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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/4462-0.txt b/4462-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..f8849a7 --- /dev/null +++ b/4462-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,1933 @@ +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 4462 *** + +THE TRAGIC COMEDIANS + +A STUDY IN A WELL-KNOWN STORY + +By George Meredith + +1892 + + + +BOOK 2. + +CHAPTER VII + +He was down on the plains to her the second day, and as usual when they +met, it was as if they had not parted; his animation made it seem so. He +was like summer's morning sunlight, his warmth striking instantly through +her blood dispersed any hesitating strangeness that sometimes gathers +during absences, caused by girlish dread of a step to take, or shame at +the step taken, when coldish gentlemen rather create these backflowings +and gaps in the feelings. She had grown reconciled to the perturbation +of his messages, and would have preferred to have him startling and +thrilling her from a distance; but seeing him, she welcomed him, and +feeling in his bright presence not the faintest chill of the fit of +shyness, she took her bravery of heart for a sign that she had reached +his level, and might own it by speaking of the practical measures to lead +to their union. On one subject sure to be raised against him by her +parents, she had a right to be inquisitive: the baroness. + +She asked to see a photograph of her. + +Alvan gave her one out of his pocketbook, and watched her eyelids in +profile as she perused those features of the budless grey woman. The +eyelids in such scrutinies reveal the critical mind; Clotilde's drooped +till they almost closed upon their lashes--deadly criticism. + +'Think of her age,' said Alvan, colouring. He named a grandmaternal date +for the year of the baroness's birth. + +Her eyebrows now stood up; her contemplation of those disenchanting +lineaments came to an abrupt finish. + +She returned the square card to him, slowly shaking her head, still +eyeing earth as her hand stretched forth the card laterally. He could +not contest the woeful verdict. + +'Twenty years back!' he murmured, writhing. The baroness was a woman +fair to see in the days twenty years back, though Clotilde might think it +incredible: she really was once. + +Clotilde resumed her doleful shaking of the head; she sighed. He +shrugged; she looked at him, and he blinked a little. For the first time +since they had come together she had a clear advantage, and as it was +likely to be a rare occasion, she did not let it slip. She sighed again. +He was wounded by her underestimate of his ancient conquest. + +'Yes--now,' he said, impatiently. + +'I cannot feel jealousy, I cannot feel rivalry,' said she, sad of voice. + +The humour of her tranced eyes in the shaking head provoked him to defend +the baroness for her goodness of heart, her energy of brain. + +Clotilde 'tolled' her naughty head. + +'But it is a strong face,' she said, 'a strong face--a strong jaw, by +Lavater! You were young--and daringly adventurous; she was captivating +in her distress. Now she is old--and you are friends.' + +'Friends, yes,' Alvan replied, and praised the girl, as of course she +deserved to be praised for her open mind. + +'We are friends!' he said, dropping a deep-chested breath. The title +this girl scornfully supplied was balm to the vanity she had stung, and +his burnt skin was too eager for a covering of any sort to examine the +mood of the giver. She had positively humbled him so far as with a +single word to relieve him; for he had seen bristling chapters in her +look at the photograph. Yet for all the natural sensitiveness of the +man's vanity, he did not seek to bury the subject at the cost of a +misconception injurious in the slightest degree to the sentiments he +entertained toward the older lady as well as the younger. 'Friends! +you are right; good friends; only you should know that it is just a +little--a trifle different. The fact is, I cannot kill the past, and I +would not. It would try me sharply to break the tie connecting us, were +it possible to break it. I am bound to her by gratitude. She is old +now; and were she twice that age, I should retain my feeling for her. +You raise your eyes, Clotilde! Well, when I was much younger I found +this lady in desperate ill-fortune, and she honoured me with her +confidence. Young man though I was, I defended her; I stopped at no +measure to defend her: against a powerful husband, remember--the most +unscrupulous of foes, who sought to rob her of every right she possessed. +And what I did then I again would do. I was vowed to her interests, to +protect a woman shamefully wronged; I did not stick at trifles, as you +know; you have read my speech in defence of myself before the court. By +my interpretation of the case, I was justified; but I estranged my family +and made the world my enemy. I gave my time and money, besides the +forfeit of reputation, to the case, and reasonably there was an +arrangement to repay me out of the estate reserved for her, so that the +baroness should not be under the degradation of feeling herself indebted. +You will not think that out of the way: men of the world do not. As for +matters of the heart between us, we're as far apart as the Poles.' + +He spoke hurriedly. He had said all that could be expected of him. + +They were in a wood, walking through lines of spruce firs of deep golden +green in the yellow beams. One of these trees among its well-robed +fellows fronting them was all lichen-smitten. From the low sweeping +branches touching earth to the plumed top, the tree was dead-black as its +shadow; a vision of blackness. + +'I will compose a beautiful, dutiful, modest, oddest, beseeching, +screeching, mildish, childish epistle to her, and you shall read it, and +if you approve it, we shall despatch it,' said Clotilde. + +'There speaks my gold-crested serpent at her wisest!' replied Alvan. +'And now for my visit to your family: I follow you in a day. En avant! +contre les canons! A run to Lake Leman brings us to them in the +afternoon. I shall see you in the evening. So our separation won't be +for long this time. All the auspices are good. We shall not be rich-- +nor poor.' + +Clotilde reminded him that a portion of money would be brought to the +store by her. + +'We don't count it,' said he. 'Not rich, certainly. And you will not +expect me to make money by my pen. Above all things I detest the writing +for money. Fiction and verse appeal to a besotted public, that judges of +the merit of the work by the standard of its taste: avaunt! And +journalism for money is Egyptian bondage. No slavery is comparable to +the chains of hired journalism. My pen is my fountain--the key of me; +and I give my self, I do not sell. I write when I have matter in me and +in the direction it presses for, otherwise not one word!' + +'I would never ask you to sell yourself,' said Clotilde. 'I would rather +be in want of common comforts.' + +He squeezed her wrist. They were again in front of the black-draped +blighted tree. It was the sole tree of the host clad thus in scurf +bearing a semblance of livid metal. They looked at it as having seen it +before, and passed on. + +'But the wife of Sigismund Alvan will not be poor in renown!' he resumed, +radiating his full bloom on her. + +'My highest ambition is to be Sigismund Alvan's wife!' she exclaimed. + +To hear her was as good as wine, and his heart came out on a genial +chuckle. 'Ay, the choice you have made is not, by heaven, so bad. +Sigismund Alvan's wife shall take the foremost place of all. Look at +me.' He lifted his head to the highest on his shoulders, widening his +eagle eyes. He was now thoroughly restored and in his own upper element, +expansive after the humiliating contraction of his man's vanity under the +glances of a girl. 'Do you take me for one who could be content with the +part of second? I will work and do battle unceasingly, but I will have +too the prize of battle to clasp it, savour it richly. I was not +fashioned to be the lean meek martyr of a cause, not I. I carry too +decisive a weight in the balance to victory. I have a taste for fruits, +my fairest! And Republics, my bright Lutetia, can give you splendid +honours.' He helped her to realize this with the assuring splendour of +his eyes. + +'"Bride of the Elect of the People!" is not that as glorious a title, +think you, as queen of an hereditary sovereign mumbling of God's grace on +his worm-eaten throne? I win that seat by service, by the dedication of +this brain to the people's interests. They have been ground to the dust, +and I lift them, as I did a persecuted lady in my boyhood. I am the +soldier of justice against the army of the unjust. But I claim my +reward. If I live to fight, I live also to enjoy. I will have my +station. I win it not only because I serve, but because also I have +seen, have seen ahead, seen where all is dark, read the unwritten-- +because I am soldier and prophet. The brain of man is Jove's eagle and +his lightning on earth--the title to majesty henceforth. Ah! my +fairest; entering the city beside me, and the people shouting around, she +would not think her choice a bad one?' + +Clotilde made sign and gave some earnest on his arm of ecstatic hugging. + +'We may have hard battles, grim deceptions, to go through before that day +comes,' he continued after a while. 'The day is coming, but we must wait +for it, work on. I have the secret of how to head the people--to put a +head to their movement and make it irresistible, as I believe it will be +beneficent. I set them moving on the lines of the law of things. I am +no empty theorizer, no phantasmal speculator; I am the man of science in +politics. When my system is grasped by the people, there is but a step +to the realization of it. One step. It will be taken in my time, or +acknowledged later. I stand for index to the people of the path they +should take to triumph--must take, as triumph they must sooner or later: +not by the route of what is called Progress--pooh! That is a middle- +class invention to effect a compromise. With the people the matter rests +with their intelligence! meanwhile my star is bright and shines +reflected.' + +'I notice,' she said, favouring him with as much reflection as a splendid +lover could crave for, 'that you never look down, you never look on the +ground, but always either up or straight before you.' + +'People have remarked it,' said he, smiling. 'Here we are at this +funereal tree again. All roads lead to Rome, and ours appears to conduct +us perpetually to this tree. It 's the only dead one here.' + +He sighted the plumed black top and along the swelling branches +decorously clothed in decay: a salted ebon moss when seen closely; the +small grey particles giving a sick shimmer to the darkness of the mass. +It was very witch-like, of a witch in her incantation-smoke. + +'Not a single bare spot! but dead, dead as any peeled and fallen!' said +Alvan, fingering a tuft of the sooty snake-lichen. 'This is a tree for a +melancholy poet--eh, Clotilde?--for him to come on it by moonlight, after +a scene with his mistress, or tales of her! By the way and by the way, +my fair darling, let me never think of your wearing this kind of garb for +me, should I be ordered off the first to join the dusky army below. +Women who put on their dead husbands in public are not well-mannered +women, though they may be excellent professional widows, excellent!' + +He snapped the lichen-dust from his fingers, observing that he was not +sure the contrast of the flourishing and blighted was not more impressive +in sunlight: and then he looked from the tree to his true love's hair. +The tree at a little distance seemed run over with sunless lizards: her +locks were golden serpents. + +'Shall I soon see your baroness?' Clotilde asked him. + +'Not in advance of the ceremony,' he answered. 'In good time. You +understand--an old friend making room for a new one, and that one young +and beautiful, with golden tresses; at first . . . ! But her heart is +quite sound. Have no fear! I guarantee it; I know her to the roots. +She desires my welfare, she does my behests. If I am bound to her by +gratitude, so, and in a greater degree, is she to me. The utmost she +will demand is that my bride shall be worthy of me--a good mate for me +in the fight to come; and I have tested my bride and found her half my +heart; therefore she passes the examination with the baroness.' + +They left the tree behind them. + +'We will take good care not to return this way again,' said Alvan, +without looking back. 'That tree belongs to a plantation of the under +world; its fellows grow in the wood across Acheron, and that tree has +looked into the ghastliness of the flood and seen itself. Hecate and +Hermes know about it. Phoebus cannot light it. That tree stands for +Death blooming. We think it sinister, but down there it is a homely +tree. Down there! When do we go? The shudder in that tree is the air +exchanging between Life and Death--the ghosts going and coming: it's on +the border line. I just felt the creep. I think you did. The reason +is--there is always a material reason--that you were warm, and a bit of +chill breeze took you as you gazed; while for my part I was imagining at +that very moment what of all possible causes might separate us, and I +acknowledged that death could do the trick. But death, my love, is far +from us two!' + +'Does she look as grimmish as she does in the photograph?' said Clotilde. + +'Who? the baroness?' Alvan laughed. The baroness was not so easily +defended from a girl as from her husband, it appeared. 'She is the best +of comrades, best of friends. She has her faults; may not relish the +writ announcing her final deposition, but be you true to me, and as true +as she has unfailingly been to me, she will be to you. That I can +promise. My poor Lucie! She is winter, if you will. It is not the +winter of the steppes; you may compare her to winter in a noble country; +a fine landscape of winter. The outlines of her face . . . . She has +a great brain. How much I owe that woman for instruction! You meet now +and then men who have the woman in them without being womanized; they are +the pick of men. And the choicest women are those who yield not a +feather of their womanliness for some amount of manlike strength. And +she is one; man's brain, woman's heart. I thought her unique till I +heard of you. And how do I stand between you two? She has the only +fault you can charge me with; she is before me in time, as I am before +you. Shall I spoil you as she spoilt me? No, no! Obedience to a boy +is the recognition of the heir-apparent, and I respect the salique law as +much as I love my love. I do not offer obedience to a girl, but succour, +support. You will not rule me, but you will invigorate, and if you are +petted, you shall not be spoilt. Do not expect me to show like that +undertakerly tree till my years are one hundred. Even then it will be +dangerous to repose beneath my branches in the belief that I am sapless +because I have changed colour. We Jews have a lusty blood. We are +strong of the earth. We serve you, but you must minister to us. +Sensual? We have truly excellent appetites. And why not? Heroical too! +Soldiers, poets, musicians; the Gentile's masters in mental arithmetic-- +keenest of weapons: surpassing him in common sense and capacity for +brotherhood. Ay, and in charity; or what stores of vengeance should we +not have nourished! Already we have the money-bags. Soon we shall hold +the chief offices. And when the popular election is as unimpeded as the +coursing of the blood in a healthy body, the Jew shall be foremost and +topmost, for he is pre-eminently by comparison the brain of these latter- +day communities. But that is only my answer to the brutish contempt of +the Jew. I am no champion of a race. I am for the world, for man!' + +Clotilde remarked that he had many friends, all men of eminence, and a +large following among the people. + +He assented: 'Yes: Tresten, Retka, Kehlen, the Nizzian. Yes, if I were +other than for legality:--if it came to a rising, I could tell off able +lieutenants.' + +'Tell me of your interview with Ironsides,' she said proudly and fondly. + +'Would this ambitious little head know everything?' said Alvan, putting +his lips among the locks. 'Well, we met: he requested it. We agreed +that we were on neutral ground for the moment: that he might ultimately +have to decapitate me, or I to banish him, but temporarily we could +compare our plans for governing. He showed me his hand. I showed him +mine. We played open-handed, like two at whist. He did not doubt my +honesty, and I astonished him by taking him quite in earnest. He has +dealt with diplomatists, who imagine nothing but shuffling: the old +Ironer! I love him for his love of common sense, his contempt of mean +deceit. He will outwit you, but his dexterity is a giant's--a simple +evolution rapidly performed: and nothing so much perplexes pygmies! +Then he has them, bagsful of them! The world will see; and see giant +meet giant, I suspect. He and I proposed each of us in the mildest +manner contrary schemes--schemes to stiffen the hair of Europe! Enough +that we parted with mutual respect. He is a fine fellow: and so was my +friend the Emperor Tiberius, and so was Richelieu. Napoleon was a fine +engine:--there is a difference. Yes, Ironsides is a fine fellow! but he +and I may cross. His ideas are not many. The point to remember is that +he is iron on them: he can drive them hard into the density of the globe. +He has quick nerves and imagination: he can conjure up, penetrate, and +traverse complications--an enemy's plans, all that the enemy will be able +to combine, and the likeliest that he will do. Good. We opine that we +are equal to the same. He is for kingcraft to mask his viziercraft--and +save him the labour of patiently attempting oratory and persuasion, which +accomplishment he does not possess:--it is not in iron. We think the +more precious metal will beat him when the broader conflict comes. But +such an adversary is not to be underrated. I do not underrate him: and +certainly not he me. Had he been born with the gifts of patience and a +fluent tongue, and not a petty noble, he might have been for the people, +as knowing them the greater power. He sees that their knowledge of their +power must eventually come to them. In the meantime his party is +forcible enough to assure him he is not fighting a losing game at +present: and he is, no doubt, by lineage and his traditions monarchical. +He is curiously simple, not really cynical. His apparent cynicism is +sheer irritability. His contemptuous phrases are directed against +obstacles: against things, persons, nations that oppose him or cannot +serve his turn against his king, if his king is restive; but he respects +his king: against your friends' country, because there is no fixing it to +a line of policy, and it seems to have collapsed; but he likes that +country the best in Europe after his own. He is nearest to contempt in +his treatment of his dupes and tools, who are dropped out of his mind +when he has quite squeezed them for his occasion; to be taken up again +when they are of use to him. Hence he will have no following. But let +me die to-morrow, the party I have created survives. In him you see the +dam, in me the stream. Judge, then, which of them gains the future!-- +admitting that, in the present he may beat me. He is a Prussian, stoutly +defined from a German, and yet again a German stoutly defined from our +borderers: and that completes him. He has as little the idea of humanity +as the sword of our Hermann, the cannon-ball of our Frederick. Observe +him. What an eye he has! I watched it as we were talking: and he has, I +repeat, imagination; he can project his mind in front of him as far as +his reasoning on the possible allows: and that eye of his flashes; and +not only flashes, you see it hurling a bolt; it gives me the picture of a +Balearic slinger about to whizz the stone for that eye looks far, and is +hard, and is dead certain of its mark-within his practical compass, as I +have said. I see farther, and I fancy I proved to him that I am not a +dreamer. In my opinion, when we cross our swords I stand a fair chance +of not being worsted. We shall: you shrink? Figuratively, my darling +have no fear! Combative as we may be, both of us, we are now grave +seniors, we have serious business: a party looks to him, my party looks +to me. Never need you fear that I shall be at sword or pistol with any +one. I will challenge my man, whoever he as that needs a lesson, to +touch buttons on a waistcoat with the button on the foil, or drill fiver +and eights in cards at twenty paces: but I will not fight him though he +offend me, for I am stronger than my temper, and as I do not want to take +his nip of life, and judge it to be of less value than mine, the +imperilling of either is an absurdity.' + +'Oh! because I know you are incapable of craven fear,' cried Clotilde, +answering aloud the question within herself of why she so much admired, +why she so fondly loved him. To feel his courage backing his high good +sense was to repose in security, and her knowledge that an astute self- +control was behind his courage assured her he was invincible. It seemed +to her, therefore, as they walked side by side, and she saw their +triumphant pair of figures in her fancy, natural that she should +instantly take the step to prepare her for becoming his Republican +Princess. She walked an equal with the great of the earth, by virtue of +her being the mate of the greatest of the great; she trod on some, and +she thrilled gratefully to the man who sustained her and shielded her on +that eminence. Elect of the people he! and by a vaster power than kings +can summon through the trumpet! She could surely pass through the trial +with her parents that she might step to the place beside him! She +pressed his arm to be physically a sharer of his glory. Was it love? +It was as lofty a stretch as her nature could strain to. + +She named the city on the shores of the great Swiss lake where her +parents were residing; she bade him follow her thither, and name the +hotel where he was to be found, the hour when he was to arrive. 'Am I +not precise as an office clerk?' she said, with a pleasant taste of the +reality her preciseness pictured. + +'Practical as the head of a State department,' said he, in good faith. + +'I shall not keep you waiting,' she resumed. + +'The sooner we are together after the action opens the better for our +success, my golden crest!' + +'Have no misgivings, Sigismund. You have transformed me. A spark of you +is in my blood. Come. I shall send word to your hotel when you are to +appear. But you will come, you will be there, I know. I know you so +entirely.' + +'As a rule, Lutetia, women know no more than half of a man even when they +have married him. At least you ought to know me. You know that if I +were to exercise my will firmly now--it would not waver if I called it +forth--I could carry you off and spare you the flutter you will have to +go through during our interlude with papa and mama.' + +'I almost wish you would,' said she. She looked half imploringly, biting +her lip to correct the peeping wish. + +Alvan pressed a finger on one of her dimples: 'Be brave. Flight and +defiance are our last resource. Now that I see you resolved I shun the +scandal, and we will leave it to them to insist on it, if it must be. +How can you be less than resolved after I have poured my influence into +your veins? The other day on the heights--had you consented then? Well! +it would have been very well, but not so well. We two have a future, and +are bound to make the opening chapters good sober reading, for an +example, if we can. I take you from your father's house, from your +mother's arms, from the "God speed" of your friends. That is how Alvan's +wife should be presented to the world.' + +Clotilde's epistle to the baroness was composed, approved, and +despatched. To a frigid eye it read as more hypocritical than it really +was; for supposing it had to be written, the language of the natural +impulse called up to write it was necessarily in request, and that +language is easily overdone, so as to be discordant with the situation, +while it is, as the writer feels, a fairly true and well-formed +expression of the pretty impulse. But wiser is it always that the star +in the ascendant should not address the one waning. Hardly can a word be +uttered without grossly wounding. She would not do it to a younger +rival: the letter strikes on the recipient's age! She babbles of a +friendship: she plays at childish ninny! The display of her ingenuous +happiness causes feminine nature's bosom to rise in surges. The +declarations of her devotedness to the man waken comparisons with a +deeper, a longer-tried suffering. Actually the letter of the rising star +assumes personal feeling to have died out of the abandoned luminary, and +personal feeling is chafed to its acutest edge by the perusal; contempt +also of one who can stupidly simulate such innocence, is roused. + +Among Alvan's gifts the understanding of women did not rank high. +He was too robust, he had been too successful. Your very successful hero +regards them as nine-pins destined to fall, the whole tuneful nine, at a +peculiar poetical twist of the bowler's wrist, one knocking down the +other--figuratively, for their scruples, or for their example with their +sisters. His tastes had led him into the avenues of success, and as he +had not encountered grand resistances, he entertained his opinion of +their sex. The particular maxim he cherished was, to stake everything on +his making a favourable first impression: after which single figure, he +said, all your empty naughts count with women for hundreds, thousands, +millions: noblest virtues are but sickly units. He would have stared +like any Philistine at the tale of their capacity to advance to a +likeness unto men in their fight with the world. Women for him were +objects to be chased, the politician's relaxation, taken like the +sportsman's business, with keen relish both for the pursuit and the prey, +and a view of the termination of his pastime. Their feelings he could +appreciate during the time when they flew and fell, perhaps a little +longer; but the change in his own feelings withdrew him from the +communion of sentiment. This is the state of men who frequent the +avenues of success. At present he was thinking of a wife, and he +approved the epistle to the baroness cordially. + +'I do think it a nice kind of letter, and quite humble enough,' said +Clotilde. + +He agreed, 'Yes, yes: she knows already that this is really serious with +me.' + +So much for the baroness. + +Now for their parting. A parting that is no worse than the turning of a +page to a final meeting is made light of, but felt. Reason is all in our +favour, and yet the gods are jealous of the bliss of mortals; the slip +between the cup and the lip is emotionally watched for, even though it be +not apprehended, when the cup trembles for very fulness. Clotilde +required reassuring and comforting: 'I am certain you will prevail; you +must; you cannot be resisted; I stand to witness to the fact,' she sighed +in a languor: 'only, my people are hard to manage. I see more clearly +now, that I have imposed on them; and they have given away by a sort of +compact so long as I did nothing decisive. That I see. But, then again, +have I not your spirit in me now? What has ever resisted you?--Then, +as I am Alvan's wife, I share his heart with his fortunes, and I do not +really dread the scenes from anticipating failure, still-the truth is, +I fear I am three parts an actress, and the fourth feels itself a +shivering morsel to face reality. No, I do not really feel it, but press +my hand, I shall be true--I am so utterly yours: and because I have such +faith in you. You never, yet have failed' + +'Never: and it is impossible for me to conceive it,' said Alvan +thoughtfully. + +His last word to her on her departure was 'Courage!' Hers to him was +conveyed by the fondest of looks. She had previously said 'To-morrow!' +to remind him of his appointment to be with her on the morrow, and +herself that she would not long stand alone. She did not doubt of her +courage while feasting on the beauty of one of the acknowledged strong +men of earth. She kissed her hand, she flung her heart to him from the +waving fingers. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +Alvan, left to himself, had a quiet belief in the subjugation of his +tricksy Clotilde, and the inspiriting he had given her. All the rest to +come was mere business matter of the conflict, scarcely calling for a +plan of action. Who can hold her back when a woman is decided to move? +Husbands have tried it vainly, and parents; and though the husband and +the parents are not dealing with the same kind of woman, you see the same +elemental power in her under both conditions of rebel wife and rebel +daughter to break conventional laws, and be splendidly irrational. That +is, if she can be decided: in other words, aimed at a mark and inflamed +to fly the barriers intercepting. He fancied he had achieved it. Alvan +thanked his fortune that he had to treat with parents. The consolatory +sensation of a pure intent soothed his inherent wildness, in the +contemplation of the possibility that the latter might be roused by those +people, her parents, to upset his honourable ambition to win a wife after +the fashion of orderly citizens. It would be on their heads! But why +vision mischance? An old half-jesting prophecy of his among his friends, +that he would not pass his fortieth year, rose upon his recollection +without casting a shadow. Lo, the reckless prophet about to marry! + +No dark bride, no skeleton, no colourless thing, no lichened tree, was +she. Not Death, my friends, but Life, is the bride of this doomed +fortieth year! Was animation ever vivider in contrast with obstruction? +Her hair would kindle the frosty shades to a throb of vitality: it would +be sunshine in the subterranean sphere. The very thinking of her +dispersed that realm of the poison hue, and the eternally inviting +phosphorescent, still, curved forefinger, which says, 'Come.' + +To think of her as his vernal bride, while the snowy Alps were a +celestial garden of no sunset before his eyes, was to have the taste of +mortal life in the highest. He wondered how it was that he could have +waited so long for her since the first night of their meeting, and he +just distinguished the fact that he lived with the pulses of the minutes, +much as she did, only more fierily. The ceaseless warfare called +politics must have been the distraction: he forgot any other of another +kind. He was a bridegroom for whom the rosed Alps rolled out, a panorama +of illimitable felicity. And there were certain things he must overcome +before he could name his bride his own, so that his innate love of +contention, which had been constantly flattered by triumph, brought, his +whole nature into play with the prospect of the morrow: not much liking +it either. There is a nerve, in brave warriors that does not like the +battle before, the crackle of musketry is heard, and the big artillery. + +Methodically, according to his habit, he jotted down the hours of the +trains, the hotel mentioned by Clotilde, the address of her father; he +looked to his card-case, his writing materials, his notes upon Swiss law; +considering that the scene would be in Switzerland, and he was a lawyer +bent on acting within and up to the measure of the law as well as +pleading eloquently. The desire to wing a telegram to her he thought it +wise to repress, and he found himself in consequence composing verses, +turgid enough, even to his own judgement. Poets would have failed at +such a time, and he was not one, but an orator enamoured. He was a wild +man, cased in the knowledge of jurisprudence, and wishing to enter the +ranks of the soberly blissful. These he could imagine that he +complimented by the wish. Then why should he doubt of his fortune? +He did not. + +The night passed, the morning came, and carried him on his journey. Late +in the afternoon he alighted at the hotel he called Clotilde's. A letter +was handed to him. His eyes all over the page caught the note of it for +her beginning of the battle and despair at the first repulse. 'And now +my turn!' said he, not overjoyously. The words Jew and demagogue and +baroness, quoted in the letter, were old missiles hurling again at him. +But Clotilde's parents were yet to learn that this Jew, demagogue, and +champion of an injured lady, was a gentleman respectful to their legal +and natural claims upon their child while maintaining his own: they were +to know him and change their tone. + +As he was reading the letter upstairs by sentences, his door opened at +the answer to a tap. He started; his face was a shield's welcome to the +birdlike applicant for admission. Clotilde stood hesitating. + +He sent the introducing waiter speeding on his most kellnerish legs, and +drew her in. + +'Alvan, I have come.' + +She was like a bird in his hands, palpitating to extinction. + +He bent over her: 'What has happened?' + +Trembling, and very pale, hard in her throat she said, 'The worst.' + +'You have spoken to them both subsequent to this?' he shook the letter. + +'It is hopeless.' + +'Both to father and mother?' + +'Both. They will not hear your name; they will not hear me speak. I +repeat, it is past all hope, all chance of moving them. They hate--hate +you, hate me for thinking of you. I had no choice; I wrote at once and +followed my letter; I ran through the streets; I pant for want of breath, +not want of courage. I prove I have it, Alvan; I have done all I can do. + +She was enfolded; she sank on the nest, dropping her eyelids. + +But he said nothing. She looked up at him. Her strained pale eyes +provoked a closer embrace. + +'This would be the home for you if we were flying,' said he, glancing +round at the room, with a sensation like a shudder, 'Tell me what there +is to be told.' + +'Alvan, I have; that is all. They will not listen; they loathe Oh! what +possesses them!' + +'They have not met me yet!' + +'They will not, will not ever--no!' + +'They must.' + +'They refuse. Their child, for daring to say she loves you, is detested. +Take me--take me away!' + +'Run?--facing the enemy?' His countenance was the fiery laugh of a +thirster for strife. 'They have to be taught the stuff Alvan is made +of!' + +Clotilde moaned to signify she was sure he nursed an illusion. 'I found +them celebrating the betrothal of my sister Lotte with the Austrian Count +Walburg; I thought it favourable for us. I spoke of you to my mother. +Oh, that scene! What she said I cannot recollect: it was a hiss. Then +my father. Your name changed his features and his voice. They treated +me as impure for mentioning it. You must have deadly enemies. +I was unable to recognize either father or mother--they have become +transformed. But you see I am here. Courage! you said; and I +determined I would show it, and be worthy of you. But I am pursued, +I am sure. My father is powerful in this place; we shall barely have +time to escape.' + +Alvan's resolution was taken. + +'Some friend--a lady living in the city here--name her, quick!--one you +can trust,' he said, and fondled her hastily, much as a gentle kind of +drillmaster straightens a fair pupil's shoulders. 'Yes, you have shown +courage. Now it must be submission to me. You shall be no runaway +bride, but honoured at the altar. Out of this hotel is the first point. +You know some such lady?' + +Clotilde tried to remonstrate and to suggest. She could have prophesied +certain evil from any evasion of the straight line of flight; she was so +sure of it because of her intuition that her courage had done its utmost +in casting her on him, and that the remainder within her would be a +drawing back. She could not get the word or even the look to encounter +his close and warm imperiousness; and, hesitating, she noticed where they +were together alone. She could not refuse the protection he offered in a +person of her own sex; and now, flushing with the thought of where they +were together alone, feminine modesty shrivelled at the idea of +entreating a man to bear her off, though feminine desperation urged to +it. She felt herself very bare of clothing, and she named a lady, a +Madame Emerly, living near the hotel. Her heart sank like a stone. +'It is for you!' cried Alvan, keenly sensible of his loss and his +generosity in temporarily resigning her--for a subsequent triumph. +'But my wife shall not be snatched by a thief in the night. Are you not +my wife--my golden bride? And you may give me this pledge of it, as if +the vows had just been uttered . . . and still I resign you till we +speak the vows. It shall not be said of Alvan's wife, in the days of her +glory, that she ran to her nuptials through rat-passages.' + +His pride in his prevailingness thrilled her. She was cooled by her +despondency sufficiently to perceive where the centre of it lay, but that +centre of self was magnificent; she recovered some of her enthusiasm, +thinking him perhaps to be acting rightly; in any case they were united, +her step was irrevocable. Her having entered the hotel, her being in +this room, certified to that. It seemed to her while she was waiting for +the carriage he had ordered that she was already half a wife. She was +not conscious of a blush. The sprite in the young woman's mind whispered +of fire not burning when one is in the heart of it. And undoubtedly, +contemplated from the outside, this room was the heart of fire. An +impulse to fall on Alvan's breast and bless him for his chivalrousness +had to be kept under lest she should wreck the thing she praised. +Otherwise she was not ill at ease. Alvan summoned his gaiety, all his +homeliness of tone, to give her composure, and on her quitting the room +she was more than ever bound to him, despite her gloomy foreboding. +A maid of her household, a middle-aged woman, gabbling of devotion to +her, ran up the steps of the hotel. Her tale was, that the General had +roused the city in pursuit of his daughter; and she heard whither +Clotilde was going. + +Within half an hour, Clotilde was in Madame Emerly's drawing-room +relating her desperate history of love and parental tyranny, assisted by +the lover whom she had introduced. Her hostess promised shelter and +exhibited sympathy. The whole Teutonic portion of the Continent knew +Alvan by reputation. He was insurrectionally notorious in morals and +menacingly in politics; but his fine air, handsome face, flowing tongue, +and the signal proof of his respect for the lady of his love and +deference toward her family, won her personally. She promised the best +help she could give them. They were certainly in a romantic situation, +such as few women could see and decline their aid to the lovers. + +Madame Emerly proved at least her sincerity before many minutes had +passed. + +Chancing to look out into the street, she saw Clotilde's mother and her +betrothed sister stepping up to the house. What was to be done? And was +the visit accidental? She announced it, and Clotilde cried out, but +Alvan cried louder: 'Heaven-directed! and so, let me see her and speak +to her--nothing could be better.' + +Madame Emerly took mute counsel of Clotilde, shaking her own head +premonitorily; and then she said: 'I think indeed it will be safer, +if I am asked, to say you are not here, and I know not where you are.' + +'Yes! yes!' Clotilde replied: 'Oh! do that.' + +She half turned to Alvan, rigid with an entreaty that hung on his coming +voice. + +'No!' said Alvan, shocked in both pride and vanity. 'Plain-dealing; no +subterfuge! Begin with foul falsehood? No. I would not have you +burdened, madame, with the shadow of a conventional untruth on our +account. And when it would be bad policy? . . . Oh, no, worse than +the sin! as the honest cynic says. We will go down to Madame von +Rudiger, and she shall make acquaintance with the man who claims her +daughter's hand.' + +Clotilde rocked in an agony. Her friend was troubled. Both ladies knew +what there would be to encounter better than he. But the man, strong in +his belief in himself, imposed his will on them. + +Alvan and Clotilde clasped hands as they went downstairs to Madame +Emerly's reception room. She could hardly speak: 'Do not forsake me.' + +'Is this forsaking?' He could ask it in the deeply questioning tone +which supplies the answer. + +'Oh, Alvan!' She would have said: 'Be warned.' + +He kissed her fingers. 'Trust to me.' + +She had to wrap her shivering spirit in a blind reliance and utter +leaning on him. + +She could almost have said: 'Know me better'; and she would, sincere as +her passion in its shallow vessel was, have been moved to say it for a +warning while yet there was time to leave the house instead of turning +into that room, had not a remainder of her first exaltation (rapidly +degenerating to desperation) inspired her with the thought of her being a +part of this handsome, undaunted, triumph-flashing man. + +Such a state of blind reliance and utter leaning, however, has a certain +tendency to disintegrate the will, and by so doing it prepares the spirit +to be a melting prize of the winner. + +Men and women alike, who renounce their own individuality by cowering +thus abjectly under some other before the storm, are in reality abjuring +their idea of that other, and offering themselves up to the genius of +Power in whatsoever direction it may chance to be manifested, in +whatsoever person. We no sooner shut our eyes than we consent to be +prey, we lose the soul of election. + +Mark her as she proceeds. For should her hero fail, and she be suffering +through his failure and her reliance on him, the blindness of it will +seem to her to have been an infinite virtue, anything but her deplorable +weakness crouching beneath his show of superhuman strength. And it will +seem to her, so long as her sufferings endure, that he deceived her just +expectations, and was a vain pretender to the superhuman:--for it was +only a superhuman Jew and democrat whom she could have thought of +espousing. The pusillanimous are under a necessity to be self-consoled +when they are not self-justified: it is their instinctive manner of +putting themselves in the right to themselves. The love she bore him, +because it was the love his high conceit exacted, hung on success she was +ready to fly with him and love him faithfully but not without some reason +(where reason, we will own, should not quite so coldly obtrude) will it +seem to her, that the man who would not fly, and would try the conflict, +insisted to stake her love on the issue he provoked. He roused the +tempest, he angered the Fates, he tossed her to them; and reason, coldest +reason, close as it ever is to the craven's heart in its hour of trial, +whispers that he was prompted to fling the gambler's die by the swollen +conceit in his fortune rather than by his desire for the prize. That +frigid reason of the craven has red-hot perceptions. It spies the spot +of truth. Were the spot revealed in the man the whole man, then, so +unerring is the eyeshot at him, we should have only to transform +ourselves into cowards fronting a crisis to read him through and topple +over the Sphinx of life by presenting her the sum of her most mysterious +creature in an epigram. But there was as much more in Alvan than any +faint-hearted thing, seeing however keenly, could see, as there is more +in the world than the epigrams aimed at it contain. + +'Courage!' said he: and she tremblingly: 'Be careful!' And then they were +in the presence of her mother and sister. + +Her sister was at the window, hanging her head low, a poor figure. Her +mother stood in the middle of the room, and met them full face, with a +woman's combative frown of great eyes, in which the stare is a bolt. + +'Away with that man! I will not suffer him near me,' she cried. + +Alvan advanced to her: 'Tell me, madame, in God's name, what you have +against me.' + +She swung her back on him. 'Go, sir! my husband will know how to deal +with one like you. Out of my sight, I say!' + +The brutality of this reception of Alvan nerved Clotilde. She went up to +him, and laying her hand on his arm, feeling herself almost his equal, +said: 'Let us go: come. I will not bear to hear you so spoken to. No +one shall treat you like that when I am near.' + +She expected him to give up the hopeless task, after such an experience +of the commencement. He did but clasp her hand, assuring the Frau von +Rudiger that no word of hers could irritate him. 'Nothing can make me +forget that you are Clotilde's mother. You are the mother of the lady I +love, and may say what you will to me, madame. I bear it.' + +'A man spotted with every iniquity the world abhors, and I am to see him +holding my daughter by the hand!--it is too abominable! And because +there is no one present to chastise him, he dares to address me and talk +of his foul passion for my daughter. I repeat: that which you have to do +is to go. My ears are shut. You can annoy, you can insult, you cannot +move me. Go.' She stamped: her aspect spat. + +Alvan bowed. Under perfect self-command, he said: 'I will go at once to +Clotilde's father. I may hope, that with a reasonable man I shall +speedily come to an understanding.' + +She retorted: 'Enter his house, and he will have you driven out by his +lacqueys.' + +'Hardly: I am not of those men who are driven from houses,' Alvan said, +smiling. 'But, madame, I will act on your warning, and spare her father, +for all sakes, the attempt; seeing he does not yet know whom he deals +with. I will write to him.' + +'Letters from you will be flung back unopened. + +'It may, of course, be possible to destroy even my patience, madame.' + +'Mine, sir, is at an end.' + +'You reduce us to rely on ourselves; it is the sole alternative.' + +'You have not waited for that,' rejoined Frau von Rudiger. 'You have +already destroyed my daughter's reputation by inducing her to leave her +father's house and hesitate to return. Oh! you are known. You are known +for your dealings with women as well as men. We know you. We have, we +pray to God, little more to learn of you. You! ah--thief!' + +'Thief!' Alvan's voice rose on hers like the clapping echo of it. She +had up the whole angry pride of the man in arms, and could discern that +she had struck the wound in his history; but he was terrible to look at, +so she made the charge supportable by saying: + +'You have stolen my child from me!' + +Clotilde raised her throat, shrewish in excitement. 'False! He did not. +I went to him of my own will, to run from your heartlessness, mother-- +that I call mother!--and be out of hearing of my father's curses and +threats. Yes, to him I fled, feeling that I belonged more to him than to +you. And never will I return to you. You have killed my love; I am this +man's own because I love him only; him ever! him you abuse, as his +partner in life for all it may give!--as his wife! Trample on him, you +trample on me. Make black brows at your child for choosing the man, of +all men alive, to worship and follow through the world. I do. I am his. +I glory in him.' + +Her gaze on Alvan said: 'Now!' Was she not worthy of him now? And would +they not go forth together now? Oh! now! + +Her gaze was met by nothing like the brilliant counterpart she merited. +It was as if she had offered her beauty to a glass, and found a +reflection in dull metal. He smiled calmly from her to her mother. He +said: + +'You accuse me of stealing your child, madame. You shall acknowledge +that you have wronged me. Clotilde, my Clotilde! may I count on you to +do all and everything for me? Is there any sacrifice I could ask that +would be too hard for you? Will you at one sign from me go or do as I +request you?' + +She replied, in an anguish over the chilling riddle of his calmness: 'I +will,' but sprang out of that obedient consent, fearful of over-acting +her part of slave to him before her mother, in a ghastly apprehension of +the part he was for playing to the same audience. 'Yes, I will do all, +all that you command. I am yours. I will go with you. Bid me do +whatever you can think of, all except bid me go back to the people I have +hitherto called mine:--not that!' + +'And that is what I have to request of you,' said he, with his calm smile +brightening and growing more foreign, histrionic, unreadable to her. +'And this greatest sacrifice that you can perform for me, are you +prepared to do it? Will you?' + +She tried to decipher the mask he wore: it was proof against her +imploring eyes. 'If you can ask me--if you can positively wish it--yes,' +she said. 'But think of what you are doing. Oh! Alvan, not back to +them! Think!' + +He smiled insufferably. He was bent on winning a parent-blest bride, +an unimpeachable wife, a lady handed to him instead of taken, one of the +world's polished silver vessels. + +'Think that you are doing this for me!' said he. 'It is for my sake. +And now, madame, I give you back your daughter. You see she is mine to +give, she obeys me, and I--though it can be only for a short time--give +her back to you. She goes with you purely because it is my wish: do not +forget that. And so, madame, I have the honour,' he bowed profoundly. + +He turned to Clotilde and drew her within his arm. 'What you have done +in obedience to my wish, my beloved, shall never be forgotten. Never can +I sufficiently thank you. I know how much it has cost you. But here is +the end of your trials. All the rest is now my task. Rely on me with +your whole heart. Let them not misuse you: otherwise do their bidding. +Be sure of my knowing how you are treated, and at the slightest act of +injustice I shall be beside you to take you to myself. Be sure of that, +and be not unhappy. They shall not keep you from me for long. Submit a +short while to the will of your parents: mine you will find the stronger. +Resolve it in your soul that I, your lover, cannot fail, for it is +impossible to me to waver. Consider me as the one fixed light in your +world, and look to me. Soon, then! Have patience, be true, and we are +one!' + +He kissed cold lips, he squeezed an inanimate hand. The horribly empty +sublimity of his behaviour appeared to her in her mother's contemptuous +face. + +His eyes were on her as he released her and she stood alone. She seemed +a dead thing; but the sense of his having done gloriously in mastering +himself to give these worldly people of hers a lesson and proof that he +could within due measure bow to their laws and customs, dispelled the +brief vision of her unfitness to be left. The compressed energy of the +man under his conscious display of a great-minded deference to the claims +of family ties and duties, intoxicated him. He thought but of the +present achievement and its just effect: he had cancelled a bad +reputation among these people, from whom he was about to lead forth a +daughter for Alvan's wife, and he reasoned by the grandeur of his +exhibition of generosity--which was brought out in strong relief when he +delivered his retiring bow to the Frau von Rudiger's shoulder--that the +worst was over; he had to deal no more with silly women: now for +Clotilde's father! Women were privileged to oppose their senselessness +to the divine fire: men could not retreat behind such defences; they must +meet him on the common ground of men, where this constant battler had +never yet encountered a reverse. + +Clotilde's cold staring gaze, a little livelier to wonderment than to +reflection, observed him to be scrupulous of the formalities in the +diverse character of his parting salutations to her mother, her sister; +and the lady of the house. He was going--he could actually go and leave +her! She stretched herself to him faintly; she let it be seen that she +did so as much as she had force to make it visible. She saw him smiling +incomprehensibly, like a winner of the field to be left to the enemy. +She could get nothing from him but that insensible round smile, and she +took the ebbing of her poor effort for his rebuff. + +'You that offered yourself in flight to him who once proposed it, he had +the choice of you and he abjured you. He has cast you off!' + +She phrased it in speech to herself. It was incredible, but it was +clear: he had gone. + +The room was vacant; the room was black and silent as a dungeon. + +'He will not have you: he has handed you back to them the more readily to +renounce you.' + +She framed the words half aloud in a moan as she glanced at her mother +heaving in stern triumph, her sister drooping, Madame Emerly standing at +the window. + +The craven's first instinct for safety, quick as the cavern lynx for +light, set her on the idea that she was abandoned: it whispered of +quietness if she submitted. + +And thus she reasoned: Had Alvan taken her, she would not have been +guilty of more than a common piece of love-desperation in running to him, +the which may be love's glory when marriage crowns it. By his rejecting +her and leaving her, he rendered her not only a runaway, but a castaway. +It was not natural that he should leave her; 'not natural in him to act +his recent part; but he had done it; consequently she was at the mercy of +those who might pick her up. She was, in her humiliation and dread, all +of the moment, she could see to no distance; and judging of him, feeling +for herself, within that contracted circle of sensation--sure, from her +knowledge of her cowardice, that he had done unwisely--she became swayed +about like a castaway in soul, until her distinguishing of his mad +recklessness in the challenge of a power greater than his own grew +present with her as his personal cruelty to the woman who had flung off +everything, flung herself on the tempestuous deeps, on his behalf. And +here she was, left to float or founder! Alvan had gone. The man rageing +over the room, abusing her 'infamous lover, the dirty Jew, the notorious +thief, scoundrel, gallowsbird,' etc., etc., frightful epithets, not to be +transcribed--was her father. He had come, she knew not how. Alvan had +tossed her to him. + +Abuse of a lover is ordinarily retorted on in the lady's heart by the +brighter perception of his merits; but when the heart is weak, the +creature suffering shame, her lover the cause of it, and seeming cruel, +she is likely to lose all perception and bend like a flower pelted. Her +cry to him: 'If you had been wiser, this would not have been!' will sink +to the inward meditation: 'If he had been truer!'--and though she does +not necessarily think him untrue for charging him with it, there is +already a loosening of the bonds where the accusation has begun. They +are not broken because they are loosened: still the loosening of them +makes it possible to cut them with less of a snap and less pain. + +Alvan had relinquished her he loved to brave the tempest in a frail small +boat, and he certainly could not have apprehended the furious outbreak +she was exposed to. She might so far have exonerated him had she been +able to reflect; but she whom he had forced to depend on him in blind +reliance, now opened her eyes on an opposite power exercising material +rigours. After having enjoyed extraordinary independence for a young +woman, she was treated as a refractory child, literally marched through +the streets in the custody of her father, who clutched her by the hair- +Alvan's beloved golden locks!--and held her under terror of a huge +forester's weapon, that he had seized at the first tidings of his +daughter's flight to the Jew. He seemed to have a grim indifference to +exposure; contempt, with a sense of the humour of it: and this was a +satisfaction to him, founded on his practical observance of two or three +maxims quite equal to the fullest knowledge of women for rightly managing +them: preferable, inasmuch as they are simpler, and, by merely cracking a +whip, bring her back to the post, instead of wasting time by hunting her +as she likes to run. Police were round his house. The General chattered +and shouted of the desperate lawlessness and larcenies of that Jew--the +things that Jew would attempt. He dragged her indoors, muttering of his +policy in treating her at last to a wholesome despotism. + +This was the medicine for her--he knew her! Whether he did or not, he +knew the potency of his physic. He knew that osiers can be made to bend. +With a frightful noise of hammering, he himself nailed up the window- +shutters of the room she was locked in hard and fast, and he left her +there and roared across the household that any one holding communication +with the prisoner should be shot like a dog. This was a manifestation of +power in a form more convincing than the orator's. + +She was friendless, abused, degraded, benighted in broad daylight; +abandoned by her lover. She sank on the floor of the room, conceiving +with much strangeness of sentiment under these hard stripes of +misfortune, that reality had come. The monster had hold of her. She was +isolated, fed like a dungeoned captive. She had nothing but our natural +obstinacy to hug, or seem to do so when wearifulness reduced her to cling +to the semblance of it only. 'I marry Alvan!' was her iterated answer to +her father, on his visits to see whether he had yet broken her; and she +spoke with the desperate firmness of weak creatures that strive to nail +themselves to the sound of it. He listened and named his time for +returning. The tug between rigour and endurance continued for about +forty hours. She then thought, in an exhaustion: 'Strange that my father +should be so fiercely excited against this man! Can he have reasons I +have not heard of?' Her father's unwonted harshness suggested the +question in her quailing nature, which was beginning to have a movement +to kiss the whip. The question set her thinking of the reasons she knew. +She saw them involuntarily from the side of parents, and they wore a +sinister appearance; in reality her present scourging was due to them as +well as to Alvan's fatal decision. Her misery was traceable to his +conduct and his judgement--both bad. And yet all this while he might be +working to release her, near upon rescuing! She swung round to the side +of her lover against these executioner parents, and scribbled to him as +well as she could under the cracks in her windowshutters, urging him to +appear. She spent her heart on it. A note to her friend, the English +lady, protested her love for Alvan, but with less abandonment, with a +frozen resignation to the loss of him--all around her was so dark! By- +and-by there was a scratching at her door. The maid whom she trusted +brought her news of Alvan: outside the door and in, the maid and mistress +knelt. Hope flickered up in the bosom of Clotilde: the whispers were +exchanged through the partition. + +'Where is he?' + +'Gone.' + +'But where?' + +'He has left the city.' + +Clotilde pushed the letter for her friend under the door: that one for +Alvan she retained, stung by his desertion of her, and thinking +practically that it was useless to aim a letter at a man without an +address. She did not ask herself whether the maid's information was +honest, for she wanted to despair, as the exhausted want to lie down. + +She wept through the night. It was one of those nights of the torrents +of tears which wash away all save the adamantine within us, if there be +ought of that besides the breathing structure. The reason why she wept +with so delirious a persistency was, that her nature felt the necessity +for draining her of her self-pitifulness, knowing that it nourished the +love whereby she was tormented. They do not weep thus who have a heart +for the struggle. In the morning she was a dried channel of tears, no +longer self-pitiful; careless of herself, as she thought: in other words, +unable any further to contend. + +Reality was too strong! This morning her sisters came to her room +imploring her to yield:--if she married Alvan, what could be their +prospects as the sisters-in law of such a man?--her betrothed sister +Lotte could not hope to espouse Count Walburg: Alvan's name was infamous +in society; their house would be a lazar-house, they would be condemned +to seclusion. A favourite brother followed, with sympathy that set her +tears running again, and arguments she could not answer: how could he +hold up his head in his regiment as the relative of the scandalous Jew +democrat? He would have to leave the service, or be duelling with his +brother officers every other day of his life, for rightly or wrongly +Alvan was abhorred, and his connection would be fatal to them all, +perhaps to her father's military and diplomatic career principally: the +head of their house would be ruined. She was compelled to weep again by +having no other reply. The tears were now mixed drops of pity for her +absent lover and her family; she was already disunited from him when she +shed them, feeling that she was dry rock to herself, heartless as many +bosoms drained of self-pity will become. + +Incapable of that any further, she leaned still in that direction and had +a languid willingness to gain outward comfort. To be caressed a little +by her own kindred before she ceased to live was desireable after her +heavy scourging. She wished for the touches of affection, knowing them +to be selfish, but her love of life and hard view of its reality made +them seem a soft reminder of what life had been. Alvan had gone. Her +natural blankness of imagination read his absence as an entire +relinquishment; it knelled in a vacant chamber. He had gone; he had +committed an irretrievable error, he had given up a fight of his own vain +provoking, that was too severe for him: he was not the lover he fancied +himself, or not the lord of men she had fancied him. Her excessive +misery would not suffer a picture of him, not one clear recollection of +him, to stand before her. He who should have been at hand, had gone, and +she was fearfully beset, almost lifeless; and being abandoned, her blank +night of imagination felt that there was nothing left for her save to +fall upon those nearest. + +She gave her submission to her mother. In her mind, during the last +wrestling with a weakness that was alternately her love, and her +cowardice, the interpretation of the act ran: 'He may come, and I am his +if he comes: and if not, I am bound to my people.' He had taught her to +rely on him blindly, and thus she did it inanimately while cutting +herself loose from him. In a similar mood, the spiritual waverer vows to +believe if the saint will appear. However, she submitted. Then there +was joy in the family, and she tasted their caresses. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +After his deed of loftiness Alvan walked to his hotel, where the sight of +the room Clotilde had entered that morning caught his breath. He +proceeded to write his first letter to General von Rudiger, repressing +his heart's intimations that he had stepped out of the friendly path, and +was on a strange and tangled one. The sense of power in him was leonine +enough to promise the forcing of a way whithersoever the path: yet did +that ghost of her figure across the room haunt him with searching eyes. +They set him spying over himself at an actor who had not needed to be +acting his part, brilliant though it was. He crammed his energy into his +idea of the part, to carry it forward victoriously. Before the world, +it would without question redound to his credit, and he heard the world +acclaiming him: + +'Alvan's wife was honourably won, as became the wife of a Doctor of Law, +from the bosom of her family, when he could have had her in the old +lawless fashion, for a call to a coachman! Alvan, the republican, is +eminently a citizen. Consider his past life by that test of his +character.' + +He who had many times defied the world in hot rebellion, had become, +through his desire to cherish a respectable passion, if not exactly +slavish to it, subservient, as we see royal personages, that are happy to +be on bowing terms with the multitude bowing lower. Lower, of course, +the multitude must bow, to inspire an august serenity; but the nod they +have in exchange for it is not an independent one. Ceasing to be a +social rebel, he conceived himself as a recognized dignitary, and he +passed under the bondage of that position. + +Clotilde had been in this room; she had furnished proof that she could be +trusted now. She had committed herself, perished as a maiden of society, +and her parents, even the senseless mother, must see it and decide by it. +The General would bring her to reason: General von Rudiger was a man of +the world. An honourable son-in-law could not but be acceptable to him-- +now, at least. And such a son-in-law would ultimately be the pride of +his house. 'A flower from thy garden, friend, and my wearing it shall in +good time be cause for some parental gratification.' + +The letter despatched, Alvan paced his chamber with the ghost of +Clotilde. He was presently summoned to meet Count Walburg and another +intimate of the family, in the hotel downstairs. These gentlemen brought +no message from General von Rudiger: their words were directed to extract +a promise from him that he would quit his pursuit of Clotilde, and of +course he refused; they hinted that the General might have official +influence to get him expelled the city, and he referred them to the +proof; but he looked beyond the words at a new something of extraordinary +and sinister aspect revealed to him in their manner of treating his +pretensions to the hand of the lady. + +He had not yet perfectly seen the view the world took of him, because of +his armed opposition to the world; nor could he rightly reflect on it +yet, being too anxious to sign the peace. He felt as it were a blow +startling him from sleep. His visitors tasked themselves to be strictly +polite; they did not undervalue his resources for commanding respect +between man and man. The strange matter was behind their bearing, which +indicated the positive impossibility of the union of Clotilde with one +such as he, and struck at the curtain covering his history. He could not +raise it to thunder his defence of himself, or even allude to the implied +contempt of his character: with a boiling gorge he was obliged to swallow +both the history and the insult, returning them the equivalent of their +courtesies, though it was on his lips to thunder heavily. + +A second endeavour, in an urgent letter before nightfall to gain him +admission to head-quarters, met the same repulse as the foregoing. The +bearer of it was dismissed without an answer. + +Alvan passed a night of dire disturbance. The fate of the noble Genoese +conspirator, slipping into still harbour water on the step from boat to +boat, and borne down by the weight of his armour in the moment of the +ripeness of his plot at midnight, when the signal for action sparkled to +lighten across the ships and forts, had touched him in his boy's +readings, and he found a resemblance of himself to Fiesco, stopped as he +was by a base impediment, tripped ignominiously, choked by the weight of +the powers fitting him for battle. A man such as Alvan, arrested on his +career by an opposition to his enrolment of a bride!--think of it! What +was this girl in a life like his? But, oh! the question was no sooner +asked than the thought that this girl had been in this room illuminated +the room, telling him she might have been his own this instant, +confounding him with an accusation of madness for rejecting her. +Why had he done it? Surely women, weak women, must be at times divinely +inspired. She warned him against the step. But he, proud of his +armoury, went his way. He choked, he suffered the torture of the mailed +Genoese going under; worse, for the drowner's delirium swirls but a +minute in the gaping brain, while he had to lie all, night at the mercy +of the night. + +He was only calmer when morning came. Night has little mercy for the +self-reproachful, and for a strong man denouncing the folly of his error, +it has none. The bequest of the night was a fever of passion; and upon +that fever the light of morning cleared his head to weigh the force +opposing him. He gnawed the paradox, that it was huge because it was +petty, getting a miserable sour sustenance out of his consciousness of +the position it explained. Great enemies, great undertakings, would have +revived him as they had always revived and fortified. But here was a +stolid small obstacle, scarce assailable on its own level; and he had +chosen that it should be attacked through its own laws and forms. By +shutting a door, by withholding an answer to his knocks, the thing +reduced him to hesitation. And the thing had weapons to shoot at him; +his history, his very blood, stood open to its shafts; and the sole +quality of a giant, which he could show to front it, was the breath of +one for a mark. + +These direct perceptions of the circumstances were played on by the fever +he drew from his Fiesco bed. Accuracy of vision in our crises is not so +uncommon as the proportionate equality of feeling: we do indeed. +frequently see with eyes of just measurement while we are conducting +ourselves like madmen. The facts are seen, and yet the spinning nerves +will change their complexion; and without enlarging or minimizing, they +will alternate their effect on us immensely through the colour presenting +them now sombre, now hopeful: doing its work of extravagance upon +perceptibly plain matter. The fitful colour is the fever. He must win +her, for he never yet had failed--he had lost her by his folly! She was +his--she was torn from him! She would come at his bidding--she would +cower to her tyrants! The thought of her was life and death in his +frame, bright heaven and the abyss. At one beat of the heart she swam to +his arms, at another he was straining over darkness. And whose the +fault? + +He rose out of his amazement crying it with a roar, and foreignly +beholding himself. He pelted himself with epithets; his worst enemies +could not have been handier in using them. From Alvan to Alvan, they +signified such an earthquake in a land of splendid structures as shatters +to dust the pride of the works of men. He was down among them, lower +than the herd, rolling in vulgar epithets that, attached to one like him, +became of monstrous distortion. O fool! dolt! blind ass! tottering +idiot! drunken masquerader! miserable Jack Knave, performing suicide +with that blessed coxcomb air of curling a lock!--Clotilde! Clotilde! +Where has one read the story of a man who had the jewel of jewels in his +hand, and flung in into the deeps, thinking that he flung a pebble? +Fish, fool, fish! and fish till Doomsday! There's nothing but your +fool's face in the water to be got to bite at the bait you throw, fool! +Fish for the flung-away beauty, and hook your shadow of a Bottom's head! +What impious villain was it refused the gift of the gods, that he might +have it bestowed on him according to his own prescription of the +ceremonies! They laugh! By Orcus! how they laugh! The laughter of the +gods is the lightning of death's irony over mortals. Can they have a +finer subject than a giant gone fool? + +Tears burst from him: tears of rage, regret, selflashing. O for +yesterday! He called aloud for the recovery of yesterday, bellowed, +groaned. A giant at war with pigmies, having nought but their weapons, +having to fight them on his knees, to fight them with the right hand +while smiting himself with the left, has too much upon him to keep his +private dignity in order. He was the same in his letters--a Cyclops +hurling rocks and raising the seas to shipwreck. Dignity was cast off; +he came out naked. Letters to Clotilde, and to the baroness, to the +friend nearest him just then, Colonel von Tresten, calling them to him, +were dashed to paper in this naked frenzy, and he could rave with all the +truth of life, that to have acted the idiot, more than the loss of the +woman, was the ground of his anguish. Each antecedent of his career had +been a step of strength and success departed. The woman was but a +fragment of the tremendous wreck; the woman was utterly diminutive, yet +she was the key of the reconstruction; the woman won, he would be himself +once more: and feeling that, his passion for her swelled to full tide and +she became a towering splendour whereat his eyeballs ached, she became a +melting armful that shook him to big bursts of tears. + +The feeling of the return of strength was his love in force. The giant +in him loved her warmly. Her sweetness, her archness, the opening of her +lips, their way of holding closed, and her brightness of wit, her tender +eyelashes, her appreciating looks, her sighing, the thousand varying +shades of her motions and her features interflowing like a lighted water, +swam to him one by one like so many handmaiden messengers distinctly +beheld of the radiant indistinct whom he adored with more of spirit in +his passion than before this tempest. A giant going through a giant's +contortions, fleshly as the race of giants, and gross, coarse, dreadful, +likely to be horrible when whipped and stirred to the dregs, Alvan was +great-hearted: he could love in his giant's fashion, love and lay down +life for the woman he loved, though the nature of the passion was not +heavenly; or for the friend who would have to excuse him often; or for +the public cause--which was to minister to his appetites. He was true +man, a native of earth, and if he could not quit his huge personality to +pipe spiritual music during a storm of trouble, being a soul wedged in +the gnarled wood of the standing giant oak, and giving mighty sound of +timber at strife rather than the angelical cry, he suffered, as he loved, +to his depths. + +We have not to plumb the depths; he was not heroic, but hugely man. +Love and man sometimes meet for noble concord; the strings of the hungry +instrument are not all so rough that Love's touch on them is +indistinguishable from the rattling of the wheels within; certain herald +harmonies have been heard. But Love, which purifies and enlarges us, +and sets free the soul, Love visiting a fleshly frame must have time and +space, and some help of circumstance, to give the world assurance that +the man is a temple fit for the rites. Out of romances, he is not +melodiously composed. And in a giant are various giants to be slain, +or thoroughly subdued, ere this divinity is taken for leader. It is not +done by miracle. + +As it happened cruelly for Alvan, the woman who had become the radiant +indistinct in his desiring mind was one whom he knew to be of a shivery +stedfastness. His plucking her from another was neither wonderful nor +indefensible; they two were suited as no other two could be; the handsome +boy who had gone through a form of plighting with her was her slave, and +she required for her mate a master: she felt it and she sided to him +quite naturally, moved by the sacred direction of the acknowledgement of +a mutual fitness. Twice, however, she had relapsed on the occasions of +his absence, and owning his power over her when they were together again, +she sowed the fatal conviction that he held her at present, and that she +was a woman only to be held at present, by the palpable grasp of his +physical influence. Partly it was correct, not entirely, seeing that she +kept the impression of a belief in him even when she drifted away through +sheer weakness, but it was the single positive view he had of her, and it +was fatal, for it begat a devil of impatience. + +'They are undermining her now--now--now!' + +He started himself into busy frenzies to reach to her, already +indifferent to the means, and waxing increasingly reckless as he fed on +his agitation. Some faith in her, even the little she deserved, would +have arrested him: unhappily he had less than she, who had enough to +nurse the dim sense of his fixity, and sank from him only in her heart's +faintness, but he, when no longer flattered by the evidence of his +mastery, took her for sand. Why, then, had he let her out of his grasp? +The horrid echoed interrogation flashed a hideous view of the woman. But +how had he come to be guilty of it? he asked himself again; and, without +answering him, his counsellors to that poor wisdom set to work to +complete it: Giant Vanity urged Giant Energy to make use of Giant +Duplicity. He wrote to Clotilde, with one voice quoting the law in their +favour, with another commanding her to break it. He gathered and drilled +a legion of spies, and showered his gold in bribes and plots to get the +letter to her, to get an interview--one human word between them. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +His friend Colonel von Tresten was beside him when he received the +enemy's counter-stroke. Count Walburg and his companion brought a letter +from Clotilde--no reply; a letter renouncing him. + +Briefly, in cold words befitting the act, she stated that the past must +be dead between them; for the future she belonged to her parents; she had +left the city. She knew not where he might be, her letter concluded, but +henceforward he should know that they were strangers. + +Alvan held out the deadly paper when he had read the contents; he smote a +forefinger on it and crumpled it in his hand. That was the dumb oration +of a man shocked by the outrage upon passionate feeling to the state of +brute. His fist, outstretched to the length of his arm, shook the +reptile letter under a terrible frown. + +Tresten saw that he supposed himself to be perfectly master of his acts +because he had not spoken, and had managed to preserve the ordinary +courtesies. + +'You have done your commission,' the colonel said to Count Walburg, whose +companion was not disposed to go without obtaining satisfactory +assurances, and pressed for them. + +Alvan fastened on him. 'You adopt the responsibility of this?' He +displayed the letter. + +'I do.' + +'It lies.' + +Tresten remarked to Count Walburg: 'These visits are provocations.' + +'They are not so intended,' said the count, bowing pacifically. His +friend was not a man of the sword, and was not under the obligation to +accept an insult. They left the letter to do its work. + +Big natures in their fits of explosiveness must be taken by flying shots, +as dwarfs peep on a monster, or the Scythian attacked a phalanx. Were we +to hear all the roarings of the shirted Heracles, a world of comfortable +little ones would doubt the unselfishness of his love of Dejaneira. +Yes, really; they would think it was not a chivalrous love: they would +consider that he thought of himself too much. They would doubt, too, +of his being a gentleman! Partial glimpses of him, one may fear, will be +discomposing to simple natures. There was a short black eruption. Alvan +controlled it, to ask hastily what the baroness thought and what she had +heard of Clotilde. Tresten made sign that it was nothing of the best. + +'See! my girl has hundreds of enemies, and I, only I, know her and can +defend her--weak, base shallow trickster, traitress that she is!' cried +Alvan, and came down in a thundershower upon her: 'Yesterday--the day +before--when? just now, here, in this room; gave herself--and now!' +He bent, and immediately straightening his back, addressed Colonel von +Tresten as her calumniator, 'Say your worst of her, and I say I will make +of that girl the peerless woman of earth! I! in earnest! it's no dream. +She can be made . . . . O God! the beast has turned tail! I knew she +could. There 's three of beast to one of goddess in her, and set her +alone, and let her be hunted and I not by, beast it is with her! +cowardly skulking beast--the noblest and very bravest under my wing! +Incomprehensible to you, Tresten? But who understands women! You hate +her. Do not. She 's a riddle, but no worse than the rest of the tangle. +She gives me up? Pooh! She writes it. She writes anything. And that +vilest, I say, I will make more enviable, more Clotilde! he thundered her +signature in an amazement, broken suddenly by the sight of her putting +her name to the letter. She had done that, written her name to the +renunciation of him! No individual could bear the sight of such a crime, +and no suffering man could be appeased by a single victim to atone for +it. Her sex must be slaughtered; he raged against the woman; she became +that ancient poisonous thing, the woman; his fury would not distinguish +her as Clotilde, though the name had started him, and it was his +knowledge of the particular sinner which drew down his curses on the sex. +He twisted his body, hugging at his breast as if he had her letter +sticking in his ribs. The letter was up against his ribs, and he thumped +it, crushed it, patted it; he kissed it, and flung it, stamped on it, and +was foul-mouthed. Seeing it at his feet, he bent to it like a man +snapped in two, lamenting, bewailing himself, recovering sight of her +fragmentarily. It stuck in his ribs, and in scorn of the writer, and +sceptical of her penning it, he tugged to pull it out, and broke the +shaft, but left the rankling arrow-head:--she had traced the lines, and +though tyranny racked her to do that thing, his agony followed her hand +over the paper to her name, which fixed and bit in him like the deadly- +toothed arrow-head called asp, and there was no uprooting it. The thing +lived; her deed was the woman; there was no separating them: witness it +in love murdered. + +O that woman! She has murdered love. She has blotted love completely +out. She is the arch-thief and assassin of mankind--the female Apollyon. +He lost sight of her in the prodigious iniquity covering her sex with a +cowl of night, and it was what women are, what women will do, the one and +all alike simpering simulacra that men find them to be, soulless, clogs +on us, bloodsuckers! until a feature of the particular sinner peeped out +on him, and brought the fresh agony of a reminder of his great- +heartedness. 'For that woman--Tresten, you know me--I would have +sacrificed for that woman fortune and life, my hope, my duty, my +immortality. She knew it, and she--look!' he unwrinkled the letter +carefully for it to be legible, and clenched it in a ball.' Signs her +name, signs her name, her name!--God of heaven! it would be incredible in +a holy chronicle--signs her name to the infamous harlotry! See: +"Clotilde von Rudiger." It's her writing; that's her signature: +"Clotilde" in full. You'd hardly fancy that, now? But look!' the +colonel's eyelids were blinking, and Alvan dinted his finger-nail under +her name: 'there it is: Clotilde: signed shamelessly. Just as she might +have written to one of her friends about bonnets, and balls, and books! +Henceforward strangers, she and I?' + +His laughter, even to Tresten, a man of camps, sounded profane as a +yell beneath a cathedral dome. 'Why, the woman has been in my hands-- +I released her, spared her, drilled brain and blood, ransacked all the +code, to do her homage and honour in every mortal way; and we two +strangers! Do you hear that, Tresten? Why, if you had seen her!--she +was lost, and I, this man she now pierces with ice, kept hell down under +bolt and bar-worse, I believe, broke a good woman's heart! that never a +breath should rise that could accuse her on suspicion, or in malice, or +by accident, justly, or with a shadow of truth. "I think it best for us +both." So she thinks for me! She not only decides, she thinks; she is +the active principle; 'tis mine to submit.--A certain presumption was in +that girl always. Ha! do you hear me? Her letter may sting, it shall +not dupe. Strangers? Poor fool! You see plainly she was nailed down to +write the thing. This letter is a flat lie. She can lie--Oh! born to +the art! born to it!--lies like a Saint tricking Satan! But she says she +has left the city. Now to find her!' + +He began marching about the room with great strides. 'I 'll have the +whole Continent up; her keepers shall have no rest; I 'll have them by +the Law Courts; and by stratagem, and, if law and cunning fail, force. +I have sworn it. I have done all that honour can ask of a man; more than +any man, to my knowledge, would have done, and now it's war. I declare +war on them. They will have it! I mean to take that girl from them-- +snatch or catch! The girl is my girl, and if there are laws against my +having my own, to powder with the laws! Well, and do you suppose me +likely to be beaten? Then Cicero was a fiction, and Caesar a people's +legend. Not if they are history, and eloquence and commandership have +power over the blood and souls of men. First, I write to her!' + +His friend suggested that he knew not where she was. But already the pen +was at work, the brain pouring as from a pitcher. + +Writing was blood-letting, and the interminable pages drained him of his +fever. As he wrote, she grew more radiant, more indistinct, more +fiercely desired. The concentration of his active mind directed his +whole being on the track of Clotilde, idealizing her beyond human. +That last day when he had seen her appeared to him as the day of days. +That day was Clotilde herself, she in person; he saw it as the woman, +and saw himself translucent in the great luminousness; and behind it all +was dark, as in front. That one day was the sun of his life. It had +been a day of rain, and he beheld it in memory just as it had been, with +the dark threaded air, the dripping streets; and he glorified it past all +daily radiance. His letter was a burning hymn to the day. His moral +grandeur on the day made him live as part of the splendour. Was it +possible for the woman who had seen him then to be faithless to him? +The swift deduction from his own feelings cleansed her of a suspicion +to the contrary, and he became lighthearted. He hummed an air when he +had finished his letter to her. + +Councils with his adherents and couriers were held, and some were +despatched to watch the house and slip the letter to her maid; others +were told off to bribe and hound their way on the track of Clotilde. +His gold rained into their hands with the directions. + +Colonel von Tresten was the friend of his attachment to the baroness; +a friend of both, and a warm one. Men coming into contact with Alvan +took their shape of friend or enemy sharply, for he was friend or enemy. +of no dubious feature, devoted to them he loved, and a battery on them he +opposed. The colonel had been the confidant of the baroness's grief over +this love-passion of Alvan's, and her resignation. He shared her doubts +of Clotilde's nobility of character: the reports were not favourable to +the young lady. But the baroness and he were of one opinion, that Alvan +in love was not likely to be governable by prudent counsel. He dropped a +word of the whispers of Clotilde's volatility. + +Alvan nodded his perfect assent. 'She is that, she is anything you like; +you cannot exaggerate her for good or evil. She is matchless, colour her +as you please.' Adopting the tone of argument, he said: 'She writes that +letter. Well? It is her writing, and the moment, I am sure of it as +hers, I would not have it unwritten. I love it!' He looked maddish with +his love of the horrible thing, and resumed soberly: 'The point is, that +she has the charm for me. She is plastic in my hands. Other men would +waste the treasure. I make of her what I will, and she knows it, and +knows that she hangs on me to flourish worthily. I breathe the very soul +of the woman into her. As for that letter of hers--' it burnt him this +time to speak of the letter: 'she may write and write! She's weak, thin, +a reed; she--let her be! Say of her when she plays beast--she is absent +from Alvan! I can forgive. The letter's nothing; it means nothing-- +except "Thou fool, Alvan, to let me go." Yes, that! Her people are +acting tyrant with her--as legally they have no right to do in this +country, and I shall prove it to them. When I have gained admission to +her--and I soon shall: it can't be refused: I am off to the head of her +father's office to-morrow, and I have only to represent the state of +affairs to the Minister in my language to obtain his authority to demand +admission to her:--then, friend, you will see! I lift my finger, and you +will see! At my request she went back to her mother. I have but to +beckon.' + +He had cooled to the happy assurance of his authority over her, all the +giants of his system being well in action, and when that is the case with +a big nature it is at rest, or such is the condition of repose granted it +in life. + +On the morrow he was off to batter at doors which would have expected +rather the summons of an armed mob at his heels than the strange cry of +the Radical man maltreated by love. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +The story of Clotilde's departure from the city, like that of Alvan's, +communicated to her by her maid, was an anticipation of the truth, +disseminated by her parents. She was removed when the swarm of spies and +secret letter-bearers were attaining a position of dignity through the +rumour of legal gentlemen about to direct the movements of the besieging +army. + +A stir seemed to her to prognosticate a rescue and she went not +unwillingly. To be in motion, to see roadside faces, pricked her senses +with some hope. She had gained the peace she needed, and in that state +her heart began to be agitated by a fresh awakening, luxurious at first +rather than troublesome. She had sunk so low that the light of Alvan +seemed too distant for a positive expectation of him; but few approached +her whom she did not fancy under strange disguises: the gentlemen were +servants, the blouses were gentlemen; she looked wistfully at old women +bearing baskets, for the forbidden fruit to peep out in the form of an +envelope. All passed her blankly, noticing her eyes. + +The journey was short; she was taken to a place a little beyond the head +of the lake, and there, though she had liberty to breathe the air, fast +fixed within the walls of a daily sameness that became gradually the hum +of voices accusing Alvan of one in excess of the many sins laid against +him by his enemies. Was he not possibly an empty pretender to power-- +a mere great talker? + +Her bit of liberty increased her chafing at the deadly monotony of this +existence, and envenomed the accusation by seeming to push her forth +quite half way to meet him, if he would but come or show sign! She +impetuously vindicated him from the charge of crediting the sincerity of +any words she might have committed to paper at the despotic dictation of +her father. Oh, no; Alvan could not be guilty of such folly as that; he +could not; it would be to suppose him unacquainted with her, ignorant of +the nature of women. He would know that she wrote the words--why? She +could not perfectly recollect how she had come to write them, and found +it easier to extinguish the act of having written them at all, which was +done by the angry recurrence to his failure to intervene now when the +drama cried for his godlike appearance. Perhaps he was really +unacquainted with her thought her stronger than she was! The idea +reflected a shadow on his intelligence. She was not in a situation that +could bear of her blaming herself. + +While she was thus devoured by the legions of her enfeebled wits, +Clotilde was assiduously courted by her family, and her father from time +to time brought pen and paper for her to write anew from his dictation. +He was pleased to hail her as his fair secretary, and when the letters +were unimportant she wrote flowingly, happy to be praised. They were +occasionally addressed to friends; she discovered herself writing one to +the professor, in which he was about to be informed that she had resolved +to banish Alvan from her mind for ever. She stopped; her heart stopped; +the pen fell from her hand, in loathing. Her father warily bade her +proceed. She could not; she signified it choking. Only a few days +before she had written to the professor exultingly of her engagement. +She refused to belie herself in such a manner; retrospectively her rapid +contradictions appeared impossible; the picture of her was not human, and +she gave out a negative of her whole frame convulsed, whereat the General +was not slow to remind her of the scourgings she had undergone by a +sudden burst of his wrath. He knew the proper physic. 'You girls want +the lesson we read to skittish recruits; you shall have it. Write: "He +is now as nothing to me." You shall write that you hate him, if you +hesitate! Why, you unreasonable slut, you have given him up; you have +told him you have given him up, and what objection can you have to +telling others now you have done it?' + +'I was forced to it, body and soul!' cried Clotilde, sobbing and bursting +into desperation out of a weak show of petulance that she had put on to +propitiate him. 'If I have to tell, I will tell how it was. For that my +heart is unchanged, and Alvan is, and will be, my lord, all the world may +see. I would rather write that I hate him.' + +'You write, the man is now as nothing to me!' said her father, dashing +his finger in a fiery zig-zag along the line for her pen to follow. 'Or +else, my girl, you've been playing us a pretty farce!' He strung himself +for a mad gallop of wrath, gave her a shudder, and relapsed. 'No, no, +you're wiser, you're a better girl than that. Write it. I must have it +written-here, come! The worst is over; the rest is child's play. Come, +take the pen, I'll guide your hand.' + +The pen was fixed in her hand, and the first words formed. They looked +such sprawling skeletons that Clotilde had the comfort of feeling sure +they would be discerned as the work of compulsion. So she wrote on +mechanically, solacing herself for what she did with vows of future +revolt. Alvan had a saying, that want of courage is want of sense; and +she remembered his illustration of how sense would nourish courage by +scattering the fear of death, if we would only grasp the thought that we +sink to oblivion gladly at night, and, most of us, quit it reluctantly in +the morning. She shut her eyes while writing; she fancied death would be +welcome; and as she certainly had sense, she took it for the promise of +courage. She flattered herself by believing, therefore, that she who did +not object to die was only awaiting the cruelly-delayed advent of her +lover to be almost as brave as he--the feminine of him. With these ideas +in her head much clearer than when she wrote the couple of lines to +Alvan--for then her head was reeling, she was then beaten and prostrate-- +she signed her name to a second renunciation of him, and was aware of a +flush of self-reproach at the simple suspicion of his being deceived by +it; it was an insult to his understanding. Full surely the professor +would not be deceived, and a lover with a heart to reach to her and read +her could never be hoodwinked by so palpable a piece of slavishness. She +was indeed slavish; the apology necessitated the confession. But that +promise of courage, coming of her ownership of sense, vindicated her +prospectively; she had so little of it that she embraced it as a present +possession, and she made it Alvan's task to put it to the trial. Hence +it became Alvan's offence if, owing to his absence, she could be charged +with behaving badly. Her generosity pardoned him his inexplicable delay +to appear in his might: 'But see what your continued delay causes!' she +said, and her tone was merely sorrowful. + +She had forgotten her signature to the letter to the professor when his +answer arrived. The sight of the handwriting of one of her lover's +faithfullest friends was like a peal of bells to her, and she tore the +letter open, and began to blink and spell at a strange language, taking +the frosty sentences piecemeal. He begged her to be firm in her +resolution, give up Alvan and obey her parents! This man of high +intelligence and cultivation wrote like a provincial schoolmistress +moralizing. Though he knew the depth of her passion for Alvan, and had +within the month received her lark-song of her betrothal, he, this man-- +if living man he could be thought--counselled her to endeavour to deserve +the love and respect of her parents, alluded to Alvan's age and her +better birth, approved her resolve to consult the wishes of her family, +and in fine was as rank a traitor to friendship as any chronicled. Out +on him! She swept him from earth. + +And she had built some of her hopes on the professor. 'False friend!' +she cried. + +She wept over Alvan for having had so false a friend. + +There remained no one that could be expected to intervene with a strong +arm save the baroness. The professor's emphasized approval of her +resolve to consult the wishes of her family was a shocking hypocrisy, and +Clotilde thought of the contrast to it in her letter to the baroness. +The tripping and stumbling, prettily awkward little tone of gosling +innocent new from its egg, throughout the letter, was a triumph of +candour. She repeated passages, paragraphs, of the letter, assuring +herself that such affectionately reverential prattle would have moved +her, and with the strongest desire to cast her arms about the writer: it +had been composed to be moving to a woman, to any woman. The old woman +was entreated to bestow her blessing on the young one, all in Arcadia, +and let the young one nestle to the bosom she had not an idea of robbing. +She could not have had the idea, else how could she have made the +petition? And in order to compliment a venerable dame on her pure +friendship for a gentleman, it was imperative to reject the idea. +Besides, after seeing the photograph of the baroness, common civility +insisted on the purity of her friendship. Nay, in mercy to the poor +gentleman, friendship it must be. + +A letter of reply from that noble lady was due. Possibly she had +determined not to write, but to act. She was a lady of exalted birth, +a lady of the upper aristocracy, who could, if she would, bring both a +social and official pressure upon the General: and it might be in motion +now behind the scenes, Clotilde laid hold of her phantom baroness, almost +happy under the phantom's whisper that she need not despair. 'You have +been a little weak,' the phantom said to her, and she acquiesced with a +soft sniffle, adding: 'But, dearest, honoured lady, you are a woman, and +know what our trials are when we are so persecuted. O that I had your +beautiful sedateness! I do admire it, madam. I wish I could imitate.' +She carried her dramatic ingenuousness farthel still by saying: 'I have +seen your photograph'; implying that the inimitable, the much coveted air +of composure breathed out of yonder presentment of her features. 'For I +can't call you good looking,' she said within herself, for the +satisfaction of her sense of candour, of her sense of contrast as well. +And shutting her eyes, she thought of the horrid penitent a harsh-faced +woman in confession must be: + +The picture sent her swimmingly to the confessional, where sat a man with +his head in a hood, and he soon heard enough of mixed substance to dash +his hood, almost his head, off. Beauty may be immoderately frank in soul +to the ghostly. The black page comprised a very long list. 'But put +this on the white page,' says she to the surging father inside his box-- +'I loved Alvan!' A sentence or two more fetches the Alvanic man jumping +out of the priest: and so closely does she realize it that she has to +hunt herself into a corner with the question, whether she shall tell him +she guessed him to be no other than her lover. 'How could you expect a +girl, who is not a Papist, to come kneeling here?' she says. And he +answers with no matter what of a gallant kind. + +In this manner her natural effervescence amused her sorrowful mind while +gazing from her chamber window at the mountain sides across the valley, +where tourists, in the autumnal season, sweep up and down like a tidal +river. She had ceased to weep; she had outwept the colour of her eyes +and the consolation of weeping. Dressed in black to the throat, she sat +and waited the arrival of her phantom friend, the baroness--that angel! +who proved her goodness in consenting to be the friend of Alvan's +beloved, because she was the true friend of Alvan! How cheap such a way +of proving goodness, Clotilde did not consider. She wanted it so. + +The mountain heights were in dusty sunlight. She had seen them day after +day thinly lined on the dead sky, inviting thunder and doomed to +sultriness. She looked on the garden of the house, a desert under bee +and butterfly. Looking beyond the garden she perceived her father on the +glaring road, and one with him, the sight of whom did not flush her cheek +or spring her heart to a throb, though she pitied the poor boy: he was +useless to her, utterly. + +Soon her Indian Bacchus was in her room, and alone with her, and at her +feet. Her father had given him hope. He came bearing eyes that were +like hope's own; and kneeling, kissing her hands, her knees, her hair, he +seemed unaware that she was inanimate. + +There was nothing imaginable in which he could be of use. + +He was only another dust-cloud of the sultry sameness. She had been +expecting a woman, a tempest choral with sky and mountain and valley- +hollows, as the overture to Alvan's appearance. + +But he roused her. With Marko she had never felt her cowardice, and his +passionately beseeching, trembling, 'Will you have me?' called up the +tiger in the girl; in spite of pity for his voice she retorted on her +parents: + +'Will I have you? I? You ask me what is my will? It sounds oddly from +you, seeing that I wrote to you in Lucerne what I would have, and nothing +has changed in me since then, nothing! My feeling for him is unaltered, +and everything you have heard of me was wrung out of me by my +unhappiness. The world is dead to me, and all in it that is not. +Sigismund Alvan. To you I am accustomed to speak every thought of my +soul, and I tell you the world and all it has is dead to me, even my +parents--I hate them.' + +Marko pressed her hands. If he loved her slavishly, it was generously. +The wild thing he said was one of the frantic leaps of generosity in a +heart that was gone to impulse: 'I see it, they have martyrized you. +I know you so well, Clotilde! So, then, come to me, come with me, let me +cherish you. I will take you and rescue you from your people, and should +it be your positive wish to meet Alvan again, I myself will take you to +him, and then you may choose between us.' + +The generosity was evident. There was nevertheless, to a young woman +realizing the position foreshadowed by such a project, the suspicion of a +slavish hope nestling among the circumstances in the background, and this +she was taught by the dangerous emotion of gratitude gaining on her, and +melting her to him. + +She too had a slavish hope that was athirst and sinking, and it flew at +the throat of Marko's, eager to satiate its vengeance for these long +delays in the destroying of a weaker. + +She left her chair and cried: 'As you will. What is it to me? Take me, +if you please. Take that glove; it is the shape of my hand. You have as +much of me as is there. My life is gone. You or another! But take this +warning and my oath with it. I swear to you, that wherever I see +Sigismund Alvan I go straight to him, though the way be over you, all of +you, lying dead beneath me.' + +The lift of incredulous horror in Marko's large black eyes excited her to +a more savage imagination: 'Rejoice! I should rejoice to see you, all of +you, dead, that I might walk across you safe from disturbance to get to +him I love. Be under no delusion. I love him better than the lives of +any dear to me, or my own. I am his. He is my faith, my worship. I am +true to him, I am, I am. You force my hand from me, you take this +miserable body, but my soul is free to love him and to go to him when God +gives me sight of him. I am Alvan's eternally. All your laws are +mockeries. You, and my people, and your priests, and your law-makers, +are shadows, brain-vapours. Let him beckon!--So you have your warning. +Do what I may, I cannot be called untrue. And now let me be; I want +repose; my head breaks; I have been on the rack and I am in pieces!' + +Marko clung to her hand, said she was terrible and pitiless, but clung. + +The hand was nerveless: it was her dear hand. Had her tongue been more +venomous in wildness than the encounter with a weaker than herself made +it be, the holding of her hand would have been his antidote. In him +there was love for two. + +Clotilde allowed him to keep the hand, assuring herself she was +unconscious he did so. He brought her peace, he brought her old throning +self back to her, and he was handsome and tame as a leopard-skin at her +feet. + +If she was doomed to reach to Alvan through him, at least she had warned +him. The vision of the truthfulness of her nature threw a celestial wan +beam on her guilty destiny. + +She patted his head and bade him leave her, narrowing her shoulders on +the breast to let it be seen that the dark household within was locked +and shuttered. + +He went. He was good, obedient, humane; he was generous, exquisitely +bred; he brought her peace, and he had been warned. It is difficult in +affliction to think of one who belongs to us as one to whom we owe a +duty. The unquestionably sincere and devoted lover is also in his +candour a featureless person; and though we would not punish him for his +goodness, we have the right to anticipate that it will be equal to every +trial. Perhaps, for the sake of peace . . . after warning him . . . +her meditations tottered in dots. + +But when the heart hungers behind such meditations, that thinking without +language is a dangerous habit; for there will suddenly come a dash +usurping the series of tentative dots, which is nothing other than the +dreadful thing resolved on, as of necessity, as naturally as the +adventurous bow-legged infant pitches back from an excursion of two paces +to mother's lap; and not much less innocently within the mind, it would +appear. The dash is a haven reached that would not be greeted if it +stood out in words. Could we live without ourselves letting our animal +do our thinking for us legibly? We live with ourselves agreeably so long +as his projects are phrased in his primitive tongue, even though we have +clearly apprehended what he means, and though we sufficiently well +understand the whither of our destination under his guidance. No counsel +can be saner than that the heart should be bidden to speak out in plain +verbal speech within us. For want of it, Clotilde's short explorations +in Dot-and-Dash land were of a kind to terrify her, and yet they seemed +not only unavoidable, but foreshadowing of the unavoidable to come. +Or possibly--the thought came to her--Alvan would keep his word, and save +her from worse by stepping to the altar between her and Marko, there +calling on her to decide and quit the prince; and his presence would +breathe courage into her to go. to him. It set her looking to the altar +as a prospect of deliverance. + +Her mother could not fail to notice a change in Clotilde's wintry face +now that Marko was among them; her inference tallied with his report of +their interview, so she supposed the girl to have accepted more or less +heartily Marko's forgiveness. For him the girl's eyes were soft and +kind; her gaze was through the eyelashes, as one seeing a dream on a far +horizon. Marko spoke of her cheerfully, and was happy to call her his +own, but would not have her troubled by any ceremonial talk of their +engagement, so she had much to thank him for, and her consciousness of +the signal instance of ingratitude lying ahead in the darkness, like a +house mined beneath the smiling slumberer, made her eager to show the +real gratefulness and tenderness of her feelings. This had the +appearance of renewed affection; consequently her parents lost much of +their fear of the besieger outside, and she was removed to the city. +Two parties were in the city, one favouring Alvan, and one abhorring the +audacious Jew. Together they managed to spread incredible reports of his +doings, which required little exaggeration to convince an enemy that he +was a man with whom hostility could not be left to sleep. The General +heard of the man's pleading his cause in all directions to get pressure +put upon him, showing something like a devilish persuasiveness, Jew and +demagogue though he was; for there seemed to be a feeling abroad that the +interview this howling lover claimed with Clotilde ought to be granted. +The latest report spoke of him as off to the General's Court for an +audience of his official chief. General von Rudiger looked to his +defences, and he had sufficient penetration to see that the weakest point +of them might be a submissive daughter. + +A letter to Clotilde from the baroness was brought to the house by a +messenger. The General thought over it. The letter was by no means a +seductive letter for a young lady to receive from such a person, yet he +did not anticipate the whole effect it would produce when ultimately he +decided to give it to her, being of course unaware of the noble style of +Clotilde's address to the baroness. He stipulated that there must be no +reply to it except through him, and Clotilde had the coveted letter in +her hands at last. Here was the mediatrix--the veritable goddess with +the sword to cut the knot! Here was the manifestation of Alvan! + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +Above all things I detest the writing for money +Beginning to have a movement to kiss the whip +Dignitary, and he passed under the bondage of that position +Giant Vanity urged Giant Energy to make use of Giant Duplicity +Hesitating strangeness that sometimes gathers during absences +His apparent cynicism is sheer irritability +I give my self, I do not sell +Night has little mercy for the self-reproachful +Not in a situation that could bear of her blaming herself +O for yesterday! +Professional widows +Self-consoled when they are not self-justified +Want of courage is want of sense +We shall not be rich--nor poor +Work of extravagance upon perceptibly plain matter + + + + +[The End] + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 4462 *** diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6312041 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This eBook, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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He +was like summer's morning sunlight, his warmth striking instantly through +her blood dispersed any hesitating strangeness that sometimes gathers +during absences, caused by girlish dread of a step to take, or shame at +the step taken, when coldish gentlemen rather create these backflowings +and gaps in the feelings. She had grown reconciled to the perturbation +of his messages, and would have preferred to have him startling and +thrilling her from a distance; but seeing him, she welcomed him, and +feeling in his bright presence not the faintest chill of the fit of +shyness, she took her bravery of heart for a sign that she had reached +his level, and might own it by speaking of the practical measures to lead +to their union. On one subject sure to be raised against him by her +parents, she had a right to be inquisitive: the baroness. + +She asked to see a photograph of her. + +Alvan gave her one out of his pocketbook, and watched her eyelids in +profile as she perused those features of the budless grey woman. The +eyelids in such scrutinies reveal the critical mind; Clotilde's drooped +till they almost closed upon their lashes--deadly criticism. + +'Think of her age,' said Alvan, colouring. He named a grandmaternal date +for the year of the baroness's birth. + +Her eyebrows now stood up; her contemplation of those disenchanting +lineaments came to an abrupt finish. + +She returned the square card to him, slowly shaking her head, still +eyeing earth as her hand stretched forth the card laterally. He could +not contest the woeful verdict. + +'Twenty years back!' he murmured, writhing. The baroness was a woman +fair to see in the days twenty years back, though Clotilde might think it +incredible: she really was once. + +Clotilde resumed her doleful shaking of the head; she sighed. He +shrugged; she looked at him, and he blinked a little. For the first time +since they had come together she had a clear advantage, and as it was +likely to be a rare occasion, she did not let it slip. She sighed again. +He was wounded by her underestimate of his ancient conquest. + +'Yes--now,' he said, impatiently. + +'I cannot feel jealousy, I cannot feel rivalry,' said she, sad of voice. + +The humour of her tranced eyes in the shaking head provoked him to defend +the baroness for her goodness of heart, her energy of brain. + +Clotilde 'tolled' her naughty head. + +'But it is a strong face,' she said, 'a strong face--a strong jaw, by +Lavater! You were young--and daringly adventurous; she was captivating +in her distress. Now she is old--and you are friends.' + +'Friends, yes,' Alvan replied, and praised the girl, as of course she +deserved to be praised for her open mind. + +'We are friends!' he said, dropping a deep-chested breath. The title +this girl scornfully supplied was balm to the vanity she had stung, and +his burnt skin was too eager for a covering of any sort to examine the +mood of the giver. She had positively humbled him so far as with a +single word to relieve him; for he had seen bristling chapters in her +look at the photograph. Yet for all the natural sensitiveness of the +man's vanity, he did not seek to bury the subject at the cost of a +misconception injurious in the slightest degree to the sentiments he +entertained toward the older lady as well as the younger. 'Friends! +you are right; good friends; only you should know that it is just a +little--a trifle different. The fact is, I cannot kill the past, and I +would not. It would try me sharply to break the tie connecting us, were +it possible to break it. I am bound to her by gratitude. She is old +now; and were she twice that age, I should retain my feeling for her. +You raise your eyes, Clotilde! Well, when I was much younger I found +this lady in desperate ill-fortune, and she honoured me with her +confidence. Young man though I was, I defended her; I stopped at no +measure to defend her: against a powerful husband, remember--the most +unscrupulous of foes, who sought to rob her of every right she possessed. +And what I did then I again would do. I was vowed to her interests, to +protect a woman shamefully wronged; I did not stick at trifles, as you +know; you have read my speech in defence of myself before the court. By +my interpretation of the case, I was justified; but I estranged my family +and made the world my enemy. I gave my time and money, besides the +forfeit of reputation, to the case, and reasonably there was an +arrangement to repay me out of the estate reserved for her, so that the +baroness should not be under the degradation of feeling herself indebted. +You will not think that out of the way: men of the world do not. As for +matters of the heart between us, we're as far apart as the Poles.' + +He spoke hurriedly. He had said all that could be expected of him. + +They were in a wood, walking through lines of spruce firs of deep golden +green in the yellow beams. One of these trees among its well-robed +fellows fronting them was all lichen-smitten. From the low sweeping +branches touching earth to the plumed top, the tree was dead-black as its +shadow; a vision of blackness. + +'I will compose a beautiful, dutiful, modest, oddest, beseeching, +screeching, mildish, childish epistle to her, and you shall read it, and +if you approve it, we shall despatch it,' said Clotilde. + +'There speaks my gold-crested serpent at her wisest!' replied Alvan. +'And now for my visit to your family: I follow you in a day. En avant! +contre les canons! A run to Lake Leman brings us to them in the +afternoon. I shall see you in the evening. So our separation won't be +for long this time. All the auspices are good. We shall not be rich-- +nor poor.' + +Clotilde reminded him that a portion of money would be brought to the +store by her. + +'We don't count it,' said he. 'Not rich, certainly. And you will not +expect me to make money by my pen. Above all things I detest the writing +for money. Fiction and verse appeal to a besotted public, that judges of +the merit of the work by the standard of its taste: avaunt! And +journalism for money is Egyptian bondage. No slavery is comparable to +the chains of hired journalism. My pen is my fountain--the key of me; +and I give my self, I do not sell. I write when I have matter in me and +in the direction it presses for, otherwise not one word!' + +'I would never ask you to sell yourself,' said Clotilde. 'I would rather +be in want of common comforts.' + +He squeezed her wrist. They were again in front of the black-draped +blighted tree. It was the sole tree of the host clad thus in scurf +bearing a semblance of livid metal. They looked at it as having seen it +before, and passed on. + +'But the wife of Sigismund Alvan will not be poor in renown!' he resumed, +radiating his full bloom on her. + +'My highest ambition is to be Sigismund Alvan's wife!' she exclaimed. + +To hear her was as good as wine, and his heart came out on a genial +chuckle. 'Ay, the choice you have made is not, by heaven, so bad. +Sigismund Alvan's wife shall take the foremost place of all. Look at +me.' He lifted his head to the highest on his shoulders, widening his +eagle eyes. He was now thoroughly restored and in his own upper element, +expansive after the humiliating contraction of his man's vanity under the +glances of a girl. 'Do you take me for one who could be content with the +part of second? I will work and do battle unceasingly, but I will have +too the prize of battle to clasp it, savour it richly. I was not +fashioned to be the lean meek martyr of a cause, not I. I carry too +decisive a weight in the balance to victory. I have a taste for fruits, +my fairest! And Republics, my bright Lutetia, can give you splendid +honours.' He helped her to realize this with the assuring splendour of +his eyes. + +'"Bride of the Elect of the People!" is not that as glorious a title, +think you, as queen of an hereditary sovereign mumbling of God's grace on +his worm-eaten throne? I win that seat by service, by the dedication of +this brain to the people's interests. They have been ground to the dust, +and I lift them, as I did a persecuted lady in my boyhood. I am the +soldier of justice against the army of the unjust. But I claim my +reward. If I live to fight, I live also to enjoy. I will have my +station. I win it not only because I serve, but because also I have +seen, have seen ahead, seen where all is dark, read the unwritten-- +because I am soldier and prophet. The brain of man is Jove's eagle and +his lightning on earth--the title to majesty henceforth. Ah! my +fairest; entering the city beside me, and the people shouting around, she +would not think her choice a bad one?' + +Clotilde made sign and gave some earnest on his arm of ecstatic hugging. + +'We may have hard battles, grim deceptions, to go through before that day +comes,' he continued after a while. 'The day is coming, but we must wait +for it, work on. I have the secret of how to head the people--to put a +head to their movement and make it irresistible, as I believe it will be +beneficent. I set them moving on the lines of the law of things. I am +no empty theorizer, no phantasmal speculator; I am the man of science in +politics. When my system is grasped by the people, there is but a step +to the realization of it. One step. It will be taken in my time, or +acknowledged later. I stand for index to the people of the path they +should take to triumph--must take, as triumph they must sooner or later: +not by the route of what is called Progress--pooh! That is a middle- +class invention to effect a compromise. With the people the matter rests +with their intelligence! meanwhile my star is bright and shines +reflected.' + +'I notice,' she said, favouring him with as much reflection as a splendid +lover could crave for, 'that you never look down, you never look on the +ground, but always either up or straight before you.' + +'People have remarked it,' said he, smiling. 'Here we are at this +funereal tree again. All roads lead to Rome, and ours appears to conduct +us perpetually to this tree. It 's the only dead one here.' + +He sighted the plumed black top and along the swelling branches +decorously clothed in decay: a salted ebon moss when seen closely; the +small grey particles giving a sick shimmer to the darkness of the mass. +It was very witch-like, of a witch in her incantation-smoke. + +'Not a single bare spot! but dead, dead as any peeled and fallen!' said +Alvan, fingering a tuft of the sooty snake-lichen. 'This is a tree for a +melancholy poet--eh, Clotilde?--for him to come on it by moonlight, after +a scene with his mistress, or tales of her! By the way and by the way, +my fair darling, let me never think of your wearing this kind of garb for +me, should I be ordered off the first to join the dusky army below. +Women who put on their dead husbands in public are not well-mannered +women, though they may be excellent professional widows, excellent!' + +He snapped the lichen-dust from his fingers, observing that he was not +sure the contrast of the flourishing and blighted was not more impressive +in sunlight: and then he looked from the tree to his true love's hair. +The tree at a little distance seemed run over with sunless lizards: her +locks were golden serpents. + +'Shall I soon see your baroness?' Clotilde asked him. + +'Not in advance of the ceremony,' he answered. 'In good time. You +understand--an old friend making room for a new one, and that one young +and beautiful, with golden tresses; at first . . . ! But her heart is +quite sound. Have no fear! I guarantee it; I know her to the roots. +She desires my welfare, she does my behests. If I am bound to her by +gratitude, so, and in a greater degree, is she to me. The utmost she +will demand is that my bride shall be worthy of me--a good mate for me +in the fight to come; and I have tested my bride and found her half my +heart; therefore she passes the examination with the baroness.' + +They left the tree behind them. + +'We will take good care not to return this way again,' said Alvan, +without looking back. 'That tree belongs to a plantation of the under +world; its fellows grow in the wood across Acheron, and that tree has +looked into the ghastliness of the flood and seen itself. Hecate and +Hermes know about it. Phoebus cannot light it. That tree stands for +Death blooming. We think it sinister, but down there it is a homely +tree. Down there! When do we go? The shudder in that tree is the air +exchanging between Life and Death--the ghosts going and coming: it's on +the border line. I just felt the creep. I think you did. The reason +is--there is always a material reason--that you were warm, and a bit of +chill breeze took you as you gazed; while for my part I was imagining at +that very moment what of all possible causes might separate us, and I +acknowledged that death could do the trick. But death, my love, is far +from us two!' + +'Does she look as grimmish as she does in the photograph?' said Clotilde. + +'Who? the baroness?' Alvan laughed. The baroness was not so easily +defended from a girl as from her husband, it appeared. 'She is the best +of comrades, best of friends. She has her faults; may not relish the +writ announcing her final deposition, but be you true to me, and as true +as she has unfailingly been to me, she will be to you. That I can +promise. My poor Lucie! She is winter, if you will. It is not the +winter of the steppes; you may compare her to winter in a noble country; +a fine landscape of winter. The outlines of her face . . . . She has +a great brain. How much I owe that woman for instruction! You meet now +and then men who have the woman in them without being womanized; they are +the pick of men. And the choicest women are those who yield not a +feather of their womanliness for some amount of manlike strength. And +she is one; man's brain, woman's heart. I thought her unique till I +heard of you. And how do I stand between you two? She has the only +fault you can charge me with; she is before me in time, as I am before +you. Shall I spoil you as she spoilt me? No, no! Obedience to a boy +is the recognition of the heir-apparent, and I respect the salique law as +much as I love my love. I do not offer obedience to a girl, but succour, +support. You will not rule me, but you will invigorate, and if you are +petted, you shall not be spoilt. Do not expect me to show like that +undertakerly tree till my years are one hundred. Even then it will be +dangerous to repose beneath my branches in the belief that I am sapless +because I have changed colour. We Jews have a lusty blood. We are +strong of the earth. We serve you, but you must minister to us. +Sensual? We have truly excellent appetites. And why not? Heroical too! +Soldiers, poets, musicians; the Gentile's masters in mental arithmetic-- +keenest of weapons: surpassing him in common sense and capacity for +brotherhood. Ay, and in charity; or what stores of vengeance should we +not have nourished! Already we have the money-bags. Soon we shall hold +the chief offices. And when the popular election is as unimpeded as the +coursing of the blood in a healthy body, the Jew shall be foremost and +topmost, for he is pre-eminently by comparison the brain of these latter- +day communities. But that is only my answer to the brutish contempt of +the Jew. I am no champion of a race. I am for the world, for man!' + +Clotilde remarked that he had many friends, all men of eminence, and a +large following among the people. + +He assented: 'Yes: Tresten, Retka, Kehlen, the Nizzian. Yes, if I were +other than for legality:--if it came to a rising, I could tell off able +lieutenants.' + +'Tell me of your interview with Ironsides,' she said proudly and fondly. + +'Would this ambitious little head know everything?' said Alvan, putting +his lips among the locks. 'Well, we met: he requested it. We agreed +that we were on neutral ground for the moment: that he might ultimately +have to decapitate me, or I to banish him, but temporarily we could +compare our plans for governing. He showed me his hand. I showed him +mine. We played open-handed, like two at whist. He did not doubt my +honesty, and I astonished him by taking him quite in earnest. He has +dealt with diplomatists, who imagine nothing but shuffling: the old +Ironer! I love him for his love of common sense, his contempt of mean +deceit. He will outwit you, but his dexterity is a giant's--a simple +evolution rapidly performed: and nothing so much perplexes pygmies! +Then he has them, bagsful of them! The world will see; and see giant +meet giant, I suspect. He and I proposed each of us in the mildest +manner contrary schemes--schemes to stiffen the hair of Europe! Enough +that we parted with mutual respect. He is a fine fellow: and so was my +friend the Emperor Tiberius, and so was Richelieu. Napoleon was a fine +engine:--there is a difference. Yes, Ironsides is a fine fellow! but he +and I may cross. His ideas are not many. The point to remember is that +he is iron on them: he can drive them hard into the density of the globe. +He has quick nerves and imagination: he can conjure up, penetrate, and +traverse complications--an enemy's plans, all that the enemy will be able +to combine, and the likeliest that he will do. Good. We opine that we +are equal to the same. He is for kingcraft to mask his viziercraft--and +save him the labour of patiently attempting oratory and persuasion, which +accomplishment he does not possess:--it is not in iron. We think the +more precious metal will beat him when the broader conflict comes. But +such an adversary is not to be underrated. I do not underrate him: and +certainly not he me. Had he been born with the gifts of patience and a +fluent tongue, and not a petty noble, he might have been for the people, +as knowing them the greater power. He sees that their knowledge of their +power must eventually come to them. In the meantime his party is +forcible enough to assure him he is not fighting a losing game at +present: and he is, no doubt, by lineage and his traditions monarchical. +He is curiously simple, not really cynical. His apparent cynicism is +sheer irritability. His contemptuous phrases are directed against +obstacles: against things, persons, nations that oppose him or cannot +serve his turn against his king, if his king is restive; but he respects +his king: against your friends' country, because there is no fixing it to +a line of policy, and it seems to have collapsed; but he likes that +country the best in Europe after his own. He is nearest to contempt in +his treatment of his dupes and tools, who are dropped out of his mind +when he has quite squeezed them for his occasion; to be taken up again +when they are of use to him. Hence he will have no following. But let +me die to-morrow, the party I have created survives. In him you see the +dam, in me the stream. Judge, then, which of them gains the future!-- +admitting that, in the present he may beat me. He is a Prussian, stoutly +defined from a German, and yet again a German stoutly defined from our +borderers: and that completes him. He has as little the idea of humanity +as the sword of our Hermann, the cannon-ball of our Frederick. Observe +him. What an eye he has! I watched it as we were talking: and he has, I +repeat, imagination; he can project his mind in front of him as far as +his reasoning on the possible allows: and that eye of his flashes; and +not only flashes, you see it hurling a bolt; it gives me the picture of a +Balearic slinger about to whizz the stone for that eye looks far, and is +hard, and is dead certain of its mark-within his practical compass, as I +have said. I see farther, and I fancy I proved to him that I am not a +dreamer. In my opinion, when we cross our swords I stand a fair chance +of not being worsted. We shall: you shrink? Figuratively, my darling +have no fear! Combative as we may be, both of us, we are now grave +seniors, we have serious business: a party looks to him, my party looks +to me. Never need you fear that I shall be at sword or pistol with any +one. I will challenge my man, whoever he as that needs a lesson, to +touch buttons on a waistcoat with the button on the foil, or drill fiver +and eights in cards at twenty paces: but I will not fight him though he +offend me, for I am stronger than my temper, and as I do not want to take +his nip of life, and judge it to be of less value than mine, the +imperilling of either is an absurdity.' + +'Oh! because I know you are incapable of craven fear,' cried Clotilde, +answering aloud the question within herself of why she so much admired, +why she so fondly loved him. To feel his courage backing his high good +sense was to repose in security, and her knowledge that an astute self- +control was behind his courage assured her he was invincible. It seemed +to her, therefore, as they walked side by side, and she saw their +triumphant pair of figures in her fancy, natural that she should +instantly take the step to prepare her for becoming his Republican +Princess. She walked an equal with the great of the earth, by virtue of +her being the mate of the greatest of the great; she trod on some, and +she thrilled gratefully to the man who sustained her and shielded her on +that eminence. Elect of the people he! and by a vaster power than kings +can summon through the trumpet! She could surely pass through the trial +with her parents that she might step to the place beside him! She +pressed his arm to be physically a sharer of his glory. Was it love? +It was as lofty a stretch as her nature could strain to. + +She named the city on the shores of the great Swiss lake where her +parents were residing; she bade him follow her thither, and name the +hotel where he was to be found, the hour when he was to arrive. 'Am I +not precise as an office clerk?' she said, with a pleasant taste of the +reality her preciseness pictured. + +'Practical as the head of a State department,' said he, in good faith. + +'I shall not keep you waiting,' she resumed. + +'The sooner we are together after the action opens the better for our +success, my golden crest!' + +'Have no misgivings, Sigismund. You have transformed me. A spark of you +is in my blood. Come. I shall send word to your hotel when you are to +appear. But you will come, you will be there, I know. I know you so +entirely.' + +'As a rule, Lutetia, women know no more than half of a man even when they +have married him. At least you ought to know me. You know that if I +were to exercise my will firmly now--it would not waver if I called it +forth--I could carry you off and spare you the flutter you will have to +go through during our interlude with papa and mama.' + +'I almost wish you would,' said she. She looked half imploringly, biting +her lip to correct the peeping wish. + +Alvan pressed a finger on one of her dimples: 'Be brave. Flight and +defiance are our last resource. Now that I see you resolved I shun the +scandal, and we will leave it to them to insist on it, if it must be. +How can you be less than resolved after I have poured my influence into +your veins? The other day on the heights--had you consented then? Well! +it would have been very well, but not so well. We two have a future, and +are bound to make the opening chapters good sober reading, for an +example, if we can. I take you from your father's house, from your +mother's arms, from the "God speed" of your friends. That is how Alvan's +wife should be presented to the world.' + +Clotilde's epistle to the baroness was composed, approved, and +despatched. To a frigid eye it read as more hypocritical than it really +was; for supposing it had to be written, the language of the natural +impulse called up to write it was necessarily in request, and that +language is easily overdone, so as to be discordant with the situation, +while it is, as the writer feels, a fairly true and well-formed +expression of the pretty impulse. But wiser is it always that the star +in the ascendant should not address the one waning. Hardly can a word be +uttered without grossly wounding. She would not do it to a younger +rival: the letter strikes on the recipient's age! She babbles of a +friendship: she plays at childish ninny! The display of her ingenuous +happiness causes feminine nature's bosom to rise in surges. The +declarations of her devotedness to the man waken comparisons with a +deeper, a longer-tried suffering. Actually the letter of the rising star +assumes personal feeling to have died out of the abandoned luminary, and +personal feeling is chafed to its acutest edge by the perusal; contempt +also of one who can stupidly simulate such innocence, is roused. + +Among Alvan's gifts the understanding of women did not rank high. +He was too robust, he had been too successful. Your very successful hero +regards them as nine-pins destined to fall, the whole tuneful nine, at a +peculiar poetical twist of the bowler's wrist, one knocking down the +other--figuratively, for their scruples, or for their example with their +sisters. His tastes had led him into the avenues of success, and as he +had not encountered grand resistances, he entertained his opinion of +their sex. The particular maxim he cherished was, to stake everything on +his making a favourable first impression: after which single figure, he +said, all your empty naughts count with women for hundreds, thousands, +millions: noblest virtues are but sickly units. He would have stared +like any Philistine at the tale of their capacity to advance to a +likeness unto men in their fight with the world. Women for him were +objects to be chased, the politician's relaxation, taken like the +sportsman's business, with keen relish both for the pursuit and the prey, +and a view of the termination of his pastime. Their feelings he could +appreciate during the time when they flew and fell, perhaps a little +longer; but the change in his own feelings withdrew him from the +communion of sentiment. This is the state of men who frequent the +avenues of success. At present he was thinking of a wife, and he +approved the epistle to the baroness cordially. + +'I do think it a nice kind of letter, and quite humble enough,' said +Clotilde. + +He agreed, 'Yes, yes: she knows already that this is really serious with +me.' + +So much for the baroness. + +Now for their parting. A parting that is no worse than the turning of a +page to a final meeting is made light of, but felt. Reason is all in our +favour, and yet the gods are jealous of the bliss of mortals; the slip +between the cup and the lip is emotionally watched for, even though it be +not apprehended, when the cup trembles for very fulness. Clotilde +required reassuring and comforting: 'I am certain you will prevail; you +must; you cannot be resisted; I stand to witness to the fact,' she sighed +in a languor: 'only, my people are hard to manage. I see more clearly +now, that I have imposed on them; and they have given away by a sort of +compact so long as I did nothing decisive. That I see. But, then again, +have I not your spirit in me now? What has ever resisted you?--Then, +as I am Alvan's wife, I share his heart with his fortunes, and I do not +really dread the scenes from anticipating failure, still-the truth is, +I fear I am three parts an actress, and the fourth feels itself a +shivering morsel to face reality. No, I do not really feel it, but press +my hand, I shall be true--I am so utterly yours: and because I have such +faith in you. You never, yet have failed' + +'Never: and it is impossible for me to conceive it,' said Alvan +thoughtfully. + +His last word to her on her departure was 'Courage!' Hers to him was +conveyed by the fondest of looks. She had previously said 'To-morrow!' +to remind him of his appointment to be with her on the morrow, and +herself that she would not long stand alone. She did not doubt of her +courage while feasting on the beauty of one of the acknowledged strong +men of earth. She kissed her hand, she flung her heart to him from the +waving fingers. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +Alvan, left to himself, had a quiet belief in the subjugation of his +tricksy Clotilde, and the inspiriting he had given her. All the rest to +come was mere business matter of the conflict, scarcely calling for a +plan of action. Who can hold her back when a woman is decided to move? +Husbands have tried it vainly, and parents; and though the husband and +the parents are not dealing with the same kind of woman, you see the same +elemental power in her under both conditions of rebel wife and rebel +daughter to break conventional laws, and be splendidly irrational. That +is, if she can be decided: in other words, aimed at a mark and inflamed +to fly the barriers intercepting. He fancied he had achieved it. Alvan +thanked his fortune that he had to treat with parents. The consolatory +sensation of a pure intent soothed his inherent wildness, in the +contemplation of the possibility that the latter might be roused by those +people, her parents, to upset his honourable ambition to win a wife after +the fashion of orderly citizens. It would be on their heads! But why +vision mischance? An old half-jesting prophecy of his among his friends, +that he would not pass his fortieth year, rose upon his recollection +without casting a shadow. Lo, the reckless prophet about to marry! + +No dark bride, no skeleton, no colourless thing, no lichened tree, was +she. Not Death, my friends, but Life, is the bride of this doomed +fortieth year! Was animation ever vivider in contrast with obstruction? +Her hair would kindle the frosty shades to a throb of vitality: it would +be sunshine in the subterranean sphere. The very thinking of her +dispersed that realm of the poison hue, and the eternally inviting +phosphorescent, still, curved forefinger, which says, 'Come.' + +To think of her as his vernal bride, while the snowy Alps were a +celestial garden of no sunset before his eyes, was to have the taste of +mortal life in the highest. He wondered how it was that he could have +waited so long for her since the first night of their meeting, and he +just distinguished the fact that he lived with the pulses of the minutes, +much as she did, only more fierily. The ceaseless warfare called +politics must have been the distraction: he forgot any other of another +kind. He was a bridegroom for whom the rosed Alps rolled out, a panorama +of illimitable felicity. And there were certain things he must overcome +before he could name his bride his own, so that his innate love of +contention, which had been constantly flattered by triumph, brought, his +whole nature into play with the prospect of the morrow: not much liking +it either. There is a nerve, in brave warriors that does not like the +battle before, the crackle of musketry is heard, and the big artillery. + +Methodically, according to his habit, he jotted down the hours of the +trains, the hotel mentioned by Clotilde, the address of her father; he +looked to his card-case, his writing materials, his notes upon Swiss law; +considering that the scene would be in Switzerland, and he was a lawyer +bent on acting within and up to the measure of the law as well as +pleading eloquently. The desire to wing a telegram to her he thought it +wise to repress, and he found himself in consequence composing verses, +turgid enough, even to his own judgement. Poets would have failed at +such a time, and he was not one, but an orator enamoured. He was a wild +man, cased in the knowledge of jurisprudence, and wishing to enter the +ranks of the soberly blissful. These he could imagine that he +complimented by the wish. Then why should he doubt of his fortune? +He did not. + +The night passed, the morning came, and carried him on his journey. Late +in the afternoon he alighted at the hotel he called Clotilde's. A letter +was handed to him. His eyes all over the page caught the note of it for +her beginning of the battle and despair at the first repulse. 'And now +my turn!' said he, not overjoyously. The words Jew and demagogue and +baroness, quoted in the letter, were old missiles hurling again at him. +But Clotilde's parents were yet to learn that this Jew, demagogue, and +champion of an injured lady, was a gentleman respectful to their legal +and natural claims upon their child while maintaining his own: they were +to know him and change their tone. + +As he was reading the letter upstairs by sentences, his door opened at +the answer to a tap. He started; his face was a shield's welcome to the +birdlike applicant for admission. Clotilde stood hesitating. + +He sent the introducing waiter speeding on his most kellnerish legs, and +drew her in. + +'Alvan, I have come.' + +She was like a bird in his hands, palpitating to extinction. + +He bent over her: 'What has happened?' + +Trembling, and very pale, hard in her throat she said, 'The worst.' + +'You have spoken to them both subsequent to this?' he shook the letter. + +'It is hopeless.' + +'Both to father and mother?' + +'Both. They will not hear your name; they will not hear me speak. I +repeat, it is past all hope, all chance of moving them. They hate--hate +you, hate me for thinking of you. I had no choice; I wrote at once and +followed my letter; I ran through the streets; I pant for want of breath, +not want of courage. I prove I have it, Alvan; I have done all I can do. + +She was enfolded; she sank on the nest, dropping her eyelids. + +But he said nothing. She looked up at him. Her strained pale eyes +provoked a closer embrace. + +'This would be the home for you if we were flying,' said he, glancing +round at the room, with a sensation like a shudder, 'Tell me what there +is to be told.' + +'Alvan, I have; that is all. They will not listen; they loathe Oh! what +possesses them!' + +'They have not met me yet!' + +'They will not, will not ever--no!' + +'They must.' + +'They refuse. Their child, for daring to say she loves you, is detested. +Take me--take me away!' + +'Run?--facing the enemy?' His countenance was the fiery laugh of a +thirster for strife. 'They have to be taught the stuff Alvan is made +of!' + +Clotilde moaned to signify she was sure he nursed an illusion. 'I found +them celebrating the betrothal of my sister Lotte with the Austrian Count +Walburg; I thought it favourable for us. I spoke of you to my mother. +Oh, that scene! What she said I cannot recollect: it was a hiss. Then +my father. Your name changed his features and his voice. They treated +me as impure for mentioning it. You must have deadly enemies. +I was unable to recognize either father or mother--they have become +transformed. But you see I am here. Courage! you said; and I +determined I would show it, and be worthy of you. But I am pursued, +I am sure. My father is powerful in this place; we shall barely have +time to escape.' + +Alvan's resolution was taken. + +'Some friend--a lady living in the city here--name her, quick!--one you +can trust,' he said, and fondled her hastily, much as a gentle kind of +drillmaster straightens a fair pupil's shoulders. 'Yes, you have shown +courage. Now it must be submission to me. You shall be no runaway +bride, but honoured at the altar. Out of this hotel is the first point. +You know some such lady?' + +Clotilde tried to remonstrate and to suggest. She could have prophesied +certain evil from any evasion of the straight line of flight; she was so +sure of it because of her intuition that her courage had done its utmost +in casting her on him, and that the remainder within her would be a +drawing back. She could not get the word or even the look to encounter +his close and warm imperiousness; and, hesitating, she noticed where they +were together alone. She could not refuse the protection he offered in a +person of her own sex; and now, flushing with the thought of where they +were together alone, feminine modesty shrivelled at the idea of +entreating a man to bear her off, though feminine desperation urged to +it. She felt herself very bare of clothing, and she named a lady, a +Madame Emerly, living near the hotel. Her heart sank like a stone. +'It is for you!' cried Alvan, keenly sensible of his loss and his +generosity in temporarily resigning her--for a subsequent triumph. +'But my wife shall not be snatched by a thief in the night. Are you not +my wife--my golden bride? And you may give me this pledge of it, as if +the vows had just been uttered . . . and still I resign you till we +speak the vows. It shall not be said of Alvan's wife, in the days of her +glory, that she ran to her nuptials through rat-passages.' + +His pride in his prevailingness thrilled her. She was cooled by her +despondency sufficiently to perceive where the centre of it lay, but that +centre of self was magnificent; she recovered some of her enthusiasm, +thinking him perhaps to be acting rightly; in any case they were united, +her step was irrevocable. Her having entered the hotel, her being in +this room, certified to that. It seemed to her while she was waiting for +the carriage he had ordered that she was already half a wife. She was +not conscious of a blush. The sprite in the young woman's mind whispered +of fire not burning when one is in the heart of it. And undoubtedly, +contemplated from the outside, this room was the heart of fire. An +impulse to fall on Alvan's breast and bless him for his chivalrousness +had to be kept under lest she should wreck the thing she praised. +Otherwise she was not ill at ease. Alvan summoned his gaiety, all his +homeliness of tone, to give her composure, and on her quitting the room +she was more than ever bound to him, despite her gloomy foreboding. +A maid of her household, a middle-aged woman, gabbling of devotion to +her, ran up the steps of the hotel. Her tale was, that the General had +roused the city in pursuit of his daughter; and she heard whither +Clotilde was going. + +Within half an hour, Clotilde was in Madame Emerly's drawing-room +relating her desperate history of love and parental tyranny, assisted by +the lover whom she had introduced. Her hostess promised shelter and +exhibited sympathy. The whole Teutonic portion of the Continent knew +Alvan by reputation. He was insurrectionally notorious in morals and +menacingly in politics; but his fine air, handsome face, flowing tongue, +and the signal proof of his respect for the lady of his love and +deference toward her family, won her personally. She promised the best +help she could give them. They were certainly in a romantic situation, +such as few women could see and decline their aid to the lovers. + +Madame Emerly proved at least her sincerity before many minutes had +passed. + +Chancing to look out into the street, she saw Clotilde's mother and her +betrothed sister stepping up to the house. What was to be done? And was +the visit accidental? She announced it, and Clotilde cried out, but +Alvan cried louder: 'Heaven-directed! and so, let me see her and speak +to her--nothing could be better.' + +Madame Emerly took mute counsel of Clotilde, shaking her own head +premonitorily; and then she said: 'I think indeed it will be safer, +if I am asked, to say you are not here, and I know not where you are.' + +'Yes! yes!' Clotilde replied: 'Oh! do that.' + +She half turned to Alvan, rigid with an entreaty that hung on his coming +voice. + +'No!' said Alvan, shocked in both pride and vanity. 'Plain-dealing; no +subterfuge! Begin with foul falsehood? No. I would not have you +burdened, madame, with the shadow of a conventional untruth on our +account. And when it would be bad policy? . . . Oh, no, worse than +the sin! as the honest cynic says. We will go down to Madame von +Rudiger, and she shall make acquaintance with the man who claims her +daughter's hand.' + +Clotilde rocked in an agony. Her friend was troubled. Both ladies knew +what there would be to encounter better than he. But the man, strong in +his belief in himself, imposed his will on them. + +Alvan and Clotilde clasped hands as they went downstairs to Madame +Emerly's reception room. She could hardly speak: 'Do not forsake me.' + +'Is this forsaking?' He could ask it in the deeply questioning tone +which supplies the answer. + +'Oh, Alvan!' She would have said: 'Be warned.' + +He kissed her fingers. 'Trust to me.' + +She had to wrap her shivering spirit in a blind reliance and utter +leaning on him. + +She could almost have said: 'Know me better'; and she would, sincere as +her passion in its shallow vessel was, have been moved to say it for a +warning while yet there was time to leave the house instead of turning +into that room, had not a remainder of her first exaltation (rapidly +degenerating to desperation) inspired her with the thought of her being a +part of this handsome, undaunted, triumph-flashing man. + +Such a state of blind reliance and utter leaning, however, has a certain +tendency to disintegrate the will, and by so doing it prepares the spirit +to be a melting prize of the winner. + +Men and women alike, who renounce their own individuality by cowering +thus abjectly under some other before the storm, are in reality abjuring +their idea of that other, and offering themselves up to the genius of +Power in whatsoever direction it may chance to be manifested, in +whatsoever person. We no sooner shut our eyes than we consent to be +prey, we lose the soul of election. + +Mark her as she proceeds. For should her hero fail, and she be suffering +through his failure and her reliance on him, the blindness of it will +seem to her to have been an infinite virtue, anything but her deplorable +weakness crouching beneath his show of superhuman strength. And it will +seem to her, so long as her sufferings endure, that he deceived her just +expectations, and was a vain pretender to the superhuman:--for it was +only a superhuman Jew and democrat whom she could have thought of +espousing. The pusillanimous are under a necessity to be self-consoled +when they are not self-justified: it is their instinctive manner of +putting themselves in the right to themselves. The love she bore him, +because it was the love his high conceit exacted, hung on success she was +ready to fly with him and love him faithfully but not without some reason +(where reason, we will own, should not quite so coldly obtrude) will it +seem to her, that the man who would not fly, and would try the conflict, +insisted to stake her love on the issue he provoked. He roused the +tempest, he angered the Fates, he tossed her to them; and reason, coldest +reason, close as it ever is to the craven's heart in its hour of trial, +whispers that he was prompted to fling the gambler's die by the swollen +conceit in his fortune rather than by his desire for the prize. That +frigid reason of the craven has red-hot perceptions. It spies the spot +of truth. Were the spot revealed in the man the whole man, then, so +unerring is the eyeshot at him, we should have only to transform +ourselves into cowards fronting a crisis to read him through and topple +over the Sphinx of life by presenting her the sum of her most mysterious +creature in an epigram. But there was as much more in Alvan than any +faint-hearted thing, seeing however keenly, could see, as there is more +in the world than the epigrams aimed at it contain. + +'Courage!' said he: and she tremblingly: 'Be careful!' And then they were +in the presence of her mother and sister. + +Her sister was at the window, hanging her head low, a poor figure. Her +mother stood in the middle of the room, and met them full face, with a +woman's combative frown of great eyes, in which the stare is a bolt. + +'Away with that man! I will not suffer him near me,' she cried. + +Alvan advanced to her: 'Tell me, madame, in God's name, what you have +against me.' + +She swung her back on him. 'Go, sir! my husband will know how to deal +with one like you. Out of my sight, I say!' + +The brutality of this reception of Alvan nerved Clotilde. She went up to +him, and laying her hand on his arm, feeling herself almost his equal, +said: 'Let us go: come. I will not bear to hear you so spoken to. No +one shall treat you like that when I am near.' + +She expected him to give up the hopeless task, after such an experience +of the commencement. He did but clasp her hand, assuring the Frau von +Rudiger that no word of hers could irritate him. 'Nothing can make me +forget that you are Clotilde's mother. You are the mother of the lady I +love, and may say what you will to me, madame. I bear it.' + +'A man spotted with every iniquity the world abhors, and I am to see him +holding my daughter by the hand!--it is too abominable! And because +there is no one present to chastise him, he dares to address me and talk +of his foul passion for my daughter. I repeat: that which you have to do +is to go. My ears are shut. You can annoy, you can insult, you cannot +move me. Go.' She stamped: her aspect spat. + +Alvan bowed. Under perfect self-command, he said: 'I will go at once to +Clotilde's father. I may hope, that with a reasonable man I shall +speedily come to an understanding.' + +She retorted: 'Enter his house, and he will have you driven out by his +lacqueys.' + +'Hardly: I am not of those men who are driven from houses,' Alvan said, +smiling. 'But, madame, I will act on your warning, and spare her father, +for all sakes, the attempt; seeing he does not yet know whom he deals +with. I will write to him.' + +'Letters from you will be flung back unopened. + +'It may, of course, be possible to destroy even my patience, madame.' + +'Mine, sir, is at an end.' + +'You reduce us to rely on ourselves; it is the sole alternative.' + +'You have not waited for that,' rejoined Frau von Rudiger. 'You have +already destroyed my daughter's reputation by inducing her to leave her +father's house and hesitate to return. Oh! you are known. You are known +for your dealings with women as well as men. We know you. We have, we +pray to God, little more to learn of you. You! ah--thief!' + +'Thief!' Alvan's voice rose on hers like the clapping echo of it. She +had up the whole angry pride of the man in arms, and could discern that +she had struck the wound in his history; but he was terrible to look at, +so she made the charge supportable by saying: + +'You have stolen my child from me!' + +Clotilde raised her throat, shrewish in excitement. 'False! He did not. +I went to him of my own will, to run from your heartlessness, mother-- +that I call mother!--and be out of hearing of my father's curses and +threats. Yes, to him I fled, feeling that I belonged more to him than to +you. And never will I return to you. You have killed my love; I am this +man's own because I love him only; him ever! him you abuse, as his +partner in life for all it may give!--as his wife! Trample on him, you +trample on me. Make black brows at your child for choosing the man, of +all men alive, to worship and follow through the world. I do. I am his. +I glory in him.' + +Her gaze on Alvan said: 'Now!' Was she not worthy of him now? And would +they not go forth together now? Oh! now! + +Her gaze was met by nothing like the brilliant counterpart she merited. +It was as if she had offered her beauty to a glass, and found a +reflection in dull metal. He smiled calmly from her to her mother. He +said: + +'You accuse me of stealing your child, madame. You shall acknowledge +that you have wronged me. Clotilde, my Clotilde! may I count on you to +do all and everything for me? Is there any sacrifice I could ask that +would be too hard for you? Will you at one sign from me go or do as I +request you?' + +She replied, in an anguish over the chilling riddle of his calmness: 'I +will,' but sprang out of that obedient consent, fearful of over-acting +her part of slave to him before her mother, in a ghastly apprehension of +the part he was for playing to the same audience. 'Yes, I will do all, +all that you command. I am yours. I will go with you. Bid me do +whatever you can think of, all except bid me go back to the people I have +hitherto called mine:--not that!' + +'And that is what I have to request of you,' said he, with his calm smile +brightening and growing more foreign, histrionic, unreadable to her. +'And this greatest sacrifice that you can perform for me, are you +prepared to do it? Will you?' + +She tried to decipher the mask he wore: it was proof against her +imploring eyes. 'If you can ask me--if you can positively wish it--yes,' +she said. 'But think of what you are doing. Oh! Alvan, not back to +them! Think!' + +He smiled insufferably. He was bent on winning a parent-blest bride, +an unimpeachable wife, a lady handed to him instead of taken, one of the +world's polished silver vessels. + +'Think that you are doing this for me!' said he. 'It is for my sake. +And now, madame, I give you back your daughter. You see she is mine to +give, she obeys me, and I--though it can be only for a short time--give +her back to you. She goes with you purely because it is my wish: do not +forget that. And so, madame, I have the honour,' he bowed profoundly. + +He turned to Clotilde and drew her within his arm. 'What you have done +in obedience to my wish, my beloved, shall never be forgotten. Never can +I sufficiently thank you. I know how much it has cost you. But here is +the end of your trials. All the rest is now my task. Rely on me with +your whole heart. Let them not misuse you: otherwise do their bidding. +Be sure of my knowing how you are treated, and at the slightest act of +injustice I shall be beside you to take you to myself. Be sure of that, +and be not unhappy. They shall not keep you from me for long. Submit a +short while to the will of your parents: mine you will find the stronger. +Resolve it in your soul that I, your lover, cannot fail, for it is +impossible to me to waver. Consider me as the one fixed light in your +world, and look to me. Soon, then! Have patience, be true, and we are +one!' + +He kissed cold lips, he squeezed an inanimate hand. The horribly empty +sublimity of his behaviour appeared to her in her mother's contemptuous +face. + +His eyes were on her as he released her and she stood alone. She seemed +a dead thing; but the sense of his having done gloriously in mastering +himself to give these worldly people of hers a lesson and proof that he +could within due measure bow to their laws and customs, dispelled the +brief vision of her unfitness to be left. The compressed energy of the +man under his conscious display of a great-minded deference to the claims +of family ties and duties, intoxicated him. He thought but of the +present achievement and its just effect: he had cancelled a bad +reputation among these people, from whom he was about to lead forth a +daughter for Alvan's wife, and he reasoned by the grandeur of his +exhibition of generosity--which was brought out in strong relief when he +delivered his retiring bow to the Frau von Rudiger's shoulder--that the +worst was over; he had to deal no more with silly women: now for +Clotilde's father! Women were privileged to oppose their senselessness +to the divine fire: men could not retreat behind such defences; they must +meet him on the common ground of men, where this constant battler had +never yet encountered a reverse. + +Clotilde's cold staring gaze, a little livelier to wonderment than to +reflection, observed him to be scrupulous of the formalities in the +diverse character of his parting salutations to her mother, her sister; +and the lady of the house. He was going--he could actually go and leave +her! She stretched herself to him faintly; she let it be seen that she +did so as much as she had force to make it visible. She saw him smiling +incomprehensibly, like a winner of the field to be left to the enemy. +She could get nothing from him but that insensible round smile, and she +took the ebbing of her poor effort for his rebuff. + +'You that offered yourself in flight to him who once proposed it, he had +the choice of you and he abjured you. He has cast you off!' + +She phrased it in speech to herself. It was incredible, but it was +clear: he had gone. + +The room was vacant; the room was black and silent as a dungeon. + +'He will not have you: he has handed you back to them the more readily to +renounce you.' + +She framed the words half aloud in a moan as she glanced at her mother +heaving in stern triumph, her sister drooping, Madame Emerly standing at +the window. + +The craven's first instinct for safety, quick as the cavern lynx for +light, set her on the idea that she was abandoned: it whispered of +quietness if she submitted. + +And thus she reasoned: Had Alvan taken her, she would not have been +guilty of more than a common piece of love-desperation in running to him, +the which may be love's glory when marriage crowns it. By his rejecting +her and leaving her, he rendered her not only a runaway, but a castaway. +It was not natural that he should leave her; 'not natural in him to act +his recent part; but he had done it; consequently she was at the mercy of +those who might pick her up. She was, in her humiliation and dread, all +of the moment, she could see to no distance; and judging of him, feeling +for herself, within that contracted circle of sensation--sure, from her +knowledge of her cowardice, that he had done unwisely--she became swayed +about like a castaway in soul, until her distinguishing of his mad +recklessness in the challenge of a power greater than his own grew +present with her as his personal cruelty to the woman who had flung off +everything, flung herself on the tempestuous deeps, on his behalf. And +here she was, left to float or founder! Alvan had gone. The man rageing +over the room, abusing her 'infamous lover, the dirty Jew, the notorious +thief, scoundrel, gallowsbird,' etc., etc., frightful epithets, not to be +transcribed--was her father. He had come, she knew not how. Alvan had +tossed her to him. + +Abuse of a lover is ordinarily retorted on in the lady's heart by the +brighter perception of his merits; but when the heart is weak, the +creature suffering shame, her lover the cause of it, and seeming cruel, +she is likely to lose all perception and bend like a flower pelted. Her +cry to him: 'If you had been wiser, this would not have been!' will sink +to the inward meditation: 'If he had been truer!'--and though she does +not necessarily think him untrue for charging him with it, there is +already a loosening of the bonds where the accusation has begun. They +are not broken because they are loosened: still the loosening of them +makes it possible to cut them with less of a snap and less pain. + +Alvan had relinquished her he loved to brave the tempest in a frail small +boat, and he certainly could not have apprehended the furious outbreak +she was exposed to. She might so far have exonerated him had she been +able to reflect; but she whom he had forced to depend on him in blind +reliance, now opened her eyes on an opposite power exercising material +rigours. After having enjoyed extraordinary independence for a young +woman, she was treated as a refractory child, literally marched through +the streets in the custody of her father, who clutched her by the hair- +Alvan's beloved golden locks!--and held her under terror of a huge +forester's weapon, that he had seized at the first tidings of his +daughter's flight to the Jew. He seemed to have a grim indifference to +exposure; contempt, with a sense of the humour of it: and this was a +satisfaction to him, founded on his practical observance of two or three +maxims quite equal to the fullest knowledge of women for rightly managing +them: preferable, inasmuch as they are simpler, and, by merely cracking a +whip, bring her back to the post, instead of wasting time by hunting her +as she likes to run. Police were round his house. The General chattered +and shouted of the desperate lawlessness and larcenies of that Jew--the +things that Jew would attempt. He dragged her indoors, muttering of his +policy in treating her at last to a wholesome despotism. + +This was the medicine for her--he knew her! Whether he did or not, he +knew the potency of his physic. He knew that osiers can be made to bend. +With a frightful noise of hammering, he himself nailed up the window- +shutters of the room she was locked in hard and fast, and he left her +there and roared across the household that any one holding communication +with the prisoner should be shot like a dog. This was a manifestation of +power in a form more convincing than the orator's. + +She was friendless, abused, degraded, benighted in broad daylight; +abandoned by her lover. She sank on the floor of the room, conceiving +with much strangeness of sentiment under these hard stripes of +misfortune, that reality had come. The monster had hold of her. She was +isolated, fed like a dungeoned captive. She had nothing but our natural +obstinacy to hug, or seem to do so when wearifulness reduced her to cling +to the semblance of it only. 'I marry Alvan!' was her iterated answer to +her father, on his visits to see whether he had yet broken her; and she +spoke with the desperate firmness of weak creatures that strive to nail +themselves to the sound of it. He listened and named his time for +returning. The tug between rigour and endurance continued for about +forty hours. She then thought, in an exhaustion: 'Strange that my father +should be so fiercely excited against this man! Can he have reasons I +have not heard of?' Her father's unwonted harshness suggested the +question in her quailing nature, which was beginning to have a movement +to kiss the whip. The question set her thinking of the reasons she knew. +She saw them involuntarily from the side of parents, and they wore a +sinister appearance; in reality her present scourging was due to them as +well as to Alvan's fatal decision. Her misery was traceable to his +conduct and his judgement--both bad. And yet all this while he might be +working to release her, near upon rescuing! She swung round to the side +of her lover against these executioner parents, and scribbled to him as +well as she could under the cracks in her windowshutters, urging him to +appear. She spent her heart on it. A note to her friend, the English +lady, protested her love for Alvan, but with less abandonment, with a +frozen resignation to the loss of him--all around her was so dark! By- +and-by there was a scratching at her door. The maid whom she trusted +brought her news of Alvan: outside the door and in, the maid and mistress +knelt. Hope flickered up in the bosom of Clotilde: the whispers were +exchanged through the partition. + +'Where is he?' + +'Gone.' + +'But where?' + +'He has left the city.' + +Clotilde pushed the letter for her friend under the door: that one for +Alvan she retained, stung by his desertion of her, and thinking +practically that it was useless to aim a letter at a man without an +address. She did not ask herself whether the maid's information was +honest, for she wanted to despair, as the exhausted want to lie down. + +She wept through the night. It was one of those nights of the torrents +of tears which wash away all save the adamantine within us, if there be +ought of that besides the breathing structure. The reason why she wept +with so delirious a persistency was, that her nature felt the necessity +for draining her of her self-pitifulness, knowing that it nourished the +love whereby she was tormented. They do not weep thus who have a heart +for the struggle. In the morning she was a dried channel of tears, no +longer self-pitiful; careless of herself, as she thought: in other words, +unable any further to contend. + +Reality was too strong! This morning her sisters came to her room +imploring her to yield:--if she married Alvan, what could be their +prospects as the sisters-in law of such a man?--her betrothed sister +Lotte could not hope to espouse Count Walburg: Alvan's name was infamous +in society; their house would be a lazar-house, they would be condemned +to seclusion. A favourite brother followed, with sympathy that set her +tears running again, and arguments she could not answer: how could he +hold up his head in his regiment as the relative of the scandalous Jew +democrat? He would have to leave the service, or be duelling with his +brother officers every other day of his life, for rightly or wrongly +Alvan was abhorred, and his connection would be fatal to them all, +perhaps to her father's military and diplomatic career principally: the +head of their house would be ruined. She was compelled to weep again by +having no other reply. The tears were now mixed drops of pity for her +absent lover and her family; she was already disunited from him when she +shed them, feeling that she was dry rock to herself, heartless as many +bosoms drained of self-pity will become. + +Incapable of that any further, she leaned still in that direction and had +a languid willingness to gain outward comfort. To be caressed a little +by her own kindred before she ceased to live was desireable after her +heavy scourging. She wished for the touches of affection, knowing them +to be selfish, but her love of life and hard view of its reality made +them seem a soft reminder of what life had been. Alvan had gone. Her +natural blankness of imagination read his absence as an entire +relinquishment; it knelled in a vacant chamber. He had gone; he had +committed an irretrievable error, he had given up a fight of his own vain +provoking, that was too severe for him: he was not the lover he fancied +himself, or not the lord of men she had fancied him. Her excessive +misery would not suffer a picture of him, not one clear recollection of +him, to stand before her. He who should have been at hand, had gone, and +she was fearfully beset, almost lifeless; and being abandoned, her blank +night of imagination felt that there was nothing left for her save to +fall upon those nearest. + +She gave her submission to her mother. In her mind, during the last +wrestling with a weakness that was alternately her love, and her +cowardice, the interpretation of the act ran: 'He may come, and I am his +if he comes: and if not, I am bound to my people.' He had taught her to +rely on him blindly, and thus she did it inanimately while cutting +herself loose from him. In a similar mood, the spiritual waverer vows to +believe if the saint will appear. However, she submitted. Then there +was joy in the family, and she tasted their caresses. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +After his deed of loftiness Alvan walked to his hotel, where the sight of +the room Clotilde had entered that morning caught his breath. He +proceeded to write his first letter to General von Rudiger, repressing +his heart's intimations that he had stepped out of the friendly path, and +was on a strange and tangled one. The sense of power in him was leonine +enough to promise the forcing of a way whithersoever the path: yet did +that ghost of her figure across the room haunt him with searching eyes. +They set him spying over himself at an actor who had not needed to be +acting his part, brilliant though it was. He crammed his energy into his +idea of the part, to carry it forward victoriously. Before the world, +it would without question redound to his credit, and he heard the world +acclaiming him: + +'Alvan's wife was honourably won, as became the wife of a Doctor of Law, +from the bosom of her family, when he could have had her in the old +lawless fashion, for a call to a coachman! Alvan, the republican, is +eminently a citizen. Consider his past life by that test of his +character.' + +He who had many times defied the world in hot rebellion, had become, +through his desire to cherish a respectable passion, if not exactly +slavish to it, subservient, as we see royal personages, that are happy to +be on bowing terms with the multitude bowing lower. Lower, of course, +the multitude must bow, to inspire an august serenity; but the nod they +have in exchange for it is not an independent one. Ceasing to be a +social rebel, he conceived himself as a recognized dignitary, and he +passed under the bondage of that position. + +Clotilde had been in this room; she had furnished proof that she could be +trusted now. She had committed herself, perished as a maiden of society, +and her parents, even the senseless mother, must see it and decide by it. +The General would bring her to reason: General von Rudiger was a man of +the world. An honourable son-in-law could not but be acceptable to him-- +now, at least. And such a son-in-law would ultimately be the pride of +his house. 'A flower from thy garden, friend, and my wearing it shall in +good time be cause for some parental gratification.' + +The letter despatched, Alvan paced his chamber with the ghost of +Clotilde. He was presently summoned to meet Count Walburg and another +intimate of the family, in the hotel downstairs. These gentlemen brought +no message from General von Rudiger: their words were directed to extract +a promise from him that he would quit his pursuit of Clotilde, and of +course he refused; they hinted that the General might have official +influence to get him expelled the city, and he referred them to the +proof; but he looked beyond the words at a new something of extraordinary +and sinister aspect revealed to him in their manner of treating his +pretensions to the hand of the lady. + +He had not yet perfectly seen the view the world took of him, because of +his armed opposition to the world; nor could he rightly reflect on it +yet, being too anxious to sign the peace. He felt as it were a blow +startling him from sleep. His visitors tasked themselves to be strictly +polite; they did not undervalue his resources for commanding respect +between man and man. The strange matter was behind their bearing, which +indicated the positive impossibility of the union of Clotilde with one +such as he, and struck at the curtain covering his history. He could not +raise it to thunder his defence of himself, or even allude to the implied +contempt of his character: with a boiling gorge he was obliged to swallow +both the history and the insult, returning them the equivalent of their +courtesies, though it was on his lips to thunder heavily. + +A second endeavour, in an urgent letter before nightfall to gain him +admission to head-quarters, met the same repulse as the foregoing. The +bearer of it was dismissed without an answer. + +Alvan passed a night of dire disturbance. The fate of the noble Genoese +conspirator, slipping into still harbour water on the step from boat to +boat, and borne down by the weight of his armour in the moment of the +ripeness of his plot at midnight, when the signal for action sparkled to +lighten across the ships and forts, had touched him in his boy's +readings, and he found a resemblance of himself to Fiesco, stopped as he +was by a base impediment, tripped ignominiously, choked by the weight of +the powers fitting him for battle. A man such as Alvan, arrested on his +career by an opposition to his enrolment of a bride!--think of it! What +was this girl in a life like his? But, oh! the question was no sooner +asked than the thought that this girl had been in this room illuminated +the room, telling him she might have been his own this instant, +confounding him with an accusation of madness for rejecting her. +Why had he done it? Surely women, weak women, must be at times divinely +inspired. She warned him against the step. But he, proud of his +armoury, went his way. He choked, he suffered the torture of the mailed +Genoese going under; worse, for the drowner's delirium swirls but a +minute in the gaping brain, while he had to lie all, night at the mercy +of the night. + +He was only calmer when morning came. Night has little mercy for the +self-reproachful, and for a strong man denouncing the folly of his error, +it has none. The bequest of the night was a fever of passion; and upon +that fever the light of morning cleared his head to weigh the force +opposing him. He gnawed the paradox, that it was huge because it was +petty, getting a miserable sour sustenance out of his consciousness of +the position it explained. Great enemies, great undertakings, would have +revived him as they had always revived and fortified. But here was a +stolid small obstacle, scarce assailable on its own level; and he had +chosen that it should be attacked through its own laws and forms. By +shutting a door, by withholding an answer to his knocks, the thing +reduced him to hesitation. And the thing had weapons to shoot at him; +his history, his very blood, stood open to its shafts; and the sole +quality of a giant, which he could show to front it, was the breath of +one for a mark. + +These direct perceptions of the circumstances were played on by the fever +he drew from his Fiesco bed. Accuracy of vision in our crises is not so +uncommon as the proportionate equality of feeling: we do indeed. +frequently see with eyes of just measurement while we are conducting +ourselves like madmen. The facts are seen, and yet the spinning nerves +will change their complexion; and without enlarging or minimizing, they +will alternate their effect on us immensely through the colour presenting +them now sombre, now hopeful: doing its work of extravagance upon +perceptibly plain matter. The fitful colour is the fever. He must win +her, for he never yet had failed--he had lost her by his folly! She was +his--she was torn from him! She would come at his bidding--she would +cower to her tyrants! The thought of her was life and death in his +frame, bright heaven and the abyss. At one beat of the heart she swam to +his arms, at another he was straining over darkness. And whose the +fault? + +He rose out of his amazement crying it with a roar, and foreignly +beholding himself. He pelted himself with epithets; his worst enemies +could not have been handier in using them. From Alvan to Alvan, they +signified such an earthquake in a land of splendid structures as shatters +to dust the pride of the works of men. He was down among them, lower +than the herd, rolling in vulgar epithets that, attached to one like him, +became of monstrous distortion. O fool! dolt! blind ass! tottering +idiot! drunken masquerader! miserable Jack Knave, performing suicide +with that blessed coxcomb air of curling a lock!--Clotilde! Clotilde! +Where has one read the story of a man who had the jewel of jewels in his +hand, and flung in into the deeps, thinking that he flung a pebble? +Fish, fool, fish! and fish till Doomsday! There's nothing but your +fool's face in the water to be got to bite at the bait you throw, fool! +Fish for the flung-away beauty, and hook your shadow of a Bottom's head! +What impious villain was it refused the gift of the gods, that he might +have it bestowed on him according to his own prescription of the +ceremonies! They laugh! By Orcus! how they laugh! The laughter of the +gods is the lightning of death's irony over mortals. Can they have a +finer subject than a giant gone fool? + +Tears burst from him: tears of rage, regret, selflashing. O for +yesterday! He called aloud for the recovery of yesterday, bellowed, +groaned. A giant at war with pigmies, having nought but their weapons, +having to fight them on his knees, to fight them with the right hand +while smiting himself with the left, has too much upon him to keep his +private dignity in order. He was the same in his letters--a Cyclops +hurling rocks and raising the seas to shipwreck. Dignity was cast off; +he came out naked. Letters to Clotilde, and to the baroness, to the +friend nearest him just then, Colonel von Tresten, calling them to him, +were dashed to paper in this naked frenzy, and he could rave with all the +truth of life, that to have acted the idiot, more than the loss of the +woman, was the ground of his anguish. Each antecedent of his career had +been a step of strength and success departed. The woman was but a +fragment of the tremendous wreck; the woman was utterly diminutive, yet +she was the key of the reconstruction; the woman won, he would be himself +once more: and feeling that, his passion for her swelled to full tide and +she became a towering splendour whereat his eyeballs ached, she became a +melting armful that shook him to big bursts of tears. + +The feeling of the return of strength was his love in force. The giant +in him loved her warmly. Her sweetness, her archness, the opening of her +lips, their way of holding closed, and her brightness of wit, her tender +eyelashes, her appreciating looks, her sighing, the thousand varying +shades of her motions and her features interflowing like a lighted water, +swam to him one by one like so many handmaiden messengers distinctly +beheld of the radiant indistinct whom he adored with more of spirit in +his passion than before this tempest. A giant going through a giant's +contortions, fleshly as the race of giants, and gross, coarse, dreadful, +likely to be horrible when whipped and stirred to the dregs, Alvan was +great-hearted: he could love in his giant's fashion, love and lay down +life for the woman he loved, though the nature of the passion was not +heavenly; or for the friend who would have to excuse him often; or for +the public cause--which was to minister to his appetites. He was true +man, a native of earth, and if he could not quit his huge personality to +pipe spiritual music during a storm of trouble, being a soul wedged in +the gnarled wood of the standing giant oak, and giving mighty sound of +timber at strife rather than the angelical cry, he suffered, as he loved, +to his depths. + +We have not to plumb the depths; he was not heroic, but hugely man. +Love and man sometimes meet for noble concord; the strings of the hungry +instrument are not all so rough that Love's touch on them is +indistinguishable from the rattling of the wheels within; certain herald +harmonies have been heard. But Love, which purifies and enlarges us, +and sets free the soul, Love visiting a fleshly frame must have time and +space, and some help of circumstance, to give the world assurance that +the man is a temple fit for the rites. Out of romances, he is not +melodiously composed. And in a giant are various giants to be slain, +or thoroughly subdued, ere this divinity is taken for leader. It is not +done by miracle. + +As it happened cruelly for Alvan, the woman who had become the radiant +indistinct in his desiring mind was one whom he knew to be of a shivery +stedfastness. His plucking her from another was neither wonderful nor +indefensible; they two were suited as no other two could be; the handsome +boy who had gone through a form of plighting with her was her slave, and +she required for her mate a master: she felt it and she sided to him +quite naturally, moved by the sacred direction of the acknowledgement of +a mutual fitness. Twice, however, she had relapsed on the occasions of +his absence, and owning his power over her when they were together again, +she sowed the fatal conviction that he held her at present, and that she +was a woman only to be held at present, by the palpable grasp of his +physical influence. Partly it was correct, not entirely, seeing that she +kept the impression of a belief in him even when she drifted away through +sheer weakness, but it was the single positive view he had of her, and it +was fatal, for it begat a devil of impatience. + +'They are undermining her now--now--now!' + +He started himself into busy frenzies to reach to her, already +indifferent to the means, and waxing increasingly reckless as he fed on +his agitation. Some faith in her, even the little she deserved, would +have arrested him: unhappily he had less than she, who had enough to +nurse the dim sense of his fixity, and sank from him only in her heart's +faintness, but he, when no longer flattered by the evidence of his +mastery, took her for sand. Why, then, had he let her out of his grasp? +The horrid echoed interrogation flashed a hideous view of the woman. But +how had he come to be guilty of it? he asked himself again; and, without +answering him, his counsellors to that poor wisdom set to work to +complete it: Giant Vanity urged Giant Energy to make use of Giant +Duplicity. He wrote to Clotilde, with one voice quoting the law in their +favour, with another commanding her to break it. He gathered and drilled +a legion of spies, and showered his gold in bribes and plots to get the +letter to her, to get an interview--one human word between them. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +His friend Colonel von Tresten was beside him when he received the +enemy's counter-stroke. Count Walburg and his companion brought a letter +from Clotilde--no reply; a letter renouncing him. + +Briefly, in cold words befitting the act, she stated that the past must +be dead between them; for the future she belonged to her parents; she had +left the city. She knew not where he might be, her letter concluded, but +henceforward he should know that they were strangers. + +Alvan held out the deadly paper when he had read the contents; he smote a +forefinger on it and crumpled it in his hand. That was the dumb oration +of a man shocked by the outrage upon passionate feeling to the state of +brute. His fist, outstretched to the length of his arm, shook the +reptile letter under a terrible frown. + +Tresten saw that he supposed himself to be perfectly master of his acts +because he had not spoken, and had managed to preserve the ordinary +courtesies. + +'You have done your commission,' the colonel said to Count Walburg, whose +companion was not disposed to go without obtaining satisfactory +assurances, and pressed for them. + +Alvan fastened on him. 'You adopt the responsibility of this?' He +displayed the letter. + +'I do.' + +'It lies.' + +Tresten remarked to Count Walburg: 'These visits are provocations.' + +'They are not so intended,' said the count, bowing pacifically. His +friend was not a man of the sword, and was not under the obligation to +accept an insult. They left the letter to do its work. + +Big natures in their fits of explosiveness must be taken by flying shots, +as dwarfs peep on a monster, or the Scythian attacked a phalanx. Were we +to hear all the roarings of the shirted Heracles, a world of comfortable +little ones would doubt the unselfishness of his love of Dejaneira. +Yes, really; they would think it was not a chivalrous love: they would +consider that he thought of himself too much. They would doubt, too, +of his being a gentleman! Partial glimpses of him, one may fear, will be +discomposing to simple natures. There was a short black eruption. Alvan +controlled it, to ask hastily what the baroness thought and what she had +heard of Clotilde. Tresten made sign that it was nothing of the best. + +'See! my girl has hundreds of enemies, and I, only I, know her and can +defend her--weak, base shallow trickster, traitress that she is!' cried +Alvan, and came down in a thundershower upon her: 'Yesterday--the day +before--when? just now, here, in this room; gave herself--and now!' +He bent, and immediately straightening his back, addressed Colonel von +Tresten as her calumniator, 'Say your worst of her, and I say I will make +of that girl the peerless woman of earth! I! in earnest! it's no dream. +She can be made . . . . O God! the beast has turned tail! I knew she +could. There 's three of beast to one of goddess in her, and set her +alone, and let her be hunted and I not by, beast it is with her! +cowardly skulking beast--the noblest and very bravest under my wing! +Incomprehensible to you, Tresten? But who understands women! You hate +her. Do not. She 's a riddle, but no worse than the rest of the tangle. +She gives me up? Pooh! She writes it. She writes anything. And that +vilest, I say, I will make more enviable, more Clotilde! he thundered her +signature in an amazement, broken suddenly by the sight of her putting +her name to the letter. She had done that, written her name to the +renunciation of him! No individual could bear the sight of such a crime, +and no suffering man could be appeased by a single victim to atone for +it. Her sex must be slaughtered; he raged against the woman; she became +that ancient poisonous thing, the woman; his fury would not distinguish +her as Clotilde, though the name had started him, and it was his +knowledge of the particular sinner which drew down his curses on the sex. +He twisted his body, hugging at his breast as if he had her letter +sticking in his ribs. The letter was up against his ribs, and he thumped +it, crushed it, patted it; he kissed it, and flung it, stamped on it, and +was foul-mouthed. Seeing it at his feet, he bent to it like a man +snapped in two, lamenting, bewailing himself, recovering sight of her +fragmentarily. It stuck in his ribs, and in scorn of the writer, and +sceptical of her penning it, he tugged to pull it out, and broke the +shaft, but left the rankling arrow-head:--she had traced the lines, and +though tyranny racked her to do that thing, his agony followed her hand +over the paper to her name, which fixed and bit in him like the deadly- +toothed arrow-head called asp, and there was no uprooting it. The thing +lived; her deed was the woman; there was no separating them: witness it +in love murdered. + +O that woman! She has murdered love. She has blotted love completely +out. She is the arch-thief and assassin of mankind--the female Apollyon. +He lost sight of her in the prodigious iniquity covering her sex with a +cowl of night, and it was what women are, what women will do, the one and +all alike simpering simulacra that men find them to be, soulless, clogs +on us, bloodsuckers! until a feature of the particular sinner peeped out +on him, and brought the fresh agony of a reminder of his great- +heartedness. 'For that woman--Tresten, you know me--I would have +sacrificed for that woman fortune and life, my hope, my duty, my +immortality. She knew it, and she--look!' he unwrinkled the letter +carefully for it to be legible, and clenched it in a ball.' Signs her +name, signs her name, her name!--God of heaven! it would be incredible in +a holy chronicle--signs her name to the infamous harlotry! See: +"Clotilde von Rudiger." It's her writing; that's her signature: +"Clotilde" in full. You'd hardly fancy that, now? But look!' the +colonel's eyelids were blinking, and Alvan dinted his finger-nail under +her name: 'there it is: Clotilde: signed shamelessly. Just as she might +have written to one of her friends about bonnets, and balls, and books! +Henceforward strangers, she and I?' + +His laughter, even to Tresten, a man of camps, sounded profane as a +yell beneath a cathedral dome. 'Why, the woman has been in my hands-- +I released her, spared her, drilled brain and blood, ransacked all the +code, to do her homage and honour in every mortal way; and we two +strangers! Do you hear that, Tresten? Why, if you had seen her!--she +was lost, and I, this man she now pierces with ice, kept hell down under +bolt and bar-worse, I believe, broke a good woman's heart! that never a +breath should rise that could accuse her on suspicion, or in malice, or +by accident, justly, or with a shadow of truth. "I think it best for us +both." So she thinks for me! She not only decides, she thinks; she is +the active principle; 'tis mine to submit.--A certain presumption was in +that girl always. Ha! do you hear me? Her letter may sting, it shall +not dupe. Strangers? Poor fool! You see plainly she was nailed down to +write the thing. This letter is a flat lie. She can lie--Oh! born to +the art! born to it!--lies like a Saint tricking Satan! But she says she +has left the city. Now to find her!' + +He began marching about the room with great strides. 'I 'll have the +whole Continent up; her keepers shall have no rest; I 'll have them by +the Law Courts; and by stratagem, and, if law and cunning fail, force. +I have sworn it. I have done all that honour can ask of a man; more than +any man, to my knowledge, would have done, and now it's war. I declare +war on them. They will have it! I mean to take that girl from them-- +snatch or catch! The girl is my girl, and if there are laws against my +having my own, to powder with the laws! Well, and do you suppose me +likely to be beaten? Then Cicero was a fiction, and Caesar a people's +legend. Not if they are history, and eloquence and commandership have +power over the blood and souls of men. First, I write to her!' + +His friend suggested that he knew not where she was. But already the pen +was at work, the brain pouring as from a pitcher. + +Writing was blood-letting, and the interminable pages drained him of his +fever. As he wrote, she grew more radiant, more indistinct, more +fiercely desired. The concentration of his active mind directed his +whole being on the track of Clotilde, idealizing her beyond human. +That last day when he had seen her appeared to him as the day of days. +That day was Clotilde herself, she in person; he saw it as the woman, +and saw himself translucent in the great luminousness; and behind it all +was dark, as in front. That one day was the sun of his life. It had +been a day of rain, and he beheld it in memory just as it had been, with +the dark threaded air, the dripping streets; and he glorified it past all +daily radiance. His letter was a burning hymn to the day. His moral +grandeur on the day made him live as part of the splendour. Was it +possible for the woman who had seen him then to be faithless to him? +The swift deduction from his own feelings cleansed her of a suspicion +to the contrary, and he became lighthearted. He hummed an air when he +had finished his letter to her. + +Councils with his adherents and couriers were held, and some were +despatched to watch the house and slip the letter to her maid; others +were told off to bribe and hound their way on the track of Clotilde. +His gold rained into their hands with the directions. + +Colonel von Tresten was the friend of his attachment to the baroness; +a friend of both, and a warm one. Men coming into contact with Alvan +took their shape of friend or enemy sharply, for he was friend or enemy. +of no dubious feature, devoted to them he loved, and a battery on them he +opposed. The colonel had been the confidant of the baroness's grief over +this love-passion of Alvan's, and her resignation. He shared her doubts +of Clotilde's nobility of character: the reports were not favourable to +the young lady. But the baroness and he were of one opinion, that Alvan +in love was not likely to be governable by prudent counsel. He dropped a +word of the whispers of Clotilde's volatility. + +Alvan nodded his perfect assent. 'She is that, she is anything you like; +you cannot exaggerate her for good or evil. She is matchless, colour her +as you please.' Adopting the tone of argument, he said: 'She writes that +letter. Well? It is her writing, and the moment, I am sure of it as +hers, I would not have it unwritten. I love it!' He looked maddish with +his love of the horrible thing, and resumed soberly: 'The point is, that +she has the charm for me. She is plastic in my hands. Other men would +waste the treasure. I make of her what I will, and she knows it, and +knows that she hangs on me to flourish worthily. I breathe the very soul +of the woman into her. As for that letter of hers--' it burnt him this +time to speak of the letter: 'she may write and write! She's weak, thin, +a reed; she--let her be! Say of her when she plays beast--she is absent +from Alvan! I can forgive. The letter's nothing; it means nothing-- +except "Thou fool, Alvan, to let me go." Yes, that! Her people are +acting tyrant with her--as legally they have no right to do in this +country, and I shall prove it to them. When I have gained admission to +her--and I soon shall: it can't be refused: I am off to the head of her +father's office to-morrow, and I have only to represent the state of +affairs to the Minister in my language to obtain his authority to demand +admission to her:--then, friend, you will see! I lift my finger, and you +will see! At my request she went back to her mother. I have but to +beckon.' + +He had cooled to the happy assurance of his authority over her, all the +giants of his system being well in action, and when that is the case with +a big nature it is at rest, or such is the condition of repose granted it +in life. + +On the morrow he was off to batter at doors which would have expected +rather the summons of an armed mob at his heels than the strange cry of +the Radical man maltreated by love. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +The story of Clotilde's departure from the city, like that of Alvan's, +communicated to her by her maid, was an anticipation of the truth, +disseminated by her parents. She was removed when the swarm of spies and +secret letter-bearers were attaining a position of dignity through the +rumour of legal gentlemen about to direct the movements of the besieging +army. + +A stir seemed to her to prognosticate a rescue and she went not +unwillingly. To be in motion, to see roadside faces, pricked her senses +with some hope. She had gained the peace she needed, and in that state +her heart began to be agitated by a fresh awakening, luxurious at first +rather than troublesome. She had sunk so low that the light of Alvan +seemed too distant for a positive expectation of him; but few approached +her whom she did not fancy under strange disguises: the gentlemen were +servants, the blouses were gentlemen; she looked wistfully at old women +bearing baskets, for the forbidden fruit to peep out in the form of an +envelope. All passed her blankly, noticing her eyes. + +The journey was short; she was taken to a place a little beyond the head +of the lake, and there, though she had liberty to breathe the air, fast +fixed within the walls of a daily sameness that became gradually the hum +of voices accusing Alvan of one in excess of the many sins laid against +him by his enemies. Was he not possibly an empty pretender to power-- +a mere great talker? + +Her bit of liberty increased her chafing at the deadly monotony of this +existence, and envenomed the accusation by seeming to push her forth +quite half way to meet him, if he would but come or show sign! She +impetuously vindicated him from the charge of crediting the sincerity of +any words she might have committed to paper at the despotic dictation of +her father. Oh, no; Alvan could not be guilty of such folly as that; he +could not; it would be to suppose him unacquainted with her, ignorant of +the nature of women. He would know that she wrote the words--why? She +could not perfectly recollect how she had come to write them, and found +it easier to extinguish the act of having written them at all, which was +done by the angry recurrence to his failure to intervene now when the +drama cried for his godlike appearance. Perhaps he was really +unacquainted with her thought her stronger than she was! The idea +reflected a shadow on his intelligence. She was not in a situation that +could bear of her blaming herself. + +While she was thus devoured by the legions of her enfeebled wits, +Clotilde was assiduously courted by her family, and her father from time +to time brought pen and paper for her to write anew from his dictation. +He was pleased to hail her as his fair secretary, and when the letters +were unimportant she wrote flowingly, happy to be praised. They were +occasionally addressed to friends; she discovered herself writing one to +the professor, in which he was about to be informed that she had resolved +to banish Alvan from her mind for ever. She stopped; her heart stopped; +the pen fell from her hand, in loathing. Her father warily bade her +proceed. She could not; she signified it choking. Only a few days +before she had written to the professor exultingly of her engagement. +She refused to belie herself in such a manner; retrospectively her rapid +contradictions appeared impossible; the picture of her was not human, and +she gave out a negative of her whole frame convulsed, whereat the General +was not slow to remind her of the scourgings she had undergone by a +sudden burst of his wrath. He knew the proper physic. 'You girls want +the lesson we read to skittish recruits; you shall have it. Write: "He +is now as nothing to me." You shall write that you hate him, if you +hesitate! Why, you unreasonable slut, you have given him up; you have +told him you have given him up, and what objection can you have to +telling others now you have done it?' + +'I was forced to it, body and soul!' cried Clotilde, sobbing and bursting +into desperation out of a weak show of petulance that she had put on to +propitiate him. 'If I have to tell, I will tell how it was. For that my +heart is unchanged, and Alvan is, and will be, my lord, all the world may +see. I would rather write that I hate him.' + +'You write, the man is now as nothing to me!' said her father, dashing +his finger in a fiery zig-zag along the line for her pen to follow. 'Or +else, my girl, you've been playing us a pretty farce!' He strung himself +for a mad gallop of wrath, gave her a shudder, and relapsed. 'No, no, +you're wiser, you're a better girl than that. Write it. I must have it +written-here, come! The worst is over; the rest is child's play. Come, +take the pen, I'll guide your hand.' + +The pen was fixed in her hand, and the first words formed. They looked +such sprawling skeletons that Clotilde had the comfort of feeling sure +they would be discerned as the work of compulsion. So she wrote on +mechanically, solacing herself for what she did with vows of future +revolt. Alvan had a saying, that want of courage is want of sense; and +she remembered his illustration of how sense would nourish courage by +scattering the fear of death, if we would only grasp the thought that we +sink to oblivion gladly at night, and, most of us, quit it reluctantly in +the morning. She shut her eyes while writing; she fancied death would be +welcome; and as she certainly had sense, she took it for the promise of +courage. She flattered herself by believing, therefore, that she who did +not object to die was only awaiting the cruelly-delayed advent of her +lover to be almost as brave as he--the feminine of him. With these ideas +in her head much clearer than when she wrote the couple of lines to +Alvan--for then her head was reeling, she was then beaten and prostrate-- +she signed her name to a second renunciation of him, and was aware of a +flush of self-reproach at the simple suspicion of his being deceived by +it; it was an insult to his understanding. Full surely the professor +would not be deceived, and a lover with a heart to reach to her and read +her could never be hoodwinked by so palpable a piece of slavishness. She +was indeed slavish; the apology necessitated the confession. But that +promise of courage, coming of her ownership of sense, vindicated her +prospectively; she had so little of it that she embraced it as a present +possession, and she made it Alvan's task to put it to the trial. Hence +it became Alvan's offence if, owing to his absence, she could be charged +with behaving badly. Her generosity pardoned him his inexplicable delay +to appear in his might: 'But see what your continued delay causes!' she +said, and her tone was merely sorrowful. + +She had forgotten her signature to the letter to the professor when his +answer arrived. The sight of the handwriting of one of her lover's +faithfullest friends was like a peal of bells to her, and she tore the +letter open, and began to blink and spell at a strange language, taking +the frosty sentences piecemeal. He begged her to be firm in her +resolution, give up Alvan and obey her parents! This man of high +intelligence and cultivation wrote like a provincial schoolmistress +moralizing. Though he knew the depth of her passion for Alvan, and had +within the month received her lark-song of her betrothal, he, this man-- +if living man he could be thought--counselled her to endeavour to deserve +the love and respect of her parents, alluded to Alvan's age and her +better birth, approved her resolve to consult the wishes of her family, +and in fine was as rank a traitor to friendship as any chronicled. Out +on him! She swept him from earth. + +And she had built some of her hopes on the professor. 'False friend!' +she cried. + +She wept over Alvan for having had so false a friend. + +There remained no one that could be expected to intervene with a strong +arm save the baroness. The professor's emphasized approval of her +resolve to consult the wishes of her family was a shocking hypocrisy, and +Clotilde thought of the contrast to it in her letter to the baroness. +The tripping and stumbling, prettily awkward little tone of gosling +innocent new from its egg, throughout the letter, was a triumph of +candour. She repeated passages, paragraphs, of the letter, assuring +herself that such affectionately reverential prattle would have moved +her, and with the strongest desire to cast her arms about the writer: it +had been composed to be moving to a woman, to any woman. The old woman +was entreated to bestow her blessing on the young one, all in Arcadia, +and let the young one nestle to the bosom she had not an idea of robbing. +She could not have had the idea, else how could she have made the +petition? And in order to compliment a venerable dame on her pure +friendship for a gentleman, it was imperative to reject the idea. +Besides, after seeing the photograph of the baroness, common civility +insisted on the purity of her friendship. Nay, in mercy to the poor +gentleman, friendship it must be. + +A letter of reply from that noble lady was due. Possibly she had +determined not to write, but to act. She was a lady of exalted birth, +a lady of the upper aristocracy, who could, if she would, bring both a +social and official pressure upon the General: and it might be in motion +now behind the scenes, Clotilde laid hold of her phantom baroness, almost +happy under the phantom's whisper that she need not despair. 'You have +been a little weak,' the phantom said to her, and she acquiesced with a +soft sniffle, adding: 'But, dearest, honoured lady, you are a woman, and +know what our trials are when we are so persecuted. O that I had your +beautiful sedateness! I do admire it, madam. I wish I could imitate.' +She carried her dramatic ingenuousness farthel still by saying: 'I have +seen your photograph'; implying that the inimitable, the much coveted air +of composure breathed out of yonder presentment of her features. 'For I +can't call you good looking,' she said within herself, for the +satisfaction of her sense of candour, of her sense of contrast as well. +And shutting her eyes, she thought of the horrid penitent a harsh-faced +woman in confession must be: + +The picture sent her swimmingly to the confessional, where sat a man with +his head in a hood, and he soon heard enough of mixed substance to dash +his hood, almost his head, off. Beauty may be immoderately frank in soul +to the ghostly. The black page comprised a very long list. 'But put +this on the white page,' says she to the surging father inside his box-- +'I loved Alvan!' A sentence or two more fetches the Alvanic man jumping +out of the priest: and so closely does she realize it that she has to +hunt herself into a corner with the question, whether she shall tell him +she guessed him to be no other than her lover. 'How could you expect a +girl, who is not a Papist, to come kneeling here?' she says. And he +answers with no matter what of a gallant kind. + +In this manner her natural effervescence amused her sorrowful mind while +gazing from her chamber window at the mountain sides across the valley, +where tourists, in the autumnal season, sweep up and down like a tidal +river. She had ceased to weep; she had outwept the colour of her eyes +and the consolation of weeping. Dressed in black to the throat, she sat +and waited the arrival of her phantom friend, the baroness--that angel! +who proved her goodness in consenting to be the friend of Alvan's +beloved, because she was the true friend of Alvan! How cheap such a way +of proving goodness, Clotilde did not consider. She wanted it so. + +The mountain heights were in dusty sunlight. She had seen them day after +day thinly lined on the dead sky, inviting thunder and doomed to +sultriness. She looked on the garden of the house, a desert under bee +and butterfly. Looking beyond the garden she perceived her father on the +glaring road, and one with him, the sight of whom did not flush her cheek +or spring her heart to a throb, though she pitied the poor boy: he was +useless to her, utterly. + +Soon her Indian Bacchus was in her room, and alone with her, and at her +feet. Her father had given him hope. He came bearing eyes that were +like hope's own; and kneeling, kissing her hands, her knees, her hair, he +seemed unaware that she was inanimate. + +There was nothing imaginable in which he could be of use. + +He was only another dust-cloud of the sultry sameness. She had been +expecting a woman, a tempest choral with sky and mountain and valley- +hollows, as the overture to Alvan's appearance. + +But he roused her. With Marko she had never felt her cowardice, and his +passionately beseeching, trembling, 'Will you have me?' called up the +tiger in the girl; in spite of pity for his voice she retorted on her +parents: + +'Will I have you? I? You ask me what is my will? It sounds oddly from +you, seeing that I wrote to you in Lucerne what I would have, and nothing +has changed in me since then, nothing! My feeling for him is unaltered, +and everything you have heard of me was wrung out of me by my +unhappiness. The world is dead to me, and all in it that is not. +Sigismund Alvan. To you I am accustomed to speak every thought of my +soul, and I tell you the world and all it has is dead to me, even my +parents--I hate them.' + +Marko pressed her hands. If he loved her slavishly, it was generously. +The wild thing he said was one of the frantic leaps of generosity in a +heart that was gone to impulse: 'I see it, they have martyrized you. +I know you so well, Clotilde! So, then, come to me, come with me, let me +cherish you. I will take you and rescue you from your people, and should +it be your positive wish to meet Alvan again, I myself will take you to +him, and then you may choose between us.' + +The generosity was evident. There was nevertheless, to a young woman +realizing the position foreshadowed by such a project, the suspicion of a +slavish hope nestling among the circumstances in the background, and this +she was taught by the dangerous emotion of gratitude gaining on her, and +melting her to him. + +She too had a slavish hope that was athirst and sinking, and it flew at +the throat of Marko's, eager to satiate its vengeance for these long +delays in the destroying of a weaker. + +She left her chair and cried: 'As you will. What is it to me? Take me, +if you please. Take that glove; it is the shape of my hand. You have as +much of me as is there. My life is gone. You or another! But take this +warning and my oath with it. I swear to you, that wherever I see +Sigismund Alvan I go straight to him, though the way be over you, all of +you, lying dead beneath me.' + +The lift of incredulous horror in Marko's large black eyes excited her to +a more savage imagination: 'Rejoice! I should rejoice to see you, all of +you, dead, that I might walk across you safe from disturbance to get to +him I love. Be under no delusion. I love him better than the lives of +any dear to me, or my own. I am his. He is my faith, my worship. I am +true to him, I am, I am. You force my hand from me, you take this +miserable body, but my soul is free to love him and to go to him when God +gives me sight of him. I am Alvan's eternally. All your laws are +mockeries. You, and my people, and your priests, and your law-makers, +are shadows, brain-vapours. Let him beckon!--So you have your warning. +Do what I may, I cannot be called untrue. And now let me be; I want +repose; my head breaks; I have been on the rack and I am in pieces!' + +Marko clung to her hand, said she was terrible and pitiless, but clung. + +The hand was nerveless: it was her dear hand. Had her tongue been more +venomous in wildness than the encounter with a weaker than herself made +it be, the holding of her hand would have been his antidote. In him +there was love for two. + +Clotilde allowed him to keep the hand, assuring herself she was +unconscious he did so. He brought her peace, he brought her old throning +self back to her, and he was handsome and tame as a leopard-skin at her +feet. + +If she was doomed to reach to Alvan through him, at least she had warned +him. The vision of the truthfulness of her nature threw a celestial wan +beam on her guilty destiny. + +She patted his head and bade him leave her, narrowing her shoulders on +the breast to let it be seen that the dark household within was locked +and shuttered. + +He went. He was good, obedient, humane; he was generous, exquisitely +bred; he brought her peace, and he had been warned. It is difficult in +affliction to think of one who belongs to us as one to whom we owe a +duty. The unquestionably sincere and devoted lover is also in his +candour a featureless person; and though we would not punish him for his +goodness, we have the right to anticipate that it will be equal to every +trial. Perhaps, for the sake of peace . . . after warning him . . . +her meditations tottered in dots. + +But when the heart hungers behind such meditations, that thinking without +language is a dangerous habit; for there will suddenly come a dash +usurping the series of tentative dots, which is nothing other than the +dreadful thing resolved on, as of necessity, as naturally as the +adventurous bow-legged infant pitches back from an excursion of two paces +to mother's lap; and not much less innocently within the mind, it would +appear. The dash is a haven reached that would not be greeted if it +stood out in words. Could we live without ourselves letting our animal +do our thinking for us legibly? We live with ourselves agreeably so long +as his projects are phrased in his primitive tongue, even though we have +clearly apprehended what he means, and though we sufficiently well +understand the whither of our destination under his guidance. No counsel +can be saner than that the heart should be bidden to speak out in plain +verbal speech within us. For want of it, Clotilde's short explorations +in Dot-and-Dash land were of a kind to terrify her, and yet they seemed +not only unavoidable, but foreshadowing of the unavoidable to come. +Or possibly--the thought came to her--Alvan would keep his word, and save +her from worse by stepping to the altar between her and Marko, there +calling on her to decide and quit the prince; and his presence would +breathe courage into her to go. to him. It set her looking to the altar +as a prospect of deliverance. + +Her mother could not fail to notice a change in Clotilde's wintry face +now that Marko was among them; her inference tallied with his report of +their interview, so she supposed the girl to have accepted more or less +heartily Marko's forgiveness. For him the girl's eyes were soft and +kind; her gaze was through the eyelashes, as one seeing a dream on a far +horizon. Marko spoke of her cheerfully, and was happy to call her his +own, but would not have her troubled by any ceremonial talk of their +engagement, so she had much to thank him for, and her consciousness of +the signal instance of ingratitude lying ahead in the darkness, like a +house mined beneath the smiling slumberer, made her eager to show the +real gratefulness and tenderness of her feelings. This had the +appearance of renewed affection; consequently her parents lost much of +their fear of the besieger outside, and she was removed to the city. +Two parties were in the city, one favouring Alvan, and one abhorring the +audacious Jew. Together they managed to spread incredible reports of his +doings, which required little exaggeration to convince an enemy that he +was a man with whom hostility could not be left to sleep. The General +heard of the man's pleading his cause in all directions to get pressure +put upon him, showing something like a devilish persuasiveness, Jew and +demagogue though he was; for there seemed to be a feeling abroad that the +interview this howling lover claimed with Clotilde ought to be granted. +The latest report spoke of him as off to the General's Court for an +audience of his official chief. General von Rudiger looked to his +defences, and he had sufficient penetration to see that the weakest point +of them might be a submissive daughter. + +A letter to Clotilde from the baroness was brought to the house by a +messenger. The General thought over it. The letter was by no means a +seductive letter for a young lady to receive from such a person, yet he +did not anticipate the whole effect it would produce when ultimately he +decided to give it to her, being of course unaware of the noble style of +Clotilde's address to the baroness. He stipulated that there must be no +reply to it except through him, and Clotilde had the coveted letter in +her hands at last. Here was the mediatrix--the veritable goddess with +the sword to cut the knot! Here was the manifestation of Alvan! + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +Above all things I detest the writing for money +Beginning to have a movement to kiss the whip +Dignitary, and he passed under the bondage of that position +Giant Vanity urged Giant Energy to make use of Giant Duplicity +Hesitating strangeness that sometimes gathers during absences +His apparent cynicism is sheer irritability +I give my self, I do not sell +Night has little mercy for the self-reproachful +Not in a situation that could bear of her blaming herself +O for yesterday! +Professional widows +Self-consoled when they are not self-justified +Want of courage is want of sense +We shall not be rich--nor poor +Work of extravagance upon perceptibly plain matter + + + + +[The End] + + + + +The Project Gutenberg Etext of The Tragic Comedians, v2, by Meredith +********This file should be named gm68v10.txt or gm68v10.zip******** + +Corrected EDITIONS of our etexts get a new NUMBER, gm68v11.txt +VERSIONS based on separate sources get new LETTER, gm68v10a.txt + +This etext was produced by David Widger <widger@cecomet.net> + +More information about this book is at the top of this file. + +We are now trying to release all our etexts one year in advance +of the official release dates, leaving time for better editing. +Please be encouraged to tell us about any error or corrections, +even years after the official publication date. + +Please note neither this listing nor its contents are final til +midnight of the last day of the month of any such announcement. +The official release date of all Project Gutenberg Etexts is at +Midnight, Central Time, of the last day of the stated month. 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