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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/4468-0.txt b/4468-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..704b89a --- /dev/null +++ b/4468-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,3538 @@ +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 4468 *** + +DIANA OF THE CROSSWAYS + +By George Meredith + +1897 + + + +BOOK 4. + +XXVII. CONTAINS MATTER FOR SUBSEQUENT EXPLOSION +XXVIII. DIALOGUE ROUND THE SUBJECT OF A PORTRAIT, WITH SOME INDICATIONS + OF THE TASK FOR DIANA +XXIX. SHOWS THE APPROACHES OF THE POLITICAL AND THE DOMESTIC CRISIS + IN COMPANY +XXX. IN WHICH THERE IS A TASTE OF A LITTLE DINNER AND AN AFTERTASTE +XXXI. A CHAPTER CONTAINING GREAT POLITICAL NEWS AND THEREWITH AN + INTRUSION OF THE LOVE-GOD +XXXII. WHEREIN WE BEHOLD A GIDDY TURN AT THE SPECTRAL CROSSWAYS +XXXIII. EXHIBITS THE SPRINGING OF A MINE IN A NEWSPAPER ARTICLE +XXXIV. IN WHICH IT IS DARKLY SEEN HOW THE CRIMINAL'S JUDGE MAY BE + LOVE'S CRIMINAL +XXXV. REVEALS HOW THE TRUE HEROINE OF ROMANCE COMES FINALLY TO HER + TIME OF TRIUMPH + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +CONTAINS MATTER FOR SUBSEQUENT EXPLOSION + +Among the various letters inundating Sir Lukin Dunstane upon the report +of the triumph of surgical skill achieved by Sir William Macpherson and +Mr. Lanyan Thomson, was one from Lady Wathin, dated Adlands, an estate of +Mr. Quintin Manx's in Warwickshire, petitioning for the shortest line of +reassurance as to the condition of her dear cousin, and an intimation of +the period when it might be deemed possible for a relative to call and +offer her sincere congratulations: a letter deserving a personal reply, +one would suppose. She received the following, in a succinct female hand +corresponding to its terseness; every 't' righteously crossed, every 'i' +punctiliously dotted, as she remarked to Constance Asper, to whom the +communication was transferred for perusal: + + 'DEAR LADY WATHIN,--Lady Dunstane is gaining strength. The measure + of her pulse indicates favourably. She shall be informed in good + time of your solicitude for her recovery. The day cannot yet be + named for visits of any kind. You will receive information as soon + as the house is open. + + 'I have undertaken the task of correspondence, and beg you to + believe me, + + 'Very truly yours, + 'D. A. WARWICK.' + +Miss Asper speculated on the handwriting of her rival. She obtained +permission to keep the letter, with the intention of transmitting it per +post to an advertising interpreter of character in caligraphy. + +Such was the character of the fair young heiress, exhibited by her +performances much more patently than the run of a quill would reveal it. + +She said, 'It is rather a pretty hand, I think.' + +'Mrs. Warwick is a practised writer,' said Lady Wathin. 'Writing is her +profession, if she has any. She goes to nurse my cousin. Her husband +says she is an excellent nurse. He says what he can for her. But you +must be in the last extremity, or she is ice. His appeal to her has been +totally disregarded. Until he drops down in the street, as his doctor +expects him to do some day, she will continue her course; and even +then . . .' An adventuress desiring her freedom! Lady Wathin looked. +She was too devout a woman to say what she thought. But she knew the +world to be very wicked. Of Mrs. Warwick, her opinion was formed. She +would not have charged the individual creature with a criminal design; +all she did was to stuff the person her virtue abhorred with the +wickedness of the world, and that is a common process in antipathy. + +She sympathized, moreover, with the beautiful devotedness of the wealthy +heiress to her ideal of man. It had led her to make the acquaintance of +old Lady Dacier, at the house in town, where Constance Asper had first +met Percy; Mrs. Grafton Winstanley's house, representing neutral +territory or debateable land for the occasional intercourse of the upper +class and the climbing in the professions or in commerce; Mrs. Grafton +Winstanley being on the edge of aristocracy by birth, her husband, like +Mr. Quintin Manx, a lord of fleets. Old Lady Dacier's bluntness in +speaking of her grandson would have shocked Lady Wathin as much as it +astonished, had she been less of an ardent absorber of aristocratic +manners. Percy was plainly called a donkey, for hanging off and on with +a handsome girl of such expectations as Miss Asper. 'But what you can't +do with a horse, you can't hope to do with a donkey.' She added that she +had come for the purpose of seeing the heiress, of whose points of person +she delivered a judgement critically appreciative as a horsefancier's on +the racing turf. 'If a girl like that holds to it, she's pretty sure to +get him at last. It 's no use to pull his neck down to the water.' + +Lady Wathin delicately alluded to rumours of an entanglement, an +admiration he had, ahem. + +'A married woman,' the veteran nodded. 'I thought that was off? She +must be a clever intriguer to keep him so long.' + +'She is undoubtedly clever,' said Lady Wathin, and it was mumbled in her +hearing: 'The woman seems to have a taste for our family.' + +They agreed that they could see nothing to be done. The young lady must +wither, Mrs. Warwick have her day. The veteran confided her experienced +why to Lady Wathin: 'All the tales you tell of a woman of that sort are +sharp sauce to the palates of men.' + +They might be, to the men of the dreadful gilded idle class! + +Mrs. Warwick's day appeared indefinitely prolonged, judging by Percy +Dacier's behaviour to Miss Asper. Lady Wathin watched them narrowly when +she had the chance, a little ashamed of her sex, or indignant rather at +his display of courtliness in exchange for her open betrayal of her +preference. It was almost to be wished that she would punish him by +sacrificing herself to one of her many brilliant proposals of marriage. +But such are women!--precisely because of his holding back he tightened +the cord attaching him to her tenacious heart. This was the truth. For +the rest, he was gracefully courteous; an observer could perceive the +charm he exercised. He talked with a ready affability, latterly with +greater social ease; evidently not acting the indifferent conqueror, or +so consummately acting it as to mask the air. And yet he was ambitious, +and he was not rich. Notoriously was he ambitious, and with wealth to +back him, a great entertaining house, troops of adherents, he would +gather influence, be propelled to leadership. The vexation of a constant +itch to speak to him on the subject, and the recognition, that he knew it +all as well as she, tormented Lady Wathin. He gave her comforting news +of her dear cousin in the Winter. + +'You have heard from Mrs. Warwick?' she said. + +He replied, 'I had the latest from Mr. Redworth.' + +'Mrs. Warwick has relinquished her post?' + +'When she does, you may be sure that Lady Dunstane is, perfectly +reestablished.' + +'She is an excellent nurse.' + +'The best, I believe.' + +'It is a good quality in sickness.' + +'Proof of good all through.' + +'Her husband might have the advantage of it. His state is really +pathetic. If she has feeling, and could only be made aware, she might +perhaps be persuaded to pass from the friendly to the wifely duty.' + +Mr. Dacier bent his head to listen, and he bowed. + +He was fast in the toils; and though we have assurance that evil cannot +triumph in perpetuity, the aspect of it throning provokes a kind of +despair. How strange if ultimately the lawyers once busy about the uncle +were to take up the case of the nephew, and this time reverse the issue, +by proving it! For poor Mr. Warwick was emphatic on the question of his +honour. It excited him dangerously. He was long-suffering, but with the +slightest clue terrible. The unknotting of the entanglement might thus +happen--and Constance Asper would welcome her hero still. + +Meanwhile there was actually nothing to be done: a deplorable absence of +motive villainy; apparently an absence of the beneficent Power directing +events to their proper termination. Lady Wathin heard of her cousin's +having been removed to Cowes in May, for light Solent and Channel voyages +on board Lord Esquart's yacht. She heard also of heavy failures and +convulsions in the City of London, quite unconscious that the Fates, or +agents of the Providence she invoked to precipitate the catastrophe, were +then beginning cavernously their performance of the part of villain in +Diana's history. + +Diana and Emma enjoyed happy quiet sailings under May breezes on the +many-coloured South-western waters, heart in heart again; the physical +weakness of the one, the moral weakness of the other, creating that +mutual dependency which makes friendship a pulsating tie. Diana's +confession had come of her letter to Emma. When the latter was able to +examine her correspondence, Diana brought her the heap for perusal, her +own sealed scribble, throbbing with all the fatal might-have-been, under +her eyes. She could have concealed and destroyed it. She sat beside her +friend, awaiting her turn, hearing her say at the superscription: 'Your +writing, Tony?' and she nodded. She was asked: 'Shall I read it?' She +answered: 'Read.' They were soon locked in an embrace. Emma had no +perception of coldness through those brief dry lines; her thought was of +the matter. + +'The danger is over now?' she said. + +'Yes, that danger is over now.' + +'You have weathered it?' + +'I love him.' + +Emma dropped a heavy sigh in pity of her, remotely in compassion for +Redworth, the loving and unbeloved. She was too humane and wise of our +nature to chide her Tony for having her sex's heart. She had charity to +bestow on women; in defence of them against men and the world, it was a +charity armed with the weapons of battle. The wife madly stripped before +the world by a jealous husband, and left chained to the rock, her youth +wasting, her blood arrested, her sensibilities chilled and assailing her +under their multitudinous disguises, and for whom the world is merciless, +called forth Emma's tenderest commiseration; and that wife being Tony, +and stricken with the curse of love, in other circumstances the blessing, +Emma bled for her. + +'But nothing desperate?' she said. + +'No; you have saved me.' + +'I would knock at death's doors again, and pass them, to be sure of +that.' + +'Kiss me; you may be sure. I would not put my lips to your cheek if +there were danger of my faltering.' + +'But you love him.' + +'I do: and because I love him I will not let him be fettered to me.' + +'You will see him.' + +'Do not imagine that his persuasions undermined your Tony. I am subject +to panics.' + +'Was it your husband?' + +'I had a visit from Lady Wathin. She knows him. She came as peacemaker. +She managed to hint at his authority. Then came a letter from him--of +supplication, interpenetrated with the hint: a suffused atmosphere. Upon +that; unexpected by me, my--let me call him so once, forgive me!--lover +came. Oh! he loves me, or did then. Percy! He had been told that I +should be claimed. I felt myself the creature I am--a wreck of marriage. +But I fancied I could serve him:--I saw golden. My vanity was the chief +traitor. Cowardice of course played a part. In few things that we do, +where self is concerned, will cowardice not be found. And the +hallucination colours it to seem a lovely heroism. That was the second +time Mr. Redworth arrived. I am always at crossways, and he rescues me; +on this occasion unknowingly.' + +'There's a divinity . . .' said Emma. ' When I think of it I perceive +that Patience is our beneficent fairy godmother, who brings us our +harvest in the long result.' + +'My dear, does she bring us our labourers' rations, to sustain us for the +day?' said Diana.' + +'Poor fare, but enough.' + +'I fear I was born godmotherless.' + +'You have stores of patience, Tony; only now and then fits of +desperation.' + +'My nature's frailty, the gap in it: we will give it no fine names +--they cover our pitfalls. I am open to be carried on a tide of +unreasonableness when the coward cries out. But I can say, dear, that +after one rescue, a similar temptation is unlikely to master me. I do +not subscribe to the world's decrees for love of the monster, though I am +beginning to understand the dues of allegiance. We have ceased to write +letters. You may have faith in me.' + +'I have, with my whole soul,' said Emma. + +So the confession closed; and in the present instance there were not any +forgotten chambers to be unlocked and ransacked for addenda confessions. + +The subjects discoursed of by the two endeared the hours to them. They +were aware that the English of the period would have laughed a couple of +women to scorn for venturing on them, and they were not a little hostile +in consequence, and shot their epigrams profusely, applauding the keener +that appeared to score the giant bulk of their intolerant enemy, who +holds the day, but not the morrow. Us too he holds for the day, to +punish us if we have temporal cravings. He scatters his gifts to the +abject; tossing to us rebels bare dog-biscuit. But the life of the +spirit is beyond his region; we have our morrow in his day when we crave +nought of him. Diana and Emma delighted to discover that they were each +the rebel of their earlier and less experienced years; each a member of +the malcontent minor faction, the salt of earth, to whom their salt must +serve for nourishment, as they admitted, relishing it determinedly, not +without gratification. + +Sir Lukin was busy upon his estate in Scotland. They summoned young +Arthur Rhodes to the island, that he might have a taste of the new +scenes. Diana was always wishing for his instruction and refreshment; +and Redworth came to spend a Saturday and Sunday with them, and showed +his disgust of the idle boy, as usual, at the same time consulting them +on the topic of furniture for the Berkshire mansion he had recently +bought, rather vaunting the Spanish pictures his commissioner in Madrid +was transmitting. The pair of rebels, vexed by his treatment of the +respectful junior, took him for an incarnation of their enemy, and pecked +and worried the man astonishingly. He submitted to it like the placable +giant. Yes, he was a Liberal, and furnishing and decorating the house in +the stability of which he trusted. Why not? We must accept the world as +it is, try to improve it by degrees.--Not so: humanity will not wait for +you, the victims are shrieking beneath the bricks of your enormous +edifice, behind the canvas of your pictures. 'But you may really say +that luxurious yachting is an odd kind of insurgency,' avowed Diana. +'It's the tangle we are in.' + +'It's the coat we have to wear; and why fret at it for being +comfortable?' + +'I don't half enough, when I think of my shivering neighbours.' + +'Money is of course a rough test of virtue,' said Redworth. 'We have no +other general test.' + +Money! The ladies proclaimed it a mere material test; Diana, gazing on +sunny sea, with an especial disdain. And name us your sort of virtue. +There is more virtue in poverty, He denied that. Inflexibly British, he +declared money, and also the art of getting money, to be hereditary +virtues, deserving of their reward. The reward a superior wealth and its +fruits? Yes, the power to enjoy and spread enjoyment: and let idleness +envy both! He abused idleness, and by implication the dilettante +insurgency fostering it. However, he was compensatingly heterodox in his +view of the Law's persecution of women; their pertinacious harpings on +the theme had brought him to that; and in consideration of the fact, as +they looked from yacht to shore, of their being rebels participating +largely in the pleasures of the tyrant's court, they allowed him to +silence them, and forgave him. + +Thoughts upon money and idleness were in confusion with Diana. She had a +household to support in London, and she was not working; she could not +touch THE CANTATRICE while Emma was near. Possibly, she again +ejaculated, the Redworths of the world were right: the fruitful labours +were with the mattock and hoe, or the mind directing them. It was a +crushing invasion of materialism, so she proposed a sail to the coast of +France, and thither they flew, touching Cherbourg, Alderney, Sark, +Guernsey, and sighting the low Brittany rocks. Memorable days to Arthur +Rhodes. He saw perpetually the one golden centre in new scenes. He +heard her voice, he treasured her sayings; her gestures, her play of lip +and eyelid, her lift of head, lightest movements, were imprinted on him, +surely as the heavens are mirrored in the quiet seas, firmly and richly +as earth answers to the sprinkled grain. For he was blissfully athirst, +untroubled by a hope. She gave him more than she knew of: a present that +kept its beating heart into the future; a height of sky, a belief in +nobility, permanent through manhood down to age. She was his foam-born +Goddess of those leaping waters; differently hued, crescented, +a different influence. He had a happy week, and it charmed Diana to hear +him tell her so. In spite of Redworth, she had faith in the fruit- +bearing powers of a time of simple happiness, and shared the youth's in +reflecting it. Only the happiness must be simple, that of the glass to +the lovely face: no straining of arms to retain, no heaving of the bosom +in vacancy. + +His poverty and capacity for pure enjoyment led her to think of him +almost clingingly when hard news reached her from the quaint old City of +London, which despises poverty and authorcraft and all mean adventurers, +and bows to the lordly merchant, the mighty financier, Redworth's +incarnation of the virtues. Happy days on board the yacht Clarissa! +Diana had to recall them with effort. They who sow their money for a +promising high percentage have built their habitations on the sides of +the most eruptive mountain in Europe. AEtna supplies more certain +harvests, wrecks fewer vineyards and peaceful dwellings. The greed of +gain is our volcano. Her wonder leapt up at the slight inducement she +had received to embark her money in this Company: a South-American mine, +collapsed almost within hearing of the trumpets of prospectus, after two +punctual payments of the half-yearly interest. A Mrs. Ferdinand Cherson, +an elder sister of the pretty Mrs. Fryar-Gunnett, had talked to her of +the cost of things one afternoon at Lady Singleby's garden-party, and +spoken of the City as the place to help to swell an income, if only you +have an acquaintance with some of the chief City men. The great mine was +named, and the rush for allotments. She knew a couple of the Directors. +They vowed to her that ten per cent. was a trifle; the fortune to be +expected out of the mine was already clearly estimable at forties and +fifties. For their part they anticipated cent. per cent. Mrs. Cherson +said she wanted money, and had therefore invested in the mine. It seemed +so consequent, the cost of things being enormous! She and her sister +Mrs. Fryar-Gunnett owned husbands who did their bidding, because of their +having the brains, it might be understood. Thus five thousand pounds +invested would speedily bring five thousand pounds per annum. Diana had +often dreamed of the City of London as the seat of magic; and taking the +City's contempt for authorcraft and the intangible as, from its point of +view, justly founded, she had mixed her dream strangely with an ancient +notion of the City's probity. Her broker's shaking head did not damp her +ardour for shares to the full amount of her ability to purchase. She +remembered her satisfaction at the allotment; the golden castle shot up +from this fountain mine. She had a frenzy for mines and fished in some +English with smaller sums. 'I am now a miner,' she had exclaimed, +between dismay at her audacity and the pride of it. Why had she not +consulted Redworth? He would peremptorily have stopped the frenzy in its +first intoxicating effervescence. She, like Mrs. Cherson, like all women +who have plunged upon the cost of things, wanted money. She naturally +went to the mine. Address him for counsel in the person of dupe, she +could not; shame was a barrier. Could she tell him that the prattle of +a woman, spendthrift as Mrs. Cherson, had induced her to risk her money? +Latterly the reports of Mrs. Fryar-Gunnett were not of the flavour to +make association of their names agreeable to his hearing. + +She had to sit down in the buzz of her self-reproaches and amazement at +the behaviour of that reputable City, shrug, and recommence the labour of +her pen. Material misfortune had this one advantage; it kept her from +speculative thoughts of her lover, and the meaning of his absence and, +silence. + +Diana's perusal of the incomplete CANTATRICE was done with the cold +critical eye interpreting for the public. She was forced to write on +nevertheless, and exactly in the ruts of the foregoing matter. It +propelled her. No longer perversely, of necessity she wrote her best, +convinced that the work was doomed to unpopularity, resolved that it +should be at least a victory in style. A fit of angry cynicism now and +then set her composing phrases as baits for the critics to quote, +condemnatory of the attractiveness of the work. Her mood was bad. In +addition, she found Whitmonby cool; he complained of the coolness of her +letter of adieu; complained of her leaving London so long. How could she +expect to be his Queen of the London Salon if she lost touch of the +topics? He made no other allusion. They were soon on amicable terms, at +the expense of flattering arts that she had not hitherto practised. But +Westlake revealed unimagined marvels of the odd corners of the masculine +bosom. He was the man of her circle the neatest in epigram, the widest +of survey, an Oriental traveller, a distinguished writer, and if not +personally bewitching, remarkably a gentleman of the world. He was +wounded; he said as much. It came to this: admitting that he had no +claims, he declared it to be unbearable for him to see another preferred. +The happier was unmentioned, and Diana scraped his wound by rallying him. +He repeated that he asked only to stand on equal terms with the others; +her preference of one was past his tolerance. She told him that since +leaving Lady Dunstane she had seen but Whitmonby, Wilmers, and him. He +smiled sarcastically, saying he had never had a letter from her, except +the formal one of invitation. + +'Powers of blarney, have you forsaken a daughter of Erin?' cried Diana. +'Here is a friend who has a craving for you, and I talk sense to him. I +have written to none of my set since I last left London.' + +She pacified him by doses of cajolery new to her tongue. She liked him, +abhorred the thought of losing any of her friends, so the cajoling +sentences ran until Westlake betrayed an inflammable composition, +and had to be put out, and smoked sullenly. Her resources were tried +in restoring him to reason. The months of absence from London appeared +to have transformed her world. Tonans was moderate. The great editor +rebuked her for her prolonged absence from London, not so much because it +discrowned her as Queen of the Salon, but candidly for its rendering her +service less to him. Everything she knew of men and affairs was to him +stale. + +'How do you get to the secrets?' she asked. + +'By sticking to the centre of them,' he said. + +'But how do you manage to be in advance and act the prophet?' + +'Because I will have them at any price, and that is known.' + +She hinted at the peccant City Company. + +'I think I have checked the mining mania, as I did the railway,' said he; +'and so far it was a public service. There's no checking of maniacs.' + +She took her whipping within and without. 'On another occasion I shall +apply to you, Mr. Tonans.' + +'Ah, there was a time when you could have been a treasure to me,' he +rejoined; alluding of course to the Dannisburgh days. + +In dejection, as she mused on those days, and on her foolish ambition +to have a London house where her light might burn, she advised herself, +with Redworth's voice, to quit the house, arrest expenditure, and try +for happiness by burning and shining in the spirit: devoting herself, +as Arthur Rhodes did, purely to literature. It became almost a decision. + +Percy she had still neither written to nor heard from, and she dared not +hope to meet him. She fancied a wish to have tidings of his marriage: it +would be peace; if in desolation. Now that she had confessed and given +her pledge to Emma, she had so far broken with him as to render the +holding him chained a cruelty, and his reserve whispered of a rational +acceptance of the end between them. She thanked him for it; an act +whereby she was: instantly melted to such softness that a dread of him +haunted her. Coward, take up your burden for armour! she called to her +poor dungeoned self wailing to have common nourishment. She knew how +prodigiously it waxed on crumbs; nay, on the imagination of small +morsels. By way of chastizing it, she reviewed her life, her behaviour +to her husband, until she sank backward to a depth deprived of air and +light. That life with her husband was a dungeon to her nature deeper +than any imposed by present conditions. She was then a revolutionary to +reach to the breath of day. She had now to be, only not a coward, and +she could breathe as others did. 'Women who sap the moral laws pull down +the pillars of the temple on their sex,' Emma had said. Diana perceived +something of her personal debt to civilization. Her struggles passed +into the doomed CANTATRICE occupying days and nights under pressure for +immediate payment; the silencing of friend Debit, ridiculously calling +himself Credit, in contempt of sex and conduct, on the ground, that he +was he solely by virtue of being she. He had got a trick of singing +operatic solos in the form and style of the delightful tenor Tellio, and +they were touching in absurdity, most real in unreality. Exquisitely +trilled, after Tellio's manner, + + 'The tradesmen all beseech ye, + The landlord, cook and maid, + Complete THE CANTATRICE, + That they may soon be paid.' + +provoked her to laughter in pathos. He approached, posturing himself +operatically, with perpetual new verses, rhymes to Danvers, rhymes to +Madame Sybille, the cook. Seeing Tellio at one of Henry Wilmers' private +concerts, Diana's lips twitched to dimples at the likeness her familiar +had assumed. She had to compose her countenance to talk to him; +but the moment of song was the trial. Lady Singleby sat beside her, +and remarked: + +'You have always fun going on in you!' She partook of the general +impression that Diana Warwick was too humorous to nurse a downright +passion. + +Before leaving, she engaged Diana to her annual garden-party of the +closing season, and there the meeting with Percy occurred, not +unobserved. Had they been overheard, very little to implicate them +would have been gathered. He walked in full view across the lawn +to her, and they presented mask to mask. + +'The beauty of the day tempts you at last, Mrs. Warwick.' + +'I have been finishing a piece of work.' + +Lovely weather, beautiful dresses: agreed. Diana wore a yellow robe +with a black bonnet, and he commented on the becoming hues; for the first +time, he noticed her dress! Lovely women? Dacier hesitated. One he +saw. But surely he must admire Mrs. Fryar-Gunnett? And who steps beside +her, transparently fascinated, with visage at three-quarters to the rays +within her bonnet? Can it be Sir Lukin Dunstane? and beholding none but +his charmer! + +Dacier withdrew his eyes thoughtfully from the spectacle, and moved to +woo Diana to a stroll. She could not restrain her feet; she was out of +the ring of her courtiers for the moment. He had seized his opportunity. + +'It is nearly a year!' he said. + +'I have been nursing nearly all the time, doing the work I do best.' + +'Unaltered?' + +'A year must leave its marks.' + +'Tony!' + +'You speak of a madwoman, a good eleven months dead. Let her rest. +Those are the conditions.' + +'Accepted, if I may see her.' + +'Honestly accepted?' + +'Imposed fatally, I have to own. I have felt with you: you are the +wiser. But, admitting that, surely we can meet. I may see you?' + +'My house has not been shut.' + +'I respected the house. I distrusted myself.' + +'What restores your confidence?' + +'The strength I draw from you.' + +One of the Beauties at a garden-party is lucky to get as many minutes as +had passed in quietness. Diana was met and captured. But those last +words of Percy's renewed her pride in him by suddenly building a firm +faith in herself. Noblest of lovers! she thought, and brooded on the +little that had been spoken, the much conveyed, for a proof of perfect +truthfulness. + +The world had watched them. It pronounced them discreet if culpable; +probably cold to the passion both. Of Dacier's coldness it had no doubt, +and Diana's was presumed from her comical flights of speech. She was +given to him because of the known failure of her other adorers. He in +the front rank of politicians attracted her with the lustre of his +ambition; she him with her mingling of talent and beauty. An astute +world; right in the main, owing to perceptions based upon brute nature; +utterly astray in particulars, for the reason that it takes no count of +the soul of man or woman. Hence its glee at a catastrophe; its poor +stock of mercy. And when no catastrophe follows, the prophet, for the +honour of the profession, must decry her as cunning beyond aught yet +revealed of a serpent sex. + +Save for a word or two, the watchman might have overheard and trumpeted +his report of their interview at Diana's house. After the first pained +breathing, when they found themselves alone in that room where they had +plighted their fortunes, they talked allusively to define the terms +imposed on them by Reason. The thwarted step was unmentioned; it was a +past madness. But Wisdom being recognized, they could meet. It would be +hard if that were denied! They talked very little of their position; +both understood the mutual acceptance of it; and now that he had seen her +and was again under the spell, Dacier's rational mind, together with his +delight in her presence, compelled him honourably to bow to the terms. +Only, as these were severe upon lovers, the innocence of their meetings +demanded indemnification in frequency. + +'Come whenever you think I can be useful,' said Diana. + +They pressed hands at parting, firmly and briefly, not for the ordinary +dactylology of lovers, but in sign of the treaty of amity. + +She soon learnt that she had tied herself to her costly household. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + +DIALOGUE ROUND THE SUBJECT OF A PORTRAIT, WITH SOME INDICATIONS OF THE +TASK FOR DIANA + +An enamoured Egeria who is not a princess in her worldly state nor a +goddess by origin has to play one of those parts which strain the woman's +faculties past naturalness. She must never expose her feelings to her +lover; she must make her counsel weighty--otherwise she is little his +nymph of the pure wells, and what she soon may be, the world will say. +She has also, most imperatively, to dazzle him without the betrayal of +artifice, where simple spontaneousness is beyond conjuring. But feelings +that are constrained becloud the judgement besides arresting the fine jet +of delivery wherewith the mastered lover is taught through his ears to +think himself prompted, and submit to be controlled, by a creature super- +feminine. She must make her counsel so weighty in poignant praises as to +repress impulses that would rouse her own; and her betraying +impulsiveness was a subject of reflection to Diana after she had given +Percy Dacier, metaphorically, the key of her house. Only as true Egeria +could she receive him. She was therefore grateful, she thanked and +venerated this noblest of lovers for his not pressing to the word of +love, and so strengthening her to point his mind, freshen his moral +energies and inspirit him. His chivalrous acceptance of the conditions +of their renewed intimacy was a radiant knightliness to Diana, elevating +her with a living image for worship:--he so near once to being the +absolute lord of her destinies! How to reward him, was her sole +dangerous thought. She prayed and strove that she might give him of her +best, to practically help him; and she had reason to suppose she could do +it, from the visible effect of her phrases. He glistened in repeating +them; he had fallen into the habit; before witnesses too; in the presence +of Miss Paynham, who had taken earnestly to the art of painting, and +obtained her dear Mrs. Warwick's promise of a few sittings for the sketch +of a portrait, near the close of the season. 'A very daring thing to +attempt,' Miss Paynham said, when he was comparing her first outlines and +the beautiful breathing features. 'Even if one gets the face, the lips +will seem speechless, to those who know her.' + +'If they have no recollection,' said Dacier. + +'I mean, the endeavour should be to represent them at the moment of +speaking.' + +'Put it into the eyes.' He looked at the eyes. + +She looked at the mouth. 'But it is the mouth, more than the eyes.' + +He looked at the face. 'Where there is character, you have only to study +it to be sure of a likeness.' + +'That is the task, with one who utters jewels, Mr. Dacier.' + +'Bright wit, I fear, is above the powers of your art.' + +'Still I feel it could be done. See--now--that!' + +Diana's lips had opened to say: 'Confess me a model model: I am dissected +while I sit for portrayal. I must be for a moment like the frog of the +two countrymen who were disputing as to the manner of his death, when he +stretched to yawn, upon which they agreed that he had defeated the truth +for both of them. I am not quite inanimate.' + +'Irish countrymen,' said Dacier. + +'The story adds, that blows were arrested; so confer the nationality as +you please.' + +Diana had often to divert him from a too intent perusal of her features +with sparkles and stories current or invented to serve the immediate +purpose. + +Miss Paynham was Mrs. Warwick's guest for a fortnight, and observed them +together. She sometimes charitably laid down her pencil and left them, +having forgotten this or that. They were conversing of general matters +with their usual crisp precision on her return, and she was rather like +the two countrymen, in debating whether it was excess of coolness or +discreetness; though she was convinced of their inclinations, and +expected love some day to be leaping up. Diana noticed that she had no +reminder for leaving the room when it was Mr. Redworth present. These +two had become very friendly, according to her hopes; and Miss Paynham +was extremely solicitous to draw suggestions from Mr. Redworth and win +his approval. + +'Do I appear likely to catch the mouth now, do you think, Mr. Redworth?' + +He remarked, smiling at Diana's expressive dimple, that the mouth was +difficult to catch. He did not gaze intently. Mr. Redworth was the +genius of friendship, 'the friend of women,' Mrs. Warwick had said of +him. Miss Paynham discovered it, as regarded herself. The portrait was +his commission to her, kindly proposed, secretly of course, to give her +occupation and the chance of winning a vogue with the face of a famous +Beauty. So many, however, were Mrs. Warwick's visitors, and so lively +the chatter she directed, that accurate sketching was difficult to an +amateurish hand. Whitmonby, Sullivan Smith, Westlake, Henry Wilmers, +Arthur Rhodes, and other gentlemen, literary and military, were almost +daily visitors when it became known that the tedium of the beautiful +sitter required beguiling and there was a certainty of finding her at +home. On Mrs. Warwick's Wednesday numerous ladies decorated the group. +Then was heard such a rillet of dialogue without scandal or politics, +as nowhere else in Britain; all vowed it subsequently; for to the +remembrance it seemed magical. Not a breath of scandal, and yet the +liveliest flow. Lady Pennon came attended by a Mr. Alexander Hepburn, +a handsome Scot, at whom Dacier shot one of his instinctive keen glances, +before seeing that the hostess had mounted a transient colour. Mr. +Hepburn, in settling himself on his chair rather too briskly, contrived +the next minute to break a precious bit of China standing by his elbow; +and Lady Pennon cried out, with sympathetic anguish: 'Oh, my dear, what a +trial for you!' + +'Brittle is foredoomed,' said Diana, unruffled. + +She deserved compliments, and would have had them if she had not wounded +the most jealous and petulant of her courtiers. + +'Then the Turk is a sapient custodian!' said Westlake, vexed with her +flush at the entrance of the Scot. + +Diana sedately took his challenge. 'We, Mr. Westlake, have the +philosophy of ownership.' + +Mr. Hepburn penitentially knelt to pick up the fragments, and Westlake +murmured over his head: 'As long as it is we who are the cracked.' + +'Did we not start from China?' + +'We were consequently precipitated to Stamboul.' + +'You try to elude the lesson.' + +'I remember my first paedagogue telling me so when he rapped the book on +my cranium.' + +'The mark of the book is not a disfigurement.' + +It was gently worded, and the shrewder for it. The mark of the book, +if not a disfigurement, was a characteristic of Westlake's fashion of +speech. Whitmonby nodded twice, for signification of a palpable hit in +that bout; and he noted within him the foolishness of obtruding the +remotest allusion to our personality when crossing the foils with a +woman. She is down on it like the lightning, quick as she is in her +contracted circle, politeness guarding her from a riposte. + +Mr. Hepburn apologized very humbly, after regaining his chair. Diana +smiled and said: 'Incidents in a drawing-room are prize-shots at +Dulness.' + +'And in a dining-room too,' added Sullivan Smith. 'I was one day at a +dinner-party, apparently of undertakers hired to mourn over the joints +and the birds in the dishes, when the ceiling came down, and we all +sprang up merry as crickets. It led to a pretty encounter and a real +prize-shot.' + +'Does that signify a duel?' asked Lady Pennon. + +''Twould be the vulgar title, to bring it into discredit with the +populace, my lady.' + +'Rank me one of the populace then! I hate duelling and rejoice that it +is discountenanced.' + +'The citizens, and not the populace, I think Mr. Sullivan Smith means,' +Diana said. 'The citizen is generally right in morals. My father also +was against the practice, when it raged at its "prettiest." I have heard +him relate a story of a poor friend of his, who had to march out for a +trifle, and said, as he accepted the invitation, "It's all nonsense!" +and walking to the measured length, "It's all nonsense, you know!" and +when lying on the ground, at his last gasp, "I told you it was all +nonsense!"' + +Sullivan Smith leaned over to Whitmonby and Dacier amid the ejaculations, +and whispered: 'A lady's way of telling the story!--and excuseable to +her:--she had to Jonah the adjective. What the poor fellow said was--' +He murmured the sixty-pounder adjective, as in the belly of the whale, to +rightly emphasize his noun. + +Whitmonby nodded to the superior relish imparted by the vigour of +masculine veracity in narration. 'A story for its native sauce +piquante,' he said. + +'Nothing without it!' + +They had each a dissolving grain of contempt for women compelled by +their delicacy to spoil that kind of story which demands the piquant +accompaniment to flavour it racily and make it passable. For to see +insipid mildness complacently swallowed as an excellent thing, knowing +the rich smack of savour proper to the story, is your anecdotal +gentleman's annoyance. But if the anecdote had supported him, Sullivan +Smith would have let the expletive rest. + +Major Carew Mahoney capped Mrs. Warwick's tale of the unfortunate +duellist with another, that confessed the practice absurd, though he +approved of it; and he cited Lord Larrian's opinion: 'It keeps men braced +to civil conduct.' + +'I would not differ with the dear old lord; but no! the pistol is the +sceptre of the bully,' said Diana. + +Mr. Hepburn, with the widest of eyes on her in perpetuity, warmly agreed; +and the man was notorious among men for his contrary action. + +'Most righteously our Princess Egeria distinguishes her reign by +prohibiting it,' said Lady Singleby. + +'And how,' Sullivan Smith sighed heavily, 'how, I'd ask, are ladies to be +protected from the bully?' + +He was beset: 'So it was all for us? all in consideration for our +benefit?' + +He mournfully exclaimed: 'Why, surely!' + +'That is the funeral apology of the Rod, at the close of every barbarous +chapter,' said Diana. + +'Too fine in mind, too fat in body; that is a consequence with men, dear +madam. The conqueror stands to his weapons, or he loses his +possessions.' + +'Mr. Sullivan Smith jumps at his pleasure from the special to the +general, and will be back, if we follow him, Lady Pennon. It is the +trick men charge to women, showing that they can resemble us.' + +Lady Pennon thumped her knee. 'Not a bit. There's no resemblance, and +they know nothing of us.' + +'Women are a blank to them, I believe,' said Whitmonby, treacherously +bowing;--and Westlake said: + +'Traces of a singular scrawl have been observed when they were held in +close proximity to the fire.' + +'Once, on the top of a coach,' Whitmonby resumed, 'I heard a comely dame +of the period when summers are ceasing threatened by her husband with a +divorce, for omitting to put sandwiches in their luncheon-basket. She +made him the inscrutable answer: "Ah, poor man! you will go down ignorant +to your grave!" We laughed, and to this day I cannot tell you why.' + +'That laugh was from a basket lacking provision; and I think we could +trace our separation to it,' Diana said to Lady Pennon, who replied: +'They expose themselves; they get no nearer to the riddle.' + +Miss Courtney, a rising young actress, encouraged by a smile from Mrs. +Warwick, remarked: 'On the stage, we have each our parts equally.' + +'And speaking parts; not personae mutae.' + +'The stage has advanced in verisimilitude,' Henry Wilmers added slyly; +and Diana rejoined: 'You recognize a verisimilitude of the mirror when +it is in advance of reality. Flatter the sketch, Miss Paynham, for a +likeness to be seen. Probably there are still Old Conservatives who +would prefer the personation of us by boys.' + +'I don't know,' Westlake affected dubiousness. 'I have heard that a step +to the riddle is gained by a serious contemplation of boys.' + +'Serious?' + +'That is the doubt.' + +'The doubt throws its light on the step!' + +'I advise them not to take any leap from their step,' said Lady Pennon. + +'It would be a way of learning that we are no wiser than our sires; but +perhaps too painful a way,' Whitmonby observed. 'Poor Mountford Wilts +boasted of knowing women; and--he married. To jump into the mouth of the +enigma, is not to read it.' + +'You are figures of conceit when you speculate on us, Mr. Whitmonby.' + +'An occupation of our leisure, my lady, for your amusement.' + +'The leisure of the humming-top, a thousand to the minute, with the +pretence that it sleeps!' Diana said. + +'The sacrilegious hand to strip you of your mystery is withered as it +stretches,' exclaimed Westlake. 'The sage and the devout are in accord +for once.' + +'And whichever of the two I may be, I'm one of them, happy to do my +homage blindfold!' Sullivan Smith waved the sign of it. + +Diana sent her eyes over him and Mr. Hepburn, seeing Dacier. 'That rosy +mediaevalism seems the utmost we can expect.' An instant she saddened, +foreboding her words to be ominous, because of suddenly thirsting for a +modern cry from him, the silent. She quitted her woman's fit of +earnestness, and took to the humour that pleased him. 'Aslauga's knight, +at his blind man's buff of devotion, catches the hem of the tapestry and +is found by his lady kissing it in a trance of homage five hours long! +Sir Hilary of Agincourt, returned from the wars to his castle at +midnight, hears that the chitellaine is away dancing, and remains with +all his men mounted in the courtyard till the grey morn brings her back! +Adorable! We had a flag flying in those days. Since men began to fret +the riddle, they have hauled it down half-mast. Soon we shall behold a +bare pole and hats on around it. That is their solution.' + +A smile circled at the hearing of Lady Singleby say: 'Well, I am all for +our own times, however literal the men.' + +'We are two different species!' thumped Lady Pennon, swimming on the +theme. 'I am sure, I read what they write of women! And their +heroines!' + +Lady Esquart acquiesced: 'We are utter fools or horrid knaves.' + +'Nature's original hieroglyphs--which have that appearance to the +peruser,' Westlake assented. + +'And when they would decipher us, and they hit on one of our "arts," the +literary pirouette they perform is memorable.' Diana looked invitingly +at Dacier. 'But I for one discern a possible relationship and a +likeness.' + +'I think it exists--behind a curtain,' Dacier replied. + +'Before the era of the Nursery. Liberty to grow; independence is the key +of the secret.' + +'And what comes after the independence?' he inquired. + +Whitmonby, musing that some distraction of an earnest incentive spoilt +Mrs. Warwick's wit, informed him: 'The two different species then break +their shallow armistice and join the shock of battle for possession of +the earth, and we are outnumbered and exterminated, to a certainty. +So I am against independence.' + +'Socially a Mussulman, subject to explosions!' Diana said. 'So the +eternal duel between us is maintained, and men will protest that they are +for civilization. Dear me, I should like to write a sketch of the women +of the future--don't be afraid!--the far future. What a different earth +you will see!' + +And very different creatures! the gentlemen unanimously surmised. +Westlake described the fairer portion, no longer the weaker; frightful +hosts. + +Diana promised him a sweeter picture, if ever she brought her hand to +paint it. + +'You would be offered up to the English national hangman, Jehoiachim +Sneer,' interposed Arthur Rhodes, evidently firing a gun too big for him, +of premeditated charging, as his patroness perceived; but she knew him to +be smarting under recent applications of the swish of Mr. Sneer, and that +he rushed to support her. She covered him by saying: 'If he has to be +encountered, he kills none but the cripple,' wherewith the dead pause +ensuing from a dose of outlandish speech in good company was bridged, +though the youth heard Westlake mutter unpleasantly: 'Jehoiachim,' and +had to endure a stare of Dacier's, who did not conceal his want of +comprehension of the place he occupied in Mrs. Warwick's gatherings. + +'They know nothing of us whatever!' Lady Pennon harped on her dictum. + +'They put us in a case and profoundly study the captive creature,' said +Diana: 'but would any man understand this . . . ?' She dropped her +voice and drew in the heads of Lady Pennon, Lady Singleby, Lady Esquart +and Miss Courtney: 'Real woman's nature speaks. A maid of mine had a +"follower." She was a good girl; I was anxious about her and asked her +if she could trust him. "Oh, yes, ma'am," she replied, "I can; he's quite +like a female." I longed to see the young man, to tell him he had +received the highest of eulogies.' + +The ladies appreciatingly declared that such a tale was beyond the +understandings of men. Miss Paynham primmed her mouth, admitting to +herself her inability to repeat such a tale; an act that she deemed not +'quite like a lady.' She had previously come to the conclusion that Mrs. +Warwick, with all her generous qualities, was deficient in delicate +sentiment--owing perhaps to her coldness of temperament. Like Dacier +also, she failed to comprehend the patronage of Mr. Rhodes: it led to +suppositions; indefinite truly, and not calumnious at all; but a young +poet, rather good-looking and well built, is not the same kind of wing- +chick as a young actress, like Miss Courtney--Mrs. Warwick's latest +shieldling: he is hardly enrolled for the reason that was assumed to +sanction Mrs. Warwick's maid in the encouragement of her follower. +Miss Paynham sketched on, with her thoughts in her bosom: a damsel +castigatingly pursued by the idea of sex as the direct motive of every +act of every person surrounding, her; deductively therefore that a +certain form of the impelling passion, mild or terrible, or capricious, +or it might be less pardonable, was unceasingly at work among the human +couples up to decrepitude. And she too frequently hit the fact to doubt +her gift of reading into them. Mr. Dacier was plain, and the state of +young Mr. Rhodes; and the Scottish gentleman was at least a vehement +admirer. But she penetrated the breast of Mr. Thomas Redworth as well, +mentally tore his mask of friendship to shreds. He was kind indeed in +commissioning her to do the portrait. His desire for it, and his urgency +to have the features exactly given, besides the infrequency of his visits +of late, when a favoured gentleman was present, were the betraying signs. +Deductively, moreover, the lady who inspired the passion in numbers of +gentlemen and set herself to win their admiration with her lively play of +dialogue, must be coquettish; she could hold them only by coldness. +Anecdotes, epigrams, drolleries, do not bubble to the lips of a woman who +is under an emotional spell: rather they prove that she has the spell for +casting. It suited Mr. Dacier, Miss Paynham thought: it was cruel to Mr. +Redworth; at whom, of all her circle, the beautiful woman looked, when +speaking to him, sometimes tenderly. + +'Beware the silent one of an assembly!' Diana had written. She did not +think of her words while Miss Paynham continued mutely sketching. The +silent ones, with much conversation around them, have their heads at +work, critically perforce; the faster if their hands are occupied; and +the point they lean to do is the pivot of their thoughts. Miss Paynham +felt for Mr. Redworth. + +Diana was unaware of any other critic present than him she sought to +enliven, not unsuccessfully, notwithstanding his English objection to the +pitch of the converse she led, and a suspicion of effort to support it:-- +just a doubt, with all her easy voluble run, of the possibility of +naturalness in a continuous cleverness. But he signified pleasure, +and in pleasing him she was happy: in the knowledge that she dazzled, +was her sense of safety. Percy hated scandal; he heard none. He wanted +stirring, cheering; in her house he had it. He came daily, and as it was +her wish that new themes, new flights of converse, should delight him and +show her exhaustless, to preserve her ascendancy, she welcomed him +without consulting the world. He was witness of Mr. Hepburn's +presentation of a costly China vase, to repair the breach in her array +of ornaments, and excuse a visit. Judging by the absence of any blow +within, he saw not a sign of coquettry. Some such visit had been +anticipated by the prescient woman, so there was no reddening. She +brought about an exchange of sentences between him and her furious +admirer, sparing either of them a glimpse of which was the sacrifice to +the other, amusing them both. Dacier could allow Mr. Hepburn to outsit +him; and he left them, proud of his absolute confidence in her. + +She was mistaken in imagining that her social vivacity, mixed with +comradeship of the active intellect, was the charm which kept Mr. Percy +Dacier temperate when he well knew her to distinguish him above her +courtiers. Her powers of dazzling kept him tame; they did not stamp her +mark on him. He was one of the order of highly polished men, ignorant of +women, who are impressed for long terms by temporary flashes, that hold +them bound until a fresh impression comes, to confirm or obliterate the +preceding. Affairs of the world he could treat competently; he had a +head for high politics and the management of men; the feminine half of +the world was a confusion and a vexation to his intelligence, +characterless; and one woman at last appearing decipherable, he fancied +it must be owing to her possession of character, a thing prized the more +in women because of his latent doubt of its existence. Character, that +was the mark he aimed at; that moved him to homage as neither sparkling +wit nor incomparable beauty, nor the unusual combination, did. To be +distinguished by a woman of character (beauty and wit for jewellery), was +his minor ambition in life, and if Fortune now gratified it, he owned to +the flattery. It really seemed by every test that she had the quality. +Since the day when he beheld her by the bedside of his dead uncle, and +that one on the French sea-sands, and again at Copsley, ghostly white out +of her wrestle with death, bleeding holy sweat of brow for her friend, +the print of her features had been on him as an index of depth of +character, imposing respect and admiration--a sentiment imperilled by her +consent to fly with him. Her subsequent reserve until they met--by an +accident that the lady at any rate was not responsible for, proved the +quality positively. And the nature of her character, at first suspected, +vanquished him more, by comparison, than her vivid intellect, which he +originally, and still lingeringly, appreciated in condescension, as a +singular accomplishment, thrilling at times, now and then assailably +feminine. But, after her consent to a proposal that caused him +retrospective worldly shudders, and her composed recognition of the +madness, a character capable of holding him in some awe was real majesty, +and it rose to the clear heights, with her mental attributes for +satellites. His tendency to despise women was wholesomely checked by +the experience to justify him in saying, Here is a worthy one! She was +health to him, as well as trusty counsel. Furthermore, where he +respected, he was a governed man, free of the common masculine craze to +scale fortresses for the sake of lowering flags. Whilst under his +impression of her character, he submitted honourably to the ascendancy +of a lady whose conduct suited him and whose preference flattered; whose +presence was very refreshing; whose letters were a stimulant. Her +letters were really running well-waters, not a lover's delusion of the +luminous mind of his lady. They sparkled in review and preserved their +integrity under critical analysis. The reading of them hurried him in +pursuit of her from house to house during the autumn; and as she did not +hint at the shadow his coming cast on her, his conscience was easy. +Regarding their future, his political anxieties were a mountainous +defile, curtaining the outlook. They met at Lockton, where he arrived +after a recent consultation with his Chief, of whom, and the murmurs of +the Cabinet, he spoke to Diana openly, in some dejection. + +'They might see he has been breaking with his party for the last four +years,' she said. 'The plunge to be taken is tremendous.' + +'But will he? He appears too despondent for a header.' + +'We cannot dance on a quaking floor.' + +'No; it 's exactly that quake of the floor which gives "much qualms," to +me as well,' said Dacier. + +'A treble Neptune's power!' she rejoined, for his particular delectation. +'Enough if he hesitates. I forgive him his nausea. He awaits the +impetus, and it will reach him, and soon. He will not wait for the mob +at his heels, I am certain. A Minister who does that, is a post, and +goes down with the first bursting of the dam. He has tried compromise +and discovered that it does not appease the Fates; is not even a +makeshift-mending at this hour. He is a man of nerves, very sensitively +built; as quick--quicker than a woman, I could almost say, to feel the +tremble of the air-forerunner of imperative changes.' + +Dacier brightened fondly. 'You positively describe him; paint him to the +life, without knowing him!' + +'I have seen him; and if I paint, whose are the colours?' + +'Sometimes I repeat you to him, and I get all the credit,' said Dacier. + +'I glow with pride to think of speaking anything that you repeat,' said +Diana, and her eyes were proudly lustreful. + +Their love was nourished on these mutual flatteries. Thin food for +passion! The innocence of it sanctioned the meetings and the +appointments to meet. When separated they were interchanging letters, +formally worded in the apostrophe and the termination, but throbbingly +full: or Diana thought so of Percy's letters, with grateful justice; for +his manner of opening his heart in amatory correspondence was to confide +important, secret matters, up to which mark she sprang to reply in +counsel. He proved his affection by trusting her; his respect by his +tempered style: 'A Greenland style of writing,' she had said of an +unhappy gentleman's epistolary compositions resembling it; and now the +same official baldness was to her mind Italianly rich; it called forth +such volumes. + +Flatteries that were thin food for passion appeared the simplest +exchanges of courtesy, and her meetings with her lover, judging by the +nature of the discourse they held, so, consequent to their joint interest +in the great crisis anticipated, as to rouse her indignant surprise and a +turn for downright rebellion when the Argus world signified the fact of +its having one eye, or more, wide open. + +Debit and Credit, too, her buzzing familiars, insisted on an audience at +each ear, and at the house-door, on her return to London. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX + +SHOWS THE APPROACHES OF THE POLITICAL AND THE DOMESTIC CRISIS IN COMPANY + +There was not much talk of Diana between Lady Dunstane and her customary +visitor Tom Redworth now. She was shy in speaking of the love-stricken +woman, and more was in his mind for thought than for speech. She some +times wondered how much he might know, ending with the reflection that +little passing around was unknown to him. He had to shut his mind +against thought, against all meditation upon Mrs. Warwick; it was based +scientifically when speculating and calculating, on the material element +--a talisman. Men and women crossing the high seas of life he had found +most readable under that illuminating inquiry, as to their means. An +inspector of sea worthy ships proceeds in like manner. Whence would the +money come? He could not help the bent of his mind; but he could avoid +subjecting her to the talismanic touch. The girl at the Dublin Ball, +the woman at the fire-grate of The Crossways, both in one were his Diana. +Now and then, hearing an ugly whisper, his manful sympathy with the mere +woman in her imprisoned liberty, defended her desperately from charges +not distinctly formulated within him:--'She's not made of stone.' That +was a height of self-abnegation to shake the poor fellow to his roots; +but, then, he had no hopes of his own; and he stuck to it. Her choice of +a man like Dacier, too, of whom Redworth judged highly, showed nobility. +She irradiated the man; but no baseness could be in such an alliance. +If allied, they were bound together for good. The tie-supposing a +villain world not wrong--was only not the sacred tie because of +impediments. The tie!--he deliberated, and said stoutly--No. Men of +Redworth's nature go through sharp contests, though the duration of them +is short, and the tussle of his worship of this woman with the +materialistic turn of his mind was closed by the complete shutting up of +the latter under lock and bar; so that a man, very little of an idealist, +was able to sustain her in the pure imagination--where she did almost +belong to him. She was his, in a sense, because she might have been his- +-but for an incredible extreme of folly. The dark ring of the eclipse +cast by some amazing foolishness round the shining crescent perpetually +in secret claimed the whole sphere of her, by what might have been, while +admitting her lost to him in fact. To Thomas Redworth's mind the lack of +perfect sanity in his conduct at any period of manhood, was so entirely +past belief that he flew at the circumstances confirming the charge, and +had wrestles with the angel of reality, who did but set him dreaming +backward, after flinging him. + +He heard at Lady Wathin's that Mrs. Warwick was in town for the winter. +'Mr. Dacier is also in town,' Lady Wathin said, with an acid indication +of the needless mention of it. 'We have not seen him.' She invited +Redworth to meet a few friends at dinner. 'I think you admire Miss +Asper: in my idea a very saint among young women;--and you know what the +young women of our day are. She will be present. She is, you are aware, +England's greatest heiress. Only yesterday, hearing of that poor man Mr. +Warwick's desperate attack of illness--heart!--and of his having no +relative or friend to soothe his pillow,--he is lying in absolute +loneliness,--she offered to go and nurse him! Of course it could not +be done. It is not her place. The beauty of the character of a dear +innocent young girl, with every gratification at command, who could make +the offer, strikes me as unparalleled. She was perfectly sincere--she is +sincerity. She asked at once, Where is he? She wished me to accompany +her on a first visit. I saw a tear.' + +Redworth had called at Lady Wathin's for information of the state of Mr. +Warwick, concerning which a rumour was abroad. No stranger to the +vagrant compassionateness of sentimentalists;--rich, idle, conscience- +pricked or praise-catching;--he was unmoved by the tale that Miss Asper +had proposed to go to Mr. Warwick's sick-bed in the uniform of a Sister +of Charity.--'Speaking French!' Lady Wathin exclaimed; and his head +rocked, as he said: + +'An Englishman would not be likely to know better.' + +'She speaks exquisite French--all European languages, Mr. Redworth. +She does not pretend to wit. To my thinking, depth of sentiment is +a far more feminine accomplishment. It assuredly will be found a +greater treasure.' + +The modest man (modest in such matters) was led by degrees to fancy +himself sounded regarding Miss Asper: a piece of sculpture glacially +decorative of the domestic mansion in person, to his thinking; and as to +the nature of it--not a Diana, with all her faults! + +If Diana had any faults, in a world and a position so heavily against +her! He laughed to himself, when alone, at the neatly implied bitter +reproach cast on the wife by the forsaken young lady, who proposed to +nurse the abandoned husband of the woman bereaving her of the man she +loved. Sentimentalists enjoy these tricks, the conceiving or the doing +of them--the former mainly, which are cheaper, and equally effective. +Miss Asper might be deficient in wit; this was a form of practical wit, +occasionally exhibited by creatures acting on their instincts. Warwick +he pitied, and he put compulsion on himself to go and see the poor +fellow, the subject of so sublime a generosity. Mr. Warwick sat in an +arm-chair, his legs out straight on the heels, his jaw dragging hollow +cheeks, his hands loosely joined; improving in health, he said. A demure +woman of middle age was in attendance. He did not speak of his wife. +Three times he said disconnectedly, 'I hear reports,' and his eyelids +worked. Redworth talked of general affairs, without those consolatory +efforts, useless between men, which are neither medicine nor good honest +water:--he judged by personal feelings. In consequence, he left an +invalid the sourer for his visit. + +Next day he received a briefly-worded summons from Mrs. Warwick. + +Crossing the park on the line to Diana's house, he met Miss Paynham, who +grieved to say that Mrs. Warwick could not give her a sitting; and in a +still mournfuller tone, imagined he would find her at home, and alone by +this time. 'I left no one but Mr. Dacier there,' she observed. + +'Mrs. Warwick will be disengaged to-morrow, no doubt,' he said +consolingly. + +Her head performed the negative. 'They talk politics, and she becomes +animated, loses her pose. I will persevere, though I fear I have +undertaken a task too much for me.' + +'I am deeply indebted to you for the attempt.' Redworth bowed to her and +set his face to the Abbey-towers, which wore a different aspect in the +smoked grey light since his two minutes of colloquy. He had previously +noticed that meetings with Miss Paynham produced a similar effect on him, +a not so very impressionable man. And how was it done? She told him +nothing he did not know or guess. + +Diana was alone. Her manner, after the greeting, seemed feverish. She +had not to excuse herself for abruptness when he heard the nature of the +subject. Her counsellor and friend was informed, in feminine style, that +she had, requested him to call, for the purpose of consulting him with +regard to a matter she had decided upon; and it was, the sale of The +Crossways. She said that it would have gone to her heart once; she +supposed she had lost her affection for the place, or had got the better +of her superstitions. She spoke lamely as well as bluntly. The place +was hers, she said; her own property. Her husband could not interdict a +sale. + +Redworth addressed himself to her smothered antagonism. 'Even if he had +rights, as they are termed . . . I think you might count on their not +being pressed.' + +'I have been told of illness.' She tapped her foot on the floor. + +'His present state of health is unequal to his ordinary duties.' + +'Emma Dunstane is fully supplied with the latest intelligence, Mr. +Redworth. You know the source.' + +'I mention it simply . . .' + +'Yes, yes. What I have to protest is, that in this respect I am free. +The Law has me fast, but leaves me its legal view of my small property. +I have no authority over me. I can do as I please, in this, without a +collision, or the dread of one. It is the married woman's perpetual +dread when she ventures a step. Your Law originally presumed her a +China-footed animal. And more, I have a claim for maintenance.' + +She crimsoned angrily. + +Redworth showed a look of pleasure, hard to understand. 'The application +would be sufficient, I fancy,' he said. + +'It should have been offered.' + +'Did you not decline it?' + +'I declined to apply for it. I thought--But, Mr. Redworth, another +thing, concerning us all: I want very much to hear your ideas of the +prospects of the League; because I know you have ideas. The leaders are +terrible men; they fascinate me. They appear to move with an army of +facts. They are certainly carrying the country. I am obliged to think +them sincere. Common agitators would not hold together, as they do. +They gather strength each year. If their statistics are not illusory-- +an army of phantoms instead of one of facts; and they knock at my head +without admission, I have to confess; they must win.' + +'Ultimately, it is quite calculable that they will win,' said Redworth; +and he was led to discourse of rates and duties and prohibitive tariffs +to a woman surprisingly athirst, curious for every scrap of intelligence +relating to the power, organization, and schemes of the League. 'Common +sense is the secret of every successful civil agitation,' he said. 'Rap +it unremittingly on crowds of the thickest of human heads, and the +response comes at last to sweep all before it. You may reckon that the +country will beat the landlords--for that is our question. Is it one of +your political themes?' + +'I am not presumptuous to such a degree:--a poor scholar,' Diana replied. +'Women striving to lift their heads among men deserve the sarcasm.' + +He denied that any sarcasm was intended, and the lesson continued. When +she had shaped in her mind some portion of his knowledge of the subject, +she reverted casually to her practical business. Would he undertake to +try to obtain a purchaser of The Crossways, at the price he might deem +reasonable? She left the price entirely to his judgement. And now she +had determined to part with the old place, the sooner the better! She +said that smiling; and Redworth smiled, outwardly and inwardly. Her talk +of her affairs was clearer to him than her curiosity for the mysteries of +the League. He gained kind looks besides warm thanks by the promise to +seek a purchaser; especially by his avoidance of prying queries. She +wanted just this excellent automaton fac-totum; and she referred him to +Mr. Braddock for the title-deeds, et caetera--the chirping phrase of +ladies happily washing their hands of the mean details of business. + +'How of your last work?' he asked her. + +Serenest equanimity rejoined: 'As I anticipated, it is not popular. The +critics are of one mind with the public. You may have noticed, they +rarely flower above that rocky surface. THE CANTATRICE sings them a +false note. My next will probably please them less.' + +Her mobile lips and brows shot the faint upper-wreath of a smile +hovering. It was designed to display her philosophy. + +'And what is the name of your next?' said he. + +'I name it THE MAN OF TWO MINDS, if you can allow that to be in nature.' + +'Contra-distinguished from the woman?' + +'Oh! you must first believe the woman to have one.' + +'You are working on it?' + +'By fits. And I forgot, Mr. Redworth: I have mislaid my receipts, and +must ask you for the address of your wine-merchant;--or, will you? +Several dozen of the same wines. I can trust him to be in awe of you, +and the good repute of my table depends on his honesty.' + +Redworth took the definite order for a large supply of wine. + +She gave him her hand: a lost hand, dear to hold, needing to be guided, +he feared. For him, it was merely a hand, cut off from the wrist; and he +had performed that executive part! A wiser man would now have been the +lord of it . . . . So he felt, with his burning wish to protect and +cherish the beloved woman, while saying: 'If we find a speedy bidder for +The Crossways, you will have to thank our railways.' + +'You!' said Diana, confident in his ability to do every-thing of the +practical kind. + +Her ingenuousness tickled him. He missed her comic touches upon men and +things, but the fever shown by her manner accounted for it. + +As soon as he left her, she was writing to the lover who had an hour +previously been hearing her voice; the note of her theme being Party; +and how to serve it, when to sacrifice it to the Country. She wrote, +carolling bars of the Puritani marches; and such will passion do, that +her choice of music was quite in harmony with her theme. The martially- +amorous melodies of Italian Opera in those days fostered a passion +challenged to intrepidity from the heart of softness; gliding at the same +time, and putting warm blood even into dull arithmetical figures which +might be important to her lover, her hero fronting battle. She condensed +Redworth's information skilfully, heartily giving it and whatever she had +imbibed, as her own, down to the remark: 'Common sense in questions of +justice, is a weapon that makes way into human heads and wins the certain +majority, if we strike with it incessantly.' Whether anything she wrote +was her own, mattered little: the savour of Percy's praise, which none +could share with her, made it instantly all her own. Besides she wrote +to strengthen him; she naturally laid her friends and the world under +contribution; and no other sort of writing was possible. Percy had not a +common interest in fiction; still less for high comedy. He liked the +broad laugh when he deigned to open books of that sort; puns and strong +flavours and harlequin surprises; and her work would not admit of them, +however great her willingness to force her hand for his amusement: +consequently her inventiveness deadened. She had to cease whipping it. +'My poor old London cabhorse of a pen shall go to grass!' she sighed, +looking to the sale of The Crossways for money; looking no farther. + +Those marshalled battalions of Debit and Credit were in hostile order, +the weaker simply devoted to fighting for delay, when a winged messenger +bearing the form of old Mr. Braddock descended to her with the +reconciling news that a hermit bachelor, an acquaintance of Mr. +Redworth's--both of whom wore a gloomy hue in her mind immediately--had +offered a sum for the purchase of The Crossways. Considering the out-of- +the-way district, Mr. Braddock thought it an excellent price to get. She +thought the reverse, but confessed that double the sum would not have +altered her opinion. Double the sum scarcely counted for the service she +required of it for much more than a year. The money was paid shortly +after into her Bank, and then she enjoyed the contemptuous felicity of +tossing meat to her lions, tigers, wolves, and jackals, who, but for the +fortunate intervention, would have been feeding on her. These menagerie +beasts of prey were the lady's tradesmen, Debit's hungry-brood. She had +a rapid glimpse of a false position in regarding that legitimate band so +scornfully: another glimpse likewise of a day to come when they might not +be stopped at the door. She was running a race with something; with +what? It was unnamed; it ran in a shroud. + +At times she surprised her heart violently beating when there had not +been a thought to set it in motion. She traced it once to the words, +'next year,' incidentally mentioned. 'Free,' was a word that checked her +throbs, as at a question of life or death. Her solitude, excepting the +hours of sleep, if then, was a time of irregular breathing. The +something unnamed, running beside her, became a dreadful familiar; the +race between them past contemplation for ghastliness. 'But this is your +Law!' she cried to the world, while blinding her eyes against a peep of +the shrouded features. + +Singularly, she had but to abandon hope, and the shadowy figure vanished, +the tragic race was ended. How to live and think, and not to hope: the +slave of passion had this problem before her. + +Other tasks were supportable, though one seemed hard at moments and was +not passive; it attacked her. The men and women of her circle +derisively, unanimously, disbelieved in an innocence that forfeited +reputation. Women were complimentarily assumed to be not such gaping +idiots. And as the weeks advanced, a change came over Percy. The +gentleman had grown restless at covert congratulations, hollow to his +knowledge, however much caressing vanity, and therefore secretly a wound +to it. One day, after sitting silent, he bluntly proposed to break 'this +foolish trifling'; just in his old manner, though not so honourably; not +very definitely either. Her hand was taken. + +'I feared that dumbness!' Diana said, letting her hand go, but keeping +her composure. 'My friend Percy, I am not a lion-tamer, and if you are +of those animals, we break the chapter. Plainly you think that where +there appears to be a choice of fools, the woman is distinctly designed +for the person. Drop my hand, or I shall repeat the fable of the Goose +with the Golden Eggs.' + +'Fables are applicable only in the school-room,' said he; and he ventured +on 'Tony!' + +'I vowed an oath to my dear Emma--as good as to the heavens! and that +of itself would stay me from being insane again.' She released herself. +'Signor Percy, you teach me to suspect you of having an idle wish to +pluck your plaything to pieces:--to boast of it? Ah! my friend, I +fancied I was of more value to you. You must come less often; even to +not at all, if you are one of those idols with feet of clay which leave +the print of their steps in a room; or fall and crush the silly +idolizer.' + +'But surely you know . . .' said he. 'We can't have to wait long.' +He looked full of hopeful meanings. + +'A reason . . . !' She kept down her breath. A longdrawn sigh +followed, through parted lips. She had a sensation of horror. +'And I cannot propose to nurse him--Emma will not hear of it,' she said. +'I dare not. Hypocrite to that extreme? Oh, no! But I must hear +nothing. As it is, I am haunted. Now let this pass. Tony me no Tonies; +I am stony to such whimpering business now we are in the van of the +struggle. All round us it sounds like war. Last night I had Mr. Tonans +dining here;--he wished to meet you; and you must have a private meeting +with Mr. Whitmonby: he will be useful; others as well. You are wrong in +affecting contempt of the Press. It perches you on a rock; but the +swimmer in politics knows what draws the tides. Your own people, your +set, your class, are a drag to you, like inherited superstitions to the +wakening brain. The greater the glory! For you see the lead you take? +You are saving your class. They should lead, and will, if they prove +worthy in the crisis. Their curious error is to believe in the stability +of a monumental position.' + +'Perfectly true!' cried Dacier; and the next minute, heated by +approbation, was begging for her hand earnestly. She refused it. + +'But you say things that catch me!' he pleaded. 'Remember, it was nearly +mine. It soon will be mine. I heard yesterday from Lady Wathin . . . +well, if it pains you!' + +'Speak on,' said Diana, resigned to her thirsty ears. + +'He is not expected to last through the autumn.' + +'The calculation is hers?' + +'Not exactly:--judging from the symptoms.' + +Diana flashed a fiery eye into Dacier's, and rose. She was past danger +of melting, with her imagination darkened by the funeral image; but she +craved solitude, and had to act the callous, to dismiss him. + +'Good. Enough for the day. Now leave me, if you please. When we meet +again, stifle that raven's croak. I am not a "Sister of Charity," +but neither am I a vulture hovering for the horse in the desert to die. +A poor simile!--when it is my own and not another's breath that I want. +Nothing in nature, only gruesome German stories will fetch comparisons +for the yoke of this Law of yours. It seems the nightmare dream +following an ogre's supper.' + +She was not acting the shiver of her frame. + +To-morrow was open to him, and prospect of better fortune, so he +departed, after squeezing the hand she ceremoniously extended. + +But her woman's intuition warned her that she had not maintained the +sovereign impression which was her security. And hope had become a flame +in her bosom that would no longer take the common extinguisher. The race +she ran was with a shrouded figure no more, but with the figure of the +shroud; she had to summon paroxysms of a pity hard to feel, images of +sickness, helplessness, the vaults, the last human silence for the +stilling of her passionate heart. And when this was partly effected, the +question, Am I going to live? renewed her tragical struggle. Who was it +under the vaults, in the shroud, between the planks? and with human +sensibility to swell the horror! Passion whispered of a vaster sorrow +needed for herself; and the hope conjuring those frightful complexities +was needed to soothe her. She pitied the man, but she was an enamoured +woman. Often of late she had been sharply stung, relaxed as well, by the +observations of Danvers assisting at her toilette. Had she beauty and +charm, beauty and rich health in the young summer blooming of her days? +--and all doomed to waste? No insurgency of words arose in denunciation +of the wrong done to her nature. An undefined heavy feeling of wrong +there was, just perceptive enough to let her know, without gravely +shaming, that one or another must be slain for peace to come; for it is +the case in which the world of the Laws overloading her is pitiless to +women, deaf past ear-trumpets, past intercession; detesting and reviling +them for a feeble human cry, and for one apparent step of revolt piling +the pelted stones on them. It will not discriminate shades of hue, it +massacres all the shadowed. They are honoured, after a fashion, at a +certain elevation. Descending from it, and purely to breathe common air +(thus in her mind), they are scourged and outcast. And alas! the very +pleading for them excites a sort of ridicule in their advocate. How? +She was utterly, even desperately, nay personally, earnest, and her +humour closed her lips; though comical views of the scourged and outcast +coming from the opposite party--the huge bully world--she would not have +tolerated. Diana raged at a prevailing strength on the part of that huge +bully world, which seemed really to embrace the atmosphere. Emma had +said: 'The rules of Christian Society are a blessed Government for us +women. We owe it so much that there is not a brick of the fabric we +should not prop.' Emma's talk of obedience to the Laws, being Laws, was +repeated by the rebel, with an involuntary unphrased comparison of the +vessel in dock and the vessel at sea. + +When Dacier next called to see Mrs. Warwick, he heard that she had gone +to Copsley for a couple of weeks. The lesson was emphasized by her not +writing:--and was it the tricky sex, or the splendid character of the +woman, which dealt him this punishment? Knowing how much Diana +forfeited for him, he was moved to some enthusiasm, despite his +inclination to be hurt. + +She, on her return to London, gained a considerable increase of knowledge +as to her position in the eye of the world; and unlike the result of her +meditations derived from the clamouring tradesmen, whom she could excuse, +she was neither illuminated nor cautioned by that dubious look; she +conscientiously revolted. Lady Pennon hinted a word for her Government. +'A good deal of what you so capitally call "Green tea talk" is going on, +my dear.' Diana replied, without pretending to misunderstand. + +'Gossip is a beast of prey that does not wait for the death of the +creature it devours. They are welcome to my shadow, if the liberty I +claim casts one, and it feeds them.' To which the old lady rejoined: +'Oh! I am with you through thick and thin. I presented you at Court, and +I stand by you. Only, walk carefully. Women have to walk with a train. +You are too famous not to have your troops of watchers.' + +'But I mean to prove,' said Diana, 'that a woman can walk with her train +independent of the common reserves and artifices.' + +'Not on highways, my dear!' + +Diana, praising the speaker, referred the whole truth in that to the +material element of her metaphor. + +She was more astonished by Whitmonby's candid chiding; but with him she +could fence, and men are easily diverted. She had sent for him, to bring +him and Percy Dacier together to a conference. Unaware of the project, +he took the opportunity of their privacy to speak of the great station +open to her in London being imperilled; and he spoke of 'tongues,' and +ahem! A very little would have induced him to fill that empty vocable +with a name. + +She had to pardon the critic in him for an unpleasant review of her +hapless CANTATRICE; and as a means of evasion, she mentioned the poor +book and her slaughter of the heroine, that he had complained of. + +'I killed her; I could not let her live. You were unjust in accusing the +authoress of heartlessness.' + +'If I did, I retract,' said he. 'She steers too evidently from the +centre of the vessel. She has the organ in excess.' + +'Proof that it is not squandered.' + +'The point concerns direction.' + +'Have I made so bad a choice of my friends?' + +'It is the common error of the sprightly to suppose that in parrying a +thrust they blind our eyes.' + +'The world sees always what it desires to see, Mr. Whitmonby.' + +'The world, my dear Mrs. Warwick, is a blundering machine upon its own +affairs, but a cruel sleuth-hound to rouse in pursuit.' + +'So now you have me chased by sight and scent. And if I take wing?' + +'Shots! volleys!--You are lawful game. The choice you have made of your +friends, should oblige you to think of them.' + +'I imagine I do. Have I offended any, or one?' + +'I will not say that. You know the commotion in a French kitchen when +the guests of the house declined a particular dish furnished them by +command. The cook and his crew were loyal to their master, but, for the +love of their Art, they sent him notice. It is ill serving a mad +sovereign.' + +Diana bowed to the compact little apologue. + +'I will tell you another story, traditional in our family from my great- +grandmother, a Spanish woman,' she said. 'A cavalier serenaded his +mistress, and rascal mercenaries fell upon him before he could draw +sword. He battered his guitar on their pates till the lattice opened +with a cry, and startled them to flight. "Thrice blessed and beloved!" +he called to her above, in reference to the noise, "it was merely a +diversion of the accompaniment." Now there was loyal service to a +sovereign!' + +'You are certainly an angel!' exclaimed Whitmonby. 'I swallow the story, +and leave it to digestion to discover the appositeness. Whatever tuneful +instrument one of your friends possesses shall solace your slumbers or +batter the pate of your enemy. But discourage the habitual serenader.' + +'The musician you must mean is due here now, by appointment to meet you,' +said Diana, and set him momentarily agape with the name of Mr. Percy +Dacier. + +That was the origin of the alliance between the young statesman and a +newspaper editor. Whitmonby, accepting proposals which suited him, +quitted the house, after an hour of political talk, no longer inclined to +hint at the 'habitual serenader,' but very ready to fall foul of those +who did, as he proved when the numbers buzzed openly. Times were +masculine; the excitement on the eve of so great a crisis, and Diana's +comprehension of it and fine heading cry, put that weak matter aside. +Moreover, he was taught to suppose himself as welcome a guest as Dacier; +and the cook could stand criticism; the wines--wonderful to say of a +lady's table--were trusty; the talk, on the political evenings and the +social and anecdotal supper-nights, ran always in perfect accord with his +ideal of the conversational orchestra: an improvized harmony, unmatched +elsewhere. She did not, he considered, so perfectly assort her dinner- +guests; that was her one fault. She had therefore to strain her +adroitness to cover their deficiencies and fuse them. But what other +woman could have done it! She led superbly. If an Irishman was present, +she kept him from overflooding, managed to extract just the flavour of +him, the smack of salt. She did even, at Whitmonby's table, on a red- +letter Sunday evening, in concert with him and the Dean, bring down that +cataract, the Bodleian, to the levels of interchanging dialogue by +seasonable touches, inimitably done, and never done before. Sullivan +Smith, unbridled in the middle of dinner, was docile to her. 'Irishmen;' +she said, pleading on their behalf to Whitmonby, who pronounced the race +too raw for an Olympian feast, 'are invaluable if you hang them up to +smoke and cure'; and the master of social converse could not deny that +they were responsive to her magic. The supper-nights were mainly devoted +to Percy's friends. He brought as many as he pleased, and as often as it +pleased him; and it was her pride to provide Cleopatra banquets for the +lover whose anxieties were soothed by them, and to whom she sacrificed +her name willingly in return for a generosity that certain chance +whispers of her heart elevated to the pitch of measureless. + +So they wore through the Session and the Autumn, clouds heavier, the +League drumming, the cry of Ireland 'ominously Banshee,' as she wrote to +Emma. + + + + +CHAPTER XXX + +IN WHICH THERE IS A TASTE OF A LITTLE DINNER AND AN AFTERTASTE + +'But Tony lives!' Emma Dunstane cried, on her solitary height, with the +full accent of envy marking the verb; and when she wrote enviously to her +friend of the life among bright intelligences, and of talk worth hearing, +it was a happy signification that health, frail though it might be, had +grown importunate for some of the play of life. Diana sent her word to +name her day, and she would have her choicest to meet her dearest. They +were in the early days of December, not the best of times for improvized +gatherings. Emma wanted, however, to taste them as they cropped; she was +also, owing to her long isolation, timid at a notion of encountering the +pick of the London world, prepared by Tony to behold 'a wonder more than +worthy of them,' as her friend unadvisedly wrote. That was why she came +unexpectedly, and for a mixture of reasons, went to an hotel. Fatality +designed it so. She was reproached, but she said: 'You have to write or +you entertain at night; I should be a clog and fret you. My hotel is +Maitland's; excellent; I believe I am to lie on the pillow where a +crowned head reposed! You will perceive that I am proud as well as +comfortable. And I would rather meet your usual set of guests.' + +'The reason why I have been entertaining at night is, that Percy is +harassed and requires enlivening,' said Diana. 'He brings his friends. +My house is open to them, if it amuses him. What the world says, is past +a thought. I owe him too much.' + +Emma murmured that the world would soon be pacified. + +Diana shook her head. 'The poor man is better; able to go about his +affairs; and I am honestly relieved. It lays a spectre. As for me, I do +not look ahead. I serve as a kind of secretary to Percy. I labour at +making abstracts by day, and at night preside at my suppertable. You +would think it monotonous; no incident varies the course we run. I have +no time to ask whether it is happiness. It seems to bear a resemblance.' + +Emma replied: 'He may be everything you tell me. He should not have +chosen the last night of the Opera to go to your box and sit beside you +till the fall of the curtain. The presence at the Opera of a man +notoriously indifferent to music was enough in itself.' + +Diana smiled with languor. 'You heard of that? But the Opera was The +Puritani, my favourite. And he saw me sitting in Lady Pennon's box +alone. We were compromised neck-deep already. I can kiss you, my own +Emmy, till I die; 'but what the world says, is what the wind says. +Besides he has his hopes.... If I am blackened ever so thickly, he can +make me white. Dear me! if the world knew that he comes here almost +nightly! It will; and does it matter? I am his in soul; the rest is +waste-paper--a half-printed sheet.' + +'Provided he is worthy of such devotion!' + +'He is absolute worthiness. He is the prince of men: I dread to say, +mine! for fear. But Emmy will not judge him to-morrow by contrast with +more voluble talkers.--I can do anything but read poetry now. That kills +me!--See him through me. In nature, character, intellect, he has no +rival. Whenever I despond--and it comes now and then--I rebuke myself +with this one admonition. + +Simply to have known him! Admit that for a woman to find one who is +worthy among the opposite creatures, is a happy termination of her quest, +and in some sort dismisses her to the Shades, an uncomplaining ferry- +bird. If my end were at hand I should have no cause to lament it. We +women miss life only when we have to confess we have never met the man to +reverence.' + +Emma had to hear a very great deal of Mr. Percy. Diana's comparison of +herself to 'the busy bee at a window-pane,' was more in her old manner; +and her friend would have hearkened to the marvels of the gentle man less +unrefreshed, had it not appeared to her that her Tony gave in excess for +what was given in return. She hinted her view. . . + +'It is expected of our sex,' Diana said. + +The work of busy bee at a window-pane had at any rate not spoilt her +beauty, though she had voluntarily, profitlessly, become this man's +drudge, and her sprightly fancy, her ready humour and darting look all +round in discussion, were rather deadened. + +But the loss was not perceptible in the circle of her guests. Present +at a dinner little indicating the last, were Whitmonby, in lively trim +for shuffling, dealing, cutting, trumping or drawing trumps; Westlake, +polishing epigrams under his eyelids; Henry Wilmers, who timed an +anecdote to strike as the passing hour without freezing the current; +Sullivan Smith, smoked, cured and ready to flavour; Percy Dacier, +pleasant listener, measured speaker; and young Arthur Rhodes, the +neophyte of the hostess's training; of whom she had said to Emma, 'The +dear boy very kindly serves to frank an unlicenced widow'; and whom she +prompted and made her utmost of, with her natural tact. These she mixed +and leavened. The talk was on high levels and low; an enchantment to +Emma Dunstane: now a story; a question opening new routes, sharp sketches +of known personages; a paradox shot by laughter as soon as uttered; and +all so smoothly; not a shadow of the dominant holder-forth or a momentary +prospect of dead flats; the mellow ring of appositeness being the +concordant note of deliveries running linked as they flashed, and a +tolerant philosophy of the sage in the world recurrently the keynote. + +Once only had Diana to protect her nurseling. He cited a funny line +from a recent popular volume of verse, in perfect A propos, looking at +Sullivan Smith; who replied, that the poets had become too many for him, +and he read none now. Diana said: 'There are many Alexanders, but +Alexander of Macedon is not dwarfed by the number.' She gave him an +opening for a smarter reply, but he lost it in a comment--against +Whitmonby's cardinal rule: 'The neatest turn of the wrist that ever swung +a hero to crack a crown!' and he bowed to young Rhodes: 'I 'll read your +versicler to-morrow morning early.' The latter expressed a fear that the +hour was too critical for poetry. + +'I have taken the dose at a very early hour,' said Whitmonby, to bring +conversation to the flow again, 'and it effaced the critical mind +completely.' + +'But did not silence the critical nose,' observed Westlake. + +Wilmers named the owner of the longest nose in Europe. + +'Potentially, indeed a critic!' said Diana. + +'Nights beside it must be fearful, and good matter for a divorce, if the +poor dear lady could hale it to the doors of the Vatican!' Sullivan Smith +exclaimed. 'But there's character in noses.' + +'Calculable by inches?' Dacier asked. + +'More than in any other feature,' said Lady Dunstane. 'The Riffords are +all prodigiously gifted and amusing: suspendens omnia naso. It should be +prayed for in families.' + +'Totum ut to faciant, Fabulle, nasum,' rejoined Whitmonby. 'Lady +Isabella was reading the tale of the German princess, who had a sentinel +stationed some hundred yards away to whisk off the flies, and she owned +to me that her hand instinctively travelled upward.' + +'Candour is the best concealment, when one has to carry a saddle of +absurdity,' said Diana. 'Touchstone's "poor thing, but mine own," is +godlike in its enveloping fold.' + +'The most comforting sermon ever delivered on property in poverty,' said +Arthur Rhodes. + +Westlake assented. 'His choice of Audrey strikes me as an exhibition of +the sure instinct for pasture of the philosophical jester in a forest.' + +' With nature's woman, if he can find her, the urban seems equally at +home,' said Lady Dunstane. + +'Baron Pawle is an example,' added Whitmonby. 'His cook is a pattern +wife to him. I heard him say at table that she was responsible for all +except the wines. "I wouldn't have them on my conscience, with a Judge!" +my lady retorted.' + +'When poor Madame de Jacquieres was dying,' said Wilmers, 'her confessor +sat by her bedside, prepared for his ministrations. "Pour commencer, mon +ami, jamais je n'ai fait rien hors nature."' + +Lord Wadaster had uttered something tolerably similar: 'I am a sinner, +and in good society.' Sir Abraham Hartiston, a minor satellite of the +Regent, diversified this: 'I am a sinner, and go to good society.' +Madame la Comtesse de la Roche-Aigle, the cause of many deaths, declared +it unwomanly to fear anything save 'les revenants.' Yet the countess +could say the pretty thing: 'Foot on a flower, then think of me!' + +'Sentimentality puts up infant hands for absolution,' said Diana. + +'But tell me,' Lady Dunstane inquired generally, 'why men are so much +happier than women in laughing at their spouses?' + +They are humaner, was one dictum; they are more frivolous, ironically +another. + +'It warrants them for blowing the bugle-horn of masculine superiority +night and morning from the castle-walls,' Diana said. + +'I should imagine it is for joy of heart that they still have cause to +laugh!' said Westlake. + +On the other hand, are women really pained by having to laugh at their +lords? Curious little speeches flying about the great world, affirmed +the contrary. But the fair speakers were chartered libertines, and their +laugh admittedly had a biting acid. The parasite is concerned in the +majesty of the tree. + +'We have entered Botany Bay,' Diana said to Emma; who answered: 'A +metaphor is the Deus ex machine, of an argument'; and Whitmonby, to +lighten a shadow of heaviness, related allusively an anecdote of the Law +Courts. Sullivan Smith begged permission to 'black cap' it with Judge +FitzGerald's sentence upon a convicted criminal: 'Your plot was perfect +but for One above.' Dacier cited an execrable impromptu line of the +Chief of the Opposition in Parliament. The Premier, it was remarked, +played him like an angler his fish on the hook; or say, Mr. Serjeant +Rufus his witness in the box. + +'Or a French journalist an English missionary,' said Westlake; and as the +instance was recent it was relished. + +The talk of Premiers offered Whitmonby occasion for a flight to the Court +of Vienna and Kaunitz. Wilmers told a droll story of Lord Busby's +missing the Embassy there. Westlake furnished a sample of the tranquil +sententiousness of Busby's brother Robert during a stormy debate in the +House of Commons. + +'I remember,' Dacier was reminded, 'hearing him say, when the House +resembled a Chartist riot, "Let us stand aside and meditate on Life. If +Youth could know, in the season of its reaping of the Pleasures, that it +is but sowing Doctor's bills!"' + +Latterly a malady had supervened, and Bob Busby had retired from the +universal to the special;--his mysterious case. + +'Assure him, that is endemic. He may be cured of his desire for the +exposition of it,' said Lady Dunstane. + +Westlake chimed with her: 'Yes, the charm in discoursing of one's case is +over when the individual appears no longer at odds with Providence.' + +'But then we lose our Tragedy,' said Whitmonby. + +'Our Comedy too,' added Diana. 'We must consent to be Busbied for the +sake of the instructive recreations.' + +'A curious idea, though,' said Sullivan Smith, 'that some of the grand +instructive figures were in their day colossal bores!' + +'So you see the marvel of the poet's craft at last?' Diana smiled on him, +and he vowed: 'I'll read nothing else for a month!' Young Rhodes bade him +beware of a deluge in proclaiming it. + +They rose from table at ten, with the satisfaction of knowing that +they had not argued, had not wrangled, had never stagnated, and were +digestingly refreshed; as it should be among grown members of the +civilized world, who mean to practise philosophy, making the hour of +the feast a balanced recreation and a regeneration of body and mind. + +'Evenings like these are worth a pilgrimage,' Emma said, embracing Tony +outside the drawing-room door. 'I am so glad I came: and if I am strong +enough, invite me again in the Spring. To-morrow early I start for +Copsley, to escape this London air. I shall hope to have you there +soon.' + +She was pleased by hearing Tony ask her whether she did not think that +Arthur Rhodes had borne himself well; for it breathed of her simply +friendly soul. + +The gentlemen followed Lady Dunstane in a troop, Dacier yielding perforce +the last adieu to young Rhodes. + +Five minutes later Diana was in her dressing-room, where she wrote at +night, on the rare occasions now when she was left free for composition. +Beginning to dwell on THE MAN OF TWO MINDS, she glanced at the woman +likewise divided, if not similarly; and she sat brooding. She did not +accuse her marriage of being the first fatal step: her error was the step +into Society without the wherewithal to support her position there. +Girls of her kind, airing their wings above the sphere of their birth, +are cryingly adventuresses. As adventuresses they are treated. + +Vain to be shrewish with the world! Rather let us turn and scold our +nature for irreflectively rushing to the cream and honey! Had she +subsisted on her small income in a country cottage, this task of writing +would have been holiday. Or better, if, as she preached to Mary Paynham, +she had apprenticed herself to some productive craft. The simplicity of +the life of labour looked beautiful. What will not look beautiful +contrasted with the fly in the web? She had chosen to be one of the +flies of life. + +Instead of running to composition, her mind was eloquent with a sermon +to Arthur Rhodes, in Redworth's vein; more sympathetically, of course. +'For I am not one of the lecturing Mammonites!' she could say. + +She was far from that. Penitentially, in the thick of her disdain of the +arrogant money-Betters, she pulled out a drawer where her bank-book lay, +and observed it contemplatively; jotting down a reflection before the +dread book of facts was opened: 'Gaze on the moral path you should have +taken, you are asked for courage to commit a sanctioned suicide, by +walking back to it stripped--a skeleton self.' She sighed forth: 'But I +have no courage: I never had!' The book revealed its tale in a small +pencilled computation of the bank-clerk's; on the peccant side. Credit +presented many pages blanks. She seemed to have withdrawn from the +struggle with such a partner. + +It signified an immediate appeal to the usurers, unless the publisher +could be persuaded, with three parts of the book in his hands, to come to +the rescue. Work! roared old Debit, the sinner turned slavedriver. + +Diana smoothed her wrists, compressing her lips not to laugh at the +simulation of an attitude of combat. She took up her pen. + +And strange to think, she could have flowed away at once on the stuff +that Danvers delighted to read!--wicked princes, rogue noblemen, titled +wantons, daisy and lily innocents, traitorous marriages, murders, a +gallows dangling a corpse dotted by a moon, and a woman bowed beneath. +She could have written, with the certainty that in the upper and the +middle as well as in the lower classes of the country, there would be a +multitude to read that stuff, so cordially, despite the gaps between +them, are they one in their literary tastes. And why should they not +read it? Her present mood was a craving for excitement; for incident, +wild action, the primitive machinery of our species; any amount of +theatrical heroics, pathos, and clown-gabble. A panorama of scenes came +sweeping round her. + +She was, however, harnessed to a different kind of vehicle, and had to +drag it. The sound of the house-door shutting, imagined perhaps, was a +fugitive distraction. Now to animate The Man of Two Minds! + +He is courting, but he is burdened with the task of tasks. He has an +ideal of womanhood and of the union of couples: a delicacy extreme as his +attachment: and he must induce the lady to school herself to his ideal, +not allowing her to suspect him less devoted to her person; while she, +an exacting idol, will drink any quantity of idealization as long as he +starts it from a full acceptance of her acknowledged qualities. Diana +could once have tripped the scene along airily. She stared at the +opening sentence, a heavy bit of moralized manufacture, fit to yoke +beside that on her view of her bank-book. + +'It has come to this--I have no head,' she cried. + +And is our public likely to muster the slightest taste for comic analysis +that does not tumble to farce? The doubt reduced her whole MS. to a +leaden weight, composed for sinking. Percy's addiction to burlesque was +a further hindrance, for she did not perceive how her comedy could be +strained to gratify it. + +There was a knock, and Danvers entered. 'You have apparently a liking +for late hours,' observed her mistress. 'I told you to go to bed.' 'It +is Mr. Dacier,' said Danvers. 'He wishes to see me?' 'Yes, ma'am. He +apologized for disturbing you.' 'He must have some good reason.' What +could it be! Diana's glass approved her appearance. She pressed the +black swell of hair above her temples, rather amazed, curious, inclined +to a beating of the heart. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXI + +A CHAPTER CONTAINING GREAT POLITICAL NEWS AND THEREWITH AN INTRUSION OF +THE LOVE-GOD + +Dacier was pacing about the drawing-room, as in a place too narrow for +him. + +Diana stood at the door. 'Have you forgotten to tell me anything I ought +to know?' + +He came up to her and shut the door softly behind her, holding her hand. +'You are near it. I returned . . But tell me first:--You were slightly +under a shadow this evening, dejected.' + +'Did I show it?' + +She was growing a little suspicious, but this cunning touch of lover-like +interest dispersed the shade. + +'To me you did.' + +'It was unpardonable to let it be seen.' + +'No one else could have observed it.' + +Her woman's heart was thrilled; for she had concealed the dejection from +Emma. + +'It was nothing,' she said; 'a knot in the book I am writing. We poor +authors are worried now and then. But you?' + +His face rippled by degrees brightly, to excite a reflection in hers. + +'Shall I tune you with good news? I think it will excuse me for coming +back.' + +'Very good news?' + +'Brave news, as far as it goes.' + +'Then it concerns you!' + +'Me, you, the country.' + +'Oh! do I guess?' cried Diana. 'But speak, pray; I burn.' + +'What am I to have for telling it?' + +'Put no price. You know my heart. I guess--or fancy. It relates to +your Chief?' + +Dacier smiled in a way to show the lock without the key; and she was +insensibly drawn nearer to him, speculating on the smile. + +'Try again,' said he, keenly appreciating the blindness to his motive of +her studious dark eyes, and her open-lipped breathing. + +'Percy! I must be right.' + +'Well, you are. He has decided!' + +'Oh! that is the bravest possible. When did you hear?' + +'He informed me of his final decision this afternoon.' + +'And you were charged with the secret all the evening, and betrayed not a +sign! I compliment the diplomatic statesman. But when will it be +public?' + +'He calls Parliament together the first week of next month.' + +'The proposal is--? No more compromises!' + +'Total!' + +Diana clapped hands; and her aspect of enthusiasm was intoxicating. +'He is a wise man and a gallant Minister! And while you were reading me +through, I was blind to you,' she added meltingly. + +'I have not made too much of it?' said he. + +'Indeed you have not.' + +She was radiant with her dark lightnings, yet visibly subject to him +under the spell of the news he had artfully lengthened out to excite and +overbalance her:--and her enthusiasm was all pointed to his share in the +altered situation, as he well knew and was flattered in knowing. + +'So Tony is no longer dejected? I thought I could freshen you and get my +excuse.' + +'Oh! a high wind will make a dead leaf fly like a bird. I soar. Now I +do feel proud. I have longed for it--to have you leading the country: +not tugged at like a waggon with a treble team uphill. We two are a +month in advance of all England. You stand by him?--only to hear it, for +I am sure of it!' + +'We stand or fall together.' + +Her glowing look doated on the faithful lieutenant. + +'And if the henchman is my hero, I am but a waiting-woman. But I must +admire his leader.' + +'Tony!' + +'Ah! no,' she joined her hands, wondering whither her armed majesty had +fled; 'no softness! no payments! Flatter me by letting me think you +came to a head not a silly woman's heart, with one name on it, as it has +not to betray. I have been frank; you need no proofs . . .' The +supplicating hands left her figure an easy prey to the storm, and were +crushed in a knot on her bosom. She could only shrink. 'Ah! Percy . . +you undo my praise of you--my pride in receiving you.' + +They were speechless perforce. + +'You see, Tony, my dearest, I am flesh and blood after all.' + +'You drive me to be ice and door-bolts!' + +Her eyes broke over him reproachfully. + +'It is not so much to grant,' he murmured. + +'It changes everything between us.' + +'Not me. It binds me the faster.' + +'It makes me a loathsome hypocrite.' + +'But, Tony! is it so much?' + +'Not if you value it low.' + +'But how long do you keep me in this rag-puppet's state of suspension?' + +'Patience.' + +'Dangling and swinging day and night!' + +'The rag-puppet shall be animated and repaid if I have life. I wish to +respect my hero. Have a little mercy. Our day will come: perhaps as +wonderfully as this wonderful news. My friend, drop your hands. Have +you forgotten who I am? I want to think, Percy!' + +'But you are mine.' + +'You are abasing your own.' + +'No, by heaven!' + +'Worse, dear friend; you are lowering yourself to the woman who loves +you.' + +'You must imagine me superhuman.' + +'I worship you--or did.' + +'Be reasonable, Tony. What harm! Surely a trifle of recompense? Just +to let me feel I live! You own you love me. Then I am your lover.' + +'My dear friend Percy, when I have consented to be your paramour, this +kind of treatment of me will not want apologies.' + +The plain speaking from the wound he dealt her was effective with a +gentleman who would never have enjoyed his privileges had he been of a +nature unsusceptible to her distinct wish and meaning. + +He sighed. 'You know how my family bother me. The woman I want, the +only woman I could marry, I can't have.' + +'You have her in soul.' + +'Body and soul, it must be! I believe you were made without fire.' + +'Perhaps. The element is omitted with some of us happily, some think. +Now we can converse. There seems to be a measurement of distances +required before men and women have a chance with their brains:--or before +a man will understand that he can be advised and seconded. When will the +Cabinet be consulted?' + +'Oh, a few days. Promise me . . .' + +'Any honourable promise!' + +'You will not keep me waiting longer than the end of the Session?' + +'Probably there will be an appeal to the country.' + +'In any case, promise me: have some compassion.' + +'Ah, the compassion! You do not choose your words, Percy, or forget who +is the speaker.' + +'It is Tony who forgets the time she has kept her lover dangling. +Promise, and I will wait.' + +'You hurt my hand, sir.' + +'I could crack the knuckles. Promise!' + +'Come to me to-morrow.' + +'To-morrow you are in your armour-triple brass! All creation cries out +for now. We are mounted on barbs and you talk of ambling.' + +'Arthur Rhodes might have spoken that.' + +'Rhodes!' he shook off the name in disgust. 'Pet him as much as you +like; don't . . .' he was unable to phrase his objection. + +She cooled him further with eulogies of the chevaleresque manner of +speaking which young Mr. Rhodes could assume; till for very wrath of +blood--not jealousy: he had none of any man, with her; and not passion; +the little he had was a fitful gust--he punished her coldness by taking +what hastily could be gathered. + +Her shape was a pained submission; and she thought: Where is the woman +who ever knows a man!--as women do think when one of their artifices of +evasion with a lover, or the trick of imposingness, has apparently been +subduing him. But the pain was less than previously, for she was now +mistress of herself, fearing no abysses. + +Dacier released her quickly, saying: 'If I come tomorrow, shall I have +the promise?' + +She answered: 'Be sure I shall not lie.' + +'Why not let me have it before I go?' + +'My friend, to tell you the truth, you have utterly distracted me.' + +'Forgive me if I did hurt your hand.' + +'The hand? You might strike it off.' + +'I can't be other than a mortal lover, Tony. There's the fact.' + +'No; the fault is mine when I am degraded. I trust you: there's the +error.' + +The trial for Dacier was the sight of her quick-lifting; bosom under the +mask of cold language: an attraction and repulsion in union; a delirium +to any lover impelled to trample on weak defences. But the evident pain +he inflicted moved his pity, which helped to restore his conception of +the beauty of her character. She stood so nobly meek. And she was never +prudish, only self-respecting. Although the great news he imparted had +roused an ardent thirst for holiday and a dash out of harness, and he +could hardly check it, he yielded her the lead. + +'Trust me you may,' he said. 'But you know--we are one. The world has +given you to me, me to you. Why should we be asunder? There's no reason +in it.' + +She replied: 'But still I wish to burn a little incense in honour of +myself, or else I cannot live. It is the truth. You make Death my truer +friend, and at this moment I would willingly go out. You would respect +me more dead than alive. I could better pardon you too.' + +He pleaded for the red mouth's pardon, remotely irritated by the +suspicion that she swayed him overmuch: and he had deserved the small +benevolences and donations of love, crumbs and heavenly dews! + +'Not a word of pardon,' said Diana. 'I shall never count an iota against +you "in the dark backward and abysm of Time." This news is great, and I +have sunk beneath it. Come tomorrow. Then we will speak upon whatever +you can prove rational. The hour is getting late.' + +Dacier took a draught of her dark beauty with the crimson he had kindled +over the cheeks. Her lips were firmly closed, her eyes grave; dry, but +seeming to waver tearfully in their heavy fulness. He could not doubt +her love of him; and although chafing at the idea that she swayed him +absurdly--beyond the credible in his world of wag-tongues--he resumed his +natural soberness, as a garment, not very uneasily fitting: whence it +ensued--for so are we influenced by the garb we put on us--that his manly +sentiment of revolt in being condemned to play second, was repressed by +the refreshment breathed on him from her lofty character, the pure jewel +proffered to his, inward ownership. + +'Adieu for the night,' he said, and she smiled. He pressed for a +pressure of her hand. She brightened her smile instead, and said only: +'Good night, Percy.' + + + + +CHAPTER XXXII + +WHEREIN WE BEHOLD A GIDDY TURN AT THE SPECTRAL CROSSWAYS + +Danvers accompanied Mr. Dacier to the house-door. Climbing the stairs, +she found her mistress in the drawing-room still. + +'You must be cold, ma'am,' she said, glancing at the fire-grate. + +'Is it a frost?' said Diana. + +'It's midnight and midwinter, ma'am.' + +'Has it struck midnight?' + +The mantel-piece clock said five minutes past. + +'You had better go to bed, Danvers, or you will lose your bloom. Stop; +you are a faithful soul. Great things are happening and I am agitated. +Mr. Dacier has told me news. He came back purposely.' + +'Yes, ma'am,' said Danvers. 'He had a great deal to tell?' + +'Well, he had.' Diana coloured at the first tentative impertinence she +had heard from her maid. 'What is the secret of you, Danvers? What +attaches you to me?' + +'I'm sure I don't know, ma'am. I'm romantic.' + +'And you think me a romantic object?' + +'I'm sure I can't say, ma'am. I'd rather serve you than any other lady; +and I wish you was happy.' + +'Do you suppose I am unhappy?' + +'I'm sure--but if I may speak, ma'am: so handsome and clever a lady! +and young! I can't bear to see it.' + +'Tush, you silly woman. You read your melting tales, and imagine. +I must go and write for money: it is my profession. And I haven't an +idea in my head. This news disturbs me. Ruin if I don't write; so I +must.--I can't!' + +Diana beheld the ruin. She clasped the great news for succour. Great +indeed: and known but to her of all the outer world. She was ahead of +all--ahead of Mr. Tonans! + +The visionary figure of Mr. Tonans petrified by the great news, drinking +it, and confessing her ahead of him in the race for secrets, arose +toweringly. She had not ever seen the Editor in his den at midnight. +With the rumble of his machinery about him, and fresh matter arriving +and flying into the printing-press, it must be like being in the very +furnace-hissing of Events: an Olympian Council held in Vulcan's smithy. +Consider the bringing to the Jove there news of such magnitude as to +stupefy him! He, too, who had admonished her rather sneeringly for +staleness in her information. But this news, great though it was, +and throbbing like a heart plucked out of a breathing body, throbbed but +for a brief term, a day or two; after which, great though it was, +immense, it relapsed into a common organ, a possession of the multitude, +merely historically curious. + +'You are not afraid of the streets at night?' Diana said to her maid, as +they were going upstairs. + +'Not when we're driving, ma'am,' was the answer. + +THE MAN OF TWO MINDS faced his creatrix in the dressing-room, still +delivering that most ponderous of sentences--a smothering pillow! + +I have mistaken my vocation, thought Diana: I am certainly the flattest +proser who ever penned a line. + +She sent Dangers into the bedroom on a trifling errand, unable to bear +the woman's proximity, and oddly unwilling to dismiss her. + +She pressed her hands on her eyelids. Would Percy have humiliated her +so if he had respected her? He took advantage of the sudden loss of her +habitual queenly initiative at the wonderful news to debase and stain +their intimacy. The lover's behaviour was judged by her sensations: she +felt humiliated, plucked violently from the throne where she had long +been sitting securely, very proudly. That was at an end. If she was to +be better than the loathsomest of hypocrites, she must deny him his +admission to the house. And then what was her life! + +Something that was pressing her low, she knew not how, and left it +unquestioned, incited her to exaggerate the indignity her pride had +suffered. She was a dethroned woman. Deeper within, an unmasked +actress, she said. Oh, she forgave him! But clearly he took her for +the same as other women consenting to receive a privileged visitor. +And sounding herself to the soul, was she so magnificently better? +Her face flamed. She hugged her arms at her breast to quiet the beating, +and dropped them when she surprised herself embracing the memory. He had +brought political news, and treated her as--name the thing! Not +designedly, it might be: her position invited it. 'The world had given +her to him.' The world is always a prophet of the mire; but the world is +no longer an utterly mistaken world. She shook before it. + +She asked herself why Percy or the world should think highly of an +adventuress, who was a denounced wife, a wretched author, and on the +verge of bankruptcy. She was an adventuress. When she held The +Crossways she had at least a bit of solid footing: now gone. An +adventuress without an idea in her head: witness her dullard, +The Man of Two Minds, at his work of sermonizing his mistress. + +The tremendous pressure upon our consciousness of the material cause, +when we find ourselves cast among the breakers of moral difficulties and +endeavour to elude that mudvisaged monster, chiefly by feigning +unconsciousness, was an experience of Diana's, in the crisis to which she +was wrought. Her wits were too acute, her nature too direct, to permit +of a lengthened confusion. She laid the scourge on her flesh smartly. +--I gave him these privileges because I am weak as the weakest, base as +my enemies proclaim me. I covered my woman's vile weakness with an air +of intellectual serenity that he, choosing his moment, tore away, +exposing me to myself, as well as to him, the most ordinary of reptiles. +I kept up a costly household for the sole purpose of seeing him and +having him near me. Hence this bitter need of money!--Either it must be +money or disgrace. Money would assist her quietly to amend and complete +her work. Yes, and this want of money, in a review of the last two +years, was the material cause of her recklessness. It was, her revived +and uprising pudency declared, the principal; the only cause. Mere want +of money. + +And she had a secret worth thousands! The secret of a day, no more: +anybody's secret after some four and twenty hours. + +She smiled at the fancied elongation and stare of the features of Mr. +Tonans in his editorial midnight den. + +What if he knew it and could cap it with something novel and stranger? +Hardly. But it was an inciting suggestion. + +She began to tremble as a lightning-flash made visible her fortunes +recovered, disgrace averted, hours of peace for composition stretching +before her: a summer afternoon's vista. + +It seemed a duel between herself and Mr. Tonans, and she sure of her +triumph--Diana victrix! + +'Danvers!' she called. + +'Is it to undress, ma'am?' said the maid, entering to her. + +'You are not afraid of the streets, you tell me. I have to go down to +the City, I think. It is urgent. Yes, I must go. If I were to impart +the news to you, your head would be a tolling bell for a month.' + +'You will take a cab, ma'am.' + +'We must walk out to find one. I must go, though I should have to go on +foot. Quick with bonnet and shawl; muffle up warmly. We have never been +out so late: but does it matter? You're a brave soul, I'm sure, and you +shall have your fee.' + +'I don't care for money, ma'am.' + +'When we get home you shall kiss me.' + +Danvers clothed her mistress in furs and rich wrappings: Not paid for! +was Diana's desperate thought, and a wrong one; but she had to seem the +precipitated bankrupt and succeeded. She was near being it. The boiling +of her secret carried her through the streets rapidly and unobservantly +except of such small things as the glow of the lights on the pavements +and the hushed cognizance of the houses, in silence to a thoroughfare +where a willing cabman was met. The destination named, he nodded alertly +he had driven gentlemen there at night from the House of Commons, he +said. + +'Our Parliament is now sitting, and you drive ladies,' Diana replied. + +'I hope I know one, never mind the hour,' said he of the capes. + +He was bidden to drive rapidly. + +'Complexion a tulip: you do not often see a pale cabman,' she remarked to +Danvers, who began laughing, as she always expected to do on an excursion +with her mistress. + +'Do you remember, ma'am, the cabman taking us to the coach, when you +thought of going to the continent?' + +'And I went to The Crossways? I have forgotten him.' + +'He declared you was so beautiful a lady he would drive you to the end of +England for nothing.' + +'It must have been when I was paying him. Put it out of your mind, +Danvers, that there are individual cabmen. They are the painted flowers +of our metropolitan thoroughfares, and we gather them in rows.' + +'They have their feelings, ma'am.' + +'Brandied feelings are not pathetic to me.' + +'I like to think kindly of them,' Danvers remarked, in reproof of her +inhumanity; adding: 'They may overturn us!' at which Diana laughed. +Her eyes were drawn to a brawl of women and men in the street. 'Ah! +that miserable sight!' she cried. 'It is the everlasting nightmare of +London.' + +Danvers humped, femininely injured by the notice of it. She wondered her +mistress should deign to. + +Rolling on between the blind and darkened houses, Diana transferred her +sensations to them, and in a fit of the nerves imagined them beholding a +funeral convoy without followers. + +They came in view of the domed cathedral, hearing, in a pause of the +wheels, the bell of the hour. 'Faster--faster! my dear man,' Diana +murmured, and they entered a small still square of many lighted windows. + +'This must be where the morrow is manufactured,' she said. 'Tell the man +to wait.--Or rather it's the mirror of yesterday: we have to look +backward to see forward in life.' + +She talked her cool philosophy to mask her excitement from herself. +Her card, marked: 'Imperative-two minutes,' was taken up to Mr. Tonans. +They ascended to the editorial ante-room. Doors opened and shut, hasty +feet traversed the corridors, a dull hum in dumbness told of mighty +business at work. Diana received the summons to the mighty head of the +establishment. Danvers was left to speculate. She heard the voice of +Mr. Tonans: 'Not more than two!' This was not a place for compliments. +Men passed her, hither and yonder, cursorily noticing the presence of a +woman. She lost, very strangely to her, the sense of her sex and became +an object--a disregarded object. Things of more importance were about. +Her feminine self-esteem was troubled; all idea of attractiveness +expired. Here was manifestly a spot where women had dropped from the +secondary to the cancelled stage of their extraordinary career in a world +either blowing them aloft like soap-bubbles or quietly shelving them as +supernumeraries. A gentleman--sweet vision!--shot by to the editor's +door, without even looking cursorily. He knocked. Mr. Tonans appeared +and took him by the arm, dictating at a great rate; perceived Danvers, +frowned at the female, and requested him to wait in the room, which the +gentleman did, not once casting eye upon a woman. At last her mistress +returned to her, escorted so far by Mr. Tonans, and he refreshingly bent +his back to bow over her hand: so we have the satisfaction of knowing +that we are not such poor creatures after all! Suffering in person, +Danvers was revived by the little show of homage to her sex. + +They descended the stairs. + +'You are not an Editor of a paper, but you may boast that you have been +near the nest of one,' Diana said, when they resumed their seats in the +cab. She breathed deeply from time to time, as if under a weight, or +relieved of it, but she seemed animated, and she dropped now and again a +funny observation of the kind that tickled Danvers and caused the maid to +boast of her everywhere as better than a Play. + +At home, Danvers busied her hands to supply her mistress a cup of +refreshing tea and a plate of biscuits. + +Diana had stunned herself with the strange weight of the expedition, and +had not a thought. In spite of tea at that hour, she slept soundly +through the remainder of the night, dreamlessly till late into the +morning. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIII + +EXHIBITS THE SPRINGING OF A MINE IN A NEWSPAPER ARTICLE + +The powers of harmony would seem to be tried to their shrewdest pitch +when Politics and Love are planted together in a human breast. This +apparently opposite couple can nevertheless chant a very sweet accord, +as was shown by Dacier on his homeward walk from Diana's house. Let Love +lead, the God will make music of any chamber-comrade. He was able to +think of affairs of State while feeling the satisfied thirst of the lover +whose pride, irritated by confidential wild eulogies of the beautiful +woman, had recently clamoured for proofs of his commandership. The +impression she stamped on him at Copsley remained, but it could not +occupy the foreground for ever. He did not object to play second to her +sprightly wits in converse, if he had some warm testimony to his mastery +over her blood. For the world had given her to him, enthusiastic friends +had congratulated him: she had exalted him for true knightliness; and he +considered the proofs well earned, though he did not value them low. +They were little by comparison. They lighted, instead of staining, her +unparalleled high character. + +She loved him. Full surely did she love him, or such a woman would never +have consented to brave the world; once in their project of flight, and +next, even more endearingly when contemplated, in the sacrifice of her +good name; not omitting that fervent memory of her pained submission, +but a palpitating submission, to his caress. She was in his arms again +at the thought of it. He had melted her, and won the confession of her +senses by a surprise, and he owned that never had woman been so +vigilantly self-guarded or so watchful to keep her lover amused and +aloof. Such a woman deserved long service. But then the long service +deserved its time of harvest. Her surging look of reproach in submission +pointed to the golden time, and as he was a man of honour, pledged to her +for life, he had no remorse, and no scruple in determining to exact her +dated promise, on this occasion deliberately. She was the woman to be +his wife; she was his mind's mate: they had hung apart in deference to +mere scruples too long. During the fierce battle of the Session she +would be his help, his fountain of counsel; and she would be the rosy +gauze-veiled more than cold helper and adviser, the being which would +spur her womanly intelligence to acknowledge, on this occasion +deliberately, the wisdom of the step. They had been so close to it! +She might call it madness then: now it was wisdom. Each had complete +experience of the other, and each vowed the step must be taken. +As to the secret communicated, he exulted in the pardonable cunning of +the impulse turning him back to her house after the guests had gone, and +the dexterous play of his bait on the line, tempting her to guess and +quit her queenly guard. Though it had not been distinctly schemed, the +review of it in that light added to the enjoyment. It had been dimly and +richly conjectured as a hoped result. Small favours from her were really +worth, thrice worth, the utmost from other women. They tasted the +sweeter for the winning of them artfully--an honourable thing in love. +Nature, rewarding the lover's ingenuity and enterprise, inspires him +with old Greek notions of right and wrong: and love is indeed a fluid +mercurial realm, continually shifting the principles of rectitude and +larceny. As long as he means nobly, what is there to condemn him? Not +she in her heart. She was the presiding divinity. + +And she, his Tony, that splendid Diana, was the woman the world abused! +Whom will it not abuse? + +The slough she would have to plunge in before he could make her his own +with the world's consent, was already up to her throat. She must, and +without further hesitation, be steeped, that he might drag her out, +washed of the imputed defilement, and radiant, as she was in character. +Reflection now said this; not impulse. Her words rang through him. +At every meeting she said things to confound his estimate of the wits of +women, or be remembered for some spirited ring they had: A high wind will +make a dead leaf fly like a bird. He murmured it and flew with her. +She quickened a vein of imagination that gave him entrance to a strangely +brilliant sphere, above his own, where, she sustaining, he too could +soar; and he did, scarce conscious of walking home, undressing, falling +asleep. + +The act of waking was an instantaneous recovery of his emotional rapture +of the overnight; nor was it a bar to graver considerations. His Chief +had gone down to a house in the country; his personal business was to see +and sound the followers of their party--after another sight of his Tony. +She would be sure to counsel sagaciously; she always did. She had a +marvellous intuition of the natures of the men he worked with, solely +from his chance descriptions of them; it was as though he started the +bird and she transfixed it. And she should not have matter to rule her +smooth brows: that he swore to. She should sway him as she pleased, be +respected after her prescribed manner. The promise must be exacted; +nothing besides, promise.--You see, Tony, you cannot be less than Tony to +me now, he addressed the gentle phantom of her. Let me have your word, +and I am your servant till the Session ends.--Tony blushes her swarthy +crimson: Diana, fluttering, rebukes her; but Diana is the appeasable +Goddess; Tony is the woman, and she loves him. The glorious Goddess need +not cut them adrift; they can show her a book of honest pages. + +Dacier could truthfully say he had worshipped, done knightly service to +the beloved woman, homage to the aureole encircling her. Those friends +of his, covertly congratulating him on her preference, doubtless thought +him more privileged than he was; but they did not know Diana; and they +were welcome, if they would only believe, to the knowledge that he was +at the feet of this most sovereign woman. He despised the particular +Satyr-world which, whatever the nature or station of the woman, crowns +the desecrator, and bestows the title of Fool on the worshipper. He +could have answered veraciously that she had kept him from folly. + +Nevertheless the term to service must come. In the assurance of the +approaching term he stood braced against a blowing world; happy as men +are when their muscles are strung for a prize they pluck with the energy +and aim of their whole force. + +Letters and morning papers were laid for him to peruse in his dressing- +room. He read his letters before the bath. Not much public news was +expected at the present season. While dressing, he turned over the +sheets of Whitmonby's journal. Dull comments on stale things. Foreign +news. Home news, with the leaders on them, identically dull. Behold the +effect of Journalism: a witty man, sparkling overnight, gets into his +pulpit and proses; because he must say something, and he really knows +nothing. + +Journalists have an excessive overestimate of their influence. They +cannot, as Diana said, comparing them with men on the Parliamentary +platform, cannot feel they are aboard the big vessel; they can only +strive to raise a breeze, or find one to swell; and they cannot measure +the stoutness or the greatness of the good ship England. Dacier's +personal ambition was inferior to his desire to extend and strengthen his +England. Parliament was the field, Government the office. How many +conversations had passed between him and Diana on that patriotic dream! +She had often filled his drooping sails; he owned it proudly:--and while +the world, both the hoofed and the rectilinear portions, were biting at +her character! Had he fretted her self-respect? He blamed himself, but +a devoted service must have its term. + +The paper of Mr. Tonans was reserved for perusal at breakfast. He +reserved it because Tonans was an opponent, tricksy and surprising now +and then, amusing too; unlikely to afford him serious reflections. The +recent endeavours of his journal to whip the Government-team to a right- +about-face were annoying, preposterous. Dacier had admitted to Diana +that Tonans merited the thanks of the country during 'the discreditable +Railway mania, when his articles had a fine exhortative and prophetic +twang, and had done marked good. Otherwise, as regarded the Ministry, +the veering gusts of Tonans were objectionable: he 'raised the breeze' +wantonly as well as disagreeably. Any one can whip up the populace if he +has the instruments; and Tonans frequently intruded on the Ministry's +prerogative to govern. The journalist was bidding against the statesman. +But such is the condition of a rapidly Radicalizing country! We must +take it as it is. + +With a complacent, What now, Dacier fixed his indifferent eyes on the +first column of the leaders. He read, and his eyes grew horny. He +jerked back at each sentence, electrified, staring. The article was +shorter than usual. Total Repeal was named; the precise date when the +Minister intended calling Parliament together to propose it. The 'Total +Repeal' might be guess-work--an Editor's bold stroke; but the details, +the date, were significant of positive information. The Minister's +definite and immediate instructions were exactly stated. + +Where could the fellow have got hold of that? Dacier asked the blank +ceiling. + +He frowned at vacant corners of the room in an effort to conjure some +speculation indicative of the source. + +Had his Chief confided the secret to another and a traitor? Had they +been overheard in his library when the project determined on was put in +plain speech? + +The answer was no, impossible, to each question. + +He glanced at Diana. She? But it was past midnight when he left her. +And she would never have betrayed him, never, never. To imagine it a +moment was an injury to her. + +Where else could he look? It had been specially mentioned in the +communication as a secret by his Chief, who trusted him and no others. +Up to the consultation with the Cabinet, it was a thing to be guarded +like life itself. Not to a soul except Diana would Dacier have breathed +syllable of any secret--and one of this weight! + +He ran down the article again. There were the facts; undeniable facts; +and they detonated with audible roaring and rounding echoes of them over +England. How did they come there? As well inquire how man came on the, +face of the earth. + +He had to wipe his forehead perpetually. Think as he would in exaltation +of Diana to shelter himself, he was the accused. He might not be the +guilty, but he had opened his mouth; and though it was to her only, and +she, as Dunstane had sworn, true as steel, he could not escape +condemnation. He had virtually betrayed his master. Diana would never +betray her lover, but the thing was in the air as soon as uttered: and +off to the printing-press! Dacier's grotesque fancy under annoyance +pictured a stream of small printer's devils in flight from his babbling +lips. + +He consumed bits of breakfast, with a sour confession that a newspaper- +article had hit him at last, and stunningly. + +Hat and coat were called for. The state of aimlessness in hot perplexity +demands a show of action. Whither to go first was as obscure as what to +do. Diana said of the Englishman's hat and coat, that she supposed they +were to make him a walking presentment of the house he had shut up behind +him. A shot of the eye at the glass confirmed the likeness, but with a +ruefully wry-faced repudiation of it internally:--Not so shut up! the +reverse of that-a common babbler. + +However, there was no doubt of Diana. First he would call on her. The +pleasantest dose in perturbations of the kind is instinctively taken +first. She would console, perhaps direct him to guess how the secret had +leaked. But so suddenly, immediately! It was inexplicable. + +Sudden and immediate consequences were experienced. On the steps of his +house his way was blocked by the arrival of Mr. Quintin Manx, who jumped +out of a cab, bellowing interjections and interrogations in a breath. +Was there anything in that article? He had read it at breakfast, and it +had choked him. Dacier was due at a house and could not wait: he said, +rather sharply, he was not responsible for newspaper articles. Quintin +Manx, a senior gentleman and junior landowner, vowed that no Minister +intending to sell the country should treat him as a sheep. The shepherd +might go; he would not carry his flock with him. But was there a twinkle +of probability in the story? . . . that article! Dacier was unable +to inform him; he was very hurried, had to keep an appointment. + +'If I let you go, will you come and lunch with me at two?' said Quintin. + +To get rid of him, Dacier nodded and agreed. + +'Two o'clock, mind!' was bawled at his heels as he walked off with his +long stride, unceremoniously leaving the pursy gentleman of sixty to +settle with his cabman far to the rear. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIV + +IN WHICH IT IS DARKLY SEEN HOW THE CRIMINAL'S JUDGE MAY BE LOVE'S +CRIMINAL + +When we are losing balance on a precipice we do not think much of the +thing we have clutched for support. Our balance is restored and we have +not fallen; that is the comfortable reflection: we stand as others do, +and we will for the future be warned to avoid the dizzy stations which +cry for resources beyond a common equilibrium, and where a slip +precipitates us to ruin. + +When, further, it is a woman planted in a burning blush, having to +idealize her feminine weakness, that she may not rebuke herself for +grovelling, the mean material acts by which she sustains a tottering +position are speedily swallowed in the one pervading flame. She sees +but an ashen curl of the path she has traversed to safety, if anything. + +Knowing her lover was to come in the morning, Diana's thoughts dwelt +wholly upon the way to tell him, as tenderly as possible without danger +to herself, that her time for entertaining was over until she had +finished her book; indefinitely, therefore. The apprehension of his +complaining pricked the memory that she had something to forgive. He had +sunk her in her own esteem by compelling her to see her woman's softness. +But how high above all other men her experience of him could place him +notwithstanding! He had bowed to the figure of herself, dearer than +herself, that she set before him: and it was a true figure to the world; +a too fictitious to any but the most knightly of lovers. She forgave; +and a shudder seized her.--Snake! she rebuked the delicious run of fire +through her veins; for she vas not like the idol women of imperishable +type, who are never for a twinkle the prey of the blood: statues created +by man's common desire to impress upon the sex his possessing pattern of +them as domestic decorations. + +When she entered the room to Dacier and they touched hands, she rejoiced +in her coolness, without any other feeling or perception active. Not to +be unkind, not too kind: this was her task. She waited for the passage +of commonplaces. + +'You slept well, Percy?' + +'Yes; and you?' + +'I don't think I even dreamed.' + +They sat. She noticed the cloud on him and waited for his allusion to +it, anxious concerning him simply. + +Dacier flung the hair off his temples. Words of Titanic formation were +hurling in his head at journals and journalists. He muttered his disgust +of them. + +'Is there anything to annoy you in the papers to-day?' she asked, and +thought how handsome his face was in anger. + +The paper of Mr. Tonans was named by him. 'You have not seen it? + +'I have not opened it yet.' + +He sprang up. 'The truth is, those fellows can now afford to buy right +and left, corrupt every soul alive! There must have been a spy at the +keyhole. I'm pretty certain--I could swear it was not breathed to any +ear but mine; and there it is this morning in black and white.' + +'What is?' cried Diana, turning to him on her chair. + +'The thing I told you last night.' + +Her lips worked, as if to spell the thing. 'Printed, do you say?' she +rose. + +'Printed. In a leading article, loud as a trumpet; a hue and cry running +from end to end of the country. And my Chief has already had the +satisfaction of seeing the secret he confided to me yesterday roared in +all the thoroughfares this morning. They've got the facts: his decision +to propose it, and the date--the whole of it! But who could have +betrayed it?' + +For the first time since her midnight expedition she felt a sensation of +the full weight of the deed. She heard thunder. + +She tried to disperse the growing burden by an inward summons to contempt +of the journalistic profession, but nothing would come. She tried to +minimize it, and her brain succumbed. Her views of the deed last night +and now throttled reason in two contending clutches. The enormity +swelled its dimensions, taking shape, and pointing magnetically at her. +She stood absolutely, amazedly, bare before it. + +'Is it of such very great importance?' she said, like one supplicating +him to lessen it. + +'A secret of State? If you ask whether it is of great importance to me, +relatively it is of course. Nothing greater. Personally my conscience +is clear. I never mentioned it--couldn't have mentioned it--to any one +but you. I'm not the man to blab secrets. He spoke to me because he +knew he could trust me. To tell you the truth, I'm brought to a dead +stop. I can't make a guess. + +I'm certain, from what he said, that he trusted me only with it: +perfectly certain. I know him well. He was in his library, speaking in +his usual conversational tone, deliberately, nor overloud. He stated +that it was a secret between us.' + +'Will it affect him?' + +'This article? Why, naturally it will. You ask strange questions. A +Minister coming to a determination like that! It affects him vitally. +The members of the Cabinet are not so devoted . . . . It affects us +all--the whole Party; may split it to pieces! There's no reckoning the +upset right and left. If it were false, it could be refuted; we could +despise it as a trick of journalism. It's true. There's the mischief. +Tonans did not happen to call here last night?--absurd! I left later +than twelve.' + +'No, but let me hear,' Diana said hurriedly, for the sake of uttering the +veracious negative and to slur it over. 'Let me hear . . .' She could +not muster an idea. + +Her delicious thrilling voice was a comfort to him. He lifted his breast +high and thumped it, trying to smile. 'After all, it's pleasant being +with you, Tony. Give me your hand--you may: I 'm bothered--confounded by +this morning surprise. It was like walking against the muzzle of a +loaded cannon suddenly unmasked. One can't fathom the mischief it will +do. And I shall be suspected, and can't quite protest myself the +spotless innocent. Not even to my heart's mistress! to the wife of the +bosom! I suppose I'm no Roman. You won't give me your hand? Tony, you +might, seeing I am rather . . .' + +A rush of scalding tears flooded her eyes. + +'Don't touch me,' she said, and forced her sight to look straight at him +through the fiery shower. 'I have done positive mischief?' + +'You, my dear Tony?' He doated on her face. 'I don't blame you, I blame +myself. These things should never be breathed. Once in the air, the +devil has hold of them. Don't take it so much to heart. The thing's bad +enough to bear as it is. Tears! Let me have the hand. I came, on my +honour, with the most honest intention to submit to your orders: but if I +see you weeping in sympathy!' + +'Oh! for heaven's sake,' she caught her hands away from him, 'don't be +generous. Whip me with scorpions. And don't touch me,' cried Diana. +'Do you understand? You did not name it as a secret. I did not imagine +it to be a secret of immense, immediate importance.' + +'But--what?' shouted Dacier, stiffening. + +He wanted her positive meaning, as she perceived, having hoped that it +was generally taken and current, and the shock to him over. + +'I had . . . I had not a suspicion of doing harm, Percy.' + +'But what harm have you done? No riddles!' + +His features gave sign of the break in their common ground, the widening +gulf. + +'I went . . . it was a curious giddiness: I can't account for it. I +thought . . .' + +'Went? You went where?' + +'Last night. I would speak intelligibly: my mind has gone. Ah! you +look. It is not so bad as my feeling.' + +'But where did you go last night? What!--to Tonans?' + +She drooped her head: she saw the track of her route cleaving the +darkness in a demoniacal zig-zag and herself in demon's grip. + +'Yes,' she confronted him. 'I went to Mr. Tonans.' + +'Why?' + +'I went to him--' + +'You went alone?' + +'I took my maid.' + +'Well?' + +'It was late when you left me . . .' + +'Speak plainly!' + +'I am trying: I will tell you all.' + +'At once, if you please.' + +'I went to him--why? There is no accounting for it. He sneered +constantly at my stale information.' + +'You gave him constant information?' + +'No: in our ordinary talk. He railed at me for being "out of it." I +must be childish: I went to show him--oh! my vanity! I think I must have +been possessed.' + +She watched the hardening of her lover's eyes. They penetrated, and +through them she read herself insufferably. + +But it was with hesitation still that he said: 'Then you betrayed me?' + +'Percy! I had not a suspicion of mischief.' + +'You went straight to this man?' + +'Not thinking . . .' + +'You sold me to a journalist!' + +'I thought it was a secret of a day. I don't think you--no, you did not +tell me to keep it secret. A word from you would have been enough. I +was in extremity.' + +Dacier threw his hands up and broke away. He had an impulse to dash from +the room, to get a breath of different air. He stood at the window, +observing tradesmen's carts, housemaids, blank doors, dogs, a beggar +fifer. Her last words recurred to him. He turned: 'You were in +extremity, you said. What is the meaning of that? What extremity?' + +Her large dark eyes flashed powerlessly; her shape appeared to have +narrowed; her tongue, too, was a feeble penitent. + +'You ask a creature to recall her acts of insanity.' + +'There must be some signification in your words, I suppose.' + +'I will tell you as clearly as I can. You have the right to be my judge. +I was in extremity--that is, I saw no means . . . I could not write: +it was ruin coming.' + +'Ah?--you took payment for playing spy?' + +'I fancied I could retrieve . . . Now I see the folly, the baseness. +I was blind.' + +'Then you sold me to a journalist for money?' + +The intolerable scourge fetched a stifled scream from her and drove her +pacing, but there was no escape; she returned to meet it. + +The room was a cage to both of them, and every word of either was a +sting. + +'Percy, I did not imagine he would use it--make use of it as he has +done.' + +'Not? And when he paid for it?' + +'I fancied it would be merely of general service--if any.' + +'Distributed; I see: not leading to the exposure of the communicant!' + +'You are harsh; but I would not have you milder.' + +The meekness of such a mischief-doer was revolting and called for the +lash. + +'Do me the favour to name the sum. I am curious to learn what my +imbecility was counted worth.' + +'No sum was named.' + +'Have I been bought for a song?' + +'It was a suggestion--no definite . . . nothing stipulated.' + +'You were to receive money!' + +'Leave me a bit of veiling! No, you shall behold me the thing I am. +Listen . . . I was poor . . .' + +'You might have applied to me.' + +'For money! That I could not do: + +'Better than betraying me, believe me.' + +'I had no thought of betraying. I hope I could have died rather than +consciously betray.' + +'Money! My whole fortune was at your, disposal.' + +'I was beset with debts, unable to write, and, last night when you left +me, abject. It seemed to me that you disrespected me . . .' + +'Last night!' Dacier cried with lashing emphasis. + +'It is evident to me that I have the reptile in me, Percy. Or else I am +subject to lose my reason. I went . . . I went like a bullet: I +cannot describe it; I was mad. I need a strong arm, I want help. I am +given to think that I do my best and can be independent; I break down. +I went blindly--now I see it--for the chance of recovering my position, +as the gambler casts; and he wins or loses. With me it is the soul that +is lost. No exact sum was named; thousands were hinted.' + +'You are hardly practical on points of business.' + +'I was insane.' + +'I think you said you slept well after it,' Dacier remarked. + +'I had so little the idea of having done evilly, that I slept without a +dream.' + +He shrugged:--the consciences of women are such smooth deeps, or running +shallows. + +'I have often wondered how your newspaper men got their information,' he +said, and muttered: 'Money-women!' adding: 'Idiots to prime them! And I +one of the leaky vessels! Well, we learn. I have been rather astonished +at times of late at the scraps of secret knowledge displayed by Tonans. +If he flourishes his thousands! The wonder is, he doesn't corrupt the +Ministers' wives. Perhaps he does. Marriage will become a danger-sign +to Parliamentary members. Foreign women do these tricks . . . women +of a well-known stamp. It is now a full year, I think, since I began to +speak to you of secret matters--and congratulated myself, I recollect, +on your thirst for them.' + +'Percy, if you suspect that I have uttered one word before last night, +you are wrong. I cannot paint my temptation or my loss of sense last +night. Previously I was blameless. I thirsted, yes; but in the hope of +helping you.' + +He looked at her. She perceived how glitteringly loveless his eyes had +grown. It was her punishment; and though the enamoured woman's heart +protested it excessive, she accepted it. + +'I can never trust you again,' he said. + +'I fear you will not,' she replied. + +His coming back to her after the departure of the guests last night shone +on him in splendid colours of single-minded loverlike devotion. 'I came +to speak to my own heart. I thought it would give you pleasure; thought +I could trust you utterly. I had not the slightest conception I was +imperilling my honour . . . !' + +He stopped. Her bloodless fixed features revealed an intensity of +anguish that checked him. Only her mouth, a little open for the sharp +breath, appeared dumbly beseeching. Her large eyes met his like steel to +steel, as of one who would die fronting the weapon. + +He strangled a loathsome inclination to admire. + +'So good bye,' he said. + +She moved her lips. + +He said no more. In half a minute he was gone. + +To her it was the plucking of life out of her breast. + +She pressed her hands where heart had been. The pallor and cold of death +took her body. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXV + +REVEALS HOW THE TRUE HEROINE OF ROMANCE COMES FINALLY TO HER, TIME OF +TRIUMPH + +The shutting of her house-door closed for Dacier that woman's history in +connection with himself. He set his mind on the consequences of the act +of folly--the trusting a secret to a woman. All were possibly not so +bad: none should be trusted. + +The air of the street fanned him agreeably as he revolved the horrible +project of confession to the man who had put faith in him. Particulars +might be asked. She would be unnamed, but an imagination of the effect +of naming her placarded a notorious woman in fresh paint: two members of +the same family her victims! + +And last night, no later than last night, he had swung round at this very +corner of the street to give her the fullest proof of his affection. He +beheld a dupe trotting into a carefully-laid pitfall. She had him by the +generosity of his confidence in her. Moreover, the recollection of her +recent feeble phrasing, when she stood convicted of the treachery, when a +really clever woman would have developed her resources, led him to doubt +her being so finely gifted. She was just clever enough to hoodwink. He +attributed the dupery to a trick of imposing the idea of her virtue upon +men. Attracted by her good looks and sparkle, they entered the circle of +her charm, became delightfully intimate, suffered a rebuff, and were from +that time prepared to serve her purpose. How many other wretched dupes +had she dangling? He spied at Westlake, spied at Redworth, at old Lord +Larrian, at Lord Dannisburgh, at Arthur Rhodes, dozens. Old and young +were alike to her if she saw an end to be gained by keeping them hooked. +Tonans too, and Whitmonby. Newspaper editors were especially +serviceable. Perhaps 'a young Minister of State' held the foremost rank +in that respect: if completely duped and squeezeable, he produced more +substantial stuff. + +The background of ice in Dacier's composition was brought to the front by +his righteous contempt of her treachery. No explanation of it would have +appeased him. She was guilty, and he condemned her. She stood condemned +by all the evil likely to ensue from her misdeed. Scarcely had he left +her house last night when she was away to betray him!--He shook her from +him without a pang. Crediting her with the one merit she had--that of +not imploring for mercy--he the more easily shook her off. Treacherous, +she had not proved theatrical. So there was no fuss in putting out her +light, and it was done. He was justified by the brute facts. +Honourable, courteous, kindly gentleman, highly civilized, an excellent +citizen and a patriot, he was icy at an outrage to his principles, and in +the dominion of Love a sultan of the bow-string and chopper period, +sovereignly endowed to stretch a finger for the scimitared Mesrour to +make the erring woman head and trunk with one blow: and away with those +remnants! This internally he did. Enough that the brute facts justified +him. + +St. James's park was crossed, and the grass of the Green park, to avoid +inquisitive friends. He was obliged to walk; exercise, action of any +sort, was imperative, and but for some engagement he would have gone to +his fencing-rooms for a bout with the master. He remembered his +engagement and grew doubly embittered. He had absurdly pledged himself +to lunch with Quintin Manx; that was, to pretend to eat while submitting +to be questioned by a political dullard strong on his present right to +overhaul and rail at his superiors. The house was one of a block along +the North-Western line of Hyde park. He kicked at the subjection to go +there, but a promise was binding, though he gave it when stunned. He +could have silenced Mr. Manx with the posing interrogation: Why have I so +long consented to put myself at the mercy of a bore? For him, he could +not answer it, though Manx, as leader of the Shipping interest, was +influential. The man had to be endured, like other doses in politics. + +Dacier did not once think of the great ship-owner's niece till Miss +Constance Asper stepped into her drawing-room to welcome him. She was an +image of repose to his mind. The calm pure outline of her white features +refreshed him as the Alps the Londoner newly alighted at Berne; smoke, +wrangle, the wrestling city's wickedness, behind him. + +'My uncle is very disturbed,' she said. 'Is the news--if I am not very +indiscreet in inquiring?' + +'I have a practice of never paying attention to newspaper articles,' +Dacier replied. + +'I am only affected by living with one who does,' Miss Asper observed, +and the lofty isolation of her head above politics gave her a moral +attractiveness in addition to physical beauty. Her water-colour sketches +were on her uncle's walls: the beautiful in nature claimed and absorbed +her. She dressed with a pretty rigour, a lovely simplicity, picturesque +of the nunnery. She looked indeed a high-born young lady-abbess. + +'It's a dusty game for ladies,' Dacier said, abhorring the women defiled +by it. + +And when one thinks of the desire of men to worship women, there is a +pathos in a man's discovery of the fair young creature undefiled by any +interest in public affairs, virginal amid her bower's environments. + +The angelical beauty of a virgin mind and person captivated him, by +contrast. His natural taste was to admire it, shunning the lures and +tangles of the women on high seas, notably the married: who, by the way, +contrive to ensnare us through wonderment at a cleverness caught from +their traffic with the masculine world: often--if we did but know!-- +a parrot-repetition of the last male visitor's remarks. But that which +the fair maiden speaks, though it may be simple, is her own. + +She too is her own: or vowed but to one. She is on all sides impressive +in purity. The world worships her as its perfect pearl: and we are +brought refreshfully to acknowledge that the world is right. + +By contrast, the white radiation of Innocence distinguished Constance +Asper celestially. As he was well aware, she had long preferred him-- +the reserved among many pleading pressing suitors. Her steady +faithfulness had fed on the poorest crumbs. + +He ventured to express the hope that she was well. + +'Yes,' she answered, with eyelids lifted softly to thank him for his +concern in so humble a person. + +'You look a little pale,' he said. + +She coloured like a sea-water shell. 'I am inclined to paleness by +nature.' + +Her uncle disturbed them. Lunch was ready. He apologized for the +absence of Mrs. Markland, a maternal aunt of Constance, who kept house +for them. Quintin Manx fell upon the meats, and then upon the Minister. +Dacier found himself happily surprised by the accession of an appetite. +He mentioned it, to escape from the worrying of his host, as unusual with +him at midday: and Miss Asper, supporting him in that effort, said +benevolently: 'Gentlemen should eat; they have so many fatigues and +troubles.' She herself did not like to be seen eating in public. Her +lips opened to the morsels, as with a bird's bill, though with none of +the pecking eagerness we complacently observe in poultry. + +'But now, I say, positively, how about that article?' said Quintin. + +Dacier visibly winced, and Constance immediately said 'Oh! spare us +politics, dear uncle.' + +Her intercession was without avail, but by contrast with the woman +implicated in the horrible article, it was a carol of the seraphs. + +'Come, you can say whether there's anything in it,' Dacier's host pushed +him. + +'I should not say it if I could,' he replied. + +The mild sweetness of Miss Asper's look encouraged him. + +He was touched to the quick by hearing her say: 'You ask for Cabinet +secrets, uncle. All secrets are holy, but secrets of State are under a +seal next to divine.' + +Next to divine! She was the mouthpiece of his ruling principle. + +'I 'm not, prying into secrets,' Quintin persisted; 'all I want to know +is, whether there 's any foundation for that article--all London's +boiling about it, I can tell you--or it's only newspaper's humbug.' + +'Clearly the oracle for you is the Editor's office,' rejoined Dacier. + +'A pretty sort of answer I should get.' + +'It would at least be complimentary.' + +'How do you mean?' + +'The net was cast for you--and the sight of a fish in it!' + +Miss Asper almost laughed. 'Have you heard the choir at St. +Catherine's?' she asked. + +Dacier had not. He repented of his worldliness, and drinking persuasive +claret, said he would go to hear it next Sunday. + +'Do,' she murmured. + +'Well, you seem to be a pair against me,' her uncle grumbled. 'Anyhow I +think it's important. People have been talking for some time, and I +don't want to be taken unawares; I won't be a yoked ox, mind you.' + +'Have you been sketching lately?' Dacier asked Miss Asper. + +She generally filled a book in the autumn, she said. + +'May I see it?' + +'If you wish.' + +They had a short tussle with her uncle and escaped. He was conducted to +a room midway upstairs: an heiress's conception of a saintly little room; +and more impresive in purity, indeed it was, than a saint's, with the +many crucifixes, gold and silver emblems, velvet prie-Dieu chairs, jewel- +clasped sacred volumes: every invitation to meditate in luxury on an +ascetic religiousness. + +She depreciated her sketching powers. 'I am impatient with my +imperfections. I am therefore doomed not to advance.' + +'On the contrary, that is the state guaranteeing ultimate excellence,' +he said, much disposed to drone about it. + +She sighed: 'I fear not.' + +He turned the leaves, comparing her modesty with the performance. The +third of the leaves was a subject instantly recognized by him. It +represented the place he had inherited from Lord Dannisburgh. + +He named it. + +She smiled: 'You are good enough to see a likeness? My aunt and I were +passing it last October, and I waited for a day, to sketch.' + +'You have taken it from my favourite point of view.' + +'I am glad.' + +'How much I should like a copy!' + +'If you will accept that?' + +'I could not rob you.' + +'I can make a duplicate.' + +'The look of the place pleases you?' + +'Oh! yes; the pines behind it; the sweet little village church; even +the appearance of the rustics;--it is all impressively old English. +I suppose you are very seldom there?' + +'Does it look like a home to you?' + +'No place more!' + +'I feel the loneliness.' + +'Where I live I feel no loneliness!' + +'You have heavenly messengers near you.' + +'They do not always come.' + +'Would you consent to make the place less lonely to me?' + +Her bosom rose. In deference to her maidenly understanding, she gazed +inquiringly. + +'If you love it!' said he. + +'The place?' she said, looking soft at the possessor. + +'Constance!' + +'Is it true?' + +'As you yourself. Could it be other than true? This hand is mine?' + +'Oh! Percy.' + +Borrowing the world's poetry to describe them, the long prayed-for Summer +enveloped the melting snows. + +So the recollection of Diana's watch beside his uncle's death-bed was +wiped out. Ay, and the hissing of her treachery silenced. This maidenly +hand put him at peace with the world, instead of his defying it for a +worthless woman--who could not do better than accept the shelter of her +husband's house, as she ought to be told, if her friends wished her to +save her reputation. + +Dacier made his way downstairs to Quintin Manx, by whom he was hotly +congratulated and informed of the extent of the young lady's fortune: +on the strength of which it was expected that he would certainly speak a +private word in elucidation of that newspaper article. + +'I know nothing of it,' said Dacier, but promised to come and dine. +Alone in her happiness Constance Asper despatched various brief notes +under her gold-symbolled crest to sisterly friends; one to Lady Wathin, +containing the, single line: + +'Your prophesy is confirmed.' + +Dacier was comfortably able to face his Club after the excitement of a +proposal, with a bride on his hands. He was assaulted concerning the +article, and he parried capitally. Say that her lips were rather cold: +at any rate, they invigorated him. Her character was guaranteed--not the +hazy idea of a dupe. And her fortune would be enormous: a speculation +merely due to worldly prudence and prospective ambition. + +At the dinner-table of four, in the evening, conversation would have +seemed dull to him, by contrast, had it not, been for the presiding grace +of his bride, whose habitually eminent feminine air of superiority to the +repast was throned by her appreciative receptiveness of his looks and +utterances. Before leaving her, he won her consent to a very early +marriage; on the plea of a possibly approaching Session, and also that +they had waited long. The consent, notwithstanding the hurry of +preparations, it involved, besides the annihilation of her desire to +meditate on so solemn a change in her life and savour the congratulations +of her friends and have the choir of St. Catherine's rigorously drilled +in her favourite anthems was beautifully yielded to the pressure of +circumstances. + +There lay on his table at night a letter; a bulky letter. No need to +tear it open for sight of the signature: the superscription was redolent +of that betraying woman. He tossed it unopened into the fire. + +As it was thick, it burned sullenly, discolouring his name on the +address, as she had done, and still offering him a last chance of viewing +the contents. She fought on the consuming fire to have her exculpation +heard. + +But was she not a shameless traitor? She had caught him by his love of +his country and hope to serve it. She had wound into his heart to bleed +him of all he knew and sell the secrets for money. A wonderful sort of +eloquence lay there, on those coals, no doubt. He felt a slight movement +of curiosity to glance at two or three random sentences: very slight. +And why read them now? They were valueless to him, mere outcries. He +judged her by the brute facts. She and her slowly-consuming letter were +of a common blackness. Moreover, to read them when he was plighted to +another woman would be senseless. In the discovery of her baseness, she +had made a poor figure. Doubtless during the afternoon she had trimmed +her intuitive Belial art of making 'the worse appear the better cause': +queer to peruse, and instructive in an unprofitable department of +knowledge-the tricks of the sex. + +He said to himself, with little intuition of the popular taste: She +wouldn't be a bad heroine of Romance! He said it derisively of the +Romantic. But the right worshipful heroine of Romance was the front-face +female picture he had won for his walls. Poor Diana was the flecked +heroine of Reality: not always the same; not impeccable; not an ignorant- +innocent, nor a guileless: good under good leading; devoted to the death +in a grave crisis; often wrestling with her terrestrial nature nobly; and +a growing soul; but not one whose purity was carved in marble for the +assurance to an Englishman that his possession of the changeless thing +defies time and his fellows, is the pillar of his home and universally +enviable. Your fair one of Romance cannot suffer a mishap without a +plotting villain, perchance many of them; to wreak the dread iniquity: +she cannot move without him; she is the marble block, and if she is to +have a feature, he is the sculptor; she depends on him for life, and her +human history at least is married to him far more than to the rescuing +lover. No wonder, then, that men should find her thrice cherishable +featureless, or with the most moderate possible indication of a +countenance. Thousands of the excellent simple creatures do; and every +reader of her tale. On the contrary, the heroine of Reality is that +woman whom you have met or heard of once in your course of years, and +very probably despised for bearing in her composition the motive +principle; at best, you say, a singular mixture of good and bad; anything +but the feminine ideal of man. Feature to some excess, you think, +distinguishes her. Yet she furnishes not any of the sweet sensual +excitement pertaining to her spotless rival pursued by villany. She +knocks at the doors of the mind, and the mind must open to be interested +in her. Mind and heart must be wide open to excuse her sheer descent +from the pure ideal of man. + +Dacier's wandering reflections all came back in crowds to the judicial +Bench of the Black Cap. He felt finely, apart from the treason, that her +want of money degraded her: him too, by contact. Money she might have +had to any extent: upon application for it, of course. How was he to +imagine that she wanted money! Smilingly as she welcomed him and his +friends, entertaining them royally, he was bound to think she had means. +A decent propriety bound him not to think of the matter at all. He +naturally supposed she was capable of conducting her affairs. And-- +money! It soiled his memory: though the hour at Rovio was rather pretty, +and the scene at Copsley touching: other times also, short glimpses of +the woman, were taking. The flood of her treachery effaced them. And +why reflect? Constance called to him to look her way. + +Diana's letter died hard. The corners were burnt to black tissue, with +an edge or two of discoloured paper. A small frayed central heap still +resisted, and in kindness to the necessity for privacy, he impressed the +fire-tongs to complete the execution. After which he went to his desk +and worked, under the presidency of Constance. + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +A high wind will make a dead leaf fly like a bird +Beware the silent one of an assembly! +Brittle is foredoomed +Common sense is the secret of every successful civil agitation +Its glee at a catastrophe; its poor stock of mercy +Money is of course a rough test of virtue +Salt of earth, to whom their salt must serve for nourishment +Sentimentality puts up infant hands for absolution +She herself did not like to be seen eating in public +Slightest taste for comic analysis that does not tumble to farce +The greed of gain is our volcano +The man had to be endured, like other doses in politics +Vagrant compassionateness of sentimentalists +What might have been +What the world says, is what the wind says +Without those consolatory efforts, useless between men + + + + +[The End] + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 4468 *** diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6312041 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This eBook, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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WHEREIN WE BEHOLD A GIDDY TURN AT THE SPECTRAL CROSSWAYS +XXXIII. EXHIBITS THE SPRINGING OF A MINE IN A NEWSPAPER ARTICLE +XXXIV. IN WHICH IT IS DARKLY SEEN HOW THE CRIMINAL'S JUDGE MAY BE + LOVE'S CRIMINAL +XXXV. REVEALS HOW THE TRUE HEROINE OF ROMANCE COMES FINALLY TO HER + TIME OF TRIUMPH + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +CONTAINS MATTER FOR SUBSEQUENT EXPLOSION + +Among the various letters inundating Sir Lukin Dunstane upon the report +of the triumph of surgical skill achieved by Sir William Macpherson and +Mr. Lanyan Thomson, was one from Lady Wathin, dated Adlands, an estate of +Mr. Quintin Manx's in Warwickshire, petitioning for the shortest line of +reassurance as to the condition of her dear cousin, and an intimation of +the period when it might be deemed possible for a relative to call and +offer her sincere congratulations: a letter deserving a personal reply, +one would suppose. She received the following, in a succinct female hand +corresponding to its terseness; every 't' righteously crossed, every 'i' +punctiliously dotted, as she remarked to Constance Asper, to whom the +communication was transferred for perusal: + + 'DEAR LADY WATHIN,--Lady Dunstane is gaining strength. The measure + of her pulse indicates favourably. She shall be informed in good + time of your solicitude for her recovery. The day cannot yet be + named for visits of any kind. You will receive information as soon + as the house is open. + + 'I have undertaken the task of correspondence, and beg you to + believe me, + + 'Very truly yours, + 'D. A. WARWICK.' + +Miss Asper speculated on the handwriting of her rival. She obtained +permission to keep the letter, with the intention of transmitting it per +post to an advertising interpreter of character in caligraphy. + +Such was the character of the fair young heiress, exhibited by her +performances much more patently than the run of a quill would reveal it. + +She said, 'It is rather a pretty hand, I think.' + +'Mrs. Warwick is a practised writer,' said Lady Wathin. 'Writing is her +profession, if she has any. She goes to nurse my cousin. Her husband +says she is an excellent nurse. He says what he can for her. But you +must be in the last extremity, or she is ice. His appeal to her has been +totally disregarded. Until he drops down in the street, as his doctor +expects him to do some day, she will continue her course; and even +then . . .' An adventuress desiring her freedom! Lady Wathin looked. +She was too devout a woman to say what she thought. But she knew the +world to be very wicked. Of Mrs. Warwick, her opinion was formed. She +would not have charged the individual creature with a criminal design; +all she did was to stuff the person her virtue abhorred with the +wickedness of the world, and that is a common process in antipathy. + +She sympathized, moreover, with the beautiful devotedness of the wealthy +heiress to her ideal of man. It had led her to make the acquaintance of +old Lady Dacier, at the house in town, where Constance Asper had first +met Percy; Mrs. Grafton Winstanley's house, representing neutral +territory or debateable land for the occasional intercourse of the upper +class and the climbing in the professions or in commerce; Mrs. Grafton +Winstanley being on the edge of aristocracy by birth, her husband, like +Mr. Quintin Manx, a lord of fleets. Old Lady Dacier's bluntness in +speaking of her grandson would have shocked Lady Wathin as much as it +astonished, had she been less of an ardent absorber of aristocratic +manners. Percy was plainly called a donkey, for hanging off and on with +a handsome girl of such expectations as Miss Asper. 'But what you can't +do with a horse, you can't hope to do with a donkey.' She added that she +had come for the purpose of seeing the heiress, of whose points of person +she delivered a judgement critically appreciative as a horsefancier's on +the racing turf. 'If a girl like that holds to it, she's pretty sure to +get him at last. It 's no use to pull his neck down to the water.' + +Lady Wathin delicately alluded to rumours of an entanglement, an +admiration he had, ahem. + +'A married woman,' the veteran nodded. 'I thought that was off? She +must be a clever intriguer to keep him so long.' + +'She is undoubtedly clever,' said Lady Wathin, and it was mumbled in her +hearing: 'The woman seems to have a taste for our family.' + +They agreed that they could see nothing to be done. The young lady must +wither, Mrs. Warwick have her day. The veteran confided her experienced +why to Lady Wathin: 'All the tales you tell of a woman of that sort are +sharp sauce to the palates of men.' + +They might be, to the men of the dreadful gilded idle class! + +Mrs. Warwick's day appeared indefinitely prolonged, judging by Percy +Dacier's behaviour to Miss Asper. Lady Wathin watched them narrowly when +she had the chance, a little ashamed of her sex, or indignant rather at +his display of courtliness in exchange for her open betrayal of her +preference. It was almost to be wished that she would punish him by +sacrificing herself to one of her many brilliant proposals of marriage. +But such are women!--precisely because of his holding back he tightened +the cord attaching him to her tenacious heart. This was the truth. For +the rest, he was gracefully courteous; an observer could perceive the +charm he exercised. He talked with a ready affability, latterly with +greater social ease; evidently not acting the indifferent conqueror, or +so consummately acting it as to mask the air. And yet he was ambitious, +and he was not rich. Notoriously was he ambitious, and with wealth to +back him, a great entertaining house, troops of adherents, he would +gather influence, be propelled to leadership. The vexation of a constant +itch to speak to him on the subject, and the recognition, that he knew it +all as well as she, tormented Lady Wathin. He gave her comforting news +of her dear cousin in the Winter. + +'You have heard from Mrs. Warwick?' she said. + +He replied, 'I had the latest from Mr. Redworth.' + +'Mrs. Warwick has relinquished her post?' + +'When she does, you may be sure that Lady Dunstane is, perfectly +reestablished.' + +'She is an excellent nurse.' + +'The best, I believe.' + +'It is a good quality in sickness.' + +'Proof of good all through.' + +'Her husband might have the advantage of it. His state is really +pathetic. If she has feeling, and could only be made aware, she might +perhaps be persuaded to pass from the friendly to the wifely duty.' + +Mr. Dacier bent his head to listen, and he bowed. + +He was fast in the toils; and though we have assurance that evil cannot +triumph in perpetuity, the aspect of it throning provokes a kind of +despair. How strange if ultimately the lawyers once busy about the uncle +were to take up the case of the nephew, and this time reverse the issue, +by proving it! For poor Mr. Warwick was emphatic on the question of his +honour. It excited him dangerously. He was long-suffering, but with the +slightest clue terrible. The unknotting of the entanglement might thus +happen--and Constance Asper would welcome her hero still. + +Meanwhile there was actually nothing to be done: a deplorable absence of +motive villainy; apparently an absence of the beneficent Power directing +events to their proper termination. Lady Wathin heard of her cousin's +having been removed to Cowes in May, for light Solent and Channel voyages +on board Lord Esquart's yacht. She heard also of heavy failures and +convulsions in the City of London, quite unconscious that the Fates, or +agents of the Providence she invoked to precipitate the catastrophe, were +then beginning cavernously their performance of the part of villain in +Diana's history. + +Diana and Emma enjoyed happy quiet sailings under May breezes on the +many-coloured South-western waters, heart in heart again; the physical +weakness of the one, the moral weakness of the other, creating that +mutual dependency which makes friendship a pulsating tie. Diana's +confession had come of her letter to Emma. When the latter was able to +examine her correspondence, Diana brought her the heap for perusal, her +own sealed scribble, throbbing with all the fatal might-have-been, under +her eyes. She could have concealed and destroyed it. She sat beside her +friend, awaiting her turn, hearing her say at the superscription: 'Your +writing, Tony?' and she nodded. She was asked: 'Shall I read it?' She +answered: 'Read.' They were soon locked in an embrace. Emma had no +perception of coldness through those brief dry lines; her thought was of +the matter. + +'The danger is over now?' she said. + +'Yes, that danger is over now.' + +'You have weathered it?' + +'I love him.' + +Emma dropped a heavy sigh in pity of her, remotely in compassion for +Redworth, the loving and unbeloved. She was too humane and wise of our +nature to chide her Tony for having her sex's heart. She had charity to +bestow on women; in defence of them against men and the world, it was a +charity armed with the weapons of battle. The wife madly stripped before +the world by a jealous husband, and left chained to the rock, her youth +wasting, her blood arrested, her sensibilities chilled and assailing her +under their multitudinous disguises, and for whom the world is merciless, +called forth Emma's tenderest commiseration; and that wife being Tony, +and stricken with the curse of love, in other circumstances the blessing, +Emma bled for her. + +'But nothing desperate?' she said. + +'No; you have saved me.' + +'I would knock at death's doors again, and pass them, to be sure of +that.' + +'Kiss me; you may be sure. I would not put my lips to your cheek if +there were danger of my faltering.' + +'But you love him.' + +'I do: and because I love him I will not let him be fettered to me.' + +'You will see him.' + +'Do not imagine that his persuasions undermined your Tony. I am subject +to panics.' + +'Was it your husband?' + +'I had a visit from Lady Wathin. She knows him. She came as peacemaker. +She managed to hint at his authority. Then came a letter from him--of +supplication, interpenetrated with the hint: a suffused atmosphere. Upon +that; unexpected by me, my--let me call him so once, forgive me!--lover +came. Oh! he loves me, or did then. Percy! He had been told that I +should be claimed. I felt myself the creature I am--a wreck of marriage. +But I fancied I could serve him:--I saw golden. My vanity was the chief +traitor. Cowardice of course played a part. In few things that we do, +where self is concerned, will cowardice not be found. And the +hallucination colours it to seem a lovely heroism. That was the second +time Mr. Redworth arrived. I am always at crossways, and he rescues me; +on this occasion unknowingly.' + +'There's a divinity . . .' said Emma. ' When I think of it I perceive +that Patience is our beneficent fairy godmother, who brings us our +harvest in the long result.' + +'My dear, does she bring us our labourers' rations, to sustain us for the +day?' said Diana.' + +'Poor fare, but enough.' + +'I fear I was born godmotherless.' + +'You have stores of patience, Tony; only now and then fits of +desperation.' + +'My nature's frailty, the gap in it: we will give it no fine names +--they cover our pitfalls. I am open to be carried on a tide of +unreasonableness when the coward cries out. But I can say, dear, that +after one rescue, a similar temptation is unlikely to master me. I do +not subscribe to the world's decrees for love of the monster, though I am +beginning to understand the dues of allegiance. We have ceased to write +letters. You may have faith in me.' + +'I have, with my whole soul,' said Emma. + +So the confession closed; and in the present instance there were not any +forgotten chambers to be unlocked and ransacked for addenda confessions. + +The subjects discoursed of by the two endeared the hours to them. They +were aware that the English of the period would have laughed a couple of +women to scorn for venturing on them, and they were not a little hostile +in consequence, and shot their epigrams profusely, applauding the keener +that appeared to score the giant bulk of their intolerant enemy, who +holds the day, but not the morrow. Us too he holds for the day, to +punish us if we have temporal cravings. He scatters his gifts to the +abject; tossing to us rebels bare dog-biscuit. But the life of the +spirit is beyond his region; we have our morrow in his day when we crave +nought of him. Diana and Emma delighted to discover that they were each +the rebel of their earlier and less experienced years; each a member of +the malcontent minor faction, the salt of earth, to whom their salt must +serve for nourishment, as they admitted, relishing it determinedly, not +without gratification. + +Sir Lukin was busy upon his estate in Scotland. They summoned young +Arthur Rhodes to the island, that he might have a taste of the new +scenes. Diana was always wishing for his instruction and refreshment; +and Redworth came to spend a Saturday and Sunday with them, and showed +his disgust of the idle boy, as usual, at the same time consulting them +on the topic of furniture for the Berkshire mansion he had recently +bought, rather vaunting the Spanish pictures his commissioner in Madrid +was transmitting. The pair of rebels, vexed by his treatment of the +respectful junior, took him for an incarnation of their enemy, and pecked +and worried the man astonishingly. He submitted to it like the placable +giant. Yes, he was a Liberal, and furnishing and decorating the house in +the stability of which he trusted. Why not? We must accept the world as +it is, try to improve it by degrees.--Not so: humanity will not wait for +you, the victims are shrieking beneath the bricks of your enormous +edifice, behind the canvas of your pictures. 'But you may really say +that luxurious yachting is an odd kind of insurgency,' avowed Diana. +'It's the tangle we are in.' + +'It's the coat we have to wear; and why fret at it for being +comfortable?' + +'I don't half enough, when I think of my shivering neighbours.' + +'Money is of course a rough test of virtue,' said Redworth. 'We have no +other general test.' + +Money! The ladies proclaimed it a mere material test; Diana, gazing on +sunny sea, with an especial disdain. And name us your sort of virtue. +There is more virtue in poverty, He denied that. Inflexibly British, he +declared money, and also the art of getting money, to be hereditary +virtues, deserving of their reward. The reward a superior wealth and its +fruits? Yes, the power to enjoy and spread enjoyment: and let idleness +envy both! He abused idleness, and by implication the dilettante +insurgency fostering it. However, he was compensatingly heterodox in his +view of the Law's persecution of women; their pertinacious harpings on +the theme had brought him to that; and in consideration of the fact, as +they looked from yacht to shore, of their being rebels participating +largely in the pleasures of the tyrant's court, they allowed him to +silence them, and forgave him. + +Thoughts upon money and idleness were in confusion with Diana. She had a +household to support in London, and she was not working; she could not +touch THE CANTATRICE while Emma was near. Possibly, she again +ejaculated, the Redworths of the world were right: the fruitful labours +were with the mattock and hoe, or the mind directing them. It was a +crushing invasion of materialism, so she proposed a sail to the coast of +France, and thither they flew, touching Cherbourg, Alderney, Sark, +Guernsey, and sighting the low Brittany rocks. Memorable days to Arthur +Rhodes. He saw perpetually the one golden centre in new scenes. He +heard her voice, he treasured her sayings; her gestures, her play of lip +and eyelid, her lift of head, lightest movements, were imprinted on him, +surely as the heavens are mirrored in the quiet seas, firmly and richly +as earth answers to the sprinkled grain. For he was blissfully athirst, +untroubled by a hope. She gave him more than she knew of: a present that +kept its beating heart into the future; a height of sky, a belief in +nobility, permanent through manhood down to age. She was his foam-born +Goddess of those leaping waters; differently hued, crescented, +a different influence. He had a happy week, and it charmed Diana to hear +him tell her so. In spite of Redworth, she had faith in the fruit- +bearing powers of a time of simple happiness, and shared the youth's in +reflecting it. Only the happiness must be simple, that of the glass to +the lovely face: no straining of arms to retain, no heaving of the bosom +in vacancy. + +His poverty and capacity for pure enjoyment led her to think of him +almost clingingly when hard news reached her from the quaint old City of +London, which despises poverty and authorcraft and all mean adventurers, +and bows to the lordly merchant, the mighty financier, Redworth's +incarnation of the virtues. Happy days on board the yacht Clarissa! +Diana had to recall them with effort. They who sow their money for a +promising high percentage have built their habitations on the sides of +the most eruptive mountain in Europe. AEtna supplies more certain +harvests, wrecks fewer vineyards and peaceful dwellings. The greed of +gain is our volcano. Her wonder leapt up at the slight inducement she +had received to embark her money in this Company: a South-American mine, +collapsed almost within hearing of the trumpets of prospectus, after two +punctual payments of the half-yearly interest. A Mrs. Ferdinand Cherson, +an elder sister of the pretty Mrs. Fryar-Gunnett, had talked to her of +the cost of things one afternoon at Lady Singleby's garden-party, and +spoken of the City as the place to help to swell an income, if only you +have an acquaintance with some of the chief City men. The great mine was +named, and the rush for allotments. She knew a couple of the Directors. +They vowed to her that ten per cent. was a trifle; the fortune to be +expected out of the mine was already clearly estimable at forties and +fifties. For their part they anticipated cent. per cent. Mrs. Cherson +said she wanted money, and had therefore invested in the mine. It seemed +so consequent, the cost of things being enormous! She and her sister +Mrs. Fryar-Gunnett owned husbands who did their bidding, because of their +having the brains, it might be understood. Thus five thousand pounds +invested would speedily bring five thousand pounds per annum. Diana had +often dreamed of the City of London as the seat of magic; and taking the +City's contempt for authorcraft and the intangible as, from its point of +view, justly founded, she had mixed her dream strangely with an ancient +notion of the City's probity. Her broker's shaking head did not damp her +ardour for shares to the full amount of her ability to purchase. She +remembered her satisfaction at the allotment; the golden castle shot up +from this fountain mine. She had a frenzy for mines and fished in some +English with smaller sums. 'I am now a miner,' she had exclaimed, +between dismay at her audacity and the pride of it. Why had she not +consulted Redworth? He would peremptorily have stopped the frenzy in its +first intoxicating effervescence. She, like Mrs. Cherson, like all women +who have plunged upon the cost of things, wanted money. She naturally +went to the mine. Address him for counsel in the person of dupe, she +could not; shame was a barrier. Could she tell him that the prattle of +a woman, spendthrift as Mrs. Cherson, had induced her to risk her money? +Latterly the reports of Mrs. Fryar-Gunnett were not of the flavour to +make association of their names agreeable to his hearing. + +She had to sit down in the buzz of her self-reproaches and amazement at +the behaviour of that reputable City, shrug, and recommence the labour of +her pen. Material misfortune had this one advantage; it kept her from +speculative thoughts of her lover, and the meaning of his absence and, +silence. + +Diana's perusal of the incomplete CANTATRICE was done with the cold +critical eye interpreting for the public. She was forced to write on +nevertheless, and exactly in the ruts of the foregoing matter. It +propelled her. No longer perversely, of necessity she wrote her best, +convinced that the work was doomed to unpopularity, resolved that it +should be at least a victory in style. A fit of angry cynicism now and +then set her composing phrases as baits for the critics to quote, +condemnatory of the attractiveness of the work. Her mood was bad. In +addition, she found Whitmonby cool; he complained of the coolness of her +letter of adieu; complained of her leaving London so long. How could she +expect to be his Queen of the London Salon if she lost touch of the +topics? He made no other allusion. They were soon on amicable terms, at +the expense of flattering arts that she had not hitherto practised. But +Westlake revealed unimagined marvels of the odd corners of the masculine +bosom. He was the man of her circle the neatest in epigram, the widest +of survey, an Oriental traveller, a distinguished writer, and if not +personally bewitching, remarkably a gentleman of the world. He was +wounded; he said as much. It came to this: admitting that he had no +claims, he declared it to be unbearable for him to see another preferred. +The happier was unmentioned, and Diana scraped his wound by rallying him. +He repeated that he asked only to stand on equal terms with the others; +her preference of one was past his tolerance. She told him that since +leaving Lady Dunstane she had seen but Whitmonby, Wilmers, and him. He +smiled sarcastically, saying he had never had a letter from her, except +the formal one of invitation. + +'Powers of blarney, have you forsaken a daughter of Erin?' cried Diana. +'Here is a friend who has a craving for you, and I talk sense to him. I +have written to none of my set since I last left London.' + +She pacified him by doses of cajolery new to her tongue. She liked him, +abhorred the thought of losing any of her friends, so the cajoling +sentences ran until Westlake betrayed an inflammable composition, +and had to be put out, and smoked sullenly. Her resources were tried +in restoring him to reason. The months of absence from London appeared +to have transformed her world. Tonans was moderate. The great editor +rebuked her for her prolonged absence from London, not so much because it +discrowned her as Queen of the Salon, but candidly for its rendering her +service less to him. Everything she knew of men and affairs was to him +stale. + +'How do you get to the secrets?' she asked. + +'By sticking to the centre of them,' he said. + +'But how do you manage to be in advance and act the prophet?' + +'Because I will have them at any price, and that is known.' + +She hinted at the peccant City Company. + +'I think I have checked the mining mania, as I did the railway,' said he; +'and so far it was a public service. There's no checking of maniacs.' + +She took her whipping within and without. 'On another occasion I shall +apply to you, Mr. Tonans.' + +'Ah, there was a time when you could have been a treasure to me,' he +rejoined; alluding of course to the Dannisburgh days. + +In dejection, as she mused on those days, and on her foolish ambition +to have a London house where her light might burn, she advised herself, +with Redworth's voice, to quit the house, arrest expenditure, and try +for happiness by burning and shining in the spirit: devoting herself, +as Arthur Rhodes did, purely to literature. It became almost a decision. + +Percy she had still neither written to nor heard from, and she dared not +hope to meet him. She fancied a wish to have tidings of his marriage: it +would be peace; if in desolation. Now that she had confessed and given +her pledge to Emma, she had so far broken with him as to render the +holding him chained a cruelty, and his reserve whispered of a rational +acceptance of the end between them. She thanked him for it; an act +whereby she was: instantly melted to such softness that a dread of him +haunted her. Coward, take up your burden for armour! she called to her +poor dungeoned self wailing to have common nourishment. She knew how +prodigiously it waxed on crumbs; nay, on the imagination of small +morsels. By way of chastizing it, she reviewed her life, her behaviour +to her husband, until she sank backward to a depth deprived of air and +light. That life with her husband was a dungeon to her nature deeper +than any imposed by present conditions. She was then a revolutionary to +reach to the breath of day. She had now to be, only not a coward, and +she could breathe as others did. 'Women who sap the moral laws pull down +the pillars of the temple on their sex,' Emma had said. Diana perceived +something of her personal debt to civilization. Her struggles passed +into the doomed CANTATRICE occupying days and nights under pressure for +immediate payment; the silencing of friend Debit, ridiculously calling +himself Credit, in contempt of sex and conduct, on the ground, that he +was he solely by virtue of being she. He had got a trick of singing +operatic solos in the form and style of the delightful tenor Tellio, and +they were touching in absurdity, most real in unreality. Exquisitely +trilled, after Tellio's manner, + + 'The tradesmen all beseech ye, + The landlord, cook and maid, + Complete THE CANTATRICE, + That they may soon be paid.' + +provoked her to laughter in pathos. He approached, posturing himself +operatically, with perpetual new verses, rhymes to Danvers, rhymes to +Madame Sybille, the cook. Seeing Tellio at one of Henry Wilmers' private +concerts, Diana's lips twitched to dimples at the likeness her familiar +had assumed. She had to compose her countenance to talk to him; +but the moment of song was the trial. Lady Singleby sat beside her, +and remarked: + +'You have always fun going on in you!' She partook of the general +impression that Diana Warwick was too humorous to nurse a downright +passion. + +Before leaving, she engaged Diana to her annual garden-party of the +closing season, and there the meeting with Percy occurred, not +unobserved. Had they been overheard, very little to implicate them +would have been gathered. He walked in full view across the lawn +to her, and they presented mask to mask. + +'The beauty of the day tempts you at last, Mrs. Warwick.' + +'I have been finishing a piece of work.' + +Lovely weather, beautiful dresses: agreed. Diana wore a yellow robe +with a black bonnet, and he commented on the becoming hues; for the first +time, he noticed her dress! Lovely women? Dacier hesitated. One he +saw. But surely he must admire Mrs. Fryar-Gunnett? And who steps beside +her, transparently fascinated, with visage at three-quarters to the rays +within her bonnet? Can it be Sir Lukin Dunstane? and beholding none but +his charmer! + +Dacier withdrew his eyes thoughtfully from the spectacle, and moved to +woo Diana to a stroll. She could not restrain her feet; she was out of +the ring of her courtiers for the moment. He had seized his opportunity. + +'It is nearly a year!' he said. + +'I have been nursing nearly all the time, doing the work I do best.' + +'Unaltered?' + +'A year must leave its marks.' + +'Tony!' + +'You speak of a madwoman, a good eleven months dead. Let her rest. +Those are the conditions.' + +'Accepted, if I may see her.' + +'Honestly accepted?' + +'Imposed fatally, I have to own. I have felt with you: you are the +wiser. But, admitting that, surely we can meet. I may see you?' + +'My house has not been shut.' + +'I respected the house. I distrusted myself.' + +'What restores your confidence?' + +'The strength I draw from you.' + +One of the Beauties at a garden-party is lucky to get as many minutes as +had passed in quietness. Diana was met and captured. But those last +words of Percy's renewed her pride in him by suddenly building a firm +faith in herself. Noblest of lovers! she thought, and brooded on the +little that had been spoken, the much conveyed, for a proof of perfect +truthfulness. + +The world had watched them. It pronounced them discreet if culpable; +probably cold to the passion both. Of Dacier's coldness it had no doubt, +and Diana's was presumed from her comical flights of speech. She was +given to him because of the known failure of her other adorers. He in +the front rank of politicians attracted her with the lustre of his +ambition; she him with her mingling of talent and beauty. An astute +world; right in the main, owing to perceptions based upon brute nature; +utterly astray in particulars, for the reason that it takes no count of +the soul of man or woman. Hence its glee at a catastrophe; its poor +stock of mercy. And when no catastrophe follows, the prophet, for the +honour of the profession, must decry her as cunning beyond aught yet +revealed of a serpent sex. + +Save for a word or two, the watchman might have overheard and trumpeted +his report of their interview at Diana's house. After the first pained +breathing, when they found themselves alone in that room where they had +plighted their fortunes, they talked allusively to define the terms +imposed on them by Reason. The thwarted step was unmentioned; it was a +past madness. But Wisdom being recognized, they could meet. It would be +hard if that were denied! They talked very little of their position; +both understood the mutual acceptance of it; and now that he had seen her +and was again under the spell, Dacier's rational mind, together with his +delight in her presence, compelled him honourably to bow to the terms. +Only, as these were severe upon lovers, the innocence of their meetings +demanded indemnification in frequency. + +'Come whenever you think I can be useful,' said Diana. + +They pressed hands at parting, firmly and briefly, not for the ordinary +dactylology of lovers, but in sign of the treaty of amity. + +She soon learnt that she had tied herself to her costly household. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + +DIALOGUE ROUND THE SUBJECT OF A PORTRAIT, WITH SOME INDICATIONS OF THE +TASK FOR DIANA + +An enamoured Egeria who is not a princess in her worldly state nor a +goddess by origin has to play one of those parts which strain the woman's +faculties past naturalness. She must never expose her feelings to her +lover; she must make her counsel weighty--otherwise she is little his +nymph of the pure wells, and what she soon may be, the world will say. +She has also, most imperatively, to dazzle him without the betrayal of +artifice, where simple spontaneousness is beyond conjuring. But feelings +that are constrained becloud the judgement besides arresting the fine jet +of delivery wherewith the mastered lover is taught through his ears to +think himself prompted, and submit to be controlled, by a creature super- +feminine. She must make her counsel so weighty in poignant praises as to +repress impulses that would rouse her own; and her betraying +impulsiveness was a subject of reflection to Diana after she had given +Percy Dacier, metaphorically, the key of her house. Only as true Egeria +could she receive him. She was therefore grateful, she thanked and +venerated this noblest of lovers for his not pressing to the word of +love, and so strengthening her to point his mind, freshen his moral +energies and inspirit him. His chivalrous acceptance of the conditions +of their renewed intimacy was a radiant knightliness to Diana, elevating +her with a living image for worship:--he so near once to being the +absolute lord of her destinies! How to reward him, was her sole +dangerous thought. She prayed and strove that she might give him of her +best, to practically help him; and she had reason to suppose she could do +it, from the visible effect of her phrases. He glistened in repeating +them; he had fallen into the habit; before witnesses too; in the presence +of Miss Paynham, who had taken earnestly to the art of painting, and +obtained her dear Mrs. Warwick's promise of a few sittings for the sketch +of a portrait, near the close of the season. 'A very daring thing to +attempt,' Miss Paynham said, when he was comparing her first outlines and +the beautiful breathing features. 'Even if one gets the face, the lips +will seem speechless, to those who know her.' + +'If they have no recollection,' said Dacier. + +'I mean, the endeavour should be to represent them at the moment of +speaking.' + +'Put it into the eyes.' He looked at the eyes. + +She looked at the mouth. 'But it is the mouth, more than the eyes.' + +He looked at the face. 'Where there is character, you have only to study +it to be sure of a likeness.' + +'That is the task, with one who utters jewels, Mr. Dacier.' + +'Bright wit, I fear, is above the powers of your art.' + +'Still I feel it could be done. See--now--that!' + +Diana's lips had opened to say: 'Confess me a model model: I am dissected +while I sit for portrayal. I must be for a moment like the frog of the +two countrymen who were disputing as to the manner of his death, when he +stretched to yawn, upon which they agreed that he had defeated the truth +for both of them. I am not quite inanimate.' + +'Irish countrymen,' said Dacier. + +'The story adds, that blows were arrested; so confer the nationality as +you please.' + +Diana had often to divert him from a too intent perusal of her features +with sparkles and stories current or invented to serve the immediate +purpose. + +Miss Paynham was Mrs. Warwick's guest for a fortnight, and observed them +together. She sometimes charitably laid down her pencil and left them, +having forgotten this or that. They were conversing of general matters +with their usual crisp precision on her return, and she was rather like +the two countrymen, in debating whether it was excess of coolness or +discreetness; though she was convinced of their inclinations, and +expected love some day to be leaping up. Diana noticed that she had no +reminder for leaving the room when it was Mr. Redworth present. These +two had become very friendly, according to her hopes; and Miss Paynham +was extremely solicitous to draw suggestions from Mr. Redworth and win +his approval. + +'Do I appear likely to catch the mouth now, do you think, Mr. Redworth?' + +He remarked, smiling at Diana's expressive dimple, that the mouth was +difficult to catch. He did not gaze intently. Mr. Redworth was the +genius of friendship, 'the friend of women,' Mrs. Warwick had said of +him. Miss Paynham discovered it, as regarded herself. The portrait was +his commission to her, kindly proposed, secretly of course, to give her +occupation and the chance of winning a vogue with the face of a famous +Beauty. So many, however, were Mrs. Warwick's visitors, and so lively +the chatter she directed, that accurate sketching was difficult to an +amateurish hand. Whitmonby, Sullivan Smith, Westlake, Henry Wilmers, +Arthur Rhodes, and other gentlemen, literary and military, were almost +daily visitors when it became known that the tedium of the beautiful +sitter required beguiling and there was a certainty of finding her at +home. On Mrs. Warwick's Wednesday numerous ladies decorated the group. +Then was heard such a rillet of dialogue without scandal or politics, +as nowhere else in Britain; all vowed it subsequently; for to the +remembrance it seemed magical. Not a breath of scandal, and yet the +liveliest flow. Lady Pennon came attended by a Mr. Alexander Hepburn, +a handsome Scot, at whom Dacier shot one of his instinctive keen glances, +before seeing that the hostess had mounted a transient colour. Mr. +Hepburn, in settling himself on his chair rather too briskly, contrived +the next minute to break a precious bit of China standing by his elbow; +and Lady Pennon cried out, with sympathetic anguish: 'Oh, my dear, what a +trial for you!' + +'Brittle is foredoomed,' said Diana, unruffled. + +She deserved compliments, and would have had them if she had not wounded +the most jealous and petulant of her courtiers. + +'Then the Turk is a sapient custodian!' said Westlake, vexed with her +flush at the entrance of the Scot. + +Diana sedately took his challenge. 'We, Mr. Westlake, have the +philosophy of ownership.' + +Mr. Hepburn penitentially knelt to pick up the fragments, and Westlake +murmured over his head: 'As long as it is we who are the cracked.' + +'Did we not start from China?' + +'We were consequently precipitated to Stamboul.' + +'You try to elude the lesson.' + +'I remember my first paedagogue telling me so when he rapped the book on +my cranium.' + +'The mark of the book is not a disfigurement.' + +It was gently worded, and the shrewder for it. The mark of the book, +if not a disfigurement, was a characteristic of Westlake's fashion of +speech. Whitmonby nodded twice, for signification of a palpable hit in +that bout; and he noted within him the foolishness of obtruding the +remotest allusion to our personality when crossing the foils with a +woman. She is down on it like the lightning, quick as she is in her +contracted circle, politeness guarding her from a riposte. + +Mr. Hepburn apologized very humbly, after regaining his chair. Diana +smiled and said: 'Incidents in a drawing-room are prize-shots at +Dulness.' + +'And in a dining-room too,' added Sullivan Smith. 'I was one day at a +dinner-party, apparently of undertakers hired to mourn over the joints +and the birds in the dishes, when the ceiling came down, and we all +sprang up merry as crickets. It led to a pretty encounter and a real +prize-shot.' + +'Does that signify a duel?' asked Lady Pennon. + +''Twould be the vulgar title, to bring it into discredit with the +populace, my lady.' + +'Rank me one of the populace then! I hate duelling and rejoice that it +is discountenanced.' + +'The citizens, and not the populace, I think Mr. Sullivan Smith means,' +Diana said. 'The citizen is generally right in morals. My father also +was against the practice, when it raged at its "prettiest." I have heard +him relate a story of a poor friend of his, who had to march out for a +trifle, and said, as he accepted the invitation, "It's all nonsense!" +and walking to the measured length, "It's all nonsense, you know!" and +when lying on the ground, at his last gasp, "I told you it was all +nonsense!"' + +Sullivan Smith leaned over to Whitmonby and Dacier amid the ejaculations, +and whispered: 'A lady's way of telling the story!--and excuseable to +her:--she had to Jonah the adjective. What the poor fellow said was--' +He murmured the sixty-pounder adjective, as in the belly of the whale, to +rightly emphasize his noun. + +Whitmonby nodded to the superior relish imparted by the vigour of +masculine veracity in narration. 'A story for its native sauce +piquante,' he said. + +'Nothing without it!' + +They had each a dissolving grain of contempt for women compelled by +their delicacy to spoil that kind of story which demands the piquant +accompaniment to flavour it racily and make it passable. For to see +insipid mildness complacently swallowed as an excellent thing, knowing +the rich smack of savour proper to the story, is your anecdotal +gentleman's annoyance. But if the anecdote had supported him, Sullivan +Smith would have let the expletive rest. + +Major Carew Mahoney capped Mrs. Warwick's tale of the unfortunate +duellist with another, that confessed the practice absurd, though he +approved of it; and he cited Lord Larrian's opinion: 'It keeps men braced +to civil conduct.' + +'I would not differ with the dear old lord; but no! the pistol is the +sceptre of the bully,' said Diana. + +Mr. Hepburn, with the widest of eyes on her in perpetuity, warmly agreed; +and the man was notorious among men for his contrary action. + +'Most righteously our Princess Egeria distinguishes her reign by +prohibiting it,' said Lady Singleby. + +'And how,' Sullivan Smith sighed heavily, 'how, I'd ask, are ladies to be +protected from the bully?' + +He was beset: 'So it was all for us? all in consideration for our +benefit?' + +He mournfully exclaimed: 'Why, surely!' + +'That is the funeral apology of the Rod, at the close of every barbarous +chapter,' said Diana. + +'Too fine in mind, too fat in body; that is a consequence with men, dear +madam. The conqueror stands to his weapons, or he loses his +possessions.' + +'Mr. Sullivan Smith jumps at his pleasure from the special to the +general, and will be back, if we follow him, Lady Pennon. It is the +trick men charge to women, showing that they can resemble us.' + +Lady Pennon thumped her knee. 'Not a bit. There's no resemblance, and +they know nothing of us.' + +'Women are a blank to them, I believe,' said Whitmonby, treacherously +bowing;--and Westlake said: + +'Traces of a singular scrawl have been observed when they were held in +close proximity to the fire.' + +'Once, on the top of a coach,' Whitmonby resumed, 'I heard a comely dame +of the period when summers are ceasing threatened by her husband with a +divorce, for omitting to put sandwiches in their luncheon-basket. She +made him the inscrutable answer: "Ah, poor man! you will go down ignorant +to your grave!" We laughed, and to this day I cannot tell you why.' + +'That laugh was from a basket lacking provision; and I think we could +trace our separation to it,' Diana said to Lady Pennon, who replied: +'They expose themselves; they get no nearer to the riddle.' + +Miss Courtney, a rising young actress, encouraged by a smile from Mrs. +Warwick, remarked: 'On the stage, we have each our parts equally.' + +'And speaking parts; not personae mutae.' + +'The stage has advanced in verisimilitude,' Henry Wilmers added slyly; +and Diana rejoined: 'You recognize a verisimilitude of the mirror when +it is in advance of reality. Flatter the sketch, Miss Paynham, for a +likeness to be seen. Probably there are still Old Conservatives who +would prefer the personation of us by boys.' + +'I don't know,' Westlake affected dubiousness. 'I have heard that a step +to the riddle is gained by a serious contemplation of boys.' + +'Serious?' + +'That is the doubt.' + +'The doubt throws its light on the step!' + +'I advise them not to take any leap from their step,' said Lady Pennon. + +'It would be a way of learning that we are no wiser than our sires; but +perhaps too painful a way,' Whitmonby observed. 'Poor Mountford Wilts +boasted of knowing women; and--he married. To jump into the mouth of the +enigma, is not to read it.' + +'You are figures of conceit when you speculate on us, Mr. Whitmonby.' + +'An occupation of our leisure, my lady, for your amusement.' + +'The leisure of the humming-top, a thousand to the minute, with the +pretence that it sleeps!' Diana said. + +'The sacrilegious hand to strip you of your mystery is withered as it +stretches,' exclaimed Westlake. 'The sage and the devout are in accord +for once.' + +'And whichever of the two I may be, I'm one of them, happy to do my +homage blindfold!' Sullivan Smith waved the sign of it. + +Diana sent her eyes over him and Mr. Hepburn, seeing Dacier. 'That rosy +mediaevalism seems the utmost we can expect.' An instant she saddened, +foreboding her words to be ominous, because of suddenly thirsting for a +modern cry from him, the silent. She quitted her woman's fit of +earnestness, and took to the humour that pleased him. 'Aslauga's knight, +at his blind man's buff of devotion, catches the hem of the tapestry and +is found by his lady kissing it in a trance of homage five hours long! +Sir Hilary of Agincourt, returned from the wars to his castle at +midnight, hears that the chitellaine is away dancing, and remains with +all his men mounted in the courtyard till the grey morn brings her back! +Adorable! We had a flag flying in those days. Since men began to fret +the riddle, they have hauled it down half-mast. Soon we shall behold a +bare pole and hats on around it. That is their solution.' + +A smile circled at the hearing of Lady Singleby say: 'Well, I am all for +our own times, however literal the men.' + +'We are two different species!' thumped Lady Pennon, swimming on the +theme. 'I am sure, I read what they write of women! And their +heroines!' + +Lady Esquart acquiesced: 'We are utter fools or horrid knaves.' + +'Nature's original hieroglyphs--which have that appearance to the +peruser,' Westlake assented. + +'And when they would decipher us, and they hit on one of our "arts," the +literary pirouette they perform is memorable.' Diana looked invitingly +at Dacier. 'But I for one discern a possible relationship and a +likeness.' + +'I think it exists--behind a curtain,' Dacier replied. + +'Before the era of the Nursery. Liberty to grow; independence is the key +of the secret.' + +'And what comes after the independence?' he inquired. + +Whitmonby, musing that some distraction of an earnest incentive spoilt +Mrs. Warwick's wit, informed him: 'The two different species then break +their shallow armistice and join the shock of battle for possession of +the earth, and we are outnumbered and exterminated, to a certainty. +So I am against independence.' + +'Socially a Mussulman, subject to explosions!' Diana said. 'So the +eternal duel between us is maintained, and men will protest that they are +for civilization. Dear me, I should like to write a sketch of the women +of the future--don't be afraid!--the far future. What a different earth +you will see!' + +And very different creatures! the gentlemen unanimously surmised. +Westlake described the fairer portion, no longer the weaker; frightful +hosts. + +Diana promised him a sweeter picture, if ever she brought her hand to +paint it. + +'You would be offered up to the English national hangman, Jehoiachim +Sneer,' interposed Arthur Rhodes, evidently firing a gun too big for him, +of premeditated charging, as his patroness perceived; but she knew him to +be smarting under recent applications of the swish of Mr. Sneer, and that +he rushed to support her. She covered him by saying: 'If he has to be +encountered, he kills none but the cripple,' wherewith the dead pause +ensuing from a dose of outlandish speech in good company was bridged, +though the youth heard Westlake mutter unpleasantly: 'Jehoiachim,' and +had to endure a stare of Dacier's, who did not conceal his want of +comprehension of the place he occupied in Mrs. Warwick's gatherings. + +'They know nothing of us whatever!' Lady Pennon harped on her dictum. + +'They put us in a case and profoundly study the captive creature,' said +Diana: 'but would any man understand this . . . ?' She dropped her +voice and drew in the heads of Lady Pennon, Lady Singleby, Lady Esquart +and Miss Courtney: 'Real woman's nature speaks. A maid of mine had a +"follower." She was a good girl; I was anxious about her and asked her +if she could trust him. "Oh, yes, ma'am," she replied, "I can; he's quite +like a female." I longed to see the young man, to tell him he had +received the highest of eulogies.' + +The ladies appreciatingly declared that such a tale was beyond the +understandings of men. Miss Paynham primmed her mouth, admitting to +herself her inability to repeat such a tale; an act that she deemed not +'quite like a lady.' She had previously come to the conclusion that Mrs. +Warwick, with all her generous qualities, was deficient in delicate +sentiment--owing perhaps to her coldness of temperament. Like Dacier +also, she failed to comprehend the patronage of Mr. Rhodes: it led to +suppositions; indefinite truly, and not calumnious at all; but a young +poet, rather good-looking and well built, is not the same kind of wing- +chick as a young actress, like Miss Courtney--Mrs. Warwick's latest +shieldling: he is hardly enrolled for the reason that was assumed to +sanction Mrs. Warwick's maid in the encouragement of her follower. +Miss Paynham sketched on, with her thoughts in her bosom: a damsel +castigatingly pursued by the idea of sex as the direct motive of every +act of every person surrounding, her; deductively therefore that a +certain form of the impelling passion, mild or terrible, or capricious, +or it might be less pardonable, was unceasingly at work among the human +couples up to decrepitude. And she too frequently hit the fact to doubt +her gift of reading into them. Mr. Dacier was plain, and the state of +young Mr. Rhodes; and the Scottish gentleman was at least a vehement +admirer. But she penetrated the breast of Mr. Thomas Redworth as well, +mentally tore his mask of friendship to shreds. He was kind indeed in +commissioning her to do the portrait. His desire for it, and his urgency +to have the features exactly given, besides the infrequency of his visits +of late, when a favoured gentleman was present, were the betraying signs. +Deductively, moreover, the lady who inspired the passion in numbers of +gentlemen and set herself to win their admiration with her lively play of +dialogue, must be coquettish; she could hold them only by coldness. +Anecdotes, epigrams, drolleries, do not bubble to the lips of a woman who +is under an emotional spell: rather they prove that she has the spell for +casting. It suited Mr. Dacier, Miss Paynham thought: it was cruel to Mr. +Redworth; at whom, of all her circle, the beautiful woman looked, when +speaking to him, sometimes tenderly. + +'Beware the silent one of an assembly!' Diana had written. She did not +think of her words while Miss Paynham continued mutely sketching. The +silent ones, with much conversation around them, have their heads at +work, critically perforce; the faster if their hands are occupied; and +the point they lean to do is the pivot of their thoughts. Miss Paynham +felt for Mr. Redworth. + +Diana was unaware of any other critic present than him she sought to +enliven, not unsuccessfully, notwithstanding his English objection to the +pitch of the converse she led, and a suspicion of effort to support it:-- +just a doubt, with all her easy voluble run, of the possibility of +naturalness in a continuous cleverness. But he signified pleasure, +and in pleasing him she was happy: in the knowledge that she dazzled, +was her sense of safety. Percy hated scandal; he heard none. He wanted +stirring, cheering; in her house he had it. He came daily, and as it was +her wish that new themes, new flights of converse, should delight him and +show her exhaustless, to preserve her ascendancy, she welcomed him +without consulting the world. He was witness of Mr. Hepburn's +presentation of a costly China vase, to repair the breach in her array +of ornaments, and excuse a visit. Judging by the absence of any blow +within, he saw not a sign of coquettry. Some such visit had been +anticipated by the prescient woman, so there was no reddening. She +brought about an exchange of sentences between him and her furious +admirer, sparing either of them a glimpse of which was the sacrifice to +the other, amusing them both. Dacier could allow Mr. Hepburn to outsit +him; and he left them, proud of his absolute confidence in her. + +She was mistaken in imagining that her social vivacity, mixed with +comradeship of the active intellect, was the charm which kept Mr. Percy +Dacier temperate when he well knew her to distinguish him above her +courtiers. Her powers of dazzling kept him tame; they did not stamp her +mark on him. He was one of the order of highly polished men, ignorant of +women, who are impressed for long terms by temporary flashes, that hold +them bound until a fresh impression comes, to confirm or obliterate the +preceding. Affairs of the world he could treat competently; he had a +head for high politics and the management of men; the feminine half of +the world was a confusion and a vexation to his intelligence, +characterless; and one woman at last appearing decipherable, he fancied +it must be owing to her possession of character, a thing prized the more +in women because of his latent doubt of its existence. Character, that +was the mark he aimed at; that moved him to homage as neither sparkling +wit nor incomparable beauty, nor the unusual combination, did. To be +distinguished by a woman of character (beauty and wit for jewellery), was +his minor ambition in life, and if Fortune now gratified it, he owned to +the flattery. It really seemed by every test that she had the quality. +Since the day when he beheld her by the bedside of his dead uncle, and +that one on the French sea-sands, and again at Copsley, ghostly white out +of her wrestle with death, bleeding holy sweat of brow for her friend, +the print of her features had been on him as an index of depth of +character, imposing respect and admiration--a sentiment imperilled by her +consent to fly with him. Her subsequent reserve until they met--by an +accident that the lady at any rate was not responsible for, proved the +quality positively. And the nature of her character, at first suspected, +vanquished him more, by comparison, than her vivid intellect, which he +originally, and still lingeringly, appreciated in condescension, as a +singular accomplishment, thrilling at times, now and then assailably +feminine. But, after her consent to a proposal that caused him +retrospective worldly shudders, and her composed recognition of the +madness, a character capable of holding him in some awe was real majesty, +and it rose to the clear heights, with her mental attributes for +satellites. His tendency to despise women was wholesomely checked by +the experience to justify him in saying, Here is a worthy one! She was +health to him, as well as trusty counsel. Furthermore, where he +respected, he was a governed man, free of the common masculine craze to +scale fortresses for the sake of lowering flags. Whilst under his +impression of her character, he submitted honourably to the ascendancy +of a lady whose conduct suited him and whose preference flattered; whose +presence was very refreshing; whose letters were a stimulant. Her +letters were really running well-waters, not a lover's delusion of the +luminous mind of his lady. They sparkled in review and preserved their +integrity under critical analysis. The reading of them hurried him in +pursuit of her from house to house during the autumn; and as she did not +hint at the shadow his coming cast on her, his conscience was easy. +Regarding their future, his political anxieties were a mountainous +defile, curtaining the outlook. They met at Lockton, where he arrived +after a recent consultation with his Chief, of whom, and the murmurs of +the Cabinet, he spoke to Diana openly, in some dejection. + +'They might see he has been breaking with his party for the last four +years,' she said. 'The plunge to be taken is tremendous.' + +'But will he? He appears too despondent for a header.' + +'We cannot dance on a quaking floor.' + +'No; it 's exactly that quake of the floor which gives "much qualms," to +me as well,' said Dacier. + +'A treble Neptune's power!' she rejoined, for his particular delectation. +'Enough if he hesitates. I forgive him his nausea. He awaits the +impetus, and it will reach him, and soon. He will not wait for the mob +at his heels, I am certain. A Minister who does that, is a post, and +goes down with the first bursting of the dam. He has tried compromise +and discovered that it does not appease the Fates; is not even a +makeshift-mending at this hour. He is a man of nerves, very sensitively +built; as quick--quicker than a woman, I could almost say, to feel the +tremble of the air-forerunner of imperative changes.' + +Dacier brightened fondly. 'You positively describe him; paint him to the +life, without knowing him!' + +'I have seen him; and if I paint, whose are the colours?' + +'Sometimes I repeat you to him, and I get all the credit,' said Dacier. + +'I glow with pride to think of speaking anything that you repeat,' said +Diana, and her eyes were proudly lustreful. + +Their love was nourished on these mutual flatteries. Thin food for +passion! The innocence of it sanctioned the meetings and the +appointments to meet. When separated they were interchanging letters, +formally worded in the apostrophe and the termination, but throbbingly +full: or Diana thought so of Percy's letters, with grateful justice; for +his manner of opening his heart in amatory correspondence was to confide +important, secret matters, up to which mark she sprang to reply in +counsel. He proved his affection by trusting her; his respect by his +tempered style: 'A Greenland style of writing,' she had said of an +unhappy gentleman's epistolary compositions resembling it; and now the +same official baldness was to her mind Italianly rich; it called forth +such volumes. + +Flatteries that were thin food for passion appeared the simplest +exchanges of courtesy, and her meetings with her lover, judging by the +nature of the discourse they held, so, consequent to their joint interest +in the great crisis anticipated, as to rouse her indignant surprise and a +turn for downright rebellion when the Argus world signified the fact of +its having one eye, or more, wide open. + +Debit and Credit, too, her buzzing familiars, insisted on an audience at +each ear, and at the house-door, on her return to London. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX + +SHOWS THE APPROACHES OF THE POLITICAL AND THE DOMESTIC CRISIS IN COMPANY + +There was not much talk of Diana between Lady Dunstane and her customary +visitor Tom Redworth now. She was shy in speaking of the love-stricken +woman, and more was in his mind for thought than for speech. She some +times wondered how much he might know, ending with the reflection that +little passing around was unknown to him. He had to shut his mind +against thought, against all meditation upon Mrs. Warwick; it was based +scientifically when speculating and calculating, on the material element +--a talisman. Men and women crossing the high seas of life he had found +most readable under that illuminating inquiry, as to their means. An +inspector of sea worthy ships proceeds in like manner. Whence would the +money come? He could not help the bent of his mind; but he could avoid +subjecting her to the talismanic touch. The girl at the Dublin Ball, +the woman at the fire-grate of The Crossways, both in one were his Diana. +Now and then, hearing an ugly whisper, his manful sympathy with the mere +woman in her imprisoned liberty, defended her desperately from charges +not distinctly formulated within him:--'She's not made of stone.' That +was a height of self-abnegation to shake the poor fellow to his roots; +but, then, he had no hopes of his own; and he stuck to it. Her choice of +a man like Dacier, too, of whom Redworth judged highly, showed nobility. +She irradiated the man; but no baseness could be in such an alliance. +If allied, they were bound together for good. The tie-supposing a +villain world not wrong--was only not the sacred tie because of +impediments. The tie!--he deliberated, and said stoutly--No. Men of +Redworth's nature go through sharp contests, though the duration of them +is short, and the tussle of his worship of this woman with the +materialistic turn of his mind was closed by the complete shutting up of +the latter under lock and bar; so that a man, very little of an idealist, +was able to sustain her in the pure imagination--where she did almost +belong to him. She was his, in a sense, because she might have been his- +-but for an incredible extreme of folly. The dark ring of the eclipse +cast by some amazing foolishness round the shining crescent perpetually +in secret claimed the whole sphere of her, by what might have been, while +admitting her lost to him in fact. To Thomas Redworth's mind the lack of +perfect sanity in his conduct at any period of manhood, was so entirely +past belief that he flew at the circumstances confirming the charge, and +had wrestles with the angel of reality, who did but set him dreaming +backward, after flinging him. + +He heard at Lady Wathin's that Mrs. Warwick was in town for the winter. +'Mr. Dacier is also in town,' Lady Wathin said, with an acid indication +of the needless mention of it. 'We have not seen him.' She invited +Redworth to meet a few friends at dinner. 'I think you admire Miss +Asper: in my idea a very saint among young women;--and you know what the +young women of our day are. She will be present. She is, you are aware, +England's greatest heiress. Only yesterday, hearing of that poor man Mr. +Warwick's desperate attack of illness--heart!--and of his having no +relative or friend to soothe his pillow,--he is lying in absolute +loneliness,--she offered to go and nurse him! Of course it could not +be done. It is not her place. The beauty of the character of a dear +innocent young girl, with every gratification at command, who could make +the offer, strikes me as unparalleled. She was perfectly sincere--she is +sincerity. She asked at once, Where is he? She wished me to accompany +her on a first visit. I saw a tear.' + +Redworth had called at Lady Wathin's for information of the state of Mr. +Warwick, concerning which a rumour was abroad. No stranger to the +vagrant compassionateness of sentimentalists;--rich, idle, conscience- +pricked or praise-catching;--he was unmoved by the tale that Miss Asper +had proposed to go to Mr. Warwick's sick-bed in the uniform of a Sister +of Charity.--'Speaking French!' Lady Wathin exclaimed; and his head +rocked, as he said: + +'An Englishman would not be likely to know better.' + +'She speaks exquisite French--all European languages, Mr. Redworth. +She does not pretend to wit. To my thinking, depth of sentiment is +a far more feminine accomplishment. It assuredly will be found a +greater treasure.' + +The modest man (modest in such matters) was led by degrees to fancy +himself sounded regarding Miss Asper: a piece of sculpture glacially +decorative of the domestic mansion in person, to his thinking; and as to +the nature of it--not a Diana, with all her faults! + +If Diana had any faults, in a world and a position so heavily against +her! He laughed to himself, when alone, at the neatly implied bitter +reproach cast on the wife by the forsaken young lady, who proposed to +nurse the abandoned husband of the woman bereaving her of the man she +loved. Sentimentalists enjoy these tricks, the conceiving or the doing +of them--the former mainly, which are cheaper, and equally effective. +Miss Asper might be deficient in wit; this was a form of practical wit, +occasionally exhibited by creatures acting on their instincts. Warwick +he pitied, and he put compulsion on himself to go and see the poor +fellow, the subject of so sublime a generosity. Mr. Warwick sat in an +arm-chair, his legs out straight on the heels, his jaw dragging hollow +cheeks, his hands loosely joined; improving in health, he said. A demure +woman of middle age was in attendance. He did not speak of his wife. +Three times he said disconnectedly, 'I hear reports,' and his eyelids +worked. Redworth talked of general affairs, without those consolatory +efforts, useless between men, which are neither medicine nor good honest +water:--he judged by personal feelings. In consequence, he left an +invalid the sourer for his visit. + +Next day he received a briefly-worded summons from Mrs. Warwick. + +Crossing the park on the line to Diana's house, he met Miss Paynham, who +grieved to say that Mrs. Warwick could not give her a sitting; and in a +still mournfuller tone, imagined he would find her at home, and alone by +this time. 'I left no one but Mr. Dacier there,' she observed. + +'Mrs. Warwick will be disengaged to-morrow, no doubt,' he said +consolingly. + +Her head performed the negative. 'They talk politics, and she becomes +animated, loses her pose. I will persevere, though I fear I have +undertaken a task too much for me.' + +'I am deeply indebted to you for the attempt.' Redworth bowed to her and +set his face to the Abbey-towers, which wore a different aspect in the +smoked grey light since his two minutes of colloquy. He had previously +noticed that meetings with Miss Paynham produced a similar effect on him, +a not so very impressionable man. And how was it done? She told him +nothing he did not know or guess. + +Diana was alone. Her manner, after the greeting, seemed feverish. She +had not to excuse herself for abruptness when he heard the nature of the +subject. Her counsellor and friend was informed, in feminine style, that +she had, requested him to call, for the purpose of consulting him with +regard to a matter she had decided upon; and it was, the sale of The +Crossways. She said that it would have gone to her heart once; she +supposed she had lost her affection for the place, or had got the better +of her superstitions. She spoke lamely as well as bluntly. The place +was hers, she said; her own property. Her husband could not interdict a +sale. + +Redworth addressed himself to her smothered antagonism. 'Even if he had +rights, as they are termed . . . I think you might count on their not +being pressed.' + +'I have been told of illness.' She tapped her foot on the floor. + +'His present state of health is unequal to his ordinary duties.' + +'Emma Dunstane is fully supplied with the latest intelligence, Mr. +Redworth. You know the source.' + +'I mention it simply . . .' + +'Yes, yes. What I have to protest is, that in this respect I am free. +The Law has me fast, but leaves me its legal view of my small property. +I have no authority over me. I can do as I please, in this, without a +collision, or the dread of one. It is the married woman's perpetual +dread when she ventures a step. Your Law originally presumed her a +China-footed animal. And more, I have a claim for maintenance.' + +She crimsoned angrily. + +Redworth showed a look of pleasure, hard to understand. 'The application +would be sufficient, I fancy,' he said. + +'It should have been offered.' + +'Did you not decline it?' + +'I declined to apply for it. I thought--But, Mr. Redworth, another +thing, concerning us all: I want very much to hear your ideas of the +prospects of the League; because I know you have ideas. The leaders are +terrible men; they fascinate me. They appear to move with an army of +facts. They are certainly carrying the country. I am obliged to think +them sincere. Common agitators would not hold together, as they do. +They gather strength each year. If their statistics are not illusory-- +an army of phantoms instead of one of facts; and they knock at my head +without admission, I have to confess; they must win.' + +'Ultimately, it is quite calculable that they will win,' said Redworth; +and he was led to discourse of rates and duties and prohibitive tariffs +to a woman surprisingly athirst, curious for every scrap of intelligence +relating to the power, organization, and schemes of the League. 'Common +sense is the secret of every successful civil agitation,' he said. 'Rap +it unremittingly on crowds of the thickest of human heads, and the +response comes at last to sweep all before it. You may reckon that the +country will beat the landlords--for that is our question. Is it one of +your political themes?' + +'I am not presumptuous to such a degree:--a poor scholar,' Diana replied. +'Women striving to lift their heads among men deserve the sarcasm.' + +He denied that any sarcasm was intended, and the lesson continued. When +she had shaped in her mind some portion of his knowledge of the subject, +she reverted casually to her practical business. Would he undertake to +try to obtain a purchaser of The Crossways, at the price he might deem +reasonable? She left the price entirely to his judgement. And now she +had determined to part with the old place, the sooner the better! She +said that smiling; and Redworth smiled, outwardly and inwardly. Her talk +of her affairs was clearer to him than her curiosity for the mysteries of +the League. He gained kind looks besides warm thanks by the promise to +seek a purchaser; especially by his avoidance of prying queries. She +wanted just this excellent automaton fac-totum; and she referred him to +Mr. Braddock for the title-deeds, et caetera--the chirping phrase of +ladies happily washing their hands of the mean details of business. + +'How of your last work?' he asked her. + +Serenest equanimity rejoined: 'As I anticipated, it is not popular. The +critics are of one mind with the public. You may have noticed, they +rarely flower above that rocky surface. THE CANTATRICE sings them a +false note. My next will probably please them less.' + +Her mobile lips and brows shot the faint upper-wreath of a smile +hovering. It was designed to display her philosophy. + +'And what is the name of your next?' said he. + +'I name it THE MAN OF TWO MINDS, if you can allow that to be in nature.' + +'Contra-distinguished from the woman?' + +'Oh! you must first believe the woman to have one.' + +'You are working on it?' + +'By fits. And I forgot, Mr. Redworth: I have mislaid my receipts, and +must ask you for the address of your wine-merchant;--or, will you? +Several dozen of the same wines. I can trust him to be in awe of you, +and the good repute of my table depends on his honesty.' + +Redworth took the definite order for a large supply of wine. + +She gave him her hand: a lost hand, dear to hold, needing to be guided, +he feared. For him, it was merely a hand, cut off from the wrist; and he +had performed that executive part! A wiser man would now have been the +lord of it . . . . So he felt, with his burning wish to protect and +cherish the beloved woman, while saying: 'If we find a speedy bidder for +The Crossways, you will have to thank our railways.' + +'You!' said Diana, confident in his ability to do every-thing of the +practical kind. + +Her ingenuousness tickled him. He missed her comic touches upon men and +things, but the fever shown by her manner accounted for it. + +As soon as he left her, she was writing to the lover who had an hour +previously been hearing her voice; the note of her theme being Party; +and how to serve it, when to sacrifice it to the Country. She wrote, +carolling bars of the Puritani marches; and such will passion do, that +her choice of music was quite in harmony with her theme. The martially- +amorous melodies of Italian Opera in those days fostered a passion +challenged to intrepidity from the heart of softness; gliding at the same +time, and putting warm blood even into dull arithmetical figures which +might be important to her lover, her hero fronting battle. She condensed +Redworth's information skilfully, heartily giving it and whatever she had +imbibed, as her own, down to the remark: 'Common sense in questions of +justice, is a weapon that makes way into human heads and wins the certain +majority, if we strike with it incessantly.' Whether anything she wrote +was her own, mattered little: the savour of Percy's praise, which none +could share with her, made it instantly all her own. Besides she wrote +to strengthen him; she naturally laid her friends and the world under +contribution; and no other sort of writing was possible. Percy had not a +common interest in fiction; still less for high comedy. He liked the +broad laugh when he deigned to open books of that sort; puns and strong +flavours and harlequin surprises; and her work would not admit of them, +however great her willingness to force her hand for his amusement: +consequently her inventiveness deadened. She had to cease whipping it. +'My poor old London cabhorse of a pen shall go to grass!' she sighed, +looking to the sale of The Crossways for money; looking no farther. + +Those marshalled battalions of Debit and Credit were in hostile order, +the weaker simply devoted to fighting for delay, when a winged messenger +bearing the form of old Mr. Braddock descended to her with the +reconciling news that a hermit bachelor, an acquaintance of Mr. +Redworth's--both of whom wore a gloomy hue in her mind immediately--had +offered a sum for the purchase of The Crossways. Considering the out-of- +the-way district, Mr. Braddock thought it an excellent price to get. She +thought the reverse, but confessed that double the sum would not have +altered her opinion. Double the sum scarcely counted for the service she +required of it for much more than a year. The money was paid shortly +after into her Bank, and then she enjoyed the contemptuous felicity of +tossing meat to her lions, tigers, wolves, and jackals, who, but for the +fortunate intervention, would have been feeding on her. These menagerie +beasts of prey were the lady's tradesmen, Debit's hungry-brood. She had +a rapid glimpse of a false position in regarding that legitimate band so +scornfully: another glimpse likewise of a day to come when they might not +be stopped at the door. She was running a race with something; with +what? It was unnamed; it ran in a shroud. + +At times she surprised her heart violently beating when there had not +been a thought to set it in motion. She traced it once to the words, +'next year,' incidentally mentioned. 'Free,' was a word that checked her +throbs, as at a question of life or death. Her solitude, excepting the +hours of sleep, if then, was a time of irregular breathing. The +something unnamed, running beside her, became a dreadful familiar; the +race between them past contemplation for ghastliness. 'But this is your +Law!' she cried to the world, while blinding her eyes against a peep of +the shrouded features. + +Singularly, she had but to abandon hope, and the shadowy figure vanished, +the tragic race was ended. How to live and think, and not to hope: the +slave of passion had this problem before her. + +Other tasks were supportable, though one seemed hard at moments and was +not passive; it attacked her. The men and women of her circle +derisively, unanimously, disbelieved in an innocence that forfeited +reputation. Women were complimentarily assumed to be not such gaping +idiots. And as the weeks advanced, a change came over Percy. The +gentleman had grown restless at covert congratulations, hollow to his +knowledge, however much caressing vanity, and therefore secretly a wound +to it. One day, after sitting silent, he bluntly proposed to break 'this +foolish trifling'; just in his old manner, though not so honourably; not +very definitely either. Her hand was taken. + +'I feared that dumbness!' Diana said, letting her hand go, but keeping +her composure. 'My friend Percy, I am not a lion-tamer, and if you are +of those animals, we break the chapter. Plainly you think that where +there appears to be a choice of fools, the woman is distinctly designed +for the person. Drop my hand, or I shall repeat the fable of the Goose +with the Golden Eggs.' + +'Fables are applicable only in the school-room,' said he; and he ventured +on 'Tony!' + +'I vowed an oath to my dear Emma--as good as to the heavens! and that +of itself would stay me from being insane again.' She released herself. +'Signor Percy, you teach me to suspect you of having an idle wish to +pluck your plaything to pieces:--to boast of it? Ah! my friend, I +fancied I was of more value to you. You must come less often; even to +not at all, if you are one of those idols with feet of clay which leave +the print of their steps in a room; or fall and crush the silly +idolizer.' + +'But surely you know . . .' said he. 'We can't have to wait long.' +He looked full of hopeful meanings. + +'A reason . . . !' She kept down her breath. A longdrawn sigh +followed, through parted lips. She had a sensation of horror. +'And I cannot propose to nurse him--Emma will not hear of it,' she said. +'I dare not. Hypocrite to that extreme? Oh, no! But I must hear +nothing. As it is, I am haunted. Now let this pass. Tony me no Tonies; +I am stony to such whimpering business now we are in the van of the +struggle. All round us it sounds like war. Last night I had Mr. Tonans +dining here;--he wished to meet you; and you must have a private meeting +with Mr. Whitmonby: he will be useful; others as well. You are wrong in +affecting contempt of the Press. It perches you on a rock; but the +swimmer in politics knows what draws the tides. Your own people, your +set, your class, are a drag to you, like inherited superstitions to the +wakening brain. The greater the glory! For you see the lead you take? +You are saving your class. They should lead, and will, if they prove +worthy in the crisis. Their curious error is to believe in the stability +of a monumental position.' + +'Perfectly true!' cried Dacier; and the next minute, heated by +approbation, was begging for her hand earnestly. She refused it. + +'But you say things that catch me!' he pleaded. 'Remember, it was nearly +mine. It soon will be mine. I heard yesterday from Lady Wathin . . . +well, if it pains you!' + +'Speak on,' said Diana, resigned to her thirsty ears. + +'He is not expected to last through the autumn.' + +'The calculation is hers?' + +'Not exactly:--judging from the symptoms.' + +Diana flashed a fiery eye into Dacier's, and rose. She was past danger +of melting, with her imagination darkened by the funeral image; but she +craved solitude, and had to act the callous, to dismiss him. + +'Good. Enough for the day. Now leave me, if you please. When we meet +again, stifle that raven's croak. I am not a "Sister of Charity," +but neither am I a vulture hovering for the horse in the desert to die. +A poor simile!--when it is my own and not another's breath that I want. +Nothing in nature, only gruesome German stories will fetch comparisons +for the yoke of this Law of yours. It seems the nightmare dream +following an ogre's supper.' + +She was not acting the shiver of her frame. + +To-morrow was open to him, and prospect of better fortune, so he +departed, after squeezing the hand she ceremoniously extended. + +But her woman's intuition warned her that she had not maintained the +sovereign impression which was her security. And hope had become a flame +in her bosom that would no longer take the common extinguisher. The race +she ran was with a shrouded figure no more, but with the figure of the +shroud; she had to summon paroxysms of a pity hard to feel, images of +sickness, helplessness, the vaults, the last human silence for the +stilling of her passionate heart. And when this was partly effected, the +question, Am I going to live? renewed her tragical struggle. Who was it +under the vaults, in the shroud, between the planks? and with human +sensibility to swell the horror! Passion whispered of a vaster sorrow +needed for herself; and the hope conjuring those frightful complexities +was needed to soothe her. She pitied the man, but she was an enamoured +woman. Often of late she had been sharply stung, relaxed as well, by the +observations of Danvers assisting at her toilette. Had she beauty and +charm, beauty and rich health in the young summer blooming of her days? +--and all doomed to waste? No insurgency of words arose in denunciation +of the wrong done to her nature. An undefined heavy feeling of wrong +there was, just perceptive enough to let her know, without gravely +shaming, that one or another must be slain for peace to come; for it is +the case in which the world of the Laws overloading her is pitiless to +women, deaf past ear-trumpets, past intercession; detesting and reviling +them for a feeble human cry, and for one apparent step of revolt piling +the pelted stones on them. It will not discriminate shades of hue, it +massacres all the shadowed. They are honoured, after a fashion, at a +certain elevation. Descending from it, and purely to breathe common air +(thus in her mind), they are scourged and outcast. And alas! the very +pleading for them excites a sort of ridicule in their advocate. How? +She was utterly, even desperately, nay personally, earnest, and her +humour closed her lips; though comical views of the scourged and outcast +coming from the opposite party--the huge bully world--she would not have +tolerated. Diana raged at a prevailing strength on the part of that huge +bully world, which seemed really to embrace the atmosphere. Emma had +said: 'The rules of Christian Society are a blessed Government for us +women. We owe it so much that there is not a brick of the fabric we +should not prop.' Emma's talk of obedience to the Laws, being Laws, was +repeated by the rebel, with an involuntary unphrased comparison of the +vessel in dock and the vessel at sea. + +When Dacier next called to see Mrs. Warwick, he heard that she had gone +to Copsley for a couple of weeks. The lesson was emphasized by her not +writing:--and was it the tricky sex, or the splendid character of the +woman, which dealt him this punishment? Knowing how much Diana +forfeited for him, he was moved to some enthusiasm, despite his +inclination to be hurt. + +She, on her return to London, gained a considerable increase of knowledge +as to her position in the eye of the world; and unlike the result of her +meditations derived from the clamouring tradesmen, whom she could excuse, +she was neither illuminated nor cautioned by that dubious look; she +conscientiously revolted. Lady Pennon hinted a word for her Government. +'A good deal of what you so capitally call "Green tea talk" is going on, +my dear.' Diana replied, without pretending to misunderstand. + +'Gossip is a beast of prey that does not wait for the death of the +creature it devours. They are welcome to my shadow, if the liberty I +claim casts one, and it feeds them.' To which the old lady rejoined: +'Oh! I am with you through thick and thin. I presented you at Court, and +I stand by you. Only, walk carefully. Women have to walk with a train. +You are too famous not to have your troops of watchers.' + +'But I mean to prove,' said Diana, 'that a woman can walk with her train +independent of the common reserves and artifices.' + +'Not on highways, my dear!' + +Diana, praising the speaker, referred the whole truth in that to the +material element of her metaphor. + +She was more astonished by Whitmonby's candid chiding; but with him she +could fence, and men are easily diverted. She had sent for him, to bring +him and Percy Dacier together to a conference. Unaware of the project, +he took the opportunity of their privacy to speak of the great station +open to her in London being imperilled; and he spoke of 'tongues,' and +ahem! A very little would have induced him to fill that empty vocable +with a name. + +She had to pardon the critic in him for an unpleasant review of her +hapless CANTATRICE; and as a means of evasion, she mentioned the poor +book and her slaughter of the heroine, that he had complained of. + +'I killed her; I could not let her live. You were unjust in accusing the +authoress of heartlessness.' + +'If I did, I retract,' said he. 'She steers too evidently from the +centre of the vessel. She has the organ in excess.' + +'Proof that it is not squandered.' + +'The point concerns direction.' + +'Have I made so bad a choice of my friends?' + +'It is the common error of the sprightly to suppose that in parrying a +thrust they blind our eyes.' + +'The world sees always what it desires to see, Mr. Whitmonby.' + +'The world, my dear Mrs. Warwick, is a blundering machine upon its own +affairs, but a cruel sleuth-hound to rouse in pursuit.' + +'So now you have me chased by sight and scent. And if I take wing?' + +'Shots! volleys!--You are lawful game. The choice you have made of your +friends, should oblige you to think of them.' + +'I imagine I do. Have I offended any, or one?' + +'I will not say that. You know the commotion in a French kitchen when +the guests of the house declined a particular dish furnished them by +command. The cook and his crew were loyal to their master, but, for the +love of their Art, they sent him notice. It is ill serving a mad +sovereign.' + +Diana bowed to the compact little apologue. + +'I will tell you another story, traditional in our family from my great- +grandmother, a Spanish woman,' she said. 'A cavalier serenaded his +mistress, and rascal mercenaries fell upon him before he could draw +sword. He battered his guitar on their pates till the lattice opened +with a cry, and startled them to flight. "Thrice blessed and beloved!" +he called to her above, in reference to the noise, "it was merely a +diversion of the accompaniment." Now there was loyal service to a +sovereign!' + +'You are certainly an angel!' exclaimed Whitmonby. 'I swallow the story, +and leave it to digestion to discover the appositeness. Whatever tuneful +instrument one of your friends possesses shall solace your slumbers or +batter the pate of your enemy. But discourage the habitual serenader.' + +'The musician you must mean is due here now, by appointment to meet you,' +said Diana, and set him momentarily agape with the name of Mr. Percy +Dacier. + +That was the origin of the alliance between the young statesman and a +newspaper editor. Whitmonby, accepting proposals which suited him, +quitted the house, after an hour of political talk, no longer inclined to +hint at the 'habitual serenader,' but very ready to fall foul of those +who did, as he proved when the numbers buzzed openly. Times were +masculine; the excitement on the eve of so great a crisis, and Diana's +comprehension of it and fine heading cry, put that weak matter aside. +Moreover, he was taught to suppose himself as welcome a guest as Dacier; +and the cook could stand criticism; the wines--wonderful to say of a +lady's table--were trusty; the talk, on the political evenings and the +social and anecdotal supper-nights, ran always in perfect accord with his +ideal of the conversational orchestra: an improvized harmony, unmatched +elsewhere. She did not, he considered, so perfectly assort her dinner- +guests; that was her one fault. She had therefore to strain her +adroitness to cover their deficiencies and fuse them. But what other +woman could have done it! She led superbly. If an Irishman was present, +she kept him from overflooding, managed to extract just the flavour of +him, the smack of salt. She did even, at Whitmonby's table, on a red- +letter Sunday evening, in concert with him and the Dean, bring down that +cataract, the Bodleian, to the levels of interchanging dialogue by +seasonable touches, inimitably done, and never done before. Sullivan +Smith, unbridled in the middle of dinner, was docile to her. 'Irishmen;' +she said, pleading on their behalf to Whitmonby, who pronounced the race +too raw for an Olympian feast, 'are invaluable if you hang them up to +smoke and cure'; and the master of social converse could not deny that +they were responsive to her magic. The supper-nights were mainly devoted +to Percy's friends. He brought as many as he pleased, and as often as it +pleased him; and it was her pride to provide Cleopatra banquets for the +lover whose anxieties were soothed by them, and to whom she sacrificed +her name willingly in return for a generosity that certain chance +whispers of her heart elevated to the pitch of measureless. + +So they wore through the Session and the Autumn, clouds heavier, the +League drumming, the cry of Ireland 'ominously Banshee,' as she wrote to +Emma. + + + + +CHAPTER XXX + +IN WHICH THERE IS A TASTE OF A LITTLE DINNER AND AN AFTERTASTE + +'But Tony lives!' Emma Dunstane cried, on her solitary height, with the +full accent of envy marking the verb; and when she wrote enviously to her +friend of the life among bright intelligences, and of talk worth hearing, +it was a happy signification that health, frail though it might be, had +grown importunate for some of the play of life. Diana sent her word to +name her day, and she would have her choicest to meet her dearest. They +were in the early days of December, not the best of times for improvized +gatherings. Emma wanted, however, to taste them as they cropped; she was +also, owing to her long isolation, timid at a notion of encountering the +pick of the London world, prepared by Tony to behold 'a wonder more than +worthy of them,' as her friend unadvisedly wrote. That was why she came +unexpectedly, and for a mixture of reasons, went to an hotel. Fatality +designed it so. She was reproached, but she said: 'You have to write or +you entertain at night; I should be a clog and fret you. My hotel is +Maitland's; excellent; I believe I am to lie on the pillow where a +crowned head reposed! You will perceive that I am proud as well as +comfortable. And I would rather meet your usual set of guests.' + +'The reason why I have been entertaining at night is, that Percy is +harassed and requires enlivening,' said Diana. 'He brings his friends. +My house is open to them, if it amuses him. What the world says, is past +a thought. I owe him too much.' + +Emma murmured that the world would soon be pacified. + +Diana shook her head. 'The poor man is better; able to go about his +affairs; and I am honestly relieved. It lays a spectre. As for me, I do +not look ahead. I serve as a kind of secretary to Percy. I labour at +making abstracts by day, and at night preside at my suppertable. You +would think it monotonous; no incident varies the course we run. I have +no time to ask whether it is happiness. It seems to bear a resemblance.' + +Emma replied: 'He may be everything you tell me. He should not have +chosen the last night of the Opera to go to your box and sit beside you +till the fall of the curtain. The presence at the Opera of a man +notoriously indifferent to music was enough in itself.' + +Diana smiled with languor. 'You heard of that? But the Opera was The +Puritani, my favourite. And he saw me sitting in Lady Pennon's box +alone. We were compromised neck-deep already. I can kiss you, my own +Emmy, till I die; 'but what the world says, is what the wind says. +Besides he has his hopes.... If I am blackened ever so thickly, he can +make me white. Dear me! if the world knew that he comes here almost +nightly! It will; and does it matter? I am his in soul; the rest is +waste-paper--a half-printed sheet.' + +'Provided he is worthy of such devotion!' + +'He is absolute worthiness. He is the prince of men: I dread to say, +mine! for fear. But Emmy will not judge him to-morrow by contrast with +more voluble talkers.--I can do anything but read poetry now. That kills +me!--See him through me. In nature, character, intellect, he has no +rival. Whenever I despond--and it comes now and then--I rebuke myself +with this one admonition. + +Simply to have known him! Admit that for a woman to find one who is +worthy among the opposite creatures, is a happy termination of her quest, +and in some sort dismisses her to the Shades, an uncomplaining ferry- +bird. If my end were at hand I should have no cause to lament it. We +women miss life only when we have to confess we have never met the man to +reverence.' + +Emma had to hear a very great deal of Mr. Percy. Diana's comparison of +herself to 'the busy bee at a window-pane,' was more in her old manner; +and her friend would have hearkened to the marvels of the gentle man less +unrefreshed, had it not appeared to her that her Tony gave in excess for +what was given in return. She hinted her view. . . + +'It is expected of our sex,' Diana said. + +The work of busy bee at a window-pane had at any rate not spoilt her +beauty, though she had voluntarily, profitlessly, become this man's +drudge, and her sprightly fancy, her ready humour and darting look all +round in discussion, were rather deadened. + +But the loss was not perceptible in the circle of her guests. Present +at a dinner little indicating the last, were Whitmonby, in lively trim +for shuffling, dealing, cutting, trumping or drawing trumps; Westlake, +polishing epigrams under his eyelids; Henry Wilmers, who timed an +anecdote to strike as the passing hour without freezing the current; +Sullivan Smith, smoked, cured and ready to flavour; Percy Dacier, +pleasant listener, measured speaker; and young Arthur Rhodes, the +neophyte of the hostess's training; of whom she had said to Emma, 'The +dear boy very kindly serves to frank an unlicenced widow'; and whom she +prompted and made her utmost of, with her natural tact. These she mixed +and leavened. The talk was on high levels and low; an enchantment to +Emma Dunstane: now a story; a question opening new routes, sharp sketches +of known personages; a paradox shot by laughter as soon as uttered; and +all so smoothly; not a shadow of the dominant holder-forth or a momentary +prospect of dead flats; the mellow ring of appositeness being the +concordant note of deliveries running linked as they flashed, and a +tolerant philosophy of the sage in the world recurrently the keynote. + +Once only had Diana to protect her nurseling. He cited a funny line +from a recent popular volume of verse, in perfect A propos, looking at +Sullivan Smith; who replied, that the poets had become too many for him, +and he read none now. Diana said: 'There are many Alexanders, but +Alexander of Macedon is not dwarfed by the number.' She gave him an +opening for a smarter reply, but he lost it in a comment--against +Whitmonby's cardinal rule: 'The neatest turn of the wrist that ever swung +a hero to crack a crown!' and he bowed to young Rhodes: 'I 'll read your +versicler to-morrow morning early.' The latter expressed a fear that the +hour was too critical for poetry. + +'I have taken the dose at a very early hour,' said Whitmonby, to bring +conversation to the flow again, 'and it effaced the critical mind +completely.' + +'But did not silence the critical nose,' observed Westlake. + +Wilmers named the owner of the longest nose in Europe. + +'Potentially, indeed a critic!' said Diana. + +'Nights beside it must be fearful, and good matter for a divorce, if the +poor dear lady could hale it to the doors of the Vatican!' Sullivan Smith +exclaimed. 'But there's character in noses.' + +'Calculable by inches?' Dacier asked. + +'More than in any other feature,' said Lady Dunstane. 'The Riffords are +all prodigiously gifted and amusing: suspendens omnia naso. It should be +prayed for in families.' + +'Totum ut to faciant, Fabulle, nasum,' rejoined Whitmonby. 'Lady +Isabella was reading the tale of the German princess, who had a sentinel +stationed some hundred yards away to whisk off the flies, and she owned +to me that her hand instinctively travelled upward.' + +'Candour is the best concealment, when one has to carry a saddle of +absurdity,' said Diana. 'Touchstone's "poor thing, but mine own," is +godlike in its enveloping fold.' + +'The most comforting sermon ever delivered on property in poverty,' said +Arthur Rhodes. + +Westlake assented. 'His choice of Audrey strikes me as an exhibition of +the sure instinct for pasture of the philosophical jester in a forest.' + +' With nature's woman, if he can find her, the urban seems equally at +home,' said Lady Dunstane. + +'Baron Pawle is an example,' added Whitmonby. 'His cook is a pattern +wife to him. I heard him say at table that she was responsible for all +except the wines. "I wouldn't have them on my conscience, with a Judge!" +my lady retorted.' + +'When poor Madame de Jacquieres was dying,' said Wilmers, 'her confessor +sat by her bedside, prepared for his ministrations. "Pour commencer, mon +ami, jamais je n'ai fait rien hors nature."' + +Lord Wadaster had uttered something tolerably similar: 'I am a sinner, +and in good society.' Sir Abraham Hartiston, a minor satellite of the +Regent, diversified this: 'I am a sinner, and go to good society.' +Madame la Comtesse de la Roche-Aigle, the cause of many deaths, declared +it unwomanly to fear anything save 'les revenants.' Yet the countess +could say the pretty thing: 'Foot on a flower, then think of me!' + +'Sentimentality puts up infant hands for absolution,' said Diana. + +'But tell me,' Lady Dunstane inquired generally, 'why men are so much +happier than women in laughing at their spouses?' + +They are humaner, was one dictum; they are more frivolous, ironically +another. + +'It warrants them for blowing the bugle-horn of masculine superiority +night and morning from the castle-walls,' Diana said. + +'I should imagine it is for joy of heart that they still have cause to +laugh!' said Westlake. + +On the other hand, are women really pained by having to laugh at their +lords? Curious little speeches flying about the great world, affirmed +the contrary. But the fair speakers were chartered libertines, and their +laugh admittedly had a biting acid. The parasite is concerned in the +majesty of the tree. + +'We have entered Botany Bay,' Diana said to Emma; who answered: 'A +metaphor is the Deus ex machine, of an argument'; and Whitmonby, to +lighten a shadow of heaviness, related allusively an anecdote of the Law +Courts. Sullivan Smith begged permission to 'black cap' it with Judge +FitzGerald's sentence upon a convicted criminal: 'Your plot was perfect +but for One above.' Dacier cited an execrable impromptu line of the +Chief of the Opposition in Parliament. The Premier, it was remarked, +played him like an angler his fish on the hook; or say, Mr. Serjeant +Rufus his witness in the box. + +'Or a French journalist an English missionary,' said Westlake; and as the +instance was recent it was relished. + +The talk of Premiers offered Whitmonby occasion for a flight to the Court +of Vienna and Kaunitz. Wilmers told a droll story of Lord Busby's +missing the Embassy there. Westlake furnished a sample of the tranquil +sententiousness of Busby's brother Robert during a stormy debate in the +House of Commons. + +'I remember,' Dacier was reminded, 'hearing him say, when the House +resembled a Chartist riot, "Let us stand aside and meditate on Life. If +Youth could know, in the season of its reaping of the Pleasures, that it +is but sowing Doctor's bills!"' + +Latterly a malady had supervened, and Bob Busby had retired from the +universal to the special;--his mysterious case. + +'Assure him, that is endemic. He may be cured of his desire for the +exposition of it,' said Lady Dunstane. + +Westlake chimed with her: 'Yes, the charm in discoursing of one's case is +over when the individual appears no longer at odds with Providence.' + +'But then we lose our Tragedy,' said Whitmonby. + +'Our Comedy too,' added Diana. 'We must consent to be Busbied for the +sake of the instructive recreations.' + +'A curious idea, though,' said Sullivan Smith, 'that some of the grand +instructive figures were in their day colossal bores!' + +'So you see the marvel of the poet's craft at last?' Diana smiled on him, +and he vowed: 'I'll read nothing else for a month!' Young Rhodes bade him +beware of a deluge in proclaiming it. + +They rose from table at ten, with the satisfaction of knowing that +they had not argued, had not wrangled, had never stagnated, and were +digestingly refreshed; as it should be among grown members of the +civilized world, who mean to practise philosophy, making the hour of +the feast a balanced recreation and a regeneration of body and mind. + +'Evenings like these are worth a pilgrimage,' Emma said, embracing Tony +outside the drawing-room door. 'I am so glad I came: and if I am strong +enough, invite me again in the Spring. To-morrow early I start for +Copsley, to escape this London air. I shall hope to have you there +soon.' + +She was pleased by hearing Tony ask her whether she did not think that +Arthur Rhodes had borne himself well; for it breathed of her simply +friendly soul. + +The gentlemen followed Lady Dunstane in a troop, Dacier yielding perforce +the last adieu to young Rhodes. + +Five minutes later Diana was in her dressing-room, where she wrote at +night, on the rare occasions now when she was left free for composition. +Beginning to dwell on THE MAN OF TWO MINDS, she glanced at the woman +likewise divided, if not similarly; and she sat brooding. She did not +accuse her marriage of being the first fatal step: her error was the step +into Society without the wherewithal to support her position there. +Girls of her kind, airing their wings above the sphere of their birth, +are cryingly adventuresses. As adventuresses they are treated. + +Vain to be shrewish with the world! Rather let us turn and scold our +nature for irreflectively rushing to the cream and honey! Had she +subsisted on her small income in a country cottage, this task of writing +would have been holiday. Or better, if, as she preached to Mary Paynham, +she had apprenticed herself to some productive craft. The simplicity of +the life of labour looked beautiful. What will not look beautiful +contrasted with the fly in the web? She had chosen to be one of the +flies of life. + +Instead of running to composition, her mind was eloquent with a sermon +to Arthur Rhodes, in Redworth's vein; more sympathetically, of course. +'For I am not one of the lecturing Mammonites!' she could say. + +She was far from that. Penitentially, in the thick of her disdain of the +arrogant money-Betters, she pulled out a drawer where her bank-book lay, +and observed it contemplatively; jotting down a reflection before the +dread book of facts was opened: 'Gaze on the moral path you should have +taken, you are asked for courage to commit a sanctioned suicide, by +walking back to it stripped--a skeleton self.' She sighed forth: 'But I +have no courage: I never had!' The book revealed its tale in a small +pencilled computation of the bank-clerk's; on the peccant side. Credit +presented many pages blanks. She seemed to have withdrawn from the +struggle with such a partner. + +It signified an immediate appeal to the usurers, unless the publisher +could be persuaded, with three parts of the book in his hands, to come to +the rescue. Work! roared old Debit, the sinner turned slavedriver. + +Diana smoothed her wrists, compressing her lips not to laugh at the +simulation of an attitude of combat. She took up her pen. + +And strange to think, she could have flowed away at once on the stuff +that Danvers delighted to read!--wicked princes, rogue noblemen, titled +wantons, daisy and lily innocents, traitorous marriages, murders, a +gallows dangling a corpse dotted by a moon, and a woman bowed beneath. +She could have written, with the certainty that in the upper and the +middle as well as in the lower classes of the country, there would be a +multitude to read that stuff, so cordially, despite the gaps between +them, are they one in their literary tastes. And why should they not +read it? Her present mood was a craving for excitement; for incident, +wild action, the primitive machinery of our species; any amount of +theatrical heroics, pathos, and clown-gabble. A panorama of scenes came +sweeping round her. + +She was, however, harnessed to a different kind of vehicle, and had to +drag it. The sound of the house-door shutting, imagined perhaps, was a +fugitive distraction. Now to animate The Man of Two Minds! + +He is courting, but he is burdened with the task of tasks. He has an +ideal of womanhood and of the union of couples: a delicacy extreme as his +attachment: and he must induce the lady to school herself to his ideal, +not allowing her to suspect him less devoted to her person; while she, +an exacting idol, will drink any quantity of idealization as long as he +starts it from a full acceptance of her acknowledged qualities. Diana +could once have tripped the scene along airily. She stared at the +opening sentence, a heavy bit of moralized manufacture, fit to yoke +beside that on her view of her bank-book. + +'It has come to this--I have no head,' she cried. + +And is our public likely to muster the slightest taste for comic analysis +that does not tumble to farce? The doubt reduced her whole MS. to a +leaden weight, composed for sinking. Percy's addiction to burlesque was +a further hindrance, for she did not perceive how her comedy could be +strained to gratify it. + +There was a knock, and Danvers entered. 'You have apparently a liking +for late hours,' observed her mistress. 'I told you to go to bed.' 'It +is Mr. Dacier,' said Danvers. 'He wishes to see me?' 'Yes, ma'am. He +apologized for disturbing you.' 'He must have some good reason.' What +could it be! Diana's glass approved her appearance. She pressed the +black swell of hair above her temples, rather amazed, curious, inclined +to a beating of the heart. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXI + +A CHAPTER CONTAINING GREAT POLITICAL NEWS AND THEREWITH AN INTRUSION OF +THE LOVE-GOD + +Dacier was pacing about the drawing-room, as in a place too narrow for +him. + +Diana stood at the door. 'Have you forgotten to tell me anything I ought +to know?' + +He came up to her and shut the door softly behind her, holding her hand. +'You are near it. I returned . . But tell me first:--You were slightly +under a shadow this evening, dejected.' + +'Did I show it?' + +She was growing a little suspicious, but this cunning touch of lover-like +interest dispersed the shade. + +'To me you did.' + +'It was unpardonable to let it be seen.' + +'No one else could have observed it.' + +Her woman's heart was thrilled; for she had concealed the dejection from +Emma. + +'It was nothing,' she said; 'a knot in the book I am writing. We poor +authors are worried now and then. But you?' + +His face rippled by degrees brightly, to excite a reflection in hers. + +'Shall I tune you with good news? I think it will excuse me for coming +back.' + +'Very good news?' + +'Brave news, as far as it goes.' + +'Then it concerns you!' + +'Me, you, the country.' + +'Oh! do I guess?' cried Diana. 'But speak, pray; I burn.' + +'What am I to have for telling it?' + +'Put no price. You know my heart. I guess--or fancy. It relates to +your Chief?' + +Dacier smiled in a way to show the lock without the key; and she was +insensibly drawn nearer to him, speculating on the smile. + +'Try again,' said he, keenly appreciating the blindness to his motive of +her studious dark eyes, and her open-lipped breathing. + +'Percy! I must be right.' + +'Well, you are. He has decided!' + +'Oh! that is the bravest possible. When did you hear?' + +'He informed me of his final decision this afternoon.' + +'And you were charged with the secret all the evening, and betrayed not a +sign! I compliment the diplomatic statesman. But when will it be +public?' + +'He calls Parliament together the first week of next month.' + +'The proposal is--? No more compromises!' + +'Total!' + +Diana clapped hands; and her aspect of enthusiasm was intoxicating. +'He is a wise man and a gallant Minister! And while you were reading me +through, I was blind to you,' she added meltingly. + +'I have not made too much of it?' said he. + +'Indeed you have not.' + +She was radiant with her dark lightnings, yet visibly subject to him +under the spell of the news he had artfully lengthened out to excite and +overbalance her:--and her enthusiasm was all pointed to his share in the +altered situation, as he well knew and was flattered in knowing. + +'So Tony is no longer dejected? I thought I could freshen you and get my +excuse.' + +'Oh! a high wind will make a dead leaf fly like a bird. I soar. Now I +do feel proud. I have longed for it--to have you leading the country: +not tugged at like a waggon with a treble team uphill. We two are a +month in advance of all England. You stand by him?--only to hear it, for +I am sure of it!' + +'We stand or fall together.' + +Her glowing look doated on the faithful lieutenant. + +'And if the henchman is my hero, I am but a waiting-woman. But I must +admire his leader.' + +'Tony!' + +'Ah! no,' she joined her hands, wondering whither her armed majesty had +fled; 'no softness! no payments! Flatter me by letting me think you +came to a head not a silly woman's heart, with one name on it, as it has +not to betray. I have been frank; you need no proofs . . .' The +supplicating hands left her figure an easy prey to the storm, and were +crushed in a knot on her bosom. She could only shrink. 'Ah! Percy . . +you undo my praise of you--my pride in receiving you.' + +They were speechless perforce. + +'You see, Tony, my dearest, I am flesh and blood after all.' + +'You drive me to be ice and door-bolts!' + +Her eyes broke over him reproachfully. + +'It is not so much to grant,' he murmured. + +'It changes everything between us.' + +'Not me. It binds me the faster.' + +'It makes me a loathsome hypocrite.' + +'But, Tony! is it so much?' + +'Not if you value it low.' + +'But how long do you keep me in this rag-puppet's state of suspension?' + +'Patience.' + +'Dangling and swinging day and night!' + +'The rag-puppet shall be animated and repaid if I have life. I wish to +respect my hero. Have a little mercy. Our day will come: perhaps as +wonderfully as this wonderful news. My friend, drop your hands. Have +you forgotten who I am? I want to think, Percy!' + +'But you are mine.' + +'You are abasing your own.' + +'No, by heaven!' + +'Worse, dear friend; you are lowering yourself to the woman who loves +you.' + +'You must imagine me superhuman.' + +'I worship you--or did.' + +'Be reasonable, Tony. What harm! Surely a trifle of recompense? Just +to let me feel I live! You own you love me. Then I am your lover.' + +'My dear friend Percy, when I have consented to be your paramour, this +kind of treatment of me will not want apologies.' + +The plain speaking from the wound he dealt her was effective with a +gentleman who would never have enjoyed his privileges had he been of a +nature unsusceptible to her distinct wish and meaning. + +He sighed. 'You know how my family bother me. The woman I want, the +only woman I could marry, I can't have.' + +'You have her in soul.' + +'Body and soul, it must be! I believe you were made without fire.' + +'Perhaps. The element is omitted with some of us happily, some think. +Now we can converse. There seems to be a measurement of distances +required before men and women have a chance with their brains:--or before +a man will understand that he can be advised and seconded. When will the +Cabinet be consulted?' + +'Oh, a few days. Promise me . . .' + +'Any honourable promise!' + +'You will not keep me waiting longer than the end of the Session?' + +'Probably there will be an appeal to the country.' + +'In any case, promise me: have some compassion.' + +'Ah, the compassion! You do not choose your words, Percy, or forget who +is the speaker.' + +'It is Tony who forgets the time she has kept her lover dangling. +Promise, and I will wait.' + +'You hurt my hand, sir.' + +'I could crack the knuckles. Promise!' + +'Come to me to-morrow.' + +'To-morrow you are in your armour-triple brass! All creation cries out +for now. We are mounted on barbs and you talk of ambling.' + +'Arthur Rhodes might have spoken that.' + +'Rhodes!' he shook off the name in disgust. 'Pet him as much as you +like; don't . . .' he was unable to phrase his objection. + +She cooled him further with eulogies of the chevaleresque manner of +speaking which young Mr. Rhodes could assume; till for very wrath of +blood--not jealousy: he had none of any man, with her; and not passion; +the little he had was a fitful gust--he punished her coldness by taking +what hastily could be gathered. + +Her shape was a pained submission; and she thought: Where is the woman +who ever knows a man!--as women do think when one of their artifices of +evasion with a lover, or the trick of imposingness, has apparently been +subduing him. But the pain was less than previously, for she was now +mistress of herself, fearing no abysses. + +Dacier released her quickly, saying: 'If I come tomorrow, shall I have +the promise?' + +She answered: 'Be sure I shall not lie.' + +'Why not let me have it before I go?' + +'My friend, to tell you the truth, you have utterly distracted me.' + +'Forgive me if I did hurt your hand.' + +'The hand? You might strike it off.' + +'I can't be other than a mortal lover, Tony. There's the fact.' + +'No; the fault is mine when I am degraded. I trust you: there's the +error.' + +The trial for Dacier was the sight of her quick-lifting; bosom under the +mask of cold language: an attraction and repulsion in union; a delirium +to any lover impelled to trample on weak defences. But the evident pain +he inflicted moved his pity, which helped to restore his conception of +the beauty of her character. She stood so nobly meek. And she was never +prudish, only self-respecting. Although the great news he imparted had +roused an ardent thirst for holiday and a dash out of harness, and he +could hardly check it, he yielded her the lead. + +'Trust me you may,' he said. 'But you know--we are one. The world has +given you to me, me to you. Why should we be asunder? There's no reason +in it.' + +She replied: 'But still I wish to burn a little incense in honour of +myself, or else I cannot live. It is the truth. You make Death my truer +friend, and at this moment I would willingly go out. You would respect +me more dead than alive. I could better pardon you too.' + +He pleaded for the red mouth's pardon, remotely irritated by the +suspicion that she swayed him overmuch: and he had deserved the small +benevolences and donations of love, crumbs and heavenly dews! + +'Not a word of pardon,' said Diana. 'I shall never count an iota against +you "in the dark backward and abysm of Time." This news is great, and I +have sunk beneath it. Come tomorrow. Then we will speak upon whatever +you can prove rational. The hour is getting late.' + +Dacier took a draught of her dark beauty with the crimson he had kindled +over the cheeks. Her lips were firmly closed, her eyes grave; dry, but +seeming to waver tearfully in their heavy fulness. He could not doubt +her love of him; and although chafing at the idea that she swayed him +absurdly--beyond the credible in his world of wag-tongues--he resumed his +natural soberness, as a garment, not very uneasily fitting: whence it +ensued--for so are we influenced by the garb we put on us--that his manly +sentiment of revolt in being condemned to play second, was repressed by +the refreshment breathed on him from her lofty character, the pure jewel +proffered to his, inward ownership. + +'Adieu for the night,' he said, and she smiled. He pressed for a +pressure of her hand. She brightened her smile instead, and said only: +'Good night, Percy.' + + + + +CHAPTER XXXII + +WHEREIN WE BEHOLD A GIDDY TURN AT THE SPECTRAL CROSSWAYS + +Danvers accompanied Mr. Dacier to the house-door. Climbing the stairs, +she found her mistress in the drawing-room still. + +'You must be cold, ma'am,' she said, glancing at the fire-grate. + +'Is it a frost?' said Diana. + +'It's midnight and midwinter, ma'am.' + +'Has it struck midnight?' + +The mantel-piece clock said five minutes past. + +'You had better go to bed, Danvers, or you will lose your bloom. Stop; +you are a faithful soul. Great things are happening and I am agitated. +Mr. Dacier has told me news. He came back purposely.' + +'Yes, ma'am,' said Danvers. 'He had a great deal to tell?' + +'Well, he had.' Diana coloured at the first tentative impertinence she +had heard from her maid. 'What is the secret of you, Danvers? What +attaches you to me?' + +'I'm sure I don't know, ma'am. I'm romantic.' + +'And you think me a romantic object?' + +'I'm sure I can't say, ma'am. I'd rather serve you than any other lady; +and I wish you was happy.' + +'Do you suppose I am unhappy?' + +'I'm sure--but if I may speak, ma'am: so handsome and clever a lady! +and young! I can't bear to see it.' + +'Tush, you silly woman. You read your melting tales, and imagine. +I must go and write for money: it is my profession. And I haven't an +idea in my head. This news disturbs me. Ruin if I don't write; so I +must.--I can't!' + +Diana beheld the ruin. She clasped the great news for succour. Great +indeed: and known but to her of all the outer world. She was ahead of +all--ahead of Mr. Tonans! + +The visionary figure of Mr. Tonans petrified by the great news, drinking +it, and confessing her ahead of him in the race for secrets, arose +toweringly. She had not ever seen the Editor in his den at midnight. +With the rumble of his machinery about him, and fresh matter arriving +and flying into the printing-press, it must be like being in the very +furnace-hissing of Events: an Olympian Council held in Vulcan's smithy. +Consider the bringing to the Jove there news of such magnitude as to +stupefy him! He, too, who had admonished her rather sneeringly for +staleness in her information. But this news, great though it was, +and throbbing like a heart plucked out of a breathing body, throbbed but +for a brief term, a day or two; after which, great though it was, +immense, it relapsed into a common organ, a possession of the multitude, +merely historically curious. + +'You are not afraid of the streets at night?' Diana said to her maid, as +they were going upstairs. + +'Not when we're driving, ma'am,' was the answer. + +THE MAN OF TWO MINDS faced his creatrix in the dressing-room, still +delivering that most ponderous of sentences--a smothering pillow! + +I have mistaken my vocation, thought Diana: I am certainly the flattest +proser who ever penned a line. + +She sent Dangers into the bedroom on a trifling errand, unable to bear +the woman's proximity, and oddly unwilling to dismiss her. + +She pressed her hands on her eyelids. Would Percy have humiliated her +so if he had respected her? He took advantage of the sudden loss of her +habitual queenly initiative at the wonderful news to debase and stain +their intimacy. The lover's behaviour was judged by her sensations: she +felt humiliated, plucked violently from the throne where she had long +been sitting securely, very proudly. That was at an end. If she was to +be better than the loathsomest of hypocrites, she must deny him his +admission to the house. And then what was her life! + +Something that was pressing her low, she knew not how, and left it +unquestioned, incited her to exaggerate the indignity her pride had +suffered. She was a dethroned woman. Deeper within, an unmasked +actress, she said. Oh, she forgave him! But clearly he took her for +the same as other women consenting to receive a privileged visitor. +And sounding herself to the soul, was she so magnificently better? +Her face flamed. She hugged her arms at her breast to quiet the beating, +and dropped them when she surprised herself embracing the memory. He had +brought political news, and treated her as--name the thing! Not +designedly, it might be: her position invited it. 'The world had given +her to him.' The world is always a prophet of the mire; but the world is +no longer an utterly mistaken world. She shook before it. + +She asked herself why Percy or the world should think highly of an +adventuress, who was a denounced wife, a wretched author, and on the +verge of bankruptcy. She was an adventuress. When she held The +Crossways she had at least a bit of solid footing: now gone. An +adventuress without an idea in her head: witness her dullard, +The Man of Two Minds, at his work of sermonizing his mistress. + +The tremendous pressure upon our consciousness of the material cause, +when we find ourselves cast among the breakers of moral difficulties and +endeavour to elude that mudvisaged monster, chiefly by feigning +unconsciousness, was an experience of Diana's, in the crisis to which she +was wrought. Her wits were too acute, her nature too direct, to permit +of a lengthened confusion. She laid the scourge on her flesh smartly. +--I gave him these privileges because I am weak as the weakest, base as +my enemies proclaim me. I covered my woman's vile weakness with an air +of intellectual serenity that he, choosing his moment, tore away, +exposing me to myself, as well as to him, the most ordinary of reptiles. +I kept up a costly household for the sole purpose of seeing him and +having him near me. Hence this bitter need of money!--Either it must be +money or disgrace. Money would assist her quietly to amend and complete +her work. Yes, and this want of money, in a review of the last two +years, was the material cause of her recklessness. It was, her revived +and uprising pudency declared, the principal; the only cause. Mere want +of money. + +And she had a secret worth thousands! The secret of a day, no more: +anybody's secret after some four and twenty hours. + +She smiled at the fancied elongation and stare of the features of Mr. +Tonans in his editorial midnight den. + +What if he knew it and could cap it with something novel and stranger? +Hardly. But it was an inciting suggestion. + +She began to tremble as a lightning-flash made visible her fortunes +recovered, disgrace averted, hours of peace for composition stretching +before her: a summer afternoon's vista. + +It seemed a duel between herself and Mr. Tonans, and she sure of her +triumph--Diana victrix! + +'Danvers!' she called. + +'Is it to undress, ma'am?' said the maid, entering to her. + +'You are not afraid of the streets, you tell me. I have to go down to +the City, I think. It is urgent. Yes, I must go. If I were to impart +the news to you, your head would be a tolling bell for a month.' + +'You will take a cab, ma'am.' + +'We must walk out to find one. I must go, though I should have to go on +foot. Quick with bonnet and shawl; muffle up warmly. We have never been +out so late: but does it matter? You're a brave soul, I'm sure, and you +shall have your fee.' + +'I don't care for money, ma'am.' + +'When we get home you shall kiss me.' + +Danvers clothed her mistress in furs and rich wrappings: Not paid for! +was Diana's desperate thought, and a wrong one; but she had to seem the +precipitated bankrupt and succeeded. She was near being it. The boiling +of her secret carried her through the streets rapidly and unobservantly +except of such small things as the glow of the lights on the pavements +and the hushed cognizance of the houses, in silence to a thoroughfare +where a willing cabman was met. The destination named, he nodded alertly +he had driven gentlemen there at night from the House of Commons, he +said. + +'Our Parliament is now sitting, and you drive ladies,' Diana replied. + +'I hope I know one, never mind the hour,' said he of the capes. + +He was bidden to drive rapidly. + +'Complexion a tulip: you do not often see a pale cabman,' she remarked to +Danvers, who began laughing, as she always expected to do on an excursion +with her mistress. + +'Do you remember, ma'am, the cabman taking us to the coach, when you +thought of going to the continent?' + +'And I went to The Crossways? I have forgotten him.' + +'He declared you was so beautiful a lady he would drive you to the end of +England for nothing.' + +'It must have been when I was paying him. Put it out of your mind, +Danvers, that there are individual cabmen. They are the painted flowers +of our metropolitan thoroughfares, and we gather them in rows.' + +'They have their feelings, ma'am.' + +'Brandied feelings are not pathetic to me.' + +'I like to think kindly of them,' Danvers remarked, in reproof of her +inhumanity; adding: 'They may overturn us!' at which Diana laughed. +Her eyes were drawn to a brawl of women and men in the street. 'Ah! +that miserable sight!' she cried. 'It is the everlasting nightmare of +London.' + +Danvers humped, femininely injured by the notice of it. She wondered her +mistress should deign to. + +Rolling on between the blind and darkened houses, Diana transferred her +sensations to them, and in a fit of the nerves imagined them beholding a +funeral convoy without followers. + +They came in view of the domed cathedral, hearing, in a pause of the +wheels, the bell of the hour. 'Faster--faster! my dear man,' Diana +murmured, and they entered a small still square of many lighted windows. + +'This must be where the morrow is manufactured,' she said. 'Tell the man +to wait.--Or rather it's the mirror of yesterday: we have to look +backward to see forward in life.' + +She talked her cool philosophy to mask her excitement from herself. +Her card, marked: 'Imperative-two minutes,' was taken up to Mr. Tonans. +They ascended to the editorial ante-room. Doors opened and shut, hasty +feet traversed the corridors, a dull hum in dumbness told of mighty +business at work. Diana received the summons to the mighty head of the +establishment. Danvers was left to speculate. She heard the voice of +Mr. Tonans: 'Not more than two!' This was not a place for compliments. +Men passed her, hither and yonder, cursorily noticing the presence of a +woman. She lost, very strangely to her, the sense of her sex and became +an object--a disregarded object. Things of more importance were about. +Her feminine self-esteem was troubled; all idea of attractiveness +expired. Here was manifestly a spot where women had dropped from the +secondary to the cancelled stage of their extraordinary career in a world +either blowing them aloft like soap-bubbles or quietly shelving them as +supernumeraries. A gentleman--sweet vision!--shot by to the editor's +door, without even looking cursorily. He knocked. Mr. Tonans appeared +and took him by the arm, dictating at a great rate; perceived Danvers, +frowned at the female, and requested him to wait in the room, which the +gentleman did, not once casting eye upon a woman. At last her mistress +returned to her, escorted so far by Mr. Tonans, and he refreshingly bent +his back to bow over her hand: so we have the satisfaction of knowing +that we are not such poor creatures after all! Suffering in person, +Danvers was revived by the little show of homage to her sex. + +They descended the stairs. + +'You are not an Editor of a paper, but you may boast that you have been +near the nest of one,' Diana said, when they resumed their seats in the +cab. She breathed deeply from time to time, as if under a weight, or +relieved of it, but she seemed animated, and she dropped now and again a +funny observation of the kind that tickled Danvers and caused the maid to +boast of her everywhere as better than a Play. + +At home, Danvers busied her hands to supply her mistress a cup of +refreshing tea and a plate of biscuits. + +Diana had stunned herself with the strange weight of the expedition, and +had not a thought. In spite of tea at that hour, she slept soundly +through the remainder of the night, dreamlessly till late into the +morning. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIII + +EXHIBITS THE SPRINGING OF A MINE IN A NEWSPAPER ARTICLE + +The powers of harmony would seem to be tried to their shrewdest pitch +when Politics and Love are planted together in a human breast. This +apparently opposite couple can nevertheless chant a very sweet accord, +as was shown by Dacier on his homeward walk from Diana's house. Let Love +lead, the God will make music of any chamber-comrade. He was able to +think of affairs of State while feeling the satisfied thirst of the lover +whose pride, irritated by confidential wild eulogies of the beautiful +woman, had recently clamoured for proofs of his commandership. The +impression she stamped on him at Copsley remained, but it could not +occupy the foreground for ever. He did not object to play second to her +sprightly wits in converse, if he had some warm testimony to his mastery +over her blood. For the world had given her to him, enthusiastic friends +had congratulated him: she had exalted him for true knightliness; and he +considered the proofs well earned, though he did not value them low. +They were little by comparison. They lighted, instead of staining, her +unparalleled high character. + +She loved him. Full surely did she love him, or such a woman would never +have consented to brave the world; once in their project of flight, and +next, even more endearingly when contemplated, in the sacrifice of her +good name; not omitting that fervent memory of her pained submission, +but a palpitating submission, to his caress. She was in his arms again +at the thought of it. He had melted her, and won the confession of her +senses by a surprise, and he owned that never had woman been so +vigilantly self-guarded or so watchful to keep her lover amused and +aloof. Such a woman deserved long service. But then the long service +deserved its time of harvest. Her surging look of reproach in submission +pointed to the golden time, and as he was a man of honour, pledged to her +for life, he had no remorse, and no scruple in determining to exact her +dated promise, on this occasion deliberately. She was the woman to be +his wife; she was his mind's mate: they had hung apart in deference to +mere scruples too long. During the fierce battle of the Session she +would be his help, his fountain of counsel; and she would be the rosy +gauze-veiled more than cold helper and adviser, the being which would +spur her womanly intelligence to acknowledge, on this occasion +deliberately, the wisdom of the step. They had been so close to it! +She might call it madness then: now it was wisdom. Each had complete +experience of the other, and each vowed the step must be taken. +As to the secret communicated, he exulted in the pardonable cunning of +the impulse turning him back to her house after the guests had gone, and +the dexterous play of his bait on the line, tempting her to guess and +quit her queenly guard. Though it had not been distinctly schemed, the +review of it in that light added to the enjoyment. It had been dimly and +richly conjectured as a hoped result. Small favours from her were really +worth, thrice worth, the utmost from other women. They tasted the +sweeter for the winning of them artfully--an honourable thing in love. +Nature, rewarding the lover's ingenuity and enterprise, inspires him +with old Greek notions of right and wrong: and love is indeed a fluid +mercurial realm, continually shifting the principles of rectitude and +larceny. As long as he means nobly, what is there to condemn him? Not +she in her heart. She was the presiding divinity. + +And she, his Tony, that splendid Diana, was the woman the world abused! +Whom will it not abuse? + +The slough she would have to plunge in before he could make her his own +with the world's consent, was already up to her throat. She must, and +without further hesitation, be steeped, that he might drag her out, +washed of the imputed defilement, and radiant, as she was in character. +Reflection now said this; not impulse. Her words rang through him. +At every meeting she said things to confound his estimate of the wits of +women, or be remembered for some spirited ring they had: A high wind will +make a dead leaf fly like a bird. He murmured it and flew with her. +She quickened a vein of imagination that gave him entrance to a strangely +brilliant sphere, above his own, where, she sustaining, he too could +soar; and he did, scarce conscious of walking home, undressing, falling +asleep. + +The act of waking was an instantaneous recovery of his emotional rapture +of the overnight; nor was it a bar to graver considerations. His Chief +had gone down to a house in the country; his personal business was to see +and sound the followers of their party--after another sight of his Tony. +She would be sure to counsel sagaciously; she always did. She had a +marvellous intuition of the natures of the men he worked with, solely +from his chance descriptions of them; it was as though he started the +bird and she transfixed it. And she should not have matter to rule her +smooth brows: that he swore to. She should sway him as she pleased, be +respected after her prescribed manner. The promise must be exacted; +nothing besides, promise.--You see, Tony, you cannot be less than Tony to +me now, he addressed the gentle phantom of her. Let me have your word, +and I am your servant till the Session ends.--Tony blushes her swarthy +crimson: Diana, fluttering, rebukes her; but Diana is the appeasable +Goddess; Tony is the woman, and she loves him. The glorious Goddess need +not cut them adrift; they can show her a book of honest pages. + +Dacier could truthfully say he had worshipped, done knightly service to +the beloved woman, homage to the aureole encircling her. Those friends +of his, covertly congratulating him on her preference, doubtless thought +him more privileged than he was; but they did not know Diana; and they +were welcome, if they would only believe, to the knowledge that he was +at the feet of this most sovereign woman. He despised the particular +Satyr-world which, whatever the nature or station of the woman, crowns +the desecrator, and bestows the title of Fool on the worshipper. He +could have answered veraciously that she had kept him from folly. + +Nevertheless the term to service must come. In the assurance of the +approaching term he stood braced against a blowing world; happy as men +are when their muscles are strung for a prize they pluck with the energy +and aim of their whole force. + +Letters and morning papers were laid for him to peruse in his dressing- +room. He read his letters before the bath. Not much public news was +expected at the present season. While dressing, he turned over the +sheets of Whitmonby's journal. Dull comments on stale things. Foreign +news. Home news, with the leaders on them, identically dull. Behold the +effect of Journalism: a witty man, sparkling overnight, gets into his +pulpit and proses; because he must say something, and he really knows +nothing. + +Journalists have an excessive overestimate of their influence. They +cannot, as Diana said, comparing them with men on the Parliamentary +platform, cannot feel they are aboard the big vessel; they can only +strive to raise a breeze, or find one to swell; and they cannot measure +the stoutness or the greatness of the good ship England. Dacier's +personal ambition was inferior to his desire to extend and strengthen his +England. Parliament was the field, Government the office. How many +conversations had passed between him and Diana on that patriotic dream! +She had often filled his drooping sails; he owned it proudly:--and while +the world, both the hoofed and the rectilinear portions, were biting at +her character! Had he fretted her self-respect? He blamed himself, but +a devoted service must have its term. + +The paper of Mr. Tonans was reserved for perusal at breakfast. He +reserved it because Tonans was an opponent, tricksy and surprising now +and then, amusing too; unlikely to afford him serious reflections. The +recent endeavours of his journal to whip the Government-team to a right- +about-face were annoying, preposterous. Dacier had admitted to Diana +that Tonans merited the thanks of the country during 'the discreditable +Railway mania, when his articles had a fine exhortative and prophetic +twang, and had done marked good. Otherwise, as regarded the Ministry, +the veering gusts of Tonans were objectionable: he 'raised the breeze' +wantonly as well as disagreeably. Any one can whip up the populace if he +has the instruments; and Tonans frequently intruded on the Ministry's +prerogative to govern. The journalist was bidding against the statesman. +But such is the condition of a rapidly Radicalizing country! We must +take it as it is. + +With a complacent, What now, Dacier fixed his indifferent eyes on the +first column of the leaders. He read, and his eyes grew horny. He +jerked back at each sentence, electrified, staring. The article was +shorter than usual. Total Repeal was named; the precise date when the +Minister intended calling Parliament together to propose it. The 'Total +Repeal' might be guess-work--an Editor's bold stroke; but the details, +the date, were significant of positive information. The Minister's +definite and immediate instructions were exactly stated. + +Where could the fellow have got hold of that? Dacier asked the blank +ceiling. + +He frowned at vacant corners of the room in an effort to conjure some +speculation indicative of the source. + +Had his Chief confided the secret to another and a traitor? Had they +been overheard in his library when the project determined on was put in +plain speech? + +The answer was no, impossible, to each question. + +He glanced at Diana. She? But it was past midnight when he left her. +And she would never have betrayed him, never, never. To imagine it a +moment was an injury to her. + +Where else could he look? It had been specially mentioned in the +communication as a secret by his Chief, who trusted him and no others. +Up to the consultation with the Cabinet, it was a thing to be guarded +like life itself. Not to a soul except Diana would Dacier have breathed +syllable of any secret--and one of this weight! + +He ran down the article again. There were the facts; undeniable facts; +and they detonated with audible roaring and rounding echoes of them over +England. How did they come there? As well inquire how man came on the, +face of the earth. + +He had to wipe his forehead perpetually. Think as he would in exaltation +of Diana to shelter himself, he was the accused. He might not be the +guilty, but he had opened his mouth; and though it was to her only, and +she, as Dunstane had sworn, true as steel, he could not escape +condemnation. He had virtually betrayed his master. Diana would never +betray her lover, but the thing was in the air as soon as uttered: and +off to the printing-press! Dacier's grotesque fancy under annoyance +pictured a stream of small printer's devils in flight from his babbling +lips. + +He consumed bits of breakfast, with a sour confession that a newspaper- +article had hit him at last, and stunningly. + +Hat and coat were called for. The state of aimlessness in hot perplexity +demands a show of action. Whither to go first was as obscure as what to +do. Diana said of the Englishman's hat and coat, that she supposed they +were to make him a walking presentment of the house he had shut up behind +him. A shot of the eye at the glass confirmed the likeness, but with a +ruefully wry-faced repudiation of it internally:--Not so shut up! the +reverse of that-a common babbler. + +However, there was no doubt of Diana. First he would call on her. The +pleasantest dose in perturbations of the kind is instinctively taken +first. She would console, perhaps direct him to guess how the secret had +leaked. But so suddenly, immediately! It was inexplicable. + +Sudden and immediate consequences were experienced. On the steps of his +house his way was blocked by the arrival of Mr. Quintin Manx, who jumped +out of a cab, bellowing interjections and interrogations in a breath. +Was there anything in that article? He had read it at breakfast, and it +had choked him. Dacier was due at a house and could not wait: he said, +rather sharply, he was not responsible for newspaper articles. Quintin +Manx, a senior gentleman and junior landowner, vowed that no Minister +intending to sell the country should treat him as a sheep. The shepherd +might go; he would not carry his flock with him. But was there a twinkle +of probability in the story? . . . that article! Dacier was unable +to inform him; he was very hurried, had to keep an appointment. + +'If I let you go, will you come and lunch with me at two?' said Quintin. + +To get rid of him, Dacier nodded and agreed. + +'Two o'clock, mind!' was bawled at his heels as he walked off with his +long stride, unceremoniously leaving the pursy gentleman of sixty to +settle with his cabman far to the rear. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIV + +IN WHICH IT IS DARKLY SEEN HOW THE CRIMINAL'S JUDGE MAY BE LOVE'S +CRIMINAL + +When we are losing balance on a precipice we do not think much of the +thing we have clutched for support. Our balance is restored and we have +not fallen; that is the comfortable reflection: we stand as others do, +and we will for the future be warned to avoid the dizzy stations which +cry for resources beyond a common equilibrium, and where a slip +precipitates us to ruin. + +When, further, it is a woman planted in a burning blush, having to +idealize her feminine weakness, that she may not rebuke herself for +grovelling, the mean material acts by which she sustains a tottering +position are speedily swallowed in the one pervading flame. She sees +but an ashen curl of the path she has traversed to safety, if anything. + +Knowing her lover was to come in the morning, Diana's thoughts dwelt +wholly upon the way to tell him, as tenderly as possible without danger +to herself, that her time for entertaining was over until she had +finished her book; indefinitely, therefore. The apprehension of his +complaining pricked the memory that she had something to forgive. He had +sunk her in her own esteem by compelling her to see her woman's softness. +But how high above all other men her experience of him could place him +notwithstanding! He had bowed to the figure of herself, dearer than +herself, that she set before him: and it was a true figure to the world; +a too fictitious to any but the most knightly of lovers. She forgave; +and a shudder seized her.--Snake! she rebuked the delicious run of fire +through her veins; for she vas not like the idol women of imperishable +type, who are never for a twinkle the prey of the blood: statues created +by man's common desire to impress upon the sex his possessing pattern of +them as domestic decorations. + +When she entered the room to Dacier and they touched hands, she rejoiced +in her coolness, without any other feeling or perception active. Not to +be unkind, not too kind: this was her task. She waited for the passage +of commonplaces. + +'You slept well, Percy?' + +'Yes; and you?' + +'I don't think I even dreamed.' + +They sat. She noticed the cloud on him and waited for his allusion to +it, anxious concerning him simply. + +Dacier flung the hair off his temples. Words of Titanic formation were +hurling in his head at journals and journalists. He muttered his disgust +of them. + +'Is there anything to annoy you in the papers to-day?' she asked, and +thought how handsome his face was in anger. + +The paper of Mr. Tonans was named by him. 'You have not seen it? + +'I have not opened it yet.' + +He sprang up. 'The truth is, those fellows can now afford to buy right +and left, corrupt every soul alive! There must have been a spy at the +keyhole. I'm pretty certain--I could swear it was not breathed to any +ear but mine; and there it is this morning in black and white.' + +'What is?' cried Diana, turning to him on her chair. + +'The thing I told you last night.' + +Her lips worked, as if to spell the thing. 'Printed, do you say?' she +rose. + +'Printed. In a leading article, loud as a trumpet; a hue and cry running +from end to end of the country. And my Chief has already had the +satisfaction of seeing the secret he confided to me yesterday roared in +all the thoroughfares this morning. They've got the facts: his decision +to propose it, and the date--the whole of it! But who could have +betrayed it?' + +For the first time since her midnight expedition she felt a sensation of +the full weight of the deed. She heard thunder. + +She tried to disperse the growing burden by an inward summons to contempt +of the journalistic profession, but nothing would come. She tried to +minimize it, and her brain succumbed. Her views of the deed last night +and now throttled reason in two contending clutches. The enormity +swelled its dimensions, taking shape, and pointing magnetically at her. +She stood absolutely, amazedly, bare before it. + +'Is it of such very great importance?' she said, like one supplicating +him to lessen it. + +'A secret of State? If you ask whether it is of great importance to me, +relatively it is of course. Nothing greater. Personally my conscience +is clear. I never mentioned it--couldn't have mentioned it--to any one +but you. I'm not the man to blab secrets. He spoke to me because he +knew he could trust me. To tell you the truth, I'm brought to a dead +stop. I can't make a guess. + +I'm certain, from what he said, that he trusted me only with it: +perfectly certain. I know him well. He was in his library, speaking in +his usual conversational tone, deliberately, nor overloud. He stated +that it was a secret between us.' + +'Will it affect him?' + +'This article? Why, naturally it will. You ask strange questions. A +Minister coming to a determination like that! It affects him vitally. +The members of the Cabinet are not so devoted . . . . It affects us +all--the whole Party; may split it to pieces! There's no reckoning the +upset right and left. If it were false, it could be refuted; we could +despise it as a trick of journalism. It's true. There's the mischief. +Tonans did not happen to call here last night?--absurd! I left later +than twelve.' + +'No, but let me hear,' Diana said hurriedly, for the sake of uttering the +veracious negative and to slur it over. 'Let me hear . . .' She could +not muster an idea. + +Her delicious thrilling voice was a comfort to him. He lifted his breast +high and thumped it, trying to smile. 'After all, it's pleasant being +with you, Tony. Give me your hand--you may: I 'm bothered--confounded by +this morning surprise. It was like walking against the muzzle of a +loaded cannon suddenly unmasked. One can't fathom the mischief it will +do. And I shall be suspected, and can't quite protest myself the +spotless innocent. Not even to my heart's mistress! to the wife of the +bosom! I suppose I'm no Roman. You won't give me your hand? Tony, you +might, seeing I am rather . . .' + +A rush of scalding tears flooded her eyes. + +'Don't touch me,' she said, and forced her sight to look straight at him +through the fiery shower. 'I have done positive mischief?' + +'You, my dear Tony?' He doated on her face. 'I don't blame you, I blame +myself. These things should never be breathed. Once in the air, the +devil has hold of them. Don't take it so much to heart. The thing's bad +enough to bear as it is. Tears! Let me have the hand. I came, on my +honour, with the most honest intention to submit to your orders: but if I +see you weeping in sympathy!' + +'Oh! for heaven's sake,' she caught her hands away from him, 'don't be +generous. Whip me with scorpions. And don't touch me,' cried Diana. +'Do you understand? You did not name it as a secret. I did not imagine +it to be a secret of immense, immediate importance.' + +'But--what?' shouted Dacier, stiffening. + +He wanted her positive meaning, as she perceived, having hoped that it +was generally taken and current, and the shock to him over. + +'I had . . . I had not a suspicion of doing harm, Percy.' + +'But what harm have you done? No riddles!' + +His features gave sign of the break in their common ground, the widening +gulf. + +'I went . . . it was a curious giddiness: I can't account for it. I +thought . . .' + +'Went? You went where?' + +'Last night. I would speak intelligibly: my mind has gone. Ah! you +look. It is not so bad as my feeling.' + +'But where did you go last night? What!--to Tonans?' + +She drooped her head: she saw the track of her route cleaving the +darkness in a demoniacal zig-zag and herself in demon's grip. + +'Yes,' she confronted him. 'I went to Mr. Tonans.' + +'Why?' + +'I went to him--' + +'You went alone?' + +'I took my maid.' + +'Well?' + +'It was late when you left me . . .' + +'Speak plainly!' + +'I am trying: I will tell you all.' + +'At once, if you please.' + +'I went to him--why? There is no accounting for it. He sneered +constantly at my stale information.' + +'You gave him constant information?' + +'No: in our ordinary talk. He railed at me for being "out of it." I +must be childish: I went to show him--oh! my vanity! I think I must have +been possessed.' + +She watched the hardening of her lover's eyes. They penetrated, and +through them she read herself insufferably. + +But it was with hesitation still that he said: 'Then you betrayed me?' + +'Percy! I had not a suspicion of mischief.' + +'You went straight to this man?' + +'Not thinking . . .' + +'You sold me to a journalist!' + +'I thought it was a secret of a day. I don't think you--no, you did not +tell me to keep it secret. A word from you would have been enough. I +was in extremity.' + +Dacier threw his hands up and broke away. He had an impulse to dash from +the room, to get a breath of different air. He stood at the window, +observing tradesmen's carts, housemaids, blank doors, dogs, a beggar +fifer. Her last words recurred to him. He turned: 'You were in +extremity, you said. What is the meaning of that? What extremity?' + +Her large dark eyes flashed powerlessly; her shape appeared to have +narrowed; her tongue, too, was a feeble penitent. + +'You ask a creature to recall her acts of insanity.' + +'There must be some signification in your words, I suppose.' + +'I will tell you as clearly as I can. You have the right to be my judge. +I was in extremity--that is, I saw no means . . . I could not write: +it was ruin coming.' + +'Ah?--you took payment for playing spy?' + +'I fancied I could retrieve . . . Now I see the folly, the baseness. +I was blind.' + +'Then you sold me to a journalist for money?' + +The intolerable scourge fetched a stifled scream from her and drove her +pacing, but there was no escape; she returned to meet it. + +The room was a cage to both of them, and every word of either was a +sting. + +'Percy, I did not imagine he would use it--make use of it as he has +done.' + +'Not? And when he paid for it?' + +'I fancied it would be merely of general service--if any.' + +'Distributed; I see: not leading to the exposure of the communicant!' + +'You are harsh; but I would not have you milder.' + +The meekness of such a mischief-doer was revolting and called for the +lash. + +'Do me the favour to name the sum. I am curious to learn what my +imbecility was counted worth.' + +'No sum was named.' + +'Have I been bought for a song?' + +'It was a suggestion--no definite . . . nothing stipulated.' + +'You were to receive money!' + +'Leave me a bit of veiling! No, you shall behold me the thing I am. +Listen . . . I was poor . . .' + +'You might have applied to me.' + +'For money! That I could not do: + +'Better than betraying me, believe me.' + +'I had no thought of betraying. I hope I could have died rather than +consciously betray.' + +'Money! My whole fortune was at your, disposal.' + +'I was beset with debts, unable to write, and, last night when you left +me, abject. It seemed to me that you disrespected me . . .' + +'Last night!' Dacier cried with lashing emphasis. + +'It is evident to me that I have the reptile in me, Percy. Or else I am +subject to lose my reason. I went . . . I went like a bullet: I +cannot describe it; I was mad. I need a strong arm, I want help. I am +given to think that I do my best and can be independent; I break down. +I went blindly--now I see it--for the chance of recovering my position, +as the gambler casts; and he wins or loses. With me it is the soul that +is lost. No exact sum was named; thousands were hinted.' + +'You are hardly practical on points of business.' + +'I was insane.' + +'I think you said you slept well after it,' Dacier remarked. + +'I had so little the idea of having done evilly, that I slept without a +dream.' + +He shrugged:--the consciences of women are such smooth deeps, or running +shallows. + +'I have often wondered how your newspaper men got their information,' he +said, and muttered: 'Money-women!' adding: 'Idiots to prime them! And I +one of the leaky vessels! Well, we learn. I have been rather astonished +at times of late at the scraps of secret knowledge displayed by Tonans. +If he flourishes his thousands! The wonder is, he doesn't corrupt the +Ministers' wives. Perhaps he does. Marriage will become a danger-sign +to Parliamentary members. Foreign women do these tricks . . . women +of a well-known stamp. It is now a full year, I think, since I began to +speak to you of secret matters--and congratulated myself, I recollect, +on your thirst for them.' + +'Percy, if you suspect that I have uttered one word before last night, +you are wrong. I cannot paint my temptation or my loss of sense last +night. Previously I was blameless. I thirsted, yes; but in the hope of +helping you.' + +He looked at her. She perceived how glitteringly loveless his eyes had +grown. It was her punishment; and though the enamoured woman's heart +protested it excessive, she accepted it. + +'I can never trust you again,' he said. + +'I fear you will not,' she replied. + +His coming back to her after the departure of the guests last night shone +on him in splendid colours of single-minded loverlike devotion. 'I came +to speak to my own heart. I thought it would give you pleasure; thought +I could trust you utterly. I had not the slightest conception I was +imperilling my honour . . . !' + +He stopped. Her bloodless fixed features revealed an intensity of +anguish that checked him. Only her mouth, a little open for the sharp +breath, appeared dumbly beseeching. Her large eyes met his like steel to +steel, as of one who would die fronting the weapon. + +He strangled a loathsome inclination to admire. + +'So good bye,' he said. + +She moved her lips. + +He said no more. In half a minute he was gone. + +To her it was the plucking of life out of her breast. + +She pressed her hands where heart had been. The pallor and cold of death +took her body. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXV + +REVEALS HOW THE TRUE HEROINE OF ROMANCE COMES FINALLY TO HER, TIME OF +TRIUMPH + +The shutting of her house-door closed for Dacier that woman's history in +connection with himself. He set his mind on the consequences of the act +of folly--the trusting a secret to a woman. All were possibly not so +bad: none should be trusted. + +The air of the street fanned him agreeably as he revolved the horrible +project of confession to the man who had put faith in him. Particulars +might be asked. She would be unnamed, but an imagination of the effect +of naming her placarded a notorious woman in fresh paint: two members of +the same family her victims! + +And last night, no later than last night, he had swung round at this very +corner of the street to give her the fullest proof of his affection. He +beheld a dupe trotting into a carefully-laid pitfall. She had him by the +generosity of his confidence in her. Moreover, the recollection of her +recent feeble phrasing, when she stood convicted of the treachery, when a +really clever woman would have developed her resources, led him to doubt +her being so finely gifted. She was just clever enough to hoodwink. He +attributed the dupery to a trick of imposing the idea of her virtue upon +men. Attracted by her good looks and sparkle, they entered the circle of +her charm, became delightfully intimate, suffered a rebuff, and were from +that time prepared to serve her purpose. How many other wretched dupes +had she dangling? He spied at Westlake, spied at Redworth, at old Lord +Larrian, at Lord Dannisburgh, at Arthur Rhodes, dozens. Old and young +were alike to her if she saw an end to be gained by keeping them hooked. +Tonans too, and Whitmonby. Newspaper editors were especially +serviceable. Perhaps 'a young Minister of State' held the foremost rank +in that respect: if completely duped and squeezeable, he produced more +substantial stuff. + +The background of ice in Dacier's composition was brought to the front by +his righteous contempt of her treachery. No explanation of it would have +appeased him. She was guilty, and he condemned her. She stood condemned +by all the evil likely to ensue from her misdeed. Scarcely had he left +her house last night when she was away to betray him!--He shook her from +him without a pang. Crediting her with the one merit she had--that of +not imploring for mercy--he the more easily shook her off. Treacherous, +she had not proved theatrical. So there was no fuss in putting out her +light, and it was done. He was justified by the brute facts. +Honourable, courteous, kindly gentleman, highly civilized, an excellent +citizen and a patriot, he was icy at an outrage to his principles, and in +the dominion of Love a sultan of the bow-string and chopper period, +sovereignly endowed to stretch a finger for the scimitared Mesrour to +make the erring woman head and trunk with one blow: and away with those +remnants! This internally he did. Enough that the brute facts justified +him. + +St. James's park was crossed, and the grass of the Green park, to avoid +inquisitive friends. He was obliged to walk; exercise, action of any +sort, was imperative, and but for some engagement he would have gone to +his fencing-rooms for a bout with the master. He remembered his +engagement and grew doubly embittered. He had absurdly pledged himself +to lunch with Quintin Manx; that was, to pretend to eat while submitting +to be questioned by a political dullard strong on his present right to +overhaul and rail at his superiors. The house was one of a block along +the North-Western line of Hyde park. He kicked at the subjection to go +there, but a promise was binding, though he gave it when stunned. He +could have silenced Mr. Manx with the posing interrogation: Why have I so +long consented to put myself at the mercy of a bore? For him, he could +not answer it, though Manx, as leader of the Shipping interest, was +influential. The man had to be endured, like other doses in politics. + +Dacier did not once think of the great ship-owner's niece till Miss +Constance Asper stepped into her drawing-room to welcome him. She was an +image of repose to his mind. The calm pure outline of her white features +refreshed him as the Alps the Londoner newly alighted at Berne; smoke, +wrangle, the wrestling city's wickedness, behind him. + +'My uncle is very disturbed,' she said. 'Is the news--if I am not very +indiscreet in inquiring?' + +'I have a practice of never paying attention to newspaper articles,' +Dacier replied. + +'I am only affected by living with one who does,' Miss Asper observed, +and the lofty isolation of her head above politics gave her a moral +attractiveness in addition to physical beauty. Her water-colour sketches +were on her uncle's walls: the beautiful in nature claimed and absorbed +her. She dressed with a pretty rigour, a lovely simplicity, picturesque +of the nunnery. She looked indeed a high-born young lady-abbess. + +'It's a dusty game for ladies,' Dacier said, abhorring the women defiled +by it. + +And when one thinks of the desire of men to worship women, there is a +pathos in a man's discovery of the fair young creature undefiled by any +interest in public affairs, virginal amid her bower's environments. + +The angelical beauty of a virgin mind and person captivated him, by +contrast. His natural taste was to admire it, shunning the lures and +tangles of the women on high seas, notably the married: who, by the way, +contrive to ensnare us through wonderment at a cleverness caught from +their traffic with the masculine world: often--if we did but know!-- +a parrot-repetition of the last male visitor's remarks. But that which +the fair maiden speaks, though it may be simple, is her own. + +She too is her own: or vowed but to one. She is on all sides impressive +in purity. The world worships her as its perfect pearl: and we are +brought refreshfully to acknowledge that the world is right. + +By contrast, the white radiation of Innocence distinguished Constance +Asper celestially. As he was well aware, she had long preferred him-- +the reserved among many pleading pressing suitors. Her steady +faithfulness had fed on the poorest crumbs. + +He ventured to express the hope that she was well. + +'Yes,' she answered, with eyelids lifted softly to thank him for his +concern in so humble a person. + +'You look a little pale,' he said. + +She coloured like a sea-water shell. 'I am inclined to paleness by +nature.' + +Her uncle disturbed them. Lunch was ready. He apologized for the +absence of Mrs. Markland, a maternal aunt of Constance, who kept house +for them. Quintin Manx fell upon the meats, and then upon the Minister. +Dacier found himself happily surprised by the accession of an appetite. +He mentioned it, to escape from the worrying of his host, as unusual with +him at midday: and Miss Asper, supporting him in that effort, said +benevolently: 'Gentlemen should eat; they have so many fatigues and +troubles.' She herself did not like to be seen eating in public. Her +lips opened to the morsels, as with a bird's bill, though with none of +the pecking eagerness we complacently observe in poultry. + +'But now, I say, positively, how about that article?' said Quintin. + +Dacier visibly winced, and Constance immediately said 'Oh! spare us +politics, dear uncle.' + +Her intercession was without avail, but by contrast with the woman +implicated in the horrible article, it was a carol of the seraphs. + +'Come, you can say whether there's anything in it,' Dacier's host pushed +him. + +'I should not say it if I could,' he replied. + +The mild sweetness of Miss Asper's look encouraged him. + +He was touched to the quick by hearing her say: 'You ask for Cabinet +secrets, uncle. All secrets are holy, but secrets of State are under a +seal next to divine.' + +Next to divine! She was the mouthpiece of his ruling principle. + +'I 'm not, prying into secrets,' Quintin persisted; 'all I want to know +is, whether there 's any foundation for that article--all London's +boiling about it, I can tell you--or it's only newspaper's humbug.' + +'Clearly the oracle for you is the Editor's office,' rejoined Dacier. + +'A pretty sort of answer I should get.' + +'It would at least be complimentary.' + +'How do you mean?' + +'The net was cast for you--and the sight of a fish in it!' + +Miss Asper almost laughed. 'Have you heard the choir at St. +Catherine's?' she asked. + +Dacier had not. He repented of his worldliness, and drinking persuasive +claret, said he would go to hear it next Sunday. + +'Do,' she murmured. + +'Well, you seem to be a pair against me,' her uncle grumbled. 'Anyhow I +think it's important. People have been talking for some time, and I +don't want to be taken unawares; I won't be a yoked ox, mind you.' + +'Have you been sketching lately?' Dacier asked Miss Asper. + +She generally filled a book in the autumn, she said. + +'May I see it?' + +'If you wish.' + +They had a short tussle with her uncle and escaped. He was conducted to +a room midway upstairs: an heiress's conception of a saintly little room; +and more impresive in purity, indeed it was, than a saint's, with the +many crucifixes, gold and silver emblems, velvet prie-Dieu chairs, jewel- +clasped sacred volumes: every invitation to meditate in luxury on an +ascetic religiousness. + +She depreciated her sketching powers. 'I am impatient with my +imperfections. I am therefore doomed not to advance.' + +'On the contrary, that is the state guaranteeing ultimate excellence,' +he said, much disposed to drone about it. + +She sighed: 'I fear not.' + +He turned the leaves, comparing her modesty with the performance. The +third of the leaves was a subject instantly recognized by him. It +represented the place he had inherited from Lord Dannisburgh. + +He named it. + +She smiled: 'You are good enough to see a likeness? My aunt and I were +passing it last October, and I waited for a day, to sketch.' + +'You have taken it from my favourite point of view.' + +'I am glad.' + +'How much I should like a copy!' + +'If you will accept that?' + +'I could not rob you.' + +'I can make a duplicate.' + +'The look of the place pleases you?' + +'Oh! yes; the pines behind it; the sweet little village church; even +the appearance of the rustics;--it is all impressively old English. +I suppose you are very seldom there?' + +'Does it look like a home to you?' + +'No place more!' + +'I feel the loneliness.' + +'Where I live I feel no loneliness!' + +'You have heavenly messengers near you.' + +'They do not always come.' + +'Would you consent to make the place less lonely to me?' + +Her bosom rose. In deference to her maidenly understanding, she gazed +inquiringly. + +'If you love it!' said he. + +'The place?' she said, looking soft at the possessor. + +'Constance!' + +'Is it true?' + +'As you yourself. Could it be other than true? This hand is mine?' + +'Oh! Percy.' + +Borrowing the world's poetry to describe them, the long prayed-for Summer +enveloped the melting snows. + +So the recollection of Diana's watch beside his uncle's death-bed was +wiped out. Ay, and the hissing of her treachery silenced. This maidenly +hand put him at peace with the world, instead of his defying it for a +worthless woman--who could not do better than accept the shelter of her +husband's house, as she ought to be told, if her friends wished her to +save her reputation. + +Dacier made his way downstairs to Quintin Manx, by whom he was hotly +congratulated and informed of the extent of the young lady's fortune: +on the strength of which it was expected that he would certainly speak a +private word in elucidation of that newspaper article. + +'I know nothing of it,' said Dacier, but promised to come and dine. +Alone in her happiness Constance Asper despatched various brief notes +under her gold-symbolled crest to sisterly friends; one to Lady Wathin, +containing the, single line: + +'Your prophesy is confirmed.' + +Dacier was comfortably able to face his Club after the excitement of a +proposal, with a bride on his hands. He was assaulted concerning the +article, and he parried capitally. Say that her lips were rather cold: +at any rate, they invigorated him. Her character was guaranteed--not the +hazy idea of a dupe. And her fortune would be enormous: a speculation +merely due to worldly prudence and prospective ambition. + +At the dinner-table of four, in the evening, conversation would have +seemed dull to him, by contrast, had it not, been for the presiding grace +of his bride, whose habitually eminent feminine air of superiority to the +repast was throned by her appreciative receptiveness of his looks and +utterances. Before leaving her, he won her consent to a very early +marriage; on the plea of a possibly approaching Session, and also that +they had waited long. The consent, notwithstanding the hurry of +preparations, it involved, besides the annihilation of her desire to +meditate on so solemn a change in her life and savour the congratulations +of her friends and have the choir of St. Catherine's rigorously drilled +in her favourite anthems was beautifully yielded to the pressure of +circumstances. + +There lay on his table at night a letter; a bulky letter. No need to +tear it open for sight of the signature: the superscription was redolent +of that betraying woman. He tossed it unopened into the fire. + +As it was thick, it burned sullenly, discolouring his name on the +address, as she had done, and still offering him a last chance of viewing +the contents. She fought on the consuming fire to have her exculpation +heard. + +But was she not a shameless traitor? She had caught him by his love of +his country and hope to serve it. She had wound into his heart to bleed +him of all he knew and sell the secrets for money. A wonderful sort of +eloquence lay there, on those coals, no doubt. He felt a slight movement +of curiosity to glance at two or three random sentences: very slight. +And why read them now? They were valueless to him, mere outcries. He +judged her by the brute facts. She and her slowly-consuming letter were +of a common blackness. Moreover, to read them when he was plighted to +another woman would be senseless. In the discovery of her baseness, she +had made a poor figure. Doubtless during the afternoon she had trimmed +her intuitive Belial art of making 'the worse appear the better cause': +queer to peruse, and instructive in an unprofitable department of +knowledge-the tricks of the sex. + +He said to himself, with little intuition of the popular taste: She +wouldn't be a bad heroine of Romance! He said it derisively of the +Romantic. But the right worshipful heroine of Romance was the front-face +female picture he had won for his walls. Poor Diana was the flecked +heroine of Reality: not always the same; not impeccable; not an ignorant- +innocent, nor a guileless: good under good leading; devoted to the death +in a grave crisis; often wrestling with her terrestrial nature nobly; and +a growing soul; but not one whose purity was carved in marble for the +assurance to an Englishman that his possession of the changeless thing +defies time and his fellows, is the pillar of his home and universally +enviable. Your fair one of Romance cannot suffer a mishap without a +plotting villain, perchance many of them; to wreak the dread iniquity: +she cannot move without him; she is the marble block, and if she is to +have a feature, he is the sculptor; she depends on him for life, and her +human history at least is married to him far more than to the rescuing +lover. No wonder, then, that men should find her thrice cherishable +featureless, or with the most moderate possible indication of a +countenance. Thousands of the excellent simple creatures do; and every +reader of her tale. On the contrary, the heroine of Reality is that +woman whom you have met or heard of once in your course of years, and +very probably despised for bearing in her composition the motive +principle; at best, you say, a singular mixture of good and bad; anything +but the feminine ideal of man. Feature to some excess, you think, +distinguishes her. Yet she furnishes not any of the sweet sensual +excitement pertaining to her spotless rival pursued by villany. She +knocks at the doors of the mind, and the mind must open to be interested +in her. Mind and heart must be wide open to excuse her sheer descent +from the pure ideal of man. + +Dacier's wandering reflections all came back in crowds to the judicial +Bench of the Black Cap. He felt finely, apart from the treason, that her +want of money degraded her: him too, by contact. Money she might have +had to any extent: upon application for it, of course. How was he to +imagine that she wanted money! Smilingly as she welcomed him and his +friends, entertaining them royally, he was bound to think she had means. +A decent propriety bound him not to think of the matter at all. He +naturally supposed she was capable of conducting her affairs. And-- +money! It soiled his memory: though the hour at Rovio was rather pretty, +and the scene at Copsley touching: other times also, short glimpses of +the woman, were taking. The flood of her treachery effaced them. And +why reflect? Constance called to him to look her way. + +Diana's letter died hard. The corners were burnt to black tissue, with +an edge or two of discoloured paper. A small frayed central heap still +resisted, and in kindness to the necessity for privacy, he impressed the +fire-tongs to complete the execution. After which he went to his desk +and worked, under the presidency of Constance. + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +A high wind will make a dead leaf fly like a bird +Beware the silent one of an assembly! +Brittle is foredoomed +Common sense is the secret of every successful civil agitation +Its glee at a catastrophe; its poor stock of mercy +Money is of course a rough test of virtue +Salt of earth, to whom their salt must serve for nourishment +Sentimentality puts up infant hands for absolution +She herself did not like to be seen eating in public +Slightest taste for comic analysis that does not tumble to farce +The greed of gain is our volcano +The man had to be endured, like other doses in politics +Vagrant compassionateness of sentimentalists +What might have been +What the world says, is what the wind says +Without those consolatory efforts, useless between men + + + + +[The End] + + + + +The Project Gutenberg Etext of Diana of the Crossways, v4, by Meredith +********This file should be named gm74v10.txt or gm74v10.zip******** + +Corrected EDITIONS of our etexts get a new NUMBER, gm74v11.txt +VERSIONS based on separate sources get new LETTER, gm74v10a.txt + +This etext was produced by David Widger <widger@cecomet.net> + +More information about this book is at the top of this file. + +We are now trying to release all our etexts one year in advance +of the official release dates, leaving time for better editing. +Please be encouraged to tell us about any error or corrections, +even years after the official publication date. + +Please note neither this listing nor its contents are final til +midnight of the last day of the month of any such announcement. +The official release date of all Project Gutenberg Etexts is at +Midnight, Central Time, of the last day of the stated month. 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