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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/4481-0.txt b/4481-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..312494e --- /dev/null +++ b/4481-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,2649 @@ +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 4481 *** + +LORD ORMONT AND HIS AMINTA + +By George Meredith + + + +BOOK 5. + +XXIV. LOVERS MATED +XXXV. PREPARATIONS FOR A RESOLVE +XXVI. VISITS OF FAREWELL +XXVII. A MARINE DUET +XXVIII. THE PLIGHTING +XXIX. AMINTA TO HER LORD +XXX. CONCLUSION + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +LOVERS MATED + +He was benevolently martial, to the extent of paternal, in thinking his +girl, of whom he deigned to think now as his countess, pardonably +foolish. Woman for woman, she was of a pattern superior to the world's +ordinary, and might run the world's elect a race. But she was pitifully +woman-like in her increase of dissatisfaction with the more she got. +Women are happier enslaved. Men, too, if their despot is an Ormont. +Colonel of his regiment, he proved that: his men would follow him +anywhere, do anything. Grand old days, before he was condemned by one +knows not what extraordinary round of circumstances to cogitate on women +as fluids, and how to cut channels for them, that they may course along +in the direction good for them, imagining it their pretty wanton will to +go that way! Napoleon's treatment of women is excellent example. +Peterborough's can be defended. + +His Aminta could not reason. She nursed a rancour on account of the blow +she drew on herself at Steignton, and she declined consolation in her +being pardoned. The reconcilement evidently was proposed as a finale of +one of the detestable feminine storms enveloping men weak enough to let +themselves be dragged through a scene for the sake of domestic +tranquillity. + +A remarkable exhibition of Aminta the woman was, her entire change of +front since he had taken her spousal chill. Formerly she was passive, +merely stately, the chiselled grande dame, deferential in her bearing +and speech, even when argumentative and having an opinion to plant. +She had always the independent eye and step; she now had the tongue of +the graceful and native great lady, fitted to rule her circle and hold +her place beside the proudest of the Ormonts. She bore well the small +shuffle with her jewel-box--held herself gallantly. There had been no +female feignings either, affected misapprehensions, gapy ignorances, and +snaky subterfuges, and the like, familiar to men who have the gentle +twister in grip. Straight on the line of the thing to be seen she flew, +and struck on it; and that is a woman's martial action. He would right +heartily have called her comrade, if he had been active himself. +A warrior pulled off his horse, to sit in a chair and contemplate the +minute evolutions of the sex is pettish with his part in such battle- +fields at the stage beyond amusement. + +Seen swimming, she charmed him. Abstract views of a woman summon +opposite advocates: one can never say positively, That is she! But the +visible fair form of a woman is hereditary queen of us. We have none of +your pleadings and counter-pleadings and judicial summaries to obstruct a +ravenous loyalty. My lord beheld Aminta take her three quick steps on +the plank, and spring and dive and ascend, shaking the ends of her bound +black locks; and away she went with shut mouth and broad stroke of her +arms into the sunny early morning river; brave to see, although he had to +flick a bee of a question, why he enjoyed the privilege of seeing, and +was not beside her. The only answer confessed to a distaste for all +exercise once pleasurable. + +She and her little friend boated or strolled through the meadows during +the day; he fished. When he and Aminta rode out for the hour before +dinner, she seemed pleased. She was amicable, conversable, all that was +agreeable as a woman, and she was the chillest of wives. My lord's +observations and reflections came to one conclusion: she pricked and +challenged him to lead up to her desired stormy scene. He met her and +meant to vanquish her with the dominating patience Charlotte had found +too much for her: women cannot stand against it. + +To be patient in contention with women, however, one must have a +continuous and an exclusive occupation; and the tax it lays on us +conduces usually to impatience with men. My lord did not directly +connect Aminta's chillness and Morsfield's impudence; yet the sensation +roused by his Aminta participated in the desire to punish Morsfield +speedily. Without wishing for a duel, he was moved by the social +sanction it had to consider whether green youths and women might not +think a grey head had delayed it too long. The practice of the duel +begot the peculiar animal logic of the nobler savage, which tends to +magnify an offence in the ratio of our vanity, and hunger for a blood +that is not demanded by the appetite. Moreover, a waning practice, in +disfavour with the new generation, will be commended to the conservative +barbarian, as partaking of the wisdom of his fathers. Further, too, we +may have grown slothful, fallen to moodiness, done excess of service to +Omphale, our tyrant lady of the glow and the chill; and then undoubtedly +the duel braces. + +He left Aminta for London, submissive to the terms of intimacy dictated +by her demeanour, his unacknowledged seniority rendering their harshness +less hard to endure. She had not gratified him with a display of her +person in the glitter of the Ormont jewels; and since he was, under +common conditions, a speechless man, his ineptitude for amorous +remonstrances precipitated him upon deeds, that he might offer additional +proofs of his esteem and the assurance of her established position as his +countess. He proposed to engage Lady Charlotte in a conflict severer +than the foregoing, until he brought her to pay the ceremonial visit to +her sister-in-law. The count of time for this final trial of his +masterfulness he calculated at a week. It would be an occupation, +miserable occupation though it was. He hailed the prospect of chastising +Morsfield, for a proof that his tussels with women, prolonged study of +their tricks, manoeuvrings and outwittings of them, had not emasculated +him. + +Aminta willingly promised to write from day to day. Her senses had his +absence insured to them by her anticipation of the task. She did not +conceive it would be so ponderous a task. What to write to him when +nothing occurred! Nothing did occur, unless the arrival of Mr. Weyburn +was to be named an event. She alluded to it: 'Mr. Weyburn has come, +expecting to find you here. The dispatch-box is here. Is he to await +you?' + +That innocent little question was a day gained. + +One day of boating on the upper reaches of the pastoral river, and walks +in woods and golden meadows, was felicity fallen on earth, the ripe fruit +of dreams. A dread surrounded it, as a belt, not shadowing the horizon; +and she clasped it to her heart the more passionately, like a mother her +rosy infant, which a dark world threatens and the universal fate. + +Love, as it will be at her June of life, was teaching her to know the +good and bad of herself. Women, educated to embrace principles through +their timidity and their pudency, discover, amazed, that these are not +lasting qualities under love's influence. The blushes and the fears take +flight. The principles depend much on the beloved. Is he a man whose +contact with the world has given him understanding of life's laws, and +can hold him firm to the right course in the strain and whirling of a +torrent, they cling to him, deeply they worship. And if they tempt him, +it is not advisedly done. Nature and love are busy in conjunction. The +timidities and pudencies have flown; they may hover, they are not +present. You deplore it, you must not blame; you have educated them so. +Muscular principles are sown only out in the world; and, on the whole, +with all their errors, the worldly men are the truest as well as the +bravest of men. Her faith in his guidance was equal to her dependence. +The retrospect of a recent journey told her how he had been tried. + +She could gaze tenderly, betray her heart, and be certain of safety. +Can wine match that for joy? She had no schemes, no hopes, but simply +the desire to bestow, the capacity to believe. Any wish to be enfolded +by him was shapeless and unlighted, unborn; though now and again for some +chance word or undefined thought she surprised the strange tenant of her +breast at an incomprehensibly faster beat, and knew it for her own and +not her own, the familiar the stranger--an utter stranger, as one who had +snared her in a wreath and was pulling her off her feet. + +She was not so guileless at the thought of little Selina Collett here, +and of Selina as the letter-bearer of old; and the marvel that Matey and +Browny and Selina were together after all! Was it not a kind of summons +to her to call him Matey just once, only once, in play? She burned and +ached to do it. She might have taxed her ingenuity successfully to +induce little Selina to the boldness of calling him Matey--and she then +repeating it, as the woman who revived with a meditative effort +recollections of the girl. Ah, frightful hypocrite! Thoughts of the +pleasure of his name aloud on her lips in his hearing dissolved through +her veins, and were met by Matthew Weyburn's open face, before which +hypocrisy stood rent and stripped. She preferred the calmer, the truer +pleasure of seeing him modestly take lessons in the nomenclature of +weeds, herbs, grasses, by hedge and ditch. Selina could instruct him as +well in entomology, but he knew better the Swiss, Tyrolese, and Italian +valley-homes of beetle and butterfly species. Their simple talk was a +cool zephyr fanning Aminta. + +The suggestion to unite the two came to her, of course, but their +physical disparity denied her that chance to settle her own difficulty, +and a whisper of one physically the match for him punished her. In +stature, in healthfulness, they were equals, perhaps: not morally or +intellectually. And she could claim headship of him on one little point +confided to her by his mother, who was bearing him, and startled by the +boom of guns under her pillow, when her husband fronted the enemy: +Matthew Weyburn, the fencer, boxer, cricketer, hunter, all things manly, +rather shrank from firearms--at least, one saw him put on a screw to +manipulate them. In danger--among brigands or mutineers, for example-- +she could stand by him and prove herself his mate. Intellectually, +morally, she had to bow humbly. Nor had she, nor could she do more than +lean on and catch example from his prompt spiritual valiancy. It shone +out from him, and a crisis fulfilled the promise. Who could be his mate +for cheerful courage, for skill, the ready mind, easy adroitness, and for +self-command? To imitate was a woman's utmost. + +Matthew Weyburn appeared the very Matey of the first of May cricketing +day among Cuper's boys the next morning, when seen pacing down the +garden-walk. He wore his white trousers of that happiest of old days-- +the 'white ducks' Aminta and Selina remembered. Selina beamed. 'Yes, he +did; he always wore them; but now it's a frock-coat instead of a jacket.' + +'But now he will be a master instead of a schoolboy,' said Aminta. +'Let us hope he will prosper.' + +'He gives me the idea of a man who must succeed,' Selina said; and she +was patted, rallied, asked how she had the idea, and kissed; Aminta +saying she fancied it might be thought, for he looked so confident. + +'Only not what the boys used to call "cocky,"' said Selina. 'He won't be +contemptuous of those he outstrips.' + +'His choice of the schoolmaster's profession points to a modesty in him, +does it not, little woman?' + +'He made me tell him, while you were writing your letters yesterday, all +about my brother and his prospects.' + +'Yes, that is like him. And I must hear of your brother, "little +Collett." Don't forget, Sely, little Collett was our postman.' + +The Countess of Ormont's humorous reference to the circumstance passed +with Selina for a sign of a poetic love of the past, and a present social +elevation that allowed her to review it impassively. She admired the +great lady and good friend who could really be interested in the fortunes +of a mere schoolmaster and a merchant's clerk. To her astonishment, by +some agency beyond her fathoming, she found herself, and hardly for her +own pleasure, pushing the young schoolmaster animatedly to have an +account of his aims in the establishment of the foreign school. + +Weyburn smiled. He set a short look at Aminta; and she, conscious of her +detected diplomacy, had an inward shiver, mixed of the fascination and +repugnance felt by a woman who knows that under one man's eyes her +character is naked and anatomized. Her character?--her soul. He held it +in hand and probed it mercifully. She had felt the sweet sting again and +again, and had shrunk from him, and had crawled to him. The love of him +made it all fascination. How did he learn to read at any moment right to +the soul of a woman? Did experience teach him, or sentimental sympathy? +He was too young, he was too manly. It must be because of his being in +heart and mind the brother to the sister with women. + +Thames played round them on his pastoral pipes. Bee-note and woodside +blackbird and meadow cow, and the fish of the silver rolling rings, +composed the leap of the music. + +She gave her mind to his voice, following whither it went; half was in +air, higher than the swallow's, exalting him. + +How is it he is the brother of women? They are sisters for him because +he is neither sentimentalist nor devourer. He will not flatter to feed +on them. The one he chooses, she will know love. There are women who go +through life not knowing love. They are inanimate automatic machines, +who lay them down at last, inquiring wherefore they were caused to move. +She is not of that sad flock. She will be mated; she will have the right +to call him Matey. A certain Browny called him Matey. She lived and +died. A certain woman apes Browny's features and inherits her passion, +but has forfeited her rights. Were she, under happiest conditions, +to put her hand in his, shame would burn her. For he is just--he is +Justice; and a woman bringing him less than his due, she must be a +creature of the slime! + +This was the shadowy sentiment that made the wall of division between +them. There was no other. Lord Ormont had struck to fragments that +barrier of the conventional oath and ceremonial union. He was unjust-- +he was Injustice. The weak may be wedded, they cannot be married; to +Injustice. And if we have the world for the buttress of injustice, then +is Nature the flaring rebel; there is no fixed order possible. Laws are +necessary instruments of the majority; but when they grind the sane human +being to dust for their maintenance, their enthronement is the rule of +the savage's old deity, sniffing blood-sacrifice. There cannot be a +based society upon such conditions. An immolation of the naturally +constituted individual arrests the general expansion to which we step, +decivilizes more, and is more impious to the God in man, than temporary +revelries of a licence that Nature soon checks. + +Arrows of thoughts resembling these shot over the half of Aminta's mind +not listening. Her lover's head was active on the same theme while he +spoke. They converged to it from looks crossing or catching profiles, +or from tones, from a motion of hand, from a chance word. Insomuch that +the third person present was kept unobservant only by her studious and +humble speculations on the young schoolmaster's grand project to bring +the nationalities together, and teach Old England to the Continent--the +Continent to Old England: our healthy games, our scorn of the lie, +manliness; their intellectual valour, diligence, considerate manners. + +'Just to name a few of the things for interchange,' said Weyburn. 'As to +method, we shall be their disciples. But I look forward to our fellows +getting the lead. No hurry. Why will they? you ask in petto. Well, +they 're emulous, and they take a thrashing kindly. That 's the way to +learn a lesson. I 've seen our fellows beaten and beaten--never the +courage beaten out of them. In the end, they won and kept the field. +They have a lot to learn--principally not to be afraid of ideas. They +lose heaps of time before they can feel at home with ideas. They call +themselves practical for having an addiction to the palpable. It is a +pretty wreath they clap on their deficiencies. Practical dogs are for +bones, horses for corn. I want the practical Englishman to settle his +muzzle in a nosebag of ideas. When he has once got hold of them, he +makes good stuff of them. On the Continent ideas have wings and pay +visits. Here, they're stay-at-home. Then I want our fellows to have the +habit of speaking from the chest. They shall return to England with the +whoop of the mountains in them and ready to jump out. They shall have +an Achillean roar; and they shall sing by second nature. Don't fear: +they'll give double for anything they take. I've known Italians, to whom +an Englishman's honesty of mind and dealing was one of the dreams of a +better humanity they had put in a box. Frenchmen, too, who, when they +came to know us, were astonished at their epithet of perfide, and loved +us.' + +'Emile,' said Aminta. 'You remember Emile, Selina: the dear little +French boy at Mr. Cuper's?' + +'Oh, I do,' Selina responded. + +'He will work with Mr. Weyburn in Switzerland.' + +'Oh, that will be nice!' the girl exclaimed. + +Aminta squeezed Selina's hand. A shower of tears clouded her eyes. She +chose to fancy it was because of her envy of the modest, busy, peaceful +girl, who envied none. Conquers also sincerity in the sincerest. She +was vexed with her full breast, and had as little command of her thoughts +as of her feelings. + +'Mr. Weyburn has ideas for the education of girls too,' she said. + +'There's the task,' said he. 'It's to separate them as little as +possible. All the--passez-moi le mot--devilry between the sexes begins +at their separation. They 're foreigners when they meet; and their +alliances are not always binding. The chief object in life, if happiness +be the aim, and the growing better than we are, is to teach men and women +how to be one; for, if they 're not, then each is a morsel for the other +to prey on. Lady Charlotte Eglett's view is, that the greater number of +them on both sides hate one another.' + +'Hate!' exclaimed Selina; and Aminta said: 'Is Lady Charlotte Eglett an +authority?' + +'She has observed, and she thinks. She has in the abstract the justest +of minds: and that is the curious point about her. But one may say they +are trained at present to be hostile. Some of them fall in love and +strike a truce, and still they are foreigners. They have not the same +standard of honour. They might have it from an education in common.' + +'But there must be also a lady to govern the girls?' Selina interposed. + +'Ah, yes; she is not yet found!' + +'Would it increase their mutual respect?--or show of respect, if you +like?' said Aminta, with his last remark at work as the shattering bell +of a city's insurrection in her breast. + +'In time, under management; catching and grouping them young. A boy who +sees a girl do what he can't, and would like to do, won't take refuge in +his muscular superiority--which, by the way, would be lessened.' + +'You suppose their capacities are equal?' + +'Things are not equal. I suppose their excellencies to make a pretty +nearly equal sum in the end. But we 're not weighing them each. The +question concerns the advantage of both.' + +'That seems just!' + +Aminta threw no voice into the word 'just.' It was the word of the +heavens assuaging earth's thirst, and she was earth to him. Her soul +yearned to the man whose mind conceived it. + +She said to Selina: 'We must plan an expedition next year or the year +after, and see how the school progresses.' + +All three smiled; and Selina touched and held Aminta's hand shyly. +Visions of the unseen Switzerland awed her. + +Weyburn named the Spring holiday time, the season of the flowering Alpine +robes. He promised welcome, pressed for a promise of the visit. Warmly +it was given. 'We will; we will indeed!' + +'I shall look forward,' he said. + +There was nothing else for him or for her, except to doat on the passing +minute that slipped when seized. The looking forward turned them to the +looking back at the point they had flown from, and yielded a momentary +pleasure, enough to stamp some section of a picture on their memories, +which was not the burning now Love lives for, in the clasp, if but of +hands. Desire of it destroyed it. They swung to the future, swung to +the present it made the past, sensible to the quick of the now they could +not hold. They were lovers. Divided lovers in presence, they thought +and they felt in pieces. Feelings and thoughts were forbidden to speech. +She dared look the very little of her heart's fulness, without the +disloyalty it would have been in him to let a small peep of his heart be +seen. While her hand was not clasped she could look tenderly, and her +fettered state, her sense of unworthiness muffled in the deeps, would +keep her from the loosening to passion. + +He who read through her lustrous, transiently dwelling eyes had not that +security. His part, besides the watch over the spring of his hot blood, +was to combat a host, insidious among which was unreason calling her +Browny, urging him to take his own, to snatch her from a possessor who +forfeited by undervaluing her. This was the truth in a better-ordered +world: she belonged to the man who could help her to grow and to do her +work. But in the world we have around us, it was the distorted truth: +and keeping passion down, he was able to wish her such happiness as +pertained to safety from shipwreck, and for himself, that he might +continue to walk in the ranks of the sober citizens. + +Oh, true and right, but she was gloriously beautiful! Day by day she +surpassed the wondrous Browny of old days. All women were eclipsed by +her. She was that fire in the night which lights the night and draws the +night to look at it. And more: this queen of women was beginning to have +a mind at work. One saw already the sprouting of a mind repressed. She +had a distinct ability; the good ambition to use her qualities. She +needed life and air--that is, comprehension of her, encouragement, the +companion mate. With what strength would she now endow him! The pride +in the sharp imagination of possessing her whispered a boast of the +strength her mate would have from her. His need and her need rushed +together somewhere down the skies. They could not, he argued, be +separated eternally. + +He had to leave her. Selina, shocked at a boldness she could not +understand in herself, begged him to stay and tell her of Switzerland +and Alpine flowers and herbs, and the valleys for the gold beetle and +the Apollo butterfly. Aminta hinted that Lord Ormont might expect to +find him there, if he came the next morning; but she would not try to +persuade, and left the decision with him, loving him for the pain he +inflicted by going. + +Why, indeed, should he stay? Both could ask; they were one in asking. +Anguish balanced pleasure in them both. The day of the pleasure was +heaven to remember, heaven to hope for; not so heavenly to pray for. +The praying for it, each knew, implored their joint will to decree the +perilous blessing. A shadowy sentiment of duty and rectitude, born of +what they had suffered, hung between them and the prayer for a renewal, +that would renew the tempting they were conscious of when the sweet, the +strained, throbbing day was over. They could hope for chance to renew +it, and then they would be irresponsible. Then they would think and wish +discreetly, so as to have it a happiness untainted. In refusing now to +take another day or pray for it, they deserved that chance should grant +it. + +Aminta had said through Selina the utmost her self-defences could allow. +But the idea of a final parting cut too cruelly into her life, and she +murmured: 'I shall see you before you go for good?' + +'I will come, here or in London.' + +'I can trust?' + +'Quite certain.' + +A meeting of a few hasty minutes involved none of the dangers of a sunny, +long summer day; and if it did, the heart had its claims, the heart had +its powers of resistance. Otherwise we should be base verily. + +He turned on a bow to leave her before there was a motion for the offer +of her hand. + +After many musings and frettings, she reached the wisdom of that. Wisdom +was her only nourishment now. A cold, lean dietary it is; but he +dispensed it, and it fed her, or kept her alive. It became a proud +feeling that she had been his fellow in the achievement of a piece of +wisdom; though the other feeling, that his hand's kind formal touching, +without pressure of hers, would have warmed her to go through the next +interview with her lord, mocked at pure satisfaction. Did he distrust +himself? Or was it to spare her? But if so, her heart was quite bare +to him! But she knew it was. + +Aminta drove her questioning heart as a vessel across blank circles of +sea, where there was nothing save the solitary heart for answer. It +answered intelligibly and comfortingly at last, telling her of proof +given that she could repose under his guidance with absolute faith. Was +ever loved woman more blest than she in such belief? She had it firmly; +and a blessedness, too, in this surety wavering beneath shadows of the +uncertainty. Her eyes knew it, her ears were empty of the words. Her +heart knew it, and it was unconfirmed by reason. As for his venturing to +love her, he feared none. And no sooner did that reflection surge than +she stood up beside him in revolt against her lion and lord. Her +instinct judged it impossible she could ever have yielded her heart to +a man lacking courage. Hence--what? when cowardice appeared as the sole +impediment to happiness now! + +He had gone, and the day lived again for both of them--a day of sheer +gold in the translation from troubled earth to the mind. One another's +beauty through the visage into the character was newly perceived and +worshipped; and the beauties of pastoral Thames, the temple of peace, +hardly noticed in the passing of the day--taken as air to the breather; +until some chip of the scene, round which an emotion had curled, was +vivid foreground and gateway to shrouded romance: it might be the +stream's white face browning into willow-droopers, or a wagtail on a +water-lily leaf, or the fore-horse of an up-river barge at strain of +legs, a red-finned perch hung a foot above the pebbles in sun-veined +depths, a kingfisher on the scud under alders, the forest of the bankside +weeds. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +PREPARATIONS FOR A RESOLVE + +That day receded like a spent billow, and lapsed among the others +advancing, but it left a print deeper than events would have stamped. +Aminta's pen declined to run to her lord; and the dipping it in ink was +no acceleration of the process. A sentence, bearing likeness to an +artless infant's trot of the half-dozen steps to mother's lap, stumbled +upon the full stop midway. Desperate determination pushed it along, and +there was in consequence a dead stop at the head of the next sentence. +A woman whose nature is insurgent against the majesty of the man to whom +she must, among the singular injunctions binding her, regularly write, +sees no way between hypocrisy and rebellion. For rebellion, she, with +the pen in her hand, is avowedly not yet ripe, hypocrisy is abominable. + +If she abstained from writing, he might travel down to learn the cause; +a similar danger, or worse, haunted the writing frigidly. She had to be +the hypocrite or else--leap. + +But an honest woman who is a feeling woman, when she consents to play +hypocrite, cannot do it by halves. From writing a short cold letter, +Aminta wrote a short warm one, or very friendly. Length she could avoid, +because she was unable to fill a page. It seemed that she could not +compose a friendly few lines without letting her sex be felt in them. +What she had put away from her, so as not to feel it herself, the +simulation of ever so small a bit of feeling brought prominently back; +and where she had made a cast for flowing independent simplicity, she +was feminine, ultra-feminine to her reading of it. + +Better take the leap than be guilty of double-dealing even on paper! +The nature of the leap she did not examine. + +Her keen apprehension of the price payable for his benevolent intentions +caught scent of them in the air. Those Ormont jewels shone as emblems of +a detested subjection, the penalty for being the beautiful woman rageing +men proclaimed. Was there no scheme of some other sort, and far less +agreeable, to make amends for Steignton? She was shrewd at divination; +she guessed her lord's design. Rather than meet Lady Charlotte, she +proposed to herself the 'leap' immediately; knowing it must be a leap in +the dark, hoping it might be into a swimmer's water. She had her own +pin-money income, and she loathed the chain of her title. So the leap +would at least be honourable, as it assuredly would be unregretted, +whatever ensued. + +While Aminta's heart held on to this debate, and in her bed, in her boat, +across the golden valley meadows beside her peaceful little friend, she +gathered a gradual resolution without sight of agencies or consequences, +Lord Ormont was kept from her by the struggle to master his Charlotte a +second time--compared with which the first was insignificant. And this +time it was curious: he could not subdue her physique, as he did before; +she was ready for him each day, and she was animated, much more voluble, +she was ready to jest. The reason being, that she fought now on +plausibly good grounds: on behalf of her independent action. + +Previously, her intelligence of the ultimate defeat hanging over the more +stubborn defence of a weak position had harassed her to death's door. +She had no right to retain the family jewels; she had the most perfect of +established rights to refuse doing an ignominious thing. She refused to +visit the so-called Countess of Ormont, or leave her card, or take one +step to warrant the woman in speaking of her as her sister-in-law. And +no,--it did not signify that her brother Rowsley was prohibited by her +from marrying whom he pleased. It meant, that to judge of his acts as +those of a reasoning man, he would have introduced his wife to his +relatives--the relatives he had not quarrelled with--immediately upon his +marriage unless he was ashamed of the woman; and a wife he was ashamed of +was no sister-in-law for her nor aunt for her daughters. Nor should she +come playing the Black Venus among her daughters' husbands, Lady +Charlotte had it in her bosom to say additionally. + +Lord Ormont was disconcerted by her manifest pleasure in receiving him +every day. Evidently she consented to the recurrence of a vexatious +dissension for the enjoyment of having him with her hourly. Her +dialectic, too, was cunning. Impetuous with meaning, she forced her +way to get her meaning out, in a manner effective to strike her blow. +Anything for a diversion or a triumph of the moment! He made no way. +She was the better fencer at the tongue. + +Yet there was not any abatement of her deference to her brother; and this +little misunderstanding put aside, he was the Rowsley esteemed by her as +the chief of men. She foiled him, it might seem, to exalt him the more. +After he had left the house, visibly annoyed and somewhat stupefied, she +talked of him to her husband, of the soul of chivalry Rowsley was, the +loss to his country. Mr. Eglett was a witness to one of the +altercations, when she, having as usual the dialectical advantage, +praised her brother, to his face, for his magnanimous nature; regretting +only that it could be said he was weak on the woman side of him--which +was, she affirmed, a side proper to every man worth the name; but in his +case his country might complain. Of what?--Well, of a woman.--What had +she done, for the country to complain of her?--Why, then, arts or graces, +she had bewitched and weaned him from his public duty, his military +service, his patriotic ambition. + +Lord Ormont's interrogations, heightening the effect of Charlotte's +charge, appeared to Mr. Eglett as a giving of himself over into her +hands; but the earl, after a minute of silence, proved he was a tricky +combatant. It was he who had drawn on Charlotte, that he might have his +opportunity to eulogize--'this lady, whom you continue to call the woman, +after I have told you she is my wife.' According to him, her appeals, +her entreaties, that he should not abandon his profession or let his +ambition rust, had been at one period constant. + +He spoke fervently, for him eloquently; and he gained his point; he +silenced Lady Charlotte's tongue, and impressed Mr. Eglett. + +When the latter and his wife were alone, he let her see that the Countess +of Ormont was becoming a personage in his consideration. + +Lady Charlotte cried out: 'Hear these men where it's a good-looking woman +between the winds! Do you take anything Rowsley says for earnest? You +ought to know he stops at no trifle to get his advantage over you in a +dispute. That 's the soldier in him. It 's victory at any cost!--and I +like him for it. Do you tell me you think it possible my brother Rowsley +would keep smothered years under a bushel the woman he can sit here +magnifying because he wants to lime you and me: you to take his part, and +me to go and call the noble creature decked out in his fine fiction my +sister-in-law. Nothing 'll tempt me to believe my brother could behave +in such a way to the woman he respected!' + +So Mr. Eglett opined. But he had been impressed. + +He relieved his mind on the subject in a communication to Lord Adderwood; +who habitually shook out the contents of his to Mrs. Lawrence Finchley, +and she, deeming it good for Aminta to have information of the war waging +for her behoof, obtained her country address, with the resolve to drive +down, a bearer of good news to the dear woman she liked to think of, look +at, and occasionally caress; besides rather tenderly pitying her, now +that a change of fortune rendered her former trials conspicuous. + +An incident, considered grave even in the days of the duel and the kicks +against a swelling public reprehension of the practice, occurred to +postpone her drive for four-and-twenty hours. London was shaken by +rumours of a tragic mishap to a socially well-known gentleman at the +Chiallo fencing rooms. The rumours passing from mouth to mouth acquired, +in the nature of them, sinister colours as they circulated. Lord Ormont +sent Aminta word of what he called 'a bad sort of accident at Chiallo's,' +without mentioning names or alluding to suspicions. + +He treated it lightly. He could not have written of it with such +unconcern if it involved the secretary! Yet Aminta did seriously ask +herself whether he could; and she flew rapidly over the field of his +character, seizing points adverse, points favourably advocative, +balancing dubiously--most unjustly: she felt she was unjust. But in her +condition, the heart of a woman is instantly planted in jungle when the +spirits of the two men closest to her are made to stand opposed by a +sudden excitement of her fears for the beloved one. She cannot see +widely, and is one of the wild while the fit lasts; and, after it, that +savage narrow vision she had of the unbeloved retains its vivid print in +permanence. Was she unjust? Aminta cited corroboration of her being +accurate: such was Lord Ormont! and although his qualities of gallantry, +courtesy, integrity, honourable gentleman, presented a fair low-level +account on the other side, she had so stamped his massive selfishness +and icy inaccessibility to emotion on her conception of him that the +repulsive figure formed by it continued towering when her mood was +kinder. + +Love played on love in the woman's breast. Her love had taken a fever +from her lord's communication of the accident at Chiallo's, and she +pushed her alarm to imagine the deadliest, and plead for the right of +confession to herself of her unrepented regrets. She and Matey Weyburn +had parted without any pressure of hands, without a touch. They were, +then, unplighted if now the grave divided them! No touch: mere glances! +And she sighed not, as she pleaded, for the touch, but for the plighting +it would have been. If now she had lost him, he could never tell herself +that since the dear old buried and night-walking schooldays she had said +once Matey to him, named him once to his face Matey Weyburn. A sigh like +the roll of a great wave breaking against a wall of rock came from her +for the possibly lost chance of naming him to his face Matey,--oh, and +seeing his look as she said it! + +The boldness might be fancied: it could not be done. Agreeing with the +remote inner voice of her reason so far, she toned her exclamatory +foolishness to question, in Reason's plain, deep, basso-profundo +accompaniment tone, how much the most blessed of mortal women could +do to be of acceptable service to a young schoolmaster? + +There was no reply to the question. But it became a nestling centre for +the skiey flock of dreams, and for really temperate soundings of her +capacities, tending to the depreciatory. She could do little. She +entertained the wish to work, not only 'for the sake of Somebody,' as her +favourite poet sang, but for the sake of working and serving--proving +that she was helpfuller than a Countess of Ormont, ranged with all the +other countesses in china and Dresden on a drawing-room mantelpiece for +show. She could organize, manage a household, manage people too, she +thought: manage a husband? The word offends. Perhaps invigorate him, +here and there perhaps inspire him, if he would let her breathe. +Husbands exist who refuse the right of breathing to their puppet wives. +Above all, as it struck her, she could assist, and be more than an echo +of one nobler, in breathing manliness, high spirit, into boys. With that +idea she grazed the shallows of reality, and her dreams whirred from the +nest and left it hungrily empty. + +Selina Collett was writing under the verandah letters to her people in +Suffolk, performing the task with marvellous ease. Aminta noted it as a +mark of superior ability, and she had the envy of the complex nature +observing the simple. It accused her of some guiltiness, uncommitted and +indefensible. She had pushed her anxiety about 'the accident at +Chiallo's' to an extreme that made her the creature of her sensibilities. +In the midst of this quiet country life and landscape; these motionless +garden flowers headed by the smooth white river, and her gentle little +friend so homely here, the contemplation of herself was like a shriek in +music. Worse than discordant, she pronounced herself inferior, unfit +mentally as well as bodily for the dreams of companionship with any noble +soul who might have the dream of turning her into something better. +There are couples in the world, not coupled by priestly circumstance, who +are close to the true; union, by reason of generosity on the one part, +grateful devotion, as for the gift of life, on the other. For instance, +Mrs. Lawrence Finchley and Lord Adderwood, which was an instance without +resemblance; but Aminta's heart beat thick for what it wanted, and they +were the instance of two that did not have to snap false bonds of a +marriage-tie in order to walk together composedly outside it--in honour? +Oh yes, yes! She insisted on believing it was in honour. + +She saw the couple issue from the boathouse. She had stepped into the +garden full of a presentiment; so she fancied, the moment they were seen. +She had, in fact, heard a noise in the boathouse while thinking of them, +and the effect on her was to spring an idea of mysterious interventions +at the sight. + +Mrs. Lawrence rushed to her, and was embraced. 'You 're not astonished +to see me? Adder drove me down, and stopped his coach at the inn, and +rowed me the half-mile up. We will lunch, if you propose; but presently. +My dear, I have to tell you things. You have heard?' + +'The accident?' + +Aminta tried to read in Mrs. Lawrence's eyes whether it closely concerned +her. + +Those pretty eyes, their cut of lids hinting at delicate affinities with +the rice-paper lady of the court of China, were trying to peer +seriously. + +'Poor man! One must be sorry for him: he--' + +'Who?' + +'You 've not heard, then?' Mrs. Lawrence dropped her voice: 'Morsfield.' + +Aminta shivered. 'All I have heard-half a line from my lord this +morning: no name. It was at the fencing-rooms, he said.' + +'Yes, he wouldn't write more;' said Mrs. Lawrence, nodding. 'You know, +he would have had to do it himself if it had not been done for him. +Adder saw him some days back in a brown consultation near his club with +Captain May. Oh, but of course it was accident! Did he call it so in +his letter to you?' + +'One word of Mr. Morsfield: he is wounded?' + +'Past cure: he has the thing he cried for, spoilt boy as he was from his +birth. I tell you truth, m' Aminta, I grieve to lose him. What with his +airs of the foreign-tinted, punctilious courtly gentleman covering a +survival of the ancient British forest boar or bear, he was a picture in +our modern set, and piquant. And he was devoted to our sex, we must +admit, after the style of the bears. They are for honey, and they have a +hug. If he hadn't been so much of a madman, I should have liked him for +his courage. He had plenty of that, nothing to steer it. A second +cousin comes in for his estates.' + +'He is dead?' Aminta cried. + +'Yes, dear, he is gone. What the women think of it I can't say. The +general feeling among the men is that some one of them would have had to +send him sooner or later. The curious point, Adder says, is his letting +it be done by steel. He was a dead shot, dangerous with the small sword, +as your Mr. Weyburn said, only soon off his head. But I used to be +anxious about the earl's meeting him with pistols. He did his best to +provoke it. Here, Adder,'--she spoke over her shoulder,--'tell Lady +Ormont all you know of the Morsfield-May affair.' + +Lord Adderwood bowed compliance. His coolness was the masculine of Mrs. +Lawrence's hardly feminine in treating of a terrible matter, so that the +dull red facts had to be disengaged from his manner of speech before they +sank into Aminta's acceptance; of them as credible. + +'They fought with foils, buttons off, preliminary ceremonies perfect; +salute in due order; guard, and at it. + +Odd thing was, nobody at Chiallo's had a notion of the business till +Morsfield was pinked. He wouldn't be denied; went to work like a fellow +meaning to be skewered, if he couldn't do the trick: and he tried it. +May had been practising some weeks. He's well on the Continent by this +time. It'll blow over. Button off sheer accident. I wasn't lucky +enough to see the encounter: came in just when Chiallo was lashing his +poll over Morsfield flat on the ground. He had it up to the hilt. We +put a buttoned foil by the side of Morsfield, and all swore to secrecy. +As it is, it 'll go badly against poor Chiallo. Taste for fencing won't +be much improved by the affair. They quarrelled in the dressing room, +and fetched the foils and knocked off the buttons there. A big rascal +toady squire of Morsfield's did it for him. Morsfield was just up from +Yorkshire. He said he was expecting a summons elsewhere, bound to await +it, declined provocation for the present. May filliped him on the +cheek.' + +'Adder conveyed the information of her husband's flight to the consolable +Amy,' said Mrs. Lawrence. + +'He had to catch the coach for Dover,' Adderwood explained. 'His wife +was at a dinner-party. I saw her at midnight.' + +'Fair Amy was not so very greatly surprised?' + +'Quite the soldier's wife!' + +'She said she was used to these little catastrophes. But, Adder, what +did she say of her husband?' + +'Said she was never anxious about him, for nothing would kill him.' + +Mrs. Lawrence shook a doleful head at Aminta. + +'You see, my dear Aminta, here's another, and probably her last, chance +of sharing the marquisate gone. Who can fail to pity her, except old +Time! And I 'm sure she likes her husband well enough. She ought: no +woman ever had such a servant. But the captain has not been known to +fight without her sanction, and the inference is--'Alas! woe! Fair Amy +is doomed to be the fighting captain's bride to the end of the chapter. +Adder says she looked handsome. A dinner-party suits her cosmetic +complexion better than a ball. The account of the inquest is in the +day's papers, and we were tolerably rejoiced we could drive out of London +without having to reply to coroner's questions.' + +'He died-soon?' Aminta's voice was shaken. + +Mrs. Lawrence touched at her breast, it might be for heart or lungs. +Judging by Aminta's voice and face, one could suppose she was harking +back, in woman's way, to her original sentiment for the man, now that he +lay prostrate. + +Aminta read the unreproachful irony in the smile addressed to her. She +was too convulsed by her many emotions and shouting thoughts to think of +defending herself. + +Selina, in the drawing-room, diligently fingered and classed brown-black +pressed weeds of her neophyte's botany-folios. The sight of her and her +occupation struck Aminta as that of a person in another world beyond this +world of blood, strangely substantial to view; and one heard her speak. + +Guilty?--no. But she had wished to pique her lord. After the term of a +length of months, could it be that the unhappy man and she were punished +for the half-minute's acting of some interest in him? And Lord Ormont +had been seen consulting Captain May; or was it giving him directions? + +Her head burned. All the barren interrogations were up, running and +knocking for hollow responses; and, saving a paleness of face, she +cloaked any small show of the riot. She was an amiable hostess. She had +ceased to comprehend Mrs. Lawrence, even to the degree of thinking her +unfeminine. She should have known that the 'angelical chimpanzee,' as a +friend, once told of his being a favourite with the lady, had called her, +could not simulate a feeling, and had not the slightest power of pretence +to compassion for an ill-fated person who failed to quicken her +enthusiasm. In that, too, she was a downright boy. Morsfield was a kind +of Bedlamite to her; amusing in his antics, and requiring to be +manoeuvred and eluded while he lived: once dead, just a tombstone, of +interest only to his family. + +She beckoned Aminta to follow her; and, with a smirk of indulgent fun, +commended Lord Adderwood to a study of Selina Collett's botany-folios, +which the urbanest of indifferent gentlemen had slid his eyes over his +nose to inspect before the lunch. + +'You ought to know what is going on in town, my dear Aminta. You have +won the earl to a sense of his duty, and he 's at work on the harder task +of winning Lady Charlotte Eglett to a sense of hers. It 's tremendous. +Has been forward some days, and no sign of yielding on either side. Mr. +Eglett, good man, is between them, catching it right and left; and he +deserves his luck for marrying her. Vows she makes him the best of +wives. If he 's content, I 've nothing to complain of. You must be +ready to receive her; my lord is sure to carry the day. You gulp. You +won't be seeing much of her. I 'm glad to say he is condescending to +terms of peace with the Horse Guards. We hear so. You may be throning +it officially somewhere next year. And all 's well that ends well! Say +that to me!' + +'It is, when the end comes,' Aminta replied. + +Mrs. Lawrence's cool lips were pressed to her cheek. The couple and +their waterman rowed away to the party they had left with the four-in- +hand at their inn. + +A wind was rising. The trees gave their swish of leaves, the river +darkened the patch of wrinkles, the bordering flags amid the reed-blades +dipped and streamed. + +Surcharged with unassimilated news of events, that made a thunder in her +head, Aminta walked down the garden path, meeting Selina and bearing her +on. She had a witch's will to rouse gales. Hers was not the woman's +nature to be driven cowering by stories of men's bloody deeds. She took +the field, revolted, dissevering herself from the class which tolerated +them--actuated by a reflective moralty, she believed; and loathed herself +for having aspired, schemed, to be a member of the class. But it was not +the class, it was against her lord as representative of the class, +that she was now the rebel, neither naming him nor imaging him. Her +enveloping mind was black on him. Such as one of those hard slaughtering +men could call her his own? She breathed short and breathed deep. Her +bitter reason had but the common pity for a madman despatched to his +rest. Yet she knew hatred of her lord in his being suspected as +instigator or accomplice of the hand that dealt the blow. He became to +her thought a python whose coils were about her person, insufferable to +the gaze backward. + +Moments like these are the mothers in travail of a resolve joylessly +conceived, undesired to clasp, Necessity's offspring. Thunderclouds have +as little love of the lightnings they fling. + +Aminta was aware only of her torment. The trees were bending, the water +hissing, the grasses all this way and that, like hands of a delirious +people in surges of wreck. She scorned the meaningless shake of the +garments of earth, and exclaimed: 'If we were by the sea to-night!' + +'I shall be to-morrow night,' said Selina. 'I shall think of you. Oh! +would you come with me?' + +'Would you have me?' + +'My mother will indeed be honoured by your consenting to come.' + +'Write to her before the post is out.' + +'We shall travel down together?' + +Aminta nodded and smiled, and Selina kissed her hand in joy, saying, that +down home she would not be so shy of calling her Aminta. She was bidden +to haste. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +VISITS OF FAREWELL + +The noise in London over Adolphus Morsfield's tragical end disturbed Lord +Ormont much less than the cessation of letters from his Aminta; and that +likewise, considering his present business on her behalf, he patiently +shrugged at and pardoned, foreseeing her penitent air. He could do it +lightly after going some way to pardon his offending country. For Aminta +had not offended, his robust observation of her was moved to the kindly +humorous by a reflective view here and there of the downright woman her +clever little shuffles exposed her to be, not worse. It was her sex that +made her one of the gliders in grasses, some of whom are venomous; but +she belonged to the order only as an innocuous blindworm. He could +pronounce her small by-play with Morsfield innocent, her efforts to climb +the stairs into Society quite innocent; judging her, of course, by her +title of woman. A woman's innocence has a rainbow skin. Set this one +beside other women, she comes out well, fairly well, well enough. + +Now that the engagement with Charlotte assumed proportions of a series of +battle, properly to be entitled a campaign, he had, in his loneliness, +fallen into the habit of reflecting at the close of his day's work; and +the rubbing of that unused opaque mirror hanging inside a man of action +had helped him piecemeal to perceive bits of his conduct, entirely +approved by him, which were intimately connected, nevertheless, with a +train of circumstances that he disliked and could not charge justly upon +any other shoulders than his own. What was to be thought of it? He +would not be undergoing this botheration of the prolonged attempt to +bring a stubborn woman to a sense of her duty, if he had declared his +marriage in the ordinary style, and given his young countess her +legitimate place before the world. What impeded it? The shameful +ingratitude of his countrymen to the soldier who did it eminent service +at a crisis of the destinies of our Indian Empire! He could not condone +the injury done to him by entering among them again. Too like the kicked +cur, that! He retired--call it 'sulked in his tent,' if you like. His +wife had to share his fortunes. He being slighted, she necessarily was +shadowed. For a while she bore it contentedly enough; then began her +mousy scratches to get into the room off the wainscot, without blame from +him; she behaved according to her female nature. + +Yes, but the battles with Charlotte forced on his recognition once more, +and violently, the singular consequences of his retirement and Coriolanus +quarrel with his countrymen. He had doomed himself ever since to a +contest with women. First it was his Queen of Amazons, who, if +vanquished, was not so easily vanquished, and, in fact, doubtfully, +--for now, to propitiate her, he had challenged, and must overcome or be +disgraced, the toughest Amazonian warrior man could stand against at cast +of dart or lock of arms. No day scored an advantage; and she did not +apparently suffer fatigue. He did: that is to say, he was worried and +hurried to have the wrangle settled and Charlotte at Aminta's feet. He +gained not an inch of ground. His principle in a contention of the sort +was to leave the woman to the practice of her obvious artifices, and +himself simply hammer, incessantly hammer. But Charlotte hammered as +well. The modest position of the defensive negative was not to her +taste. The moment he presented himself she flew out upon some +yesterday's part of the argument and carried the war across the borders, +in attacks on his character and qualities--his weakness regarding women, +his incapacity to forgive, and the rest. She hammered on that head. As +for any prospect of a termination of the strife, he could see none in her +joyful welcome to him and regretful parting and pleased appointment of +the next meeting day after day. + +The absurdest of her devices for winding him off his aim was to harp on +some new word she had got hold of as, for example, to point out to him +his aptitudes, compliment him on his aptitudes, recommend him to study +and learn the limitations of his aptitudes! She revelled in something +the word unfolded to her. + +However, here was the point: she had to be beaten. So, if she, too, +persisted in hammering, he must employ her female weapon of artifice with +her. One would gladly avoid the stooping to it in a civil dispute, in +which one is not so gloriously absolved for lying and entrapping as in +splendid war. + +Weyburn's name was announced to him at an early hour on Thursday morning. +My lord nodded to the footman; he nodded to himself over a suggestion +started in a tactical intelligence by the name. + +'Ah! you 're off?' he accosted the young man. + +'I have come to take my leave, my lord.' + +'Nothing new in the morning papers?' + +'A report that Captain May intends to return and surrender.' + +'Not before a month has passed, if he follows my counsel.' + +'To defend his character.' + +'He has none.' + +'His reputation.' + +'He has too much.' + +'These charges against him must be intolerable.' + +'Was he not a bit of a pupil of yours?' + +'We practised two or three times-nothing more.' + +'Morsfield was a wasp at a feast. Somebody had to crush him. I 've seen +the kind of man twice in my life and exactly the kind of man. If their +law puts down duelling, he rules the kingdom!' + +'My lord, I should venture to say the kind of man can be a common +annoyance because the breach of the law is countenanced.' + +'Bad laws are best broken. A society that can't get a scouring now and +then will be a dirty set.' + +With a bend of the head, in apology for speaking of himself, Weyburn +said: 'I have acted on my view. I declined a challenge from a sort of +henchman of his.' + +'Oh! a poacher's lurcher? You did right. Fight such fellows with +constables. You have seen Lady Charlotte?' + +'I am on my way to her ladyship.' + +'Do me this favour. Fourteen doors up the street of her residence, my +physician lives. I have to consult him at once. Dr. Rewkes.' + +Weyburn bowed. Lady Charlotte could not receive him later than half-past +ten of the morning, he said. 'This morning she can,' said my lord. 'You +will tell Dr. Rewkes that it is immediate. I rather regret your going. +I shall be in a controversy with the Horse Guards about our cavalry +saddles. It would be regiments of raw backs the first fortnight of a +campaign.' + +The earl discoursed on saddles; and passed to high eulogy of our +Hanoverian auxiliary troopers in the Peninsula; 'good husbands,' he named +them quaintly, speaking of their management of their beasts. Thence he +diverged to Frederic's cavalry, rarely matched for shrewdness and +endurance; to the deeds of the Liechtenstein Hussars; to the great +things Blucher did with his horsemen. + +The subject was interesting; but Weyburn saw the clock at past the half +after ten. He gave a slight sign of restiveness, and was allowed to go +when the earl had finished his pro and con upon Arab horses and Mameluke +saddles. Lord Ormont nicked his head, just as at their first interview: +he was known to have an objection to the English shaking of hands. +'Good-morning,' he said; adding a remark or two, of which et cetera may +stand for an explicit rendering. It concerned the young man's +prosperity: my lord's conservative plain sense was in doubt of the +prospering of a giddy pate, however good a worker. His last look at the +young man, who had not served him badly, held an anticipation of possibly +some day seeing a tatterdemalion of shipwreck, a rueful exhibition of +ideas put to the business of life. + +Weyburn left the message with Dr. Rewkes in person. It had not seemed +to him that Lord Ormont was one requiring the immediate attendance of a +physician. By way of accounting to Lady Charlotte for the lateness of +his call, he mentioned the summons he had delivered. + +'Oh, that's why he hasn't come yet,' said she. 'We'll sit and talk till +he does come. I don't wonder if his bile has been stirred. He can't oil +me to credit what he pumps into others. His Lady Ormont! I believe in +it less than ever I did. Morsfield or no Morsfield--and now the poor +wretch has got himself pinned to the plank, like my grandson Bobby's +dragonflies, I don't want to say anything further of him--she doesn't +have much of a welcome at Steignton! If I were a woman to wager as men +do, I 'd stake a thousand pounds to five on her never stepping across the +threshold of Steignton. All very well in London, and that place he hires +up at Marlow. He respects our home. That 's how I know my brother +Rowsley still keeps a sane man. A fortune on it!--and so says Mr. +Eglett. Any reasonable person must think it. He made a fool of some +Hampton-Evey at Madrid, if he went through any ceremony--and that I +doubt. But she and old (what do they call her?) may have insisted upon +the title, as much as they could. He sixty; she under twenty, I'm told. +Pagnell 's the name. That aunt of a good-looking young woman sees a +noble man of sixty admiring her five feet seven or so--she's tall--of +marketable merchandise, and she doesn't need telling that at sixty he'll +give the world to possess the girl. But not his family honour! He stops +at that. Why? Lord Ormont 's made of pride! He'll be kind to her, +he'll be generous, he won't forsake her; she'll have her portion in his +will, and by the course of things in nature, she'll outlive him and +marry, and be happy, I hope. Only she won't enter Steignton. You +remember what I say. You 'll live when I 'm gone. It 's the thirst of +her life to be mistress of Steignton. Not she!--though Lord Ormont would +have us all open our doors to her; mine too, now he 's about it. He sets +his mind on his plan, and he forgets rights and dues--everything; he must +have it as his will dictates. That 's how he made such a capital +soldier. You know the cavalry leader he was. If they'd given him a +field in Europe! His enemies admit that. Twelve! and my clock's five +minutes or more slow. What can Rowsley be doing?' + +She rattled backward on the scene at Steignton, and her brother's +handsome preservation of his dignity 'stood it like the king he is!' and +to the Morsfield-May encounter, which had prevented another; and Mrs. May +was rolled along in the tide, with a hint of her good reason for liking +Lord Ormont; also the change of opinion shown by the Press as to Lord +Ormont's grand exploit. Referring to it, she flushed and jigged on her +chair for a saddle beneath her. And that glorious Indian adventure +warmed her to the man who had celebrated it among his comrades when a boy +at school. + +'You 're to teach Latin and Greek, you said. For you 're right: we +English can't understand the words we 're speaking, if we don't know a +good deal of Latin and some Greek. "Conversing in tokens, not standard +coin," you said, I remember; and there'll be a "general rabble tongue," +unless we English are drilled in the languages we filched from. Lots +of lords and ladies want the drilling, then! I'll send some over to you +for Swiss air and roots of the English tongue. Oh, and you told me you +supported Lord Ormont on his pet argument for corps d'elite; and you +quoted Virgil to back it. Let me have that line again--in case of his +condescending to write to the papers on the subject.' + +Weyburn repeated the half-line. + +'Good: I won't forget now. And you said the French act on that because +they follow human nature, and the English don't. We "bully it," you +said. That was on our drive down to Steignton. I hope you 'll succeed. +You 'll be visiting England. Call on me in London or at Olmer--only mind +and give me warning. I shall be glad to see you. I 've got some ideas +from you. If I meet a man who helps me to read the world and men as +they are, I 'm grateful to him; and most people are not, you 'll find. +They want you to show them what they 'd like the world to be. We don't +agree about a lady. You 're in the lists, lance in rest, all for +chivalry. You 're a man, and a young man. Have you taken your leave of +her yet? She'll expect it, as a proper compliment.' + +'I propose running down to take my leave of Lady Ormont to-morrow,' +replied Weyburn. + +'She is handsome?' + +She is very handsome.' + +'Beautiful, do you mean?' + +'Oh, my lady, it would only be a man's notion!' + +'Now, that 's as good an answer as could be made! You 're sure to +succeed. I 'm not the woman's enemy. But let her keep her place. Why, +Rowsley can't be coming to-day! Did Lord Ormont look ill?' + +'It did not strike me so.' + +'He 's between two fires. A man gets fretted. But I shan't move a step. +I dare say she won't. Especially with that Morsfield out of the way. +You do mean you think her a beauty. Well, then, there'll soon be a +successor to Morsfield. Beauties will have their weapons, and they can +hit on plenty; and it 's nothing to me, as long as I save my brother from +their arts.' + +Weyburn felt he had done his penance in return for kindness. He bowed +and rose, Lady Charlotte stretched out her hand. + +'We shall be sending you a pupil some day,' she said, and smiled. + +'Forward your address as soon as you 're settled.' Her face gave a +glimpse of its youth in a cordial farewell smile. + +Lord Ormont had no capacity to do the like, although they were strictly +brother and sister in appearance. The smallest difference in character +rendered her complex and kept him simple. She had a thirsting mind. + +Weyburn fancied that a close intimacy of a few months would have enabled +him to lift her out of her smirching and depraving mean jealousies. He +speculated, as he trod the street, on little plots and surprises, which +would bring Lady Charlotte and Lady Ormont into presence, and end by +making friends of them. Supposing that could be done, Lady Ormont might +be righted by the intervention of Lady Charlotte after all. + +Weyburn sent his dream flying with as dreamy an after-thought: 'Funny it +will be then for Lady Charlotte to revert to the stuff she has been +droning in my ear half an hour ago!--Look well behind, and we see spots +where we buzzed, lowed, bit and tore; and not until we have cast that +look and seen the brute are we human creatures.' + +A crumb of reflection such as this could brace him, adding its modest +maravedi to his prized storehouse of gain, fortifying with assurances of +his having a concrete basis for his business in life. His great youthful +ambition had descended to it, but had sunk to climb on a firmer footing. + +Arthur Abner had his next adieu. They talked of Lady Ormont, as to whose +position of rightful Countess of Ormont Mr. Abner had no doubt. He said +of Lady Charlotte: 'She has a clear head; but she loves her "brother +Rowsley" excessively; and any excess pushes to craziness.' + +He spoke to Weyburn of his prospects in the usually, perhaps necessarily, +cheerless tone of men who recognize by contrast the one mouse's nibbling +at a mountain of evil. 'To harmonize the nationalities, my dear boy! +teach Christians to look fraternally on Jews! David was a harper, but +the setting of him down to roll off a fugue on one of your cathedral +organs would not impose a heavier task than you are undertaking. You +have my best wishes, whatever aid I can supply. But we 're nearer to +King John's time than to your ideal, as far as the Jews go.' + +'Not in England.' + +'Less in England,' Abner shrugged. + +'You have beaten the Christians on the field they challenged you to enter +for a try. They feel the pinch in their interests and their vanity. +That will pass. I 'm for the two sides, under the name of Justice; +and I give the palm to whichever of the two first gets hold of the idea +of Justice. My old schoolmate's well?' + +'Always asking after Matey Weyburn !' + +'He shall have my address in Switzerland. You and I will be +corresponding.' + +Now rose to view the visit to the lady who was Lady Ormont on the tongue, +Aminta at heart; never to be named Aminta even to himself. His heart +broke loose at a thought of it. + +He might say Browny. For that was not serious with the intense present +signification the name Aminta had. Browny was queen of the old school- +time-enclosed it in her name; and that sphere enclosed her, not excluding +him. And the dear name of Browny played gently, humorously, fervently, +too, with life: not, pathetically, as that of Aminta did when came a +whisper of her situation, her isolation, her friendlessness; hardly +dissimilar to what could be imagined of a gazelle in the streets of +London city. The Morsfields were not all slain. The Weyburns would be +absent. + +At the gate of his cottage garden Weyburn beheld a short unfamiliar +figure of a man with dimly remembered features. Little Collett he still +was in height. The schoolmates had not met since the old days of +Cuper's. + +Little Collett delivered a message of invitation from Selina, begging Mr. +Weyburn to accompany her brother on the coach to Harwich next day, and +spend two or three days by the sea. But Weyburn's mind had been set in +the opposite direction--up Thames instead of down. + +He was about to refuse, but he checked his voice and hummed. Words of +Selina's letter jumped in italics. He perceived Lady Ormont's hand. +For one thing, would she be at Great Marlow alone? And he knew that hand +--how deftly it moved and moved others. Selina Collett would not have +invited him with underlinings merely to see a shoreside house and garden. +Her silence regarding a particular name showed her to be under +injunction, one might guess. At worst, it would be the loss of a couple +of days; worth the venture. They agreed to journey by coach next day. + +Facing eastward in the morning, on a seat behind the coachman, Weyburn +had a seafaring man beside him, bound for the good port of Harwich, where +his family lived, and thence by his own boat to Flushing. Weyburn set +him talking of himself, as the best way of making him happy; for it is +the theme which pricks to speech, and so liberates an uncomfortably +locked-up stranger; who, if sympathetic to human proximity, is thankful. +They exchanged names, delighted to find they were both Matthews; +whereupon Matthew of the sea demanded the paw of Matthew of the land, and +there was a squeeze. The same with little Collett, after hearing of him +as the old schoolmate of the established new friend. Then there was +talk. Little Collett named Felixstowe as the village of his mother's +house and garden sloping to the sands. 'That 's it-you have it,' said +the salted Matthew: 'peace is in that spot, and there I 've sworn to +pitch my tent when I 'm incapacitated for further exercise--profitable, +so to speak. My eldest girl has a bar of amber she picked up one wash of +the tide at Felixstowe, and there it had been lying sparkling, unseen, +hours, the shore is that solitary. What I like!--a quiet shore and a +peopled sea. Ever been to Brighton? There it 's t' other way.' + +Not long after he had mentioned the time of early evening for their entry +into his port of Harwich, the coach turned quietly over on a bank of the +roadside, depositing outside passengers quite safely, in so matter-of- +course a way, that only the screams of an uninjured lady inside repressed +their roars of laughter. One of the wheels had come loose, half a mile +off the nearest town. Their entry into Harwich was thereby delayed until +half-past nine at night. Full of consideration for the new mates now +fast wedded to his heart by an accident. Matthew Shale proposed to +Matthew Weyburn, instead of the bother of crossing the ferry with a +portmanteau and a bag at that late hour, to sup at his house, try the +neighbouring inn for a short sleep, and ship on board his yawl, the +honest Susan, to be rowed ashore off the Swin to Felixstowe sands no +later than six o'clock of a summer's morning, in time for a bath and a +swim before breakfast. It sounded well--it sounded sweetly. Weyburn +suggested the counter proposal of supper for the three at the inn. But +the other Matthew said: 'I married a cook. She expects a big appetite, +and she always keeps warm when I 'm held away, no matter how late. Sure +to be enough.' + +Beds were secured at the inn; after which came the introduction to Mrs. +Shale, the exhibition of Susan Shale's bar of amber, the dish of fresh- +fried whiting, the steak pudding, a grog, tobacco, rest at the inn, and +a rousing bang at the sleepers' doors when the unwonted supper in them +withheld an answer to the intimating knock. Young Matthew Shale, who had +slept on board the Susan, conducted them to her boat. His glance was +much drawn to the very white duck trousers Weyburn had put on, for a +souvenir of the approbation they had won at Marlow. They were on, and so +it was of no use for young Matthew to say they were likely to bear away a +token from the Susan. She was one among the damsels of colour, and free +of her tokens, especially to the spotless. + +How it occurred, nobody saw; though everybody saw how naturally it must +occur for the white ducks to 'have it in the eye' by the time they had +been on board a quarter of an hour. Weyburn got some fun out of them, +for a counterbalance to a twitch of sentimental regret scarcely +decipherable, as that the last view of him should bear a likeness of +Browny's recollection of her first. + +A glorious morning of flushed open sky and sun on sea chased all small +thoughts out of it. The breeze was from the west, and the Susan, lightly +laden, took the heave of smooth rollers with a flowing current-curtsey in +the motion of her speed. Fore-sail and aft were at their gentle strain; +her shadow rippled fragmentarily along to the silver rivulet and boat of +her wake. Straight she flew to the ball of fire now at spring above the +waters, and raining red gold on the line of her bows. By comparison she +was an ugly yawl, and as the creature of wind and wave beautiful. + +They passed an English defensive fort, and spared its walls, in obedience +to Matthew Shale's good counsel that they should forbear from sneezing. +Little Collett pointed to the roof of his mother's house twenty paces +rearward of a belt of tamarisks, green amid the hollowed yellows of +shorebanks yet in shade, crumbling to the sands. Weyburn was attracted +by a diminutive white tent, of sentry-box shape, evidently a bather's, +quite as evidently a fair bather's. He would have to walk on some way +for his dip. He remarked to little Collett that ladies going into the +water half-dressed never have more than half a bath. His arms and legs +flung out contempt of that style of bathing, exactly in old Matey's well- +remembered way. Half a mile off shore, the Susan was put about to flap +her sails, and her boat rocked with the passengers. Turning from a final +cheer to friendly Matthew, Weyburn at the rudder espied one of those +unenfranchised ladies in marine uniform issuing through the tent-slit. +She stepped firmly, as into her element. A plain look at her, and a +curious look, and an intent look fixed her fast, and ran the shock on his +heart before he knew of a guess. She waded, she dipped; a head across +the breast of the waters was observed: this one of them could swim. She +was making for sea, a stone's throw off the direction of the boat. +Before his wits had grasped the certainty possessing them, fiery envy and +desire to be alongside her set his fingers fretting at buttons. A grand +smooth swell of the waters lifted her, and her head rose to see her +world. She sank down the valley, where another wave was mounding for its +onward roll: a gentle scene of Weyburn's favourite Sophoclean chorus. +Now she was given to him--it was she. How could it ever have been any +other! He handed his watch to little Collett, and gave him the ropes, +pitched coat and waistcoat on his knees, stood free of boots and socks, +and singing out, truly enough, the words of a popular cry, 'White ducks +want washing,' went over and in. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +A MARINE DUET + +She soon had to know she was chased. She had seen the dive from the +boat, and received all illumination. With a chuckle of delighted +surprise, like a blackbird startled, she pushed seaward for joy of the +effort, thinking she could exult in imagination of an escape up to the +moment of capture, yielding then only to his greater will; and she meant +to try it. + +The swim was a holiday; all was new--nothing came to her as the same old +thing since she took her plunge; she had a sea-mind--had left her earth- +mind ashore. The swim, and Matey Weyburn pursuing her passed up, out of +happiness, through the spheres of delirium, into the region where our +life is as we would have it be a home holding the quiet of the heavens, +if but midway thither, and a home of delicious animation of the whole +frame, equal to wings. + +He drew on her, but he was distant, and she waved an arm. The shout of +her glee sprang from her: 'Matey!' He waved; she heard his voice. Was it +her name? He was not so drunken of the sea as she: he had not leapt out +of bondage into buoyant waters, into a youth without a blot, without an +aim, satisfied in tasting; the dream of the long felicity. + +A thought brushed by her: How if he were absent? It relaxed her stroke +of arms and legs. He had doubled the salt sea's rapture, and he had +shackled its gift of freedom. She turned to float, gathering her knees +for the funny sullen kick, until she heard him near. At once her stroke +was renewed vigorously; she had the foot of her pursuer, and she called, +'Adieu, Matey Weyburn!' + +Her bravado deserved a swifter humiliation than he was able to bring down +on her: she swam bravely, and she was divine to see ahead as well as +overtake. + +Darting to the close parallel, he said: 'What sea nymph sang me my name?' + +She smote a pang of her ecstasy into him: 'Ask mine!' + +'Browny!' + +They swam; neither of them panted; their heads were water-flowers that +spoke at ease. + +'We 've run from school; we won't go back.' + +'We 've a kingdom.' + +'Here's a big wave going to be a wall.' + +'Off he rolls.' + +'He's like the High Brent broad meadow under Elling Wood.' + +'Don't let Miss Vincent hear you.' + +'They 're not waves; they 're sighs of the deep.' + +'A poet I swim with! He fell into the deep in his first of May morning +ducks. We used to expect him.' + +'I never expected to owe them so much.' + +Pride of the swimmer and the energy of her joy embraced Aminta, that she +might nerve all her powers to gain the half-minute for speaking at her +ease. + +'Who 'd have thought of a morning like this? You were looked for last +night.' + +'A lucky accident to our coach. I made friends with the skipper of the +yawl.' + +'I saw the boat. Who could have dreamed----? Anything may happen now.' + +For nothing further would astonish her, as he rightly understood her; but +he said: 'You 're prepared for the rites? Old Triton is ready.' + +'Float, and tell me.' + +They spun about to lie on their backs. Her right hand, at piano-work of +the octave-shake, was touched and taken, and she did not pull it away. +Her eyelids fell. + +'Old Triton waits.' + +'Why?' + +'We 're going to him.' + +'Yes?' + +'Customs of the sea.' + +'Tell me.' + +'He joins hands. We say, "Browny-Matey," and it 's done.' + +She splashed, crying 'Swim,' and after two strokes, 'You want to beat me, +Matey Weyburn.' + +'How?' + +'Not fair!' + +'Say what.' + +'Take my breath. But, yes! we'll be happy in our own way. We 're sea- +birds. We 've said adieu to land. Not to one another. We shall be +friends?' + +'Always.' + +'This is going to last?' + +'Ever so long.' + +They had a spell of steady swimming, companionship to inspirit it. +Browny was allowed place a little foremost, and she guessed not +wherefore, in her flattered emulation. + +'I 'm bound for France.' + +'Slew a point to the right: South-east by South. We shall hit +Dunkerque.' + +'I don't mean to be picked up by boats.' + +'We'll decline.' + +'You see I can swim.' + +'I was sure of it.' + +They stopped their talk--for the pleasure of the body to be savoured in +the mind, they thought; and so took Nature's counsel to rest their voices +awhile. + +Considering that she had not been used of late to long immersions, and +had not broken her fast, and had talked much, for a sea-nymph, Weyburn +spied behind him on a shore seeming flat down, far removed. + +'France next time,' he said: 'we'll face to the rear.' + +'Now?' said she, big with blissful conceit of her powers and incredulous +of such a command from him. + +'You may be feeling tired presently.' + +The musical sincerity of her 'Oh no, not I!' sped through his limbs; he +had a willingness to go onward still some way. + +But his words fastened the heavy land on her spirit, knocked at the habit +of obedience. Her stroke of the arms paused. She inclined to his +example, and he set it shoreward. + +They swam silently, high, low, creatures of the smooth green roller. He +heard the water-song of her swimming. She, though breathing equably at +the nostrils, lay deep. The water shocked at her chin, and curled round +the under lip. He had a faint anxiety; and, not so sensible of a weight +in the sight of land as she was, he chattered, by snatches, rallied her, +encouraged her to continue sportive for this once, letting her feel it +was but a once and had its respected limit with him. So it was not out +of the world. + +Ah, friend Matey! And that was right and good on land; but rightness and +goodness flung earth's shadow across her brilliancy here, and any stress +on 'this once' withdrew her liberty to revel in it, putting an end to +perfect holiday; and silence, too, might hint at fatigue. She began to +think her muteness lost her the bloom of the enchantment, robbing her of +her heavenly frolic lead, since friend Matey resolved to be as eminently +good in salt water as on land. Was he unaware that they were boy and +girl again?--she washed pure of the intervening years, new born, by +blessing of the sea; worthy of him here!--that is, a swimmer worthy of +him, his comrade in salt water. + +'You're satisfied I swim well?' she said. + +'It would go hard with me if we raced a long race.' + +'I really was out for France.' + +'I was ordered to keep you for England.' She gave him Browny's eyes. + +'We've turned our backs on Triton.' + +'The ceremony was performed.' + +'When?' + +'The minute I spoke of it and you splashed.' + +'Matey! Matey Weyburn!' + +'Browny Farrell!' + +'Oh, Matey! she's gone!' + +'She's here.' + +'Try to beguile me, then, that our holiday's not over. You won't forget +this hour?' + +'No time of mine on earth will live so brightly for me.' + +'I have never had one like it. I could go under and be happy; go to old +Triton, and wait for you; teach him to speak your proper Christian name. +He hasn't heard it yet,--heard "Matey,"--never yet has been taught +"Matthew."' + +'Aminta!' + +'Oh, my friend! my dear!' she cried, in the voice of the wounded, like a +welling of her blood: 'my strength will leave me. I may play--not you: +you play with a weak vessel. Swim, and be quiet. How far do you count +it?' + +'Under a quarter of a mile.' + +'Don't imagine me tired.' + +'If you are, hold on to me.' + +'Matey, I'm for a dive.' + +He went after the ball of silver and bubbles, and they came up together. +There is no history of events below the surface. + +She shook off her briny blindness, and settled to the full sweep of the +arms, quite silent now. Some emotion, or exhaustion from the strain of +the swimmer's breath in speech, stopped her playfulness. The pleasure +she still knew was a recollection of the outward swim, when she had been +privileged to cast away sex with the push from earth, as few men will +believe that women, beautiful women, ever wish to do; and often and +ardently during the run ahead they yearn for Nature to grant them their +one short holiday truce. + +But Aminta forgave him for bringing earth so close to her when there was +yet a space of salt water between her and shore; and she smiled at times, +that he might not think she was looking grave. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + +THE PLIGHTING + +They touched sand at the first draw of the ebb, and this being earth, +Matey addressed himself to the guardian and absolving genii of matter-of- +fact, by saying; 'Did you inquire about the tides?' + +Her head shook, stunned with what had passed. She waded to shore, +after motioning for him to swim on. Men, in comparison beside their fair +fellows, are so little sensationally complex, that his one feeling now, +as to what had passed, was relief at the idea of his presence having been +a warrantable protectorship. + +Aminta's return from the sea-nymph to the state of woman crossed +annihiliation on the way back to sentience, and picked up meaningless +pebbles and shells of life, between the sea's verge and her tent's +shelter; hardly her own life to her understanding yet, except for the +hammer Memory became, to strike her insensible, at here and there a +recollected word or nakedness of her soul. + +He swam along by the shore to where the boat was paddled, spying at her +bare feet on the sand, her woman's form. He waved, and the figure in the +striped tunic and trousers waved her response, apparently the same person +he had quitted. + +Dry and clad, and decently formal under the transformation, they met at +Mrs. Collett's breakfast-table, and in each hung the doubt whether land +was the dream or sea. Both owned to a swim; both omitted mention of the +tale of white ducks. Little Collett had brought Matey's and his +portmanteau into the house, by favour of the cook, through the scullery. +He, who could have been a pictorial and suggestive narrator, carried a +spinning head off his shoulders from this wonderful Countess of Ormont to +Matey Weyburn's dark-eyed Browny at High Brent, and the Sunday walk in +Sir Peter Wensell's park. Away and back his head went. Browny was not +to be thought of as Browny; she was this grand Countess of Ormont; she +had married Matey Weyburn's hero: she would never admit she had been +Browny. Only she was handsome then, and she is handsome now; and she +looks on Matey Weyburn now just as she did then. How strange is the +world! Or how if we are the particular person destined to encounter the +strange things of the world? And fancy J. Masner, and Pinnett major, and +young Oakes (liked nothing better than a pretty girl, he strutted +boasting at thirteen), and the Frenchy, and the lot, all popping down at +the table, and asked the name of the lady sitting like Queen Esther--how +they would roar out! Boys, of course--but men, too!--very few men have a +notion of the extraordinary complications and coincidences and cracker- +surprises life contains. Here 's an instance; Matey Weyburn positively +will wear white ducks to play before Aminta Farrell on the first of May +cricketing-day. He happens to have his white ducks on when he sees the +Countess of Ormont swimming in the sea; and so he can go in just as if +they were all-right bathing-drawers. In he goes, has a good long swim +with her, and when he comes out, says, of his dripping ducks, 'tabula +votiva . . . avida vestimenta,' to remind an old schoolmate of his +hopping to the booth at the end of a showery May day, and dedicating them +to the laundry in these words. It seems marvellous. It was a quaint +revival, an hour after breakfast, for little Collett to be acting as +intermediary with Selina to request Lady Ormont's grant of a five- +minutes' interview before the church-bell summoned her. She was writing +letters, and sent the message: 'Tell Mr. Weyburn I obey.' Selina +delivered it, uttering 'obey' in a demurely comical way, as a word of +which the humour might be comprehensible to him. + +Aminta stood at the drawing-room window. She was asking herself whether +her recent conduct shrieked coquette to him, or any of the abominable +titles showered on the women who take free breath of air one day after +long imprisonment. + +She said: 'Does it mean you are leaving us?' the moment he was near. + +'Not till evening or to-morrow, as it may happen,' he answered: 'I have +one or two things to say, if you will spare the time.' + +'All my time,' said she, smiling to make less of the heart's reply; and +he stepped into the room. + +They had not long back been Matey and Browny, and though that was in +another element, it would not sanction the Lady Ormont and Mr. Weyburn +now. As little could it be Aminta and Matthew. Brother and sister they +were in the spirit's world, but in this world the titles had a sound of +imposture. And with a great longing to call her by some allying name, he +rejected 'friend' for its insufficiency and commonness, notwithstanding +the entirely friendly nature of the burden to be spoken. Friend, was a +title that ran on quicksands: an excuse that tried for an excuse. He +distinguished in himself simultaneously, that the hesitation and beating +about for a name had its origin in an imperfect frankness when he sent +his message: the fretful desire to be with her, close to her, hearing +her, seeing her, besides the true wish to serve her. He sent it after +swinging round abruptly from an outlook over the bordering garden +tamarisks on a sea now featureless, desolately empty. + +However, perceptibly silence was doing the work of a scourge, and he +said: 'I have been thinking I may have--and I don't mind fighting hard to +try it before I leave England on Tuesday or Wednesday--some influence +with Lady Charlotte Eglett. She is really one of the true women living, +and the heartiest of backers, if she can be taught to see her course. +I fancy I can do that. She 's narrow, but she is not one of the class +who look on the working world below them as, we'll say, the scavenger +dogs on the plains of Ilium were seen by the Achaeans. And my failure +would be no loss to you! Your name shall not be alluded to as empowering +me to plead for her help. But I want your consent, or I may be haunted +and weakened by the idea of playing the busy-body. One has to feel +strong in a delicate position. Well, you know what my position with her +has been--one among the humble; and she has taken contradictions, +accepted views from me, shown me she has warmth of heart to an extreme +degree.' + +Aminta slightly raised her hand. 'I will save you trouble. I have +written to Lord Ormont. I have left him.' + +Their eyes engaged on the thunder of this. 'The letter has gone?' + +'It was posted before my swim: posted yesterday.' + +'You have fully and clearly thought it out to a determination?' + +'Bit by bit--I might say, blow by blow.' + +'It is no small matter to break a marriage-tie.' + +'I have conversed with your mother.' + +'Yes, she! and the woman happiest in marriage!' + +'I know. It was hatred of injustice, noble sympathy. And she took me +for one of the blest among wives.' + +'She loved God. She saw the difference between men's decrees for their +convenience, and God's laws. She felt for women. You have had a hard +trial Aminta.' + +'Oh, my name! You mean it?' + +'You heard it from me this morning.' + +'Yes, there! I try to forget. I lost my senses. You may judge me +harshly, on reflection.' + +'Judge myself worse, then. You had a thousand excuses. I had only my +love of you. There's no judgement against either of us, for us to see, +if I read rightly. We elect to be tried in the courts of the sea-god. +Now we 'll sit and talk it over. The next ten minutes will decide our +destinies.' + +His eyes glittered, otherwise he showed the coolness of the man +discussing business; and his blunt soberness refreshed and upheld her, as +a wild burst of passion would not have done. + +Side by side, partly facing, they began their interchange. + +'You have weighed what you abandon?' + +'It weighs little.' + +'That may be error. You have to think into the future.' + +'My sufferings and experiences are not bad guides.' + +'They count. How can you be sure you have all the estimates?' + +'Was I ever a wife?' + +'You were and are the Countess of Ormont.' + +'Not to the world. An unacknowledged wife is a slave, surely.' + +'You step down, if you take the step.' + +'From what? Once I did desire that station--had an idea it was glorious. +I despise it: or rather the woman who had the desire.' + +'But the step down is into the working world.' + +'I have means to live humbly. I want no more, except to be taught to +work.' + +'So says the minute. Years are before you. You have weighed well, that +you attract?' + +She reddened and murmured: 'How small!' Her pout of spite at her +attractions was little simulated. + +'Beauty and charm are not small matters. You have the gift, called +fatal. Then--looking right forward--you have faith in the power of +resistance of the woman living alone?' + +He had struck at her breast. From her breast she replied. + +'Hear this of me. I was persecuted with letters. I read them and did +not destroy them. Perhaps you saved me. Looking back, I see weakness, +nothing worse; but it is a confession.' + +'Yes, you have courage. And that comes of a great heart. And therein +lies the danger.' + +'Advise me of what is possible to a lonely woman.' + +'You have resolved on the loneliness?' + +'It means breathing to me.' + +'You are able to see that Lord Ormont is a gentleman?' + +'A chivalrous gentleman, up to the bounds of his intelligence.' + +The bounds of his intelligence closed their four walls in a rapid +narrowing slide on Aminta's mind, and she exclaimed: + +'If only to pluck flowers in fields and know their names, I must be free! +I say what one can laugh at, and you are good and don't. Is the +interrogatory exhausted?' + +'Aminta, my beloved, if you are free, I claim you.' + +'Have you thought--?' + +The sense of a dissolving to a fountain quivered through her veins. + +'Turn the tables and examine me.' + +'But have you thought--oh! I am not the girl you loved. I would go +through death to feel I was, and give you one worthy of you.' + +'That means what I won't ask you to speak at present but I must have +proof.' + +He held out a hand, and hers was laid in his. + +There was more for her to say, she knew. It came and fled, lightened and +darkened. She had yielded her hand to him here on land, not with the +licence and protection of the great holiday salt water; and she was +trembling from the run of his blood through hers at the pressure of +hands, when she said in undertones: 'Could we--we might be friends.' + +'Meet and part as friends, you and I,' he replied. + +His voice carried the answer for her, his intimate look had in it the +unfolding of the full flower of the woman to him, as she could not +conceal from such eyes; and feeling that, she was all avowal. + +'It is for life, Matthew.' + +'My own words to myself when I first thought of the chance.' + +'But the school?' + +'I shall not consider that we are malefactors. We have the world against +us. It will not keep us from trying to serve it. And there are hints of +humaner opinions; it's not all a huge rolling block of a Juggernaut. Our +case could be pleaded before it. I don't think the just would condemn us +heavily. I shall have to ask you to strengthen me, complete me. If you +love me, it is your leap out of prison, and without you, I am from this +time no better than one-third of a man. I trust you to weigh the +position you lose, and the place we choose to take in the world. It 's +this--I think this describes it. You know the man who builds his house +below the sea's level has a sleepless enemy always threatening. His +house must be firm and he must look to the dykes. We commit this +indiscretion. With a world against us, our love and labour are +constantly on trial; we must have great hearts, and if the world is +hostile we are not to blame it. In the nature of things it could not be +otherwise. My own soul, we have to see that we do--though not publicly, +not insolently, offend good citizenship. But we believe--I with my whole +faith, and I may say it of you--that we are not offending Divine law. +You are the woman I can help and join with; think whether you can tell +yourself that I am the man. So, then, our union gives us powers to make +amends to the world, if the world should grant us a term of peace for the +effort. That is our risk; consider it, Aminta, between now and tomorrow; +deliberate. We don't go together into a garden of roses.' + +'I know. I should feel shame. I wish it to look dark,' said Aminta, her +hand in his, and yet with a fair-sailing mind on the stream of the blood. + +Rationally and irrationally, the mixed passion and reason in two clear +heads and urgent hearts discussed the stand they made before a world +defied, neither of them quite perceiving what it was which coloured +reason to beauty, or what so convinced their intellects when passion +spoke the louder. + +'I am to have a mate.' + +'She will pray she may be one.' + +'She is my first love.' + +Aminta's lips formed 'mine,' without utterance. + +Meanwhile his hand or a wizardry subdued her will, allured her body. She +felt herself being drawn to the sign and seal of their plighting for +life. She said, 'Matthew,' softly in protest; and he said, 'Never once +yet!' She was owing to his tenderness. Her deepened voice murmured: +'Is this to deliberate?' Colour flooded the beautiful dark face, as of +the funeral hues of a sun suffusing all the heavens; firing earth. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX + +AMINTA TO HER LORD + +On Friday, on Saturday, on Sunday, Lady Charlotte waited for her brother +Rowsley, until it was a diminished satisfaction that she had held her +ground and baffled his mighty will to subdue her. She did not sleep for +thinking of him on the Sunday night. Toward morning a fit of hazy +horrors, which others would have deemed imaginings, drove her from her +bed to sit and brood over Rowsley in a chair. What if it was a case of +heart with him too? Heart disease had been in the family. A man like +Rowsley, still feeling the world before him, as a man of his energies and +aptitudes, her humour added in the tide of his anxieties, had a right to +feel, would not fall upon resignation like a woman. + +She was at the physician's door at eight o'clock. Dr. Rewkes reported +reassuringly; it was a simple disturbance in Lord Ormont's condition of +health, and he conveyed just enough of disturbance to send the impetuous +lady knocking and ringing at her brother's door upon the hour of nine. + +The announcement of Lady Charlotte's early visit informed my lord that +Dr. Rewkes had done the spiriting required of him. He descended to the +library and passed under scrutiny. + +'You don't look ill, Rowsley,' she said, reluctantly in the sound. + +'I am the better for seeing you here, Charlotte. Shall I order breakfast +for you? I am alone.' + +'I know you are. I've eaten. Rewkes tells me you've not lost appetite.' + +'Have I the appearance of a man who has lost anything?' Prouder man, and +heartier and ruddier, could not be seen, she thought. + +'You're winning the country to right you; that I know.' + +'I don't ask it.' + +'The country wants your services.' + +'I have heard some talk of it. That lout comes to a knowledge of his +wants too late. If they promoted and offered me the command in India to- +morrow--'My lord struck the arm of his chair. 'I live at Steignton +henceforth; my wife is at a seaside place eastward. She left the jewel- +case when on her journey through London for safety; she is a particularly +careful person, forethoughtful. I take her down to Steignton two days +after her return. We entertain there in the autumn. You come?' + +'I don't. I prefer decent society.' + +'You are in her house now, ma'am.' + +'If I have to meet the person, you mean, I shall be civil. The society +you've given her, I won't meet.' + +'You will have to greet the Countess of Ormont if you care to meet your +brother.' + +'Part, then, on the best terms we can. I say this, the woman who keeps +you from serving your country, she 's your country's enemy.' + +'Hear my answer. The lady who is my wife has had to suffer for what you +call my country's treatment of me. It 's a choice between my country and +her. I give her the rest of my time.' + +'That's dotage.' + +'Fire away your epithets.' + +'Sheer dotage. I don't deny she's a handsome young woman.' + +'You'll have to admit that Lady Ormont takes her place in our family with +the best we can name.' + +'You insult my ears, Rowsley.' + +'The world will say it when it has the honour of her acquaintance.' + +'An honour suspiciously deferred.' + +'That's between the world and me.' + +'Set your head to work, you'll screw the world to any pitch you like-- +that I don't need telling.' + +Lord Ormont's head approved the remark. + +'Now,' said Lady Charlotte, 'you won't get the Danmores, the Dukerlys, +the Carminters, the Oxbridges any more than you get me.' + +'You are wrong, ma'am. I had yesterday a reply from Lady Danmore to a +communication of mine.' + +'It 's thickening. But while I stand, I stand for the family; and I 'm +not in it, and while I stand out of it, there 's a doubt either of your +honesty or your sanity.' + +'There's a perfect comprehension of my sister!' + +'I put my character in the scales against your conduct, and your Countess +of Ormont's reputation into the bargain.' + +'You have called at her house; it 's a step. You 'll be running at her +heels next. She 's not obdurate.' + +'When you see me running at her heels, it'll be with my head off. Stir +your hardest, and let it thicken. That man Morsfield's name mixed up +with a sham Countess of Ormont, in the stories flying abroad, can't hurt +anybody. A true Countess of Ormont--we 're cut to the quick.' + +'We 're cut! Your quick, Charlotte, is known to court the knife.' + +Letters of the morning's post were brought in. + +The earl turned over a couple and took up a third, saying: 'I 'll attend +to you in two minutes'; and thinking once more: Queer world it is, where, +when you sheath the sword, you have to be at play with bodkins! + +Lady Charlotte gazed on the carpet, effervescent with retorts to his last +observation, rightly conjecturing that the letter he selected to read was +from 'his Aminta.' + +The letter apparently was interesting, or it was of inordinate length. +He seemed still to be reading. He reverted to the first page. + +At the sound of the paper, she discarded her cogitations and glanced up. +His countenance had become stony. He read on some way, with a sudden +drop on the signature, a recommencement, a sound in the throat, as when +men grasp a comprehensible sentence of a muddled rigmarole and begin to +have hopes of the remainder. But the eye on the page is not the eye +which reads. + +'No bad news, Rowsley?' + +The earl's breath fell heavily. + +Lady Charlotte left her chair, and walked about the room. + +'Rowsley, I 'd like to hear if I can be of use.' + +'Ma'am?' he said; and pondered on the word 'use,' staring at her. + +'I don't intend to pry. I can't see my brother look like that, and not +ask.' + +The letter was tossed on the table to her. She read these lines, dated +from Felixstowe: + + 'MY DEAR LORD, + + 'The courage I have long been wanting in has come at last, to break + a tie that I have seen too clearly was a burden on you from the + beginning. I will believe that I am chiefly responsible for + inducing you to contract it. The alliance with an inexperienced + girl of inferior birth, and a perhaps immoderate ambition, has taxed + your generosity; and though the store may be inexhaustible, it is + not truly the married state when a wife subjects the husband to such + a trial. The release is yours, the sadness is for me. I have + latterly seen or suspected a design on your part to meet my former + wishes for a public recognition of the wife of Lord Ormont. Let me + now say that these foolish wishes no longer exist. I rejoice to + think that my staying or going will be alike unknown to the world. + I have the means of a livelihood, in a modest way, and shall trouble + no one. + + 'I have said, the sadness is for me. That is truth. But I have to + add, that I, too, am sensible of the release. My confession of a + change of feeling to you as a wife, writes the close of all + relations between us. I am among the dead for you; and it is a + relief to me to reflect on the little pain I give . . .' + + +'Has she something on her conscience about that man Morsfield?' Lady +Charlotte cried. + +Lord Ormont's prolonged Ah! of execration rolled her to a bundle. + +Nevertheless her human nature and her knowledge of woman's, would out +with the words: 'There's a man!' + +She allowed her brother to be correct in repudiating the name of the dead +Morsfield--chivalrous as he was on this Aminta's behalf to the last!--and +struck along several heads, Adderwood's, Weyburn's, Randeller's, for the +response to her suspicion. A man there certainly was. He would be +probably a young man. He would not necessarily be a handsome man. . . . +or a titled or a wealthy man. She might have set eyes on a gypsy +somewhere round Great Marlow--blood to blood; such things have been. +Imagining a wildish man for her, rather than a handsome one and one +devoted staidly to the founding of a school, she overlooked Weyburn, or +reserved him with others for subsequent speculation. + +The remainder of Aminta's letter referred to her delivery of the Ormont +jewel-case at Lord Ormont's London house, under charge of her maid +Carstairs. The affairs of the household were stated very succinctly, the +drawer for labelled keys, whatever pertained to her management, in London +or at Great Marlow. + +'She 's cool,' Lady Charlotte said, after reading out the orderly array +of items, in a tone of rasping irony, to convince her brother he was well +rid of a heartless wench. + +Aminta's written statement of those items were stabs at the home she had +given him, a flashed picture of his loss. Nothing written by her touched +him to pierce him so shrewdly; nothing could have brought him so closely +the breathing image in the flesh of the woman now a phantom for him. + +'Will she be expecting you to answer, Rowsley?' + +'Will that forked tongue cease hissing!' he shouted, in the agony of a +strong man convulsed both to render and conceal the terrible, shameful, +unexampled gush of tears. + +Lady Charlotte beheld her bleeding giant. She would rather have seen the +brother of her love grimace in woman's manner than let loose those +rolling big drops down the face of a rock. The big sob shook him, and +she was shaken to the dust by the sight. Now she was advised by her deep +affection for her brother to sit patient and dumb, behind shaded eyes: +praising in her heart the incomparable force of the man's love of the +woman contrasted with the puling inclinations of the woman for the man. + +Neither opened mouth when they separated. She pressed and kissed a large +nerveless hand. Lord Ormont stood up to bow her forth. His ruddied skin +had gone to pallor resembling the berg of ice on the edge of Arctic seas, +when sunlight has fallen away from it. + + + + +CHAPTER XXX + +CONCLUSION + +The peaceful little home on the solitary sandy shore was assailed, +unwarned, beneath a quiet sky, some hours later, by a whirlwind, a dust- +storm, and rattling volleys. Miss Vincent's discovery, in the past +school-days, of Selina Collett's 'wicked complicity in a clandestine +correspondence' had memorably chastened the girl, who vowed at the time +when her schoolmistress, using the rod of Johnsonian English for the +purpose, exposed the depravity of her sinfulness, that she would never +again be guilty of a like offence. Her dear and lovely Countess of +Ormont, for whom she then uncomplainingly suffered, who deigned now to +call her friend, had spoken the kind good-bye, and left the house after +Mr. Weyburn's departure that same day; she, of course, to post by Harwich +to London; he to sail by packet from the port of Harwich for Flushing. +The card of an unknown lady, a great lady, the Lady Charlotte Eglett, was +handed to her mother at eight o'clock in the evening. + +Lady Charlotte was introduced to the innocent country couple; the mother +knitting, the daughter studying a book of the botany of the Swiss Alps, +dreaming a distant day's journey over historic lands of various hues to +the unimaginable spectacle of earth's grandeur. Her visit lasted fifteen +minutes. From the moment of her entry, the room was in such turmoil as +may be seen where a water-mill wheel's paddles are suddenly set rounding +to pour streams of foam on the smooth pool below. A relentless catechism +bewildered their hearing. Mrs. Collett attempted an opposition of +dignity to those vehement attacks for answers. It was flooded and rolled +over. She was put upon her honour to reply positively to positive +questions: whether the Countess of Ormont was in this house at present; +whether the Countess of Ormont left the house alone or in company; +whether a gentleman had come to the house during the stay of the Countess +of Ormont; whether Lady Ormont had left the neighbourhood; the exact time +of the day when she quitted the house, and the stated point of her +destination. + +Ultimately, protesting that they were incapable of telling what they did +not know--which Lady Charlotte heard with an incredulous shrug--they +related piecemeal what they did know, and Weyburn's name gave her scent. +She paid small heed to the tale of Mr. Weyburn's having come there in the +character of young Mr. Collett's old schoolmate. Mr. Weyburn had started +for the port of Harwich. This day, and not long subsequently, Lady +Ormont had started for the port of Harwich, on her way to London, if we +like to think it. Further corroboration was quite superfluous. + +'Is there a night packet-boat from this port of yours?' Lady Charlotte +asked. + +The household servants had to be consulted; and she, hurriedly craving +the excuse of their tedious mistress, elicited, as far as she could +understand them, that there might be and very nearly was, a night packet- +boat starting for Flushing. The cook, a native of Harwich, sent up word +of a night packet-boat starting at about eleven o'clock last year. + +Lady Charlotte saw the chance as a wind-blown beacon-fire under press of +shades. Changeing her hawkish manner toward the simple pair, she gave +them view of a smile magical by contrast, really beautiful--the smile she +had in reserve for serviceable persons whom she trusted--while thanking +them and saying, that her anxiety concerned Lady Ormont's welfare. + +Her brother had prophesied she would soon be 'running at his wife's +heels,' and so she was, but not 'with her head off,' as she had rejoined. +She might prove, by intercepting his Aminta, that her head was on. +The windy beacon-fire of a chance blazed at the rapid rolling of her +carriage-wheels, and sank to stifling smoke at any petty obstruction. +Let her but come to an interview with his Aminta, she would stop all that +nonsense of the woman's letter; carry her off--and her Weyburn plucking +at her other hand to keep her. Why, naturally, treated as she was by +Rowsley, she dropped soft eyes on a good-looking secretary. Any woman +would--confound the young fellow! But all 's right yet if we get to +Harwich in time; unless . . . as a certain coldfish finale tone of the +letter playing on the old string, the irrevocable, peculiar to women who +are novices in situations of the kind, appeared to indicate; they see in +their conscience-blasted minds a barrier to a return home, high as the +Archangelical gate behind Mother Eve, and they are down on their knees +blubbering gratitude and repentance if the gate swings open to them. It +is just the instant, granting the catastrophe, to have a woman back to +her duty. She has only to learn she has a magnanimous husband. If she +learns into the bargain how he suffers, how he loves her,--well, she +despises a man like that Lawrence Finchley all the more for the +'magnanimity' she has the profit of, and perceives to be feebleness. +But there 's woman in her good and her bad; she'll trick a man of age, +and if he forgives her, owning his own faults in the case, she won't +scorn him for it; the likelihood is, she 'll feel bound in honour to +serve him faithfully for the rest of their wedded days. + +A sketch to her of Rowsley's deep love. . . . Lady Charlotte wandered +into an amazement at it. A sentence of her brother's recent speaking +danced in her recollection. He said of his country: That Lout comes to a +knowledge of his wants too late. True, Old England is always louting to +the rear, and has to be pricked in the rear and pulled by the neck before +she 's equal to the circumstances around her. But what if his words were +flung at him in turn! Short of 'Lout,' it rang correctly. 'Too late,' +we hope to clip from the end of the sentence likewise. We have then, if +you stress it--'comes to a knowledge of his wants;--a fair example of the +creatures men are; the greatest of men; who have to learn from the loss +of the woman--or a fear of the loss--how much they really do love her. + +Well, and she may learn the same or something sufficiently like it, if +she 's caught in time, called to her face, Countess of Ormont, sister-in- +law, and smoothed, petted, made believe she 's now understood and won't +be questioned on a single particular--in fact, she marches back in a sort +of triumph; and all the past in a cupboard, locked up, without further +inquiry. + +Her brother Rowsley's revealed human appearance of the stricken man +--stricken right into his big heart--precipitated Lady Charlotte's +reflections and urged her to an unavailing fever of haste during the +circuitous drive in moonlight to the port. She alighted at the principal +inn, and was there informed that the packetboat, with a favouring breeze +and tide, had started ten minutes earlier. She summoned the landlord, +and described a lady, as probably one of the passengers: 'Dark, holds +herself up high. Some such lady had dined at the inn on tea, and gone +aboard the boat soon after. + +Lady Charlotte burned with the question: Alone? She repressed her +feminine hunger and asked to see the book of visitors. But the lady had +not slept at the inn, so had not been requested to write her name. + +The track of the vessel could be seen from the pier, on the line of a bar +of moonlight; and thinking, that the abominable woman, if aboard she was, +had coolly provided herself with a continental passport--or had it done +for two by her accomplice, that Weyburn, before she left London--Lady +Charlotte sent a loathing gaze at the black figure of the boat on the +water, untroubled by any reminder of her share in the conspiracy of +events, which was to be her brother's chastisement to his end. + + +Years are the teachers of the great rocky natures, whom they round and +sap and pierce in caverns, having them on all sides, and striking deep +inward at moments. There is no resisting the years, if we have a heart, +and a common understanding. They constitute, in the sum of them, the +self-examination, whence issues, acknowledged or not, a belated self- +knowledge, to direct our final actions. She had the heart. Sight of the +high-minded, proud, speechless man suffering for the absence of a runaway +woman, not ceasing to suffer, never blaming the woman, and consequently, +it could be fancied, blaming himself, broke down Lady Charlotte's +defences and moved her to review her part in her brother Rowsley's +unhappiness. For supposing him to blame himself, her power to cast a +shadow of blame on him went from her, and therewith her vindication of +her conduct. He lived at Olmer. She read him by degrees, as those who +have become absolutely tongueless have to be read; and so she gathered +that this mortally (or lastingly) wounded brother of hers was pleased by +an allusion to his Aminta. He ran his finger on the lines of a map of +Spain, from Barcelona over to Granada; and impressed his nail at a point +appearing to be mountainous or woody. Lady Charlotte suggested that he +and his Aminta had passed by there. He told a story of a carriage +accident: added, 'She was very brave.' One day, when he had taken a +keepsake book of England's Beauties off the drawing-room table, his eyes +dwelt on a face awhile, and he handed it, with a nod, followed by a +slight depreciatory shrug. 'Like her, not so handsome,' Lady Charlotte +said. + +He nodded again. She came to a knowledge of Aminta's favourite colours +through the dwelling of his look on orange and black, deepest rose, light +yellow, light blue. Her grand-daughters won the satisfied look if they +wore a combination touching his memory. The rocky are not imaginative, +and have to be struck from without for a kindling of them. Submissive +though she was to court and soothe her brother Rowsley, a spur of +jealousy burned in the composition of her sentiments, to set her going. +He liked visiting Mrs. Lawrence Finchley at her effaced good man's +country seat, Brockholm in Berkshire, and would stay there a month at a +time. Lady Charlotte learnt why. The enthusiast for Aminta, without +upholding her to her late lord, whom she liked well, talked of her openly +with him, confessed to a fondness for her. How much Mrs. Lawrence +ventured to say, Lady Charlotte could not know. But rivalry pushed her +to the extreme of making Aminta partially a topic; and so ready was he to +follow her lead in the veriest trifles recalling the handsome runaway; +that she had to excite his racy diatribes against the burgess English and +the pulp they have made of a glorious nation, in order not to think him +inclining upon dotage. + +Philippa's occasional scoff in fun concerning 'grandmama's tutor,' hurt +Lady Charlotte for more reasons than one, notwithstanding the +justification of her fore-thoughtfulness. The girl, however, was +privileged; she was Bobby Benlew's dearest friend, and my lord loved the +boy; with whom nothing could be done at school, nor could a tutor at +Olmer control him. In fine, Bobby saddened the family and gained the +earl's anxious affection by giving daily proofs of his being an Ormont +in a weak frame; patently an Ormont, recurrently an invalid. His moral +qualities hurled him on his physical deficiencies. The local doctor and +Dr. Rewkes banished him twice to the seashore, where he began to bloom +the first week and sickened the next, for want of playfellows, jolly +fights and friendships. Ultimately they prescribed mountain air, Swiss +air, easy travelling to Switzerland, and several weeks of excursions at +the foot of the Alps. Bobby might possibly get an aged tutor, or find an +English clergyman taking pupils, on the way. + +Thus it happened, that seven years after his bereavement, Lord Ormont and +Philippa and Bobby were on the famous Bernese Terrace, grandest of +terrestrial theatres where soul of man has fronting him earth's utmost +majesty. Sublime: but five minutes of it fetched sounds as of a plug in +an empty phial from Bobby's bosom, and his heels became electrical. + +He was observed at play with a gentleman of Italian complexion. Past +guessing how it had come about, for the gentleman was an utter stranger. +He had at any rate the tongue of an Englishman. He had the style, too, +the slang and cries and tricks of an English schoolboy, though visibly a +foreigner. And he had the art of throwing his heart into that bit of +improvised game, or he would never have got hold of Bobby, shrewd to read +a masker. + +Lugged-up by the boy to my lord and the young lady, he doffed and bowed. +'Forgive me, pray,' he said; 'I can't see an English boy without having a +spin with him; and I make so bold as to speak to English people wherever +I meet them, if they give me the chance. Bad manners? Better than that. +You are of the military profession, sir, I see. I am a soldier, fresh +from Monte Video. Italian, it is evident, under an Italian chief there. +A clerk on a stool, and hey presto plunged into the war a month after, +shouldering a gun and marching. Fifteen battles in eighteen months; and +Death a lady at a balcony we kiss hands to on the march below. Not a bit +more terrible! Ah, but your pardon, sir,' he hastened to say, observing +rigidity on the features of the English gentleman; 'would I boast? Not +I. Accept it as my preface for why I am moved to speak the English +wherever I meet them:--Uruguay, Buenos Ayres, La Plata, or Europe. +I cannot resist it. At least, he bent gracefully, 'I do not. We come +to the grounds of my misbehaviour. I have shown at every call I fear +nothing, kiss hand of welcome or adieu to Death. And I, a boy of the +age of this youngster--he 's not like me, I can declare!--I was a sneak +and a coward. It follows, I was a liar and a traitor. Who cured me of +that vileness, that scandal? I will tell you--an Englishman and an +Englishwoman: my schoolmaster and his wife. My schoolmaster--my friend! +He is the comrade of his boys: English, French, Germans, Italians, a +Spaniard in my time--a South American I have sent him--two from Boston, +Massachusetts--and clever!--all emulous to excel, none boasting. But, +to myself; I was that mean fellow. I did--I could let you know: before +this young lady--she would wither me with her scorn, Enough, I sneaked, +I lied. I let the blame fall on a schoolfellow and a housemaid. Oh! +a small thing, but I coveted it--a scarf. It reminded me of Rome. +Enough, there at the bottom of that pit, behold me. It was not +discovered, but my schoolfellow was unpunished, the housemaid remained in +service; I thought, I thought, and I thought until I could not look in my +dear friend Matthew's face. He said to me one day: "Have you nothing to +tell me, Giulio?" as if to ask the road to right or left. Out it all +came. And no sermon, no! He set me the hardest task I could have. That +was a penance!--to go to his wife, and tell it all to her. Then I did +think it an easier thing to go and face death--and death had been my +nightmare. I went, she listened, she took my hand she said: "You will +never do this again, I know, Giulio." She told me no English girl would +ever look on a man who was a coward and lied. From that day I have made +Truth my bride. And what the consequence? I know not fear! I could +laugh, knowing I was to lie down in my six-foot measure to-morrow. If I +have done my duty and look in the face of my dear Matthew and his wife! +Ah, those two! They are loved. They will be loved all over Europe. He +works for Europe and America--all civilized people--to be one country. +He is the comrade of his boys. Out of school hours, it is Christian +names all round--Matthew, Emile, Adolf, Emilio, Giulio, Robert, Marcel, +Franz, et caetera. Games or lessons, a boy can't help learning with him. +He makes happy fellows and brave soldiers of them without drill. Sir, do +I presume when I say I have your excuse for addressing you because you +are his countryman? I drive to the old school in half an hour, and next +week he and his dear wife and a good half of the boys will be on the +tramp over the Simplon, by Lago Maggiore, to my uncle's house in Milan +for a halt. I go to Matthew before I see my own people.' + +He swept another bow of apology, chiefly to Philippa, as representative +of the sex claiming homage. + +Lord Ormont had not greatly relished certain of the flowery phrases +employed by this young foreigner. 'Truth his bride,' was damnable: +and if a story had to be told, he liked it plain, without jerks and +evolutions. Many offences to our taste have to be overlooked in +foreigners--Italians! considered, before they were proved in fire, +a people classed by nature as operatic declaimers. Bobby had shown +himself on the road out to Bern a difficult boy, and stupefyingly +ignorant. My lord had two or three ideas working to cloudy combination +in his head when he put a question, referring to the management of the +dormitories at the school. Whereupon the young Italian introduced +himself as Giulio Calliani, and proposed a drive to inspect the old +school, with its cricket and football fields, lake for rowing and +swimming, gymnastic fixtures, carpenter's shed, bowling alley, and four +European languages in the air by turns daily; and the boys, too, all the +boys rosy and jolly, according to the last report received of them from +his friend Matthew. Enthusiasm struck and tightened the loose chord of +scepticism in Lord Ormont; somewhat as if a dancing beggar had entered a +kennel-dog's yard, designing to fascinate the faithful beast. It is a +chord of one note, that is tightened to sound by the violent summons to +accept, which is a provocation to deny. At the same time, the +enthusiast's dance is rather funny; he is not an ordinary beggar; to see +him trip himself in his dance would be rather funnier. This is to say, +inspect the trumpeted school and retire politely. My lord knew the Bern +of frequent visits: the woman was needed beside him to inspire a feeling +for scenic mountains. Philippa's admiration of them was like a new- +pressed grape-juice after a draught of the ripe vintage. Moreover, Bobby +was difficult: the rejected of his English schools was a stiff Ormont at +lessons, a wheezy Benlew in the playground: exactly the reverse of what +should have been. A school of four languages in bracing air, if a school +with healthy dormitories, and a school of the trained instincts we call +gentlemanly, might suit Master Bobby for a trial. An eye on the boys of +the school would see in a minute what stuff they were made of. Supposing +this young Italianissimo with the English tongue to be tolerably near the +mark, with a deduction of two-thirds of the enthusiasm, Bobby might stop +at the school as long as his health held out, or the master would keep +him. Supposing half a dozen things and more, the meeting with this Mr. +Calliand was a lucky accident. But lucky accidents are anticipated only +by fools. + +Lord Ormont consented to visit the school. He handed his card and +invited his guest; he had a carriage in waiting for the day, he said; +and obedient to Lady Charlotte's injunctions, he withheld Philippa from +the party. She and her maid were to pass the five hours of his absence +in efforts to keep their monkey Bobby out of the well of the solicitious +bears. + +My lord left his carriage at the inn of the village lying below the +school-house on a green height. The young enthusiast was dancing him +into the condition of livid taciturnity, which could, if it would, flash +out pungent epigrams of the actual world at Operatic recitative. + +'There's the old school-clock! Just in time for the half-hour before +dinner,' said Calliani, chattering two hundred to the minute, of the +habits and usages of the school, and how all had meals together, the +master, his wife, the teachers, the boys. 'And she--as for her!' +Calliani kissed finger up to the furthest skies: into which a self- +respecting sober Northener of the Isles could imagine himself to kick +enthusiastic gesticulators, if it were polite to do so. + +The school-house faced the master's dwelling house, and these, with a +block of building, formed a three-sided enclosure, like barracks! Forth +from the school-house door burst a dozen shouting lads, as wasps from the +hole of their nest from a charge of powder. Out they poured whizzing; +and the frog he leaped, and pussy ran and doubled before the hounds, and +hockey-sticks waved, and away went a ball. Cracks at the ball anyhow, +was the game for the twenty-five minutes breather before dinner. + +'French day!' said Calliani, hearing their cries. Then he bellowed +'Matthew!--Giulio !' + +A lusty inversion of the order of the names and an Oberland jodel +returned his hail. The school retreating caught up the Alpine cry +in the distance. Here were lungs! Here were sprites! + +Lord Ormont bethought him of the name of the master. 'Mr. Matthew, I +think you said, sir,' he was observing to Calliani, as the master came +nearer; and Calliani replied: 'His Christian name. But if the boys are +naughty boys, it is not the privilege. Mr. Weyburn.' + +There was not any necessity to pronounce that name Calliani spoke it on +the rush to his friend. + +Lord Ormont and Weyburn advanced the steps to the meeting. Neither of +them flinched in eye or limb. + +At a corridor window of the dwelling-house a lady stood. Her colour was +the last of a summer day over western seas; her thought: 'It has come!' +Her mind was in her sight; her other powers were frozen. + +The two men conversed. There was no gesture. + +This is one of the lightning moments of life for the woman, at the +meeting of the two men between whom her person has been in dispute, may +still be; her soul being with one. And that one, dearer than the blood +of her body, imperilled by her. + +She could ask why she exists, if a question were in her grasp. She would +ask for the meaning of the gift of beauty to the woman, making her +desireable to those two men, making her a cause of strife, a thing of +doom. An incessant clamour dinned about her: 'It has come!' + +The two men walked conversing into the school-house. She was unconscious +of the seeing of a third, though she saw and at the back of her mind +believed she knew a friend in him. The two disappeared. She was +insensible stone, except for the bell-clang: 'It has come'; until they +were in view again, still conversing: and the first of her thought to +stir from petrifaction was: 'Life holds no secret.' + +She tried, in shame of the inanimate creature she had become, +to force herself to think: and had, for a chastising result, a series +of geometrical figures shooting across her brain, mystically expressive +of the situation, not communicably. The most vivid and persistent was a +triangle. Interpret who may. The one beheld the two pass from view +again, still conversing. + +They are on the gravel; they bow; they separate. He of the grey head +poised high has gone. + +Her arm was pressed by a hand. Weyburn longed to enfold her, and she +desired it, and her soul praised him for refraining. Both had that +delicacy. + +'You have seen, my darling,' Weyburn said. 'It has come, and we take our +chance. He spoke not one word, beyond the affairs of the school. He has +a grandnephew in want of a school: visited the dormitories, refectory, +and sheds: tasted the well-water, addressed me as Mr. Matthew. He had it +from Giulio. Came to look at the school of Giulio's "friend Matthew,": +--you hear him. Giulio little imagines!--Well, dear love, we stand with +a squad in front, and wait the word. It mayn't be spoken. We have +counted long before that something like it was bound to happen. And +you are brave. Ruin's an empty word for us two.' + +'Yes, dear, it is: we will pay what is asked of us,' Aminta said. 'It +will be heavy, if the school . . . and I love our boys. I am fit to +be the school-housekeeper; for nothing else.' + +'I will go to the boys' parents. At the worst, we can march into new +territory. Emile will stick to us. Adolf, too. The fresh flock will +come.' + +Aminta cried in the voice of tears: 'I love the old so!' + +'The likelihood is, we shall hear nothing further.' + +'You had to bear the shock, Matthew.' + +'Whatever I bore, and you saw, you shared.' + +'Yes,' she said. + +'Mais, n'oublions pas que c'est aujourd'hui jour francais; si, madame, +vous avez assez d'appetit pour diner avec nous? + +'Je suis, comme toujours, aux ordres de Monsieur.' She was among the +bravest of women. She had a full ounce of lead in her breast when she +sat with the boys at their midday meal, showing them her familiar +pleasant face. + +Shortly after the hour of the evening meal, a messenger from Bern +delivered a letter addressed to the Headmaster. Weyburn and Aminta were +strolling to the playground, thinking in common, as they usually did. +They read the letter together. These were the lines: + +'Lord Ormont desires to repeat his sense of obligation to Mr. Matthew for +the inspection of the school under his charge, and will be thankful to +Mr. Calliani, if that gentleman will do him the favour to call at his +hotel at Bern to-morrow, at as early an hour as is convenient to him, for +the purpose of making arrangements, agreeable to the Head-master's rules, +for receiving his grandnephew Robert Benlew as a pupil at the school.' + +The two raised eyes on one another, pained in their deep joy by the +religion of the restraint upon their hearts, to keep down the passion to +embrace. + +'I thank heaven we know him to be one of the true noble men,' said +Aminta, now breathing, and thanking Lord Ormont for the free breath +she drew. + +Weyburn spoke of an idea he had gathered from the earl's manner. But he +had not imagined the proud lord's great-heartedness would go so far as to +trust him with the guardianship of the boy. That moved, and that humbled +him, though it was far from humiliating. + +Six months later, the brief communication arrived from Lady Charlotte + +'She is a widow. + +'Unlikely you will hear from me again. Death is always next door, you +said once. I look on the back of life. + +'Tell Bobby, capital for him to write he has no longing for home +holidays. If any one can make a man of him, you will. That I know. + + 'CHARLOTTE EGLETT.' + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + + +Affected misapprehensions +Any excess pushes to craziness +Bad laws are best broken +Being in heart and mind the brother to the sister with women +Bounds of his intelligence closed their four walls +Boys, of course--but men, too! +But had sunk to climb on a firmer footing +Challenged him to lead up to her desired stormy scene +Could we--we might be friends +Death is always next door +Desire of it destroyed it +Detestable feminine storms enveloping men weak enough +Distaste for all exercise once pleasurable +Divided lovers in presence +Enthusiasm struck and tightened the loose chord of scepticism +Exult in imagination of an escape up to the moment of capture +Greatest of men; who have to learn from the loss of the woman +He gave a slight sign of restiveness, and was allowed to go +He had gone, and the day lived again for both of them +I look on the back of life +I married a cook She expects a big appetite +I want no more, except to be taught to work +If the world is hostile we are not to blame it +Increase of dissatisfaction with the more she got +Learn--principally not to be afraid of ideas +Look well behind +Lucky accidents are anticipated only by fools +Magnify an offence in the ratio of our vanity +Man who helps me to read the world and men as they are +Meant to vanquish her with the dominating patience +Napoleon's treatment of women is excellent example +Necessity's offspring +One has to feel strong in a delicate position +Our love and labour are constantly on trial +Perhaps inspire him, if he would let her breathe +Person in another world beyond this world of blood +Practical for having an addiction to the palpable +Screams of an uninjured lady +Selfishness and icy inaccessibility to emotion +She had a thirsting mind +She had to be the hypocrite or else--leap +Silence was doing the work of a scourge +Smile she had in reserve for serviceable persons +Snatch her from a possessor who forfeited by undervaluing her +So says the minute Years are before you +The next ten minutes will decide our destinies +The woman side of him +There are women who go through life not knowing love +There is no history of events below the surface +They want you to show them what they 'd like the world to be +Things are not equal +Titles showered on the women who take free breath of air +Violent summons to accept, which is a provocation to deny +We don't go together into a garden of roses +Why he enjoyed the privilege of seeing, and was not beside her +Women are happier enslaved +World against us It will not keep us from trying to serve +Years are the teachers of the great rocky natures + + +[The End] + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 4481 *** diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6312041 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This eBook, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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CONCLUSION + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +LOVERS MATED + +He was benevolently martial, to the extent of paternal, in thinking his +girl, of whom he deigned to think now as his countess, pardonably +foolish. Woman for woman, she was of a pattern superior to the world's +ordinary, and might run the world's elect a race. But she was pitifully +woman-like in her increase of dissatisfaction with the more she got. +Women are happier enslaved. Men, too, if their despot is an Ormont. +Colonel of his regiment, he proved that: his men would follow him +anywhere, do anything. Grand old days, before he was condemned by one +knows not what extraordinary round of circumstances to cogitate on women +as fluids, and how to cut channels for them, that they may course along +in the direction good for them, imagining it their pretty wanton will to +go that way! Napoleon's treatment of women is excellent example. +Peterborough's can be defended. + +His Aminta could not reason. She nursed a rancour on account of the blow +she drew on herself at Steignton, and she declined consolation in her +being pardoned. The reconcilement evidently was proposed as a finale of +one of the detestable feminine storms enveloping men weak enough to let +themselves be dragged through a scene for the sake of domestic +tranquillity. + +A remarkable exhibition of Aminta the woman was, her entire change of +front since he had taken her spousal chill. Formerly she was passive, +merely stately, the chiselled grande dame, deferential in her bearing +and speech, even when argumentative and having an opinion to plant. +She had always the independent eye and step; she now had the tongue of +the graceful and native great lady, fitted to rule her circle and hold +her place beside the proudest of the Ormonts. She bore well the small +shuffle with her jewel-box--held herself gallantly. There had been no +female feignings either, affected misapprehensions, gapy ignorances, and +snaky subterfuges, and the like, familiar to men who have the gentle +twister in grip. Straight on the line of the thing to be seen she flew, +and struck on it; and that is a woman's martial action. He would right +heartily have called her comrade, if he had been active himself. +A warrior pulled off his horse, to sit in a chair and contemplate the +minute evolutions of the sex is pettish with his part in such battle- +fields at the stage beyond amusement. + +Seen swimming, she charmed him. Abstract views of a woman summon +opposite advocates: one can never say positively, That is she! But the +visible fair form of a woman is hereditary queen of us. We have none of +your pleadings and counter-pleadings and judicial summaries to obstruct a +ravenous loyalty. My lord beheld Aminta take her three quick steps on +the plank, and spring and dive and ascend, shaking the ends of her bound +black locks; and away she went with shut mouth and broad stroke of her +arms into the sunny early morning river; brave to see, although he had to +flick a bee of a question, why he enjoyed the privilege of seeing, and +was not beside her. The only answer confessed to a distaste for all +exercise once pleasurable. + +She and her little friend boated or strolled through the meadows during +the day; he fished. When he and Aminta rode out for the hour before +dinner, she seemed pleased. She was amicable, conversable, all that was +agreeable as a woman, and she was the chillest of wives. My lord's +observations and reflections came to one conclusion: she pricked and +challenged him to lead up to her desired stormy scene. He met her and +meant to vanquish her with the dominating patience Charlotte had found +too much for her: women cannot stand against it. + +To be patient in contention with women, however, one must have a +continuous and an exclusive occupation; and the tax it lays on us +conduces usually to impatience with men. My lord did not directly +connect Aminta's chillness and Morsfield's impudence; yet the sensation +roused by his Aminta participated in the desire to punish Morsfield +speedily. Without wishing for a duel, he was moved by the social +sanction it had to consider whether green youths and women might not +think a grey head had delayed it too long. The practice of the duel +begot the peculiar animal logic of the nobler savage, which tends to +magnify an offence in the ratio of our vanity, and hunger for a blood +that is not demanded by the appetite. Moreover, a waning practice, in +disfavour with the new generation, will be commended to the conservative +barbarian, as partaking of the wisdom of his fathers. Further, too, we +may have grown slothful, fallen to moodiness, done excess of service to +Omphale, our tyrant lady of the glow and the chill; and then undoubtedly +the duel braces. + +He left Aminta for London, submissive to the terms of intimacy dictated +by her demeanour, his unacknowledged seniority rendering their harshness +less hard to endure. She had not gratified him with a display of her +person in the glitter of the Ormont jewels; and since he was, under +common conditions, a speechless man, his ineptitude for amorous +remonstrances precipitated him upon deeds, that he might offer additional +proofs of his esteem and the assurance of her established position as his +countess. He proposed to engage Lady Charlotte in a conflict severer +than the foregoing, until he brought her to pay the ceremonial visit to +her sister-in-law. The count of time for this final trial of his +masterfulness he calculated at a week. It would be an occupation, +miserable occupation though it was. He hailed the prospect of chastising +Morsfield, for a proof that his tussels with women, prolonged study of +their tricks, manoeuvrings and outwittings of them, had not emasculated +him. + +Aminta willingly promised to write from day to day. Her senses had his +absence insured to them by her anticipation of the task. She did not +conceive it would be so ponderous a task. What to write to him when +nothing occurred! Nothing did occur, unless the arrival of Mr. Weyburn +was to be named an event. She alluded to it: 'Mr. Weyburn has come, +expecting to find you here. The dispatch-box is here. Is he to await +you?' + +That innocent little question was a day gained. + +One day of boating on the upper reaches of the pastoral river, and walks +in woods and golden meadows, was felicity fallen on earth, the ripe fruit +of dreams. A dread surrounded it, as a belt, not shadowing the horizon; +and she clasped it to her heart the more passionately, like a mother her +rosy infant, which a dark world threatens and the universal fate. + +Love, as it will be at her June of life, was teaching her to know the +good and bad of herself. Women, educated to embrace principles through +their timidity and their pudency, discover, amazed, that these are not +lasting qualities under love's influence. The blushes and the fears take +flight. The principles depend much on the beloved. Is he a man whose +contact with the world has given him understanding of life's laws, and +can hold him firm to the right course in the strain and whirling of a +torrent, they cling to him, deeply they worship. And if they tempt him, +it is not advisedly done. Nature and love are busy in conjunction. The +timidities and pudencies have flown; they may hover, they are not +present. You deplore it, you must not blame; you have educated them so. +Muscular principles are sown only out in the world; and, on the whole, +with all their errors, the worldly men are the truest as well as the +bravest of men. Her faith in his guidance was equal to her dependence. +The retrospect of a recent journey told her how he had been tried. + +She could gaze tenderly, betray her heart, and be certain of safety. +Can wine match that for joy? She had no schemes, no hopes, but simply +the desire to bestow, the capacity to believe. Any wish to be enfolded +by him was shapeless and unlighted, unborn; though now and again for some +chance word or undefined thought she surprised the strange tenant of her +breast at an incomprehensibly faster beat, and knew it for her own and +not her own, the familiar the stranger--an utter stranger, as one who had +snared her in a wreath and was pulling her off her feet. + +She was not so guileless at the thought of little Selina Collett here, +and of Selina as the letter-bearer of old; and the marvel that Matey and +Browny and Selina were together after all! Was it not a kind of summons +to her to call him Matey just once, only once, in play? She burned and +ached to do it. She might have taxed her ingenuity successfully to +induce little Selina to the boldness of calling him Matey--and she then +repeating it, as the woman who revived with a meditative effort +recollections of the girl. Ah, frightful hypocrite! Thoughts of the +pleasure of his name aloud on her lips in his hearing dissolved through +her veins, and were met by Matthew Weyburn's open face, before which +hypocrisy stood rent and stripped. She preferred the calmer, the truer +pleasure of seeing him modestly take lessons in the nomenclature of +weeds, herbs, grasses, by hedge and ditch. Selina could instruct him as +well in entomology, but he knew better the Swiss, Tyrolese, and Italian +valley-homes of beetle and butterfly species. Their simple talk was a +cool zephyr fanning Aminta. + +The suggestion to unite the two came to her, of course, but their +physical disparity denied her that chance to settle her own difficulty, +and a whisper of one physically the match for him punished her. In +stature, in healthfulness, they were equals, perhaps: not morally or +intellectually. And she could claim headship of him on one little point +confided to her by his mother, who was bearing him, and startled by the +boom of guns under her pillow, when her husband fronted the enemy: +Matthew Weyburn, the fencer, boxer, cricketer, hunter, all things manly, +rather shrank from firearms--at least, one saw him put on a screw to +manipulate them. In danger--among brigands or mutineers, for example-- +she could stand by him and prove herself his mate. Intellectually, +morally, she had to bow humbly. Nor had she, nor could she do more than +lean on and catch example from his prompt spiritual valiancy. It shone +out from him, and a crisis fulfilled the promise. Who could be his mate +for cheerful courage, for skill, the ready mind, easy adroitness, and for +self-command? To imitate was a woman's utmost. + +Matthew Weyburn appeared the very Matey of the first of May cricketing +day among Cuper's boys the next morning, when seen pacing down the +garden-walk. He wore his white trousers of that happiest of old days-- +the 'white ducks' Aminta and Selina remembered. Selina beamed. 'Yes, he +did; he always wore them; but now it's a frock-coat instead of a jacket.' + +'But now he will be a master instead of a schoolboy,' said Aminta. +'Let us hope he will prosper.' + +'He gives me the idea of a man who must succeed,' Selina said; and she +was patted, rallied, asked how she had the idea, and kissed; Aminta +saying she fancied it might be thought, for he looked so confident. + +'Only not what the boys used to call "cocky,"' said Selina. 'He won't be +contemptuous of those he outstrips.' + +'His choice of the schoolmaster's profession points to a modesty in him, +does it not, little woman?' + +'He made me tell him, while you were writing your letters yesterday, all +about my brother and his prospects.' + +'Yes, that is like him. And I must hear of your brother, "little +Collett." Don't forget, Sely, little Collett was our postman.' + +The Countess of Ormont's humorous reference to the circumstance passed +with Selina for a sign of a poetic love of the past, and a present social +elevation that allowed her to review it impassively. She admired the +great lady and good friend who could really be interested in the fortunes +of a mere schoolmaster and a merchant's clerk. To her astonishment, by +some agency beyond her fathoming, she found herself, and hardly for her +own pleasure, pushing the young schoolmaster animatedly to have an +account of his aims in the establishment of the foreign school. + +Weyburn smiled. He set a short look at Aminta; and she, conscious of her +detected diplomacy, had an inward shiver, mixed of the fascination and +repugnance felt by a woman who knows that under one man's eyes her +character is naked and anatomized. Her character?--her soul. He held it +in hand and probed it mercifully. She had felt the sweet sting again and +again, and had shrunk from him, and had crawled to him. The love of him +made it all fascination. How did he learn to read at any moment right to +the soul of a woman? Did experience teach him, or sentimental sympathy? +He was too young, he was too manly. It must be because of his being in +heart and mind the brother to the sister with women. + +Thames played round them on his pastoral pipes. Bee-note and woodside +blackbird and meadow cow, and the fish of the silver rolling rings, +composed the leap of the music. + +She gave her mind to his voice, following whither it went; half was in +air, higher than the swallow's, exalting him. + +How is it he is the brother of women? They are sisters for him because +he is neither sentimentalist nor devourer. He will not flatter to feed +on them. The one he chooses, she will know love. There are women who go +through life not knowing love. They are inanimate automatic machines, +who lay them down at last, inquiring wherefore they were caused to move. +She is not of that sad flock. She will be mated; she will have the right +to call him Matey. A certain Browny called him Matey. She lived and +died. A certain woman apes Browny's features and inherits her passion, +but has forfeited her rights. Were she, under happiest conditions, +to put her hand in his, shame would burn her. For he is just--he is +Justice; and a woman bringing him less than his due, she must be a +creature of the slime! + +This was the shadowy sentiment that made the wall of division between +them. There was no other. Lord Ormont had struck to fragments that +barrier of the conventional oath and ceremonial union. He was unjust-- +he was Injustice. The weak may be wedded, they cannot be married; to +Injustice. And if we have the world for the buttress of injustice, then +is Nature the flaring rebel; there is no fixed order possible. Laws are +necessary instruments of the majority; but when they grind the sane human +being to dust for their maintenance, their enthronement is the rule of +the savage's old deity, sniffing blood-sacrifice. There cannot be a +based society upon such conditions. An immolation of the naturally +constituted individual arrests the general expansion to which we step, +decivilizes more, and is more impious to the God in man, than temporary +revelries of a licence that Nature soon checks. + +Arrows of thoughts resembling these shot over the half of Aminta's mind +not listening. Her lover's head was active on the same theme while he +spoke. They converged to it from looks crossing or catching profiles, +or from tones, from a motion of hand, from a chance word. Insomuch that +the third person present was kept unobservant only by her studious and +humble speculations on the young schoolmaster's grand project to bring +the nationalities together, and teach Old England to the Continent--the +Continent to Old England: our healthy games, our scorn of the lie, +manliness; their intellectual valour, diligence, considerate manners. + +'Just to name a few of the things for interchange,' said Weyburn. 'As to +method, we shall be their disciples. But I look forward to our fellows +getting the lead. No hurry. Why will they? you ask in petto. Well, +they 're emulous, and they take a thrashing kindly. That 's the way to +learn a lesson. I 've seen our fellows beaten and beaten--never the +courage beaten out of them. In the end, they won and kept the field. +They have a lot to learn--principally not to be afraid of ideas. They +lose heaps of time before they can feel at home with ideas. They call +themselves practical for having an addiction to the palpable. It is a +pretty wreath they clap on their deficiencies. Practical dogs are for +bones, horses for corn. I want the practical Englishman to settle his +muzzle in a nosebag of ideas. When he has once got hold of them, he +makes good stuff of them. On the Continent ideas have wings and pay +visits. Here, they're stay-at-home. Then I want our fellows to have the +habit of speaking from the chest. They shall return to England with the +whoop of the mountains in them and ready to jump out. They shall have +an Achillean roar; and they shall sing by second nature. Don't fear: +they'll give double for anything they take. I've known Italians, to whom +an Englishman's honesty of mind and dealing was one of the dreams of a +better humanity they had put in a box. Frenchmen, too, who, when they +came to know us, were astonished at their epithet of perfide, and loved +us.' + +'Emile,' said Aminta. 'You remember Emile, Selina: the dear little +French boy at Mr. Cuper's?' + +'Oh, I do,' Selina responded. + +'He will work with Mr. Weyburn in Switzerland.' + +'Oh, that will be nice!' the girl exclaimed. + +Aminta squeezed Selina's hand. A shower of tears clouded her eyes. She +chose to fancy it was because of her envy of the modest, busy, peaceful +girl, who envied none. Conquers also sincerity in the sincerest. She +was vexed with her full breast, and had as little command of her thoughts +as of her feelings. + +'Mr. Weyburn has ideas for the education of girls too,' she said. + +'There's the task,' said he. 'It's to separate them as little as +possible. All the--passez-moi le mot--devilry between the sexes begins +at their separation. They 're foreigners when they meet; and their +alliances are not always binding. The chief object in life, if happiness +be the aim, and the growing better than we are, is to teach men and women +how to be one; for, if they 're not, then each is a morsel for the other +to prey on. Lady Charlotte Eglett's view is, that the greater number of +them on both sides hate one another.' + +'Hate!' exclaimed Selina; and Aminta said: 'Is Lady Charlotte Eglett an +authority?' + +'She has observed, and she thinks. She has in the abstract the justest +of minds: and that is the curious point about her. But one may say they +are trained at present to be hostile. Some of them fall in love and +strike a truce, and still they are foreigners. They have not the same +standard of honour. They might have it from an education in common.' + +'But there must be also a lady to govern the girls?' Selina interposed. + +'Ah, yes; she is not yet found!' + +'Would it increase their mutual respect?--or show of respect, if you +like?' said Aminta, with his last remark at work as the shattering bell +of a city's insurrection in her breast. + +'In time, under management; catching and grouping them young. A boy who +sees a girl do what he can't, and would like to do, won't take refuge in +his muscular superiority--which, by the way, would be lessened.' + +'You suppose their capacities are equal?' + +'Things are not equal. I suppose their excellencies to make a pretty +nearly equal sum in the end. But we 're not weighing them each. The +question concerns the advantage of both.' + +'That seems just!' + +Aminta threw no voice into the word 'just.' It was the word of the +heavens assuaging earth's thirst, and she was earth to him. Her soul +yearned to the man whose mind conceived it. + +She said to Selina: 'We must plan an expedition next year or the year +after, and see how the school progresses.' + +All three smiled; and Selina touched and held Aminta's hand shyly. +Visions of the unseen Switzerland awed her. + +Weyburn named the Spring holiday time, the season of the flowering Alpine +robes. He promised welcome, pressed for a promise of the visit. Warmly +it was given. 'We will; we will indeed!' + +'I shall look forward,' he said. + +There was nothing else for him or for her, except to doat on the passing +minute that slipped when seized. The looking forward turned them to the +looking back at the point they had flown from, and yielded a momentary +pleasure, enough to stamp some section of a picture on their memories, +which was not the burning now Love lives for, in the clasp, if but of +hands. Desire of it destroyed it. They swung to the future, swung to +the present it made the past, sensible to the quick of the now they could +not hold. They were lovers. Divided lovers in presence, they thought +and they felt in pieces. Feelings and thoughts were forbidden to speech. +She dared look the very little of her heart's fulness, without the +disloyalty it would have been in him to let a small peep of his heart be +seen. While her hand was not clasped she could look tenderly, and her +fettered state, her sense of unworthiness muffled in the deeps, would +keep her from the loosening to passion. + +He who read through her lustrous, transiently dwelling eyes had not that +security. His part, besides the watch over the spring of his hot blood, +was to combat a host, insidious among which was unreason calling her +Browny, urging him to take his own, to snatch her from a possessor who +forfeited by undervaluing her. This was the truth in a better-ordered +world: she belonged to the man who could help her to grow and to do her +work. But in the world we have around us, it was the distorted truth: +and keeping passion down, he was able to wish her such happiness as +pertained to safety from shipwreck, and for himself, that he might +continue to walk in the ranks of the sober citizens. + +Oh, true and right, but she was gloriously beautiful! Day by day she +surpassed the wondrous Browny of old days. All women were eclipsed by +her. She was that fire in the night which lights the night and draws the +night to look at it. And more: this queen of women was beginning to have +a mind at work. One saw already the sprouting of a mind repressed. She +had a distinct ability; the good ambition to use her qualities. She +needed life and air--that is, comprehension of her, encouragement, the +companion mate. With what strength would she now endow him! The pride +in the sharp imagination of possessing her whispered a boast of the +strength her mate would have from her. His need and her need rushed +together somewhere down the skies. They could not, he argued, be +separated eternally. + +He had to leave her. Selina, shocked at a boldness she could not +understand in herself, begged him to stay and tell her of Switzerland +and Alpine flowers and herbs, and the valleys for the gold beetle and +the Apollo butterfly. Aminta hinted that Lord Ormont might expect to +find him there, if he came the next morning; but she would not try to +persuade, and left the decision with him, loving him for the pain he +inflicted by going. + +Why, indeed, should he stay? Both could ask; they were one in asking. +Anguish balanced pleasure in them both. The day of the pleasure was +heaven to remember, heaven to hope for; not so heavenly to pray for. +The praying for it, each knew, implored their joint will to decree the +perilous blessing. A shadowy sentiment of duty and rectitude, born of +what they had suffered, hung between them and the prayer for a renewal, +that would renew the tempting they were conscious of when the sweet, the +strained, throbbing day was over. They could hope for chance to renew +it, and then they would be irresponsible. Then they would think and wish +discreetly, so as to have it a happiness untainted. In refusing now to +take another day or pray for it, they deserved that chance should grant +it. + +Aminta had said through Selina the utmost her self-defences could allow. +But the idea of a final parting cut too cruelly into her life, and she +murmured: 'I shall see you before you go for good?' + +'I will come, here or in London.' + +'I can trust?' + +'Quite certain.' + +A meeting of a few hasty minutes involved none of the dangers of a sunny, +long summer day; and if it did, the heart had its claims, the heart had +its powers of resistance. Otherwise we should be base verily. + +He turned on a bow to leave her before there was a motion for the offer +of her hand. + +After many musings and frettings, she reached the wisdom of that. Wisdom +was her only nourishment now. A cold, lean dietary it is; but he +dispensed it, and it fed her, or kept her alive. It became a proud +feeling that she had been his fellow in the achievement of a piece of +wisdom; though the other feeling, that his hand's kind formal touching, +without pressure of hers, would have warmed her to go through the next +interview with her lord, mocked at pure satisfaction. Did he distrust +himself? Or was it to spare her? But if so, her heart was quite bare +to him! But she knew it was. + +Aminta drove her questioning heart as a vessel across blank circles of +sea, where there was nothing save the solitary heart for answer. It +answered intelligibly and comfortingly at last, telling her of proof +given that she could repose under his guidance with absolute faith. Was +ever loved woman more blest than she in such belief? She had it firmly; +and a blessedness, too, in this surety wavering beneath shadows of the +uncertainty. Her eyes knew it, her ears were empty of the words. Her +heart knew it, and it was unconfirmed by reason. As for his venturing to +love her, he feared none. And no sooner did that reflection surge than +she stood up beside him in revolt against her lion and lord. Her +instinct judged it impossible she could ever have yielded her heart to +a man lacking courage. Hence--what? when cowardice appeared as the sole +impediment to happiness now! + +He had gone, and the day lived again for both of them--a day of sheer +gold in the translation from troubled earth to the mind. One another's +beauty through the visage into the character was newly perceived and +worshipped; and the beauties of pastoral Thames, the temple of peace, +hardly noticed in the passing of the day--taken as air to the breather; +until some chip of the scene, round which an emotion had curled, was +vivid foreground and gateway to shrouded romance: it might be the +stream's white face browning into willow-droopers, or a wagtail on a +water-lily leaf, or the fore-horse of an up-river barge at strain of +legs, a red-finned perch hung a foot above the pebbles in sun-veined +depths, a kingfisher on the scud under alders, the forest of the bankside +weeds. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +PREPARATIONS FOR A RESOLVE + +That day receded like a spent billow, and lapsed among the others +advancing, but it left a print deeper than events would have stamped. +Aminta's pen declined to run to her lord; and the dipping it in ink was +no acceleration of the process. A sentence, bearing likeness to an +artless infant's trot of the half-dozen steps to mother's lap, stumbled +upon the full stop midway. Desperate determination pushed it along, and +there was in consequence a dead stop at the head of the next sentence. +A woman whose nature is insurgent against the majesty of the man to whom +she must, among the singular injunctions binding her, regularly write, +sees no way between hypocrisy and rebellion. For rebellion, she, with +the pen in her hand, is avowedly not yet ripe, hypocrisy is abominable. + +If she abstained from writing, he might travel down to learn the cause; +a similar danger, or worse, haunted the writing frigidly. She had to be +the hypocrite or else--leap. + +But an honest woman who is a feeling woman, when she consents to play +hypocrite, cannot do it by halves. From writing a short cold letter, +Aminta wrote a short warm one, or very friendly. Length she could avoid, +because she was unable to fill a page. It seemed that she could not +compose a friendly few lines without letting her sex be felt in them. +What she had put away from her, so as not to feel it herself, the +simulation of ever so small a bit of feeling brought prominently back; +and where she had made a cast for flowing independent simplicity, she +was feminine, ultra-feminine to her reading of it. + +Better take the leap than be guilty of double-dealing even on paper! +The nature of the leap she did not examine. + +Her keen apprehension of the price payable for his benevolent intentions +caught scent of them in the air. Those Ormont jewels shone as emblems of +a detested subjection, the penalty for being the beautiful woman rageing +men proclaimed. Was there no scheme of some other sort, and far less +agreeable, to make amends for Steignton? She was shrewd at divination; +she guessed her lord's design. Rather than meet Lady Charlotte, she +proposed to herself the 'leap' immediately; knowing it must be a leap in +the dark, hoping it might be into a swimmer's water. She had her own +pin-money income, and she loathed the chain of her title. So the leap +would at least be honourable, as it assuredly would be unregretted, +whatever ensued. + +While Aminta's heart held on to this debate, and in her bed, in her boat, +across the golden valley meadows beside her peaceful little friend, she +gathered a gradual resolution without sight of agencies or consequences, +Lord Ormont was kept from her by the struggle to master his Charlotte a +second time--compared with which the first was insignificant. And this +time it was curious: he could not subdue her physique, as he did before; +she was ready for him each day, and she was animated, much more voluble, +she was ready to jest. The reason being, that she fought now on +plausibly good grounds: on behalf of her independent action. + +Previously, her intelligence of the ultimate defeat hanging over the more +stubborn defence of a weak position had harassed her to death's door. +She had no right to retain the family jewels; she had the most perfect of +established rights to refuse doing an ignominious thing. She refused to +visit the so-called Countess of Ormont, or leave her card, or take one +step to warrant the woman in speaking of her as her sister-in-law. And +no,--it did not signify that her brother Rowsley was prohibited by her +from marrying whom he pleased. It meant, that to judge of his acts as +those of a reasoning man, he would have introduced his wife to his +relatives--the relatives he had not quarrelled with--immediately upon his +marriage unless he was ashamed of the woman; and a wife he was ashamed of +was no sister-in-law for her nor aunt for her daughters. Nor should she +come playing the Black Venus among her daughters' husbands, Lady +Charlotte had it in her bosom to say additionally. + +Lord Ormont was disconcerted by her manifest pleasure in receiving him +every day. Evidently she consented to the recurrence of a vexatious +dissension for the enjoyment of having him with her hourly. Her +dialectic, too, was cunning. Impetuous with meaning, she forced her +way to get her meaning out, in a manner effective to strike her blow. +Anything for a diversion or a triumph of the moment! He made no way. +She was the better fencer at the tongue. + +Yet there was not any abatement of her deference to her brother; and this +little misunderstanding put aside, he was the Rowsley esteemed by her as +the chief of men. She foiled him, it might seem, to exalt him the more. +After he had left the house, visibly annoyed and somewhat stupefied, she +talked of him to her husband, of the soul of chivalry Rowsley was, the +loss to his country. Mr. Eglett was a witness to one of the +altercations, when she, having as usual the dialectical advantage, +praised her brother, to his face, for his magnanimous nature; regretting +only that it could be said he was weak on the woman side of him--which +was, she affirmed, a side proper to every man worth the name; but in his +case his country might complain. Of what?--Well, of a woman.--What had +she done, for the country to complain of her?--Why, then, arts or graces, +she had bewitched and weaned him from his public duty, his military +service, his patriotic ambition. + +Lord Ormont's interrogations, heightening the effect of Charlotte's +charge, appeared to Mr. Eglett as a giving of himself over into her +hands; but the earl, after a minute of silence, proved he was a tricky +combatant. It was he who had drawn on Charlotte, that he might have his +opportunity to eulogize--'this lady, whom you continue to call the woman, +after I have told you she is my wife.' According to him, her appeals, +her entreaties, that he should not abandon his profession or let his +ambition rust, had been at one period constant. + +He spoke fervently, for him eloquently; and he gained his point; he +silenced Lady Charlotte's tongue, and impressed Mr. Eglett. + +When the latter and his wife were alone, he let her see that the Countess +of Ormont was becoming a personage in his consideration. + +Lady Charlotte cried out: 'Hear these men where it's a good-looking woman +between the winds! Do you take anything Rowsley says for earnest? You +ought to know he stops at no trifle to get his advantage over you in a +dispute. That 's the soldier in him. It 's victory at any cost!--and I +like him for it. Do you tell me you think it possible my brother Rowsley +would keep smothered years under a bushel the woman he can sit here +magnifying because he wants to lime you and me: you to take his part, and +me to go and call the noble creature decked out in his fine fiction my +sister-in-law. Nothing 'll tempt me to believe my brother could behave +in such a way to the woman he respected!' + +So Mr. Eglett opined. But he had been impressed. + +He relieved his mind on the subject in a communication to Lord Adderwood; +who habitually shook out the contents of his to Mrs. Lawrence Finchley, +and she, deeming it good for Aminta to have information of the war waging +for her behoof, obtained her country address, with the resolve to drive +down, a bearer of good news to the dear woman she liked to think of, look +at, and occasionally caress; besides rather tenderly pitying her, now +that a change of fortune rendered her former trials conspicuous. + +An incident, considered grave even in the days of the duel and the kicks +against a swelling public reprehension of the practice, occurred to +postpone her drive for four-and-twenty hours. London was shaken by +rumours of a tragic mishap to a socially well-known gentleman at the +Chiallo fencing rooms. The rumours passing from mouth to mouth acquired, +in the nature of them, sinister colours as they circulated. Lord Ormont +sent Aminta word of what he called 'a bad sort of accident at Chiallo's,' +without mentioning names or alluding to suspicions. + +He treated it lightly. He could not have written of it with such +unconcern if it involved the secretary! Yet Aminta did seriously ask +herself whether he could; and she flew rapidly over the field of his +character, seizing points adverse, points favourably advocative, +balancing dubiously--most unjustly: she felt she was unjust. But in her +condition, the heart of a woman is instantly planted in jungle when the +spirits of the two men closest to her are made to stand opposed by a +sudden excitement of her fears for the beloved one. She cannot see +widely, and is one of the wild while the fit lasts; and, after it, that +savage narrow vision she had of the unbeloved retains its vivid print in +permanence. Was she unjust? Aminta cited corroboration of her being +accurate: such was Lord Ormont! and although his qualities of gallantry, +courtesy, integrity, honourable gentleman, presented a fair low-level +account on the other side, she had so stamped his massive selfishness +and icy inaccessibility to emotion on her conception of him that the +repulsive figure formed by it continued towering when her mood was +kinder. + +Love played on love in the woman's breast. Her love had taken a fever +from her lord's communication of the accident at Chiallo's, and she +pushed her alarm to imagine the deadliest, and plead for the right of +confession to herself of her unrepented regrets. She and Matey Weyburn +had parted without any pressure of hands, without a touch. They were, +then, unplighted if now the grave divided them! No touch: mere glances! +And she sighed not, as she pleaded, for the touch, but for the plighting +it would have been. If now she had lost him, he could never tell herself +that since the dear old buried and night-walking schooldays she had said +once Matey to him, named him once to his face Matey Weyburn. A sigh like +the roll of a great wave breaking against a wall of rock came from her +for the possibly lost chance of naming him to his face Matey,--oh, and +seeing his look as she said it! + +The boldness might be fancied: it could not be done. Agreeing with the +remote inner voice of her reason so far, she toned her exclamatory +foolishness to question, in Reason's plain, deep, basso-profundo +accompaniment tone, how much the most blessed of mortal women could +do to be of acceptable service to a young schoolmaster? + +There was no reply to the question. But it became a nestling centre for +the skiey flock of dreams, and for really temperate soundings of her +capacities, tending to the depreciatory. She could do little. She +entertained the wish to work, not only 'for the sake of Somebody,' as her +favourite poet sang, but for the sake of working and serving--proving +that she was helpfuller than a Countess of Ormont, ranged with all the +other countesses in china and Dresden on a drawing-room mantelpiece for +show. She could organize, manage a household, manage people too, she +thought: manage a husband? The word offends. Perhaps invigorate him, +here and there perhaps inspire him, if he would let her breathe. +Husbands exist who refuse the right of breathing to their puppet wives. +Above all, as it struck her, she could assist, and be more than an echo +of one nobler, in breathing manliness, high spirit, into boys. With that +idea she grazed the shallows of reality, and her dreams whirred from the +nest and left it hungrily empty. + +Selina Collett was writing under the verandah letters to her people in +Suffolk, performing the task with marvellous ease. Aminta noted it as a +mark of superior ability, and she had the envy of the complex nature +observing the simple. It accused her of some guiltiness, uncommitted and +indefensible. She had pushed her anxiety about 'the accident at +Chiallo's' to an extreme that made her the creature of her sensibilities. +In the midst of this quiet country life and landscape; these motionless +garden flowers headed by the smooth white river, and her gentle little +friend so homely here, the contemplation of herself was like a shriek in +music. Worse than discordant, she pronounced herself inferior, unfit +mentally as well as bodily for the dreams of companionship with any noble +soul who might have the dream of turning her into something better. +There are couples in the world, not coupled by priestly circumstance, who +are close to the true; union, by reason of generosity on the one part, +grateful devotion, as for the gift of life, on the other. For instance, +Mrs. Lawrence Finchley and Lord Adderwood, which was an instance without +resemblance; but Aminta's heart beat thick for what it wanted, and they +were the instance of two that did not have to snap false bonds of a +marriage-tie in order to walk together composedly outside it--in honour? +Oh yes, yes! She insisted on believing it was in honour. + +She saw the couple issue from the boathouse. She had stepped into the +garden full of a presentiment; so she fancied, the moment they were seen. +She had, in fact, heard a noise in the boathouse while thinking of them, +and the effect on her was to spring an idea of mysterious interventions +at the sight. + +Mrs. Lawrence rushed to her, and was embraced. 'You 're not astonished +to see me? Adder drove me down, and stopped his coach at the inn, and +rowed me the half-mile up. We will lunch, if you propose; but presently. +My dear, I have to tell you things. You have heard?' + +'The accident?' + +Aminta tried to read in Mrs. Lawrence's eyes whether it closely concerned +her. + +Those pretty eyes, their cut of lids hinting at delicate affinities with +the rice-paper lady of the court of China, were trying to peer +seriously. + +'Poor man! One must be sorry for him: he--' + +'Who?' + +'You 've not heard, then?' Mrs. Lawrence dropped her voice: 'Morsfield.' + +Aminta shivered. 'All I have heard-half a line from my lord this +morning: no name. It was at the fencing-rooms, he said.' + +'Yes, he wouldn't write more;' said Mrs. Lawrence, nodding. 'You know, +he would have had to do it himself if it had not been done for him. +Adder saw him some days back in a brown consultation near his club with +Captain May. Oh, but of course it was accident! Did he call it so in +his letter to you?' + +'One word of Mr. Morsfield: he is wounded?' + +'Past cure: he has the thing he cried for, spoilt boy as he was from his +birth. I tell you truth, m' Aminta, I grieve to lose him. What with his +airs of the foreign-tinted, punctilious courtly gentleman covering a +survival of the ancient British forest boar or bear, he was a picture in +our modern set, and piquant. And he was devoted to our sex, we must +admit, after the style of the bears. They are for honey, and they have a +hug. If he hadn't been so much of a madman, I should have liked him for +his courage. He had plenty of that, nothing to steer it. A second +cousin comes in for his estates.' + +'He is dead?' Aminta cried. + +'Yes, dear, he is gone. What the women think of it I can't say. The +general feeling among the men is that some one of them would have had to +send him sooner or later. The curious point, Adder says, is his letting +it be done by steel. He was a dead shot, dangerous with the small sword, +as your Mr. Weyburn said, only soon off his head. But I used to be +anxious about the earl's meeting him with pistols. He did his best to +provoke it. Here, Adder,'--she spoke over her shoulder,--'tell Lady +Ormont all you know of the Morsfield-May affair.' + +Lord Adderwood bowed compliance. His coolness was the masculine of Mrs. +Lawrence's hardly feminine in treating of a terrible matter, so that the +dull red facts had to be disengaged from his manner of speech before they +sank into Aminta's acceptance; of them as credible. + +'They fought with foils, buttons off, preliminary ceremonies perfect; +salute in due order; guard, and at it. + +Odd thing was, nobody at Chiallo's had a notion of the business till +Morsfield was pinked. He wouldn't be denied; went to work like a fellow +meaning to be skewered, if he couldn't do the trick: and he tried it. +May had been practising some weeks. He's well on the Continent by this +time. It'll blow over. Button off sheer accident. I wasn't lucky +enough to see the encounter: came in just when Chiallo was lashing his +poll over Morsfield flat on the ground. He had it up to the hilt. We +put a buttoned foil by the side of Morsfield, and all swore to secrecy. +As it is, it 'll go badly against poor Chiallo. Taste for fencing won't +be much improved by the affair. They quarrelled in the dressing room, +and fetched the foils and knocked off the buttons there. A big rascal +toady squire of Morsfield's did it for him. Morsfield was just up from +Yorkshire. He said he was expecting a summons elsewhere, bound to await +it, declined provocation for the present. May filliped him on the +cheek.' + +'Adder conveyed the information of her husband's flight to the consolable +Amy,' said Mrs. Lawrence. + +'He had to catch the coach for Dover,' Adderwood explained. 'His wife +was at a dinner-party. I saw her at midnight.' + +'Fair Amy was not so very greatly surprised?' + +'Quite the soldier's wife!' + +'She said she was used to these little catastrophes. But, Adder, what +did she say of her husband?' + +'Said she was never anxious about him, for nothing would kill him.' + +Mrs. Lawrence shook a doleful head at Aminta. + +'You see, my dear Aminta, here's another, and probably her last, chance +of sharing the marquisate gone. Who can fail to pity her, except old +Time! And I 'm sure she likes her husband well enough. She ought: no +woman ever had such a servant. But the captain has not been known to +fight without her sanction, and the inference is--'Alas! woe! Fair Amy +is doomed to be the fighting captain's bride to the end of the chapter. +Adder says she looked handsome. A dinner-party suits her cosmetic +complexion better than a ball. The account of the inquest is in the +day's papers, and we were tolerably rejoiced we could drive out of London +without having to reply to coroner's questions.' + +'He died-soon?' Aminta's voice was shaken. + +Mrs. Lawrence touched at her breast, it might be for heart or lungs. +Judging by Aminta's voice and face, one could suppose she was harking +back, in woman's way, to her original sentiment for the man, now that he +lay prostrate. + +Aminta read the unreproachful irony in the smile addressed to her. She +was too convulsed by her many emotions and shouting thoughts to think of +defending herself. + +Selina, in the drawing-room, diligently fingered and classed brown-black +pressed weeds of her neophyte's botany-folios. The sight of her and her +occupation struck Aminta as that of a person in another world beyond this +world of blood, strangely substantial to view; and one heard her speak. + +Guilty?--no. But she had wished to pique her lord. After the term of a +length of months, could it be that the unhappy man and she were punished +for the half-minute's acting of some interest in him? And Lord Ormont +had been seen consulting Captain May; or was it giving him directions? + +Her head burned. All the barren interrogations were up, running and +knocking for hollow responses; and, saving a paleness of face, she +cloaked any small show of the riot. She was an amiable hostess. She had +ceased to comprehend Mrs. Lawrence, even to the degree of thinking her +unfeminine. She should have known that the 'angelical chimpanzee,' as a +friend, once told of his being a favourite with the lady, had called her, +could not simulate a feeling, and had not the slightest power of pretence +to compassion for an ill-fated person who failed to quicken her +enthusiasm. In that, too, she was a downright boy. Morsfield was a kind +of Bedlamite to her; amusing in his antics, and requiring to be +manoeuvred and eluded while he lived: once dead, just a tombstone, of +interest only to his family. + +She beckoned Aminta to follow her; and, with a smirk of indulgent fun, +commended Lord Adderwood to a study of Selina Collett's botany-folios, +which the urbanest of indifferent gentlemen had slid his eyes over his +nose to inspect before the lunch. + +'You ought to know what is going on in town, my dear Aminta. You have +won the earl to a sense of his duty, and he 's at work on the harder task +of winning Lady Charlotte Eglett to a sense of hers. It 's tremendous. +Has been forward some days, and no sign of yielding on either side. Mr. +Eglett, good man, is between them, catching it right and left; and he +deserves his luck for marrying her. Vows she makes him the best of +wives. If he 's content, I 've nothing to complain of. You must be +ready to receive her; my lord is sure to carry the day. You gulp. You +won't be seeing much of her. I 'm glad to say he is condescending to +terms of peace with the Horse Guards. We hear so. You may be throning +it officially somewhere next year. And all 's well that ends well! Say +that to me!' + +'It is, when the end comes,' Aminta replied. + +Mrs. Lawrence's cool lips were pressed to her cheek. The couple and +their waterman rowed away to the party they had left with the four-in- +hand at their inn. + +A wind was rising. The trees gave their swish of leaves, the river +darkened the patch of wrinkles, the bordering flags amid the reed-blades +dipped and streamed. + +Surcharged with unassimilated news of events, that made a thunder in her +head, Aminta walked down the garden path, meeting Selina and bearing her +on. She had a witch's will to rouse gales. Hers was not the woman's +nature to be driven cowering by stories of men's bloody deeds. She took +the field, revolted, dissevering herself from the class which tolerated +them--actuated by a reflective moralty, she believed; and loathed herself +for having aspired, schemed, to be a member of the class. But it was not +the class, it was against her lord as representative of the class, +that she was now the rebel, neither naming him nor imaging him. Her +enveloping mind was black on him. Such as one of those hard slaughtering +men could call her his own? She breathed short and breathed deep. Her +bitter reason had but the common pity for a madman despatched to his +rest. Yet she knew hatred of her lord in his being suspected as +instigator or accomplice of the hand that dealt the blow. He became to +her thought a python whose coils were about her person, insufferable to +the gaze backward. + +Moments like these are the mothers in travail of a resolve joylessly +conceived, undesired to clasp, Necessity's offspring. Thunderclouds have +as little love of the lightnings they fling. + +Aminta was aware only of her torment. The trees were bending, the water +hissing, the grasses all this way and that, like hands of a delirious +people in surges of wreck. She scorned the meaningless shake of the +garments of earth, and exclaimed: 'If we were by the sea to-night!' + +'I shall be to-morrow night,' said Selina. 'I shall think of you. Oh! +would you come with me?' + +'Would you have me?' + +'My mother will indeed be honoured by your consenting to come.' + +'Write to her before the post is out.' + +'We shall travel down together?' + +Aminta nodded and smiled, and Selina kissed her hand in joy, saying, that +down home she would not be so shy of calling her Aminta. She was bidden +to haste. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +VISITS OF FAREWELL + +The noise in London over Adolphus Morsfield's tragical end disturbed Lord +Ormont much less than the cessation of letters from his Aminta; and that +likewise, considering his present business on her behalf, he patiently +shrugged at and pardoned, foreseeing her penitent air. He could do it +lightly after going some way to pardon his offending country. For Aminta +had not offended, his robust observation of her was moved to the kindly +humorous by a reflective view here and there of the downright woman her +clever little shuffles exposed her to be, not worse. It was her sex that +made her one of the gliders in grasses, some of whom are venomous; but +she belonged to the order only as an innocuous blindworm. He could +pronounce her small by-play with Morsfield innocent, her efforts to climb +the stairs into Society quite innocent; judging her, of course, by her +title of woman. A woman's innocence has a rainbow skin. Set this one +beside other women, she comes out well, fairly well, well enough. + +Now that the engagement with Charlotte assumed proportions of a series of +battle, properly to be entitled a campaign, he had, in his loneliness, +fallen into the habit of reflecting at the close of his day's work; and +the rubbing of that unused opaque mirror hanging inside a man of action +had helped him piecemeal to perceive bits of his conduct, entirely +approved by him, which were intimately connected, nevertheless, with a +train of circumstances that he disliked and could not charge justly upon +any other shoulders than his own. What was to be thought of it? He +would not be undergoing this botheration of the prolonged attempt to +bring a stubborn woman to a sense of her duty, if he had declared his +marriage in the ordinary style, and given his young countess her +legitimate place before the world. What impeded it? The shameful +ingratitude of his countrymen to the soldier who did it eminent service +at a crisis of the destinies of our Indian Empire! He could not condone +the injury done to him by entering among them again. Too like the kicked +cur, that! He retired--call it 'sulked in his tent,' if you like. His +wife had to share his fortunes. He being slighted, she necessarily was +shadowed. For a while she bore it contentedly enough; then began her +mousy scratches to get into the room off the wainscot, without blame from +him; she behaved according to her female nature. + +Yes, but the battles with Charlotte forced on his recognition once more, +and violently, the singular consequences of his retirement and Coriolanus +quarrel with his countrymen. He had doomed himself ever since to a +contest with women. First it was his Queen of Amazons, who, if +vanquished, was not so easily vanquished, and, in fact, doubtfully, +--for now, to propitiate her, he had challenged, and must overcome or be +disgraced, the toughest Amazonian warrior man could stand against at cast +of dart or lock of arms. No day scored an advantage; and she did not +apparently suffer fatigue. He did: that is to say, he was worried and +hurried to have the wrangle settled and Charlotte at Aminta's feet. He +gained not an inch of ground. His principle in a contention of the sort +was to leave the woman to the practice of her obvious artifices, and +himself simply hammer, incessantly hammer. But Charlotte hammered as +well. The modest position of the defensive negative was not to her +taste. The moment he presented himself she flew out upon some +yesterday's part of the argument and carried the war across the borders, +in attacks on his character and qualities--his weakness regarding women, +his incapacity to forgive, and the rest. She hammered on that head. As +for any prospect of a termination of the strife, he could see none in her +joyful welcome to him and regretful parting and pleased appointment of +the next meeting day after day. + +The absurdest of her devices for winding him off his aim was to harp on +some new word she had got hold of as, for example, to point out to him +his aptitudes, compliment him on his aptitudes, recommend him to study +and learn the limitations of his aptitudes! She revelled in something +the word unfolded to her. + +However, here was the point: she had to be beaten. So, if she, too, +persisted in hammering, he must employ her female weapon of artifice with +her. One would gladly avoid the stooping to it in a civil dispute, in +which one is not so gloriously absolved for lying and entrapping as in +splendid war. + +Weyburn's name was announced to him at an early hour on Thursday morning. +My lord nodded to the footman; he nodded to himself over a suggestion +started in a tactical intelligence by the name. + +'Ah! you 're off?' he accosted the young man. + +'I have come to take my leave, my lord.' + +'Nothing new in the morning papers?' + +'A report that Captain May intends to return and surrender.' + +'Not before a month has passed, if he follows my counsel.' + +'To defend his character.' + +'He has none.' + +'His reputation.' + +'He has too much.' + +'These charges against him must be intolerable.' + +'Was he not a bit of a pupil of yours?' + +'We practised two or three times-nothing more.' + +'Morsfield was a wasp at a feast. Somebody had to crush him. I 've seen +the kind of man twice in my life and exactly the kind of man. If their +law puts down duelling, he rules the kingdom!' + +'My lord, I should venture to say the kind of man can be a common +annoyance because the breach of the law is countenanced.' + +'Bad laws are best broken. A society that can't get a scouring now and +then will be a dirty set.' + +With a bend of the head, in apology for speaking of himself, Weyburn +said: 'I have acted on my view. I declined a challenge from a sort of +henchman of his.' + +'Oh! a poacher's lurcher? You did right. Fight such fellows with +constables. You have seen Lady Charlotte?' + +'I am on my way to her ladyship.' + +'Do me this favour. Fourteen doors up the street of her residence, my +physician lives. I have to consult him at once. Dr. Rewkes.' + +Weyburn bowed. Lady Charlotte could not receive him later than half-past +ten of the morning, he said. 'This morning she can,' said my lord. 'You +will tell Dr. Rewkes that it is immediate. I rather regret your going. +I shall be in a controversy with the Horse Guards about our cavalry +saddles. It would be regiments of raw backs the first fortnight of a +campaign.' + +The earl discoursed on saddles; and passed to high eulogy of our +Hanoverian auxiliary troopers in the Peninsula; 'good husbands,' he named +them quaintly, speaking of their management of their beasts. Thence he +diverged to Frederic's cavalry, rarely matched for shrewdness and +endurance; to the deeds of the Liechtenstein Hussars; to the great +things Blucher did with his horsemen. + +The subject was interesting; but Weyburn saw the clock at past the half +after ten. He gave a slight sign of restiveness, and was allowed to go +when the earl had finished his pro and con upon Arab horses and Mameluke +saddles. Lord Ormont nicked his head, just as at their first interview: +he was known to have an objection to the English shaking of hands. +'Good-morning,' he said; adding a remark or two, of which et cetera may +stand for an explicit rendering. It concerned the young man's +prosperity: my lord's conservative plain sense was in doubt of the +prospering of a giddy pate, however good a worker. His last look at the +young man, who had not served him badly, held an anticipation of possibly +some day seeing a tatterdemalion of shipwreck, a rueful exhibition of +ideas put to the business of life. + +Weyburn left the message with Dr. Rewkes in person. It had not seemed +to him that Lord Ormont was one requiring the immediate attendance of a +physician. By way of accounting to Lady Charlotte for the lateness of +his call, he mentioned the summons he had delivered. + +'Oh, that's why he hasn't come yet,' said she. 'We'll sit and talk till +he does come. I don't wonder if his bile has been stirred. He can't oil +me to credit what he pumps into others. His Lady Ormont! I believe in +it less than ever I did. Morsfield or no Morsfield--and now the poor +wretch has got himself pinned to the plank, like my grandson Bobby's +dragonflies, I don't want to say anything further of him--she doesn't +have much of a welcome at Steignton! If I were a woman to wager as men +do, I 'd stake a thousand pounds to five on her never stepping across the +threshold of Steignton. All very well in London, and that place he hires +up at Marlow. He respects our home. That 's how I know my brother +Rowsley still keeps a sane man. A fortune on it!--and so says Mr. +Eglett. Any reasonable person must think it. He made a fool of some +Hampton-Evey at Madrid, if he went through any ceremony--and that I +doubt. But she and old (what do they call her?) may have insisted upon +the title, as much as they could. He sixty; she under twenty, I'm told. +Pagnell 's the name. That aunt of a good-looking young woman sees a +noble man of sixty admiring her five feet seven or so--she's tall--of +marketable merchandise, and she doesn't need telling that at sixty he'll +give the world to possess the girl. But not his family honour! He stops +at that. Why? Lord Ormont 's made of pride! He'll be kind to her, +he'll be generous, he won't forsake her; she'll have her portion in his +will, and by the course of things in nature, she'll outlive him and +marry, and be happy, I hope. Only she won't enter Steignton. You +remember what I say. You 'll live when I 'm gone. It 's the thirst of +her life to be mistress of Steignton. Not she!--though Lord Ormont would +have us all open our doors to her; mine too, now he 's about it. He sets +his mind on his plan, and he forgets rights and dues--everything; he must +have it as his will dictates. That 's how he made such a capital +soldier. You know the cavalry leader he was. If they'd given him a +field in Europe! His enemies admit that. Twelve! and my clock's five +minutes or more slow. What can Rowsley be doing?' + +She rattled backward on the scene at Steignton, and her brother's +handsome preservation of his dignity 'stood it like the king he is!' and +to the Morsfield-May encounter, which had prevented another; and Mrs. May +was rolled along in the tide, with a hint of her good reason for liking +Lord Ormont; also the change of opinion shown by the Press as to Lord +Ormont's grand exploit. Referring to it, she flushed and jigged on her +chair for a saddle beneath her. And that glorious Indian adventure +warmed her to the man who had celebrated it among his comrades when a boy +at school. + +'You 're to teach Latin and Greek, you said. For you 're right: we +English can't understand the words we 're speaking, if we don't know a +good deal of Latin and some Greek. "Conversing in tokens, not standard +coin," you said, I remember; and there'll be a "general rabble tongue," +unless we English are drilled in the languages we filched from. Lots +of lords and ladies want the drilling, then! I'll send some over to you +for Swiss air and roots of the English tongue. Oh, and you told me you +supported Lord Ormont on his pet argument for corps d'elite; and you +quoted Virgil to back it. Let me have that line again--in case of his +condescending to write to the papers on the subject.' + +Weyburn repeated the half-line. + +'Good: I won't forget now. And you said the French act on that because +they follow human nature, and the English don't. We "bully it," you +said. That was on our drive down to Steignton. I hope you 'll succeed. +You 'll be visiting England. Call on me in London or at Olmer--only mind +and give me warning. I shall be glad to see you. I 've got some ideas +from you. If I meet a man who helps me to read the world and men as +they are, I 'm grateful to him; and most people are not, you 'll find. +They want you to show them what they 'd like the world to be. We don't +agree about a lady. You 're in the lists, lance in rest, all for +chivalry. You 're a man, and a young man. Have you taken your leave of +her yet? She'll expect it, as a proper compliment.' + +'I propose running down to take my leave of Lady Ormont to-morrow,' +replied Weyburn. + +'She is handsome?' + +She is very handsome.' + +'Beautiful, do you mean?' + +'Oh, my lady, it would only be a man's notion!' + +'Now, that 's as good an answer as could be made! You 're sure to +succeed. I 'm not the woman's enemy. But let her keep her place. Why, +Rowsley can't be coming to-day! Did Lord Ormont look ill?' + +'It did not strike me so.' + +'He 's between two fires. A man gets fretted. But I shan't move a step. +I dare say she won't. Especially with that Morsfield out of the way. +You do mean you think her a beauty. Well, then, there'll soon be a +successor to Morsfield. Beauties will have their weapons, and they can +hit on plenty; and it 's nothing to me, as long as I save my brother from +their arts.' + +Weyburn felt he had done his penance in return for kindness. He bowed +and rose, Lady Charlotte stretched out her hand. + +'We shall be sending you a pupil some day,' she said, and smiled. + +'Forward your address as soon as you 're settled.' Her face gave a +glimpse of its youth in a cordial farewell smile. + +Lord Ormont had no capacity to do the like, although they were strictly +brother and sister in appearance. The smallest difference in character +rendered her complex and kept him simple. She had a thirsting mind. + +Weyburn fancied that a close intimacy of a few months would have enabled +him to lift her out of her smirching and depraving mean jealousies. He +speculated, as he trod the street, on little plots and surprises, which +would bring Lady Charlotte and Lady Ormont into presence, and end by +making friends of them. Supposing that could be done, Lady Ormont might +be righted by the intervention of Lady Charlotte after all. + +Weyburn sent his dream flying with as dreamy an after-thought: 'Funny it +will be then for Lady Charlotte to revert to the stuff she has been +droning in my ear half an hour ago!--Look well behind, and we see spots +where we buzzed, lowed, bit and tore; and not until we have cast that +look and seen the brute are we human creatures.' + +A crumb of reflection such as this could brace him, adding its modest +maravedi to his prized storehouse of gain, fortifying with assurances of +his having a concrete basis for his business in life. His great youthful +ambition had descended to it, but had sunk to climb on a firmer footing. + +Arthur Abner had his next adieu. They talked of Lady Ormont, as to whose +position of rightful Countess of Ormont Mr. Abner had no doubt. He said +of Lady Charlotte: 'She has a clear head; but she loves her "brother +Rowsley" excessively; and any excess pushes to craziness.' + +He spoke to Weyburn of his prospects in the usually, perhaps necessarily, +cheerless tone of men who recognize by contrast the one mouse's nibbling +at a mountain of evil. 'To harmonize the nationalities, my dear boy! +teach Christians to look fraternally on Jews! David was a harper, but +the setting of him down to roll off a fugue on one of your cathedral +organs would not impose a heavier task than you are undertaking. You +have my best wishes, whatever aid I can supply. But we 're nearer to +King John's time than to your ideal, as far as the Jews go.' + +'Not in England.' + +'Less in England,' Abner shrugged. + +'You have beaten the Christians on the field they challenged you to enter +for a try. They feel the pinch in their interests and their vanity. +That will pass. I 'm for the two sides, under the name of Justice; +and I give the palm to whichever of the two first gets hold of the idea +of Justice. My old schoolmate's well?' + +'Always asking after Matey Weyburn !' + +'He shall have my address in Switzerland. You and I will be +corresponding.' + +Now rose to view the visit to the lady who was Lady Ormont on the tongue, +Aminta at heart; never to be named Aminta even to himself. His heart +broke loose at a thought of it. + +He might say Browny. For that was not serious with the intense present +signification the name Aminta had. Browny was queen of the old school- +time-enclosed it in her name; and that sphere enclosed her, not excluding +him. And the dear name of Browny played gently, humorously, fervently, +too, with life: not, pathetically, as that of Aminta did when came a +whisper of her situation, her isolation, her friendlessness; hardly +dissimilar to what could be imagined of a gazelle in the streets of +London city. The Morsfields were not all slain. The Weyburns would be +absent. + +At the gate of his cottage garden Weyburn beheld a short unfamiliar +figure of a man with dimly remembered features. Little Collett he still +was in height. The schoolmates had not met since the old days of +Cuper's. + +Little Collett delivered a message of invitation from Selina, begging Mr. +Weyburn to accompany her brother on the coach to Harwich next day, and +spend two or three days by the sea. But Weyburn's mind had been set in +the opposite direction--up Thames instead of down. + +He was about to refuse, but he checked his voice and hummed. Words of +Selina's letter jumped in italics. He perceived Lady Ormont's hand. +For one thing, would she be at Great Marlow alone? And he knew that hand +--how deftly it moved and moved others. Selina Collett would not have +invited him with underlinings merely to see a shoreside house and garden. +Her silence regarding a particular name showed her to be under +injunction, one might guess. At worst, it would be the loss of a couple +of days; worth the venture. They agreed to journey by coach next day. + +Facing eastward in the morning, on a seat behind the coachman, Weyburn +had a seafaring man beside him, bound for the good port of Harwich, where +his family lived, and thence by his own boat to Flushing. Weyburn set +him talking of himself, as the best way of making him happy; for it is +the theme which pricks to speech, and so liberates an uncomfortably +locked-up stranger; who, if sympathetic to human proximity, is thankful. +They exchanged names, delighted to find they were both Matthews; +whereupon Matthew of the sea demanded the paw of Matthew of the land, and +there was a squeeze. The same with little Collett, after hearing of him +as the old schoolmate of the established new friend. Then there was +talk. Little Collett named Felixstowe as the village of his mother's +house and garden sloping to the sands. 'That 's it-you have it,' said +the salted Matthew: 'peace is in that spot, and there I 've sworn to +pitch my tent when I 'm incapacitated for further exercise--profitable, +so to speak. My eldest girl has a bar of amber she picked up one wash of +the tide at Felixstowe, and there it had been lying sparkling, unseen, +hours, the shore is that solitary. What I like!--a quiet shore and a +peopled sea. Ever been to Brighton? There it 's t' other way.' + +Not long after he had mentioned the time of early evening for their entry +into his port of Harwich, the coach turned quietly over on a bank of the +roadside, depositing outside passengers quite safely, in so matter-of- +course a way, that only the screams of an uninjured lady inside repressed +their roars of laughter. One of the wheels had come loose, half a mile +off the nearest town. Their entry into Harwich was thereby delayed until +half-past nine at night. Full of consideration for the new mates now +fast wedded to his heart by an accident. Matthew Shale proposed to +Matthew Weyburn, instead of the bother of crossing the ferry with a +portmanteau and a bag at that late hour, to sup at his house, try the +neighbouring inn for a short sleep, and ship on board his yawl, the +honest Susan, to be rowed ashore off the Swin to Felixstowe sands no +later than six o'clock of a summer's morning, in time for a bath and a +swim before breakfast. It sounded well--it sounded sweetly. Weyburn +suggested the counter proposal of supper for the three at the inn. But +the other Matthew said: 'I married a cook. She expects a big appetite, +and she always keeps warm when I 'm held away, no matter how late. Sure +to be enough.' + +Beds were secured at the inn; after which came the introduction to Mrs. +Shale, the exhibition of Susan Shale's bar of amber, the dish of fresh- +fried whiting, the steak pudding, a grog, tobacco, rest at the inn, and +a rousing bang at the sleepers' doors when the unwonted supper in them +withheld an answer to the intimating knock. Young Matthew Shale, who had +slept on board the Susan, conducted them to her boat. His glance was +much drawn to the very white duck trousers Weyburn had put on, for a +souvenir of the approbation they had won at Marlow. They were on, and so +it was of no use for young Matthew to say they were likely to bear away a +token from the Susan. She was one among the damsels of colour, and free +of her tokens, especially to the spotless. + +How it occurred, nobody saw; though everybody saw how naturally it must +occur for the white ducks to 'have it in the eye' by the time they had +been on board a quarter of an hour. Weyburn got some fun out of them, +for a counterbalance to a twitch of sentimental regret scarcely +decipherable, as that the last view of him should bear a likeness of +Browny's recollection of her first. + +A glorious morning of flushed open sky and sun on sea chased all small +thoughts out of it. The breeze was from the west, and the Susan, lightly +laden, took the heave of smooth rollers with a flowing current-curtsey in +the motion of her speed. Fore-sail and aft were at their gentle strain; +her shadow rippled fragmentarily along to the silver rivulet and boat of +her wake. Straight she flew to the ball of fire now at spring above the +waters, and raining red gold on the line of her bows. By comparison she +was an ugly yawl, and as the creature of wind and wave beautiful. + +They passed an English defensive fort, and spared its walls, in obedience +to Matthew Shale's good counsel that they should forbear from sneezing. +Little Collett pointed to the roof of his mother's house twenty paces +rearward of a belt of tamarisks, green amid the hollowed yellows of +shorebanks yet in shade, crumbling to the sands. Weyburn was attracted +by a diminutive white tent, of sentry-box shape, evidently a bather's, +quite as evidently a fair bather's. He would have to walk on some way +for his dip. He remarked to little Collett that ladies going into the +water half-dressed never have more than half a bath. His arms and legs +flung out contempt of that style of bathing, exactly in old Matey's well- +remembered way. Half a mile off shore, the Susan was put about to flap +her sails, and her boat rocked with the passengers. Turning from a final +cheer to friendly Matthew, Weyburn at the rudder espied one of those +unenfranchised ladies in marine uniform issuing through the tent-slit. +She stepped firmly, as into her element. A plain look at her, and a +curious look, and an intent look fixed her fast, and ran the shock on his +heart before he knew of a guess. She waded, she dipped; a head across +the breast of the waters was observed: this one of them could swim. She +was making for sea, a stone's throw off the direction of the boat. +Before his wits had grasped the certainty possessing them, fiery envy and +desire to be alongside her set his fingers fretting at buttons. A grand +smooth swell of the waters lifted her, and her head rose to see her +world. She sank down the valley, where another wave was mounding for its +onward roll: a gentle scene of Weyburn's favourite Sophoclean chorus. +Now she was given to him--it was she. How could it ever have been any +other! He handed his watch to little Collett, and gave him the ropes, +pitched coat and waistcoat on his knees, stood free of boots and socks, +and singing out, truly enough, the words of a popular cry, 'White ducks +want washing,' went over and in. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +A MARINE DUET + +She soon had to know she was chased. She had seen the dive from the +boat, and received all illumination. With a chuckle of delighted +surprise, like a blackbird startled, she pushed seaward for joy of the +effort, thinking she could exult in imagination of an escape up to the +moment of capture, yielding then only to his greater will; and she meant +to try it. + +The swim was a holiday; all was new--nothing came to her as the same old +thing since she took her plunge; she had a sea-mind--had left her earth- +mind ashore. The swim, and Matey Weyburn pursuing her passed up, out of +happiness, through the spheres of delirium, into the region where our +life is as we would have it be a home holding the quiet of the heavens, +if but midway thither, and a home of delicious animation of the whole +frame, equal to wings. + +He drew on her, but he was distant, and she waved an arm. The shout of +her glee sprang from her: 'Matey!' He waved; she heard his voice. Was it +her name? He was not so drunken of the sea as she: he had not leapt out +of bondage into buoyant waters, into a youth without a blot, without an +aim, satisfied in tasting; the dream of the long felicity. + +A thought brushed by her: How if he were absent? It relaxed her stroke +of arms and legs. He had doubled the salt sea's rapture, and he had +shackled its gift of freedom. She turned to float, gathering her knees +for the funny sullen kick, until she heard him near. At once her stroke +was renewed vigorously; she had the foot of her pursuer, and she called, +'Adieu, Matey Weyburn!' + +Her bravado deserved a swifter humiliation than he was able to bring down +on her: she swam bravely, and she was divine to see ahead as well as +overtake. + +Darting to the close parallel, he said: 'What sea nymph sang me my name?' + +She smote a pang of her ecstasy into him: 'Ask mine!' + +'Browny!' + +They swam; neither of them panted; their heads were water-flowers that +spoke at ease. + +'We 've run from school; we won't go back.' + +'We 've a kingdom.' + +'Here's a big wave going to be a wall.' + +'Off he rolls.' + +'He's like the High Brent broad meadow under Elling Wood.' + +'Don't let Miss Vincent hear you.' + +'They 're not waves; they 're sighs of the deep.' + +'A poet I swim with! He fell into the deep in his first of May morning +ducks. We used to expect him.' + +'I never expected to owe them so much.' + +Pride of the swimmer and the energy of her joy embraced Aminta, that she +might nerve all her powers to gain the half-minute for speaking at her +ease. + +'Who 'd have thought of a morning like this? You were looked for last +night.' + +'A lucky accident to our coach. I made friends with the skipper of the +yawl.' + +'I saw the boat. Who could have dreamed----? Anything may happen now.' + +For nothing further would astonish her, as he rightly understood her; but +he said: 'You 're prepared for the rites? Old Triton is ready.' + +'Float, and tell me.' + +They spun about to lie on their backs. Her right hand, at piano-work of +the octave-shake, was touched and taken, and she did not pull it away. +Her eyelids fell. + +'Old Triton waits.' + +'Why?' + +'We 're going to him.' + +'Yes?' + +'Customs of the sea.' + +'Tell me.' + +'He joins hands. We say, "Browny-Matey," and it 's done.' + +She splashed, crying 'Swim,' and after two strokes, 'You want to beat me, +Matey Weyburn.' + +'How?' + +'Not fair!' + +'Say what.' + +'Take my breath. But, yes! we'll be happy in our own way. We 're sea- +birds. We 've said adieu to land. Not to one another. We shall be +friends?' + +'Always.' + +'This is going to last?' + +'Ever so long.' + +They had a spell of steady swimming, companionship to inspirit it. +Browny was allowed place a little foremost, and she guessed not +wherefore, in her flattered emulation. + +'I 'm bound for France.' + +'Slew a point to the right: South-east by South. We shall hit +Dunkerque.' + +'I don't mean to be picked up by boats.' + +'We'll decline.' + +'You see I can swim.' + +'I was sure of it.' + +They stopped their talk--for the pleasure of the body to be savoured in +the mind, they thought; and so took Nature's counsel to rest their voices +awhile. + +Considering that she had not been used of late to long immersions, and +had not broken her fast, and had talked much, for a sea-nymph, Weyburn +spied behind him on a shore seeming flat down, far removed. + +'France next time,' he said: 'we'll face to the rear.' + +'Now?' said she, big with blissful conceit of her powers and incredulous +of such a command from him. + +'You may be feeling tired presently.' + +The musical sincerity of her 'Oh no, not I!' sped through his limbs; he +had a willingness to go onward still some way. + +But his words fastened the heavy land on her spirit, knocked at the habit +of obedience. Her stroke of the arms paused. She inclined to his +example, and he set it shoreward. + +They swam silently, high, low, creatures of the smooth green roller. He +heard the water-song of her swimming. She, though breathing equably at +the nostrils, lay deep. The water shocked at her chin, and curled round +the under lip. He had a faint anxiety; and, not so sensible of a weight +in the sight of land as she was, he chattered, by snatches, rallied her, +encouraged her to continue sportive for this once, letting her feel it +was but a once and had its respected limit with him. So it was not out +of the world. + +Ah, friend Matey! And that was right and good on land; but rightness and +goodness flung earth's shadow across her brilliancy here, and any stress +on 'this once' withdrew her liberty to revel in it, putting an end to +perfect holiday; and silence, too, might hint at fatigue. She began to +think her muteness lost her the bloom of the enchantment, robbing her of +her heavenly frolic lead, since friend Matey resolved to be as eminently +good in salt water as on land. Was he unaware that they were boy and +girl again?--she washed pure of the intervening years, new born, by +blessing of the sea; worthy of him here!--that is, a swimmer worthy of +him, his comrade in salt water. + +'You're satisfied I swim well?' she said. + +'It would go hard with me if we raced a long race.' + +'I really was out for France.' + +'I was ordered to keep you for England.' She gave him Browny's eyes. + +'We've turned our backs on Triton.' + +'The ceremony was performed.' + +'When?' + +'The minute I spoke of it and you splashed.' + +'Matey! Matey Weyburn!' + +'Browny Farrell!' + +'Oh, Matey! she's gone!' + +'She's here.' + +'Try to beguile me, then, that our holiday's not over. You won't forget +this hour?' + +'No time of mine on earth will live so brightly for me.' + +'I have never had one like it. I could go under and be happy; go to old +Triton, and wait for you; teach him to speak your proper Christian name. +He hasn't heard it yet,--heard "Matey,"--never yet has been taught +"Matthew."' + +'Aminta!' + +'Oh, my friend! my dear!' she cried, in the voice of the wounded, like a +welling of her blood: 'my strength will leave me. I may play--not you: +you play with a weak vessel. Swim, and be quiet. How far do you count +it?' + +'Under a quarter of a mile.' + +'Don't imagine me tired.' + +'If you are, hold on to me.' + +'Matey, I'm for a dive.' + +He went after the ball of silver and bubbles, and they came up together. +There is no history of events below the surface. + +She shook off her briny blindness, and settled to the full sweep of the +arms, quite silent now. Some emotion, or exhaustion from the strain of +the swimmer's breath in speech, stopped her playfulness. The pleasure +she still knew was a recollection of the outward swim, when she had been +privileged to cast away sex with the push from earth, as few men will +believe that women, beautiful women, ever wish to do; and often and +ardently during the run ahead they yearn for Nature to grant them their +one short holiday truce. + +But Aminta forgave him for bringing earth so close to her when there was +yet a space of salt water between her and shore; and she smiled at times, +that he might not think she was looking grave. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + +THE PLIGHTING + +They touched sand at the first draw of the ebb, and this being earth, +Matey addressed himself to the guardian and absolving genii of matter-of- +fact, by saying; 'Did you inquire about the tides?' + +Her head shook, stunned with what had passed. She waded to shore, +after motioning for him to swim on. Men, in comparison beside their fair +fellows, are so little sensationally complex, that his one feeling now, +as to what had passed, was relief at the idea of his presence having been +a warrantable protectorship. + +Aminta's return from the sea-nymph to the state of woman crossed +annihiliation on the way back to sentience, and picked up meaningless +pebbles and shells of life, between the sea's verge and her tent's +shelter; hardly her own life to her understanding yet, except for the +hammer Memory became, to strike her insensible, at here and there a +recollected word or nakedness of her soul. + +He swam along by the shore to where the boat was paddled, spying at her +bare feet on the sand, her woman's form. He waved, and the figure in the +striped tunic and trousers waved her response, apparently the same person +he had quitted. + +Dry and clad, and decently formal under the transformation, they met at +Mrs. Collett's breakfast-table, and in each hung the doubt whether land +was the dream or sea. Both owned to a swim; both omitted mention of the +tale of white ducks. Little Collett had brought Matey's and his +portmanteau into the house, by favour of the cook, through the scullery. +He, who could have been a pictorial and suggestive narrator, carried a +spinning head off his shoulders from this wonderful Countess of Ormont to +Matey Weyburn's dark-eyed Browny at High Brent, and the Sunday walk in +Sir Peter Wensell's park. Away and back his head went. Browny was not +to be thought of as Browny; she was this grand Countess of Ormont; she +had married Matey Weyburn's hero: she would never admit she had been +Browny. Only she was handsome then, and she is handsome now; and she +looks on Matey Weyburn now just as she did then. How strange is the +world! Or how if we are the particular person destined to encounter the +strange things of the world? And fancy J. Masner, and Pinnett major, and +young Oakes (liked nothing better than a pretty girl, he strutted +boasting at thirteen), and the Frenchy, and the lot, all popping down at +the table, and asked the name of the lady sitting like Queen Esther--how +they would roar out! Boys, of course--but men, too!--very few men have a +notion of the extraordinary complications and coincidences and cracker- +surprises life contains. Here 's an instance; Matey Weyburn positively +will wear white ducks to play before Aminta Farrell on the first of May +cricketing-day. He happens to have his white ducks on when he sees the +Countess of Ormont swimming in the sea; and so he can go in just as if +they were all-right bathing-drawers. In he goes, has a good long swim +with her, and when he comes out, says, of his dripping ducks, 'tabula +votiva . . . avida vestimenta,' to remind an old schoolmate of his +hopping to the booth at the end of a showery May day, and dedicating them +to the laundry in these words. It seems marvellous. It was a quaint +revival, an hour after breakfast, for little Collett to be acting as +intermediary with Selina to request Lady Ormont's grant of a five- +minutes' interview before the church-bell summoned her. She was writing +letters, and sent the message: 'Tell Mr. Weyburn I obey.' Selina +delivered it, uttering 'obey' in a demurely comical way, as a word of +which the humour might be comprehensible to him. + +Aminta stood at the drawing-room window. She was asking herself whether +her recent conduct shrieked coquette to him, or any of the abominable +titles showered on the women who take free breath of air one day after +long imprisonment. + +She said: 'Does it mean you are leaving us?' the moment he was near. + +'Not till evening or to-morrow, as it may happen,' he answered: 'I have +one or two things to say, if you will spare the time.' + +'All my time,' said she, smiling to make less of the heart's reply; and +he stepped into the room. + +They had not long back been Matey and Browny, and though that was in +another element, it would not sanction the Lady Ormont and Mr. Weyburn +now. As little could it be Aminta and Matthew. Brother and sister they +were in the spirit's world, but in this world the titles had a sound of +imposture. And with a great longing to call her by some allying name, he +rejected 'friend' for its insufficiency and commonness, notwithstanding +the entirely friendly nature of the burden to be spoken. Friend, was a +title that ran on quicksands: an excuse that tried for an excuse. He +distinguished in himself simultaneously, that the hesitation and beating +about for a name had its origin in an imperfect frankness when he sent +his message: the fretful desire to be with her, close to her, hearing +her, seeing her, besides the true wish to serve her. He sent it after +swinging round abruptly from an outlook over the bordering garden +tamarisks on a sea now featureless, desolately empty. + +However, perceptibly silence was doing the work of a scourge, and he +said: 'I have been thinking I may have--and I don't mind fighting hard to +try it before I leave England on Tuesday or Wednesday--some influence +with Lady Charlotte Eglett. She is really one of the true women living, +and the heartiest of backers, if she can be taught to see her course. +I fancy I can do that. She 's narrow, but she is not one of the class +who look on the working world below them as, we'll say, the scavenger +dogs on the plains of Ilium were seen by the Achaeans. And my failure +would be no loss to you! Your name shall not be alluded to as empowering +me to plead for her help. But I want your consent, or I may be haunted +and weakened by the idea of playing the busy-body. One has to feel +strong in a delicate position. Well, you know what my position with her +has been--one among the humble; and she has taken contradictions, +accepted views from me, shown me she has warmth of heart to an extreme +degree.' + +Aminta slightly raised her hand. 'I will save you trouble. I have +written to Lord Ormont. I have left him.' + +Their eyes engaged on the thunder of this. 'The letter has gone?' + +'It was posted before my swim: posted yesterday.' + +'You have fully and clearly thought it out to a determination?' + +'Bit by bit--I might say, blow by blow.' + +'It is no small matter to break a marriage-tie.' + +'I have conversed with your mother.' + +'Yes, she! and the woman happiest in marriage!' + +'I know. It was hatred of injustice, noble sympathy. And she took me +for one of the blest among wives.' + +'She loved God. She saw the difference between men's decrees for their +convenience, and God's laws. She felt for women. You have had a hard +trial Aminta.' + +'Oh, my name! You mean it?' + +'You heard it from me this morning.' + +'Yes, there! I try to forget. I lost my senses. You may judge me +harshly, on reflection.' + +'Judge myself worse, then. You had a thousand excuses. I had only my +love of you. There's no judgement against either of us, for us to see, +if I read rightly. We elect to be tried in the courts of the sea-god. +Now we 'll sit and talk it over. The next ten minutes will decide our +destinies.' + +His eyes glittered, otherwise he showed the coolness of the man +discussing business; and his blunt soberness refreshed and upheld her, as +a wild burst of passion would not have done. + +Side by side, partly facing, they began their interchange. + +'You have weighed what you abandon?' + +'It weighs little.' + +'That may be error. You have to think into the future.' + +'My sufferings and experiences are not bad guides.' + +'They count. How can you be sure you have all the estimates?' + +'Was I ever a wife?' + +'You were and are the Countess of Ormont.' + +'Not to the world. An unacknowledged wife is a slave, surely.' + +'You step down, if you take the step.' + +'From what? Once I did desire that station--had an idea it was glorious. +I despise it: or rather the woman who had the desire.' + +'But the step down is into the working world.' + +'I have means to live humbly. I want no more, except to be taught to +work.' + +'So says the minute. Years are before you. You have weighed well, that +you attract?' + +She reddened and murmured: 'How small!' Her pout of spite at her +attractions was little simulated. + +'Beauty and charm are not small matters. You have the gift, called +fatal. Then--looking right forward--you have faith in the power of +resistance of the woman living alone?' + +He had struck at her breast. From her breast she replied. + +'Hear this of me. I was persecuted with letters. I read them and did +not destroy them. Perhaps you saved me. Looking back, I see weakness, +nothing worse; but it is a confession.' + +'Yes, you have courage. And that comes of a great heart. And therein +lies the danger.' + +'Advise me of what is possible to a lonely woman.' + +'You have resolved on the loneliness?' + +'It means breathing to me.' + +'You are able to see that Lord Ormont is a gentleman?' + +'A chivalrous gentleman, up to the bounds of his intelligence.' + +The bounds of his intelligence closed their four walls in a rapid +narrowing slide on Aminta's mind, and she exclaimed: + +'If only to pluck flowers in fields and know their names, I must be free! +I say what one can laugh at, and you are good and don't. Is the +interrogatory exhausted?' + +'Aminta, my beloved, if you are free, I claim you.' + +'Have you thought--?' + +The sense of a dissolving to a fountain quivered through her veins. + +'Turn the tables and examine me.' + +'But have you thought--oh! I am not the girl you loved. I would go +through death to feel I was, and give you one worthy of you.' + +'That means what I won't ask you to speak at present but I must have +proof.' + +He held out a hand, and hers was laid in his. + +There was more for her to say, she knew. It came and fled, lightened and +darkened. She had yielded her hand to him here on land, not with the +licence and protection of the great holiday salt water; and she was +trembling from the run of his blood through hers at the pressure of +hands, when she said in undertones: 'Could we--we might be friends.' + +'Meet and part as friends, you and I,' he replied. + +His voice carried the answer for her, his intimate look had in it the +unfolding of the full flower of the woman to him, as she could not +conceal from such eyes; and feeling that, she was all avowal. + +'It is for life, Matthew.' + +'My own words to myself when I first thought of the chance.' + +'But the school?' + +'I shall not consider that we are malefactors. We have the world against +us. It will not keep us from trying to serve it. And there are hints of +humaner opinions; it's not all a huge rolling block of a Juggernaut. Our +case could be pleaded before it. I don't think the just would condemn us +heavily. I shall have to ask you to strengthen me, complete me. If you +love me, it is your leap out of prison, and without you, I am from this +time no better than one-third of a man. I trust you to weigh the +position you lose, and the place we choose to take in the world. It 's +this--I think this describes it. You know the man who builds his house +below the sea's level has a sleepless enemy always threatening. His +house must be firm and he must look to the dykes. We commit this +indiscretion. With a world against us, our love and labour are +constantly on trial; we must have great hearts, and if the world is +hostile we are not to blame it. In the nature of things it could not be +otherwise. My own soul, we have to see that we do--though not publicly, +not insolently, offend good citizenship. But we believe--I with my whole +faith, and I may say it of you--that we are not offending Divine law. +You are the woman I can help and join with; think whether you can tell +yourself that I am the man. So, then, our union gives us powers to make +amends to the world, if the world should grant us a term of peace for the +effort. That is our risk; consider it, Aminta, between now and tomorrow; +deliberate. We don't go together into a garden of roses.' + +'I know. I should feel shame. I wish it to look dark,' said Aminta, her +hand in his, and yet with a fair-sailing mind on the stream of the blood. + +Rationally and irrationally, the mixed passion and reason in two clear +heads and urgent hearts discussed the stand they made before a world +defied, neither of them quite perceiving what it was which coloured +reason to beauty, or what so convinced their intellects when passion +spoke the louder. + +'I am to have a mate.' + +'She will pray she may be one.' + +'She is my first love.' + +Aminta's lips formed 'mine,' without utterance. + +Meanwhile his hand or a wizardry subdued her will, allured her body. She +felt herself being drawn to the sign and seal of their plighting for +life. She said, 'Matthew,' softly in protest; and he said, 'Never once +yet!' She was owing to his tenderness. Her deepened voice murmured: +'Is this to deliberate?' Colour flooded the beautiful dark face, as of +the funeral hues of a sun suffusing all the heavens; firing earth. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX + +AMINTA TO HER LORD + +On Friday, on Saturday, on Sunday, Lady Charlotte waited for her brother +Rowsley, until it was a diminished satisfaction that she had held her +ground and baffled his mighty will to subdue her. She did not sleep for +thinking of him on the Sunday night. Toward morning a fit of hazy +horrors, which others would have deemed imaginings, drove her from her +bed to sit and brood over Rowsley in a chair. What if it was a case of +heart with him too? Heart disease had been in the family. A man like +Rowsley, still feeling the world before him, as a man of his energies and +aptitudes, her humour added in the tide of his anxieties, had a right to +feel, would not fall upon resignation like a woman. + +She was at the physician's door at eight o'clock. Dr. Rewkes reported +reassuringly; it was a simple disturbance in Lord Ormont's condition of +health, and he conveyed just enough of disturbance to send the impetuous +lady knocking and ringing at her brother's door upon the hour of nine. + +The announcement of Lady Charlotte's early visit informed my lord that +Dr. Rewkes had done the spiriting required of him. He descended to the +library and passed under scrutiny. + +'You don't look ill, Rowsley,' she said, reluctantly in the sound. + +'I am the better for seeing you here, Charlotte. Shall I order breakfast +for you? I am alone.' + +'I know you are. I've eaten. Rewkes tells me you've not lost appetite.' + +'Have I the appearance of a man who has lost anything?' Prouder man, and +heartier and ruddier, could not be seen, she thought. + +'You're winning the country to right you; that I know.' + +'I don't ask it.' + +'The country wants your services.' + +'I have heard some talk of it. That lout comes to a knowledge of his +wants too late. If they promoted and offered me the command in India to- +morrow--'My lord struck the arm of his chair. 'I live at Steignton +henceforth; my wife is at a seaside place eastward. She left the jewel- +case when on her journey through London for safety; she is a particularly +careful person, forethoughtful. I take her down to Steignton two days +after her return. We entertain there in the autumn. You come?' + +'I don't. I prefer decent society.' + +'You are in her house now, ma'am.' + +'If I have to meet the person, you mean, I shall be civil. The society +you've given her, I won't meet.' + +'You will have to greet the Countess of Ormont if you care to meet your +brother.' + +'Part, then, on the best terms we can. I say this, the woman who keeps +you from serving your country, she 's your country's enemy.' + +'Hear my answer. The lady who is my wife has had to suffer for what you +call my country's treatment of me. It 's a choice between my country and +her. I give her the rest of my time.' + +'That's dotage.' + +'Fire away your epithets.' + +'Sheer dotage. I don't deny she's a handsome young woman.' + +'You'll have to admit that Lady Ormont takes her place in our family with +the best we can name.' + +'You insult my ears, Rowsley.' + +'The world will say it when it has the honour of her acquaintance.' + +'An honour suspiciously deferred.' + +'That's between the world and me.' + +'Set your head to work, you'll screw the world to any pitch you like-- +that I don't need telling.' + +Lord Ormont's head approved the remark. + +'Now,' said Lady Charlotte, 'you won't get the Danmores, the Dukerlys, +the Carminters, the Oxbridges any more than you get me.' + +'You are wrong, ma'am. I had yesterday a reply from Lady Danmore to a +communication of mine.' + +'It 's thickening. But while I stand, I stand for the family; and I 'm +not in it, and while I stand out of it, there 's a doubt either of your +honesty or your sanity.' + +'There's a perfect comprehension of my sister!' + +'I put my character in the scales against your conduct, and your Countess +of Ormont's reputation into the bargain.' + +'You have called at her house; it 's a step. You 'll be running at her +heels next. She 's not obdurate.' + +'When you see me running at her heels, it'll be with my head off. Stir +your hardest, and let it thicken. That man Morsfield's name mixed up +with a sham Countess of Ormont, in the stories flying abroad, can't hurt +anybody. A true Countess of Ormont--we 're cut to the quick.' + +'We 're cut! Your quick, Charlotte, is known to court the knife.' + +Letters of the morning's post were brought in. + +The earl turned over a couple and took up a third, saying: 'I 'll attend +to you in two minutes'; and thinking once more: Queer world it is, where, +when you sheath the sword, you have to be at play with bodkins! + +Lady Charlotte gazed on the carpet, effervescent with retorts to his last +observation, rightly conjecturing that the letter he selected to read was +from 'his Aminta.' + +The letter apparently was interesting, or it was of inordinate length. +He seemed still to be reading. He reverted to the first page. + +At the sound of the paper, she discarded her cogitations and glanced up. +His countenance had become stony. He read on some way, with a sudden +drop on the signature, a recommencement, a sound in the throat, as when +men grasp a comprehensible sentence of a muddled rigmarole and begin to +have hopes of the remainder. But the eye on the page is not the eye +which reads. + +'No bad news, Rowsley?' + +The earl's breath fell heavily. + +Lady Charlotte left her chair, and walked about the room. + +'Rowsley, I 'd like to hear if I can be of use.' + +'Ma'am?' he said; and pondered on the word 'use,' staring at her. + +'I don't intend to pry. I can't see my brother look like that, and not +ask.' + +The letter was tossed on the table to her. She read these lines, dated +from Felixstowe: + + 'MY DEAR LORD, + + 'The courage I have long been wanting in has come at last, to break + a tie that I have seen too clearly was a burden on you from the + beginning. I will believe that I am chiefly responsible for + inducing you to contract it. The alliance with an inexperienced + girl of inferior birth, and a perhaps immoderate ambition, has taxed + your generosity; and though the store may be inexhaustible, it is + not truly the married state when a wife subjects the husband to such + a trial. The release is yours, the sadness is for me. I have + latterly seen or suspected a design on your part to meet my former + wishes for a public recognition of the wife of Lord Ormont. Let me + now say that these foolish wishes no longer exist. I rejoice to + think that my staying or going will be alike unknown to the world. + I have the means of a livelihood, in a modest way, and shall trouble + no one. + + 'I have said, the sadness is for me. That is truth. But I have to + add, that I, too, am sensible of the release. My confession of a + change of feeling to you as a wife, writes the close of all + relations between us. I am among the dead for you; and it is a + relief to me to reflect on the little pain I give . . .' + + +'Has she something on her conscience about that man Morsfield?' Lady +Charlotte cried. + +Lord Ormont's prolonged Ah! of execration rolled her to a bundle. + +Nevertheless her human nature and her knowledge of woman's, would out +with the words: 'There's a man!' + +She allowed her brother to be correct in repudiating the name of the dead +Morsfield--chivalrous as he was on this Aminta's behalf to the last!--and +struck along several heads, Adderwood's, Weyburn's, Randeller's, for the +response to her suspicion. A man there certainly was. He would be +probably a young man. He would not necessarily be a handsome man. . . . +or a titled or a wealthy man. She might have set eyes on a gypsy +somewhere round Great Marlow--blood to blood; such things have been. +Imagining a wildish man for her, rather than a handsome one and one +devoted staidly to the founding of a school, she overlooked Weyburn, or +reserved him with others for subsequent speculation. + +The remainder of Aminta's letter referred to her delivery of the Ormont +jewel-case at Lord Ormont's London house, under charge of her maid +Carstairs. The affairs of the household were stated very succinctly, the +drawer for labelled keys, whatever pertained to her management, in London +or at Great Marlow. + +'She 's cool,' Lady Charlotte said, after reading out the orderly array +of items, in a tone of rasping irony, to convince her brother he was well +rid of a heartless wench. + +Aminta's written statement of those items were stabs at the home she had +given him, a flashed picture of his loss. Nothing written by her touched +him to pierce him so shrewdly; nothing could have brought him so closely +the breathing image in the flesh of the woman now a phantom for him. + +'Will she be expecting you to answer, Rowsley?' + +'Will that forked tongue cease hissing!' he shouted, in the agony of a +strong man convulsed both to render and conceal the terrible, shameful, +unexampled gush of tears. + +Lady Charlotte beheld her bleeding giant. She would rather have seen the +brother of her love grimace in woman's manner than let loose those +rolling big drops down the face of a rock. The big sob shook him, and +she was shaken to the dust by the sight. Now she was advised by her deep +affection for her brother to sit patient and dumb, behind shaded eyes: +praising in her heart the incomparable force of the man's love of the +woman contrasted with the puling inclinations of the woman for the man. + +Neither opened mouth when they separated. She pressed and kissed a large +nerveless hand. Lord Ormont stood up to bow her forth. His ruddied skin +had gone to pallor resembling the berg of ice on the edge of Arctic seas, +when sunlight has fallen away from it. + + + + +CHAPTER XXX + +CONCLUSION + +The peaceful little home on the solitary sandy shore was assailed, +unwarned, beneath a quiet sky, some hours later, by a whirlwind, a dust- +storm, and rattling volleys. Miss Vincent's discovery, in the past +school-days, of Selina Collett's 'wicked complicity in a clandestine +correspondence' had memorably chastened the girl, who vowed at the time +when her schoolmistress, using the rod of Johnsonian English for the +purpose, exposed the depravity of her sinfulness, that she would never +again be guilty of a like offence. Her dear and lovely Countess of +Ormont, for whom she then uncomplainingly suffered, who deigned now to +call her friend, had spoken the kind good-bye, and left the house after +Mr. Weyburn's departure that same day; she, of course, to post by Harwich +to London; he to sail by packet from the port of Harwich for Flushing. +The card of an unknown lady, a great lady, the Lady Charlotte Eglett, was +handed to her mother at eight o'clock in the evening. + +Lady Charlotte was introduced to the innocent country couple; the mother +knitting, the daughter studying a book of the botany of the Swiss Alps, +dreaming a distant day's journey over historic lands of various hues to +the unimaginable spectacle of earth's grandeur. Her visit lasted fifteen +minutes. From the moment of her entry, the room was in such turmoil as +may be seen where a water-mill wheel's paddles are suddenly set rounding +to pour streams of foam on the smooth pool below. A relentless catechism +bewildered their hearing. Mrs. Collett attempted an opposition of +dignity to those vehement attacks for answers. It was flooded and rolled +over. She was put upon her honour to reply positively to positive +questions: whether the Countess of Ormont was in this house at present; +whether the Countess of Ormont left the house alone or in company; +whether a gentleman had come to the house during the stay of the Countess +of Ormont; whether Lady Ormont had left the neighbourhood; the exact time +of the day when she quitted the house, and the stated point of her +destination. + +Ultimately, protesting that they were incapable of telling what they did +not know--which Lady Charlotte heard with an incredulous shrug--they +related piecemeal what they did know, and Weyburn's name gave her scent. +She paid small heed to the tale of Mr. Weyburn's having come there in the +character of young Mr. Collett's old schoolmate. Mr. Weyburn had started +for the port of Harwich. This day, and not long subsequently, Lady +Ormont had started for the port of Harwich, on her way to London, if we +like to think it. Further corroboration was quite superfluous. + +'Is there a night packet-boat from this port of yours?' Lady Charlotte +asked. + +The household servants had to be consulted; and she, hurriedly craving +the excuse of their tedious mistress, elicited, as far as she could +understand them, that there might be and very nearly was, a night packet- +boat starting for Flushing. The cook, a native of Harwich, sent up word +of a night packet-boat starting at about eleven o'clock last year. + +Lady Charlotte saw the chance as a wind-blown beacon-fire under press of +shades. Changeing her hawkish manner toward the simple pair, she gave +them view of a smile magical by contrast, really beautiful--the smile she +had in reserve for serviceable persons whom she trusted--while thanking +them and saying, that her anxiety concerned Lady Ormont's welfare. + +Her brother had prophesied she would soon be 'running at his wife's +heels,' and so she was, but not 'with her head off,' as she had rejoined. +She might prove, by intercepting his Aminta, that her head was on. +The windy beacon-fire of a chance blazed at the rapid rolling of her +carriage-wheels, and sank to stifling smoke at any petty obstruction. +Let her but come to an interview with his Aminta, she would stop all that +nonsense of the woman's letter; carry her off--and her Weyburn plucking +at her other hand to keep her. Why, naturally, treated as she was by +Rowsley, she dropped soft eyes on a good-looking secretary. Any woman +would--confound the young fellow! But all 's right yet if we get to +Harwich in time; unless . . . as a certain coldfish finale tone of the +letter playing on the old string, the irrevocable, peculiar to women who +are novices in situations of the kind, appeared to indicate; they see in +their conscience-blasted minds a barrier to a return home, high as the +Archangelical gate behind Mother Eve, and they are down on their knees +blubbering gratitude and repentance if the gate swings open to them. It +is just the instant, granting the catastrophe, to have a woman back to +her duty. She has only to learn she has a magnanimous husband. If she +learns into the bargain how he suffers, how he loves her,--well, she +despises a man like that Lawrence Finchley all the more for the +'magnanimity' she has the profit of, and perceives to be feebleness. +But there 's woman in her good and her bad; she'll trick a man of age, +and if he forgives her, owning his own faults in the case, she won't +scorn him for it; the likelihood is, she 'll feel bound in honour to +serve him faithfully for the rest of their wedded days. + +A sketch to her of Rowsley's deep love. . . . Lady Charlotte wandered +into an amazement at it. A sentence of her brother's recent speaking +danced in her recollection. He said of his country: That Lout comes to a +knowledge of his wants too late. True, Old England is always louting to +the rear, and has to be pricked in the rear and pulled by the neck before +she 's equal to the circumstances around her. But what if his words were +flung at him in turn! Short of 'Lout,' it rang correctly. 'Too late,' +we hope to clip from the end of the sentence likewise. We have then, if +you stress it--'comes to a knowledge of his wants;--a fair example of the +creatures men are; the greatest of men; who have to learn from the loss +of the woman--or a fear of the loss--how much they really do love her. + +Well, and she may learn the same or something sufficiently like it, if +she 's caught in time, called to her face, Countess of Ormont, sister-in- +law, and smoothed, petted, made believe she 's now understood and won't +be questioned on a single particular--in fact, she marches back in a sort +of triumph; and all the past in a cupboard, locked up, without further +inquiry. + +Her brother Rowsley's revealed human appearance of the stricken man +--stricken right into his big heart--precipitated Lady Charlotte's +reflections and urged her to an unavailing fever of haste during the +circuitous drive in moonlight to the port. She alighted at the principal +inn, and was there informed that the packetboat, with a favouring breeze +and tide, had started ten minutes earlier. She summoned the landlord, +and described a lady, as probably one of the passengers: 'Dark, holds +herself up high. Some such lady had dined at the inn on tea, and gone +aboard the boat soon after. + +Lady Charlotte burned with the question: Alone? She repressed her +feminine hunger and asked to see the book of visitors. But the lady had +not slept at the inn, so had not been requested to write her name. + +The track of the vessel could be seen from the pier, on the line of a bar +of moonlight; and thinking, that the abominable woman, if aboard she was, +had coolly provided herself with a continental passport--or had it done +for two by her accomplice, that Weyburn, before she left London--Lady +Charlotte sent a loathing gaze at the black figure of the boat on the +water, untroubled by any reminder of her share in the conspiracy of +events, which was to be her brother's chastisement to his end. + + +Years are the teachers of the great rocky natures, whom they round and +sap and pierce in caverns, having them on all sides, and striking deep +inward at moments. There is no resisting the years, if we have a heart, +and a common understanding. They constitute, in the sum of them, the +self-examination, whence issues, acknowledged or not, a belated self- +knowledge, to direct our final actions. She had the heart. Sight of the +high-minded, proud, speechless man suffering for the absence of a runaway +woman, not ceasing to suffer, never blaming the woman, and consequently, +it could be fancied, blaming himself, broke down Lady Charlotte's +defences and moved her to review her part in her brother Rowsley's +unhappiness. For supposing him to blame himself, her power to cast a +shadow of blame on him went from her, and therewith her vindication of +her conduct. He lived at Olmer. She read him by degrees, as those who +have become absolutely tongueless have to be read; and so she gathered +that this mortally (or lastingly) wounded brother of hers was pleased by +an allusion to his Aminta. He ran his finger on the lines of a map of +Spain, from Barcelona over to Granada; and impressed his nail at a point +appearing to be mountainous or woody. Lady Charlotte suggested that he +and his Aminta had passed by there. He told a story of a carriage +accident: added, 'She was very brave.' One day, when he had taken a +keepsake book of England's Beauties off the drawing-room table, his eyes +dwelt on a face awhile, and he handed it, with a nod, followed by a +slight depreciatory shrug. 'Like her, not so handsome,' Lady Charlotte +said. + +He nodded again. She came to a knowledge of Aminta's favourite colours +through the dwelling of his look on orange and black, deepest rose, light +yellow, light blue. Her grand-daughters won the satisfied look if they +wore a combination touching his memory. The rocky are not imaginative, +and have to be struck from without for a kindling of them. Submissive +though she was to court and soothe her brother Rowsley, a spur of +jealousy burned in the composition of her sentiments, to set her going. +He liked visiting Mrs. Lawrence Finchley at her effaced good man's +country seat, Brockholm in Berkshire, and would stay there a month at a +time. Lady Charlotte learnt why. The enthusiast for Aminta, without +upholding her to her late lord, whom she liked well, talked of her openly +with him, confessed to a fondness for her. How much Mrs. Lawrence +ventured to say, Lady Charlotte could not know. But rivalry pushed her +to the extreme of making Aminta partially a topic; and so ready was he to +follow her lead in the veriest trifles recalling the handsome runaway; +that she had to excite his racy diatribes against the burgess English and +the pulp they have made of a glorious nation, in order not to think him +inclining upon dotage. + +Philippa's occasional scoff in fun concerning 'grandmama's tutor,' hurt +Lady Charlotte for more reasons than one, notwithstanding the +justification of her fore-thoughtfulness. The girl, however, was +privileged; she was Bobby Benlew's dearest friend, and my lord loved the +boy; with whom nothing could be done at school, nor could a tutor at +Olmer control him. In fine, Bobby saddened the family and gained the +earl's anxious affection by giving daily proofs of his being an Ormont +in a weak frame; patently an Ormont, recurrently an invalid. His moral +qualities hurled him on his physical deficiencies. The local doctor and +Dr. Rewkes banished him twice to the seashore, where he began to bloom +the first week and sickened the next, for want of playfellows, jolly +fights and friendships. Ultimately they prescribed mountain air, Swiss +air, easy travelling to Switzerland, and several weeks of excursions at +the foot of the Alps. Bobby might possibly get an aged tutor, or find an +English clergyman taking pupils, on the way. + +Thus it happened, that seven years after his bereavement, Lord Ormont and +Philippa and Bobby were on the famous Bernese Terrace, grandest of +terrestrial theatres where soul of man has fronting him earth's utmost +majesty. Sublime: but five minutes of it fetched sounds as of a plug in +an empty phial from Bobby's bosom, and his heels became electrical. + +He was observed at play with a gentleman of Italian complexion. Past +guessing how it had come about, for the gentleman was an utter stranger. +He had at any rate the tongue of an Englishman. He had the style, too, +the slang and cries and tricks of an English schoolboy, though visibly a +foreigner. And he had the art of throwing his heart into that bit of +improvised game, or he would never have got hold of Bobby, shrewd to read +a masker. + +Lugged-up by the boy to my lord and the young lady, he doffed and bowed. +'Forgive me, pray,' he said; 'I can't see an English boy without having a +spin with him; and I make so bold as to speak to English people wherever +I meet them, if they give me the chance. Bad manners? Better than that. +You are of the military profession, sir, I see. I am a soldier, fresh +from Monte Video. Italian, it is evident, under an Italian chief there. +A clerk on a stool, and hey presto plunged into the war a month after, +shouldering a gun and marching. Fifteen battles in eighteen months; and +Death a lady at a balcony we kiss hands to on the march below. Not a bit +more terrible! Ah, but your pardon, sir,' he hastened to say, observing +rigidity on the features of the English gentleman; 'would I boast? Not +I. Accept it as my preface for why I am moved to speak the English +wherever I meet them:--Uruguay, Buenos Ayres, La Plata, or Europe. +I cannot resist it. At least, he bent gracefully, 'I do not. We come +to the grounds of my misbehaviour. I have shown at every call I fear +nothing, kiss hand of welcome or adieu to Death. And I, a boy of the +age of this youngster--he 's not like me, I can declare!--I was a sneak +and a coward. It follows, I was a liar and a traitor. Who cured me of +that vileness, that scandal? I will tell you--an Englishman and an +Englishwoman: my schoolmaster and his wife. My schoolmaster--my friend! +He is the comrade of his boys: English, French, Germans, Italians, a +Spaniard in my time--a South American I have sent him--two from Boston, +Massachusetts--and clever!--all emulous to excel, none boasting. But, +to myself; I was that mean fellow. I did--I could let you know: before +this young lady--she would wither me with her scorn, Enough, I sneaked, +I lied. I let the blame fall on a schoolfellow and a housemaid. Oh! +a small thing, but I coveted it--a scarf. It reminded me of Rome. +Enough, there at the bottom of that pit, behold me. It was not +discovered, but my schoolfellow was unpunished, the housemaid remained in +service; I thought, I thought, and I thought until I could not look in my +dear friend Matthew's face. He said to me one day: "Have you nothing to +tell me, Giulio?" as if to ask the road to right or left. Out it all +came. And no sermon, no! He set me the hardest task I could have. That +was a penance!--to go to his wife, and tell it all to her. Then I did +think it an easier thing to go and face death--and death had been my +nightmare. I went, she listened, she took my hand she said: "You will +never do this again, I know, Giulio." She told me no English girl would +ever look on a man who was a coward and lied. From that day I have made +Truth my bride. And what the consequence? I know not fear! I could +laugh, knowing I was to lie down in my six-foot measure to-morrow. If I +have done my duty and look in the face of my dear Matthew and his wife! +Ah, those two! They are loved. They will be loved all over Europe. He +works for Europe and America--all civilized people--to be one country. +He is the comrade of his boys. Out of school hours, it is Christian +names all round--Matthew, Emile, Adolf, Emilio, Giulio, Robert, Marcel, +Franz, et caetera. Games or lessons, a boy can't help learning with him. +He makes happy fellows and brave soldiers of them without drill. Sir, do +I presume when I say I have your excuse for addressing you because you +are his countryman? I drive to the old school in half an hour, and next +week he and his dear wife and a good half of the boys will be on the +tramp over the Simplon, by Lago Maggiore, to my uncle's house in Milan +for a halt. I go to Matthew before I see my own people.' + +He swept another bow of apology, chiefly to Philippa, as representative +of the sex claiming homage. + +Lord Ormont had not greatly relished certain of the flowery phrases +employed by this young foreigner. 'Truth his bride,' was damnable: +and if a story had to be told, he liked it plain, without jerks and +evolutions. Many offences to our taste have to be overlooked in +foreigners--Italians! considered, before they were proved in fire, +a people classed by nature as operatic declaimers. Bobby had shown +himself on the road out to Bern a difficult boy, and stupefyingly +ignorant. My lord had two or three ideas working to cloudy combination +in his head when he put a question, referring to the management of the +dormitories at the school. Whereupon the young Italian introduced +himself as Giulio Calliani, and proposed a drive to inspect the old +school, with its cricket and football fields, lake for rowing and +swimming, gymnastic fixtures, carpenter's shed, bowling alley, and four +European languages in the air by turns daily; and the boys, too, all the +boys rosy and jolly, according to the last report received of them from +his friend Matthew. Enthusiasm struck and tightened the loose chord of +scepticism in Lord Ormont; somewhat as if a dancing beggar had entered a +kennel-dog's yard, designing to fascinate the faithful beast. It is a +chord of one note, that is tightened to sound by the violent summons to +accept, which is a provocation to deny. At the same time, the +enthusiast's dance is rather funny; he is not an ordinary beggar; to see +him trip himself in his dance would be rather funnier. This is to say, +inspect the trumpeted school and retire politely. My lord knew the Bern +of frequent visits: the woman was needed beside him to inspire a feeling +for scenic mountains. Philippa's admiration of them was like a new- +pressed grape-juice after a draught of the ripe vintage. Moreover, Bobby +was difficult: the rejected of his English schools was a stiff Ormont at +lessons, a wheezy Benlew in the playground: exactly the reverse of what +should have been. A school of four languages in bracing air, if a school +with healthy dormitories, and a school of the trained instincts we call +gentlemanly, might suit Master Bobby for a trial. An eye on the boys of +the school would see in a minute what stuff they were made of. Supposing +this young Italianissimo with the English tongue to be tolerably near the +mark, with a deduction of two-thirds of the enthusiasm, Bobby might stop +at the school as long as his health held out, or the master would keep +him. Supposing half a dozen things and more, the meeting with this Mr. +Calliand was a lucky accident. But lucky accidents are anticipated only +by fools. + +Lord Ormont consented to visit the school. He handed his card and +invited his guest; he had a carriage in waiting for the day, he said; +and obedient to Lady Charlotte's injunctions, he withheld Philippa from +the party. She and her maid were to pass the five hours of his absence +in efforts to keep their monkey Bobby out of the well of the solicitious +bears. + +My lord left his carriage at the inn of the village lying below the +school-house on a green height. The young enthusiast was dancing him +into the condition of livid taciturnity, which could, if it would, flash +out pungent epigrams of the actual world at Operatic recitative. + +'There's the old school-clock! Just in time for the half-hour before +dinner,' said Calliani, chattering two hundred to the minute, of the +habits and usages of the school, and how all had meals together, the +master, his wife, the teachers, the boys. 'And she--as for her!' +Calliani kissed finger up to the furthest skies: into which a self- +respecting sober Northener of the Isles could imagine himself to kick +enthusiastic gesticulators, if it were polite to do so. + +The school-house faced the master's dwelling house, and these, with a +block of building, formed a three-sided enclosure, like barracks! Forth +from the school-house door burst a dozen shouting lads, as wasps from the +hole of their nest from a charge of powder. Out they poured whizzing; +and the frog he leaped, and pussy ran and doubled before the hounds, and +hockey-sticks waved, and away went a ball. Cracks at the ball anyhow, +was the game for the twenty-five minutes breather before dinner. + +'French day!' said Calliani, hearing their cries. Then he bellowed +'Matthew!--Giulio !' + +A lusty inversion of the order of the names and an Oberland jodel +returned his hail. The school retreating caught up the Alpine cry +in the distance. Here were lungs! Here were sprites! + +Lord Ormont bethought him of the name of the master. 'Mr. Matthew, I +think you said, sir,' he was observing to Calliani, as the master came +nearer; and Calliani replied: 'His Christian name. But if the boys are +naughty boys, it is not the privilege. Mr. Weyburn.' + +There was not any necessity to pronounce that name Calliani spoke it on +the rush to his friend. + +Lord Ormont and Weyburn advanced the steps to the meeting. Neither of +them flinched in eye or limb. + +At a corridor window of the dwelling-house a lady stood. Her colour was +the last of a summer day over western seas; her thought: 'It has come!' +Her mind was in her sight; her other powers were frozen. + +The two men conversed. There was no gesture. + +This is one of the lightning moments of life for the woman, at the +meeting of the two men between whom her person has been in dispute, may +still be; her soul being with one. And that one, dearer than the blood +of her body, imperilled by her. + +She could ask why she exists, if a question were in her grasp. She would +ask for the meaning of the gift of beauty to the woman, making her +desireable to those two men, making her a cause of strife, a thing of +doom. An incessant clamour dinned about her: 'It has come!' + +The two men walked conversing into the school-house. She was unconscious +of the seeing of a third, though she saw and at the back of her mind +believed she knew a friend in him. The two disappeared. She was +insensible stone, except for the bell-clang: 'It has come'; until they +were in view again, still conversing: and the first of her thought to +stir from petrifaction was: 'Life holds no secret.' + +She tried, in shame of the inanimate creature she had become, +to force herself to think: and had, for a chastising result, a series +of geometrical figures shooting across her brain, mystically expressive +of the situation, not communicably. The most vivid and persistent was a +triangle. Interpret who may. The one beheld the two pass from view +again, still conversing. + +They are on the gravel; they bow; they separate. He of the grey head +poised high has gone. + +Her arm was pressed by a hand. Weyburn longed to enfold her, and she +desired it, and her soul praised him for refraining. Both had that +delicacy. + +'You have seen, my darling,' Weyburn said. 'It has come, and we take our +chance. He spoke not one word, beyond the affairs of the school. He has +a grandnephew in want of a school: visited the dormitories, refectory, +and sheds: tasted the well-water, addressed me as Mr. Matthew. He had it +from Giulio. Came to look at the school of Giulio's "friend Matthew,": +--you hear him. Giulio little imagines!--Well, dear love, we stand with +a squad in front, and wait the word. It mayn't be spoken. We have +counted long before that something like it was bound to happen. And +you are brave. Ruin's an empty word for us two.' + +'Yes, dear, it is: we will pay what is asked of us,' Aminta said. 'It +will be heavy, if the school . . . and I love our boys. I am fit to +be the school-housekeeper; for nothing else.' + +'I will go to the boys' parents. At the worst, we can march into new +territory. Emile will stick to us. Adolf, too. The fresh flock will +come.' + +Aminta cried in the voice of tears: 'I love the old so!' + +'The likelihood is, we shall hear nothing further.' + +'You had to bear the shock, Matthew.' + +'Whatever I bore, and you saw, you shared.' + +'Yes,' she said. + +'Mais, n'oublions pas que c'est aujourd'hui jour francais; si, madame, +vous avez assez d'appetit pour diner avec nous? + +'Je suis, comme toujours, aux ordres de Monsieur.' She was among the +bravest of women. She had a full ounce of lead in her breast when she +sat with the boys at their midday meal, showing them her familiar +pleasant face. + +Shortly after the hour of the evening meal, a messenger from Bern +delivered a letter addressed to the Headmaster. Weyburn and Aminta were +strolling to the playground, thinking in common, as they usually did. +They read the letter together. These were the lines: + +'Lord Ormont desires to repeat his sense of obligation to Mr. Matthew for +the inspection of the school under his charge, and will be thankful to +Mr. Calliani, if that gentleman will do him the favour to call at his +hotel at Bern to-morrow, at as early an hour as is convenient to him, for +the purpose of making arrangements, agreeable to the Head-master's rules, +for receiving his grandnephew Robert Benlew as a pupil at the school.' + +The two raised eyes on one another, pained in their deep joy by the +religion of the restraint upon their hearts, to keep down the passion to +embrace. + +'I thank heaven we know him to be one of the true noble men,' said +Aminta, now breathing, and thanking Lord Ormont for the free breath +she drew. + +Weyburn spoke of an idea he had gathered from the earl's manner. But he +had not imagined the proud lord's great-heartedness would go so far as to +trust him with the guardianship of the boy. That moved, and that humbled +him, though it was far from humiliating. + +Six months later, the brief communication arrived from Lady Charlotte + +'She is a widow. + +'Unlikely you will hear from me again. Death is always next door, you +said once. I look on the back of life. + +'Tell Bobby, capital for him to write he has no longing for home +holidays. If any one can make a man of him, you will. That I know. + + 'CHARLOTTE EGLETT.' + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + + +Affected misapprehensions +Any excess pushes to craziness +Bad laws are best broken +Being in heart and mind the brother to the sister with women +Bounds of his intelligence closed their four walls +Boys, of course--but men, too! +But had sunk to climb on a firmer footing +Challenged him to lead up to her desired stormy scene +Could we--we might be friends +Death is always next door +Desire of it destroyed it +Detestable feminine storms enveloping men weak enough +Distaste for all exercise once pleasurable +Divided lovers in presence +Enthusiasm struck and tightened the loose chord of scepticism +Exult in imagination of an escape up to the moment of capture +Greatest of men; who have to learn from the loss of the woman +He gave a slight sign of restiveness, and was allowed to go +He had gone, and the day lived again for both of them +I look on the back of life +I married a cook She expects a big appetite +I want no more, except to be taught to work +If the world is hostile we are not to blame it +Increase of dissatisfaction with the more she got +Learn--principally not to be afraid of ideas +Look well behind +Lucky accidents are anticipated only by fools +Magnify an offence in the ratio of our vanity +Man who helps me to read the world and men as they are +Meant to vanquish her with the dominating patience +Napoleon's treatment of women is excellent example +Necessity's offspring +One has to feel strong in a delicate position +Our love and labour are constantly on trial +Perhaps inspire him, if he would let her breathe +Person in another world beyond this world of blood +Practical for having an addiction to the palpable +Screams of an uninjured lady +Selfishness and icy inaccessibility to emotion +She had a thirsting mind +She had to be the hypocrite or else--leap +Silence was doing the work of a scourge +Smile she had in reserve for serviceable persons +Snatch her from a possessor who forfeited by undervaluing her +So says the minute Years are before you +The next ten minutes will decide our destinies +The woman side of him +There are women who go through life not knowing love +There is no history of events below the surface +They want you to show them what they 'd like the world to be +Things are not equal +Titles showered on the women who take free breath of air +Violent summons to accept, which is a provocation to deny +We don't go together into a garden of roses +Why he enjoyed the privilege of seeing, and was not beside her +Women are happier enslaved +World against us It will not keep us from trying to serve +Years are the teachers of the great rocky natures + + +[The End] + + + + +*********************************************************************** +The Project Gutenberg Etext Lord Ormont and his Aminta, v5, by Meredith +*********This file should be named gm87v10.txt or gm87v10.zip********** + +Corrected EDITIONS of our etexts get a new NUMBER, gm87v11.txt +VERSIONS based on separate sources get new LETTER, gm87v10a.txt + +This etext was produced by David Widger <widger@cecomet.net> + +More information about this book is at the top of this file. + +We are now trying to release all our etexts one year in advance +of the official release dates, leaving time for better editing. +Please be encouraged to tell us about any error or corrections, +even years after the official publication date. + +Please note neither this listing nor its contents are final til +midnight of the last day of the month of any such announcement. +The official release date of all Project Gutenberg Etexts is at +Midnight, Central Time, of the last day of the stated month. 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