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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/4467-0.txt b/4467-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..833245e --- /dev/null +++ b/4467-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,3566 @@ +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 4467 *** + +DIANA OF THE CROSSWAYS + +By George Meredith + +1897 + + + +BOOK 3. + +XVIII. THE AUTHORESS +XIX. A DRIVE IN SUNLIGHT AND A DRIVE IN MOONLIGHT +XX. DIANA'S NIGHT-WATCH IN THE CHAMBER OF DEATH +XXI. THE YOUNG MINISTER OF STATE +XXII. BETWEEN DIANA AND DACIER : THE WIND EAST OVER BLEAK LAND +XXIII. RECORDS A VISIT TO DIANA FROM ONE OF THE WORLD'S GOOD WOMEN +XXIV. INDICATES A SOUL PREPARED FOR DESPERATION +XXV. ONCE MORE THE CROSSWAYS AND A CHANGE OF TURNINGS +XXVI. IN WHICH A DISAPPOINTED LOVER RECEIVES A MULTITUDE OF LESSONS + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +THE AUTHORESS + +The effect of a great success upon Diana, at her second literary venture, +was shown in the transparent sedateness of a letter she wrote to Emma +Dunstane, as much as in her immediate and complacent acceptance of the +magical change of her fortunes. She spoke one thing and acted another, +but did both with a lofty calm that deceived the admiring friend who +clearly saw the authoress behind her mask, and feared lest she should be +too confidently trusting to the powers of her pen to support an +establishment. + +'If the public were a perfect instrument to strike on, I should be +tempted to take the wonderful success of my PRINCESS at her first +appearance for a proof of natural aptitude in composition, and might +think myself the genius. I know it to be as little a Stradivarius as I +am a Paganini. It is an eccentric machine, in tune with me for the +moment, because I happen to have hit it in the ringing spot. The book is +a new face appealing to a mirror of the common surface emotions; and the +kitchen rather than the dairy offers an analogy for the real value of +that "top-skim." I have not seen what I consider good in the book once +mentioned among the laudatory notices--except by your dear hand, my Emmy. +Be sure I will stand on guard against the "vaporous generalizations," and +other "tricks" you fear. Now that you are studying Latin for an +occupation--how good and wise it was of Mr. Redworth to propose it!-- +I look upon you with awe as a classic authority and critic. I wish I had +leisure to study with you. What I do is nothing like so solid and +durable. + +'THE PRINCESS EGERIA' originally (I must have written word of it to you-- +I remember the evening off Palermo!) was conceived as a sketch; by +gradations she grew into a sort of semi-Scudery romance, and swelled to +her present portliness. That was done by a great deal of piecing, not to +say puffing, of her frame. She would be healthier and have a chance of +living longer if she were reduced by a reversal of the processes. But +how would the judicious clippings and prickings affect our "pensive +public"? Now that I have furnished a house and have a fixed address, +under the paws of creditors, I feel I am in the wizard-circle of my +popularity and subscribe to its laws or waken to incubus and the desert. +Have I been rash? You do not pronounce. If I have bound myself to pipe +as others please, it need not be entirely; and I can promise you it shall +not be; but still I am sensible when I lift my "little quill" of having +forced the note of a woodland wren into the popular nightingale's--which +may end in the daw's, from straining; or worse, a toy-whistle. + +'That is, in the field of literature. Otherwise, within me deep, +I am not aware of any transmutation of the celestial into coined gold. +I sound myself, and ring clear. Incessant writing is my refuge, my +solace--escape out of the personal net. I delight in it, as in my early +morning walks at Lugano, when I went threading the streets and by the +lake away to "the heavenly mount," like a dim idea worming upward in a +sleepy head to bright wakefulness. + +'My anonymous critic, of whom I told you, is intoxicating with eulogy. +The signature "Apollonius" appears to be of literary-middle indication. +He marks passages approved by you. I have also had a complimentary +letter from Mr. Dacier: + +'For an instance of this delight I have in writing, so strong is it that +I can read pages I have written, and tear the stuff to strips (I did +yesterday), and resume, as if nothing had happened. The waves within are +ready for any displacement. That must be a good sign. I do not doubt of +excelling my PRINCESS; and if she received compliments, the next may hope +for more. Consider, too, the novel pleasure of earning money by the +labour we delight in. It is an answer to your question whether I am +happy. Yes, as the savage islander before the ship entered the bay with +the fire-water. My blood is wine, and I have the slumbers of an infant. +I dream, wake, forget my dream, barely dress before the pen is galloping; +barely breakfast; no toilette till noon. A savage in good sooth! You +see, my Emmy, I could not house with the "companionable person" you hint +at. The poles can never come together till the earth is crushed. She +would find my habits intolerable, and I hers contemptible, though we +might both be companionable persons. My dear, I could not even live with +myself. My blessed little quill, which helps me divinely to live out of +myself, is and must continue to be my one companion. It is my mountain +height, morning light, wings, cup from the springs, my horse, my goal, +my lancet and replenisher, my key of communication with the highest, +grandest, holiest between earth and heaven-the vital air connecting them. + +'In justice let me add that I have not been troubled by hearing of any of +the mysterious legal claims, et caetera. I am sorry to hear bad reports +of health. I wish him entire felicity--no step taken to bridge division! +The thought of it makes me tigrish. + +'A new pianist playing his own pieces (at Lady Singleby's concert) has +given me exquisite pleasure' and set me composing songs--not to his +music, which could be rendered only by sylphs moving to "soft recorders" +in the humour of wildness, languor, bewitching caprices, giving a new +sense to melody. How I wish you had been with me to hear him! It was +the most AEolian thing ever caught from a night-breeze by the soul of a +poet. + +'But do not suppose me having headlong tendencies to the melting mood. +(The above, by the way, is a Pole settled in Paris, and he is to be +introduced to me at Lady Pennon's.)--What do you say to my being invited +by Mr. Whitmonby to aid him in writing leading articles for the paper he +is going to conduct! "write as you talk and it will do," he says. I am +choosing my themes. To write--of politics--as I talk, seems to me like +an effort to jump away from my shadow. The black dog of consciousness +declines to be shaken off. If some one commanded me to talk as I write! +I suspect it would be a way of winding me up to a sharp critical pitch +rapidly. + +'Not good news of Lord D. I have had messages. Mr. Dacier conceals his +alarm. The PRINCESS gave great gratification. She did me her best +service there. Is it not cruel that the interdict of the censor should +force me to depend for information upon such scraps as I get from a +gentleman passing my habitation on his way to the House? And he is not, +he never has been, sympathetic in that direction. He sees my grief, and +assumes an undertakerly air, with some notion of acting in concert, one +supposes little imagining how I revolt from that crape-hatband formalism +of sorrow! + +'One word of her we call our inner I. I am not drawing upon her +resources for my daily needs; not wasting her at all, I trust; certainly +not walling her up, to deafen her voice. It would be to fall away from +you. She bids me sign myself, my beloved, ever, ever your Tony.' + +The letter had every outward show of sincereness in expression, and was +endowed to wear that appearance by the writer's impulse to protest with +so resolute a vigour as to delude herself. Lady Dunstane heard of Mr. +Dacier's novel attendance at concerts. The world made a note of it; +for the gentleman was notoriously without ear for music. + +Diana's comparison of her hours of incessant writing to her walks under +the dawn at Lugano, her boast of the similarity of her delight in both, +deluded her uncorrupted conscience to believe that she was now +spiritually as free: as in that fair season of the new spring in her +veins. She, was not an investigating physician, nor was Lady Dunstane, +otherwise they would have examined the material points of her conduct-- +indicators of the spiritual secret always. What are the patient's acts? +The patient's, mind was projected too far beyond them to see the fore +finger they stretched at her; and the friend's was not that of a prying +doctor on the look out for betraying symptoms. Lady Dunstane did ask +herself why Tony should have incurred the burden of a costly household-- +a very costly: Sir Lukin had been at one of Tony's little' dinners: but +her wish to meet the world on equal terms, after a long dependency, +accounted for it in seeming to excuse. The guests on the occasion were +Lady Pennon. Lady Singleby, Mr. Whitmonby, Mr. Percy Dacier, Mr. Tonans; +--'Some other woman,' Sir Lukin said, and himself. He reported the +cookery as matching the: conversation, and that was princely; the wines +not less--an extraordinary fact to note of a woman. But to hear +Whitmonby and Diana Warwick! How he told a story, neat as a postman's +knock, and she tipped it with a remark and ran to a second, drawing in +Lady Pennon, and then Dacier, 'and me!' cried Sir Lukin; 'she made us all +toss the ball from hand to hand, and all talk up to the mark; and none of +us noticed that we all went together to the drawing-room, where we talked +for another hour, and broke up fresher than we began.' + +'That break between the men and the women after dinner was Tony's +aversion, and I am glad she has instituted a change,' said Lady Dunstane. + +She heard also from Redworth of the unexampled concert of the guests at +Mrs. Warwick's dinner parties. He had met on one occasion the Esquarts, +the Pettigrews, Mr. Percy Dacier, and a Miss Paynham. Redworth had not +a word to say of the expensive household. Whatever Mrs. Warwick did was +evidently good to him. On another evening the party was composed of Lady +Pennon, Lord Larrian, Miss Paynham, a clever Mrs. Wollasley, Mr. Henry +Wilmers, and again Mr. Percy Dacier. + +When Diana came to Copsley, Lady Dunstane remarked on the recurrence of +the name of Miss Paynham in the list of her guests. + +'And Mr. Percy Dacier's too,' said Diana, smiling. 'They are invited +each for specific reasons. It pleases Lord Dannisburgh to hear that a +way has been found to enliven his nephew; and my little dinners are +effective, I think. He wakes. Yesterday evening he capped flying jests +with Mr. Sullivan Smith. But you speak of Miss. Paynham.' Diana +lowered her voice on half a dozen syllables, till the half-tones dropped +into her steady look. 'You approve, Emmy?' + +The answer was: 'I do--true or not.' + +'Between us two, dear, I fear! . . . In either case, she has been +badly used. Society is big engine enough to protect itself. I incline +with British juries to do rough justice to the victims. She has neither +father nor brother. I have had no confidences: but it wears the look of a +cowardly business. With two words in his ear, I could arm an Irishman to +do some work of chastisement: he would select the rascal's necktie for a +cause of quarrel and lords have to stand their ground as well as +commoners. They measure the same number of feet when stretched their +length. However, vengeance with the heavens! though they seem tardy. +Lady Pennon has been very kind about it; and the Esquarts invite her to +Lockton. Shoulder to shoulder, the tide may be stemmed.' + +'She would have gone under, but for you, dear Tony!' said Emma' folding +arms round her darling's neck anal kissing her. 'Bring her here some +day.' + +Diana did not promise it. She had her vision of Sir Lukin in his fit of +lunacy. + +'I am too weak for London now,' Emma resumed. 'I should like to be +useful. Is she pleasant?' + +'Sprightly by nature. She has worn herself with fretting.' + +'Then bring her to stay with me, if I cannot keep you. She will talk of +you to me.' + +'I will bring her for a couple of days,' Diana said. 'I am too busy to +remain longer. She paints portraits to amuse herself. She ought to be +pushed, wherever she is received about London, while the season is warm. +One season will suffice to establish her. She is pretty, near upon six +and twenty: foolish, of course:--she pays for having had a romantic head. +Heavy payment, Emmy! I drive at laws, but hers is an instance of the +creatures wanting simple human kindness.' + +'The good law will come with a better civilization; but before society +can be civilized it has to be debarbarized,' Emma remarked, and Diana +sighed over the task and the truism. + +I should have said in younger days, because it will not look plainly on +our nature and try to reconcile it with our conditions. But now I see +that the sin is cowardice. The more I know of the world the more clearly +I perceive that its top and bottom sin is cowardice, physically and +morally alike. Lord Larrian owns to there being few heroes in an army. +We must fawn in society. What is the meaning of that dread of one +example of tolerance? O my dear! let us give it the right name. +Society is the best thing we have, but it is a crazy vessel worked by a +crew that formerly practised piracy, and now, in expiation, professes +piety, fearful of a discovered Omnipotence, which is in the image of +themselves and captain. Their old habits are not quite abandoned, and +their new one is used as a lash to whip the exposed of us for a +propitiation of the capricious potentate whom they worship in the place +of the true God.' + +Lady Dunstane sniffed. 'I smell the leading article.' + +Diana joined with her smile, 'No, the style is rather different.' + +'Have you not got into a trick of composing in speaking, at times?' + +Diana confessed, 'I think I have at times. Perhaps the daily writing of +all kinds and the nightly talking . . . I may be getting strained.' + +'No, Tony; but longer visits in the country to me would refresh you. +I miss your lighter touches. London is a school, but, you know it, +not a school for comedy nor for philosophy; that is gathered on my hills, +with London distantly in view, and then occasional descents on it well +digested.' + +'I wonder whether it is affecting me !' said Diana, musing. +'A metropolitan hack! and while thinking myself free, thrice harnessed; +and all my fun gone. Am I really as dull as a tract, my dear? I must +be, or I should be proving the contrary instead of asking. My pitfall is +to fancy I have powers equal to the first look-out of the eyes of the. +morning. Enough of me. We talked of Mary Paynham. If only some right +good man would marry her!' + +Lady Dunstane guessed at the right good man in Diana's mind. 'Do you +bring them together?' + +Diana nodded, and then shook doleful negatives to signify no hope. + +'None whatever--if we mean the same person,' said Lady Dunstane, +bethinking her, in the spirit of wrath she felt at such a scheme being +planned by Diana to snare the right good man, that instead of her own +true lover Redworth, it might be only Percy Dacier. So filmy of mere +sensations are these little ideas as they flit in converse, that she did +not reflect on her friend's ignorance of Redworth's love of her, or on +the unlikely choice of one in Dacier's high station to reinstate a +damsel. + +They did not name the person. + +'Passing the instance, which is cruel, I will be just to society thus +far,' said Diana. 'I was in a boat at Richmond last week, and Leander +was revelling along the mud-banks, and took it into his head to swim out +to me, and I was moved to take him on board. The ladies in the boat +objected, for he was not only wet but very muddy. I was forced to own +that their objections were reasonable. My sentimental humaneness had no +argument against muslin dresses, though my dear dog's eyes appealed +pathetically, and he would keep swimming after us. The analogy excuses +the world for protecting itself in extreme cases; nothing, nothing +excuses its insensibility to cases which may be pleaded. You see the +pirate crew turned pious-ferocious in sanctity.' She added, half +laughing: 'I am reminded by the boat, I have unveiled my anonymous +critic, and had a woeful disappointment. He wrote like a veteran; he is +not much more than a boy. I received a volume of verse, and a few lines +begging my acceptance. I fancied I knew the writing, and wrote asking +him whether I had not to thank him, and inviting him to call. He seems +a nice lad of about two and twenty, mad for literature; and he must have +talent. Arthur Rhodes by name. I may have a chance of helping him. +He was an articled clerk of Mr. Braddock's, the same who valiantly came +to my rescue once. He was with us in the boat.' + +'Bring him to me some day,' said Lady Dunstane. + +Miss Paynham's visit to Copsley was arranged, and it turned out a +failure. The poor young lady came in a flutter, thinking that the friend +of Mrs. Warwick would expect her to discourse cleverly. She attempted +it, to Diana's amazement. Lady Dunstane's opposingly corresponding +stillness provoked Miss Paynham to expatiate, for she had sprightliness +and some mental reserves of the common order. Clearly, Lady Dunstane +mused while listening amiably, Tony never could have designed this +gabbler for the mate of Thomas Redworth! + +Percy Dacier seemed to her the more likely one, in that light, and she +thought so still, after Sir Lukin had introduced him at Copsley for a +couple of days of the hunting season. Tony's manner with him suggested +it; she had a dash of leadership. They were not intimate in look or +tongue. + +But Percy Dacier also was too good for Miss Paynham, if that was Tony's +plan for him, Lady Dunstane thought, with the relentlessness of an +invalid and recluse's distaste. An aspect of penitence she had not +demanded, but the silly gabbier under a stigma she could not pardon. + +Her opinion of Miss Paynham was diffused in her silence. + +Speaking of Mr. Dacier, she remarked, 'As you say of him, Tony, he can +brighten, and when you give him a chance he is entertaining. He has fine +gifts. If I were a member of his family I should beat about for a match +for him. He strikes me as one of the young men who would do better +married.' + +'He is doing very well, but the wonder is that he doesn't marry,' +said Diana. 'He ought to be engaged. Lady Esquart told me that he was. +A Miss Asper--great heiress; and the Daciers want money. However, there +it is.' + +Not many weeks later Diana could not have spoken of Mr. Percy Dacier with +this air of indifference without corruption of her inward guide. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +A DRIVE IN SUNLIGHT AND A DRIVE IN MOONLIGHT + +The fatal time to come for her was in the Summer of that year. + +Emma had written her a letter of unwonted bright spirits, contrasting +strangely with an inexplicable oppression of her own that led her to +imagine her recent placid life the pause before thunder, and to sharp the +mood of her solitary friend she flew to Copsley, finding Sir Lukin +absent, as usual. They drove out immediately after breakfast, on one of +those high mornings of the bared bosom of June when distances are given +to our eyes, and a soft air fondles leaf and grass-blade, and beauty and +peace are overhead, reflected, if we will. Rain had fallen in the night. +Here and there hung a milk-white cloud with folded sail. The South-west +left it in its bay of blue, and breathed below. At moments the fresh +scent of herb and mould swung richly in warmth. The young beech-leaves +glittered, pools of rain-water made the roadways laugh, the grass-banks +under hedges rolled their interwoven weeds in cascades of many-shaded +green to right and left of the pair of dappled ponies, and a squirrel +crossed ahead, a lark went up a little way to ease his heart, closing his +wings when the burst was over, startled black-birds, darting with a +clamour like a broken cockcrow, looped the wayside woods from hazel to +oak-scrub; short flights, quick spirts everywhere, steady sunshine above. + +Diana held the reins. The whip was an ornament, as the plume of feathers +to the general officer. Lady Dunstane's ponies were a present from +Redworth, who always chose the pick of the land for his gifts. They +joyed in their trot, and were the very love-birds of the breed for their +pleasure of going together, so like that Diana called them the Dromios. +Through an old gravel-cutting a gateway led to the turf of the down, +springy turf bordered on a long line, clear as a racecourse, by golden +gorse covers, and leftward over the gorse the dark ridge of the fir and +heath country ran companionably to the Southwest, the valley between, +with undulations of wood and meadow sunned or shaded, clumps, mounds, +promontories, away to broad spaces of tillage banked by wooded hills, and +dimmer beyond and farther, the faintest shadowiness of heights, as a veil +to the illimitable. Yews, junipers, radiant beeches, and gleams of the +service-tree or the white-beam spotted the semicircle of swelling green +Down black and silver. The sun in the valley sharpened his beams on +squares of buttercups, and made a pond a diamond. + +'You see, Tony,' Emma said, for a comment on the scene, 'I could envy +Italy for having you, more than you for being in Italy.' + +'Feature and colour!' said Diana. 'You have them here, and on a scale +that one can embrace. I should like to build a hut on this point, and +wait for such a day to return. It brings me to life.' She lifted her +eyelids on her friend's worn sweet face, and knowing her this friend up +to death, past it in her hopes, she said bravely, 'It is the Emma of days +and scenes to me! It helps me to forget myself, as I do when I think of +you, dearest; but the subject has latterly been haunting me, I don't know +why, and ominously, as if my nature were about to horrify my soul. But I +am not sentimentalizing, you are really this day and scene in my heart.' + +Emma smiled confidingly. She spoke her reflection: 'The heart must be +troubled a little to have the thought. The flower I gather here tells me +that we may be happy in privation and suffering if simply we can accept +beauty. I won't say expel the passions, but keep passion sober, a +trotter in harness.' + +Diana caressed the ponies' heads with the droop of her whip: 'I don't +think I know him!' she said. + +Between sincerity and a suspicion so cloaked and dull that she did not +feel it to be the opposite of candour, she fancied she was passionless +because she could accept the visible beauty, which was Emma's +prescription and test; and she forced herself to make much of it, cling +to it, devour it; with envy of Emma's contemplative happiness, through +whose grave mind she tried to get to the peace in it, imagining that she +succeeded. The cloaked and dull suspicion weighed within her +nevertheless. She took it for a mania to speculate on herself. There +are states of the crimson blood when the keenest wits are childish, +notably in great-hearted women aiming at the majesty of their sex and +fearful of confounding it by the look direct and the downright word. +Yet her nature compelled her inwardly to phrase the sentence: 'Emma is +a wife!' The character of her husband was not considered, nor was the +meaning of the exclamation pursued. + +They drove through the gorse into wild land of heath and flowering +hawthorn, and along by tracts of yew and juniper to another point, +jutting on a furzy sand-mound, rich with the mild splendour of English +scenery, which Emma stamped on her friend's mind by saying: 'A cripple +has little to envy in you who can fly when she has feasts like these at +her doors.' + +They had an inclination to boast on the drive home of the solitude they +had enjoyed; and just then, as the road in the wood wound under great +beeches, they beheld a London hat. The hat was plucked from its head. +A clear-faced youth, rather flushed, dusty at the legs, addressed Diana. + +'Mr. Rhodes!' she said, not discouragingly. + +She was petitioned to excuse him; he thought she would wish to hear the +news in town last night as early as possible; he hesitated and murmured +it. + +Diana turned to Emma: 'Lord Dannisburgh!' her paleness told the rest. + +Hearing from Mr. Rhodes that he had walked the distance from town, +and had been to Copsley, Lady Dunstane invited him to follow the pony- +carriage thither, where he was fed and refreshed by a tea-breakfast, +as he preferred walking on tea, he said. 'I took the liberty to call +at Mrs. Warwick's house,' he informed her; 'the footman said she was +at Copsley. I found it on the map--I knew the directions--and started +about two in the morning. I wanted a walk.' + +It was evident to her that he was one of the young squires bewitched whom +beautiful women are constantly enlisting. There was no concealment of +it, though he stirred a sad enviousness in the invalid lady by descanting +on the raptures of a walk out of London in the youngest light of day, and +on the common objects he had noticed along the roadside, and through the +woods, more sustaining, closer with nature than her compulsory feeding on +the cream of things. + +'You are not fatigued?' she inquired, hoping for that confession at +least; but she pardoned his boyish vaunting to walk the distance back +without any fatigue at all. + +He had a sweeter reward for his pains; and if the business of the +chronicler allowed him to become attached to pure throbbing felicity +wherever it is encountered, he might be diverted by the blissful +unexpectedness of good fortune befalling Mr. Arthur Rhodes in having +the honour to conduct Mrs. Warwick to town. No imagined happiness, +even in the heart of a young man of two and twenty, could have matched +it. He was by her side, hearing and seeing her, not less than four +hours. To add to his happiness, Lady Dunstane said she would be glad to +welcome him again. She thought him a pleasant specimen of the self-vowed +squire. + +Diana was sure that there would be a communication for her of some sort +at her house in London; perhaps a message of farewell from the dying +lord, now dead. Mr. Rhodes had only the news of the evening journals, +to the effect that Lord Dannisburgh had expired at his residence, the +Priory, Hallowmere, in Hampshire. A message of farewell from him, she +hoped for: knowing him as she did, it seemed a certainty; and she +hungered for that last gleam of life in her friend. She had no +anticipation of the burden of the message awaiting her. + +A consultation as to the despatching of the message, had taken place +among the members of Lord Dannisburgh's family present at his death. +Percy Dacier was one of them, and he settled the disputed point, after +some time had been spent in persuading his father to take the plain view +of obligation in the matter, and in opposing the dowager countess, his +grandmother, by stating that he had already sent a special messenger to +London. Lord Dannisburgh on his death-bed had expressed a wish that Mrs. +Warwick would sit with him for an hour one night before the nails were +knocked in his coffin. He spoke of it twice, putting it the second time +to Percy as a formal request to be made to her, and Percy had promised +him that Mrs. Warwick should have the message. He had done his best to +keep his pledge, aware of the disrelish of the whole family for the +lady's name, to say nothing of her presence. + +'She won't come,' said the earl. + +'She'll come,' said old Lady Dacier. + +'If the woman respects herself she'll hold off it,' the earl insisted +because of his desire that way. He signified in mutterings that the +thing was improper and absurd, a piece of sentiment, sickly senility, +unlike Lord Dannisburgh. Also that Percy had been guilty of excessive +folly. + +To which Lady Dacier nodded her assent, remarking, 'The woman is on her +mettle. From what I've heard of her, she's not a woman to stick at +trifles. She'll take it as a sort of ordeal by touch, and she 'll come.' + +They joined in abusing Percy, who had driven away to another part of the +country. Lord Creedmore, the heir of the house, was absent, hunting in +America, or he might temporarily have been taken into favour by contrast. +Ultimately they agreed that the woman must be allowed to enter the house, +but could not be received. The earl was a widower; his mother managed +the family, and being hard to convince, she customarily carried her +point, save when it involved Percy's freedom of action. She was one of +the veterans of her sex that age to toughness; and the 'hysterical fuss' +she apprehended in the visit of this woman to Lord Dannisburgh's death- +bed and body, did not alarm her. For the sake of the household she +determined to remain, shut up in her room. Before night the house was +empty of any members of the family excepting old Lady Dacier and the +outstretched figure on the bed. + +Dacier fled to escape the hearing of the numberless ejaculations re- +awakened in the family by his uncle's extraordinary dying request. They +were an outrage to the lady, of whom he could now speak as a privileged +champion; and the request itself had an air of proving her stainless, a +white soul and efficacious advocate at the celestial gates (reading the +mind of the dying man). So he thought at one moment: he had thought so +when charged with the message to her; had even thought it a natural wish +that she should look once on the face she would see no more, and say +farewell to it, considering that in life it could not be requested. But +the susceptibility to sentimental emotion beside a death-bed, with a +dying man's voice in the ear, requires fortification if it is to be +maintained;' and the review of his uncle's character did not tend to make +this very singular request a proof that the lady's innocence was honoured +in it. His epicurean uncle had no profound esteem for the kind of +innocence. He had always talked of Mrs. Warwick--with warm respect for +her: Dacier knew that he had bequeathed her a sum of money. The +inferences were either way. Lord Dannisburgh never spoke evilly of any +woman, and he was perhaps bound to indemnify her materially as well as he +could for what she had suffered.--On the other hand, how easy it was to +be the dupe of a woman so handsome and clever.--Unlikely too that his +uncle would consent to sit at the Platonic banquet with her.--Judging by +himself, Dacier deemed it possible for man. He was not quick to kindle, +and had lately seen much of her, had found her a Lady Egeria, helpful in +counsel, prompting, inspiriting, reviving as well-waters, and as +temperately cool: not one sign of native slipperiness. Nor did she stir +the mud in him upon which proud man is built. The shadow of the scandal +had checked a few shifty sensations rising now and then of their own +accord, and had laid them, with the lady's benign connivance. This was +good proof in her favour, seeing that she must have perceived of late the +besetting thirst he had for her company; and alone or in the medley +equally. To see her, hear, exchange ideas with her; and to talk of new +books, try to listen to music at the opera and at concerts, and admire +her playing of hostess, were novel pleasures, giving him fresh notions of +life, and strengthening rather than disturbing the course of his life's +business. + +At any rate, she was capable of friendship. Why not resolutely believe +that she had been his uncle's true and simple friend! He adopted the +resolution, thanking her for one recognized fact:--he hated marriage, and +would by this time have been in the yoke, but for the agreeable deviation +of his path to her society. Since his visit to Copsley, moreover, Lady +Dunstane's idolizing, of her friend had influenced him. Reflecting on +it, he recovered from the shock which his uncle's request had caused. + +Certain positive calculations were running side by side with the +speculations in vapour. His messenger would reach her house at about +four of the afternoon. If then at home, would she decide to start +immediately?--Would she come? That was a question he did not delay to +answer. Would she defer the visit? Death replied to that. She would +not delay it. + +She would be sure to come at once. And what of the welcome she would +meet? Leaving the station at London at six in the evening, she might +arrive at the Priory, all impediments counted, between ten and eleven at +night. Thence, coldly greeted, or not greeted, to the chamber of death. + +A pitiable and cruel reception for a woman upon such a mission! + +His mingled calculations and meditations reached that exclamatory +terminus in feeling, and settled on the picture of Diana, about as clear +as light to blinking eyes, but enough for him to realize her being there +and alone, woefully alone. The supposition of an absolute loneliness was +most possible. He had intended to drive back the next day, when the +domestic storm would be over, and take the chances of her coming. It +seemed now a piece of duty to return at night, a traverse of twenty rough +up and down miles from Itchenford to the heath-land rolling on the chalk +wave of the Surrey borders, easily done after the remonstrances of his +host were stopped. + +Dacier sat in an open carriage, facing a slip of bright moon. Poetical +impressions, emotions, any stirrings of his mind by the sensational stamp +on it, were new to him, and while he swam in them, both lulled and +pricked by his novel accessibility to nature's lyrical touch, he asked +himself whether, if he were near the throes of death, the thought of +having Diana Warwick to sit beside his vacant semblance for an hour at +night would be comforting. And why had his uncle specified an hour of +the night? It was a sentiment, like the request: curious in a man so +little sentimental. Yonder crescent running the shadowy round of the +hoop roused comparisons. Would one really wish to have her beside one +in death? In life--ah! But suppose her denied to us in life. Then the +desire for her companionship appears passingly comprehensible. Enter +into the sentiment, you see that the hour of darkness is naturally +chosen. And would even a grand old Pagan crave the presence beside his +dead body for an hour of the night of a woman he did not esteem? Dacier +answered no. The negative was not echoed in his mind. He repeated it, +and to the same deadness. + +He became aware that he had spoken for himself, and he had a fit of +sourness. For who can say he is not a fool before he has been tried by a +woman! Dacier's wretched tendency under vexation to conceive grotesque +analogies, anti-poetic, not to say cockney similes, which had slightly +chilled Diana at Rovio, set him looking at yonder crescent with the hoop, +as at the shape of a white cat climbing a wheel. Men of the northern +blood will sometimes lend their assent to poetical images, even to those +that do not stun the mind lie bludgeons and imperatively, by much +repetition, command their assent; and it is for a solid exchange and +interest in usury with soft poetical creatures when they are so +condescending; but they are seized by the grotesque. In spite of efforts +to efface or supplant it, he saw the white cat, nothing else, even to +thinking that she had jumped cleverly to catch the wheel. He was a true +descendant of practical hard-grained fighting Northerners, of gnarled +dwarf imaginations, chivalrous though they were, and heroes to have +serviceable and valiant gentlemen for issue. Without at all tracing back +to its origin his detestable image of the white cat on the dead circle, +he kicked at the links between his uncle and Diana Warwick, whatever they +had been; particularly at the present revival of them. Old Lady Dacier's +blunt speech, and his father's fixed opinion, hissed in his head. + +They were ignorant of his autumnal visit to the Italian Lakes, after the +winter's Nile-boat expedition; and also of the degree of his recent +intimacy with Mrs. Warwick; or else, as he knew, he would have heard more +hissing things. Her patronage of Miss Paynham exposed her to attacks +where she was deemed vulnerable; Lady Dacier muttered old saws as to the +flocking of birds; he did not accurately understand it, thought it +indiscreet, at best. But in regard to his experience, he could tell +himself that a woman more guileless of luring never drew breath. On the +contrary, candour said it had always been he who had schemed and pressed +for the meeting. He was at liberty to do it, not being bound in honour +elsewhere. Besides, despite his acknowledgement of her beauty, Mrs. +Warwick was not quite his ideal of the perfectly beautiful woman. + +Constance Asper came nearer to it. He had the English taste for red and +white, and for cold outlines: he secretly admired a statuesque demeanour +with a statue's eyes. The national approbation of a reserved haughtiness +in woman, a tempered disdain in her slightly lifted small upperlip and +drooped eyelids, was shared by him; and Constance Asper, if not exactly +aristocratic by birth, stood well for that aristocratic insular type, +which seems to promise the husband of it a casket of all the trusty +virtues, as well as the security of frigidity in the casket. Such was +Dacier's native taste; consequently the attractions of Diana Warwick for +him were, he thought, chiefly mental, those of a Lady Egeria. She might +or might not be good, in the vulgar sense. She was an agreeable woman, +an amusing companion, very suggestive, inciting, animating; and her past +history must be left as her own. Did it matter to him? What he saw was +bright, a silver crescent on the side of the shadowy ring. Were it a +question of marrying her!--That was out of the possibilities. He +remembered, moreover, having heard from a man, who professed to know, +that Mrs. Warwick had started in married life by treating her husband +cavalierly to an intolerable degree: 'Such as no Englishman could stand,' +the portly old informant thundered, describing it and her in racy +vernacular. She might be a devil of a wife. She was a pleasant friend; +just the soft bit sweeter than male friends which gave the flavour of sex +without the artful seductions. He required them strong to move him. + +He looked at last on the green walls of the Priory, scarcely supposing a +fair watcher to be within; for the contrasting pale colours of dawn had +ceased to quicken the brilliancy of the crescent, and summer daylight +drowned it to fainter than a silver coin in water. It lay dispieced like +a pulled rag. Eastward, over Surrey, stood the full rose of morning. +The Priory clock struck four. When the summons of the bell had gained +him admittance, and he heard that Mrs. Warwick had come in the night, +he looked back through the doorway at the rosy colour, and congratulated +himself to think that her hour of watching was at an end. A sleepy +footman was his informant. Women were in my lord's dressing-room, he +said. Upstairs, at the death-chamber, Dacier paused. No sound came to +him. He hurried to his own room, paced about, and returned. Expecting +to see no one but the dead, he turned the handle, and the two circles of +a shaded lamp, on ceiling and on table, met his gaze. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + +DIANA A NIGHT-WATCH IN THE CHAMBER OF DEATH + +He stepped into the room, and thrilled to hear the quiet voice beside the +bed: 'Who is it?' + +Apologies and excuses were on his tongue. The vibration of those grave +tones checked them. + +'It is you,' she said. + +She sat in shadow, her hands joined on her lap. An unopened book was +under the lamp. + +He spoke in an underbreath: 'I have just come. I was not sure I should +find you here. Pardon.' + +'There is a chair.' + +He murmured thanks and entered into the stillness, observing her. + +'You have been watching . . . . You must be tired.' + +'No.' + +'An hour was asked, only one.' + +'I could not leave him.' + +'Watchers are at hand to relieve you' + +'It is better for him to have me.' + +The chord of her voice told him of the gulf she had sunk in during the +night. The thought of her endurance became a burden. + +He let fall his breath for patience, and tapped the floor with his foot. + +He feared to discompose her by speaking. The silence grew more fearful, +as the very speech of Death between them. + +'You came. I thought it right to let you know instantly. I hoped you +would come to-morrow' + +'I could not delay.' + +'You have been sitting alone here since eleven!' + +'I have not found it long.' + +'You must want some refreshment . . . tea?' + +'I need nothing.' + +'It can be made ready in a few minutes.' + +'I could not eat or drink.' + +He tried to brush away the impression of the tomb in the heavily- +curtained chamber by thinking of the summer-morn outside; he spoke of it, +the rosy sky, the dewy grass, the piping birds. She listened, as one +hearing of a quitted sphere. + +Their breathing in common was just heard if either drew a deeper breath. +At moments his eyes wandered and shut. Alternately in his mind Death had +vaster meanings and doubtfuller; Life cowered under the shadow or +outshone it. He glanced from her to the figure in the bed, and she +seemed swallowed. + +He said: 'It is time for you to have rest. You know your room. I will +stay till the servants are up.' + +She replied: 'No, let this night with him be mine.' + +'I am not intruding . . .?' + +'If you wish to remain . . .' + +No traces of weeping were on her face. The lampshade revealed it +colourless, and lustreless her eyes. She was robed in black. She held +her hands clasped. + +'You have not suffered?' + +'Oh, no.' + +She said it without sighing: nor was her speech mournful, only brief. + +'You have seen death before?' + +'I sat by my father four nights. I was a girl then. I cried till I had +no more tears.' + +He felt a burning pressure behind his eyeballs. + +'Death is natural,' he said. + +'It is natural to the aged. When they die honoured . . .' + +She looked where the dead man lay. 'To sit beside the young, cut off +from their dear opening life . . . !' A little shudder swept over +her. 'Oh! that!' + +'You were very good to come. We must all thank you for fulfilling his +wish.' + +'He knew it would be my wish.' + +Her hands pressed together. + +'He lies peacefully!' + +'I have raised the lamp on him, and wondered each time. So changeless he +lies. But so like a sleep that will wake. We never see peace but in the +features of the dead. Will you look? They are beautiful. They have a +heavenly sweetness.' + +The desire to look was evidently recurrent with her. Dacier rose. + +Their eyes fell together on the dead man, as thoughtfully as Death allows +to the creatures of sensation. + +'And after?' he said in low tones. + +'I trust to my Maker,' she replied. 'Do you see a change since he +breathed his last?' + +'Not any.' + +'You were with him?' + + +'Not in the room. Two minutes later.' + +'Who . . .?' + +'My father. His niece, Lady Cathairn.' + +'If our lives are lengthened we outlive most of those we would have to +close our eyes. He had a dear sister.' + +'She died some years back.' + +'I helped to comfort him for that loss.' + +'He told me you did.' + +The lamp was replaced on the table. + +'For a moment, when I withdraw the light from him, I feel sadness. +As if the light we lend to anything were of value to him now!' + +She bowed her head deeply. Dacier left her meditation undisturbed. +The birds on the walls outside were audible, tweeting, chirping. + +He went to the window-curtains and tried the shutter-bars. It seemed to +him that daylight would be cheerfuller for her. He had a thirst to +behold her standing bathed in daylight. + +'Shall I open them?' he asked her. + +'I would rather the lamp,' she said. + +They sat silently until she drew her watch from her girdle. 'My train +starts at half-past six. It is a walk of thirty-five minutes to the +station. I did it last night in that time.' + +'You walked here in the dark alone?' + +'There was no fly to be had. The station-master sent one of his porters +with me. We had a talk on the road. I like those men.' + +Dacier read the hour by the mantelpiece clock. 'If you must really go by +the early train, I will drive you.' + +'No, I will walk; I prefer it.' + +'I will order your breakfast at once.' + +He turned on his heel. She stopped him. 'No, I have no taste for eating +or drinking.' + +'Pray . . .' said he, in visible distress. + +She shook her head. 'I could not. I have twenty minutes longer. I can +find my way to the station; it is almost a straight road out of the park- +gates.' + +His heart swelled with anger at the household for they treatment she had +been subjected to, judging by her resolve not to break bread in the +house. + +They resumed their silent sitting. The intervals for a word to pass +between them were long, and the ticking of the time-piece fronting the +death-bed ruled the chamber, scarcely varied. + +The lamp was raised for the final look, the leave-taking. + +Dacier buried his face, thinking many things--the common multitude in +insurrection. + +'A servant should be told to come now,' she said. 'I have only to put on +my bonnet and I am ready.' + +'You will take no . . . ?' + +'Nothing.' + +'It is not too late for a carriage to be ordered.' + +'No--the walk!' + +They separated. + +He roused the two women in the dressing-room, asleep with heads against +the wall. Thence he sped to his own room for hat and overcoat, and a +sprinkle of cold water. Descending the stairs, he beheld his companion +issuing from the chamber of death. Her lips were shut, her eyelids +nervously tremulous. + +They were soon in the warm sweet open air, and they walked without an +interchange of a syllable through the park into the white hawthorn lane, +glad to breathe. Her nostrils took long draughts of air, but of the +change of, scene she appeared scarcely sensible. + +At the park-gates, she said: 'There is no necessity four your coming.' + +His answer was: 'I think of myself. I gain something every step I walk +with you.' + +'To-day is Thursday,' said she. 'The funeral is . . . ?' + +'Monday has been fixed. According to his directions, he will lie in the +churchyard of his village--not in the family vault.' + +'I know,' she said hastily. 'They are privileged who follow him and see +the coffin lowered. He spoke of this quiet little resting-place.' + +'Yes, it's a good end. I do not wonder at his wish for the honour you +have done him. I could wish it too. But more living than dead--that is +a natural wish.' + +'It is not to be called an honour.' + +'I should feel it so-an honour to me.' + +'It is a friend's duty. The word is too harsh; it was his friend's +desire. He did not ask it so much as he sanctioned it. For to him what +has my sitting beside him been!' + +'He had the prospective happiness.' + +'He knew well that my soul would be with him--as it was last night. +But he knew it would be my poor human happiness to see him with my eyes, +touch him with my hand, before he passed from our sight.' + +Dacier exclaimed: 'How you can love!' + +'Is the village church to be seen?' she asked. + +'To the right of those elms; that is the spire. The black spot below is +a yew. You love with the whole heart when you love.' + +'I love my friends,' she replied. + +'You tempt me to envy those who are numbered among them.' + +'They are not many.' + +'They should be grateful.! + +'You have some acquaintance with them all.' + +'And an enemy? Had you ever one? Do you know of one?' + +'Direct and personal designedly? I think not. We give that title to +those who are disinclined to us and add a dash of darker colour to our +errors. Foxes have enemies in the dogs; heroines of melodramas have +their persecuting villains. I suppose that conditions of life exist +where one meets the original complexities. The bad are in every rank. +The inveterately malignant I have not found. Circumstances may combine +to make a whisper as deadly as a blow, though not of such evil design. +Perhaps if we lived at a Court of a magnificent despot we should learn +that we are less highly civilized than we imagine ourselves; but that is +a fire to the passions, and the extreme is not the perfect test. Our +civilization counts positive gains--unless you take the melodrama for the +truer picture of us. It is always the most popular with the English.-- +And look, what a month June is! Yesterday morning I was with Lady +Dunstane on her heights, and I feel double the age. He was fond of +this wild country. We think it a desert, a blank, whither he has gone, +because we will strain to see in the utter dark, and nothing can come of +that but the bursting of the eyeballs.' + +Dacier assented: 'There's no use in peering beyond the limits.' + +'No,' said she; 'the effect is like the explaining of things to a dull +head--the finishing stroke to the understanding! Better continue to +brood. We get to some unravelment if we are left to our own efforts. +I quarrel with no priest of any denomination. That they should quarrel +among themselves is comprehensible in their wisdom, for each has the +specific. But they show us their way of solving the great problem, and +we ought to thank them, though one or the other abominate us. You are +advised to talk with Lady Dunstane on these themes. + +She is perpetually in the antechamber of death, and her soul is +perennially sunshine.--See the pretty cottage under the laburnum curls! +Who lives there?' + +'His gamekeeper, Simon Rofe.' + +'And what a playground for the children, that bit of common by their +garden-palings! and the pond, and the blue hills over the furzes. I +hope those people will not be turned out.' + +Dacier could not tell. He promised to do his best for them. + +'But,' said she, 'you are the lord here now.' + +'Not likely to be the tenant. Incomes are wanted to support even small +estates.' + +'The reason is good for courting the income.' + +He disliked the remark; and when she said presently: + +'Those windmills make the landscape homely,' he rejoined: 'They remind +one of our wheeling London gamins round the cab from the station.' + +'They remind you,' said she, and smiled at the chance discordant trick he +had, remembering occasions when it had crossed her. + +'This is homelier than Rovio,' she said; 'quite as nice in its way.' + +'You do not gather flowers here.' + +'Because my friend has these at her feet.' + +'May one petition without a rival, then, for a souvenir?' + +'Certainly, if you care to have a common buttercup.' + +They reached the station, five minutes in advance of the train. His +coming manoeuvre was early detected, and she drew from her pocket the +little book he had seen lying unopened on the table, and said: 'I shall +have two good hours for reading.' + +'You will not object? . . . I must accompany you to town. Permit it, +I beg. You shall not be worried to talk.' + +'No; I came alone and return alone.' + +'Fasting and unprotected! Are you determined to take away the worst +impression of us? Do not refuse me this favour.' + +'As to fasting, I could not eat: and unprotected no woman is in England, +if she is a third-class traveller. That is my experience of the class; +and I shall return among my natural protectors--the most unselfishly +chivalrous to women in the whole world.' + +He had set his heart on going with her, and he attempted eloquence in +pleading, but that exposed him to her humour; he was tripped. + +'It is not denied that you belong to the knightly class,' she said; 'and +it is not necessary that you should wear armour and plumes to proclaim +it; and your appearance would be ample protection from the drunken +sailors travelling, you say, on this line; and I may be deplorably +mistaken in imagining that I could tame them. But your knightliness is +due elsewhere; and I commit myself to the fortune of war. It is a battle +for women everywhere; under the most favourable conditions among my dear +common English. I have not my maid with me, or else I should not dare.' + +She paid for a third-class ticket, amused by Dacier's look of entreaty +and trouble. + +'Of course I obey,' he murmured. + +'I have the habit of exacting it in matters concerning my independence,' +she said; and it arrested some rumbling notions in his head as to a piece +of audacity on the starting of the train. They walked up and down the +platform till the bell rang and the train came rounding beneath an arch. + +'Oh, by the way, may I ask?'--he said: 'was it your article in +Whitmonby's journal on a speech of mine last week?' + +'The guilty writer is confessed.' + +'Let me thank you.' + +'Don't. But try to believe it written on public grounds--if the task is +not too great.' + +'I may call?' + +'You will be welcome.' + +'To tell you of the funeral--the last of him.' + +'Do not fail to come.' + +She could have laughed to see him jumping on the steps of the third-class +carriages one after another to choose her company for her. In those pre- +democratic blissful days before the miry Deluge, the opinion of the +requirements of poor English travellers entertained by the Seigneur +Directors of the class above them, was that they differed from cattle in +stipulating for seats. With the exception of that provision to suit +their weakness, the accommodation extended to them resembled pens, and +the seats were emphatically seats of penitence, intended to grind the +sitter for his mean pittance payment and absence of aspiration to a +higher state. Hard angular wood, a low roof, a shabby square of window +aloof, demanding of him to quit the seat he insisted on having, if he +would indulge in views of the passing scenery,--such was the furniture of +dens where a refinement of castigation was practised on villain poverty +by denying leathers to the windows, or else buttons to the leathers, so +that the windows had either to be up or down, but refused to shelter and +freshen simultaneously. + +Dacier selected a compartment occupied by two old women, a mother and +babe and little maid, and a labouring man. There he installed her, with +an eager look that she would not notice. + +'You will want the window down,' he said. + +She applied to her fellow-travellers for the permission; and struggling +to get the window down, he was irritated to animadvert on 'these +carriages' of the benevolent railway Company. + +'Do not forget that the wealthy are well treated, or you may be unjust,' +said she, to pacify him. + +His mouth sharpened its line while he tried arts and energies on the +refractory window. She told him to leave it. 'You can't breathe this +atmosphere!' he cried, and called to a porter, who did the work, +remarking that it was rather stiff. + +The door was banged and fastened. Dacier had to hang on the step to see +her in the farewell. From the platform he saw the top of her bonnet; and +why she should have been guilty of this freak of riding in an unwholesome +carriage, tasked his power of guessing. He was too English even to have +taken the explanation, for he detested the distinguishing of the races in +his country, and could not therefore have comprehended her peculiar +tenacity of the sense of injury as long as enthusiasm did not arise to +obliterate it. He required a course of lessons in Irish. + +Sauntering down the lane, he called at Simon Rofe's cottage, and spoke +very kindly to the gamekeeper's wife. That might please Diana. It was +all he could do at present. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +'THE YOUNG MINISTER OF STATE' + +Descriptions in the newspapers of the rural funeral of Lord Dannisburgh +had the effect of rousing flights of tattlers with a twittering of the +disused name of Warwick; our social Gods renewed their combat, and the +verdict of the jury was again overhauled, to be attacked and maintained, +the carpers replying to the champions that they held to their view of it: +as heads of bull-dogs are expected to do when they have got a grip of +one. It is a point of muscular honour with them never to relax their +hold. They will tell you why:--they formed that opinion from the first. +And but for the swearing of a particular witness, upon whom the plaintiff +had been taught to rely, the verdict would have been different--to prove +their soundness of judgement. They could speak from private positive +information of certain damnatory circumstances, derived from authentic +sources. Visits of a gentleman to the house of a married lady in the +absence of the husband? Oh!--The British Lucretia was very properly not +legally at home to the masculine world of that day. She plied her +distaff in pure seclusion, meditating on her absent lord; or else a fair +proportion of the masculine world, which had not yet, has not yet, +'doubled Cape Turk,' approved her condemnation to the sack. + +There was talk in the feminine world, at Lady Wathin's assemblies. The +elevation of her husband had extended and deepened her influence on the +levels where it reigned before, but without, strange as we may think it +now, assisting to her own elevation, much aspired for, to the smooth and +lively upper pavement of Society, above its tumbled strata. She was near +that distinguished surface, not on it. Her circle was practically the +same as it was previous to the coveted nominal rank enabling her to +trample on those beneath it. And women like that Mrs. Warwick, a woman +of no birth, no money, not even honest character, enjoyed the entry +undisputed, circulated among the highest:--because people took her rattle +for wit!--and because also our nobility, Lady Wathin feared, had no due +regard for morality. Our aristocracy, brilliant and ancient though it +was, merited rebuke. She grew severe upon aristocratic scandals, whereof +were plenty among the frolicsome host just overhead, as vexatious as the +drawing-room party to the lodger in the floor below, who has not received +an invitation to partake of the festivities and is required to digest the +noise. But if ambition is oversensitive, moral indignation is ever +consolatory, for it plants us on the Judgement Seat. There indeed we +may, sitting with the very Highest, forget our personal disappointments +in dispensing reprobation for misconduct, however eminent the offenders. + +She was Lady Wathin, and once on an afternoon's call to see poor Lady +Dunstane at her town-house, she had been introduced to Lady Pennon, a +patroness of Mrs. Warwick, and had met a snub--an icy check-bow of the +aristocratic head from the top of the spinal column, and not a word, not +a look; the half-turn of a head devoid of mouth and eyes! She practised +that forbidding checkbow herself to perfection, so the endurance of it +was horrible. A noli me tangere, her husband termed it, in his +ridiculous equanimity; and he might term it what he pleased--it was +insulting. The solace she had was in hearing that hideous Radical +Revolutionary things were openly spoken at Mrs. Warwick's evenings with +her friends:--impudently named 'the elect of London.' Pleasing to +reflect upon Mrs. Warwick as undermining her supporters, to bring them +some day down with a crash! Her 'elect of London' were a queer +gathering, by report of them! And Mr. Whitmonby too, no doubt a +celebrity, was the right-hand man at these dinner-parties of Mrs. +Warwick. Where will not men go to be flattered by a pretty woman! He +had declined repeated, successive invitations to Lady Wathin's table. +But there of course he would not have had 'the freedom': that is, she +rejoiced in thinking defensively and offensively, a moral wall enclosed +her topics. The Hon. Percy Dacier had been brought to her Thursday +afternoon by. Mr. Quintin Manx, and he had one day dined with her; and +he knew Mrs. Warwick--a little, he said. The opportunity was not lost to +convey to him, entirely in the interest of sweet Constance Asper, that +the moral world entertained a settled view of the very clever woman Mrs. +Warwick certainly was. He had asked Diana, on their morning walk to the +station, whether she had an enemy: so prone are men, educated by the +Drama and Fiction in the belief that the garden of civilized life must be +at the mercy of the old wild devourers, to fancy 'villain whispers' an +indication of direct animosity. Lady Wathin had no sentiment of the +kind. + +But she had become acquainted with the other side of the famous +Dannisburgh case--the unfortunate plaintiff; and compassion as well as +morality moved her to put on a speaking air when Mr. Warwick's name was +mentioned. She pictured him to the ladies of her circle as 'one of our +true gentlemen in his deportment and his feelings.' He was, she would +venture to say, her ideal of an English gentleman. 'But now,' she added +commiseratingly, 'ruined; ruined in his health and in his prospects.' +A lady inquired if it was the verdict that had thus affected him. Lady +Wathin's answer was reported over moral, or substratum, London: 'He is +the victim of a fatal passion for his wife; and would take her back to- +morrow were she to solicit his forgiveness.' Morality had something to +say against this active marital charity, attributable, it was to be +feared, to weakness of character on the part of the husband. Still Mrs. +Warwick undoubtedly was one of those women (of Satanic construction) who +have the art of enslaving the men unhappy enough to cross their path. +The nature of the art was hinted, with the delicacy of dainty feet which +have to tread in mire to get to safety. Men, alas! are snared in this +way. Instances too numerous for the good repute of the swinish sex, +were cited, and the question of how Morality was defensible from their +grossness passed without a tactical reply. There is no defence: Those +women come like the Cholera Morbus--and owing to similar causes. They +will prevail until the ideas of men regarding women are purified. +Nevertheless the husband who could forgive, even propose to forgive, was +deemed by consent generous, however weak. Though she might not have been +wholly guilty, she had bitterly offended. And he despatched an emissary +to her?--The theme, one may, in their language, 'fear,' was relished as a +sugared acid. It was renewed in the late Autumn of the year, when +ANTONIA published her new book, entitled THE YOUNG MINISTER of STATE. +The signature of the authoress was now known; and from this resurgence of +her name in public, suddenly a radiation of tongues from the circle of +Lady Wathin declared that the repentant Mrs. Warwick had gone back to her +husband's bosom and forgiveness! The rumour spread in spite of sturdy +denials at odd corners, counting the red-hot proposal of Mr. Sullivan +Smith to eat his head and boots for breakfast if it was proved correct. +It filled a yawn of the Clubs for the afternoon. Soon this wanton rumour +was met and stifled by another of more morbific density, heavily charged +as that which led the sad Eliza to her pyre. + +ANTONIA's hero was easily identified. THE YOUNG MINISTER of STATE could +be he only who was now at all her parties, always meeting her; had been +spied walking with her daily in the park near her house, on his march +down to Westminster during the session; and who positively went to +concerts and sat under fiddlers to be near her. It accounted moreover +for his treatment of Constance Asper. What effrontery of the authoress, +to placard herself with him in a book! The likeness of the hero to Percy +Dacier once established became striking to glaringness--a proof of her +ability, and more of her audacity; still more of her intention to flatter +him up to his perdition. By the things written of him, one would imagine +the conversations going on behind the scenes. She had the wiles of a +Cleopatra, not without some of the Nilene's experiences. A youthful +Antony Dacier would be little likely to escape her toils. And so +promising a young man! The sigh, the tear for weeping over his +destruction, almost fell, such vivid realizing of the prophesy +appeared in its pathetic pronouncement. + +This low rumour, or malaria, began blowing in the winter, and did not +travel fast; for strangely, there was hardly a breath of it in the +atmosphere of Dacier, none in Diana's. It rose from groups not so +rapidly and largely mixing, and less quick to kindle; whose crazy +sincereness battened on the smallest morsel of fact and collected the +fictitious by slow absorption. But as guardians of morality, often doing +good duty in their office, they are persistent. When Parliament +assembled, Mr. Quintin Manx, a punctual member of the House, if nothing +else, arrived in town. He was invited to dine with Lady Wathin. After +dinner she spoke to him of the absent Constance, and heard of her being +well, and expressed a great rejoicing at that. Whereupon the burly old +shipowner frowned and puffed. Constance, he said, had plunged into these +new spangle, candle and high singing services; was all for symbols, +harps, effigies, what not. Lady Wathin's countenance froze in hearing of +it. She led Mr. Quintin to a wall-sofa, and said: 'Surely the dear child +must have had a disappointment, for her to have taken to those foolish +displays of religion! It is generally a sign.' + +'Well, ma'am-my lady--I let girls go their ways in such things. I don't +interfere. But it's that fellow, or nobody, with her. She has fixed her +girl's mind on him, and if she can't columbine as a bride, she will as a +nun. Young people must be at some harlequinade.' + +'But it is very shocking. And he?' + +'He plays last and loose, warm and cold. I'm ready to settle twenty +times a nobleman's dowry on my niece and she's a fine girl, a handsome +girl, educated up to the brim, fit to queen it in any drawing-room. He +holds her by some arts that don't hold him, it seems. He's all for +politics.' + +'Constance can scarcely be his dupe so far, I should think.' + +'How do you mean?' + +'Everything points to one secret of his conduct.' + +'A woman?' + +Lady Wathin's head shook for her sex's pained affirmative. + +Mr. Quintin in the same fashion signified the downright negative. 'The +fellow's as cold as a fish.' + +'Flattery will do anything. There is, I fear, one.' + +'Widow? wife? maid?' + +'Married, I regret to say.' + +'Well, if he'd get over with it,' said Quintin, in whose notions the +seductiveness of a married woman could be only temporary, for all the +reasons pertaining to her state. At the same time his view of Percy +Dacier was changed in thinking it possible that a woman could divert him +from his political and social interests. He looked incredulous. + +'You have heard of a Mrs. Warwick?' said Lady Wathin. + +'Warwick! I have. I've never seen her. At my broker's in the City +yesterday I saw the name on a Memorandum of purchase of Shares in a +concern promising ten per cent., and not likely to carry the per annum +into the plural. He told me she was a grand kind of woman, past +advising.' + +'For what amount' + +'Some thousands, I think it was.' + +'She has no money': Lady Wathin corrected her emphasis: 'or ought to have +none.' + +'She can't have got it from him.' + +'Did you notice her Christian name?' + +'I don't recollect it, if I did. I thought the woman a donkey.' + +'Would you consider me a busybody were I to try to mitigate this woman's +evil influence? I love dear Constance, and should be happy to serve +her.' + +'I want my girl married,' said old Quintin. 'He's one of my +Parliamentary chiefs, with first-rate prospects; good family, good +sober fellow--at least I thought so; by nature, I mean; barring your +incantations. He suits me, she liking him.' + +'She admires him, I am sure.' + +'She's dead on end for the fellow!' + +Lady Wathin felt herself empowered by Quintin Manx to undertake the +release of sweet Constance Asper's knight from the toils of his +enchantress. For this purpose she had first an interview with Mr. +Warwick, and next she hurried to Lady Dunstane at Copsley. There, after +jumbling Mr. Warwick's connubial dispositions and Mrs. Warwick's last +book, and Mr. Percy Dacier's engagement to the great heiress in a gossipy +hotch-potch, she contrived to gather a few items of fact, as that THE +YOUNG MINISTER was probably modelled upon Mr. Percy Dacier. Lady +Dunstane made no concealment of it as soon as she grew sensible of the +angling. But she refused her help to any reconciliation between Mr. and +Mrs. Warwick. She declined to listen to Lady Wathin's entreaties. She +declined to give her reasons.--These bookworm women, whose pride it is to +fancy that they can think for themselves, have a great deal of the +heathen in them, as morality discovers when it wears the enlistment +ribands and applies yo them to win recruits for a service under the +direct blessing of Providence. + +Lady Wathin left some darts behind her, in the form of moral +exclamations; and really intended morally. For though she did not like +Mrs. Warwick, she had no wish to wound, other than by stopping her +further studies of the Young Minister, and conducting him to the young +lady loving him, besides restoring a bereft husband to his own. How +sadly pale and worn poor Mr. Warwick appeared? The portrayal of his +withered visage to Lady Dunstane had quite failed to gain a show of +sympathy. And so it is ever with your book-worm women pretending to be +philosophical! You sound them vainly for a manifestation of the +commonest human sensibilities, They turn over the leaves of a Latin book +on their laps while you are supplicating them to assist in a work of +charity! + +Lady Wathin's interjectory notes haunted Emma's ear. Yet she had seen +nothing in Tony to let her suppose that there was trouble of her heart +below the surface; and her Tony when she came to Copsley shone in the +mood of the day of Lord Dannisburgh's drive down from London with her. +She was running on a fresh work; talked of composition as a trifle. + +'I suppose the YOUNG MINISTER is Mr. Percy Dacier?' said Emma. + +'Between ourselves he is,' Diana replied, smiling at a secret guessed. +'You know my model and can judge of the likeness.' + +'You write admiringly of him, Tony.' + +'And I do admire him. So would you, Emmy, if you knew him as well as I +do now. He pairs with Mr. Redworth; he also is the friend of women. But +he lifts us to rather a higher level of intellectual friendship. When +the ice has melted--and it is thick at first--he pours forth all his +ideas without reserve; and they are deep and noble. Ever since Lord +Dannisburgh's death and our sitting together, we have been warm friends +--intimate, I would say, if it could be said of one so self-contained. +In that respect, no young man was ever comparable with him. And I am +encouraged to flatter myself that he unbends to me more than to others.' + +'He is engaged, or partly, I hear; why does he not marry?' + +'I wish he would!' Diana said, with a most brilliant candour of aspect. + +Emma read in it, that it would complete her happiness, possibly by +fortifying her sense of security; and that seemed right. Her own +meditations, illumined by the beautiful face in her presence, referred to +the security of Mr. Dacier. + +'So, then, life is going smoothly,' said Emma. + +'Yes, at a good pace and smoothly: not a torrent--Thames-like, "without +o'erflowing full." It is not Lugano and the Salvatore. Perhaps it is +better: as action is better than musing.' + +'No troubles whatever?' + +'None. Well, except an "adorer" at times. I have to take him as my +portion. An impassioned Caledonian has a little bothered me. I met him +at Lady Pennon's, and have been meeting him, as soon as I put foot out of +my house, ever since. If I could impress and impound him to marry Mary +Paynham, I should be glad. By the way, I have consented to let her try +at a portrait of me. No, I have no troubles. I have friends, the +choicest of the nation; I have health, a field for labour, fairish +success with it; a mind alive, such as it is. I feel like that midsummer +morning of our last drive out together, the sun high, clearish, clouded +enough to be cool. And still I envy Emmy on her sofa, mastering Latin, +biting at Greek. What a wise recommendation that was of Mr. Redworth's! +He works well in the House. He spoke excellently the other night.' + +'He runs over to Ireland this Easter.' + +'He sees for himself, and speaks with authority. He sees and feels. +Englishmen mean well, but they require an extremity of misery to waken +their feelings.' + +'It is coming, he says; and absit omen!' + +'Mr. Dacier says he is the one Englishman who may always be sure of an +Irish hearing; and he does not cajole them, you know. But the English +defect is really not want of feeling so much as want of foresight. They +will not look ahead. A famine ceasing, a rebellion crushed, they jog on +as before, with their Dobbin trot and blinker confidence in "Saxon +energy." They should study the Irish: I think it was Mr. Redworth who +compared the governing of the Irish to the management of a horse: the +rider should not grow restive when the steed begins to kick: calmer; +firm, calm, persuasive.' + +'Does Mr. Dacier agree?' + +'Not always. He has the inveterate national belief that Celtic blood +is childish, and the consequently illogical disregard of its hold of +impressions. The Irish--for I have them in my heart, though I have not +been among them for long at a time--must love you to serve you, and will +hate you if you have done them injury and they have not wiped it out-- +they with a treble revenge, or you with cordial benefits. I have told +him so again and again: ventured to suggest measures.' + +'He listens to you, Tony?' + +'He says I have brains. It ends in a compliment.' + +'You have inspired Mr. Redworth.' + +'If I have, I have lived for some good.' + +Altogether her Tony's conversation proved to Emma that her perusal of the +model of THE YOUNG MINISTER OF STATE was an artist's, free, open, and not +discoloured by the personal tincture. Her heart plainly was free and +undisturbed. She had the same girl's love of her walks where wildflowers +grew; if possible, a keener pleasure. She hummed of her happiness in +being at Copsley, singing her Planxty Kelly and The Puritani by turns. +She stood on land: she was not on the seas. Emma thought so with good +reason. + +She stood on land, it was true, but she stood on a cliff of the land, +the seas below and about her; and she was enabled to hoodwink her friend +because the assured sensation of her firm footing deceived her own soul, +even while it took short flights to the troubled waters. Of her firm +footing she was exultingly proud. She stood high, close to danger, +without giddiness. If at intervals her soul flew out like lightning +from the rift (a mere shot of involuntary fancy, it seemed to her), +the suspicion of instability made her draw on her treasury of impressions +of the mornings at Lugano--her loftiest, purest, dearest; and these +reinforced her. She did not ask herself why she should have to seek +them for aid. In other respects her mind was alert and held no sly +covers, as the fiction of a perfect ignorant innocence combined with +common intelligence would have us to suppose that the minds of women can +do. She was honest as long as she was not directly questioned, pierced +to the innermost and sanctum of the bosom. She could honestly summon +bright light to her eyes in wishing the man were married. She did not +ask herself why she called it up. The remorseless progressive +interrogations of a Jesuit Father in pursuit of the bosom's verity might +have transfixed it and shown her to herself even then a tossing vessel as +to the spirit, far away from that firm land she trod so bravely. + +Descending from the woody heights upon London, Diana would have said that +her only anxiety concerned young Mr. Arthur Rhodes, whose position she +considered precarious, and who had recently taken a drubbing for +venturing to show a peep of his head, like an early crocus, in the +literary market. Her ANTONIA'S last book had been reviewed obediently +to smart taps from the then commanding baton of Mr. Tonans, and Mr. +Whitmonby's choice picking of specimens down three columns of his paper. +A Literary Review (Charles Rainer's property) had suggested that perhaps +'the talented authoress might be writing too rapidly'; and another, +actuated by the public taste of the period for our 'vigorous homely +Saxon' in one and two syllable words, had complained of a 'tendency to +polysyllabic phraseology.' The remainder, a full majority, had sounded +eulogy with all their band-instruments, drum, trumpet, fife, trombone. +Her foregoing work had raised her to Fame, which is the Court of a Queen +when the lady has beauty and social influence, and critics are her +dedicated courtiers, gaping for the royal mouth to be opened, and +reserving the kicks of their independent manhood for infamous outsiders, +whom they hoist in the style and particular service of pitchforks. They +had fallen upon a little volume of verse, 'like a body of barn-door hens +on a stranger chick,' Diana complained; and she chid herself angrily for +letting it escape her forethought to propitiate them on the author's +behalf. Young Rhodes was left with scarce a feather; and what remained +to him appeared a preposterous ornament for the decoration of a shivering +and welted poet. He laughed, or tried the mouth of laughter. ANTONIA's +literary conscience was vexed at the different treatment she had met and +so imperatively needed that the reverse of it would have threatened the +smooth sailing of her costly household. A merry-go-round of creditors +required a corresponding whirligig of receipts. + +She felt mercenary, debased by comparison with the well-scourged verse- +mason, Orpheus of the untenanted city, who had done his publishing +ingenuously for glory: a good instance of the comic-pathetic. She wrote +to Emma, begging her to take him in at Copsley for a few days: 'I told +you I had no troubles. I am really troubled about this poor boy. He has +very little money and has embarked on literature. I cannot induce any of +my friends to lend him a hand. Mr. Redworth gruffly insists on his going +back to his law-clerk's office and stool, and Mr. Dacier says that no +place is vacant. The reality of Lord Dannisburgh's death is brought +before me by my helplessness. He would have made him an assistant +private Secretary, pending a Government appointment, rather than let me +plead in vain.' + +Mr. Rhodes with his travelling bag was packed off to Copsley, to enjoy a +change of scene after his run of the gauntlet. He was very heartily +welcomed by Lady Dunstane, both for her Tony's sake and his own modest +worship of that luminary, which could permit of being transparent; but +chiefly she welcomed him as the living proof of Tony's disengagement +from anxiety, since he was her one spot of trouble, and could easily be +comforted by reading with her, and wandering through the Spring woods +along the heights. He had a happy time, midway in air between his +accomplished hostess and his protecting Goddess. His bruises were soon +healed. Each day was radiant to him, whether it rained or shone; and by +his looks and what he said of himself Lady Dunstane understood that he +was in the highest temper of the human creature tuned to thrilling accord +with nature. It was her generous Tony's work. She blessed it, and liked +the youth the better. + +During the stay of Mr. Arthur Rhodes at Copsley, Sir Lukin came on a +visit to his wife. He mentioned reports in the scandal-papers: one, that +Mr. P. D. would shortly lead to the altar the lovely heiress Miss A., +Percy Dacier and Constance Asper:--another, that a reconciliation was to +be expected between the beautiful authoress Mrs. W. and her husband. +'Perhaps it's the best thing she can do,' Sir Lukin added. + +Lady Dunstane pronounced a woman's unforgiving: 'Never.' The revolt +of her own sensations assured her of Tony's unconquerable repugnance. +In conversation subsequently with Arthur Rhodes, she heard that he knew +the son of Mr. Warwick's attorney, a Mr. Fern; and he had gathered from +him some information of Mr. Warwick's condition of health. It had been +alarming; young Fern said it was confirmed heart-disease. His father +frequently saw Mr. Warwick, and said he was fretting himself to death. + +It seemed just a possibility that Tony's natural compassionateness had +wrought on her to immolate herself and nurse to his end the man who had +wrecked her life. Lady Dunstane waited for the news. At last she wrote, +touching the report incidentally. There was no reply. The silence +ensuing after such a question responded forcibly. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +BETWEEN DIANA AND DACIER: THE WIND EAST OVER BLEAK LAND + +On the third day of the Easter recess Percy Dacier landed from the Havre +steamer at Caen and drove straightway for the sandy coast, past fields of +colza to brine-blown meadows of coarse grass, and then to the low dunes +and long stretching sands of the ebb in semicircle: a desolate place at +that season; with a dwarf fishing-village by the shore; an East wind +driving landward in streamers every object that had a scrap to fly. +He made head to the inn, where the first person he encountered in the +passage was Diana's maid Danvers, who relaxed from the dramatic +exaggeration of her surprise at the sight of a real English gentleman in +these woebegone regions, to inform him that her mistress might be found +walking somewhere along the sea-shore, and had her dog to protect her. +They were to stay here a whole week, Danvers added, for a conveyance of +her private sentiments. Second thoughts however whispered to her +shrewdness that his arrival could only be by appointment. She had been +anticipating something of the sort for some time. + +Dacier butted against the stringing wind, that kept him at a rocking +incline to his left for a mile. He then discerned in what had seemed a +dredger's dot on the sands, a lady's figure, unmistakably she, without +the corroborating testimony of Leander paw-deep in the low-tide water. +She was out at a distance on the ebb-sands, hurtled, gyred, beaten to all +shapes, in rolls, twists, volumes, like a blown banner-flag, by the +pressing wind. A kerchief tied her bonnet under her chin. Bonnet and +breast-ribands rattled rapidly as drummer-sticks. She stood near the +little running ripple of the flat sea-water, as it hurried from a long +streaked back to a tiny imitation of spray. When she turned to the shore +she saw him advancing, but did not recognize; when they met she merely +looked with wide parted lips. This was no appointment. + +'I had to see you,' Dacier said. + +She coloured to a deeper red than the rose-conjuring wind had whipped in +her cheeks. Her quick intuition of the reason of his coming barred a +mental evasion, and she had no thought of asking either him or herself +what special urgency had brought him. + +'I have been here four days.' + +'Lady Esquart spoke of the place.' + +'Lady Esquart should not have betrayed me.' + +'She did it inadvertently, without an idea of my profiting by it.' + +Diana indicated the scene in a glance. 'Dreary country, do you think?' + +'Anywhere!'--said he. + +They walked up the sand-heap. The roaring Easter with its shrieks and +whistles at her ribands was not favourable to speech. His 'Anywhere!' +had a penetrating significance, the fuller for the break that left it +vague. + +Speech between them was commanded; he could not be suffered to remain. +She descended upon a sheltered pathway running along a ditch, the border +of pastures where cattle cropped, raised heads, and resumed their one +comforting occupation. + +Diana gazed on them, smarting from the buffets of the wind she had met. + +'No play of their tails to-day'; she said, as she slackened her steps. +'You left Lady Esquart well?' + +'Lady Esquart . . . I think was well. I had to see you. I thought +you would be with her in Berkshire. She told me of a little sea-side +place close to Caen.' + +'You had to see me?' + +'I miss you now if it's a day!' + +'I heard a story in London . . .' + +'In London there are many stories. I heard one. Is there a foundation +for it?' + +'No.' + +He breathed relieved. 'I wanted to see you once before . . . if it +was true. It would have made a change in my life-a gap.' + +'You do me the honour to like my Sunday evenings?' + +'Beyond everything London can offer.' + +'A letter would have reached me.' + +'I should have had to wait for the answer. There is no truth in it?' + +Her choice was to treat the direct assailant frankly or imperil her +defence by the ordinary feminine evolutions, which might be taken for +inviting: poor pranks always. + +'There have been overtures,' she said. + +'Forgive me; I have scarcely the right to ask . . . speak of it.! + +'My friends may use their right to take an interest in my fortunes.' + +'I thought I might, on my way to Paris, turn aside . . . coming by +this route.' + +'If you determined not to lose much of your time.' + +The coolness of her fencing disconcerted a gentleman conscious of his +madness. She took instant advantage of any circuitous move; she gave him +no practicable point. He was little skilled in the arts of attack, and +felt that she checked his impetuousness; respected her for it, chafed at +it, writhed with the fervours precipitating him here, and relapsed on his +pleasure in seeing her face, hearing her voice. + +'Your happiness, I hope, is the chief thought in such a case,' he said. + +'I am sure you would consider it.' + +'I can't quite forget my own.' + +'You compliment an ambitious hostess.' + +Dacier glanced across the pastures, 'What was it that tempted you to this +place?' + +'A poet would say it looks like a figure in the shroud. It has no +features; it has a sort of grandeur belonging to death. I heard of it as +the place where I might be certain of not meeting an acquaintance.' + +'And I am the intruder.' + +'An hour or two will not give you that title.' + +'Am I to count the minutes by my watch?' + +'By the sun. We will supply you an omelette and piquette, and send you +back sobered and friarly--to Caen for Paris at sunset.' + +'Let the fare be Spartan. I could take my black broth with philosophy +every day of the year under your auspices. What I should miss . . .' + +'You bring no news of the world or the House?' + +'None. You know as much as I know. The Irish agitation is chronic. +The Corn-law threatens to be the same.' + +'And your Chief--in personal colloquy?' + +'He keeps a calm front. I may tell you: there is nothing I would not +confide to you: he has let fall some dubious words in private. I don't +know what to think of them.' + +'But if he should waver?' + +'It's not wavering. It's the openness of his mind.' + +'Ah! the mind. We imagine it free. The House and the country are the +sentient frame governing the mind of the politician more than his ideas. +He cannot think independently of them:--nor I of my natural anatomy. You +will test the truth of that after your omelette and piquette, and marvel +at the quitting of your line of route for Paris. As soon as the mind +attempts to think independently, it is like a kite with the cord cut, +and performs a series of darts and frisks, that have the look of wildest +liberty till you see it fall flat to earth. The openness of his mind is +most honourable to him.' + +'Ominous for his party.' + +'Likely to be good for his country.' + +'That is the question.' + +'Prepare to encounter it. In politics I am with the active minority on +behalf of the inert but suffering majority. That is my rule. It leads, +unless you have a despotism, to the conquering side. It is always the +noblest. I won't say, listen to me; only do believe my words have some +weight. This is a question of bread.' + +'It involves many other questions.' + +'And how clearly those leaders put their case! They are admirable +debaters. If I were asked to write against them, I should have but to +quote them to confound my argument. I tried it once, and wasted a couple +of my precious hours.' + +'They are cogent debaters,' Dacier assented. 'They make me wince now and +then, without convincing me: I own it to you. The confession is not +agreeable, though it's a small matter.' + +'One's pride may feel a touch with the foils as keenly as the point of a +rapier,' said Diana. + +The remark drew a sharp look of pleasure from him. + +'Does the Princess Egeria propose to dismiss the individual she inspires, +when he is growing most sensible of her wisdom?' + +'A young Minister of State should be gleaning at large when holiday is +granted him.' + +Dacier coloured. 'May I presume on what is currently reported?' + +'Parts, parts; a bit here, a bit there,' she rejoined. 'Authors find +their models where they can, and generally hit on the nearest.' + +'Happy the nearest!' + +'If you run to interjections I shall cite you a sentence, from your +latest speech in the House.' + +He asked for it, and to school him she consented to flatter with her +recollection of his commonest words: + +'"Dealing with subjects of this nature emotionally does, not advance us a +calculable inch."' + +'I must have said that in relation to hard matter of business.' + +'It applies. There is my hostelry, and the spectral form of Danvers, +utterly depaysee. Have you spoken to the poor soul? I can never +discover the links of her attachment to my service.' + +'She knows a good mistress.--I have but a few minutes, if you are +relentless. May I . . ., shall I ever be privileged to speak your +Christian name?' + +'My Christian name! It is Pagan. In one sphere I am Hecate. Remember +that.' + +'I am not among the people who so regard you.' + +'The time may come.' + +'Diana!' + +'Constance!' + +'I break no tie. I owe no allegiance whatever to the name.' + +'Keep to the formal title with me. We are Mrs. Warwick and Mr. Dacier. +I think I am two years younger than you; socially therefore ten in +seniority; and I know how this flower of friendship is nourished and may +be withered. You see already what you have done? You have cast me on +the discretion of my maid. I suppose her trusty, but I am at her mercy, +and a breath from her to the people beholding me as Hecate queen of +Witches! . . . I have a sensation of the scirocco it would blow.' + +'In that event, the least I can offer is my whole life.' + +'We will not conjecture the event.' + +'The best I could hope for!' + +'I see I shall have to revise the next edition of THE YOUNG MINISTER, and +make an emotional curate of him. Observe Danvers. The woman is +wretched; and now she sees me coming she pretends to be using her wits +in studying the things about her, as I have directed. She is a riddle. +I have the idea that any morning she may explode; and yet I trust her and +sleep soundly. I must be free, though I vex the world's watchdogs.--So, +Danvers, you are noticing how thoroughly Frenchwomen do their work.' + +Danvers replied with a slight mincing: 'They may, ma'am; but they chatter +chatter so.' + +'The result proves that it is not a waste of energy. They manage their +fowls too.' + +'They've no such thing as mutton, ma'am.' + +Dacier patriotically laughed. + +'She strikes the apology for wealthy and leisurely landlords,' Diana +said. + +Danvers remarked that the poor fed meagrely in France. She was not +convinced of its being good for them by hearing that they could work on +it sixteen hours out of the four and twenty. + +Mr. Percy Dacier's repast was furnished to him half an hour later. At +sunset Diana, taking Danvers beside her, walked with him to the line of +the country road bearing on Caen. The wind had sunk. A large brown disk +paused rayless on the western hills. + +'A Dacier ought to feel at home in Normandy; and you may have sprung from +this neighbourhood,' said she, simply to chat. 'Here the land is +poorish, and a mile inland rich enough to bear repeated crops of colza, +which tries the soil, I hear. As for beauty, those blue hills you see, +enfold charming valleys. I meditate an expedition to Harcourt before I +return. An English professor of his native tongue at the Lycee at Caen +told me on my way here that for twenty shillings a week you may live in +royal ease round about Harcourt. So we have our bed and board in +prospect if fortune fails us, Danvers! + +'I would rather die in England, ma'am,' was the maid's reply. + +Dacier set foot on his carriage-step. He drew a long breath to say a +short farewell, and he and Diana parted. + +They parted as the plainest of sincere good friends, each at heart +respecting the other for the repression of that which their hearts +craved; any word of which might have carried them headlong, bound +together on a Mazeppa-race, with scandal for the hounding wolves, and +social ruin for the rocks and torrents. + +Dacier was the thankfuller, the most admiring of the two; at the same +time the least satisfied. He saw the abyss she had aided him in +escaping; and it was refreshful to look abroad after his desperate +impulse. Prominent as he stood before the world, he could not think +without a shudder of behaving like a young frenetic of the passion. +Those whose aim is at the leadership of the English people know, that +however truly based the charges of hypocrisy, soundness of moral fibre +runs throughout the country and is the national integrity, which may +condone old sins for present service; but will not have present sins to +flout it. He was in tune with the English character. The passion was in +him nevertheless, and the stronger for a slow growth that confirmed its +union of the mind and heart. Her counsel fortified him, her suggestions +opened springs; her phrases were golden-lettered in his memory; and more, +she had worked an extraordinary change in his views of life and aptitude +for social converse: he acknowledged it with genial candour. Through her +he was encouraged, led, excited to sparkle with the witty, feel new +gifts, or a greater breadth of nature; and thanking her, he became +thirstily susceptible to her dark beauty; he claimed to have found the +key of her, and he prized it. She was not passionless: the blood flowed +warm. Proud, chaste, she was nobly spirited; having an intellectual +refuge from the besiegings of the blood; a rockfortress. The 'wife no +wife' appeared to him, striking the higher elements of the man, the +commonly masculine also.--Would he espouse her, had he the chance?-- +to-morrow! this instant! With her to back him, he would be doubled in +manhood, doubled in brain and heart-energy. To call her wife, spring +from her and return, a man might accept his fate to fight Trojan or +Greek, sure of his mark on the enemy. + +But if, after all, this imputed Helen of a decayed Paris passed, +submissive to the legitimate solicitor, back to her husband? + +The thought shot Dacier on his legs for a look at the blank behind him. +He vowed she had promised it should not be. Could it ever be, after +the ruin the meanly suspicious fellow had brought upon her?--Diana +voluntarily reunited to the treacherous cur? + +He sat, resolving sombrely that if the debate arose he would try what +force he had to save her from such an ignominy, and dedicate his life to +her, let the world wag its tongue. So the knot would be cut. + +Men unaccustomed to a knot in their system find the prospect of cutting +it an extreme relief, even when they know that the cut has an edge to +wound mortally as well as pacify. The wound was not heavy payment for +the rapture of having so incomparable a woman his own. He reflected +wonderingly on the husband, as he had previously done, and came again to +the conclusion that it was a poor creature, abjectly jealous of a wife, +he could neither master, nor equal, nor attract. And thinking of +jealousy, Dacier felt none; none of individuals, only of facts: her +marriage, her bondage. Her condemnation to perpetual widowhood angered +him, as at an unrighteous decree. The sharp sweet bloom of her beauty, +fresh in swarthiness, under the whipping Easter, cried out against that +loathed inhumanity. Or he made it cry. + +Being a stranger to the jealousy of men, he took the soft assurance that +he was preferred above them all. Competitors were numerous: not any won +her eyes as he did. She revealed nothing of the same pleasures in the +shining of the others touched by her magical wand. Would she have +pardoned one of them the 'Diana!' bursting from his mouth? + +She was not a woman for trifling, still less for secresy. He was as +little the kind of lover. Both would be ready to take up their burden, +if the burden was laid on them. Diana had thus far impressed him. + +Meanwhile he faced the cathedral towers of the ancient Norman city, +standing up in the smoky hues of the West; and a sentence out of her book +seemed fitting to the scene and what he felt. He rolled it over +luxuriously as the next of delights to having her beside him.--She wrote +of; 'Thoughts that are bare dark outlines, coloured by some odd passion +of the soul, like towers of a distant city seen in the funeral waste of +day.'--His bluff English anti-poetic training would have caused him to +shrug at the stuff coming from another pen: he might condescendingly have +criticized it, with a sneer embalmed in humour. The words were hers; she +had written them; almost by a sort of anticipation, he imagined; for he +at once fell into the mood they suggested, and had a full crop of the +'bare dark outlines' of thoughts coloured by his particular form of +passion. + +Diana had impressed him powerfully when she set him swallowing and +assimilating a sentence ethereally thin in substance of mere sentimental +significance, that he would antecedently have read aloud in a drawing- +room, picking up the book by hazard, as your modern specimen of romantic +vapouring. Mr. Dacier however was at the time in observation of the +towers of Caen, fresh from her presence, animated to some conception of +her spirit. He drove into the streets, desiring, half determining, to +risk a drive back on the morrow. + +The cold light of the morrow combined with his fear of distressing her to +restrain him. Perhaps he thought it well not to risk his gains. He was +a northerner in blood. He may have thought it well not further to run +the personal risk immediately. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +RECORDS A VISIT TO DIANA FROM ONE OF THE WORLD'S GOOD WOMEN + +Pure disengagement of contemplativeness had selected. Percy Dacier as +the model of her YOUNG MINISTER OF STATE, Diana supposed. Could she +otherwise have dared to sketch him? She certainly would not have done +it now. + +That was a reflection similar to what is entertained by one who has +dropped from a precipice to the midway ledge over the abyss, where +caution of the whole sensitive being is required for simple self- +preservation. How could she have been induced to study and portray him! +It seemed a form of dementia. + +She thought this while imagining the world to be interrogating her. When +she interrogated herself, she flew to Lugano and her celestial Salvatore, +that she might be defended from a charge of the dreadful weakness of her +sex. Surely she there had proof of her capacity for pure disengagement. +Even in recollection the springs of spiritual happiness renewed the +bubbling crystal play. She believed that a divineness had wakened in her +there, to strengthen her to the end, ward her from any complicity in her +sex's culprit blushing. + +Dacier's cry of her name was the cause, she chose to think, of the +excessive circumspection she must henceforth practise; precariously +footing, embracing hardest earth, the plainest rules, to get back to +safety. Not that she was personally endangered, or at least not +spiritually; she could always fly in soul to her heights. But she had +now to be on guard, constantly in the fencing attitude. And watchful of +herself as well. That was admitted with a ready frankness, to save it +from being a necessitated and painful confession: for the voluntary- +acquiescence, if it involved her in her sex, claimed an individual +exemption. 'Women are women, and I am a woman but I am I, and unlike +them: I see we are weak, and weakness tempts: in owning the prudence of +guarded steps, I am armed. It is by dissembling, feigning immunity, that +we are imperilled.' She would have phrased it so, with some anger at her +feminine nature as well as at the subjection forced on her by +circumstances. + +Besides, her position and Percy Dacier's threw the fancied danger into +remoteness. The world was her stepmother, vigilant to become her judge; +and the world was his taskmaster, hopeful of him, yet able to strike him +down for an offence. She saw their situation as he did. The course of +folly must be bravely taken, if taken at all: Disguise degraded her to +the reptiles. + +This was faced. Consequently there was no fear of it. + +She had very easily proved that she had skill and self-possession to +keep him rational, and therefore they could continue to meet. A little +outburst of frenzy to a reputably handsome woman could be treated as the +froth of a passing wave. Men have the trick, infants their fevers. + +Diana's days were spent in reasoning. Her nights were not so tuneable to +the superior mind. When asleep she was the sport of elves that danced +her into tangles too deliciously unravelled, and left new problems for +the wise-eyed and anxious morning. She solved them with the thought that +in sleep it was the mere ordinary woman who fell a prey to her +tormentors; awake, she dispersed the swarm, her sky was clear. Gradually +the persecution ceased, thanks to her active pen. + +A letter from her legal adviser, old Mr. Braddock, informed her that no +grounds existed for apprehending marital annoyance, and late in May her +household had resumed its customary round. + +She examined her accounts. The Debit and Credit sides presented much of +the appearance of male and female in our jog-trot civilization. They +matched middling well; with rather too marked a tendency to strain the +leash and run frolic on the part of friend Debit (the wanton male), which +deepened the blush of the comparison. Her father had noticed the same +funny thing in his effort to balance his tugging accounts: 'Now then for +a look at Man and Wife': except that he made Debit stand for the portly +frisky female, Credit the decorous and contracted other half, a prim +gentleman of a constitutionally lean habit of body, remonstrating with +her. 'You seem to forget that we are married, my dear, and must walk in +step or bundle into the Bench,' Dan Merion used to say. + +Diana had not so much to rebuke in Mr. Debit; or not at the first +reckoning. But his ways were curious. She grew distrustful of him, +after dismissing him with a quiet admonition and discovering a series of +ambush bills, which he must have been aware of when he was allowed to +pass as an honourable citizen. His answer to her reproaches pleaded the +necessitousness of his purchases and expenditure: a capital plea; and +Mrs. Credit was requested by him, in a courteous manner, to drive her pen +the faster, so that she might wax to a corresponding size and satisfy the +world's idea of fitness in couples. She would have costly furniture, +because it pleased her taste; and a French cook, for a like reason, in +justice to her guests; and trained servants; and her tribe of pensioners; +flowers she would have profuse and fresh at her windows and over the +rooms; and the pictures and engravings on the walls were (always for the +good reason mentioned) choice ones; and she had a love of old lace, she +loved colours as she loved cheerfulness, and silks, and satin hangings, +Indian ivory carvings, countless mirrors, Oriental woods, chairs and +desks with some feature or a flourish in them, delicate tables with +antelope legs, of approved workmanship in the chronology of European +upholstery, and marble clocks of cunning device to symbol Time, +mantelpiece decorations, illustrated editions of her favourite authors; +her bed-chambers, too, gave the nest for sleep a dainty cosiness in +aerial draperies. Hence, more or less directly, the peccant bills. +Credit was reduced to reckon to a nicety the amount she could rely on +positively: her fixed income from her investments and the letting of The +Crossways: the days of half-yearly payments that would magnify her to +some proportions beside the alarming growth of her partner, who was proud +of it, and referred her to the treasures she could summon with her pen, +at a murmur of dissatisfaction. His compliments were sincere; they were +seductive. He assured her that she had struck a rich vein in an +inexhaustible mine; by writing only a very little faster she could double +her income; counting a broader popularity, treble it; and so on a tide of +success down the widening river to a sea sheer golden. Behold how it +sparkles! Are we then to stint our winged hours of youth for want of +courage to realize the riches we can command? Debit was eloquent, he was +unanswerable. + +Another calculator, an accustomed and lamentably-scrupulous +arithmetician, had been at work for some time upon a speculative summing +of the outlay of Diana's establishment, as to its chances of swamping the +income. Redworth could guess pretty closely the cost of a house hold, if +his care for the holder set him venturing on aver ages. He knew nothing +of her ten per cent. investment and considered her fixed income a +beggarly regiment to marshal against the invader. He fancied however, in +his ignorance of literary profits, that a popular writer, selling several +editions, had come to an El Dorado. There was the mine. It required a +diligent worker. Diana was often struck by hearing Redworth ask her when +her next book might be expected. He appeared to have an eagerness in +hurrying her to produce, and she had to say that she was not a nimble +writer. His flattering impatience was vexatious. He admired her work, +yet he did his utmost to render it little admirable. His literary taste +was not that of young Arthur Rhodes, to whom she could read her chapters, +appearing to take counsel upon them while drinking the eulogies: she +suspected him of prosaic ally wishing her to make money, and though her +exchequer was beginning to know the need of it, the author's lofty mind +disdained such sordidness: to be excused, possibly, for a failing +productive energy. She encountered obstacles to imaginative composition. +With the pen in her hand, she would fall into heavy musings; break a +sentence to muse, and not on the subject. She slept unevenly at night, +was drowsy by day, unless the open air was about her, or animating +friends. Redworth's urgency to get her to publish was particularly +annoying when she felt how greatly THE YOUNG MINISTER OF STATE would +have been improved had she retained the work to brood over it, polish, +re-write passages, perfect it. Her musings embraced long dialogues of +that work, never printed; they sprang up, they passed from memory; +leaving a distaste for her present work: THE CANTATRICE: far more +poetical than the preceding, in the opinion of Arthur Rhodes; and the +story was more romantic; modelled on a Prima Donna she had met at the +musical parties of Henry Wilmers, after hearing Redworth tell of Charles +Rainer's quaint passion for the woman, or the idea of the woman. Diana +had courted her, studied and liked her. The picture she was drawing of +the amiable and gifted Italian, of her villain Roumanian husband, and of +the eccentric, high-minded, devoted Englishman, was good in a fashion; +but considering the theme, she had reasonable apprehension that her +CANTATRICE would not repay her for the time and labour bestowed on it. +No clever transcripts of the dialogue of the day occurred; no hair- +breadth 'scapes, perils by sea and land, heroisms of the hero, fine +shrieks of the heroine; no set scenes of catching pathos and humour; no +distinguishable points of social satire--equivalent to a smacking of the +public on the chaps, which excites it to grin with keen discernment of +the author's intention. She did not appeal to the senses nor to a +superficial discernment. So she had the anticipatory sense of its +failure; and she wrote her best, in perverseness; of course she wrote +slowly; she wrote more and more realistically of the characters and the +downright human emotions, less of the wooden supernumeraries of her +story, labelled for broad guffaw or deluge tears--the grappling natural +links between our public and an author. Her feelings were aloof. They +flowed at a hint of a scene of THE YOUNG MINISTER. She could not put +them into THE CANTATRICE. And Arthur Rhodes pronounced this work +poetical beyond its predecessors, for the reason that the chief +characters were alive and the reader felt their pulses. He meant +to say, they were poetical inasmuch as they were creations. + +The slow progress of a work not driven by the author's feelings +necessitated frequent consultations between Debit and Credit, resulting +in altercations, recriminations, discord of the yoked and divergent +couple. To restore them to their proper trot in harness, Diana +reluctantly went to her publisher for an advance item of the sum she was +to receive, and the act increased her distaste. An idea came that she +would soon cease to be able to write at all. What then? Perhaps by +selling her invested money, and ultimately The Crossways, she would have +enough for her term upon earth. Necessarily she had to think that short, +in order to reckon it as nearly enough. 'I am sure,' she said to +herself, 'I shall not trouble the world very long.' A strange languor +beset her; scarcely melancholy, for she conceived the cheerfulness of +life and added to it in company; but a nervelessness, as though she had +been left by the stream on the banks, and saw beauty and pleasure sweep +along and away, while the sun that primed them dried her veins. At this +time she was gaining her widest reputation for brilliancy of wit. Only +to welcome guests were her evenings ever spent at home. She had no +intimate understanding of the deadly wrestle of the conventional woman +with her nature which she was undergoing below the surface. Perplexities +she acknowledged, and the prudence of guardedness. 'But as I am sure not +to live very long, we may as well meet.' Her meetings with Percy Dacier +were therefore hardly shunned; and his behaviour did not warn her to +discountenance them. It would have been cruel to exclude him from her +select little dinners of eight. Whitmonby, Westlake, Henry Wilmers and +the rest, she perhaps aiding, schooled him in the conversational art. +She heard it said of him, that the courted discarder of the sex, hitherto +a mere politician, was wonderfully humanized. Lady Pennon fell to +talking of him hopefully. She declared him to be one of the men who +unfold tardily, and only await the mastering passion. If the passion had +come, it was controlled. His command of himself melted Diana. How could +she forbid his entry to the houses she frequented? She was glad to see +him. He showed his pleasure in seeing her. Remembering his tentative +indiscretion on those foreign sands, she reflected that he had been +easily checked: and the like was not to be said of some others. +Beautiful women in her position provoke an intemperateness that contrasts +touchingly with the self-restraint of a particular admirer. Her +'impassioned Caledonian' was one of a host, to speak of whom and their +fits of lunacy even to her friend Emma, was repulsive. She bore with +them, foiled them, passed them, and recovered her equanimity; but the +contrast called to her to dwell on it, the self-restraint whispered of a +depth of passion . . . . + +She was shocked at herself for a singular tremble 'she experienced, +without any beating of the heart, on hearing one day that the marriage of +Percy Dacier and Miss Asper was at last definitely fixed. Mary Paynham +brought her the news. She had it from a lady who had come across Miss +Asper at Lady Wathin's assemblies, and considered the great heiress +extraordinarily handsome. + +'A golden miracle,' Diana gave her words to say. 'Good looks and gold +together are rather superhuman. The report may be this time true.' +Next afternoon the card of Lady Wathin requested Mrs. Warwick to grant +her a private interview. + +Lady Wathin, as one of the order of women who can do anything in a holy +cause, advanced toward Mrs. Warwick, unabashed by the burden of her +mission, and spinally prepared, behind benevolent smilings, to repay +dignity of mien with a similar erectness of dignity. They touched +fingers and sat. The preliminaries to the matter of the interview were +brief between ladies physically sensible of antagonism and mutually too +scornful of subterfuges in one another's presence to beat the bush. + +Lady Wathin began. 'I am, you are aware, Mrs. Warwick, a cousin of your +friend Lady Dunstane.' + +'You come to me on business?' Diana said. + +'It may be so termed. I have no personal interest in it. I come to lay +certain facts before you which I think you should know. We think it +better that an acquaintance, and one of your sex, should state the case +to you, instead of having recourse to formal intermediaries, lawyers--' + +'Lawyers?' + +'Well, my husband is a lawyer, it is true. In the course of his +professional vocations he became acquainted with Mr. Warwick. We have +latterly seen a good deal of him. He is, I regret to say, seriously +unwell.' + +'I have heard of it.' + +'He has no female relations, it appears. He needs more care than he can +receive from hirelings.' + +'Are you empowered by him, Lady Wathin?' + +'I am, Mrs. Warwick. We will not waste time in apologies. He is most +anxious for a reconciliation. It seems to Sir Cramborne and to me the +most desireable thing for all parties concerned, if you can be induced to +regard it in that light. Mr. Warwick may or may not live; but the +estrangement is quite undoubtedly the cause of his illness. I touch on +nothing connected with it. I simply wish that you should not be in +ignorance of his proposal and his condition.' + +Diana bowed calmly. 'I grieve at his condition. His proposal has +already been made and replied to.' + +'Oh, but, Mrs. Warwick, an immediate and decisive refusal of a proposal +so fraught with consequences . . . !' + +'Ah, but, Lady Wathin, you are now outstepping the limits prescribed by +the office you have undertaken.' + +'You will not lend ear to an intercession?' + +'I will not.' + +'Of course, Mrs. Warwick, it is not for me to hint at things that lawyers +could say on the subject.' + +'Your forbearance is creditable, Lady Wathin.' + +'Believe me, Mrs. Warwick, the step is--I speak in my husband's name as +well as my own--strongly to be advised.' + +'If I hear one word more of it, I leave the country.' + +'I should be sorry indeed at any piece of rashness depriving your +numerous friends of your society. We have recently become acquainted +with Mr. Redworth, and I know the loss you would be to them. I have not +attempted an appeal to your feelings, Mrs. Warwick.' + +'I thank you warmly, Lady Wathin, for what you have not done.' + +The aristocratic airs of Mrs. Warwick were annoying to Lady Wathin when +she considered that they were borrowed, and that a pattern morality could +regard the woman as ostracized: nor was it agreeable to be looked at +through eyelashes under partially lifted brows. She had come to appeal +to the feelings of the wife; at any rate, to discover if she had some and +was better than a wild adventuress. + +'Our life below is short!' she said. To which Diana tacitly assented. + +'We have our little term, Mrs. Warwick. It is soon over.' + +'On the other hand, the platitudes concerning it are eternal.' + +Lady Wathin closed her eyes, that the like effect might be produced on +her ears. 'Ah! they are the truths. But it is not my business to +preach. Permit me to say that I feel deeply for your husband.' + +'I am glad of Mr. Warwick's having friends; and they are many, I hope.' + +'They cannot behold him perishing, without an effort on his behalf.' + +A chasm of silence intervened. Wifely pity was not sounded in it. + +'He will question me, Mrs. Warwick.' + +'You can report to him the heads of our conversation, Lady Wathin.' + +'Would you--it is your husband's most earnest wish; and our house is open +to his wife and to him for the purpose; and it seems to us that . . . +indeed it might avert a catastrophe you would necessarily deplore:--would +you consent to meet him at my house?' + +'It has already been asked, Lady Wathin, and refused.' + +'But at my house-under our auspices!' + +Diana glanced at the clock. 'Nowhere.' + +'Is it not--pardon me--a wife's duty, Mrs. Warwick, at least to listen?' + +'Lady Wathin, I have listened to you.' + +'In the case of his extreme generosity so putting it, for the present, +Mrs. Warwick, that he asks only to be heard personally by his wife! It +may preclude so much.' + +Diana felt a hot wind across her skin. + +She smiled and said: 'Let me thank you for bringing to an end a mission +that must have been unpleasant to you.' + +'But you will meditate on it, Mrs. Warwick, will you not? Give me that +assurance!' + +'I shall not forget it,' said Diana. + +Again the ladies touched fingers, with an interchange of the social +grimace of cordiality. A few words of compassion for poor Lady +Dunstane's invalided state covered Lady Wathin's retreat. + +She left, it struck her ruffled sentiments, an icy libertine, whom any +husband caring for his dignity and comfort was well rid of; and if only +she could have contrived allusively to bring in the name of Mr. Percy +Dacier, just to show these arrant coquettes, or worse, that they were not +quite so privileged to pursue their intrigues obscurely as they imagined, +it would have soothed her exasperation. + +She left a woman the prey of panic. + +Diana thought of Emma and Redworth, and of their foolish interposition +to save her character and keep her bound. She might now have been free! +The struggle with her manacles reduced her to a state of rebelliousness, +from which issued vivid illuminations of the one means of certain escape; +an abhorrent hissing cavern, that led to a place named Liberty, her +refuge, but a hectic place. + +Unable to write, hating the house which held her a fixed mark for these +attacks, she had an idea of flying straight to her beloved Lugano lake, +and there hiding, abandoning her friends, casting off the slave's name +she bore, and living free in spirit. She went so far as to reckon the +cost of a small household there, and justify the violent step by an +exposition of retrenchment upon her large London expenditure. She had +but to say farewell to Emma, no other tie to cut! One morning on the +Salvatore heights would wash her clear of the webs defacing and +entangling her. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +INDICATES A SOUL PREPARED FOR DESPERATION + +The month was August, four days before the closing of Parliament, and +Diana fancied it good for Arthur Rhodes to run down with her to Copsley. +He came to her invitation joyfully, reminding her of Lady Dunstane's wish +to hear some chapters of THE CANTATRICE, and the MS. was packed. They +started, taking rail and fly, and winding up the distance on foot. +August is the month of sober maturity and majestic foliage, songless, but +a crowned and royal-robed queenly month; and the youngster's appreciation +of the homely scenery refreshed Diana; his delight in being with her was +also pleasant. She had no wish to exchange him for another; and that was +a strengthening thought. + +At Copsley the arrival of their luggage had prepared the welcome. Warm +though it was, Diana perceived a change in Emma, an unwonted reserve, +a doubtfulness of her eyes, in spite of tenderness; and thus thrown back +on herself, thinking that if she had followed her own counsel (as she +called her impulse) in old days, there would have been no such present +misery, she at once, and unconsciously, assumed a guarded look. Based on +her knowledge of her honest footing, it was a little defiant. Secretly +in her bosom it was sharpened to a slight hostility by the knowledge that +her mind had been straying. The guilt and the innocence combined to +clothe her in mail, the innocence being positive, the guilt so vapoury. +But she was armed only if necessary, and there was no requirement for +armour. Emma did not question at all. She saw the alteration in her +Tony: she was too full of the tragic apprehensiveness, overmastering her +to speak of trifles. She had never confided to Tony the exact nature and +the growth of her malady, thinking it mortal, and fearing to alarm her +dearest. + +A portion of the manuscript was read out by Arthur Rhodes in the evening; +the remainder next morning. Redworth perceptibly was the model of the +English hero; and as to his person, no friend could complain of the +sketch; his clear-eyed heartiness, manliness, wholesomeness--a word of +Lady Dunstane's regarding him,--and his handsome braced figure, were well +painted. Emma forgave the: insistance on a certain bluntness of the +nose, in consideration of the fond limning of his honest and expressive +eyes, and the 'light on his temples,' which they had noticed together. +She could not so easily forgive the realistic picture of the man: an +exaggeration, she thought, of small foibles, that even if they existed, +should not have been stressed. The turn for 'calculating' was shown up +ridiculously; Mr. Cuthbert Dering was calculating in his impassioned +moods as well as in his cold. His head was a long division of ciphers. +He had statistics for spectacles, and beheld the world through them, and +the mistress he worshipped. + +'I see,' said Emma, during a pause; 'he is a Saxon. You still affect to +have the race en grippe, Tony.' + +'I give him every credit for what he is,' Diana replied. 'I admire the +finer qualities of the race as much as any one. You want to have them +presented to you in enamel, Emmy.' + +But the worst was an indication that the mania for calculating in and +out of season would lead to the catastrophe destructive of his happiness. +Emma could not bear that. Without asking herself whether it could be +possible that Tony knew the secret, or whether she would have laid it +bare, her sympathy for Redworth revolted at the exposure. She was +chilled. She let it pass; she merely said: 'I like the writing.' + +Diana understood that her story was condemned. + +She put on her robes of philosophy to cloak discouragement. 'I am glad +the writing pleases you.' + +'The characters are as true as life!' cried Arthur Rhodes. 'The +Cantatrice drinking porter from the pewter at the slips after harrowing +the hearts of her audience, is dearer to me than if she had tottered to a +sofa declining sustenance; and because her creatrix has infused such +blood of life into her that you accept naturally whatever she does. She +was exhausted, and required the porter, like a labourer in the +cornfield.' + +Emma looked at him, and perceived the poet swamped by the admirer. Taken +in conjunction with Mr. Cuthbert Dering's frenzy for calculating, she +disliked the incident of the porter and the pewter. + +'While the Cantatrice swallowed her draught, I suppose Mr. Dering counted +the cost?' she said. + +'It really might be hinted,' said Diana. + +The discussion closed with the accustomed pro and con upon the wart of +Cromwell's nose, Realism rejoicing in it, Idealism objecting. + +Arthur Rhodes was bidden to stretch his legs on a walk along the heights +in the afternoon, and Emma was further vexed by hearing Tony complain of +Redworth's treatment of the lad, whom he would not assist to any of the +snug little posts he was notoriously able to dispense. + +'He has talked of Mr. Rhodes to me,' said Emma. 'He thinks the +profession of literature a delusion, and doubts the wisdom of having +poets for clerks.' + +'John-Bullish!' Diana exclaimed. 'He speaks contemptuously of the poor +boy.' + +'Only inasmuch as the foolishness of the young man in throwing up the Law +provokes his practical mind to speak.' + +'He might take my word for the "young man's" ability. I want him to have +the means of living, that he may write. He has genius.' + +'He may have it. I like him, and have said so. If he were to go back to +his law-stool, I have no doubt that Redworth would manage to help him.' + +'And make a worthy ancient Braddock of a youth of splendid promise! Have +I sketched him too Saxon?' + +'It is the lens, and hot the tribe, Tony.' + +THE CANTATRICE was not alluded to any more; but Emma's disapproval +blocked the current of composition, already subject to chokings in the +brain of the author. Diana stayed three days at Copsley, one longer than +she had intended, so that Arthur Rhodes might have his fill of country +air. + +'I would keep him, but I should be no companion for him,' Emma said. + +'I suspect the gallant squire is only to be satisfied by landing me +safely,' said Diana, and that small remark grated, though Emma saw the +simple meaning. When they parted, she kissed her Tony many times. Tears +were in her eyes. It seemed to Diana that she was anxious to make amends +for the fit of alienation, and she was kissed in return warmly, quite +forgiven, notwithstanding the deadly blank she had caused in the +imagination of the writer for pay, distracted by the squabbles of Debit +and Credit. + +Diana chatted spiritedly to young Rhodes on their drive to the train. +She was profoundly discouraged by Emma's disapproval of her work. It +wanted but that one drop to make a recurrence to the work impossible. +There it must lie! And what of the aspects of her household?--Perhaps, +after all, the Redworths of the world are right, and Literature as a +profession is a delusive pursuit. She did not assent to it without +hostility to the world's Redworths.--'They have no sensitiveness, we have +too much. We are made of bubbles that a wind will burst, and as the wind +is always blowing, your practical Redworths have their crow of us.' + +She suggested advice to Arthur Rhodes upon the prudence of his resuming +the yoke of the Law. + +He laughed at such a notion, saying that he had some expectations of +money to come. + +'But I fear,' said he, 'that Lady Dunstane is very very ill. She begged +me to keep her informed of your address.' + +Diana told him he was one of those who should know it whithersoever she +went. She spoke impulsively, her sentiments of friendliness for the +youth being temporarily brightened by the strangeness of Emma's conduct +in deputing it to him to fulfil a duty she had never omitted. 'What can +she think I am going to do!' + +On her table at home lay, a letter from Mr. Warwick. She read it hastily +in the presence of Arthur Rhodes, having at a glance at the handwriting +anticipated the proposal it contained and the official phrasing. + +Her gallant squire was invited to dine with her that evening, costume +excused. + +They conversed of Literature as a profession, of poets dead and living, +of politics, which he abhorred and shied at, and of his prospects. He +wrote many rejected pages, enjoyed an income of eighty pounds per annum, +and eked out a subsistence upon the modest sum his pen procured him; a +sum extremely insignificant; but great Nature was his own, the world was +tributary to him, the future his bejewelled and expectant bride. Diana +envied his youthfulness. Nothing is more enviable, nothing richer to the +mind, than the aspect of a cheerful poverty. How much nobler it was, +contrasted with Redworth's amassing of wealth! + +When alone, she went to her bedroom and tried to write, tried to sleep. +Mr. Warwick's letter was looked at. It seemed to indicate a threat; but +for the moment it did not disturb her so much as the review of her moral +prostration. She wrote some lines to her lawyers, quoting one of Mr. +Warwick's sentences. That done, his letter was dismissed. Her +intolerable languor became alternately a defeating drowsiness and a +fever. She succeeded in the effort to smother the absolute cause: it was +not suffered to show a front; at the cost of her knowledge of a practised +self-deception. 'I wonder whether the world is as bad as a certain class +of writers tell us!' she sighed in weariness, and mused on their +soundings and probings of poor humanity, which the world accepts for the +very bottom truth if their dredge brings up sheer refuse of the +abominable. The world imagines those to be at our nature's depths who +are impudent enough to expose its muddy shallows. She was in the mood +for such a kind of writing: she could have started on it at once but that +the theme was wanting; and it may count on popularity, a great repute for +penetration. It is true of its kind, though the dredging of nature is +the miry form of art. When it flourishes we may be assured we have been +overenamelling the higher forms. She felt, and shuddered to feel, that +she could draw from dark stores. Hitherto in her works it had been a +triumph of the good. They revealed a gaping deficiency of the subtle +insight she now possessed. 'Exhibit humanity as it is, wallowing, +sensual, wicked, behind the mask,' a voice called to her; she was allured +by the contemplation of the wide-mouthed old dragon Ego, whose portrait, +decently painted, establishes an instant touch of exchange between author +and public, the latter detected and confessing. Next to the pantomime of +Humour and Pathos, a cynical surgical knife at the human bosom seems the +surest talisman for this agreeable exchange; and she could cut. She gave +herself a taste of her powers. She cut at herself mercilessly, and had +to bandage the wound in a hurry to keep in life. + +Metaphors were her refuge. Metaphorically she could allow her mind to +distinguish the struggle she was undergoing, sinking under it. The +banished of Eden had to put on metaphors, and the common use of them has +helped largely to civilize us. The sluggish in intellect detest them, +but our civilization is not much indebted to that major faction. +Especially are they needed by the pedestalled woman in her conflict with +the natural. Diana saw herself through the haze she conjured up. 'Am I +worse than other women?' was a piercing twithought. Worse, would be +hideous isolation. The not worse, abased her sex. She could afford to +say that the world was bad: not that women were. + +Sinking deeper, an anguish of humiliation smote her to a sense of +drowning. For what of the poetic ecstasy on her Salvatore heights had +not been of origin divine? had sprung from other than spiritual founts? +had sprung from the reddened sources she was compelled to conceal? Could +it be? She would not believe it. But there was matter to clip her +wings, quench her light, in the doubt. + +She fell asleep like the wrecked flung ashore. + +Danvers entered her room at an early hour for London to inform her that +Mr. Percy Dacier was below, and begged permission to wait. + +Diana gave orders for breakfast to be proposed to him. She lay staring +at the wall until it became too visibly a reflection of her mind. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +ONCE MORE THE CROSSWAYS AND A CHANGE OF TURNINGS + +The suspicion of his having come to impart the news of his proximate +marriage ultimately endowed her with sovereign calmness. She had need to +think it, and she did. Tea was brought to her while she dressed; she +descended the stairs revolving phrases of happy congratulation and the +world's ordinary epigrams upon the marriage-tie, neatly mixed. + +They read in one another's faces a different meaning from the empty words +of excuse and welcome. Dacier's expressed the buckling of a strong set +purpose; but, grieved by the look of her eyes, he wasted a moment to say: +'You have not slept. You have heard . . . ?' + +'What?' said she, trying to speculate; and that was a sufficient answer. + +'I hadn't the courage to call last night; I passed the windows. Give me +your hand, I beg.' + +She gave her hand in wonderment, and more wonderingly felt it squeezed. +Her heart began the hammerthump. She spoke an unintelligible something; +saw herself melting away to utter weakness-pride, reserve, simple +prudence, all going; crumbled ruins where had stood a fortress imposing +to men. Was it love? Her heart thumped shiveringly. + +He kept her hand, indifferent to the gentle tension. + +'This is the point: I cannot live without you: I have gone on . . . +Who was here last night? Forgive me.' + +'You know Arthur Rhodes.' + +'I saw him leave the door at eleven. Why do you torture me? There's no +time to lose now. You will be claimed. Come, and let us two cut the +knot. It is the best thing in the world for me--the only thing. Be +brave! I have your hand. Give it for good, and for heaven's sake don't +play the sex. Be yourself. Dear soul of a woman! I never saw the soul +in one but in you. I have waited: nothing but the dread of losing you +sets me speaking now. And for you to be sacrificed a second time to +that--! Oh, no! You know you can trust me. On my honour, I take breath +from you. You are my better in everything--guide, goddess, dearest +heart! Trust me; make me master of your fate.' + +'But my friend!' the murmur hung in her throat. He was marvellously +transformed; he allowed no space for the arts of defence and evasion. + +'I wish I had the trick of courting. There's not time; and I 'm a +simpleton at the game. We can start this evening. Once away, we leave +it to them to settle the matter, and then you are free, and mine to the +death.' + +'But speak, speak! What is it?' Diana said. + +'That if we delay, I 'm in danger of losing you altogether.' + +Her eyes lightened: 'You mean that you have heard he has determined--?' + +'There's a process of the law. But stop it. Just this one step, and it +ends. Whether intended or not, it hangs over you, and you will be +perpetually tormented. Why waste your whole youth?--and mine as well! +For I am bound to you as much as if we had stood at the altar--where we +will stand together the instant you are free.' + +'But where have you heard . . .? + +'From an intimate friend. I will tell you--sufficiently intimate--from +Lady Wathin. Nothing of a friend, but I see this woman at times. She +chose to speak of it to me it doesn't matter why. She is in his +confidence, and pitched me a whimpering tale. Let those people chatter. +But it 's exactly for those people that you are hanging in chains, all +your youth shrivelling. Let them shout their worst! It's the bark of a +day; and you won't hear it; half a year, and it will be over, and I shall +bring you back--the husband of the noblest bride in Christendom! You +don't mistrust me?' + +'It is not that,' said she. 'But now drop my hand. I am imprisoned.' + +'It's asking too much. I've lost you--too many times. I have the hand +and I keep it. I take nothing but the hand. It's the hand I want. +I give you mine. I love you. Now I know what love is!--and the word +carries nothing of its weight. Tell me you do not doubt my honour.' + +'Not at all. But be rational. I must think, and I cannot while you keep +my hand.' + +He kissed it. 'I keep my own against the world.' + +A cry of rebuke swelled to her lips at his conqueror's tone. It was not +uttered, for directness was in his character and his wooing loyal--save +for bitter circumstances, delicious to hear; and so narrow was the ring +he had wound about her senses, that her loathing of the circumstances +pushed her to acknowledge within her bell of a heart her love for him. + +He was luckless enough to say: 'Diana!' + +It rang horridly of her husband. She drew her hand to loosen it, with +repulsing brows. 'Not that name!' + +Dacier was too full of his honest advocacy of the passionate lover to +take a rebuff. There lay his unconscious mastery, where the common arts +of attack would have tripped him with a quick-witted woman, and where a +man of passion, not allowing her to succumb in dignity, would have +alarmed her to the breaking loose from him. + +'Lady Dunstane calls you Tony.' + +'She is my dearest and oldest friend.' + +'You and I don't count by years. You are the dearest to me on earth, +Tony!' + +She debated as to forbidding that name. + +The moment's pause wrapped her in a mental hurricane, out of which she +came with a heart stopped, her olive cheeks ashen-hued. She had seen +that the step was possible. + +'Oh! Percy, Percy, are we mad?' + +'Not mad. We take what is ours. Tell me, have I ever, ever disrespected +you? You were sacred to me; and you are, though now the change has come. +Look back on it--it is time lost, years that are dust. But look forward, +and you cannot imagine our separation. What I propose is plain sense for +us two. Since Rovio, I have been at your feet. Have I not some just +claim for recompense? Tell me! Tony!' + +The sweetness of the secret name, the privileged name, in his mouth stole +through her blood, melting resistance. + +She had consented. The swarthy flaming of her face avowed it even more +than the surrender of her hand. He gained much by claiming little: he +respected her, gave her no touches of fright and shame; and it was her +glory to fall with pride. An attempt at a caress would have awakened her +view of the whitherward: but she was treated as a sovereign lady +rationally advised. + +'Is it since Rovio, Percy?' + +'Since the morning when you refused me one little flower.' + +'If I had given it, you might have been saved!' + +'I fancy I was doomed from the beginning.' + +'I was worth a thought?' + +'Worth a life! worth ten thousand!' + +'You have reckoned it all like a sane man:--family, position, the world, +the scandal?' + +'All. I have long known that you were the mate for me. You have to +weather a gale, Tony. It won't last. My dearest! it won't last many +months. I regret the trial for you, but I shall be with you, burning for +the day to reinstate you and show you the queen you are.' + +'Yes, we two can have no covert dealings, Percy,' said Diana. They would +be hateful--baseness! Rejecting any baseness, it seemed to her that she +stood in some brightness. The light was of a lurid sort. She called on +her heart to glory in it as the light of tried love, the love that defied +the world. Her heart rose. She and he would at a single step give proof +of their love for one another--and this kingdom of love--how different +from her recent craven languors!--this kingdom awaited her, was hers for +one word; and beset with the oceans of enemies, it was unassailable. If +only they were true to the love they vowed, no human force could subvert +it: and she doubted him as little as of herself. This new kingdom of +love, never entered by her, acclaiming her, was well-nigh unimaginable, +in spite of the many hooded messengers it had despatched to her of late. +She could hardly believe that it had come. + +'But see me as I am,' she said; she faltered it through her direct gaze +on him. + +'With chains to strike off? Certainly; it is done,' he replied. + +'Rather heavier than those of the slave-market! I am the deadest of +burdens. It means that your enemies, personal--if you have any, and +political--you have numbers; will raise a cry . . . . Realize it. +You may still be my friend. I forgive the bit of wildness.' + +She provoked a renewed kissing of her hand; for magnammity in love is +an overflowing danger; and when he said: 'The burden you have to bear +outweighs mine out of all comparison. What is it to a man--a public man +or not! The woman is always the victim. That's why I have held myself +in so long:--her strung frame softened. She half yielded to the tug on +her arm. + +'Is there no talking for us without foolishness?' she murmured. The +foolishness had wafted her to sea, far from sight of land. 'Now sit, and +speak soberly. Discuss the matter.--Yes, my hand, but I must have my +wits. Leave me free to use them till we choose our path. Let it be the +brains between us, as far as it can. You ask me to join my fate to +yours. It signifies a sharp battle for you, dear friend; perhaps the +blighting of the most promising life in England. One question is, can I +countervail the burden I shall be, by such help to you as I can afford? +Burden, is no word--I rake up a buried fever. I have partially lived it +down, and instantly I am covered with spots. The old false charges and +this plain offence make a monster of me.' + +'And meanwhile you are at the disposal of the man who falsely charged you +and armed the world against you,' said Dacier. + +'I can fly. The world is wide.' + +'Time slips. Your youth is wasted. If you escape the man, he will have +triumphed in keeping you from me. And I thirst for you; I look to you +for aid and counsel; I want my mate. You have not to be told how you +inspire me? I am really less than half myself without you. If I am to +do anything in the world, it must be with your aid, you beside me. +Our hands are joined: one leap! Do you not see that after . . . well, +it cannot be friendship. It imposes rather more on me than I can bear. +You are not the woman to trifle; nor I; Tony, the man for it with a woman +like you. You are my spring of wisdom. You interdict me altogether--can +you?--or we unite our fates, like these hands now. Try to get yours +away!' + +Her effort ended in a pressure. Resistance, nay, to hesitate at the +joining of her life with his after her submission to what was a scorching +fire in memory, though it was less than an embrace, accused her of worse +than foolishness. + +'Well, then,' said she, 'wait three days. Deliberate. Oh! try to know +yourself, for your clear reason to guide you. Let us be something better +than the crowd abusing us, not simple creatures of impulse--as we choose +to call the animal. What if we had to confess that we took to our heels +the moment the idea struck us! Three days. We may then pretend to a +philosophical resolve. Then come to me: or write to me.' + +'How long is it since the old Rovio morning, Tony?' + +'An age.' + +'Date my deliberations from that day.' + +The thought of hers having to be dated possibly from an earlier day, +robbed her of her summit of feminine isolation, and she trembled, chilled +and flushed; she lost all anchorage. + +'So it must be to-morrow,' said he, reading her closely, 'not later. +Better at once. But women are not to be hurried.' + +'Oh! don't class me, Percy, pray! I think of you, not of myself.' + +'You suppose that in a day or two I might vary?' + +She fixed her eyes on him, expressing certainty of his unalterable +stedfastness. The look allured. It changed: her head shook. She held +away and said: 'No, leave me; leave me, dear, dear friend. Percy, my +dearest! I will not "play the sex." I am yours if . . . if it is +your wish. It may as well be to-morrow. Here I am useless; I cannot +write, not screw a thought from my head. I dread that "process of the +Law" a second time. To-morrow, if it must be. But no impulses. Fortune +is blind; she may be kind to us. The blindness of Fortune is her one +merit, and fools accuse her of it, and they profit by it! I fear we all +of us have our turn of folly: we throw the stake for good luck. I hope +my sin is not very great. I know my position is desperate. I feel a +culprit. But I am sure I have courage, perhaps brains to help. At any +rate, I may say this: I bring no burden to my lover that he does not know +of.' + +Dacier pressed her hand. 'Money we shall have enough. My uncle has left +me fairly supplied.' + +'What would he think?' said Diana, half in a glimpse of meditation. + +'Think me the luckiest of the breeched. I fancy I hear him thanking you +for "making a man" of me.' + +She blushed. Some such phrase might have been spoken by Lord +Dannisburgh. + +'I have but a poor sum of money,' she said. 'I may be able to write +abroad. Here I cannot--if I am to be persecuted.' + +'You shall write, with a new pen!' said Dacier. 'You shall live, my +darling Tony. You have been held too long in this miserable suspension, +neither maid nor wife, neither woman nor stockfish. Ah! shameful. But +we 'll right it. The step, for us, is the most reasonable that could be +considered. You shake your head. But the circumstances make it so. +Courage, and we come to happiness! And that, for you and me, means work. +Look at the case of Lord and Lady Dulac. It's identical, except that she +is no match beside you: and I do not compare her antecedents with yours. +But she braved the leap, and forced the world to swallow it, and now, you +see, she's perfectly honoured. I know a place on a peak of the Maritime +Alps, exquisite in summer, cool, perfectly solitary, no English, snow +round us, pastures at our feet, and the Mediterranean below. There! my +Tony. To-morrow night we start. You will meet me-shall I call here?-- +well, then at the railway station, the South-Eastern, for Paris: say, +twenty minutes to eight. I have your pledge? You will come?' + +She sighed it, then said it firmly, to be worthy of him. Kind Fortune, +peeping under the edge of her bandaged eyes, appeared willing to bestow +the beginning of happiness upon one who thought she had a claim to a +small taste of it before she died. It seemed distinguishingly done, to +give a bite of happiness to the starving! + +'I fancied when you were announced that you came for congratulations upon +your approaching marriage, Percy.' + +'I shall expect to hear them from you to-morrow evening at the station, +dear Tony,' said he. + +The time was again stated, the pledge repeated. He forbore entreaties +for privileges, and won her gratitude. + +They named once more the place of meeting and the hour: more significant +to them than phrases of intensest love and passion. Pressing hands +sharply for pledge of good faith, they sundered. + +She still had him in her eyes when he had gone. Her old world lay +shattered; her new world was up without a dawn, with but one figure, the +sun of it, to light the swinging strangeness. + +Was ever man more marvellously transformed? or woman more wildly swept +from earth into the clouds? So she mused in the hum of her tempest of +heart and brain, forgetful of the years and the conditions preparing both +of them for this explosion. + +She had much to do: the arrangements to dismiss her servants, write to +house-agents and her lawyer, and write fully to Emma, write the enigmatic +farewell to the Esquarts and Lady Pennon, Mary Paynham, Arthur Rhodes, +Whitmonby (stanch in friendship, but requiring friendly touches), Henry +Wilmers, and Redworth. He was reserved to the last, for very enigmatical +adieux: he would hear the whole story from Emma; must be left to think as +he liked. + +The vague letters were excellently well composed: she was going abroad, +and knew not when she would return; bade her friends think the best they +could of her in the meantime. Whitmonby was favoured with an anecdote, +to be read as an apologue by the light of subsequent events. But the +letter to Emma tasked Diana. Intending to write fully, her pen committed +the briefest sentences: the tenderness she felt for Emma wakening her +heart to sing that she was loved, loved, and knew love at last; and +Emma's foreseen antagonism to the love and the step it involved rendered +her pleadings in exculpation a stammered confession of guiltiness, +ignominious, unworthy of the pride she felt in her lover. 'I am like a +cartridge rammed into a gun, to be discharged at a certain hour +tomorrow,' she wrote; and she sealed a letter so frigid that she could +not decide to post it. All day she imagined hearing a distant cannonade. +The light of the day following was not like earthly light. Danvers +assured her there was no fog in London. + +'London is insupportable; I am going to Paris, and shall send for you in +a week or two,' said Diana. + +'Allow me to say, ma'am, that you had better take me with you,' said +Danvers. + +'Are you afraid of travelling by yourself, you foolish creature?' + +'No, ma'am, but I don't like any hands to undress and dress my mistress +but my own.' + +'I have not lost the art,' said Diana, chafing for a magic spell to +extinguish the woman, to whom, immediately pitying her, she said: 'You +are a good faithful soul. I think you have never kissed me. Kiss me on +the forehead.' + +Danvers put her lips to her mistress's forehead, and was asked: 'You +still consider yourself attached to my fortunes?' + +'I do, ma'am, at home or abroad; and if you will take me with you . . ' + +'Not for a week or so.' + +'I shall not be in the way, ma'am.' + +They played at shutting eyes. The petition of Danvers was declined; +which taught her the more; and she was emboldened to say: 'Wherever my +mistress goes, she ought to have her attendant with her.' There was no +answer to it but the refusal. + +The hours crumbled slowly, each with a blow at the passages of retreat. +Diana thought of herself as another person, whom she observed, not +counselling her, because it was a creature visibly pushed by the Fates. +In her own mind she could not perceive a stone of solidity anywhere, nor +a face that had the appearance of our common life. She heard the cannon +at intervals. The things she said set Danvers laughing, and she wondered +at the woman's mingled mirth and stiffness. Five o'clock struck. Her +letters were sent to the post. Her boxes were piled from stairs to door. +She read the labels, for her good-bye to the hated name of Warwick:--why +ever adopted! Emma might well have questioned why! Women are guilty of +such unreasoning acts! But this was the close to that chapter. The hour +of six went by. Between six and seven came a sound of knocker and bell +at the street-door. Danvers rushed into the sitting-room to announce +that it was Mr. Redworth. Before a word could be mustered, Redworth was +in the room. He said: 'You must come with me at once!' + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +IN WHICH A DISAPPOINTED LOVER RECEIVES A MULTITUDE OF LESSONS + +Dacier welted at the station, a good figure of a sentinel over his +luggage and a spy for one among the inpouring passengers. Tickets had +been confidently taken, the private division of the carriages happily +secured. On board the boat she would be veiled. Landed on French soil, +they threw off disguises, breasted the facts. And those? They +lightened. He smarted with his eagerness. + +He had come well in advance of the appointed time, for he would not have +had her hang about there one minute alone. + +Strange as this adventure was to a man of prominent station before the +world, and electrical as the turning-point of a destiny that he was given +to weigh deliberately and far-sightedly, Diana's image strung him to the +pitch of it. He looked nowhere but ahead, like an archer putting hand +for his arrow. + +Presently he compared his watch and the terminus clock. She should now +be arriving. He went out to meet her and do service. Many cabs and +carriages were peered into, couples inspected, ladies and their maids, +wives and their husbands--an August exodus to the Continent. Nowhere the +starry she. But he had a fund of patience. She was now in some block of +the streets. He was sure of her, sure of her courage. Tony and +recreancy could not go together. Now that he called her Tony, she was +his close comrade, known; the name was a caress and a promise, breathing +of her, as the rose of sweetest earth. He counted it to be a month ere +his family would have wind of the altered position of his affairs, +possibly a year to the day of his making the dear woman his own in the +eyes of the world. She was dear past computation, womanly, yet quite +unlike the womanish woman, unlike the semi-males courteously called +dashing, unlike the sentimental. His present passion for her lineaments, +declared her surpassingly beautiful, though his critical taste was rather +for the white statue that gave no warmth. She had brains and ardour, she +had grace and sweetness, a playful petulancy enlivening our atmosphere, +and withal a refinement, a distinction, not to be classed; and justly +might she dislike the being classed. Her humour was a perennial +refreshment, a running well, that caught all the colours of light; her +wit studded the heavens of the recollection of her. In his heart he felt +that it was a stepping down for the brilliant woman to give him her hand; +a condescension and an act of valour. She who always led or prompted +when they conversed, had now in her generosity abandoned the lead and +herself to him, and she deserved his utmost honouring. + +But where was she? He looked at his watch, looked at the clock. They +said the same: ten minutes to the moment of the train's departure. + +A man may still afford to dwell on the charms and merits of his heart's +mistress while he has ten minutes to spare. The dropping minutes, +however, detract one by one from her individuality and threaten to sink +her in her sex entirely. It is the inexorable clock that says she is as +other women. Dacier began to chafe. He was unaccustomed to the part he +was performing:--and if she failed him? She would not. She would be +late, though. No, she was in time! His long legs crossed the platform +to overtake a tall lady veiled and dressed in black. He lifted his hat; +he heard an alarmed little cry and retired. The clock said, Five +minutes: a secret chiromancy in addition indicating on its face the word +Fool. An odd word to be cast at him! It rocked the icy pillar of pride +in the background of his nature. Certainly standing solos at the hour of +eight P.M., he would stand for a fool. Hitherto he had never allowed a +woman to chance to posture him in that character. He strode out, +returned, scanned every lady's shape, and for a distraction watched the +veiled lady whom he had accosted. Her figure suggested pleasant +features. Either she was disappointed or she was an adept. At the +shutting of the gates she glided through, not without a fearful look +around and at him. She disappeared. Dacier shrugged. His novel +assimilation to the rat-rabble of amatory intriguers tapped him on the +shoulder unpleasantly. A luckless member of the fraternity too! The +bell, the clock and the train gave him his title. 'And I was ready to +fling down everything for the woman!' The trial of a superb London +gentleman's resources in the love-passion could not have been much +keener. No sign of her. + +He who stands ready to defy the world, and is baffled by the absence of +his fair assistant, is the fool doubled, so completely the fool that he +heads the universal shout; he does not spare himself. The sole +consolation he has is to revile the sex. Women! women! Whom have they +not made a fool of! His uncle as much as any--and professing to know +them. Him also! the man proud of escaping their wiles. 'For this woman +. . . !' he went on saying after he had lost sight of her in her sex's +trickeries. The nearest he could get to her was to conceive that the +arrant coquette was now laughing at her utter subjugation and befooling +of the man popularly supposed invincible. If it were known of him! +The idea of his being a puppet fixed for derision was madly distempering. +He had only to ask the affirmative of Constance Asper to-morrow! +A vision of his determination to do it, somewhat comforted him. + +Dacier walked up and down the platform, passing his pile of luggage, +solitary and eloquent on the barrow. Never in his life having been made +to look a fool, he felt the red heat of the thing, as a man who has not +blessedly become acquainted with the swish in boyhood finds his +untempered blood turn to poison at a blow; he cannot healthily take a +licking. But then it had been so splendid an insanity when he urged +Diana to fly with him. Any one but a woman would have appreciated the +sacrifice. + +His luggage had to be removed. He dropped his porter a lordly fee and +drove home. From that astonished solitude he strolled to his Club. +Curiosity mastering the wrath it was mixed with, he left his Club and +crossed the park southward in the direction of Diana's house, abusing her +for her inveterate attachment to the regions of Westminster. There she +used to receive Lord Dannisburgh; innocently, no doubt-assuredly quite +innocently; and her husband had quitted the district. Still it was +rather childish for a woman to-be always haunting the seats of +Parliament. Her disposition to imagine that she was able to inspire +statesmen came in for a share of ridicule; for when we know ourselves +to be ridiculous, a retort in kind, unjust upon consideration, is balm. +The woman dragged him down to the level of common men; that was the +peculiar injury, and it swept her undistinguished into the stream of +women. In appearance, as he had proved to the fellows at his Club, he +was perfectly self-possessed, mentally distracted and bitter, hating +himself for it, snapping at the cause of it. She had not merely +disappointed, she had slashed his high conceit of himself, curbed him at +the first animal dash forward, and he champed the bit with the fury of a +thwarted racer. + +Twice he passed her house. Of course no light was shown at her windows. +They were scanned malignly. + +He held it due to her to call and inquire whether there was any truth in +the report of Mrs. Warwick's illness. Mrs. Warwick! She meant to keep +the name. + +A maid-servant came to the door with a candle in her hand revealing red +eyelids. She was not aware that her mistress was unwell. Her mistress +had left home some time after six o'clock with a gentleman. She was +unable to tell him the gentleman's name. William, the footman, had +opened the door to him. Her mistress's maid Mrs. Danvers had gone to the +Play--with William. She thought that Mrs. Danvers might know who the +gentleman was. The girl's eyelids blinked, and she turned aside. Dacier +consoled her with a piece of gold, saying he would come and see Mrs. +Danvers in the morning. + +His wrath was partially quieted by the new speculations offered up to it. +He could not conjure a suspicion of treachery in Diana Warwick; and a +treachery so foully cynical! She had gone with a gentleman. He guessed +on all sides; he struck at walls, as in complete obscurity. + +The mystery of her conduct troubling his wits for the many hours was +explained by Danvers. With a sympathy that she was at pains to show, she +informed him that her mistress was not at all unwell, and related of how +Mr. Redworth had arrived just when her mistress was on the point of +starting for Paris and the Continent; because poor Lady Dunstane was +this very day to undergo an operation under the surgeons at Copsley, and +she did not wish her mistress to be present, but Mr. Redworth thought her +mistress ought to be there, and he had gone down thinking she was there, +and then came back in hot haste to fetch her, and was just in time, as it +happened, by two or three minutes. + +Dacier rewarded the sympathetic woman for her intelligence, which +appeared to him to have shot so far as to require a bribe. Gratitude to +the person soothing his unwontedly ruffled temper was the cause of the +indiscretion in the amount he gave. + +It appeared to him that he ought to proceed to Copsley for tidings of +Lady Dunstane. Thither he sped by the handy railway and a timely train. +He reached the parkgates at three in the afternoon, telling his flyman to +wait. As he advanced by short cuts over the grass, he studied the look +of the rows of windows. She was within, and strangely to his clouded +senses she was no longer Tony, no longer the deceptive woman he could in +justice abuse. He and she, so close to union, were divided. A hand +resembling the palpable interposition of Fate had swept them asunder. +Having the poorest right--not any--to reproach her, he was disarmed, he +felt himself a miserable intruder; he summoned his passion to excuse him, +and gained some unsatisfied repose of mind by contemplating its devoted +sincerity; which roused an effort to feel for the sufferer--Diana +Warwick's friend. With the pair of surgeons named, the most eminent of +their day, in attendance, the case must be serious. To vindicate the +breaker of her pledge, his present plight likewise assured him of that, +and nearing the house he adopted instinctively the funeral step and mood, +just sensible of a novel smallness. For the fortifying testimony of his +passion had to be put aside, he was obliged to disavow it for a simpler +motive if he applied at the door. He stressed the motive, produced the +sentiment, and passed thus naturally into hypocrisy, as lovers +precipitated by their blood among the crises of human conditions are +often forced to do. He had come to inquire after Lady Dunstane. He +remembered that it had struck him as a duty, on hearing of her dangerous +illness. + +The door opened before he touched the bell. Sir Lukin knocked against +him and stared. + +'Ah!--who--?--you?' he said, and took him by the arm and pressed him on +along the gravel. 'Dacier, are you? Redworth's in there. Come on a +step, come! It's the time for us to pray. Good God! There's mercy for +sinners. If ever there was a man! . . . But, oh, good God! she's in +their hands this minute. My saint is under the knife.' + +Dacier was hurried forward by a powerful hand. 'They say it lasts about +five minutes, four and a half--or more! My God! When they turned me out +of her room, she smiled to keep me calm. She said: "Dear husband": the +veriest wretch and brutallest husband ever poor woman . . . and a +saint! a saint on earth! Emmy!' Tears burst from him. + +He pulled forth his watch and asked Dacier for the time. + +'A minute's gone in a minute. It's three minutes and a half. Come +faster. They're at their work! It's life or death. I've had death +about me. But for a woman! and your wife! and that brave soul! She +bears it so. Women are the bravest creatures afloat. If they make her +shriek, it'll be only if she thinks I 'm out of hearing. No: I see her. +She bears it!--They mayn't have begun yet. It may all be over! Come +into the wood. I must pray. I must go on my knees.' + +Two or three steps in the wood, at the mossed roots of a beech, he fell +kneeling, muttering, exclaiming. + +The tempest of penitence closed with a blind look at his watch, which he +left dangling. He had to talk to drug his thoughts. + +'And mind you,' said he, when he had rejoined Dacier and was pushing his +arm again, rounding beneath the trees to a view of the house, 'for a man +steeped in damnable iniquity! She bears it all for me, because I begged +her, for the chance of her living. It's my doing--this knife! +Macpherson swears there is a chance. Thomson backs him. But they're at +her, cutting! . . . The pain must be awful--the mere pain! The +gentlest creature ever drew breath! And women fear blood--and her own! +And a head! She ought to have married the best man alive, not a--! I +can't remember her once complaining of me--not once. A common donkey +compared to her! All I can do is to pray. And she knows the beast I am, +and has forgiven me. There isn't a blessed text of Scripture that +doesn't cry out in praise of her. And they cut and hack . . . !' He +dropped his head. The vehement big man heaved, shuddering. His lips +worked fast. + +'She is not alone with them, unsupported?' said Dacier. + +Sir Lukin moaned for relief. He caught his watch swinging and stared at +it. 'What a good fellow you were to come! Now 's the time to know your +friends. There's Diana Warwick, true as steel. Redworth came on her +tiptoe for the Continent; he had only to mention . . . Emmy wanted +to spare her. She would not have sent--wanted to spare her the sight. +I offered to stand by . . . Chased me out. Diana Warwick's there:-- +worth fifty of me! Dacier, I've had my sword-blade tried by Indian +horsemen, and I know what true as steel means. She's there. And I know +she shrinks from the sight of blood. My oath on it, she won't quiver a +muscle! Next to my wife, you may take my word for it, Dacier, Diana +Warwick is the pick of living women. I could prove it. They go +together. I could prove it over and over. She 's the loyallest woman +anywhere. Her one error was that marriage of hers, and how she ever +pitched herself into it, none of us can guess.' After a while, he said: +'Look at your watch.' + +'Nearly twenty minutes gone.' + +'Are they afraid to send out word? It's that window !' He covered his +eyes, and muttered, sighed. He became abruptly composed in appearance. +'The worst of a black sheep like me is, I'm such an infernal sinner, that +Providence! . . . But both surgeons gave me their word of honour that +there was a chance. A chance! But it's the end of me if Emmy . . . . +Good God! no! the knife's enough; don't let her be killed! It would be +murder. Here am I talking! I ought to be praying. I should have sent +for the parson to help me; I can't get the proper words--bellow like a +rascal trooper strung up for the cat. It must be twenty-five minutes +now. Who's alive now!' + +Dacier thought of the Persian Queen crying for news of the slaughtered, +with her mind on her lord and husband: 'Who is not dead?' Diana exalted +poets, and here was an example of the truth of one to nature, and of the +poor husband's depth of feeling. They said not the same thing, but it +was the same cry de profundis. + +He saw Redworth coming at a quick pace. + +Redworth raised his hand. Sir Lukin stopped. 'He's waving!' + +'It's good,' said Dacier. + +'Speak! are you sure?' + +'I judge by the look.' + +Redworth stepped unfalteringly. + +'It's over, all well,' he said. He brushed his forehead and looked +sharply cheerful. + +'My dear fellow! my dear fellow!' Sir Lukin grasped his hand. 'It's more +than I deserve. Over? She has borne it! She would have gone to heaven +and left me! + +Is she safe?' + +'Doing well.' + +'Have you seen the surgeons?' + +'Mrs. Warwick.' + +'What did she say?' + +'A nod of the head.' + +'You saw her?' + +'She came to the stairs.' + +'Diana Warwick never lies. She wouldn't lie, not with a nod! They've +saved Emmy--do you think?' + +'It looks well.' + +My girl has passed the worst of it?' + +'That's over.' + +Sir Lukin gazed glassily. The necessity of his agony was to lean to the +belief, at a beckoning, that Providence pardoned him, in tenderness for +what would have been his loss. He realized it, and experienced a sudden +calm: testifying to the positive pardon. + +'Now, look here, you two fellows, listen half a moment,' he addressed +Redworth and Dacier; 'I've been the biggest scoundrel of a husband +unhung, and married to a saint; and if she's only saved to me; I'll swear +to serve her faithfully, or may a thunderbolt knock me to perdition! +and thank God for his justice! Prayers are answered, mind you, though +a fellow may be as black as a sweep. Take a warning from me. I've had +my lesson.' + +Dacier soon after talked of going. The hope of seeing Diana had +abandoned him, the desire was almost extinct. + +Sir Lukin could not let him go. He yearned to preach to him or any one +from his personal text of the sinner honourably remorseful on account of +and notwithstanding the forgiveness of Providence, and he implored Dacier +and Redworth by turns to be careful when they married of how they behaved +to--the sainted women their wives; never to lend ear to the devil, nor to +believe, as he had done, that there is no such thing as a devil, for he +had been the victim of him, and he knew. The devil, he loudly +proclaimed, has a multiplicity of lures, and none more deadly than when +he baits with a petticoat. He had been hooked, and had found the devil +in person. He begged them urgently to keep his example in memory. By +following this and that wildfire he had stuck himself in a bog--a common +result with those who would not see the devil at work upon them; and it +required his dear suffering saint to be at death's doors, cut to pieces +and gasping, to open his eyes. But, thank heaven, they were opened at +last! Now he saw the beast he was: a filthy beast! unworthy of tying +his wife's shoestring. No confessions could expose to them the beast he +was. But let them not fancy there was no such thing as an active DEVIL +about the world. + +Redworth divined that the simply sensational man abased himself before +Providence and heaped his gratitude on the awful Power in order to render +it difficult for the promise of the safety of his wife to be withdrawn. + +He said: 'There is good hope'; and drew an admonition upon himself. + +'Ah! my dear good Redworth,' Sir Lukin sighed from his elevation of +outspoken penitence: 'you will see as I do some day. It is the devil, +think as you like of it. When you have pulled down all the Institutions +of the Country, what do you expect but ruins? That Radicalism of yours +has its day. You have to go through a wrestle like mine to understand +it. You say, the day is fine, let's have our game. Old England pays for +it! Then you'll find how you love the old land of your birth--the +noblest ever called a nation!--with your Corn Law Repeals!--eh, Dacier? +--You 'll own it was the devil tempted you. I hear you apologizing. +Pray God, it mayn't be too late!' + +He looked up at the windows. 'She may be sinking!' + +'Have no fears,' Redworth said; 'Mrs. Warwick would send for you.' + +'She would. Diana Warwick would be sure to send. Next to my wife, Diana +Warwick's . . . she'd send, never fear. I dread that room. I'd +rather go through a regiment of sabres--though it 's over now. And Diana +Warwick stood it. The worst is over, you told me. By heaven! women are +wonderful creatures. But she hasn't a peer for courage. I could trust +her--most extraordinary thing; that marriage of hers!--not a soul has +ever been able to explain it:--trust her to the death.' + +Redworth left them, and Sir Lukin ejaculated on the merits of Diana +Warwick to Dacier. He laughed scornfully: 'And that's the woman the +world attacks for want of virtue! Why, a fellow hasn't a chance with +her, not a chance. She comes out in blazing armour if you unmask a +battery. I don't know how it might be if she were in love with a fellow. +I doubt her thinking men worth the trouble. I never met the man. But if +she were to take fire, Troy 'd be nothing to it. I wonder whether we +might go in: I dread the house.' + +Dacier spoke of departing. + +'No, no, wait,' Sir Lukin begged him. 'I was talking about women. They +are the devil--or he makes most use of them: and you must learn to see +the cloven foot under their petticoats, if you're to escape them. +There's no protection in being in love with your wife; I married for +love; I am, I always have been, in love with her; and I went to the +deuce. The music struck up and away I waltzed. A woman like Diana +Warwick might keep a fellow straight, because she,'s all round you; she's +man and woman in brains; and legged like a deer, and breasted like a +swan, and a regular sheaf of arrows--in her eyes. Dark women--ah! +But she has a contempt for us, you know. That's the secret of her.-- +Redworth 's at the door. Bad? Is it bad? I never was particularly fond +of that house--hated it. I love it now for Emmy's sake. I couldn't live +in another--though I should be haunted. Rather her ghost than nothing-- +though I'm an infernal coward about the next world. But if you're right +with religion you needn't fear. What I can't comprehend in Redworth is +his Radicalism, and getting richer and richer.' + +'It's not a vow of poverty,' said Dacier. + +'He'll find they don't coalesce, or his children will. Once the masses +are uppermost! It's a bad day, Dacier, when we 've no more gentlemen in +the land. Emmy backs him, so I hold my tongue. To-morrow's a Sunday. +I wish you were staying here; I 'd take you to church with me-we shirk +it when we haven't a care. It couldn't do you harm. I've heard capital +sermons. I've always had the good habit of going to church, Dacier. +Now 's the time for remembering them. Ah, my dear fellow, I 'm not a +parson. It would have been better for me if I had been.' + +And for you too! his look added plainly. He longed to preach; he was +impelled to chatter. + +Redworth reported the patient perfectly quiet, breathing calmly. + +'Laudanum?' asked Sir Lukin. 'Now there's a poison we've got to bless! +And we set up in our wisdom for knowing what is good for us!' + +He had talked his hearers into a stupefied assent to anything he uttered. + +'Mrs. Warwick would like to see you in two or three minutes; she will +come down,' Redworth said to Dacier. + +'That looks well, eh? That looks bravely,' Sir Lukin cried. 'Diana, +Warwick wouldn't leave the room without a certainty. I dread the look of +those men; I shall have to shake their hands! And so I do, with all my +heart: only--But God bless them! But we must go in, if she's coming +down.' + +They entered the house, and sat in the drawing-room, where Sir Lukin took +up from the table one of his wife's Latin books, a Persius, bearing her +marginal notes. He dropped his head on it, with sobs. + +The voice of Diana recalled him to the present. She counselled him to +control himself; in that case he might for one moment go to the chamber- +door and assure himself by the silence that his wife was resting. She +brought permission from the surgeons and doctor, on his promise to be +still. + +Redworth supported Sir Lukin tottering out. + +Dacier had risen. He was petrified by Diana's face, and thought of her +as whirled from him in a storm, bearing the marks of it. Her underlip +hung for short breaths; the big drops of her recent anguish still +gathered on her brows; her eyes were tearless, lustreless; she looked +ancient in youth, and distant by a century, like a tall woman of the +vaults, issuing white-ringed, not of our light. + +She shut her mouth for strength to speak to him. + +He said: 'You are not ill? You are strong?' + +'I? Oh, strong. I will sit. I cannot be absent longer than two +minutes. The trial of her strength is to come. If it were courage, +we might be sure. The day is fine?' + +'A perfect August day.' + +'I held her through it. I am thankful to heaven it was no other hand +than mine. She wished to spare me. She was glad of her Tony when the +time came. I thought I was a coward--I could have changed with her to +save her; I am a strong woman, fit to submit to that work. I should not +have borne it as she did. She expected to sink under it. All her +dispositions were made for death-bequests to servants and to . . . to +friends: every secret liking they had, thought of!' + +Diana clenched her hands. + +'I hope!' Dacier said. + +'You shall hear regularly. Call at Sir William's house to-morrow. He +sleeps here to-night. The suspense must last for days. It is a question +of vital power to bear the shock. She has a mind so like a flying spirit +that, just before the moment, she made Mr. Lanyan Thomson smile by +quoting some saying of her Tony's.' + +'Try by-and-by to recollect it,' said Dacier. + +'And you were with that poor man! How did he pass the terrible time? I +pitied him.' + +'He suffered; he prayed.' + +'It was the best he could do. Mr. Redworth was as he always is at the +trial, a pillar. Happy the friend who knows him for one! He never +thinks of himself in a crisis. He is sheer strength to comfort and aid. +They will drive you to the station with Mr. Thomson. He returns to +relieve Sir William to-morrow. I have learnt to admire the men of the +knife! No profession equals theirs in self-command and beneficence. +Dr. Bridgenorth is permanent here.' + +'I have a fly, and go back immediately,' said Dacier. + +'She shall hear of your coming. Adieu.' + +Diana gave him her hand. It was gently pressed. + +A wonderment at the utter change of circumstances took Dacier passingly +at the sight of her vanishing figure. + +He left the house, feeling he dared have no personal wishes. It had +ceased to be the lover's hypocrisy with him. + +The crisis of mortal peril in that house enveloped its inmates, and so +wrought in him as to enshroud the stripped outcrying husband, of whom he +had no clear recollection, save of the man's agony. The two women, +striving against death, devoted in friendship, were the sole living +images he brought away; they were a new vision of the world and our life. + +He hoped with Diana, bled with her. She rose above him high, beyond his +transient human claims. He envied Redworth the common friendly right to +be near her. In reflection, long after, her simplicity of speech, washed +pure of the blood-emotions, for token of her great nature, during those +two minutes of their sitting together, was, dearer, sweeter to the lover +than if she had shown by touch or word that a faint allusion to their +severance was in her mind; and this despite a certain vacancy it created. + +He received formal information of Lady Dunstane's progress to +convalescence. By degrees the simply official tone of Diana's letters +combined with the ceasing of them and the absence of her personal charm +to make a gentleman not remarkable for violence in the passion so calmly +reasonable as to think the dangerous presence best avoided for a time. +Subject to fits of the passion, he certainly was, but his position in the +world was a counselling spouse, jealous of his good name. He did not +regret his proposal to take the leap; he would not have regretted it if +taken. On the safe side of the abyss, however, it wore a gruesome look +to his cool blood. + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +Beautiful women in her position provoke an intemperateness +Capricious potentate whom they worship +Circumstances may combine to make a whisper as deadly as a blow +Compared the governing of the Irish to the management of a horse +Could have designed this gabbler for the mate +Debit was eloquent, he was unanswerable +Explaining of things to a dull head +Happy in privation and suffering if simply we can accept beauty +He gained much by claiming little +Her peculiar tenacity of the sense of injury +His ridiculous equanimity +Keep passion sober, a trotter in harness +Moral indignation is ever consolatory +Omnipotence, which is in the image of themselves +Strain to see in the utter dark, and nothing can come of that +Tendency to polysyllabic phraseology +The blindness of Fortune is her one merit +They have no sensitiveness, we have too much +Top and bottom sin is cowardice +Touch him with my hand, before he passed from our sight +We must fawn in society +We never see peace but in the features of the dead + + + + +[The End] + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 4467 *** diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6312041 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This eBook, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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IN WHICH A DISAPPOINTED LOVER RECEIVES A MULTITUDE OF LESSONS + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +THE AUTHORESS + +The effect of a great success upon Diana, at her second literary venture, +was shown in the transparent sedateness of a letter she wrote to Emma +Dunstane, as much as in her immediate and complacent acceptance of the +magical change of her fortunes. She spoke one thing and acted another, +but did both with a lofty calm that deceived the admiring friend who +clearly saw the authoress behind her mask, and feared lest she should be +too confidently trusting to the powers of her pen to support an +establishment. + +'If the public were a perfect instrument to strike on, I should be +tempted to take the wonderful success of my PRINCESS at her first +appearance for a proof of natural aptitude in composition, and might +think myself the genius. I know it to be as little a Stradivarius as I +am a Paganini. It is an eccentric machine, in tune with me for the +moment, because I happen to have hit it in the ringing spot. The book is +a new face appealing to a mirror of the common surface emotions; and the +kitchen rather than the dairy offers an analogy for the real value of +that "top-skim." I have not seen what I consider good in the book once +mentioned among the laudatory notices--except by your dear hand, my Emmy. +Be sure I will stand on guard against the "vaporous generalizations," and +other "tricks" you fear. Now that you are studying Latin for an +occupation--how good and wise it was of Mr. Redworth to propose it!-- +I look upon you with awe as a classic authority and critic. I wish I had +leisure to study with you. What I do is nothing like so solid and +durable. + +'THE PRINCESS EGERIA' originally (I must have written word of it to you-- +I remember the evening off Palermo!) was conceived as a sketch; by +gradations she grew into a sort of semi-Scudery romance, and swelled to +her present portliness. That was done by a great deal of piecing, not to +say puffing, of her frame. She would be healthier and have a chance of +living longer if she were reduced by a reversal of the processes. But +how would the judicious clippings and prickings affect our "pensive +public"? Now that I have furnished a house and have a fixed address, +under the paws of creditors, I feel I am in the wizard-circle of my +popularity and subscribe to its laws or waken to incubus and the desert. +Have I been rash? You do not pronounce. If I have bound myself to pipe +as others please, it need not be entirely; and I can promise you it shall +not be; but still I am sensible when I lift my "little quill" of having +forced the note of a woodland wren into the popular nightingale's--which +may end in the daw's, from straining; or worse, a toy-whistle. + +'That is, in the field of literature. Otherwise, within me deep, +I am not aware of any transmutation of the celestial into coined gold. +I sound myself, and ring clear. Incessant writing is my refuge, my +solace--escape out of the personal net. I delight in it, as in my early +morning walks at Lugano, when I went threading the streets and by the +lake away to "the heavenly mount," like a dim idea worming upward in a +sleepy head to bright wakefulness. + +'My anonymous critic, of whom I told you, is intoxicating with eulogy. +The signature "Apollonius" appears to be of literary-middle indication. +He marks passages approved by you. I have also had a complimentary +letter from Mr. Dacier: + +'For an instance of this delight I have in writing, so strong is it that +I can read pages I have written, and tear the stuff to strips (I did +yesterday), and resume, as if nothing had happened. The waves within are +ready for any displacement. That must be a good sign. I do not doubt of +excelling my PRINCESS; and if she received compliments, the next may hope +for more. Consider, too, the novel pleasure of earning money by the +labour we delight in. It is an answer to your question whether I am +happy. Yes, as the savage islander before the ship entered the bay with +the fire-water. My blood is wine, and I have the slumbers of an infant. +I dream, wake, forget my dream, barely dress before the pen is galloping; +barely breakfast; no toilette till noon. A savage in good sooth! You +see, my Emmy, I could not house with the "companionable person" you hint +at. The poles can never come together till the earth is crushed. She +would find my habits intolerable, and I hers contemptible, though we +might both be companionable persons. My dear, I could not even live with +myself. My blessed little quill, which helps me divinely to live out of +myself, is and must continue to be my one companion. It is my mountain +height, morning light, wings, cup from the springs, my horse, my goal, +my lancet and replenisher, my key of communication with the highest, +grandest, holiest between earth and heaven-the vital air connecting them. + +'In justice let me add that I have not been troubled by hearing of any of +the mysterious legal claims, et caetera. I am sorry to hear bad reports +of health. I wish him entire felicity--no step taken to bridge division! +The thought of it makes me tigrish. + +'A new pianist playing his own pieces (at Lady Singleby's concert) has +given me exquisite pleasure' and set me composing songs--not to his +music, which could be rendered only by sylphs moving to "soft recorders" +in the humour of wildness, languor, bewitching caprices, giving a new +sense to melody. How I wish you had been with me to hear him! It was +the most AEolian thing ever caught from a night-breeze by the soul of a +poet. + +'But do not suppose me having headlong tendencies to the melting mood. +(The above, by the way, is a Pole settled in Paris, and he is to be +introduced to me at Lady Pennon's.)--What do you say to my being invited +by Mr. Whitmonby to aid him in writing leading articles for the paper he +is going to conduct! "write as you talk and it will do," he says. I am +choosing my themes. To write--of politics--as I talk, seems to me like +an effort to jump away from my shadow. The black dog of consciousness +declines to be shaken off. If some one commanded me to talk as I write! +I suspect it would be a way of winding me up to a sharp critical pitch +rapidly. + +'Not good news of Lord D. I have had messages. Mr. Dacier conceals his +alarm. The PRINCESS gave great gratification. She did me her best +service there. Is it not cruel that the interdict of the censor should +force me to depend for information upon such scraps as I get from a +gentleman passing my habitation on his way to the House? And he is not, +he never has been, sympathetic in that direction. He sees my grief, and +assumes an undertakerly air, with some notion of acting in concert, one +supposes little imagining how I revolt from that crape-hatband formalism +of sorrow! + +'One word of her we call our inner I. I am not drawing upon her +resources for my daily needs; not wasting her at all, I trust; certainly +not walling her up, to deafen her voice. It would be to fall away from +you. She bids me sign myself, my beloved, ever, ever your Tony.' + +The letter had every outward show of sincereness in expression, and was +endowed to wear that appearance by the writer's impulse to protest with +so resolute a vigour as to delude herself. Lady Dunstane heard of Mr. +Dacier's novel attendance at concerts. The world made a note of it; +for the gentleman was notoriously without ear for music. + +Diana's comparison of her hours of incessant writing to her walks under +the dawn at Lugano, her boast of the similarity of her delight in both, +deluded her uncorrupted conscience to believe that she was now +spiritually as free: as in that fair season of the new spring in her +veins. She, was not an investigating physician, nor was Lady Dunstane, +otherwise they would have examined the material points of her conduct-- +indicators of the spiritual secret always. What are the patient's acts? +The patient's, mind was projected too far beyond them to see the fore +finger they stretched at her; and the friend's was not that of a prying +doctor on the look out for betraying symptoms. Lady Dunstane did ask +herself why Tony should have incurred the burden of a costly household-- +a very costly: Sir Lukin had been at one of Tony's little' dinners: but +her wish to meet the world on equal terms, after a long dependency, +accounted for it in seeming to excuse. The guests on the occasion were +Lady Pennon. Lady Singleby, Mr. Whitmonby, Mr. Percy Dacier, Mr. Tonans; +--'Some other woman,' Sir Lukin said, and himself. He reported the +cookery as matching the: conversation, and that was princely; the wines +not less--an extraordinary fact to note of a woman. But to hear +Whitmonby and Diana Warwick! How he told a story, neat as a postman's +knock, and she tipped it with a remark and ran to a second, drawing in +Lady Pennon, and then Dacier, 'and me!' cried Sir Lukin; 'she made us all +toss the ball from hand to hand, and all talk up to the mark; and none of +us noticed that we all went together to the drawing-room, where we talked +for another hour, and broke up fresher than we began.' + +'That break between the men and the women after dinner was Tony's +aversion, and I am glad she has instituted a change,' said Lady Dunstane. + +She heard also from Redworth of the unexampled concert of the guests at +Mrs. Warwick's dinner parties. He had met on one occasion the Esquarts, +the Pettigrews, Mr. Percy Dacier, and a Miss Paynham. Redworth had not +a word to say of the expensive household. Whatever Mrs. Warwick did was +evidently good to him. On another evening the party was composed of Lady +Pennon, Lord Larrian, Miss Paynham, a clever Mrs. Wollasley, Mr. Henry +Wilmers, and again Mr. Percy Dacier. + +When Diana came to Copsley, Lady Dunstane remarked on the recurrence of +the name of Miss Paynham in the list of her guests. + +'And Mr. Percy Dacier's too,' said Diana, smiling. 'They are invited +each for specific reasons. It pleases Lord Dannisburgh to hear that a +way has been found to enliven his nephew; and my little dinners are +effective, I think. He wakes. Yesterday evening he capped flying jests +with Mr. Sullivan Smith. But you speak of Miss. Paynham.' Diana +lowered her voice on half a dozen syllables, till the half-tones dropped +into her steady look. 'You approve, Emmy?' + +The answer was: 'I do--true or not.' + +'Between us two, dear, I fear! . . . In either case, she has been +badly used. Society is big engine enough to protect itself. I incline +with British juries to do rough justice to the victims. She has neither +father nor brother. I have had no confidences: but it wears the look of a +cowardly business. With two words in his ear, I could arm an Irishman to +do some work of chastisement: he would select the rascal's necktie for a +cause of quarrel and lords have to stand their ground as well as +commoners. They measure the same number of feet when stretched their +length. However, vengeance with the heavens! though they seem tardy. +Lady Pennon has been very kind about it; and the Esquarts invite her to +Lockton. Shoulder to shoulder, the tide may be stemmed.' + +'She would have gone under, but for you, dear Tony!' said Emma' folding +arms round her darling's neck anal kissing her. 'Bring her here some +day.' + +Diana did not promise it. She had her vision of Sir Lukin in his fit of +lunacy. + +'I am too weak for London now,' Emma resumed. 'I should like to be +useful. Is she pleasant?' + +'Sprightly by nature. She has worn herself with fretting.' + +'Then bring her to stay with me, if I cannot keep you. She will talk of +you to me.' + +'I will bring her for a couple of days,' Diana said. 'I am too busy to +remain longer. She paints portraits to amuse herself. She ought to be +pushed, wherever she is received about London, while the season is warm. +One season will suffice to establish her. She is pretty, near upon six +and twenty: foolish, of course:--she pays for having had a romantic head. +Heavy payment, Emmy! I drive at laws, but hers is an instance of the +creatures wanting simple human kindness.' + +'The good law will come with a better civilization; but before society +can be civilized it has to be debarbarized,' Emma remarked, and Diana +sighed over the task and the truism. + +I should have said in younger days, because it will not look plainly on +our nature and try to reconcile it with our conditions. But now I see +that the sin is cowardice. The more I know of the world the more clearly +I perceive that its top and bottom sin is cowardice, physically and +morally alike. Lord Larrian owns to there being few heroes in an army. +We must fawn in society. What is the meaning of that dread of one +example of tolerance? O my dear! let us give it the right name. +Society is the best thing we have, but it is a crazy vessel worked by a +crew that formerly practised piracy, and now, in expiation, professes +piety, fearful of a discovered Omnipotence, which is in the image of +themselves and captain. Their old habits are not quite abandoned, and +their new one is used as a lash to whip the exposed of us for a +propitiation of the capricious potentate whom they worship in the place +of the true God.' + +Lady Dunstane sniffed. 'I smell the leading article.' + +Diana joined with her smile, 'No, the style is rather different.' + +'Have you not got into a trick of composing in speaking, at times?' + +Diana confessed, 'I think I have at times. Perhaps the daily writing of +all kinds and the nightly talking . . . I may be getting strained.' + +'No, Tony; but longer visits in the country to me would refresh you. +I miss your lighter touches. London is a school, but, you know it, +not a school for comedy nor for philosophy; that is gathered on my hills, +with London distantly in view, and then occasional descents on it well +digested.' + +'I wonder whether it is affecting me !' said Diana, musing. +'A metropolitan hack! and while thinking myself free, thrice harnessed; +and all my fun gone. Am I really as dull as a tract, my dear? I must +be, or I should be proving the contrary instead of asking. My pitfall is +to fancy I have powers equal to the first look-out of the eyes of the. +morning. Enough of me. We talked of Mary Paynham. If only some right +good man would marry her!' + +Lady Dunstane guessed at the right good man in Diana's mind. 'Do you +bring them together?' + +Diana nodded, and then shook doleful negatives to signify no hope. + +'None whatever--if we mean the same person,' said Lady Dunstane, +bethinking her, in the spirit of wrath she felt at such a scheme being +planned by Diana to snare the right good man, that instead of her own +true lover Redworth, it might be only Percy Dacier. So filmy of mere +sensations are these little ideas as they flit in converse, that she did +not reflect on her friend's ignorance of Redworth's love of her, or on +the unlikely choice of one in Dacier's high station to reinstate a +damsel. + +They did not name the person. + +'Passing the instance, which is cruel, I will be just to society thus +far,' said Diana. 'I was in a boat at Richmond last week, and Leander +was revelling along the mud-banks, and took it into his head to swim out +to me, and I was moved to take him on board. The ladies in the boat +objected, for he was not only wet but very muddy. I was forced to own +that their objections were reasonable. My sentimental humaneness had no +argument against muslin dresses, though my dear dog's eyes appealed +pathetically, and he would keep swimming after us. The analogy excuses +the world for protecting itself in extreme cases; nothing, nothing +excuses its insensibility to cases which may be pleaded. You see the +pirate crew turned pious-ferocious in sanctity.' She added, half +laughing: 'I am reminded by the boat, I have unveiled my anonymous +critic, and had a woeful disappointment. He wrote like a veteran; he is +not much more than a boy. I received a volume of verse, and a few lines +begging my acceptance. I fancied I knew the writing, and wrote asking +him whether I had not to thank him, and inviting him to call. He seems +a nice lad of about two and twenty, mad for literature; and he must have +talent. Arthur Rhodes by name. I may have a chance of helping him. +He was an articled clerk of Mr. Braddock's, the same who valiantly came +to my rescue once. He was with us in the boat.' + +'Bring him to me some day,' said Lady Dunstane. + +Miss Paynham's visit to Copsley was arranged, and it turned out a +failure. The poor young lady came in a flutter, thinking that the friend +of Mrs. Warwick would expect her to discourse cleverly. She attempted +it, to Diana's amazement. Lady Dunstane's opposingly corresponding +stillness provoked Miss Paynham to expatiate, for she had sprightliness +and some mental reserves of the common order. Clearly, Lady Dunstane +mused while listening amiably, Tony never could have designed this +gabbler for the mate of Thomas Redworth! + +Percy Dacier seemed to her the more likely one, in that light, and she +thought so still, after Sir Lukin had introduced him at Copsley for a +couple of days of the hunting season. Tony's manner with him suggested +it; she had a dash of leadership. They were not intimate in look or +tongue. + +But Percy Dacier also was too good for Miss Paynham, if that was Tony's +plan for him, Lady Dunstane thought, with the relentlessness of an +invalid and recluse's distaste. An aspect of penitence she had not +demanded, but the silly gabbier under a stigma she could not pardon. + +Her opinion of Miss Paynham was diffused in her silence. + +Speaking of Mr. Dacier, she remarked, 'As you say of him, Tony, he can +brighten, and when you give him a chance he is entertaining. He has fine +gifts. If I were a member of his family I should beat about for a match +for him. He strikes me as one of the young men who would do better +married.' + +'He is doing very well, but the wonder is that he doesn't marry,' +said Diana. 'He ought to be engaged. Lady Esquart told me that he was. +A Miss Asper--great heiress; and the Daciers want money. However, there +it is.' + +Not many weeks later Diana could not have spoken of Mr. Percy Dacier with +this air of indifference without corruption of her inward guide. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +A DRIVE IN SUNLIGHT AND A DRIVE IN MOONLIGHT + +The fatal time to come for her was in the Summer of that year. + +Emma had written her a letter of unwonted bright spirits, contrasting +strangely with an inexplicable oppression of her own that led her to +imagine her recent placid life the pause before thunder, and to sharp the +mood of her solitary friend she flew to Copsley, finding Sir Lukin +absent, as usual. They drove out immediately after breakfast, on one of +those high mornings of the bared bosom of June when distances are given +to our eyes, and a soft air fondles leaf and grass-blade, and beauty and +peace are overhead, reflected, if we will. Rain had fallen in the night. +Here and there hung a milk-white cloud with folded sail. The South-west +left it in its bay of blue, and breathed below. At moments the fresh +scent of herb and mould swung richly in warmth. The young beech-leaves +glittered, pools of rain-water made the roadways laugh, the grass-banks +under hedges rolled their interwoven weeds in cascades of many-shaded +green to right and left of the pair of dappled ponies, and a squirrel +crossed ahead, a lark went up a little way to ease his heart, closing his +wings when the burst was over, startled black-birds, darting with a +clamour like a broken cockcrow, looped the wayside woods from hazel to +oak-scrub; short flights, quick spirts everywhere, steady sunshine above. + +Diana held the reins. The whip was an ornament, as the plume of feathers +to the general officer. Lady Dunstane's ponies were a present from +Redworth, who always chose the pick of the land for his gifts. They +joyed in their trot, and were the very love-birds of the breed for their +pleasure of going together, so like that Diana called them the Dromios. +Through an old gravel-cutting a gateway led to the turf of the down, +springy turf bordered on a long line, clear as a racecourse, by golden +gorse covers, and leftward over the gorse the dark ridge of the fir and +heath country ran companionably to the Southwest, the valley between, +with undulations of wood and meadow sunned or shaded, clumps, mounds, +promontories, away to broad spaces of tillage banked by wooded hills, and +dimmer beyond and farther, the faintest shadowiness of heights, as a veil +to the illimitable. Yews, junipers, radiant beeches, and gleams of the +service-tree or the white-beam spotted the semicircle of swelling green +Down black and silver. The sun in the valley sharpened his beams on +squares of buttercups, and made a pond a diamond. + +'You see, Tony,' Emma said, for a comment on the scene, 'I could envy +Italy for having you, more than you for being in Italy.' + +'Feature and colour!' said Diana. 'You have them here, and on a scale +that one can embrace. I should like to build a hut on this point, and +wait for such a day to return. It brings me to life.' She lifted her +eyelids on her friend's worn sweet face, and knowing her this friend up +to death, past it in her hopes, she said bravely, 'It is the Emma of days +and scenes to me! It helps me to forget myself, as I do when I think of +you, dearest; but the subject has latterly been haunting me, I don't know +why, and ominously, as if my nature were about to horrify my soul. But I +am not sentimentalizing, you are really this day and scene in my heart.' + +Emma smiled confidingly. She spoke her reflection: 'The heart must be +troubled a little to have the thought. The flower I gather here tells me +that we may be happy in privation and suffering if simply we can accept +beauty. I won't say expel the passions, but keep passion sober, a +trotter in harness.' + +Diana caressed the ponies' heads with the droop of her whip: 'I don't +think I know him!' she said. + +Between sincerity and a suspicion so cloaked and dull that she did not +feel it to be the opposite of candour, she fancied she was passionless +because she could accept the visible beauty, which was Emma's +prescription and test; and she forced herself to make much of it, cling +to it, devour it; with envy of Emma's contemplative happiness, through +whose grave mind she tried to get to the peace in it, imagining that she +succeeded. The cloaked and dull suspicion weighed within her +nevertheless. She took it for a mania to speculate on herself. There +are states of the crimson blood when the keenest wits are childish, +notably in great-hearted women aiming at the majesty of their sex and +fearful of confounding it by the look direct and the downright word. +Yet her nature compelled her inwardly to phrase the sentence: 'Emma is +a wife!' The character of her husband was not considered, nor was the +meaning of the exclamation pursued. + +They drove through the gorse into wild land of heath and flowering +hawthorn, and along by tracts of yew and juniper to another point, +jutting on a furzy sand-mound, rich with the mild splendour of English +scenery, which Emma stamped on her friend's mind by saying: 'A cripple +has little to envy in you who can fly when she has feasts like these at +her doors.' + +They had an inclination to boast on the drive home of the solitude they +had enjoyed; and just then, as the road in the wood wound under great +beeches, they beheld a London hat. The hat was plucked from its head. +A clear-faced youth, rather flushed, dusty at the legs, addressed Diana. + +'Mr. Rhodes!' she said, not discouragingly. + +She was petitioned to excuse him; he thought she would wish to hear the +news in town last night as early as possible; he hesitated and murmured +it. + +Diana turned to Emma: 'Lord Dannisburgh!' her paleness told the rest. + +Hearing from Mr. Rhodes that he had walked the distance from town, +and had been to Copsley, Lady Dunstane invited him to follow the pony- +carriage thither, where he was fed and refreshed by a tea-breakfast, +as he preferred walking on tea, he said. 'I took the liberty to call +at Mrs. Warwick's house,' he informed her; 'the footman said she was +at Copsley. I found it on the map--I knew the directions--and started +about two in the morning. I wanted a walk.' + +It was evident to her that he was one of the young squires bewitched whom +beautiful women are constantly enlisting. There was no concealment of +it, though he stirred a sad enviousness in the invalid lady by descanting +on the raptures of a walk out of London in the youngest light of day, and +on the common objects he had noticed along the roadside, and through the +woods, more sustaining, closer with nature than her compulsory feeding on +the cream of things. + +'You are not fatigued?' she inquired, hoping for that confession at +least; but she pardoned his boyish vaunting to walk the distance back +without any fatigue at all. + +He had a sweeter reward for his pains; and if the business of the +chronicler allowed him to become attached to pure throbbing felicity +wherever it is encountered, he might be diverted by the blissful +unexpectedness of good fortune befalling Mr. Arthur Rhodes in having +the honour to conduct Mrs. Warwick to town. No imagined happiness, +even in the heart of a young man of two and twenty, could have matched +it. He was by her side, hearing and seeing her, not less than four +hours. To add to his happiness, Lady Dunstane said she would be glad to +welcome him again. She thought him a pleasant specimen of the self-vowed +squire. + +Diana was sure that there would be a communication for her of some sort +at her house in London; perhaps a message of farewell from the dying +lord, now dead. Mr. Rhodes had only the news of the evening journals, +to the effect that Lord Dannisburgh had expired at his residence, the +Priory, Hallowmere, in Hampshire. A message of farewell from him, she +hoped for: knowing him as she did, it seemed a certainty; and she +hungered for that last gleam of life in her friend. She had no +anticipation of the burden of the message awaiting her. + +A consultation as to the despatching of the message, had taken place +among the members of Lord Dannisburgh's family present at his death. +Percy Dacier was one of them, and he settled the disputed point, after +some time had been spent in persuading his father to take the plain view +of obligation in the matter, and in opposing the dowager countess, his +grandmother, by stating that he had already sent a special messenger to +London. Lord Dannisburgh on his death-bed had expressed a wish that Mrs. +Warwick would sit with him for an hour one night before the nails were +knocked in his coffin. He spoke of it twice, putting it the second time +to Percy as a formal request to be made to her, and Percy had promised +him that Mrs. Warwick should have the message. He had done his best to +keep his pledge, aware of the disrelish of the whole family for the +lady's name, to say nothing of her presence. + +'She won't come,' said the earl. + +'She'll come,' said old Lady Dacier. + +'If the woman respects herself she'll hold off it,' the earl insisted +because of his desire that way. He signified in mutterings that the +thing was improper and absurd, a piece of sentiment, sickly senility, +unlike Lord Dannisburgh. Also that Percy had been guilty of excessive +folly. + +To which Lady Dacier nodded her assent, remarking, 'The woman is on her +mettle. From what I've heard of her, she's not a woman to stick at +trifles. She'll take it as a sort of ordeal by touch, and she 'll come.' + +They joined in abusing Percy, who had driven away to another part of the +country. Lord Creedmore, the heir of the house, was absent, hunting in +America, or he might temporarily have been taken into favour by contrast. +Ultimately they agreed that the woman must be allowed to enter the house, +but could not be received. The earl was a widower; his mother managed +the family, and being hard to convince, she customarily carried her +point, save when it involved Percy's freedom of action. She was one of +the veterans of her sex that age to toughness; and the 'hysterical fuss' +she apprehended in the visit of this woman to Lord Dannisburgh's death- +bed and body, did not alarm her. For the sake of the household she +determined to remain, shut up in her room. Before night the house was +empty of any members of the family excepting old Lady Dacier and the +outstretched figure on the bed. + +Dacier fled to escape the hearing of the numberless ejaculations re- +awakened in the family by his uncle's extraordinary dying request. They +were an outrage to the lady, of whom he could now speak as a privileged +champion; and the request itself had an air of proving her stainless, a +white soul and efficacious advocate at the celestial gates (reading the +mind of the dying man). So he thought at one moment: he had thought so +when charged with the message to her; had even thought it a natural wish +that she should look once on the face she would see no more, and say +farewell to it, considering that in life it could not be requested. But +the susceptibility to sentimental emotion beside a death-bed, with a +dying man's voice in the ear, requires fortification if it is to be +maintained;' and the review of his uncle's character did not tend to make +this very singular request a proof that the lady's innocence was honoured +in it. His epicurean uncle had no profound esteem for the kind of +innocence. He had always talked of Mrs. Warwick--with warm respect for +her: Dacier knew that he had bequeathed her a sum of money. The +inferences were either way. Lord Dannisburgh never spoke evilly of any +woman, and he was perhaps bound to indemnify her materially as well as he +could for what she had suffered.--On the other hand, how easy it was to +be the dupe of a woman so handsome and clever.--Unlikely too that his +uncle would consent to sit at the Platonic banquet with her.--Judging by +himself, Dacier deemed it possible for man. He was not quick to kindle, +and had lately seen much of her, had found her a Lady Egeria, helpful in +counsel, prompting, inspiriting, reviving as well-waters, and as +temperately cool: not one sign of native slipperiness. Nor did she stir +the mud in him upon which proud man is built. The shadow of the scandal +had checked a few shifty sensations rising now and then of their own +accord, and had laid them, with the lady's benign connivance. This was +good proof in her favour, seeing that she must have perceived of late the +besetting thirst he had for her company; and alone or in the medley +equally. To see her, hear, exchange ideas with her; and to talk of new +books, try to listen to music at the opera and at concerts, and admire +her playing of hostess, were novel pleasures, giving him fresh notions of +life, and strengthening rather than disturbing the course of his life's +business. + +At any rate, she was capable of friendship. Why not resolutely believe +that she had been his uncle's true and simple friend! He adopted the +resolution, thanking her for one recognized fact:--he hated marriage, and +would by this time have been in the yoke, but for the agreeable deviation +of his path to her society. Since his visit to Copsley, moreover, Lady +Dunstane's idolizing, of her friend had influenced him. Reflecting on +it, he recovered from the shock which his uncle's request had caused. + +Certain positive calculations were running side by side with the +speculations in vapour. His messenger would reach her house at about +four of the afternoon. If then at home, would she decide to start +immediately?--Would she come? That was a question he did not delay to +answer. Would she defer the visit? Death replied to that. She would +not delay it. + +She would be sure to come at once. And what of the welcome she would +meet? Leaving the station at London at six in the evening, she might +arrive at the Priory, all impediments counted, between ten and eleven at +night. Thence, coldly greeted, or not greeted, to the chamber of death. + +A pitiable and cruel reception for a woman upon such a mission! + +His mingled calculations and meditations reached that exclamatory +terminus in feeling, and settled on the picture of Diana, about as clear +as light to blinking eyes, but enough for him to realize her being there +and alone, woefully alone. The supposition of an absolute loneliness was +most possible. He had intended to drive back the next day, when the +domestic storm would be over, and take the chances of her coming. It +seemed now a piece of duty to return at night, a traverse of twenty rough +up and down miles from Itchenford to the heath-land rolling on the chalk +wave of the Surrey borders, easily done after the remonstrances of his +host were stopped. + +Dacier sat in an open carriage, facing a slip of bright moon. Poetical +impressions, emotions, any stirrings of his mind by the sensational stamp +on it, were new to him, and while he swam in them, both lulled and +pricked by his novel accessibility to nature's lyrical touch, he asked +himself whether, if he were near the throes of death, the thought of +having Diana Warwick to sit beside his vacant semblance for an hour at +night would be comforting. And why had his uncle specified an hour of +the night? It was a sentiment, like the request: curious in a man so +little sentimental. Yonder crescent running the shadowy round of the +hoop roused comparisons. Would one really wish to have her beside one +in death? In life--ah! But suppose her denied to us in life. Then the +desire for her companionship appears passingly comprehensible. Enter +into the sentiment, you see that the hour of darkness is naturally +chosen. And would even a grand old Pagan crave the presence beside his +dead body for an hour of the night of a woman he did not esteem? Dacier +answered no. The negative was not echoed in his mind. He repeated it, +and to the same deadness. + +He became aware that he had spoken for himself, and he had a fit of +sourness. For who can say he is not a fool before he has been tried by a +woman! Dacier's wretched tendency under vexation to conceive grotesque +analogies, anti-poetic, not to say cockney similes, which had slightly +chilled Diana at Rovio, set him looking at yonder crescent with the hoop, +as at the shape of a white cat climbing a wheel. Men of the northern +blood will sometimes lend their assent to poetical images, even to those +that do not stun the mind lie bludgeons and imperatively, by much +repetition, command their assent; and it is for a solid exchange and +interest in usury with soft poetical creatures when they are so +condescending; but they are seized by the grotesque. In spite of efforts +to efface or supplant it, he saw the white cat, nothing else, even to +thinking that she had jumped cleverly to catch the wheel. He was a true +descendant of practical hard-grained fighting Northerners, of gnarled +dwarf imaginations, chivalrous though they were, and heroes to have +serviceable and valiant gentlemen for issue. Without at all tracing back +to its origin his detestable image of the white cat on the dead circle, +he kicked at the links between his uncle and Diana Warwick, whatever they +had been; particularly at the present revival of them. Old Lady Dacier's +blunt speech, and his father's fixed opinion, hissed in his head. + +They were ignorant of his autumnal visit to the Italian Lakes, after the +winter's Nile-boat expedition; and also of the degree of his recent +intimacy with Mrs. Warwick; or else, as he knew, he would have heard more +hissing things. Her patronage of Miss Paynham exposed her to attacks +where she was deemed vulnerable; Lady Dacier muttered old saws as to the +flocking of birds; he did not accurately understand it, thought it +indiscreet, at best. But in regard to his experience, he could tell +himself that a woman more guileless of luring never drew breath. On the +contrary, candour said it had always been he who had schemed and pressed +for the meeting. He was at liberty to do it, not being bound in honour +elsewhere. Besides, despite his acknowledgement of her beauty, Mrs. +Warwick was not quite his ideal of the perfectly beautiful woman. + +Constance Asper came nearer to it. He had the English taste for red and +white, and for cold outlines: he secretly admired a statuesque demeanour +with a statue's eyes. The national approbation of a reserved haughtiness +in woman, a tempered disdain in her slightly lifted small upperlip and +drooped eyelids, was shared by him; and Constance Asper, if not exactly +aristocratic by birth, stood well for that aristocratic insular type, +which seems to promise the husband of it a casket of all the trusty +virtues, as well as the security of frigidity in the casket. Such was +Dacier's native taste; consequently the attractions of Diana Warwick for +him were, he thought, chiefly mental, those of a Lady Egeria. She might +or might not be good, in the vulgar sense. She was an agreeable woman, +an amusing companion, very suggestive, inciting, animating; and her past +history must be left as her own. Did it matter to him? What he saw was +bright, a silver crescent on the side of the shadowy ring. Were it a +question of marrying her!--That was out of the possibilities. He +remembered, moreover, having heard from a man, who professed to know, +that Mrs. Warwick had started in married life by treating her husband +cavalierly to an intolerable degree: 'Such as no Englishman could stand,' +the portly old informant thundered, describing it and her in racy +vernacular. She might be a devil of a wife. She was a pleasant friend; +just the soft bit sweeter than male friends which gave the flavour of sex +without the artful seductions. He required them strong to move him. + +He looked at last on the green walls of the Priory, scarcely supposing a +fair watcher to be within; for the contrasting pale colours of dawn had +ceased to quicken the brilliancy of the crescent, and summer daylight +drowned it to fainter than a silver coin in water. It lay dispieced like +a pulled rag. Eastward, over Surrey, stood the full rose of morning. +The Priory clock struck four. When the summons of the bell had gained +him admittance, and he heard that Mrs. Warwick had come in the night, +he looked back through the doorway at the rosy colour, and congratulated +himself to think that her hour of watching was at an end. A sleepy +footman was his informant. Women were in my lord's dressing-room, he +said. Upstairs, at the death-chamber, Dacier paused. No sound came to +him. He hurried to his own room, paced about, and returned. Expecting +to see no one but the dead, he turned the handle, and the two circles of +a shaded lamp, on ceiling and on table, met his gaze. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + +DIANA A NIGHT-WATCH IN THE CHAMBER OF DEATH + +He stepped into the room, and thrilled to hear the quiet voice beside the +bed: 'Who is it?' + +Apologies and excuses were on his tongue. The vibration of those grave +tones checked them. + +'It is you,' she said. + +She sat in shadow, her hands joined on her lap. An unopened book was +under the lamp. + +He spoke in an underbreath: 'I have just come. I was not sure I should +find you here. Pardon.' + +'There is a chair.' + +He murmured thanks and entered into the stillness, observing her. + +'You have been watching . . . . You must be tired.' + +'No.' + +'An hour was asked, only one.' + +'I could not leave him.' + +'Watchers are at hand to relieve you' + +'It is better for him to have me.' + +The chord of her voice told him of the gulf she had sunk in during the +night. The thought of her endurance became a burden. + +He let fall his breath for patience, and tapped the floor with his foot. + +He feared to discompose her by speaking. The silence grew more fearful, +as the very speech of Death between them. + +'You came. I thought it right to let you know instantly. I hoped you +would come to-morrow' + +'I could not delay.' + +'You have been sitting alone here since eleven!' + +'I have not found it long.' + +'You must want some refreshment . . . tea?' + +'I need nothing.' + +'It can be made ready in a few minutes.' + +'I could not eat or drink.' + +He tried to brush away the impression of the tomb in the heavily- +curtained chamber by thinking of the summer-morn outside; he spoke of it, +the rosy sky, the dewy grass, the piping birds. She listened, as one +hearing of a quitted sphere. + +Their breathing in common was just heard if either drew a deeper breath. +At moments his eyes wandered and shut. Alternately in his mind Death had +vaster meanings and doubtfuller; Life cowered under the shadow or +outshone it. He glanced from her to the figure in the bed, and she +seemed swallowed. + +He said: 'It is time for you to have rest. You know your room. I will +stay till the servants are up.' + +She replied: 'No, let this night with him be mine.' + +'I am not intruding . . .?' + +'If you wish to remain . . .' + +No traces of weeping were on her face. The lampshade revealed it +colourless, and lustreless her eyes. She was robed in black. She held +her hands clasped. + +'You have not suffered?' + +'Oh, no.' + +She said it without sighing: nor was her speech mournful, only brief. + +'You have seen death before?' + +'I sat by my father four nights. I was a girl then. I cried till I had +no more tears.' + +He felt a burning pressure behind his eyeballs. + +'Death is natural,' he said. + +'It is natural to the aged. When they die honoured . . .' + +She looked where the dead man lay. 'To sit beside the young, cut off +from their dear opening life . . . !' A little shudder swept over +her. 'Oh! that!' + +'You were very good to come. We must all thank you for fulfilling his +wish.' + +'He knew it would be my wish.' + +Her hands pressed together. + +'He lies peacefully!' + +'I have raised the lamp on him, and wondered each time. So changeless he +lies. But so like a sleep that will wake. We never see peace but in the +features of the dead. Will you look? They are beautiful. They have a +heavenly sweetness.' + +The desire to look was evidently recurrent with her. Dacier rose. + +Their eyes fell together on the dead man, as thoughtfully as Death allows +to the creatures of sensation. + +'And after?' he said in low tones. + +'I trust to my Maker,' she replied. 'Do you see a change since he +breathed his last?' + +'Not any.' + +'You were with him?' + + +'Not in the room. Two minutes later.' + +'Who . . .?' + +'My father. His niece, Lady Cathairn.' + +'If our lives are lengthened we outlive most of those we would have to +close our eyes. He had a dear sister.' + +'She died some years back.' + +'I helped to comfort him for that loss.' + +'He told me you did.' + +The lamp was replaced on the table. + +'For a moment, when I withdraw the light from him, I feel sadness. +As if the light we lend to anything were of value to him now!' + +She bowed her head deeply. Dacier left her meditation undisturbed. +The birds on the walls outside were audible, tweeting, chirping. + +He went to the window-curtains and tried the shutter-bars. It seemed to +him that daylight would be cheerfuller for her. He had a thirst to +behold her standing bathed in daylight. + +'Shall I open them?' he asked her. + +'I would rather the lamp,' she said. + +They sat silently until she drew her watch from her girdle. 'My train +starts at half-past six. It is a walk of thirty-five minutes to the +station. I did it last night in that time.' + +'You walked here in the dark alone?' + +'There was no fly to be had. The station-master sent one of his porters +with me. We had a talk on the road. I like those men.' + +Dacier read the hour by the mantelpiece clock. 'If you must really go by +the early train, I will drive you.' + +'No, I will walk; I prefer it.' + +'I will order your breakfast at once.' + +He turned on his heel. She stopped him. 'No, I have no taste for eating +or drinking.' + +'Pray . . .' said he, in visible distress. + +She shook her head. 'I could not. I have twenty minutes longer. I can +find my way to the station; it is almost a straight road out of the park- +gates.' + +His heart swelled with anger at the household for they treatment she had +been subjected to, judging by her resolve not to break bread in the +house. + +They resumed their silent sitting. The intervals for a word to pass +between them were long, and the ticking of the time-piece fronting the +death-bed ruled the chamber, scarcely varied. + +The lamp was raised for the final look, the leave-taking. + +Dacier buried his face, thinking many things--the common multitude in +insurrection. + +'A servant should be told to come now,' she said. 'I have only to put on +my bonnet and I am ready.' + +'You will take no . . . ?' + +'Nothing.' + +'It is not too late for a carriage to be ordered.' + +'No--the walk!' + +They separated. + +He roused the two women in the dressing-room, asleep with heads against +the wall. Thence he sped to his own room for hat and overcoat, and a +sprinkle of cold water. Descending the stairs, he beheld his companion +issuing from the chamber of death. Her lips were shut, her eyelids +nervously tremulous. + +They were soon in the warm sweet open air, and they walked without an +interchange of a syllable through the park into the white hawthorn lane, +glad to breathe. Her nostrils took long draughts of air, but of the +change of, scene she appeared scarcely sensible. + +At the park-gates, she said: 'There is no necessity four your coming.' + +His answer was: 'I think of myself. I gain something every step I walk +with you.' + +'To-day is Thursday,' said she. 'The funeral is . . . ?' + +'Monday has been fixed. According to his directions, he will lie in the +churchyard of his village--not in the family vault.' + +'I know,' she said hastily. 'They are privileged who follow him and see +the coffin lowered. He spoke of this quiet little resting-place.' + +'Yes, it's a good end. I do not wonder at his wish for the honour you +have done him. I could wish it too. But more living than dead--that is +a natural wish.' + +'It is not to be called an honour.' + +'I should feel it so-an honour to me.' + +'It is a friend's duty. The word is too harsh; it was his friend's +desire. He did not ask it so much as he sanctioned it. For to him what +has my sitting beside him been!' + +'He had the prospective happiness.' + +'He knew well that my soul would be with him--as it was last night. +But he knew it would be my poor human happiness to see him with my eyes, +touch him with my hand, before he passed from our sight.' + +Dacier exclaimed: 'How you can love!' + +'Is the village church to be seen?' she asked. + +'To the right of those elms; that is the spire. The black spot below is +a yew. You love with the whole heart when you love.' + +'I love my friends,' she replied. + +'You tempt me to envy those who are numbered among them.' + +'They are not many.' + +'They should be grateful.! + +'You have some acquaintance with them all.' + +'And an enemy? Had you ever one? Do you know of one?' + +'Direct and personal designedly? I think not. We give that title to +those who are disinclined to us and add a dash of darker colour to our +errors. Foxes have enemies in the dogs; heroines of melodramas have +their persecuting villains. I suppose that conditions of life exist +where one meets the original complexities. The bad are in every rank. +The inveterately malignant I have not found. Circumstances may combine +to make a whisper as deadly as a blow, though not of such evil design. +Perhaps if we lived at a Court of a magnificent despot we should learn +that we are less highly civilized than we imagine ourselves; but that is +a fire to the passions, and the extreme is not the perfect test. Our +civilization counts positive gains--unless you take the melodrama for the +truer picture of us. It is always the most popular with the English.-- +And look, what a month June is! Yesterday morning I was with Lady +Dunstane on her heights, and I feel double the age. He was fond of +this wild country. We think it a desert, a blank, whither he has gone, +because we will strain to see in the utter dark, and nothing can come of +that but the bursting of the eyeballs.' + +Dacier assented: 'There's no use in peering beyond the limits.' + +'No,' said she; 'the effect is like the explaining of things to a dull +head--the finishing stroke to the understanding! Better continue to +brood. We get to some unravelment if we are left to our own efforts. +I quarrel with no priest of any denomination. That they should quarrel +among themselves is comprehensible in their wisdom, for each has the +specific. But they show us their way of solving the great problem, and +we ought to thank them, though one or the other abominate us. You are +advised to talk with Lady Dunstane on these themes. + +She is perpetually in the antechamber of death, and her soul is +perennially sunshine.--See the pretty cottage under the laburnum curls! +Who lives there?' + +'His gamekeeper, Simon Rofe.' + +'And what a playground for the children, that bit of common by their +garden-palings! and the pond, and the blue hills over the furzes. I +hope those people will not be turned out.' + +Dacier could not tell. He promised to do his best for them. + +'But,' said she, 'you are the lord here now.' + +'Not likely to be the tenant. Incomes are wanted to support even small +estates.' + +'The reason is good for courting the income.' + +He disliked the remark; and when she said presently: + +'Those windmills make the landscape homely,' he rejoined: 'They remind +one of our wheeling London gamins round the cab from the station.' + +'They remind you,' said she, and smiled at the chance discordant trick he +had, remembering occasions when it had crossed her. + +'This is homelier than Rovio,' she said; 'quite as nice in its way.' + +'You do not gather flowers here.' + +'Because my friend has these at her feet.' + +'May one petition without a rival, then, for a souvenir?' + +'Certainly, if you care to have a common buttercup.' + +They reached the station, five minutes in advance of the train. His +coming manoeuvre was early detected, and she drew from her pocket the +little book he had seen lying unopened on the table, and said: 'I shall +have two good hours for reading.' + +'You will not object? . . . I must accompany you to town. Permit it, +I beg. You shall not be worried to talk.' + +'No; I came alone and return alone.' + +'Fasting and unprotected! Are you determined to take away the worst +impression of us? Do not refuse me this favour.' + +'As to fasting, I could not eat: and unprotected no woman is in England, +if she is a third-class traveller. That is my experience of the class; +and I shall return among my natural protectors--the most unselfishly +chivalrous to women in the whole world.' + +He had set his heart on going with her, and he attempted eloquence in +pleading, but that exposed him to her humour; he was tripped. + +'It is not denied that you belong to the knightly class,' she said; 'and +it is not necessary that you should wear armour and plumes to proclaim +it; and your appearance would be ample protection from the drunken +sailors travelling, you say, on this line; and I may be deplorably +mistaken in imagining that I could tame them. But your knightliness is +due elsewhere; and I commit myself to the fortune of war. It is a battle +for women everywhere; under the most favourable conditions among my dear +common English. I have not my maid with me, or else I should not dare.' + +She paid for a third-class ticket, amused by Dacier's look of entreaty +and trouble. + +'Of course I obey,' he murmured. + +'I have the habit of exacting it in matters concerning my independence,' +she said; and it arrested some rumbling notions in his head as to a piece +of audacity on the starting of the train. They walked up and down the +platform till the bell rang and the train came rounding beneath an arch. + +'Oh, by the way, may I ask?'--he said: 'was it your article in +Whitmonby's journal on a speech of mine last week?' + +'The guilty writer is confessed.' + +'Let me thank you.' + +'Don't. But try to believe it written on public grounds--if the task is +not too great.' + +'I may call?' + +'You will be welcome.' + +'To tell you of the funeral--the last of him.' + +'Do not fail to come.' + +She could have laughed to see him jumping on the steps of the third-class +carriages one after another to choose her company for her. In those pre- +democratic blissful days before the miry Deluge, the opinion of the +requirements of poor English travellers entertained by the Seigneur +Directors of the class above them, was that they differed from cattle in +stipulating for seats. With the exception of that provision to suit +their weakness, the accommodation extended to them resembled pens, and +the seats were emphatically seats of penitence, intended to grind the +sitter for his mean pittance payment and absence of aspiration to a +higher state. Hard angular wood, a low roof, a shabby square of window +aloof, demanding of him to quit the seat he insisted on having, if he +would indulge in views of the passing scenery,--such was the furniture of +dens where a refinement of castigation was practised on villain poverty +by denying leathers to the windows, or else buttons to the leathers, so +that the windows had either to be up or down, but refused to shelter and +freshen simultaneously. + +Dacier selected a compartment occupied by two old women, a mother and +babe and little maid, and a labouring man. There he installed her, with +an eager look that she would not notice. + +'You will want the window down,' he said. + +She applied to her fellow-travellers for the permission; and struggling +to get the window down, he was irritated to animadvert on 'these +carriages' of the benevolent railway Company. + +'Do not forget that the wealthy are well treated, or you may be unjust,' +said she, to pacify him. + +His mouth sharpened its line while he tried arts and energies on the +refractory window. She told him to leave it. 'You can't breathe this +atmosphere!' he cried, and called to a porter, who did the work, +remarking that it was rather stiff. + +The door was banged and fastened. Dacier had to hang on the step to see +her in the farewell. From the platform he saw the top of her bonnet; and +why she should have been guilty of this freak of riding in an unwholesome +carriage, tasked his power of guessing. He was too English even to have +taken the explanation, for he detested the distinguishing of the races in +his country, and could not therefore have comprehended her peculiar +tenacity of the sense of injury as long as enthusiasm did not arise to +obliterate it. He required a course of lessons in Irish. + +Sauntering down the lane, he called at Simon Rofe's cottage, and spoke +very kindly to the gamekeeper's wife. That might please Diana. It was +all he could do at present. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +'THE YOUNG MINISTER OF STATE' + +Descriptions in the newspapers of the rural funeral of Lord Dannisburgh +had the effect of rousing flights of tattlers with a twittering of the +disused name of Warwick; our social Gods renewed their combat, and the +verdict of the jury was again overhauled, to be attacked and maintained, +the carpers replying to the champions that they held to their view of it: +as heads of bull-dogs are expected to do when they have got a grip of +one. It is a point of muscular honour with them never to relax their +hold. They will tell you why:--they formed that opinion from the first. +And but for the swearing of a particular witness, upon whom the plaintiff +had been taught to rely, the verdict would have been different--to prove +their soundness of judgement. They could speak from private positive +information of certain damnatory circumstances, derived from authentic +sources. Visits of a gentleman to the house of a married lady in the +absence of the husband? Oh!--The British Lucretia was very properly not +legally at home to the masculine world of that day. She plied her +distaff in pure seclusion, meditating on her absent lord; or else a fair +proportion of the masculine world, which had not yet, has not yet, +'doubled Cape Turk,' approved her condemnation to the sack. + +There was talk in the feminine world, at Lady Wathin's assemblies. The +elevation of her husband had extended and deepened her influence on the +levels where it reigned before, but without, strange as we may think it +now, assisting to her own elevation, much aspired for, to the smooth and +lively upper pavement of Society, above its tumbled strata. She was near +that distinguished surface, not on it. Her circle was practically the +same as it was previous to the coveted nominal rank enabling her to +trample on those beneath it. And women like that Mrs. Warwick, a woman +of no birth, no money, not even honest character, enjoyed the entry +undisputed, circulated among the highest:--because people took her rattle +for wit!--and because also our nobility, Lady Wathin feared, had no due +regard for morality. Our aristocracy, brilliant and ancient though it +was, merited rebuke. She grew severe upon aristocratic scandals, whereof +were plenty among the frolicsome host just overhead, as vexatious as the +drawing-room party to the lodger in the floor below, who has not received +an invitation to partake of the festivities and is required to digest the +noise. But if ambition is oversensitive, moral indignation is ever +consolatory, for it plants us on the Judgement Seat. There indeed we +may, sitting with the very Highest, forget our personal disappointments +in dispensing reprobation for misconduct, however eminent the offenders. + +She was Lady Wathin, and once on an afternoon's call to see poor Lady +Dunstane at her town-house, she had been introduced to Lady Pennon, a +patroness of Mrs. Warwick, and had met a snub--an icy check-bow of the +aristocratic head from the top of the spinal column, and not a word, not +a look; the half-turn of a head devoid of mouth and eyes! She practised +that forbidding checkbow herself to perfection, so the endurance of it +was horrible. A noli me tangere, her husband termed it, in his +ridiculous equanimity; and he might term it what he pleased--it was +insulting. The solace she had was in hearing that hideous Radical +Revolutionary things were openly spoken at Mrs. Warwick's evenings with +her friends:--impudently named 'the elect of London.' Pleasing to +reflect upon Mrs. Warwick as undermining her supporters, to bring them +some day down with a crash! Her 'elect of London' were a queer +gathering, by report of them! And Mr. Whitmonby too, no doubt a +celebrity, was the right-hand man at these dinner-parties of Mrs. +Warwick. Where will not men go to be flattered by a pretty woman! He +had declined repeated, successive invitations to Lady Wathin's table. +But there of course he would not have had 'the freedom': that is, she +rejoiced in thinking defensively and offensively, a moral wall enclosed +her topics. The Hon. Percy Dacier had been brought to her Thursday +afternoon by. Mr. Quintin Manx, and he had one day dined with her; and +he knew Mrs. Warwick--a little, he said. The opportunity was not lost to +convey to him, entirely in the interest of sweet Constance Asper, that +the moral world entertained a settled view of the very clever woman Mrs. +Warwick certainly was. He had asked Diana, on their morning walk to the +station, whether she had an enemy: so prone are men, educated by the +Drama and Fiction in the belief that the garden of civilized life must be +at the mercy of the old wild devourers, to fancy 'villain whispers' an +indication of direct animosity. Lady Wathin had no sentiment of the +kind. + +But she had become acquainted with the other side of the famous +Dannisburgh case--the unfortunate plaintiff; and compassion as well as +morality moved her to put on a speaking air when Mr. Warwick's name was +mentioned. She pictured him to the ladies of her circle as 'one of our +true gentlemen in his deportment and his feelings.' He was, she would +venture to say, her ideal of an English gentleman. 'But now,' she added +commiseratingly, 'ruined; ruined in his health and in his prospects.' +A lady inquired if it was the verdict that had thus affected him. Lady +Wathin's answer was reported over moral, or substratum, London: 'He is +the victim of a fatal passion for his wife; and would take her back to- +morrow were she to solicit his forgiveness.' Morality had something to +say against this active marital charity, attributable, it was to be +feared, to weakness of character on the part of the husband. Still Mrs. +Warwick undoubtedly was one of those women (of Satanic construction) who +have the art of enslaving the men unhappy enough to cross their path. +The nature of the art was hinted, with the delicacy of dainty feet which +have to tread in mire to get to safety. Men, alas! are snared in this +way. Instances too numerous for the good repute of the swinish sex, +were cited, and the question of how Morality was defensible from their +grossness passed without a tactical reply. There is no defence: Those +women come like the Cholera Morbus--and owing to similar causes. They +will prevail until the ideas of men regarding women are purified. +Nevertheless the husband who could forgive, even propose to forgive, was +deemed by consent generous, however weak. Though she might not have been +wholly guilty, she had bitterly offended. And he despatched an emissary +to her?--The theme, one may, in their language, 'fear,' was relished as a +sugared acid. It was renewed in the late Autumn of the year, when +ANTONIA published her new book, entitled THE YOUNG MINISTER of STATE. +The signature of the authoress was now known; and from this resurgence of +her name in public, suddenly a radiation of tongues from the circle of +Lady Wathin declared that the repentant Mrs. Warwick had gone back to her +husband's bosom and forgiveness! The rumour spread in spite of sturdy +denials at odd corners, counting the red-hot proposal of Mr. Sullivan +Smith to eat his head and boots for breakfast if it was proved correct. +It filled a yawn of the Clubs for the afternoon. Soon this wanton rumour +was met and stifled by another of more morbific density, heavily charged +as that which led the sad Eliza to her pyre. + +ANTONIA's hero was easily identified. THE YOUNG MINISTER of STATE could +be he only who was now at all her parties, always meeting her; had been +spied walking with her daily in the park near her house, on his march +down to Westminster during the session; and who positively went to +concerts and sat under fiddlers to be near her. It accounted moreover +for his treatment of Constance Asper. What effrontery of the authoress, +to placard herself with him in a book! The likeness of the hero to Percy +Dacier once established became striking to glaringness--a proof of her +ability, and more of her audacity; still more of her intention to flatter +him up to his perdition. By the things written of him, one would imagine +the conversations going on behind the scenes. She had the wiles of a +Cleopatra, not without some of the Nilene's experiences. A youthful +Antony Dacier would be little likely to escape her toils. And so +promising a young man! The sigh, the tear for weeping over his +destruction, almost fell, such vivid realizing of the prophesy +appeared in its pathetic pronouncement. + +This low rumour, or malaria, began blowing in the winter, and did not +travel fast; for strangely, there was hardly a breath of it in the +atmosphere of Dacier, none in Diana's. It rose from groups not so +rapidly and largely mixing, and less quick to kindle; whose crazy +sincereness battened on the smallest morsel of fact and collected the +fictitious by slow absorption. But as guardians of morality, often doing +good duty in their office, they are persistent. When Parliament +assembled, Mr. Quintin Manx, a punctual member of the House, if nothing +else, arrived in town. He was invited to dine with Lady Wathin. After +dinner she spoke to him of the absent Constance, and heard of her being +well, and expressed a great rejoicing at that. Whereupon the burly old +shipowner frowned and puffed. Constance, he said, had plunged into these +new spangle, candle and high singing services; was all for symbols, +harps, effigies, what not. Lady Wathin's countenance froze in hearing of +it. She led Mr. Quintin to a wall-sofa, and said: 'Surely the dear child +must have had a disappointment, for her to have taken to those foolish +displays of religion! It is generally a sign.' + +'Well, ma'am-my lady--I let girls go their ways in such things. I don't +interfere. But it's that fellow, or nobody, with her. She has fixed her +girl's mind on him, and if she can't columbine as a bride, she will as a +nun. Young people must be at some harlequinade.' + +'But it is very shocking. And he?' + +'He plays last and loose, warm and cold. I'm ready to settle twenty +times a nobleman's dowry on my niece and she's a fine girl, a handsome +girl, educated up to the brim, fit to queen it in any drawing-room. He +holds her by some arts that don't hold him, it seems. He's all for +politics.' + +'Constance can scarcely be his dupe so far, I should think.' + +'How do you mean?' + +'Everything points to one secret of his conduct.' + +'A woman?' + +Lady Wathin's head shook for her sex's pained affirmative. + +Mr. Quintin in the same fashion signified the downright negative. 'The +fellow's as cold as a fish.' + +'Flattery will do anything. There is, I fear, one.' + +'Widow? wife? maid?' + +'Married, I regret to say.' + +'Well, if he'd get over with it,' said Quintin, in whose notions the +seductiveness of a married woman could be only temporary, for all the +reasons pertaining to her state. At the same time his view of Percy +Dacier was changed in thinking it possible that a woman could divert him +from his political and social interests. He looked incredulous. + +'You have heard of a Mrs. Warwick?' said Lady Wathin. + +'Warwick! I have. I've never seen her. At my broker's in the City +yesterday I saw the name on a Memorandum of purchase of Shares in a +concern promising ten per cent., and not likely to carry the per annum +into the plural. He told me she was a grand kind of woman, past +advising.' + +'For what amount' + +'Some thousands, I think it was.' + +'She has no money': Lady Wathin corrected her emphasis: 'or ought to have +none.' + +'She can't have got it from him.' + +'Did you notice her Christian name?' + +'I don't recollect it, if I did. I thought the woman a donkey.' + +'Would you consider me a busybody were I to try to mitigate this woman's +evil influence? I love dear Constance, and should be happy to serve +her.' + +'I want my girl married,' said old Quintin. 'He's one of my +Parliamentary chiefs, with first-rate prospects; good family, good +sober fellow--at least I thought so; by nature, I mean; barring your +incantations. He suits me, she liking him.' + +'She admires him, I am sure.' + +'She's dead on end for the fellow!' + +Lady Wathin felt herself empowered by Quintin Manx to undertake the +release of sweet Constance Asper's knight from the toils of his +enchantress. For this purpose she had first an interview with Mr. +Warwick, and next she hurried to Lady Dunstane at Copsley. There, after +jumbling Mr. Warwick's connubial dispositions and Mrs. Warwick's last +book, and Mr. Percy Dacier's engagement to the great heiress in a gossipy +hotch-potch, she contrived to gather a few items of fact, as that THE +YOUNG MINISTER was probably modelled upon Mr. Percy Dacier. Lady +Dunstane made no concealment of it as soon as she grew sensible of the +angling. But she refused her help to any reconciliation between Mr. and +Mrs. Warwick. She declined to listen to Lady Wathin's entreaties. She +declined to give her reasons.--These bookworm women, whose pride it is to +fancy that they can think for themselves, have a great deal of the +heathen in them, as morality discovers when it wears the enlistment +ribands and applies yo them to win recruits for a service under the +direct blessing of Providence. + +Lady Wathin left some darts behind her, in the form of moral +exclamations; and really intended morally. For though she did not like +Mrs. Warwick, she had no wish to wound, other than by stopping her +further studies of the Young Minister, and conducting him to the young +lady loving him, besides restoring a bereft husband to his own. How +sadly pale and worn poor Mr. Warwick appeared? The portrayal of his +withered visage to Lady Dunstane had quite failed to gain a show of +sympathy. And so it is ever with your book-worm women pretending to be +philosophical! You sound them vainly for a manifestation of the +commonest human sensibilities, They turn over the leaves of a Latin book +on their laps while you are supplicating them to assist in a work of +charity! + +Lady Wathin's interjectory notes haunted Emma's ear. Yet she had seen +nothing in Tony to let her suppose that there was trouble of her heart +below the surface; and her Tony when she came to Copsley shone in the +mood of the day of Lord Dannisburgh's drive down from London with her. +She was running on a fresh work; talked of composition as a trifle. + +'I suppose the YOUNG MINISTER is Mr. Percy Dacier?' said Emma. + +'Between ourselves he is,' Diana replied, smiling at a secret guessed. +'You know my model and can judge of the likeness.' + +'You write admiringly of him, Tony.' + +'And I do admire him. So would you, Emmy, if you knew him as well as I +do now. He pairs with Mr. Redworth; he also is the friend of women. But +he lifts us to rather a higher level of intellectual friendship. When +the ice has melted--and it is thick at first--he pours forth all his +ideas without reserve; and they are deep and noble. Ever since Lord +Dannisburgh's death and our sitting together, we have been warm friends +--intimate, I would say, if it could be said of one so self-contained. +In that respect, no young man was ever comparable with him. And I am +encouraged to flatter myself that he unbends to me more than to others.' + +'He is engaged, or partly, I hear; why does he not marry?' + +'I wish he would!' Diana said, with a most brilliant candour of aspect. + +Emma read in it, that it would complete her happiness, possibly by +fortifying her sense of security; and that seemed right. Her own +meditations, illumined by the beautiful face in her presence, referred to +the security of Mr. Dacier. + +'So, then, life is going smoothly,' said Emma. + +'Yes, at a good pace and smoothly: not a torrent--Thames-like, "without +o'erflowing full." It is not Lugano and the Salvatore. Perhaps it is +better: as action is better than musing.' + +'No troubles whatever?' + +'None. Well, except an "adorer" at times. I have to take him as my +portion. An impassioned Caledonian has a little bothered me. I met him +at Lady Pennon's, and have been meeting him, as soon as I put foot out of +my house, ever since. If I could impress and impound him to marry Mary +Paynham, I should be glad. By the way, I have consented to let her try +at a portrait of me. No, I have no troubles. I have friends, the +choicest of the nation; I have health, a field for labour, fairish +success with it; a mind alive, such as it is. I feel like that midsummer +morning of our last drive out together, the sun high, clearish, clouded +enough to be cool. And still I envy Emmy on her sofa, mastering Latin, +biting at Greek. What a wise recommendation that was of Mr. Redworth's! +He works well in the House. He spoke excellently the other night.' + +'He runs over to Ireland this Easter.' + +'He sees for himself, and speaks with authority. He sees and feels. +Englishmen mean well, but they require an extremity of misery to waken +their feelings.' + +'It is coming, he says; and absit omen!' + +'Mr. Dacier says he is the one Englishman who may always be sure of an +Irish hearing; and he does not cajole them, you know. But the English +defect is really not want of feeling so much as want of foresight. They +will not look ahead. A famine ceasing, a rebellion crushed, they jog on +as before, with their Dobbin trot and blinker confidence in "Saxon +energy." They should study the Irish: I think it was Mr. Redworth who +compared the governing of the Irish to the management of a horse: the +rider should not grow restive when the steed begins to kick: calmer; +firm, calm, persuasive.' + +'Does Mr. Dacier agree?' + +'Not always. He has the inveterate national belief that Celtic blood +is childish, and the consequently illogical disregard of its hold of +impressions. The Irish--for I have them in my heart, though I have not +been among them for long at a time--must love you to serve you, and will +hate you if you have done them injury and they have not wiped it out-- +they with a treble revenge, or you with cordial benefits. I have told +him so again and again: ventured to suggest measures.' + +'He listens to you, Tony?' + +'He says I have brains. It ends in a compliment.' + +'You have inspired Mr. Redworth.' + +'If I have, I have lived for some good.' + +Altogether her Tony's conversation proved to Emma that her perusal of the +model of THE YOUNG MINISTER OF STATE was an artist's, free, open, and not +discoloured by the personal tincture. Her heart plainly was free and +undisturbed. She had the same girl's love of her walks where wildflowers +grew; if possible, a keener pleasure. She hummed of her happiness in +being at Copsley, singing her Planxty Kelly and The Puritani by turns. +She stood on land: she was not on the seas. Emma thought so with good +reason. + +She stood on land, it was true, but she stood on a cliff of the land, +the seas below and about her; and she was enabled to hoodwink her friend +because the assured sensation of her firm footing deceived her own soul, +even while it took short flights to the troubled waters. Of her firm +footing she was exultingly proud. She stood high, close to danger, +without giddiness. If at intervals her soul flew out like lightning +from the rift (a mere shot of involuntary fancy, it seemed to her), +the suspicion of instability made her draw on her treasury of impressions +of the mornings at Lugano--her loftiest, purest, dearest; and these +reinforced her. She did not ask herself why she should have to seek +them for aid. In other respects her mind was alert and held no sly +covers, as the fiction of a perfect ignorant innocence combined with +common intelligence would have us to suppose that the minds of women can +do. She was honest as long as she was not directly questioned, pierced +to the innermost and sanctum of the bosom. She could honestly summon +bright light to her eyes in wishing the man were married. She did not +ask herself why she called it up. The remorseless progressive +interrogations of a Jesuit Father in pursuit of the bosom's verity might +have transfixed it and shown her to herself even then a tossing vessel as +to the spirit, far away from that firm land she trod so bravely. + +Descending from the woody heights upon London, Diana would have said that +her only anxiety concerned young Mr. Arthur Rhodes, whose position she +considered precarious, and who had recently taken a drubbing for +venturing to show a peep of his head, like an early crocus, in the +literary market. Her ANTONIA'S last book had been reviewed obediently +to smart taps from the then commanding baton of Mr. Tonans, and Mr. +Whitmonby's choice picking of specimens down three columns of his paper. +A Literary Review (Charles Rainer's property) had suggested that perhaps +'the talented authoress might be writing too rapidly'; and another, +actuated by the public taste of the period for our 'vigorous homely +Saxon' in one and two syllable words, had complained of a 'tendency to +polysyllabic phraseology.' The remainder, a full majority, had sounded +eulogy with all their band-instruments, drum, trumpet, fife, trombone. +Her foregoing work had raised her to Fame, which is the Court of a Queen +when the lady has beauty and social influence, and critics are her +dedicated courtiers, gaping for the royal mouth to be opened, and +reserving the kicks of their independent manhood for infamous outsiders, +whom they hoist in the style and particular service of pitchforks. They +had fallen upon a little volume of verse, 'like a body of barn-door hens +on a stranger chick,' Diana complained; and she chid herself angrily for +letting it escape her forethought to propitiate them on the author's +behalf. Young Rhodes was left with scarce a feather; and what remained +to him appeared a preposterous ornament for the decoration of a shivering +and welted poet. He laughed, or tried the mouth of laughter. ANTONIA's +literary conscience was vexed at the different treatment she had met and +so imperatively needed that the reverse of it would have threatened the +smooth sailing of her costly household. A merry-go-round of creditors +required a corresponding whirligig of receipts. + +She felt mercenary, debased by comparison with the well-scourged verse- +mason, Orpheus of the untenanted city, who had done his publishing +ingenuously for glory: a good instance of the comic-pathetic. She wrote +to Emma, begging her to take him in at Copsley for a few days: 'I told +you I had no troubles. I am really troubled about this poor boy. He has +very little money and has embarked on literature. I cannot induce any of +my friends to lend him a hand. Mr. Redworth gruffly insists on his going +back to his law-clerk's office and stool, and Mr. Dacier says that no +place is vacant. The reality of Lord Dannisburgh's death is brought +before me by my helplessness. He would have made him an assistant +private Secretary, pending a Government appointment, rather than let me +plead in vain.' + +Mr. Rhodes with his travelling bag was packed off to Copsley, to enjoy a +change of scene after his run of the gauntlet. He was very heartily +welcomed by Lady Dunstane, both for her Tony's sake and his own modest +worship of that luminary, which could permit of being transparent; but +chiefly she welcomed him as the living proof of Tony's disengagement +from anxiety, since he was her one spot of trouble, and could easily be +comforted by reading with her, and wandering through the Spring woods +along the heights. He had a happy time, midway in air between his +accomplished hostess and his protecting Goddess. His bruises were soon +healed. Each day was radiant to him, whether it rained or shone; and by +his looks and what he said of himself Lady Dunstane understood that he +was in the highest temper of the human creature tuned to thrilling accord +with nature. It was her generous Tony's work. She blessed it, and liked +the youth the better. + +During the stay of Mr. Arthur Rhodes at Copsley, Sir Lukin came on a +visit to his wife. He mentioned reports in the scandal-papers: one, that +Mr. P. D. would shortly lead to the altar the lovely heiress Miss A., +Percy Dacier and Constance Asper:--another, that a reconciliation was to +be expected between the beautiful authoress Mrs. W. and her husband. +'Perhaps it's the best thing she can do,' Sir Lukin added. + +Lady Dunstane pronounced a woman's unforgiving: 'Never.' The revolt +of her own sensations assured her of Tony's unconquerable repugnance. +In conversation subsequently with Arthur Rhodes, she heard that he knew +the son of Mr. Warwick's attorney, a Mr. Fern; and he had gathered from +him some information of Mr. Warwick's condition of health. It had been +alarming; young Fern said it was confirmed heart-disease. His father +frequently saw Mr. Warwick, and said he was fretting himself to death. + +It seemed just a possibility that Tony's natural compassionateness had +wrought on her to immolate herself and nurse to his end the man who had +wrecked her life. Lady Dunstane waited for the news. At last she wrote, +touching the report incidentally. There was no reply. The silence +ensuing after such a question responded forcibly. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +BETWEEN DIANA AND DACIER: THE WIND EAST OVER BLEAK LAND + +On the third day of the Easter recess Percy Dacier landed from the Havre +steamer at Caen and drove straightway for the sandy coast, past fields of +colza to brine-blown meadows of coarse grass, and then to the low dunes +and long stretching sands of the ebb in semicircle: a desolate place at +that season; with a dwarf fishing-village by the shore; an East wind +driving landward in streamers every object that had a scrap to fly. +He made head to the inn, where the first person he encountered in the +passage was Diana's maid Danvers, who relaxed from the dramatic +exaggeration of her surprise at the sight of a real English gentleman in +these woebegone regions, to inform him that her mistress might be found +walking somewhere along the sea-shore, and had her dog to protect her. +They were to stay here a whole week, Danvers added, for a conveyance of +her private sentiments. Second thoughts however whispered to her +shrewdness that his arrival could only be by appointment. She had been +anticipating something of the sort for some time. + +Dacier butted against the stringing wind, that kept him at a rocking +incline to his left for a mile. He then discerned in what had seemed a +dredger's dot on the sands, a lady's figure, unmistakably she, without +the corroborating testimony of Leander paw-deep in the low-tide water. +She was out at a distance on the ebb-sands, hurtled, gyred, beaten to all +shapes, in rolls, twists, volumes, like a blown banner-flag, by the +pressing wind. A kerchief tied her bonnet under her chin. Bonnet and +breast-ribands rattled rapidly as drummer-sticks. She stood near the +little running ripple of the flat sea-water, as it hurried from a long +streaked back to a tiny imitation of spray. When she turned to the shore +she saw him advancing, but did not recognize; when they met she merely +looked with wide parted lips. This was no appointment. + +'I had to see you,' Dacier said. + +She coloured to a deeper red than the rose-conjuring wind had whipped in +her cheeks. Her quick intuition of the reason of his coming barred a +mental evasion, and she had no thought of asking either him or herself +what special urgency had brought him. + +'I have been here four days.' + +'Lady Esquart spoke of the place.' + +'Lady Esquart should not have betrayed me.' + +'She did it inadvertently, without an idea of my profiting by it.' + +Diana indicated the scene in a glance. 'Dreary country, do you think?' + +'Anywhere!'--said he. + +They walked up the sand-heap. The roaring Easter with its shrieks and +whistles at her ribands was not favourable to speech. His 'Anywhere!' +had a penetrating significance, the fuller for the break that left it +vague. + +Speech between them was commanded; he could not be suffered to remain. +She descended upon a sheltered pathway running along a ditch, the border +of pastures where cattle cropped, raised heads, and resumed their one +comforting occupation. + +Diana gazed on them, smarting from the buffets of the wind she had met. + +'No play of their tails to-day'; she said, as she slackened her steps. +'You left Lady Esquart well?' + +'Lady Esquart . . . I think was well. I had to see you. I thought +you would be with her in Berkshire. She told me of a little sea-side +place close to Caen.' + +'You had to see me?' + +'I miss you now if it's a day!' + +'I heard a story in London . . .' + +'In London there are many stories. I heard one. Is there a foundation +for it?' + +'No.' + +He breathed relieved. 'I wanted to see you once before . . . if it +was true. It would have made a change in my life-a gap.' + +'You do me the honour to like my Sunday evenings?' + +'Beyond everything London can offer.' + +'A letter would have reached me.' + +'I should have had to wait for the answer. There is no truth in it?' + +Her choice was to treat the direct assailant frankly or imperil her +defence by the ordinary feminine evolutions, which might be taken for +inviting: poor pranks always. + +'There have been overtures,' she said. + +'Forgive me; I have scarcely the right to ask . . . speak of it.! + +'My friends may use their right to take an interest in my fortunes.' + +'I thought I might, on my way to Paris, turn aside . . . coming by +this route.' + +'If you determined not to lose much of your time.' + +The coolness of her fencing disconcerted a gentleman conscious of his +madness. She took instant advantage of any circuitous move; she gave him +no practicable point. He was little skilled in the arts of attack, and +felt that she checked his impetuousness; respected her for it, chafed at +it, writhed with the fervours precipitating him here, and relapsed on his +pleasure in seeing her face, hearing her voice. + +'Your happiness, I hope, is the chief thought in such a case,' he said. + +'I am sure you would consider it.' + +'I can't quite forget my own.' + +'You compliment an ambitious hostess.' + +Dacier glanced across the pastures, 'What was it that tempted you to this +place?' + +'A poet would say it looks like a figure in the shroud. It has no +features; it has a sort of grandeur belonging to death. I heard of it as +the place where I might be certain of not meeting an acquaintance.' + +'And I am the intruder.' + +'An hour or two will not give you that title.' + +'Am I to count the minutes by my watch?' + +'By the sun. We will supply you an omelette and piquette, and send you +back sobered and friarly--to Caen for Paris at sunset.' + +'Let the fare be Spartan. I could take my black broth with philosophy +every day of the year under your auspices. What I should miss . . .' + +'You bring no news of the world or the House?' + +'None. You know as much as I know. The Irish agitation is chronic. +The Corn-law threatens to be the same.' + +'And your Chief--in personal colloquy?' + +'He keeps a calm front. I may tell you: there is nothing I would not +confide to you: he has let fall some dubious words in private. I don't +know what to think of them.' + +'But if he should waver?' + +'It's not wavering. It's the openness of his mind.' + +'Ah! the mind. We imagine it free. The House and the country are the +sentient frame governing the mind of the politician more than his ideas. +He cannot think independently of them:--nor I of my natural anatomy. You +will test the truth of that after your omelette and piquette, and marvel +at the quitting of your line of route for Paris. As soon as the mind +attempts to think independently, it is like a kite with the cord cut, +and performs a series of darts and frisks, that have the look of wildest +liberty till you see it fall flat to earth. The openness of his mind is +most honourable to him.' + +'Ominous for his party.' + +'Likely to be good for his country.' + +'That is the question.' + +'Prepare to encounter it. In politics I am with the active minority on +behalf of the inert but suffering majority. That is my rule. It leads, +unless you have a despotism, to the conquering side. It is always the +noblest. I won't say, listen to me; only do believe my words have some +weight. This is a question of bread.' + +'It involves many other questions.' + +'And how clearly those leaders put their case! They are admirable +debaters. If I were asked to write against them, I should have but to +quote them to confound my argument. I tried it once, and wasted a couple +of my precious hours.' + +'They are cogent debaters,' Dacier assented. 'They make me wince now and +then, without convincing me: I own it to you. The confession is not +agreeable, though it's a small matter.' + +'One's pride may feel a touch with the foils as keenly as the point of a +rapier,' said Diana. + +The remark drew a sharp look of pleasure from him. + +'Does the Princess Egeria propose to dismiss the individual she inspires, +when he is growing most sensible of her wisdom?' + +'A young Minister of State should be gleaning at large when holiday is +granted him.' + +Dacier coloured. 'May I presume on what is currently reported?' + +'Parts, parts; a bit here, a bit there,' she rejoined. 'Authors find +their models where they can, and generally hit on the nearest.' + +'Happy the nearest!' + +'If you run to interjections I shall cite you a sentence, from your +latest speech in the House.' + +He asked for it, and to school him she consented to flatter with her +recollection of his commonest words: + +'"Dealing with subjects of this nature emotionally does, not advance us a +calculable inch."' + +'I must have said that in relation to hard matter of business.' + +'It applies. There is my hostelry, and the spectral form of Danvers, +utterly depaysee. Have you spoken to the poor soul? I can never +discover the links of her attachment to my service.' + +'She knows a good mistress.--I have but a few minutes, if you are +relentless. May I . . ., shall I ever be privileged to speak your +Christian name?' + +'My Christian name! It is Pagan. In one sphere I am Hecate. Remember +that.' + +'I am not among the people who so regard you.' + +'The time may come.' + +'Diana!' + +'Constance!' + +'I break no tie. I owe no allegiance whatever to the name.' + +'Keep to the formal title with me. We are Mrs. Warwick and Mr. Dacier. +I think I am two years younger than you; socially therefore ten in +seniority; and I know how this flower of friendship is nourished and may +be withered. You see already what you have done? You have cast me on +the discretion of my maid. I suppose her trusty, but I am at her mercy, +and a breath from her to the people beholding me as Hecate queen of +Witches! . . . I have a sensation of the scirocco it would blow.' + +'In that event, the least I can offer is my whole life.' + +'We will not conjecture the event.' + +'The best I could hope for!' + +'I see I shall have to revise the next edition of THE YOUNG MINISTER, and +make an emotional curate of him. Observe Danvers. The woman is +wretched; and now she sees me coming she pretends to be using her wits +in studying the things about her, as I have directed. She is a riddle. +I have the idea that any morning she may explode; and yet I trust her and +sleep soundly. I must be free, though I vex the world's watchdogs.--So, +Danvers, you are noticing how thoroughly Frenchwomen do their work.' + +Danvers replied with a slight mincing: 'They may, ma'am; but they chatter +chatter so.' + +'The result proves that it is not a waste of energy. They manage their +fowls too.' + +'They've no such thing as mutton, ma'am.' + +Dacier patriotically laughed. + +'She strikes the apology for wealthy and leisurely landlords,' Diana +said. + +Danvers remarked that the poor fed meagrely in France. She was not +convinced of its being good for them by hearing that they could work on +it sixteen hours out of the four and twenty. + +Mr. Percy Dacier's repast was furnished to him half an hour later. At +sunset Diana, taking Danvers beside her, walked with him to the line of +the country road bearing on Caen. The wind had sunk. A large brown disk +paused rayless on the western hills. + +'A Dacier ought to feel at home in Normandy; and you may have sprung from +this neighbourhood,' said she, simply to chat. 'Here the land is +poorish, and a mile inland rich enough to bear repeated crops of colza, +which tries the soil, I hear. As for beauty, those blue hills you see, +enfold charming valleys. I meditate an expedition to Harcourt before I +return. An English professor of his native tongue at the Lycee at Caen +told me on my way here that for twenty shillings a week you may live in +royal ease round about Harcourt. So we have our bed and board in +prospect if fortune fails us, Danvers! + +'I would rather die in England, ma'am,' was the maid's reply. + +Dacier set foot on his carriage-step. He drew a long breath to say a +short farewell, and he and Diana parted. + +They parted as the plainest of sincere good friends, each at heart +respecting the other for the repression of that which their hearts +craved; any word of which might have carried them headlong, bound +together on a Mazeppa-race, with scandal for the hounding wolves, and +social ruin for the rocks and torrents. + +Dacier was the thankfuller, the most admiring of the two; at the same +time the least satisfied. He saw the abyss she had aided him in +escaping; and it was refreshful to look abroad after his desperate +impulse. Prominent as he stood before the world, he could not think +without a shudder of behaving like a young frenetic of the passion. +Those whose aim is at the leadership of the English people know, that +however truly based the charges of hypocrisy, soundness of moral fibre +runs throughout the country and is the national integrity, which may +condone old sins for present service; but will not have present sins to +flout it. He was in tune with the English character. The passion was in +him nevertheless, and the stronger for a slow growth that confirmed its +union of the mind and heart. Her counsel fortified him, her suggestions +opened springs; her phrases were golden-lettered in his memory; and more, +she had worked an extraordinary change in his views of life and aptitude +for social converse: he acknowledged it with genial candour. Through her +he was encouraged, led, excited to sparkle with the witty, feel new +gifts, or a greater breadth of nature; and thanking her, he became +thirstily susceptible to her dark beauty; he claimed to have found the +key of her, and he prized it. She was not passionless: the blood flowed +warm. Proud, chaste, she was nobly spirited; having an intellectual +refuge from the besiegings of the blood; a rockfortress. The 'wife no +wife' appeared to him, striking the higher elements of the man, the +commonly masculine also.--Would he espouse her, had he the chance?-- +to-morrow! this instant! With her to back him, he would be doubled in +manhood, doubled in brain and heart-energy. To call her wife, spring +from her and return, a man might accept his fate to fight Trojan or +Greek, sure of his mark on the enemy. + +But if, after all, this imputed Helen of a decayed Paris passed, +submissive to the legitimate solicitor, back to her husband? + +The thought shot Dacier on his legs for a look at the blank behind him. +He vowed she had promised it should not be. Could it ever be, after +the ruin the meanly suspicious fellow had brought upon her?--Diana +voluntarily reunited to the treacherous cur? + +He sat, resolving sombrely that if the debate arose he would try what +force he had to save her from such an ignominy, and dedicate his life to +her, let the world wag its tongue. So the knot would be cut. + +Men unaccustomed to a knot in their system find the prospect of cutting +it an extreme relief, even when they know that the cut has an edge to +wound mortally as well as pacify. The wound was not heavy payment for +the rapture of having so incomparable a woman his own. He reflected +wonderingly on the husband, as he had previously done, and came again to +the conclusion that it was a poor creature, abjectly jealous of a wife, +he could neither master, nor equal, nor attract. And thinking of +jealousy, Dacier felt none; none of individuals, only of facts: her +marriage, her bondage. Her condemnation to perpetual widowhood angered +him, as at an unrighteous decree. The sharp sweet bloom of her beauty, +fresh in swarthiness, under the whipping Easter, cried out against that +loathed inhumanity. Or he made it cry. + +Being a stranger to the jealousy of men, he took the soft assurance that +he was preferred above them all. Competitors were numerous: not any won +her eyes as he did. She revealed nothing of the same pleasures in the +shining of the others touched by her magical wand. Would she have +pardoned one of them the 'Diana!' bursting from his mouth? + +She was not a woman for trifling, still less for secresy. He was as +little the kind of lover. Both would be ready to take up their burden, +if the burden was laid on them. Diana had thus far impressed him. + +Meanwhile he faced the cathedral towers of the ancient Norman city, +standing up in the smoky hues of the West; and a sentence out of her book +seemed fitting to the scene and what he felt. He rolled it over +luxuriously as the next of delights to having her beside him.--She wrote +of; 'Thoughts that are bare dark outlines, coloured by some odd passion +of the soul, like towers of a distant city seen in the funeral waste of +day.'--His bluff English anti-poetic training would have caused him to +shrug at the stuff coming from another pen: he might condescendingly have +criticized it, with a sneer embalmed in humour. The words were hers; she +had written them; almost by a sort of anticipation, he imagined; for he +at once fell into the mood they suggested, and had a full crop of the +'bare dark outlines' of thoughts coloured by his particular form of +passion. + +Diana had impressed him powerfully when she set him swallowing and +assimilating a sentence ethereally thin in substance of mere sentimental +significance, that he would antecedently have read aloud in a drawing- +room, picking up the book by hazard, as your modern specimen of romantic +vapouring. Mr. Dacier however was at the time in observation of the +towers of Caen, fresh from her presence, animated to some conception of +her spirit. He drove into the streets, desiring, half determining, to +risk a drive back on the morrow. + +The cold light of the morrow combined with his fear of distressing her to +restrain him. Perhaps he thought it well not to risk his gains. He was +a northerner in blood. He may have thought it well not further to run +the personal risk immediately. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +RECORDS A VISIT TO DIANA FROM ONE OF THE WORLD'S GOOD WOMEN + +Pure disengagement of contemplativeness had selected. Percy Dacier as +the model of her YOUNG MINISTER OF STATE, Diana supposed. Could she +otherwise have dared to sketch him? She certainly would not have done +it now. + +That was a reflection similar to what is entertained by one who has +dropped from a precipice to the midway ledge over the abyss, where +caution of the whole sensitive being is required for simple self- +preservation. How could she have been induced to study and portray him! +It seemed a form of dementia. + +She thought this while imagining the world to be interrogating her. When +she interrogated herself, she flew to Lugano and her celestial Salvatore, +that she might be defended from a charge of the dreadful weakness of her +sex. Surely she there had proof of her capacity for pure disengagement. +Even in recollection the springs of spiritual happiness renewed the +bubbling crystal play. She believed that a divineness had wakened in her +there, to strengthen her to the end, ward her from any complicity in her +sex's culprit blushing. + +Dacier's cry of her name was the cause, she chose to think, of the +excessive circumspection she must henceforth practise; precariously +footing, embracing hardest earth, the plainest rules, to get back to +safety. Not that she was personally endangered, or at least not +spiritually; she could always fly in soul to her heights. But she had +now to be on guard, constantly in the fencing attitude. And watchful of +herself as well. That was admitted with a ready frankness, to save it +from being a necessitated and painful confession: for the voluntary- +acquiescence, if it involved her in her sex, claimed an individual +exemption. 'Women are women, and I am a woman but I am I, and unlike +them: I see we are weak, and weakness tempts: in owning the prudence of +guarded steps, I am armed. It is by dissembling, feigning immunity, that +we are imperilled.' She would have phrased it so, with some anger at her +feminine nature as well as at the subjection forced on her by +circumstances. + +Besides, her position and Percy Dacier's threw the fancied danger into +remoteness. The world was her stepmother, vigilant to become her judge; +and the world was his taskmaster, hopeful of him, yet able to strike him +down for an offence. She saw their situation as he did. The course of +folly must be bravely taken, if taken at all: Disguise degraded her to +the reptiles. + +This was faced. Consequently there was no fear of it. + +She had very easily proved that she had skill and self-possession to +keep him rational, and therefore they could continue to meet. A little +outburst of frenzy to a reputably handsome woman could be treated as the +froth of a passing wave. Men have the trick, infants their fevers. + +Diana's days were spent in reasoning. Her nights were not so tuneable to +the superior mind. When asleep she was the sport of elves that danced +her into tangles too deliciously unravelled, and left new problems for +the wise-eyed and anxious morning. She solved them with the thought that +in sleep it was the mere ordinary woman who fell a prey to her +tormentors; awake, she dispersed the swarm, her sky was clear. Gradually +the persecution ceased, thanks to her active pen. + +A letter from her legal adviser, old Mr. Braddock, informed her that no +grounds existed for apprehending marital annoyance, and late in May her +household had resumed its customary round. + +She examined her accounts. The Debit and Credit sides presented much of +the appearance of male and female in our jog-trot civilization. They +matched middling well; with rather too marked a tendency to strain the +leash and run frolic on the part of friend Debit (the wanton male), which +deepened the blush of the comparison. Her father had noticed the same +funny thing in his effort to balance his tugging accounts: 'Now then for +a look at Man and Wife': except that he made Debit stand for the portly +frisky female, Credit the decorous and contracted other half, a prim +gentleman of a constitutionally lean habit of body, remonstrating with +her. 'You seem to forget that we are married, my dear, and must walk in +step or bundle into the Bench,' Dan Merion used to say. + +Diana had not so much to rebuke in Mr. Debit; or not at the first +reckoning. But his ways were curious. She grew distrustful of him, +after dismissing him with a quiet admonition and discovering a series of +ambush bills, which he must have been aware of when he was allowed to +pass as an honourable citizen. His answer to her reproaches pleaded the +necessitousness of his purchases and expenditure: a capital plea; and +Mrs. Credit was requested by him, in a courteous manner, to drive her pen +the faster, so that she might wax to a corresponding size and satisfy the +world's idea of fitness in couples. She would have costly furniture, +because it pleased her taste; and a French cook, for a like reason, in +justice to her guests; and trained servants; and her tribe of pensioners; +flowers she would have profuse and fresh at her windows and over the +rooms; and the pictures and engravings on the walls were (always for the +good reason mentioned) choice ones; and she had a love of old lace, she +loved colours as she loved cheerfulness, and silks, and satin hangings, +Indian ivory carvings, countless mirrors, Oriental woods, chairs and +desks with some feature or a flourish in them, delicate tables with +antelope legs, of approved workmanship in the chronology of European +upholstery, and marble clocks of cunning device to symbol Time, +mantelpiece decorations, illustrated editions of her favourite authors; +her bed-chambers, too, gave the nest for sleep a dainty cosiness in +aerial draperies. Hence, more or less directly, the peccant bills. +Credit was reduced to reckon to a nicety the amount she could rely on +positively: her fixed income from her investments and the letting of The +Crossways: the days of half-yearly payments that would magnify her to +some proportions beside the alarming growth of her partner, who was proud +of it, and referred her to the treasures she could summon with her pen, +at a murmur of dissatisfaction. His compliments were sincere; they were +seductive. He assured her that she had struck a rich vein in an +inexhaustible mine; by writing only a very little faster she could double +her income; counting a broader popularity, treble it; and so on a tide of +success down the widening river to a sea sheer golden. Behold how it +sparkles! Are we then to stint our winged hours of youth for want of +courage to realize the riches we can command? Debit was eloquent, he was +unanswerable. + +Another calculator, an accustomed and lamentably-scrupulous +arithmetician, had been at work for some time upon a speculative summing +of the outlay of Diana's establishment, as to its chances of swamping the +income. Redworth could guess pretty closely the cost of a house hold, if +his care for the holder set him venturing on aver ages. He knew nothing +of her ten per cent. investment and considered her fixed income a +beggarly regiment to marshal against the invader. He fancied however, in +his ignorance of literary profits, that a popular writer, selling several +editions, had come to an El Dorado. There was the mine. It required a +diligent worker. Diana was often struck by hearing Redworth ask her when +her next book might be expected. He appeared to have an eagerness in +hurrying her to produce, and she had to say that she was not a nimble +writer. His flattering impatience was vexatious. He admired her work, +yet he did his utmost to render it little admirable. His literary taste +was not that of young Arthur Rhodes, to whom she could read her chapters, +appearing to take counsel upon them while drinking the eulogies: she +suspected him of prosaic ally wishing her to make money, and though her +exchequer was beginning to know the need of it, the author's lofty mind +disdained such sordidness: to be excused, possibly, for a failing +productive energy. She encountered obstacles to imaginative composition. +With the pen in her hand, she would fall into heavy musings; break a +sentence to muse, and not on the subject. She slept unevenly at night, +was drowsy by day, unless the open air was about her, or animating +friends. Redworth's urgency to get her to publish was particularly +annoying when she felt how greatly THE YOUNG MINISTER OF STATE would +have been improved had she retained the work to brood over it, polish, +re-write passages, perfect it. Her musings embraced long dialogues of +that work, never printed; they sprang up, they passed from memory; +leaving a distaste for her present work: THE CANTATRICE: far more +poetical than the preceding, in the opinion of Arthur Rhodes; and the +story was more romantic; modelled on a Prima Donna she had met at the +musical parties of Henry Wilmers, after hearing Redworth tell of Charles +Rainer's quaint passion for the woman, or the idea of the woman. Diana +had courted her, studied and liked her. The picture she was drawing of +the amiable and gifted Italian, of her villain Roumanian husband, and of +the eccentric, high-minded, devoted Englishman, was good in a fashion; +but considering the theme, she had reasonable apprehension that her +CANTATRICE would not repay her for the time and labour bestowed on it. +No clever transcripts of the dialogue of the day occurred; no hair- +breadth 'scapes, perils by sea and land, heroisms of the hero, fine +shrieks of the heroine; no set scenes of catching pathos and humour; no +distinguishable points of social satire--equivalent to a smacking of the +public on the chaps, which excites it to grin with keen discernment of +the author's intention. She did not appeal to the senses nor to a +superficial discernment. So she had the anticipatory sense of its +failure; and she wrote her best, in perverseness; of course she wrote +slowly; she wrote more and more realistically of the characters and the +downright human emotions, less of the wooden supernumeraries of her +story, labelled for broad guffaw or deluge tears--the grappling natural +links between our public and an author. Her feelings were aloof. They +flowed at a hint of a scene of THE YOUNG MINISTER. She could not put +them into THE CANTATRICE. And Arthur Rhodes pronounced this work +poetical beyond its predecessors, for the reason that the chief +characters were alive and the reader felt their pulses. He meant +to say, they were poetical inasmuch as they were creations. + +The slow progress of a work not driven by the author's feelings +necessitated frequent consultations between Debit and Credit, resulting +in altercations, recriminations, discord of the yoked and divergent +couple. To restore them to their proper trot in harness, Diana +reluctantly went to her publisher for an advance item of the sum she was +to receive, and the act increased her distaste. An idea came that she +would soon cease to be able to write at all. What then? Perhaps by +selling her invested money, and ultimately The Crossways, she would have +enough for her term upon earth. Necessarily she had to think that short, +in order to reckon it as nearly enough. 'I am sure,' she said to +herself, 'I shall not trouble the world very long.' A strange languor +beset her; scarcely melancholy, for she conceived the cheerfulness of +life and added to it in company; but a nervelessness, as though she had +been left by the stream on the banks, and saw beauty and pleasure sweep +along and away, while the sun that primed them dried her veins. At this +time she was gaining her widest reputation for brilliancy of wit. Only +to welcome guests were her evenings ever spent at home. She had no +intimate understanding of the deadly wrestle of the conventional woman +with her nature which she was undergoing below the surface. Perplexities +she acknowledged, and the prudence of guardedness. 'But as I am sure not +to live very long, we may as well meet.' Her meetings with Percy Dacier +were therefore hardly shunned; and his behaviour did not warn her to +discountenance them. It would have been cruel to exclude him from her +select little dinners of eight. Whitmonby, Westlake, Henry Wilmers and +the rest, she perhaps aiding, schooled him in the conversational art. +She heard it said of him, that the courted discarder of the sex, hitherto +a mere politician, was wonderfully humanized. Lady Pennon fell to +talking of him hopefully. She declared him to be one of the men who +unfold tardily, and only await the mastering passion. If the passion had +come, it was controlled. His command of himself melted Diana. How could +she forbid his entry to the houses she frequented? She was glad to see +him. He showed his pleasure in seeing her. Remembering his tentative +indiscretion on those foreign sands, she reflected that he had been +easily checked: and the like was not to be said of some others. +Beautiful women in her position provoke an intemperateness that contrasts +touchingly with the self-restraint of a particular admirer. Her +'impassioned Caledonian' was one of a host, to speak of whom and their +fits of lunacy even to her friend Emma, was repulsive. She bore with +them, foiled them, passed them, and recovered her equanimity; but the +contrast called to her to dwell on it, the self-restraint whispered of a +depth of passion . . . . + +She was shocked at herself for a singular tremble 'she experienced, +without any beating of the heart, on hearing one day that the marriage of +Percy Dacier and Miss Asper was at last definitely fixed. Mary Paynham +brought her the news. She had it from a lady who had come across Miss +Asper at Lady Wathin's assemblies, and considered the great heiress +extraordinarily handsome. + +'A golden miracle,' Diana gave her words to say. 'Good looks and gold +together are rather superhuman. The report may be this time true.' +Next afternoon the card of Lady Wathin requested Mrs. Warwick to grant +her a private interview. + +Lady Wathin, as one of the order of women who can do anything in a holy +cause, advanced toward Mrs. Warwick, unabashed by the burden of her +mission, and spinally prepared, behind benevolent smilings, to repay +dignity of mien with a similar erectness of dignity. They touched +fingers and sat. The preliminaries to the matter of the interview were +brief between ladies physically sensible of antagonism and mutually too +scornful of subterfuges in one another's presence to beat the bush. + +Lady Wathin began. 'I am, you are aware, Mrs. Warwick, a cousin of your +friend Lady Dunstane.' + +'You come to me on business?' Diana said. + +'It may be so termed. I have no personal interest in it. I come to lay +certain facts before you which I think you should know. We think it +better that an acquaintance, and one of your sex, should state the case +to you, instead of having recourse to formal intermediaries, lawyers--' + +'Lawyers?' + +'Well, my husband is a lawyer, it is true. In the course of his +professional vocations he became acquainted with Mr. Warwick. We have +latterly seen a good deal of him. He is, I regret to say, seriously +unwell.' + +'I have heard of it.' + +'He has no female relations, it appears. He needs more care than he can +receive from hirelings.' + +'Are you empowered by him, Lady Wathin?' + +'I am, Mrs. Warwick. We will not waste time in apologies. He is most +anxious for a reconciliation. It seems to Sir Cramborne and to me the +most desireable thing for all parties concerned, if you can be induced to +regard it in that light. Mr. Warwick may or may not live; but the +estrangement is quite undoubtedly the cause of his illness. I touch on +nothing connected with it. I simply wish that you should not be in +ignorance of his proposal and his condition.' + +Diana bowed calmly. 'I grieve at his condition. His proposal has +already been made and replied to.' + +'Oh, but, Mrs. Warwick, an immediate and decisive refusal of a proposal +so fraught with consequences . . . !' + +'Ah, but, Lady Wathin, you are now outstepping the limits prescribed by +the office you have undertaken.' + +'You will not lend ear to an intercession?' + +'I will not.' + +'Of course, Mrs. Warwick, it is not for me to hint at things that lawyers +could say on the subject.' + +'Your forbearance is creditable, Lady Wathin.' + +'Believe me, Mrs. Warwick, the step is--I speak in my husband's name as +well as my own--strongly to be advised.' + +'If I hear one word more of it, I leave the country.' + +'I should be sorry indeed at any piece of rashness depriving your +numerous friends of your society. We have recently become acquainted +with Mr. Redworth, and I know the loss you would be to them. I have not +attempted an appeal to your feelings, Mrs. Warwick.' + +'I thank you warmly, Lady Wathin, for what you have not done.' + +The aristocratic airs of Mrs. Warwick were annoying to Lady Wathin when +she considered that they were borrowed, and that a pattern morality could +regard the woman as ostracized: nor was it agreeable to be looked at +through eyelashes under partially lifted brows. She had come to appeal +to the feelings of the wife; at any rate, to discover if she had some and +was better than a wild adventuress. + +'Our life below is short!' she said. To which Diana tacitly assented. + +'We have our little term, Mrs. Warwick. It is soon over.' + +'On the other hand, the platitudes concerning it are eternal.' + +Lady Wathin closed her eyes, that the like effect might be produced on +her ears. 'Ah! they are the truths. But it is not my business to +preach. Permit me to say that I feel deeply for your husband.' + +'I am glad of Mr. Warwick's having friends; and they are many, I hope.' + +'They cannot behold him perishing, without an effort on his behalf.' + +A chasm of silence intervened. Wifely pity was not sounded in it. + +'He will question me, Mrs. Warwick.' + +'You can report to him the heads of our conversation, Lady Wathin.' + +'Would you--it is your husband's most earnest wish; and our house is open +to his wife and to him for the purpose; and it seems to us that . . . +indeed it might avert a catastrophe you would necessarily deplore:--would +you consent to meet him at my house?' + +'It has already been asked, Lady Wathin, and refused.' + +'But at my house-under our auspices!' + +Diana glanced at the clock. 'Nowhere.' + +'Is it not--pardon me--a wife's duty, Mrs. Warwick, at least to listen?' + +'Lady Wathin, I have listened to you.' + +'In the case of his extreme generosity so putting it, for the present, +Mrs. Warwick, that he asks only to be heard personally by his wife! It +may preclude so much.' + +Diana felt a hot wind across her skin. + +She smiled and said: 'Let me thank you for bringing to an end a mission +that must have been unpleasant to you.' + +'But you will meditate on it, Mrs. Warwick, will you not? Give me that +assurance!' + +'I shall not forget it,' said Diana. + +Again the ladies touched fingers, with an interchange of the social +grimace of cordiality. A few words of compassion for poor Lady +Dunstane's invalided state covered Lady Wathin's retreat. + +She left, it struck her ruffled sentiments, an icy libertine, whom any +husband caring for his dignity and comfort was well rid of; and if only +she could have contrived allusively to bring in the name of Mr. Percy +Dacier, just to show these arrant coquettes, or worse, that they were not +quite so privileged to pursue their intrigues obscurely as they imagined, +it would have soothed her exasperation. + +She left a woman the prey of panic. + +Diana thought of Emma and Redworth, and of their foolish interposition +to save her character and keep her bound. She might now have been free! +The struggle with her manacles reduced her to a state of rebelliousness, +from which issued vivid illuminations of the one means of certain escape; +an abhorrent hissing cavern, that led to a place named Liberty, her +refuge, but a hectic place. + +Unable to write, hating the house which held her a fixed mark for these +attacks, she had an idea of flying straight to her beloved Lugano lake, +and there hiding, abandoning her friends, casting off the slave's name +she bore, and living free in spirit. She went so far as to reckon the +cost of a small household there, and justify the violent step by an +exposition of retrenchment upon her large London expenditure. She had +but to say farewell to Emma, no other tie to cut! One morning on the +Salvatore heights would wash her clear of the webs defacing and +entangling her. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +INDICATES A SOUL PREPARED FOR DESPERATION + +The month was August, four days before the closing of Parliament, and +Diana fancied it good for Arthur Rhodes to run down with her to Copsley. +He came to her invitation joyfully, reminding her of Lady Dunstane's wish +to hear some chapters of THE CANTATRICE, and the MS. was packed. They +started, taking rail and fly, and winding up the distance on foot. +August is the month of sober maturity and majestic foliage, songless, but +a crowned and royal-robed queenly month; and the youngster's appreciation +of the homely scenery refreshed Diana; his delight in being with her was +also pleasant. She had no wish to exchange him for another; and that was +a strengthening thought. + +At Copsley the arrival of their luggage had prepared the welcome. Warm +though it was, Diana perceived a change in Emma, an unwonted reserve, +a doubtfulness of her eyes, in spite of tenderness; and thus thrown back +on herself, thinking that if she had followed her own counsel (as she +called her impulse) in old days, there would have been no such present +misery, she at once, and unconsciously, assumed a guarded look. Based on +her knowledge of her honest footing, it was a little defiant. Secretly +in her bosom it was sharpened to a slight hostility by the knowledge that +her mind had been straying. The guilt and the innocence combined to +clothe her in mail, the innocence being positive, the guilt so vapoury. +But she was armed only if necessary, and there was no requirement for +armour. Emma did not question at all. She saw the alteration in her +Tony: she was too full of the tragic apprehensiveness, overmastering her +to speak of trifles. She had never confided to Tony the exact nature and +the growth of her malady, thinking it mortal, and fearing to alarm her +dearest. + +A portion of the manuscript was read out by Arthur Rhodes in the evening; +the remainder next morning. Redworth perceptibly was the model of the +English hero; and as to his person, no friend could complain of the +sketch; his clear-eyed heartiness, manliness, wholesomeness--a word of +Lady Dunstane's regarding him,--and his handsome braced figure, were well +painted. Emma forgave the: insistance on a certain bluntness of the +nose, in consideration of the fond limning of his honest and expressive +eyes, and the 'light on his temples,' which they had noticed together. +She could not so easily forgive the realistic picture of the man: an +exaggeration, she thought, of small foibles, that even if they existed, +should not have been stressed. The turn for 'calculating' was shown up +ridiculously; Mr. Cuthbert Dering was calculating in his impassioned +moods as well as in his cold. His head was a long division of ciphers. +He had statistics for spectacles, and beheld the world through them, and +the mistress he worshipped. + +'I see,' said Emma, during a pause; 'he is a Saxon. You still affect to +have the race en grippe, Tony.' + +'I give him every credit for what he is,' Diana replied. 'I admire the +finer qualities of the race as much as any one. You want to have them +presented to you in enamel, Emmy.' + +But the worst was an indication that the mania for calculating in and +out of season would lead to the catastrophe destructive of his happiness. +Emma could not bear that. Without asking herself whether it could be +possible that Tony knew the secret, or whether she would have laid it +bare, her sympathy for Redworth revolted at the exposure. She was +chilled. She let it pass; she merely said: 'I like the writing.' + +Diana understood that her story was condemned. + +She put on her robes of philosophy to cloak discouragement. 'I am glad +the writing pleases you.' + +'The characters are as true as life!' cried Arthur Rhodes. 'The +Cantatrice drinking porter from the pewter at the slips after harrowing +the hearts of her audience, is dearer to me than if she had tottered to a +sofa declining sustenance; and because her creatrix has infused such +blood of life into her that you accept naturally whatever she does. She +was exhausted, and required the porter, like a labourer in the +cornfield.' + +Emma looked at him, and perceived the poet swamped by the admirer. Taken +in conjunction with Mr. Cuthbert Dering's frenzy for calculating, she +disliked the incident of the porter and the pewter. + +'While the Cantatrice swallowed her draught, I suppose Mr. Dering counted +the cost?' she said. + +'It really might be hinted,' said Diana. + +The discussion closed with the accustomed pro and con upon the wart of +Cromwell's nose, Realism rejoicing in it, Idealism objecting. + +Arthur Rhodes was bidden to stretch his legs on a walk along the heights +in the afternoon, and Emma was further vexed by hearing Tony complain of +Redworth's treatment of the lad, whom he would not assist to any of the +snug little posts he was notoriously able to dispense. + +'He has talked of Mr. Rhodes to me,' said Emma. 'He thinks the +profession of literature a delusion, and doubts the wisdom of having +poets for clerks.' + +'John-Bullish!' Diana exclaimed. 'He speaks contemptuously of the poor +boy.' + +'Only inasmuch as the foolishness of the young man in throwing up the Law +provokes his practical mind to speak.' + +'He might take my word for the "young man's" ability. I want him to have +the means of living, that he may write. He has genius.' + +'He may have it. I like him, and have said so. If he were to go back to +his law-stool, I have no doubt that Redworth would manage to help him.' + +'And make a worthy ancient Braddock of a youth of splendid promise! Have +I sketched him too Saxon?' + +'It is the lens, and hot the tribe, Tony.' + +THE CANTATRICE was not alluded to any more; but Emma's disapproval +blocked the current of composition, already subject to chokings in the +brain of the author. Diana stayed three days at Copsley, one longer than +she had intended, so that Arthur Rhodes might have his fill of country +air. + +'I would keep him, but I should be no companion for him,' Emma said. + +'I suspect the gallant squire is only to be satisfied by landing me +safely,' said Diana, and that small remark grated, though Emma saw the +simple meaning. When they parted, she kissed her Tony many times. Tears +were in her eyes. It seemed to Diana that she was anxious to make amends +for the fit of alienation, and she was kissed in return warmly, quite +forgiven, notwithstanding the deadly blank she had caused in the +imagination of the writer for pay, distracted by the squabbles of Debit +and Credit. + +Diana chatted spiritedly to young Rhodes on their drive to the train. +She was profoundly discouraged by Emma's disapproval of her work. It +wanted but that one drop to make a recurrence to the work impossible. +There it must lie! And what of the aspects of her household?--Perhaps, +after all, the Redworths of the world are right, and Literature as a +profession is a delusive pursuit. She did not assent to it without +hostility to the world's Redworths.--'They have no sensitiveness, we have +too much. We are made of bubbles that a wind will burst, and as the wind +is always blowing, your practical Redworths have their crow of us.' + +She suggested advice to Arthur Rhodes upon the prudence of his resuming +the yoke of the Law. + +He laughed at such a notion, saying that he had some expectations of +money to come. + +'But I fear,' said he, 'that Lady Dunstane is very very ill. She begged +me to keep her informed of your address.' + +Diana told him he was one of those who should know it whithersoever she +went. She spoke impulsively, her sentiments of friendliness for the +youth being temporarily brightened by the strangeness of Emma's conduct +in deputing it to him to fulfil a duty she had never omitted. 'What can +she think I am going to do!' + +On her table at home lay, a letter from Mr. Warwick. She read it hastily +in the presence of Arthur Rhodes, having at a glance at the handwriting +anticipated the proposal it contained and the official phrasing. + +Her gallant squire was invited to dine with her that evening, costume +excused. + +They conversed of Literature as a profession, of poets dead and living, +of politics, which he abhorred and shied at, and of his prospects. He +wrote many rejected pages, enjoyed an income of eighty pounds per annum, +and eked out a subsistence upon the modest sum his pen procured him; a +sum extremely insignificant; but great Nature was his own, the world was +tributary to him, the future his bejewelled and expectant bride. Diana +envied his youthfulness. Nothing is more enviable, nothing richer to the +mind, than the aspect of a cheerful poverty. How much nobler it was, +contrasted with Redworth's amassing of wealth! + +When alone, she went to her bedroom and tried to write, tried to sleep. +Mr. Warwick's letter was looked at. It seemed to indicate a threat; but +for the moment it did not disturb her so much as the review of her moral +prostration. She wrote some lines to her lawyers, quoting one of Mr. +Warwick's sentences. That done, his letter was dismissed. Her +intolerable languor became alternately a defeating drowsiness and a +fever. She succeeded in the effort to smother the absolute cause: it was +not suffered to show a front; at the cost of her knowledge of a practised +self-deception. 'I wonder whether the world is as bad as a certain class +of writers tell us!' she sighed in weariness, and mused on their +soundings and probings of poor humanity, which the world accepts for the +very bottom truth if their dredge brings up sheer refuse of the +abominable. The world imagines those to be at our nature's depths who +are impudent enough to expose its muddy shallows. She was in the mood +for such a kind of writing: she could have started on it at once but that +the theme was wanting; and it may count on popularity, a great repute for +penetration. It is true of its kind, though the dredging of nature is +the miry form of art. When it flourishes we may be assured we have been +overenamelling the higher forms. She felt, and shuddered to feel, that +she could draw from dark stores. Hitherto in her works it had been a +triumph of the good. They revealed a gaping deficiency of the subtle +insight she now possessed. 'Exhibit humanity as it is, wallowing, +sensual, wicked, behind the mask,' a voice called to her; she was allured +by the contemplation of the wide-mouthed old dragon Ego, whose portrait, +decently painted, establishes an instant touch of exchange between author +and public, the latter detected and confessing. Next to the pantomime of +Humour and Pathos, a cynical surgical knife at the human bosom seems the +surest talisman for this agreeable exchange; and she could cut. She gave +herself a taste of her powers. She cut at herself mercilessly, and had +to bandage the wound in a hurry to keep in life. + +Metaphors were her refuge. Metaphorically she could allow her mind to +distinguish the struggle she was undergoing, sinking under it. The +banished of Eden had to put on metaphors, and the common use of them has +helped largely to civilize us. The sluggish in intellect detest them, +but our civilization is not much indebted to that major faction. +Especially are they needed by the pedestalled woman in her conflict with +the natural. Diana saw herself through the haze she conjured up. 'Am I +worse than other women?' was a piercing twithought. Worse, would be +hideous isolation. The not worse, abased her sex. She could afford to +say that the world was bad: not that women were. + +Sinking deeper, an anguish of humiliation smote her to a sense of +drowning. For what of the poetic ecstasy on her Salvatore heights had +not been of origin divine? had sprung from other than spiritual founts? +had sprung from the reddened sources she was compelled to conceal? Could +it be? She would not believe it. But there was matter to clip her +wings, quench her light, in the doubt. + +She fell asleep like the wrecked flung ashore. + +Danvers entered her room at an early hour for London to inform her that +Mr. Percy Dacier was below, and begged permission to wait. + +Diana gave orders for breakfast to be proposed to him. She lay staring +at the wall until it became too visibly a reflection of her mind. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +ONCE MORE THE CROSSWAYS AND A CHANGE OF TURNINGS + +The suspicion of his having come to impart the news of his proximate +marriage ultimately endowed her with sovereign calmness. She had need to +think it, and she did. Tea was brought to her while she dressed; she +descended the stairs revolving phrases of happy congratulation and the +world's ordinary epigrams upon the marriage-tie, neatly mixed. + +They read in one another's faces a different meaning from the empty words +of excuse and welcome. Dacier's expressed the buckling of a strong set +purpose; but, grieved by the look of her eyes, he wasted a moment to say: +'You have not slept. You have heard . . . ?' + +'What?' said she, trying to speculate; and that was a sufficient answer. + +'I hadn't the courage to call last night; I passed the windows. Give me +your hand, I beg.' + +She gave her hand in wonderment, and more wonderingly felt it squeezed. +Her heart began the hammerthump. She spoke an unintelligible something; +saw herself melting away to utter weakness-pride, reserve, simple +prudence, all going; crumbled ruins where had stood a fortress imposing +to men. Was it love? Her heart thumped shiveringly. + +He kept her hand, indifferent to the gentle tension. + +'This is the point: I cannot live without you: I have gone on . . . +Who was here last night? Forgive me.' + +'You know Arthur Rhodes.' + +'I saw him leave the door at eleven. Why do you torture me? There's no +time to lose now. You will be claimed. Come, and let us two cut the +knot. It is the best thing in the world for me--the only thing. Be +brave! I have your hand. Give it for good, and for heaven's sake don't +play the sex. Be yourself. Dear soul of a woman! I never saw the soul +in one but in you. I have waited: nothing but the dread of losing you +sets me speaking now. And for you to be sacrificed a second time to +that--! Oh, no! You know you can trust me. On my honour, I take breath +from you. You are my better in everything--guide, goddess, dearest +heart! Trust me; make me master of your fate.' + +'But my friend!' the murmur hung in her throat. He was marvellously +transformed; he allowed no space for the arts of defence and evasion. + +'I wish I had the trick of courting. There's not time; and I 'm a +simpleton at the game. We can start this evening. Once away, we leave +it to them to settle the matter, and then you are free, and mine to the +death.' + +'But speak, speak! What is it?' Diana said. + +'That if we delay, I 'm in danger of losing you altogether.' + +Her eyes lightened: 'You mean that you have heard he has determined--?' + +'There's a process of the law. But stop it. Just this one step, and it +ends. Whether intended or not, it hangs over you, and you will be +perpetually tormented. Why waste your whole youth?--and mine as well! +For I am bound to you as much as if we had stood at the altar--where we +will stand together the instant you are free.' + +'But where have you heard . . .? + +'From an intimate friend. I will tell you--sufficiently intimate--from +Lady Wathin. Nothing of a friend, but I see this woman at times. She +chose to speak of it to me it doesn't matter why. She is in his +confidence, and pitched me a whimpering tale. Let those people chatter. +But it 's exactly for those people that you are hanging in chains, all +your youth shrivelling. Let them shout their worst! It's the bark of a +day; and you won't hear it; half a year, and it will be over, and I shall +bring you back--the husband of the noblest bride in Christendom! You +don't mistrust me?' + +'It is not that,' said she. 'But now drop my hand. I am imprisoned.' + +'It's asking too much. I've lost you--too many times. I have the hand +and I keep it. I take nothing but the hand. It's the hand I want. +I give you mine. I love you. Now I know what love is!--and the word +carries nothing of its weight. Tell me you do not doubt my honour.' + +'Not at all. But be rational. I must think, and I cannot while you keep +my hand.' + +He kissed it. 'I keep my own against the world.' + +A cry of rebuke swelled to her lips at his conqueror's tone. It was not +uttered, for directness was in his character and his wooing loyal--save +for bitter circumstances, delicious to hear; and so narrow was the ring +he had wound about her senses, that her loathing of the circumstances +pushed her to acknowledge within her bell of a heart her love for him. + +He was luckless enough to say: 'Diana!' + +It rang horridly of her husband. She drew her hand to loosen it, with +repulsing brows. 'Not that name!' + +Dacier was too full of his honest advocacy of the passionate lover to +take a rebuff. There lay his unconscious mastery, where the common arts +of attack would have tripped him with a quick-witted woman, and where a +man of passion, not allowing her to succumb in dignity, would have +alarmed her to the breaking loose from him. + +'Lady Dunstane calls you Tony.' + +'She is my dearest and oldest friend.' + +'You and I don't count by years. You are the dearest to me on earth, +Tony!' + +She debated as to forbidding that name. + +The moment's pause wrapped her in a mental hurricane, out of which she +came with a heart stopped, her olive cheeks ashen-hued. She had seen +that the step was possible. + +'Oh! Percy, Percy, are we mad?' + +'Not mad. We take what is ours. Tell me, have I ever, ever disrespected +you? You were sacred to me; and you are, though now the change has come. +Look back on it--it is time lost, years that are dust. But look forward, +and you cannot imagine our separation. What I propose is plain sense for +us two. Since Rovio, I have been at your feet. Have I not some just +claim for recompense? Tell me! Tony!' + +The sweetness of the secret name, the privileged name, in his mouth stole +through her blood, melting resistance. + +She had consented. The swarthy flaming of her face avowed it even more +than the surrender of her hand. He gained much by claiming little: he +respected her, gave her no touches of fright and shame; and it was her +glory to fall with pride. An attempt at a caress would have awakened her +view of the whitherward: but she was treated as a sovereign lady +rationally advised. + +'Is it since Rovio, Percy?' + +'Since the morning when you refused me one little flower.' + +'If I had given it, you might have been saved!' + +'I fancy I was doomed from the beginning.' + +'I was worth a thought?' + +'Worth a life! worth ten thousand!' + +'You have reckoned it all like a sane man:--family, position, the world, +the scandal?' + +'All. I have long known that you were the mate for me. You have to +weather a gale, Tony. It won't last. My dearest! it won't last many +months. I regret the trial for you, but I shall be with you, burning for +the day to reinstate you and show you the queen you are.' + +'Yes, we two can have no covert dealings, Percy,' said Diana. They would +be hateful--baseness! Rejecting any baseness, it seemed to her that she +stood in some brightness. The light was of a lurid sort. She called on +her heart to glory in it as the light of tried love, the love that defied +the world. Her heart rose. She and he would at a single step give proof +of their love for one another--and this kingdom of love--how different +from her recent craven languors!--this kingdom awaited her, was hers for +one word; and beset with the oceans of enemies, it was unassailable. If +only they were true to the love they vowed, no human force could subvert +it: and she doubted him as little as of herself. This new kingdom of +love, never entered by her, acclaiming her, was well-nigh unimaginable, +in spite of the many hooded messengers it had despatched to her of late. +She could hardly believe that it had come. + +'But see me as I am,' she said; she faltered it through her direct gaze +on him. + +'With chains to strike off? Certainly; it is done,' he replied. + +'Rather heavier than those of the slave-market! I am the deadest of +burdens. It means that your enemies, personal--if you have any, and +political--you have numbers; will raise a cry . . . . Realize it. +You may still be my friend. I forgive the bit of wildness.' + +She provoked a renewed kissing of her hand; for magnammity in love is +an overflowing danger; and when he said: 'The burden you have to bear +outweighs mine out of all comparison. What is it to a man--a public man +or not! The woman is always the victim. That's why I have held myself +in so long:--her strung frame softened. She half yielded to the tug on +her arm. + +'Is there no talking for us without foolishness?' she murmured. The +foolishness had wafted her to sea, far from sight of land. 'Now sit, and +speak soberly. Discuss the matter.--Yes, my hand, but I must have my +wits. Leave me free to use them till we choose our path. Let it be the +brains between us, as far as it can. You ask me to join my fate to +yours. It signifies a sharp battle for you, dear friend; perhaps the +blighting of the most promising life in England. One question is, can I +countervail the burden I shall be, by such help to you as I can afford? +Burden, is no word--I rake up a buried fever. I have partially lived it +down, and instantly I am covered with spots. The old false charges and +this plain offence make a monster of me.' + +'And meanwhile you are at the disposal of the man who falsely charged you +and armed the world against you,' said Dacier. + +'I can fly. The world is wide.' + +'Time slips. Your youth is wasted. If you escape the man, he will have +triumphed in keeping you from me. And I thirst for you; I look to you +for aid and counsel; I want my mate. You have not to be told how you +inspire me? I am really less than half myself without you. If I am to +do anything in the world, it must be with your aid, you beside me. +Our hands are joined: one leap! Do you not see that after . . . well, +it cannot be friendship. It imposes rather more on me than I can bear. +You are not the woman to trifle; nor I; Tony, the man for it with a woman +like you. You are my spring of wisdom. You interdict me altogether--can +you?--or we unite our fates, like these hands now. Try to get yours +away!' + +Her effort ended in a pressure. Resistance, nay, to hesitate at the +joining of her life with his after her submission to what was a scorching +fire in memory, though it was less than an embrace, accused her of worse +than foolishness. + +'Well, then,' said she, 'wait three days. Deliberate. Oh! try to know +yourself, for your clear reason to guide you. Let us be something better +than the crowd abusing us, not simple creatures of impulse--as we choose +to call the animal. What if we had to confess that we took to our heels +the moment the idea struck us! Three days. We may then pretend to a +philosophical resolve. Then come to me: or write to me.' + +'How long is it since the old Rovio morning, Tony?' + +'An age.' + +'Date my deliberations from that day.' + +The thought of hers having to be dated possibly from an earlier day, +robbed her of her summit of feminine isolation, and she trembled, chilled +and flushed; she lost all anchorage. + +'So it must be to-morrow,' said he, reading her closely, 'not later. +Better at once. But women are not to be hurried.' + +'Oh! don't class me, Percy, pray! I think of you, not of myself.' + +'You suppose that in a day or two I might vary?' + +She fixed her eyes on him, expressing certainty of his unalterable +stedfastness. The look allured. It changed: her head shook. She held +away and said: 'No, leave me; leave me, dear, dear friend. Percy, my +dearest! I will not "play the sex." I am yours if . . . if it is +your wish. It may as well be to-morrow. Here I am useless; I cannot +write, not screw a thought from my head. I dread that "process of the +Law" a second time. To-morrow, if it must be. But no impulses. Fortune +is blind; she may be kind to us. The blindness of Fortune is her one +merit, and fools accuse her of it, and they profit by it! I fear we all +of us have our turn of folly: we throw the stake for good luck. I hope +my sin is not very great. I know my position is desperate. I feel a +culprit. But I am sure I have courage, perhaps brains to help. At any +rate, I may say this: I bring no burden to my lover that he does not know +of.' + +Dacier pressed her hand. 'Money we shall have enough. My uncle has left +me fairly supplied.' + +'What would he think?' said Diana, half in a glimpse of meditation. + +'Think me the luckiest of the breeched. I fancy I hear him thanking you +for "making a man" of me.' + +She blushed. Some such phrase might have been spoken by Lord +Dannisburgh. + +'I have but a poor sum of money,' she said. 'I may be able to write +abroad. Here I cannot--if I am to be persecuted.' + +'You shall write, with a new pen!' said Dacier. 'You shall live, my +darling Tony. You have been held too long in this miserable suspension, +neither maid nor wife, neither woman nor stockfish. Ah! shameful. But +we 'll right it. The step, for us, is the most reasonable that could be +considered. You shake your head. But the circumstances make it so. +Courage, and we come to happiness! And that, for you and me, means work. +Look at the case of Lord and Lady Dulac. It's identical, except that she +is no match beside you: and I do not compare her antecedents with yours. +But she braved the leap, and forced the world to swallow it, and now, you +see, she's perfectly honoured. I know a place on a peak of the Maritime +Alps, exquisite in summer, cool, perfectly solitary, no English, snow +round us, pastures at our feet, and the Mediterranean below. There! my +Tony. To-morrow night we start. You will meet me-shall I call here?-- +well, then at the railway station, the South-Eastern, for Paris: say, +twenty minutes to eight. I have your pledge? You will come?' + +She sighed it, then said it firmly, to be worthy of him. Kind Fortune, +peeping under the edge of her bandaged eyes, appeared willing to bestow +the beginning of happiness upon one who thought she had a claim to a +small taste of it before she died. It seemed distinguishingly done, to +give a bite of happiness to the starving! + +'I fancied when you were announced that you came for congratulations upon +your approaching marriage, Percy.' + +'I shall expect to hear them from you to-morrow evening at the station, +dear Tony,' said he. + +The time was again stated, the pledge repeated. He forbore entreaties +for privileges, and won her gratitude. + +They named once more the place of meeting and the hour: more significant +to them than phrases of intensest love and passion. Pressing hands +sharply for pledge of good faith, they sundered. + +She still had him in her eyes when he had gone. Her old world lay +shattered; her new world was up without a dawn, with but one figure, the +sun of it, to light the swinging strangeness. + +Was ever man more marvellously transformed? or woman more wildly swept +from earth into the clouds? So she mused in the hum of her tempest of +heart and brain, forgetful of the years and the conditions preparing both +of them for this explosion. + +She had much to do: the arrangements to dismiss her servants, write to +house-agents and her lawyer, and write fully to Emma, write the enigmatic +farewell to the Esquarts and Lady Pennon, Mary Paynham, Arthur Rhodes, +Whitmonby (stanch in friendship, but requiring friendly touches), Henry +Wilmers, and Redworth. He was reserved to the last, for very enigmatical +adieux: he would hear the whole story from Emma; must be left to think as +he liked. + +The vague letters were excellently well composed: she was going abroad, +and knew not when she would return; bade her friends think the best they +could of her in the meantime. Whitmonby was favoured with an anecdote, +to be read as an apologue by the light of subsequent events. But the +letter to Emma tasked Diana. Intending to write fully, her pen committed +the briefest sentences: the tenderness she felt for Emma wakening her +heart to sing that she was loved, loved, and knew love at last; and +Emma's foreseen antagonism to the love and the step it involved rendered +her pleadings in exculpation a stammered confession of guiltiness, +ignominious, unworthy of the pride she felt in her lover. 'I am like a +cartridge rammed into a gun, to be discharged at a certain hour +tomorrow,' she wrote; and she sealed a letter so frigid that she could +not decide to post it. All day she imagined hearing a distant cannonade. +The light of the day following was not like earthly light. Danvers +assured her there was no fog in London. + +'London is insupportable; I am going to Paris, and shall send for you in +a week or two,' said Diana. + +'Allow me to say, ma'am, that you had better take me with you,' said +Danvers. + +'Are you afraid of travelling by yourself, you foolish creature?' + +'No, ma'am, but I don't like any hands to undress and dress my mistress +but my own.' + +'I have not lost the art,' said Diana, chafing for a magic spell to +extinguish the woman, to whom, immediately pitying her, she said: 'You +are a good faithful soul. I think you have never kissed me. Kiss me on +the forehead.' + +Danvers put her lips to her mistress's forehead, and was asked: 'You +still consider yourself attached to my fortunes?' + +'I do, ma'am, at home or abroad; and if you will take me with you . . ' + +'Not for a week or so.' + +'I shall not be in the way, ma'am.' + +They played at shutting eyes. The petition of Danvers was declined; +which taught her the more; and she was emboldened to say: 'Wherever my +mistress goes, she ought to have her attendant with her.' There was no +answer to it but the refusal. + +The hours crumbled slowly, each with a blow at the passages of retreat. +Diana thought of herself as another person, whom she observed, not +counselling her, because it was a creature visibly pushed by the Fates. +In her own mind she could not perceive a stone of solidity anywhere, nor +a face that had the appearance of our common life. She heard the cannon +at intervals. The things she said set Danvers laughing, and she wondered +at the woman's mingled mirth and stiffness. Five o'clock struck. Her +letters were sent to the post. Her boxes were piled from stairs to door. +She read the labels, for her good-bye to the hated name of Warwick:--why +ever adopted! Emma might well have questioned why! Women are guilty of +such unreasoning acts! But this was the close to that chapter. The hour +of six went by. Between six and seven came a sound of knocker and bell +at the street-door. Danvers rushed into the sitting-room to announce +that it was Mr. Redworth. Before a word could be mustered, Redworth was +in the room. He said: 'You must come with me at once!' + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +IN WHICH A DISAPPOINTED LOVER RECEIVES A MULTITUDE OF LESSONS + +Dacier welted at the station, a good figure of a sentinel over his +luggage and a spy for one among the inpouring passengers. Tickets had +been confidently taken, the private division of the carriages happily +secured. On board the boat she would be veiled. Landed on French soil, +they threw off disguises, breasted the facts. And those? They +lightened. He smarted with his eagerness. + +He had come well in advance of the appointed time, for he would not have +had her hang about there one minute alone. + +Strange as this adventure was to a man of prominent station before the +world, and electrical as the turning-point of a destiny that he was given +to weigh deliberately and far-sightedly, Diana's image strung him to the +pitch of it. He looked nowhere but ahead, like an archer putting hand +for his arrow. + +Presently he compared his watch and the terminus clock. She should now +be arriving. He went out to meet her and do service. Many cabs and +carriages were peered into, couples inspected, ladies and their maids, +wives and their husbands--an August exodus to the Continent. Nowhere the +starry she. But he had a fund of patience. She was now in some block of +the streets. He was sure of her, sure of her courage. Tony and +recreancy could not go together. Now that he called her Tony, she was +his close comrade, known; the name was a caress and a promise, breathing +of her, as the rose of sweetest earth. He counted it to be a month ere +his family would have wind of the altered position of his affairs, +possibly a year to the day of his making the dear woman his own in the +eyes of the world. She was dear past computation, womanly, yet quite +unlike the womanish woman, unlike the semi-males courteously called +dashing, unlike the sentimental. His present passion for her lineaments, +declared her surpassingly beautiful, though his critical taste was rather +for the white statue that gave no warmth. She had brains and ardour, she +had grace and sweetness, a playful petulancy enlivening our atmosphere, +and withal a refinement, a distinction, not to be classed; and justly +might she dislike the being classed. Her humour was a perennial +refreshment, a running well, that caught all the colours of light; her +wit studded the heavens of the recollection of her. In his heart he felt +that it was a stepping down for the brilliant woman to give him her hand; +a condescension and an act of valour. She who always led or prompted +when they conversed, had now in her generosity abandoned the lead and +herself to him, and she deserved his utmost honouring. + +But where was she? He looked at his watch, looked at the clock. They +said the same: ten minutes to the moment of the train's departure. + +A man may still afford to dwell on the charms and merits of his heart's +mistress while he has ten minutes to spare. The dropping minutes, +however, detract one by one from her individuality and threaten to sink +her in her sex entirely. It is the inexorable clock that says she is as +other women. Dacier began to chafe. He was unaccustomed to the part he +was performing:--and if she failed him? She would not. She would be +late, though. No, she was in time! His long legs crossed the platform +to overtake a tall lady veiled and dressed in black. He lifted his hat; +he heard an alarmed little cry and retired. The clock said, Five +minutes: a secret chiromancy in addition indicating on its face the word +Fool. An odd word to be cast at him! It rocked the icy pillar of pride +in the background of his nature. Certainly standing solos at the hour of +eight P.M., he would stand for a fool. Hitherto he had never allowed a +woman to chance to posture him in that character. He strode out, +returned, scanned every lady's shape, and for a distraction watched the +veiled lady whom he had accosted. Her figure suggested pleasant +features. Either she was disappointed or she was an adept. At the +shutting of the gates she glided through, not without a fearful look +around and at him. She disappeared. Dacier shrugged. His novel +assimilation to the rat-rabble of amatory intriguers tapped him on the +shoulder unpleasantly. A luckless member of the fraternity too! The +bell, the clock and the train gave him his title. 'And I was ready to +fling down everything for the woman!' The trial of a superb London +gentleman's resources in the love-passion could not have been much +keener. No sign of her. + +He who stands ready to defy the world, and is baffled by the absence of +his fair assistant, is the fool doubled, so completely the fool that he +heads the universal shout; he does not spare himself. The sole +consolation he has is to revile the sex. Women! women! Whom have they +not made a fool of! His uncle as much as any--and professing to know +them. Him also! the man proud of escaping their wiles. 'For this woman +. . . !' he went on saying after he had lost sight of her in her sex's +trickeries. The nearest he could get to her was to conceive that the +arrant coquette was now laughing at her utter subjugation and befooling +of the man popularly supposed invincible. If it were known of him! +The idea of his being a puppet fixed for derision was madly distempering. +He had only to ask the affirmative of Constance Asper to-morrow! +A vision of his determination to do it, somewhat comforted him. + +Dacier walked up and down the platform, passing his pile of luggage, +solitary and eloquent on the barrow. Never in his life having been made +to look a fool, he felt the red heat of the thing, as a man who has not +blessedly become acquainted with the swish in boyhood finds his +untempered blood turn to poison at a blow; he cannot healthily take a +licking. But then it had been so splendid an insanity when he urged +Diana to fly with him. Any one but a woman would have appreciated the +sacrifice. + +His luggage had to be removed. He dropped his porter a lordly fee and +drove home. From that astonished solitude he strolled to his Club. +Curiosity mastering the wrath it was mixed with, he left his Club and +crossed the park southward in the direction of Diana's house, abusing her +for her inveterate attachment to the regions of Westminster. There she +used to receive Lord Dannisburgh; innocently, no doubt-assuredly quite +innocently; and her husband had quitted the district. Still it was +rather childish for a woman to-be always haunting the seats of +Parliament. Her disposition to imagine that she was able to inspire +statesmen came in for a share of ridicule; for when we know ourselves +to be ridiculous, a retort in kind, unjust upon consideration, is balm. +The woman dragged him down to the level of common men; that was the +peculiar injury, and it swept her undistinguished into the stream of +women. In appearance, as he had proved to the fellows at his Club, he +was perfectly self-possessed, mentally distracted and bitter, hating +himself for it, snapping at the cause of it. She had not merely +disappointed, she had slashed his high conceit of himself, curbed him at +the first animal dash forward, and he champed the bit with the fury of a +thwarted racer. + +Twice he passed her house. Of course no light was shown at her windows. +They were scanned malignly. + +He held it due to her to call and inquire whether there was any truth in +the report of Mrs. Warwick's illness. Mrs. Warwick! She meant to keep +the name. + +A maid-servant came to the door with a candle in her hand revealing red +eyelids. She was not aware that her mistress was unwell. Her mistress +had left home some time after six o'clock with a gentleman. She was +unable to tell him the gentleman's name. William, the footman, had +opened the door to him. Her mistress's maid Mrs. Danvers had gone to the +Play--with William. She thought that Mrs. Danvers might know who the +gentleman was. The girl's eyelids blinked, and she turned aside. Dacier +consoled her with a piece of gold, saying he would come and see Mrs. +Danvers in the morning. + +His wrath was partially quieted by the new speculations offered up to it. +He could not conjure a suspicion of treachery in Diana Warwick; and a +treachery so foully cynical! She had gone with a gentleman. He guessed +on all sides; he struck at walls, as in complete obscurity. + +The mystery of her conduct troubling his wits for the many hours was +explained by Danvers. With a sympathy that she was at pains to show, she +informed him that her mistress was not at all unwell, and related of how +Mr. Redworth had arrived just when her mistress was on the point of +starting for Paris and the Continent; because poor Lady Dunstane was +this very day to undergo an operation under the surgeons at Copsley, and +she did not wish her mistress to be present, but Mr. Redworth thought her +mistress ought to be there, and he had gone down thinking she was there, +and then came back in hot haste to fetch her, and was just in time, as it +happened, by two or three minutes. + +Dacier rewarded the sympathetic woman for her intelligence, which +appeared to him to have shot so far as to require a bribe. Gratitude to +the person soothing his unwontedly ruffled temper was the cause of the +indiscretion in the amount he gave. + +It appeared to him that he ought to proceed to Copsley for tidings of +Lady Dunstane. Thither he sped by the handy railway and a timely train. +He reached the parkgates at three in the afternoon, telling his flyman to +wait. As he advanced by short cuts over the grass, he studied the look +of the rows of windows. She was within, and strangely to his clouded +senses she was no longer Tony, no longer the deceptive woman he could in +justice abuse. He and she, so close to union, were divided. A hand +resembling the palpable interposition of Fate had swept them asunder. +Having the poorest right--not any--to reproach her, he was disarmed, he +felt himself a miserable intruder; he summoned his passion to excuse him, +and gained some unsatisfied repose of mind by contemplating its devoted +sincerity; which roused an effort to feel for the sufferer--Diana +Warwick's friend. With the pair of surgeons named, the most eminent of +their day, in attendance, the case must be serious. To vindicate the +breaker of her pledge, his present plight likewise assured him of that, +and nearing the house he adopted instinctively the funeral step and mood, +just sensible of a novel smallness. For the fortifying testimony of his +passion had to be put aside, he was obliged to disavow it for a simpler +motive if he applied at the door. He stressed the motive, produced the +sentiment, and passed thus naturally into hypocrisy, as lovers +precipitated by their blood among the crises of human conditions are +often forced to do. He had come to inquire after Lady Dunstane. He +remembered that it had struck him as a duty, on hearing of her dangerous +illness. + +The door opened before he touched the bell. Sir Lukin knocked against +him and stared. + +'Ah!--who--?--you?' he said, and took him by the arm and pressed him on +along the gravel. 'Dacier, are you? Redworth's in there. Come on a +step, come! It's the time for us to pray. Good God! There's mercy for +sinners. If ever there was a man! . . . But, oh, good God! she's in +their hands this minute. My saint is under the knife.' + +Dacier was hurried forward by a powerful hand. 'They say it lasts about +five minutes, four and a half--or more! My God! When they turned me out +of her room, she smiled to keep me calm. She said: "Dear husband": the +veriest wretch and brutallest husband ever poor woman . . . and a +saint! a saint on earth! Emmy!' Tears burst from him. + +He pulled forth his watch and asked Dacier for the time. + +'A minute's gone in a minute. It's three minutes and a half. Come +faster. They're at their work! It's life or death. I've had death +about me. But for a woman! and your wife! and that brave soul! She +bears it so. Women are the bravest creatures afloat. If they make her +shriek, it'll be only if she thinks I 'm out of hearing. No: I see her. +She bears it!--They mayn't have begun yet. It may all be over! Come +into the wood. I must pray. I must go on my knees.' + +Two or three steps in the wood, at the mossed roots of a beech, he fell +kneeling, muttering, exclaiming. + +The tempest of penitence closed with a blind look at his watch, which he +left dangling. He had to talk to drug his thoughts. + +'And mind you,' said he, when he had rejoined Dacier and was pushing his +arm again, rounding beneath the trees to a view of the house, 'for a man +steeped in damnable iniquity! She bears it all for me, because I begged +her, for the chance of her living. It's my doing--this knife! +Macpherson swears there is a chance. Thomson backs him. But they're at +her, cutting! . . . The pain must be awful--the mere pain! The +gentlest creature ever drew breath! And women fear blood--and her own! +And a head! She ought to have married the best man alive, not a--! I +can't remember her once complaining of me--not once. A common donkey +compared to her! All I can do is to pray. And she knows the beast I am, +and has forgiven me. There isn't a blessed text of Scripture that +doesn't cry out in praise of her. And they cut and hack . . . !' He +dropped his head. The vehement big man heaved, shuddering. His lips +worked fast. + +'She is not alone with them, unsupported?' said Dacier. + +Sir Lukin moaned for relief. He caught his watch swinging and stared at +it. 'What a good fellow you were to come! Now 's the time to know your +friends. There's Diana Warwick, true as steel. Redworth came on her +tiptoe for the Continent; he had only to mention . . . Emmy wanted +to spare her. She would not have sent--wanted to spare her the sight. +I offered to stand by . . . Chased me out. Diana Warwick's there:-- +worth fifty of me! Dacier, I've had my sword-blade tried by Indian +horsemen, and I know what true as steel means. She's there. And I know +she shrinks from the sight of blood. My oath on it, she won't quiver a +muscle! Next to my wife, you may take my word for it, Dacier, Diana +Warwick is the pick of living women. I could prove it. They go +together. I could prove it over and over. She 's the loyallest woman +anywhere. Her one error was that marriage of hers, and how she ever +pitched herself into it, none of us can guess.' After a while, he said: +'Look at your watch.' + +'Nearly twenty minutes gone.' + +'Are they afraid to send out word? It's that window !' He covered his +eyes, and muttered, sighed. He became abruptly composed in appearance. +'The worst of a black sheep like me is, I'm such an infernal sinner, that +Providence! . . . But both surgeons gave me their word of honour that +there was a chance. A chance! But it's the end of me if Emmy . . . . +Good God! no! the knife's enough; don't let her be killed! It would be +murder. Here am I talking! I ought to be praying. I should have sent +for the parson to help me; I can't get the proper words--bellow like a +rascal trooper strung up for the cat. It must be twenty-five minutes +now. Who's alive now!' + +Dacier thought of the Persian Queen crying for news of the slaughtered, +with her mind on her lord and husband: 'Who is not dead?' Diana exalted +poets, and here was an example of the truth of one to nature, and of the +poor husband's depth of feeling. They said not the same thing, but it +was the same cry de profundis. + +He saw Redworth coming at a quick pace. + +Redworth raised his hand. Sir Lukin stopped. 'He's waving!' + +'It's good,' said Dacier. + +'Speak! are you sure?' + +'I judge by the look.' + +Redworth stepped unfalteringly. + +'It's over, all well,' he said. He brushed his forehead and looked +sharply cheerful. + +'My dear fellow! my dear fellow!' Sir Lukin grasped his hand. 'It's more +than I deserve. Over? She has borne it! She would have gone to heaven +and left me! + +Is she safe?' + +'Doing well.' + +'Have you seen the surgeons?' + +'Mrs. Warwick.' + +'What did she say?' + +'A nod of the head.' + +'You saw her?' + +'She came to the stairs.' + +'Diana Warwick never lies. She wouldn't lie, not with a nod! They've +saved Emmy--do you think?' + +'It looks well.' + +My girl has passed the worst of it?' + +'That's over.' + +Sir Lukin gazed glassily. The necessity of his agony was to lean to the +belief, at a beckoning, that Providence pardoned him, in tenderness for +what would have been his loss. He realized it, and experienced a sudden +calm: testifying to the positive pardon. + +'Now, look here, you two fellows, listen half a moment,' he addressed +Redworth and Dacier; 'I've been the biggest scoundrel of a husband +unhung, and married to a saint; and if she's only saved to me; I'll swear +to serve her faithfully, or may a thunderbolt knock me to perdition! +and thank God for his justice! Prayers are answered, mind you, though +a fellow may be as black as a sweep. Take a warning from me. I've had +my lesson.' + +Dacier soon after talked of going. The hope of seeing Diana had +abandoned him, the desire was almost extinct. + +Sir Lukin could not let him go. He yearned to preach to him or any one +from his personal text of the sinner honourably remorseful on account of +and notwithstanding the forgiveness of Providence, and he implored Dacier +and Redworth by turns to be careful when they married of how they behaved +to--the sainted women their wives; never to lend ear to the devil, nor to +believe, as he had done, that there is no such thing as a devil, for he +had been the victim of him, and he knew. The devil, he loudly +proclaimed, has a multiplicity of lures, and none more deadly than when +he baits with a petticoat. He had been hooked, and had found the devil +in person. He begged them urgently to keep his example in memory. By +following this and that wildfire he had stuck himself in a bog--a common +result with those who would not see the devil at work upon them; and it +required his dear suffering saint to be at death's doors, cut to pieces +and gasping, to open his eyes. But, thank heaven, they were opened at +last! Now he saw the beast he was: a filthy beast! unworthy of tying +his wife's shoestring. No confessions could expose to them the beast he +was. But let them not fancy there was no such thing as an active DEVIL +about the world. + +Redworth divined that the simply sensational man abased himself before +Providence and heaped his gratitude on the awful Power in order to render +it difficult for the promise of the safety of his wife to be withdrawn. + +He said: 'There is good hope'; and drew an admonition upon himself. + +'Ah! my dear good Redworth,' Sir Lukin sighed from his elevation of +outspoken penitence: 'you will see as I do some day. It is the devil, +think as you like of it. When you have pulled down all the Institutions +of the Country, what do you expect but ruins? That Radicalism of yours +has its day. You have to go through a wrestle like mine to understand +it. You say, the day is fine, let's have our game. Old England pays for +it! Then you'll find how you love the old land of your birth--the +noblest ever called a nation!--with your Corn Law Repeals!--eh, Dacier? +--You 'll own it was the devil tempted you. I hear you apologizing. +Pray God, it mayn't be too late!' + +He looked up at the windows. 'She may be sinking!' + +'Have no fears,' Redworth said; 'Mrs. Warwick would send for you.' + +'She would. Diana Warwick would be sure to send. Next to my wife, Diana +Warwick's . . . she'd send, never fear. I dread that room. I'd +rather go through a regiment of sabres--though it 's over now. And Diana +Warwick stood it. The worst is over, you told me. By heaven! women are +wonderful creatures. But she hasn't a peer for courage. I could trust +her--most extraordinary thing; that marriage of hers!--not a soul has +ever been able to explain it:--trust her to the death.' + +Redworth left them, and Sir Lukin ejaculated on the merits of Diana +Warwick to Dacier. He laughed scornfully: 'And that's the woman the +world attacks for want of virtue! Why, a fellow hasn't a chance with +her, not a chance. She comes out in blazing armour if you unmask a +battery. I don't know how it might be if she were in love with a fellow. +I doubt her thinking men worth the trouble. I never met the man. But if +she were to take fire, Troy 'd be nothing to it. I wonder whether we +might go in: I dread the house.' + +Dacier spoke of departing. + +'No, no, wait,' Sir Lukin begged him. 'I was talking about women. They +are the devil--or he makes most use of them: and you must learn to see +the cloven foot under their petticoats, if you're to escape them. +There's no protection in being in love with your wife; I married for +love; I am, I always have been, in love with her; and I went to the +deuce. The music struck up and away I waltzed. A woman like Diana +Warwick might keep a fellow straight, because she,'s all round you; she's +man and woman in brains; and legged like a deer, and breasted like a +swan, and a regular sheaf of arrows--in her eyes. Dark women--ah! +But she has a contempt for us, you know. That's the secret of her.-- +Redworth 's at the door. Bad? Is it bad? I never was particularly fond +of that house--hated it. I love it now for Emmy's sake. I couldn't live +in another--though I should be haunted. Rather her ghost than nothing-- +though I'm an infernal coward about the next world. But if you're right +with religion you needn't fear. What I can't comprehend in Redworth is +his Radicalism, and getting richer and richer.' + +'It's not a vow of poverty,' said Dacier. + +'He'll find they don't coalesce, or his children will. Once the masses +are uppermost! It's a bad day, Dacier, when we 've no more gentlemen in +the land. Emmy backs him, so I hold my tongue. To-morrow's a Sunday. +I wish you were staying here; I 'd take you to church with me-we shirk +it when we haven't a care. It couldn't do you harm. I've heard capital +sermons. I've always had the good habit of going to church, Dacier. +Now 's the time for remembering them. Ah, my dear fellow, I 'm not a +parson. It would have been better for me if I had been.' + +And for you too! his look added plainly. He longed to preach; he was +impelled to chatter. + +Redworth reported the patient perfectly quiet, breathing calmly. + +'Laudanum?' asked Sir Lukin. 'Now there's a poison we've got to bless! +And we set up in our wisdom for knowing what is good for us!' + +He had talked his hearers into a stupefied assent to anything he uttered. + +'Mrs. Warwick would like to see you in two or three minutes; she will +come down,' Redworth said to Dacier. + +'That looks well, eh? That looks bravely,' Sir Lukin cried. 'Diana, +Warwick wouldn't leave the room without a certainty. I dread the look of +those men; I shall have to shake their hands! And so I do, with all my +heart: only--But God bless them! But we must go in, if she's coming +down.' + +They entered the house, and sat in the drawing-room, where Sir Lukin took +up from the table one of his wife's Latin books, a Persius, bearing her +marginal notes. He dropped his head on it, with sobs. + +The voice of Diana recalled him to the present. She counselled him to +control himself; in that case he might for one moment go to the chamber- +door and assure himself by the silence that his wife was resting. She +brought permission from the surgeons and doctor, on his promise to be +still. + +Redworth supported Sir Lukin tottering out. + +Dacier had risen. He was petrified by Diana's face, and thought of her +as whirled from him in a storm, bearing the marks of it. Her underlip +hung for short breaths; the big drops of her recent anguish still +gathered on her brows; her eyes were tearless, lustreless; she looked +ancient in youth, and distant by a century, like a tall woman of the +vaults, issuing white-ringed, not of our light. + +She shut her mouth for strength to speak to him. + +He said: 'You are not ill? You are strong?' + +'I? Oh, strong. I will sit. I cannot be absent longer than two +minutes. The trial of her strength is to come. If it were courage, +we might be sure. The day is fine?' + +'A perfect August day.' + +'I held her through it. I am thankful to heaven it was no other hand +than mine. She wished to spare me. She was glad of her Tony when the +time came. I thought I was a coward--I could have changed with her to +save her; I am a strong woman, fit to submit to that work. I should not +have borne it as she did. She expected to sink under it. All her +dispositions were made for death-bequests to servants and to . . . to +friends: every secret liking they had, thought of!' + +Diana clenched her hands. + +'I hope!' Dacier said. + +'You shall hear regularly. Call at Sir William's house to-morrow. He +sleeps here to-night. The suspense must last for days. It is a question +of vital power to bear the shock. She has a mind so like a flying spirit +that, just before the moment, she made Mr. Lanyan Thomson smile by +quoting some saying of her Tony's.' + +'Try by-and-by to recollect it,' said Dacier. + +'And you were with that poor man! How did he pass the terrible time? I +pitied him.' + +'He suffered; he prayed.' + +'It was the best he could do. Mr. Redworth was as he always is at the +trial, a pillar. Happy the friend who knows him for one! He never +thinks of himself in a crisis. He is sheer strength to comfort and aid. +They will drive you to the station with Mr. Thomson. He returns to +relieve Sir William to-morrow. I have learnt to admire the men of the +knife! No profession equals theirs in self-command and beneficence. +Dr. Bridgenorth is permanent here.' + +'I have a fly, and go back immediately,' said Dacier. + +'She shall hear of your coming. Adieu.' + +Diana gave him her hand. It was gently pressed. + +A wonderment at the utter change of circumstances took Dacier passingly +at the sight of her vanishing figure. + +He left the house, feeling he dared have no personal wishes. It had +ceased to be the lover's hypocrisy with him. + +The crisis of mortal peril in that house enveloped its inmates, and so +wrought in him as to enshroud the stripped outcrying husband, of whom he +had no clear recollection, save of the man's agony. The two women, +striving against death, devoted in friendship, were the sole living +images he brought away; they were a new vision of the world and our life. + +He hoped with Diana, bled with her. She rose above him high, beyond his +transient human claims. He envied Redworth the common friendly right to +be near her. In reflection, long after, her simplicity of speech, washed +pure of the blood-emotions, for token of her great nature, during those +two minutes of their sitting together, was, dearer, sweeter to the lover +than if she had shown by touch or word that a faint allusion to their +severance was in her mind; and this despite a certain vacancy it created. + +He received formal information of Lady Dunstane's progress to +convalescence. By degrees the simply official tone of Diana's letters +combined with the ceasing of them and the absence of her personal charm +to make a gentleman not remarkable for violence in the passion so calmly +reasonable as to think the dangerous presence best avoided for a time. +Subject to fits of the passion, he certainly was, but his position in the +world was a counselling spouse, jealous of his good name. He did not +regret his proposal to take the leap; he would not have regretted it if +taken. On the safe side of the abyss, however, it wore a gruesome look +to his cool blood. + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +Beautiful women in her position provoke an intemperateness +Capricious potentate whom they worship +Circumstances may combine to make a whisper as deadly as a blow +Compared the governing of the Irish to the management of a horse +Could have designed this gabbler for the mate +Debit was eloquent, he was unanswerable +Explaining of things to a dull head +Happy in privation and suffering if simply we can accept beauty +He gained much by claiming little +Her peculiar tenacity of the sense of injury +His ridiculous equanimity +Keep passion sober, a trotter in harness +Moral indignation is ever consolatory +Omnipotence, which is in the image of themselves +Strain to see in the utter dark, and nothing can come of that +Tendency to polysyllabic phraseology +The blindness of Fortune is her one merit +They have no sensitiveness, we have too much +Top and bottom sin is cowardice +Touch him with my hand, before he passed from our sight +We must fawn in society +We never see peace but in the features of the dead + + + + +[The End] + + + + +The Project Gutenberg Etext of Diana of the Crossways, v3, by Meredith +********This file should be named gm73v10.txt or gm73v10.zip******** + +Corrected EDITIONS of our etexts get a new NUMBER, gm73v11.txt +VERSIONS based on separate sources get new LETTER, gm73v10a.txt + +This etext was produced by David Widger <widger@cecomet.net> + +More information about this book is at the top of this file. + +We are now trying to release all our etexts one year in advance +of the official release dates, leaving time for better editing. +Please be encouraged to tell us about any error or corrections, +even years after the official publication date. + +Please note neither this listing nor its contents are final til +midnight of the last day of the month of any such announcement. +The official release date of all Project Gutenberg Etexts is at +Midnight, Central Time, of the last day of the stated month. 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