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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/4478-0.txt b/4478-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..4605e14 --- /dev/null +++ b/4478-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,1993 @@ +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 4478 *** + +LORD ORMONT AND HIS AMINTA. + +By George Meredith + + + + +BOOK 2. + +VI. IN A MOOD OF LANGUOR +VII. EXHIBITS EFFECTS OF A PRATTLER'S DOSES +VIII. MRS. LAWRENCE FINCHLEY +IX. A FLASH OF THE BRUISED WARRIOR +X. A SHORT PASSAGE IN THE GAME PLAYED BY TWO +XI. THE SECRETARY TAKEN AS AN ANTIDOTE + + + +CHAPTER VI. + +IN A MOOD OF LANGUOR + +Up in Aminta's amber dressing-room; Mrs. Nargett Pagnell alluded sadly to +the long month of separation, and begged her niece to let her have in +plain words an exact statement of the present situation; adding, "Items +will do." Thereupon she slipped into prattle and held the field. + +She was the known, worthy, good, intolerable woman whom the burgess turns +out for his world in regiments, that do and look and all but step alike; +and they mean well, and have conventional worships and material +aspirations, and very peculiar occult refinements, with a blind head and +a haphazard gleam of acuteness, impressive to acquaintances, convincing +themselves that they impersonate sagacity. She had said this, done that; +and it was, by proof, Providence consenting, the right thing. A niece, +written down in her girlhood, because of her eyes and her striking air +and excellent deportment, as mate for a nobleman, marries, him before she +is out of her teens. "I said, She shall be a countess." A countess she +is. Providence does not comply with our predictions in order to stultify +us. Admitting the position of affairs for the moment as extraordinary, +we are bound by what has happened to expect they will be conformable in +the end. Temporarily warped, we should say of them. + +She could point to the reason: it was Lord Ormont's blunt +misunderstanding of her character. The burgess's daughter was refining +to an appreciation of the exquisite so rapidly that she could criticize +patricians. My lord had never forgiven her for correcting him in his +pronunciation of her name by marriage. Singular indeed; but men, even +great men, men of title, are so, some of them, whom you could least +suspect of their being so. He would speak the "g" in Nargett, and he, +declined--after a remonstrance he declined--to pass Pagnell under the +cedilla. Lord Ormont spoke the name like a man hating it, or an English +rustic: "Nargett Pagnell," instead, of the soft and elegant "Naryett +Pagnell," the only true way of speaking it; and she had always taken that +pronunciation of her name for a test of people's breeding. The +expression of his lordship's countenance under correction was memorable. +Naturally, in those honeymoony days, the young Countess of Ormont sided +with her husband the earl; she declared that her aunt had never dreamed +of the cedilla before the expedition to Spain. When, for example, Alfred +Nargett Pagnell had a laughing remark, which Aminta in her childhood must +have heard: "We rhyme with spaniel!" + +That was the secret of Lord Ormont's prepossession against Aminta's aunt; +and who can tell? perhaps of much of his behaviour to the beautiful young +wife he at least admired, sincerely admired, though he caused her to hang +her head--cast a cloud on the head so dear to him! + +Otherwise there was no interpreting his lordship. To think of herself as +personally disliked by a nobleman stupefied Mrs. Pagnell, from her just +expectation of reciprocal dealings in high society; for she confessed +herself a fly to a title. Where is the shame, if titles are created to +attract? Elsewhere than in that upper circle, we may anticipate hard +bargains; the widow of a solicitor had not to learn it. But when a +distinguished member and ornament of the chosen seats above blew cold +upon their gesticulatory devotee, and was besides ungrateful; she was +more than commonly assured of his being, as she called him, "a sphinx." +His behaviour to his legally wedded wife confirmed the charge. + +She checked her flow to resume the question. "So, then, where are we +now? He allows you liberally for pin-money in addition to your own small +independent income. Satisfaction with that would warrant him to suppose +his whole duty done by you." + +"We are where we were, aunty; the month has made no change," said Aminta +in languor. + +"And you as patient as ever?" + +"I am supposed to have everything a woman can require." + +"Can he possibly think it? And I have to warn you, child, that lawyers +are not so absolving as the world is with some of the ladies Lord Ormont +allows you to call your friends. I have been hearing--it is not mere +airy tales one hears from lawyers about cases in Courts of Law. Tighten +your lips as you like; I say nothing to condemn or reflect on Mrs. +Lawrence Finchley. I have had my eyes a little opened, that is all. Oh, +I know my niece Aminta, when it's a friend to stand by; but our position +--thanks to your inscrutable lord and master--demands of us the utmost +scrupulousness, or it soon becomes a whirl and scandal flying about, and +those lawyers picking up and putting together. I have had a difficulty +to persuade them!... and my own niece! whom I saw married at the British +Embassy in Madrid, as I take good care to tell everybody; for it was my +doing; I am the responsible person! and by an English Protestant +clergyman, to all appearance able to walk erect in and out of any of +these excellent new Life Assurance offices they are starting for the +benefit of widows and orphans, and deceased within six days of the +ceremony--if ceremony one may call the hasty affair in those foreign +places. My dear, the instant I heard it I had a presentiment, 'All has +gone well up to now.' I remember murmuring the words. Then your letter, +received in that smelly Barcelona: Lord Ormont was carrying you off to +Granada--a dream of my infancy! It may not have been his manoeuvre, but +it was the beginning of his manoeuvres." + +Aminta shuddered. "And tra-la-la, and castanets, and my Cid! my Cid! and +the Alhambra, the Sierra Nevada, and ay di me, Alhama; and Boabdil el +Chico and el Zagal and Fray Antonio Agapida!" She flung out the rattle, +yawning, with her arms up and her head back, in the posture of a woman +wounded. One of her aunt's chance shots had traversed her breast, +flashing at her the time, the scene, the husband, intensest sunniness on +sword-edges of shade,--and now the wedded riddle; illusion dropping mask, +romance in its anatomy, cold English mist. Ah, what a background is the +present when we have the past to the fore! That filmy past is diaphanous +on heaving ribs. + +She smiled at the wide-eyed little gossip. "Don't speak of manaoeuvres, +dear aunt. And we'll leave Granada to the poets. I'm tired. Talk of +our own people, on your side and my father's, and as much as you please +of the Pagnell-Pagnells, they refresh me. Do they go on marrying?" + +"Why, my child, how could they go on without it?" + +Aminta pressed her hands at her eyelids. "Oh, me!" she sighed, feeling +the tear come with a sting from checked laughter. "But there are +marriages, aunty, that don't go on, though Protestant clergymen +officiated. Leave them unnoticed, I have really nothing to tell." + +"You have not heard anything of Lady Eglett?" + +"Lady Charlotte Eglett? No syllable. Or wait--my lord's secretary was +with her at Olmer; approved by her, I have to suppose." + +"There, my dear, I say again I do dread that woman, if she can make a man +like Lord Ormont afraid of her. And no doubt she is of our old +aristocracy. And they tell me she is coarse in her conversation--like a +man. Lawyers tell me she is never happy but in litigation. Years back, +I am given to understand, she did not set so particularly good an +example. Lawyers hear next to everything. I am told she lifted her +horsewhip on a gentleman once, and then put her horse at him and rode him +down. You will say, the sister of your husband. No; not to make my +niece a countess, would I, if I had known the kind of family! Then one +asks, Is she half as much afraid of him? In that case, no wonder they +have given up meeting. Was formerly one of the Keepsake Beauties. Well, +Lady Eglett, and Aminta, Countess of Ormont, will be in that Peerage, as +they call it, let her only have her dues. My dear, I would--if I ever +did--swear the woman is jealous." + +"Of me, aunty!" + +"I say more; I say again, it would be a good thing for somebody if +somebody had his twitch of jealousy. Wives may be too meek. Cases and +cases my poor Alfred read to me, where an ill-behaving man was brought to +his senses by a clever little shuffle of the cards, and by the most +innocent of wives. A kind of poison to him, of course; but there are +poisons that cure. It might come into the courts; and the nearer the +proofs the happier he in withdrawing from his charge and effecting a +reconciliation. Short of guilt, of course. Men are so strange. Imagine +now, if a handsome young woman were known to be admired rather more than +enough by a good-looking gentleman near about her own age. Oh, I've no +patience with, the man for causing us to think and scheme! Only there +are men who won't be set right unless we do. My husband used to say, +change is such a capital thing in life's jogtrot; that men find it +refreshing if we now and then, reverse the order of our pillion-riding +for them. A spiritless woman in a wife is what they bear least of all. +Anything rather. Is Mr. Morsfield haunting Mrs. Lawrence Finchley's +house as usual?" + +Aminta's cheeks unrolled their deep damask rose at the abrupt intrusion +of the name. "I meet him there." + +"Lord Adderwood, Sir John Randeller; and the rest?" + +"Two or three times a week." + +"And the lady, wife of the captain, really a Lady Fair--Mrs.... month of +May: so I have to get at it." + +"She may be seen there." + +"Really a contrast, when you two are together! As to reputation, there +is an exchange of colours. Those lawyers hold the keys of the great +world, and a naughty world it is, I fear--with exceptions, who are the +salt, but don't taste so much. I can't help enjoying the people at Mrs. +Lawrence Finchley's. I like to feel I can amuse them, as they do me. +One puzzles for what they say--in somebody's absence, I mean. They must +take Lord Ormont for a perfect sphinx; unless they are so silly as to +think they may despise him, or suppose him indifferent. Oh, that upper +class! It's a garden, and we can't help pushing to enter it; and fair +flowers, indeed, but serpents too, like the tropics. It tries us more +than anything else in the world--well, just as good eating tries the +constitution. He ought to know it and feel it, and give his wife all the +protection of his name, instead of--not that he denies: I have brought +him to that point; he cannot deny it with me. But not to present her--to +shun the Court; not to introduce her to his family, to appear ashamed of +her! My darling Aminta, a month of absence for reflection on your +legally-wedded husband's conduct increases my astonishment. For usually +men old enough to be the grandfathers of their wives--" + +"Oh, pray, aunty, pray, pray!" Aminta cried, and her body writhed. "No +more to-night. You mean well, I am sure. Let us wait. I shall sleep, +perhaps, if I go to bed early. I dare say I am spiritless--not worth +more than I get. I gave him the lead altogether; he keeps it. In +everything else he is kind; I have all the luxuries--enough to loathe +them. Kiss me and say good night." + +Aminta made it imperative by rising. Her aunt stood up, kissed, and +exclaimed, "I tell you you are a queenly creature, not to be treated as +any puny trollop of a handmaid. And although he is a great nobleman, he +is not to presume to behave any longer, my dear, as if your family had no +claim on his consideration. My husband, Alfred Pagnell, would have laid +that before him pretty quick. You are the child of the Farrells and the +Solers, both old families; on your father's side you are linked with the +oldest nobility in Europe. It flushes one to think of it! Your +grandmother, marrying Captain Algernon Farrell, was the legitimate +daughter of a Grandee of Spain; as I have told Lord Ormont often, and I +defy him to equal that for a romantic marriage in the annals of his +house, or boast of bluer blood. Again, the Solers--" + +"We take the Solers for granted, aunty, good night." + +"Commoners, if you like; but established since the Conquest. That is, +we trace the pedigree. And to be treated, even by a great nobleman, as +if we were stuff picked up out of the ditch! I declare, there are times +when I sit and think and boil. Is it chivalrous, is it generous--is it, +I say, decent--is it what Alfred would have called a fair fulfilment of a +pact, for your wedded husband--? You may close my mouth! But he +pretends to be chivalrous and generous, and he has won a queen any +wealthy gentleman in England--I know of one, if not two--would be proud +to have beside him in equal state; and what is he to her? He is an +extinguisher. Or is it the very meanest miserliness, that he may keep +you all to himself? There we are again! I say he is an unreadable +sphinx." + +Aminta had rung the bell for her maid. Mrs. Pagnell could be counted on +for drawing in her tongue when the domestics were near. + +A languor past delivery in sighs was on the young woman's breast. She +could have heard without a regret that the heart was to cease beating. +Had it been downright misery she would have looked about her with less of +her exanimate glassiness. The unhappy have a form of life: until they +are worn out, they feel keenly. She felt nothing. The blow to her pride +of station and womanhood struck on numbed sensations. She could complain +that the blow was not heavier. + +A letter lying in her jewel-box called her to read it, for the chance of +some slight stir. The contents were known. The signature of Adolphus +Morsfield had a new meaning for her eyes, and dashed her at her husband +in a spasm of revolt and wrath against the man exposing her to these +letters, which a motion of her hand could turn to blood, and abstention +from any sign maintained in a Satanic whisper, saying, "Here lies one way +of solving the riddle." It was her husband who drove her to look that +way. + +The look was transient, and the wrath: she could not burn. A small +portion of contempt lodged in her mind to shadow husbands precipitating +women on their armoury for a taste of vengeance. Women can always be +revenged--so speedily, so completely: they have but to dip. Husbands +driving wives to taste their power execrate the creature for her fall +deep downward. They are forgetful of causes. + +Does it matter? Aminta's languor asked. The letter had not won a reply. +Thought of the briefest of replies was a mountain of effort, and she +moaned at her nervelessness in body and mind. To reply, to reproach the +man, to be flame--an image of herself under the form she desired--gave +her a momentary false energy, wherein the daring of the man, whose life +was at a loss for the writing of this letter, hung lighted. She had +therewith a sharp vision of his features, repellent in correctness, Greek +in lines, with close eyes, hollow temples, pressed lips--a face +indicating the man who can fling himself on a die. She had heard tales +of women and the man. Some had loved him, report said. Here were words +to say that he loved her. They might, poor man, be true. Otherwise she +had never been loved. + +Memory had of late been paying visits to a droopy plant in the golden +summer drought on a gorgeous mid-sea island, and had taken her on board +to refresh her with voyages, always bearing down full sail on a couple of +blissful schools, abodes of bloom and briny vigour, sweet merriment, +innocent longings, dreams the shyest, dreams the mightiest. At night +before sleep, at morn before rising, often during day, and when vexed or +when dispirited, she had issued her command for the voyage. Sheer +refreshment followed, as is ever the case if our vessel carries no +freight of hopes. There could be no hopes. It was forgotten that they +had ever been seriously alive. But it carried an admiration. Now, an +admiration may endure, and this one had been justified all round. The +figure heroical, the splendid, active youth, hallowed Aminta's past. The +past of a bitterly humiliated Aminta was a garden in the coming kiss of +sunset, with that godlike figure of young manhood to hallow it. There he +stayed, perpetually assuring her of his triumphs to come. + +She could have no further voyages. Ridicule convulsed her home of +refuge. For the young soldier-hero, to be unhorsed by misfortune, was +one thing; but the meanness of the ambition he had taken in exchange for +the thirst of glory, accused his nature. He so certainly involved her in +the burlesque of the transformation that she had to quench memory. + +She was, therefore, having smothered a good part of herself, accountably +languid--a condition alternating with fire in Aminta; and as Mr. +Morsfield's letter supplied the absent element, her needy instinct pushed +her to read his letter through. She had not yet done that with +attention. + +Whether a woman loves a man or not, he is her lover if he dare tell her +he loves her, and is heard with attention. Aware that the sentences were +poison, she summoned her constitutional antagonism to the mad step +proposed, so far nullifying the virus as to make her shrink from the +madness. Even then her soul cried out to her husband, Who drives me to +read? or rather, to brood upon what she read. The brooding ensued, was +the thirst of her malady. The best antidote she could hit on was the +writer's face. Yet it expressed him, his fire and his courage--gifts she +respected in him, found wanting in herself. Read by Lord Ormont, this +letter would mean a deadly thing. + +Aminta did her lord the justice to feel sure of him, that with her name +bearing the superscription, it might be left on her table, and world not +have him to peruse it. If he manoeuvred, it was never basely. Despite +resentment, her deepest heart denied his being indifferent either to her +honour or his own in relation to it. He would vindicate both at a +stroke, for a sign. Nevertheless, he had been behaving cruelly. She +charged on him the guilt of the small preludes, archeries, anglings, +veilings, evasions, all done with the eyelids and the mute of the lips, +or a skirmisher word or a fan's flourish, and which, intended to pique +the husband rather than incite the lover, had led Mrs. Lawrence Finchley +to murmur at her ear, in close assembly, without a distinct designation +of Mr. Morsfield, "Dangerous man to play little games with!" It had +brought upon her this letter of declaration, proposal, entreaty. + +This letter was the man's life in her hands, and safe, of course. But +surely it was a proof that the man loved her? + +Aminta was in her five-and-twentieth year; when the woman who is +uncertain of the having been loved, and she reputed beautiful, desirable, +is impelled by a sombre necessity to muse on a declaration, and nibble at +an idea of a test. If "a dangerous man to play little games with," he +could scarcely be dangerous to a woman having no love for him at all. It +meant merely that he would soon fall to writing letters like this, and he +could not expect an answer to it. But her heart really thanked him, and +wished the poor gentleman to take its dumb response as his reward, for +being the one sole one who had loved her. + +Aminta dwelt on "the one sole one." Lord Ormont's treatment had detached +her from any belief in love on his part; and the schoolboy, now ambitions +to become a schoolmaster, was behind the screen unlikely to be lifted +again by a woman valuing her pride of youth, though he had--behold our +deceptions!--the sympathetic face entirely absent from that of Mr. +Adolphus Morsfield, whom the world would count quite as handsome--nay, it +boasted him. He enjoyed the reputation of a killer of ladies. Women +have odd tastes, Aminta thought, and examined the gentleman's +handwriting. It pleased her better. She studied it till the +conventional phrases took a fiery hue, and came at her with an invasive +rush. + +The letter was cast back into the box, locked up; there an end to it, or +no interdiction of sleep. + +Sleep was a triumph. Aminta's healthy frame rode her over petty +agitations of a blood uninflamed, as lightly as she swam the troubled +sea-waters her body gloried to cleave. She woke in the morning peaceful +and mildly reflective, like one who walks across green meadows. Only by +degrees, by glimpses, was she drawn to remember the trotting, cantering, +galloping, leaping of an active heart during night. We cannot, men or +woman, control the heart in sleep at night. There had been wild +leapings. Night will lead an unsatisfied heart of a woman, by way of +sleep, to scale black mountains, jump jagged chasms. Sleep is a horse +that laughs at precipices and abysses. We bid women, moreover, be all +heart. They are to cultivate their hearts, pay much heed to their +hearts. The vast realm of feeling is open to these appointed keepers of +the sanctuary household, who may be withering virgins, may be childless +matrons, may be unhusbanded wives. Wandering in the vast realm which +they are exhorted to call their own, for the additional attractiveness it +gives them, an unsatisfied heart of woman will somewhat audaciously cross +the borderland a single step into the public road of the vast realm of +thinking. Once there, and but a single step on the road, she is a rebel +against man's law for her sex. Nor is it urgent on her that she should +think defiantly in order to feel herself the rebel. She may think +submissively; with a heart (the enlarged, the scientifically plumped, the +pasture of epicurean man), with her coveted heart in revolt, and from the +mere act of thinking at all. + +Aminta reviewed perforce, dead against her will, certain of the near-to- +happiness ratings over-night. She thinned her lips, and her cheeks +glowed. An arm, on the plea of rescuing, had been round her. The choice +now offered her was, to yield to softness or to think. She took the +latter step, the single step of an unaccustomed foot, which women +educated simply to feet, will, upon extreme impulsion, take; and it held +a candle in a windy darkness. She saw no Justice there. The sensational +immensity touched sublime, short of that spirit of Justice required for +the true sublime. And void of Justice; what a sunless place is any +realm! Infants, the male and the female alike, first begin to know they +feel when it is refused them. When they know they feel, they have begun +to reflect. The void of Justice is a godless region. Women, to whom +the solitary thought has come as a blown candle, illumining the fringes +of their storm, ask themselves whether they are God's creatures or man's. +The question deals a sword-stroke of division between them and their +human masters. Young women, animated by the passions their feeling +bosoms of necessity breed, and under terror discover, do not distinguish +an abstract justice from a concrete. They are of the tribe too long +hereditarily enslaved to conceive an abstract. So it is with them, that +their God is the God of the slave, as it is with all but the bravest of +boys. He is a Thing to cry to, a Punisher, not much of a Supporter--the +Biblical Hebrew's right reading of Nature, favouring man, yet prompt to +confound him, and with woman for the instrument of vengeance. By such a +maze the blindfolded, are brought round to see Justice on earth. If +women can only believe in some soul of justice, they will feel they +belong to God--of the two; and the peril for them then is, that they will +set the one incomprehensible Power in opposition to the other, urging +them unsatisfied natures to make secret appeal away from man and his laws +altogether, at the cost of losing clear sight of the God who shines in +thought. It is a manner whereby the desperately harried among these +creatures of the petted heart arrive upon occasion at an agreeable, +almost reposeful, contemplation of the reverse of God. + +There is little pleasure to be on the lecture-rostrum for a narrator +sensible to the pulses of his audience. Justice compels at times. In +truth, there are times when the foggy obscurities of the preacher are by +comparison broad daylight beside the whirling loose tissues of a woman +unexplained. Aminta was one born to prize rectitude, to walk on the +traced line uprightly; and while the dark rose overflowed the soft brown +of her cheeks, under musings upon her unlicenced heart's doings +overnight, she not only pleaded for woeful creatures of her sex burdened +as she and erring, she weighed them in the scales with men, and put her +heart where Justice pointed, sending men to kick aloft. + +Her husband, the man-riddle: she was unable to rede or read him. Her +will could not turn him; nor her tongue combat; nor was it granted her to +pique the mailed veteran. Every poor innocent little bit of an art had +been exhausted. Her title was Lady Ormont her condition actually slave. +A luxuriously established slave, consorting with a singularly +enfranchised set,--as, for instance, Mrs. Lawrence Finchley and Lord +Adderwood; Sir John Randeller and Lady Staines; Mrs. May, Amy May, +notorious wife of a fighting captain, the loneliest of blondes; and other +ladies, other gentlemen, Mr. Morsfield in the list, paired or not yet +paired: gossip raged. Aminta was of a disposition too generously cordial +to let her be the rigorous critic of people with whom she was in touch. +But her mind knew relief when she recollected that her humble little +school-mate, Selina Collect, who had suffered on her behalf in old days, +was coming up to her from the Suffolk coast on a visit for a week. +However much a slave and an unloved woman, she could be a constant and +protecting friend. Besides, Lord Ormont was gracious to little Selina. +She thought of his remarks about the modest-minded girl after first +seeing her. From that she struck upon a notion of reserves of humaneness +being in him, if she might find the path to them: and thence, fortified +by the repose her picture of little Selina's merit had bestowed, she +sprang to the idea of valiancy, that she would woo him to listen to her, +without inflicting a scene. He had been a listening lover, seeming +lover, once, later than the Granada sunsets. The letter in her jewel-box +urged Aminta to clear her conscience by some means, for leaving it +unburnt. + + + + +CHAPTER VII. + +EXHIBITS EFFECTS OF A PRATTLER'S DOSES + +The rules in Lord Ormont's household assisted to shelter him for some +hours of the day from the lady who was like a blast of sirocco under his +roof. He had his breakfast alone, as Lady Charlotte had it at Olmer; +a dislike of a common table in the morning was a family trait with both. +At ten o'clock the secretary arrived, and they were shut up together. +At the luncheon table Aminta usually presided. If my lord dined at home, +he had by that time established an equanimity rendering, his constant +civility to Mrs. Pagnell less arduous. The presence of a woman of +tongue, perpetually on the spring to gratify him and win him, was among +the burdens he bore for his Aminta. + +Mrs. Pagnell soon perceived that the secretary was in favour. My lord +and this Mr. Weyburn had their pet themes of conversation, upon which the +wary aunt of her niece did not gaze like the wintry sun with the distant +smile her niece displayed over discussions concerning military +biographies, Hannibal's use of his elephants and his Numidian horse, the +Little St. Bernard, modern artillery, ancient slingers, English and +Genoese bowmen, Napoleon's tactics, his command to the troopers to "give +point," and English officers' neglect of sword exercise, and the "devil +of a day" Old England is to have on a day to come. My lord connected our +day of trial with India. Mrs. Pagnell assumed an air of studious +interest; she struck in to give her niece a lead, that Lord Ormont might +know his countess capable of joining the driest of subjects occupying +exalted minds. Aminta did not follow her; and she was extricated +gallantly by the gentlemen in turn. + +The secretary behaved with a pretty civility. Aminta shook herself to +think tolerantly of him when he, after listening to the suggestion, put +interrogatively, that we should profit by Hannibal's example and train +elephants to serve as a special army corps for the perfect security of +our priceless Indian Empire, instanced the danger likely to result from +their panic fear of cannon, and forbore to consult Lord Ormont's eye. + +Mrs. Pagnell knew that she had put her foot into it; but women advised of +being fools in what they say, are generally sustained by their sense of +the excellent motive which impelled them. Even to the Countess of +Ormont, she could have replied, "We might have given them a higher idea +of us"--if, that meant, the Countess of Ormont had entered the field +beside her, to the exclusion of a shrinking Aminta. She hinted as much +subsequently, and Aminta's consciousness of the troth was touched. The +young schoolmaster's company sat on her spirits, deadened her vocabulary. +Her aunt spoke of passing the library door and hearing the two gentlemen +loudly laughing. It seemed subserviency on the fallen young hero's part. +His tastes were low. He frequented the haunts of boxing men; her lord +informed her of his having made, or of his making, matches to run or swim +or walk certain distances against competitors or within a given time. +He had also half a dozen boys or more in tow, whom he raced out of town +on Sundays; a nucleus of the school he intended to form. + +But will not Achilles become by comparison a common rushlight where was a +blazing torch, if we see him clap a clown's cap on the head whose golden +helm was fired by Pallas? + +Nay, and let him look the hero still: all the more does he point finger +on his meanness of nature. + +Turning to another, it is another kind of shame that a woman feels, if +she consents to an exchange of letters--shameful indeed, but not such a +feeling of deadly sickness as comes with the humiliating view of an +object of admiration degraded. Bad she may be; and she may be deceived, +vilely treated, in either case. And what is a woman's pride but the +staff and banner of her soul, beyond all gifts? He who wounds it cannot +be forgiven--never!--he has killed the best of her. Aminta found herself +sliding along into the sentiment, that the splendid idol of a girl's +worship is, if she discover him in the lapse of years as an +infinitesimally small one, responsible for the woman's possible reckless +fit of giddiness. And she could see her nonsense; she could not correct +it. Lines of the letters under signature of Adolphus were phosphorescent +about her: they would recur; and she charged their doing so on the +discovered meanness of the girl's idol. Her wicked memory was caused +by his having plunged her low. + +Mrs. Pagnell performed the offices of attention to Mr. Weyburn in lieu of +the countess, who seemed to find it a task to sit at the luncheon table +with him, when Lady Ormont was absent. "Just peeped in," she said as she +entered the library, "to see if all was comfortable;" and gossip ensued, +not devoid of object. She extracted an astonishingly smooth description +of Lady Charlotte. Weyburn was brightness in speaking of the much- +misunderstood lady. "She's one of the living women of the world." + +"You are sure you don't mean one of the worldly women?" Mrs. Pagnell +rejoiced. + +"She has to be known to be liked," he owned. + +"And you were, one hears, among the favoured?" + +"I can scarcely pretend to that, ma'am." + +"You were recommended." + +"Lady Charlotte is devoted to her brother." + +Mrs. Pagnell's bosom heaved. "How strange Lord Ormont is! One would +suppose, with his indignation at the country for its treatment of him, +admirers would be welcome. Oh dear, no! that is not the way. On board +the packet, on our voyage to Spain, my niece in her cabin, imploring +mercy of Neptune, as they say, I heard of Lord Ormont among the +passengers. I could hardly credit my ears. For I had been hearing of +him from my niece ever since her return from a select establishment for +the education of young ladies, not much more than a morning's drive out +of London, though Dover was my residence. She had got a hero! It was +Lord Ormont! Lord Ormont! all day: and when the behaviour of the country +to him became notorious, Aminta--my niece the countess--she could hardly +contain herself. A secret:--I promised her--it's not known to Lord +Ormont himself:--a printed letter in a metropolitan paper, copied into +the provincial papers, upholding him for one of the greatest of our +patriot soldiers and the saviour of India, was the work of her hands. +You would, I am sure, think it really well written. Meeting him on deck +--the outline of the coast of Portugal for an introductory subject, our +Peninsular battles and so forth--I spoke of her enthusiasm. The effect +was, to cut off all communication between us. I had only to appear, Lord +Ormont vanished. I said to myself, this is a character. However, the +very mention of him to my niece, as one of the passengers on board-- +medicine, miraculous! She was up in half an hour, out pacing the deck +before evening, hardly leaning on my arm, and the colour positively +beginning to show on her cheeks again. He fled, of coarse. I had +prepared her for his eccentricities. Next morning she was out by +herself. In the afternoon Lord Ormont strode up to us his--military +step--and most courteously requested the honour of an introduction. I +had broken the ice at last; from that moment he was cordiality itself, +until--I will not say, until he had called her his own--a few little +misunderstandings!--not with his countess. You see, a resident aunt is +translated mother-in-law by husbands; though I spare them pretty +frequently; I go to friends, they travel. Here in London she must have a +duenna. The marriage at Madrid, at the Embassy:--well, perhaps it was a +step for us, for commoners, though we rank with the independent. Has her +own little pin-money--an inheritance. Perhaps Lady Eglett gives the +world her version. She may say, there was aiming at station. I reply, +never was there a more whole-hearted love-match! Absolutely the girl's +heart has been his from the period of her school-days. Oh! a little +affair--she was persecuted by a boy at a neighbouring school. Her +mistress wrote me word--a very determined Romeo young gentleman indeed-- +quite alarmed about him. In the bud! I carried her off on the spot, and +snapped it effectually. Warned he meant to be desperate, I kept her away +from my house at Dover four months, place to place; and I did well. I +heard on my return, that a youth, answering to the schoolmistress's +description of him, had been calling several times, the first two months +and longer. You have me alluding to these little nonsensical nothings, +because she seemed born to create violent attachments, even at that early +day; and Lady Eglett--Lady Charlotte Eglett may hear; for there is no end +to them, and impute them to her, when really!--can she be made +responsible for eyes innocent of the mischief they appear destined to do? +But I am disturbing you in your work." + +"You are very good, ma'am," said the ghost of the determined young +gentleman. + +"A slight cold, have you?" Mrs. Pagnell asked solicitously. + +"Dear me, no!" he gave answer with a cleared throat. + +In charging him with more than he wanted to carry, she supplied him with +particulars he had wanted to know; and now he asked himself what could be +the gain of any amount of satisfied curiosity regarding a married Aminta. +She slew my lord on board a packet-boat; she bears the arrows that slay. +My lord married her where the first English chaplain was to be found; +that is not wonderful either. British Embassy, Madrid! Weyburn believed +the ceremony to have been performed there: at the same time, he could +hear Lady Charlotte's voice repeating with her varied intonation Mrs. +Pagnell's impressive utterances; and he could imagine how the somewhat +silly duenna aunt, so penetrable in her transparent artifices, struck +emphasis on the incredulity of people inclined to judge of the reported +ceremony by Lord Ormont's behaviour to his captive. + +How explain that strange matter? But can there be a gain in trying to +sound it? Weyburn shuffled it away. Before the fit of passion seized +him, he could turn his eager mind from anything which had not a +perceptible point of gain, either for bodily strength or mental +acquisition, or for money, too, now that the school was growing palpable +as an infant in arms and agape for the breast. Thought of gain, and the +bent to pursue it, is the shield of Athene over young men in the press of +the seductions. He had to confess his having lost some bits of himself +by reason of his meditations latterly; and that loss, if we let it +continue a space, will show in cramp at the wrist, logs on the legs, a +wheezy wind, for any fellow vowed to physical trials of strength and +skill. It will show likewise in the brain beating broken wings-- +inability to shoot a thought up out of the body for half a minute. And, +good Lord! how quickly the tight-strong fellow crumbles, when once the +fragmentary disintegration has begun! Weyburn cried out on a heart that +bounded off at prodigal gallops, and had to be nipped with reminders of +the place of good leader he was for taking among the young. Hang +superexcellence! but we know those moanings over the troubles of a +married woman; we know their sources, know their goal, or else we are the +fiction-puppet or the Bedlamite; and she is a married woman, married at +the British Embassy, Madrid, if you please! after a few weeks' +acquaintance with her husband, who doubtless wrote his name intelligibly +in the registrar's book, but does not prove himself much the hero when he +drives a pen, even for so little as the signing of his name! He signed +his name, apparently not more than partly pledging himself to the bond. +Lord Ormont's autobiographical scraps combined with Lady Charlotte's +hints and Mrs. Pagnell's communications, to provoke the secretary's +literary contempt of his behaviour to his wife. However, the former +might be mended, and he resumed the task. + +It had the restorative effect of touching him to see his old hero in +action; whereby he was brought about to a proper modesty, so that he +really craved no more than for the mistress of this house to breathe the +liberal air of a public acknowledgment of her rightful position. Things +constituted by their buoyancy to float are remarkable for lively bobbings +when they are cast upon the waters; and such was the case with Weyburn, +until the agitation produced by Mrs. Pagnell left him free to sail away +in the society of the steadiest. + +He decided that by not observing, not thinking, not feeling, about the +circumstances of the household into which Fate had thrown him, he would +best be able--probably it was the one way--to keep himself together; and +his resolution being honest all round, he succeeded in it as long as he +abstained from a very wakeful vigilance over simple eyesight. For if one +is nervously on guard to not-see, the matter starts up winged, and enters +us, and kindles the mind, and tingles through the blood; it has us as a +foe. The art of blind vision requires not only practice, but an intimate +knowledge of the arts of the traitor we carry within. Safest for him, +after all, was to lay fast hold of the particularly unimportant person he +was, both there and anywhere else. The Countess of Ormont's manner +toward him was to be read as a standing index of the course he should +follow; and he thanked her. He could not quite so sincerely thank her +aunt. His ingratitude for the sickly dose she had administered to him +sprang a doubt whether Lady Ormont now thanked her aunt on account of +services performed at the British Embassy, Madrid. + +Certain looks of those eyes recently, when in colloquy with my lord, +removed the towering nobleman to a shadowed landscape. + +Was it solely an effect of eyes commanding light, and having every shaft +of the quiver of the rays at her disposal? Or was it a shot from a +powerful individuality issuing out of bondage to some physical oppressor +no longer master of the soul, in peril of the slipping away of the body? +Her look on him was not hate: it was larger, more terribly divine. Those +eyes had elsewhere once looked love: they had planted their object in a +throbbing Eden. The man on whom they had looked shivered over the +thought of it after years of blank division. + +Rather than have those eyes to look on him their displacing unintentness, +the man on whom they had once looked love would have chosen looks of +wrath, the darts that kill--blest darts of the celestial Huntress, giving +sweet sudden cessation of pain, in the one everlasting last flash of life +with thought that the shot was hers. Oh for the 'ayava behea' of the +Merciful in splendour! + +These were the outcries of the man deciding simultaneously not to +observe, not to think, not to feel, and husbanding calculations upon +storage of gain for the future. Softness held the song below. It came +of the fact that his enforced resolution, for the sake of sanity, drove +his whole reflective mind backward upon his younger days, when an Evening +and a Morning star in him greeted the bright Goddess Browny or sang +adieu, and adored beyond all golden beams the underworld whither she had +sunk, where she was hidden. + +Meanwhile, the worthy dame who had dosed him was out in her carriage, +busy paying visits to distinguished ladies of the great world, with the +best of excuses for an early call, which was gossip to impart, such as +the Countess of Ormont had not yet thought of mentioning; and two or +three of them were rather amusedly interested to hear that Lord Ormont +had engaged a handsome young secretary, "under the patronage of Lady +Charlotte Eglett, devoted to sports of all kinds, immensely favoured by +both." Gossip must often have been likened to the winged insect bearing +pollen to the flowers; it fertilizes many a vacuous reverie. Those +flowers of the upper garden are not, indeed, stationary and in need of +the missionary buzzer, but if they have been in one place unmoved for one +hour, they are open to take animation from their visitors. Aminta was +pleasantly surprised next day by the receipt of a note from Mrs. Lawrence +Finchley, begging to be invited to lunch if she came, as she had a +purpose in the wish to meet my lord. + + + + +[NOTE: The remainder of 'Lord Ormont and His Aminta' is taken from an +older edition which uses single rather than double quotation marks. +D.W.] + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +MRS. LAWRENCE FINCHLEY + +My lord had one of his wilful likings for Isabella Lawrence Finchley, +and he consented to the torture of an hour of Mrs. Nargett Pagnell in the +middle of the day, just to taste the favourite he welcomed at home as he +championed her abroad. The reasons were numerous and intimate why she +pleased him. He liked the woman, enjoyed the cause for battle that she +gave. Weyburn, on coming to the luncheon table, beheld a lady with the +head of a comely boy, the manner, softened in delicate feminine, of a +capital comrade. Her air of candour was her nature in her face; and it +carried a guileless roguery, a placid daring, a supersensual naughtiness, +a simplicity of repose amid the smoky reputation she created, that led +one to think the vapour calumnious or the creature privileged. That +young boy's look opened him at once; he had not to warm to her,--he flew. +Ordinarily the sweetest ladies will make us pass through cold mist and +cross a stile or two, or a broken bridge, before the formalities are +cleared away to grant us rights of citizenship. She was like those frank +lands where we have not to hand out a passport at the frontier and wait +for dubious inspection of it. + +She prevailed with cognizant men and with the frivolous. Women were +capable of appreciating her, too: as Aminta did, despite some hinted +qualifications addressed shyly to her husband. But these were the very +matters exciting his particular esteem. He was of Lady Charlotte's mind, +in her hot zeal against injustice done to the creatures she despised; and +yet more than she applauded a woman who took up her idiot husband's +challenge to defend her good name, and cleared it, right or wrong, and +beat him down on his knees, and then started for her spell of the merry +canter over turf: an example to the English of the punishment they get +for their stupid Puritanic tyranny--sure to be followed by a national +helter-skelter down-hill headlong. And Mrs. Lawrence was not one of the +corrupt, he argued; she concealed what it was decent to conceal, without +pouting hypocritical pretences; she had merely dispensed with idle legal +formalities, in the prettiest curvetting airy wanton way, to divorce the +man who tried to divorce her, and 'whined to be forgiven when he found he +couldn't. Adderwood was ready to marry her to-morrow, if the donkey +husband would but go and bray his last. Half a dozen others were heads +off on the same course to that goal.' + +That was her champion's perusal of a lady candidly asserting her right +to have breeched comrades, and paying for it in the advocacy which +compromises. She was taken to be and she was used as a weapon wherewith +to strike at our Pharisees. Women pushing out into the world for +independence, bleed heavy payments all round. + +The earl's double-edged defence of her was partly a vindication of +another husband, who allowed his wife to call her friend; he was +nevertheless assured of her not being corrupt, both by his personal +knowledge of the lady, and his perception of her image in the bosom of +his wife. She did no harm there, he knew well. Although he was not a +man to put his trust in faces, as his young secretary inclined to do, +Mrs. Lawrence's look of honest boy did count among the pleadings. And +somewhat so might a government cruiser observe the intrusion of a white- +sailed yacht in protected sea-waters, where licenced trawlers are at the +haul. + +Talk over the table coursed as fluently as might be, with Mrs. Pagnell +for a boulder in the stream. Uninformed by malice, she led up to Lord +Adderwood's name, and perhaps more designedly spoke of Mr. Morsfield, on +whom her profound reading into the female heart of the class above her +caused her to harp, as 'a real Antinous,' that the ladies might discuss +him and Lord Ormont wax meditative. + +Mrs. Lawrence pitied the patient gentleman, while asking him in her mind +who was the author of the domestic burden he had to bear. + +'It reminds me I have a mission,' she said. 'There's a fencing match +down at a hall in the West, near the barracks; private and select: +Soldier and Civilian; I forget who challenged--Civilian, one judges; +Soldiers are the peaceful party. They want you to act "umpire," as they +call it, on the military side, my dear lord; and you will?--I have given +my word you will bring Lady Ormont. You will?--and not let me be +confounded! Yes, and we shall make a party. I see consent. Aminta will +enjoy the switch of steel. I love to see fencing. It rouses all that is +diabolical in me.' + +She sent a skimming look at the opposite. + +'And I,' said he, much freshened. + +'You fence?' + +'Handle the foils.' + +'If you must speak modestly! Are you in practice?' + +'I spend in hour in Captain Chiallo's fencing rooms generally every +evening before dinner. I heard there the first outlines of the match +proposed. You are right; it was the civilian.' + +'Mr. Morsfield, as I suspected.' + +She smiled to herself, like one saying, Not badly managed, Mr. Morsfield! + +'Italian school?' Lord Ormont inquired, with a screw of the eyelids. + +'French, my lord.' + +'The only school for teaching.' + +'The simplest--has the most rational method. Italians are apt to be +tricky. But they were masters once, and now and then they send out a +fencer the French can't touch.' + +'How would you account for it?' + +'If I had to account for it, I should say, hotter blood, cool nerve, +quick brain.' + +'Hum. Where are we, then?' + +'We don't shine with the small sword.' + +'We had men neatly pinked for their slashings in the Peninsula.' + +'We've had clever Irishmen.' + +'Hot enough blood! This man Morsfield--have you crossed the foils with +him?' + +'Goes at it like a Spaniard; though Spaniards in Paris have been found +wary enough.' + +My lord hummed. 'Fellow looks as if he would easily lose his head over +steel.' + +'He can be dangerous.' + +The word struck on something, and rang. + +Mrs. Lawrence had a further murmur within her lips. Her travelling eye +met Aminta's and passed it. + +'But not dangerous, surely, if the breast is padded?' said Mrs. Pagnell. + +'Oh no, oh no; not in that case!' Mrs. Lawrence ran out her voluble +assent, and her eyelids blinked; her fair boy's face was mischief at +school under shadow of the master. + +She said to Weyburn: 'Are you one in the list--to give our military a +lesson? They want it.' + +His answer was unheard by Aminta. She gathered from Mrs. Lawrence's +pleased sparkle that he had been invited to stand in the list; and the +strange, the absurd spectacle of a young schoolmaster taking the heroic +attitude for attack and defence wrestled behind her eyes with a suddenly +vivid first-of-May cricketing field, a scene of snowballs flying, the +vision of a strenuous lighted figure scaling to noble young manhood. +Isabella Lawrence's look at him spirited the bright past out of the +wretched long-brown-coat shroud of the present, prompting her to grieve +that some woman's hand had not smoothed a small tuft of hair, disorderly +on his head a little above the left parting, because Isabella Lawrence +Finchley could have no recollection of how it used to toss feathery--wild +at his games. + +My lord hummed again. 'I suspect we 're going to get a drubbing. This +fellow here has had his French maitre d'armes. Show me your hand, sir.' + +Weyburn smiled, and extended his right hand, saying: 'The wrist wants +exercise.' + +'Ha! square thumb, flesh full at the nails' ends; you were a bowler at +cricket.' + +'Now examine the palms, my lord; I judge by the lines on the palms,' Mrs. +Pagnell remarked. + +He nodded to her and rose. + +Coffee had not been served, she reminded him; it was coming in, so down +he sat a yard from the table; outwardly equable, inwardly cursing coffee; +though he refused to finish a meal without his cup. + +'I think the palms do betray something,' said Mrs. Lawrence; and Aminta +said: 'Everything betrays.' + +'No, my dear,' Mrs. Pagnell corrected her; 'the extremities betray, and +we cannot read the centre. Is it not so, my lord?' + +'It may be as you say, ma'am.' + +She was disappointed in her scheme to induce a general examination of +palms, and especially his sphinx lordship's. + +Weyburn controlled the tongue she so frequently tickled to an elvish +gavotte, but the humour on his face touched Mrs. Lawrence's to a subdued +good-fellow roguishness, and he felt himself invited to chat with her on +the walk for a reposeful ten minutes in Aminta's drawing-room. + +Mrs. Pagnell, 'quite enjoying the company,' as she told her niece, was +dismayed to hear her niece tell her of a milliner's appointment, positive +for three o'clock; and she had written it in her head 'p.m., four +o'clock,' and she had mislaid or destroyed the milliner's note; and she +still had designs upon his lordship's palms, things to read and hint +around her off the lines. She departed. + +Lord Ormont became genial; and there was no one present who did not +marvel that he should continue to decree a state of circumstances more or +less necessitating the infliction he groaned under. He was too lofty to +be questioned, even by his favourites. Mrs. Lawrence conjured the ghost +of Lady Charlotte for an answer: this being Lord Adderwood's idea. +Weyburn let his thoughts go on fermenting. Pride froze a beginning +stir in the bosom of Aminta. + +Her lord could captivate a reluctant woman's bosom when he was genial. +He melted her and made her call up her bitterest pride to perform its +recent office. That might have failed; but it had support in a second +letter received from the man accounted both by Mrs. Lawrence and by Mr. +Weyburn 'dangerous'; and the thought of who it was that had precipitated +her to 'play little games' for the sole sake of rousing him through +jealousy to a sense of righteous duty, armed her desperately against him. +She could exult in having read the second letter right through on receipt +of it, and in remembering certain phrases; and notably in a reflection +shot across her bewildered brain by one of the dangerous man's queer mad +sentences: 'Be as iron as you like, I will strike you to heat'; and her +thought: Is there assurance of safety in a perpetual defence?--all while +she smiled on her genial lord, and signified agreement, with a smiting of +wonderment at her heart, when he alluded to a panic shout of the country +for defence, and said: 'Much crying of that kind weakens the power to +defend when the real attack comes.' Was it true? + +'But say what you propose?' she asked. + +Lord Ormont proposed vigilance and drill; a small degree of self- +sacrifice on the part of the population, and a look-out head in the War +Department. He proposed to have a nation of stout-braced men laughing at +the foreign bully or bandit, instead of being a pack of whimpering women; +whom he likened to the randomly protestant geese of our country roadside, +heads out a yard in a gabble of defence while they go backing. + +So thereupon Aminta's notion of a resemblance in the mutual thought +subsided; she relapsed on the cushioning sentiment that she was a woman. +And--only a woman! he might exclaim, if it pleased him; though he would +never be able to say she was one of the whimpering. She, too, had the +choice to indulge in scorn of the superior man stone blind to proceedings +intimately affecting him--if he cared! One might doubt it. + +Mrs. Lawrence listened to him with a mind more disengaged, and a flitting +disapproval of Aminta's unsympathetic ear, or reluctance to stimulate the +devout attention a bruised warrior should have in his tent. She did not +press on him the post of umpire. He consented--at her request, he said-- +to visit the show; but refused any official position that would, it was +clearly enough implied, bring his name in any capacity whatever before +the country which had unpardonably maltreated him. + +Feminine wits will be set working, when a point has been gained; and as +Mrs. Lawrence could now say she had persuaded Lord Ormont to gratify her +specially, she warmed to fancy she read him, and that she might have +managed the wounded and angry giant. Her minor intelligence, caracoling +unhampered by harassing emotions, rebuked Aminta's for not perceiving +that to win him round to whatever a woman may desire, she must be with +him, outstrip him even, along the line he chooses for himself; abuse the +country, rail at the Government, ridicule the title of English Army, +proscribe the name of India in his hearing. Little stings of jealousy +are small insect bites, and do not pique a wounded giant hardly sensible +of irritation under his huge, and as we assume for our purpose, +justifiable wrath. We have to speculate which way does the giant incline +to go? and turn him according to the indication. + +Mrs. Lawrence was driven by her critic mood to think Aminta relied-- +erroneously, after woman's old fashion--on the might of superb dark eyes +after having been captured. It seemed to her worse than a beautiful +woman's vanity, a childishness. But her boy's head held boy's brains; +and Lord Ormont's praise of the splendid creature's nerve when she had to +smell powder in Spain, and at bull-fights, and once at a wrecking of +their carriage down a gully on the road over the Alpujarras, sent her +away subdued, envious, happy to have kissed the cheek of the woman who +could inspire it. + + + + +CHAPTER IX. + +A FLASH OF THE BRUISED WARRIOR + +The winning of Lord Ormont's consent to look on at the little bout of +arms was counted an achievement; for even in his own rarefied upper +circle, where the fervid sentiments are not allowed to be seen plunging, +he had his troop of enthusiasts; and they were anxious that he should +make an appearance in public, to take what consolation a misunderstood +and injured man could get from evidence of the grateful esteem +entertained for him by a party of his countrymen, who might reasonably +expect at the same time to set eyes, at rather close quarters, on the +wonderful dark beauty, supposed a Spaniard, occasionally beheld riding +beside him. If it is possible to connect a woman with the devoutest of +their anticipations, the sons of leisure up there will do it. But, in +truth, an English world was having cause to ransack the dust-heaps for +neglected men of mettle. Our intermittent ague, known as dread of +invasion, was over the land. Twice down the columns of panic newspaper +correspondence Lord Ormont saw his name cited, with the effect on him +that such signs of national repentance approaching lodged a crabbed +sourness in his consulting-room, whether of head or breast. + +He was assailed by a gusty appeal from Lady Charlotte, bidding him seize +the moment to proclaim his views while the secretary had a private +missive from her, wherein, between insistency and supplication, she +directed him to bring the subject before my lord every day, and be sure +to write out a fair copy of the epistle previous to the transmission of +it. 'Capua' was mentioned; she brought in 'a siren,' too. Her brother +was to be the soldier again--fling off silken bonds. The world might +prate of his morality; now was the hour for showing his patriotism, +casting aside his just anger, and backing his chief's opinion. 'A good +chance to get their names together.' To her brother she declared that +the columns of the leading journal were open to him--'in large type'; he +was to take her word for it; he had only to 'dictate away,' quite at his +ease, just as he talked at Olmer, and leave the bother of the scribe's +business to his aide. 'Lose no time,' she concluded; 'the country wants +your ideas; let us have your plan.' + +The earl raised his shoulders, and kept his aide exclusively at the +Memoirs. Weyburn, however, read out to him, with accentuation, foolish +stuff in the recurrent correspondence of the daily sheets, and a +complacent burgess article, meant to be a summary of the controversy and +a recommendation to the country to bask in the sun of its wealth again. + +'Ay, be the porker sow it's getting liker and liker to every year!' Lord +Ormont exclaimed, and sprang on his feet. 'Take a pen. Shut up that +box. We'll give 'em digestive biscuits for their weak stomachs. +Invasion can't be done, they say! I tell the doddered asses Napoleon +would have been over if Villeneuve had obeyed him to the letter. +Villeneuve had a fit of paralysis, owing to the prestige of Nelson-- +that 's as it happened. And they swear at prestige, won't believe in it, +because it's not fat bacon. I tell them, after Napoleon's first battles, +prestige did half his work for him. It saved him at Essling from a +plunge into the Danube; it saved him at Moskowa; it would have marched +him half over England at his first jump on our shingle beach. But that +squelch of fat citizens should be told--to the devil with them! will they +ever learn? short of a second William!--there were eight-and-forty hours +when the liberty of this country hung wavering in the balance with those +Boulogne boats. Now look at Ulm and Austerlitz. Essling, Wagram; put +the victors in those little affairs to front our awkward squads. The +French could boast a regimental system, and chiefs who held them as the +whist-player his hand of cards. Had we a better general than the +Archduke Charles? or cavalry and artillery equal to the Hungarian? +or drilled infantry numbering within eighty thousand of the Boulogne- +Wimereux camps? We had nothing but the raw material of courage--pluck, +and no science. Ask any boxing man what he thinks of the chances. +The French might have sacrificed a fleet to land fifty thousand. +Our fleet was our one chance. Any foreign General at the head of fifty +thousand trained, picked troops would risk it, and cut an 'entrechat' for +joy of the chance. We should have fought and bled and been marched over +--a field of Anglo-Saxon stubble! and Nelson riding the Channel, +undisputed lord of the waters. Heigh! by the Lord, this country would +have been like a man free to rub his skin with his hand and a mortal +disease in his blood. Are you ready? How anticipate a hostile march on +the capital, is our business.' + +Striding up and down the library, Lord Ormont dropped his wrath to +dictate the practical measures for defence--detesting the cat's-cry +'defence,' he said; but the foe would bring his old growlers, and we +should have to season our handful of regulars and mob of levies, turn the +mass into troops. With plenty of food, and blows daily, Englishmen soon +get stomachs for the right way to play the game; bowl as well as bat; and +the sooner they give up the idea of shamming sturdy on a stiff hind leg, +the better for their chances. Only, it's a beastly thing to see that for +their favourite attitude;--like some dog of a fellow weak in the fists, +weaker in the midriff, at a fair, who cries, Come on, and prays his gods +you won't. All for peace, the rascal boasts himself, and he beats his +wife and kicks his curs at home. Is there any one to help him now, he +vomits gold and honours on the man he yesterday treated as a felon. Ha! + +Bull the bumpkin disposed of, my lord drew leisurely back from the +foeman's landing-place, at the head of a body of serious Englishmen; +teaching them to be manageable as chess-pieces, ready as bow-strings to +let fly. Weyburn rejoiced to find himself transcribing crisp sentences, +hard on the matter, without garnish of scorn. Kent, Sussex, Surrey, all +the southern heights about London, round away to the south-western of the +Hampshire heathland, were accurately mapped in the old warrior's brain. +He knew his points of vantage by name; there were no references to +gazetteer or atlas. A chain of forts and earthworks enables us to choose +our ground, not for clinging to them, but for choice of time and place to +give battle. If we have not been playing double-dyed traitor to +ourselves, we have a preponderating field artillery; our yeomanry and +volunteer horsemen are becoming a serviceable cavalry arm; our infantry +prove that their heterogeneous composition can be welded to a handy mass, +and can stand fire and return it, and not be beaten by an acknowledged +defeat. + +'That's English! yes, that's English! when they're at it,' my lord sang +out. + +'To know how to take a licking, that wins in the end,' cried Weyburn; his +former enthusiasm for the hero mounting, enlightened by a reminiscence of +the precept he had hammered on the boys at Cuper's. + +'They fall well. Yes, the English fall like men,' said my lord, +pardoning and embracing the cuffed nation. 'Bodies knocked over, hearts +upright. That's example; we breed Ironsides out of a sight like that. +If it weren't for a cursed feeble Government scraping 'conges' to the +taxpayer--well, so many of our good fellows would not have to fall. That +I say; for this thing is going to happen some day, mind you, sir! And I +don't want to have puncheons and hogsheads of our English blood poured +out merely to water the soil of a conquered country because English +Governments are a craven lot, not daring risk of office by offending the +taxpayer. But, on!' + +Weyburn sent Lady Charlotte glowing words of the composition in progress. + +They worked through a day, and a second day--talked of nothing else in +the intervals. Explanatory answers were vouchsafed to Aminta's modest +inquiries at Finch, as she pictured scenes of smoke, dust and blood from +the overpowering plain masculine lines they drew, terrible in bluntness. +The third morning Lord Ormont had map and book to verify distances and +attempt a scale of heights, take names of estates, farms, parishes, +commons, patches of woodland. Weyburn wrote his fair copy on folio +paper, seven-and-thirty pages. He read it aloud to the author on the +afternoon of the fourth day, with the satisfaction in his voice that he +felt. My lord listened and nodded. The plan for the defence of +England's heart was a good plan. + +He signed to have the manuscript handed to him. A fortified London +secure of the Thames for abundant supplies, well able to breathe within +earthworks extending along the southern hills, was clearly shown to stand +the loss of two big battles on the Sussex weald or more East to North- +east, if fortune willed it. + +He rose from his chair, paced some steps, with bent head, came back +thoughtfully, lifted the manuscript sheets for another examination. +Then he stooped to the fire, spreading the edges unevenly, so that they +caught flame. Weyburn spied at him. It was to all appearance the doing +of a man who had intended it and brought it to the predetermined +conclusion. + +'About time for you to be off for your turn at Chiallo's,' our country's +defender remarked, after tossing the last half-burnt lump under the grate +and shovelling at it. + +'I will go, my lord,' said Weyburn--and he was glad to go. + +He went, calculated his term of service under Lord Ormont. He was young, +not a philosopher. Waste of anything was abhorrent to a nature pointed +at store of daily gain, if it were only the gain in a new or a freshened +idea; and time lost, work lost, good counsel to the nation lost, +represented horrid vacuity to him, and called up the counter +demonstration of a dance down the halls of madness, for proof that we +should, at least, have jolly motion of limbs there before Perdition +struck the great gong. Ay, and we should be twirling with a fair form on +the arm: woman and man; as it ought to be; twirling downward, true, but +together. Such a companionship has a wisdom to raise it above the title +of madness. Name it, heartily, pleasure; and in contempt of the moralist +burgess, praise the dance of a woman and the man together high over a +curmudgeonly humping solitariness, that won't forgive an injury, nurses +rancour, smacks itself in the face, because it can't--to use the old +schoolboy words--take a licking! + +These were the huddled, drunken sensations and thoughts entertained by +Weyburn, without his reflecting on the detachment from his old hero, of +which they were the sign. He criticized impulsively, and fancied he did +no more, and was not doing much though, in fact, criticism is the end of +worship; the Brutus blow at that Imperial but mortal bosom. + +The person criticized was manifest. Who was the woman he twirled with? +She was unfeatured, undistinguished, one of the sex, or all the sex: the +sex to be shunned as our deadly sapper of gain, unless we find the chosen +one to super-terrestrialize it and us, and trebly outdo our gift of our +whole self for her. + +She was indistinguishable, absolutely unknown; yet she murmured, or +seemed to murmur--for there was no sound--a complaint of Lord Ormont. +And she, or some soundless mouth of woman, said he was a splendid +military hero, a chivalrous man, a man of inflexible honour; but had no +understanding of how to treat a woman, or belief in her having equal life +with him on earth. + +She was put aside rather petulantly, and she took her seat out of the +whirl with submission. Thinking she certainly was not Browny, whom he +would have known among a million, he tried to quit the hall, and he +twirled afresh, necessarily not alone; it is the unpardonable offence +both to the Graces and the Great Mother for man to valse alone. She +twirled on his arm, uninvited; accepted, as in the course of nature; +hugged, under dictate of the nature of the man steeled against her by the +counting of gain, and going now at desperation's pace, by very means of +those defensive locked steam-valves meant to preserve him from this +madness,--for the words of the red-lipped mate, where there were no +words, went through him like a music when the bow is over the viol, +sweeping imagination, and they said her life was wasting. + +Was not she a priceless manuscript cast to the flames? Her lord had been +at some trouble to win her. Or his great fame and his shadowed fortunes +had won her. He took her for his own, and he would not call her his own. +He comported himself with absolute, with kindly deference to the lady +whose more than vital spark he let the gossips puff at and blur. He +praised her courage, visibly admired her person, admitted her in private +to be his equal, degraded her in public. Could anything account for the +behaviour of so manly and noble a gentleman?--Rhetoric made the attempt, +and Weyburn gave up the windy business. + +Discovering that his fair partner of the wasting life was--he struggled +to quench the revelation--Aminta, he stopped the dance. If there was no +gain in whirling fancifully with one of the sex, a spin of a minute with +her was downright bankruptcy. + +He was young, full of blood; his heart led him away from the door Lord +Ormont had exposed; at which a little patient unemotional watchfulness +might have intimated to him something besides the simple source of the +old hero's complex chapter of conduct. As it was, Weyburn did see the +rancour of a raw wound in operation. But he moralized and disapproved; +telling himself, truly enough, that so it would not have been with him; +instead of sounding at my lord's character, and his condition of the +unjustly neglected great soldier, for the purpose of asking how that raw +wound would affect an injured veteran, who compressed, almost repressed, +the roar of Achilles, though his military bright name was to him his +Briseis. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +A SHORT PASSAGE IN THE GAME PLAYED BY TWO + +Politest of men in the domestic circle and everywhere among women, Lord +Ormont was annoyed to find himself often gruffish behind the tie of his +cravat. Indeed, the temper of our eminently serene will feel the strain +of a doldrum-dulness that is goaded to activity by a nettle. The +forbearance he carried farther than most could do was tempted to kick, +under pressure of Mrs. Nargett Pagnell. Without much blaming Aminta, on +whose behalf he submitted to it, and whose resolution to fix in England +had brought it to this crisis, he magnanimously proposed to the Fair +Enemy he forced her to be, and liked to picture her as being, a month in +Paris. + +Aminta declined it for herself; after six or more years of travelling, +she wished to settle, and know her country, she said: a repetition +remark, wide of the point, and indicatory to the game of Pull she was +again playing beneath her smooth visage, unaware that she had the wariest +of partners at the game. + +'But go you--do, I beg,' she entreated. 'It will give you new +impressions; and I cannot bear to tie you down here.' + +'How you can consent to be tied down here, is the wonder to me!' said he. +'When we travelled through the year, just visited England and were off +again, we were driving on our own road. Vienna in April and May--what do +you say? You like the reviews there, and the dances, concerts, Zigeuner +bands, military Bohemian bands. Or Egypt to-morrow, if you like--though +you can't be permitted to swim in the Nile, as you wanted. Come, Xarifa, +speak it. I go to exile without you. Say you come.' + +She smiled firmly. The name of her honeymoon days was not a cajolery to +her. + +His name had been that of the Christian Romancero Knight Durandarte, and +she gave it to him, to be on the proper level with him, while she still +declined. + +'Well, but just a month in Paris! There's nothing doing here. And we +both like the French theatre.' + +'London will soon be filling.' + +'Well, but--' He stopped; for the filling of London did really concern +her, in the game of Pull she was covertly playing with him. 'You seem to +have caught the fever of this London; . . . no bands . . . no +reviews . . . Low comedy acting.' He muttered his objections to +London. + +'The society of people speaking one's own tongue, add that,' she ventured +to say. + +'You know you are ten times more Spanish than English. Moorish, if you +like.' + +'The slave of the gallant Christian Knight, converted, baptized, and +blissful. Oh, I know. But now we are settled in England, I have a wish +to study English society.' + +'Disappointing, I assure you;--dinners heavy, dancing boorish, intrigue a +blind-man's-buff. We've been over it all before !' + +'We have.' + +'Admired, I dare say. You won't be understood.' + +'I like my countrymen.' + +'The women have good looks--of the ungarnished kind. The men are louts.' + +'They are brave.' + +'You're to see their fencing. You'll own a little goes a long way.' + +'I think it will amuse me.' + +'So I thought when I gave the nod to Isabella your friend.' + +'You like her?' + +'You, too.' + +'One fancies she would make an encouraging second in a duel.' + +'I will remember . . . when I call you out.' + +'Oh, my dear lord, you have dozens to choose from leave me my one if we +are to enter the lists.' + +'We are, it seems; unless you consent to take the run to Paris. You are +to say Tom or Rowsley.' + +'The former, I can never feel at home in saying; Rowsley is Lady +Charlotte's name for you.' + +The name of Lady Charlotte was an invitation to the conflict between +them. He passed it, and said 'Durandarte runs a mile on the mouth, and +the Coriolanus of their newspapers helps a stage-player to make lantern +jaws. Neither of them comes well from the lips of my girl. After seven +years she should have hit on a nickname, of none of the Christian suit. +I am not "at home" either with "my lord." However, you send me off to +Paris alone; and you'll be alone and dull here in this London. +Incomprehensible to me why!' + +'We are both wondering?' said Aminta. + +'You 're handsomer than when I met you first--by heaven you are!' + +She flushed her dark brown-red late-sunset. 'Brunes are exceptional in +England.' + +'Thousands admiring you, of course! I know, my love, I have a jewel.' + +She asked him: 'What are jewels for?' and he replied, 'To excite +cupidity.' + +'When they 're shut in a box?' + +'Ware burglars! But this one is not shut up. She shuts herself up. And +up go her shoulders! Decide to be out of it, and come to Paris for some +life for a month. No? It's positive? When do you expect your little +school friend?' + +'After Easter. Aunt will be away.' + +'Your little friend likes the country. I'll go to my house agents. If +there 's a country house open on the upper Thames, you can have swimming, +boating, botanizing . . .' + +He saw her throat swallow. But as he was offering agreeable things he +chose to not understand how he was to be compassionate. + +'Steignton?' she said, and did her cause no good by saying it feebly. + +His look of a bygone awake-in-sleep old look, drearily known to her, was +like a strip of sunlight on a fortress wall. It signified, Is the poor +soul pushing me back to that again? + +She compelled herself to say: 'Your tenant there?' + +'Matter of business . . . me and my tenant,' he remarked. 'The man +pays punctually.' + +'The lease has expired.' + +'Not quite. You are misinformed.' + +'At Easter.' + +'Ah! Question of renewing.' + +'You were fond of the place.' + +'I was fond of the place? Thank Blazes, I'm not what I was!' He paced +about. 'There's not a corner of the place that doesn't screw an eye at +me, because I had a dream there. La gloire!' + +The rest he muttered. 'These English!' was heard. Aminta said: 'Am I +never to see Steignton?' + +Lord Ormont invoked the Powers. He could not really give answer to this +female talk of the eternities. + +'Beaten I can never be,' he said, with instinctive indulgence to the +greater creature. 'But down there at Steignton, I should be haunted by a +young donkey swearing himself the fellow I grew up out of. No doubt of +that. I don't like him the better for it. Steignton grimaces at a +cavalry officer fool enough at his own risks and penalties to help save +India for the English. Maunderers! You can't tell--they don't know +themselves--what they mean. Except that they 're ready to take anything +you hand 'em, and then pipe to your swinging. I served them well--and at +my age, in full activity, they condemn me to sit and gape!' + +He stopped his pacing and gazed on the glass of the window. + +'Would you wish me not to be present at this fencing?' said Aminta. + +'Dear me! by all means, go, my love,' he replied. + +Any step his Fair Enemy won in the secret game Pull between them, she was +undisputedly to keep. + +She suggested: 'It might lead to unpleasantness.' + +'Of what sort?' + +'You ask?' + +He emphasized: 'Have you forgotten? Something happened after that last +ball at Challis's Rooms. Their women as well as their men must be +careful not to cross me.' + +Aminta had confused notions of her being planted in hostile territory, +and torn and knitted, trumpeted to the world as mended, but not +honourably mended in a way to stop corridor scandal. The ball at +Challis's Rooms had been one of her steps won: it had necessitated a +requirement for the lion in her lord to exhibit himself, and she had +gained nothing with Society by the step, owing to her poor performance +of the lion's mate. She had, in other words, shunned the countenance of +some scattered people pityingly ready to support her against the deadly +passive party known to be Lady Charlotte's. + +She let her lord go; thinking that once more had she striven and gained +nothing: which was true of all their direct engagements. And she had +failed because of her being only a woman! Mr. Morsfield was foolishly +wrong in declaring that she, as a woman, had reserves of strength. He +was perhaps of Lady Charlotte's mind with regard to the existence of a +Countess of Ormont, or he would know her to be incredibly cowardly. +Cowardly under the boast of pride, too; well, then, say, if you like, a +woman! + +Yet this mere shallow woman would not hesitate to meet the terrible Lady +Charlotte at any instant, on any terms: and what are we to think of a +soldier, hero, lion, dreading to tell her to her face that the persecuted +woman is his wife! + +'Am I a woman they can be ashamed of?' she asked, and did not seek the +answer at her mirror. She was in her bedroom, and she put out a hand to +her jewel-box, fingered it, found it locked, and abandoned her idle +project. A gentleman was 'dangerous.' She had not found him so. He had +the reputation, perhaps, because he was earnest. Not so very many men +are earnest. She called to recollection how ludicrously practical he was +in the thick of his passion. His third letter (addressed to the Countess +of Ormont--whom he manifestly did not or would not take to be the +veritable Countess--and there was much to plead for his error), or was it +his fourth?--the letters were a tropical hail-storm: third or fourth, he +broke off a streaked thunderpeal, to capitulate his worldly possessions, +give the names and degrees of kinship of his relatives, the exact amount +of the rent-roll of his Yorkshire estates, of his funded property. + +Silly man! but not contemptible. He proposed everything in honour, from +his view of it. + +Whether in his third, fourth, or fifth letter. . . . How many had +come? She drew the key from her purse, and opened a drawer. The key of +the jewel-box was applied to the lock. + +Mr. Morsfield had sent her six flaming letters. He not only took no +precautions, he boasted that he hailed the consequences of discovery. +Six! + +She lifted a pen: it had to be done. + +He was briefly informed that he disturbed her peace. She begged he would +abstain from any further writing to her. + +The severity was in the brevity. The contrast of her style and his +appeared harsh. But it belonged to the position. + +Having with one dash of the pen scribbled her three lines, she slipped +the letter into her pocket. That was done, and it had to be done; it +ought to have been done before. How simple it was when one contemplated +it as actually done! Aminta made the motion of a hand along the paper, +just a flourish. Soon after, her head dropped back on the chair, and her +eyes shut, she took in breath through parted lips. The brief lines of +writing had cut away a lump of her vitality. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +THE SECRETARY TAKEN AS AN ANTIDOTE + +Dusty wayfarers along a white high-road who know of a bubbling little +spring across a stile, on the woodland borders of deep grass, are hailed +to sit aside it awhile: and Aminta's feverishness was cooled by now and +then a quiet conversation with the secretary ambitious to become a +school-master. Lady Charlotte liked him, so did her lord; Mrs. Lawrence +had chatted with him freshly, as it was refreshing to recollect; nobody +thought him a stunted growth. + +In Aminta's realized recollections, amid the existing troubles of her +mind, the charge against him grew paler, and she could no longer quite +think that the young hero transformed into a Mr. Cuper had deceived her, +though he had done it--much as if she had assisted at the planting and +watched aforetime the promise of a noble tree, to find it, after an +interval of years, pollarded--a short trunk shooting out a shock of +small, slim, stiff branches; dwarfed and disgraced; serviceable perhaps; +not ludicrous or ugly, certainly, taking it for a pollard. And he was a +cool well-spring to talk with. He, supposed once to be a passionate +nature, scorned passion as a madness; he smiled in his merciful +executioner's way at the high society, of which her aim was to pass for +one among the butterflies or dragonflies; he had lost his patriotism; he +labelled our English classes the skimmers, the gorgers, the grubbers, and +stigmatized them with a friendly air; and uttered words of tolerance only +for farmers and surgeons and schoolmasters. But that was quite +incidental in the humorous run of his talk, diverting to hear while it +lasted. He had, of course, a right to his ideas. + +No longer concerned in contesting them, she drank at the water of this +plain earth-well, and hoped she preferred it to fiery draughts, though it +was flattish, or, say, flavourless. In the other there was excess of +flavour--or, no, spice it had to be called. The young schoolmaster's +world seemed a sunless place, the world of traders bargaining for gain, +without a glimmer of the rich generosity to venture life, give it, dare +all for native land--or for the one beloved. Love pressed its claim on +heroical generosity, and instantly it suffused her, as an earth under +flush of sky. The one beloved! She had not known love; she was in her +five-and-twentieth year, and love was not only unknown to her, it was +shut away from her by the lock of a key that opened on no estimable +worldly advantage in exchange, but opened on a dreary, clouded round, +such as she had used to fancy it must be to the beautiful creamy circus- +horse of the tossing mane and flowing tail and superb step. She was +admired; she was just as much doomed to a round of paces, denied the +glorious fling afield, her nature's food. Hitherto she would have been +shamefaced as a boy in forming the word 'love': now, believing it denied +to her for good and all--for ever and ever--her bosom held and uttered +the word. She saw the word, the nothing but the word that it was, and +she envisaged it, for the purpose of saying adieu to it--good-bye even to +the poor empty word. + +This condition was attributable to a gentleman's wild rageing with the +word, into which he had not infused the mystic spirit. He poured hot +wine and spiced. If not the spirit of love, it was really the passion of +the man. Her tremors now and again in the reading of his later letters +humiliated her, in the knowledge that they came of no response to him, +but from the temporary base acquiescence; which is, with women, a +terrible perception of the gulf of their unsatisfied nature. + +The secretary, cheerful at his work, was found for just the opening of a +door. Sometimes she hesitated--to disturb him, she said to herself,--and +went up-stairs or out visiting. He protested that he could work on and +talk too. She was able to amuse her lord with some of his ideas. He had +a stock of them, all his own. + +Ideas, new-born and naked original ideas, are acceptable at no time to +the humanity they visit to help uplift, it from the state of beast. In +the England of that, period original or unknown ideas were a smoking +brimstone to the nose, dread Arabian afrites, invisible in the air, +jumping out of vases, armed for the slaughter of the venerable and the +cherished, the ivy-clad and celestially haloed. They carried the +dishevelled Maenad's torch. A step with them, and we were on the +Phlegethon waters of the French Revolution. For a publication of simple +ideas men were seized, tried at law, mulcted, imprisoned, and not +pardoned after the term of punishment; their names were branded: the +horned elect butted at them; he who alluded to them offered them up, +wittingly or not, to be damned in the nose of the public for an +execrable brimstone stench. + +Lord Ormont broke through his shouts or grunts at Aminta's report of the +secretary's ideas on various topics, particularly the proposal that the +lords of the land should head the land in a revolutionary effort to make +law of his crazy, top-heavy notions, with a self-satisfied ejaculation: +'He has not favoured me with any of these puffballs of his.' + +The deduction was, that the author sagaciously considered them adapted +for the ear of a woman; they were womanish--i.e. flighty, gossamer. To +the host of males, all ideas are female until they are made facts. + +This idea, proposing it to our aristocracy to take up his other ideas, +or reject them on pain of the forfeiture of their caste and headship with +the generations to follow, and a total displacing of them in history by +certain notorious, frowzy, scrubby pamphleteers and publishers, Lord +Ormont thought amazingly comical. English nobles heading the weavers, +cobblers, and barbers of England! He laughed, but he said, 'Charlotte +would listen to that.' + +The dread, high-sitting Lady Charlotte was, in his lofty thinking, +a woman, and would therefore listen to nonsense, if it happened to +strike a particular set of bells hanging in her cranium. She patronized +blasphemous and traitorous law-breakers, just to keep up the pluck of the +people, not with a notion of maintaining our English aristocracy eminent +in history. + +Lady Charlotte, however, would be the foremost to swoop down on the +secretary's ideas about the education of women. + +On that subject, Aminta said she did not know what to think. + +Now, if a man states the matter he thinks, and a woman does but listen, +whether inclining to agree or not, a perceptible stamp is left on soft +wax. Lord Ormont told her so, with cavalier kindness. + +She confessed 'she did not know what to think,' when the secretary +proposed the education and collocation of boys and girls in one group, +never separated, declaring it the only way for them to learn to know and +to respect one another. They were to learn together, play together, have +matches together, as a scheme for stopping the mischief between them. + +'But, my dear girl, don't you see, the devilry was intended by Nature. +Life would be the coldest of dishes without it.' And as for mixing the +breeched and petticoated in those young days--'I can't enter into it,' +my lord considerately said. 'All I can tell you is, I know boys.' + +Aminta persisted in looking thoughtful. 'Things are bad, as they are +now,' she said. + +'Always were--always will be. They were intended to be, if we are to +call them bad. Botched mendings will only make them worse.' + +'Which side suffers?' + +'Both; and both like it. One side must be beaten at any game. It's off +and on, pretty equal--except in the sets where one side wears thick +boots. Is this fellow for starting a mixed sexes school? Funny +mothers!' + +'I suppose--' Aminta said, and checked the supposition. 'The mothers +would not leave their girls unless they were confident . . . ?' + +'There's to be a female head of the female department? He reckons on +finding a woman as big a fool as himself? A fair bit of reckoning +enough. He's clever at the pen. He doesn't bother me with his ideas; now +and then I 've caught a sound of his bee buzzing.' + +The secretary was left undisturbed at his labours for several days. + +He would have been gladdened by a brighter look of her eyes at her next +coming. They were introspective and beamless. She had an odd leaning +to the talk upon Cuper's boys. He was puzzled by what he might have +classed, in any other woman, as a want of delicacy, when she recurred to +incidents which were red patches of the school time, and had clearly lost +their glow for her. + +A letter once written by him, in his early days at Cuper's, addressed to +J. Masner, containing a provocation to fight with any weapons, and +signed, 'Your Antagonist,' had been read out to the whole school, under +strong denunciation of the immorality, the unchristian-like conduct of +the writer, by Mr. Cuper; creating a sensation that had travelled to Miss +Vincent's establishment, where some of the naughtiest of the girls had +taken part with the audacious challenger, dreadful though the +contemplation of a possible duel so close to them was. And then the +girls heard that the anonymous 'Your Antagonist,' on being cited to +proclaim himself in public assembly of school-mates and masters, had +jumped on his legs and into the name of--one who was previously thought +by Miss Vincent's good girls incapable of the 'appalling wickedness,' as +Mr. Cuper called it, of signing 'Your Antagonist' to a Christian school- +fellow, having the design to provoke a breach of the law of the land and +shed Christian blood. Mr. Cuper delivered an impressive sermon from his +desk to the standing up boarders and day-scholars alike, vilifying the +infidel Greek word 'antagonist.' + +'Do you remember the offender's name?' the Countess of Ormont said; and +Weyburn said-- + +'Oh yes, I 've not forgotten the incident.' + +Her eyes, wherein the dead time hung just above the underlids, lingered, +as with the wish for him to name the name. + +She said: 'I am curious to hear how you would treat a case of that sort. +Would you preach to the boys? + +'Ten words at most. The right assumption is that both fellows were to +blame. I fancy the proper way would be to appeal to the naughty girls +for their opinion as to how the dispute should be decided.' + +'You impose too much on them. And you are not speaking seriously.' + +'Pardon me, I am. I should throw myself into the mind of a naughty girl +--supposing none of these at hand--and I should let it be known that my +eyes were shut to proceedings, always provided the weapons were not such +as would cause a shock of alarm in female bosoms.' + +'You would at your school allow it to be fought out?' + +'Judging by the characters of the boys. If they had heads to understand, +I would try them at their heads. Otherwise they are the better, they +come round quicker to good blood, at their age--I speak of English boys +--for a little hostile exercise of their fists. Well, for one thing, it +teaches them the value of sparring.' + +'I must imagine I am not one of the naughty sisterhood,--for I cannot +think I should ever give consent to fighting of any description, unless +for the very best of reasons,' said the countess. + +His eyes were at the trick of the quarter-minute's poising. Her lids +fluttered. 'Oh, I don't mean to say I was one of the good,' she added. + +At the same time her enlivened memory made her conscious of a warning, +that she might, as any woman might, so talk on of past days as to take, +rather more than was required of the antidote she had come for. + +The antidote was excellent; cooling, fortifying; 'quite a chalybeate,' +her aunt would say, and she was thankful. Her heart rose on a quiet wave +of the thanks, and pitched down to a depth of uncounted fathoms. Aminta +was unable to tell herself why. + +Mrs. Lawrence Finchley had been announced. On her way to the drawing +room Aminta's brain fell upon a series of dots, that wound along a track +to the point where she accused herself of a repented coquettry--cause of +the burning letters she was doomed to receive and could not stop without +rousing her lion. She dotted backwards; there was no sign that she had +been guilty of any weakness other than the almost--at least, in design-- +innocent first move, which had failed to touch Lord Ormont in the +smallest degree. Never failure more absolute! + +She was about to inquire of her bosom's oracle whether she greatly cared +now. For an answer, her brain went dotting along from Mr. Cuper's +school, and a boy named Abner there, and a boy named Matey Weyburn, who +protected the little Jew-boy, up to Mr. Abner in London, who recommended +him in due season to various acquaintances; among them to Lady Charlotte +Eglett. Hence the introduction to Lord Ormont. How little extraordinary +circumstances are, if only we trace them to the source! + +But if only it had appeared marvellous, the throbbing woman might have +seized on it, as a thing fateful, an intervention distinctly designed to +waken the best in her, which was, after all, the strongest. Yea, she +could hope and pray and believe it was the strongest. + +She was listening to Isabella Lawrence Finchley, wishing she might have +followed to some end the above line of her meditations. + +Mrs. Lawrence was changed, much warmer, pressing to be more than merely +friendly. Aminta twice gave her cheek for kisses. The secretary had +spoken of Mrs. Lawrence as having the look of a handsome boy; and +Aminta's view of her now underwent a change likewise. Compunction, +together with a sisterly taste for the boyish fair one flying her sail +independently, and gallantly braving the winds, induced her to kiss in +return. + +'You do like me a morsel?' said Mrs. Lawrence. 'I fell in love with you +the last time I was here. I came to see Mr. Secretary--it's avowed; and +I have been thinking of you ever since, of no one else. Oh yes, for a +man; but you caught me. I've been hearing of him from Captain May. They +fence at those rooms. And it 's funny, Mr. Morsfield practises there, +you know; and there was a time when the lovely innocent Amy, Queen of +Blondes, held the seat of the Queen of Brunes. Ah, my dear, the +infidelity of men doesn't count. They are affected by the changeing +moons. As long as the captain is civil to him, we may be sure beautiful +Amy has not complained. Her husband is the pistol she carries in her +pocket, and she has fired him twice, with effect. Through love of you I +have learnt the different opinion the world of the good has of her and of +me; I thought we ran under a common brand. There are gradations. I went +to throw myself at the feet of my great-aunt; good old great-aunt Lady de +Culme, who is a power in the land. I let her suppose I came for myself, +and she reproached me with Lord Adder. I confessed to him and ten +others. She is a dear, she's ticklish, and at eighty-four she laughed! +She looked into my eyes and saw a field with never a man in it--just the +shadow of a man. She admitted the ten cancelled the one, and exactly +named to me, by comparison with the erring Amy, the sinner I am and must +be, if I 'm to live. So, dear, the end of it is,' and Mrs. Lawrence put +her fingers to a silken amber bow at Aminta's throat, and squared it and +flattened it with dainty precision, speaking on under dropped eyelids, +intent upon her work, 'Lady de Culme will be happy to welcome you +whenever it shall suit the Countess of Ormont to accompany her +disreputable friend. But what can I do, dear?' She raised her lids and +looked beseechingly. 'I was born with this taste for the ways and games +and style of men. I hope I don't get on badly with women; but if I 'm +not allowed to indulge my natural taste, I kick the stable-boards and +bite the manger.' + +Aminta threw her arms round her, and they laughed their mutual peal. + +Caressing her still, Aminta said: 'I don't know whether I embrace a boy.' + +'That idea comes from a man!' said Mrs. Lawrence. It was admitted. The +secretary was discussed. + +Mrs. Lawrence remarked: 'Yes, I like talking with him; he's bright. You +drove him out of me the day I saw him. Doesn't he give you the idea of a +man who insists on capturing you and lets it be seen he doesn't care two +snaps of a finger?' + +Aminta petitioned on his behalf indifferently: 'He 's well bred.' + +She was inattentive to Mrs. Lawrence's answer. The allusion of the Queen +of Blondes had stung her in the unacknowledged regions where women +discard themselves and are most sensitive. + +'Decide on coming soon to Lady de Culme,' said Mrs. Lawrence. 'Now that +her arms are open to you, she would like to have you in them. She is +old--. You won't be rigorous? no standing on small punctilios? + +She would call, but she does not--h'm, it is M. le Comte that she does +not choose to--h'm. But her arms are open to the countess. It ought to +be a grand step. You may be assured that Lady Charlotte Eglett would +not be taken into them. My great-aunt has a great-aunt's memory. The +Ormonts are the only explanation--if it 's an apology--she can offer for +the behaviour of the husband of the Countess of Ormont. You know I like +him. I can't help liking a man who likes me. Is that the way with a +boy, Mr. Secretary? I must have another talk with the gentleman, my +dear. You are Aminta to me.' + +'Always Aminta to you,' was the reply, tenderly given. + +'But as for comprehending him, I'm as far off that as Lady de Culme, who +hasn't the liking for him I have.' + +'The earl?' said Aminta, showing by her look that she was in the same +position. + +Mrs. Lawrence shrugged: 'I believe men and women marry in order that they +should never be able to understand one another. The riddle's best read +at a moderate distance. It 's what they call the golden mean; too close, +too far, we're strangers. I begin to understand that husband of mine, +now we're on bowing terms. Now, I must meet the earl to-morrow. You +will arrange? His hand wants forcing. Upon my word, I don't believe it +'s more.' + +Mrs. Lawrence contrasted him in her mind with the husband she knew, and +was invigorated by the thought that a placable impenetrable giant may +often be more pliable in a woman's hands than an irascible dwarf--until, +perchance, the latter has been soundly cuffed, and then he is docile to +trot like a squire, as near your heels as he can get. She rejoiced to +be working for the woman she had fallen in love with. + +Aminta promised herself to show the friend a livelier affection at their +next meeting. + +A seventh letter, signed 'Adolphus,' came by post, was read and locked up +in her jewel-box. They were all nigh destruction for a wavering minute +or so. They were placed where they lay because the first of them had +been laid there, the box being a strong one, under a patent key, and +discovery would mean the terrible. They had not been destroyed because +they had, or seemed to her to have, the language of passion. She could +read them unmoved, and appease a wicked craving she owned to having, and +reproached herself with having, for that language. + +Was she not colour in the sight of men? Here was one, a mouthpiece of +numbers, who vowed that homage was her due, and devotion, the pouring +forth of the soul to her. What was the reproach if she read the stuff +unmoved? + +But peruse and reperuse it, and ask impressions to tell our deepest +instinct of truthfulness whether language of this character can have been +written to two women by one hand! Men are cunning. Can they catch a +tone? Not that tone! + +She, too, Mrs. Amy May, was colour in the sight of men. Yet it seemed +that he could not have written so to the Queen of Blondes. And she, by +repute, was as dangerous to slight as he to attract. Her indifference +exonerated him. Besides, a Queen of Blondes would not draw the hearts +out of men in England, as in Italy and in Spain. Aminta had got thus far +when she found 'Queen of Brunes' expunged by a mist: she imagined +hearing the secretary's laugh. She thought he was right to laugh at her. +She retorted simply: 'These are feelings that are poetry.' + +A man may know nothing about them, and be an excellent schoolmaster. + +Suggestions touching the prudence of taking Mrs. Lawrence into her +confidence, as regarded these troublesome letters of the man with the +dart in his breast, were shuffled aside for various reasons: her modesty +shrank; and a sense of honour toward the man forbade it. She would have +found it easier to do if she had conspired against her heart in doing it. +And yet, cold-bloodedly to expose him and pluck the clothing from a +passion--dear to think of only when it is profoundly secret--struck her +as an extreme baseness, of which not even the woman who perused and +reperused his letters could be guilty. + +Her head rang with some of the lines, and she accused her head of the +crime of childishness, seeing that her heart was not an accomplice. At +the same time, her heart cried out violently against the business of a +visit to Lady de Culme, and all the steps it involved. Justly she +accused her heart of treason. Heart and head were severed. This, as she +partly apprehended, is the state of the woman who is already on the slope +of her nature's mine-shaft, dreading the rush downwards, powerless to +break away from the light. + +Letters perused and reperused, coming from a man never fervently noticed +in person, conjure features one would wish to put beside the actual, +to make sure that the fiery lines he writes are not practising a +beguilement. Aminta had lost grasp of the semblance of the impassioned +man. She just remembered enough of his eyes to think there might be +healing in a sight of him. + +Latterly she had refused to be exhibited to a tattling world as the great +nobleman's conquest:--The 'Beautiful Lady Doubtful' of a report that had +scorched her cars. Theatres, rides, pleasure-drives, even such houses as +she saw standing open to her had been shunned. Now she asked the earl to +ride in the park. + +He complied, and sent to the stables immediately, just noted another of +her veerings. The whimsy creatures we are matched to contrast with, +shift as the very winds or feather-grasses in the wind. Possibly a fine +day did it. Possibly, too, her not being requested to do it. + +He was proud of her bearing on horseback. She rode well and looked well. +A finer weapon wherewith to strike at a churlish world was never given +into the hands of man. These English may see in her, if they like, that +they and their laws and customs are defied. It does her no hurt, and it +hits them a ringing buffet. + +Among the cavaliers they passed was Mr. Morsfield. He rode by slowly. +The earl stiffened his back in returning the salute. Both that and the +gentleman were observed by Aminta. + +'He sees to having good blood under him,' said the earl. 'I admired his +mount,' she replied. + +Interpreted by the fire of his writing, his features expressed character: +insomuch that a woman could say of another woman, that she admired him +and might reasonably do so. His gaze at her in the presence of her lord +was audacious. + +He had the defect of his virtue of courage. Yet a man indisputably +possessing courage cannot but have an interesting face--though one may +continue saying, Pity that the eyes are not a little wider apart! He +dresses tastefully; the best English style. A portrait by a master hand +might hand him down to generations as an ancestor to be proud of. But +with passion and with courage, and a bent for snatching at the lion's +own, does he not look foredoomed to an early close? Her imagination +called up a portrait of Elizabeth's Earl of Essex to set beside him; and +without thinking that the two were fraternally alike, she sent him riding +away with the face of the Earl of Essex and the shadow of the unhappy +nobleman's grievous fortunes over his head. + +But it is inexcuseable to let the mind be occupied recurrently by a man +who has not moved the feelings, wicked though it be to have the feelings +moved by him. Aminta rebuked her silly wits, and proceeded to speculate +from an altitude, seeing the man's projects in a singularly definite +minuteness, as if the crisis he invoked, the perils he braved, the mute +participation he implored of her for the short space until their fate +should be decided, were a story sharply cut on metal. Several times she +surprised herself in an interesting pursuit of the story; abominably +cold, abominably interested. She fell upon a review of small duties of +the day, to get relief; and among them a device for spiriting away her +aunt from the table where Mrs. Lawrence wished to meet Lord Ormont. It +sprang up to her call like an imp of the burning pit. She saw it +ingenious and of natural aspect. I must be a born intriguer! she said in +her breast. That was hateful; but it seemed worse when she thought of a +woman commanding the faculty and consenting to be duped and foiled. That +might be termed despicable; but what if she had not any longer the wish +to gain her way with her lord? + +Those letters are acting like a kind of poison in me! her heart cried: +and it was only her head that dwelt on the antidote. + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +A woman, and would therefore listen to nonsense +And not be beaten by an acknowledged defeat +Botched mendings will only make them worse +Convincing themselves that they impersonate sagacity +I have all the luxuries--enough to loathe them +Lawyers hold the keys of the great world +Naked original ideas, are acceptable at no time +Not daring risk of office by offending the taxpayer +This female talk of the eternities +To know how to take a licking, that wins in the end +To males, all ideas are female until they are made facts +We cannot, men or woman, control the heart in sleep at night +Who cries, Come on, and prays his gods you won't + + +[The End] + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 4478 *** diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6312041 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This eBook, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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THE SECRETARY TAKEN AS AN ANTIDOTE + + + +CHAPTER VI. + +IN A MOOD OF LANGUOR + +Up in Aminta's amber dressing-room; Mrs. Nargett Pagnell alluded sadly to +the long month of separation, and begged her niece to let her have in +plain words an exact statement of the present situation; adding, "Items +will do." Thereupon she slipped into prattle and held the field. + +She was the known, worthy, good, intolerable woman whom the burgess turns +out for his world in regiments, that do and look and all but step alike; +and they mean well, and have conventional worships and material +aspirations, and very peculiar occult refinements, with a blind head and +a haphazard gleam of acuteness, impressive to acquaintances, convincing +themselves that they impersonate sagacity. She had said this, done that; +and it was, by proof, Providence consenting, the right thing. A niece, +written down in her girlhood, because of her eyes and her striking air +and excellent deportment, as mate for a nobleman, marries, him before she +is out of her teens. "I said, She shall be a countess." A countess she +is. Providence does not comply with our predictions in order to stultify +us. Admitting the position of affairs for the moment as extraordinary, +we are bound by what has happened to expect they will be conformable in +the end. Temporarily warped, we should say of them. + +She could point to the reason: it was Lord Ormont's blunt +misunderstanding of her character. The burgess's daughter was refining +to an appreciation of the exquisite so rapidly that she could criticize +patricians. My lord had never forgiven her for correcting him in his +pronunciation of her name by marriage. Singular indeed; but men, even +great men, men of title, are so, some of them, whom you could least +suspect of their being so. He would speak the "g" in Nargett, and he, +declined--after a remonstrance he declined--to pass Pagnell under the +cedilla. Lord Ormont spoke the name like a man hating it, or an English +rustic: "Nargett Pagnell," instead, of the soft and elegant "Naryett +Pagnell," the only true way of speaking it; and she had always taken that +pronunciation of her name for a test of people's breeding. The +expression of his lordship's countenance under correction was memorable. +Naturally, in those honeymoony days, the young Countess of Ormont sided +with her husband the earl; she declared that her aunt had never dreamed +of the cedilla before the expedition to Spain. When, for example, Alfred +Nargett Pagnell had a laughing remark, which Aminta in her childhood must +have heard: "We rhyme with spaniel!" + +That was the secret of Lord Ormont's prepossession against Aminta's aunt; +and who can tell? perhaps of much of his behaviour to the beautiful young +wife he at least admired, sincerely admired, though he caused her to hang +her head--cast a cloud on the head so dear to him! + +Otherwise there was no interpreting his lordship. To think of herself as +personally disliked by a nobleman stupefied Mrs. Pagnell, from her just +expectation of reciprocal dealings in high society; for she confessed +herself a fly to a title. Where is the shame, if titles are created to +attract? Elsewhere than in that upper circle, we may anticipate hard +bargains; the widow of a solicitor had not to learn it. But when a +distinguished member and ornament of the chosen seats above blew cold +upon their gesticulatory devotee, and was besides ungrateful; she was +more than commonly assured of his being, as she called him, "a sphinx." +His behaviour to his legally wedded wife confirmed the charge. + +She checked her flow to resume the question. "So, then, where are we +now? He allows you liberally for pin-money in addition to your own small +independent income. Satisfaction with that would warrant him to suppose +his whole duty done by you." + +"We are where we were, aunty; the month has made no change," said Aminta +in languor. + +"And you as patient as ever?" + +"I am supposed to have everything a woman can require." + +"Can he possibly think it? And I have to warn you, child, that lawyers +are not so absolving as the world is with some of the ladies Lord Ormont +allows you to call your friends. I have been hearing--it is not mere +airy tales one hears from lawyers about cases in Courts of Law. Tighten +your lips as you like; I say nothing to condemn or reflect on Mrs. +Lawrence Finchley. I have had my eyes a little opened, that is all. Oh, +I know my niece Aminta, when it's a friend to stand by; but our position +--thanks to your inscrutable lord and master--demands of us the utmost +scrupulousness, or it soon becomes a whirl and scandal flying about, and +those lawyers picking up and putting together. I have had a difficulty +to persuade them!... and my own niece! whom I saw married at the British +Embassy in Madrid, as I take good care to tell everybody; for it was my +doing; I am the responsible person! and by an English Protestant +clergyman, to all appearance able to walk erect in and out of any of +these excellent new Life Assurance offices they are starting for the +benefit of widows and orphans, and deceased within six days of the +ceremony--if ceremony one may call the hasty affair in those foreign +places. My dear, the instant I heard it I had a presentiment, 'All has +gone well up to now.' I remember murmuring the words. Then your letter, +received in that smelly Barcelona: Lord Ormont was carrying you off to +Granada--a dream of my infancy! It may not have been his manoeuvre, but +it was the beginning of his manoeuvres." + +Aminta shuddered. "And tra-la-la, and castanets, and my Cid! my Cid! and +the Alhambra, the Sierra Nevada, and ay di me, Alhama; and Boabdil el +Chico and el Zagal and Fray Antonio Agapida!" She flung out the rattle, +yawning, with her arms up and her head back, in the posture of a woman +wounded. One of her aunt's chance shots had traversed her breast, +flashing at her the time, the scene, the husband, intensest sunniness on +sword-edges of shade,--and now the wedded riddle; illusion dropping mask, +romance in its anatomy, cold English mist. Ah, what a background is the +present when we have the past to the fore! That filmy past is diaphanous +on heaving ribs. + +She smiled at the wide-eyed little gossip. "Don't speak of manaoeuvres, +dear aunt. And we'll leave Granada to the poets. I'm tired. Talk of +our own people, on your side and my father's, and as much as you please +of the Pagnell-Pagnells, they refresh me. Do they go on marrying?" + +"Why, my child, how could they go on without it?" + +Aminta pressed her hands at her eyelids. "Oh, me!" she sighed, feeling +the tear come with a sting from checked laughter. "But there are +marriages, aunty, that don't go on, though Protestant clergymen +officiated. Leave them unnoticed, I have really nothing to tell." + +"You have not heard anything of Lady Eglett?" + +"Lady Charlotte Eglett? No syllable. Or wait--my lord's secretary was +with her at Olmer; approved by her, I have to suppose." + +"There, my dear, I say again I do dread that woman, if she can make a man +like Lord Ormont afraid of her. And no doubt she is of our old +aristocracy. And they tell me she is coarse in her conversation--like a +man. Lawyers tell me she is never happy but in litigation. Years back, +I am given to understand, she did not set so particularly good an +example. Lawyers hear next to everything. I am told she lifted her +horsewhip on a gentleman once, and then put her horse at him and rode him +down. You will say, the sister of your husband. No; not to make my +niece a countess, would I, if I had known the kind of family! Then one +asks, Is she half as much afraid of him? In that case, no wonder they +have given up meeting. Was formerly one of the Keepsake Beauties. Well, +Lady Eglett, and Aminta, Countess of Ormont, will be in that Peerage, as +they call it, let her only have her dues. My dear, I would--if I ever +did--swear the woman is jealous." + +"Of me, aunty!" + +"I say more; I say again, it would be a good thing for somebody if +somebody had his twitch of jealousy. Wives may be too meek. Cases and +cases my poor Alfred read to me, where an ill-behaving man was brought to +his senses by a clever little shuffle of the cards, and by the most +innocent of wives. A kind of poison to him, of course; but there are +poisons that cure. It might come into the courts; and the nearer the +proofs the happier he in withdrawing from his charge and effecting a +reconciliation. Short of guilt, of course. Men are so strange. Imagine +now, if a handsome young woman were known to be admired rather more than +enough by a good-looking gentleman near about her own age. Oh, I've no +patience with, the man for causing us to think and scheme! Only there +are men who won't be set right unless we do. My husband used to say, +change is such a capital thing in life's jogtrot; that men find it +refreshing if we now and then, reverse the order of our pillion-riding +for them. A spiritless woman in a wife is what they bear least of all. +Anything rather. Is Mr. Morsfield haunting Mrs. Lawrence Finchley's +house as usual?" + +Aminta's cheeks unrolled their deep damask rose at the abrupt intrusion +of the name. "I meet him there." + +"Lord Adderwood, Sir John Randeller; and the rest?" + +"Two or three times a week." + +"And the lady, wife of the captain, really a Lady Fair--Mrs.... month of +May: so I have to get at it." + +"She may be seen there." + +"Really a contrast, when you two are together! As to reputation, there +is an exchange of colours. Those lawyers hold the keys of the great +world, and a naughty world it is, I fear--with exceptions, who are the +salt, but don't taste so much. I can't help enjoying the people at Mrs. +Lawrence Finchley's. I like to feel I can amuse them, as they do me. +One puzzles for what they say--in somebody's absence, I mean. They must +take Lord Ormont for a perfect sphinx; unless they are so silly as to +think they may despise him, or suppose him indifferent. Oh, that upper +class! It's a garden, and we can't help pushing to enter it; and fair +flowers, indeed, but serpents too, like the tropics. It tries us more +than anything else in the world--well, just as good eating tries the +constitution. He ought to know it and feel it, and give his wife all the +protection of his name, instead of--not that he denies: I have brought +him to that point; he cannot deny it with me. But not to present her--to +shun the Court; not to introduce her to his family, to appear ashamed of +her! My darling Aminta, a month of absence for reflection on your +legally-wedded husband's conduct increases my astonishment. For usually +men old enough to be the grandfathers of their wives--" + +"Oh, pray, aunty, pray, pray!" Aminta cried, and her body writhed. "No +more to-night. You mean well, I am sure. Let us wait. I shall sleep, +perhaps, if I go to bed early. I dare say I am spiritless--not worth +more than I get. I gave him the lead altogether; he keeps it. In +everything else he is kind; I have all the luxuries--enough to loathe +them. Kiss me and say good night." + +Aminta made it imperative by rising. Her aunt stood up, kissed, and +exclaimed, "I tell you you are a queenly creature, not to be treated as +any puny trollop of a handmaid. And although he is a great nobleman, he +is not to presume to behave any longer, my dear, as if your family had no +claim on his consideration. My husband, Alfred Pagnell, would have laid +that before him pretty quick. You are the child of the Farrells and the +Solers, both old families; on your father's side you are linked with the +oldest nobility in Europe. It flushes one to think of it! Your +grandmother, marrying Captain Algernon Farrell, was the legitimate +daughter of a Grandee of Spain; as I have told Lord Ormont often, and I +defy him to equal that for a romantic marriage in the annals of his +house, or boast of bluer blood. Again, the Solers--" + +"We take the Solers for granted, aunty, good night." + +"Commoners, if you like; but established since the Conquest. That is, +we trace the pedigree. And to be treated, even by a great nobleman, as +if we were stuff picked up out of the ditch! I declare, there are times +when I sit and think and boil. Is it chivalrous, is it generous--is it, +I say, decent--is it what Alfred would have called a fair fulfilment of a +pact, for your wedded husband--? You may close my mouth! But he +pretends to be chivalrous and generous, and he has won a queen any +wealthy gentleman in England--I know of one, if not two--would be proud +to have beside him in equal state; and what is he to her? He is an +extinguisher. Or is it the very meanest miserliness, that he may keep +you all to himself? There we are again! I say he is an unreadable +sphinx." + +Aminta had rung the bell for her maid. Mrs. Pagnell could be counted on +for drawing in her tongue when the domestics were near. + +A languor past delivery in sighs was on the young woman's breast. She +could have heard without a regret that the heart was to cease beating. +Had it been downright misery she would have looked about her with less of +her exanimate glassiness. The unhappy have a form of life: until they +are worn out, they feel keenly. She felt nothing. The blow to her pride +of station and womanhood struck on numbed sensations. She could complain +that the blow was not heavier. + +A letter lying in her jewel-box called her to read it, for the chance of +some slight stir. The contents were known. The signature of Adolphus +Morsfield had a new meaning for her eyes, and dashed her at her husband +in a spasm of revolt and wrath against the man exposing her to these +letters, which a motion of her hand could turn to blood, and abstention +from any sign maintained in a Satanic whisper, saying, "Here lies one way +of solving the riddle." It was her husband who drove her to look that +way. + +The look was transient, and the wrath: she could not burn. A small +portion of contempt lodged in her mind to shadow husbands precipitating +women on their armoury for a taste of vengeance. Women can always be +revenged--so speedily, so completely: they have but to dip. Husbands +driving wives to taste their power execrate the creature for her fall +deep downward. They are forgetful of causes. + +Does it matter? Aminta's languor asked. The letter had not won a reply. +Thought of the briefest of replies was a mountain of effort, and she +moaned at her nervelessness in body and mind. To reply, to reproach the +man, to be flame--an image of herself under the form she desired--gave +her a momentary false energy, wherein the daring of the man, whose life +was at a loss for the writing of this letter, hung lighted. She had +therewith a sharp vision of his features, repellent in correctness, Greek +in lines, with close eyes, hollow temples, pressed lips--a face +indicating the man who can fling himself on a die. She had heard tales +of women and the man. Some had loved him, report said. Here were words +to say that he loved her. They might, poor man, be true. Otherwise she +had never been loved. + +Memory had of late been paying visits to a droopy plant in the golden +summer drought on a gorgeous mid-sea island, and had taken her on board +to refresh her with voyages, always bearing down full sail on a couple of +blissful schools, abodes of bloom and briny vigour, sweet merriment, +innocent longings, dreams the shyest, dreams the mightiest. At night +before sleep, at morn before rising, often during day, and when vexed or +when dispirited, she had issued her command for the voyage. Sheer +refreshment followed, as is ever the case if our vessel carries no +freight of hopes. There could be no hopes. It was forgotten that they +had ever been seriously alive. But it carried an admiration. Now, an +admiration may endure, and this one had been justified all round. The +figure heroical, the splendid, active youth, hallowed Aminta's past. The +past of a bitterly humiliated Aminta was a garden in the coming kiss of +sunset, with that godlike figure of young manhood to hallow it. There he +stayed, perpetually assuring her of his triumphs to come. + +She could have no further voyages. Ridicule convulsed her home of +refuge. For the young soldier-hero, to be unhorsed by misfortune, was +one thing; but the meanness of the ambition he had taken in exchange for +the thirst of glory, accused his nature. He so certainly involved her in +the burlesque of the transformation that she had to quench memory. + +She was, therefore, having smothered a good part of herself, accountably +languid--a condition alternating with fire in Aminta; and as Mr. +Morsfield's letter supplied the absent element, her needy instinct pushed +her to read his letter through. She had not yet done that with +attention. + +Whether a woman loves a man or not, he is her lover if he dare tell her +he loves her, and is heard with attention. Aware that the sentences were +poison, she summoned her constitutional antagonism to the mad step +proposed, so far nullifying the virus as to make her shrink from the +madness. Even then her soul cried out to her husband, Who drives me to +read? or rather, to brood upon what she read. The brooding ensued, was +the thirst of her malady. The best antidote she could hit on was the +writer's face. Yet it expressed him, his fire and his courage--gifts she +respected in him, found wanting in herself. Read by Lord Ormont, this +letter would mean a deadly thing. + +Aminta did her lord the justice to feel sure of him, that with her name +bearing the superscription, it might be left on her table, and world not +have him to peruse it. If he manoeuvred, it was never basely. Despite +resentment, her deepest heart denied his being indifferent either to her +honour or his own in relation to it. He would vindicate both at a +stroke, for a sign. Nevertheless, he had been behaving cruelly. She +charged on him the guilt of the small preludes, archeries, anglings, +veilings, evasions, all done with the eyelids and the mute of the lips, +or a skirmisher word or a fan's flourish, and which, intended to pique +the husband rather than incite the lover, had led Mrs. Lawrence Finchley +to murmur at her ear, in close assembly, without a distinct designation +of Mr. Morsfield, "Dangerous man to play little games with!" It had +brought upon her this letter of declaration, proposal, entreaty. + +This letter was the man's life in her hands, and safe, of course. But +surely it was a proof that the man loved her? + +Aminta was in her five-and-twentieth year; when the woman who is +uncertain of the having been loved, and she reputed beautiful, desirable, +is impelled by a sombre necessity to muse on a declaration, and nibble at +an idea of a test. If "a dangerous man to play little games with," he +could scarcely be dangerous to a woman having no love for him at all. It +meant merely that he would soon fall to writing letters like this, and he +could not expect an answer to it. But her heart really thanked him, and +wished the poor gentleman to take its dumb response as his reward, for +being the one sole one who had loved her. + +Aminta dwelt on "the one sole one." Lord Ormont's treatment had detached +her from any belief in love on his part; and the schoolboy, now ambitions +to become a schoolmaster, was behind the screen unlikely to be lifted +again by a woman valuing her pride of youth, though he had--behold our +deceptions!--the sympathetic face entirely absent from that of Mr. +Adolphus Morsfield, whom the world would count quite as handsome--nay, it +boasted him. He enjoyed the reputation of a killer of ladies. Women +have odd tastes, Aminta thought, and examined the gentleman's +handwriting. It pleased her better. She studied it till the +conventional phrases took a fiery hue, and came at her with an invasive +rush. + +The letter was cast back into the box, locked up; there an end to it, or +no interdiction of sleep. + +Sleep was a triumph. Aminta's healthy frame rode her over petty +agitations of a blood uninflamed, as lightly as she swam the troubled +sea-waters her body gloried to cleave. She woke in the morning peaceful +and mildly reflective, like one who walks across green meadows. Only by +degrees, by glimpses, was she drawn to remember the trotting, cantering, +galloping, leaping of an active heart during night. We cannot, men or +woman, control the heart in sleep at night. There had been wild +leapings. Night will lead an unsatisfied heart of a woman, by way of +sleep, to scale black mountains, jump jagged chasms. Sleep is a horse +that laughs at precipices and abysses. We bid women, moreover, be all +heart. They are to cultivate their hearts, pay much heed to their +hearts. The vast realm of feeling is open to these appointed keepers of +the sanctuary household, who may be withering virgins, may be childless +matrons, may be unhusbanded wives. Wandering in the vast realm which +they are exhorted to call their own, for the additional attractiveness it +gives them, an unsatisfied heart of woman will somewhat audaciously cross +the borderland a single step into the public road of the vast realm of +thinking. Once there, and but a single step on the road, she is a rebel +against man's law for her sex. Nor is it urgent on her that she should +think defiantly in order to feel herself the rebel. She may think +submissively; with a heart (the enlarged, the scientifically plumped, the +pasture of epicurean man), with her coveted heart in revolt, and from the +mere act of thinking at all. + +Aminta reviewed perforce, dead against her will, certain of the near-to- +happiness ratings over-night. She thinned her lips, and her cheeks +glowed. An arm, on the plea of rescuing, had been round her. The choice +now offered her was, to yield to softness or to think. She took the +latter step, the single step of an unaccustomed foot, which women +educated simply to feet, will, upon extreme impulsion, take; and it held +a candle in a windy darkness. She saw no Justice there. The sensational +immensity touched sublime, short of that spirit of Justice required for +the true sublime. And void of Justice; what a sunless place is any +realm! Infants, the male and the female alike, first begin to know they +feel when it is refused them. When they know they feel, they have begun +to reflect. The void of Justice is a godless region. Women, to whom +the solitary thought has come as a blown candle, illumining the fringes +of their storm, ask themselves whether they are God's creatures or man's. +The question deals a sword-stroke of division between them and their +human masters. Young women, animated by the passions their feeling +bosoms of necessity breed, and under terror discover, do not distinguish +an abstract justice from a concrete. They are of the tribe too long +hereditarily enslaved to conceive an abstract. So it is with them, that +their God is the God of the slave, as it is with all but the bravest of +boys. He is a Thing to cry to, a Punisher, not much of a Supporter--the +Biblical Hebrew's right reading of Nature, favouring man, yet prompt to +confound him, and with woman for the instrument of vengeance. By such a +maze the blindfolded, are brought round to see Justice on earth. If +women can only believe in some soul of justice, they will feel they +belong to God--of the two; and the peril for them then is, that they will +set the one incomprehensible Power in opposition to the other, urging +them unsatisfied natures to make secret appeal away from man and his laws +altogether, at the cost of losing clear sight of the God who shines in +thought. It is a manner whereby the desperately harried among these +creatures of the petted heart arrive upon occasion at an agreeable, +almost reposeful, contemplation of the reverse of God. + +There is little pleasure to be on the lecture-rostrum for a narrator +sensible to the pulses of his audience. Justice compels at times. In +truth, there are times when the foggy obscurities of the preacher are by +comparison broad daylight beside the whirling loose tissues of a woman +unexplained. Aminta was one born to prize rectitude, to walk on the +traced line uprightly; and while the dark rose overflowed the soft brown +of her cheeks, under musings upon her unlicenced heart's doings +overnight, she not only pleaded for woeful creatures of her sex burdened +as she and erring, she weighed them in the scales with men, and put her +heart where Justice pointed, sending men to kick aloft. + +Her husband, the man-riddle: she was unable to rede or read him. Her +will could not turn him; nor her tongue combat; nor was it granted her to +pique the mailed veteran. Every poor innocent little bit of an art had +been exhausted. Her title was Lady Ormont her condition actually slave. +A luxuriously established slave, consorting with a singularly +enfranchised set,--as, for instance, Mrs. Lawrence Finchley and Lord +Adderwood; Sir John Randeller and Lady Staines; Mrs. May, Amy May, +notorious wife of a fighting captain, the loneliest of blondes; and other +ladies, other gentlemen, Mr. Morsfield in the list, paired or not yet +paired: gossip raged. Aminta was of a disposition too generously cordial +to let her be the rigorous critic of people with whom she was in touch. +But her mind knew relief when she recollected that her humble little +school-mate, Selina Collect, who had suffered on her behalf in old days, +was coming up to her from the Suffolk coast on a visit for a week. +However much a slave and an unloved woman, she could be a constant and +protecting friend. Besides, Lord Ormont was gracious to little Selina. +She thought of his remarks about the modest-minded girl after first +seeing her. From that she struck upon a notion of reserves of humaneness +being in him, if she might find the path to them: and thence, fortified +by the repose her picture of little Selina's merit had bestowed, she +sprang to the idea of valiancy, that she would woo him to listen to her, +without inflicting a scene. He had been a listening lover, seeming +lover, once, later than the Granada sunsets. The letter in her jewel-box +urged Aminta to clear her conscience by some means, for leaving it +unburnt. + + + + +CHAPTER VII. + +EXHIBITS EFFECTS OF A PRATTLER'S DOSES + +The rules in Lord Ormont's household assisted to shelter him for some +hours of the day from the lady who was like a blast of sirocco under his +roof. He had his breakfast alone, as Lady Charlotte had it at Olmer; +a dislike of a common table in the morning was a family trait with both. +At ten o'clock the secretary arrived, and they were shut up together. +At the luncheon table Aminta usually presided. If my lord dined at home, +he had by that time established an equanimity rendering, his constant +civility to Mrs. Pagnell less arduous. The presence of a woman of +tongue, perpetually on the spring to gratify him and win him, was among +the burdens he bore for his Aminta. + +Mrs. Pagnell soon perceived that the secretary was in favour. My lord +and this Mr. Weyburn had their pet themes of conversation, upon which the +wary aunt of her niece did not gaze like the wintry sun with the distant +smile her niece displayed over discussions concerning military +biographies, Hannibal's use of his elephants and his Numidian horse, the +Little St. Bernard, modern artillery, ancient slingers, English and +Genoese bowmen, Napoleon's tactics, his command to the troopers to "give +point," and English officers' neglect of sword exercise, and the "devil +of a day" Old England is to have on a day to come. My lord connected our +day of trial with India. Mrs. Pagnell assumed an air of studious +interest; she struck in to give her niece a lead, that Lord Ormont might +know his countess capable of joining the driest of subjects occupying +exalted minds. Aminta did not follow her; and she was extricated +gallantly by the gentlemen in turn. + +The secretary behaved with a pretty civility. Aminta shook herself to +think tolerantly of him when he, after listening to the suggestion, put +interrogatively, that we should profit by Hannibal's example and train +elephants to serve as a special army corps for the perfect security of +our priceless Indian Empire, instanced the danger likely to result from +their panic fear of cannon, and forbore to consult Lord Ormont's eye. + +Mrs. Pagnell knew that she had put her foot into it; but women advised of +being fools in what they say, are generally sustained by their sense of +the excellent motive which impelled them. Even to the Countess of +Ormont, she could have replied, "We might have given them a higher idea +of us"--if, that meant, the Countess of Ormont had entered the field +beside her, to the exclusion of a shrinking Aminta. She hinted as much +subsequently, and Aminta's consciousness of the troth was touched. The +young schoolmaster's company sat on her spirits, deadened her vocabulary. +Her aunt spoke of passing the library door and hearing the two gentlemen +loudly laughing. It seemed subserviency on the fallen young hero's part. +His tastes were low. He frequented the haunts of boxing men; her lord +informed her of his having made, or of his making, matches to run or swim +or walk certain distances against competitors or within a given time. +He had also half a dozen boys or more in tow, whom he raced out of town +on Sundays; a nucleus of the school he intended to form. + +But will not Achilles become by comparison a common rushlight where was a +blazing torch, if we see him clap a clown's cap on the head whose golden +helm was fired by Pallas? + +Nay, and let him look the hero still: all the more does he point finger +on his meanness of nature. + +Turning to another, it is another kind of shame that a woman feels, if +she consents to an exchange of letters--shameful indeed, but not such a +feeling of deadly sickness as comes with the humiliating view of an +object of admiration degraded. Bad she may be; and she may be deceived, +vilely treated, in either case. And what is a woman's pride but the +staff and banner of her soul, beyond all gifts? He who wounds it cannot +be forgiven--never!--he has killed the best of her. Aminta found herself +sliding along into the sentiment, that the splendid idol of a girl's +worship is, if she discover him in the lapse of years as an +infinitesimally small one, responsible for the woman's possible reckless +fit of giddiness. And she could see her nonsense; she could not correct +it. Lines of the letters under signature of Adolphus were phosphorescent +about her: they would recur; and she charged their doing so on the +discovered meanness of the girl's idol. Her wicked memory was caused +by his having plunged her low. + +Mrs. Pagnell performed the offices of attention to Mr. Weyburn in lieu of +the countess, who seemed to find it a task to sit at the luncheon table +with him, when Lady Ormont was absent. "Just peeped in," she said as she +entered the library, "to see if all was comfortable;" and gossip ensued, +not devoid of object. She extracted an astonishingly smooth description +of Lady Charlotte. Weyburn was brightness in speaking of the much- +misunderstood lady. "She's one of the living women of the world." + +"You are sure you don't mean one of the worldly women?" Mrs. Pagnell +rejoiced. + +"She has to be known to be liked," he owned. + +"And you were, one hears, among the favoured?" + +"I can scarcely pretend to that, ma'am." + +"You were recommended." + +"Lady Charlotte is devoted to her brother." + +Mrs. Pagnell's bosom heaved. "How strange Lord Ormont is! One would +suppose, with his indignation at the country for its treatment of him, +admirers would be welcome. Oh dear, no! that is not the way. On board +the packet, on our voyage to Spain, my niece in her cabin, imploring +mercy of Neptune, as they say, I heard of Lord Ormont among the +passengers. I could hardly credit my ears. For I had been hearing of +him from my niece ever since her return from a select establishment for +the education of young ladies, not much more than a morning's drive out +of London, though Dover was my residence. She had got a hero! It was +Lord Ormont! Lord Ormont! all day: and when the behaviour of the country +to him became notorious, Aminta--my niece the countess--she could hardly +contain herself. A secret:--I promised her--it's not known to Lord +Ormont himself:--a printed letter in a metropolitan paper, copied into +the provincial papers, upholding him for one of the greatest of our +patriot soldiers and the saviour of India, was the work of her hands. +You would, I am sure, think it really well written. Meeting him on deck +--the outline of the coast of Portugal for an introductory subject, our +Peninsular battles and so forth--I spoke of her enthusiasm. The effect +was, to cut off all communication between us. I had only to appear, Lord +Ormont vanished. I said to myself, this is a character. However, the +very mention of him to my niece, as one of the passengers on board-- +medicine, miraculous! She was up in half an hour, out pacing the deck +before evening, hardly leaning on my arm, and the colour positively +beginning to show on her cheeks again. He fled, of coarse. I had +prepared her for his eccentricities. Next morning she was out by +herself. In the afternoon Lord Ormont strode up to us his--military +step--and most courteously requested the honour of an introduction. I +had broken the ice at last; from that moment he was cordiality itself, +until--I will not say, until he had called her his own--a few little +misunderstandings!--not with his countess. You see, a resident aunt is +translated mother-in-law by husbands; though I spare them pretty +frequently; I go to friends, they travel. Here in London she must have a +duenna. The marriage at Madrid, at the Embassy:--well, perhaps it was a +step for us, for commoners, though we rank with the independent. Has her +own little pin-money--an inheritance. Perhaps Lady Eglett gives the +world her version. She may say, there was aiming at station. I reply, +never was there a more whole-hearted love-match! Absolutely the girl's +heart has been his from the period of her school-days. Oh! a little +affair--she was persecuted by a boy at a neighbouring school. Her +mistress wrote me word--a very determined Romeo young gentleman indeed-- +quite alarmed about him. In the bud! I carried her off on the spot, and +snapped it effectually. Warned he meant to be desperate, I kept her away +from my house at Dover four months, place to place; and I did well. I +heard on my return, that a youth, answering to the schoolmistress's +description of him, had been calling several times, the first two months +and longer. You have me alluding to these little nonsensical nothings, +because she seemed born to create violent attachments, even at that early +day; and Lady Eglett--Lady Charlotte Eglett may hear; for there is no end +to them, and impute them to her, when really!--can she be made +responsible for eyes innocent of the mischief they appear destined to do? +But I am disturbing you in your work." + +"You are very good, ma'am," said the ghost of the determined young +gentleman. + +"A slight cold, have you?" Mrs. Pagnell asked solicitously. + +"Dear me, no!" he gave answer with a cleared throat. + +In charging him with more than he wanted to carry, she supplied him with +particulars he had wanted to know; and now he asked himself what could be +the gain of any amount of satisfied curiosity regarding a married Aminta. +She slew my lord on board a packet-boat; she bears the arrows that slay. +My lord married her where the first English chaplain was to be found; +that is not wonderful either. British Embassy, Madrid! Weyburn believed +the ceremony to have been performed there: at the same time, he could +hear Lady Charlotte's voice repeating with her varied intonation Mrs. +Pagnell's impressive utterances; and he could imagine how the somewhat +silly duenna aunt, so penetrable in her transparent artifices, struck +emphasis on the incredulity of people inclined to judge of the reported +ceremony by Lord Ormont's behaviour to his captive. + +How explain that strange matter? But can there be a gain in trying to +sound it? Weyburn shuffled it away. Before the fit of passion seized +him, he could turn his eager mind from anything which had not a +perceptible point of gain, either for bodily strength or mental +acquisition, or for money, too, now that the school was growing palpable +as an infant in arms and agape for the breast. Thought of gain, and the +bent to pursue it, is the shield of Athene over young men in the press of +the seductions. He had to confess his having lost some bits of himself +by reason of his meditations latterly; and that loss, if we let it +continue a space, will show in cramp at the wrist, logs on the legs, a +wheezy wind, for any fellow vowed to physical trials of strength and +skill. It will show likewise in the brain beating broken wings-- +inability to shoot a thought up out of the body for half a minute. And, +good Lord! how quickly the tight-strong fellow crumbles, when once the +fragmentary disintegration has begun! Weyburn cried out on a heart that +bounded off at prodigal gallops, and had to be nipped with reminders of +the place of good leader he was for taking among the young. Hang +superexcellence! but we know those moanings over the troubles of a +married woman; we know their sources, know their goal, or else we are the +fiction-puppet or the Bedlamite; and she is a married woman, married at +the British Embassy, Madrid, if you please! after a few weeks' +acquaintance with her husband, who doubtless wrote his name intelligibly +in the registrar's book, but does not prove himself much the hero when he +drives a pen, even for so little as the signing of his name! He signed +his name, apparently not more than partly pledging himself to the bond. +Lord Ormont's autobiographical scraps combined with Lady Charlotte's +hints and Mrs. Pagnell's communications, to provoke the secretary's +literary contempt of his behaviour to his wife. However, the former +might be mended, and he resumed the task. + +It had the restorative effect of touching him to see his old hero in +action; whereby he was brought about to a proper modesty, so that he +really craved no more than for the mistress of this house to breathe the +liberal air of a public acknowledgment of her rightful position. Things +constituted by their buoyancy to float are remarkable for lively bobbings +when they are cast upon the waters; and such was the case with Weyburn, +until the agitation produced by Mrs. Pagnell left him free to sail away +in the society of the steadiest. + +He decided that by not observing, not thinking, not feeling, about the +circumstances of the household into which Fate had thrown him, he would +best be able--probably it was the one way--to keep himself together; and +his resolution being honest all round, he succeeded in it as long as he +abstained from a very wakeful vigilance over simple eyesight. For if one +is nervously on guard to not-see, the matter starts up winged, and enters +us, and kindles the mind, and tingles through the blood; it has us as a +foe. The art of blind vision requires not only practice, but an intimate +knowledge of the arts of the traitor we carry within. Safest for him, +after all, was to lay fast hold of the particularly unimportant person he +was, both there and anywhere else. The Countess of Ormont's manner +toward him was to be read as a standing index of the course he should +follow; and he thanked her. He could not quite so sincerely thank her +aunt. His ingratitude for the sickly dose she had administered to him +sprang a doubt whether Lady Ormont now thanked her aunt on account of +services performed at the British Embassy, Madrid. + +Certain looks of those eyes recently, when in colloquy with my lord, +removed the towering nobleman to a shadowed landscape. + +Was it solely an effect of eyes commanding light, and having every shaft +of the quiver of the rays at her disposal? Or was it a shot from a +powerful individuality issuing out of bondage to some physical oppressor +no longer master of the soul, in peril of the slipping away of the body? +Her look on him was not hate: it was larger, more terribly divine. Those +eyes had elsewhere once looked love: they had planted their object in a +throbbing Eden. The man on whom they had looked shivered over the +thought of it after years of blank division. + +Rather than have those eyes to look on him their displacing unintentness, +the man on whom they had once looked love would have chosen looks of +wrath, the darts that kill--blest darts of the celestial Huntress, giving +sweet sudden cessation of pain, in the one everlasting last flash of life +with thought that the shot was hers. Oh for the 'ayava behea' of the +Merciful in splendour! + +These were the outcries of the man deciding simultaneously not to +observe, not to think, not to feel, and husbanding calculations upon +storage of gain for the future. Softness held the song below. It came +of the fact that his enforced resolution, for the sake of sanity, drove +his whole reflective mind backward upon his younger days, when an Evening +and a Morning star in him greeted the bright Goddess Browny or sang +adieu, and adored beyond all golden beams the underworld whither she had +sunk, where she was hidden. + +Meanwhile, the worthy dame who had dosed him was out in her carriage, +busy paying visits to distinguished ladies of the great world, with the +best of excuses for an early call, which was gossip to impart, such as +the Countess of Ormont had not yet thought of mentioning; and two or +three of them were rather amusedly interested to hear that Lord Ormont +had engaged a handsome young secretary, "under the patronage of Lady +Charlotte Eglett, devoted to sports of all kinds, immensely favoured by +both." Gossip must often have been likened to the winged insect bearing +pollen to the flowers; it fertilizes many a vacuous reverie. Those +flowers of the upper garden are not, indeed, stationary and in need of +the missionary buzzer, but if they have been in one place unmoved for one +hour, they are open to take animation from their visitors. Aminta was +pleasantly surprised next day by the receipt of a note from Mrs. Lawrence +Finchley, begging to be invited to lunch if she came, as she had a +purpose in the wish to meet my lord. + + + + +[NOTE: The remainder of 'Lord Ormont and His Aminta' is taken from an +older edition which uses single rather than double quotation marks. +D.W.] + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +MRS. LAWRENCE FINCHLEY + +My lord had one of his wilful likings for Isabella Lawrence Finchley, +and he consented to the torture of an hour of Mrs. Nargett Pagnell in the +middle of the day, just to taste the favourite he welcomed at home as he +championed her abroad. The reasons were numerous and intimate why she +pleased him. He liked the woman, enjoyed the cause for battle that she +gave. Weyburn, on coming to the luncheon table, beheld a lady with the +head of a comely boy, the manner, softened in delicate feminine, of a +capital comrade. Her air of candour was her nature in her face; and it +carried a guileless roguery, a placid daring, a supersensual naughtiness, +a simplicity of repose amid the smoky reputation she created, that led +one to think the vapour calumnious or the creature privileged. That +young boy's look opened him at once; he had not to warm to her,--he flew. +Ordinarily the sweetest ladies will make us pass through cold mist and +cross a stile or two, or a broken bridge, before the formalities are +cleared away to grant us rights of citizenship. She was like those frank +lands where we have not to hand out a passport at the frontier and wait +for dubious inspection of it. + +She prevailed with cognizant men and with the frivolous. Women were +capable of appreciating her, too: as Aminta did, despite some hinted +qualifications addressed shyly to her husband. But these were the very +matters exciting his particular esteem. He was of Lady Charlotte's mind, +in her hot zeal against injustice done to the creatures she despised; and +yet more than she applauded a woman who took up her idiot husband's +challenge to defend her good name, and cleared it, right or wrong, and +beat him down on his knees, and then started for her spell of the merry +canter over turf: an example to the English of the punishment they get +for their stupid Puritanic tyranny--sure to be followed by a national +helter-skelter down-hill headlong. And Mrs. Lawrence was not one of the +corrupt, he argued; she concealed what it was decent to conceal, without +pouting hypocritical pretences; she had merely dispensed with idle legal +formalities, in the prettiest curvetting airy wanton way, to divorce the +man who tried to divorce her, and 'whined to be forgiven when he found he +couldn't. Adderwood was ready to marry her to-morrow, if the donkey +husband would but go and bray his last. Half a dozen others were heads +off on the same course to that goal.' + +That was her champion's perusal of a lady candidly asserting her right +to have breeched comrades, and paying for it in the advocacy which +compromises. She was taken to be and she was used as a weapon wherewith +to strike at our Pharisees. Women pushing out into the world for +independence, bleed heavy payments all round. + +The earl's double-edged defence of her was partly a vindication of +another husband, who allowed his wife to call her friend; he was +nevertheless assured of her not being corrupt, both by his personal +knowledge of the lady, and his perception of her image in the bosom of +his wife. She did no harm there, he knew well. Although he was not a +man to put his trust in faces, as his young secretary inclined to do, +Mrs. Lawrence's look of honest boy did count among the pleadings. And +somewhat so might a government cruiser observe the intrusion of a white- +sailed yacht in protected sea-waters, where licenced trawlers are at the +haul. + +Talk over the table coursed as fluently as might be, with Mrs. Pagnell +for a boulder in the stream. Uninformed by malice, she led up to Lord +Adderwood's name, and perhaps more designedly spoke of Mr. Morsfield, on +whom her profound reading into the female heart of the class above her +caused her to harp, as 'a real Antinous,' that the ladies might discuss +him and Lord Ormont wax meditative. + +Mrs. Lawrence pitied the patient gentleman, while asking him in her mind +who was the author of the domestic burden he had to bear. + +'It reminds me I have a mission,' she said. 'There's a fencing match +down at a hall in the West, near the barracks; private and select: +Soldier and Civilian; I forget who challenged--Civilian, one judges; +Soldiers are the peaceful party. They want you to act "umpire," as they +call it, on the military side, my dear lord; and you will?--I have given +my word you will bring Lady Ormont. You will?--and not let me be +confounded! Yes, and we shall make a party. I see consent. Aminta will +enjoy the switch of steel. I love to see fencing. It rouses all that is +diabolical in me.' + +She sent a skimming look at the opposite. + +'And I,' said he, much freshened. + +'You fence?' + +'Handle the foils.' + +'If you must speak modestly! Are you in practice?' + +'I spend in hour in Captain Chiallo's fencing rooms generally every +evening before dinner. I heard there the first outlines of the match +proposed. You are right; it was the civilian.' + +'Mr. Morsfield, as I suspected.' + +She smiled to herself, like one saying, Not badly managed, Mr. Morsfield! + +'Italian school?' Lord Ormont inquired, with a screw of the eyelids. + +'French, my lord.' + +'The only school for teaching.' + +'The simplest--has the most rational method. Italians are apt to be +tricky. But they were masters once, and now and then they send out a +fencer the French can't touch.' + +'How would you account for it?' + +'If I had to account for it, I should say, hotter blood, cool nerve, +quick brain.' + +'Hum. Where are we, then?' + +'We don't shine with the small sword.' + +'We had men neatly pinked for their slashings in the Peninsula.' + +'We've had clever Irishmen.' + +'Hot enough blood! This man Morsfield--have you crossed the foils with +him?' + +'Goes at it like a Spaniard; though Spaniards in Paris have been found +wary enough.' + +My lord hummed. 'Fellow looks as if he would easily lose his head over +steel.' + +'He can be dangerous.' + +The word struck on something, and rang. + +Mrs. Lawrence had a further murmur within her lips. Her travelling eye +met Aminta's and passed it. + +'But not dangerous, surely, if the breast is padded?' said Mrs. Pagnell. + +'Oh no, oh no; not in that case!' Mrs. Lawrence ran out her voluble +assent, and her eyelids blinked; her fair boy's face was mischief at +school under shadow of the master. + +She said to Weyburn: 'Are you one in the list--to give our military a +lesson? They want it.' + +His answer was unheard by Aminta. She gathered from Mrs. Lawrence's +pleased sparkle that he had been invited to stand in the list; and the +strange, the absurd spectacle of a young schoolmaster taking the heroic +attitude for attack and defence wrestled behind her eyes with a suddenly +vivid first-of-May cricketing field, a scene of snowballs flying, the +vision of a strenuous lighted figure scaling to noble young manhood. +Isabella Lawrence's look at him spirited the bright past out of the +wretched long-brown-coat shroud of the present, prompting her to grieve +that some woman's hand had not smoothed a small tuft of hair, disorderly +on his head a little above the left parting, because Isabella Lawrence +Finchley could have no recollection of how it used to toss feathery--wild +at his games. + +My lord hummed again. 'I suspect we 're going to get a drubbing. This +fellow here has had his French maitre d'armes. Show me your hand, sir.' + +Weyburn smiled, and extended his right hand, saying: 'The wrist wants +exercise.' + +'Ha! square thumb, flesh full at the nails' ends; you were a bowler at +cricket.' + +'Now examine the palms, my lord; I judge by the lines on the palms,' Mrs. +Pagnell remarked. + +He nodded to her and rose. + +Coffee had not been served, she reminded him; it was coming in, so down +he sat a yard from the table; outwardly equable, inwardly cursing coffee; +though he refused to finish a meal without his cup. + +'I think the palms do betray something,' said Mrs. Lawrence; and Aminta +said: 'Everything betrays.' + +'No, my dear,' Mrs. Pagnell corrected her; 'the extremities betray, and +we cannot read the centre. Is it not so, my lord?' + +'It may be as you say, ma'am.' + +She was disappointed in her scheme to induce a general examination of +palms, and especially his sphinx lordship's. + +Weyburn controlled the tongue she so frequently tickled to an elvish +gavotte, but the humour on his face touched Mrs. Lawrence's to a subdued +good-fellow roguishness, and he felt himself invited to chat with her on +the walk for a reposeful ten minutes in Aminta's drawing-room. + +Mrs. Pagnell, 'quite enjoying the company,' as she told her niece, was +dismayed to hear her niece tell her of a milliner's appointment, positive +for three o'clock; and she had written it in her head 'p.m., four +o'clock,' and she had mislaid or destroyed the milliner's note; and she +still had designs upon his lordship's palms, things to read and hint +around her off the lines. She departed. + +Lord Ormont became genial; and there was no one present who did not +marvel that he should continue to decree a state of circumstances more or +less necessitating the infliction he groaned under. He was too lofty to +be questioned, even by his favourites. Mrs. Lawrence conjured the ghost +of Lady Charlotte for an answer: this being Lord Adderwood's idea. +Weyburn let his thoughts go on fermenting. Pride froze a beginning +stir in the bosom of Aminta. + +Her lord could captivate a reluctant woman's bosom when he was genial. +He melted her and made her call up her bitterest pride to perform its +recent office. That might have failed; but it had support in a second +letter received from the man accounted both by Mrs. Lawrence and by Mr. +Weyburn 'dangerous'; and the thought of who it was that had precipitated +her to 'play little games' for the sole sake of rousing him through +jealousy to a sense of righteous duty, armed her desperately against him. +She could exult in having read the second letter right through on receipt +of it, and in remembering certain phrases; and notably in a reflection +shot across her bewildered brain by one of the dangerous man's queer mad +sentences: 'Be as iron as you like, I will strike you to heat'; and her +thought: Is there assurance of safety in a perpetual defence?--all while +she smiled on her genial lord, and signified agreement, with a smiting of +wonderment at her heart, when he alluded to a panic shout of the country +for defence, and said: 'Much crying of that kind weakens the power to +defend when the real attack comes.' Was it true? + +'But say what you propose?' she asked. + +Lord Ormont proposed vigilance and drill; a small degree of self- +sacrifice on the part of the population, and a look-out head in the War +Department. He proposed to have a nation of stout-braced men laughing at +the foreign bully or bandit, instead of being a pack of whimpering women; +whom he likened to the randomly protestant geese of our country roadside, +heads out a yard in a gabble of defence while they go backing. + +So thereupon Aminta's notion of a resemblance in the mutual thought +subsided; she relapsed on the cushioning sentiment that she was a woman. +And--only a woman! he might exclaim, if it pleased him; though he would +never be able to say she was one of the whimpering. She, too, had the +choice to indulge in scorn of the superior man stone blind to proceedings +intimately affecting him--if he cared! One might doubt it. + +Mrs. Lawrence listened to him with a mind more disengaged, and a flitting +disapproval of Aminta's unsympathetic ear, or reluctance to stimulate the +devout attention a bruised warrior should have in his tent. She did not +press on him the post of umpire. He consented--at her request, he said-- +to visit the show; but refused any official position that would, it was +clearly enough implied, bring his name in any capacity whatever before +the country which had unpardonably maltreated him. + +Feminine wits will be set working, when a point has been gained; and as +Mrs. Lawrence could now say she had persuaded Lord Ormont to gratify her +specially, she warmed to fancy she read him, and that she might have +managed the wounded and angry giant. Her minor intelligence, caracoling +unhampered by harassing emotions, rebuked Aminta's for not perceiving +that to win him round to whatever a woman may desire, she must be with +him, outstrip him even, along the line he chooses for himself; abuse the +country, rail at the Government, ridicule the title of English Army, +proscribe the name of India in his hearing. Little stings of jealousy +are small insect bites, and do not pique a wounded giant hardly sensible +of irritation under his huge, and as we assume for our purpose, +justifiable wrath. We have to speculate which way does the giant incline +to go? and turn him according to the indication. + +Mrs. Lawrence was driven by her critic mood to think Aminta relied-- +erroneously, after woman's old fashion--on the might of superb dark eyes +after having been captured. It seemed to her worse than a beautiful +woman's vanity, a childishness. But her boy's head held boy's brains; +and Lord Ormont's praise of the splendid creature's nerve when she had to +smell powder in Spain, and at bull-fights, and once at a wrecking of +their carriage down a gully on the road over the Alpujarras, sent her +away subdued, envious, happy to have kissed the cheek of the woman who +could inspire it. + + + + +CHAPTER IX. + +A FLASH OF THE BRUISED WARRIOR + +The winning of Lord Ormont's consent to look on at the little bout of +arms was counted an achievement; for even in his own rarefied upper +circle, where the fervid sentiments are not allowed to be seen plunging, +he had his troop of enthusiasts; and they were anxious that he should +make an appearance in public, to take what consolation a misunderstood +and injured man could get from evidence of the grateful esteem +entertained for him by a party of his countrymen, who might reasonably +expect at the same time to set eyes, at rather close quarters, on the +wonderful dark beauty, supposed a Spaniard, occasionally beheld riding +beside him. If it is possible to connect a woman with the devoutest of +their anticipations, the sons of leisure up there will do it. But, in +truth, an English world was having cause to ransack the dust-heaps for +neglected men of mettle. Our intermittent ague, known as dread of +invasion, was over the land. Twice down the columns of panic newspaper +correspondence Lord Ormont saw his name cited, with the effect on him +that such signs of national repentance approaching lodged a crabbed +sourness in his consulting-room, whether of head or breast. + +He was assailed by a gusty appeal from Lady Charlotte, bidding him seize +the moment to proclaim his views while the secretary had a private +missive from her, wherein, between insistency and supplication, she +directed him to bring the subject before my lord every day, and be sure +to write out a fair copy of the epistle previous to the transmission of +it. 'Capua' was mentioned; she brought in 'a siren,' too. Her brother +was to be the soldier again--fling off silken bonds. The world might +prate of his morality; now was the hour for showing his patriotism, +casting aside his just anger, and backing his chief's opinion. 'A good +chance to get their names together.' To her brother she declared that +the columns of the leading journal were open to him--'in large type'; he +was to take her word for it; he had only to 'dictate away,' quite at his +ease, just as he talked at Olmer, and leave the bother of the scribe's +business to his aide. 'Lose no time,' she concluded; 'the country wants +your ideas; let us have your plan.' + +The earl raised his shoulders, and kept his aide exclusively at the +Memoirs. Weyburn, however, read out to him, with accentuation, foolish +stuff in the recurrent correspondence of the daily sheets, and a +complacent burgess article, meant to be a summary of the controversy and +a recommendation to the country to bask in the sun of its wealth again. + +'Ay, be the porker sow it's getting liker and liker to every year!' Lord +Ormont exclaimed, and sprang on his feet. 'Take a pen. Shut up that +box. We'll give 'em digestive biscuits for their weak stomachs. +Invasion can't be done, they say! I tell the doddered asses Napoleon +would have been over if Villeneuve had obeyed him to the letter. +Villeneuve had a fit of paralysis, owing to the prestige of Nelson-- +that 's as it happened. And they swear at prestige, won't believe in it, +because it's not fat bacon. I tell them, after Napoleon's first battles, +prestige did half his work for him. It saved him at Essling from a +plunge into the Danube; it saved him at Moskowa; it would have marched +him half over England at his first jump on our shingle beach. But that +squelch of fat citizens should be told--to the devil with them! will they +ever learn? short of a second William!--there were eight-and-forty hours +when the liberty of this country hung wavering in the balance with those +Boulogne boats. Now look at Ulm and Austerlitz. Essling, Wagram; put +the victors in those little affairs to front our awkward squads. The +French could boast a regimental system, and chiefs who held them as the +whist-player his hand of cards. Had we a better general than the +Archduke Charles? or cavalry and artillery equal to the Hungarian? +or drilled infantry numbering within eighty thousand of the Boulogne- +Wimereux camps? We had nothing but the raw material of courage--pluck, +and no science. Ask any boxing man what he thinks of the chances. +The French might have sacrificed a fleet to land fifty thousand. +Our fleet was our one chance. Any foreign General at the head of fifty +thousand trained, picked troops would risk it, and cut an 'entrechat' for +joy of the chance. We should have fought and bled and been marched over +--a field of Anglo-Saxon stubble! and Nelson riding the Channel, +undisputed lord of the waters. Heigh! by the Lord, this country would +have been like a man free to rub his skin with his hand and a mortal +disease in his blood. Are you ready? How anticipate a hostile march on +the capital, is our business.' + +Striding up and down the library, Lord Ormont dropped his wrath to +dictate the practical measures for defence--detesting the cat's-cry +'defence,' he said; but the foe would bring his old growlers, and we +should have to season our handful of regulars and mob of levies, turn the +mass into troops. With plenty of food, and blows daily, Englishmen soon +get stomachs for the right way to play the game; bowl as well as bat; and +the sooner they give up the idea of shamming sturdy on a stiff hind leg, +the better for their chances. Only, it's a beastly thing to see that for +their favourite attitude;--like some dog of a fellow weak in the fists, +weaker in the midriff, at a fair, who cries, Come on, and prays his gods +you won't. All for peace, the rascal boasts himself, and he beats his +wife and kicks his curs at home. Is there any one to help him now, he +vomits gold and honours on the man he yesterday treated as a felon. Ha! + +Bull the bumpkin disposed of, my lord drew leisurely back from the +foeman's landing-place, at the head of a body of serious Englishmen; +teaching them to be manageable as chess-pieces, ready as bow-strings to +let fly. Weyburn rejoiced to find himself transcribing crisp sentences, +hard on the matter, without garnish of scorn. Kent, Sussex, Surrey, all +the southern heights about London, round away to the south-western of the +Hampshire heathland, were accurately mapped in the old warrior's brain. +He knew his points of vantage by name; there were no references to +gazetteer or atlas. A chain of forts and earthworks enables us to choose +our ground, not for clinging to them, but for choice of time and place to +give battle. If we have not been playing double-dyed traitor to +ourselves, we have a preponderating field artillery; our yeomanry and +volunteer horsemen are becoming a serviceable cavalry arm; our infantry +prove that their heterogeneous composition can be welded to a handy mass, +and can stand fire and return it, and not be beaten by an acknowledged +defeat. + +'That's English! yes, that's English! when they're at it,' my lord sang +out. + +'To know how to take a licking, that wins in the end,' cried Weyburn; his +former enthusiasm for the hero mounting, enlightened by a reminiscence of +the precept he had hammered on the boys at Cuper's. + +'They fall well. Yes, the English fall like men,' said my lord, +pardoning and embracing the cuffed nation. 'Bodies knocked over, hearts +upright. That's example; we breed Ironsides out of a sight like that. +If it weren't for a cursed feeble Government scraping 'conges' to the +taxpayer--well, so many of our good fellows would not have to fall. That +I say; for this thing is going to happen some day, mind you, sir! And I +don't want to have puncheons and hogsheads of our English blood poured +out merely to water the soil of a conquered country because English +Governments are a craven lot, not daring risk of office by offending the +taxpayer. But, on!' + +Weyburn sent Lady Charlotte glowing words of the composition in progress. + +They worked through a day, and a second day--talked of nothing else in +the intervals. Explanatory answers were vouchsafed to Aminta's modest +inquiries at Finch, as she pictured scenes of smoke, dust and blood from +the overpowering plain masculine lines they drew, terrible in bluntness. +The third morning Lord Ormont had map and book to verify distances and +attempt a scale of heights, take names of estates, farms, parishes, +commons, patches of woodland. Weyburn wrote his fair copy on folio +paper, seven-and-thirty pages. He read it aloud to the author on the +afternoon of the fourth day, with the satisfaction in his voice that he +felt. My lord listened and nodded. The plan for the defence of +England's heart was a good plan. + +He signed to have the manuscript handed to him. A fortified London +secure of the Thames for abundant supplies, well able to breathe within +earthworks extending along the southern hills, was clearly shown to stand +the loss of two big battles on the Sussex weald or more East to North- +east, if fortune willed it. + +He rose from his chair, paced some steps, with bent head, came back +thoughtfully, lifted the manuscript sheets for another examination. +Then he stooped to the fire, spreading the edges unevenly, so that they +caught flame. Weyburn spied at him. It was to all appearance the doing +of a man who had intended it and brought it to the predetermined +conclusion. + +'About time for you to be off for your turn at Chiallo's,' our country's +defender remarked, after tossing the last half-burnt lump under the grate +and shovelling at it. + +'I will go, my lord,' said Weyburn--and he was glad to go. + +He went, calculated his term of service under Lord Ormont. He was young, +not a philosopher. Waste of anything was abhorrent to a nature pointed +at store of daily gain, if it were only the gain in a new or a freshened +idea; and time lost, work lost, good counsel to the nation lost, +represented horrid vacuity to him, and called up the counter +demonstration of a dance down the halls of madness, for proof that we +should, at least, have jolly motion of limbs there before Perdition +struck the great gong. Ay, and we should be twirling with a fair form on +the arm: woman and man; as it ought to be; twirling downward, true, but +together. Such a companionship has a wisdom to raise it above the title +of madness. Name it, heartily, pleasure; and in contempt of the moralist +burgess, praise the dance of a woman and the man together high over a +curmudgeonly humping solitariness, that won't forgive an injury, nurses +rancour, smacks itself in the face, because it can't--to use the old +schoolboy words--take a licking! + +These were the huddled, drunken sensations and thoughts entertained by +Weyburn, without his reflecting on the detachment from his old hero, of +which they were the sign. He criticized impulsively, and fancied he did +no more, and was not doing much though, in fact, criticism is the end of +worship; the Brutus blow at that Imperial but mortal bosom. + +The person criticized was manifest. Who was the woman he twirled with? +She was unfeatured, undistinguished, one of the sex, or all the sex: the +sex to be shunned as our deadly sapper of gain, unless we find the chosen +one to super-terrestrialize it and us, and trebly outdo our gift of our +whole self for her. + +She was indistinguishable, absolutely unknown; yet she murmured, or +seemed to murmur--for there was no sound--a complaint of Lord Ormont. +And she, or some soundless mouth of woman, said he was a splendid +military hero, a chivalrous man, a man of inflexible honour; but had no +understanding of how to treat a woman, or belief in her having equal life +with him on earth. + +She was put aside rather petulantly, and she took her seat out of the +whirl with submission. Thinking she certainly was not Browny, whom he +would have known among a million, he tried to quit the hall, and he +twirled afresh, necessarily not alone; it is the unpardonable offence +both to the Graces and the Great Mother for man to valse alone. She +twirled on his arm, uninvited; accepted, as in the course of nature; +hugged, under dictate of the nature of the man steeled against her by the +counting of gain, and going now at desperation's pace, by very means of +those defensive locked steam-valves meant to preserve him from this +madness,--for the words of the red-lipped mate, where there were no +words, went through him like a music when the bow is over the viol, +sweeping imagination, and they said her life was wasting. + +Was not she a priceless manuscript cast to the flames? Her lord had been +at some trouble to win her. Or his great fame and his shadowed fortunes +had won her. He took her for his own, and he would not call her his own. +He comported himself with absolute, with kindly deference to the lady +whose more than vital spark he let the gossips puff at and blur. He +praised her courage, visibly admired her person, admitted her in private +to be his equal, degraded her in public. Could anything account for the +behaviour of so manly and noble a gentleman?--Rhetoric made the attempt, +and Weyburn gave up the windy business. + +Discovering that his fair partner of the wasting life was--he struggled +to quench the revelation--Aminta, he stopped the dance. If there was no +gain in whirling fancifully with one of the sex, a spin of a minute with +her was downright bankruptcy. + +He was young, full of blood; his heart led him away from the door Lord +Ormont had exposed; at which a little patient unemotional watchfulness +might have intimated to him something besides the simple source of the +old hero's complex chapter of conduct. As it was, Weyburn did see the +rancour of a raw wound in operation. But he moralized and disapproved; +telling himself, truly enough, that so it would not have been with him; +instead of sounding at my lord's character, and his condition of the +unjustly neglected great soldier, for the purpose of asking how that raw +wound would affect an injured veteran, who compressed, almost repressed, +the roar of Achilles, though his military bright name was to him his +Briseis. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +A SHORT PASSAGE IN THE GAME PLAYED BY TWO + +Politest of men in the domestic circle and everywhere among women, Lord +Ormont was annoyed to find himself often gruffish behind the tie of his +cravat. Indeed, the temper of our eminently serene will feel the strain +of a doldrum-dulness that is goaded to activity by a nettle. The +forbearance he carried farther than most could do was tempted to kick, +under pressure of Mrs. Nargett Pagnell. Without much blaming Aminta, on +whose behalf he submitted to it, and whose resolution to fix in England +had brought it to this crisis, he magnanimously proposed to the Fair +Enemy he forced her to be, and liked to picture her as being, a month in +Paris. + +Aminta declined it for herself; after six or more years of travelling, +she wished to settle, and know her country, she said: a repetition +remark, wide of the point, and indicatory to the game of Pull she was +again playing beneath her smooth visage, unaware that she had the wariest +of partners at the game. + +'But go you--do, I beg,' she entreated. 'It will give you new +impressions; and I cannot bear to tie you down here.' + +'How you can consent to be tied down here, is the wonder to me!' said he. +'When we travelled through the year, just visited England and were off +again, we were driving on our own road. Vienna in April and May--what do +you say? You like the reviews there, and the dances, concerts, Zigeuner +bands, military Bohemian bands. Or Egypt to-morrow, if you like--though +you can't be permitted to swim in the Nile, as you wanted. Come, Xarifa, +speak it. I go to exile without you. Say you come.' + +She smiled firmly. The name of her honeymoon days was not a cajolery to +her. + +His name had been that of the Christian Romancero Knight Durandarte, and +she gave it to him, to be on the proper level with him, while she still +declined. + +'Well, but just a month in Paris! There's nothing doing here. And we +both like the French theatre.' + +'London will soon be filling.' + +'Well, but--' He stopped; for the filling of London did really concern +her, in the game of Pull she was covertly playing with him. 'You seem to +have caught the fever of this London; . . . no bands . . . no +reviews . . . Low comedy acting.' He muttered his objections to +London. + +'The society of people speaking one's own tongue, add that,' she ventured +to say. + +'You know you are ten times more Spanish than English. Moorish, if you +like.' + +'The slave of the gallant Christian Knight, converted, baptized, and +blissful. Oh, I know. But now we are settled in England, I have a wish +to study English society.' + +'Disappointing, I assure you;--dinners heavy, dancing boorish, intrigue a +blind-man's-buff. We've been over it all before !' + +'We have.' + +'Admired, I dare say. You won't be understood.' + +'I like my countrymen.' + +'The women have good looks--of the ungarnished kind. The men are louts.' + +'They are brave.' + +'You're to see their fencing. You'll own a little goes a long way.' + +'I think it will amuse me.' + +'So I thought when I gave the nod to Isabella your friend.' + +'You like her?' + +'You, too.' + +'One fancies she would make an encouraging second in a duel.' + +'I will remember . . . when I call you out.' + +'Oh, my dear lord, you have dozens to choose from leave me my one if we +are to enter the lists.' + +'We are, it seems; unless you consent to take the run to Paris. You are +to say Tom or Rowsley.' + +'The former, I can never feel at home in saying; Rowsley is Lady +Charlotte's name for you.' + +The name of Lady Charlotte was an invitation to the conflict between +them. He passed it, and said 'Durandarte runs a mile on the mouth, and +the Coriolanus of their newspapers helps a stage-player to make lantern +jaws. Neither of them comes well from the lips of my girl. After seven +years she should have hit on a nickname, of none of the Christian suit. +I am not "at home" either with "my lord." However, you send me off to +Paris alone; and you'll be alone and dull here in this London. +Incomprehensible to me why!' + +'We are both wondering?' said Aminta. + +'You 're handsomer than when I met you first--by heaven you are!' + +She flushed her dark brown-red late-sunset. 'Brunes are exceptional in +England.' + +'Thousands admiring you, of course! I know, my love, I have a jewel.' + +She asked him: 'What are jewels for?' and he replied, 'To excite +cupidity.' + +'When they 're shut in a box?' + +'Ware burglars! But this one is not shut up. She shuts herself up. And +up go her shoulders! Decide to be out of it, and come to Paris for some +life for a month. No? It's positive? When do you expect your little +school friend?' + +'After Easter. Aunt will be away.' + +'Your little friend likes the country. I'll go to my house agents. If +there 's a country house open on the upper Thames, you can have swimming, +boating, botanizing . . .' + +He saw her throat swallow. But as he was offering agreeable things he +chose to not understand how he was to be compassionate. + +'Steignton?' she said, and did her cause no good by saying it feebly. + +His look of a bygone awake-in-sleep old look, drearily known to her, was +like a strip of sunlight on a fortress wall. It signified, Is the poor +soul pushing me back to that again? + +She compelled herself to say: 'Your tenant there?' + +'Matter of business . . . me and my tenant,' he remarked. 'The man +pays punctually.' + +'The lease has expired.' + +'Not quite. You are misinformed.' + +'At Easter.' + +'Ah! Question of renewing.' + +'You were fond of the place.' + +'I was fond of the place? Thank Blazes, I'm not what I was!' He paced +about. 'There's not a corner of the place that doesn't screw an eye at +me, because I had a dream there. La gloire!' + +The rest he muttered. 'These English!' was heard. Aminta said: 'Am I +never to see Steignton?' + +Lord Ormont invoked the Powers. He could not really give answer to this +female talk of the eternities. + +'Beaten I can never be,' he said, with instinctive indulgence to the +greater creature. 'But down there at Steignton, I should be haunted by a +young donkey swearing himself the fellow I grew up out of. No doubt of +that. I don't like him the better for it. Steignton grimaces at a +cavalry officer fool enough at his own risks and penalties to help save +India for the English. Maunderers! You can't tell--they don't know +themselves--what they mean. Except that they 're ready to take anything +you hand 'em, and then pipe to your swinging. I served them well--and at +my age, in full activity, they condemn me to sit and gape!' + +He stopped his pacing and gazed on the glass of the window. + +'Would you wish me not to be present at this fencing?' said Aminta. + +'Dear me! by all means, go, my love,' he replied. + +Any step his Fair Enemy won in the secret game Pull between them, she was +undisputedly to keep. + +She suggested: 'It might lead to unpleasantness.' + +'Of what sort?' + +'You ask?' + +He emphasized: 'Have you forgotten? Something happened after that last +ball at Challis's Rooms. Their women as well as their men must be +careful not to cross me.' + +Aminta had confused notions of her being planted in hostile territory, +and torn and knitted, trumpeted to the world as mended, but not +honourably mended in a way to stop corridor scandal. The ball at +Challis's Rooms had been one of her steps won: it had necessitated a +requirement for the lion in her lord to exhibit himself, and she had +gained nothing with Society by the step, owing to her poor performance +of the lion's mate. She had, in other words, shunned the countenance of +some scattered people pityingly ready to support her against the deadly +passive party known to be Lady Charlotte's. + +She let her lord go; thinking that once more had she striven and gained +nothing: which was true of all their direct engagements. And she had +failed because of her being only a woman! Mr. Morsfield was foolishly +wrong in declaring that she, as a woman, had reserves of strength. He +was perhaps of Lady Charlotte's mind with regard to the existence of a +Countess of Ormont, or he would know her to be incredibly cowardly. +Cowardly under the boast of pride, too; well, then, say, if you like, a +woman! + +Yet this mere shallow woman would not hesitate to meet the terrible Lady +Charlotte at any instant, on any terms: and what are we to think of a +soldier, hero, lion, dreading to tell her to her face that the persecuted +woman is his wife! + +'Am I a woman they can be ashamed of?' she asked, and did not seek the +answer at her mirror. She was in her bedroom, and she put out a hand to +her jewel-box, fingered it, found it locked, and abandoned her idle +project. A gentleman was 'dangerous.' She had not found him so. He had +the reputation, perhaps, because he was earnest. Not so very many men +are earnest. She called to recollection how ludicrously practical he was +in the thick of his passion. His third letter (addressed to the Countess +of Ormont--whom he manifestly did not or would not take to be the +veritable Countess--and there was much to plead for his error), or was it +his fourth?--the letters were a tropical hail-storm: third or fourth, he +broke off a streaked thunderpeal, to capitulate his worldly possessions, +give the names and degrees of kinship of his relatives, the exact amount +of the rent-roll of his Yorkshire estates, of his funded property. + +Silly man! but not contemptible. He proposed everything in honour, from +his view of it. + +Whether in his third, fourth, or fifth letter. . . . How many had +come? She drew the key from her purse, and opened a drawer. The key of +the jewel-box was applied to the lock. + +Mr. Morsfield had sent her six flaming letters. He not only took no +precautions, he boasted that he hailed the consequences of discovery. +Six! + +She lifted a pen: it had to be done. + +He was briefly informed that he disturbed her peace. She begged he would +abstain from any further writing to her. + +The severity was in the brevity. The contrast of her style and his +appeared harsh. But it belonged to the position. + +Having with one dash of the pen scribbled her three lines, she slipped +the letter into her pocket. That was done, and it had to be done; it +ought to have been done before. How simple it was when one contemplated +it as actually done! Aminta made the motion of a hand along the paper, +just a flourish. Soon after, her head dropped back on the chair, and her +eyes shut, she took in breath through parted lips. The brief lines of +writing had cut away a lump of her vitality. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +THE SECRETARY TAKEN AS AN ANTIDOTE + +Dusty wayfarers along a white high-road who know of a bubbling little +spring across a stile, on the woodland borders of deep grass, are hailed +to sit aside it awhile: and Aminta's feverishness was cooled by now and +then a quiet conversation with the secretary ambitious to become a +school-master. Lady Charlotte liked him, so did her lord; Mrs. Lawrence +had chatted with him freshly, as it was refreshing to recollect; nobody +thought him a stunted growth. + +In Aminta's realized recollections, amid the existing troubles of her +mind, the charge against him grew paler, and she could no longer quite +think that the young hero transformed into a Mr. Cuper had deceived her, +though he had done it--much as if she had assisted at the planting and +watched aforetime the promise of a noble tree, to find it, after an +interval of years, pollarded--a short trunk shooting out a shock of +small, slim, stiff branches; dwarfed and disgraced; serviceable perhaps; +not ludicrous or ugly, certainly, taking it for a pollard. And he was a +cool well-spring to talk with. He, supposed once to be a passionate +nature, scorned passion as a madness; he smiled in his merciful +executioner's way at the high society, of which her aim was to pass for +one among the butterflies or dragonflies; he had lost his patriotism; he +labelled our English classes the skimmers, the gorgers, the grubbers, and +stigmatized them with a friendly air; and uttered words of tolerance only +for farmers and surgeons and schoolmasters. But that was quite +incidental in the humorous run of his talk, diverting to hear while it +lasted. He had, of course, a right to his ideas. + +No longer concerned in contesting them, she drank at the water of this +plain earth-well, and hoped she preferred it to fiery draughts, though it +was flattish, or, say, flavourless. In the other there was excess of +flavour--or, no, spice it had to be called. The young schoolmaster's +world seemed a sunless place, the world of traders bargaining for gain, +without a glimmer of the rich generosity to venture life, give it, dare +all for native land--or for the one beloved. Love pressed its claim on +heroical generosity, and instantly it suffused her, as an earth under +flush of sky. The one beloved! She had not known love; she was in her +five-and-twentieth year, and love was not only unknown to her, it was +shut away from her by the lock of a key that opened on no estimable +worldly advantage in exchange, but opened on a dreary, clouded round, +such as she had used to fancy it must be to the beautiful creamy circus- +horse of the tossing mane and flowing tail and superb step. She was +admired; she was just as much doomed to a round of paces, denied the +glorious fling afield, her nature's food. Hitherto she would have been +shamefaced as a boy in forming the word 'love': now, believing it denied +to her for good and all--for ever and ever--her bosom held and uttered +the word. She saw the word, the nothing but the word that it was, and +she envisaged it, for the purpose of saying adieu to it--good-bye even to +the poor empty word. + +This condition was attributable to a gentleman's wild rageing with the +word, into which he had not infused the mystic spirit. He poured hot +wine and spiced. If not the spirit of love, it was really the passion of +the man. Her tremors now and again in the reading of his later letters +humiliated her, in the knowledge that they came of no response to him, +but from the temporary base acquiescence; which is, with women, a +terrible perception of the gulf of their unsatisfied nature. + +The secretary, cheerful at his work, was found for just the opening of a +door. Sometimes she hesitated--to disturb him, she said to herself,--and +went up-stairs or out visiting. He protested that he could work on and +talk too. She was able to amuse her lord with some of his ideas. He had +a stock of them, all his own. + +Ideas, new-born and naked original ideas, are acceptable at no time to +the humanity they visit to help uplift, it from the state of beast. In +the England of that, period original or unknown ideas were a smoking +brimstone to the nose, dread Arabian afrites, invisible in the air, +jumping out of vases, armed for the slaughter of the venerable and the +cherished, the ivy-clad and celestially haloed. They carried the +dishevelled Maenad's torch. A step with them, and we were on the +Phlegethon waters of the French Revolution. For a publication of simple +ideas men were seized, tried at law, mulcted, imprisoned, and not +pardoned after the term of punishment; their names were branded: the +horned elect butted at them; he who alluded to them offered them up, +wittingly or not, to be damned in the nose of the public for an +execrable brimstone stench. + +Lord Ormont broke through his shouts or grunts at Aminta's report of the +secretary's ideas on various topics, particularly the proposal that the +lords of the land should head the land in a revolutionary effort to make +law of his crazy, top-heavy notions, with a self-satisfied ejaculation: +'He has not favoured me with any of these puffballs of his.' + +The deduction was, that the author sagaciously considered them adapted +for the ear of a woman; they were womanish--i.e. flighty, gossamer. To +the host of males, all ideas are female until they are made facts. + +This idea, proposing it to our aristocracy to take up his other ideas, +or reject them on pain of the forfeiture of their caste and headship with +the generations to follow, and a total displacing of them in history by +certain notorious, frowzy, scrubby pamphleteers and publishers, Lord +Ormont thought amazingly comical. English nobles heading the weavers, +cobblers, and barbers of England! He laughed, but he said, 'Charlotte +would listen to that.' + +The dread, high-sitting Lady Charlotte was, in his lofty thinking, +a woman, and would therefore listen to nonsense, if it happened to +strike a particular set of bells hanging in her cranium. She patronized +blasphemous and traitorous law-breakers, just to keep up the pluck of the +people, not with a notion of maintaining our English aristocracy eminent +in history. + +Lady Charlotte, however, would be the foremost to swoop down on the +secretary's ideas about the education of women. + +On that subject, Aminta said she did not know what to think. + +Now, if a man states the matter he thinks, and a woman does but listen, +whether inclining to agree or not, a perceptible stamp is left on soft +wax. Lord Ormont told her so, with cavalier kindness. + +She confessed 'she did not know what to think,' when the secretary +proposed the education and collocation of boys and girls in one group, +never separated, declaring it the only way for them to learn to know and +to respect one another. They were to learn together, play together, have +matches together, as a scheme for stopping the mischief between them. + +'But, my dear girl, don't you see, the devilry was intended by Nature. +Life would be the coldest of dishes without it.' And as for mixing the +breeched and petticoated in those young days--'I can't enter into it,' +my lord considerately said. 'All I can tell you is, I know boys.' + +Aminta persisted in looking thoughtful. 'Things are bad, as they are +now,' she said. + +'Always were--always will be. They were intended to be, if we are to +call them bad. Botched mendings will only make them worse.' + +'Which side suffers?' + +'Both; and both like it. One side must be beaten at any game. It's off +and on, pretty equal--except in the sets where one side wears thick +boots. Is this fellow for starting a mixed sexes school? Funny +mothers!' + +'I suppose--' Aminta said, and checked the supposition. 'The mothers +would not leave their girls unless they were confident . . . ?' + +'There's to be a female head of the female department? He reckons on +finding a woman as big a fool as himself? A fair bit of reckoning +enough. He's clever at the pen. He doesn't bother me with his ideas; now +and then I 've caught a sound of his bee buzzing.' + +The secretary was left undisturbed at his labours for several days. + +He would have been gladdened by a brighter look of her eyes at her next +coming. They were introspective and beamless. She had an odd leaning +to the talk upon Cuper's boys. He was puzzled by what he might have +classed, in any other woman, as a want of delicacy, when she recurred to +incidents which were red patches of the school time, and had clearly lost +their glow for her. + +A letter once written by him, in his early days at Cuper's, addressed to +J. Masner, containing a provocation to fight with any weapons, and +signed, 'Your Antagonist,' had been read out to the whole school, under +strong denunciation of the immorality, the unchristian-like conduct of +the writer, by Mr. Cuper; creating a sensation that had travelled to Miss +Vincent's establishment, where some of the naughtiest of the girls had +taken part with the audacious challenger, dreadful though the +contemplation of a possible duel so close to them was. And then the +girls heard that the anonymous 'Your Antagonist,' on being cited to +proclaim himself in public assembly of school-mates and masters, had +jumped on his legs and into the name of--one who was previously thought +by Miss Vincent's good girls incapable of the 'appalling wickedness,' as +Mr. Cuper called it, of signing 'Your Antagonist' to a Christian school- +fellow, having the design to provoke a breach of the law of the land and +shed Christian blood. Mr. Cuper delivered an impressive sermon from his +desk to the standing up boarders and day-scholars alike, vilifying the +infidel Greek word 'antagonist.' + +'Do you remember the offender's name?' the Countess of Ormont said; and +Weyburn said-- + +'Oh yes, I 've not forgotten the incident.' + +Her eyes, wherein the dead time hung just above the underlids, lingered, +as with the wish for him to name the name. + +She said: 'I am curious to hear how you would treat a case of that sort. +Would you preach to the boys? + +'Ten words at most. The right assumption is that both fellows were to +blame. I fancy the proper way would be to appeal to the naughty girls +for their opinion as to how the dispute should be decided.' + +'You impose too much on them. And you are not speaking seriously.' + +'Pardon me, I am. I should throw myself into the mind of a naughty girl +--supposing none of these at hand--and I should let it be known that my +eyes were shut to proceedings, always provided the weapons were not such +as would cause a shock of alarm in female bosoms.' + +'You would at your school allow it to be fought out?' + +'Judging by the characters of the boys. If they had heads to understand, +I would try them at their heads. Otherwise they are the better, they +come round quicker to good blood, at their age--I speak of English boys +--for a little hostile exercise of their fists. Well, for one thing, it +teaches them the value of sparring.' + +'I must imagine I am not one of the naughty sisterhood,--for I cannot +think I should ever give consent to fighting of any description, unless +for the very best of reasons,' said the countess. + +His eyes were at the trick of the quarter-minute's poising. Her lids +fluttered. 'Oh, I don't mean to say I was one of the good,' she added. + +At the same time her enlivened memory made her conscious of a warning, +that she might, as any woman might, so talk on of past days as to take, +rather more than was required of the antidote she had come for. + +The antidote was excellent; cooling, fortifying; 'quite a chalybeate,' +her aunt would say, and she was thankful. Her heart rose on a quiet wave +of the thanks, and pitched down to a depth of uncounted fathoms. Aminta +was unable to tell herself why. + +Mrs. Lawrence Finchley had been announced. On her way to the drawing +room Aminta's brain fell upon a series of dots, that wound along a track +to the point where she accused herself of a repented coquettry--cause of +the burning letters she was doomed to receive and could not stop without +rousing her lion. She dotted backwards; there was no sign that she had +been guilty of any weakness other than the almost--at least, in design-- +innocent first move, which had failed to touch Lord Ormont in the +smallest degree. Never failure more absolute! + +She was about to inquire of her bosom's oracle whether she greatly cared +now. For an answer, her brain went dotting along from Mr. Cuper's +school, and a boy named Abner there, and a boy named Matey Weyburn, who +protected the little Jew-boy, up to Mr. Abner in London, who recommended +him in due season to various acquaintances; among them to Lady Charlotte +Eglett. Hence the introduction to Lord Ormont. How little extraordinary +circumstances are, if only we trace them to the source! + +But if only it had appeared marvellous, the throbbing woman might have +seized on it, as a thing fateful, an intervention distinctly designed to +waken the best in her, which was, after all, the strongest. Yea, she +could hope and pray and believe it was the strongest. + +She was listening to Isabella Lawrence Finchley, wishing she might have +followed to some end the above line of her meditations. + +Mrs. Lawrence was changed, much warmer, pressing to be more than merely +friendly. Aminta twice gave her cheek for kisses. The secretary had +spoken of Mrs. Lawrence as having the look of a handsome boy; and +Aminta's view of her now underwent a change likewise. Compunction, +together with a sisterly taste for the boyish fair one flying her sail +independently, and gallantly braving the winds, induced her to kiss in +return. + +'You do like me a morsel?' said Mrs. Lawrence. 'I fell in love with you +the last time I was here. I came to see Mr. Secretary--it's avowed; and +I have been thinking of you ever since, of no one else. Oh yes, for a +man; but you caught me. I've been hearing of him from Captain May. They +fence at those rooms. And it 's funny, Mr. Morsfield practises there, +you know; and there was a time when the lovely innocent Amy, Queen of +Blondes, held the seat of the Queen of Brunes. Ah, my dear, the +infidelity of men doesn't count. They are affected by the changeing +moons. As long as the captain is civil to him, we may be sure beautiful +Amy has not complained. Her husband is the pistol she carries in her +pocket, and she has fired him twice, with effect. Through love of you I +have learnt the different opinion the world of the good has of her and of +me; I thought we ran under a common brand. There are gradations. I went +to throw myself at the feet of my great-aunt; good old great-aunt Lady de +Culme, who is a power in the land. I let her suppose I came for myself, +and she reproached me with Lord Adder. I confessed to him and ten +others. She is a dear, she's ticklish, and at eighty-four she laughed! +She looked into my eyes and saw a field with never a man in it--just the +shadow of a man. She admitted the ten cancelled the one, and exactly +named to me, by comparison with the erring Amy, the sinner I am and must +be, if I 'm to live. So, dear, the end of it is,' and Mrs. Lawrence put +her fingers to a silken amber bow at Aminta's throat, and squared it and +flattened it with dainty precision, speaking on under dropped eyelids, +intent upon her work, 'Lady de Culme will be happy to welcome you +whenever it shall suit the Countess of Ormont to accompany her +disreputable friend. But what can I do, dear?' She raised her lids and +looked beseechingly. 'I was born with this taste for the ways and games +and style of men. I hope I don't get on badly with women; but if I 'm +not allowed to indulge my natural taste, I kick the stable-boards and +bite the manger.' + +Aminta threw her arms round her, and they laughed their mutual peal. + +Caressing her still, Aminta said: 'I don't know whether I embrace a boy.' + +'That idea comes from a man!' said Mrs. Lawrence. It was admitted. The +secretary was discussed. + +Mrs. Lawrence remarked: 'Yes, I like talking with him; he's bright. You +drove him out of me the day I saw him. Doesn't he give you the idea of a +man who insists on capturing you and lets it be seen he doesn't care two +snaps of a finger?' + +Aminta petitioned on his behalf indifferently: 'He 's well bred.' + +She was inattentive to Mrs. Lawrence's answer. The allusion of the Queen +of Blondes had stung her in the unacknowledged regions where women +discard themselves and are most sensitive. + +'Decide on coming soon to Lady de Culme,' said Mrs. Lawrence. 'Now that +her arms are open to you, she would like to have you in them. She is +old--. You won't be rigorous? no standing on small punctilios? + +She would call, but she does not--h'm, it is M. le Comte that she does +not choose to--h'm. But her arms are open to the countess. It ought to +be a grand step. You may be assured that Lady Charlotte Eglett would +not be taken into them. My great-aunt has a great-aunt's memory. The +Ormonts are the only explanation--if it 's an apology--she can offer for +the behaviour of the husband of the Countess of Ormont. You know I like +him. I can't help liking a man who likes me. Is that the way with a +boy, Mr. Secretary? I must have another talk with the gentleman, my +dear. You are Aminta to me.' + +'Always Aminta to you,' was the reply, tenderly given. + +'But as for comprehending him, I'm as far off that as Lady de Culme, who +hasn't the liking for him I have.' + +'The earl?' said Aminta, showing by her look that she was in the same +position. + +Mrs. Lawrence shrugged: 'I believe men and women marry in order that they +should never be able to understand one another. The riddle's best read +at a moderate distance. It 's what they call the golden mean; too close, +too far, we're strangers. I begin to understand that husband of mine, +now we're on bowing terms. Now, I must meet the earl to-morrow. You +will arrange? His hand wants forcing. Upon my word, I don't believe it +'s more.' + +Mrs. Lawrence contrasted him in her mind with the husband she knew, and +was invigorated by the thought that a placable impenetrable giant may +often be more pliable in a woman's hands than an irascible dwarf--until, +perchance, the latter has been soundly cuffed, and then he is docile to +trot like a squire, as near your heels as he can get. She rejoiced to +be working for the woman she had fallen in love with. + +Aminta promised herself to show the friend a livelier affection at their +next meeting. + +A seventh letter, signed 'Adolphus,' came by post, was read and locked up +in her jewel-box. They were all nigh destruction for a wavering minute +or so. They were placed where they lay because the first of them had +been laid there, the box being a strong one, under a patent key, and +discovery would mean the terrible. They had not been destroyed because +they had, or seemed to her to have, the language of passion. She could +read them unmoved, and appease a wicked craving she owned to having, and +reproached herself with having, for that language. + +Was she not colour in the sight of men? Here was one, a mouthpiece of +numbers, who vowed that homage was her due, and devotion, the pouring +forth of the soul to her. What was the reproach if she read the stuff +unmoved? + +But peruse and reperuse it, and ask impressions to tell our deepest +instinct of truthfulness whether language of this character can have been +written to two women by one hand! Men are cunning. Can they catch a +tone? Not that tone! + +She, too, Mrs. Amy May, was colour in the sight of men. Yet it seemed +that he could not have written so to the Queen of Blondes. And she, by +repute, was as dangerous to slight as he to attract. Her indifference +exonerated him. Besides, a Queen of Blondes would not draw the hearts +out of men in England, as in Italy and in Spain. Aminta had got thus far +when she found 'Queen of Brunes' expunged by a mist: she imagined +hearing the secretary's laugh. She thought he was right to laugh at her. +She retorted simply: 'These are feelings that are poetry.' + +A man may know nothing about them, and be an excellent schoolmaster. + +Suggestions touching the prudence of taking Mrs. Lawrence into her +confidence, as regarded these troublesome letters of the man with the +dart in his breast, were shuffled aside for various reasons: her modesty +shrank; and a sense of honour toward the man forbade it. She would have +found it easier to do if she had conspired against her heart in doing it. +And yet, cold-bloodedly to expose him and pluck the clothing from a +passion--dear to think of only when it is profoundly secret--struck her +as an extreme baseness, of which not even the woman who perused and +reperused his letters could be guilty. + +Her head rang with some of the lines, and she accused her head of the +crime of childishness, seeing that her heart was not an accomplice. At +the same time, her heart cried out violently against the business of a +visit to Lady de Culme, and all the steps it involved. Justly she +accused her heart of treason. Heart and head were severed. This, as she +partly apprehended, is the state of the woman who is already on the slope +of her nature's mine-shaft, dreading the rush downwards, powerless to +break away from the light. + +Letters perused and reperused, coming from a man never fervently noticed +in person, conjure features one would wish to put beside the actual, +to make sure that the fiery lines he writes are not practising a +beguilement. Aminta had lost grasp of the semblance of the impassioned +man. She just remembered enough of his eyes to think there might be +healing in a sight of him. + +Latterly she had refused to be exhibited to a tattling world as the great +nobleman's conquest:--The 'Beautiful Lady Doubtful' of a report that had +scorched her cars. Theatres, rides, pleasure-drives, even such houses as +she saw standing open to her had been shunned. Now she asked the earl to +ride in the park. + +He complied, and sent to the stables immediately, just noted another of +her veerings. The whimsy creatures we are matched to contrast with, +shift as the very winds or feather-grasses in the wind. Possibly a fine +day did it. Possibly, too, her not being requested to do it. + +He was proud of her bearing on horseback. She rode well and looked well. +A finer weapon wherewith to strike at a churlish world was never given +into the hands of man. These English may see in her, if they like, that +they and their laws and customs are defied. It does her no hurt, and it +hits them a ringing buffet. + +Among the cavaliers they passed was Mr. Morsfield. He rode by slowly. +The earl stiffened his back in returning the salute. Both that and the +gentleman were observed by Aminta. + +'He sees to having good blood under him,' said the earl. 'I admired his +mount,' she replied. + +Interpreted by the fire of his writing, his features expressed character: +insomuch that a woman could say of another woman, that she admired him +and might reasonably do so. His gaze at her in the presence of her lord +was audacious. + +He had the defect of his virtue of courage. Yet a man indisputably +possessing courage cannot but have an interesting face--though one may +continue saying, Pity that the eyes are not a little wider apart! He +dresses tastefully; the best English style. A portrait by a master hand +might hand him down to generations as an ancestor to be proud of. But +with passion and with courage, and a bent for snatching at the lion's +own, does he not look foredoomed to an early close? Her imagination +called up a portrait of Elizabeth's Earl of Essex to set beside him; and +without thinking that the two were fraternally alike, she sent him riding +away with the face of the Earl of Essex and the shadow of the unhappy +nobleman's grievous fortunes over his head. + +But it is inexcuseable to let the mind be occupied recurrently by a man +who has not moved the feelings, wicked though it be to have the feelings +moved by him. Aminta rebuked her silly wits, and proceeded to speculate +from an altitude, seeing the man's projects in a singularly definite +minuteness, as if the crisis he invoked, the perils he braved, the mute +participation he implored of her for the short space until their fate +should be decided, were a story sharply cut on metal. Several times she +surprised herself in an interesting pursuit of the story; abominably +cold, abominably interested. She fell upon a review of small duties of +the day, to get relief; and among them a device for spiriting away her +aunt from the table where Mrs. Lawrence wished to meet Lord Ormont. It +sprang up to her call like an imp of the burning pit. She saw it +ingenious and of natural aspect. I must be a born intriguer! she said in +her breast. That was hateful; but it seemed worse when she thought of a +woman commanding the faculty and consenting to be duped and foiled. That +might be termed despicable; but what if she had not any longer the wish +to gain her way with her lord? + +Those letters are acting like a kind of poison in me! her heart cried: +and it was only her head that dwelt on the antidote. + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +A woman, and would therefore listen to nonsense +And not be beaten by an acknowledged defeat +Botched mendings will only make them worse +Convincing themselves that they impersonate sagacity +I have all the luxuries--enough to loathe them +Lawyers hold the keys of the great world +Naked original ideas, are acceptable at no time +Not daring risk of office by offending the taxpayer +This female talk of the eternities +To know how to take a licking, that wins in the end +To males, all ideas are female until they are made facts +We cannot, men or woman, control the heart in sleep at night +Who cries, Come on, and prays his gods you won't + + +[The End] + + + + +*********************************************************************** +The Project Gutenberg Etext Lord Ormont and his Aminta, v2, by Meredith +*********This file should be named gm84v10.txt or gm84v10.zip********** + +Corrected EDITIONS of our etexts get a new NUMBER, gm84v11.txt +VERSIONS based on separate sources get new LETTER, gm84v10a.txt + +This etext was produced by Pat Castevans <patcat@ctnet.net> +and David Widger <widger@cecomet.net> + +More information about this book is at the top of this file. + +We are now trying to release all our etexts one year in advance +of the official release dates, leaving time for better editing. +Please be encouraged to tell us about any error or corrections, +even years after the official publication date. + +Please note neither this listing nor its contents are final til +midnight of the last day of the month of any such announcement. +The official release date of all Project Gutenberg Etexts is at +Midnight, Central Time, of the last day of the stated month. 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