot think that is the best way, +whatever Euclid may make you think."</p> + +<p>At this Sir Tom laughed, as he generally did, though never +disrespectfully, at Lucy's decisions. He said, "That is a very just +expression, my dear, though Euclid never made us think so much as he +ought to have done. You are thinking of that little beggar. Wait till he +is out of long clothes."</p> + +<p>"Which shows all you know about it. He was shortcoated at the proper +time, I hope," said Lucy, with some indignation, "do you call these long +clothes?"</p> + +<p><i>These</i> were garments which showed when he sprawled, as he always did, a +great deal of little Tom's person, and as his mother was at that time +holding him by them, while he "felt his feet," upon the carpet, the +spectacle of two little dimpled knees without any covering at all +triumphantly proved her right. Sir Tom threw himself upon the carpet to +kiss those sturdy, yet wavering little limbs, which were not quite under +the guidance of Tommy's will as yet, and taking the child from his +mother, propped it up against his own person. "For the present, I allow +that fathers and mothers are the best," he said.</p> + +<p>Lucy stood and gazed at them in that ecstasy of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_29" id="Page_29">[Pg 29]</a></span> love and pleasure with +which a young mother beholds her husband's adoration for their child. +Though she feels it to be the highest pride and crown of their joint +existence, yet there is always in her mind a sense of admiration and +gratitude for his devotion. She looked down upon them at her feet, with +eyes running over with happiness. It is to be feared that at such a +moment Lucy forgot even Jock, the little brother who had been as a child +to her in her earlier days; and yet there was no want of love for Jock +in her warm and constant heart.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_IV" id="CHAPTER_IV"></a>CHAPTER IV.</h2> + +<h3>YOUNG MR. TREVOR.</h3> + + +<p>John Trevor, otherwise Jock, arrived at the Hall in a state of +considerable though suppressed excitement. It was not in his nature to +show the feelings which were most profound and strongest in his nature, +even if the religion of an English public school boy had not forbidden +demonstration. But he had very strong feelings underneath his calm +exterior, and the approach to Lucy's home gave him many thoughts. The +sense of separation which had once affected him with a deep though +unspoken sentiment had passed away long ago into a faint grudge, a +feeling of something lost—but between ten and sixteen one does not +brood upon a grievance, especially when one is surrounded by everything +that can make one happy; and there was a certain innate philosophy in +the mind of Jock which enabled him to see the justice and necessity of +the separation. He it was who in very early day, had ordained his own +going<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_30" id="Page_30">[Pg 30]</a></span> to school with a realisation of the need of it which is not +usually given to his age—and he had understood without any explanation +and without any complaint that Lucy must live her own life, and that +their constant brother and sister fellowship became impossible when she +married. The curious little solemn boy, who had made so many shrewd +guesses at the ways of life while he was still only a child, accepted +this without a word, working it out in his own silent soul; but +nevertheless it had affected him deeply. And when the time came at last +for a real meeting, not a week's visit in town where she was fully +occupied, and he did not well know what to do with himself—or a hurried +rapid meeting at school, where Jock's pride in introducing his tutor to +his sister was a somewhat imperfect set-off to the loss of personal +advantage to himself in thus seeing Lucy always in the company of other +people—his being was greatly moved with diverse thoughts. Lucy was all +he had in the world to represent the homes, the fathers and mothers and +sisters and brothers of his companions. The old time when they had been +all in all to each other had a more delicate beauty than the ordinary +glow of childhood. He thought there was nobody like her, with that +mingled adoration and affectionate contempt which make up a boy's love +for the women belonging to him. She was not clever: but he regarded the +simplicity of her mind with pride. This seemed to give her her crowning +charm. "Any fellow can be clever," Jock said to himself. It was part of +Lucy's superiority that she was not so. He arrived at the railway +station at Farafield with much excitement in his mind, though his looks +were quiet enough. The place, though it was the first he had ever known, +did not attract a thought from the other and more im<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_31" id="Page_31">[Pg 31]</a></span>portant meeting. It +was a wet day in August, and the coachman who had been sent for him gave +him a note to say that Lucy would have come to meet him but for the +rain. He was rather glad of the rain, this being the case. He did not +want to meet her on a railway platform—he even regretted the long +stretches of the stubble fields as he whirled past, and wished that the +way had been longer, though he was so anxious to see her. And when he +jumped down at the great door of the hall and found himself in the +embrace of his sister, the youth was thrilling with excitement, hope, +and pleasure. Lucy had changed much less than he had. Jock, who had been +the smallest of pale-faced boys, was now long and weedy, with limbs and +fingers of portentous length. His hair was light and limp; his large +eyes, well set in his head, had a vague and often dreamy look. It was +impossible to call him a handsome boy. There was an entire want of +colour about him, as there had been about Lucy in her first youth, and +his gray morning clothes, like the little gray dress she had worn as a +young girl were not very becoming to him. They had been so long apart +that he met her very shyly, with an awkwardness that almost looked like +reluctance, and for the first hour scarcely knew what to say to her, so +full was he of the wonder and pleasure of being by her, and the +impossibility of expressing this. She asked him about his journey, and +he made the usual replies, scarcely knowing what he said, but looking at +her with a suppressed beatitude which made Jock dull in the very +intensity of his feeling. The rain came steadily down outside, shutting +them in as with veils of falling water. Sir Tom, in order to leave them +entirely free to have their first meeting over, had taken himself off +for the day.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_32" id="Page_32">[Pg 32]</a></span> Lucy took her young brother into the inner drawing-room, +the centre of her own life. She made him sit down in a luxurious chair, +and stood over him gazing at the boy, who was abashed and did not know +what to say. "You are different, Jock. It is not that you are taller and +bigger altogether, but you are different. I suppose so am I."</p> + +<p>"Not much," he said, looking shyly at her. "You couldn't change."</p> + +<p>"How so?" she asked with a laugh. "I am such a great deal older I ought +to look wiser. Let me see what it is. Your eyes have grown darker, I +think, and your face is longer, Jock; and what is that? a little down, +actually, upon your upper lip. Jock, not a moustache!"</p> + +<p>Jock blushed with pleasure and embarrassment, and put up his hand fondly +to feel those few soft hairs. "There isn't very much of it," he said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, there is enough to swear by; and you like school as well as ever? +and MTutor, how is he? Are you as fond of him as you used to be, Jock?"</p> + +<p>"You don't say you're fond of him," said Jock, "but he's just as jolly +as ever, if that is what you mean."</p> + +<p>"That is what I mean, I suppose. You must tell me when I say anything +wrong," said Lucy. She took his head between her hands and gave him a +kiss upon his forehead. "I am so glad to see you here at last," she +said.</p> + +<p>And then there was a pause. Her first little overflow of questions had +come to an end, and she did not exactly know what to say, while Jock sat +silent, staring at her with an earnest gaze. It was all so strange, the +scene and surroundings, and Lucy in the midst,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_33" id="Page_33">[Pg 33]</a></span> who was a great lady, +instead of being merely his sister—all these confused the boy's +faculties. He wanted time to realise it all. But Lucy, for her part, +felt the faintest little touch of disappointment. It seemed to her as if +they ought to have had so much to say to each other, such a rush of +questions and answers, and full-hearted confidence. Jock's heart would +be at his lips, she thought, ready to rush forth—and her own also, with +all the many things of which she had said to herself: "I must tell that +to Jock." But as a matter of fact, many of these things had been told by +letter, and the rest would have been quite out of place in the moment of +reunion, in which indeed it seemed inappropriate to introduce any +subject other than their pleasure in seeing each other again, and those +personal inquiries which we all so long to make face to face when we are +separated from those near to us, yet which are so little capable of +filling all the needs of the situation when that moment comes. Jock was +indeed showing his happiness much more by his expressive silence and shy +eager gaze at her than if he had plunged into immediate talk; but Lucy +felt a little disappointed, and as if the meeting had not come up to her +hopes. She said, after a pause which was almost awkward, "You would like +to see baby, Jock? How strange that you should not know baby! I wonder +what you will think of him." She rose and rang the bell while she was +speaking in a pleasant stir of fresh expectation. No doubt it would stir +Jock to the depths of his heart, and bring out all his latent feeling, +when he saw Lucy's boy. Little Tom was brought in state to see "his +uncle," a title of dignity which the nurse felt indignantly disappointed +to have bestowed upon the lanky, colourless boy who got up<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_34" id="Page_34">[Pg 34]</a></span> with great +embarrassment and came forward reluctantly to see the creature quite +unknown and unrealised, of whom Lucy spoke with so much exultation. Jock +was not jealous, but he thought it rather odd that "a little thing like +that" should excite so much attention. It seemed to him that it was a +thing all legs and arms, sprawling in every direction, and when it +seized Lucy by the hair, pulling it about her face with the most riotous +freedom, Jock felt deeply disposed to box its ears. But Lucy was +delighted. "Oh, naughty baby!" she said, with a voice of such admiration +and ecstasy as the finest poetry, Jock reflected, would never have awoke +in her; and when the thing "loved" her, at its nurse's bidding, clasping +its fat arms round her neck, and applying a wide-open wet mouth to her +cheek, the tears were in her eyes for very pleasure. "Baby, darling, +that is your uncle; won't you go to your uncle? Take him, Jock. If he is +a little shy at first he will soon get used to you," Lucy cried. To see +Jock holding back on one side, and the baby on the other, which +strenuously refused to go to its uncle, was as good as a play.</p> + +<p>"I'm afraid I should let it fall," said Jock, "I don't know anything +about babies."</p> + +<p>"Then sit down, dear, and I will put him upon your lap," said the young +mother. There never was a more complete picture of wretchedness than +poor Jock, as he placed himself unwillingly on the sofa with his knees +put firmly together and his feet slanting outwards to support them. "I +sha'n't know what to do with it," he said. It is to be feared that he +resented its existence altogether. It was to him a quite unnecessary +addition. Was he never to see Lucy any more without that thing clinging +to her?<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_35" id="Page_35">[Pg 35]</a></span> Little Tom, for his part, was equally decided in his +sentiments. He put his little fists, which were by no means without +force, against his uncle's face, and pushed him away, with squalls that +would have exasperated Job; and then, instead of consoling Jock, Lucy +took the little demon to her arms and soothed him. "Did they want it to +make friends against its will," Lucy was so ridiculous as to say, like +one of the women in <i>Punch</i>, petting and smoothing down that odious +little creature. Both she and the nurse seemed to think that it was the +baby who wanted consoling for the appearance of Jock, and not Jock who +had been insulted; for one does not like even a baby to consider one as +repulsive and disagreeable. The incident was scarcely at an end when Sir +Tom came in, fresh, smiling, and damp from the farm, where he had been +inspecting the cattle and enjoying himself. Mature age and settled life +and a sense of property had converted Sir Tom to the pleasure of +farming. He shook Jock heartily by the hand, and clapped him on the +back, and bade him welcome with great kindness. Then he took "the little +beggar" on his shoulder and carried him, shrieking with delight, about +the room. It seemed a very strange thing to Jock to see how entirely +these two full-grown people gave themselves up to the deification of +this child. It was not bringing themselves to his level, it was looking +up to him as their superior. If he had been a king his careless favours +could not have been more keenly contended for. Jock, who was fond of +poetry and philosophy and many other fine things, looked on at this new +mystery with wondering and indignant contempt. After dinner there was +the baby again. It was allowed to stay out of bed longer than usual in +honour of its uncle, and dinner<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_36" id="Page_36">[Pg 36]</a></span> was hurried over, Jock thought, in +order that it might be produced, decked out in a sash almost as broad as +its person. When it appeared rational conversation was at an end, Sir +Tom, whom Jock had always respected highly, stopped the inquiries he was +making, with all the knowledge and pleasure, of an old schoolboy, into +school life, comparing his own experiences with those of the present +generation—to play bo-peep behind Lucy's shoulder with the baby. +Bo-peep! a Member of Parliament, a fellow who had been at the +University, who had travelled, who had seen America and gone through the +Desert! There was consternation in the astonishment with which Jock +looked on at this unlooked-for, almost incredible, exhibition. It was +ridiculous in Lucy, but in Sir Tom!</p> + +<p>"I suppose we were all like that one time?" he said, trying to be +philosophical, as little Tom at last, half smothered with kisses, was +carried away.</p> + +<p>"Like <i>that</i> —do you mean like baby? You were a little darling, dear, +and I was always very, very fond of you," said Lucy, giving him the +kindest look of her soft eyes. "But you were not a beauty, like my boy."</p> + +<p>Sir Tom had laughed, with something of the same sentiment very evident +in his mirth, when Lucy spoke. He put out his hand and patted his young +brother-in-law on the shoulder. "It is absurd," he said, "to put that +little beggar in the foreground when we have somebody here who is in +Sixth form at sixteen, and is captain of his house, and has got a school +prize already. If Lucy does not appreciate all that, I do, Jock, and the +best I can wish for Tommy is that he should have done as much at your +age."</p> + +<p>"Oh, I was not thinking of that," said Jock with a violent blush.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_37" id="Page_37">[Pg 37]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Of course he was not," said Lucy calmly, "for he always had the kindest +heart though he was so clever. If you think I don't appreciate it as you +say, Tom, it is only because I knew it all the time. Do you think I am +surprised that Jock has beaten everybody? He was like that when he was +six, before he had any education. And he will be just as proud of baby +as we are when he knows him. He is a little strange at first," said +Lucy, beaming upon her brother; "but as soon as he is used to you, he +will go to you just as he does to me."</p> + +<p>To this Jock could not reply by betraying the shiver that went over him +at the thought, but it gave great occupation to his mind to make out how +a little thing like that could attain, as it had done, such empire over +the minds of two sensible people. He consulted MTutor on the subject by +letter, who was his great referee on difficult subjects, and he could +not help betraying his wonder to the household as he grew more familiar +and the days went on. "He can't do anything for you," Jock said. "He +can't talk; he doesn't know anything about—well, about books: I know +that's more my line than yours, Lucy—but about anything. Oh! you +needn't flare up. When he dabs his mouth at you all wet——"</p> + +<p>"Oh! you little wretch, you infidel, you savage," Lucy cried; "his sweet +mouth! and a dear big wet kiss that lets you know he means it."</p> + +<p>Jock looked at her as he had done often in the old days, with mingled +admiration and contempt. It was like Lucy, and yet how odd it was. "I +suppose, then," he said, "I was rather worse than <i>that</i> when you took +me up and were good to me. What for, I wonder? and you were fond of me, +too, although you are fonder of <i>it</i>——"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_38" id="Page_38">[Pg 38]</a></span></p> + +<p>"If you talk of It again I will never speak to you more," Lucy said, "as +if my beautiful boy was a thing and not a person. He is not It: he is +Tom, he is Mr. Randolph: that is what Williams calls him." Williams was +the butler who had been all over the world with Sir Tom, and who was +respectful of the heir, but a little impatient and surprised, as Jock +was, of the fuss that was made about Tommy for his own small sake.</p> + +<p>By this time, however, Jock had recovered from his shyness—his +difficulty in talking, all the little mist that absence had made—and +roamed about after Lucy, hanging upon her, putting his arm through hers, +though he was much the taller, wherever she went. He held her back a +little now as they walked through the park in a sort of procession, Mrs. +Richens, the nurse, going first with the boy. "When I was a little +slobbering beast, like——" he stopped himself in time, "like the +t'other kind of baby, and nobody wanted me, you were the only one that +took any trouble."</p> + +<p>"How do you know?" said Lucy; "you don't remember and I don't remember."</p> + +<p>"Ah! but I remember the time in the Terrace, when I lay on the rug, and +heard papa making his will over my head. I was listening for you all the +time. I was thinking of nothing but your step coming to take me out."</p> + +<p>"Nonsense!" said Lucy, "you were deep in your books, and thinking of +them only; of that—gentleman with the windmills—or Shakspeare, or some +other nonsense. Oh, I don't mean Shakspeare is nonsense. I mean you were +thinking of nothing but your books, and nobody would believe you +understood all that at your age.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_39" id="Page_39">[Pg 39]</a></span>"</p> + +<p>"I did not understand," said Jock with a blush. "I was a little prig. +Lucy, how strange it all is, like a picture one has seen somewhere, or a +scene in a play or a dream! Sometimes I can remember little bits of it, +just as he used to read it out to old Ford. Bits of it are all in and +out of <i>As You Like It</i>, as if Touchstone had said them, or Jaques. Poor +old papa! how particular he was about it all. Are you doing everything +he told you, Lucy, in the will?"</p> + +<p>He did not in the least mean it as an alarming question, as he stooped +over, in his awkward way holding her arm, and looked into her face.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_V" id="CHAPTER_V"></a>CHAPTER V.</h2> + +<h3>CONSULTATIONS.</h3> + + +<p>Lucy was much startled by her brother's demand. It struck, however, not +her conscience so much as her recollection, bringing back that past +which was still so near, yet which seemed a world away, in which she had +made so many anxious efforts to carry out her father's will and +considered it the main object of her life. A young wife who is happy, +and upon whom life smiles, can scarcely help looking back upon the time +when she was a girl with a sense of superiority, an amused and +affectionate contempt for herself. "How could I be so silly?" she will +say, and laugh, not without a passing blush. This was not exactly Lucy's +feeling; but in three years she had, even in her sheltered and happy +position, attained a certain acquaintance with life, and she saw +difficulties which<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_40" id="Page_40">[Pg 40]</a></span> in those former days had not been apparent to her. +When Jock began to recall these reminiscences it seemed to her as if she +saw once more the white commonplace walls of her father's sitting-room +rising about her, and heard him laying down the law which she had +accepted with such calm. She had seen no difficulty then. She had not +even been surprised by the burden laid upon her. It had appeared as +natural to obey him in matters which concerned large external interests, +and the well-being of strangers, as it was to fill him out a cup of tea. +But the interval of time, and the change of position, had made a great +difference; and when Jock asked, "Are you doing all he told you?" the +question brought a sudden surging of the blood to her head, which made a +singing in her ears and a giddiness in her brain. It seemed to place her +in front of something which must interrupt all her life and put a stop +to the even flow of her existence. She caught her breath. "Doing all he +told me!"</p> + +<p>Jock, though he did not mean it, though he was no longer her +self-appointed guardian and guide, became to Lucy a monitor, recalling +her as to another world.</p> + +<p>But the effect though startling was not permanent. They began to talk it +all over, and by dint of familiarity the impression wore away. The +impression, but not the talk. It gave the brother and sister just what +they wanted to bring back all the habits of their old affectionate +confidential intercourse, a subject upon which they could carry on +endless discussions and consultations, which was all their own, like one +of those innocent secrets which children delight in, and which, with +arms entwined and heads close together, they can carry on endlessly for +days together. They ceased the discussion when Sir Tom appeared, not<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_41" id="Page_41">[Pg 41]</a></span> +with any fear of him as a disturbing influence, but with a tacit +understanding that this subject was for themselves alone. It involved +everything; the past with all those scenes of their strange childhood, +the homely living, the fantastic possibilities always in the air, the +old dear tender relationship between the two young creatures who alone +belonged to each other. Lucy almost forgot her present self as she +talked, and they moved about together, the tall boy clinging to her arm +as the little urchin had done, altogether dependent, yet always with a +curious leadership, suggesting a thousand things that would not have +occurred to her.</p> + +<p>Lucy had no occasion now for the advice which Jock at eight years old +had so freely given her. She had her husband to lead and advise her. But +in this one matter Sir Tom was put tacitly out of court, and Jock had +his old place. "It does not matter at all that you have not done +anything lately," Jock said; "there is plenty of time—and now that I am +to spend all my holidays here, it will be far easier. It was better not +to do things so hastily as you began."</p> + +<p>"But, Jock," said Lucy, "We must not deceive ourselves; it will be very +hard. People who are very nice do not like to take the money; and those +who are willing to take it——"</p> + +<p>"Does the will say the people are to be nice?" asked Jock. "Then what +does that matter? The will is all against reason, Lucy. It is wrong, you +know. Fellows who know political economy would think we are all mad; for +it just goes against it, straight."</p> + +<p>"That is strange, Jock; for papa was very economical. He never could +bear waste: he used to say——"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_42" id="Page_42">[Pg 42]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Yes, yes; but political economy means something different. It is a +science. It means that you should sell everything as dear as you can, +and buy it as cheap as you can—and never give anything away——"</p> + +<p>"That is dreadful, Jock," said Lucy. "It is all very well to be a +science, but nobody like ourselves could be expected to act upon +it—private people, you know."</p> + +<p>"There is something in that," Jock allowed; "there are always +exceptions. I only want to show you that the will being all against +rule, it <i>must</i> be hard to carry it out. Don't you do anything by +yourself, Lucy. When you come across any case that is promising, just +you wait till I come, and we'll talk it all over. I don't quite +understand about nice people not taking it. Fellows I know are always +pleased with presents—or a tip, nobody refuses a tip. And that is just +the same sort of thing, you know."</p> + +<p>"Not just the same," said Lucy, "for a tip—that means a sovereign, +doesn't it?"</p> + +<p>"It sometimes means—paper," said Jock, with some solemnity. "Last time +you came to see me at school Sir Tom gave me a fiver——"</p> + +<p>"A what?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, a five-pound note," said Jock, with momentary impatience; "the +other's shorter to say and less fuss. MTutor thought he had better not; +but I didn't mind. I don't see why anybody should mind. There's a fellow +I know—his father is a curate, and there are no end of them, and +they've no money. Fellow himself is on the foundation, so he doesn't +cost much. Why they shouldn't take a big tip from you, who have too +much, I'm sure I can't tell; and I don't believe they would mind," Jock +added, after a pause.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_43" id="Page_43">[Pg 43]</a></span></p> + +<p>This, which would have inspired Lucy in the days of her dauntless +maidenhood to calculate at once how much it would take to make this +family happy, gave her a little shudder now.</p> + +<p>"I don't feel as if I could do it," she said. "I wish papa had found an +easier way. People don't like you afterwards when you do <i>that</i> for +them. They are angry—they think, why should I have all that to give +away, a little thing like me?"</p> + +<p>"The easiest way would be an exam.," said Jock. "Everybody now goes in +for exams.; and if they passed, they would think they had won the money +all right."</p> + +<p>"Perhaps there is something in that, Jock; but then it is not for young +men. It is for ladies, perhaps, or old people, or——"</p> + +<p>"You might let them choose their own subjects," said the boy. "A lady +might do a good paper about—servants, or sewing, or that sort of thing; +or housekeeping—that would be all right. MTutor might look over the +papers——"</p> + +<p>"Does he know about housekeeping?"</p> + +<p>"He knows about most things," cried Jock, "I should like to see the +thing he didn't know. He is the best scholar we have got; and he's what +you call an all-round man besides," the boy said with pride.</p> + +<p>"What is an all-round man?" Lucy asked, diffidently. "He is tall and +slight, so it cannot mean his appearance."</p> + +<p>"Oh, what a muff you are, Lucy; you're awfully nice, but you are a muff. +It means a man who knows a little of everything. MTutor is more than +that, he knows a great deal of everything; indeed, as I was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_44" id="Page_44">[Pg 44]</a></span> saying," +Jock added defiantly, "I should just like to see the thing he didn't +know."</p> + +<p>"And yet he is so nice," said Lucy, with a gentle air of astonishment.</p> + +<p>MTutor was a subject which was endless with Jock, so that the original +topic here glided out of sight as the exalted gifts of that model of all +the virtues became the theme. This conversation, however, was but one of +many. It was their meeting ground, the matter upon which they found each +other as of old, two beings separated from the world, which wondered at +and did not understand them. What a curious office it was for them, two +favourites of fortune as they seemed, to disperse and give away the +foundation of their own importance! for Jock owed everything to Lucy, +and Lucy, when she had accomplished this object of her existence, and +carried out her father's will, would no doubt still be a wealthy woman, +but not in any respect the great personage she was now. This was a view +of the matter which never crossed the minds of these two. Their strange +training had made Lucy less conscious of the immense personal advantage +which her money was to her than any other could have done. She knew, +indeed, that there was a great difference between her early home in +Farafield and the house in London where she had lived with Lady +Randolph, and still more, the Hall which was her home—but she had been +not less but more courted and worshipped in her lowly estate than in her +high one, and her father's curious philosophy had affected her mind and +coloured her perceptions. She had learned, indeed, to know that there +are difficulties in attempting to enact the part of Providence, and +taking upon herself the task of providing for her fellow-creatures; but +these difficulties had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_45" id="Page_45">[Pg 45]</a></span> nothing to do with the fact that she would +herself suffer by such a dispersion. Perhaps her imagination was not +lively enough to realise this part of the situation. Jock and she +ignored it altogether. As for Jock, the delight of giving away was +strong in him, and the position was so strange that it fascinated his +boyish imagination. To act such a part as that of Haroun-al-Raschid in +real life, and change the whole life of whatsoever poor cobbler or +fruit-seller attracted him, was a vision of fairyland such as Jock had +not yet outgrown. But the chief thing that he impressed on his sister +was the necessity of doing nothing by herself. "Just wait till we can +talk it over," he said, "two are always better than one: and a fellow +learns a lot at school. You wouldn't think it, perhaps, but there's all +sorts there, and you learn a lot when you have your eyes well open. We +can talk it all over and settle if it's good enough; but don't go and be +rash, Lucy, and do anything by yourself."</p> + +<p>"I sha'n't, dear; I should be too frightened," Lucy said.</p> + +<p>This was on one of his last days, when they were walking together +through the shrubbery. It was September by this time, and he might have +been shooting partridges with Sir Tom, but Jock was not so much an +out-door boy as he ought to have been, and he preferred walking with his +sister, his arm thrust through hers, his head stooping over her. It was +perhaps the last opportunity they would have of discussing their family +secrets, a matter (they thought) which really concerned nobody else, +which no one else would care to be troubled with. Perhaps in Lucy's mind +there was a sense of unreality in the whole matter; but Jock was +entirely in earnest, and quite convinced that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_46" id="Page_46">[Pg 46]</a></span> in such an important +business he was his sister's natural adviser, and might be of a great +deal of use. It was towards evening when they went out, and a red +autumnal sunset was accomplishing itself in the west, throwing a gleam +as of the brilliant tints which were yet to come, on the still green and +luxuriant foliage. The light was low, and came into Lucy's eyes, who +shaded them with her hand. And the paths had a touch of autumnal damp, +and a certain mistiness, mellow and golden by reason of the sunshine, +was rising among the trees.</p> + +<p>"We will not be hasty," said Jock; "we will take everything into +consideration: and I don't think you will find so much difficulty, Lucy, +when you have me."</p> + +<p>"I hope not, dear," Lucy said; and she began to talk to him about his +flannels and other precautions he was to take; for Jock was supposed not +to be very strong. He had grown fast, and he was rather weedy and long, +without strength to support it. "We have been so happy together," she +said. "We always were happy together, Jock. Remember, dear, no wet feet, +and as little football as you can help, for my sake."</p> + +<p>"Oh, yes," he said, with a wave of his hand; "all right, Lucy. There is +no fear about that. The first thing to think of is poor old father's +will, and what you are going to do about it. I mean to think out all +that about the examinations, and I suppose I may speak to MTutor——"</p> + +<p>"It is too private, don't you think, Jock? Nobody knows about it. It is +better to keep it between you and me."</p> + +<p>"I can put it as a supposed case," said Jock, "and ask what he would +advise; for you see, Lucy, you and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_47" id="Page_47">[Pg 47]</a></span> even I are not very experienced, and +MTutor, he knows such a lot. It would always be a good thing to have his +advice, you know; he——"</p> + +<p>There was no telling how long Jock might have gone on on this subject. +But just at this moment a quick step came round the corner of a clump of +wood, and a hand was laid on the shoulder of each. "What are you +plotting about?" asked the voice of Sir Tom in their ears. It was a +curious sign of her mental condition which Lucy remembered with shame +afterwards, without being very well able to account for it, that she +suddenly dropped Jock's arm and turned round upon her husband with a +quick blush and access of breathing, as if somehow—she could not tell +how—she had been found out. It had never occurred to her before, +through all those long drawn out consultations, that she was concealing +anything from Sir Tom. She dropped Jock's arm as if it hurt her, and +turned to her husband in the twinkling of an eye.</p> + +<p>"Jock," she said quickly, "and I—were talking about MTutor, Tom."</p> + +<p>"Ah! once landed on that subject, and there is no telling when we may +come to an end," Sir Tom said, with a laugh, "but never mind, I like you +all the better for it, my boy."</p> + +<p>Jock gave an astonished look at Lucy, a half-defiant one at her husband.</p> + +<p>"That was only by the way," he said, lifting up his shoulders with a +little air of offence. He did not condescend to any further explanation, +but walked along by their side with a lofty abstraction, looking at them +now and then from the corner of his eye. Lucy had taken Sir Tom's arm, +and was hanging upon her tall husband, looking up in his face. The +little<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_48" id="Page_48">[Pg 48]</a></span> blush of surprise—or was it of guilt?—with which she had +received him was still upon her cheek. She was far more animated than +usual, almost a little agitated. She asked about the shooting, about the +bag, and how many brace was to Sir Tom's own gun, with that conciliating +interest which is one of the signs of a conscious fault; while Sir Tom, +on his side bending down to his little wife, received all her flatteries +with so complacent a smile, and such a beatific belief in her perfect +sincerity and devotion, that Jock, looking on from his superiority of +passionless youth, regarded them both with a wondering disdain. Why did +she "make up" in that way to her husband, dropping her brother as if she +had been plotting harm? Jock was amazed, he could not understand it. +Perhaps it was only because he thus fell in a moment from being the +chief object of interest to the position of nobody at all.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_VI" id="CHAPTER_VI"></a>CHAPTER VI.</h2> + +<h3>A SHADOW OF COMING EVENTS.</h3> + + +<p>Lucy's mind had sustained a certain shock when her husband appeared. +During her short married life there had not been a cloud, or a shadow of +a cloud, between them. But then there had been no question between them, +nothing to cause any question, no difference of opinion. Sir Tom had +taken all her business naturally into his hands. Whatever she wished she +had got—nay, before she expressed a wish it had been satisfied. He had +talked to her about everything, and she had listened with docile +attention, but without conceal<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_49" id="Page_49">[Pg 49]</a></span>ing the fact that she neither understood +nor wished to understand; and he had not only never chided her, but had +accepted her indifference with a smile of pleasure as the most natural +thing in the world. He had encouraged her in all her liberal charities, +shaking his head and declaring with a radiant face that she would ruin +herself, and that not even her fortune would stand it. But the one +matter which had given Lucy so much trouble before her marriage, and +which Jock had now brought back to her mind, was one that had never been +mentioned between them. He had known all about it, and her eccentric +proceedings and conflict with her guardians, backing her up, indeed, +with much laughter, and showing every symptom of amiable amusement; but +he had never given any opinion on the subject, nor made the slightest +allusion since to this grand condition of her father's will. In the +sunny years that were past Lucy had taken no notice of this omission. +She had not thought much on the subject herself. She had withdrawn from +it tacitly, as one is apt to do from a matter which has been productive +of pain and disappointment, and had been content to ignore that portion +of her responsibilities. Even when Jock forcibly revived the subject it +continued without any practical importance, and its existence was a +question between themselves to afford material for endless conversation +which had been pleasant and harmless. But when Sir Tom's hand was laid +on her shoulder, and his cheerful voice sounded in her ear, a sudden +shock was given to Lucy's being. It flashed upon her in a moment that +this question which she had been discussing with Jock had never been +mentioned between her and her husband, and with a sudden instinctive +perception she became aware that Sir Tom would look upon it with<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_50" id="Page_50">[Pg 50]</a></span> very +different eyes from theirs. She felt that she had been disloyal to him +in having a secret subject of consultation even with her brother. If he +heard he would be displeased, he would be taken by surprise, perhaps +wounded, perhaps made angry. In any wise it would introduce a new +element into their life. Lucy saw, with a sudden sensation of fright and +pain, an unknown crowd of possibilities which might pour down upon her, +were it to be communicated to Sir Tom that his wife and her brother were +debating as to a course of action on her part, unknown to him. All this +occurred in a moment, and it was not any lucid and real perception of +difficulties, but only a sudden alarmed compunctious consciousness that +filled her mind. She fled, as it were, from the circumstances which made +these horrors possible, hurrying back into her former attitude with a +penitential urgency. Jock, indeed, was very dear to her, but he was no +more than second, nay he was but third, in Lady Randolph's heart. Her +husband's supremacy he could not touch, and though he had been almost +her child in the old days, yet he was not, nor ever would be, her child +in the same ineffable sense as little Tom was, who was her very own, the +centre of her life. So she ran away (so to speak) from Jock with a real +panic, and clung to her husband, conciliating, nay almost wheedling him, +if we may use the word, with a curious feminine instinct, to make up to +him for the momentary wrong she had done, and which he was not aware of. +Sir Tom himself was a little surprised by the warmth of the reception +she gave him. Her interest in his shooting was usually very mild, for +she had never been able to get over a little horror she had, due, +perhaps, to her bourgeois training, of the slaughter of the birds. He +glanced at the pair with an<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_51" id="Page_51">[Pg 51]</a></span> unusual perception that there was something +here more than met the eye. "You have been egging her up to some +rebellion," he said; "Jock, you villain; you have been hatching treason +behind my back!" He said this with one of those cordial laughs which +nobody could refrain from joining—full of good humour and fun, and a +pleased consciousness that to teach Lucy to rebel would be beyond any +one's power. At any other moment she would have taken the accusation +with the tranquil smile which was Lucy's usual reply to her husband's +pleasantries; but this time her laugh was a little strained, and the +warmth of her denial, "No, no! there has been no treason," gave the +slightest jar of surprise to Sir Tom. It sounded like a false note in +the air; he did not understand what it could mean.</p> + +<p>Jock went away the next day. He went with a basket of game for MTutor +and many nice things for himself, and all the attention and care which +might have been his had he been the heir instead of only the young +brother and dependent. Lucy herself drove in with him to Farafield to +see him off, and Sir Tom, who had business in the little town and meant +to drive back with his wife, appeared on the railway platform just in +time to say good-bye. "Now, Lucy, you will not forget," were Jock's last +words as he looked out of the window when the train was already in +motion. Lucy nodded and smiled, and waved her hand, but she did not make +any other reply. Sir Tom said nothing until they were driving along the +stubble fields in the afternoon sunshine. Lucy lay back in her corner +with that mingled sense of regret and relief with which, when we are +very happy at home, we see a guest go away—a gentle sorrow to part, a +soft pleasure in being once more restored<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_52" id="Page_52">[Pg 52]</a></span> to the more intimate circle. +She had not shaken off that impression of guiltiness, but now it was +over, and nothing further could be said on the subject for a long time +to come.</p> + +<p>"What is it, Lucy, that you are not to forget?"</p> + +<p>She roused herself up, and a warm flush of colour came to her face. "Oh, +nothing, Tom, a little thing we were consulting about. It was Jock that +brought it to my mind."</p> + +<p>"I think it must be more than just a little thing. Mayn't I hear what +this secret is?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, it is nothing, Tom," Lady Randolph repeated; and then she sat up +erect and said, "I must not deceive you. It is not merely a small +matter. Still it is just between Jock and me. It was about—papa's will, +Tom."</p> + +<p>"Ah! that is a large matter. I don't quite see how that can be between +you and Jock, Lucy. Jock has very little to do with it. I don't want to +find fault, my dear, but I think as an adviser you will find me better +than Jock."</p> + +<p>"I know you are far better, Tom. You know more than both of us put +together."</p> + +<p>"That would not be very difficult," he said, with a smile.</p> + +<p>Perhaps this calm acceptance of the fact nettled Lucy. At least she +said, with a little touch of spirit, "And yet I know something about our +kind of people better than you will ever do, Tom."</p> + +<p>"Lucy, this is a wonderful new tone. Perhaps you may know better, but I +am doubtful if you understand the relation of things as well. What is +it, my dear?—that is to say, if you like to tell me, for I am not going +to force your confidence."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_53" id="Page_53">[Pg 53]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Tom—oh dear Tom! It is not that. It is rather that it was something to +talk to Jock about. He remembers everything. When papa was making that +will——" here Lucy stopped and sighed. It had not been doing her a good +service to make her recollect that will, which had enough in it to make +her life wretched, though that as yet nobody knew. "He recollects it +all," she said. "He used to hear it read out. He remembers everything."</p> + +<p>"I suppose, then," said Sir Tom, with a peculiar smile, "there is +something in particular which he thought you were likely to forget?"</p> + +<p>Here Lucy sighed again. "I am afraid I had forgotten it. No, not +forgotten, but—I never knew very well what to do. Perhaps you don't +remember either. It is about giving the money away."</p> + +<p>Sir Tom was a far more considerable person in every way than the little +girl who was his wife, and who was not clever nor of any great account +apart from her wealth; and she was devoted to him, so that he could have +very little fear how any conflict should end when he was on one side, if +all the world were on the other. But perhaps he had been spoiled by +Lucy's entire agreement and consent to whatever he pleased to wish, so +that his tone was a little sharp, not so good-humoured as usual, but +with almost a sneer in it when he replied quickly, not leaving her a +moment to get her breath, "I see; Jock having inspiration from the +fountain head, was to be your guide in that."</p> + +<p>She looked at him alarmed and penitent, but reproachful. "I would have +done nothing, I could have done nothing, oh Tom! without you."</p> + +<p>"It is very obliging of you Lucy to say so; nevertheless, Jock thought +himself entitled to remind you<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_54" id="Page_54">[Pg 54]</a></span> of what you had forgotten, and to offer +himself as your adviser. Perhaps MTutor was to come in, too," he said, +with a laugh.</p> + +<p>Sir Tom was not immaculate in point of temper any more than other men, +but Lucy had never suffered from it before. She was frightened, but she +did not give way. The colour went out of her cheeks, but there was more +in her than mere insipid submission. She looked at her husband with a +certain courage, though she was so pale, and felt so profoundly the +displeasure which she had never encountered before.</p> + +<p>"I don't think you should speak like that, Tom. I have done nothing +wrong. I have only been talking to my brother of—of—a thing that +nobody cares about but him and me in all the world."</p> + +<p>"And that is——"</p> + +<p>"Doing what papa wished," Lucy said in a low voice. A little moisture +stole into her eyes. Whether it came because of her father, or because +her husband spoke sharply to her, it perhaps would have been difficult +to say.</p> + +<p>This made Sir Tom ashamed of his ill-humour. It was cruel to be unkind +to a creature so gentle, who was not used to be found fault with; and +yet he felt that for Lucy to set up an independence of any kind was a +thing to be crushed in the bud. A man may have the most liberal +principles about women, and yet feel a natural indignation when his own +wife shows signs of desiring to act for herself; and besides, it was not +to be endured that a boy and girl conspiracy should be hatched under his +very nose to take the disposal of an important sum of money out of his +hands. Such an idea was not only ridiculous in itself, but apt to make +him ridiculous, a man who ought to be strong<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_55" id="Page_55">[Pg 55]</a></span> enough to keep the young +ones in order. "My dear," he said, "I have no wish to speak in any way +that vexes you; but I see no reason you can have—at least I hope there +has been nothing in my conduct to give you any reason—to withdraw your +confidence from me and give it to Jock."</p> + +<p>Lucy did not make him any reply. She looked at him pathetically through +the water in her eyes. If she had spoken she would have cried, and this +in an open carriage, with a village close at hand, and people coming and +going upon the road, was not to be thought of. By the time she had +mastered herself Sir Tom had cooled down, and he was ashamed of having +made Lucy's lips to quiver and taken away her voice.</p> + +<p>"That was a very nasty thing to say," he said, "wasn't it, Lucy? I ought +to be ashamed of myself. Still, my little woman must remember that I am +too fond of her to let her have secrets with anybody but me."</p> + +<p>And with this he took the hand that was nearest to him into both of his +and held it close, and throwing a temptation in her way which she could +not resist, led her to talk of the baby and forget everything else +except that precious little morsel of humanity. He was far cleverer than +Lucy; he could make her do whatever he pleased. No fear of any +opposition, any setting up of her own will against his. When they got +home he gave her a kiss, and then the momentary trouble was all over. So +he thought at least. Lucy was so little and gentle and fair, that she +appeared to her husband even younger than she was; and she was a great +deal younger than himself. He thought her a sort of child-wife, whom a +little scolding or a kiss<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_56" id="Page_56">[Pg 56]</a></span> would altogether sway. The kiss had been +quite enough hitherto. Perhaps, since Jock had come upon the scene, a +few words of admonition might prove now and then necessary, but it would +be cruel to be hard upon her, or do more than let her see what his +pleasure was.</p> + +<p>But Lucy was not what Sir Tom thought. She could not endure that there +should be any shadow between her husband and herself, but her mind was +not satisfied with this way of settling an important question. She took +his kiss and his apology gratefully, but if anything had been wanted to +impress more deeply upon her mind the sense of a duty before her, of +which her husband did not approve, and in doing which she could not have +his help, it would have been this little episode altogether. Even little +Tom did not efface the impression from her mind. At dinner she met her +husband with her usual smile, and even assented when he remarked upon +the pleasantness of finding themselves again alone together. There had +been other guests besides Jock, so that the remark did not offend her; +but yet Lucy was not quite like herself. She felt it vaguely, and he +felt it vaguely, and neither was entirely aware what it was.</p> + +<p>In the morning, at breakfast, Sir Tom received a foreign letter, which +made him start a little. He started and cried, "Hollo!" then, opening +it, and finding two or three closely-scribbled sheets, gave way to a +laugh. "Here's literature!" he said. Lucy, who had no jealousy of his +correspondents, read her own calm little letters, and poured out the +tea, with no particular notice of her husband's interjections. It did +not even move her curiosity that the letter was in a feminine hand, and +gave forth a faint perfume. She reminded him that his tea was getting +cold, but otherwise took<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_57" id="Page_57">[Pg 57]</a></span> no notice. One of her own letters was from the +Dowager Lady Randolph, full of advice about the baby. "Mrs. Russell +tells me that Katie's children are the most lovely babies that ever were +seen; but she is very fantastic about them; will not let them wear shoes +to spoil their feet, and other vagaries of that kind. I hope, my dear +Lucy, that you are not fanciful about little Tom," Lady Randolph wrote. +Lucy read this very composedly, and smiled at the suggestion. Fanciful! +Oh, no, she was not fanciful about him—she was not even silly, Lucy +thought. She was capable of allowing that other babies might be lovely, +though why the feet of Katie's children should be of so much importance +she allowed to herself she could not see. She was roused from these +tranquil thoughts by a little commotion on the other side of the table, +where Sir Tom had just thrown down his letter. He was laughing and +talking to himself. "Why shouldn't she come if she likes it?" he was +saying. "Lucy, look here, since you have set up a confidant, I shall +have one too," and with that Sir Tom went off into an immoderate fit of +laughing. The letter scattered upon the table all opened out, two large +foreign sheets, looked endless. Nobody had ever written so much to Lucy +in all her life. She could see it was largely underlined and full of +notes of admiration and interrogation, altogether an out-of-the-way +epistle. Was it possible that Sir Tom was a little excited as well as +amused? He put his roll upon a hot plate, and began to cut it with his +knife and fork in an absence of mind, which was not usual with him, and +at intervals of a minute or two would burst out with his long "Ha, ha," +again. "That will serve you out, Lucy," he said, with a shout, "if I set +up a confidant too."</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_58" id="Page_58">[Pg 58]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_VII" id="CHAPTER_VII"></a>CHAPTER VII.</h2> + +<h3>A WARNING.</h3> + + +<p>"I wonder if I shall like her," Lucy said to herself.</p> + +<p>She had been hearing from her husband about the Contessa di +Forno-Populo, who had promised to pay them a visit at Christmas. He had +laughed a great deal while he described this lady. "What she will do +here in a country-house in the depth of winter, I cannot tell," he said, +"but if she wants to come why shouldn't she? She and I are old friends. +One time and another we have seen a great deal of each other. She will +not understand me in the character of a Benedick, but that will be all +the greater fun," he said with a laugh. Lucy looked at him with a little +surprise. She could not quite make him out.</p> + +<p>"If she is a friend she will not mind the country and the winter," said +Lucy; "it will be you she will want to see——"</p> + +<p>"That is all very well, my dear," said Sir Tom, "but she wants something +more than me. She wants a little amusement. We must have a party to meet +her, Lucy. We have never yet had the house full for Christmas. Don't you +think it will be better to furnish the Contessa with other objects +instead of letting her loose upon your husband. You don't know what it +is you are treating so lightly."</p> + +<p>"I—treat any one lightly that you care for, Tom! Oh, no; I was only +thinking. I thought she would come to see you, not a number of strange +people——"</p> + +<p>"And you would not mind, Lucy?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_59" id="Page_59">[Pg 59]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Mind?" Lucy lifted her innocent eyes upon him with the greatest +surprise. "To be sure it is most nice of all when there is nobody with +us," she said—as if that had been what he meant. Enlightenment on this +subject had not entered her mind. She did not understand him; nor did he +understand her. He gave her a sort of friendly hug as he passed, still +with that laugh in which there was no doubt a great perception of +something comic, yet—an enlightened observer might have thought—a +little uneasiness, a tremor which was almost agitation too. Lucy too had +a perception of something a little out of the way which she did not +understand, but she offered to herself no explanation of it. She said to +herself, when he was gone, "I wonder if I shall like her?" and she did +not make herself any reply. She had been in society, and held her little +place with a simple composure which was natural to her, whoever might +come in her way. If she was indeed a little frightened of the great +ladies, that was only at the first moment before she became used to +them; and afterwards all had gone well—but there was something in the +suggestion of a foreign great lady, who perhaps might not speak English, +and who would be used to very different "ways," which alarmed her a +little; and then it occurred to her with some disappointment that this +would be the time of Jock's holidays, and that it would disappoint him +sadly to find her in the midst of a crowd of visitors. She said to +herself, however, quickly, that it was not to be expected that +everything should always go exactly as one wished it, and that no doubt +the Countess of —— what was it she was the Countess of?—would be very +nice, and everything go well; and so Lady Randolph went away to her +baby<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_60" id="Page_60">[Pg 60]</a></span> and her household business, and put it aside for the moment. She +found other things far more important to occupy her, however, before +Christmas came.</p> + +<p>For that winter was very severe and cold, and there was a great deal of +sickness in the neighbourhood. Measles and colds and feverish attacks +were prevalent in the village, and there were heartrending "cases," in +which young Lady Randolph at the Hall took so close an interest that her +whole life was disturbed by them. One of the babies, who was little +Tom's age, died. When it became evident that there was danger in this +case it is impossible to describe the sensations with which Lucy's brain +was filled. She could not keep away from the house in which the child +was. She sent to Farafield for the best doctor there, and everything +that money could procure was got for the suffering infant, whose +belongings looked on with wonder and even dismay, with a secret question +like that of him who was a thief and kept the bag—to what purpose was +this waste? for they were all persuaded that the baby was going to die.</p> + +<p>"And the best thing for him, my lady," the grandmother said. "He'll be +better done by where he's agoing than he ever could have been here."</p> + +<p>"Oh, don't say so," said Lucy. The young mother, who was as young as +herself, cried; yet if Lucy had been absent would have been consoled by +that terrible philosophy of poverty that it was "for the best." But Lady +Randolph, in such a tumult of all her being as she had never known +before, with unspeakable yearning over the dying baby, and a panic +beyond all reckoning for her own, would not listen to any such easy +consolation. She shut her ears to it with a gleam of anger such as had +never been seen in her gentle face<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_61" id="Page_61">[Pg 61]</a></span> before, and would have sat up all +night with the poor little thing in her lap if death had not ended its +little plaints and suffering. Sir Tom, in this moment of trial, came out +in all his true goodness and kindness. He went with her himself to the +cottage, and when the vigil was over appeared again to take her home. It +was a wintry night, frosty and clear, the stars all twinkling with that +mysterious life and motion which makes them appear to so many wistful +eyes like persons rather than worlds, and as if there was knowledge and +sympathy in those far-shining lights of heaven. Sir Thomas was alarmed +by Lucy's colourless face, and the dumb passion of misery and awe that +was about her. He was very tender-hearted himself at sight of the dead +baby which was the same age as his lovely boy. He clasped the trembling +hand with which his wife held his arm, and tried to comfort her. "Look +at the stars, my darling," he said, "the angels must have carried the +poor little soul that way." He was not ashamed to let fall a tear for +the little dead child. But Lucy could neither weep nor think of the +angels. She hurried him on through the long avenue, clinging to his arm +but not leaning upon it, hastening home. Now and then a sob escaped her, +but no tears. She flew upstairs to her own boy's nursery, and fell down +on her knees by the side of his little crib. He was lying in rosy sleep, +his little dimpled arms thrown up over his head, a model of baby beauty. +But even that sight did not restore her. She buried her wan face in her +hands and so gasped for breath that Sir Tom, who had followed her, took +her in his arms and carrying her to her own room laid her down on the +sofa by the fire and did all that man could to soothe her.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_62" id="Page_62">[Pg 62]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Lucy, Lucy! we must thank God that all is well with our own," he said, +half terrified by the gasping and the paleness; and then she burst +forth:</p> + +<p>"Oh, why should it be well with him, and little Willie gone? Why should +we be happy and the others miserable? My baby safe and warm in my arms, +and poor Ellen's—poor Ellen's——"</p> + +<p>This name, and the recollection of the poor young mother, whom she had +left in her desolation, made Lucy's tears pour forth like a summer +storm. She flung her arms round her husband's neck, and called out to +him in an agony of anxiety and excitement:</p> + +<p>"Oh, what shall we do to save him? Oh, Tom, pray, pray! Little Willie +was well on Saturday—and now—How can we tell what a day may bring +forth?" Lucy cried, wildly pushing him away from her, and rising from +the sofa.</p> + +<p>Then she began to pace about the room as we all do in trouble, clasping +her hands in a wild and inarticulate appeal to heaven. Death had never +come across her path before save in the case of her father, an old man +whose course was run, and his end a thing necessary and to be looked +for. She could not get out of her eyes the vision of that little solemn +figure, so motionless, so marble white. The thought would not leave her. +To see the calm Lucy pacing up and down in this passion of terror and +agony made Sir Tom almost as miserable as herself. He tried to take her +into his arms, to draw her back to the sofa.</p> + +<p>"My darling, you are over-excited. It has been too much for you," he +said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, what does it matter about me?" cried Lucy; "think—oh, God! oh, God +I—if we should have <i>that</i> to bear."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_63" id="Page_63">[Pg 63]</a></span></p> + +<p>"My dear love—my Lucy, you that have always been so reasonable—the +child is quite well; come and see him again and satisfy yourself."</p> + +<p>"Little Willie was quite well on Saturday," she cried again. "Oh, I +cannot bear it, I cannot bear it! and why should it be poor Ellen and +not me?"</p> + +<p>When a person of composed mind and quiet disposition is thus carried +beyond all the bounds of reason and self-restraint, it is natural that +everybody round her should be doubly alarmed. Lucy's maid hung about the +door, and the nurse, wrapped in a shawl, stole out of little Tom's room. +They thought their mistress had the hysterics, and almost forced their +way into the room to help her. It did Sir Tom good to send these +busybodies away. But he was more anxious himself than words could say. +He drew her arms within his, and walked up and down with her. "You know, +my darling, what the Bible says, 'that one shall be taken and another +left; and that the wind bloweth where it listeth,'" he said, with a +pardonable mingling of texts. "We must just take care of him, dear, and +hope the best."</p> + +<p>Here Lucy stopped, and looked him in the face with an air of solemnity +that startled him.</p> + +<p>"I have been thinking," she said; "God has tried us with happiness +first. That is how He always does—and if we abuse <i>that</i> then there +comes—the other. We have been so happy. Oh, so happy!" Her face, which +had been stilled by this profounder wave of feeling, began to quiver +again. "I did not think any one could be so happy," she said.</p> + +<p>"Well, my darling! and you have been very thankful and good——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, no, no, no," she cried. "I have forgotten my<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_64" id="Page_64">[Pg 64]</a></span> trust. I have let the +poor suffer, and put aside what was laid upon me—and now, now——" Lucy +caught her husband's arm with both her hands, and drew him close to her. +"Tom, God has sent his angel to warn us," she said, in a broken voice.</p> + +<p>"Lucy, Lucy, this is not like you. Do you think that poor little woman +has lost her baby for our sake? Are we of so much more importance than +she is, in the sight of God, do you think? Come, come, that is not like +you."</p> + +<p>Lucy gazed at him for a moment with a sudden opening of her eyes, which +were contracted with misery. She was subdued by the words, though she +only partially comprehended them.</p> + +<p>"Don't you think," he said, "that to deprive another woman of her child +in order to warn you, would be unjust, Lucy? Come and sit down and warm +your poor little hands, and take back your reason, and do not accuse God +of wrong, for that is not possible. Poor Ellen I don't doubt is composed +and submissive, while you, who have so little cause——"</p> + +<p>She gave him a wild look. "With her it is over, it is over!" she cried, +"but with us——"</p> + +<p>Lucy had never been fanciful, but love quickens the imagination and +gives it tenfold power; and no poet could have felt with such a +breathless and agonised realisation the difference between the +accomplished and the possible, the past which nothing can alter, and the +pain and sickening terror with which we anticipate what may come. Ellen +had entered into the calm of the one. She herself stood facing wildly +the unspeakable terror of the other. "Oh, Tom, I could not bear it, I +could not bear it!" she cried.</p> + +<p>It was almost morning before he had succeeded in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_65" id="Page_65">[Pg 65]</a></span> soothing her, in +making her lie down and compose herself. But by that time nature had +begun to take the task in hand, wrapping her in the calm of exhaustion. +Sir Tom had the kindest heart, though he had not been without reproach +in his life. He sat by her till she had fallen into a deep and quiet +sleep, and then he stole into the nursery and cast a glance at little +Tom by the dim light of the night lamp. His heart leaped to see the +child with its fair locks all tumbled upon the pillow, a dimpled hand +laid under a dimpled cheek, ease and comfort and well-being in every +lovely curve; and then there came a momentary spasm across his face, and +he murmured "Poor little beggar!" under his breath. He was not +panic-stricken like Lucy. He was a man made robust by much experience of +the world, and a child more or less was not a thing to affect him as it +would a young mother; but the pathos of the contrast touched him with a +keen momentary pang. He stole away again quite subdued, and went to bed +thankfully, saying an uncustomary prayer in the emotion that possessed +him: Good God, to think of it; if that poor little beggar had been +little Tom!</p> + +<p>Lucy woke to the sound of her boy's little babbling of happiness in the +morning, and found him blooming on her bed, brought there by his father, +that she might see him and how well he was, even before she was awake. +It was thus not till the first minute of delight was over that her +recollections came back to her and she remembered the anguish of the +previous night; and then with a softened pang, as was natural, and warm +flood of thankfulness, which carried away harsher thoughts. But her mind +was in a highly susceptible and tender state, open to every impression. +And when she knelt down to make her morning sup<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_66" id="Page_66">[Pg 66]</a></span>plications, Lucy made a +dedication of herself and solemn vow. She said, like the little princess +when she first knew that she was to be made queen, "I will be good." She +put forth this promise trembling, not with any sense that she was making +a bargain with God, as more rigid minds might suppose, but with all the +remorseful loving consciousness of a child which feels that it has not +made the return it ought for the good things showered upon it, and +confronts for the first time the awful possibility that these tender +privileges might be taken away. There was a trembling all over her, body +and soul. She was shaken by the ordeal through which she had come—the +ordeal which was not hers but another's: and with the artlessness of the +child was mingled that supreme human instinct which struggles to disarm +Fate by immediate prostration and submission. She laid herself down at +the feet of the Sovereign greatness which could mar all her happiness in +a moment, with a feeling that was not much more than half Christian. +Lucy tried to remind herself that He to whom she knelt was love as well +as power. But nature, which still "trembles like a guilty thing +surprised" in that great Presence, made her heart beat once more with +passion and sickening terror. God knew, if no one else did, that she had +abandoned her father's trust and neglected her duty. "Sell all thou hast +and give to the poor." Lucy rose from her knees with anxious haste, +feeling as if she must do this, come what might and whoever should +oppose; or at least since it was not needful for her to sell all she +had, that she must hurry forth, and forestall any further discipline by +beginning at once to fulfil the duty she had neglected. She could not +yet divest herself of the thought that the baby who was dead<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_67" id="Page_67">[Pg 67]</a></span> was a +little warning messenger to recall her to a sense of the punishments +that might be hanging over her. A messenger to her of mercy, for what, +oh! what would she have done if the blow had fallen upon little Tom?</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_VIII" id="CHAPTER_VIII"></a>CHAPTER VIII.</h2> + +<h3>THE SHADOW OF DEATH.</h3> + + +<p>After this it may perhaps be surprising to hear that Lucy did nothing to +carry out that great trust with which she had been charged. She had +felt, and did feel at intervals, for a long time afterwards, as if God +Himself had warned her what might come upon her if she neglected her +duty. But if you will reflect how very difficult that duty was, and how +far she was from any opportunity of being able to discharge it! In early +days, when she was fresh from her father's teaching, and deeply +impressed with the instant necessity of carrying it out, Providence +itself had sent the Russell family, poor and helpless people, who had +not the faculty of getting on by themselves, into her way, and Lucy had +promptly, or at least as promptly as indignant guardians would permit, +provided for them in the modest way which was all her ideas reached to +at the time. But around the Hall there was nobody to whom the same +summary process could be applied. The people about were either working +people, whom it is always easy to help, or well-off people, who had no +wants which Lucy could supply. And this continued to be so even after +her fright and determination to return to the work that had been +allotted to her. No<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_68" id="Page_68">[Pg 68]</a></span> doubt, could she have come down to the hearts and +lives of the neighbours who visited Lady Randolph on the externally +equal footing which society pretends to allot to all gentlefolks, she +would have found several of them who would have been glad to free her +from her money; but then she could not see into their hearts. She did +not know what a difficult thing it was for Mr. Routledge of Newby to pay +the debts of his son when he had left college, or how hardly hit was +young Archer of Fordham in the matter of the last joint-stock bank that +stopped payment. If they had not all been so determined to hold up their +heads with the best, and keep up appearances, Lucy might have managed +somehow to transfer to them a little of the money which she wanted to +get rid of, and of which they stood so much in need. But this was not to +be thought of; and when she cast her eyes around her it was with a +certain despair that Lucy saw no outlet whatever for those bounties +which it had seemed to her heaven itself was concerned about, and had +warned her not to neglect. Many an anxious thought occupied her mind on +this subject. She thought of calling her cousin Philip Rainy, who was +established and thriving at Farafield, and whose fortune had been +founded upon her liberality, to her counsels. But if Sir Tom had +disliked the confidences between her and her brother, what would he +think of Philip Rainy as her adviser? Then Lucy in her perplexity turned +again to the thought of Jock. Jock had a great deal more sense in him +than anybody knew. He had been the wisest child, respected by everybody; +and now he was almost a man, and had learned, as he said, a great deal +at school. She thought wistfully of the poor curate of whom Jock had +told her. Very likely that poor clergyman would<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_69" id="Page_69">[Pg 69]</a></span> do very well for what +Lucy wanted. Surely there could be no better use for money than to endow +such a man, with a whole family growing up, all the better for it, and a +son on the foundation! And then she remembered that Jock had entreated +her to do nothing till he came. Thus the time went on, and her +passionate resolution, her sense that heaven itself was calling upon +her, menacing her with judgment even, seemed to come to nothing—not out +of forgetfulness or sloth, or want of will—but because she saw no way +open before her, and could not tell what to do. And after that miserable +night when Ellen Bailey's baby died, and death seemed to enter in, as +novel and terrible as if he had never been known before, for the first +time into Lucy's Paradise, she had never said anything to Sir Tom. Day +after day she had meant to do it, to throw herself upon his guidance, to +appeal to him to help her; but day after day she had put it off, +shrinking from the possible contest of which some instinct warned her. +She knew, without knowing how, that in this he would not stand by her. +Impossible to have been kinder in that crisis, more tender, more +indulgent, even more understanding than her husband was; but she felt +instinctively the limits of his sympathy. He would not go that length. +When she got to that point he would change. But she could not have him +change; she could not anticipate the idea of a cloud upon his face, or +any shadow between them. And then Lucy made up her mind that she would +wait for Jock, and that he and she together, when there were two to talk +it over, would make out a way.</p> + +<p>All was going on well again, the grass above little Willie's grave was +green, his mother consoled and smiling as before, and at the Hall the +idea of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_70" id="Page_70">[Pg 70]</a></span> Christmas party had been resumed, and the invitations, +indeed, were sent off, when one morning the visitor whom Lucy had +anticipated with such dread came out of the village, where infantile +diseases always lingered, and entered the carefully-kept nursery. Little +Tom awoke crying and fretful, hot with fever, his poor little eyes heavy +with acrid tears. His mother had not been among the huts where poor men +lie for nought, and she saw at a glance what it was. Well! not anything +so very dreadful—measles, which almost all children have. There was no +reason in the world why she should be alarmed. She acknowledged as much, +with a tremor that went to her heart. There were no bad symptoms. The +baby was no more ill than it was necessary he should be. "He was having +them beautiful," the nurse said, and Lucy scarcely allowed even her +husband to see the deep, harrowing dread that was in her. By and by, +however, this dread was justified; she had been very anxious about all +the little patients in the village that they should not catch cold, +which in the careless ignorance of their attendants, and in the limited +accommodation of the cottages, was so usual, so likely, almost +inevitable. A door would be left open, a sudden blast of cold would come +upon the little sufferer; how could any one help it? Lucy had given the +poor women no peace on this subject. She had "worrited them out o' their +lives." And now, wonder above all finding out, it was in little Tom's +luxurious nursery, where everything was arranged for his safety, where +one careful nurse succeeded another by night and by day, and Lady +Randolph herself was never absent for an hour, where the ventilation was +anxiously watched and regulated, and no incautious intruder ever +entered—it was there that the evil came. When the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_71" id="Page_71">[Pg 71]</a></span> child had shaken off +his little complaint and all was going well, he took cold, and in a few +hours more his little lungs were labouring heavily, and the fever of +inflammation consuming his strength. Little Tom, the heir, the only +child! A cloud fell over the house; from Sir Tom himself to the lowest +servant, all became partakers, unawares, of Lucy's dumb terror. It was +because the little life was so important, because so much hung upon it, +that everybody jumped to the conclusion that the worst issue might be +looked for. Humanity has an instinctive, heathenish feeling that God +will take advantage of all the special circumstances that aggravate a +blow.</p> + +<p>Lucy, for her part, received the stroke into her very soul. She was +outwardly more calm than when her heart had first been roused to terror +by the death of the little child in the village. That which she had +dreaded was come, and all her powers were collected to support her. The +moment had arrived—the time of trial—and she would not fail. Her hand +was steady and her head clear, as is the case with finer natures when +confronted with deadly danger. This simple girl suddenly became like one +of the women of tragedy, fighting, still and strong, with a desperation +beyond all symbols—the fight with death. But Sir Tom took it +differently. A woman can nurse her child, can do something for him; but +a man is helpless. At first he got rid of his anxieties by putting a +cheerful face upon the matter, and denying the possibility of danger. +"The measles! every child had the measles. If no fuss was made the +little chap," he declared, "would soon be all right. It was always a +mistake to exaggerate." But when there could no longer be any doubt on +the subject, a curious struggle took place in Sir Tom's<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_72" id="Page_72">[Pg 72]</a></span> mind. That +baby—die? That crowing, babbling creature pass away into the solemnity +of death! It had not seemed possible, and when he tried to get it into +his mind his brain whirled. Wonder for the moment seemed to silence even +the possibility of grief. He had himself gone through labours and +adventures that would have killed a dozen men, and had never been +conscious even of alarm about himself; and the idea of a life quenched +in its beginning by so accidental a matter as a draught in a nursery +seemed to him something incomprehensible. When he had heard of a child's +death he had been used to say that the mother would feel it, no doubt, +poor thing; but it was a small event, that scarcely counted in human +history to Sir Tom. When, however, his own boy was threatened, after the +first incredulity, Sir Tom felt a pang of anger and wretchedness which +he could not understand. It was not that the family misfortune of the +loss of the heir overwhelmed him, for it was very improbable that poor +little Tom would be his only child; it was a more intimate and personal +sensation. A sort of terrified rage came over him which he dared not +express; for if indeed his child was to be taken from him, who was it +but God that would do this? and he did not venture to turn his rage to +that quarter. And then a confusion of miserable feelings rose within +him. One night he did not go to bed. It was impossible in the midst of +the anxiety that filled the house, he said to himself. He spent the +weary hours in going softly up and down stairs, now listening at the +door of the nursery and waiting for his wife, who came out now and then +to bring him a bulletin, now dozing drearily in his library downstairs. +When the first gleams of the dawn stole in at the window he went out +upon the terrace in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_73" id="Page_73">[Pg 73]</a></span> misty chill morning, all damp and miserable, +with the trees standing about like ghosts. There was a dripping thaw +after a frost, and the air was raw and the prospect dismal; but even +that was less wretched than the glimmer of the shaded lights, the +muffled whispering and stealthy footsteps indoors. He took a few turns +up and down the terrace, trying to reason himself out of this misery. +How was it, after all, that the little figure of this infant should +overshadow earth and heaven to a man, a reasonable being, whose mind and +life were full of interests far more important? Love, yes! but love must +have some foundation. The feeling which clung so strongly to a child +with no power of returning it, and no personal qualities to excite it, +must be mere instinct not much above that of the animals. He would not +say this before Lucy, but there could be no doubt it was the truth. He +shook himself up mentally, and recalled himself to what he attempted to +represent as the true aspect of affairs. He was a man who had obtained +most things that this world can give. He had sounded life to its depths +(as he thought), and tasted both the bitter and the sweet; and after +having indulged in all these varied experiences it had been given to +him, as it is not given to many men, to come back from all wanderings +and secure the satisfactions of mature life, wealth, and social +importance, and the power of acting in the largest imperial concerns. +Round about him everything was his; the noble woods that swept away into +the mist on every side; the fields and farms which began to appear in +the misty paleness of the morning through the openings in the trees. And +if he had not by his side such a companion as he had once dreamed of, +the beautiful, high-minded ideal woman of romance, yet he had got<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_74" id="Page_74">[Pg 74]</a></span> one +of the best of gentle souls to tread the path of life along with him, +and sympathise even when she did not understand. For a man who had not +perhaps deserved very much, how unusual was this happiness. And was it +possible that all these things should be obscured, cast into the shade, +by so small a matter as the sickness of a child? What had the baby ever +done to make itself of so much importance? Nothing. It did not even +understand the love it excited, and was incapable of making any +response. Its very life was little more than a mechanical life. The +woman who fed it was far more to it than its father, and there was +nothing excellent or noble in the world to which it would not prefer a +glittering tinsel or a hideous doll. If the little thing had grown up, +indeed, if it had developed human tastes and sympathies, and become a +companion, an intelligence, a creature with affections and +thoughts,—but that the whole house should thus be overwhelmed with +miserable anxiety and pain because of a being in the embryo state of +existence, who could neither respond nor understand, what a strange +thing it was! No doubt this instinct had been implanted in order to +preserve the germ and keep the race going; but that it should thus +develop into an absorbing passion and overshadow everything else in life +was a proof how the natural gets exaggerated, and, if we do not take +care, changes its character altogether, mastering us instead of being +kept in its fit place, and in check, as it ought to be by sense and +reason. From time to time, as Sir Tom made these reflections, there +would flit across his mind, as across a mirror, something which was not +thought, which was like a picture momentarily presented before him. One +of the most persistent of these, which flashed out and in upon his +senses like a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_75" id="Page_75">[Pg 75]</a></span> view in a magic lantern, was of that moment in the midst +of the flurry of the election when little Tom, held up in his mother's +arms, had clapped his baby hands for his father. This for a second would +confound all his thoughts, and give his heart a pang as if some one had +seized and pressed it with an iron grasp; but the next moment he would +pick up the thread of his reflections again, and go on with them. That, +too, was merely mechanical, like all the little chap's existence up to +this point. Poor little chap! here Sir Tom stopped in his course of +thought, impeded by a weight at his heart which he could not shake off; +nor could he see the blurred and vague landscape round him—something +more blinding even than the fog had got into his eyes.</p> + +<p>Then Sir Tom started and his heart sprang up to his throat beating +loudly. It was not anything of much importance, it was only the opening +of the window by which he himself had come out upon the terrace. He +turned round quickly, too anxious even to ask a question. If it had been +a king's messenger bringing him news that affected the whole kingdom, he +would have turned away with an impatient "Pshaw!" or struck the intruder +out of his way. But it was his wife, wrapped in a dressing-gown, pale +with watching, her hair pushed back upon her forehead, her eyes +unnaturally bright. "How is he?" cried Sir Tom, as if the question was +one of life or death.</p> + +<p>Lucy told him, catching at his arm to support herself, that she thought +there was a little improvement. "I have been thinking so for the last +hour, not daring to think it, and yet I felt sure; and now nurse says so +too. His breathing is easier. I have been on thorns to come and tell +you, but I would not till I was quite sure."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_76" id="Page_76">[Pg 76]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Thank God! God be praised!" said Sir Tom. He did not pretend to be a +religious man on ordinary occasions, but at the present moment he had no +time to think, and spoke from the bottom of his heart. He supported his +little wife tenderly on one arm, and put back the disordered hair on her +forehead. "Now you will go and take a little rest, my darling," he said.</p> + +<p>"Not yet, not till the doctor comes. But you want it as much as I."</p> + +<p>"No; I had a long sleep on the sofa. We are all making fools of +ourselves, Lucy. The poor little chap will be all right. We are queer +creatures. To think that you and I should make ourselves so miserable +over a little thing like that, that knows nothing about it, that has no +feelings, that does not care a button for you and me."</p> + +<p>"Tom, what are you talking of? Not of my boy, surely—not my boy!"</p> + +<p>"Hush, my sweet. Well," said Sir Tom, with a tremulous laugh, "what is +it but a little polypus after all? that can do nothing but eat and +sleep, and crow perhaps—and clap its little fat hands," he said, with +the tears somehow getting into his voice, and mingling with the +laughter. "I allow that I am confusing my metaphors."</p> + +<p>At this moment the window opening upon the terrace jarred again, and +another figure in a dressing-gown, dark and ghost-like, appeared +beckoning to Lucy, "My lady! my lady!"</p> + +<p>Lucy let go her husband's arm, thrust him away from her with passion, +gave him one wild look of reproach, and flew noiselessly like a spirit +after the nurse to her child. Sir Tom, with his laugh still wavering +about his mouth, half hysterically, though he was no<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_77" id="Page_77">[Pg 77]</a></span> weakling, tottered +along the terrace to the open window, and stood there leaning against +it, scarcely breathing, the light gone out of his eyes, his whole soul +suspended, and every part of his strong body, waiting for what another +moment might bring to pass.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_IX" id="CHAPTER_IX"></a>CHAPTER IX.</h2> + +<h3>A CHRISTMAS VISIT.</h3> + + +<p>Little Tom did not die, but he became "delicate,"—and fathers and +mothers know what that means. The entire household was possessed by one +pervading terror lest he should catch cold, and Lucy's life became +absorbed in this constant watchfulness. Naturally the Christmas guests +were put off, and it was understood in respect to the Contessa di +Forno-Populo, that she was to come at Easter. Sir Tom himself thought +this a better arrangement. The Parliamentary recess was not a long one, +and the Contessa would naturally prefer, after a short visit to her old +friend, to go to town, where she would find so many people she knew.</p> + +<p>"And even in the country the weather is more tolerable in April," said +Sir Tom.</p> + +<p>"Oh, yes, yes. The doctor says if we keep clear of the east winds that +he may begin to go out again and get up his strength," said Lucy.</p> + +<p>"My love, I am thinking of your visitors, and you are thinking of your +baby," Sir Tom said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom, what do you suppose I could be thinking of?" his wife cried.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_78" id="Page_78">[Pg 78]</a></span></p> + +<p>Sir Tom himself was very solicitous about the baby, but to hear of +nothing else worried him. He was glad when old Lady Randolph, who was an +invariable visitor, arrived.</p> + +<p>"How is the baby?" was her first question when he met her at the train.</p> + +<p>"The baby would be a great deal better if there was less fuss made about +him," he said. "You must give Lucy a hint on that subject, aunt."</p> + +<p>Lady Randolph was a good woman, and it was her conviction that she had +made this match. But it is so pleasant to feel that you have been right, +that she was half pleased, though very sorry, to think that Sir Tom (as +she had always known) was getting a little tired of sweet simplicity. +She met Lucy with an affectionate determination to be very plain with +her, and warn her of the dangers in her path. Jock had arrived the day +before. He rose up in all the lanky length of sixteen from the side of +the fire in the little drawing-room when the Dowager came in. It was +just the room into which one likes to come after a cold journey at +Christmas; the fire shining brightly in the midst of the reflectors of +burnished steel and brass, shining like gold and silver, of the most +luxurious fireplace that skill could contrive (the day of tiled stoves +was not as yet), and sending a delicious glow on the soft mossy carpets +into which the foot sank; a table with tea, reflecting the firelight in +all the polished surfaces of the china and silver, stood near; and +chairs invitingly drawn towards the fire. The only drawback was that +there was no one to welcome the visitor. On ordinary occasions Lucy was +at the door, if not at the station, to receive the kind lady whom she +loved. Lady Randolph was somewhat surprised at the difference,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_79" id="Page_79">[Pg 79]</a></span> and when +she saw the lengthy boy raising himself up from the fireside, turned +round to her nephew and asked, "Do I know this young gentleman? There is +not light enough to see him," with a voice in which Jock, shy and +awkward, felt all the old objection to his presence as a burden upon +Lucy, which in his precocious toleration he had accepted as reasonable, +but did not like much the better for that. And then she sat down +somewhat sullenly at the fire. The next minute Lucy came hastily in with +many apologies: "I did not hear the carriage, aunt. I was in the +nursery——"</p> + +<p>"And how is the child?" Lady Randolph said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, he is a great deal better—don't you think he is much better, Tom? +Only a little delicate, and that, we hope, will pass away."</p> + +<p>"Then, Lucy, my dear, though I don't want to blame you, I think you +should have heard the carriage," said Aunt Randolph. "The tea-table does +not look cheerful when the mistress of the house is away."</p> + +<p>"Oh, but little Tom——" Lucy said, and then stopped herself, with a +vague sense that there was not so much sympathy around her as usual. Her +husband had gone out again, and Jock stood dumb, an awkward shadow +against the mantelpiece.</p> + +<p>"My dear, I only speak for your good," the elder lady said. "Big Tom +wants a little attention too. I thought you were going to have quite a +merry Christmas and a great many people here."</p> + +<p>"But, Aunt Randolph, baby——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear, you must think of something else besides baby. Take my +word for it, baby would be a great deal stronger if you left him a +little to himself.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_80" id="Page_80">[Pg 80]</a></span> You have your husband, you know, to think of, and +what harm would it have done baby if there had been a little cheerful +company for his father? But you will think I have come to scold, and I +don't in the least mean that. Give me a cup of tea, Lucy. Tom tells me +that this tall person is Jock."</p> + +<p>"You would not have known him?" said Lucy, much subdued in tone.</p> + +<p>She occupied herself with the tea, arranging the cups and saucers with +hands that trembled a little at the unexpected and unaccustomed +sensation of a repulse.</p> + +<p>"Well, I cannot even see him. But he has certainly grown out of +knowledge—I never thought he would have been so tall; he was quite a +little pinched creature as a child. I daresay you took too much care of +him, my dear. I remember I used to think so; and then when he was tossed +into the world or sent to school—it comes to much the same thing, I +suppose—he flourished and grew."</p> + +<p>"I wonder," said Lucy, somewhat wistfully, "if that is really so? +Certainly it is since he has been at school that he has grown so much." +Jock all this time fidgeted about from one leg to another with +unutterable darkness upon his brow, could any one have seen it. There +are few things so irritating, especially at his age, as to be thus +discussed over one's own head.</p> + +<p>"My dear Lucy," said Lady Randolph, "don't you remember some one +says—who was it, I wonder? it sounds like one of those dreadfully +clever French sayings that are always so much to the point—about the +advantages of a little wholesome neglect?"</p> + +<p>"Can neglect ever be wholesome? Oh, I don't think so—I can't think +so—at least with children."</p> + +<p>"It is precisely children that are meant," said the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_81" id="Page_81">[Pg 81]</a></span> elder Lady +Randolph. But as she talked, sitting in the warm light of the fire, with +her cup in her hand, feeling extremely comfortable, discoursing at her +ease, and putting sharp arrows as if they had been pins into the heart +of Lucy, Sir Tom's large footsteps became audible coming through the +great drawing-room, which was dark. The very sound of him was cheerful +as he came in, and he brought the scent of fresh night air, cold but +delightful, with him. He passed by Lucy's chair and said, "How is the +little 'un?" laying a kind hand upon her head.</p> + +<p>"Oh, better. I am sure he is better. Aunt Randolph thinks——"</p> + +<p>"I am giving Lucy a lecture," said Lady Randolph, "and telling her she +must not shut herself up with that child. He'll get on all the better if +he is not coddled too much."</p> + +<p>Sir Tom made no reply, but came to the fire, and drew a chair into the +cheerful glow. "You are all in the dark," he said, "but the fire is +pleasant this cold night. Well, now that you are thawed, what news have +you brought us out of the world? We are two hermits, Lucy and I. We +forget what kind of language you speak. We have a little sort of talk of +our own which answers common needs about babies and so forth, but we +should like to hear what you are discoursing about, just for a change."</p> + +<p>"There is no such thing as a world just now," said Lady Randolph, "there +are nothing but country-houses. Society is all broken up into little +bits, as you know as well as I do. One gleans a little here and a little +there, and one carries it about like a basket of eggs."</p> + +<p>"Jock has a world, and it is quite entire," said Sir Tom, with his +cordial laugh. "No breaking up into<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_82" id="Page_82">[Pg 82]</a></span> little bits there. If you want a +society that knows its own opinions, and will stick to them through +thick and thin, I can tell you where to find it; and to see how it holds +together and sits square whatever happens——"</p> + +<p>Here there came a sort of falsetto growl from Jock's corner, where he +was blushing in the firelight. "It's because you were once a fellow +yourself, and know all about it."</p> + +<p>"So it is, Jock; you are right, as usual," said Sir Tom; "I was once a +fellow myself, and now I'm an old fellow, and growing duller. Turn out +your basket of eggs, Aunt Randolph, and let us know what is going on. +Where did you come from last—the Mulberrys? Come; there must have been +some pretty pickings of gossip there."</p> + +<p>"You shall have it all in good time. I am not going to run myself dry +the first hour. I want to know about yourselves, and when you are going +to give up this honeymooning. I expected to have met all sorts of people +here."</p> + +<p>"Yes," said Sir Tom, and then he burst forth in a laugh, "La +Forno-Populo and a few others; but as little Tom is not quite up to +visitors, we have put them off till Easter."</p> + +<p>"La Forno-Populo!" said Lady Randolph, in a voice of dismay.</p> + +<p>"Why not?" said Sir Tom. "She wrote and offered herself. I thought she +might find it a doubtful pleasure, but if she likes it—— However, you +may make yourself easy, nobody is coming," he added, with a certain jar +of impatience in his tone.</p> + +<p>"Well, Tom, I must say I am very glad of that," Lady Randolph said +gravely—and then there was a pause. "I doubt whether Lucy would have +liked<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_83" id="Page_83">[Pg 83]</a></span> her," she added, after a moment. Then with another interval, "I +think, Lucy, my love, after that nice cup of tea, and my first sight of +you, that I will go to my own room. I like a little rest before +dinner—you know my lazy way."</p> + +<p>"And it's getting ridiculously dark in this room," Sir Tom said, kicking +a footstool out of the way. This little impatient movement was like one +of those expletives that seem to relieve a man's mind, and both the +ladies understood it as such, and knew that he was angry. Lucy, as she +rose from her tea-table to attend upon her visitor, herself in a +confused and painful mood, and vexed with what had been said to her, +thought her husband was irritated by his aunt, and felt much sympathy +with him, and anxiety to conduct Lady Randolph to her room before it +should go any farther. But the elder lady understood it very +differently. She went away, followed by Lucy through the great +drawing-room, where a solitary lamp had been placed on a table to show +the way. It had been the Dowager's own house in her day, and she did not +require any guidance to her room. Nor did she detain Lucy after the +conventional visit to see that all was comfortable.</p> + +<p>"That I haven't the least doubt of," Lady Randolph said, "and I am at +home, you know, and will ask for anything I want; but I must have my nap +before dinner; and do you go and talk to your husband."</p> + +<p>Lucy could not resist one glance into the nursery, where little Tom, a +little languid but so much better, was sitting on his nurse's knee +before the fire, amused by those little fables about his fingers and +toes which are the earliest of all dramatic performances. The sight of +him thus content, and the sound of his laugh,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_84" id="Page_84">[Pg 84]</a></span> was sweet to her in her +anxiety. She ran downstairs again without disturbing him, closing so +carefully the double doors that shut him out from all draughts, not +without a wondering doubt as she did so, whether it was true, perhaps, +that she was "coddling" him, and if there was such a thing as wholesome +neglect. She went quickly through the dim drawing-room to the warm ruddy +flush of firelight that shone between the curtains from the smaller +room, thinking nothing less than to find her husband, who was fond of an +hour's repose in that kindly light before dinner. She had got to her old +place in front of the fire before she perceived that Sir Tom's tall +shadow was no longer there. Lucy uttered a little exclamation of +disappointment, and then she perceived remorsefully another shadow, not +like Sir Tom's, the long weedy boyish figure of her brother against the +warm light.</p> + +<p>"But you are here, Jock," she said, advancing to him. Jock took hold of +her arm, as he was so fond of doing.</p> + +<p>"I shall never have you, now <i>she</i> has come," Jock said.</p> + +<p>"Why not, dear? You were never fond of Lady Randolph—you don't know how +good and kind she is. It is only when you like people that you know how +nice they are," Lucy said, all unconscious that a deeper voice than hers +had announced that truth.</p> + +<p>"Then I shall never know, for I don't like her," said Jock +uncompromising. "You'll have to sit and gossip with her when you're not +in the nursery, and I shall have no time to tell you, for the holidays +last only a month."</p> + +<p>"But you can tell me everything in a month, you silly boy; and if we +can't have our walks, Jock (for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_85" id="Page_85">[Pg 85]</a></span> it's cold), there is one place where +she will never come," said Lucy, upon which Jock turned away with an +exclamation of impatience.</p> + +<p>His sister put her hand on his shoulder and looked reproachfully in his +face.</p> + +<p>"You too! You used to like it. You used to come and toss him up and make +him laugh——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, don't, Lucy! can't you see? So I would again, if he were like that. +How you can bear it!" said the boy, bursting away from her. And then +Jock returned very much ashamed and horror-stricken, and took the hand +that dropped by her side, and clumsily patted and kissed it, and held it +between his own, looking penitently, wistfully, in her face all the +while: but not knowing what to say.</p> + +<p>Lucy stood looking down into the glowing fire, with her head drooping +and an air of utter dejection in her little gentle figure. "Do you think +he looks so bad as that?" she said, in a broken voice.</p> + +<p>"Oh, no, no; that is not what I mean," the boy cried. "It's—the little +chap is not so jolly; he's—a little cross; or else he's forgotten me. I +suppose it's that. He wouldn't look at me when I ran up. He's so little +one oughtn't to mind, but it made me——your baby, Lucy! and the little +beggar cried and wouldn't look at me."</p> + +<p>"Is that all?" said Lucy. She only half believed him, but she pretended +to be deceived. She gave a little trembling laugh, and laid her head for +a moment upon Jock's boyish breast, where his heart was beating high +with a passion of sorrow and tender love. "Sometimes," she said, leaning +against him, "sometimes I think I shall die. I can't live to see +anything happen to him: and sometimes—— But he is ever so much<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_86" id="Page_86">[Pg 86]</a></span> better; +don't you think he looks almost himself?" she said, raising her head +hurriedly, and interrogating the scarcely visible face with her eyes.</p> + +<p>"Looks! I don't see much difference in his looks, if he wouldn't be so +cross," said Jock, lying boldly, but with a tremor, for he was not used +to it. And then he said hurriedly, "But there's that clergyman, the +father of the fellow on the foundation. I've found out all about him. I +must tell you, Lucy. He is the very man. There is no call to think about +it or put off any longer. What a thing it would be if he could have it +by Christmas! I have got all the particulars—they look as if they were +just made for us," Jock cried.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_X" id="CHAPTER_X"></a>CHAPTER X.</h2> + +<h3>LUCY'S ADVISERS.</h3> + + +<p>Lady Randolph found her visit dull. It is true that there had been no +guests to speak of on previous Christmases since Sir Tom's marriage; but +the house had been more cheerful, and Lucy had been ready to drive, or +walk, or call, or go out to the festivities around. But now she was +absorbed by the nursing, and never liked to be an hour out of call. The +Dowager put up with it as long as she was able. She did not say anything +more on the subject for some days. It was not, indeed, until she had +been a week at the Hall that, being disturbed by the appeals of Lucy as +to whether she did not think baby was looking better than when she came, +she burst forth at last. They were sitting by themselves in the hour +after dinner when ladies have<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_87" id="Page_87">[Pg 87]</a></span> the drawing-room all to themselves. It is +supposed by young persons in novels to be a very dreary interval, but to +the great majority of women it is a pleasant moment. The two ladies sat +before the pleasant fire; Lucy with some fleecy white wool in her lap +with which she was knitting something for her child, Lady Randolph with +a screen interposed between her and the fire, doing nothing, an +operation which she always performed gracefully and comfortably. It +could not be said that the gentlemen were lingering over their wine. +Jock had retired to the library, where he was working through all the +long-collected literary stores of the Randolph family, with an +instinctive sense that his presence in the drawing-room was not desired. +Sir Tom had business to do, or else he was tired of the domestic calm. +The ladies had been sitting for some time in silence when Lady Randolph +suddenly broke forth—</p> + +<p>"You know what I said to you the first evening, Lucy? I have not said a +word on the subject since—of course I didn't come down here to enjoy +your hospitality and then to find fault."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Aunt Randolph! don't speak of hospitality; it is your own house."</p> + +<p>"My dear, it is very pretty of you to say so. I hope I am not the sort +of person to take advantage of it. But I feel a sort of responsibility, +seeing it was I that brought you together first. Lucy, I must tell you. +You are not doing what you ought by Tom. Here he is, a middle-aged man, +you know, and one of the first in the county. People look to him for a +great many things: he is the member: he is a great landowner: he is +(thanks to you) very well off. And here is Christmas, and not a visitor +in the house but myself.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_88" id="Page_88">[Pg 88]</a></span> Oh, there's Jock! a schoolboy home for his +holidays—that does not count; not a single dinner that I can hear +of——"</p> + +<p>"Yes, aunt, on the 6th," said Lucy, with humility.</p> + +<p>"On the 6th, and it is now the 27th! and no fuss at all made about +Christmas. My dear, you needn't tell me it's a bore. I know it is a +bore—everywhere wherever one goes; still, everybody does it. It is just +a part of one's responsibilities. You don't go to balls in Lent, and you +stand on your heads, so to speak, at Christmas. The country expects it +of you; and it is always a mistake to take one's own way in such +matters. You should have had, in the first place," said Lady Randolph, +counting on her fingers, "your house full; in the second, a ball, to +which everybody should have been asked. On these occasions no one that +could possibly be imagined to be gentlefolk should be left out. I would +even stretch a point—doctors and lawyers, and so forth, go without +saying, and those big brewers, you know, I always took in; and some +people go as far as the 'vet.,' as they call him. He was a very +objectionable person in my day, and that was where I drew the line; then +three or four dinners at the least."</p> + +<p>"But, Aunt Randolph, how could we when baby is so poorly——"</p> + +<p>"What has baby to do with it, Lucy? You don't have the child down to +receive your guests. With the door of his nursery shut to keep out the +noise (if you think it necessary: I shouldn't think it would matter) +what harm would it do him? He would never be a bit the wiser, poor +little dear. Yes, I dare say your heart would be with him many a time +when you were elsewhere; but you must not think of yourself."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_89" id="Page_89">[Pg 89]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I did not mean to do so, aunt. I thought little Tom was my first duty."</p> + +<p>"Now, I should have thought, my dear," said the Dowager, smiling +blandly, "that it would have been big Tom who answered to that +description."</p> + +<p>"But, Tom——" Lucy paused, not knowing in what shape to put so obvious +a truth, "he is like me," she said. "He is far, far more anxious than he +lets you see. It is his—duty too."</p> + +<p>"A great many other things are his duty as well; besides, there is so +much, especially in a social point of view, which the man never sees +till his wife points it out. That's one of the uses of a woman. She must +keep up her husband's popularity, don't you see? You must never let it +be said: 'Oh, Sir Tom! he is all very well in Parliament, but he does +nothing for the county.'"</p> + +<p>"I never thought of that," said Lucy, with dismay.</p> + +<p>"But you must learn to think of it, my love. Never mind, this is the +first Christmas since the election. But one dinner, and nothing else +done, not so much as a magic lantern in the village! I do assure you, my +dearest girl, you are very much to blame."</p> + +<p>"I am very sorry," said Lucy, with a startled look, "but, dear aunt, +little Tom——"</p> + +<p>"My dear Lucy! I am sure you don't wish everybody to get sick of that +poor child's very name."</p> + +<p>Lucy sprang up from her chair at this outrage; she could not bear any +more. A flush of almost fury came upon her face. She went up to the +mantelpiece, which was a very fine one of carved wood, and leant her +head upon it. She did not trust herself to reply.</p> + +<p>"Now, I know what you are thinking," said Lady Randolph blandly. "You +are saying to yourself, that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_90" id="Page_90">[Pg 90]</a></span> horrid old woman, who never had a child, +how can she know?—and I don't suppose I do," said the clever Dowager +pathetically. "All that sweetness has been denied to me. I have never +had a little creature that was all mine. But when I was your age, Lucy, +and far older than you, I would have given anything—almost my life—to +have had a child."</p> + +<p>Lucy melted in a moment, threw herself down upon the hearth-rug upon her +knees, and took Lady Randolph's hands in her own and kissed them.</p> + +<p>"Oh, dear aunt, dear aunt!" she cried, "to think I should have gone on +so about little Tom and never remembered that you—— But we are all your +children," she said, in the innocence and fervour of her heart.</p> + +<p>"Yes, my love." Lady Randolph freed one of her hands and put it up with +her handkerchief to her cheek. As a matter of fact she did not regret it +now, but felt that a woman when she is growing old is really much more +able to look after her own comforts when she has no children; and yet, +when she remembered how she had been bullied on the subject, and all the +reproaches that had been addressed to her as if it were her fault, +perhaps there was something like a tear. "That is why I venture to say +many things to you that I would not otherwise. Tom, indeed, is too old +to have been my son; but I have felt, Lucy, as if I had a daughter in +you." Then shaking off this little bit of sentiment with a laugh, the +Dowager raised Lucy and kissed her and put her into a chair by her own +side.</p> + +<p>"Since we are about it," she said, "there is one other thing I should +like to talk to you about. Of course your husband knows a great deal +more of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_91" id="Page_91">[Pg 91]</a></span> world than you do, Lucy; but it is perhaps better that he +should not decide altogether who is to be asked. Men have such strange +notions. If people are amusing it is all they think of. Well, now, there +is that Contessa di Forno-Populo. I would not have her, Lucy, if I were +you."</p> + +<p>"But it was she who was the special person," said Lucy, in amaze. "The +others were to come to meet her. She is an old friend."</p> + +<p>"Oh, I know all about the old friendship," said Lady Randolph. "I think +Tom should be ashamed of himself. He knows that in other houses where +the mistress knows more about the world. Yes, yes, she is an old friend. +All the more reason, my dear, why you should have as little to say to +her as possible; they are never to be reckoned upon. Didn't you hear +what he called her. <i>La</i> Forno-Populo? Englishmen never talk of a lady +like that if they have any great respect for her; but it can't be denied +that this lady has a great deal of charm. And I would just keep her at +arm's length, Lucy, if I were you."</p> + +<p>"Dear Aunt Randolph, why should I do that?" said Lucy, gravely. "If she +is Tom's friend, she must always be welcome here. I do not know her, +therefore I can only welcome her for my husband's sake; but that is +reason enough. You must not ask me to do anything that is against Tom."</p> + +<p>"Against Tom! I think you are a little goose, Lucy, though you are so +sensible. Is it not all for his sake that I am talking? I want you to +see more of the world, not to shut yourself up here in the nursery +entirely on his account. If you don't understand that, then words have +no meaning."</p> + +<p>"I do understand it, aunt," said Lucy meekly.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_92" id="Page_92">[Pg 92]</a></span> "Don't be angry; but why +should I be disagreeable to Tom's friend? The only thing I am afraid of +is, should she not speak English. My French is so bad——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, your French will do very well; and you will take your own way, my +dear," said the elder lady, getting up. "You all do, you young people. +The opinion of others never does any good; and as Tom does not seem to +be coming, I think I shall take my way to bed. Good-night, Lucy. +Remember what I said, at all events, about the magic lantern. And if you +are wise you will have as little to do as possible with La Forno-Populo +as you can—and there you have my two pieces of advice."</p> + +<p>Lucy was disturbed a little by her elder's counsel, both in respect to +the foreign lady, whom, however, she simply supposed Lady Randolph did +not like—and in regard to her own nursery tastes and avoidance of +society;—could that be why Tom sat so much longer in the dining-room +and did not come in to talk to his aunt? She began to think with a +little ache in her heart, and to remember that in her great +preoccupation with the child he had been left to spend many evenings +alone, and that he no longer complained of this. She stood up in front +of the fire and pressed her hot forehead to the mantel-shelf. How was a +woman to know what to do? Was not he that was most helpless and had most +need of her the one to devote her time to? There was not a thought in +her that was disloyal to Sir Tom. But what if he were to form the habit +of doing without her society? This was an idea that filled her with a +vague dread. Some one came in through the great drawing-room as she +stood thinking, and she turned round eagerly, supposing<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_93" id="Page_93">[Pg 93]</a></span> that it was her +husband; but it was only Jock, who had been on the watch to hear Lady +Randolph go upstairs.</p> + +<p>"I never see you at all now, Lucy," cried Jock. "I never have a chance +but in the holidays, and now they're half over, and we have not had one +good talk. And what about poor Mr. Churchill, Lucy? I thought he was the +very man for you. He has got about a dozen children and no money. +Somebody else pays for Churchill, that's the fellow I told you of that's +on the foundation. I shouldn't have found out all that, and gone and +asked questions and got myself thought an inquisitive beggar, if it +hadn't been for your sake."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Jock, I'm sure I am much obliged to you," said Lucy, dolefully; +"and I am so sorry for the poor gentleman. It must be dreadful to have +so many children and not to be able to give them everything they +require."</p> + +<p>At this speech, which was uttered with something between impatience and +despair, and which made no promise of any help or succour, her brother +regarded her with a mixture of anger and disappointment.</p> + +<p>"Is that all about it, Lucy?" he said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, no, Jock! I am sure you are right, dear. I know I ought to bestir +myself and do something, but only—— How much do you think it would take +to make them comfortable? Oh, Jock, I wish that papa had put it all into +somebody's hands, to be done like business—somebody that had nothing +else to think of!"</p> + +<p>"What have you to think of, Lucy?" said the boy, seriously, in the +superiority of his youth. "I suppose, you know, you are just too well +off. You can't understand what it is to be like that. You get angry at +people for not being happy, you don't want to be<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_94" id="Page_94">[Pg 94]</a></span> disturbed." He paused +remorsefully, and cast a glance at her, melting in spite of himself, for +Lucy did not look too well off. Her soft brow was contracted a little; +there was a faint quiver upon her lip. "If you really want to know," +Jock said, "people can live and get along when they have about five +hundred a year. That is, as far as I can make out. If you gave them +that, they would think it awful luck."</p> + +<p>"I wish I could give them all of it, and be done with it!"</p> + +<p>"I don't see much good that would do. It would be two rich people in +place of one, and the two would not be so grand as you. That would not +have done for father at all. He liked you to be a great heiress, and +everybody to wonder at you, and then to give your money away like a +queen. I like it too," said Jock, throwing up his head; "it satisfies +the imagination: it is a kind of a fairy tale."</p> + +<p>Lucy shook her head.</p> + +<p>"He never thought how hard it would be upon me. A woman is never so well +off as a man. Oh, if it had been you, Jock, and I only just your +sister."</p> + +<p>"Talking does not bring us any nearer a settlement," said Jock, with +some impatience. "When will you do it, Lucy? Have you got to speak to +old Rushton, or write to old Chervil, or what? or can't you just draw +them a cheque? I suppose about ten thousand or so would be enough. And +it is as easy to do it at one time as another. Why not to-morrow, Lucy? +and then you would have it off your mind."</p> + +<p>This proposal took away Lucy's breath. She thought with a gasp of Sir +Tom and the look with which he would regard her—the laugh, the amused +incredulity. He would not be unkind, and her right<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_95" id="Page_95">[Pg 95]</a></span> to do it was quite +well established and certain. But she shrank within herself when she +thought how he would look at her, and her heart jumped into her throat +as she realised that perhaps he might not laugh only. How could she +stand before him and carry her own war in opposition to his? Her whole +being trembled even with the idea of conflict. "Oh, Jock, it is not just +so easily managed as that," she said faltering; "there are several +things to think of. I will have to let the trustees know, and it must +all be calculated."</p> + +<p>"There is not much need for calculation," said Jock, "that is just about +it. Five per cent is what you get for money. You had better send the +cheque for it, Lucy, and then let the old duffers know of it afterwards. +One would think you were afraid!"</p> + +<p>"Oh, no," said Lucy, with a slight shiver, "I am not afraid." And then +she added, with growing hesitation, "I must—speak to—— Oh! Is it you, +Tom?" She made a sudden start from Jock's side, who was standing close +by her, argumentative and eager, and whose bewildered spectatorship of +her guilty surprise and embarrassment she was conscious of through all.</p> + +<p>"Yes, it is I," said Sir Tom, putting his hand upon her shoulders; "you +must have been up to some mischief, Jock and you, or you would not look +so frightened. What is the secret?" he said, with his genial laugh. But +when he looked from Jock, astonished but resentful and lowering, to +Lucy, all trembling and pale with guilt, even Sir Tom, who was not +suspicious, was startled. His little Lucy! What had she been plotting +that made her look so scared at his appearance? Or was it something that +had been<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_96" id="Page_96">[Pg 96]</a></span> told to her, some secret accusation against himself? This +startled Sir Tom also a little, and it was with a sudden gravity, not +unmingled with resentment, that he added, "Come! I mean to know what it +is."</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XI" id="CHAPTER_XI"></a>CHAPTER XI.</h2> + +<h3>AN INNOCENT CONSPIRACY.</h3> + + +<p>"It was only something that Jock was saying," said Lucy, "but, Tom, I +will tell you another time. I wish you had come in before Lady Randolph +went upstairs. I think she was a little disappointed to have only me."</p> + +<p>"Did she share Jock's secret?" Sir Tom said with a keen look of inquiry. +It is perhaps one advantage in the dim light which fashion delights in, +that it is less easy to scrutinise the secrets of a face.</p> + +<p>"We are all a little put wrong when you do not come in," said Lucy. The +cunning which weakness finds refuge in when it has to defend itself came +to her aid. "Jock is shy when you are not here. He thinks he bores Lady +Randolph; and so we ladies are left to our own devices."</p> + +<p>"Jock must not be so sensitive," Sir Tom said; but he was not satisfied. +It occurred to him suddenly (for schoolboys are terrible gossips) that +the boy might have heard something which he had been repeating to Lucy. +Nothing could have been more unlikely, had he thought of it, than that +Jock should carry tales on such a subject. But we do not stop to argue +out matters when our own self-regard is in question. He looked at the +two with a doubtful and suspicious eye.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_97" id="Page_97">[Pg 97]</a></span></p> + +<p>"He will get over it as he grows older," said Lucy; but she gave her +brother a look which to Sir Tom seemed one of warning, and he was +irritated by it; he looked from one to another and he laughed; but not +with the genial laugh which was his best known utterance.</p> + +<p>"You are prodigiously on your guard," he said. "I suppose you have your +reasons for it. Have you been confiding the Masons' secret or something +of that awful character to her, Jock?"</p> + +<p>"Why shouldn't I tell him?" cried Jock with great impatience. "What is +the use of making all those signs? It's nothing of the sort. It's only +I've heard of somebody that is poor—somebody she ought to know of—the +sort of thing that is meant in father's will."</p> + +<p>"Oh!" said Sir Tom. It was the simplest of exclamations, but it meant +much. He was partially relieved that it was not gossip, but yet more +gravely annoyed than if it had been.</p> + +<p>Lucy made haste to interpose.</p> + +<p>"I will tell you afterwards," she said. "If I made signs, as Jock said, +it was only that I might tell it you, Tom, myself, when there was more +time."</p> + +<p>"I am at no loss for time," said Sir Tom, placing himself in the vacant +chair. The others were both standing, as became this accidental moment +before bed-time. And Lucy had been on thorns to get away, even before +her husband appeared. She had wanted to escape from the discussion even +with Jock. She had wanted to steal into the nursery, and see that her +boy was asleep, to feel his little forehead with her soft hand, and make +sure there was no fever. To be betrayed into a prolonged and agitating +discussion now was very provoking, very undesirable; and Lucy had grown<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_98" id="Page_98">[Pg 98]</a></span> +rather cowardly and anxious to push away from her, as far as she could, +everything that did not belong to the moment.</p> + +<p>"Tom," she said, a little tremulously, "I wish you would put it off till +to-morrow. I am—rather sleepy; it is nearly eleven o'clock, and I +always run in to see how little Tom is going on. Besides," she added, +with a little anxiety which was quite fictitious, "it is keeping +Fletcher up——"</p> + +<p>"I am not afraid of Fletcher, Lucy."</p> + +<p>"Oh! but I am," she said. "I will tell you about it to-morrow. There is +nothing in the least settled, only Jock thought——"</p> + +<p>"Settled!" Sir Tom said, with a curious look. "No, I hope not."</p> + +<p>"Oh! nothing at all settled," said Lucy. She stood restlessly, now on +one foot now on the other, eager for flight. She did not even observe +the implied authority in this remark, at which Jock pricked up his ears +with incipient offence. "And Jock ought to be in bed—oh, yes, Jock, you +ought. I am sure you are not allowed to sit up so late at school. Come +now, there's a good boy—and I will just run and see how baby is."</p> + +<p>She put her hand on her brother's arm to take him away with her, but +Jock hung back, and Sir Tom interposed, "Now that I have just settled +myself for a chat, you had better leave Jock with me at least, Lucy. Run +away to your baby, that is all right. Jock and I will entertain each +other. I respect his youth, you see, and don't try to seduce him into a +cigar—you should be thankful to me for that."</p> + +<p>"If I was not in sixth form," said Jock sharply, nettled by this +indignity, "I should smoke; but it is bad form when you are high up in +school. In the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_99" id="Page_99">[Pg 99]</a></span> holidays I don't mind," he added, with careless +grandeur, upon which Sir Tom, mollified, laughed as Lucy felt like +himself.</p> + +<p>"Off duty, eh?" he said, "that's a very fine sentiment, Jock. You may be +sure it's bad form to do anything you have promised not to do. You will +say that sounds like a copy-book. Come now, Lucy, are not you going, +little woman? Do you want to have your share in the moralities?"</p> + +<p>For this sudden change had somehow quenched Lucy's desire both to +inspect the baby and get to bed. But what could she do? She looked very +earnestly at Jock as she bade him good-night, but neither could she +shake his respect for her husband by giving him any warning, nor offend +her husband by any appearance of secret intelligence with Jock. Poor +little Lucy went away after this through the stately rooms and up the +grand staircase with a great tremor in her heart. There could not be a +life more guarded and happy than hers had been—full of wealth, full of +love, not a crumpled rose-leaf to disturb her comfort. But as she stole +along the dim corridor to the nursery her heart was beating full of all +the terrors that make other hearts to ache. She was afraid for the +child's life, which was the worst of all, and looked with a suppressed +yet terrible panic into the dark future which contained she knew not +what for him. And she was afraid of her husband, the kindest man in the +world, not knowing how he might take the discovery he had just made, +fearing to disclose her mind to him, finding herself guilty in the mere +idea of hiding anything from him. And she was afraid of Jock, that he +would irritate Sir Tom, or be irritated by him, or that some wretched +breach or quarrel might arise between these two. Jock<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_100" id="Page_100">[Pg 100]</a></span> was not an +ordinary boy; there was no telling how he might take any reproof that +might be addressed to him—perhaps with the utmost reasonableness, +perhaps with a rapid defiance. Lady Randolph thus, though no harm had +befallen her, had come into the usual heritage of humanity, and was as +anxious and troubled as most of us are; though she was so happy and well +off. She was on thorns to know what was passing in the room she had just +left.</p> + +<p>This was all that passed. Jock, standing up against the mantelpiece, +looked down somewhat lowering upon Sir Tom in the easy chair. He +expected to be questioned, and had made up his mind, though with great +indignation at the idea that any one should find fault with Lucy, to +take the whole blame upon himself. That Lucy should not be free to carry +out her duty as seemed to her best was to Jock intolerable. He had put +his boyish faith in her all his life. Even since the time, a very early +one, when Jock had felt himself much cleverer than Lucy; even when he +had been obliged to make up his mind that Lucy was not clever at all—he +had still believed in her. She had a mission in the world which +separated her from other women. Nobody else had ever had the same thing +to do. Many people had dispensed charities and founded hospitals, but +Lucy's office in the world was of a different description—and Jock had +faith in her power to do it. To see her wavering was trouble to him, and +the discovery he had just made of something beneath the surface, a +latent opposition in her husband which she plainly shrank from +encountering, gave the boy a shock from which it was not easy to +recover. He had always liked Sir Tom; but if—— One thing, however, was +apparent, if there was any blame, anything<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_101" id="Page_101">[Pg 101]</a></span> to find fault with, it was +he, Jock, and not Lucy, that must bear that blame.</p> + +<p>"So, Jock, Lucy thinks you should be in bed. When do they put out your +lights at school? In my time we were up to all manner of tricks. I +remember a certain dark lantern that was my joy; but that was in old +Keate's time, you know, who never trusted the fellows. You are under a +better rule now."</p> + +<p>This took away Jock's breath, who had been prepared for a sterner +interrogation. He answered with a sudden blush, but with the rallying of +all his forces: "I light them again sometimes. It's hard on a fellow, +don't you think, sir, when he's not sleepy and has a lot to do?"</p> + +<p>"I never had much experience of that," said Sir Tom. "We were always +sleepy, and never did anything in my time. It was for larking, I'm +afraid, that we wanted light. And so it is seen on me, Jock. You will be +a fellow of your college, whereas I——"</p> + +<p>"I don't think so," said Jock generously. "That construe you gave me, +don't you remember, last half? MTutor says it is capital. He says he +couldn't have done it so well. Of course, that is his modest way," the +boy added, "for everybody knows there isn't such another scholar! but +that's what he says."</p> + +<p>Sir Tom laughed, and a slight suffusion of colour appeared on his face. +He was pleased with this unexpected applause. At five-and-forty, after +knocking about the world for years, and "never opening a book," as +people say, to have given a good "construe" is a feather in one's cap. +"To be second to your tutor is all a man has to hope for," he said, with +that mellow laugh which it was so pleasant to hear. "I hope I know my +place, Jock. We had no such godlike beings<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_102" id="Page_102">[Pg 102]</a></span> in my time. Old Puck, as we +used to call him, was my tutor. He had a red nose, which was the chief +feature in his character. He looked upon us all as his natural enemies, +and we paid him back with interest. Did I ever tell of that time when we +were going to Ascot in a cab, four of us, and he caught sight of the +turn-out?"</p> + +<p>"I don't think so," said Jock, with a little hesitation. He remembered +every detail of this story, which indeed Sir Tom had told him perhaps +more than once; for in respect to such legends the best of us repeat +ourselves. Many were the thoughts in the boy's mind as he stood against +the mantelpiece and looked down upon the man before him, going over with +much relish the tale of boyish mischief, the delight of the urchins and +the pedagogue's discomfiture. Sir Tom threw himself back in his chair +with a peal of joyous laughter.</p> + +<p>"Jove! I think I can see him now with the corners of his mouth all +dropped, and his nose like a beacon," he cried. Jock meanwhile looked +down upon him very gravely, though he smiled in courtesy. He was a +different manner of boy from anything Sir Tom could ever have been, and +he wondered, as young creatures will, over the little world of mystery +and knowledge which was shut up within the elder man. What things he had +done in his life—what places he had seen! He had lived among savages, +and fought his way, and seen death and life. Jock, only on the +threshold, gazed at him with a curious mixture of awe and wonder and +kind contempt. He would himself rather look down upon a fellow (he +thought) who did that sort of practical joke now. MTutor would regard +such an individual as a natural curiosity. And yet here was this man who +had seen so much, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_103" id="Page_103">[Pg 103]</a></span> done so much, who ought to have profited by the +long results of time, and grown to such superiority and mental +elevation—here was he, turning back with delight to the schoolboy's +trick. It filled Jock with a great and compassionate wonder. But he was +a very civil boy. He was one who could not bear to hurt a +fellow-creature's feelings, even those of an old duffer whose +recollections were all of the bygone ages. So he did his best to laugh. +And Sir Tom enjoyed his own joke so much that he did not know that it +was from the lips only that his young companion's laugh came. He got up +and patted Jock on the shoulders with the utmost benevolence when this +pastime was done.</p> + +<p>"They don't indulge in that sort of fooling nowadays," he said. "So much +the better—though I don't know that it did us much harm. Now come +along, let us go to bed, according to my lady's orders. We must all, you +know, do what Lucy tells us in this house."</p> + +<p>Jock obeyed, feeling somewhat "shut up," as he called it, in a sort of +blank of confused discomfiture. Sir Tom had the best of it, by whatever +means he attained that end. The boy had intended to offer himself a +sacrifice, to brave anything that an angry man could say to him for +Lucy's sake, and at the same time to die if necessary for Lucy's right +to carry out her father's will, and accomplish her mission uninterrupted +and untrammelled. When lo, Sir Tom had taken to telling him schoolboy +stories, and sent him to bed with good-humoured kindness, without +leaving him the slightest opening either to defend Lucy or take blame +upon himself. He was half angry, and humbled in his own esteem, but +there was nothing for it but to submit. Sir Tom for his part, did not go +to bed. He went and smoked a lonely cigar, and his face lost its<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_104" id="Page_104">[Pg 104]</a></span> genial +smile. The light of it, indeed, disappeared altogether under a cloud, as +he sat gravely over his fire and puffed the smoke away. He had the air +of a man who had a task to do which was not congenial to him. "Poor +little soul," he said to himself. He could not bear to vex her. There +was nothing in the world that he would have grudged to his wife. Any +luxury, any adornment that he could have procured for her he would have +jumped at. But it was his fate to be compelled to oppose and subdue her +instead. The only thing was to do it quickly and decisively, since done +it must be. If she had been a warrior worthy of his steel, a woman who +would have defended herself and held her own, it would have been so much +more easy; but it was not without a compunction that Sir Tom thought of +the disproportion of their forces, of the soft and compliant creature +who had never raised her will against his or done other than accept his +suggestions and respond to his guidance. He remembered how Lucy had +stuck to her colours before her marriage, and how she had vanquished the +unwilling guardians who regarded what they thought the squandering of +her money with a consternation and fury that were beyond bounds. He had +thought it highly comic at the time, and even now there passed a gleam +of humour over his face at the recollection. He could not deny himself a +smile when he thought it all over. She had worsted her guardians, and +thrown away her money triumphantly, and Sir Tom had regarded the whole +as an excellent joke. But the recollection of this did not discourage +him now. He had no thought that Lucy would stand out against him. It +might vex her, however, dear little woman. No doubt she and Jock had +been making up some fine Quixotic plans between<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_105" id="Page_105">[Pg 105]</a></span> them, and probably it +would be a shock to her when her husband interfered. He had got to be so +fond of his little wife, and his heart was so kind, that he could not +bear the idea of vexing Lucy. But still it would have to be done. He +rose up at last, and threw away the end of his cigar with a look of +vexation and trouble. It was necessary, but it was a nuisance, however. +"If it were done when 'tis done, then 'twere well it were done quickly," +he said to himself; then laughed again, as he took his way upstairs, at +the over-significance of the words. He was not going to murder anybody; +only when the moment proved favourable, for once and only once, seeing +it was inevitable, he had to bring under lawful authority—an easy +task—the gentle little feminine creature who was his wife.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XII" id="CHAPTER_XII"></a>CHAPTER XII.</h2> + +<h3>THE FIRST STRUGGLE.</h3> + + +<p>Lucy knew nothing of this till the next forenoon after breakfast, and +after the many morning occupations which a lady has in her own house. +She looked wistfully at both her brother and her husband when they met +at table, and it was a great consolation to her, and lightening of her +heart, when she perceived that they were quite at ease with each other; +but still she was burning with curiosity to know what had passed. Sir +Tom had not said a word. He had been just as usual, not even looking a +consciousness of the unexplained question between them. She was glad and +yet half sorry that all was about to blow over, and to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_106" id="Page_106">[Pg 106]</a></span> be as if it had +not been. After going so far, perhaps it would have been better that it +had gone farther and that the matter had been settled. This she said to +herself in the security of a respite, believing that it had passed away +from Sir Tom's mind. She wanted to know, and yet she was afraid to ask, +for her heart revolted against asking questions of Jock which might +betray to him the fear of a possible quarrel. After she had +superintended little Tom's toilet, and watched him go out for his walk +(for the weather was very mild for the time of the year), and seen Mrs. +Freshwater, the housekeeper, and settled about the dinner, always with a +little quiver of anxiety in her heart, she met Jock by a happy chance, +just as she was about to join Lady Randolph in the drawing-room. She +seized his arm with energy, and drew him within the door of the library; +but after she had done this with an eagerness not to be disguised, Lucy +suddenly remembered all that it was inexpedient for her to betray to +Jock. Accordingly she stopped short, as it were, on the threshold, and +instead of saying as she had intended, "What did he say to you?" dropped +down into the routine question, "Where are you going—were you going +out?"</p> + +<p>"I shall some time, I suppose. What do you grip a fellow's arm for like +that? and then when I thought you had something important to say to me, +only asking am I going out?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, clear," said Lucy, recovering herself with an effort. "You don't +take enough exercise. I wish you would not be always among the books."</p> + +<p>"Stuff, Lucy!" said Jock.</p> + +<p>"I am sure Tom thinks the same. He was telling me—now didn't he say +something to you about it last night?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_107" id="Page_107">[Pg 107]</a></span></p> + +<p>"That's all bosh," said the boy. "And if you want to know what he said +to me last night, he just said nothing at all, but told me old stories +of school that I've heard a hundred times. These old d——fellows," +(Jock did not swear; he was going to say duffers, that was all) "always +talk like that. One would think they had not had much fun in their life +when they are always turning back upon school," Jock added, with fine +sarcasm.</p> + +<p>"Oh, only stories about school!" said Lucy with extreme relief. But the +next moment she was not quite so sure that she was comfortable about +this entire ignoring of a matter which Sir Tom had seemed to think so +grave. "What sort of stories?" she said dreamily, pursuing her own +thoughts without much attention to the answer.</p> + +<p>"Oh, that old stuff about Ascot and about the old master that stopped +them. It isn't much. I know it," said Jock, disrespectfully, "as well as +I know my a, b, c."</p> + +<p>"It is very rude of you to say so, Jock."</p> + +<p>"Perhaps it is rude," the boy replied, with candour; but he did not +further explain himself, and Lucy, to veil her mingled relief and +disquietude, dismissed him with an exhortation to go out.</p> + +<p>"You read and read," she cried, glad to throw off a little excitement in +this manner, though she really felt very little anxiety on the subject, +"till you will be all brains and nothing else. I wish you would use your +legs a little too." And then, with a little affectionate push away from +her, she left him in undisturbed possession of his books, and the +morning, which, fine as it was, was not bright enough to tempt him away +from them.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_108" id="Page_108">[Pg 108]</a></span></p> + +<p>Then Lucy pursued her way to the drawing-room: but she had not gone many +steps before she met her husband, who stopped and asked her a question +or two. Had the boy gone out? It was so fine it would do him good, poor +little beggar; and where was her ladyship going? When he heard she was +going to join the Dowager, Sir Tom smilingly took her hand and drew it +within his own. "Then come here with me for a minute first," he said. +And strange to say, Lucy had no fear. She allowed him to have his way, +thinking it was to show her something, perhaps to ask her advice on some +small matter. He took her into a little room he had, full of trophies of +his travels, a place more distinctively his own than any other in the +house. When he had closed the door a faint little thrill of alarm came +over her. She looked up at him wondering, inquiring. Sir Tom took her by +her arms and drew her towards him in the full light of the window. "Come +and let me look at you, Lucy," he said. "I want to see in your eyes what +it is that makes you afraid of me."</p> + +<p>She met his eyes with great bravery and self-command, but nothing could +save her from the nervous quiver which he felt as he held her, or from +the tell-tale ebb and flow of the blood from her face. "I—I am not +afraid of you, Tom."</p> + +<p>"Then have you ceased to trust me, Lucy? How is it that you discuss the +most important matters with Jock, who is only a boy, and leave me out? +You do not think that can be agreeable to me."</p> + +<p>"Tom," she said; then stopped short, her voice being interrupted by the +fluttering of her heart.</p> + +<p>"I told you: you are afraid. What have I ever done to make my wife +afraid of me?" he said.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_109" id="Page_109">[Pg 109]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom, it is not that! it is only that I felt—there has never been +anything said, and you have always done all, and more than all, that I +wished; but I have felt that you were opposed to me in one thing. I may +be wrong, perhaps," she added, looking up at him suddenly with a +catching of her breath.</p> + +<p>Sir Tom did not say she was wrong. He was very kind, but very grave. "In +that case," he said, "Lucy, my love, don't you think it would have been +better to speak to me about it, and ascertain what were my objections, +and why I was opposed to you—rather than turn without a word to another +instead of me?"</p> + +<p>"Oh!" cried Lucy, "I could not. I was a coward. I could not bear to make +sure. To stand against you, how could I do it? But if you will hear me +out, Tom, I never, never turned to another. Oh! what strange words to +say. It was not another. It was Jock, only Jock; but I did not turn even +to him. It was he who brought it forward, and I—— Now that we have +begun to talk about it, and it cannot be escaped," cried Lucy, with +sudden nervous boldness, freeing herself from his hold, "I will own +everything to you, Tom. Yes, I was afraid. I would not, I could not do +it, for I could feel that you were against it. You never said anything; +is it necessary that you should speak for me to understand you? but I +knew it all through. And to go against you and do something you did not +like was more than I could face. I should have gone on for years, +perhaps, and never had courage for it," she cried. She was tingling all +over with excitement and desperate daring now.</p> + +<p>"My darling," said Sir Tom, "it makes me happier to think that it was +not me you were afraid of, but only of putting yourself in opposition to +me; but still,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_110" id="Page_110">[Pg 110]</a></span> Lucy, even that is not right, you know. Don't you think +that it would be better that we should talk it over, and that I should +show you my objections to this strange scheme you have in your head, and +convince you——"</p> + +<p>"Oh!" cried Lucy, stepping back a little and putting up her hands as if +in self-defence, "that was what I was most frightened for."</p> + +<p>"What, to be convinced?" he laughed: but his laugh jarred upon her in +her excited state. "Well, that is not at all uncommon; but few people +avow it so frankly," he said.</p> + +<p>She looked up at him with appealing eyes. "Oh, Tom," she cried, "I fear +you will not understand me now. I am not afraid to be convinced. I am +afraid of what you will think when you know that I cannot be convinced. +Now," she said, with a certain calm of despair, "I have said it all."</p> + +<p>To her astonishment her husband replied by a sudden hug and a laugh. +"Whether you are accessible to reason or not, you are always my dear +little woman," he said. "I like best to have it out. Do you know, Lucy, +that it is supposed your sex are all of that mind? You believe what you +like, and the reason for your faith does not trouble you. You must not +suppose that you are singular in that respect."</p> + +<p>To this she listened without any response at all either in words or +look, except, perhaps, a little lifting of her eyelids in faint +surprise; for Lucy was not concerned about what was common to her sex. +Nor did she take such questions at all into consideration. Therefore, +this speech sounded to her irrelevant; and so quick was Sir Tom's +intelligence that, though he made it as a sort of conventional +necessity, he saw that it was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_111" id="Page_111">[Pg 111]</a></span> irrelevant too. It might have been all +very well to address a clever woman who could have given him back his +reply in such words. But to Lucy's straightforward, simple, limited +intellect such dialectics were altogether out of place. Her very want of +capacity to understand them made them a disrespect to her which she had +done nothing to deserve. He coloured in his quick sense of this, and +sudden perception that his wife in the limitation of her intellect and +fine perfection of her moral nature was such an antagonist as a man +might well be alarmed to meet, more alarmed even than she generously was +to displease him.</p> + +<p>"I beg your pardon, Lucy," he said, "I was talking to you as if you were +one of the ordinary people. All this must be treated between you and me +on a different footing. I have a great deal more experience than you +have, and I ought to know better. You must let me show you how it +appears to me. You see I don't pretend not to know what the point was. I +have felt for a long time that it was one that must be cleared up +between you and me. I never thought of Jock coming in," he said with a +laugh. "That is quite a new and unlooked-for feature; but begging his +pardon, though he is a clever fellow, we will leave Jock out of the +question. He can't be supposed to have much knowledge of the world."</p> + +<p>"No," said Lucy, with a little suspicion. She did not quite see what +this had to do with it, nor what course her husband was going to adopt, +nor indeed at all what was to follow.</p> + +<p>"Your father's will was a very absurd one," he said.</p> + +<p>At this Lucy was slightly startled, but she said after a moment, "He did +not think what hard things he was leaving me to do."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_112" id="Page_112">[Pg 112]</a></span></p> + +<p>"He did not think at all, it seems to me," said Sir Tom; "so far as I +can see he merely amused himself by arranging the world after his +fashion, and trying how much confusion he could make. I don't mean to +say anything unkind of him. I should like to have known him: he must +have been a character. But he has left us a great deal of botheration. +This particular thing, you know, that you are driving yourself crazy +about is sheer absurdity, Lucy. Solomon himself could not do it,—and +who are you, a little girl without any knowledge of the world, to see +into people's hearts, and decide whom it is safe to trust?"</p> + +<p>"You are putting more upon me than poor papa did, Tom," said Lucy, a +little more cheerfully. "He never said, as we do in charities, that it +was to go to deserving people. I was never intended to see into their +hearts. So long as they required it and got the money, that was all he +wanted."</p> + +<p>"Well, then, my dear," said Sir Tom, "if your father in his great sense +and judgment wanted nothing but to get rid of the money, I wonder he did +not tell you to stand upon Beachy Head or Dover Cliff on a certain day +in every year and throw so much of it into the sea—to be sure," he +added with a laugh, "that would come to very much the same thing—for +you can't annihilate money, you can only make it change hands—and the +London roughs would soon have found out your days for this wise purpose +and interrupted it somehow. But it would have been just as sensible. +Poor little woman! Here I am beginning to argue, and abusing your poor +father, whom, of course, you were fond of, and never so much as offering +you a chair! There is something on every one of them, I believe. Here, +my love, here is a seat for you," he said, dis<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_113" id="Page_113">[Pg 113]</a></span>placing a box of +curiosities and clearing a corner for her by the fire. But Lucy resisted +quietly.</p> + +<p>"Wouldn't it do another time, Tom?" she said with a little anxiety, "for +Aunt Randolph is all by herself, and she will wonder what has become of +me; and baby will be coming back from his walk." Then she made a little +pause, and resumed again, folding her hands, and raising her mild eyes +to his face. "I am very sorry to go against you, Tom. I think I would +rather lose all the money altogether. But there is just one thing, and +oh, do not be angry! I must carry out papa's will if I were to die!"</p> + +<p>Her husband, who had begun to enter smilingly upon this discussion, with +a certainty of having the best of it, and who had listened to her +smilingly in her simple pleas for deferring the conversation, pleas +which he was very willing to yield to, was so utterly taken by surprise +at this sudden and most earnest statement, that he could do nothing but +stare at her, with a loud alarmed exclamation, "Lucy!" and a look of +utter bewilderment in his face. But she stood this without flinching, +not nervous as many a woman might have been after delivering such a +blow, but quite still, clasping her hands in each other, facing him with +a desperate quietness. Lucy was not insensible to the tremendous nature +of the utterance she had just made.</p> + +<p>"This is surprising, indeed, Lucy," cried Sir Tom. He grew quite pale in +that sensation of being disobeyed, which is one of the most disagreeable +that human nature is subject to. He scarcely knew what to reply to a +rebellion so complete and determined. To see her attitude, the look of +her soft girlish face (for she looked still younger than her actual +years), the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_114" id="Page_114">[Pg 114]</a></span> firm pose of her little figure, was enough to show that it +was no rash utterance, such as many a combatant makes, to withdraw from +it one hour after. Sir Tom, in his amazement, felt his very words come +back to him; he did not know what to say. "Do you mean to tell me," he +said, almost stammering in his consternation, "that whatever I may think +or advise, and however mad this proceeding may be, you have made up your +mind to carry it out whether I will or not?"</p> + +<p>"Tom! in every other thing I will do what you tell me. I have always +done what you told me. You know a great deal better than I do, and never +more will I go against you; but I knew papa before I knew you. He is +dead; I cannot go to him to ask him to let me off, to tell him you don't +like it, or to say it is more than I can do. If I could I would do that. +But he is dead: all that he can have is just that I should be faithful +to him. And it is not only that he put it in his will, but I gave him my +promise that I would do it. How could I break my promise to one that is +dead, that trusted in me? Oh, no, no! It will kill me if you are angry; +but even then, even then, I must do what I promised to papa."</p> + +<p>The tears had risen to her eyes as she spoke: they filled her eyelids +full, till she saw her husband only through two blinding seas: then they +fell slowly one after another upon her dress: her face was raised to +him, her features all moving with the earnestness of her plea. The +anguish of the struggle against her heart, and desire to please him, was +such that Lucy felt what it was to be faithful till death. As for Sir +Tom, it was impossible for such a man to remain unmoved by emotion so +great. But it had never occurred to him as possible that Lucy could +resist his will, or, indeed,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_115" id="Page_115">[Pg 115]</a></span> stand for a moment against his injunction; +he had believed that he had only to say to her, "You must not do it," +and that she would have cried, but given way. He felt himself utterly +defeated, silenced, put out of consideration. He did nothing but stare +and gasp at her in his consternation; and, more still, he was betrayed. +Her gentleness had deceived him and made him a fool; his pride was +touched, he who was supposed to have no pride. He stood silent for a +time, and then he burst out with a sort of roar of astonished and angry +dismay.</p> + +<p>"Lucy, do you mean to tell me that you will disobey me?" he cried.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XIII" id="CHAPTER_XIII"></a>CHAPTER XIII.</h2> + +<h3>AN IDLE MORNING.</h3> + + +<p>The Dowager Lady Randolph had never found the Hall so dull. There was +nothing going on, nothing even to look forward to: one formal +dinner-party was the only thing to represent that large and cordial +hospitality which she was glad to think had in her own time +characterised the period when the Hall was open. She had never pretended +to be fond of the county society. In the late Sir Robert's time she had +not concealed the fact that the less time she spent in it the better she +was pleased. But when she was there, all the county had known it. She +was a woman who loved to live a large and liberal life. It was not so +much that she liked gaiety, or what is called pleasure, as that she +loved to have people about her, to be the dispenser<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_116" id="Page_116">[Pg 116]</a></span> of enjoyment, to +live a life in which there was always something going on. This is a +temperament which meets much censure from the world, and is stigmatised +as a love of excitement, and by many other unlovely names; but that is +hard upon the people who are born with it, and who are in many cases +benefactors to mankind. Lady Randolph's desire was that there should +always be something doing—"a magic lantern at the least," she had said. +Indeed, there can be no doubt that in managing that magic lantern she +would have given as much satisfaction to everybody, and perhaps managed +to enjoy herself as much, as if it had been the first entertainment in +Mayfair. She could not stagnate comfortably, she said; and as so much of +an ordinary woman's life must be stagnation more or less gracefully +veiled, it may be supposed that Lady Randolph had learned the useful +lesson of putting up with what she could get when what she liked was not +procurable. And it was seldom that she had been set down to so languid a +feast as the present. On former occasions a great deal more had been +going on, except the last year, which was that of the baby's birth, on +which occasion Lucy was, of course, out of the way of entertainment +altogether. Lady Randolph had, indeed, found her visits to the Hall +amusing, which was delightful, seeing they were duty visits as well. She +had stayed only a day or two at that time—just long enough to kiss the +baby and talk for half an hour at a time, on two or three distinct +opportunities, to the young mother in very subdued and caressing tones. +And she had been glad to get away again when she had performed this +duty, but yet did not grudge in the least the sacrifice she had made for +her family. The case, however, was quite different now: there was no<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_117" id="Page_117">[Pg 117]</a></span> +reason in the world why they should be quiet. The baby was +delicate!—could there be a more absurd reason for closing your house to +your friends, putting off your Christmas visits, entertaining not at +all, ignoring altogether the natural expectations of the county, which +did not elect a man to be its member in order that he might shut himself +up and superintend his nursery? It was ridiculous, his aunt felt; it +went to her nerves, and made her quite uncomfortable, to see all the +resources of the house, with which she was so well acquainted, wasted +upon four people. It was preposterous—an excellent cook, the best cook +almost she had ever come across, and only four to dine! People have +different ideas of what waste is—there are some who consider all large +expenditure, especially in the entertainment of guests, to be subject to +this censure. But Lady Randolph took a completely different view. The +wickedness of having such a cook and only a family party of four persons +to dine was that which offended her. It was scandalous, it was wicked. +If Lucy meant to live in this way let her return to her bourgeois +existence, and the small vulgar life in Farafield. It was ridiculous +living the life of a nobody here, and in Sir Tom's case was plainly +suicidal. How was he to hold up his face at another election, with the +consciousness that he had done nothing at all for his county, not even +given them a ball, nor so much as a magic lantern, she repeated, +bursting with a reprobation which could scarcely find words?</p> + +<p>All this went through her mind with double force when she found herself +left alone in Lucy's morning-room, which was a bright room opening out +upon the flower garden, getting all the morning sun, and the full +advantage of the flowers when there were any. There<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_118" id="Page_118">[Pg 118]</a></span> were none, it is +true, at this moment, except a few snow-drops forcing their way through +the smooth turf under a tree which stood at the corner of a little bit +of lawn. Lady Randolph was not very fond of flowers, except in their +proper place, which meant when employed in the decoration of rooms in +the proper artistic way, and after the most approved fashion. Thus she +liked sunflowers when they were approved by society, and modest violets +and pansies in other developments of popular taste, but did not for her +own individual part care much which she had, so long as they looked well +in her vases, and "came well" against her draperies and furniture. She +had come down on this bright morning with her work, as it is the proper +thing for a lady to do, but she had no more idea of being left here +calmly and undisturbed to do that work than she had of attempting a +flight into the inviting and brilliant, if cold and frosty, skies. She +sat down with it between the fire and the sunny window, enjoying both +without being quite within the range of either. It was an ideal picture +of a lady no longer young or capable of much out-door life, or personal +emotion; a pretty room; a sunny, soft winter morning, almost as warm as +summer, the sunshine pouring in, a cheerful fire in the background to +make up what was lacking in respect of warmth; the softest of easiest +chairs, yet not too low or demoralising; a subdued sound breaking in now +and then from a distance, which pleasantly betrayed the existence of a +household; and in the midst of all, in a velvet gown, which was very +pretty to look at, and very comfortable to wear, and with a lace cap on +her head that had the same characteristics, a lady of sixty, in perfect +health, rich enough for all her requirements, without even the thought +of a dentist to trouble her.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_119" id="Page_119">[Pg 119]</a></span> She had a piece of very pretty work in her +hand, the newspapers on the table, books within reach. And yet she was +not content! What a delightful ideal sketch might not be made of such a +moment! How she might have been thinking of her past, sweetly, with a +sigh, yet with a thankful thought of all the good things that had been +hers; of those whom she had loved, and who were gone from earth, as only +awaiting her a little farther on, and of those about her, with such a +tender commendation of them to God's blessing, and cordial desire for +their happiness, as would have reached the height of a prayer. And she +might have been feeling a tranquil pleasure in the material things about +her: the stillness, the warmth, the dreamy quiet, even the pretty work, +and the exemption from care which she had arrived at in the peaceful +concluding chapter of existence. This is what we all like to think of as +the condition of mind and circumstances in which age is best met. But we +are grieved to say that this was not in the least Lady Randolph's pose. +Anything more distasteful to her than this quiet could not be. It was +her principle and philosophy to live in the present. She drew many +experiences from the past, and a vast knowledge of the constitutions and +changes of society; but personally it did not amuse her to think of it, +and the future she declined to contemplate. It had disagreeable things +in it, of that there could be no doubt; and why go out and meet the +disagreeable? It was time enough when it arrived. There was probably +illness, and certainly dying, in it; things which she was brave enough +to face when they came, and no doubt would encounter in quite a +collected and courageous way. But why anticipate them? She lived +philosophically in the day as it came. After all what<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_120" id="Page_120">[Pg 120]</a></span>ever you do or +think, you cannot do much more. Your one day, your hour, is your world. +Acquit yourself fitly in that, and you will be able to encounter +whatever occurs.</p> + +<p>This was the conviction on which Lady Randolph acted. But her pursuit +for the moment was not entertaining; she very quickly tired of her work. +Work is, on the whole, tiresome when there is no particular use in it, +when it is done solely for the sake of occupation, as ladies' work so +often is. It wants a meaning and a necessity to give it interest, and +Lady Randolph's had neither. She worked about ten minutes, and then she +paused and wondered what could have become of Lucy. Lucy was not a very +amusing companion, but she was somebody; and then Sir Tom would come in +occasionally to consult her, to give her some little piece of +information, and for a few minutes would talk and give his relative a +real pleasure. But even Lucy did not come; and soon Lady Randolph became +tired of looking out of the window and then walking to the fire, of +taking up the newspaper and throwing it down again, of doing a few +stitches, then letting the work fall on her lap; and above all, of +thinking, as she was forced to do, from sheer want of occupation. She +listened, and nobody came. Two or three times she thought she heard +steps approaching, but nobody came. She had thought of perhaps going out +since the morning was so fine, walking down to the village, which was +quite within her powers, and of planning several calls which might be +made in the afternoon to take advantage of the fine day. But she became +really fretted and annoyed as the morning crept along. Lucy was losing +even her politeness, the Dowager thought. This is what comes of what +people<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_121" id="Page_121">[Pg 121]</a></span> call happiness! They get so absorbed in themselves, there is no +possibility of paying ordinary attention to other people. At last, after +completely tiring herself out, Lady Randolph got up and put down her +work altogether, throwing it away with anger. She had not lived so long +in its sole company for years, and there is no describing how tired she +was of it. She got up and went out into the other rooms in search of +something to amuse her. Little Tom had just come in, but she did not go +to the nursery. She took care not to expose herself to that. She was +willing to allow that she did not understand babies; and then to see +such a pale little thing the heir of the Randolphs worried her. He ought +to have been a little Hercules; it wounded her that he was so puny and +pale. She went through the great drawing-room, and looked at all the +additions to the furniture and decorations that Tom and Lucy had made. +They had kept a number of the old things; but naturally they had added a +good deal of <i>bric-à-brac</i>, of old things that here were new. Then Lady +Randolph turned into the library. She had gone up to one of the +bookcases, and was leisurely contemplating the books, with a keen eye, +too, to the additions which had been made, when she heard a sound near +her, the unmistakable sound of turning over the leaves of a book. Lady +Randolph turned round with a start, and there was Jock, sunk into the +depths of a large chair with a tall folio supported on the arms of it. +She had not seen him when she came in, and, indeed, many people might +have come and gone without perceiving him, buried in his corner. Lady +Randolph was thankful for anybody to talk to, even a boy.</p> + +<p>"Is it you?" she said. "I might have known it<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_122" id="Page_122">[Pg 122]</a></span> could be nobody but you. +Do you never do anything but read?"</p> + +<p>"Sometimes," said Jock, who had done nothing but watch her since she +came into the room. She gave him a sort of half smile.</p> + +<p>"It is more reasonable now than when you were a child," she said; "for I +hear you are doing extremely well at school, and gaining golden +opinions. That is quite as it should be. It is the only way you can +repay Lucy for all she has done for you."</p> + +<p>"I don't think," said Jock, looking at her over his book, "that Lucy +wants to be repaid."</p> + +<p>"Probably not," said Lady Randolph. Then she made a pause, and looked +from him to the book he held, and then to him again. "Perhaps you don't +think," she said, "there is anything to be repaid."</p> + +<p>They were old antagonists; when he was a child and Lucy had insisted on +carrying him with her wherever she went, Lady Randolph had made no +objections, but she had not looked upon Jock with a friendly eye. And +afterwards, when he had interposed with his precocious wisdom, and +worsted her now and then, she had come to have a holy dread of him. But +now things had righted themselves, and Jock had attained an age of which +nobody could be afraid. The Dowager thought, as people are so apt to +think, that Jock was not grateful enough. He was very fond of Lucy, but +he took things as a matter of course, seldom or never remembering that +whereas Lucy was rich, he was poor, and all his luxuries and well-being +came from her. She was glad to take an opportunity of reminding him of +it, all the more as she was of opinion that Sir Tom did not sufficiently +impress this upon the boy, to whom she thought he<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_123" id="Page_123">[Pg 123]</a></span> was unnecessarily +kind. "I suppose," she resumed, after a pause, "that you come here +always in the holidays, and quite consider it as your home?"</p> + +<p>Jock still sat and looked at her across his great folio. He made her no +reply. He was not so ready in the small interchanges of talk as he had +been at eight, and, besides, it was new to him to have the subject +introduced in this way. It is not amusing to plant arrows of this sort +in any one's flesh if they show no sign of any wound, and accordingly +Lady Randolph grew angry as Jock made no reply. "Is it considered good +manners," she said, "at school—when a lady speaks to you that you +should make no answer?"</p> + +<p>"I was thinking," Jock said. "A fellow, whether he is at school, or not, +can't answer all that at once."</p> + +<p>"I hope you do not mean to be impertinent. In that case I should be +obliged to speak to my nephew," said Lady Randolph. She had not intended +to quarrel with Jock. It was only the vacancy of the morning, and her +desire for movement of some sort, that had brought her to this; and now +she grew angry with Lucy as well as with Jock, having gone so much +farther than she had intended to go. She turned from him to the books +which she had been languidly examining, and began to take them out one +after another, impatiently, as if searching for something. Jock sat and +looked at her for some time, with the same sort of deliberate +observation with which he used to regard her when he was a child, seeing +(as she had always felt) through and through her. But presently another +impulse swayed him. He got himself out behind his book, and suddenly +appeared by her side, startling her nerves, which were usually so firm.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_124" id="Page_124">[Pg 124]</a></span></p> + +<p>"If you will tell me what you want," he said, "I'll get it for you. I +know where they all are. If it is French you want, they are up there. I +like going up the ladder," he added, half to himself.</p> + +<p>Perhaps it was this confession of childishness, perhaps the unlooked-for +civility, that touched her. She turned round with a subdued half +frightened air, feeling that there was no telling how to take this +strange creature, and said, half apologetically, "I think I should like +a French—novel. They are not—so—long, you know, as the English," and +sat down in the chair he rolled towards her. Jock was at the top of the +ladder in a moment. She watched him, making a little comment in her own +mind about Tom's motive in placing books of this description in such a +place—in order to keep them out of Lucy's way, she said to herself. +Jock brought her down half a dozen to choose from, and even the eye of +Jock, who doubtless knew nothing about them, made Lady Randolph a little +more scrupulous than usual in choosing her book. She was one of those +women who like the piquancy and freedom of French fiction. She would say +to persons of like tastes that the English proprieties were tame beside +the other, and she thought herself old enough to be altogether beyond +any risk of harm. Perhaps this was why she divined Sir Tom's motive in +placing them at the top of the shelves; divined and approved, for though +she read all that came in her way, she would not have liked Lucy to +share that privilege. She said to Jock as he brought them to her,</p> + +<p>"They are shorter than the English. I can't carry three volumes about, +you know; all these are in one; but I should not advise you to take to +this sort of reading, Jock."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_125" id="Page_125">[Pg 125]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I don't want to," said Jock, briefly; then he added more gravely, "I +can't construe French like you. I suppose you just open it and go +straight on?"</p> + +<p>"I do," said Lady Randolph, with a smile.</p> + +<p>She was mollified, for her French was excellent, and she liked a little +compliment, of whatever kind.</p> + +<p>"You should give your mind to it; it is the most useful of all +languages," she said.</p> + +<p>"And Lucy is not great at it either," said Jock.</p> + +<p>"That is true, and it is a pity," said Lady Randolph, quite restored to +good-humour. "I would take her in hand myself, but I have so many things +to do. Do you know where she is, for I have not seen her all this +morning?"</p> + +<p>"No more have I," said Jock. "I think they have just gone off somewhere +together. Lucy never minds. She ought to pay a little attention when +there are people in the house."</p> + +<p>"That is just what I have been thinking," Lady Randolph said. "I am at +home, of course, here; it does not matter for me, and you are her +brother—but she really ought; I think I must speak seriously to her."</p> + +<p>"To whom are you going to speak seriously? I hope not to me, my dear +aunt," said Sir Tom, coming in. He did not look quite his usual self. He +was a little pale, and he had an air about him as of some disagreeable +surprise. He had the post-bag in his hand—for there was a post twice a +day—and opened it as he spoke. Lady Randolph, with her quick +perception, saw at once that something had happened, and jumped at the +idea of a first quarrel. It was generally the butler Williams who opened +the letter-bag; but he was out of the way, and Sir Tom had taken the +office<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_126" id="Page_126">[Pg 126]</a></span> on himself. He took out the contents with a little impatience, +throwing across to her her share of the correspondence. "Hallo," he +said. "Here is a letter for Lucy from your tutor, Jock. What have you +been doing, my young man?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, I know what it's about," Jock said in a tone of satisfaction. Sir +Tom turned round and looked at him with the letter in his hand, as if he +would have liked to throw it at his head.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XIV" id="CHAPTER_XIV"></a>CHAPTER XIV.</h2> + +<h3>AN UNWILLING MARTYR.</h3> + + +<p>Lucy came into the morning-room shortly after, a little paler than +usual, but with none of the agitation about her which Lady Randolph +expected from Sir Tom's aspect to see. Lucy was not one to bear any +outward traces of emotion. When she wept her eyes recovered rapidly, and +after half an hour were no longer red. She had a quiet respect for other +people, and a determination not to betray anything which she could not +explain, which had the effect of that "proper pride" which is inculcated +upon every woman, and yet was something different. Lucy would have died +rather than give Lady Randolph ground to suppose that she had quarrelled +with her husband, and as she could not explain the matter to her, it was +necessary to efface all signs of perturbation as far as that was +possible. The elder lady was reading her letters when Lucy came in, but +she raised her eyes at once with the keenest watchfulness. Young Lady +Randolph was pale—but at no<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_127" id="Page_127">[Pg 127]</a></span> time had she much colour. She came in +quite simply, without any explanation or giving of reasons, and sat down +in her usual place near the window, from which the sunshine, as it was +now afternoon, was beginning to die away. Then Lucy gave a slight start +to see a letter placed for her on the little table beside her work. She +had few correspondents at any time, and when Jock and Lady Randolph were +both at the Hall received scarcely any letters. She took it up and +looked at its outside with a little surprise.</p> + +<p>"I forgot to tell you, Lucy," the Dowager said at this point, "that +there was a letter for you. Tom placed it there. He said it was from +Jock's tutor, and I hope sincerely, my dear, it does not mean that Jock +has got into any scrape——"</p> + +<p>"A scrape," said Lucy, "why should he have got into a scrape?" in +unbounded surprise; for this was a thing that never had happened +throughout Jock's career.</p> + +<p>"Oh, boys are so often in trouble," Lady Randolph said, while Lucy +opened her letter in some trepidation. But the first words of the letter +disturbed her more than any story about Jock was likely to do. It +brought the crisis nearer, and made immediate action almost +indispensable. It ran as follows:—</p> + +<blockquote><p>"Dear Lady Randolph—In accordance with Jock's request, which he +assured me was also yours, I have made all the inquiries you wished about +the Churchill family. It was not very difficult to do, as there is but one +voice in respect to them. Mr. Churchill himself is represented to me as a +model of all that a clergyman ought to be. Whatever we may think of his +functions, that he should have all the virtues supposed to be attached to +them is desirable in every point of view; and he is a gentleman of good +sense and intelligence besides, which is not always implied even in the +character of a saint. It seems that the failure of an inheritance, which +he had <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_128" id="Page_128">[Pg 128]</a></span> every reason to expect, was the cause of his first +disadvantage in the world; and since then, in consonance with that curious +natural law which seems so contrary to justice, yet constantly consonant +with fact, this evil has been cumulative, and he has had nothing but +disappointments ever since. He has a very small living now, and is never +likely to get a better, for he is getting old, and patrons, I am told, +scarcely venture to give a cure to a man of his age lest it should be said +they were gratifying their personal likings at the expense of the people. +This seems contrary to abstract justice in such a case; but it is a +doctrine of our time to which we must all bow.<br /><br /> + +"The young people, so far as I know, are all promising and good. Young +Churchill, whom Jock knows, is a boy for whom I have the greatest regard. +He is one whom Goethe would have described as a beautiful soul. His +sisters are engaged in educational work, and are, I am told, in their way +equally high-minded and interesting; but naturally I know little of the +female portion of the family.<br /><br /> + +"It is extremely kind of you and Sir Thomas to repeat your +invitation. I hope, perhaps at Easter, if convenient, to be able to take +advantage of it. I hear with the greatest pleasure from Jock how much he +enjoys his renewed intercourse with his home circle. It will do him good, +for his mind is full of the ideal, and it will be of endless advantage to +him to be brought back to the more ordinary and practical interests. There +are very few boys of whom it can be said that their intellectual +aspirations over-balance their material impulses. As usual he has not only +done his work this half entirely to my satisfaction, but has more than +repaid any services I can render him by the precious companionship of a +fresh and elevated spirit. <br /></p></blockquote> + +<p style="margin-left: 45%;">"Believe me, dear Lady Randolph,</p> +<p style="margin-left: 60%;">"Most faithfully yours,</p> +<p class="citation">"<span class="smcap">Maximus D. Derwentwater</span>."</p> + +<p>A long-drawn breath, which sounded like a sigh, burst from Lucy's breast +as she closed this letter. She had, with humility and shrinking, yet +with a certain resolution, disclosed to her husband that when the +occasion occurred she must do her duty according to her father's will, +whether it pleased him or not. She had steeled herself to do this; but +she had prayed that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_129" id="Page_129">[Pg 129]</a></span> the occasion might be slow to come. Nobody but Jock +knew anything about these Churchills, and Jock was going back to school, +and he was young and perhaps he might forget! But here was another who +would not forget. She read all the recommendations of the family and +their excellences with a sort of despair. Money, it was evident, could +not be better bestowed than in this way. There seemed no opening by +which she could escape; no way of thrusting this act away from her. She +felt a panic seize her. How was she to disobey Tom, how to do a thing of +so much importance, contrary to his will, against his advice? The whole +world around her, the solid walls, and the sky that shone in through the +great window, swam in Lucy's eyes. She drew her breath hard like a +hunted creature; there was a singing in her ears, and a dimness in her +sight. Lady Randolph's voice asking with a certain satisfaction, yet +sympathy, "What is the matter? I hope it is not anything very bad," +seemed to come to her from a distance as from a different world; and +when she added, after a moment, soothingly, "You must not vex yourself +about it, Lucy, if it is just a piece of folly. Boys are constantly in +that way coming to grief:" it was with difficulty that Lucy remembered +to what she could refer. Jock! Ah, if it had been but a boyish folly, +Sir Tom would have been the first to forgive that; he would have opened +his kind heart and taken the offender in, and laughed and persuaded him +out of his folly. He would have been like a father to the boy. To feel +all that, and how good he was; and yet determinedly to contradict his +will and go against him! Oh, how could she do it? and yet what else was +there to do?</p> + +<p>"It is not about Jock," she answered with a faint voice.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_130" id="Page_130">[Pg 130]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I beg your pardon, my dear. I was not aware that you knew Jock's tutor +well enough for general correspondence. These gentlemen seem to make a +great deal of themselves now-a-days, but in my time, Lucy——"</p> + +<p>"I do not know him very well, Aunt Randolph. He is only sending me some +information. I wish I might ask you a question," she cried suddenly, +looking into the Dowager's face with earnest eyes. This lady had perhaps +not all the qualities that make a perfect woman, but she had always been +very kind to Lucy. She was not unkind to anybody, although there were +persons, of whom Jock was one, whom she did not like. And in all +circumstances to Lucy, even when there was no immediate prospect that +the Randolph family would be any the better for her, she had always been +kind.</p> + +<p>"As many as you like, my love," she answered, cordially.</p> + +<p>"Yes," said Lucy; "but, dear Aunt Randolph, what I want is that you +should let me ask, without asking anything in return. I want to know +what you think, but I don't want to explain——"</p> + +<p>"It is a strange condition," said Lady Randolph; but then she thought in +her superior experience that she was very sure to find out what this +simple girl meant without explanations. "But I am not inquisitive," she +added, with a smile, "and I am quite willing, dear, to tell you anything +I know——"</p> + +<p>"It is this," said Lucy, leaning forward in her great earnestness; "do +you think a woman is ever justified in doing anything which her husband +disapproves?"</p> + +<p>"Lucy!" cried Lady Randolph, in great dismay,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_131" id="Page_131">[Pg 131]</a></span> "when her husband is my +Tom, and the thing she wants to do is connected with Jock's tutor——"</p> + +<p>Lucy's gaze of astonishment, and her wondering repetition of the words, +"connected with Jock's tutor!" brought Lady Randolph to herself. In +society, such a suspicion being fostered by all the gossips, comes +naturally; but though she was a society-woman, and had not much faith in +holy ignorance, she paused here, horrified by her own suggestion, and +blushed at herself.</p> + +<p>"No, no," she said, "that was not what I meant; but perhaps I could not +quite advise, Lucy, where I am so closely concerned."</p> + +<p>At which Lucy looked at her somewhat wistfully. "I thought you would +perhaps remember," she said, "when you were like me, Aunt Randolph, and +perhaps did not know so well as you know now——"</p> + +<p>This touched the elder lady's heart. "Lucy," she said, "my dear, if you +were not as innocent as I know you are, you would not ask your husband's +nearest relation such a question. But I will answer you as one woman to +another, and let Tom take care of himself. I never was one that was very +strong upon a husband's rights. I always thought that to obey meant +something different from the common meaning of the word. A child must +obey; but even a grown-up child's obedience is very different from what +is natural and proper in youth; and a full-grown woman, you know, never +could be supposed to obey like a child. No wise man, for that matter, +would ever ask it or think of it."</p> + +<p>This did not give Lucy any help. She was very willing, for her part, to +accept his light yoke without any restriction, except in the great and +momentous exception which she did not want to specify.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_132" id="Page_132">[Pg 132]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I think," Lady Randolph went on, "that to obey means rather—keep in +harmony with your husband, pay attention to his opinions, don't take up +an opposite course, or thwart him, be united—instead of the obedience +of a servant, you know: still less of a slave."</p> + +<p>She was a great deal cleverer than Lucy, who was not thinking of the +general question at all. And this answer did the perplexed mind little +good. Lucy followed every word with curious attention, but at the end +slowly shook her head.</p> + +<p>"It is not that. Lady Randolph, if there was something that was your +duty before you were married, and that is still and always your duty, a +sacred promise you had made; and your husband said no, you must not do +it—tell me what you would have done? The rest is all so easy," cried +Lucy, "one likes what he likes, one prefers to please him. But this is +difficult. What would you have done?"</p> + +<p>Here Lady Randolph all at once, after giving forth the philosophical +view which was so much above her companion, found herself beyond her +depth altogether, and incapable of the fathom of that simple soul.</p> + +<p>"I don't understand you, Lucy. Lucy, for heaven's sake, take care what +you are doing! If it is anything about Jock, I implore of you give way +to your husband. You may be sure in dealing with a boy that he knows +best."</p> + +<p>Lucy sighed. "It is nothing about Jock," she said; but she did not +repeat her demand. Lady Randolph gave her a lecture upon the subject of +relations which was very wide of the question; and, with a sigh, owning +to herself that there was no light to be got from this, Lucy listened +very patiently to the irrele<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_133" id="Page_133">[Pg 133]</a></span>vant discourse. The clever dowager cut it +short when it was but half over, perceiving the same, and asked herself +not without excitement what it was possible Lucy's difficulty could be? +If it was not Jock (and a young brother hanging on to her, with no home +but hers, an inquisitive young intelligence, always in the way, was a +difficulty which anybody could perceive at a glance) what was it? But +Lucy baffled altogether this much experienced woman of the world.</p> + +<p>And Jock watched all the day for an opportunity to get possession of +her, and assail her on the other side of the question. She avoided him +as persistently as he sought her, and with a panic which was very +different from her usual happy confidence in him. But the moment came +when she could elude him no longer. Lady Randolph had gone to her own +room after her cup of tea, for that little nap before dinner which was +essential to her good looks and pleasantness in the evening. Sir Tom, +who was too much disturbed for the usual rules of domestic life, had not +come in for that twilight talk which he usually enjoyed; and as Lucy +found herself thus plunged into the danger she dreaded, she was hurrying +after Lady Randolph, declaring that she heard baby cry, when Jock +stepped into her way, and detained her, if not by physical, at least by +moral force—</p> + +<p>"Lucy," he said, "are you not going to tell me anything? I know you have +got the letter, but you won't look at me, or speak a word."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Jock, how silly! why shouldn't I look at you? but I have so many +things to do, and baby—I am sure I heard baby cry."</p> + +<p>"He is no more crying than I am. I saw him, and he was as jolly as +possible. I want awfully<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_134" id="Page_134">[Pg 134]</a></span> to know about the Churchills, and what MTutor +says."</p> + +<p>"Jock, I think Mr. Derwentwater is rather grand in his writing. It looks +as if he thought a great deal of himself."</p> + +<p>"No, he doesn't," said Jock, hotly, "not half enough. He's the best man +we've got, and yet he can't see it. You needn't give me any information +about MTutor," added the young gentleman, "for naturally I know all that +much better than you. But I want to know about the Churchills. Lucy, is +it all right?"</p> + +<p>Lucy gave a little shiver though she was in front of the fire. She said, +reluctantly, "I think they seem very nice people, Jock."</p> + +<p>"I know they are," said Jock, exultantly. "Churchill in college is the +nicest fellow I know. He read such a paper at the Poetical Society. It +was on the Method of Sophocles; but of course you would not understand +that."</p> + +<p>"No, dear," said Lucy, mildly; and again she murmured something about +the baby crying, "I think indeed, Jock, I must go."</p> + +<p>"Just a moment," said the boy, "Now you are satisfied couldn't we drive +into Farafield to-morrow and settle about it? I want to go with you, you +and I together, and if old Rushton makes a row you can just call me."</p> + +<p>"But I can't leave Lady Randolph, Jock," cried Lucy, driven to her wits' +end. "It would be unkind to leave her, and a few days cannot do much +harm. When she has gone away——"</p> + +<p>"I shall be back at school. Let Sir Tom take her out for once. He might +as well drive her in his new<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_135" id="Page_135">[Pg 135]</a></span> phæton that he is so proud of. If it is +fine she'll like that, and we can say we have some business."</p> + +<p>"Oh! Jock, don't press me so; a few days can't make much difference."</p> + +<p>"Lucy," said Jock, sternly, "do you think it makes no difference to keep +a set of good people unhappy, just to save you a little trouble? I +thought you had more heart than that."</p> + +<p>"Oh, let me go, Jock; let me go—that is little Tom, and he wants me," +Lucy cried. She had no answer to make him—the only thing she could do +was to fly.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XV" id="CHAPTER_XV"></a>CHAPTER XV.</h2> + +<h3>ON BUSINESS.</h3> + + +<p>Ten thousand pounds! These words have very different meanings to +different people. Many of us can form little idea of what those simple +syllables contain. They enclose as in a golden casket, rest, freedom +from care, bounty, kindness, an easy existence, and an ending free of +anxiety to many. To others they are nothing more than a cipher on paper, +a symbol without any connection with themselves. To some it is great +fortune, to others a drop in the ocean. A merchant will risk it any day, +and think but little if the speculation is a failure. A prodigal will +throw it away in a month, perhaps in a night. But the proportion of +people to whom its possession would make all the difference between +poverty and wealth far transcends the number of those who are careless +of it. It is a pleasure to deal with such a sum of money<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_136" id="Page_136">[Pg 136]</a></span> even on paper. +To be concerned in giving it away, makes even the historian, who has +nothing to do with it, feel magnificent and all-bounteous. Jock, who had +as little experience to back him as any other boy of his age, felt a +vague elation as he drove in by Lucy's side to Farafield. To confer a +great benefit is always sweet. Perhaps if we analyse it, as is the +fashion of the day, we will find that the pleasure of giving has a +<i>fond</i> of gratified vanity and self-consideration in it; but this +weakness is at least supposed to be generous, and Jock was generous to +his own consciousness, and full of delight at what was going to be done, +and satisfaction with his own share in it. But Lucy's sensations were +very different. She went with him with no goodwill of her own, like a +culprit being dragged to execution. Duty is not always willing, even +when we see it most clearly. Young Lady Randolph had a clear conviction +of what she was bound to do, but she had no wish to do it, though she +was so thoroughly convinced that it was incumbent upon her. Could she +have pushed it out of her own recollection, banished it from her mind, +she would have gladly done so. She had succeeded for a long time in +doing this—excluding the consideration of it, and forgetting the burden +bound upon her shoulders. But now she could forget it no longer—the +thongs which secured it seemed to cut into her flesh. Her heart was sick +with thoughts of the thing she must do, yet revolted against doing. "Oh, +papa, papa!" she said to herself, shaking her head at the grim, +respectable house in which her early days had been passed, as they drove +past it to Mr. Rushton's office. Why had the old man put such a burden +upon her? Why had not he distributed his money himself and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_137" id="Page_137">[Pg 137]</a></span> left her +poor if he pleased, with at least no unnatural charge upon her heart and +life?</p> + +<p>"Why do you shake your head?" said Jock, who was full of the keenest +observation, and lost nothing.</p> + +<p>He had an instinctive feeling that she was by no means so much +interested in her duty as he was, and that it was his business to keep +her up to the mark.</p> + +<p>"Don't you remember the old house?" Lucy said, "where we used to live +when you were a child? Where poor papa died—where——"</p> + +<p>"Of course I remember it. I always look at it when I pass, and think +what a little ass I used to be. But why did you shake your head? That's +what I want to know."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Jock!" Lucy cried; and said no more.</p> + +<p>"That throws very little light on the question," said Jock. "You are +thinking of the difference, I suppose. Well, there is no doubt it's a +great difference. I was a little idiot in those days. I recollect I +thought the circus boy was a sort of little prince, and that it was +grand to ride along like that with all the people staring—the grandest +thing in the world——"</p> + +<p>"Poor little circus boy! What a pretty child he was," said Lucy. And +then she sighed to relieve the oppression on her breast, and said, "Do +you ever wonder, Jock, why people should have such different lots? You +and I driving along here in what we once would have thought such state, +and look, these people that are crossing the road in the mud are just as +good as we are——"</p> + +<p>Jock looked at his sister with a philosophical eye, in which for the +moment there was some contempt. "It is as easy as a, b, c," said Jock; +"it's your money. You might set me a much harder one. Of course, in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_138" id="Page_138">[Pg 138]</a></span> the +way of horses and carriages and so forth, there is nothing that money +cannot buy."</p> + +<p>This matter-of-fact reply silenced Lucy. She would have asked, perhaps, +why did I have all this money? being in a questioning frame of mind; but +she knew that he would answer shortly because her father made +it, and this was not any more satisfactory. So she only looked at him +with wistful eyes that set many much harder ones, and was silent. Jock +himself was too philosophical to be satisfied with his own reply.</p> + +<p>"You see," he said condescendingly, "Money is the easiest explanation. +If you were to ask me why Sir Tom should be Sir Tom, and that man sweep +a crossing, I could not tell you."</p> + +<p>"Oh," cried Lucy, "I don't see any difficulty about that at all, for Tom +was born to it. You might as well say why should baby be born to be the +heir."</p> + +<p>Jock did not know whether to be indignant or to laugh at this feminine +begging of the question. He stared at her for a moment uncertain, and +then went on as if she had not spoken. "But money is always +intelligible. That's political economy. If you have money, as a matter +of course you have everything that money can buy; and I suppose it can +buy almost everything?" Jock said, reflectively.</p> + +<p>"It cannot buy a moment's happiness," cried Lucy, "nor one of those +things one wishes most for. Oh Jock, at your age don't be deceived like +that. For my part," she cried, "I think it is just the trouble of life. +If it was not for this horrible money——"</p> + +<p>She stopped short, the tears were in her eyes, but she would not betray +to Jock how great was the difficulty in which she found herself. She +turned her head away and was glad to wave her hand to a well<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_139" id="Page_139">[Pg 139]</a></span> known face +that was passing, an acquaintance of old times, who was greatly elated +to find that Lady Randolph in her grandeur still remembered her. Jock +looked on upon all this with a partial comprehension, mingled with +disapproval. He did not quite understand what she meant, but he +disapproved of her for meaning it all the same.</p> + +<p>"Money can't be horrible," he said, "unless it's badly spent: and to say +you can't buy happiness with it is nonsense. If it don't make <i>you</i> +happy to save people from poverty it will make them happy, so somebody +will always get the advantage. What are you so silly about, Lucy? I +don't say money is so very fine a thing. I only say it's intelligible. +If you ask me why a man should be a great deal better than you or me, +only because he took the trouble to be born——"</p> + +<p>"I am not so silly, though you think me so silly, as to ask that," said +Lucy; "that is so easy to understand. Of course you can only be who you +are. You can't make yourself into another person; I hope I understand +that."</p> + +<p>She looked him so sweetly and seriously in the face as she spoke, and +was so completely unaware of any flaw in her reply, that Jock, +argumentative as he was, only gasped and said nothing more. And it was +in this pause of their conversation that they swept up to Mr. Rushton's +door. Mr. Rushton was the town-clerk of Farafield, the most important +representative of legal knowledge in the place. He had been the late Mr. +Trevor's man of business, and had still the greater part of Lucy's +affairs in his hands. He had known her from her childhood, and in the +disturbed chapter of her life before her marriage,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_140" id="Page_140">[Pg 140]</a></span> his wife had taken a +great deal of notice, as she expressed it, of Lucy: and young Raymond, +who had now settled down in the office as his father's partner (but +never half such a man as his father, in the opinion of the community), +had done her the honour of paying her his addresses. But all that had +passed from everybody's mind. Mrs. Rushton, never very resentful, was +delighted now to receive Lady Randolph's invitation, and proud of the +character of an old friend. And if Raymond occasionally showed a little +embarrassment in Lucy's presence, that was only because he was by nature +awkward in the society of ladies, and according to his own description +never knew what to say.</p> + +<p>"And what can I do for your ladyship this morning?" Mr. Rushton said, +rising from his chair. His private room was very warm and comfortable, +too warm, the visitors thought, as an office always is to people going +in from the fresh air. The fire burned with concentrated heat, and Lucy, +in her furs and suppressed agitation, felt her very brain confused. As +for Jock, he lounged in the background with his hands in his pockets, +reading the names upon the boxes that lined the walls, and now that it +had come to the crisis, feeling truly helpless to aid his sister, and +considerably in the way.</p> + +<p>"It is a very serious business," said Lucy, drawing her breath hard. "It +is a thing you have never liked or approved of, Mr. Rushton, nor any +one," she added, in a faint voice.</p> + +<p>"Dear me, that is very unfortunate," said the lawyer, cheerfully; "but I +don't think you have ever been much disapproved of, Lady Randolph. Come, +there is nothing you can't talk to me about—an old<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_141" id="Page_141">[Pg 141]</a></span> friend. I was in +all your good father's secrets, and I never saw a better head for +business. Why, this is Jock, I believe, grown into a man almost! I +wonder if he has any of his father's talent? Is it about him you want to +consult me? Why, that's perfectly natural, now he's coming to an age to +look to the future," Mr. Rushton said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, no! it is not about Jock. He is only sixteen, and, besides, it is +something that is much more difficult," said Lucy. And then she paused, +and cleared her throat, and put down her muff among Mr. Rushton's +papers, that she might have her hands free for this tremendous piece of +business. Then she said, with a sort of desperation, looking him in the +face: "I have come to get you to—settle some money for me in obedience +to papa's will."</p> + +<p>Mr. Rushton started as if he had been shot. "You don't mean——" he +cried, "You don't mean—— Come, I dare say I am making a mountain out of +a mole-hill, and that what you are thinking of is quite innocent. If not +about our young friend here, some of your charities or improvements? You +are a most extravagant little lady in your improvements, Lady Randolph. +Those last cottages you know—but I don't doubt the estate will reap the +advantage, and it's an outlay that pays; oh, yes, I don't deny it's an +outlay that pays."</p> + +<p>Lucy's countenance betrayed the futility of this supposition long before +he had finished speaking. He had been standing with his back to the +fire, in a cheerful and easy way. Now his countenance grew grave. He +drew his chair to the table and sat down facing her. "If it is not that, +what is it?" he said.</p> + +<p>"Mr. Rushton," said Lucy, and she cleared her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_142" id="Page_142">[Pg 142]</a></span> throat. She looked back +to Jock for support, but he had his back turned to her, and was still +reading the names on the lawyer's boxes. She turned round again with a +little sigh. "Mr. Rushton, I want to carry out papa's will. You know all +about it. It is codicil F. I have heard of some one who is the right +kind of person. I want you to transfer ten thousand pounds——"</p> + +<p>The lawyer gave a sort of shriek; he bolted out of his chair, pushing it +so far from him that the substantial mahogany shivered and tottered upon +its four legs.</p> + +<p>"Nonsense!" he said, "Nonsense!" increasing the firmness of his tone +until the word thundered forth in capitals, "NONSENSE!—you are going +out of your senses; you don't know what you are saying. I made sure we +had done with all this folly——"</p> + +<p>When it had happened to Lucy to propose such an operation as she now +proposed, for the first time, to her other trustee, she had been spoken +to in a way which young ladies rarely experience. That excellent man of +business had tried to put this young lady—then a very young lady—down, +and he had not succeeded. It may be supposed that at her present age of +twenty-three, a wife, a mother, and with a modest consciousness of her +own place and position, she was not a less difficult antagonist. She was +still a little frightened, and grew somewhat pale, but she looked +steadfastly at Mr. Rushton with a nervous smile.</p> + +<p>"I think you must not speak to me so," she said. "I am not a child, and +I know my father's will and what it meant. It is not nonsense, nor +folly—it may perhaps have been," she said with a little sigh—"not +wise."</p> + +<p>"I beg your pardon, Lady Randolph," Mr. Rushton<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_143" id="Page_143">[Pg 143]</a></span> said precipitately, +with a blush upon his middle-aged countenance, for to be sure, when you +think of it, to tell a gracious young lady with a title, one of your +chief clients, that she is talking nonsense, even if you have known her +all her life, is going perhaps a little too far. "I am sure you will +understand <i>that</i> is what I meant," he cried, "unwise—the very word I +meant. In the heat of the moment other words slip out, but no offence +was intended."</p> + +<p>She made him a little bow; she was trembling, though she would not have +him see it. "We are not here," she said, "to criticise my father." Lucy +was scarcely half aware how much she had gained in composure and the art +of self-command. "I think he would have been more wise and more kind to +have done himself what he thought to be his duty; but what does that +matter? You must not try to convince me, please, but take the +directions, which are very simple. I have written them all down in this +paper. If you think you ought to make independent inquiries, you have +the right to do that; but you will spare the poor gentleman's feelings, +Mr. Rushton. It is all put down here."</p> + +<p>Mr. Rushton took the paper from her hand. He smiled inwardly to himself, +subduing his fret of impatience. "You will not object to let me talk it +over," he said, "first with Sir Tom?"</p> + +<p>Lucy coloured, and then she grew pale. "You will remember," she said, +"that it has nothing to do with my husband, Mr. Rushton."</p> + +<p>"My dear lady," said the lawyer, "I never expected to hear you, who I +have always known as the best of wives, say of anything that it has +nothing to do with your husband. Surely that is not how ladies speak of +their lords?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_144" id="Page_144">[Pg 144]</a></span></p> + +<p>Lucy heard a sound behind her which seemed to imply to her quick ear +that Jock was losing patience. She had brought him with her, with the +idea of deriving some support from his presence; but if Sir Tom had +nothing to do with it, clearly on much stronger grounds neither had her +brother. She turned round and cast a hurried warning glance at him. She +had herself no words ready to reply to the lawyer's gibe. She would +neither defend herself as from a grave accusation, nor reply in the same +tone. "Mr. Rushton," she said faltering, "I don't think we need argue, +need we? I have put down all the particulars. You know about it as well +as I do. It is not for pleasure. If you think it is right, you will +inquire about the gentleman—otherwise—I don't think there need be any +more to say."</p> + +<p>"I will talk it over with Sir Tom," said Mr. Rushton, feeling that he +had found the only argument by which to manage this young woman. He even +chuckled a little to himself at the thought. "Evidently," he said to +himself, "she is afraid of Sir Tom, and he knows nothing about this. He +will soon put a stop to it." He added aloud, "My dear Lady Randolph, +this is far too serious a matter to be dismissed so summarily. You are +young and very inexperienced. Of course I know all about it, and so does +Sir Thomas. We will talk it over between us, and no doubt we will manage +to decide upon some course that will harmonise everything."</p> + +<p>Lucy looked at him with grave suspicion. "I don't know," she said, "what +there is to be harmonised, Mr. Rushton. There is a thing which I have to +do, and I have shrunk from it for a long time; but I cannot do so any +longer."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_145" id="Page_145">[Pg 145]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Look here," said Jock, "it's Lucy's affair, it's nobody else's. Just +you look at her paper and do what she says."</p> + +<p>"My young friend," said the lawyer blandly, "that is capital advice for +yourself: I hope you always do what your sister says."</p> + +<p>"Most times I do," said Jock; "not that it's your business to tell me. +But you know very well you'll have to do it. No one has got any right to +interfere with her. She has more sense than a dozen. She has got the +right on her side. You may do what you please, but you know very well +you can't stop her—neither you, nor Sir Tom, nor the old lady, nor one +single living creature; and you know it," said Jock. He confronted Mr. +Rushton with lowering brows, and with an angry sparkle in his deep-set +eyes. Lucy was half proud of and half alarmed by her champion.</p> + +<p>"Oh hush, Jock!" she cried. "You must not speak; you are only a boy. You +must beg Mr. Rushton's pardon for speaking to him so. But, indeed, what +he says is quite true; it is no one's duty but mine. My husband will not +interfere with what he knows I must do," she said, with a little chill +of apprehension. Would he indeed be so considerate for her? It made her +heart sick to think that she was not on this point quite certain about +Sir Tom.</p> + +<p>"In that case there will be no harm in talking it over with him," said +the lawyer briefly. "I thought you were far too sensible not to see that +was the right way. Oh, never mind about his asking my pardon. I forgive +him without that. He has a high idea of his sister's authority, which is +quite right; and so have I—and so have all of us. Certainly, certainly, +Master Jock, she has the right; and she will arrange it judi<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_146" id="Page_146">[Pg 146]</a></span>ciously, of +that there is no fear. But first, as a couple of business men, more +experienced in the world than you young philanthropists, I will just, +the first time I see him, talk it over with Sir Tom. My dear Lady +Randolph, no trouble at all. Is that all I can do for you? Then I will +not detain you any longer this fine morning," the lawyer said.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XVI" id="CHAPTER_XVI"></a>CHAPTER XVI.</h2> + +<h3>AN UNEXPECTED ARRIVAL.</h3> + + +<p>They drove away again with scarcely a word to each other. It was a +bright, breezy, wintry day. The roads about Farafield were wet with +recent rains, and gleamed in the sunshine. The river was as blue as +steel, and gave forth a dazzling reflection; the bare trees stood up +against the sky without a pretence of affording any shadow. The cold to +these two young people, warmly dressed and prosperous, was nothing to +object to—indeed, it was not very cold. But they both had a slight +sense of discomfiture—a feeling of having suffered in their own +opinion. Jock, who was much regarded at school as a fellow high up, and +a great friend of his tutor, was not used to such unceremonious +treatment, and he was wroth to see that even Lucy was supposed to +require the sanction of Sir Tom for what it was clearly her own business +to do. He said nothing, however, until they had quite cleared the town, +and were skimming along the more open country roads; then he said +suddenly—</p> + +<p>"That old Rushton has a great deal of cheek. I<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_147" id="Page_147">[Pg 147]</a></span> should have another +fellow to manage my affairs, Lucy, if I were you."</p> + +<p>"Don't you know, Jock, that I can't? Papa appointed him. He is my +trustee; he has always to be consulted. Papa did not mind," said Lucy +with a little sigh. "He said it would be good for me to be contradicted, +and not to have my own way."</p> + +<p>"Don't you have your own way?" said Jock, opening his eyes. "Lucy, who +contradicts you? I should like to know who it was, and tell him my mind +a bit. I thought you did whatever you pleased. Do you mean to say there +is any truth in all that about Sir Tom?"</p> + +<p>"In what about Sir Tom?" cried Lucy, instantly on her defence; and then +she changed her tone with a little laugh. "Of course I do whatever I +please. It is not good for anybody, Jock. Don't you know we must be +crossed sometimes, or we should never do any good at all?"</p> + +<p>"Now I wonder which she means?" said Jock. "If she does have her own way +or if she don't? I begin to think you speak something else than English, +Lucy. I know it is the thing to say that women must do what their +husbands tell them; but do you mean that it's true like <i>that</i>? and that +a fellow may order you to do this or not to do that, with what is your +own and not his at all?"</p> + +<p>"I don't think I understand you, dear," said Lucy sweetly.</p> + +<p>"Oh! you can't be such a stupid as that," said the boy; "you understand +right enough. What did he mean by talking it over with Sir Tom? He +thought Sir Tom would put a stop to it, Lucy."</p> + +<p>"If Mr. Rushton forms such false ideas, dear, what<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_148" id="Page_148">[Pg 148]</a></span> does it matter? That +is not of any consequence either to you or me."</p> + +<p>"I wish you would give me a plain answer," said Jock, impatiently. "I +ask you one thing, and you say another; you never give me any +satisfaction."</p> + +<p>She smiled upon him with a look which, clever as Jock was, he did not +understand. "Isn't that conversation?" she said.</p> + +<p>"Conversation!" The boy repeated the word almost with a shriek of +disdain: "You don't know very much about that, down here in the country, +Lucy. You should hear MTutor; when he's got two or three fellows from +Cambridge with him, and they go at it! That's something like talk."</p> + +<p>"It is very nice for you, Jock, that you get on so well with Mr. +Derwentwater," said Lucy, catching with some eagerness at this way of +escape from embarrassing questions. "I hope he will come and see us at +Easter, as he promised."</p> + +<p>"He may," said Jock, with great gravity, "but the thing is, everybody +wants to have him; and then, you see, whenever he has an opportunity he +likes to go abroad. He says it freshens one up more than anything. After +working his brain all the half, as he does, and taking the interest he +does in everything, he has got to pay attention, you know, and not to +overdo it; he must have change, and he must have rest."</p> + +<p>Lucy was much impressed by this, as she was by all she heard of MTutor. +She was quite satisfied that such immense intellectual exertions as his +did indeed merit compensation. She said, "I am sure he would get rest +with us, Jock. There would be nothing to tire him, and whatever I could +do for him, dear, or Sir Tom either, we should be glad, as he is so good +to you."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_149" id="Page_149">[Pg 149]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I don't know that he's what you call fond of the country—I mean the +English country. Of course it is different abroad," said Jock +doubtfully. Then he came back to the original subject with a bound, +scattering all Lucy's hopes. "But we didn't begin about MTutor. It was +the other business we were talking of. Is it true that Sir Tom——"</p> + +<p>"Jock," said Lucy seriously. Her mild eyes got a look he had never seen +in them before. It was a sort of dilation of unshed tears, and yet they +were not wet. "If you know any time when Sir Tom was ever unkind or +untrue, I don't know it. He has always, always been good. I don't think +he will change now. I have always done what he told me, and I always +will. But he never told me anything. He knows a great deal better than +all of us put together. Of course, to obey him, that is my first duty. +And I always shall. But he never asks it—he is too good. What is his +will, is my will," she said. She fixed her eyes very seriously on Jock, +all the time she spoke, and he followed every movement of her lips with +a sort of astonished confusion, which it is difficult to describe. When +she had ceased Jock drew a long breath, and seemed to come to the +surface again, after much tossing in darker waters.</p> + +<p>"I think that it must be true," he said slowly, after a pause, "as +people say—that women are very queer, Lucy. I didn't understand one +word you said."</p> + +<p>"Didn't you, then?" she said, with a smile of gentle benignity; "but +what does it matter, when it will all come right in the end? Is that our +omnibus, Jock, that is going along with all that luggage? How curious +that is, for nobody was coming to-day that I know of. Don't you see it +just turning in to the avenue? Now<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_150" id="Page_150">[Pg 150]</a></span> that is very strange indeed," said +Lucy, raising herself very erect upon her cushions with a little +quickened and eager look. An arrival is always exciting in the country, +and an arrival which was quite unexpected, and of which she could form +no surmise as to who it could be, stirred up all her faculties. "I +wonder if Mrs. Freshwater will know what rooms are best?" she said, "and +if Sir Tom will be at home to receive them; or perhaps it may be some +friends of Aunt Randolph's, or perhaps—I wonder very much who it can +be."</p> + +<p>Jock's countenance covered itself quickly with a tinge of gloom.</p> + +<p>"Whoever it is, I know it will be disgusting," cried the boy. "Just when +we have got so much to talk about! and now I shall never see you any +more. Lady Randolph was bad enough, and now here's more of them! I +should just as soon go back to school at once," he said, with premature +indignation. The servants on the box perceived the other carriage in +advance with equal curiosity and excitement. They were still more +startled, perhaps, for a profound wonder as to what horses had been sent +out, and who was driving them, agitated their minds. The horses, +solicited by a private token between them and their driver which both +understood, quickened their pace with a slight dash, and the carriage +swept along as if in pursuit of the larger and heavier vehicle, which, +however, had so much the advance of them, that it had deposited its +passengers, and turned round to the servants' entrance with the luggage, +before Lady Randolph could reach the door. Williams the butler wore a +startled look upon his dignified countenance, as he came out on the +steps to receive his mistress.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_151" id="Page_151">[Pg 151]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Some one has arrived," said Lucy with a little eagerness. "We saw the +omnibus."</p> + +<p>"Yes, my lady. A telegram came for Sir Thomas soon after your ladyship +left; there was just time to put in the horses——"</p> + +<p>"But who is it, Williams?"</p> + +<p>Williams had a curious apologetic air. "I heard say, my lady, that it +was some of the party that were invited before Mr. Randolph fell ill. +There had been a mistake about the letters, and the lady has come all +the same—a lady with a foreign title, my lady——"</p> + +<p>"Oh!" said Lucy, with English brevity. She stood startled, in the hall, +lingering a little, changing colour, not with any of the deep emotions +which Williams from his own superior knowledge suspected, but with +shyness and excitement. "It will be the lady from Italy, the +Contessa—— Oh, I hope they have attended to her properly! Was Sir +Thomas at home when she came?"</p> + +<p>"Sir Thomas, my lady, went to meet them at the station," Williams said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, that is all right," cried Lucy, relieved. "I am so glad she did not +arrive and find nobody. And I hope Mrs. Freshwater——"</p> + +<p>"Mrs. Freshwater put the party into the east wing, my lady. There are +two ladies besides the man and the maid. We thought it would be the +warmest for them, as they came from the South."</p> + +<p>"It may be the warmest, but it is not the prettiest," said Lucy. "The +lady is a great friend of Sir Thomas', Williams."</p> + +<p>The man gave her a curious look.</p> + +<p>"Yes, my lady, I was aware of that," he said.</p> + +<p>This surprised Lucy a little, but for the moment<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_152" id="Page_152">[Pg 152]</a></span> she took no notice of +it. "And therefore," she went on, "the best rooms should have been got +ready. Mrs. Freshwater ought to have known that. However, perhaps she +will change afterwards. Jock, I will just run upstairs and see that +everything is right."</p> + +<p>As she turned towards the great staircase, so saying, she ran almost +into her husband's arms. Sir Tom had appeared from a side door, where he +had been on the watch, and it was certain that his face bore some traces +of the new event that had happened. He was not at his ease as usual. He +laughed a little uncomfortable laugh, and put his hand on Lucy's +shoulder as she brushed against him. "There," he said, "that will do; +don't be in such a hurry," arresting her in full career.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom!" Lucy for her part looked at her husband with the greatest +relief and happiness. There had been a cloud between them which had been +more grievous to her than anything else in the world. She had felt +hourly compelled to stand up before him and tell him that she must do +what he desired her not to do. The consternation and pain and wrath that +had risen over his face after that painful interview had not passed away +through all the intervening time. There had been a sort of desperation +in her mind when she went to Mr. Rushton, a feeling that she so hated +the duty which had risen like a ghost between her husband and herself, +that she must do it at all hazards and without delay. But this cloud had +now departed from Sir Tom's countenance. There was a little suffusion of +colour upon it which was unusual to him. Had it been anybody but Sir +Tom, it would have looked like embarrassment, shyness mingled with a +certain self-ridicule and sense of the ludicrous in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_153" id="Page_153">[Pg 153]</a></span> position +altogether. He caught his wife in his arms and met her eyes with a +certain laughing shamefacedness, "Don't," he said, "be in such a hurry, +Lucy. <i>Ces dames</i> have gone to their rooms; they have been travelling +all night, and they are not fit to be seen. It is only silly little +English girls like you that can bear to be looked at at all times and +seasons." And with this he stooped over her and gave her a kiss on her +forehead, to Lucy's delight, yet horror—before Williams, who looked on +approving, and the footman with the traps, and Jock and all! But what a +load it took off her breast! He was not any longer vexed or disturbed or +angry. He was indeed conciliatory and apologetic, but Lucy only saw that +he was kind.</p> + +<p>"Poor lady," cried Lucy, "has she been travelling all night? And I am so +sorry she has been put into the east wing. If I had been at home I +should have said the blue rooms, Tom, which you know are the nicest——"</p> + +<p>"I think they are quite comfortable, my dear," said Sir Tom, with his +usual laugh, which was half-mocking half-serious, "you may be sure they +will ask for anything they want. They are quite accustomed to making +themselves at home."</p> + +<p>"Oh, I hope so, Tom," said Lucy, "but don't you think it would be more +polite, more respectful, if I were to go and ask if they have +everything? Mrs. Freshwater is very well you know, Tom, but the mistress +of the house——"</p> + +<p>He gave her another little hug, and laughed again. "No," he said, "you +may be sure Madame Forno-Populo is not going to let you see her till she +has repaired all ravages. It was extremely indiscreet of me to go to the +station," he continued, still with that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_154" id="Page_154">[Pg 154]</a></span> chuckle, leading Lucy away. "I +had forgotten all these precautions after a few years of you, Lucy. I +was received with a shriek of horror and a double veil."</p> + +<p>Lucy looked at him with great surprise, asking: "Why? wasn't she glad to +see you?" with incipient indignation and a sense of grievance.</p> + +<p>"Not at all," cried Sir Tom, "indeed I heard her mutter something about +English savagery. The Contessa expresses herself strongly sometimes. +Freshwater and the maid, and the excellent breakfast Williams has +ordered, knowing her ways——"</p> + +<p>"Does Williams know her ways?" asked Lucy, wondering. There was not the +faintest gleam of suspicion in her mind; but she was surprised, and her +husband bit his lip for a moment, yet laughed still.</p> + +<p>"He knows those sort of people," he said. "I was very much about in +society at one time you must know, Lucy, though I am such a steady old +fellow now. We knew something of most countries in these days. We were +<i>bien vu</i>, he and I, in various places. Don't tell Mrs. Williams, my +love." He laughed almost violently at this mild joke, and Lucy looked +surprised. But still no shadow came upon her simple countenance. Lucy +was like Desdemona, and did not believe that there were such women. She +thought it was "fun," such fun as she sometimes saw in the newspapers, +and considered as vulgar as it was foolish. Such words could not be used +in respect to anything Sir Tom said, but even in her husband it was not +good taste, Lucy thought. She smiled at the reference to Mrs. Williams +with a kind of quiet disdain, but it never occurred to her that she too +might require to be kept in the dark.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_155" id="Page_155">[Pg 155]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I dare say most of what you are talking is nonsense," she said; "but if +Madame Forno——"—Lucy was not very sure of the name, and +hesitated—"is really very tired, perhaps it may be kindness not to +disturb her. I hope she will go to bed, and get a thorough rest. Did she +not get your second letter, Tom? and what a thing it is that dear baby +is so much better, and that we can really pay a little attention to +her."</p> + +<p>"Either she did not get my letter, or I didn't write, I cannot say which +it was, Lucy. But now we have got her we must pay attention to her, as +you say. You will have to get up a few dinner parties, and ask some +people to stay. She will like to see the humours of the wilderness while +she is in it."</p> + +<p>"The wilderness—but, Tom, everybody says society is so good in the +county."</p> + +<p>"Everybody does not know the Forno-Populo," cried Sir Tom; and then he +burst out into a great laugh. "I wonder what her Grace will say to the +Contessa; they have met before now."</p> + +<p>"Must we ask the Duchess?" cried Lucy, with awe and alarm, coming a +little nearer to her husband's side.</p> + +<p>But Sir Tom did nothing but laugh. "I've seen a few passages of arms," +he said. "By Jove, you don't know what war is till you see two —— at +it tooth and nail. Two—what, Lucy? Oh, I mean fine ladies; they have no +mercy. Her Grace will set her claws into the fair countess. And as for +the Forno-Populo herself——"</p> + +<p>"Dear Tom" said Lucy with gentle gravity, "Is it nice to speak of ladies +so? If any one called me the Randolph, I should be, oh, so——"</p> + +<p>"You," cried her husband with a hot and angry<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_156" id="Page_156">[Pg 156]</a></span> colour rising to his very +hair, and then he perceived that he was betraying himself, and paused. +"You see, my love, that's different," he said. "Madame di Forno-Populo +is—an old stager: and you are very young, and nobody ever thought of +you but with—reverence, my dear. Yes, that's the word, Lucy, though you +are only a bit of a girl."</p> + +<p>"Tom," said Lucy with great dignity, "I have you to take care of me, and +I have never been known in the world. But, dear, if this poor lady has +no one—and I suppose she is a widow, is she not, Tom?"</p> + +<p>He had been listening to her almost with emotion—with a half-abashed +look, full of fondness and admiration. But at this question he drew back +a little, with a sort of stagger, and burst into a wild fit of laughter. +When he came to himself wiping his eyes, he was, there could be no +doubt, ashamed of himself. "I beg you ten thousand pardons," he cried. +"Lucy, my darling! Yes, yes—I suppose she is a widow, as you say."</p> + +<p>Lucy looked at him while he laughed, with profound gravity, without the +slightest inclination to join in his merriment, which is a thing which +has a very uncomfortable effect. She waited till he was done, with a +mixture of wonder and disapproval in her seriousness, looking at his +laughter as if at some phenomenon which she did not understand. "I have +often heard gentlemen," she said, "talk about widows as if it were a +sort of laughable name, and as if they might make their jokes as they +pleased. But I did not think you would have done it, Tom. I should feel +all the other way," said Lucy. "I should think I could never do enough +to make it up, if that were possible, and to make them forget. Is it +their fault that they are left desolate, that a man should laugh?" She +turned away from her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_157" id="Page_157">[Pg 157]</a></span> husband with a soft superiority of innocence and +true feeling which struck him dumb.</p> + +<p>He begged her pardon in the most abject way; and then he left her for a +moment quietly, and had his laugh out. But he was ashamed of himself all +the same. "I wonder what she will say when she sees the Forno-Populo," +he said to himself.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XVII" id="CHAPTER_XVII"></a>CHAPTER XVII.</h2> + +<h3>FOREWARNED.</h3> + + +<p>Lucy did not see her visitors till the hour of dinner. She had expected +them to appear in the afternoon at the mystic hour of tea, which calls +an English household together, but when it was represented to her that +afternoon tea was not the same interesting institution in Italy, her +surprise ceased, and though her expectations were still more warmly +excited by this delay, she bore it with becoming patience. There was no +doubt, however, that the arrival had made a great commotion in the +house, and Lucy perceived without in the least understanding it, a +peculiarity in the looks which various of the people around her cast +upon her during the course of the day. Her own maid was one of these +people, and Mrs. Freshwater, the housekeeper, who explained in a +semi-apologetic tone all the preparations she had made for the comfort +of the guests, was another. And Williams, though he was always so +dignified, thought Lucy could not help feeling an eye upon her. He was +almost compassionately attentive to his young mistress. There was a +certain pathos in the way in which he<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_158" id="Page_158">[Pg 158]</a></span> handed her the potatoes at lunch. +He pressed a little more claret upon her with a fatherly anxiety, and an +air that seemed to say, "It will do you good." Lucy was conscious of all +this additional attention without realising the cause of it. But it +found its culmination in Lady Randolph, in whom a slightly-injured and +aggrieved air towards Sir Tom was enhanced by the extreme tenderness of +her aspect to Lucy, for whom she could not do too much. "Williams is +quite right in giving you a little more wine. You take nothing," she +said, "and I am sure you want support. After your long drive, too, my +dear: and how cold it has been this morning!"</p> + +<p>"Yes, it was cold; but we did not mind, we rather liked it, Jock and I. +Poor Madame di Forno-Populo! She must have felt it travelling all +night."</p> + +<p>"Bravo, Lucy, that is right! you have tackled the name at last, and got +through with it beautifully," said Sir Tom with a laugh.</p> + +<p>Lucy was pleased to be praised. "I hope I shan't forget," she said, "it +is so long: and oh, Tom, I do hope she can talk English, for you know my +French."</p> + +<p>"I should think she could talk English!" said Lady Randolph, with a +little scorn. And what was very extraordinary was that Williams showed a +distinct but suppressed consciousness, putting his lips tight as if to +keep in what he knew about the matter. "And I don't think you need be so +sorry for the lady, Lucy," said the dowager. "No doubt she didn't mean +to travel by night. It arose from some mistake or other in Tom's letter. +But she does not mind that, you may be sure, now that she has made out +her point."</p> + +<p>"What point?" said Sir Tom, with some heat. But Lady Randolph made no +reply, and he did not<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_159" id="Page_159">[Pg 159]</a></span> press the question. They were both aware that it +is sometimes better to hold one's tongue. And the curious thing to all +of those well-informed persons was that Lucy took no notice of all their +hints and innuendoes. She was in the greatest spirits, not only +interested about her unknown visitors and anxious to secure their +comfort, but in herself more gay than she had been for some time past. +In fact this arrival was a godsend to Lucy. The cloud had disappeared +entirely from her husband's brow. Instead of making any inquiries about +her visit to Farafield, or resuming the agitating discussion which had +ended in what was really a refusal on her part to do what he wished, he +was full of a desire to conciliate and please her. The matter which had +brought so stern a look to his face, and occasioned her an anxiety and +pain far more severe than anything that had occurred before in her +married life, seemed to have dropped out of his mind altogether. Instead +of that opposition and disapproval, mingled with angry suspicion, which +had been in his manner and looks, he was now on the watch to propitiate +Lucy; to show a gratitude for which she knew no reason, and a pride in +her which was still less comprehensible. What did it all mean, the +compassion on one side, the satisfaction on the other? But Lucy scarcely +asked herself the question. In her relief at having no new discussion +with her husband, and at his apparent forgetfulness of all displeasure +and of any question between them, her heart rose with all the glee of a +child's. It seemed to her that she had surmounted the difficulties of +her position by an intervention which was providential. It even occurred +to her innocent mind to make reflections as to the advantage of doing +what was right in the face of all difficulties. God, she said to +herself<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_160" id="Page_160">[Pg 160]</a></span>, evidently was protecting her. It was known in heaven what an +effort it had cost her to do her duty to fulfil her father's will, and +now heavenly succour was coming, and the difficulties disappearing out +of her way. Lucy would have been ready in any case with the most +unhesitating readiness to receive and do any kindness to her husband's +friend. No idea of jealousy had come into her unsuspicious soul. She had +taken it as a matter of course that this unknown lady should have the +best that the Hall could offer her, and that her old alliance with Sir +Tom should throw open his doors and his wife's heart. Perhaps it was +because Lucy's warm and simple-minded attachment to her husband had +little in it of the character of passion that it was thus entirely +without any impulse of jealousy. And what was so natural in common +circumstances became still more so in the exhilaration and rebound of +her troubled heart. Sir Tom was so kind to her in departing from his +opposition, in letting her have her way without a word. It was certain +that Lucy would not have relinquished her duty for any opposition he had +made. But with what a bleeding heart she would have done it, and how +hateful would have been the necessity which separated her from his +goodwill and assistance! Now she felt that terrible danger was over. +Probably he would not ask her what she had been about. He would not give +it his approval, which would have been most sweet of all, but if he did +not interfere, if he permitted it to be done without opposition, without +even demanding of his wife an account of her action, how much that would +be, and how cordially, with what a genuine impulse of the heart would +she set to work to carry out his wishes—he who had been so generous, so +kind to her! This was how it<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_161" id="Page_161">[Pg 161]</a></span> was that her gaiety, the ease and +happiness of her look, startled them all so much. That she should have +been amiable to the new comers was comprehensible. She was so amiable by +nature, and so ignorant and unsuspicious: but that their coming should +give her pleasure, this was the thing that confounded the spectators: +they could not understand how any other subject should withdraw her from +what is supposed to be a wife's master emotion—nay, they could not +understand how it was that mere instinct had not enlightened Lucy, and +pointed out to her what elements were coming together that would be +obnoxious to her peace. Even Sir Tom felt this, with a deepened +tenderness for his pure-minded little wife, and pride in her +unconsciousness. Was there another woman in England who would have been +so entirely generous, so unaware even of the possibility of evil? He +admired her for it, and wondered—if it was a little silly (which he had +a kind of undisclosed suspicion that it was), yet what a heavenly +silliness. There was nobody else who would have been so magnanimous, so +confident in his perfect honour and truth.</p> + +<p>The only other element that could have added to Lucy's satisfaction was +also present. Little Tom was better than usual. Notwithstanding the cold +he had been able to go out, and was all the brighter for it, not chilled +and coughing as he sometimes was. His mother had found him careering +about his nursery in wild glee, and flinging his toys about, in +perfectly boyish, almost mannish, altogether wicked, indifference to the +danger of destroying them. It was this that brought her downstairs +radiant to the luncheon table, where Lady Randolph and Williams were so +anxious to be good to her. Lucy was much surprised by the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_162" id="Page_162">[Pg 162]</a></span> solicitude +which she felt to be so unnecessary. She was disposed to laugh at the +care they took of her; feeling in her own mind, more triumphant, more +happy and fortunate, than she had ever been before.</p> + +<p>As for Jock, he took no notice at all of the incident of the day. He +perceived with satisfaction, a point on which for the moment he was +unusually observant, that Sir Tom showed no intention of questioning +them as to their morning's expedition or opposing Lucy. This being the +case, what was it to the boy who went or came? A couple of ladies were +quite indifferent to him. He did not expect anything or fear anything. +His own doings interested him much more. The conversation about this new +subject floated over his head. He did not take the trouble to pay any +attention to it. As for Williams' significant looks or Lady Randolph's +anxieties, Jock was totally unconscious of their existence. He did not +pay any attention. When the party was not interesting he had plenty of +other thoughts to retire into, and the coming of new people, except in +so far as it might be a bore, did not affect him at all.</p> + +<p>Lucy went out dutifully for a drive with Lady Randolph after luncheon. +It was still very bright, though it was cold, and after a little demur +as to the propriety of going out when it was possible her guests might +be coming downstairs, Lucy took her place beside the fur-enveloped +Dowager with her hot water footstool and mountain of wrappings. They +talked about ordinary matters for a little, about the landscape and the +improvements, and about little Tom, whose improvement was the most +important of all. But it was not possible to continue long upon +indifferent matters in face of the remarkable events which had disturbed +the family calm.</p> + +<p>"I hope," said Lucy, "that Madame di Forno<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_163" id="Page_163">[Pg 163]</a></span>-Populo" (she was very +careful about all the syllables) "may not be more active than you think, +and come down while we are away."</p> + +<p>"Oh, there is not the least fear," said Lady Randolph, somewhat +scornfully. "She was always a candle-light beauty. She is not very fond +of the eye of day."</p> + +<p>"She is a beauty, then?" said Lucy. "I am very glad. There are so few. +You know I have always been—rather—disappointed. There are many pretty +people: but to be beautiful is quite different."</p> + +<p>"That is because you are so unsophisticated, my dear. You don't +understand that beauty in society means a fashion, and not much more. I +have seen a quantity of beauties in my day. How they came to be so, +nobody knew; but there they were, and we all bowed down to them. This +woman, however, was very pretty, there was no doubt about it," said Lady +Randolph, with reluctant candour. "I don't know what she may be now. She +was enough to turn any man's head when she was young—or even a +woman's—who ought to have known better."</p> + +<p>"Do you think then, Aunt Randolph, that women don't admire pretty +people?" It is to be feared that Lucy asked for the sake of making +conversation, which it is sometimes necessary to do.</p> + +<p>"I think that men and women see differently—as they always do," said +Lady Randolph. She was rather fond of discriminating between the ideas +of the sexes, as many ladies of a reasonable age are. "There is a +gentleman's beauty, you know, and there is a kind of beauty that women +love. I could point out the difference to you better if the specimens +were before us; but it is a little difficult to describe. I rather +think<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_164" id="Page_164">[Pg 164]</a></span> we admire expression, you know. What men care for is flesh and +blood. We like people that are good—that is to say, who have the air of +being good, for the reality doesn't by any means follow. Perhaps I am +taking too much credit to ourselves," said the old lady, "but that is +the best description I can hit upon. We like the interesting kind—the +pensive kind—which was the fashion when I was young. Your great, fat, +golden-haired, red and white women are gentlemen's beauties; they don't +commend themselves to us."</p> + +<p>"And is Madame di Forno-Populo," said Lucy, in her usual elaborate way, +"of that kind?"</p> + +<p>"Oh! my dear, she is just a witch," Lady Randolph said. "It does not +matter who it is, she can bring them to her feet if she pleases!" Then +she seemed to think she had gone too far, and stopped herself: "I mean +when she was young; she is young no longer, and I dare say all that has +come to an end."</p> + +<p>"It must be sad to grow old when one is like that," said Lucy, with a +look of sympathetic regret.</p> + +<p>"Oh, you are a great deal too charitable, Lucy!" said the old lady: and +then she stopped short, putting a sudden restraint upon herself, as if +it were possible that she might have said too much; then after a while +she resumed: "As you are in such a heavenly frame of mind, my dear, and +disposed to think so well of her, there is just one word of advice I +will give you—don't allow yourself to get intimate with this lady. She +is quite out of your way. If she liked, she could turn you round her +little finger. But it is to be hoped she will not like; and, in any +case, you must remember that I have warned you. Don't let her, my dear, +make a catspaw of you."</p> + +<p>"A catspaw of me!" Lucy was amused by these<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_165" id="Page_165">[Pg 165]</a></span> words—not offended, as so +many might have been—perhaps because she felt herself little likely to +be so dominated; a fact that the much older and more experienced woman +by her side was quite unaware of. "But," she said, "Tom would not have +invited her, Aunt Randolph, if he had thought her likely to do +that—indeed, how could he have been such great friends with her if she +had not been nice as well as pretty? You forget there must always be +that in her favour to me."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom!" cried Lady Randolph with indignation. "My dear Lucy," she +added after a pause, with subdued exasperation, "men are the most +unaccountable creatures! Knowing him as I do, I should have thought she +was the very last person—but how can we tell? I dare say the idea +amused him. Tom will do anything that amuses him—or tickles his vanity. +I confess it is as you say, very, very difficult to account for it; but +he has done it. He wants to show off a little to her, I suppose; or else +he—— There is really no telling, Lucy. It is the last thing in the +world I should have thought of; and you may be quite sure, my dear," she +added with emphasis, "she never would have been invited at all if he had +expected me to be here when she came."</p> + +<p>Lucy did not make any answer for some time. Her face, which had kept its +gaiety and radiance, grew grave, and when they had driven back towards +the hall for about ten minutes in silence, she said quietly "You do not +mean it, I am sure; but do you know, Aunt Randolph, you are trying to +make me think very badly of my husband; and no one has ever done that +before."</p> + +<p>"Oh, your husband is just like other people's hus<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_166" id="Page_166">[Pg 166]</a></span>bands, Lucy," cried +the elder lady impatiently. Then, however, she subdued herself, with an +anxious look at her companion. "My dear, you know how fond I am of Tom: +and I know he is fond of you; he would not do anything to harm you for +the world. I suppose it is because he has such a prodigious confidence +in you that he thinks it does not matter; and I don't suppose it does +matter. The only thing is, don't be over intimate with her, Lucy; don't +let her fix herself upon you when you go to town, and talk about young +Lady Randolph as her dearest friend. She is quite capable of doing it. +And as for Tom—well, he is just a man when all is said."</p> + +<p>Lucy did not ask any more questions. That she was greatly perplexed +there is no doubt, and her first fervour of affectionate interest in +Tom's friend was slightly damped, or at least changed. But she was more +curious than ever; and there was in her mind the natural contradiction +of youth against the warnings addressed to her. Lucy knew very well that +she herself was not one to be twisted round anybody's little finger. She +was not afraid of being subjugated; and she had a prejudice in favour of +her husband which neither Lady Randolph nor any other witness could +impair. The drive home was more silent than the outset. Naturally, the +cold increased as the afternoon went on, and the Dowager shrunk into her +furs, and declared that she was too much chilled to talk. "Oh how +pleasant a cup of tea will be," she said.</p> + +<p>Lucy longed for her part to get down from the carriage and walk home +through the village, to see all the cottage fires burning, and quicken +the blood in her veins, which is a better way than fur for keeping one's +self warm. When they got in, it was exciting<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_167" id="Page_167">[Pg 167]</a></span> to think that perhaps the +stranger was coming down to tea; though that, as has been already said, +was a hope in which Lucy was disappointed. Everything was prepared for +her reception, however—a sort of throne had been arranged for her, a +special chair near the fire, shaded by a little screen, and with a +little table placed close to it to hold her cup of tea. The room was all +in a ruddy blaze of firelight, the atmosphere delightful after the cold +air outside, and all the little party a little quiet, thinking that +every sound that was heard must be the stranger.</p> + +<p>"She must have been very tired," Lucy said sympathetically.</p> + +<p>"I dare say," said Lady Randolph, "she thinks a dinner dress will make a +better effect."</p> + +<p>Lucy looked towards her husband almost with indignation, with eyes that +asked why he did not defend his friend. But, to be sure, Sir Tom could +not judge of their expression in the firelight, and instead of defending +her he only laughed. "One general understands another's tactics," he +said.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XVIII" id="CHAPTER_XVIII"></a>CHAPTER XVIII.</h2> + +<h3>THE VISITORS.</h3> + + +<p>Sir Tom paid his wife a visit when she was in the midst of her toilette +for dinner. He came in, and looked at her dress with an air of +dissatisfaction. It was a white dress, of a kind which suited Lucy very +well, and which she was in the habit of wearing for small home parties, +at which full dress was unneces<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_168" id="Page_168">[Pg 168]</a></span>sary. He looked at her from head to +foot, and gave a little pull to her skirt with a doubtful air. "It +doesn't sit, does it?" he said; "can't you pin it, or something, to make +it come better?"</p> + +<p>This, it need not be said, was a foolish piece of ignorance on Sir Tom's +part, and as Miss Fletcher, Lucy's maid, thought, "just like a man." +Fletcher was for the moment not well-disposed towards Sir Tom. She +said—"Oh no, Sir Thomas, my lady don't hold with pins. Some ladies may +that are all for effect; but my lady, that is not her way."</p> + +<p>Sir Tom felt that these words inclosed a dart as sharp as any pin, and +directed at himself; but he took no notice. He walked round his wife, +eyeing her on every side; and then he gave a little pull to her hair as +he had done to her dress. "After all," he said, "it is some time since +you left school, Lucy. Why this simplicity? I want you to look your best +to-night."</p> + +<p>"But, dear Tom," said Lucy, "you always say that I am not to be +over-dressed."</p> + +<p>"I don't want you to be under-dressed; there is plenty of time. Don't +you think you might do a little more in the way of toilette? Put on some +lace or something; Fletcher will know. Look here, Fletcher, I want Lady +Randolph to look very well to-night. Don't you think this get-up would +stand improvement? I dare say you could do it with ribbons, or +something. We must not have her look like my grandchild, you know."</p> + +<p>Upon which Fletcher, somewhat mollified and murmuring that Sir Thomas +was a gentleman that would always have his joke, answered boldly that +<i>that</i> was not how she would have dressed her lady had she had the doing +of it. "But I know my place," Fletcher said,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_169" id="Page_169">[Pg 169]</a></span> "though to see my lady +like this always goes against me, Sir Thomas, and especially with +foreigners in the house that are always dressed up to the nines and +don't think of nothing else. But if Lady Randolph would wear her blue it +could all be done in five minutes, and look far nicer and more like the +lady of the house."</p> + +<p>This transfer was finally made, for Lucy had no small obstinacies and +was glad to please her husband. The "blue" was of the lightest tint of +shimmering silk, and gave a little background of colour, upon which +Lucy's fairness and whiteness stood out. Sir Thomas always took an +interest in his wife's dress; but it was seldom he occupied himself so +much about it. It was he who went to the conservatory to get a flower +for her hair. He took her downstairs upon his arm "as if they were out +visiting," Lucy said, instead of at home in their own house. She was +amused at all this form and ceremony, and came down to the drawing-room +with a little flush of pleasure and merriment about her, quite different +from the demure little Lady Randolph, half frightened and very serious, +with the weight on her mind of a strange language to be spoken, who but +for Sir Tom's intervention would have been standing by the fire awaiting +her visitor. The Dowager was downstairs before her, looking grave +enough, and Jock, slim and dark, supporting a corner of the mantelpiece, +like a young Caryatides in black. Lucy's brightness, her pretty shimmer +of blue, the flower in her hair, relieved these depressing influences. +She stood in the firelight with the ruddy irregular glare playing on +her, a pretty youthful figure; and her husband's assiduities, and the +entire cessation of any apparent consciousness on his part that any +question had ever arisen between them, made Lucy's heart light<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_170" id="Page_170">[Pg 170]</a></span> in her +breast. She forgot even the possibility of having to talk French in the +ease of her mind; and before she had time to remember her former alarm +there came gliding through the subdued light of the greater drawing-room +two figures. Sir Tom stepped forward to meet the stranger, who gave him +her hand as if she saw him for the first time, and Lucy advanced with a +little tremor. Here was the Contessa—the Forno-Populo—the foreign +great lady and great beauty at last.</p> + +<p>She was tall—almost as tall as Sir Tom—and had the majestic grace +which only height can give. She was clothed in dark velvet, which fell +in long folds to her feet, and her hair, which seemed very abundant, was +much dressed with puffs and curlings and frizzings, which filled Lucy +with wonder, but furnished a delicate frame-work for her beautiful, +clear, high features, and the wonderful tint of her complexion—a sort +of warm ivory, which made all brighter colours look excessive. Her eyes +were large and blue, with long but not very dark eyelashes; her throat +was like a slender column out of a close circle of feathery lace. Lucy, +who had a great deal of natural taste, felt on the moment a thrill of +shame on account of her blue gown, and an almost disgust of Lady +Randolph's old-fashioned openness about the shoulders. The stranger was +one of those women whose dress always impresses other women with such a +sense of fitness that fashion itself looks vulgar or insipid beside her. +She gave Sir Tom her left hand in passing, and then she turned with both +extended to Lucy. "So this is the little wife," she said. She did not +pause for the modest little word of welcome which Lucy had prepared. She +drew her into the light, and gazed at her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_171" id="Page_171">[Pg 171]</a></span> with benignant but dauntless +inspection, taking in, Lucy felt sure, every particular of her +appearance—the something too much of the blue gown, the deficiency of +dignity, the insignificance of the smooth fair locks, and open if +somewhat anxious countenance. "<i>Bel enfant</i>," said the Contessa, "your +husband and I are such old friends that I cannot meet you as a stranger. +You must let me kiss you, and accept me as one of yours too." The +salutation that followed made Lucy's heart jump with mingled pleasure +and distaste. She was swallowed up altogether in that embrace. When it +was over, the lady turned from her to Sir Tom without another word. "I +congratulate you, <i>mon ami</i>. Candour itself, and sweetness, and every +English quality"—upon which she proceeded to seat herself in the chair +which Lucy had set for her in the afternoon with the screen and the +footstool. "How thoughtful some one has been for my comfort," she said, +sinking into it, and distributing a gracious smile all round. There was +something in the way in which she seized the central place in the scene, +and made all the others look like surroundings which bewildered Lucy, +who did nothing but gaze, forgetting everything she meant to say, and +even that it was she who was the mistress of the house.</p> + +<p>"You do not see my aunt, Contessa," said Sir Tom, "and yet I think you +ought to know each other."</p> + +<p>"Your aunt," said the Contessa, looking round, "that dear Lady +Randolph—who is now Dowager. Chère dame!" she added, half rising, +holding out again both hands.</p> + +<p>Lady Randolph the elder knew the world better than Lucy. She remained in +the background into which the Contessa was looking with eyes which she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_172" id="Page_172">[Pg 172]</a></span> +called shortsighted. "How do you do, Madame di Forno-Populo!" she said. +"It is a long time since we met. We have both grown older since that +period. I hope you have recovered from your fatigue."</p> + +<p>The Contessa sank back again into her chair. "Ah, <i>both</i>, yes!" she +said, with an eloquent movement of her hands. At this Sir Tom gave vent +to a faint chuckle, as if he could not contain himself any longer.</p> + +<p>"The passage of time is a myth," he said; "it is a fable; it goes the +other way. To look at you——"</p> + +<p>"Both!" said the Contessa, with a soft, little laugh, spreading out her +beautiful hands.</p> + +<p>Lucy hoped that Lady Randolph, who had kept behind, did not hear this +last monosyllable, but she was angry with her husband for laughing, for +abandoning his aunt's side, upon which she herself, astonished, ranged +herself without delay. But what was still more surprising to Lucy, with +her old-fashioned politeness, was to see the second stranger who had +followed the Contessa into the room, but who had not been introduced or +noticed. She had the air of being very young—a dependent probably, and +looking for no attention—and with a little curtsey to the company, +withdrew to the other side of the table on which the lamp was standing. +Lucy had only time to see that there was a second figure, very slim and +slight, and that the light of the lamp seemed to reflect itself in the +soft oval of a youthful face as she passed behind it; but save for this +noiseless movement the young lady gave not the smallest sign of +existence, nor did any one notice her. And it was only when the summons +came to dinner, and when Lucy called forth the bashful Jock to offer his +awkward arm to Lady Randolph,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_173" id="Page_173">[Pg 173]</a></span> that the unannounced and unconsidered +guest came fully into sight.</p> + +<p>"There are no more gentlemen, and I think we must go in together," Lucy +said.</p> + +<p>"It is a great honour for me," said the girl. She had a very slight +foreign accent, but she was not in the least shy. She came forward at +once with the utmost composure. Though she was a stranger and a +dependent without a name, she was a great deal more at her ease than +Lucy was, who was the mistress of everything. Lucy for her part was +considerably embarrassed. She looked at the girl, who smiled at her, not +without a little air of encouragement and almost patronage in return.</p> + +<p>"I have not heard your name," Lucy at last prevailed upon herself to +say, as they went through the long drawing-room together. "It is very +stupid of me; but I was occupied with Madame di Forno-Populo——"</p> + +<p>"You could not hear it, for it was never mentioned," said the girl. "The +Contessa does not think it worth while. I am at present in the cocoon. +If I am pretty enough when I am quite grown up, then she will tell my +name——"</p> + +<p>"Pretty enough? But what does that matter? one does not talk of such +things," said the decorous little matron, startled and alarmed.</p> + +<p>"Oh, it means everything to me," said the anonymous. "It is doubtful +what I shall be. If I am only a little pretty I shall be sent home; but +if it should happen to me—ah! no such luck!—to be beautiful, then the +Contessa will introduce me, and everybody says I may go far—farther, +indeed, than even she has ever done. Where am I to sit? Beside you?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_174" id="Page_174">[Pg 174]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Here, please," said Lucy, trembling a little, and confounded by the +ease of this new actor on the scene, who spoke so frankly. She was +dressed in a little black frock up to her throat; her hair in great +shining bands coiled about her head, but not an ornament of any kind +about her. A little charity girl could not have been dressed more +plainly. But she showed no consciousness of this, nor, indeed, of +anything that was embarrassing. She looked round the table with a free +and fearless look. There was not about her any appearance of timidity, +even in respect to the Contessa. She included that lady in her +inspection as well as the others, and even made a momentary pause before +she sat down, to complete her survey. Lucy, who had on ordinary +occasions a great deal of gentle composure, and had sat with a Cabinet +Minister by her side without feeling afraid, was more disconcerted than +it would be easy to say by this young creature, of whom she did not know +the name. It was so small a party that a separate little conversation +with her neighbour was scarcely practicable, but the Contessa was +talking to Sir Tom with the confidential air of one who has a great deal +to say, and Lady Randolph on his other side was keeping a stern silence, +so that Lucy was glad to make a little attempt at her end of the table.</p> + +<p>"You must have had a very fatiguing journey?" she said. "Travelling by +night, when you are not used to it——"</p> + +<p>"But we are quite used to it," said the girl. "It is our usual way. By +land it is so much easier: and even at sea one goes to bed, and one is +at the other side before one knows."</p> + +<p>"Then you are a good sailor, I suppose——"</p> + +<p>"<i>Pas mal</i>," said the young lady. She began to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_175" id="Page_175">[Pg 175]</a></span> look at Jock, and to +turn round from time to time to the elder Lady Randolph, who sat on the +other side of her. "They are not dumb, are they?" she asked. "Not once +have I heard them speak. That is very English, so like what one reads in +books."</p> + +<p>"You speak English very well, Mademoiselle," said the Dowager suddenly.</p> + +<p>The girl turned round and examined her with a candid surprise. "I am so +glad you do," she said calmly: a little <i>mot</i> which brought the colour +to Lady Randolph's cheeks.</p> + +<p>"A pupil of the Contessa naturally knows a good many languages," she +said, "and would be little at a loss wherever she went. You have come +last from Florence, Rome, or perhaps some other capital. The Contessa +has friends everywhere—still."</p> + +<p>This last little syllable caught the Contessa's fine ear, though it was +not directed to her. She gave the Dowager a very gracious smile across +the table. "Still," she repeated, "everywhere! People are so kind. My +invitations are so many it was with difficulty I managed to accept that +of our excellent Tom. But I had made up my mind not to disappoint him +nor his dear young wife. I was not prepared for the pleasure of finding +your ladyship here."</p> + +<p>"How fortunate that you were able to manage it! I have been +complimenting Mademoiselle on her English. She does credit to her +instructors. Tell me, is this your first visit," Lady Randolph said, +turning to the young lady "to England?" Even in this innocent question +there was more than met the eye. The girl, however, had begun to make a +remark to Lucy, and thus evaded it in the most easy way.</p> + +<p>"I saw you come home soon after our arrival," she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_176" id="Page_176">[Pg 176]</a></span> said. "I was at my +window. You came with—Monsieur——" She cast a glance at Jock as she +spoke, with a smile in her eyes that was not without its effect. There +was a little provocation in it, which an older man would have known how +to answer. But Jock, in the awkwardness of his youth, blushed fiery red, +and turned away his gaze, which, indeed, had been dwelling upon her with +an absorbed but shy attention. The boy had never seen anything at all +like her before.</p> + +<p>"My brother," said Lucy, and the young lady gave him a beaming smile and +bow which made Jock's head turn round. He did not know how to reply to +it, whether he ought not to get up to answer her salutation; and being +so uncertain and abashed and excited, he did nothing at all, but gazed +again with an absorption which was not uncomplimentary. She gave him +from time to time a little encouraging glance.</p> + +<p>"That was what I thought. You drive out always at that early hour in +England, and always with—Monsieur?" The girl laughed now, looking at +him, so that Jock longed to say something witty and clever. Oh, why was +not MTutor here? He would have known the sort of thing to say.</p> + +<p>"Oh not, not always with Jock," Lucy answered, with honest +matter-of-fact. "He is still at school, and we have him only for the +holidays. Perhaps you don't know what that means?"</p> + +<p>"The holidays? yes, I know. Monsieur, no doubt, is at one of the great +schools that are nowhere but in England, where they stay till they are +men."</p> + +<p>"We stay," said Jock, making an almost convulsive effort, "till we are +nineteen. We like to stay as long as we can."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_177" id="Page_177">[Pg 177]</a></span></p> + +<p>"How innocent," said the girl with a pretty elderly look of superiority +and patronage; and then she burst into a laugh, which neither Lucy nor +Jock knew how to take, and turned back again in the twinkling of an eye +to Lady Randolph, who had relapsed into silence. "And you drive in the +afternoon," she said. "I have already made my observations. And the baby +in the middle, between. And Sir Tom always. He goes out and he goes in, +and one sees him continually. I already know all the habits of the +house."</p> + +<p>"You were not so very tired, then, after all. Why did you not come down +stairs and join us in what we were doing?"</p> + +<p>The young lady did not make any articulate reply, but her answer was +clear enough. She cast a glance across the table to the Contessa, and +laid her hand upon her own cheek. Lucy was a little mystified by this +pantomime, but to Lady Randolph there was no difficulty about it. "That +is easily understood," she said, "when one is <i>sur le retour</i>. But the +same precautions are not necessary with all."</p> + +<p>A smile came upon the girl's lip. "I am sympathetic," she said. "Oh, +troppo! I feel just like those that I am with. It is sometimes a +trouble, and sometimes it is an advantage." This was to Lucy like the +utterance of an oracle, and she understood it not.</p> + +<p>"Another time," she said kindly, "you must not only observe us from the +window, but come down and share what we are doing. Jock will show you +the park and the grounds, and I will take you to the village. It is +quite a pretty village, and the cottages are very nice now."</p> + +<p>The young stranger's eyes blazed with intelligence. She seemed to +perceive everything at a glance.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_178" id="Page_178">[Pg 178]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I know the village," she said, "it is at the park gates, and Milady +takes a great deal of trouble that all is nice in the cottages. And +there is an old woman that knows all about the family, and tells legends +of it; and a school and a church, and many other <i>objets-de-piété</i>. I +know it like that," she cried, holding out the pretty pink palm of her +hand.</p> + +<p>"This information is preternatural," said Lady Randolph. "You are +astonished, Lucy. Mademoiselle is a sorceress. I am sure that Jock +thinks so. Nothing save an alliance with something diabolical could have +made her so well instructed, she who has never been in England before."</p> + +<p>"Do you ask how I know all that?" the girl said laughing. "Then I +answer, novels. It is all Herr Tauchnitz and his pretty books."</p> + +<p>"And so you really never were in England before—not even as a baby?" +Lady Randolph said.</p> + +<p>The girl's gaiety had attracted even the pair at the other end of the +table, who had so much to say to each other. The Contessa and Sir Tom +exchanged a look, which Lucy remarked with a little surprise, and +remarked in spite of herself: and the great lady interfered to help her +young dependent out.</p> + +<p>"How glad I am to give her that advantage, dear lady! It is the crown of +the petite's education. In England she finds the most fine manners, as +well as villages full of <i>objets-de-piété</i>. It is what is needful to +form her," the Contessa said.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_179" id="Page_179">[Pg 179]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XIX" id="CHAPTER_XIX"></a>CHAPTER XIX.</h2> + +<h3>THE OPENING OF THE DRAMA.</h3> + + +<p>"Come and sit beside me and tell me everything," said the Contessa. She +had appropriated the little sofa next the fire where Lady Randolph +generally sat in the evening. She had taken Lucy's arm on the way from +the dining-room, and drew her with her to this corner. Nothing could be +more caressing or tender than her manner. She seemed to be conferring +the most delightful of favours as she drew towards her the mistress of +the house. "You have been married—how long? Six years! But it is +impossible! And you have all the freshness of a child. And very happy?" +she said smiling upon Lucy. She had not a fault in her pronunciation, +but when she uttered these two words she gave a little roll of the "r" +as if she meant to assume a defect which she had not, and smiled with a +tender benevolence in which there was the faintest touch of derision. +Lucy did not make out what it was, but she felt that something lay under +the dazzling of that smile. She allowed the stranger to draw her to the +sofa, and sat down by her.</p> + +<p>"Yes, it is six years," she said.</p> + +<p>"And ver—r—y happy?" the Contessa repeated. "I am sure that dear Tom +is a model husband. I have known him a very long time. Has he told you +about me?"</p> + +<p>"That you were an old friend," said Lucy, looking at her. "Oh yes! The +only thing is, that we are so much afraid you will find the country +dull."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_180" id="Page_180">[Pg 180]</a></span></p> + +<p>The Contessa replied only with an eloquent look and a pressure of the +hand. Her eyes were quite capable of expressing their meaning without +words; and Lucy felt that she had guessed her rightly.</p> + +<p>"We wished to have a party to meet you," Lucy said, "but the baby fell +ill—and I thought as you had kindly come so far to see Tom, you would +not mind if you found us alone."</p> + +<p>The lady still made no direct reply. She said after a little pause,</p> + +<p>"The country is very dull——" still smiling upon Lucy, and allowed a +full minute to pass without another word. Then she added, "And +Milady?—is she always with you?"—with a slight shrug of the shoulders. +She did not even lower her voice to prevent Lady Randolph from hearing, +but gave Lucy's hand a special pressure, and fixed upon her a +significant look.</p> + +<p>"Oh! Aunt Randolph?" cried Lucy. "Oh no; she is only paying her usual +Christmas visit."</p> + +<p>The Contessa drew a sigh of relief, and laid her other delicate hand +upon her breast. "You take a load off my heart," she said; then gliding +gracefully from the subject, "And that excellent Tom——? you met +him—in society?"</p> + +<p>Lucy did not quite like the questioning, or those emphatic pressures of +her hand. She said quickly, "We met at Lady Randolph's. I was living +there."</p> + +<p>"Oh—I see," the stranger said, and she gave vent to a little gentle +laugh. "I see!" Her meaning was entirely unknown to Lucy; but she felt +an indefinable offence. She made a slight effort to withdraw her hand; +but this the Contessa would not permit. She pressed the imprisoned +fingers more closely in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_181" id="Page_181">[Pg 181]</a></span> her own. "You do not like this questioning. +Pardon! I had forgotten English ways. It is because I hope you will let +me be your friend too."</p> + +<p>"Oh yes," cried Lucy, ashamed of her own hesitation, yet feeling every +moment more reluctant. She subdued her rising distaste with an effort. +"I hope," she said, sweetly, "that we shall be able to make you feel at +home, Madame di Forno-Populo. If there is anything you do not like, will +you tell me? Had I been at home I should have chosen other rooms for +you."</p> + +<p>"They are so pretty, those words, 'at home!' so English," the Contessa +said, with smiles that were more and more sweet. "But it will fatigue +you to call me all that long name."</p> + +<p>"Oh no!" cried Lucy, with a vivid blush. She did not know what to say, +whether this meant a little derision of her careful pronunciation, or +what it was. She went on, after a little pause, "But if you are not +quite comfortable the other rooms can be got ready directly. It was the +housekeeper who thought the rooms you have would be the warmest."</p> + +<p>The Contessa gave her another gentle pressure of the hand. "Everything +is perfect," she said. "The house and the wife, and all. I may call you +Lucy? You are so fresh and young. How do you keep that pretty bloom +after six years—did you say six years? Ah! the English are always those +that wear best. You are not afraid of a great deal of light—no? but it +is trying sometimes. Shades are an advantage. And he has not spoken to +you of me, that dear Tom? There was a time when he talked much of +me—oh, much—constantly! He was young then—and," she said with a +little sigh—"so was I. He was perhaps<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_182" id="Page_182">[Pg 182]</a></span> not handsome, but he was +distinguished. Many Englishmen are so who have no beauty, no +handsomeness, as you say, and English women also, though that is more +rare. And you are ver-r-y happy?" the Contessa asked again. She said it +with a smile that was quite dazzling, but yet had just the faintest +touch of ridicule in it, and rippled over into a little laugh. "When we +know each other better I will betray all his little secrets to you," she +said.</p> + +<p>This was so very injudicious on the part of an old friend, that a wiser +person than Lucy would have divined some malign meaning in it. But Lucy, +though suppressing an instinctive distrust, took no notice, not even in +her thoughts. It was not necessary for her to divine or try to divine +what people meant; she took what they said, simply, without requiring +interpretation. "He has told me a great deal," she said. "I think I +almost know his journeys by heart." Then Lucy carried the war into the +enemy's country without realising what she was doing. "You will think it +very stupid of me," she said, "but I did not hear Mademoiselle,—the +young lady's name?"</p> + +<p>The Contessa's eyes dwelt meditatively upon Lucy: she patted her hand +and smiled upon her, as if every other subject was irrelevant. "And he +has taken you into society?" she said, continuing her examination. "How +delightful is that English domesticity. You go everywhere together?" She +had no appearance of having so much as heard Lucy's question. "And you +do not fear that he will find it dull in the country? You have the +confidence of being enough for him? How sweet for me to find the +happiness of my friend so assured. And now I shall share it for a +little. You will make us all happy.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_183" id="Page_183">[Pg 183]</a></span> Dear child!" said the lady with +enthusiasm, drawing Lucy to her and kissing her forehead. Then she broke +into a pretty laugh. "You will work for your poor, and I, who am good +for nothing—I shall take out my <i>tapisserie</i>, and he will read to us +while we work. What a tableau!" cried the Contessa. "Domestic happiness, +which one only tastes in England. The Eden before the fall!"</p> + +<p>It was at this moment that the gentlemen, <i>i.e.</i> Sir Tom and Jock, +appeared out of the dining-room. They had not lingered long after the +ladies. Sir Tom had been somewhat glum after they left. His look of +amusement was not so lively. He said sententiously, not so much to Jock +as to himself, "That woman is bent on mischief," and got up and walked +about the room instead of taking his wine. Then he laughed and turned to +Jock, who was musing over his orange skins. "When you get a fellow into +your house that is not much good—I suppose it must happen +sometimes—that knows too much and puts the young ones up to tricks, +what do you do with him, most noble Captain? Come, you find out a lot of +things for yourselves, you boys. Tell me what you do."</p> + +<p>Jock was a little startled by this demand, but he rose to the occasion. +"It has happened," he said. "You know, unless a fellow's been awfully +bad, you can't always keep him out."</p> + +<p>"And what then?" said Sir Tom. "MTutor sets his great wits to work?"</p> + +<p>"I hope, sir," cried Jock, "that you don't think I would trouble MTutor, +who has enough on his hands without that. I made great friends with the +fellow myself. You know," said the lad, looking up with splendid +confidence, "he couldn't harm <i>me</i>——"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_184" id="Page_184">[Pg 184]</a></span></p> + +<p>Sir Tom looked at him with a little drawing of his breath, such as the +experienced sometimes feel as they look at the daring of the +innocent—but with a smile, too.</p> + +<p>"When he tried it on with me, I just kicked him," said Jock, calmly; +"once was enough; he didn't do it again; for naturally he stood a bit in +awe of me. Then I kept him that he hadn't a moment to himself. It was +the football half, when you've not got much time to spare all day. And +in the evenings he had pœnas and things. When he got with two or three +of the others, one of us would just be loafing about, and call out +'Hallo, what's up?' He never had any time to go wrong, and then he got +to find out it didn't pay."</p> + +<p>"Philosopher! sage!" cried Sir Tom. "It is you that should teach us; +but, alas, my boy, have you never found out that even that last argument +fails to tell—and that they don't mind even if it doesn't pay?"</p> + +<p>He sighed as he spoke; then laughed out, and added, "I can at all events +try the first part of your programme. Come along and let's cry, Hallo! +what's up? It simplifies matters immensely, though," said Sir Tom, with +a serious face, "when you can kick the fellow you disapprove of in that +charming candid way. Guard the privilege; it is invaluable, Jock."</p> + +<p>"Well," said Jock, "some fellows think it's brutal, you know. MTutor he +always says try argument first. But I just want to know how are you to +do your duty, captain of a big house, unless it's known that you will +just kick 'em when they're beastly. When it's known, even <i>that</i> does a +deal of good."</p> + +<p>"Every thing you say confirms my opinion of your sense," said Sir Tom, +taking the boy by the arm, "but also of your advantages, Jock, my boy. +We cannot<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_185" id="Page_185">[Pg 185]</a></span> act, you see, in that straightforward manner, more's the +pity, in the world; but I shall try the first part of your programme, +and act on your advice," he said, as they walked into the room where the +ladies were awaiting them. The smaller room looked very warm and bright +after the large, dimly-lighted one through which they had passed. The +Contessa, in her tender conference with Lucy, formed a charming group in +the middle of the picture. Lady Randolph sat by, exiled out of her usual +place, with an illustrated magazine in her hand, and an air of quick +watchfulness about her, opposite to them. She was looking on like a +spectator at a play. In the background behind the table, on which stood +a large lamp, was the Contessa's companion, with her back turned to the +rest, lightly flitting from picture to picture, examining everything. +She had been entirely careless of the action of the piece, but she +turned round at the voices of the new-comers, as if her attention was +aroused.</p> + +<p>"You are going to take somebody's advice?" said the Contessa. "That is +something new; come here at once and explain. To do so is due to +your—wife; yes, to your wife. An Englishman tells every thought to his +wife; is it not so? Oh yes, <i>mon ami</i>, your sweet little wife and I are +the best of friends. It is for life," she said, looking with +inexpressible sentiment in Lucy's face, and pressing her hands. Then, +was it possible? a flash of intelligence flew from her eyes to those of +Sir Tom, and she burst into a laugh and clapped her beautiful hands +together. "He is so ridiculous, he makes one laugh at everything," she +cried.</p> + +<p>Lucy remained very serious, with a somewhat forced smile upon her face, +between these two, looking from one to another.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_186" id="Page_186">[Pg 186]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Nay, if you have come the length of swearing eternal friendship——" +said Sir Tom.</p> + +<p>Jock did not know what to do with himself. He began by stumbling over +Lady Randolph's train, which though carefully coiled about her, was so +long and so substantial that it got in his way. In getting out of its +way he almost stumbled against the slim, straight figure of the girl, +who stood behind surveying the company. She met his awkward apology with +a smile. "It doesn't matter," she said, "I am so glad you are come. I +had nobody to talk to." Then she made a little pause, regarding him with +a bright, impartial look, as if weighing all his qualities. "Don't you +talk?" she said. "Do you prefer not to say anything? because I know how +to behave: I will not trouble you if it is so. In England there are some +who do not say anything?" she added with an inquiring look. Jock, who +was conscious of blushing all over from top to toe, ventured a glance at +her, to which she replied by a peal of laughter, very merry but very +subdued, in which, in spite of himself, he was obliged to join.</p> + +<p>"So you can laugh!" she said; "oh, that is well; for otherwise I should +not know how to live. We must laugh low, not to make any noise and +distract the old ones; but still, one must live. Tell me, you are the +brother of Madame—Should I say Milady? In my novels they never do, but +I do not know if the novels are just or not."</p> + +<p>"The servants say my lady, but no one else," said Jock.</p> + +<p>"How fine that is," the young lady said admiringly, "in a moment to have +it all put right. I am glad we came to England; we say mi-ladi and +mi-lord as if<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_187" id="Page_187">[Pg 187]</a></span> that was the name of every one here; but it is not so in +the books. You are, perhaps Sir? like Sir Tom—or you are——"</p> + +<p>"I am Trevor, that is all," said Jock with a blush; "I am nobody in +particular: that is, here"—he added with a momentary gleam of natural +importance.</p> + +<p>"Ah!" cried the young lady, "I understand—you are a great person at +home."</p> + +<p>Jock had no wish to deceive, but he could not prevent a smile from +creeping about the corners of his mouth. "Not a great person at all," he +said, not wishing to boast.</p> + +<p>The young stranger, who was so curious about all her new surroundings, +formed her own conclusion. She had been brought up in an atmosphere full +of much knowledge, but also of theories which were but partially +tenable. She interpreted Jock according to her own ideas, which were not +at all suited to his case; but it was impossible that she could know +that.</p> + +<p>"I am finding people out," she said to him. "You are the only one that +is young like me. Let us form an alliance—while the old ones are +working out all their plans and fighting it out among themselves."</p> + +<p>"Fighting it out! I know some that are not likely to fight," cried Jock, +bewildered.</p> + +<p>"Was not that right?" said the girl, distressed. "I thought it was an +<i>idiotisme</i>, as the French say. Ah! they are always fighting. Look at +them now! The Contessa, she is on the war-path. That is an American +word. I have a little of all languages. Madame, you will see—ah, that +is what you meant!—does not understand, she looks from one to another. +She is silent, but Sir Tom, he knows everything. And the old lady, she +sees it too. I have gone through so<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_188" id="Page_188">[Pg 188]</a></span> many dramas, I am blasée. It +wearies at last, but yet it is exciting too. I ask myself what is going +to be done here? You have heard perhaps of the Contessa in England, +Mr.——"</p> + +<p>"Trevor," said Jock.</p> + +<p>"And you pronounce it just like this—Mis-ter? I want to know; for +perhaps I shall have to stay here. There is not known very much about +me. Nor do I know myself. But if the Contessa finds for me—— I am quite +mad," said the girl suddenly. "I am telling you—and of course it is a +secret. The old lady watches the Contessa to see what it is she intends. +But I do not myself know what the Contessa intends—except in respect to +me."</p> + +<p>Jock was too shy to inquire what that was: and he was confused with this +unusual confidence. Young ladies had not been in the habit of opening to +him their secrets; indeed he had little experience of these kind of +creatures at all. She looked at him as she spoke as if she wished to +provoke him to inquiry—with a gaze that was very open and withal bold, +yet innocent too. And Jock, on his side, was as entirely innocent as if +he had been a Babe in the Wood.</p> + +<p>"Don't you want to know what she is going to do with me, and why she has +brought me?" the girl said, talking so quickly that he could scarcely +follow the stream of words. "I was not invited, and I am not introduced, +and no one knows anything of me. Don't you want to know why I am here?"</p> + +<p>Jock followed the movements of her lips, the little gestures of her +hands, which were almost as eloquent, with eyes that were confused by so +great a call upon them. He could not make any reply, but only gazed at +her, entranced, as he had never been in his life<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_189" id="Page_189">[Pg 189]</a></span> before, and so anxious +not to lose the hurried words, the quick flash of the small white hands +against her dark dress, that his mind had not time to make out what she +meant.</p> + +<p>Lucy on her side sat between her husband and the Contessa for some time, +listening to their conversation. That was more rapid, too, than she was +used to, and it was full of allusions, understood when they were +half-said by the others, which to her were all darkness. She tried to +follow them with a wistful sort of smile, a kind of painful homage to +the Contessa's soft laugh and the ready response of Sir Tom. She tried +too, to follow, and share the brightening interest of his face, the +amusement and eagerness of his listening; but by and by she got chilled, +she knew not how—the smile grew frozen upon her face, her comprehension +seemed to fail altogether. She got up softly after a while from her +corner of the sofa, and neither her husband nor her guest took any +particular notice. She came across the room to Lady Randolph, and drew a +low chair beside her, and asked her about the pictures in the magazine +which she was still holding in her hand.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XX" id="CHAPTER_XX"></a>CHAPTER XX.</h2> + +<h3>AN ANXIOUS CRITIC.</h3> + + +<p>In a few days after the arrival of Madame di Forno-Populo, there was +almost an entire change of aspect at the Hall. Nobody could tell how +this change had come about. It was involuntary, unconscious, yet +complete. The Contessa came quietly into the fore<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_190" id="Page_190">[Pg 190]</a></span>ground. She made no +demonstration of power, and claimed no sort of authority. She never +accosted the mistress of the house without tender words and caresses. +Her attitude towards Lucy, indeed, was that of an admiring relation to a +delightful and promising child. She could not sufficiently praise and +applaud her. When she spoke, her visitor turned towards her with the +most tender of smiles. In whatsoever way the Contessa was occupied, she +never failed when she heard Lucy's voice to turn round upon her, to +bestow this smile, to murmur a word of affectionate approval. When they +were near enough to each other, she would take her hand and press it +with affectionate emotion. The other members of the household, except +Sir Tom, she scarcely noticed at all. The Dowager Lady Randolph +exchanged with her now and then a few words of polite defiance, but that +was all. And she had not been long at the Hall before her position there +was more commanding than that of Lady Randolph. Insensibly all the +customs of the house changed for her. There was no question as to who +was the centre of conversation in the evening. Sir Tom went to the sofa +from which she had so cleverly ousted his aunt, as soon as he came in +after dinner, and leaning over her with his arm on the mantelpiece, or +drawing a chair beside her, would laugh and talk with endless spirit and +amusement. When he talked of the people in the neighbourhood who +afforded scope for satire, she would tap him with her fan and say, "Why +do I not see these originals? bring them to see me," to Lucy's wonder +and often dismay. "They would not amuse you at all," Sir Tom would +reply, upon which the lady would turn and call Lucy to her. "My little +angel! he pretends that it is he that is so clever, that he creates<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_191" id="Page_191">[Pg 191]</a></span> +these characters. We do not believe him, my Lucy, do we? Ask them, ask +them, <i>cara</i>, then we shall judge."</p> + +<p>In this way the house was filled evening after evening. A reign of +boundless hospitality seemed to have begun. The other affairs of the +house slipped aside, and to provide amusement for the Contessa became +the chief object of life. She had everybody brought to see her, from the +little magnates of Farafield to the Duchess herself, and the greatest +people in the county. The nursery, which had been so much, perhaps too +much, in the foreground, regulating the whole great household according +as little Tom was better or worse, was thrust altogether into the +shadow. If neglect was wholesome, then he had that advantage. Even his +mother could do no more than run furtively to him, as she did about a +hundred times a day in the intervals of her duties. His little mendings +and fallings back ceased to be the chief things in the house. His +father, indeed, would play with his child in the mornings when he was +brought to Lucy's room; but the burden of his remarks was to point out +to her how much better the little beggar got on when there was less fuss +made about him. And Lucy's one grievance against her visitor, the only +one which she permitted herself to perceive, was that she never took any +notice of little Tom. She never asked for him, a thing which was +unexampled in Lucy's experience. When he was produced she smiled, +indeed, but contemplated him at a distance. The utmost stretch of +kindness she had ever shown was to touch his cheek with a finger +delicately when he was carried past her. Lucy made theories in her mind +about this, feeling it necessary to account in some elaborate way for +what was so entirely out of nature. "I know what it must be<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_192" id="Page_192">[Pg 192]</a></span>—she must +have lost her own," she said to her husband. Sir Tom's countenance was +almost convulsed by one of those laughs, which he now found it expedient +to suppress, but he only replied that he had never heard of such an +event. "Ah! it must have been before you knew her; but she has never got +it out of her mind," Lucy cried. That hypothesis explained everything. +At this time it is scarcely necessary to say Lucy was with her whole +soul trying to be "very fond," as she expressed it, of the Contessa. +There were some things about her which startled young Lady Randolph. For +one thing, she would go out shooting with Sir Tom, and was as good a +shot as any of the gentlemen. This wounded Lucy terribly, and took her a +great effort to swallow. It went against all her traditions. With her +bourgeois education she hated sport, and even in her husband with +difficulty made up her mind to it; but that a woman should go forth and +slay was intolerable.</p> + +<p>There were other things besides which were a mystery to her. Lady +Randolph's invariably defiant attitude for one, and the curious aspect +of the Duchess when suddenly brought face to face with the stranger. It +appeared that they were old friends, which astonished Lucy, but not so +much as the great lady's bewildered look when Madame di Forno-Populo +went up to her. It seemed for a moment as if the shock was too much for +her. She stammered and shook through all her dignity and greatness, as +she exclaimed. "<i>You</i>! here?" in two distinct outcries, gazing appalled +into the smiling and beautiful face before her. But then the Duchess +came to, after a while. She seemed to get over her surprise, which was +more than surprise. All these things disturbed Lucy. She did not know +what to make of them. She was uneasy at the change that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_193" id="Page_193">[Pg 193]</a></span> had been +wrought upon her own household, which she did not understand. Yet it was +all perfectly simple, she said to herself. It was Tom's duty to devote +himself to the stranger. It was the duty of both as hosts to procure for +her such amusement as was to be found. These were things of which Lucy +convinced herself by various half unconscious processes of argument. But +it was necessary to renew these arguments from time to time, to keep +possession of them in order to feel their force as she wished to do. She +said nothing to her husband on the subject, with an instinctive sense +that it would be very difficult to handle. And Sir Tom, too, avoided it. +But it was impossible to pursue the same reticence with Lady Randolph, +who now and then insisted on opening it up. When the end of her visit +arrived she sent for Lucy into her own room, to speak to her seriously. +She said—</p> + +<p>"My dear, I am due to-morrow at the Maltravers', as you know. It is a +visit I like to pay, they are always so nice; but I cannot bear the +thought of going off, Lucy, to enjoy myself and leaving you alone."</p> + +<p>"Alone, Aunt Randolph!" cried Lucy, "when Tom is at home!"</p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom! I have no patience with Tom," cried the Dowager. "I think he +must be mad to let that woman come upon you so. Of course you know very +well, my dear, it is of her that I want to speak. In the country it does +not so much matter; but you must not let her identify herself with you, +Lucy, in town."</p> + +<p>"In town!" Lucy said with a little dismay; "but, dear Aunt Randolph, it +will be six weeks before we go to town; and, surely, long before +that——" She paused, and blushed with a sense of the inhospitality<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_194" id="Page_194">[Pg 194]</a></span> +involved in her words, which made Lucy ashamed of herself.</p> + +<p>"You think so?" said Lady Randolph, smiling somewhat grimly. "Well, we +shall see. For my part, I think she will find Park Lane a very desirable +situation, and if you do not take the greatest care—— But why should I +speak to you of taking care? Of course, if Tom wished it, you would take +in all Bohemia, and never say a word——"</p> + +<p>"Surely," said Lucy, looking with serene eyes in the elder lady's face, +"I do not know what you mean by Bohemia, Aunt Randolph; but if you think +it possible that I should object when Tom asks his friends——"</p> + +<p>"Oh—his friends! I have no patience with you, either the one or the +other," said the old lady. "When Sir Robert was living, do you think it +was he who invited <i>my</i> guests? I should think not indeed! especially +the women. If that was to be the case, marriage would soon become an +impossibility. And is it possible, Lucy, is it possible that you, with +your good sense, can like all that petting and coaxing, and the way she +talks to you as if you were a child?"</p> + +<p>As a matter of fact Lucy had not been able to school herself into liking +it; but when the objection was stated so plainly, she coloured high with +a vexation and annoyance which were very grievous and hard to bear. It +seemed to her that it would be disloyal both to her husband and her +guest if she complained, and at the same time Lady Randolph's shot went +straight to the mark. She did her best to smile, but it was not a very +easy task.</p> + +<p>"You have always taught me, Aunt Randolph," she said with great +astuteness, "that I ought not to judge<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_195" id="Page_195">[Pg 195]</a></span> of the manners of strangers by +my own little rules—especially of foreigners," she added, with a sense +of her own cleverness which half comforted her amid other feelings not +agreeable. It was seldom that Lucy felt any sense of triumph in her own +powers.</p> + +<p>"Foreigners?" said Lady Randolph, with disdain. But then she stopped +short with a pause of indignation. "That woman," she said, which was the +only name she ever gave the visitor, "has some scheme in her head you +may be sure. I do not know what it is. It would not do her any good that +I can see to increase her hold upon Tom."</p> + +<p>"Upon Tom!" cried Lucy. It was her turn now to be indignant. "I don't +know what you mean, Aunt Randolph," she said. "I cannot think that you +want to make me—uncomfortable. There are some things I do not like in +Madame di Forno-Populo. She is—different; but she is my husband's +friend. If you mean that they will become still greater friends seeing +more of each other, that is natural. For why should you be friends at +all unless you like each other? And that Tom likes her must be just a +proof that I am wrong. It is my ignorance. Perhaps the wisest way would +be to say nothing more about it," young Lady Randolph concluded, +briskly, with a sudden smile.</p> + +<p>The Dowager looked at her as if she were some wonder in natural history, +the nature of which it was impossible to divine. She thought she knew +Lucy very well, but yet had never understood her, it being more +difficult for a woman of the world to understand absolute +straightforwardness and simplicity than it is even for the simple to +understand the worldly. She was silent for a moment and stared at Lucy, +not knowing what to make of her. At last she resumed as if<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_196" id="Page_196">[Pg 196]</a></span> going on +without interruption. "But she has some scheme in hand, perhaps in +respect to the girl. The girl is a very handsome creature, and might +make a hit if she were properly managed. My belief is that this has been +her scheme all through. But partly the presence of Tom—an old friend as +you say of her own—and partly the want of opportunity, has kept it in +abeyance. That is my idea, Lucy; you can take it for what it is worth. +And your home will be the headquarters, the centre from which the +adventuress will carry on——"</p> + +<p>"Aunt Randolph!" Lucy's voice was almost loud in the pain and +indignation that possessed her. She put out her hands as if to stop the +other's mouth. "You want to make me think she is a wicked woman," she +said. "And that Tom—Tom——"</p> + +<p>Lucy had never permitted suspicion to enter her mind. She did not know +now what it was that penetrated her innocent soul like an arrow. It was +not jealousy. It was the wounding suggestion of a possibility which she +would not and could not entertain.</p> + +<p>"Lucy, Tom has no excuse at all," said the Dowager solemnly. "You'll +believe nothing against him, of course, and I can't possibly wish to +turn you against him; but I don't suppose he meant all that is likely to +come out of it. He thought it would be a joke—and in the country what +could it matter? And then things have never gone so far as that people +could refuse to receive her, you know. Oh no! the Contessa has her wits +too much about her for that. But you saw for yourself that the Duchess +was petrified; and I—not that I am an authority, like her Grace. One +thing, Lucy, is quite clear, and that I must say; you must not take upon +yourself to be answerable—you so young as you are and not accustomed to +society—for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_197" id="Page_197">[Pg 197]</a></span> <i>that</i> woman, before the world. You must just take your +courage in both hands, and tell Tom that though you give in to him in +the country, in town you will not have her. She means to take advantage +of you, and bring forward her girl, and make a <i>grand coup</i>. That is +what she means—I know that sort of person. It is just the greatest luck +in the world for them to get hold of some one that is so unexceptionable +and so unsuspicious as you."</p> + +<p>Lady Randolph insisted upon saying all this, notwithstanding the +interruptions of Lucy. "Now I wash my hands of it," she said. "If you +won't be advised, I can do no more." It was the day after the great +dinner when the Duchess had met Madame di Forno-Populo with so much +surprise. The elder lady had been in much excitement all the evening. +She had conversed with her Grace apart on several occasions, and from +the way in which they laid their heads together, and their gestures, it +was clear enough that their feeling was the same upon the point they +discussed. All the best people in the county had been collected +together, and there could be no doubt that the Contessa had achieved a +great success. She sang as no woman had ever been heard to sing for a +hundred miles round, and her beauty and her grace and her diamonds had +been enough to turn the heads of both men and women. It was remarked +that the Duchess, though she received her with a gasp of astonishment, +was evidently very well acquainted with the fascinating foreign lady, +and though there was a little natural and national distrust of her at +first, as a person too remarkable, and who sang too well for the common +occasions of life, yet not to gaze at her, watch her, and admire, was +impossible. Lucy had been gratified with<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_198" id="Page_198">[Pg 198]</a></span> the success of her visitor. +Even though she was not sure that she was comfortable about her presence +there at all, she was pleased with the effect she produced. When the +Contessa sang there suddenly appeared out of the midst of the crowd a +slim, straight figure in a black gown, which instantly sat down at the +piano, played the accompaniments, and disappeared again without a word. +The spectators thronging round the piano saw that this was a girl, as +graceful and distinguished as the Contessa herself, who passed away +without a word, and disappeared when her office was accomplished, with a +smile on her face, but without lingering for a moment or speaking to any +one; which was a pretty bit of mystery too.</p> + +<p>All this had happened on the night before Lady Randolph's summons to +Lucy. It was in the air that the party at the Hall was to break up after +the great entertainment; the Dowager was going, as she had said, to the +Maltravers'; Jock was going back to school; and though no limit of +Madame di Forno-Populo's visit had been mentioned, still it was natural +that she should go when the other people did. She had been a fortnight +at the Hall. That is long for a visit at a country house where generally +people are coming and going continually. And Lucy had begun to look +forward to the time when once more she would be mistress of her own +house and actions, with all visitors and interruptions gone. She had +been looking forward to the happy old evenings, the days in which baby +should be set up again on his domestic throne. The idea that the +Contessa might not be going away, the suggestion that she might still be +there when it was time to make the yearly migration to town, chilled the +very blood in her veins. But it was a thought that she would not<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_199" id="Page_199">[Pg 199]</a></span> dwell +upon. She would not betray her feeling in this respect to any one. She +returned the kiss which old Lady Randolph bestowed upon her at the end +of their interview, very affectionately; for, though she did not always +agree with her, she was attached to the lady who had been so kind to her +when she was a friendless little girl. "Thank you, Aunt Randolph, for +telling me," she said very sweetly, though, indeed, she had no intention +of taking the Dowager's advice. Lady Randolph went off in the afternoon +of the next day, for it was a very short journey to the Maltravers', +where she was going. All the party came out into the hall to see her +away, the Contessa herself as well as the others. Nothing, indeed, could +be more cordial than the Contessa. She caught up a shawl and wound it +round her, elaborately defending herself against the cold, and came out +to the steps to share in the last farewells.</p> + +<p>When Lady Randolph was in the carriage with her maid by her side, and +her hot-water footstool under her feet, and the coachman waiting his +signal to drive away, she put out her hand amid her furs to Lucy. "Now +remember!" Lady Randolph said. It was almost as solemn as the mysterious +reminder of the dying king to the bishop. But unfortunately, what is +solemn in certain circumstances may be ludicrous in others. The party in +the Hall scarcely restrained its merriment till the carriage had driven +away.</p> + +<p>"What awful compact is this between you, Lucy?" Sir Tom said. "Has she +bound you by a vow to assassinate me in my sleep?"</p> + +<p>The Contessa unwound herself out of her shawl, and putting her arm +caressingly round Lucy, led her back to the drawing-room. "It has +something to do<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_200" id="Page_200">[Pg 200]</a></span> with me," she said. "Come and tell me all about it." +Lucy had been disconcerted by Lady Randolph's reminder. She was still +more disconcerted now.</p> + +<p>"It is—something Aunt Randolph wishes me to do in the spring, when we +go to town," she said.</p> + +<p>"Ah! I know what that is," said the Contessa. "They see that you are too +kind to your husband's friend. Milady would wish you to be more as she +herself is. I understand her very well. I understand them all, these +women. They cannot endure me. They see a meaning in everything I do. I +have not a meaning in everything I do," she added, with a pathetic look, +which went to Lucy's heart.</p> + +<p>"No, no, indeed you are mistaken. It was not that. I am sure you have no +meaning," said Lucy, vehement and confused.</p> + +<p>The Contessa read her innocent <i>distraite</i> countenance like a book, as +she said—or at least she thought so. She linked her own delicate arm in +hers, and clasped Lucy's hand. "One day I will tell you why all these +ladies hate me, my little angel," she said.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXI" id="CHAPTER_XXI"></a>CHAPTER XXI.</h2> + +<h3>AN UNEXPECTED ENCOUNTER.</h3> + + +<p>In the meantime something had been going on behind-backs of which nobody +took much notice. It had been discovered long before this, in the +family, that the Contessa's young companion had a name like other +people—that is to say, a Christian name. She was called by the +Contessa, in the rare moments when she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_201" id="Page_201">[Pg 201]</a></span> addressed her, Bice—that is to +say, according to English pronunciation, Beeshée (you would probably +call it Beetchee if you learned to speak Italian in England, but the +Contessa had the Tuscan tongue in a Roman mouth, according to the +proverb), which, as everybody knows, is the contraction of Beatrice. She +was called Miss Beachey in the household, a name which was received—by +the servants at least—as a quite proper and natural name; a great deal +more sensible than Forno-Populo. Her position, however, in the little +party was a quite peculiar one. The Contessa took her for granted in a +way which silenced all inquisitive researches. She gave no explanation +who she was, or what she was, or why she carried this girl about with +her. If she was related to herself, if she was a dependent, nobody knew; +her manner gave no clue at all to the mystery. It was very seldom that +the two had any conversation whatsoever in the presence of the others. +Now and then the Contessa would send the girl upon an errand, telling +her to bring something, with an absence of directions where to find it +that suggested the most absolute confidence in her young companion. When +the Contessa sang, Bice, as a matter of course, produced herself at the +right moment to play her accompaniments, and got herself out of the way, +noiselessly, instantly, the moment that duty was over. These +accompaniments were played with an exquisite skill and judgment, an +exact adaptation to the necessities of the voice, which could only have +been attained by much and severe study; but she never, save on these +occasions, was seen to look at a piano. For the greater part of the time +the girl was invisible. She appeared in the Contessa's train, always in +her closely-fitting, perfectly plain, black frock, without an ornament, +at<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_202" id="Page_202">[Pg 202]</a></span> luncheon and dinner, and was present all the evening in the +drawing-room. But for the rest of the day no one knew what became of +this young creature, who nevertheless was not shy, nor showed any +appearance of feeling herself out of place, or uncomfortable in her +strange position. She looked out upon them all with frank eyes, in which +it was evident there was no sort of mist, either of timidity or +ignorance, understanding everything that was said, even allusions which +puzzled Lucy; always intelligent and observant, though often with a +shade of that benevolent contempt which the young with difficulty +prevent themselves from feeling towards their elders. The littleness of +their jokes and their philosophies was evidently quite apparent to this +observer, who sat secure in the superiority of sixteen taking in +everything; for she took in everything, even when she was not doing the +elder people the honour of attending to what they were saying, with a +faculty which belongs to that age. Opinions were divided as to Bice's +beauty. The simpler members of the party, Lucy and Jock, admired her +least; but such a competent critic as Lady Randolph, who understood what +was effective, had a great opinion and even respect for her, as of one +whose capabilities were very great indeed, and who might "go far," as +she had herself said. As there was so much difference of opinion it is +only right that the reader should be able to judge, as much as is +possible, from a description. She was very slight and rather tall, with +a great deal of the Contessa's grace, moving lightly as if she scarcely +touched the ground, but like a bird rather than a cat. There was nothing +in her of the feline grace of which we hear so much. Her movements were +all direct and rapid; her feet seemed to skim, not to tread, the ground +with an airy<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_203" id="Page_203">[Pg 203]</a></span> poise, which even when she stood still implied movement, +always light, untiring, full of energy and impulse. Her eyes were +gray—if it is possible to call by the name of the dullest of tints +those two globes of light, now dark, now golden, now liquid with dew, +and now with flame. Her hair was dusky, of no particular colour, with a +crispness about the temples; but her complexion—ay, there was the rub. +Bice had no complexion at all. By times in the evening, in artificial +light, or when she was excited, there came a little flush to her cheeks, +which miraculously chased away the shadows from her paleness, and made +her radiant; but in daylight there could be no doubt that she was +sallow, sometimes almost olive, though with a soft velvety texture which +is more often seen on the dark-complexioned through all its gradations +than on any but the most delicate of white skins. A black baby has a +bloom upon its little dusky cheek like a purple peach, and this was the +quality which gave to Bice's sallowness a certain charm. Her hands and +arms were of the same indefinite tint—not white, whatever they might be +called. Her throat was slender and beautifully-formed, but shared the +same deficiency of colour. It is impossible to say how much disappointed +Lucy was in the young stranger's appearance after the first evening. She +had thought her very pretty, and she now thought her plain. To remember +what the girl had said of her chances if she turned out beautiful filled +her with a sort of pitying contempt.</p> + +<p>But the more experienced people were not of Lucy's opinion. They thought +well, on the contrary, of Bice's prospects. Lady Randolph, as has been +said, regarded her with a certain respectfulness. She was not offended +by the saucy speeches which the girl might now and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_204" id="Page_204">[Pg 204]</a></span> then make. She went +so far as to say even that if introduced under other auspices than those +of the Contessa, there was no telling what such a girl might do. "But +the chances now are that she will end on the stage," Lady Randolph said.</p> + +<p>This strange girl unfolded herself very little in the family. When she +spoke, she spoke with the utmost frankness, and was afraid of nobody. +But in general she sat in the regions behind the table, with its big +lamp, and said little or nothing. The others would all be collected +about the fire, but Bice never approached the fire. Sometimes she read, +sitting motionless, till the others forgot her presence altogether. +Sometimes she worked at long strips of Berlin-wool work, the +<i>tapisserie</i> to which, by moments, the Contessa would have recourse. But +she heard and saw everything, as has been said, whether she attended or +not, in the keenness of her youthful faculties. When the Contessa rose +to sing, she was at the piano without a word; and when anything was +wanted she gave an alert mute obedience to the lady who was her relation +or her patroness, nobody knew which, almost without being told what was +wanted. Except in this way, however, they seldom approached or said a +word to each other that any one saw. During the long morning, which the +Contessa spent in her room, appearing only at luncheon, Bice too was +invisible. Thus she lived the strangest life of retirement and +seclusion, such as a crushed dependent would find intolerable in the +midst of a family, but without the least appearance of anything but +enjoyment, and a perfect and dauntless freedom.</p> + +<p>Bice, however, had one confidant in the house, and this, as is natural, +was the very last person who would have seemed probable—it was Jock. +Jock, it need<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_205" id="Page_205">[Pg 205]</a></span> scarcely be said, had no tendency at all to the society +of girls. Deep as he was in MTutor's confidence, captain of his house, +used to live in a little male community, and to despise (not unkindly) +the rest of the world, it is not likely that he would care much for the +antagonistic creatures who invariably interfered, he thought, with talk +and enjoyment wherever they appeared. Making an exception in favour of +Lucy and an older person now and then, who had been soothing to him when +he was ill or out of sorts, Jock held that the feminine part of the +creation was a mistake, and to be avoided in every practicable way. He +had been startled by the young stranger's advances to him on the first +evening, and her claim of fellowship on the score that he was young like +herself. But when Bice first appeared suddenly in his way, far down in +the depths of the winterly park, the boy's impulse would have been, had +that been practicable, to turn and flee. She was skimming along, singing +to herself, leaping lightly over fallen branches and the inequalities of +the humid way, when he first perceived her; and Jock had a moment's +controversy with himself as to what he ought to do. If he took to flight +across the open park she would see him and understand the reason +why—besides, it would be cowardly to fly from a girl, an inferior +creature, who probably had lost her way, and would not know how to get +back again. This reflection made him withdraw a little deeper into the +covert, with the intention of keeping her in sight lest she should +wander astray altogether, but yet keeping out of the way, that he might +exercise this secret protecting charge of his, which Jock felt was his +natural attitude even to a girl without the embarrassment of her +society. He tried to persuade himself that she was a lower boy, of an<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_206" id="Page_206">[Pg 206]</a></span> +inferior kind no doubt, but yet possessing claims upon his care; for +MTutor had a great idea of influence, and had imprinted deeply upon the +minds of his leading pupils the importance of exercising it in the most +beneficial way for those who were under them.</p> + +<p>Jock accordingly stayed among the brushwood watching where she went. How +light she was! her feet scarcely made a dint upon the wet and spongy +grass, in which his own had sunk. She went over everything like a bird. +Now and then she would stop to gather a handful of brown rustling +brambles, and the stiff yellow oak leaves, and here and there a rusty +bough to which some rays of autumn colour still hung, which at first +Jock supposed to mean botany, and was semi-respectful of, until she took +off her hat and arranged them in it, when he was immediately +contemptuous, saying to himself that it was just like a girl. All the +same, it was interesting to watch her as she skipped and skimmed along +with an air of enjoyment and delight in her freedom, which it was +impossible not to sympathise with. She sang, not loudly, but almost +under her breath, for pure pleasure, it seemed, but sometimes would +break off and whistle, at which Jock was much shocked at first, but +gradually got reconciled to, it was so clear and sweet. After awhile, +however, he made an incautious step upon the brushwood, and the crashing +of the branches betrayed him. She stopped suddenly with her head to the +wind like a fine hound, and caught him with her keen eyes. Then there +occurred a little incident which had a very strange effect—an effect he +was too young to understand—upon Jock. She stood perfectly still, with +her face towards the bushes in which he was, her head thrown high, her +nostrils a little dilated, a flush of sudden energy and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_207" id="Page_207">[Pg 207]</a></span> courage on her +face. She did not know who he was or what he wanted watching her from +behind the covert. He might be a tramp, a violent beggar, for anything +she knew. These things are more tragic where Bice came from, and it was +likely enough that she took him for a brigand. It was a quick sense of +alarm that sprang over her, stringing all her nerves, and bringing the +colour to her cheeks. She never flinched or attempted to flee, but stood +at bay, with a high valour and proud scorn of her pursuer. Her attitude, +the flush which made her fair in a moment, the expanded nostrils, the +fulness which her panting breath of alarm gave to her breast, made an +impression upon the boy which was ineffable and beyond words. It was his +first consciousness that there was something in the world—not boy, or +man, or sister, something which he did not understand, which feared yet +confronted him, startled but defiant. He too paused for a moment, gazing +at her, getting up his courage. Then he came slowly out from under the +shade of the bushes and went towards her. There were a few yards of the +open park to traverse before he reached her, so that he thought it +necessary to relieve her anxiety before they met. He called out to her, +"Don't be afraid, it is only me." For a moment more that fine poise +lasted, and then she clapped her hands with a peal of laughter that +seemed to fill the entire atmosphere and ring back from the clumps of +wintry wood. "Oh," she cried, "it is you!" Jock did not know whether to +be deeply affronted or to laugh too.</p> + +<p>"I——thought you might have lost your way," he said, knitting his brows +and looking as forbidding as he knew how, by way of correcting the +involuntary sentiment that had stolen into his boyish heart.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_208" id="Page_208">[Pg 208]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Then why did not you come to me?" she said, "is not that what you call +to spy—to watch when one does not know you are there?"</p> + +<p>Jock's countenance flushed at this word. "Spy! I never spied upon any +one. I thought perhaps you might not be able to get back—so I would not +go away out of reach."</p> + +<p>"I see," she cried, "you meant to be kind but not friendly. Do I say it +right? Why will not you be friendly? I have so many things I want to +say, and no one, no one! to say them to. What harm would it do if you +came out from yourself, and talked with me a little? You are too young +to make it any—inconvenience," the girl said. She laughed a little and +blushed a little as she said this, eyeing him all the time with frank, +open eyes. "I am sixteen; how old are you?" she added, with a quick +breath.</p> + +<p>"Sixteen past," said Jock, with a little emphasis, to show his +superiority in age as well as in other things.</p> + +<p>"Sixteen in a boy means no more than nine or so," she said, with a light +disdain, "so you need not have any fear. Oh, come and talk! I have a +hundred and more of things to say. It is all so strange. How would you +like to plunge in a new world like the sea, and never say what you think +of it, or ask any questions, or tell when it makes you laugh or cry?"</p> + +<p>"I should not mind much. I should neither laugh nor cry. It is only +girls that do," said Jock, somewhat contemptuous too.</p> + +<p>"Well! But then I am a girl. I cannot change my nature to please you," +she said. "Sometimes I think I should have liked better to be a boy, for +you have not to do the things we have to do—but then<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_209" id="Page_209">[Pg 209]</a></span> when I saw how +awkward you were, and how clumsy, and not good for anything"—she +pointed these very plain remarks with a laugh between each and a look at +Jock, by which she very plainly applied what she said. He did not know +at all how to take this. The instinct of a gentleman to betray no angry +feeling towards a girl, who was at the same time a lady, contrasted in +him with the instinct of a child, scarcely yet aware of the distinctions +of sex, to fight fairly for itself; but the former prevailed. And then +it was scarcely possible to resist the contagion of the laugh which the +damp air seemed to hold suspended, and bring back in curls and wreaths +of pleasant sound. So Jock commanded himself and replied with an +effort—</p> + +<p>"We are just as good for things that we care about as you—but not for +girls' things," he added, with another little fling of the mutual +contempt which they felt for each other. Then after a pause: "I suppose +we may as well go home, for it is getting late; and when it is dark you +would be sure to lose your way——"</p> + +<p>"Do you think so?" she said. "Then I will come, for I do not like to be +lost. What should you do if we were lost? Build me a hut to take shelter +in? or take off your coat to keep me warm and then go and look for the +nearest village? That is what happens in some of the Contessa's old +books—but, ah, not in the Tauchnitz now. But it would be nonsense, of +course, for there are the red chimneys of the Hall staring us in the +face, so how could we be lost?"</p> + +<p>"When it is dark," said Jock, "you can't see the red always; and then +you go rambling and wandering about, and hit yourself against the trees, +and get up to the ankles in the wet grass and—don't like it at all."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_210" id="Page_210">[Pg 210]</a></span> +He laughed himself a little, with a laugh that was somewhat like a growl +at his own abrupt conclusion, to which Bice responded cordially.</p> + +<p>"How nice it is to laugh," she said, "it gets the air into your lungs +and then you can breathe. It is to breathe I want—large—a whole world +full," she cried, throwing out her arms and opening her mouth. "Because +you know the rooms are small here, and there is so much furniture, the +windows closed with curtains, the floors all hot with carpets. Do they +shut you up as if in a box at night, with the shutters shut and all so +dark? They do me. But as soon as they are gone I open. I like far better +our rooms with big walls, and marble that is cool, and large, large +windows that you can lie and look out at, when you wake, all painted +upon the sky."</p> + +<p>"I should think," said Jock, with the impulse of contradiction, "they +would not be at all comfortable——"</p> + +<p>"Comfortable," she cried in high disdain, "does one want to be +comfortable? One wants to live, and feel the air, and everything that is +round."</p> + +<p>"That's what we do at school," said Jock, waking up to a sense of the +affinities as he had already done to the diversities between them.</p> + +<p>"Tell me about school," she cried, with a pretty imperious air; and +Jock, who never desired any better, obeyed.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_211" id="Page_211">[Pg 211]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXII" id="CHAPTER_XXII"></a>CHAPTER XXII.</h2> + +<h3>A PAIR OF FRIENDS.</h3> + + +<p>After this it came to be a very common occurrence that Jock and Bice +should meet in the afternoon. He for one thing had lost his +companionship with Lucy, and had been straying forth forlorn not knowing +what to do with himself, taking long walks which he did not care for, +and longing for the intellectual companionship of MTutor, or even of the +other fellows who, if not intellectual, at least were acquainted with +the same things, and accustomed to the same occupations as himself. It +worked in him a tremor and commotion of a kind in which he was wholly +inexperienced, when he saw the slim figure of the girl approaching him, +through the paths of the shrubberies, or across the glades of the park. +He said to himself once or twice, "What a bore;" but those words did not +express his feelings. It was not a bore, it was something very +different. He could not explain the mingled reluctance and pleasure of +his own mood, the little tumult that arose in him when he saw her. He +wanted to turn his back and rush away, and yet he wanted to be there +waiting for her, seeing her approach step by step. He had no notion what +his own mingled sentiments meant. But Bice to all appearance had neither +the reluctance nor the excitement. She came running to her playmate +whenever she saw him with frank satisfaction. "I was looking for you," +she would say, "Let us go out into the park where nobody can see us. +Run, or some one will be coming," and then she would fly over stock and +stone, summoning him after her. There<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_212" id="Page_212">[Pg 212]</a></span> were many occasions when Jock did +not approve, but he always followed her, though with internal +grumblings, in which he indulged consciously, making out his own +annoyance to be very great. "Why can't she let me alone?" he said to +himself; but when it occurred that Bice did leave him alone, and made no +appearance, his sense of injury was almost bitter. On such occasions he +said cutting things within himself, and was very satirical as to the +stupidity of girls who were afraid to wet their feet, and estimated the +danger of catching a cold as greater than any natural advantage. For +Jock had all that instinctive hostility to womankind, which is natural +to the male bosom, except perhaps at one varying period of life. They +had no place in the economy of his existence at school, and he knew +nothing of them nor wanted to know. But Bice, though, when he was +annoyed with her, she became to him the typical girl, the epitome of +offending woman, had at other times a very different position. It +stirred his entire being, he did not know how, when she roamed with him +about the woods talking of everything, from a point of view which was +certainly different from Jock's. Occasionally, even, he did not +understand her any more than if she had been speaking a foreign +language. She had never any difficulty in penetrating his meaning as he +had in penetrating hers, but there were times when she did not +understand him any more than he understood her. She was by far the +easiest in morals, the least Puritanical. It was not easy to shock Bice, +but it was not at all difficult to shock Jock, brought up as he was in +the highest sentiments under the wing of MTutor, who believed in moral +influence. But the fashion of the intercourse held between these two, +was very remarkable in its<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_213" id="Page_213">[Pg 213]</a></span> way. They were like brother and sister, +without being brother and sister. They were strangers to each other, yet +living in the most entire intimacy, and likely to be parted for ever +to-morrow. They were of the same age, yet the girl was, in experience of +life, a world in advance of the boy, who, notwithstanding, had the +better of her in a thousand ways. In short, they were a paradox, such as +youth, more or less, is always, and the careless close companionship +that grew up between them was at once the most natural and the most +strange alliance. They told each other everything by degrees, without +being at all aware of the nature of their mutual confidence; Bice +revealing to Jock the conditions on which she was to be brought out in +England, and Jock to Bice the unusual features of his own and his +sister's position, to the unbounded astonishment and scepticism of each.</p> + +<p>"Beautiful?" said Jock, drawing a long breath. "But beautiful's not a +thing you can go in for, like an exam: You're born so, or you're born +not so; and you know you're not—I mean, you know you're—— Well, it +isn't your fault. Are you going to be sent away for just being—not +pretty?"</p> + +<p>"I told you," said the girl, with a little impatience. "Being pretty is +of no consequence. I am pretty, of course," she added regretfully. "But +it is only if I turn out beautiful that she will take the trouble. And +at sixteen, I am told, one cannot yet know."</p> + +<p>"But—" cried Jock with a sort of consternation, "you don't mind, do +you? I don't mean anything unkind, you know; I don't think it +matters—and I am sure it isn't your fault; you are not +even—good-looking," candour compelled the boy to say, as to an honest +comrade with whom sincerity was best.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_214" id="Page_214">[Pg 214]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Ah!" cried Bice, with a little excitement. "Do you think so? Then +perhaps there is more hope."</p> + +<p>Jock was confounded by this utterance, and he began to feel that he had +been uncivil. "I don't mean," he said, "that you are not—I mean that it +is not of the least consequence. What does it matter? I am sure you are +clever, which is far better. I think you could get up anything faster +than most fellows if you were to try."</p> + +<p>"Get up! What does that mean? And when I tell you that it does matter to +me—oh much,—very much!" she cried. "When you are beautiful, everything +is before you—you marry, you have whatever you wish, you become a great +lady; only to be pretty—that does nothing for you. Ugly, however," said +the girl reflectively; "if I am ugly, then there is some hope."</p> + +<p>"I did not say that," cried Jock, shocked at the suggestion. "I wouldn't +be so uncivil. You are—just like other people," he added encouragingly, +"not much either one way or another—like the rest of us," Jock said, +with the intention of soothing her ruffled feelings. At sixteen decorum +is not always the first thing we think of; and though Bice was not an +English girl, she was very young. She threw out a vigorous arm and +pushed him from her, so that the astonished critic, stumbling over some +fallen branches, measured his length upon the dewy sod.</p> + +<p>"That was not I," she said demurely, as he picked himself up in great +surprise—drawing a step away, and looking at him with wide-open eyes, +to which the little fright of seeing him fall, and the spark of malice +that took pleasure in it, had given sudden brilliancy. Jock was so much +astonished that he uttered no reproach, but went on by her side, after a +moment,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_215" id="Page_215">[Pg 215]</a></span> pondering. He could not see how any offence could have lurked +in the encouraging and consolatory words he had said.</p> + +<p>But when they reached the other chapter, which concerned his fortunes, +Bice was not more understanding. Her gray eyes absolutely flamed upon +him when he told her of his father's will, and the conditions upon which +Lucy's inheritance was held. "To give her money away! But that is +impossible—it would be to prove one's self mad," the girl said.</p> + +<p>"Why? You forget it's my father you're speaking of. He was not mad, he +was just," said Jock, reddening. "What's mad in it? You've got a great +fortune—far more than you want. It all came out of other people's +pockets somehow. Oh, of course, not in a dishonest way. That is the +worst of speaking to a girl that doesn't understand political economy +and the laws of production. Of course it must come out of other people's +pockets. If I sell anything and get a profit (and nobody would sell +anything if they didn't get a profit), of course that comes out of your +pocket. Well, now, I've got a great deal more than I want, and I say you +shall have some of it back."</p> + +<p>"And I say," cried Bice, making him a curtsey, "Merci Monsieur! Grazia +Signor! oh thank you, thank you very much—as much as you like, sir, as +much as you like! but all the same I think you are mad. Your money! all +that makes you happy and great——"</p> + +<p>"Money," said Jock, loftily, "makes nobody happy. It may make you +comfortable. It gives you fine houses, horses and carriages, and all +that sort of thing. So it will do to the other people to whom it goes; +so it is wisdom to divide it, for the more good you can get out of it +the better. Lucy has money lying in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_216" id="Page_216">[Pg 216]</a></span> bank—or somewhere—that she +does not want, that does her no good; and there is some one else" (a +fellow I know, Jock added in a parenthesis), "who has not got enough to +live upon. So you see she just hands over what she doesn't want to him, +and that's better for both. So far from being mad, it's"—Jock paused +for a word—"it's philosophy, it's wisdom, it's statesmanship. It is +just the grandest way that was ever invented for putting things +straight."</p> + +<p>Bice looked at him with a sort of incredulous cynical gaze—as if asking +whether he meant her to believe this fiction—whether perhaps he was +such a fool as to think that she could be persuaded to believe it. It +was evident that she did not for a moment suppose him to be serious. She +laughed at last in ridicule and scorn. "You think," she said, "I know so +little. Ah, I know a great deal more than that. What are you without +money? You are nobody. The more you have, so much more have you +everything at your command. Without money you are nobody. Yes, you may +be a prince or an English milord, but that is nothing without money. Oh +yes! I have known princes that had nothing and the people laughed at +them. And a milord who is poor—the very donkey-boys scorn him. You can +do nothing without money," the girl said with almost fierce derision, +"and you tell me you will give it away!" She laughed again angrily, as +if such a brag was offensive and insulting to her own poverty. The boy +who had never in his life known what it was to want anything that money +could procure for him, treated the whole question lightly, and +undervalued its importance altogether. But the girl who knew by +experience what was involved in the want of it, heard with a sort of +wondering fury this<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_217" id="Page_217">[Pg 217]</a></span> slighting treatment of what was to her the +universal panacea. Her cynicism and satirical unbelief grew into +indignation. "And you tell me it is wise to give it away!"</p> + +<p>"Lucy has got to do it, whether it is wise or not," said Jock, almost +overawed by this high moral disapproval. "We went to the lawyer about it +the day you came. He is settling it now. She is giving away—well, a +good many thousand pounds."</p> + +<p>"Pounds are more than francs, eh?" said Bice quickly.</p> + +<p>"More than francs! just twenty-five times more," cried Jock, proud of +his knowledge, "a thousand pounds is——"</p> + +<p>"Then I don't believe you!" cried the girl in an outburst of passion, +and she fled from him across the park, catching up her dress and running +at a pace which even Jock with his long legs knew he could not keep up +with. He gazed with surprise, standing still and watching her with the +words arrested on his lips. "But she can't keep it up long like that," +after a moment Jock said.</p> + +<p>The time, however, approached when the two friends had to part. Jock +left the Hall a few days after Lady Randolph, and he was somehow not +very glad to go. The family life had been less cheerful lately, and +conversation languished when the domestic party were alone together. +When the Contessa was present she kept up the ball, maintaining at least +with Sir Tom an always animated and lively strain of talk; but at +breakfast there was not much said, and of late a little restraint had +crept even between the master and mistress of the house, no one could +tell how. The names of the guests were scarcely mentioned between them.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_218" id="Page_218">[Pg 218]</a></span> +Sir Tom was very attentive and kind to his wife, but he was more silent +than he used to be, reading his letters and his newspapers. Lucy had +been quite satisfied when he said, though it must be allowed with a +laugh not devoid of embarrassment, that it was more important he should +master all the papers and see how public opinion was running, now when +it was so near the opening of Parliament. But a little veil of silence +had fallen over Lucy too. It cost her an effort to speak even to Jock of +common subjects and of his going away. She had thought him looking a +little disturbed, however, on the last morning, and with the newspaper +forming a sort of screen between them and Sir Tom, Lucy made an attempt +to talk to her brother as of old.</p> + +<p>"I shall miss you very much, Jock. We have not had so much time together +as we thought."</p> + +<p>"We have had no time together, Lucy."</p> + +<p>"You must not say that, dear. Don't you recollect that drive to +Farafield? We have not had so many walks, it is true; but then I have +been—occupied."</p> + +<p>"Is it ever finished yet, that business?" Jock said suddenly.</p> + +<p>It was all Lucy could do not to give him a warning look. "I have had +some letters about it. A thing cannot be finished in a minute like +that." Instinctively she spoke low to escape her husband's ear; he had +never referred to the subject, and she avoided it religiously. It gave +her a thrill of alarm to have it thus reintroduced. To escape it, she +said, raising her voice a little: "The Contessa's letters have not been +sent to her. You must ring the bell, Jock. There are a great many for +her." The name of the Contessa always moved Sir Tom to a certain +attention. He<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_219" id="Page_219">[Pg 219]</a></span> seemed to be on the alert for what might be said of her. +He looked round the corner of the paper with a short laugh, and said, +jocularly, with mock gravity—</p> + +<p>"It is a great thing to keep up your correspondence, Lucy. You never can +know when it may prove serviceable. If it had not been for that, she +most likely never would have come here."</p> + +<p>Lucy smiled, though with a little restraint. "Perhaps she is sorry now," +she said, "for it must be dull." Then she hurriedly changed the subject, +afraid lest she might seem ill-natured. "Poor Miss Bice has never any +letters," she said; "she must have very few friends."</p> + +<p>"Oh, she has nobody at all," said Jock, "She hasn't got a relation. She +has always lived like this, in different places; and never been to +school, or—anywhere; though she has been nearly round the world."</p> + +<p>"Poor little thing! and she is fond of children too," said Lucy. "I +found her one day with baby on her shoulder, a wet day when he could not +get out, racing up and down the long gallery with him crowing and +laughing. It was so pretty to see him——"</p> + +<p>"Or to see her, Lucy, most people would say," said Sir Tom, interrupting +again.</p> + +<p>"Would they? Oh, yes. But I thought naturally of baby," said the young +mother. Then she made a pause and added softly, "I hope—they—are +always kind to her."</p> + +<p>There was a little silence. Sir Tom was behind his newspaper. He +listened, but he did not say anything, and Jock was not aware that he +was listening.</p> + +<p>"Oh, I don't think she minds," said Jock. "She is rather jolly when you +come to know her. I say, Lucy, it will be awfully dull for her, you +know, when——"</p> + +<p>"When what, Jock?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_220" id="Page_220">[Pg 220]</a></span></p> + +<p>"When I am gone," the boy intended to have said, but some gleam of +consciousness came over him that made him pause. He did not say this, +but grew a little red in the effort to think of something else that he +could say.</p> + +<p>"Well, I mean here," he said, "for she hasn't been used to it. She has +been in places where there was always music playing and that sort of +thing. She never was in the country. There's plenty of books, to be +sure; but she's not very fond of reading. Few people, are, I think. +<i>You</i> never open a book——"</p> + +<p>"Oh yes, Jock! I read the books from Mudie's," Lucy said, with some +spirit, "and I always send them upstairs."</p> + +<p>Jock had it on his lips to say something derogatory of the books from +Mudie's; but he checked himself, for he remembered to have seen MTutor +with one of those frivolous volumes, and he refrained from snubbing +Lucy. "I believe she can't read," he said. "She can do nothing but laugh +at one. And she thinks she's pretty," he added, with a little laugh yet +sense of unfaithfulness to the trust reposed in him, which once more +covered his face with crimson.</p> + +<p>Lucy laughed too, with hesitation and doubt. "I cannot see it," she +said, "but that is what Lady Randolph thought. It is strange that she +should talk of such things; but people are very funny who have been +brought up abroad."</p> + +<p>"All girls are like that," said Jock, authoritatively. "They think so +much of being pretty. But I tell her it doesn't matter. What difference +could it make? Nobody will suppose it was her fault. She says——"</p> + +<p>"Hallo, young man," said Sir Tom. "It is time you went back to school, I +think. What would<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_221" id="Page_221">[Pg 221]</a></span> MTutor say to all these confidences with young +ladies, and knowledge of their ways!"</p> + +<p>Jock gave his brother-in-law a look, in which defiant virtue struggled +with a certain consciousness; but he scorned to make any reply.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXIII" id="CHAPTER_XXIII"></a>CHAPTER XXIII.</h2> + +<h3>THE BREAKFAST TABLE.</h3> + + +<p>Lucy found her life much changed when Jock had gone, and she was left +alone to face the change of circumstances which had tacitly taken place. +The Contessa said not a word of terminating her visit. The departure of +Lady Randolph apparently suggested nothing to her. She could scarcely +have filled up the foreground more entirely than she did before—but she +was now uncriticised, unremarked upon. There seemed even to be no +appropriation of more than her due, for it was very natural that a +person of experience and powers of conversation like hers should take +the leading place, and simple Lucy, so much younger and with so much +less acquaintance with the world, fall into the background. And +accordingly this was what happened. Madame di Forno-Populo knew +everybody. She had a hundred mutual acquaintances to tell Sir Tom about, +and they seemed to have an old habit of intercourse, which by this time +had been fully resumed. The evenings were the time when this was most +apparent. Then the Contessa was at her brightest. She had managed to +introduce shades upon all the lamps, so as to diffuse round her a +softened artificial illumination<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_222" id="Page_222">[Pg 222]</a></span> such as is favourable to beauty that +has passed its prime: and in this ruddy gloom she sat half seen, Sir Tom +sometimes standing by her, sometimes permitted to take the other corner +of her sofa—and talked to him, sometimes sinking her voice low as her +reminiscences took some special vein, sometimes calling sweetly to her +pretty Lucy to listen to this or that. These extensions of confidence, +generally, were brought in to make up for a long stretch of more private +communications, and the aspect of the little domestic circle was on such +occasions curious enough. By the table, in a low chair, with the full +light of the lamp upon her, sat Lucy, generally with some work in her +hands; she did not read or write (exercises to which, to tell the truth, +she was not much addicted) out of politeness, lest she should seem to be +withdrawing her attention from her guest, but sat there with her slight +occupation, so as to be open to any appeal, and ready if she were +wanted. On the other side of the table, the light making a sort of +screen and division between them, sat Bice, generally with a book before +her, which, as has been said, did not at all interfere with her power of +giving a vivid attention to what was going on around her. These two said +nothing to each other, and were often silent for the whole evening, like +pieces of still life. Bice sat with her book upon the table, so that +only the open page and the hands that held the book were within the +brightness of the light, which on the other side streamed down upon +Lucy's fair shoulders and soft young face, and upon the work in her +hands. In the corner was the light continuous murmur of talk; the +half-seen figure of the Contessa, generally leaning back, looking up to +Sir Tom, who stood with his arm on the mantelpiece with much animation, +gesticulation of her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_223" id="Page_223">[Pg 223]</a></span> hands and subdued laughter, the most lively +current of sound, soft, intensified by little eloquent breaks, by +emphatic gestures, by sentences left incomplete, but understood all the +better for being half said. There were many evenings in which Lucy sat +there with a little wonder, but no other active feeling in her mind. It +is needless to say that it was not pleasant to her. She would sit and +wonder wistfully whether her husband had forgotten she was there, but +then reminded herself that of course it was his duty to think of the +Contessa first, and consoled herself that by and by the stranger would +go away, and all would be as it had been. As time went on, the desire +that this should happen, and longing to have possession of her home +again, grew so strong that she could scarcely subdue it, and it was with +the greatest difficulty that she kept all expression of it from her +lips. And by and by, the warmth of this restrained desire so absorbed +Lucy that she scarcely dared allow herself to speak lest it should burst +forth, and there seemed to herself to be continually going on in her +mind a calculation of the chances, a scrutiny of everything the Contessa +said which seemed to point at such a movement. But, indeed, the Contessa +said very little upon which the most sanguine could build. She said +nothing of her arrangements at all, nor spoke of what she was going to +do, and answered none of Lucy's ardent and innocent fishings after +information. The evenings became more and more intolerable to Lady +Randolph as they went on. She was glad that anybody should come, however +little she might care for their society, to break these private +conferences up.</p> + +<p>And this was not all, nor even perhaps the worst, of the vague evils not +yet defined in her mind, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_224" id="Page_224">[Pg 224]</a></span> which she was so very reluctant to define, +which Lucy had to go through. At breakfast, when she was alone with her +husband, matters were almost worse. Sir Tom, it was evident, began to +feel the <i>tête-à-tête</i> embarrassing. He did not know what to say to his +little wife when they were alone. The presence of the Dowager and Jock +had freed him from any necessity of explanation, had kept him in his +usual easy way; but now that Lucy alone sat opposite to him, he was more +silent than his wont, and with no longer any of the little flow of +simple observations which had once been so delightful to her. Sir Tom +was more uneasy than if she had been a stern and jealous Eleanor, a +clear-sighted critic seeing through and through him. The contest was so +unequal, and the weaker creature so destitute of any intention or +thought of resistance, that he felt himself a coward and traitor for +thus deserting her and overclouding her home and her life. Then he took +to asking himself, Did he overcloud her? Was she sensible of any +difference? Did she know enough to know that this was not how she ought +to be treated, or was she not quite contented with her secondary place? +Such a simple creature, would she not cry—would she not show her anger +if she was conscious of anything to be grieved or angry about? He took +refuge in those newspapers which, he gave out, it was so necessary he +should study, to understand the mind of the country before the opening +of Parliament. And thus they would sit, Lucy dutifully filling out the +tea, taking care that he had the dish he liked for breakfast, swallowing +her own with difficulty yet lingering over it, always thinking that +perhaps Tom might have something to say. While he, on the other hand, +kept behind his newspaper, feeling himself guilty,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_225" id="Page_225">[Pg 225]</a></span> conscious that +another sort of woman would make one of those "scenes" which men dread, +yet despising Lucy a little in spite of himself for the very quality he +most admired in her, and wondering if she were really capable of feeling +at all. Sometimes little Tom would be brought downstairs to roll about +the carpet and try his unsteady little limbs in a series of clutches at +the chairs and table; and on these occasions the meal was got through +more easily. But little Tom was not always well enough to come +downstairs, and sometimes Lucy thought that her husband might have +something to say to her which the baby's all-engrossing presence +hindered. Thus it came about that the hours in which the Contessa was +present and in the front of everything, were really less painful than +those in which the pair were alone with the shadow of the intruder, more +powerful even than her presence holding them apart.</p> + +<p>One of these mornings, however, Lucy's anticipations and hopes seemed +about to be realised. Sir Tom laid down his paper, looked at her frankly +without any shield, and said, as she had so often imagined him saying, +"I want to talk to you, Lucy." How glad she was that little Tom was not +downstairs that morning!</p> + +<p>She looked at him across the table with a brightening countenance, and +said, "Yes, Tom!" with such warm eagerness and sudden pleasure that her +look penetrated his very heart. It implied a great deal more than Sir +Tom intended and thought, and he was a man of very quick intelligence. +The expectation in her eyes touched him beyond a thousand complaints.</p> + +<p>"I had an interview yesterday, in which you were much concerned," he +said; then made a pause, with such a revolution going on within him as +seldom happens in a mature and self-collected mind. He had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_226" id="Page_226">[Pg 226]</a></span> begun with +totally different sentiments from those which suddenly came over him at +the sight of her kindling face. When he said, "I want to talk to you, +Lucy," he had meant to speak of her interview with Mr. Rushton, to point +out to her the folly of what she was doing, and to show her how it was +that he should be compelled to do everything that was in his power to +oppose her. He did not mean to go to the root of the matter, as he had +done before, when he was obliged to admit to himself that he had +failed—but to address himself to the secondary view of the question, to +the small prospect there was of doing any good. But when he caught her +eager, questioning look, her eyes growing liquid and bright with +emotion, her face full of restrained anxiety and hope, Sir Tom's heart +smote him. What did she think he was going to say? Not anything about +money, important as that subject was in their life—but something far +more important, something that touched her to the quick, a revelation +upon which her very soul hung. He was startled beyond measure by this +disclosure. He had thought she did not feel, and that her heart +unawakened had regarded calmly, with no pain to speak of, the new state +of affairs of which he himself was guiltily conscious; but that eager +look put an end in a moment to his delusion. He paused and swerved +mentally as if an angel had suddenly stepped into his way.</p> + +<p>"It is about—that will of your father's," he said.</p> + +<p>Lucy, gazing at him with such hope and expectation, suddenly sank, as it +were, prostrate in the depth of a disappointment that almost took the +life out of her. She did not indeed fall physically or faint, which +people seldom do in moments of extreme mental suffering. It was only her +countenance that fell. Her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_227" id="Page_227">[Pg 227]</a></span> brightening, beaming, hopeful face grew +blank in a moment, her eyes grew utterly dim, a kind of mist running +over them: a sound—half a sob, half a sigh, came from her breast. She +put up her hand trembling to support her head, which shook too with the +quiver that went over her. It took her at least a minute to get over the +shock of the disappointment. Then commanding herself painfully, but +without looking at him, which, indeed, she dared not do, she said again, +"Yes, Tom?" with a piteous quiver of her lip.</p> + +<p>It did not make Sir Tom any the less kind, and full of tender impulses, +that he was wounding his wife in the profoundest sensibilities of her +heart. In this point the greater does not include the lesser. He was +cruel in the more important matter, without intending it indeed, and +from what he considered a fatality, a painful combination of +circumstances out of which he could not escape; but in the lesser +particulars he was as kind as ever. He could not bear to see her +suffering. The quiver in her lip, the failure of the colour in her +cheeks affected him so that he could scarcely contain himself.</p> + +<p>"My dear love," he cried, "my little Lucy! you are not afraid of what I +am going to say to you?" These words came to his lips naturally, by the +affectionate impulse of his kind nature. But when he had said them, an +impulse, which was perhaps more crafty than loving, followed. Quick as +thought he changed his intention, his purpose altogether. He could not +resist the appeal of Lucy's face; but he slipped instinctively from the +more serious question that lay between them, and resolved to sacrifice +the other, which was indeed very important, yet could be treated in an +easier way and without involving any<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_228" id="Page_228">[Pg 228]</a></span>thing more painful. Sir Tom was at +an age when money has a great value, and the mere sense of possession is +pleasant; and there was a principle involved which he had determined a +few weeks ago not to relinquish. But the position in which he found +himself placed was one out of which some way of escape had to be +invented at once. "Lucy," he said, "you are frightened; you think I am +going to cross you in the matter that lies so near your heart. But you +mistake me, my dear. I think I ought to be your chief adviser in that as +in all matters. It is my duty: but I hope you never thought that I would +exercise any force upon you to put a stop to—what you thought right."</p> + +<p>Lucy had overcome herself, though with a painful effort. She followed +with a quivering humility what he was saying. She acknowledged to +herself that this was, indeed, the great thing in her life, and that it +was only her childishness and foolishness which had made her place other +matters in the chief place. Most likely, she said to herself, Tom was +not aware of anything that required explanation; he would never think it +possible that she could be so ungracious and unkind as to grudge his +guests their place in his house. She gathered herself up hastily to meet +him when he entered upon the great question which was far more +important, which was indeed the only question between them. "I know," +she said, "that you were always kind, Tom. If I did not ask you first it +was because——"</p> + +<p>"We need not enter upon that, my dear. I was angry, and went too far. At +the same time, Lucy, it is a mad affair altogether. Your father himself, +had he realised the difficulty of carrying it out, would have seen this. +I only say so to let you know my opinion<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_229" id="Page_229">[Pg 229]</a></span> is unchanged. And you know +your trustees are of the same mind. But if you think this is your duty, +as I am sure you do——"</p> + +<p>It seemed to Lucy that her duty had sailed far away from her on some sea +of strange distance and dullness where she could scarcely keep it in +sight. Her own very voice seemed strange and dull to her and far away, +as she said almost mechanically: "I do think it is my duty—to my +father——"</p> + +<p>"I am aware that you think so, my love. As you get older you will, +perhaps, see as I do—that to carry out the spirit of your father's will +would be better than to follow so closely the letter of it. But you are +still very young, and Jock is younger; and, fortunately, you can afford +to indulge a freak of this sort. I shall let Mr. Rushton know that I +withdraw all opposition. And now, give me a kiss, and let us forget that +there ever was any controversy between us—it never went further than a +controversy, did it, darling?" Sir Tom said.</p> + +<p>Lucy could not speak for the moment. She looked up into his face with +her eyes all liquid with tears, and a great confusion in her soul. Was +this all? as he kissed her, and smiled, leaning over her in the old kind +way, with a tenderness that was half-fatherly and indulgent to her +weakness, she did not seem at all sure what it was that had moved like a +ghost between him and her; was it in reality only this—this and no +more? She almost thought so as she looked up into his kind face. Only +this! How glad it would have made her three weeks ago to have his +sanction for the thing she was so reluctant to attempt, which it was so +much her duty to do, which Jock urged with so much pertinacity, and +which her father from his grave<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_230" id="Page_230">[Pg 230]</a></span> enjoined. If it affected her but dully +now, whose was the fault? Not Tom's, who was so generously ready to +yield to her, although he disapproved. When he retired behind his +newspaper once more with a kind smile at her, to end the matter, Lucy +sat quite still in a curious stunned confusion trying to account for it +all to herself. There could be no doubt, she thought, that it was she +who was in the wrong. She it was who had created the embarrassment +altogether. He was not even aware of any other cause. It had never +occurred to his greater mind that she could be so petty as to fret under +the interruption which their visitors had made in her life. He had +thought that the other matter was the cause of her dullness and silence, +and generously had put an end to it, not by requiring any sacrifice from +her, but by making one in his own person. She sat silent trying to +realise all this, but unable to get quite free from the confusion and +dimness that had invaded her soul.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXIV" id="CHAPTER_XXIV"></a>CHAPTER XXIV.</h2> + +<h3>THE ORACLE SPEAKS.</h3> + + +<p>Lucy went up to the nursery when breakfast was over. It was her habit to +go and take counsel of little Tom when her heart was troubled or heavy. +He was now eighteen months old, an age at which you will say the +judicial faculties are small; but a young mother has superstitions, and +there are many dilemmas in life in which it will do a woman, though the +male critic may laugh, great good to go and con<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_231" id="Page_231">[Pg 231]</a></span>fide it all to her baby, +and hold that little bundle of white against her heart to conquer the +pain of it. When little Tom was lively and well, when he put his arms +about her neck and dabbed his velvety mouth against her cheek, Lucy felt +that she was approved of and her heart rose. When he was cross and cried +and pushed her away from him, as sometimes happened, she ceased to be +sure of anything, and felt dissatisfied with herself and all the world. +It was with a great longing to consult this baby oracle and see what +heaven might have to say to her through his means, that she ran +upstairs, neglecting even Mrs. Freshwater, who advanced ceremoniously +from her own retirement with her bill of fare in her hand, as Lucy +darted past. "Wait a little and I will come to you," she cried. What was +the dinner in comparison? She flew up to the nursery only to find it +vacant. The morning was clingy and damp, no weather for the delicate +child to go out, and Lucy was not alarmed but knew well enough where to +find him. The long picture gallery which ran along the front of the +house was his usual promenade on such occasions, and there she betook +herself hurriedly. There could not be much doubt as to little Tom's +whereabouts. Shrieks of baby fun were audible whenever she came within +hearing, and the sound of a flying foot careering from end to end of the +long space, which certainly was not the foot of Tom's nurse, whose voice +could be heard in cries of caution, "Oh, take care, Miss! Oh, for +goodness sake—oh, what will my lady say to me if you should trip with +him!" Lucy paused suddenly, checked by the sound of this commotion. Once +before she had surprised a scene of the kind, and she knew what it +meant. She stopped short, and stood<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_232" id="Page_232">[Pg 232]</a></span> still to get possession of herself. +It was a circumstance which pulled her up sharply and changed the +current of her mind. Her first feeling was one of disappointment and +almost irritation. Could she not even have the baby to herself, she +murmured? But there was in reality so little of the petty in Lucy's +disposition that this was but a momentary sentiment. It changed, +however, the manner of her entrance. She came in quietly, not rushing to +seize her boy as she had intended, but still with her superstition +strong in her heart, and as determined to resort to the <i>Sortes Tomianæ</i> +as ever. The sight she saw was one to make a picture of. Skimming along +the long gallery with that free light step which scarcely seemed to +touch the ground was Bice, a long stream of hair flying behind her, the +child seated on her shoulder, supported by one raised arm, while the +other held aloft the end of a red scarf which she had twisted round him. +Little Tom had one hand twisted in her hair, and with his small feet +beating upon her breast, and his little chest expanded with cries of +delight, encouraged his steed in her wild career. The dark old pictures, +some full-length Randolphs of an elder age, good for little but a +background, threw up this airy group with all the perfection of +contrast. They flew by as Lucy came in, so joyous, so careless, so +delightful in pose and movement, that she could not utter the little cry +of alarm that came to her lips. Bice had never in her life looked so +near that beauty which she considered as so serious a necessity. She was +flushed with the movement, her fine light figure, too light and slight +as yet for the full perfection of feminine form, was the very +impersonation of youth. She flew, she did not glide nor run—her elastic +foot<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_233" id="Page_233">[Pg 233]</a></span> spurned the floor. She was like a runner in a Greek game. Lucy +stood breathless between admiration and pleasure and alarm, as the +animated figure turned and came fast towards her in its airy career. +Little Tom perceived his mother as they came up. He was still more +daring than his bearer. He detached himself suddenly from Bice's +shoulder, and with a shout of pleasure threw himself upon Lucy. The +oracle had spoken. It almost brought her to her knees indeed, descending +upon her like a little thunderbolt, catching her round the throat and +tearing off with a hurried clutch the lace upon her dress; while the +flying steed, suddenly arrested, came to a dead stop in front of her, +panting, blushing, and disconcerted. "There was no fear," she cried, +with involuntary self-defence, "I held him fast." Bice forgot even in +the surprise how wildly she stood with her hair floating, and the scarf +in her hand still knotted round the baby's waist.</p> + +<p>"There was no danger, my lady. I was watching every step; and it do +Master Tom a world of good," cried the nurse, coming to the rescue.</p> + +<p>"Why should you think I am afraid?" said Lucy. "Don't you know I am most +grateful to you for being so kind to him? and it was pretty to see you. +You looked so bright and strong, and my boy so happy."</p> + +<p>"Miss is just our salvation, my lady," said the nurse; "these wet days +when we can't get out, I don't know what I should do without her. Master +Tom, bless him, is always cross when he don't get no air; but once set +on Miss' shoulder he crows till it do your heart good to hear him," the +woman cried.</p> + +<p>Bice stood with the colour still in her face, her head thrown back a +little, and her breath coming less quickly. She laughed at this +applause. "I like it,"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_234" id="Page_234">[Pg 234]</a></span> she said. "I like him; he is my only little +companion. He is pleased when he sees me."</p> + +<p>This went to Lucy's heart. "And so are we all," she said; "but you will +not let me see you. I am often alone, too. If you will come and—and +give me your company——"</p> + +<p>Bice gave her a wistful look; then shook her head.</p> + +<p>"I know you do not wish for us here; and why should you?" she said.</p> + +<p>"My dear!" cried Lucy in alarm, with a glance at the woman who stood by, +all ears. And now it was that little Tom at eighteen months showed that +precocious judgment in which his mother had an instinctive belief. He +had satisfied himself with the destruction of Lucy's lace, and with +printing the impression of his mouth all over her cheeks. That little +wet wide open mouth was delicious to Lucy. No trouble had befallen her +yet that could not be wiped out by its touch. But now a new distraction +was necessary for the little hero; and his eye caught the red sash which +still was round his waist. He transferred all his thoughts to it with an +instant revolution of idea, and holding on by it like a little sailor on +a rope, drew Bice close till he could succeed in the arduous task, not +unattended by danger, of flinging himself from one to another. This game +enchanted Master Tom. Had he been a little older it would have been +changed into that daring faltering hop from one eminence, say a +footstool, to another, which flutters the baby soul. He was too insecure +in possession of those aimless little legs to venture on any such daring +feat now; but, with a valour more desperate still, he flung himself +across the gulf from Lucy's arms to those of Bice and back again, with +cries of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_235" id="Page_235">[Pg 235]</a></span> delight. These cries, it must be allowed, were not very +articulate, but they soon became urgent, with a demand which the little +tyrant insisted upon with increasing vehemence.</p> + +<p>"Oh, my lady," cried the nurse, "it is as plain as if he said it, and he +is saying of it, the pet, as pretty!—--He wants you to kiss Miss, he +do. Ain't that it, my own? Nursey knows his little talk. Ain't that it, +my darling lamb?"</p> + +<p>There was a momentary pause in the strange little group linked together +by the baby's clutches. The young mother and the girl with their heads +so near each other, looked in each other's faces. In Lucy's there was a +kind of awe, in Bice's a sort of wondering wistfulness mingled with +incipient defiance. They were not born to be each other's friends. They +were different in everything; they were even on different sides in this +house—the one an intruder, belonging to the party which was destroying +the other's domestic peace. It would be vain to say that there was not a +little reluctance in Lucy's soul as she gazed at the younger girl, come +from she knew not where, established under her roof she knew not how. +She hesitated for one moment, then she bent forward almost with +solemnity and kissed Bice's cheek. She seemed to communicate her own +agitation to the girl who stood straight up with her head a little back, +half eager, half defiant. When Bice felt the touch of Lucy's lips, +however, she melted in a moment. Her slight figure swayed, she took +Lucy's disengaged hand with her own, and, stooping over it, kissed it +with lips that quivered. There was not a word said between them; but a +secret compact was thus made under little Tom's inspiration. The little +oracle clambered up<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_236" id="Page_236">[Pg 236]</a></span> upon his mother afterwards, and laid down his head +upon her shoulder and dropped off to sleep with that entire confiding +and abandonment of the whole little being which is one of the deepest +charms of childhood. Who is there with any semblance of a heart in his, +much more her, bosom, who is not touched in the tenderest part when a +child goes to sleep in his arms? The appeal conveyed in the act is one +which scarcely a savage could withstand. The three women gathered round +to see this common spectacle, so universal, so touching. Bice, who was +almost too young for the maternal sentiment, and who was a stern young +Stoic by nature, never shedding a tear, could not tell how it was that +her eyes moistened. But Lucy's filled with an emotion which was sharp +and sore with alarm. "Oh, nurse, don't call my boy a little angel!" she +said, with a sentiment which a woman will understand.</p> + +<p>This baby scene upstairs was balanced by one of a very different +character below. Sir Tom had gone into his own room a little disturbed +and out of sorts. Circumstances had been hard upon him, he felt. The +Contessa's letter offering her visit had been a jest to him. He was one +of those who thought the best of the Contessa. He had seen a good deal +of her one time and another in his life, and she held the clue to one or +two matters which it would not have pleased him, at this mature period +of his existence, to have published abroad. She was an adventuress, he +knew, and her friends were not among the best of humanity. She had led a +life which, without being positively evil, had shut her out from the +sympathies of many good people. When a woman has to solve the problem +how to obtain all the luxuries and amusements<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_237" id="Page_237">[Pg 237]</a></span> of life without money, it +is to be expected that her attempts to do so should lead her into risky +places, where the footing was far from sure. But she had never, as Lady +Randolph acknowledged, gone so far as that society should refuse to +receive her, and Sir Tom was always an indulgent critic. If she were +coming to England, as she gave him to understand, he saw no reason why +she should not come to the Hall. For himself, it would be rather amusing +than otherwise, and Lucy would take no harm—even if there was harm in +the Forno-Populo (which he did not believe), his wife was far too +innocent even to suspect it. She would not know evil if she saw it, he +said to himself proudly; and then there was no chance that the Contessa, +who loved merriment and gaiety, could long be content with anything so +humdrum as his quiet life in the country. Thus it will be seen that Sir +Tom had got himself innocently enough into this imbroglio. He had meant +no particular harm. He had meant to be kind to a poor woman, who after +all needed kindness much; and if the comic character of the situation +touched his sense of humour, and he was not unwilling in his own person +to get a little amusement out of it, who could blame him? This was the +worst that Sir Tom meant. To amuse himself partly by the sight of the +conventional beauty and woman of the world in the midst of circumstances +so incongruous, and partly by the fluttering of the dovecotes which the +appearance of such an adventuress would cause. He liked her conversation +too, and to hear all about the more noisy company, full of talk and +diversion in which he had wasted so much of his youth. But there were +two or three things which Sir Tom did not take into his calculations. +The first was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_238" id="Page_238">[Pg 238]</a></span> the sort of fascination which that talk, and all the +associations of the old world, and the charms of the professional +sorceress, would exercise upon himself after his settling down as the +head of a family and pillar of the State. He had not thought how much +amused he would be, how the contrast even would tickle his fancy and +affect (for the moment) his life. He laughed within himself at the +transparent way in which his old friend bade for his sympathy and +society. She was the same as ever, living upon admiration, upon +compliments whether fictitious or not, and demanding a show of devotion, +somebody always at her feet. She thought, no doubt, he said to himself, +that she had got him at her feet, and he laughed to himself when he was +alone at the thought. But, nevertheless, it did amuse him to talk to the +Contessa, and before long, what with skilful reminders of the past, what +with hints and reference to a knowledge which he would not like extended +to the world, he had begun by degrees to find himself in a confidential +position with her. "We know each other's secrets," she would say to him +with a meaning look. He was caught in her snare. On the other hand an +indefinite visit prolonged and endless had never come within his +calculation. He did not know how to put an end to the situation—perhaps +as it was an amusement for his evenings to see the siren spread her +snares, and even to be more or less caught in them, he did not sincerely +wish to put an end to it as yet. He was caught in them more or less, but +never so much as to be unaware of the skill with which the snares were +laid, which would have amused him whatever had been the seriousness of +the attendant circumstances. He did not, however, allow that he had no +desire to make an end<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_239" id="Page_239">[Pg 239]</a></span> of these circumstances, but only said to himself, +with a shrug of his shoulders, how could he do it? He could not send his +old friend away. He could not but be civil and attentive to her so long +as she was under his roof. It distressed him that Lucy should feel it, +as this morning's experience proved her to do, but how could he help it? +He made that other sacrifice to Lucy by way of reconciling her to the +inevitable, but he could do no more. When you invite a friend to be your +guest, he said to himself, you must be more or less at the mercy of that +friend. If he (or she) stays too long, what can you do? Sir Tom was not +the sort of man to be reduced to helplessness by such a difficulty. Yet +this was what he said to himself.</p> + +<p>It vexed him, however, that Lucy should feel it so much. He could not +throw off this uneasy feeling. He had stopped her mouth as one might +stop a child's mouth with a sugar plum; but he could not escape from the +consciousness that Lucy felt her domain invaded, and that her feeling +was just. He had thrown himself into the great chair, and was pondering +not what to do, but the impossibility of doing anything, when Williams, +his confidential man, who knew all about the Contessa almost as well as +he did, suddenly appeared before him. Williams had been all over the +world with Sir Tom before he settled down as his butler at the Hall. He +was, therefore, not one who could be dismissed summarily if he +interfered in any matter out of his sphere. He appeared on the other +side of Sir Tom's writing-table with a face as long as his arm, the face +with which Sir Tom was so well acquainted—the same face with which he +had a hundred times announced the failure of supplies, the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_240" id="Page_240">[Pg 240]</a></span> delay of +carriages, the general hopelessness of the situation. There was tragedy +in it of the most solemn kind, but there was a certain enjoyment too.</p> + +<p>"What is the matter?" said Sir Tom; and then he jumped to his feet. +"Something is wrong with the baby," he cried.</p> + +<p>"No, Sir Thomas; Mr. Randolph is pretty well, thank you, Sir Thomas. It +is about something else that I made so bold. There is Antonio, sir, in +the servants' hall; Madame the Countess' man."</p> + +<p>"Oh, the Countess," cried Sir Tom, and he seated himself again; then +said, with the confidence of a man to the follower who has been his +companion in many straits, "You gave me a fright, Williams. I thought +that little shaver—— But what's the matter with Antonio? Can't you keep +a fellow like that in order without bothering me?"</p> + +<p>"Sir Thomas," said Williams, solemnly, "I am not one as troubles my +master when things are straightforward. But them foreigners, you never +know when you have 'em. And an idle man about an establishment, that is, +so to speak, under nobody, and for ever a-kicking of his heels, and +following the women servants about, and not a blessed hand's turn to +do"—a tone of personal offence came into Williams' complaint; "there is +a deal to do in this house," he added, "and neither me nor any of the +men haven't got a moment to spare. Why, there's your hunting things, Sir +Thomas, is just a man's work. And to see that fellow loafing, and +a-hanging on about the women—I don't wonder, Sir Thomas, that it's more +than any man can stand," said Williams, lighting up. He was a married +man himself, with a very respectable family in the village, but he was +not too old to be able to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_241" id="Page_241">[Pg 241]</a></span> understand the feelings of John and Charles, +whose hearts were lacerated by the success of the Italian fellow with +his black eyes.</p> + +<p>"Well, well, don't worry me," said Sir Tom, "take him by the collar and +give him a shake. You're big enough." Then he laughed unfeelingly, which +Williams did not expect. "Too big, eh, Will? Not so ready for a shindy +as we used to be." This identification of himself with his factotum was +mere irony, and Williams felt it; for Sir Tom, if perhaps less slim than +in his young days, was still what Williams called a "fine figger of a +man;" whereas the butler had widened much round the waist, and was apt +to puff as he came upstairs, and no longer contemplated a shindy as a +possibility at all.</p> + +<p>"Sir Thomas," he said, with great gravity, "if I'm corpulent, which I +don't deny, but never thought to have it made a reproach, it's neither +over-feeding nor want of care, but constitootion, as derived from my +parents, Sir Thomas. There is nothing," he added with a pensive +superiority, "as is so gen'rally misunderstood." Then Williams drew +himself up to still greater dignity, stimulated by Sir Tom's laugh. "If +this fellow is to be long in the house, Sir Thomas, I won't answer for +what may happen; for he's got the devil's own temper, like all of them, +and carries a knife like all of them."</p> + +<p>"What do you want of me, man? Say it out! Am I to represent to Madame di +Forno-Populo that three great hulking fellows of you are afraid of her +slim Neapolitan?" Sir Tom cried impatiently.</p> + +<p>"Not afraid, Sir Thomas, of nothing, but of breaking the law," said +Williams, quickly. Then he added in an insinuating tone: "But I tell +them, ladies don't<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_242" id="Page_242">[Pg 242]</a></span> stop long in country visits, not at this time of the +year. And a thing can be put up with for short that any man'd kick at +for long. Madame the Countess will be moving on to pay her other visits, +Sir Thomas, if I might make so bold? She is a lady as likes variety; +leastways she was so in the old times."</p> + +<p>Sir Thomas stared at the bold questioner, who thus went to the heart of +the matter. Then he burst into a hearty laugh. "If you knew so much +about Madame the Countess," he cried, "my good fellow, what need have +you to come and consult me?"</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXV" id="CHAPTER_XXV"></a>CHAPTER XXV.</h2> + +<h3>THE CONTESSA'S BOUDOIR.</h3> + + +<p>The east rooms in which Madame di Forno-Populo had been placed on her +arrival at the Hall were handsome and comfortable, though they were not +the best in the house, and they were furnished as English rooms +generally are, the bed forming the principal object in each chamber. The +Contessa had looked around her in dismay when first ushered into the +spacious room with its huge couch, and wardrobes, and its unmistakable +destination as a sleeping-room merely: and it was only the addition of a +dressing-room of tolerable proportions which had made her quarters so +agreeable to her as they proved. The transformation of this room from a +severe male dressing-room into the boudoir of a fanciful and luxurious +woman, was a work of art of which neither the master nor the mistress of +the house had the faintest conception. The Contessa was never at<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_243" id="Page_243">[Pg 243]</a></span> home; +so that she was—having that regard for her own comfort which is one of +the leading features in such a life as hers—everywhere at home, +carrying about with her wherever she went the materials for creating an +individual centre (a <i>chez soi</i>, which is something far more intimate +and personal than a home), in which everything was arranged according to +her fancy. Had Lucy, or even had Sir Tom, who knew more about such +matters, penetrated into that sacred retirement, they would not have +recognised it for a room in their own house. Out of one of the +Contessa's boxes there came a paraphernalia of decoration such as would +turn the head of the æsthetic furnisher of the present day. As she had +been everywhere, and had "taste," when it was not so usual to have taste +as it is now, she had "picked up" priceless articles, in the shape of +tapestries, embroideries, silken tissues no longer made, delicate bits +of Eastern carpet, soft falling drapery of curtains, such as +artistically arranged in almost any room, impressed upon it the +Contessa's individuality, and made something dainty and luxurious among +the meanest surroundings. The Contessa's maid, from long practice, had +become almost an artist in the arrangement of these properties, without +which her mistress could not live; and on the evening of the first day +of their arrival at the Hall, when Madame di Forno-Populo emerged from +the darkness of the chamber in which she had rested all day after her +journey, she stepped into a little paradise of subdued colour and +harmonious effect. Antonio and Marietta were the authors of these +wonders. They took down Mrs. Freshwater's curtains, which were of a +solid character adapted to the locality, and replaced them by draperies +that veiled the light tenderly and hung with studied grace.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_244" id="Page_244">[Pg 244]</a></span> They took +to pieces the small bed and made a divan covered with old brocade of the +prosaic English mattress. They brought the finest of the furniture out +of the bedchamber to add to the contents of this, and covered tables +with Italian work, and veiled the bare wall with tapestry. This made +such a magical change that the maids who penetrated by chance now and +then into this little temple of the Graces could only stand aghast and +gaze with open mouths; but no profane hand of theirs was ever permitted +to touch those sacred things. There were even pictures on the wall, +evolved out of the depths of that great coffer, which, more dear to the +Contessa even than her wardrobe, went about with her everywhere—and +precious pieces of porcelain: Madame di Forno-Populo, it need not be +said, being quite above the mean and cheap decoration made with fans or +unmeaning scraps of colour. The maids aforesaid, who obtained perilous +and breathless glimpses from time to time of all these wonders, were at +a loss to understand why so much trouble should be taken for a room that +nobody but its inmate ever saw. The finer intelligence of the reader +will no doubt set it down as something in the Contessa's favour that she +could not live, even when in the strictest privacy, without her pretty +things about her. To be sure it was not always so; in other regions, +where other habits prevailed, this shrine so artistically prepared was +open to worshippers; but the Contessa knew better than to make any such +innovation here. She intended, indeed, nothing that was not entirely +consistent with the strictest propriety. Her objects, no doubt, were her +own interest and her own pleasure, which are more or less the objects of +most people; but she intended no harm. She believed that she had a hold +over Sir Tom which she could work for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_245" id="Page_245">[Pg 245]</a></span> her advantage, but she did not +mean to hurt Lucy. She thought that repose and a temporary absence from +the usual scenes of her existence would be of use to her, and she +thought also that a campaign in London under the warrant of the highest +respectability would further her grand object. It amused her besides, +perhaps, to flutter the susceptibilities of the innocent little +<i>ingénue</i> whom Sir Tom had married; but she meant no harm. As for +seizing upon Sir Tom in the evenings, and occupying all his attention, +that was the most natural and simple of proceedings. She did this as +another woman played bezique. Some entertainment was a necessity, and +everybody had something. There were people who insisted upon whist—she +insisted only upon "some one to talk to." What could be more natural? +The Contessa's "some one" had to be a man and one who could pay with +sense and spirit the homage to which she was accustomed. It was her only +stipulation—and surely it must be an ungracious hostess indeed who +could object to that.</p> + +<p>She had just finished her breakfast on one of those gray +mornings—seated before the fire in an easy-chair, which was covered +with a shawl of soft but bright Indian colouring. She had her back to +the light, but it was scarcely necessary even had there been any eyes to +see her save those of Marietta, who naturally was familiar with her +aspect at all times. Marietta made the Contessa's chocolate, as well as +arranged and kept in order the Contessa's boudoir. To such a retainer +nothing comes amiss. She would sit up till all hours, and perform +marvels of waiting, of working, service of every kind. It never occurred +to her that it "was not her place" to do anything that her mistress +required. Antonio was her brother, which was insipid, but she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_246" id="Page_246">[Pg 246]</a></span> generally +managed to indemnify herself, one way or another, for the loss of this +legitimate method of flirtation. She had not great wages, and she had a +great deal of work, but Marietta felt her life amusing, and did not +object to it. Here in England the excitement indeed flagged a little. +Williams was stout and married, and the other men had ties of the heart +with which, as has been seen, Antonio ruthlessly interfered. Marietta +was not unwilling to give to Charles the footman, who was a handsome +young fellow, the means of avenging himself, but as yet this expedient +for a little amusement had not succeeded, and there had been a touch of +peevishness in the tone with which she asked whether it was true that +the Contessa intended remaining here. Madame di Forno-Populo was a woman +who disliked the bondage of question and reply.</p> + +<p>"You do not amuse yourself, Marietta mia?" said the Contessa. She spoke +Italian with her servants, and she was always caressing, fond of tender +appellatives. "Patience! the country even in England is very good for +the complexion, and in London there is a great deal that is amusing. +Wheel this table away and give me the other with my writing things. The +cushion for my elbow. Thanks! You forget nothing. My Marietta, you will +have a happy life."</p> + +<p>"Do you think so, Signora Contessa?" said the girl, a little wistfully.</p> + +<p>The Contessa smiled upon her and said "Cara!" with an air of tenderness +that might have made any one happy. Then she addressed herself to her +correspondence, while Marietta removed into the other room not only the +tray but the table with the tray which her mistress had used. The +Contessa did not<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_247" id="Page_247">[Pg 247]</a></span> like to know or see anything of the processes of +readjustment and restoration. She glanced over her morning's letters +again with now and then a smile of satisfaction, and addressed herself +to the task of answering them with apparent pleasure. Indeed, her own +letters amused her even more than the others had done. When she had +finished her task she took up a silver whistle and blew into it a long +melodious note. She made the most charming picture, leaning back in her +chair, in a white cashmere dressing-gown covered with lace, and a little +cap upon her dark locks. All the accessories of her toilette were +exquisite, as well as the draperies about her that relieved and set off +her whiteness. Her shoes were of white plush with a cockade of lace to +correspond. Her sleeves, a little more loose than common, showed her +beautiful arms through a mist of lace. She was not more carefully nor +more elegantly dressed when she went downstairs in all her panoply of +conquest. What a pity there was no one to see it! but the Contessa did +not even think of this. In other circumstances, no doubt, there might +have been spectators, but in the meantime she pleased herself, which +after all is the first object with every well-constituted mind. She +leaned back in her chair pleased with herself and her surroundings, in a +gentle languor after her occupation, and conscious of a yellow novel +within reach should her young companion be slow of appearing. But Bice +she knew had the ears of a savage, and would hear her summons wherever +she might be.</p> + +<p>Bice at this moment was in a very different scene. She was in the large +gallery, which was a little chill and dreary of a morning when all the +windows were full of a gray, indefinable mist instead of light, and the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_248" id="Page_248">[Pg 248]</a></span> +ancestors were indistinguishable in their frames. She had just been +going through her usual exercise with the baby, and had joined Lucy at +the upper end of the gallery, that sport being over, and little Tom +carried off to his mid-day sleep. There was a fire there, in the +old-fashioned chimney, and Lucy had been sitting beside it watching the +sport. Bice seated herself on a stool at a little distance. She had a +half affection half dislike for this young woman, who was most near her +in age of any one in the house. For one thing they were on different +sides and representing different interests; and Bice had been trained to +dislike the ordinary housekeeping woman. They had been brought together, +indeed, in a moment of emotion by the instrumentality of the little +delicate child, for whom Bice had conceived a compassionate affection. +But the girl felt that they were antagonistic. She did not expect +understanding or charity, but to be judged harshly and condemned +summarily by this type of the conventional and proper. She believed that +Lucy would be "shocked" by what she said, and horrified by her freedom +and absence of prejudice. Yet, notwithstanding all this, there was an +attraction in the candid eyes and countenance of little Lady Randolph +which drew her in spite of herself. It was of her own will, though with +a little appearance of reluctance, that she drew near, and soon plunged +into talk—for to tell the truth, now that Jock was gone, Bice felt +occasionally as if she must talk to the winds and trees, and could not +at the hazard of her life keep silence any more. She could scarcely tell +how it was that she was led into confessions of all kinds and +descriptions of the details of her past life.</p> + +<p>"We are a little alike," said Lucy. "I was not<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_249" id="Page_249">[Pg 249]</a></span> much older than you are +when my father died, and afterwards we had no real home: to be sure, I +had always Jock. Even when papa was living it was not very homelike, not +what I should choose for a girl. I felt how different it was when I went +to Lady Randolph, who thought of everything——"</p> + +<p>Bice did not say anything for some time, and then she laughed. "The +Contessa does not think of everything," she said.</p> + +<p>Lucy looked at her with a question in her eyes. She wanted to ask if the +Contessa was kind. But there was a certain domestic treachery involved +in asking such a question.</p> + +<p>"People are different," she said, with a certain soothing tone. "We are +not made alike, you know; one person is good in one way and one in +another." This abstract deliverance was not at all in Lucy's way. She +returned to the particular point before them with relief. "England," she +said, "must seem strange to you after your own country. I suppose it is +much colder and less bright?"</p> + +<p>"I have no country" said Bice; "everywhere is my country. We have a +house in Rome, but we travel; we go from one place to another—to all +the places that are what you call for pleasure. We go in the season. +Sometimes it is for the waters, sometimes for the sports or the +games—always <i>festa</i> wherever we go."</p> + +<p>"And you like that? To be sure, you are so very young; otherwise I +should think it was rather tiresome," Lucy said.</p> + +<p>"No, it is not rather tiresome," said Bice, with a roll of her "r," "it +is horrible! When we came here I did not know why it was, but I rejoiced +myself that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_250" id="Page_250">[Pg 250]</a></span> there was no band playing. I thought at first it was merely +<i>jour de relâche</i>: but when morning after morning came and no band, that +was heavenly," she said, drawing a long breath.</p> + +<p>"A band playing!" Lucy's laugh at the absurdity of the idea rang out +with all the gaiety of a child. It amused her beyond measure, and Bice, +always encouraged by approbation, went on.</p> + +<p>"I expected it every morning. The house is so large. I thought the +season, perhaps, was just beginning, and the people not arrived yet. +Sometimes we go like that too soon. The rooms are cheaper. You can make +your own arrangement."</p> + +<p>Lucy looked at her very compassionately. "That is why you pass the +mornings in your own room," she said, "were you never then in a country +house before?"</p> + +<p>"I do not know what is a country house. We have been in a great castle +where there was the chase every day. No, that is not what <i>la chasse</i> +means in England—to shoot I would say. And then in the evening the +theatre, tableaux, or music. But to be quiet all day and all night too, +that is what I have never seen. We have never known it. It is confusing. +It makes you feel as if all went on without any division; all one day, +all one night."</p> + +<p>Bice laughed, but Lucy looked somewhat grave. "This is our natural life +in England," she said; "we like to be quiet; though I have not thought +we were very quiet, we have had people almost every night."</p> + +<p>To this Bice made no reply. But at Lucy's next question she stared, not +understanding what it meant. "You go everywhere with the Contessa," she +said; "are you out?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_251" id="Page_251">[Pg 251]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Out!" Bice's eyes opened wide. She shook her head. "What is out?" she +said.</p> + +<p>"It is when a girl begins to go to parties—when she comes out of her +home, out of the schoolroom, from being just a little girl——"</p> + +<p>"Ah, I know! From the Convent," said Bice; "but I never was there."</p> + +<p>"And have you always gone to parties—all your life?" asked Lucy, with +wondering eyes.</p> + +<p>Bice looked at her, wondering too. "We do not go to parties. What is a +party?" she said. "We go to the rooms—oh yes, and to the great +receptions sometimes, and at hotels. Parties? I don't know what that +means. Of course, I go with the Contessa to the rooms, and to the tables +d'hôte. I give her my arm ever since I was tall enough. I carry her fan +and her little things. When she sings I am always ready to play. They +call me the shadow of the Contessa, for I always wear a black frock, and +I never talk except when some one talks to me. It is most amusing how +the English look at me. They say, Miss——? and then stop that I may +tell them my name."</p> + +<p>"And don't you?" said Lucy. "Do you know; though it is so strange to say +it, I don't even know your name."</p> + +<p>Bice laughed, but she made no attempt to supply the omission. "The +Contessa thinks it is more piquant," she said. "But nothing is decided +about me, till it is known how I turn out. If I am beautiful the +Contessa will marry me well, and all will be right."</p> + +<p>"And is that what you—wish?" said Lucy, in a tone of horror.</p> + +<p>"Monsieur, your brother," said Bice, with a laugh,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_252" id="Page_252">[Pg 252]</a></span> "says I am not +pretty, even. He says it does not matter. How ignorant men are, and +stupid! And then suddenly they are old, old, and sour. I do not know +which is the worst. I do not like men."</p> + +<p>"And yet you think of being married, which it is not nice to speak of," +said Lucy, with disapproval.</p> + +<p>"Not—nice? Why is that? Must not girls be married? and if so, why not +think of it?" said Bice, gravely. There was not the ghost of a blush +upon her cheek. "If you might live without being married that would +understand itself; but otherwise——"</p> + +<p>"Indeed," cried Lucy, "you can, indeed you can! In England, at least. To +marry for a living, that is terrible."</p> + +<p>"Ah!" cried Bice, with interest, drawing her chair nearer, "tell me how +that is to be done."</p> + +<p>There was the seriousness of a practical interest in the girl's manner. +The question was very vital to her. There was no other way of existence +possible so far as she knew; but if there was it was well worth taking +into consideration.</p> + +<p>Lucy felt the question embarrassing when it was put to her in this very +decisive way. "Oh," she cried with an Englishwoman's usual monosyllabic +appeal for help to heaven and earth: "there are now a great number of +ways. There are so many things that girls can do; there are things open +to them that never used to be—they can even be doctors when they are +clever. There are many ways in which they can maintain themselves."</p> + +<p>"By trades?" cried Bice, "by work?" She laughed. "We hear of that +sometimes, and the doctors; everybody laughs; the men make jokes, and +say they will have one when they are ill. If that is all, I do not<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_253" id="Page_253">[Pg 253]</a></span> +think there is anything in it. I should not like to work even if I were +a man, but a woman——! that gets no money, that is <i>mal vu</i>. If that is +all! Work," she said, with a little oracular air, "takes up all your +time, and the money that one can earn is so small. A girl avoids saying +much to men who are like this. She knows how little they can have to +offer her; and to work herself, why, it is impossible. What time would +you have for anything?" cried the girl, with an impatient sense of the +fatuity of the suggestion. Lucy was so much startled by this view of the +subject that she made no reply.</p> + +<p>"There is no question of working," said Bice with decision, "neither for +women, neither for men. That is not in our world. But if I am only +pretty, no more," she added, "what will become of me? It is not known. I +shall follow the Contessa as before. I will be useful to her, and +afterwards—— I prefer not to think of that. In the meantime I am young. +I do not wish for anything. It is all amusing. I become weary of the +band playing, that is true; but then sometimes it plays not badly, and +there is something always to laugh at. Afterwards, if I marry, then I +can do as I like," the girl said.</p> + +<p>Lucy gave her another look of surprised awe, for it was really with that +feeling that she regarded this strange little philosopher. But she did +not feel herself able to pursue the subject with so enlightened a +person. She said: "How very well you speak English. You have scarcely +any accent, and the Contessa has none at all. I was afraid she would +speak only French, and my French is so bad."</p> + +<p>"I have always spoken English all my life. When the Contessa is angry +she says I am English all over;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_254" id="Page_254">[Pg 254]</a></span> and she—she is of no country—she is +of all countries; we are what you call vagabonds," the girl cried, with +a laugh. She said it so calmly, without the smallest shadow of shame or +embarrassment, that Lucy could only gaze at her and could not find a +word to say. Was it true? It was evident that Bice at least believed so, +and was not at all afraid to say it. This conversation took place, as +has been said, in the picture gallery, where Lady Randolph and her young +visitor had first found a ground of amity. The rainy weather had +continued, and this place had gradually become the scene of a great deal +of intercourse between the young mistress of the house and her guest. +They scarcely spoke to each other in the evening. But in the morning +after the game of romps with little Tom, by which Bice indemnified +herself for the absence of other society, Lucy would join the party, and +after the child had been carried off for his mid-day sleep, the others +left behind would have many a talk. To Lucy the revelations thus made +were more wonderful than any romance—so wonderful that she did not half +take in the strange life to which they gave a clue, nor realise how +perfectly right was Bice's description of herself and her patroness. +They were vagabonds, as she said; and like other vagabonds, they got a +great deal of pleasure out of their life. But to Lucy it seemed the most +terrible that mind could conceive. Without any home, without any +retirement or quietness, with a noisy band always playing, and a series +of migrations from one place to another—no work, no duties, nothing to +represent home occupations but a piece of <i>tapisserie</i>. She put her hand +very tenderly upon Bice's shoulder. There had been prejudices in her +mind against this girl—but they all melted away in a womanly pity. +"Oh," she said,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_255" id="Page_255">[Pg 255]</a></span> "Cannot I help you in any way? Cannot Sir Tom—" But +here she paused. "I am afraid," she said, "that all we could think of +would be an occupation for you; something to do, which would be far, far +better, surely, than this wandering life."</p> + +<p>Bice looked at her for a moment with a doubtful air. "I don't know what +you mean by occupation," she said.</p> + +<p>And this, to Lucy's discomfiture, she found to be true. Bice had no idea +of occupation. Young Lady Randolph, who was herself not much instructed, +made a conscientious effort at least to persuade the strange girl to +read and improve her mind. But she flew off on all such occasions with a +laugh that was half mocking and half merry. "To what good?" she said, +with that simplicity of cynicism which is a quality of extreme youth. +"If I turn out beautiful, if I can marry whom I will, I will then get +all I want without any trouble."</p> + +<p>"But if not?" said Lucy, too careful of the other's feelings to express +what her own opinions were on this subject.</p> + +<p>"If not it will be still less good," said Bice, "for I shall never then +do anything or be of any importance at all; and why should I tr-rouble?" +she said, with that rattle of the r's which was about the only sign that +English was not her native speech. This was very distressing to Lucy, +who wished the girl well, and altogether Lady Randolph was anxious to +interfere on Bice's behalf, and put her on a more comprehensible +footing.</p> + +<p>"It will be very strange when you go among other people in London," she +said. "Madame di Forno-Populo does not know England. People will want +to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_256" id="Page_256">[Pg 256]</a></span> know who you are. And if you were to be married, since you will talk +of that," Lucy added with a blush, "your name and who you are will have +to be known. I will ask Sir Tom to talk to the Contessa—or," she said +with reluctance, "I will speak to her if you think she will listen to +me."</p> + +<p>"I am called," said Bice, making a sweeping curtsey, and waving her hand +as she darted suddenly away, leaving Lucy in much doubt and perplexity. +Was she really called? Lucy heard nothing but a faint sound in the +distance, as of a low whistle. Was this a signal between the strange +pair who were not mother and daughter, nor mistress and servant, and yet +were so linked together. It seemed to Lucy, with all her honest English +prejudices, that to train so young a girl (and a girl so fond of +children, and, therefore, a good girl at bottom, whatever her little +faults might be) to such a wandering life, and to put her up as it were +to auction for whoever would bid highest, was too terrible to be thought +of. Better a thousand times to be a governess, or a sempstress, or any +honest occupation by which she could earn her own bread. But then to +Bice any such expedient was out of the question. Her incredulous look of +wonder and mirth came back to Lucy with a sensation of dumb +astonishment. She had no right feelings, no sense of the advantages of +independence, no horror of being sold in marriage. Lady Randolph did not +know what to think of a creature so utterly beyond all rules known to +her. She was in such a condition of mind, unsettled, unhinged, feeling +all her old landmarks breaking up, that a new interest was of great +importance to her. It withdrew her thoughts from the Contessa, and the +irksomeness of her sway, when she thought of Bice and what could be<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_257" id="Page_257">[Pg 257]</a></span> +done for her. The strange thing was that the girl wanted nothing done +for her. She was happy enough so far as could be seen. In her close +confinement and subjection she was so fearless and free that she might +have been thought the mistress of the situation. It was incomprehensible +altogether. To state the circumstances from one side was to represent a +victim of oppression. A poor girl stealing into a strange house and room +in the shadow of her patroness; unnamed, unnoticed, made no more account +of than the chair upon which she sat, held in a bondage which was almost +slavery, and intended to be disposed of when the moment came without a +reference to her own will and affections. Lucy felt her blood boil when +she thought of all this, and determined that she would leave no +expedient untried to free this white slave, this unfortunate thrall. But +the other side was one which could not pass without consideration. The +girl was careless and fearless and free, without an appearance of +bondage about her. She scoffed at the thought of escaping, of somehow +earning a personal independence—such was not for persons in her world, +she said. She was not horrified by her own probable fate. She was not +unhappy, but amused and interested in her life, and taking everything +gaily, both the present quiet and the tumult of the many "seasons" in +watering-places and other resorts of gaiety through which, young as she +was, she had already gone. She had looked at Lucy with a smile, which +was half cynical, and altogether decisive, when the anxious young matron +had pointed out to her the way of escaping from such a sale and bargain. +She did not want to escape. It seemed to her right and natural. She +walked as lightly as a bird with this yoke upon her shoulders. Lucy had +never met anything of this kind before, and it called forth a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_258" id="Page_258">[Pg 258]</a></span> sort of +panic in her mind. She did not know how to deal with it; but neither +would she give it up. She had something else to think upon, when the +Contessa, lying back on her sofa, almost going to sleep before Sir Tom +entered, roused herself on the moment to occupy and amuse him all the +evening. Instead of thinking of that and making herself unhappy, Lucy +looked the other way at Bice reading a novel rapidly at the other side +of the table, with all her young savage faculties about her to see and +hear everything. How to get her delivered from her fate! To make her +feel that deliverance was necessary, to save her before she should be +sacrificed, and take her out of her present slavery. It was very strange +that it never occurred to Lucy to free the girl by making her one of the +recipients of the money she had to give away. She was very faithful to +the letter of her father's will, and he had excluded foreigners. But +even that was not the reason. The reason was that it did not occur to +her. She thought of every way of relieving the too-contented thrall +before her except that way. And in the meantime the time wore on, and +everything fell into a routine, and not a word was said of the +Contessa's plans. It was evident, for the time being at least, that she +meant to make no change, but was fully minded, notwithstanding the +dullness of the country, to remain where she was.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_259" id="Page_259">[Pg 259]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXVI" id="CHAPTER_XXVI"></a>CHAPTER XXVI.</h2> + +<h3>THE TWO STRANGERS.</h3> + + +<p>The Contessa did not turn her head or change her position when Bice +entered. She said, "You have not been out?" in a tone which was half +question and half reproof.</p> + +<p>"It rained, and there is nothing to breathe but the damp and fog."</p> + +<p>"What does it matter? it is very good for the complexion, this damp; it +softens the skin, it clears your colour. I see the improvement every +day."</p> + +<p>"Do you think so?" said Bice, going up to the long mirror which had been +established in a sort of niche against the wall, and draped as +everything was draped, with graceful hangings. She went up to it and put +her face close, looking with some anxiety at the image which she found +there. "I do not see it," she said. "You are too sanguine. I am no +better than I was. I have been racing in the long gallery with the +child; that makes one's blood flow."</p> + +<p>"You do well," said the Contessa, nodding her head. "I cannot take any +notice of the child; it is too much for me. They are odious at that +age."</p> + +<p>"Ah! they are delightful," said Bice. "They are so good to play with, +they ask no questions, and are always pleased. I put him on my shoulder +and we fly. I wish that I might have a gymnastique, trapeze, +what-you-call it, in that long gallery; it would be heaven."</p> + +<p>The Contessa uttered an easy exclamation meaning nothing, which +translated into English would have been a terrible oath. "Do not do it, +in the name of——they will be shocked, oh, beyond everything."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_260" id="Page_260">[Pg 260]</a></span></p> + +<p>Bice, still standing close to the glass, examining critically her cheek +which she pinched, answered with a laugh. "She is shocked already. When +I say that you will marry me well, if I turn out as I ought, she is full +of horror. She says it is not necessary in England that a young girl +should marry, that there are other ways."</p> + +<p>The Contessa started to her feet. "Giove!" she cried, "Baccho! that +insipidity, that puritan. And I who have kept you from every soil. <i>She</i> +speak of other ways. Oh, it is too much!"</p> + +<p>Bice turned from the glass to address a look of surprise to her +patroness. "Reassure yourself, Madama," she said. "What Milady said was +this, that I might work if I willed, and escape from marrying—that to +marry was not everything. It appears that in England one may make one's +living as if (she says) one were a man."</p> + +<p>"As if one were a man!"</p> + +<p>"That is what Milady said," Bice answered demurely. "I think she would +help me to work, to get something to do. But she did not tell me what it +would be; perhaps to teach children; perhaps to work with the needle. I +know that is how it happens in the Tauchnitz. You do not read them, and, +therefore, do not know; but I am instructed in all these things. The +girl who is poor like me is always beautiful; but she never thinks of it +as we do. She becomes a governess, or perhaps an artiste; or even she +will make dresses, or at the worst <i>tapisserie</i> ."</p> + +<p>"And this she says to you—to you!" cried the Contessa, with flaming +eyes.</p> + +<p>"Oh, restrain yourself, Madama! It does not matter at all. She makes the +great marriage just the same. It is not Milady who says this, it is in +the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_261" id="Page_261">[Pg 261]</a></span> Tauchnitz. It is the English way. Supposing," said Bice, "that I +remain as I am? Something will have to be done with me. Put me, then, as +a governess in a great family where there is a son who is a great +nobleman, or very rich; and you shall see it will so happen, though I +never should be beautiful at all."</p> + +<p>"My child," said the Contessa, "all this is foolishness. You will not +remain as you are. I see a little difference every day. In a little time +you will be dazzling; you will be ready to produce. A governess! It is +more likely that you will be a duchess; and then you will laugh at +everybody—except me," said Madame di Forno-Populo, tapping her breast +with her delicate fingers, "except me."</p> + +<p>Bice looked at her with a searching, inquiring look. "I want to ask +something," she said. "If I should be beautiful, you were so before +me—oh, more, more!—you we——are very lovely, Madama."</p> + +<p>The Contessa smiled—who would not smile at such a speech? made with all +the sincerity and simplicity possible—simplicity scarcely affected by +the instinct which made Bice aware before she said it, that to use the +past tense would spoil all. The Contessa smiled. "Well," she said, "and +then?"</p> + +<p>"They married you," said Bice with a curious tone between philosophical +remark and interrogation.</p> + +<p>"Ah!" the Contessa said. She leaned back in her chair making herself +very comfortable, and shook her head. "I understand. You think then it +has been a—failure in my case? Yes, they married me—that is to say +there was no they at all. I married myself, which makes a great +difference. Ah, yes, I follow your reasoning very well. This woman you +say was beautiful, was all that I hope to be, and married; and what has +come of it? It is quite true. I speak to you as I speak to no one,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_262" id="Page_262">[Pg 262]</a></span> Bice +mia. The fact was we deceived each other. The Conte expected to make his +fortune by me, and I by him. I was English, you perceive, though no one +now remembers this. Poor Forno-Populo! He was very handsome; people were +pleased to say we were a magnificent pair—but we had not the <i>sous</i>: +and though we were fond of each other, he proceeded in one direction to +repair his fortunes, and I—on another to—<i>enfin</i> to do as best I +could. But no such accident shall happen in your case. It is not only +your interest I have in hand; it is my own. I want a home for my +declining years."</p> + +<p>She said this with a smile at the absurdity of the expression in her +case, but Bice at sixteen naturally took the words <i>au pied de la +lettre</i>, and did not see any absurdity in them. To her forty was very +much the same as seventy. She nodded her head very seriously in answer +to this, and turning round to the glass surveyed herself once more, but +not with that complacency which is supposed to be excited in the +feminine bosom by the spectacle. She was far too serious for vanity—the +gaze she cast upon her own youthful countenance was severely critical, +and she ended by a shrug of her shoulders, as she turned away. "The only +thing is," she said, "that perhaps the young brother is right, and at +present I am not even pretty at all."</p> + +<p>The Contessa had a great deal to think of during this somewhat dull +interval. The days flowed on so regular, and with so little in them, +that it was scarcely possible to take note of the time at all. Lucy was +always scrupulously polite and sometimes had little movements of anxious +civility, as if to make up for impulses that were less kind. And Sir +Tom, though he enjoyed the evenings as much as ever, and felt this +manner of passing the heavy hours to retain a great attraction, was at +other times a little constrained, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_263" id="Page_263">[Pg 263]</a></span> made furtive attempts to find out +what the Contessa's intentions were for the future, which betrayed to a +woman who had always her wits about her, a certain strain of the old +bonds, and uneasiness in the indefinite length of her visit. She had +many reasons, however, for determining to ignore this uneasiness, and to +move on upon the steady tenor of her way as if unconscious of any reason +for change, opposing a smiling insensibility to all suggestions as to +the approaching removal of the household to London. It seemed to the +Contessa that the association of her <i>débutante</i> with so innocent and +wealthy a person as Lady Randolph would do away with all the prejudices +which her own dubious antecedents might have provoked; while the very +dubiousness of those antecedents had procured her friends in high +quarters and acquaintances everywhere, so that both God and Mammon were, +so to speak, enlisted in her favour, and Bice would have all the +advantage, without any of the disadvantage, of her patroness' position, +such as it was. This was so important that she was quite fortified +against any pricks of offence, or intrusive consciousness that she was +less welcome than might have been desired. And in the end of January, +when the entire household at the Hall had begun to be anxious to make +sure of her departure, an event occurred which strengthened all her +resolutions in this respect, and made her more and more determined, +whatever might be the result, to cling to her present associations and +shelter.</p> + +<p>This was the arrival of a visitor, very unexpected and unthought of, who +came in one afternoon after the daily drive, often a somewhat dull +performance, which Lucy, when there was nothing more amusing to do, +dutifully took with her visitor. Madame di Forno-Populo was reclining in +the easiest of chairs after the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_264" id="Page_264">[Pg 264]</a></span> fatigue of this expedition. There had +been a fresh wind, and notwithstanding a number of veils, her delicate +complexion had been caught by the keen touch of the breeze. Her cheeks +burned, she declared, as she held up a screen to shield her from the +glow of the fire. The waning afternoon light from the tall window behind +threw her beautiful face into shadow, but she was undeniably the most +important person in the tranquil domestic scene, occupying the central +position, so that it was not wonderful that the new comer suddenly +ushered in, who was somewhat timid and confused, and advanced with the +hesitating step of a stranger, should without any doubt have addressed +himself to her as the mistress of the house. Lucy, little and young, who +was moving about the room, with her light step and in the simple dress +of a girl, appeared to Mr. Churchill, who had many daughters of his own, +to be (no doubt) the eldest, the mother's companion. He came in with a +slightly embarrassed air and manner. He was a man beyond middle age, +gray haired, stooping, with the deprecating look of one who had been +obliged in many ways to propitiate fate in the shape of superiors, +officials, creditors, all sorts of alien forces. He came up with his +hesitating step to the Contessa's chair. "Madam," he said, with a voice +which had a tremor in it, "my name will partly tell you the confused +feelings that I don't know how to express. I am come in a kind of +bewilderment, scarcely able to believe that what I have heard is +true——"</p> + +<p>The Contessa gazed at him calmly from the depths of her chair. The +figure before her, thin, gray haired, submissive, with the long clerical +coat and deprecating air, did not promise very much, but she had no +objection to hear what he had to say in the absolute dearth of subjects +of interest. Lucy, to whom his name<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_265" id="Page_265">[Pg 265]</a></span> seemed vaguely familiar, without +recalling any distinct idea, and who was a little startled by his +immediate identification of the Contessa, came forward a little and put +a chair for him, then withdrew again, supposing his business to be with +her guest.</p> + +<p>"I will not sit down," Mr. Churchill said, faltering a little, "till I +have said what I have no words to say. If what I am told is actually +true, and your ladyship means to confer upon me a gift so—so +magnificent—oh! pardon me—I cannot help thinking still that there must +be some extraordinary mistake."</p> + +<p>"Oh!" Lucy began, hurriedly making a step forward again; but the +Contessa, to her surprise, accepted the address with great calm.</p> + +<p>"Be seated, sir," Madame di Forno-Populo said, with a dignity which Lucy +was far from being able to emulate. "And pray do not hesitate to say +anything which occurs to you. I am already interested——" She waved her +hand to him with a sort of regal grace, without moving in any other way. +She had the air of a princess not deeply concerned indeed, but +benevolently willing to listen. It was evident that this reception of +him confused the stranger more and more. He became more deeply +embarrassed in sight of the perfect composure with which he was +contemplated, and cleared his throat nervously three or four times.</p> + +<p>"I think," he said, "that there must be some mistake. It was, indeed, +impossible that it should be true; but as I heard it from two quarters +at once—and it was said to be something in the nature of a +trust—— But," he added, looking with a nervous intentness at the +unresponsive face which he could with difficulty see, "it must be, since +your ladyship does not recognise my name, a—mistake. I felt it was so +from the beginning. A lady of whom I know nothing!—to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_266" id="Page_266">[Pg 266]</a></span> bestow what is +really a fortune—upon a man with no claim——"</p> + +<p>He gave a little nervous laugh as he went on—the disappointment, after +such a dazzling giddy hope, took away every vestige of colour from his +face. "I will sit down for a moment, if you please," he said suddenly. +"I—am a little tired with the walk—you will excuse me, Lady +Randolph——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, sir," cried Lucy, coming forward, "forgive me that I did not +understand at once. It is no mistake at all. Oh, I am afraid you are +very much fatigued, and I ought to have known at once when I heard your +name."</p> + +<p>He put out his hand in his deprecating way as she came close to the +chair into which he had dropped. "It is nothing—nothing—my dear young +lady: in a moment," he said.</p> + +<p>"My Lucy," said the Contessa, "this is one of your secret bounties. I am +quite interested. But do not interrupt; let us hear it out."</p> + +<p>"It is something which is entirely between Mr. Churchill and me," cried +Lucy. "Indeed, it would not interest you at all. But, pray, don't think +it is a mistake," she said, earnestly turning to him. "It is quite +right—it is a trust—there is nothing that need distress you. I am +obliged to do it, and you need not mind. Indeed, you must not mind. I +will tell you all about it afterwards."</p> + +<p>"My dear young lady!" the clergyman said. He was relieved, but he was +perplexed; he turned still towards the stately lady in the chair—"If it +is really so, which I scarcely can allow myself to believe, how can I +express my obligation? It seems more than any man ought to take; it is +like a fairy tale. I have not ventured to mention it to my children, in +case,—— Thanks are nothing," he cried, with excitement; "thanks<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_267" id="Page_267">[Pg 267]</a></span> are +for a trifle, a little every-day service; but this is a fortune; it is +something beyond belief. I have been a poor man all my life, struggling +to do my best for my children; and now, what I have never been able to +do with all my exertions, you—put me in a position to do in a moment. +What am I to say to you? Words can't reach such a case. It is simply +unspeakable—incredible; and why out of all the world you should have +chosen me——"</p> + +<p>He had to stop, his emotion getting the better of him. Bice had come +into the room while this strange scene was going on, and she stood in +the shadow, unseen by the speaker, listening too.</p> + +<p>"Pray compose yourself," said the Contessa, in her most gracious voice. +"Your expressions are full of feeling. To have a fortune given to one +must be very delightful; it is an experience that does not often happen. +Probably a little tea, as I hear tea is coming, will restore +Mr.—— Pardon me, they are a little difficult to catch those, your +English names."</p> + +<p>The Contessa produced a curious idiom now and then like a work of art. +It was almost the only sign of any uncertainty in her English; and while +the poor clergyman, not quite understanding in his own emotion what she +was saying, made an effort to gulp it down and bring himself to the +level of ordinary life, the little stir of the bringing-in of tea +suddenly converted everything into commonplace. He sat in a confusion +that made all dull to him while this little stir went on. Then he rose +up and said, faltering: "If your ladyship will permit me, I will go out +into the air a little. I have got a sort of singing in my ears. I +am—not very strong; I shall come back presently if you will allow me, +and try to make my acknowledgments—in a less confused way."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_268" id="Page_268">[Pg 268]</a></span></p> + +<p>Lucy followed him out of the room; he was not confused with her. "My +dear young lady," he said, "my head is going round and round. Perhaps +you will explain it all to me." He looked at her with a helpless, +appealing air. Lucy had the appearance of a girl of his own. He was not +afraid to ask her anything. But the great lady, his benefactress, who +spoke so regally and responded so little to his emotion, alarmed him. +Lucy, too, on her side, felt as if she had been a girl of his own. She +put her arm within his, and led him to the library, where all was quiet, +and where she felt by instinct—though she was not bookish—that the +very backs of the books would console him and make him feel himself at +home.</p> + +<p>"It is very easy to explain," she said. "It is all through my brother +Jock and your son, who is at school with him. And it is I who am Lady +Randolph," she said, smiling, supporting him with her arm through his. +The shock would have been almost too much for poor Mr. Churchill if she +had not been so like a child of his own.</p> + +<p>The moment this pair had left the room the Contessa raised herself +eagerly from the chair. She looked round to Bice in the background with +an imperative question. "What does this all mean?" she said, in a voice +as different from the languor of her former address as night from day. +"Who is it that gives away fortunes, that makes a poor man rich? Did you +know all that? Is it that chit of a girl, that piece of +simplicity—that—Giove! You have been her friend; you know her secrets. +What does it mean?"</p> + +<p>"She has no secrets," said Bice, coming slowly forward. "She is not like +us, she is like the day."</p> + +<p>"Fool!" the Contessa said, stamping her foot—"don't you see there must +be something in it. I am<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_269" id="Page_269">[Pg 269]</a></span> thinking of you, though you are so ungrateful. +One knows she is rich, all the money is hers; but I thought it had gone +to Sir Tom. I thought it was he who could— ... Happily, I have always +kept her in hand; and you, you have become her friend——"</p> + +<p>"Madama," said Bice, with ironical politeness, "since it happens that +Milady is gone, shall I pour out for you your cup of tea?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, tea! do I care for tea? when there are +possibilities—possibilities!" said the Contessa. She got up from her +chair and began to pace about the room, a grand figure in the gathering +twilight. As for Bice, some demon of perversity possessed her. She began +to move about the tea-table, making the china ring, and pouring out the +tea as she had said, betook herself to the eating of cake with a relish +which was certainly much intensified by the preoccupation of her +patroness. She remembered well enough, very well, what Jock had told her, +and her own incredulity; but she would have died rather than give a sign +of this—and there was a tacit defiance in the way in which she +munched her cake under the Contessa's excited eyes, but this was only a +momentary perversity.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXVII" id="CHAPTER_XXVII"></a>CHAPTER XXVII.</h2> + +<h3>AN ADVENTURESS.</h3> + + +<p>"When he told me first, I was angry like you, I would not believe it. +Money! that is a thing to keep, I said, not to give away."</p> + +<p>"To give away!" Few things in all her life, at least in all her later +life, had so moved the Contessa. She was walking about the pretty room +in an excite<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_270" id="Page_270">[Pg 270]</a></span>ment which was like agitation, now sitting down in one +place, now in another, turning over without knowing it the things on the +table, arranging a drapery here and there instinctively. To how few +people in the world would it be a matter of indifference that money, so +to speak, was going begging, and might fall into their hands as well as +another's! The best of us on this argument would prick up our ears. +Nobody cared less for money in itself than Madame di Forno-Populo. She +liked not to spend it only, but to squander—to make it fly on all +hands. To be utterly extravagant one must be poor, and the money hunger +which belongs to poverty is almost, one might say, a disinterested +quality, so little is it concerned with the possession of the thing +coveted. "Oh," she said, "this is too wonderful! and you are sure you +have not been deceived by the language? You know English so well—are +you sure that you were not deceived?"</p> + +<p>Bice did not deign any reply to this question. She gave her head a +slight toss of scorn. The suggestion that she could be mistaken was +unworthy of an answer, and indeed was not put in seriousness, nor did +the Contessa wait for a reply. "What then," the Contessa went on, "is +the position of Sir Tom? Has he no control? Does he permit this? To have +it taken away from himself and his family, thrown into the sea, parted +with—Oh, it is too much! But how can it be done? I was aware that +settlements were very troublesome, but I had not thought it +possible—Bice! Bice! this is very exciting, it makes one's heart beat! +And you are her friend."</p> + +<p>"I am her—friend?" Bice turned one ear to her patroness with a startled +look of interrogation.</p> + +<p>"Oh!" cried the Contessa once more; by which exclamation, naturally +occurring when she was excited,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_271" id="Page_271">[Pg 271]</a></span> she proved that she was of English +race. "What difficulty is there in my meaning? You have English enough +for that. What! do you feel no impatience when you hear of money running +away?—going into a different channel—to strangers—to people that have +nothing to do with it—that have no right to it—anybody—a clergyman, +a——"</p> + +<p>Her feelings were too much for her. She threw herself into a chair, out +of breath.</p> + +<p>"He looked a very good man," said Bice, with that absolute calm which is +so exasperating to an excited woman, "and what does it matter, if it has +to be given away, who gets it? I should give it to the beggars. I should +fling it for them, as you do the <i>bajocchi</i> when you are out driving."</p> + +<p>"You are a fool! you are a fool!" cried the Contessa, "or rather you are +a child, and don't understand anything. Fling it to the beggars? Yes, if +it was in shillings or even sovereigns. You don't understand what money +is."</p> + +<p>"That is true, Madama, for I never had any," cried the girl, with a +laugh. She was perfectly unmoved—the desire of money was not in her as +yet, though she was far more enlightened as to its uses than most +persons of her age. It amused her to see the excitement of her +companion; and she knew very well what the Contessa meant, though she +would not betray any consciousness of it. "If I marry," she said, "then +perhaps I shall know."</p> + +<p>"Bice! you are not a fool—you are very sharp, though you choose not to +see. Why should not you have this as well as another?—oh, much better +than another! I can't stand by and see it all float into alien channels, +while you—it would not be doing my duty while you—— Oh, don't look at +me with that blank<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_272" id="Page_272">[Pg 272]</a></span> face, as if it did not move you in the least! Would +it be nothing to have it in your power to dress as you like, to do as +you like, to go into the world, to have a handsome house, to enjoy +life?——"</p> + +<p>"But, yes!" said Bice, "is it necessary to ask?" She was still as calm +as if the question they were discussing had been of the very smallest +importance. "But we are not good poor people that will spend the money +<i>comme il faut</i>. If we had it we should throw it away. Me also—I would +throw it away. It would be for nothing good; why should it be given to +us? Oh no, Madama. The good old clergyman had many children. He will not +waste the money—which we should. What do you care for money, but to +spend it fast, fast; and I too——"</p> + +<p>"You are a child," said the Contessa. "No, perhaps I am not what people +call good, though I am poor enough—but you are a child. If it was given +to you it would be invested; you would have power over the income only. +You could not throw it away, nor could I, which, perhaps, is what you +are thinking of. You are just the person she wants, so far as I can see. +She objects to my plan of putting you out in the world; she says it +would be better if you were to work; but this is the best of all. Let +her provide for you, and then it will not need that you should either +marry or work. This is, beyond all description, the best way. And you +are her friend. Tell me, was it before or after the boy informed you of +this that you advised yourself to become her friend?"</p> + +<p>"Contessa!" cried Bice, with a shock of angry feeling which brought the +blood to her face. She was not sensitive in many matters which would +have stung an English girl; but this suggestion, which was so +undeserved, moved her to passion. She turned away<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_273" id="Page_273">[Pg 273]</a></span> with an almost tragic +scorn, and seizing the <i>tapisserie</i>, which was part of the Contessa's +<i>mise en scene</i>, flung a long strip of the many-coloured embroidery over +her arm, and began to work with a sort of savage energy. The Contessa +watched her movements with a sudden pause in her own excitement. She +stopped short in the eagerness of her own thoughts, and looked with keen +curiosity at the young creature upon whom she had built so many +expectations. She was not an ungenerous or mercenary woman, though she +had many faults, and as she gazed a certain compunction awoke within +her, mingled with amusement. She was sorry for the unworthy suggestion +she had made, but the sight of the girl in her indignation was like a +scene in a play to this woman of the world. Her youthful dignity and +wrath, her silent scorn, the manner in which she flung her needle +through the canvas, working out her rage, were full of entertainment to +the Contessa. She was not irritated by the girl's resentment; it even +took off her thoughts from the primary matter to watch this exhibition +of feeling. She gave vent to a little laugh as she noted how the needle +flew.</p> + +<p>"Cara! I was nasty when I said that. I did not mean it. I suffered +myself to talk as one talks in the world. You are not of the world—it +is not applicable to you."</p> + +<p>"Yes, Madama, I am of the world," cried Bice. "What have I known else? +But I did not mean to become Milady's friend, as you say. It was by +accident. I was in the gallery only to amuse myself, and she came—it +was not intention. I think that Milady is——"</p> + +<p>Here Bice stopped, looked up from the sudden fervour of her working, +threw back her head, and said nothing more.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_274" id="Page_274">[Pg 274]</a></span></p> + +<p>"That Milady is—what?" the Contessa cried.</p> + +<p>A laugh so joyous, so childish, that no one could have refused to be +sympathetic, burst from Bice's lips. She gave her patroness a look of +merriment and derision, in which there was something tender and sweet. +"Milady is—sorry for me," she said.</p> + +<p>This speech had a strange effect upon the Contessa. She coloured, and +the tears seemed to flood in a moment to her eyes. "Poor child!" she +said—"poor child! She has reason. But that amuses you, Bice mia," she +said, in a voice full of the softest caressing, looking at her through +those sudden tears. The Contessa was an adventuress, and she had brought +up this girl after her own traditions; but it was clear as they looked +at each other that they loved each other. There was perfect confidence +between them. Bice looked with fearless laughing eyes, and a sense of +the absurdity of the fact that some one was sorry for her, into the face +of her friend.</p> + +<p>"She thinks I would be happier if I worked. To give lessons to little +children and be their slave would be better, she thinks. To know nothing +and see nothing, but live far away from the world and be independent, +and take no trouble about my looks, or, if I please—that is Milady's +way of thinking," Bice said.</p> + +<p>The Contessa's face softened more and more as she looked at the girl. +There even dropped a tear from her full eyes. She shook her head. "I am +not sure," she said, "dear child, that I am not of Milady's opinion. +There are ways in which it is better. Sometimes I think I was most happy +when I was like that—without money, without experience, with no +wishes."</p> + +<p>"No wishes, Madama! Did you not wish to go out into the beautiful bright +world, to see people, to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_275" id="Page_275">[Pg 275]</a></span> hear music, to talk, to please? It is +impossible. Money, that is different, and experience that is different: +but to wish, every one must do that."</p> + +<p>"Bice, you have a great deal of experience for so young a girl. You have +seen so much. I ought to have brought you up otherwise, perhaps, but how +could I? You have always shared with me, and what I had I gave you. And +you know besides how little satisfaction there is in it—how sick one +becomes of a crowd of faces that are nothing to you, and of music that +goes on just the same whatever you are feeling—and this to please, as +you call it! Whom do I please? Persons who do not care at all for me +except that I amuse them sometimes—who like me to sing; who like to +look at me; who find themselves less dull when I am there. That is all. +And that will be all for you, unless you marry well, my Bice, which it +is the object of my life to make you do."</p> + +<p>"I hope I shall marry well," said the girl, composedly. "It would be +very pleasant to find one's self above all shifts, Madama. Still that is +not everything; and I would much rather have led the life I have led, +and enjoyed myself and seen so much, than to have been the little +governess of the English family—the little girl who is always so quiet, +who walks out with the children, and will not accept the eldest son even +when he makes love to her. I should have laughed at the eldest son. I +know what they are like—they are so stupid; they have not a word to +say; that would have amused me; but in the Tauchnitz books it is all +honour and wretchedness. I am glad I know the world, and have seen all +kinds of people, and wish for everything that is pleasant, instead of +being so good and having no wishes as you say."</p> + +<p>The Contessa laughed, having got rid of all her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_276" id="Page_276">[Pg 276]</a></span> incipient tears. "There +is more life in it," she said. "You see now what it is—this life in +England; one day is like another, one does the same things. The +newspaper comes in the morning, then luncheon, then to go out, then tea, +dinner; there is no change. When we talk in the evening, and I remind +Sir Tom of the past when I lived in Florence, and he was with me every +day,"—the Contessa once more uttered that easy exclamation which would +sound so profane in English. "<i>Quelle vie!</i>" she cried, "how much we got +out of every day. There were no silences! They came in one after another +with some new thing, something to see and to do. We separated to dress, +to make ourselves beautiful for the evening, and then till the morning +light came in through the curtains, never a pause or a weariness. Yes! +sometimes one had a terrible pang. There would be a toilette, which was +ravishing, which was far superior to mine—for I never had money to +dress as I wished—or some one else would have a success, and attract +all eyes. But what did that matter?" the Contessa cried, lighting up +more and more. "One did not really grudge what lasted only for a time; +for one knew next day one would have one's turn. Ah!" she said, with a +sigh, "I knew what it was to be a queen, Bice, in those days."</p> + +<p>"And so you do still, Madama," said the girl, soothingly.</p> + +<p>Madama di Forno-Populo shook her head. "It is no longer the same," she +said. "You have known only the worst side, my <i>poverina</i>. It is no +longer one's own palace, one's own people, and the best of the +strangers, the finest company. You saw the Duchess at Milady's party the +other day. To see me made her lose her breath. She could not refuse to +speak to me—to salute me—but it was with a consternation!<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_277" id="Page_277">[Pg 277]</a></span> But, Bice, +that lady was only too happy to be invited to the Palazzo Populino. To +make one of our expeditions was her pride. I believe in my soul," cried +the Contessa, "that when she looks back she remembers those days as the +most bright of her life."</p> + +<p>Bice's clear shining eyes rested upon her patroness with a light in them +which was keen with indignation and wonder. She cried, "And why the +change—and why the change, Madama?" with a high indignant tone, such as +youth assumes in presence of ingratitude and meanness. Bice knew much +that a young girl does not usually know; but the reason why her best +friend should be thus slighted was not one of these things.</p> + +<p>The Contessa shrank a little from her gaze. She rose up again and went +to the window and looked out upon the wintry landscape, and standing +there with her face averted, shrugged her shoulders a little and made +answer in a tone of levity very different from the sincerer sound of her +previous communications. "It is poverty, my child, poverty, always the +easiest explanation! I was never rich, but then there had been no crash, +no downfall. I was in my own palace. I had the means of entertaining. I +was somebody. Ah! very different; it was not then at the baths, in the +watering-places, that the Contessa di Forno-Populo was known. It is +this, my Bice, that makes me say that sometimes I am of Milady's +opinion; that to have no wishes, to know nothing, to desire +nothing—that is best. When I knew the Duchess first I could be of +service to her. Now that I meet her again it is she only that can be of +service to me."</p> + +<p>"But——" Bice began and stopped short. She was, as has been said, a +girl of many experiences. When a very young creature is thus prematurely +in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_278" id="Page_278">[Pg 278]</a></span>troduced to a knowledge of human nature she approaches the subject +with an impartiality scarcely possible at an older age. She had seen +much. She had been acquainted with those vicissitudes that occur in the +lives of the seekers of pleasure almost since ever she was born. She had +been acquainted with persons of the most gay and cheerful appearance, +who had enjoyed themselves highly, and called all their acquaintances +round them to feast, and who had then suddenly collapsed and after an +interval of tears and wailings had disappeared from the scene of their +downfall. But Bice had not learnt the commonplace lesson so deeply +impressed upon the world from the Athenian Timon downwards, that a +downfall of this kind instantly cuts all ties. She was aware, on the +contrary, that a great deal of kindness, sympathy, and attempts to aid +were always called forth on such occasions; that the women used to form +a sort of rampart around the ruined with tears and outcries, and that +the men had anxious meetings and consultations and were constantly going +to see some one or other upon the affairs of the downfallen. Bice had +not seen in her experience that poverty was an argument for desertion. +She was so worldly wise that she did not press her question as a simple +girl might have done. She stopped short with an air of bewilderment and +pain, which the Contessa, as her head was turned, did not see. She gave +up the inquiry; but there arose in her mind a suspicion, a question, +such as had not ever had admission there before.</p> + +<p>"Ah!" cried the Contessa, suddenly turning round, clasping her hands, +"it was different indeed when my house was open to all these English, +and they came as they pleased. But now I do not know, if I am turned out +of this house, this dull house in which I have<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_279" id="Page_279">[Pg 279]</a></span> taken refuge, where I +shall go. I don't know where to go!"</p> + +<p>"Madama!" Bice sprang to her feet too, and clasped her hands.</p> + +<p>"It is true—it is quite true. We have spent everything. I have not the +means to go even to a third-rate place. As for Cannes it is impossible. +I told you so before we came here. Rome is impossible—the apartment is +let, and without that I could not live at all. Everything is gone. Here +one may manage to exist a little while, for the house is good, and Sir +Tom is rather amusing. But how to get to London unless they will take us +I know not, and London is the place to produce you, Bice. It is for that +I have been working. But Milady does not like me; she is jealous of me, +and if she can she will send us away. Is it wonderful, then, that I am +glad you are her friend? I am very glad of it, and I should wish you to +let her know that to no one could she give her money more fitly. You +see," said the Contessa, with a smile, resuming her seat and her easy +tone, "I have come back to the point we started from. It is seldom one +does that so naturally. If it is true (which seems so impossible) that +there is money to give away, no one has a better right to it than you."</p> + +<p>Bice went away from this interview with a mind more disturbed than it +had ever been in her life before. Naturally, the novel circumstances +which surrounded her awakened deeper questions as her mind developed, +and she began to find herself a distinct personage. They set her +wondering. Madame di Forno-Populo had been of a tenderness unparalleled +to this girl, and had sheltered her existence ever since she could +remember. It had not occurred to her mind as yet to ask what the +relations were between them, or why she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_280" id="Page_280">[Pg 280]</a></span> had been the object of so much +affection and thought. She had accepted this with all the composure of a +child ever since she was a child. And the prospect of achieving a +marriage should she turn out beautiful, and thus being in a position to +return some of the kindness shown her, seemed to Bice the most natural +thing in the world. But the change of atmosphere had done something, and +Lucy's company, and the growth, perhaps, of her own young spirit. She +went away troubled. There seemed to be more in the world and its +philosophy than Bice's simple rules could explain.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXVIII" id="CHAPTER_XXVIII"></a>CHAPTER XXVIII.</h2> + +<h3>THE SERPENT AND THE DOVE.</h3> + + +<p>On the very next day after this conversation took place a marked change +occurred in the manner of the Contessa. She had been always caressing to +Lucy, calling her by pretty names, and using a hundred tender +expressions as if to a child; but had never pretended to talk to her +otherwise than in a condescending way. On this occasion, however, she +exerted herself to a most unusual extent during their drive to captivate +and charm Lady Randolph; and as Lucy was very simple and accessible to +everything that seemed kindness, and the Contessa very clever and with +full command of her powers, it is not wonderful that her success was +easy. She led her to talk of Mr. Churchill, who had been kept to dinner +on the previous night, and to whom Sir Tom had been very polite, and +Lucy anxiously kind, doing all that was possible to put the good man at +his ease, though with but indifferent suc<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_281" id="Page_281">[Pg 281]</a></span>cess. For the thought of such +an obligation was too great to be easily borne, and the agitation of his +mind was scarcely settled, even by the commonplaces of the dinner, and +the devotion which young Lady Randolph showed him. Perhaps the grave +politeness of Sir Tom, which was not very encouraging, and the curiosity +of the great lady, whom he had mistaken for his benefactress, +counterbalanced Mr. Churchill's satisfaction, for he did not regain his +confidence, and it was evidently with great relief of mind that he got +up from his seat when the carriage was announced to take him away. The +Contessa had given her attention to all he said and did, with a most +lively and even anxious interest, and it was from this that she had +mastered so many details which Bice had reluctantly confirmed by her +report of the information she had derived from Jock. It was not long +before Madame di Forno-Populo managed to extract everything from Lucy. +Lady Randolph was not used to defend herself against such inquiries, nor +was there any reason why she should do so. She was glad indeed when she +saw how sweetly her companion looked, and how kind were her tones, to +talk over her own difficult position with another woman, one who was +interested, and who did not express her disapproval and horror as most +people did. The Contessa, on the contrary, took a great deal of +interest. She was astonished, indeed, but she did not represent to Lucy +that what she had to do was impossible or even vicious, as most people +seemed to suppose. She listened with the gravest attention; and she gave +a soothing sense of sympathy to Lucy's troubled soul. She was so little +prepared for sympathy from such a quarter that the unexpectedness of it +made it more soothing still.</p> + +<p>"This is a great charge to be laid upon you," the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_282" id="Page_282">[Pg 282]</a></span> Contessa said, with +the most kind look. "Upon you so young and with so little experience. +Your father must have been a man of very original mind, my Lucy. I have +heard of a great many schemes of benevolence, but never one like this."</p> + +<p>"No?" said Lucy, anxiously watching the Contessa's eye, for it was so +strange to her to have sympathy on this point, that she felt a sort of +longing for it, and that this new critic, who treated the whole matter +with more moderation and reasonableness than usual, should approve.</p> + +<p>"Generally one endows hospitals or builds churches; in my country there +is a way which is a little like yours; it is to give marriage +portions—that is very good I am told. It is done by finding out who is +the most worthy. And it is said also that not the most worthy is always +taken. Don't you remember there is a Rosiere in Barbe Bleue? Oh, I +believe you have never heard of Barbe Bleue."</p> + +<p>"I know the story," said Lucy, with a smile, "of the many wives, and the +key, and sister Anne—sister Anne."</p> + +<p>"Ah! that is not precisely what I mean; but it does not matter. So it is +this which makes you so grave, my pretty Lucy. I do not wonder. What a +charge for you! To encounter all the prejudices of the world which will +think you mad. I know it. And now your husband—the excellent Tom—he," +said the Contessa, laying a caressing and significant touch upon Lucy's +arm, "does not approve?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, Madame di Forno-Populo, that is the worst of it," cried Lucy, whose +heart was opened, and who had taken no precaution against assault on +this side; "but how do you know? for I thought that nobody knew."</p> + +<p>The Contessa this time took Lucy's hand between<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_283" id="Page_283">[Pg 283]</a></span> hers, and pressed it +tenderly, looking at her all the time with a look full of meaning. "Dear +child," she said, "I have been a great deal in the world. I see much +that other people do not see. And I know his face, and yours, my little +angel. It is much for you to carry upon those young shoulders. And all +for the sake of goodness and charity."</p> + +<p>"I do not know," said Lucy, "that it is right to say that; for, had it +been left to me, perhaps I should never have thought of it. I should +have been content with doing just what I could for the poor. No one," +said Lucy, with a sigh, "objects to that. When people are quite poor it +is natural to give them what they want; but the others——"</p> + +<p>"Ah, the others," said the Contessa. "Dear child, the others are the +most to be pitied. It is a greater thing, and far more difficult to give +to this good clergyman enough to make his children happy, than it is to +supply what is wanted in a cottage. Ah yes, your father was wise, he was +a person of character. The poor are always cared for. There are none of +us, even when we are ourselves poor, who do not hold out a hand to them. +There is a society in my Florence which is like you. It is for the +<i>Poveri Vergognosi</i>. You don't understand Italian? That means those who +are ashamed to beg. These are they," said the Contessa impressively, +"who are to be the most pitied. They must starve and never cry out; they +must conceal their misery and smile; they must put always a fair front +to the world, and seem to want nothing, while they want everything. Oh!" +The Contessa ended with a sigh, which said more than words. She pressed +Lucy's hand, and turned her face away. Her feelings were too much for +her, and on the delicate cheek, which Lucy could see, there was the +trace of a tear. After<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_284" id="Page_284">[Pg 284]</a></span> a moment she looked round again, and said, with +a little quiver in her voice: "I respect your father, my Lucy. It was a +noble thought, and it is original. No one I have ever heard of had such +an intention before."</p> + +<p>Lucy, at this unlooked-for applause, brightened with pleasure; but at +the same time was so moved that she could only look up into her +companion's face and return the pressure of her hand. When she recovered +a little she said: "You have known people like that?"</p> + +<p>"Known them? In my country," said the Contessa (who was not an Italian +at all), "they are as plentiful as in England—blackberries. People with +noble names, with noble old houses, with children who must never learn +anything, never be anything, because there is no money. Know them! dear +child, who can know better? If I were to tell you my history! I have for +my own part known—what I could not trouble your gentle spirit to hear."</p> + +<p>"But, Madame di Forno-Populo, oh! if you think me worthy of your +confidence, tell me!" cried Lucy. "Indeed, I am not so insensible as you +may think. I have known more than you suppose. You look as if no harm +could ever have touched you," Lucy cried, with a look of genuine +admiration. The Contessa had found the right way into her heart.</p> + +<p>The Contessa smiled with mournful meaning and shook her head. "A great +deal of harm has touched me," she said; "I am the very person to meet +with harm in the world. A solitary woman without any one to take care of +me, and also a very silly one, with many foolish tastes and +inclinations. Not prudent, not careful, my Lucy, and with very little +money; what could be more forlorn? You see," she said, with a smile "I +do not put all this blame upon Providence,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_285" id="Page_285">[Pg 285]</a></span> but a great deal on myself. +But to put me out of the question——"</p> + +<p>Lucy put a hand upon the Contessa's arm. She was much moved by this +revelation.</p> + +<p>"Oh! don't do that," she said; "it is you I want to hear of."</p> + +<p>Madame di Forno-Populo had an object in every word she was saying, and +knew exactly how much she meant to tell and how much to conceal. It was +indeed a purely artificial appeal that she was making to her companion's +feelings; and yet, when she looked upon the simple sympathy and generous +interest in Lucy's face, her heart was touched.</p> + +<p>"How good you are," she said; "how generous! though I have come to you +against your will, and am staying—when I am not wanted."</p> + +<p>"Oh! do not say so," cried Lucy with eagerness; "do not think +so—indeed, it was not against my will. I was glad, as glad as I could +be, to receive my husband's friend."</p> + +<p>"Few women are so," said the Contessa gravely. "I knew it when I came. +Few, very few, care for their husband's friend—especially when she is a +woman——"</p> + +<p>Lucy fixed her eyes upon her with earnest attention. Her look was not +suspicious, yet there was investigation in it.</p> + +<p>"I do not think I am like that," she said simply.</p> + +<p>"No, you are not like that," said the Contessa. "You are the soul of +candour and sweetness; but I have vexed you. Ah, my Lucy, I have vexed +you. I know it—innocently, my love—but still I have done it. That is +one of the curses of poverty. Now look," she said, after a momentary +pause, "how truth brings truth! I did not intend to say this when I +began"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_286" id="Page_286">[Pg 286]</a></span> (and this was perfectly true), "but now I must open my heart to +you. I came without caring much what you would think, meaning no +harm—Oh, trust me, meaning no harm! but since I have come all the +advantages of being here have appeared to me so strongly that I have set +my heart upon remaining, though I knew it was disagreeable to you."</p> + +<p>"Indeed:" cried Lucy, divided between sincerity and kindness: "if it was +ever so for a moment, it was only because I did not understand."</p> + +<p>"My sweetest child! this I tell you is one of the curses of poverty. I +knew it was disagreeable to you; but because of the great advantage of +being in your house, not only for me, but for Bice, for whom I have +sworn to do my best—Lucy, pardon me—I could not make up my mind to go +away. Listen! I said to myself, I am poor, I cannot give her all the +advantages; and they are rich; it is nothing to them—I will stay, I +will continue, though they do not want me, not for my sake, for the sake +of Bice. They will not be sorry afterwards to have made the fortune of +Bice. Listen, dear one; hear me out. I had the intention of forcing +myself upon you—oh no! the words are not too strong—in London, always +for Bice's sake, for she has no one but me; and if her career is +stopped—— I am not a woman," said the Contessa, with dignity, "who am +used to find myself <i>de trop</i>. I have been in my life courted, I may say +it, rather than disagreeable; yet this I was willing to bear—and impose +myself upon you for Bice's sake——"</p> + +<p>Lucy listened to this moving address with many differing emotions. It +gave her a pang to think that her hopes of having her house to herself +were thus permanently threatened. But at the same time her heart +swelled, and all her generous feelings were stirred.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_287" id="Page_287">[Pg 287]</a></span> Was she indeed so +poor a creature as to grudge to two lonely women the shelter and +advantage of her wealth and position? If she did this, what did it +matter if she gave money away? This would indeed be keeping to the +letter of her father's will, and abjuring its meaning. She could not +resist the pathos, the dignity, the sweetness of the Contessa's appeal, +which was not for herself but for Bice, for the girl who was so good to +baby, and whom that little oracle had bound her to with links of +gratitude and tenderness. "Oh," Lucy said to herself, "if I should ever +have to appeal to any one for kindness to him!" And Bice was the +Contessa's child—the child of her heart, at least—the voluntary charge +which she had taken upon her, and to which she was devoting herself. Was +it possible that only because she wanted to have her husband to herself +in the evenings, and objected to any interruption of their privacy, a +woman should be made to suffer who was a good woman, and to whom Lucy +could be of use? No, no, she cried within herself, the tears coming to +her eyes; and yet there was a very real pang behind.</p> + +<p>"But reassure yourself, dear child," said the Contessa, "for now that I +see what you are doing for others, I cannot be so selfish. No; I cannot +do it any longer. In England you do not love society; you love your home +unbroken; you do not like strangers. No, my Lucy, I will learn a lesson +from your goodness. I too will sacrifice—oh, if it was only myself and +not Bice!"</p> + +<p>"Contessa," said Lucy with an effort, looking up with a smile through some +tears, "I am not like that. It never was that you were—disagreeable. How +could you be disagreeable? And Bice is—oh, so kind, so good to my boy. +You must never think of it more.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_288" id="Page_288">[Pg 288]</a></span> The town house is not so large as the +Hall, but we shall find room in it. Oh, I am not so heartless, not so +stupid, as you think! Do you suppose I would let you go away after you +have been so kind as to open your heart to me, and let me know that we +are really of use? Oh, no, no! And I am sure," she added, faltering +slightly, "that Tom—will think the same."</p> + +<p>"It is not Tom—excellent, <i>cher</i> Tom! that shall be consulted," cried +the Contessa. "Lucy, my little angel! if it is really so that you will +give my Bice the advantage of your protection for her <i>début</i>—— But +that is to be an angel indeed, superior to all our little, petty, +miserable—— Is it possible, then," cried the Contessa, "that there is +some one so good, so noble in this low world?"</p> + +<p>This gratitude confused Lucy more than all the rest. She did her best to +deprecate and subdue; but in her heart she felt that it was a great +sacrifice she was making. "Indeed, it is nothing," she said faintly. "I +am fond of her, and she has been so good to baby; and if we can be of +any use—but oh, Madame di Forno-Populo," Lady Randolph cried, taking +courage. "Her <i>début</i>? do you really mean what she says that she must +marry——"</p> + +<p>"That I mean to marry her," said the Contessa, "that is how we express +it," with a very concise ending to her transports of gratitude. "Sweet +Lucy," she continued, "it is the usage of our country. The parents, or +those who stand in their place, think it their duty. We marry our +children as you clothe them in England. You do not wait till your little +boy can choose. You find him what is necessary. Just so do we. We choose +so much better than an inexperienced girl can choose. If she has an +aversion,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_289" id="Page_289">[Pg 289]</a></span> if she says I cannot suffer him, we do not press it upon her. +Many guardians will pay no attention, but me," said the Contessa, +putting forth a little foreign accent, which she displayed very +rarely—"I have lived among the English, and I am influenced by their +ways. Neither do I think it right," she added, with an air of candour, +"to offer an old person, or one who is hideous, or even very +disagreeable. But, yes, she must marry well. What else is there that a +girl of family can do?"</p> + +<p>Lucy was about to answer with enthusiasm that there were many things she +could do; but stopped short, arrested by these last words. "A girl of +family,"—that, no doubt, made a difference. She paused, and looked +somewhat wistfully in her companion's face. "We think," she said, "in +England that anything is better than a marriage without——"</p> + +<p>The Contessa put up her hand to stay the words. "Without love—— I know +what you are going to say; but, my angel, that is a word which Bice has +never heard spoken. She knows it not. She has not the habit of thinking +it necessary—she is a good girl, and she has no sentiment. Besides, why +should we go so fast? If she produces the effect I hope—— Why should +not some one present himself whom she could also love? Oh yes; fall in +love with, as you say in English—such an innocent phrase; let us hope +that, when the proper person comes who satisfies my requirements, +Bice—to whom not a word shall be said—will fall in love with him +<i>comme il faut</i>!"</p> + +<p>Lucy did not make any reply. She was troubled by the light laugh with +which the Contessa concluded, and with the slight change of tone which +was perceptible. But she was still too much moved by her own emotion to +have got beyond its spell, and she had committed herself beyond recall. +While the Contessa talked<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_290" id="Page_290">[Pg 290]</a></span> on with—was it a little, little change?—a +faint difference, a levity that had not been in her voice before? Lucy's +thoughts went back upon what she had done with a little tremor. Not this +time as to what Tom might say, but with a deeper wonder and pang as to +what might come of it; was she going voluntarily into new danger, such +as she had no clue to, and could not understand? After a little while +she asked almost timidly—</p> + +<p>"But if Bice should not see any one——"</p> + +<p>"You mean if no one suitable should present himself?" The Contessa +suddenly grew very grave. She put her hands together with a gesture of +entreaty. "My sweet one, let us not think of that. When she is dressed +as I shall dress her, and brought out—as you will enable me to bring +her out. My Lucy, we do not know what is in her. She will shine, she +will charm. Even now, if she is excited, there are moments in which she +is beautiful. If she fails altogether—— Ah, my love, as I tell you, +there is where the curse of poverty comes in. Had she even a moderate +fortune, poor child; but alas, orphan, with no one but me——"</p> + +<p>"Is she an orphan?" said Lucy, feeling ashamed of the momentary failure +of her interest, "and without relations—except——"</p> + +<p>"Relations?" said the Contessa; there was something peculiar in her tone +which attracted Lucy's attention, and came back to her mind in other +days. "Ah, my Lucy, there are many things in this life which you have +never thought of. She has relations who think nothing of her, who would +be angry, be grieved, if they knew that she existed. Yes, it is terrible +to think of, but it is true. She is, on one side, of English parentage. +But pardon me, my sweetest, I did not mean to tell you all this: only, +my Lucy, you will one time be<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_291" id="Page_291">[Pg 291]</a></span> glad to think that you have been kind to +Bice. It will be a pleasure to you. Now let us think of it no more. +Marry; yes, she must marry. She has not even so much as your poor +clergyman; she has nothing, not a penny. So I must marry her, there is +nothing more to be said."</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXIX" id="CHAPTER_XXIX"></a>CHAPTER XXIX.</h2> + +<h3>THE CONTESSA'S TRIUMPH.</h3> + + +<p>And it was with very mingled sensations that Sir Tom heard from Lucy +(for it was from her lips he heard it) the intimation that Madame di +Forno-Populo was going to be so good as to remain at the Hall till they +moved to London, and then to accompany them to Park Lane. Sir Tom was +taken entirely by surprise. He was not a man who had much difficulty in +commanding himself, or showing such an aspect as he pleased to the +general world; but on this occasion he was so much surprised that his +very jaw dropped with wonder and astonishment. It was at luncheon that +the intimation was made, in the Contessa's presence, so that he did not +venture to let loose any expression of his feelings. He gave a cry, only +half uttered, of astonishment, restrained by politeness, turning his +eyes, which grew twice their size in the bewilderment of the moment, +from Lucy to the Contessa and back again. Then he burst into a +breathless laugh—a twinkle of humour lighted in those eyes which were +big with wonder, and he turned a look of amused admiration towards the +Contessa. How had she done it? There was no fathoming the cleverness of +women, he said to himself,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_292" id="Page_292">[Pg 292]</a></span> and for the rest of the day he kept bursting +forth into little peals of laughter all by himself. How had she managed +to do it? It was a task which he himself would not have ventured to +undertake. He would not, he said to himself, have had the slightest idea +how to bring forward such a proposition. On the contrary, had not his +sense that Lucy had much to forgive in respect to this invasion of her +home and privacy induced him to make a great sacrifice, to withdraw his +opposition to those proceedings of hers of which he so much disapproved? +And yet in an afternoon, in one interview, the Contessa had got the +upper hand! Her cleverness was extraordinary. It tickled him so that he +could not take time to think how very little satisfied he was with the +result. He, too, had fallen under her enchantments in the country, in +the stillness, if not dulness, of those long evenings, and he had been +very willing to be good to her for the sake of old times, to make her as +comfortable as possible, to give her time to settle her plans for her +London campaign. But that she should begin that campaign under his own +roof, and that Lucy, his innocent and simple wife, should be visible to +the world as the friend and ally of a lady whose name was too well known +to society, was by no means satisfactory to Sir Tom. When his first +astonishment and amazement was over, he began to look grave; but what +was he to do? He had so much respect for Lucy that when the idea +occurred to him of warning her that the Contessa's antecedents were not +of a comfortable kind, and that her generosity was mistaken, he rejected +it again with a sort of panic, and did not dare, experienced and +courageous as he was, to acknowledge to his little wife that he had +ventured to bring to her house a woman of whom it could be said that she +was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_293" id="Page_293">[Pg 293]</a></span> not above suspicion. Sir Tom had dared a great many perils in his +life, but he did not venture to face this. He recoiled from before it, +as he would not have done from any lion in the way. He could not even +suggest to her any reticence in her communications, any reserve in +showing herself at the Contessa's side, or in inviting other people to +meet her. If all his happiness depended upon it, he felt that he could +not disturb Lucy's mind by any such warning. Confess to her that he had +brought to her a woman with whom scandal had been busy, that he had +introduced to her as his friend, and recommended to honour and kindness, +one whose name had been in all men's mouths! Sir Tom ran away morally +from this suggestion as if he had been the veriest coward; he could not +breathe a word of it in Lucy's ear. How could he explain to her that +mixture of amazement at the woman's boldness, and humorous sense of the +incongruity of her appearance in the absolute quiet of an English home, +without company, which, combined with ancient kindness and careless good +humour, had made him sanction her first appearance? Still less, how +could he explain the mingling of more subtle sensations, the +recollections of a past which Sir Tom could not himself much approve of, +yet which was full of interest still, and the formation of an +intercourse which renewed that past, and brought a little tingling of +agreeable excitement into life when it had fallen to too low an ebb to +be agreeable in itself? He would not say a word of all this to Lucy. Her +purity, her simplicity, even her want of imagination and experience, her +incapacity to understand that debatable land between vice and virtue in +which so many men find little harm, and which so many women regard with +interest and curiosity, closed his mouth. And<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_294" id="Page_294">[Pg 294]</a></span> then he comforted himself +with the reflection that, as his aunt herself had admitted, the Contessa +had never brought herself openly within the ban. Men might laugh when +the name of La Forno-Populo was introduced, and women draw themselves up +with indignation, or stare with astonishment not unmingled with +consternation as the Duchess had done; but they could not refuse to +recognise her, nor could any one assert that there was sufficient reason +to exclude her from society. Not even when she was younger, and +surrounded by worshippers, could this be said. And now when she was +less—— But here Sir Tom paused to ask himself, was she less attractive +than of old? When he came to consider the question he was obliged to +allow that he did not think so; and if she really meant to bring out +that girl—— Did she mean to bring out that girl? Could she make up her +mind to exhibit beside her own waning (if they were waning) charms the +first flush of this young beauty? Sir Tom, who thought he knew women (at +least of the kind of La Forno-Populo), shook his head and felt it very +doubtful whether the Contessa was sincere, or if she could indeed make +up her mind to take a secondary place. He thought with a rueful +anticipation of the sort of people who would flock to Park Lane to renew +their acquaintance with La Forno-Populo. "By Jove! but shall they +though? Not if I know it," said Sir Tom firmly to himself.</p> + +<p>Williams, the butler, was still more profoundly discomposed. He had +opened his mind to Mrs. Freshwater on various occasions when his +feelings were too many for him. Naturally, Williams gave the Contessa +the benefit of no doubt as to her reputation. He was entirely convinced, +as is the fashion of his class, that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_295" id="Page_295">[Pg 295]</a></span> all that could have been said of +her was true, and that she was as unfit for the society of the +respectable as any wretched creature could be. "That foreign madam" was +what he called her, in the privacy of the housekeeper's room, with many +opprobrious epithets. Mrs. Freshwater, who was, perhaps, more +good-natured than was advantageous to the housekeeper and manager of a +large establishment, was melted whenever she saw her, by the Contessa's +gracious looks and ways, but Williams was immovable. "If you'd seen what +I've seen," he said, shaking his head. The women, for Lucy's maid +Fletcher sometimes shared these revelations, were deeply excited by +this—longing, yet fearing to ask what it was that Williams had seen. +"And when I think of my lady, that is as innocent as the babe unborn," +he said, "mixed up in all that—— You'll see such racketing as never was +thought of," cried Williams. "I know just how things will go. Night +turned into day, carriages driving up at all hours, suppers going on +after the play all the night through, masks and dominoes +arriving;—no—to be sure this is England. There will be no <i>veglionis</i>, +at least—which in England, ladies, would be masked balls—with Madam +the Countess and her gentlemen—and even ladies too, a sort of +ladies—in all sorts of dresses."</p> + +<p>"O-oh!" the women cried.</p> + +<p>They were partially shocked, as they were intended to be, but partially +their curiosity was excited, and a feeling that they would like to see +all these gaieties and fine dresses moved their minds. The primitive +intelligence always feel certain that "racketing" and orgies that go on +all night, must be at least guiltily delightful, exciting, and amusing, +if nothing else. They were not of those who "held with" such +dissipation;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_296" id="Page_296">[Pg 296]</a></span> still for once in a way to see it, the responsibility not +being theirs, would be something. They held their breath, but it was not +altogether in horror; there was in it a mixture of anticipation too.</p> + +<p>"And I know what will come of it," said Williams. "What has come afore: +the money will have to come out o' some one's pocket; and master never +knew how to keep his to himself, never, as long as I've known him. To be +sure, he hadn't got a great deal in the old days. But I know what'll +happen; he'll just have to pay up now—he's that soft," said Williams; +"a man that can't say no to a woman. Not that I care for the money. I'd +a deal sooner he gave her an allowance, or set her up in some other +place, or just give her a good round sum—as he could afford to do—and +get shut of her. That is what I should advise. Just a round sum and get +shut of her."</p> + +<p>"I've always heard," said Miss Fletcher, "as the money was my lady's, +and not from the Randolph side at all."</p> + +<p>"What's hers is his," said Williams; "what's my lady's is her husband's; +and a good bargain too—on her side."</p> + +<p>"I declare," cried Fletcher energetically, stung with that sense of +wrong to her own side which gives heat to party feeling—"I declare if +any man took my money to keep up his—his—his old sweetheart, I'd +murder him. I'd take his life, that's what I should do."</p> + +<p>"Poor dear," said Mrs. Freshwater, wiping her eyes with her apron. "Poor +dear! She'll never murder no one, my lady. Bless her innocent face. I +only hope as she'll never find it out."</p> + +<p>"Sooner than she don't find it out I'll tell her my<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_297" id="Page_297">[Pg 297]</a></span>self," cried +Williams. "Now I don't understand you women. You'd let my lady be +deceived and made game of, rather than tell her."</p> + +<p>"Made game of!" cried Fletcher, with a shriek of indignation. "I should +like to see who dared to do that."</p> + +<p>"Oh, they'll dare do it, soon enough, and take their fun out of +her—it's just what them foreigners are fond of," said Williams, who +knew them and all their tricks down to the ground, as he said. Still, +however, notwithstanding his evil reports, good Mrs. Freshwater, who was +as good-natured as she was fat, could scarcely make up her mind to +believe all that of the Contessa. "She do look so sweet, and talk so +pretty, not as if she was foreign at all," the housekeeper said.</p> + +<p>That evening, however, the Contessa herself took occasion to explain to +Sir Tom what her intentions were. She had thought the subject all over +while she dressed for dinner, with a certain elation in her success, yet +keen clear-mindedness which never deserted her. And then, to be sure, +her object had not been entirely the simple one of getting an invitation +to Park Lane. She had intended something more than this. And she was not +sure of success in that second and still more important point. She meant +that Lady Randolph should endow Bice largely, liberally. She intended to +bring every sort of motive to bear—even some that verged upon +tragedy—to procure this. She had no compunction or faltering on the +subject, for it was not for herself, she said within herself, that she +was scheming, and she did not mean to be foiled. In considering the best +means to attain this great and final object, she decided that it would +be well to go softly, not to insist too much upon the advantages she had +secured, or to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_298" id="Page_298">[Pg 298]</a></span> give Lucy too much cause to regret her yielding. The +Contessa had the soul of a strategist, the imagination of a great +general. She did not ignore the feelings of the subject of her +experiment. She even put herself in Lucy's place, and asked herself how +she could bear this or that. She would not oppose or overwhelm the +probable benefactress to whom she, or at least Bice, might afterwards +owe so much. When Sir Tom approached her chair in the evening when he +came in after dinner, as he always did, she made room for him on the +sofa beside her. "I am going to make you my confidant," she said in her +most charming way, with that air of smiling graciousness which made Sir +Tom laugh, yet fascinated him in spite of himself. He knew that she put +on the same air for whomsoever she chose to charm; but it had a power +which he could not resist all the same. "But perhaps you don't care to +be taken into my confidence," she added, smiling, too, as if willing to +admit all he could allege as to her syren graces. She had a delightful +air of being in the joke which entirely deceived Sir Tom.</p> + +<p>"On the contrary," he said. "But as we have just heard your plans from +my wife——"</p> + +<p>The Contessa kissed her hand to Lucy, who occupied her usual place at +the table.</p> + +<p>"I wonder," she said, "if you understand, being only a man, what there +is in that child; for she is but a child. You and I, we are Methuselahs +in comparison."</p> + +<p>"Not quite so much as that," he said, with a laugh.</p> + +<p>"Methuselahs," she said reflectively. "Older, if that is possible; +knowing everything, while she knows nothing. She is our good angel. It +is what you would not have dared to offer, you who know me——<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_299" id="Page_299">[Pg 299]</a></span>yes, I +believe it—and like me. Oh no, I do not go beyond that English word, +never! You like the Forno-Populo. I know how you men speak. You think +that there is amusement to be got from her, and you will do me the +honour to say, no harm. That is, no permanent harm. But you would not +offer to befriend me, no, not the best of you. But she who by nature is +against such women as I am—Sweet Lucy! Yes it is you I am talking of," +the Contessa said, who was skilful to break any lengthened speeches like +this by all manner of interruptions, so that it should never tire the +person to whom it was addressed. "She, who is not amused by me, who does +not like me, whose prejudices are all against me, she it is who offers +me her little hand to help me. It is a lovely little hand, though she is +not a beauty——"</p> + +<p>"My wife is very well," said Sir Tom, with a certain hauteur and +abruptness, such as in all their lengthened conversations he had never +shown before.</p> + +<p>The Contessa gave him a look in which there was much of that feminine +contempt at which men laugh as one of the pretences of women. "I am +going to be good to her as she is to me," she said. "The Carnival will +be short this year, and in England you have no Carnival. I will find +myself a little house for the season. I will not too much impose upon +that angel. There, now, is something good for you to relieve your mind. +I can read you, <i>mon ami</i>, like a book. You are fond of me—oh yes!—but +not too long; not too much. I can read you like a book."</p> + +<p>"Too long, too much, are not in my vocabulary," said Sir Tom; "have they +a meaning? not certainly that has any connection with a certain charming +Contessina. If that lady has a fault, which I doubt, it is<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_300" id="Page_300">[Pg 300]</a></span> that she +gives too little of her gracious countenance to her friends."</p> + +<p>"She does not come down to breakfast," said the Contessa, with her soft +laugh, which in itself was a work of art. "She is not so foolish as to +put herself in competition with the lilies and the roses, the English +flowers. Poverina! she keeps herself for the afternoon which is +charitable, and the light of the lamps which is flattering. But she +remembers other days—alas! in which she was not afraid of the sun +himself, not even of the mid-day, nor of the dawn when it comes in above +the lamps. There was a certain <i>bal costumé</i> in Florence, a year when +many English came to the Populino palace. But why do I talk of that? You +will not remember——"</p> + +<p>There was something apparently in the recollection that touched Sir Tom. +His eye softened. An unaccustomed colour came to his middle-aged cheek. +"I! not remember? I remember every hour, every moment," he said, and +then their voices sank lower, and a murmur of reminiscences, one filling +up another, ensued between the pair. Their tone softened, there were +broken phrases, exclamations, a rapid interchange which was far too +indistinct to be audible. Lucy sat by her table and worked, and was +vaguely conscious of it all. She had said to herself that she would take +no heed any more, that the poor Contessa was too open-hearted, too +generous to harm her, that they were but two old friends talking of the +past. And so it was; but there was a something forlorn in sitting by at +a distance, out of it all, and knowing that it was to go on and last, +alas! by her own doing, who could tell how many evenings, how many long +hours to come!</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_301" id="Page_301">[Pg 301]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXX" id="CHAPTER_XXX"></a>CHAPTER XXX.</h2> + +<h3>DIFFERENT VIEWS.</h3> + + +<p>The time after this seemed to fly in the great quiet, all the +entertainments of the Christmas season being over, and the houses in the +neighbourhood gradually emptying of guests. The only visitors at the +Hall were the clergyman, the doctor, an odd man now and then whom Sir +Tom would invite in the character of a "native," for the Contessa's +amusement; and Mr. Rushton, who came from Farafield two or three times +on business, at first with a very keen curiosity, to know how it was +that Lucy had subdued her husband and got him to relinquish his +objection to her alienation of her money. This had puzzled the lawyer +very greatly. There had been no uncertainty about Sir Tom's opinion when +the subject was mooted to him first. He had looked upon it with very +proper sentiments. It had seemed to him ridiculous, incredible, that +Lucy should set up her will against his, or take her own way, when she +knew how he regarded the matter. He had told the lawyer that he had +little doubt of being able to bring her to hear reason. And then he had +written to say that he withdrew his objection! Mr. Rushton felt that +there must be some reason here more than met the eye. He made a pretence +of business that he might discover what it was, and he had done so +triumphantly, as he thought. Sir Tom, as everybody knew, had been "a +rover" in his youth, and the world was charitable enough to conclude +that in that youth there must be many things which he would not care to +expose to the eye of day. When Mr. Rushton<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_302" id="Page_302">[Pg 302]</a></span> beheld at luncheon the +Contessa, followed by the young and slim figure of Bice, it seemed to +him that everything was solved. And Lady Randolph, he thought, did not +look with very favourable eyes upon the younger lady. What doubt that +Sir Tom had bought the assent of his wife to the presence of the guests +by giving up on his side some of his reasonable rights?</p> + +<p>"Did you ever hear of an Italian lady that Sir Tom was thick with before +he married?" he asked his wife when he came home.</p> + +<p>"How can you ask me such a question," said that virtuous woman, "when +you know as well as I do that there were half-a-dozen?"</p> + +<p>"Did you ever hear the name of Forno-Populo?" he asked.</p> + +<p>Mrs. Rushton paused and did her best to look as if she was trying to +recollect. As a matter of fact all Italian names sounded alike to her, +as English names do to foreign ears. But after a moment she said boldly: +"Of course I have heard it. That was the lady from Naples, or Venice, or +some of those places, that ran away with him. You heard all about it at +the time as well as I."</p> + +<p>And upon this Mr. Rushton smote upon his thigh, and made a mighty +exclamation. "By George!" he said, "he's got her there, under his wife's +very nose; and that's why he has given in about the money." Nothing +could have been more clearly reasoned out—there could be no doubt upon +that subject. And the presence of Bice decided the question. Bice must +be—they said, to be sure! Dates and everything answered to this view of +the question. There could be no doubt as to who Bice was. They were very +respectable, good people themselves, and had never given<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_303" id="Page_303">[Pg 303]</a></span> any scandal to +the world; but they never hesitated for a moment or thought there was +anything unnatural in attributing the most shameful scandal and domestic +treachery to Sir Tom. In fact it would be difficult to say that they +thought much less of him in consequence. It was Lucy, rather, upon whom +their censure fell. She ought to have known better. She ought never to +have allowed it. To pretend to such simplicity was sickening, Mrs. +Rushton thought.</p> + +<p>It was early in February when they all went to London—a time when +society is in a sort of promissory state, full of hopes of dazzling +delights to come, but for the present not dazzling, parliamentary, +residential, a society made up of people who live in London, who are not +merely gay birds of fashion, basking in the sunshine of the seasons. +There was only a week or two of what the Contessa called Carnival, which +indeed was not Carnival at all, but a sober time in which dinner parties +began, and the men began to gather at the clubs. The Contessa did not +object to this period of quiet. She acquainted Lucy with all she meant +to do in the meantime, to the great confusion of that ingenious spirit. +"Bice must be dressed," the Contessa said, "which of itself requires no +little time and thought. Unhappily M. Worth is not in London. Even with +M. Worth I exert my own faculties. He is excellent, but he has not the +intuitions which come when one is very much interested in an object. +Sweet Lucy! you have not thought upon that matter. Your dress is as your +dressmaker sends it to you. Yes; but, my angel, Bice has her career +before her. It is different."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Madame di Forno-Populo," said Lucy, "do you still think in that +way—must it still be exhibiting her, marrying her?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_304" id="Page_304">[Pg 304]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Marriage is honourable," said the Contessa. "It is what all girls are +thinking of; but me, I think it better that their parents should take it +in hand instead of the young ladies. There is something in Bice that is +difficult, oh, very difficult. If one chooses well for her, one will be +richly repaid; but if, on the contrary, one leaves it to the +conventional, the ordinary—My sweetest! your pretty white dresses, your +blues are delightful for you; but Bice is different, quite different. +And then she has no fortune. She must be piquant. She must be striking. +She must please. In England you take no trouble for that. It is not +<i>comme il faut</i> here; but it is in our country. Each of us we like the +ways of our country best."</p> + +<p>"I have often wondered," said Lucy, "to hear you speak such perfect +English, and Bice too. It is, I suppose, because you are so musical and +have such good ears——"</p> + +<p>"Darling!" said the Contessa sweetly. She said this or a similar word +when nothing else occurred to her. She had her room full of lovely +stuffs, brought by obsequious shopmen, to whom Lady Randolph's name was +sufficient warrant for any extravagance the Contessa might think of. But +she said to herself that she was not at all extravagant; for Bice's +wardrobe was her stock-in-trade, and if she did not take the opportunity +of securing it while in her power, the Contessa thought she would be +false to Bice's interests. The girl still wore nothing but her black +frock. She went out in the park early in the morning when nobody was +there, and sometimes had riding lessons at an unearthly hour, so that +nobody should see her. The Contessa was very anxious on this point. When +Lucy would have taken Bice out driving, when she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_305" id="Page_305">[Pg 305]</a></span> would have taken her +to the theatre, her patroness instantly interfered. "All that will come +in its time," she said. "Not now. She must not appear now. I cannot have +her seen. Recollect, my Lucy, she has no fortune. She must depend upon +herself for everything." This doctrine, at which Lucy stood aghast, was +maintained in the most matter-of-fact way by the neophyte herself. "If I +were seen," she said, "now, I should be quite stale when I appear. I +must appear before I go anywhere. Oh yes, I love the theatre. I should +like to go with you driving. But I should forestall myself. Some persons +do and they are never successful. First of all, before anything, I must +appear."</p> + +<p>"Oh my child," Lucy cried, "I cannot bear to hear of all this. You +should not calculate so at your age. And when you appear, as you call +it, what then, Bice? Nobody will take any particular notice, perhaps, +and you will be so disappointed you will not know what to do. Hundreds +of girls appear every season and nobody minds."</p> + +<p>Bice took no notice of these subduing and moderating previsions. She +smiled and repeated what the Contessa said. "I must do the best for +myself, for I have no fortune."</p> + +<p>No fortune! and to think that Lucy, with her mind directed to other +matters, never once realised that this was a state of affairs which she +could put an end to in a moment. It never occurred to her—perhaps, as +she certainly was matter of fact, the recollection that there was a sort +of stipulation in the will against foreigners turned her thoughts into +another channel.</p> + +<p>It was, however, during this time of preparation and quiet that the +household in Park Lane one day<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_306" id="Page_306">[Pg 306]</a></span> received a visit from Jock, accompanied +by no less a person than MTutor, the leader of intellectual life and +light of the world to the boy. They came to luncheon by appointment, and +after visiting some museum on which Jock's mind was set, came to remain +to dinner and go to the theatre. MTutor had a condescending appreciation +of the stage. He thought it was an educational influence, not perhaps of +any great utility to the youths under such care as his own, but of no +small importance to the less fortunate members of society; and he liked +to encourage the efforts of conscientious actors who looked upon their +own calling in this light. It was rather for this purpose than with the +idea of amusement that he patronised the play, and Jock, as in duty +bound, though there was in him a certain boyish excitement as to the +pleasure itself, did his best to regard the performance in the same +exalted light. MTutor was a young man of about thirty, slim and tall. He +was a man who had taken honours at college, though his admirers said not +such high honours as he might have taken; "For MTutor," said Jock, +"never would go in for pot-hunting, you know. What he always wanted was +to cultivate his own mind, not to get prizes." It was with heartfelt +admiration that this feature in his character was dwelt upon by his +disciples. Not a doubt that he could have got whatever he liked to go in +for, had he not been so fastidious and high-minded. He was fellow of his +college as it was, had got a poetry prize which, perhaps, was not the +Newdigate; and smiled indulgently at those who were more warm in the +arena of competition than himself. On other occasions when "men" came to +luncheon, the Contessa, though quite ready to be amused by them in her +own person, sternly<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_307" id="Page_307">[Pg 307]</a></span> forbade the appearance of Bice, the effect of whose +future was not, she was determined, to be spoilt by any such preliminary +peeps; but the Contessa's vigilance slackened when the visitors were of +no greater importance than this. She was insensible to the greatness of +MTutor. It did not seem to matter that he should be there sitting grave +and dignified by Lucy's side, and talking somewhat over Lucy's head, any +more than it mattered that Mr. Rushton should be there, or any other +person of an inferior level. It was not upon such men that Bice's +appearance was to tell. She took no precautions against such persons. +Jock himself at sixteen was not more utterly out of the question. And +the Contessa herself, as it happened, was much amused by MTutor; his +great ideas of everything, the exalted ideal that showed in all he did +or said, gave great pleasure to this woman of the world. And when they +came to the question of the educational influence of the stage, and the +conscientious character of the actors' work, she could not conceal her +satisfaction. "I will go with you, too," she said, "this evening." "We +shall all go," said Sir Tom, "even Bice. There is a big box, and behind +the curtain nobody will see her." To this the Contessa demurred, but, +after a little while, being in a yielding humour, gave way. "It is for +the play alone," she said in an undertone, raising her finger in +admonition, "You will remember, my child, for the play alone."</p> + +<p>"We are all going for the play alone," said Sir Tom, cheerfully. "Here +is Lucy, who is a baby for a play. She likes melodrama best, disguises +and trap-doors and long-lost sons, and all the rest of it."</p> + +<p>"It is a taste that is very general," said MTutor, indulgently; "but I +am sure Lady Randolph appre<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_308" id="Page_308">[Pg 308]</a></span>ciates the efforts of a conscientious +interpreter—one who calls all the resources of art to his aid——"</p> + +<p>"I don't care for the play alone," said Bice to Jock in an undertone. "I +want to see the people. They are always the most amusing. I have seen +nobody yet in London. And though I must not be seen, I may look, that +will do no harm. Then there will be the people who come into the box."</p> + +<p>"The people who come into the box! but you know us all," said Jock, +astonished, "before we go——"</p> + +<p>"You all?" said Bice, with some disdain. "It is easy to see <i>you</i>; that +is not what I mean; this will be the first time I put my foot into the +world. The actors, that is nothing. Is it the custom in England to look +much at the play? No, you go to see your friends."</p> + +<p>MTutor was on the other side of this strange girl in her black frock. He +took it upon him to reply. He said: "That is the case in some countries, +but not here. In England the play is actually thought of. English actors +are not so good as the French, nor even the Italian. And the Germans are +much better trained. Nevertheless, we do what perhaps no other nation +does. We give them our attention. It is this which makes the position of +the actors more important, more interesting in England."</p> + +<p>"Stop a little, stop a little!" cried Sir Tom; "don't let me interrupt +you, Derwentwater, if you are instructing the young ones; but don't +forget the <i>Comédie Française</i> and the aristocracy of art."</p> + +<p>"I do not forget it," said Mr. Derwentwater; "in that point of view we +are far behind France; still I uphold that nowhere else do people go to +the theatre for the sake of the play as we do; and it is this," he +said,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_309" id="Page_309">[Pg 309]</a></span> turning to Bice, "that makes it possible that the theatre may be +an influence and a power."</p> + +<p>Bice lifted her eyes upon this man with a wondering gaze of contempt. +She gave him a full look which abashed him, though he was so much more +important, so much more intellectual, than she. Then, without deigning +to take any notice, she turned to Jock at her other side. "If that is +all I do not care for going," she said. "I have seen many plays—oh, +many! I like quite as well to read at home. It is not for that I wish to +go; but to see the world. The world, that is far more interesting. It is +like a novel, but living. You look at the people and you read what they +are thinking. You see their stories going on. That is what amuses +me;—but a play on the stage, what is it? People dressed in clothes that +do not belong to them, trying to make themselves look like somebody +else—but they never do. One says—that is not I, but the people that +know—Bravo, Got! Bravo Regnier! It does not matter what parts they are +acting. You do not care for the part. Then why go and look at it?" said +Bice with straightforward philosophy.</p> + +<p>All this she poured forth upon Jock in a low clear voice, as if there +was no one else near. Jock, for his part, was carried away by the flood.</p> + +<p>"I don't know about Got and Regnier. But what we are going to see is +Shakespeare," he said, with a little awe, "that is not just like a +common play."</p> + +<p>Mr. Derwentwater had been astonished by Bice's indifference to his own +instructive remarks. It was this perhaps more than her beauty which had +called his attention to her, and he had listened as well as he could to +the low rapid stream of her conversation, not without wonder that she +should have chosen Jock as the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_310" id="Page_310">[Pg 310]</a></span> recipient of her confidence. What she +said, though he heard it but imperfectly, interested him still more. He +wanted to make her out—it was a new kind of study. While Lucy, by his +side, went on tranquilly with some soft talk about the theatre, of which +she knew very little, he thought, he made her a civil response, but gave +all his attention to what was going on at the other side; and there was +suddenly a lull of the general commotion, in which he heard distinctly +Bice's next words.</p> + +<p>"<i>What</i> is Shakespeare?" she said; then went on with her own +reflections. "What I want to see is the world. I have never yet gone +into the world; but I must know it, for it is there I have to live. If +one could live in Shakespeare," cried the girl, "it would be easy; but I +have not been brought up for that; and I want to see the world—just a +little corner—because that is what concerns me, not a play. If it is +only for the play, I think I shall not go."</p> + +<p>"You had much better come," said Jock; "after all it is fun, and some of +the fellows will be good. The world is not to be seen at the theatre +that I know of," continued the boy. "Rows of people sitting one behind +another, most of them as stupid as possible—you don't call that the +world? But come—I wish you would come. It is a change—it stirs you +up."</p> + +<p>"I don't want to be stirred up. I am all living," cried Bice. There +seemed to breathe out from her a sort of visible atmosphere of energy +and impatient life. Looking across this thrill in the air, which somehow +was like the vibration of heat in the atmosphere, Jock's eyes +encountered those of his tutor, turned very curiously, and not without +bewilderment, to the same point as his own. It gave the boy a curious +sensation<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_311" id="Page_311">[Pg 311]</a></span> which he could not define. He had wished to exhibit to Mr. +Derwentwater this strange phenomenon in the shape of a girl, with a +sense that there was something very unusual in her, something in which +he himself had a certain proprietorship. But when MTutor's eyes +encountered Jock's with an astonished glance of discovery in them, which +seemed to say that he had found out Bice for himself without the +interposition of the original discoverer, Jock felt a thrill of +displeasure, and almost pain, which he could not explain to himself. +What did it mean? It seemed to bring with it a certain defiance of, and +opposition to, this king of men.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXI" id="CHAPTER_XXXI"></a>CHAPTER XXXI.</h2> + +<h3>TWO FRIENDS.</h3> + + +<p>"Who was that young lady?" Mr. Derwentwater said. "I did not catch the +name."</p> + +<p>"What young lady?" To suppose for a moment that Jock did not know who +was meant would be ridiculous, of course; but, for some reason which he +did not explain even to himself, this was the reply he made.</p> + +<p>"My dear Jock, there was but one," said MTutor, with much friendliness. +"At your age you do not take much notice of the other sex, and that is +very well and right; but still it would be wrong to imagine that there +is not something interesting in girls occasionally. I did not make her +out. She was quite a study to me at the theatre. I am afraid the greater +part of the performance, and all the most meritorious portion of it,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_312" id="Page_312">[Pg 312]</a></span> +was thrown away upon her; but still there were gleams of interest. She +is not without intelligence, that is clear."</p> + +<p>"You mean Bice," said Jock, with a certain dogged air which Mr. +Derwentwater had seldom seen in him before, and did not understand. He +spoke as if he intended to say as little as was practicable, and as if +he resented being made to speak at all.</p> + +<p>"Bice—ah! like Dante's Bice," said MTutor. "That makes her more +interesting still. Though it is not perhaps under that aspect that one +represents to oneself the Bice of Dante—<i>ben son, ben son, Beatrice.</i> +No, not exactly under that aspect. Dante's Bice must have been more +grand, more imposing, in her dress of crimson or dazzling white."</p> + +<p>Jock made no response. It was usual for him to regard MTutor devoutly +when he talked in this way, and to feel that no man on earth talked so +well. Jock in his omnivorous reading knew perhaps Dante better than his +instructor, but he had come to the age when the mind, confused in all +its first awakening of emotions, cannot talk of what affects it most. +The time had been at which he had discussed everything he read with +whosoever would listen, and instructed the world in a child's +straightforward way. At that period he had often improved Lucy's mind on +the subject of Dante, telling her all the details of that wonderful +pilgrimage through earth and heaven, to her great interest and wonder, +as something that had happened the other day. Lucy had not in those days +been quite able to understand how it was that the gentleman of Florence +should have met everybody he knew in the unseen, but she had taken it +all in respectfully, as was her wont. Jock, however, had passed beyond +this<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_313" id="Page_313">[Pg 313]</a></span> stage, and no longer told Lucy, or any one, stories from his +reading; and other sensations had begun to stir in him which he could +not put into words. In this way it was a constant admiration to him to +hear MTutor, who could always, he thought, say the right thing and never +was at a loss. But this evening he was dissatisfied. They were returning +from the theatre by a late train, and nothing but Jock's reputation and +high character as a boy of boys, high up in everything intellectual, and +without reproach in any way, besides the devoted friendship which +subsisted between himself and his tutor, could have justified Mr. +Derwentwater in permitting him in the middle of the half to go to London +to the theatre, and return by the twelve o'clock train. This privilege +came to him from the favour of his tutor, and yet for the first time his +tutor did not seem the superhuman being he had always previously +appeared to Jock. But Mr. Derwentwater was quite unsuspicious of this.</p> + +<p>"There is something very much out of the way in the young lady +altogether," he said. "That little black dress, fitting her like a +glove, and no ornament or finery of any description. It is not so with +girls in general. It was very striking—tell me——"</p> + +<p>"I didn't think," cried Jock, "that you paid any attention to what women +wore."</p> + +<p>Mr. Derwentwater yielded to a gentle smile. "Tell me," he said, as if he +had not been interrupted, "who this young lady may be. Is she a daughter +of the Italian lady, a handsome woman, too, in her way, who was with +your people?" The railway carriage in which they were coursing through +the blackness of the night was but dimly lighted, and it was not easy to +see from one corner to another the expression of Jock's face.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_314" id="Page_314">[Pg 314]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I don't know," said Jock, in a voice that sounded gruff, "I can't tell +who she is—I never asked. It did not seem any business of mine."</p> + +<p>"Old fellow," said MTutor, "don't cultivate those bearish ways. Some men +do, but it's not good form. I don't like to see it in you."</p> + +<p>This silenced Jock, and made his face flame in the darkness. He did not +know what excuse to make. He added reluctantly: "Of course I know that +she came with the Contessa; but who she is I don't know, and I don't +think Lucy knows. She is just—there."</p> + +<p>"Well, my boy," said Mr. Derwentwater, "if there is any mystery, all +right; I don't want to be prying;" but, as was natural, this only +increased his curiosity. After an interval, he broke forth again. "A +little mystery," he said, "suits them; a woman ought to be mysterious, +with her long robes falling round her, and her mystery of long hair, and +all the natural veils and mists that are about her. It is more poetic +and in keeping that they should only have a lovely suggestive name, what +we call a Christian name, instead of a commonplace patronymic, Miss +So-and-so! Yes; I recognise your Bice as by far the most suitable +symbol."</p> + +<p>It is impossible to say what an amount of unexpressed and inexpressible +irritation arose in the mind of Jock with every word. "Your Bice!" The +words excited him almost beyond his power of control. The mere fact of +having somehow got into opposition to MTutor was in itself an irritation +almost more than he could bear. How it was he could not explain to +himself; but only felt that from the moment when they had got into their +carriage together, Mr. Derwentwater, hitherto his god, had become almost +odious to him. The evening altogether had been exciting, but +uncom<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_315" id="Page_315">[Pg 315]</a></span>fortable. They had all gone to the theatre, where Jock had been +prepared to look on not so much at a fine piece of acting as at a +conscientious study, the laboriousness of which was one of its chief +qualities. Neither the Contessa nor Bice had been much impressed by that +fine view of the performance. Madame di Forno-Populo, indeed, had swept +the audience with her opera-glass, and paid very little attention to the +stage. She had yawned at the most important moments. When the curtain +fell she had woke up, looking with interest for visitors, as it +appeared, though very few visitors had come. Bice was put into the +corner under shelter of the Contessa, and thence had taken furtive +peeps, though without any opera-glass, with her own keen, intelligent +young eyes, at the people sitting near, whom Jock had declared not to be +in any sense of the word the world. Bice too looked up, when the box +door opened, with great interest. She kept well in the shade, but it was +evident that she was anxious to see whosoever might come. And very few +people came; one or two men who came to pay their respects to Lucy, one +or two who appeared with faces of excitement and surprise to ask if it +was indeed Madame di Forno-Populo whom they had seen? At these Bice from +out her corner gazed with large eyes; they were not persons of an +interesting kind. One of them was a Lord Somebody, who was red-faced and +had an air which somehow did not suit the place in which Lucy was, and +towards whom Sir Tom, though he knew him, maintained an aspect of +seriousness not at all usual to his cordial countenance. Bice, it was +evident, was struck with a contemptuous amaze at the appearance of these +visitors. There was a quick interchange of glances between her and the +Contessa with shrugs of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_316" id="Page_316">[Pg 316]</a></span> shoulders and much play of fans. Bice's +raised eyebrows and curled lips perhaps meant—"Are those your famous +friends? Is this all?" Whereas the Contessa answered deprecatingly, with +a sort of "wait a little" look. Jock, who generally was pleased to +stroll about the lobbies in a sort of mannish way in the intervals +between the acts, sat still in his place to watch all this with a +wondering sense that here was something going on in which there was a +still closer interest, and to notice everything almost without knowing +that he noted it, following in this respect, as in most others, the lead +of his tutor, who likewise addressed himself to the supervision of +everything that went on, discoursing in the meantime to Lucy about the +actors' "interpretation" of the part, and how far he, Mr. Derwentwater, +agreed with their view. To Lucy, indeed, the action of the play was +everything, and the intervals between tedious. She laughed and cried, +and followed every movement, and looked round, hushing the others when +they whispered, almost with indignation. Lucy was far younger, Jock +decided, than Bice or even himself. He, too, had learned already—how +had he learned it?—that the play going on upon the stage was less +interesting than that which was being performed outside. Even Jock had +found this out, though he could not have told how. Shakespeare, indeed, +was far greater, nobler; but the excitement of a living story, the +progress of events of which nobody could tell what would come next, had +an interest transcending even the poetry. That was what people said, +Jock was aware, in novels and other productions; but until to-night he +never believed it was true.</p> + +<p>And then there was the journey from town, with all the curious sensation +of parting at the theatre doors,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_317" id="Page_317">[Pg 317]</a></span> and returning from that shining world +of gaslight, and ladies' dresses, into the dimness of the railway, the +tedious though not very long journey, the plunging of the carriage +through the blackness of the night; and along with these the questions +of Mr. Derwentwater, so unlike him, so uncalled-for, as Jock could not +help thinking. What had he to do with Bice? What had any one to do with +her? So far as she belonged to any one, it was to himself, Jock; her +first friend, her companion in her walks, he to whom she had spoken so +freely, and who had told her his opinion with such simplicity. When Jock +remembered that he had told her she was not pretty his cheeks burned. +There had stolen into his mind, he could not tell how, a very different +feeling now—not perhaps a different opinion. When he reflected it did +not seem to him even now that pretty was the word to use—but the +impression of Bice which was in his mind was something that made the boy +thrill. He did not understand it, nor could he tell what it was. But it +made him quiver with resentment when there was any question about +her—anything like this cold-blooded investigation which Mr. +Derwentwater had attempted to make. It troubled Jock all the more that +it should be MTutor who made it. When our god, our model of excellence, +comes down from his high state to anything that is petty, or less than +perfect, how sore is the pang with which we acknowledge it. "To be wroth +with those we love doth work like madness in the brain." Jock had both +these pangs together. He was angry because MTutor had been interfering +with matters in which he had no concern, and he was pained because +MTutor had condescended to ask questions and invite gossip, like the +smaller beings well enough known in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_318" id="Page_318">[Pg 318]</a></span> the boy-world as in every other, +who make gossip the chief object of their existence. Could there be +anything in the idol of his youth akin to these? He felt sore and +disappointed, without knowing why, with a dim consciousness that there +were many other people whom Mr. Derwentwater might have inquired about +without awakening any such feelings in him. When the train stopped, and +they got out, it was strange to walk down the silent, midnight streets +by MTutor's side, without the old sensation of pleasure with which the +boy felt himself made into the man's companion. He was awakened out of +his maze of dark and painful feelings by the voice of Derwentwater +calling upon him to admire the effect of the moonlight upon the river as +they crossed the bridge. For long after that scene remained in Jock's +mind against a background of mysterious shadows and perplexity. The moon +rode in the midst of a wide clearing of blue between two broken banks of +clouds. She was almost full, and approaching her setting. She shone full +upon the river, sweeping from side to side in one flood of silver, +broken only by a few strange little blacknesses, the few boats, like +houseless stragglers out by night and without shelter, which lay here +and there by a wharf or at the water's edge. The scene was wonderfully +still and solemn, not a motion to be seen either on street or stream. +"How is it, do you think," said Mr. Derwentwater, "that we think so +little of the sun when it is he that lights up a scene like this, and so +much of the moon?"</p> + +<p>Jock was taken by surprise by this question, which was of a kind which +his tutor was fond of putting, and which brought back their old +relations instantaneously. Jock seemed to himself to wake up out of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_319" id="Page_319">[Pg 319]</a></span> a +strange inarticulate dream of displeasure and embarrassment, and to feel +himself with sudden remorse, a traitor to his friend. He said, +faltering: "I don't know; it is always you that finds out the analogies. +I don't think that my mind is poetical at all."</p> + +<p>"You do yourself injustice, Jock," said Derwentwater, his arm within +that of his pupil in their old familiar way. And then he said: "The moon +is the feminine influence which charms us by showing herself clearly as +the source of the light she sheds. The sun we rarely think of at all, +but only of what he gives us—the light and the heat that are our life. +Her," he pointed to the sky, "we could dispense with, save for the +beauty of her."</p> + +<p>"I wish," said Jock, "I could think of anything so fine. But do you +think we could do without women like that?" said the inquiring young +spirit, ready to follow with his bosom bare whithersoever this refined +philosophy might lead.</p> + +<p>"You and I will," said the instructor. "There are grosser and there are +tamer spirits to whom it might be different. I would not wrong you by +supposing that you, my boy, could ever be tempted in the gross way; and +I don't think you are of the butterfly dancing kind."</p> + +<p>"I should rather think not!" said Jock, with a short laugh.</p> + +<p>"Then, except as a beautiful object, setting herself forth in conscious +brightness, like that emblem of woman yonder," said MTutor with a wave +of his hand, admiring, familiar, but somewhat contemptuous, towards the +moon, "what do we want with that feminine influence? Our lives are set +to higher uses, and occupied with other aims."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_320" id="Page_320">[Pg 320]</a></span></p> + +<p>Jock was perfectly satisfied with this profession of faith. He went +along the street with his tutor's arm in his, and a vague elation as of +something settled and concluded upon in his mind. Their footsteps rang +upon the pavement with a manly tramp as they paced away from the light +on the bridge into the shadow of the old houses with their red roofs. +They had gone some way before, being above all things loyal, Jock +thought it right to put in a proviso. "Not intellectually, perhaps," he +said, "but I can't forget how much I owe to my sister. I should have +been a most forlorn little wretch when I was a child, and I shouldn't be +much now, but for Lucy standing by me. It's not well to forget that, is +it, sir? though Lucy is not at all clever," he added in an undertone.</p> + +<p>"You are a loyal soul," said MTutor, with a pressure of his arm, "but +Woman does not mean our mothers and sisters." Here he permitted himself +a little laugh. "It shows me how much inferior is my position to that of +your youth, my dear boy," he said, "when you give me such an answer. +Believe me it is far finer than anything you suppose me to be able to +say."</p> + +<p>Jock did not know how to respond to this speech. It half angered, half +pleased him, but on the whole he was more ashamed of the supposed +youthfulness than satisfied with the approbation. No one, however young, +likes the imputation of innocence; and Jock had feelings rising within +him of which he scarcely knew the meaning, but which made him still more +sensible of the injustice of this view. He was too proud, however, to +explain himself even if he had been able to do so, and the little way +that remained was trodden in silence. The boy, however, could not help a +curious<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_321" id="Page_321">[Pg 321]</a></span> sensation of superiority as he went to his room through the +sleeping-house, feeling the stillness of the slumber into which he +stole, treading very quietly that he might not disturb any one. He +stopped for a moment with a candle in his hand and looked down the long +passage with its line of closed doors on each side, holding his breath +with a half smile of sympathy, respect for the hush of sleep, yet keen +superiority of life and emotion over all the unconscious household. His +own brain and heart seemed tingling with the activity and tumult of life +in them. It seemed to him impossible to sleep, to still the commotion in +his mind, and bring himself into harmony with that hushed atmosphere and +childish calm.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXII" id="CHAPTER_XXXII"></a>CHAPTER XXXII.</h2> + +<h3>YOUTHFUL UNREST.</h3> + + +<p>Easter was very early that year, about as early as Easter can be, and +there was in Jock's mind a disturbing consciousness of the holidays, and +the manner in which he was likely to spend them, which no doubt +interfered to a certain extent with his work. He ought to have been +first in the competition for a certain school prize, and he was not. It +was carried off to the disappointment of Jock's house, and, indeed, of +the greater part of the school, by a King's scholar, which was the fate +of most of the prizes. Mr. Derwentwater was deeply cast down by this +disappointment. He expressed himself on the subject indeed with all the +fine feeling for which he was distinguished. "The loss of a +distinction," he said, "is not in itself a matter<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_322" id="Page_322">[Pg 322]</a></span> to disturb us; but I +own I should be sorry to think that you were failing at all in that +intellectual energy which has already placed you so often at the head of +the lists—that, my dear fellow, I should unfeignedly regret; but not a +mere prize, which is nothing." This was a very handsome way of speaking +of it; but that MTutor was disappointed there could be no doubt. To Jock +himself it gave a keen momentary pang to see his own name only third in +that beadroll of honour; but so it was. The holidays had all that to +answer for; the holidays, or rather what they were to bring. When he +thought of the Hall and the company there, Jock felt a certain high tide +in his veins, an awakening of interest and anticipation which he did not +understand. He did not say to himself that he was going to be happy. He +only looked forward with an eager heart, with a sense of something to +come, which was different from the routine of ordinary life. MTutor +after many hindrances and hesitations was at last going to accept the +invitation of Sir Tom, and accompany his pupil. This Jock had looked +forward to as the greatest of pleasures. But somehow he did not feel so +happy about it now. He did not seem to himself to want Mr. Derwentwater. +In some ways, indeed, he had become impatient of Mr. Derwentwater. Since +that visit to the theatre, involuntarily without any cause for it, there +had commenced to be moments in which MTutor was tedious. This sacrilege +was unconscious, and never yet had been put into words; but still the +feeling was there; and the beginning of any such revolution in the soul +must be accompanied with many uneasinesses. Jock was on the stroke, so +to speak, of seventeen. He was old for his age, yet he had been almost +childish too in his devotion to his<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_323" id="Page_323">[Pg 323]</a></span> books, and the subjects of his +school life. The last year had introduced many new thoughts to his mind +by restoring him to the partial society of his sister and her house; but +into these new subjects he had carried the devotion of his studious +habits and the enthusiasm of his discipleship, transferring himself +bodily with all his traditions into the new atmosphere. But a change +somehow had begun in him, he could not tell how. He was stirred beyond +the lines of his former being—sentiments, confusions of spirit quite +new to him, were vaguely fermenting, he could not tell how; and school +work, and prizes, and all the emulations of sixth form had somehow tamed +and paled. The colour seemed to have gone out of them. And the library +of MTutor, that paradise of thought, that home of conversation, where so +many fine things used to be said—that too had palled upon the boy's +uneasy soul. He felt as if he should prefer to leave everything behind +him,—books and compositions and talk, and even MTutor himself. Such a +state of mind is sure to occur some time or other in a boy's +experiences; but in this case it was too early, and Mr. Derwentwater, +who was very deeply devoted to his pupils, was much exercised on the +subject. He had lost Jock's confidence, he thought. How had he lost his +confidence? was it that some other less wholesome influence was coming +in? Thus there were feelings of discomfort between them, hesitations as +to what to say, instinctive avoidance of some subjects, concealed +allusions to others. It might even be said that in a very refined and +superior way, such as was alone possible to such a man, Mr. Derwentwater +occasionally talked at Jock. He talked of the pain and grief of seeing a +young heart closed to you which once had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_324" id="Page_324">[Pg 324]</a></span> been open, and of the poignant +disappointment which arises in an elder spirit when its spiritual +child—its disciple—gets beyond its leading. Jock, occupied with his +own thoughts, only partially understood.</p> + +<p>It was in this state of mind that they set out together, amid all the +bustle of breaking up, to pay their promised visit. Jock, who up to this +moment had hated London, and looked with alarm upon society, had eagerly +accepted his tutor's proposal that after the ten days which they were to +spend at the Hall they should go to Normandy together for the rest of +the holidays, which was an arrangement very pleasant in anticipation. +But by this time neither of the two was at all anxious to carry it out. +Mr. Derwentwater had begun to talk of the expediency of giving a little +attention to one's own country. "We are just as foolish as the ignorant +masses," he said, "though we think ourselves so wise. Why not Devonshire +instead of Normandy? it is finer in natural scenery. Why not London +instead of Paris? there is no spell in mere going, as the ignorant say +'abroad.'" When you come to think of it, in just the same proportion as +one is superior to the common round of gaping British tourists, by going +on a walking tour in Normandy, one is superior to the walkers in +Normandy by choosing Devonshire.</p> + +<p>These remarks were preliminary to the intention of giving up the plan +altogether, and by the time they set out it was tacitly understood that +this was to be the case. It was to be given up—not for Devonshire. The +pair of friends had become two—they were to do each what was good in +his own eyes. Jock would remain "at home," whether that home meant the +Hall or Park Lane, and Mr. Derwentwater, after his week's visit, should +go on—where seemed to him good.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_325" id="Page_325">[Pg 325]</a></span></p> + +<p>There was a considerable party gathered in the inner drawing-room when +Jock and his companion presented themselves there. The scene was very +different from that to which Jock had been accustomed, when the +tea-table was a sort of fireside adjunct to the warmth and brightness +centred there. Now the windows were full of a clear yellow sky, shining +a little shrilly after rain, and promising in its too-clear and watery +brightness more rain to come; and many people were about, some standing +up against the light, some lounging in the comfortable chairs, some +talking together in groups, some hanging about Lucy and her tea service. +Lucy said, "Oh, is it you, Jock?" and kissed him, with a look of +pleasure; but she had not run out to meet him as of old. Lucy, indeed, +was changed, perhaps more evidently changed than any member of the +family. She was far more self-possessed than she had ever been before. +She did not now turn to her husband with that pretty look, half-smiling, +half-wistful, to know how she had got through her domestic duties. There +was a slight air of hurry and embarrassment about her eyes. The season +had not begun, and she could not have been overdone by her social +duties; but something had aged and changed her. Some old acquaintances +came forward and shook hands with Jock; and Sir Tom, when he saw who it +was, detached himself from the person he was talking to, and came +forward and gave him a sufficiently cordial welcome. The person with +whom he was talking was the Contessa. She was in her old place in the +room, the comfortable sofa which she had taken from Lady Randolph, and +where Sir Tom, leaning upon the mantelpiece, as an Englishman loves to +do, could talk to her in the easiest of attitudes. Jock, though he was +not dis<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_326" id="Page_326">[Pg 326]</a></span>cerning, thought that Sir Tom looked aged and changed too. The +people in general had a tired afternoon sort of look about them. They +were not like people exulting to get out of town, and out of darkness +and winter weather to the fresh air and April skies. Perhaps, however, +this effect was produced by the fact that looking for one special person +in the assembly Jock had not found her. He had never cared who was there +before. Except Lucy, the whole world was much the same to him. To talk +to her now and then, but by preference alone, when he could have her to +himself and nobody else was by, and then to escape to the library, had +been the height of his desire. Now he no longer thought of the library, +or even, save in a secondary way, of Lucy. He looked about for some one +else. There was the Contessa, sure enough, with one man on the sofa by +her side and another seated in front of her, and Sir Tom against the +mantelpiece lounging and talking. She was enchanting them all with her +rapid talk, with the pretty, swift movements of her hands, her +expressive looks and ways. But there was no shadow of Bice about the +room. Jock looked at once behind the table, where she had been always +visible when the Contessa was present. But Bice was not there. There was +not a trace of her among the people whom Jock neither knew nor cared to +know. But everything went on cheerfully, notwithstanding this omission, +which nobody but Jock seemed to remark. Ladies chattered softly as they +sipped their tea, men standing over them telling anecdotes of this +person and that, with runs of soft laughter here and there. Lucy at the +tea-table was the only one who was at all isolated. She was bending over +her cups and saucers, supplying now one and now another, listening to a +chance remark here and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_327" id="Page_327">[Pg 327]</a></span> there, giving an abstracted smile to the person +who might chance to be next to her. What was she thinking of? Not of +Jock, who had only got a smile a little more animated than the others. +Mr. Derwentwater did not know anybody in this company. He stood on the +outskirts of it, with that look of mingled conciliation and defiance +which is natural to a man who feels himself overlooked. He was more +disappointed even than Jock, for he had anticipated a great deal of +attention, and not to find himself nobody in a fashionable crowd.</p> + +<p>Things did not mend even at dinner. Then the people were more easily +identified in their evening clothes, exposing themselves steadily to all +observers on either side of the table; but they did not seem more +interesting. There were two or three political men, friends of Sir Tom, +and some of a very different type who were attached to the +Contessa—indeed, the party consisted chiefly of men, with a few ladies +thrown in. The ladies were not much more attractive. One of them, a Lady +Anastasia something, was one of the most inveterate of gossip +collectors, a lady who not only provided piquant tales for home +consumption, but served them up to the general public afterwards in a +newspaper—the only representatives of ordinary womankind being a mother +and two daughters, who had no particular qualities, and who duly +occupied a certain amount of space, without giving anything in return. +But Bice was not visible. She who had been so little noticed, yet so far +from insignificant, where was she? Could it be that the Contessa had +left her behind, or that Lucy had objected to her, or that she was ill, +or that—Jock did not know what to think. The company was a strange one. +Those sedate, political friends of Sir Tom found themselves with a +little dismay in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_328" id="Page_328">[Pg 328]</a></span> the society of the lady who wrote for what she called +the Press, and the gentlemen from the clubs. One of the guests was the +young Marquis Montjoie, who had quite lately come into his title and the +world. He had been at school with Jock a few years before, and he +recognised Mr. Derwentwater with a curious mixture of awe and contempt. +"Hallo!" he had cried when he perceived him first, and he had whispered +something to the Contessa which made her laugh also. All this Jock +remarked vaguely in his uneasiness and disappointment. What was the good +of coming home, he said to himself, if—— What was the use of having so +looked forward to the holidays and lost that prize, and disappointed +everybody, if—— There rose such a ferment in Jock's veins as had never +been there before. When the ladies left the room after dinner it was he +that opened the door for them, and as Lucy looked up with a smile into +her brother's face she met from him a scowl which took away her breath. +Why did he scowl at Lucy? and why think that in all his life he had +never seen so dull a company before? Their good things after dinner were +odious to his ears; and to think, that even MTutor should be able to +laugh at such miserable jokes and take an interest in such small talk! +That fellow Montjoie, above all, was intolerable to Jock. He had been +quite low down in the school when he left, a being of no account, a +creature called by opprobrious names, and not worthy to tie the shoes of +a member of Sixth Form. But when he rattled loudly on about nothing at +all, even Sir Tom did not refuse to listen. What was Montjoie doing +here? When the gentlemen streamed into the drawing-room, a procession of +black coats, Jock, who came last, could not help being aware that he was +scowling<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_329" id="Page_329">[Pg 329]</a></span> at everybody. He met the eyes of one of those inoffensive +little girls in blue, and made her jump, looking at her as if he would +eat her. And all the evening through he kept prowling about with his +hands in his pockets, now looking at the books in the shelves, now +frowning at Lucy, who could not think what was the matter with her +brother. Was Jock ill? What had happened to him? The young ladies in +blue sang an innocent little duet, and Jock stared at the Contessa, +wondering if she was going to sing, and if the door would open and the +slim figure in the black frock come in as by a signal and place herself +at the piano. But the Contessa only laughed behind her fan, and made a +little pretence at applause when the music ceased, having talked all +through it, she and the gentlemen about her, of whom Montjoie was one +and the loudest. No, she was not going to sing. When the door opened it +was only to admit the servants with their trays and the tea which nobody +wanted. What was the use of looking forward to the holidays if—— Mr. +Derwentwater, perhaps, had similar thoughts. He came up to Jock behind +the backs of the other people, and put an uneasy question to him.</p> + +<p>"I thought you said that Madame di Forno-Populo sang?"</p> + +<p>"She used to," said Jock laconically.</p> + +<p>"The music here does not seem of a high class," said MTutor. "I hope she +will sing. Italians, though their music is sensuous, generally know +something about the art."</p> + +<p>To this Jock made no reply, but hunched his shoulders a little higher, +and dug his hands down deeper into his pockets.</p> + +<p>"By the way, is the—young lady who was with<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_330" id="Page_330">[Pg 330]</a></span> Madame di Forno-Populo +here no longer?" said MTutor in a sort of accidental manner, as if that +had for the first time occurred to him. He raised his eyes to Jock's +face, which was foolish, and they both reddened in spite of themselves; +Mr. Derwentwater with sudden confusion, and Jock with angry dismay.</p> + +<p>"Not that I know of," said the boy. "I haven't heard anything." Then he +went on hurriedly: "No more than I know what Montjoie's doing here. +What's he been asked here for I wonder? He can't amuse anybody much." +These words, however, were contradicted practically as soon as they were +said by a peal of laughter which rose from the Contessa's little corner, +all caused as it was evident by some pleasantry of Montjoie's.</p> + +<p>"It seems that he does, though," said Mr. Derwentwater; and then he +added with a smile, "We are novices in society, you and I. We do best in +our own class; not to know that Montjoie will be in the very front of +society, the admired of all admirers at least for a season or two! Isn't +he a favourite of fortune, the best <i>parti</i>, a golden youth in every +sense of the word——"</p> + +<p>"Why, he was a scug!" cried Jock, with illimitable disdain. This +mysterious and terrible monosyllable was applied at school to a youth +hopelessly low down and destitute of any personal advantages to +counterbalance his inferiority. Jock launched it at the Marquis, +evidently now in a very different situation, as if it had been a stone.</p> + +<p>"Hush!" said MTutor blandly. "You will meet a great many such in +society, and they will think themselves quite as good as you."</p> + +<p>Then the mother of the young ladies in blue approached and disturbed +this <i>tête-à-tête</i> .<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_331" id="Page_331">[Pg 331]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I think you were talking of Lord Montjoie," she said. "I hear he is so +clever; there are some comic songs he sings, which, I am told, are quite +irresistible. Mr. Trevor, don't you think you could induce him to sing +one?—as you were at school with him, and are a sort of son of the +house?"</p> + +<p>At this Jock glowered with eyes that were alarming to see under the deep +cover of his eyebrows, and MTutor laughed out. "We had not so exalted an +opinion of Montjoie," he said; and then, with a politic diversion of +which he was proud, "Would not your daughters favour us again? A comic +song in the present state of our feelings would be more than we could +bear."</p> + +<p>"What a clever fellow he is after all!" said Jock to himself admiringly, +"how he can manage people and say the right thing at the right moment! I +dare say Lucy will tell me if I ask her," he said, quite irrelevantly, +as the lady, well pleased to hear her daughters appreciated, sailed +away. There was something in the complete sympathy of Mr. Derwentwater's +mind, even though it irritated, which touched him. He put the question +point blank to Lucy when he found an opportunity of speaking to her. "I +say, Lucy, where is Bice? You have got all the old fogeys about the +place, and she is not here," the boy said.</p> + +<p>"Is that why you are glooming upon everybody so?" said the unfeeling +Lucy. "You cannot call your friend Lord Montjoie an old fogey, Jock. He +says you were such friends at school."</p> + +<p>"I—friends!" cried Jock with disdain. "Why, he was nothing but a scug."</p> + +<p>Thus Lucy, too, avoided the question; but it was not because she had any +real reluctance to speak of Bice, though this was what Jock could not +know.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_332" id="Page_332">[Pg 332]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXIII" id="CHAPTER_XXXIII"></a>CHAPTER XXXIII.</h2> + +<h3>THE CONTESSA PREPARES THE WAY.</h3> + + +<p>"I never sing," said the Contessa, with that serene smile with which she +was in the habit of accompanying a statement which her hearers knew to +be quite untrue. "Oh never! It is one of my possibilities which are +over—one of the things which you remember of me in—other days——"</p> + +<p>"So far back as March," said Sir Tom; "but we all recognise that in a +lady's calendar that may mean a century."</p> + +<p>"Put it in the plural, <i>mon ami</i>—centuries, that is more correct," said +the Contessa, with her dazzling smile.</p> + +<p>"And might one ask why this sudden acceleration of time?" asked one of +the gentlemen who were always in attendance, belonging, so to speak, to +the Contessa's side of the party. She opened out her lovely hands and +gave a little shrug to her shoulders, and elevation of her eyebrows.</p> + +<p>"It is easy to tell: but whether I shall tell you is another +question——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, do, do, Countess," cried young Montjoie, who was somewhat rough in +his attentions, and treated the lady with less ceremony than a less +noble youth would have ventured upon. "Come, don't keep us all in +suspense. I must hear you, don't you know; all the other fellows have +heard you. So, please, get over the preliminaries, and let's come to the +music. I'm awfully fond of music, especially singing. I'm a dab at that +myself——"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_333" id="Page_333">[Pg 333]</a></span></p> + +<p>The Contessa let her eyes dwell upon this illustrious young man. "Why," +she said, "have I been prevented from making acquaintance with the art +in which my Lord Montjoie is—a dab——"</p> + +<p>At this there was a laugh, in which the good-natured young nobleman did +not refuse to join. "I say, you know! it's too bad to make fun of me +like this," he cried; "but I'll tell you what, Countess, I'll make a +bargain with you. I'll sing you three of mine if you'll sing me one of +yours."</p> + +<p>The Contessa smiled with that gracious response which so often answered +instead of words. The other ladies had withdrawn, except Lucy, who +waited somewhat uneasily till her guest was ready. Though Madame di +Forno-Populo had never lost the ascendency which she had acquired over +Lady Randolph by throwing herself upon her understanding and sympathy, +there were still many things which Lucy could not acquiesce in without +uneasiness, in the Contessa's ways. The group of men about her chair, +when all the other ladies took their candles and made their way +upstairs, wounded Lucy's instinctive sense of what was befitting. She +waited, punctilious in her feeling of duty, though the Contessa had not +hesitated to make her understand that the precaution was quite +unnecessary—and though even Sir Tom had said something of a similar +signification. "She is old enough to take care of herself. She doesn't +want a chaperon," Sir Tom had said; but nevertheless Lucy would take up +a book and sit down at the table and wait: which was the more +troublesome that it was precisely at this moment that the Contessa was +most amusing and enjoyed herself most. Sir Tom's parliamentary friends +had disappeared to the smoking-room when the ladies left the room. It +was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_334" id="Page_334">[Pg 334]</a></span> the other kind of visitors, the gentlemen who had known the +Contessa in former days, and were old friends likewise of Sir Tom, who +gathered round her now—they and young Lord Montjoie, who was rather out +of place in the party, but who admired the Contessa greatly, and thought +her better fun than any one he knew.</p> + +<p>The Contessa gave the young man one of those speaking smiles which were +more eloquent than words. And then she said: "If I were to tell you why, +you would not believe me. I am going to retire from the world."</p> + +<p>At this there was a little tumult of outcry and laughter. "The world +cannot spare you, Contessa." "We can't permit any such sacrifice." And, +"Retire! Till to-morrow?" her courtiers said.</p> + +<p>"Not till to-morrow. I do more than retire. I abdicate," said the +Contessa, waving her beautiful hands as if in farewell.</p> + +<p>"This sounds very mysterious; for an abdication is different from a +withdrawal; it suggests a successor."</p> + +<p>"Which is an impossibility," another said.</p> + +<p>The Contessa distributed her smiles with gracious impartiality to all, +but she kept a little watch upon young Montjoie, who was eager amid the +ring of her worshippers. "Nevertheless, it is more than a successor," +she said, playing with them, with a strange pleasure. To be thus +surrounded, flattered more openly than men ever venture to flatter a +woman whom they respect, addressed with exaggerated admiration, +contemplated with bold and unwavering eyes, had come by many descents to +be delightful to the Contessa. It reminded her of her old triumphs—of +the days when men of a different sort brought homage perhaps not<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_335" id="Page_335">[Pg 335]</a></span> much +more real but far more delicate, to her feet. A long career of baths and +watering-places, of Baden and Homburg, and every other conceivable +resort of temporary gaiety and fashion, had brought her to this. Sir +Tom, who was not taking much share in the conversation, stood with his +arm on the mantelpiece, and watched her and her little court with +compassionate eyes. He had laughed often before; but he did not laugh +now. Perhaps the fact that he was himself no longer her first object +helped to change the aspect of affairs. He had consented to invite these +men as old acquaintances; but it was intolerable to him to see this +scene going on in the room in which his wife was; and the Contessa's +radiant satisfaction seemed almost horrible to him in Lucy's presence. +Lucy was seated at some distance from the group, her face turned away, +her head bent, to all appearance very intent upon the book she was +reading. He looked at her with a sort of reverential impatience. She was +not capable of understanding the degradation which her own pure and +simple presence made apparent. He could not endure her to be there +sanctioning the indecorum;—and yet the tenacity with which she held her +place, and did what she thought her duty to her guest, filled him with a +wondering pride. No other scene, perhaps, he thought, in all England, +could have presented a contrast so curious.</p> + +<p>"The Contessa speaks in riddles," said one of the circle. "We want an +Œdipus."</p> + +<p>"Oh, come, Countess," said young Montjoie, "don't hang us up like this. +We are all of us on pins and needles, don't you know? It all began about +you singing. Why don't you sing? All the fellows say it's as good as +Grisi. I never heard Grisi, but I know<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_336" id="Page_336">[Pg 336]</a></span> every note Patti's got in her +voice; and I want to compare, don't you know?"</p> + +<p>The Contessa contemplated the young man with a sort of indulgent smile +like a mother who withholds a toy.</p> + +<p>"When are you going away?" she said. "You will soon go back to your dear +London, to your clubs and all your delights."</p> + +<p>"Oh, come, Countess," repeated Montjoie, "that isn't kind. You talk as +if you wanted to get rid of a fellow. I'm due at the Duke's on Friday, +don't you know?"</p> + +<p>"Then it shall be on Thursday," said the Contessa, with a laugh.</p> + +<p>"What shall be on Thursday?"</p> + +<p>The others all came round her with eager questions.</p> + +<p>"I am going on Wednesday," said one. "What is this that is going to +happen?"</p> + +<p>"And why am I to be excluded?"</p> + +<p>"And I? If there is to be anything new, tell us what it is."</p> + +<p>"Inquisitors! and they say that curiosity belongs to women," said the +Contessa. "Messieurs, if I were to tell you what it was, it would be no +longer new."</p> + +<p>"Well, but hang it all," cried young Montjoie, who was excited and had +forgotten his manners, "do tell us what it is. Don't you see we don't +even know what kind of thing you mean? If it's music——"</p> + +<p>Madame di Forno-Populo laughed once more. She loved to mystify and raise +expectations. "It is not music," she said. "It is my reason for +withdrawing. When you see that, you will understand. You will all say +the Contessa is wise. She has foreseen exactly the right moment to +retire."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_337" id="Page_337">[Pg 337]</a></span></p> + +<p>And with this she rose from the sofa with a sudden movement which took +her attendants by surprise. She was not given to shaking hands. She +withdrew quickly from Montjoie's effort to seize her delicate fingers, +which she waved to the company in general. "My Lucy," she said, "I have +kept you waiting! to this extent does one forget one's self in your +delightful house. But, my angel, you should not permit me to do it. You +should hold up your finger, and I would obey."</p> + +<p>"Bravo," said Montjoie's voice behind their backs in a murmur of +delight. "Oh, by Jove, isn't that good? Fancy, a woman like her, and +that simple——"</p> + +<p>One of the elder men gave Montjoie something like a kick, inappropriate +as the scene was for such a demonstration. "You little——think what you +are saying," he cried.</p> + +<p>But Sir Tom was opening the door for the ladies, and did not hear. Lucy +was tired and pale. She looked like a child beside the stately Contessa. +She had taken no notice of Madame di Forno-Populo's profession of +submission. In her heart she was longing to run to the nursery, to see +her boy asleep, and make sure that all was well; and she was not only +tired with her vigil, but uneasy, disapproving. She divined what the +Contessa meant, though not even Sir Tom had made it out. Perhaps it was +feminine instinct that instructed her on this point. Perhaps the strong +repugnance she had, and sense of opposition to what was about to be +done, quickened her powers of divination. She who had never suspected +anybody in all her life fathomed the Contessa's intentions at a glance. +"That boy!" she said to herself as she followed up the great staircase. +Lucy divined the Contessa, and the Con<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_338" id="Page_338">[Pg 338]</a></span>tessa divined that she had +divined her. She turned round when they reached the top of the stairs +and paused for a moment looking at Lady Randolph's face, lit up with the +light of her candle. "My sweetest," said the Contessa, "you do not +approve. It breaks my heart to see it. But what can I do! This is my +way, it is not yours; but to me it is the only way."</p> + +<p>Lucy could do nothing but shake her head as she turned the way of the +nursery where her boy was sleeping. The contrast gave her a pang. Bice, +too, was no doubt sleeping the deep and dreamless sleep of youth behind +one of those closed doors; poor Bice! secluded there to increase the +effect of her eventual appearance, and about whom her protectress was +draping all those veils of mystery in order to tempt the fancy of a +commonplace youth not much more than a schoolboy! And yet the Contessa +loved her charge, and persuaded herself that she was acting for Bice's +good. Poor Bice, who was so good to little Tom! Was there nothing to be +done to save her?</p> + +<p>"What's going to happen on Thursday?" the men of the Contessa's train +asked of Sir Tom, as they followed him to the smoking-room, where Mr. +Derwentwater, in a velvet coat, was already seated smoking a mild +cigarette, and conversing with one of the parliamentary gentlemen. Jock +hung about in the background, turning over the books (for there were +books everywhere in this well-provided house) rather with the intention +of making it quite evident that he went to bed when he liked, and could +stay up as late as any one, than from any hankering after that cigar +which a Sixth Form fellow, so conscientious as Jock was, might not +trifle with. "Oh, here are those two<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_339" id="Page_339">[Pg 339]</a></span> duffers; those saps, don't you +know," Montjoie said, with a grimace, as he perceived them on entering +the room; in which remark he was perhaps justified by the epithets which +these two superior persons applied to him. The two parties did not +amalgamate in the smoking-room any more than in other places. The new +comers surrounded Sir Tom in a noisy little crowd, demanding of him an +explanation of the Contessa's meaning. This, however, was subdued +presently by a somewhat startling little incident. The gentlemen were +discussing the Contessa with the greatest freedom. "It's rather +astounding to meet her in a good house, just like any one else," one man +forgot himself sufficiently to say, but he came to his recollection very +quickly on meeting Sir Tom's eyes. "I beg your pardon, Randolph, of +course that's not what I mean. I mean after all those years." "Then I +hope you will remember to say exactly what you mean," said Sir Tom, "on +other occasions. It will simplify matters."</p> + +<p>This momentary incident, though it was quiet enough, and expressed in +tones rather less than more loud than the ordinary conversation, made a +sensation in the room, and produced first an involuntary stillness, and +then an eager access of talk. It had the effect, however, of making +everybody aware that the Contessa intended to make, on Thursday, some +revelation or other, an intimation which moved Jock and his tutor as +much or even more than it moved the others. Mr. Derwentwater even made +advances to Montjoie, whom he had steadily ignored, in order to +ascertain what it was. "Something's coming off, that's all we can tell," +that young patrician said. "She is going to retire, so she says, from +the world, don't you know? That's like a tradesman shutting up shop when +he's<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_340" id="Page_340">[Pg 340]</a></span> made his fortune, or a <i>prima donna</i> going off the stage. It ain't +so easy to make out, is it, how the Forno-Populo can retire from the +world? She can't be going to take poison, like the great Sarah, and give +us a grand dying seance in Lady Randolph's drawing-room. That would be +going a bit too far, don't you know?"</p> + +<p>"It is going a bit too far to imagine such a thing," Derwentwater said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, come, you know, it isn't school-time," cried Montjoie, with a +laugh. And though Mr. Derwentwater was as much superior to the little +lordling as could be conceived, he retired disconcerted from this +passage of arms. To be reminded that you are a pedagogue is difficult to +bear, especially an unsuccessful pedagogue, attempting to exert +authority which exists no longer. MTutor prided himself on being a man +of the world, but he retired a little with an involuntary sense of +offence from this easy setting down. He rose shortly after and took Jock +by the arm and led him away. "You are not smoking, which I am glad to +see—and shows your sense," he said. "Come out and have a breath of air +before we go upstairs. Can you imagine anything more detestable than +that little precocious <i>roué</i>, that washed-out little man-about-town," +he added with some energy, as they stepped out of the open windows of +the library, left open in case the fine night should have seduced the +gentlemen on to the terrace to smoke their cigars. It was a lovely +spring night, soft and balmy, with a sensation of growth in the air, the +sky very clear, with airy white clouds all lit up by the moon. The quiet +and freshness gave to those who stepped into it a curious sensation of +superiority to the men whom they left in the warm brightly-lit room, +with its heavy atmosphere and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_341" id="Page_341">[Pg 341]</a></span> artificial delights. It felt like a moral +atmosphere in contrast with the air all laden with human emanations, +smoke, and the careless talk of men. These two were perhaps somewhat +inclined to feel a superiority in any circumstances. They did so doubly +in these.</p> + +<p>"He was always a little cad," said Jock.</p> + +<p>"To hear a lady's name from his mouth is revolting," said Derwentwater. +"We are all too careless in that respect. I admire Madame di +Forno-Populo for keeping her—is it her daughter or niece?—out of the +way while that little animal is here."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Bice would soon make him know his place," said Jock; "she is not +just like one of the girls that are civil, you know. She is not afraid +of telling you what she thinks of you. I know exactly how she'd look at +Montjoie." Jock permitted himself an abrupt laugh in the pleasure of +feeling that he knew her ways far better than any one. "She would soon +set him down—the little beast!—in his right place."</p> + +<p>As they walked up and down the terrace their steps and voices were very +audible in the stillness of the night; and the windows were lighted in +the east wing, showing that the inhabitants were still up there and +about. While Jock spoke, one of these windows opened quite suddenly, and +for a single moment a figure like a shadow appeared in it. The light +movement, sudden as a bird's on the wing, would have betrayed her (she +felt) to Jock, even if she had not spoken. But she waved her hand and +called out "Good-night" in a voice full of laughter. "Don't talk +secrets, for we can hear you," she said. "Good-night!" And so vanished +again, with a little echo of laughter from within. The young men were +both excited and disconcerted by this interruption. It gave them a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_342" id="Page_342">[Pg 342]</a></span> +sensation of shame for the moment as if they had been caught in a +discussion of a forbidden subject; and then a tingling ran through their +veins. Even MTutor for the moment found no fine speech in which to +express his sense of this sudden momentary tantalising appearance of the +mystic woman standing half visible out of the background of the unknown. +He did think some very fine things on the subject after a time, with a +side glance of philosophical reflection that her light laugh of mockery +as she momentarily revealed herself, was an outcome of this sceptical +century, and that in a previous age her utterance would have been a song +or a sigh. But at the moment even Mr. Derwentwater was subjugated by the +thrill of sensation and feeling, and found nothing to say.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXIV" id="CHAPTER_XXXIV"></a>CHAPTER XXXIV.</h2> + +<h3>IN SUSPENSE.</h3> + + +<p>It was thus that Bice was engaged while Lucy imagined her asleep in her +innocence, unaware of the net that was being spread for her unsuspecting +feet. Bice was neither asleep nor unsuspecting. She was innocent in a +way inconceivable to the ordinary home-keeping imagination, knowing no +evil in the devices to which she was a party; but she was not innocent +in the conventional sense. That any high feminine ideal should be +affected by the design of the Contessa or by her own participation in it +had not occurred to the girl. She had been accustomed to smile at the +high virtue of those ladies in the novels who would not receive the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_343" id="Page_343">[Pg 343]</a></span> +addresses of the eldest son of their patroness, and who preferred a +humble village and the delights of self-sacrifice to all the grandeurs +of an ambitious marriage. That might be well enough in a novel, Bice +thought, but it was not so in life. In her own case there was no +question about it. The other way it was which seemed to her the virtuous +way. Had it been proposed to her to throw herself away upon a poor man +whom she might be supposed to love, and so prove herself incapable of +being of any use to the Contessa, and make all her previous training and +teaching of no effect, Bice's moral indignation would have been as +elevated as that of any English heroine at the idea of marrying for +interest instead of love. The possibility did not occur to her at all; +but it would have been rejected with disdain had it attempted to force +its way across the threshold of her mind. She loved nobody—except the +Contessa; which was a great defence and preservation to her thoughts. +She accepted the suggestion that Montjoie should be the means of raising +her to that position she was made for, with composure and without an +objection. It was not arranged upon secretly, without her knowledge, but +with her full concurrence. "He is not very much to look at. I wish he +had been more handsome," the Contessa said; but Bice's indifference on +this point was sublime. "What can it matter?" she said loftily. She was +not even very deeply interested in his disposition or mental qualities. +Everything else being so suitable, it would have been cowardly to shrink +from any minor disadvantage. She silenced the Contessa in the attempt to +make the best of him. "All these things are so secondary," the girl +said. Her devotion to the career chosen for her was above all weakly +arguments of this kind. She looked<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_344" id="Page_344">[Pg 344]</a></span> upon them even with a certain scorn. +And though there was in her mind some excitement as to her appearance +"in the world," as she phrased it, and her skill "to please," which was +as yet untried, it was, notwithstanding with the composure of a nature +quite unaware of any higher questions involved, that she took her part +in all the preparations. Her knowledge of the very doubtful world in +which she had lived had been of a philosophical character. She was quite +impartial. She had no prejudices. Those of whom she approved were those +who had carried out their intentions, whatever they might be, as she +should do by marrying an English Milord with a good title and much +money. She meant, indeed, to spend his money, but legitimately. She +meant to become a great lady by his means, but not to do him any harm. +Bice had an almost savage purity of heart, and the thought that any of +the stains she knew of should touch her was incredible, impossible; +neither was it in her to be unkind, or unjust, or envious, or +ungenerous. Nothing of all this was involved in the purely business +operation in which she was engaged. According to her code no professions +of attachment or pretence of feeling were necessary. She had indeed no +theories in her mind about being a good wife; but she would not be a bad +one. She would keep her part of the compact; there should be nothing to +complain of, nothing to object to. She would do her best to amuse the +man she had to live with and make his life agreeable to him, which is a +thing not always taken into consideration in marriage-contracts much +more ideal in character. He should not be allowed to be dull, that was +one thing certain. Regarding the matter in this reasonable point of +view, Bice prepared for the great event of Thursday with just excitement +enough<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_345" id="Page_345">[Pg 345]</a></span> to make it amusing. It might be that she should fail. Few +succeed at the very first effort without difficulty, she said to +herself; but if she failed there would be nothing tragical in the +failure, and the season was all before her. It could scarcely be hoped +that she would bring down her antagonist the first time she set lance in +rest.</p> + +<p>She was carefully kept out of sight during the intervening days; no one +saw her; no one had any acquaintance with the fact of her existence. The +precautions taken were such that Bice was never even encountered on the +staircase, never seen to flit in or out of a room, and indeed did not +exist at all for the party in the house. Notwithstanding these +precautions she had the needful exercise to keep her in health and good +looks, and still romped with the baby and held conversations with the +sympathetic Lucy, who did not know what to say to express her feeling of +anxious disapproval and desire to succour, without, at the same time, +injuring in Bice's mind her nearest friend and protectress. She might, +indeed, have spared herself the trouble of any such anxiety, for Bice +neither felt injured by the Contessa's scheme nor degraded by her +precautions. It amused the girl highly to be made a secret of, to run +all the risks of discovery and baffle the curious. The fun of it was +delightful to her. Sometimes she would amuse herself by hanging till the +last practicable moment in the gallery at the top of the staircase, on +the balcony at the window, or at the door of the Contessa's room which +was commanded by various other doors; but always vanished within in time +to avoid all inquisitive eyes, with the laughter and delight of a child +at the danger escaped, and the fun of the situation. In these cases the +Contessa<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_346" id="Page_346">[Pg 346]</a></span> would sometimes take fright, but never, so light was the +temper of this scheming woman, this deep plotter and conspirator, +refused to join in the laughter when the flight was made and safety +secured. They were like a couple of children with a mystification in +hand, notwithstanding that they were planning an invasion so serious of +all the proprieties, and meant to make so disreputable and revolting a +bargain. But this was not in their ideas. Bice went out very early in +the morning before any one was astir, to take needful exercise in the +park, and gather early primroses and the catkins that hung upon the +trees. On one of these occasions she met Mr. Derwentwater, of whom she +was not afraid; and at another time, when skirting the shrubberies at a +somewhat later hour to keep clear of any stragglers, Jock. Mr. +Derwentwater talked to her in a tone which amused the girl. He spoke of +Proserpina gathering flowers, herself a——and then altered and grew +confused under her eye.</p> + +<p>"Herself a—— What?" said Bice. "Have you forgotten what you were going +to say?"</p> + +<p>"I have not forgotten—herself a fairer flower. One does not forget such +lovely words as these," he said, injured by the question. "But when one +comes face to face with the impersonation of the poet's idea——"</p> + +<p>"It was poetry, then?" said Bice. "I know very little of that. It is not +in Tauchnitz, perhaps? All I know of English is from the Tauchnitz. I +read, chiefly, novels. You do not approve of that? But, yes, I like +them; because it is life."</p> + +<p>"Is it life?" said Derwentwater, who was somewhat contemptuous of +fiction.</p> + +<p>"At least it is England," said Bice. "The girls who will not make a good +marriage because of some one<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_347" id="Page_347">[Pg 347]</a></span> else, or because it is their parents who +arrange it. That is how Lady Randolph speaks. She says that nothing is +right but to fall—how do you call it?—in love?—It is not <i>comme il +faut</i> even to talk of that."</p> + +<p>Derwentwater blushed like a girl. He was more inexperienced in many ways +than Bice. "And do you regard it in another point of view?" he said.</p> + +<p>Bice laughed out with frank disdain. "Certainly, I regard it +different—oh, quite different. That is not what happens in life."</p> + +<p>"And do you consider life is chiefly occupied with getting married?" he +continued, feeling, along with a good deal of quite unnecessary +excitement, a great desire to know what was her way of looking at this +great subject. Visions had been flashing recently through his mind, +which pointed a little this way too.</p> + +<p>"Altogether," said Bice, with great gravity, "how can you begin to live +till you have settled that? Till then you do not know what is going to +happen to you. When you get up in the morning you know not what may come +before the night; when you walk out you know not who may be the next +person you meet; perhaps your husband. But then you marry, and that is +all settled; henceforward nothing can happen!" said Bice, throwing out +her hands. "Then, after all is settled, you can begin to live."</p> + +<p>"This is very interesting," said Derwentwater, "I am so glad to get at a +real and individual view. But this, perhaps, only applies to—ladies? It +is, perhaps, not the same with men?"</p> + +<p>Bice gave him a careless, half-contemptuous glance. "I have never known +anything," she said, "about men."</p> + +<p>There are many girls, much more innocent in outward matters than Bice, +who would have said these<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_348" id="Page_348">[Pg 348]</a></span> words with an intention <i>agaçante</i>—the +intention of leading to a great deal more badinage. But Bice spoke with +a calm, almost scornful, composure. She had no desire to <i>agacer</i> She +looked him in the face as tranquilly as if he had been an old woman. And +so far as she was concerned he might have been an old woman; for he had +virtually no existence in his capacity of young man. Had she possessed +any clue to the thoughts that had taken rise in his mind, the new +revelation which she had conveyed to him, Bice's amazement would have +been without bounds. But instinct indicated to her that the interview +should proceed no further. She waved her hand to him as she came to a +cross road which led into the woods. "I am going this way," she cried, +darting off round the corner of a great tree. He stood and looked after +her bewildered, as her light figure skimmed along into the depths of the +shadows. "Then, after all is settled, you can begin to live," he +repeated to himself. Was it true? He had got up the morning on which he +saw her first without any thought that everything might be changed for +him that day. And now it was quite true that there lay before him an +interval which must be somehow filled up before he could begin to live. +How was it to be filled up? Would <i>she</i> have anything to do with the +settling which must precede his recommencement of existence? He went on +with his mind altogether absorbed in these thoughts, and with a thrill +and tingling through all his veins. And that was the only time he +encountered Bice, for whom in fact, though he had not hitherto allowed +it even to himself, he had come to the Hall—till the great night.</p> + +<p>Jock encountered her the next day not so early, at the hour indeed when +the great people were at break<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_349" id="Page_349">[Pg 349]</a></span>fast. He had been one of the first to +come downstairs, and he had not lingered at table as persons do who have +letters to read, and the newspapers, and all that is going on to talk +about. He met her coming from the park. She put out her hand when she +saw him as if to keep him off.</p> + +<p>"If you wish to speak to me," she said, "you must turn back and walk +with me. I do not want any one to see me, and they will soon be coming +out from breakfast."</p> + +<p>"Why don't you want any one to see you?" Jock said.</p> + +<p>Bice had learned the secret of the Contessa's smile; but this which she +cast upon Jock had something mocking in it, and ended in a laugh. "Oh, +don't you know?" she said, "it is so silly to be a boy!"</p> + +<p>"You are no older than I am," cried Jock, aggrieved; "and why don't you +come down to dinner as you used to do? I always liked you to come. It is +quite different when you are not there. If I had known I should not have +come home at all this Easter," Jock cried.</p> + +<p>"Oh!" cried Bice, "that means that you like me, then?—and so does +Milady. If I should go away altogether——"</p> + +<p>"You are not going away altogether? Why should you? There is no other +place you could be so well as here. The Contessa never says a word, but +laughs at a fellow, which is scarcely civil; and she has those men about +her that are—not——; but you——why should you go away?" cried Jock +with angry vehemence. He looked at her with eyes lowering fiercely under +his eyebrows; yet in his heart he was not angry but wretched, as if +something were rending him. Jock did not understand how he felt.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_350" id="Page_350">[Pg 350]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh, now, you look at me as if you would eat me," said Bice, "as if I +were the little girl in the red hood and you the wolf—— But it is +silly, for how should I stay here when Milady is going away? We are all +going to London—and then! it will soon be decided, I suppose," said +Bice, herself feeling a little sad for the first time at the idea, "what +is going to be done with me."</p> + +<p>"What is going to be done with you?" cried Jock hoarsely, for he was +angry and grieved, and full of impatient indignation, though he scarcely +knew why.</p> + +<p>Bice turned upon him with that lingering smile which was like the +Contessa's. But, unlike the Contessa's, it ended as usual in a laugh. +She kissed her hand to him, and darted round the corner of the shrubbery +just as some one appeared from breakfast. "Good-bye," she said, "do not +be angry," and so vanished like lightning. This was one of the cases +which made her heart beat with fun and exhilaration, when she was, as +she told the Contessa, nearly caught. She got into the shelter of the +east rooms, panting with the run she had made, her complexion brilliant, +her eyes shining. "I thought I should certainly be seen this time," she +said.</p> + +<p>The Contessa looked at the girl with admiring eyes. "I could almost have +wished you had," she said. "You are superb like that." They talked +without a shade of embarrassment on this subject, upon which English +mothers and children would blush and hesitate.</p> + +<p>This was the day, the great day of the revelation which the Contessa had +promised. There had been a great deal of discussion and speculation +about it in the company. No one, even Sir Tom, knew what it was.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_351" id="Page_351">[Pg 351]</a></span> Lucy, +though she was not clever, had her wits sharpened in this respect, and +she had divined; but no one else had any conception of what was coming. +Two of the elder men had gone, very sorry to miss the great event, +whatever it was. And young Montjoie had talked of nothing else since the +promise had been made. The conversation in the drawing-room late in the +afternoon chiefly turned on this subject, and the lady visitors too +heard of it, and were not less curious. She who had the two daughters +addressed herself to Lucy for information. She said: "I hear some +novelty is expected to-night, Lady Randolph, something the Contessa has +arranged. She is very clever, is she not? and sings delightfully, I +know. There is so much more talent of that kind among foreigners than +there is among us. Is it tableaux? The girls are so longing to know."</p> + +<p>"Oh, yes, we want so much to know," said the young ladies in blue.</p> + +<p>"I don't think it is tableaux," Lucy said; "but I have not been told +what it is."</p> + +<p>This the ladies did not believe, but they asked no further questions. +"It is clear that she does not wish us to know; so, girls, you must say +nothing," was the conclusion of the mother.</p> + +<p>They said a great deal, notwithstanding this warning. The house +altogether was excited on the subject, and even Mr. Derwentwater took +part in the speculations. He looked upon the Contessa as one of those +inscrutable women of the stage, the Sirens who beguile everybody. She +had some design upon Montjoie, he felt, and it was only the youth's +impertinence which prevented Mr. Derwentwater from interfering. He +watched with the natural instinct of his profession and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_352" id="Page_352">[Pg 352]</a></span> a strong +impulse to write to the lad's parents and have him taken away. But +Montjoie had no parents. He had attained his majority, and was supposed +by the law capable of taking care of himself. What did that woman mean +to do with the boy? She had some designs upon him. But there was nobody +to whom Mr. Derwentwater could confide his suspicions, or whom he could +ask what the Contessa meant. MTutor had not on the whole a pleasant +visit. He was disappointed in that which had been his chief object—his +favourite pupil was detached from him, he knew not how—and this other +boy, whom, though he did not love him, he could not help feeling a sort +of responsibility for, was in danger from a designing woman, a woman out +of a French play, <i>L'Aventurière</i>, something of that sort. Mr. +Derwentwater felt that he could not drag himself away, the attractions +were so strong. He wanted to see the <i>dénoûement</i> still more he wanted +to see Bice. No drama in the world had so powerful an interest. But +though it was so impossible to go away, it was not pleasant to stay. +Jock did not want him. Lucy, though she was always sweet and friendly, +had a look of haste and over-occupation; her eyes wandered when she +talked to him; her mind was occupied with other things. Most of the men +of the party were more than indifferent; were disagreeable to him. He +thought they were a danger for Jock. And Bice never was visible; that +moment on the balcony—those few minutes in the park—the half dozen +words which had been so "suggestive," he thought, which had woke so many +echoes in his mind—these were all he had had of her. Had she intended +them to awaken echoes? He asked himself this question a thousand times. +Had she willingly cast this seed of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_353" id="Page_353">[Pg 353]</a></span> thought into his mind to +germinate—to produce—what result? If it was so, then, indeed, all the +little annoyances of his stay would be a cheap price to pay. It did not +occur to this judicious person, whose influence over his pupils was so +great, and who had studied so deeply the mind of youth, that a girl of +sixteen was but little likely to be consciously suggestive—to sow, with +any intention in her mind, seeds of meaning to develop in his. To do him +justice, he was as unconscious of the limits of sixteen in Bice's case +as we all are in the case of Juliet. She was of no age. She was the +ideal woman capable of comprehensions and intentions as far above +anything possible to the genus boy as heaven was above earth. It would +have been a profanation, a sacrilege too dreadful to be thought of, to +compare that ethereal creature with the other things of her age with +which he was so familiar. Of her age! Her age was the age of romance, of +love, of poetry, of all ineffable things.</p> + +<p>"I say, Countess," said Montjoie, "I hope you're not forgetting. This is +the night, don't you know. And here we are all ready for dinner and +nothing has happened. When is it coming? You are so awfully mysterious; +it ain't fair upon a fellow."</p> + +<p>"Is every one in the room?" said the Contessa, with an indulgent smile +at the young man's eagerness. They all looked round, for everybody was +curious. And all were there—the lady who wrote for the Press, and the +lady with the two daughters, the girls in blue; and Sir Tom's +parliamentary friends standing up against the mantelpiece, and Mr. +Derwentwater by himself, more curious than any one, keeping one eye on +Montjoie, as if he would have liked to send him to the pupil-room to do +a <i>pœna</i>; and Jock indifferent,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_354" id="Page_354">[Pg 354]</a></span> with his back to the door. All the rest +were expectant except Jock, who took no notice. The Contessa's special +friends were about her chair, rubbing their hands, and ready to back the +Forno-Populo for a new sensation. The Contessa looked round, her eye +dwelling for a moment upon Lucy, who looked a little fluttered and +uncomfortable, and upon Sir Tom, who evidently knew nothing, and was +looking on with a smile.</p> + +<p>"Now you shall see," she said, "why I abdicate," and made a sign, +clapping softly her beautiful hands.</p> + +<p>There was a momentary pause. Montjoie, who was standing out in the clear +space in the centre of the room, turned round at the Contessa's call. He +turned towards the open door, which was less lighted than the inner +room. It was he who saw first what was coming. "Oh, by Jove!" the young +Marquis said.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXV" id="CHAPTER_XXXV"></a>CHAPTER XXXV.</h2> + +<h3>THE DÉBUT.</h3> + + +<p>The door was open. The long drawing-room afforded a sort of processional +path for the newcomer. Her dress was not white like that of the ordinary +<i>débutante</i>. It had a yellow golden glow of colour, warm yet soft. She +walked not with the confused air of a novice perceiving herself +observed, but with a slow and serene gait like a young queen. She was +not alarmed by the consciousness that everybody was looking at her. Not +to have been looked at would have been more likely to embarrass Bice. +Her beautiful throat and shoulders were uncovered, her hair dressed +more<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_355" id="Page_355">[Pg 355]</a></span> elaborately than that of English girls in general. English +girls—the two innocents in blue, who were nice girls enough, and stood +with their mouths and eyes open in speechless wonder and +admiration—seemed of an entirely different species from this dazzling +creature. She made a momentary pause on the threshold, while all the +beholders held their breath. Montjoie, for one, was struck dumb. His +commonplace countenance changed altogether. He looked at her with his +face growing longer, his jaw dropping. It was more than a sensation, it +was such a climax of excitement and surprise as does not happen above +once or twice in a lifetime. The whole company were moved by similar +feelings, all except the Contessa, lying back in her chair, and Lucy, +who stood rather troubled, moving from one foot to another, clasping and +unclasping her hands. Jock, roused by the murmur, turned round with a +start, and eyed her too with looks of wild astonishment. She stood for a +moment looking at them all—with a smile which was half mischievous, +half appealing—on the threshold, as Bice felt it, not only of Lady +Randolph's drawing-room, but of the world.</p> + +<p>Sir Tom had started at the sight of her as much as any one. He had not +been in the secret. He cried out, "By Jove!" like Montjoie. But he had +those instincts which are, perhaps, rather old-fashioned, of protection +and service to women. He belonged to the school which thinks a girl +should not walk across a room without some man's arm to sustain her, or +open a door for herself. He started forward with a little sense of being +to blame, and offered her his arm. "Why didn't you send for me to bring +you in if you were late?" he cried, with a tone in which there was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_356" id="Page_356">[Pg 356]</a></span> some +tremor and vexation. The effectiveness of her appearance was terrible to +Sir Tom. She looked up at him with a look of pleasure and kindness, and +said, "I was not late," with a smile. She looked taller, more developed +in a single day. But for that little pucker of vexation on Sir Tom's +forehead they would have looked like a father and daughter, the father +proudly bringing his young princess into the circle of her adorers. Bice +swept him towards Lucy, and made a low obeisance to Lady Randolph, and +took her hand and kissed it. "I must come to you first," she said.</p> + +<p>"Well?" said the Contessa, turning round to her retainers with a quick +movement. They were all gazing at the <i>débutante</i> so intently that they +had no eyes for her. One of them at length replied, with something like +solemnity: "Oh, I understand what you mean, Contessa; anybody but you +would have to abdicate." "But not you," said another, who had some +kindness in his heart. The Contessa rose up with an air of triumph. "I +do not want to be compelled," she said, "I told you. I give up. I will +take your arm Mr. St. John, as a private person, having relinquished my +claims, and leave milord to the new <i>régime</i>."</p> + +<p>This was how it came about, in the slight scuffle caused by the sudden +change of programme, that Bice, in all her splendour, found herself +going in to the dining-room on Lord Montjoie's arm. Notwithstanding that +he had been struck dumb by her beauty, little Montjoie was by no means +happy when this wonderful good fortune fell upon him. He would have +preferred to gaze at her from the other side of the table: on the whole, +he would have been a great deal more at his ease with the Contessa. He +would have asked her a hundred questions about this wonderful beauty; +but<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_357" id="Page_357">[Pg 357]</a></span> the beauty herself rather frightened the young man. Presently, +however, he regained his courage, and as lack of boldness was not his +weak point, soon began to lose the sense of awe which had been so strong +upon him. She smiled; she was as ready to talk as he was, as the +overwhelming impression she had made upon him began to be modified by +familiarity. "I suppose," he said, when he had reached this point, "that +you arrived to-day?" And then, after a pause, "You speak English?" he +added, in a hesitating tone. She received this question with so merry a +laugh that he was quite encouraged.</p> + +<p>"Always," she said, "since I was a child. Was that why you were afraid +of me?"</p> + +<p>"Afraid?" he said; and then he looked at her almost with a recurrence of +his first fright, till her laugh reassured him. "Yes I was frightened," +Lord Montjoie said; "you looked so—so—don't you know? I was struck all +of a heap. I suppose you came to-day? We were all on the outlook from +something the Contessa said. You must be clever to get in without +anybody seeing you."</p> + +<p>"I was far more clever than that," said Bice; "you don't know how clever +I am."</p> + +<p>"I dare say," said Lord Montjoie, admiringly, "because you don't want +it. That's always the way."</p> + +<p>"I am so clever that I have been here all the time," said Bice, with +another laugh so joyous,—"so jolly," Montjoie said, that his terrors +died away. But his surprise took another development at this +extraordinary information.</p> + +<p>"By Jove!" he cried, "you don't mean that, Miss—Mademoiselle—I am so +awfully stupid I never heard—that is to say I ain't at all clever at +foreign names."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_358" id="Page_358">[Pg 358]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh, never mind," cried Bice; "neither am I. But yours is delightful; it +is so easy, Milord. Ought I to say Milord?"</p> + +<p>"Oh," cried Montjoie, a little confused. "No; I don't think so—people +don't as a rule."</p> + +<p>"Lord Montjoie, that is right? I like always to know——"</p> + +<p>"So do I," said Montjoie; "it's always best to ask, ain't it, and then +there can be no mistakes? But you don't mean to say <i>that</i>? You here +yesterday and all the time? I shouldn't think you could have been hid. +Not the kind of person, don't you know."</p> + +<p>"I can't tell about being the kind of person. It has been fun," said +Bice; "sometimes I have seen you all coming, and waited till there was +just time to fly. I like leaving it till the last moment, and then there +is the excitement, don't you know."</p> + +<p>"By Jove, what fun!" said Montjoie. He was not clever enough, few people +are, to perceive that she had mimicked himself in tone and expression. +"And I might have caught you any day," he cried. "What a muff I have +been."</p> + +<p>"If I had allowed myself to be caught I should have been a greater—what +do you call it? You wear beautiful things to do your smoking in, Lord +Montjoie; what is it? Velvet? And why don't you wear them to +dinner?—you would look so much more handsome. I am very fond myself of +beautiful clothes."</p> + +<p>"Oh, by Jove!" cried Montjoie again, with something like a blush. +"You've seen me in those things! I only wear them when I think nobody +sees. They're something from the East," he added, with a tone of +careless complacency; for, as a matter of fact, he piqued himself very +much upon this smoking-suit<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_359" id="Page_359">[Pg 359]</a></span> which had not, at the Hall, received the +applause it deserved.</p> + +<p>"You go and smoke like that among other men? Yes, I perceive," said +Bice, "you are just like women, there is no difference. We put on our +pretty things for other ladies, because you cannot understand them; and +you do the same."</p> + +<p>"Oh, come now, Miss——Forno-Populo! you don't mean to tell me that you +got yourself up like that for the sake of the ladies?" cried the young +man.</p> + +<p>"For whom, then?" said Bice, throwing up her head; but afterwards, with +the instinct of a young actress, she remembered her <i>rôle</i>, which it was +fun to carry out thoroughly. She laughed. "You are the most clever," she +said. "I see you are one that women cannot deceive."</p> + +<p>Montjoie laughed, too, with gratified vanity and superior knowledge. +"You are about right there," he said. "I am not to be taken in, don't +you know. It's no good trying it on with me. I see through ladies' +little pretences. If there were no men you would not care what guys you +were; and no more do we."</p> + +<p>Bice made no reply. She turned upon him that dazzling smile of which she +had learned the secret from the Contessa, which was unfathomable to the +observer but quite simple to the simple-minded; and then she said: "Do +you amuse yourself very much in the evening? I used to hear the voices +and think how pleasant it would have been to be there."</p> + +<p>"Not so pleasant as you think," said the young man. "The only fun was +the Contessa's, don't you know. She's a fine woman for her age, but +she's—— Goodness! I forgot. She's your——"</p> + +<p>"She is <i>passée</i>," said the girl calmly. "You make me afraid, Lord +Montjoie. How much of a critic you<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_360" id="Page_360">[Pg 360]</a></span> are, and see through women, through +and through." At this the noble Marquis laughed with true enjoyment of +his own gifts.</p> + +<p>"But you ain't offended?" he said. "There was no harm meant. Even a lady +can't, don't you know, be always the same age."</p> + +<p>"Don't you think so?" said Bice. "Oh, I think you are wrong. The +Contessa is of no age. She is the age she pleases—she has all the +secrets. I see nobody more beautiful."</p> + +<p>"That may be," said Montjoie; "but you can't see everybody, don't you +know. She's very handsome and all that—and when the real thing isn't +there—but when it is, don't you know——"</p> + +<p>"English is very perplexing," said Bice, shaking her head, but with a +smile in her eyes which somewhat belied her air of simplicity. "What may +that be—the real thing? Shall I find it in the dictionary?" she asked; +and then their eyes met and there was another burst of laughter, +somewhat boisterous on his part, but on hers with a ring of +lightheartedness which quenched the malice. She was so young that she +had a pleasure in playing her <i>rôle</i>, and did not feel any immorality +involved.</p> + +<p>While this conversation was going on, which was much observed and +commented on by all the company, Jock from one end of the table and Mr. +Derwentwater from the other, looked on with an eager observation and +breathless desire to make out what was being said which gave an +expression of anxiety to the features of MTutor, and one of almost +ferocity to the lowering countenance of Jock. Both of these gentlemen +were eagerly questioned by the ladies next them as to who this young +lady might be.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_361" id="Page_361">[Pg 361]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Terribly theatrical, don't you think, to come into a room like that?" +said the mother of the girls in blue. "If my Minnie or Edith had been +asked to do it they would have died of shame."</p> + +<p>"I do not deny," said Mr. Derwentwater, "the advantage of conventional +restraints. I like the little airs of seclusion, of retirement, that +surround young ladies. But the——" he paused a little for a name, and +then with that acquaintance with foreign ways on which Mr. Derwentwater +prided himself, added, "the Signorina was at home."</p> + +<p>"The Signorina! Is that what you call her—just like a person that is +going on the stage. She will be the—niece, I suppose?"</p> + +<p>Jock's next neighbour was the lady who was engaged in literature. She +said to Jock: "I must get you to tell me her name. She is lovely. She +will make a great sensation. I must make a few notes of her dress after +dinner—would you call that yellow or white? Whoever dressed her knew +what they were about. Mademoiselle, I imagine, one ought to call her. I +know that's French, and she's Italian, but still—— The new beauty! +that's what she will be called. I am so glad to be the first to see her; +but I must get you to tell me her name."</p> + +<p>Among the gentlemen there was no other subject of conversation, and but +one opinion. A little hum of curiosity ran round the table. It was far +more exciting than tableaux, which was what some of the guests had +expected to be arranged by the Contessa. Tableaux! nothing could have +been equal to the effect of that dramatic entry and sudden revelation. +"As for Montjoie, all was up with him, but the Contessa knew what she +was about. She was not going to throw away her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_362" id="Page_362">[Pg 362]</a></span> effects," they said. +"There could be no doubt for whose benefit it all was." The Contessa +graciously baffled with her charming smile all the questions that were +poured upon her. She received the compliments addressed to her with +gracious bows, but she gave no reply to any one. As she swept out of the +room after dinner she tapped Montjoie lightly on the arm with her fan. +"I will sing for you to-night," she said.</p> + +<p>In the drawing-room the elements were a little heterogeneous without the +gentlemen. The two girls in blue gazed at this wonderful new competitor +with a curiosity which was almost alarm. They would have liked to make +acquaintance, to draw her into their little party of youth outside the +phalanx of the elders. But Bice took no more note of them than if they +had been cabbages. She was in great excitement, all smiles and glory. +"Do I please you like this?" she said, going up to Lucy, spreading out +all her finery with the delight of a child. Lucy shrank a little. She +had a troubled anxious look, which did not look like pleasure; but Lady +Anastasia, who wrote for the newspapers, walked round and round the +<i>débutante</i> and took notes frankly. "Of course I shall describe her +dress. I never saw anything so lovely," the lady said. Bice, in the glow +of her golden yellow, and of her smiles and delight, with the noble +correspondent of the newspapers examining her, found the acutest +interest in the position. The Contessa from her sofa smiled upon the +scene, looking on with the air of a gratified exhibitor whose show had +succeeded beyond her hopes. Lady Randolph, with an air of anxiety in her +fair and simple countenance, stood behind, looking at Bice with +protecting yet disturbed and troubled looks. The mother and daughters at +the other side looked on, she all solid and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_363" id="Page_363">[Pg 363]</a></span> speechless with +disapproval, they in a flutter of interest and wonder and gentle envy +and offence. More than a tableau; it was like an act out of a play. And +when the gentlemen came in what a sudden quickening of the interest! +Bice rose to the action like a heroine when the great scene has come, +and the others all gathered round with a spectatorship that was almost +breathless. The worst feature of the whole to those who were interested +in Bice was her own evident enjoyment. She talked, she distributed her +smiles right and left, she mimicked yet flattered Montjoie with a +dazzling youthful assurance which confounded Mr. Derwentwater, and made +Jock furious, and brought looks of pain not only to the face of Lucy but +also to that of Sir Tom, who was less easily shocked. She was like a +young actress in her first triumph, filling her <i>rôle</i> with a sort of +enthusiasm, enjoying it with all her heart. And when the Contessa rose +to sing, Bice followed her to the piano with an air as different as +possible from the swift, noiseless self-effacement of her performance on +previous occasions. She looked round upon the company with a sort of +malicious triumph, a laugh on her lips as of some delightful +mystification, some surprise of which she was in the secret. "Come and +listen," she said to Jock, lightly touching him on the shoulder as she +passed him. The Contessa's singing was already known. It was considered +by some with a certain contempt, by others with admiration, as almost as +good as professional. But when instead of one of her usual performances +there arose in splendid fulness the harmony of two voices, that of Bice +suddenly breaking forth in all the freshness of youth, unexpected, +unprepared for, the climax of wonder and enthusiasm was reached. Lady +Anastasia, after the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_364" id="Page_364">[Pg 364]</a></span> first start and thrill of wonder, rushed to the +usual writing-table and dashed off a hurried note, which she fastened to +her fan in her excitement. "Everybody must know of this!" she cried. One +of the young ladies in the background wept with admiration, crying, +"Mamma, she is heavenly," while even the virtuous mother was moved. +"They must intend her for the stage," that lady said, wondering, +withdrawing from her <i>rôle</i> of disapproval. As for the gentlemen, those +of them who were not speechless with enthusiasm were almost noisy in +their excitement. Montjoie pressed into the first rank, almost touching +Bice's dress, which she drew away between two bars, turning half round +with a slight shake of her head and a smile in her eyes, even while the +loveliest notes were flowing forth from her melodious throat. The +listeners could hear the noble lord's "by Jove," in the midst of the +music, and even detect the slight quaver of laughter which followed in +Bice's wonderful voice.</p> + +<p>The commotion of applause, enthusiasm, and wonder afterwards was +indescribable. The gentlemen crowded round the singers—even the +parliamentary gentlemen had lost their self-control, while the young +lady who had wept forgot her timidity to make an eager approach to the +<i>débutante</i>.</p> + +<p>"It was heavenly: it was a rapture: oh, sing again!" cried Miss Edith, +which was much prettier than Lord Montjoie's broken exclamations, "Oh, +by Jove! don't you know," to which Bice was listening with delighted +mockery.</p> + +<p>Bice had been trained to pay very little attention to the opinions of +other girls, but she gave the young lady in blue a friendly look, and +launched over her shoulder an appeal to Jock. "Didn't you like it,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_365" id="Page_365">[Pg 365]</a></span> +you?" she cried, with a slight clap together of her hands to call his +attention.</p> + +<p>Jock glared at her over Miss Edith's shoulder. "I don't understand +music," he said, in his most surly voice. These were the distinct +utterances which enchanted Bice amid the murmurs of more ordinary +applause. She was delighted with them. She clapped her hands once more +with a delight which was contagious. "Ah, I know now, this is what it is +to have <i>succès</i>," she cried.</p> + +<p>"Now," said the Contessa, "it is the turn of Lord Montjoie, who is a +dab—that is the word—at singing, and who promised me three for one."</p> + +<p>At this there rose a hubbub of laughter, in the midst of which, though +with many protestations and remonstrances, "don't you know," that young +nobleman was driven to the fulfilment of his promise. In the midst of +this commotion, a sign as swift as lightning, but, unlike lightning, +imperceptible, a lifting of the eyebrows, a movement of a finger, was +given and noted. In such a musical assembly the performance of a young +marquis, with nobody knows how many thousands a year and entirely his +own master, is rarely without interest. Mr. Derwentwater turned his back +with marked indifference, and Jock with a sort of snort went away +altogether. But of the others, the majority, though some with laughter +and some with sneers, were civil, and listened to the performance. Jock +marched off with a disdain beyond expression; but he had scarcely issued +forth into the hall before he heard a rustle behind him, and, looking +back, to his amazement saw Bice in all the glory of her golden robes.</p> + +<p>"Hush!" she cried, smothering a laugh, and with a quick gesture of +repression, "don't say any<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_366" id="Page_366">[Pg 366]</a></span>thing. It must not be discovered that I have +run away!"</p> + +<p>"Why have you run away? I thought you thought no end of that little +scug," cried savage Jock.</p> + +<p>Bice turned upon him that smile that said everything and nothing, and +then flew like a bird upstairs.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXVI" id="CHAPTER_XXXVI"></a>CHAPTER XXXVI.</h2> + +<h3>THE EVENING AFTER.</h3> + + +<p>The outcry that rose when, after Montjoie's comic song, a performance of +the broadest and silliest description, was over, it was discovered that +Bice had disappeared, and especially the blank look of the performer +himself when turning round from the piano he surveyed the company in +vain for her, gratified the Contessa beyond measure. She smiled +radiantly upon the assembly in answer to all their indignant questions. +"It has been for once an indulgence," she said; "but little girls must +keep early hours." Montjoie was wounded and disappointed beyond measure +that it should have been at the moment of his performance that she was +spirited away. His reproaches were vehement, and there was something of +the pettishness of a boy in their indignant tones. "I shouldn't have +sung a note if I'd thought what was going on," he cried. "Contessa, I +would not have believed you could have been so mean—and I singing only +to please you."</p> + +<p>"But think how you have pleased me—and all these ladies!" cried the +Contessa. "Does not that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_367" id="Page_367">[Pg 367]</a></span> recompense you?" Montjoie guessed that she was +laughing at him, but he did not, in fact, see anything to laugh about. +It was natural enough that the other ladies should be pleased; still he +did not care whether they were pleased or not, and he did care much that +the object of his admiration had not waited to hear him. The Contessa +found the greatest amusement in his boyish sulk and resentment, and the +rest of the evening was passed in baffling the questions with which, now +that Bice was gone, her friends overpowered her. She gave the smallest +possible dole of reply to their interrogations, but smiled upon the +questioners with sunshiny smiles. "You must come and see me in town," +she said to Montjoie. It was the only satisfaction she would give him. +And she perceived at a much earlier hour than usual that Lucy was +waiting for her to go to bed. She gave a little cry of distress when +this seemed to flash upon her.</p> + +<p>"Sweet Lucy! it is for me you wait!" she cried. "How could I keep you so +late, my dear one?"</p> + +<p>Montjoie was the foremost of those who attended her to the door, and got +her candle for her, that indispensable but unnecessary formula.</p> + +<p>"Of course I shall look you up in town; but we'll talk of that +to-morrow. I don't go till three—to-morrow," the young fellow said.</p> + +<p>The Contessa gave him her hand with a smile, but without a word, in that +inimitable way she had, leaving Montjoie a prey to such uncertainty as +poisoned his night's rest. He was not humble-minded, and he knew that he +was a prize which no lady he had met with as yet had disregarded; but +for the first time his bosom was torn by disquietude. Of course he must +see her to-morrow. Should he see her to-morrow? The Con<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_368" id="Page_368">[Pg 368]</a></span>tessa's smile, +so radiant, so inexplainable, tormented him with a thousand doubts.</p> + +<p>Lucy had looked on at all this with an uneasiness indescribable. She +felt like an accomplice, watching this course of intrigue, of which she +indeed disapproved entirely, but could not clear herself from a certain +guilty knowledge of. That it should all be going on under her roof was +terrible to her, though it was not for Montjoie but for Bice that her +anxieties were awakened. She followed the Contessa upstairs, bearing her +candle as if they formed part of a procession, with a countenance +absolutely opposed in expression to the smiles of Madame di +Forno-Populo. When they reached the Contessa's door, Lucy, by a sudden +impulse, followed her in. It was not the first time that she had been +allowed to cross the threshold of that little enchanted world which had +filled her with wonder on her first entrance, but which by this time she +regarded with composure, no longer bewildered to find it in her own +house. Bice sprang up from a sofa on which she was lying on their +entrance. She had taken off her beautiful dress, and her hair was +streaming over her shoulders, her countenance radiant with delight. She +threw herself upon the Contessa, without perceiving the presence of Lady +Randolph.</p> + +<p>"But it is enchanting; it is ravishing. I have never been so happy," she +cried.</p> + +<p>"My child," said the Contessa, "here is our dear lady who is of a +different opinion."</p> + +<p>"Of what opinion?" Bice cried. She was startled by the sudden +appearance, when she had no thought of such an apparition, of Lucy's +face so grave and uneasy. It gave a contradiction which was painful to +the girl's excitement and delight.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_369" id="Page_369">[Pg 369]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Indeed, I did not mean to find fault," said Lucy. "I was only +sorry——" and here she paused, feeling herself incapable of expressing +her real meaning, and convicted of interference and unnecessary severity +by the girl's astonished eyes.</p> + +<p>"My dear one," said the Contessa, "it is only that we look from two +different points of view. You will not object to little Bice that she +finds society intoxicating when she first goes into it. The child has +made what you call a sensation. She has had her little <i>succès</i>. That is +nothing to object to. An English girl is perhaps more reticent. She is +brought up to believe that she does not care for <i>succès</i>. But Bice is +otherwise. She has been trained for that, and to please makes her +happy."</p> + +<p>"To please—whom?" cried Lady Randolph. "Oh, don't think I am finding +fault. We are brought up to please our parents and people who—care for +us—in England."</p> + +<p>Here Bice and the Contessa mutually looked at each other, and the girl +laughed, putting her hands together. "<i>She</i> is pleased most of all," she +cried; "she is all my parents. I please her first of all."</p> + +<p>"What you say is sweet," said the Contessa, smiling upon Lucy; "and she +is right too. She pleases me most of all. To see her have her little +triumph, looking really her very best, and her dress so successful, is +to me a delight. I am nearly as much excited as the child herself!"</p> + +<p>Lucy looked from one to another, and felt that it was impossible for her +to say what she wished to say. The girl's pleasure seemed so innocent, +and that of her protectress and guardian so generous, so tender. All +that had offended Lucy's instincts, the dramatic effort<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_370" id="Page_370">[Pg 370]</a></span> of the +Contessa, the careful preparation of all the effects, the singling out +of young Montjoie as the object, all seemed to melt away in the girlish +delight of Bice, and the sympathetic triumph of her guardian. She did +not know what to say to them. It was she who was the culprit, putting +thoughts of harm which had not found any entrance there into the girl's +mind. She flushed with shame and an uneasy sense that the tables were +thus turned upon her; and yet how could she depart without some warning? +It was not only her own troubled uncomfortable feeling; but had she not +read the same, still more serious and decided, in her husband's eyes?</p> + +<p>"I don't know what to say," said Lucy. "But Sir Tom thinks so too. He +will tell you better, he knows better. Lord Montjoie is—I do not know +why he was asked. I did not wish it. He is—dear Madame di Forno-Populo, +you have seen so much more than I—he is vulgar—a little. And Bice is +so young; she may be deceived."</p> + +<p>For a moment a cloud, more dark than had ever been seen there before, +overshadowed the Contessa's face. But Bice burst forth into a peal of +laughter, clapping her hands. "Is that vulgar?" the girl cried. "I am +glad. Now I know how he is different. It is what you call fun, don't you +know?" she cried with sudden mimicry, at which Lucy herself could not +refuse to laugh.</p> + +<p>"I waited outside to hear a little of the song. It was so wonderful that +I could not laugh; and to utter all that before you, Madama, after he +had heard you—oh, what courage! what braveness!" cried Bice. "I did not +think any one could be so brave!"</p> + +<p>"You mean so simple, dear child," said the Con<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_371" id="Page_371">[Pg 371]</a></span>tessa, whose brow had +cleared; "that is really what is so wonderful in these English men. They +are so simple, they never see how it is different. It is brave if you +please, but still more simple-minded. Little Montjoie is so. He knows no +better; not to me only, but even to you, Bice, with that voice of yours, +so pure, so fresh, he listens, then performs as you heard. It is +wonderful, as you say. But you have not told me, Lucy, my sweetest, what +you think of the little one's voice."</p> + +<p>"I think," said Lucy, with that disapproval which she could not +altogether restrain, "that it is very wonderful, when it is so fine, +that we never heard it before——"</p> + +<p>"Ah, Bice," cried the Contessa, "our dear lady is determined that she +will not be pleased to-night. We had prepared a little surprise, and it +is a failure. She will not understand that we love to please. She will +have us to be superior, as if we were English."</p> + +<p>"Indeed, indeed," cried Lucy, full of compunction, "I know you are +always kind. And I know your ways are different—but——" with a sort of +regretful reflectiveness, shaking her head.</p> + +<p>"All England is in that but," said the Contessa. "It is what has always +been said to me. In our country we love to arrange these little effects, +to have surprises, impromptus, events that are unexpected. Bice, go, my +child, go to bed, after this excitement you must rest. You did well, and +pleased me at least. My sweet Lucy," she said, when the girl with +instant obedience had disappeared into the next room, "I know how you +see it all from your point of view. But we are not as you, rich, secure. +We must make while we can our <i>coup</i>. To succeed by one <i>coup</i>, that is +my desire. And you will not interfere?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_372" id="Page_372">[Pg 372]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh, Contessa," cried Lucy, "will you not spare the child? It is like +selling her. She is too good for such a man. He is scarcely a man; he is +a boy. I am ashamed to think that you should care to please——him, or +any one like him. Oh, let it come naturally! Do not plan like this, and +scheme and take trouble for——"</p> + +<p>"For an establishment that will make her at once safe and sure; that +will give her so many of the things that people care for—beautiful +houses, a good name, money—— I have schemed, as you say, for little +things much of my life," said the Contessa, shaking her head with a +mournful smile; "I have told you my history: for very, very little +things—for a box at the opera, for a carriage, things which are +nothing, sweetest Lucy. You have plenty; such things are nothing to you. +You cannot understand it. But that is me, my dear one. I have not a +higher mind like you; and shall I not scheme," cried the Contessa, with +sudden energy, "for the child, to make her safe that she may never +require scheming? Ah, my Lucy! I have the heart of a mother to her, and +you know what a mother will do."</p> + +<p>Lucy was silent, partly touched, partly resisting. If it ever could be +right to do evil that good might come, perhaps this motive might justify +it. And then came the question how much, in the Contessa's code, was +evil, of these proceedings? She was silenced, if not satisfied. There is +a certain casuistry involved in the most Christian charity: "thinketh no +evil," sometimes even implies an effort to think that there is no harm +in evil according to the intention in it. Lucy's intellect was confused, +though not that unobtrusive faculty of judgment in her which was +infallible, yet could be kept dumb.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_373" id="Page_373">[Pg 373]</a></span></p> + +<p>"My love," said the Contessa, suddenly kissing her as a sort of +dismissal, "think that you are rich and we poor. If Bice had a +provision, if she had even as much as you give away to your poor friends +and never think of again, how different would all things be for her! But +she has nothing; and therefore I prepare my little tableaux, and study +all the effects I can think of, and produce her as in a theatre, and +shut her up to <i>agacer</i> the audience, and keep her silent and make her +sing, all for effect; yes, all for effect. But what can I do? She has +not a penny, not a penny, not even like your poor friends."</p> + +<p>The sudden energy with which this was said was indescribable. The +Contessa's countenance, usually so ivory-pale, shone with a sort of +reflection as if of light within, her eyes blazed, her smile gave place +to a seriousness which was almost indignation. She looked like a heroine +maintaining her right to do all that human strength could do for the +forlorn and oppressed; and there was, in fact, a certain <i>abandon</i> of +feeling in her which made her half unconsciously open the door, and do +what was tantamount to turning her visitor out, though her visitor was +mistress of the house. Her feelings had, indeed, for the moment, got the +better of the Contessa. She had worked herself up to the point of +indignation, that Lucy who could, if she would, deliver Bice from all +the snares of poverty, had not done so, and was not, so far as appeared, +intending to do so. To find fault with the devices of the poor, and yet +not to help them—is not that one of the things least easily supportable +of all the spurns of patient merit? The Contessa was doing what she +could, all she could in her own fashion, strenuously, anxiously. But +Lucy was doing nothing,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_374" id="Page_374">[Pg 374]</a></span> though she could have done it so easily: and +yet she found fault and criticised. Madame di Forno-Populo was swept by +a great flood of instinctive resentment. She put her hostess to the door +in the strength of it, tenderly with a kiss but not less hotly, and with +full meaning. Such impulses had stood her instead of virtue on other +occasions; she felt a certain virtue as of superior generosity and +self-sacrifice in her proceedings now.</p> + +<p>As for Lucy, still much confused and scarcely recognising the full +meaning of the Contessa's warmth, she made her way to her own room in a +haze of disturbed and uneasy feeling. Somehow—she could not tell +how—she felt herself in the wrong. What was it she had done? What was +it she had left undone? To further the scheme by which young Montjoie +was to be caught and trapped and made the means of fortune and endowment +to Bice was not possible. In such cases it is usually of the possible +victim, the man against whom such plots are formed, that the bystander +thinks; but Lucy thought of young Montjoie only with an instinctive +dislike, which would have been contempt in a less calm and tolerant +mind. That Bice, with all her gifts, a creature so full of life and +sweetness and strength, should be handed over to this trifling +commonplace lad, was in itself terrible to think of. Lucy did not think +of the girl's beauty, or of that newly-developed gift of song which had +taken her by surprise, but only and simply of herself, the warm-hearted +and smiling girl, the creature full of fun and frolic whom she had +learned to be fond of, first, for the sake of little Tom, and then for +her own. Little Tom's friend, his playmate, who had found him out in his +infant weakness and made his life so much<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_375" id="Page_375">[Pg 375]</a></span> brighter! And then Lucy asked +herself what the Contessa could mean, what it was that made her own +interference a sort of impertinence, why her protests had been received +with so little of the usual caressing deference? Thoughts go fast, and +Lucy had not yet reached the door of her own room, when it flashed upon +her what it was. She put down her candle on a table in the corridor, and +stood still to realise it. This gallery at the head of the great +staircase was dimly lighted, and the hall below threw up a glimmer, +reflected in the oaken balusters and doors of the closed rooms, and +dying away in the half-lit gloom above. There were sounds below far off +that betrayed the assembly still undispersed in the smoking-room, and +some fainter still, above, of the ladies who had retired to their rooms, +but were still discussing the strange events of the evening. In the +centre of this partial darkness stood Lucy, with her candle, the only +visible representative of all the hidden life around, suddenly pausing, +asking herself—</p> + +<p>Was this what it meant? Undoubtedly, this was what it meant. She had the +power, and she had not used it. With a word she could make all their +schemes unnecessary, and relieve the burden on the soul of the woman who +had the heart of a mother for Bice. Tears sprang up into Lucy's eyes +unawares as this recollection suddenly seized her. The Contessa was not +perfect—there were many things in her which Lady Randolph could with +difficulty excuse to herself: but she had the heart of a mother for +Bice. Oh, yes, it was true, quite true. The heart of a mother! and how +was it possible that another mother could look on at this and not +sympathise; and how was it that the idea had never occurred to her +before—that she had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_376" id="Page_376">[Pg 376]</a></span> never thought how changed in a moment might be +Bice's position, if only—— Here she picked up her candle again, and +went away hastily to her room. She said to herself that she was keeping +Fletcher up, and that this was unkind. But, as a matter of fact, she was +not thinking about Fletcher. There had sprung up in her soul a fear +which was twofold and contradictory. If one of those alarms was +justified, then the other would be fallacious; and yet the existence of +the one doubled the force of the other. One of these elements of +fear—the contradiction, the new terror—was wholly unthought of, and +had never troubled her peace before. She thought—and this was her old +burden, the anxiety which had already restrained her action and made her +forego what she had never failed to feel as her duty, the carrying out +of her father's will—of her husband's objection, of his opposition, of +the terrible interview she had once had with him, when she had refused +to acquiesce in his command. And then, with a sort of stealthy horror, +she thought of his departure from that opposition, and asked herself, +would he, for Bice's sake, consent to that which he had so much objected +to in other cases? This it was that made her shrink from herself and her +own thoughts, and hurry into her room for the solace of Fletcher's +companionship, and to put off as long as she could the discussion of the +question. Would Sir Tom agree to everything? Would he make no +objections—for Bice's sake?</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_377" id="Page_377">[Pg 377]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXVII" id="CHAPTER_XXXVII"></a>CHAPTER XXXVII.</h2> + +<h3>THE CONTESSA'S TACTICS.</h3> + + +<p>That morning the whole party came down to breakfast expectant, for, +notwithstanding the Contessa's habit of not appearing, it was supposed +that the young lady whom most people supposed to have arrived very +recently must be present at the morning meal. Young Montjoie, who was +generally very late, appeared among the first; and there was a look of +curiosity and anxiety in his face as he turned towards the door every +time it was opened, which betrayed his motive. But this expectation was +not destined to be repaid. Bice did not appear at breakfast. She did not +even come downstairs, though the Contessa did, for luncheon. When Madame +di Forno-Populo came in to this meal there was a general elevation of +all heads and eager look towards her, to which she replied with her +usual smile but no explanation of any kind; nor would she make any +reply, even to direct questions. She did nothing but smile when Montjoie +demanded to know if Miss Forno-Populo was not coming downstairs, if she +had gone away, if she were ill, if she would appear before three +o'clock—with which questions he assailed her in downright fashion. When +the Contessa did not smile she put on a look of injured sweetness. +"What!" she said, "Am I then so little thought of? You have no more +pleasure, ficklest of young men, in seeing me?" "Oh, I assure you, +Countess," he cried, "that's all right, don't you know; but a fellow may +ask. And then it was your own doing to make us so excited."</p> + +<p>"Yes, a fellow may ask," said the Contessa, smiling;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_378" id="Page_378">[Pg 378]</a></span> but this was all +the response she would give, nothing that could really throw the least +light upon the subject of his curiosity. The other men of her following +looked on with undisguised admiration at this skilled and accomplished +woman. To see how she held in hand the youth whom they all considered as +her victim was beautiful they thought; and bets even were going amongst +them as to the certainty that she would land her big fish. Sir Tom, at +the head of the table, did not regard the matter so lightly. There was a +curve of annoyance in his forehead. He did not understand what game she +was playing. It was, without doubt, a game of some sort, and its object +was transparent enough; and Sir Tom could not easily forgive the +dramatic efforts of the previous night, or endure the thought that his +house was the scene of tactics so little creditable. He was vexed with +the Contessa, with Bice, even with Lucy, who, he could not keep from +saying to himself, should have found some means of baulking such an +intention. He was somewhat mollified by the absence of Bice now, which +seemed to him, perhaps, a tribute to his own evident disapproval; but +still he was uneasy. It was not a fit thing to take place in his house. +He saw far more clearly than he had done before that a stop should have +been put ere now to the Contessa's operations, and in the light of last +night's proceedings perceived his own errors in judgment—those errors +which he had, indeed, been sensible of, yet condoned in himself with +that wonderful charity which we show towards our own mistakes and +follies. He ought not to have asked her to the Hall; he ought not to +have permitted himself to be flattered and amused by her society, or to +have encouraged her to remain, or to have been so<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_379" id="Page_379">[Pg 379]</a></span> weak as to ask the +people she wished, which was the crowning error of all. He had invited +Montjoie, a trifling boy in whom he felt little or no interest, to +please her, without any definite idea as to what she meant, but only +with an amused sense that she had designs on the lad which Montjoie was +quite knowing enough to deliver himself from. But the turn things had +taken displeased Sir Tom. It was too barefaced, he said to himself. He, +too, felt like his more innocent wife, as if he were an accomplice in a +social crime.</p> + +<p>"I've been swindled, don't you know," Montjoie said; "I've been taken a +mean advantage of. None of these other beggars are going away like me. +They will get all the good of the music to-night, and I shall be far +away. I could cry to think of it, I could, don't you know; but you don't +care a bit, Countess."</p> + +<p>The Contessa, as usual, smiled. "<i>Enfant</i>!" she said.</p> + +<p>"I am not an infant. I am just the same age as everybody, old enough to +look after myself, don't you know, and pay for myself, and all that sort +of thing. Besides, I haven't got any parents and guardians. Is that why +you take such a base advantage of me?" cried the young man.</p> + +<p>"It is, perhaps, why——" The Contessa was not much in the way of +answering questions; and when she had said this she broke off with a +laugh. Was she going to say that this was why she had taken any trouble +about him, with a frankness which it is sometimes part of the astutest +policy to employ.</p> + +<p>"Why what? why what? Oh, come, you must tell me now," the young man +said.</p> + +<p>"Why one takes so much interest in you," said the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_380" id="Page_380">[Pg 380]</a></span> Contessa sweetly. +"You shall come and see me, <i>cher petit Marquis</i>, in my little house +that is to be, in Mayfair; for you have found me, <i>n'est ce pas</i>, a +little house in Mayfair?" she said, turning to another of her train.</p> + +<p>"Hung with rose-coloured curtains and pink glass in the windows, +according to your orders, Contessa," said the gentleman appealed to.</p> + +<p>"How good it is to have a friend! but those curtains will be terrible," +said the Contessa, with a shiver, "if it were not that I carry with me a +few little things in a great box."</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear Contessa, how many things you must have picked up!" cried +Lady Anastasia. "That peep into your boudoir made me sick with envy; +those Eastern embroideries, those Persian rugs! They have furnished me +with a lovely paragraph for my paper, and it is such a delightful +original idea to carry about one's pet furniture like one's dresses. It +will become quite the fashion when it is known. And how I shall long to +see that little house in Mayfair!"</p> + +<p>The Contessa smiled upon Lady Anastasia as she smiled upon the male +friends that surrounded her. Her paper and her paragraphs were not to be +despised, and those little mysterious intimations about the new beauty +which it delighted her to make. Madame di Forno-Populo turned to +Montjoie afterwards with a little wave of the hand. "You are going?" she +said; "how sad for us! we shall have no song to make us gay to-night. +But come and you shall sing to us in Mayfair."</p> + +<p>"Countess, you are only laughing at me. But I shall come, don't you +know," said Montjoie, "whether you mean it or not."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_381" id="Page_381">[Pg 381]</a></span></p> + +<p>The company, who were so much interested in this conversation, did not +observe the preoccupied looks of the master and mistress of the house, +although to some of the gentlemen the gravity of Sir Tom was apparent +enough. And not much wonder that he should be grave. Even the men who were +most easy in their own code looked with a certain severity and +astonishment upon him who had opened his door to the adventuress-Contessa, +of whom they all judged the worst, without even the charitable +acknowledgment which her enemy the Dowager had made, that there was +nothing in her past history bad enough to procure her absolute expulsion +from society. The men who crowded round her when she appeared, who +flattered and paid their court to her, and even took a little credit to +themselves as intimates of the siren, were one and all of opinion that to +bring her into his house was discreditable to Sir Tom. They were even a +little less respectful to Lucy for not knowing or finding out the quality +of her guest. If Tom Randolph was beginning to find out that he had been a +fool it was wonderful he had not made the discovery sooner. For he had +been a fool, and no mistake! To bring that woman to England, to keep her +in his house, to associate her in men's minds with his wife—the worst of +his present guests found it most difficult to forgive him. But they were +all the more interested in the situation from the fact that Sir Tom was +beginning to feel the effects of his folly. He said very little during +that meal. He took no notice of the badinage going on between the Contessa +and her train. When he spoke at all it was to that virtuous mother at his +other hand, who was not at all amusing, and talked of nothing but Edith +and Minnie, and her successful<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_382" id="Page_382">[Pg 382]</a></span> treatment of them through all the nursery +troubles of their life.</p> + +<p>Lucy, at the other end of the table, was scarcely more expansive. She +had been relieved by the absence of Bice, which, in her innocence, she +believed to be a concession to her own anxiety, feeling a certain +gratitude to the Contessa for thus foregoing the chance of another +interview with Montjoie. It could never have occurred to Lucy to suppose +that this was policy on the Contessa's part, and that her refusal to +satisfy Montjoie was in reality planned to strengthen her hold on him, +and to increase the curiosity she pretended to baffle. Lucy had no such +artificial idea in her mind. She accepted the girl's withdrawal as a +tribute to her own powers of persuasion, and a proof that though the +Contessa had been led astray by her foreign notions, she was yet ready +to perceive and adopt the more excellent way. This touched Lucy's heart +and made her feel that she was herself bound to reciprocate the +generosity. They had done it without knowing anything about the +intention in her mind, and it should be hers to carry out that intention +liberally, generously, not like an unwilling giver. She cast many a +glance at her husband while this was going through her mind. Would he +object as before? or would he, because it was the Contessa who was to be +benefited, make no objection? Lucy did not know which of the two it +would be most painful to her to bear. She had read carefully the +paragraph in her father's will about foreigners, and had found there was +no distinct objection to foreigners, only a preference the other way. +She knew indeed, but would not permit herself to think, that these were +not persons who would have commended themselves to Mr. Trevor as objects +of his<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_383" id="Page_383">[Pg 383]</a></span> bounty. Mr. Churchill, with his large family, was very +different. But to endow two frivolous and expensive women with a portion +of his fortune was a thing to which he never would have consented. With +a certain shiver she recognised this; and then she made a rush past the +objection and turned her back upon it. It was quite a common form of +beneficence in old times to provide a dower for a girl that she might +marry. What could there be wrong in providing a poor girl with something +to live upon that she might not be forced into a mercenary marriage? +While all the talk was going on at the other end of the table she was +turning this over in her mind—the manner of it, the amount of it, all +the details. She did not hear the talk, it was immaterial to her, she +cared not for it. Now and then she gave an anxious look at Sir Tom at +the other end. He was serious. He did not laugh as usual. What was he +thinking of? Would his objections be forgotten because it was the +Contessa or would he oppose her and struggle against her? Her heart beat +at the thought of the conflict which might be before her; or perhaps if +there was no conflict, if he were too willing, might not that be the +worst of all!</p> + +<p>Thus the background against which the Contessa wove her web of smiles +and humorous schemes was both dark and serious. There were many shadows +behind that frivolous central light. Herself the chief actor, the +plotter, she to whom only it could be a matter of personal advantage, +was perhaps the least serious of all the agents in it. The others +thought of possibilities dark enough, of perhaps the destruction of +family peace in this house which had been so hospitable to her, which +had received her when no other<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_384" id="Page_384">[Pg 384]</a></span> house would; and some, of the success of +a plan which did not deserve to succeed, and some of the danger of a +youth to whom at present all the world was bright. All these things +seemed to be involved in the present crisis. What more likely than that +Lucy, at last enlightened, should turn upon her husband, who no doubt +had forced this uncongenial companion upon her, should turn from Sir Tom +altogether, and put her trust in him no longer! And the men who most +admired the Contessa were those who looked with the greatest horror upon +a marriage made by her, and called young Montjoie poor little beggar and +poor devil, wondering much whether he ought not to be "spoken to." The +men were not sorry for Bice, nor thought of her at all in the matter, +save to conclude her a true pupil of the guardian whom most of them +believed to be her mother. But in this point where the others were +wanting Lucy came in, whose simple heart bled for the girl about to be +sacrificed to a man whom she could not love. Thus tragical surmises +floated in the air about Madame di Forno-Populo, that arch plotter whose +heart was throbbing indeed with her success, and the hope of successes +to come, but who had no tragical alarms in her breast. She was perfectly +easy in her mind about Sir Tom and Lucy. Even if a matrimonial quarrel +should be the result, what was that to an experienced woman of the +world, who knew that such things are only for the minute? and neither +Bice nor Montjoie caused her any alarm. Bice was perfectly pleased with +the little Marquis. He amused her. She had not the slightest objection +to him; and as for Montjoie, he was perfectly well able to take care of +himself. So that while everybody else was more or<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_385" id="Page_385">[Pg 385]</a></span> less anxious, the +Contessa in the centre of all her webs was perfectly tranquil. She was +not aware that she wished harm to any man, or woman either. Her light +heart and easy conscience carried her quite triumphantly through all.</p> + +<p>When Montjoie had gone away, carrying in his pocket-book the address of +the little house in Mayfair, and when the party had dispersed to walk or +ride or drive, as each thought fit, Lucy, who was doing neither, met her +husband coming out of his den. Sir Tom was full of a remorseful sense +that he had wronged Lucy. He took her by both hands, and drew her into +his room. It was a long time since he had met her with the same +effusion. "You are looking very serious," he said, "you are vexed, and I +don't wonder; but I see land, Lucy. It will be over directly—only a +week more——"</p> + +<p>"I thought you were looking serious, Tom," she said.</p> + +<p>"So I was, my love. All that business last night was more than I could +stand. You may think me callous enough, but I could not stand that."</p> + +<p>"Tom!" said Lucy, faltering. It seemed an opportunity she could not let +slip—but how she trembled between her two terrors! "There is something +that I want to say to you."</p> + +<p>"Say whatever you like, Lucy," he cried; "but for God's sake don't +tremble, my little woman, when you speak to me. I've done nothing to +deserve that."</p> + +<p>"I am not trembling," said Lucy, with the most innocent and transparent +of falsehoods. "But oh, Tom, I am so sorry, so unhappy."</p> + +<p>"For what?" he said. He did not know what accusation she might be going +to bring against him; and how could he defend himself? Whatever she +might say he was sure to be half guilty; and if she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_386" id="Page_386">[Pg 386]</a></span> thought him wholly +guilty, how could he prevent it? A hot colour came up upon his +middle-aged face. To have to blush when you are past the age of blushing +is a more terrible necessity than the young can conceive.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom!" cried Lucy again, "for Bice! Can we stand by and let her be +sacrificed? She is not much more than a child; and she is always so good +to little Tom."</p> + +<p>"For Bice!" he cried. In the relief of his mind he was ready to have +done anything for Bice. He laughed with a somewhat nervous tremulous +outburst. "Why, what is the matter with her?" he said. "She did her part +last night with assurance enough. She is young indeed, but she ought to +have known better than that."</p> + +<p>"She is very young, and it is the way she has been brought up—how +should she know any better? But, Tom, if she had any fortune she would +not be compelled to marry. How can we stand by and see her sacrificed to +that odious young man?"</p> + +<p>"What odious young man?" said Sir Tom, astonished, and then with another +burst of his old laughter such as had not been heard for weeks, he cried +out: "Montjoie! Why, Lucy, are you crazy? Half the girls in England are +in competition for him. Sacrificed to——! She will be in the greatest +luck if she ever has such a chance."</p> + +<p>Lucy gave him a reproachful look.</p> + +<p>"How can you say so? A little vulgar boy—a creature not worthy to——"</p> + +<p>"My dear, you are prejudiced. You are taking Jock's view. That worthy's +opinion of a fellow who never rose above Lower Fourth is to be received +with reservation. A fellow may be a scug, and yet not a bad fellow—that +is what Jock has yet to learn."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_387" id="Page_387">[Pg 387]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom, I cannot laugh," said Lucy. "What can she do, the Contessa +says? She must marry the first that offers, and in the meantime she +attracts notice <i>like that</i>. It is dreadful to think of it. I think that +some one—that we—I—ought to interfere."</p> + +<p>"My innocent Lucy," said Sir Tom, "how can you interfere? You know +nothing about the tactics of such people. I am very penitent for my +share in the matter. I ought not to have brought so much upon you."</p> + +<p>"Oh, Tom," cried Lucy again, drawing closer to him, eager to anticipate +with her pardon any blame to which he might be liable. And then she +added, returning to her own subject: "She is of English parentage—on +one side."</p> + +<p>Why this fact, so simply stated, should have startled her husband so +much, Lucy could not imagine. He almost gasped as he met her eyes, as if +he had received or feared a sudden blow, and underneath the brownness of +his complexion grew suddenly pale, all the ruddy colour forsaking his +face. "Of English parentage!" he said, faltering, "do you mean?—what do +you mean? Why—do you tell this to me?"</p> + +<p>Lucy was surprised, but saw no significance in his agitation. And her +mind was full of her own purpose. "Because of the will which is against +foreigners," she said simply. "But in that case she would not be a +foreigner, Tom. I think a great deal of this. I want to do it. Oh, don't +oppose me! It makes it so much harder when you go against me."</p> + +<p>He gazed at her with a sort of awe. He did not seem able to speak. What +she had said, though she was unconscious of any special meaning in it, +seemed to have acted upon him like a spell. There was something tragic +in his look which frightened Lucy. She came closer still and put her +hand upon his arm.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_388" id="Page_388">[Pg 388]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh, it is not to trouble you, Tom; it is not that I want to go against +you! But give me your consent this once. Baby is so fond of her, and she +is so good to him. I want to give something to Bice. Let me make a +provision for her?" she said, pleading. "Do not take all the pleasure +out of it and oppose me. Oh, dear Tom, give me your free consent!" Lucy +cried.</p> + +<p>He kept gazing at her with that look of awe. "Oppose you!" he said. What +was the shock he had received which made him so unlike himself? His very +lips quivered as he spoke. "God forgive me; what have I been doing?" he +cried. "Lucy, I think I will never oppose you more."</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXVIII" id="CHAPTER_XXXVIII"></a>CHAPTER XXXVIII.</h2> + +<h3>DISCOVERIES.</h3> + + +<p>This interview had an agitating and painful effect upon Lucy, though she +could not tell why. It was not what she expected or feared—neither in +one sense nor the other. He had neither distressed her by opposing her +proceedings, nor accepted her beneficence towards the Contessa with +levity and satisfaction, both of which dangers she had been prepared +for. Instead, however, of agitating her by the reception he gave to her +proposal, it was he who was agitated by something which in entire +unconsciousness she had said. But what that could be Lucy could not +divine. She had said nothing that could affect him personally so far as +she knew. She went over every word of the conver<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_389" id="Page_389">[Pg 389]</a></span>sation without being +able to discover what could have had this effect. But she could find +nothing, there was no clue anywhere that her unconscious mind could +discover. She concluded finally with much compunction that it was the +implied reproach that he had taken away all pleasure in what she did by +opposing her, that had so disturbed her husband. He was so kind. He had +not been able to bear even the possibility that his opposition had been +a source of pain. "I think I will never oppose you any more." In an +answering burst of generosity Lucy said to herself that she did not +desire this; that she preferred that he should find fault and object +when he disapproved, not consent to everything. But the reflection of +the disturbance she had seen in her husband's countenance was in her +mind all day; she could not shake it off; and he was so grave that every +look she cast at him strengthened the impression. He did not approach +the circle in which the Contessa sat all the evening, but stood apart, +silent, taking little notice of anybody until Mr. Derwentwater secured +his ear, when Sir Tom, instead of his usual genial laugh at MTutor's +solemnities, discharged little caustic criticisms which astonished his +companion. Mr. Derwentwater was going away next day, and he, too, was +preoccupied. After that conversation with Sir Tom, he betook himself to +Lucy, who was very silent too, and doing little for the entertainment of +her guests. He made her sundry pretty speeches, such as are appropriate +from a departing guest.</p> + +<p>"Jock has made up his mind to stay behind," he said. "I am sorry, but I +am not surprised. I shall lose a most agreeable travelling companion; +but, perhaps, home influences are best for the young."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_390" id="Page_390">[Pg 390]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I don't know why Jock has changed his mind, Mr. Derwentwater. He wanted +very much to go."</p> + +<p>"He would say that here's metal more attractive," said the tutor with an +offended smile; and then he paused, and, clearing his throat, asked in a +still more evident tone of offence—"Does not your young friend the +Signorina appear again? I thought from her appearance last night that +she was making her <i>début</i>."</p> + +<p>"Yes, it was like it," said Lucy. "The Contessa is not like one of us," +she added after a moment. "She has her own ways—and, perhaps, I don't +know—that may be the Italian fashion."</p> + +<p>"Not at all," Mr. Derwentwater said promptly. He was an authority upon +national usages. "But I am afraid it was very transparent what the +Contessa meant," he said, after a pause.</p> + +<p>To this Lucy made no reply, and the tutor, who was sensitive, especially +as to bad taste, reddened at his inappropriate observation. He went on +hastily; "The Signorina—or should I say Mademoiselle di +Forno-Populo?—has a great deal of charm. I do not know if she is so +beautiful as her mother——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, not her mother," cried Lucy quickly, with a smile at the mistake.</p> + +<p>"Is she not her mother? The young lady's face indeed is different. It is +of a higher order—it is full of thought. It is noble in repose. She +does not seem made for these scenes of festivity, if you will pardon me, +Lady Randolph, but for the higher retirements——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, she is very fond of seeing people," said Lucy. "You must not +suppose she is too serious for her age. She enjoyed herself last night."</p> + +<p>"There is no age," said Mr. Derwentwater, "at which<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_391" id="Page_391">[Pg 391]</a></span> one can be too +serious—and especially in youth, when all the world is before one, when +one cannot tell what effect a careless step may have one way or another. +It is just that sweet gravity that charms me. I think she was quite out +of her element, excuse me for saying so, Lady Randolph, last night."</p> + +<p>"Do you think so? Oh, I am afraid not. I am afraid she liked it," said +Lucy. "Jock, don't you think Bice liked it. I should much rather think +not, but I am afraid—I am afraid——"</p> + +<p>"She couldn't like that little cad," said Jock, who had drawn near with +an instinctive sense that something was going on which concerned him. +"But she's never solemn either," added the boy.</p> + +<p>"Is that for me, Jock?" said MTutor, with a pensive gentleness of +reproach. "Well, never mind. We must all put up with little +misunderstandings from the younger generation. Some time or other you +will judge differently. I should like to have had an opportunity again +of such music as we heard last night; but I suppose I must not hope for +it."</p> + +<p>"Oh, do you mean Lord Montjoie's song?" cried one of the young ladies in +blue, who had drawn near. "Wasn't it fun? Of course I know it wasn't to +be compared to the Contessa; but I've no musical taste. I always confess +it—that's Edith's line. But Lord Montjoie <i>was</i> fun. Don't you think +so, dear Lady Randolph," Miss Minnie said.</p> + +<p>Mr. Derwentwater gave her one glance, and retired, Jock following. +"Perhaps that's your opinion too," he said, "that Lord Montjoie's was +fun?"</p> + +<p>"He's a scug," said Jock, laconically, "that's all I think about him."</p> + +<p>Mr. Derwentwater took the lad's arm. "And yet,"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_392" id="Page_392">[Pg 392]</a></span> he said, "Jock, though +you and I consider ourselves his superiors, that is the fellow that will +carry off the prize. Beauty and genius are for him. He must have the +best that humanity can produce. You ought to be too young to have any +feeling on the subject; but it is a humiliating thought."</p> + +<p>"Bice will have nothing to say to him," said Jock, with straightforward +application of the abstract description; but MTutor shook his head.</p> + +<p>"How can we tell the persecutions to which Woman is subject?" he said. +"You and I, Jock, are in a very different position. But we should try to +realise, though it is difficult, those dangers to which she is subject. +Kept indoors," said MTutor, with pathos in his voice, "debarred from all +knowledge of the world, with all the authorities about her leading one +way. How can we tell what is said to her? with a host of petty maxims +preaching down a daughter's heart—strange!" cried Mr. Derwentwater, +with a closer pressure of the boy's arm, "that the most lovely existence +should thus continually be led to link itself with the basest. We must +not blame Woman; we must keep her idea sacred, whatever happens in our +own experience."</p> + +<p>"It always sets one right to talk to you," cried Jock, full of emotion. +"I was a beast to say that."</p> + +<p>"My boy, don't you think I understand the disturbance in your mind?" +with a sigh, MTutor said.</p> + +<p>They had left the drawing-room during the course of this conversation, +and were crossing the hall on the way to the library, when some one +suddenly drew back with a startled movement from the passage which led +to Sir Tom's den. Then there followed a laugh, and "Oh, is it only you!" +after which there came forth a slim shadow, as unlike as possible to the +siren of the previous<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_393" id="Page_393">[Pg 393]</a></span> night. "We have met before, and I don't mind. Is +there any one else coming?" Bice said.</p> + +<p>"Why do you hide and skulk in corners?" cried Jock. "Why shouldn't you +meet any one? Have you done something wrong?"</p> + +<p>This made Bice laugh still more. "You don't understand," she said.</p> + +<p>"Signorina," said Mr. Derwentwater (who was somewhat proud of having +remembered this good abstract title to give to the mysterious girl), "I +am going away to-morrow, and perhaps I shall never hear you again. Your +voice seemed to open the heavenly gates. Why, since you are so good as +to consider us different from the others, won't you sing to us once +more?"</p> + +<p>"Sing?" said Bice, with a little surprise; "but by myself my voice is +not much——"</p> + +<p>"It is like a voice out of heaven," Mr. Derwentwater said fervently.</p> + +<p>"Do you really, really think so?" she said with a wondering look. She +was surprised, but pleased too. "I don't think you would care for it +without the Contessa's; but, perhaps——" Then she looked round her with +a reflective look. "What can I do? There is no piano, and then these +people would hear." After this a sudden idea struck her. She laughed +aloud like a child with sudden glee. "I don't suppose it would be any +harm! You belong to the house—and then there is Marietta. Yes! Come!" +she cried suddenly, rushing up the great staircase and waving her hand +impatiently, beckoning them to follow. "Come quick, quick," she cried; +"I hear some one coming," and flew upstairs. They followed her, Mr. +Derwentwater passing Jock, who hung back a little, and did not know<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_394" id="Page_394">[Pg 394]</a></span> +what to think of this adventure. "Come quick," she cried, darting along +the dimly-lighted corridor with a laugh that rang lightly along like the +music to which her steps were set. "Oh, come in, come in. They will +hear, but they will not know where it comes from." The young men +stupefied, hesitating, followed her. They found themselves among all the +curiosities and luxuries of the Contessa's boudoir. And in a moment Bice +had placed herself at the little piano which was placed across one of +the corners, its back covered with a wonderful piece of Eastern +embroidery which would have invited Derwentwater's attention had he been +able to fix that upon anything but Bice. As it was, he gave a half +regard to these treasures. He would have examined them all with the +devotion of a connoisseur but for her presence, which exercised a spell +still more subtle than that of art.</p> + +<p>The sound of the singing penetrated vaguely even into the drawing-room, +where the Contessa, startled, rose from her seat much earlier than +usual. Lucy, who attended her dutifully upstairs according to her usual +custom, was dismayed beyond measure by seeing Jock and his tutor issue +from that door. Bice came with them, with an air of excitement and +triumphant satisfaction. She had been singing, and the inspiration and +applause had gone to her head. She met the ladies not with the air of a +culprit, but in all the boldness of innocence. "They like to hear me, +even by myself," she cried; "they have listened, as if I had been an +angel." And she clapped her hands with almost childish pleasure.</p> + +<p>"Perhaps they think you are," said the Contessa, who shook her head, yet +smiled with sympathy. "You must not say to these messieurs below that +you have<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_395" id="Page_395">[Pg 395]</a></span> been in my room. Oh, I know the confidences of a smoking-room! +You must not brag, <i>mes amis</i>. For Bice does not understand the +<i>convenances</i>, nor remember that this is England, where people meet only +in the drawing-room."</p> + +<p>"Divine forgetfulness!" murmured Derwentwater. Jock, for his part, +turned his back with a certain sense of shame. He had liked it, but he +had not thought it right. The room altogether, with its draperies and +mysteries, had conveyed to him a certain intoxication as of wrong-doing. +Something that was dangerous was in the air of it. It was seductive, it +was fascinating; he had felt like a man banished when Bice had started +from the piano and bidden them "Go away; go away!" in the same laughing +tone in which she had bidden them come. But the moment he was outside +the threshold his impulse was to escape—to rush out of sight—and +obliterate even from his own mind the sense that he had been there. To +meet the Contessa, and still more his sister, full in the face, was a +shock to all his susceptibilities. He turned his back upon them, and but +that his fellow-culprit made a momentary stand, would have fled away. +Lucy partook of Jock's feeling. It wounded her to see him at that door. +She gave him a glance of mingled reproach and pity; a vague sense that +these were siren-women dangerous to all mankind stole into her heart.</p> + +<p>But Lucy was destined to a still greater shock. The party from the +smoking-room was late in breaking up. The sound of their steps and +voices as they came upstairs roused Lady Randolph, not from sleep—for +she had been unable to sleep—but from the confused maze of +recollections and efforts to think which distracted her placid soul. She +was not made for these<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_396" id="Page_396">[Pg 396]</a></span> agitations. The constitution of her mind was +overset altogether. The moment that suspicion and distrust came in there +was no further strength in her. She was lying not thinking so much as +remembering stray words and looks which drifted across her memory as +across a dim mirror, with a meaning in them which she did not grasp. She +was not clever. She could not put this and that together with the +dolorous skill which some women possess. It is a skill which does not +promote the happiness of the possessor, but perhaps it is scarcely more +happy to stand in the midst of a vague mass of suggestions without being +able to make out what they mean, which was Lucy's case. She did not +understand her husband's sudden excitement; what it had to do with Bice, +with the Contessa, with her own resolution and plans she could not tell, +but felt vaguely that many things deeply concerning her were in the air, +and was unhappy in the confusion of her thoughts. For a long time after +the sounds of various persons coming upstairs had died away, Lucy lay +silent waiting for her husband's appearance—but at last unable to bear +the vague wretchedness of her thoughts any longer, got up and put on a +dressing-gown and stole out into the dark gallery to go to the nursery +to look at her boy asleep, which was her best anodyne. The lights were +all extinguished except the faint ray that came from the nursery door, +and Lucy went softly towards that, anxious to disturb little Tom by no +sound. As she did so a door suddenly opened, sending a glare of light +into the dark corridor. It was the door of the Contessa's room, and with +the light came Sir Tom, the Contessa herself appearing after him on the +threshold. She was still in her dinner dress, and her appearance +remained long impressed upon<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_397" id="Page_397">[Pg 397]</a></span> Lucy's imagination like a photograph +without colour, in shadow and light. She gave Sir Tom a little packet +apparently of letters, and then she held out both hands to him, which he +took in his. Something seemed to flash through Lucy's heart like a +knife, quivering like the "pale death" of the poet, in sight and sense. +The sudden surprise and pang of it was such for a moment that she seemed +turned into stone, and stood gazing like a spectre in her white flowing +dress, her face more white, her eyes and mouth open in the misery and +trouble of the moment. Then she stole back softly into her room—her +head throbbing, her heart beating—and buried her face in her pillow and +closed her eyes. Even baby could not soothe her in this unlooked-for +pang. And then she heard his step come slowly along the gallery. How was +she to look at him? how listen to him in the shock of such an +extraordinary discovery? She took refuge in a semblance of sleep.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXIX" id="CHAPTER_XXXIX"></a>CHAPTER XXXIX.</h2> + +<h3>LUCY'S DISCOVERY.</h3> + + +<p>When it happens to an innocent and simple soul to find out suddenly at a +stroke the falsehood of some one upon whose truth the whole universe +depends, the effect is such as perhaps has never been put forth by any +attempt at psychological investigation. When it happens to a great mind, +we have Hamlet with all the world in ruins round him—all other thoughts +as of revenge or ambition are but secondary and spasmodic, since neither +revenge nor advancement can put together<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_398" id="Page_398">[Pg 398]</a></span> again the works of life or +make man delight him, or woman either. But Lady Randolph was not a +Hamlet. She had no genius, nor even a great intellect to be +unhinged—scarcely mind enough to understand how it was that the glory +had paled out of earth and sky, and all the world seemed different when +she rose from her uneasy bed next morning, pale, after a night without +sleep, in which she had not been able to have even the relief of +restlessness, but had lain motionless, without even a sigh or tear, so +crushed by the unexpected blow that she could neither fathom nor +understand what had happened to her. She was too pure herself to jump at +any thought of gross infidelity. She felt she knew not what—that the +world had gone to pieces—that she did not know how to shape it again +into anything—that she could not look into her husband's face, or +command her voice to speak to him, for shame of the thought that he had +failed in truth. Lucy felt somehow as if she were the culprit. She was +ashamed to look him in the face. She made an early visit to the nursery, +and stayed there pretending various little occupations until she heard +Sir Tom go down stairs. He had returned so much to the old ways, and now +that the house was full, and there were other people to occupy the +Contessa, had shown so clearly (as Lucy had thought) that he was pleased +to be liberated from his attendance upon her, that the cloud that had +risen between them had melted away; and indeed, for some time back, it +had been Lucy who was the Contessa's stay and support, a change at which +Sir Tom had sometimes laughed. All had been well between the husband and +wife during the early part of the season parliamentary, the beginning of +their life in London. Sir Tom had been much engrossed with the cares of +public life,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_399" id="Page_399">[Pg 399]</a></span> but he had been delightful to Lucy, whose faith in him and +his new occupations was great. And it was exhilarating to think that the +Contessa had secured that little house in Mayfair for her own campaign, +and that something like a new honeymoon was about to begin for the pair, +whose happiness had seemed for a moment to tremble in the balance. Lucy +had been looking forward to the return to London with a more bright and +conscious anticipation of well-being than she had ever experienced. In +the first outset of life happiness seems a necessary of existence. It is +calculated upon without misgiving; it is simple nature, beyond question. +But when the natural "of course" has once been broken, it is with a +warmer glow of content that we see the prospect once more stretching +before us bright as at first and more assured. This is how Lucy had been +regarding her life. It was not so simple, so easy as it once had been, +but the happiness to which she was looking forward, and which she had +already partially entered into possession of, was all the more sweet and +dear, that she had known, or fancied herself about to know, the loss and +absence of it. Now, in a moment, all that fair prospect, that blessed +certainty, was gone. The earth was cut away from under her feet; she +felt everything to be tottering, falling round her, and nothing in all +the universe to lay hold of to prop herself up; for when the pillars of +the world are thus unrooted the heaving of the earthquake and the +falling of the ruins impart a certain vertigo and giddy instability even +to heaven.</p> + +<p>Fletcher, Lucy's maid, who was usually discreet enough, waited upon her +mistress that morning with a certain air of importance, and of knowing +something which she was bursting with eagerness to tell, such as<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_400" id="Page_400">[Pg 400]</a></span> must +have attracted Lady Randolph's attention in any other circumstances. But +Lucy was far too much occupied with what was in her own mind to observe +the perturbation of the maid, who consequently had no resource, since +her mistress would not question her, than to introduce herself the +subject on which she was so anxious to utter her mind. She began by +inquiring if her ladyship had heard the music last night. "The music?" +Lucy said.</p> + +<p>"Oh, my lady, haven't you heard what a singer Miss Beachy has turned +out?" Fletcher cried.</p> + +<p>Lucy, to whom all this seemed dim and far away as if it had happened +years ago, answered with a faint smile—"Yes, she has a lovely voice."</p> + +<p>"It is not my place," said Fletcher, "being only a servant, to make +remarks; but, my lady, if I might make so bold, it do seem to the like +of us an 'orrible thing to take advantage of a young lady like your +ladyship that thinks no harm."</p> + +<p>"You should not make such remarks," said Lucy, roused a little.</p> + +<p>"No, my lady; but still a woman is a woman, even though but a servant. I +said to Mrs. Freshwater I was sure your ladyship would never sanction +it. I never thought that of Miss Beachy, I will allow. I always said she +was a nice young lady; but evil communications, my lady—we all know +what the Bible says. Gentlemen upstairs in her room and her singing to +them, and laughing and talking like as no housemaid in the house as +valued her character would do——"</p> + +<p>"Fletcher," said Lucy, "you must say no more about this. It was Mr. Jock +and Mr. Derwentwater only who were with Miss Bice—and with my +permission," she added after a moment, "as he is going away to-morrow." +Such deceits are so easy to learn.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_401" id="Page_401">[Pg 401]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh-oh!" Miss Fletcher cried, with a quaver in her voice. "I beg your +pardon, my lady; I'm sure—I thought—there must be something +underneath, and that Miss Beachy would never—— And when she was down +with Sir Thomas in the study it would be the same, my lady?" the woman +said.</p> + +<p>"With Sir Thomas in the study!" The words went vaguely into Lucy's mind. +It had not seemed possible to increase the confusion and misery in her +brain, but this produced a heightening of it, a sort of wave of +bewilderment and pain greater than before, a sense of additional +giddiness and failing. She gave a wave of her hand and said something, +she scarcely knew what, which silenced Fletcher; and then she went down +stairs to the new world. She did not go to the nursery even, as was her +wont; her heart turned from little Tom. She felt that to look at him +would be more than she could bear. There was no deceit in him, no +falsehood—as yet; but perhaps when he grew up he would cheat her too. +He would pretend to love her and betray her trust; he would kiss her, +and then go away and scoff at her; he would smile, and smile, and be a +villain. Such words were not in Lucy's mind, and it was altogether out +of nature that she should even receive the thought: which made it all +the more terrible when it was poured into her soul. And it cannot be +told what discoveries she seemed to make even in the course of that +morning in this strange condition of her mind. There was a haze over +everything, but yet there was an enlightenment even in the haze. She saw +in her little way, as Hamlet saw the falsehood of his courtiers, his +gallant young companions, and the schemes of Polonius, and even Ophelia +in the plot to trap him. She saw how false all these people were in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_402" id="Page_402">[Pg 402]</a></span> +their civilities, in their extravagant thanks and compliments to her as +they went away; for the Easter recess was just over, and everybody was +going. The mother and her daughters said to her, "Such a delightful +visit, dear Lady Randolph!" with kisses of farewell and wreathed smiles; +and she perceived, somehow by a sort of second sight, that they added to +each other, "Oh, what a bore it has been; nobody worth meeting," and +"how thankful I am it's over!" which was indeed what Miss Minnie and +Miss Edith said. If Lucy had seen a little deeper she would have known +that this too was a sort of conventional falsity which the young ladies +said to each other, according to the fashion of the day, without any +meaning to speak of; but one must have learned a great many lessons +before one comes to that.</p> + +<p>Then Jock, who had been woke up in quite a different way, took leave of +MTutor, that god of his old idolatry, without being able to refrain from +some semblance of the old absorbing affection.</p> + +<p>"I am so sorry you are not coming with me, old fellow," Mr. Derwentwater +said.</p> + +<p>Jock replied, "So am I," with an effort, as if firing a parting volley +in honour of his friend: but then turned gloomily with an expression of +relief. "I'm glad he's gone, Lucy."</p> + +<p>"Then you did not want to go with him, Jock?"</p> + +<p>"I wouldn't have gone for anything. I've just got to that—that I can't +bear him," cried Jock.</p> + +<p>And Lucy, in the midst of the ruins, felt her head go round: though here +too it was the falsehood that was fictitious, had she but known. It is +not, however, in the nature of such a shock that any of those +alleviating circumstances which modify the character of human sentiment +can be taken into account. Lucy had taken<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_403" id="Page_403">[Pg 403]</a></span> everything for gospel in the +first chapter of existence; she had believed what everybody said; and +like every other human soul, after such a discovery as she had made, she +went to the opposite extremity now—not wittingly, not voluntarily—but +the pillars of the earth were shaken, and nothing stood fast.</p> + +<p>They went up to town next day. In the meantime she had little or no +intercourse with the Contessa, who was preparing for the journey and +absorbed in letter-writing, making known to everybody whom she could +think of, the existence of the little house in Mayfair. It is doubtful +whether she so much as observed any difference in the demeanour of her +hostess, having in fact the most unbounded confidence in Lucy, whom she +did not believe capable of any such revulsion of feeling. Bice was more +clear-sighted, but she thought Milady was displeased with her own +proceedings, and sought no further for a cause. And the only thing the +girl could do was to endeavour by all the little devices she could think +of to show the warm affection she really felt for Lucy—a method which +made the heart of Lucy more and more sick with that sense of falsehood +which sometimes rose in her, almost to the height of passion. A woman +who had ever learned to use harsh words, or to whose mind it had ever +been possible to do or say anything to hurt another, would no doubt have +burst forth upon the girl with some reproach or intimation of doubt +which might have cleared the matter so far as Bice went. But Lucy had no +such words at her command. She could not say anything unkind. It was not +in her. She could be silent, indeed, but not even that, so far as to +"hurt the feelings" of her companion. The effect, therefore, was only +that Lucy laboured to maintain a little artificial<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_404" id="Page_404">[Pg 404]</a></span> conversation, which +in its turn reacted upon her mind, showing that even in herself there +was the same disposition to insincerity which she had begun to discover +in the world. She could say nothing to Bice about the matters which a +little while before, when all was well, she had grieved over and +objected to. Now she had nothing to say on such subjects. That the girl +should be set up to auction, that she should put forth all those arts in +which she had been trained, to attract and secure young Montjoie, or any +like him, were things which had passed beyond her sphere. To think of +them rendered her heart more sick, her head more giddy. But if Bice +married some one whom she did not love, that was not so bad as to think +that perhaps she herself all this time had been living with, and loving, +in sacred trust and faith, a man who even by her side was full of +thoughts unknown to her, given to another. Sometimes Lucy closed her +eyes in a sort of sick despair, feeling everything about her go round +and round. But she said nothing to throw any light upon the state of her +being. Sir Tom felt a little gravity—a little distance in his wife; but +he himself was much occupied with a new and painful subject of thought. +And Jock observed nothing at all, being at a stage when man (or boy) is +wholly possessed with affairs of his own. He had his troubles, too. He +was not easy about that breach with his master now that they were +separated. When Bice was kind to him a gleam of triumph, mingled with +pity, made him remorseful towards that earlier friend; and when she was +unkind a bitter sense of fellowship turned Jock's thoughts towards that +sublime ideal of masculine friendship which is above the lighter loves +of women. How can a boy think of his sister when absorbed in such a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_405" id="Page_405">[Pg 405]</a></span> +mystery of his own?—even if he considered his sister at all as a person +whom it was needful to think about—which he did not, Lucy being herself +one of the pillars of the earth to his unopened eyes.</p> + +<p>All this, however, made no difference in Lucy's determination. She wrote +to Mr. Rushton that very morning, after this revolution in her soul, to +instruct him as to her intentions in respect to Bice, and to her other +trustee in London to request him to see her immediately on her arrival +in Park Lane. Nothing should be changed in that matter, for why, she +said to herself, should Bice suffer because Sir Tom was untrue? It +seemed to her that there was more reason than ever why she should rouse +herself and throw off her inaction. No doubt there were many people whom +she could make, if not happy, yet comfortable. It was comfortable +(everybody said) to have enough of money—to be well off. Lucy had no +experience of what it was to be without it. She thought to herself she +would like to try, to have only what she actually wanted, to cook the +food for her little family, to nurse little Tom all by herself, to live +as the cottagers lived. There was in her mind no repugnance to any of +the details of poverty. Her wealth was an accident; it was the habit of +her race to be poor, and it seemed to Lucy that she would be happier +could she shake off now all those external circumstances which had +grown, like everything else, into falsehoods, giving an appearance of +well-being which did not exist. But other people thought it well to have +money, and it was her duty to give it. A kind of contempt rose within +her for all that withheld her previously. To avoid her duty because it +would displease Sir Tom—what was that but falsehood too? All was +falsehood, only she had never seen it before.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_406" id="Page_406">[Pg 406]</a></span></p> + +<p>They reached town in the afternoon of a sweet April day, the sky aglow +with a golden sunset, against which the trees in the park stood out with +their half-developed buds: and all the freshness of the spring was in +the long stretches of green, and the softened jubilee of sound to which +somehow, as the air warms towards summer, the voices of the world +outside tune themselves. The Contessa and Bice in great spirits and +happiness, like two children home from school, had left the Randolph +party at the railway, to take possession of the little house in Mayfair. +They had both waved their hands from the carriage window and called out, +"Be sure you come and see us," as they drove away. "You will come +to-night," they had stipulated with Sir Tom and Jock. It was like a new +toy which filled them with glee. Could it be possible that those two +adventurers going off to their little temporary home with smiles so +genuine, with so simple a delight in their new beginning, were not, in +their strange way, innocent, full of guile and shifts as one was, and +the other so apt a scholar? Lucy would have joined in all this pleasure +two days ago, but she could not now. She went home to her luxurious +house, where all was ready, as if she had not been absent an hour. How +wonderfully wealth smooths away the inconveniences of change! and how +little it has to do, Lucy thought, with the comfort of the soul! No need +for any exertion on her part, any scuffling for the first arrival, any +trouble of novelty. She came from the Hall to London without any sense +of change. Had she been compelled to superintend the arrangement of her +house, to make it habitable, to make it pretty, that would have done her +good. But the only thing for her to do was to see Mr. Chervil, her +trustee, who waited upon<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_407" id="Page_407">[Pg 407]</a></span> her according to her request, and who, after +the usual remonstrances, took her instructions about the gift to Bice +very unwillingly, but still with a forced submission. "If I cannot make +you see the folly of it, Lady Randolph, and if Sir Thomas does not +object, I don't know what more is to be said." "There is nothing more to +be said," Lucy said, with a smile; but there was this difficulty in the +proceeding which she had not thought of, that Bice's name all this time +was unknown to her—Beatrice di Forno-Populo, she supposed, but the +Contessa had never called her so, and it was necessary to be exact, Mr. +Chervil said. He hailed this as an occasion of delay. He was not so +violent as he had been on previous occasions when Lucy was young; and he +did not, like Mr. Rushton, assume the necessity of speaking to Sir Tom. +Mr. Chervil was a London solicitor, and knew very little about Sir Tom. +But he was glad to seize upon anything that was good for a little delay.</p> + +<p>After this interview was over it was a mingled vexation and relief to +Lucy to see the Dowager drive up to the door. Lady Randolph the elder +was always in London from the first moment possible. She preferred the +first bursting of the spring in the squares and parks. She liked to see +her friends arrive by degrees, and to feel that she had so far the +better of them. She came in, full as she always was of matter, with a +thousand things to say. "I have come to stay to dinner, if you will have +me," she said, "for of course Tom will be going out in the evening. They +are always so glad to get back to their life." And it was, perhaps, a +relief to have Lady Randolph to dinner, to be saved from the purely +domestic party, to which Jock scarcely added any new element; but it was +hard for Lucy to encounter<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_408" id="Page_408">[Pg 408]</a></span> even the brief questionings which were +addressed to her in the short interval before dinner. "So you have got +rid of that woman at last," Lady Randolph said; "I hear she has got a +house in Mayfair."</p> + +<p>"Yes, Aunt Randolph, if you mean the Contessa," said Lucy.</p> + +<p>"And that she intends to make a bold <i>coup</i> to get the girl off her +hands. These sort of people so often succeed: I shouldn't wonder if she +were to succeed. I always said the girl would be handsome, but I think +she might have waited another year."</p> + +<p>To this Lucy made no reply, and it was necessary for the Dowager to +carry on the conversation, so to speak, at her own cost.</p> + +<p>"I hope most earnestly, Lucy," she said, "that now you have got clear of +them you will not mix yourself up with them again. You were placed in an +uneasy position, very difficult to get out of, I will allow; but now +that you have shaken them off, and they have proved they can get on +without you, don't, I entreat you, mix yourself up with them again."</p> + +<p>Lucy could not keep the blood from mounting, and colouring her face. She +had always spoken of the Contessa calmly before. She tried to keep her +composure now. "Dear Aunt Randolph, I have not shaken them off. They +have gone away of themselves, and how can I refuse to see them? There is +to be a party here for them on the 26th."</p> + +<p>"Oh, my dear, my dear, that was very imprudent! I had hoped you would +keep clear of them in London. It is one thing showing kindness to an old +friend in the country, and it is quite another——"</p> + +<p>Here Lucy made an imperative gesture, almost commanding silence. Sir Tom +was coming into the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_409" id="Page_409">[Pg 409]</a></span> room. She was seated in the great bay window +against the early twilight, the soft radiance of which dazzled the eyes +of the elder lady, and prevented her from perceiving her nephew's +approach. But Lady Randolph, before she rose to meet him, gave a +startled look at Lucy. "Have you found it out, then?" she said +involuntarily, in her great surprise.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XL" id="CHAPTER_XL"></a>CHAPTER XL.</h2> + +<h3>THE DOWAGER'S EXPLANATION.</h3> + + +<p>The Dowager was a woman far more clever than Lucy, who knew the world. +And she was apt perhaps, instead of missing the meaning of the facts +around her, to put too much significance in them. Now, when the little +party met at dinner, Lady Randolph saw in the faces of both husband and +wife more than was there, though much was there. Sir Tom was more grave +than became a man who had returned into life, as his aunt said, and was +looking forward to resuming the better part of existence—the House, the +clubs, the quick throb of living which is in London. His countenance was +full of thought, and there was both trouble and perplexity in it, but +not the excitement which the Dowager supposed she found there, and those +signs of having yielded to an evil influence which eyes accustomed to +the world are so ready to discover. Lucy for her part was pale and +silent. She had little to say, and scarcely addressed her husband at +all. Lady Randolph, and that was very natural, took those signs of heart +sickness for tokens of complete enlighten<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_410" id="Page_410">[Pg 410]</a></span>ment, for the passion of a +woman who had entered upon that struggle with another woman for a man's +love which, even when the man is her husband, has something degrading in +it. There had been a disclosure, a terrible scene, no doubt, a stirring +up of all the passions, Lady Randolph thought. No doubt that was the +reason why the Contessa had loosed her clutches, and left the house free +of her presence; but Lucy was still trembling after the tempest, and had +not learned to take any pleasure in her victory. This was the conclusion +of the woman of the world.</p> + +<p>The dinner was not a lengthy one, and the ladies went upstairs again, +with a suppressed constraint, each anxious to know what the other was on +her guard not to tell. They sat alone expectant for some time, making +conversation, taking their coffee, listening, and watching each how the +other listened, for the coming of the gentlemen, or rather for Sir Tom; +for Jock, in his boyish insignificance, counted for little. The trivial +little words that passed between them during this interval were charged +with a sort of moral electricity, and stung and tingled in the too +conscious silence. At length, after some time had elapsed: "I am glad I +came," said Lady Randolph, "to sit with you, Lucy, this first evening; +for of course Tom cannot resist, the first evening in town, the charms +of his club."</p> + +<p>"His club! Oh, I think he has gone to see the house," Lucy said. "He +promised——; it is not very far off."</p> + +<p>"The house? You mean that woman's house. Lucy, I have no patience with +you any more than I have with Tom. Why don't you put a stop to it? why +don't you—for I suppose you have found out what sort of a woman she is +by this time, and why she came here?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_411" id="Page_411">[Pg 411]</a></span></p> + +<p>"She came——to introduce Bice and establish her in the world," Lucy +said, in a faint tone. "Oh! Aunt Randolph, please do not let us discuss +it! It is not what I like to think of. Bice will be sacrificed to the +first rich man who asks her; or at least that is what the Contessa +means."</p> + +<p>"My dear Lucy," said the Dowager, calmly, "that is reasonable enough. I +wish the Contessa meant no worse than that. Most girls are persuaded to +marry a rich man if he asks them. I don't think so much of that. But it +will not be so easy as she thinks," the Dowager added. "It is true that +beauty does much—but not everything; and a girl in that position, with +no connections, or, at least, none that she would not be better +without——"</p> + +<p>Lucy's attention strayed from this question, which once had been so +important, and which now seemed so secondary; but the conversation must +be maintained. She said at random: "She has a beautiful voice."</p> + +<p>"Has she? And the Contessa herself sings very well. That will no doubt +be another attraction," said Lady Randolph, in her impartial way. "But +the end of it all is, who will she get to go, and who will invite them? +It is vain to lay snares if there is nothing to be caught."</p> + +<p>"They will be invited—here," said Lucy, faltering a little. "I told you +I am to have a great gathering on the 26th."</p> + +<p>"I could not believe my ears. You!—and she is to appear here for the +first time to make her <i>début</i>. Good heavens, Lucy! What can I say to +you—<i>that</i> girl!"</p> + +<p>"Why not, Aunt Randolph?" said Lucy (oh, what does it matter—what does +it matter, that she should<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_412" id="Page_412">[Pg 412]</a></span> make so much fuss about it? she was saying +in herself); "I have always liked Bice, and she has been very good to +little Tom."</p> + +<p>"Well," cried the angry lady, forgetting herself, and smiling the fierce +smile of wrath, "there is no doubt that it is perfectly appropriate—the +very thing that ought to happen if we lived according to the rules of +nature, without thought of conventionalities and decorums, and so +forth—oh, perfectly appropriate! If you don't object I know no one who +has any right to say a word."</p> + +<p>Even now Lucy was scarcely roused enough to be surprised by the +vehemence of these words. "Why should I object?" she said; "or why +should any one say a word?" Her calm, which was almost indifference, +excited Lady Randolph more and more.</p> + +<p>"You are either superhuman," she said, with exasperation, "or you +are—— Lucy, I don't know what words to use. You put one out of every +reckoning. You are like nobody I ever knew before. Why should you +object? Why, good heavens! you are the only person that has any +right—— Who should object if not you?"</p> + +<p>"Aunt Randolph," said Lucy, rousing herself with an effort, "would you +please tell me plainly what you mean? I am not clever. I can't make +things out. I have always liked Bice. To save her from being made a +victim I am going to give her some of the money under my father's +will—and if I could give her—— What is the matter?" she cried, +stopping short suddenly, and in spite of herself growing pale.</p> + +<p>Lady Randolph flung up her hands in dismay. She gave something like a +shriek as she exclaimed: "And Tom is letting you do this?" with horror +in her tone.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_413" id="Page_413">[Pg 413]</a></span></p> + +<p>"He has promised that he will not oppose," Lucy said; "but why do you +speak so, and look so? Bice—has done no harm."</p> + +<p>"Oh, no; Bice has done no harm," cried Lady Randolph bitterly; "nothing, +except being born, which is harm enough, I think. But do you mean to +tell me, Lucy, that Tom—a man of honour, notwithstanding all his +vagaries—Tom——lets you do this and never says a word? Oh, it is too +much. I have always stood by him. I have been his support when every one +else failed. But this is too much, that he should put the burden upon +you—that he should make <i>you</i> responsible for this girl of his——"</p> + +<p>"Aunt Randolph!" cried Lucy, rising up quickly and confronting the angry +woman. She put up her hand with a serious dignity that was doubly +impressive from her usual simpleness. "What is it you mean? This girl of +his! I do not understand. She is not much more than a child. You cannot, +cannot suppose that Bice—that it is she—that she is——" Here she +suddenly covered her face with her hands. "Oh, you put things in my mind +that I am ashamed to think of," Lucy cried.</p> + +<p>"I mean," said Lady Randolph, who in the heat of this discussion had got +beyond her own power of self-restraint, "what everybody but yourself +must have seen long ago. That woman is a shameless woman, but even she +would not have had the effrontery to bring any other girl to your house. +It was more shameless, I think, to bring that one than any other; but +she would not think so. Oh, cannot you see it even now? Why, the +likeness might have told you; that was enough. The girl is Tom's girl. +She is your husband's——"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_414" id="Page_414">[Pg 414]</a></span></p> + +<p>Lucy uncovered her face, which was perfectly colourless, with eyes +dilated and wide open. "What?" she whispered, looking intently into Lady +Randolph's face.</p> + +<p>"His own child—his—daughter—though I am bitterly ashamed to say it," +the Dowager said.</p> + +<p>For a moment everything seemed to waver and turn round in Lucy's eyes, +as if the walls were making a circuit with her in giddy space. Then she +came to her feet with the sensation of a shock, and found herself +standing erect, with the most amazing incomprehensible sense of relief. +Why should she have felt relieved by this communication which filled her +companion with horror? A softer air seemed to breathe about Lucy, she +felt solid ground under her feet. For the first moment there seemed +nothing but ease and sweet soothing and refreshment in what she heard.</p> + +<p>"His—daughter?" she said. Her mind went back with a sudden flash upon +the past, gathering up instantaneously pieces of corroborative evidence, +things which she had not noted at the moment, which she had forgotten, +yet which came back nevertheless when they were needed: the Contessa's +mysterious words about Bice's parentage, her intimation that Lucy would +one day be glad to have befriended her: Sir Tom's sudden agitation when +she had told him of Bice's English descent: finally, and most conclusive +of all, touching Lucy with a most unreasonable conviction and bringing a +rush of warm feeling to her heart, Baby's adoption of the girl and +recommendation of her to his mother. Was it not the voice of nature, the +voice of God? Lucy had no instinctive sense of recoil, no horror of the +discovery. She did not realise the guilt involved, nor was she painfully +struck, as some women might have been, by this evidence of her husband's +previous life<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_415" id="Page_415">[Pg 415]</a></span> "If it is so," she said quietly, "there is more reason +than ever, Aunt Randolph, that I should do everything I can for Bice. It +never came into my mind before. I see now—various things: but I do not +see why it should—make me unhappy," she added with a faint smile which +brought the water to her eyes; "it must have been—long before I knew +him. Will you tell me who was her mother? Was she a foreigner? Did she +die long ago?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, Lucy, Lucy," cried Lady Randolph, "is it possible you don't see? +Who would take all that trouble about her? Who would burden themselves +with another woman's girl that was no concern of theirs? Who +would—can't you see? can't you see?"</p> + +<p>There came over Lucy's face a hot and feverish flush. She grew red to +her hair, agitation and shame took possession of her; something seemed +to throb and swell as if it would burst in her forehead. She could not +speak. She could not look at her informant for shame of the revelation +that had been made. All the bewildered sensations which for the moment +had been stilled in her breast sprang up again with a feverish whirl and +tumult. She tottered back to the chair on which she had been sitting and +dropped down upon it, holding by it as if that were the only thing in +the world secure and steadfast. It was only now that Lady Randolph +seemed to awake to the risks and dangers of this bold step she had +taken. She had roused the placid soul at last. To what strange agony, to +what revenge might she have roused it? She had looked for tears and +misery, and fleeting rage and mad jealousy. But Lucy's look of utter +giddiness and overthrow alarmed her more than she could say.</p> + +<p>"Lucy! Oh, my love, you must recollect, as you<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_416" id="Page_416">[Pg 416]</a></span> say, that it was all +long before he knew you—that there was no injury to you!"</p> + +<p>Lucy made a movement with her hand to bar further discussion, but she +could not say anything. She pointed Lady Randolph to her chair, and made +that mute prayer for silence, for no more. But in such a moment of +excitement there is nothing that is more difficult to grant than this.</p> + +<p>"Oh, Lucy," the Dowager cried, "forgive me! Perhaps I ought not to have +said anything. Oh, my dear, if you will but think what a painful +position it was for me. To see you so unsuspicious, ready to do +anything, and even Tom taking advantage of you. It is not more than a +week since I found it all out, and how could I keep silence? Think what +a painful position it was for me."</p> + +<p>Lucy made no reply. There seemed nothing but darkness round her. She put +out her hand imploring that no more might be said; and though there was +a great deal more said, she scarcely made out what it was. Her brain +refused to take in any more. She suffered herself to be kissed and +blessed, and said good-night to, almost mechanically. And when the elder +lady at last went away, Lucy sat where Lady Randolph had left her, she +did not know how long, gazing woefully at the ruins of that crumbled +world which had all fallen to pieces about her. All was to pieces now. +What was she and what was the other? Why should she be here and not the +other? Two, were there?—two with an equal claim upon him? Was +everything false, even the law, even the external facts which made her +Tom's wife. He had another wife and a child. He was two, he was not one +true man; one for baby and her, another for Bice and the Contessa. When +she heard her husband<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_417" id="Page_417">[Pg 417]</a></span> coming in Lucy fled upstairs like a hunted thing, +and took refuge in the nursery where little Tom was sleeping. Even her +bourgeoise horror of betraying herself, of letting the servants suspect +that anything was wrong, had no effect upon her to-night.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLI" id="CHAPTER_XLI"></a>CHAPTER XLI.</h2> + +<h3>SEVERED.</h3> + + +<p>Sir Tom came home later, so much later than he intended that he entered +the house with such a sense of compunction as had not visited him since +the days when the alarm of being caught was a part of the pleasure. He +had no fear of a lecture from Lucy, whose gifts were not of that kind; +but he was partially conscious of having neglected her on her first +night in town, as well as having sinned against her in matters more +serious. And he did not know how to explain his detention at the +Contessa's new house, or the matters which he had been discussing there. +It was a sensible relief to him not to find her in any of the +sitting-rooms, all dark and closed up, except his own room, in which +there was no trace of her. She had gone to bed, which was so sensible, +like Lucy's unexaggerated natural good sense: he smiled to +himself—though, at the same time, a wondering question within himself, +whether she felt at all, passed through his mind—a reflection full of +mingled disappointment and satisfaction. But when, a full hour after his +return, after a tranquil period of reflection, he went leisurely +upstairs, expecting to find her peacefully asleep, and found her not,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_418" id="Page_418">[Pg 418]</a></span> +nor any evidence that she had ever been there, a great wave of alarm +passed over the mind of Sir Tom. He paused confounded, looking at her +vacant place, startled beyond expression. "Lucy!" he cried, looking in +his dismay into every corner, into his own dressing-room, and even into +the large wardrobe where her dresses hung, like shells and husks, which +she had laid aside. And then he made an agitated pause, standing in the +middle of the room, not knowing what to think. It was by this time about +two in the morning; the middle of the night, according to Lucy. Where +could she have gone? Then he bethought himself with an immediate relief, +which was soon replaced by poignant anxiety, of the only possible reason +for her absence—a reason which would explain everything—little Tom. +When this thought occurred to him all the excitement that had been in +Sir Tom's mind disappeared in a moment, and he thought of nothing but +that baby lying, perhaps tossing uneasily, upon his little bed, his +mother watching over him; most sacred group on earth to him, who, +whatever his faults might be, loved them both dearly. He took a candle +in his hand and, stepping lightly, went up the stairs to the nursery +door. There was no sound of wailing within, no pitiful little cry to +tell the tale; all was still and dark. He tried the door softly, but it +would not open. Then another terror awoke, and for the moment took his +breath from him. What had happened to the child? Sir Tom suffered enough +at this moment to have expiated many sins. There came upon him a vision +of the child extended motionless upon his bed, and his mother by him +refusing to be comforted. What could it mean? The door looked as if hope +had departed. He knocked softly, yet imperatively, divided between<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_419" id="Page_419">[Pg 419]</a></span> the +horror of these thoughts and the gentle every-day sentiment which +forbade any noise at little Tom's door. It was some time before he got +any reply—a time which seemed to him interminable. Then he suddenly +heard Lucy's voice close to the door whispering. There had been no sound +of any footsteps. Had she been there all the time listening to all his +appeals and taking no notice?</p> + +<p>"Open the door," he said anxiously. "Speak to me. What is the matter? Is +he ill? Have you sent for the doctor? Let me in."</p> + +<p>"We are all shut up and settled for the night," said Lucy, through the +door.</p> + +<p>"Shut up for the night? Has he been very ill?" Sir Tom cried.</p> + +<p>"Oh, hush, you will wake him; no, not very ill: but I am going to stay +with him," said the voice inside with a quiver in it.</p> + +<p>"Lucy, what does this mean? You are concealing something from me. Have +you had the doctor? Good God, tell me. What is the matter? Can't I see +my boy?"</p> + +<p>"There is nothing—nothing to be alarmed about," said Lucy from within. +"He is asleep—he is—doing well. Oh! go to bed and don't mind us. I am +going to stay with him."</p> + +<p>"Don't mind you? that is so easy," he cried, with a broken laugh; then +the silence stealing to his heart, he cried out, "Is the child——?" But +Sir Tom could not say the word. He shivered, standing outside the closed +door. The mystery seemed incomprehensible, save on the score of some +great calamity. The bitterness of death went over him; but then he asked +himself what reason there could be to conceal from him any terrible +sudden blow. Lucy would have wanted<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_420" id="Page_420">[Pg 420]</a></span> him in such a case, not kept him +from her. In this dread moment of sudden panic he thought of everything +but the real cause, which made a more effectual barrier between them +than that closed door.</p> + +<p>"He is well enough now," said Lucy's voice, coming faintly out of the +darkness. "Oh, indeed, there is nothing the matter. Please go away; go +to bed. It is so late. I am going to stay with him."</p> + +<p>"Lucy," said Sir Tom, "I have never been shut out before. There is +something you are concealing from me. Let me see him and then you shall +do as you please."</p> + +<p>There was a little pause, and then slowly, reluctantly, Lucy opened the +door. She was still fully dressed as she had been for dinner. There was +not a particle of colour in her face. Her eyes had a scared look and +were surrounded by wide circles, as if the orbit had been hollowed out. +She stood aside to let him pass without a word. The room in which little +Tom slept was an inner room. There was scarcely any light in either, +nothing but the faint glimmer of the night-lamp. The sleeping-room was +hushed and full of the most tranquil quiet, the regular soft breathing +of the sleeping child in his little bed, and of his nurse by him, who +was as completely unaware as he of any intrusion. Sir Tom stole in and +looked at his boy, in the pretty baby attitude of perfect repose, his +little arms thrown up over his head. The anxiety vanished from his +heart, but not the troubled sense of something wrong, a mystery which +altogether baffled him. Mystery had no place here in this little +sanctuary of innocence. But what did it mean? He stole out again to +where Lucy stood, scared and silent in her white dress, with a jewelled +pendant at her neck which gleamed strangely in the half light.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_421" id="Page_421">[Pg 421]</a></span></p> + +<p>"He seems quite well now. What was it, and why are you so anxious?" he +asked. "Did the doctor——"</p> + +<p>"There was no need for a doctor. It is only—myself. I must stay with +him, he might want me——" And nobody else does, Lucy was about to say, +but pride and modesty restrained her. Her husband looked at her +earnestly. He perceived with a curious pang of astonishment that she +drew away from him, standing as far off as the limited space permitted +and avoiding his eye.</p> + +<p>"I don't understand it," he said; "there is something underneath; either +he has been more ill than you will let me know, or—there is something +else——"</p> + +<p>She gave him no answering look, made no wondering exclamation what could +there be else? as he had hoped; but replied hurriedly, as she had done +before, "I want to stay with him. I must stay with him for to-night——"</p> + +<p>It was with the most extraordinary sense of some change, which he could +not fathom or divine, that Sir Tom consented at last to leave his wife +in the child's room and go to his own. What did it mean? What had +happened to him, or was about to happen? He could not explain to himself +the aspect of the slight little youthful figure in her airy white dress, +with the diamonds still at her throat, careless of the hour and time, +standing there in the middle of the night, shrinking away from him, +forlorn and wakeful with her scared eyes. At this hour on ordinary +occasions Lucy was fast asleep. When she came to see her boy, if society +had kept her up late, it was in the ease of a dressing-gown, not with +any cold glitter of ornaments. And to see her shrink and draw herself +away in that strange repugnance from his touch and shadow confounded +him. He was not angry, as he might have been in another case, but +pitiful to the bottom of his<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_422" id="Page_422">[Pg 422]</a></span> heart. What could have come to Lucy? Half +a dozen times he turned back on his way to his room. What meaning could +she have in it? What could have happened to her? Her manifest shrinking +from him had terrified him, and filled his mind with confusion. But +controversy of any kind in the child's room at the risk of waking him in +the middle of the night was impossible, and no doubt, he tried to say to +himself, it must be some panic she had taken, some sudden alarm for the +child, justified by reasons which she did not like to explain to him +till the morning light restored her confidence. Women were so, he had +often heard: and the women he had known in his youth had certainly been +so—unreasoning creatures, subject to their imagination, taking fright +when no occasion for fright was, incapable of explaining. Lucy had never +been like this; but yet Lucy, though sensible, was a woman too, and if +it is not permitted to a woman to take an unreasoning panic about her +only child, she must be hardly judged indeed. Sir Tom was not a hard +judge. When he got over the painful sense that there must be something +more in this than met the eye, he was half glad to find that Lucy was +like other women—a dear little fool, not always sensible. He thought +almost the better of her for it, he said to himself. She would laugh +herself at her panic, whatever it was, when little Tom woke up fresh and +fair in the morning light.</p> + +<p>With this idea he did what he could to satisfy himself. The situation +was strange, unprecedented in his experience; but he had many subjects +of thought on his own part which returned to his mind as the surprise of +the moment calmed down. He had a great deal to think about. Old +difficulties which seemed to have passed away for long years were now +coming back again<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_423" id="Page_423">[Pg 423]</a></span> to embarrass and confuse him. "Our pleasant vices are +made the whips to scourge us," he said to himself. The past had come +back to him like the opening of a book, no longer merely frivolous and +amusing, as in the Contessa's talk, touched with all manner of light +emotions, but bitter, with tragedy in it, and death and desolation. +Death and life: he had heard enough of the dead to make them seem alive +again, and of the living to confuse their identity altogether; but he +had not yet succeeded in clearing up the doubt which had been thrown +into his mind. That question about Bice's parentage, "English on one +side," tormented him still. He had made again an attempt to discover the +truth, and he had been foiled. The probabilities seemed all in favour of +the solution which at the first word had presented itself to him; but +still there was a chance that it might not be so.</p> + +<p>His mind had been full and troubled enough, when he returned to the +still house, and thought with compunction how many thoughts which he +could not share with her he was bringing back to Lucy's side. He could +not trust them to her, or confide in her, and secure her help, as in +many other circumstances he would have done without hesitation. But he +could not do that in this case,—not so much because she was his wife, +as because she was so young, so innocent, so unaware of the +complications of existence. How could she understand the temptations +that assail a young man in the heyday of life, to whom many indulgences +appear permissible or venial, which to her limited and innocent soul +would seem unpardonable sins? To live even for a few years with a +stainless nature like that of Lucy, in whom there was not even so much +knowledge as would make the approaches of vice comprehensible, is a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_424" id="Page_424">[Pg 424]</a></span> new +kind of education to the most experienced of men. He had not believed it +to be possible to be so altogether ignorant of evil as he had found her; +and how could he explain to her and gain her indulgent consideration of +the circumstances which had led him into what in her vocabulary would be +branded with the name of vice? Sir Tom even now did not feel it to be +vice. It was unfortunate that it had so happened. He had been a fool. It +was almost inconceivable to him now how for the indulgence of a +momentary passion he could have placed himself in a position that might +one day be so embarrassing and disagreeable. He had not behaved ill at +the moment; it was the woman who had behaved ill. But how in the name of +wonder to explain all this to Lucy? Lucy, who was not conscious of any +reason why a man's code of morals should be different from that of a +woman! When Sir Tom returned to this painful and difficult subject, the +immediate question as to Lucy's strange conduct died from his mind. It +became more easy, by dint of repeating it, to believe that a mere +unreasonable panic about little Tom was the cause of her withdrawal. It +was foolish, but a loving and lovely foolishness which a man might do +more than forgive, which he might adore and smile at, as men love to do, +feeling that for a woman to be thus silly is desirable, a counterpoise +to the selfishness and want of feeling which are so common in the world. +But how to make this spotless creature understand that a man might slip +aside and yet not be a dissolute man, that he might be betrayed into +certain proceedings which would not perhaps bear the inspection of +severe judges, and yet be neither vicious nor heartless. This problem, +after he had considered it in every possible way, Sir Tom finally gave<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_425" id="Page_425">[Pg 425]</a></span> +up with a sort of despair. He must keep his secret within his own bosom. +He must contrive some means of doing what, in case his hypothesis was +right, would now be clearly a duty, without exciting any suspicion on +Lucy's part. That, he thought with a compunction, would be easy enough. +There was no one whom it would cost less trouble to deceive. With these +thoughts he went to sleep in the room which seemed strangely lonely +without her presence. Perhaps, however, it was not ungrateful to him to +be alone to think all those thoughts without the additional sense of +treachery which must have ensued had he thought them in her presence. +There was no treachery. He had been all along, he thought to himself, a +man somewhat sinned against in the matter. To be sure it was +wrong—according to all rules of morals, it was necessary to admit this; +but not more wrong, not so much wrong, as most other men had been. And, +granting the impropriety of that first step, he had nothing to reproach +himself with afterwards. In that respect he knew he had behaved both +liberally and honourably, though he had been deceived. But +how—how—good heavens!—explain this to Lucy? In the silence of her +room, where she was not, he actually laughed out to himself at the +thought; laughed with a sense of all impossibility beyond all laws or +power of reasoning. What miracle would make her understand? It would be +easier to move the solid earth than to make her understand.</p> + +<p>But it was altogether a very strange night—such a night as never had +been passed in that house before; and fearful things were about in the +darkness, ill dreams, strange shadows of trouble. When Sir Tom woke in +the morning and found no sign that his wife had been in the room or any +trace of her, there arose<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_426" id="Page_426">[Pg 426]</a></span> once more a painful apprehension in his mind. +He hurried half-dressed to the nursery to ask for news of the child, but +was met by the nurse with the most cheerful countenance, with little Tom +holding by her skirts, in high spirits, and fun of babble and glee.</p> + +<p>"He has had a good night, then?" the father said aloud, lifting the +little fellow to his shoulder.</p> + +<p>"An excellent night, Sir Thomas," the woman said, "and not a bit tired +with his journey, and so pleased to see all the carriages and the folks +passing."</p> + +<p>Sir Tom put the boy down with a cloud upon his face.</p> + +<p>"What was the cause, then, of Lady Randolph's anxiety last night?"</p> + +<p>"Anxiety, Sir Thomas! Oh no; her ladyship was quite pleased. She do +always say he is a regular little town-bird, and always better in +London. And so she said when I was putting of him to sleep. And he never +stirred, not from the moment he went off till six o'clock this morning, +the darling. I do think now, Sir Thomas, as we may hope he's taken hold +of his strength."</p> + +<p>Sir Tom turned away with a blank countenance. What did it mean, then? He +went back to his dressing-room, and completed his toilette without +seeing anything of Lucy. The nurse seemed quite unconscious of her +mistress's vigil by the baby's side. Where, then, had Lucy passed the +night, and why taken refuge in that nursery? Sir Tom grew pale, and saw +his own countenance white and full of trouble, as if it had been a +stranger's, in the glass. He hurried downstairs to the breakfast-room, +into which the sun was shining. There could not have been a more +cheerful sight. Some of the flowers brought up from the Hall were on the +table; there was a merry little fire burning; the usual pile of +newspapers were arranged for him by<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_427" id="Page_427">[Pg 427]</a></span> Williams's care, who felt himself a +political character too, and understood the necessity of seeing what the +country was thinking. Jock stood at the window with a book, reading and +watching the changeful movements outside. But the chair at the head of +the table was vacant. "Have you seen Lucy?" he said to Jock, with an +anxiety which he could scarcely disguise. At this moment she came in, +very guilty, very pale, like a ghost. She gave him no greeting, save a +sort of attempt at a smile and warning look, calling his attention to +Williams, who had followed her into the room with that one special dish +which the butler always condescended to place on the table. Sir Tom sat +down to his newspapers confounded, not knowing what to think or to say.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLII" id="CHAPTER_XLII"></a>CHAPTER XLII.</h2> + +<h3>LADY RANDOLPH WINDS UP HER AFFAIRS.</h3> + + +<p>Lucy contrived somehow to elude all private intercourse with her husband +that morning. She was not alone with him for a moment. To his question +about little Tom and her anxiety of last night she made as slight an +answer as possible. "Nurse tells me he is all right." "He is quite well +this morning," Lucy replied with quiet dignity, as if she did not limit +herself to nurse's observations. She talked a little to Jock about his +school and how long the holidays lasted, while Sir Tom retired behind +the shield of his newspapers. He did not get much benefit from them that +morning, or instruction as to what the country was thinking. He was so +much more curious to know what his wife<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_428" id="Page_428">[Pg 428]</a></span> was thinking, that simple +little girl who knew no evil. The most astute of men could not have +perplexed Sir Tom so much. It seemed to him that something must have +happened, but what? What was there that any one could betray to her? not +the discovery that he himself thought he had made. That was impossible. +If any one else had known it he surely must have known it. It could not +be anything so unlikely as that.</p> + +<p>But Lucy gave him no opportunity of inquiring. She went away to see the +housekeeper, to look after her domestic affairs; and then Sir Tom made +sure he should find her in the nursery, whither he took his way, when he +thought he had left sufficient time for her other occupations. But Lady +Randolph was not there. He heard from Fletcher, whose disturbed +countenance seemed to reflect his own, that her mistress had gone out. +She was the only one of the household who shared his certainty that +something had happened out of the ordinary routine. Fletcher knew that +her mistress had not undressed in the usual way; that she had not gone +to bed. Her own services had not been required either in the morning or +evening, and she had a strong suspicion that Lady Randolph had passed +the night on a sofa in the little morning-room upstairs. To Fletcher's +mind it was not very difficult to account for this. Quarrels between +husband and wife are common enough. But her consciousness and +sympathetic significance of look struck Sir Tom with a troubled sense of +the humour of the situation which broke the spell of his increasing +agitation, if but for a moment. It was droll to think that Fletcher +should be in a manner his confidant, the only participator in his woes.</p> + +<p>Lucy had gone out half to avoid her husband, half with a determination +to expedite the business which<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_429" id="Page_429">[Pg 429]</a></span> she had begun, with very different +feelings the day before. The streets were very gay and bright on that +April morning, with all the quickening of life which many arrivals and +the approach of the season, with all its excitements, brings. Houses +were opening up, carriages coming out, even the groups of children and +nurse-maids in the Park making a sensible difference on the other side +of the great railing. It was very unusual for her to find herself in the +streets alone, and this increased the curious dazed sensation with which +she went out among all these real people, so lively and energetic, while +she was still little more than a dream-woman, possessed by one thought, +moving along, she knew not how, with a sense of helplessness and +unprotectedness, which made the novelty all the more sensible to her. +She went on for what seemed to be a long time, following mechanically +the line of the pavement, without knowing what she was doing, along the +long course of Park Lane, and then into the cheerful bustle of +Piccadilly, where, with a sense of morning ease and leisure, not like +the artificiality of the afternoon, so many people were coming and +going, all occupied in business of their own, though so different from +the bustle of more absorbing business, the haste and obstruction of the +city. Lucy was not beautiful enough or splendid enough to attract much +attention from the passers-by in the streets, though one or two +sympathetic and observant wayfarers were caught by the look of trouble +in her face. She had never walked about London, and she did not know +where she was going. But she did not think of this. She thought only on +one subject,—about her husband and that other life which he had, of +which she knew nothing, which might, for anything she could tell, have +been<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_430" id="Page_430">[Pg 430]</a></span> going on side by side with the life she knew and shared. This was +the point upon which Lucy's mind had given way. The revelation as to +Bice had startled and shaken her soul to its foundations; but after the +shock things had fallen into their place again, and she had felt no +anger, though much pain and pity. Her mind had thrown itself back into +the unknown past almost tenderly towards the mother who had died long +ago, to whom perhaps Bice had been what little Tom was now to herself. +But when the further statement reached her ears all that softening which +seemed to have swept over her disappeared in a moment. A horrible +bewilderment had seized her. Was he two men, with two wives, two lives, +two children dear to him?</p> + +<p>It is usual to talk of women as being the most severe judges of each +other's failures in one particular at least, an accusation which no +doubt is true of both sexes, though generally applied, like so many +universal truths, to one. And an injured wife is a raging fury in those +primitive characterisations which are so common in the world. But the +ideas which circled like the flakes in a snowstorm through the mind of +Lucy were of a kind incomprehensible to the vulgar critic who judges +humanity in the general. Her ways of thinking, her modes of judging were +as different as possible from those of minds accustomed to +generalisation and lightly acquainted with the vices of the world. Lucy +knew no general; she knew three persons involved in an imbroglio so +terrible that she saw no way out of it. Herself, her husband, another +woman. Her mind was the mind almost of a child. It had resisted all that +dismal information which the chatter of society conveys. She knew that +married people were "not happy" sometimes. She knew that there were +wretched stories<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_431" id="Page_431">[Pg 431]</a></span> of which she held that they could not be true. She was +of Desdemona's mind, and did not believe that there was any such woman. +And when she was suddenly strangely brought face to face with a tragedy +of her own, that was not enough to turn this innocent and modest girl +into a raging Eleanor. She was profoundly reasonable in her simple way, +unapt to blame; thinking no evil, and full of those prepossessions and +fixed canons of innocence which the world-instructed are incapable not +only of understanding, but of believing in the existence of. A +connection between a man and a woman was to her, in one way or other, a +marriage. Into the reasons, whatever they might have been, that could +have brought about any such connection without the rites that made it +sacred, she could not penetrate or inquire. It was a subject too +terrible, from which her mind retreated with awe and incomprehension. +Never could it, she felt, have been intended so, at least on the woman's +side. The mock marriage of romance, the deceits practised on the stage +and in novels upon the innocent, she believed in without hesitation, +everything in the world being more comprehensible than impurity. There +might be villainous men, betrayers, seducers, Lucy could not tell; there +might be monsters, griffins, fiery dragons, for anything she knew; but a +woman abandoned by all her natural guard of modesties and reluctances, +moved by passion, capable of being seduced, she could not understand. +And still more impossible was it to imagine such sins as the outcome of +mere levity, without any tragic circumstances; or to conceive of the +mysteries of life as outraged and intruded upon by folly, or for the +darker bait of interest. Her heart sickened at such suggestions. She +knew there were poor women<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_432" id="Page_432">[Pg 432]</a></span> in the streets, victims of want and vice, +poor degraded creatures for whom her heart bled, whom she could not +think of for the intolerable pang of pity and shame. But all these +questions had nothing to do with the sudden revelation in which she +herself had so painful a part. These broken reflections were in her mind +like the falling of snow. They whirled through the vague world of her +troubled soul without consequence or coherence; all that had nothing to +do with her. Her husband was no villain, and the woman—the beautiful, +smiling woman, so much fairer, greater, more important than Lucy, she +was no wretched, degraded creature. What was she then? His wife—his +true wife? And if so, what was Lucy? Her brain reeled and the world went +round her in a sickening whirl. The circumstances were too terrible for +resentment. What could anger do, or any other quick-springing +short-lived emotion? What did it matter even what Lucy felt, what any +one felt? It was far beyond that. Here was fact which no emotion could +undo. A wife and a child on either side, and what was to come of it; and +how could life go on with this to think of, never to be forgotten, not +to be put aside for a moment? It brought existence to a stand-still. She +did not know what was the next step she must take, or how she could go +back, or what she must say to the man who, perhaps, was not her husband, +or how she could continue under that roof, or arrange the commonest +details of life. There was but one thing clear before her, the business +which she was bent on hurrying to a conclusion now.</p> + +<p>She found herself in the bustle of the streets that converge upon the +circus at the end of Piccadilly as she thus went on thinking, and there +Lucy looked<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_433" id="Page_433">[Pg 433]</a></span> about her in some dismay, finding that she had reached the +limit of the little world she knew. She was afraid of plunging alone +into those bustling ways, and almost afraid of the only other +alternative, which, however, she adopted, of calling a cab and giving +the driver the address of Mr. Chervil in the city. To do this, and to +mount into the uneasy jingling cab, gave her a little shock of the +unaccustomed, which was like a breach of morals to Lucy. It seemed, +though she had been independent enough in more important matters, the +most daring step she had ever taken on her own responsibility. But the +matter of the cab, and the aspect of this unknown world into which it +conveyed her, occupied her mind a little, and stopped the tumult of her +thoughts. She seemed scarcely to know what she had come about when she +found herself set down at the door of Mr. Chervil's office, and +ascending the grimy staircase, meeting people who stared at her, and +wondered what a lady could be doing there. Mr. Chervil himself was +scarcely less surprised. He said, "Lady Randolph!" with a cry of +astonishment when she was shown in. And she found some difficulty, which +she had not thought of, in explaining her business. He reminded her that +she had given him the same instructions yesterday when he had the honour +of waiting upon her in Park Lane. He was far more respectful to Lady +Randolph than he had been to Lucy Trevor in her first attempts to carry +out her father's will.</p> + +<p>"I assure you," he said, "I have not neglected your wishes. I have +written to Rushton on the subject. We both know by this time, Lady +Randolph, that when you have made up your mind—and you have the most +perfect right to do so—though we may not like it, nor think it anything +but a squandering<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_434" id="Page_434">[Pg 434]</a></span> of money, still we are aware we have no right to +oppose——"</p> + +<p>"It is not that," said Lucy faintly. "It is that the circumstances have +changed since yesterday. I want to—I should like to——"</p> + +<p>"Give up your intention? I am delighted to hear it. For you must allow +me to say, as a man of business——"</p> + +<p>"It is not that," Lucy repeated. "I want to increase the sum. I find the +young lady has a claim—and I want it to be done immediately, without +the loss of a day. Oh, I am more, much more in earnest about it than I +was yesterday. I want it settled at once. If it is not settled at once +difficulties might arise. I want to double the amount. Could you not +telegraph to Mr. Rushton instead of writing? I have heard that people +telegraph about business."</p> + +<p>"Double the amount! Have you thought over this? Have you had Sir +Thomas's advice? It is a very important matter to decide so suddenly. +Pardon me, Lady Randolph, but you must know that if you bestow at this +rate you will soon not have very much left to you."</p> + +<p>"Ah, that would be a comfort!" cried Lucy; and then there came over her +the miserable thought that all the circumstances were changed, and to +have a subject of disagreement between her husband and herself removed +would not matter now. Once it had been the only subject, now—— The +suddenness of this realisation of the change filled her eyes with tears. +But she restrained herself with a great effort. "Yes," she said, "I +should be glad, very glad, to have done all my father wished—for many +things might happen. I might die—and then who would do it?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_435" id="Page_435">[Pg 435]</a></span></p> + +<p>"We need not discuss that very unlikely contingency," said Mr. Chervil. +(He said to himself: Sir Tom wouldn't, that is certain.) "But even under +Mr. Trevor's will," he added, "this will be a very large sum to +give—larger, don't you think, than he intended; unless there is some +very special claim?"</p> + +<p>"It is a special claim," cried Lucy, "and papa made no conditions. I was +to be free in doing it. He left me quite free."</p> + +<p>"Without doubt," the lawyer said. "I need not repeat my opinion on the +subject, but you are certainly quite free. And you have brought me the +young lady's name, no doubt, Lady Randolph? Yesterday, you recollect you +were uncertain about her name. It is important to be quite accurate in +an affair of so much importance. She is a lucky young lady. A great many +would like to learn the secret of pleasing you to this extent."</p> + +<p>Lucy looked at him with a gasp. She did not understand the rest of his +speech or care to hear it. Her name? What was her name? If she had not +known it before, still less did she know it now.</p> + +<p>"Oh," she cried, "what does it matter about a name? People, girls, +change their names. She is Beatrice. You might leave a blank and it +could be filled up after. She is going to—marry. She is—must +everything be delayed for that?—and yet it is of no importance—no +importance that I can see," Lucy said, wringing her hands.</p> + +<p>"My dear Lady Randolph! Let me say that to give a very large sum of +money to a person with whose very name you are unacquainted—forgive me, +but in your own interests I must speak. Let me consult with Sir +Thomas."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_436" id="Page_436">[Pg 436]</a></span></p> + +<p>"I do not wish my husband to be consulted. He has promised me not to +interfere, and it is my business, not his," Lucy said, with a flush of +excitement. And though there was much further conversation, and the +lawyer did all he could to move her, it need not be said that Lucy was +immovable. He went down to the door with her to put her into her +carriage, as he supposed, not unwilling even in that centre of practical +life to have the surrounding population see on what confidential terms +he was with this fine young lady. But when he perceived that no carriage +was there, and Lucy, not without a tremor, as of a very strange request, +and one which might shock the nerves of her companion, asked him to get +a cab for her, Mr. Chervil's astonishment knew no bounds.</p> + +<p>"I never thought how far it was," Lucy said, faltering and apologetic. +"I thought I might perhaps have been able to walk."</p> + +<p>"Walk!" he cried, "from Park Lane?" with consternation. He stood looking +after her as she drove away, saying to himself that the old man had +undoubtedly been mad, and that this poor young thing was evidently +cracked too. He thought it would be best to write to Sir Thomas, who was +not Sir Tom to Mr. Chervil; but if it was going to happen that the poor +young lady should show what he had no doubt was the hereditary weakness, +Mr. Chervil could not restrain a devout wish that it might show itself +decisively before half her fortune was alienated. No Sir Thomas in +existence would carry out a father-in-law's will of such an insane +character as that.</p> + +<p>In the meanwhile Lucy jingled home in her cab, feeling more giddy, more +heartsick than ever. There now came upon her with more potency than ever, +since<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_437" id="Page_437">[Pg 437]</a></span> now it was the matter immediately before her, the question what was +she to do? What was she to do? She had eluded Sir Tom on the night before, +and obliged him to accept, without any demand for explanation, her strange +retirement. But now what was she to do? Little Tom would not answer for a +pretext again. She must either resume the former habits of her life, +subdue herself entirely, meet him with a cheerful face, ignore the sudden +chasm that had been made between them—or—— She looked with terrified +eyes at this blank wall of impossibility, and could see no way through it. +Live with him as of old, in a pretence of union where no union could be, +or explain how it was that she could not do so. Both these things were +impossible—impossible!—and what, then, was she to do?</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLIII" id="CHAPTER_XLIII"></a>CHAPTER XLIII.</h2> + +<h3>THE LITTLE HOUSE IN MAYFAIR.</h3> + + +<p>The little house in Mayfair was very bright and gay. What conventional +words are those! It was nothing of the kind. It was dim and poetical. No +light that could be kept out of it was permitted to come in. The quality +of light in London, even in April, is not exquisite, and perhaps the +Contessa's long curtains and all the delicate draperies which she loved +to hang about her were more desirable to see than that very poor thing +in the way of daylight which exists in Mayfair. Bice, who was a child of +light, objected a little to this shutting out, and she would have +objected<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_438" id="Page_438">[Pg 438]</a></span> strongly, being young enough to love the sunshine for itself, +but for the exquisite reason which the Contessa gave for the interdict +she had put upon it. "Cara," she said, "if you were all white and red +like those English girls (it is <i>tant soit peu</i> vulgar between +ourselves, and not half so effective as your <i>blanc mat</i>), then you +might have as much light as you pleased; but to put yourself in +competition with them on their own ground—no, Bice mia. But in this +light there is nothing to desire."</p> + +<p>"Don't you think, then, Madama," said Bice, piqued, "that no light at +all would be better still, and not to be seen the best——"</p> + +<p>"Darling!" said the Contessa, with that smile which embodied so many +things. It answered for encouragement and applause and gentle reproof, +and many other matters which words could but indifferently say, and it +was one of her favourite ways of turning aside a question to which she +did not think fit to give any reply. And Bice swallowed her pique and +asked no more. The lamps were all shaded like the windows in this bower +of beauty. There was scarcely a corner that was not draped with some +softly-falling, richly-tinted tissue. A delicate perfume breathed +through this half-lighted world. Thus, though neither gay nor bright, it +realised the effect which in our day, in the time when everything was +different, was meant by these words. It was a place for pleasure, for +intimate society, and conversation, and laughter, and wit; for music and +soft words; and, above all, for the setting off of beauty, and the +expression of admiration. The chairs were soft, the carpets like moss; +there were flowers everywhere betraying themselves by their odour, even +when you could not see them. The Con<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_439" id="Page_439">[Pg 439]</a></span>tessa had spared no expense in +making the little place—which she laughed at softly, calling it her +doll's house—as perfect as it could be made.</p> + +<p>And here the two ladies began to live a life very different from that of +the Randolphs' simple dwelling. Bice, it need scarcely be said, had +fulfilled all the hopes of her patroness, else had she never been +produced with such bewildering mystery, yet deftness, to dazzle the eyes +of young Montjoie at the Hall. She had realised all the Contessa's +expectations, and justified the bills which Madame di Forno-Populo +looked upon with a certain complacency as they came in, as something +creditable to her, as proof of her magnificence of mind and devotion to +the best interests of her <i>protégée</i>. And now they had entered upon +their campaign. It had annoyed her in this new beginning, amid all its +excitements and hopes, to be called upon by Sir Tom for explanations +which it was not to her interest to give; which she had, indeed, when +she deliberately sowed the seed of mystery, resolved not to give. To +allow herself to be brought to book was not in her mind at all, and she +was clever enough to mystify even Sir Tom, and keep his mind in a +suspense and uncertainty very painful to him. But she had managed to +elude his inquiries, and though it had changed the demeanour of Sir Tom, +and entirely done away with the careless good humour which had been so +pleasant, still she felt herself now independent of the Randolphs, and +had begun her life very cheerfully and with every promise of great +enjoyment. The Contessa "received" every day and all day long, from the +time when she was visible, which was not, however, at a very early hour. +About four the day of the ladies began. Sometimes, indeed, before that +hour two<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_440" id="Page_440">[Pg 440]</a></span> favoured persons, not always the same, who had accompanied +them home from the Park, would be admitted to share a dainty little +luncheon. Bice now rode at the hour when everybody rides, with the +Contessa, who was a graceful horsewoman, and never looked to greater +advantage than in the saddle. The two beautiful Italians, as they were +called, had in this way, within a week of their arrival, caused a +sensation in the Row, and already their days overflowed with amusement +and society. Few ladies visited the little house in Mayfair, but then +they were not much wanted there. The Contessa was not one of those +vulgar practitioners who profess in words their preference for men's +society. But she said, so sweetly that it was barbarous to laugh (though +many of her friends did so), that, having one close companion of her own +sex, her dearest Bice, who was everything to her, she was independent of +the feminine element. "And then they are so busy, these ladies of +fashion; they have no leisure; they have so many things to do. It is a +thraldom, a heavy thraldom, though the chains are gilded." "Shall we see +you at Lady Blank Blank's to-night? You must be going to the Duchess's? +Of course we shall meet at the Highton Grandmodes!" "Ah!" cried the +Contessa, spreading out her white hands, "it is fatiguing even only to +hear of it. We love our ease, Bice and I; we go nowhere where we are +expected to go."</p> + +<p>The gentlemen to whom this speech was made laughed "consumedly." They +even made little signs to each other behind back, and exploded again. +When she looked round at them they said the Contessa was a perfect +mimic, better than anything on the stage, and that she had perfectly +caught the tone of that old<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_441" id="Page_441">[Pg 441]</a></span> Lady Barbe Montfichet, who went everywhere +(whom, indeed, the Contessa did not know), and laughed again. But it was +not at the Contessa's power of mimicry that they laughed. It was at the +delicious falsehood of her pretensions, and the thought that if she +pleased she might appear at the Highton Grandmodes, or meet the best +society at Lady Blank Blank's. These gentlemen knew better; and it was a +joke of which they never tired. They were not, perhaps, the most +desirable class of people in society who had the <i>entrée</i> in the +Contessa's little house; they were old acquaintances who had known her +in her progress through the world, mingled with a few young men whom +they brought with them, partly because the boys admired these two lovely +foreign women; partly because, with a certain easy benevolence that cost +them nothing, they wanted the Contessa's little girl, whoever she was, +to have her chance. But few, if any, of these astute gentlemen, young or +old, was in any doubt as to the position she held.</p> + +<p>Nor was she altogether without female visitors. Lady Anastasia, that +authority of the press, who made the public acquainted with the +movements of distinguished strangers and was not afraid of compromising +herself, sometimes made one at the little parties and enjoyed them much. +The Dowager Lady Randolph's card was left at the Contessa's door, as was +that of the Duchess, who had looked upon her with such consternation at +Lucy's party in the country. What these ladies meant it would be curious +to know. Perhaps it was a lingering touch of kindness, perhaps a wish to +save their credit in case it should happen by some bewildering turn of +fortune that La Forno-Populo might come uppermost again. Would she dare<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_442" id="Page_442">[Pg 442]</a></span> +to have herself put forward at the Drawing-room was what these ladies +asked each other with bated breath. It was possible, nay, quite likely, +that she might succeed in doing so, for there were plenty of +good-natured people who would not refuse if she asked them, and of +course so close a scrutiny was not kept upon foreigners as upon native +subjects; while, as a matter of fact, the Dowager Lady Randolph was +right in her assertion that, so far as could be proved, there was +nothing absolutely fatal to a woman's reputation in the history of the +Contessa. Would she have the courage to dare that ordeal, or would she +set up a standard of revolt, and declare herself superior to that +hall-mark of fashion? She was clever enough, all the people who knew her +allowed, for either <i>rôle</i>; either to persuade some good woman, innocent +and ignorant enough, to be responsible for her, and elude the researches +of the Lord Chamberlain, or else to retreat bravely in gay rebellion and +declare that she was not rich enough, nor her diamonds good enough, for +that noonday display. For either part the Contessa was clever enough.</p> + +<p>Meanwhile Bice had all the enjoyment, without any of the drawbacks of +this new life. It was far more luxurious, splendid, and even amusing, +than the old existence of the watering-places. To ride in the Park and +feel herself one of that brilliant crowd, to be surrounded by a +succession of lively companions, to have always "something going on," +that delight of youth, and a continual incense of admiration rising +around her enough to have turned a less steady head, filled Bice's cup +with happiness. But perhaps the most penetrating pleasure of all was +that of having carried out the Contessa's expectations and fulfilled her +hopes. Had not Madame di Forno-Populo been<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_443" id="Page_443">[Pg 443]</a></span> satisfied with the beauty of +her charge, none of these expenses would have been incurred, and this +life of many delights would never have been; so that the soothing and +exhilarating consciousness of having indeed deserved and earned her +present well-being was in Bice's mind. The future, too, opened before +her a horizon of boundless hope. To have everything she now had and +more, along with that one element of happiness which had always been +wanting, the certainty that it would last, was the happy prospect within +her grasp. Her head was so steady, and the practical sense of the +advantage so great, that the excitement and pleasure did not intoxicate +her; but everything was delightful, novel, breathing confidence and +hope. The guests at the table, where she now took her place, equal in +importance to the Contessa herself, all flattered and did their best to +please her. They amused her, either because they were clever or because +they were ridiculous—Bice, with youthful cynicism, did not much mind +which it was. When they went to the opera, a similar crowd would flutter +in and out of the box, and appear afterwards to share the gay little +supper and declare that no <i>prime-donne</i> on the stage could equal the +two lovely blending voices of the Contessa and her ward. To sit late +talking, laughing, singing, surrounded by all this worship, and to wake +up again to a dozen plans and the same routine of pleasure next day, +what heart of seventeen (and she was not quite seventeen) could resist +it? One thing, however, Bice missed amid all this. It was the long +gallery at the Hall, the nursery in Park Lane, little Tom crowing upon +her shoulder, digging his hands into her hair, and Lucy looking on—many +things, yet one. She missed this, and laughed at her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_444" id="Page_444">[Pg 444]</a></span>self, and said she +was a fool—but missed it all the same. Lucy had come, as in duty bound, +and paid her call. She had been very grave—not like herself. And Sir +Tom was very grave; looking at her she could not tell how; no longer +with his old easy good humour, with a look of criticism and anxiety—an +uneasy look, as if he had something to say to her and could not. Bice +felt instinctively that if he ever said that something it would be +disagreeable, and avoided his presence. But it troubled her to lose this +side of her landscape, so to speak. The new was entrancing, but the old +was a loss. She missed it, and thought herself a fool for missing it, +and laughed, but felt it the more.</p> + +<p>The only member of the household with whom she remained on the same easy +terms as before was Jock, who came to the house in Mayfair at hours when +nobody else was admitted, though he was quite unaware of the privilege +he possessed. He came in the morning when Bice, too young to want the +renewal which the Contessa sought in bed and in the mysteries of the +toilette, sometimes fretted a little indoors at the impossibility of +getting the air into her lungs, and feeling the warmth of the morning +light. She was so glad to see him that Jock was deeply flattered, and +sweet thoughts of the most boundless foolishness got in to his head. +Bice ran to her room, and found one of her old hats which she had worn +in the country, and tied a veil over her face, and came flying +downstairs like a bird.</p> + +<p>"We may go out and run in the Park so long as no one sees us," she +cried. "Oh, come; nobody can see me through this veil."</p> + +<p>"And what good will the air do you through that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_445" id="Page_445">[Pg 445]</a></span> veil?" said Jock +contemptuously. "You can't see the sun through it; it makes the whole +world black. I would not go out if I were you with that thing over my +face, the only chance I had for a walk. I'd rather stay at home; but +perhaps you like it. Girls are such——"</p> + +<p>"What? You are going to swear, and if you swear I will simply turn my +back. Well, perhaps you didn't mean it. But I mean it. Boys are +such—— What? little prudes, like the old duennas in the books, and that +is what you are. You think things are wrong that are not wrong. But it +is to an Englishman the right thing to grumble," Bice said, with a smile +of reconciliation as they stepped into the street. On that sweet morning +even the street was delightful. It restored them to perfect satisfaction +with each other as they made their way to the Park, which stretched its +long lines of waving grass almost within sight.</p> + +<p>"And I suppose," said Jock, after a pause, "that you like being here?"</p> + +<p>Bice gave him a look half friendly, half disdainful. "I like living," +she said. "In the country in what you call the quiet, it is only to be +half alive: we are always living here. But you never come to see us +ride, to be among the crowd. You are never at the opera. You don't talk +as those others do——"</p> + +<p>"Montjoie, for instance," said Jock, with a strange sense of jealousy +and pain.</p> + +<p>"Very well, Montjoie. He is what you call fun; he has always something +to say, <i>bêtises</i> perhaps, but what does that matter? He makes me +laugh."</p> + +<p>"Makes you laugh! at his wit perhaps?" cried Jock. "Oh, what things +girls are! Laugh at what a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_446" id="Page_446">[Pg 446]</a></span> duffer like that, an ass, a fellow that has +not two ideas, says."</p> + +<p>"You have a great many ideas," said Bice; "you are clever—you know a +number of things; but you are not so amusing, and you are not so +good-natured. You scold me; and you say another, a friend, is an +ass——"</p> + +<p>"He was never any friend of mine," said Jock, with a hot flush of anger. +"That fellow! I never had anything to say to him."</p> + +<p>"No," said Bice, with a smiling disdain which cut poor Jock like a +knife. "I made a mistake, that was not possible, for he is a man and you +are only a boy."</p> + +<p>To describe Jock's feelings under this blow would be beyond the power of +words. He inferior to Montjoie! he only a boy while the other was a man! +Rage was nothing in such an emergency. He looked at her with eyes that +were almost pathetic in their sense of unappreciated merit, and, deeper +sting still, of folly preferred. In spite of himself, Locksley Hall and +those musings which have become, by no fault of the poet's, the +expression of a despair which is half ridiculous, came into his mind. He +did not see the ridicule. "Having known me to decline"—his eyes became +moist with a dew of pain—"If you think that," he said slowly, +"Bice——"</p> + +<p>Bice answered only with a laugh. "Let us make haste; let us run," she +cried. "It is so early, no one will see us. Why don't you ride, it is +like flying? And to run is next best." She stopped after a flight, swift +as a bird, along an unfrequented path which lay still in the April +sunshine, the lilac bushes standing up on each side all athrill and +rustling with the spring, with eyes that shone like stars, and that +unusual<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_447" id="Page_447">[Pg 447]</a></span> colour which made her radiant. Jock, though he could have gone +on much faster, was behind her for the moment, and came up after her, +more occupied by the shame of being outrun and laughed at than by +admiration of the girl and her beauty. She was more conscious of her own +splendour of bloom than he was: though Bice was not vain, and he was +more occupied by the thought of her than by any other thought.</p> + +<p>"Girls never think of being able to stay," he said, "you do only what +can be done with a rush; but that's not running. If you had ever seen +the School Mile——"</p> + +<p>"Oh no, I want to see no miles," cried Bice; "this is what I like, to +have all my fingers tingle." Then she suddenly calmed down in a moment, +and walked along demurely as the paths widened out to a more frequented +thoroughfare. "What I want," she said, "is little Tom upon my shoulder, +and to hear him scream and hold by my hair. Milady does not look as if I +pleased her now. She has come once only and looked—not as she once +looked. But she is still kind. She has made this ball for me—for me +only. Did you know? do you dance then, if nothing else? Oh, you shall +dance since the ball is for me. I love dancing—to distraction; but not +once have I had a single turn, not once, since we came to England," Bice +said with a sigh, which rose into a laugh in another moment, as she +added, "It will be for me to come out, as you say, to be introduced into +society, and after that we shall go everywhere, the Contessa says."</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_448" id="Page_448">[Pg 448]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLIV" id="CHAPTER_XLIV"></a>CHAPTER XLIV.</h2> + +<h3>THE SIEGE OF LONDON.</h3> + + +<p>The Contessa, but perhaps not more than half, believed what she said. +Everything was on the cards in this capricious society of England, which +is not governed by the same absolute laws as in other places. It seemed +to be quite possible that she and her charge might be asked everywhere +after their appearance at the ball which, she should take care to tell +everybody, Lucy was giving for Bice. It was always possible in England +that some leader of fashion, some great lady whose nod gave distinction, +might take pity upon Bice's youth and think it hard that she should +suffer, even if without any relentings towards the Contessa. And Madame +di Forno-Populo was very strong on the point, already mentioned, that +there was nothing against her which could give any one a right to shut +her out. The mere suggestion that the doors of society might or could be +closed in her face would have driven another woman into frantic +indignation, but the Contessa had passed that stage. She took the matter +quite reasonably, philosophically. There was no reason. She had been +poor and put to many shifts. Sometimes she had been compelled to permit +herself to be indebted to a man in a way no woman should allow herself +to be. She was quite aware of this, and was not, therefore, angry with +society for its reluctance to receive her; but she said to herself, with +great energy, that there was no cause. She was not hopeless even of the +drawing-room, nor of getting the Duchess herself, a model of all the +virtues,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_449" id="Page_449">[Pg 449]</a></span> to present her, if the ball went off well at Park Lane. She +said to herself that there was nothing on her mind which would make her +shrink from seeking admission to the presence of the Queen. She was not +afraid even of that royal lady's penetrating eye. Shiftiness, poverty, +debts, modes of getting money that were, perhaps, equivocal, help too +lightly accepted, all these are bad enough; but they are not in a woman +the unpardonable sin. And a caprice in English society was always +possible. The young beauty of Bice might attract the eye of some one +whose notice would throw down all obstacles; or it might touch the heart +of some woman who was so high placed as to be able to defy prejudice. +And after that, of course, they would go everywhere, and every +prognostication of success and triumph would come true.</p> + +<p>Nevertheless, if things did not go on so well as this, the Contessa had +furnished herself with what to say. She would tell Bice that the women +were jealous, that she had been pursued by their hostility wherever she +went, that a woman who secured the homage of men was always an object of +their spite and malice, that it was a sort of persecution which the +lovely had to bear from the unlovely in all regions. Knowing that it was +fully more likely that she should fail than succeed, the Contessa had +carefully provided herself with this ancient plea and would not hesitate +to use it if necessary; but these were <i>grands moyens</i>, not to be +resorted to save in case of necessity. She would herself have been +willing enough to dispense with recognition and live as she was doing +now, among the old and new admirers who had never failed her, enjoying +everything except those dull drawing-rooms and heavy parties for which +her soul longed, yet<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_450" id="Page_450">[Pg 450]</a></span> which she despised heartily, which she would have +undergone any humiliation to get admission to, and turned to ridicule +afterwards with the best grace in the world. She despised them, but +there was nothing that could make up for absence from them; they alone +had in their power the <i>cachet</i>, the symbol of universal acceptance. All +these things depended upon the ball at Park Lane. Something had been +going on there since she separated herself from that household which the +Contessa did not understand. Sir Tom, indeed, was comprehensible. The +discovery which he thought he had made, the things which she had allowed +him to divine, and even permitted him to prove for himself without +making a single assertion on her own part, were quite sufficient to +account for his changed looks. But Lucy, what had she found out? It was +not likely that Sir Tom had communicated his discovery to her. Lucy's +demeanour confused the Contessa more than words can say. The simple +creature had grown into a strange dignity, which nothing could explain. +Instead of the sweet compliance and almost obedience of former days, the +deference of the younger to the older woman, Lucy looked at her with +grave composure, as of an equal or superior. What had happened to the +girl? And it was so important that she should be friendly now and kept +in good humour! Madame di Forno-Populo put forth all her attractions, +gave her dear Lucy her sweetest looks and words, but made very little +impression. This gave her a little tremor when she thought of it; for +all her plans for the future were connected with the ball on the 26th at +Park Lane.</p> + +<p>This ball appeared to Lucy, too, the most important crisis in her life. +She had made a sacrifice which<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_451" id="Page_451">[Pg 451]</a></span> was heroic that nothing might go wrong +upon that day. Somehow or other, she could not tell how, for the +struggle had been desperate within her, she had subdued the emotion in +her own heart and schooled herself to an acceptance of the old routine +of her life until that event should be over. All her calculations went +to that date, but not beyond. Life seemed to stop short there. It had +been arranged and settled with a light heart in the pleasure of knowing +that the Contessa had taken a house for herself, and that, consequently, +Lucy was henceforward to be once more mistress of her own. She had been +so ashamed of her own pleasure in this prospect, so full of compunctions +in respect to her guest, whose departure made her happy, that she had +thrown herself with enthusiasm into this expedient for making it up to +them. She had said it was to be Bice's ball. When the Dowager's +revelation came upon her like a thunderbolt, as soon as she was able to +think at all, she had thought of this ball with a depth of emotion which +was strange to be excited by so frivolous a matter. It was a pledge of +the warmest friendship, but those for whom it was to be, had turned out +the enemies of her peace, the destroyers of her happiness: and it was +high festival and gaiety, but her heart was breaking. Lady Randolph, +afraid of what she had done, yet virulent against the Contessa, had +suggested that it should be given up. It was easy to do such a thing—a +few notes, a paragraph in the newspaper, a report of a cousin dead, or a +sudden illness; any excuse would do. But Lucy was not to be so moved. +There was in her soft bosom a sense of justice which was almost stern, +and through all her troubles she remembered that Bice, at least, had a +claim upon all Sir Thomas Randolph could do for her, such as nobody<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_452" id="Page_452">[Pg 452]</a></span> +else could have. Under what roof but his should she make her first +appearance in the world? Lucy held sternly with a mixture of bitterness +and tenderness to Bice's rights. In all this misery Bice was without +blame, the only innocent person, the one most wronged, more wronged even +than was Lucy herself. She it was who would have to bear the deepest +stigma, without any fault of hers. Whatever could be done to advance her +(as she counted advancement), to make her happy (as she reckoned +happiness) it was right she should have it done. Lucy suppressed her own +wretchedness heroically for this cause. She bore the confusion that had +come into her life without saying a word for the sake of the other young +creature who was her fellow-sufferer. How hard it was to do she could +not have told, nor did any one suspect, except, vaguely, Sir Tom +himself, who perceived some tragic mischief that was at work without +knowing how it had come there or what it was. He tried to come to some +explanation, but Lucy would have no explanation. She avoided him as much +as it was possible to do. She had nothing to say when he questioned her. +Till the 26th! Nothing, she was resolved, should interfere with that. +And then—but not the baby in the nursery knew less than Lucy what was +to happen then.</p> + +<p>They had come to London on the 2d, so that this day of fate was three +weeks off, and during that time the Contessa had made no small progress +in her affairs. Three weeks is a long time in a house which is open to +visitors, even if only from four o'clock in the afternoon, every day, +and without intermission; and indeed that was not the whole, for the +ladies were accessible elsewhere than in the house in Mayfair. It had +pleased the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_453" id="Page_453">[Pg 453]</a></span> Contessa not to be visible when Lord Montjoie called at a +somewhat early hour on the very earliest day. He was a young man who +knew the world, and not one to have things made too easy for him. He was +all aflame accordingly to gain the <i>entrée</i> thus withheld, and when the +Contessa appeared for the first time in the Park, with her lovely +companion, Montjoie was eagerly on the watch, and lost no time in +claiming acquaintance, and joining himself to her train. He was one of +the two who were received to luncheon two or three days afterwards. When +the ladies went to the opera he was on thorns till he could join them. +He was allowed to go home with them for one song, and to come in next +afternoon for a little music. And from that time forward there was no +more question of shutting him out. He came and went almost when he +pleased, as a young man may be permitted to do when he has become one of +the intimates in an easy-going, pleasure-loving household, where there +is always "something going on." He was so little flattered that never +during all these days and nights had he once been allowed to repeat the +performance upon which he prided himself, and with which he had followed +up the singing of the Contessa and Bice at the Hall. The admirable lady +whom they had met there, with her two daughters, had been eager that +Lord Montjoie should display this accomplishment of his, and the girls +had been enchanted by his singing; but the Contessa, though not so +irreproachable, would have none of it. And Bice laughed freely at the +young nobleman who had so much to bestow, and they both threw at him +delicate little shafts of wit, which never pierced his stolid +complacency, though he was quite quick withal to see the fun when other +gentlemen looked at<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_454" id="Page_454">[Pg 454]</a></span> each other over the Contessa's shoulder, and burst +into little peals of laughter at her little speeches about the Highton +Grandmodes and other such exclusive houses. Montjoie knew all about La +Forno-Populo. "But yet that little Bice," he said, "don't you know?" No +one like her had come within Montjoie's ken. He knew all about the girls +in blue or in pink or in white, who asked him to sing. But Bice, who +laughed at his accomplishment and at himself, and was so saucy to him, +and made fun of him, he allowed, to his face, that was very different. +He described her in terms that were not chivalrous, and his own emotions +in words still less ornate; but before the fortnight was over the best +judges declared among themselves that, by Jove, the Forno-Populo had +done it this time, that the little one knew how to play her cards, that +it was all up with Montjoie, poor little beggar, with other elegances of +a similar kind. The man who had taken the Contessa's house for her, and +a great deal of trouble about all her arrangements, whom she described +as a very old friend, and whose rueful sense that house-agents and +livery stables might eventually look to him if she had no success in her +enterprise did not impair his fidelity, went so far as to speak +seriously to Montjoie on the subject. "Look here, Mont," he said, "don't +you think you are going it rather too strong? There is not a thing +against the girl, who is as nice as a girl can be, but then the aunt, +you know——"</p> + +<p>"I'm glad she is the aunt," said Montjoie. "I thought she was the +mother: and I always heard you were devoted to her."</p> + +<p>"We are very old friends," said this disinterested adviser. "There's +nothing I would not do for her. She is the best soul out, and was the +loveliest woman<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_455" id="Page_455">[Pg 455]</a></span> I can tell you—the girl is nothing to what she was. +Aunt or cousin, I am not sure what is the relationship; but that's not +the question. Don't you think you are coming it rather strong?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, I've got my wits about me," said Montjoie; and then he added, +rather reluctantly—for it is the fashion of his kind to be vulgar and +to keep what generosity or nobleness there is in them carefully out of +sight—"and I've no relations, don't you know? I've got nobody to please +but myself——"</p> + +<p>"Well, that is a piece of luck anyhow," the Mentor said; and he told the +Contessa the gist of the conversation next morning, who was highly +pleased by the news.</p> + +<p>The curious point in all this was that Bice had not the least objection +to Montjoie. She was a clever girl and he was a stupid young man, but +whether it was that her entirely unawakened heart had no share at all in +the matter, or that her clear practical view of affairs influenced her +sentiments as well as her mind, it is certain that she was quite pleased +with her fate, and ready to embrace it without the least sense that it +was a sacrifice or anything but the happiest thing possible. He amused +her, as she had said to Jock. He made her laugh, most frequently at +himself; but what did that matter? He had a kind of good looks, and that +good nature which is the product of prosperity and well-being, and a +sense of general superiority to the world. Perhaps the girl saw no man +of a superior order to compare him with; but, as a matter of fact, she +was perfectly satisfied with Montjoie. Mr. Derwentwater and Jock were +more ridiculous to her than he was, and were less in harmony with +everything she had previously known. Their work, their intellectual<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_456" id="Page_456">[Pg 456]</a></span> +occupations, their cleverness and aspirations were out of her world +altogether. The young man-about-town who had nothing to do but amuse +himself, who was always "knocking about," as he said, whose business was +pleasure, was the kind of being with whom she was acquainted. She had no +understanding of the other kind. He who had been her comrade in the +country, whose society had amused her there, and for whom she had a sort +of half-condescending affection, was droll to her beyond measure, with +his ambitions and great ideas as to what he was to do. He, too, made her +laugh; but not as Montjoie did. She laughed, though this would have +immeasurably surprised Jock, with much less sympathy than she had with +the other, upon whom he looked with so much contempt. They were both +silly to Bice,—silly as, in her strange experience, she thought it +usual and natural for men to be,—but Montjoie's manner of being silly +was more congenial to her than the other. He was more in tune with the +life she had known. Hamburg, Baden, Wiesbaden, and all the other Bads, +even Monaco, would have suited Montjoie well enough. The trade of +pleasure-making has its affinities like every other, and a tramp on his +way from fair to fair is more <i>en rapport</i> with a duke than the world +dreams of. Thus Bice found that the young English marquis, with more +money than he knew how to spend, was far more like the elegant +adventurer living on his wits, than all those intervening classes of +society, to whom life is a more serious, and certainly a much less +festive and costly affair. She understood him far better. And instead of +being, as Lucy thought, a sacrifice, an unfortunate victim sold to a +loveless marriage for the money and the advantages it would bring, Bice +went on very gaily, her heart as<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_457" id="Page_457">[Pg 457]</a></span> unmoved as possible, to what she felt +to be a most congenial fate.</p> + +<p>And they all waited for the 26th and the ball with growing excitement. +It would decide many matters. It would settle what was to be the +character of the Contessa's campaign. It might reintroduce her into +society under better auspices than ever, or it might—but there was no +need to foretell anything unpleasant. And very likely it would conclude +at the same source as it began, Bice's triumph—a <i>débutante</i> who was +already the affianced bride of the young Marquis of Montjoie, the +greatest <i>parti</i> in the kingdom. The idea was like wine, and went to the +Contessa's head.</p> + +<p>She had in this interval of excitement a brief little note from Lucy, +which startled her beyond measure for the moment. It was to ask the +exact names of Bice. "You shall know in a few days why I ask, but it is +necessary they should be written down in full and exactly," Lucy said. +The Contessa had half forgotten, in the new flood of life about her, +what was in Lucy's power, and the further advantage that might come of +their relations, and she did not think of this even now, but felt with +momentary tremor as if some snare lay concealed under these simple +words. After a moment's consideration, however, she wrote with a bold +and flowing hand:</p> + +<blockquote><p>"SWEET LUCY—The child's name is Beatrice Ersilia. You cannot, I am +sure, mean her anything but good by such a question. She has not been +properly introduced, I know—I am fantastic, I loved the Bice, and no +more.<br /></p></blockquote> + +<p class="citation">"<span class="smcap">Darling, A Te.</span>"</p> + +<p>This was signed with a cipher, which it was not very easy to make out—a +little mystery which pleased the Contessa. She thus involved in a +pleasant little uncertainty her own name, which nobody knew.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_458" id="Page_458">[Pg 458]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLV" id="CHAPTER_XLV"></a>CHAPTER XLV.</h2> + +<h3>THE BALL.</h3> + + +<p>Lady Randolph's ball was one of the first of the season, and as it was +the first ball she had ever given, and both Lucy and her husband were +favourites in society, it was looked forward to as the forerunner of +much excitement and pleasure, and with a freshness of interest and +anticipation which, unless in April, is scarcely to be expected in town. +The rooms in Park Lane, though there was nothing specially exquisite or +remarkable in their equipment, were handsome and convenient. They formed +a good background for the people assembled under their many lights +without withdrawing the attention of any one from the looks, the +dresses, the bright eyes, and jewels collected within, which, perhaps, +after all, is an advantage in its way. And everybody who was in town was +there, from the Duchess, upon whom the Contessa had designs of so +momentous a character, down to those wandering young men-about-town who +form the rank and file of the great world and fill up all the corners. +There was, it is true, not much room to dance, but a bewildering amount +of people, great names, fine toilettes, and beautiful persons.</p> + +<p>The Contessa timed her arrival at the most effective moment, when the +rooms were almost full, but not yet crowded, and most of the more +important guests had already arrived. It was just after the first +greetings of people seeing each other for the first time were over, and +an event of some kind was wanted. At<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_459" id="Page_459">[Pg 459]</a></span> such a moment princes and +princesses are timed to arrive and bring the glory of the assembly to a +climax. Lucy had no princess to honour her. But when out of the crowd +round the doorway there were seen to emerge two beautiful and stately +women unknown, the sensation was almost as great. One of them, who had +the air of a Queen-Mother, was in dark dress studiously arranged to be a +little older, a little more massive and magnificent than a woman of the +Contessa's age required to wear (and which, accordingly, threw up all +the more, though this, to do her justice, was a coquetry more or less +unintentional, her unfaded beauty); and the other, an impersonation of +youth, contemplated the world by her side with that open-eyed and +sovereign gaze, proud and modest, but without any of the shyness or +timidity of a <i>débutante</i> which becomes a young princess in her own +right. There was a general thrill of wonder and admiration wherever they +were seen. Who were they, everybody asked? Though the name of the +Forno-Populo was too familiarly known to a section of society, that is +not to say that the ladies of Lucy's party, or even all the men had +heard it bandied from mouth to mouth, or were aware that it had ever +been received with less than respect: and the universal interest was +spoiled only here and there in a corner by the laugh of the male +gossips, who made little signs to each other, in token of knowing more +than their neighbours. It was said among the more innocent that this was +an Italian lady of distinction with her daughter or niece, and her +appearance, if a little more marked and effective than an English lady's +might have been, was thus fully explained and accounted for by the +difference in manners and that inalienable dramatic gift, which it is +common to believe in England,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_460" id="Page_460">[Pg 460]</a></span> foreigners possess. No doubt their +entrance was very dramatic. The way in which they contrasted and +harmonised with each other was too studied for English traditions, +which, in all circumstances, cling to something of the impromptu, an air +of accidentalism. They were a spectacle in themselves as they advanced +through the open central space, from which the ordinary guests +instinctively withdrew to leave room for them. "Is it the Princess?" +people asked, and craned their necks to see. It must at least be a +German Serenity—the Margravine of Pimpernikēl, the Hereditary Princess +of Weissnichtwo—but more beautiful and graceful than English prejudice +expects German ladies to be. Ah, Italian! that explained +everything—their height, their grace, their dark beauty, their +effective pose. The Latin races alone know how to arrange a spectacle in +that easy way, how to produce themselves so that nobody could be +unimpressed. There was a dramatic pause before them, a hum of excitement +after they had passed. Who were they? Evidently the most distinguished +persons present—the guests of the evening. Sir Tom, uneasy enough, and +looking grave and preoccupied, which was so far from being his usual +aspect, led them into the great drawing-room, where the Duchess, who had +daughters who danced, had taken her place. He did not look as if he +liked it, but the Contessa, for her part, looked round her with a +radiant smile, and bowed very much as the Queen does in a state +ceremonial to the people she knew. She performed a magnificent curtsey, +half irony, half defiance, before the Dowager Lady Randolph, who looked +on at this progress speechless. How Lucy could permit it; how Tom could +have the assurance to do it; occupied the Dowager's thoughts. She had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_461" id="Page_461">[Pg 461]</a></span> +scarcely self-command to make a stiff sweep of recognition as the +procession passed.</p> + +<p>The Duchess was at the upper end of the room, with all her daughters +about her. Besides the younger ones who danced, there were two +countesses supporting their mother. She was the greatest lady present, +and she felt the dignity. But when she perceived the little opening that +took place among the groups about, and, looking up, perceived the +Contessa sweeping along in that regal separation, you might have blown +her Grace away with a breath. Not only was the Duchess the most +important person in the room, but her reception of the newcomer would be +final, a sort of social life or death for the Contessa. But the +supplicant approached with the air of a queen, while the arbiter of fate +grew pale and trembled at the sight. If there was a tremor in her +Grace's breast there was no less a tremor under the Contessa's velvet. +But Madame di Forno-Populo had this great advantage, that she knew +precisely what to do, and the Duchess did not know: she was fully +prepared, and the Duchess taken by surprise: and still more that her +Grace was a shy woman, whose intellect, such as it was, moved slowly, +while the Contessa was very clever, and as prompt as lightning. She +perceived at a glance that the less time the great lady had to think the +better, and hastened forward for a step or two, hurrying her stately +pace, "Ah, Duchess!" she said, "how glad I am to meet so old an +acquaintance. And I want, above all things, to have your patronage for +my little one. Bice—the Duchess, an old friend of my prosperous days, +permits me to present you to her." She drew her young companion forward +as she spoke, while the Duchess faltered and stammered a "How d'ye do?"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_462" id="Page_462">[Pg 462]</a></span> +and looked in vain for succour to her daughters, who were looking on. +Then Bice showed her blood. It had not been set down in the Contessa's +programme what she was to do, so that the action took her patroness by +surprise, as well as the great lady whom it was so important to +captivate. While the Duchess stood stiff and awkward, making a +conventional curtsey against her will, and with a conventional smile on +her mouth, Bice, with the air of a young princess, innocently, yet +consciously superior to all her surroundings, suddenly stepped forward, +and taking the Duchess's hand, bent her stately young head to kiss it. +There was in the sudden movement that air of accident, of impulse, which +we all love. It overcame all the tremors of the great lady. She said, +"My dear!" in the excitement of the moment, and bent forward to kiss the +cheek of this beautiful young creature, who was so deferential, so +reverent in her young pride. And the Duchess's daughters did not +disapprove! Still more wonderful than the effect on the Duchess was the +effect upon these ladies, of whose criticisms their mother stood in +dread. They drew close about the lovely stranger, and it immediately +became apparent to the less important guests that the Italian ladies, +the heroines of the evening, had amalgamated with the ducal party—as it +was natural they should.</p> + +<p>Never had there been a more complete triumph. The Contessa stepped in +and made hay while the sun shone. She waved off with a scarcely +perceptible movement of her hand several of her intimates who would have +gathered round her, and vouchsafed only a careless word to Montjoie, who +had hastened to present himself. The work to which she devoted herself +was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_463" id="Page_463">[Pg 463]</a></span> the amusement of the Duchess, who was not, to tell the truth, very +easily amused. But Madame di Forno-Populo had infinite resources, and +she succeeded. She selected the Dowager Lady Randolph for her butt, and +made fun of her so completely that her Grace almost exceeded the bounds +of decorum in her laughter.</p> + +<p>"You must not, really; you must not—she is a great friend of mine," the +Duchess said. But perhaps there was not much love between the two +ladies. And thus by degrees the conversation was brought round to the +Populina palace and the gay scenes so long ago.</p> + +<p>"You must have heard of our ruin," the Contessa said, looking full into +the Duchess's face; "everybody has heard of that. I have been too poor +to live in my own house. We have wandered everywhere, Bice and I. When +one is proud it is more easy to be poor away from home. But we are in +very high spirits to-day, the child and I," she added. "All can be put +right again. My little niece has come into a fortune. She has made an +inheritance. We received the news to-night only. That is how I have +recovered my spirits—and to see you, Duchess, and renew the beautiful +old times."</p> + +<p>"Oh, indeed!" the Duchess said, which was not much; but then she was a +woman of few words.</p> + +<p>"Yes, we came to London very poor," said the Contessa. "What could I do? +It was the moment to produce the little one. We have no Court. Could I +seek for her the favour of the Piedmontese? Oh no! that was impossible. +I said to myself she shall come to that generous England, and my old +friends there will not refuse to take my Bice by the hand."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_464" id="Page_464">[Pg 464]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh no; I am sure not," said the Duchess.</p> + +<p>As for Bice she had long ere now set off with Montjoie, who had hung +round her from the moment of her entrance into the room, and whose +admiration had grown to such a height by the cumulative force of +everybody else's admiration swelling into it, that he could scarcely +keep within those bounds of compliment which are permitted to an adorer +who has not yet acquired the right to be hyperbolical.</p> + +<p>"Oh yes, it's pretty enough: but you don't see half how pretty it is, +for you can't see yourself, don't you know?" said this not altogether +maladroit young practitioner. Bice gave him a smile like one of the +Contessa's smiles, which said everything that was needful without giving +her any trouble. But now that the effect of her entrance was attained, +and all that dramatic business done with, the girl's soul was set upon +enjoyment. She loved dancing as she loved every other form of rapid +movement. The only drawback was that there was so little room. "Why do +they make the rooms so small?" she said pathetically; a speech which was +repeated from mouth to mouth like a witticism, as something so +characteristic of the young Italian, whose marble halls would never be +overcrowded: though, as a matter of fact, Bice knew very little of +marble halls.</p> + +<p>"Were you ever in the gallery at the Hall?" she asked. "To go from one +end to the other, that was worth the while. It was as if one flew."</p> + +<p>"I never knew they danced down there," said Montjoie. "I thought it very +dull, don't you know, till you appeared. If I had known you had dances, +and fun going on, and other fellows cutting one out——"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_465" id="Page_465">[Pg 465]</a></span></p> + +<p>"There was but one other fellow," said Bice gravely. "I have seen in +this country no one like him. Ah, why is he not here? He is more fun +than any one, but better than fun. He is——"</p> + +<p>Montjoie's countenance was like a thunder-cloud big with fire and flame.</p> + +<p>"Trevor, I suppose you mean. I never thought that duffer could dance. He +was a great sap at school, and a hideous little prig, giving himself +such airs! But if you think all that of him——"</p> + +<p>"It was not Mr. Trevor," said Bice. Then catching sight of Lady Randolph +at a little distance, she made a dart towards her on her partner's arm.</p> + +<p>"I am telling Lord Montjoie of my partner at the Hall," she said. "Ah, +Milady, let him come and look! How he would clap his hands to see the +lights and the flowers. But we could not have our gymnastique with all +the people here."</p> + +<p>Lucy was very pale; standing alone, abstracted amid the gay crowd, as if +she did not very well know where she was.</p> + +<p>"Baby? Oh, he is quite well, he is fast asleep," she said, looking up +with dim eyes. And then there broke forth a little faint smile on her +face. "You were always good to him," she said.</p> + +<p>"So it was the baby," said Montjoie, delighted. "What a one you are to +frighten a fellow. If it had been Trevor I think I'd have killed him. +How jolly of you to do gymnastics with that little beggar; he's +dreadfully delicate, ain't he, not likely to live? But you're awfully +cruel to me. You think no more of giving a wring to my heart than if it +was a bit of rag. I think you'd like to see the blood come."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_466" id="Page_466">[Pg 466]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Let us dance," said Bice with great composure. She was bent upon +enjoyment. She had not calculated upon any conversation. Indeed she +objected to conversation on this point even when it did not interfere +with the waltz. All could be settled much more easily by the Contessa, +and if marriage was to be the end, that was a matter of business not +adapted for a ballroom. She would not allow herself to be led away to +the conservatory or any other retired nook such as Montjoie felt he must +find for this affecting purpose. Bice did not want to be proposed to. +She wanted to dance. She abandoned him for other partners without the +slightest evidence of regret. She even accepted, when he was just about +to seize upon her at the end of a dance, Mr. Derwentwater, preferring to +dance the Lancers with him to the bliss of sitting out with Lord +Montjoie. That forsaken one gazed at her with a consternation beyond +words. To leave him and the proposal that was on his very lips for a +square dance with a tutor! The young Marquis gazed after her as she +disappeared with a certain awe. It could not be that she preferred +Derwentwater. It must be her cleverness which he could not fathom, and +some wonderful new system of Italian subtlety to draw a fellow on.</p> + +<p>"I like it better than standing still—I like it—enough," said Bice. +"To dance, that is always something." Mr. Derwentwater also felt, like +Lord Montjoie, that the young lady gave but little importance to her +partner.</p> + +<p>"You like the rhythm, the measure, the woven paces and the waving +hands," her companion said.</p> + +<p>Bice stared at him a little, not comprehending. "But you prefer," he +continued, "like most ladies, the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_467" id="Page_467">[Pg 467]</a></span> modern Bacchic dance, the whirl, the +round, though what the old Puritans call promiscuous dancing of men and +women together was not, I fear, Greek——"</p> + +<p>"I know nothing of the Greeks," said Bice. "Vienna is the best place for +the valse, but Greek—no, we never were there."</p> + +<p>"I am thinking of classic terms," said MTutor with a smile, but he liked +her all the better for not knowing. "We have in vases and in sculpture +the most exquisite examples. You have never perhaps given your attention +to ancient art? I cannot quite agree with Mr. Alma Tadema on that point. +He is a great artist, but I don't think the wild leap of his dances is +sanctioned by anything we possess."</p> + +<p>"Do not take wild leaps," said Bice, "but keep time. That is all you +require in a quadrille. Why does every one laugh and go wrong. But it is +a shame! One should not dance if one will not take the trouble. And why +does <i>he</i> not do anything?" she said, in the pause between two figures, +suddenly coming in sight of Jock, who stood against the wall in their +sight, following her about with eyes over which his brows were curved +heavily; "he does not dance nor ride; he only looks on."</p> + +<p>"He reads," said Mr. Derwentwater. "The boy will be a great scholar if +he keeps it up."</p> + +<p>"One cannot read in society," said Bice. "Now, you must remember, you go +<i>that</i> way; you do not come after me."</p> + +<p>"I should prefer to come after you. That is the heavenly way when one +can follow such a leader. You remember what your own Dante——"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_468" id="Page_468">[Pg 468]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh!" murmured Bice, with a long sigh of impatience, "I have no Dante. I +have a partner who will not give himself the pains—Now," she said, with +an emphatic little pat of her foot and movement of her hands. Her soul +was in the dance, though it was only the Lancers. With a slight line of +annoyance upon her forehead she watched his performance, taking upon +herself the responsibility, pushing him by his elbow when he went wrong, +or leading him in the right way. Mr. Derwentwater had thought to carry +off his mistakes with a laugh, but this was not Bice's way of thinking. +She made him a little speech when the dance was over.</p> + +<p>"I think you are a great scholar too," she said; "but it will be well +that you should not come forward again with a lady to dance the Lancers, +for you cannot do it. And that will sometimes make a girl to have the +air of being also awkward, which is not just."</p> + +<p>Mr. Derwentwater grew very red while this speech was making to him. He +was a man of great and varied attainments, and had any one told him that +he would blush about so trivial a matter as a Lancers——! But he grew +very red and almost stammered as he said with humility, "I am afraid I +am very deficient, but with you to guide me—Signorina, there is one +divine hour which I never forget—when you sang that evening. May I +call? May I see you for half an hour to-morrow?"</p> + +<p>"Oh," said Bice, with a deep-drawn breath, "here is some one else coming +who does not dance very well! Talk to him about the Greek, and Lord +Montjoie will take me. To-morrow! oh yes, with pleasure," she said as +she took Montjoie's arm and darted away into the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_469" id="Page_469">[Pg 469]</a></span> crowd. Montjoie was +all glowing and radiant with pride and joy.</p> + +<p>"I thought I'd hang off and on and take my chance, don't you know? I +thought you'd soon get sick of that sort. You and I go together like two +birds. I have been watching you all this time, you and old Derwentwater. +What was that he said about to-morrow? I want to talk about to-morrow +too—unless, indeed to-night——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, Lord Montjoie," cried Bice, "dance! It was not to talk you came +here, and you can dance better than you talk," she added, with that +candour which distinguished her. And Montjoie flew away with her rushing +and whirling. He could dance. It was almost his only accomplishment.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLVI" id="CHAPTER_XLVI"></a>CHAPTER XLVI.</h2> + +<h3>THE BALL CONTINUED.</h3> + + +<p>Other eyes than those of her lovers followed Bice through this brilliant +scene. Sir Tom had been living a strange stagnant life since that day +before he left the Hall, when Lucy, innocently talking of Bice's English +parentage, had suddenly roused him to the question—Who was Bice, and +who her parents, English or otherwise? The suggestion was very sudden +and very simple, conveying in it no intended hint or innuendo. But it +came upon Sir Tom like a sudden thunderbolt, or rather like the firing +of some train that had been laid and prepared for explosion. The tenor +of his fears and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_470" id="Page_470">[Pg 470]</a></span> suspicions has already been indicated. Nor has it ever +been concealed from the reader of this history that there were incidents +in Sir Tom's life upon which he did not look back with satisfaction, and +which it would have grieved him much to have revealed to his wife in her +simplicity and unsuspecting trust in him. One of these was a chapter of +existence so long past as to be almost forgotten, yet unforgettable, +which gave, when he thought of it, an instant meaning to the fact that a +half-Italian girl of English parentage on one side should have been +brought mysteriously, without warning or formal introduction, to his +house by the Contessa. From that time, as has been already said, the +disturbance in his mind was great. He could get no satisfaction one way +or another. But to-night his uneasiness had taken a new and unexpected +form. Should it so happen that Bice's identity with a certain poor baby, +born in Tuscany seventeen years before, might some day be proved, what +new cares, what new charge might it not place upon his shoulders? At +such a thought Sir Tom held his very breath.</p> + +<p>The first result of such a possibility was, that he might find himself +to stand in a relationship to the girl for whom he had hitherto had a +careless liking and no more, which would change both his life and hers; +and already he watched her with uneasy eyes and with a desire to +interfere which bewildered him like a new light upon his own character. +He could scarcely understand how he had taken it all so lightly before +and interested himself so little in the fate of a young creature for +whom it would not be well to be brought up according to the Contessa's +canons, and follow her example in the world. He remembered, in the light +of this new<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_471" id="Page_471">[Pg 471]</a></span> possibility, the levity with which he had received his +wife's distress about Bice, and how lightly he had laughed at Lucy's +horror as to the Contessa's ideas of marriage, and of what her +<i>protégée</i> was to do. He had said if they could catch any decent fellow +with money enough it was the best thing that could happen to the girl, +and that Bice would be no worse off than others, and that she herself, +after the training she had gone through, was very little likely to have +any delicacy on the subject. But when it had once occurred to him that +the girl of whom he spoke so lightly might be his own child, an +extraordinary change came over Sir Tom's views. He laughed no longer—he +became so uneasy lest something should be done or said to affect Bice's +good name, or throw her into evil hands, that his thoughts had circled +unquietly round the house in Mayfair, and he had spent far more of his +time there on the watch than he himself thought right. He knew very well +the explanation that would be given of those visits of his, and he did +not feel sure that some good-natured friends might not have already +suggested suspicion to Lucy, who had certainly been very strange since +their arrival in town. But he would not give up his watch, which was in +a way, he said to himself, his duty, if—— He followed the girl's +movements with disturbed attention, and would hurry into the Park to +ride by her, to shut out an unsuitable cavalier, and make little +lectures to her as to her behaviour with an embarrassed anxiety which +Bice could not understand but which amused more than it benefited the +Contessa, to whom this result of her mystification was the best fun in +the world. But it was not amusing to Sir Tom. He regarded the society of +men<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_472" id="Page_472">[Pg 472]</a></span> who gathered about the ladies with disgust. Montjoie was about the +best—he was not old enough to be much more than silly—but even +Montjoie was not a person whom he would himself choose to be closely +connected with. Then came the question: If it should turn out that she +was <i>that</i> child, was it expedient that any one should know of it? Would +it be better for her to be known as Sir Thomas Randolph's daughter, even +illegitimate, or as the relative and dependent of the Forno-Populo? In +the one case, her interests would have no guardian at all; in the other, +what a shock it would give to his now-established respectability and the +confidence all men had in him, to make such a connection known. Turning +over everything in his thoughts, it even occurred to Sir Tom that it +would be better for him to confess an early secret marriage, and thus +save his own reputation and give to Bice a lawful standing ground. The +poor young mother was dead long ago; there could be no harm in such an +invention. Lucy could not be wounded by anything which happened so long +before he ever saw her. And Bice would be saved from all stigma; if only +it was Bice! if only he could be sure!</p> + +<p>But Sir Tom, whose countenance had not the habit of expressing anything +but a large and humorous content, the careless philosophy of a happy +temper and easy mind, was changed beyond description by the surging up +of such thoughts. He became jealous and suspicious, watching Bice with a +constant impulse to interfere, and even—while disregarding all the +safeguards of his own domestic happiness for this reason—in his heart +condemned the girl because she was not like Lucy, and followed her +movements with a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_473" id="Page_473">[Pg 473]</a></span> criticism which was as severe as that of the harshest +moralist.</p> + +<p>Nobody in that lighthearted house could understand what had come over +the good Sir Tom, not even the Contessa, who after a manner knew the +reason, yet never imagined that the idea, which gave her a sort of +malicious pleasure, would have led to such a result. Sir Tom had always +been the most genial of hosts, but in his present state of mind even in +this respect he was not himself. He kept his eye on Bice with a +sternness of regard quite out of keeping with his character. If she +should flirt unduly, if she began to show any of those arts which made +the Contessa so fascinating, he felt, with a mingling of self-ridicule +which tickled him in spite of his seriousness, that nothing could keep +him from interposing. He had been charmed in spite of himself, even +while he saw through and laughed at the Contessa's cunning ways; but to +see them in a girl who might, for all he knew, have his own blood in her +veins was a very different matter. He felt it was in him to interpose +roughly, imperiously—and if he did so, would Bice care? She would turn +upon him with smiling defiance, or perhaps ask what right had he to +meddle in her affairs. Thus Sir Tom was so preoccupied that the change +in Lucy, the effort she made to go through her necessary duties, the +blotting out of all her simple kindness and brightness, affected him +only dully as an element of the general confusion, and nothing more.</p> + +<p>But the Contessa, for her part, was radiant. She was victorious all +along the line. She had received Lucy's note informing her of the +provision she meant to make for Bice only that afternoon, and her heart +was dancing with the sense of wealth, of money to spend<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_474" id="Page_474">[Pg 474]</a></span> and endless +capability of pleasure. Whatever happened this was secure, and she had +already in the first hour planned new outlays which would make Lucy's +beneficence very little of a permanent advantage. But she said nothing +of it to Bice, who might (who could tell, girls being at all times +capricious) take into her little head that it was no longer necessary to +encourage Montjoie, on whom at present she looked complacently enough as +the probable giver of all that was best in life. This was almost enough +for one day; but the Contessa fully believed in the proverb that there +is nothing that succeeds like success, and had faith in her own +fortunate star for the other events of the evening. And she had been +splendidly successful. She had altogether vanquished the timid spirit of +the Duchess, that model of propriety. Her entry upon the London world +had been triumphant, and she had all but achieved the honours of the +drawing-room. Unless the Lord Chamberlain should interfere, and why +should he interfere? her appearance in the larger world of society would +be as triumphant as in Park Lane. Her beautiful eyes were swimming in +light, the glow of satisfaction and triumph. It fatigued her a little +indeed to play the part of a virtuous chaperon, and stand or sit in one +place all the evening, awaiting her <i>débutante</i> between the dances, +talking with the other virtuous ladies in the same exercise of patience, +and smilingly keeping aloof from all participation at first hand in the +scene which would have helped to amuse her indeed, but interfered with +the fulfilment of her <i>rôle</i>. But she had internal happiness enough to +make up to her for her self-denial. She would order that set of pearls +for Bice and the emerald pendant for herself which had tempted her so<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_475" id="Page_475">[Pg 475]</a></span> +much, to-morrow. And the Duchess was to present her, and probably this +evening Montjoie would propose. Was it possible to expect in this world +a more perfect combination of successes?</p> + +<p>Mr. Derwentwater went off somewhat discomfited to make a tour of the +rooms after the remorseless address of Bice. He tried to smile at the +mock severity of her judgment. He, no more than Montjoie, would believe +that she meant only what she said. This accomplished man of letters and +parts agreed, if in nothing else, in this, with the young fool of +quality, that such extreme candour and plain speaking was some subtle +Italian way of drawing an admirer on. He put it into finer words than +Montjoie could command, and said to himself that it was that mysterious +adorable feminine instinct which attracted by seeming to repel. And even +on a more simple explanation it was comprehensible enough. A girl who +attached so much importance to the accomplishments of society would +naturally be annoyed by the failure in these of one to whom she looked +up. A regret even moved his mind that he had not given more attention to +them in earlier days. It was perhaps foolish to neglect our +acquirements, which after all would not take very much trouble, and need +only be brought forward, as Dogberry says, when there was no need for +such vanities. He determined with a little blush at himself to note +closely how other men did, and so be able another time to acquit himself +to her satisfaction. And even her severity was sweet; it implied that he +was not to her what other men were, that even in the more trifling +accessories of knowledge she would have him to excel. If he had been +quite indifferent to her, why should she have taken this trouble? And<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_476" id="Page_476">[Pg 476]</a></span> +then that "To-morrow; with pleasure." What did it mean? That though she +would not give him her attention to-night, being devoted to her dancing +(which is what girls are brought up to in this strangely imperfect +system), she would do so on the earliest possible occasion. He went +about the room like a man in a dream, following everywhere with his eyes +that vision of beauty, and looking forward to the next step in his +life-drama with an intoxication of hope which he did not attempt to +subdue. He was indeed pleased to experience a <i>grande passion</i>. It was a +thing which completed the mental equipment of a man. Love—not humdrum +household affection, such as is all that is looked for when the +exigencies of life make a wife expedient, and with full calculation of +all he requires the man sets out to look for her and marry her. This was +very different, an all-mastering passion, disdainful of every obstacle. +To-morrow! He felt an internal conviction that, though Montjoie might +dance and answer for the amusement of an evening, that bright and +peerless creature would not hesitate as to who should be her guide for +life.</p> + +<p>It was while he was thus roaming about in a state of great excitement +and a subdued ecstasy of anticipation, that he encountered Jock, who had +not been enjoying himself at all. At this great entertainment Jock had +been considered a boy, and no more. Even as a boy, had he danced there +might have been some notice taken of him, but he was incapable in this +way, and in no other could he secure any attention. At a party of a +graver kind there were often people who were well enough pleased to talk +to Jock, and from men who owed allegiance to his school a boy who had +dis<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_477" id="Page_477">[Pg 477]</a></span>tinguished himself and done credit to the old place was always sure +of notice. But then, though high up in Sixth Form, and capable of any +eminence in Greek verse, he was nobody; while a fellow like Montjoie, +who had never got beyond the rank of lower boy, was in the front of +affairs, the admired of all admirers, Bice's chosen partner and +companion. The mind develops with a bound when it has gone through such +an experience. Jock stood with his back against the wall, and watched +everything from under his eyebrows. Sometimes there was a glimmer as of +moisture in those eyes, half veiled under eyelids heavily curved and +puckered with wrath and pain, for he was very young, not much more than +a child, notwithstanding his manhood. But what with a keenness of +natural sight, and what with the bitter enlightening medium of that +moisture, Jock saw the reality of the scene more clearly than Mr. +Derwentwater, roaming about in his dream of anticipation, self-deceived, +was capable of doing. He caught sight of Jock in his progress, and, +though it was this sentiment which had separated them, its natural +effect was also to throw them together. MTutor paused and took up a +position by his pupil's side. "What a foolish scene considered +philosophically," he said; "and yet how many human interests in +solution, and floating adumbrations of human fate! I have been dancing," +Mr. Derwentwater continued, with some solemnity and a full sense of the +superior position involved, "with, I verily believe, the most beautiful +creature in the world."</p> + +<p>Jock looked up, fixing him with a critical, slightly cynical regard. He +had been well aware of Mr. Derwentwater's very ineffective performance, +and divined<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_478" id="Page_478">[Pg 478]</a></span> too clearly the sentiments of Bice not to feel all a +spectator's derision for this uncalled-for self-complacency; but he made +no remark.</p> + +<p>"There is nothing trivial in the exercise in such a combination. I +incline to think that beauty is almost the greatest of all the +spectacles that Nature sets before us. The effect she has upon us is +greater than that produced by any other influence. You are perhaps too +young to have your mind awakened on such a subject——"</p> + +<p>To hear this foolish wisdom pouring forth, while the listener felt at +every breath how his own bosom thrilled with an emotion too deep to be +put into words, with a passion, hopeless, ridiculous, to which no one +would accord any sympathy or comment but a laugh! Heaven and earth! and +all because a fellow was some dozen years older, thinking himself a man, +and you only a boy!</p> + +<p>"——but you have a fine intelligence, and it can never be amiss for you +to approach a great subject on its most elevated side. She is not much +older than you are, Jock."</p> + +<p>"She is not so old as I am. She is three months younger than I am," +cried Jock, in his gruffest voice.</p> + +<p>"And yet she is a revelation," said Mr. Derwentwater. "I feel that I am +on the eve of a great crisis in my being. You have always been my +favourite, my friend, though you are so much younger; and in this I feel +we are more than ever sympathetic. Jock, to-morrow—to-morrow I am to +see her, to tell her—— Come out on the balcony, there is no one there, +and the moonlight and the pure air of night are more fit for such heart +opening than this crowded scene."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_479" id="Page_479">[Pg 479]</a></span></p> + +<p>"What are you going to tell her?" said Jock, with his eyebrows meeting +over his eyes and his back against the wall. "If you think she'll listen +to what you tell her! She likes Montjoie. It is not that he's rich and +that, but she likes him, don't you know, better than any of us. Oh, talk +about mysteries," cried Jock, turning his head away, conscious of that +moisture which half-blinded him, but which he could not get rid of, "how +can you account for that? She likes him, that fellow, better than either +you or me!"</p> + +<p>Better than Jock; far better than this man, his impersonation of noble +manhood, whom the most levelling of all emotions, the more than Red +Republican Love, had suddenly brought down to, nay, below, Jock's +level—for not only was he a fool like Jock, but a hopeful fool, while +Jock had penetrated the fulness of despair, and dismissed all illusion +from his youthful bosom. The boy turned his head away, and the voice +which he had made so gruff quavered at the end. He felt in himself at +that moment all the depths of profound and visionary passion, something +more than any man ever was conscious of who had an object and a hope. +The boy had neither; he neither hoped to marry her nor to get a hearing, +nor even to be taken seriously. Not even the remorse of a serious +passion rejected, the pain of self-reproach, the afterthought of pity +and tenderness would be his. He would get a laugh, nothing more. That +schoolboy, that brother of Lady Randolph's, who does not leave school +for a year! He knew what everybody would say. And yet he loved her +better than any one of them! MTutor startled, touched, went after him as +Jock turned away, and linking his arm in his, said<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_480" id="Page_480">[Pg 480]</a></span> something of the +kind which one would naturally say to a boy. "My dear fellow, you don't +mean to tell me——? Come, Jock! This is but your imagination that +beguiles you. The heart has not learned to speak so soon," MTutor said, +leaning upon Jock's shoulder. The boy turned upon him with a fiery glow +in his eyes.</p> + +<p>"What were you saying about dancing?" he said. "They seem to be making +up that Lancers business again."</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLVII" id="CHAPTER_XLVII"></a>CHAPTER XLVII.</h2> + +<h3>NEXT MORNING.</h3> + + +<p>"You have news to tell me, Bice mia?"</p> + +<p>There was a faint daylight in the streets, a blueness of dawn as the +ladies drove home.</p> + +<p>"Have I? I have amused myself very much. I am not fatigued, no. I could +continue as long—as long as you please," Bice answered, who was sitting +up in her corner with more bloom than at the beginning of the evening, +her eyes shining, a creature incapable of fatigue. The Contessa lay back +in hers, with a languor which was rather adapted to her <i>rôle</i> as a +chaperon than rendered necessary by the fatigue she felt. If she had not +been amused, she was triumphant, and this supplied a still more +intoxicating exhilaration than that of mere pleasure.</p> + +<p>"Darling!" she said, in her most expressive tone. She added a few +moments after, "But Lord Montjoie! He has spoken? I read it in his +face——"</p> + +<p>"Spoken? He said a great deal—some things that made me laugh, some +things that were not amusing.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_481" id="Page_481">[Pg 481]</a></span> After all he is perhaps a little stupid, +but to dance there is no one like him!"</p> + +<p>"And you go together—to perfection——"</p> + +<p>"Ah!" said Bice, with a long breath of pleasure, "when the people began +to go away, when there was room! Certainly we deserted our other +partners, both he and I. Does that matter in London? He says No."</p> + +<p>"Not, my angel, if you are to marry."</p> + +<p>"That was what he said," said Bice, with superb calm. "Now, I remember +that was what he said; but I answered that I knew nothing of +affairs—that it was to dance I wanted, not to talk; and that it was +you, Madama, who disposed of me. It seemed to amuse him," the girl said +reflectively. "Is it for that reason you kiss me? But it was he that +spoke, as you call it, not I."</p> + +<p>"You are like a little savage," cried the Contessa. "Don't you care then +to make the greatest marriage, to win the prize, to settle everything +with no trouble, before you are presented or anything has been done at +all?"</p> + +<p>"Is it settled then?" said Bice. She shrugged her shoulders a little +within her white cloak. "Is that all?—no more excitement, nothing to +look forward to, no tr-rouble? But it would have been more amusing if +there had been a great deal of tr-rouble," the girl said.</p> + +<p>This was in the blue dawn, when the better portion of the world which +does not go to balls was fast asleep, the first pioneers of day only +beginning to stir about the silent streets, through which now and then +the carriage of late revellers like themselves darted abrupt with a +clang that had in it something of almost guilt. Twelve hours after, the +Contessa in her boudoir—with not much more than light enough to see the +flushed<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_482" id="Page_482">[Pg 482]</a></span> and happy countenance of young Montjoie, who had been on thorns +all the night and morning with a horrible doubt in his mind lest, after +all, Bice's careless reply might mean nothing more than that fine system +of drawing a fellow on—settled everything in the most delightful way.</p> + +<p>"Nor is she without a sou, as perhaps you think. She has something that +will not bear comparison with your wealth, yet something—which has been +settled upon her by a relation. The Forno-Populi are not rich—but +neither are they without friends."</p> + +<p>Montjoie listened to this with a little surprise and impatience. He +scarcely believed it, for one thing; and when he was assured that all +was right as to Bice herself, he cared but little for the Forno-Populi. +"I don't know anything about the sous. I have plenty for both," he said, +"that had a great deal better go to you, don't you know. She is all I +want. Bice! oh that's too foreign. I shall call her Bee, for she must be +English, don't you know, Countess, none of your Bohem—Oh, I don't mean +that; none of your foreign ways. They draw a fellow on, but when it's +all settled and we're married and that sort of thing, she'll have to be +out and out English, don't you know?"</p> + +<p>"But that is reasonable," said the Contessa, who could when it was +necessary reply very distinctly. "When one has a great English name and +a position to keep up, one must be English. You shall call her what you +please."</p> + +<p>"There's one thing more," Montjoie said with a little redness and +hesitation, but a certain dogged air, with which the Contessa had not as +yet made acquaintance. "It's best to understand each other, don't you +know; it's sort of hard-hearted to take her right away. But,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_483" id="Page_483">[Pg 483]</a></span> Countess, +you're a woman of the world, and you know a fellow must start fair. You +keep all those sous you were talking of, and just let us knock along our +own way. I don't want the money, and I dare say you'll find a use for +it. And let's start fair; it'll be better for all parties, don't you +know," the young man said. He reddened, but he met the Contessa's eye +unflinchingly, though the effort to respond to this distinct statement +in the spirit in which it was made cost her a struggle. She stared at +him for a moment across the dainty little table laden with knick-knacks. +It was strange in the moment of victory to receive such a sudden +decisive defeat. There was just a possibility for a moment that this +brave spirit should own itself mere woman, and break down and cry. For +one second there was a quiver on her lip; then she smiled, which for +every purpose was the better way.</p> + +<p>"You would like," she said, "to see Bice. She is in the little +drawing-room. The lawyers will settle the rest; but I understand your +suggestion, Lord Montjoie." She rose with all her natural stately grace, +which made the ordinary young fellow feel very small in spite of +himself. The smile she gave him had something in it that made his knees +knock together.</p> + +<p>"I hope," he said, faltering, "you don't mind, Countess. My people, +though I've not got any people to speak of, might make themselves +disagreeable about—don't you know? you—you're a woman of the world."</p> + +<p>The Contessa smiled upon him once more with dazzling sweetness. "She is +in the little drawing-room," she said.</p> + +<p>And so it was concluded, the excitement, the tr-rouble, as Bice said; it +would have been far more amusing if there had been a great deal more +tr-rouble.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_484" id="Page_484">[Pg 484]</a></span> The Contessa dropped down in the corner of the sofa from +which she had risen. She closed her eyes for the moment, and swallowed +the affront that had been put upon her, and what was worse than the +affront, the blow at her heart which this trifling little lord had +delivered without flinching. This was to be the end of her schemes, that +she was to be separated summarily and remorselessly from the child she +had brought up. The Contessa knew, being of the same order of being, +that, already somewhat disappointed to find the ardour of the chase over +and all the excitement of bringing down the quarry, Bice, who cared +little more about Montjoie than about any other likely person, would be +as ready as not to throw him off if she were to communicate rashly the +conditions on which he insisted. But, though she was of the same order +of being, the Contessa was older and wiser. She had gone through a great +many experiences. She knew that rich young English peers, marquises, +uncontrolled by any parent or guardians, were fruit that did not grow on +every bush, and that if this tide of fortune was not taken at its flood +there was no telling when another might come. Now, though Bice was so +dear, the Contessa had still a great many resources of her own, and was +neither old nor tired of life. She would make herself a new career even +without Bice, in which there might still be much interest—especially +with the aid of a settled income. The careless speech about the sous was +not without an eloquence of its own. Sous make everything that is +disagreeable less disagreeable, and everything that is pleasant more +pleasant. And she had got her triumph. She had secured for her Bice a +splendid lot. She had accomplished what she had vowed to do, which many +scoffers had thought she would never do. She was about<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_485" id="Page_485">[Pg 485]</a></span> to be presented +at the English Court, and all her soils and spots from the world cleared +from her, and herself rehabilitated wherever she might go. Was it +reasonable then to break her heart over Montjoie and his miserable +conditions? He could not separate Bice's love from her, though he might +separate their lives—and that about the sous was generous. She was not +one who would have sold her affections or given up anybody whom she +loved for money. But still there were many things to be said, and for +Bice's advantage what would she not do? The Contessa ended by a +resolution which many a better woman would not have had the courage to +make. She buried Montjoie's condition in her own heart—never to hint +its existence—to ignore it as if it had not been. Many a more +satisfactory person would have flinched at this. Most of us would at +least have allowed the object of our sacrifice to be aware what we were +doing for them. The Contessa did not even, so far as this, yield to the +temptation of fate.</p> + +<p>In the meantime Bice had gone through her own little episode. Mr. +Derwentwater came about noon, before the Contessa was up; but he did not +know the Contessa's habits, and he was admitted, which neither Montjoie +nor any of the Contessa's friends would have been. He was overjoyed to +find the lady of his affections alone. This made everything, he thought, +simple and easy for him, and filled him with a delightful confidence +that she was prepared for the object of his visit and had contrived to +keep the Contessa out of the way. His heart was beating high, his mind +full of excitement. He took the chair she pointed him to, and then got +up again, poising his hat between his hands.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_486" id="Page_486">[Pg 486]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Signorina," he said, "they say that a woman always knows the impression +she has made."</p> + +<p>"Why do you call me Signorina?" said Bice. "Yes, it is quite right. But +then it is so long that I have not heard it, and it is only you that +call me so."</p> + +<p>"Perhaps," said Mr. Derwentwater, with a little natural complacency, +"others are not so well acquainted with your beautiful country and +language. What should I call you? Ah, I know what I should like to call +you. <i>Beatrice, loda di deo vera</i>. You are like the supreme and sovran +lady whom every one must think of who hears your name."</p> + +<p>Bice looked at him with a half-comic attention. "You are a very learned +man," she said, "one can see that. You always say something that is +pretty, that one does not understand."</p> + +<p>This piqued the suitor a little and brought the colour to his cheek. +"Teach me," he said, "to make you understand me. If I could show you my +heart, you would see that from the first moment I saw you the name of +Bice has been written——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, I know it already," cried Bice, "that you have a great devotion for +poetry. Unhappily I have no education. I know it so very little. But I +have found out what you mean about Bice. It is more soft than you say +it. There is no sound of <i>tch</i> in it at all. Beeshè, like that. Your +Italian is very good," she added, "but it is Tuscan, and the <i>bocca +romana</i> is the best."</p> + +<p>Mr. Derwentwater was more put out than it became a philosopher to be. "I +came," he cried, with a kind of asperity, "for a very different purpose, +not to be corrected in my Italian. I came——" but here his feelings +were too strong for him, "to lay my life and my<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_487" id="Page_487">[Pg 487]</a></span> heart at your feet. Do +you understand me now? To tell you that I love you—no, that is not +enough, it is not love, it is adoration," he said. "I have never known +what it meant before. However fair women might be, I have passed them +by; my heart has never spoken. But now! Since the first moment I saw +you, Bice——"</p> + +<p>The girl rose up; she became a little alarmed. Emotion was strange to +her, and she shrank from it. "I have given," she said, "to nobody +permission to call me by my name."</p> + +<p>"But you will give it to me! to your true lover," he cried. "No one can +admire and adore you as much as I do. It was from the first moment. +Bice, oh, listen! I have nothing to offer you but love, the devotion of +a life. What could a king give more? A true man cannot think of anything +else when he is speaking to the woman he loves. Nothing else is worthy +to offer you. Bice, I love you! I love you! Have you nothing, nothing in +return to say to me?"</p> + +<p>All his self-importance and intellectual superiority had abandoned him. +He was so much agitated that he saw her but dimly through the mists of +excitement and passion. He stretched out his hands appealing to her. He +might have been on his knees for anything he knew. It seemed incredible +to him that his strong passion should have no return.</p> + +<p>"Have you nothing, nothing to say to me?" he cried.</p> + +<p>Bice had been frightened, but she had regained her composure. She looked +on at this strange exhibition of feeling with the wondering calm of +extreme youth. She was touched a little, but more surprised than +anything else. She said, with a slight tremor, "I think it must be all a +mistake. One is never so serious—oh,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_488" id="Page_488">[Pg 488]</a></span> never so serious! It is not +something of—gravity like that. Did not you know? I am intended to make +a marriage—to marry well, very well—what you call a great marriage. It +is for that I am brought here. The Contessa would never listen—Oh, it +is a mistake altogether—a mistake! You do not know what is my career. +It has all been thought of since I was born. Pray, pray, go away, and do +not say any more."</p> + +<p>"Bice," he cried, more earnestly than ever, "I know. I heard that you +were to be sacrificed. Who is the lady who is going to sacrifice you to +Mammon? she is not your mother; you owe her no obedience. It is your +happiness, not hers, that is at stake. And I will preserve you from her. +I will guard you like my own soul; the winds of heaven shall not visit +your cheek roughly. I will cherish you; I will adore you. Come, only +come to me."</p> + +<p>His voice was husky with emotion; his last words were scarcely audible, +said within his breath in a high strain of passion which had got beyond +his control. The contrast between this tremendous force of feeling and +her absolute youthful calm was beyond description. It was more wonderful +than anything ever represented on the tragic stage. Only in the depth +and mystery of human experience could such a wonderful juxtaposition be.</p> + +<p>"Mr. Derwentwater," she said, trembling a little, "I cannot understand +you. Go away, oh, go away!"</p> + +<p>"Bice!"</p> + +<p>"Go away, oh, go away! I am not able to bear it; no one is ever so +serious. I am not great enough, nor old enough. Don't you know," cried +Bice, with a little stamp of her foot, "I like the other way best? Oh, +go away, go away!"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_489" id="Page_489">[Pg 489]</a></span></p> + +<p>He stood quiet, silently gazing at her till he had regained his power of +speech, which was not for a moment or two. Then he said hoarsely, "You +like—the other way best?"</p> + +<p>She clasped her hands together with a mingling of impatience and wonder +and rising anger. "I am made like that," she cried. "I don't know how to +be so serious. Oh, go away from me. You tr-rouble me. I like the other +best."</p> + +<p>He never knew how he got out of the strange, unnatural atmosphere of the +house in which he seemed to leave his heart behind him. The perfumes, +the curtains, the half lights, the blending draperies, were round him +one moment; the next he found himself in the greenness of the Park, with +the breeze blowing in his face, and his dream ended and done with.</p> + +<p>He had a kind of vision of having touched the girl's reluctant hand, and +even of having seen a frightened look in her eyes as if he had awakened +some echo or touched some string whose sound was new to her. But if that +were so, it was not he, but only some discovery of unknown feeling that +moved her. When he came to himself, he felt that all the innocent +morning people in the Park, the children with their maids, the sick +ladies and old men sunning themselves on the benches, the people going +about their honest business, cast wondering looks at his pale face and +the agitation of his aspect. He took a long walk, he did not know how +long, with that strange sense that something capital had happened to +him, something never to be got over or altered, which follows such an +incident in life. He was even conscious by and by, habit coming to his +aid, of a curious question in his mind if this was how people usually +felt after such a wonderful incident—a thing<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_490" id="Page_490">[Pg 490]</a></span> that had happened quite +without demonstration, which nobody could ever know of, yet which made +as much change in him as if he had been sentenced to death. Sentenced to +death! that was what it felt like more or less. It had happened, and +could never be undone, and he walked away and away, but never got beyond +it, with the chain always round his neck. When he got into the streets +where nobody took any notice of him, it struck him with surprise, almost +offence. Was it possible that they did not see that something had +happened—a mystery, something that would never be shaken off but with +life?</p> + +<p>He met Jock as he walked, and without stopping gave him a sort of +ghastly smile, and said, "You were right; she likes that best," and went +on again, with a sense that he might go on for ever like the wandering +Jew, and never get beyond the wonder and the pain.</p> + +<p>And there is no doubt that Bice was glad to hear Montjoie's laugh, and +the nonsense he talked, and to throw off that sudden impression which +had frightened her. What was it? Something which was in life, but which +she had not met with before. "We are to have it all our own way, don't +you know?" Montjoie said. "I have no people, to call people, and she is +not going to interfere. We shall have it all our own way, and have a +good time, as the Yankees say. And I am not going to call you Bice, +which is a silly sort of name, and spells quite different from its +pronunciation. What are you holding back for? You have no call to be shy +with me now. Bee, you belong to me now, don't you know?" the young +fellow said, with demonstrations from which Bice shrunk a little. She +liked, yes, his way; but, but yet—she was perhaps a little savage, as +the Contessa said.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_491" id="Page_491">[Pg 491]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLVIII" id="CHAPTER_XLVIII"></a>CHAPTER XLVIII.</h2> + +<h3>THE LAST BLOW.</h3> + + +<p>Lucy stood out stoutly to the last gasp. She did not betray herself, +except by the paleness, the seriousness which she could not banish from +her countenance. Her guests thought that Lady Randolph must be ill, that +she was disguising a bad headache, or even something more serious, under +the smile with which she received them. "I am sure you ought to be in +bed," the older ladies said, and when they took their leave of her, +after their congratulations as to the success of the evening, they all +repeated this in various tones. "I am sure you are quite worn out; I +shall send in the morning to ask how you are," the Duchess said. Lucy +listened to everything with a smile which was somewhat set and painful. +She was so worn out with emotion and pain that at last neither words nor +looks made much impression upon her. She saw the Contessa and Bice +stream by to their carriage with a circle of attendants, still in all +the dazzle and flash of their triumph; and after that the less important +crowd, the insignificant people who lingered to the last, the girls who +would not give up a last waltz, and the men who returned for a final +supper, swam in her dazed eyes. She stood at the door mechanically +shaking hands and saying "Good-night." The Dowager, moved by curiosity, +anxiety, perhaps by pity, kept by her till a late hour, though Lucy was +scarcely aware of it. When she went away at last, she repeated with +earnestness and a certain compunction the advice of the other ladies. +"You<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_492" id="Page_492">[Pg 492]</a></span> don't look fit to stand," she said. "If you will go to bed I will +wait till all these tiresome people are gone. You have been doing too +much, far too much." "It does not matter," Lucy said, in her +semi-consciousness hearing her own voice like something in a dream. "Oh, +my dear, I am quite unhappy about you!" Lady Randolph cried. "If you are +thinking of what I told you, Lucy, perhaps it may not be true." There +was a bevy of people going away at that moment, and she had to shake +hands with them. She waited till they were gone and then turned, with a +laugh that frightened the old lady, towards her.</p> + +<p>"You should have thought of that before," she said. Perhaps it might not +be true! Can heaven be veiled and the pillars of the earth pulled down +by a perhaps? The laugh sounded even to herself unnatural, and the elder +Lady Randolph was frightened by it, and stole away almost without +another word. When everybody was gone Sir Tom stood by her in the +deserted rooms, with all the lights blazing and the blue day coming in +through the curtains, as grave and as pale as she was. They did not look +like the exhausted yet happy entertainers of the (as yet) most +successful party of the season. Lucy could scarcely stand and could not +speak at all, and he seemed little more fit for those mutual +congratulations, even the "Thank heaven it is well over," with which the +master and the mistress of the house usually salute each other in such +circumstances. They stood at different ends of the room, and made no +remark. At last, "I suppose you are going to bed," Sir Tom said. He came +up to her in a preoccupied way. "I shall go and smoke a cigar first, and +it does not seem much good lighting a candle for you." They both looked +somewhat drearily at the daylight, now no<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_493" id="Page_493">[Pg 493]</a></span> longer blue, but rosy. Then +he laid his hand upon her shoulder. "You are dreadfully tired, Lucy, and +I think there has been something the matter with you these few days. I'd +ask you what it was, but I'm dead beat, and you are dreadfully tired +too." He stopped and kissed her forehead, and took her hand in his in a +sort of languid way. "Good-night; go to bed my poor little woman," he +said.</p> + +<p>It is terrible to be wroth with those we love. Anger against them is +deadly to ourselves. It "works like madness in the brain;" it involves +heaven and earth in a gloom that nothing can lighten. But when that +anger being just, and such as we must not depart from, is crossed by +those unspeakable relentings, those quick revivals of love, those sudden +touches of tenderness that carry all before them, what anguish is equal +to those bitter sweetnesses? Lucy felt this as she stood there with her +husband's hand upon her shoulder, in utter fatigue, and broken down in +all her faculties. Through all those dark and bitter mists which rose +about her, his voice broke like a ray of light: her timid heart sprang +up in her bosom and went out to him with an <i>abandon</i> which, but for the +extreme physical fatigue which produces a sort of apathy, must have +broken down everything. For a moment she swayed towards him as if she +would have thrown herself upon his breast.</p> + +<p>When this movement comes to both the estranged persons, there follows a +clearing away of difficulties, a revolution of the heart, a +reconciliation when that is possible, and sometimes when it is not +possible. But it very seldom happens that this comes to both at the same +time. Sir Tom remained unmoved while his wife had that sudden access of +reawakened tenderness.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_494" id="Page_494">[Pg 494]</a></span> He was scarcely aware even how far she had been +from him, and now was quite unaware how near. His mind was full of cares +and doubts, and an embarrassing situation which he could not see how to +manage. He was not even aware that she was moved beyond the common. He +took his hand from her shoulder, and without another word let her go +away.</p> + +<p>Oh, those other words that are never spoken! They are counterbalanced in +the record of human misfortune by the many other words which are too +much, which should never have been spoken at all. Thus all explanation, +all ending of the desperate situation, was staved off for another night.</p> + +<p>Lucy woke next morning in a kind of desperation. No new event had +happened, but she could not rest. She felt that she must do something or +die, and what could she do? She spent the early morning in the nursery, +and then went out. This time she was reasonable, not like that former +time when she went out to the city. She knew very well now that nothing +was to be gained by walking or by jolting in a disagreeable cab. On the +former occasion that had been something of a relief to her; but not now. +It is scarcely so bad when some out-of-the-way proceeding like this, +some strange thing to be done, gives the hurt and wounded spirit a +little relief. She had come to the further stage now when she knew that +nothing of the sort could give any relief; nothing but mere dull +endurance, going on, and no more. She drove to Mr. Chervil's office +quietly, as she might have gone anywhere, and thus, though it seems +strange to say so, betrayed a deeper despair than before. She took with +her a list of names with sums written opposite. There was enough there +put down to make away with a large<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_495" id="Page_495">[Pg 495]</a></span> fortune. This one so much, that one +so much. This too was an impulse of the despair in her mind. She was +carrying out her father's will in a lump. It meant no exercise of +discrimination, no careful choice of persons to be benefited, such as he +had intended, but only a hurried rush at a duty which she had neglected, +a desire to be done with it. Lucy was on the eve, she felt, of some +great change in her life. She could not tell what she might be able to +do after; whether she should live through it or bring her mind and +memory unimpaired through it, or think any longer of anything that had +once been her duty. She would get it done while she could. She was very +sensible that the money she had given to Bice was not in accordance with +what her father would have wished: neither were these perhaps. She could +not tell, she did not care. At least it would be done with, and could +not be done over again.</p> + +<p>"Lady Randolph," said Mr. Chervil, in dismay, "have you any idea of the +sum you are—throwing away?"</p> + +<p>"I have no idea of any sum," said Lucy, gently, "except just the money I +spend, so much in my purse. But you have taught me how to calculate, and +that so much would—make people comfortable. Is not that what you said? +Well, if it was not you, it was—I do not remember. When I first got the +charge of this into my hands——"</p> + +<p>"Lady Randolph, you cannot surely think what you are doing. At the +worst," said the distressed trustee, "this was meant to be a fund +for—beneficence all your life: not to be squandered away, thousands and +thousands in a day——"</p> + +<p>"Is it squandered when it gives comfort—perhaps<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_496" id="Page_496">[Pg 496]</a></span> even happiness? And +how do you know how long my life may last? It may be over—in a day——"</p> + +<p>"You are ill," said the lawyer. "I thought so the moment I saw you. I +felt sure you were not up to business to-day."</p> + +<p>"I don't think I am ill," said Lucy; "a little tired, for I was late +last night—did not you know we had a ball, a very pretty ball?" she +added, with a curious smile, half of gratification, half of mockery. "It +was a strange thing to have, perhaps, just—at this moment."</p> + +<p>"A very natural thing," said Mr. Chervil. "I am glad to know it; you are +so young, Lady Randolph, pardon me for saying so."</p> + +<p>"It was not for me," said Lucy; "it was for a young lady—my +husband's——"</p> + +<p>Was she going out of her senses? What was she about to say?</p> + +<p>"A relation?" said Mr. Chervil. "Perhaps the young lady for whom you +interested yourself so much in a more important way? They are fortunate, +Lady Randolph, who have you for a friend."</p> + +<p>"Do you think so? I don't know that any one thinks so." She recovered +herself a little and pointed to the papers. "You will carry that out, +please. I may be going away. I am not quite sure of my movements. As +soon as you can you will carry this out."</p> + +<p>"Going away—at the beginning of the season!"</p> + +<p>"Oh, there is nothing settled; and besides you know life—life is very +insecure."</p> + +<p>"At your age it is very seldom one thinks so," said the lawyer, at which +she smiled only, then rose up, and without any further remark went away. +He saw her to her carriage, not now with any recollection of the +pleasant show and the exhibition of so fine a client<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_497" id="Page_497">[Pg 497]</a></span> to the admiration +of his neighbours. He had a heart after all, and daughters of his own; +and he was troubled more than he could say. He stood bare-headed and saw +her drive away, with a look of anxiety upon his face. Was it the same +bee in her bonnet which old Trevor had shown so conspicuously? was it +eccentricity verging upon madness? He went back to his office and wrote +to Sir Tom, enclosing a copy of Lucy's list. "I must ask your advice in +the matter instead of offering you mine," he wrote. "Lady Randolph has a +right, of course, if she chooses to press matters to an extremity, but I +can't fancy that this is right."</p> + +<p>Lucy went home still in the same strange excitement of mind. All had +been executed that was in her programme. She had gone through it without +flinching. The ball—that strange, frivolous-tragic effort of +despair—it was over, thank heaven! and Bice had got full justice in +her—was it in her—father's house? She could not have been introduced +to greater advantage, Lucy thought, with a certain forlorn, simple +pride, had she been Sir Tom's acknowledged daughter. Oh, not to so much +advantage! for the Contessa, her guardian, her——was far more skilful +than Lucy ever could have been. Bice had got her triumph; nothing had +been neglected. And the other business was in train—the disposing of +the money. She had made her wishes fully known, and even taken great +trouble, calculating and transcribing to prevent any possibility of a +mistake. And now, now the moment had come, the crisis of life when she +must tell her husband what she had heard, and say to him that this +existence could not go on any longer. A man could not have two lives. +She did not mean to upbraid him. What good would it do to upbraid? none, +none at all; that would not make<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_498" id="Page_498">[Pg 498]</a></span> things as they were again, or return +to her him whom she had lost. She had not a word to say to him, except +that it was impossible—that it could not go on any more.</p> + +<p>To think that she should have this to say to him made everything dark +about her as Lucy went home. She felt as if the world must come to an +end to-night. All was straightforward, now that the need of +self-restraint was over. She contemplated no delay or withdrawal from +her position. She went in to accomplish this dark and miserable +necessity like a martyr going to the cross. She would go and see baby +first, who was his boy as well as hers. Sir Tom no doubt would be in his +library, and would come out for luncheon after a while, but not until +she had spoken. But first she would go, just for a little needful +strength, and kiss her boy.</p> + +<p>Fletcher met her at the head of the stairs.</p> + +<p>"Oh, if you please, my lady—not to hurry you or frighten you—but nurse +says please would you step in and look at baby."</p> + +<p>Suddenly, in a moment, Lucy's whole being changed. She forgot +everything. Her languor disappeared and her fatigue. She sprang up to +where the woman was standing. "What is it? is he ill? Is it the old——" +She hurried along towards the nursery as she spoke.</p> + +<p>"No, my lady, nothing he has had before; but nurse thinks he looks—oh, +my lady, there will be nothing to be frightened about—we have sent for +the doctor."</p> + +<p>Lucy was in the room where little Tom was, before Fletcher had finished +what she was saying. The child was seated on his nurse's knee. His eyes +were heavy,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_499" id="Page_499">[Pg 499]</a></span> yet blazing with fever. He was plucking with his little hot +hands at the woman's dress, flinging himself about her, from one arm, +from one side to the other. When he saw his mother he stretched out +towards her. Just eighteen months old; not able to express a thought; +not much, you will say, perhaps, to change to a woman the aspect of +heaven and earth. She took him into her arms without a word, and laid +her cheek—which was so cool, fresh with the morning air, though her +heart was so fevered and sick—against the little cheek, which burned +and glowed. "What is it? Can you tell what it is?" she said in a whisper +of awe. Was it God Himself who had stepped in—who had come to +interfere?</p> + +<p>Then the baby began to wail with that cry of inarticulate suffering +which is the most pitiful of all the utterances of humanity. He could +not tell what ailed him. He looked with his great dazed eyes pitifully +from one to another as if asking them to help him.</p> + +<p>"It is the fever, my lady," said the nurse. "We have sent for the +doctor. It may not be a bad attack."</p> + +<p>Lucy sat down, her limbs failing her, her heart failing her still more, +her bonnet and out-door dress cumbering her movements, the child tossing +and restless in her arms. This was not the form his ailments had ever +taken before. "Do you know what is to be done? Tell me what to do for +him," she said.</p> + +<p>There was a kind of hush over all the house. The servants would not +admit that anything was wrong until their mistress should come home. As +soon as she was in the nursery and fully aware of the state of affairs, +they left off their precautions. The maids appeared on the staircases +clandestinely as they ought<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_500" id="Page_500">[Pg 500]</a></span> not to have done. Mrs. Freshwater herself +abandoned her cosy closet, and declared in an impressive voice that no +bell must be rung for luncheon—nor anything done that could possibly +disturb the blessed baby, she said as she gave the order. And Williams +desired to know what was preparing for Mr. Randolph's dinner, and +announced his intention of taking it up himself. The other meal, the +lunch, in the dining-room, was of no importance to any one. If he could +take his beef-tea it would do him good, they all said.</p> + +<p>It seemed as if a long time passed before the doctor came; from Sir Tom +to the youngest kitchen-wench, the scullery-maid, all were in suspense. +There was but one breath, long drawn and stifled, when he came into the +house. He was a long time in the nursery, and when he came out he went +on talking to those who accompanied him. "You had better shut off this +part of the house altogether," he was saying, "hang a sheet over this +doorway, and let it be always kept wet. I will send in a person I can +rely upon to take the night. You must not let Lady Randolph sit up." He +repeated the same caution to Sir Tom, who came out with a bewildered air +to hear what he had said. Sir Tom was the only one who had taken no +fright. "Highly infectious," the Doctor said. "I advise you to send away +every one who is not wanted. If Lady Randolph could be kept out of the +room so much the better, but I don't suppose that is possible; anyhow, +don't let her sit up. She is just in the condition to take it. It would +be better if you did not go near the child yourself; but, of course, I +understand how difficult that is. Parents are a nuisance in such cases," +the Doctor said, with a smile which Sir Tom thought heartless, though it +was intended to cheer him. "It is<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_501" id="Page_501">[Pg 501]</a></span> far better to give the little patient +over to scientific unemotional care."</p> + +<p>"But you don't mean to say that there is danger, Doctor," cried Sir Tom. +"Why, the little beggar was as jolly as possible only this morning."</p> + +<p>"Oh, we'll pull him through, we'll pull him through," the good-natured +Doctor said. He preferred to talk all the time, not to be asked +questions, for what could he say? Nurse looked very awful as she went +upstairs, charged with private information almost too important for any +woman to contain. She stopped at the head of the stairs to whisper to +Fletcher, shaking her head the while, and Fletcher, too, shook her head +and whispered to Mrs. Freshwater that the doctor had a very bad opinion +of the case. Poor little Tom had got to be "the case" all in a moment. +And "no constitution" they said to each other under their breath.</p> + +<p>Thus the door closed upon Lucy and all her trouble. She forgot it clean, +as if it never had existed. Everything in the world in one moment became +utterly unimportant to her, except the fever in those heavy eyes. She +reflected dimly, with an awful sense of having forestalled fate, that +she had made a pretence that he was ill to shield herself that night, +the first night after their arrival. She had said he was ill when all +was well. And lo! sudden punishment scathing and terrible had come to +her out of the angry skies.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_502" id="Page_502">[Pg 502]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLIX" id="CHAPTER_XLIX"></a>CHAPTER XLIX.</h2> + +<h3>THE EXPERIENCES OF BICE.</h3> + + +<p>Sir Tom was concerned and anxious, but not alarmed like the women. After +all it was a complaint of which children recovered every day. It had +nothing to do with the child's lungs, which had been enfeebled by his +former illness. He had as good a chance as any other in the present +malady. Sir Tom was much depressed for an hour or two, but when +everything was done that could be done, and an experienced woman arrived +to whom the "case," though "anxious," as she said, did not appear +immediately alarming, he forced his mind to check that depression, and +to return to the cares which, if less grave, harassed and worried him +more. Lucy was invisible all day. She spoke to him through the closed +door from behind the curtain, but in a voice which he could scarcely +hear and which had no tone of individuality in it, but only a faint +human sound of distress. "He is no better. They say we cannot expect him +to be better," she said. "Come down, dear, and have some dinner," said +the round and large voice of Sir Tom, which even into that stillness +brought a certain cheer. But as it sounded into the shut-up room, where +nobody ventured to speak above their breath, it was like a bell pealing +or a discharge of artillery, something that broke up the quiet, and +made, or so the poor mother thought, the little patient start in his +uneasy bed. Dinner! oh how could he ask it, how could he think of it? +Sir Tom went away with a sigh of mingled<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_503" id="Page_503">[Pg 503]</a></span> uneasiness and impatience. He +had always thought Lucy a happy exception to the caprices and vagaries +of womankind. He had hoped that she was without nerves, as she had +certainly been without those whims that amuse a man in other people's +wives, but disgust him in his own. Was she going to turn out just like +the rest, with extravagant terrors, humours, fancies—like all of them? +Why should not she come to dinner, and why speak to him only from behind +the closed door? He was annoyed and almost angry with Lucy. There had +been something the matter, he reflected, for some time. She had taken +offence at something; but surely the appearance of a real trouble might, +at least, have made an end of that. He felt vexed and impatient as he +sat down with Jock alone. "You will have to get out of this, my boy," he +said, "or they won't let you go back to school; don't you know it's +catching?" To have infection in one's house, and to be considered +dangerous by one's friends, is always irritating. Sir Tom spoke with a +laugh, but it was a laugh of offence. "I ought to have thought of it +sooner," he said; "you can't go straight to school, you know, from a +house with fever in it. You must pack up and get off at once."</p> + +<p>"I am not afraid," cried Jock. "Do you think I am such a cad as to leave +Lucy when she's in trouble? or—or—the little one either?" Jock added, +in a husky voice.</p> + +<p>"We are all cads in that respect nowadays," said Sir Tom. "It is the +right thing. It is high principle. Men will elbow off and keep me at a +distance, and not a soul will come near Lucy. Well, I suppose, it's all +right. But there is some reason in it, so far as you are concerned. +Come, you must be off to-night. Get<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_504" id="Page_504">[Pg 504]</a></span> hold of MTutor, he's still in town, +and ask him what you must do."</p> + +<p>After dinner Sir Tom strolled forth. He did not mean to go out, but the +house was intolerable, and he was very uneasy on the subject of Bice. It +felt, indeed, something like a treason to Lucy, shut up in the child's +sick-room, to go to the house which somehow or other was felt to be in +opposition, and dimly suspected as the occasion of her changed looks and +ways. He did not even say to himself that he meant to go there. And it +was not any charm in the Contessa that drew him. It was that uneasy +sense of a possibility which involved responsibility, and which, +probably, he would never either make sure of or get rid of. The little +house in Mayfair was lighted from garret to basement. If the lights were +dim inside they looked bright without. It had the air of a house +overflowing with life, every room with its sign of occupation. When he +got in, the first sight he saw was Montjoie striding across the doorway +of the small dining-room. Montjoie was very much at home, puffing his +cigarette at the new comer. "Hallo, St. John!" he cried, then added with +a tone of disappointment, "Oh! it's you."</p> + +<p>"It is I, I'm sorry to say, as you don't seem to like it," said Sir Tom.</p> + +<p>The young fellow looked a little abashed. "I expected another fellow. +That's not to say I ain't glad to see you. Come in and have a glass of +wine."</p> + +<p>"Thank you," said Sir Tom. "I suppose as you are smoking the ladies are +upstairs."</p> + +<p>"Oh, they don't mind," said Montjoie; "at least the Contessa, don't you +know? She's up to a cigarette herself. I shouldn't stand it," he added, +after a moment,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_505" id="Page_505">[Pg 505]</a></span> "in—Mademoiselle. Oh, perhaps you haven't heard. She +and I—have fixed it all up, don't you know?"</p> + +<p>"Fixed it all up?"</p> + +<p>"Engaged, and that sort of thing. I'm a kind of boss in this house now. +I thought, perhaps, that was why you were coming, to hear all about it, +don't you know?"</p> + +<p>"Engaged!" cried Sir Tom, with a surprise in which there was no +qualification. He felt disposed to catch the young fellow by the throat +and pitch him out of doors.</p> + +<p>"You don't seem over and above pleased," said Montjoie, throwing away +his cigarette, and confronting Sir Tom with a flush of defiance. They +stood looking at each other for a moment, while Antonio, in the +background, watched at the foot of the stairs, not without hopes of a +disturbance.</p> + +<p>"I don't suppose that my pleasure or displeasure matters much: but you +will pardon me if I pass, for my visit was to the Contessa," Sir Tom +said, going on quickly. He was in an irritable state of mind to begin +with. He thought he ought to have been consulted, even as an old friend, +much more as—— And the young ass was offensive. If it turned out that +Sir Tom had anything to do with it Montjoie should find that to be the +best <i>parti</i> of the season was not a thing that would infallibly +recommend him to a father at least. The Contessa had risen from her +chair at the sound of the voices. She came forward to Sir Tom with both +her hands extended as he entered the drawing-room. "Dear old friend! +congratulate me. I have accomplished all I wished," she said.</p> + +<p>"That was Montjoie," said Sir Tom. He laughed, but not with his usual +laugh. "No great ambition, I am afraid. But," he said, pressing those +delicate<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_506" id="Page_506">[Pg 506]</a></span> hands not as they were used to be pressed, with a hard +seriousness and imperativeness, "you must tell me! I must have an +explanation. There can be no delay or quibbling longer."</p> + +<p>"You hurt me, sir," she said with a little cry, and looked at her hands, +"body and mind," she added, with one of her smiles. "Quibbling—that is +one of your English words a woman cannot be expected to understand. Come +then with me, barbarian, into my boudoir."</p> + +<p>Bice sat alone somewhat pensively with one of those favourite Tauchnitz +volumes from which she had obtained her knowledge of English life in her +hand. It was contraband, which made it all the dearer to her. She was +not reading, but leaning her chin against it lost in thought. She was +not pining for the presence of Montjoie, but rather glad after a long +afternoon of him that he should prefer a cigarette to her company. She +felt that this was precisely her own case, the cigarette being +represented by the book or any other expedient that answered to cover +the process of thought.</p> + +<p>Bice was not used to these processes. Keen observation of the ways of +mankind in all the strange exhibitions of them which she had seen in her +life had been the chief exercise of her lively intelligence. To Mr. +Derwentwater, perhaps, may be given the credit of having roused the +girl's mind, not indeed to sympathy with himself, but into a kind of +perturbation and general commotion of spirit. Events were crowding +quickly upon her. She had accepted one suitor and refused another within +the course of a few hours. Such incidents develop the being; not, +perhaps, the first in any great degree—but the second was not in the +programme,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_507" id="Page_507">[Pg 507]</a></span> and it had perplexed and roused her. There had come into her +mind glimmerings, reflections, she could not tell what. Montjoie was +occupied in something of the same manner downstairs, thinking it all +over with his cigarette, wondering what Society and what his uncle would +say, for whom he had a certain respect. He said to himself on the whole +that he did not care that for Society! She suited him down to the +ground. She was the jolliest girl he had ever met, besides being so +awfully handsome. It was worth while going out riding with her just to +see how the fellows stared and the women grew green with envy; or coming +into a room with her, Jove! what a sensation she would make, and how +everybody would open their eyes when she appeared blazing in the +Montjoie diamonds! His satisfaction went a little deeper than this, to +do him justice. He was, in his way, very much in love with the beautiful +creature whom he had made up his mind to secure from the first moment he +saw her. But, perhaps, if it had not been for the triumph of her +appearance at Park Lane, and the hum of admiration and wonder that rose +around her, he would not have so early fixed his fate; and the shadow of +the uncle now and then came like a cloud over his glee. After the sudden +gravity with which he remembered this, there suddenly gleamed upon him a +vision of all his plain cousins gathering round his bride to scowl her +down, and blast her with criticism and disapproval, which made him burst +into a fit of laughter. Bice would hold her own; she would give as good +as she got. She was not one to be cowed or put down, wasn't Bee! He felt +himself clapping his hands and urging her on to the combat, and +celebrated in advance with a shout of laughter the discomfiture of all +those young ladies. But she should<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_508" id="Page_508">[Pg 508]</a></span> have nothing more to do with the +Forno-Populo. No; his wife should have none of that sort about her. What +did old Randolph mean always hanging about that old woman, and all the +rest of the old fogeys? It was fun enough so long as you had nothing to +do with them, but, by Jove, not for Lady Montjoie. Then he rushed +upstairs to shower a few rough caresses upon Bice and take his leave of +her, for he had an evening engagement formed before he was aware of the +change which was coming in his life. He had been about her all the +afternoon, and Bice, disturbed in her musings by this onslaught and +somewhat impatient of the caresses, beheld his departure with +satisfaction. It was the first evening since their arrival in town, +which the ladies had planned to spend alone.</p> + +<p>And then she recommenced these thinkings which were not so easy as those +of her lover: but she was soon subject to another inroad of a very +different kind. Jock, who had never before come in the evening, appeared +suddenly unannounced at the door of the room with a pale and heavy +countenance. Though Bice had objected to be disturbed by her lover, she +did not object to Jock; he harmonised with the state of her mind, which +Montjoie did not. It seemed even to relieve her of the necessity of +thinking when he appeared—he who did thinking enough, she felt, with +half-conscious humour, for any number of people. He came in with a sort +of eagerness, yet weariness, and explained that he had come to say +good-bye, for he was going off—at once.</p> + +<p>"Going off! but it is not time yet," Bice said.</p> + +<p>"Because of the fever. But that is not altogether why I have come +either," he said, looking at her from under his curved eyebrows. "I have +got something to say."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_509" id="Page_509">[Pg 509]</a></span></p> + +<p>"What fever?" she said, sitting upright in her chair.</p> + +<p>Jock took no notice of the question; his mind was full of his own +purpose. "Look here," he said huskily, "I know you'll never speak to me +again. But there's something I want to say. We've been friends——"</p> + +<p>"Oh yes," she said, raising her head with a gleam of frank and cordial +pleasure, "good friends—<i>camarades</i>—and I shall always, always speak +to you. You were my first friend."</p> + +<p>"That is" said Jock, taking no notice, "you were—friends. I can't tell +what I was. I don't know. It's something very droll. You would laugh, I +suppose. But that's not to the purpose either. You wouldn't have +Derwentwater to-day."</p> + +<p>Bice looked up with a half laugh. She began to consider him closely with +her clear-sighted penetrating eyes, and the agitation under which Jock +was labouring impressed the girl's quick mind. She watched every change +of his face with a surprised interest, but she did not make any reply.</p> + +<p>"I never expected you would. I could have told him so. I did tell him +you liked the other best. They say that's common with women," Jock said +with a little awe, "when they have the choice offered, that it is always +the worst they take."</p> + +<p>But still Bice did not reply. It was a sort of carrying out without any +responsibility of hers, the vague wonder and questionings of her own +mind. She had no responsibility in what Jock said. She could even +question and combat it cheerfully now that it was presented to her from +outside, but for the moment she said nothing to help him on, and he did<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_510" id="Page_510">[Pg 510]</a></span> +not seem to require it, though he paused from time to time.</p> + +<p>"This is what I've got to say," Jock went on almost fiercely. "If you +take Montjoie it's a mistake. He looks good-natured and all that; he +looks easy to get on with. You hear me out, and then I'll go away and +never trouble you again. He is not—a nice fellow. If you were to go and +do such a thing as—marry him, and then find it out! I want you to know. +Perhaps you think it's mean of me to say so, like sneaking, and perhaps +it is. But, look here, I can't help it. Of course you would laugh at +me—any one would. I'm a boy at school. I know that as well as you +do——" Something got into Jock's voice so that he paused, and made a +gulp before he could go on. "But, Bice, don't have that fellow. There +are such lots; don't have <i>him</i>. I don't think I could stand it," Jock +cried. "And look here, if it's because the Contessa wants money, I have +some myself. What do I want with money? When I am older I shall work. +There it is for you, if you like. But don't—have that fellow. Have a +good fellow, there are plenty—there are fellows like Sir Tom. He is a +good man. I should not," said Jock, with a sort of sob, which came in +spite of himself, and which he did not remark even, so strong was the +passion in him. "I should not—mind. I could put up with it then. So +would Derwentwater. But, Bice——"</p> + +<p>She had risen up, and so had he. They were neither of them aware of it. +Jock had lost consciousness, perception, all thought of anything but her +and this that he was urging upon her. While as for Bice the tide had +gone too high over her head. She felt giddy in the presence of something +so much more<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_511" id="Page_511">[Pg 511]</a></span> powerful than any feeling she had ever known, and yet +gazed at him half alarmed, half troubled as she was, with a perception +that could not be anything but humorous of the boy's voice sounding so +bass and deep, sometimes bursting into childish, womanish treble, and +the boy's aspect which contrasted so strongly with the passion in which +he spoke. When Sir Tom's voice made itself audible, coming from the +boudoir in conversation with the Contessa, the effect upon the two thus +standing in a sort of mortal encounter was extraordinary. Bice straining +up to the mark which he was setting before her, bewildered with the +flood on which she was rising, sank into ease again and a mastery of the +situation, while Jock, worn out and with a sense that all was over, sat +down abruptly, and left, as it were, the stage clear.</p> + +<p>"The poor little man is rather bad, I fear," said Sir Tom, coming +through the dim room. There was something in his voice, an easier tone, +a sound of relief. How had the Contessa succeeded in cheering him? "And +what is worse (for he will do well I hope) is the scattering of all her +friends from about Lucy. I am kept out of it, and it does not matter, +you see; but she, poor little woman,"—his voice softened as he named +her with a tone of tenderness—"nobody will go near her," he said.</p> + +<p>The Contessa gave a little shiver, and drew about her the loose shawl +she wore. "What can we say in such a case? It is not for us, it is for +those around us. It is a risk for so many——"</p> + +<p>"My aunt," said Sir Tom, "would be her natural ally; but I know Lady +Randolph too well to think of that. And there is Jock, whom we are +compelled to send away. We shall be like two crows all alone in the +house."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_512" id="Page_512">[Pg 512]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Is it this you told me of, fever?" cried Bice, turning to Jock. "But it +is I that will go—oh, this moment! It is no tr-rouble. I can sit up. I +never am sleepy. I am so strong nothing hurts me. I will go directly, +now."</p> + +<p>"You!" they all cried, but the Contessa's tones were most high. She made +a protest full of indignant virtue.</p> + +<p>"Do you think," she said, "if I had but myself to think of that I would +not fly to her? But, child in your position! <i>fiancée</i> only to-day—with +all to do, all to think of, how could I leave you? Oh, it is impossible; +my good Lucy, who is never unreasonable, she will know it, she will +understand. Besides, to what use, my Bice? She has nurses for day and +night. She has her dear husband, her good husband, to be with her. What +does a woman want more? You would be <i>de trop</i>. You would be out of +place. It would be a trouble to them. It would be a blame to me. And you +would take it, and bring it back and spread it, Bice—and perhaps Lord +Montjoie——"</p> + +<p>Bice looked round her bewildered from one to another.</p> + +<p>"Should I be <i>de trop</i>?" she said, turning to Sir Tom with anxious eyes.</p> + +<p>Sir Tom looked at her with an air of singular emotion. He laid his hand +caressingly on her shoulder: "<i>De trop</i>? no; never in my house. But that +is not the question. Lucy will be cheered when she knows that you wanted +to come. But what the Contessa says is true; there are plenty of +nurses—and my wife—has me, if I am any good; and we would not have you +run any risk——"</p> + +<p>"In her position!" cried the Contessa; "<i>fiancée</i> only<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_513" id="Page_513">[Pg 513]</a></span> to-day. She owes +herself already to Lord Montjoie, who would never consent, never; it is +against every rule. Speak to her, <i>mon ami</i>, speak to her; she is a girl +who is capable of all. Tell her that now it is thought criminal, that +one does not risk one's self and others. She might bring it here, if not +to herself, to me, Montjoie, the domestics." The Contessa sank into a +chair and began fanning herself; then got up again and went towards the +girl clasping her hands. "My sweetest," she cried, "you will not be +<i>entétée</i>, and risk everything. We shall have news, good news, every +morning, three, four times a day."</p> + +<p>"And Milady," said Bice, "who has done everything, will be alone and in +tr-rouble. Sir Tom, he must leave her, he must attend to his affairs. He +is a man; he must take the air; he must go out in the world. And +she—she will be alone: when we have lived with her, when she has been +more good, more good than any one could deserve. Risk! The doctor does +not take it, who is everywhere, who will, perhaps, come to you next, +Madama; and the nurses do not take it. It is a shame," cried the girl, +throwing up her fine head, "if Love is not as good as the servants, if +to have gratitude in your heart is nothing! And the risk, what is it? An +illness, a fever. I have had a fever——"</p> + +<p>"Bice, you might bring—what is dreadful to think of," cried the +Contessa, with a shiver. "You might die."</p> + +<p>"Die!" the girl cried, in a voice like a silver trumpet with a keen +sweetness of scorn and tenderness combined. "<i>Après</i>?" she said, +throwing back her head. She was not capable of those questions which Mr. +Derwentwater and his pupil had set before her. But here she was upon +different ground.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_514" id="Page_514">[Pg 514]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Oh, she is capable of all! she is a girl that is capable of all," cried +the Contessa, sinking once more into a chair.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;" /> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_L" id="CHAPTER_L"></a>CHAPTER L.</h2> + +<h3>THE EVE OF SORROW.</h3> + + +<p>Sir Tom stepped out into the night some time after, holding Jock by the +arm. The boy had a sort of thrill and tremble in him as if he had been +reading poetry or witnessing some great tragic scene, which the elder +man partially understood without being at all aware that Jock had +himself been an actor in this drama. He himself had been dismissed out +of it, so to speak. His mind was relieved, and yet he was not so +satisfied as he expected to be. It had been proved to him that he had no +responsibility for Bice, and his anxiety relieved on that subject; +relieved, oh yes: and yet was he a little disappointed too. It would +have been endless embarrassment, and Lucy would not have liked it. Still +he had been accustoming himself to the idea, and, now that it was broken +clean off, he was not so much pleased as he had expected. Poor little +Bice! her little burst of generous gratitude and affection had gone to +his heart. If that little thing who (it appeared) had died in Florence +so many years ago had survived and grown a woman, as an hour ago he had +believed her to have done, that is how he should have liked her to feel +and to express herself. Such a sense of approval and admiration was in +him that he felt the disappointment the more. Yes, he supposed it was a +disappointment. He had begun to get used<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_515" id="Page_515">[Pg 515]</a></span> to the idea, and he had always +liked the girl; but of course it was a relief—the greatest relief—to +have no explanation to make to Lucy, instead of the painful one which +perhaps she would only partially believe. He had felt that it would be +most difficult to make her understand that, though this was so, he had +not been in any plot, and had not known of it any more than she did when +Bice was brought to his house. This would have been the difficult point +in the matter, and now, heaven be praised! all that was over, and there +was no mystery, nothing to explain. But so strange is human sentiment +that the world felt quite impoverished to Sir Tom, though he was much +relieved. Life became for the moment a more commonplace affair +altogether. He was free from the annoyance. It mattered nothing to him +now who she married—the best <i>parti</i> in society, or Jock's tutor, or +anybody the girl pleased. If it had not been for that exhibition of +feeling Sir Tom would probably have said to himself, satirically, that +there could be little doubt which the Contessa's ward and pupil would +choose. But after that little scene he came out very much shaken, +touched to the heart, thinking that perhaps life would have been more +full and sweet had his apprehensions been true. She had been overcome by +the united pressure of himself and the Contessa, and for the moment +subdued, though the fire in her eye and swelling of her young bosom +seemed to say that the victory was very incomplete. He would have liked +the little one that died to have looked like that, and felt like that, +had she lived to grow a woman like Bice. Great heaven, the little one +that died! The words as they went through his mind sent a chill to Sir +Tom's breast. Might it be that they would be said again—once<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_516" id="Page_516">[Pg 516]</a></span> more—and +that far-back sin bring thus a punishment all the more bitter for being +so long delayed. Human nature will never get to believe that God is not +lying in wait somewhere to exact payment of every account.</p> + +<p>"She understands that," said Jock suddenly. "She don't know the meaning +of other things."</p> + +<p>"What may be the other things?" said Sir Tom, feeling a half jealousy of +anything that could be said to Bice's disadvantage. "I don't think she +is wanting in understanding. Ah, I see. You don't know how any one could +resist the influence of MTutor, Jock."</p> + +<p>Through the darkness under the feeble lamp Jock shot a glance at his +elder of that immeasurable contempt which youth feels for the absence of +all penetration shown by its seniors, and their limited powers of +observation. But he said nothing. Perhaps he could not trust himself to +speak.</p> + +<p>"Don't think I'm a scoffer, my boy," said Sir Tom. "MTutor's a very +decent fellow. Let us go and look him up. He would be better, to my +thinking, if he were not quite so fine, you know. But that's a trifle, +and I'm an old fogey. You are not going back to Park Lane to-night."</p> + +<p>"After what you heard her say? Do you think I've got no heart either? If +I could have it instead of him!"</p> + +<p>"But you can't, my boy," Sir Tom said with a pressure of Jock's arm. +"And you must not make Lucy more wretched by hanging about. There's the +mystery," he broke out suddenly. "You can't—none of us can. What might +be nothing to you or me may be death to that little thing, but it is he +that has to go through with it; life is a horrible sort of pleasure, +Jock."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_517" id="Page_517">[Pg 517]</a></span></p> + +<p>"Is it a pleasure?" the boy said under his breath. Life in him at that +moment was one big heavy throbbing through all his being, full of +mysterious powers unknown, of which Death was the least—yet, coming as +he did a great shadow upon the feeblest, a terrible and awe-striking +power beyond the strength of man to understand.</p> + +<p>After this night, so full of emotion, there came certain days which +passed without sign or mark in the dim great house looking out upon all +the lively sights and sounds of the great park. The sun rose and +reddened the windows, the noon blazed, the gray twilight touched +everything into colour. In the chamber which was the centre of all +interest no one knew or cared how the hours went, and whether it was +morning or noon or night. Instead of these common ways of reckoning, +they counted by the hours when the doctor came, when the child must have +his medicine, when it was time to refresh the little cot with cool clean +linen, or sponge the little hot hands. The other attendants took their +turns and rested, but Lucy was capable of no rest. She dozed sometimes +with her eyes half opened, hearing every movement and little cry. +Perhaps as the time went on and the watch continued her faculties were a +little blunted by this, so that she was scarcely full awake at any time, +since she never slept. She moved mechanically about, and was conscious +of nothing but a dazed and confused misery, without anticipation or +recollection. Something there was in her mind besides, which perhaps +made it worse; she could not tell. Could anything make it worse? The +heart, like any other vessel, can hold but what it is capable of, and no +more.</p> + +<p>It is not easy to estimate what is the greatest sor<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_518" id="Page_518">[Pg 518]</a></span>row of human life. +It is that which has us in its grip, whatever it may be. Bereavement is +terrible until there comes to you a pang more bitter from living than +from dying: and one grief is supreme until another tops it, and the sea +comes on and on in mountain waves. But perhaps of all the endurances of +nature there is none which the general consent would agree upon as the +greatest, like that of a mother watching death approach, with noiseless, +awful step, to the bed of her only child. If humanity can approach more +near the infinite in capacity of suffering, it is hard to know how. We +must all bow down before this extremity of anguish, humbly begging the +pardon of that sufferer, that in our lesser griefs, we dare to bemoan +ourselves in her presence. And whether it is the dear companion—man or +woman grown—or the infant out of her clasping arms, would seem to +matter very little. According as it happens, so is the blow the most +terrible. To Lucy, enveloped by that woe, there could have been no +change that would not have lightened something (or so she felt) of her +intolerable burden. Could he have breathed his fever and pain into +words, could he have told what ailed him, could he have said to her only +one little phrase of love, to be laid up in her heart! But the pitiful +looks of those baby eyes, now bright with fever, now dull as dead +violets, the little inarticulate murmurings, the appeals that could not +be comprehended, added such a misery as was almost too much for flesh +and blood to bear. This terrible ordeal was what Lucy had to go through. +The child, though he had, as the maids said, no constitution, and though +he had been enfeebled by illness for half his little lifetime, fought on +hour after hour and day after day. Sometimes there was a look in his +little face as of a conscious intelligence<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_519" id="Page_519">[Pg 519]</a></span> fighting a brave battle for +life. His young mother beside him rose and fell with his breath, lived +only in him, knew nothing but the vicissitudes of the sick room, taking +her momentary broken rest when he slept, only to start up when, with a +louder breath, a little cry, the struggle was resumed. The nurses could +not, it would be unreasonable to expect it, be as entirely absorbed in +their charge as was his mother. They got to talk at last, not minding +her presence, quite freely in half whispers about other "cases," of +patients and circumstances they had known. Stories of children who had +died, and of some who had been miraculously raised from the brink of the +grave, and of families swept away and houses desolated, seemed to get +into the air of the room and float about Lucy, catching her confused +ear, which was always on the watch for other sounds. Three or four times +a day Sir Tom came to the door for news, but was not admitted, as the +doctor's orders were stringent. There was no one admitted except the +doctor; no cheer or comfort from without came into the sick room. Sir +Tom did his best to speak a cheerful word, and would fain have persuaded +Lucy to come out into the corridor, or to breathe the fresh air from a +balcony. But Lucy, had she been capable of leaving the child, had a dim +recollection in her mind that there was something, she could not tell +what, interposing between her and her husband, and turned away from him +with a sinking at her heart. She remembered vaguely that he had +something else—some other possessions to comfort him—not this child +alone as she had. He had something that he could perhaps love as +well—but she had nothing; and she turned away from him with an +instinctive sense of the difference, feeling it to be a wrong to her +boy. But<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_520" id="Page_520">[Pg 520]</a></span> for this they might have comforted each other, and consulted +each other over the fever and its symptoms. And she might have stolen a +few moments from her child's bed and thrown herself on her husband's +bosom and been consoled. But after all what did it matter? Could +anything have made it more easy to bear? When sorrow and pain occupy the +whole being, what room is there for consolation, what importance in the +lessening by an infinitesimal shred of sorrow!</p> + +<p>This had gone on for—Lucy could not tell how many days (though not in +reality for very many), when there came one afternoon in which +everything seemed to draw towards the close. It is the time when the +heart fails most easily and the tide of being runs most low. The light +was beginning to wane in those dim rooms, though a great golden sunset +was being enacted in purple and flame on the other side of the house. +The child's eyes were dull and glazed; they seemed to turn inward with +that awful blank which is like the soul's withdrawal; its little powers +seemed all exhausted. The little moan, the struggle, had fallen into +quiet. The little lips were parched and dry. Those pathetic looks that +seemed to plead for help and understanding came no more. The baby was +too much worn out for such painful indications of life. The women had +drawn aside, all their talk hushed, only a faint whisper now and then of +directions from the most experienced of the two to the subordinates +aiding the solemn watch. Lucy sat by the side of the little bed on the +floor, sometimes raising herself on her knees to see better. She had +fallen into the chill and apathy of despair.</p> + +<p>At this time a door opened, not loudly or with any breach of the decorum +of such a crisis, but with a dis<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_521" id="Page_521">[Pg 521]</a></span>tinct soft sound, which denoted some +one not bound by the habits of a sick room. A step equally distinct, +though soft, not the noiseless step of a watcher, came in through the +outer room and to the bed. The women, who were standing a little apart, +gave a low, involuntary cry. It looked like health and youthful vigour +embodied which came sweeping into the dim room to the bedside of the +dying child. It was Bice, who had asked no leave, who fell on her knees +beside Lucy and stooped down her beautiful head, and kissed the hand +which lay on the baby's coverlet. "Oh, pardon me," she said, "I could +not keep away any longer. They kept me by force, or I would have come +long, long since. I have come to stay, that you may have some rest, for +I can nurse him—oh, with all my heart!"</p> + +<p>She had said all this hurriedly in a breath before she looked at the +child. Now she turned her head to the little bed. Her countenance +underwent a sudden change. The colour forsook her cheeks, her lips +dropped apart. She turned round to the nurse with a low cry, with a +terrified question in her eyes.</p> + +<p>"You see," said Lucy, speaking with a gasp as if in answer to some +previous argument, "she thinks so, too——" Then there was a terrible +pause. There seemed to come another "change," as the women said, over +the little face, out of which life ebbed at every breath. Lucy started +to her feet; she seized Bice's arm and raised her, which would have been +impossible in a less terrible crisis. "Go," she said; "Go, Bice, to your +father, and tell him to come, for my boy is dying Go—go!"</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_522" id="Page_522">[Pg 522]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_LI" id="CHAPTER_LI"></a>CHAPTER LI.</h2> + +<h3>THE LAST CRISIS.</h3> + + +<p>"Go to your father." Bice did not know what Lucy meant. The words +bewildered her beyond description, but she did not hesitate what to do. +She went downstairs to Sir Tom, who sat with his door opened and his +heart sinking in his bosom waiting to hear. There was no need for any +words. He followed her at once, almost as softly and as noiselessly as +she had come. And when they entered the dim room, where by this time +there was scarcely light enough for unaccustomed eyes to see, he went up +to Lucy and put his arms round her as she stood leaning on the little +bed. "My love," he said, "my love; we must be all in all to each other +now." His voice was choked and broken, but it did not reach Lucy's +heart. She put him away from her with an almost imperceptible movement. +"You have others," she said hoarsely; "I have nothing, nothing but him." +Just then the child stirred faintly in his bed, and first extending her +arms to put them all away from her, Lucy bent over him and lifted him to +her bosom. The nurse made a step forward to interfere, but then stepped +back again wringing her hands. The mother had risen into a sort of +sublimity, irresponsible in her great woe—if she had killed him to +forestall her agony a little, as is the instinct of desperation, they +could not have interfered. She sat down, and gathered the child close, +close in her embrace, his head upon her breast, holding him as if to +communicate life to him with the contact of hers. Her breath, her arms, +her whole being<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_523" id="Page_523">[Pg 523]</a></span> enveloped the little dying creature with a fulness of +passionate existence expanded to its highest. It was like taking back +the half-extinguished germ into the very bosom and core of life. They +stood round her with an awe of her, which would permit no intrusion +either of word or act. Even the experienced nurse who believed that the +little spark of life would be shaken out by this movement, only wrung +her hands and said nothing. The rest were but as spectators, gathering +round to see the tragedy accomplished and the woman's heart shattered +before their eyes.</p> + +<p>Which was unjust too—for the husband who stood behind was as great a +sufferer. He was struck in everything a man can feel most, the instincts +of paternal love awakened late, the pride a man has in his heir, all +were crushed in him by a blow that seemed to wring his very heart out of +his breast; but neither did any one think of him, nor did he think of +himself. The mother that bare him!—that mysterious tie that goes beyond +and before all, was acknowledged by them all without a word. It was hers +to do as she pleased. The moments are long at such a time. They seemed +to stand still on that strange scene. The light remained the same; the +darkness seemed arrested, perhaps because it had come on too early on +account of clouds overhead; perhaps because time was standing still to +witness the easy parting of a soul not yet accustomed to this earth; the +far more terrible rending of the woman's heart.</p> + +<p>Presently a sensation of great calm fell, no one could tell how, into +the room. The terror seemed to leave the hearts of the watchers. Was it +the angel who had arrived and shed a soothing from his very presence +though he had come to accomplish the end?<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_524" id="Page_524">[Pg 524]</a></span></p> + +<p>Another little change, almost imperceptible, Lucy beginning to rock her +child softly, as if lulling him to sleep. No one moved, or even +breathed, it seemed, for how long? some minutes, half a lifetime. Then +another sound. Oh, God in heaven! had she gone distracted, the innocent +creature, the young mother, in her anguish? She began to sing—a few low +notes, a little lullaby, in a voice ineffable, indescribable, not like +any mortal voice. One of the women burst out into a wail—it was the +child's nurse—and tried to take him from the mother's arms. The other +took her by the shoulders and turned her away. "What does it matter, a +few minutes more or less; she'll come to herself soon enough, poor +dear," said the attendant with a sob. Thus the group was diminished. Sir +Tom stood with one hand on his wife's chair, his face covered with the +other, and in his heart the bitterness of death; Bice had dropped down +on her knees by the side of that pathetic group; and in the midst sat +the mother bent over, almost enfolding the child, cradling him in her +own life. Bice was herself not much more than a child; to her all things +were possible—miracles, restorations from the dead. Her eyes were full +of tears, but there was a smile upon her quivering mouth. It was at her +Lucy looked, with eyes full of something like that "awful rose of dawn" +of which the poet speaks. They were dilated to twice their natural size. +She made a slight movement, opening to Bice the little face upon her +bosom, bidding her look as at a breathless secret to be kept from all +else. Was it a reflection or a faint glow of warmth upon the little worn +cheek? The eyes were no longer open, showing the white, but closed, with +the eyelashes shadowing against the cheek. There came into Lucy's eyes a +sort of warning look to keep the secret, and the won<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_525" id="Page_525">[Pg 525]</a></span>derful spectacle +was, as it were, closed again, hidden with her arms and bending head. +And the soft coo of the lullaby went on.</p> + +<p>Presently the women stole back, awed and silenced, but full of a +reviving thrill of curiosity. The elder one, who was from the hospital +and prepared for everything, drew nearer, and regarded with a +scientific, but not unsympathetic eye, the mother and the child. She +withdrew a little the shawl in which the infant was wrapped, and put her +too-experienced, instructed hands upon his little limbs, without taking +any notice of Lucy, who remained passive through this examination. "He's +beautiful and warm," said the woman, in a wondering tone. Then Bice rose +to her feet with a quick sudden movement, and went to Sir Tom and drew +his hand from his face. "He is not dying, he is sleeping," she said. +"And I think, miss, you're right. He has taken a turn for the better," +said the experienced woman from the hospital. "Don't move, my lady, +don't move; we'll prop you with cushions—we'll pull him through still, +please God," the nurse said, with a few genuine tears.</p> + +<p>When the doctor came some time after, instead of watching the child's +last moments, he had only to confirm their certainty of this favourable +change, and give his sanction to it; and the cloud that had seemed to +hang over it all day lifted from the house. The servants began to move +about again and bustle. The lamps were lighted. The household resumed +their occupations, and Williams himself in token of sympathy carried up +Mr. Randolph's beef-tea. When Lucy, after a long interval, was liberated +from her confined attitude and the child restored to his bed, the +improvement was so evident that she allowed herself to be persuaded to +lie down and rest. "Milady," said Bice, "I am not good<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_526" id="Page_526">[Pg 526]</a></span> for anything, +but I love him. I will not interfere, but neither will I ever take away +my eyes from him till you are again here." There was no use in this, but +it was something to the young mother. She lay down and slept, for the +first time since the illness began; slept not in broken, painful +dozings, but a real sleep. She was not in a condition to think; but +there was a vague feeling in her mind that here was some one, not as +others were, to whom little Tom was something more than to the rest. +Consciously she ought to have shrunk from Bice's presence; unconsciously +it soothed her and warmed her heart.</p> + +<p>Sir Tom went back to his room, shaken as with a long illness, but +feeling that the world had begun again, and life was once more liveable. +He sat down and thought over every incident, and thanked God with such +tears as men too, like women, are often fain to indulge in, though they +do it chiefly in private. Then, as the effect of this great crisis began +to go off a little, and the common round to come back, there recurred to +his mind Lucy's strange speech, "You have others——" What others was he +supposed to have? She had drawn herself away from him. She had made no +appeal to his sympathy. "You have—others. I have nothing but him." What +did Lucy mean? And then he remembered how little intercourse there had +been of late between them, how she had kept aloof from him. They might +have been separated and living in different houses for all the union +there had been between them. "You have others——" What did Lucy mean?</p> + +<p>He got up, moved by the uneasiness of this question, and began to pace +about the floor. He had no others; never had a man been more devoted to +his own house. She had not been exacting, nor he uxorious.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_527" id="Page_527">[Pg 527]</a></span> He had lived +a man's life in the world, and had not neglected his duties for his +wife; but he reminded himself, with a sort of indignant satisfaction, +that he had found Lucy far more interesting than he expected, and that +her fresh curiosity, her interest in everything, and the just enough of +receptive intelligence, which is more agreeable than cleverness, had +made her the most pleasant companion he had ever known. It was not an +exercise of self-denial, of virtue on his part, as the Dowager and +indeed many other of his friends had attempted to make out, but a real +pleasure in her society. He had liked to talk to her, to tell her his +own past history (selections from it), to like, yet laugh at her simple +comments. He never despised anything she said, though he had laughed at +some of it with a genial and placid amusement. And that little beggar! +about whom Sir Tom could not even think to-day without a rush of water +to his eyes—could any man have considered the little fellow more, or +been more proud of him or fond? He could not live in the nursery, it was +true, like Lucy, but short of that—"Others." What could she mean? There +were no others. He was content to live and die, if but they might be +spared to him, with her and the boy. A sort of chill doubt that somebody +might have breathed into her ear that suggestion about Bice's parentage +did indeed cross his mind; but ever since he had ascertained that this +fear was a delusion, it had seemed to him the most ridiculous idea in +the world. It had not seemed so before; it had appeared probable enough, +nay, with many coincidences in its favour. And he had even been +conscious of something like disappointment to find that it was not true. +But now it seemed to him too absurd for credence; and what creature in +the world, except<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_528" id="Page_528">[Pg 528]</a></span> himself, could have known the circumstances that made +it possible? No one but Williams, and Williams was true.</p> + +<p>It was not till next morning that the ordinary habits of the household +could be said to be in any measure resumed. On that day Bice came down +to breakfast with Sir Tom with a smiling brightness which cheered his +solitary heart. She had gone back out of all her finery to the simple +black frock, which she told him had been the easiest thing to carry. +This was in answer to his question, "How had she come? Had the Contessa +sent her?" Bice clapped her hands with pleasure, and recounted how she +had run away.</p> + +<p>"The news were always bad, more bad; and Milady all alone. At length the +time came when I could bear it no longer. I love him, my little Tom; and +Milady has always been kind, so kind, more kind than any one. Nobody has +been kind to me like her, and also you, Sir Tom; and baby that was my +darling," the girl said.</p> + +<p>"God bless you, my dear," said Sir Tom; "but," he added, "you should not +have done it. You should have remembered the infection."</p> + +<p>Bice made a little face of merry disdain and laughed aloud. "Do I care +for infection? Love is more strong than a fever. And then," she added, +"I had a purpose too."</p> + +<p>Sir Tom was delighted with her girlish confidences about her frock and +her purpose. "Something very grave, I should imagine, from those looks."</p> + +<p>"Oh, it is very grave," said Bice, her countenance changing. "You know I +am <i>fiancée</i>. There has been a good deal said to me of Lord Montjoie; +sometimes that he was not wise, what you call silly, not<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_529" id="Page_529">[Pg 529]</a></span> clever, not +good to have to do with. That he is not clever one can see; but what +then? The clever they do not always please. Others say that he is a +great <i>parti</i>, and all that is desirable. Myself," she added with an air +of judicial impartiality, "I like him well enough; even when he does not +please me, he amuses. The clever they are not always amusing. I am +willing to marry him since it is wished, otherwise I do not care much. +For there is, you know, plenty of time, and to marry so soon—it is a +disappointment, it is no longer exciting. So it is not easy to know +distinctly what to do. That is what you call a dilemma," Bice said.</p> + +<p>"It is a serious dilemma," said Sir Tom, much amused and flattered too. +"You want me then to give you my advice——"</p> + +<p>"No," said Bice, which made his countenance suddenly blank, "not advice. +I have thought of a way. All say that it is almost wicked, at least very +wrong to come here (in the Tauchnitz it would be miserable to be afraid, +and so I think), and that the fever is more than everything. Now for me +it is not so. If Lord Montjoie is of my opinion, and if he thinks I am +right to come, then I shall know that, though he is not clever—— Yes; +that is my purpose. Do you think I shall be right?"</p> + +<p>"I see," said Sir Tom, though he looked somewhat crestfallen. "You have +come not so much for us, though you are kindly disposed towards us, but +to put your future husband to the test. There is only this drawback, +that he might be an excellent fellow and yet object to the step you have +taken. Also that these sort of tests are very risky, and that it is +scarcely worth while for this, to run the risk of a bad illness, perhaps +of your life."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_530" id="Page_530">[Pg 530]</a></span></p> + +<p>"That is unjust," said Bice with tears in her eyes. "I should have come +to Milady had there been no Montjoie at all. It is first and above all +for her sake. I will have a fever for her, oh willingly!" cried the +girl. Then she added after a little pause: "Why did she bid me 'go to +your father and tell him——?' What does that mean, go to my father? I +have never had any father."</p> + +<p>"Did she say that?" Sir Tom cried. "When? and why?"</p> + +<p>"It was when all seemed without hope. She was kneeling by the bed, and +he, my little boy, my little darling! Ah," cried Bice, with a shiver. +"To think it should have been so near! when God put that into her mind +to save him. She said 'Go to your father, and tell him my boy is dying.' +What did she mean? I came to you; but you are not my father."</p> + +<p>He had risen up in great agitation and was walking about the room. When +she said these words he came up to her and laid his hand for a moment on +her head. "No," he said, with a sense of loss which was painful; "No, +the more's the pity, Bice. God bless you, my dear."</p> + +<p>His voice was tremulous, his hand shook a little. The girl took it in +her pretty way and kissed it. "You have been as good to me as if it were +so. But tell me what Milady means? for at that moment she would say +nothing but what was at the bottom of her heart."</p> + +<p>"I cannot tell you, Bice," said Sir Tom, almost with tears. "If I have +made her unhappy, my Lucy, who is better than any of us, what do I +deserve? what should be done to me? And she has been unhappy, she has +lost her faith in me. I see it all now."<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_531" id="Page_531">[Pg 531]</a></span></p> + +<p>Bice sat and looked at him with her eyes full of thought. She was not a +novice in life though she was so young. She had heard many a tale not +adapted for youthful ears. That a child might have a father whose name +she did not bear and who had never been disclosed to her was not +incomprehensible, as it would have been to an English girl. She looked +him severely in the face, like a young Daniel come to judgment. Had she +been indeed his child to what a terrible ordeal would Sir Tom have been +exposed under the light of those steady eyes. "Is it true that you have +made her unhappy?" she said, as if she had the power of death in her +hands.</p> + +<p>"No!" he said, with a sudden outburst of feeling. "No! there are things +in my life that I would not have raked up; but since I have known her, +nothing; there is no offence to her in any record of my life——"</p> + +<p>Bice looked at him still unfaltering. "You forget us—the Contessa and +me. You brought us, though she did not know. We are not like her, but +you brought us to her house. Nevertheless," said the young judge +gravely, "that might be unthoughtful, but not a wrong to her. Is it +perhaps a mistake?"</p> + +<p>"A mistake or a slander, or—some evil tongue," he cried.</p> + +<p>Bice rose up from the chair which had been her bench of justice, and +walked to the door with a stately step, befitting her office, full of +thought. Then she paused again for a moment and looked back and waved +her hand. "I think it is a pity," she said with great gravity. She +recognised the visionary fitness as he had done. They would have suited +each other, when it was thus suggested to them, for father and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_532" id="Page_532">[Pg 532]</a></span> +daughter; and that it was not so, by some spite of fate, was a pity. She +found Lucy dressed and refreshed sitting by the bed of the child, who +had already begun to smile faintly. "Milady," said Bice, "will you go +downstairs? There is a long time that you have not spoken to Sir Tom. Is +he afraid of your fever? No more than me! But his heart is breaking for +you. Go to him, Milady, and I will stay with the boy."</p> + +<p>It was not for some time that Lucy could be persuaded to go. He +had—others. What was she to him but a portion of his life? and the +child was all of hers: a small portion of his life only a few years, +while the others had a far older and stronger claim. There was no anger +in her mind, all hushed in the exhaustion of great suffering past, but a +great reluctance to enter upon the question once more. Lucy wished only +to be left in quiet. She went slowly, reluctantly, downstairs. Unhappy? +No. He had not made her unhappy. Nothing could make her unhappy now that +her child was saved. It seemed to Lucy that it was she who had been ill +and was getting better, and she longed to be left alone. Sir Tom was +standing against the window with his head upon his hand. He did not hear +her light step till she was close to him. Then he turned round, but not +with the eagerness for her which Bice had represented. He took her hand +gently and drew it within his arm.</p> + +<p>"All is going well?" he said, "and you have had a little rest, my dear? +Bice has told me——"</p> + +<p>She withdrew a little the hand which lay on his arm. "He is much +better," she said; "more than one would have thought possible."</p> + +<p>"Thank God!" Sir Tom cried; and they were<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_533" id="Page_533">[Pg 533]</a></span> silent for a moment, united +in thanksgiving, yet so divided, with a sickening gulf between them. +Lucy felt her heart begin to stir and ache that had been so quiet. "And +you," he said, "have had a little rest? Thank God for that too. Anything +that had happened to him would have been bad enough; but to you, +Lucy——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, hush, hush," she cried, "that is over; let us not speak of anything +happening to him."</p> + +<p>"But all is not over," he said. "Something has happened—to us. What did +you mean when you spoke to me of others? 'You have others.' I scarcely +noticed it at that dreadful moment; but now—— Who are those others, +Lucy? Whom have I but him and you?"</p> + +<p>She did not say anything, but withdrew her hand altogether from his arm, +and looked at him. A look scarcely reproachful, wistful, sorrowful, +saying, but not in words, in its steady gaze—You know.</p> + +<p>He answered as if it had been speech.</p> + +<p>"But I don't know. What is it, Lucy? Bice too has something she asked me +to explain, and I cannot explain it. You said to her, 'Go to your +father.' What is this? You must tell what you mean."</p> + +<p>"Bice?" she said, faltering; "it was at a moment when I did not think +what I was saying."</p> + +<p>"No, when you spoke out that perilous stuff you have got in your heart. +Oh, my Lucy, what is it, and who has put it there?"</p> + +<p>"Tom," she said, trembling very much. "It is not Bice; she—that—is +long ago—if her mother had been dead. But a man cannot have two lives. +There cannot be two in the same place. It is not jealousy. I am not +finding fault. It has been perhaps without<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_534" id="Page_534">[Pg 534]</a></span> intention; but it is not +befitting—oh, not befitting. It cannot—oh, it is impossible! it must +not be."</p> + +<p>"What must not be? Of what in the name of heaven are you speaking?" he +cried.</p> + +<p>Once more she fixed on him that look, more reproachful this time, full +of meaning and grieved surprise. She drew away a little from his side. +"I did not want to speak," she said. "I was so thankful; I want to say +nothing. You thought you had left that other life behind; perhaps you +forgot altogether. They say that people do. And now it is here at your +side, and on the other side my little boy and me. Ah! no, no, it is not +befitting, it cannot be——"</p> + +<p>"I understand dimly," he said; "they have told you Bice was my child. I +wish it were so. I had a child, Lucy, it is true, who is dead in +Florence long ago. The mother is dead too, long ago. It is so long past +that, if you can believe it, I had—forgotten."</p> + +<p>"Dead!" she said. And there came into her mild eyes a scared and +frightened look. "And—the Contessa?"</p> + +<p>"The Contessa!" he cried.</p> + +<p>They were standing apart gazing at each other with something more like +the heat of a passionate debate than had ever arisen between them, or +indeed seemed possible to Lucy's tranquil nature, when the door was +suddenly opened and the voice of Williams saying, "Sir Thomas is here, +my lady," reduced them both in an instant to silence. Then there was a +bustle and a movement, and of all wonderful sights to meet their eyes, +the Contessa herself came with hesitation into the room. She had her +handkerchief pressed against the lower part of her face, from above +which her eyes looked out watchfully. She gave a little<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_535" id="Page_535">[Pg 535]</a></span> shriek at the +sight of Lucy. "I thought," she said, "Sir Tom was alone. Lucy, my +angel, my sweetest, do not come near me!" She recoiled to the door which +Williams had just closed. "I will say what I have to say here. Dearest +people, I love you, but you are charged with pestilence. My Lucy, how +glad I am for your little boy—but every moment they tell me increases +the danger. Where is Bice? Bice! I have come to bring her away."</p> + +<p>"Contessa," said Sir Tom, "you have come at a fortunate moment. Tell +Lady Randolph who Bice is. I think she has a right to know."</p> + +<p>"Who Bice is? But what has that to do with it? She is <i>fiancée</i>, she +belongs to more than herself. And there is the drawing-room in a +week—imagine, only in a week!—and how can she go into the presence of +the Queen full of infection? I acknowledge, I acknowledge," cried the +Contessa, through her handkerchief, "you have been very kind—oh, more +than kind. But why then now will you spoil all? It might make a +revolution—it might convey to Majesty herself—— Ah! it might spoil all +the child's prospects. Who is she? Why should you reproach me with my +little mystery now? She is all that is most natural; Guido's child, whom +you remember well enough, Sir Tom, who married my poor little sister, my +little girl who followed me, who would do as I did. You know all this, +for I have told you. They are all dead, all dead—how can you make me +talk of them? And Bice perhaps with the fever in her veins, ready to +communicate it—to Majesty herself, to me, to every one!"</p> + +<p>The Contessa sank down on a chair by the door. She drew forth her fan, +which hung by her side, and fanned away from her this air of pestilence. +"The<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_536" id="Page_536">[Pg 536]</a></span> child must come back at once," she said, with little cries and +sobs—an <i>accès de nerfs</i>, if these simple people had known—through her +handkerchief. "Let her come at once, and we may conceal it still. She +shall have baths. She shall be fumigated. I will not see her or let her +be seen. She shall have a succession of headaches. This is what I have +said to Montjoie. Imagine me out in the air, that is so bad for the +complexion, at this hour! But I think of nothing in comparison with the +interests of Bice. Send for her. Lucy, sweet one, you would not spoil +her prospects. Send for her—before it is known." Then she laughed with +a hysterical vehemence. "I see; some one has been telling her it was the +poor little child whom you left with me, whom I watched over—yes, I was +good to the little one. I am not a hard-hearted woman. Lucy: it was I +who put this thought into your mind. I said—of English parentage. I +meant you to believe so—that you might give something, when you were +giving so much, to my poor Bice. What was wrong? I said you would be +glad one day that you had helped her:—yes—and I allowed also my enemy +the Dowager, to believe it."</p> + +<p>"To believe <i>that</i>." Lucy stood out alone in the middle of the room, +notwithstanding the shrinking back to the wall of the visitor, whose +alarm was far more visible than any other emotion. "To believe +<i>that</i>—that she was your child, and——"</p> + +<p>Something stopped Lucy's mouth. She drew back, her pale face dyed with +crimson, her whole form quivering with remorse and pain as of one who +has given a cowardly and cruel blow.</p> + +<p>The Contessa rose. She stood up against the wall. It did not seem to +occur to her what kind of terrible<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_537" id="Page_537">[Pg 537]</a></span> accusation this was, but only that +it was something strange, incomprehensible. She withdrew for a moment +the handkerchief from her mouth. "My child? But I have never had a +child!" she said.</p> + +<p>"Lucy," cried Sir Tom in a terrible voice.</p> + +<p>And then Lucy stood aghast between them, looking from one to another. +The scales seemed to fall from her eyes. The perfectly innocent when +they fall under the power of suspicion go farthest in that bitter way. +They take no limit of possibility into their doubts and fears. They do +not think of character or nature. Now, in a moment the scales fell from +Lucy's eyes. Was her husband a man to treat her with such unimaginable +insult? Was the Contessa, with all her triumphant designs, her +mendacities, her mendicities, her thirst for pleasure, such a woman? +Whoever said it, could this be true?</p> + +<p>The Contessa perceived with a start that her hand had dropped from her +mouth. She put back the handkerchief again with tremulous eagerness. "If +I take it, all will go wrong—all will fall to pieces," she said +pathetically. "Lucy, dear one, do not come near me, but send me Bice, if +you love me," the Contessa cried. She smiled with her eyes, though her +mouth was covered. She had not so much as understood, she, so +experienced, so acquainted with the wicked world, so <i>connaisseuse</i> in +evil tales—she had not even so much as divined what innocent Lucy meant +to say.</p> + + + +<hr style="width: 65%;"/><p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_538" id="Page_538">[Pg 538]</a></span></p> +<h2><a name="CHAPTER_LII" id="CHAPTER_LII"></a>CHAPTER LII.</h2> + +<h3>THE END.</h3> + + +<p>Bice was taken away in the cab, there being no reason why she should +remain in a house where Lucy was no longer lonely or heartbroken—but +not by her patroness, who was doubly her aunt, but did not love that +old-fashioned title, and did love a mystery. The Contessa would not +trust herself in the same vehicle with the girl who had come out of +little Tom's nursery, and was no doubt charged with pestilence. She +walked, marvel of marvels, with a thick veil over her face, and Sir Tom, +in amused attendance, looking with some curiosity through the gauze at +this wonder of a spring morning which she had not seen for years. Bice, +for her part, was conveyed by the old woman who waited in the cab, the +mother of one of the servants in the Mayfair house, to her humble home, +where the girl was fumigated and disinfected to the Contessa's desire. +She was presented a week after, the strictest secrecy being kept about +these proceedings; and mercifully, as a matter of fact, did not convey +infection either to the Contessa or to the still more distinguished +ladies with whom she came in contact. What a day for Madame di +Forno-Populo! There was nothing against her. The Duchess had spent an +anxious week, inquiring everywhere. She had pledged herself in a weak +hour; but though the men laughed, that was all. Not even in the clubs +was there any story to be got hold of. The Duchess had a son-in-law who +was clever in gossip. He said there was nothing, and the Lord<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_539" id="Page_539">[Pg 539]</a></span> +Chamberlain made no objection. The Contessa di Forno-Populo had not +indeed, she said loftily, ever desired to make her appearance before the +Piedmontese; but she had the stamp upon her, though partially worn out, +of the old Grand Ducal Court of Tuscany—which many people think more +of—and these two stately Italian ladies made as great a sensation by +their beauty and their stately air as had been made at any drawing-room +in the present reign. The most august and discriminating of critics +remarked them above all others. And a Lady, whose knowledge of family +history is unrivalled, like her place in the world, condescended to +remember that the Conte di Forno-Populo had married an English lady. +Their dresses were specially described by Lady Anastasia in her +favourite paper; and their portraits were almost recognisable in the +<i>Graphic</i>, which gave a special (fancy) picture of the drawing-room in +question. Triumph could not farther go.</p> + +<p>It was not till after this event that Bice revealed the purpose which +was one of her inducements for that visit to little Tom's sick bed. On +the evening of that great day, just before going out in all her +splendour to the Duchess's reception held on that occasion, she took her +lover aside, whose pride in her magnificence and all the applause that +had been lavished on her knew no bounds.</p> + +<p>"Listen," she said, "I have something to tell you. Perhaps, when you +hear it, all will be over. I have not allowed you to come near me nor +touch me——"</p> + +<p>"No, by Jove! It has been stand off, indeed! I don't know what you mean +by it," cried Montjoie ruefully; "that wasn't what I bargained for, +don't you know?"</p> + +<p>"I am going to explain," said Bice. "You shall<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_540" id="Page_540">[Pg 540]</a></span> know, then, that when I +had those headaches—you remember—and you could not see me, I had no +headaches, <i>mon ami</i>. I was with Milady Randolph in Park Lane, in the +middle of the fever, nursing the boy."</p> + +<p>Montjoie gazed at her with round eyes. He recoiled a step, then rushing +at his betrothed, notwithstanding her Court plumes and flounces, got +Bice in his arms. "By Jove!" he cried, "and that was why! You thought I +was frightened of the fever; that is the best joke I have heard for +ages, don't you know? What a pluck you've got, Bee! And what a beauty +you are, my pretty dear! I am going to pay myself all the arrears."</p> + +<p>"Don't," said Bice, plaintively; the caresses were not much to her mind, +but she endured them to a certain limit. "I wondered," she said with a +faint sigh, "what you would say."</p> + +<p>"It was awfully silly," said Montjoie. "I couldn't have believed you +were so soft, Bee, with your training, don't you know? And how did you +come over <i>her</i> to let you go? She was in a dead funk all the time. It +was awfully silly; you might have caught it, or given it to me, or a +hundred things, and lost all your fun; but it was awfully plucky," cried +Montjoie, "by Jove! I knew you were a plucky one;" and he added, after a +moment's reflection, in a softened tone, "a good little girl too."</p> + +<p>It was thus that Bice's fate was sealed.</p> + +<p>That afternoon Lucy received a note from Lady Randolph in the following +words:—</p> + +<blockquote><p>"DEAREST LUCY—I am more glad than I can tell you to hear the good +news of the dear boy. Probably he will be stronger now than he has<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_541" id="Page_541">[Pg 541]</a></span> +ever been, having got over this so well.<br /><br /> + +"I want to tell you not to think any more of what I said <i>that</i> +day. I hope it has not vexed you. I find that my informant was +entirely mistaken, and acted upon a misconception all the time. I +can't tell how sorry I am ever to have mentioned such a thing; but +it seemed to be on the very best authority. I do hope it has not +made any coolness between Tom and you.<br /><br /> + +"Don't take the trouble to answer this. There is nothing that +carries infection like letters, and I inquire after the boy every +day.—Your loving<br /></p> +</blockquote> +<p class="citation"><span class="smcap">M. Randolph</span>."</p> + +<p>"It was not her fault," said Lucy, sobbing upon her husband's shoulder. +"I should have known you better, Tom."</p> + +<p>"I think so, my dear," he said quietly, "though I have been more foolish +than a man of my age ought to be; but there is no harm in the Contessa, +Lucy."</p> + +<p>"No," Lucy said, yet with a grave face. "But Bice will be made a +sacrifice: Bice, and——" she added with a guilty look, "I shall have +thrown away that money, for it has not saved her."</p> + +<p>"Here is a great deal of money," said Sir Tom, drawing a letter from his +pocket, "which seems also in a fair way of being thrown away."</p> + +<p>He took out the list which Lucy had given to her trustee, which Mr. +Chervil had returned to her husband, and held it out before her. It was +a very curious document, an experiment in the way of making poor people +rich. The names were of people of whom Lucy knew very little personally; +and yet it had not been done without thought. There was nobody there to +whom such a gift might not mean deliverance from many cares. In the +abstract it was not throwing anything away. Perhaps, had there been some +public commission to reward with good incomes the struggling and +honourable, these might not have been the chosen names; but yet it was +all legitimate, honest, in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_542" id="Page_542">[Pg 542]</a></span> light of Lucy's exceptional position. +The husband and wife stood and looked at it together in this moment of +their reunion, when both had escaped from the deadliest perils that +could threaten life—the loss of their child, the loss of their union. +It was hard to tell which would have been the most mortal blow.</p> + +<p>"He says I must prevent you; that you cannot have thought what you were +doing; that it is madness, Lucy."</p> + +<p>"I think I was nearly mad," said Lucy simply. "I thought to get rid of +it whatever might happen to me—that was best."</p> + +<p>"Let us look at it now in our full senses," said Sir Tom.</p> + +<p>Lucy grasped his arm with both her hands. "Tom," she said in a hurried +tone, "this is the only thing in which I ever set myself against you. It +was the beginning of all our trouble; and I might have to do that again. +What does it matter if perhaps we might do it more wisely now? All these +people are poor, and there is the money to make them well off; that is +what my father meant. He meant it to be scattered again, like seed given +back to the reaper. He used to say so. Shall not we let it go as it is, +and be done with it and avoid trouble any more?"</p> + +<p>He stood holding her in his arms, looking over the paper. It was a great +deal of money. To sacrifice a great deal of money does not affect a +young woman who has never known any need of it in her life, but a man in +middle age who knows all about it, that makes a great difference. Many +thoughts passed through the mind of Sir Tom. It was a moment in which +Lucy's heart was very soft. She was ready to do anything for the husband +to whom, she thought,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_543" id="Page_543">[Pg 543]</a></span> she had been unjust. And it was hard upon him to +diminish his own importance and cut off at a stroke by such a sacrifice +half the power and importance of the wealth which was his, though Lucy +might be the source of it. Was he to consent to this loss, not even +wisely, carefully arranged, but which might do little good to any one, +and to him harm unquestionable? He stood silent for some time thinking, +almost disposed to tear up the paper and throw it away. But then he +began to reflect of other things more important than money; of unbroken +peace and happiness; of Lucy's faithful, loyal spirit that would never +be satisfied with less than the entire discharge of her trust, of the +full accord, never so entirely comprehensive and understanding as now, +that had been restored between them; and of the boy given back from the +gates of hell, from the jaws of death. It was no small struggle. He had +to conquer a hundred hesitations, the disapproval, the resistance of his +own mind. It was with a hand that shook a little that he put it back. +"That little beggar," he said, with his old laugh—though not his old +laugh, for in this one there was a sound of tears—"will be a hundred +thousand or so the poorer. Do you think he'd mind, if we were to ask +him? Come, here is a kiss upon the bargain. The money shall go, and a +good riddance, Lucy. There is now nothing between you and me."</p> + +<p>Bice was married at the end of the season, in the most fashionable +church, in the most correct way. Montjoie's plain cousins had +asked—asked! without a sign of enmity!—to be bridesmaids, "as she had +no sisters of her own, poor thing!" Montjoie declared that he was "ready +to split" at their cheek in asking, and in calling Bice "poor thing," +she who was the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_544" id="Page_544">[Pg 544]</a></span> most fortunate girl in the world. The Contessa took the +good the gods provided her, without grumbling at the fate which +transferred to her the little fortune which had been given to Bice to +keep her from a mercenary marriage. It was not a mercenary marriage, in +the ordinary sense of the word. To Bice's mind it was simply fulfilling +her natural career; and she had no dislike to Montjoie. She liked him +well enough. He had answered well to her test. He was not clever, to be +sure; but what then? She was well enough content, if not rapturous, when +she walked out of the church Marchioness of Montjoie on her husband's +arm. There was a large and fashionable assembly, it need not be said. +Lucy, in a first place, looking very wistful, wondering if the girl was +happy, and Sir Tom saying to himself it was very well that he had no +more to do with it than as a friend. There were two other spectators who +looked upon the ceremony with still more serious countenances, a man and +a boy, restored to each other as dearest friends. They watched all the +details of the service with unfailing interest, but when the beautiful +bride came down the aisle on her husband's arm, they turned with one +accord and looked at each other. They had been quite still until that +point, making no remark. She passed them by, walking as if on air, as +she always walked, though ballasted now for ever by that duller being at +her side. She was not subdued under her falling veil, like so many +brides, but saw everything, them among the rest, as she passed, and +showed by a half smile her recognition of their presence. There was no +mystic veil of sentiment about her; no consciousness of any mystery. She +walked forth bravely, smiling, to meet life and the world. What was +there in that beautiful,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_545" id="Page_545">[Pg 545]</a></span> beaming creature to suggest a thought of +future necessity, trouble, or the most distant occasion for help or +succour? Perhaps it is a kind of revenge we take upon too great +prosperity to say to ourselves: "There may come a time!"</p> + +<p>These two spectators made their way out slowly among the crowd. They +walked a long way towards their after destination without a word. Then +Mr. Derwentwater spoke:</p> + +<p>"If there should ever come a time when we can help her, or be of use to +her, you and I—for the time must come when she will find out she has +chosen evil instead of good——"</p> + +<p>"Oh, humbug!" cried Jock roughly, with a sharpness in his tone which was +its apology. "She has done what she always meant to do—and that is what +she likes best."</p> + +<p>"Nevertheless——" said MTutor with a sigh.<br /><br /></p> + +<div class="tnote"> + +<h3>Transcriber's Note</h3> + +<p>The following printers spelling errors have been corrected:-<br /><br /> + +Page 66<br /> +'direst' to 'divest'<br /> +'could not yet divest himself'<br /><br /> + +Page 278<br /> +'down' to 'done'<br /> +'as a simple girl might have done'<br /><br /> + +Page 397<br /> +'pyschological' to 'psychological'<br /> +'any attempt at psychological investigation'<br /><br /> + +Page 470<br /> +'unforgetable' to 'unforgettable'<br /> +'almost forgotten, yet unforgettable'<br /><br /> + +The following word has been changed on page 138:-<br /><br /> + +'uncle' to 'father'<br /> +There is no previous mention of an uncle and the title<br /> +'father' makes more sense in the context of the story.<br /> +</p> + +</div> + + +<h4>THE END.</h4> + +<h5><i>Printed by</i> R. & R. 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JOHN GILMORE<br /></h4> + +<p>STORM WARRIORS.<br /></p> + +<h4>By THOMAS HARDY<br /></h4> + +<p> <i>TIMES</i>—"There is hardly a novelist, dead or living, who so skilfully<br /> +harmonises the poetry of moral life with its penury. Just as Millet<br /> +could in the figure of a solitary peasant toiling on a plain convey a<br /> +world of pathetic meaning, so Mr. Hardy with his yeomen and villagers.<br /> +Their occupations in his hands wear a pathetic dignity, which not even<br /> +the encomiums of a Ruskin could heighten."<br /><br /> + +THE WOODLANDERS.<br /> +WESSEX TALES.<br /></p> + +<h4>By BRET HARTE.<br /></h4> + +<p> <i>SPEAKER</i>—"The best work of Mr. Bret Harte stands entirely alone ...<br /> +marked on every page by distinction and quality.... Strength and<br /> +delicacy, spirit and tenderness, go together in his best work."<br /><br /> + +CRESSY.<br /> +THE HERITAGE <span class="smcap">of</span> DEDLOW MARSH.<br /> +A FIRST FAMILY OF TASAJARA.<br /></p> + +<h4>By the Author of "Hogan, M.P."<br /></h4> + +<p>HOGAN, M.P.<br /></p> + +<h4>By THOMAS HUGHES.<br /></h4> + +<p>TOM BROWN'S SCHOOLDAYS. With Illustrations by <span class="smcap">A. Hughes and S. P. Hall</span>.<br /> +TOM BROWN AT OXFORD. With Illustrations by <span class="smcap">S. P. Hall</span>.<br /> +THE SCOURING OF THE WHITE HORSE, <span class="smcap">and</span> THE ASHEN FAGGOT. <br /> +With Illustrations by <span class="smcap">Richard Doyle</span>.<br /></p> + +<h4>By HENRY JAMES.<br /></h4> + +<p> <i>SATURDAY REVIEW</i>—"He has the power of seeing with the artistic<br /> +perception of the few, and of writing about what he has seen, so that<br /> +the many can understand and feel with him."<br /> + + <i>WORLD</i>—"His touch is so light, and his humour, while shrewd and keen,<br /> +so free from bitterness."<br /><br /> + +A LONDON LIFE.<br /> +THE ASPERN PAPERS.<br /> +THE TRAGIC MUSE.<br /></p> + +<h4>By ANNIE KEARY.<br /></h4> + +<p> <i>SPECTATOR</i>—"In our opinion there have not been many novels published<br /> +better worth reading. The literary workmanship is excellent, and all the<br /> +windings of the stories are worked with patient fulness and a skill not<br /> +often found."<br /><br /> + +CASTLE DALY.<br /> +A YORK AND A LANCASTER ROSE.<br /> +A DOUBTING HEART.<br /> +JANET'S HOME.<br /> +OLDBURY.<br /></p> + +<h4>By PATRICK KENNEDY.<br /></h4> + +<p>LEGENDARY FICTIONS OF THE IRISH CELTS.<br /></p> + +<h4>By CHARLES KINGSLEY.<br /></h4> + +<p>WESTWARD HO!<br /> +HYPATIA.<br /> +YEAST.<br /> +ALTON LOCKE.<br /> +TWO YEARS AGO.<br /> +HEREWARD THE WAKE.<br /> +POEMS.<br /> +THE HEROES.<br /> +THE WATER BABIES.<br /> +MADAM HOW AND LADY WHY.<br /> +AT LAST.<br /> +PROSE IDYLLS.<br /> +PLAYS AND PURITANS, &c.<br /> +THE ROMAN AND THE TEUTON.<br /> +SANITARY AND SOCIAL LECTURES AND ESSAYS.<br /> +HISTORICAL LECTURES AND ESSAYS.<br /> +SCIENTIFIC LECTURES AND ESSAYS.<br /> +LITERARY AND GENERAL LECTURES.<br /> +THE HERMITS.<br /> +GLAUCUS; <span class="smcap">or, The Wonders of the Sea-shore</span>. With Coloured Illustrations.<br /> +VILLAGE AND TOWN AND COUNTRY SERMONS.<br /> +THE WATER OF LIFE, AND OTHER SERMONS.<br /> +SERMONS ON NATIONAL SUBJECTS, AND THE KING OF THE EARTH.<br /> +SERMONS FOR THE TIMES.<br /> +GOOD NEWS OF GOD.<br /> +THE GOSPEL OF THE PENTATEUCH, AND DAVID.<br /> +DISCIPLINE, AND OTHER SERMONS.<br /> +WESTMINSTER SERMONS.<br /> +ALL SAINTS' DAY, AND OTHER SERMONS.<br /></p> + +<h4>By HENRY KINGSLEY.<br /></h4> + +<p>TALES OF OLD TRAVEL.<br /></p> + +<h4>By MARGARET LEE.<br /></h4> + +<p>FAITHFUL AND UNFAITHFUL.<br /></p> + +<h4>By AMY LEVY.<br /></h4> + +<p>REUBEN SACHS.<br /></p> + +<h4>By the EARL OF LYTTON.<br /></h4> + +<p>THE RING OF AMASIS.<br /></p> + +<h4>By MALCOLM M'LENNAN.<br /></h4> + +<p>MUCKLE JOCK, AND OTHER STORIES OF PEASANT LIFE.<br /></p> + +<h4>By LUCAS MALET.<br /></h4> + +<p>MRS. LORIMER.<br /></p> + +<h4>By A. B. MITFORD.<br /></h4> + +<p>TALES OF OLD JAPAN. Illustrated.<br /></p> + +<h4>By D. CHRISTIE MURRAY.<br /></h4> + +<p> <i>SPECTATOR</i>—"Mr. Christie Murray has more power and genius for the<br /> +delineation of English rustic life than any half-dozen of our surviving<br /> +novelists put together."<br /> + + <i>SATURDAY REVIEW</i>—"Few modern novelists can tell a story of English<br /> +country life better than Mr. D. Christie Murray."<br /><br /> + +AUNT RACHEL.<br /> +JOHN VALE'S GUARDIAN.<br /> +SCHWARTZ.<br /> +THE WEAKER VESSEL.<br /> +HE FELL AMONG THIEVES. By <span class="smcap">D. C. Murray And H. Herman</span>.<br /></p> + +<h4>By Mrs. OLIPHANT.<br /></h4> + +<p> <i>ACADEMY</i>—"At her best she is, with one or two exceptions, the best of<br /> +living English novelists."<br /> + + <i>SATURDAY REVIEW</i>—"Has the charm of style, the literary quality and<br /> +flavour that never fails to please."<br /><br /> + +A BELEAGUERED CITY.<br /> +JOYCE.<br /> +NEIGHBOURS ON THE GREEN.<br /> +KIRSTEEN.<br /> +HESTER.<br /> +HE THAT WILL NOT WHEN HE MAY.<br /> +THE RAILWAY MAN AND HIS CHILDREN.<br /> +THE MARRIAGE OF ELINOR.<br /></p> + +<h4>By W. CLARK RUSSELL.<br /></h4> + +<p> <i>TIMES</i>—"Mr. Clark Russell is one of those writers who have set<br /> +themselves to revive the British sea story in all its glorious<br /> +excitement. Mr. Russell has made a considerable reputation in this line.<br /> +His plots are well conceived, and that of <i>Marooned</i> is no exception to<br /> +this rule."<br /><br /> + +MAROONED.<br /> +A STRANGE ELOPEMENT.<br /></p> + +<h4>By J. H. SHORTHOUSE.<br /></h4> + +<p> <i>ANTI-JACOBIN</i>—"Powerful, striking, and fascinating romances."<br /><br /> + +JOHN INGLESANT.<br /> +SIR PERCIVAL.<br /> +THE LITTLE SCHOOLMASTER MARK.<br /> +THE COUNTESS EVE.<br /> +A TEACHER OF THE VIOLIN.<br /></p> + +<h4>By Mrs. HUMPHRY WARD.<br /></h4> + +<p>MISS BRETHERTON.<br /></p> + +<h4>By MONTAGU WILLIAMS, Q.C.<br /></h4> + +<p>LEAVES OF A LIFE.<br /> +LATER LEAVES.<br /></p> + +<h4>By Miss CHARLOTTE M. YONGE.<br /></h4> + +<p>THE HEIR OF REDCLYFFE.<br /> +HEARTSEASE.<br /> +HOPES AND FEARS.<br /> +DYNEVOR TERRACE.<br /> +THE DAISY CHAIN.<br /> +THE TRIAL: <span class="smcap">More Links of the Daisy Chain</span>.<br /> +PILLARS OF THE HOUSE. Vol. I.<br /> +PILLARS OF THE HOUSE. Vol. II.<br /> +THE YOUNG STEPMOTHER.<br /> +THE CLEVER WOMAN OF THE FAMILY.<br /> +THE THREE BRIDES.<br /> +MY YOUNG ALCIDES.<br /> +THE CAGED LION.<br /> +THE DOVE IN THE EAGLE'S NEST.<br /> +THE CHAPLET OF PEARLS.<br /> +LADY HESTER, AND THE DANVERS PAPERS.<br /> +MAGNUM BONUM.<br /> +LOVE AND LIFE.<br /> +UNKNOWN TO HISTORY.<br /> +STRAY PEARLS.<br /> +THE ARMOURER'S 'PRENTICES.<br /> +THE TWO SIDES OF THE SHIELD.<br /> +NUTTIE'S FATHER.<br /> +SCENES AND CHARACTERS.<br /> +CHANTRY HOUSE.<br /> +A MODERN TELEMACHUS.<br /> +BYE-WORDS.<br /> +BEECHCROFT AT ROCKSTONE.<br /> +MORE BYWORDS.<br /> +A REPUTED CHANGELING.<br /> +THE LITTLE DUKE.<br /> +THE LANCES OF LYNWOOD.<br /> +THE PRINCE AND THE PAGE.<br /> +P's AND Q's <span class="smcap">and</span> LITTLE LUCY'S WONDERFUL GLOBE.<br /> +THE TWO PENNILESS PRINCESSES.<br /> +THAT STICK.<br /></p> + +<h4>By ARCHDEACON FARRAR.<br /></h4> + +<p>SEEKERS AFTER GOD.<br /> +ETERNAL HOPE.<br /> +THE FALL OF MAN.<br /> +THE WITNESS OF HISTORY TO CHRIST.<br /> +THE SILENCE AND VOICES OF GOD.<br /> +IN THE DAYS OF THY YOUTH.<br /> +SAINTLY WORKERS.<br /> +EPHPHATHA.<br /> +MERCY AND JUDGMENT.<br /> +SERMONS AND ADDRESSES DELIVERED IN AMERICA.<br /></p> + +<h4>By FREDERICK DENISON MAURICE.<br /></h4> + +<p>SERMONS PREACHED IN LINCOLN'S INN CHAPEL. <i>In 6 vols.</i><br /></p> + +<h4>Collected Works.<br /></h4> + +<h5>In Monthly Volumes from October 1892. 3s. 6d. per vol.<br /></h5> + +<p>1. CHRISTMAS DAY AND OTHER SERMONS.<br /> +2. THEOLOGICAL ESSAYS.<br /> +3. PROPHETS AND KINGS.<br /> +4. PATRIARCHS AND LAWGIVERS.<br /> +5. THE GOSPEL OF THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN.<br /> +6. GOSPEL OF ST. JOHN.<br /> +7. EPISTLE OF ST. JOHN.<br /> +8. LECTURES ON THE APOCALYPSE.<br /> +9. FRIENDSHIP OF BOOKS.<br /> +10. SOCIAL MORALITY.<br /> +11. PRAYER BOOK AND LORD'S PRAYER.<br /> +12. THE DOCTRINE OF SACRIFICE.<br /></p> + +<h2>MACMILLAN & CO., BEDFORD STREET,<br /></h2> + +<h3>STRAND, LONDON.<br /></h3> +<p> </p><p> </p> + + + + + + + + + + +<pre> + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of Sir Tom, by Mrs. Oliphant + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK SIR TOM *** + +***** This file should be named 30692-h.htm or 30692-h.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + https://www.gutenberg.org/3/0/6/9/30692/ + +Produced by Brenda Lewis, woodie4 and the Online Distributed +Proofreading Canada Team at http://www.pgdpcanada.net (This +file was produced from images generously made available +by The Internet Archive/Canadian Libraries) + + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Sir Tom + +Author: Mrs. Oliphant + +Release Date: December 17, 2009 [EBook #30692] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK SIR TOM *** + + + + +Produced by Brenda Lewis, woodie4 and the Online Distributed +Proofreading Canada Team at http://www.pgdpcanada.net (This +file was produced from images generously made available +by The Internet Archive/Canadian Libraries) + + + + + + + + + + SIR TOM + + + BY + + MRS. OLIPHANT + + AUTHOR OF "THE WIZARD'S SON," "HESTER," ETC. + + + London + + MACMILLAN AND CO. + + AND NEW YORK + + 1893 + + _All rights reserved_ + + + _First Edition (3 Vols. Crown 8vo) Sept. 1884_ + + _Second Edition (1 Vol. Crown 8vo) 1884_ + + _Reprinted (Globe 8vo) 1888, (Crown 8vo) 1893_ + + + + + CONTENTS. + + PAGE + + CHAPTER I. + + HOW SIR TOM BECAME A GREAT PERSONAGE 1 + + + CHAPTER II. + + HIS WIFE 9 + + + CHAPTER III. + + OLD MR. TREVOR'S WILL 20 + + + CHAPTER IV. + + YOUNG MR. TREVOR 29 + + + CHAPTER V. + + CONSULTATIONS 39 + + + CHAPTER VI. + + A SHADOW OF COMING EVENTS 48 + + + CHAPTER VII. + + A WARNING 58 + + + CHAPTER VIII. + + THE SHADOW OF DEATH 67 + + + CHAPTER IX. + + A CHRISTMAS VISIT 77 + + + CHAPTER X. + + LUCY'S ADVISERS 86 + + + CHAPTER XI. + + AN INNOCENT CONSPIRACY 96 + + + CHAPTER XII. + + THE FIRST STRUGGLE 105 + + + CHAPTER XIII. + + AN IDLE MORNING 115 + + + CHAPTER XIV. + + AN UNWILLING MARTYR 126 + + + CHAPTER XV. + + ON BUSINESS 135 + + + CHAPTER XVI. + + AN UNEXPECTED ARRIVAL 146 + + + CHAPTER XVII. + + FOREWARNED 157 + + + CHAPTER XVIII. + + THE VISITORS 167 + + + CHAPTER XIX. + + THE OPENING OF THE DRAMA 179 + + + CHAPTER XX. + + AN ANXIOUS CRITIC 189 + + + CHAPTER XXI. + + AN UNEXPECTED ENCOUNTER 200 + + + CHAPTER XXII. + + A PAIR OF FRIENDS 211 + + + CHAPTER XXIII. + + THE BREAKFAST TABLE 221 + + + CHAPTER XXIV. + + THE ORACLE SPEAKS 230 + + + CHAPTER XXV. + + THE CONTESSA'S BOUDOIR 242 + + + CHAPTER XXVI. + + THE TWO STRANGERS 259 + + + CHAPTER XXVII. + + AN ADVENTURESS 269 + + + CHAPTER XXVIII. + + THE SERPENT AND THE DOVE 280 + + + CHAPTER XXIX. + + THE CONTESSA'S TRIUMPH 291 + + + CHAPTER XXX. + + DIFFERENT VIEWS 301 + + + CHAPTER XXXI. + + TWO FRIENDS 311 + + + CHAPTER XXXII. + + YOUTHFUL UNREST 321 + + + CHAPTER XXXIII. + + THE CONTESSA PREPARES THE WAY 332 + + + CHAPTER XXXIV. + + IN SUSPENSE 342 + + + CHAPTER XXXV. + + THE DEBUT 354 + + + CHAPTER XXXVI. + + THE EVENING AFTER 366 + + + CHAPTER XXXVII. + + THE CONTESSA'S TACTICS 377 + + + CHAPTER XXXVIII. + + DISCOVERIES 388 + + + CHAPTER XXXIX. + + LUCY'S DISCOVERY 397 + + + CHAPTER XL. + + THE DOWAGER'S EXPLANATION 409 + + + CHAPTER XLI. + + SEVERED 417 + + + CHAPTER XLII. + + LADY RANDOLPH WINDS UP HER AFFAIRS 427 + + + CHAPTER XLIII. + + THE LITTLE HOUSE IN MAYFAIR 437 + + + CHAPTER XLIV. + + THE SIEGE OF LONDON 448 + + + CHAPTER XLV. + + THE BALL 458 + + + CHAPTER XLVI. + + THE BALL CONTINUED 469 + + + CHAPTER XLVII. + + NEXT MORNING 480 + + + CHAPTER XLVIII. + + THE LAST BLOW 491 + + + CHAPTER XLIX. + + THE EXPERIENCES OF BICE 502 + + + CHAPTER L. + + THE EVE OF SORROW 514 + + + CHAPTER LI. + + THE LAST CRISIS 522 + + + CHAPTER LII. + + THE END 538 + + + + +CHAPTER I. + +HOW SIR TOM BECAME A GREAT PERSONAGE. + + +Sir Thomas Randolph had lived a somewhat stormy life during the earliest +half of his career. He had gone through what the French called a +_jeunesse orageuse_; nothing very bad had ever been laid to his charge; +but he had been adventurous, unsettled, a roamer about the world even +after the period at which youthful extravagances cease. Nobody ever knew +when or where he might appear. He set off to the farthest parts of the +earth at a day's notice, sometimes on pretext of sport, sometimes on no +pretext at all, and re-appeared again as unexpectedly as he had gone +away. He had run out his fortune by these and other extravagances, and +was at forty in one of the most uncomfortable positions in which a man +can find himself, with the external appearance of large estates and an +established and important position, but in reality with scarcely any +income at all, just enough to satisfy the mortgagees, and leave himself +a pittance not much more than the wages of a gamekeeper. If his aunt, +Lady Randolph, had not been so good to him it was uncertain whether he +could have existed at all, and when the heiress, whom an eccentric will +had consigned to her charge, fell in his way, all her friends concluded +as a matter of certainty that Sir Tom would jump at this extraordinary +windfall, this gift of a too kind Providence, which sometimes will care +for a prodigal in a way which he is quite unworthy of, while leaving the +righteous man to struggle on unaided. But for some time it appeared as +if society for once was out in its reckoning. Sir Tom did not pounce +upon the heiress. He was a person of very independent mind, and there +were some who thought he was happier in his untrammelled poverty, doing +what he pleased, than he ever had been as a great proprietor. Even when +it became apparent to the wise and far-seeing that little Miss Trevor +was only waiting till his handkerchief was thrown at her to become the +happiest of women, still he did nothing. He exasperated his kind aunt, +he made all his friends indignant, and what was more, he exposed the +young heiress hourly to many attempts on the part of the inferior class, +from which as a matter of fact she herself sprang; and it was not until +she was driven nearly desperate by those attempts that Sir Tom suddenly +appeared upon the scene, and moved, it was thought, more by a +half-fatherly kindness and sympathy for her, than either by love or +desire of wealth, took her to himself, and made her his wife, to the +great and grateful satisfaction of the girl herself, whose strange +upbringing and brief introduction into a higher sphere had spoiled her +for that homely country-town existence in which every woman flattered +and every man made love to her. + +Whether Lucy Trevor was in love with him was as uncertain as whether he +was in love with her. So far as any one knew neither one nor the other +had asked themselves this question. She had, as it were, thrown herself +into his arms in sudden delight and relief of mind when he appeared and +saved her from her suitors; while he had received her tenderly when she +did this, out of kindness and pleasure in her genuine, half-childish +appreciation of him. There were, of course, people who said that Lucy +had been violently in love with Sir Tom, and that he had made up his +mind to marry her money from the first moment he saw her; but neither of +these things was true. They married with a great deal more pleasure and +ease of mind than many people do who are very much in love, for they had +mutual faith in each other, and felt a mutual repose and satisfaction in +their union. Each supplied something the other wanted. Lucy obtained a +secure and settled home, a protector and ever kind and genial guardian, +while Sir Tom got not only a good and dutiful and pleasant companion, +with a great deal of sense, and good-nature and good looks,--all of +which gifts he prized highly,--but at the same time the control of a +great fortune, and money enough at once to clear his estates and restore +him to his position as a great landowner. + +There were very peculiar conditions attached to the great fortune, but +to these for the moment he paid very little heed, considering them as +fantastic follies not worth thinking about, which were never likely to +become difficulties in his way. The advantage he derived from the +marriage was enormous. All at once, at a bound, it restored him to what +he had lost, to the possession of his own property, which had been not +more than nominally his for so many years, and to the position of a man +of weight and importance, whose opinion told with all his neighbours and +the county generally, as did those of few others in the district. + +Sir Tom, the wanderer, had not been thought very highly of in his +younger days. He had been called wild. He had been thought +untrustworthy, a fellow here to-day and gone to-morrow, who had no +solidity in him. But when the mortgages were all paid off, and the old +hall restored, and Sir Thomas Randolph came to settle down at home, with +his pretty little wife, and an establishment quite worthy of his name, +the county discovered in a day, almost in a moment, that he was very +much improved. He had always been clever enough, they said, for +anything, and now that he had sown his wild oats and learned how to +conduct himself, and attained an age when follies are naturally over, +there was no reason why he should not be received with open arms. Such a +man had a great many more experiences, the county thought with a certain +pride, than other men who had sown no wild oats, and had never gone +farther afield than the recognised round of European cities. Sir Tom had +been in all the four quarters of the globe; he had travelled in America +long before it became fashionable to do so, and even had been in Africa +while it was as yet untrod by any white foot but that of a missionary. +And it was whispered that in the days when he was "wild" he had +penetrated into regions nearer at hand, but more obscure and mysterious +even than Africa. All this made the county think more of him now when he +appeared staid yet genial, in the fulness of manhood, with a crisp brown +beard and a few gray hairs about his temples mingled with his abundant +locks, and that capability of paying his way which is dear to every +well-regulated community. But for this last particular the county would +not have been so tolerant, nay almost pleased, with the fact that he had +been "wild." They saw all his qualities in the halo that surrounded the +newly-decorated hall, the liberated farms, the lands upon which no +creditor had now any claim. He was the most popular man in the district +when Parliament was dissolved, and he was elected for the county almost +without opposition, he, at whom all the sober people had shaken their +heads only a few years before. The very name of "Sir Tom," which had +been given rather contemptuously to denote a somewhat careless fellow, +who minded nothing, became all at once the sign of popular amity and +kindness. And if it had been necessary to gain votes for him by any +canvassing tricks, this name of his would have carried away all +objections. "Sir Tom!" it established a sort of affectionate +relationship at once between him and his constituency. The people felt +that they had known him all his life, and had always called him by his +Christian name. + +Lady Randolph was much excited and delighted with her husband's success. +She canvassed for him in a modest way, making herself pleasant to the +wives of his supporters in a unique manner of her own which was not +perhaps quite dignified considering her position, but yet was found very +captivating by those good women. She did not condescend to them as other +titled ladies do, but she took their advice about her baby, and how he +was to be managed, with a pretty humility which made her irresistible. +They all felt an individual interest thenceforward in the heir of the +Randolphs, as if they had some personal concern in him; and Lady +Randolph's gentle accost, and the pretty blush upon her cheeks, and her +way of speaking to them all, "as if they were just as good as she was," +had a wonderful effect. When she received him in the hotel which was the +headquarters of his party, as soon as the result of the election was +known, Sir Tom, coming in flushed with applauses and victory, took his +wife into his arms and kissed her. "I owe this to you, as well as so +much else, Lucy," he said. + +"Oh, don't say that! when you know I don't understand much, and never +can do anything; but I am so glad, nobody could be more glad," said +Lucy. Little Tom had been brought in, too, in his nurse's arms, and +crowed and clapped his fat little baby hands for his father; and when +his mother took him and stepped out upon the balcony, from which her +husband was speaking an impromptu address to his new constituents, with +the child in her arms, not suspecting that she would be seen, the cheers +and outcries ran into an uproar of applause. "Three cheers for my lady +and the baby," the crowd shouted at the top of its many voices; and +Lucy, blushing and smiling and crying with pleasure, instead of +shrinking away as everybody feared she would do, stood up in her modest, +pretty youthfulness, shy, but full of sense and courage, and held up the +child, who stared at them all solemnly with big blue eyes, and, after a +moment's consideration, again patted his fat little hands together, an +action which put the multitude beside itself with delight. Sir Tom's +speech did not make nearly so much impression as the baby's +"patti-cake." Every man in the crowd, not to say every woman, and with +still more reason every child, clapped his or her hands too, and shouted +and laughed and hurrahed. + +The incident of the baby's appearance before the public, and the early +success he had gained--the earliest on record, the newspapers said--made +quite a sensation throughout the county, and made Farafield famous for +a week. It was mentioned in a leading article in the first newspaper in +the world. It appeared in large headlines in the placards under such +titles as "Baby in Politics," "The Nursery and the Hustings," and such +like. As for the little hero of the moment, he was handed down to his +anxious nurse just as symptoms of a whimper of fear at the alarming +tumult outside began to appear about the corners of his mouth. "For +heaven's sake take him away; he mustn't cry, or he will spoil all," said +the chairman of Sir Tom's committee. And the young mother, disappearing +too into the room behind, sat down in a great chair behind their backs, +and cried to relieve her feelings. Never had there been such a day. If +Sir Tom had not been the thoroughly good-humoured man he was, it is +possible that he might have objected to the interruption thus made in +his speech, which was altogether lost in the tumult of delight which +followed his son's appearance. But as a matter of fact he was as much +delighted as any one, and proud as man could be of his pretty little +wife and his splendid boy. He took "the little beggar," as he called +him, in his arms, and kissed the mother again, soothing and laughing at +her in the tender, kindly, fatherly way which had won Lucy. + +"It is you who have got the seat," he said; "I vote that you go and sit +in it, Lady Randolph. You are a born legislator, and your son is a +favourite of the public, whereas I am only an old fogey." + +"Oh, Tom!" Lucy said, lifting her simple eyes to his with a mist of +happiness in them. She was accustomed to his nonsense. She never said +anything more than "Oh, Tom!" and indeed it was not very long since she +had given up the title and ceased to say "Oh, Sir Tom!" which seemed +somehow to come more natural. It was what she had said when he came +suddenly to see her in the midst of her early embarrassments and +troubles; when the cry of relief and delight with which she turned to +him, uttering in her surprise that title of familiarity, "Oh, Sir Tom!" +had signified first to her middle-aged hero, with the most flattering +simplicity and completeness, that he had won the girl's pure and +inexperienced heart. + +There was no happier evening in their lives than this, when, after all +the commotion, threatenings of the ecstatic crowd to take the horses +from their carriage, and other follies, they got off at last together +and drove home through roads that wound among the autumn fields, on some +of which the golden sheaves were still standing in the sunshine. Sir Tom +held Lucy's hand in his own. He had told her a dozen times over that he +owed it all to her. + +"You have made me rich, and you have made me happy," he said, "though I +am old enough to be your father, and you are only a little girl. If +there is any good to come out of me, it will all be to your credit, +Lucy. They say in story books that a man should be ashamed to own so +much to his wife, but I am not the least ashamed." + +"Oh, Tom!" she said, "how can you talk so much nonsense," with a laugh, +and the tears in her eyes. + +"I always did talk nonsense," he said; "that was why you got to like me. +But this is excellent sense and quite true. And that little beggar; I am +owing you for him, too. There is no end to my indebtedness. When they +put the return in the papers it should be Sir Thomas Randolph, etc., +returned as representative of his wife, Lucy, a little woman worth as +much as any county in England." + +"O, Sir Tom," Lucy cried. + +"Well, so you are, my dear," he said, composedly. "That is a mere matter +of fact, you know, and there can be no question about it at all." + +For the truth was that she was so rich as to have been called the +greatest heiress in England in her day. + + + + +CHAPTER II. + +HIS WIFE. + + +Young Lady Randolph had herself been much changed by the progress of +these years. Marriage is always the great touchstone of character at +least with women; but in her case the change from a troubled and +premature independence, full of responsibilities and an extremely +difficult and arduous duty, to the protection and calm of early married +life, in which everything was done for her, and all her burdens taken +from her shoulders, rather arrested than aided in the development of her +character. She had lived six months with the Dowager Lady Randolph after +her father's death; but those six months had been all she knew of the +larger existence of the wealthy and great. All she knew--and even in +that short period she had learned less than she might have been expected +to learn; for Lucy had not been introduced into society, partly on +account of her very youthful age, and partly because she was still in +mourning, so that her acquaintance with life on the higher line +consisted merely in a knowledge of certain simple luxuries, of larger +rooms and prettier furniture, and more careful service than in her +natural condition. And by birth she belonged to the class of small +townsfolk who are nobody, and whose gentility is more appalling than +their homeliness. So that when she came to be Sir Thomas Randolph's wife +and a great lady, not merely the ward of an important personage, but +herself occupying that position, the change was so wonderful that it +required all Lucy's mental resources to encounter and accustom herself +to it. + +Sir Tom was the kindest of middle-aged husbands. If he did not adore his +young wife with the fervour of passion, he had a sincere affection for +her, and the warmest desire to make her happy. She had done a great deal +for him, she had changed his position unspeakably, and he was fully +determined that no lady in England should have more observance, more +honour and luxury, and what was better, more happiness, than the little +girl who had made a man of him. There had always been a sweet and +serious simplicity about her, an air of good sense and reasonableness, +which had attracted everybody whose opinion was worth having to Lucy; +but she was neither beautiful nor clever. She had been so brought up +that, though she was not badly educated, she had no accomplishments, and +not more knowledge than falls to the lot of an ordinary schoolgirl. The +farthest extent of her mild experiences was Sloane Street and Cadogan +Place: and there were people who thought it impossible that Sir Tom, who +had been everywhere, and run through the entire gamut of pleasures and +adventures, should find anything interesting in this bread-and-butter +girl, whom, of course, it was his duty to marry, and having married to +be kind to. But when he found himself set down in an English country +house with this little piece of simplicity opposite to him, what would +he do, the sympathising spectators said? Even his kind aunt, who felt +that she had brought about the marriage, and who, as a matter of fact, +had fully intended it from the first, though she herself liked Lucy, had +a little terror in her soul as she asked herself the same question. He +would fill the house with company and get over it in that way, was what +the most kind and moderate people thought. But Sir Tom laughed at all +their prognostications. He said afterwards that he had never known +before how pretty it was to know nothing, and to have seen nothing, when +these defects were conjoined with intelligence and delightful curiosity +and never-failing interest. He declared that he had never truly enjoyed +his own adventures and experiences as he did when he told them over to +his young wife. You may be sure there were some of them which were not +adapted for Lucy's ears: but these Sir Tom left religiously away in the +background. He had been a careless liver no doubt, like so many men, but +he would rather have cut off his right hand, as the Scripture bids, than +have soiled Lucy's white soul with an idea, or an image, that was +unworthy of her. She knew him under all sorts of aspects, but not one +that was evil. Their solitary evenings together were to her more +delightful than any play, and to him nearly as delightful. When the +dinner was over and the cold shut out, she would wait his appearance in +the inner drawing-room, which she had chosen for her special abode, with +some of the homely cares that had been natural to her former condition, +drawing his chair to the fire, taking pride in making his coffee for +him, and a hundred little attentions. "Now begin," she would say, +recalling with a child's eager interest and earnest recollection the +point at which he had left off. This was the greater part of Lucy's +education. She travelled with him through very distant regions, and went +through all kinds of adventure. + +And in the season they went to London, where she made her appearance in +society, not perhaps with _eclat_, but with a modest composure which +delighted him. She understood then, for the first time, what it was to +be rich, and was amused and pleased--amused above all by the position +which she occupied with the utmost simplicity. People said it would turn +the little creature's head, but it never even disturbed her imagination. +She took it with a calm that was extraordinary. Thus her education +progressed, and Lucy was so fully occupied with it, with learning her +husband and her life and the world, that she had no time to think of the +responsibilities which once had weighed so heavily upon her. When now +and then they occurred to her and she made some passing reference to +them, there were so many other things to do that she forgot +again--forgot everything except to be happy and learn and see, as she +had now so many ways of doing. She forgot herself altogether, and +everything that had been hers, not in excitement, but in the soft +absorbing influence of her new life, which drew her away into endless +novelties and occupations, such as were, indeed, duties and necessities +of her altered sphere. + +If this was the case in the first three or four years of her marriage, +when she had only Sir Tom to think of, you may suppose what it was when +the baby came, to add a hundredfold to the interests of her existence. +Everything else in life, it may be believed, dwindled into nothing in +comparison with this boy of boys--this wonderful infant. There had +never been one in the world like him it is unnecessary to say: and +everything was so novel to her, and she felt the importance of being +little Tom's mother so deeply, that her mind was quite carried away from +all other thoughts. She grew almost beautiful in the light of this new +addition to her happiness. And how happy she was! The child grew and +throve. He was a splendid boy. His mother did not sing litanies in his +praise in public, for her good sense never forsook her: but his little +being seemed to fill up her life like a new stream flowing into it, and +she expanded in life, in thought, and in understanding. She began to see +a reason for her own position, and to believe in it, and take it +seriously. She was a great lady, the first in the neighbourhood, and she +felt that, as little Tom's mother, it was natural and befitting that she +should be so. She began to be sensible of ambition within herself, as +well as something that felt like pride. It was so little like ordinary +pride, however, that Lucy was sorry for everybody who had not all the +noble surroundings which she began to enjoy. She would have liked that +every child should have a nursery like little Tom's, and every mother +the same prospects for her infant, and was charitable and tender beyond +measure to all the mothers and children within reach on little Tom's +account, which was an extravagance which her husband did not grudge, but +liked and encouraged, knowing the sentiment from which it sprang. It was +with no view to popularity that the pair thus endeavoured to diffuse +happiness about them, being so happy themselves; but it answered the +same purpose, and their popularity was great. + +When the county conferred the highest honour in its power upon Sir Tom, +his immediate neighbours in the villages about took the honour as their +own, and rejoiced as, even at a majority or a marriage, they had never +rejoiced before, for so kind a landlord, so universal a friend, had +never been. + +The villages were model villages on the Randolph lands. Sir Tom and his +young wife had gone into every detail about the labourers' cottages with +as much interest as if they had themselves meant to live in one of them. +There were no such trim gardens or bright flower-beds to be seen +anywhere, and it was well for the people that the Rector of the parish +was judicious, and kept Lady Randolph's charities within bounds. There +had been no small amount of poverty and distress among these rustics +when the Squire was poor and absent, when they lived in tumbledown old +houses, which nobody took any interest in, and where neither decency nor +comfort was considered; but now little industries sprang up and +prospered, and the whole landscape smiled. A wise landlord with +unlimited sway over his neighbourhood and no rivals in the field can do +so much to increase the comfort of everybody about him; and such a small +matter can make a poor household comfortable. Political economists, no +doubt, say it is demoralising: but when it made Lucy happy and the poor +women happy, how could Sir Tom step in and arrest the genial bounty? He +gave the Rector a hint to see that she did not go too far, and walked +about with his hands in his pockets and looked on. All this amused him +greatly; even the little ingratitudes she met with, which went to Lucy's +heart, made her husband laugh. It pleased his satirical vein to see how +human nature displayed itself, and the black sheep appeared among the +white even in a model village. But as for Lucy, though she would +sometimes cry over these spots upon the general goodness, it satisfied +every wish of her heart to be able to do so much for the cottagers. They +did not, perhaps, stand so much in awe of her as they ought to have +done, but they brought all their troubles to her with the most perfect +and undoubting confidence. + +All this time, however, Lucy, following the dictates of her own heart, +and using what after all was only a little running over of her great +wealth to secure the comfort of the people round, was neglecting what +she had once thought the great duty of her life as entirely as if she +had been the most selfish of worldly women. Her life had been so +entirely changed--swung, as one might say, out of one orbit into +another--that the burdens of the former existence seemed to have been +taken from her shoulders along with its habits and external +circumstances. Her husband thought of these as little as herself; yet +even he was somewhat surprised to find that he had no trouble in weaning +Lucy from the extravagances of her earlier independence. He had not +expected much trouble, but still it had seemed likely enough that she +would at least propose things that his stronger sense condemned, and +would have to be convinced and persuaded that they were impracticable; +but nothing of the kind occurred, and when he thought of it Sir Tom +himself was surprised, as also were various other people who knew what +Lucy's obstinacy on the subject before her marriage had been, and +especially the Dowager Lady Randolph, who paid her nephew a yearly +visit, and never failed to question him on the subject. + +"And Lucy?" she would say. "Lucy never makes any allusion? She has +dismissed everything from her mind? I really think you must be a +magician, Tom. I could not have believed it, after all the trouble she +gave us, and all the money she threw away. Those Russells, you know, +that she was so ridiculously liberal to, they are as bad as ever. That +sort of extravagant giving of money is never successful. But I never +thought you would have got it out of her mind." + +"Don't flatter me," he said; "it is not I that have got it out of her +mind. It is life and all the novelties in it--and small Tom, who is more +of a magician than I am----" + +"Oh, the baby!" said the dowager, with the indifference of a woman who +has never had a child, and cannot conceive why a little sprawling +tadpole in long clothes should make such a difference. "Yes, I suppose +that's a novelty," she said, "to be mother of a bit of a thing like that +naturally turns a girl's head. It is inconceivable the airs they give +themselves, as if there was nothing so wonderful in creation. And so far +as I can see you are just as bad, though you ought to know better, Tom." + +"Oh, just as bad," he said, with his large laugh. "I never had a share +in anything so wonderful. If you only could see the superiority of this +bit of a thing to all other things about him----" + +"Oh! spare me," cried Lady Randolph the elder, holding up her hands. "Of +course I don't undervalue the importance of an heir to the property," +she said in a different tone. "I have heard enough about it to be pretty +sensible of that." + +This the Dowager said with a slight tone of bitterness, which indeed was +comprehensible enough: for she had suffered much in her day from the +fact that no such production had been possible to her. Had it been so, +her nephew who stood by her would not (she could scarcely help +reflecting with some grudge against Providence) have been the great man +he now was, and no child of his would have mattered to the family. Lady +Randolph was a very sensible woman, and had long been reconciled to the +state of affairs, and liked her nephew, whom she had been the means of +providing for so nobly; and she was glad there was a baby; still, for +the sake of her own who had never existed, she resented the +self-exaltation of father and mother over this very common and in no way +extraordinary phenomenon of a child. + +Sir Tom laughed again with a sense of superiority, which was in itself +somewhat ludicrous; but as nobody is clear-sighted in their own +concerns, he was quite unconscious of this. His laugh nettled Lady +Randolph still more. She said, with a certain disdain in her tone,-- + +"And so you think you have sailed triumphantly over all that +difficulty--thanks to your charms and the baby's, and are going to hear +nothing of it any more?" + +Sir Tom felt that he was suddenly pulled up, and was a little resentful +in return. + +"I hope," he said, "that is, I do more than hope, I feel convinced, that +my wife, who has great sense, has outgrown that nonsense, and that she +has sufficient confidence in me to leave her business matters in my +hands." + +Lady Randolph shook her head. + +"Outgrown nonsense--at three and twenty?" she said. "Don't you think +that's premature? and, my dear boy, take my word for it, a woman when +she has the power, likes to keep the control of her own business just as +well as a man does. I advise you not to holloa till you are out of the +wood." + +"I don't expect to have any occasion to holloa; there is no wood for +that matter; Lucy, though perhaps you may not think it, is one of the +most reasonable of creatures." + +"She is everything that is nice and good," said the Dowager, "but how +about the will? Lucy may be reasonable, but that is not. And she cannot +forget it always." + +"Pshaw! The will is a piece of folly," cried Sir Tom. He grew red at the +very thought with irritation and opposition. "I believe the old man was +mad. Nothing else could excuse such imbecility. Happily there is no +question of the will." + +"But there must be, some time or other." + +"I see no occasion for it," said Sir Tom coldly; and as his aunt was a +reasonable woman, she did not push the matter any farther. But if the +truth must be told this sensible old lady contemplated the great +happiness of these young people with a sort of interested and alarmed +spectatorship (for she wished them nothing but good), watching and +wondering when the explosion would come which might in all probability +shatter it to ruins. For she felt thoroughly convinced in her own mind +that Lucy would not always forget the conditions by which she held her +fortune, and that all the reason and good sense in the world would not +convince her that it was right to ignore and baulk her father's +intentions, as conveyed with great solemnity in his will. And when the +question should come to be raised, Lady Randolph felt that it would be +no trifling one. Lucy was very simple and sweet, but when her conscience +spoke even the influence of Sir Tom would not suffice to silence it. She +was a girl who would stand to what she felt to be right if all the world +and even her husband were against her--and the Dowager, who wished them +no harm, felt a little alarmed as to the issue. Sir Tom was not a man +easy to manage, and the reddening of his usually smiling countenance at +the mere suggestion of the subject was very ominous. It would be better, +far better, for Lucy if she would yield at once and say nothing about +it. But that was not what it was natural for her to do. She would stand +by her duty to her father, just as, were it assailed, she would stand by +her duty to her husband; but she would never be got to understand that +the second cancelled the first. The Dowager Lady Randolph watched the +young household with something of the interest with which a playgoer +watches the stage. She felt sure that the explosion would come, and that +a breath, a touch, might bring it on at any moment; and then what was to +be the issue? Would Lucy yield? would Lucy conquer? or would the easy +temper with which everybody credited Sir Tom support this trial? The old +lady, who knew him so well, believed that there was a certain fiery +element below, and she trembled for the peace of the household which was +so happy and triumphant, and had no fear whatever for itself. She +thought of "the torrent's smoothness ere it dash below," of the calm +that precedes a storm, and many other such images, and so frightened did +she become at the dangers she had conjured up that she put the will +hurriedly out of her thoughts, as Sir Tom had done, and would think no +more of it. "Sufficient," she said to herself, "is the evil to the day." + +In the meantime, the married pair smiled serenely at any doubts of their +perfect union, and Lucy felt a great satisfaction in showing her +husband's aunt (who had not thought her good enough for Sir Tom, +notwithstanding that she so warmly promoted the match) how satisfied he +was with his home, and how exultant in his heir. + +In the following chapters the reader will discover what was the cause +which made the Dowager shake her head when she got into the carriage to +drive to the railway at the termination of her visit. It was all very +pretty and very delightful, and thoroughly satisfactory; but still Lady +Randolph, the elder, shook her experienced head. + + + + +CHAPTER III. + +OLD MR. TREVOR'S WILL. + + +Lucy Trevor, when she married Sir Thomas Randolph, was the heiress of so +great a fortune that no one ventured to state it in words or figures. +She was not old enough, indeed, to have the entire control of it in her +hands, but she had unlimited control over a portion of it in a certain +sense, not for her own advantage, but for the aggrandisement of others. +Her father, who was eccentric and full of notions, had so settled it +that a large portion of the money should eventually return, as he +phrased it, to the people from whom it had come, and this not in the way +of public charities and institutions, as is the common idea in such +cases, but by private and individual aid to struggling persons and +families. Lucy, who was then all conscience and devotion to the +difficult yet exciting duty which her father had left to her to do, had +made a beginning of this extraordinary work before her marriage, +resisting all the arguments that were brought to bear upon her as to +the folly of the will, and the impossibility of carrying it out. It is +likely, indeed, that the trustees and guardians would have taken steps +at once to have old Trevor's will set aside but for the fact that Lucy +had a brother, who in that case would divide the inheritance with her, +but who was specially excluded by the will, as being a son of Mr. +Trevor's second wife, and entirely unconnected with the source from +which the fortune came. It was Lucy's mother who had brought it into the +family, although she was not herself aware of its magnitude, and did not +live long enough to have any enjoyment of it. Neither did old Trevor +himself have any enjoyment of it, save in the making of the will by +which he laid down exactly his regulations for its final disposal. In +any case Lucy was to retain the half, which was of itself a great sum; +but the condition of her inheritance, and indeed the occupation of her +life, according to her father's intention, was that she should select +suitable persons to whom to distribute the other half of her fortune. It +is needless to say that this commission had seriously occupied the +thoughts of the serious girl who, without any sense of personal +importance, found herself thus placed in the position of an official +bestower of fortune, having it in her power to confer comfort, +independence, and even wealth; for she was left almost entirely +unrestricted as to her disposition of the money, and might at her +pleasure confer a very large sum upon a favourite. Everybody who had +ever heard of old Trevor's will considered it the very maddest upon +record, and there were many who congratulated themselves that Lucy's +husband, if she was so lucky as to marry a man of sense, would certainly +put a stop to it--or even that Lucy herself, when she came to years of +serious judgment, would see the folly; for there was no stipulation as +to the time at which the distributions should be made, these, as well as +the selection of the objects of her bounty, being left to herself. She +had been very full of this strange duty before her marriage, and had +selected several persons who, as it turned out, did but little credit to +her choice, almost forcing her will upon the reluctant trustees, who had +no power to hinder her from carrying it out, and whose efforts at +reasoning with her had been totally unsuccessful. In these early +proceedings Sir Tom, who was intensely amused by the oddity of the +business altogether, and who had then formed no idea of appropriating +her and her money to himself, gave her a delighted support. + +He had never in his life encountered anything which amused him so much, +and his only regret was that he had not known the absurd but high-minded +old English Quixote who, wiser in his generation than that noble knight, +left it to his heir to redress the wrongs of the world, while he himself +had the pleasure of the anticipation only, not perhaps unmixed with a +malicious sense of all the confusions and exhibitions of the weakness of +humanity it would produce. Sir Tom himself had humour enough to +appreciate the philosophy of the old humorist, and the droll spectator +position which he had evidently chosen for himself, as though he could +somehow see and enjoy all the struggles of self-interest raised by his +will, with one of those curious self-delusions which so often seem to +actuate the dying. Sir Tom, however, had thought it little more than a +folly even at the moment when it had amused him the most. He had thought +that in time Lucy would come to see how ridiculous it was, and would +tacitly, without saying anything, give it up, so sensible a girl being +sure in the long run to see how entirely unsuited to modern times and +habits such a disposition was. And had she done so, there was nobody who +was likely to awaken her to a sense of her duty. Her trustees, who +considered old Trevor mad, and Lucy a fool to humour him, would +certainly make no objection; and little Jock, the little brother to whom +Lucy was everything in the world, was still less likely to interfere. +When it came about that Lucy herself, and her fortune, and all her +right, were in Sir Tom's own hands, he was naturally more and more sure +that this foolish will (after giving him a great deal of amusement, and +perhaps producing a supernatural chuckle, if such an expression of +feeling is possible in the spiritual region where old Trevor might be +supposed to be) would be henceforward like a testament in black letter, +voided by good sense and better knowledge and time, the most certain +agency of all. And his conviction had been more than carried out in the +first years of his married life. Lucy forgot what was required of her. +She thought no more of her father's will. It glided away into the unseen +along with so many other things, extravagances, or if not extravagances, +still phantasies of youth. She found enough in her new life--in her +husband, her baby, and the humble community which looked up to her and +claimed everything from her--to occupy both her mind and her hands. Life +seemed to be so full that there was no time for more. + +It had been no doing of Sir Tom's that little Jock, the brother who had +been Lucy's child, her Mentor, her counsellor and guide, had been +separated from her for so long. Jock had been sent to school with his +own entire concurrence and control. He was a little philosopher with a +mind beyond his years, and he had seemed to understand fully, without +any childish objection, the reason why he should be separated from her, +and even why it was necessary to give up the hope of visiting his +sister. The first year it was because she was absent on her prolonged +wedding tour: the next because Jock was himself away on a long and +delightful expedition with a tutor, who had taken a special fancy to +him. Afterwards the baby was expected, and all exciting visits and +visitors were given up. They had met in the interval. Lucy had visited +Jock at his school, and he had been with them in London on several + occasions. But there had been little possibility of anything like their +old intercourse. Perhaps they could never again be to each other what +they had been when these two young creatures, strangely separated from +all about them, had been alone in the world, having entire and perfect +confidence in each other. They both looked back upon these bygone times +with a sort of regretful consciousness of the difference; but Lucy was +very happy in her new life, and Jock was a perfectly natural boy, given +to no sentimentalities, not jealous, and enjoying his existence too +completely to sigh for the time when he was a quaint old-fashioned +child, and knew no life apart from his sister. + +Their intercourse then had been so pretty, so tender and touching; the +child being at once his sister's charge and her superior in his +old-fashioned reflectiveness, her pupil and her teacher, the little +judge of whose opinions she stood in awe, while at the same time quite +subject and submissive to her--that it was a pity it should ever come to +an end; but it is a pity, too, when children grow up, when they grow out +of all the softness and keen impressions of youth into the harder stuff +of man and woman. To their parents it is a change which has often +little to recommend it--but it is inevitable, as we all know; and so it +was a pity that Lucy and Jock were no longer all in all to each other; +but the change was in their case, too, inevitable, and accepted by both. +When, however, the time came that Jock was to arrive really on his first +long visit at the Hall, Lucy prepared for this event with a little +excitement, with a lighting up of her eyes and countenance, and a +pleasant warmth of anticipation in which even little Tom was for the +moment set aside. She asked her husband a dozen times in the previous +day if he thought the boy would be altered. "I know he must be taller +and all that," Lucy said. "I do not mean the outside of him. But do you +think he will be changed?" + +"It is to be hoped so," said Sir Tom, serenely. "He is sixteen. I trust +he is not what he was at ten. That would be a sad business, indeed----" + +"Oh, Tom, you know that's not what I mean!--of course he has grown +older; but he always was very old for his age. He has become a real boy +now. Perhaps in some things he will seem younger too." + +"I always said you were very reasonable," said her husband, admiringly. +"That is just what I wanted you to be prepared for--not a wise little +old man as he was when he had the charge of your soul, Lucy." + +She smiled at him, shaking her head. "What ridiculous things you say. +But Jock was always the wise one. He knew much better than I did. He did +take care of me whatever you may think, though he was such a child." + +"Perhaps it was as well that he did not continue to take care of you. On +the whole, though I have no such lofty views, I am a better guide." + +Lucy looked at him once more without replying for a moment. Was her mind +ever crossed by the idea that there were perhaps certain particulars in +which little Jock was the best guide? If so the blasphemy was +involuntary. She shook it off with a little movement of her head, and +met his glance with her usual serene confidence. "You ought to be," she +said, "Tom; but you liked him always. Didn't you like him? I always +thought so; and you will like him now?" + +"I hope so," said Sir Tom. + +Then a slight gleam of anxiety came into Lucy's eyes. This seemed the +only shape in which evil could come to her, and with one of those +forewarnings of Nature always prone to alarm, which come when we are +most happy, she looked wistfully at her husband, saying nothing, but +with an anxious question and prayer combined in her look. He smiled at +her, laying his hand upon her head, which was one of his caressing ways, +for Lucy, not an imposing person in any particular, was short, and Sir +Tom was tall. + +"Does that frighten you, Lucy? I shall like him for your sake, if not +for his own, never fear." + +"That is kind," she said, "but I want you to like him for his own sake. +Indeed, I should like you if you would, Tom," she added almost timidly, +"to like him for your own. Perhaps you think that is presuming, as if +he, a little boy, could be anything to you; but I almost think that is +the only real way--if you know what I mean." + +"Now this is humbling," said Sir Tom, "that one's wife should consider +one too dull to know what she means. You are quite right, and a complete +philosopher, Lucy. I will like the boy for my own sake. I always did +like him, as you say. He was the quaintest little beggar, an old man +and a child in one. But it would have been bad for him had you kept on +cultivating him in that sort of hot-house atmosphere. It was well for +Jock, whatever it might be for you, that I arrived in time." + +Lucy pondered for a little without answering; and then she said, "Why +should it be considered so necessary for a boy to be sent away from +home?" + +"Why!" cried Sir Tom, in astonishment; and then he added, laughingly, +"It shows your ignorance, Lucy, to ask such a question. He must be sent +to school, and there is an end of it. There are some things that are +like axioms in Euclid, though you don't know very much about that--they +are made to be acted upon, not to be discussed. A boy must go to +school." + +"But why?" said Lucy undaunted. "That is no answer." She was +untrammelled by any respect for Euclid, and would have freely questioned +the infallibility of an axiom, with a courage such as only ignorance +possesses. She was thinking not only of Jock, but had an eye to distant +contingencies, when there might be question of a still more precious +boy. "God," she said, reverentially, "must have meant surely that the +father and mother should have something to do in bringing them up." + +"In the holidays, my dear," said Sir Tom; "that is what we are made for. +Have you never found that out?" + +Lucy never felt perfectly sure whether he was in jest or earnest. She +looked at him again to see what he meant--which was not very easy, for +Sir Tom meant two things directly opposed to each other. He meant what +he said, and yet said what he knew was nonsense, and laughed at himself +inwardly with a keen recognition of this fact. Notwithstanding, he was +as much determined to act upon it as if it had been the most certain +truth, and in a way pinned his faith to it as such. + +"I suppose you are laughing," said Lucy, "and I wish you would not, +because it is so important. I am sure we are not meant only for the +holidays, and you don't really think so, Tom; and to take a child away +from his natural teachers, and those that love him best in the world, to +throw him among strangers! Oh, I cannot think that is the best way, +whatever Euclid may make you think." + +At this Sir Tom laughed, as he generally did, though never +disrespectfully, at Lucy's decisions. He said, "That is a very just +expression, my dear, though Euclid never made us think so much as he +ought to have done. You are thinking of that little beggar. Wait till he +is out of long clothes." + +"Which shows all you know about it. He was shortcoated at the proper +time, I hope," said Lucy, with some indignation, "do you call these long +clothes?" + +_These_ were garments which showed when he sprawled, as he always did, a +great deal of little Tom's person, and as his mother was at that time +holding him by them, while he "felt his feet," upon the carpet, the +spectacle of two little dimpled knees without any covering at all +triumphantly proved her right. Sir Tom threw himself upon the carpet to +kiss those sturdy, yet wavering little limbs, which were not quite under +the guidance of Tommy's will as yet, and taking the child from his +mother, propped it up against his own person. "For the present, I allow +that fathers and mothers are the best," he said. + +Lucy stood and gazed at them in that ecstasy of love and pleasure with +which a young mother beholds her husband's adoration for their child. +Though she feels it to be the highest pride and crown of their joint +existence, yet there is always in her mind a sense of admiration and +gratitude for his devotion. She looked down upon them at her feet, with +eyes running over with happiness. It is to be feared that at such a +moment Lucy forgot even Jock, the little brother who had been as a child +to her in her earlier days; and yet there was no want of love for Jock +in her warm and constant heart. + + + + +CHAPTER IV. + +YOUNG MR. TREVOR. + + +John Trevor, otherwise Jock, arrived at the Hall in a state of +considerable though suppressed excitement. It was not in his nature to +show the feelings which were most profound and strongest in his nature, +even if the religion of an English public school boy had not forbidden +demonstration. But he had very strong feelings underneath his calm +exterior, and the approach to Lucy's home gave him many thoughts. The +sense of separation which had once affected him with a deep though +unspoken sentiment had passed away long ago into a faint grudge, a +feeling of something lost--but between ten and sixteen one does not +brood upon a grievance, especially when one is surrounded by everything +that can make one happy; and there was a certain innate philosophy in +the mind of Jock which enabled him to see the justice and necessity of +the separation. He it was who in very early day, had ordained his own +going to school with a realisation of the need of it which is not +usually given to his age--and he had understood without any explanation +and without any complaint that Lucy must live her own life, and that +their constant brother and sister fellowship became impossible when she +married. The curious little solemn boy, who had made so many shrewd +guesses at the ways of life while he was still only a child, accepted +this without a word, working it out in his own silent soul; but +nevertheless it had affected him deeply. And when the time came at last +for a real meeting, not a week's visit in town where she was fully +occupied, and he did not well know what to do with himself--or a hurried +rapid meeting at school, where Jock's pride in introducing his tutor to +his sister was a somewhat imperfect set-off to the loss of personal +advantage to himself in thus seeing Lucy always in the company of other +people--his being was greatly moved with diverse thoughts. Lucy was all +he had in the world to represent the homes, the fathers and mothers and +sisters and brothers of his companions. The old time when they had been +all in all to each other had a more delicate beauty than the ordinary +glow of childhood. He thought there was nobody like her, with that +mingled adoration and affectionate contempt which make up a boy's love +for the women belonging to him. She was not clever: but he regarded the +simplicity of her mind with pride. This seemed to give her her crowning +charm. "Any fellow can be clever," Jock said to himself. It was part of +Lucy's superiority that she was not so. He arrived at the railway +station at Farafield with much excitement in his mind, though his looks +were quiet enough. The place, though it was the first he had ever known, +did not attract a thought from the other and more important meeting. It +was a wet day in August, and the coachman who had been sent for him gave +him a note to say that Lucy would have come to meet him but for the +rain. He was rather glad of the rain, this being the case. He did not +want to meet her on a railway platform--he even regretted the long +stretches of the stubble fields as he whirled past, and wished that the +way had been longer, though he was so anxious to see her. And when he +jumped down at the great door of the hall and found himself in the +embrace of his sister, the youth was thrilling with excitement, hope, +and pleasure. Lucy had changed much less than he had. Jock, who had been +the smallest of pale-faced boys, was now long and weedy, with limbs and +fingers of portentous length. His hair was light and limp; his large +eyes, well set in his head, had a vague and often dreamy look. It was +impossible to call him a handsome boy. There was an entire want of +colour about him, as there had been about Lucy in her first youth, and +his gray morning clothes, like the little gray dress she had worn as a +young girl were not very becoming to him. They had been so long apart +that he met her very shyly, with an awkwardness that almost looked like +reluctance, and for the first hour scarcely knew what to say to her, so +full was he of the wonder and pleasure of being by her, and the +impossibility of expressing this. She asked him about his journey, and +he made the usual replies, scarcely knowing what he said, but looking at +her with a suppressed beatitude which made Jock dull in the very +intensity of his feeling. The rain came steadily down outside, shutting +them in as with veils of falling water. Sir Tom, in order to leave them +entirely free to have their first meeting over, had taken himself off +for the day. Lucy took her young brother into the inner drawing-room, +the centre of her own life. She made him sit down in a luxurious chair, +and stood over him gazing at the boy, who was abashed and did not know +what to say. "You are different, Jock. It is not that you are taller and +bigger altogether, but you are different. I suppose so am I." + +"Not much," he said, looking shyly at her. "You couldn't change." + +"How so?" she asked with a laugh. "I am such a great deal older I ought +to look wiser. Let me see what it is. Your eyes have grown darker, I +think, and your face is longer, Jock; and what is that? a little down, +actually, upon your upper lip. Jock, not a moustache!" + +Jock blushed with pleasure and embarrassment, and put up his hand fondly +to feel those few soft hairs. "There isn't very much of it," he said. + +"Oh, there is enough to swear by; and you like school as well as ever? +and MTutor, how is he? Are you as fond of him as you used to be, Jock?" + +"You don't say you're fond of him," said Jock, "but he's just as jolly +as ever, if that is what you mean." + +"That is what I mean, I suppose. You must tell me when I say anything +wrong," said Lucy. She took his head between her hands and gave him a +kiss upon his forehead. "I am so glad to see you here at last," she +said. + +And then there was a pause. Her first little overflow of questions had +come to an end, and she did not exactly know what to say, while Jock sat +silent, staring at her with an earnest gaze. It was all so strange, the +scene and surroundings, and Lucy in the midst, who was a great lady, +instead of being merely his sister--all these confused the boy's +faculties. He wanted time to realise it all. But Lucy, for her part, +felt the faintest little touch of disappointment. It seemed to her as if +they ought to have had so much to say to each other, such a rush of +questions and answers, and full-hearted confidence. Jock's heart would +be at his lips, she thought, ready to rush forth--and her own also, with +all the many things of which she had said to herself: "I must tell that +to Jock." But as a matter of fact, many of these things had been told by +letter, and the rest would have been quite out of place in the moment of +reunion, in which indeed it seemed inappropriate to introduce any +subject other than their pleasure in seeing each other again, and those +personal inquiries which we all so long to make face to face when we are +separated from those near to us, yet which are so little capable of +filling all the needs of the situation when that moment comes. Jock was +indeed showing his happiness much more by his expressive silence and shy +eager gaze at her than if he had plunged into immediate talk; but Lucy +felt a little disappointed, and as if the meeting had not come up to her +hopes. She said, after a pause which was almost awkward, "You would like +to see baby, Jock? How strange that you should not know baby! I wonder +what you will think of him." She rose and rang the bell while she was +speaking in a pleasant stir of fresh expectation. No doubt it would stir +Jock to the depths of his heart, and bring out all his latent feeling, +when he saw Lucy's boy. Little Tom was brought in state to see "his +uncle," a title of dignity which the nurse felt indignantly disappointed +to have bestowed upon the lanky, colourless boy who got up with great +embarrassment and came forward reluctantly to see the creature quite +unknown and unrealised, of whom Lucy spoke with so much exultation. Jock +was not jealous, but he thought it rather odd that "a little thing like +that" should excite so much attention. It seemed to him that it was a +thing all legs and arms, sprawling in every direction, and when it +seized Lucy by the hair, pulling it about her face with the most riotous +freedom, Jock felt deeply disposed to box its ears. But Lucy was +delighted. "Oh, naughty baby!" she said, with a voice of such admiration +and ecstasy as the finest poetry, Jock reflected, would never have awoke +in her; and when the thing "loved" her, at its nurse's bidding, clasping +its fat arms round her neck, and applying a wide-open wet mouth to her +cheek, the tears were in her eyes for very pleasure. "Baby, darling, +that is your uncle; won't you go to your uncle? Take him, Jock. If he is +a little shy at first he will soon get used to you," Lucy cried. To see +Jock holding back on one side, and the baby on the other, which +strenuously refused to go to its uncle, was as good as a play. + +"I'm afraid I should let it fall," said Jock, "I don't know anything +about babies." + +"Then sit down, dear, and I will put him upon your lap," said the young +mother. There never was a more complete picture of wretchedness than +poor Jock, as he placed himself unwillingly on the sofa with his knees +put firmly together and his feet slanting outwards to support them. "I +sha'n't know what to do with it," he said. It is to be feared that he +resented its existence altogether. It was to him a quite unnecessary +addition. Was he never to see Lucy any more without that thing clinging +to her? Little Tom, for his part, was equally decided in his +sentiments. He put his little fists, which were by no means without +force, against his uncle's face, and pushed him away, with squalls that +would have exasperated Job; and then, instead of consoling Jock, Lucy +took the little demon to her arms and soothed him. "Did they want it to +make friends against its will," Lucy was so ridiculous as to say, like +one of the women in _Punch_, petting and smoothing down that odious +little creature. Both she and the nurse seemed to think that it was the +baby who wanted consoling for the appearance of Jock, and not Jock who +had been insulted; for one does not like even a baby to consider one as +repulsive and disagreeable. The incident was scarcely at an end when Sir +Tom came in, fresh, smiling, and damp from the farm, where he had been +inspecting the cattle and enjoying himself. Mature age and settled life +and a sense of property had converted Sir Tom to the pleasure of +farming. He shook Jock heartily by the hand, and clapped him on the +back, and bade him welcome with great kindness. Then he took "the little +beggar" on his shoulder and carried him, shrieking with delight, about +the room. It seemed a very strange thing to Jock to see how entirely +these two full-grown people gave themselves up to the deification of +this child. It was not bringing themselves to his level, it was looking +up to him as their superior. If he had been a king his careless favours +could not have been more keenly contended for. Jock, who was fond of +poetry and philosophy and many other fine things, looked on at this new +mystery with wondering and indignant contempt. After dinner there was +the baby again. It was allowed to stay out of bed longer than usual in +honour of its uncle, and dinner was hurried over, Jock thought, in +order that it might be produced, decked out in a sash almost as broad as +its person. When it appeared rational conversation was at an end, Sir +Tom, whom Jock had always respected highly, stopped the inquiries he was +making, with all the knowledge and pleasure, of an old schoolboy, into +school life, comparing his own experiences with those of the present +generation--to play bo-peep behind Lucy's shoulder with the baby. +Bo-peep! a Member of Parliament, a fellow who had been at the +University, who had travelled, who had seen America and gone through the +Desert! There was consternation in the astonishment with which Jock +looked on at this unlooked-for, almost incredible, exhibition. It was +ridiculous in Lucy, but in Sir Tom! + +"I suppose we were all like that one time?" he said, trying to be +philosophical, as little Tom at last, half smothered with kisses, was +carried away. + +"Like _that_--do you mean like baby? You were a little darling, dear, +and I was always very, very fond of you," said Lucy, giving him the +kindest look of her soft eyes. "But you were not a beauty, like my boy." + +Sir Tom had laughed, with something of the same sentiment very evident +in his mirth, when Lucy spoke. He put out his hand and patted his young +brother-in-law on the shoulder. "It is absurd," he said, "to put that +little beggar in the foreground when we have somebody here who is in +Sixth form at sixteen, and is captain of his house, and has got a school +prize already. If Lucy does not appreciate all that, I do, Jock, and the +best I can wish for Tommy is that he should have done as much at your +age." + +"Oh, I was not thinking of that," said Jock with a violent blush. + +"Of course he was not," said Lucy calmly, "for he always had the kindest +heart though he was so clever. If you think I don't appreciate it as you +say, Tom, it is only because I knew it all the time. Do you think I am +surprised that Jock has beaten everybody? He was like that when he was +six, before he had any education. And he will be just as proud of baby +as we are when he knows him. He is a little strange at first," said +Lucy, beaming upon her brother; "but as soon as he is used to you, he +will go to you just as he does to me." + +To this Jock could not reply by betraying the shiver that went over him +at the thought, but it gave great occupation to his mind to make out how +a little thing like that could attain, as it had done, such empire over +the minds of two sensible people. He consulted MTutor on the subject by +letter, who was his great referee on difficult subjects, and he could +not help betraying his wonder to the household as he grew more familiar +and the days went on. "He can't do anything for you," Jock said. "He +can't talk; he doesn't know anything about--well, about books: I know +that's more my line than yours, Lucy--but about anything. Oh! you +needn't flare up. When he dabs his mouth at you all wet----" + +"Oh! you little wretch, you infidel, you savage," Lucy cried; "his sweet +mouth! and a dear big wet kiss that lets you know he means it." + +Jock looked at her as he had done often in the old days, with mingled +admiration and contempt. It was like Lucy, and yet how odd it was. "I +suppose, then," he said, "I was rather worse than _that_ when you took +me up and were good to me. What for, I wonder? and you were fond of me, +too, although you are fonder of _it_----" + +"If you talk of It again I will never speak to you more," Lucy said, "as +if my beautiful boy was a thing and not a person. He is not It: he is +Tom, he is Mr. Randolph: that is what Williams calls him." Williams was +the butler who had been all over the world with Sir Tom, and who was +respectful of the heir, but a little impatient and surprised, as Jock +was, of the fuss that was made about Tommy for his own small sake. + +By this time, however, Jock had recovered from his shyness--his +difficulty in talking, all the little mist that absence had made--and +roamed about after Lucy, hanging upon her, putting his arm through hers, +though he was much the taller, wherever she went. He held her back a +little now as they walked through the park in a sort of procession, Mrs. +Richens, the nurse, going first with the boy. "When I was a little +slobbering beast, like----" he stopped himself in time, "like the +t'other kind of baby, and nobody wanted me, you were the only one that +took any trouble." + +"How do you know?" said Lucy; "you don't remember and I don't remember." + +"Ah! but I remember the time in the Terrace, when I lay on the rug, and +heard papa making his will over my head. I was listening for you all the +time. I was thinking of nothing but your step coming to take me out." + +"Nonsense!" said Lucy, "you were deep in your books, and thinking of +them only; of that--gentleman with the windmills--or Shakspeare, or some +other nonsense. Oh, I don't mean Shakspeare is nonsense. I mean you were +thinking of nothing but your books, and nobody would believe you +understood all that at your age." + +"I did not understand," said Jock with a blush. "I was a little prig. +Lucy, how strange it all is, like a picture one has seen somewhere, or a +scene in a play or a dream! Sometimes I can remember little bits of it, +just as he used to read it out to old Ford. Bits of it are all in and +out of _As You Like It_, as if Touchstone had said them, or Jaques. Poor +old papa! how particular he was about it all. Are you doing everything +he told you, Lucy, in the will?" + +He did not in the least mean it as an alarming question, as he stooped +over, in his awkward way holding her arm, and looked into her face. + + + + +CHAPTER V. + +CONSULTATIONS. + + +Lucy was much startled by her brother's demand. It struck, however, not +her conscience so much as her recollection, bringing back that past +which was still so near, yet which seemed a world away, in which she had +made so many anxious efforts to carry out her father's will and +considered it the main object of her life. A young wife who is happy, +and upon whom life smiles, can scarcely help looking back upon the time +when she was a girl with a sense of superiority, an amused and +affectionate contempt for herself. "How could I be so silly?" she will +say, and laugh, not without a passing blush. This was not exactly Lucy's +feeling; but in three years she had, even in her sheltered and happy +position, attained a certain acquaintance with life, and she saw +difficulties which in those former days had not been apparent to her. +When Jock began to recall these reminiscences it seemed to her as if she +saw once more the white commonplace walls of her father's sitting-room +rising about her, and heard him laying down the law which she had +accepted with such calm. She had seen no difficulty then. She had not +even been surprised by the burden laid upon her. It had appeared as +natural to obey him in matters which concerned large external interests, +and the well-being of strangers, as it was to fill him out a cup of tea. +But the interval of time, and the change of position, had made a great +difference; and when Jock asked, "Are you doing all he told you?" the +question brought a sudden surging of the blood to her head, which made a +singing in her ears and a giddiness in her brain. It seemed to place her +in front of something which must interrupt all her life and put a stop +to the even flow of her existence. She caught her breath. "Doing all he +told me!" + +Jock, though he did not mean it, though he was no longer her +self-appointed guardian and guide, became to Lucy a monitor, recalling +her as to another world. + +But the effect though startling was not permanent. They began to talk it +all over, and by dint of familiarity the impression wore away. The +impression, but not the talk. It gave the brother and sister just what +they wanted to bring back all the habits of their old affectionate +confidential intercourse, a subject upon which they could carry on +endless discussions and consultations, which was all their own, like one +of those innocent secrets which children delight in, and which, with +arms entwined and heads close together, they can carry on endlessly for +days together. They ceased the discussion when Sir Tom appeared, not +with any fear of him as a disturbing influence, but with a tacit +understanding that this subject was for themselves alone. It involved +everything; the past with all those scenes of their strange childhood, +the homely living, the fantastic possibilities always in the air, the +old dear tender relationship between the two young creatures who alone +belonged to each other. Lucy almost forgot her present self as she +talked, and they moved about together, the tall boy clinging to her arm +as the little urchin had done, altogether dependent, yet always with a +curious leadership, suggesting a thousand things that would not have +occurred to her. + +Lucy had no occasion now for the advice which Jock at eight years old +had so freely given her. She had her husband to lead and advise her. But +in this one matter Sir Tom was put tacitly out of court, and Jock had +his old place. "It does not matter at all that you have not done +anything lately," Jock said; "there is plenty of time--and now that I am +to spend all my holidays here, it will be far easier. It was better not +to do things so hastily as you began." + +"But, Jock," said Lucy, "We must not deceive ourselves; it will be very +hard. People who are very nice do not like to take the money; and those +who are willing to take it----" + +"Does the will say the people are to be nice?" asked Jock. "Then what +does that matter? The will is all against reason, Lucy. It is wrong, you +know. Fellows who know political economy would think we are all mad; for +it just goes against it, straight." + +"That is strange, Jock; for papa was very economical. He never could +bear waste: he used to say----" + +"Yes, yes; but political economy means something different. It is a +science. It means that you should sell everything as dear as you can, +and buy it as cheap as you can--and never give anything away----" + +"That is dreadful, Jock," said Lucy. "It is all very well to be a +science, but nobody like ourselves could be expected to act upon +it--private people, you know." + +"There is something in that," Jock allowed; "there are always +exceptions. I only want to show you that the will being all against +rule, it _must_ be hard to carry it out. Don't you do anything by +yourself, Lucy. When you come across any case that is promising, just +you wait till I come, and we'll talk it all over. I don't quite +understand about nice people not taking it. Fellows I know are always +pleased with presents--or a tip, nobody refuses a tip. And that is just +the same sort of thing, you know." + +"Not just the same," said Lucy, "for a tip--that means a sovereign, +doesn't it?" + +"It sometimes means--paper," said Jock, with some solemnity. "Last time +you came to see me at school Sir Tom gave me a fiver----" + +"A what?" + +"Oh, a five-pound note," said Jock, with momentary impatience; "the +other's shorter to say and less fuss. MTutor thought he had better not; +but I didn't mind. I don't see why anybody should mind. There's a fellow +I know--his father is a curate, and there are no end of them, and +they've no money. Fellow himself is on the foundation, so he doesn't +cost much. Why they shouldn't take a big tip from you, who have too +much, I'm sure I can't tell; and I don't believe they would mind," Jock +added, after a pause. + +This, which would have inspired Lucy in the days of her dauntless +maidenhood to calculate at once how much it would take to make this +family happy, gave her a little shudder now. + +"I don't feel as if I could do it," she said. "I wish papa had found an +easier way. People don't like you afterwards when you do _that_ for +them. They are angry--they think, why should I have all that to give +away, a little thing like me?" + +"The easiest way would be an exam.," said Jock. "Everybody now goes in +for exams.; and if they passed, they would think they had won the money +all right." + +"Perhaps there is something in that, Jock; but then it is not for young +men. It is for ladies, perhaps, or old people, or----" + +"You might let them choose their own subjects," said the boy. "A lady +might do a good paper about--servants, or sewing, or that sort of thing; +or housekeeping--that would be all right. MTutor might look over the +papers----" + +"Does he know about housekeeping?" + +"He knows about most things," cried Jock, "I should like to see the +thing he didn't know. He is the best scholar we have got; and he's what +you call an all-round man besides," the boy said with pride. + +"What is an all-round man?" Lucy asked, diffidently. "He is tall and +slight, so it cannot mean his appearance." + +"Oh, what a muff you are, Lucy; you're awfully nice, but you are a muff. +It means a man who knows a little of everything. MTutor is more than +that, he knows a great deal of everything; indeed, as I was saying," +Jock added defiantly, "I should just like to see the thing he didn't +know." + +"And yet he is so nice," said Lucy, with a gentle air of astonishment. + +MTutor was a subject which was endless with Jock, so that the original +topic here glided out of sight as the exalted gifts of that model of all +the virtues became the theme. This conversation, however, was but one of +many. It was their meeting ground, the matter upon which they found each +other as of old, two beings separated from the world, which wondered at +and did not understand them. What a curious office it was for them, two +favourites of fortune as they seemed, to disperse and give away the +foundation of their own importance! for Jock owed everything to Lucy, +and Lucy, when she had accomplished this object of her existence, and +carried out her father's will, would no doubt still be a wealthy woman, +but not in any respect the great personage she was now. This was a view +of the matter which never crossed the minds of these two. Their strange +training had made Lucy less conscious of the immense personal advantage +which her money was to her than any other could have done. She knew, +indeed, that there was a great difference between her early home in +Farafield and the house in London where she had lived with Lady +Randolph, and still more, the Hall which was her home--but she had been +not less but more courted and worshipped in her lowly estate than in her +high one, and her father's curious philosophy had affected her mind and +coloured her perceptions. She had learned, indeed, to know that there +are difficulties in attempting to enact the part of Providence, and +taking upon herself the task of providing for her fellow-creatures; but +these difficulties had nothing to do with the fact that she would +herself suffer by such a dispersion. Perhaps her imagination was not +lively enough to realise this part of the situation. Jock and she +ignored it altogether. As for Jock, the delight of giving away was +strong in him, and the position was so strange that it fascinated his +boyish imagination. To act such a part as that of Haroun-al-Raschid in +real life, and change the whole life of whatsoever poor cobbler or +fruit-seller attracted him, was a vision of fairyland such as Jock had +not yet outgrown. But the chief thing that he impressed on his sister +was the necessity of doing nothing by herself. "Just wait till we can +talk it over," he said, "two are always better than one: and a fellow +learns a lot at school. You wouldn't think it, perhaps, but there's all +sorts there, and you learn a lot when you have your eyes well open. We +can talk it all over and settle if it's good enough; but don't go and be +rash, Lucy, and do anything by yourself." + +"I sha'n't, dear; I should be too frightened," Lucy said. + +This was on one of his last days, when they were walking together +through the shrubbery. It was September by this time, and he might have +been shooting partridges with Sir Tom, but Jock was not so much an +out-door boy as he ought to have been, and he preferred walking with his +sister, his arm thrust through hers, his head stooping over her. It was +perhaps the last opportunity they would have of discussing their family +secrets, a matter (they thought) which really concerned nobody else, +which no one else would care to be troubled with. Perhaps in Lucy's mind +there was a sense of unreality in the whole matter; but Jock was +entirely in earnest, and quite convinced that in such an important +business he was his sister's natural adviser, and might be of a great +deal of use. It was towards evening when they went out, and a red +autumnal sunset was accomplishing itself in the west, throwing a gleam +as of the brilliant tints which were yet to come, on the still green and +luxuriant foliage. The light was low, and came into Lucy's eyes, who +shaded them with her hand. And the paths had a touch of autumnal damp, +and a certain mistiness, mellow and golden by reason of the sunshine, +was rising among the trees. + +"We will not be hasty," said Jock; "we will take everything into +consideration: and I don't think you will find so much difficulty, Lucy, +when you have me." + +"I hope not, dear," Lucy said; and she began to talk to him about his +flannels and other precautions he was to take; for Jock was supposed not +to be very strong. He had grown fast, and he was rather weedy and long, +without strength to support it. "We have been so happy together," she +said. "We always were happy together, Jock. Remember, dear, no wet feet, +and as little football as you can help, for my sake." + +"Oh, yes," he said, with a wave of his hand; "all right, Lucy. There is +no fear about that. The first thing to think of is poor old father's +will, and what you are going to do about it. I mean to think out all +that about the examinations, and I suppose I may speak to MTutor----" + +"It is too private, don't you think, Jock? Nobody knows about it. It is +better to keep it between you and me." + +"I can put it as a supposed case," said Jock, "and ask what he would +advise; for you see, Lucy, you and even I are not very experienced, and +MTutor, he knows such a lot. It would always be a good thing to have his +advice, you know; he----" + +There was no telling how long Jock might have gone on on this subject. +But just at this moment a quick step came round the corner of a clump of +wood, and a hand was laid on the shoulder of each. "What are you +plotting about?" asked the voice of Sir Tom in their ears. It was a +curious sign of her mental condition which Lucy remembered with shame +afterwards, without being very well able to account for it, that she +suddenly dropped Jock's arm and turned round upon her husband with a +quick blush and access of breathing, as if somehow--she could not tell +how--she had been found out. It had never occurred to her before, +through all those long drawn out consultations, that she was concealing +anything from Sir Tom. She dropped Jock's arm as if it hurt her, and +turned to her husband in the twinkling of an eye. + +"Jock," she said quickly, "and I--were talking about MTutor, Tom." + +"Ah! once landed on that subject, and there is no telling when we may +come to an end," Sir Tom said, with a laugh, "but never mind, I like you +all the better for it, my boy." + +Jock gave an astonished look at Lucy, a half-defiant one at her husband. + +"That was only by the way," he said, lifting up his shoulders with a +little air of offence. He did not condescend to any further explanation, +but walked along by their side with a lofty abstraction, looking at them +now and then from the corner of his eye. Lucy had taken Sir Tom's arm, +and was hanging upon her tall husband, looking up in his face. The +little blush of surprise--or was it of guilt?--with which she had +received him was still upon her cheek. She was far more animated than +usual, almost a little agitated. She asked about the shooting, about the +bag, and how many brace was to Sir Tom's own gun, with that conciliating +interest which is one of the signs of a conscious fault; while Sir Tom, +on his side bending down to his little wife, received all her flatteries +with so complacent a smile, and such a beatific belief in her perfect +sincerity and devotion, that Jock, looking on from his superiority of +passionless youth, regarded them both with a wondering disdain. Why did +she "make up" in that way to her husband, dropping her brother as if she +had been plotting harm? Jock was amazed, he could not understand it. +Perhaps it was only because he thus fell in a moment from being the +chief object of interest to the position of nobody at all. + + + + +CHAPTER VI. + +A SHADOW OF COMING EVENTS. + + +Lucy's mind had sustained a certain shock when her husband appeared. +During her short married life there had not been a cloud, or a shadow of +a cloud, between them. But then there had been no question between them, +nothing to cause any question, no difference of opinion. Sir Tom had +taken all her business naturally into his hands. Whatever she wished she +had got--nay, before she expressed a wish it had been satisfied. He had +talked to her about everything, and she had listened with docile +attention, but without concealing the fact that she neither understood +nor wished to understand; and he had not only never chided her, but had +accepted her indifference with a smile of pleasure as the most natural +thing in the world. He had encouraged her in all her liberal charities, +shaking his head and declaring with a radiant face that she would ruin +herself, and that not even her fortune would stand it. But the one +matter which had given Lucy so much trouble before her marriage, and +which Jock had now brought back to her mind, was one that had never been +mentioned between them. He had known all about it, and her eccentric +proceedings and conflict with her guardians, backing her up, indeed, +with much laughter, and showing every symptom of amiable amusement; but +he had never given any opinion on the subject, nor made the slightest +allusion since to this grand condition of her father's will. In the +sunny years that were past Lucy had taken no notice of this omission. +She had not thought much on the subject herself. She had withdrawn from +it tacitly, as one is apt to do from a matter which has been productive +of pain and disappointment, and had been content to ignore that portion +of her responsibilities. Even when Jock forcibly revived the subject it +continued without any practical importance, and its existence was a +question between themselves to afford material for endless conversation +which had been pleasant and harmless. But when Sir Tom's hand was laid +on her shoulder, and his cheerful voice sounded in her ear, a sudden +shock was given to Lucy's being. It flashed upon her in a moment that +this question which she had been discussing with Jock had never been +mentioned between her and her husband, and with a sudden instinctive +perception she became aware that Sir Tom would look upon it with very +different eyes from theirs. She felt that she had been disloyal to him +in having a secret subject of consultation even with her brother. If he +heard he would be displeased, he would be taken by surprise, perhaps +wounded, perhaps made angry. In any wise it would introduce a new +element into their life. Lucy saw, with a sudden sensation of fright and +pain, an unknown crowd of possibilities which might pour down upon her, +were it to be communicated to Sir Tom that his wife and her brother were +debating as to a course of action on her part, unknown to him. All this +occurred in a moment, and it was not any lucid and real perception of +difficulties, but only a sudden alarmed compunctious consciousness that +filled her mind. She fled, as it were, from the circumstances which made +these horrors possible, hurrying back into her former attitude with a +penitential urgency. Jock, indeed, was very dear to her, but he was no +more than second, nay he was but third, in Lady Randolph's heart. Her +husband's supremacy he could not touch, and though he had been almost +her child in the old days, yet he was not, nor ever would be, her child +in the same ineffable sense as little Tom was, who was her very own, the +centre of her life. So she ran away (so to speak) from Jock with a real +panic, and clung to her husband, conciliating, nay almost wheedling him, +if we may use the word, with a curious feminine instinct, to make up to +him for the momentary wrong she had done, and which he was not aware of. +Sir Tom himself was a little surprised by the warmth of the reception +she gave him. Her interest in his shooting was usually very mild, for +she had never been able to get over a little horror she had, due, +perhaps, to her bourgeois training, of the slaughter of the birds. He +glanced at the pair with an unusual perception that there was something +here more than met the eye. "You have been egging her up to some +rebellion," he said; "Jock, you villain; you have been hatching treason +behind my back!" He said this with one of those cordial laughs which +nobody could refrain from joining--full of good humour and fun, and a +pleased consciousness that to teach Lucy to rebel would be beyond any +one's power. At any other moment she would have taken the accusation +with the tranquil smile which was Lucy's usual reply to her husband's +pleasantries; but this time her laugh was a little strained, and the +warmth of her denial, "No, no! there has been no treason," gave the +slightest jar of surprise to Sir Tom. It sounded like a false note in +the air; he did not understand what it could mean. + +Jock went away the next day. He went with a basket of game for MTutor +and many nice things for himself, and all the attention and care which +might have been his had he been the heir instead of only the young +brother and dependent. Lucy herself drove in with him to Farafield to +see him off, and Sir Tom, who had business in the little town and meant +to drive back with his wife, appeared on the railway platform just in +time to say good-bye. "Now, Lucy, you will not forget," were Jock's last +words as he looked out of the window when the train was already in +motion. Lucy nodded and smiled, and waved her hand, but she did not make +any other reply. Sir Tom said nothing until they were driving along the +stubble fields in the afternoon sunshine. Lucy lay back in her corner +with that mingled sense of regret and relief with which, when we are +very happy at home, we see a guest go away--a gentle sorrow to part, a +soft pleasure in being once more restored to the more intimate circle. +She had not shaken off that impression of guiltiness, but now it was +over, and nothing further could be said on the subject for a long time +to come. + +"What is it, Lucy, that you are not to forget?" + +She roused herself up, and a warm flush of colour came to her face. "Oh, +nothing, Tom, a little thing we were consulting about. It was Jock that +brought it to my mind." + +"I think it must be more than just a little thing. Mayn't I hear what +this secret is?" + +"Oh, it is nothing, Tom," Lady Randolph repeated; and then she sat up +erect and said, "I must not deceive you. It is not merely a small +matter. Still it is just between Jock and me. It was about--papa's will, +Tom." + +"Ah! that is a large matter. I don't quite see how that can be between +you and Jock, Lucy. Jock has very little to do with it. I don't want to +find fault, my dear, but I think as an adviser you will find me better +than Jock." + +"I know you are far better, Tom. You know more than both of us put +together." + +"That would not be very difficult," he said, with a smile. + +Perhaps this calm acceptance of the fact nettled Lucy. At least she +said, with a little touch of spirit, "And yet I know something about our +kind of people better than you will ever do, Tom." + +"Lucy, this is a wonderful new tone. Perhaps you may know better, but I +am doubtful if you understand the relation of things as well. What is +it, my dear?--that is to say, if you like to tell me, for I am not going +to force your confidence." + +"Tom--oh dear Tom! It is not that. It is rather that it was something to +talk to Jock about. He remembers everything. When papa was making that +will----" here Lucy stopped and sighed. It had not been doing her a good +service to make her recollect that will, which had enough in it to make +her life wretched, though that as yet nobody knew. "He recollects it +all," she said. "He used to hear it read out. He remembers everything." + +"I suppose, then," said Sir Tom, with a peculiar smile, "there is +something in particular which he thought you were likely to forget?" + +Here Lucy sighed again. "I am afraid I had forgotten it. No, not +forgotten, but--I never knew very well what to do. Perhaps you don't +remember either. It is about giving the money away." + +Sir Tom was a far more considerable person in every way than the little +girl who was his wife, and who was not clever nor of any great account +apart from her wealth; and she was devoted to him, so that he could have +very little fear how any conflict should end when he was on one side, if +all the world were on the other. But perhaps he had been spoiled by +Lucy's entire agreement and consent to whatever he pleased to wish, so +that his tone was a little sharp, not so good-humoured as usual, but +with almost a sneer in it when he replied quickly, not leaving her a +moment to get her breath, "I see; Jock having inspiration from the +fountain head, was to be your guide in that." + +She looked at him alarmed and penitent, but reproachful. "I would have +done nothing, I could have done nothing, oh Tom! without you." + +"It is very obliging of you Lucy to say so; nevertheless, Jock thought +himself entitled to remind you of what you had forgotten, and to offer +himself as your adviser. Perhaps MTutor was to come in, too," he said, +with a laugh. + +Sir Tom was not immaculate in point of temper any more than other men, +but Lucy had never suffered from it before. She was frightened, but she +did not give way. The colour went out of her cheeks, but there was more +in her than mere insipid submission. She looked at her husband with a +certain courage, though she was so pale, and felt so profoundly the +displeasure which she had never encountered before. + +"I don't think you should speak like that, Tom. I have done nothing +wrong. I have only been talking to my brother of--of--a thing that +nobody cares about but him and me in all the world." + +"And that is----" + +"Doing what papa wished," Lucy said in a low voice. A little moisture +stole into her eyes. Whether it came because of her father, or because +her husband spoke sharply to her, it perhaps would have been difficult +to say. + +This made Sir Tom ashamed of his ill-humour. It was cruel to be unkind +to a creature so gentle, who was not used to be found fault with; and +yet he felt that for Lucy to set up an independence of any kind was a +thing to be crushed in the bud. A man may have the most liberal +principles about women, and yet feel a natural indignation when his own +wife shows signs of desiring to act for herself; and besides, it was not +to be endured that a boy and girl conspiracy should be hatched under his +very nose to take the disposal of an important sum of money out of his +hands. Such an idea was not only ridiculous in itself, but apt to make +him ridiculous, a man who ought to be strong enough to keep the young +ones in order. "My dear," he said, "I have no wish to speak in any way +that vexes you; but I see no reason you can have--at least I hope there +has been nothing in my conduct to give you any reason--to withdraw your +confidence from me and give it to Jock." + +Lucy did not make him any reply. She looked at him pathetically through +the water in her eyes. If she had spoken she would have cried, and this +in an open carriage, with a village close at hand, and people coming and +going upon the road, was not to be thought of. By the time she had +mastered herself Sir Tom had cooled down, and he was ashamed of having +made Lucy's lips to quiver and taken away her voice. + +"That was a very nasty thing to say," he said, "wasn't it, Lucy? I ought +to be ashamed of myself. Still, my little woman must remember that I am +too fond of her to let her have secrets with anybody but me." + +And with this he took the hand that was nearest to him into both of his +and held it close, and throwing a temptation in her way which she could +not resist, led her to talk of the baby and forget everything else +except that precious little morsel of humanity. He was far cleverer than +Lucy; he could make her do whatever he pleased. No fear of any +opposition, any setting up of her own will against his. When they got +home he gave her a kiss, and then the momentary trouble was all over. So +he thought at least. Lucy was so little and gentle and fair, that she +appeared to her husband even younger than she was; and she was a great +deal younger than himself. He thought her a sort of child-wife, whom a +little scolding or a kiss would altogether sway. The kiss had been +quite enough hitherto. Perhaps, since Jock had come upon the scene, a +few words of admonition might prove now and then necessary, but it would +be cruel to be hard upon her, or do more than let her see what his +pleasure was. + +But Lucy was not what Sir Tom thought. She could not endure that there +should be any shadow between her husband and herself, but her mind was +not satisfied with this way of settling an important question. She took +his kiss and his apology gratefully, but if anything had been wanted to +impress more deeply upon her mind the sense of a duty before her, of +which her husband did not approve, and in doing which she could not have +his help, it would have been this little episode altogether. Even little +Tom did not efface the impression from her mind. At dinner she met her +husband with her usual smile, and even assented when he remarked upon +the pleasantness of finding themselves again alone together. There had +been other guests besides Jock, so that the remark did not offend her; +but yet Lucy was not quite like herself. She felt it vaguely, and he +felt it vaguely, and neither was entirely aware what it was. + +In the morning, at breakfast, Sir Tom received a foreign letter, which +made him start a little. He started and cried, "Hollo!" then, opening +it, and finding two or three closely-scribbled sheets, gave way to a +laugh. "Here's literature!" he said. Lucy, who had no jealousy of his +correspondents, read her own calm little letters, and poured out the +tea, with no particular notice of her husband's interjections. It did +not even move her curiosity that the letter was in a feminine hand, and +gave forth a faint perfume. She reminded him that his tea was getting +cold, but otherwise took no notice. One of her own letters was from the +Dowager Lady Randolph, full of advice about the baby. "Mrs. Russell +tells me that Katie's children are the most lovely babies that ever were +seen; but she is very fantastic about them; will not let them wear shoes +to spoil their feet, and other vagaries of that kind. I hope, my dear +Lucy, that you are not fanciful about little Tom," Lady Randolph wrote. +Lucy read this very composedly, and smiled at the suggestion. Fanciful! +Oh, no, she was not fanciful about him--she was not even silly, Lucy +thought. She was capable of allowing that other babies might be lovely, +though why the feet of Katie's children should be of so much importance +she allowed to herself she could not see. She was roused from these +tranquil thoughts by a little commotion on the other side of the table, +where Sir Tom had just thrown down his letter. He was laughing and +talking to himself. "Why shouldn't she come if she likes it?" he was +saying. "Lucy, look here, since you have set up a confidant, I shall +have one too," and with that Sir Tom went off into an immoderate fit of +laughing. The letter scattered upon the table all opened out, two large +foreign sheets, looked endless. Nobody had ever written so much to Lucy +in all her life. She could see it was largely underlined and full of +notes of admiration and interrogation, altogether an out-of-the-way +epistle. Was it possible that Sir Tom was a little excited as well as +amused? He put his roll upon a hot plate, and began to cut it with his +knife and fork in an absence of mind, which was not usual with him, and +at intervals of a minute or two would burst out with his long "Ha, ha," +again. "That will serve you out, Lucy," he said, with a shout, "if I set +up a confidant too." + + + + +CHAPTER VII. + +A WARNING. + + +"I wonder if I shall like her," Lucy said to herself. + +She had been hearing from her husband about the Contessa di +Forno-Populo, who had promised to pay them a visit at Christmas. He had +laughed a great deal while he described this lady. "What she will do +here in a country-house in the depth of winter, I cannot tell," he said, +"but if she wants to come why shouldn't she? She and I are old friends. +One time and another we have seen a great deal of each other. She will +not understand me in the character of a Benedick, but that will be all +the greater fun," he said with a laugh. Lucy looked at him with a little +surprise. She could not quite make him out. + +"If she is a friend she will not mind the country and the winter," said +Lucy; "it will be you she will want to see----" + +"That is all very well, my dear," said Sir Tom, "but she wants something +more than me. She wants a little amusement. We must have a party to meet +her, Lucy. We have never yet had the house full for Christmas. Don't you +think it will be better to furnish the Contessa with other objects +instead of letting her loose upon your husband. You don't know what it +is you are treating so lightly." + +"I--treat any one lightly that you care for, Tom! Oh, no; I was only +thinking. I thought she would come to see you, not a number of strange +people----" + +"And you would not mind, Lucy?" + +"Mind?" Lucy lifted her innocent eyes upon him with the greatest +surprise. "To be sure it is most nice of all when there is nobody with +us," she said--as if that had been what he meant. Enlightenment on this +subject had not entered her mind. She did not understand him; nor did he +understand her. He gave her a sort of friendly hug as he passed, still +with that laugh in which there was no doubt a great perception of +something comic, yet--an enlightened observer might have thought--a +little uneasiness, a tremor which was almost agitation too. Lucy too had +a perception of something a little out of the way which she did not +understand, but she offered to herself no explanation of it. She said to +herself, when he was gone, "I wonder if I shall like her?" and she did +not make herself any reply. She had been in society, and held her little +place with a simple composure which was natural to her, whoever might +come in her way. If she was indeed a little frightened of the great +ladies, that was only at the first moment before she became used to +them; and afterwards all had gone well--but there was something in the +suggestion of a foreign great lady, who perhaps might not speak English, +and who would be used to very different "ways," which alarmed her a +little; and then it occurred to her with some disappointment that this +would be the time of Jock's holidays, and that it would disappoint him +sadly to find her in the midst of a crowd of visitors. She said to +herself, however, quickly, that it was not to be expected that +everything should always go exactly as one wished it, and that no doubt +the Countess of ---- what was it she was the Countess of?--would be very +nice, and everything go well; and so Lady Randolph went away to her +baby and her household business, and put it aside for the moment. She +found other things far more important to occupy her, however, before +Christmas came. + +For that winter was very severe and cold, and there was a great deal of +sickness in the neighbourhood. Measles and colds and feverish attacks +were prevalent in the village, and there were heartrending "cases," in +which young Lady Randolph at the Hall took so close an interest that her +whole life was disturbed by them. One of the babies, who was little +Tom's age, died. When it became evident that there was danger in this +case it is impossible to describe the sensations with which Lucy's brain +was filled. She could not keep away from the house in which the child +was. She sent to Farafield for the best doctor there, and everything +that money could procure was got for the suffering infant, whose +belongings looked on with wonder and even dismay, with a secret question +like that of him who was a thief and kept the bag--to what purpose was +this waste? for they were all persuaded that the baby was going to die. + +"And the best thing for him, my lady," the grandmother said. "He'll be +better done by where he's agoing than he ever could have been here." + +"Oh, don't say so," said Lucy. The young mother, who was as young as +herself, cried; yet if Lucy had been absent would have been consoled by +that terrible philosophy of poverty that it was "for the best." But Lady +Randolph, in such a tumult of all her being as she had never known +before, with unspeakable yearning over the dying baby, and a panic +beyond all reckoning for her own, would not listen to any such easy +consolation. She shut her ears to it with a gleam of anger such as had +never been seen in her gentle face before, and would have sat up all +night with the poor little thing in her lap if death had not ended its +little plaints and suffering. Sir Tom, in this moment of trial, came out +in all his true goodness and kindness. He went with her himself to the +cottage, and when the vigil was over appeared again to take her home. It +was a wintry night, frosty and clear, the stars all twinkling with that +mysterious life and motion which makes them appear to so many wistful +eyes like persons rather than worlds, and as if there was knowledge and +sympathy in those far-shining lights of heaven. Sir Thomas was alarmed +by Lucy's colourless face, and the dumb passion of misery and awe that +was about her. He was very tender-hearted himself at sight of the dead +baby which was the same age as his lovely boy. He clasped the trembling +hand with which his wife held his arm, and tried to comfort her. "Look +at the stars, my darling," he said, "the angels must have carried the +poor little soul that way." He was not ashamed to let fall a tear for +the little dead child. But Lucy could neither weep nor think of the +angels. She hurried him on through the long avenue, clinging to his arm +but not leaning upon it, hastening home. Now and then a sob escaped her, +but no tears. She flew upstairs to her own boy's nursery, and fell down +on her knees by the side of his little crib. He was lying in rosy sleep, +his little dimpled arms thrown up over his head, a model of baby beauty. +But even that sight did not restore her. She buried her wan face in her +hands and so gasped for breath that Sir Tom, who had followed her, took +her in his arms and carrying her to her own room laid her down on the +sofa by the fire and did all that man could to soothe her. + +"Lucy, Lucy! we must thank God that all is well with our own," he said, +half terrified by the gasping and the paleness; and then she burst +forth: + +"Oh, why should it be well with him, and little Willie gone? Why should +we be happy and the others miserable? My baby safe and warm in my arms, +and poor Ellen's--poor Ellen's----" + +This name, and the recollection of the poor young mother, whom she had +left in her desolation, made Lucy's tears pour forth like a summer +storm. She flung her arms round her husband's neck, and called out to +him in an agony of anxiety and excitement: + +"Oh, what shall we do to save him? Oh, Tom, pray, pray! Little Willie +was well on Saturday--and now--How can we tell what a day may bring +forth?" Lucy cried, wildly pushing him away from her, and rising from +the sofa. + +Then she began to pace about the room as we all do in trouble, clasping +her hands in a wild and inarticulate appeal to heaven. Death had never +come across her path before save in the case of her father, an old man +whose course was run, and his end a thing necessary and to be looked +for. She could not get out of her eyes the vision of that little solemn +figure, so motionless, so marble white. The thought would not leave her. +To see the calm Lucy pacing up and down in this passion of terror and +agony made Sir Tom almost as miserable as herself. He tried to take her +into his arms, to draw her back to the sofa. + +"My darling, you are over-excited. It has been too much for you," he +said. + +"Oh, what does it matter about me?" cried Lucy; "think--oh, God! oh, God +I--if we should have _that_ to bear." + +"My dear love--my Lucy, you that have always been so reasonable--the +child is quite well; come and see him again and satisfy yourself." + +"Little Willie was quite well on Saturday," she cried again. "Oh, I +cannot bear it, I cannot bear it! and why should it be poor Ellen and +not me?" + +When a person of composed mind and quiet disposition is thus carried +beyond all the bounds of reason and self-restraint, it is natural that +everybody round her should be doubly alarmed. Lucy's maid hung about the +door, and the nurse, wrapped in a shawl, stole out of little Tom's room. +They thought their mistress had the hysterics, and almost forced their +way into the room to help her. It did Sir Tom good to send these +busybodies away. But he was more anxious himself than words could say. +He drew her arms within his, and walked up and down with her. "You know, +my darling, what the Bible says, 'that one shall be taken and another +left; and that the wind bloweth where it listeth,'" he said, with a +pardonable mingling of texts. "We must just take care of him, dear, and +hope the best." + +Here Lucy stopped, and looked him in the face with an air of solemnity +that startled him. + +"I have been thinking," she said; "God has tried us with happiness +first. That is how He always does--and if we abuse _that_ then there +comes--the other. We have been so happy. Oh, so happy!" Her face, which +had been stilled by this profounder wave of feeling, began to quiver +again. "I did not think any one could be so happy," she said. + +"Well, my darling! and you have been very thankful and good----" + +"Oh, no, no, no," she cried. "I have forgotten my trust. I have let the +poor suffer, and put aside what was laid upon me--and now, now----" Lucy +caught her husband's arm with both her hands, and drew him close to her. +"Tom, God has sent his angel to warn us," she said, in a broken voice. + +"Lucy, Lucy, this is not like you. Do you think that poor little woman +has lost her baby for our sake? Are we of so much more importance than +she is, in the sight of God, do you think? Come, come, that is not like +you." + +Lucy gazed at him for a moment with a sudden opening of her eyes, which +were contracted with misery. She was subdued by the words, though she +only partially comprehended them. + +"Don't you think," he said, "that to deprive another woman of her child +in order to warn you, would be unjust, Lucy? Come and sit down and warm +your poor little hands, and take back your reason, and do not accuse God +of wrong, for that is not possible. Poor Ellen I don't doubt is composed +and submissive, while you, who have so little cause----" + +She gave him a wild look. "With her it is over, it is over!" she cried, +"but with us----" + +Lucy had never been fanciful, but love quickens the imagination and +gives it tenfold power; and no poet could have felt with such a +breathless and agonised realisation the difference between the +accomplished and the possible, the past which nothing can alter, and the +pain and sickening terror with which we anticipate what may come. Ellen +had entered into the calm of the one. She herself stood facing wildly +the unspeakable terror of the other. "Oh, Tom, I could not bear it, I +could not bear it!" she cried. + +It was almost morning before he had succeeded in soothing her, in +making her lie down and compose herself. But by that time nature had +begun to take the task in hand, wrapping her in the calm of exhaustion. +Sir Tom had the kindest heart, though he had not been without reproach +in his life. He sat by her till she had fallen into a deep and quiet +sleep, and then he stole into the nursery and cast a glance at little +Tom by the dim light of the night lamp. His heart leaped to see the +child with its fair locks all tumbled upon the pillow, a dimpled hand +laid under a dimpled cheek, ease and comfort and well-being in every +lovely curve; and then there came a momentary spasm across his face, and +he murmured "Poor little beggar!" under his breath. He was not +panic-stricken like Lucy. He was a man made robust by much experience of +the world, and a child more or less was not a thing to affect him as it +would a young mother; but the pathos of the contrast touched him with a +keen momentary pang. He stole away again quite subdued, and went to bed +thankfully, saying an uncustomary prayer in the emotion that possessed +him: Good God, to think of it; if that poor little beggar had been +little Tom! + +Lucy woke to the sound of her boy's little babbling of happiness in the +morning, and found him blooming on her bed, brought there by his father, +that she might see him and how well he was, even before she was awake. +It was thus not till the first minute of delight was over that her +recollections came back to her and she remembered the anguish of the +previous night; and then with a softened pang, as was natural, and warm +flood of thankfulness, which carried away harsher thoughts. But her mind +was in a highly susceptible and tender state, open to every impression. +And when she knelt down to make her morning supplications, Lucy made a +dedication of herself and solemn vow. She said, like the little princess +when she first knew that she was to be made queen, "I will be good." She +put forth this promise trembling, not with any sense that she was making +a bargain with God, as more rigid minds might suppose, but with all the +remorseful loving consciousness of a child which feels that it has not +made the return it ought for the good things showered upon it, and +confronts for the first time the awful possibility that these tender +privileges might be taken away. There was a trembling all over her, body +and soul. She was shaken by the ordeal through which she had come--the +ordeal which was not hers but another's: and with the artlessness of the +child was mingled that supreme human instinct which struggles to disarm +Fate by immediate prostration and submission. She laid herself down at +the feet of the Sovereign greatness which could mar all her happiness in +a moment, with a feeling that was not much more than half Christian. +Lucy tried to remind herself that He to whom she knelt was love as well +as power. But nature, which still "trembles like a guilty thing +surprised" in that great Presence, made her heart beat once more with +passion and sickening terror. God knew, if no one else did, that she had +abandoned her father's trust and neglected her duty. "Sell all thou hast +and give to the poor." Lucy rose from her knees with anxious haste, +feeling as if she must do this, come what might and whoever should +oppose; or at least since it was not needful for her to sell all she +had, that she must hurry forth, and forestall any further discipline by +beginning at once to fulfil the duty she had neglected. She could not +yet divest herself of the thought that the baby who was dead was a +little warning messenger to recall her to a sense of the punishments +that might be hanging over her. A messenger to her of mercy, for what, +oh! what would she have done if the blow had fallen upon little Tom? + + + + +CHAPTER VIII. + +THE SHADOW OF DEATH. + + +After this it may perhaps be surprising to hear that Lucy did nothing to +carry out that great trust with which she had been charged. She had +felt, and did feel at intervals, for a long time afterwards, as if God +Himself had warned her what might come upon her if she neglected her +duty. But if you will reflect how very difficult that duty was, and how +far she was from any opportunity of being able to discharge it! In early +days, when she was fresh from her father's teaching, and deeply +impressed with the instant necessity of carrying it out, Providence +itself had sent the Russell family, poor and helpless people, who had +not the faculty of getting on by themselves, into her way, and Lucy had +promptly, or at least as promptly as indignant guardians would permit, +provided for them in the modest way which was all her ideas reached to +at the time. But around the Hall there was nobody to whom the same +summary process could be applied. The people about were either working +people, whom it is always easy to help, or well-off people, who had no +wants which Lucy could supply. And this continued to be so even after +her fright and determination to return to the work that had been +allotted to her. No doubt, could she have come down to the hearts and +lives of the neighbours who visited Lady Randolph on the externally +equal footing which society pretends to allot to all gentlefolks, she +would have found several of them who would have been glad to free her +from her money; but then she could not see into their hearts. She did +not know what a difficult thing it was for Mr. Routledge of Newby to pay +the debts of his son when he had left college, or how hardly hit was +young Archer of Fordham in the matter of the last joint-stock bank that +stopped payment. If they had not all been so determined to hold up their +heads with the best, and keep up appearances, Lucy might have managed +somehow to transfer to them a little of the money which she wanted to +get rid of, and of which they stood so much in need. But this was not to +be thought of; and when she cast her eyes around her it was with a +certain despair that Lucy saw no outlet whatever for those bounties +which it had seemed to her heaven itself was concerned about, and had +warned her not to neglect. Many an anxious thought occupied her mind on +this subject. She thought of calling her cousin Philip Rainy, who was +established and thriving at Farafield, and whose fortune had been +founded upon her liberality, to her counsels. But if Sir Tom had +disliked the confidences between her and her brother, what would he +think of Philip Rainy as her adviser? Then Lucy in her perplexity turned +again to the thought of Jock. Jock had a great deal more sense in him +than anybody knew. He had been the wisest child, respected by everybody; +and now he was almost a man, and had learned, as he said, a great deal +at school. She thought wistfully of the poor curate of whom Jock had +told her. Very likely that poor clergyman would do very well for what +Lucy wanted. Surely there could be no better use for money than to endow +such a man, with a whole family growing up, all the better for it, and a +son on the foundation! And then she remembered that Jock had entreated +her to do nothing till he came. Thus the time went on, and her +passionate resolution, her sense that heaven itself was calling upon +her, menacing her with judgment even, seemed to come to nothing--not out +of forgetfulness or sloth, or want of will--but because she saw no way +open before her, and could not tell what to do. And after that miserable +night when Ellen Bailey's baby died, and death seemed to enter in, as +novel and terrible as if he had never been known before, for the first +time into Lucy's Paradise, she had never said anything to Sir Tom. Day +after day she had meant to do it, to throw herself upon his guidance, to +appeal to him to help her; but day after day she had put it off, +shrinking from the possible contest of which some instinct warned her. +She knew, without knowing how, that in this he would not stand by her. +Impossible to have been kinder in that crisis, more tender, more +indulgent, even more understanding than her husband was; but she felt +instinctively the limits of his sympathy. He would not go that length. +When she got to that point he would change. But she could not have him +change; she could not anticipate the idea of a cloud upon his face, or +any shadow between them. And then Lucy made up her mind that she would +wait for Jock, and that he and she together, when there were two to talk +it over, would make out a way. + +All was going on well again, the grass above little Willie's grave was +green, his mother consoled and smiling as before, and at the Hall the +idea of the Christmas party had been resumed, and the invitations, +indeed, were sent off, when one morning the visitor whom Lucy had +anticipated with such dread came out of the village, where infantile +diseases always lingered, and entered the carefully-kept nursery. Little +Tom awoke crying and fretful, hot with fever, his poor little eyes heavy +with acrid tears. His mother had not been among the huts where poor men +lie for nought, and she saw at a glance what it was. Well! not anything +so very dreadful--measles, which almost all children have. There was no +reason in the world why she should be alarmed. She acknowledged as much, +with a tremor that went to her heart. There were no bad symptoms. The +baby was no more ill than it was necessary he should be. "He was having +them beautiful," the nurse said, and Lucy scarcely allowed even her +husband to see the deep, harrowing dread that was in her. By and by, +however, this dread was justified; she had been very anxious about all +the little patients in the village that they should not catch cold, +which in the careless ignorance of their attendants, and in the limited +accommodation of the cottages, was so usual, so likely, almost +inevitable. A door would be left open, a sudden blast of cold would come +upon the little sufferer; how could any one help it? Lucy had given the +poor women no peace on this subject. She had "worrited them out o' their +lives." And now, wonder above all finding out, it was in little Tom's +luxurious nursery, where everything was arranged for his safety, where +one careful nurse succeeded another by night and by day, and Lady +Randolph herself was never absent for an hour, where the ventilation was +anxiously watched and regulated, and no incautious intruder ever +entered--it was there that the evil came. When the child had shaken off +his little complaint and all was going well, he took cold, and in a few +hours more his little lungs were labouring heavily, and the fever of +inflammation consuming his strength. Little Tom, the heir, the only +child! A cloud fell over the house; from Sir Tom himself to the lowest +servant, all became partakers, unawares, of Lucy's dumb terror. It was +because the little life was so important, because so much hung upon it, +that everybody jumped to the conclusion that the worst issue might be +looked for. Humanity has an instinctive, heathenish feeling that God +will take advantage of all the special circumstances that aggravate a +blow. + +Lucy, for her part, received the stroke into her very soul. She was +outwardly more calm than when her heart had first been roused to terror +by the death of the little child in the village. That which she had +dreaded was come, and all her powers were collected to support her. The +moment had arrived--the time of trial--and she would not fail. Her hand +was steady and her head clear, as is the case with finer natures when +confronted with deadly danger. This simple girl suddenly became like one +of the women of tragedy, fighting, still and strong, with a desperation +beyond all symbols--the fight with death. But Sir Tom took it +differently. A woman can nurse her child, can do something for him; but +a man is helpless. At first he got rid of his anxieties by putting a +cheerful face upon the matter, and denying the possibility of danger. +"The measles! every child had the measles. If no fuss was made the +little chap," he declared, "would soon be all right. It was always a +mistake to exaggerate." But when there could no longer be any doubt on +the subject, a curious struggle took place in Sir Tom's mind. That +baby--die? That crowing, babbling creature pass away into the solemnity +of death! It had not seemed possible, and when he tried to get it into +his mind his brain whirled. Wonder for the moment seemed to silence even +the possibility of grief. He had himself gone through labours and +adventures that would have killed a dozen men, and had never been +conscious even of alarm about himself; and the idea of a life quenched +in its beginning by so accidental a matter as a draught in a nursery +seemed to him something incomprehensible. When he had heard of a child's +death he had been used to say that the mother would feel it, no doubt, +poor thing; but it was a small event, that scarcely counted in human +history to Sir Tom. When, however, his own boy was threatened, after the +first incredulity, Sir Tom felt a pang of anger and wretchedness which +he could not understand. It was not that the family misfortune of the +loss of the heir overwhelmed him, for it was very improbable that poor +little Tom would be his only child; it was a more intimate and personal +sensation. A sort of terrified rage came over him which he dared not +express; for if indeed his child was to be taken from him, who was it +but God that would do this? and he did not venture to turn his rage to +that quarter. And then a confusion of miserable feelings rose within +him. One night he did not go to bed. It was impossible in the midst of +the anxiety that filled the house, he said to himself. He spent the +weary hours in going softly up and down stairs, now listening at the +door of the nursery and waiting for his wife, who came out now and then +to bring him a bulletin, now dozing drearily in his library downstairs. +When the first gleams of the dawn stole in at the window he went out +upon the terrace in the misty chill morning, all damp and miserable, +with the trees standing about like ghosts. There was a dripping thaw +after a frost, and the air was raw and the prospect dismal; but even +that was less wretched than the glimmer of the shaded lights, the +muffled whispering and stealthy footsteps indoors. He took a few turns +up and down the terrace, trying to reason himself out of this misery. +How was it, after all, that the little figure of this infant should +overshadow earth and heaven to a man, a reasonable being, whose mind and +life were full of interests far more important? Love, yes! but love must +have some foundation. The feeling which clung so strongly to a child +with no power of returning it, and no personal qualities to excite it, +must be mere instinct not much above that of the animals. He would not +say this before Lucy, but there could be no doubt it was the truth. He +shook himself up mentally, and recalled himself to what he attempted to +represent as the true aspect of affairs. He was a man who had obtained +most things that this world can give. He had sounded life to its depths +(as he thought), and tasted both the bitter and the sweet; and after +having indulged in all these varied experiences it had been given to +him, as it is not given to many men, to come back from all wanderings +and secure the satisfactions of mature life, wealth, and social +importance, and the power of acting in the largest imperial concerns. +Round about him everything was his; the noble woods that swept away into +the mist on every side; the fields and farms which began to appear in +the misty paleness of the morning through the openings in the trees. And +if he had not by his side such a companion as he had once dreamed of, +the beautiful, high-minded ideal woman of romance, yet he had got one +of the best of gentle souls to tread the path of life along with him, +and sympathise even when she did not understand. For a man who had not +perhaps deserved very much, how unusual was this happiness. And was it +possible that all these things should be obscured, cast into the shade, +by so small a matter as the sickness of a child? What had the baby ever +done to make itself of so much importance? Nothing. It did not even +understand the love it excited, and was incapable of making any +response. Its very life was little more than a mechanical life. The +woman who fed it was far more to it than its father, and there was +nothing excellent or noble in the world to which it would not prefer a +glittering tinsel or a hideous doll. If the little thing had grown up, +indeed, if it had developed human tastes and sympathies, and become a +companion, an intelligence, a creature with affections and +thoughts,--but that the whole house should thus be overwhelmed with +miserable anxiety and pain because of a being in the embryo state of +existence, who could neither respond nor understand, what a strange +thing it was! No doubt this instinct had been implanted in order to +preserve the germ and keep the race going; but that it should thus +develop into an absorbing passion and overshadow everything else in life +was a proof how the natural gets exaggerated, and, if we do not take +care, changes its character altogether, mastering us instead of being +kept in its fit place, and in check, as it ought to be by sense and +reason. From time to time, as Sir Tom made these reflections, there +would flit across his mind, as across a mirror, something which was not +thought, which was like a picture momentarily presented before him. One +of the most persistent of these, which flashed out and in upon his +senses like a view in a magic lantern, was of that moment in the midst +of the flurry of the election when little Tom, held up in his mother's +arms, had clapped his baby hands for his father. This for a second would +confound all his thoughts, and give his heart a pang as if some one had +seized and pressed it with an iron grasp; but the next moment he would +pick up the thread of his reflections again, and go on with them. That, +too, was merely mechanical, like all the little chap's existence up to +this point. Poor little chap! here Sir Tom stopped in his course of +thought, impeded by a weight at his heart which he could not shake off; +nor could he see the blurred and vague landscape round him--something +more blinding even than the fog had got into his eyes. + +Then Sir Tom started and his heart sprang up to his throat beating +loudly. It was not anything of much importance, it was only the opening +of the window by which he himself had come out upon the terrace. He +turned round quickly, too anxious even to ask a question. If it had been +a king's messenger bringing him news that affected the whole kingdom, he +would have turned away with an impatient "Pshaw!" or struck the intruder +out of his way. But it was his wife, wrapped in a dressing-gown, pale +with watching, her hair pushed back upon her forehead, her eyes +unnaturally bright. "How is he?" cried Sir Tom, as if the question was +one of life or death. + +Lucy told him, catching at his arm to support herself, that she thought +there was a little improvement. "I have been thinking so for the last +hour, not daring to think it, and yet I felt sure; and now nurse says so +too. His breathing is easier. I have been on thorns to come and tell +you, but I would not till I was quite sure." + +"Thank God! God be praised!" said Sir Tom. He did not pretend to be a +religious man on ordinary occasions, but at the present moment he had no +time to think, and spoke from the bottom of his heart. He supported his +little wife tenderly on one arm, and put back the disordered hair on her +forehead. "Now you will go and take a little rest, my darling," he said. + +"Not yet, not till the doctor comes. But you want it as much as I." + +"No; I had a long sleep on the sofa. We are all making fools of +ourselves, Lucy. The poor little chap will be all right. We are queer +creatures. To think that you and I should make ourselves so miserable +over a little thing like that, that knows nothing about it, that has no +feelings, that does not care a button for you and me." + +"Tom, what are you talking of? Not of my boy, surely--not my boy!" + +"Hush, my sweet. Well," said Sir Tom, with a tremulous laugh, "what is +it but a little polypus after all? that can do nothing but eat and +sleep, and crow perhaps--and clap its little fat hands," he said, with +the tears somehow getting into his voice, and mingling with the +laughter. "I allow that I am confusing my metaphors." + +At this moment the window opening upon the terrace jarred again, and +another figure in a dressing-gown, dark and ghost-like, appeared +beckoning to Lucy, "My lady! my lady!" + +Lucy let go her husband's arm, thrust him away from her with passion, +gave him one wild look of reproach, and flew noiselessly like a spirit +after the nurse to her child. Sir Tom, with his laugh still wavering +about his mouth, half hysterically, though he was no weakling, tottered +along the terrace to the open window, and stood there leaning against +it, scarcely breathing, the light gone out of his eyes, his whole soul +suspended, and every part of his strong body, waiting for what another +moment might bring to pass. + + + + +CHAPTER IX. + +A CHRISTMAS VISIT. + + +Little Tom did not die, but he became "delicate,"--and fathers and +mothers know what that means. The entire household was possessed by one +pervading terror lest he should catch cold, and Lucy's life became +absorbed in this constant watchfulness. Naturally the Christmas guests +were put off, and it was understood in respect to the Contessa di +Forno-Populo, that she was to come at Easter. Sir Tom himself thought +this a better arrangement. The Parliamentary recess was not a long one, +and the Contessa would naturally prefer, after a short visit to her old +friend, to go to town, where she would find so many people she knew. + +"And even in the country the weather is more tolerable in April," said +Sir Tom. + +"Oh, yes, yes. The doctor says if we keep clear of the east winds that +he may begin to go out again and get up his strength," said Lucy. + +"My love, I am thinking of your visitors, and you are thinking of your +baby," Sir Tom said. + +"Oh, Tom, what do you suppose I could be thinking of?" his wife cried. + +Sir Tom himself was very solicitous about the baby, but to hear of +nothing else worried him. He was glad when old Lady Randolph, who was an +invariable visitor, arrived. + +"How is the baby?" was her first question when he met her at the train. + +"The baby would be a great deal better if there was less fuss made about +him," he said. "You must give Lucy a hint on that subject, aunt." + +Lady Randolph was a good woman, and it was her conviction that she had +made this match. But it is so pleasant to feel that you have been right, +that she was half pleased, though very sorry, to think that Sir Tom (as +she had always known) was getting a little tired of sweet simplicity. +She met Lucy with an affectionate determination to be very plain with +her, and warn her of the dangers in her path. Jock had arrived the day +before. He rose up in all the lanky length of sixteen from the side of +the fire in the little drawing-room when the Dowager came in. It was +just the room into which one likes to come after a cold journey at +Christmas; the fire shining brightly in the midst of the reflectors of +burnished steel and brass, shining like gold and silver, of the most +luxurious fireplace that skill could contrive (the day of tiled stoves +was not as yet), and sending a delicious glow on the soft mossy carpets +into which the foot sank; a table with tea, reflecting the firelight in +all the polished surfaces of the china and silver, stood near; and +chairs invitingly drawn towards the fire. The only drawback was that +there was no one to welcome the visitor. On ordinary occasions Lucy was +at the door, if not at the station, to receive the kind lady whom she +loved. Lady Randolph was somewhat surprised at the difference, and when +she saw the lengthy boy raising himself up from the fireside, turned +round to her nephew and asked, "Do I know this young gentleman? There is +not light enough to see him," with a voice in which Jock, shy and +awkward, felt all the old objection to his presence as a burden upon +Lucy, which in his precocious toleration he had accepted as reasonable, +but did not like much the better for that. And then she sat down +somewhat sullenly at the fire. The next minute Lucy came hastily in with +many apologies: "I did not hear the carriage, aunt. I was in the +nursery----" + +"And how is the child?" Lady Randolph said. + +"Oh, he is a great deal better--don't you think he is much better, Tom? +Only a little delicate, and that, we hope, will pass away." + +"Then, Lucy, my dear, though I don't want to blame you, I think you +should have heard the carriage," said Aunt Randolph. "The tea-table does +not look cheerful when the mistress of the house is away." + +"Oh, but little Tom----" Lucy said, and then stopped herself, with a +vague sense that there was not so much sympathy around her as usual. Her +husband had gone out again, and Jock stood dumb, an awkward shadow +against the mantelpiece. + +"My dear, I only speak for your good," the elder lady said. "Big Tom +wants a little attention too. I thought you were going to have quite a +merry Christmas and a great many people here." + +"But, Aunt Randolph, baby----" + +"Oh, my dear, you must think of something else besides baby. Take my +word for it, baby would be a great deal stronger if you left him a +little to himself. You have your husband, you know, to think of, and +what harm would it have done baby if there had been a little cheerful +company for his father? But you will think I have come to scold, and I +don't in the least mean that. Give me a cup of tea, Lucy. Tom tells me +that this tall person is Jock." + +"You would not have known him?" said Lucy, much subdued in tone. + +She occupied herself with the tea, arranging the cups and saucers with +hands that trembled a little at the unexpected and unaccustomed +sensation of a repulse. + +"Well, I cannot even see him. But he has certainly grown out of +knowledge--I never thought he would have been so tall; he was quite a +little pinched creature as a child. I daresay you took too much care of +him, my dear. I remember I used to think so; and then when he was tossed +into the world or sent to school--it comes to much the same thing, I +suppose--he flourished and grew." + +"I wonder," said Lucy, somewhat wistfully, "if that is really so? +Certainly it is since he has been at school that he has grown so much." +Jock all this time fidgeted about from one leg to another with +unutterable darkness upon his brow, could any one have seen it. There +are few things so irritating, especially at his age, as to be thus +discussed over one's own head. + +"My dear Lucy," said Lady Randolph, "don't you remember some one +says--who was it, I wonder? it sounds like one of those dreadfully +clever French sayings that are always so much to the point--about the +advantages of a little wholesome neglect?" + +"Can neglect ever be wholesome? Oh, I don't think so--I can't think +so--at least with children." + +"It is precisely children that are meant," said the elder Lady +Randolph. But as she talked, sitting in the warm light of the fire, with +her cup in her hand, feeling extremely comfortable, discoursing at her +ease, and putting sharp arrows as if they had been pins into the heart +of Lucy, Sir Tom's large footsteps became audible coming through the +great drawing-room, which was dark. The very sound of him was cheerful +as he came in, and he brought the scent of fresh night air, cold but +delightful, with him. He passed by Lucy's chair and said, "How is the +little 'un?" laying a kind hand upon her head. + +"Oh, better. I am sure he is better. Aunt Randolph thinks----" + +"I am giving Lucy a lecture," said Lady Randolph, "and telling her she +must not shut herself up with that child. He'll get on all the better if +he is not coddled too much." + +Sir Tom made no reply, but came to the fire, and drew a chair into the +cheerful glow. "You are all in the dark," he said, "but the fire is +pleasant this cold night. Well, now that you are thawed, what news have +you brought us out of the world? We are two hermits, Lucy and I. We +forget what kind of language you speak. We have a little sort of talk of +our own which answers common needs about babies and so forth, but we +should like to hear what you are discoursing about, just for a change." + +"There is no such thing as a world just now," said Lady Randolph, "there +are nothing but country-houses. Society is all broken up into little +bits, as you know as well as I do. One gleans a little here and a little +there, and one carries it about like a basket of eggs." + +"Jock has a world, and it is quite entire," said Sir Tom, with his +cordial laugh. "No breaking up into little bits there. If you want a +society that knows its own opinions, and will stick to them through +thick and thin, I can tell you where to find it; and to see how it holds +together and sits square whatever happens----" + +Here there came a sort of falsetto growl from Jock's corner, where he +was blushing in the firelight. "It's because you were once a fellow +yourself, and know all about it." + +"So it is, Jock; you are right, as usual," said Sir Tom; "I was once a +fellow myself, and now I'm an old fellow, and growing duller. Turn out +your basket of eggs, Aunt Randolph, and let us know what is going on. +Where did you come from last--the Mulberrys? Come; there must have been +some pretty pickings of gossip there." + +"You shall have it all in good time. I am not going to run myself dry +the first hour. I want to know about yourselves, and when you are going +to give up this honeymooning. I expected to have met all sorts of people +here." + +"Yes," said Sir Tom, and then he burst forth in a laugh, "La +Forno-Populo and a few others; but as little Tom is not quite up to +visitors, we have put them off till Easter." + +"La Forno-Populo!" said Lady Randolph, in a voice of dismay. + +"Why not?" said Sir Tom. "She wrote and offered herself. I thought she +might find it a doubtful pleasure, but if she likes it---- However, you +may make yourself easy, nobody is coming," he added, with a certain jar +of impatience in his tone. + +"Well, Tom, I must say I am very glad of that," Lady Randolph said +gravely--and then there was a pause. "I doubt whether Lucy would have +liked her," she added, after a moment. Then with another interval, "I +think, Lucy, my love, after that nice cup of tea, and my first sight of +you, that I will go to my own room. I like a little rest before +dinner--you know my lazy way." + +"And it's getting ridiculously dark in this room," Sir Tom said, kicking +a footstool out of the way. This little impatient movement was like one +of those expletives that seem to relieve a man's mind, and both the +ladies understood it as such, and knew that he was angry. Lucy, as she +rose from her tea-table to attend upon her visitor, herself in a +confused and painful mood, and vexed with what had been said to her, +thought her husband was irritated by his aunt, and felt much sympathy +with him, and anxiety to conduct Lady Randolph to her room before it +should go any farther. But the elder lady understood it very +differently. She went away, followed by Lucy through the great +drawing-room, where a solitary lamp had been placed on a table to show +the way. It had been the Dowager's own house in her day, and she did not +require any guidance to her room. Nor did she detain Lucy after the +conventional visit to see that all was comfortable. + +"That I haven't the least doubt of," Lady Randolph said, "and I am at +home, you know, and will ask for anything I want; but I must have my nap +before dinner; and do you go and talk to your husband." + +Lucy could not resist one glance into the nursery, where little Tom, a +little languid but so much better, was sitting on his nurse's knee +before the fire, amused by those little fables about his fingers and +toes which are the earliest of all dramatic performances. The sight of +him thus content, and the sound of his laugh, was sweet to her in her +anxiety. She ran downstairs again without disturbing him, closing so +carefully the double doors that shut him out from all draughts, not +without a wondering doubt as she did so, whether it was true, perhaps, +that she was "coddling" him, and if there was such a thing as wholesome +neglect. She went quickly through the dim drawing-room to the warm ruddy +flush of firelight that shone between the curtains from the smaller +room, thinking nothing less than to find her husband, who was fond of an +hour's repose in that kindly light before dinner. She had got to her old +place in front of the fire before she perceived that Sir Tom's tall +shadow was no longer there. Lucy uttered a little exclamation of +disappointment, and then she perceived remorsefully another shadow, not +like Sir Tom's, the long weedy boyish figure of her brother against the +warm light. + +"But you are here, Jock," she said, advancing to him. Jock took hold of +her arm, as he was so fond of doing. + +"I shall never have you, now _she_ has come," Jock said. + +"Why not, dear? You were never fond of Lady Randolph--you don't know how +good and kind she is. It is only when you like people that you know how +nice they are," Lucy said, all unconscious that a deeper voice than hers +had announced that truth. + +"Then I shall never know, for I don't like her," said Jock +uncompromising. "You'll have to sit and gossip with her when you're not +in the nursery, and I shall have no time to tell you, for the holidays +last only a month." + +"But you can tell me everything in a month, you silly boy; and if we +can't have our walks, Jock (for it's cold), there is one place where +she will never come," said Lucy, upon which Jock turned away with an +exclamation of impatience. + +His sister put her hand on his shoulder and looked reproachfully in his +face. + +"You too! You used to like it. You used to come and toss him up and make +him laugh----" + +"Oh, don't, Lucy! can't you see? So I would again, if he were like that. +How you can bear it!" said the boy, bursting away from her. And then +Jock returned very much ashamed and horror-stricken, and took the hand +that dropped by her side, and clumsily patted and kissed it, and held it +between his own, looking penitently, wistfully, in her face all the +while: but not knowing what to say. + +Lucy stood looking down into the glowing fire, with her head drooping +and an air of utter dejection in her little gentle figure. "Do you think +he looks so bad as that?" she said, in a broken voice. + +"Oh, no, no; that is not what I mean," the boy cried. "It's--the little +chap is not so jolly; he's--a little cross; or else he's forgotten me. I +suppose it's that. He wouldn't look at me when I ran up. He's so little +one oughtn't to mind, but it made me----your baby, Lucy! and the little +beggar cried and wouldn't look at me." + +"Is that all?" said Lucy. She only half believed him, but she pretended +to be deceived. She gave a little trembling laugh, and laid her head for +a moment upon Jock's boyish breast, where his heart was beating high +with a passion of sorrow and tender love. "Sometimes," she said, leaning +against him, "sometimes I think I shall die. I can't live to see +anything happen to him: and sometimes---- But he is ever so much better; +don't you think he looks almost himself?" she said, raising her head +hurriedly, and interrogating the scarcely visible face with her eyes. + +"Looks! I don't see much difference in his looks, if he wouldn't be so +cross," said Jock, lying boldly, but with a tremor, for he was not used +to it. And then he said hurriedly, "But there's that clergyman, the +father of the fellow on the foundation. I've found out all about him. I +must tell you, Lucy. He is the very man. There is no call to think about +it or put off any longer. What a thing it would be if he could have it +by Christmas! I have got all the particulars--they look as if they were +just made for us," Jock cried. + + + + +CHAPTER X. + +LUCY'S ADVISERS. + + +Lady Randolph found her visit dull. It is true that there had been no +guests to speak of on previous Christmases since Sir Tom's marriage; but +the house had been more cheerful, and Lucy had been ready to drive, or +walk, or call, or go out to the festivities around. But now she was +absorbed by the nursing, and never liked to be an hour out of call. The +Dowager put up with it as long as she was able. She did not say anything +more on the subject for some days. It was not, indeed, until she had +been a week at the Hall that, being disturbed by the appeals of Lucy as +to whether she did not think baby was looking better than when she came, +she burst forth at last. They were sitting by themselves in the hour +after dinner when ladies have the drawing-room all to themselves. It is +supposed by young persons in novels to be a very dreary interval, but to +the great majority of women it is a pleasant moment. The two ladies sat +before the pleasant fire; Lucy with some fleecy white wool in her lap +with which she was knitting something for her child, Lady Randolph with +a screen interposed between her and the fire, doing nothing, an +operation which she always performed gracefully and comfortably. It +could not be said that the gentlemen were lingering over their wine. +Jock had retired to the library, where he was working through all the +long-collected literary stores of the Randolph family, with an +instinctive sense that his presence in the drawing-room was not desired. +Sir Tom had business to do, or else he was tired of the domestic calm. +The ladies had been sitting for some time in silence when Lady Randolph +suddenly broke forth-- + +"You know what I said to you the first evening, Lucy? I have not said a +word on the subject since--of course I didn't come down here to enjoy +your hospitality and then to find fault." + +"Oh, Aunt Randolph! don't speak of hospitality; it is your own house." + +"My dear, it is very pretty of you to say so. I hope I am not the sort +of person to take advantage of it. But I feel a sort of responsibility, +seeing it was I that brought you together first. Lucy, I must tell you. +You are not doing what you ought by Tom. Here he is, a middle-aged man, +you know, and one of the first in the county. People look to him for a +great many things: he is the member: he is a great landowner: he is +(thanks to you) very well off. And here is Christmas, and not a visitor +in the house but myself. Oh, there's Jock! a schoolboy home for his +holidays--that does not count; not a single dinner that I can hear +of----" + +"Yes, aunt, on the 6th," said Lucy, with humility. + +"On the 6th, and it is now the 27th! and no fuss at all made about +Christmas. My dear, you needn't tell me it's a bore. I know it is a +bore--everywhere wherever one goes; still, everybody does it. It is just +a part of one's responsibilities. You don't go to balls in Lent, and you +stand on your heads, so to speak, at Christmas. The country expects it +of you; and it is always a mistake to take one's own way in such +matters. You should have had, in the first place," said Lady Randolph, +counting on her fingers, "your house full; in the second, a ball, to +which everybody should have been asked. On these occasions no one that +could possibly be imagined to be gentlefolk should be left out. I would +even stretch a point--doctors and lawyers, and so forth, go without +saying, and those big brewers, you know, I always took in; and some +people go as far as the 'vet.,' as they call him. He was a very +objectionable person in my day, and that was where I drew the line; then +three or four dinners at the least." + +"But, Aunt Randolph, how could we when baby is so poorly----" + +"What has baby to do with it, Lucy? You don't have the child down to +receive your guests. With the door of his nursery shut to keep out the +noise (if you think it necessary: I shouldn't think it would matter) +what harm would it do him? He would never be a bit the wiser, poor +little dear. Yes, I dare say your heart would be with him many a time +when you were elsewhere; but you must not think of yourself." + +"I did not mean to do so, aunt. I thought little Tom was my first duty." + +"Now, I should have thought, my dear," said the Dowager, smiling +blandly, "that it would have been big Tom who answered to that +description." + +"But, Tom----" Lucy paused, not knowing in what shape to put so obvious +a truth, "he is like me," she said. "He is far, far more anxious than he +lets you see. It is his--duty too." + +"A great many other things are his duty as well; besides, there is so +much, especially in a social point of view, which the man never sees +till his wife points it out. That's one of the uses of a woman. She must +keep up her husband's popularity, don't you see? You must never let it +be said: 'Oh, Sir Tom! he is all very well in Parliament, but he does +nothing for the county.'" + +"I never thought of that," said Lucy, with dismay. + +"But you must learn to think of it, my love. Never mind, this is the +first Christmas since the election. But one dinner, and nothing else +done, not so much as a magic lantern in the village! I do assure you, my +dearest girl, you are very much to blame." + +"I am very sorry," said Lucy, with a startled look, "but, dear aunt, +little Tom----" + +"My dear Lucy! I am sure you don't wish everybody to get sick of that +poor child's very name." + +Lucy sprang up from her chair at this outrage; she could not bear any +more. A flush of almost fury came upon her face. She went up to the +mantelpiece, which was a very fine one of carved wood, and leant her +head upon it. She did not trust herself to reply. + +"Now, I know what you are thinking," said Lady Randolph blandly. "You +are saying to yourself, that horrid old woman, who never had a child, +how can she know?--and I don't suppose I do," said the clever Dowager +pathetically. "All that sweetness has been denied to me. I have never +had a little creature that was all mine. But when I was your age, Lucy, +and far older than you, I would have given anything--almost my life--to +have had a child." + +Lucy melted in a moment, threw herself down upon the hearth-rug upon her +knees, and took Lady Randolph's hands in her own and kissed them. + +"Oh, dear aunt, dear aunt!" she cried, "to think I should have gone on +so about little Tom and never remembered that you---- But we are all your +children," she said, in the innocence and fervour of her heart. + +"Yes, my love." Lady Randolph freed one of her hands and put it up with +her handkerchief to her cheek. As a matter of fact she did not regret it +now, but felt that a woman when she is growing old is really much more +able to look after her own comforts when she has no children; and yet, +when she remembered how she had been bullied on the subject, and all the +reproaches that had been addressed to her as if it were her fault, +perhaps there was something like a tear. "That is why I venture to say +many things to you that I would not otherwise. Tom, indeed, is too old +to have been my son; but I have felt, Lucy, as if I had a daughter in +you." Then shaking off this little bit of sentiment with a laugh, the +Dowager raised Lucy and kissed her and put her into a chair by her own +side. + +"Since we are about it," she said, "there is one other thing I should +like to talk to you about. Of course your husband knows a great deal +more of the world than you do, Lucy; but it is perhaps better that he +should not decide altogether who is to be asked. Men have such strange +notions. If people are amusing it is all they think of. Well, now, there +is that Contessa di Forno-Populo. I would not have her, Lucy, if I were +you." + +"But it was she who was the special person," said Lucy, in amaze. "The +others were to come to meet her. She is an old friend." + +"Oh, I know all about the old friendship," said Lady Randolph. "I think +Tom should be ashamed of himself. He knows that in other houses where +the mistress knows more about the world. Yes, yes, she is an old friend. +All the more reason, my dear, why you should have as little to say to +her as possible; they are never to be reckoned upon. Didn't you hear +what he called her. _La_ Forno-Populo? Englishmen never talk of a lady +like that if they have any great respect for her; but it can't be denied +that this lady has a great deal of charm. And I would just keep her at +arm's length, Lucy, if I were you." + +"Dear Aunt Randolph, why should I do that?" said Lucy, gravely. "If she +is Tom's friend, she must always be welcome here. I do not know her, +therefore I can only welcome her for my husband's sake; but that is +reason enough. You must not ask me to do anything that is against Tom." + +"Against Tom! I think you are a little goose, Lucy, though you are so +sensible. Is it not all for his sake that I am talking? I want you to +see more of the world, not to shut yourself up here in the nursery +entirely on his account. If you don't understand that, then words have +no meaning." + +"I do understand it, aunt," said Lucy meekly. "Don't be angry; but why +should I be disagreeable to Tom's friend? The only thing I am afraid of +is, should she not speak English. My French is so bad----" + +"Oh, your French will do very well; and you will take your own way, my +dear," said the elder lady, getting up. "You all do, you young people. +The opinion of others never does any good; and as Tom does not seem to +be coming, I think I shall take my way to bed. Good-night, Lucy. +Remember what I said, at all events, about the magic lantern. And if you +are wise you will have as little to do as possible with La Forno-Populo +as you can--and there you have my two pieces of advice." + +Lucy was disturbed a little by her elder's counsel, both in respect to +the foreign lady, whom, however, she simply supposed Lady Randolph did +not like--and in regard to her own nursery tastes and avoidance of +society;--could that be why Tom sat so much longer in the dining-room +and did not come in to talk to his aunt? She began to think with a +little ache in her heart, and to remember that in her great +preoccupation with the child he had been left to spend many evenings +alone, and that he no longer complained of this. She stood up in front +of the fire and pressed her hot forehead to the mantel-shelf. How was a +woman to know what to do? Was not he that was most helpless and had most +need of her the one to devote her time to? There was not a thought in +her that was disloyal to Sir Tom. But what if he were to form the habit +of doing without her society? This was an idea that filled her with a +vague dread. Some one came in through the great drawing-room as she +stood thinking, and she turned round eagerly, supposing that it was her +husband; but it was only Jock, who had been on the watch to hear Lady +Randolph go upstairs. + +"I never see you at all now, Lucy," cried Jock. "I never have a chance +but in the holidays, and now they're half over, and we have not had one +good talk. And what about poor Mr. Churchill, Lucy? I thought he was the +very man for you. He has got about a dozen children and no money. +Somebody else pays for Churchill, that's the fellow I told you of that's +on the foundation. I shouldn't have found out all that, and gone and +asked questions and got myself thought an inquisitive beggar, if it +hadn't been for your sake." + +"Oh, Jock, I'm sure I am much obliged to you," said Lucy, dolefully; +"and I am so sorry for the poor gentleman. It must be dreadful to have +so many children and not to be able to give them everything they +require." + +At this speech, which was uttered with something between impatience and +despair, and which made no promise of any help or succour, her brother +regarded her with a mixture of anger and disappointment. + +"Is that all about it, Lucy?" he said. + +"Oh, no, Jock! I am sure you are right, dear. I know I ought to bestir +myself and do something, but only---- How much do you think it would take +to make them comfortable? Oh, Jock, I wish that papa had put it all into +somebody's hands, to be done like business--somebody that had nothing +else to think of!" + +"What have you to think of, Lucy?" said the boy, seriously, in the +superiority of his youth. "I suppose, you know, you are just too well +off. You can't understand what it is to be like that. You get angry at +people for not being happy, you don't want to be disturbed." He paused +remorsefully, and cast a glance at her, melting in spite of himself, for +Lucy did not look too well off. Her soft brow was contracted a little; +there was a faint quiver upon her lip. "If you really want to know," +Jock said, "people can live and get along when they have about five +hundred a year. That is, as far as I can make out. If you gave them +that, they would think it awful luck." + +"I wish I could give them all of it, and be done with it!" + +"I don't see much good that would do. It would be two rich people in +place of one, and the two would not be so grand as you. That would not +have done for father at all. He liked you to be a great heiress, and +everybody to wonder at you, and then to give your money away like a +queen. I like it too," said Jock, throwing up his head; "it satisfies +the imagination: it is a kind of a fairy tale." + +Lucy shook her head. + +"He never thought how hard it would be upon me. A woman is never so well +off as a man. Oh, if it had been you, Jock, and I only just your +sister." + +"Talking does not bring us any nearer a settlement," said Jock, with +some impatience. "When will you do it, Lucy? Have you got to speak to +old Rushton, or write to old Chervil, or what? or can't you just draw +them a cheque? I suppose about ten thousand or so would be enough. And +it is as easy to do it at one time as another. Why not to-morrow, Lucy? +and then you would have it off your mind." + +This proposal took away Lucy's breath. She thought with a gasp of Sir +Tom and the look with which he would regard her--the laugh, the amused +incredulity. He would not be unkind, and her right to do it was quite +well established and certain. But she shrank within herself when she +thought how he would look at her, and her heart jumped into her throat +as she realised that perhaps he might not laugh only. How could she +stand before him and carry her own war in opposition to his? Her whole +being trembled even with the idea of conflict. "Oh, Jock, it is not just +so easily managed as that," she said faltering; "there are several +things to think of. I will have to let the trustees know, and it must +all be calculated." + +"There is not much need for calculation," said Jock, "that is just about +it. Five per cent is what you get for money. You had better send the +cheque for it, Lucy, and then let the old duffers know of it afterwards. +One would think you were afraid!" + +"Oh, no," said Lucy, with a slight shiver, "I am not afraid." And then +she added, with growing hesitation, "I must--speak to---- Oh! Is it you, +Tom?" She made a sudden start from Jock's side, who was standing close +by her, argumentative and eager, and whose bewildered spectatorship of +her guilty surprise and embarrassment she was conscious of through all. + +"Yes, it is I," said Sir Tom, putting his hand upon her shoulders; "you +must have been up to some mischief, Jock and you, or you would not look +so frightened. What is the secret?" he said, with his genial laugh. But +when he looked from Jock, astonished but resentful and lowering, to +Lucy, all trembling and pale with guilt, even Sir Tom, who was not +suspicious, was startled. His little Lucy! What had she been plotting +that made her look so scared at his appearance? Or was it something that +had been told to her, some secret accusation against himself? This +startled Sir Tom also a little, and it was with a sudden gravity, not +unmingled with resentment, that he added, "Come! I mean to know what it +is." + + + + +CHAPTER XI. + +AN INNOCENT CONSPIRACY. + + +"It was only something that Jock was saying," said Lucy, "but, Tom, I +will tell you another time. I wish you had come in before Lady Randolph +went upstairs. I think she was a little disappointed to have only me." + +"Did she share Jock's secret?" Sir Tom said with a keen look of inquiry. +It is perhaps one advantage in the dim light which fashion delights in, +that it is less easy to scrutinise the secrets of a face. + +"We are all a little put wrong when you do not come in," said Lucy. The +cunning which weakness finds refuge in when it has to defend itself came +to her aid. "Jock is shy when you are not here. He thinks he bores Lady +Randolph; and so we ladies are left to our own devices." + +"Jock must not be so sensitive," Sir Tom said; but he was not satisfied. +It occurred to him suddenly (for schoolboys are terrible gossips) that +the boy might have heard something which he had been repeating to Lucy. +Nothing could have been more unlikely, had he thought of it, than that +Jock should carry tales on such a subject. But we do not stop to argue +out matters when our own self-regard is in question. He looked at the +two with a doubtful and suspicious eye. + +"He will get over it as he grows older," said Lucy; but she gave her +brother a look which to Sir Tom seemed one of warning, and he was +irritated by it; he looked from one to another and he laughed; but not +with the genial laugh which was his best known utterance. + +"You are prodigiously on your guard," he said. "I suppose you have your +reasons for it. Have you been confiding the Masons' secret or something +of that awful character to her, Jock?" + +"Why shouldn't I tell him?" cried Jock with great impatience. "What is +the use of making all those signs? It's nothing of the sort. It's only +I've heard of somebody that is poor--somebody she ought to know of--the +sort of thing that is meant in father's will." + +"Oh!" said Sir Tom. It was the simplest of exclamations, but it meant +much. He was partially relieved that it was not gossip, but yet more +gravely annoyed than if it had been. + +Lucy made haste to interpose. + +"I will tell you afterwards," she said. "If I made signs, as Jock said, +it was only that I might tell it you, Tom, myself, when there was more +time." + +"I am at no loss for time," said Sir Tom, placing himself in the vacant +chair. The others were both standing, as became this accidental moment +before bed-time. And Lucy had been on thorns to get away, even before +her husband appeared. She had wanted to escape from the discussion even +with Jock. She had wanted to steal into the nursery, and see that her +boy was asleep, to feel his little forehead with her soft hand, and make +sure there was no fever. To be betrayed into a prolonged and agitating +discussion now was very provoking, very undesirable; and Lucy had grown +rather cowardly and anxious to push away from her, as far as she could, +everything that did not belong to the moment. + +"Tom," she said, a little tremulously, "I wish you would put it off till +to-morrow. I am--rather sleepy; it is nearly eleven o'clock, and I +always run in to see how little Tom is going on. Besides," she added, +with a little anxiety which was quite fictitious, "it is keeping +Fletcher up----" + +"I am not afraid of Fletcher, Lucy." + +"Oh! but I am," she said. "I will tell you about it to-morrow. There is +nothing in the least settled, only Jock thought----" + +"Settled!" Sir Tom said, with a curious look. "No, I hope not." + +"Oh! nothing at all settled," said Lucy. She stood restlessly, now on +one foot now on the other, eager for flight. She did not even observe +the implied authority in this remark, at which Jock pricked up his ears +with incipient offence. "And Jock ought to be in bed--oh, yes, Jock, you +ought. I am sure you are not allowed to sit up so late at school. Come +now, there's a good boy--and I will just run and see how baby is." + +She put her hand on her brother's arm to take him away with her, but +Jock hung back, and Sir Tom interposed, "Now that I have just settled +myself for a chat, you had better leave Jock with me at least, Lucy. Run +away to your baby, that is all right. Jock and I will entertain each +other. I respect his youth, you see, and don't try to seduce him into a +cigar--you should be thankful to me for that." + +"If I was not in sixth form," said Jock sharply, nettled by this +indignity, "I should smoke; but it is bad form when you are high up in +school. In the holidays I don't mind," he added, with careless +grandeur, upon which Sir Tom, mollified, laughed as Lucy felt like +himself. + +"Off duty, eh?" he said, "that's a very fine sentiment, Jock. You may be +sure it's bad form to do anything you have promised not to do. You will +say that sounds like a copy-book. Come now, Lucy, are not you going, +little woman? Do you want to have your share in the moralities?" + +For this sudden change had somehow quenched Lucy's desire both to +inspect the baby and get to bed. But what could she do? She looked very +earnestly at Jock as she bade him good-night, but neither could she +shake his respect for her husband by giving him any warning, nor offend +her husband by any appearance of secret intelligence with Jock. Poor +little Lucy went away after this through the stately rooms and up the +grand staircase with a great tremor in her heart. There could not be a +life more guarded and happy than hers had been--full of wealth, full of +love, not a crumpled rose-leaf to disturb her comfort. But as she stole +along the dim corridor to the nursery her heart was beating full of all +the terrors that make other hearts to ache. She was afraid for the +child's life, which was the worst of all, and looked with a suppressed +yet terrible panic into the dark future which contained she knew not +what for him. And she was afraid of her husband, the kindest man in the +world, not knowing how he might take the discovery he had just made, +fearing to disclose her mind to him, finding herself guilty in the mere +idea of hiding anything from him. And she was afraid of Jock, that he +would irritate Sir Tom, or be irritated by him, or that some wretched +breach or quarrel might arise between these two. Jock was not an +ordinary boy; there was no telling how he might take any reproof that +might be addressed to him--perhaps with the utmost reasonableness, +perhaps with a rapid defiance. Lady Randolph thus, though no harm had +befallen her, had come into the usual heritage of humanity, and was as +anxious and troubled as most of us are; though she was so happy and well +off. She was on thorns to know what was passing in the room she had just +left. + +This was all that passed. Jock, standing up against the mantelpiece, +looked down somewhat lowering upon Sir Tom in the easy chair. He +expected to be questioned, and had made up his mind, though with great +indignation at the idea that any one should find fault with Lucy, to +take the whole blame upon himself. That Lucy should not be free to carry +out her duty as seemed to her best was to Jock intolerable. He had put +his boyish faith in her all his life. Even since the time, a very early +one, when Jock had felt himself much cleverer than Lucy; even when he +had been obliged to make up his mind that Lucy was not clever at all--he +had still believed in her. She had a mission in the world which +separated her from other women. Nobody else had ever had the same thing +to do. Many people had dispensed charities and founded hospitals, but +Lucy's office in the world was of a different description--and Jock had +faith in her power to do it. To see her wavering was trouble to him, and +the discovery he had just made of something beneath the surface, a +latent opposition in her husband which she plainly shrank from +encountering, gave the boy a shock from which it was not easy to +recover. He had always liked Sir Tom; but if---- One thing, however, was +apparent, if there was any blame, anything to find fault with, it was +he, Jock, and not Lucy, that must bear that blame. + +"So, Jock, Lucy thinks you should be in bed. When do they put out your +lights at school? In my time we were up to all manner of tricks. I +remember a certain dark lantern that was my joy; but that was in old +Keate's time, you know, who never trusted the fellows. You are under a +better rule now." + +This took away Jock's breath, who had been prepared for a sterner +interrogation. He answered with a sudden blush, but with the rallying of +all his forces: "I light them again sometimes. It's hard on a fellow, +don't you think, sir, when he's not sleepy and has a lot to do?" + +"I never had much experience of that," said Sir Tom. "We were always +sleepy, and never did anything in my time. It was for larking, I'm +afraid, that we wanted light. And so it is seen on me, Jock. You will be +a fellow of your college, whereas I----" + +"I don't think so," said Jock generously. "That construe you gave me, +don't you remember, last half? MTutor says it is capital. He says he +couldn't have done it so well. Of course, that is his modest way," the +boy added, "for everybody knows there isn't such another scholar! but +that's what he says." + +Sir Tom laughed, and a slight suffusion of colour appeared on his face. +He was pleased with this unexpected applause. At five-and-forty, after +knocking about the world for years, and "never opening a book," as +people say, to have given a good "construe" is a feather in one's cap. +"To be second to your tutor is all a man has to hope for," he said, with +that mellow laugh which it was so pleasant to hear. "I hope I know my +place, Jock. We had no such godlike beings in my time. Old Puck, as we +used to call him, was my tutor. He had a red nose, which was the chief +feature in his character. He looked upon us all as his natural enemies, +and we paid him back with interest. Did I ever tell of that time when we +were going to Ascot in a cab, four of us, and he caught sight of the +turn-out?" + +"I don't think so," said Jock, with a little hesitation. He remembered +every detail of this story, which indeed Sir Tom had told him perhaps +more than once; for in respect to such legends the best of us repeat +ourselves. Many were the thoughts in the boy's mind as he stood against +the mantelpiece and looked down upon the man before him, going over with +much relish the tale of boyish mischief, the delight of the urchins and +the pedagogue's discomfiture. Sir Tom threw himself back in his chair +with a peal of joyous laughter. + +"Jove! I think I can see him now with the corners of his mouth all +dropped, and his nose like a beacon," he cried. Jock meanwhile looked +down upon him very gravely, though he smiled in courtesy. He was a +different manner of boy from anything Sir Tom could ever have been, and +he wondered, as young creatures will, over the little world of mystery +and knowledge which was shut up within the elder man. What things he had +done in his life--what places he had seen! He had lived among savages, +and fought his way, and seen death and life. Jock, only on the +threshold, gazed at him with a curious mixture of awe and wonder and +kind contempt. He would himself rather look down upon a fellow (he +thought) who did that sort of practical joke now. MTutor would regard +such an individual as a natural curiosity. And yet here was this man who +had seen so much, and done so much, who ought to have profited by the +long results of time, and grown to such superiority and mental +elevation--here was he, turning back with delight to the schoolboy's +trick. It filled Jock with a great and compassionate wonder. But he was +a very civil boy. He was one who could not bear to hurt a +fellow-creature's feelings, even those of an old duffer whose +recollections were all of the bygone ages. So he did his best to laugh. +And Sir Tom enjoyed his own joke so much that he did not know that it +was from the lips only that his young companion's laugh came. He got up +and patted Jock on the shoulders with the utmost benevolence when this +pastime was done. + +"They don't indulge in that sort of fooling nowadays," he said. "So much +the better--though I don't know that it did us much harm. Now come +along, let us go to bed, according to my lady's orders. We must all, you +know, do what Lucy tells us in this house." + +Jock obeyed, feeling somewhat "shut up," as he called it, in a sort of +blank of confused discomfiture. Sir Tom had the best of it, by whatever +means he attained that end. The boy had intended to offer himself a +sacrifice, to brave anything that an angry man could say to him for +Lucy's sake, and at the same time to die if necessary for Lucy's right +to carry out her father's will, and accomplish her mission uninterrupted +and untrammelled. When lo, Sir Tom had taken to telling him schoolboy +stories, and sent him to bed with good-humoured kindness, without +leaving him the slightest opening either to defend Lucy or take blame +upon himself. He was half angry, and humbled in his own esteem, but +there was nothing for it but to submit. Sir Tom for his part, did not go +to bed. He went and smoked a lonely cigar, and his face lost its genial +smile. The light of it, indeed, disappeared altogether under a cloud, as +he sat gravely over his fire and puffed the smoke away. He had the air +of a man who had a task to do which was not congenial to him. "Poor +little soul," he said to himself. He could not bear to vex her. There +was nothing in the world that he would have grudged to his wife. Any +luxury, any adornment that he could have procured for her he would have +jumped at. But it was his fate to be compelled to oppose and subdue her +instead. The only thing was to do it quickly and decisively, since done +it must be. If she had been a warrior worthy of his steel, a woman who +would have defended herself and held her own, it would have been so much +more easy; but it was not without a compunction that Sir Tom thought of +the disproportion of their forces, of the soft and compliant creature +who had never raised her will against his or done other than accept his +suggestions and respond to his guidance. He remembered how Lucy had +stuck to her colours before her marriage, and how she had vanquished the +unwilling guardians who regarded what they thought the squandering of +her money with a consternation and fury that were beyond bounds. He had +thought it highly comic at the time, and even now there passed a gleam +of humour over his face at the recollection. He could not deny himself a +smile when he thought it all over. She had worsted her guardians, and +thrown away her money triumphantly, and Sir Tom had regarded the whole +as an excellent joke. But the recollection of this did not discourage +him now. He had no thought that Lucy would stand out against him. It +might vex her, however, dear little woman. No doubt she and Jock had +been making up some fine Quixotic plans between them, and probably it +would be a shock to her when her husband interfered. He had got to be so +fond of his little wife, and his heart was so kind, that he could not +bear the idea of vexing Lucy. But still it would have to be done. He +rose up at last, and threw away the end of his cigar with a look of +vexation and trouble. It was necessary, but it was a nuisance, however. +"If it were done when 'tis done, then 'twere well it were done quickly," +he said to himself; then laughed again, as he took his way upstairs, at +the over-significance of the words. He was not going to murder anybody; +only when the moment proved favourable, for once and only once, seeing +it was inevitable, he had to bring under lawful authority--an easy +task--the gentle little feminine creature who was his wife. + + + + +CHAPTER XII. + +THE FIRST STRUGGLE. + + +Lucy knew nothing of this till the next forenoon after breakfast, and +after the many morning occupations which a lady has in her own house. +She looked wistfully at both her brother and her husband when they met +at table, and it was a great consolation to her, and lightening of her +heart, when she perceived that they were quite at ease with each other; +but still she was burning with curiosity to know what had passed. Sir +Tom had not said a word. He had been just as usual, not even looking a +consciousness of the unexplained question between them. She was glad and +yet half sorry that all was about to blow over, and to be as if it had +not been. After going so far, perhaps it would have been better that it +had gone farther and that the matter had been settled. This she said to +herself in the security of a respite, believing that it had passed away +from Sir Tom's mind. She wanted to know, and yet she was afraid to ask, +for her heart revolted against asking questions of Jock which might +betray to him the fear of a possible quarrel. After she had +superintended little Tom's toilet, and watched him go out for his walk +(for the weather was very mild for the time of the year), and seen Mrs. +Freshwater, the housekeeper, and settled about the dinner, always with a +little quiver of anxiety in her heart, she met Jock by a happy chance, +just as she was about to join Lady Randolph in the drawing-room. She +seized his arm with energy, and drew him within the door of the library; +but after she had done this with an eagerness not to be disguised, Lucy +suddenly remembered all that it was inexpedient for her to betray to +Jock. Accordingly she stopped short, as it were, on the threshold, and +instead of saying as she had intended, "What did he say to you?" dropped +down into the routine question, "Where are you going--were you going +out?" + +"I shall some time, I suppose. What do you grip a fellow's arm for like +that? and then when I thought you had something important to say to me, +only asking am I going out?" + +"Yes, clear," said Lucy, recovering herself with an effort. "You don't +take enough exercise. I wish you would not be always among the books." + +"Stuff, Lucy!" said Jock. + +"I am sure Tom thinks the same. He was telling me--now didn't he say +something to you about it last night?" + +"That's all bosh," said the boy. "And if you want to know what he said +to me last night, he just said nothing at all, but told me old stories +of school that I've heard a hundred times. These old d---- fellows," +(Jock did not swear; he was going to say duffers, that was all) "always +talk like that. One would think they had not had much fun in their life +when they are always turning back upon school," Jock added, with fine +sarcasm. + +"Oh, only stories about school!" said Lucy with extreme relief. But the +next moment she was not quite so sure that she was comfortable about +this entire ignoring of a matter which Sir Tom had seemed to think so +grave. "What sort of stories?" she said dreamily, pursuing her own +thoughts without much attention to the answer. + +"Oh, that old stuff about Ascot and about the old master that stopped +them. It isn't much. I know it," said Jock, disrespectfully, "as well as +I know my a, b, c." + +"It is very rude of you to say so, Jock." + +"Perhaps it is rude," the boy replied, with candour; but he did not +further explain himself, and Lucy, to veil her mingled relief and +disquietude, dismissed him with an exhortation to go out. + +"You read and read," she cried, glad to throw off a little excitement in +this manner, though she really felt very little anxiety on the subject, +"till you will be all brains and nothing else. I wish you would use your +legs a little too." And then, with a little affectionate push away from +her, she left him in undisturbed possession of his books, and the +morning, which, fine as it was, was not bright enough to tempt him away +from them. + +Then Lucy pursued her way to the drawing-room: but she had not gone many +steps before she met her husband, who stopped and asked her a question +or two. Had the boy gone out? It was so fine it would do him good, poor +little beggar; and where was her ladyship going? When he heard she was +going to join the Dowager, Sir Tom smilingly took her hand and drew it +within his own. "Then come here with me for a minute first," he said. +And strange to say, Lucy had no fear. She allowed him to have his way, +thinking it was to show her something, perhaps to ask her advice on some +small matter. He took her into a little room he had, full of trophies of +his travels, a place more distinctively his own than any other in the +house. When he had closed the door a faint little thrill of alarm came +over her. She looked up at him wondering, inquiring. Sir Tom took her by +her arms and drew her towards him in the full light of the window. "Come +and let me look at you, Lucy," he said. "I want to see in your eyes what +it is that makes you afraid of me." + +She met his eyes with great bravery and self-command, but nothing could +save her from the nervous quiver which he felt as he held her, or from +the tell-tale ebb and flow of the blood from her face. "I--I am not +afraid of you, Tom." + +"Then have you ceased to trust me, Lucy? How is it that you discuss the +most important matters with Jock, who is only a boy, and leave me out? +You do not think that can be agreeable to me." + +"Tom," she said; then stopped short, her voice being interrupted by the +fluttering of her heart. + +"I told you: you are afraid. What have I ever done to make my wife +afraid of me?" he said. + +"Oh, Tom, it is not that! it is only that I felt--there has never been +anything said, and you have always done all, and more than all, that I +wished; but I have felt that you were opposed to me in one thing. I may +be wrong, perhaps," she added, looking up at him suddenly with a +catching of her breath. + +Sir Tom did not say she was wrong. He was very kind, but very grave. "In +that case," he said, "Lucy, my love, don't you think it would have been +better to speak to me about it, and ascertain what were my objections, +and why I was opposed to you--rather than turn without a word to another +instead of me?" + +"Oh!" cried Lucy, "I could not. I was a coward. I could not bear to make +sure. To stand against you, how could I do it? But if you will hear me +out, Tom, I never, never turned to another. Oh! what strange words to +say. It was not another. It was Jock, only Jock; but I did not turn even +to him. It was he who brought it forward, and I---- Now that we have +begun to talk about it, and it cannot be escaped," cried Lucy, with +sudden nervous boldness, freeing herself from his hold, "I will own +everything to you, Tom. Yes, I was afraid. I would not, I could not do +it, for I could feel that you were against it. You never said anything; +is it necessary that you should speak for me to understand you? but I +knew it all through. And to go against you and do something you did not +like was more than I could face. I should have gone on for years, +perhaps, and never had courage for it," she cried. She was tingling all +over with excitement and desperate daring now. + +"My darling," said Sir Tom, "it makes me happier to think that it was +not me you were afraid of, but only of putting yourself in opposition to +me; but still, Lucy, even that is not right, you know. Don't you think +that it would be better that we should talk it over, and that I should +show you my objections to this strange scheme you have in your head, and +convince you----" + +"Oh!" cried Lucy, stepping back a little and putting up her hands as if +in self-defence, "that was what I was most frightened for." + +"What, to be convinced?" he laughed: but his laugh jarred upon her in +her excited state. "Well, that is not at all uncommon; but few people +avow it so frankly," he said. + +She looked up at him with appealing eyes. "Oh, Tom," she cried, "I fear +you will not understand me now. I am not afraid to be convinced. I am +afraid of what you will think when you know that I cannot be convinced. +Now," she said, with a certain calm of despair, "I have said it all." + +To her astonishment her husband replied by a sudden hug and a laugh. +"Whether you are accessible to reason or not, you are always my dear +little woman," he said. "I like best to have it out. Do you know, Lucy, +that it is supposed your sex are all of that mind? You believe what you +like, and the reason for your faith does not trouble you. You must not +suppose that you are singular in that respect." + +To this she listened without any response at all either in words or +look, except, perhaps, a little lifting of her eyelids in faint +surprise; for Lucy was not concerned about what was common to her sex. +Nor did she take such questions at all into consideration. Therefore, +this speech sounded to her irrelevant; and so quick was Sir Tom's +intelligence that, though he made it as a sort of conventional +necessity, he saw that it was irrelevant too. It might have been all +very well to address a clever woman who could have given him back his +reply in such words. But to Lucy's straightforward, simple, limited +intellect such dialectics were altogether out of place. Her very want of +capacity to understand them made them a disrespect to her which she had +done nothing to deserve. He coloured in his quick sense of this, and +sudden perception that his wife in the limitation of her intellect and +fine perfection of her moral nature was such an antagonist as a man +might well be alarmed to meet, more alarmed even than she generously was +to displease him. + +"I beg your pardon, Lucy," he said, "I was talking to you as if you were +one of the ordinary people. All this must be treated between you and me +on a different footing. I have a great deal more experience than you +have, and I ought to know better. You must let me show you how it +appears to me. You see I don't pretend not to know what the point was. I +have felt for a long time that it was one that must be cleared up +between you and me. I never thought of Jock coming in," he said with a +laugh. "That is quite a new and unlooked-for feature; but begging his +pardon, though he is a clever fellow, we will leave Jock out of the +question. He can't be supposed to have much knowledge of the world." + +"No," said Lucy, with a little suspicion. She did not quite see what +this had to do with it, nor what course her husband was going to adopt, +nor indeed at all what was to follow. + +"Your father's will was a very absurd one," he said. + +At this Lucy was slightly startled, but she said after a moment, "He did +not think what hard things he was leaving me to do." + +"He did not think at all, it seems to me," said Sir Tom; "so far as I +can see he merely amused himself by arranging the world after his +fashion, and trying how much confusion he could make. I don't mean to +say anything unkind of him. I should like to have known him: he must +have been a character. But he has left us a great deal of botheration. +This particular thing, you know, that you are driving yourself crazy +about is sheer absurdity, Lucy. Solomon himself could not do it,--and +who are you, a little girl without any knowledge of the world, to see +into people's hearts, and decide whom it is safe to trust?" + +"You are putting more upon me than poor papa did, Tom," said Lucy, a +little more cheerfully. "He never said, as we do in charities, that it +was to go to deserving people. I was never intended to see into their +hearts. So long as they required it and got the money, that was all he +wanted." + +"Well, then, my dear," said Sir Tom, "if your father in his great sense +and judgment wanted nothing but to get rid of the money, I wonder he did +not tell you to stand upon Beachy Head or Dover Cliff on a certain day +in every year and throw so much of it into the sea--to be sure," he +added with a laugh, "that would come to very much the same thing--for +you can't annihilate money, you can only make it change hands--and the +London roughs would soon have found out your days for this wise purpose +and interrupted it somehow. But it would have been just as sensible. +Poor little woman! Here I am beginning to argue, and abusing your poor +father, whom, of course, you were fond of, and never so much as offering +you a chair! There is something on every one of them, I believe. Here, +my love, here is a seat for you," he said, displacing a box of +curiosities and clearing a corner for her by the fire. But Lucy resisted +quietly. + +"Wouldn't it do another time, Tom?" she said with a little anxiety, "for +Aunt Randolph is all by herself, and she will wonder what has become of +me; and baby will be coming back from his walk." Then she made a little +pause, and resumed again, folding her hands, and raising her mild eyes +to his face. "I am very sorry to go against you, Tom. I think I would +rather lose all the money altogether. But there is just one thing, and +oh, do not be angry! I must carry out papa's will if I were to die!" + +Her husband, who had begun to enter smilingly upon this discussion, with +a certainty of having the best of it, and who had listened to her +smilingly in her simple pleas for deferring the conversation, pleas +which he was very willing to yield to, was so utterly taken by surprise +at this sudden and most earnest statement, that he could do nothing but +stare at her, with a loud alarmed exclamation, "Lucy!" and a look of +utter bewilderment in his face. But she stood this without flinching, +not nervous as many a woman might have been after delivering such a +blow, but quite still, clasping her hands in each other, facing him with +a desperate quietness. Lucy was not insensible to the tremendous nature +of the utterance she had just made. + +"This is surprising, indeed, Lucy," cried Sir Tom. He grew quite pale in +that sensation of being disobeyed, which is one of the most disagreeable +that human nature is subject to. He scarcely knew what to reply to a +rebellion so complete and determined. To see her attitude, the look of +her soft girlish face (for she looked still younger than her actual +years), the firm pose of her little figure, was enough to show that it +was no rash utterance, such as many a combatant makes, to withdraw from +it one hour after. Sir Tom, in his amazement, felt his very words come +back to him; he did not know what to say. "Do you mean to tell me," he +said, almost stammering in his consternation, "that whatever I may think +or advise, and however mad this proceeding may be, you have made up your +mind to carry it out whether I will or not?" + +"Tom! in every other thing I will do what you tell me. I have always +done what you told me. You know a great deal better than I do, and never +more will I go against you; but I knew papa before I knew you. He is +dead; I cannot go to him to ask him to let me off, to tell him you don't +like it, or to say it is more than I can do. If I could I would do that. +But he is dead: all that he can have is just that I should be faithful +to him. And it is not only that he put it in his will, but I gave him my +promise that I would do it. How could I break my promise to one that is +dead, that trusted in me? Oh, no, no! It will kill me if you are angry; +but even then, even then, I must do what I promised to papa." + +The tears had risen to her eyes as she spoke: they filled her eyelids +full, till she saw her husband only through two blinding seas: then they +fell slowly one after another upon her dress: her face was raised to +him, her features all moving with the earnestness of her plea. The +anguish of the struggle against her heart, and desire to please him, was +such that Lucy felt what it was to be faithful till death. As for Sir +Tom, it was impossible for such a man to remain unmoved by emotion so +great. But it had never occurred to him as possible that Lucy could +resist his will, or, indeed, stand for a moment against his injunction; +he had believed that he had only to say to her, "You must not do it," +and that she would have cried, but given way. He felt himself utterly +defeated, silenced, put out of consideration. He did nothing but stare +and gasp at her in his consternation; and, more still, he was betrayed. +Her gentleness had deceived him and made him a fool; his pride was +touched, he who was supposed to have no pride. He stood silent for a +time, and then he burst out with a sort of roar of astonished and angry +dismay. + +"Lucy, do you mean to tell me that you will disobey me?" he cried. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII. + +AN IDLE MORNING. + + +The Dowager Lady Randolph had never found the Hall so dull. There was +nothing going on, nothing even to look forward to: one formal +dinner-party was the only thing to represent that large and cordial +hospitality which she was glad to think had in her own time +characterised the period when the Hall was open. She had never pretended +to be fond of the county society. In the late Sir Robert's time she had +not concealed the fact that the less time she spent in it the better she +was pleased. But when she was there, all the county had known it. She +was a woman who loved to live a large and liberal life. It was not so +much that she liked gaiety, or what is called pleasure, as that she +loved to have people about her, to be the dispenser of enjoyment, to +live a life in which there was always something going on. This is a +temperament which meets much censure from the world, and is stigmatised +as a love of excitement, and by many other unlovely names; but that is +hard upon the people who are born with it, and who are in many cases +benefactors to mankind. Lady Randolph's desire was that there should +always be something doing--"a magic lantern at the least," she had said. +Indeed, there can be no doubt that in managing that magic lantern she +would have given as much satisfaction to everybody, and perhaps managed +to enjoy herself as much, as if it had been the first entertainment in +Mayfair. She could not stagnate comfortably, she said; and as so much of +an ordinary woman's life must be stagnation more or less gracefully +veiled, it may be supposed that Lady Randolph had learned the useful +lesson of putting up with what she could get when what she liked was not +procurable. And it was seldom that she had been set down to so languid a +feast as the present. On former occasions a great deal more had been +going on, except the last year, which was that of the baby's birth, on +which occasion Lucy was, of course, out of the way of entertainment +altogether. Lady Randolph had, indeed, found her visits to the Hall +amusing, which was delightful, seeing they were duty visits as well. She +had stayed only a day or two at that time--just long enough to kiss the +baby and talk for half an hour at a time, on two or three distinct +opportunities, to the young mother in very subdued and caressing tones. +And she had been glad to get away again when she had performed this +duty, but yet did not grudge in the least the sacrifice she had made for +her family. The case, however, was quite different now: there was no +reason in the world why they should be quiet. The baby was +delicate!--could there be a more absurd reason for closing your house to +your friends, putting off your Christmas visits, entertaining not at +all, ignoring altogether the natural expectations of the county, which +did not elect a man to be its member in order that he might shut himself +up and superintend his nursery? It was ridiculous, his aunt felt; it +went to her nerves, and made her quite uncomfortable, to see all the +resources of the house, with which she was so well acquainted, wasted +upon four people. It was preposterous--an excellent cook, the best cook +almost she had ever come across, and only four to dine! People have +different ideas of what waste is--there are some who consider all large +expenditure, especially in the entertainment of guests, to be subject to +this censure. But Lady Randolph took a completely different view. The +wickedness of having such a cook and only a family party of four persons +to dine was that which offended her. It was scandalous, it was wicked. +If Lucy meant to live in this way let her return to her bourgeois +existence, and the small vulgar life in Farafield. It was ridiculous +living the life of a nobody here, and in Sir Tom's case was plainly +suicidal. How was he to hold up his face at another election, with the +consciousness that he had done nothing at all for his county, not even +given them a ball, nor so much as a magic lantern, she repeated, +bursting with a reprobation which could scarcely find words? + +All this went through her mind with double force when she found herself +left alone in Lucy's morning-room, which was a bright room opening out +upon the flower garden, getting all the morning sun, and the full +advantage of the flowers when there were any. There were none, it is +true, at this moment, except a few snow-drops forcing their way through +the smooth turf under a tree which stood at the corner of a little bit +of lawn. Lady Randolph was not very fond of flowers, except in their +proper place, which meant when employed in the decoration of rooms in +the proper artistic way, and after the most approved fashion. Thus she +liked sunflowers when they were approved by society, and modest violets +and pansies in other developments of popular taste, but did not for her +own individual part care much which she had, so long as they looked well +in her vases, and "came well" against her draperies and furniture. She +had come down on this bright morning with her work, as it is the proper +thing for a lady to do, but she had no more idea of being left here +calmly and undisturbed to do that work than she had of attempting a +flight into the inviting and brilliant, if cold and frosty, skies. She +sat down with it between the fire and the sunny window, enjoying both +without being quite within the range of either. It was an ideal picture +of a lady no longer young or capable of much out-door life, or personal +emotion; a pretty room; a sunny, soft winter morning, almost as warm as +summer, the sunshine pouring in, a cheerful fire in the background to +make up what was lacking in respect of warmth; the softest of easiest +chairs, yet not too low or demoralising; a subdued sound breaking in now +and then from a distance, which pleasantly betrayed the existence of a +household; and in the midst of all, in a velvet gown, which was very +pretty to look at, and very comfortable to wear, and with a lace cap on +her head that had the same characteristics, a lady of sixty, in perfect +health, rich enough for all her requirements, without even the thought +of a dentist to trouble her. She had a piece of very pretty work in her +hand, the newspapers on the table, books within reach. And yet she was +not content! What a delightful ideal sketch might not be made of such a +moment! How she might have been thinking of her past, sweetly, with a +sigh, yet with a thankful thought of all the good things that had been +hers; of those whom she had loved, and who were gone from earth, as only +awaiting her a little farther on, and of those about her, with such a +tender commendation of them to God's blessing, and cordial desire for +their happiness, as would have reached the height of a prayer. And she +might have been feeling a tranquil pleasure in the material things about +her: the stillness, the warmth, the dreamy quiet, even the pretty work, +and the exemption from care which she had arrived at in the peaceful +concluding chapter of existence. This is what we all like to think of as +the condition of mind and circumstances in which age is best met. But we +are grieved to say that this was not in the least Lady Randolph's pose. +Anything more distasteful to her than this quiet could not be. It was +her principle and philosophy to live in the present. She drew many +experiences from the past, and a vast knowledge of the constitutions and +changes of society; but personally it did not amuse her to think of it, +and the future she declined to contemplate. It had disagreeable things +in it, of that there could be no doubt; and why go out and meet the +disagreeable? It was time enough when it arrived. There was probably +illness, and certainly dying, in it; things which she was brave enough +to face when they came, and no doubt would encounter in quite a +collected and courageous way. But why anticipate them? She lived +philosophically in the day as it came. After all whatever you do or +think, you cannot do much more. Your one day, your hour, is your world. +Acquit yourself fitly in that, and you will be able to encounter +whatever occurs. + +This was the conviction on which Lady Randolph acted. But her pursuit +for the moment was not entertaining; she very quickly tired of her work. +Work is, on the whole, tiresome when there is no particular use in it, +when it is done solely for the sake of occupation, as ladies' work so +often is. It wants a meaning and a necessity to give it interest, and +Lady Randolph's had neither. She worked about ten minutes, and then she +paused and wondered what could have become of Lucy. Lucy was not a very +amusing companion, but she was somebody; and then Sir Tom would come in +occasionally to consult her, to give her some little piece of +information, and for a few minutes would talk and give his relative a +real pleasure. But even Lucy did not come; and soon Lady Randolph became +tired of looking out of the window and then walking to the fire, of +taking up the newspaper and throwing it down again, of doing a few +stitches, then letting the work fall on her lap; and above all, of +thinking, as she was forced to do, from sheer want of occupation. She +listened, and nobody came. Two or three times she thought she heard +steps approaching, but nobody came. She had thought of perhaps going out +since the morning was so fine, walking down to the village, which was +quite within her powers, and of planning several calls which might be +made in the afternoon to take advantage of the fine day. But she became +really fretted and annoyed as the morning crept along. Lucy was losing +even her politeness, the Dowager thought. This is what comes of what +people call happiness! They get so absorbed in themselves, there is no +possibility of paying ordinary attention to other people. At last, after +completely tiring herself out, Lady Randolph got up and put down her +work altogether, throwing it away with anger. She had not lived so long +in its sole company for years, and there is no describing how tired she +was of it. She got up and went out into the other rooms in search of +something to amuse her. Little Tom had just come in, but she did not go +to the nursery. She took care not to expose herself to that. She was +willing to allow that she did not understand babies; and then to see +such a pale little thing the heir of the Randolphs worried her. He ought +to have been a little Hercules; it wounded her that he was so puny and +pale. She went through the great drawing-room, and looked at all the +additions to the furniture and decorations that Tom and Lucy had made. +They had kept a number of the old things; but naturally they had added a +good deal of _bric-a-brac_, of old things that here were new. Then Lady +Randolph turned into the library. She had gone up to one of the +bookcases, and was leisurely contemplating the books, with a keen eye, +too, to the additions which had been made, when she heard a sound near +her, the unmistakable sound of turning over the leaves of a book. Lady +Randolph turned round with a start, and there was Jock, sunk into the +depths of a large chair with a tall folio supported on the arms of it. +She had not seen him when she came in, and, indeed, many people might +have come and gone without perceiving him, buried in his corner. Lady +Randolph was thankful for anybody to talk to, even a boy. + +"Is it you?" she said. "I might have known it could be nobody but you. +Do you never do anything but read?" + +"Sometimes," said Jock, who had done nothing but watch her since she +came into the room. She gave him a sort of half smile. + +"It is more reasonable now than when you were a child," she said; "for I +hear you are doing extremely well at school, and gaining golden +opinions. That is quite as it should be. It is the only way you can +repay Lucy for all she has done for you." + +"I don't think," said Jock, looking at her over his book, "that Lucy +wants to be repaid." + +"Probably not," said Lady Randolph. Then she made a pause, and looked +from him to the book he held, and then to him again. "Perhaps you don't +think," she said, "there is anything to be repaid." + +They were old antagonists; when he was a child and Lucy had insisted on +carrying him with her wherever she went, Lady Randolph had made no +objections, but she had not looked upon Jock with a friendly eye. And +afterwards, when he had interposed with his precocious wisdom, and +worsted her now and then, she had come to have a holy dread of him. But +now things had righted themselves, and Jock had attained an age of which +nobody could be afraid. The Dowager thought, as people are so apt to +think, that Jock was not grateful enough. He was very fond of Lucy, but +he took things as a matter of course, seldom or never remembering that +whereas Lucy was rich, he was poor, and all his luxuries and well-being +came from her. She was glad to take an opportunity of reminding him of +it, all the more as she was of opinion that Sir Tom did not sufficiently +impress this upon the boy, to whom she thought he was unnecessarily +kind. "I suppose," she resumed, after a pause, "that you come here +always in the holidays, and quite consider it as your home?" + +Jock still sat and looked at her across his great folio. He made her no +reply. He was not so ready in the small interchanges of talk as he had +been at eight, and, besides, it was new to him to have the subject +introduced in this way. It is not amusing to plant arrows of this sort +in any one's flesh if they show no sign of any wound, and accordingly +Lady Randolph grew angry as Jock made no reply. "Is it considered good +manners," she said, "at school--when a lady speaks to you that you +should make no answer?" + +"I was thinking," Jock said. "A fellow, whether he is at school, or not, +can't answer all that at once." + +"I hope you do not mean to be impertinent. In that case I should be +obliged to speak to my nephew," said Lady Randolph. She had not intended +to quarrel with Jock. It was only the vacancy of the morning, and her +desire for movement of some sort, that had brought her to this; and now +she grew angry with Lucy as well as with Jock, having gone so much +farther than she had intended to go. She turned from him to the books +which she had been languidly examining, and began to take them out one +after another, impatiently, as if searching for something. Jock sat and +looked at her for some time, with the same sort of deliberate +observation with which he used to regard her when he was a child, seeing +(as she had always felt) through and through her. But presently another +impulse swayed him. He got himself out behind his book, and suddenly +appeared by her side, startling her nerves, which were usually so firm. + +"If you will tell me what you want," he said, "I'll get it for you. I +know where they all are. If it is French you want, they are up there. I +like going up the ladder," he added, half to himself. + +Perhaps it was this confession of childishness, perhaps the unlooked-for +civility, that touched her. She turned round with a subdued half +frightened air, feeling that there was no telling how to take this +strange creature, and said, half apologetically, "I think I should like +a French--novel. They are not--so--long, you know, as the English," and +sat down in the chair he rolled towards her. Jock was at the top of the +ladder in a moment. She watched him, making a little comment in her own +mind about Tom's motive in placing books of this description in such a +place--in order to keep them out of Lucy's way, she said to herself. +Jock brought her down half a dozen to choose from, and even the eye of +Jock, who doubtless knew nothing about them, made Lady Randolph a little +more scrupulous than usual in choosing her book. She was one of those +women who like the piquancy and freedom of French fiction. She would say +to persons of like tastes that the English proprieties were tame beside +the other, and she thought herself old enough to be altogether beyond +any risk of harm. Perhaps this was why she divined Sir Tom's motive in +placing them at the top of the shelves; divined and approved, for though +she read all that came in her way, she would not have liked Lucy to +share that privilege. She said to Jock as he brought them to her, + +"They are shorter than the English. I can't carry three volumes about, +you know; all these are in one; but I should not advise you to take to +this sort of reading, Jock." + +"I don't want to," said Jock, briefly; then he added more gravely, "I +can't construe French like you. I suppose you just open it and go +straight on?" + +"I do," said Lady Randolph, with a smile. + +She was mollified, for her French was excellent, and she liked a little +compliment, of whatever kind. + +"You should give your mind to it; it is the most useful of all +languages," she said. + +"And Lucy is not great at it either," said Jock. + +"That is true, and it is a pity," said Lady Randolph, quite restored to +good-humour. "I would take her in hand myself, but I have so many things +to do. Do you know where she is, for I have not seen her all this +morning?" + +"No more have I," said Jock. "I think they have just gone off somewhere +together. Lucy never minds. She ought to pay a little attention when +there are people in the house." + +"That is just what I have been thinking," Lady Randolph said. "I am at +home, of course, here; it does not matter for me, and you are her +brother--but she really ought; I think I must speak seriously to her." + +"To whom are you going to speak seriously? I hope not to me, my dear +aunt," said Sir Tom, coming in. He did not look quite his usual self. He +was a little pale, and he had an air about him as of some disagreeable +surprise. He had the post-bag in his hand--for there was a post twice a +day--and opened it as he spoke. Lady Randolph, with her quick +perception, saw at once that something had happened, and jumped at the +idea of a first quarrel. It was generally the butler Williams who opened +the letter-bag; but he was out of the way, and Sir Tom had taken the +office on himself. He took out the contents with a little impatience, +throwing across to her her share of the correspondence. "Hallo," he +said. "Here is a letter for Lucy from your tutor, Jock. What have you +been doing, my young man?" + +"Oh, I know what it's about," Jock said in a tone of satisfaction. Sir +Tom turned round and looked at him with the letter in his hand, as if he +would have liked to throw it at his head. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV. + +AN UNWILLING MARTYR. + + +Lucy came into the morning-room shortly after, a little paler than +usual, but with none of the agitation about her which Lady Randolph +expected from Sir Tom's aspect to see. Lucy was not one to bear any +outward traces of emotion. When she wept her eyes recovered rapidly, and +after half an hour were no longer red. She had a quiet respect for other +people, and a determination not to betray anything which she could not +explain, which had the effect of that "proper pride" which is inculcated +upon every woman, and yet was something different. Lucy would have died +rather than give Lady Randolph ground to suppose that she had quarrelled +with her husband, and as she could not explain the matter to her, it was +necessary to efface all signs of perturbation as far as that was +possible. The elder lady was reading her letters when Lucy came in, but +she raised her eyes at once with the keenest watchfulness. Young Lady +Randolph was pale--but at no time had she much colour. She came in +quite simply, without any explanation or giving of reasons, and sat down +in her usual place near the window, from which the sunshine, as it was +now afternoon, was beginning to die away. Then Lucy gave a slight start +to see a letter placed for her on the little table beside her work. She +had few correspondents at any time, and when Jock and Lady Randolph were +both at the Hall received scarcely any letters. She took it up and +looked at its outside with a little surprise. + +"I forgot to tell you, Lucy," the Dowager said at this point, "that +there was a letter for you. Tom placed it there. He said it was from +Jock's tutor, and I hope sincerely, my dear, it does not mean that Jock +has got into any scrape----" + +"A scrape," said Lucy, "why should he have got into a scrape?" in +unbounded surprise; for this was a thing that never had happened +throughout Jock's career. + +"Oh, boys are so often in trouble," Lady Randolph said, while Lucy +opened her letter in some trepidation. But the first words of the letter +disturbed her more than any story about Jock was likely to do. It +brought the crisis nearer, and made immediate action almost +indispensable. It ran as follows:-- + + "Dear Lady Randolph--In accordance with Jock's request, which he + assured me was also yours, I have made all the inquiries you wished + about the Churchill family. It was not very difficult to do, as + there is but one voice in respect to them. Mr. Churchill himself is + represented to me as a model of all that a clergyman ought to be. + Whatever we may think of his functions, that he should have all the + virtues supposed to be attached to them is desirable in every point + of view; and he is a gentleman of good sense and intelligence + besides, which is not always implied even in the character of a + saint. It seems that the failure of an inheritance, which he had + every reason to expect, was the cause of his first disadvantage in + the world; and since then, in consonance with that curious natural + law which seems so contrary to justice, yet constantly consonant + with fact, this evil has been cumulative, and he has had nothing + but disappointments ever since. He has a very small living now, and + is never likely to get a better, for he is getting old, and + patrons, I am told, scarcely venture to give a cure to a man of his + age lest it should be said they were gratifying their personal + likings at the expense of the people. This seems contrary to + abstract justice in such a case; but it is a doctrine of our time + to which we must all bow. + + "The young people, so far as I know, are all promising and good. + Young Churchill, whom Jock knows, is a boy for whom I have the + greatest regard. He is one whom Goethe would have described as a + beautiful soul. His sisters are engaged in educational work, and + are, I am told, in their way equally high-minded and interesting; + but naturally I know little of the female portion of the family. + + "It is extremely kind of you and Sir Thomas to repeat your + invitation. I hope, perhaps at Easter, if convenient, to be able to + take advantage of it. I hear with the greatest pleasure from Jock + how much he enjoys his renewed intercourse with his home circle. It + will do him good, for his mind is full of the ideal, and it will be + of endless advantage to him to be brought back to the more ordinary + and practical interests. There are very few boys of whom it can be + said that their intellectual aspirations over-balance their + material impulses. As usual he has not only done his work this half + entirely to my satisfaction, but has more than repaid any services + I can render him by the precious companionship of a fresh and + elevated spirit. + + "Believe me, dear Lady Randolph, + "Most faithfully yours, + "MAXIMUS D. DERWENTWATER." + +A long-drawn breath, which sounded like a sigh, burst from Lucy's breast +as she closed this letter. She had, with humility and shrinking, yet +with a certain resolution, disclosed to her husband that when the +occasion occurred she must do her duty according to her father's will, +whether it pleased him or not. She had steeled herself to do this; but +she had prayed that the occasion might be slow to come. Nobody but Jock +knew anything about these Churchills, and Jock was going back to school, +and he was young and perhaps he might forget! But here was another who +would not forget. She read all the recommendations of the family and +their excellences with a sort of despair. Money, it was evident, could +not be better bestowed than in this way. There seemed no opening by +which she could escape; no way of thrusting this act away from her. She +felt a panic seize her. How was she to disobey Tom, how to do a thing of +so much importance, contrary to his will, against his advice? The whole +world around her, the solid walls, and the sky that shone in through the +great window, swam in Lucy's eyes. She drew her breath hard like a +hunted creature; there was a singing in her ears, and a dimness in her +sight. Lady Randolph's voice asking with a certain satisfaction, yet +sympathy, "What is the matter? I hope it is not anything very bad," +seemed to come to her from a distance as from a different world; and +when she added, after a moment, soothingly, "You must not vex yourself +about it, Lucy, if it is just a piece of folly. Boys are constantly in +that way coming to grief:" it was with difficulty that Lucy remembered +to what she could refer. Jock! Ah, if it had been but a boyish folly, +Sir Tom would have been the first to forgive that; he would have opened +his kind heart and taken the offender in, and laughed and persuaded him +out of his folly. He would have been like a father to the boy. To feel +all that, and how good he was; and yet determinedly to contradict his +will and go against him! Oh, how could she do it? and yet what else was +there to do? + +"It is not about Jock," she answered with a faint voice. + +"I beg your pardon, my dear. I was not aware that you knew Jock's tutor +well enough for general correspondence. These gentlemen seem to make a +great deal of themselves now-a-days, but in my time, Lucy----" + +"I do not know him very well, Aunt Randolph. He is only sending me some +information. I wish I might ask you a question," she cried suddenly, +looking into the Dowager's face with earnest eyes. This lady had perhaps +not all the qualities that make a perfect woman, but she had always been +very kind to Lucy. She was not unkind to anybody, although there were +persons, of whom Jock was one, whom she did not like. And in all +circumstances to Lucy, even when there was no immediate prospect that +the Randolph family would be any the better for her, she had always been +kind. + +"As many as you like, my love," she answered, cordially. + +"Yes," said Lucy; "but, dear Aunt Randolph, what I want is that you +should let me ask, without asking anything in return. I want to know +what you think, but I don't want to explain----" + +"It is a strange condition," said Lady Randolph; but then she thought in +her superior experience that she was very sure to find out what this +simple girl meant without explanations. "But I am not inquisitive," she +added, with a smile, "and I am quite willing, dear, to tell you anything +I know----" + +"It is this," said Lucy, leaning forward in her great earnestness; "do +you think a woman is ever justified in doing anything which her husband +disapproves?" + +"Lucy!" cried Lady Randolph, in great dismay, "when her husband is my +Tom, and the thing she wants to do is connected with Jock's tutor----" + +Lucy's gaze of astonishment, and her wondering repetition of the words, +"connected with Jock's tutor!" brought Lady Randolph to herself. In +society, such a suspicion being fostered by all the gossips, comes +naturally; but though she was a society-woman, and had not much faith in +holy ignorance, she paused here, horrified by her own suggestion, and +blushed at herself. + +"No, no," she said, "that was not what I meant; but perhaps I could not +quite advise, Lucy, where I am so closely concerned." + +At which Lucy looked at her somewhat wistfully. "I thought you would +perhaps remember," she said, "when you were like me, Aunt Randolph, and +perhaps did not know so well as you know now----" + +This touched the elder lady's heart. "Lucy," she said, "my dear, if you +were not as innocent as I know you are, you would not ask your husband's +nearest relation such a question. But I will answer you as one woman to +another, and let Tom take care of himself. I never was one that was very +strong upon a husband's rights. I always thought that to obey meant +something different from the common meaning of the word. A child must +obey; but even a grown-up child's obedience is very different from what +is natural and proper in youth; and a full-grown woman, you know, never +could be supposed to obey like a child. No wise man, for that matter, +would ever ask it or think of it." + +This did not give Lucy any help. She was very willing, for her part, to +accept his light yoke without any restriction, except in the great and +momentous exception which she did not want to specify. + +"I think," Lady Randolph went on, "that to obey means rather--keep in +harmony with your husband, pay attention to his opinions, don't take up +an opposite course, or thwart him, be united--instead of the obedience +of a servant, you know: still less of a slave." + +She was a great deal cleverer than Lucy, who was not thinking of the +general question at all. And this answer did the perplexed mind little +good. Lucy followed every word with curious attention, but at the end +slowly shook her head. + +"It is not that. Lady Randolph, if there was something that was your +duty before you were married, and that is still and always your duty, a +sacred promise you had made; and your husband said no, you must not do +it--tell me what you would have done? The rest is all so easy," cried +Lucy, "one likes what he likes, one prefers to please him. But this is +difficult. What would you have done?" + +Here Lady Randolph all at once, after giving forth the philosophical +view which was so much above her companion, found herself beyond her +depth altogether, and incapable of the fathom of that simple soul. + +"I don't understand you, Lucy. Lucy, for heaven's sake, take care what +you are doing! If it is anything about Jock, I implore of you give way +to your husband. You may be sure in dealing with a boy that he knows +best." + +Lucy sighed. "It is nothing about Jock," she said; but she did not +repeat her demand. Lady Randolph gave her a lecture upon the subject of +relations which was very wide of the question; and, with a sigh, owning +to herself that there was no light to be got from this, Lucy listened +very patiently to the irrelevant discourse. The clever dowager cut it +short when it was but half over, perceiving the same, and asked herself +not without excitement what it was possible Lucy's difficulty could be? +If it was not Jock (and a young brother hanging on to her, with no home +but hers, an inquisitive young intelligence, always in the way, was a +difficulty which anybody could perceive at a glance) what was it? But +Lucy baffled altogether this much experienced woman of the world. + +And Jock watched all the day for an opportunity to get possession of +her, and assail her on the other side of the question. She avoided him +as persistently as he sought her, and with a panic which was very +different from her usual happy confidence in him. But the moment came +when she could elude him no longer. Lady Randolph had gone to her own +room after her cup of tea, for that little nap before dinner which was +essential to her good looks and pleasantness in the evening. Sir Tom, +who was too much disturbed for the usual rules of domestic life, had not +come in for that twilight talk which he usually enjoyed; and as Lucy +found herself thus plunged into the danger she dreaded, she was hurrying +after Lady Randolph, declaring that she heard baby cry, when Jock +stepped into her way, and detained her, if not by physical, at least by +moral force-- + +"Lucy," he said, "are you not going to tell me anything? I know you have +got the letter, but you won't look at me, or speak a word." + +"Oh, Jock, how silly! why shouldn't I look at you? but I have so many +things to do, and baby--I am sure I heard baby cry." + +"He is no more crying than I am. I saw him, and he was as jolly as +possible. I want awfully to know about the Churchills, and what MTutor +says." + +"Jock, I think Mr. Derwentwater is rather grand in his writing. It looks +as if he thought a great deal of himself." + +"No, he doesn't," said Jock, hotly, "not half enough. He's the best man +we've got, and yet he can't see it. You needn't give me any information +about MTutor," added the young gentleman, "for naturally I know all that +much better than you. But I want to know about the Churchills. Lucy, is +it all right?" + +Lucy gave a little shiver though she was in front of the fire. She said, +reluctantly, "I think they seem very nice people, Jock." + +"I know they are," said Jock, exultantly. "Churchill in college is the +nicest fellow I know. He read such a paper at the Poetical Society. It +was on the Method of Sophocles; but of course you would not understand +that." + +"No, dear," said Lucy, mildly; and again she murmured something about +the baby crying, "I think indeed, Jock, I must go." + +"Just a moment," said the boy, "Now you are satisfied couldn't we drive +into Farafield to-morrow and settle about it? I want to go with you, you +and I together, and if old Rushton makes a row you can just call me." + +"But I can't leave Lady Randolph, Jock," cried Lucy, driven to her wits' +end. "It would be unkind to leave her, and a few days cannot do much +harm. When she has gone away----" + +"I shall be back at school. Let Sir Tom take her out for once. He might +as well drive her in his new phaeton that he is so proud of. If it is +fine she'll like that, and we can say we have some business." + +"Oh! Jock, don't press me so; a few days can't make much difference." + +"Lucy," said Jock, sternly, "do you think it makes no difference to keep +a set of good people unhappy, just to save you a little trouble? I +thought you had more heart than that." + +"Oh, let me go, Jock; let me go--that is little Tom, and he wants me," +Lucy cried. She had no answer to make him--the only thing she could do +was to fly. + + + + +CHAPTER XV. + +ON BUSINESS. + + +Ten thousand pounds! These words have very different meanings to +different people. Many of us can form little idea of what those simple +syllables contain. They enclose as in a golden casket, rest, freedom +from care, bounty, kindness, an easy existence, and an ending free of +anxiety to many. To others they are nothing more than a cipher on paper, +a symbol without any connection with themselves. To some it is great +fortune, to others a drop in the ocean. A merchant will risk it any day, +and think but little if the speculation is a failure. A prodigal will +throw it away in a month, perhaps in a night. But the proportion of +people to whom its possession would make all the difference between +poverty and wealth far transcends the number of those who are careless +of it. It is a pleasure to deal with such a sum of money even on paper. +To be concerned in giving it away, makes even the historian, who has +nothing to do with it, feel magnificent and all-bounteous. Jock, who had +as little experience to back him as any other boy of his age, felt a +vague elation as he drove in by Lucy's side to Farafield. To confer a +great benefit is always sweet. Perhaps if we analyse it, as is the +fashion of the day, we will find that the pleasure of giving has a +_fond_ of gratified vanity and self-consideration in it; but this +weakness is at least supposed to be generous, and Jock was generous to +his own consciousness, and full of delight at what was going to be done, +and satisfaction with his own share in it. But Lucy's sensations were +very different. She went with him with no goodwill of her own, like a +culprit being dragged to execution. Duty is not always willing, even +when we see it most clearly. Young Lady Randolph had a clear conviction +of what she was bound to do, but she had no wish to do it, though she +was so thoroughly convinced that it was incumbent upon her. Could she +have pushed it out of her own recollection, banished it from her mind, +she would have gladly done so. She had succeeded for a long time in +doing this--excluding the consideration of it, and forgetting the burden +bound upon her shoulders. But now she could forget it no longer--the +thongs which secured it seemed to cut into her flesh. Her heart was sick +with thoughts of the thing she must do, yet revolted against doing. "Oh, +papa, papa!" she said to herself, shaking her head at the grim, +respectable house in which her early days had been passed, as they drove +past it to Mr. Rushton's office. Why had the old man put such a burden +upon her? Why had not he distributed his money himself and left her +poor if he pleased, with at least no unnatural charge upon her heart and +life? + +"Why do you shake your head?" said Jock, who was full of the keenest +observation, and lost nothing. + +He had an instinctive feeling that she was by no means so much +interested in her duty as he was, and that it was his business to keep +her up to the mark. + +"Don't you remember the old house?" Lucy said, "where we used to live +when you were a child? Where poor papa died--where----" + +"Of course I remember it. I always look at it when I pass, and think +what a little ass I used to be. But why did you shake your head? That's +what I want to know." + +"Oh, Jock!" Lucy cried; and said no more. + +"That throws very little light on the question," said Jock. "You are +thinking of the difference, I suppose. Well, there is no doubt it's a +great difference. I was a little idiot in those days. I recollect I +thought the circus boy was a sort of little prince, and that it was +grand to ride along like that with all the people staring--the grandest +thing in the world----" + +"Poor little circus boy! What a pretty child he was," said Lucy. And +then she sighed to relieve the oppression on her breast, and said, "Do +you ever wonder, Jock, why people should have such different lots? You +and I driving along here in what we once would have thought such state, +and look, these people that are crossing the road in the mud are just as +good as we are----" + +Jock looked at his sister with a philosophical eye, in which for the +moment there was some contempt. "It is as easy as a, b, c," said Jock; +"it's your money. You might set me a much harder one. Of course, in the +way of horses and carriages and so forth, there is nothing that money +cannot buy." + +This matter-of-fact reply silenced Lucy. She would have asked, perhaps, +why did I have all this money? being in a questioning frame of mind; but +she knew that he would answer shortly because her father made it, and this +was not any more satisfactory. So she only looked at him with wistful eyes +that set many much harder ones, and was silent. Jock himself was too +philosophical to be satisfied with his own reply. + +"You see," he said condescendingly, "Money is the easiest explanation. +If you were to ask me why Sir Tom should be Sir Tom, and that man sweep +a crossing, I could not tell you." + +"Oh," cried Lucy, "I don't see any difficulty about that at all, for Tom +was born to it. You might as well say why should baby be born to be the +heir." + +Jock did not know whether to be indignant or to laugh at this feminine +begging of the question. He stared at her for a moment uncertain, and +then went on as if she had not spoken. "But money is always +intelligible. That's political economy. If you have money, as a matter +of course you have everything that money can buy; and I suppose it can +buy almost everything?" Jock said, reflectively. + +"It cannot buy a moment's happiness," cried Lucy, "nor one of those +things one wishes most for. Oh Jock, at your age don't be deceived like +that. For my part," she cried, "I think it is just the trouble of life. +If it was not for this horrible money----" + +She stopped short, the tears were in her eyes, but she would not betray +to Jock how great was the difficulty in which she found herself. She +turned her head away and was glad to wave her hand to a well known face +that was passing, an acquaintance of old times, who was greatly elated +to find that Lady Randolph in her grandeur still remembered her. Jock +looked on upon all this with a partial comprehension, mingled with +disapproval. He did not quite understand what she meant, but he +disapproved of her for meaning it all the same. + +"Money can't be horrible," he said, "unless it's badly spent: and to say +you can't buy happiness with it is nonsense. If it don't make _you_ +happy to save people from poverty it will make them happy, so somebody +will always get the advantage. What are you so silly about, Lucy? I +don't say money is so very fine a thing. I only say it's intelligible. +If you ask me why a man should be a great deal better than you or me, +only because he took the trouble to be born----" + +"I am not so silly, though you think me so silly, as to ask that," said +Lucy; "that is so easy to understand. Of course you can only be who you +are. You can't make yourself into another person; I hope I understand +that." + +She looked him so sweetly and seriously in the face as she spoke, and +was so completely unaware of any flaw in her reply, that Jock, +argumentative as he was, only gasped and said nothing more. And it was +in this pause of their conversation that they swept up to Mr. Rushton's +door. Mr. Rushton was the town-clerk of Farafield, the most important +representative of legal knowledge in the place. He had been the late Mr. +Trevor's man of business, and had still the greater part of Lucy's +affairs in his hands. He had known her from her childhood, and in the +disturbed chapter of her life before her marriage, his wife had taken a +great deal of notice, as she expressed it, of Lucy: and young Raymond, +who had now settled down in the office as his father's partner (but +never half such a man as his father, in the opinion of the community), +had done her the honour of paying her his addresses. But all that had +passed from everybody's mind. Mrs. Rushton, never very resentful, was +delighted now to receive Lady Randolph's invitation, and proud of the +character of an old friend. And if Raymond occasionally showed a little +embarrassment in Lucy's presence, that was only because he was by nature +awkward in the society of ladies, and according to his own description +never knew what to say. + +"And what can I do for your ladyship this morning?" Mr. Rushton said, +rising from his chair. His private room was very warm and comfortable, +too warm, the visitors thought, as an office always is to people going +in from the fresh air. The fire burned with concentrated heat, and Lucy, +in her furs and suppressed agitation, felt her very brain confused. As +for Jock, he lounged in the background with his hands in his pockets, +reading the names upon the boxes that lined the walls, and now that it +had come to the crisis, feeling truly helpless to aid his sister, and +considerably in the way. + +"It is a very serious business," said Lucy, drawing her breath hard. "It +is a thing you have never liked or approved of, Mr. Rushton, nor any +one," she added, in a faint voice. + +"Dear me, that is very unfortunate," said the lawyer, cheerfully; "but I +don't think you have ever been much disapproved of, Lady Randolph. Come, +there is nothing you can't talk to me about--an old friend. I was in +all your good father's secrets, and I never saw a better head for +business. Why, this is Jock, I believe, grown into a man almost! I +wonder if he has any of his father's talent? Is it about him you want to +consult me? Why, that's perfectly natural, now he's coming to an age to +look to the future," Mr. Rushton said. + +"Oh, no! it is not about Jock. He is only sixteen, and, besides, it is +something that is much more difficult," said Lucy. And then she paused, +and cleared her throat, and put down her muff among Mr. Rushton's +papers, that she might have her hands free for this tremendous piece of +business. Then she said, with a sort of desperation, looking him in the +face: "I have come to get you to--settle some money for me in obedience +to papa's will." + +Mr. Rushton started as if he had been shot. "You don't mean----" he +cried, "You don't mean---- Come, I dare say I am making a mountain out of +a mole-hill, and that what you are thinking of is quite innocent. If not +about our young friend here, some of your charities or improvements? You +are a most extravagant little lady in your improvements, Lady Randolph. +Those last cottages you know--but I don't doubt the estate will reap the +advantage, and it's an outlay that pays; oh, yes, I don't deny it's an +outlay that pays." + +Lucy's countenance betrayed the futility of this supposition long before +he had finished speaking. He had been standing with his back to the +fire, in a cheerful and easy way. Now his countenance grew grave. He +drew his chair to the table and sat down facing her. "If it is not that, +what is it?" he said. + +"Mr. Rushton," said Lucy, and she cleared her throat. She looked back +to Jock for support, but he had his back turned to her, and was still +reading the names on the lawyer's boxes. She turned round again with a +little sigh. "Mr. Rushton, I want to carry out papa's will. You know all +about it. It is codicil F. I have heard of some one who is the right +kind of person. I want you to transfer ten thousand pounds----" + +The lawyer gave a sort of shriek; he bolted out of his chair, pushing it +so far from him that the substantial mahogany shivered and tottered upon +its four legs. + +"Nonsense!" he said, "Nonsense!" increasing the firmness of his tone +until the word thundered forth in capitals, "NONSENSE!--you are going +out of your senses; you don't know what you are saying. I made sure we +had done with all this folly----" + +When it had happened to Lucy to propose such an operation as she now +proposed, for the first time, to her other trustee, she had been spoken +to in a way which young ladies rarely experience. That excellent man of +business had tried to put this young lady--then a very young lady--down, +and he had not succeeded. It may be supposed that at her present age of +twenty-three, a wife, a mother, and with a modest consciousness of her +own place and position, she was not a less difficult antagonist. She was +still a little frightened, and grew somewhat pale, but she looked +steadfastly at Mr. Rushton with a nervous smile. + +"I think you must not speak to me so," she said. "I am not a child, and +I know my father's will and what it meant. It is not nonsense, nor +folly--it may perhaps have been," she said with a little sigh--"not +wise." + +"I beg your pardon, Lady Randolph," Mr. Rushton said precipitately, +with a blush upon his middle-aged countenance, for to be sure, when you +think of it, to tell a gracious young lady with a title, one of your +chief clients, that she is talking nonsense, even if you have known her +all her life, is going perhaps a little too far. "I am sure you will +understand _that_ is what I meant," he cried, "unwise--the very word I +meant. In the heat of the moment other words slip out, but no offence +was intended." + +She made him a little bow; she was trembling, though she would not have +him see it. "We are not here," she said, "to criticise my father." Lucy +was scarcely half aware how much she had gained in composure and the art +of self-command. "I think he would have been more wise and more kind to +have done himself what he thought to be his duty; but what does that +matter? You must not try to convince me, please, but take the +directions, which are very simple. I have written them all down in this +paper. If you think you ought to make independent inquiries, you have +the right to do that; but you will spare the poor gentleman's feelings, +Mr. Rushton. It is all put down here." + +Mr. Rushton took the paper from her hand. He smiled inwardly to himself, +subduing his fret of impatience. "You will not object to let me talk it +over," he said, "first with Sir Tom?" + +Lucy coloured, and then she grew pale. "You will remember," she said, +"that it has nothing to do with my husband, Mr. Rushton." + +"My dear lady," said the lawyer, "I never expected to hear you, who I +have always known as the best of wives, say of anything that it has +nothing to do with your husband. Surely that is not how ladies speak of +their lords?" + +Lucy heard a sound behind her which seemed to imply to her quick ear +that Jock was losing patience. She had brought him with her, with the +idea of deriving some support from his presence; but if Sir Tom had +nothing to do with it, clearly on much stronger grounds neither had her +brother. She turned round and cast a hurried warning glance at him. She +had herself no words ready to reply to the lawyer's gibe. She would +neither defend herself as from a grave accusation, nor reply in the same +tone. "Mr. Rushton," she said faltering, "I don't think we need argue, +need we? I have put down all the particulars. You know about it as well +as I do. It is not for pleasure. If you think it is right, you will +inquire about the gentleman--otherwise--I don't think there need be any +more to say." + +"I will talk it over with Sir Tom," said Mr. Rushton, feeling that he +had found the only argument by which to manage this young woman. He even +chuckled a little to himself at the thought. "Evidently," he said to +himself, "she is afraid of Sir Tom, and he knows nothing about this. He +will soon put a stop to it." He added aloud, "My dear Lady Randolph, +this is far too serious a matter to be dismissed so summarily. You are +young and very inexperienced. Of course I know all about it, and so does +Sir Thomas. We will talk it over between us, and no doubt we will manage +to decide upon some course that will harmonise everything." + +Lucy looked at him with grave suspicion. "I don't know," she said, "what +there is to be harmonised, Mr. Rushton. There is a thing which I have to +do, and I have shrunk from it for a long time; but I cannot do so any +longer." + +"Look here," said Jock, "it's Lucy's affair, it's nobody else's. Just +you look at her paper and do what she says." + +"My young friend," said the lawyer blandly, "that is capital advice for +yourself: I hope you always do what your sister says." + +"Most times I do," said Jock; "not that it's your business to tell me. +But you know very well you'll have to do it. No one has got any right to +interfere with her. She has more sense than a dozen. She has got the +right on her side. You may do what you please, but you know very well +you can't stop her--neither you, nor Sir Tom, nor the old lady, nor one +single living creature; and you know it," said Jock. He confronted Mr. +Rushton with lowering brows, and with an angry sparkle in his deep-set +eyes. Lucy was half proud of and half alarmed by her champion. + +"Oh hush, Jock!" she cried. "You must not speak; you are only a boy. You +must beg Mr. Rushton's pardon for speaking to him so. But, indeed, what +he says is quite true; it is no one's duty but mine. My husband will not +interfere with what he knows I must do," she said, with a little chill +of apprehension. Would he indeed be so considerate for her? It made her +heart sick to think that she was not on this point quite certain about +Sir Tom. + +"In that case there will be no harm in talking it over with him," said +the lawyer briefly. "I thought you were far too sensible not to see that +was the right way. Oh, never mind about his asking my pardon. I forgive +him without that. He has a high idea of his sister's authority, which is +quite right; and so have I--and so have all of us. Certainly, certainly, +Master Jock, she has the right; and she will arrange it judiciously, of +that there is no fear. But first, as a couple of business men, more +experienced in the world than you young philanthropists, I will just, +the first time I see him, talk it over with Sir Tom. My dear Lady +Randolph, no trouble at all. Is that all I can do for you? Then I will +not detain you any longer this fine morning," the lawyer said. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI. + +AN UNEXPECTED ARRIVAL. + + +They drove away again with scarcely a word to each other. It was a +bright, breezy, wintry day. The roads about Farafield were wet with +recent rains, and gleamed in the sunshine. The river was as blue as +steel, and gave forth a dazzling reflection; the bare trees stood up +against the sky without a pretence of affording any shadow. The cold to +these two young people, warmly dressed and prosperous, was nothing to +object to--indeed, it was not very cold. But they both had a slight +sense of discomfiture--a feeling of having suffered in their own +opinion. Jock, who was much regarded at school as a fellow high up, and +a great friend of his tutor, was not used to such unceremonious +treatment, and he was wroth to see that even Lucy was supposed to +require the sanction of Sir Tom for what it was clearly her own business +to do. He said nothing, however, until they had quite cleared the town, +and were skimming along the more open country roads; then he said +suddenly-- + +"That old Rushton has a great deal of cheek. I should have another +fellow to manage my affairs, Lucy, if I were you." + +"Don't you know, Jock, that I can't? Papa appointed him. He is my +trustee; he has always to be consulted. Papa did not mind," said Lucy +with a little sigh. "He said it would be good for me to be contradicted, +and not to have my own way." + +"Don't you have your own way?" said Jock, opening his eyes. "Lucy, who +contradicts you? I should like to know who it was, and tell him my mind +a bit. I thought you did whatever you pleased. Do you mean to say there +is any truth in all that about Sir Tom?" + +"In what about Sir Tom?" cried Lucy, instantly on her defence; and then +she changed her tone with a little laugh. "Of course I do whatever I +please. It is not good for anybody, Jock. Don't you know we must be +crossed sometimes, or we should never do any good at all?" + +"Now I wonder which she means?" said Jock. "If she does have her own way +or if she don't? I begin to think you speak something else than English, +Lucy. I know it is the thing to say that women must do what their +husbands tell them; but do you mean that it's true like _that_? and that +a fellow may order you to do this or not to do that, with what is your +own and not his at all?" + +"I don't think I understand you, dear," said Lucy sweetly. + +"Oh! you can't be such a stupid as that," said the boy; "you understand +right enough. What did he mean by talking it over with Sir Tom? He +thought Sir Tom would put a stop to it, Lucy." + +"If Mr. Rushton forms such false ideas, dear, what does it matter? That +is not of any consequence either to you or me." + +"I wish you would give me a plain answer," said Jock, impatiently. "I +ask you one thing, and you say another; you never give me any +satisfaction." + +She smiled upon him with a look which, clever as Jock was, he did not +understand. "Isn't that conversation?" she said. + +"Conversation!" The boy repeated the word almost with a shriek of +disdain: "You don't know very much about that, down here in the country, +Lucy. You should hear MTutor; when he's got two or three fellows from +Cambridge with him, and they go at it! That's something like talk." + +"It is very nice for you, Jock, that you get on so well with Mr. +Derwentwater," said Lucy, catching with some eagerness at this way of +escape from embarrassing questions. "I hope he will come and see us at +Easter, as he promised." + +"He may," said Jock, with great gravity, "but the thing is, everybody +wants to have him; and then, you see, whenever he has an opportunity he +likes to go abroad. He says it freshens one up more than anything. After +working his brain all the half, as he does, and taking the interest he +does in everything, he has got to pay attention, you know, and not to +overdo it; he must have change, and he must have rest." + +Lucy was much impressed by this, as she was by all she heard of MTutor. +She was quite satisfied that such immense intellectual exertions as his +did indeed merit compensation. She said, "I am sure he would get rest +with us, Jock. There would be nothing to tire him, and whatever I could +do for him, dear, or Sir Tom either, we should be glad, as he is so good +to you." + +"I don't know that he's what you call fond of the country--I mean the +English country. Of course it is different abroad," said Jock +doubtfully. Then he came back to the original subject with a bound, +scattering all Lucy's hopes. "But we didn't begin about MTutor. It was +the other business we were talking of. Is it true that Sir Tom----" + +"Jock," said Lucy seriously. Her mild eyes got a look he had never seen +in them before. It was a sort of dilation of unshed tears, and yet they +were not wet. "If you know any time when Sir Tom was ever unkind or +untrue, I don't know it. He has always, always been good. I don't think +he will change now. I have always done what he told me, and I always +will. But he never told me anything. He knows a great deal better than +all of us put together. Of course, to obey him, that is my first duty. +And I always shall. But he never asks it--he is too good. What is his +will, is my will," she said. She fixed her eyes very seriously on Jock, +all the time she spoke, and he followed every movement of her lips with +a sort of astonished confusion, which it is difficult to describe. When +she had ceased Jock drew a long breath, and seemed to come to the +surface again, after much tossing in darker waters. + +"I think that it must be true," he said slowly, after a pause, "as +people say--that women are very queer, Lucy. I didn't understand one +word you said." + +"Didn't you, then?" she said, with a smile of gentle benignity; "but +what does it matter, when it will all come right in the end? Is that our +omnibus, Jock, that is going along with all that luggage? How curious +that is, for nobody was coming to-day that I know of. Don't you see it +just turning in to the avenue? Now that is very strange indeed," said +Lucy, raising herself very erect upon her cushions with a little +quickened and eager look. An arrival is always exciting in the country, +and an arrival which was quite unexpected, and of which she could form +no surmise as to who it could be, stirred up all her faculties. "I +wonder if Mrs. Freshwater will know what rooms are best?" she said, "and +if Sir Tom will be at home to receive them; or perhaps it may be some +friends of Aunt Randolph's, or perhaps--I wonder very much who it can +be." + +Jock's countenance covered itself quickly with a tinge of gloom. + +"Whoever it is, I know it will be disgusting," cried the boy. "Just when +we have got so much to talk about! and now I shall never see you any +more. Lady Randolph was bad enough, and now here's more of them! I +should just as soon go back to school at once," he said, with premature +indignation. The servants on the box perceived the other carriage in +advance with equal curiosity and excitement. They were still more +startled, perhaps, for a profound wonder as to what horses had been sent +out, and who was driving them, agitated their minds. The horses, +solicited by a private token between them and their driver which both +understood, quickened their pace with a slight dash, and the carriage +swept along as if in pursuit of the larger and heavier vehicle, which, +however, had so much the advance of them, that it had deposited its +passengers, and turned round to the servants' entrance with the luggage, +before Lady Randolph could reach the door. Williams the butler wore a +startled look upon his dignified countenance, as he came out on the +steps to receive his mistress. + +"Some one has arrived," said Lucy with a little eagerness. "We saw the +omnibus." + +"Yes, my lady. A telegram came for Sir Thomas soon after your ladyship +left; there was just time to put in the horses----" + +"But who is it, Williams?" + +Williams had a curious apologetic air. "I heard say, my lady, that it +was some of the party that were invited before Mr. Randolph fell ill. +There had been a mistake about the letters, and the lady has come all +the same--a lady with a foreign title, my lady----" + +"Oh!" said Lucy, with English brevity. She stood startled, in the hall, +lingering a little, changing colour, not with any of the deep emotions +which Williams from his own superior knowledge suspected, but with +shyness and excitement. "It will be the lady from Italy, the +Contessa---- Oh, I hope they have attended to her properly! Was Sir +Thomas at home when she came?" + +"Sir Thomas, my lady, went to meet them at the station," Williams said. + +"Oh, that is all right," cried Lucy, relieved. "I am so glad she did not +arrive and find nobody. And I hope Mrs. Freshwater----" + +"Mrs. Freshwater put the party into the east wing, my lady. There are +two ladies besides the man and the maid. We thought it would be the +warmest for them, as they came from the South." + +"It may be the warmest, but it is not the prettiest," said Lucy. "The +lady is a great friend of Sir Thomas', Williams." + +The man gave her a curious look. + +"Yes, my lady, I was aware of that," he said. + +This surprised Lucy a little, but for the moment she took no notice of +it. "And therefore," she went on, "the best rooms should have been got +ready. Mrs. Freshwater ought to have known that. However, perhaps she +will change afterwards. Jock, I will just run upstairs and see that +everything is right." + +As she turned towards the great staircase, so saying, she ran almost +into her husband's arms. Sir Tom had appeared from a side door, where he +had been on the watch, and it was certain that his face bore some traces +of the new event that had happened. He was not at his ease as usual. He +laughed a little uncomfortable laugh, and put his hand on Lucy's +shoulder as she brushed against him. "There," he said, "that will do; +don't be in such a hurry," arresting her in full career. + +"Oh, Tom!" Lucy for her part looked at her husband with the greatest +relief and happiness. There had been a cloud between them which had been +more grievous to her than anything else in the world. She had felt +hourly compelled to stand up before him and tell him that she must do +what he desired her not to do. The consternation and pain and wrath that +had risen over his face after that painful interview had not passed away +through all the intervening time. There had been a sort of desperation +in her mind when she went to Mr. Rushton, a feeling that she so hated +the duty which had risen like a ghost between her husband and herself, +that she must do it at all hazards and without delay. But this cloud had +now departed from Sir Tom's countenance. There was a little suffusion of +colour upon it which was unusual to him. Had it been anybody but Sir +Tom, it would have looked like embarrassment, shyness mingled with a +certain self-ridicule and sense of the ludicrous in the position +altogether. He caught his wife in his arms and met her eyes with a +certain laughing shamefacedness, "Don't," he said, "be in such a hurry, +Lucy. _Ces dames_ have gone to their rooms; they have been travelling +all night, and they are not fit to be seen. It is only silly little +English girls like you that can bear to be looked at at all times and +seasons." And with this he stooped over her and gave her a kiss on her +forehead, to Lucy's delight, yet horror--before Williams, who looked on +approving, and the footman with the traps, and Jock and all! But what a +load it took off her breast! He was not any longer vexed or disturbed or +angry. He was indeed conciliatory and apologetic, but Lucy only saw that +he was kind. + +"Poor lady," cried Lucy, "has she been travelling all night? And I am so +sorry she has been put into the east wing. If I had been at home I +should have said the blue rooms, Tom, which you know are the nicest----" + +"I think they are quite comfortable, my dear," said Sir Tom, with his +usual laugh, which was half-mocking half-serious, "you may be sure they +will ask for anything they want. They are quite accustomed to making +themselves at home." + +"Oh, I hope so, Tom," said Lucy, "but don't you think it would be more +polite, more respectful, if I were to go and ask if they have +everything? Mrs. Freshwater is very well you know, Tom, but the mistress +of the house----" + +He gave her another little hug, and laughed again. "No," he said, "you +may be sure Madame Forno-Populo is not going to let you see her till she +has repaired all ravages. It was extremely indiscreet of me to go to the +station," he continued, still with that chuckle, leading Lucy away. "I +had forgotten all these precautions after a few years of you, Lucy. I +was received with a shriek of horror and a double veil." + +Lucy looked at him with great surprise, asking: "Why? wasn't she glad to +see you?" with incipient indignation and a sense of grievance. + +"Not at all," cried Sir Tom, "indeed I heard her mutter something about +English savagery. The Contessa expresses herself strongly sometimes. +Freshwater and the maid, and the excellent breakfast Williams has +ordered, knowing her ways----" + +"Does Williams know her ways?" asked Lucy, wondering. There was not the +faintest gleam of suspicion in her mind; but she was surprised, and her +husband bit his lip for a moment, yet laughed still. + +"He knows those sort of people," he said. "I was very much about in +society at one time you must know, Lucy, though I am such a steady old +fellow now. We knew something of most countries in these days. We were +_bien vu_, he and I, in various places. Don't tell Mrs. Williams, my +love." He laughed almost violently at this mild joke, and Lucy looked +surprised. But still no shadow came upon her simple countenance. Lucy +was like Desdemona, and did not believe that there were such women. She +thought it was "fun," such fun as she sometimes saw in the newspapers, +and considered as vulgar as it was foolish. Such words could not be used +in respect to anything Sir Tom said, but even in her husband it was not +good taste, Lucy thought. She smiled at the reference to Mrs. Williams +with a kind of quiet disdain, but it never occurred to her that she too +might require to be kept in the dark. + +"I dare say most of what you are talking is nonsense," she said; "but if +Madame Forno ----"--Lucy was not very sure of the name, and +hesitated--"is really very tired, perhaps it may be kindness not to +disturb her. I hope she will go to bed, and get a thorough rest. Did she +not get your second letter, Tom? and what a thing it is that dear baby +is so much better, and that we can really pay a little attention to +her." + +"Either she did not get my letter, or I didn't write, I cannot say which +it was, Lucy. But now we have got her we must pay attention to her, as +you say. You will have to get up a few dinner parties, and ask some +people to stay. She will like to see the humours of the wilderness while +she is in it." + +"The wilderness--but, Tom, everybody says society is so good in the +county." + +"Everybody does not know the Forno-Populo," cried Sir Tom; and then he +burst out into a great laugh. "I wonder what her Grace will say to the +Contessa; they have met before now." + +"Must we ask the Duchess?" cried Lucy, with awe and alarm, coming a +little nearer to her husband's side. + +But Sir Tom did nothing but laugh. "I've seen a few passages of arms," +he said. "By Jove, you don't know what war is till you see two ---- at +it tooth and nail. Two--what, Lucy? Oh, I mean fine ladies; they have no +mercy. Her Grace will set her claws into the fair countess. And as for +the Forno-Populo herself----" + +"Dear Tom" said Lucy with gentle gravity, "Is it nice to speak of ladies +so? If any one called me the Randolph, I should be, oh, so----" + +"You," cried her husband with a hot and angry colour rising to his very +hair, and then he perceived that he was betraying himself, and paused. +"You see, my love, that's different," he said. "Madame di Forno-Populo +is--an old stager: and you are very young, and nobody ever thought of +you but with--reverence, my dear. Yes, that's the word, Lucy, though you +are only a bit of a girl." + +"Tom," said Lucy with great dignity, "I have you to take care of me, and +I have never been known in the world. But, dear, if this poor lady has +no one--and I suppose she is a widow, is she not, Tom?" + +He had been listening to her almost with emotion--with a half-abashed +look, full of fondness and admiration. But at this question he drew back +a little, with a sort of stagger, and burst into a wild fit of laughter. +When he came to himself wiping his eyes, he was, there could be no +doubt, ashamed of himself. "I beg you ten thousand pardons," he cried. +"Lucy, my darling! Yes, yes--I suppose she is a widow, as you say." + +Lucy looked at him while he laughed, with profound gravity, without the +slightest inclination to join in his merriment, which is a thing which +has a very uncomfortable effect. She waited till he was done, with a +mixture of wonder and disapproval in her seriousness, looking at his +laughter as if at some phenomenon which she did not understand. "I have +often heard gentlemen," she said, "talk about widows as if it were a +sort of laughable name, and as if they might make their jokes as they +pleased. But I did not think you would have done it, Tom. I should feel +all the other way," said Lucy. "I should think I could never do enough +to make it up, if that were possible, and to make them forget. Is it +their fault that they are left desolate, that a man should laugh?" She +turned away from her husband with a soft superiority of innocence and +true feeling which struck him dumb. + +He begged her pardon in the most abject way; and then he left her for a +moment quietly, and had his laugh out. But he was ashamed of himself all +the same. "I wonder what she will say when she sees the Forno-Populo," +he said to himself. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII. + +FOREWARNED. + + +Lucy did not see her visitors till the hour of dinner. She had expected +them to appear in the afternoon at the mystic hour of tea, which calls +an English household together, but when it was represented to her that +afternoon tea was not the same interesting institution in Italy, her +surprise ceased, and though her expectations were still more warmly +excited by this delay, she bore it with becoming patience. There was no +doubt, however, that the arrival had made a great commotion in the +house, and Lucy perceived without in the least understanding it, a +peculiarity in the looks which various of the people around her cast +upon her during the course of the day. Her own maid was one of these +people, and Mrs. Freshwater, the housekeeper, who explained in a +semi-apologetic tone all the preparations she had made for the comfort +of the guests, was another. And Williams, though he was always so +dignified, thought Lucy could not help feeling an eye upon her. He was +almost compassionately attentive to his young mistress. There was a +certain pathos in the way in which he handed her the potatoes at lunch. +He pressed a little more claret upon her with a fatherly anxiety, and an +air that seemed to say, "It will do you good." Lucy was conscious of all +this additional attention without realising the cause of it. But it +found its culmination in Lady Randolph, in whom a slightly-injured and +aggrieved air towards Sir Tom was enhanced by the extreme tenderness of +her aspect to Lucy, for whom she could not do too much. "Williams is +quite right in giving you a little more wine. You take nothing," she +said, "and I am sure you want support. After your long drive, too, my +dear: and how cold it has been this morning!" + +"Yes, it was cold; but we did not mind, we rather liked it, Jock and I. +Poor Madame di Forno-Populo! She must have felt it travelling all +night." + +"Bravo, Lucy, that is right! you have tackled the name at last, and got +through with it beautifully," said Sir Tom with a laugh. + +Lucy was pleased to be praised. "I hope I shan't forget," she said, "it +is so long: and oh, Tom, I do hope she can talk English, for you know my +French." + +"I should think she could talk English!" said Lady Randolph, with a +little scorn. And what was very extraordinary was that Williams showed a +distinct but suppressed consciousness, putting his lips tight as if to +keep in what he knew about the matter. "And I don't think you need be so +sorry for the lady, Lucy," said the dowager. "No doubt she didn't mean +to travel by night. It arose from some mistake or other in Tom's letter. +But she does not mind that, you may be sure, now that she has made out +her point." + +"What point?" said Sir Tom, with some heat. But Lady Randolph made no +reply, and he did not press the question. They were both aware that it +is sometimes better to hold one's tongue. And the curious thing to all +of those well-informed persons was that Lucy took no notice of all their +hints and innuendoes. She was in the greatest spirits, not only +interested about her unknown visitors and anxious to secure their +comfort, but in herself more gay than she had been for some time past. +In fact this arrival was a godsend to Lucy. The cloud had disappeared +entirely from her husband's brow. Instead of making any inquiries about +her visit to Farafield, or resuming the agitating discussion which had +ended in what was really a refusal on her part to do what he wished, he +was full of a desire to conciliate and please her. The matter which had +brought so stern a look to his face, and occasioned her an anxiety and +pain far more severe than anything that had occurred before in her +married life, seemed to have dropped out of his mind altogether. Instead +of that opposition and disapproval, mingled with angry suspicion, which +had been in his manner and looks, he was now on the watch to propitiate +Lucy; to show a gratitude for which she knew no reason, and a pride in +her which was still less comprehensible. What did it all mean, the +compassion on one side, the satisfaction on the other? But Lucy scarcely +asked herself the question. In her relief at having no new discussion +with her husband, and at his apparent forgetfulness of all displeasure +and of any question between them, her heart rose with all the glee of a +child's. It seemed to her that she had surmounted the difficulties of +her position by an intervention which was providential. It even occurred +to her innocent mind to make reflections as to the advantage of doing +what was right in the face of all difficulties. God, she said to +herself, evidently was protecting her. It was known in heaven what an +effort it had cost her to do her duty to fulfil her father's will, and +now heavenly succour was coming, and the difficulties disappearing out +of her way. Lucy would have been ready in any case with the most +unhesitating readiness to receive and do any kindness to her husband's +friend. No idea of jealousy had come into her unsuspicious soul. She had +taken it as a matter of course that this unknown lady should have the +best that the Hall could offer her, and that her old alliance with Sir +Tom should throw open his doors and his wife's heart. Perhaps it was +because Lucy's warm and simple-minded attachment to her husband had +little in it of the character of passion that it was thus entirely +without any impulse of jealousy. And what was so natural in common +circumstances became still more so in the exhilaration and rebound of +her troubled heart. Sir Tom was so kind to her in departing from his +opposition, in letting her have her way without a word. It was certain +that Lucy would not have relinquished her duty for any opposition he had +made. But with what a bleeding heart she would have done it, and how +hateful would have been the necessity which separated her from his +goodwill and assistance! Now she felt that terrible danger was over. +Probably he would not ask her what she had been about. He would not give +it his approval, which would have been most sweet of all, but if he did +not interfere, if he permitted it to be done without opposition, without +even demanding of his wife an account of her action, how much that would +be, and how cordially, with what a genuine impulse of the heart would +she set to work to carry out his wishes--he who had been so generous, so +kind to her! This was how it was that her gaiety, the ease and +happiness of her look, startled them all so much. That she should have +been amiable to the new comers was comprehensible. She was so amiable by +nature, and so ignorant and unsuspicious: but that their coming should +give her pleasure, this was the thing that confounded the spectators: +they could not understand how any other subject should withdraw her from +what is supposed to be a wife's master emotion--nay, they could not +understand how it was that mere instinct had not enlightened Lucy, and +pointed out to her what elements were coming together that would be +obnoxious to her peace. Even Sir Tom felt this, with a deepened +tenderness for his pure-minded little wife, and pride in her +unconsciousness. Was there another woman in England who would have been +so entirely generous, so unaware even of the possibility of evil? He +admired her for it, and wondered--if it was a little silly (which he had +a kind of undisclosed suspicion that it was), yet what a heavenly +silliness. There was nobody else who would have been so magnanimous, so +confident in his perfect honour and truth. + +The only other element that could have added to Lucy's satisfaction was +also present. Little Tom was better than usual. Notwithstanding the cold +he had been able to go out, and was all the brighter for it, not chilled +and coughing as he sometimes was. His mother had found him careering +about his nursery in wild glee, and flinging his toys about, in +perfectly boyish, almost mannish, altogether wicked, indifference to the +danger of destroying them. It was this that brought her downstairs +radiant to the luncheon table, where Lady Randolph and Williams were so +anxious to be good to her. Lucy was much surprised by the solicitude +which she felt to be so unnecessary. She was disposed to laugh at the +care they took of her; feeling in her own mind, more triumphant, more +happy and fortunate, than she had ever been before. + +As for Jock, he took no notice at all of the incident of the day. He +perceived with satisfaction, a point on which for the moment he was +unusually observant, that Sir Tom showed no intention of questioning +them as to their morning's expedition or opposing Lucy. This being the +case, what was it to the boy who went or came? A couple of ladies were +quite indifferent to him. He did not expect anything or fear anything. +His own doings interested him much more. The conversation about this new +subject floated over his head. He did not take the trouble to pay any +attention to it. As for Williams' significant looks or Lady Randolph's +anxieties, Jock was totally unconscious of their existence. He did not +pay any attention. When the party was not interesting he had plenty of +other thoughts to retire into, and the coming of new people, except in +so far as it might be a bore, did not affect him at all. + +Lucy went out dutifully for a drive with Lady Randolph after luncheon. +It was still very bright, though it was cold, and after a little demur +as to the propriety of going out when it was possible her guests might +be coming downstairs, Lucy took her place beside the fur-enveloped +Dowager with her hot water footstool and mountain of wrappings. They +talked about ordinary matters for a little, about the landscape and the +improvements, and about little Tom, whose improvement was the most +important of all. But it was not possible to continue long upon +indifferent matters in face of the remarkable events which had disturbed +the family calm. + +"I hope," said Lucy, "that Madame di Forno-Populo" (she was very +careful about all the syllables) "may not be more active than you think, +and come down while we are away." + +"Oh, there is not the least fear," said Lady Randolph, somewhat +scornfully. "She was always a candle-light beauty. She is not very fond +of the eye of day." + +"She is a beauty, then?" said Lucy. "I am very glad. There are so few. +You know I have always been--rather--disappointed. There are many pretty +people: but to be beautiful is quite different." + +"That is because you are so unsophisticated, my dear. You don't +understand that beauty in society means a fashion, and not much more. I +have seen a quantity of beauties in my day. How they came to be so, +nobody knew; but there they were, and we all bowed down to them. This +woman, however, was very pretty, there was no doubt about it," said Lady +Randolph, with reluctant candour. "I don't know what she may be now. She +was enough to turn any man's head when she was young--or even a +woman's--who ought to have known better." + +"Do you think then, Aunt Randolph, that women don't admire pretty +people?" It is to be feared that Lucy asked for the sake of making +conversation, which it is sometimes necessary to do. + +"I think that men and women see differently--as they always do," said +Lady Randolph. She was rather fond of discriminating between the ideas +of the sexes, as many ladies of a reasonable age are. "There is a +gentleman's beauty, you know, and there is a kind of beauty that women +love. I could point out the difference to you better if the specimens +were before us; but it is a little difficult to describe. I rather +think we admire expression, you know. What men care for is flesh and +blood. We like people that are good--that is to say, who have the air of +being good, for the reality doesn't by any means follow. Perhaps I am +taking too much credit to ourselves," said the old lady, "but that is +the best description I can hit upon. We like the interesting kind--the +pensive kind--which was the fashion when I was young. Your great, fat, +golden-haired, red and white women are gentlemen's beauties; they don't +commend themselves to us." + +"And is Madame di Forno-Populo," said Lucy, in her usual elaborate way, +"of that kind?" + +"Oh! my dear, she is just a witch," Lady Randolph said. "It does not +matter who it is, she can bring them to her feet if she pleases!" Then +she seemed to think she had gone too far, and stopped herself: "I mean +when she was young; she is young no longer, and I dare say all that has +come to an end." + +"It must be sad to grow old when one is like that," said Lucy, with a +look of sympathetic regret. + +"Oh, you are a great deal too charitable, Lucy!" said the old lady: and +then she stopped short, putting a sudden restraint upon herself, as if +it were possible that she might have said too much; then after a while +she resumed: "As you are in such a heavenly frame of mind, my dear, and +disposed to think so well of her, there is just one word of advice I +will give you--don't allow yourself to get intimate with this lady. She +is quite out of your way. If she liked, she could turn you round her +little finger. But it is to be hoped she will not like; and, in any +case, you must remember that I have warned you. Don't let her, my dear, +make a catspaw of you." + +"A catspaw of me!" Lucy was amused by these words--not offended, as so +many might have been--perhaps because she felt herself little likely to +be so dominated; a fact that the much older and more experienced woman +by her side was quite unaware of. "But," she said, "Tom would not have +invited her, Aunt Randolph, if he had thought her likely to do +that--indeed, how could he have been such great friends with her if she +had not been nice as well as pretty? You forget there must always be +that in her favour to me." + +"Oh, Tom!" cried Lady Randolph with indignation. "My dear Lucy," she +added after a pause, with subdued exasperation, "men are the most +unaccountable creatures! Knowing him as I do, I should have thought she +was the very last person--but how can we tell? I dare say the idea +amused him. Tom will do anything that amuses him--or tickles his vanity. +I confess it is as you say, very, very difficult to account for it; but +he has done it. He wants to show off a little to her, I suppose; or else +he---- There is really no telling, Lucy. It is the last thing in the +world I should have thought of; and you may be quite sure, my dear," she +added with emphasis, "she never would have been invited at all if he had +expected me to be here when she came." + +Lucy did not make any answer for some time. Her face, which had kept its +gaiety and radiance, grew grave, and when they had driven back towards +the hall for about ten minutes in silence, she said quietly "You do not +mean it, I am sure; but do you know, Aunt Randolph, you are trying to +make me think very badly of my husband; and no one has ever done that +before." + +"Oh, your husband is just like other people's husbands, Lucy," cried +the elder lady impatiently. Then, however, she subdued herself, with an +anxious look at her companion. "My dear, you know how fond I am of Tom: +and I know he is fond of you; he would not do anything to harm you for +the world. I suppose it is because he has such a prodigious confidence +in you that he thinks it does not matter; and I don't suppose it does +matter. The only thing is, don't be over intimate with her, Lucy; don't +let her fix herself upon you when you go to town, and talk about young +Lady Randolph as her dearest friend. She is quite capable of doing it. +And as for Tom--well, he is just a man when all is said." + +Lucy did not ask any more questions. That she was greatly perplexed +there is no doubt, and her first fervour of affectionate interest in +Tom's friend was slightly damped, or at least changed. But she was more +curious than ever; and there was in her mind the natural contradiction +of youth against the warnings addressed to her. Lucy knew very well that +she herself was not one to be twisted round anybody's little finger. She +was not afraid of being subjugated; and she had a prejudice in favour of +her husband which neither Lady Randolph nor any other witness could +impair. The drive home was more silent than the outset. Naturally, the +cold increased as the afternoon went on, and the Dowager shrunk into her +furs, and declared that she was too much chilled to talk. "Oh how +pleasant a cup of tea will be," she said. + +Lucy longed for her part to get down from the carriage and walk home +through the village, to see all the cottage fires burning, and quicken +the blood in her veins, which is a better way than fur for keeping one's +self warm. When they got in, it was exciting to think that perhaps the +stranger was coming down to tea; though that, as has been already said, +was a hope in which Lucy was disappointed. Everything was prepared for +her reception, however--a sort of throne had been arranged for her, a +special chair near the fire, shaded by a little screen, and with a +little table placed close to it to hold her cup of tea. The room was all +in a ruddy blaze of firelight, the atmosphere delightful after the cold +air outside, and all the little party a little quiet, thinking that +every sound that was heard must be the stranger. + +"She must have been very tired," Lucy said sympathetically. + +"I dare say," said Lady Randolph, "she thinks a dinner dress will make a +better effect." + +Lucy looked towards her husband almost with indignation, with eyes that +asked why he did not defend his friend. But, to be sure, Sir Tom could +not judge of their expression in the firelight, and instead of defending +her he only laughed. "One general understands another's tactics," he +said. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII. + +THE VISITORS. + + +Sir Tom paid his wife a visit when she was in the midst of her toilette +for dinner. He came in, and looked at her dress with an air of +dissatisfaction. It was a white dress, of a kind which suited Lucy very +well, and which she was in the habit of wearing for small home parties, +at which full dress was unnecessary. He looked at her from head to +foot, and gave a little pull to her skirt with a doubtful air. "It +doesn't sit, does it?" he said; "can't you pin it, or something, to make +it come better?" + +This, it need not be said, was a foolish piece of ignorance on Sir Tom's +part, and as Miss Fletcher, Lucy's maid, thought, "just like a man." +Fletcher was for the moment not well-disposed towards Sir Tom. She +said--"Oh no, Sir Thomas, my lady don't hold with pins. Some ladies may +that are all for effect; but my lady, that is not her way." + +Sir Tom felt that these words inclosed a dart as sharp as any pin, and +directed at himself; but he took no notice. He walked round his wife, +eyeing her on every side; and then he gave a little pull to her hair as +he had done to her dress. "After all," he said, "it is some time since +you left school, Lucy. Why this simplicity? I want you to look your best +to-night." + +"But, dear Tom," said Lucy, "you always say that I am not to be +over-dressed." + +"I don't want you to be under-dressed; there is plenty of time. Don't +you think you might do a little more in the way of toilette? Put on some +lace or something; Fletcher will know. Look here, Fletcher, I want Lady +Randolph to look very well to-night. Don't you think this get-up would +stand improvement? I dare say you could do it with ribbons, or +something. We must not have her look like my grandchild, you know." + +Upon which Fletcher, somewhat mollified and murmuring that Sir Thomas +was a gentleman that would always have his joke, answered boldly that +_that_ was not how she would have dressed her lady had she had the doing +of it. "But I know my place," Fletcher said, "though to see my lady +like this always goes against me, Sir Thomas, and especially with +foreigners in the house that are always dressed up to the nines and +don't think of nothing else. But if Lady Randolph would wear her blue it +could all be done in five minutes, and look far nicer and more like the +lady of the house." + +This transfer was finally made, for Lucy had no small obstinacies and +was glad to please her husband. The "blue" was of the lightest tint of +shimmering silk, and gave a little background of colour, upon which +Lucy's fairness and whiteness stood out. Sir Thomas always took an +interest in his wife's dress; but it was seldom he occupied himself so +much about it. It was he who went to the conservatory to get a flower +for her hair. He took her downstairs upon his arm "as if they were out +visiting," Lucy said, instead of at home in their own house. She was +amused at all this form and ceremony, and came down to the drawing-room +with a little flush of pleasure and merriment about her, quite different +from the demure little Lady Randolph, half frightened and very serious, +with the weight on her mind of a strange language to be spoken, who but +for Sir Tom's intervention would have been standing by the fire awaiting +her visitor. The Dowager was downstairs before her, looking grave +enough, and Jock, slim and dark, supporting a corner of the mantelpiece, +like a young Caryatides in black. Lucy's brightness, her pretty shimmer +of blue, the flower in her hair, relieved these depressing influences. +She stood in the firelight with the ruddy irregular glare playing on +her, a pretty youthful figure; and her husband's assiduities, and the +entire cessation of any apparent consciousness on his part that any +question had ever arisen between them, made Lucy's heart light in her +breast. She forgot even the possibility of having to talk French in the +ease of her mind; and before she had time to remember her former alarm +there came gliding through the subdued light of the greater drawing-room +two figures. Sir Tom stepped forward to meet the stranger, who gave him +her hand as if she saw him for the first time, and Lucy advanced with a +little tremor. Here was the Contessa--the Forno-Populo--the foreign +great lady and great beauty at last. + +She was tall--almost as tall as Sir Tom--and had the majestic grace +which only height can give. She was clothed in dark velvet, which fell +in long folds to her feet, and her hair, which seemed very abundant, was +much dressed with puffs and curlings and frizzings, which filled Lucy +with wonder, but furnished a delicate frame-work for her beautiful, +clear, high features, and the wonderful tint of her complexion--a sort +of warm ivory, which made all brighter colours look excessive. Her eyes +were large and blue, with long but not very dark eyelashes; her throat +was like a slender column out of a close circle of feathery lace. Lucy, +who had a great deal of natural taste, felt on the moment a thrill of +shame on account of her blue gown, and an almost disgust of Lady +Randolph's old-fashioned openness about the shoulders. The stranger was +one of those women whose dress always impresses other women with such a +sense of fitness that fashion itself looks vulgar or insipid beside her. +She gave Sir Tom her left hand in passing, and then she turned with both +extended to Lucy. "So this is the little wife," she said. She did not +pause for the modest little word of welcome which Lucy had prepared. She +drew her into the light, and gazed at her with benignant but dauntless +inspection, taking in, Lucy felt sure, every particular of her +appearance--the something too much of the blue gown, the deficiency of +dignity, the insignificance of the smooth fair locks, and open if +somewhat anxious countenance. "_Bel enfant_," said the Contessa, "your +husband and I are such old friends that I cannot meet you as a stranger. +You must let me kiss you, and accept me as one of yours too." The +salutation that followed made Lucy's heart jump with mingled pleasure +and distaste. She was swallowed up altogether in that embrace. When it +was over, the lady turned from her to Sir Tom without another word. "I +congratulate you, _mon ami_. Candour itself, and sweetness, and every +English quality"--upon which she proceeded to seat herself in the chair +which Lucy had set for her in the afternoon with the screen and the +footstool. "How thoughtful some one has been for my comfort," she said, +sinking into it, and distributing a gracious smile all round. There was +something in the way in which she seized the central place in the scene, +and made all the others look like surroundings which bewildered Lucy, +who did nothing but gaze, forgetting everything she meant to say, and +even that it was she who was the mistress of the house. + +"You do not see my aunt, Contessa," said Sir Tom, "and yet I think you +ought to know each other." + +"Your aunt," said the Contessa, looking round, "that dear Lady +Randolph--who is now Dowager. Chere dame!" she added, half rising, +holding out again both hands. + +Lady Randolph the elder knew the world better than Lucy. She remained in +the background into which the Contessa was looking with eyes which she +called shortsighted. "How do you do, Madame di Forno-Populo!" she said. +"It is a long time since we met. We have both grown older since that +period. I hope you have recovered from your fatigue." + +The Contessa sank back again into her chair. "Ah, _both_, yes!" she +said, with an eloquent movement of her hands. At this Sir Tom gave vent +to a faint chuckle, as if he could not contain himself any longer. + +"The passage of time is a myth," he said; "it is a fable; it goes the +other way. To look at you----" + +"Both!" said the Contessa, with a soft, little laugh, spreading out her +beautiful hands. + +Lucy hoped that Lady Randolph, who had kept behind, did not hear this +last monosyllable, but she was angry with her husband for laughing, for +abandoning his aunt's side, upon which she herself, astonished, ranged +herself without delay. But what was still more surprising to Lucy, with +her old-fashioned politeness, was to see the second stranger who had +followed the Contessa into the room, but who had not been introduced or +noticed. She had the air of being very young--a dependent probably, and +looking for no attention--and with a little curtsey to the company, +withdrew to the other side of the table on which the lamp was standing. +Lucy had only time to see that there was a second figure, very slim and +slight, and that the light of the lamp seemed to reflect itself in the +soft oval of a youthful face as she passed behind it; but save for this +noiseless movement the young lady gave not the smallest sign of +existence, nor did any one notice her. And it was only when the summons +came to dinner, and when Lucy called forth the bashful Jock to offer his +awkward arm to Lady Randolph, that the unannounced and unconsidered +guest came fully into sight. + +"There are no more gentlemen, and I think we must go in together," Lucy +said. + +"It is a great honour for me," said the girl. She had a very slight +foreign accent, but she was not in the least shy. She came forward at +once with the utmost composure. Though she was a stranger and a +dependent without a name, she was a great deal more at her ease than +Lucy was, who was the mistress of everything. Lucy for her part was +considerably embarrassed. She looked at the girl, who smiled at her, not +without a little air of encouragement and almost patronage in return. + +"I have not heard your name," Lucy at last prevailed upon herself to +say, as they went through the long drawing-room together. "It is very +stupid of me; but I was occupied with Madame di Forno-Populo----" + +"You could not hear it, for it was never mentioned," said the girl. "The +Contessa does not think it worth while. I am at present in the cocoon. +If I am pretty enough when I am quite grown up, then she will tell my +name----" + +"Pretty enough? But what does that matter? one does not talk of such +things," said the decorous little matron, startled and alarmed. + +"Oh, it means everything to me," said the anonymous. "It is doubtful +what I shall be. If I am only a little pretty I shall be sent home; but +if it should happen to me--ah! no such luck!--to be beautiful, then the +Contessa will introduce me, and everybody says I may go far--farther, +indeed, than even she has ever done. Where am I to sit? Beside you?" + +"Here, please," said Lucy, trembling a little, and confounded by the +ease of this new actor on the scene, who spoke so frankly. She was +dressed in a little black frock up to her throat; her hair in great +shining bands coiled about her head, but not an ornament of any kind +about her. A little charity girl could not have been dressed more +plainly. But she showed no consciousness of this, nor, indeed, of +anything that was embarrassing. She looked round the table with a free +and fearless look. There was not about her any appearance of timidity, +even in respect to the Contessa. She included that lady in her +inspection as well as the others, and even made a momentary pause before +she sat down, to complete her survey. Lucy, who had on ordinary +occasions a great deal of gentle composure, and had sat with a Cabinet +Minister by her side without feeling afraid, was more disconcerted than +it would be easy to say by this young creature, of whom she did not know +the name. It was so small a party that a separate little conversation +with her neighbour was scarcely practicable, but the Contessa was +talking to Sir Tom with the confidential air of one who has a great deal +to say, and Lady Randolph on his other side was keeping a stern silence, +so that Lucy was glad to make a little attempt at her end of the table. + +"You must have had a very fatiguing journey?" she said. "Travelling by +night, when you are not used to it----" + +"But we are quite used to it," said the girl. "It is our usual way. By +land it is so much easier: and even at sea one goes to bed, and one is +at the other side before one knows." + +"Then you are a good sailor, I suppose----" + +"_Pas mal_," said the young lady. She began to look at Jock, and to +turn round from time to time to the elder Lady Randolph, who sat on the +other side of her. "They are not dumb, are they?" she asked. "Not once +have I heard them speak. That is very English, so like what one reads in +books." + +"You speak English very well, Mademoiselle," said the Dowager suddenly. + +The girl turned round and examined her with a candid surprise. "I am so +glad you do," she said calmly: a little _mot_ which brought the colour +to Lady Randolph's cheeks. + +"A pupil of the Contessa naturally knows a good many languages," she +said, "and would be little at a loss wherever she went. You have come +last from Florence, Rome, or perhaps some other capital. The Contessa +has friends everywhere--still." + +This last little syllable caught the Contessa's fine ear, though it was +not directed to her. She gave the Dowager a very gracious smile across +the table. "Still," she repeated, "everywhere! People are so kind. My +invitations are so many it was with difficulty I managed to accept that +of our excellent Tom. But I had made up my mind not to disappoint him +nor his dear young wife. I was not prepared for the pleasure of finding +your ladyship here." + +"How fortunate that you were able to manage it! I have been +complimenting Mademoiselle on her English. She does credit to her +instructors. Tell me, is this your first visit," Lady Randolph said, +turning to the young lady "to England?" Even in this innocent question +there was more than met the eye. The girl, however, had begun to make a +remark to Lucy, and thus evaded it in the most easy way. + +"I saw you come home soon after our arrival," she said. "I was at my +window. You came with--Monsieur----" She cast a glance at Jock as she +spoke, with a smile in her eyes that was not without its effect. There +was a little provocation in it, which an older man would have known how +to answer. But Jock, in the awkwardness of his youth, blushed fiery red, +and turned away his gaze, which, indeed, had been dwelling upon her with +an absorbed but shy attention. The boy had never seen anything at all +like her before. + +"My brother," said Lucy, and the young lady gave him a beaming smile and +bow which made Jock's head turn round. He did not know how to reply to +it, whether he ought not to get up to answer her salutation; and being +so uncertain and abashed and excited, he did nothing at all, but gazed +again with an absorption which was not uncomplimentary. She gave him +from time to time a little encouraging glance. + +"That was what I thought. You drive out always at that early hour in +England, and always with--Monsieur?" The girl laughed now, looking at +him, so that Jock longed to say something witty and clever. Oh, why was +not MTutor here? He would have known the sort of thing to say. + +"Oh not, not always with Jock," Lucy answered, with honest +matter-of-fact. "He is still at school, and we have him only for the +holidays. Perhaps you don't know what that means?" + +"The holidays? yes, I know. Monsieur, no doubt, is at one of the great +schools that are nowhere but in England, where they stay till they are +men." + +"We stay," said Jock, making an almost convulsive effort, "till we are +nineteen. We like to stay as long as we can." + +"How innocent," said the girl with a pretty elderly look of superiority +and patronage; and then she burst into a laugh, which neither Lucy nor +Jock knew how to take, and turned back again in the twinkling of an eye +to Lady Randolph, who had relapsed into silence. "And you drive in the +afternoon," she said. "I have already made my observations. And the baby +in the middle, between. And Sir Tom always. He goes out and he goes in, +and one sees him continually. I already know all the habits of the +house." + +"You were not so very tired, then, after all. Why did you not come down +stairs and join us in what we were doing?" + +The young lady did not make any articulate reply, but her answer was +clear enough. She cast a glance across the table to the Contessa, and +laid her hand upon her own cheek. Lucy was a little mystified by this +pantomime, but to Lady Randolph there was no difficulty about it. "That +is easily understood," she said, "when one is _sur le retour_. But the +same precautions are not necessary with all." + +A smile came upon the girl's lip. "I am sympathetic," she said. "Oh, +troppo! I feel just like those that I am with. It is sometimes a +trouble, and sometimes it is an advantage." This was to Lucy like the +utterance of an oracle, and she understood it not. + +"Another time," she said kindly, "you must not only observe us from the +window, but come down and share what we are doing. Jock will show you +the park and the grounds, and I will take you to the village. It is +quite a pretty village, and the cottages are very nice now." + +The young stranger's eyes blazed with intelligence. She seemed to +perceive everything at a glance. + +"I know the village," she said, "it is at the park gates, and Milady +takes a great deal of trouble that all is nice in the cottages. And +there is an old woman that knows all about the family, and tells legends +of it; and a school and a church, and many other _objets-de-piete_. I +know it like that," she cried, holding out the pretty pink palm of her +hand. + +"This information is preternatural," said Lady Randolph. "You are +astonished, Lucy. Mademoiselle is a sorceress. I am sure that Jock +thinks so. Nothing save an alliance with something diabolical could have +made her so well instructed, she who has never been in England before." + +"Do you ask how I know all that?" the girl said laughing. "Then I +answer, novels. It is all Herr Tauchnitz and his pretty books." + +"And so you really never were in England before--not even as a baby?" +Lady Randolph said. + +The girl's gaiety had attracted even the pair at the other end of the +table, who had so much to say to each other. The Contessa and Sir Tom +exchanged a look, which Lucy remarked with a little surprise, and +remarked in spite of herself: and the great lady interfered to help her +young dependent out. + +"How glad I am to give her that advantage, dear lady! It is the crown of +the petite's education. In England she finds the most fine manners, as +well as villages full of _objets-de-piete_. It is what is needful to +form her," the Contessa said. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX. + +THE OPENING OF THE DRAMA. + + +"Come and sit beside me and tell me everything," said the Contessa. She +had appropriated the little sofa next the fire where Lady Randolph +generally sat in the evening. She had taken Lucy's arm on the way from +the dining-room, and drew her with her to this corner. Nothing could be +more caressing or tender than her manner. She seemed to be conferring +the most delightful of favours as she drew towards her the mistress of +the house. "You have been married--how long? Six years! But it is +impossible! And you have all the freshness of a child. And very happy?" +she said smiling upon Lucy. She had not a fault in her pronunciation, +but when she uttered these two words she gave a little roll of the "r" +as if she meant to assume a defect which she had not, and smiled with a +tender benevolence in which there was the faintest touch of derision. +Lucy did not make out what it was, but she felt that something lay under +the dazzling of that smile. She allowed the stranger to draw her to the +sofa, and sat down by her. + +"Yes, it is six years," she said. + +"And ver--r--y happy?" the Contessa repeated. "I am sure that dear Tom +is a model husband. I have known him a very long time. Has he told you +about me?" + +"That you were an old friend," said Lucy, looking at her. "Oh yes! The +only thing is, that we are so much afraid you will find the country +dull." + +The Contessa replied only with an eloquent look and a pressure of the +hand. Her eyes were quite capable of expressing their meaning without +words; and Lucy felt that she had guessed her rightly. + +"We wished to have a party to meet you," Lucy said, "but the baby fell +ill--and I thought as you had kindly come so far to see Tom, you would +not mind if you found us alone." + +The lady still made no direct reply. She said after a little pause, + +"The country is very dull----" still smiling upon Lucy, and allowed a +full minute to pass without another word. Then she added, "And +Milady?--is she always with you?"--with a slight shrug of the shoulders. +She did not even lower her voice to prevent Lady Randolph from hearing, +but gave Lucy's hand a special pressure, and fixed upon her a +significant look. + +"Oh! Aunt Randolph?" cried Lucy. "Oh no; she is only paying her usual +Christmas visit." + +The Contessa drew a sigh of relief, and laid her other delicate hand +upon her breast. "You take a load off my heart," she said; then gliding +gracefully from the subject, "And that excellent Tom----? you met +him--in society?" + +Lucy did not quite like the questioning, or those emphatic pressures of +her hand. She said quickly, "We met at Lady Randolph's. I was living +there." + +"Oh--I see," the stranger said, and she gave vent to a little gentle +laugh. "I see!" Her meaning was entirely unknown to Lucy; but she felt +an indefinable offence. She made a slight effort to withdraw her hand; +but this the Contessa would not permit. She pressed the imprisoned +fingers more closely in her own. "You do not like this questioning. +Pardon! I had forgotten English ways. It is because I hope you will let +me be your friend too." + +"Oh yes," cried Lucy, ashamed of her own hesitation, yet feeling every +moment more reluctant. She subdued her rising distaste with an effort. +"I hope," she said, sweetly, "that we shall be able to make you feel at +home, Madame di Forno-Populo. If there is anything you do not like, will +you tell me? Had I been at home I should have chosen other rooms for +you." + +"They are so pretty, those words, 'at home!' so English," the Contessa +said, with smiles that were more and more sweet. "But it will fatigue +you to call me all that long name." + +"Oh no!" cried Lucy, with a vivid blush. She did not know what to say, +whether this meant a little derision of her careful pronunciation, or +what it was. She went on, after a little pause, "But if you are not +quite comfortable the other rooms can be got ready directly. It was the +housekeeper who thought the rooms you have would be the warmest." + +The Contessa gave her another gentle pressure of the hand. "Everything +is perfect," she said. "The house and the wife, and all. I may call you +Lucy? You are so fresh and young. How do you keep that pretty bloom +after six years--did you say six years? Ah! the English are always those +that wear best. You are not afraid of a great deal of light--no? but it +is trying sometimes. Shades are an advantage. And he has not spoken to +you of me, that dear Tom? There was a time when he talked much of +me--oh, much--constantly! He was young then--and," she said with a +little sigh--"so was I. He was perhaps not handsome, but he was +distinguished. Many Englishmen are so who have no beauty, no +handsomeness, as you say, and English women also, though that is more +rare. And you are ver-r-y happy?" the Contessa asked again. She said it +with a smile that was quite dazzling, but yet had just the faintest +touch of ridicule in it, and rippled over into a little laugh. "When we +know each other better I will betray all his little secrets to you," she +said. + +This was so very injudicious on the part of an old friend, that a wiser +person than Lucy would have divined some malign meaning in it. But Lucy, +though suppressing an instinctive distrust, took no notice, not even in +her thoughts. It was not necessary for her to divine or try to divine +what people meant; she took what they said, simply, without requiring +interpretation. "He has told me a great deal," she said. "I think I +almost know his journeys by heart." Then Lucy carried the war into the +enemy's country without realising what she was doing. "You will think it +very stupid of me," she said, "but I did not hear Mademoiselle,--the +young lady's name?" + +The Contessa's eyes dwelt meditatively upon Lucy: she patted her hand +and smiled upon her, as if every other subject was irrelevant. "And he +has taken you into society?" she said, continuing her examination. "How +delightful is that English domesticity. You go everywhere together?" She +had no appearance of having so much as heard Lucy's question. "And you +do not fear that he will find it dull in the country? You have the +confidence of being enough for him? How sweet for me to find the +happiness of my friend so assured. And now I shall share it for a +little. You will make us all happy. Dear child!" said the lady with +enthusiasm, drawing Lucy to her and kissing her forehead. Then she broke +into a pretty laugh. "You will work for your poor, and I, who am good +for nothing--I shall take out my _tapisserie_, and he will read to us +while we work. What a tableau!" cried the Contessa. "Domestic happiness, +which one only tastes in England. The Eden before the fall!" + +It was at this moment that the gentlemen, _i.e._ Sir Tom and Jock, +appeared out of the dining-room. They had not lingered long after the +ladies. Sir Tom had been somewhat glum after they left. His look of +amusement was not so lively. He said sententiously, not so much to Jock +as to himself, "That woman is bent on mischief," and got up and walked +about the room instead of taking his wine. Then he laughed and turned to +Jock, who was musing over his orange skins. "When you get a fellow into +your house that is not much good--I suppose it must happen +sometimes--that knows too much and puts the young ones up to tricks, +what do you do with him, most noble Captain? Come, you find out a lot of +things for yourselves, you boys. Tell me what you do." + +Jock was a little startled by this demand, but he rose to the occasion. +"It has happened," he said. "You know, unless a fellow's been awfully +bad, you can't always keep him out." + +"And what then?" said Sir Tom. "MTutor sets his great wits to work?" + +"I hope, sir," cried Jock, "that you don't think I would trouble MTutor, +who has enough on his hands without that. I made great friends with the +fellow myself. You know," said the lad, looking up with splendid +confidence, "he couldn't harm _me_----" + +Sir Tom looked at him with a little drawing of his breath, such as the +experienced sometimes feel as they look at the daring of the +innocent--but with a smile, too. + +"When he tried it on with me, I just kicked him," said Jock, calmly; +"once was enough; he didn't do it again; for naturally he stood a bit in +awe of me. Then I kept him that he hadn't a moment to himself. It was +the football half, when you've not got much time to spare all day. And +in the evenings he had poenas and things. When he got with two or three +of the others, one of us would just be loafing about, and call out +'Hallo, what's up?' He never had any time to go wrong, and then he got +to find out it didn't pay." + +"Philosopher! sage!" cried Sir Tom. "It is you that should teach us; +but, alas, my boy, have you never found out that even that last argument +fails to tell--and that they don't mind even if it doesn't pay?" + +He sighed as he spoke; then laughed out, and added, "I can at all events +try the first part of your programme. Come along and let's cry, Hallo! +what's up? It simplifies matters immensely, though," said Sir Tom, with +a serious face, "when you can kick the fellow you disapprove of in that +charming candid way. Guard the privilege; it is invaluable, Jock." + +"Well," said Jock, "some fellows think it's brutal, you know. MTutor he +always says try argument first. But I just want to know how are you to +do your duty, captain of a big house, unless it's known that you will +just kick 'em when they're beastly. When it's known, even _that_ does a +deal of good." + +"Every thing you say confirms my opinion of your sense," said Sir Tom, +taking the boy by the arm, "but also of your advantages, Jock, my boy. +We cannot act, you see, in that straightforward manner, more's the +pity, in the world; but I shall try the first part of your programme, +and act on your advice," he said, as they walked into the room where the +ladies were awaiting them. The smaller room looked very warm and bright +after the large, dimly-lighted one through which they had passed. The +Contessa, in her tender conference with Lucy, formed a charming group in +the middle of the picture. Lady Randolph sat by, exiled out of her usual +place, with an illustrated magazine in her hand, and an air of quick +watchfulness about her, opposite to them. She was looking on like a +spectator at a play. In the background behind the table, on which stood +a large lamp, was the Contessa's companion, with her back turned to the +rest, lightly flitting from picture to picture, examining everything. +She had been entirely careless of the action of the piece, but she +turned round at the voices of the new-comers, as if her attention was +aroused. + +"You are going to take somebody's advice?" said the Contessa. "That is +something new; come here at once and explain. To do so is due to +your--wife; yes, to your wife. An Englishman tells every thought to his +wife; is it not so? Oh yes, _mon ami_, your sweet little wife and I are +the best of friends. It is for life," she said, looking with +inexpressible sentiment in Lucy's face, and pressing her hands. Then, +was it possible? a flash of intelligence flew from her eyes to those of +Sir Tom, and she burst into a laugh and clapped her beautiful hands +together. "He is so ridiculous, he makes one laugh at everything," she +cried. + +Lucy remained very serious, with a somewhat forced smile upon her face, +between these two, looking from one to another. + +"Nay, if you have come the length of swearing eternal friendship----" +said Sir Tom. + +Jock did not know what to do with himself. He began by stumbling over +Lady Randolph's train, which though carefully coiled about her, was so +long and so substantial that it got in his way. In getting out of its +way he almost stumbled against the slim, straight figure of the girl, +who stood behind surveying the company. She met his awkward apology with +a smile. "It doesn't matter," she said, "I am so glad you are come. I +had nobody to talk to." Then she made a little pause, regarding him with +a bright, impartial look, as if weighing all his qualities. "Don't you +talk?" she said. "Do you prefer not to say anything? because I know how +to behave: I will not trouble you if it is so. In England there are some +who do not say anything?" she added with an inquiring look. Jock, who +was conscious of blushing all over from top to toe, ventured a glance at +her, to which she replied by a peal of laughter, very merry but very +subdued, in which, in spite of himself, he was obliged to join. + +"So you can laugh!" she said; "oh, that is well; for otherwise I should +not know how to live. We must laugh low, not to make any noise and +distract the old ones; but still, one must live. Tell me, you are the +brother of Madame--Should I say Milady? In my novels they never do, but +I do not know if the novels are just or not." + +"The servants say my lady, but no one else," said Jock. + +"How fine that is," the young lady said admiringly, "in a moment to have +it all put right. I am glad we came to England; we say mi-ladi and +mi-lord as if that was the name of every one here; but it is not so in +the books. You are, perhaps Sir? like Sir Tom--or you are----" + +"I am Trevor, that is all," said Jock with a blush; "I am nobody in +particular: that is, here"--he added with a momentary gleam of natural +importance. + +"Ah!" cried the young lady, "I understand--you are a great person at +home." + +Jock had no wish to deceive, but he could not prevent a smile from +creeping about the corners of his mouth. "Not a great person at all," he +said, not wishing to boast. + +The young stranger, who was so curious about all her new surroundings, +formed her own conclusion. She had been brought up in an atmosphere full +of much knowledge, but also of theories which were but partially +tenable. She interpreted Jock according to her own ideas, which were not +at all suited to his case; but it was impossible that she could know +that. + +"I am finding people out," she said to him. "You are the only one that +is young like me. Let us form an alliance--while the old ones are +working out all their plans and fighting it out among themselves." + +"Fighting it out! I know some that are not likely to fight," cried Jock, +bewildered. + +"Was not that right?" said the girl, distressed. "I thought it was an +_idiotisme_, as the French say. Ah! they are always fighting. Look at +them now! The Contessa, she is on the war-path. That is an American +word. I have a little of all languages. Madame, you will see--ah, that +is what you meant!--does not understand, she looks from one to another. +She is silent, but Sir Tom, he knows everything. And the old lady, she +sees it too. I have gone through so many dramas, I am blasee. It +wearies at last, but yet it is exciting too. I ask myself what is going +to be done here? You have heard perhaps of the Contessa in England, +Mr.----" + +"Trevor," said Jock. + +"And you pronounce it just like this--Mis-ter? I want to know; for +perhaps I shall have to stay here. There is not known very much about +me. Nor do I know myself. But if the Contessa finds for me---- I am quite +mad," said the girl suddenly. "I am telling you--and of course it is a +secret. The old lady watches the Contessa to see what it is she intends. +But I do not myself know what the Contessa intends--except in respect to +me." + +Jock was too shy to inquire what that was: and he was confused with this +unusual confidence. Young ladies had not been in the habit of opening to +him their secrets; indeed he had little experience of these kind of +creatures at all. She looked at him as she spoke as if she wished to +provoke him to inquiry--with a gaze that was very open and withal bold, +yet innocent too. And Jock, on his side, was as entirely innocent as if +he had been a Babe in the Wood. + +"Don't you want to know what she is going to do with me, and why she has +brought me?" the girl said, talking so quickly that he could scarcely +follow the stream of words. "I was not invited, and I am not introduced, +and no one knows anything of me. Don't you want to know why I am here?" + +Jock followed the movements of her lips, the little gestures of her +hands, which were almost as eloquent, with eyes that were confused by so +great a call upon them. He could not make any reply, but only gazed at +her, entranced, as he had never been in his life before, and so anxious +not to lose the hurried words, the quick flash of the small white hands +against her dark dress, that his mind had not time to make out what she +meant. + +Lucy on her side sat between her husband and the Contessa for some time, +listening to their conversation. That was more rapid, too, than she was +used to, and it was full of allusions, understood when they were +half-said by the others, which to her were all darkness. She tried to +follow them with a wistful sort of smile, a kind of painful homage to +the Contessa's soft laugh and the ready response of Sir Tom. She tried +too, to follow, and share the brightening interest of his face, the +amusement and eagerness of his listening; but by and by she got chilled, +she knew not how--the smile grew frozen upon her face, her comprehension +seemed to fail altogether. She got up softly after a while from her +corner of the sofa, and neither her husband nor her guest took any +particular notice. She came across the room to Lady Randolph, and drew a +low chair beside her, and asked her about the pictures in the magazine +which she was still holding in her hand. + + + + +CHAPTER XX. + +AN ANXIOUS CRITIC. + + +In a few days after the arrival of Madame di Forno-Populo, there was +almost an entire change of aspect at the Hall. Nobody could tell how +this change had come about. It was involuntary, unconscious, yet +complete. The Contessa came quietly into the foreground. She made no +demonstration of power, and claimed no sort of authority. She never +accosted the mistress of the house without tender words and caresses. +Her attitude towards Lucy, indeed, was that of an admiring relation to a +delightful and promising child. She could not sufficiently praise and +applaud her. When she spoke, her visitor turned towards her with the +most tender of smiles. In whatsoever way the Contessa was occupied, she +never failed when she heard Lucy's voice to turn round upon her, to +bestow this smile, to murmur a word of affectionate approval. When they +were near enough to each other, she would take her hand and press it +with affectionate emotion. The other members of the household, except +Sir Tom, she scarcely noticed at all. The Dowager Lady Randolph +exchanged with her now and then a few words of polite defiance, but that +was all. And she had not been long at the Hall before her position there +was more commanding than that of Lady Randolph. Insensibly all the +customs of the house changed for her. There was no question as to who +was the centre of conversation in the evening. Sir Tom went to the sofa +from which she had so cleverly ousted his aunt, as soon as he came in +after dinner, and leaning over her with his arm on the mantelpiece, or +drawing a chair beside her, would laugh and talk with endless spirit and +amusement. When he talked of the people in the neighbourhood who +afforded scope for satire, she would tap him with her fan and say, "Why +do I not see these originals? bring them to see me," to Lucy's wonder +and often dismay. "They would not amuse you at all," Sir Tom would +reply, upon which the lady would turn and call Lucy to her. "My little +angel! he pretends that it is he that is so clever, that he creates +these characters. We do not believe him, my Lucy, do we? Ask them, ask +them, _cara_, then we shall judge." + +In this way the house was filled evening after evening. A reign of +boundless hospitality seemed to have begun. The other affairs of the +house slipped aside, and to provide amusement for the Contessa became +the chief object of life. She had everybody brought to see her, from the +little magnates of Farafield to the Duchess herself, and the greatest +people in the county. The nursery, which had been so much, perhaps too +much, in the foreground, regulating the whole great household according +as little Tom was better or worse, was thrust altogether into the +shadow. If neglect was wholesome, then he had that advantage. Even his +mother could do no more than run furtively to him, as she did about a +hundred times a day in the intervals of her duties. His little mendings +and fallings back ceased to be the chief things in the house. His +father, indeed, would play with his child in the mornings when he was +brought to Lucy's room; but the burden of his remarks was to point out +to her how much better the little beggar got on when there was less fuss +made about him. And Lucy's one grievance against her visitor, the only +one which she permitted herself to perceive, was that she never took any +notice of little Tom. She never asked for him, a thing which was +unexampled in Lucy's experience. When he was produced she smiled, +indeed, but contemplated him at a distance. The utmost stretch of +kindness she had ever shown was to touch his cheek with a finger +delicately when he was carried past her. Lucy made theories in her mind +about this, feeling it necessary to account in some elaborate way for +what was so entirely out of nature. "I know what it must be--she must +have lost her own," she said to her husband. Sir Tom's countenance was +almost convulsed by one of those laughs, which he now found it expedient +to suppress, but he only replied that he had never heard of such an +event. "Ah! it must have been before you knew her; but she has never got +it out of her mind," Lucy cried. That hypothesis explained everything. +At this time it is scarcely necessary to say Lucy was with her whole +soul trying to be "very fond," as she expressed it, of the Contessa. +There were some things about her which startled young Lady Randolph. For +one thing, she would go out shooting with Sir Tom, and was as good a +shot as any of the gentlemen. This wounded Lucy terribly, and took her a +great effort to swallow. It went against all her traditions. With her +bourgeois education she hated sport, and even in her husband with +difficulty made up her mind to it; but that a woman should go forth and +slay was intolerable. + +There were other things besides which were a mystery to her. Lady +Randolph's invariably defiant attitude for one, and the curious aspect +of the Duchess when suddenly brought face to face with the stranger. It +appeared that they were old friends, which astonished Lucy, but not so +much as the great lady's bewildered look when Madame di Forno-Populo +went up to her. It seemed for a moment as if the shock was too much for +her. She stammered and shook through all her dignity and greatness, as +she exclaimed. "_You_! here?" in two distinct outcries, gazing appalled +into the smiling and beautiful face before her. But then the Duchess +came to, after a while. She seemed to get over her surprise, which was +more than surprise. All these things disturbed Lucy. She did not know +what to make of them. She was uneasy at the change that had been +wrought upon her own household, which she did not understand. Yet it was +all perfectly simple, she said to herself. It was Tom's duty to devote +himself to the stranger. It was the duty of both as hosts to procure for +her such amusement as was to be found. These were things of which Lucy +convinced herself by various half unconscious processes of argument. But +it was necessary to renew these arguments from time to time, to keep +possession of them in order to feel their force as she wished to do. She +said nothing to her husband on the subject, with an instinctive sense +that it would be very difficult to handle. And Sir Tom, too, avoided it. +But it was impossible to pursue the same reticence with Lady Randolph, +who now and then insisted on opening it up. When the end of her visit +arrived she sent for Lucy into her own room, to speak to her seriously. +She said-- + +"My dear, I am due to-morrow at the Maltravers', as you know. It is a +visit I like to pay, they are always so nice; but I cannot bear the +thought of going off, Lucy, to enjoy myself and leaving you alone." + +"Alone, Aunt Randolph!" cried Lucy, "when Tom is at home!" + +"Oh, Tom! I have no patience with Tom," cried the Dowager. "I think he +must be mad to let that woman come upon you so. Of course you know very +well, my dear, it is of her that I want to speak. In the country it does +not so much matter; but you must not let her identify herself with you, +Lucy, in town." + +"In town!" Lucy said with a little dismay; "but, dear Aunt Randolph, it +will be six weeks before we go to town; and, surely, long before +that----" She paused, and blushed with a sense of the inhospitality +involved in her words, which made Lucy ashamed of herself. + +"You think so?" said Lady Randolph, smiling somewhat grimly. "Well, we +shall see. For my part, I think she will find Park Lane a very desirable +situation, and if you do not take the greatest care---- But why should I +speak to you of taking care? Of course, if Tom wished it, you would take +in all Bohemia, and never say a word----" + +"Surely," said Lucy, looking with serene eyes in the elder lady's face, +"I do not know what you mean by Bohemia, Aunt Randolph; but if you think +it possible that I should object when Tom asks his friends----" + +"Oh--his friends! I have no patience with you, either the one or the +other," said the old lady. "When Sir Robert was living, do you think it +was he who invited _my_ guests? I should think not indeed! especially +the women. If that was to be the case, marriage would soon become an +impossibility. And is it possible, Lucy, is it possible that you, with +your good sense, can like all that petting and coaxing, and the way she +talks to you as if you were a child?" + +As a matter of fact Lucy had not been able to school herself into liking +it; but when the objection was stated so plainly, she coloured high with +a vexation and annoyance which were very grievous and hard to bear. It +seemed to her that it would be disloyal both to her husband and her +guest if she complained, and at the same time Lady Randolph's shot went +straight to the mark. She did her best to smile, but it was not a very +easy task. + +"You have always taught me, Aunt Randolph," she said with great +astuteness, "that I ought not to judge of the manners of strangers by +my own little rules--especially of foreigners," she added, with a sense +of her own cleverness which half comforted her amid other feelings not +agreeable. It was seldom that Lucy felt any sense of triumph in her own +powers. + +"Foreigners?" said Lady Randolph, with disdain. But then she stopped +short with a pause of indignation. "That woman," she said, which was the +only name she ever gave the visitor, "has some scheme in her head you +may be sure. I do not know what it is. It would not do her any good that +I can see to increase her hold upon Tom." + +"Upon Tom!" cried Lucy. It was her turn now to be indignant. "I don't +know what you mean, Aunt Randolph," she said. "I cannot think that you +want to make me--uncomfortable. There are some things I do not like in +Madame di Forno-Populo. She is--different; but she is my husband's +friend. If you mean that they will become still greater friends seeing +more of each other, that is natural. For why should you be friends at +all unless you like each other? And that Tom likes her must be just a +proof that I am wrong. It is my ignorance. Perhaps the wisest way would +be to say nothing more about it," young Lady Randolph concluded, +briskly, with a sudden smile. + +The Dowager looked at her as if she were some wonder in natural history, +the nature of which it was impossible to divine. She thought she knew +Lucy very well, but yet had never understood her, it being more +difficult for a woman of the world to understand absolute +straightforwardness and simplicity than it is even for the simple to +understand the worldly. She was silent for a moment and stared at Lucy, +not knowing what to make of her. At last she resumed as if going on +without interruption. "But she has some scheme in hand, perhaps in +respect to the girl. The girl is a very handsome creature, and might +make a hit if she were properly managed. My belief is that this has been +her scheme all through. But partly the presence of Tom--an old friend as +you say of her own--and partly the want of opportunity, has kept it in +abeyance. That is my idea, Lucy; you can take it for what it is worth. +And your home will be the headquarters, the centre from which the +adventuress will carry on----" + +"Aunt Randolph!" Lucy's voice was almost loud in the pain and +indignation that possessed her. She put out her hands as if to stop the +other's mouth. "You want to make me think she is a wicked woman," she +said. "And that Tom--Tom----" + +Lucy had never permitted suspicion to enter her mind. She did not know +now what it was that penetrated her innocent soul like an arrow. It was +not jealousy. It was the wounding suggestion of a possibility which she +would not and could not entertain. + +"Lucy, Tom has no excuse at all," said the Dowager solemnly. "You'll +believe nothing against him, of course, and I can't possibly wish to +turn you against him; but I don't suppose he meant all that is likely to +come out of it. He thought it would be a joke--and in the country what +could it matter? And then things have never gone so far as that people +could refuse to receive her, you know. Oh no! the Contessa has her wits +too much about her for that. But you saw for yourself that the Duchess +was petrified; and I--not that I am an authority, like her Grace. One +thing, Lucy, is quite clear, and that I must say; you must not take upon +yourself to be answerable--you so young as you are and not accustomed to +society--for _that_ woman, before the world. You must just take your +courage in both hands, and tell Tom that though you give in to him in +the country, in town you will not have her. She means to take advantage +of you, and bring forward her girl, and make a _grand coup_. That is +what she means--I know that sort of person. It is just the greatest luck +in the world for them to get hold of some one that is so unexceptionable +and so unsuspicious as you." + +Lady Randolph insisted upon saying all this, notwithstanding the +interruptions of Lucy. "Now I wash my hands of it," she said. "If you +won't be advised, I can do no more." It was the day after the great +dinner when the Duchess had met Madame di Forno-Populo with so much +surprise. The elder lady had been in much excitement all the evening. +She had conversed with her Grace apart on several occasions, and from +the way in which they laid their heads together, and their gestures, it +was clear enough that their feeling was the same upon the point they +discussed. All the best people in the county had been collected +together, and there could be no doubt that the Contessa had achieved a +great success. She sang as no woman had ever been heard to sing for a +hundred miles round, and her beauty and her grace and her diamonds had +been enough to turn the heads of both men and women. It was remarked +that the Duchess, though she received her with a gasp of astonishment, +was evidently very well acquainted with the fascinating foreign lady, +and though there was a little natural and national distrust of her at +first, as a person too remarkable, and who sang too well for the common +occasions of life, yet not to gaze at her, watch her, and admire, was +impossible. Lucy had been gratified with the success of her visitor. +Even though she was not sure that she was comfortable about her presence +there at all, she was pleased with the effect she produced. When the +Contessa sang there suddenly appeared out of the midst of the crowd a +slim, straight figure in a black gown, which instantly sat down at the +piano, played the accompaniments, and disappeared again without a word. +The spectators thronging round the piano saw that this was a girl, as +graceful and distinguished as the Contessa herself, who passed away +without a word, and disappeared when her office was accomplished, with a +smile on her face, but without lingering for a moment or speaking to any +one; which was a pretty bit of mystery too. + +All this had happened on the night before Lady Randolph's summons to +Lucy. It was in the air that the party at the Hall was to break up after +the great entertainment; the Dowager was going, as she had said, to the +Maltravers'; Jock was going back to school; and though no limit of +Madame di Forno-Populo's visit had been mentioned, still it was natural +that she should go when the other people did. She had been a fortnight +at the Hall. That is long for a visit at a country house where generally +people are coming and going continually. And Lucy had begun to look +forward to the time when once more she would be mistress of her own +house and actions, with all visitors and interruptions gone. She had +been looking forward to the happy old evenings, the days in which baby +should be set up again on his domestic throne. The idea that the +Contessa might not be going away, the suggestion that she might still be +there when it was time to make the yearly migration to town, chilled the +very blood in her veins. But it was a thought that she would not dwell +upon. She would not betray her feeling in this respect to any one. She +returned the kiss which old Lady Randolph bestowed upon her at the end +of their interview, very affectionately; for, though she did not always +agree with her, she was attached to the lady who had been so kind to her +when she was a friendless little girl. "Thank you, Aunt Randolph, for +telling me," she said very sweetly, though, indeed, she had no intention +of taking the Dowager's advice. Lady Randolph went off in the afternoon +of the next day, for it was a very short journey to the Maltravers', +where she was going. All the party came out into the hall to see her +away, the Contessa herself as well as the others. Nothing, indeed, could +be more cordial than the Contessa. She caught up a shawl and wound it +round her, elaborately defending herself against the cold, and came out +to the steps to share in the last farewells. + +When Lady Randolph was in the carriage with her maid by her side, and +her hot-water footstool under her feet, and the coachman waiting his +signal to drive away, she put out her hand amid her furs to Lucy. "Now +remember!" Lady Randolph said. It was almost as solemn as the mysterious +reminder of the dying king to the bishop. But unfortunately, what is +solemn in certain circumstances may be ludicrous in others. The party in +the Hall scarcely restrained its merriment till the carriage had driven +away. + +"What awful compact is this between you, Lucy?" Sir Tom said. "Has she +bound you by a vow to assassinate me in my sleep?" + +The Contessa unwound herself out of her shawl, and putting her arm +caressingly round Lucy, led her back to the drawing-room. "It has +something to do with me," she said. "Come and tell me all about it." +Lucy had been disconcerted by Lady Randolph's reminder. She was still +more disconcerted now. + +"It is--something Aunt Randolph wishes me to do in the spring, when we +go to town," she said. + +"Ah! I know what that is," said the Contessa. "They see that you are too +kind to your husband's friend. Milady would wish you to be more as she +herself is. I understand her very well. I understand them all, these +women. They cannot endure me. They see a meaning in everything I do. I +have not a meaning in everything I do," she added, with a pathetic look, +which went to Lucy's heart. + +"No, no, indeed you are mistaken. It was not that. I am sure you have no +meaning," said Lucy, vehement and confused. + +The Contessa read her innocent _distraite_ countenance like a book, as +she said--or at least she thought so. She linked her own delicate arm in +hers, and clasped Lucy's hand. "One day I will tell you why all these +ladies hate me, my little angel," she said. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI. + +AN UNEXPECTED ENCOUNTER. + + +In the meantime something had been going on behind-backs of which nobody +took much notice. It had been discovered long before this, in the +family, that the Contessa's young companion had a name like other +people--that is to say, a Christian name. She was called by the +Contessa, in the rare moments when she addressed her, Bice--that is to +say, according to English pronunciation, Beeshee (you would probably +call it Beetchee if you learned to speak Italian in England, but the +Contessa had the Tuscan tongue in a Roman mouth, according to the +proverb), which, as everybody knows, is the contraction of Beatrice. She +was called Miss Beachey in the household, a name which was received--by +the servants at least--as a quite proper and natural name; a great deal +more sensible than Forno-Populo. Her position, however, in the little +party was a quite peculiar one. The Contessa took her for granted in a +way which silenced all inquisitive researches. She gave no explanation +who she was, or what she was, or why she carried this girl about with +her. If she was related to herself, if she was a dependent, nobody knew; +her manner gave no clue at all to the mystery. It was very seldom that +the two had any conversation whatsoever in the presence of the others. +Now and then the Contessa would send the girl upon an errand, telling +her to bring something, with an absence of directions where to find it +that suggested the most absolute confidence in her young companion. When +the Contessa sang, Bice, as a matter of course, produced herself at the +right moment to play her accompaniments, and got herself out of the way, +noiselessly, instantly, the moment that duty was over. These +accompaniments were played with an exquisite skill and judgment, an +exact adaptation to the necessities of the voice, which could only have +been attained by much and severe study; but she never, save on these +occasions, was seen to look at a piano. For the greater part of the time +the girl was invisible. She appeared in the Contessa's train, always in +her closely-fitting, perfectly plain, black frock, without an ornament, +at luncheon and dinner, and was present all the evening in the +drawing-room. But for the rest of the day no one knew what became of +this young creature, who nevertheless was not shy, nor showed any +appearance of feeling herself out of place, or uncomfortable in her +strange position. She looked out upon them all with frank eyes, in which +it was evident there was no sort of mist, either of timidity or +ignorance, understanding everything that was said, even allusions which +puzzled Lucy; always intelligent and observant, though often with a +shade of that benevolent contempt which the young with difficulty +prevent themselves from feeling towards their elders. The littleness of +their jokes and their philosophies was evidently quite apparent to this +observer, who sat secure in the superiority of sixteen taking in +everything; for she took in everything, even when she was not doing the +elder people the honour of attending to what they were saying, with a +faculty which belongs to that age. Opinions were divided as to Bice's +beauty. The simpler members of the party, Lucy and Jock, admired her +least; but such a competent critic as Lady Randolph, who understood what +was effective, had a great opinion and even respect for her, as of one +whose capabilities were very great indeed, and who might "go far," as +she had herself said. As there was so much difference of opinion it is +only right that the reader should be able to judge, as much as is +possible, from a description. She was very slight and rather tall, with +a great deal of the Contessa's grace, moving lightly as if she scarcely +touched the ground, but like a bird rather than a cat. There was nothing +in her of the feline grace of which we hear so much. Her movements were +all direct and rapid; her feet seemed to skim, not to tread, the ground +with an airy poise, which even when she stood still implied movement, +always light, untiring, full of energy and impulse. Her eyes were +gray--if it is possible to call by the name of the dullest of tints +those two globes of light, now dark, now golden, now liquid with dew, +and now with flame. Her hair was dusky, of no particular colour, with a +crispness about the temples; but her complexion--ay, there was the rub. +Bice had no complexion at all. By times in the evening, in artificial +light, or when she was excited, there came a little flush to her cheeks, +which miraculously chased away the shadows from her paleness, and made +her radiant; but in daylight there could be no doubt that she was +sallow, sometimes almost olive, though with a soft velvety texture which +is more often seen on the dark-complexioned through all its gradations +than on any but the most delicate of white skins. A black baby has a +bloom upon its little dusky cheek like a purple peach, and this was the +quality which gave to Bice's sallowness a certain charm. Her hands and +arms were of the same indefinite tint--not white, whatever they might be +called. Her throat was slender and beautifully-formed, but shared the +same deficiency of colour. It is impossible to say how much disappointed +Lucy was in the young stranger's appearance after the first evening. She +had thought her very pretty, and she now thought her plain. To remember +what the girl had said of her chances if she turned out beautiful filled +her with a sort of pitying contempt. + +But the more experienced people were not of Lucy's opinion. They thought +well, on the contrary, of Bice's prospects. Lady Randolph, as has been +said, regarded her with a certain respectfulness. She was not offended +by the saucy speeches which the girl might now and then make. She went +so far as to say even that if introduced under other auspices than those +of the Contessa, there was no telling what such a girl might do. "But +the chances now are that she will end on the stage," Lady Randolph said. + +This strange girl unfolded herself very little in the family. When she +spoke, she spoke with the utmost frankness, and was afraid of nobody. +But in general she sat in the regions behind the table, with its big +lamp, and said little or nothing. The others would all be collected +about the fire, but Bice never approached the fire. Sometimes she read, +sitting motionless, till the others forgot her presence altogether. +Sometimes she worked at long strips of Berlin-wool work, the +_tapisserie_ to which, by moments, the Contessa would have recourse. But +she heard and saw everything, as has been said, whether she attended or +not, in the keenness of her youthful faculties. When the Contessa rose +to sing, she was at the piano without a word; and when anything was +wanted she gave an alert mute obedience to the lady who was her relation +or her patroness, nobody knew which, almost without being told what was +wanted. Except in this way, however, they seldom approached or said a +word to each other that any one saw. During the long morning, which the +Contessa spent in her room, appearing only at luncheon, Bice too was +invisible. Thus she lived the strangest life of retirement and +seclusion, such as a crushed dependent would find intolerable in the +midst of a family, but without the least appearance of anything but +enjoyment, and a perfect and dauntless freedom. + +Bice, however, had one confidant in the house, and this, as is natural, +was the very last person who would have seemed probable--it was Jock. +Jock, it need scarcely be said, had no tendency at all to the society +of girls. Deep as he was in MTutor's confidence, captain of his house, +used to live in a little male community, and to despise (not unkindly) +the rest of the world, it is not likely that he would care much for the +antagonistic creatures who invariably interfered, he thought, with talk +and enjoyment wherever they appeared. Making an exception in favour of +Lucy and an older person now and then, who had been soothing to him when +he was ill or out of sorts, Jock held that the feminine part of the +creation was a mistake, and to be avoided in every practicable way. He +had been startled by the young stranger's advances to him on the first +evening, and her claim of fellowship on the score that he was young like +herself. But when Bice first appeared suddenly in his way, far down in +the depths of the winterly park, the boy's impulse would have been, had +that been practicable, to turn and flee. She was skimming along, singing +to herself, leaping lightly over fallen branches and the inequalities of +the humid way, when he first perceived her; and Jock had a moment's +controversy with himself as to what he ought to do. If he took to flight +across the open park she would see him and understand the reason +why--besides, it would be cowardly to fly from a girl, an inferior +creature, who probably had lost her way, and would not know how to get +back again. This reflection made him withdraw a little deeper into the +covert, with the intention of keeping her in sight lest she should +wander astray altogether, but yet keeping out of the way, that he might +exercise this secret protecting charge of his, which Jock felt was his +natural attitude even to a girl without the embarrassment of her +society. He tried to persuade himself that she was a lower boy, of an +inferior kind no doubt, but yet possessing claims upon his care; for +MTutor had a great idea of influence, and had imprinted deeply upon the +minds of his leading pupils the importance of exercising it in the most +beneficial way for those who were under them. + +Jock accordingly stayed among the brushwood watching where she went. How +light she was! her feet scarcely made a dint upon the wet and spongy +grass, in which his own had sunk. She went over everything like a bird. +Now and then she would stop to gather a handful of brown rustling +brambles, and the stiff yellow oak leaves, and here and there a rusty +bough to which some rays of autumn colour still hung, which at first +Jock supposed to mean botany, and was semi-respectful of, until she took +off her hat and arranged them in it, when he was immediately +contemptuous, saying to himself that it was just like a girl. All the +same, it was interesting to watch her as she skipped and skimmed along +with an air of enjoyment and delight in her freedom, which it was +impossible not to sympathise with. She sang, not loudly, but almost +under her breath, for pure pleasure, it seemed, but sometimes would +break off and whistle, at which Jock was much shocked at first, but +gradually got reconciled to, it was so clear and sweet. After awhile, +however, he made an incautious step upon the brushwood, and the crashing +of the branches betrayed him. She stopped suddenly with her head to the +wind like a fine hound, and caught him with her keen eyes. Then there +occurred a little incident which had a very strange effect--an effect he +was too young to understand--upon Jock. She stood perfectly still, with +her face towards the bushes in which he was, her head thrown high, her +nostrils a little dilated, a flush of sudden energy and courage on her +face. She did not know who he was or what he wanted watching her from +behind the covert. He might be a tramp, a violent beggar, for anything +she knew. These things are more tragic where Bice came from, and it was +likely enough that she took him for a brigand. It was a quick sense of +alarm that sprang over her, stringing all her nerves, and bringing the +colour to her cheeks. She never flinched or attempted to flee, but stood +at bay, with a high valour and proud scorn of her pursuer. Her attitude, +the flush which made her fair in a moment, the expanded nostrils, the +fulness which her panting breath of alarm gave to her breast, made an +impression upon the boy which was ineffable and beyond words. It was his +first consciousness that there was something in the world--not boy, or +man, or sister, something which he did not understand, which feared yet +confronted him, startled but defiant. He too paused for a moment, gazing +at her, getting up his courage. Then he came slowly out from under the +shade of the bushes and went towards her. There were a few yards of the +open park to traverse before he reached her, so that he thought it +necessary to relieve her anxiety before they met. He called out to her, +"Don't be afraid, it is only me." For a moment more that fine poise +lasted, and then she clapped her hands with a peal of laughter that +seemed to fill the entire atmosphere and ring back from the clumps of +wintry wood. "Oh," she cried, "it is you!" Jock did not know whether to +be deeply affronted or to laugh too. + +"I----thought you might have lost your way," he said, knitting his brows +and looking as forbidding as he knew how, by way of correcting the +involuntary sentiment that had stolen into his boyish heart. + +"Then why did not you come to me?" she said, "is not that what you call +to spy--to watch when one does not know you are there?" + +Jock's countenance flushed at this word. "Spy! I never spied upon any +one. I thought perhaps you might not be able to get back--so I would not +go away out of reach." + +"I see," she cried, "you meant to be kind but not friendly. Do I say it +right? Why will not you be friendly? I have so many things I want to +say, and no one, no one! to say them to. What harm would it do if you +came out from yourself, and talked with me a little? You are too young +to make it any--inconvenience," the girl said. She laughed a little and +blushed a little as she said this, eyeing him all the time with frank, +open eyes. "I am sixteen; how old are you?" she added, with a quick +breath. + +"Sixteen past," said Jock, with a little emphasis, to show his +superiority in age as well as in other things. + +"Sixteen in a boy means no more than nine or so," she said, with a light +disdain, "so you need not have any fear. Oh, come and talk! I have a +hundred and more of things to say. It is all so strange. How would you +like to plunge in a new world like the sea, and never say what you think +of it, or ask any questions, or tell when it makes you laugh or cry?" + +"I should not mind much. I should neither laugh nor cry. It is only +girls that do," said Jock, somewhat contemptuous too. + +"Well! But then I am a girl. I cannot change my nature to please you," +she said. "Sometimes I think I should have liked better to be a boy, for +you have not to do the things we have to do--but then when I saw how +awkward you were, and how clumsy, and not good for anything"--she +pointed these very plain remarks with a laugh between each and a look at +Jock, by which she very plainly applied what she said. He did not know +at all how to take this. The instinct of a gentleman to betray no angry +feeling towards a girl, who was at the same time a lady, contrasted in +him with the instinct of a child, scarcely yet aware of the distinctions +of sex, to fight fairly for itself; but the former prevailed. And then +it was scarcely possible to resist the contagion of the laugh which the +damp air seemed to hold suspended, and bring back in curls and wreaths +of pleasant sound. So Jock commanded himself and replied with an +effort-- + +"We are just as good for things that we care about as you--but not for +girls' things," he added, with another little fling of the mutual +contempt which they felt for each other. Then after a pause: "I suppose +we may as well go home, for it is getting late; and when it is dark you +would be sure to lose your way----" + +"Do you think so?" she said. "Then I will come, for I do not like to be +lost. What should you do if we were lost? Build me a hut to take shelter +in? or take off your coat to keep me warm and then go and look for the +nearest village? That is what happens in some of the Contessa's old +books--but, ah, not in the Tauchnitz now. But it would be nonsense, of +course, for there are the red chimneys of the Hall staring us in the +face, so how could we be lost?" + +"When it is dark," said Jock, "you can't see the red always; and then +you go rambling and wandering about, and hit yourself against the trees, +and get up to the ankles in the wet grass and--don't like it at all." +He laughed himself a little, with a laugh that was somewhat like a growl +at his own abrupt conclusion, to which Bice responded cordially. + +"How nice it is to laugh," she said, "it gets the air into your lungs +and then you can breathe. It is to breathe I want--large--a whole world +full," she cried, throwing out her arms and opening her mouth. "Because +you know the rooms are small here, and there is so much furniture, the +windows closed with curtains, the floors all hot with carpets. Do they +shut you up as if in a box at night, with the shutters shut and all so +dark? They do me. But as soon as they are gone I open. I like far better +our rooms with big walls, and marble that is cool, and large, large +windows that you can lie and look out at, when you wake, all painted +upon the sky." + +"I should think," said Jock, with the impulse of contradiction, "they +would not be at all comfortable----" + +"Comfortable," she cried in high disdain, "does one want to be +comfortable? One wants to live, and feel the air, and everything that is +round." + +"That's what we do at school," said Jock, waking up to a sense of the +affinities as he had already done to the diversities between them. + +"Tell me about school," she cried, with a pretty imperious air; and +Jock, who never desired any better, obeyed. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII. + +A PAIR OF FRIENDS. + + +After this it came to be a very common occurrence that Jock and Bice +should meet in the afternoon. He for one thing had lost his +companionship with Lucy, and had been straying forth forlorn not knowing +what to do with himself, taking long walks which he did not care for, +and longing for the intellectual companionship of MTutor, or even of the +other fellows who, if not intellectual, at least were acquainted with +the same things, and accustomed to the same occupations as himself. It +worked in him a tremor and commotion of a kind in which he was wholly +inexperienced, when he saw the slim figure of the girl approaching him, +through the paths of the shrubberies, or across the glades of the park. +He said to himself once or twice, "What a bore;" but those words did not +express his feelings. It was not a bore, it was something very +different. He could not explain the mingled reluctance and pleasure of +his own mood, the little tumult that arose in him when he saw her. He +wanted to turn his back and rush away, and yet he wanted to be there +waiting for her, seeing her approach step by step. He had no notion what +his own mingled sentiments meant. But Bice to all appearance had neither +the reluctance nor the excitement. She came running to her playmate +whenever she saw him with frank satisfaction. "I was looking for you," +she would say, "Let us go out into the park where nobody can see us. +Run, or some one will be coming," and then she would fly over stock and +stone, summoning him after her. There were many occasions when Jock did +not approve, but he always followed her, though with internal +grumblings, in which he indulged consciously, making out his own +annoyance to be very great. "Why can't she let me alone?" he said to +himself; but when it occurred that Bice did leave him alone, and made no +appearance, his sense of injury was almost bitter. On such occasions he +said cutting things within himself, and was very satirical as to the +stupidity of girls who were afraid to wet their feet, and estimated the +danger of catching a cold as greater than any natural advantage. For +Jock had all that instinctive hostility to womankind, which is natural +to the male bosom, except perhaps at one varying period of life. They +had no place in the economy of his existence at school, and he knew +nothing of them nor wanted to know. But Bice, though, when he was +annoyed with her, she became to him the typical girl, the epitome of +offending woman, had at other times a very different position. It +stirred his entire being, he did not know how, when she roamed with him +about the woods talking of everything, from a point of view which was +certainly different from Jock's. Occasionally, even, he did not +understand her any more than if she had been speaking a foreign +language. She had never any difficulty in penetrating his meaning as he +had in penetrating hers, but there were times when she did not +understand him any more than he understood her. She was by far the +easiest in morals, the least Puritanical. It was not easy to shock Bice, +but it was not at all difficult to shock Jock, brought up as he was in +the highest sentiments under the wing of MTutor, who believed in moral +influence. But the fashion of the intercourse held between these two, +was very remarkable in its way. They were like brother and sister, +without being brother and sister. They were strangers to each other, yet +living in the most entire intimacy, and likely to be parted for ever +to-morrow. They were of the same age, yet the girl was, in experience of +life, a world in advance of the boy, who, notwithstanding, had the +better of her in a thousand ways. In short, they were a paradox, such as +youth, more or less, is always, and the careless close companionship +that grew up between them was at once the most natural and the most +strange alliance. They told each other everything by degrees, without +being at all aware of the nature of their mutual confidence; Bice +revealing to Jock the conditions on which she was to be brought out in +England, and Jock to Bice the unusual features of his own and his +sister's position, to the unbounded astonishment and scepticism of each. + +"Beautiful?" said Jock, drawing a long breath. "But beautiful's not a +thing you can go in for, like an exam: You're born so, or you're born +not so; and you know you're not--I mean, you know you're---- Well, it +isn't your fault. Are you going to be sent away for just being--not +pretty?" + +"I told you," said the girl, with a little impatience. "Being pretty is +of no consequence. I am pretty, of course," she added regretfully. "But +it is only if I turn out beautiful that she will take the trouble. And +at sixteen, I am told, one cannot yet know." + +"But--" cried Jock with a sort of consternation, "you don't mind, do +you? I don't mean anything unkind, you know; I don't think it +matters--and I am sure it isn't your fault; you are not +even--good-looking," candour compelled the boy to say, as to an honest +comrade with whom sincerity was best. + +"Ah!" cried Bice, with a little excitement. "Do you think so? Then +perhaps there is more hope." + +Jock was confounded by this utterance, and he began to feel that he had +been uncivil. "I don't mean," he said, "that you are not--I mean that it +is not of the least consequence. What does it matter? I am sure you are +clever, which is far better. I think you could get up anything faster +than most fellows if you were to try." + +"Get up! What does that mean? And when I tell you that it does matter to +me--oh much,--very much!" she cried. "When you are beautiful, everything +is before you--you marry, you have whatever you wish, you become a great +lady; only to be pretty--that does nothing for you. Ugly, however," said +the girl reflectively; "if I am ugly, then there is some hope." + +"I did not say that," cried Jock, shocked at the suggestion. "I wouldn't +be so uncivil. You are--just like other people," he added encouragingly, +"not much either one way or another--like the rest of us," Jock said, +with the intention of soothing her ruffled feelings. At sixteen decorum +is not always the first thing we think of; and though Bice was not an +English girl, she was very young. She threw out a vigorous arm and +pushed him from her, so that the astonished critic, stumbling over some +fallen branches, measured his length upon the dewy sod. + +"That was not I," she said demurely, as he picked himself up in great +surprise--drawing a step away, and looking at him with wide-open eyes, +to which the little fright of seeing him fall, and the spark of malice +that took pleasure in it, had given sudden brilliancy. Jock was so much +astonished that he uttered no reproach, but went on by her side, after a +moment, pondering. He could not see how any offence could have lurked +in the encouraging and consolatory words he had said. + +But when they reached the other chapter, which concerned his fortunes, +Bice was not more understanding. Her gray eyes absolutely flamed upon +him when he told her of his father's will, and the conditions upon which +Lucy's inheritance was held. "To give her money away! But that is +impossible--it would be to prove one's self mad," the girl said. + +"Why? You forget it's my father you're speaking of. He was not mad, he +was just," said Jock, reddening. "What's mad in it? You've got a great +fortune--far more than you want. It all came out of other people's +pockets somehow. Oh, of course, not in a dishonest way. That is the +worst of speaking to a girl that doesn't understand political economy +and the laws of production. Of course it must come out of other people's +pockets. If I sell anything and get a profit (and nobody would sell +anything if they didn't get a profit), of course that comes out of your +pocket. Well, now, I've got a great deal more than I want, and I say you +shall have some of it back." + +"And I say," cried Bice, making him a curtsey, "Merci Monsieur! Grazia +Signor! oh thank you, thank you very much--as much as you like, sir, as +much as you like! but all the same I think you are mad. Your money! all +that makes you happy and great----" + +"Money," said Jock, loftily, "makes nobody happy. It may make you +comfortable. It gives you fine houses, horses and carriages, and all +that sort of thing. So it will do to the other people to whom it goes; +so it is wisdom to divide it, for the more good you can get out of it +the better. Lucy has money lying in the bank--or somewhere--that she +does not want, that does her no good; and there is some one else" (a +fellow I know, Jock added in a parenthesis), "who has not got enough to +live upon. So you see she just hands over what she doesn't want to him, +and that's better for both. So far from being mad, it's"--Jock paused +for a word--"it's philosophy, it's wisdom, it's statesmanship. It is +just the grandest way that was ever invented for putting things +straight." + +Bice looked at him with a sort of incredulous cynical gaze--as if asking +whether he meant her to believe this fiction--whether perhaps he was +such a fool as to think that she could be persuaded to believe it. It +was evident that she did not for a moment suppose him to be serious. She +laughed at last in ridicule and scorn. "You think," she said, "I know so +little. Ah, I know a great deal more than that. What are you without +money? You are nobody. The more you have, so much more have you +everything at your command. Without money you are nobody. Yes, you may +be a prince or an English milord, but that is nothing without money. Oh +yes! I have known princes that had nothing and the people laughed at +them. And a milord who is poor--the very donkey-boys scorn him. You can +do nothing without money," the girl said with almost fierce derision, +"and you tell me you will give it away!" She laughed again angrily, as +if such a brag was offensive and insulting to her own poverty. The boy +who had never in his life known what it was to want anything that money +could procure for him, treated the whole question lightly, and +undervalued its importance altogether. But the girl who knew by +experience what was involved in the want of it, heard with a sort of +wondering fury this slighting treatment of what was to her the +universal panacea. Her cynicism and satirical unbelief grew into +indignation. "And you tell me it is wise to give it away!" + +"Lucy has got to do it, whether it is wise or not," said Jock, almost +overawed by this high moral disapproval. "We went to the lawyer about it +the day you came. He is settling it now. She is giving away--well, a +good many thousand pounds." + +"Pounds are more than francs, eh?" said Bice quickly. + +"More than francs! just twenty-five times more," cried Jock, proud of +his knowledge, "a thousand pounds is----" + +"Then I don't believe you!" cried the girl in an outburst of passion, +and she fled from him across the park, catching up her dress and running +at a pace which even Jock with his long legs knew he could not keep up +with. He gazed with surprise, standing still and watching her with the +words arrested on his lips. "But she can't keep it up long like that," +after a moment Jock said. + +The time, however, approached when the two friends had to part. Jock +left the Hall a few days after Lady Randolph, and he was somehow not +very glad to go. The family life had been less cheerful lately, and +conversation languished when the domestic party were alone together. +When the Contessa was present she kept up the ball, maintaining at least +with Sir Tom an always animated and lively strain of talk; but at +breakfast there was not much said, and of late a little restraint had +crept even between the master and mistress of the house, no one could +tell how. The names of the guests were scarcely mentioned between them. +Sir Tom was very attentive and kind to his wife, but he was more silent +than he used to be, reading his letters and his newspapers. Lucy had +been quite satisfied when he said, though it must be allowed with a +laugh not devoid of embarrassment, that it was more important he should +master all the papers and see how public opinion was running, now when +it was so near the opening of Parliament. But a little veil of silence +had fallen over Lucy too. It cost her an effort to speak even to Jock of +common subjects and of his going away. She had thought him looking a +little disturbed, however, on the last morning, and with the newspaper +forming a sort of screen between them and Sir Tom, Lucy made an attempt +to talk to her brother as of old. + +"I shall miss you very much, Jock. We have not had so much time together +as we thought." + +"We have had no time together, Lucy." + +"You must not say that, dear. Don't you recollect that drive to +Farafield? We have not had so many walks, it is true; but then I have +been--occupied." + +"Is it ever finished yet, that business?" Jock said suddenly. + +It was all Lucy could do not to give him a warning look. "I have had +some letters about it. A thing cannot be finished in a minute like +that." Instinctively she spoke low to escape her husband's ear; he had +never referred to the subject, and she avoided it religiously. It gave +her a thrill of alarm to have it thus reintroduced. To escape it, she +said, raising her voice a little: "The Contessa's letters have not been +sent to her. You must ring the bell, Jock. There are a great many for +her." The name of the Contessa always moved Sir Tom to a certain +attention. He seemed to be on the alert for what might be said of her. +He looked round the corner of the paper with a short laugh, and said, +jocularly, with mock gravity-- + +"It is a great thing to keep up your correspondence, Lucy. You never can +know when it may prove serviceable. If it had not been for that, she +most likely never would have come here." + +Lucy smiled, though with a little restraint. "Perhaps she is sorry now," +she said, "for it must be dull." Then she hurriedly changed the subject, +afraid lest she might seem ill-natured. "Poor Miss Bice has never any +letters," she said; "she must have very few friends." + +"Oh, she has nobody at all," said Jock, "She hasn't got a relation. She +has always lived like this, in different places; and never been to +school, or--anywhere; though she has been nearly round the world." + +"Poor little thing! and she is fond of children too," said Lucy. "I +found her one day with baby on her shoulder, a wet day when he could not +get out, racing up and down the long gallery with him crowing and +laughing. It was so pretty to see him----" + +"Or to see her, Lucy, most people would say," said Sir Tom, interrupting +again. + +"Would they? Oh, yes. But I thought naturally of baby," said the young +mother. Then she made a pause and added softly, "I hope--they--are +always kind to her." + +There was a little silence. Sir Tom was behind his newspaper. He +listened, but he did not say anything, and Jock was not aware that he +was listening. + +"Oh, I don't think she minds," said Jock. "She is rather jolly when you +come to know her. I say, Lucy, it will be awfully dull for her, you +know, when----" + +"When what, Jock?" + +"When I am gone," the boy intended to have said, but some gleam of +consciousness came over him that made him pause. He did not say this, +but grew a little red in the effort to think of something else that he +could say. + +"Well, I mean here," he said, "for she hasn't been used to it. She has +been in places where there was always music playing and that sort of +thing. She never was in the country. There's plenty of books, to be +sure; but she's not very fond of reading. Few people, are, I think. +_You_ never open a book----" + +"Oh yes, Jock! I read the books from Mudie's," Lucy said, with some +spirit, "and I always send them upstairs." + +Jock had it on his lips to say something derogatory of the books from +Mudie's; but he checked himself, for he remembered to have seen MTutor +with one of those frivolous volumes, and he refrained from snubbing +Lucy. "I believe she can't read," he said. "She can do nothing but laugh +at one. And she thinks she's pretty," he added, with a little laugh yet +sense of unfaithfulness to the trust reposed in him, which once more +covered his face with crimson. + +Lucy laughed too, with hesitation and doubt. "I cannot see it," she +said, "but that is what Lady Randolph thought. It is strange that she +should talk of such things; but people are very funny who have been +brought up abroad." + +"All girls are like that," said Jock, authoritatively. "They think so +much of being pretty. But I tell her it doesn't matter. What difference +could it make? Nobody will suppose it was her fault. She says----" + +"Hallo, young man," said Sir Tom. "It is time you went back to school, I +think. What would MTutor say to all these confidences with young +ladies, and knowledge of their ways!" + +Jock gave his brother-in-law a look, in which defiant virtue struggled +with a certain consciousness; but he scorned to make any reply. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII. + +THE BREAKFAST TABLE. + + +Lucy found her life much changed when Jock had gone, and she was left +alone to face the change of circumstances which had tacitly taken place. +The Contessa said not a word of terminating her visit. The departure of +Lady Randolph apparently suggested nothing to her. She could scarcely +have filled up the foreground more entirely than she did before--but she +was now uncriticised, unremarked upon. There seemed even to be no +appropriation of more than her due, for it was very natural that a +person of experience and powers of conversation like hers should take +the leading place, and simple Lucy, so much younger and with so much +less acquaintance with the world, fall into the background. And +accordingly this was what happened. Madame di Forno-Populo knew +everybody. She had a hundred mutual acquaintances to tell Sir Tom about, +and they seemed to have an old habit of intercourse, which by this time +had been fully resumed. The evenings were the time when this was most +apparent. Then the Contessa was at her brightest. She had managed to +introduce shades upon all the lamps, so as to diffuse round her a +softened artificial illumination such as is favourable to beauty that +has passed its prime: and in this ruddy gloom she sat half seen, Sir Tom +sometimes standing by her, sometimes permitted to take the other corner +of her sofa--and talked to him, sometimes sinking her voice low as her +reminiscences took some special vein, sometimes calling sweetly to her +pretty Lucy to listen to this or that. These extensions of confidence, +generally, were brought in to make up for a long stretch of more private +communications, and the aspect of the little domestic circle was on such +occasions curious enough. By the table, in a low chair, with the full +light of the lamp upon her, sat Lucy, generally with some work in her +hands; she did not read or write (exercises to which, to tell the truth, +she was not much addicted) out of politeness, lest she should seem to be +withdrawing her attention from her guest, but sat there with her slight +occupation, so as to be open to any appeal, and ready if she were +wanted. On the other side of the table, the light making a sort of +screen and division between them, sat Bice, generally with a book before +her, which, as has been said, did not at all interfere with her power of +giving a vivid attention to what was going on around her. These two said +nothing to each other, and were often silent for the whole evening, like +pieces of still life. Bice sat with her book upon the table, so that +only the open page and the hands that held the book were within the +brightness of the light, which on the other side streamed down upon +Lucy's fair shoulders and soft young face, and upon the work in her +hands. In the corner was the light continuous murmur of talk; the +half-seen figure of the Contessa, generally leaning back, looking up to +Sir Tom, who stood with his arm on the mantelpiece with much animation, +gesticulation of her hands and subdued laughter, the most lively +current of sound, soft, intensified by little eloquent breaks, by +emphatic gestures, by sentences left incomplete, but understood all the +better for being half said. There were many evenings in which Lucy sat +there with a little wonder, but no other active feeling in her mind. It +is needless to say that it was not pleasant to her. She would sit and +wonder wistfully whether her husband had forgotten she was there, but +then reminded herself that of course it was his duty to think of the +Contessa first, and consoled herself that by and by the stranger would +go away, and all would be as it had been. As time went on, the desire +that this should happen, and longing to have possession of her home +again, grew so strong that she could scarcely subdue it, and it was with +the greatest difficulty that she kept all expression of it from her +lips. And by and by, the warmth of this restrained desire so absorbed +Lucy that she scarcely dared allow herself to speak lest it should burst +forth, and there seemed to herself to be continually going on in her +mind a calculation of the chances, a scrutiny of everything the Contessa +said which seemed to point at such a movement. But, indeed, the Contessa +said very little upon which the most sanguine could build. She said +nothing of her arrangements at all, nor spoke of what she was going to +do, and answered none of Lucy's ardent and innocent fishings after +information. The evenings became more and more intolerable to Lady +Randolph as they went on. She was glad that anybody should come, however +little she might care for their society, to break these private +conferences up. + +And this was not all, nor even perhaps the worst, of the vague evils not +yet defined in her mind, and which she was so very reluctant to define, +which Lucy had to go through. At breakfast, when she was alone with her +husband, matters were almost worse. Sir Tom, it was evident, began to +feel the _tete-a-tete_ embarrassing. He did not know what to say to his +little wife when they were alone. The presence of the Dowager and Jock +had freed him from any necessity of explanation, had kept him in his +usual easy way; but now that Lucy alone sat opposite to him, he was more +silent than his wont, and with no longer any of the little flow of +simple observations which had once been so delightful to her. Sir Tom +was more uneasy than if she had been a stern and jealous Eleanor, a +clear-sighted critic seeing through and through him. The contest was so +unequal, and the weaker creature so destitute of any intention or +thought of resistance, that he felt himself a coward and traitor for +thus deserting her and overclouding her home and her life. Then he took +to asking himself, Did he overcloud her? Was she sensible of any +difference? Did she know enough to know that this was not how she ought +to be treated, or was she not quite contented with her secondary place? +Such a simple creature, would she not cry--would she not show her anger +if she was conscious of anything to be grieved or angry about? He took +refuge in those newspapers which, he gave out, it was so necessary he +should study, to understand the mind of the country before the opening +of Parliament. And thus they would sit, Lucy dutifully filling out the +tea, taking care that he had the dish he liked for breakfast, swallowing +her own with difficulty yet lingering over it, always thinking that +perhaps Tom might have something to say. While he, on the other hand, +kept behind his newspaper, feeling himself guilty, conscious that +another sort of woman would make one of those "scenes" which men dread, +yet despising Lucy a little in spite of himself for the very quality he +most admired in her, and wondering if she were really capable of feeling +at all. Sometimes little Tom would be brought downstairs to roll about +the carpet and try his unsteady little limbs in a series of clutches at +the chairs and table; and on these occasions the meal was got through +more easily. But little Tom was not always well enough to come +downstairs, and sometimes Lucy thought that her husband might have +something to say to her which the baby's all-engrossing presence +hindered. Thus it came about that the hours in which the Contessa was +present and in the front of everything, were really less painful than +those in which the pair were alone with the shadow of the intruder, more +powerful even than her presence holding them apart. + +One of these mornings, however, Lucy's anticipations and hopes seemed +about to be realised. Sir Tom laid down his paper, looked at her frankly +without any shield, and said, as she had so often imagined him saying, +"I want to talk to you, Lucy." How glad she was that little Tom was not +downstairs that morning! + +She looked at him across the table with a brightening countenance, and +said, "Yes, Tom!" with such warm eagerness and sudden pleasure that her +look penetrated his very heart. It implied a great deal more than Sir +Tom intended and thought, and he was a man of very quick intelligence. +The expectation in her eyes touched him beyond a thousand complaints. + +"I had an interview yesterday, in which you were much concerned," he +said; then made a pause, with such a revolution going on within him as +seldom happens in a mature and self-collected mind. He had begun with +totally different sentiments from those which suddenly came over him at +the sight of her kindling face. When he said, "I want to talk to you, +Lucy," he had meant to speak of her interview with Mr. Rushton, to point +out to her the folly of what she was doing, and to show her how it was +that he should be compelled to do everything that was in his power to +oppose her. He did not mean to go to the root of the matter, as he had +done before, when he was obliged to admit to himself that he had +failed--but to address himself to the secondary view of the question, to +the small prospect there was of doing any good. But when he caught her +eager, questioning look, her eyes growing liquid and bright with +emotion, her face full of restrained anxiety and hope, Sir Tom's heart +smote him. What did she think he was going to say? Not anything about +money, important as that subject was in their life--but something far +more important, something that touched her to the quick, a revelation +upon which her very soul hung. He was startled beyond measure by this +disclosure. He had thought she did not feel, and that her heart +unawakened had regarded calmly, with no pain to speak of, the new state +of affairs of which he himself was guiltily conscious; but that eager +look put an end in a moment to his delusion. He paused and swerved +mentally as if an angel had suddenly stepped into his way. + +"It is about--that will of your father's," he said. + +Lucy, gazing at him with such hope and expectation, suddenly sank, as it +were, prostrate in the depth of a disappointment that almost took the +life out of her. She did not indeed fall physically or faint, which +people seldom do in moments of extreme mental suffering. It was only her +countenance that fell. Her brightening, beaming, hopeful face grew +blank in a moment, her eyes grew utterly dim, a kind of mist running +over them: a sound--half a sob, half a sigh, came from her breast. She +put up her hand trembling to support her head, which shook too with the +quiver that went over her. It took her at least a minute to get over the +shock of the disappointment. Then commanding herself painfully, but +without looking at him, which, indeed, she dared not do, she said again, +"Yes, Tom?" with a piteous quiver of her lip. + +It did not make Sir Tom any the less kind, and full of tender impulses, +that he was wounding his wife in the profoundest sensibilities of her +heart. In this point the greater does not include the lesser. He was +cruel in the more important matter, without intending it indeed, and +from what he considered a fatality, a painful combination of +circumstances out of which he could not escape; but in the lesser +particulars he was as kind as ever. He could not bear to see her +suffering. The quiver in her lip, the failure of the colour in her +cheeks affected him so that he could scarcely contain himself. + +"My dear love," he cried, "my little Lucy! you are not afraid of what I +am going to say to you?" These words came to his lips naturally, by the +affectionate impulse of his kind nature. But when he had said them, an +impulse, which was perhaps more crafty than loving, followed. Quick as +thought he changed his intention, his purpose altogether. He could not +resist the appeal of Lucy's face; but he slipped instinctively from the +more serious question that lay between them, and resolved to sacrifice +the other, which was indeed very important, yet could be treated in an +easier way and without involving anything more painful. Sir Tom was at +an age when money has a great value, and the mere sense of possession is +pleasant; and there was a principle involved which he had determined a +few weeks ago not to relinquish. But the position in which he found +himself placed was one out of which some way of escape had to be +invented at once. "Lucy," he said, "you are frightened; you think I am +going to cross you in the matter that lies so near your heart. But you +mistake me, my dear. I think I ought to be your chief adviser in that as +in all matters. It is my duty: but I hope you never thought that I would +exercise any force upon you to put a stop to--what you thought right." + +Lucy had overcome herself, though with a painful effort. She followed +with a quivering humility what he was saying. She acknowledged to +herself that this was, indeed, the great thing in her life, and that it +was only her childishness and foolishness which had made her place other +matters in the chief place. Most likely, she said to herself, Tom was +not aware of anything that required explanation; he would never think it +possible that she could be so ungracious and unkind as to grudge his +guests their place in his house. She gathered herself up hastily to meet +him when he entered upon the great question which was far more +important, which was indeed the only question between them. "I know," +she said, "that you were always kind, Tom. If I did not ask you first it +was because----" + +"We need not enter upon that, my dear. I was angry, and went too far. At +the same time, Lucy, it is a mad affair altogether. Your father himself, +had he realised the difficulty of carrying it out, would have seen this. +I only say so to let you know my opinion is unchanged. And you know +your trustees are of the same mind. But if you think this is your duty, +as I am sure you do----" + +It seemed to Lucy that her duty had sailed far away from her on some sea +of strange distance and dullness where she could scarcely keep it in +sight. Her own very voice seemed strange and dull to her and far away, +as she said almost mechanically: "I do think it is my duty--to my +father----" + +"I am aware that you think so, my love. As you get older you will, +perhaps, see as I do--that to carry out the spirit of your father's will +would be better than to follow so closely the letter of it. But you are +still very young, and Jock is younger; and, fortunately, you can afford +to indulge a freak of this sort. I shall let Mr. Rushton know that I +withdraw all opposition. And now, give me a kiss, and let us forget that +there ever was any controversy between us--it never went further than a +controversy, did it, darling?" Sir Tom said. + +Lucy could not speak for the moment. She looked up into his face with +her eyes all liquid with tears, and a great confusion in her soul. Was +this all? as he kissed her, and smiled, leaning over her in the old kind +way, with a tenderness that was half-fatherly and indulgent to her +weakness, she did not seem at all sure what it was that had moved like a +ghost between him and her; was it in reality only this--this and no +more? She almost thought so as she looked up into his kind face. Only +this! How glad it would have made her three weeks ago to have his +sanction for the thing she was so reluctant to attempt, which it was so +much her duty to do, which Jock urged with so much pertinacity, and +which her father from his grave enjoined. If it affected her but dully +now, whose was the fault? Not Tom's, who was so generously ready to +yield to her, although he disapproved. When he retired behind his +newspaper once more with a kind smile at her, to end the matter, Lucy +sat quite still in a curious stunned confusion trying to account for it +all to herself. There could be no doubt, she thought, that it was she +who was in the wrong. She it was who had created the embarrassment +altogether. He was not even aware of any other cause. It had never +occurred to his greater mind that she could be so petty as to fret under +the interruption which their visitors had made in her life. He had +thought that the other matter was the cause of her dullness and silence, +and generously had put an end to it, not by requiring any sacrifice from +her, but by making one in his own person. She sat silent trying to +realise all this, but unable to get quite free from the confusion and +dimness that had invaded her soul. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV. + +THE ORACLE SPEAKS. + + +Lucy went up to the nursery when breakfast was over. It was her habit to +go and take counsel of little Tom when her heart was troubled or heavy. +He was now eighteen months old, an age at which you will say the +judicial faculties are small; but a young mother has superstitions, and +there are many dilemmas in life in which it will do a woman, though the +male critic may laugh, great good to go and confide it all to her baby, +and hold that little bundle of white against her heart to conquer the +pain of it. When little Tom was lively and well, when he put his arms +about her neck and dabbed his velvety mouth against her cheek, Lucy felt +that she was approved of and her heart rose. When he was cross and cried +and pushed her away from him, as sometimes happened, she ceased to be +sure of anything, and felt dissatisfied with herself and all the world. +It was with a great longing to consult this baby oracle and see what +heaven might have to say to her through his means, that she ran +upstairs, neglecting even Mrs. Freshwater, who advanced ceremoniously +from her own retirement with her bill of fare in her hand, as Lucy +darted past. "Wait a little and I will come to you," she cried. What was +the dinner in comparison? She flew up to the nursery only to find it +vacant. The morning was clingy and damp, no weather for the delicate +child to go out, and Lucy was not alarmed but knew well enough where to +find him. The long picture gallery which ran along the front of the +house was his usual promenade on such occasions, and there she betook +herself hurriedly. There could not be much doubt as to little Tom's +whereabouts. Shrieks of baby fun were audible whenever she came within +hearing, and the sound of a flying foot careering from end to end of the +long space, which certainly was not the foot of Tom's nurse, whose voice +could be heard in cries of caution, "Oh, take care, Miss! Oh, for +goodness sake--oh, what will my lady say to me if you should trip with +him!" Lucy paused suddenly, checked by the sound of this commotion. Once +before she had surprised a scene of the kind, and she knew what it +meant. She stopped short, and stood still to get possession of herself. +It was a circumstance which pulled her up sharply and changed the +current of her mind. Her first feeling was one of disappointment and +almost irritation. Could she not even have the baby to herself, she +murmured? But there was in reality so little of the petty in Lucy's +disposition that this was but a momentary sentiment. It changed, +however, the manner of her entrance. She came in quietly, not rushing to +seize her boy as she had intended, but still with her superstition +strong in her heart, and as determined to resort to the _Sortes Tomianae_ +as ever. The sight she saw was one to make a picture of. Skimming along +the long gallery with that free light step which scarcely seemed to +touch the ground was Bice, a long stream of hair flying behind her, the +child seated on her shoulder, supported by one raised arm, while the +other held aloft the end of a red scarf which she had twisted round him. +Little Tom had one hand twisted in her hair, and with his small feet +beating upon her breast, and his little chest expanded with cries of +delight, encouraged his steed in her wild career. The dark old pictures, +some full-length Randolphs of an elder age, good for little but a +background, threw up this airy group with all the perfection of +contrast. They flew by as Lucy came in, so joyous, so careless, so +delightful in pose and movement, that she could not utter the little cry +of alarm that came to her lips. Bice had never in her life looked so +near that beauty which she considered as so serious a necessity. She was +flushed with the movement, her fine light figure, too light and slight +as yet for the full perfection of feminine form, was the very +impersonation of youth. She flew, she did not glide nor run--her elastic +foot spurned the floor. She was like a runner in a Greek game. Lucy +stood breathless between admiration and pleasure and alarm, as the +animated figure turned and came fast towards her in its airy career. +Little Tom perceived his mother as they came up. He was still more +daring than his bearer. He detached himself suddenly from Bice's +shoulder, and with a shout of pleasure threw himself upon Lucy. The +oracle had spoken. It almost brought her to her knees indeed, descending +upon her like a little thunderbolt, catching her round the throat and +tearing off with a hurried clutch the lace upon her dress; while the +flying steed, suddenly arrested, came to a dead stop in front of her, +panting, blushing, and disconcerted. "There was no fear," she cried, +with involuntary self-defence, "I held him fast." Bice forgot even in +the surprise how wildly she stood with her hair floating, and the scarf +in her hand still knotted round the baby's waist. + +"There was no danger, my lady. I was watching every step; and it do +Master Tom a world of good," cried the nurse, coming to the rescue. + +"Why should you think I am afraid?" said Lucy. "Don't you know I am most +grateful to you for being so kind to him? and it was pretty to see you. +You looked so bright and strong, and my boy so happy." + +"Miss is just our salvation, my lady," said the nurse; "these wet days +when we can't get out, I don't know what I should do without her. Master +Tom, bless him, is always cross when he don't get no air; but once set +on Miss' shoulder he crows till it do your heart good to hear him," the +woman cried. + +Bice stood with the colour still in her face, her head thrown back a +little, and her breath coming less quickly. She laughed at this +applause. "I like it," she said. "I like him; he is my only little +companion. He is pleased when he sees me." + +This went to Lucy's heart. "And so are we all," she said; "but you will +not let me see you. I am often alone, too. If you will come and--and +give me your company----" + +Bice gave her a wistful look; then shook her head. + +"I know you do not wish for us here; and why should you?" she said. + +"My dear!" cried Lucy in alarm, with a glance at the woman who stood by, +all ears. And now it was that little Tom at eighteen months showed that +precocious judgment in which his mother had an instinctive belief. He +had satisfied himself with the destruction of Lucy's lace, and with +printing the impression of his mouth all over her cheeks. That little +wet wide open mouth was delicious to Lucy. No trouble had befallen her +yet that could not be wiped out by its touch. But now a new distraction +was necessary for the little hero; and his eye caught the red sash which +still was round his waist. He transferred all his thoughts to it with an +instant revolution of idea, and holding on by it like a little sailor on +a rope, drew Bice close till he could succeed in the arduous task, not +unattended by danger, of flinging himself from one to another. This game +enchanted Master Tom. Had he been a little older it would have been +changed into that daring faltering hop from one eminence, say a +footstool, to another, which flutters the baby soul. He was too insecure +in possession of those aimless little legs to venture on any such daring +feat now; but, with a valour more desperate still, he flung himself +across the gulf from Lucy's arms to those of Bice and back again, with +cries of delight. These cries, it must be allowed, were not very +articulate, but they soon became urgent, with a demand which the little +tyrant insisted upon with increasing vehemence. + +"Oh, my lady," cried the nurse, "it is as plain as if he said it, and he +is saying of it, the pet, as pretty!---- He wants you to kiss Miss, he +do. Ain't that it, my own? Nursey knows his little talk. Ain't that it, +my darling lamb?" + +There was a momentary pause in the strange little group linked together +by the baby's clutches. The young mother and the girl with their heads +so near each other, looked in each other's faces. In Lucy's there was a +kind of awe, in Bice's a sort of wondering wistfulness mingled with +incipient defiance. They were not born to be each other's friends. They +were different in everything; they were even on different sides in this +house--the one an intruder, belonging to the party which was destroying +the other's domestic peace. It would be vain to say that there was not a +little reluctance in Lucy's soul as she gazed at the younger girl, come +from she knew not where, established under her roof she knew not how. +She hesitated for one moment, then she bent forward almost with +solemnity and kissed Bice's cheek. She seemed to communicate her own +agitation to the girl who stood straight up with her head a little back, +half eager, half defiant. When Bice felt the touch of Lucy's lips, +however, she melted in a moment. Her slight figure swayed, she took +Lucy's disengaged hand with her own, and, stooping over it, kissed it +with lips that quivered. There was not a word said between them; but a +secret compact was thus made under little Tom's inspiration. The little +oracle clambered up upon his mother afterwards, and laid down his head +upon her shoulder and dropped off to sleep with that entire confiding +and abandonment of the whole little being which is one of the deepest +charms of childhood. Who is there with any semblance of a heart in his, +much more her, bosom, who is not touched in the tenderest part when a +child goes to sleep in his arms? The appeal conveyed in the act is one +which scarcely a savage could withstand. The three women gathered round +to see this common spectacle, so universal, so touching. Bice, who was +almost too young for the maternal sentiment, and who was a stern young +Stoic by nature, never shedding a tear, could not tell how it was that +her eyes moistened. But Lucy's filled with an emotion which was sharp +and sore with alarm. "Oh, nurse, don't call my boy a little angel!" she +said, with a sentiment which a woman will understand. + +This baby scene upstairs was balanced by one of a very different +character below. Sir Tom had gone into his own room a little disturbed +and out of sorts. Circumstances had been hard upon him, he felt. The +Contessa's letter offering her visit had been a jest to him. He was one +of those who thought the best of the Contessa. He had seen a good deal +of her one time and another in his life, and she held the clue to one or +two matters which it would not have pleased him, at this mature period +of his existence, to have published abroad. She was an adventuress, he +knew, and her friends were not among the best of humanity. She had led a +life which, without being positively evil, had shut her out from the +sympathies of many good people. When a woman has to solve the problem +how to obtain all the luxuries and amusements of life without money, it +is to be expected that her attempts to do so should lead her into risky +places, where the footing was far from sure. But she had never, as Lady +Randolph acknowledged, gone so far as that society should refuse to +receive her, and Sir Tom was always an indulgent critic. If she were +coming to England, as she gave him to understand, he saw no reason why +she should not come to the Hall. For himself, it would be rather amusing +than otherwise, and Lucy would take no harm--even if there was harm in +the Forno-Populo (which he did not believe), his wife was far too +innocent even to suspect it. She would not know evil if she saw it, he +said to himself proudly; and then there was no chance that the Contessa, +who loved merriment and gaiety, could long be content with anything so +humdrum as his quiet life in the country. Thus it will be seen that Sir +Tom had got himself innocently enough into this imbroglio. He had meant +no particular harm. He had meant to be kind to a poor woman, who after +all needed kindness much; and if the comic character of the situation +touched his sense of humour, and he was not unwilling in his own person +to get a little amusement out of it, who could blame him? This was the +worst that Sir Tom meant. To amuse himself partly by the sight of the +conventional beauty and woman of the world in the midst of circumstances +so incongruous, and partly by the fluttering of the dovecotes which the +appearance of such an adventuress would cause. He liked her conversation +too, and to hear all about the more noisy company, full of talk and +diversion in which he had wasted so much of his youth. But there were +two or three things which Sir Tom did not take into his calculations. +The first was the sort of fascination which that talk, and all the +associations of the old world, and the charms of the professional +sorceress, would exercise upon himself after his settling down as the +head of a family and pillar of the State. He had not thought how much +amused he would be, how the contrast even would tickle his fancy and +affect (for the moment) his life. He laughed within himself at the +transparent way in which his old friend bade for his sympathy and +society. She was the same as ever, living upon admiration, upon +compliments whether fictitious or not, and demanding a show of devotion, +somebody always at her feet. She thought, no doubt, he said to himself, +that she had got him at her feet, and he laughed to himself when he was +alone at the thought. But, nevertheless, it did amuse him to talk to the +Contessa, and before long, what with skilful reminders of the past, what +with hints and reference to a knowledge which he would not like extended +to the world, he had begun by degrees to find himself in a confidential +position with her. "We know each other's secrets," she would say to him +with a meaning look. He was caught in her snare. On the other hand an +indefinite visit prolonged and endless had never come within his +calculation. He did not know how to put an end to the situation--perhaps +as it was an amusement for his evenings to see the siren spread her +snares, and even to be more or less caught in them, he did not sincerely +wish to put an end to it as yet. He was caught in them more or less, but +never so much as to be unaware of the skill with which the snares were +laid, which would have amused him whatever had been the seriousness of +the attendant circumstances. He did not, however, allow that he had no +desire to make an end of these circumstances, but only said to himself, +with a shrug of his shoulders, how could he do it? He could not send his +old friend away. He could not but be civil and attentive to her so long +as she was under his roof. It distressed him that Lucy should feel it, +as this morning's experience proved her to do, but how could he help it? +He made that other sacrifice to Lucy by way of reconciling her to the +inevitable, but he could do no more. When you invite a friend to be your +guest, he said to himself, you must be more or less at the mercy of that +friend. If he (or she) stays too long, what can you do? Sir Tom was not +the sort of man to be reduced to helplessness by such a difficulty. Yet +this was what he said to himself. + +It vexed him, however, that Lucy should feel it so much. He could not +throw off this uneasy feeling. He had stopped her mouth as one might +stop a child's mouth with a sugar plum; but he could not escape from the +consciousness that Lucy felt her domain invaded, and that her feeling +was just. He had thrown himself into the great chair, and was pondering +not what to do, but the impossibility of doing anything, when Williams, +his confidential man, who knew all about the Contessa almost as well as +he did, suddenly appeared before him. Williams had been all over the +world with Sir Tom before he settled down as his butler at the Hall. He +was, therefore, not one who could be dismissed summarily if he +interfered in any matter out of his sphere. He appeared on the other +side of Sir Tom's writing-table with a face as long as his arm, the face +with which Sir Tom was so well acquainted--the same face with which he +had a hundred times announced the failure of supplies, the delay of +carriages, the general hopelessness of the situation. There was tragedy +in it of the most solemn kind, but there was a certain enjoyment too. + +"What is the matter?" said Sir Tom; and then he jumped to his feet. +"Something is wrong with the baby," he cried. + +"No, Sir Thomas; Mr. Randolph is pretty well, thank you, Sir Thomas. It +is about something else that I made so bold. There is Antonio, sir, in +the servants' hall; Madame the Countess' man." + +"Oh, the Countess," cried Sir Tom, and he seated himself again; then +said, with the confidence of a man to the follower who has been his +companion in many straits, "You gave me a fright, Williams. I thought +that little shaver---- But what's the matter with Antonio? Can't you keep +a fellow like that in order without bothering me?" + +"Sir Thomas," said Williams, solemnly, "I am not one as troubles my +master when things are straightforward. But them foreigners, you never +know when you have 'em. And an idle man about an establishment, that is, +so to speak, under nobody, and for ever a-kicking of his heels, and +following the women servants about, and not a blessed hand's turn to +do"--a tone of personal offence came into Williams' complaint; "there is +a deal to do in this house," he added, "and neither me nor any of the +men haven't got a moment to spare. Why, there's your hunting things, Sir +Thomas, is just a man's work. And to see that fellow loafing, and +a-hanging on about the women--I don't wonder, Sir Thomas, that it's more +than any man can stand," said Williams, lighting up. He was a married +man himself, with a very respectable family in the village, but he was +not too old to be able to understand the feelings of John and Charles, +whose hearts were lacerated by the success of the Italian fellow with +his black eyes. + +"Well, well, don't worry me," said Sir Tom, "take him by the collar and +give him a shake. You're big enough." Then he laughed unfeelingly, which +Williams did not expect. "Too big, eh, Will? Not so ready for a shindy +as we used to be." This identification of himself with his factotum was +mere irony, and Williams felt it; for Sir Tom, if perhaps less slim than +in his young days, was still what Williams called a "fine figger of a +man;" whereas the butler had widened much round the waist, and was apt +to puff as he came upstairs, and no longer contemplated a shindy as a +possibility at all. + +"Sir Thomas," he said, with great gravity, "if I'm corpulent, which I +don't deny, but never thought to have it made a reproach, it's neither +over-feeding nor want of care, but constitootion, as derived from my +parents, Sir Thomas. There is nothing," he added with a pensive +superiority, "as is so gen'rally misunderstood." Then Williams drew +himself up to still greater dignity, stimulated by Sir Tom's laugh. "If +this fellow is to be long in the house, Sir Thomas, I won't answer for +what may happen; for he's got the devil's own temper, like all of them, +and carries a knife like all of them." + +"What do you want of me, man? Say it out! Am I to represent to Madame di +Forno-Populo that three great hulking fellows of you are afraid of her +slim Neapolitan?" Sir Tom cried impatiently. + +"Not afraid, Sir Thomas, of nothing, but of breaking the law," said +Williams, quickly. Then he added in an insinuating tone: "But I tell +them, ladies don't stop long in country visits, not at this time of the +year. And a thing can be put up with for short that any man'd kick at +for long. Madame the Countess will be moving on to pay her other visits, +Sir Thomas, if I might make so bold? She is a lady as likes variety; +leastways she was so in the old times." + +Sir Thomas stared at the bold questioner, who thus went to the heart of +the matter. Then he burst into a hearty laugh. "If you knew so much +about Madame the Countess," he cried, "my good fellow, what need have +you to come and consult me?" + + + + +CHAPTER XXV. + +THE CONTESSA'S BOUDOIR. + + +The east rooms in which Madame di Forno-Populo had been placed on her +arrival at the Hall were handsome and comfortable, though they were not +the best in the house, and they were furnished as English rooms +generally are, the bed forming the principal object in each chamber. The +Contessa had looked around her in dismay when first ushered into the +spacious room with its huge couch, and wardrobes, and its unmistakable +destination as a sleeping-room merely: and it was only the addition of a +dressing-room of tolerable proportions which had made her quarters so +agreeable to her as they proved. The transformation of this room from a +severe male dressing-room into the boudoir of a fanciful and luxurious +woman, was a work of art of which neither the master nor the mistress of +the house had the faintest conception. The Contessa was never at home; +so that she was--having that regard for her own comfort which is one of +the leading features in such a life as hers--everywhere at home, +carrying about with her wherever she went the materials for creating an +individual centre (a _chez soi_, which is something far more intimate +and personal than a home), in which everything was arranged according to +her fancy. Had Lucy, or even had Sir Tom, who knew more about such +matters, penetrated into that sacred retirement, they would not have +recognised it for a room in their own house. Out of one of the +Contessa's boxes there came a paraphernalia of decoration such as would +turn the head of the aesthetic furnisher of the present day. As she had +been everywhere, and had "taste," when it was not so usual to have taste +as it is now, she had "picked up" priceless articles, in the shape of +tapestries, embroideries, silken tissues no longer made, delicate bits +of Eastern carpet, soft falling drapery of curtains, such as +artistically arranged in almost any room, impressed upon it the +Contessa's individuality, and made something dainty and luxurious among +the meanest surroundings. The Contessa's maid, from long practice, had +become almost an artist in the arrangement of these properties, without +which her mistress could not live; and on the evening of the first day +of their arrival at the Hall, when Madame di Forno-Populo emerged from +the darkness of the chamber in which she had rested all day after her +journey, she stepped into a little paradise of subdued colour and +harmonious effect. Antonio and Marietta were the authors of these +wonders. They took down Mrs. Freshwater's curtains, which were of a +solid character adapted to the locality, and replaced them by draperies +that veiled the light tenderly and hung with studied grace. They took +to pieces the small bed and made a divan covered with old brocade of the +prosaic English mattress. They brought the finest of the furniture out +of the bedchamber to add to the contents of this, and covered tables +with Italian work, and veiled the bare wall with tapestry. This made +such a magical change that the maids who penetrated by chance now and +then into this little temple of the Graces could only stand aghast and +gaze with open mouths; but no profane hand of theirs was ever permitted +to touch those sacred things. There were even pictures on the wall, +evolved out of the depths of that great coffer, which, more dear to the +Contessa even than her wardrobe, went about with her everywhere--and +precious pieces of porcelain: Madame di Forno-Populo, it need not be +said, being quite above the mean and cheap decoration made with fans or +unmeaning scraps of colour. The maids aforesaid, who obtained perilous +and breathless glimpses from time to time of all these wonders, were at +a loss to understand why so much trouble should be taken for a room that +nobody but its inmate ever saw. The finer intelligence of the reader +will no doubt set it down as something in the Contessa's favour that she +could not live, even when in the strictest privacy, without her pretty +things about her. To be sure it was not always so; in other regions, +where other habits prevailed, this shrine so artistically prepared was +open to worshippers; but the Contessa knew better than to make any such +innovation here. She intended, indeed, nothing that was not entirely +consistent with the strictest propriety. Her objects, no doubt, were her +own interest and her own pleasure, which are more or less the objects of +most people; but she intended no harm. She believed that she had a hold +over Sir Tom which she could work for her advantage, but she did not +mean to hurt Lucy. She thought that repose and a temporary absence from +the usual scenes of her existence would be of use to her, and she +thought also that a campaign in London under the warrant of the highest +respectability would further her grand object. It amused her besides, +perhaps, to flutter the susceptibilities of the innocent little +_ingenue_ whom Sir Tom had married; but she meant no harm. As for +seizing upon Sir Tom in the evenings, and occupying all his attention, +that was the most natural and simple of proceedings. She did this as +another woman played bezique. Some entertainment was a necessity, and +everybody had something. There were people who insisted upon whist--she +insisted only upon "some one to talk to." What could be more natural? +The Contessa's "some one" had to be a man and one who could pay with +sense and spirit the homage to which she was accustomed. It was her only +stipulation--and surely it must be an ungracious hostess indeed who +could object to that. + +She had just finished her breakfast on one of those gray +mornings--seated before the fire in an easy-chair, which was covered +with a shawl of soft but bright Indian colouring. She had her back to +the light, but it was scarcely necessary even had there been any eyes to +see her save those of Marietta, who naturally was familiar with her +aspect at all times. Marietta made the Contessa's chocolate, as well as +arranged and kept in order the Contessa's boudoir. To such a retainer +nothing comes amiss. She would sit up till all hours, and perform +marvels of waiting, of working, service of every kind. It never occurred +to her that it "was not her place" to do anything that her mistress +required. Antonio was her brother, which was insipid, but she generally +managed to indemnify herself, one way or another, for the loss of this +legitimate method of flirtation. She had not great wages, and she had a +great deal of work, but Marietta felt her life amusing, and did not +object to it. Here in England the excitement indeed flagged a little. +Williams was stout and married, and the other men had ties of the heart +with which, as has been seen, Antonio ruthlessly interfered. Marietta +was not unwilling to give to Charles the footman, who was a handsome +young fellow, the means of avenging himself, but as yet this expedient +for a little amusement had not succeeded, and there had been a touch of +peevishness in the tone with which she asked whether it was true that +the Contessa intended remaining here. Madame di Forno-Populo was a woman +who disliked the bondage of question and reply. + +"You do not amuse yourself, Marietta mia?" said the Contessa. She spoke +Italian with her servants, and she was always caressing, fond of tender +appellatives. "Patience! the country even in England is very good for +the complexion, and in London there is a great deal that is amusing. +Wheel this table away and give me the other with my writing things. The +cushion for my elbow. Thanks! You forget nothing. My Marietta, you will +have a happy life." + +"Do you think so, Signora Contessa?" said the girl, a little wistfully. + +The Contessa smiled upon her and said "Cara!" with an air of tenderness +that might have made any one happy. Then she addressed herself to her +correspondence, while Marietta removed into the other room not only the +tray but the table with the tray which her mistress had used. The +Contessa did not like to know or see anything of the processes of +readjustment and restoration. She glanced over her morning's letters +again with now and then a smile of satisfaction, and addressed herself +to the task of answering them with apparent pleasure. Indeed, her own +letters amused her even more than the others had done. When she had +finished her task she took up a silver whistle and blew into it a long +melodious note. She made the most charming picture, leaning back in her +chair, in a white cashmere dressing-gown covered with lace, and a little +cap upon her dark locks. All the accessories of her toilette were +exquisite, as well as the draperies about her that relieved and set off +her whiteness. Her shoes were of white plush with a cockade of lace to +correspond. Her sleeves, a little more loose than common, showed her +beautiful arms through a mist of lace. She was not more carefully nor +more elegantly dressed when she went downstairs in all her panoply of +conquest. What a pity there was no one to see it! but the Contessa did +not even think of this. In other circumstances, no doubt, there might +have been spectators, but in the meantime she pleased herself, which +after all is the first object with every well-constituted mind. She +leaned back in her chair pleased with herself and her surroundings, in a +gentle languor after her occupation, and conscious of a yellow novel +within reach should her young companion be slow of appearing. But Bice +she knew had the ears of a savage, and would hear her summons wherever +she might be. + +Bice at this moment was in a very different scene. She was in the large +gallery, which was a little chill and dreary of a morning when all the +windows were full of a gray, indefinable mist instead of light, and the +ancestors were indistinguishable in their frames. She had just been +going through her usual exercise with the baby, and had joined Lucy at +the upper end of the gallery, that sport being over, and little Tom +carried off to his mid-day sleep. There was a fire there, in the +old-fashioned chimney, and Lucy had been sitting beside it watching the +sport. Bice seated herself on a stool at a little distance. She had a +half affection half dislike for this young woman, who was most near her +in age of any one in the house. For one thing they were on different +sides and representing different interests; and Bice had been trained to +dislike the ordinary housekeeping woman. They had been brought together, +indeed, in a moment of emotion by the instrumentality of the little +delicate child, for whom Bice had conceived a compassionate affection. +But the girl felt that they were antagonistic. She did not expect +understanding or charity, but to be judged harshly and condemned +summarily by this type of the conventional and proper. She believed that +Lucy would be "shocked" by what she said, and horrified by her freedom +and absence of prejudice. Yet, notwithstanding all this, there was an +attraction in the candid eyes and countenance of little Lady Randolph +which drew her in spite of herself. It was of her own will, though with +a little appearance of reluctance, that she drew near, and soon plunged +into talk--for to tell the truth, now that Jock was gone, Bice felt +occasionally as if she must talk to the winds and trees, and could not +at the hazard of her life keep silence any more. She could scarcely tell +how it was that she was led into confessions of all kinds and +descriptions of the details of her past life. + +"We are a little alike," said Lucy. "I was not much older than you are +when my father died, and afterwards we had no real home: to be sure, I +had always Jock. Even when papa was living it was not very homelike, not +what I should choose for a girl. I felt how different it was when I went +to Lady Randolph, who thought of everything----" + +Bice did not say anything for some time, and then she laughed. "The +Contessa does not think of everything," she said. + +Lucy looked at her with a question in her eyes. She wanted to ask if the +Contessa was kind. But there was a certain domestic treachery involved +in asking such a question. + +"People are different," she said, with a certain soothing tone. "We are +not made alike, you know; one person is good in one way and one in +another." This abstract deliverance was not at all in Lucy's way. She +returned to the particular point before them with relief. "England," she +said, "must seem strange to you after your own country. I suppose it is +much colder and less bright?" + +"I have no country" said Bice; "everywhere is my country. We have a +house in Rome, but we travel; we go from one place to another--to all +the places that are what you call for pleasure. We go in the season. +Sometimes it is for the waters, sometimes for the sports or the +games--always _festa_ wherever we go." + +"And you like that? To be sure, you are so very young; otherwise I +should think it was rather tiresome," Lucy said. + +"No, it is not rather tiresome," said Bice, with a roll of her "r," "it +is horrible! When we came here I did not know why it was, but I rejoiced +myself that there was no band playing. I thought at first it was merely +_jour de relache_: but when morning after morning came and no band, that +was heavenly," she said, drawing a long breath. + +"A band playing!" Lucy's laugh at the absurdity of the idea rang out +with all the gaiety of a child. It amused her beyond measure, and Bice, +always encouraged by approbation, went on. + +"I expected it every morning. The house is so large. I thought the +season, perhaps, was just beginning, and the people not arrived yet. +Sometimes we go like that too soon. The rooms are cheaper. You can make +your own arrangement." + +Lucy looked at her very compassionately. "That is why you pass the +mornings in your own room," she said, "were you never then in a country +house before?" + +"I do not know what is a country house. We have been in a great castle +where there was the chase every day. No, that is not what _la chasse_ +means in England--to shoot I would say. And then in the evening the +theatre, tableaux, or music. But to be quiet all day and all night too, +that is what I have never seen. We have never known it. It is confusing. +It makes you feel as if all went on without any division; all one day, +all one night." + +Bice laughed, but Lucy looked somewhat grave. "This is our natural life +in England," she said; "we like to be quiet; though I have not thought +we were very quiet, we have had people almost every night." + +To this Bice made no reply. But at Lucy's next question she stared, not +understanding what it meant. "You go everywhere with the Contessa," she +said; "are you out?" + +"Out!" Bice's eyes opened wide. She shook her head. "What is out?" she +said. + +"It is when a girl begins to go to parties--when she comes out of her +home, out of the schoolroom, from being just a little girl----" + +"Ah, I know! From the Convent," said Bice; "but I never was there." + +"And have you always gone to parties--all your life?" asked Lucy, with +wondering eyes. + +Bice looked at her, wondering too. "We do not go to parties. What is a +party?" she said. "We go to the rooms--oh yes, and to the great +receptions sometimes, and at hotels. Parties? I don't know what that +means. Of course, I go with the Contessa to the rooms, and to the tables +d'hote. I give her my arm ever since I was tall enough. I carry her fan +and her little things. When she sings I am always ready to play. They +call me the shadow of the Contessa, for I always wear a black frock, and +I never talk except when some one talks to me. It is most amusing how +the English look at me. They say, Miss----? and then stop that I may +tell them my name." + +"And don't you?" said Lucy. "Do you know; though it is so strange to say +it, I don't even know your name." + +Bice laughed, but she made no attempt to supply the omission. "The +Contessa thinks it is more piquant," she said. "But nothing is decided +about me, till it is known how I turn out. If I am beautiful the +Contessa will marry me well, and all will be right." + +"And is that what you--wish?" said Lucy, in a tone of horror. + +"Monsieur, your brother," said Bice, with a laugh, "says I am not +pretty, even. He says it does not matter. How ignorant men are, and +stupid! And then suddenly they are old, old, and sour. I do not know +which is the worst. I do not like men." + +"And yet you think of being married, which it is not nice to speak of," +said Lucy, with disapproval. + +"Not--nice? Why is that? Must not girls be married? and if so, why not +think of it?" said Bice, gravely. There was not the ghost of a blush +upon her cheek. "If you might live without being married that would +understand itself; but otherwise----" + +"Indeed," cried Lucy, "you can, indeed you can! In England, at least. To +marry for a living, that is terrible." + +"Ah!" cried Bice, with interest, drawing her chair nearer, "tell me how +that is to be done." + +There was the seriousness of a practical interest in the girl's manner. +The question was very vital to her. There was no other way of existence +possible so far as she knew; but if there was it was well worth taking +into consideration. + +Lucy felt the question embarrassing when it was put to her in this very +decisive way. "Oh," she cried with an Englishwoman's usual monosyllabic +appeal for help to heaven and earth: "there are now a great number of +ways. There are so many things that girls can do; there are things open +to them that never used to be--they can even be doctors when they are +clever. There are many ways in which they can maintain themselves." + +"By trades?" cried Bice, "by work?" She laughed. "We hear of that +sometimes, and the doctors; everybody laughs; the men make jokes, and +say they will have one when they are ill. If that is all, I do not +think there is anything in it. I should not like to work even if I were +a man, but a woman----! that gets no money, that is _mal vu_. If that is +all! Work," she said, with a little oracular air, "takes up all your +time, and the money that one can earn is so small. A girl avoids saying +much to men who are like this. She knows how little they can have to +offer her; and to work herself, why, it is impossible. What time would +you have for anything?" cried the girl, with an impatient sense of the +fatuity of the suggestion. Lucy was so much startled by this view of the +subject that she made no reply. + +"There is no question of working," said Bice with decision, "neither for +women, neither for men. That is not in our world. But if I am only +pretty, no more," she added, "what will become of me? It is not known. I +shall follow the Contessa as before. I will be useful to her, and +afterwards---- I prefer not to think of that. In the meantime I am young. +I do not wish for anything. It is all amusing. I become weary of the +band playing, that is true; but then sometimes it plays not badly, and +there is something always to laugh at. Afterwards, if I marry, then I +can do as I like," the girl said. + +Lucy gave her another look of surprised awe, for it was really with that +feeling that she regarded this strange little philosopher. But she did +not feel herself able to pursue the subject with so enlightened a +person. She said: "How very well you speak English. You have scarcely +any accent, and the Contessa has none at all. I was afraid she would +speak only French, and my French is so bad." + +"I have always spoken English all my life. When the Contessa is angry +she says I am English all over; and she--she is of no country--she is +of all countries; we are what you call vagabonds," the girl cried, with +a laugh. She said it so calmly, without the smallest shadow of shame or +embarrassment, that Lucy could only gaze at her and could not find a +word to say. Was it true? It was evident that Bice at least believed so, +and was not at all afraid to say it. This conversation took place, as +has been said, in the picture gallery, where Lady Randolph and her young +visitor had first found a ground of amity. The rainy weather had +continued, and this place had gradually become the scene of a great deal +of intercourse between the young mistress of the house and her guest. +They scarcely spoke to each other in the evening. But in the morning +after the game of romps with little Tom, by which Bice indemnified +herself for the absence of other society, Lucy would join the party, and +after the child had been carried off for his mid-day sleep, the others +left behind would have many a talk. To Lucy the revelations thus made +were more wonderful than any romance--so wonderful that she did not half +take in the strange life to which they gave a clue, nor realise how +perfectly right was Bice's description of herself and her patroness. +They were vagabonds, as she said; and like other vagabonds, they got a +great deal of pleasure out of their life. But to Lucy it seemed the most +terrible that mind could conceive. Without any home, without any +retirement or quietness, with a noisy band always playing, and a series +of migrations from one place to another--no work, no duties, nothing to +represent home occupations but a piece of _tapisserie_. She put her hand +very tenderly upon Bice's shoulder. There had been prejudices in her +mind against this girl--but they all melted away in a womanly pity. +"Oh," she said, "Cannot I help you in any way? Cannot Sir Tom--" But +here she paused. "I am afraid," she said, "that all we could think of +would be an occupation for you; something to do, which would be far, far +better, surely, than this wandering life." + +Bice looked at her for a moment with a doubtful air. "I don't know what +you mean by occupation," she said. + +And this, to Lucy's discomfiture, she found to be true. Bice had no idea +of occupation. Young Lady Randolph, who was herself not much instructed, +made a conscientious effort at least to persuade the strange girl to +read and improve her mind. But she flew off on all such occasions with a +laugh that was half mocking and half merry. "To what good?" she said, +with that simplicity of cynicism which is a quality of extreme youth. +"If I turn out beautiful, if I can marry whom I will, I will then get +all I want without any trouble." + +"But if not?" said Lucy, too careful of the other's feelings to express +what her own opinions were on this subject. + +"If not it will be still less good," said Bice, "for I shall never then +do anything or be of any importance at all; and why should I tr-rouble?" +she said, with that rattle of the r's which was about the only sign that +English was not her native speech. This was very distressing to Lucy, +who wished the girl well, and altogether Lady Randolph was anxious to +interfere on Bice's behalf, and put her on a more comprehensible +footing. + +"It will be very strange when you go among other people in London," she +said. "Madame di Forno-Populo does not know England. People will want +to know who you are. And if you were to be married, since you will talk +of that," Lucy added with a blush, "your name and who you are will have +to be known. I will ask Sir Tom to talk to the Contessa--or," she said +with reluctance, "I will speak to her if you think she will listen to +me." + +"I am called," said Bice, making a sweeping curtsey, and waving her hand +as she darted suddenly away, leaving Lucy in much doubt and perplexity. +Was she really called? Lucy heard nothing but a faint sound in the +distance, as of a low whistle. Was this a signal between the strange +pair who were not mother and daughter, nor mistress and servant, and yet +were so linked together. It seemed to Lucy, with all her honest English +prejudices, that to train so young a girl (and a girl so fond of +children, and, therefore, a good girl at bottom, whatever her little +faults might be) to such a wandering life, and to put her up as it were +to auction for whoever would bid highest, was too terrible to be thought +of. Better a thousand times to be a governess, or a sempstress, or any +honest occupation by which she could earn her own bread. But then to +Bice any such expedient was out of the question. Her incredulous look of +wonder and mirth came back to Lucy with a sensation of dumb +astonishment. She had no right feelings, no sense of the advantages of +independence, no horror of being sold in marriage. Lady Randolph did not +know what to think of a creature so utterly beyond all rules known to +her. She was in such a condition of mind, unsettled, unhinged, feeling +all her old landmarks breaking up, that a new interest was of great +importance to her. It withdrew her thoughts from the Contessa, and the +irksomeness of her sway, when she thought of Bice and what could be +done for her. The strange thing was that the girl wanted nothing done +for her. She was happy enough so far as could be seen. In her close +confinement and subjection she was so fearless and free that she might +have been thought the mistress of the situation. It was incomprehensible +altogether. To state the circumstances from one side was to represent a +victim of oppression. A poor girl stealing into a strange house and room +in the shadow of her patroness; unnamed, unnoticed, made no more account +of than the chair upon which she sat, held in a bondage which was almost +slavery, and intended to be disposed of when the moment came without a +reference to her own will and affections. Lucy felt her blood boil when +she thought of all this, and determined that she would leave no +expedient untried to free this white slave, this unfortunate thrall. But +the other side was one which could not pass without consideration. The +girl was careless and fearless and free, without an appearance of +bondage about her. She scoffed at the thought of escaping, of somehow +earning a personal independence--such was not for persons in her world, +she said. She was not horrified by her own probable fate. She was not +unhappy, but amused and interested in her life, and taking everything +gaily, both the present quiet and the tumult of the many "seasons" in +watering-places and other resorts of gaiety through which, young as she +was, she had already gone. She had looked at Lucy with a smile, which +was half cynical, and altogether decisive, when the anxious young matron +had pointed out to her the way of escaping from such a sale and bargain. +She did not want to escape. It seemed to her right and natural. She +walked as lightly as a bird with this yoke upon her shoulders. Lucy had +never met anything of this kind before, and it called forth a sort of +panic in her mind. She did not know how to deal with it; but neither +would she give it up. She had something else to think upon, when the +Contessa, lying back on her sofa, almost going to sleep before Sir Tom +entered, roused herself on the moment to occupy and amuse him all the +evening. Instead of thinking of that and making herself unhappy, Lucy +looked the other way at Bice reading a novel rapidly at the other side +of the table, with all her young savage faculties about her to see and +hear everything. How to get her delivered from her fate! To make her +feel that deliverance was necessary, to save her before she should be +sacrificed, and take her out of her present slavery. It was very strange +that it never occurred to Lucy to free the girl by making her one of the +recipients of the money she had to give away. She was very faithful to +the letter of her father's will, and he had excluded foreigners. But +even that was not the reason. The reason was that it did not occur to +her. She thought of every way of relieving the too-contented thrall +before her except that way. And in the meantime the time wore on, and +everything fell into a routine, and not a word was said of the +Contessa's plans. It was evident, for the time being at least, that she +meant to make no change, but was fully minded, notwithstanding the +dullness of the country, to remain where she was. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI. + +THE TWO STRANGERS. + + +The Contessa did not turn her head or change her position when Bice +entered. She said, "You have not been out?" in a tone which was half +question and half reproof. + +"It rained, and there is nothing to breathe but the damp and fog." + +"What does it matter? it is very good for the complexion, this damp; it +softens the skin, it clears your colour. I see the improvement every +day." + +"Do you think so?" said Bice, going up to the long mirror which had been +established in a sort of niche against the wall, and draped as +everything was draped, with graceful hangings. She went up to it and put +her face close, looking with some anxiety at the image which she found +there. "I do not see it," she said. "You are too sanguine. I am no +better than I was. I have been racing in the long gallery with the +child; that makes one's blood flow." + +"You do well," said the Contessa, nodding her head. "I cannot take any +notice of the child; it is too much for me. They are odious at that +age." + +"Ah! they are delightful," said Bice. "They are so good to play with, +they ask no questions, and are always pleased. I put him on my shoulder +and we fly. I wish that I might have a gymnastique, trapeze, +what-you-call it, in that long gallery; it would be heaven." + +The Contessa uttered an easy exclamation meaning nothing, which +translated into English would have been a terrible oath. "Do not do it, +in the name of----they will be shocked, oh, beyond everything." + +Bice, still standing close to the glass, examining critically her cheek +which she pinched, answered with a laugh. "She is shocked already. When +I say that you will marry me well, if I turn out as I ought, she is full +of horror. She says it is not necessary in England that a young girl +should marry, that there are other ways." + +The Contessa started to her feet. "Giove!" she cried, "Baccho! that +insipidity, that puritan. And I who have kept you from every soil. _She_ +speak of other ways. Oh, it is too much!" + +Bice turned from the glass to address a look of surprise to her +patroness. "Reassure yourself, Madama," she said. "What Milady said was +this, that I might work if I willed, and escape from marrying--that to +marry was not everything. It appears that in England one may make one's +living as if (she says) one were a man." + +"As if one were a man!" + +"That is what Milady said," Bice answered demurely. "I think she would +help me to work, to get something to do. But she did not tell me what it +would be; perhaps to teach children; perhaps to work with the needle. I +know that is how it happens in the Tauchnitz. You do not read them, and, +therefore, do not know; but I am instructed in all these things. The +girl who is poor like me is always beautiful; but she never thinks of it +as we do. She becomes a governess, or perhaps an artiste; or even she +will make dresses, or at the worst _tapisserie_." + +"And this she says to you--to you!" cried the Contessa, with flaming +eyes. + +"Oh, restrain yourself, Madama! It does not matter at all. She makes the +great marriage just the same. It is not Milady who says this, it is in +the Tauchnitz. It is the English way. Supposing," said Bice, "that I +remain as I am? Something will have to be done with me. Put me, then, as +a governess in a great family where there is a son who is a great +nobleman, or very rich; and you shall see it will so happen, though I +never should be beautiful at all." + +"My child," said the Contessa, "all this is foolishness. You will not +remain as you are. I see a little difference every day. In a little time +you will be dazzling; you will be ready to produce. A governess! It is +more likely that you will be a duchess; and then you will laugh at +everybody--except me," said Madame di Forno-Populo, tapping her breast +with her delicate fingers, "except me." + +Bice looked at her with a searching, inquiring look. "I want to ask +something," she said. "If I should be beautiful, you were so before +me--oh, more, more!--you we----are very lovely, Madama." + +The Contessa smiled--who would not smile at such a speech? made with all +the sincerity and simplicity possible--simplicity scarcely affected by +the instinct which made Bice aware before she said it, that to use the +past tense would spoil all. The Contessa smiled. "Well," she said, "and +then?" + +"They married you," said Bice with a curious tone between philosophical +remark and interrogation. + +"Ah!" the Contessa said. She leaned back in her chair making herself +very comfortable, and shook her head. "I understand. You think then it +has been a--failure in my case? Yes, they married me--that is to say +there was no they at all. I married myself, which makes a great +difference. Ah, yes, I follow your reasoning very well. This woman you +say was beautiful, was all that I hope to be, and married; and what has +come of it? It is quite true. I speak to you as I speak to no one, Bice +mia. The fact was we deceived each other. The Conte expected to make his +fortune by me, and I by him. I was English, you perceive, though no one +now remembers this. Poor Forno-Populo! He was very handsome; people were +pleased to say we were a magnificent pair--but we had not the _sous_: +and though we were fond of each other, he proceeded in one direction to +repair his fortunes, and I--on another to--_enfin_ to do as best I +could. But no such accident shall happen in your case. It is not only +your interest I have in hand; it is my own. I want a home for my +declining years." + +She said this with a smile at the absurdity of the expression in her +case, but Bice at sixteen naturally took the words _au pied de la +lettre_, and did not see any absurdity in them. To her forty was very +much the same as seventy. She nodded her head very seriously in answer +to this, and turning round to the glass surveyed herself once more, but +not with that complacency which is supposed to be excited in the +feminine bosom by the spectacle. She was far too serious for vanity--the +gaze she cast upon her own youthful countenance was severely critical, +and she ended by a shrug of her shoulders, as she turned away. "The only +thing is," she said, "that perhaps the young brother is right, and at +present I am not even pretty at all." + +The Contessa had a great deal to think of during this somewhat dull +interval. The days flowed on so regular, and with so little in them, +that it was scarcely possible to take note of the time at all. Lucy was +always scrupulously polite and sometimes had little movements of anxious +civility, as if to make up for impulses that were less kind. And Sir +Tom, though he enjoyed the evenings as much as ever, and felt this +manner of passing the heavy hours to retain a great attraction, was at +other times a little constrained, and made furtive attempts to find out +what the Contessa's intentions were for the future, which betrayed to a +woman who had always her wits about her, a certain strain of the old +bonds, and uneasiness in the indefinite length of her visit. She had +many reasons, however, for determining to ignore this uneasiness, and to +move on upon the steady tenor of her way as if unconscious of any reason +for change, opposing a smiling insensibility to all suggestions as to +the approaching removal of the household to London. It seemed to the +Contessa that the association of her _debutante_ with so innocent and +wealthy a person as Lady Randolph would do away with all the prejudices +which her own dubious antecedents might have provoked; while the very +dubiousness of those antecedents had procured her friends in high +quarters and acquaintances everywhere, so that both God and Mammon were, +so to speak, enlisted in her favour, and Bice would have all the +advantage, without any of the disadvantage, of her patroness' position, +such as it was. This was so important that she was quite fortified +against any pricks of offence, or intrusive consciousness that she was +less welcome than might have been desired. And in the end of January, +when the entire household at the Hall had begun to be anxious to make +sure of her departure, an event occurred which strengthened all her +resolutions in this respect, and made her more and more determined, +whatever might be the result, to cling to her present associations and +shelter. + +This was the arrival of a visitor, very unexpected and unthought of, who +came in one afternoon after the daily drive, often a somewhat dull +performance, which Lucy, when there was nothing more amusing to do, +dutifully took with her visitor. Madame di Forno-Populo was reclining in +the easiest of chairs after the fatigue of this expedition. There had +been a fresh wind, and notwithstanding a number of veils, her delicate +complexion had been caught by the keen touch of the breeze. Her cheeks +burned, she declared, as she held up a screen to shield her from the +glow of the fire. The waning afternoon light from the tall window behind +threw her beautiful face into shadow, but she was undeniably the most +important person in the tranquil domestic scene, occupying the central +position, so that it was not wonderful that the new comer suddenly +ushered in, who was somewhat timid and confused, and advanced with the +hesitating step of a stranger, should without any doubt have addressed +himself to her as the mistress of the house. Lucy, little and young, who +was moving about the room, with her light step and in the simple dress +of a girl, appeared to Mr. Churchill, who had many daughters of his own, +to be (no doubt) the eldest, the mother's companion. He came in with a +slightly embarrassed air and manner. He was a man beyond middle age, +gray haired, stooping, with the deprecating look of one who had been +obliged in many ways to propitiate fate in the shape of superiors, +officials, creditors, all sorts of alien forces. He came up with his +hesitating step to the Contessa's chair. "Madam," he said, with a voice +which had a tremor in it, "my name will partly tell you the confused +feelings that I don't know how to express. I am come in a kind of +bewilderment, scarcely able to believe that what I have heard is +true----" + +The Contessa gazed at him calmly from the depths of her chair. The +figure before her, thin, gray haired, submissive, with the long clerical +coat and deprecating air, did not promise very much, but she had no +objection to hear what he had to say in the absolute dearth of subjects +of interest. Lucy, to whom his name seemed vaguely familiar, without +recalling any distinct idea, and who was a little startled by his +immediate identification of the Contessa, came forward a little and put +a chair for him, then withdrew again, supposing his business to be with +her guest. + +"I will not sit down," Mr. Churchill said, faltering a little, "till I +have said what I have no words to say. If what I am told is actually +true, and your ladyship means to confer upon me a gift so--so +magnificent--oh! pardon me--I cannot help thinking still that there must +be some extraordinary mistake." + +"Oh!" Lucy began, hurriedly making a step forward again; but the +Contessa, to her surprise, accepted the address with great calm. + +"Be seated, sir," Madame di Forno-Populo said, with a dignity which Lucy +was far from being able to emulate. "And pray do not hesitate to say +anything which occurs to you. I am already interested----" She waved her +hand to him with a sort of regal grace, without moving in any other way. +She had the air of a princess not deeply concerned indeed, but +benevolently willing to listen. It was evident that this reception of +him confused the stranger more and more. He became more deeply +embarrassed in sight of the perfect composure with which he was +contemplated, and cleared his throat nervously three or four times. + +"I think," he said, "that there must be some mistake. It was, indeed, +impossible that it should be true; but as I heard it from two quarters +at once--and it was said to be something in the nature of a +trust---- But," he added, looking with a nervous intentness at the +unresponsive face which he could with difficulty see, "it must be, since +your ladyship does not recognise my name, a--mistake. I felt it was so +from the beginning. A lady of whom I know nothing!--to bestow what is +really a fortune--upon a man with no claim----" + +He gave a little nervous laugh as he went on--the disappointment, after +such a dazzling giddy hope, took away every vestige of colour from his +face. "I will sit down for a moment, if you please," he said suddenly. +"I--am a little tired with the walk--you will excuse me, Lady +Randolph----" + +"Oh, sir," cried Lucy, coming forward, "forgive me that I did not +understand at once. It is no mistake at all. Oh, I am afraid you are +very much fatigued, and I ought to have known at once when I heard your +name." + +He put out his hand in his deprecating way as she came close to the +chair into which he had dropped. "It is nothing--nothing--my dear young +lady: in a moment," he said. + +"My Lucy," said the Contessa, "this is one of your secret bounties. I am +quite interested. But do not interrupt; let us hear it out." + +"It is something which is entirely between Mr. Churchill and me," cried +Lucy. "Indeed, it would not interest you at all. But, pray, don't think +it is a mistake," she said, earnestly turning to him. "It is quite +right--it is a trust--there is nothing that need distress you. I am +obliged to do it, and you need not mind. Indeed, you must not mind. I +will tell you all about it afterwards." + +"My dear young lady!" the clergyman said. He was relieved, but he was +perplexed; he turned still towards the stately lady in the chair--"If it +is really so, which I scarcely can allow myself to believe, how can I +express my obligation? It seems more than any man ought to take; it is +like a fairy tale. I have not ventured to mention it to my children, in +case,---- Thanks are nothing," he cried, with excitement; "thanks are +for a trifle, a little every-day service; but this is a fortune; it is +something beyond belief. I have been a poor man all my life, struggling +to do my best for my children; and now, what I have never been able to +do with all my exertions, you--put me in a position to do in a moment. +What am I to say to you? Words can't reach such a case. It is simply +unspeakable--incredible; and why out of all the world you should have +chosen me----" + +He had to stop, his emotion getting the better of him. Bice had come +into the room while this strange scene was going on, and she stood in +the shadow, unseen by the speaker, listening too. + +"Pray compose yourself," said the Contessa, in her most gracious voice. +"Your expressions are full of feeling. To have a fortune given to one +must be very delightful; it is an experience that does not often happen. +Probably a little tea, as I hear tea is coming, will restore +Mr. ---- Pardon me, they are a little difficult to catch those, your +English names." + +The Contessa produced a curious idiom now and then like a work of art. +It was almost the only sign of any uncertainty in her English; and while +the poor clergyman, not quite understanding in his own emotion what she +was saying, made an effort to gulp it down and bring himself to the +level of ordinary life, the little stir of the bringing-in of tea +suddenly converted everything into commonplace. He sat in a confusion +that made all dull to him while this little stir went on. Then he rose +up and said, faltering: "If your ladyship will permit me, I will go out +into the air a little. I have got a sort of singing in my ears. I +am--not very strong; I shall come back presently if you will allow me, +and try to make my acknowledgments--in a less confused way." + +Lucy followed him out of the room; he was not confused with her. "My +dear young lady," he said, "my head is going round and round. Perhaps +you will explain it all to me." He looked at her with a helpless, +appealing air. Lucy had the appearance of a girl of his own. He was not +afraid to ask her anything. But the great lady, his benefactress, who +spoke so regally and responded so little to his emotion, alarmed him. +Lucy, too, on her side, felt as if she had been a girl of his own. She +put her arm within his, and led him to the library, where all was quiet, +and where she felt by instinct--though she was not bookish--that the +very backs of the books would console him and make him feel himself at +home. + +"It is very easy to explain," she said. "It is all through my brother +Jock and your son, who is at school with him. And it is I who am Lady +Randolph," she said, smiling, supporting him with her arm through his. +The shock would have been almost too much for poor Mr. Churchill if she +had not been so like a child of his own. + +The moment this pair had left the room the Contessa raised herself +eagerly from the chair. She looked round to Bice in the background with +an imperative question. "What does this all mean?" she said, in a voice +as different from the languor of her former address as night from day. +"Who is it that gives away fortunes, that makes a poor man rich? Did you +know all that? Is it that chit of a girl, that piece of +simplicity--that--Giove! You have been her friend; you know her secrets. +What does it mean?" + +"She has no secrets," said Bice, coming slowly forward. "She is not like +us, she is like the day." + +"Fool!" the Contessa said, stamping her foot--"don't you see there must +be something in it. I am thinking of you, though you are so ungrateful. +One knows she is rich, all the money is hers; but I thought it had gone +to Sir Tom. I thought it was he who could-- ... Happily, I have always +kept her in hand; and you, you have become her friend----" + +"Madama," said Bice, with ironical politeness, "since it happens that +Milady is gone, shall I pour out for you your cup of tea?" + +"Oh, tea! do I care for tea? when there are possibilities--possibilities!" +said the Contessa. She got up from her chair and began to pace about the +room, a grand figure in the gathering twilight. As for Bice, some demon of +perversity possessed her. She began to move about the tea-table, making +the china ring, and pouring out the tea as she had said, betook herself to +the eating of cake with a relish which was certainly much intensified by +the preoccupation of her patroness. She remembered well enough, very well, +what Jock had told her, and her own incredulity; but she would have died +rather than give a sign of this--and there was a tacit defiance in the way +in which she munched her cake under the Contessa's excited eyes, but this +was only a momentary perversity. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII. + +AN ADVENTURESS. + + +"When he told me first, I was angry like you, I would not believe it. +Money! that is a thing to keep, I said, not to give away." + +"To give away!" Few things in all her life, at least in all her later +life, had so moved the Contessa. She was walking about the pretty room +in an excitement which was like agitation, now sitting down in one +place, now in another, turning over without knowing it the things on the +table, arranging a drapery here and there instinctively. To how few +people in the world would it be a matter of indifference that money, so +to speak, was going begging, and might fall into their hands as well as +another's! The best of us on this argument would prick up our ears. +Nobody cared less for money in itself than Madame di Forno-Populo. She +liked not to spend it only, but to squander--to make it fly on all +hands. To be utterly extravagant one must be poor, and the money hunger +which belongs to poverty is almost, one might say, a disinterested +quality, so little is it concerned with the possession of the thing +coveted. "Oh," she said, "this is too wonderful! and you are sure you +have not been deceived by the language? You know English so well--are +you sure that you were not deceived?" + +Bice did not deign any reply to this question. She gave her head a +slight toss of scorn. The suggestion that she could be mistaken was +unworthy of an answer, and indeed was not put in seriousness, nor did +the Contessa wait for a reply. "What then," the Contessa went on, "is +the position of Sir Tom? Has he no control? Does he permit this? To have +it taken away from himself and his family, thrown into the sea, parted +with--Oh, it is too much! But how can it be done? I was aware that +settlements were very troublesome, but I had not thought it +possible--Bice! Bice! this is very exciting, it makes one's heart beat! +And you are her friend." + +"I am her--friend?" Bice turned one ear to her patroness with a startled +look of interrogation. + +"Oh!" cried the Contessa once more; by which exclamation, naturally +occurring when she was excited, she proved that she was of English +race. "What difficulty is there in my meaning? You have English enough +for that. What! do you feel no impatience when you hear of money running +away?--going into a different channel--to strangers--to people that have +nothing to do with it--that have no right to it--anybody--a clergyman, +a----" + +Her feelings were too much for her. She threw herself into a chair, out +of breath. + +"He looked a very good man," said Bice, with that absolute calm which is +so exasperating to an excited woman, "and what does it matter, if it has +to be given away, who gets it? I should give it to the beggars. I should +fling it for them, as you do the _bajocchi_ when you are out driving." + +"You are a fool! you are a fool!" cried the Contessa, "or rather you are +a child, and don't understand anything. Fling it to the beggars? Yes, if +it was in shillings or even sovereigns. You don't understand what money +is." + +"That is true, Madama, for I never had any," cried the girl, with a +laugh. She was perfectly unmoved--the desire of money was not in her as +yet, though she was far more enlightened as to its uses than most +persons of her age. It amused her to see the excitement of her +companion; and she knew very well what the Contessa meant, though she +would not betray any consciousness of it. "If I marry," she said, "then +perhaps I shall know." + +"Bice! you are not a fool--you are very sharp, though you choose not to +see. Why should not you have this as well as another?--oh, much better +than another! I can't stand by and see it all float into alien channels, +while you--it would not be doing my duty while you---- Oh, don't look at +me with that blank face, as if it did not move you in the least! Would +it be nothing to have it in your power to dress as you like, to do as +you like, to go into the world, to have a handsome house, to enjoy +life?----" + +"But, yes!" said Bice, "is it necessary to ask?" She was still as calm +as if the question they were discussing had been of the very smallest +importance. "But we are not good poor people that will spend the money +_comme il faut_. If we had it we should throw it away. Me also--I would +throw it away. It would be for nothing good; why should it be given to +us? Oh no, Madama. The good old clergyman had many children. He will not +waste the money--which we should. What do you care for money, but to +spend it fast, fast; and I too----" + +"You are a child," said the Contessa. "No, perhaps I am not what people +call good, though I am poor enough--but you are a child. If it was given +to you it would be invested; you would have power over the income only. +You could not throw it away, nor could I, which, perhaps, is what you +are thinking of. You are just the person she wants, so far as I can see. +She objects to my plan of putting you out in the world; she says it +would be better if you were to work; but this is the best of all. Let +her provide for you, and then it will not need that you should either +marry or work. This is, beyond all description, the best way. And you +are her friend. Tell me, was it before or after the boy informed you of +this that you advised yourself to become her friend?" + +"Contessa!" cried Bice, with a shock of angry feeling which brought the +blood to her face. She was not sensitive in many matters which would +have stung an English girl; but this suggestion, which was so +undeserved, moved her to passion. She turned away with an almost tragic +scorn, and seizing the _tapisserie_, which was part of the Contessa's +_mise en scene_, flung a long strip of the many-coloured embroidery over +her arm, and began to work with a sort of savage energy. The Contessa +watched her movements with a sudden pause in her own excitement. She +stopped short in the eagerness of her own thoughts, and looked with keen +curiosity at the young creature upon whom she had built so many +expectations. She was not an ungenerous or mercenary woman, though she +had many faults, and as she gazed a certain compunction awoke within +her, mingled with amusement. She was sorry for the unworthy suggestion +she had made, but the sight of the girl in her indignation was like a +scene in a play to this woman of the world. Her youthful dignity and +wrath, her silent scorn, the manner in which she flung her needle +through the canvas, working out her rage, were full of entertainment to +the Contessa. She was not irritated by the girl's resentment; it even +took off her thoughts from the primary matter to watch this exhibition +of feeling. She gave vent to a little laugh as she noted how the needle +flew. + +"Cara! I was nasty when I said that. I did not mean it. I suffered +myself to talk as one talks in the world. You are not of the world--it +is not applicable to you." + +"Yes, Madama, I am of the world," cried Bice. "What have I known else? +But I did not mean to become Milady's friend, as you say. It was by +accident. I was in the gallery only to amuse myself, and she came--it +was not intention. I think that Milady is----" + +Here Bice stopped, looked up from the sudden fervour of her working, +threw back her head, and said nothing more. + +"That Milady is--what?" the Contessa cried. + +A laugh so joyous, so childish, that no one could have refused to be +sympathetic, burst from Bice's lips. She gave her patroness a look of +merriment and derision, in which there was something tender and sweet. +"Milady is--sorry for me," she said. + +This speech had a strange effect upon the Contessa. She coloured, and +the tears seemed to flood in a moment to her eyes. "Poor child!" she +said--"poor child! She has reason. But that amuses you, Bice mia," she +said, in a voice full of the softest caressing, looking at her through +those sudden tears. The Contessa was an adventuress, and she had brought +up this girl after her own traditions; but it was clear as they looked +at each other that they loved each other. There was perfect confidence +between them. Bice looked with fearless laughing eyes, and a sense of +the absurdity of the fact that some one was sorry for her, into the face +of her friend. + +"She thinks I would be happier if I worked. To give lessons to little +children and be their slave would be better, she thinks. To know nothing +and see nothing, but live far away from the world and be independent, +and take no trouble about my looks, or, if I please--that is Milady's +way of thinking," Bice said. + +The Contessa's face softened more and more as she looked at the girl. +There even dropped a tear from her full eyes. She shook her head. "I am +not sure," she said, "dear child, that I am not of Milady's opinion. +There are ways in which it is better. Sometimes I think I was most happy +when I was like that--without money, without experience, with no +wishes." + +"No wishes, Madama! Did you not wish to go out into the beautiful bright +world, to see people, to hear music, to talk, to please? It is +impossible. Money, that is different, and experience that is different: +but to wish, every one must do that." + +"Bice, you have a great deal of experience for so young a girl. You have +seen so much. I ought to have brought you up otherwise, perhaps, but how +could I? You have always shared with me, and what I had I gave you. And +you know besides how little satisfaction there is in it--how sick one +becomes of a crowd of faces that are nothing to you, and of music that +goes on just the same whatever you are feeling--and this to please, as +you call it! Whom do I please? Persons who do not care at all for me +except that I amuse them sometimes--who like me to sing; who like to +look at me; who find themselves less dull when I am there. That is all. +And that will be all for you, unless you marry well, my Bice, which it +is the object of my life to make you do." + +"I hope I shall marry well," said the girl, composedly. "It would be +very pleasant to find one's self above all shifts, Madama. Still that is +not everything; and I would much rather have led the life I have led, +and enjoyed myself and seen so much, than to have been the little +governess of the English family--the little girl who is always so quiet, +who walks out with the children, and will not accept the eldest son even +when he makes love to her. I should have laughed at the eldest son. I +know what they are like--they are so stupid; they have not a word to +say; that would have amused me; but in the Tauchnitz books it is all +honour and wretchedness. I am glad I know the world, and have seen all +kinds of people, and wish for everything that is pleasant, instead of +being so good and having no wishes as you say." + +The Contessa laughed, having got rid of all her incipient tears. "There +is more life in it," she said. "You see now what it is--this life in +England; one day is like another, one does the same things. The +newspaper comes in the morning, then luncheon, then to go out, then tea, +dinner; there is no change. When we talk in the evening, and I remind +Sir Tom of the past when I lived in Florence, and he was with me every +day,"--the Contessa once more uttered that easy exclamation which would +sound so profane in English. "_Quelle vie!_" she cried, "how much we got +out of every day. There were no silences! They came in one after another +with some new thing, something to see and to do. We separated to dress, +to make ourselves beautiful for the evening, and then till the morning +light came in through the curtains, never a pause or a weariness. Yes! +sometimes one had a terrible pang. There would be a toilette, which was +ravishing, which was far superior to mine--for I never had money to +dress as I wished--or some one else would have a success, and attract +all eyes. But what did that matter?" the Contessa cried, lighting up +more and more. "One did not really grudge what lasted only for a time; +for one knew next day one would have one's turn. Ah!" she said, with a +sigh, "I knew what it was to be a queen, Bice, in those days." + +"And so you do still, Madama," said the girl, soothingly. + +Madama di Forno-Populo shook her head. "It is no longer the same," she +said. "You have known only the worst side, my _poverina_. It is no +longer one's own palace, one's own people, and the best of the +strangers, the finest company. You saw the Duchess at Milady's party the +other day. To see me made her lose her breath. She could not refuse to +speak to me--to salute me--but it was with a consternation! But, Bice, +that lady was only too happy to be invited to the Palazzo Populino. To +make one of our expeditions was her pride. I believe in my soul," cried +the Contessa, "that when she looks back she remembers those days as the +most bright of her life." + +Bice's clear shining eyes rested upon her patroness with a light in them +which was keen with indignation and wonder. She cried, "And why the +change--and why the change, Madama?" with a high indignant tone, such as +youth assumes in presence of ingratitude and meanness. Bice knew much +that a young girl does not usually know; but the reason why her best +friend should be thus slighted was not one of these things. + +The Contessa shrank a little from her gaze. She rose up again and went +to the window and looked out upon the wintry landscape, and standing +there with her face averted, shrugged her shoulders a little and made +answer in a tone of levity very different from the sincerer sound of her +previous communications. "It is poverty, my child, poverty, always the +easiest explanation! I was never rich, but then there had been no crash, +no downfall. I was in my own palace. I had the means of entertaining. I +was somebody. Ah! very different; it was not then at the baths, in the +watering-places, that the Contessa di Forno-Populo was known. It is +this, my Bice, that makes me say that sometimes I am of Milady's +opinion; that to have no wishes, to know nothing, to desire +nothing--that is best. When I knew the Duchess first I could be of +service to her. Now that I meet her again it is she only that can be of +service to me." + +"But----" Bice began and stopped short. She was, as has been said, a +girl of many experiences. When a very young creature is thus prematurely +introduced to a knowledge of human nature she approaches the subject +with an impartiality scarcely possible at an older age. She had seen +much. She had been acquainted with those vicissitudes that occur in the +lives of the seekers of pleasure almost since ever she was born. She had +been acquainted with persons of the most gay and cheerful appearance, +who had enjoyed themselves highly, and called all their acquaintances +round them to feast, and who had then suddenly collapsed and after an +interval of tears and wailings had disappeared from the scene of their +downfall. But Bice had not learnt the commonplace lesson so deeply +impressed upon the world from the Athenian Timon downwards, that a +downfall of this kind instantly cuts all ties. She was aware, on the +contrary, that a great deal of kindness, sympathy, and attempts to aid +were always called forth on such occasions; that the women used to form +a sort of rampart around the ruined with tears and outcries, and that +the men had anxious meetings and consultations and were constantly going +to see some one or other upon the affairs of the downfallen. Bice had +not seen in her experience that poverty was an argument for desertion. +She was so worldly wise that she did not press her question as a simple +girl might have done. She stopped short with an air of bewilderment and +pain, which the Contessa, as her head was turned, did not see. She gave +up the inquiry; but there arose in her mind a suspicion, a question, +such as had not ever had admission there before. + +"Ah!" cried the Contessa, suddenly turning round, clasping her hands, +"it was different indeed when my house was open to all these English, +and they came as they pleased. But now I do not know, if I am turned out +of this house, this dull house in which I have taken refuge, where I +shall go. I don't know where to go!" + +"Madama!" Bice sprang to her feet too, and clasped her hands. + +"It is true--it is quite true. We have spent everything. I have not the +means to go even to a third-rate place. As for Cannes it is impossible. +I told you so before we came here. Rome is impossible--the apartment is +let, and without that I could not live at all. Everything is gone. Here +one may manage to exist a little while, for the house is good, and Sir +Tom is rather amusing. But how to get to London unless they will take us +I know not, and London is the place to produce you, Bice. It is for that +I have been working. But Milady does not like me; she is jealous of me, +and if she can she will send us away. Is it wonderful, then, that I am +glad you are her friend? I am very glad of it, and I should wish you to +let her know that to no one could she give her money more fitly. You +see," said the Contessa, with a smile, resuming her seat and her easy +tone, "I have come back to the point we started from. It is seldom one +does that so naturally. If it is true (which seems so impossible) that +there is money to give away, no one has a better right to it than you." + +Bice went away from this interview with a mind more disturbed than it +had ever been in her life before. Naturally, the novel circumstances +which surrounded her awakened deeper questions as her mind developed, +and she began to find herself a distinct personage. They set her +wondering. Madame di Forno-Populo had been of a tenderness unparalleled +to this girl, and had sheltered her existence ever since she could +remember. It had not occurred to her mind as yet to ask what the +relations were between them, or why she had been the object of so much +affection and thought. She had accepted this with all the composure of a +child ever since she was a child. And the prospect of achieving a +marriage should she turn out beautiful, and thus being in a position to +return some of the kindness shown her, seemed to Bice the most natural +thing in the world. But the change of atmosphere had done something, and +Lucy's company, and the growth, perhaps, of her own young spirit. She +went away troubled. There seemed to be more in the world and its +philosophy than Bice's simple rules could explain. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII. + +THE SERPENT AND THE DOVE. + + +On the very next day after this conversation took place a marked change +occurred in the manner of the Contessa. She had been always caressing to +Lucy, calling her by pretty names, and using a hundred tender +expressions as if to a child; but had never pretended to talk to her +otherwise than in a condescending way. On this occasion, however, she +exerted herself to a most unusual extent during their drive to captivate +and charm Lady Randolph; and as Lucy was very simple and accessible to +everything that seemed kindness, and the Contessa very clever and with +full command of her powers, it is not wonderful that her success was +easy. She led her to talk of Mr. Churchill, who had been kept to dinner +on the previous night, and to whom Sir Tom had been very polite, and +Lucy anxiously kind, doing all that was possible to put the good man at +his ease, though with but indifferent success. For the thought of such +an obligation was too great to be easily borne, and the agitation of his +mind was scarcely settled, even by the commonplaces of the dinner, and +the devotion which young Lady Randolph showed him. Perhaps the grave +politeness of Sir Tom, which was not very encouraging, and the curiosity +of the great lady, whom he had mistaken for his benefactress, +counterbalanced Mr. Churchill's satisfaction, for he did not regain his +confidence, and it was evidently with great relief of mind that he got +up from his seat when the carriage was announced to take him away. The +Contessa had given her attention to all he said and did, with a most +lively and even anxious interest, and it was from this that she had +mastered so many details which Bice had reluctantly confirmed by her +report of the information she had derived from Jock. It was not long +before Madame di Forno-Populo managed to extract everything from Lucy. +Lady Randolph was not used to defend herself against such inquiries, nor +was there any reason why she should do so. She was glad indeed when she +saw how sweetly her companion looked, and how kind were her tones, to +talk over her own difficult position with another woman, one who was +interested, and who did not express her disapproval and horror as most +people did. The Contessa, on the contrary, took a great deal of +interest. She was astonished, indeed, but she did not represent to Lucy +that what she had to do was impossible or even vicious, as most people +seemed to suppose. She listened with the gravest attention; and she gave +a soothing sense of sympathy to Lucy's troubled soul. She was so little +prepared for sympathy from such a quarter that the unexpectedness of it +made it more soothing still. + +"This is a great charge to be laid upon you," the Contessa said, with +the most kind look. "Upon you so young and with so little experience. +Your father must have been a man of very original mind, my Lucy. I have +heard of a great many schemes of benevolence, but never one like this." + +"No?" said Lucy, anxiously watching the Contessa's eye, for it was so +strange to her to have sympathy on this point, that she felt a sort of +longing for it, and that this new critic, who treated the whole matter +with more moderation and reasonableness than usual, should approve. + +"Generally one endows hospitals or builds churches; in my country there +is a way which is a little like yours; it is to give marriage +portions--that is very good I am told. It is done by finding out who is +the most worthy. And it is said also that not the most worthy is always +taken. Don't you remember there is a Rosiere in Barbe Bleue? Oh, I +believe you have never heard of Barbe Bleue." + +"I know the story," said Lucy, with a smile, "of the many wives, and the +key, and sister Anne--sister Anne." + +"Ah! that is not precisely what I mean; but it does not matter. So it is +this which makes you so grave, my pretty Lucy. I do not wonder. What a +charge for you! To encounter all the prejudices of the world which will +think you mad. I know it. And now your husband--the excellent Tom--he," +said the Contessa, laying a caressing and significant touch upon Lucy's +arm, "does not approve?" + +"Oh, Madame di Forno-Populo, that is the worst of it," cried Lucy, whose +heart was opened, and who had taken no precaution against assault on +this side; "but how do you know? for I thought that nobody knew." + +The Contessa this time took Lucy's hand between hers, and pressed it +tenderly, looking at her all the time with a look full of meaning. "Dear +child," she said, "I have been a great deal in the world. I see much +that other people do not see. And I know his face, and yours, my little +angel. It is much for you to carry upon those young shoulders. And all +for the sake of goodness and charity." + +"I do not know," said Lucy, "that it is right to say that; for, had it +been left to me, perhaps I should never have thought of it. I should +have been content with doing just what I could for the poor. No one," +said Lucy, with a sigh, "objects to that. When people are quite poor it +is natural to give them what they want; but the others----" + +"Ah, the others," said the Contessa. "Dear child, the others are the +most to be pitied. It is a greater thing, and far more difficult to give +to this good clergyman enough to make his children happy, than it is to +supply what is wanted in a cottage. Ah yes, your father was wise, he was +a person of character. The poor are always cared for. There are none of +us, even when we are ourselves poor, who do not hold out a hand to them. +There is a society in my Florence which is like you. It is for the +_Poveri Vergognosi_. You don't understand Italian? That means those who +are ashamed to beg. These are they," said the Contessa impressively, +"who are to be the most pitied. They must starve and never cry out; they +must conceal their misery and smile; they must put always a fair front +to the world, and seem to want nothing, while they want everything. Oh!" +The Contessa ended with a sigh, which said more than words. She pressed +Lucy's hand, and turned her face away. Her feelings were too much for +her, and on the delicate cheek, which Lucy could see, there was the +trace of a tear. After a moment she looked round again, and said, with +a little quiver in her voice: "I respect your father, my Lucy. It was a +noble thought, and it is original. No one I have ever heard of had such +an intention before." + +Lucy, at this unlooked-for applause, brightened with pleasure; but at +the same time was so moved that she could only look up into her +companion's face and return the pressure of her hand. When she recovered +a little she said: "You have known people like that?" + +"Known them? In my country," said the Contessa (who was not an Italian +at all), "they are as plentiful as in England--blackberries. People with +noble names, with noble old houses, with children who must never learn +anything, never be anything, because there is no money. Know them! dear +child, who can know better? If I were to tell you my history! I have for +my own part known--what I could not trouble your gentle spirit to hear." + +"But, Madame di Forno-Populo, oh! if you think me worthy of your +confidence, tell me!" cried Lucy. "Indeed, I am not so insensible as you +may think. I have known more than you suppose. You look as if no harm +could ever have touched you," Lucy cried, with a look of genuine +admiration. The Contessa had found the right way into her heart. + +The Contessa smiled with mournful meaning and shook her head. "A great +deal of harm has touched me," she said; "I am the very person to meet +with harm in the world. A solitary woman without any one to take care of +me, and also a very silly one, with many foolish tastes and +inclinations. Not prudent, not careful, my Lucy, and with very little +money; what could be more forlorn? You see," she said, with a smile "I +do not put all this blame upon Providence, but a great deal on myself. +But to put me out of the question----" + +Lucy put a hand upon the Contessa's arm. She was much moved by this +revelation. + +"Oh! don't do that," she said; "it is you I want to hear of." + +Madame di Forno-Populo had an object in every word she was saying, and +knew exactly how much she meant to tell and how much to conceal. It was +indeed a purely artificial appeal that she was making to her companion's +feelings; and yet, when she looked upon the simple sympathy and generous +interest in Lucy's face, her heart was touched. + +"How good you are," she said; "how generous! though I have come to you +against your will, and am staying--when I am not wanted." + +"Oh! do not say so," cried Lucy with eagerness; "do not think +so--indeed, it was not against my will. I was glad, as glad as I could +be, to receive my husband's friend." + +"Few women are so," said the Contessa gravely. "I knew it when I came. +Few, very few, care for their husband's friend--especially when she is a +woman----" + +Lucy fixed her eyes upon her with earnest attention. Her look was not +suspicious, yet there was investigation in it. + +"I do not think I am like that," she said simply. + +"No, you are not like that," said the Contessa. "You are the soul of +candour and sweetness; but I have vexed you. Ah, my Lucy, I have vexed +you. I know it--innocently, my love--but still I have done it. That is +one of the curses of poverty. Now look," she said, after a momentary +pause, "how truth brings truth! I did not intend to say this when I +began" (and this was perfectly true), "but now I must open my heart to +you. I came without caring much what you would think, meaning no +harm--Oh, trust me, meaning no harm! but since I have come all the +advantages of being here have appeared to me so strongly that I have set +my heart upon remaining, though I knew it was disagreeable to you." + +"Indeed:" cried Lucy, divided between sincerity and kindness: "if it was +ever so for a moment, it was only because I did not understand." + +"My sweetest child! this I tell you is one of the curses of poverty. I +knew it was disagreeable to you; but because of the great advantage of +being in your house, not only for me, but for Bice, for whom I have +sworn to do my best--Lucy, pardon me--I could not make up my mind to go +away. Listen! I said to myself, I am poor, I cannot give her all the +advantages; and they are rich; it is nothing to them--I will stay, I +will continue, though they do not want me, not for my sake, for the sake +of Bice. They will not be sorry afterwards to have made the fortune of +Bice. Listen, dear one; hear me out. I had the intention of forcing +myself upon you--oh no! the words are not too strong--in London, always +for Bice's sake, for she has no one but me; and if her career is +stopped---- I am not a woman," said the Contessa, with dignity, "who am +used to find myself _de trop_. I have been in my life courted, I may say +it, rather than disagreeable; yet this I was willing to bear--and impose +myself upon you for Bice's sake----" + +Lucy listened to this moving address with many differing emotions. It +gave her a pang to think that her hopes of having her house to herself +were thus permanently threatened. But at the same time her heart +swelled, and all her generous feelings were stirred. Was she indeed so +poor a creature as to grudge to two lonely women the shelter and +advantage of her wealth and position? If she did this, what did it +matter if she gave money away? This would indeed be keeping to the +letter of her father's will, and abjuring its meaning. She could not +resist the pathos, the dignity, the sweetness of the Contessa's appeal, +which was not for herself but for Bice, for the girl who was so good to +baby, and whom that little oracle had bound her to with links of +gratitude and tenderness. "Oh," Lucy said to herself, "if I should ever +have to appeal to any one for kindness to him!" And Bice was the +Contessa's child--the child of her heart, at least--the voluntary charge +which she had taken upon her, and to which she was devoting herself. Was +it possible that only because she wanted to have her husband to herself +in the evenings, and objected to any interruption of their privacy, a +woman should be made to suffer who was a good woman, and to whom Lucy +could be of use? No, no, she cried within herself, the tears coming to +her eyes; and yet there was a very real pang behind. + +"But reassure yourself, dear child," said the Contessa, "for now that I +see what you are doing for others, I cannot be so selfish. No; I cannot +do it any longer. In England you do not love society; you love your home +unbroken; you do not like strangers. No, my Lucy, I will learn a lesson +from your goodness. I too will sacrifice--oh, if it was only myself and +not Bice!" + +"Contessa," said Lucy with an effort, looking up with a smile through some +tears, "I am not like that. It never was that you were--disagreeable. How +could you be disagreeable? And Bice is--oh, so kind, so good to my boy. +You must never think of it more. The town house is not so large as the +Hall, but we shall find room in it. Oh, I am not so heartless, not so +stupid, as you think! Do you suppose I would let you go away after you +have been so kind as to open your heart to me, and let me know that we +are really of use? Oh, no, no! And I am sure," she added, faltering +slightly, "that Tom--will think the same." + +"It is not Tom--excellent, _cher_ Tom! that shall be consulted," cried +the Contessa. "Lucy, my little angel! if it is really so that you will +give my Bice the advantage of your protection for her _debut_---- But +that is to be an angel indeed, superior to all our little, petty, +miserable---- Is it possible, then," cried the Contessa, "that there is +some one so good, so noble in this low world?" + +This gratitude confused Lucy more than all the rest. She did her best to +deprecate and subdue; but in her heart she felt that it was a great +sacrifice she was making. "Indeed, it is nothing," she said faintly. "I +am fond of her, and she has been so good to baby; and if we can be of +any use--but oh, Madame di Forno-Populo," Lady Randolph cried, taking +courage. "Her _debut_? do you really mean what she says that she must +marry----" + +"That I mean to marry her," said the Contessa, "that is how we express +it," with a very concise ending to her transports of gratitude. "Sweet +Lucy," she continued, "it is the usage of our country. The parents, or +those who stand in their place, think it their duty. We marry our +children as you clothe them in England. You do not wait till your little +boy can choose. You find him what is necessary. Just so do we. We choose +so much better than an inexperienced girl can choose. If she has an +aversion, if she says I cannot suffer him, we do not press it upon her. +Many guardians will pay no attention, but me," said the Contessa, +putting forth a little foreign accent, which she displayed very +rarely--"I have lived among the English, and I am influenced by their +ways. Neither do I think it right," she added, with an air of candour, +"to offer an old person, or one who is hideous, or even very +disagreeable. But, yes, she must marry well. What else is there that a +girl of family can do?" + +Lucy was about to answer with enthusiasm that there were many things she +could do; but stopped short, arrested by these last words. "A girl of +family,"--that, no doubt, made a difference. She paused, and looked +somewhat wistfully in her companion's face. "We think," she said, "in +England that anything is better than a marriage without----" + +The Contessa put up her hand to stay the words. "Without love---- I know +what you are going to say; but, my angel, that is a word which Bice has +never heard spoken. She knows it not. She has not the habit of thinking +it necessary--she is a good girl, and she has no sentiment. Besides, why +should we go so fast? If she produces the effect I hope---- Why should +not some one present himself whom she could also love? Oh yes; fall in +love with, as you say in English--such an innocent phrase; let us hope +that, when the proper person comes who satisfies my requirements, +Bice--to whom not a word shall be said--will fall in love with him +_comme il faut_!" + +Lucy did not make any reply. She was troubled by the light laugh with +which the Contessa concluded, and with the slight change of tone which +was perceptible. But she was still too much moved by her own emotion to +have got beyond its spell, and she had committed herself beyond recall. +While the Contessa talked on with--was it a little, little change?--a +faint difference, a levity that had not been in her voice before? Lucy's +thoughts went back upon what she had done with a little tremor. Not this +time as to what Tom might say, but with a deeper wonder and pang as to +what might come of it; was she going voluntarily into new danger, such +as she had no clue to, and could not understand? After a little while +she asked almost timidly-- + +"But if Bice should not see any one----" + +"You mean if no one suitable should present himself?" The Contessa +suddenly grew very grave. She put her hands together with a gesture of +entreaty. "My sweet one, let us not think of that. When she is dressed +as I shall dress her, and brought out--as you will enable me to bring +her out. My Lucy, we do not know what is in her. She will shine, she +will charm. Even now, if she is excited, there are moments in which she +is beautiful. If she fails altogether---- Ah, my love, as I tell you, +there is where the curse of poverty comes in. Had she even a moderate +fortune, poor child; but alas, orphan, with no one but me----" + +"Is she an orphan?" said Lucy, feeling ashamed of the momentary failure +of her interest, "and without relations--except----" + +"Relations?" said the Contessa; there was something peculiar in her tone +which attracted Lucy's attention, and came back to her mind in other +days. "Ah, my Lucy, there are many things in this life which you have +never thought of. She has relations who think nothing of her, who would +be angry, be grieved, if they knew that she existed. Yes, it is terrible +to think of, but it is true. She is, on one side, of English parentage. +But pardon me, my sweetest, I did not mean to tell you all this: only, +my Lucy, you will one time be glad to think that you have been kind to +Bice. It will be a pleasure to you. Now let us think of it no more. +Marry; yes, she must marry. She has not even so much as your poor +clergyman; she has nothing, not a penny. So I must marry her, there is +nothing more to be said." + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX. + +THE CONTESSA'S TRIUMPH. + + +And it was with very mingled sensations that Sir Tom heard from Lucy +(for it was from her lips he heard it) the intimation that Madame di +Forno-Populo was going to be so good as to remain at the Hall till they +moved to London, and then to accompany them to Park Lane. Sir Tom was +taken entirely by surprise. He was not a man who had much difficulty in +commanding himself, or showing such an aspect as he pleased to the +general world; but on this occasion he was so much surprised that his +very jaw dropped with wonder and astonishment. It was at luncheon that +the intimation was made, in the Contessa's presence, so that he did not +venture to let loose any expression of his feelings. He gave a cry, only +half uttered, of astonishment, restrained by politeness, turning his +eyes, which grew twice their size in the bewilderment of the moment, +from Lucy to the Contessa and back again. Then he burst into a +breathless laugh--a twinkle of humour lighted in those eyes which were +big with wonder, and he turned a look of amused admiration towards the +Contessa. How had she done it? There was no fathoming the cleverness of +women, he said to himself, and for the rest of the day he kept bursting +forth into little peals of laughter all by himself. How had she managed +to do it? It was a task which he himself would not have ventured to +undertake. He would not, he said to himself, have had the slightest idea +how to bring forward such a proposition. On the contrary, had not his +sense that Lucy had much to forgive in respect to this invasion of her +home and privacy induced him to make a great sacrifice, to withdraw his +opposition to those proceedings of hers of which he so much disapproved? +And yet in an afternoon, in one interview, the Contessa had got the +upper hand! Her cleverness was extraordinary. It tickled him so that he +could not take time to think how very little satisfied he was with the +result. He, too, had fallen under her enchantments in the country, in +the stillness, if not dulness, of those long evenings, and he had been +very willing to be good to her for the sake of old times, to make her as +comfortable as possible, to give her time to settle her plans for her +London campaign. But that she should begin that campaign under his own +roof, and that Lucy, his innocent and simple wife, should be visible to +the world as the friend and ally of a lady whose name was too well known +to society, was by no means satisfactory to Sir Tom. When his first +astonishment and amazement was over, he began to look grave; but what +was he to do? He had so much respect for Lucy that when the idea +occurred to him of warning her that the Contessa's antecedents were not +of a comfortable kind, and that her generosity was mistaken, he rejected +it again with a sort of panic, and did not dare, experienced and +courageous as he was, to acknowledge to his little wife that he had +ventured to bring to her house a woman of whom it could be said that she +was not above suspicion. Sir Tom had dared a great many perils in his +life, but he did not venture to face this. He recoiled from before it, +as he would not have done from any lion in the way. He could not even +suggest to her any reticence in her communications, any reserve in +showing herself at the Contessa's side, or in inviting other people to +meet her. If all his happiness depended upon it, he felt that he could +not disturb Lucy's mind by any such warning. Confess to her that he had +brought to her a woman with whom scandal had been busy, that he had +introduced to her as his friend, and recommended to honour and kindness, +one whose name had been in all men's mouths! Sir Tom ran away morally +from this suggestion as if he had been the veriest coward; he could not +breathe a word of it in Lucy's ear. How could he explain to her that +mixture of amazement at the woman's boldness, and humorous sense of the +incongruity of her appearance in the absolute quiet of an English home, +without company, which, combined with ancient kindness and careless good +humour, had made him sanction her first appearance? Still less, how +could he explain the mingling of more subtle sensations, the +recollections of a past which Sir Tom could not himself much approve of, +yet which was full of interest still, and the formation of an +intercourse which renewed that past, and brought a little tingling of +agreeable excitement into life when it had fallen to too low an ebb to +be agreeable in itself? He would not say a word of all this to Lucy. Her +purity, her simplicity, even her want of imagination and experience, her +incapacity to understand that debatable land between vice and virtue in +which so many men find little harm, and which so many women regard with +interest and curiosity, closed his mouth. And then he comforted himself +with the reflection that, as his aunt herself had admitted, the Contessa +had never brought herself openly within the ban. Men might laugh when +the name of La Forno-Populo was introduced, and women draw themselves up +with indignation, or stare with astonishment not unmingled with +consternation as the Duchess had done; but they could not refuse to +recognise her, nor could any one assert that there was sufficient reason +to exclude her from society. Not even when she was younger, and +surrounded by worshippers, could this be said. And now when she was +less---- But here Sir Tom paused to ask himself, was she less attractive +than of old? When he came to consider the question he was obliged to +allow that he did not think so; and if she really meant to bring out +that girl---- Did she mean to bring out that girl? Could she make up her +mind to exhibit beside her own waning (if they were waning) charms the +first flush of this young beauty? Sir Tom, who thought he knew women (at +least of the kind of La Forno-Populo), shook his head and felt it very +doubtful whether the Contessa was sincere, or if she could indeed make +up her mind to take a secondary place. He thought with a rueful +anticipation of the sort of people who would flock to Park Lane to renew +their acquaintance with La Forno-Populo. "By Jove! but shall they +though? Not if I know it," said Sir Tom firmly to himself. + +Williams, the butler, was still more profoundly discomposed. He had +opened his mind to Mrs. Freshwater on various occasions when his +feelings were too many for him. Naturally, Williams gave the Contessa +the benefit of no doubt as to her reputation. He was entirely convinced, +as is the fashion of his class, that all that could have been said of +her was true, and that she was as unfit for the society of the +respectable as any wretched creature could be. "That foreign madam" was +what he called her, in the privacy of the housekeeper's room, with many +opprobrious epithets. Mrs. Freshwater, who was, perhaps, more +good-natured than was advantageous to the housekeeper and manager of a +large establishment, was melted whenever she saw her, by the Contessa's +gracious looks and ways, but Williams was immovable. "If you'd seen what +I've seen," he said, shaking his head. The women, for Lucy's maid +Fletcher sometimes shared these revelations, were deeply excited by +this--longing, yet fearing to ask what it was that Williams had seen. +"And when I think of my lady, that is as innocent as the babe unborn," +he said, "mixed up in all that---- You'll see such racketing as never was +thought of," cried Williams. "I know just how things will go. Night +turned into day, carriages driving up at all hours, suppers going on +after the play all the night through, masks and dominoes +arriving;--no--to be sure this is England. There will be no _veglionis_, +at least--which in England, ladies, would be masked balls--with Madam +the Countess and her gentlemen--and even ladies too, a sort of +ladies--in all sorts of dresses." + +"O-oh!" the women cried. + +They were partially shocked, as they were intended to be, but partially +their curiosity was excited, and a feeling that they would like to see +all these gaieties and fine dresses moved their minds. The primitive +intelligence always feel certain that "racketing" and orgies that go on +all night, must be at least guiltily delightful, exciting, and amusing, +if nothing else. They were not of those who "held with" such +dissipation; still for once in a way to see it, the responsibility not +being theirs, would be something. They held their breath, but it was not +altogether in horror; there was in it a mixture of anticipation too. + +"And I know what will come of it," said Williams. "What has come afore: +the money will have to come out o' some one's pocket; and master never +knew how to keep his to himself, never, as long as I've known him. To be +sure, he hadn't got a great deal in the old days. But I know what'll +happen; he'll just have to pay up now--he's that soft," said Williams; +"a man that can't say no to a woman. Not that I care for the money. I'd +a deal sooner he gave her an allowance, or set her up in some other +place, or just give her a good round sum--as he could afford to do--and +get shut of her. That is what I should advise. Just a round sum and get +shut of her." + +"I've always heard," said Miss Fletcher, "as the money was my lady's, +and not from the Randolph side at all." + +"What's hers is his," said Williams; "what's my lady's is her husband's; +and a good bargain too--on her side." + +"I declare," cried Fletcher energetically, stung with that sense of +wrong to her own side which gives heat to party feeling--"I declare if +any man took my money to keep up his--his--his old sweetheart, I'd +murder him. I'd take his life, that's what I should do." + +"Poor dear," said Mrs. Freshwater, wiping her eyes with her apron. "Poor +dear! She'll never murder no one, my lady. Bless her innocent face. I +only hope as she'll never find it out." + +"Sooner than she don't find it out I'll tell her myself," cried +Williams. "Now I don't understand you women. You'd let my lady be +deceived and made game of, rather than tell her." + +"Made game of!" cried Fletcher, with a shriek of indignation. "I should +like to see who dared to do that." + +"Oh, they'll dare do it, soon enough, and take their fun out of +her--it's just what them foreigners are fond of," said Williams, who +knew them and all their tricks down to the ground, as he said. Still, +however, notwithstanding his evil reports, good Mrs. Freshwater, who was +as good-natured as she was fat, could scarcely make up her mind to +believe all that of the Contessa. "She do look so sweet, and talk so +pretty, not as if she was foreign at all," the housekeeper said. + +That evening, however, the Contessa herself took occasion to explain to +Sir Tom what her intentions were. She had thought the subject all over +while she dressed for dinner, with a certain elation in her success, yet +keen clear-mindedness which never deserted her. And then, to be sure, +her object had not been entirely the simple one of getting an invitation +to Park Lane. She had intended something more than this. And she was not +sure of success in that second and still more important point. She meant +that Lady Randolph should endow Bice largely, liberally. She intended to +bring every sort of motive to bear--even some that verged upon +tragedy--to procure this. She had no compunction or faltering on the +subject, for it was not for herself, she said within herself, that she +was scheming, and she did not mean to be foiled. In considering the best +means to attain this great and final object, she decided that it would +be well to go softly, not to insist too much upon the advantages she had +secured, or to give Lucy too much cause to regret her yielding. The +Contessa had the soul of a strategist, the imagination of a great +general. She did not ignore the feelings of the subject of her +experiment. She even put herself in Lucy's place, and asked herself how +she could bear this or that. She would not oppose or overwhelm the +probable benefactress to whom she, or at least Bice, might afterwards +owe so much. When Sir Tom approached her chair in the evening when he +came in after dinner, as he always did, she made room for him on the +sofa beside her. "I am going to make you my confidant," she said in her +most charming way, with that air of smiling graciousness which made Sir +Tom laugh, yet fascinated him in spite of himself. He knew that she put +on the same air for whomsoever she chose to charm; but it had a power +which he could not resist all the same. "But perhaps you don't care to +be taken into my confidence," she added, smiling, too, as if willing to +admit all he could allege as to her syren graces. She had a delightful +air of being in the joke which entirely deceived Sir Tom. + +"On the contrary," he said. "But as we have just heard your plans from +my wife----" + +The Contessa kissed her hand to Lucy, who occupied her usual place at +the table. + +"I wonder," she said, "if you understand, being only a man, what there +is in that child; for she is but a child. You and I, we are Methuselahs +in comparison." + +"Not quite so much as that," he said, with a laugh. + +"Methuselahs," she said reflectively. "Older, if that is possible; +knowing everything, while she knows nothing. She is our good angel. It +is what you would not have dared to offer, you who know me--yes, I +believe it--and like me. Oh no, I do not go beyond that English word, +never! You like the Forno-Populo. I know how you men speak. You think +that there is amusement to be got from her, and you will do me the +honour to say, no harm. That is, no permanent harm. But you would not +offer to befriend me, no, not the best of you. But she who by nature is +against such women as I am--Sweet Lucy! Yes it is you I am talking of," +the Contessa said, who was skilful to break any lengthened speeches like +this by all manner of interruptions, so that it should never tire the +person to whom it was addressed. "She, who is not amused by me, who does +not like me, whose prejudices are all against me, she it is who offers +me her little hand to help me. It is a lovely little hand, though she is +not a beauty----" + +"My wife is very well," said Sir Tom, with a certain hauteur and +abruptness, such as in all their lengthened conversations he had never +shown before. + +The Contessa gave him a look in which there was much of that feminine +contempt at which men laugh as one of the pretences of women. "I am +going to be good to her as she is to me," she said. "The Carnival will +be short this year, and in England you have no Carnival. I will find +myself a little house for the season. I will not too much impose upon +that angel. There, now, is something good for you to relieve your mind. +I can read you, _mon ami_, like a book. You are fond of me--oh yes!--but +not too long; not too much. I can read you like a book." + +"Too long, too much, are not in my vocabulary," said Sir Tom; "have they +a meaning? not certainly that has any connection with a certain charming +Contessina. If that lady has a fault, which I doubt, it is that she +gives too little of her gracious countenance to her friends." + +"She does not come down to breakfast," said the Contessa, with her soft +laugh, which in itself was a work of art. "She is not so foolish as to +put herself in competition with the lilies and the roses, the English +flowers. Poverina! she keeps herself for the afternoon which is +charitable, and the light of the lamps which is flattering. But she +remembers other days--alas! in which she was not afraid of the sun +himself, not even of the mid-day, nor of the dawn when it comes in above +the lamps. There was a certain _bal costume_ in Florence, a year when +many English came to the Populino palace. But why do I talk of that? You +will not remember----" + +There was something apparently in the recollection that touched Sir Tom. +His eye softened. An unaccustomed colour came to his middle-aged cheek. +"I! not remember? I remember every hour, every moment," he said, and +then their voices sank lower, and a murmur of reminiscences, one filling +up another, ensued between the pair. Their tone softened, there were +broken phrases, exclamations, a rapid interchange which was far too +indistinct to be audible. Lucy sat by her table and worked, and was +vaguely conscious of it all. She had said to herself that she would take +no heed any more, that the poor Contessa was too open-hearted, too +generous to harm her, that they were but two old friends talking of the +past. And so it was; but there was a something forlorn in sitting by at +a distance, out of it all, and knowing that it was to go on and last, +alas! by her own doing, who could tell how many evenings, how many long +hours to come! + + + + +CHAPTER XXX. + +DIFFERENT VIEWS. + + +The time after this seemed to fly in the great quiet, all the +entertainments of the Christmas season being over, and the houses in the +neighbourhood gradually emptying of guests. The only visitors at the +Hall were the clergyman, the doctor, an odd man now and then whom Sir +Tom would invite in the character of a "native," for the Contessa's +amusement; and Mr. Rushton, who came from Farafield two or three times +on business, at first with a very keen curiosity, to know how it was +that Lucy had subdued her husband and got him to relinquish his +objection to her alienation of her money. This had puzzled the lawyer +very greatly. There had been no uncertainty about Sir Tom's opinion when +the subject was mooted to him first. He had looked upon it with very +proper sentiments. It had seemed to him ridiculous, incredible, that +Lucy should set up her will against his, or take her own way, when she +knew how he regarded the matter. He had told the lawyer that he had +little doubt of being able to bring her to hear reason. And then he had +written to say that he withdrew his objection! Mr. Rushton felt that +there must be some reason here more than met the eye. He made a pretence +of business that he might discover what it was, and he had done so +triumphantly, as he thought. Sir Tom, as everybody knew, had been "a +rover" in his youth, and the world was charitable enough to conclude +that in that youth there must be many things which he would not care to +expose to the eye of day. When Mr. Rushton beheld at luncheon the +Contessa, followed by the young and slim figure of Bice, it seemed to +him that everything was solved. And Lady Randolph, he thought, did not +look with very favourable eyes upon the younger lady. What doubt that +Sir Tom had bought the assent of his wife to the presence of the guests +by giving up on his side some of his reasonable rights? + +"Did you ever hear of an Italian lady that Sir Tom was thick with before +he married?" he asked his wife when he came home. + +"How can you ask me such a question," said that virtuous woman, "when +you know as well as I do that there were half-a-dozen?" + +"Did you ever hear the name of Forno-Populo?" he asked. + +Mrs. Rushton paused and did her best to look as if she was trying to +recollect. As a matter of fact all Italian names sounded alike to her, +as English names do to foreign ears. But after a moment she said boldly: +"Of course I have heard it. That was the lady from Naples, or Venice, or +some of those places, that ran away with him. You heard all about it at +the time as well as I." + +And upon this Mr. Rushton smote upon his thigh, and made a mighty +exclamation. "By George!" he said, "he's got her there, under his wife's +very nose; and that's why he has given in about the money." Nothing +could have been more clearly reasoned out--there could be no doubt upon +that subject. And the presence of Bice decided the question. Bice must +be--they said, to be sure! Dates and everything answered to this view of +the question. There could be no doubt as to who Bice was. They were very +respectable, good people themselves, and had never given any scandal to +the world; but they never hesitated for a moment or thought there was +anything unnatural in attributing the most shameful scandal and domestic +treachery to Sir Tom. In fact it would be difficult to say that they +thought much less of him in consequence. It was Lucy, rather, upon whom +their censure fell. She ought to have known better. She ought never to +have allowed it. To pretend to such simplicity was sickening, Mrs. +Rushton thought. + +It was early in February when they all went to London--a time when +society is in a sort of promissory state, full of hopes of dazzling +delights to come, but for the present not dazzling, parliamentary, +residential, a society made up of people who live in London, who are not +merely gay birds of fashion, basking in the sunshine of the seasons. +There was only a week or two of what the Contessa called Carnival, which +indeed was not Carnival at all, but a sober time in which dinner parties +began, and the men began to gather at the clubs. The Contessa did not +object to this period of quiet. She acquainted Lucy with all she meant +to do in the meantime, to the great confusion of that ingenious spirit. +"Bice must be dressed," the Contessa said, "which of itself requires no +little time and thought. Unhappily M. Worth is not in London. Even with +M. Worth I exert my own faculties. He is excellent, but he has not the +intuitions which come when one is very much interested in an object. +Sweet Lucy! you have not thought upon that matter. Your dress is as your +dressmaker sends it to you. Yes; but, my angel, Bice has her career +before her. It is different." + +"Oh, Madame di Forno-Populo," said Lucy, "do you still think in that +way--must it still be exhibiting her, marrying her?" + +"Marriage is honourable," said the Contessa. "It is what all girls are +thinking of; but me, I think it better that their parents should take it +in hand instead of the young ladies. There is something in Bice that is +difficult, oh, very difficult. If one chooses well for her, one will be +richly repaid; but if, on the contrary, one leaves it to the +conventional, the ordinary--My sweetest! your pretty white dresses, your +blues are delightful for you; but Bice is different, quite different. +And then she has no fortune. She must be piquant. She must be striking. +She must please. In England you take no trouble for that. It is not +_comme il faut_ here; but it is in our country. Each of us we like the +ways of our country best." + +"I have often wondered," said Lucy, "to hear you speak such perfect +English, and Bice too. It is, I suppose, because you are so musical and +have such good ears----" + +"Darling!" said the Contessa sweetly. She said this or a similar word +when nothing else occurred to her. She had her room full of lovely +stuffs, brought by obsequious shopmen, to whom Lady Randolph's name was +sufficient warrant for any extravagance the Contessa might think of. But +she said to herself that she was not at all extravagant; for Bice's +wardrobe was her stock-in-trade, and if she did not take the opportunity +of securing it while in her power, the Contessa thought she would be +false to Bice's interests. The girl still wore nothing but her black +frock. She went out in the park early in the morning when nobody was +there, and sometimes had riding lessons at an unearthly hour, so that +nobody should see her. The Contessa was very anxious on this point. When +Lucy would have taken Bice out driving, when she would have taken her +to the theatre, her patroness instantly interfered. "All that will come +in its time," she said. "Not now. She must not appear now. I cannot have +her seen. Recollect, my Lucy, she has no fortune. She must depend upon +herself for everything." This doctrine, at which Lucy stood aghast, was +maintained in the most matter-of-fact way by the neophyte herself. "If I +were seen," she said, "now, I should be quite stale when I appear. I +must appear before I go anywhere. Oh yes, I love the theatre. I should +like to go with you driving. But I should forestall myself. Some persons +do and they are never successful. First of all, before anything, I must +appear." + +"Oh my child," Lucy cried, "I cannot bear to hear of all this. You +should not calculate so at your age. And when you appear, as you call +it, what then, Bice? Nobody will take any particular notice, perhaps, +and you will be so disappointed you will not know what to do. Hundreds +of girls appear every season and nobody minds." + +Bice took no notice of these subduing and moderating previsions. She +smiled and repeated what the Contessa said. "I must do the best for +myself, for I have no fortune." + +No fortune! and to think that Lucy, with her mind directed to other +matters, never once realised that this was a state of affairs which she +could put an end to in a moment. It never occurred to her--perhaps, as +she certainly was matter of fact, the recollection that there was a sort +of stipulation in the will against foreigners turned her thoughts into +another channel. + +It was, however, during this time of preparation and quiet that the +household in Park Lane one day received a visit from Jock, accompanied +by no less a person than MTutor, the leader of intellectual life and +light of the world to the boy. They came to luncheon by appointment, and +after visiting some museum on which Jock's mind was set, came to remain +to dinner and go to the theatre. MTutor had a condescending appreciation +of the stage. He thought it was an educational influence, not perhaps of +any great utility to the youths under such care as his own, but of no +small importance to the less fortunate members of society; and he liked +to encourage the efforts of conscientious actors who looked upon their +own calling in this light. It was rather for this purpose than with the +idea of amusement that he patronised the play, and Jock, as in duty +bound, though there was in him a certain boyish excitement as to the +pleasure itself, did his best to regard the performance in the same +exalted light. MTutor was a young man of about thirty, slim and tall. He +was a man who had taken honours at college, though his admirers said not +such high honours as he might have taken; "For MTutor," said Jock, +"never would go in for pot-hunting, you know. What he always wanted was +to cultivate his own mind, not to get prizes." It was with heartfelt +admiration that this feature in his character was dwelt upon by his +disciples. Not a doubt that he could have got whatever he liked to go in +for, had he not been so fastidious and high-minded. He was fellow of his +college as it was, had got a poetry prize which, perhaps, was not the +Newdigate; and smiled indulgently at those who were more warm in the +arena of competition than himself. On other occasions when "men" came to +luncheon, the Contessa, though quite ready to be amused by them in her +own person, sternly forbade the appearance of Bice, the effect of whose +future was not, she was determined, to be spoilt by any such preliminary +peeps; but the Contessa's vigilance slackened when the visitors were of +no greater importance than this. She was insensible to the greatness of +MTutor. It did not seem to matter that he should be there sitting grave +and dignified by Lucy's side, and talking somewhat over Lucy's head, any +more than it mattered that Mr. Rushton should be there, or any other +person of an inferior level. It was not upon such men that Bice's +appearance was to tell. She took no precautions against such persons. +Jock himself at sixteen was not more utterly out of the question. And +the Contessa herself, as it happened, was much amused by MTutor; his +great ideas of everything, the exalted ideal that showed in all he did +or said, gave great pleasure to this woman of the world. And when they +came to the question of the educational influence of the stage, and the +conscientious character of the actors' work, she could not conceal her +satisfaction. "I will go with you, too," she said, "this evening." "We +shall all go," said Sir Tom, "even Bice. There is a big box, and behind +the curtain nobody will see her." To this the Contessa demurred, but, +after a little while, being in a yielding humour, gave way. "It is for +the play alone," she said in an undertone, raising her finger in +admonition, "You will remember, my child, for the play alone." + +"We are all going for the play alone," said Sir Tom, cheerfully. "Here +is Lucy, who is a baby for a play. She likes melodrama best, disguises +and trap-doors and long-lost sons, and all the rest of it." + +"It is a taste that is very general," said MTutor, indulgently; "but I +am sure Lady Randolph appreciates the efforts of a conscientious +interpreter--one who calls all the resources of art to his aid----" + +"I don't care for the play alone," said Bice to Jock in an undertone. "I +want to see the people. They are always the most amusing. I have seen +nobody yet in London. And though I must not be seen, I may look, that +will do no harm. Then there will be the people who come into the box." + +"The people who come into the box! but you know us all," said Jock, +astonished, "before we go----" + +"You all?" said Bice, with some disdain. "It is easy to see _you_; that +is not what I mean; this will be the first time I put my foot into the +world. The actors, that is nothing. Is it the custom in England to look +much at the play? No, you go to see your friends." + +MTutor was on the other side of this strange girl in her black frock. He +took it upon him to reply. He said: "That is the case in some countries, +but not here. In England the play is actually thought of. English actors +are not so good as the French, nor even the Italian. And the Germans are +much better trained. Nevertheless, we do what perhaps no other nation +does. We give them our attention. It is this which makes the position of +the actors more important, more interesting in England." + +"Stop a little, stop a little!" cried Sir Tom; "don't let me interrupt +you, Derwentwater, if you are instructing the young ones; but don't +forget the _Comedie Francaise_ and the aristocracy of art." + +"I do not forget it," said Mr. Derwentwater; "in that point of view we +are far behind France; still I uphold that nowhere else do people go to +the theatre for the sake of the play as we do; and it is this," he +said, turning to Bice, "that makes it possible that the theatre may be +an influence and a power." + +Bice lifted her eyes upon this man with a wondering gaze of contempt. +She gave him a full look which abashed him, though he was so much more +important, so much more intellectual, than she. Then, without deigning +to take any notice, she turned to Jock at her other side. "If that is +all I do not care for going," she said. "I have seen many plays--oh, +many! I like quite as well to read at home. It is not for that I wish to +go; but to see the world. The world, that is far more interesting. It is +like a novel, but living. You look at the people and you read what they +are thinking. You see their stories going on. That is what amuses +me;--but a play on the stage, what is it? People dressed in clothes that +do not belong to them, trying to make themselves look like somebody +else--but they never do. One says--that is not I, but the people that +know--Bravo, Got! Bravo Regnier! It does not matter what parts they are +acting. You do not care for the part. Then why go and look at it?" said +Bice with straightforward philosophy. + +All this she poured forth upon Jock in a low clear voice, as if there +was no one else near. Jock, for his part, was carried away by the flood. + +"I don't know about Got and Regnier. But what we are going to see is +Shakespeare," he said, with a little awe, "that is not just like a +common play." + +Mr. Derwentwater had been astonished by Bice's indifference to his own +instructive remarks. It was this perhaps more than her beauty which had +called his attention to her, and he had listened as well as he could to +the low rapid stream of her conversation, not without wonder that she +should have chosen Jock as the recipient of her confidence. What she +said, though he heard it but imperfectly, interested him still more. He +wanted to make her out--it was a new kind of study. While Lucy, by his +side, went on tranquilly with some soft talk about the theatre, of which +she knew very little, he thought, he made her a civil response, but gave +all his attention to what was going on at the other side; and there was +suddenly a lull of the general commotion, in which he heard distinctly +Bice's next words. + +"_What_ is Shakespeare?" she said; then went on with her own +reflections. "What I want to see is the world. I have never yet gone +into the world; but I must know it, for it is there I have to live. If +one could live in Shakespeare," cried the girl, "it would be easy; but I +have not been brought up for that; and I want to see the world--just a +little corner--because that is what concerns me, not a play. If it is +only for the play, I think I shall not go." + +"You had much better come," said Jock; "after all it is fun, and some of +the fellows will be good. The world is not to be seen at the theatre +that I know of," continued the boy. "Rows of people sitting one behind +another, most of them as stupid as possible--you don't call that the +world? But come--I wish you would come. It is a change--it stirs you +up." + +"I don't want to be stirred up. I am all living," cried Bice. There +seemed to breathe out from her a sort of visible atmosphere of energy +and impatient life. Looking across this thrill in the air, which somehow +was like the vibration of heat in the atmosphere, Jock's eyes +encountered those of his tutor, turned very curiously, and not without +bewilderment, to the same point as his own. It gave the boy a curious +sensation which he could not define. He had wished to exhibit to Mr. +Derwentwater this strange phenomenon in the shape of a girl, with a +sense that there was something very unusual in her, something in which +he himself had a certain proprietorship. But when MTutor's eyes +encountered Jock's with an astonished glance of discovery in them, which +seemed to say that he had found out Bice for himself without the +interposition of the original discoverer, Jock felt a thrill of +displeasure, and almost pain, which he could not explain to himself. +What did it mean? It seemed to bring with it a certain defiance of, and +opposition to, this king of men. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXI. + +TWO FRIENDS. + + +"Who was that young lady?" Mr. Derwentwater said. "I did not catch the +name." + +"What young lady?" To suppose for a moment that Jock did not know who +was meant would be ridiculous, of course; but, for some reason which he +did not explain even to himself, this was the reply he made. + +"My dear Jock, there was but one," said MTutor, with much friendliness. +"At your age you do not take much notice of the other sex, and that is +very well and right; but still it would be wrong to imagine that there +is not something interesting in girls occasionally. I did not make her +out. She was quite a study to me at the theatre. I am afraid the greater +part of the performance, and all the most meritorious portion of it, +was thrown away upon her; but still there were gleams of interest. She +is not without intelligence, that is clear." + +"You mean Bice," said Jock, with a certain dogged air which Mr. +Derwentwater had seldom seen in him before, and did not understand. He +spoke as if he intended to say as little as was practicable, and as if +he resented being made to speak at all. + +"Bice--ah! like Dante's Bice," said MTutor. "That makes her more +interesting still. Though it is not perhaps under that aspect that one +represents to oneself the Bice of Dante--_ben son, ben son, Beatrice._ +No, not exactly under that aspect. Dante's Bice must have been more +grand, more imposing, in her dress of crimson or dazzling white." + +Jock made no response. It was usual for him to regard MTutor devoutly +when he talked in this way, and to feel that no man on earth talked so +well. Jock in his omnivorous reading knew perhaps Dante better than his +instructor, but he had come to the age when the mind, confused in all +its first awakening of emotions, cannot talk of what affects it most. +The time had been at which he had discussed everything he read with +whosoever would listen, and instructed the world in a child's +straightforward way. At that period he had often improved Lucy's mind on +the subject of Dante, telling her all the details of that wonderful +pilgrimage through earth and heaven, to her great interest and wonder, +as something that had happened the other day. Lucy had not in those days +been quite able to understand how it was that the gentleman of Florence +should have met everybody he knew in the unseen, but she had taken it +all in respectfully, as was her wont. Jock, however, had passed beyond +this stage, and no longer told Lucy, or any one, stories from his +reading; and other sensations had begun to stir in him which he could +not put into words. In this way it was a constant admiration to him to +hear MTutor, who could always, he thought, say the right thing and never +was at a loss. But this evening he was dissatisfied. They were returning +from the theatre by a late train, and nothing but Jock's reputation and +high character as a boy of boys, high up in everything intellectual, and +without reproach in any way, besides the devoted friendship which +subsisted between himself and his tutor, could have justified Mr. +Derwentwater in permitting him in the middle of the half to go to London +to the theatre, and return by the twelve o'clock train. This privilege +came to him from the favour of his tutor, and yet for the first time his +tutor did not seem the superhuman being he had always previously +appeared to Jock. But Mr. Derwentwater was quite unsuspicious of this. + +"There is something very much out of the way in the young lady +altogether," he said. "That little black dress, fitting her like a +glove, and no ornament or finery of any description. It is not so with +girls in general. It was very striking--tell me----" + +"I didn't think," cried Jock, "that you paid any attention to what women +wore." + +Mr. Derwentwater yielded to a gentle smile. "Tell me," he said, as if he +had not been interrupted, "who this young lady may be. Is she a daughter +of the Italian lady, a handsome woman, too, in her way, who was with +your people?" The railway carriage in which they were coursing through +the blackness of the night was but dimly lighted, and it was not easy to +see from one corner to another the expression of Jock's face. + +"I don't know," said Jock, in a voice that sounded gruff, "I can't tell +who she is--I never asked. It did not seem any business of mine." + +"Old fellow," said MTutor, "don't cultivate those bearish ways. Some men +do, but it's not good form. I don't like to see it in you." + +This silenced Jock, and made his face flame in the darkness. He did not +know what excuse to make. He added reluctantly: "Of course I know that +she came with the Contessa; but who she is I don't know, and I don't +think Lucy knows. She is just--there." + +"Well, my boy," said Mr. Derwentwater, "if there is any mystery, all +right; I don't want to be prying;" but, as was natural, this only +increased his curiosity. After an interval, he broke forth again. "A +little mystery," he said, "suits them; a woman ought to be mysterious, +with her long robes falling round her, and her mystery of long hair, and +all the natural veils and mists that are about her. It is more poetic +and in keeping that they should only have a lovely suggestive name, what +we call a Christian name, instead of a commonplace patronymic, Miss +So-and-so! Yes; I recognise your Bice as by far the most suitable +symbol." + +It is impossible to say what an amount of unexpressed and inexpressible +irritation arose in the mind of Jock with every word. "Your Bice!" The +words excited him almost beyond his power of control. The mere fact of +having somehow got into opposition to MTutor was in itself an irritation +almost more than he could bear. How it was he could not explain to +himself; but only felt that from the moment when they had got into their +carriage together, Mr. Derwentwater, hitherto his god, had become almost +odious to him. The evening altogether had been exciting, but +uncomfortable. They had all gone to the theatre, where Jock had been +prepared to look on not so much at a fine piece of acting as at a +conscientious study, the laboriousness of which was one of its chief +qualities. Neither the Contessa nor Bice had been much impressed by that +fine view of the performance. Madame di Forno-Populo, indeed, had swept +the audience with her opera-glass, and paid very little attention to the +stage. She had yawned at the most important moments. When the curtain +fell she had woke up, looking with interest for visitors, as it +appeared, though very few visitors had come. Bice was put into the +corner under shelter of the Contessa, and thence had taken furtive +peeps, though without any opera-glass, with her own keen, intelligent +young eyes, at the people sitting near, whom Jock had declared not to be +in any sense of the word the world. Bice too looked up, when the box +door opened, with great interest. She kept well in the shade, but it was +evident that she was anxious to see whosoever might come. And very few +people came; one or two men who came to pay their respects to Lucy, one +or two who appeared with faces of excitement and surprise to ask if it +was indeed Madame di Forno-Populo whom they had seen? At these Bice from +out her corner gazed with large eyes; they were not persons of an +interesting kind. One of them was a Lord Somebody, who was red-faced and +had an air which somehow did not suit the place in which Lucy was, and +towards whom Sir Tom, though he knew him, maintained an aspect of +seriousness not at all usual to his cordial countenance. Bice, it was +evident, was struck with a contemptuous amaze at the appearance of these +visitors. There was a quick interchange of glances between her and the +Contessa with shrugs of the shoulders and much play of fans. Bice's +raised eyebrows and curled lips perhaps meant--"Are those your famous +friends? Is this all?" Whereas the Contessa answered deprecatingly, with +a sort of "wait a little" look. Jock, who generally was pleased to +stroll about the lobbies in a sort of mannish way in the intervals +between the acts, sat still in his place to watch all this with a +wondering sense that here was something going on in which there was a +still closer interest, and to notice everything almost without knowing +that he noted it, following in this respect, as in most others, the lead +of his tutor, who likewise addressed himself to the supervision of +everything that went on, discoursing in the meantime to Lucy about the +actors' "interpretation" of the part, and how far he, Mr. Derwentwater, +agreed with their view. To Lucy, indeed, the action of the play was +everything, and the intervals between tedious. She laughed and cried, +and followed every movement, and looked round, hushing the others when +they whispered, almost with indignation. Lucy was far younger, Jock +decided, than Bice or even himself. He, too, had learned already--how +had he learned it?--that the play going on upon the stage was less +interesting than that which was being performed outside. Even Jock had +found this out, though he could not have told how. Shakespeare, indeed, +was far greater, nobler; but the excitement of a living story, the +progress of events of which nobody could tell what would come next, had +an interest transcending even the poetry. That was what people said, +Jock was aware, in novels and other productions; but until to-night he +never believed it was true. + +And then there was the journey from town, with all the curious sensation +of parting at the theatre doors, and returning from that shining world +of gaslight, and ladies' dresses, into the dimness of the railway, the +tedious though not very long journey, the plunging of the carriage +through the blackness of the night; and along with these the questions +of Mr. Derwentwater, so unlike him, so uncalled-for, as Jock could not +help thinking. What had he to do with Bice? What had any one to do with +her? So far as she belonged to any one, it was to himself, Jock; her +first friend, her companion in her walks, he to whom she had spoken so +freely, and who had told her his opinion with such simplicity. When Jock +remembered that he had told her she was not pretty his cheeks burned. +There had stolen into his mind, he could not tell how, a very different +feeling now--not perhaps a different opinion. When he reflected it did +not seem to him even now that pretty was the word to use--but the +impression of Bice which was in his mind was something that made the boy +thrill. He did not understand it, nor could he tell what it was. But it +made him quiver with resentment when there was any question about +her--anything like this cold-blooded investigation which Mr. +Derwentwater had attempted to make. It troubled Jock all the more that +it should be MTutor who made it. When our god, our model of excellence, +comes down from his high state to anything that is petty, or less than +perfect, how sore is the pang with which we acknowledge it. "To be wroth +with those we love doth work like madness in the brain." Jock had both +these pangs together. He was angry because MTutor had been interfering +with matters in which he had no concern, and he was pained because +MTutor had condescended to ask questions and invite gossip, like the +smaller beings well enough known in the boy-world as in every other, +who make gossip the chief object of their existence. Could there be +anything in the idol of his youth akin to these? He felt sore and +disappointed, without knowing why, with a dim consciousness that there +were many other people whom Mr. Derwentwater might have inquired about +without awakening any such feelings in him. When the train stopped, and +they got out, it was strange to walk down the silent, midnight streets +by MTutor's side, without the old sensation of pleasure with which the +boy felt himself made into the man's companion. He was awakened out of +his maze of dark and painful feelings by the voice of Derwentwater +calling upon him to admire the effect of the moonlight upon the river as +they crossed the bridge. For long after that scene remained in Jock's +mind against a background of mysterious shadows and perplexity. The moon +rode in the midst of a wide clearing of blue between two broken banks of +clouds. She was almost full, and approaching her setting. She shone full +upon the river, sweeping from side to side in one flood of silver, +broken only by a few strange little blacknesses, the few boats, like +houseless stragglers out by night and without shelter, which lay here +and there by a wharf or at the water's edge. The scene was wonderfully +still and solemn, not a motion to be seen either on street or stream. +"How is it, do you think," said Mr. Derwentwater, "that we think so +little of the sun when it is he that lights up a scene like this, and so +much of the moon?" + +Jock was taken by surprise by this question, which was of a kind which +his tutor was fond of putting, and which brought back their old +relations instantaneously. Jock seemed to himself to wake up out of a +strange inarticulate dream of displeasure and embarrassment, and to feel +himself with sudden remorse, a traitor to his friend. He said, +faltering: "I don't know; it is always you that finds out the analogies. +I don't think that my mind is poetical at all." + +"You do yourself injustice, Jock," said Derwentwater, his arm within +that of his pupil in their old familiar way. And then he said: "The moon +is the feminine influence which charms us by showing herself clearly as +the source of the light she sheds. The sun we rarely think of at all, +but only of what he gives us--the light and the heat that are our life. +Her," he pointed to the sky, "we could dispense with, save for the +beauty of her." + +"I wish," said Jock, "I could think of anything so fine. But do you +think we could do without women like that?" said the inquiring young +spirit, ready to follow with his bosom bare whithersoever this refined +philosophy might lead. + +"You and I will," said the instructor. "There are grosser and there are +tamer spirits to whom it might be different. I would not wrong you by +supposing that you, my boy, could ever be tempted in the gross way; and +I don't think you are of the butterfly dancing kind." + +"I should rather think not!" said Jock, with a short laugh. + +"Then, except as a beautiful object, setting herself forth in conscious +brightness, like that emblem of woman yonder," said MTutor with a wave +of his hand, admiring, familiar, but somewhat contemptuous, towards the +moon, "what do we want with that feminine influence? Our lives are set +to higher uses, and occupied with other aims." + +Jock was perfectly satisfied with this profession of faith. He went +along the street with his tutor's arm in his, and a vague elation as of +something settled and concluded upon in his mind. Their footsteps rang +upon the pavement with a manly tramp as they paced away from the light +on the bridge into the shadow of the old houses with their red roofs. +They had gone some way before, being above all things loyal, Jock +thought it right to put in a proviso. "Not intellectually, perhaps," he +said, "but I can't forget how much I owe to my sister. I should have +been a most forlorn little wretch when I was a child, and I shouldn't be +much now, but for Lucy standing by me. It's not well to forget that, is +it, sir? though Lucy is not at all clever," he added in an undertone. + +"You are a loyal soul," said MTutor, with a pressure of his arm, "but +Woman does not mean our mothers and sisters." Here he permitted himself +a little laugh. "It shows me how much inferior is my position to that of +your youth, my dear boy," he said, "when you give me such an answer. +Believe me it is far finer than anything you suppose me to be able to +say." + +Jock did not know how to respond to this speech. It half angered, half +pleased him, but on the whole he was more ashamed of the supposed +youthfulness than satisfied with the approbation. No one, however young, +likes the imputation of innocence; and Jock had feelings rising within +him of which he scarcely knew the meaning, but which made him still more +sensible of the injustice of this view. He was too proud, however, to +explain himself even if he had been able to do so, and the little way +that remained was trodden in silence. The boy, however, could not help a +curious sensation of superiority as he went to his room through the +sleeping-house, feeling the stillness of the slumber into which he +stole, treading very quietly that he might not disturb any one. He +stopped for a moment with a candle in his hand and looked down the long +passage with its line of closed doors on each side, holding his breath +with a half smile of sympathy, respect for the hush of sleep, yet keen +superiority of life and emotion over all the unconscious household. His +own brain and heart seemed tingling with the activity and tumult of life +in them. It seemed to him impossible to sleep, to still the commotion in +his mind, and bring himself into harmony with that hushed atmosphere and +childish calm. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXII. + +YOUTHFUL UNREST. + + +Easter was very early that year, about as early as Easter can be, and +there was in Jock's mind a disturbing consciousness of the holidays, and +the manner in which he was likely to spend them, which no doubt +interfered to a certain extent with his work. He ought to have been +first in the competition for a certain school prize, and he was not. It +was carried off to the disappointment of Jock's house, and, indeed, of +the greater part of the school, by a King's scholar, which was the fate +of most of the prizes. Mr. Derwentwater was deeply cast down by this +disappointment. He expressed himself on the subject indeed with all the +fine feeling for which he was distinguished. "The loss of a +distinction," he said, "is not in itself a matter to disturb us; but I +own I should be sorry to think that you were failing at all in that +intellectual energy which has already placed you so often at the head of +the lists--that, my dear fellow, I should unfeignedly regret; but not a +mere prize, which is nothing." This was a very handsome way of speaking +of it; but that MTutor was disappointed there could be no doubt. To Jock +himself it gave a keen momentary pang to see his own name only third in +that beadroll of honour; but so it was. The holidays had all that to +answer for; the holidays, or rather what they were to bring. When he +thought of the Hall and the company there, Jock felt a certain high tide +in his veins, an awakening of interest and anticipation which he did not +understand. He did not say to himself that he was going to be happy. He +only looked forward with an eager heart, with a sense of something to +come, which was different from the routine of ordinary life. MTutor +after many hindrances and hesitations was at last going to accept the +invitation of Sir Tom, and accompany his pupil. This Jock had looked +forward to as the greatest of pleasures. But somehow he did not feel so +happy about it now. He did not seem to himself to want Mr. Derwentwater. +In some ways, indeed, he had become impatient of Mr. Derwentwater. Since +that visit to the theatre, involuntarily without any cause for it, there +had commenced to be moments in which MTutor was tedious. This sacrilege +was unconscious, and never yet had been put into words; but still the +feeling was there; and the beginning of any such revolution in the soul +must be accompanied with many uneasinesses. Jock was on the stroke, so +to speak, of seventeen. He was old for his age, yet he had been almost +childish too in his devotion to his books, and the subjects of his +school life. The last year had introduced many new thoughts to his mind +by restoring him to the partial society of his sister and her house; but +into these new subjects he had carried the devotion of his studious +habits and the enthusiasm of his discipleship, transferring himself +bodily with all his traditions into the new atmosphere. But a change +somehow had begun in him, he could not tell how. He was stirred beyond +the lines of his former being--sentiments, confusions of spirit quite +new to him, were vaguely fermenting, he could not tell how; and school +work, and prizes, and all the emulations of sixth form had somehow tamed +and paled. The colour seemed to have gone out of them. And the library +of MTutor, that paradise of thought, that home of conversation, where so +many fine things used to be said--that too had palled upon the boy's +uneasy soul. He felt as if he should prefer to leave everything behind +him,--books and compositions and talk, and even MTutor himself. Such a +state of mind is sure to occur some time or other in a boy's +experiences; but in this case it was too early, and Mr. Derwentwater, +who was very deeply devoted to his pupils, was much exercised on the +subject. He had lost Jock's confidence, he thought. How had he lost his +confidence? was it that some other less wholesome influence was coming +in? Thus there were feelings of discomfort between them, hesitations as +to what to say, instinctive avoidance of some subjects, concealed +allusions to others. It might even be said that in a very refined and +superior way, such as was alone possible to such a man, Mr. Derwentwater +occasionally talked at Jock. He talked of the pain and grief of seeing a +young heart closed to you which once had been open, and of the poignant +disappointment which arises in an elder spirit when its spiritual +child--its disciple--gets beyond its leading. Jock, occupied with his +own thoughts, only partially understood. + +It was in this state of mind that they set out together, amid all the +bustle of breaking up, to pay their promised visit. Jock, who up to this +moment had hated London, and looked with alarm upon society, had eagerly +accepted his tutor's proposal that after the ten days which they were to +spend at the Hall they should go to Normandy together for the rest of +the holidays, which was an arrangement very pleasant in anticipation. +But by this time neither of the two was at all anxious to carry it out. +Mr. Derwentwater had begun to talk of the expediency of giving a little +attention to one's own country. "We are just as foolish as the ignorant +masses," he said, "though we think ourselves so wise. Why not Devonshire +instead of Normandy? it is finer in natural scenery. Why not London +instead of Paris? there is no spell in mere going, as the ignorant say +'abroad.'" When you come to think of it, in just the same proportion as +one is superior to the common round of gaping British tourists, by going +on a walking tour in Normandy, one is superior to the walkers in +Normandy by choosing Devonshire. + +These remarks were preliminary to the intention of giving up the plan +altogether, and by the time they set out it was tacitly understood that +this was to be the case. It was to be given up--not for Devonshire. The +pair of friends had become two--they were to do each what was good in +his own eyes. Jock would remain "at home," whether that home meant the +Hall or Park Lane, and Mr. Derwentwater, after his week's visit, should +go on--where seemed to him good. + +There was a considerable party gathered in the inner drawing-room when +Jock and his companion presented themselves there. The scene was very +different from that to which Jock had been accustomed, when the +tea-table was a sort of fireside adjunct to the warmth and brightness +centred there. Now the windows were full of a clear yellow sky, shining +a little shrilly after rain, and promising in its too-clear and watery +brightness more rain to come; and many people were about, some standing +up against the light, some lounging in the comfortable chairs, some +talking together in groups, some hanging about Lucy and her tea service. +Lucy said, "Oh, is it you, Jock?" and kissed him, with a look of +pleasure; but she had not run out to meet him as of old. Lucy, indeed, +was changed, perhaps more evidently changed than any member of the +family. She was far more self-possessed than she had ever been before. +She did not now turn to her husband with that pretty look, half-smiling, +half-wistful, to know how she had got through her domestic duties. There +was a slight air of hurry and embarrassment about her eyes. The season +had not begun, and she could not have been overdone by her social +duties; but something had aged and changed her. Some old acquaintances +came forward and shook hands with Jock; and Sir Tom, when he saw who it +was, detached himself from the person he was talking to, and came +forward and gave him a sufficiently cordial welcome. The person with +whom he was talking was the Contessa. She was in her old place in the +room, the comfortable sofa which she had taken from Lady Randolph, and +where Sir Tom, leaning upon the mantelpiece, as an Englishman loves to +do, could talk to her in the easiest of attitudes. Jock, though he was +not discerning, thought that Sir Tom looked aged and changed too. The +people in general had a tired afternoon sort of look about them. They +were not like people exulting to get out of town, and out of darkness +and winter weather to the fresh air and April skies. Perhaps, however, +this effect was produced by the fact that looking for one special person +in the assembly Jock had not found her. He had never cared who was there +before. Except Lucy, the whole world was much the same to him. To talk +to her now and then, but by preference alone, when he could have her to +himself and nobody else was by, and then to escape to the library, had +been the height of his desire. Now he no longer thought of the library, +or even, save in a secondary way, of Lucy. He looked about for some one +else. There was the Contessa, sure enough, with one man on the sofa by +her side and another seated in front of her, and Sir Tom against the +mantelpiece lounging and talking. She was enchanting them all with her +rapid talk, with the pretty, swift movements of her hands, her +expressive looks and ways. But there was no shadow of Bice about the +room. Jock looked at once behind the table, where she had been always +visible when the Contessa was present. But Bice was not there. There was +not a trace of her among the people whom Jock neither knew nor cared to +know. But everything went on cheerfully, notwithstanding this omission, +which nobody but Jock seemed to remark. Ladies chattered softly as they +sipped their tea, men standing over them telling anecdotes of this +person and that, with runs of soft laughter here and there. Lucy at the +tea-table was the only one who was at all isolated. She was bending over +her cups and saucers, supplying now one and now another, listening to a +chance remark here and there, giving an abstracted smile to the person +who might chance to be next to her. What was she thinking of? Not of +Jock, who had only got a smile a little more animated than the others. +Mr. Derwentwater did not know anybody in this company. He stood on the +outskirts of it, with that look of mingled conciliation and defiance +which is natural to a man who feels himself overlooked. He was more +disappointed even than Jock, for he had anticipated a great deal of +attention, and not to find himself nobody in a fashionable crowd. + +Things did not mend even at dinner. Then the people were more easily +identified in their evening clothes, exposing themselves steadily to all +observers on either side of the table; but they did not seem more +interesting. There were two or three political men, friends of Sir Tom, +and some of a very different type who were attached to the +Contessa--indeed, the party consisted chiefly of men, with a few ladies +thrown in. The ladies were not much more attractive. One of them, a Lady +Anastasia something, was one of the most inveterate of gossip +collectors, a lady who not only provided piquant tales for home +consumption, but served them up to the general public afterwards in a +newspaper--the only representatives of ordinary womankind being a mother +and two daughters, who had no particular qualities, and who duly +occupied a certain amount of space, without giving anything in return. +But Bice was not visible. She who had been so little noticed, yet so far +from insignificant, where was she? Could it be that the Contessa had +left her behind, or that Lucy had objected to her, or that she was ill, +or that--Jock did not know what to think. The company was a strange one. +Those sedate, political friends of Sir Tom found themselves with a +little dismay in the society of the lady who wrote for what she called +the Press, and the gentlemen from the clubs. One of the guests was the +young Marquis Montjoie, who had quite lately come into his title and the +world. He had been at school with Jock a few years before, and he +recognised Mr. Derwentwater with a curious mixture of awe and contempt. +"Hallo!" he had cried when he perceived him first, and he had whispered +something to the Contessa which made her laugh also. All this Jock +remarked vaguely in his uneasiness and disappointment. What was the good +of coming home, he said to himself, if---- What was the use of having so +looked forward to the holidays and lost that prize, and disappointed +everybody, if---- There rose such a ferment in Jock's veins as had never +been there before. When the ladies left the room after dinner it was he +that opened the door for them, and as Lucy looked up with a smile into +her brother's face she met from him a scowl which took away her breath. +Why did he scowl at Lucy? and why think that in all his life he had +never seen so dull a company before? Their good things after dinner were +odious to his ears; and to think, that even MTutor should be able to +laugh at such miserable jokes and take an interest in such small talk! +That fellow Montjoie, above all, was intolerable to Jock. He had been +quite low down in the school when he left, a being of no account, a +creature called by opprobrious names, and not worthy to tie the shoes of +a member of Sixth Form. But when he rattled loudly on about nothing at +all, even Sir Tom did not refuse to listen. What was Montjoie doing +here? When the gentlemen streamed into the drawing-room, a procession of +black coats, Jock, who came last, could not help being aware that he was +scowling at everybody. He met the eyes of one of those inoffensive +little girls in blue, and made her jump, looking at her as if he would +eat her. And all the evening through he kept prowling about with his +hands in his pockets, now looking at the books in the shelves, now +frowning at Lucy, who could not think what was the matter with her +brother. Was Jock ill? What had happened to him? The young ladies in +blue sang an innocent little duet, and Jock stared at the Contessa, +wondering if she was going to sing, and if the door would open and the +slim figure in the black frock come in as by a signal and place herself +at the piano. But the Contessa only laughed behind her fan, and made a +little pretence at applause when the music ceased, having talked all +through it, she and the gentlemen about her, of whom Montjoie was one +and the loudest. No, she was not going to sing. When the door opened it +was only to admit the servants with their trays and the tea which nobody +wanted. What was the use of looking forward to the holidays if---- Mr. +Derwentwater, perhaps, had similar thoughts. He came up to Jock behind +the backs of the other people, and put an uneasy question to him. + +"I thought you said that Madame di Forno-Populo sang?" + +"She used to," said Jock laconically. + +"The music here does not seem of a high class," said MTutor. "I hope she +will sing. Italians, though their music is sensuous, generally know +something about the art." + +To this Jock made no reply, but hunched his shoulders a little higher, +and dug his hands down deeper into his pockets. + +"By the way, is the--young lady who was with Madame di Forno-Populo +here no longer?" said MTutor in a sort of accidental manner, as if that +had for the first time occurred to him. He raised his eyes to Jock's +face, which was foolish, and they both reddened in spite of themselves; +Mr. Derwentwater with sudden confusion, and Jock with angry dismay. + +"Not that I know of," said the boy. "I haven't heard anything." Then he +went on hurriedly: "No more than I know what Montjoie's doing here. +What's he been asked here for I wonder? He can't amuse anybody much." +These words, however, were contradicted practically as soon as they were +said by a peal of laughter which rose from the Contessa's little corner, +all caused as it was evident by some pleasantry of Montjoie's. + +"It seems that he does, though," said Mr. Derwentwater; and then he +added with a smile, "We are novices in society, you and I. We do best in +our own class; not to know that Montjoie will be in the very front of +society, the admired of all admirers at least for a season or two! Isn't +he a favourite of fortune, the best _parti_, a golden youth in every +sense of the word----" + +"Why, he was a scug!" cried Jock, with illimitable disdain. This +mysterious and terrible monosyllable was applied at school to a youth +hopelessly low down and destitute of any personal advantages to +counterbalance his inferiority. Jock launched it at the Marquis, +evidently now in a very different situation, as if it had been a stone. + +"Hush!" said MTutor blandly. "You will meet a great many such in +society, and they will think themselves quite as good as you." + +Then the mother of the young ladies in blue approached and disturbed +this _tete-a-tete_. + +"I think you were talking of Lord Montjoie," she said. "I hear he is so +clever; there are some comic songs he sings, which, I am told, are quite +irresistible. Mr. Trevor, don't you think you could induce him to sing +one?--as you were at school with him, and are a sort of son of the +house?" + +At this Jock glowered with eyes that were alarming to see under the deep +cover of his eyebrows, and MTutor laughed out. "We had not so exalted an +opinion of Montjoie," he said; and then, with a politic diversion of +which he was proud, "Would not your daughters favour us again? A comic +song in the present state of our feelings would be more than we could +bear." + +"What a clever fellow he is after all!" said Jock to himself admiringly, +"how he can manage people and say the right thing at the right moment! I +dare say Lucy will tell me if I ask her," he said, quite irrelevantly, +as the lady, well pleased to hear her daughters appreciated, sailed +away. There was something in the complete sympathy of Mr. Derwentwater's +mind, even though it irritated, which touched him. He put the question +point blank to Lucy when he found an opportunity of speaking to her. "I +say, Lucy, where is Bice? You have got all the old fogeys about the +place, and she is not here," the boy said. + +"Is that why you are glooming upon everybody so?" said the unfeeling +Lucy. "You cannot call your friend Lord Montjoie an old fogey, Jock. He +says you were such friends at school." + +"I--friends!" cried Jock with disdain. "Why, he was nothing but a scug." + +Thus Lucy, too, avoided the question; but it was not because she had any +real reluctance to speak of Bice, though this was what Jock could not +know. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIII. + +THE CONTESSA PREPARES THE WAY. + + +"I never sing," said the Contessa, with that serene smile with which she +was in the habit of accompanying a statement which her hearers knew to +be quite untrue. "Oh never! It is one of my possibilities which are +over--one of the things which you remember of me in--other days----" + +"So far back as March," said Sir Tom; "but we all recognise that in a +lady's calendar that may mean a century." + +"Put it in the plural, _mon ami_--centuries, that is more correct," said +the Contessa, with her dazzling smile. + +"And might one ask why this sudden acceleration of time?" asked one of +the gentlemen who were always in attendance, belonging, so to speak, to +the Contessa's side of the party. She opened out her lovely hands and +gave a little shrug to her shoulders, and elevation of her eyebrows. + +"It is easy to tell: but whether I shall tell you is another +question----" + +"Oh, do, do, Countess," cried young Montjoie, who was somewhat rough in +his attentions, and treated the lady with less ceremony than a less +noble youth would have ventured upon. "Come, don't keep us all in +suspense. I must hear you, don't you know; all the other fellows have +heard you. So, please, get over the preliminaries, and let's come to the +music. I'm awfully fond of music, especially singing. I'm a dab at that +myself----" + +The Contessa let her eyes dwell upon this illustrious young man. "Why," +she said, "have I been prevented from making acquaintance with the art +in which my Lord Montjoie is--a dab----" + +At this there was a laugh, in which the good-natured young nobleman did +not refuse to join. "I say, you know! it's too bad to make fun of me +like this," he cried; "but I'll tell you what, Countess, I'll make a +bargain with you. I'll sing you three of mine if you'll sing me one of +yours." + +The Contessa smiled with that gracious response which so often answered +instead of words. The other ladies had withdrawn, except Lucy, who +waited somewhat uneasily till her guest was ready. Though Madame di +Forno-Populo had never lost the ascendency which she had acquired over +Lady Randolph by throwing herself upon her understanding and sympathy, +there were still many things which Lucy could not acquiesce in without +uneasiness, in the Contessa's ways. The group of men about her chair, +when all the other ladies took their candles and made their way +upstairs, wounded Lucy's instinctive sense of what was befitting. She +waited, punctilious in her feeling of duty, though the Contessa had not +hesitated to make her understand that the precaution was quite +unnecessary--and though even Sir Tom had said something of a similar +signification. "She is old enough to take care of herself. She doesn't +want a chaperon," Sir Tom had said; but nevertheless Lucy would take up +a book and sit down at the table and wait: which was the more +troublesome that it was precisely at this moment that the Contessa was +most amusing and enjoyed herself most. Sir Tom's parliamentary friends +had disappeared to the smoking-room when the ladies left the room. It +was the other kind of visitors, the gentlemen who had known the +Contessa in former days, and were old friends likewise of Sir Tom, who +gathered round her now--they and young Lord Montjoie, who was rather out +of place in the party, but who admired the Contessa greatly, and thought +her better fun than any one he knew. + +The Contessa gave the young man one of those speaking smiles which were +more eloquent than words. And then she said: "If I were to tell you why, +you would not believe me. I am going to retire from the world." + +At this there was a little tumult of outcry and laughter. "The world +cannot spare you, Contessa." "We can't permit any such sacrifice." And, +"Retire! Till to-morrow?" her courtiers said. + +"Not till to-morrow. I do more than retire. I abdicate," said the +Contessa, waving her beautiful hands as if in farewell. + +"This sounds very mysterious; for an abdication is different from a +withdrawal; it suggests a successor." + +"Which is an impossibility," another said. + +The Contessa distributed her smiles with gracious impartiality to all, +but she kept a little watch upon young Montjoie, who was eager amid the +ring of her worshippers. "Nevertheless, it is more than a successor," +she said, playing with them, with a strange pleasure. To be thus +surrounded, flattered more openly than men ever venture to flatter a +woman whom they respect, addressed with exaggerated admiration, +contemplated with bold and unwavering eyes, had come by many descents to +be delightful to the Contessa. It reminded her of her old triumphs--of +the days when men of a different sort brought homage perhaps not much +more real but far more delicate, to her feet. A long career of baths and +watering-places, of Baden and Homburg, and every other conceivable +resort of temporary gaiety and fashion, had brought her to this. Sir +Tom, who was not taking much share in the conversation, stood with his +arm on the mantelpiece, and watched her and her little court with +compassionate eyes. He had laughed often before; but he did not laugh +now. Perhaps the fact that he was himself no longer her first object +helped to change the aspect of affairs. He had consented to invite these +men as old acquaintances; but it was intolerable to him to see this +scene going on in the room in which his wife was; and the Contessa's +radiant satisfaction seemed almost horrible to him in Lucy's presence. +Lucy was seated at some distance from the group, her face turned away, +her head bent, to all appearance very intent upon the book she was +reading. He looked at her with a sort of reverential impatience. She was +not capable of understanding the degradation which her own pure and +simple presence made apparent. He could not endure her to be there +sanctioning the indecorum;--and yet the tenacity with which she held her +place, and did what she thought her duty to her guest, filled him with a +wondering pride. No other scene, perhaps, he thought, in all England, +could have presented a contrast so curious. + +"The Contessa speaks in riddles," said one of the circle. "We want an +OEdipus." + +"Oh, come, Countess," said young Montjoie, "don't hang us up like this. +We are all of us on pins and needles, don't you know? It all began about +you singing. Why don't you sing? All the fellows say it's as good as +Grisi. I never heard Grisi, but I know every note Patti's got in her +voice; and I want to compare, don't you know?" + +The Contessa contemplated the young man with a sort of indulgent smile +like a mother who withholds a toy. + +"When are you going away?" she said. "You will soon go back to your dear +London, to your clubs and all your delights." + +"Oh, come, Countess," repeated Montjoie, "that isn't kind. You talk as +if you wanted to get rid of a fellow. I'm due at the Duke's on Friday, +don't you know?" + +"Then it shall be on Thursday," said the Contessa, with a laugh. + +"What shall be on Thursday?" + +The others all came round her with eager questions. + +"I am going on Wednesday," said one. "What is this that is going to +happen?" + +"And why am I to be excluded?" + +"And I? If there is to be anything new, tell us what it is." + +"Inquisitors! and they say that curiosity belongs to women," said the +Contessa. "Messieurs, if I were to tell you what it was, it would be no +longer new." + +"Well, but hang it all," cried young Montjoie, who was excited and had +forgotten his manners, "do tell us what it is. Don't you see we don't +even know what kind of thing you mean? If it's music----" + +Madame di Forno-Populo laughed once more. She loved to mystify and raise +expectations. "It is not music," she said. "It is my reason for +withdrawing. When you see that, you will understand. You will all say +the Contessa is wise. She has foreseen exactly the right moment to +retire." + +And with this she rose from the sofa with a sudden movement which took +her attendants by surprise. She was not given to shaking hands. She +withdrew quickly from Montjoie's effort to seize her delicate fingers, +which she waved to the company in general. "My Lucy," she said, "I have +kept you waiting! to this extent does one forget one's self in your +delightful house. But, my angel, you should not permit me to do it. You +should hold up your finger, and I would obey." + +"Bravo," said Montjoie's voice behind their backs in a murmur of +delight. "Oh, by Jove, isn't that good? Fancy, a woman like her, and +that simple----" + +One of the elder men gave Montjoie something like a kick, inappropriate +as the scene was for such a demonstration. "You little----think what you +are saying," he cried. + +But Sir Tom was opening the door for the ladies, and did not hear. Lucy +was tired and pale. She looked like a child beside the stately Contessa. +She had taken no notice of Madame di Forno-Populo's profession of +submission. In her heart she was longing to run to the nursery, to see +her boy asleep, and make sure that all was well; and she was not only +tired with her vigil, but uneasy, disapproving. She divined what the +Contessa meant, though not even Sir Tom had made it out. Perhaps it was +feminine instinct that instructed her on this point. Perhaps the strong +repugnance she had, and sense of opposition to what was about to be +done, quickened her powers of divination. She who had never suspected +anybody in all her life fathomed the Contessa's intentions at a glance. +"That boy!" she said to herself as she followed up the great staircase. +Lucy divined the Contessa, and the Contessa divined that she had +divined her. She turned round when they reached the top of the stairs +and paused for a moment looking at Lady Randolph's face, lit up with the +light of her candle. "My sweetest," said the Contessa, "you do not +approve. It breaks my heart to see it. But what can I do! This is my +way, it is not yours; but to me it is the only way." + +Lucy could do nothing but shake her head as she turned the way of the +nursery where her boy was sleeping. The contrast gave her a pang. Bice, +too, was no doubt sleeping the deep and dreamless sleep of youth behind +one of those closed doors; poor Bice! secluded there to increase the +effect of her eventual appearance, and about whom her protectress was +draping all those veils of mystery in order to tempt the fancy of a +commonplace youth not much more than a schoolboy! And yet the Contessa +loved her charge, and persuaded herself that she was acting for Bice's +good. Poor Bice, who was so good to little Tom! Was there nothing to be +done to save her? + +"What's going to happen on Thursday?" the men of the Contessa's train +asked of Sir Tom, as they followed him to the smoking-room, where Mr. +Derwentwater, in a velvet coat, was already seated smoking a mild +cigarette, and conversing with one of the parliamentary gentlemen. Jock +hung about in the background, turning over the books (for there were +books everywhere in this well-provided house) rather with the intention +of making it quite evident that he went to bed when he liked, and could +stay up as late as any one, than from any hankering after that cigar +which a Sixth Form fellow, so conscientious as Jock was, might not +trifle with. "Oh, here are those two duffers; those saps, don't you +know," Montjoie said, with a grimace, as he perceived them on entering +the room; in which remark he was perhaps justified by the epithets which +these two superior persons applied to him. The two parties did not +amalgamate in the smoking-room any more than in other places. The new +comers surrounded Sir Tom in a noisy little crowd, demanding of him an +explanation of the Contessa's meaning. This, however, was subdued +presently by a somewhat startling little incident. The gentlemen were +discussing the Contessa with the greatest freedom. "It's rather +astounding to meet her in a good house, just like any one else," one man +forgot himself sufficiently to say, but he came to his recollection very +quickly on meeting Sir Tom's eyes. "I beg your pardon, Randolph, of +course that's not what I mean. I mean after all those years." "Then I +hope you will remember to say exactly what you mean," said Sir Tom, "on +other occasions. It will simplify matters." + +This momentary incident, though it was quiet enough, and expressed in +tones rather less than more loud than the ordinary conversation, made a +sensation in the room, and produced first an involuntary stillness, and +then an eager access of talk. It had the effect, however, of making +everybody aware that the Contessa intended to make, on Thursday, some +revelation or other, an intimation which moved Jock and his tutor as +much or even more than it moved the others. Mr. Derwentwater even made +advances to Montjoie, whom he had steadily ignored, in order to +ascertain what it was. "Something's coming off, that's all we can tell," +that young patrician said. "She is going to retire, so she says, from +the world, don't you know? That's like a tradesman shutting up shop when +he's made his fortune, or a _prima donna_ going off the stage. It ain't +so easy to make out, is it, how the Forno-Populo can retire from the +world? She can't be going to take poison, like the great Sarah, and give +us a grand dying seance in Lady Randolph's drawing-room. That would be +going a bit too far, don't you know?" + +"It is going a bit too far to imagine such a thing," Derwentwater said. + +"Oh, come, you know, it isn't school-time," cried Montjoie, with a +laugh. And though Mr. Derwentwater was as much superior to the little +lordling as could be conceived, he retired disconcerted from this +passage of arms. To be reminded that you are a pedagogue is difficult to +bear, especially an unsuccessful pedagogue, attempting to exert +authority which exists no longer. MTutor prided himself on being a man +of the world, but he retired a little with an involuntary sense of +offence from this easy setting down. He rose shortly after and took Jock +by the arm and led him away. "You are not smoking, which I am glad to +see--and shows your sense," he said. "Come out and have a breath of air +before we go upstairs. Can you imagine anything more detestable than +that little precocious _roue_, that washed-out little man-about-town," +he added with some energy, as they stepped out of the open windows of +the library, left open in case the fine night should have seduced the +gentlemen on to the terrace to smoke their cigars. It was a lovely +spring night, soft and balmy, with a sensation of growth in the air, the +sky very clear, with airy white clouds all lit up by the moon. The quiet +and freshness gave to those who stepped into it a curious sensation of +superiority to the men whom they left in the warm brightly-lit room, +with its heavy atmosphere and artificial delights. It felt like a moral +atmosphere in contrast with the air all laden with human emanations, +smoke, and the careless talk of men. These two were perhaps somewhat +inclined to feel a superiority in any circumstances. They did so doubly +in these. + +"He was always a little cad," said Jock. + +"To hear a lady's name from his mouth is revolting," said Derwentwater. +"We are all too careless in that respect. I admire Madame di +Forno-Populo for keeping her--is it her daughter or niece?--out of the +way while that little animal is here." + +"Oh, Bice would soon make him know his place," said Jock; "she is not +just like one of the girls that are civil, you know. She is not afraid +of telling you what she thinks of you. I know exactly how she'd look at +Montjoie." Jock permitted himself an abrupt laugh in the pleasure of +feeling that he knew her ways far better than any one. "She would soon +set him down--the little beast!--in his right place." + +As they walked up and down the terrace their steps and voices were very +audible in the stillness of the night; and the windows were lighted in +the east wing, showing that the inhabitants were still up there and +about. While Jock spoke, one of these windows opened quite suddenly, and +for a single moment a figure like a shadow appeared in it. The light +movement, sudden as a bird's on the wing, would have betrayed her (she +felt) to Jock, even if she had not spoken. But she waved her hand and +called out "Good-night" in a voice full of laughter. "Don't talk +secrets, for we can hear you," she said. "Good-night!" And so vanished +again, with a little echo of laughter from within. The young men were +both excited and disconcerted by this interruption. It gave them a +sensation of shame for the moment as if they had been caught in a +discussion of a forbidden subject; and then a tingling ran through their +veins. Even MTutor for the moment found no fine speech in which to +express his sense of this sudden momentary tantalising appearance of the +mystic woman standing half visible out of the background of the unknown. +He did think some very fine things on the subject after a time, with a +side glance of philosophical reflection that her light laugh of mockery +as she momentarily revealed herself, was an outcome of this sceptical +century, and that in a previous age her utterance would have been a song +or a sigh. But at the moment even Mr. Derwentwater was subjugated by the +thrill of sensation and feeling, and found nothing to say. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIV. + +IN SUSPENSE. + + +It was thus that Bice was engaged while Lucy imagined her asleep in her +innocence, unaware of the net that was being spread for her unsuspecting +feet. Bice was neither asleep nor unsuspecting. She was innocent in a +way inconceivable to the ordinary home-keeping imagination, knowing no +evil in the devices to which she was a party; but she was not innocent +in the conventional sense. That any high feminine ideal should be +affected by the design of the Contessa or by her own participation in it +had not occurred to the girl. She had been accustomed to smile at the +high virtue of those ladies in the novels who would not receive the +addresses of the eldest son of their patroness, and who preferred a +humble village and the delights of self-sacrifice to all the grandeurs +of an ambitious marriage. That might be well enough in a novel, Bice +thought, but it was not so in life. In her own case there was no +question about it. The other way it was which seemed to her the virtuous +way. Had it been proposed to her to throw herself away upon a poor man +whom she might be supposed to love, and so prove herself incapable of +being of any use to the Contessa, and make all her previous training and +teaching of no effect, Bice's moral indignation would have been as +elevated as that of any English heroine at the idea of marrying for +interest instead of love. The possibility did not occur to her at all; +but it would have been rejected with disdain had it attempted to force +its way across the threshold of her mind. She loved nobody--except the +Contessa; which was a great defence and preservation to her thoughts. +She accepted the suggestion that Montjoie should be the means of raising +her to that position she was made for, with composure and without an +objection. It was not arranged upon secretly, without her knowledge, but +with her full concurrence. "He is not very much to look at. I wish he +had been more handsome," the Contessa said; but Bice's indifference on +this point was sublime. "What can it matter?" she said loftily. She was +not even very deeply interested in his disposition or mental qualities. +Everything else being so suitable, it would have been cowardly to shrink +from any minor disadvantage. She silenced the Contessa in the attempt to +make the best of him. "All these things are so secondary," the girl +said. Her devotion to the career chosen for her was above all weakly +arguments of this kind. She looked upon them even with a certain scorn. +And though there was in her mind some excitement as to her appearance +"in the world," as she phrased it, and her skill "to please," which was +as yet untried, it was, notwithstanding with the composure of a nature +quite unaware of any higher questions involved, that she took her part +in all the preparations. Her knowledge of the very doubtful world in +which she had lived had been of a philosophical character. She was quite +impartial. She had no prejudices. Those of whom she approved were those +who had carried out their intentions, whatever they might be, as she +should do by marrying an English Milord with a good title and much +money. She meant, indeed, to spend his money, but legitimately. She +meant to become a great lady by his means, but not to do him any harm. +Bice had an almost savage purity of heart, and the thought that any of +the stains she knew of should touch her was incredible, impossible; +neither was it in her to be unkind, or unjust, or envious, or +ungenerous. Nothing of all this was involved in the purely business +operation in which she was engaged. According to her code no professions +of attachment or pretence of feeling were necessary. She had indeed no +theories in her mind about being a good wife; but she would not be a bad +one. She would keep her part of the compact; there should be nothing to +complain of, nothing to object to. She would do her best to amuse the +man she had to live with and make his life agreeable to him, which is a +thing not always taken into consideration in marriage-contracts much +more ideal in character. He should not be allowed to be dull, that was +one thing certain. Regarding the matter in this reasonable point of +view, Bice prepared for the great event of Thursday with just excitement +enough to make it amusing. It might be that she should fail. Few +succeed at the very first effort without difficulty, she said to +herself; but if she failed there would be nothing tragical in the +failure, and the season was all before her. It could scarcely be hoped +that she would bring down her antagonist the first time she set lance in +rest. + +She was carefully kept out of sight during the intervening days; no one +saw her; no one had any acquaintance with the fact of her existence. The +precautions taken were such that Bice was never even encountered on the +staircase, never seen to flit in or out of a room, and indeed did not +exist at all for the party in the house. Notwithstanding these +precautions she had the needful exercise to keep her in health and good +looks, and still romped with the baby and held conversations with the +sympathetic Lucy, who did not know what to say to express her feeling of +anxious disapproval and desire to succour, without, at the same time, +injuring in Bice's mind her nearest friend and protectress. She might, +indeed, have spared herself the trouble of any such anxiety, for Bice +neither felt injured by the Contessa's scheme nor degraded by her +precautions. It amused the girl highly to be made a secret of, to run +all the risks of discovery and baffle the curious. The fun of it was +delightful to her. Sometimes she would amuse herself by hanging till the +last practicable moment in the gallery at the top of the staircase, on +the balcony at the window, or at the door of the Contessa's room which +was commanded by various other doors; but always vanished within in time +to avoid all inquisitive eyes, with the laughter and delight of a child +at the danger escaped, and the fun of the situation. In these cases the +Contessa would sometimes take fright, but never, so light was the +temper of this scheming woman, this deep plotter and conspirator, +refused to join in the laughter when the flight was made and safety +secured. They were like a couple of children with a mystification in +hand, notwithstanding that they were planning an invasion so serious of +all the proprieties, and meant to make so disreputable and revolting a +bargain. But this was not in their ideas. Bice went out very early in +the morning before any one was astir, to take needful exercise in the +park, and gather early primroses and the catkins that hung upon the +trees. On one of these occasions she met Mr. Derwentwater, of whom she +was not afraid; and at another time, when skirting the shrubberies at a +somewhat later hour to keep clear of any stragglers, Jock. Mr. +Derwentwater talked to her in a tone which amused the girl. He spoke of +Proserpina gathering flowers, herself a----and then altered and grew +confused under her eye. + +"Herself a---- What?" said Bice. "Have you forgotten what you were going +to say?" + +"I have not forgotten--herself a fairer flower. One does not forget such +lovely words as these," he said, injured by the question. "But when one +comes face to face with the impersonation of the poet's idea----" + +"It was poetry, then?" said Bice. "I know very little of that. It is not +in Tauchnitz, perhaps? All I know of English is from the Tauchnitz. I +read, chiefly, novels. You do not approve of that? But, yes, I like +them; because it is life." + +"Is it life?" said Derwentwater, who was somewhat contemptuous of +fiction. + +"At least it is England," said Bice. "The girls who will not make a good +marriage because of some one else, or because it is their parents who +arrange it. That is how Lady Randolph speaks. She says that nothing is +right but to fall--how do you call it?--in love?--It is not _comme il +faut_ even to talk of that." + +Derwentwater blushed like a girl. He was more inexperienced in many ways +than Bice. "And do you regard it in another point of view?" he said. + +Bice laughed out with frank disdain. "Certainly, I regard it +different--oh, quite different. That is not what happens in life." + +"And do you consider life is chiefly occupied with getting married?" he +continued, feeling, along with a good deal of quite unnecessary +excitement, a great desire to know what was her way of looking at this +great subject. Visions had been flashing recently through his mind, +which pointed a little this way too. + +"Altogether," said Bice, with great gravity, "how can you begin to live +till you have settled that? Till then you do not know what is going to +happen to you. When you get up in the morning you know not what may come +before the night; when you walk out you know not who may be the next +person you meet; perhaps your husband. But then you marry, and that is +all settled; henceforward nothing can happen!" said Bice, throwing out +her hands. "Then, after all is settled, you can begin to live." + +"This is very interesting," said Derwentwater, "I am so glad to get at a +real and individual view. But this, perhaps, only applies to--ladies? It +is, perhaps, not the same with men?" + +Bice gave him a careless, half-contemptuous glance. "I have never known +anything," she said, "about men." + +There are many girls, much more innocent in outward matters than Bice, +who would have said these words with an intention _agacante_--the +intention of leading to a great deal more badinage. But Bice spoke with +a calm, almost scornful, composure. She had no desire to _agacer_. She +looked him in the face as tranquilly as if he had been an old woman. And +so far as she was concerned he might have been an old woman; for he had +virtually no existence in his capacity of young man. Had she possessed +any clue to the thoughts that had taken rise in his mind, the new +revelation which she had conveyed to him, Bice's amazement would have +been without bounds. But instinct indicated to her that the interview +should proceed no further. She waved her hand to him as she came to a +cross road which led into the woods. "I am going this way," she cried, +darting off round the corner of a great tree. He stood and looked after +her bewildered, as her light figure skimmed along into the depths of the +shadows. "Then, after all is settled, you can begin to live," he +repeated to himself. Was it true? He had got up the morning on which he +saw her first without any thought that everything might be changed for +him that day. And now it was quite true that there lay before him an +interval which must be somehow filled up before he could begin to live. +How was it to be filled up? Would _she_ have anything to do with the +settling which must precede his recommencement of existence? He went on +with his mind altogether absorbed in these thoughts, and with a thrill +and tingling through all his veins. And that was the only time he +encountered Bice, for whom in fact, though he had not hitherto allowed +it even to himself, he had come to the Hall--till the great night. + +Jock encountered her the next day not so early, at the hour indeed when +the great people were at breakfast. He had been one of the first to +come downstairs, and he had not lingered at table as persons do who have +letters to read, and the newspapers, and all that is going on to talk +about. He met her coming from the park. She put out her hand when she +saw him as if to keep him off. + +"If you wish to speak to me," she said, "you must turn back and walk +with me. I do not want any one to see me, and they will soon be coming +out from breakfast." + +"Why don't you want any one to see you?" Jock said. + +Bice had learned the secret of the Contessa's smile; but this which she +cast upon Jock had something mocking in it, and ended in a laugh. "Oh, +don't you know?" she said, "it is so silly to be a boy!" + +"You are no older than I am," cried Jock, aggrieved; "and why don't you +come down to dinner as you used to do? I always liked you to come. It is +quite different when you are not there. If I had known I should not have +come home at all this Easter," Jock cried. + +"Oh!" cried Bice, "that means that you like me, then?--and so does +Milady. If I should go away altogether----" + +"You are not going away altogether? Why should you? There is no other +place you could be so well as here. The Contessa never says a word, but +laughs at a fellow, which is scarcely civil; and she has those men about +her that are--not----; but you----why should you go away?" cried Jock +with angry vehemence. He looked at her with eyes lowering fiercely under +his eyebrows; yet in his heart he was not angry but wretched, as if +something were rending him. Jock did not understand how he felt. + +"Oh, now, you look at me as if you would eat me," said Bice, "as if I +were the little girl in the red hood and you the wolf---- But it is +silly, for how should I stay here when Milady is going away? We are all +going to London--and then! it will soon be decided, I suppose," said +Bice, herself feeling a little sad for the first time at the idea, "what +is going to be done with me." + +"What is going to be done with you?" cried Jock hoarsely, for he was +angry and grieved, and full of impatient indignation, though he scarcely +knew why. + +Bice turned upon him with that lingering smile which was like the +Contessa's. But, unlike the Contessa's, it ended as usual in a laugh. +She kissed her hand to him, and darted round the corner of the shrubbery +just as some one appeared from breakfast. "Good-bye," she said, "do not +be angry," and so vanished like lightning. This was one of the cases +which made her heart beat with fun and exhilaration, when she was, as +she told the Contessa, nearly caught. She got into the shelter of the +east rooms, panting with the run she had made, her complexion brilliant, +her eyes shining. "I thought I should certainly be seen this time," she +said. + +The Contessa looked at the girl with admiring eyes. "I could almost have +wished you had," she said. "You are superb like that." They talked +without a shade of embarrassment on this subject, upon which English +mothers and children would blush and hesitate. + +This was the day, the great day of the revelation which the Contessa had +promised. There had been a great deal of discussion and speculation +about it in the company. No one, even Sir Tom, knew what it was. Lucy, +though she was not clever, had her wits sharpened in this respect, and +she had divined; but no one else had any conception of what was coming. +Two of the elder men had gone, very sorry to miss the great event, +whatever it was. And young Montjoie had talked of nothing else since the +promise had been made. The conversation in the drawing-room late in the +afternoon chiefly turned on this subject, and the lady visitors too +heard of it, and were not less curious. She who had the two daughters +addressed herself to Lucy for information. She said: "I hear some +novelty is expected to-night, Lady Randolph, something the Contessa has +arranged. She is very clever, is she not? and sings delightfully, I +know. There is so much more talent of that kind among foreigners than +there is among us. Is it tableaux? The girls are so longing to know." + +"Oh, yes, we want so much to know," said the young ladies in blue. + +"I don't think it is tableaux," Lucy said; "but I have not been told +what it is." + +This the ladies did not believe, but they asked no further questions. +"It is clear that she does not wish us to know; so, girls, you must say +nothing," was the conclusion of the mother. + +They said a great deal, notwithstanding this warning. The house +altogether was excited on the subject, and even Mr. Derwentwater took +part in the speculations. He looked upon the Contessa as one of those +inscrutable women of the stage, the Sirens who beguile everybody. She +had some design upon Montjoie, he felt, and it was only the youth's +impertinence which prevented Mr. Derwentwater from interfering. He +watched with the natural instinct of his profession and a strong +impulse to write to the lad's parents and have him taken away. But +Montjoie had no parents. He had attained his majority, and was supposed +by the law capable of taking care of himself. What did that woman mean +to do with the boy? She had some designs upon him. But there was nobody +to whom Mr. Derwentwater could confide his suspicions, or whom he could +ask what the Contessa meant. MTutor had not on the whole a pleasant +visit. He was disappointed in that which had been his chief object--his +favourite pupil was detached from him, he knew not how--and this other +boy, whom, though he did not love him, he could not help feeling a sort +of responsibility for, was in danger from a designing woman, a woman out +of a French play, _L'Aventuriere_, something of that sort. Mr. +Derwentwater felt that he could not drag himself away, the attractions +were so strong. He wanted to see the _denouement_; still more he wanted +to see Bice. No drama in the world had so powerful an interest. But +though it was so impossible to go away, it was not pleasant to stay. +Jock did not want him. Lucy, though she was always sweet and friendly, +had a look of haste and over-occupation; her eyes wandered when she +talked to him; her mind was occupied with other things. Most of the men +of the party were more than indifferent; were disagreeable to him. He +thought they were a danger for Jock. And Bice never was visible; that +moment on the balcony--those few minutes in the park--the half dozen +words which had been so "suggestive," he thought, which had woke so many +echoes in his mind--these were all he had had of her. Had she intended +them to awaken echoes? He asked himself this question a thousand times. +Had she willingly cast this seed of thought into his mind to +germinate--to produce--what result? If it was so, then, indeed, all the +little annoyances of his stay would be a cheap price to pay. It did not +occur to this judicious person, whose influence over his pupils was so +great, and who had studied so deeply the mind of youth, that a girl of +sixteen was but little likely to be consciously suggestive--to sow, with +any intention in her mind, seeds of meaning to develop in his. To do him +justice, he was as unconscious of the limits of sixteen in Bice's case +as we all are in the case of Juliet. She was of no age. She was the +ideal woman capable of comprehensions and intentions as far above +anything possible to the genus boy as heaven was above earth. It would +have been a profanation, a sacrilege too dreadful to be thought of, to +compare that ethereal creature with the other things of her age with +which he was so familiar. Of her age! Her age was the age of romance, of +love, of poetry, of all ineffable things. + +"I say, Countess," said Montjoie, "I hope you're not forgetting. This is +the night, don't you know. And here we are all ready for dinner and +nothing has happened. When is it coming? You are so awfully mysterious; +it ain't fair upon a fellow." + +"Is every one in the room?" said the Contessa, with an indulgent smile +at the young man's eagerness. They all looked round, for everybody was +curious. And all were there--the lady who wrote for the Press, and the +lady with the two daughters, the girls in blue; and Sir Tom's +parliamentary friends standing up against the mantelpiece, and Mr. +Derwentwater by himself, more curious than any one, keeping one eye on +Montjoie, as if he would have liked to send him to the pupil-room to do +a _poena_; and Jock indifferent, with his back to the door. All the rest +were expectant except Jock, who took no notice. The Contessa's special +friends were about her chair, rubbing their hands, and ready to back the +Forno-Populo for a new sensation. The Contessa looked round, her eye +dwelling for a moment upon Lucy, who looked a little fluttered and +uncomfortable, and upon Sir Tom, who evidently knew nothing, and was +looking on with a smile. + +"Now you shall see," she said, "why I abdicate," and made a sign, +clapping softly her beautiful hands. + +There was a momentary pause. Montjoie, who was standing out in the clear +space in the centre of the room, turned round at the Contessa's call. He +turned towards the open door, which was less lighted than the inner +room. It was he who saw first what was coming. "Oh, by Jove!" the young +Marquis said. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXV. + +THE DEBUT. + + +The door was open. The long drawing-room afforded a sort of processional +path for the newcomer. Her dress was not white like that of the ordinary +_debutante_. It had a yellow golden glow of colour, warm yet soft. She +walked not with the confused air of a novice perceiving herself +observed, but with a slow and serene gait like a young queen. She was +not alarmed by the consciousness that everybody was looking at her. Not +to have been looked at would have been more likely to embarrass Bice. +Her beautiful throat and shoulders were uncovered, her hair dressed +more elaborately than that of English girls in general. English +girls--the two innocents in blue, who were nice girls enough, and stood +with their mouths and eyes open in speechless wonder and +admiration--seemed of an entirely different species from this dazzling +creature. She made a momentary pause on the threshold, while all the +beholders held their breath. Montjoie, for one, was struck dumb. His +commonplace countenance changed altogether. He looked at her with his +face growing longer, his jaw dropping. It was more than a sensation, it +was such a climax of excitement and surprise as does not happen above +once or twice in a lifetime. The whole company were moved by similar +feelings, all except the Contessa, lying back in her chair, and Lucy, +who stood rather troubled, moving from one foot to another, clasping and +unclasping her hands. Jock, roused by the murmur, turned round with a +start, and eyed her too with looks of wild astonishment. She stood for a +moment looking at them all--with a smile which was half mischievous, +half appealing--on the threshold, as Bice felt it, not only of Lady +Randolph's drawing-room, but of the world. + +Sir Tom had started at the sight of her as much as any one. He had not +been in the secret. He cried out, "By Jove!" like Montjoie. But he had +those instincts which are, perhaps, rather old-fashioned, of protection +and service to women. He belonged to the school which thinks a girl +should not walk across a room without some man's arm to sustain her, or +open a door for herself. He started forward with a little sense of being +to blame, and offered her his arm. "Why didn't you send for me to bring +you in if you were late?" he cried, with a tone in which there was some +tremor and vexation. The effectiveness of her appearance was terrible to +Sir Tom. She looked up at him with a look of pleasure and kindness, and +said, "I was not late," with a smile. She looked taller, more developed +in a single day. But for that little pucker of vexation on Sir Tom's +forehead they would have looked like a father and daughter, the father +proudly bringing his young princess into the circle of her adorers. Bice +swept him towards Lucy, and made a low obeisance to Lady Randolph, and +took her hand and kissed it. "I must come to you first," she said. + +"Well?" said the Contessa, turning round to her retainers with a quick +movement. They were all gazing at the _debutante_ so intently that they +had no eyes for her. One of them at length replied, with something like +solemnity: "Oh, I understand what you mean, Contessa; anybody but you +would have to abdicate." "But not you," said another, who had some +kindness in his heart. The Contessa rose up with an air of triumph. "I +do not want to be compelled," she said, "I told you. I give up. I will +take your arm Mr. St. John, as a private person, having relinquished my +claims, and leave milord to the new _regime_." + +This was how it came about, in the slight scuffle caused by the sudden +change of programme, that Bice, in all her splendour, found herself +going in to the dining-room on Lord Montjoie's arm. Notwithstanding that +he had been struck dumb by her beauty, little Montjoie was by no means +happy when this wonderful good fortune fell upon him. He would have +preferred to gaze at her from the other side of the table: on the whole, +he would have been a great deal more at his ease with the Contessa. He +would have asked her a hundred questions about this wonderful beauty; +but the beauty herself rather frightened the young man. Presently, +however, he regained his courage, and as lack of boldness was not his +weak point, soon began to lose the sense of awe which had been so strong +upon him. She smiled; she was as ready to talk as he was, as the +overwhelming impression she had made upon him began to be modified by +familiarity. "I suppose," he said, when he had reached this point, "that +you arrived to-day?" And then, after a pause, "You speak English?" he +added, in a hesitating tone. She received this question with so merry a +laugh that he was quite encouraged. + +"Always," she said, "since I was a child. Was that why you were afraid +of me?" + +"Afraid?" he said; and then he looked at her almost with a recurrence of +his first fright, till her laugh reassured him. "Yes I was frightened," +Lord Montjoie said; "you looked so--so--don't you know? I was struck all +of a heap. I suppose you came to-day? We were all on the outlook from +something the Contessa said. You must be clever to get in without +anybody seeing you." + +"I was far more clever than that," said Bice; "you don't know how clever +I am." + +"I dare say," said Lord Montjoie, admiringly, "because you don't want +it. That's always the way." + +"I am so clever that I have been here all the time," said Bice, with +another laugh so joyous,--"so jolly," Montjoie said, that his terrors +died away. But his surprise took another development at this +extraordinary information. + +"By Jove!" he cried, "you don't mean that, Miss--Mademoiselle--I am so +awfully stupid I never heard--that is to say I ain't at all clever at +foreign names." + +"Oh, never mind," cried Bice; "neither am I. But yours is delightful; it +is so easy, Milord. Ought I to say Milord?" + +"Oh," cried Montjoie, a little confused. "No; I don't think so--people +don't as a rule." + +"Lord Montjoie, that is right? I like always to know----" + +"So do I," said Montjoie; "it's always best to ask, ain't it, and then +there can be no mistakes? But you don't mean to say _that_? You here +yesterday and all the time? I shouldn't think you could have been hid. +Not the kind of person, don't you know." + +"I can't tell about being the kind of person. It has been fun," said +Bice; "sometimes I have seen you all coming, and waited till there was +just time to fly. I like leaving it till the last moment, and then there +is the excitement, don't you know." + +"By Jove, what fun!" said Montjoie. He was not clever enough, few people +are, to perceive that she had mimicked himself in tone and expression. +"And I might have caught you any day," he cried. "What a muff I have +been." + +"If I had allowed myself to be caught I should have been a greater--what +do you call it? You wear beautiful things to do your smoking in, Lord +Montjoie; what is it? Velvet? And why don't you wear them to +dinner?--you would look so much more handsome. I am very fond myself of +beautiful clothes." + +"Oh, by Jove!" cried Montjoie again, with something like a blush. +"You've seen me in those things! I only wear them when I think nobody +sees. They're something from the East," he added, with a tone of +careless complacency; for, as a matter of fact, he piqued himself very +much upon this smoking-suit which had not, at the Hall, received the +applause it deserved. + +"You go and smoke like that among other men? Yes, I perceive," said +Bice, "you are just like women, there is no difference. We put on our +pretty things for other ladies, because you cannot understand them; and +you do the same." + +"Oh, come now, Miss---- Forno-Populo! you don't mean to tell me that you +got yourself up like that for the sake of the ladies?" cried the young +man. + +"For whom, then?" said Bice, throwing up her head; but afterwards, with +the instinct of a young actress, she remembered her _role_, which it was +fun to carry out thoroughly. She laughed. "You are the most clever," she +said. "I see you are one that women cannot deceive." + +Montjoie laughed, too, with gratified vanity and superior knowledge. +"You are about right there," he said. "I am not to be taken in, don't +you know. It's no good trying it on with me. I see through ladies' +little pretences. If there were no men you would not care what guys you +were; and no more do we." + +Bice made no reply. She turned upon him that dazzling smile of which she +had learned the secret from the Contessa, which was unfathomable to the +observer but quite simple to the simple-minded; and then she said: "Do +you amuse yourself very much in the evening? I used to hear the voices +and think how pleasant it would have been to be there." + +"Not so pleasant as you think," said the young man. "The only fun was +the Contessa's, don't you know. She's a fine woman for her age, but +she's---- Goodness! I forgot. She's your----" + +"She is _passee_," said the girl calmly. "You make me afraid, Lord +Montjoie. How much of a critic you are, and see through women, through +and through." At this the noble Marquis laughed with true enjoyment of +his own gifts. + +"But you ain't offended?" he said. "There was no harm meant. Even a lady +can't, don't you know, be always the same age." + +"Don't you think so?" said Bice. "Oh, I think you are wrong. The +Contessa is of no age. She is the age she pleases--she has all the +secrets. I see nobody more beautiful." + +"That may be," said Montjoie; "but you can't see everybody, don't you +know. She's very handsome and all that--and when the real thing isn't +there--but when it is, don't you know----" + +"English is very perplexing," said Bice, shaking her head, but with a +smile in her eyes which somewhat belied her air of simplicity. "What may +that be--the real thing? Shall I find it in the dictionary?" she asked; +and then their eyes met and there was another burst of laughter, +somewhat boisterous on his part, but on hers with a ring of +lightheartedness which quenched the malice. She was so young that she +had a pleasure in playing her _role_, and did not feel any immorality +involved. + +While this conversation was going on, which was much observed and +commented on by all the company, Jock from one end of the table and Mr. +Derwentwater from the other, looked on with an eager observation and +breathless desire to make out what was being said which gave an +expression of anxiety to the features of MTutor, and one of almost +ferocity to the lowering countenance of Jock. Both of these gentlemen +were eagerly questioned by the ladies next them as to who this young +lady might be. + +"Terribly theatrical, don't you think, to come into a room like that?" +said the mother of the girls in blue. "If my Minnie or Edith had been +asked to do it they would have died of shame." + +"I do not deny," said Mr. Derwentwater, "the advantage of conventional +restraints. I like the little airs of seclusion, of retirement, that +surround young ladies. But the----" he paused a little for a name, and +then with that acquaintance with foreign ways on which Mr. Derwentwater +prided himself, added, "the Signorina was at home." + +"The Signorina! Is that what you call her--just like a person that is +going on the stage. She will be the--niece, I suppose?" + +Jock's next neighbour was the lady who was engaged in literature. She +said to Jock: "I must get you to tell me her name. She is lovely. She +will make a great sensation. I must make a few notes of her dress after +dinner--would you call that yellow or white? Whoever dressed her knew +what they were about. Mademoiselle, I imagine, one ought to call her. I +know that's French, and she's Italian, but still---- The new beauty! +that's what she will be called. I am so glad to be the first to see her; +but I must get you to tell me her name." + +Among the gentlemen there was no other subject of conversation, and but +one opinion. A little hum of curiosity ran round the table. It was far +more exciting than tableaux, which was what some of the guests had +expected to be arranged by the Contessa. Tableaux! nothing could have +been equal to the effect of that dramatic entry and sudden revelation. +"As for Montjoie, all was up with him, but the Contessa knew what she +was about. She was not going to throw away her effects," they said. +"There could be no doubt for whose benefit it all was." The Contessa +graciously baffled with her charming smile all the questions that were +poured upon her. She received the compliments addressed to her with +gracious bows, but she gave no reply to any one. As she swept out of the +room after dinner she tapped Montjoie lightly on the arm with her fan. +"I will sing for you to-night," she said. + +In the drawing-room the elements were a little heterogeneous without the +gentlemen. The two girls in blue gazed at this wonderful new competitor +with a curiosity which was almost alarm. They would have liked to make +acquaintance, to draw her into their little party of youth outside the +phalanx of the elders. But Bice took no more note of them than if they +had been cabbages. She was in great excitement, all smiles and glory. +"Do I please you like this?" she said, going up to Lucy, spreading out +all her finery with the delight of a child. Lucy shrank a little. She +had a troubled anxious look, which did not look like pleasure; but Lady +Anastasia, who wrote for the newspapers, walked round and round the +_debutante_ and took notes frankly. "Of course I shall describe her +dress. I never saw anything so lovely," the lady said. Bice, in the glow +of her golden yellow, and of her smiles and delight, with the noble +correspondent of the newspapers examining her, found the acutest +interest in the position. The Contessa from her sofa smiled upon the +scene, looking on with the air of a gratified exhibitor whose show had +succeeded beyond her hopes. Lady Randolph, with an air of anxiety in her +fair and simple countenance, stood behind, looking at Bice with +protecting yet disturbed and troubled looks. The mother and daughters at +the other side looked on, she all solid and speechless with +disapproval, they in a flutter of interest and wonder and gentle envy +and offence. More than a tableau; it was like an act out of a play. And +when the gentlemen came in what a sudden quickening of the interest! +Bice rose to the action like a heroine when the great scene has come, +and the others all gathered round with a spectatorship that was almost +breathless. The worst feature of the whole to those who were interested +in Bice was her own evident enjoyment. She talked, she distributed her +smiles right and left, she mimicked yet flattered Montjoie with a +dazzling youthful assurance which confounded Mr. Derwentwater, and made +Jock furious, and brought looks of pain not only to the face of Lucy but +also to that of Sir Tom, who was less easily shocked. She was like a +young actress in her first triumph, filling her _role_ with a sort of +enthusiasm, enjoying it with all her heart. And when the Contessa rose +to sing, Bice followed her to the piano with an air as different as +possible from the swift, noiseless self-effacement of her performance on +previous occasions. She looked round upon the company with a sort of +malicious triumph, a laugh on her lips as of some delightful +mystification, some surprise of which she was in the secret. "Come and +listen," she said to Jock, lightly touching him on the shoulder as she +passed him. The Contessa's singing was already known. It was considered +by some with a certain contempt, by others with admiration, as almost as +good as professional. But when instead of one of her usual performances +there arose in splendid fulness the harmony of two voices, that of Bice +suddenly breaking forth in all the freshness of youth, unexpected, +unprepared for, the climax of wonder and enthusiasm was reached. Lady +Anastasia, after the first start and thrill of wonder, rushed to the +usual writing-table and dashed off a hurried note, which she fastened to +her fan in her excitement. "Everybody must know of this!" she cried. One +of the young ladies in the background wept with admiration, crying, +"Mamma, she is heavenly," while even the virtuous mother was moved. +"They must intend her for the stage," that lady said, wondering, +withdrawing from her _role_ of disapproval. As for the gentlemen, those +of them who were not speechless with enthusiasm were almost noisy in +their excitement. Montjoie pressed into the first rank, almost touching +Bice's dress, which she drew away between two bars, turning half round +with a slight shake of her head and a smile in her eyes, even while the +loveliest notes were flowing forth from her melodious throat. The +listeners could hear the noble lord's "by Jove," in the midst of the +music, and even detect the slight quaver of laughter which followed in +Bice's wonderful voice. + +The commotion of applause, enthusiasm, and wonder afterwards was +indescribable. The gentlemen crowded round the singers--even the +parliamentary gentlemen had lost their self-control, while the young +lady who had wept forgot her timidity to make an eager approach to the +_debutante_. + +"It was heavenly: it was a rapture: oh, sing again!" cried Miss Edith, +which was much prettier than Lord Montjoie's broken exclamations, "Oh, +by Jove! don't you know," to which Bice was listening with delighted +mockery. + +Bice had been trained to pay very little attention to the opinions of +other girls, but she gave the young lady in blue a friendly look, and +launched over her shoulder an appeal to Jock. "Didn't you like it, +you?" she cried, with a slight clap together of her hands to call his +attention. + +Jock glared at her over Miss Edith's shoulder. "I don't understand +music," he said, in his most surly voice. These were the distinct +utterances which enchanted Bice amid the murmurs of more ordinary +applause. She was delighted with them. She clapped her hands once more +with a delight which was contagious. "Ah, I know now, this is what it is +to have _succes_," she cried. + +"Now," said the Contessa, "it is the turn of Lord Montjoie, who is a +dab--that is the word--at singing, and who promised me three for one." + +At this there rose a hubbub of laughter, in the midst of which, though +with many protestations and remonstrances, "don't you know," that young +nobleman was driven to the fulfilment of his promise. In the midst of +this commotion, a sign as swift as lightning, but, unlike lightning, +imperceptible, a lifting of the eyebrows, a movement of a finger, was +given and noted. In such a musical assembly the performance of a young +marquis, with nobody knows how many thousands a year and entirely his +own master, is rarely without interest. Mr. Derwentwater turned his back +with marked indifference, and Jock with a sort of snort went away +altogether. But of the others, the majority, though some with laughter +and some with sneers, were civil, and listened to the performance. Jock +marched off with a disdain beyond expression; but he had scarcely issued +forth into the hall before he heard a rustle behind him, and, looking +back, to his amazement saw Bice in all the glory of her golden robes. + +"Hush!" she cried, smothering a laugh, and with a quick gesture of +repression, "don't say anything. It must not be discovered that I have +run away!" + +"Why have you run away? I thought you thought no end of that little +scug," cried savage Jock. + +Bice turned upon him that smile that said everything and nothing, and +then flew like a bird upstairs. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXVI. + +THE EVENING AFTER. + + +The outcry that rose when, after Montjoie's comic song, a performance of +the broadest and silliest description, was over, it was discovered that +Bice had disappeared, and especially the blank look of the performer +himself when turning round from the piano he surveyed the company in +vain for her, gratified the Contessa beyond measure. She smiled +radiantly upon the assembly in answer to all their indignant questions. +"It has been for once an indulgence," she said; "but little girls must +keep early hours." Montjoie was wounded and disappointed beyond measure +that it should have been at the moment of his performance that she was +spirited away. His reproaches were vehement, and there was something of +the pettishness of a boy in their indignant tones. "I shouldn't have +sung a note if I'd thought what was going on," he cried. "Contessa, I +would not have believed you could have been so mean--and I singing only +to please you." + +"But think how you have pleased me--and all these ladies!" cried the +Contessa. "Does not that recompense you?" Montjoie guessed that she was +laughing at him, but he did not, in fact, see anything to laugh about. +It was natural enough that the other ladies should be pleased; still he +did not care whether they were pleased or not, and he did care much that +the object of his admiration had not waited to hear him. The Contessa +found the greatest amusement in his boyish sulk and resentment, and the +rest of the evening was passed in baffling the questions with which, now +that Bice was gone, her friends overpowered her. She gave the smallest +possible dole of reply to their interrogations, but smiled upon the +questioners with sunshiny smiles. "You must come and see me in town," +she said to Montjoie. It was the only satisfaction she would give him. +And she perceived at a much earlier hour than usual that Lucy was +waiting for her to go to bed. She gave a little cry of distress when +this seemed to flash upon her. + +"Sweet Lucy! it is for me you wait!" she cried. "How could I keep you so +late, my dear one?" + +Montjoie was the foremost of those who attended her to the door, and got +her candle for her, that indispensable but unnecessary formula. + +"Of course I shall look you up in town; but we'll talk of that +to-morrow. I don't go till three--to-morrow," the young fellow said. + +The Contessa gave him her hand with a smile, but without a word, in that +inimitable way she had, leaving Montjoie a prey to such uncertainty as +poisoned his night's rest. He was not humble-minded, and he knew that he +was a prize which no lady he had met with as yet had disregarded; but +for the first time his bosom was torn by disquietude. Of course he must +see her to-morrow. Should he see her to-morrow? The Contessa's smile, +so radiant, so inexplainable, tormented him with a thousand doubts. + +Lucy had looked on at all this with an uneasiness indescribable. She +felt like an accomplice, watching this course of intrigue, of which she +indeed disapproved entirely, but could not clear herself from a certain +guilty knowledge of. That it should all be going on under her roof was +terrible to her, though it was not for Montjoie but for Bice that her +anxieties were awakened. She followed the Contessa upstairs, bearing her +candle as if they formed part of a procession, with a countenance +absolutely opposed in expression to the smiles of Madame di +Forno-Populo. When they reached the Contessa's door, Lucy, by a sudden +impulse, followed her in. It was not the first time that she had been +allowed to cross the threshold of that little enchanted world which had +filled her with wonder on her first entrance, but which by this time she +regarded with composure, no longer bewildered to find it in her own +house. Bice sprang up from a sofa on which she was lying on their +entrance. She had taken off her beautiful dress, and her hair was +streaming over her shoulders, her countenance radiant with delight. She +threw herself upon the Contessa, without perceiving the presence of Lady +Randolph. + +"But it is enchanting; it is ravishing. I have never been so happy," she +cried. + +"My child," said the Contessa, "here is our dear lady who is of a +different opinion." + +"Of what opinion?" Bice cried. She was startled by the sudden +appearance, when she had no thought of such an apparition, of Lucy's +face so grave and uneasy. It gave a contradiction which was painful to +the girl's excitement and delight. + +"Indeed, I did not mean to find fault," said Lucy. "I was only +sorry----" and here she paused, feeling herself incapable of expressing +her real meaning, and convicted of interference and unnecessary severity +by the girl's astonished eyes. + +"My dear one," said the Contessa, "it is only that we look from two +different points of view. You will not object to little Bice that she +finds society intoxicating when she first goes into it. The child has +made what you call a sensation. She has had her little _succes_. That is +nothing to object to. An English girl is perhaps more reticent. She is +brought up to believe that she does not care for _succes_. But Bice is +otherwise. She has been trained for that, and to please makes her +happy." + +"To please--whom?" cried Lady Randolph. "Oh, don't think I am finding +fault. We are brought up to please our parents and people who--care for +us--in England." + +Here Bice and the Contessa mutually looked at each other, and the girl +laughed, putting her hands together. "_She_ is pleased most of all," she +cried; "she is all my parents. I please her first of all." + +"What you say is sweet," said the Contessa, smiling upon Lucy; "and she +is right too. She pleases me most of all. To see her have her little +triumph, looking really her very best, and her dress so successful, is +to me a delight. I am nearly as much excited as the child herself!" + +Lucy looked from one to another, and felt that it was impossible for her +to say what she wished to say. The girl's pleasure seemed so innocent, +and that of her protectress and guardian so generous, so tender. All +that had offended Lucy's instincts, the dramatic effort of the +Contessa, the careful preparation of all the effects, the singling out +of young Montjoie as the object, all seemed to melt away in the girlish +delight of Bice, and the sympathetic triumph of her guardian. She did +not know what to say to them. It was she who was the culprit, putting +thoughts of harm which had not found any entrance there into the girl's +mind. She flushed with shame and an uneasy sense that the tables were +thus turned upon her; and yet how could she depart without some warning? +It was not only her own troubled uncomfortable feeling; but had she not +read the same, still more serious and decided, in her husband's eyes? + +"I don't know what to say," said Lucy. "But Sir Tom thinks so too. He +will tell you better, he knows better. Lord Montjoie is--I do not know +why he was asked. I did not wish it. He is--dear Madame di Forno-Populo, +you have seen so much more than I--he is vulgar--a little. And Bice is +so young; she may be deceived." + +For a moment a cloud, more dark than had ever been seen there before, +overshadowed the Contessa's face. But Bice burst forth into a peal of +laughter, clapping her hands. "Is that vulgar?" the girl cried. "I am +glad. Now I know how he is different. It is what you call fun, don't you +know?" she cried with sudden mimicry, at which Lucy herself could not +refuse to laugh. + +"I waited outside to hear a little of the song. It was so wonderful that +I could not laugh; and to utter all that before you, Madama, after he +had heard you--oh, what courage! what braveness!" cried Bice. "I did not +think any one could be so brave!" + +"You mean so simple, dear child," said the Contessa, whose brow had +cleared; "that is really what is so wonderful in these English men. They +are so simple, they never see how it is different. It is brave if you +please, but still more simple-minded. Little Montjoie is so. He knows no +better; not to me only, but even to you, Bice, with that voice of yours, +so pure, so fresh, he listens, then performs as you heard. It is +wonderful, as you say. But you have not told me, Lucy, my sweetest, what +you think of the little one's voice." + +"I think," said Lucy, with that disapproval which she could not +altogether restrain, "that it is very wonderful, when it is so fine, +that we never heard it before----" + +"Ah, Bice," cried the Contessa, "our dear lady is determined that she +will not be pleased to-night. We had prepared a little surprise, and it +is a failure. She will not understand that we love to please. She will +have us to be superior, as if we were English." + +"Indeed, indeed," cried Lucy, full of compunction, "I know you are +always kind. And I know your ways are different--but----" with a sort of +regretful reflectiveness, shaking her head. + +"All England is in that but," said the Contessa. "It is what has always +been said to me. In our country we love to arrange these little effects, +to have surprises, impromptus, events that are unexpected. Bice, go, my +child, go to bed, after this excitement you must rest. You did well, and +pleased me at least. My sweet Lucy," she said, when the girl with +instant obedience had disappeared into the next room, "I know how you +see it all from your point of view. But we are not as you, rich, secure. +We must make while we can our _coup_. To succeed by one _coup_, that is +my desire. And you will not interfere?" + +"Oh, Contessa," cried Lucy, "will you not spare the child? It is like +selling her. She is too good for such a man. He is scarcely a man; he is +a boy. I am ashamed to think that you should care to please----him, or +any one like him. Oh, let it come naturally! Do not plan like this, and +scheme and take trouble for----" + +"For an establishment that will make her at once safe and sure; that +will give her so many of the things that people care for--beautiful +houses, a good name, money---- I have schemed, as you say, for little +things much of my life," said the Contessa, shaking her head with a +mournful smile; "I have told you my history: for very, very little +things--for a box at the opera, for a carriage, things which are +nothing, sweetest Lucy. You have plenty; such things are nothing to you. +You cannot understand it. But that is me, my dear one. I have not a +higher mind like you; and shall I not scheme," cried the Contessa, with +sudden energy, "for the child, to make her safe that she may never +require scheming? Ah, my Lucy! I have the heart of a mother to her, and +you know what a mother will do." + +Lucy was silent, partly touched, partly resisting. If it ever could be +right to do evil that good might come, perhaps this motive might justify +it. And then came the question how much, in the Contessa's code, was +evil, of these proceedings? She was silenced, if not satisfied. There is +a certain casuistry involved in the most Christian charity: "thinketh no +evil," sometimes even implies an effort to think that there is no harm +in evil according to the intention in it. Lucy's intellect was confused, +though not that unobtrusive faculty of judgment in her which was +infallible, yet could be kept dumb. + +"My love," said the Contessa, suddenly kissing her as a sort of +dismissal, "think that you are rich and we poor. If Bice had a +provision, if she had even as much as you give away to your poor friends +and never think of again, how different would all things be for her! But +she has nothing; and therefore I prepare my little tableaux, and study +all the effects I can think of, and produce her as in a theatre, and +shut her up to _agacer_ the audience, and keep her silent and make her +sing, all for effect; yes, all for effect. But what can I do? She has +not a penny, not a penny, not even like your poor friends." + +The sudden energy with which this was said was indescribable. The +Contessa's countenance, usually so ivory-pale, shone with a sort of +reflection as if of light within, her eyes blazed, her smile gave place +to a seriousness which was almost indignation. She looked like a heroine +maintaining her right to do all that human strength could do for the +forlorn and oppressed; and there was, in fact, a certain _abandon_ of +feeling in her which made her half unconsciously open the door, and do +what was tantamount to turning her visitor out, though her visitor was +mistress of the house. Her feelings had, indeed, for the moment, got the +better of the Contessa. She had worked herself up to the point of +indignation, that Lucy who could, if she would, deliver Bice from all +the snares of poverty, had not done so, and was not, so far as appeared, +intending to do so. To find fault with the devices of the poor, and yet +not to help them--is not that one of the things least easily supportable +of all the spurns of patient merit? The Contessa was doing what she +could, all she could in her own fashion, strenuously, anxiously. But +Lucy was doing nothing, though she could have done it so easily: and +yet she found fault and criticised. Madame di Forno-Populo was swept by +a great flood of instinctive resentment. She put her hostess to the door +in the strength of it, tenderly with a kiss but not less hotly, and with +full meaning. Such impulses had stood her instead of virtue on other +occasions; she felt a certain virtue as of superior generosity and +self-sacrifice in her proceedings now. + +As for Lucy, still much confused and scarcely recognising the full +meaning of the Contessa's warmth, she made her way to her own room in a +haze of disturbed and uneasy feeling. Somehow--she could not tell +how--she felt herself in the wrong. What was it she had done? What was +it she had left undone? To further the scheme by which young Montjoie +was to be caught and trapped and made the means of fortune and endowment +to Bice was not possible. In such cases it is usually of the possible +victim, the man against whom such plots are formed, that the bystander +thinks; but Lucy thought of young Montjoie only with an instinctive +dislike, which would have been contempt in a less calm and tolerant +mind. That Bice, with all her gifts, a creature so full of life and +sweetness and strength, should be handed over to this trifling +commonplace lad, was in itself terrible to think of. Lucy did not think +of the girl's beauty, or of that newly-developed gift of song which had +taken her by surprise, but only and simply of herself, the warm-hearted +and smiling girl, the creature full of fun and frolic whom she had +learned to be fond of, first, for the sake of little Tom, and then for +her own. Little Tom's friend, his playmate, who had found him out in his +infant weakness and made his life so much brighter! And then Lucy asked +herself what the Contessa could mean, what it was that made her own +interference a sort of impertinence, why her protests had been received +with so little of the usual caressing deference? Thoughts go fast, and +Lucy had not yet reached the door of her own room, when it flashed upon +her what it was. She put down her candle on a table in the corridor, and +stood still to realise it. This gallery at the head of the great +staircase was dimly lighted, and the hall below threw up a glimmer, +reflected in the oaken balusters and doors of the closed rooms, and +dying away in the half-lit gloom above. There were sounds below far off +that betrayed the assembly still undispersed in the smoking-room, and +some fainter still, above, of the ladies who had retired to their rooms, +but were still discussing the strange events of the evening. In the +centre of this partial darkness stood Lucy, with her candle, the only +visible representative of all the hidden life around, suddenly pausing, +asking herself-- + +Was this what it meant? Undoubtedly, this was what it meant. She had the +power, and she had not used it. With a word she could make all their +schemes unnecessary, and relieve the burden on the soul of the woman who +had the heart of a mother for Bice. Tears sprang up into Lucy's eyes +unawares as this recollection suddenly seized her. The Contessa was not +perfect--there were many things in her which Lady Randolph could with +difficulty excuse to herself: but she had the heart of a mother for +Bice. Oh, yes, it was true, quite true. The heart of a mother! and how +was it possible that another mother could look on at this and not +sympathise; and how was it that the idea had never occurred to her +before--that she had never thought how changed in a moment might be +Bice's position, if only---- Here she picked up her candle again, and +went away hastily to her room. She said to herself that she was keeping +Fletcher up, and that this was unkind. But, as a matter of fact, she was +not thinking about Fletcher. There had sprung up in her soul a fear +which was twofold and contradictory. If one of those alarms was +justified, then the other would be fallacious; and yet the existence of +the one doubled the force of the other. One of these elements of +fear--the contradiction, the new terror--was wholly unthought of, and +had never troubled her peace before. She thought--and this was her old +burden, the anxiety which had already restrained her action and made her +forego what she had never failed to feel as her duty, the carrying out +of her father's will--of her husband's objection, of his opposition, of +the terrible interview she had once had with him, when she had refused +to acquiesce in his command. And then, with a sort of stealthy horror, +she thought of his departure from that opposition, and asked herself, +would he, for Bice's sake, consent to that which he had so much objected +to in other cases? This it was that made her shrink from herself and her +own thoughts, and hurry into her room for the solace of Fletcher's +companionship, and to put off as long as she could the discussion of the +question. Would Sir Tom agree to everything? Would he make no +objections--for Bice's sake? + + + + +CHAPTER XXXVII. + +THE CONTESSA'S TACTICS. + + +That morning the whole party came down to breakfast expectant, for, +notwithstanding the Contessa's habit of not appearing, it was supposed +that the young lady whom most people supposed to have arrived very +recently must be present at the morning meal. Young Montjoie, who was +generally very late, appeared among the first; and there was a look of +curiosity and anxiety in his face as he turned towards the door every +time it was opened, which betrayed his motive. But this expectation was +not destined to be repaid. Bice did not appear at breakfast. She did not +even come downstairs, though the Contessa did, for luncheon. When Madame +di Forno-Populo came in to this meal there was a general elevation of +all heads and eager look towards her, to which she replied with her +usual smile but no explanation of any kind; nor would she make any +reply, even to direct questions. She did nothing but smile when Montjoie +demanded to know if Miss Forno-Populo was not coming downstairs, if she +had gone away, if she were ill, if she would appear before three +o'clock--with which questions he assailed her in downright fashion. When +the Contessa did not smile she put on a look of injured sweetness. +"What!" she said, "Am I then so little thought of? You have no more +pleasure, ficklest of young men, in seeing me?" "Oh, I assure you, +Countess," he cried, "that's all right, don't you know; but a fellow may +ask. And then it was your own doing to make us so excited." + +"Yes, a fellow may ask," said the Contessa, smiling; but this was all +the response she would give, nothing that could really throw the least +light upon the subject of his curiosity. The other men of her following +looked on with undisguised admiration at this skilled and accomplished +woman. To see how she held in hand the youth whom they all considered as +her victim was beautiful they thought; and bets even were going amongst +them as to the certainty that she would land her big fish. Sir Tom, at +the head of the table, did not regard the matter so lightly. There was a +curve of annoyance in his forehead. He did not understand what game she +was playing. It was, without doubt, a game of some sort, and its object +was transparent enough; and Sir Tom could not easily forgive the +dramatic efforts of the previous night, or endure the thought that his +house was the scene of tactics so little creditable. He was vexed with +the Contessa, with Bice, even with Lucy, who, he could not keep from +saying to himself, should have found some means of baulking such an +intention. He was somewhat mollified by the absence of Bice now, which +seemed to him, perhaps, a tribute to his own evident disapproval; but +still he was uneasy. It was not a fit thing to take place in his house. +He saw far more clearly than he had done before that a stop should have +been put ere now to the Contessa's operations, and in the light of last +night's proceedings perceived his own errors in judgment--those errors +which he had, indeed, been sensible of, yet condoned in himself with +that wonderful charity which we show towards our own mistakes and +follies. He ought not to have asked her to the Hall; he ought not to +have permitted himself to be flattered and amused by her society, or to +have encouraged her to remain, or to have been so weak as to ask the +people she wished, which was the crowning error of all. He had invited +Montjoie, a trifling boy in whom he felt little or no interest, to +please her, without any definite idea as to what she meant, but only +with an amused sense that she had designs on the lad which Montjoie was +quite knowing enough to deliver himself from. But the turn things had +taken displeased Sir Tom. It was too barefaced, he said to himself. He, +too, felt like his more innocent wife, as if he were an accomplice in a +social crime. + +"I've been swindled, don't you know," Montjoie said; "I've been taken a +mean advantage of. None of these other beggars are going away like me. +They will get all the good of the music to-night, and I shall be far +away. I could cry to think of it, I could, don't you know; but you don't +care a bit, Countess." + +The Contessa, as usual, smiled. "_Enfant_!" she said. + +"I am not an infant. I am just the same age as everybody, old enough to +look after myself, don't you know, and pay for myself, and all that sort +of thing. Besides, I haven't got any parents and guardians. Is that why +you take such a base advantage of me?" cried the young man. + +"It is, perhaps, why----" The Contessa was not much in the way of +answering questions; and when she had said this she broke off with a +laugh. Was she going to say that this was why she had taken any trouble +about him, with a frankness which it is sometimes part of the astutest +policy to employ. + +"Why what? why what? Oh, come, you must tell me now," the young man +said. + +"Why one takes so much interest in you," said the Contessa sweetly. +"You shall come and see me, _cher petit Marquis_, in my little house +that is to be, in Mayfair; for you have found me, _n'est ce pas_, a +little house in Mayfair?" she said, turning to another of her train. + +"Hung with rose-coloured curtains and pink glass in the windows, +according to your orders, Contessa," said the gentleman appealed to. + +"How good it is to have a friend! but those curtains will be terrible," +said the Contessa, with a shiver, "if it were not that I carry with me a +few little things in a great box." + +"Oh, my dear Contessa, how many things you must have picked up!" cried +Lady Anastasia. "That peep into your boudoir made me sick with envy; +those Eastern embroideries, those Persian rugs! They have furnished me +with a lovely paragraph for my paper, and it is such a delightful +original idea to carry about one's pet furniture like one's dresses. It +will become quite the fashion when it is known. And how I shall long to +see that little house in Mayfair!" + +The Contessa smiled upon Lady Anastasia as she smiled upon the male +friends that surrounded her. Her paper and her paragraphs were not to be +despised, and those little mysterious intimations about the new beauty +which it delighted her to make. Madame di Forno-Populo turned to +Montjoie afterwards with a little wave of the hand. "You are going?" she +said; "how sad for us! we shall have no song to make us gay to-night. +But come and you shall sing to us in Mayfair." + +"Countess, you are only laughing at me. But I shall come, don't you +know," said Montjoie, "whether you mean it or not." + +The company, who were so much interested in this conversation, did not +observe the preoccupied looks of the master and mistress of the house, +although to some of the gentlemen the gravity of Sir Tom was apparent +enough. And not much wonder that he should be grave. Even the men who were +most easy in their own code looked with a certain severity and +astonishment upon him who had opened his door to the adventuress-Contessa, +of whom they all judged the worst, without even the charitable +acknowledgment which her enemy the Dowager had made, that there was +nothing in her past history bad enough to procure her absolute expulsion +from society. The men who crowded round her when she appeared, who +flattered and paid their court to her, and even took a little credit to +themselves as intimates of the siren, were one and all of opinion that to +bring her into his house was discreditable to Sir Tom. They were even a +little less respectful to Lucy for not knowing or finding out the quality +of her guest. If Tom Randolph was beginning to find out that he had been a +fool it was wonderful he had not made the discovery sooner. For he had +been a fool, and no mistake! To bring that woman to England, to keep her +in his house, to associate her in men's minds with his wife--the worst of +his present guests found it most difficult to forgive him. But they were +all the more interested in the situation from the fact that Sir Tom was +beginning to feel the effects of his folly. He said very little during +that meal. He took no notice of the badinage going on between the Contessa +and her train. When he spoke at all it was to that virtuous mother at his +other hand, who was not at all amusing, and talked of nothing but Edith +and Minnie, and her successful treatment of them through all the nursery +troubles of their life. + +Lucy, at the other end of the table, was scarcely more expansive. She +had been relieved by the absence of Bice, which, in her innocence, she +believed to be a concession to her own anxiety, feeling a certain +gratitude to the Contessa for thus foregoing the chance of another +interview with Montjoie. It could never have occurred to Lucy to suppose +that this was policy on the Contessa's part, and that her refusal to +satisfy Montjoie was in reality planned to strengthen her hold on him, +and to increase the curiosity she pretended to baffle. Lucy had no such +artificial idea in her mind. She accepted the girl's withdrawal as a +tribute to her own powers of persuasion, and a proof that though the +Contessa had been led astray by her foreign notions, she was yet ready +to perceive and adopt the more excellent way. This touched Lucy's heart +and made her feel that she was herself bound to reciprocate the +generosity. They had done it without knowing anything about the +intention in her mind, and it should be hers to carry out that intention +liberally, generously, not like an unwilling giver. She cast many a +glance at her husband while this was going through her mind. Would he +object as before? or would he, because it was the Contessa who was to be +benefited, make no objection? Lucy did not know which of the two it +would be most painful to her to bear. She had read carefully the +paragraph in her father's will about foreigners, and had found there was +no distinct objection to foreigners, only a preference the other way. +She knew indeed, but would not permit herself to think, that these were +not persons who would have commended themselves to Mr. Trevor as objects +of his bounty. Mr. Churchill, with his large family, was very +different. But to endow two frivolous and expensive women with a portion +of his fortune was a thing to which he never would have consented. With +a certain shiver she recognised this; and then she made a rush past the +objection and turned her back upon it. It was quite a common form of +beneficence in old times to provide a dower for a girl that she might +marry. What could there be wrong in providing a poor girl with something +to live upon that she might not be forced into a mercenary marriage? +While all the talk was going on at the other end of the table she was +turning this over in her mind--the manner of it, the amount of it, all +the details. She did not hear the talk, it was immaterial to her, she +cared not for it. Now and then she gave an anxious look at Sir Tom at +the other end. He was serious. He did not laugh as usual. What was he +thinking of? Would his objections be forgotten because it was the +Contessa or would he oppose her and struggle against her? Her heart beat +at the thought of the conflict which might be before her; or perhaps if +there was no conflict, if he were too willing, might not that be the +worst of all! + +Thus the background against which the Contessa wove her web of smiles +and humorous schemes was both dark and serious. There were many shadows +behind that frivolous central light. Herself the chief actor, the +plotter, she to whom only it could be a matter of personal advantage, +was perhaps the least serious of all the agents in it. The others +thought of possibilities dark enough, of perhaps the destruction of +family peace in this house which had been so hospitable to her, which +had received her when no other house would; and some, of the success of +a plan which did not deserve to succeed, and some of the danger of a +youth to whom at present all the world was bright. All these things +seemed to be involved in the present crisis. What more likely than that +Lucy, at last enlightened, should turn upon her husband, who no doubt +had forced this uncongenial companion upon her, should turn from Sir Tom +altogether, and put her trust in him no longer! And the men who most +admired the Contessa were those who looked with the greatest horror upon +a marriage made by her, and called young Montjoie poor little beggar and +poor devil, wondering much whether he ought not to be "spoken to." The +men were not sorry for Bice, nor thought of her at all in the matter, +save to conclude her a true pupil of the guardian whom most of them +believed to be her mother. But in this point where the others were +wanting Lucy came in, whose simple heart bled for the girl about to be +sacrificed to a man whom she could not love. Thus tragical surmises +floated in the air about Madame di Forno-Populo, that arch plotter whose +heart was throbbing indeed with her success, and the hope of successes +to come, but who had no tragical alarms in her breast. She was perfectly +easy in her mind about Sir Tom and Lucy. Even if a matrimonial quarrel +should be the result, what was that to an experienced woman of the +world, who knew that such things are only for the minute? and neither +Bice nor Montjoie caused her any alarm. Bice was perfectly pleased with +the little Marquis. He amused her. She had not the slightest objection +to him; and as for Montjoie, he was perfectly well able to take care of +himself. So that while everybody else was more or less anxious, the +Contessa in the centre of all her webs was perfectly tranquil. She was +not aware that she wished harm to any man, or woman either. Her light +heart and easy conscience carried her quite triumphantly through all. + +When Montjoie had gone away, carrying in his pocket-book the address of +the little house in Mayfair, and when the party had dispersed to walk or +ride or drive, as each thought fit, Lucy, who was doing neither, met her +husband coming out of his den. Sir Tom was full of a remorseful sense +that he had wronged Lucy. He took her by both hands, and drew her into +his room. It was a long time since he had met her with the same +effusion. "You are looking very serious," he said, "you are vexed, and I +don't wonder; but I see land, Lucy. It will be over directly--only a +week more----" + +"I thought you were looking serious, Tom," she said. + +"So I was, my love. All that business last night was more than I could +stand. You may think me callous enough, but I could not stand that." + +"Tom!" said Lucy, faltering. It seemed an opportunity she could not let +slip--but how she trembled between her two terrors! "There is something +that I want to say to you." + +"Say whatever you like, Lucy," he cried; "but for God's sake don't +tremble, my little woman, when you speak to me. I've done nothing to +deserve that." + +"I am not trembling," said Lucy, with the most innocent and transparent +of falsehoods. "But oh, Tom, I am so sorry, so unhappy." + +"For what?" he said. He did not know what accusation she might be going +to bring against him; and how could he defend himself? Whatever she +might say he was sure to be half guilty; and if she thought him wholly +guilty, how could he prevent it? A hot colour came up upon his +middle-aged face. To have to blush when you are past the age of blushing +is a more terrible necessity than the young can conceive. + +"Oh, Tom!" cried Lucy again, "for Bice! Can we stand by and let her be +sacrificed? She is not much more than a child; and she is always so good +to little Tom." + +"For Bice!" he cried. In the relief of his mind he was ready to have +done anything for Bice. He laughed with a somewhat nervous tremulous +outburst. "Why, what is the matter with her?" he said. "She did her part +last night with assurance enough. She is young indeed, but she ought to +have known better than that." + +"She is very young, and it is the way she has been brought up--how +should she know any better? But, Tom, if she had any fortune she would +not be compelled to marry. How can we stand by and see her sacrificed to +that odious young man?" + +"What odious young man?" said Sir Tom, astonished, and then with another +burst of his old laughter such as had not been heard for weeks, he cried +out: "Montjoie! Why, Lucy, are you crazy? Half the girls in England are +in competition for him. Sacrificed to----! She will be in the greatest +luck if she ever has such a chance." + +Lucy gave him a reproachful look. + +"How can you say so? A little vulgar boy--a creature not worthy to----" + +"My dear, you are prejudiced. You are taking Jock's view. That worthy's +opinion of a fellow who never rose above Lower Fourth is to be received +with reservation. A fellow may be a scug, and yet not a bad fellow--that +is what Jock has yet to learn." + +"Oh, Tom, I cannot laugh," said Lucy. "What can she do, the Contessa +says? She must marry the first that offers, and in the meantime she +attracts notice _like that_. It is dreadful to think of it. I think that +some one--that we--I--ought to interfere." + +"My innocent Lucy," said Sir Tom, "how can you interfere? You know +nothing about the tactics of such people. I am very penitent for my +share in the matter. I ought not to have brought so much upon you." + +"Oh, Tom," cried Lucy again, drawing closer to him, eager to anticipate +with her pardon any blame to which he might be liable. And then she +added, returning to her own subject: "She is of English parentage--on +one side." + +Why this fact, so simply stated, should have startled her husband so +much, Lucy could not imagine. He almost gasped as he met her eyes, as if +he had received or feared a sudden blow, and underneath the brownness of +his complexion grew suddenly pale, all the ruddy colour forsaking his +face. "Of English parentage!" he said, faltering, "do you mean?--what do +you mean? Why--do you tell this to me?" + +Lucy was surprised, but saw no significance in his agitation. And her +mind was full of her own purpose. "Because of the will which is against +foreigners," she said simply. "But in that case she would not be a +foreigner, Tom. I think a great deal of this. I want to do it. Oh, don't +oppose me! It makes it so much harder when you go against me." + +He gazed at her with a sort of awe. He did not seem able to speak. What +she had said, though she was unconscious of any special meaning in it, +seemed to have acted upon him like a spell. There was something tragic +in his look which frightened Lucy. She came closer still and put her +hand upon his arm. + +"Oh, it is not to trouble you, Tom; it is not that I want to go against +you! But give me your consent this once. Baby is so fond of her, and she +is so good to him. I want to give something to Bice. Let me make a +provision for her?" she said, pleading. "Do not take all the pleasure +out of it and oppose me. Oh, dear Tom, give me your free consent!" Lucy +cried. + +He kept gazing at her with that look of awe. "Oppose you!" he said. What +was the shock he had received which made him so unlike himself? His very +lips quivered as he spoke. "God forgive me; what have I been doing?" he +cried. "Lucy, I think I will never oppose you more." + + + + +CHAPTER XXXVIII. + +DISCOVERIES. + + +This interview had an agitating and painful effect upon Lucy, though she +could not tell why. It was not what she expected or feared--neither in +one sense nor the other. He had neither distressed her by opposing her +proceedings, nor accepted her beneficence towards the Contessa with +levity and satisfaction, both of which dangers she had been prepared +for. Instead, however, of agitating her by the reception he gave to her +proposal, it was he who was agitated by something which in entire +unconsciousness she had said. But what that could be Lucy could not +divine. She had said nothing that could affect him personally so far as +she knew. She went over every word of the conversation without being +able to discover what could have had this effect. But she could find +nothing, there was no clue anywhere that her unconscious mind could +discover. She concluded finally with much compunction that it was the +implied reproach that he had taken away all pleasure in what she did by +opposing her, that had so disturbed her husband. He was so kind. He had +not been able to bear even the possibility that his opposition had been +a source of pain. "I think I will never oppose you any more." In an +answering burst of generosity Lucy said to herself that she did not +desire this; that she preferred that he should find fault and object +when he disapproved, not consent to everything. But the reflection of +the disturbance she had seen in her husband's countenance was in her +mind all day; she could not shake it off; and he was so grave that every +look she cast at him strengthened the impression. He did not approach +the circle in which the Contessa sat all the evening, but stood apart, +silent, taking little notice of anybody until Mr. Derwentwater secured +his ear, when Sir Tom, instead of his usual genial laugh at MTutor's +solemnities, discharged little caustic criticisms which astonished his +companion. Mr. Derwentwater was going away next day, and he, too, was +preoccupied. After that conversation with Sir Tom, he betook himself to +Lucy, who was very silent too, and doing little for the entertainment of +her guests. He made her sundry pretty speeches, such as are appropriate +from a departing guest. + +"Jock has made up his mind to stay behind," he said. "I am sorry, but I +am not surprised. I shall lose a most agreeable travelling companion; +but, perhaps, home influences are best for the young." + +"I don't know why Jock has changed his mind, Mr. Derwentwater. He wanted +very much to go." + +"He would say that here's metal more attractive," said the tutor with an +offended smile; and then he paused, and, clearing his throat, asked in a +still more evident tone of offence--"Does not your young friend the +Signorina appear again? I thought from her appearance last night that +she was making her _debut_." + +"Yes, it was like it," said Lucy. "The Contessa is not like one of us," +she added after a moment. "She has her own ways--and, perhaps, I don't +know--that may be the Italian fashion." + +"Not at all," Mr. Derwentwater said promptly. He was an authority upon +national usages. "But I am afraid it was very transparent what the +Contessa meant," he said, after a pause. + +To this Lucy made no reply, and the tutor, who was sensitive, especially +as to bad taste, reddened at his inappropriate observation. He went on +hastily; "The Signorina--or should I say Mademoiselle di +Forno-Populo?--has a great deal of charm. I do not know if she is so +beautiful as her mother----" + +"Oh, not her mother," cried Lucy quickly, with a smile at the mistake. + +"Is she not her mother? The young lady's face indeed is different. It is +of a higher order--it is full of thought. It is noble in repose. She +does not seem made for these scenes of festivity, if you will pardon me, +Lady Randolph, but for the higher retirements----" + +"Oh, she is very fond of seeing people," said Lucy. "You must not +suppose she is too serious for her age. She enjoyed herself last night." + +"There is no age," said Mr. Derwentwater, "at which one can be too +serious--and especially in youth, when all the world is before one, when +one cannot tell what effect a careless step may have one way or another. +It is just that sweet gravity that charms me. I think she was quite out +of her element, excuse me for saying so, Lady Randolph, last night." + +"Do you think so? Oh, I am afraid not. I am afraid she liked it," said +Lucy. "Jock, don't you think Bice liked it. I should much rather think +not, but I am afraid--I am afraid----" + +"She couldn't like that little cad," said Jock, who had drawn near with +an instinctive sense that something was going on which concerned him. +"But she's never solemn either," added the boy. + +"Is that for me, Jock?" said MTutor, with a pensive gentleness of +reproach. "Well, never mind. We must all put up with little +misunderstandings from the younger generation. Some time or other you +will judge differently. I should like to have had an opportunity again +of such music as we heard last night; but I suppose I must not hope for +it." + +"Oh, do you mean Lord Montjoie's song?" cried one of the young ladies in +blue, who had drawn near. "Wasn't it fun? Of course I know it wasn't to +be compared to the Contessa; but I've no musical taste. I always confess +it--that's Edith's line. But Lord Montjoie _was_ fun. Don't you think +so, dear Lady Randolph," Miss Minnie said. + +Mr. Derwentwater gave her one glance, and retired, Jock following. +"Perhaps that's your opinion too," he said, "that Lord Montjoie's was +fun?" + +"He's a scug," said Jock, laconically, "that's all I think about him." + +Mr. Derwentwater took the lad's arm. "And yet," he said, "Jock, though +you and I consider ourselves his superiors, that is the fellow that will +carry off the prize. Beauty and genius are for him. He must have the +best that humanity can produce. You ought to be too young to have any +feeling on the subject; but it is a humiliating thought." + +"Bice will have nothing to say to him," said Jock, with straightforward +application of the abstract description; but MTutor shook his head. + +"How can we tell the persecutions to which Woman is subject?" he said. +"You and I, Jock, are in a very different position. But we should try to +realise, though it is difficult, those dangers to which she is subject. +Kept indoors," said MTutor, with pathos in his voice, "debarred from all +knowledge of the world, with all the authorities about her leading one +way. How can we tell what is said to her? with a host of petty maxims +preaching down a daughter's heart--strange!" cried Mr. Derwentwater, +with a closer pressure of the boy's arm, "that the most lovely existence +should thus continually be led to link itself with the basest. We must +not blame Woman; we must keep her idea sacred, whatever happens in our +own experience." + +"It always sets one right to talk to you," cried Jock, full of emotion. +"I was a beast to say that." + +"My boy, don't you think I understand the disturbance in your mind?" +with a sigh, MTutor said. + +They had left the drawing-room during the course of this conversation, +and were crossing the hall on the way to the library, when some one +suddenly drew back with a startled movement from the passage which led +to Sir Tom's den. Then there followed a laugh, and "Oh, is it only you!" +after which there came forth a slim shadow, as unlike as possible to the +siren of the previous night. "We have met before, and I don't mind. Is +there any one else coming?" Bice said. + +"Why do you hide and skulk in corners?" cried Jock. "Why shouldn't you +meet any one? Have you done something wrong?" + +This made Bice laugh still more. "You don't understand," she said. + +"Signorina," said Mr. Derwentwater (who was somewhat proud of having +remembered this good abstract title to give to the mysterious girl), "I +am going away to-morrow, and perhaps I shall never hear you again. Your +voice seemed to open the heavenly gates. Why, since you are so good as +to consider us different from the others, won't you sing to us once +more?" + +"Sing?" said Bice, with a little surprise; "but by myself my voice is +not much----" + +"It is like a voice out of heaven," Mr. Derwentwater said fervently. + +"Do you really, really think so?" she said with a wondering look. She +was surprised, but pleased too. "I don't think you would care for it +without the Contessa's; but, perhaps----" Then she looked round her with +a reflective look. "What can I do? There is no piano, and then these +people would hear." After this a sudden idea struck her. She laughed +aloud like a child with sudden glee. "I don't suppose it would be any +harm! You belong to the house--and then there is Marietta. Yes! Come!" +she cried suddenly, rushing up the great staircase and waving her hand +impatiently, beckoning them to follow. "Come quick, quick," she cried; +"I hear some one coming," and flew upstairs. They followed her, Mr. +Derwentwater passing Jock, who hung back a little, and did not know +what to think of this adventure. "Come quick," she cried, darting along +the dimly-lighted corridor with a laugh that rang lightly along like the +music to which her steps were set. "Oh, come in, come in. They will +hear, but they will not know where it comes from." The young men +stupefied, hesitating, followed her. They found themselves among all the +curiosities and luxuries of the Contessa's boudoir. And in a moment Bice +had placed herself at the little piano which was placed across one of +the corners, its back covered with a wonderful piece of Eastern +embroidery which would have invited Derwentwater's attention had he been +able to fix that upon anything but Bice. As it was, he gave a half +regard to these treasures. He would have examined them all with the +devotion of a connoisseur but for her presence, which exercised a spell +still more subtle than that of art. + +The sound of the singing penetrated vaguely even into the drawing-room, +where the Contessa, startled, rose from her seat much earlier than +usual. Lucy, who attended her dutifully upstairs according to her usual +custom, was dismayed beyond measure by seeing Jock and his tutor issue +from that door. Bice came with them, with an air of excitement and +triumphant satisfaction. She had been singing, and the inspiration and +applause had gone to her head. She met the ladies not with the air of a +culprit, but in all the boldness of innocence. "They like to hear me, +even by myself," she cried; "they have listened, as if I had been an +angel." And she clapped her hands with almost childish pleasure. + +"Perhaps they think you are," said the Contessa, who shook her head, yet +smiled with sympathy. "You must not say to these messieurs below that +you have been in my room. Oh, I know the confidences of a smoking-room! +You must not brag, _mes amis_. For Bice does not understand the +_convenances_, nor remember that this is England, where people meet only +in the drawing-room." + +"Divine forgetfulness!" murmured Derwentwater. Jock, for his part, +turned his back with a certain sense of shame. He had liked it, but he +had not thought it right. The room altogether, with its draperies and +mysteries, had conveyed to him a certain intoxication as of wrong-doing. +Something that was dangerous was in the air of it. It was seductive, it +was fascinating; he had felt like a man banished when Bice had started +from the piano and bidden them "Go away; go away!" in the same laughing +tone in which she had bidden them come. But the moment he was outside +the threshold his impulse was to escape--to rush out of sight--and +obliterate even from his own mind the sense that he had been there. To +meet the Contessa, and still more his sister, full in the face, was a +shock to all his susceptibilities. He turned his back upon them, and but +that his fellow-culprit made a momentary stand, would have fled away. +Lucy partook of Jock's feeling. It wounded her to see him at that door. +She gave him a glance of mingled reproach and pity; a vague sense that +these were siren-women dangerous to all mankind stole into her heart. + +But Lucy was destined to a still greater shock. The party from the +smoking-room was late in breaking up. The sound of their steps and +voices as they came upstairs roused Lady Randolph, not from sleep--for +she had been unable to sleep--but from the confused maze of +recollections and efforts to think which distracted her placid soul. She +was not made for these agitations. The constitution of her mind was +overset altogether. The moment that suspicion and distrust came in there +was no further strength in her. She was lying not thinking so much as +remembering stray words and looks which drifted across her memory as +across a dim mirror, with a meaning in them which she did not grasp. She +was not clever. She could not put this and that together with the +dolorous skill which some women possess. It is a skill which does not +promote the happiness of the possessor, but perhaps it is scarcely more +happy to stand in the midst of a vague mass of suggestions without being +able to make out what they mean, which was Lucy's case. She did not +understand her husband's sudden excitement; what it had to do with Bice, +with the Contessa, with her own resolution and plans she could not tell, +but felt vaguely that many things deeply concerning her were in the air, +and was unhappy in the confusion of her thoughts. For a long time after +the sounds of various persons coming upstairs had died away, Lucy lay +silent waiting for her husband's appearance--but at last unable to bear +the vague wretchedness of her thoughts any longer, got up and put on a +dressing-gown and stole out into the dark gallery to go to the nursery +to look at her boy asleep, which was her best anodyne. The lights were +all extinguished except the faint ray that came from the nursery door, +and Lucy went softly towards that, anxious to disturb little Tom by no +sound. As she did so a door suddenly opened, sending a glare of light +into the dark corridor. It was the door of the Contessa's room, and with +the light came Sir Tom, the Contessa herself appearing after him on the +threshold. She was still in her dinner dress, and her appearance +remained long impressed upon Lucy's imagination like a photograph +without colour, in shadow and light. She gave Sir Tom a little packet +apparently of letters, and then she held out both hands to him, which he +took in his. Something seemed to flash through Lucy's heart like a +knife, quivering like the "pale death" of the poet, in sight and sense. +The sudden surprise and pang of it was such for a moment that she seemed +turned into stone, and stood gazing like a spectre in her white flowing +dress, her face more white, her eyes and mouth open in the misery and +trouble of the moment. Then she stole back softly into her room--her +head throbbing, her heart beating--and buried her face in her pillow and +closed her eyes. Even baby could not soothe her in this unlooked-for +pang. And then she heard his step come slowly along the gallery. How was +she to look at him? how listen to him in the shock of such an +extraordinary discovery? She took refuge in a semblance of sleep. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIX. + +LUCY'S DISCOVERY. + + +When it happens to an innocent and simple soul to find out suddenly at a +stroke the falsehood of some one upon whose truth the whole universe +depends, the effect is such as perhaps has never been put forth by any +attempt at psychological investigation. When it happens to a great mind, +we have Hamlet with all the world in ruins round him--all other thoughts +as of revenge or ambition are but secondary and spasmodic, since neither +revenge nor advancement can put together again the works of life or +make man delight him, or woman either. But Lady Randolph was not a +Hamlet. She had no genius, nor even a great intellect to be +unhinged--scarcely mind enough to understand how it was that the glory +had paled out of earth and sky, and all the world seemed different when +she rose from her uneasy bed next morning, pale, after a night without +sleep, in which she had not been able to have even the relief of +restlessness, but had lain motionless, without even a sigh or tear, so +crushed by the unexpected blow that she could neither fathom nor +understand what had happened to her. She was too pure herself to jump at +any thought of gross infidelity. She felt she knew not what--that the +world had gone to pieces--that she did not know how to shape it again +into anything--that she could not look into her husband's face, or +command her voice to speak to him, for shame of the thought that he had +failed in truth. Lucy felt somehow as if she were the culprit. She was +ashamed to look him in the face. She made an early visit to the nursery, +and stayed there pretending various little occupations until she heard +Sir Tom go down stairs. He had returned so much to the old ways, and now +that the house was full, and there were other people to occupy the +Contessa, had shown so clearly (as Lucy had thought) that he was pleased +to be liberated from his attendance upon her, that the cloud that had +risen between them had melted away; and indeed, for some time back, it +had been Lucy who was the Contessa's stay and support, a change at which +Sir Tom had sometimes laughed. All had been well between the husband and +wife during the early part of the season parliamentary, the beginning of +their life in London. Sir Tom had been much engrossed with the cares of +public life, but he had been delightful to Lucy, whose faith in him and +his new occupations was great. And it was exhilarating to think that the +Contessa had secured that little house in Mayfair for her own campaign, +and that something like a new honeymoon was about to begin for the pair, +whose happiness had seemed for a moment to tremble in the balance. Lucy +had been looking forward to the return to London with a more bright and +conscious anticipation of well-being than she had ever experienced. In +the first outset of life happiness seems a necessary of existence. It is +calculated upon without misgiving; it is simple nature, beyond question. +But when the natural "of course" has once been broken, it is with a +warmer glow of content that we see the prospect once more stretching +before us bright as at first and more assured. This is how Lucy had been +regarding her life. It was not so simple, so easy as it once had been, +but the happiness to which she was looking forward, and which she had +already partially entered into possession of, was all the more sweet and +dear, that she had known, or fancied herself about to know, the loss and +absence of it. Now, in a moment, all that fair prospect, that blessed +certainty, was gone. The earth was cut away from under her feet; she +felt everything to be tottering, falling round her, and nothing in all +the universe to lay hold of to prop herself up; for when the pillars of +the world are thus unrooted the heaving of the earthquake and the +falling of the ruins impart a certain vertigo and giddy instability even +to heaven. + +Fletcher, Lucy's maid, who was usually discreet enough, waited upon her +mistress that morning with a certain air of importance, and of knowing +something which she was bursting with eagerness to tell, such as must +have attracted Lady Randolph's attention in any other circumstances. But +Lucy was far too much occupied with what was in her own mind to observe +the perturbation of the maid, who consequently had no resource, since +her mistress would not question her, than to introduce herself the +subject on which she was so anxious to utter her mind. She began by +inquiring if her ladyship had heard the music last night. "The music?" +Lucy said. + +"Oh, my lady, haven't you heard what a singer Miss Beachy has turned +out?" Fletcher cried. + +Lucy, to whom all this seemed dim and far away as if it had happened +years ago, answered with a faint smile--"Yes, she has a lovely voice." + +"It is not my place," said Fletcher, "being only a servant, to make +remarks; but, my lady, if I might make so bold, it do seem to the like +of us an 'orrible thing to take advantage of a young lady like your +ladyship that thinks no harm." + +"You should not make such remarks," said Lucy, roused a little. + +"No, my lady; but still a woman is a woman, even though but a servant. I +said to Mrs. Freshwater I was sure your ladyship would never sanction +it. I never thought that of Miss Beachy, I will allow. I always said she +was a nice young lady; but evil communications, my lady--we all know +what the Bible says. Gentlemen upstairs in her room and her singing to +them, and laughing and talking like as no housemaid in the house as +valued her character would do----" + +"Fletcher," said Lucy, "you must say no more about this. It was Mr. Jock +and Mr. Derwentwater only who were with Miss Bice--and with my +permission," she added after a moment, "as he is going away to-morrow." +Such deceits are so easy to learn. + +"Oh-oh!" Miss Fletcher cried, with a quaver in her voice. "I beg your +pardon, my lady; I'm sure--I thought--there must be something +underneath, and that Miss Beachy would never---- And when she was down +with Sir Thomas in the study it would be the same, my lady?" the woman +said. + +"With Sir Thomas in the study!" The words went vaguely into Lucy's mind. +It had not seemed possible to increase the confusion and misery in her +brain, but this produced a heightening of it, a sort of wave of +bewilderment and pain greater than before, a sense of additional +giddiness and failing. She gave a wave of her hand and said something, +she scarcely knew what, which silenced Fletcher; and then she went down +stairs to the new world. She did not go to the nursery even, as was her +wont; her heart turned from little Tom. She felt that to look at him +would be more than she could bear. There was no deceit in him, no +falsehood--as yet; but perhaps when he grew up he would cheat her too. +He would pretend to love her and betray her trust; he would kiss her, +and then go away and scoff at her; he would smile, and smile, and be a +villain. Such words were not in Lucy's mind, and it was altogether out +of nature that she should even receive the thought: which made it all +the more terrible when it was poured into her soul. And it cannot be +told what discoveries she seemed to make even in the course of that +morning in this strange condition of her mind. There was a haze over +everything, but yet there was an enlightenment even in the haze. She saw +in her little way, as Hamlet saw the falsehood of his courtiers, his +gallant young companions, and the schemes of Polonius, and even Ophelia +in the plot to trap him. She saw how false all these people were in +their civilities, in their extravagant thanks and compliments to her as +they went away; for the Easter recess was just over, and everybody was +going. The mother and her daughters said to her, "Such a delightful +visit, dear Lady Randolph!" with kisses of farewell and wreathed smiles; +and she perceived, somehow by a sort of second sight, that they added to +each other, "Oh, what a bore it has been; nobody worth meeting," and +"how thankful I am it's over!" which was indeed what Miss Minnie and +Miss Edith said. If Lucy had seen a little deeper she would have known +that this too was a sort of conventional falsity which the young ladies +said to each other, according to the fashion of the day, without any +meaning to speak of; but one must have learned a great many lessons +before one comes to that. + +Then Jock, who had been woke up in quite a different way, took leave of +MTutor, that god of his old idolatry, without being able to refrain from +some semblance of the old absorbing affection. + +"I am so sorry you are not coming with me, old fellow," Mr. Derwentwater +said. + +Jock replied, "So am I," with an effort, as if firing a parting volley +in honour of his friend: but then turned gloomily with an expression of +relief. "I'm glad he's gone, Lucy." + +"Then you did not want to go with him, Jock?" + +"I wouldn't have gone for anything. I've just got to that--that I can't +bear him," cried Jock. + +And Lucy, in the midst of the ruins, felt her head go round: though here +too it was the falsehood that was fictitious, had she but known. It is +not, however, in the nature of such a shock that any of those +alleviating circumstances which modify the character of human sentiment +can be taken into account. Lucy had taken everything for gospel in the +first chapter of existence; she had believed what everybody said; and +like every other human soul, after such a discovery as she had made, she +went to the opposite extremity now--not wittingly, not voluntarily--but +the pillars of the earth were shaken, and nothing stood fast. + +They went up to town next day. In the meantime she had little or no +intercourse with the Contessa, who was preparing for the journey and +absorbed in letter-writing, making known to everybody whom she could +think of, the existence of the little house in Mayfair. It is doubtful +whether she so much as observed any difference in the demeanour of her +hostess, having in fact the most unbounded confidence in Lucy, whom she +did not believe capable of any such revulsion of feeling. Bice was more +clear-sighted, but she thought Milady was displeased with her own +proceedings, and sought no further for a cause. And the only thing the +girl could do was to endeavour by all the little devices she could think +of to show the warm affection she really felt for Lucy--a method which +made the heart of Lucy more and more sick with that sense of falsehood +which sometimes rose in her, almost to the height of passion. A woman +who had ever learned to use harsh words, or to whose mind it had ever +been possible to do or say anything to hurt another, would no doubt have +burst forth upon the girl with some reproach or intimation of doubt +which might have cleared the matter so far as Bice went. But Lucy had no +such words at her command. She could not say anything unkind. It was not +in her. She could be silent, indeed, but not even that, so far as to +"hurt the feelings" of her companion. The effect, therefore, was only +that Lucy laboured to maintain a little artificial conversation, which +in its turn reacted upon her mind, showing that even in herself there +was the same disposition to insincerity which she had begun to discover +in the world. She could say nothing to Bice about the matters which a +little while before, when all was well, she had grieved over and +objected to. Now she had nothing to say on such subjects. That the girl +should be set up to auction, that she should put forth all those arts in +which she had been trained, to attract and secure young Montjoie, or any +like him, were things which had passed beyond her sphere. To think of +them rendered her heart more sick, her head more giddy. But if Bice +married some one whom she did not love, that was not so bad as to think +that perhaps she herself all this time had been living with, and loving, +in sacred trust and faith, a man who even by her side was full of +thoughts unknown to her, given to another. Sometimes Lucy closed her +eyes in a sort of sick despair, feeling everything about her go round +and round. But she said nothing to throw any light upon the state of her +being. Sir Tom felt a little gravity--a little distance in his wife; but +he himself was much occupied with a new and painful subject of thought. +And Jock observed nothing at all, being at a stage when man (or boy) is +wholly possessed with affairs of his own. He had his troubles, too. He +was not easy about that breach with his master now that they were +separated. When Bice was kind to him a gleam of triumph, mingled with +pity, made him remorseful towards that earlier friend; and when she was +unkind a bitter sense of fellowship turned Jock's thoughts towards that +sublime ideal of masculine friendship which is above the lighter loves +of women. How can a boy think of his sister when absorbed in such a +mystery of his own?--even if he considered his sister at all as a person +whom it was needful to think about--which he did not, Lucy being herself +one of the pillars of the earth to his unopened eyes. + +All this, however, made no difference in Lucy's determination. She wrote +to Mr. Rushton that very morning, after this revolution in her soul, to +instruct him as to her intentions in respect to Bice, and to her other +trustee in London to request him to see her immediately on her arrival +in Park Lane. Nothing should be changed in that matter, for why, she +said to herself, should Bice suffer because Sir Tom was untrue? It +seemed to her that there was more reason than ever why she should rouse +herself and throw off her inaction. No doubt there were many people whom +she could make, if not happy, yet comfortable. It was comfortable +(everybody said) to have enough of money--to be well off. Lucy had no +experience of what it was to be without it. She thought to herself she +would like to try, to have only what she actually wanted, to cook the +food for her little family, to nurse little Tom all by herself, to live +as the cottagers lived. There was in her mind no repugnance to any of +the details of poverty. Her wealth was an accident; it was the habit of +her race to be poor, and it seemed to Lucy that she would be happier +could she shake off now all those external circumstances which had +grown, like everything else, into falsehoods, giving an appearance of +well-being which did not exist. But other people thought it well to have +money, and it was her duty to give it. A kind of contempt rose within +her for all that withheld her previously. To avoid her duty because it +would displease Sir Tom--what was that but falsehood too? All was +falsehood, only she had never seen it before. + +They reached town in the afternoon of a sweet April day, the sky aglow +with a golden sunset, against which the trees in the park stood out with +their half-developed buds: and all the freshness of the spring was in +the long stretches of green, and the softened jubilee of sound to which +somehow, as the air warms towards summer, the voices of the world +outside tune themselves. The Contessa and Bice in great spirits and +happiness, like two children home from school, had left the Randolph +party at the railway, to take possession of the little house in Mayfair. +They had both waved their hands from the carriage window and called out, +"Be sure you come and see us," as they drove away. "You will come +to-night," they had stipulated with Sir Tom and Jock. It was like a new +toy which filled them with glee. Could it be possible that those two +adventurers going off to their little temporary home with smiles so +genuine, with so simple a delight in their new beginning, were not, in +their strange way, innocent, full of guile and shifts as one was, and +the other so apt a scholar? Lucy would have joined in all this pleasure +two days ago, but she could not now. She went home to her luxurious +house, where all was ready, as if she had not been absent an hour. How +wonderfully wealth smooths away the inconveniences of change! and how +little it has to do, Lucy thought, with the comfort of the soul! No need +for any exertion on her part, any scuffling for the first arrival, any +trouble of novelty. She came from the Hall to London without any sense +of change. Had she been compelled to superintend the arrangement of her +house, to make it habitable, to make it pretty, that would have done her +good. But the only thing for her to do was to see Mr. Chervil, her +trustee, who waited upon her according to her request, and who, after +the usual remonstrances, took her instructions about the gift to Bice +very unwillingly, but still with a forced submission. "If I cannot make +you see the folly of it, Lady Randolph, and if Sir Thomas does not +object, I don't know what more is to be said." "There is nothing more to +be said," Lucy said, with a smile; but there was this difficulty in the +proceeding which she had not thought of, that Bice's name all this time +was unknown to her--Beatrice di Forno-Populo, she supposed, but the +Contessa had never called her so, and it was necessary to be exact, Mr. +Chervil said. He hailed this as an occasion of delay. He was not so +violent as he had been on previous occasions when Lucy was young; and he +did not, like Mr. Rushton, assume the necessity of speaking to Sir Tom. +Mr. Chervil was a London solicitor, and knew very little about Sir Tom. +But he was glad to seize upon anything that was good for a little delay. + +After this interview was over it was a mingled vexation and relief to +Lucy to see the Dowager drive up to the door. Lady Randolph the elder +was always in London from the first moment possible. She preferred the +first bursting of the spring in the squares and parks. She liked to see +her friends arrive by degrees, and to feel that she had so far the +better of them. She came in, full as she always was of matter, with a +thousand things to say. "I have come to stay to dinner, if you will have +me," she said, "for of course Tom will be going out in the evening. They +are always so glad to get back to their life." And it was, perhaps, a +relief to have Lady Randolph to dinner, to be saved from the purely +domestic party, to which Jock scarcely added any new element; but it was +hard for Lucy to encounter even the brief questionings which were +addressed to her in the short interval before dinner. "So you have got +rid of that woman at last," Lady Randolph said; "I hear she has got a +house in Mayfair." + +"Yes, Aunt Randolph, if you mean the Contessa," said Lucy. + +"And that she intends to make a bold _coup_ to get the girl off her +hands. These sort of people so often succeed: I shouldn't wonder if she +were to succeed. I always said the girl would be handsome, but I think +she might have waited another year." + +To this Lucy made no reply, and it was necessary for the Dowager to +carry on the conversation, so to speak, at her own cost. + +"I hope most earnestly, Lucy," she said, "that now you have got clear of +them you will not mix yourself up with them again. You were placed in an +uneasy position, very difficult to get out of, I will allow; but now +that you have shaken them off, and they have proved they can get on +without you, don't, I entreat you, mix yourself up with them again." + +Lucy could not keep the blood from mounting, and colouring her face. She +had always spoken of the Contessa calmly before. She tried to keep her +composure now. "Dear Aunt Randolph, I have not shaken them off. They +have gone away of themselves, and how can I refuse to see them? There is +to be a party here for them on the 26th." + +"Oh, my dear, my dear, that was very imprudent! I had hoped you would +keep clear of them in London. It is one thing showing kindness to an old +friend in the country, and it is quite another----" + +Here Lucy made an imperative gesture, almost commanding silence. Sir Tom +was coming into the room. She was seated in the great bay window +against the early twilight, the soft radiance of which dazzled the eyes +of the elder lady, and prevented her from perceiving her nephew's +approach. But Lady Randolph, before she rose to meet him, gave a +startled look at Lucy. "Have you found it out, then?" she said +involuntarily, in her great surprise. + + + + +CHAPTER XL. + +THE DOWAGER'S EXPLANATION. + + +The Dowager was a woman far more clever than Lucy, who knew the world. +And she was apt perhaps, instead of missing the meaning of the facts +around her, to put too much significance in them. Now, when the little +party met at dinner, Lady Randolph saw in the faces of both husband and +wife more than was there, though much was there. Sir Tom was more grave +than became a man who had returned into life, as his aunt said, and was +looking forward to resuming the better part of existence--the House, the +clubs, the quick throb of living which is in London. His countenance was +full of thought, and there was both trouble and perplexity in it, but +not the excitement which the Dowager supposed she found there, and those +signs of having yielded to an evil influence which eyes accustomed to +the world are so ready to discover. Lucy for her part was pale and +silent. She had little to say, and scarcely addressed her husband at +all. Lady Randolph, and that was very natural, took those signs of heart +sickness for tokens of complete enlightenment, for the passion of a +woman who had entered upon that struggle with another woman for a man's +love which, even when the man is her husband, has something degrading in +it. There had been a disclosure, a terrible scene, no doubt, a stirring +up of all the passions, Lady Randolph thought. No doubt that was the +reason why the Contessa had loosed her clutches, and left the house free +of her presence; but Lucy was still trembling after the tempest, and had +not learned to take any pleasure in her victory. This was the conclusion +of the woman of the world. + +The dinner was not a lengthy one, and the ladies went upstairs again, +with a suppressed constraint, each anxious to know what the other was on +her guard not to tell. They sat alone expectant for some time, making +conversation, taking their coffee, listening, and watching each how the +other listened, for the coming of the gentlemen, or rather for Sir Tom; +for Jock, in his boyish insignificance, counted for little. The trivial +little words that passed between them during this interval were charged +with a sort of moral electricity, and stung and tingled in the too +conscious silence. At length, after some time had elapsed: "I am glad I +came," said Lady Randolph, "to sit with you, Lucy, this first evening; +for of course Tom cannot resist, the first evening in town, the charms +of his club." + +"His club! Oh, I think he has gone to see the house," Lucy said. "He +promised----; it is not very far off." + +"The house? You mean that woman's house. Lucy, I have no patience with +you any more than I have with Tom. Why don't you put a stop to it? why +don't you--for I suppose you have found out what sort of a woman she is +by this time, and why she came here?" + +"She came----to introduce Bice and establish her in the world," Lucy +said, in a faint tone. "Oh! Aunt Randolph, please do not let us discuss +it! It is not what I like to think of. Bice will be sacrificed to the +first rich man who asks her; or at least that is what the Contessa +means." + +"My dear Lucy," said the Dowager, calmly, "that is reasonable enough. I +wish the Contessa meant no worse than that. Most girls are persuaded to +marry a rich man if he asks them. I don't think so much of that. But it +will not be so easy as she thinks," the Dowager added. "It is true that +beauty does much--but not everything; and a girl in that position, with +no connections, or, at least, none that she would not be better +without----" + +Lucy's attention strayed from this question, which once had been so +important, and which now seemed so secondary; but the conversation must +be maintained. She said at random: "She has a beautiful voice." + +"Has she? And the Contessa herself sings very well. That will no doubt +be another attraction," said Lady Randolph, in her impartial way. "But +the end of it all is, who will she get to go, and who will invite them? +It is vain to lay snares if there is nothing to be caught." + +"They will be invited--here," said Lucy, faltering a little. "I told you +I am to have a great gathering on the 26th." + +"I could not believe my ears. You!--and she is to appear here for the +first time to make her _debut_. Good heavens, Lucy! What can I say to +you--_that_ girl!" + +"Why not, Aunt Randolph?" said Lucy (oh, what does it matter--what does +it matter, that she should make so much fuss about it? she was saying +in herself); "I have always liked Bice, and she has been very good to +little Tom." + +"Well," cried the angry lady, forgetting herself, and smiling the fierce +smile of wrath, "there is no doubt that it is perfectly appropriate--the +very thing that ought to happen if we lived according to the rules of +nature, without thought of conventionalities and decorums, and so +forth--oh, perfectly appropriate! If you don't object I know no one who +has any right to say a word." + +Even now Lucy was scarcely roused enough to be surprised by the +vehemence of these words. "Why should I object?" she said; "or why +should any one say a word?" Her calm, which was almost indifference, +excited Lady Randolph more and more. + +"You are either superhuman," she said, with exasperation, "or you +are---- Lucy, I don't know what words to use. You put one out of every +reckoning. You are like nobody I ever knew before. Why should you +object? Why, good heavens! you are the only person that has any +right---- Who should object if not you?" + +"Aunt Randolph," said Lucy, rousing herself with an effort, "would you +please tell me plainly what you mean? I am not clever. I can't make +things out. I have always liked Bice. To save her from being made a +victim I am going to give her some of the money under my father's +will--and if I could give her---- What is the matter?" she cried, +stopping short suddenly, and in spite of herself growing pale. + +Lady Randolph flung up her hands in dismay. She gave something like a +shriek as she exclaimed: "And Tom is letting you do this?" with horror +in her tone. + +"He has promised that he will not oppose," Lucy said; "but why do you +speak so, and look so? Bice--has done no harm." + +"Oh, no; Bice has done no harm," cried Lady Randolph bitterly; "nothing, +except being born, which is harm enough, I think. But do you mean to +tell me, Lucy, that Tom--a man of honour, notwithstanding all his +vagaries--Tom----lets you do this and never says a word? Oh, it is too +much. I have always stood by him. I have been his support when every one +else failed. But this is too much, that he should put the burden upon +you--that he should make _you_ responsible for this girl of his----" + +"Aunt Randolph!" cried Lucy, rising up quickly and confronting the angry +woman. She put up her hand with a serious dignity that was doubly +impressive from her usual simpleness. "What is it you mean? This girl of +his! I do not understand. She is not much more than a child. You cannot, +cannot suppose that Bice--that it is she--that she is----" Here she +suddenly covered her face with her hands. "Oh, you put things in my mind +that I am ashamed to think of," Lucy cried. + +"I mean," said Lady Randolph, who in the heat of this discussion had got +beyond her own power of self-restraint, "what everybody but yourself +must have seen long ago. That woman is a shameless woman, but even she +would not have had the effrontery to bring any other girl to your house. +It was more shameless, I think, to bring that one than any other; but +she would not think so. Oh, cannot you see it even now? Why, the +likeness might have told you; that was enough. The girl is Tom's girl. +She is your husband's----" + +Lucy uncovered her face, which was perfectly colourless, with eyes +dilated and wide open. "What?" she whispered, looking intently into Lady +Randolph's face. + +"His own child--his--daughter--though I am bitterly ashamed to say it," +the Dowager said. + +For a moment everything seemed to waver and turn round in Lucy's eyes, +as if the walls were making a circuit with her in giddy space. Then she +came to her feet with the sensation of a shock, and found herself +standing erect, with the most amazing incomprehensible sense of relief. +Why should she have felt relieved by this communication which filled her +companion with horror? A softer air seemed to breathe about Lucy, she +felt solid ground under her feet. For the first moment there seemed +nothing but ease and sweet soothing and refreshment in what she heard. + +"His--daughter?" she said. Her mind went back with a sudden flash upon +the past, gathering up instantaneously pieces of corroborative evidence, +things which she had not noted at the moment, which she had forgotten, +yet which came back nevertheless when they were needed: the Contessa's +mysterious words about Bice's parentage, her intimation that Lucy would +one day be glad to have befriended her: Sir Tom's sudden agitation when +she had told him of Bice's English descent: finally, and most conclusive +of all, touching Lucy with a most unreasonable conviction and bringing a +rush of warm feeling to her heart, Baby's adoption of the girl and +recommendation of her to his mother. Was it not the voice of nature, the +voice of God? Lucy had no instinctive sense of recoil, no horror of the +discovery. She did not realise the guilt involved, nor was she painfully +struck, as some women might have been, by this evidence of her husband's +previous life "If it is so," she said quietly, "there is more reason +than ever, Aunt Randolph, that I should do everything I can for Bice. It +never came into my mind before. I see now--various things: but I do not +see why it should--make me unhappy," she added with a faint smile which +brought the water to her eyes; "it must have been--long before I knew +him. Will you tell me who was her mother? Was she a foreigner? Did she +die long ago?" + +"Oh, Lucy, Lucy," cried Lady Randolph, "is it possible you don't see? +Who would take all that trouble about her? Who would burden themselves +with another woman's girl that was no concern of theirs? Who +would--can't you see? can't you see?" + +There came over Lucy's face a hot and feverish flush. She grew red to +her hair, agitation and shame took possession of her; something seemed +to throb and swell as if it would burst in her forehead. She could not +speak. She could not look at her informant for shame of the revelation +that had been made. All the bewildered sensations which for the moment +had been stilled in her breast sprang up again with a feverish whirl and +tumult. She tottered back to the chair on which she had been sitting and +dropped down upon it, holding by it as if that were the only thing in +the world secure and steadfast. It was only now that Lady Randolph +seemed to awake to the risks and dangers of this bold step she had +taken. She had roused the placid soul at last. To what strange agony, to +what revenge might she have roused it? She had looked for tears and +misery, and fleeting rage and mad jealousy. But Lucy's look of utter +giddiness and overthrow alarmed her more than she could say. + +"Lucy! Oh, my love, you must recollect, as you say, that it was all +long before he knew you--that there was no injury to you!" + +Lucy made a movement with her hand to bar further discussion, but she +could not say anything. She pointed Lady Randolph to her chair, and made +that mute prayer for silence, for no more. But in such a moment of +excitement there is nothing that is more difficult to grant than this. + +"Oh, Lucy," the Dowager cried, "forgive me! Perhaps I ought not to have +said anything. Oh, my dear, if you will but think what a painful +position it was for me. To see you so unsuspicious, ready to do +anything, and even Tom taking advantage of you. It is not more than a +week since I found it all out, and how could I keep silence? Think what +a painful position it was for me." + +Lucy made no reply. There seemed nothing but darkness round her. She put +out her hand imploring that no more might be said; and though there was +a great deal more said, she scarcely made out what it was. Her brain +refused to take in any more. She suffered herself to be kissed and +blessed, and said good-night to, almost mechanically. And when the elder +lady at last went away, Lucy sat where Lady Randolph had left her, she +did not know how long, gazing woefully at the ruins of that crumbled +world which had all fallen to pieces about her. All was to pieces now. +What was she and what was the other? Why should she be here and not the +other? Two, were there?--two with an equal claim upon him? Was +everything false, even the law, even the external facts which made her +Tom's wife. He had another wife and a child. He was two, he was not one +true man; one for baby and her, another for Bice and the Contessa. When +she heard her husband coming in Lucy fled upstairs like a hunted thing, +and took refuge in the nursery where little Tom was sleeping. Even her +bourgeoise horror of betraying herself, of letting the servants suspect +that anything was wrong, had no effect upon her to-night. + + + + +CHAPTER XLI. + +SEVERED. + + +Sir Tom came home later, so much later than he intended that he entered +the house with such a sense of compunction as had not visited him since +the days when the alarm of being caught was a part of the pleasure. He +had no fear of a lecture from Lucy, whose gifts were not of that kind; +but he was partially conscious of having neglected her on her first +night in town, as well as having sinned against her in matters more +serious. And he did not know how to explain his detention at the +Contessa's new house, or the matters which he had been discussing there. +It was a sensible relief to him not to find her in any of the +sitting-rooms, all dark and closed up, except his own room, in which +there was no trace of her. She had gone to bed, which was so sensible, +like Lucy's unexaggerated natural good sense: he smiled to +himself--though, at the same time, a wondering question within himself, +whether she felt at all, passed through his mind--a reflection full of +mingled disappointment and satisfaction. But when, a full hour after his +return, after a tranquil period of reflection, he went leisurely +upstairs, expecting to find her peacefully asleep, and found her not, +nor any evidence that she had ever been there, a great wave of alarm +passed over the mind of Sir Tom. He paused confounded, looking at her +vacant place, startled beyond expression. "Lucy!" he cried, looking in +his dismay into every corner, into his own dressing-room, and even into +the large wardrobe where her dresses hung, like shells and husks, which +she had laid aside. And then he made an agitated pause, standing in the +middle of the room, not knowing what to think. It was by this time about +two in the morning; the middle of the night, according to Lucy. Where +could she have gone? Then he bethought himself with an immediate relief, +which was soon replaced by poignant anxiety, of the only possible reason +for her absence--a reason which would explain everything--little Tom. +When this thought occurred to him all the excitement that had been in +Sir Tom's mind disappeared in a moment, and he thought of nothing but +that baby lying, perhaps tossing uneasily, upon his little bed, his +mother watching over him; most sacred group on earth to him, who, +whatever his faults might be, loved them both dearly. He took a candle +in his hand and, stepping lightly, went up the stairs to the nursery +door. There was no sound of wailing within, no pitiful little cry to +tell the tale; all was still and dark. He tried the door softly, but it +would not open. Then another terror awoke, and for the moment took his +breath from him. What had happened to the child? Sir Tom suffered enough +at this moment to have expiated many sins. There came upon him a vision +of the child extended motionless upon his bed, and his mother by him +refusing to be comforted. What could it mean? The door looked as if hope +had departed. He knocked softly, yet imperatively, divided between the +horror of these thoughts and the gentle every-day sentiment which +forbade any noise at little Tom's door. It was some time before he got +any reply--a time which seemed to him interminable. Then he suddenly +heard Lucy's voice close to the door whispering. There had been no sound +of any footsteps. Had she been there all the time listening to all his +appeals and taking no notice? + +"Open the door," he said anxiously. "Speak to me. What is the matter? Is +he ill? Have you sent for the doctor? Let me in." + +"We are all shut up and settled for the night," said Lucy, through the +door. + +"Shut up for the night? Has he been very ill?" Sir Tom cried. + +"Oh, hush, you will wake him; no, not very ill: but I am going to stay +with him," said the voice inside with a quiver in it. + +"Lucy, what does this mean? You are concealing something from me. Have +you had the doctor? Good God, tell me. What is the matter? Can't I see +my boy?" + +"There is nothing--nothing to be alarmed about," said Lucy from within. +"He is asleep--he is--doing well. Oh! go to bed and don't mind us. I am +going to stay with him." + +"Don't mind you? that is so easy," he cried, with a broken laugh; then +the silence stealing to his heart, he cried out, "Is the child----?" But +Sir Tom could not say the word. He shivered, standing outside the closed +door. The mystery seemed incomprehensible, save on the score of some +great calamity. The bitterness of death went over him; but then he asked +himself what reason there could be to conceal from him any terrible +sudden blow. Lucy would have wanted him in such a case, not kept him +from her. In this dread moment of sudden panic he thought of everything +but the real cause, which made a more effectual barrier between them +than that closed door. + +"He is well enough now," said Lucy's voice, coming faintly out of the +darkness. "Oh, indeed, there is nothing the matter. Please go away; go +to bed. It is so late. I am going to stay with him." + +"Lucy," said Sir Tom, "I have never been shut out before. There is +something you are concealing from me. Let me see him and then you shall +do as you please." + +There was a little pause, and then slowly, reluctantly, Lucy opened the +door. She was still fully dressed as she had been for dinner. There was +not a particle of colour in her face. Her eyes had a scared look and +were surrounded by wide circles, as if the orbit had been hollowed out. +She stood aside to let him pass without a word. The room in which little +Tom slept was an inner room. There was scarcely any light in either, +nothing but the faint glimmer of the night-lamp. The sleeping-room was +hushed and full of the most tranquil quiet, the regular soft breathing +of the sleeping child in his little bed, and of his nurse by him, who +was as completely unaware as he of any intrusion. Sir Tom stole in and +looked at his boy, in the pretty baby attitude of perfect repose, his +little arms thrown up over his head. The anxiety vanished from his +heart, but not the troubled sense of something wrong, a mystery which +altogether baffled him. Mystery had no place here in this little +sanctuary of innocence. But what did it mean? He stole out again to +where Lucy stood, scared and silent in her white dress, with a jewelled +pendant at her neck which gleamed strangely in the half light. + +"He seems quite well now. What was it, and why are you so anxious?" he +asked. "Did the doctor----" + +"There was no need for a doctor. It is only--myself. I must stay with +him, he might want me----" And nobody else does, Lucy was about to say, +but pride and modesty restrained her. Her husband looked at her +earnestly. He perceived with a curious pang of astonishment that she +drew away from him, standing as far off as the limited space permitted +and avoiding his eye. + +"I don't understand it," he said; "there is something underneath; either +he has been more ill than you will let me know, or--there is something +else----" + +She gave him no answering look, made no wondering exclamation what could +there be else? as he had hoped; but replied hurriedly, as she had done +before, "I want to stay with him. I must stay with him for to-night----" + +It was with the most extraordinary sense of some change, which he could +not fathom or divine, that Sir Tom consented at last to leave his wife +in the child's room and go to his own. What did it mean? What had +happened to him, or was about to happen? He could not explain to himself +the aspect of the slight little youthful figure in her airy white dress, +with the diamonds still at her throat, careless of the hour and time, +standing there in the middle of the night, shrinking away from him, +forlorn and wakeful with her scared eyes. At this hour on ordinary +occasions Lucy was fast asleep. When she came to see her boy, if society +had kept her up late, it was in the ease of a dressing-gown, not with +any cold glitter of ornaments. And to see her shrink and draw herself +away in that strange repugnance from his touch and shadow confounded +him. He was not angry, as he might have been in another case, but +pitiful to the bottom of his heart. What could have come to Lucy? Half +a dozen times he turned back on his way to his room. What meaning could +she have in it? What could have happened to her? Her manifest shrinking +from him had terrified him, and filled his mind with confusion. But +controversy of any kind in the child's room at the risk of waking him in +the middle of the night was impossible, and no doubt, he tried to say to +himself, it must be some panic she had taken, some sudden alarm for the +child, justified by reasons which she did not like to explain to him +till the morning light restored her confidence. Women were so, he had +often heard: and the women he had known in his youth had certainly been +so--unreasoning creatures, subject to their imagination, taking fright +when no occasion for fright was, incapable of explaining. Lucy had never +been like this; but yet Lucy, though sensible, was a woman too, and if +it is not permitted to a woman to take an unreasoning panic about her +only child, she must be hardly judged indeed. Sir Tom was not a hard +judge. When he got over the painful sense that there must be something +more in this than met the eye, he was half glad to find that Lucy was +like other women--a dear little fool, not always sensible. He thought +almost the better of her for it, he said to himself. She would laugh +herself at her panic, whatever it was, when little Tom woke up fresh and +fair in the morning light. + +With this idea he did what he could to satisfy himself. The situation +was strange, unprecedented in his experience; but he had many subjects +of thought on his own part which returned to his mind as the surprise of +the moment calmed down. He had a great deal to think about. Old +difficulties which seemed to have passed away for long years were now +coming back again to embarrass and confuse him. "Our pleasant vices are +made the whips to scourge us," he said to himself. The past had come +back to him like the opening of a book, no longer merely frivolous and +amusing, as in the Contessa's talk, touched with all manner of light +emotions, but bitter, with tragedy in it, and death and desolation. +Death and life: he had heard enough of the dead to make them seem alive +again, and of the living to confuse their identity altogether; but he +had not yet succeeded in clearing up the doubt which had been thrown +into his mind. That question about Bice's parentage, "English on one +side," tormented him still. He had made again an attempt to discover the +truth, and he had been foiled. The probabilities seemed all in favour of +the solution which at the first word had presented itself to him; but +still there was a chance that it might not be so. + +His mind had been full and troubled enough, when he returned to the +still house, and thought with compunction how many thoughts which he +could not share with her he was bringing back to Lucy's side. He could +not trust them to her, or confide in her, and secure her help, as in +many other circumstances he would have done without hesitation. But he +could not do that in this case,--not so much because she was his wife, +as because she was so young, so innocent, so unaware of the +complications of existence. How could she understand the temptations +that assail a young man in the heyday of life, to whom many indulgences +appear permissible or venial, which to her limited and innocent soul +would seem unpardonable sins? To live even for a few years with a +stainless nature like that of Lucy, in whom there was not even so much +knowledge as would make the approaches of vice comprehensible, is a new +kind of education to the most experienced of men. He had not believed it +to be possible to be so altogether ignorant of evil as he had found her; +and how could he explain to her and gain her indulgent consideration of +the circumstances which had led him into what in her vocabulary would be +branded with the name of vice? Sir Tom even now did not feel it to be +vice. It was unfortunate that it had so happened. He had been a fool. It +was almost inconceivable to him now how for the indulgence of a +momentary passion he could have placed himself in a position that might +one day be so embarrassing and disagreeable. He had not behaved ill at +the moment; it was the woman who had behaved ill. But how in the name of +wonder to explain all this to Lucy? Lucy, who was not conscious of any +reason why a man's code of morals should be different from that of a +woman! When Sir Tom returned to this painful and difficult subject, the +immediate question as to Lucy's strange conduct died from his mind. It +became more easy, by dint of repeating it, to believe that a mere +unreasonable panic about little Tom was the cause of her withdrawal. It +was foolish, but a loving and lovely foolishness which a man might do +more than forgive, which he might adore and smile at, as men love to do, +feeling that for a woman to be thus silly is desirable, a counterpoise +to the selfishness and want of feeling which are so common in the world. +But how to make this spotless creature understand that a man might slip +aside and yet not be a dissolute man, that he might be betrayed into +certain proceedings which would not perhaps bear the inspection of +severe judges, and yet be neither vicious nor heartless. This problem, +after he had considered it in every possible way, Sir Tom finally gave +up with a sort of despair. He must keep his secret within his own bosom. +He must contrive some means of doing what, in case his hypothesis was +right, would now be clearly a duty, without exciting any suspicion on +Lucy's part. That, he thought with a compunction, would be easy enough. +There was no one whom it would cost less trouble to deceive. With these +thoughts he went to sleep in the room which seemed strangely lonely +without her presence. Perhaps, however, it was not ungrateful to him to +be alone to think all those thoughts without the additional sense of +treachery which must have ensued had he thought them in her presence. +There was no treachery. He had been all along, he thought to himself, a +man somewhat sinned against in the matter. To be sure it was +wrong--according to all rules of morals, it was necessary to admit this; +but not more wrong, not so much wrong, as most other men had been. And, +granting the impropriety of that first step, he had nothing to reproach +himself with afterwards. In that respect he knew he had behaved both +liberally and honourably, though he had been deceived. But +how--how--good heavens!--explain this to Lucy? In the silence of her +room, where she was not, he actually laughed out to himself at the +thought; laughed with a sense of all impossibility beyond all laws or +power of reasoning. What miracle would make her understand? It would be +easier to move the solid earth than to make her understand. + +But it was altogether a very strange night--such a night as never had +been passed in that house before; and fearful things were about in the +darkness, ill dreams, strange shadows of trouble. When Sir Tom woke in +the morning and found no sign that his wife had been in the room or any +trace of her, there arose once more a painful apprehension in his mind. +He hurried half-dressed to the nursery to ask for news of the child, but +was met by the nurse with the most cheerful countenance, with little Tom +holding by her skirts, in high spirits, and fun of babble and glee. + +"He has had a good night, then?" the father said aloud, lifting the +little fellow to his shoulder. + +"An excellent night, Sir Thomas," the woman said, "and not a bit tired +with his journey, and so pleased to see all the carriages and the folks +passing." + +Sir Tom put the boy down with a cloud upon his face. + +"What was the cause, then, of Lady Randolph's anxiety last night?" + +"Anxiety, Sir Thomas! Oh no; her ladyship was quite pleased. She do +always say he is a regular little town-bird, and always better in +London. And so she said when I was putting of him to sleep. And he never +stirred, not from the moment he went off till six o'clock this morning, +the darling. I do think now, Sir Thomas, as we may hope he's taken hold +of his strength." + +Sir Tom turned away with a blank countenance. What did it mean, then? He +went back to his dressing-room, and completed his toilette without +seeing anything of Lucy. The nurse seemed quite unconscious of her +mistress's vigil by the baby's side. Where, then, had Lucy passed the +night, and why taken refuge in that nursery? Sir Tom grew pale, and saw +his own countenance white and full of trouble, as if it had been a +stranger's, in the glass. He hurried downstairs to the breakfast-room, +into which the sun was shining. There could not have been a more +cheerful sight. Some of the flowers brought up from the Hall were on the +table; there was a merry little fire burning; the usual pile of +newspapers were arranged for him by Williams's care, who felt himself a +political character too, and understood the necessity of seeing what the +country was thinking. Jock stood at the window with a book, reading and +watching the changeful movements outside. But the chair at the head of +the table was vacant. "Have you seen Lucy?" he said to Jock, with an +anxiety which he could scarcely disguise. At this moment she came in, +very guilty, very pale, like a ghost. She gave him no greeting, save a +sort of attempt at a smile and warning look, calling his attention to +Williams, who had followed her into the room with that one special dish +which the butler always condescended to place on the table. Sir Tom sat +down to his newspapers confounded, not knowing what to think or to say. + + + + +CHAPTER XLII. + +LADY RANDOLPH WINDS UP HER AFFAIRS. + + +Lucy contrived somehow to elude all private intercourse with her husband +that morning. She was not alone with him for a moment. To his question +about little Tom and her anxiety of last night she made as slight an +answer as possible. "Nurse tells me he is all right." "He is quite well +this morning," Lucy replied with quiet dignity, as if she did not limit +herself to nurse's observations. She talked a little to Jock about his +school and how long the holidays lasted, while Sir Tom retired behind +the shield of his newspapers. He did not get much benefit from them that +morning, or instruction as to what the country was thinking. He was so +much more curious to know what his wife was thinking, that simple +little girl who knew no evil. The most astute of men could not have +perplexed Sir Tom so much. It seemed to him that something must have +happened, but what? What was there that any one could betray to her? not +the discovery that he himself thought he had made. That was impossible. +If any one else had known it he surely must have known it. It could not +be anything so unlikely as that. + +But Lucy gave him no opportunity of inquiring. She went away to see the +housekeeper, to look after her domestic affairs; and then Sir Tom made +sure he should find her in the nursery, whither he took his way, when he +thought he had left sufficient time for her other occupations. But Lady +Randolph was not there. He heard from Fletcher, whose disturbed +countenance seemed to reflect his own, that her mistress had gone out. +She was the only one of the household who shared his certainty that +something had happened out of the ordinary routine. Fletcher knew that +her mistress had not undressed in the usual way; that she had not gone +to bed. Her own services had not been required either in the morning or +evening, and she had a strong suspicion that Lady Randolph had passed +the night on a sofa in the little morning-room upstairs. To Fletcher's +mind it was not very difficult to account for this. Quarrels between +husband and wife are common enough. But her consciousness and +sympathetic significance of look struck Sir Tom with a troubled sense of +the humour of the situation which broke the spell of his increasing +agitation, if but for a moment. It was droll to think that Fletcher +should be in a manner his confidant, the only participator in his woes. + +Lucy had gone out half to avoid her husband, half with a determination +to expedite the business which she had begun, with very different +feelings the day before. The streets were very gay and bright on that +April morning, with all the quickening of life which many arrivals and +the approach of the season, with all its excitements, brings. Houses +were opening up, carriages coming out, even the groups of children and +nurse-maids in the Park making a sensible difference on the other side +of the great railing. It was very unusual for her to find herself in the +streets alone, and this increased the curious dazed sensation with which +she went out among all these real people, so lively and energetic, while +she was still little more than a dream-woman, possessed by one thought, +moving along, she knew not how, with a sense of helplessness and +unprotectedness, which made the novelty all the more sensible to her. +She went on for what seemed to be a long time, following mechanically +the line of the pavement, without knowing what she was doing, along the +long course of Park Lane, and then into the cheerful bustle of +Piccadilly, where, with a sense of morning ease and leisure, not like +the artificiality of the afternoon, so many people were coming and +going, all occupied in business of their own, though so different from +the bustle of more absorbing business, the haste and obstruction of the +city. Lucy was not beautiful enough or splendid enough to attract much +attention from the passers-by in the streets, though one or two +sympathetic and observant wayfarers were caught by the look of trouble +in her face. She had never walked about London, and she did not know +where she was going. But she did not think of this. She thought only on +one subject,--about her husband and that other life which he had, of +which she knew nothing, which might, for anything she could tell, have +been going on side by side with the life she knew and shared. This was +the point upon which Lucy's mind had given way. The revelation as to +Bice had startled and shaken her soul to its foundations; but after the +shock things had fallen into their place again, and she had felt no +anger, though much pain and pity. Her mind had thrown itself back into +the unknown past almost tenderly towards the mother who had died long +ago, to whom perhaps Bice had been what little Tom was now to herself. +But when the further statement reached her ears all that softening which +seemed to have swept over her disappeared in a moment. A horrible +bewilderment had seized her. Was he two men, with two wives, two lives, +two children dear to him? + +It is usual to talk of women as being the most severe judges of each +other's failures in one particular at least, an accusation which no +doubt is true of both sexes, though generally applied, like so many +universal truths, to one. And an injured wife is a raging fury in those +primitive characterisations which are so common in the world. But the +ideas which circled like the flakes in a snowstorm through the mind of +Lucy were of a kind incomprehensible to the vulgar critic who judges +humanity in the general. Her ways of thinking, her modes of judging were +as different as possible from those of minds accustomed to +generalisation and lightly acquainted with the vices of the world. Lucy +knew no general; she knew three persons involved in an imbroglio so +terrible that she saw no way out of it. Herself, her husband, another +woman. Her mind was the mind almost of a child. It had resisted all that +dismal information which the chatter of society conveys. She knew that +married people were "not happy" sometimes. She knew that there were +wretched stories of which she held that they could not be true. She was +of Desdemona's mind, and did not believe that there was any such woman. +And when she was suddenly strangely brought face to face with a tragedy +of her own, that was not enough to turn this innocent and modest girl +into a raging Eleanor. She was profoundly reasonable in her simple way, +unapt to blame; thinking no evil, and full of those prepossessions and +fixed canons of innocence which the world-instructed are incapable not +only of understanding, but of believing in the existence of. A +connection between a man and a woman was to her, in one way or other, a +marriage. Into the reasons, whatever they might have been, that could +have brought about any such connection without the rites that made it +sacred, she could not penetrate or inquire. It was a subject too +terrible, from which her mind retreated with awe and incomprehension. +Never could it, she felt, have been intended so, at least on the woman's +side. The mock marriage of romance, the deceits practised on the stage +and in novels upon the innocent, she believed in without hesitation, +everything in the world being more comprehensible than impurity. There +might be villainous men, betrayers, seducers, Lucy could not tell; there +might be monsters, griffins, fiery dragons, for anything she knew; but a +woman abandoned by all her natural guard of modesties and reluctances, +moved by passion, capable of being seduced, she could not understand. +And still more impossible was it to imagine such sins as the outcome of +mere levity, without any tragic circumstances; or to conceive of the +mysteries of life as outraged and intruded upon by folly, or for the +darker bait of interest. Her heart sickened at such suggestions. She +knew there were poor women in the streets, victims of want and vice, +poor degraded creatures for whom her heart bled, whom she could not +think of for the intolerable pang of pity and shame. But all these +questions had nothing to do with the sudden revelation in which she +herself had so painful a part. These broken reflections were in her mind +like the falling of snow. They whirled through the vague world of her +troubled soul without consequence or coherence; all that had nothing to +do with her. Her husband was no villain, and the woman--the beautiful, +smiling woman, so much fairer, greater, more important than Lucy, she +was no wretched, degraded creature. What was she then? His wife--his +true wife? And if so, what was Lucy? Her brain reeled and the world went +round her in a sickening whirl. The circumstances were too terrible for +resentment. What could anger do, or any other quick-springing +short-lived emotion? What did it matter even what Lucy felt, what any +one felt? It was far beyond that. Here was fact which no emotion could +undo. A wife and a child on either side, and what was to come of it; and +how could life go on with this to think of, never to be forgotten, not +to be put aside for a moment? It brought existence to a stand-still. She +did not know what was the next step she must take, or how she could go +back, or what she must say to the man who, perhaps, was not her husband, +or how she could continue under that roof, or arrange the commonest +details of life. There was but one thing clear before her, the business +which she was bent on hurrying to a conclusion now. + +She found herself in the bustle of the streets that converge upon the +circus at the end of Piccadilly as she thus went on thinking, and there +Lucy looked about her in some dismay, finding that she had reached the +limit of the little world she knew. She was afraid of plunging alone +into those bustling ways, and almost afraid of the only other +alternative, which, however, she adopted, of calling a cab and giving +the driver the address of Mr. Chervil in the city. To do this, and to +mount into the uneasy jingling cab, gave her a little shock of the +unaccustomed, which was like a breach of morals to Lucy. It seemed, +though she had been independent enough in more important matters, the +most daring step she had ever taken on her own responsibility. But the +matter of the cab, and the aspect of this unknown world into which it +conveyed her, occupied her mind a little, and stopped the tumult of her +thoughts. She seemed scarcely to know what she had come about when she +found herself set down at the door of Mr. Chervil's office, and +ascending the grimy staircase, meeting people who stared at her, and +wondered what a lady could be doing there. Mr. Chervil himself was +scarcely less surprised. He said, "Lady Randolph!" with a cry of +astonishment when she was shown in. And she found some difficulty, which +she had not thought of, in explaining her business. He reminded her that +she had given him the same instructions yesterday when he had the honour +of waiting upon her in Park Lane. He was far more respectful to Lady +Randolph than he had been to Lucy Trevor in her first attempts to carry +out her father's will. + +"I assure you," he said, "I have not neglected your wishes. I have +written to Rushton on the subject. We both know by this time, Lady +Randolph, that when you have made up your mind--and you have the most +perfect right to do so--though we may not like it, nor think it anything +but a squandering of money, still we are aware we have no right to +oppose----" + +"It is not that," said Lucy faintly. "It is that the circumstances have +changed since yesterday. I want to--I should like to----" + +"Give up your intention? I am delighted to hear it. For you must allow +me to say, as a man of business----" + +"It is not that," Lucy repeated. "I want to increase the sum. I find the +young lady has a claim--and I want it to be done immediately, without +the loss of a day. Oh, I am more, much more in earnest about it than I +was yesterday. I want it settled at once. If it is not settled at once +difficulties might arise. I want to double the amount. Could you not +telegraph to Mr. Rushton instead of writing? I have heard that people +telegraph about business." + +"Double the amount! Have you thought over this? Have you had Sir +Thomas's advice? It is a very important matter to decide so suddenly. +Pardon me, Lady Randolph, but you must know that if you bestow at this +rate you will soon not have very much left to you." + +"Ah, that would be a comfort!" cried Lucy; and then there came over her +the miserable thought that all the circumstances were changed, and to +have a subject of disagreement between her husband and herself removed +would not matter now. Once it had been the only subject, now---- The +suddenness of this realisation of the change filled her eyes with tears. +But she restrained herself with a great effort. "Yes," she said, "I +should be glad, very glad, to have done all my father wished--for many +things might happen. I might die--and then who would do it?" + +"We need not discuss that very unlikely contingency," said Mr. Chervil. +(He said to himself: Sir Tom wouldn't, that is certain.) "But even under +Mr. Trevor's will," he added, "this will be a very large sum to +give--larger, don't you think, than he intended; unless there is some +very special claim?" + +"It is a special claim," cried Lucy, "and papa made no conditions. I was +to be free in doing it. He left me quite free." + +"Without doubt," the lawyer said. "I need not repeat my opinion on the +subject, but you are certainly quite free. And you have brought me the +young lady's name, no doubt, Lady Randolph? Yesterday, you recollect you +were uncertain about her name. It is important to be quite accurate in +an affair of so much importance. She is a lucky young lady. A great many +would like to learn the secret of pleasing you to this extent." + +Lucy looked at him with a gasp. She did not understand the rest of his +speech or care to hear it. Her name? What was her name? If she had not +known it before, still less did she know it now. + +"Oh," she cried, "what does it matter about a name? People, girls, +change their names. She is Beatrice. You might leave a blank and it +could be filled up after. She is going to--marry. She is--must +everything be delayed for that?--and yet it is of no importance--no +importance that I can see," Lucy said, wringing her hands. + +"My dear Lady Randolph! Let me say that to give a very large sum of +money to a person with whose very name you are unacquainted--forgive me, +but in your own interests I must speak. Let me consult with Sir +Thomas." + +"I do not wish my husband to be consulted. He has promised me not to +interfere, and it is my business, not his," Lucy said, with a flush of +excitement. And though there was much further conversation, and the +lawyer did all he could to move her, it need not be said that Lucy was +immovable. He went down to the door with her to put her into her +carriage, as he supposed, not unwilling even in that centre of practical +life to have the surrounding population see on what confidential terms +he was with this fine young lady. But when he perceived that no carriage +was there, and Lucy, not without a tremor, as of a very strange request, +and one which might shock the nerves of her companion, asked him to get +a cab for her, Mr. Chervil's astonishment knew no bounds. + +"I never thought how far it was," Lucy said, faltering and apologetic. +"I thought I might perhaps have been able to walk." + +"Walk!" he cried, "from Park Lane?" with consternation. He stood looking +after her as she drove away, saying to himself that the old man had +undoubtedly been mad, and that this poor young thing was evidently +cracked too. He thought it would be best to write to Sir Thomas, who was +not Sir Tom to Mr. Chervil; but if it was going to happen that the poor +young lady should show what he had no doubt was the hereditary weakness, +Mr. Chervil could not restrain a devout wish that it might show itself +decisively before half her fortune was alienated. No Sir Thomas in +existence would carry out a father-in-law's will of such an insane +character as that. + +In the meanwhile Lucy jingled home in her cab, feeling more giddy, more +heartsick than ever. There now came upon her with more potency than ever, +since now it was the matter immediately before her, the question what was +she to do? What was she to do? She had eluded Sir Tom on the night before, +and obliged him to accept, without any demand for explanation, her strange +retirement. But now what was she to do? Little Tom would not answer for a +pretext again. She must either resume the former habits of her life, +subdue herself entirely, meet him with a cheerful face, ignore the sudden +chasm that had been made between them--or---- She looked with terrified +eyes at this blank wall of impossibility, and could see no way through it. +Live with him as of old, in a pretence of union where no union could be, +or explain how it was that she could not do so. Both these things were +impossible--impossible!--and what, then, was she to do? + + + + +CHAPTER XLIII. + +THE LITTLE HOUSE IN MAYFAIR. + + +The little house in Mayfair was very bright and gay. What conventional +words are those! It was nothing of the kind. It was dim and poetical. No +light that could be kept out of it was permitted to come in. The quality +of light in London, even in April, is not exquisite, and perhaps the +Contessa's long curtains and all the delicate draperies which she loved +to hang about her were more desirable to see than that very poor thing +in the way of daylight which exists in Mayfair. Bice, who was a child of +light, objected a little to this shutting out, and she would have +objected strongly, being young enough to love the sunshine for itself, +but for the exquisite reason which the Contessa gave for the interdict +she had put upon it. "Cara," she said, "if you were all white and red +like those English girls (it is _tant soit peu_ vulgar between +ourselves, and not half so effective as your _blanc mat_), then you +might have as much light as you pleased; but to put yourself in +competition with them on their own ground--no, Bice mia. But in this +light there is nothing to desire." + +"Don't you think, then, Madama," said Bice, piqued, "that no light at +all would be better still, and not to be seen the best----" + +"Darling!" said the Contessa, with that smile which embodied so many +things. It answered for encouragement and applause and gentle reproof, +and many other matters which words could but indifferently say, and it +was one of her favourite ways of turning aside a question to which she +did not think fit to give any reply. And Bice swallowed her pique and +asked no more. The lamps were all shaded like the windows in this bower +of beauty. There was scarcely a corner that was not draped with some +softly-falling, richly-tinted tissue. A delicate perfume breathed +through this half-lighted world. Thus, though neither gay nor bright, it +realised the effect which in our day, in the time when everything was +different, was meant by these words. It was a place for pleasure, for +intimate society, and conversation, and laughter, and wit; for music and +soft words; and, above all, for the setting off of beauty, and the +expression of admiration. The chairs were soft, the carpets like moss; +there were flowers everywhere betraying themselves by their odour, even +when you could not see them. The Contessa had spared no expense in +making the little place--which she laughed at softly, calling it her +doll's house--as perfect as it could be made. + +And here the two ladies began to live a life very different from that of +the Randolphs' simple dwelling. Bice, it need scarcely be said, had +fulfilled all the hopes of her patroness, else had she never been +produced with such bewildering mystery, yet deftness, to dazzle the eyes +of young Montjoie at the Hall. She had realised all the Contessa's +expectations, and justified the bills which Madame di Forno-Populo +looked upon with a certain complacency as they came in, as something +creditable to her, as proof of her magnificence of mind and devotion to +the best interests of her _protegee_. And now they had entered upon +their campaign. It had annoyed her in this new beginning, amid all its +excitements and hopes, to be called upon by Sir Tom for explanations +which it was not to her interest to give; which she had, indeed, when +she deliberately sowed the seed of mystery, resolved not to give. To +allow herself to be brought to book was not in her mind at all, and she +was clever enough to mystify even Sir Tom, and keep his mind in a +suspense and uncertainty very painful to him. But she had managed to +elude his inquiries, and though it had changed the demeanour of Sir Tom, +and entirely done away with the careless good humour which had been so +pleasant, still she felt herself now independent of the Randolphs, and +had begun her life very cheerfully and with every promise of great +enjoyment. The Contessa "received" every day and all day long, from the +time when she was visible, which was not, however, at a very early hour. +About four the day of the ladies began. Sometimes, indeed, before that +hour two favoured persons, not always the same, who had accompanied +them home from the Park, would be admitted to share a dainty little +luncheon. Bice now rode at the hour when everybody rides, with the +Contessa, who was a graceful horsewoman, and never looked to greater +advantage than in the saddle. The two beautiful Italians, as they were +called, had in this way, within a week of their arrival, caused a +sensation in the Row, and already their days overflowed with amusement +and society. Few ladies visited the little house in Mayfair, but then +they were not much wanted there. The Contessa was not one of those +vulgar practitioners who profess in words their preference for men's +society. But she said, so sweetly that it was barbarous to laugh (though +many of her friends did so), that, having one close companion of her own +sex, her dearest Bice, who was everything to her, she was independent of +the feminine element. "And then they are so busy, these ladies of +fashion; they have no leisure; they have so many things to do. It is a +thraldom, a heavy thraldom, though the chains are gilded." "Shall we see +you at Lady Blank Blank's to-night? You must be going to the Duchess's? +Of course we shall meet at the Highton Grandmodes!" "Ah!" cried the +Contessa, spreading out her white hands, "it is fatiguing even only to +hear of it. We love our ease, Bice and I; we go nowhere where we are +expected to go." + +The gentlemen to whom this speech was made laughed "consumedly." They +even made little signs to each other behind back, and exploded again. +When she looked round at them they said the Contessa was a perfect +mimic, better than anything on the stage, and that she had perfectly +caught the tone of that old Lady Barbe Montfichet, who went everywhere +(whom, indeed, the Contessa did not know), and laughed again. But it was +not at the Contessa's power of mimicry that they laughed. It was at the +delicious falsehood of her pretensions, and the thought that if she +pleased she might appear at the Highton Grandmodes, or meet the best +society at Lady Blank Blank's. These gentlemen knew better; and it was a +joke of which they never tired. They were not, perhaps, the most +desirable class of people in society who had the _entree_ in the +Contessa's little house; they were old acquaintances who had known her +in her progress through the world, mingled with a few young men whom +they brought with them, partly because the boys admired these two lovely +foreign women; partly because, with a certain easy benevolence that cost +them nothing, they wanted the Contessa's little girl, whoever she was, +to have her chance. But few, if any, of these astute gentlemen, young or +old, was in any doubt as to the position she held. + +Nor was she altogether without female visitors. Lady Anastasia, that +authority of the press, who made the public acquainted with the +movements of distinguished strangers and was not afraid of compromising +herself, sometimes made one at the little parties and enjoyed them much. +The Dowager Lady Randolph's card was left at the Contessa's door, as was +that of the Duchess, who had looked upon her with such consternation at +Lucy's party in the country. What these ladies meant it would be curious +to know. Perhaps it was a lingering touch of kindness, perhaps a wish to +save their credit in case it should happen by some bewildering turn of +fortune that La Forno-Populo might come uppermost again. Would she dare +to have herself put forward at the Drawing-room was what these ladies +asked each other with bated breath. It was possible, nay, quite likely, +that she might succeed in doing so, for there were plenty of +good-natured people who would not refuse if she asked them, and of +course so close a scrutiny was not kept upon foreigners as upon native +subjects; while, as a matter of fact, the Dowager Lady Randolph was +right in her assertion that, so far as could be proved, there was +nothing absolutely fatal to a woman's reputation in the history of the +Contessa. Would she have the courage to dare that ordeal, or would she +set up a standard of revolt, and declare herself superior to that +hall-mark of fashion? She was clever enough, all the people who knew her +allowed, for either _role_; either to persuade some good woman, innocent +and ignorant enough, to be responsible for her, and elude the researches +of the Lord Chamberlain, or else to retreat bravely in gay rebellion and +declare that she was not rich enough, nor her diamonds good enough, for +that noonday display. For either part the Contessa was clever enough. + +Meanwhile Bice had all the enjoyment, without any of the drawbacks of +this new life. It was far more luxurious, splendid, and even amusing, +than the old existence of the watering-places. To ride in the Park and +feel herself one of that brilliant crowd, to be surrounded by a +succession of lively companions, to have always "something going on," +that delight of youth, and a continual incense of admiration rising +around her enough to have turned a less steady head, filled Bice's cup +with happiness. But perhaps the most penetrating pleasure of all was +that of having carried out the Contessa's expectations and fulfilled her +hopes. Had not Madame di Forno-Populo been satisfied with the beauty of +her charge, none of these expenses would have been incurred, and this +life of many delights would never have been; so that the soothing and +exhilarating consciousness of having indeed deserved and earned her +present well-being was in Bice's mind. The future, too, opened before +her a horizon of boundless hope. To have everything she now had and +more, along with that one element of happiness which had always been +wanting, the certainty that it would last, was the happy prospect within +her grasp. Her head was so steady, and the practical sense of the +advantage so great, that the excitement and pleasure did not intoxicate +her; but everything was delightful, novel, breathing confidence and +hope. The guests at the table, where she now took her place, equal in +importance to the Contessa herself, all flattered and did their best to +please her. They amused her, either because they were clever or because +they were ridiculous--Bice, with youthful cynicism, did not much mind +which it was. When they went to the opera, a similar crowd would flutter +in and out of the box, and appear afterwards to share the gay little +supper and declare that no _prime-donne_ on the stage could equal the +two lovely blending voices of the Contessa and her ward. To sit late +talking, laughing, singing, surrounded by all this worship, and to wake +up again to a dozen plans and the same routine of pleasure next day, +what heart of seventeen (and she was not quite seventeen) could resist +it? One thing, however, Bice missed amid all this. It was the long +gallery at the Hall, the nursery in Park Lane, little Tom crowing upon +her shoulder, digging his hands into her hair, and Lucy looking on--many +things, yet one. She missed this, and laughed at herself, and said she +was a fool--but missed it all the same. Lucy had come, as in duty bound, +and paid her call. She had been very grave--not like herself. And Sir +Tom was very grave; looking at her she could not tell how; no longer +with his old easy good humour, with a look of criticism and anxiety--an +uneasy look, as if he had something to say to her and could not. Bice +felt instinctively that if he ever said that something it would be +disagreeable, and avoided his presence. But it troubled her to lose this +side of her landscape, so to speak. The new was entrancing, but the old +was a loss. She missed it, and thought herself a fool for missing it, +and laughed, but felt it the more. + +The only member of the household with whom she remained on the same easy +terms as before was Jock, who came to the house in Mayfair at hours when +nobody else was admitted, though he was quite unaware of the privilege +he possessed. He came in the morning when Bice, too young to want the +renewal which the Contessa sought in bed and in the mysteries of the +toilette, sometimes fretted a little indoors at the impossibility of +getting the air into her lungs, and feeling the warmth of the morning +light. She was so glad to see him that Jock was deeply flattered, and +sweet thoughts of the most boundless foolishness got in to his head. +Bice ran to her room, and found one of her old hats which she had worn +in the country, and tied a veil over her face, and came flying +downstairs like a bird. + +"We may go out and run in the Park so long as no one sees us," she +cried. "Oh, come; nobody can see me through this veil." + +"And what good will the air do you through that veil?" said Jock +contemptuously. "You can't see the sun through it; it makes the whole +world black. I would not go out if I were you with that thing over my +face, the only chance I had for a walk. I'd rather stay at home; but +perhaps you like it. Girls are such----" + +"What? You are going to swear, and if you swear I will simply turn my +back. Well, perhaps you didn't mean it. But I mean it. Boys are +such---- What? little prudes, like the old duennas in the books, and that +is what you are. You think things are wrong that are not wrong. But it +is to an Englishman the right thing to grumble," Bice said, with a smile +of reconciliation as they stepped into the street. On that sweet morning +even the street was delightful. It restored them to perfect satisfaction +with each other as they made their way to the Park, which stretched its +long lines of waving grass almost within sight. + +"And I suppose," said Jock, after a pause, "that you like being here?" + +Bice gave him a look half friendly, half disdainful. "I like living," +she said. "In the country in what you call the quiet, it is only to be +half alive: we are always living here. But you never come to see us +ride, to be among the crowd. You are never at the opera. You don't talk +as those others do----" + +"Montjoie, for instance," said Jock, with a strange sense of jealousy +and pain. + +"Very well, Montjoie. He is what you call fun; he has always something +to say, _betises_ perhaps, but what does that matter? He makes me +laugh." + +"Makes you laugh! at his wit perhaps?" cried Jock. "Oh, what things +girls are! Laugh at what a duffer like that, an ass, a fellow that has +not two ideas, says." + +"You have a great many ideas," said Bice; "you are clever--you know a +number of things; but you are not so amusing, and you are not so +good-natured. You scold me; and you say another, a friend, is an +ass----" + +"He was never any friend of mine," said Jock, with a hot flush of anger. +"That fellow! I never had anything to say to him." + +"No," said Bice, with a smiling disdain which cut poor Jock like a +knife. "I made a mistake, that was not possible, for he is a man and you +are only a boy." + +To describe Jock's feelings under this blow would be beyond the power of +words. He inferior to Montjoie! he only a boy while the other was a man! +Rage was nothing in such an emergency. He looked at her with eyes that +were almost pathetic in their sense of unappreciated merit, and, deeper +sting still, of folly preferred. In spite of himself, Locksley Hall and +those musings which have become, by no fault of the poet's, the +expression of a despair which is half ridiculous, came into his mind. He +did not see the ridicule. "Having known me to decline"--his eyes became +moist with a dew of pain--"If you think that," he said slowly, +"Bice----" + +Bice answered only with a laugh. "Let us make haste; let us run," she +cried. "It is so early, no one will see us. Why don't you ride, it is +like flying? And to run is next best." She stopped after a flight, swift +as a bird, along an unfrequented path which lay still in the April +sunshine, the lilac bushes standing up on each side all athrill and +rustling with the spring, with eyes that shone like stars, and that +unusual colour which made her radiant. Jock, though he could have gone +on much faster, was behind her for the moment, and came up after her, +more occupied by the shame of being outrun and laughed at than by +admiration of the girl and her beauty. She was more conscious of her own +splendour of bloom than he was: though Bice was not vain, and he was +more occupied by the thought of her than by any other thought. + +"Girls never think of being able to stay," he said, "you do only what +can be done with a rush; but that's not running. If you had ever seen +the School Mile----" + +"Oh no, I want to see no miles," cried Bice; "this is what I like, to +have all my fingers tingle." Then she suddenly calmed down in a moment, +and walked along demurely as the paths widened out to a more frequented +thoroughfare. "What I want," she said, "is little Tom upon my shoulder, +and to hear him scream and hold by my hair. Milady does not look as if I +pleased her now. She has come once only and looked--not as she once +looked. But she is still kind. She has made this ball for me--for me +only. Did you know? do you dance then, if nothing else? Oh, you shall +dance since the ball is for me. I love dancing--to distraction; but not +once have I had a single turn, not once, since we came to England," Bice +said with a sigh, which rose into a laugh in another moment, as she +added, "It will be for me to come out, as you say, to be introduced into +society, and after that we shall go everywhere, the Contessa says." + + + + +CHAPTER XLIV. + +THE SIEGE OF LONDON. + + +The Contessa, but perhaps not more than half, believed what she said. +Everything was on the cards in this capricious society of England, which +is not governed by the same absolute laws as in other places. It seemed +to be quite possible that she and her charge might be asked everywhere +after their appearance at the ball which, she should take care to tell +everybody, Lucy was giving for Bice. It was always possible in England +that some leader of fashion, some great lady whose nod gave distinction, +might take pity upon Bice's youth and think it hard that she should +suffer, even if without any relentings towards the Contessa. And Madame +di Forno-Populo was very strong on the point, already mentioned, that +there was nothing against her which could give any one a right to shut +her out. The mere suggestion that the doors of society might or could be +closed in her face would have driven another woman into frantic +indignation, but the Contessa had passed that stage. She took the matter +quite reasonably, philosophically. There was no reason. She had been +poor and put to many shifts. Sometimes she had been compelled to permit +herself to be indebted to a man in a way no woman should allow herself +to be. She was quite aware of this, and was not, therefore, angry with +society for its reluctance to receive her; but she said to herself, with +great energy, that there was no cause. She was not hopeless even of the +drawing-room, nor of getting the Duchess herself, a model of all the +virtues, to present her, if the ball went off well at Park Lane. She +said to herself that there was nothing on her mind which would make her +shrink from seeking admission to the presence of the Queen. She was not +afraid even of that royal lady's penetrating eye. Shiftiness, poverty, +debts, modes of getting money that were, perhaps, equivocal, help too +lightly accepted, all these are bad enough; but they are not in a woman +the unpardonable sin. And a caprice in English society was always +possible. The young beauty of Bice might attract the eye of some one +whose notice would throw down all obstacles; or it might touch the heart +of some woman who was so high placed as to be able to defy prejudice. +And after that, of course, they would go everywhere, and every +prognostication of success and triumph would come true. + +Nevertheless, if things did not go on so well as this, the Contessa had +furnished herself with what to say. She would tell Bice that the women +were jealous, that she had been pursued by their hostility wherever she +went, that a woman who secured the homage of men was always an object of +their spite and malice, that it was a sort of persecution which the +lovely had to bear from the unlovely in all regions. Knowing that it was +fully more likely that she should fail than succeed, the Contessa had +carefully provided herself with this ancient plea and would not hesitate +to use it if necessary; but these were _grands moyens_, not to be +resorted to save in case of necessity. She would herself have been +willing enough to dispense with recognition and live as she was doing +now, among the old and new admirers who had never failed her, enjoying +everything except those dull drawing-rooms and heavy parties for which +her soul longed, yet which she despised heartily, which she would have +undergone any humiliation to get admission to, and turned to ridicule +afterwards with the best grace in the world. She despised them, but +there was nothing that could make up for absence from them; they alone +had in their power the _cachet_, the symbol of universal acceptance. All +these things depended upon the ball at Park Lane. Something had been +going on there since she separated herself from that household which the +Contessa did not understand. Sir Tom, indeed, was comprehensible. The +discovery which he thought he had made, the things which she had allowed +him to divine, and even permitted him to prove for himself without +making a single assertion on her own part, were quite sufficient to +account for his changed looks. But Lucy, what had she found out? It was +not likely that Sir Tom had communicated his discovery to her. Lucy's +demeanour confused the Contessa more than words can say. The simple +creature had grown into a strange dignity, which nothing could explain. +Instead of the sweet compliance and almost obedience of former days, the +deference of the younger to the older woman, Lucy looked at her with +grave composure, as of an equal or superior. What had happened to the +girl? And it was so important that she should be friendly now and kept +in good humour! Madame di Forno-Populo put forth all her attractions, +gave her dear Lucy her sweetest looks and words, but made very little +impression. This gave her a little tremor when she thought of it; for +all her plans for the future were connected with the ball on the 26th at +Park Lane. + +This ball appeared to Lucy, too, the most important crisis in her life. +She had made a sacrifice which was heroic that nothing might go wrong +upon that day. Somehow or other, she could not tell how, for the +struggle had been desperate within her, she had subdued the emotion in +her own heart and schooled herself to an acceptance of the old routine +of her life until that event should be over. All her calculations went +to that date, but not beyond. Life seemed to stop short there. It had +been arranged and settled with a light heart in the pleasure of knowing +that the Contessa had taken a house for herself, and that, consequently, +Lucy was henceforward to be once more mistress of her own. She had been +so ashamed of her own pleasure in this prospect, so full of compunctions +in respect to her guest, whose departure made her happy, that she had +thrown herself with enthusiasm into this expedient for making it up to +them. She had said it was to be Bice's ball. When the Dowager's +revelation came upon her like a thunderbolt, as soon as she was able to +think at all, she had thought of this ball with a depth of emotion which +was strange to be excited by so frivolous a matter. It was a pledge of +the warmest friendship, but those for whom it was to be, had turned out +the enemies of her peace, the destroyers of her happiness: and it was +high festival and gaiety, but her heart was breaking. Lady Randolph, +afraid of what she had done, yet virulent against the Contessa, had +suggested that it should be given up. It was easy to do such a thing--a +few notes, a paragraph in the newspaper, a report of a cousin dead, or a +sudden illness; any excuse would do. But Lucy was not to be so moved. +There was in her soft bosom a sense of justice which was almost stern, +and through all her troubles she remembered that Bice, at least, had a +claim upon all Sir Thomas Randolph could do for her, such as nobody +else could have. Under what roof but his should she make her first +appearance in the world? Lucy held sternly with a mixture of bitterness +and tenderness to Bice's rights. In all this misery Bice was without +blame, the only innocent person, the one most wronged, more wronged even +than was Lucy herself. She it was who would have to bear the deepest +stigma, without any fault of hers. Whatever could be done to advance her +(as she counted advancement), to make her happy (as she reckoned +happiness) it was right she should have it done. Lucy suppressed her own +wretchedness heroically for this cause. She bore the confusion that had +come into her life without saying a word for the sake of the other young +creature who was her fellow-sufferer. How hard it was to do she could +not have told, nor did any one suspect, except, vaguely, Sir Tom +himself, who perceived some tragic mischief that was at work without +knowing how it had come there or what it was. He tried to come to some +explanation, but Lucy would have no explanation. She avoided him as much +as it was possible to do. She had nothing to say when he questioned her. +Till the 26th! Nothing, she was resolved, should interfere with that. +And then--but not the baby in the nursery knew less than Lucy what was +to happen then. + +They had come to London on the 2d, so that this day of fate was three +weeks off, and during that time the Contessa had made no small progress +in her affairs. Three weeks is a long time in a house which is open to +visitors, even if only from four o'clock in the afternoon, every day, +and without intermission; and indeed that was not the whole, for the +ladies were accessible elsewhere than in the house in Mayfair. It had +pleased the Contessa not to be visible when Lord Montjoie called at a +somewhat early hour on the very earliest day. He was a young man who +knew the world, and not one to have things made too easy for him. He was +all aflame accordingly to gain the _entree_ thus withheld, and when the +Contessa appeared for the first time in the Park, with her lovely +companion, Montjoie was eagerly on the watch, and lost no time in +claiming acquaintance, and joining himself to her train. He was one of +the two who were received to luncheon two or three days afterwards. When +the ladies went to the opera he was on thorns till he could join them. +He was allowed to go home with them for one song, and to come in next +afternoon for a little music. And from that time forward there was no +more question of shutting him out. He came and went almost when he +pleased, as a young man may be permitted to do when he has become one of +the intimates in an easy-going, pleasure-loving household, where there +is always "something going on." He was so little flattered that never +during all these days and nights had he once been allowed to repeat the +performance upon which he prided himself, and with which he had followed +up the singing of the Contessa and Bice at the Hall. The admirable lady +whom they had met there, with her two daughters, had been eager that +Lord Montjoie should display this accomplishment of his, and the girls +had been enchanted by his singing; but the Contessa, though not so +irreproachable, would have none of it. And Bice laughed freely at the +young nobleman who had so much to bestow, and they both threw at him +delicate little shafts of wit, which never pierced his stolid +complacency, though he was quite quick withal to see the fun when other +gentlemen looked at each other over the Contessa's shoulder, and burst +into little peals of laughter at her little speeches about the Highton +Grandmodes and other such exclusive houses. Montjoie knew all about La +Forno-Populo. "But yet that little Bice," he said, "don't you know?" No +one like her had come within Montjoie's ken. He knew all about the girls +in blue or in pink or in white, who asked him to sing. But Bice, who +laughed at his accomplishment and at himself, and was so saucy to him, +and made fun of him, he allowed, to his face, that was very different. +He described her in terms that were not chivalrous, and his own emotions +in words still less ornate; but before the fortnight was over the best +judges declared among themselves that, by Jove, the Forno-Populo had +done it this time, that the little one knew how to play her cards, that +it was all up with Montjoie, poor little beggar, with other elegances of +a similar kind. The man who had taken the Contessa's house for her, and +a great deal of trouble about all her arrangements, whom she described +as a very old friend, and whose rueful sense that house-agents and +livery stables might eventually look to him if she had no success in her +enterprise did not impair his fidelity, went so far as to speak +seriously to Montjoie on the subject. "Look here, Mont," he said, "don't +you think you are going it rather too strong? There is not a thing +against the girl, who is as nice as a girl can be, but then the aunt, +you know----" + +"I'm glad she is the aunt," said Montjoie. "I thought she was the +mother: and I always heard you were devoted to her." + +"We are very old friends," said this disinterested adviser. "There's +nothing I would not do for her. She is the best soul out, and was the +loveliest woman I can tell you--the girl is nothing to what she was. +Aunt or cousin, I am not sure what is the relationship; but that's not +the question. Don't you think you are coming it rather strong?" + +"Oh, I've got my wits about me," said Montjoie; and then he added, +rather reluctantly--for it is the fashion of his kind to be vulgar and +to keep what generosity or nobleness there is in them carefully out of +sight--"and I've no relations, don't you know? I've got nobody to please +but myself----" + +"Well, that is a piece of luck anyhow," the Mentor said; and he told the +Contessa the gist of the conversation next morning, who was highly +pleased by the news. + +The curious point in all this was that Bice had not the least objection +to Montjoie. She was a clever girl and he was a stupid young man, but +whether it was that her entirely unawakened heart had no share at all in +the matter, or that her clear practical view of affairs influenced her +sentiments as well as her mind, it is certain that she was quite pleased +with her fate, and ready to embrace it without the least sense that it +was a sacrifice or anything but the happiest thing possible. He amused +her, as she had said to Jock. He made her laugh, most frequently at +himself; but what did that matter? He had a kind of good looks, and that +good nature which is the product of prosperity and well-being, and a +sense of general superiority to the world. Perhaps the girl saw no man +of a superior order to compare him with; but, as a matter of fact, she +was perfectly satisfied with Montjoie. Mr. Derwentwater and Jock were +more ridiculous to her than he was, and were less in harmony with +everything she had previously known. Their work, their intellectual +occupations, their cleverness and aspirations were out of her world +altogether. The young man-about-town who had nothing to do but amuse +himself, who was always "knocking about," as he said, whose business was +pleasure, was the kind of being with whom she was acquainted. She had no +understanding of the other kind. He who had been her comrade in the +country, whose society had amused her there, and for whom she had a sort +of half-condescending affection, was droll to her beyond measure, with +his ambitions and great ideas as to what he was to do. He, too, made her +laugh; but not as Montjoie did. She laughed, though this would have +immeasurably surprised Jock, with much less sympathy than she had with +the other, upon whom he looked with so much contempt. They were both +silly to Bice,--silly as, in her strange experience, she thought it +usual and natural for men to be,--but Montjoie's manner of being silly +was more congenial to her than the other. He was more in tune with the +life she had known. Hamburg, Baden, Wiesbaden, and all the other Bads, +even Monaco, would have suited Montjoie well enough. The trade of +pleasure-making has its affinities like every other, and a tramp on his +way from fair to fair is more _en rapport_ with a duke than the world +dreams of. Thus Bice found that the young English marquis, with more +money than he knew how to spend, was far more like the elegant +adventurer living on his wits, than all those intervening classes of +society, to whom life is a more serious, and certainly a much less +festive and costly affair. She understood him far better. And instead of +being, as Lucy thought, a sacrifice, an unfortunate victim sold to a +loveless marriage for the money and the advantages it would bring, Bice +went on very gaily, her heart as unmoved as possible, to what she felt +to be a most congenial fate. + +And they all waited for the 26th and the ball with growing excitement. +It would decide many matters. It would settle what was to be the +character of the Contessa's campaign. It might reintroduce her into +society under better auspices than ever, or it might--but there was no +need to foretell anything unpleasant. And very likely it would conclude +at the same source as it began, Bice's triumph--a _debutante_ who was +already the affianced bride of the young Marquis of Montjoie, the +greatest _parti_ in the kingdom. The idea was like wine, and went to the +Contessa's head. + +She had in this interval of excitement a brief little note from Lucy, +which startled her beyond measure for the moment. It was to ask the +exact names of Bice. "You shall know in a few days why I ask, but it is +necessary they should be written down in full and exactly," Lucy said. +The Contessa had half forgotten, in the new flood of life about her, +what was in Lucy's power, and the further advantage that might come of +their relations, and she did not think of this even now, but felt with +momentary tremor as if some snare lay concealed under these simple +words. After a moment's consideration, however, she wrote with a bold +and flowing hand: + + "SWEET LUCY--The child's name is Beatrice Ersilia. You cannot, I am + sure, mean her anything but good by such a question. She has not + been properly introduced, I know--I am fantastic, I loved the Bice, + and no more. + + "DARLING, A TE." + +This was signed with a cipher, which it was not very easy to make out--a +little mystery which pleased the Contessa. She thus involved in a +pleasant little uncertainty her own name, which nobody knew. + + + + +CHAPTER XLV. + +THE BALL. + + +Lady Randolph's ball was one of the first of the season, and as it was +the first ball she had ever given, and both Lucy and her husband were +favourites in society, it was looked forward to as the forerunner of +much excitement and pleasure, and with a freshness of interest and +anticipation which, unless in April, is scarcely to be expected in town. +The rooms in Park Lane, though there was nothing specially exquisite or +remarkable in their equipment, were handsome and convenient. They formed +a good background for the people assembled under their many lights +without withdrawing the attention of any one from the looks, the +dresses, the bright eyes, and jewels collected within, which, perhaps, +after all, is an advantage in its way. And everybody who was in town was +there, from the Duchess, upon whom the Contessa had designs of so +momentous a character, down to those wandering young men-about-town who +form the rank and file of the great world and fill up all the corners. +There was, it is true, not much room to dance, but a bewildering amount +of people, great names, fine toilettes, and beautiful persons. + +The Contessa timed her arrival at the most effective moment, when the +rooms were almost full, but not yet crowded, and most of the more +important guests had already arrived. It was just after the first +greetings of people seeing each other for the first time were over, and +an event of some kind was wanted. At such a moment princes and +princesses are timed to arrive and bring the glory of the assembly to a +climax. Lucy had no princess to honour her. But when out of the crowd +round the doorway there were seen to emerge two beautiful and stately +women unknown, the sensation was almost as great. One of them, who had +the air of a Queen-Mother, was in dark dress studiously arranged to be a +little older, a little more massive and magnificent than a woman of the +Contessa's age required to wear (and which, accordingly, threw up all +the more, though this, to do her justice, was a coquetry more or less +unintentional, her unfaded beauty); and the other, an impersonation of +youth, contemplated the world by her side with that open-eyed and +sovereign gaze, proud and modest, but without any of the shyness or +timidity of a _debutante_ which becomes a young princess in her own +right. There was a general thrill of wonder and admiration wherever they +were seen. Who were they, everybody asked? Though the name of the +Forno-Populo was too familiarly known to a section of society, that is +not to say that the ladies of Lucy's party, or even all the men had +heard it bandied from mouth to mouth, or were aware that it had ever +been received with less than respect: and the universal interest was +spoiled only here and there in a corner by the laugh of the male +gossips, who made little signs to each other, in token of knowing more +than their neighbours. It was said among the more innocent that this was +an Italian lady of distinction with her daughter or niece, and her +appearance, if a little more marked and effective than an English lady's +might have been, was thus fully explained and accounted for by the +difference in manners and that inalienable dramatic gift, which it is +common to believe in England, foreigners possess. No doubt their +entrance was very dramatic. The way in which they contrasted and +harmonised with each other was too studied for English traditions, +which, in all circumstances, cling to something of the impromptu, an air +of accidentalism. They were a spectacle in themselves as they advanced +through the open central space, from which the ordinary guests +instinctively withdrew to leave room for them. "Is it the Princess?" +people asked, and craned their necks to see. It must at least be a +German Serenity--the Margravine of Pimpernikel, the Hereditary Princess +of Weissnichtwo--but more beautiful and graceful than English prejudice +expects German ladies to be. Ah, Italian! that explained +everything--their height, their grace, their dark beauty, their +effective pose. The Latin races alone know how to arrange a spectacle in +that easy way, how to produce themselves so that nobody could be +unimpressed. There was a dramatic pause before them, a hum of excitement +after they had passed. Who were they? Evidently the most distinguished +persons present--the guests of the evening. Sir Tom, uneasy enough, and +looking grave and preoccupied, which was so far from being his usual +aspect, led them into the great drawing-room, where the Duchess, who had +daughters who danced, had taken her place. He did not look as if he +liked it, but the Contessa, for her part, looked round her with a +radiant smile, and bowed very much as the Queen does in a state +ceremonial to the people she knew. She performed a magnificent curtsey, +half irony, half defiance, before the Dowager Lady Randolph, who looked +on at this progress speechless. How Lucy could permit it; how Tom could +have the assurance to do it; occupied the Dowager's thoughts. She had +scarcely self-command to make a stiff sweep of recognition as the +procession passed. + +The Duchess was at the upper end of the room, with all her daughters +about her. Besides the younger ones who danced, there were two +countesses supporting their mother. She was the greatest lady present, +and she felt the dignity. But when she perceived the little opening that +took place among the groups about, and, looking up, perceived the +Contessa sweeping along in that regal separation, you might have blown +her Grace away with a breath. Not only was the Duchess the most +important person in the room, but her reception of the newcomer would be +final, a sort of social life or death for the Contessa. But the +supplicant approached with the air of a queen, while the arbiter of fate +grew pale and trembled at the sight. If there was a tremor in her +Grace's breast there was no less a tremor under the Contessa's velvet. +But Madame di Forno-Populo had this great advantage, that she knew +precisely what to do, and the Duchess did not know: she was fully +prepared, and the Duchess taken by surprise: and still more that her +Grace was a shy woman, whose intellect, such as it was, moved slowly, +while the Contessa was very clever, and as prompt as lightning. She +perceived at a glance that the less time the great lady had to think the +better, and hastened forward for a step or two, hurrying her stately +pace, "Ah, Duchess!" she said, "how glad I am to meet so old an +acquaintance. And I want, above all things, to have your patronage for +my little one. Bice--the Duchess, an old friend of my prosperous days, +permits me to present you to her." She drew her young companion forward +as she spoke, while the Duchess faltered and stammered a "How d'ye do?" +and looked in vain for succour to her daughters, who were looking on. +Then Bice showed her blood. It had not been set down in the Contessa's +programme what she was to do, so that the action took her patroness by +surprise, as well as the great lady whom it was so important to +captivate. While the Duchess stood stiff and awkward, making a +conventional curtsey against her will, and with a conventional smile on +her mouth, Bice, with the air of a young princess, innocently, yet +consciously superior to all her surroundings, suddenly stepped forward, +and taking the Duchess's hand, bent her stately young head to kiss it. +There was in the sudden movement that air of accident, of impulse, which +we all love. It overcame all the tremors of the great lady. She said, +"My dear!" in the excitement of the moment, and bent forward to kiss the +cheek of this beautiful young creature, who was so deferential, so +reverent in her young pride. And the Duchess's daughters did not +disapprove! Still more wonderful than the effect on the Duchess was the +effect upon these ladies, of whose criticisms their mother stood in +dread. They drew close about the lovely stranger, and it immediately +became apparent to the less important guests that the Italian ladies, +the heroines of the evening, had amalgamated with the ducal party--as it +was natural they should. + +Never had there been a more complete triumph. The Contessa stepped in +and made hay while the sun shone. She waved off with a scarcely +perceptible movement of her hand several of her intimates who would have +gathered round her, and vouchsafed only a careless word to Montjoie, who +had hastened to present himself. The work to which she devoted herself +was the amusement of the Duchess, who was not, to tell the truth, very +easily amused. But Madame di Forno-Populo had infinite resources, and +she succeeded. She selected the Dowager Lady Randolph for her butt, and +made fun of her so completely that her Grace almost exceeded the bounds +of decorum in her laughter. + +"You must not, really; you must not--she is a great friend of mine," the +Duchess said. But perhaps there was not much love between the two +ladies. And thus by degrees the conversation was brought round to the +Populina palace and the gay scenes so long ago. + +"You must have heard of our ruin," the Contessa said, looking full into +the Duchess's face; "everybody has heard of that. I have been too poor +to live in my own house. We have wandered everywhere, Bice and I. When +one is proud it is more easy to be poor away from home. But we are in +very high spirits to-day, the child and I," she added. "All can be put +right again. My little niece has come into a fortune. She has made an +inheritance. We received the news to-night only. That is how I have +recovered my spirits--and to see you, Duchess, and renew the beautiful +old times." + +"Oh, indeed!" the Duchess said, which was not much; but then she was a +woman of few words. + +"Yes, we came to London very poor," said the Contessa. "What could I do? +It was the moment to produce the little one. We have no Court. Could I +seek for her the favour of the Piedmontese? Oh no! that was impossible. +I said to myself she shall come to that generous England, and my old +friends there will not refuse to take my Bice by the hand." + +"Oh no; I am sure not," said the Duchess. + +As for Bice she had long ere now set off with Montjoie, who had hung +round her from the moment of her entrance into the room, and whose +admiration had grown to such a height by the cumulative force of +everybody else's admiration swelling into it, that he could scarcely +keep within those bounds of compliment which are permitted to an adorer +who has not yet acquired the right to be hyperbolical. + +"Oh yes, it's pretty enough: but you don't see half how pretty it is, +for you can't see yourself, don't you know?" said this not altogether +maladroit young practitioner. Bice gave him a smile like one of the +Contessa's smiles, which said everything that was needful without giving +her any trouble. But now that the effect of her entrance was attained, +and all that dramatic business done with, the girl's soul was set upon +enjoyment. She loved dancing as she loved every other form of rapid +movement. The only drawback was that there was so little room. "Why do +they make the rooms so small?" she said pathetically; a speech which was +repeated from mouth to mouth like a witticism, as something so +characteristic of the young Italian, w hose marble halls would never be +overcrowded: though, as a matter of fact, Bice knew very little of +marble halls. + +"Were you ever in the gallery at the Hall?" she asked. "To go from one +end to the other, that was worth the while. It was as if one flew." + +"I never knew they danced down there," said Montjoie. "I thought it very +dull, don't you know, till you appeared. If I had known you had dances, +and fun going on, and other fellows cutting one out----" + +"There was but one other fellow," said Bice gravely. "I have seen in +this country no one like him. Ah, why is he not here? He is more fun +than any one, but better than fun. He is----" + +Montjoie's countenance was like a thunder-cloud big with fire and flame. + +"Trevor, I suppose you mean. I never thought that duffer could dance. He +was a great sap at school, and a hideous little prig, giving himself +such airs! But if you think all that of him----" + +"It was not Mr. Trevor," said Bice. Then catching sight of Lady Randolph +at a little distance, she made a dart towards her on her partner's arm. + +"I am telling Lord Montjoie of my partner at the Hall," she said. "Ah, +Milady, let him come and look! How he would clap his hands to see the +lights and the flowers. But we could not have our gymnastique with all +the people here." + +Lucy was very pale; standing alone, abstracted amid the gay crowd, as if +she did not very well know where she was. + +"Baby? Oh, he is quite well, he is fast asleep," she said, looking up +with dim eyes. And then there broke forth a little faint smile on her +face. "You were always good to him," she said. + +"So it was the baby," said Montjoie, delighted. "What a one you are to +frighten a fellow. If it had been Trevor I think I'd have killed him. +How jolly of you to do gymnastics with that little beggar; he's +dreadfully delicate, ain't he, not likely to live? But you're awfully +cruel to me. You think no more of giving a wring to my heart than if it +was a bit of rag. I think you'd like to see the blood come." + +"Let us dance," said Bice with great composure. She was bent upon +enjoyment. She had not calculated upon any conversation. Indeed she +objected to conversation on this point even when it did not interfere +with the waltz. All could be settled much more easily by the Contessa, +and if marriage was to be the end, that was a matter of business not +adapted for a ballroom. She would not allow herself to be led away to +the conservatory or any other retired nook such as Montjoie felt he must +find for this affecting purpose. Bice did not want to be proposed to. +She wanted to dance. She abandoned him for other partners without the +slightest evidence of regret. She even accepted, when he was just about +to seize upon her at the end of a dance, Mr. Derwentwater, preferring to +dance the Lancers with him to the bliss of sitting out with Lord +Montjoie. That forsaken one gazed at her with a consternation beyond +words. To leave him and the proposal that was on his very lips for a +square dance with a tutor! The young Marquis gazed after her as she +disappeared with a certain awe. It could not be that she preferred +Derwentwater. It must be her cleverness which he could not fathom, and +some wonderful new system of Italian subtlety to draw a fellow on. + +"I like it better than standing still--I like it--enough," said Bice. +"To dance, that is always something." Mr. Derwentwater also felt, like +Lord Montjoie, that the young lady gave but little importance to her +partner. + +"You like the rhythm, the measure, the woven paces and the waving +hands," her companion said. + +Bice stared at him a little, not comprehending. "But you prefer," he +continued, "like most ladies, the modern Bacchic dance, the whirl, the +round, though what the old Puritans call promiscuous dancing of men and +women together was not, I fear, Greek----" + +"I know nothing of the Greeks," said Bice. "Vienna is the best place for +the valse, but Greek--no, we never were there." + +"I am thinking of classic terms," said MTutor with a smile, but he liked +her all the better for not knowing. "We have in vases and in sculpture +the most exquisite examples. You have never perhaps given your attention +to ancient art? I cannot quite agree with Mr. Alma Tadema on that point. +He is a great artist, but I don't think the wild leap of his dances is +sanctioned by anything we possess." + +"Do not take wild leaps," said Bice, "but keep time. That is all you +require in a quadrille. Why does every one laugh and go wrong. But it is +a shame! One should not dance if one will not take the trouble. And why +does _he_ not do anything?" she said, in the pause between two figures, +suddenly coming in sight of Jock, who stood against the wall in their +sight, following her about with eyes over which his brows were curved +heavily; "he does not dance nor ride; he only looks on." + +"He reads," said Mr. Derwentwater. "The boy will be a great scholar if +he keeps it up." + +"One cannot read in society," said Bice. "Now, you must remember, you go +_that_ way; you do not come after me." + +"I should prefer to come after you. That is the heavenly way when one +can follow such a leader. You remember what your own Dante----" + +"Oh!" murmured Bice, with a long sigh of impatience, "I have no Dante. I +have a partner who will not give himself the pains--Now," she said, with +an emphatic little pat of her foot and movement of her hands. Her soul +was in the dance, though it was only the Lancers. With a slight line of +annoyance upon her forehead she watched his performance, taking upon +herself the responsibility, pushing him by his elbow when he went wrong, +or leading him in the right way. Mr. Derwentwater had thought to carry +off his mistakes with a laugh, but this was not Bice's way of thinking. +She made him a little speech when the dance was over. + +"I think you are a great scholar too," she said; "but it will be well +that you should not come forward again with a lady to dance the Lancers, +for you cannot do it. And that will sometimes make a girl to have the +air of being also awkward, which is not just." + +Mr. Derwentwater grew very red while this speech was making to him. He +was a man of great and varied attainments, and had any one told him that +he would blush about so trivial a matter as a Lancers----! But he grew +very red and almost stammered as he said with humility, "I am afraid I +am very deficient, but with you to guide me--Signorina, there is one +divine hour which I never forget--when you sang that evening. May I +call? May I see you for half an hour to-morrow?" + +"Oh," said Bice, with a deep-drawn breath, "here is some one else coming +who does not dance very well! Talk to him about the Greek, and Lord +Montjoie will take me. To-morrow! oh yes, with pleasure," she said as +she took Montjoie's arm and darted away into the crowd. Montjoie was +all glowing and radiant with pride and joy. + +"I thought I'd hang off and on and take my chance, don't you know? I +thought you'd soon get sick of that sort. You and I go together like two +birds. I have been watching you all this time, you and old Derwentwater. +What was that he said about to-morrow? I want to talk about to-morrow +too--unless, indeed to-night----" + +"Oh, Lord Montjoie," cried Bice, "dance! It was not to talk you came +here, and you can dance better than you talk," she added, with that +candour which distinguished her. And Montjoie flew away with her rushing +and whirling. He could dance. It was almost his only accomplishment. + + + + +CHAPTER XLVI. + +THE BALL CONTINUED. + + +Other eyes than those of her lovers followed Bice through this brilliant +scene. Sir Tom had been living a strange stagnant life since that day +before he left the Hall, when Lucy, innocently talking of Bice's English +parentage, had suddenly roused him to the question--Who was Bice, and +who her parents, English or otherwise? The suggestion was very sudden +and very simple, conveying in it no intended hint or innuendo. But it +came upon Sir Tom like a sudden thunderbolt, or rather like the firing +of some train that had been laid and prepared for explosion. The tenor +of his fears and suspicions has already been indicated. Nor has it ever +been concealed from the reader of this history that there were incidents +in Sir Tom's life upon which he did not look back with satisfaction, and +which it would have grieved him much to have revealed to his wife in her +simplicity and unsuspecting trust in him. One of these was a chapter of +existence so long past as to be almost forgotten, yet unforgettable, +which gave, when he thought of it, an instant meaning to the fact that a +half-Italian girl of English parentage on one side should have been +brought mysteriously, without warning or formal introduction, to his +house by the Contessa. From that time, as has been already said, the +disturbance in his mind was great. He could get no satisfaction one way +or another. But to-night his uneasiness had taken a new and unexpected +form. Should it so happen that Bice's identity with a certain poor baby, +born in Tuscany seventeen years before, might some day be proved, what +new cares, what new charge might it not place upon his shoulders? At +such a thought Sir Tom held his very breath. + +The first result of such a possibility was, that he might find himself +to stand in a relationship to the girl for whom he had hitherto had a +careless liking and no more, which would change both his life and hers; +and already he watched her with uneasy eyes and with a desire to +interfere which bewildered him like a new light upon his own character. +He could scarcely understand how he had taken it all so lightly before +and interested himself so little in the fate of a young creature for +whom it would not be well to be brought up according to the Contessa's +canons, and follow her example in the world. He remembered, in the light +of this new possibility, the levity with which he had received his +wife's distress about Bice, and how lightly he had laughed at Lucy's +horror as to the Contessa's ideas of marriage, and of what her +_protegee_ was to do. He had said if they could catch any decent fellow +with money enough it was the best thing that could happen to the girl, +and that Bice would be no worse off than others, and that she herself, +after the training she had gone through, was very little likely to have +any delicacy on the subject. But when it had once occurred to him that +the girl of whom he spoke so lightly might be his own child, an +extraordinary change came over Sir Tom's views. He laughed no longer--he +became so uneasy lest something should be done or said to affect Bice's +good name, or throw her into evil hands, that his thoughts had circled +unquietly round the house in Mayfair, and he had spent far more of his +time there on the watch than he himself thought right. He knew very well +the explanation that would be given of those visits of his, and he did +not feel sure that some good-natured friends might not have already +suggested suspicion to Lucy, who had certainly been very strange since +their arrival in town. But he would not give up his watch, which was in +a way, he said to himself, his duty, if---- He followed the girl's +movements with disturbed attention, and would hurry into the Park to +ride by her, to shut out an unsuitable cavalier, and make little +lectures to her as to her behaviour with an embarrassed anxiety which +Bice could not understand but which amused more than it benefited the +Contessa, to whom this result of her mystification was the best fun in +the world. But it was not amusing to Sir Tom. He regarded the society of +men who gathered about the ladies with disgust. Montjoie was about the +best--he was not old enough to be much more than silly--but even +Montjoie was not a person whom he would himself choose to be closely +connected with. Then came the question: If it should turn out that she +was _that_ child, was it expedient that any one should know of it? Would +it be better for her to be known as Sir Thomas Randolph's daughter, even +illegitimate, or as the relative and dependent of the Forno-Populo? In +the one case, her interests would have no guardian at all; in the other, +what a shock it would give to his now-established respectability and the +confidence all men had in him, to make such a connection known. Turning +over everything in his thoughts, it even occurred to Sir Tom that it +would be better for him to confess an early secret marriage, and thus +save his own reputation and give to Bice a lawful standing ground. The +poor young mother was dead long ago; there could be no harm in such an +invention. Lucy could not be wounded by anything which happened so long +before he ever saw her. And Bice would be saved from all stigma; if only +it was Bice! if only he could be sure! + +But Sir Tom, whose countenance had not the habit of expressing anything +but a large and humorous content, the careless philosophy of a happy +temper and easy mind, was changed beyond description by the surging up +of such thoughts. He became jealous and suspicious, watching Bice with a +constant impulse to interfere, and even--while disregarding all the +safeguards of his own domestic happiness for this reason--in his heart +condemned the girl because she was not like Lucy, and followed her +movements with a criticism which was as severe as that of the harshest +moralist. + +Nobody in that lighthearted house could understand what had come over +the good Sir Tom, not even the Contessa, who after a manner knew the +reason, yet never imagined that the idea, which gave her a sort of +malicious pleasure, would have led to such a result. Sir Tom had always +been the most genial of hosts, but in his present state of mind even in +this respect he was not himself. He kept his eye on Bice with a +sternness of regard quite out of keeping with his character. If she +should flirt unduly, if she began to show any of those arts which made +the Contessa so fascinating, he felt, with a mingling of self-ridicule +which tickled him in spite of his seriousness, that nothing could keep +him from interposing. He had been charmed in spite of himself, even +while he saw through and laughed at the Contessa's cunning ways; but to +see them in a girl who might, for all he knew, have his own blood in her +veins was a very different matter. He felt it was in him to interpose +roughly, imperiously--and if he did so, would Bice care? She would turn +upon him with smiling defiance, or perhaps ask what right had he to +meddle in her affairs. Thus Sir Tom was so preoccupied that the change +in Lucy, the effort she made to go through her necessary duties, the +blotting out of all her simple kindness and brightness, affected him +only dully as an element of the general confusion, and nothing more. + +But the Contessa, for her part, was radiant. She was victorious all +along the line. She had received Lucy's note informing her of the +provision she meant to make for Bice only that afternoon, and her heart +was dancing with the sense of wealth, of money to spend and endless +capability of pleasure. Whatever happened this was secure, and she had +already in the first hour planned new outlays which would make Lucy's +beneficence very little of a permanent advantage. But she said nothing +of it to Bice, who might (who could tell, girls being at all times +capricious) take into her little head that it was no longer necessary to +encourage Montjoie, on whom at present she looked complacently enough as +the probable giver of all that was best in life. This was almost enough +for one day; but the Contessa fully believed in the proverb that there +is nothing that succeeds like success, and had faith in her own +fortunate star for the other events of the evening. And she had been +splendidly successful. She had altogether vanquished the timid spirit of +the Duchess, that model of propriety. Her entry upon the London world +had been triumphant, and she had all but achieved the honours of the +drawing-room. Unless the Lord Chamberlain should interfere, and why +should he interfere? her appearance in the larger world of society would +be as triumphant as in Park Lane. Her beautiful eyes were swimming in +light, the glow of satisfaction and triumph. It fatigued her a little +indeed to play the part of a virtuous chaperon, and stand or sit in one +place all the evening, awaiting her _debutante_ between the dances, +talking with the other virtuous ladies in the same exercise of patience, +and smilingly keeping aloof from all participation at first hand in the +scene which would have helped to amuse her indeed, but interfered with +the fulfilment of her _role_. But she had internal happiness enough to +make up to her for her self-denial. She would order that set of pearls +for Bice and the emerald pendant for herself which had tempted her so +much, to-morrow. And the Duchess was to present her, and probably this +evening Montjoie would propose. Was it possible to expect in this world +a more perfect combination of successes? + +Mr. Derwentwater went off somewhat discomfited to make a tour of the +rooms after the remorseless address of Bice. He tried to smile at the +mock severity of her judgment. He, no more than Montjoie, would believe +that she meant only what she said. This accomplished man of letters and +parts agreed, if in nothing else, in this, with the young fool of +quality, that such extreme candour and plain speaking was some subtle +Italian way of drawing an admirer on. He put it into finer words than +Montjoie could command, and said to himself that it was that mysterious +adorable feminine instinct which attracted by seeming to repel. And even +on a more simple explanation it was comprehensible enough. A girl who +attached so much importance to the accomplishments of society would +naturally be annoyed by the failure in these of one to whom she looked +up. A regret even moved his mind that he had not given more attention to +them in earlier days. It was perhaps foolish to neglect our +acquirements, which after all would not take very much trouble, and need +only be brought forward, as Dogberry says, when there was no need for +such vanities. He determined with a little blush at himself to note +closely how other men did, and so be able another time to acquit himself +to her satisfaction. And even her severity was sweet; it implied that he +was not to her what other men were, that even in the more trifling +accessories of knowledge she would have him to excel. If he had been +quite indifferent to her, why should she have taken this trouble? And +then that "To-morrow; with pleasure." What did it mean? That though she +would not give him her attention to-night, being devoted to her dancing +(which is what girls are brought up to in this strangely imperfect +system), she would do so on the earliest possible occasion. He went +about the room like a man in a dream, following everywhere with his eyes +that vision of beauty, and looking forward to the next step in his +life-drama with an intoxication of hope which he did not attempt to +subdue. He was indeed pleased to experience a _grande passion_. It was a +thing which completed the mental equipment of a man. Love--not humdrum +household affection, such as is all that is looked for when the +exigencies of life make a wife expedient, and with full calculation of +all he requires the man sets out to look for her and marry her. This was +very different, an all-mastering passion, disdainful of every obstacle. +To-morrow! He felt an internal conviction that, though Montjoie might +dance and answer for the amusement of an evening, that bright and +peerless creature would not hesitate as to who should be her guide for +life. + +It was while he was thus roaming about in a state of great excitement +and a subdued ecstasy of anticipation, that he encountered Jock, who had +not been enjoying himself at all. At this great entertainment Jock had +been considered a boy, and no more. Even as a boy, had he danced there +might have been some notice taken of him, but he was incapable in this +way, and in no other could he secure any attention. At a party of a +graver kind there were often people who were well enough pleased to talk +to Jock, and from men who owed allegiance to his school a boy who had +distinguished himself and done credit to the old place was always sure +of notice. But then, though high up in Sixth Form, and capable of any +eminence in Greek verse, he was nobody; while a fellow like Montjoie, +who had never got beyond the rank of lower boy, was in the front of +affairs, the admired of all admirers, Bice's chosen partner and +companion. The mind develops with a bound when it has gone through such +an experience. Jock stood with his back against the wall, and watched +everything from under his eyebrows. Sometimes there was a glimmer as of +moisture in those eyes, half veiled under eyelids heavily curved and +puckered with wrath and pain, for he was very young, not much more than +a child, notwithstanding his manhood. But what with a keenness of +natural sight, and what with the bitter enlightening medium of that +moisture, Jock saw the reality of the scene more clearly than Mr. +Derwentwater, roaming about in his dream of anticipation, self-deceived, +was capable of doing. He caught sight of Jock in his progress, and, +though it was this sentiment which had separated them, its natural +effect was also to throw them together. MTutor paused and took up a +position by his pupil's side. "What a foolish scene considered +philosophically," he said; "and yet how many human interests in +solution, and floating adumbrations of human fate! I have been dancing," +Mr. Derwentwater continued, with some solemnity and a full sense of the +superior position involved, "with, I verily believe, the most beautiful +creature in the world." + +Jock looked up, fixing him with a critical, slightly cynical regard. He +had been well aware of Mr. Derwentwater's very ineffective performance, +and divined too clearly the sentiments of Bice not to feel all a +spectator's derision for this uncalled-for self-complacency; but he made +no remark. + +"There is nothing trivial in the exercise in such a combination. I +incline to think that beauty is almost the greatest of all the +spectacles that Nature sets before us. The effect she has upon us is +greater than that produced by any other influence. You are perhaps too +young to have your mind awakened on such a subject----" + +To hear this foolish wisdom pouring forth, while the listener felt at +every breath how his own bosom thrilled with an emotion too deep to be +put into words, with a passion, hopeless, ridiculous, to which no one +would accord any sympathy or comment but a laugh! Heaven and earth! and +all because a fellow was some dozen years older, thinking himself a man, +and you only a boy! + +"----but you have a fine intelligence, and it can never be amiss for you +to approach a great subject on its most elevated side. She is not much +older than you are, Jock." + +"She is not so old as I am. She is three months younger than I am," +cried Jock, in his gruffest voice. + +"And yet she is a revelation," said Mr. Derwentwater. "I feel that I am +on the eve of a great crisis in my being. You have always been my +favourite, my friend, though you are so much younger; and in this I feel +we are more than ever sympathetic. Jock, to-morrow--to-morrow I am to +see her, to tell her---- Come out on the balcony, there is no one there, +and the moonlight and the pure air of night are more fit for such heart +opening than this crowded scene." + +"What are you going to tell her?" said Jock, with his eyebrows meeting +over his eyes and his back against the wall. "If you think she'll listen +to what you tell her! She likes Montjoie. It is not that he's rich and +that, but she likes him, don't you know, better than any of us. Oh, talk +about mysteries," cried Jock, turning his head away, conscious of that +moisture which half-blinded him, but which he could not get rid of, "how +can you account for that? She likes him, that fellow, better than either +you or me!" + +Better than Jock; far better than this man, his impersonation of noble +manhood, whom the most levelling of all emotions, the more than Red +Republican Love, had suddenly brought down to, nay, below, Jock's +level--for not only was he a fool like Jock, but a hopeful fool, while +Jock had penetrated the fulness of despair, and dismissed all illusion +from his youthful bosom. The boy turned his head away, and the voice +which he had made so gruff quavered at the end. He felt in himself at +that moment all the depths of profound and visionary passion, something +more than any man ever was conscious of who had an object and a hope. +The boy had neither; he neither hoped to marry her nor to get a hearing, +nor even to be taken seriously. Not even the remorse of a serious +passion rejected, the pain of self-reproach, the afterthought of pity +and tenderness would be his. He would get a laugh, nothing more. That +schoolboy, that brother of Lady Randolph's, who does not leave school +for a year! He knew what everybody would say. And yet he loved her +better than any one of them! MTutor startled, touched, went after him as +Jock turned away, and linking his arm in his, said something of the +kind which one would naturally say to a boy. "My dear fellow, you don't +mean to tell me----? Come, Jock! This is but your imagination that +beguiles you. The heart has not learned to speak so soon," MTutor said, +leaning upon Jock's shoulder. The boy turned upon him with a fiery glow +in his eyes. + +"What were you saying about dancing?" he said. "They seem to be making +up that Lancers business again." + + + + +CHAPTER XLVII. + +NEXT MORNING. + + +"You have news to tell me, Bice mia?" + +There was a faint daylight in the streets, a blueness of dawn as the +ladies drove home. + +"Have I? I have amused myself very much. I am not fatigued, no. I could +continue as long--as long as you please," Bice answered, who was sitting +up in her corner with more bloom than at the beginning of the evening, +her eyes shining, a creature incapable of fatigue. The Contessa lay back +in hers, with a languor which was rather adapted to her _role_ as a +chaperon than rendered necessary by the fatigue she felt. If she had not +been amused, she was triumphant, and this supplied a still more +intoxicating exhilaration than that of mere pleasure. + +"Darling!" she said, in her most expressive tone. She added a few +moments after, "But Lord Montjoie! He has spoken? I read it in his +face----" + +"Spoken? He said a great deal--some things that made me laugh, some +things that were not amusing. After all he is perhaps a little stupid, +but to dance there is no one like him!" + +"And you go together--to perfection----" + +"Ah!" said Bice, with a long breath of pleasure, "when the people began +to go away, when there was room! Certainly we deserted our other +partners, both he and I. Does that matter in London? He says No." + +"Not, my angel, if you are to marry." + +"That was what he said," said Bice, with superb calm. "Now, I remember +that was what he said; but I answered that I knew nothing of +affairs--that it was to dance I wanted, not to talk; and that it was +you, Madama, who disposed of me. It seemed to amuse him," the girl said +reflectively. "Is it for that reason you kiss me? But it was he that +spoke, as you call it, not I." + +"You are like a little savage," cried the Contessa. "Don't you care then +to make the greatest marriage, to win the prize, to settle everything +with no trouble, before you are presented or anything has been done at +all?" + +"Is it settled then?" said Bice. She shrugged her shoulders a little +within her white cloak. "Is that all?--no more excitement, nothing to +look forward to, no tr-rouble? But it would have been more amusing if +there had been a great deal of tr-rouble," the girl said. + +This was in the blue dawn, when the better portion of the world which +does not go to balls was fast asleep, the first pioneers of day only +beginning to stir about the silent streets, through which now and then +the carriage of late revellers like themselves darted abrupt with a +clang that had in it something of almost guilt. Twelve hours after, the +Contessa in her boudoir--with not much more than light enough to see the +flushed and happy countenance of young Montjoie, who had been on thorns +all the night and morning with a horrible doubt in his mind lest, after +all, Bice's careless reply might mean nothing more than that fine system +of drawing a fellow on--settled everything in the most delightful way. + +"Nor is she without a sou, as perhaps you think. She has something that +will not bear comparison with your wealth, yet something--which has been +settled upon her by a relation. The Forno-Populi are not rich--but +neither are they without friends." + +Montjoie listened to this with a little surprise and impatience. He +scarcely believed it, for one thing; and when he was assured that all +was right as to Bice herself, he cared but little for the Forno-Populi. +"I don't know anything about the sous. I have plenty for both," he said, +"that had a great deal better go to you, don't you know. She is all I +want. Bice! oh that's too foreign. I shall call her Bee, for she must be +English, don't you know, Countess, none of your Bohem--Oh, I don't mean +that; none of your foreign ways. They draw a fellow on, but when it's +all settled and we're married and that sort of thing, she'll have to be +out and out English, don't you know?" + +"But that is reasonable," said the Contessa, who could when it was +necessary reply very distinctly. "When one has a great English name and +a position to keep up, one must be English. You shall call her what you +please." + +"There's one thing more," Montjoie said with a little redness and +hesitation, but a certain dogged air, with which the Contessa had not as +yet made acquaintance. "It's best to understand each other, don't you +know; it's sort of hard-hearted to take her right away. But, Countess, +you're a woman of the world, and you know a fellow must start fair. You +keep all those sous you were talking of, and just let us knock along our +own way. I don't want the money, and I dare say you'll find a use for +it. And let's start fair; it'll be better for all parties, don't you +know," the young man said. He reddened, but he met the Contessa's eye +unflinchingly, though the effort to respond to this distinct statement +in the spirit in which it was made cost her a struggle. She stared at +him for a moment across the dainty little table laden with knick-knacks. +It was strange in the moment of victory to receive such a sudden +decisive defeat. There was just a possibility for a moment that this +brave spirit should own itself mere woman, and break down and cry. For +one second there was a quiver on her lip; then she smiled, which for +every purpose was the better way. + +"You would like," she said, "to see Bice. She is in the little +drawing-room. The lawyers will settle the rest; but I understand your +suggestion, Lord Montjoie." She rose with all her natural stately grace, +which made the ordinary young fellow feel very small in spite of +himself. The smile she gave him had something in it that made his knees +knock together. + +"I hope," he said, faltering, "you don't mind, Countess. My people, +though I've not got any people to speak of, might make themselves +disagreeable about--don't you know? you--you're a woman of the world." + +The Contessa smiled upon him once more with dazzling sweetness. "She is +in the little drawing-room," she said. + +And so it was concluded, the excitement, the tr-rouble, as Bice said; it +would have been far more amusing if there had been a great deal more +tr-rouble. The Contessa dropped down in the corner of the sofa from +which she had risen. She closed her eyes for the moment, and swallowed +the affront that had been put upon her, and what was worse than the +affront, the blow at her heart which this trifling little lord had +delivered without flinching. This was to be the end of her schemes, that +she was to be separated summarily and remorselessly from the child she +had brought up. The Contessa knew, being of the same order of being, +that, already somewhat disappointed to find the ardour of the chase over +and all the excitement of bringing down the quarry, Bice, who cared +little more about Montjoie than about any other likely person, would be +as ready as not to throw him off if she were to communicate rashly the +conditions on which he insisted. But, though she was of the same order +of being, the Contessa was older and wiser. She had gone through a great +many experiences. She knew that rich young English peers, marquises, +uncontrolled by any parent or guardians, were fruit that did not grow on +every bush, and that if this tide of fortune was not taken at its flood +there was no telling when another might come. Now, though Bice was so +dear, the Contessa had still a great many resources of her own, and was +neither old nor tired of life. She would make herself a new career even +without Bice, in which there might still be much interest--especially +with the aid of a settled income. The careless speech about the sous was +not without an eloquence of its own. Sous make everything that is +disagreeable less disagreeable, and everything that is pleasant more +pleasant. And she had got her triumph. She had secured for her Bice a +splendid lot. She had accomplished what she had vowed to do, which many +scoffers had thought she would never do. She was about to be presented +at the English Court, and all her soils and spots from the world cleared +from her, and herself rehabilitated wherever she might go. Was it +reasonable then to break her heart over Montjoie and his miserable +conditions? He could not separate Bice's love from her, though he might +separate their lives--and that about the sous was generous. She was not +one who would have sold her affections or given up anybody whom she +loved for money. But still there were many things to be said, and for +Bice's advantage what would she not do? The Contessa ended by a +resolution which many a better woman would not have had the courage to +make. She buried Montjoie's condition in her own heart--never to hint +its existence--to ignore it as if it had not been. Many a more +satisfactory person would have flinched at this. Most of us would at +least have allowed the object of our sacrifice to be aware what we were +doing for them. The Contessa did not even, so far as this, yield to the +temptation of fate. + +In the meantime Bice had gone through her own little episode. Mr. +Derwentwater came about noon, before the Contessa was up; but he did not +know the Contessa's habits, and he was admitted, which neither Montjoie +nor any of the Contessa's friends would have been. He was overjoyed to +find the lady of his affections alone. This made everything, he thought, +simple and easy for him, and filled him with a delightful confidence +that she was prepared for the object of his visit and had contrived to +keep the Contessa out of the way. His heart was beating high, his mind +full of excitement. He took the chair she pointed him to, and then got +up again, poising his hat between his hands. + +"Signorina," he said, "they say that a woman always knows the impression +she has made." + +"Why do you call me Signorina?" said Bice. "Yes, it is quite right. But +then it is so long that I have not heard it, and it is only you that +call me so." + +"Perhaps," said Mr. Derwentwater, with a little natural complacency, +"others are not so well acquainted with your beautiful country and +language. What should I call you? Ah, I know what I should like to call +you. _Beatrice, loda di deo vera._ You are like the supreme and sovran +lady whom every one must think of who hears your name." + +Bice looked at him with a half-comic attention. "You are a very learned +man," she said, "one can see that. You always say something that is +pretty, that one does not understand." + +This piqued the suitor a little and brought the colour to his cheek. +"Teach me," he said, "to make you understand me. If I could show you my +heart, you would see that from the first moment I saw you the name of +Bice has been written----" + +"Oh, I know it already," cried Bice, "that you have a great devotion for +poetry. Unhappily I have no education. I know it so very little. But I +have found out what you mean about Bice. It is more soft than you say +it. There is no sound of _tch_ in it at all. Beeshe, like that. Your +Italian is very good," she added, "but it is Tuscan, and the _bocca +romana_ is the best." + +Mr. Derwentwater was more put out than it became a philosopher to be. "I +came," he cried, with a kind of asperity, "for a very different purpose, +not to be corrected in my Italian. I came----" but here his feelings +were too strong for him, "to lay my life and my heart at your feet. Do +you understand me now? To tell you that I love you--no, that is not +enough, it is not love, it is adoration," he said. "I have never known +what it meant before. However fair women might be, I have passed them +by; my heart has never spoken. But now! Since the first moment I saw +you, Bice----" + +The girl rose up; she became a little alarmed. Emotion was strange to +her, and she shrank from it. "I have given," she said, "to nobody +permission to call me by my name." + +"But you will give it to me! to your true lover," he cried. "No one can +admire and adore you as much as I do. It was from the first moment. +Bice, oh, listen! I have nothing to offer you but love, the devotion of +a life. What could a king give more? A true man cannot think of anything +else when he is speaking to the woman he loves. Nothing else is worthy +to offer you. Bice, I love you! I love you! Have you nothing, nothing in +return to say to me?" + +All his self-importance and intellectual superiority had abandoned him. +He was so much agitated that he saw her but dimly through the mists of +excitement and passion. He stretched out his hands appealing to her. He +might have been on his knees for anything he knew. It seemed incredible +to him that his strong passion should have no return. + +"Have you nothing, nothing to say to me?" he cried. + +Bice had been frightened, but she had regained her composure. She looked +on at this strange exhibition of feeling with the wondering calm of +extreme youth. She was touched a little, but more surprised than +anything else. She said, with a slight tremor, "I think it must be all a +mistake. One is never so serious--oh, never so serious! It is not +something of--gravity like that. Did not you know? I am intended to make +a marriage--to marry well, very well--what you call a great marriage. It +is for that I am brought here. The Contessa would never listen--Oh, it +is a mistake altogether--a mistake! You do not know what is my career. +It has all been thought of since I was born. Pray, pray, go away, and do +not say any more." + +"Bice," he cried, more earnestly than ever, "I know. I heard that you +were to be sacrificed. Who is the lady who is going to sacrifice you to +Mammon? she is not your mother; you owe her no obedience. It is your +happiness, not hers, that is at stake. And I will preserve you from her. +I will guard you like my own soul; the winds of heaven shall not visit +your cheek roughly. I will cherish you; I will adore you. Come, only +come to me." + +His voice was husky with emotion; his last words were scarcely audible, +said within his breath in a high strain of passion which had got beyond +his control. The contrast between this tremendous force of feeling and +her absolute youthful calm was beyond description. It was more wonderful +than anything ever represented on the tragic stage. Only in the depth +and mystery of human experience could such a wonderful juxtaposition be. + +"Mr. Derwentwater," she said, trembling a little, "I cannot understand +you. Go away, oh, go away!" + +"Bice!" + +"Go away, oh, go away! I am not able to bear it; no one is ever so +serious. I am not great enough, nor old enough. Don't you know," cried +Bice, with a little stamp of her foot, "I like the other way best? Oh, +go away, go away!" + +He stood quiet, silently gazing at her till he had regained his power of +speech, which was not for a moment or two. Then he said hoarsely, "You +like--the other way best?" + +She clasped her hands together with a mingling of impatience and wonder +and rising anger. "I am made like that," she cried. "I don't know how to +be so serious. Oh, go away from me. You tr-rouble me. I like the other +best." + +He never knew how he got out of the strange, unnatural atmosphere of the +house in which he seemed to leave his heart behind him. The perfumes, +the curtains, the half lights, the blending draperies, were round him +one moment; the next he found himself in the greenness of the Park, with +the breeze blowing in his face, and his dream ended and done with. + +He had a kind of vision of having touched the girl's reluctant hand, and +even of having seen a frightened look in her eyes as if he had awakened +some echo or touched some string whose sound was new to her. But if that +were so, it was not he, but only some discovery of unknown feeling that +moved her. When he came to himself, he felt that all the innocent +morning people in the Park, the children with their maids, the sick +ladies and old men sunning themselves on the benches, the people going +about their honest business, cast wondering looks at his pale face and +the agitation of his aspect. He took a long walk, he did not know how +long, with that strange sense that something capital had happened to +him, something never to be got over or altered, which follows such an +incident in life. He was even conscious by and by, habit coming to his +aid, of a curious question in his mind if this was how people usually +felt after such a wonderful incident--a thing that had happened quite +without demonstration, which nobody could ever know of, yet which made +as much change in him as if he had been sentenced to death. Sentenced to +death! that was what it felt like more or less. It had happened, and +could never be undone, and he walked away and away, but never got beyond +it, with the chain always round his neck. When he got into the streets +where nobody took any notice of him, it struck him with surprise, almost +offence. Was it possible that they did not see that something had +happened--a mystery, something that would never be shaken off but with +life? + +He met Jock as he walked, and without stopping gave him a sort of +ghastly smile, and said, "You were right; she likes that best," and went +on again, with a sense that he might go on for ever like the wandering +Jew, and never get beyond the wonder and the pain. + +And there is no doubt that Bice was glad to hear Montjoie's laugh, and +the nonsense he talked, and to throw off that sudden impression which +had frightened her. What was it? Something which was in life, but which +she had not met with before. "We are to have it all our own way, don't +you know?" Montjoie said. "I have no people, to call people, and she is +not going to interfere. We shall have it all our own way, and have a +good time, as the Yankees say. And I am not going to call you Bice, +which is a silly sort of name, and spells quite different from its +pronunciation. What are you holding back for? You have no call to be shy +with me now. Bee, you belong to me now, don't you know?" the young +fellow said, with demonstrations from which Bice shrunk a little. She +liked, yes, his way; but, but yet--she was perhaps a little savage, as +the Contessa said. + + + + +CHAPTER XLVIII. + +THE LAST BLOW. + + +Lucy stood out stoutly to the last gasp. She did not betray herself, +except by the paleness, the seriousness which she could not banish from +her countenance. Her guests thought that Lady Randolph must be ill, that +she was disguising a bad headache, or even something more serious, under +the smile with which she received them. "I am sure you ought to be in +bed," the older ladies said, and when they took their leave of her, +after their congratulations as to the success of the evening, they all +repeated this in various tones. "I am sure you are quite worn out; I +shall send in the morning to ask how you are," the Duchess said. Lucy +listened to everything with a smile which was somewhat set and painful. +She was so worn out with emotion and pain that at last neither words nor +looks made much impression upon her. She saw the Contessa and Bice +stream by to their carriage with a circle of attendants, still in all +the dazzle and flash of their triumph; and after that the less important +crowd, the insignificant people who lingered to the last, the girls who +would not give up a last waltz, and the men who returned for a final +supper, swam in her dazed eyes. She stood at the door mechanically +shaking hands and saying "Good-night." The Dowager, moved by curiosity, +anxiety, perhaps by pity, kept by her till a late hour, though Lucy was +scarcely aware of it. When she went away at last, she repeated with +earnestness and a certain compunction the advice of the other ladies. +"You don't look fit to stand," she said. "If you will go to bed I will +wait till all these tiresome people are gone. You have been doing too +much, far too much." "It does not matter," Lucy said, in her +semi-consciousness hearing her own voice like something in a dream. "Oh, +my dear, I am quite unhappy about you!" Lady Randolph cried. "If you are +thinking of what I told you, Lucy, perhaps it may not be true." There +was a bevy of people going away at that moment, and she had to shake +hands with them. She waited till they were gone and then turned, with a +laugh that frightened the old lady, towards her. + +"You should have thought of that before," she said. Perhaps it might not +be true! Can heaven be veiled and the pillars of the earth pulled down +by a perhaps? The laugh sounded even to herself unnatural, and the elder +Lady Randolph was frightened by it, and stole away almost without +another word. When everybody was gone Sir Tom stood by her in the +deserted rooms, with all the lights blazing and the blue day coming in +through the curtains, as grave and as pale as she was. They did not look +like the exhausted yet happy entertainers of the (as yet) most +successful party of the season. Lucy could scarcely stand and could not +speak at all, and he seemed little more fit for those mutual +congratulations, even the "Thank heaven it is well over," with which the +master and the mistress of the house usually salute each other in such +circumstances. They stood at different ends of the room, and made no +remark. At last, "I suppose you are going to bed," Sir Tom said. He came +up to her in a preoccupied way. "I shall go and smoke a cigar first, and +it does not seem much good lighting a candle for you." They both looked +somewhat drearily at the daylight, now no longer blue, but rosy. Then +he laid his hand upon her shoulder. "You are dreadfully tired, Lucy, and +I think there has been something the matter with you these few days. I'd +ask you what it was, but I'm dead beat, and you are dreadfully tired +too." He stopped and kissed her forehead, and took her hand in his in a +sort of languid way. "Good-night; go to bed my poor little woman," he +said. + +It is terrible to be wroth with those we love. Anger against them is +deadly to ourselves. It "works like madness in the brain;" it involves +heaven and earth in a gloom that nothing can lighten. But when that +anger being just, and such as we must not depart from, is crossed by +those unspeakable relentings, those quick revivals of love, those sudden +touches of tenderness that carry all before them, what anguish is equal +to those bitter sweetnesses? Lucy felt this as she stood there with her +husband's hand upon her shoulder, in utter fatigue, and broken down in +all her faculties. Through all those dark and bitter mists which rose +about her, his voice broke like a ray of light: her timid heart sprang +up in her bosom and went out to him with an _abandon_ which, but for the +extreme physical fatigue which produces a sort of apathy, must have +broken down everything. For a moment she swayed towards him as if she +would have thrown herself upon his breast. + +When this movement comes to both the estranged persons, there follows a +clearing away of difficulties, a revolution of the heart, a +reconciliation when that is possible, and sometimes when it is not +possible. But it very seldom happens that this comes to both at the same +time. Sir Tom remained unmoved while his wife had that sudden access of +reawakened tenderness. He was scarcely aware even how far she had been +from him, and now was quite unaware how near. His mind was full of cares +and doubts, and an embarrassing situation which he could not see how to +manage. He was not even aware that she was moved beyond the common. He +took his hand from her shoulder, and without another word let her go +away. + +Oh, those other words that are never spoken! They are counterbalanced in +the record of human misfortune by the many other words which are too +much, which should never have been spoken at all. Thus all explanation, +all ending of the desperate situation, was staved off for another night. + +Lucy woke next morning in a kind of desperation. No new event had +happened, but she could not rest. She felt that she must do something or +die, and what could she do? She spent the early morning in the nursery, +and then went out. This time she was reasonable, not like that former +time when she went out to the city. She knew very well now that nothing +was to be gained by walking or by jolting in a disagreeable cab. On the +former occasion that had been something of a relief to her; but not now. +It is scarcely so bad when some out-of-the-way proceeding like this, +some strange thing to be done, gives the hurt and wounded spirit a +little relief. She had come to the further stage now when she knew that +nothing of the sort could give any relief; nothing but mere dull +endurance, going on, and no more. She drove to Mr. Chervil's office +quietly, as she might have gone anywhere, and thus, though it seems +strange to say so, betrayed a deeper despair than before. She took with +her a list of names with sums written opposite. There was enough there +put down to make away with a large fortune. This one so much, that one +so much. This too was an impulse of the despair in her mind. She was +carrying out her father's will in a lump. It meant no exercise of +discrimination, no careful choice of persons to be benefited, such as he +had intended, but only a hurried rush at a duty which she had neglected, +a desire to be done with it. Lucy was on the eve, she felt, of some +great change in her life. She could not tell what she might be able to +do after; whether she should live through it or bring her mind and +memory unimpaired through it, or think any longer of anything that had +once been her duty. She would get it done while she could. She was very +sensible that the money she had given to Bice was not in accordance with +what her father would have wished: neither were these perhaps. She could +not tell, she did not care. At least it would be done with, and could +not be done over again. + +"Lady Randolph," said Mr. Chervil, in dismay, "have you any idea of the +sum you are--throwing away?" + +"I have no idea of any sum," said Lucy, gently, "except just the money I +spend, so much in my purse. But you have taught me how to calculate, and +that so much would--make people comfortable. Is not that what you said? +Well, if it was not you, it was--I do not remember. When I first got the +charge of this into my hands----" + +"Lady Randolph, you cannot surely think what you are doing. At the +worst," said the distressed trustee, "this was meant to be a fund +for--beneficence all your life: not to be squandered away, thousands and +thousands in a day----" + +"Is it squandered when it gives comfort--perhaps even happiness? And +how do you know how long my life may last? It may be over--in a day----" + +"You are ill," said the lawyer. "I thought so the moment I saw you. I +felt sure you were not up to business to-day." + +"I don't think I am ill," said Lucy; "a little tired, for I was late +last night--did not you know we had a ball, a very pretty ball?" she +added, with a curious smile, half of gratification, half of mockery. "It +was a strange thing to have, perhaps, just--at this moment." + +"A very natural thing," said Mr. Chervil. "I am glad to know it; you are +so young, Lady Randolph, pardon me for saying so." + +"It was not for me," said Lucy; "it was for a young lady--my +husband's----" + +Was she going out of her senses? What was she about to say? + +"A relation?" said Mr. Chervil. "Perhaps the young lady for whom you +interested yourself so much in a more important way? They are fortunate, +Lady Randolph, who have you for a friend." + +"Do you think so? I don't know that any one thinks so." She recovered +herself a little and pointed to the papers. "You will carry that out, +please. I may be going away. I am not quite sure of my movements. As +soon as you can you will carry this out." + +"Going away--at the beginning of the season!" + +"Oh, there is nothing settled; and besides you know life--life is very +insecure." + +"At your age it is very seldom one thinks so," said the lawyer, at which +she smiled only, then rose up, and without any further remark went away. +He saw her to her carriage, not now with any recollection of the +pleasant show and the exhibition of so fine a client to the admiration +of his neighbours. He had a heart after all, and daughters of his own; +and he was troubled more than he could say. He stood bare-headed and saw +her drive away, with a look of anxiety upon his face. Was it the same +bee in her bonnet which old Trevor had shown so conspicuously? was it +eccentricity verging upon madness? He went back to his office and wrote +to Sir Tom, enclosing a copy of Lucy's list. "I must ask your advice in +the matter instead of offering you mine," he wrote. "Lady Randolph has a +right, of course, if she chooses to press matters to an extremity, but I +can't fancy that this is right." + +Lucy went home still in the same strange excitement of mind. All had +been executed that was in her programme. She had gone through it without +flinching. The ball--that strange, frivolous-tragic effort of +despair--it was over, thank heaven! and Bice had got full justice in +her--was it in her--father's house? She could not have been introduced +to greater advantage, Lucy thought, with a certain forlorn, simple +pride, had she been Sir Tom's acknowledged daughter. Oh, not to so much +advantage! for the Contessa, her guardian, her----was far more skilful +than Lucy ever could have been. Bice had got her triumph; nothing had +been neglected. And the other business was in train--the disposing of +the money. She had made her wishes fully known, and even taken great +trouble, calculating and transcribing to prevent any possibility of a +mistake. And now, now the moment had come, the crisis of life when she +must tell her husband what she had heard, and say to him that this +existence could not go on any longer. A man could not have two lives. +She did not mean to upbraid him. What good would it do to upbraid? none, +none at all; that would not make things as they were again, or return +to her him whom she had lost. She had not a word to say to him, except +that it was impossible--that it could not go on any more. + +To think that she should have this to say to him made everything dark +about her as Lucy went home. She felt as if the world must come to an +end to-night. All was straightforward, now that the need of +self-restraint was over. She contemplated no delay or withdrawal from +her position. She went in to accomplish this dark and miserable +necessity like a martyr going to the cross. She would go and see baby +first, who was his boy as well as hers. Sir Tom no doubt would be in his +library, and would come out for luncheon after a while, but not until +she had spoken. But first she would go, just for a little needful +strength, and kiss her boy. + +Fletcher met her at the head of the stairs. + +"Oh, if you please, my lady--not to hurry you or frighten you--but nurse +says please would you step in and look at baby." + +Suddenly, in a moment, Lucy's whole being changed. She forgot +everything. Her languor disappeared and her fatigue. She sprang up to +where the woman was standing. "What is it? is he ill? Is it the old----" +She hurried along towards the nursery as she spoke. + +"No, my lady, nothing he has had before; but nurse thinks he looks--oh, +my lady, there will be nothing to be frightened about--we have sent for +the doctor." + +Lucy was in the room where little Tom was, before Fletcher had finished +what she was saying. The child was seated on his nurse's knee. His eyes +were heavy, yet blazing with fever. He was plucking with his little hot +hands at the woman's dress, flinging himself about her, from one arm, +from one side to the other. When he saw his mother he stretched out +towards her. Just eighteen months old; not able to express a thought; +not much, you will say, perhaps, to change to a woman the aspect of +heaven and earth. She took him into her arms without a word, and laid +her cheek--which was so cool, fresh with the morning air, though her +heart was so fevered and sick--against the little cheek, which burned +and glowed. "What is it? Can you tell what it is?" she said in a whisper +of awe. Was it God Himself who had stepped in--who had come to +interfere? + +Then the baby began to wail with that cry of inarticulate suffering +which is the most pitiful of all the utterances of humanity. He could +not tell what ailed him. He looked with his great dazed eyes pitifully +from one to another as if asking them to help him. + +"It is the fever, my lady," said the nurse. "We have sent for the +doctor. It may not be a bad attack." + +Lucy sat down, her limbs failing her, her heart failing her still more, +her bonnet and out-door dress cumbering her movements, the child tossing +and restless in her arms. This was not the form his ailments had ever +taken before. "Do you know what is to be done? Tell me what to do for +him," she said. + +There was a kind of hush over all the house. The servants would not +admit that anything was wrong until their mistress should come home. As +soon as she was in the nursery and fully aware of the state of affairs, +they left off their precautions. The maids appeared on the staircases +clandestinely as they ought not to have done. Mrs. Freshwater herself +abandoned her cosy closet, and declared in an impressive voice that no +bell must be rung for luncheon--nor anything done that could possibly +disturb the blessed baby, she said as she gave the order. And Williams +desired to know what was preparing for Mr. Randolph's dinner, and +announced his intention of taking it up himself. The other meal, the +lunch, in the dining-room, was of no importance to any one. If he could +take his beef-tea it would do him good, they all said. + +It seemed as if a long time passed before the doctor came; from Sir Tom +to the youngest kitchen-wench, the scullery-maid, all were in suspense. +There was but one breath, long drawn and stifled, when he came into the +house. He was a long time in the nursery, and when he came out he went +on talking to those who accompanied him. "You had better shut off this +part of the house altogether," he was saying, "hang a sheet over this +doorway, and let it be always kept wet. I will send in a person I can +rely upon to take the night. You must not let Lady Randolph sit up." He +repeated the same caution to Sir Tom, who came out with a bewildered air +to hear what he had said. Sir Tom was the only one who had taken no +fright. "Highly infectious," the Doctor said. "I advise you to send away +every one who is not wanted. If Lady Randolph could be kept out of the +room so much the better, but I don't suppose that is possible; anyhow, +don't let her sit up. She is just in the condition to take it. It would +be better if you did not go near the child yourself; but, of course, I +understand how difficult that is. Parents are a nuisance in such cases," +the Doctor said, with a smile which Sir Tom thought heartless, though it +was intended to cheer him. "It is far better to give the little patient +over to scientific unemotional care." + +"But you don't mean to say that there is danger, Doctor," cried Sir Tom. +"Why, the little beggar was as jolly as possible only this morning." + +"Oh, we'll pull him through, we'll pull him through," the good-natured +Doctor said. He preferred to talk all the time, not to be asked +questions, for what could he say? Nurse looked very awful as she went +upstairs, charged with private information almost too important for any +woman to contain. She stopped at the head of the stairs to whisper to +Fletcher, shaking her head the while, and Fletcher, too, shook her head +and whispered to Mrs. Freshwater that the doctor had a very bad opinion +of the case. Poor little Tom had got to be "the case" all in a moment. +And "no constitution" they said to each other under their breath. + +Thus the door closed upon Lucy and all her trouble. She forgot it clean, +as if it never had existed. Everything in the world in one moment became +utterly unimportant to her, except the fever in those heavy eyes. She +reflected dimly, with an awful sense of having forestalled fate, that +she had made a pretence that he was ill to shield herself that night, +the first night after their arrival. She had said he was ill when all +was well. And lo! sudden punishment scathing and terrible had come to +her out of the angry skies. + + + + +CHAPTER XLIX. + +THE EXPERIENCES OF BICE. + + +Sir Tom was concerned and anxious, but not alarmed like the women. After +all it was a complaint of which children recovered every day. It had +nothing to do with the child's lungs, which had been enfeebled by his +former illness. He had as good a chance as any other in the present +malady. Sir Tom was much depressed for an hour or two, but when +everything was done that could be done, and an experienced woman arrived +to whom the "case," though "anxious," as she said, did not appear +immediately alarming, he forced his mind to check that depression, and +to return to the cares which, if less grave, harassed and worried him +more. Lucy was invisible all day. She spoke to him through the closed +door from behind the curtain, but in a voice which he could scarcely +hear and which had no tone of individuality in it, but only a faint +human sound of distress. "He is no better. They say we cannot expect him +to be better," she said. "Come down, dear, and have some dinner," said +the round and large voice of Sir Tom, which even into that stillness +brought a certain cheer. But as it sounded into the shut-up room, where +nobody ventured to speak above their breath, it was like a bell pealing +or a discharge of artillery, something that broke up the quiet, and +made, or so the poor mother thought, the little patient start in his +uneasy bed. Dinner! oh how could he ask it, how could he think of it? +Sir Tom went away with a sigh of mingled uneasiness and impatience. He +had always thought Lucy a happy exception to the caprices and vagaries +of womankind. He had hoped that she was without nerves, as she had +certainly been without those whims that amuse a man in other people's +wives, but disgust him in his own. Was she going to turn out just like +the rest, with extravagant terrors, humours, fancies--like all of them? +Why should not she come to dinner, and why speak to him only from behind +the closed door? He was annoyed and almost angry with Lucy. There had +been something the matter, he reflected, for some time. She had taken +offence at something; but surely the appearance of a real trouble might, +at least, have made an end of that. He felt vexed and impatient as he +sat down with Jock alone. "You will have to get out of this, my boy," he +said, "or they won't let you go back to school; don't you know it's +catching?" To have infection in one's house, and to be considered +dangerous by one's friends, is always irritating. Sir Tom spoke with a +laugh, but it was a laugh of offence. "I ought to have thought of it +sooner," he said; "you can't go straight to school, you know, from a +house with fever in it. You must pack up and get off at once." + +"I am not afraid," cried Jock. "Do you think I am such a cad as to leave +Lucy when she's in trouble? or--or--the little one either?" Jock added, +in a husky voice. + +"We are all cads in that respect nowadays," said Sir Tom. "It is the +right thing. It is high principle. Men will elbow off and keep me at a +distance, and not a soul will come near Lucy. Well, I suppose, it's all +right. But there is some reason in it, so far as you are concerned. +Come, you must be off to-night. Get hold of MTutor, he's still in town, +and ask him what you must do." + +After dinner Sir Tom strolled forth. He did not mean to go out, but the +house was intolerable, and he was very uneasy on the subject of Bice. It +felt, indeed, something like a treason to Lucy, shut up in the child's +sick-room, to go to the house which somehow or other was felt to be in +opposition, and dimly suspected as the occasion of her changed looks and +ways. He did not even say to himself that he meant to go there. And it +was not any charm in the Contessa that drew him. It was that uneasy +sense of a possibility which involved responsibility, and which, +probably, he would never either make sure of or get rid of. The little +house in Mayfair was lighted from garret to basement. If the lights were +dim inside they looked bright without. It had the air of a house +overflowing with life, every room with its sign of occupation. When he +got in, the first sight he saw was Montjoie striding across the doorway +of the small dining-room. Montjoie was very much at home, puffing his +cigarette at the new comer. "Hallo, St. John!" he cried, then added with +a tone of disappointment, "Oh! it's you." + +"It is I, I'm sorry to say, as you don't seem to like it," said Sir Tom. + +The young fellow looked a little abashed. "I expected another fellow. +That's not to say I ain't glad to see you. Come in and have a glass of +wine." + +"Thank you," said Sir Tom. "I suppose as you are smoking the ladies are +upstairs." + +"Oh, they don't mind," said Montjoie; "at least the Contessa, don't you +know? She's up to a cigarette herself. I shouldn't stand it," he added, +after a moment, "in--Mademoiselle. Oh, perhaps you haven't heard. She +and I--have fixed it all up, don't you know?" + +"Fixed it all up?" + +"Engaged, and that sort of thing. I'm a kind of boss in this house now. +I thought, perhaps, that was why you were coming, to hear all about it, +don't you know?" + +"Engaged!" cried Sir Tom, with a surprise in which there was no +qualification. He felt disposed to catch the young fellow by the throat +and pitch him out of doors. + +"You don't seem over and above pleased," said Montjoie, throwing away +his cigarette, and confronting Sir Tom with a flush of defiance. They +stood looking at each other for a moment, while Antonio, in the +background, watched at the foot of the stairs, not without hopes of a +disturbance. + +"I don't suppose that my pleasure or displeasure matters much: but you +will pardon me if I pass, for my visit was to the Contessa," Sir Tom +said, going on quickly. He was in an irritable state of mind to begin +with. He thought he ought to have been consulted, even as an old friend, +much more as---- And the young ass was offensive. If it turned out that +Sir Tom had anything to do with it Montjoie should find that to be the +best _parti_ of the season was not a thing that would infallibly +recommend him to a father at least. The Contessa had risen from her +chair at the sound of the voices. She came forward to Sir Tom with both +her hands extended as he entered the drawing-room. "Dear old friend! +congratulate me. I have accomplished all I wished," she said. + +"That was Montjoie," said Sir Tom. He laughed, but not with his usual +laugh. "No great ambition, I am afraid. But," he said, pressing those +delicate hands not as they were used to be pressed, with a hard +seriousness and imperativeness, "you must tell me! I must have an +explanation. There can be no delay or quibbling longer." + +"You hurt me, sir," she said with a little cry, and looked at her hands, +"body and mind," she added, with one of her smiles. "Quibbling--that is +one of your English words a woman cannot be expected to understand. Come +then with me, barbarian, into my boudoir." + +Bice sat alone somewhat pensively with one of those favourite Tauchnitz +volumes from which she had obtained her knowledge of English life in her +hand. It was contraband, which made it all the dearer to her. She was +not reading, but leaning her chin against it lost in thought. She was +not pining for the presence of Montjoie, but rather glad after a long +afternoon of him that he should prefer a cigarette to her company. She +felt that this was precisely her own case, the cigarette being +represented by the book or any other expedient that answered to cover +the process of thought. + +Bice was not used to these processes. Keen observation of the ways of +mankind in all the strange exhibitions of them which she had seen in her +life had been the chief exercise of her lively intelligence. To Mr. +Derwentwater, perhaps, may be given the credit of having roused the +girl's mind, not indeed to sympathy with himself, but into a kind of +perturbation and general commotion of spirit. Events were crowding +quickly upon her. She had accepted one suitor and refused another within +the course of a few hours. Such incidents develop the being; not, +perhaps, the first in any great degree--but the second was not in the +programme, and it had perplexed and roused her. There had come into her +mind glimmerings, reflections, she could not tell what. Montjoie was +occupied in something of the same manner downstairs, thinking it all +over with his cigarette, wondering what Society and what his uncle would +say, for whom he had a certain respect. He said to himself on the whole +that he did not care that for Society! She suited him down to the +ground. She was the jolliest girl he had ever met, besides being so +awfully handsome. It was worth while going out riding with her just to +see how the fellows stared and the women grew green with envy; or coming +into a room with her, Jove! what a sensation she would make, and how +everybody would open their eyes when she appeared blazing in the +Montjoie diamonds! His satisfaction went a little deeper than this, to +do him justice. He was, in his way, very much in love with the beautiful +creature whom he had made up his mind to secure from the first moment he +saw her. But, perhaps, if it had not been for the triumph of her +appearance at Park Lane, and the hum of admiration and wonder that rose +around her, he would not have so early fixed his fate; and the shadow of +the uncle now and then came like a cloud over his glee. After the sudden +gravity with which he remembered this, there suddenly gleamed upon him a +vision of all his plain cousins gathering round his bride to scowl her +down, and blast her with criticism and disapproval, which made him burst +into a fit of laughter. Bice would hold her own; she would give as good +as she got. She was not one to be cowed or put down, wasn't Bee! He felt +himself clapping his hands and urging her on to the combat, and +celebrated in advance with a shout of laughter the discomfiture of all +those young ladies. But she should have nothing more to do with the +Forno-Populo. No; his wife should have none of that sort about her. What +did old Randolph mean always hanging about that old woman, and all the +rest of the old fogeys? It was fun enough so long as you had nothing to +do with them, but, by Jove, not for Lady Montjoie. Then he rushed +upstairs to shower a few rough caresses upon Bice and take his leave of +her, for he had an evening engagement formed before he was aware of the +change which was coming in his life. He had been about her all the +afternoon, and Bice, disturbed in her musings by this onslaught and +somewhat impatient of the caresses, beheld his departure with +satisfaction. It was the first evening since their arrival in town, +which the ladies had planned to spend alone. + +And then she recommenced these thinkings which were not so easy as those +of her lover: but she was soon subject to another inroad of a very +different kind. Jock, who had never before come in the evening, appeared +suddenly unannounced at the door of the room with a pale and heavy +countenance. Though Bice had objected to be disturbed by her lover, she +did not object to Jock; he harmonised with the state of her mind, which +Montjoie did not. It seemed even to relieve her of the necessity of +thinking when he appeared--he who did thinking enough, she felt, with +half-conscious humour, for any number of people. He came in with a sort +of eagerness, yet weariness, and explained that he had come to say +good-bye, for he was going off--at once. + +"Going off! but it is not time yet," Bice said. + +"Because of the fever. But that is not altogether why I have come +either," he said, looking at her from under his curved eyebrows. "I have +got something to say." + +"What fever?" she said, sitting upright in her chair. + +Jock took no notice of the question; his mind was full of his own +purpose. "Look here," he said huskily, "I know you'll never speak to me +again. But there's something I want to say. We've been friends----" + +"Oh yes," she said, raising her head with a gleam of frank and cordial +pleasure, "good friends--_camarades_--and I shall always, always speak +to you. You were my first friend." + +"That is" said Jock, taking no notice, "you were--friends. I can't tell +what I was. I don't know. It's something very droll. You would laugh, I +suppose. But that's not to the purpose either. You wouldn't have +Derwentwater to-day." + +Bice looked up with a half laugh. She began to consider him closely with +her clear-sighted penetrating eyes, and the agitation under which Jock +was labouring impressed the girl's quick mind. She watched every change +of his face with a surprised interest, but she did not make any reply. + +"I never expected you would. I could have told him so. I did tell him +you liked the other best. They say that's common with women," Jock said +with a little awe, "when they have the choice offered, that it is always +the worst they take." + +But still Bice did not reply. It was a sort of carrying out without any +responsibility of hers, the vague wonder and questionings of her own +mind. She had no responsibility in what Jock said. She could even +question and combat it cheerfully now that it was presented to her from +outside, but for the moment she said nothing to help him on, and he did +not seem to require it, though he paused from time to time. + +"This is what I've got to say," Jock went on almost fiercely. "If you +take Montjoie it's a mistake. He looks good-natured and all that; he +looks easy to get on with. You hear me out, and then I'll go away and +never trouble you again. He is not--a nice fellow. If you were to go and +do such a thing as--marry him, and then find it out! I want you to know. +Perhaps you think it's mean of me to say so, like sneaking, and perhaps +it is. But, look here, I can't help it. Of course you would laugh at +me--any one would. I'm a boy at school. I know that as well as you +do----" Something got into Jock's voice so that he paused, and made a +gulp before he could go on. "But, Bice, don't have that fellow. There +are such lots; don't have _him_. I don't think I could stand it," Jock +cried. "And look here, if it's because the Contessa wants money, I have +some myself. What do I want with money? When I am older I shall work. +There it is for you, if you like. But don't--have that fellow. Have a +good fellow, there are plenty--there are fellows like Sir Tom. He is a +good man. I should not," said Jock, with a sort of sob, which came in +spite of himself, and which he did not remark even, so strong was the +passion in him. "I should not--mind. I could put up with it then. So +would Derwentwater. But, Bice----" + +She had risen up, and so had he. They were neither of them aware of it. +Jock had lost consciousness, perception, all thought of anything but her +and this that he was urging upon her. While as for Bice the tide had +gone too high over her head. She felt giddy in the presence of something +so much more powerful than any feeling she had ever known, and yet +gazed at him half alarmed, half troubled as she was, with a perception +that could not be anything but humorous of the boy's voice sounding so +bass and deep, sometimes bursting into childish, womanish treble, and +the boy's aspect which contrasted so strongly with the passion in which +he spoke. When Sir Tom's voice made itself audible, coming from the +boudoir in conversation with the Contessa, the effect upon the two thus +standing in a sort of mortal encounter was extraordinary. Bice straining +up to the mark which he was setting before her, bewildered with the +flood on which she was rising, sank into ease again and a mastery of the +situation, while Jock, worn out and with a sense that all was over, sat +down abruptly, and left, as it were, the stage clear. + +"The poor little man is rather bad, I fear," said Sir Tom, coming +through the dim room. There was something in his voice, an easier tone, +a sound of relief. How had the Contessa succeeded in cheering him? "And +what is worse (for he will do well I hope) is the scattering of all her +friends from about Lucy. I am kept out of it, and it does not matter, +you see; but she, poor little woman,"--his voice softened as he named +her with a tone of tenderness--"nobody will go near her," he said. + +The Contessa gave a little shiver, and drew about her the loose shawl +she wore. "What can we say in such a case? It is not for us, it is for +those around us. It is a risk for so many----" + +"My aunt," said Sir Tom, "would be her natural ally; but I know Lady +Randolph too well to think of that. And there is Jock, whom we are +compelled to send away. We shall be like two crows all alone in the +house." + +"Is it this you told me of, fever?" cried Bice, turning to Jock. "But it +is I that will go--oh, this moment! It is no tr-rouble. I can sit up. I +never am sleepy. I am so strong nothing hurts me. I will go directly, +now." + +"You!" they all cried, but the Contessa's tones were most high. She made +a protest full of indignant virtue. + +"Do you think," she said, "if I had but myself to think of that I would +not fly to her? But, child in your position! _fiancee_ only to-day--with +all to do, all to think of, how could I leave you? Oh, it is impossible; +my good Lucy, who is never unreasonable, she will know it, she will +understand. Besides, to what use, my Bice? She has nurses for day and +night. She has her dear husband, her good husband, to be with her. What +does a woman want more? You would be _de trop_. You would be out of +place. It would be a trouble to them. It would be a blame to me. And you +would take it, and bring it back and spread it, Bice--and perhaps Lord +Montjoie----" + +Bice looked round her bewildered from one to another. + +"Should I be _de trop_?" she said, turning to Sir Tom with anxious eyes. + +Sir Tom looked at her with an air of singular emotion. He laid his hand +caressingly on her shoulder: "_De trop_? no; never in my house. But that +is not the question. Lucy will be cheered when she knows that you wanted +to come. But what the Contessa says is true; there are plenty of +nurses--and my wife--has me, if I am any good; and we would not have you +run any risk----" + +"In her position!" cried the Contessa; "_fiancee_ only to-day. She owes +herself already to Lord Montjoie, who would never consent, never; it is +against every rule. Speak to her, _mon ami_, speak to her; she is a girl +who is capable of all. Tell her that now it is thought criminal, that +one does not risk one's self and others. She might bring it here, if not +to herself, to me, Montjoie, the domestics." The Contessa sank into a +chair and began fanning herself; then got up again and went towards the +girl clasping her hands. "My sweetest," she cried, "you will not be +_entetee_, and risk everything. We shall have news, good news, every +morning, three, four times a day." + +"And Milady," said Bice, "who has done everything, will be alone and in +tr-rouble. Sir Tom, he must leave her, he must attend to his affairs. He +is a man; he must take the air; he must go out in the world. And +she--she will be alone: when we have lived with her, when she has been +more good, more good than any one could deserve. Risk! The doctor does +not take it, who is everywhere, who will, perhaps, come to you next, +Madama; and the nurses do not take it. It is a shame," cried the girl, +throwing up her fine head, "if Love is not as good as the servants, if +to have gratitude in your heart is nothing! And the risk, what is it? An +illness, a fever. I have had a fever----" + +"Bice, you might bring--what is dreadful to think of," cried the +Contessa, with a shiver. "You might die." + +"Die!" the girl cried, in a voice like a silver trumpet with a keen +sweetness of scorn and tenderness combined. "_Apres_?" she said, +throwing back her head. She was not capable of those questions which Mr. +Derwentwater and his pupil had set before her. But here she was upon +different ground. + +"Oh, she is capable of all! she is a girl that is capable of all," cried +the Contessa, sinking once more into a chair. + + + + +CHAPTER L. + +THE EVE OF SORROW. + + +Sir Tom stepped out into the night some time after, holding Jock by the +arm. The boy had a sort of thrill and tremble in him as if he had been +reading poetry or witnessing some great tragic scene, which the elder +man partially understood without being at all aware that Jock had +himself been an actor in this drama. He himself had been dismissed out +of it, so to speak. His mind was relieved, and yet he was not so +satisfied as he expected to be. It had been proved to him that he had no +responsibility for Bice, and his anxiety relieved on that subject; +relieved, oh yes: and yet was he a little disappointed too. It would +have been endless embarrassment, and Lucy would not have liked it. Still +he had been accustoming himself to the idea, and, now that it was broken +clean off, he was not so much pleased as he had expected. Poor little +Bice! her little burst of generous gratitude and affection had gone to +his heart. If that little thing who (it appeared) had died in Florence +so many years ago had survived and grown a woman, as an hour ago he had +believed her to have done, that is how he should have liked her to feel +and to express herself. Such a sense of approval and admiration was in +him that he felt the disappointment the more. Yes, he supposed it was a +disappointment. He had begun to get used to the idea, and he had always +liked the girl; but of course it was a relief--the greatest relief--to +have no explanation to make to Lucy, instead of the painful one which +perhaps she would only partially believe. He had felt that it would be +most difficult to make her understand that, though this was so, he had +not been in any plot, and had not known of it any more than she did when +Bice was brought to his house. This would have been the difficult point +in the matter, and now, heaven be praised! all that was over, and there +was no mystery, nothing to explain. But so strange is human sentiment +that the world felt quite impoverished to Sir Tom, though he was much +relieved. Life became for the moment a more commonplace affair +altogether. He was free from the annoyance. It mattered nothing to him +now who she married--the best _parti_ in society, or Jock's tutor, or +anybody the girl pleased. If it had not been for that exhibition of +feeling Sir Tom would probably have said to himself, satirically, that +there could be little doubt which the Contessa's ward and pupil would +choose. But after that little scene he came out very much shaken, +touched to the heart, thinking that perhaps life would have been more +full and sweet had his apprehensions been true. She had been overcome by +the united pressure of himself and the Contessa, and for the moment +subdued, though the fire in her eye and swelling of her young bosom +seemed to say that the victory was very incomplete. He would have liked +the little one that died to have looked like that, and felt like that, +had she lived to grow a woman like Bice. Great heaven, the little one +that died! The words as they went through his mind sent a chill to Sir +Tom's breast. Might it be that they would be said again--once more--and +that far-back sin bring thus a punishment all the more bitter for being +so long delayed. Human nature will never get to believe that God is not +lying in wait somewhere to exact payment of every account. + +"She understands that," said Jock suddenly. "She don't know the meaning +of other things." + +"What may be the other things?" said Sir Tom, feeling a half jealousy of +anything that could be said to Bice's disadvantage. "I don't think she +is wanting in understanding. Ah, I see. You don't know how any one could +resist the influence of MTutor, Jock." + +Through the darkness under the feeble lamp Jock shot a glance at his +elder of that immeasurable contempt which youth feels for the absence of +all penetration shown by its seniors, and their limited powers of +observation. But he said nothing. Perhaps he could not trust himself to +speak. + +"Don't think I'm a scoffer, my boy," said Sir Tom. "MTutor's a very +decent fellow. Let us go and look him up. He would be better, to my +thinking, if he were not quite so fine, you know. But that's a trifle, +and I'm an old fogey. You are not going back to Park Lane to-night." + +"After what you heard her say? Do you think I've got no heart either? If +I could have it instead of him!" + +"But you can't, my boy," Sir Tom said with a pressure of Jock's arm. +"And you must not make Lucy more wretched by hanging about. There's the +mystery," he broke out suddenly. "You can't--none of us can. What might +be nothing to you or me may be death to that little thing, but it is he +that has to go through with it; life is a horrible sort of pleasure, +Jock." + +"Is it a pleasure?" the boy said under his breath. Life in him at that +moment was one big heavy throbbing through all his being, full of +mysterious powers unknown, of which Death was the least--yet, coming as +he did a great shadow upon the feeblest, a terrible and awe-striking +power beyond the strength of man to understand. + +After this night, so full of emotion, there came certain days which +passed without sign or mark in the dim great house looking out upon all +the lively sights and sounds of the great park. The sun rose and +reddened the windows, the noon blazed, the gray twilight touched +everything into colour. In the chamber which was the centre of all +interest no one knew or cared how the hours went, and whether it was +morning or noon or night. Instead of these common ways of reckoning, +they counted by the hours when the doctor came, when the child must have +his medicine, when it was time to refresh the little cot with cool clean +linen, or sponge the little hot hands. The other attendants took their +turns and rested, but Lucy was capable of no rest. She dozed sometimes +with her eyes half opened, hearing every movement and little cry. +Perhaps as the time went on and the watch continued her faculties were a +little blunted by this, so that she was scarcely full awake at any time, +since she never slept. She moved mechanically about, and was conscious +of nothing but a dazed and confused misery, without anticipation or +recollection. Something there was in her mind besides, which perhaps +made it worse; she could not tell. Could anything make it worse? The +heart, like any other vessel, can hold but what it is capable of, and no +more. + +It is not easy to estimate what is the greatest sorrow of human life. +It is that which has us in its grip, whatever it may be. Bereavement is +terrible until there comes to you a pang more bitter from living than +from dying: and one grief is supreme until another tops it, and the sea +comes on and on in mountain waves. But perhaps of all the endurances of +nature there is none which the general consent would agree upon as the +greatest, like that of a mother watching death approach, with noiseless, +awful step, to the bed of her only child. If humanity can approach more +near the infinite in capacity of suffering, it is hard to know how. We +must all bow down before this extremity of anguish, humbly begging the +pardon of that sufferer, that in our lesser griefs, we dare to bemoan +ourselves in her presence. And whether it is the dear companion--man or +woman grown--or the infant out of her clasping arms, would seem to +matter very little. According as it happens, so is the blow the most +terrible. To Lucy, enveloped by that woe, there could have been no +change that would not have lightened something (or so she felt) of her +intolerable burden. Could he have breathed his fever and pain into +words, could he have told what ailed him, could he have said to her only +one little phrase of love, to be laid up in her heart! But the pitiful +looks of those baby eyes, now bright with fever, now dull as dead +violets, the little inarticulate murmurings, the appeals that could not +be comprehended, added such a misery as was almost too much for flesh +and blood to bear. This terrible ordeal was what Lucy had to go through. +The child, though he had, as the maids said, no constitution, and though +he had been enfeebled by illness for half his little lifetime, fought on +hour after hour and day after day. Sometimes there was a look in his +little face as of a conscious intelligence fighting a brave battle for +life. His young mother beside him rose and fell with his breath, lived +only in him, knew nothing but the vicissitudes of the sick room, taking +her momentary broken rest when he slept, only to start up when, with a +louder breath, a little cry, the struggle was resumed. The nurses could +not, it would be unreasonable to expect it, be as entirely absorbed in +their charge as was his mother. They got to talk at last, not minding +her presence, quite freely in half whispers about other "cases," of +patients and circumstances they had known. Stories of children who had +died, and of some who had been miraculously raised from the brink of the +grave, and of families swept away and houses desolated, seemed to get +into the air of the room and float about Lucy, catching her confused +ear, which was always on the watch for other sounds. Three or four times +a day Sir Tom came to the door for news, but was not admitted, as the +doctor's orders were stringent. There was no one admitted except the +doctor; no cheer or comfort from without came into the sick room. Sir +Tom did his best to speak a cheerful word, and would fain have persuaded +Lucy to come out into the corridor, or to breathe the fresh air from a +balcony. But Lucy, had she been capable of leaving the child, had a dim +recollection in her mind that there was something, she could not tell +what, interposing between her and her husband, and turned away from him +with a sinking at her heart. She remembered vaguely that he had +something else--some other possessions to comfort him--not this child +alone as she had. He had something that he could perhaps love as +well--but she had nothing; and she turned away from him with an +instinctive sense of the difference, feeling it to be a wrong to her +boy. But for this they might have comforted each other, and consulted +each other over the fever and its symptoms. And she might have stolen a +few moments from her child's bed and thrown herself on her husband's +bosom and been consoled. But after all what did it matter? Could +anything have made it more easy to bear? When sorrow and pain occupy the +whole being, what room is there for consolation, what importance in the +lessening by an infinitesimal shred of sorrow! + +This had gone on for--Lucy could not tell how many days (though not in +reality for very many), when there came one afternoon in which +everything seemed to draw towards the close. It is the time when the +heart fails most easily and the tide of being runs most low. The light +was beginning to wane in those dim rooms, though a great golden sunset +was being enacted in purple and flame on the other side of the house. +The child's eyes were dull and glazed; they seemed to turn inward with +that awful blank which is like the soul's withdrawal; its little powers +seemed all exhausted. The little moan, the struggle, had fallen into +quiet. The little lips were parched and dry. Those pathetic looks that +seemed to plead for help and understanding came no more. The baby was +too much worn out for such painful indications of life. The women had +drawn aside, all their talk hushed, only a faint whisper now and then of +directions from the most experienced of the two to the subordinates +aiding the solemn watch. Lucy sat by the side of the little bed on the +floor, sometimes raising herself on her knees to see better. She had +fallen into the chill and apathy of despair. + +At this time a door opened, not loudly or with any breach of the decorum +of such a crisis, but with a distinct soft sound, which denoted some +one not bound by the habits of a sick room. A step equally distinct, +though soft, not the noiseless step of a watcher, came in through the +outer room and to the bed. The women, who were standing a little apart, +gave a low, involuntary cry. It looked like health and youthful vigour +embodied which came sweeping into the dim room to the bedside of the +dying child. It was Bice, who had asked no leave, who fell on her knees +beside Lucy and stooped down her beautiful head, and kissed the hand +which lay on the baby's coverlet. "Oh, pardon me," she said, "I could +not keep away any longer. They kept me by force, or I would have come +long, long since. I have come to stay, that you may have some rest, for +I can nurse him--oh, with all my heart!" + +She had said all this hurriedly in a breath before she looked at the +child. Now she turned her head to the little bed. Her countenance +underwent a sudden change. The colour forsook her cheeks, her lips +dropped apart. She turned round to the nurse with a low cry, with a +terrified question in her eyes. + +"You see," said Lucy, speaking with a gasp as if in answer to some +previous argument, "she thinks so, too----" Then there was a terrible +pause. There seemed to come another "change," as the women said, over +the little face, out of which life ebbed at every breath. Lucy started +to her feet; she seized Bice's arm and raised her, which would have been +impossible in a less terrible crisis. "Go," she said; "Go, Bice, to your +father, and tell him to come, for my boy is dying Go--go!" + + + + +CHAPTER LI. + +THE LAST CRISIS. + + +"Go to your father." Bice did not know what Lucy meant. The words +bewildered her beyond description, but she did not hesitate what to do. +She went downstairs to Sir Tom, who sat with his door opened and his +heart sinking in his bosom waiting to hear. There was no need for any +words. He followed her at once, almost as softly and as noiselessly as +she had come. And when they entered the dim room, where by this time +there was scarcely light enough for unaccustomed eyes to see, he went up +to Lucy and put his arms round her as she stood leaning on the little +bed. "My love," he said, "my love; we must be all in all to each other +now." His voice was choked and broken, but it did not reach Lucy's +heart. She put him away from her with an almost imperceptible movement. +"You have others," she said hoarsely; "I have nothing, nothing but him." +Just then the child stirred faintly in his bed, and first extending her +arms to put them all away from her, Lucy bent over him and lifted him to +her bosom. The nurse made a step forward to interfere, but then stepped +back again wringing her hands. The mother had risen into a sort of +sublimity, irresponsible in her great woe--if she had killed him to +forestall her agony a little, as is the instinct of desperation, they +could not have interfered. She sat down, and gathered the child close, +close in her embrace, his head upon her breast, holding him as if to +communicate life to him with the contact of hers. Her breath, her arms, +her whole being enveloped the little dying creature with a fulness of +passionate existence expanded to its highest. It was like taking back +the half-extinguished germ into the very bosom and core of life. They +stood round her with an awe of her, which would permit no intrusion +either of word or act. Even the experienced nurse who believed that the +little spark of life would be shaken out by this movement, only wrung +her hands and said nothing. The rest were but as spectators, gathering +round to see the tragedy accomplished and the woman's heart shattered +before their eyes. + +Which was unjust too--for the husband who stood behind was as great a +sufferer. He was struck in everything a man can feel most, the instincts +of paternal love awakened late, the pride a man has in his heir, all +were crushed in him by a blow that seemed to wring his very heart out of +his breast; but neither did any one think of him, nor did he think of +himself. The mother that bare him!--that mysterious tie that goes beyond +and before all, was acknowledged by them all without a word. It was hers +to do as she pleased. The moments are long at such a time. They seemed +to stand still on that strange scene. The light remained the same; the +darkness seemed arrested, perhaps because it had come on too early on +account of clouds overhead; perhaps because time was standing still to +witness the easy parting of a soul not yet accustomed to this earth; the +far more terrible rending of the woman's heart. + +Presently a sensation of great calm fell, no one could tell how, into +the room. The terror seemed to leave the hearts of the watchers. Was it +the angel who had arrived and shed a soothing from his very presence +though he had come to accomplish the end? + +Another little change, almost imperceptible, Lucy beginning to rock her +child softly, as if lulling him to sleep. No one moved, or even +breathed, it seemed, for how long? some minutes, half a lifetime. Then +another sound. Oh, God in heaven! had she gone distracted, the innocent +creature, the young mother, in her anguish? She began to sing--a few low +notes, a little lullaby, in a voice ineffable, indescribable, not like +any mortal voice. One of the women burst out into a wail--it was the +child's nurse--and tried to take him from the mother's arms. The other +took her by the shoulders and turned her away. "What does it matter, a +few minutes more or less; she'll come to herself soon enough, poor +dear," said the attendant with a sob. Thus the group was diminished. Sir +Tom stood with one hand on his wife's chair, his face covered with the +other, and in his heart the bitterness of death; Bice had dropped down +on her knees by the side of that pathetic group; and in the midst sat +the mother bent over, almost enfolding the child, cradling him in her +own life. Bice was herself not much more than a child; to her all things +were possible--miracles, restorations from the dead. Her eyes were full +of tears, but there was a smile upon her quivering mouth. It was at her +Lucy looked, with eyes full of something like that "awful rose of dawn" +of which the poet speaks. They were dilated to twice their natural size. +She made a slight movement, opening to Bice the little face upon her +bosom, bidding her look as at a breathless secret to be kept from all +else. Was it a reflection or a faint glow of warmth upon the little worn +cheek? The eyes were no longer open, showing the white, but closed, with +the eyelashes shadowing against the cheek. There came into Lucy's eyes a +sort of warning look to keep the secret, and the wonderful spectacle +was, as it were, closed again, hidden with her arms and bending head. +And the soft coo of the lullaby went on. + +Presently the women stole back, awed and silenced, but full of a +reviving thrill of curiosity. The elder one, who was from the hospital +and prepared for everything, drew nearer, and regarded with a +scientific, but not unsympathetic eye, the mother and the child. She +withdrew a little the shawl in which the infant was wrapped, and put her +too-experienced, instructed hands upon his little limbs, without taking +any notice of Lucy, who remained passive through this examination. "He's +beautiful and warm," said the woman, in a wondering tone. Then Bice rose +to her feet with a quick sudden movement, and went to Sir Tom and drew +his hand from his face. "He is not dying, he is sleeping," she said. +"And I think, miss, you're right. He has taken a turn for the better," +said the experienced woman from the hospital. "Don't move, my lady, +don't move; we'll prop you with cushions--we'll pull him through still, +please God," the nurse said, with a few genuine tears. + +When the doctor came some time after, instead of watching the child's +last moments, he had only to confirm their certainty of this favourable +change, and give his sanction to it; and the cloud that had seemed to +hang over it all day lifted from the house. The servants began to move +about again and bustle. The lamps were lighted. The household resumed +their occupations, and Williams himself in token of sympathy carried up +Mr. Randolph's beef-tea. When Lucy, after a long interval, was liberated +from her confined attitude and the child restored to his bed, the +improvement was so evident that she allowed herself to be persuaded to +lie down and rest. "Milady," said Bice, "I am not good for anything, +but I love him. I will not interfere, but neither will I ever take away +my eyes from him till you are again here." There was no use in this, but +it was something to the young mother. She lay down and slept, for the +first time since the illness began; slept not in broken, painful +dozings, but a real sleep. She was not in a condition to think; but +there was a vague feeling in her mind that here was some one, not as +others were, to whom little Tom was something more than to the rest. +Consciously she ought to have shrunk from Bice's presence; unconsciously +it soothed her and warmed her heart. + +Sir Tom went back to his room, shaken as with a long illness, but +feeling that the world had begun again, and life was once more liveable. +He sat down and thought over every incident, and thanked God with such +tears as men too, like women, are often fain to indulge in, though they +do it chiefly in private. Then, as the effect of this great crisis began +to go off a little, and the common round to come back, there recurred to +his mind Lucy's strange speech, "You have others----" What others was he +supposed to have? She had drawn herself away from him. She had made no +appeal to his sympathy. "You have--others. I have nothing but him." What +did Lucy mean? And then he remembered how little intercourse there had +been of late between them, how she had kept aloof from him. They might +have been separated and living in different houses for all the union +there had been between them. "You have others----" What did Lucy mean? + +He got up, moved by the uneasiness of this question, and began to pace +about the floor. He had no others; never had a man been more devoted to +his own house. She had not been exacting, nor he uxorious. He had lived +a man's life in the world, and had not neglected his duties for his +wife; but he reminded himself, with a sort of indignant satisfaction, +that he had found Lucy far more interesting than he expected, and that +her fresh curiosity, her interest in everything, and the just enough of +receptive intelligence, which is more agreeable than cleverness, had +made her the most pleasant companion he had ever known. It was not an +exercise of self-denial, of virtue on his part, as the Dowager and +indeed many other of his friends had attempted to make out, but a real +pleasure in her society. He had liked to talk to her, to tell her his +own past history (selections from it), to like, yet laugh at her simple +comments. He never despised anything she said, though he had laughed at +some of it with a genial and placid amusement. And that little beggar! +about whom Sir Tom could not even think to-day without a rush of water +to his eyes--could any man have considered the little fellow more, or +been more proud of him or fond? He could not live in the nursery, it was +true, like Lucy, but short of that--"Others." What could she mean? There +were no others. He was content to live and die, if but they might be +spared to him, with her and the boy. A sort of chill doubt that somebody +might have breathed into her ear that suggestion about Bice's parentage +did indeed cross his mind; but ever since he had ascertained that this +fear was a delusion, it had seemed to him the most ridiculous idea in +the world. It had not seemed so before; it had appeared probable enough, +nay, with many coincidences in its favour. And he had even been +conscious of something like disappointment to find that it was not true. +But now it seemed to him too absurd for credence; and what creature in +the world, except himself, could have known the circumstances that made +it possible? No one but Williams, and Williams was true. + +It was not till next morning that the ordinary habits of the household +could be said to be in any measure resumed. On that day Bice came down +to breakfast with Sir Tom with a smiling brightness which cheered his +solitary heart. She had gone back out of all her finery to the simple +black frock, which she told him had been the easiest thing to carry. +This was in answer to his question, "How had she come? Had the Contessa +sent her?" Bice clapped her hands with pleasure, and recounted how she +had run away. + +"The news were always bad, more bad; and Milady all alone. At length the +time came when I could bear it no longer. I love him, my little Tom; and +Milady has always been kind, so kind, more kind than any one. Nobody has +been kind to me like her, and also you, Sir Tom; and baby that was my +darling," the girl said. + +"God bless you, my dear," said Sir Tom; "but," he added, "you should not +have done it. You should have remembered the infection." + +Bice made a little face of merry disdain and laughed aloud. "Do I care +for infection? Love is more strong than a fever. And then," she added, +"I had a purpose too." + +Sir Tom was delighted with her girlish confidences about her frock and +her purpose. "Something very grave, I should imagine, from those looks." + +"Oh, it is very grave," said Bice, her countenance changing. "You know I +am _fiancee_. There has been a good deal said to me of Lord Montjoie; +sometimes that he was not wise, what you call silly, not clever, not +good to have to do with. That he is not clever one can see; but what +then? The clever they do not always please. Others say that he is a +great _parti_, and all that is desirable. Myself," she added with an air +of judicial impartiality, "I like him well enough; even when he does not +please me, he amuses. The clever they are not always amusing. I am +willing to marry him since it is wished, otherwise I do not care much. +For there is, you know, plenty of time, and to marry so soon--it is a +disappointment, it is no longer exciting. So it is not easy to know +distinctly what to do. That is what you call a dilemma," Bice said. + +"It is a serious dilemma," said Sir Tom, much amused and flattered too. +"You want me then to give you my advice----" + +"No," said Bice, which made his countenance suddenly blank, "not advice. +I have thought of a way. All say that it is almost wicked, at least very +wrong to come here (in the Tauchnitz it would be miserable to be afraid, +and so I think), and that the fever is more than everything. Now for me +it is not so. If Lord Montjoie is of my opinion, and if he thinks I am +right to come, then I shall know that, though he is not clever---- Yes; +that is my purpose. Do you think I shall be right?" + +"I see," said Sir Tom, though he looked somewhat crestfallen. "You have +come not so much for us, though you are kindly disposed towards us, but +to put your future husband to the test. There is only this drawback, +that he might be an excellent fellow and yet object to the step you have +taken. Also that these sort of tests are very risky, and that it is +scarcely worth while for this, to run the risk of a bad illness, perhaps +of your life." + +"That is unjust," said Bice with tears in her eyes. "I should have come +to Milady had there been no Montjoie at all. It is first and above all +for her sake. I will have a fever for her, oh willingly!" cried the +girl. Then she added after a little pause: "Why did she bid me 'go to +your father and tell him----?' What does that mean, go to my father? I +have never had any father." + +"Did she say that?" Sir Tom cried. "When? and why?" + +"It was when all seemed without hope. She was kneeling by the bed, and +he, my little boy, my little darling! Ah," cried Bice, with a shiver. +"To think it should have been so near! when God put that into her mind +to save him. She said 'Go to your father, and tell him my boy is dying.' +What did she mean? I came to you; but you are not my father." + +He had risen up in great agitation and was walking about the room. When +she said these words he came up to her and laid his hand for a moment on +her head. "No," he said, with a sense of loss which was painful; "No, +the more's the pity, Bice. God bless you, my dear." + +His voice was tremulous, his hand shook a little. The girl took it in +her pretty way and kissed it. "You have been as good to me as if it were +so. But tell me what Milady means? for at that moment she would say +nothing but what was at the bottom of her heart." + +"I cannot tell you, Bice," said Sir Tom, almost with tears. "If I have +made her unhappy, my Lucy, who is better than any of us, what do I +deserve? what should be done to me? And she has been unhappy, she has +lost her faith in me. I see it all now." + +Bice sat and looked at him with her eyes full of thought. She was not a +novice in life though she was so young. She had heard many a tale not +adapted for youthful ears. That a child might have a father whose name +she did not bear and who had never been disclosed to her was not +incomprehensible, as it would have been to an English girl. She looked +him severely in the face, like a young Daniel come to judgment. Had she +been indeed his child to what a terrible ordeal would Sir Tom have been +exposed under the light of those steady eyes. "Is it true that you have +made her unhappy?" she said, as if she had the power of death in her +hands. + +"No!" he said, with a sudden outburst of feeling. "No! there are things +in my life that I would not have raked up; but since I have known her, +nothing; there is no offence to her in any record of my life----" + +Bice looked at him still unfaltering. "You forget us--the Contessa and +me. You brought us, though she did not know. We are not like her, but +you brought us to her house. Nevertheless," said the young judge +gravely, "that might be unthoughtful, but not a wrong to her. Is it +perhaps a mistake?" + +"A mistake or a slander, or--some evil tongue," he cried. + +Bice rose up from the chair which had been her bench of justice, and +walked to the door with a stately step, befitting her office, full of +thought. Then she paused again for a moment and looked back and waved +her hand. "I think it is a pity," she said with great gravity. She +recognised the visionary fitness as he had done. They would have suited +each other, when it was thus suggested to them, for father and +daughter; and that it was not so, by some spite of fate, was a pity. She +found Lucy dressed and refreshed sitting by the bed of the child, who +had already begun to smile faintly. "Milady," said Bice, "will you go +downstairs? There is a long time that you have not spoken to Sir Tom. Is +he afraid of your fever? No more than me! But his heart is breaking for +you. Go to him, Milady, and I will stay with the boy." + +It was not for some time that Lucy could be persuaded to go. He +had--others. What was she to him but a portion of his life? and the +child was all of hers: a small portion of his life only a few years, +while the others had a far older and stronger claim. There was no anger +in her mind, all hushed in the exhaustion of great suffering past, but a +great reluctance to enter upon the question once more. Lucy wished only +to be left in quiet. She went slowly, reluctantly, downstairs. Unhappy? +No. He had not made her unhappy. Nothing could make her unhappy now that +her child was saved. It seemed to Lucy that it was she who had been ill +and was getting better, and she longed to be left alone. Sir Tom was +standing against the window with his head upon his hand. He did not hear +her light step till she was close to him. Then he turned round, but not +with the eagerness for her which Bice had represented. He took her hand +gently and drew it within his arm. + +"All is going well?" he said, "and you have had a little rest, my dear? +Bice has told me----" + +She withdrew a little the hand which lay on his arm. "He is much +better," she said; "more than one would have thought possible." + +"Thank God!" Sir Tom cried; and they were silent for a moment, united +in thanksgiving, yet so divided, with a sickening gulf between them. +Lucy felt her heart begin to stir and ache that had been so quiet. "And +you," he said, "have had a little rest? Thank God for that too. Anything +that had happened to him would have been bad enough; but to you, +Lucy----" + +"Oh, hush, hush," she cried, "that is over; let us not speak of anything +happening to him." + +"But all is not over," he said. "Something has happened--to us. What did +you mean when you spoke to me of others? 'You have others.' I scarcely +noticed it at that dreadful moment; but now---- Who are those others, +Lucy? Whom have I but him and you?" + +She did not say anything, but withdrew her hand altogether from his arm, +and looked at him. A look scarcely reproachful, wistful, sorrowful, +saying, but not in words, in its steady gaze--You know. + +He answered as if it had been speech. + +"But I don't know. What is it, Lucy? Bice too has something she asked me +to explain, and I cannot explain it. You said to her, 'Go to your +father.' What is this? You must tell what you mean." + +"Bice?" she said, faltering; "it was at a moment when I did not think +what I was saying." + +"No, when you spoke out that perilous stuff you have got in your heart. +Oh, my Lucy, what is it, and who has put it there?" + +"Tom," she said, trembling very much. "It is not Bice; she--that--is +long ago--if her mother had been dead. But a man cannot have two lives. +There cannot be two in the same place. It is not jealousy. I am not +finding fault. It has been perhaps without intention; but it is not +befitting--oh, not befitting. It cannot--oh, it is impossible! it must +not be." + +"What must not be? Of what in the name of heaven are you speaking?" he +cried. + +Once more she fixed on him that look, more reproachful this time, full +of meaning and grieved surprise. She drew away a little from his side. +"I did not want to speak," she said. "I was so thankful; I want to say +nothing. You thought you had left that other life behind; perhaps you +forgot altogether. They say that people do. And now it is here at your +side, and on the other side my little boy and me. Ah! no, no, it is not +befitting, it cannot be----" + +"I understand dimly," he said; "they have told you Bice was my child. I +wish it were so. I had a child, Lucy, it is true, who is dead in +Florence long ago. The mother is dead too, long ago. It is so long past +that, if you can believe it, I had--forgotten." + +"Dead!" she said. And there came into her mild eyes a scared and +frightened look. "And--the Contessa?" + +"The Contessa!" he cried. + +They were standing apart gazing at each other with something more like +the heat of a passionate debate than had ever arisen between them, or +indeed seemed possible to Lucy's tranquil nature, when the door was +suddenly opened and the voice of Williams saying, "Sir Thomas is here, +my lady," reduced them both in an instant to silence. Then there was a +bustle and a movement, and of all wonderful sights to meet their eyes, +the Contessa herself came with hesitation into the room. She had her +handkerchief pressed against the lower part of her face, from above +which her eyes looked out watchfully. She gave a little shriek at the +sight of Lucy. "I thought," she said, "Sir Tom was alone. Lucy, my +angel, my sweetest, do not come near me!" She recoiled to the door which +Williams had just closed. "I will say what I have to say here. Dearest +people, I love you, but you are charged with pestilence. My Lucy, how +glad I am for your little boy--but every moment they tell me increases +the danger. Where is Bice? Bice! I have come to bring her away." + +"Contessa," said Sir Tom, "you have come at a fortunate moment. Tell +Lady Randolph who Bice is. I think she has a right to know." + +"Who Bice is? But what has that to do with it? She is _fiancee_, she +belongs to more than herself. And there is the drawing-room in a +week--imagine, only in a week!--and how can she go into the presence of +the Queen full of infection? I acknowledge, I acknowledge," cried the +Contessa, through her handkerchief, "you have been very kind--oh, more +than kind. But why then now will you spoil all? It might make a +revolution--it might convey to Majesty herself---- Ah! it might spoil all +the child's prospects. Who is she? Why should you reproach me with my +little mystery now? She is all that is most natural; Guido's child, whom +you remember well enough, Sir Tom, who married my poor little sister, my +little girl who followed me, who would do as I did. You know all this, +for I have told you. They are all dead, all dead--how can you make me +talk of them? And Bice perhaps with the fever in her veins, ready to +communicate it--to Majesty herself, to me, to every one!" + +The Contessa sank down on a chair by the door. She drew forth her fan, +which hung by her side, and fanned away from her this air of pestilence. +"The child must come back at once," she said, with little cries and +sobs--an _acces de nerfs_, if these simple people had known--through her +handkerchief. "Let her come at once, and we may conceal it still. She +shall have baths. She shall be fumigated. I will not see her or let her +be seen. She shall have a succession of headaches. This is what I have +said to Montjoie. Imagine me out in the air, that is so bad for the +complexion, at this hour! But I think of nothing in comparison with the +interests of Bice. Send for her. Lucy, sweet one, you would not spoil +her prospects. Send for her--before it is known." Then she laughed with +a hysterical vehemence. "I see; some one has been telling her it was the +poor little child whom you left with me, whom I watched over--yes, I was +good to the little one. I am not a hard-hearted woman. Lucy: it was I +who put this thought into your mind. I said--of English parentage. I +meant you to believe so--that you might give something, when you were +giving so much, to my poor Bice. What was wrong? I said you would be +glad one day that you had helped her:--yes--and I allowed also my enemy +the Dowager, to believe it." + +"To believe _that_." Lucy stood out alone in the middle of the room, +notwithstanding the shrinking back to the wall of the visitor, whose +alarm was far more visible than any other emotion. "To believe +_that_--that she was your child, and----" + +Something stopped Lucy's mouth. She drew back, her pale face dyed with +crimson, her whole form quivering with remorse and pain as of one who +has given a cowardly and cruel blow. + +The Contessa rose. She stood up against the wall. It did not seem to +occur to her what kind of terrible accusation this was, but only that +it was something strange, incomprehensible. She withdrew for a moment +the handkerchief from her mouth. "My child? But I have never had a +child!" she said. + +"Lucy," cried Sir Tom in a terrible voice. + +And then Lucy stood aghast between them, looking from one to another. +The scales seemed to fall from her eyes. The perfectly innocent when +they fall under the power of suspicion go farthest in that bitter way. +They take no limit of possibility into their doubts and fears. They do +not think of character or nature. Now, in a moment the scales fell from +Lucy's eyes. Was her husband a man to treat her with such unimaginable +insult? Was the Contessa, with all her triumphant designs, her +mendacities, her mendicities, her thirst for pleasure, such a woman? +Whoever said it, could this be true? + +The Contessa perceived with a start that her hand had dropped from her +mouth. She put back the handkerchief again with tremulous eagerness. "If +I take it, all will go wrong--all will fall to pieces," she said +pathetically. "Lucy, dear one, do not come near me, but send me Bice, if +you love me," the Contessa cried. She smiled with her eyes, though her +mouth was covered. She had not so much as understood, she, so +experienced, so acquainted with the wicked world, so _connaisseuse_ in +evil tales--she had not even so much as divined what innocent Lucy meant +to say. + + + + +CHAPTER LII. + +THE END. + + +Bice was taken away in the cab, there being no reason why she should +remain in a house where Lucy was no longer lonely or heartbroken--but +not by her patroness, who was doubly her aunt, but did not love that +old-fashioned title, and did love a mystery. The Contessa would not +trust herself in the same vehicle with the girl who had come out of +little Tom's nursery, and was no doubt charged with pestilence. She +walked, marvel of marvels, with a thick veil over her face, and Sir Tom, +in amused attendance, looking with some curiosity through the gauze at +this wonder of a spring morning which she had not seen for years. Bice, +for her part, was conveyed by the old woman who waited in the cab, the +mother of one of the servants in the Mayfair house, to her humble home, +where the girl was fumigated and disinfected to the Contessa's desire. +She was presented a week after, the strictest secrecy being kept about +these proceedings; and mercifully, as a matter of fact, did not convey +infection either to the Contessa or to the still more distinguished +ladies with whom she came in contact. What a day for Madame di +Forno-Populo! There was nothing against her. The Duchess had spent an +anxious week, inquiring everywhere. She had pledged herself in a weak +hour; but though the men laughed, that was all. Not even in the clubs +was there any story to be got hold of. The Duchess had a son-in-law who +was clever in gossip. He said there was nothing, and the Lord +Chamberlain made no objection. The Contessa di Forno-Populo had not +indeed, she said loftily, ever desired to make her appearance before the +Piedmontese; but she had the stamp upon her, though partially worn out, +of the old Grand Ducal Court of Tuscany--which many people think more +of--and these two stately Italian ladies made as great a sensation by +their beauty and their stately air as had been made at any drawing-room +in the present reign. The most august and discriminating of critics +remarked them above all others. And a Lady, whose knowledge of family +history is unrivalled, like her place in the world, condescended to +remember that the Conte di Forno-Populo had married an English lady. +Their dresses were specially described by Lady Anastasia in her +favourite paper; and their portraits were almost recognisable in the +_Graphic_, which gave a special (fancy) picture of the drawing-room in +question. Triumph could not farther go. + +It was not till after this event that Bice revealed the purpose which +was one of her inducements for that visit to little Tom's sick bed. On +the evening of that great day, just before going out in all her +splendour to the Duchess's reception held on that occasion, she took her +lover aside, whose pride in her magnificence and all the applause that +had been lavished on her knew no bounds. + +"Listen," she said, "I have something to tell you. Perhaps, when you +hear it, all will be over. I have not allowed you to come near me nor +touch me----" + +"No, by Jove! It has been stand off, indeed! I don't know what you mean +by it," cried Montjoie ruefully; "that wasn't what I bargained for, +don't you know?" + +"I am going to explain," said Bice. "You shall know, then, that when I +had those headaches--you remember--and you could not see me, I had no +headaches, _mon ami_. I was with Milady Randolph in Park Lane, in the +middle of the fever, nursing the boy." + +Montjoie gazed at her with round eyes. He recoiled a step, then rushing +at his betrothed, notwithstanding her Court plumes and flounces, got +Bice in his arms. "By Jove!" he cried, "and that was why! You thought I +was frightened of the fever; that is the best joke I have heard for +ages, don't you know? What a pluck you've got, Bee! And what a beauty +you are, my pretty dear! I am going to pay myself all the arrears." + +"Don't," said Bice, plaintively; the caresses were not much to her mind, +but she endured them to a certain limit. "I wondered," she said with a +faint sigh, "what you would say." + +"It was awfully silly," said Montjoie. "I couldn't have believed you +were so soft, Bee, with your training, don't you know? And how did you +come over _her_ to let you go? She was in a dead funk all the time. It +was awfully silly; you might have caught it, or given it to me, or a +hundred things, and lost all your fun; but it was awfully plucky," cried +Montjoie, "by Jove! I knew you were a plucky one;" and he added, after a +moment's reflection, in a softened tone, "a good little girl too." + +It was thus that Bice's fate was sealed. + +That afternoon Lucy received a note from Lady Randolph in the following +words:-- + + "DEAREST LUCY--I am more glad than I can tell you to hear the good + news of the dear boy. Probably he will be stronger now than he has + ever been, having got over this so well. + + "I want to tell you not to think any more of what I said _that_ + day. I hope it has not vexed you. I find that my informant was + entirely mistaken, and acted upon a misconception all the time. I + can't tell how sorry I am ever to have mentioned such a thing; but + it seemed to be on the very best authority. I do hope it has not + made any coolness between Tom and you. + + "Don't take the trouble to answer this. There is nothing that + carries infection like letters, and I inquire after the boy every + day.--Your loving + + M. RANDOLPH." + +"It was not her fault," said Lucy, sobbing upon her husband's shoulder. +"I should have known you better, Tom." + +"I think so, my dear," he said quietly, "though I have been more foolish +than a man of my age ought to be; but there is no harm in the Contessa, +Lucy." + +"No," Lucy said, yet with a grave face. "But Bice will be made a +sacrifice: Bice, and----" she added with a guilty look, "I shall have +thrown away that money, for it has not saved her." + +"Here is a great deal of money," said Sir Tom, drawing a letter from his +pocket, "which seems also in a fair way of being thrown away." + +He took out the list which Lucy had given to her trustee, which Mr. +Chervil had returned to her husband, and held it out before her. It was +a very curious document, an experiment in the way of making poor people +rich. The names were of people of whom Lucy knew very little personally; +and yet it had not been done without thought. There was nobody there to +whom such a gift might not mean deliverance from many cares. In the +abstract it was not throwing anything away. Perhaps, had there been some +public commission to reward with good incomes the struggling and +honourable, these might not have been the chosen names; but yet it was +all legitimate, honest, in the light of Lucy's exceptional position. +The husband and wife stood and looked at it together in this moment of +their reunion, when both had escaped from the deadliest perils that +could threaten life--the loss of their child, the loss of their union. +It was hard to tell which would have been the most mortal blow. + +"He says I must prevent you; that you cannot have thought what you were +doing; that it is madness, Lucy." + +"I think I was nearly mad," said Lucy simply. "I thought to get rid of +it whatever might happen to me--that was best." + +"Let us look at it now in our full senses," said Sir Tom. + +Lucy grasped his arm with both her hands. "Tom," she said in a hurried +tone, "this is the only thing in which I ever set myself against you. It +was the beginning of all our trouble; and I might have to do that again. +What does it matter if perhaps we might do it more wisely now? All these +people are poor, and there is the money to make them well off; that is +what my father meant. He meant it to be scattered again, like seed given +back to the reaper. He used to say so. Shall not we let it go as it is, +and be done with it and avoid trouble any more?" + +He stood holding her in his arms, looking over the paper. It was a great +deal of money. To sacrifice a great deal of money does not affect a +young woman who has never known any need of it in her life, but a man in +middle age who knows all about it, that makes a great difference. Many +thoughts passed through the mind of Sir Tom. It was a moment in which +Lucy's heart was very soft. She was ready to do anything for the husband +to whom, she thought, she had been unjust. And it was hard upon him to +diminish his own importance and cut off at a stroke by such a sacrifice +half the power and importance of the wealth which was his, though Lucy +might be the source of it. Was he to consent to this loss, not even +wisely, carefully arranged, but which might do little good to any one, +and to him harm unquestionable? He stood silent for some time thinking, +almost disposed to tear up the paper and throw it away. But then he +began to reflect of other things more important than money; of unbroken +peace and happiness; of Lucy's faithful, loyal spirit that would never +be satisfied with less than the entire discharge of her trust, of the +full accord, never so entirely comprehensive and understanding as now, +that had been restored between them; and of the boy given back from the +gates of hell, from the jaws of death. It was no small struggle. He had +to conquer a hundred hesitations, the disapproval, the resistance of his +own mind. It was with a hand that shook a little that he put it back. +"That little beggar," he said, with his old laugh--though not his old +laugh, for in this one there was a sound of tears--"will be a hundred +thousand or so the poorer. Do you think he'd mind, if we were to ask +him? Come, here is a kiss upon the bargain. The money shall go, and a +good riddance, Lucy. There is now nothing between you and me." + +Bice was married at the end of the season, in the most fashionable +church, in the most correct way. Montjoie's plain cousins had +asked--asked! without a sign of enmity!--to be bridesmaids, "as she had +no sisters of her own, poor thing!" Montjoie declared that he was "ready +to split" at their cheek in asking, and in calling Bice "poor thing," +she who was the most fortunate girl in the world. The Contessa took the +good the gods provided her, without grumbling at the fate which +transferred to her the little fortune which had been given to Bice to +keep her from a mercenary marriage. It was not a mercenary marriage, in +the ordinary sense of the word. To Bice's mind it was simply fulfilling +her natural career; and she had no dislike to Montjoie. She liked him +well enough. He had answered well to her test. He was not clever, to be +sure; but what then? She was well enough content, if not rapturous, when +she walked out of the church Marchioness of Montjoie on her husband's +arm. There was a large and fashionable assembly, it need not be said. +Lucy, in a first place, looking very wistful, wondering if the girl was +happy, and Sir Tom saying to himself it was very well that he had no +more to do with it than as a friend. There were two other spectators who +looked upon the ceremony with still more serious countenances, a man and +a boy, restored to each other as dearest friends. They watched all the +details of the service with unfailing interest, but when the beautiful +bride came down the aisle on her husband's arm, they turned with one +accord and looked at each other. They had been quite still until that +point, making no remark. She passed them by, walking as if on air, as +she always walked, though ballasted now for ever by that duller being at +her side. She was not subdued under her falling veil, like so many +brides, but saw everything, them among the rest, as she passed, and +showed by a half smile her recognition of their presence. There was no +mystic veil of sentiment about her; no consciousness of any mystery. She +walked forth bravely, smiling, to meet life and the world. What was +there in that beautiful, beaming creature to suggest a thought of +future necessity, trouble, or the most distant occasion for help or +succour? Perhaps it is a kind of revenge we take upon too great +prosperity to say to ourselves: "There may come a time!" + +These two spectators made their way out slowly among the crowd. They +walked a long way towards their after destination without a word. Then +Mr. Derwentwater spoke: + +"If there should ever come a time when we can help her, or be of use to +her, you and I--for the time must come when she will find out she has +chosen evil instead of good----" + +"Oh, humbug!" cried Jock roughly, with a sharpness in his tone which was +its apology. "She has done what she always meant to do--and that is what +she likes best." + +"Nevertheless----" said MTutor with a sigh. + + + +--------------------------------------------------------------+ + | TRANSCRIBER'S NOTE:- | + | | + | The following printers spelling errors have been corrected:- | + | | + | Page 66 | + | 'direst' to 'divest' | + | 'could not yet divest himself' | + | | + | Page 278 | + | 'down' to 'done' | + | 'as a simple girl might have done' | + | | + | Page 397 | + | 'pyschological' to 'psychological' | + | 'any attempt at psychological investigation' | + | | + | Page 470 | + | 'unforgetable' to 'unforgettable' | + | 'almost forgotten, yet unforgettable' | + | | + | The following word has been changed on page 138:- | + | | + | 'uncle' to 'father' | + | There is no previous mention of an uncle and the title | + | 'father' makes more sense in the context of the story. | + | | + +--------------------------------------------------------------+ + + + THE END. + + + _Printed by_ R. & R. 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