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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: The Inside of the Cup, Volume 6 + +Author: Winston Churchill + +Release Date: October 17, 2004 [EBook #5361] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE INSIDE OF THE CUP, VOLUME 6 *** + + + + +Produced by David Widger + + + + + +THE INSIDE OF THE CUP + +By Winston Churchill + + + +Volume 6. + + +XX. THE ARRAIGNMENT +XXI. ALISON GOES TO CHURCH +XXII. WHICH SAY TO THE SEERS, SEE NOT! + + + +CHAPTER XX + +THE ARRAIGNMENT + + +I + +Looking backward, Hodder perceived that he had really come to the +momentous decision of remaining at St. John's in the twilight of an +evening when, on returning home from seeing Kate Marcy at Mr. Bentley's +he had entered the darkening church. It was then that his mission had +appeared to him as a vision. Every day, afterward, his sense and +knowledge of this mission had grown stronger. + +To his mind, not the least of the trials it was to impose upon him, and +one which would have to be dealt with shortly, was a necessary talk with +his assistant, McCrae. If their relationship had from the beginning been +unusual and unsatisfactory, adjectives would seem to defy what it had +become during the summer. What did McCrae think of him? For Hodder had, +it will be recalled, bidden his assistant good-by--and then had remained. +At another brief interview, during which McCrae had betrayed no surprise, +uttered no censure or comment, Hodder had announced his determination to +remain in the city, and to take no part in the services. An announcement +sufficiently astounding. During the months that followed, they had met, +at rare intervals, exchanged casual greetings, and passed on. And yet +Hodder had the feeling, more firmly planted than ever, that McCrae was +awaiting, with an interest which might be called suspense, the +culmination of the process going on within him. + +Well, now that he had worked it out, now that he had reached his +decision, it was incumbent upon him to tell his assistant what that +decision was. Hodder shrank from it as from an ordeal. His affection +for the man, his admiration for McCrae's faithful, untiring, and +unrecognized services had deepened. He had a theory that McCrae +really liked him--would even sympathize with his solution; yet he +procrastinated. He was afraid to put his theory to the test. It was not +that Hodder feared that his own solution was not the right one, but that +McCrae might not find it so: he was intensely concerned that it should +also be McCrae's solution--the answer, if one liked, to McCrae's mute and +eternal questionings. He wished to have it a fruition for McCrae as well +as for himself; since theoretically, at least, he had pierced the hard +crust of his assistant's exterior, and conceived him beneath to be all +suppressed fire. In short, Hodder wished to go into battle side by side +with McCrae. Therein lay his anxiety. + +Another consideration troubled him--McCrae's family, dependent on a +rather meagre salary. His assistant, in sustaining him in the struggle +he meant to enter, would be making even a greater sacrifice than himself. +For Hodder had no illusions, and knew that the odds against him were +incalculable. Whatever, if defeated, his own future might be, McCrae's +was still more problematical and tragic. + +The situation, when it came, was even more difficult than Hodder +had imagined it, since McCrae was not a man to oil the wheels of +conversation. In silence he followed the rector up the stairs and into +his study, in silence he took the seat at the opposite side of the table. +And Hodder, as he hesitated over his opening, contemplated in no little +perplexity and travail the gaunt and non-committal face before him: + +"McCrae," he began at length, "you must have thought my conduct this +summer most peculiar. I wish to thank you, first of all, for the +consideration you have shown me, and to tell you how deeply I appreciate +your taking the entire burden of the work of the parish." + +McCrae shook his head vigorously, but did not speak. + +"I owe it to you to give you some clew to what happened to me," the +rector continued, "although I have an idea that you do not need much +enlightenment on this matter. I have a feeling that you have somehow +been aware of my discouragement during the past year or so, and of the +causes of it. You yourself hold ideals concerning the Church which you +have not confided to me. Of this I am sure. I came here to St. John's +full of hope and confidence, gradually to lose both, gradually to realise +that there was something wrong with me, that in spite of all my efforts +I was unable to make any headway in the right direction. I became +perplexed, dissatisfied--the results were so meagre, so out of proportion +to the labour. And the very fact that those who may be called our chief +parishioners had no complaint merely added to my uneasiness. That kind +of success didn't satisfy me, and I venture to assume it didn't satisfy +you." + +Still McCrae made no sign. + +"Finally I came to what may be termed a double conclusion. In the first +place, I began to see more and more clearly that our modern civilization +is at fault, to perceive how completely it is conducted on the +materialistic theory of the survival of the fittest rather than that of +the brotherhood of man, and that those who mainly support this church +are, consciously or not, using it as a bulwark for the privilege they +have gained at the expense of their fellow-citizens. And my conclusion +was that Christianity must contain some vital germ which I had somehow +missed, and which I must find if I could, and preach and release it. +That it was the release of this germ these people feared unconsciously. +I say to you, at the risk of the accusation of conceit, that I believed +myself to have a power in the pulpit if I could only discover the truth." + +Hodder thought he detected, as he spoke these words, a certain relaxation +of the tension. + +"For a while, as the result of discouragement, of cowardice, I may say, +of the tearing-down process of the theological structure--built of debris +from many ruins on which my conception of Christianity rested, I lost all +faith. For many weeks I did not enter the church, as you yourself must +know. Then, when I had given up all hope, through certain incidents and +certain persona, a process of reconstruction began. In short, through no +virtue which I can claim as my own, I believe I have arrived at the +threshold of an understanding of Christianity as our Lord taught it and +lived it. And I intend to take the pulpit and begin to preach it. + +"I am deeply concerned in regard to yourself as to what effect my course +may have on you. And I am not you to listen to me with a view that you +should see your way clear to support me McCrae, but rather that you +should be fully apprised of my new belief and intentions. I owe this to +you, for your loyal support in the pest. I shall go over with you, +later, if you care to listen, my whole position. It may be called the +extreme Protestant position, and I use protestant, for want of a better +word, to express what I believe is Paul's true as distinguished from the +false of his two inconsistent theologies. It was this doctrine of Paul's +of redemption by faith, of reacting grace by an inevitable spiritual law +--of rebirth, if you will--that Luther and the Protestant reformers +revived and recognized, rightly, as the vital element of Christ's +teachings, although they did not succeed in separating it wholly from the +dross which clung to it. It is the leaven which has changed governments, +and which in the end, I am firmly convinced, will make true democracy +inevitable. And those who oppose democracy inherently dread its +workings. + +"I do not know your views, but it is only fair to add at this time that I +no longer believe in the external and imposed authority of the Church in +the sense in which I formerly accepted it, nor in the virgin birth, nor +in certain other dogmas in which I once acquiesced. Other clergymen of +our communion have proclaimed, in speech and writing, their disbelief in +these things. I have satisfied my conscience as they have, and I mean to +make no secret of my change. I am convinced that not one man or woman +in ten thousand to-day who has rejected Christianity ever knew what +Christianity is. The science and archaic philosophy in which +Christianity has been swaddled and hampered is discredited, and the +conclusion is drawn that Christianity itself must be discredited." + +"Ye're going to preach all this?" McCrae demanded, almost fiercely. + +"Yes," Hodder replied, still uncertain as to his assistant's attitude, +"and more. I have fully reflected, and I am willing to accept all the +consequences. I understand perfectly, McCrae, that the promulgation +alone of the liberal orthodoxy of which I have spoken will bring me into +conflict with the majority of the vestry and the congregation, and that +the bishop will be appealed to. They will say, in effect, that I have +cheated them, that they hired one man and that another has turned up, +whom they never would have hired. But that won't be the whole story. +If it were merely a question of doctrine, I should resign. It's deeper +than that, more sinister." Hodder doubled up his hand, and laid it on +the table. "It's a matter," he said, looking into McCrae's eyes, "of +freeing this church from those who now hold it in chains. And the two +questions, I see clearly now, the doctrinal and the economic, are so +interwoven as to be inseparable. My former, ancient presentation of +Christianity left men and women cold. It did not draw them into this +church and send them out again fired with the determination to bring +religion into everyday life, resolved to do their part in the removal of +the injustices and cruelties with which we are surrounded, to bring +Christianity into government, where it belongs. Don't misunderstand me +I'm not going to preach politics, but religion." + +"I don't misunderstand ye," answered McCrae. He leaned a little forward, +staring at the rector from behind his steel spectacles with a glance +which had become piercing. + +"And I am going to discourage a charity which is a mockery of +Christianity," Hodder went on, "the spectacle of which turns thousands +of men and women in sickening revolt against the Church of Christ to-day. +I have discovered, at last, how some of these persons have made their +money, and are making it. And I am going to let them know, since they +have repudiated God in their own souls, since they have denied the +Christian principle of individual responsibility, that I, as the vicar of +God, will not be a party to the transaction of using the Church as a +means of doling out ill-gotten gains to the poor." + +"Mr. Parr!" McCrae exclaimed. + +"Yes," said the rector, slowly, and with a touch of sadness, "since you +have mentioned him, Mr. Parr. But I need not say that this must go no +farther. I am in possession of definite facts in regard to Mr. Parr +which I shall present to him when he returns." + +"Ye'll tell him to his face?" + +"It is the only way." + +McCrae had risen. A remarkable transformation had come over the man, +--he was reminiscent, at that moment, of some Covenanter ancestor going +into battle. And his voice shook with excitement. + +"Ye may count on me, Mr. Hodder," he cried. "These many years I've +waited, these many years I've seen what ye see now, but I was not the +man. Aye, I've watched ye, since the day ye first set foot in this +church. I knew what was going on inside of ye, because it was just +that I felt myself. I hoped--I prayed ye might come to it." + +The sight of this taciturn Scotchman, moved in this way, had an +extraordinary effect on Hodder himself, and his own emotion was so +inexpressibly stirred that he kept silence a moment to control it. +This proof of the truth of his theory in regard to McCrae he found +overwhelming. + +"But you said nothing, McCrae," he began presently. "I felt all along +that you knew what was wrong--if you had only spoken." + +"I could not," said McCrae. "I give ye my word I tried, but I just could +not. Many's the time I wanted to--but I said to myself, when I looked at +you, 'wait, it will come, much better than ye can say it.' And ye have +made me see more than I saw, Mr. Hodder,--already ye have. Ye've got the +whole thing in ye're eye, and I only had a part of it. It's because +ye're the bigger man of the two." + +"You thought I'd come to it?" demanded Hodder, as though the full force +of this insight had just struck him. + +"Well," said McCrae, "I hoped. It seemed, to look at ye, ye'r true +nature--what was by rights inside of ye. That's the best explaining I +can do. And I call to mind that time ye spoke about not making the men +in the classes Christians--that was what started me to thinking." + +"And you asked me," returned the rector, "how welcome some of them would +be in Mr. Parr's Pew." + +"Ah, it worried me," declared the assistant, with characteristic +frankness, "to see how deep ye were getting in with him." + +Hodder did not reply to this. He had himself risen, and stood looking at +McCrae, filled with a new thought. + +"There is one thing I should like to say to you--which is very difficult, +McCrae, but I have no doubt you see the matter as clearly as I do. In +making this fight, I have no one but myself to consider. I am a single +man--" + +"Yell not need to go on," answered McCrae, with an odd mixture of +sternness and gentleness in his voice. "I'll stand and fall with ye, Mr. +Hodder. Before I ever thought of the Church I learned a trade, as a boy +in Scotland. I'm not a bad carpenter. And if worse comes to worse, I've +an idea I can make as much with my hands as I make in the ministry." + +The smile they exchanged across the table sealed the compact between +them. + + + +II + +The electric car which carried him to his appointment with the financier +shot westward like a meteor through the night. And now that the hour was +actually at hand, it seemed to Hodder that he was absurdly unprepared to +meet it. New and formidable aspects, hitherto unthought of, rose in his +mind, and the figure of Eldon Parr loomed to Brobdingnagian proportions +as he approached it. In spite of his determination, the life-blood of +his confidence ebbed, a sense of the power and might of the man who had +now become his adversary increased; and that apprehension of the impact +of the great banker's personality, the cutting edge with the vast +achievements wedged in behind it, each adding weight and impetus to its +momentum the apprehension he had felt in less degree on the day of the +first meeting, and which had almost immediately evaporated--surged up +in him now. His fear was lest the charged atmosphere of the banker's +presence might deflect his own hitherto clear perception of true worth. +He dreaded, once in the midst of those disturbing currents, a bungling +presentation of the cause which inspired him, and which he knew to be +righteousness itself. + +Suddenly his mood shifted, betraying still another weakness, and he saw +Eldon Parr, suddenly, vividly--more vividly, indeed, than ever before--in +the shades of the hell of his loneliness. And pity welled up, drowning +the image of incarnate greed and selfishness and lust for wealth and +power: The unique pathos of his former relationship with the man +reasserted itself, and Hodder was conscious once more of the dependence +which Eldon Parr had had on his friendship. During that friendship he, +Hodder, had never lost the sense of being the stronger of the two, of +being leaned upon: leaned upon by a man whom the world feared and hated, +and whom he had been enable to regard with anything but compassion and +the unquestionable affection which sprang from it. Appalled by this +transition, he alighted from the car, and stood for a moment alone in the +darkness gazing at the great white houses that rose above the dusky +outline of shrubbery and trees. + +At any rate, he wouldn't find that sense of dependence to-night. And it +steeled him somewhat to think, as he resumed his steps, that he would +meet now the other side, the hard side hitherto always turned away. Had +he needed no other warning of this, the answer to his note asking for an +appointment would have been enough,--a brief and formal communication +signed by the banker's secretary. . . + +"Mr. Parr is engaged just at present, sir," said the servant who opened +the door. "Would you be good enough to step into the library?" + +Hardly had he entered the room when he heard a sound behind him, and +turned to confront Alison. The thought of her, too, had complicated +infinitely his emotions concerning the interview before him, and the +sight of her now, of her mature beauty displayed in evening dress, of her +white throat gleaming whiter against the severe black of her gown, made +him literally speechless. Never had he accused her of boldness, and now +least of all. It was the quality of her splendid courage that was borne +in upon him once more above the host of other feelings and impressions, +for he read in her eyes a knowledge of the meaning of his visit. + +They stood facing each other an appreciable moment. + +"Mr. Langmaid is with him now," she said, in a low voice. + +"Yes," he answered. + +Her eyes still rested on his face, questioningly, appraisingly, as though +she were seeking to estimate his preparedness for the ordeal before him, +his ability to go through with it successfully, triumphantly. And in her +mention of Langmaid he recognized that she had meant to sound a note of +warning. She had intimated a consultation of the captains, a council of +war. And yet he had never spoken to her of this visit. This proof of +her partisanship, that she had come to him at the crucial instant, +overwhelmed him. + +"You know why I am here?" he managed to say. It had to do with the +extent of her knowledge. + +"Oh, why shouldn't I?" she cried, "after what you have told me. And +could you think I didn't understand, from the beginning, that it meant +this?" + +His agitation still hampered him. He made a gesture of assent. + +"It was inevitable," he said. + +"Yes, it' was inevitable," she assented, and walked slowly to the mantel, +resting her hand on it and bending her head. "I felt that you would not +shirk it, and yet I realize how painful it must be to you." + +"And to you," he replied quickly. + +"Yes, and to me. I do not know what you know, specifically,--I have +never sought to find out things, in detail. That would be horrid. But +I understand--in general--I have understood for many years." She raised +her head, and flashed him a glance that was between a quivering smile and +tears. "And I know that you have certain specific information." + +He could only wonder at her intuition. + +"So far as I am concerned, it is not for the world," he answered. + +"Oh, I appreciate that in you!" she exclaimed. "I wished you to know it. +I wished you to know," she added, a little unsteadily, "how much I admire +you for what you are doing. They are afraid of you--they will crush you +if they can." + +He did not reply. + +"But you are going to speak the truth," she continued, her voice low and +vibrating, "that is splendid! It must have its effect, no matter what +happens." + +"Do you feel that?" he asked, taking a step toward her. + +"Yes. When I see you, I feel it, I think." . . . + +Whatever answer he might have made to this was frustrated by the +appearance of the figure of Nelson Langmaid in the doorway. He seemed +to survey them benevolently through his spectacles. + +"How are you, Hodder? Well, Alison, I have to leave without seeing +anything of you--you must induce your father not to bring his business +home with him. Just a word," he added to the rector, "before you go up." + +Hodder turned to Alison. "Good night," he said. + +The gentle but unmistakable pressure of her hand he interpreted as the +pinning on him of the badge of her faith. He was to go into battle +wearing her colours. Their eyes met. + +"Good night," she answered . . . . + +In the hall the lawyer took his arm. + +"What's the trouble, Hodder?" he asked, sympathetically. + +Hodder, although on his guard, was somewhat taken aback by the directness +of the onslaught. + +"I'm afraid, Mr. Langmaid," the rector replied, "that it would take me +longer to tell you than the time at your disposal." + +"Dear me," said the lawyer, "this is too bad. Why didn't you come to me? +I am a good friend of yours, Hodder, and there is an additional bond +between us on my sister's account. She is extremely fond of you, you +know. And I have a certain feeling of responsibility for you,--I brought +you here." + +"You have always been very kind, and I appreciate it," Hodder replied. +"I should be sorry to cause you any worry or annoyance. But you must +understand that I cannot share the responsibility of my acts with any +one." + +"A little advice from an old legal head is sometimes not out of place. +Even Dr. Gilman used to consult me. I hope you will bear in mind how +remarkably well you have been getting along at St. John's, and what a +success you've made." + +"Success!" echoed the rector. + +Either Mr. Langmaid read nothing in his face, or was determined to read +nothing. + +"Assuredly," he answered, benignly. "You have managed to please +everybody, Mr. Parr included,--and some of us are not easy to please. +I thought I'd tell you this, as a friend, as your first friend in the +parish. Your achievement has been all the more remarkable, following, +as you did, Dr. Gilman. Now it would greatly distress me to see that +state of things disturbed, both for your sake and others. I thought I +would just give you a hint, as you are going to see Mr. Parr, that he +is in rather a nervous state. These so-called political reformers have +upset the market and started a lot of legal complications that's why I'm +here to-night. Go easy with him. I know you won't do anything foolish." + +The lawyer accompanied this statement with a pat, but this time he did +not succeed in concealing his concern. + +"That depends on one's point of view," Hodder returned, with a smile. +"I do not know how you have come to suspect that I am going to disturb +Mr. Parr, but what I have to say to him is between him and me." + +Langmaid took up his hat from the table, and sighed. + +"Drop in on me sometime," he said, "I'd like to talk to you--Hodder heard +a voice behind him, and turned. A servant was standing there. + +"Mr. Parr is ready to see you, sir," he said. + +The rector followed him up the stairs, to the room on the second floor, +half office, half study, where the capitalist transacted his business +when at home. + + + +III + +Eldon Parr was huddled over his desk reading a typewritten document; but +he rose, and held out his hand, which Hodder took. + +"How are you, Mr. Hodder? I'm sorry to have kept you waiting, but +matters of some legal importance have arisen on which I was obliged to +make a decision. You're well, I hope." He shot a glance at the rector, +and sat down again, still holding the sheets. "If you will excuse me a +moment longer, I'll finish this." + +"Certainly," Hodder replied. + +"Take a chair," said Mr. Parr, "you'll find the evening paper beside +you." + +Hodder sat down, and the banker resumed his perusal of the document, his +eye running rapidly over the pages, pausing once in a while to scratch +out a word or to make a note on the margin. In the concentration of the +man on the task before him the rector read a design, an implication that +the affairs of the Church were of a minor importance: sensed, indeed, +the new attitude of hostility, gazed upon the undiscovered side, the +dangerous side before which other men had quailed. Alison's words +recurred to him, "they are afraid of you, they will crush you if they +can." Eldon Parr betrayed, at any rate, no sign of fear. If his mental +posture were further analyzed, it might be made out to contain an +intimation that the rector, by some act, had forfeited the right +to the unique privilege of the old relationship. + +Well, the fact that the banker had, in some apparently occult manner, +been warned, would make Hodder's task easier--or rather less difficult. +His feelings were even more complicated than he had anticipated. The +moments of suspense were trying to his nerves, and he had a shrewd notion +that this making men wait was a favourite manoeuvre of Eldon Parr's; nor +had he underrated the benumbing force of that personality. It was +evident that the financier intended him to open the battle, and he was +--as he had expected--finding it difficult to marshal the regiments of his +arguments. In vain he thought of the tragedy of Garvin . . . . The +thing was more complicated. And behind this redoubtable and sinister +Eldon Parr he saw, as it were, the wraith of that: other who had once +confessed the misery of his loneliness. . . . + +At last the banker rang, sharply, the bell on his desk. A secretary +entered, to whom he dictated a telegram which contained these words: +"Langmaid has discovered a way out." It was to be sent to an address in +Texas. Then he turned in his chair and crossed his knees, his hand +fondling an ivory paper-cutter. He smiled a little. + +"Well, Mr. Hodder," he said. + +The rector, intensely on his guard, merely inclined his head in +recognition that his turn had come. + +"I was sorry," the banker continued, after a perceptible pause,--that +you could not see your way clear to have come with me on the cruise." + +"I must thank you again," Hodder answered, "but I felt--as I wrote you +--that certain matters made it impossible for me to go." + +"I suppose you had your reasons, but I think you would have enjoyed the +trip. I had a good, seaworthy boat--I chartered her from Mr. Lieber, the +president of the Continental Zinc, you know. I went as far as Labrador. +A wonderful coast, Mr. Hodder." + +"It must be," agreed the rector. It was clear that Mr. Parr intended to +throw upon him the onus of the first move. There was a silence, brief, +indeed, but long enough for Hodder to feel more and more distinctly the +granite hardness which the other had become, to experience a rising, +reenforcing anger. He went forward, steadily but resolutely, on the +crest of it. "I have remained in the city," he continued, "and I have had +the opportunity to discover certain facts of which I have hitherto been +ignorant, and which, in my opinion, profoundly affect the welfare of the +church. It is of these I wished to speak to you." + +Mr. Parr waited. + +"It is not much of an exaggeration to say that ever since I came here +I have been aware that St. John's, considering the long standing of the +parish, the situation of the church in a thickly populated district, is +not fulfilling its mission. But I have failed until now to perceive the +causes of that inefficiency." + +"Inefficiency?" The banker repeated the word. + +"Inefficiency," said Hodder. "The reproach, the responsibility is +largely mine, as the rector, the spiritual, head of the parish. I +believe I am right when I say that the reason for the decision, some +twenty years ago, to leave the church where it is, instead of selling the +property and building in the West End, was that it might minister to the +poor in the neighbourhood, to bring religion and hope into their lives, +and to exert its influence towards eradicating the vice and misery which +surround it." + +"But I thought you had agreed," said Mr. Parr, coldly, "that we were to +provide for that in the new chapel and settlement house." + +"For reasons which I hope to make plain to you, Mr. Parr," Hodder +replied, "those people can never be reached, as they ought to be reached, +by building that settlement house. The principle is wrong, the day is +past when such things can be done--in that way." He laid an emphasis on +these words. "It is good, I grant you, to care for the babies and +children of the poor, it is good to get young women and men out of the +dance-halls, to provide innocent amusement, distraction, instruction. +But it is not enough. It leaves the great, transforming thing in the +lives of these people untouched, and it will forever remain untouched so +long as a sense of wrong, a continually deepening impression of an +unchristian civilization upheld by the Church herself, exists. Such an +undertaking as that settlement house--I see clearly now--is a palliation, +a poultice applied to one of many sores, a compromise unworthy of the +high mission of the Church. She should go to the root of the disease. +It is her first business to make Christians, who, by amending their own +lives, by going out individually and collectively into the life of the +nation, will gradually remove these conditions." + +Mr. Parr sat drumming on the table. Hodder met his look. + +"So you, too, have come to it," he said. + +"Have come to what?" + +"Socialism." + +Hodder, in the state of clairvoyance in which he now surprisingly found +himself, accurately summed up the value and meaning of the banker's sigh. + +"Say, rather," he replied, "that I have come to Christianity. We shall +never have what is called socialism until there is no longer any +necessity for it, until men, of their owe free will, are ready to +renounce selfish, personal ambition and power and work for humanity, +for the state." + +Mr. Parr's gesture implied that he cared not by what name the thing was +called, but he still appeared strangely, astonishingly calm;--Hodder, +with all his faculties acute, apprehended that he was dangerously calm. +The man who had formerly been his friend was now completely obliterated, +and he had the feeling almost of being about to grapple, in mortal +combat, with some unknown monster whose tactics and resources were +infinite, whose victims had never escaped. The monster was in Eldon +Parr--that is how it came to him. The waxy, relentless demon was +aroused. It behooved him, Hodder, to step carefully . . . . + +"That is all very fine, Mr. Hodder, very altruistic, very Christian, +I've no doubt-but the world doesn't work that way." (These were the +words borne in on Hodder's consciousness.) "What drives the world is the +motive furnished by the right of acquiring and holding property. If we +had a division to-day, the able men would come out on top next year." + +The rector shook his head. He remembered, at that moment, Horace +Bentley. + +"What drives the world is a far higher motive, Mr. Parr, the motive +with which have been fired the great lights of history, the motive of +renunciation and service which is transforming governments, which is +gradually making the world a better place in which to live. And we are +seeing men and women imbued with it, rising in ever increasing numbers on +every side to-day." + +"Service!" Eldon Parr had seized upon the word as it passed and held it. +"What do you think my life has been? I suppose," he said, with a touch +of intense bitterness, "that you, too, who six months ago seemed as +reasonable a man as I ever met, have joined in the chorus of +denunciators. It has become the fashion to-day, thanks to your +socialists, reformers, and agitators, to decry a man because he is rich, +to take it for granted that he is a thief and a scoundrel, that he has no +sense of responsibility for his country and his fellow-men. The glory, +the true democracy of this nation, lies in its equal opportunity for all. +They take no account of that, of the fact that each has had the same +chance as his fellows. No, but they cry out that the man who, by the +sweat of his brow, has earned wealth ought to divide it up with the lazy +and the self-indulgent and the shiftless. + +"Take my case, for instance,--it is typical of thousands. I came to this +city as a boy in my teens, with eight dollars in my pocket which I had +earned on a farm. I swept the floor, cleaned the steps, moved boxes and +ran errands in Gabriel Parker's store on Third Street. I was +industrious, sober, willing to do anything. I fought, I tell you every +inch of my way. As soon as I saved a little money I learned to use every +ounce of brain I possessed to hold on to it. I trusted a man once, and I +had to begin all over again. And I discovered, once for all, if a man +doesn't look out for himself, no one will. + +"I don't pretend that I am any better than any one else, I have had to +take life as I found it, and make the best of it. I conformed to the +rules of the game; I soon had sense enough knocked into me to understand +that the conditions were not of my making. But I'll say this for +myself," Eldon Parr leaned forward over the blotter, "I had standards, +and I stuck by them. I wanted to be a decent citizen, to bring up my +children in the right way. I didn't squander my money, when I got it, on +wine and women, I respected other men's wives, I supported the Church and +the institutions of the city. I too even I had my ambitions, my ideals +--and they were not entirely worldly ones. You would probably accuse me of +wishing to acquire only the position of power which I hold. If you had +accepted my invitation to go aboard the yacht this summer, it was my +intention to unfold to you a scheme of charities which has long been +forming in my mind, and which I think would be of no small benefit to the +city where I have made my fortune. I merely mention this to prove to you +that I am not unmindful, in spite of the circumstances of my own life, +of the unfortunates whose mental equipment is not equal to my own." + +By this "poor boy" argument which--if Hodder had known--Mr. Parr had +used at banquets with telling effect, the banker seemed to regain +perspective and equilibrium, to plant his feet once more on the +rock of the justification of his life, and from which, by a somewhat +extraordinary process he had not quite understood, he had been partially +shaken off. As he had proceeded with his personal history, his manner +had gradually become one of the finality of experience over theory, +of the forbearance of the practical man with the visionary. Like most +successful citizens of his type, he possessed in a high degree the +faculty of creating sympathy, of compelling others to accept +--temporarily, at least--his point of view. It was this faculty, Hodder +perceived, which had heretofore laid an enchantment upon him, and it was +not without a certain wonder that he now felt himself to be released from +the spell. + +The perceptions of the banker were as keen, and his sense of security was +brief. Somehow, as he met the searching eye of the rector, he was unable +to see the man as a visionary, but beheld--and, to do him justice--felt a +twinge of respect for an adversary worthy of his steel. + +He, who was accustomed to prepare for clouds when they were mere specks +on his horizon, paused even now to marvel why he had not dealt with this. +Here was a man--a fanatic, if he liked--but still a man who positively +did not fear him, to whom his wrath and power were as nothing! A new and +startling and complicated sensation--but Eldon Parr was no coward. If he +had, consciously or unconsciously, formerly looked upon the clergyman as +a dependent, Hodder appeared to be one no more. The very ruggedness of +the man had enhanced, expanded--as it were--until it filled the room. +And Hodder had, with an audacity unparalleled in the banker's experience +arraigned by implication his whole life, managed to put him on the +defensive. + +"But if that be your experience," the rector said, "and it has become +your philosophy, what is it in you that impels you to give these large +sums for the public good?" + +"I should suppose that you, as a clergyman, might understand that my +motive is a Christian one." + +Hodder sat very still, but a higher light came into his eyes. + +"Mr. Parr," he replied, "I have been a friend of yours, and I am a friend +still. And what I am going to tell you is not only in the hope that +others may benefit, but that your own soul may be saved. I mean that +literally--your own soul. You are under the impression that you are a +Christian, but you are not and never have been one. And you will not be +one until your whole life is transformed, until you become a different +man. If you do not change, it is my duty to warn you that the sorrow and +suffering, the uneasiness which you now know, and which drive you on, in +search of distraction, to adding useless sums of money to your fortune +--this suffering, I say, will become intensified. You will die in the +knowledge of it, and live on after, in the knowledge of it." + +In spite of himself, the financier drew back before this unexpected +blast, the very intensity of which had struck a chill of terror in his +inmost being. He had been taken off his guard,--for he had supposed the +day long past--if it had ever existed--when a spiritual rebuke would +upset him; the day long past when a minister could pronounce one with +any force. That the Church should ever again presume to take herself +seriously had never occurred to him. And yet--the man had denounced him +in a moment of depression, of nervous irritation and exasperation against +a government which had begun to interfere with the sacred liberty of its +citizens, against political agitators who had spurred that government on. +The world was mad. No element, it seemed, was now content to remain in +its proper place. His voice, as he answered, shook with rage,--all the +greater because the undaunted sternness by which it was confronted seemed +to reduce it to futility. + +"Take care!" he cried, "take care! You, nor any other man, clergyman or +no clergyman, have any right to be the judge of my conduct." + +"On the contrary," said Holder, "if your conduct affects the welfare, the +progress, the reputation of the church of which I am rector, I have the +right. And I intend to exercise it. It becomes my duty, however +painful, to tell you, as a member of the Church, wherein you have +wronged the Church and wronged yourself." + +He didn't raise his tone, and there was in it more of sorrow than of +indignation. The banker turned an ashen gray . . A moment elapsed +before he spoke, a transforming moment. He suddenly became ice. + +"Very well," he said. "I can't pretend to account for these astounding +views you have acquired--and I am using a mild term. Let me say this: +(he leaned forward a little, across the desk) I demand that you be +specific. I am a busy man, I have little time to waste, I have certain +matters--before me which must be attended to to-night. I warn you that +I will not listen any longer to vague accusations." + +It was Holder's turn to marvel. Did Eldon Purr, after all; have no sense +of guilt? Instantaneously, automatically, his own anger rose. + +"You may be sure, Mr. Parr, that I should not be here unless I were +prepared to be specific. And what I am going to say to you I have +reserved for your ear alone, in the hope that you will take it to heart, +while it is not yet too late, said amend your life accordingly." + +Eldon Parr shifted slightly. His look became inscrutable, was riveted on +the rector. + +"I shall call your attention first to a man of whom you have probably +never heard. He is dead now--he threw himself into the river this +summer, with a curse on his lips--I am afraid--a curse against you. A +few years ago he lived happily with his wife and child in a little house +on the Grade Suburban, and he had several thousand dollars as a result of +careful saving and systematic self-denial. + +"Perhaps you have never thought of the responsibilities of a great name. +This man, like thousands of others in the city, idealized you. He looked +up to you as the soul of honour, as a self-made man who by his own +unaided efforts--as you yourself have just pointed out--rose from a poor +boy to a position of power and trust in the community. He saw you a +prominent layman in the Church of God. He was dazzled by the brilliancy +of your success, inspired by a civilization which--gave such +opportunities. He recognized that he himself had not the brains for such +an achievement,--his hope and love and ambition were centred in his boy." + +At the word Eldon Parr's glance was suddenly dulled by pain. He +tightened his lips. + +"That boy was then of a happy, merry disposition, so the mother says, and +every summer night as she cooked supper she used to hear him laughing as +he romped in the yard with his father. When I first saw him this summer, +it was two days before his father committed suicide. The child was +lying, stifled with the heat, in the back room of one of those desolate +lodging houses in Dalton Street, and his little body had almost wasted +away. + +"While I was there the father came in, and when he saw me he was filled +with fury. He despised the Church, and St. John's above all churches, +because you were of it; because you who had given so generously to it had +wrecked his life. You had shattered his faith in humanity, his ideal. +From a normal, contented man he had deteriorated into a monomaniac whom +no one would hire, a physical and mental wreck who needed care and +nursing. He said he hoped the boy would die. + +"And what had happened? The man had bought, with all the money he had +in the world, Consolidated Tractions. He had bought it solely because +of his admiration for your ability, his faith in your name. It was +inconceivable to him that a man of your standing, a public benefactor, a +supporter of church and charities, would permit your name to be connected +with any enterprise that was not sound and just. Thousands like Garvin +lost all they had, while you are still a rich man. It is further +asserted that you sold out all your stock at a high price, with the +exception of that in the leased lines, which are guaranteed heavy +dividends." + +"Have you finished?" demanded Eldon Parr. + +"Not quite, on this subject," replied the rector. "Two nights after +that, the man threw himself in the river. His body was pulled out by men +on a tugboat, and his worthless stock certificate was in his pocket. It +is now in the possession of Mr. Horace Bentley. Thanks to Mr. Bentley, +the widow found a temporary home, and the child has almost recovered." + +Hodder paused. His interest had suddenly become concentrated upon the +banker's new demeanour, and he would not have thought it within the range +of possibility that a man could listen to such a revelation concerning +himself without the betrayal of some feeling. But so it was,--Eldon Parr +had been coldly attentive, save for the one scarcely perceptible tremor +when the boy was mentioned. His interrogatory gesture gave the very +touch of perfection to this attitude, since it proclaimed him to have +listened patiently to a charge so preposterous that a less reasonable man +would have cut it short. + +"And what leads you to suppose," he inquired, "that I am responsible in +this matter? What leads you to infer that the Consolidated Tractions +Company was not organized in good faith? Do you think that business men +are always infallible? The street-car lines of this city were at sixes +and sevens, fighting each other; money was being wasted by poor +management. The idea behind the company was a public-spirited one, to +give the citizens cheaper and better service, by a more modern equipment, +by a wider system of transfer. It seems to me, Mr. Hodder, that you put +yourself in a more quixotic position than the so-called reformers when +you assume that the men who organize a company in good faith are +personally responsible for every share of stock that is sold, and for +the welfare of every individual who may buy the stock. We force no one +to buy it. They do so at their own risk. I myself have thousands of +dollars of worthless stock in my safe. I have never complained." + +The full force of Hodder's indignation went into his reply. + +"I am not talking about the imperfect code of human justice under which +we live, Mr. Parr," he cried. "This is not a case in which a court of +law may exonerate you, it is between you and your God. But I have taken +the trouble to find out, from unquestioned sources, the truth about the +Consolidated Tractions Company--I shall not go into the details at +length--they are doubtless familiar to you. I know that the legal genius +of Mr. Langmaid, one of my vestry, made possible the organization of the +company, and thereby evaded the plain spirit of the law of the state. +I know that one branch line was bought for two hundred and fifty thousand +dollars, and capitalized for three millions, and that most of the others +were scandalously over-capitalized. I know that while the coming +transaction was still a secret, you and other, gentlemen connected with +the matter bought up large interests in other lines, which you proceeded +to lease to yourselves at guaranteed dividends which these lines do not +earn. I know that the first large dividend was paid out of capital. And +the stock which you sold to poor Garvin was so hopelessly watered that it +never could have been anything but worthless. If, in spite of these +facts, you do not deem yourself responsible for the misery which has been +caused, if your conscience is now clear, it is my duty to tell you that +there is a higher bar of justice." + +The intensity of the fire of the denunciation had, indeed, a momentary +yet visible effect in the banker's expression. Whatever the emotions +thus lashed to self-betrayal, anger, hatred,--fear, perhaps, Hodder could +not detect a trace of penitence; and he was aware, on the part of the +other, of a supreme, almost spasmodic effort for self-control. The +constitutional reluctance of Eldon Parr to fight openly could not have +been more clearly demonstrated. + +"Because you are a clergyman, Mr. Hodder," he began, "because you are +the rector of St. John's, I have allowed you to say things to me which +I would not have permitted from any other man. I have tried to take +into account your point of view, which is naturally restricted, your +pardonable ignorance of what business men, who wish to do their duty by +Church and State, have to contend with. When you came to this parish you +seemed to have a sensible, a proportional view of things; you were +content to confine your activities to your own sphere, content not to +meddle with politics and business, which you could, at first hand, know +nothing about. The modern desire of clergymen to interfere in these +matters has ruined the usefulness of many of them. + +"I repeat, I have tried to be patient. I venture to hope, still, that +this extraordinary change in you may not be permanent, but merely the +result of a natural sympathy with the weak and unwise and unfortunate who +are always to be found in a complex civilization. I can even conceive +how such a discovery must have shocked you, temporarily aroused your +indignation, as a clergyman, against the world as it is--and, I may add, +as it has always been. My personal friendship for you, and my interest +in your future welfare impel me to make a final appeal to you not to ruin +a career which is full of promise." + +The rector did not take advantage of the pause. A purely psychological +curiosity hypnotized him to see how far the banker would go in his +apparent generosity. + +"I once heard you say, I believe, in a sermon, that the Christian +religion is a leaven. It is the leaven that softens and ameliorates the +hard conditions of life, that makes our relations with our fellow-men +bearable. But life is a contest, it is war. It always has been, and +always will be. Business is war, commerce is war, both among nations and +individuals. You cannot get around it. If a man does not exterminate +his rivals they will exterminate him. In other days churches were built +and endowed with the spoils of war, and did not disdain the money. +To-day they cheerfully accept the support and gifts of business men. +I do not accuse them of hypocrisy. It is a recognition on their part +that business men, in spite of hard facts, are not unmindful of the +spiritual side of life, and are not deaf to the injunction to help +others. And when, let me ask you, could you find in the world's history +more splendid charities than are around us to-day? Institutions endowed +for medical research, for the conquest of deadly diseases? libraries, +hospitals, schools--men giving their fortunes for these things, the +fruits of a life's work so laboriously acquired? Who can say that the +modern capitalist is not liberal, is not a public benefactor? + +"I dislike being personal, but you have forced it upon me. I dislike to +refer to what I have already done in the matter of charities, but I +hinted to you awhile ago of a project I have conceived and almost +perfected of gifts on a much larger scale than I have ever attempted." +The financier stared at him meaningly. "And I had you in mind as one of +the three men whom I should consult, whom I should associate with myself +in the matter. We cannot change human nature, but we can better +conditions by wise giving. I do not refer now to the settle ment house, +which I am ready to help make and maintain as the best in the country, +but I have in mind a system to be carried out with the consent and aid +of the municipal government, of play-grounds, baths, parks, places of +recreation, and hospitals, for the benefit of the people, which will +put our city in the very forefront of progress. And I believe, as a +practical man, I can convince you that the betterment which you and I so +earnestly desire can be brought about in no other way. Agitation can +only result in anarchy and misery for all." + +Hodder's wrath, as he rose from his chair, was of the sort that appears +incredibly to add to the physical stature,--the bewildering spiritual +wrath which is rare indeed, and carries all before it. + +"Don't tempt me, Mr. Parr!" he said. "Now that I know the truth, I tell +you frankly I would face poverty and persecution rather than consent to +your offer. And I warn you once more not to flatter yourself that +existence ends here, that you will, not be called to answer for every +wrong act you have committed in accumulating your fortune, that what +you call business is an affair of which God takes no account. What +I say may seem foolishness to you, but I tell you, in the words of that +Foolishness, that it will not profit you to gain the whole world and lose +your own soul. You remind me that the Church in old time accepted gifts +from the spoils of war, and I will add of rapine and murder. And the +Church to-day, to repeat your own parallel, grows rich with money +wrongfully got. Legally? Ah, yes, legally, perhaps. But that will not +avail you. And the kind of church you speak of--to which I, to my shame, +once consented--Our Lord repudiates. It is none of his. I warn you, Mr. +Parr, in his Name, first to make your peace with your brothers before you +presume to lay another gift on the altar." + +During this withering condemnation of himself Eldon Parr sat motionless, +his face grown livid, an expression on it that continued to haunt Hodder +long afterwards. An expression, indeed, which made the banker almost +unrecognizable. + +"Go," he whispered, his hand trembling visibly as he pointed towards the +door. "Go--I have had enough of this." + +"Not until I have said one thing more," replied the rector, undaunted. +"I have found the woman whose marriage with your son you prevented, whom +you bought off and started on the road to hell without any sense of +responsibility. You have made of her a prostitute and a drunkard. +Whether she can be rescued or not is problematical. She, too, is in +Mr. Bentley's care, a man upon whom you once showed no mercy. I leave +Garvin, who has gone to his death, and Kate Marcy and Horace Bentley to +your conscience, Mr. Parr. That they are representative of many others, +I do not doubt. I tell you solemnly that the whole meaning of life is +service to others, and I warn you, before it is too late, to repent and +make amends. Gifts will not help you, and charities are of no avail." + +At the reference to Kate Marcy Eldon Parr's hand dropped to his side. +He seemed to have physical difficulty in speaking. + +"Ah, you have found that woman!" He leaned an elbow on the desk, +he seemed suddenly to have become weary, spent, old. And Hodder, +as he watched him, perceived--that his haggard look was directed towards +a photograph in a silver frame on the table--a photograph of Preston +Parr. At length he broke the silence. + +"What would you have had me do?" he asked. "Permit my son to marry a +woman of the streets, I suppose. That would have been Christianity, +according to your notion. Come now, what world you have done, if your +son had been in question?" + +A wave of pity swept over the rector. + +"Why," he said, why did you have nothing but cruelty in your heart, and +contempt for her? When you saw that she was willing, for the love of the +son whom you loved, to give up all that life meant to her, how could you +destroy her without a qualm? The crime you committed was that you +refused to see God in that woman's soul, when he had revealed himself to +you. You looked for wile, for cunning, for self-seeking,--and they were +not there. Love had obliterated them. When you saw how meekly she +obeyed you, and agreed to go away, why did you not have pity? If you +had listened to your conscience, you would have known what to do. + +"I do not say that you should not have opposed the marriage--then. +Marriage is not to be lightly entered into. From the moment you went to +see her you became responsible for her. You hurled her into the abyss, +and she has come back to haunt you. You should have had her educated and +cared for--she would have submitted, to any plan you proposed. And if, +after a sensible separation, you became satisfied as to her character and +development, and your son still wished to marry her, you should have +withdrawn your objections. + +"As it is, and in consequence of your act, you have lost your son. He +left you then, and you have no more control over him." + +"Stop!" cried Eldon Parr, "for God's sake stop! I won't stand any more +of this. I will not listen to criticism of my life, to strictures on my +conduct from you or any other man." He reached for a book on the corner +of his desk--a cheque book.--"You'll want money for these people, I +suppose," he added brutally. "I will give it, but it must be understood +that I do not recognize any right of theirs to demand it." + +For a moment Holder did not trust himself to reply. He looked down +across the desk at the financier, who was fumbling with the leaves. + +"They do not demand it, Mr. Parr," he answered, gently. "And I have +tried to make it plain to you that you have lost the right to give it. +I expected to fail in this. I have failed." + +"What do you mean?" Eldon Parr let the cheque book close. + +"I mean what I said," the rector replied. "That if you would save your +soul you must put an end, to-morrow, to the acquisition of money, and +devote the rest of your life to an earnest and sincere attempt to make +just restitution to those you have wronged. And you must ask the +forgiveness of God for your sins. Until you do that, your charities are +abominations in his sight. I will not trouble you any longer, except to +say that I shall be ready to come to you at any time my presence may be +of any help to you." + +The banker did not speak . . . . With a single glance towards the +library Holder left the house, but paused for a moment outside to gaze +back at it, as it loomed in the darkness against the stars. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +ALISON GOES TO CHURCH + + +I + +On the following Sunday morning the early light filtered into Alison's +room, and she opened her strong eyes. Presently she sprang from her bed +and drew back the curtains of the windows, gazing rapturously into the +crystal day. The verdure of the Park was freshened to an incredible +brilliancy by the dew, a thin white veil of mist was spread over the +mirror of the waters, the trees flung long shadows across the turf. + +A few minutes later she was out, thrilled by the silence, drawing in +deep, breaths of the morning air; lingering by still lakes catching the +blue of the sky--a blue that left its stain upon the soul; as the sun +mounted she wandered farther, losing herself in the wilderness of the +forest. + +At eight o'clock, when she returned, there were signs that the city had +awakened. A mounted policeman trotted past her as she crossed a gravel +drive, and on the tree-flecked stretches, which lately had been empty as +Eden, human figures were scattered. A child, with a sailboat that +languished for lack of wind, stared at her, first with fascination and +wonder in his eyes, and then smiled at her tentatively. She returned the +smile with a start. + +Children had stared at her like that before now, and for the first time +in her life she asked herself what the look might mean. She had never +really been fond of them: she had never, indeed, been brought much in +contact with them. But now, without warning, a sudden fierce yearning +took possession of her: surprised and almost frightened, she stopped +irresistibly and looked back at the thin little figure crouched beside +the water, to discover that his widened eyes were still upon her. Her +own lingered on him shyly, and thus for a moment she hung in doubt +whether to flee or stay, her heart throbbing as though she were on the +brink of some unknown and momentous adventure. She took a timid step. + +"What's your name?" she asked. + +The boy told her. + +"What's yours?" he ventured, still under the charm. + +"Alison." + +He had never heard of that name, and said so. They deplored the lack of +wind. And presently, still mystified, but gathering courage, he asked +her why she blushed, at which her colour deepened. + +"I can't help it," she told him. + +"I like it," the boy said. + +Though the grass was still wet, she got down on her knees in her white +skirt, the better to push the boat along the shore: once it drifted +beyond their reach, and was only rescued by a fallen branch discovered +with difficulty. + +The arrival of the boy's father, an anaemic-looking little man, put an +end to their play. He deplored the condition of the lady's dress. + +"It doesn't matter in the least," she assured him, and fled in a mood she +did not attempt to analyze. Hurrying homeward, she regained her room, +bathed, and at half past eight appeared in the big, formal dining-room, +from which the glare of the morning light was carefully screened. Her +father insisted on breakfasting here; and she found him now seated before +the white table-cloth, reading a newspaper. He glanced up at her +critically. + +"So you've decided to honour me this morning," he said. + +"I've been out in the Park," she replied, taking the chair opposite him. +He resumed his reading, but presently, as she was pouring out the coffee, +he lowered the paper again. + +"What's the occasion to-day?" he asked. + +"The occasion?" she repeated, without acknowledging that she had +instantly grasped his implication. His eyes were on her gown. + +"You are not accustomed, as a rule, to pay much deference to Sunday." + +"Doesn't the Bible say, somewhere," she inquired, "that the Sabbath was +made for man? Perhaps that may be broadened after a while, to include +woman." + +"But you have never been an advocate, so far as I know, of women taking +advantage of their opportunity by going to Church." + +"What's the use," demanded Alison, "of the thousands of working women +spending the best part of the day in the ordinary church, when their feet +and hands and heads are aching? Unless some fire is kindled in their +souls, it is hopeless for them to try to obtain any benefit from +religion--so-called--as it is preached to them in most churches." + +"Fire in their souls!" exclaimed the banker. + +"Yes. If the churches offered those who might be leaders among their +fellows a practical solution of existence, kindled their self-respect, +replaced a life of drudgery by one of inspiration--that would be worth +while. But you will never get such a condition as that unless your +pulpits are filled by personalities, instead of puppets who are all cast +in one mould, and who profess to be there by divine right." + +"I am glad to see at least that you are taking an interest in religious +matters," her father observed, meaningly. + +Alison coloured. But she retorted with spirit. + +"That is true of a great many persons to-day who are thinking on the +subject. If Christianity is a solution of life, people are demanding of +the churches that they shall perform their function, and show us how, and +why, or else cease to encumber the world." + +Eldon Parr folded up his newspaper. + +"So you are going to Church this morning," he said. + +"Yes. At what time will you be ready?" + +"At quarter to eleven. But if you are going to St. John', you will have +to start earlier. I'll order a car at half past ten." + +"Where are you going?" She held her breath, unconsciously, for the +answer. + +"To Calvary," he replied coldly, as he rose to leave the room. "But I +hesitate to ask you to come,--I am afraid you will not find a religion +there that suits you." + +For a moment she could not trust herself to speak. The secret which, +ever since Friday evening, she had been burning to learn was disclosed +. . . Her father had broken with Mr. Hodder! + +"Please don't order the motor for me," she said. "I'd rather go in the +street cars." + +She sat very still in the empty room, her face burning. + +Characteristically, her father had not once mentioned the rector of St. +John's, yet had contrived to imply that her interest in Hodder was +greater than her interest in religion. And she was forced to admit, with +her customary honesty, that the implication was true. + + +The numbers who knew Alison Parr casually thought her cold. They admired +a certain quality in her work, but they did not suspect that that quality +was the incomplete expression of an innate idealism capable of being +fanned into flame,--for she was subject to rare but ardent enthusiasms +which kindled and transformed her incredibly in the eyes of the few to +whom the process had been revealed. She had had even a longer list of +suitors than any one guessed; men who--usually by accident--had touched +the hidden spring, and suddenly beholding an unimagined woman, had +consequently lost their heads. The mistake most of them had made (for +subtlety in such affairs is not a masculine trait) was the failure to +recognize and continue to present the quality in them which had awakened +her. She had invariably discovered the feet of clay. + +Thus disillusion had been her misfortune--perhaps it would be more +accurate to say her fortune. She had built up, after each invasion, her +defences more carefully and solidly than before, only to be again +astonished and dismayed by the next onslaught, until at length the +question had become insistent--the question of an alliance for purposes +of greater security. She had returned to her childhood home to consider +it, frankly recognizing it as a compromise, a fall . . . . + +And here, in this sanctuary of her reflection, and out of a quarter on +which she had set no watch, out of a wilderness which she had believed to +hold nothing save the ruined splendours of the past, had come one who, +like the traditional figures of the wilderness, had attracted her by his +very uncouthness and latent power. And the anomaly he presented in what +might be called the vehemence of his advocacy of an outworn orthodoxy, +in his occupation of the pulpit of St. John's, had quickened at once her +curiosity and antagonism. It had been her sudden discovery, or rather +her instinctive suspicion of the inner conflict in him which had set her +standard fluttering in response. Once more (for the last time--something +whispered--now) she had become the lady of the lists; she sat on her +walls watching, with beating heart and straining eyes, the closed helm +of her champion, ready to fling down the revived remnant of her faith as +prize or forfeit. She had staked all on the hope that he would not lower +his lance. . . . . + +Saturday had passed in suspense . . . . And now was flooding in on +her the certainty that he had not failed her; that he had, with a sublime +indifference to a worldly future and success, defied the powers. With +indifference, too, to her! She knew, of course, that he loved her. +A man with less of greatness would have sought a middle way . . . . + +When, at half past ten, she fared forth into the sunlight, she was filled +with anticipation, excitement, concern, feelings enhanced and not soothed +by the pulsing vibrations of the church bells in the softening air. The +swift motion of the electric car was grateful. . . But at length the +sight of familiar landmarks, old-fashioned dwellings crowded in between +the stores and factories of lower Tower Street, brought back +recollections of the days when she had come this way, other Sunday +mornings, and in a more leisurely public vehicle, with her mother. +Was it possible that she, Alison Parr, were going to church now? Her +excitement deepened, and she found it difficult to bring herself to the +realization that her destination was a church--the church of her +childhood. At this moment she could only think of St. John's as the +setting of the supreme drama. + +When she alighted at the corner of Burton Street there was the +well-remembered, shifting group on the pavement in front of the church +porch. How many times, in the summer and winter, in fair weather and +cloudy, in rain and sleet and snow had she approached that group, as she +approached it now! Here were the people, still, in the midst of whom her +earliest associations had been formed, changed, indeed,-but yet the same. +No, the change was in her, and the very vastness of that change came as a +shock. These had stood still, anchored to their traditions, while she +--had she grown? or merely wandered? She had searched, at least, and seen. +She had once accepted them--if indeed as a child it could have been said +of her that she accepted anything; she had been unable then, at any rate, +to bring forward any comparisons. + +Now she beheld them, collectively, in their complacent finery, as +representing a force, a section of the army blocking the heads of the +passes of the world's progress, resting on their arms, but ready at the +least uneasy movement from below to man the breastworks, to fling down +the traitor from above, to fight fiercely for the solidarity of their +order. And Alison even believed herself to detect, by something +indefinable in their attitudes as they stood momentarily conversing +in lowered voices, an aroused suspicion, an uneasy anticipation. Her +imagination went so far as to apprehend, as they greeted her unwonted +appearance, that they read in it an addition to other vague and +disturbing phenomena. Her colour was high. + +"Why, my dear," said Mrs. Atterbury, "I thought you had gone back to New +York long ago!" + +Beside his mother stood Gordon--more dried up, it seemed, than ever. +Alison recalled him, as on this very spot, a thin, pale boy in short +trousers, and Mrs. Atterbury a beautiful and controlled young matron +associated with St. John's and with children's parties. She was +wonderful yet, with her white hair and straight nose, her erect figure +still slight. Alison knew that Mrs. Atterbury had never forgiven her for +rejecting her son--or rather for being the kind of woman who could reject +him. + +"Surely you haven't been here all summer?" + +Alison admitted it, characteristically, without explanations. + +"It seems so natural to see you here at the old church, after all these +years," the lady went on, and Alison was aware that Mrs. Atterbury +questioned--or rather was at a loss for the motives which had led such an +apostate back to the fold. "We must thank Mr. Hodder, I suppose. He's +very remarkable. I hear he is resuming the services to-day for the first +time since June." + +Alison was inclined to read a significance into Mrs. Atterbury's glance +at her son, who was clearing his throat. + +"But--where is Mr. Parr?" he asked. "I understand he has come back from +his cruise." + +"Yes, he is back. I came without--him---as you see." + +She found a certain satisfaction in adding to the mystification, to the +disquietude he betrayed by fidgeting more than usual. + +"But--he always comes when he is in town. Business--I suppose--ahem!" + +"No," replied Alison, dropping her bomb with cruel precision, "he has +gone to Calvary." + +The agitation was instantaneous. + +"To Calvary!" exclaimed mother and son in one breath. + +"Why?" It was Gordon who demanded. "A--a special occasion there--a +bishop or something?" + +"I'm afraid you must ask him," she said. + +She was delayed on the steps, first by Nan Ferguson, then by the +Laureston Greys, and her news outdistanced her to the porch. Charlotte +Plimpton looking very red and solid, her eyes glittering with excitement, +blocked her way. + +"Alison?" she cried, in the slightly nasal voice that was a Gore +inheritance, "I'm told your father's gone to Calvary! Has Mr. Hodder +offended him? I heard rumours--Wallis seems to be afraid that something +has happened." + +"He hasn't said anything about it to me, Charlotte," said Alison, in +quiet amusement, "but then he wouldn't, you know. I don't live here any +longer, and he has no reason to think that I would be interested in +church matters." + +"But--why did you come?" Charlotte demanded, with Gore naivete. + +Alison smiled. + +"You mean--what was my motive?" + +Charlotte actually performed the miracle of getting redder. She was +afraid of Alison--much more afraid since she had known of her vogue in +the East. When Alison had put into execution the astounding folly (to +the Gore mind) of rejecting the inheritance of millions to espouse a +profession, it had been Charlotte Plimpton who led the chorus of ridicule +and disapproval. But success, to the Charlotte Plimptons, is its own +justification, and now her ambition (which had ramifications) was to have +Alison "do" her a garden. Incidentally, the question had flashed through +her mind as to how much Alison's good looks had helped towards her +triumph in certain shining circles. + +"Oh, of course I didn't mean that," she hastened to deny, although it was +exactly what she had meant. Her curiosity unsatisfied--and not likely to +be satisfied at once, she shifted abruptly to the other burning subject. +"I was so glad when I learned you hadn't gone. Grace Larrabbee's garden +is a dream, my dear. Wallis and I stopped there the other day and the +caretaker showed it to us. Can't you make a plan for me, so that I may +begin next spring? And there's something else I wanted to ask you. +Wallis and I are going to New York the end of the month. Shall you be +there?" + +"I don't know," said Alison, cautiously. + +"We want so much to see one or two of your gardens on Long Island, and +especially the Sibleys', on the Hudson. I know it will be late in the +season,--but don't you think you could take us, Alison? And I intend to +give you a dinner. I'll write you a note. Here's Wallis." + +"Well, well, well," said Mr. Plimpton, shaking Alison's hand. "Where's +father? I hear he's gone to Calvary." + +Alison made her escape. Inside the silent church, Eleanor Goodrich gave +her a smile and a pressure of welcome. Beside her, standing behind the +rear pew, were Asa Waring and--Mr. Bentley! Mr. Bentley returned to St. +John's! + +"You have come!" Alison whispered. + +He understood her. He took her hand in his and looked down into her +upturned face. + +"Yes, my dear," he said, "and my girls have come Sally Grover and the +others, and some friends from Dalton Street and elsewhere." + +The news, the sound of this old gentleman's voice and the touch of his +hand suddenly filled her with a strange yet sober happiness. Asa Waring, +though he had not overheard, smiled at her too, as in sympathy. His +austere face was curiously illuminated, and she knew instinctively that +in some way he shared her happiness. Mr. Bentley had come back! Yes, it +was an augury. From childhood she had always admired Asa Waring, and now +she felt a closer tie . . . . + +She reached the pew, hesitated an instant, and slipped forward on her +knees. Years had gone by since she had prayed, and even now she made no +attempt to translate into words the intensity of her yearning--for what? +Hodder's success, for one thing,--and by success she meant that he might +pursue an unfaltering course. True to her temperament, she did not look +for the downfall of the forces opposed to him. She beheld him +persecuted, yet unyielding, and was thus lifted to an exaltation that +amazed. . . If he could do it, such a struggle must sorely have an +ultimate meaning! Thus she found herself, trembling, on the borderland +of faith. . . + +She arose, bewildered, her pulses beating. And presently glancing about, +she took in that the church was fuller than she ever remembered having +seen it, and the palpitating suspense she felt seemed to pervade, as it +were, the very silence. With startling abruptness, the silence was +broken by the tones of the great organ that rolled and reverberated among +the arches; distant voices took up the processional; the white choir +filed past,--first the treble voices of the boys, then the deeper notes +of the--men,--turned and mounted the chancel steps, and then she saw +Hodder. Her pew being among the first, he passed very near her. Did he +know she would be there? The sternness of his profile told her nothing. +He seemed at that moment removed, set apart, consecrated--this was the +word that came to her, and yet she was keenly conscious of his presence. + +Tingling, she found herself repeating, inwardly, two, lines of the hymn + + "Lay hold on life, and it shall be + Thy joy and crown eternally." + +"Lay hold on life!" + +The service began,--the well-remembered, beautiful appeal and prayers +which she could still repeat, after a lapse of time, almost by heart; and +their music and rhythm, the simple yet magnificent language in which. +they were clothed--her own language--awoke this morning a racial instinct +strong in her,--she had not known how strong. Or was it something in +Hodder's voice that seemed to illumine the ancient words with a new +meaning? Raising her eyes to the chancel she studied his head, and found +in it still another expression of that race, the history of which had +been one of protest, of development of its own character and personality. +Her mind went back to her first talk with him, in the garden, and she saw +how her intuition had recognized in him then the spirit of a people +striving to assert itself. + +She stood with tightened lips, during the Apostles' Creed, listening to +his voice as it rose, strong and unfaltering, above the murmur of the +congregation. + +At last she saw him swiftly crossing the chancel, mounting the pulpit +steps, and he towered above her, a dominant figure, his white surplice +sharply outlined against the dark stone of the pillar. The hymn died +away, the congregation sat down. There was a sound in the church, +expectant, presaging, like the stirring of leaves at the first breath of +wind, and then all was silent. + + + +II + +He had preached for an hour--longer, perhaps. Alison could not have said +how long. She had lost all sense of time. + +No sooner had the text been spoken, "Except a man be born again, he +cannot see the Kingdom of God," than she seemed to catch a fleeting +glimpse of an hitherto unimagined Personality. Hundreds of times she +had heard those words, and they had been as meaningless to her as to +Nicodemus. But now--now something was brought home to her of the +magnificent certainty with which they must first have been spoken, +of the tone and bearing and authority of him who had uttered them. +Was Christ like that? And could it be a Truth, after all, a truth +only to be grasped by one who had experienced it? + +It was in vain that man had tried to evade this, the supreme revelation +of Jesus Christ, had sought to substitute ceremonies and sacrifices for +spiritual rebirth. It was in vain that the Church herself had, from time +to time, been inclined to compromise. St. Paul, once the strict Pharisee +who had laboured for the religion of works, himself had been reborn into +the religion of the Spirit. It was Paul who had liberated that message +of rebirth, which the world has been so long in grasping, from the narrow +bounds of Palestine and sent it ringing down the ages to the democracies +of the twentieth century. + +And even Paul, though not consciously inconsistent, could not rid himself +completely of that ancient, automatic, conception of religion which the +Master condemned, but had on occasions attempted fruitlessly to unite the +new with the old. And thus, for a long time, Christianity had been +wrongly conceived as history, beginning with what to Paul and the Jews +was an historical event, the allegory of the Garden of Eden, the fall of +Adam, and ending with the Jewish conception of the Atonement. This was a +rationalistic and not a spiritual religion. + +The miracle was not the vision, whatever its nature, which Saul beheld on +the road to Damascus. The miracle was the result of that vision, the man +reborn. Saul, the persecutor of Christians, become Paul, who spent the +rest of his days, in spite of persecution and bodily infirmities, +journeying tirelessly up and down the Roman Empire, preaching the risen +Christ, and labouring more abundantly than they all! There was no +miracle in the New Testament more wonderful than this. + +The risen Christ! Let us not trouble ourselves about the psychological +problems involved, problems which the first century interpreted in its +own simple way. Modern, science has taught us this much, at least, +that we have by no means fathomed the limits even of a transcendent +personality. If proofs of the Resurrection and Ascension were demanded, +let them be spiritual proofs, and there could be none more convincing +than the life of the transformed Saul, who had given to the modern, +western world the message of salvation . . . . + +That afternoon, as Alison sat motionless on a distant hillside of the +Park, gazing across the tree-dotted, rolling country to the westward, she +recalled the breathless silence in the church when he had reached this +point and paused, looking down at the congregation. By the subtle +transmission of thought, of feeling which is characteristic at dramatic +moments of bodies of people, she knew that he had already contrived to +stir them to the quick. It was not so much that these opening words +might have been startling to the strictly orthodox, but the added fact +that Hodder had uttered them. The sensation in the pews, as Alison +interpreted it and exulted over it, was one of bewildered amazement that +this was their rector, the same man who had preached to them in June. +Like Paul, of whom he spoke, he too was transformed, had come to his own, +radiating a new power that seemed to shine in his face. + +Still agitated, she considered that discourse now in her solitude, what +it meant for him, for her, for the Church and civilization that a +clergyman should have had the courage to preach it. He himself had +seemed unconscious of any courage; had never once--she recalled--been +sensational. He had spoken simply, even in the intensest moments of +denunciation. And she wondered now how he had managed, without stripping +himself, without baring the intimate, sacred experiences of his own soul, +to convey to them, so nobly, the change which had taken place in him.... + +He began by referring to the hope with which he had come to St. John's, +and the gradual realization that the church was a failure--a dismal +failure when compared to the high ideal of her Master. By her fruits she +should be known and judged. From the first he had contemplated, with a +heavy heart, the sin and misery at their very gates. Not three blocks +distant children were learning vice in the streets, little boys of seven +and eight, underfed and anaemic, were driven out before dawn to sell +newspapers, little girls thrust forth to haunt the saloons and beg, while +their own children were warmed and fed. While their own daughters were +guarded, young women in Dayton Street were forced to sell themselves into +a life which meant slow torture, inevitable early death. Hopeless +husbands and wives were cast up like driftwood by the cruel, resistless +flood of modern civilization--the very civilization which yielded their +wealth and luxury. The civilization which professed the Spirit of +Christ, and yet was pitiless. + +He confessed to them that for a long time he had been blind to the truth, +had taken the inherited, unchristian view that the disease which caused +vice and poverty might not be cured, though its ulcers might be +alleviated. He had not, indeed, clearly perceived and recognized the +disease. He had regarded Dalton Street in a very special sense as a +reproach to St. John's, but now he saw that all such neighbourhoods were +in reality a reproach to the city, to the state, to the nation. True +Christianity and Democracy were identical, and the congregation of St. +John's, as professed Christians and citizens, were doubly responsible, +inasmuch as they not only made no protest or attempt to change a +government which permitted the Dalton Streets to exist, but inasmuch also +as,--directly or indirectly,--they derived a profit from conditions which +were an abomination to God. It would be but an idle mockery for them to +go and build a settlement house, if they did not first reform their +lives. + +Here there had been a decided stir among the pews. Hodder had not seemed +to notice it. + +When he, their rector, had gone to Dalton Street to invite the poor and +wretched into God's Church, he was met by the scornful question: "Are the +Christians of the churches any better than we? Christians own the grim +tenements in which we live, the saloons and brothels by which we are +surrounded, which devour our children. Christians own the establishments +which pay us starvation wages; profit by politics, and take toll from our +very vice; evade the laws and reap millions, while we are sent to jail. +Is their God a God who will lift us out of our misery and distress? Are +their churches for the poor? Are not the very pews in which they sit as +closed to us as their houses?" + +"I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot. I would thou wert +cold or hot." + +One inevitable conclusion of such a revelation was that he had not +preached to them the vital element of Christianity. And the very fact +that his presentation of religion had left many indifferent or +dissatisfied was proof-positive that he had dwelt upon non-essentials, +laid emphasis upon the mistaken interpretations of past ages. There +were those within the Church who were content with this, who--like the +Pharisees of old--welcomed a religion which did not interfere with their +complacency, with their pursuit of pleasure and wealth, with their +special privileges; welcomed a Church which didn't raise her voice +against the manner of their lives--against the order, the Golden Calf +which they had set up, which did not accuse them of deliberately +retarding the coming of the Kingdom of God. + +Ah, that religion was not religion, for religion was a spiritual, +not a material affair. In that religion, vainly designed by man as a +compromise between God and Mammon, there was none of the divine +discontent of the true religion of the Spirit, no need of the rebirth of +the soul. And those who held it might well demand, with Nicodemus and +the rulers of the earth, "How can these things be?" + +And there were others who still lingered in the Church, perplexed and +wistful, who had come to him and confessed that the so-called catholic +acceptance of divine truths, on which he had hitherto dwelt, meant +nothing to them. To these, in particular, he owed a special reparation, +and he took this occasion to announce a series of Sunday evening sermons +on the Creeds. So long as the Creeds remained in the Prayer Book it was +his duty to interpret them in terms not only of modern thought, but in +harmony with the real significance of the Person and message of Jesus +Christ. Those who had come to him questioning, he declared, were a +thousand times right in refusing to accept the interpretations of other +men, the consensus of opinion of more ignorant ages, expressed in an +ancient science and an archaic philosophy. + +And what should be said of the vast and ever increasing numbers of those +not connected with the Church, who had left it or were leaving it? and of +the less fortunate to whose bodily wants they had been ministering in the +parish house, for whom it had no spiritual message, and who never entered +its doors? The necessity of religion, of getting in touch with, of +dependence on the Spirit of the Universe was inherent in man, and yet +there were thousands--nay, millions in the nation to-day in whose hearts +was an intense and unsatisfied yearning, who perceived no meaning in +life, no Cause for which to work, who did not know what Christianity was, +who had never known what it was, who wist not where to turn to find out. +Education had brought many of them to discern, in the Church's teachings, +an anachronistic medley of myths and legends, of theories of schoolmen +and theologians, of surviving pagan superstitions which could not be +translated into life. They saw, in Christianity, only the adulterations +of the centuries. If any one needed a proof of the yearning people felt, +let him go to the bookshops, or read in the publishers' lists to-day the +announcements of books on religion. There was no supply where there was +no demand. + +Truth might no longer be identified with Tradition, and the day was past +when councils and synods might determine it for all mankind. The era of +forced acceptance of philosophical doctrines and dogmas was past, and +that of freedom, of spiritual rebirth, of vicarious suffering, of willing +sacrifice and service for a Cause was upon them. That cause was +Democracy. Christ was uniquely the Son of God because he had lived and +suffered and died in order to reveal to the world the meaning of this +life and of the hereafter--the meaning not only for the individual, but +for society as well. Nothing might be added to or subtracted from that +message--it was complete. + +True faith was simply trusting--trusting that Christ gave to the world +the revelation of God's plan. And the Saviour himself had pointed out +the proof: "If any man do his will, he shall know of the doctrine, +whether it be of God, or whether I speak for myself." Christ had +repeatedly rebuked those literal minds which had demanded material +evidence: true faith spurned it, just as true friendship, true love +between man and man, true trust scorned a written bond. To paraphrase +St. James's words, faith without trust is dead--because faith without +trust is impossible. God is a Spirit, only to be recognized in the +Spirit, and every one of the Saviour's utterances were--not of the flesh, +of the man--but of the Spirit within him. "He that hath seen me hath +seen the Father;" and "Why callest thou me good? none is good save one, +that is, God." The Spirit, the Universal Meaning of Life, incarnate in +the human Jesus. + +To be born again was to overcome our spiritual blindness, and then, +and then only, we might behold the spirit shining in the soul of Christ. +That proof had sufficed for Mark, had sufficed for the writer of the +sublime Fourth Gospel, had sufficed for Paul. Let us lift this wondrous +fact, once and for all, out of the ecclesiastical setting and incorporate +it into our lives. Nor need the hearts of those who seek the Truth, who +fear not to face it, be troubled if they be satisfied, from the Gospels, +that the birth of Jesus was not miraculous. The physical never could +prove the spiritual, which was the real and everlasting, which no +discovery in science or history can take from us. The Godship of Christ +rested upon no dogma, it was a conviction born into us with the new +birth. And it becomes an integral part of our personality, our very +being. + +The secret, then, lay in a presentation of the divine message which would +convince and transform and electrify those who heard it to action--a +presentation of the message in terms which the age could grasp. That is +what Paul had done, he had drawn his figures boldly from the customs of +the life of his day, but a more or less intimate knowledge of these +ancient customs were necessary before modern men and women could +understand those figures and parallels. And the Church must awake +to her opportunities, to her perception of the Cause. . . . + +What, then, was the function, the mission of the Church Universal? Once +she had laid claim to temporal power, believed herself to be the sole +agency of God on earth, had spoken ex cathedra on philosophy, history, +theology, and science, had undertaken to confer eternal bliss and to damn +forever. Her members, and even her priests, had gone from murder to +mass and from mass to murder, and she had engaged in cruel wars and +persecutions to curtail the liberties of mankind. Under that conception +religion was a form of insurance of the soul. Perhaps a common, +universal belief had been necessary in the dark ages before the sublime +idea of education for the masses had come; but the Church herself +--through ignorance--had opposed the growth of education, had set her +face sternly against the development of the individual, which Christ had +taught, the privilege of man to use the faculties of the intellect which +God had bestowed upon him. He himself, their rector, had advocated a +catholic acceptance, though much modified from the mediaeval acceptance, +--one that professed to go behind it to an earlier age. Yes, he must +admit with shame that he had been afraid to trust where God trusted, had +feared to confide the working out of the ultimate Truth of the minds of +the millions. + +The Church had been monarchical in form, and some strove stubbornly +and blindly to keep her monarchical. Democracy in government was +outstripping her. Let them look around, to-day, and see what was +happening in the United States of America. A great movement was going on +to transfer actual participation in government from the few to the many, +--a movement towards true Democracy, and that was precisely what was +about to happen in the Church. Her condition at present was one of +uncertainty, transition--she feared to let go wholly of the old, she +feared to embark upon the new. Just as the conservatives and politicians +feared to give up the representative system, the convention, so was she +afraid to abandon the synod, the council, and trust to man. + +The light was coming slowly, the change, the rebirth of the Church by +gradual evolution. By the grace of God those who had laid the +foundations of the Church in which he stood, of all Protestantism, had +built for the future. The racial instinct in them had asserted itself, +had warned them that to suppress freedom in religion were to suppress it +in life, to paralyze that individual initiative which was the secret of +their advancement. + +The new Church Universal, then, would be the militant, aggressive body of +the reborn, whose mission it was to send out into the life of the nation +transformed men and women who would labour unremittingly for the Kingdom +of God. Unity would come--but unity in freedom, true Catholicity. The +truth would gradually pervade the masses--be wrought out by them. Even +the great evolutionary forces of the age, such as economic necessity, +were acting to drive divided Christianity into consolidation, and the +starving churches of country villages were now beginning to combine. + +No man might venture to predict the details of the future organization of +the united Church, although St. Paul himself had sketched it in broad +outline: every worker, lay and clerical, labouring according to his gift, +teachers, executives, ministers, visitors, missionaries, healers of sick +and despondent souls. But the supreme function of the Church was to +inspire--to inspire individuals to willing service for the cause, the +Cause of Democracy, the fellowship of mankind. If she failed to inspire, +the Church would wither and perish. And therefore she must revive again +the race of inspirers, prophets, modern Apostles to whom this gift was +given, going on their rounds, awaking cities and arousing whole +country-sides. + +But whence--it might be demanded by the cynical were the prophets to +come? Prophets could not be produced by training and education; prophets +must be born. Reborn,--that was the word. Let the Church have faith. +Once her Cause were perceived, once her whole energy were directed +towards its fulfilment, the prophets would arise, out of the East and out +of the West, to stir mankind to higher effort, to denounce fearlessly the +shortcomings and evils of the age. They had not failed in past ages, +when the world had fallen into hopelessness, indifference, and darkness. +And they would not fail now. + +Prophets were personalities, and Phillips Brooks himself a prophet--had +defined personality as a conscious relationship with God. "All truth," +he had said, "comes to the world through personality." And down the ages +had come an Apostolic Succession of personalities. Paul, Augustine, +Francis, Dante, Luther, Milton,--yes, and Abraham Lincoln, and Phillips +Brooks, whose Authority was that of the Spirit, whose light had so shone +before men that they had glorified the Father which was in heaven; the +current of whose Power had so radiated, in ever widening circles, as to +make incandescent countless other souls. + +And which among them would declare that Abraham Lincoln, like Stephen, +had not seen his Master in the sky? + +The true prophet, the true apostle, then, was one inspired and directed +by the Spirit, the laying on of hands was but a symbol,--the symbol of +the sublime truth that one personality caught fire from another. Let the +Church hold fast to that symbol, as an acknowledgment, a reminder of a +supreme mystery. Tradition had its value when it did not deteriorate +into superstition, into the mechanical, automatic transmission +characteristic of the mediaeval Church, for the very suggestion of which +Peter had rebuked Simon in Samaria. For it would be remembered that +Simon had said: "Give me also this power, that on whomsoever I lay hands, +he may receive the Holy Ghost." + +The true successor to the Apostles must be an Apostle himself. + +Jesus had seldom spoken literally, and the truths he sought to impress +upon the world had of necessity been clothed in figures and symbols,--for +spiritual truths might be conveyed in no other way. The supreme proof of +his Godship, of his complete knowledge of the meaning of life was to be +found in his parables. To the literal, material mind, for example, the +parable of the talents was merely an unintelligible case of injustice.... +What was meant by the talents? They were opportunities for service. +Experience taught us that when we embraced one opportunity, one +responsibility, the acceptance of it invariably led to another, and so +the servant who had five talents, five opportunities, gained ten. The +servant who had two gained two more. But the servant of whom only one +little service was asked refused that, and was cast into outer darkness, +to witness another performing the task which should have been his. Hell, +here and hereafter, was the spectacle of wasted opportunity, and there is +no suffering to compare to it. + +The crime, the cardinal sin was with those who refused to serve, who shut +their eyes to the ideal their Lord had held up, who strove to compromise +with Jesus Christ himself, to twist and torture his message to suit their +own notions as to how life should be led; to please God and Mammon at the +same time, to bind Christ's Church for their comfort and selfish +convenience. Of them it was written, that they shut up the Kingdom of +Heaven against men; for they neither go in themselves, neither suffer +them that are entering to go in. Were these any better than the people +who had crucified the Lord for his idealism, and because he had not +brought them the material Kingdom for which they longed? + +That servant who had feared to act, who had hid his talent in the ground, +who had said unto his lord, "I knew thee that thou art an hard man, +reaping where thou hadst not sown," was the man without faith, the +atheist who sees only cruelty and indifference in the order of things, +who has no spiritual sight. But to the other servants it was said, "Thou +halt been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many +things. Enter thou into the joy of thy lord." + +The meaning of life, then, was service, and by life our Lord did not mean +mere human existence, which is only a part of life. The Kingdom of +heaven is a state, and may begin here. And that which we saw around us +was only one expression of that eternal life--a medium to work through, +towards God. All was service, both here and hereafter, and he that had +not discovered that the joy of service was the only happiness worth +living for could have no conception of the Kingdom. To those who knew, +there was no happiness like being able to say, "I have found my place in +God's plan, I am of use." Such was salvation . . . . + +And in the parable of the Prodigal Son may be read the history of what +are known as the Protestant nations. What happens logically when the +individual is suddenly freed from the restraint of external authority +occurred when Martin Luther released the vital spark of Christianity, +which he got from Paul, and from Christ himself--the revelation of +individual responsibility, that God the Spirit would dwell, by grace, in +the individual soul. Ah, we had paid a terrible yet necessary price for +freedom. We had wandered far from the Father, we had been reduced to +the very husks of individualism, become as swine. We beheld around us, +to-day, selfishness, ruthless competition, as great contrasts between +misery and luxury as in the days of the Roman Empire. But should we, for +that reason, return to the leading-strings of authority? Could we if we +would? A little thought ought to convince us that the liberation of the +individual could not be revoked, that it had forever destroyed the power +of authority to carry conviction. To go back to the Middle Ages would be +to deteriorate and degenerate. No, we must go on. . . . + +Luther's movement, in religion, had been the logical forerunner of +democracy, of universal suffrage in government, the death-knell of that +misinterpretation of Christianity as the bulwark of monarchy and +hierarchy had been sounded when he said, "Ich kann nicht anders!" The new +Republic founded on the western continent had announced to the world the +initiation of the transfer of Authority to the individual soul. God, the +counterpart of the King, the ruler in a high heaven of a flat terrestrial +expanse, outside of the world, was now become the Spirit of a million +spheres, the indwelling spirit in man. Democracy and the religion of +Jesus Christ both consisted in trusting the man--yes, and the woman--whom +God trusts. Christianity was individualism carried beyond philosophy +into religion, and the Christian, the ideal citizen of the democracy, was +free since he served not because he had to, but because he desired to of +his own will, which, paradoxically, is God's will. God was in politics, +to the confusion of politicians; God in government. And in some greater +and higher sense than we had yet perceived, the saying 'vox populi vox +dei' was eternally true. He entered into the hearts of people and moved +them, and so the world progressed. It was the function of the Church to +make Christians, until--when the Kingdom of God should come--the blending +should be complete. Then Church and State would be identical, since all +the members of the one would be the citizens of the other . . . . + +"I will arise and go to my father." Rebirth! A sense of responsibility, +of consecration. So we had come painfully through our materialistic +individualism, through our selfish Protestantism, to a glimpse of the +true Protestantism--Democracy. + +Our spiritual vision was glowing clearer. We were beginning to perceive +that charity did not consist in dispensing largesse after making a +fortune at the expense of one's fellow-men; that there was something +still wrong in a government that permits it. It was gradually becoming +plain to us, after two thousand years, that human bodies and souls +rotting in tenements were more valuable than all the forests on all the +hills; that government, Christian government, had something to do with +these. + +We should embody, in government, those sublime words of the Master, +"Suffer little children to come unto me." And the government of the +future would care for the little children. We were beginning to do it. +Here, as elsewhere, Christianity and reason went hand in hand, for the +child became the man who either preyed on humanity and filled the prisons +and robbed his fellows, or else grew into a useful, healthy citizen. It +was nothing less than sheer folly as well as inhuman cruelty to let the +children sleep in crowded, hot rooms, reeking with diseases, and run wild +throughout the long summer, learning vice in the city streets. And we +still had slavery--economic slavery--yes, and the more horrible slavery +of women and young girls in vice--as much a concern of government as the +problem which had confronted it in 1861 . . . . We were learning that +there was something infinitely more sacred than property . . . . + +And now Alison recalled, only to be thrilled again by an electric +sensation she had never before experienced with such intensity, the look +of inspiration on the preacher's face as he closed. The very mists of +the future seemed to break before his importuning gaze, and his eyes +seemed indeed to behold, against the whitening dawn of the spiritual age +he predicted, the slender spires of a new Church sprung from the +foundations of the old. A Church, truly catholic, tolerant, whose +portals were wide in welcome to all mankind. The creative impulse, +he had declared, was invariably religious, the highest art but the +expression of the mute yearnings of a people, of a race. Thus had once +arisen, all over Europe, those wonderful cathedrals which still cast +their spell upon the world, and art to-day would respond--was responding +--to the unutterable cravings of mankind, would strive once more to +express in stone and glass and pigment what nations felt. Generation +after generation would labour with unflagging zeal until the art +sculptured fragment of the new Cathedral--the new Cathedral of Democracy +--pointed upward toward the blue vault of heaven. Such was his vision +--God the Spirit, through man reborn, carrying out his great Design . . . + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +"WHICH SAY TO THE SEERS, SEE NOT" + + +I + +As Alison arose from her knees and made her way out of the pew, it was +the expression on Charlotte Plimpton's face which brought her back once +more to a sense of her surroundings; struck her, indeed, like a physical +blow. The expression was a scandalized one. Mrs. Plimpton had moved +towards her, as if to speak, but Alison hurried past, her exaltation +suddenly shattered, replaced by a rising tide of resentment, of angry +amazement against a materialism so solid as to remain unshaken by the +words which had so uplifted her. Eddies were forming in the aisle as +the people streamed slowly out of the church, and snatches of their +conversation, in undertones, reached her ears. + +"I should never have believed it!" + +"Mr. Hodder, of all men. . ." + +"The bishop!" + +Outside the swinging doors, in the vestibule, the voices were raised a +little, and she found her path blocked. + +"It's incredible!" she heard Gordon Atterbury saying to little Everett +Constable, who was listening gloomily. + +"Sheer Unitarianism, socialism, heresy." + +His attention was forcibly arrested by Alison, in whose cheeks bright +spots of colour burned. He stepped aside, involuntarily, apologetically, +as though he had instinctively read in her attitude an unaccountable +disdain. Everett Constable bowed uncertainly, for Alison scarcely +noticed them. + +"Ahem!" said Gordon, nervously, abandoning his former companion and +joining her, "I was just saying, it's incredible--" + +She turned on him. + +"It is incredible," she cried, "that persons who call themselves +Christians cannot recognize their religion when they hear it preached." + +He gave back before her, visibly, in an astonishment which would have +been ludicrous but for her anger. He had never understood her--such +had been for him her greatest fascination;--and now she was less +comprehensible than ever. The time had been when he would cheerfully +have given over his hope of salvation to have been able to stir her. +He had never seen her stirred, and the sight of her even now in this +condition was uncomfortably agitating. Of all things, an heretical +sermon would appear to have accomplished this miracle! + +"Christianity!" he stammered. + +"Yes, Christianity." Her voice tingled. "I don't pretend to know much +about it, but Mr. Hodder has at least made it plain that it is something +more than dead dogmas, ceremonies, and superstitions." + +He would have said something, but her one thought was to escape, to be +alone. These friends of her childhood were at that moment so distasteful +as to have become hateful. Some one laid a hand upon her arm. + +"Can't we take you home, Alison? I don't see your motor." + +It was Mrs. Constable. + +"No, thanks--I'm going to walk," Alison answered, yet something in Mrs. +Constable's face, in Mrs. Constable's voice, made her pause. Something +new, something oddly sympathetic. Their eyes met, and Alison saw that +the other woman's were tired, almost haggard--yet understanding. + +"Mr. Hodder was right--a thousand times right, my dear," she said. + +Alison could only stare at her, and the crimson in the bright spots of +her cheeks spread over her face. Why had Mrs. Constable supposed that +she would care to hear the sermon praised? But a second glance put her +in possession of the extraordinary fact that Mrs. Constable herself was +profoundly moved. + +"I knew he would change," she went on, "I have seen for some time that he +was too big a man not to change. But I had no conception that he would +have such power, and such courage, as he has shown this morning. It is +not only that he dared to tell us what we were--smaller men might have +done that, and it is comparatively easy to denounce. But he has the +vision to construct, he is a seer himself--he has really made me see +what Christianity is. And as long as I live I shall never forget +those closing sentences." + +"And now?" asked Alison. "And now what will happen?" + +Mrs. Constable changed colour. Her tact, on which she prided herself, +had deserted her in a moment of unlooked-for emotion. + +"Oh, I know that my father and the others will try to put him out--but +can they?" Alison asked. + +It was Mrs. Constable's turn to stare. The head she suddenly and +impulsively put forth trembled on Alison's wrist. + +"I don't know, Alison--I'm afraid they can. It is too terrible to think +about. . . . And they can't--they won't believe that many changes are +coming, that this is but one of many signs. . . Do come and see me." + +Alison left her, marvelling at the passage between them, and that, of all +persons in the congregation of St. John's, the lightning should have +struck Mrs. Constable. . . + +Turning to the right on Burton Street, she soon found herself walking +rapidly westward through deserted streets lined by factories and +warehouses, and silent in the Sabbath calm . . . . She thought of +Hodder, she would have liked to go to him in that hour . . . . + +In Park Street, luncheon was half over, and Nelson Langmaid was at the +table with her father. The lawyer glanced at her curiously as she +entered the room, and his usual word of banter, she thought, was rather +lame. The two went on, for some time, discussing a railroad suit in +Texas. And Alison, as she hurried through her meal, leaving the dishes +almost untouched, scarcely heard them. Once, in her reverie, her +thoughts reverted to another Sunday when Hodder had sat, an honoured +guest, in the chair which Mr. Langmaid now occupied . . . . + +It was not until they got up from the table that her father turned to +her. + +"Did you have a good sermon?" he asked. + +It was the underlying note of challenge to which she responded. + +"The only good sermon I have ever heard." + +Their eyes met. Langmaid looked down at the tip of his cigar. + +"Mr. Hodder," said Eldon Parr, "is to be congratulated." + + + + +II + +Hodder, when the service was over, had sought the familiar recess in the +robing-room, the words which he himself had spoken still ringing in his +ears. And then he recalled the desperate prayer with which he had +entered the pulpit, that it might be given him in that hour what to say: +the vivid memories of the passions and miseries in Dalton Street, the +sudden, hot response of indignation at the complacency confronting him. +His voice had trembled with anger . . . . He remembered, as he had +paused in his denunciation of these who had eyes and saw not, meeting the +upturned look of Alison Parr, and his anger had turned to pity for their +blindness--which once had been his own; and he had gone on and on, +striving to interpret for them his new revelation of the message of the +Saviour, to impress upon them the dreadful yet sublime meaning of life +eternal. And it was in that moment the vision of the meaning of the +evolution of his race, of the Prodigal turning to responsibility--of +which he once had had a glimpse--had risen before his eyes in its +completeness--the guiding hand of God in history! The Spirit in these +complacent souls, as yet unstirred . . . . + +So complete, now, was his forgetfulness of self, of his future, of the +irrevocable consequences of the step he had taken, that it was only +gradually he became aware that some one was standing near him, and +with a start he recognized McCrae. + +"There are some waiting to speak to ye," his assistant said. + +"Oh!" Hodder exclaimed. He began, mechanically, to divest himself of his +surplice. McCrae stood by. + +"I'd like to say a word, first--if ye don't mind--" he began. + +The rector looked at him quickly. + +"I'd like just to thank ye for that sermon--I can say no more now," said +McCrae; he turned away, and left the room abruptly. + +This characteristic tribute from the inarticulate, loyal Scotchman left +him tingling . . . . He made his way to the door and saw the people +in the choir room, standing silently, in groups, looking toward him. +Some one spoke to him, and he recognized Eleanor Goodrich. + +"We couldn't help coming, Mr. Hodder--just to tell you how much we admire +you. It was wonderful, what you said." + +He grew hot with gratitude, with thankfulness that there were some who +understood--and that this woman was among them, and her husband . . . +Phil Goodrich took him by the hand. + +"I can understand that kind of religion," he said. "And, if necessary, +I can fight for it. I have come to enlist." + +"And I can understand it, too," added the sunburned Evelyn. "I hope you +will let me help." + +That was all they said, but Hodder understood. Eleanor Goodrich's eyes +were dimmed as she smiled an her sister and her husband--a smile that +bespoke the purest quality of pride. And it was then, as they made way +for others, that the full value of their allegiance was borne in upon +him, and he grasped the fact that the intangible barrier which had +separated him from them had at last been broken down: His look followed +the square shoulders and aggressive, close-cropped head of Phil Goodrich, +the firm, athletic figure of Evelyn, who had represented to him an entire +class of modern young women, vigorous, athletic, with a scorn of cant in +which he secretly sympathized, hitherto frankly untouched by spiritual +interests of any sort. She had, indeed, once bluntly told him that +church meant nothing to her . . . . + +In that little company gathered in the choir room were certain members of +his congregation whom, had he taken thought, he would least have expected +to see. There were Mr. and Mrs. Bradley, an elderly couple who had +attended St. John's for thirty years; and others of the same +unpretentious element of his parish who were finding in modern life an +increasingly difficult and bewildering problem. There was little Miss +Tallant, an assiduous guild worker whom he had thought the most orthodox +of persons; Miss Ramsay, who taught the children of the Italian mothers; +Mr. Carton, the organist, a professed free-thinker, with whom Hodder had +had many a futile argument; and Martha Preston, who told him that he had +made her think about religion seriously for the first time in her life. + +And there were others, types equally diverse. Young men of the choir, +and others whom he had never seen, who informed him shyly that they would +come again, and bring their friends . . . . + +And all the while, in the background, Hodder had been aware of a familiar +face--Horace Bentley's. Beside him, when at length he drew near, was his +friend Asa Waring--a strangely contrasted type. The uncompromising eyes +of a born leader of men flashed from beneath the heavy white eyebrows, +the button of the Legion of Honour gleaming in his well-kept coat seemed +emblematic of the fire which in his youth had driven him forth to fight +for the honour of his country--a fire still undimmed. It was he who +spoke first. + +"This is a day I never expected to see, Mr. Hodder," he said, "for it has +brought back to this church the man to whom it owes its existence. Mr. +Bentley did more, by his labour and generosity, his true Christianity, +his charity and his wisdom, for St. John's than any other individual. +It is you who have brought him back, and I wish personally to express +my gratitude." + +Mr. Bentley, in mild reproof, laid his hand upon the t, shoulder of his +old friend. + +"Ah, Asa," he protested, "you shouldn't say such things." + +"Had it not been for Mr. Bentley," Hodder explained, "I should not be +here to-day." + +Asa Waring pierced the rector with his eye, appreciating the genuine +feeling with which these words were spoken. And yet his look contained +a question. + +"Mr. Bentley," Hodder added, "has been my teacher this summer." + +The old gentleman's hand trembled a little on the goldheaded stick. + +"It is a matter of more pride to me than I can express, sir, that you are +the rector of this church with which my most cherished memories are +associated," he said. "But I cannot take any part of the credit you give +me for the splendid vision which you have raised up before us to-day, for +your inspired interpretation of history, of the meaning of our own times. +You have moved me, you have given me more hope and courage than I have +had for many a long year--and I thank you, Mr. Hodder. I am sure that +God will prosper and guide you in what you have so nobly undertaken." + +Mr. Bentley turned away, walking towards the end of the room . . . . +Asa Waring broke the silence. + +"I didn't know that you knew him, that you had seen what he is doing +--what he has done in this city. I cannot trust myself, Mr. Hodder, to +speak of Horace Bentley's life. . . I feel too strongly on the +subject. I have watched, year by year, this detestable spirit of greed, +this lust for money and power creeping over our country, corrupting our +people and institutions, and finally tainting the Church itself. You +have raised your voice against it, and I respect and honour and thank you +for it, the more because you have done it without resorting to sensation, +and apparently with no thought of yourself. And, incidentally, you have +explained the Christian religion to me as I have never had it explained +in my life. + +"I need not tell you you have made enemies--powerful ones. I can see +that you are a man, and that you are prepared for them. They will leave +no stone unturned, will neglect no means to put you out and disgrace you. +They will be about your ears to-morrow--this afternoon, perhaps. I need +not remind you that the outcome is doubtful. But I came here to assure +you of my friendship and support in all you hope to accomplish in making +the Church what it should be. In any event, what you have done to-day +will be productive of everlasting good." + +In a corner still lingered the group which Mr. Bentley had joined. And +Hodder, as he made his way towards it, recognized the faces of some of +those who composed it. Sally Grower was there, and the young women who +lived in Mr. Bentley's house, and others whose acquaintance he had made +during the summer. Mrs. Garvin had brought little Dicky, incredibly +changed from the wan little figure he had first beheld in the stifling +back room in Dalton Street; not yet robust, but freckled and tanned by +the country sun and wind. The child, whom he had seen constantly in the +interval, ran forward joyfully, and Hodder bent down to take his hand.... + +These were his friends, emblematic of the new relationship in which he +stood to mankind. And he owed them to Horace Bentley! He wondered, as +he greeted them, whether they knew what their allegiance meant to him in +this hour. But it sufficed that they claimed him as their own. + +Behind them all stood Kate Marcy. And it struck him for the first time, +as he gazed at her earnestly, how her appearance had changed. She gave +him a frightened, bewildered look, as though she were unable to identify +him now with the man she had known in the Dalton Street flat, in the +restaurant. She was still struggling, groping, wondering, striving to +accustom herself to the higher light of another world. + +"I wanted to come," she faltered. "Sally Grower brought me. . . " + +Hodder went back with them to Dalton Street. His new ministry had begun. +And on this, the first day of it, it was fitting that he should sit at +the table of Horace Bentley, even as on that other Sunday, two years +agone, he had gone to the home of the first layman of the diocese, +Eldon Parr. + + + +III + +The peace of God passes understanding because sorrow and joy are mingled +therein, sorrow and joy and striving. And thus the joy of emancipation +may be accompanied by a heavy heart. The next morning, when Hodder +entered his study, he sighed as his eye fell upon the unusual pile of +letters on his desk, for their writers had once been his friends. The +inevitable breach had come at last. + +Most of the letters, as he had anticipated, were painful reading. +And the silver paper-cutter with which he opened the first had been a +Christmas present from Mrs. Burlingame, who had penned it, a lady of +signal devotion to the church, who for many years had made it her task to +supply and arrange the flowers on the altar. He had amazed and wounded +her--she declared--inexpressibly, and she could no longer remain at St. +John's--for the present, at least. A significant addition. He dropped +the letter, and sat staring out of the window . . . presently arousing +himself, setting himself resolutely to the task of reading the rest. + +In the mood in which he found himself he did not atop to philosophize +on the rigid yet sincere attitude of the orthodox. His affection for +many of them curiously remained, though it was with some difficulty he +strove to reconstruct a state of mind with which he had once agreed. +If Christianity were to sweep on, these few unbending but faithful ones +must be sacrificed: such was the law. . . Many, while repudiating his +new beliefs--or unbeliefs!--added, to their regrets of the change in him, +protestations of a continued friendship, a conviction of his sincerity. +Others like Mrs. Atterbury, were frankly outraged and bitter. The +contents of one lilac-bordered envelope brought to his eyes a faint +smile. Did he know--asked the sender of this--could he know the +consternation he had caused in so many persons, including herself? +What was she to believe? And wouldn't he lunch with her on Thursday? + +Mrs. Ferguson's letter brought another smile--more thoughtful. +Her incoherent phrases had sprung from the heart, and the picture rose +before him of the stout but frightened, good-natured lady who had never +accustomed herself to the enjoyment of wealth and luxury. Mr. Ferguson +was in such a state, and he must please not tell her husband that she had +written. Yet much in his sermon had struck her as so true. It seemed +wrong to her to have so much, and others so little! And he had made her +remember many things in her early life she had forgotten. She hoped he +would see Mr. Ferguson, and talk to him. . . . + +Then there was Mrs. Constable's short note, that troubled and puzzled +him. This, too, had in it an undercurrent of fear, and the memory came +to him of the harrowing afternoon he had once spent with her, when she +would have seemed to have predicted the very thing which had now happened +to him. And yet not that thing. He divined instinctively that a maturer +thought on the subject of his sermon had brought on an uneasiness as the +full consequences of this new teaching had dawned upon her consequences +which she had not foreseen when she had foretold the change. And he +seemed to read between the lines that the renunciation he demanded was +too great. Would he not let her come and talk to him? . . . + +Miss Brewer, a lady of no inconsiderable property, was among those who +told him plainly that if he remained they would have to give up their +pews. Three or four communications were even more threatening. Mr. +Alpheus Gore, Mrs. Plimpton's brother, who at five and forty had managed +to triple his share of the Gore inheritance, wrote that it would be his +regretful duty to send to the bishop an Information on the subject of Mr. +Hodder's sermon. + +There were, indeed, a few letters which he laid, thankfully, in a pile by +themselves. These were mostly from certain humble members of his parish +who had not followed their impulses to go to him after the service, or +from strangers who had chanced to drop into the church. Some were +autobiographical, such as those of a trained nurse, a stenographer, +a hardware clerk who had sat up late Sunday night to summarize what that +sermon had meant to him, how a gray and hopeless existence had taken on a +new colour. Next Sunday he would bring a friend who lived in the same +boarding house . . . . Hodder read every word of these, and all were +in the same strain: at last they could perceive a meaning to religion, +an application of it to such plodding lives as theirs . . . . + +One or two had not understood, but had been stirred, and were coming to +talk to him. Another was filled with a venomous class hatred. . . . + +The first intimation he had of the writer of another letter seemed from +the senses rather than the intellect. A warm glow suffused him, mounted +to his temples as he stared at the words, turned over the sheet, and read +at the bottom the not very legible signature. The handwriting, by no +means classic, became then and there indelibly photographed on his brain, +and summed up for him the characteristics, the warring elements in Alison +Parr. "All afternoon," she wrote, "I have been thinking of your sermon. +It was to me very wonderful--it lifted me out of myself. And oh, I want +so much to believe unreservedly what you expressed so finely, that +religion is democracy, or the motive power behind democracy--the service +of humanity by the reborn. I understand it intellectually. I am willing +to work for such a Cause, but there is something in me so hard that I +wonder if it can dissolve. And then I am still unable to identify that +Cause with the Church as at present constituted, with the dogmas and +ceremonies that still exist. I am too thorough a radical to have your +patience. And I am filled with rage--I can think of no milder word--on +coming in contact with the living embodiments of that old creed, who hold +its dogmas so precious. 'Which say to the seers, See not; and to the +prophets, Prophesy not unto us right things, speak unto us smooth things, +prophesy deceits.'" + +"You see, I have been reading Isaiah, and when I came to that paragraph +it seemed so appropriate. These people have always existed. And will +they not always continue to exist? I wish I could believe, wholly and +unreservedly, that this class, always preponderant in the world, could be +changed, diminished--done away with in a brighter future! I can, at +least, sympathize with Isaiah's wrath. + +"What you said of the longing, the yearning which exists to-day amongst +the inarticulate millions moved me most--and of the place of art in +religion, to express that yearning. Religion the motive power of art, +and art, too, service. 'Consider the lilies of the field.' You have made +it, at least, all-comprehensive, have given me a new point of view for +which I can never be sufficiently grateful--and at a time when I needed +it desperately. That you have dared to do what you have done has been +and will be an inspiration, not only to myself, but to many others. +This, is a longer letter, I believe, than I have ever written in my life. +But I wanted you to know." + +He reread it twice, pondering over its phrases. "A new point of view.... +at a time when I needed it desperately." It was not until then that he +realized the full intensity of his desire for some expression from her +since the moment he had caught sight of her in the church. But he had +not been prepared for the unreserve, the impulsiveness with which she had +actually written. Such was his agitation that he did not heed, at first, +a knock on the door, which was repeated. He thrust the letter inside his +coat as the janitor of the parish house appeared. + +"There is a gentleman to see you, sir, in the office," he said. + +Hodder went down the stairs. And he anticipated, from the light yet +nervous pacing that he heard on the bare floor, that the visitor was none +other than his vestryman, Mr. Gordon Atterbury. The sight of the +gentleman's spruce figure confirmed the guess. + +"Good morning, Mr. Atterbury," he said as he entered. + +Mr. Atterbury stopped in his steps, as if he had heard a shot. + +"Ah--good morning, Mr. Hodder. I stopped in on my way to the office." + +"Sit down," said the rector. + +Mr. Atterbury sat down, but with the air of a man who does so under +protest, who had not intended to. He was visibly filled and almost +quivering with an excitement which seemed to demand active expression, +and which the tall clergyman's physical calm and self-possession seemed +to augment. For a moment Mr. Atterbury stared at the rector as he sat +behind his desk. Then he cleared his throat. + +"I thought of writing to you, Mr. Hodder. My mother, I believe, has done +so. But it seemed to me, on second thought, better to come to you +direct." + +The rector nodded, without venturing to remark on the wisdom of the +course. + +"It occurred to me," Mr. Atterbury went on, "that possibly some things I +wish to discuss might--ahem be dispelled in a conversation. That I might +conceivably have misunderstood certain statements in your sermon of +yesterday." + +"I tried," said the rector, "to be as clear as possible." + +"I thought you might not fully have realized the effect of what you said. +I ought to tell you, I think, that as soon as I reached home I wrote out, +as accurately as I could from memory, the gist of your remarks. And I +must say frankly, although I try to put it mildly, that they appear to +contradict and controvert the doctrines of the Church." + +"Which doctrines?" Hodder asked. + +Gordon Atterbury sputtered. + +"Which doctrines?" he repeated. "Can it be possible that you +misunderstand me? I might refer you to those which you yourself preached +as late as last June, in a sermon which was one of the finest and most +scholarly efforts I ever heard." + +"It was on that day, Mr. Atterbury," replied the rector, with a touch of +sadness in his voice, "I made the discovery that fine and scholarly +efforts were not Christianity." + +"What do you mean?" Mr. Atterbury demanded. + +"I mean that they do not succeed in making Christians." + +"And by that you imply that the members of your congregation, those who +have been brought up and baptized and confirmed in this church, are not +Christians?" + +"I am sorry to say a great many of them are not," said the rector. + +"In other words, you affirm that the sacrament of baptism is of no +account." + +"I affirm that baptism with water is not sufficient." + +"I'm afraid that this is very grave," Mr. Hodder. + +"I quite agree with you," replied the rector, looking straight at his +vestryman. + +"And I understood,--" the other went on, clearing his throat once more, +"I think I have it correctly stated in my notes, but I wish to be quite +clear, that you denied the doctrine of the virgin birth." + +Hodder made a strong effort to control himself. + +"What I have said I have said," he answered, "and I have said it in the +hope that it might make some impression upon the lives of those to whom I +spoke. You were one of them, Mr. Atterbury. And if I repeat and amplify +my meaning now, it must be understood that I have no other object except +that of putting you in the way of seeing that the religion of Christ is +unique in that it is dependent upon no doctrine or dogma, upon no +external or material sign or proof or authority whatever. I am utterly +indifferent to any action you may contemplate taking concerning me. Read +your four Gospels carefully. If we do not arrive, through contemplation +of our Lord's sojourn on this earth, of his triumph over death, of his +message--which illuminates the meaning of our lives here--at that inner +spiritual conversion of which he continually speaks, and which alone will +give us charity, we are not Christians." + +"But the doctrines of the Church, which we were taught from childhood to +believe? The doctrines which you once professed, and of which you have +now made such an unlooked-for repudiation!" + +"Yes, I have changed," said the rector, gazing seriously at the twitching +figure of his vestryman, "I was bound, body and soul, by those very +doctrines." He roused himself. "But on what grounds do you declare, Mr. +Atterbury," he demanded, somewhat sternly, "that this church is fettered +by an ancient and dogmatic conception of Christianity? Where are you to +find what are called the doctrines of the Church? What may be heresy in +one diocese is not so in another, and I can refer to you volumes written +by ministers of this Church, in good standing, whose published opinions +are the same as those I expressed in my sermon of yesterday. The very +cornerstone of the Church is freedom, but many have yet to discover this, +and we have held in our Communion men of such divergent views as Dr. +Pusey and Phillips Brooks. Mr. Newman, in his Tract Ninety, which was +sincerely written, showed that the Thirty-nine Articles were capable of +almost any theological interpretation. From what authoritative source +are we to draw our doctrines? In the baptismal service the articles of +belief are stated to be in the Apostles' Creed, but nowhere--in this +Church is it defined how their ancient language is to be interpreted. +That is wisely left to the individual. Shall we interpret the Gospels by +the Creeds, which in turn purport to be interpretations of the Gospels? +Or shall we draw our conclusions as to what the Creeds may mean to us by +pondering on the life of Christ, and striving to do his will? +'The letter killeth, but the Spirit maketh alive.'" + +Hodder rose, and stood facing his visitor squarely. He spoke slowly, and +the fact that he made no gesture gave all the more force to his words. + +"Hereafter, Mr. Atterbury," he added, "so long as I am rector of this +church, I am going to do my best to carry out the spirit of Christ's +teaching--to make Christians. And there shall be no more compromise, +so far as I can help it." + +Gordon Atterbury had grown very pale. He, too, got to his feet. + +"I--I cannot trust myself to discuss this matter with you any further, Mr. +Hodder. I feel too deeply--too strongly on the subject. I do not +pretend to account for this astonishing transformation in your opinions. +Up to the present I have deemed St. John's fortunate--peculiarly +fortunate, in having you for its rector. I am bound to say I think you +have not considered, in this change of attitude on your part, those who +have made St. John's what it is, who through long and familiar +association are bound to it by a thousand ties,--those who, like myself, +have what may be called a family interest in this church. My father and +mother were married here, I was baptized here. I think I may go so far +as to add, Mr. Hodder, that this is our church, the church which a +certain group of people have built in which to worship God, as was their +right. Nor do I believe we can be reproached with a lack of hospitality +or charity. We maintain this parish house, with its clubs; and at no +small inconvenience to ourselves we have permitted the church to remain +in this district. There is no better church music in this city, and we +have a beautiful service in the evening at which, all pews are free. It +is not unreasonable that we should have something to say concerning the +doctrine to be preached here, that we should insist that that doctrine be +in accordance with what we have always believed was the true doctrine as +received by this Church." + +Up to this point Mr. Atterbury had had a feeling that he had not carried +out with much distinction the programme which he had so carefully +rehearsed on the way to the parish house. Hodder's poise had amazed and +baffled him--he had expected to find the rector on the defensive. But +now, burning anew with a sense of injustice, he had a sense at last of +putting his case strongly. + +The feeling of triumph, however, was short lived. Hodder did not reply +at once. So many seconds, indeed, went by that Mr. Atterbury began once +more to grow slightly nervous under the strange gaze to which he was +subjected. And when the clergyman' spoke there was no anger in his +voice, but a quality--a feeling which was disturbing, and difficult to +define. + +"You are dealing now, Mr. Atterbury," he said, "with the things of +Caesar, not of God. This church belongs to God--not to you. But you +have consecrated it to him. His truth, as Christ taught it, must not be +preached to suit any man's convenience. When you were young you were not +taught the truth--neither was I. It was mixed with adulterations which +obscured and almost neutralized it. But I intend to face it now, and to +preach it, and not the comfortable compromise which gives us the illusion +that we are Christians because we subscribe to certain tenets, and +permits us to neglect our Christian duties. + +"And since you have spoken of charity, let me assure you that there is no +such thing as charity without the transforming, personal touch. It isn't +the bread or instruction or amusement we give people vicariously, but the +effect of our gift--even if that gift be only a cup of cold water--in +illuminating and changing their lives. And it will avail any church +little to have a dozen settlement houses while her members acquiesce in +a State which refuses to relieve her citizens from sickness and poverty. +Charity bends down only to lift others up. And with all our works, our +expenditure and toil, how many have we lifted up?" + +Gordon Atterbury's indignation got the better of him. For he was the +last man to behold with patience the shattering of his idols. + +"I think you have cast an unwarranted reflection on those who have built +and made this church what it is, Mr. Hodder," he exclaimed. "And that +you will find there are in it many--a great many earnest Christians who +were greatly shocked by the words you spoke yesterday, who will not +tolerate any interference with their faith. I feel it my duty to speak +frankly, Mr Hodder, disagreeable though it be, in view of our former +relations. I must tell you that I am not alone in the opinion that you +should resign. It is the least you can do, in justice to us, in justice +to yourself. There are other bodies--I cannot call them churches--which +doubtless would welcome your liberal, and I must add atrophying, +interpretation of Christianity. And I trust that reflection will +convince you of the folly of pushing this matter to the extreme. We +should greatly deplore the sensational spectacle of St. John's being +involved in an ecclesiastical trial, the unpleasant notoriety into which +it would bring a church hitherto untouched by that sort of thing. And I +ought to tell you that I, among others, am about to send an Information +to the bishop." + +Gordon Atterbury hesitated a moment, but getting no reply save an +inclination of the head, took up his hat. + +"Ahem--I think that is all I have to say, Mr. Hodder. Good morning." + +Even then Hodder did not answer, but rose and held open the door. As he +made his exit under the strange scrutiny of the clergyman's gaze the +little vestryman was plainly uncomfortable. He cleared his throat once +more, halted, and then precipitately departed. + +Hodder went to the window and thoughtfully watched the hurrying figure +of Mr. Atterbury until it disappeared, almost skipping, around the corner +. . . . The germ of truth, throughout the centuries, had lost nothing +of its dynamic potentialities. If released and proclaimed it was still +powerful enough to drive the world to insensate anger and opposition.... + +As he stood there, lost in reflection, a shining automobile drew up at +the curb, and from it descended a firm lady in a tight-fitting suit whom +he recognized as Mrs Wallis Plimpton. A moment later she had invaded the +office--for no less a word may be employed to express her physical +aggressiveness, the glowing health which she radiated. + +"Good morning, Mr. Hodder," she said, seating herself in one of the +straight-backed chairs. "I have been so troubled since you preached that +sermon yesterday, I could scarcely sleep. And I made up my mind I'd come +to you the first thing this morning. Mr. Plimpton and I have been +discussing it. In fact, people are talking of nothing else. We dined +with the Laureston Greys last night, and they, too, were full of it." +Charlotte Plimpton looked at him, and the flow of her words suddenly +diminished. And she added, a little lamely for her, "Spiritual matters +in these days are so difficult, aren't they?" + +"Spiritual matters always were difficult, Mrs. Plimpton," he said. + +"I suppose so," she assented hurriedly, with what was intended for a +smile. "But what I came to ask you is this--what are we to teach our +children?" + +"Teach them the truth," the rector replied. + +"One of the things which troubled me most was your reference to modern +criticism," she went on, recovering her facility. "I was brought up to +believe that the Bible was true. The governess--Miss Standish, you know, +such a fine type of Englishwoman--reads the children Bible stories every +Sunday evening. They adore them, and little Wallis can repeat them +almost by heart--the pillar of cloud by day, Daniel in the lions' den, +and the Wise Men from the East. If they aren't true, some one ought to +have told us before now." + +A note of injury had crept into her voice. + +"How do you feel about these things yourself?" Holder inquired. + +"How do I feel? Why, I have never thought about them very much--they +were there, in the Bible!" + +"You were taught to believe them?" + +"Of course," she exclaimed, resenting what seemed a reflection on the +Gore orthodoxy. + +"Do they in any manner affect your conduct?" + +"My conduct?" she repeated. "I don't know what you mean. I was brought +up in the church, and Mr. Plimpton has always gone, and we are bringing +up the children to go. Is that what you mean?" + +"No," Hodder answered, patiently, "that is not what I mean. I ask +whether these stories in any way enter into your life, become part of +you, and tend to make you a more useful woman?" + +"Well--I have never considered them in that way," she replied, a little +perplexed. + +"Do you believe in them yourself?" + +"Why--I don't know,--I've never thought. I don't suppose I do, +absolutely--not in those I have mentioned." + +"And you think it right to teach things to your children which you do not +yourself believe?" + +"How am I to decide?" she demanded. + +"First by finding out yourself what you do believe," he replied, with a +touch of severity. + +"Mr. Hodder!" she cried in a scandalized voice, "do you mean to say that +I, who have been brought up in this church, do not know what Christianity +is." + +He looked at her and shook his head. + +"You must begin by being honest with yourself," he went on, not heeding +her shocked expression. "If you are really in earnest in this matter, +I should be glad to help you all I can. But I warn you there is no +achievement in the world more difficult than that of becoming a, +Christian. It means a conversion of your whole being something which you +cannot now even imagine. It means a consuming desire which,--I fear,--in +consideration of your present mode of life, will be difficult to +acquire." + +"My present mode of life!" she gasped. + +"Precisely," said the rector. He was silent, regarding, her. There was +discernible not the slightest crack of crevice in the enamel of this +woman's worldly armour. + +For the moment her outraged feelings were forgotten. The man had +fascinated her. To be told, in this authoritative manner, that she was +wicked was a new and delightful experience. It brought back to her the +real motive of her visit, which had in reality been inspired not only by +the sermon of the day before, but by sheer curiosity. + +"What would you have me do?" she demanded. + +"Find yourself." + +"Do you mean to say that I am not--myself?" she asked, now completely +bewildered. + +"I mean to say that you are nobody until you achieve conviction." + +For Charlotte Plimpton, nee Gore, to be told in her own city, by the +rector of her own church that she was nobody was an event hitherto +inconceivable! It was perhaps as extraordinary that she did not resent. +it. Curiosity still led her on. + +"Conviction?" she repeated. "But I have conviction, Mr. Hodder. I +believe in the doctrines of the Church." + +"Belief!" he exclaimed, and checked himself strongly. "Conviction +through feeling. Not until then will you find what you were put in the +world for." + +"But my husband--my children? I try to do my duty." + +"You must get a larger conception of it," Hodder replied. + +"I suppose you mean," she declared, "that I am to spend the rest of my +life in charity." + +"How you would spend the rest of your life would be revealed to you," +said the rector. + +It was the weariness in his tone that piqued her now, the intimation +that he did not believe in her sincerity--had not believed in it from +the first. The life-long vanity of a woman used to be treated with +consideration, to be taken seriously, was aroused. This extraordinary +man had refused to enter into the details which she inquisitively craved. + +Charlotte Plimpton rose. + +"I shall not bother you any longer at present, Mr. Hodder," she said +sweetly. "I know you must have, this morning especially, a great deal to +trouble you." + +He met her scrutiny calmly. + +"It is only the things we permit to trouble us that do so, Mrs. +Plimpton," he replied. "My own troubles have arisen largely from a lack +of faith on the part of those whom I feel it is my duty to influence." + +It was then she delivered her parting shot, which she repeated, with much +satisfaction, to her husband that evening. She had reached the door. +"Was there a special service at Calvary yesterday?" she asked innocently, +turning back. + +"Not that I know of." + +"I wondered. Mr. Parr was there; I'm told--and he's never been known +to desert St. John's except on the rarest occasions. But oh, Mr. Hodder, +I must congratulate you on your influence with Alison. When she has been +out here before she never used to come to church at all." + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of The Inside of the Cup, Volume 6 +by Winston Churchill + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE INSIDE OF THE CUP, VOLUME 6 *** + +***** This file should be named 5361.txt or 5361.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + https://www.gutenberg.org/5/3/6/5361/ + +Produced by David Widger + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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For Hodder had, +it will be recalled, bidden his assistant good-by--and then had remained. +At another brief interview, during which McCrae had betrayed no surprise, +uttered no censure or comment, Hodder had announced his determination to +remain in the city, and to take no part in the services. An announcement +sufficiently astounding. During the months that followed, they had met, +at rare intervals, exchanged casual greetings, and passed on. And yet +Hodder had the feeling, more firmly planted than ever, that McCrae was +awaiting, with an interest which might be called suspense, the +culmination of the process going on within him. + +Well, now that he had worked it out, now that he had reached his +decision, it was incumbent upon him to tell his assistant what that +decision was. Hodder shrank from it as from an ordeal. His affection +for the man, his admiration for McCrae's faithful, untiring, and +unrecognized services had deepened. He had a theory that McCrae +really liked him--would even sympathize with his solution; yet he +procrastinated. He was afraid to put his theory to the test. It was not +that Hodder feared that his own solution was not the right one, but that +McCrae might not find it so: he was intensely concerned that it should +also be McCrae's solution--the answer, if one liked, to McCrae's mute and +eternal questionings. He wished to have it a fruition for McCrae as well +as for himself; since theoretically, at least, he had pierced the hard +crust of his assistant's exterior, and conceived him beneath to be all +suppressed fire. In short, Hodder wished to go into battle side by side +with McCrae. Therein lay his anxiety. + +Another consideration troubled him--McCrae's family, dependent on a +rather meagre salary. His assistant, in sustaining him in the struggle +he meant to enter, would be making even a greater sacrifice than himself. +For Hodder had no illusions, and knew that the odds against him were +incalculable. Whatever, if defeated, his own future might be, McCrae's +was still more problematical and tragic. + +The situation, when it came, was even more difficult than Hodder +had imagined it, since McCrae was not a man to oil the wheels of +conversation. In silence he followed the rector up the stairs and into +his study, in silence he took the seat at the opposite side of the table. +And Hodder, as he hesitated over his opening, contemplated in no little +perplexity and travail the gaunt and non-committal face before him: + +"McCrae," he began at length, "you must have thought my conduct this +summer most peculiar. I wish to thank you, first of all, for the +consideration you have shown me, and to tell you how deeply I appreciate +your taking the entire burden of the work of the parish." + +McCrae shook his head vigorously, but did not speak. + +"I owe it to you to give you some clew to what happened to me," the +rector continued, "although I have an idea that you do not need much +enlightenment on this matter. I have a feeling that you have somehow +been aware of my discouragement during the past year or so, and of the +causes of it. You yourself hold ideals concerning the Church which you +have not confided to me. Of this I am sure. I came here to St. John's +full of hope and confidence, gradually to lose both, gradually to realise +that there was something wrong with me, that in spite of all my efforts +I was unable to make any headway in the right direction. I became +perplexed, dissatisfied--the results were so meagre, so out of proportion +to the labour. And the very fact that those who may be called our chief +parishioners had no complaint merely added to my uneasiness. That kind +of success didn't satisfy me, and I venture to assume it didn't satisfy +you." + +Still McCrae made no sign. + +"Finally I came to what may be termed a double conclusion. In the first +place, I began to see more and more clearly that our modern civilization +is at fault, to perceive how completely it is conducted on the +materialistic theory of the survival of the fittest rather than that of +the brotherhood of man, and that those who mainly support this church +are, consciously or not, using it as a bulwark for the privilege they +have gained at the expense of their fellow-citizens. And my conclusion +was that Christianity must contain some vital germ which I had somehow +missed, and which I must find if I could, and preach and release it. +That it was the release of this germ these people feared unconsciously. +I say to you, at the risk of the accusation of conceit, that I believed +myself to have a power in the pulpit if I could only discover the truth." + +Hodder thought he detected, as he spoke these words, a certain relaxation +of the tension. + +"For a while, as the result of discouragement, of cowardice, I may say, +of the tearing-down process of the theological structure--built of debris +from many ruins on which my conception of Christianity rested, I lost all +faith. For many weeks I did not enter the church, as you yourself must +know. Then, when I had given up all hope, through certain incidents and +certain persona, a process of reconstruction began. In short, through no +virtue which I can claim as my own, I believe I have arrived at the +threshold of an understanding of Christianity as our Lord taught it and +lived it. And I intend to take the pulpit and begin to preach it. + +"I am deeply concerned in regard to yourself as to what effect my course +may have on you. And I am not you to listen to me with a view that you +should see your way clear to support me McCrae, but rather that you +should be fully apprised of my new belief and intentions. I owe this to +you, for your loyal support in the pest. I shall go over with you, +later, if you care to listen, my whole position. It may be called the +extreme Protestant position, and I use protestant, for want of a better +word, to express what I believe is Paul's true as distinguished from the +false of his two inconsistent theologies. It was this doctrine of Paul's +of redemption by faith, of reacting grace by an inevitable spiritual law +--of rebirth, if you will--that Luther and the Protestant reformers +revived and recognized, rightly, as the vital element of Christ's +teachings, although they did not succeed in separating it wholly from the +dross which clung to it. It is the leaven which has changed governments, +and which in the end, I am firmly convinced, will make true democracy +inevitable. And those who oppose democracy inherently dread its +workings. + +"I do not know your views, but it is only fair to add at this time that I +no longer believe in the external and imposed authority of the Church in +the sense in which I formerly accepted it, nor in the virgin birth, nor +in certain other dogmas in which I once acquiesced. Other clergymen of +our communion have proclaimed, in speech and writing, their disbelief in +these things. I have satisfied my conscience as they have, and I mean to +make no secret of my change. I am convinced that not one man or woman +in ten thousand to-day who has rejected Christianity ever knew what +Christianity is. The science and archaic philosophy in which +Christianity has been swaddled and hampered is discredited, and the +conclusion is drawn that Christianity itself must be discredited." + +"Ye're going to preach all this?" McCrae demanded, almost fiercely. + +"Yes," Hodder replied, still uncertain as to his assistant's attitude, +"and more. I have fully reflected, and I am willing to accept all the +consequences. I understand perfectly, McCrae, that the promulgation +alone of the liberal orthodoxy of which I have spoken will bring me into +conflict with the majority of the vestry and the congregation, and that +the bishop will be appealed to. They will say, in effect, that I have +cheated them, that they hired one man and that another has turned up, +whom they never would have hired. But that won't be the whole story. +If it were merely a question of doctrine, I should resign. It's deeper +than that, more sinister." Hodder doubled up his hand, and laid it on +the table. "It's a matter," he said, looking into McCrae's eyes, "of +freeing this church from those who now hold it in chains. And the two +questions, I see clearly now, the doctrinal and the economic, are so +interwoven as to be inseparable. My former, ancient presentation of +Christianity left men and women cold. It did not draw them into this +church and send them out again fired with the determination to bring +religion into everyday life, resolved to do their part in the removal of +the injustices and cruelties with which we are surrounded, to bring +Christianity into government, where it belongs. Don't misunderstand me +I'm not going to preach politics, but religion." + +"I don't misunderstand ye," answered McCrae. He leaned a little forward, +staring at the rector from behind his steel spectacles with a glance +which had become piercing. + +"And I am going to discourage a charity which is a mockery of +Christianity," Hodder went on, "the spectacle of which turns thousands +of men and women in sickening revolt against the Church of Christ to-day. +I have discovered, at last, how some of these persons have made their +money, and are making it. And I am going to let them know, since they +have repudiated God in their own souls, since they have denied the +Christian principle of individual responsibility, that I, as the vicar of +God, will not be a party to the transaction of using the Church as a +means of doling out ill-gotten gains to the poor." + +"Mr. Parr!" McCrae exclaimed. + +"Yes," said the rector, slowly, and with a touch of sadness, "since you +have mentioned him, Mr. Parr. But I need not say that this must go no +farther. I am in possession of definite facts in regard to Mr. Parr +which I shall present to him when he returns." + +"Ye'll tell him to his face?" + +"It is the only way." + +McCrae had risen. A remarkable transformation had come over the man,-- +he was reminiscent, at that moment, of some Covenanter ancestor going +into battle. And his voice shook with excitement. + +"Ye may count on me, Mr. Hodder," he cried. "These many years I've +waited, these many years I've seen what ye see now, but I was not the +man. Aye, I've watched ye, since the day ye first set foot in this +church. I knew what was going on inside of ye, because it was just +that I felt myself. I hoped--I prayed ye might come to it." + +The sight of this taciturn Scotchman, moved in this way, had an +extraordinary effect on Hodder himself, and his own emotion was so +inexpressibly stirred that he kept silence a moment to control it. +This proof of the truth of his theory in regard to McCrae he found +overwhelming. + +"But you said nothing, McCrae," he began presently. "I felt all along +that you knew what was wrong--if you had only spoken." + +"I could not," said McCrae. "I give ye my word I tried, but I just could +not. Many's the time I wanted to--but I said to myself, when I looked at +you, 'wait, it will come, much better than ye can say it.' And ye have +made me see more than I saw, Mr. Hodder,--already ye have. Ye've got the +whole thing in ye're eye, and I only had a part of it. It's because +ye're the bigger man of the two." + +"You thought I'd come to it?" demanded Hodder, as though the full force +of this insight had just struck him. + +"Well," said McCrae, "I hoped. It seemed, to look at ye, ye'r true +nature--what was by rights inside of ye. That's the best explaining I +can do. And I call to mind that time ye spoke about not making the men +in the classes Christians--that was what started me to thinking." + +"And you asked me," returned the rector, "how welcome some of them would +be in Mr. Parr's Pew." + +"Ah, it worried me," declared the assistant, with characteristic +frankness, "to see how deep ye were getting in with him." + +Hodder did not reply to this. He had himself risen, and stood looking at +McCrae, filled with a new thought. + +"There is one thing I should like to say to you--which is very difficult, +McCrae, but I have no doubt you see the matter as clearly as I do. In +making this fight, I have no one but myself to consider. I am a single +man--" + +"Yell not need to go on," answered McCrae, with an odd mixture of +sternness and gentleness in his voice. "I'll stand and fall with ye, Mr. +Hodder. Before I ever thought of the Church I learned a trade, as a boy +in Scotland. I'm not a bad carpenter. And if worse comes to worse, I've +an idea I can make as much with my hands as I make in the ministry." + +The smile they exchanged across the table sealed the compact between +them. + + + +II + +The electric car which carried him to his appointment with the financier +shot westward like a meteor through the night. And now that the hour was +actually at hand, it seemed to Hodder that he was absurdly unprepared to +meet it. New and formidable aspects, hitherto unthought of, rose in his +mind, and the figure of Eldon Parr loomed to Brobdingnagian proportions +as he approached it. In spite of his determination, the life-blood of +his confidence ebbed, a sense of the power and might of the man who had +now become his adversary increased; and that apprehension of the impact +of the great banker's personality, the cutting edge with the vast +achievements wedged in behind it, each adding weight and impetus to its +momentum the apprehension he had felt in less degree on the day of the +first meeting, and which had almost immediately evaporated--surged up +in him now. His fear was lest the charged atmosphere of the banker's +presence might deflect his own hitherto clear perception of true worth. +He dreaded, once in the midst of those disturbing currents, a bungling +presentation of the cause which inspired him, and which he knew to be +righteousness itself. + +Suddenly his mood shifted, betraying still another weakness, and he saw +Eldon Parr, suddenly, vividly--more vividly, indeed, than ever before--in +the shades of the hell of his loneliness. And pity welled up, drowning +the image of incarnate greed and selfishness and lust for wealth and +power: The unique pathos of his former relationship with the man +reasserted itself, and Hodder was conscious once more of the dependence +which Eldon Parr had had on his friendship. During that friendship he, +Hodder, had never lost the sense of being the stronger of the two, of +being leaned upon: leaned upon by a man whom the world feared and hated, +and whom he had been enable to regard with anything but compassion and +the unquestionable affection which sprang from it. Appalled by this +transition, he alighted from the car, and stood for a moment alone in the +darkness gazing at the great white houses that rose above the dusky +outline of shrubbery and trees. + +At any rate, he wouldn't find that sense of dependence to-night. And it +steeled him somewhat to think, as he resumed his steps, that he would +meet now the other side, the hard side hitherto always turned away. Had +he needed no other warning of this, the answer to his note asking for an +appointment would have been enough,--a brief and formal communication +signed by the banker's secretary. . . + +"Mr. Parr is engaged just at present, sir," said the servant who opened +the door. "Would you be good enough to step into the library?" + +Hardly had he entered the room when he heard a sound behind him, and +turned to confront Alison. The thought of her, too, had complicated +infinitely his emotions concerning the interview before him, and the +sight of her now, of her mature beauty displayed in evening dress, of her +white throat gleaming whiter against the severe black of her gown, made +him literally speechless. Never had he accused her of boldness, and now +least of all. It was the quality of her splendid courage that was borne +in upon him once more above the host of other feelings and impressions, +for he read in her eyes a knowledge of the meaning of his visit. + +They stood facing each other an appreciable moment. + +"Mr. Langmaid is with him now," she said, in a low voice. + +"Yes," he answered. + +Her eyes still rested on his face, questioningly, appraisingly, as though +she were seeking to estimate his preparedness for the ordeal before him, +his ability to go through with it successfully, triumphantly. And in her +mention of Langmaid he recognized that she had meant to sound a note of +warning. She had intimated a consultation of the captains, a council of +war. And yet he had never spoken to her of this visit. This proof of +her partisanship, that she had come to him at the crucial instant, +overwhelmed him. + +"You know why I am here?" he managed to say. It had to do with the +extent of her knowledge. + +"Oh, why shouldn't I?" she cried, "after what you have told me. And +could you think I didn't understand, from the beginning, that it meant +this?" + +His agitation still hampered him. He made a gesture of assent. + +"It was inevitable," he said. + +"Yes, it' was inevitable," she assented, and walked slowly to the mantel, +resting her hand on it and bending her head. "I felt that you would not +shirk it, and yet I realize how painful it must be to you." + +"And to you," he replied quickly. + +"Yes, and to me. I do not know what you know, specifically,--I have +never sought to find out things, in detail. That would be horrid. But +I understand--in general--I have understood for many years." She raised +her head, and flashed him a glance that was between a quivering smile and +tears. "And I know that you have certain specific information." + +He could only wonder at her intuition. + +"So far as I am concerned, it is not for the world," he answered. + +"Oh, I appreciate that in you!" she exclaimed. "I wished you to know it. +I wished you to know," she added, a little unsteadily, "how much I admire +you for what you are doing. They are afraid of you--they will crush you +if they can." + +He did not reply. + +"But you are going to speak the truth," she continued, her voice low and +vibrating, "that is splendid! It must have its effect, no matter what +happens." + +"Do you feel that?" he asked, taking a step toward her. + +"Yes. When I see you, I feel it, I think." . . . + +Whatever answer he might have made to this was frustrated by the +appearance of the figure of Nelson Langmaid in the doorway. He seemed +to survey them benevolently through his spectacles. + +"How are you, Hodder? Well, Alison, I have to leave without seeing +anything of you--you must induce your father not to bring his business +home with him. Just a word," he added to the rector, "before you go up." + +Hodder turned to Alison. "Good night," he said. + +The gentle but unmistakable pressure of her hand he interpreted as the +pinning on him of the badge of her faith. He was to go into battle +wearing her colours. Their eyes met. + +"Good night," she answered . . . . + +In the hall the lawyer took his arm. + +"What's the trouble, Hodder?" he asked, sympathetically. + +Hodder, although on his guard, was somewhat taken aback by the directness +of the onslaught. + +"I'm afraid, Mr. Langmaid," the rector replied, "that it would take me +longer to tell you than the time at your disposal." + +Dear me," said the lawyer, "this is too bad. Why didn't you come to me? +I am a good friend of yours, Hodder, and there is an additional bond +between us on my sister's account. She is extremely fond of you, you +know. And I have a certain feeling of responsibility for you,--I brought +you here." + +"You have always been very kind, and I appreciate it," Hodder replied. +"I should be sorry to cause you any worry or annoyance. But you must +understand that I cannot share the responsibility of my acts with any +one." + +"A little advice from an old legal head is sometimes not out of place. +Even Dr. Gilman used to consult me. I hope you will bear in mind how +remarkably well you have been getting along at St. John's, and what a +success you've made." + +"Success!" echoed the rector. + +Either Mr. Langmaid read nothing in his face, or was determined to read +nothing. + +"Assuredly," he answered, benignly. "You have managed to please +everybody, Mr. Parr included,--and some of us are not easy to please. +I thought I'd tell you this, as a friend, as your first friend in the +parish. Your achievement has been all the more remarkable, following, +as you did, Dr. Gilman. Now it would greatly distress me to see that +state of things disturbed, both for your sake and others. I thought I +would just give you a hint, as you are going to see Mr. Parr, that he +is in rather a nervous state. These so-called political reformers have +upset the market and started a lot of legal complications that's why I'm +here to-night. Go easy with him. I know you won't do anything foolish." + +The lawyer accompanied this statement with a pat, but this time he did +not succeed in concealing his concern. + +"That depends on one's point of view," Hodder returned, with a smile. +"I do not know how you have come to suspect that I am going to disturb +Mr. Parr, but what I have to say to him is between him and me." + +Langmaid took up his hat from the table, and sighed. + +"Drop in on me sometime," he said, "I'd like to talk to you--Hodder heard +a voice behind him, and turned. A servant was standing there. + +"Mr. Parr is ready to see you, sir," he said. + +The rector followed him up the stairs, to the room on the second floor, +half office, half study, where the capitalist transacted his business +when at home. + + + +III + +Eldon Parr was huddled over his desk reading a typewritten document; but +he rose, and held out his hand, which Hodder took. + +"How are you, Mr. Hodder? I'm sorry to have kept you waiting, but +matters of some legal importance have arisen on which I was obliged to +make a decision. You're well, I hope." He shot a glance at the rector, +and sat down again, still holding the sheets. "If you will excuse me a +moment longer, I'll finish this." + +"Certainly," Hodder replied. + +"Take a chair," said Mr. Parr, "you'll find the evening paper beside +you." + +Hodder sat down, and the banker resumed his perusal of the document, his +eye running rapidly over the pages, pausing once in a while to scratch +out a word or to make a note on the margin. In the concentration of the +man on the task before him the rector read a design, an implication that +the affairs of the Church were of a minor importance: sensed, indeed, +the new attitude of hostility, gazed upon the undiscovered side, the +dangerous side before which other men had quailed. Alison's words +recurred to him, "they are afraid of you, they will crush you if they +can." Eldon Parr betrayed, at any rate, no sign of fear. If his mental +posture were further analyzed, it might be made out to contain an +intimation that the rector, by some act, had forfeited the right +to the unique privilege of the old relationship. + +Well, the fact that the banker had, in some apparently occult manner, +been warned, would make Hodder's task easier--or rather less difficult. +His feelings were even more complicated than he had anticipated. The +moments of suspense were trying to his nerves, and he had a shrewd notion +that this making men wait was a favourite manoeuvre of Eldon Parr's; nor +had he underrated the benumbing force of that personality. It was +evident that the financier intended him to open the battle, and he was-- +as he had expected--finding it difficult to marshal the regiments of his +arguments. In vain he thought of the tragedy of Garvin . . . . The +thing was more complicated. And behind this redoubtable and sinister +Eldon Parr he saw, as it were, the wraith of that: other who had once +confessed the misery of his loneliness. . . . + +At last the banker rang, sharply, the bell on his desk. A secretary +entered, to whom he dictated a telegram which contained these words: +"Langmaid has discovered a way out." It was to be sent to an address in +Texas. Then he turned in his chair and crossed his knees, his hand +fondling an ivory paper-cutter. He smiled a little. + +"Well, Mr. Hodder," he said. + +The rector, intensely on his guard, merely inclined his head in +recognition that his turn had come. + +"I was sorry," the banker continued, after a perceptible pause, --that +you could not see your way clear to have come with me on the cruise." + +"I must thank you again," Hodder answered, "but I felt--as I wrote you-- +that certain matters made it impossible for me to go." + +"I suppose you had your reasons, but I think you would have enjoyed the +trip. I had a good, seaworthy boat--I chartered her from Mr. Lieber, the +president of the Continental Zinc, you know. I went as far as Labrador. +A wonderful coast, Mr. Hodder." + +"It must be," agreed the rector. It was clear that Mr. Parr intended to +throw upon him the onus of the first move. There was a silence, brief, +indeed, but long enough for Hodder to feel more and more distinctly the +granite hardness which the other had become, to experience a rising, +reenforcing anger. He went forward, steadily but resolutely, on the +crest of it. "I have remained in the city," he continued, "and I have had +the opportunity to discover certain facts of which I have hitherto been +ignorant, and which, in my opinion, profoundly affect the welfare of the +church. It is of these I wished to speak to you." + +Mr. Parr waited. + +"It is not much of an exaggeration to say that ever since I came here +I have been aware that St. John's, considering the long standing of the +parish, the situation of the church in a thickly populated district, is +not fulfilling its mission. But I have failed until now to perceive the +causes of that inefficiency." + +"Inefficiency?" The banker repeated the word. + +"Inefficiency," said Hodder. "The reproach, the responsibility is +largely mine, as the rector, the spiritual, head of the parish. I +believe I am right when I say that the reason for the decision, some +twenty years ago, to leave the church where it is, instead of selling the +property and building in the West End, was that it might minister to the +poor in the neighbourhood, to bring religion and hope into their lives, +and to exert its influence towards eradicating the vice and misery which +surround it." + +"But I thought you had agreed," said Mr. Parr, coldly, "that we were to +provide for that in the new chapel and settlement house." + +"For reasons which I hope to make plain to you, Mr. Parr," Hodder +replied, "those people can never be reached, as they ought to be reached, +by building that settlement house. The principle is wrong, the day is +past when such things can be done--in that way." He laid an emphasis on +these words. "It is good, I grant you, to care for the babies and +children of the poor, it is good to get young women and men out of the +dance-halls, to provide innocent amusement, distraction, instruction. +But it is not enough. It leaves the great, transforming thing in the +lives of these people untouched, and it will forever remain untouched so +long as a sense of wrong, a continually deepening impression of an +unchristian civilization upheld by the Church herself, exists. Such an +undertaking as that settlement house--I see clearly now--is a palliation, +a poultice applied to one of many sores, a compromise unworthy of the +high mission of the Church. She should go to the root of the disease. +It is her first business to make Christians, who, by amending their own +lives, by going out individually and collectively into the life of the +nation, will gradually remove these conditions." + +Mr. Parr sat drumming on the table. Hodder met his look. + +"So you, too, have come to it," he said. + +"Have come to what?" + +"Socialism." + +Hodder, in the state of clairvoyance in which he now surprisingly found +himself, accurately summed up the value and meaning of the banker's sigh. + +"Say, rather," he replied, "that I have come to Christianity. We shall +never have what is called socialism until there is no longer any +necessity for it, until men, of their owe free will, are ready to +renounce selfish, personal ambition and power and work for humanity, +for the state." + +Mr. Parr's gesture implied that he cared not by what name the thing was +called, but he still appeared strangely, astonishingly calm;--Hodder, +with all his faculties acute, apprehended that he was dangerously calm. +The man who had formerly been his friend was now completely obliterated, +and he had the feeling almost of being about to grapple, in mortal +combat, with some unknown monster whose tactics and resources were +infinite, whose victims had never escaped. The monster was in Eldon +Parr--that is how it came to him. The waxy, relentless demon was +aroused. It behooved him, Hodder, to step carefully . . . . + +"That is all very fine, Mr. Hodder, very altruistic, very Christian, +I've no doubt-but the world doesn't work that way." (These were the +words borne in on Hodder's consciousness.) "What drives the world is the +motive furnished by the right of acquiring and holding property. If we +had a division to-day, the able men would come out on top next year." + +The rector shook his head. He remembered, at that moment, Horace +Bentley. + +"What drives the world is a far higher motive, Mr. Parr, the motive +with which have been fired the great lights of history, the motive of +renunciation and service which is transforming governments, which is +gradually making the world a better place in which to live. And we are +seeing men and women imbued with it, rising in ever increasing numbers on +every side to-day." + +"Service!" Eldon Parr had seized upon the word as it passed and held it. +"What do you think my life has been? I suppose," he said, with a touch +of intense bitterness, "that you, too, who six months ago seemed as +reasonable a man as I ever met, have joined in the chorus of +denunciators. It has become the fashion to-day, thanks to your +socialists, reformers, and agitators, to decry a man because he is rich, +to take it for granted that he is a thief and a scoundrel, that he has no +sense of responsibility for his country and his fellow-men. The glory, +the true democracy of this nation, lies in its equal opportunity for all. +They take no account of that, of the fact that each has had the same +chance as his fellows. No, but they cry out that the man who, by the +sweat of his brow, has earned wealth ought to divide it up with the lazy +and the self-indulgent and the shiftless. + +"Take my case, for instance,--it is typical of thousands. I came to this +city as a boy in my teens, with eight dollars in my pocket which I had +earned on a farm. I swept the floor, cleaned the steps, moved boxes and +ran errands in Gabriel Parker's store on Third Street. I was +industrious, sober, willing to do anything. I fought, I tell you every +inch of my way. As soon as I saved a little money I learned to use every +ounce of brain I possessed to hold on to it. I trusted a man once, and I +had to begin all over again. And I discovered, once for all, if a man +doesn't look out for himself, no one will. + +"I don't pretend that I am any better than any one else, I have had to +take life as I found it, and make the best of it. I conformed to the +rules of the game; I soon had sense enough knocked into me to understand +that the conditions were not of my making. But I'll say this for +myself," Eldon Parr leaned forward over the blotter, "I had standards, +and I stuck by them. I wanted to be a decent citizen, to bring up my +children in the right way. I didn't squander my money, when I got it, on +wine and women, I respected other men's wives, I supported the Church and +the institutions of the city. I too even I had my ambitions, my ideals-- +and they were not entirely worldly ones. You would probably accuse me of +wishing to acquire only the position of power which I hold. If you had +accepted my invitation to go aboard the yacht this summer, it was my +intention to unfold to you a scheme of charities which has long been +forming in my mind, and which I think would be of no small benefit to the +city where I have made my fortune. I merely mention this to prove to you +that I am not unmindful, in spite of the circumstances of my own life, +of the unfortunates whose mental equipment is not equal to my own." + +By this "poor boy" argument which--if Hodder had known--Mr. Parr had +used at banquets with telling effect, the banker seemed to regain +perspective and equilibrium, to plant his feet once more on the +rock of the justification of his life, and from which, by a somewhat +extraordinary process he had not quite understood, he had been partially +shaken off. As he had proceeded with his personal history, his manner +had gradually become one of the finality of experience over theory, +of the forbearance of the practical man with the visionary. Like most +successful citizens of his type, he possessed in a high degree the +faculty of creating sympathy, of compelling others to accept-- +temporarily, at least--his point of view. It was this faculty, Hodder +perceived, which had heretofore laid an enchantment upon him, and it was +not without a certain wonder that he now felt himself to be released from +the spell. + +The perceptions of the banker were as keen, and his sense of security was +brief. Somehow, as he met the searching eye of the rector, he was unable +to see the man as a visionary, but beheld--and, to do him justice--felt a +twinge of respect for an adversary worthy of his steel. + +He, who was accustomed to prepare for clouds when they were mere specks +on his horizon, paused even now to marvel why he had not dealt with this. +Here was a man--a fanatic, if he liked--but still a man who positively +did not fear him, to whom his wrath and power were as nothing! A new and +startling and complicated sensation--but Eldon Parr was no coward. If he +had, consciously or unconsciously, formerly looked upon the clergyman as +a dependent, Hodder appeared to be one no more. The very ruggedness of +the man had enhanced, expanded--as it were--until it filled the room. +And Hodder had, with an audacity unparalleled in the banker's experience +arraigned by implication his whole life, managed to put him on the +defensive. + +"But if that be your experience," the rector said, "and it has become +your philosophy, what is it in you that impels you to give these large +sums for the public good?" + +"I should suppose that you, as a clergyman, might understand that my +motive is a Christian one." + +Hodder sat very still, but a higher light came into his eyes. + +"Mr. Parr," he replied, "I have been a friend of yours, and I am a friend +still. And what I am going to tell you is not only in the hope that +others may benefit, but that your own soul may be saved. I mean that +literally--your own soul. You are under the impression that you are a +Christian, but you are not and never have been one. And you will not be +one until your whole life is transformed, until you become a different +man. If you do not change, it is my duty to warn you that the sorrow and +suffering, the uneasiness which you now know, and which drive you on, in +search of distraction, to adding useless sums of money to your fortune-- +this suffering, I say, will become intensified. You will die in the +knowledge of it, and live on after, in the knowledge of it." + +In spite of himself, the financier drew back before this unexpected +blast, the very intensity of which had struck a chill of terror in his +inmost being. He had been taken off his guard,--for he had supposed the +day long past--if it had ever existed--when a spiritual rebuke would +upset him; the day long past when a minister could pronounce one with +any force. That the Church should ever again presume to take herself +seriously had never occurred to him. And yet--the man had denounced him +in a moment of depression, of nervous irritation and exasperation against +a government which had begun to interfere with the sacred liberty of its +citizens, against political agitators who had spurred that government on. +The world was mad. No element, it seemed, was now content to remain in +its proper place. His voice, as he answered, shook with rage,--all the +greater because the undaunted sternness by which it was confronted seemed +to reduce it to futility. + +"Take care!" he cried, "take care! You, nor any other man, clergyman or +no clergyman, have any right to be the judge of my conduct." + +"On the contrary," said Holder, "if your conduct affects the welfare, the +progress, the reputation of the church of which I am rector, I have the +right. And I intend to exercise it. It becomes my duty, however +painful, to tell you, as a member of the Church, wherein you have +wronged the Church and wronged yourself." + +He didn't raise his tone, and there was in it more of sorrow than of +indignation. The banker turned an ashen gray . . A moment elapsed +before he spoke, a transforming moment. He suddenly became ice. + +"Very well," he said. "I can't pretend to account for these astounding +views you have acquired--and I am using a mild term. Let me say this: +(he leaned forward a little, across the desk) I demand that you be +specific. I am a busy man, I have little time to waste, I have certain +matters--before me which must be attended to to-night. I warn you that +I will not listen any longer to vague accusations." + +It was Holder's turn to marvel. Did Eldon Purr, after all; have no sense +of guilt? Instantaneously, automatically, his own anger rose. + +"You may be sure, Mr. Parr, that I should not be here unless I were +prepared to be specific. And what I am going to say to you I have +reserved for your ear alone, in the hope that you will take it to heart, +while it is not yet too late, said amend your life accordingly." + +Eldon Parr shifted slightly. His look became inscrutable, was riveted on +the rector. + +"I shall call your attention first to a man of whom you have probably +never heard. He is dead now--he threw himself into the river this +summer, with a curse on his lips--I am afraid--a curse against you. A +few years ago he lived happily with his wife and child in a little house +on the Grade Suburban, and he had several thousand dollars as a result of +careful saving and systematic self-denial. + +"Perhaps you have never thought of the responsibilities of a great name. +This man, like thousands of others in the city, idealized you. He looked +up to you as the soul of honour, as a self-made man who by his own +unaided efforts--as you yourself have just pointed out--rose from a poor +boy to a position of power and trust in the community. He saw you a +prominent layman in the Church of God. He was dazzled by the brilliancy +of your success, inspired by a civilization which--gave such +opportunities. He recognized that he himself had not the brains for such +an achievement,--his hope and love and ambition were centred in his boy." + +At the word Eldon Parr's glance was suddenly dulled by pain. He +tightened his lips. + +"That boy was then of a happy, merry disposition, so the mother says, and +every summer night as she cooked supper she used to hear him laughing as +he romped in the yard with his father. When I first saw him this summer, +it was two days before his father committed suicide. The child was +lying, stifled with the heat, in the back room of one of those desolate +lodging houses in Dalton Street, and his little body had almost wasted +away. + +"While I was there the father came in, and when he saw me he was filled +with fury. He despised the Church, and St. John's above all churches, +because you were of it; because you who had given so generously to it had +wrecked his life. You had shattered his faith in humanity, his ideal. +From a normal, contented man he had deteriorated into a monomaniac whom +no one would hire, a physical and mental wreck who needed care and +nursing. He said he hoped the boy would die. + +"And what had happened? The man had bought, with all the money he had +in the world, Consolidated Tractions. He had bought it solely because +of his admiration for your ability, his faith in your name. It was +inconceivable to him that a man of your standing, a public benefactor, a +supporter of church and charities, would permit your name to be connected +with any enterprise that was not sound and just. Thousands like Garvin +lost all they had, while you are still a rich man. It is further +asserted that you sold out all your stock at a high price, with the +exception of that in the leased lines, which are guaranteed heavy +dividends." + +"Have you finished?" demanded Eldon Parr. + +"Not quite, on this subject," replied the rector. "Two nights after +that, the man threw himself in the river. His body was pulled out by men +on a tugboat, and his worthless stock certificate was in his pocket. It +is now in the possession of Mr. Horace Bentley. Thanks to Mr. Bentley, +the widow found a temporary home, and the child has almost recovered." + +Hodder paused. His interest had suddenly become concentrated upon the +banker's new demeanour, and he would not have thought it within the range +of possibility that a man could listen to such a revelation concerning +himself without the betrayal of some feeling. But so it was,--Eldon Parr +had been coldly attentive, save for the one scarcely perceptible tremor +when the boy was mentioned. His interrogatory gesture gave the very +touch of perfection to this attitude, since it proclaimed him to have +listened patiently to a charge so preposterous that a less reasonable man +would have cut it short. + +"And what leads you to suppose," he inquired, "that I am responsible in +this matter? What leads you to infer that the Consolidated Tractions +Company was not organized in good faith? Do you think that business men +are always infallible? The street-car lines of this city were at sixes +and sevens, fighting each other; money was being wasted by poor +management. The idea behind the company was a public-spirited one, to +give the citizens cheaper and better service, by a more modern equipment, +by a wider system of transfer. It seems to me, Mr. Hodder, that you put +yourself in a more quixotic position than the so-called reformers when +you assume that the men who organize a company in good faith are +personally responsible for every share of stock that is sold, and for +the welfare of every individual who may buy the stock. We force no one +to buy it. They do so at their own risk. I myself have thousands of +dollars of worthless stock in my safe. I have never complained." + +The full force of Hodder's indignation went into his reply. + +"I am not talking about the imperfect code of human justice under which +we live, Mr. Parr," he cried. "This is not a case in which a court of +law may exonerate you, it is between you and your God. But I have taken +the trouble to find out, from unquestioned sources, the truth about the +Consolidated Tractions Company--I shall not go into the details at +length--they are doubtless familiar to you. I know that the legal genius +of Mr. Langmaid, one of my vestry, made possible the organization of the +company, and thereby evaded the plain spirit of the law of the state. +I know that one branch line was bought for two hundred and fifty thousand +dollars, and capitalized for three millions, and that most of the others +were scandalously over-capitalized. I know that while the coming +transaction was still a secret, you and other, gentlemen connected with +the matter bought up large interests in other lines, which you proceeded +to lease to yourselves at guaranteed dividends which these lines do not +earn. I know that the first large dividend was paid out of capital. And +the stock which you sold to poor Garvin was so hopelessly watered that it +never could have been anything but worthless. If, in spite of these +facts, you do not deem yourself responsible for the misery which has been +caused, if your conscience is now clear, it is my duty to tell you that +there is a higher bar of justice." + +The intensity of the fire of the denunciation had, indeed, a momentary +yet visible effect in the banker's expression. Whatever the emotions +thus lashed to self-betrayal, anger, hatred,--fear, perhaps, Hodder could +not detect a trace of penitence; and he was aware, on the part of the +other, of a supreme, almost spasmodic effort for self-control. The +constitutional reluctance of Eldon Parr to fight openly could not have +been more clearly demonstrated. + +"Because you are a clergyman, Mr. Hodder," he began, "because you are +the rector of St. John's, I have allowed you to say things to me which +I would not have permitted from any other man. I have tried to take +into account your point of view, which is naturally restricted, your +pardonable ignorance of what business men, who wish to do their duty by +Church and State, have to contend with. When you came to this parish you +seemed to have a sensible, a proportional view of things; you were +content to confine your activities to your own sphere, content not to +meddle with politics and business, which you could, at first hand, know +nothing about. The modern desire of clergymen to interfere in these +matters has ruined the usefulness of many of them. + +"I repeat, I have tried to be patient. I venture to hope, still, that +this extraordinary change in you may not be permanent, but merely the +result of a natural sympathy with the weak and unwise and unfortunate who +are always to be found in a complex civilization. I can even conceive +how such a discovery must have shocked you, temporarily aroused your +indignation, as a clergyman, against the world as it is--and, I may add, +as it has always been. My personal friendship for you, and my interest +in your future welfare impel me to make a final appeal to you not to ruin +a career which is full of promise." + +The rector did not take advantage of the pause. A purely psychological +curiosity hypnotized him to see how far the banker would go in his +apparent generosity. + +"I once heard you say, I believe, in a sermon, that the Christian +religion is a leaven. It is the leaven that softens and ameliorates the +hard conditions of life, that makes our relations with our fellow-men +bearable. But life is a contest, it is war. It always has been, and +always will be. Business is war, commerce is war, both among nations and +individuals. You cannot get around it. If a man does not exterminate +his rivals they will exterminate him. In other days churches were built +and endowed with the spoils of war, and did not disdain the money. +To-day they cheerfully accept the support and gifts of business men. +I do not accuse them of hypocrisy. It is a recognition on their part +that business men, in spite of hard facts, are not unmindful of the +spiritual side of life, and are not deaf to the injunction to help +others. And when, let me ask you, could you find in the world's history +more splendid charities than are around us to-day? Institutions endowed +for medical research, for the conquest of deadly diseases? libraries, +hospitals, schools--men giving their fortunes for these things, the +fruits of a life's work so laboriously acquired? Who can say that the +modern capitalist is not liberal, is not a public benefactor? + +"I dislike being personal, but you have forced it upon me. I dislike to +refer to what I have already done in the matter of charities, but I +hinted to you awhile ago of a project I have conceived and almost +perfected of gifts on a much larger scale than I have ever attempted." +The financier stared at him meaningly. "And I had you in mind as one of +the three men whom I should consult, whom I should associate with myself +in the matter. We cannot change human nature, but we can better +conditions by wise giving. I do not refer now to the settle ment house, +which I am ready to help make and maintain as the best in the country, +but I have in mind a system to be carried out with the consent and aid +of the municipal government, of play-grounds, baths, parks, places of +recreation, and hospitals, for the benefit of the people, which will +put our city in the very forefront of progress. And I believe, as a +practical man, I can convince you that the betterment which you and I so +earnestly desire can be brought about in no other way. Agitation can +only result in anarchy and misery for all." + +Hodder's wrath, as he rose from his chair, was of the sort that appears +incredibly to add to the physical stature,--the bewildering spiritual +wrath which is rare indeed, and carries all before it. + +"Don't tempt me, Mr. Parr!" he said. "Now that I know the truth, I tell +you frankly I would face poverty and persecution rather than consent to +your offer. And I warn you once more not to flatter yourself that +existence ends here, that you will, not be called to answer for every +wrong act you have committed in accumulating your fortune, that what +you call business is an affair of which God takes no account. What +I say may seem foolishness to you, but I tell you, in the words of that +Foolishness, that it will not profit you to gain the whole world and lose +your own soul. You remind me that the Church in old time accepted gifts +from the spoils of war, and I will add of rapine and murder. And the +Church to-day, to repeat your own parallel, grows rich with money +wrongfully got. Legally? Ah, yes, legally, perhaps. But that will not +avail you. And the kind of church you speak of--to which I, to my shame, +once consented--Our Lord repudiates. It is none of his. I warn you, Mr. +Parr, in his Name, first to make your peace with your brothers before you +presume to lay another gift on the altar." + +During this withering condemnation of himself Eldon Parr sat motionless, +his face grown livid, an expression on it that continued to haunt Hodder +long afterwards. An expression, indeed, which made the banker almost +unrecognizable. + +"Go, he whispered, his hand trembling visibly as he pointed towards the +door. "Go--I have had enough of this." + +"Not until I have said one thing more," replied the rector, undaunted. +"I have found the woman whose marriage with your son you prevented, whom +you bought off and started on the road to hell without any sense of +responsibility. You have made of her a prostitute and a drunkard. +Whether she can be rescued or not is problematical. She, too, is in +Mr. Bentley's care, a man upon whom you once showed no mercy. I leave +Garvin, who has gone to his death, and Kate Marcy and Horace Bentley to +your conscience, Mr. Parr. That they are representative of many others, +I do not doubt. I tell you solemnly that the whole meaning of life is +service to others, and I warn you, before it is too late, to repent and +make amends. Gifts will not help you, and charities are of no avail." + +At the reference to Kate Marcy Eldon Parr's hand dropped to his side. +He seemed to have physical difficulty in speaking. + +"Ah, you have found that woman!" He leaned an elbow on the desk, +he seemed suddenly to have become weary, spent, old. And Hodder, +as he watched him, perceived--that his haggard look was directed towards +a photograph in a silver frame on the table--a photograph of Preston +Parr. At length he broke the silence. + +"What would you have had me do?" he asked. "Permit my son to marry a +woman of the streets, I suppose. That would have been Christianity, +according to your notion. Come now, what world you have done, if your +son had been in question?" + +A wave of pity swept over the rector. + +"Why," he said, why did you have nothing but cruelty in your heart, and +contempt for her? When you saw that she was willing, for the love of the +son whom you loved, to give up all that life meant to her, how could you +destroy her without a qualm? The crime you committed was that you +refused to see God in that woman's soul, when he had revealed himself to +you. You looked for wile, for cunning, for self-seeking,--and they were +not there. Love had obliterated them. When you saw how meekly she +obeyed you, and agreed to go away, why did you not have pity? If you +had listened to your conscience, you would have known what to do. + +"I do not say that you should not have opposed the marriage--then. +Marriage is not to be lightly entered into. From the moment you went to +see her you became responsible for her. You hurled her into the abyss, +and she has come back to haunt you. You should have had her educated and +cared for--she would have submitted, to any plan you proposed. And if, +after a sensible separation, you became satisfied as to her character and +development, and your son still wished to marry her, you should have +withdrawn your objections. + +"As it is, and in consequence of your act, you have lost your son. He +left you then, and you have no more control over him." + +"Stop!" cried Eldon Parr, "for God's sake stop! I won't stand any more +of this. I will not listen to criticism of my life, to strictures on my +conduct from you or any other man." He reached for a book on the corner +of his desk--a cheque book.--"You'll want money for these people, I +suppose," he added brutally. "I will give it, but it must be understood +that I do not recognize any right of theirs to demand it." + +For a moment Holder did not trust himself to reply. He looked down +across the desk at the financier, who was fumbling with the leaves. + +"They do not demand it, Mr. Parr," he answered, gently. "And I have +tried to make it plain to you that you have lost the right to give it. +I expected to fail in this. I have failed." + +"What do you mean?" Eldon Parr let the cheque book close. + +"I mean what I said," the rector replied. "That if you would save your +soul you must put an end, to-morrow, to the acquisition of money, and +devote the rest of your life to an earnest and sincere attempt to make +just restitution to those you have wronged. And you must ask the +forgiveness of God for your sins. Until you do that, your charities are +abominations in his sight. I will not trouble you any longer, except to +say that I shall be ready to come to you at any time my presence may be +of any help to you." + +The banker did not speak . . . . With a single glance towards the +library Holder left the house, but paused for a moment outside to gaze +back at it, as it loomed in the darkness against the stars. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +ALISON GOES TO CHURCH + + +I + +On the following Sunday morning the early light filtered into Alison's +room, and she opened her strong eyes. Presently she sprang from her bed +and drew back the curtains of the windows, gazing rapturously into the +crystal day. The verdure of the Park was freshened to an incredible +brilliancy by the dew, a thin white veil of mist was spread over the +mirror of the waters, the trees flung long shadows across the turf. + +A few minutes later she was out, thrilled by the silence, drawing in +deep, breaths of the morning air; lingering by still lakes catching the +blue of the sky--a blue that left its stain upon the soul; as the sun +mounted she wandered farther, losing herself in the wilderness of the +forest. + +At eight o'clock, when she returned, there were signs that the city had +awakened. A mounted policeman trotted past her as she crossed a gravel +drive, and on the tree-flecked stretches, which lately had been empty as +Eden, human figures were scattered. A child, with a sailboat that +languished for lack of wind, stared at her, first with fascination and +wonder in his eyes, and then smiled at her tentatively. She returned the +smile with a start. + +Children had stared at her like that before now, and for the first time +in her life she asked herself what the look might mean. She had never +really been fond of them: she had never, indeed, been brought much in +contact with them. But now, without warning, a sudden fierce yearning +took possession of her: surprised and almost frightened, she stopped +irresistibly and looked back at the thin little figure crouched beside +the water, to discover that his widened eyes were still upon her. Her +own lingered on him shyly, and thus for a moment she hung in doubt +whether to flee or stay, her heart throbbing as though she were on the +brink of some unknown and momentous adventure. She took a timid step. + +"What's your name?" she asked. + +The boy told her. + +"What's yours?" he ventured, still under the charm. + +"Alison." + +He had never heard of that name, and said so. They deplored the lack of +wind. And presently, still mystified, but gathering courage, he asked +her why she blushed, at which her colour deepened. + +"I can't help it," she told him. + +"I like it," the boy said. + +Though the grass was still wet, she got down on her knees in her white +skirt, the better to push the boat along the shore: once it drifted +beyond their reach, and was only rescued by a fallen branch discovered +with difficulty. + +The arrival of the boy's father, an anaemic-looking little man, put an +end to their play. He deplored the condition of the lady's dress. + +"It doesn't matter in the least," she assured him, and fled in a mood she +did not attempt to analyze. Hurrying homeward, she regained her room, +bathed, and at half past eight appeared in the big, formal dining-room, +from which the glare of the morning light was carefully screened. Her +father insisted on breakfasting here; and she found him now seated before +the white table-cloth, reading a newspaper. He glanced up at her +critically. + +"So you've decided to honour me this morning," he said. + +"I've been out in the Park," she replied, taking the chair opposite him. +He resumed his reading, but presently, as she was pouring out the coffee, +he lowered the paper again. + +"What's the occasion to-day?" he asked. + +"The occasion?" she repeated, without acknowledging that she had +instantly grasped his implication. His eyes were on her gown. + +"You are not accustomed, as a rule, to pay much deference to Sunday." + +"Doesn't the Bible say, somewhere," she inquired, "that the Sabbath was +made for man? Perhaps that may be broadened after a while, to include +woman." + +"But you have never been an advocate, so far as I know, of women taking +advantage of their opportunity by going to Church." + +"What's the use," demanded Alison, "of the thousands of working women +spending the best part of the day in the ordinary church, when their feet +and hands and heads are aching? Unless some fire is kindled in their +souls, it is hopeless for them to try to obtain any benefit from +religion--so-called--as it is preached to them in most churches." + +"Fire in their souls!" exclaimed the banker. + +"Yes. If the churches offered those who might be leaders among their +fellows a practical solution of existence, kindled their self-respect, +replaced a life of drudgery by one of inspiration--that would be worth +while. But you will never get such a condition as that unless your +pulpits are filled by personalities, instead of puppets who are all cast +in one mould, and who profess to be there by divine right." + +"I am glad to see at least that you are taking an interest in religious +matters," her father observed, meaningly. + +Alison coloured. But she retorted with spirit. + +"That is true of a great many persons to-day who are thinking on the +subject. If Christianity is a solution of life, people are demanding of +the churches that they shall perform their function, and show us how, and +why, or else cease to encumber the world." + +Eldon Parr folded up his newspaper. + +"So you are going to Church this morning," he said. + +"Yes. At what time will you be ready?" + +"At quarter to eleven. But if you are going to St. John', you will have +to start earlier. I'll order a car at half past ten." + +"Where are you going?" She held her breath, unconsciously, for the +answer. + +"To Calvary," he replied coldly, as he rose to leave the room. "But I +hesitate to ask you to come,--I am afraid you will not find a religion +there that suits you." + +For a moment she could not trust herself to speak. The secret which, +ever since Friday evening, she had been burning to learn was disclosed +. . . Her father had broken with Mr. Hodder! + +"Please don't order the motor for me," she said. "I'd rather go in the +street cars." + +She sat very still in the empty room, her face burning. + +Characteristically, her father had not once mentioned the rector of St. +John's, yet had contrived to imply that her interest in Hodder was +greater than her interest in religion. And she was forced to admit, with +her customary honesty, that the implication was true. + + +The numbers who knew Alison Parr casually thought her cold. They admired +a certain quality in her work, but they did not suspect that that quality +was the incomplete expression of an innate idealism capable of being +fanned into flame,--for she was subject to rare but ardent enthusiasms +which kindled and transformed her incredibly in the eyes of the few to +whom the process had been revealed. She had had even a longer list of +suitors than any one guessed; men who--usually by accident--had touched +the hidden spring, and suddenly beholding an unimagined woman, had +consequently lost their heads. The mistake most of them had made (for +subtlety in such affairs is not a masculine trait) was the failure to +recognize and continue to present the quality in them which had awakened +her. She had invariably discovered the feet of clay. + +Thus disillusion had been her misfortune--perhaps it would be more +accurate to say her fortune. She had built up, after each invasion, her +defences more carefully and solidly than before, only to be again +astonished and dismayed by the next onslaught, until at length the +question had become insistent--the question of an alliance for purposes +of greater security. She had returned to her childhood home to consider +it, frankly recognizing it as a compromise, a fall . . . . + +And here, in this sanctuary of her reflection, and out of a quarter on +which she had set no watch, out of a wilderness which she had believed to +hold nothing save the ruined splendours of the past, had come one who, +like the traditional figures of the wilderness, had attracted her by his +very uncouthness and latent power. And the anomaly he presented in what +might be called the vehemence of his advocacy of an outworn orthodoxy, +in his occupation of the pulpit of St. John's, had quickened at once her +curiosity and antagonism. It had been her sudden discovery, or rather +her instinctive suspicion of the inner conflict in him which had set her +standard fluttering in response. Once more (for the last time--something +whispered--now) she had become the lady of the lists; she sat on her +walls watching, with beating heart and straining eyes, the closed helm +of her champion, ready to fling down the revived remnant of her faith as +prize or forfeit. She had staked all on the hope that he would not lower +his lance. . . . . + +Saturday had passed in suspense . . . . And now was flooding in on +her the certainty that he had not failed her; that he had, with a sublime +indifference to a worldly future and success, defied the powers. With +indifference, too, to her! She knew, of course, that he loved her. +A man with less of greatness would have sought a middle way . . . . + +When, at half past ten, she fared forth into the sunlight, she was filled +with anticipation, excitement, concern, feelings enhanced and not soothed +by the pulsing vibrations of the church bells in the softening air. The +swift motion of the electric car was grateful. . . But at length the +sight of familiar landmarks, old-fashioned dwellings crowded in between +the stores and factories of lower Tower Street, brought back +recollections of the days when she had come this way, other Sunday +mornings, and in a more leisurely public vehicle, with her mother. +Was it possible that she, Alison Parr, were going to church now? Her +excitement deepened, and she found it difficult to bring herself to the +realization that her destination was a church--the church of her +childhood. At this moment she could only think of St. John's as the +setting of the supreme drama. + +When she alighted at the corner of Burton Street there was the well- +remembered, shifting group on the pavement in front of the church porch. +How many times, in the summer and winter, in fair weather and cloudy, in +rain and sleet and snow had she approached that group, as she approached +it now! Here were the people, still, in the midst of whom her earliest +associations had been formed, changed, indeed,-but yet the same. No, the +change was in her, and the very vastness of that change came as a shock. +These had stood still, anchored to their traditions, while she--had she +grown? or merely wandered? She had searched, at least, and seen. She +had once accepted them--if indeed as a child it could have been said of +her that she accepted anything; she had been unable then, at any rate, to +bring forward any comparisons. + +Now she beheld them, collectively, in their complacent finery, as +representing a force, a section of the army blocking the heads of the +passes of the world's progress, resting on their arms, but ready at the +least uneasy movement from below to man the breastworks, to fling down +the traitor from above, to fight fiercely for the solidarity of their +order. And Alison even believed herself to detect, by something +indefinable in their attitudes as they stood momentarily conversing +in lowered voices, an aroused suspicion, an uneasy anticipation. Her +imagination went so far as to apprehend, as they greeted her unwonted +appearance, that they read in it an addition to other vague and +disturbing phenomena. Her colour was high. + +"Why, my dear," said Mrs. Atterbury, "I thought you had gone back to New +York long ago!" + +Beside his mother stood Gordon--more dried up, it seemed, than ever. +Alison recalled him, as on this very spot, a thin, pale boy in short +trousers, and Mrs. Atterbury a beautiful and controlled young matron +associated with St. John's and with children's parties. She was +wonderful yet, with her white hair and straight nose, her erect figure +still slight. Alison knew that Mrs. Atterbury had never forgiven her for +rejecting her son--or rather for being the kind of woman who could reject +him. + +"Surely you haven't been here all summer?" + +Alison admitted it, characteristically, without explanations. + +"It seems so natural to see you here at the old church, after all these +years," the lady went on, and Alison was aware that Mrs. Atterbury +questioned--or rather was at a loss for the motives which had led such an +apostate back to the fold. "We must thank Mr. Hodder, I suppose. He's +very remarkable. I hear he is resuming the services to-day for the first +time since June." + +Alison was inclined to read a significance into Mrs. Atterbury's glance +at her son, who was clearing his throat. + +"But--where is Mr. Parr?" he asked. "I understand he has come back from +his cruise." + +"Yes, he is back. I came without--him---as you see." + +She found a certain satisfaction in adding to the mystification, to the +disquietude he betrayed by fidgeting more than usual. + +"But--he always comes when he is in town. Business--I suppose--ahem!" + +"No," replied Alison, dropping her bomb with cruel precision, "he has +gone to Calvary." + +The agitation was instantaneous. + +"To Calvary!" exclaimed mother and son in one breath. + +"Why?" It was Gordon who demanded. "A--a special occasion there--a +bishop or something?" + +"I'm afraid you must ask him," she said. + +She was delayed on the steps, first by Nan Ferguson, then by the +Laureston Greys, and her news outdistanced her to the porch. Charlotte +Plimpton looking very red and solid, her eyes glittering with excitement, +blocked her way. + +"Alison?" she cried, in the slightly nasal voice that was a Gore +inheritance, "I'm told your father's gone to Calvary! Has Mr. Hodder +offended him? I heard rumours--Wallis seems to be afraid that something +has happened." + +"He hasn't said anything about it to me, Charlotte," said Alison, in +quiet amusement," but then he wouldn't, you know. I don't live here any +longer, and he has no reason to think that I would be interested in +church matters." + +"But--why did you come?" Charlotte demanded, with Gore naivete. + +Alison smiled. + +"You mean--what was my motive?" + +Charlotte actually performed the miracle of getting redder. She was +afraid of Alison--much more afraid since she had known of her vogue in +the East. When Alison had put into execution the astounding folly (to +the Gore mind) of rejecting the inheritance of millions to espouse a +profession, it had been Charlotte Plimpton who led the chorus of ridicule +and disapproval. But success, to the Charlotte Plimptons, is its own +justification, and now her ambition (which had ramifications) was to have +Alison "do" her a garden. Incidentally, the question had flashed through +her mind as to how much Alison's good looks had helped towards her +triumph in certain shining circles. + +"Oh, of course I didn't mean that," she hastened to deny, although it was +exactly what she had meant. Her curiosity unsatisfied--and not likely to +be satisfied at once, she shifted abruptly to the other burning subject. +"I was so glad when I learned you hadn't gone. Grace Larrabbee's garden +is a dream, my dear. Wallis and I stopped there the other day and the +caretaker showed it to us. Can't you make a plan for me, so that I may +begin next spring? And there's something else I wanted to ask you. +Wallis and I are going to New York the end of the month. Shall you be +there?" + +"I don't know," said Alison, cautiously. + +"We want so much to see one or two of your gardens on Long Island, and +especially the Sibleys', on the Hudson. I know it will be late in the +season,--but don't you think you could take us, Alison? And I intend to +give you a dinner. I'll write you a note. Here's Wallis." + +"Well, well, well," said Mr. Plimpton, shaking Alison's hand. "Where's +father? I hear he's gone to Calvary." + +Alison made her escape. Inside the silent church, Eleanor Goodrich gave +her a smile and a pressure of welcome. Beside her, standing behind the +rear pew, were Asa Waring and--Mr. Bentley! Mr. Bentley returned to St. +John's! + +"You have come!" Alison whispered. + +He understood her. He took her hand in his and looked down into her +upturned face. + +"Yes, my dear," he said, "and my girls have come Sally Grover and the +others, and some friends from Dalton Street and elsewhere." + +The news, the sound of this old gentleman's voice and the touch of his +hand suddenly filled her with a strange yet sober happiness. Asa Waring, +though he had not overheard, smiled at her too, as in sympathy. His +austere face was curiously illuminated, and she knew instinctively that +in some way he shared her happiness. Mr. Bentley had come back! Yes, it +was an augury. From childhood she had always admired Asa Waring, and now +she felt a closer tie . . . . + +She reached the pew, hesitated an instant, and slipped forward on her +knees. Years had gone by since she had prayed, and even now she made no +attempt to translate into words the intensity of her yearning--for what? +Hodder's success, for one thing,--and by success she meant that he might +pursue an unfaltering course. True to her temperament, she did not look +for the downfall of the forces opposed to him. She beheld him +persecuted, yet unyielding, and was thus lifted to an exaltation that +amazed. . . If he could do it, such a struggle must sorely have an +ultimate meaning! Thus she found herself, trembling, on the borderland +of faith. . . + +She arose, bewildered, her pulses beating. And presently glancing about, +she took in that the church was fuller than she ever remembered having +seen it, and the palpitating suspense she felt seemed to pervade, as it +were, the very silence. With startling abruptness, the silence was +broken by the tones of the great organ that rolled and reverberated among +the arches; distant voices took up the processional; the white choir +filed past,--first the treble voices of the boys, then the deeper notes +of the--men,--turned and mounted the chancel steps, and then she saw +Hodder. Her pew being among the first, he passed very near her. Did he +know she would be there? The sternness of his profile told her nothing. +He seemed at that moment removed, set apart, consecrated--this was the +word that came to her, and yet she was keenly conscious of his presence. + +Tingling, she found herself repeating, inwardly, two, lines of the hymn + + "Lay hold on life, and it shall be + Thy joy and crown eternally." + +"Lay hold on life!" + +The service began,--the well-remembered, beautiful appeal and prayers +which she could still repeat, after a lapse of time, almost by heart; and +their music and rhythm, the simple yet magnificent language in which. +they were clothed--her own language--awoke this morning a racial instinct +strong in her,--she had not known how strong. Or was it something in +Hodder's voice that seemed to illumine the ancient words with a new +meaning? Raising her eyes to the chancel she studied his head, and found +in it still another expression of that race, the history of which had +been one of protest, of development of its own character and personality. +Her mind went back to her first talk with him, in the garden, and she saw +how her intuition had recognized in him then the spirit of a people +striving to assert itself. + +She stood with tightened lips, during the Apostles' Creed, listening to +his voice as it rose, strong and unfaltering, above the murmur of the +congregation. + +At last she saw him swiftly crossing the chancel, mounting the pulpit +steps, and he towered above her, a dominant figure, his white surplice +sharply outlined against the dark stone of the pillar. The hymn died +away, the congregation sat down. There was a sound in the church, +expectant, presaging, like the stirring of leaves at the first breath of +wind, and then all was silent. + + + +II + +He had preached for an hour--longer, perhaps. Alison could not have said +how long. She had lost all sense of time. + +No sooner had the text been spoken, "Except a man be born again, he +cannot see the Kingdom of God," than she seemed to catch a fleeting +glimpse of an hitherto unimagined Personality. Hundreds of times she +had heard those words, and they had been as meaningless to her as to +Nicodemus. But now--now something was brought home to her of the +magnificent certainty with which they must first have been spoken, +of the tone and bearing and authority of him who had uttered them. +Was Christ like that? And could it be a Truth, after all, a truth +only to be grasped by one who had experienced it? + +It was in vain that man had tried to evade this, the supreme revelation +of Jesus Christ, had sought to substitute ceremonies and sacrifices for +spiritual rebirth. It was in vain that the Church herself had, from time +to time, been inclined to compromise. St. Paul, once the strict Pharisee +who had laboured for the religion of works, himself had been reborn into +the religion of the Spirit. It was Paul who had liberated that message +of rebirth, which the world has been so long in grasping, from the narrow +bounds of Palestine and sent it ringing down the ages to the democracies +of the twentieth century. + +And even Paul, though not consciously inconsistent, could not rid himself +completely of that ancient, automatic, conception of religion which the +Master condemned, but had on occasions attempted fruitlessly to unite the +new with the old. And thus, for a long time, Christianity had been +wrongly conceived as history, beginning with what to Paul and the Jews +was an historical event, the allegory of the Garden of Eden, the fall of +Adam, and ending with the Jewish conception of the Atonement. This was a +rationalistic and not a spiritual religion. + +The miracle was not the vision, whatever its nature, which Saul beheld on +the road to Damascus. The miracle was the result of that vision, the man +reborn. Saul, the persecutor of Christians, become Paul, who spent the +rest of his days, in spite of persecution and bodily infirmities, +journeying tirelessly up and down the Roman Empire, preaching the risen +Christ, and labouring more abundantly than they all! There was no +miracle in the New Testament more wonderful than this. + +The risen Christ! Let us not trouble ourselves about the psychological +problems involved, problems which the first century interpreted in its +own simple way. Modern, science has taught us this much, at least, +that we have by no means fathomed the limits even of a transcendent +personality. If proofs of the Resurrection and Ascension were demanded, +let them be spiritual proofs, and there could be none more convincing +than the life of the transformed Saul, who had given to the modern, +western world the message of salvation . . . . + +That afternoon, as Alison sat motionless on a distant hillside of the +Park, gazing across the tree-dotted, rolling country to the westward, she +recalled the breathless silence in the church when he had reached this +point and paused, looking down at the congregation. By the subtle +transmission of thought, of feeling which is characteristic at dramatic +moments of bodies of people, she knew that he had already contrived to +stir them to the quick. It was not so much that these opening words +might have been startling to the strictly orthodox, but the added fact +that Hodder had uttered them. The sensation in the pews, as Alison +interpreted it and exulted over it, was one of bewildered amazement that +this was their rector, the same man who had preached to them in June. +Like Paul, of whom he spoke, he too was transformed, had come to his own, +radiating a new power that seemed to shine in his face. + +Still agitated, she considered that discourse now in her solitude, what +it meant for him, for her, for the Church and civilization that a +clergyman should have had the courage to preach it. He himself had +seemed unconscious of any courage; had never once--she recalled--been +sensational. He had spoken simply, even in the intensest moments of +denunciation. And she wondered now how he had managed, without stripping +himself, without baring the intimate, sacred experiences of his own soul, +to convey to them, so nobly, the change which had taken place in him.... + +He began by referring to the hope with which he had come to St. John's, +and the gradual realization that the church was a failure--a dismal +failure when compared to the high ideal of her Master. By her fruits she +should be known and judged. From the first he had contemplated, with a +heavy heart, the sin and misery at their very gates. Not three blocks +distant children were learning vice in the streets, little boys of seven +and eight, underfed and anaemic, were driven out before dawn to sell +newspapers, little girls thrust forth to haunt the saloons and beg, while +their own children were warmed and fed. While their own daughters were +guarded, young women in Dayton Street were forced to sell themselves into +a life which meant slow torture, inevitable early death. Hopeless +husbands and wives were cast up like driftwood by the cruel, resistless +flood of modern civilization--the very civilization which yielded their +wealth and luxury. The civilization which professed the Spirit of +Christ, and yet was pitiless. + +He confessed to them that for a long time he had been blind to the truth, +had taken the inherited, unchristian view that the disease which caused +vice and poverty might not be cured, though its ulcers might be +alleviated. He had not, indeed, clearly perceived and recognized the +disease. He had regarded Dalton Street in a very special sense as a +reproach to St. John's, but now he saw that all such neighbourhoods were +in reality a reproach to the city, to the state, to the nation. True +Christianity and Democracy were identical, and the congregation of St. +John's, as professed Christians and citizens, were doubly responsible, +inasmuch as they not only made no protest or attempt to change a +government which permitted the Dalton Streets to exist, but inasmuch also +as,--directly or indirectly,--they derived a profit from conditions which +were an abomination to God. It would be but an idle mockery for them to +go and build a settlement house, if they did not first reform their +lives. + +Here there had been a decided stir among the pews. Hodder had not seemed +to notice it. + +When he, their rector, had gone to Dalton Street to invite the poor and +wretched into God's Church, he was met by the scornful question: "Are the +Christians of the churches any better than we? Christians own the grim +tenements in which we live, the saloons and brothels by which we are +surrounded, which devour our children. Christians own the establishments +which pay us starvation wages; profit by politics, and take toll from our +very vice; evade the laws and reap millions, while we are sent to jail. +Is their God a God who will lift us out of our misery and distress? Are +their churches for the poor? Are not the very pews in which they sit as +closed to us as their houses?" + +"I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot. I would thou wert +cold or hot." + +One inevitable conclusion of such a revelation was that he had not +preached to them the vital element of Christianity. And the very fact +that his presentation of religion had left many indifferent or +dissatisfied was proof-positive that he had dwelt upon non-essentials, +laid emphasis upon the mistaken interpretations of past ages. There +were those within the Church who were content with this, who--like the +Pharisees of old--welcomed a religion which did not interfere with their +complacency, with their pursuit of pleasure and wealth, with their +special privileges; welcomed a Church which didn't raise her voice +against the manner of their lives--against the order, the Golden Calf +which they had set up, which did not accuse them of deliberately +retarding the coming of the Kingdom of God. + +Ah, that religion was not religion, for religion was a spiritual, +not a material affair. In that religion, vainly designed by man as a +compromise between God and Mammon, there was none of the divine +discontent of the true religion of the Spirit, no need of the rebirth of +the soul. And those who held it might well demand, with Nicodemus and +the rulers of the earth, "How can these things be?" + +And there were others who still lingered in the Church, perplexed and +wistful, who had come to him and confessed that the so-called catholic +acceptance of divine truths, on which he had hitherto dwelt, meant +nothing to them. To these, in particular, he owed a special reparation, +and he took this occasion to announce a series of Sunday evening sermons +on the Creeds. So long as the Creeds remained in the Prayer Book it was +his duty to interpret them in terms not only of modern thought, but in +harmony with the real significance of the Person and message of Jesus +Christ. Those who had come to him questioning, he declared, were a +thousand times right in refusing to accept the interpretations of other +men, the consensus of opinion of more ignorant ages, expressed in an +ancient science and an archaic philosophy. + +And what should be said of the vast and ever increasing numbers of those +not connected with the Church, who had left it or were leaving it? and of +the less fortunate to whose bodily wants they had been ministering in the +parish house, for whom it had no spiritual message, and who never entered +its doors? The necessity of religion, of getting in touch with, of +dependence on the Spirit of the Universe was inherent in man, and yet +there were thousands--nay, millions in the nation to-day in whose hearts +was an intense and unsatisfied yearning, who perceived no meaning in +life, no Cause for which to work, who did not know what Christianity was, +who had never known what it was, who wist not where to turn to find out. +Education had brought many of them to discern, in the Church's teachings, +an anachronistic medley of myths and legends, of theories of schoolmen +and theologians, of surviving pagan superstitions which could not be +translated into life. They saw, in Christianity, only the adulterations +of the centuries. If any one needed a proof of the yearning people felt, +let him go to the bookshops, or read in the publishers' lists to-day the +announcements of books on religion. There was no supply where there was +no demand. + +Truth might no longer be identified with Tradition, and the day was past +when councils and synods might determine it for all mankind. The era of +forced acceptance of philosophical doctrines and dogmas was past, and +that of freedom, of spiritual rebirth, of vicarious suffering, of willing +sacrifice and service for a Cause was upon them. That cause was +Democracy. Christ was uniquely the Son of God because he had lived and +suffered and died in order to reveal to the world the meaning of this +life and of the hereafter--the meaning not only for the individual, but +for society as well. Nothing might be added to or subtracted from that +message--it was complete. + +True faith was simply trusting--trusting that Christ gave to the world +the revelation of God's plan. And the Saviour himself had pointed out +the proof: "If any man do his will, he shall know of the doctrine, +whether it be of God, or whether I speak for myself." Christ had +repeatedly rebuked those literal minds which had demanded material +evidence: true faith spurned it, just as true friendship, true love +between man and man, true trust scorned a written bond. To paraphrase +St. James's words, faith without trust is dead--because faith without +trust is impossible. God is a Spirit, only to be recognized in the +Spirit, and every one of the Saviour's utterances were--not of the flesh, +of the man--but of the Spirit within him. "He that hath seen me hath +seen the Father; "and "Why callest thou me good? none is good save one, +that is, God." The Spirit, the Universal Meaning of Life, incarnate in +the human Jesus. + +To be born again was to overcome our spiritual blindness, and then, +and then only, we might behold the spirit shining in the soul of Christ. +That proof had sufficed for Mark, had sufficed for the writer of the +sublime Fourth Gospel, had sufficed for Paul. Let us lift this wondrous +fact, once and for all, out of the ecclesiastical setting and incorporate +it into our lives. Nor need the hearts of those who seek the Truth, who +fear not to face it, be troubled if they be satisfied, from the Gospels, +that the birth of Jesus was not miraculous. The physical never could +prove the spiritual, which was the real and everlasting, which no +discovery in science or history can take from us. The Godship of Christ +rested upon no dogma, it was a conviction born into us with the new +birth. And it becomes an integral part of our personality, our very +being. + +The secret, then, lay in a presentation of the divine message which would +convince and transform and electrify those who heard it to action--a +presentation of the message in terms which the age could grasp. That is +what Paul had done, he had drawn his figures boldly from the customs of +the life of his day, but a more or less intimate knowledge of these +ancient customs were necessary before modern men and women could +understand those figures and parallels. And the Church must awake +to her opportunities, to her perception of the Cause. . . . + +What, then, was the function, the mission of the Church Universal? Once +she had laid claim to temporal power, believed herself to be the sole +agency of God on earth, had spoken ex cathedra on philosophy, history, +theology, and science, had undertaken to confer eternal bliss and to damn +forever. Her members, and even her priests, had gone from murder to +mass and from mass to murder, and she had engaged in cruel wars and +persecutions to curtail the liberties of mankind. Under that conception +religion was a form of insurance of the soul. Perhaps a common, +universal belief had been necessary in the dark ages before the sublime +idea of education for the masses had come; but the Church herself-- +through ignorance--had opposed the growth of education, had set her +face sternly against the development of the individual, which Christ had +taught, the privilege of man to use the faculties of the intellect which +God had bestowed upon him. He himself, their rector, had advocated a +catholic acceptance, though much modified from the mediaeval acceptance, +--one that professed to go behind it to an earlier age. Yes, he must +admit with shame that he had been afraid to trust where God trusted, had +feared to confide the working out of the ultimate Truth of the minds of +the millions. + +The Church had been monarchical in form, and some strove stubbornly +and blindly to keep her monarchical. Democracy in government was +outstripping her. Let them look around, to-day, and see what was +happening in the United States of America. A great movement was going on +to transfer actual participation in government from the few to the many, +--a movement towards true Democracy, and that was precisely what was +about to happen in the Church. Her condition at present was one of +uncertainty, transition--she feared to let go wholly of the old, she +feared to embark upon the new. Just as the conservatives and politicians +feared to give up the representative system, the convention, so was she +afraid to abandon the synod, the council, and trust to man. + +The light was coming slowly, the change, the rebirth of the Church by +gradual evolution. By the grace of God those who had laid the +foundations of the Church in which he stood, of all Protestantism, had +built for the future. The racial instinct in them had asserted itself, +had warned them that to suppress freedom in religion were to suppress it +in life, to paralyze that individual initiative which was the secret of +their advancement. + +The new Church Universal, then, would be the militant, aggressive body of +the reborn, whose mission it was to send out into the life of the nation +transformed men and women who would labour unremittingly for the Kingdom +of God. Unity would come--but unity in freedom, true Catholicity. The +truth would gradually pervade the masses--be wrought out by them. Even +the great evolutionary forces of the age, such as economic necessity, +were acting to drive divided Christianity into consolidation, and the +starving churches of country villages were now beginning to combine. + +No man might venture to predict the details of the future organization of +the united Church, although St. Paul himself had sketched it in broad +outline: every worker, lay and clerical, labouring according to his gift, +teachers, executives, ministers, visitors, missionaries, healers of sick +and despondent souls. But the supreme function of the Church was to +inspire--to inspire individuals to willing service for the cause, the +Cause of Democracy, the fellowship of mankind. If she failed to inspire, +the Church would wither and perish. And therefore she must revive again +the race of inspirers, prophets, modern Apostles to whom this gift was +given, going on their rounds, awaking cities and arousing whole country- +sides. + +But whence--it might be demanded by the cynical were the prophets to +come? Prophets could not be produced by training and education; prophets +must be born. Reborn,--that was the word. Let the Church have faith. +Once her Cause were perceived, once her whole energy were directed +towards its fulfilment, the prophets would arise, out of the East and out +of the West, to stir mankind to higher effort, to denounce fearlessly the +shortcomings and evils of the age. They had not failed in past ages, +when the world had fallen into hopelessness, indifference, and darkness. +And they would not fail now. + +Prophets were personalities, and Phillips Brooks himself a prophet--had +defined personality as a conscious relationship with God. "All truth," +he had said, "comes to the world through personality." And down the ages +had come an Apostolic Succession of personalities. Paul, Augustine, +Francis, Dante, Luther, Milton,--yes, and Abraham Lincoln, and Phillips +Brooks, whose Authority was that of the Spirit, whose light had so shone +before men that they had glorified the Father which was in heaven; the +current of whose Power had so radiated, in ever widening circles, as to +make incandescent countless other souls. + +And which among them would declare that Abraham Lincoln, like Stephen, +had not seen his Master in the sky? + +The true prophet, the true apostle, then, was one inspired and directed +by the Spirit, the laying on of hands was but a symbol,--the symbol of +the sublime truth that one personality caught fire from another. Let the +Church hold fast to that symbol, as an acknowledgment, a reminder of a +supreme mystery. Tradition had its value when it did not deteriorate +into superstition, into the mechanical, automatic transmission +characteristic of the mediaeval Church, for the very suggestion of which +Peter had rebuked Simon in Samaria. For it would be remembered that +Simon had said: "Give me also this power, that on whomsoever I lay hands, +he may receive the Holy Ghost." + +The true successor to the Apostles must be an Apostle himself. + +Jesus had seldom spoken literally, and the truths he sought to impress +upon the world had of necessity been clothed in figures and symbols,--for +spiritual truths might be conveyed in no other way. The supreme proof of +his Godship, of his complete knowledge of the meaning of life was to be +found in his parables. To the literal, material mind, for example, the +parable of the talents was merely an unintelligible case of injustice.... +What was meant by the talents? They were opportunities for service. +Experience taught us that when we embraced one opportunity, one +responsibility, the acceptance of it invariably led to another, and so +the servant who had five talents, five opportunities, gained ten. The +servant who had two gained two more. But the servant of whom only one +little service was asked refused that, and was cast into outer darkness, +to witness another performing the task which should have been his. Hell, +here and hereafter, was the spectacle of wasted opportunity, and there is +no suffering to compare to it. + +The crime, the cardinal sin was with those who refused to serve, who shut +their eyes to the ideal their Lord had held up, who strove to compromise +with Jesus Christ himself, to twist and torture his message to suit their +own notions as to how life should be led; to please God and Mammon at the +same time, to bind Christ's Church for their comfort and selfish +convenience. Of them it was written, that they shut up the Kingdom of +Heaven against men; for they neither go in themselves, neither suffer +them that are entering to go in. Were these any better than the people +who had crucified the Lord for his idealism, and because he had not +brought them the material Kingdom for which they longed? + +That servant who had feared to act, who had hid his talent in the ground, +who had said unto his lord, "I knew thee that thou art an hard man, +reaping where thou hadst not sown," was the man without faith, the +atheist who sees only cruelty and indifference in the order of things, +who has no spiritual sight. But to the other servants it was said, "Thou +halt been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many +things. Enter thou into the joy of thy lord." + +The meaning of life, then, was service, and by life our Lord did not mean +mere human existence, which is only a part of life. The Kingdom of +heaven is a state, and may begin here. And that which we saw around us +was only one expression of that eternal life--a medium to work through, +towards God. All was service, both here and hereafter, and he that had +not discovered that the joy of service was the only happiness worth +living for could have no conception of the Kingdom. To those who knew, +there was no happiness like being able to say, "I have found my place in +God's plan, I am of use." Such was salvation . . . . + +And in the parable of the Prodigal Son may be read the history of what +are known as the Protestant nations. What happens logically when the +individual is suddenly freed from the restraint of external authority +occurred when Martin Luther released the vital spark of Christianity, +which he got from Paul, and from Christ himself--the revelation of +individual responsibility, that God the Spirit would dwell, by grace, in +the individual soul. Ah, we had paid a terrible yet necessary price for +freedom. We had wandered far from the Father, we had been reduced to +the very husks of individualism, become as swine. We beheld around us, +to-day, selfishness, ruthless competition, as great contrasts between +misery and luxury as in the days of the Roman Empire. But should we, for +that reason, return to the leading-strings of authority? Could we if we +would? A little thought ought to convince us that the liberation of the +individual could not be revoked, that it had forever destroyed the power +of authority to carry conviction. To go back to the Middle Ages would be +to deteriorate and degenerate. No, we must go on. . . . + +Luther's movement, in religion, had been the logical forerunner of +democracy, of universal suffrage in government, the death-knell of that +misinterpretation of Christianity as the bulwark of monarchy and +hierarchy had been sounded when he said, "Ich kann nicht anders!" The new +Republic founded on the western continent had announced to the world the +initiation of the transfer of Authority to the individual soul. God, the +counterpart of the King, the ruler in a high heaven of a flat terrestrial +expanse, outside of the world, was now become the Spirit of a million +spheres, the indwelling spirit in man. Democracy and the religion of +Jesus Christ both consisted in trusting the man--yes, and the woman--whom +God trusts. Christianity was individualism carried beyond philosophy +into religion, and the Christian, the ideal citizen of the democracy, was +free since he served not because he had to, but because he desired to of +his own will, which, paradoxically, is God's will. God was in politics, +to the confusion of politicians; God in government. And in some greater +and higher sense than we had yet perceived, the saying 'vox populi vox +dei' was eternally true. He entered into the hearts of people and moved +them, and so the world progressed. It was the function of the Church to +make Christians, until--when the Kingdom of God should come--the blending +should be complete. Then Church and State would be identical, since all +the members of the one would be the citizens of the other . . . . + +"I will arise and go to my father." Rebirth! A sense of responsibility, +of consecration. So we had come painfully through our materialistic +individualism, through our selfish Protestantism, to a glimpse of the +true Protestantism--Democracy. + +Our spiritual vision was glowing clearer. We were beginning to perceive +that charity did not consist in dispensing largesse after making a +fortune at the expense of one's fellow-men; that there was something +still wrong in a government that permits it. It was gradually becoming +plain to us, after two thousand years, that human bodies and souls +rotting in tenements were more valuable than all the forests on all the +hills; that government, Christian government, had something to do with +these. + +We should embody, in government, those sublime words of the Master, +"Suffer little children to come unto me." And the government of the +future would care for the little children. We were beginning to do it. +Here, as elsewhere, Christianity and reason went hand in hand, for the +child became the man who either preyed on humanity and filled the prisons +and robbed his fellows, or else grew into a useful, healthy citizen. It +was nothing less than sheer folly as well as inhuman cruelty to let the +children sleep in crowded, hot rooms, reeking with diseases, and run wild +throughout the long summer, learning vice in the city streets. And we +still had slavery--economic slavery--yes, and the more horrible slavery +of women and young girls in vice--as much a concern of government as the +problem which had confronted it in 1861 . . . . We were learning that +there was something infinitely more sacred than property . . . . + +And now Alison recalled, only to be thrilled again by an electric +sensation she had never before experienced with such intensity, the look +of inspiration on the preacher's face as he closed. The very mists of +the future seemed to break before his importuning gaze, and his eyes +seemed indeed to behold, against the whitening dawn of the spiritual age +he predicted, the slender spires of a new Church sprung from the +foundations of the old. A Church, truly catholic, tolerant, whose +portals were wide in welcome to all mankind. The creative impulse, +he had declared, was invariably religious, the highest art but the +expression of the mute yearnings of a people, of a race. Thus had once +arisen, all over Europe, those wonderful cathedrals which still cast +their spell upon the world, and art to-day would respond--was responding +--to the unutterable cravings of mankind, would strive once more to +express in stone and glass and pigment what nations felt. Generation +after generation would labour with unflagging zeal until the art +sculptured fragment of the new Cathedral--the new Cathedral of Democracy +--pointed upward toward the blue vault of heaven. Such was his vision-- +God the Spirit, through man reborn, carrying out his great Design . . . + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +"WHICH SAY TO THE SEERS, SEE NOT" + + +I + +As Alison arose from her knees and made her way out of the pew, it was +the expression on Charlotte Plimpton's face which brought her back once +more to a sense of her surroundings; struck her, indeed, like a physical +blow. The expression was a scandalized one. Mrs. Plimpton had moved +towards her, as if to speak, but Alison hurried past, her exaltation +suddenly shattered, replaced by a rising tide of resentment, of angry +amazement against a materialism so solid as to remain unshaken by the +words which had so uplifted her. Eddies were forming in the aisle as +the people streamed slowly out of the church, and snatches of their +conversation, in undertones, reached her ears. + +"I should never have believed it!" + +"Mr. Hodder, of all men. . ." + +"The bishop!" + +Outside the swinging doors, in the vestibule, the voices were raised a +little, and she found her path blocked. + +"It's incredible!" she heard Gordon Atterbury saying to little Everett +Constable, who was listening gloomily. + +"Sheer Unitarianism, socialism, heresy." + +His attention was forcibly arrested by Alison, in whose cheeks bright +spots of colour burned. He stepped aside, involuntarily, apologetically, +as though he had instinctively read in her attitude an unaccountable +disdain. Everett Constable bowed uncertainly, for Alison scarcely +noticed them. + +"Ahem!" said Gordon, nervously, abandoning his former companion and +joining her, "I was just saying, it's incredible--" + +She turned on him. + +"It is incredible," she cried, "that persons who call themselves +Christians cannot recognize their religion when they hear it preached." + +He gave back before her, visibly, in an astonishment which would have +been ludicrous but for her anger. He had never understood her--such +had been for him her greatest fascination;--and now she was less +comprehensible than ever. The time had been when he would cheerfully +have given over his hope of salvation to have been able to stir her. +He had never seen her stirred, and the sight of her even now in this +condition was uncomfortably agitating. Of all things, an heretical +sermon would appear to have accomplished this miracle! + +"Christianity!" he stammered. + +"Yes, Christianity." Her voice tingled. "I don't pretend to know much +about it, but Mr. Hodder has at least made it plain that it is something +more than dead dogmas, ceremonies, and superstitions." + +He would have said something, but her one thought was to escape, to be +alone. These friends of her childhood were at that moment so distasteful +as to have become hateful. Some one laid a hand upon her arm. + +"Can't we take you home, Alison? I don't see your motor." + +It was Mrs. Constable. + +"No, thanks--I'm going to walk," Alison answered, yet something in Mrs. +Constable's face, in Mrs. Constable's voice, made her pause. Something +new, something oddly sympathetic. Their eyes met, and Alison saw that +the other woman's were tired, almost haggard--yet understanding. + +"Mr. Hodder was right--a thousand times right, my dear," she said. + +Alison could only stare at her, and the crimson in the bright spots of +her cheeks spread over her face. Why had Mrs. Constable supposed that +she would care to hear the sermon praised? But a second glance put her +in possession of the extraordinary fact that Mrs. Constable herself was +profoundly moved. + +"I knew he would change," she went on, "I have seen for some time that he +was too big a man not to change. But I had no conception that he would +have such power, and such courage, as he has shown this morning. It is +not only that he dared to tell us what we were--smaller men might have +done that, and it is comparatively easy to denounce. But he has the +vision to construct, he is a seer himself--he has really made me see +what Christianity is. And as long as I live I shall never forget +those closing sentences." + +"And now?" asked Alison. "And now what will happen?" + +Mrs. Constable changed colour. Her tact, on which she prided herself, +had deserted her in a moment of unlooked-for emotion. + +"Oh, I know that my father and the others will try to put him out--but +can they?" Alison asked. + +It was Mrs. Constable's turn to stare. The head she suddenly and +impulsively put forth trembled on Alison's wrist. + +"I don't know, Alison--I'm afraid they can. It is too terrible to think +about. . . . And they can't--they won't believe that many changes are +coming, that this is but one of many signs. . . Do come and see me." + +Alison left her, marvelling at the passage between them, and that, of all +persons in the congregation of St. John's, the lightning should have +struck Mrs. Constable. . . + +Turning to the right on Burton Street, she soon found herself walking +rapidly westward through deserted streets lined by factories and +warehouses, and silent in the Sabbath calm . . . . She thought of +Hodder, she would have liked to go to him in that hour . . . . + +In Park Street, luncheon was half over, and Nelson Langmaid was at the +table with her father. The lawyer glanced at her curiously as she +entered the room, and his usual word of banter, she thought, was rather +lame. The two went on, for some time, discussing a railroad suit in +Texas. And Alison, as she hurried through her meal, leaving the dishes +almost untouched, scarcely heard them. Once, in her reverie, her +thoughts reverted to another Sunday when Hodder had sat, an honoured +guest, in the chair which Mr. Langmaid now occupied . . . . + +It was not until they got up from the table that her father turned to +her. + +"Did you have a good sermon? " he asked. + +It was the underlying note of challenge to which she responded. + +"The only good sermon I have ever heard." + +Their eyes met. Langmaid looked down at the tip of his cigar. + +"Mr. Hodder," said Eldon Parr, "is to be congratulated." + + + + +II + +Hodder, when the service was over, had sought the familiar recess in the +robing-room, the words which he himself had spoken still ringing in his +ears. And then he recalled the desperate prayer with which he had +entered the pulpit, that it might be given him in that hour what to say: +the vivid memories of the passions and miseries in Dalton Street, the +sudden, hot response of indignation at the complacency confronting him. +His voice had trembled with anger . . . . He remembered, as he had +paused in his denunciation of these who had eyes and saw not, meeting the +upturned look of Alison Parr, and his anger had turned to pity for their +blindness--which once had been his own; and he had gone on and on, +striving to interpret for them his new revelation of the message of the +Saviour, to impress upon them the dreadful yet sublime meaning of life +eternal. And it was in that moment the vision of the meaning of the +evolution of his race, of the Prodigal turning to responsibility--of +which he once had had a glimpse--had risen before his eyes in its +completeness--the guiding hand of God in history! The Spirit in these +complacent souls, as yet unstirred . . . . + +So complete, now, was his forgetfulness of self, of his future, of the +irrevocable consequences of the step he had taken, that it was only +gradually he became aware that some one was standing near him, and +with a start he recognized McCrae. + +"There are some waiting to speak to ye," his assistant said. + +"Oh!" Hodder exclaimed. He began, mechanically, to divest himself of his +surplice. McCrae stood by. + +"I'd like to say a word, first--if ye don't mind--" he began. + +The rector looked at him quickly. + +"I'd like just to thank ye for that sermon--I can say no more now," said +McCrae; he turned away, and left the room abruptly. + +This characteristic tribute from the inarticulate, loyal Scotchman left +him tingling . . . . He made his way to the door and saw the people +in the choir room, standing silently, in groups, looking toward him. +Some one spoke to him, and he recognized Eleanor Goodrich. + +"We couldn't help coming, Mr. Hodder--just to tell you how much we admire +you. It was wonderful, what you said." + +He grew hot with gratitude, with thankfulness that there were some who +understood--and that this woman was among them, and her husband . . . +Phil Goodrich took him by the hand. + +"I can understand that kind of religion," he said. "And, if necessary, +I can fight for it. I have come to enlist." + +"And I can understand it, too," added the sunburned Evelyn. "I hope you +will let me help." + +That was all they said, but Hodder understood. Eleanor Goodrich's eyes +were dimmed as she smiled an her sister and her husband--a smile that +bespoke the purest quality of pride. And it was then, as they made way +for others, that the full value of their allegiance was borne in upon +him, and he grasped the fact that the intangible barrier which had +separated him from them had at last been broken down: His look followed +the square shoulders and aggressive, close-cropped head of Phil Goodrich, +the firm, athletic figure of Evelyn, who had represented to him an entire +class of modern young women, vigorous, athletic, with a scorn of cant in +which he secretly sympathized, hitherto frankly untouched by spiritual +interests of any sort. She had, indeed, once bluntly told him that +church meant nothing to her . . . . + +In that little company gathered in the choir room were certain members of +his congregation whom, had he taken thought, he would least have expected +to see. There were Mr. and Mrs. Bradley, an elderly couple who had +attended St. John's for thirty years; and others of the same +unpretentious element of his parish who were finding in modern life an +increasingly difficult and bewildering problem. There was little Miss +Tallant, an assiduous guild worker whom he had thought the most orthodox +of persons; Miss Ramsay, who taught the children of the Italian mothers; +Mr. Carton, the organist, a professed free-thinker, with whom Hodder had +had many a futile argument; and Martha Preston, who told him that he had +made her think about religion seriously for the first time in her life. + +And there were others, types equally diverse. Young men of the choir, +and others whom he had never seen, who informed him shyly that they would +come again, and bring their friends . . . . + +And all the while, in the background, Hodder had been aware of a familiar +face--Horace Bentley's. Beside him, when at length he drew near, was his +friend Asa Waring--a strangely contrasted type. The uncompromising eyes +of a born leader of men flashed from beneath the heavy white eyebrows, +the button of the Legion of Honour gleaming in his well-kept coat seemed +emblematic of the fire which in his youth had driven him forth to fight +for the honour of his country--a fire still undimmed. It was he who +spoke first. + +"This is a day I never expected to see, Mr. Hodder," he said, "for it has +brought back to this church the man to whom it owes its existence. Mr. +Bentley did more, by his labour and generosity, his true Christianity, +his charity and his wisdom, for St. John's than any other individual. +It is you who have brought him back, and I wish personally to express +my gratitude." + +Mr. Bentley, in mild reproof, laid his hand upon the t, shoulder of his +old friend. + +"Ah, Asa," he protested, "you shouldn't say such things." + +"Had it not been for Mr. Bentley," Hodder explained, "I should not be +here to-day." + +Asa Waring pierced the rector with his eye, appreciating the genuine +feeling with which these words were spoken. And yet his look contained +a question. + +"Mr. Bentley," Hodder added, "has been my teacher this summer." + +The old gentleman's hand trembled a little on the goldheaded stick. + +"It is a matter of more pride to me than I can express, sir, that you are +the rector of this church with which my most cherished memories are +associated," he said. "But I cannot take any part of the credit you give +me for the splendid vision which you have raised up before us to-day, for +your inspired interpretation of history, of the meaning of our own times. +You have moved me, you have given me more hope and courage than I have +had for many a long year--and I thank you, Mr. Hodder. I am sure that +God will prosper and guide you in what you have so nobly undertaken." + +Mr. Bentley turned away, walking towards the end of the room . . . . +Asa Waring broke the silence. + +"I didn't know that you knew him, that you had seen what he is doing-- +what he has done in this city. I cannot trust myself, Mr. Hodder, to +speak of Horace Bentley's life. . . I feel too strongly on the +subject. I have watched, year by year, this detestable spirit of greed, +this lust for money and power creeping over our country, corrupting our +people and institutions, and finally tainting the Church itself. You +have raised your voice against it, and I respect and honour and thank you +for it, the more because you have done it without resorting to sensation, +and apparently with no thought of yourself. And, incidentally, you have +explained the Christian religion to me as I have never had it explained +in my life. + +"I need not tell you you have made enemies--powerful ones. I can see +that you are a man, and that you are prepared for them. They will leave +no stone unturned, will neglect no means to put you out and disgrace you. +They will be about your ears to-morrow--this afternoon, perhaps. I need +not remind you that the outcome is doubtful. But I came here to assure +you of my friendship and support in all you hope to accomplish in making +the Church what it should be. In any event, what you have done to-day +will be productive of everlasting good." + +In a corner still lingered the group which Mr. Bentley had joined. And +Hodder, as he made his way towards it, recognized the faces of some of +those who composed it. Sally Grower was there, and the young women who +lived in Mr. Bentley's house, and others whose acquaintance he had made +during the summer. Mrs. Garvin had brought little Dicky, incredibly +changed from the wan little figure he had first beheld in the stifling +back room in Dalton Street; not yet robust, but freckled and tanned by +the country sun and wind. The child, whom he had seen constantly in the +interval, ran forward joyfully, and Hodder bent down to take his hand.... + +These were his friends, emblematic of the new relationship in which he +stood to mankind. And he owed them to Horace Bentley! He wondered, as +he greeted them, whether they knew what their allegiance meant to him in +this hour. But it sufficed that they claimed him as their own. + +Behind them all stood Kate Marcy. And it struck him for the first time, +as he gazed at her earnestly, how her appearance had changed. She gave +him a frightened, bewildered look, as though she were unable to identify +him now with the man she had known in the Dalton Street flat, in the +restaurant. She was still struggling, groping, wondering, striving to +accustom herself to the higher light of another world. + +"I wanted to come," she faltered. "Sally Grower brought me. . . " + +Hodder went back with them to Dalton Street. His new ministry had begun. +And on this, the first day of it, it was fitting that he should sit at +the table of Horace Bentley, even as on that other Sunday, two years +agone, he had gone to the home of the first layman of the diocese, +Eldon Parr. + + + +III + +The peace of God passes understanding because sorrow and joy are mingled +therein, sorrow and joy and striving. And thus the joy of emancipation +may be accompanied by a heavy heart. The next morning, when Hodder +entered his study, he sighed as his eye fell upon the unusual pile of +letters on his desk, for their writers had once been his friends. The +inevitable breach had come at last. + +Most of the letters, as he had anticipated, were painful reading. +And the silver paper-cutter with which he opened the first had been a +Christmas present from Mrs. Burlingame, who had penned it, a lady of +signal devotion to the church, who for many years had made it her task to +supply and arrange the flowers on the altar. He had amazed and wounded +her--she declared--inexpressibly, and she could no longer remain at St. +John's--for the present, at least. A significant addition. He dropped +the letter, and sat staring out of the window . . . presently arousing +himself, setting himself resolutely to the task of reading the rest. + +In the mood in which he found himself he did not atop to philosophize +on the rigid yet sincere attitude of the orthodox. His affection for +many of them curiously remained, though it was with some difficulty he +strove to reconstruct a state of mind with which he had once agreed. +If Christianity were to sweep on, these few unbending but faithful ones +must be sacrificed: such was the law. . . Many, while repudiating his +new beliefs--or unbeliefs!--added, to their regrets of the change in him, +protestations of a continued friendship, a conviction of his sincerity. +Others like Mrs. Atterbury, were frankly outraged and bitter. The +contents of one lilac-bordered envelope brought to his eyes a faint +smile. Did he know--asked the sender of this--could he know the +consternation he had caused in so many persons, including herself? +What was she to believe? And wouldn't he lunch with her on Thursday? + +Mrs. Ferguson's letter brought another smile--more thoughtful. +Her incoherent phrases had sprung from the heart, and the picture rose +before him of the stout but frightened, good-natured lady who had never +accustomed herself to the enjoyment of wealth and luxury. Mr. Ferguson +was in such a state, and he must please not tell her husband that she had +written. Yet much in his sermon had struck her as so true. It seemed +wrong to her to have so much, and others so little! And he had made her +remember many things in her early life she had forgotten. She hoped he +would see Mr. Ferguson, and talk to him. . . . + +Then there was Mrs. Constable's short note, that troubled and puzzled +him. This, too, had in it an undercurrent of fear, and the memory came +to him of the harrowing afternoon he had once spent with her, when she +would have seemed to have predicted the very thing which had now happened +to him. And yet not that thing. He divined instinctively that a maturer +thought on the subject of his sermon had brought on an uneasiness as the +full consequences of this new teaching had dawned upon her consequences +which she had not foreseen when she had foretold the change. And he +seemed to read between the lines that the renunciation he demanded was +too great. Would he not let her come and talk to him? . . . + +Miss Brewer, a lady of no inconsiderable property, was among those who +told him plainly that if he remained they would have to give up their +pews. Three or four communications were even more threatening. Mr. +Alpheus Gore, Mrs. Plimpton's brother, who at five and forty had managed +to triple his share of the Gore inheritance, wrote that it would be his +regretful duty to send to the bishop an Information on the subject of Mr. +Hodder's sermon. + +There were, indeed, a few letters which he laid, thankfully, in a pile by +themselves. These were mostly from certain humble members of his parish +who had not followed their impulses to go to him after the service, or +from strangers who had chanced to drop into the church. Some were +autobiographical, such as those of a trained nurse, a stenographer, +a hardware clerk who had sat up late Sunday night to summarize what that +sermon had meant to him, how a gray and hopeless existence had taken on a +new colour. Next Sunday he would bring a friend who lived in the same +boarding house . . . . Hodder read every word of these, and all were +in the same strain: at last they could perceive a meaning to religion, +an application of it to such plodding lives as theirs . . . . + +One or two had not understood, but had been stirred, and were coming to +talk to him. Another was filled with a venomous class hatred. . . . + +The first intimation he had of the writer of another letter seemed from +the senses rather than the intellect. A warm glow suffused him, mounted +to his temples as he stared at the words, turned over the sheet, and read +at the bottom the not very legible signature. The handwriting, by no +means classic, became then and there indelibly photographed on his brain, +and summed up for him the characteristics, the warring elements in Alison +Parr. "All afternoon," she wrote, "I have been thinking of your sermon. +It was to me very wonderful--it lifted me out of myself. And oh, I want +so much to believe unreservedly what you expressed so finely, that +religion is democracy, or the motive power behind democracy--the service +of humanity by the reborn. I understand it intellectually. I am willing +to work for such a Cause, but there is something in me so hard that I +wonder if it can dissolve. And then I am still unable to identify that +Cause with the Church as at present constituted, with the dogmas and +ceremonies that still exist. I am too thorough a radical to have your +patience. And I am filled with rage--I can think of no milder word--on +coming in contact with the living embodiments of that old creed, who hold +its dogmas so precious. "Which say to the seers, See not; and to the +prophets, Prophesy not unto us right things, speak unto us smooth things, +prophesy deceits.' + +"You see, I have been reading Isaiah, and when I came to that paragraph +it seemed so appropriate. These people have always existed. And will +they not always continue to exist? I wish I could believe, wholly and +unreservedly, that this class, always preponderant in the world, could be +changed, diminished--done away with in a brighter future! I can, at +least, sympathize with Isaiah's wrath. + +"What you said of the longing, the yearning which exists to-day amongst +the inarticulate millions moved me most--and of the place of art in +religion, to express that yearning. Religion the motive power of art, +and art, too, service. 'Consider the lilies of the field.' You have made +it, at least, all-comprehensive, have given me a new point of view for +which I can never be sufficiently grateful--and at a time when I needed +it desperately. That you have dared to do what you have done has been +and will he an inspiration, not only to myself, but to many others. +This, is a longer letter, I believe, than I have ever written in my life. +But I wanted you to know." + +He reread it twice, pondering over its phrases. "A new point of view.... +at a time when I needed it desperately." It was not until then that he +realized the full intensity of his desire for some expression from her +since the moment he had caught sight of her in the church. But he had +not been prepared for the unreserve, the impulsiveness with which she had +actually written. Such was his agitation that he did not heed, at first, +a knock on the door, which was repeated. He thrust the letter inside his +coat as the janitor of the parish house appeared. + +"There is a gentleman to see you, sir, in the office," he said. + +Hodder went down the stairs. And he anticipated, from the light yet +nervous pacing that he heard on the bare floor, that the visitor was none +other than his vestryman, Mr. Gordon Atterbury. The sight of the +gentleman's spruce figure confirmed the guess. + +"Good morning, Mr. Atterbury," he said as he entered. + +Mr. Atterbury stopped in his steps, as if he had heard a shot. + +"Ah--good morning, Mr. Hodder. I stopped in on my way to the office." + +"Sit down," said the rector. + +Mr. Atterbury sat down, but with the air of a man who does so under +protest, who had not intended to. He was visibly filled and almost +quivering with an excitement which seemed to demand active expression, +and which the tall clergyman's physical calm and self-possession seemed +to augment. For a moment Mr. Atterbury stared at the rector as he sat +behind his desk. Then he cleared his throat. + +"I thought of writing to you, Mr. Hodder. My mother, I believe, has done +so. But it seemed to me, on second thought, better to come to you +direct." + +The rector nodded, without venturing to remark on the wisdom of the +course. + +"It occurred to me," Mr. Atterbury went on, "that possibly some things I +wish to discuss might--ahem be dispelled in a conversation. That I might +conceivably have misunderstood certain statements in your sermon of +yesterday." + +"I tried," said the rector, "to be as clear as possible." + +"I thought you might not fully have realized the effect of what you said. +I ought to tell you, I think, that as soon as I reached home I wrote out, +as accurately as I could from memory, the gist of your remarks. And I +must say frankly, although I try to put it mildly, that they appear to +contradict and controvert the doctrines of the Church." + +"Which doctrines?" Hodder asked. + +Gordon Atterbury sputtered. + +"Which doctrines?" he repeated. "Can it be possible that you +misunderstand me? I might refer you to those which you yourself preached +as late as last June, in a sermon which was one of the finest and most +scholarly efforts I ever heard." + +"It was on that day, Mr. Atterbury," replied the rector, with a touch of +sadness in his voice, "I made the discovery that fine and scholarly +efforts were not Christianity." + +"What do you mean?" Mr. Atterbury demanded. + +"I mean that they do not succeed in making Christians." + +"And by that you imply that the members of your congregation, those who +have been brought up and baptized and confirmed in this church, are not +Christians?" + +"I am sorry to say a great many of them are not," said the rector. + +"In other words, you affirm that the sacrament of baptism is of no +account." + +"I affirm that baptism with water is not sufficient." + +"I'm afraid that this is very grave," Mr. Hodder. + +"I quite agree with you," replied the rector, looking straight at his +vestryman. + +"And I understood,--" the other went on, clearing his throat once more, +"I think I have it correctly stated in my notes, but I wish to be quite +clear, that you denied the doctrine of the virgin birth." + +Hodder made a strong effort to control himself. + +"What I have said I have said," he answered, "and I have said it in the +hope that it might make some impression upon the lives of those to whom I +spoke. You were one of them, Mr. Atterbury. And if I repeat and amplify +my meaning now, it must be understood that I have no other object except +that of putting you in the way of seeing that the religion of Christ is +unique in that it is dependent upon no doctrine or dogma, upon no +external or material sign or proof or authority whatever. I am utterly +indifferent to any action you may contemplate taking concerning me. Read +your four Gospels carefully. If we do not arrive, through contemplation +of our Lord's sojourn on this earth, of his triumph over death, of his +message--which illuminates the meaning of our lives here--at that inner +spiritual conversion of which he continually speaks, and which alone will +give us charity, we are not Christians." + +"But the doctrines of the Church, which we were taught from childhood to +believe? The doctrines which you once professed, and of which you have +now made such an unlooked-for repudiation!" + +"Yes, I have changed," said the rector, gazing seriously at the twitching +figure of his vestryman, "I was bound, body and soul, by those very +doctrines." He roused himself. "But on what grounds do you declare, Mr. +Atterbury," he demanded, somewhat sternly, "that this church is fettered +by an ancient and dogmatic conception of Christianity? Where are you to +find what are called the doctrines of the Church? What may be heresy in +one diocese is not so in another, and I can refer to you volumes written +by ministers of this Church, in good standing, whose published opinions +are the same as those I expressed in my sermon of yesterday. The very +cornerstone of the Church is freedom, but many have yet to discover this, +and we have held in our Communion men of such divergent views as Dr. +Pusey and Phillips Brooks. Mr. Newman, in his Tract Ninety, which was +sincerely written, showed that the Thirty-nine Articles were capable of +almost any theological interpretation. From what authoritative source +are we to draw our doctrines? In the baptismal service the articles of +belief are stated to be in the Apostles' Creed, but nowhere--in this +Church is it defined how their ancient language is to be interpreted. +That is wisely left to the individual. Shall we interpret the Gospels by +the Creeds, which in turn purport to be interpretations of the Gospels? +Or shall we draw our conclusions as to what the Creeds may mean to us by +pondering on the life of Christ, and striving to do his will? +'The letter killeth, but the Spirit maketh alive.'" + +Hodder rose, and stood facing his visitor squarely. He spoke slowly, and +the fact that he made no gesture gave all the more force to his words. + +"Hereafter, Mr. Atterbury," he added, "so long as I am rector of this +church, I am going to do my best to carry out the spirit of Christ's +teaching--to make Christians. And there shall be no more compromise, +so far as I can help it." + +Gordon Atterbury had grown very pale. He, too, got to his feet. + +"I--I cannot trust myself to discuss this matter with you any further, Mr. +Hodder. I feel too deeply--too strongly on the subject. I do not +pretend to account for this astonishing transformation in your opinions. +Up to the present I have deemed St. John's fortunate--peculiarly +fortunate, in having you for its rector. I am bound to say I think you +have not considered, in this change of attitude on your part, those who +have made St. John's what it is, who through long and familiar +association are bound to it by a thousand ties,--those who, like myself, +have what may be called a family interest in this church. My father and +mother were married here, I was baptized here. I think I may go so far +as to add, Mr. Hodder, that this is our church, the church which a +certain group of people have built in which to worship God, as was their +right. Nor do I believe we can be reproached with a lack of hospitality +or charity. We maintain this parish house, with its clubs; and at no +small inconvenience to ourselves we have permitted the church to remain +in this district. There is no better church music in this city, and we +have a beautiful service in the evening at which, all pews are free. It +is not unreasonable that we should have something to say concerning the +doctrine to be preached here, that we should insist that that doctrine be +in accordance with what we have always believed was the true doctrine as +received by this Church." + +Up to this point Mr. Atterbury had had a feeling that he had not carried +out with much distinction the programme which he had so carefully +rehearsed on the way to the parish house. Hodder's poise had amazed and +baffled him--he had expected to find the rector on the defensive. But +now, burning anew with a sense of injustice, he had a sense at last of +putting his case strongly. + +The feeling of triumph, however, was short lived. Hodder did not reply +at once. So many seconds, indeed, went by that Mr. Atterbury began once +more to grow slightly nervous under the strange gaze to which he was +subjected. And when the clergyman' spoke there was no anger in his +voice, but a quality--a feeling which was disturbing, and difficult to +define. + +"You are dealing now, Mr. Atterbury," he said, "with the things of +Caesar, not of God. This church belongs to God--not to you. But you +have consecrated it to him. His truth, as Christ taught it, must not be +preached to suit any man's convenience. When you were young you were not +taught the truth--neither was I. It was mixed with adulterations which +obscured and almost neutralized it. But I intend to face it now, and to +preach it, and not the comfortable compromise which gives us the illusion +that we are Christians because we subscribe to certain tenets, and +permits us to neglect our Christian duties. + +"And since you have spoken of charity, let me assure you that there is no +such thing as charity without the transforming, personal touch. It isn't +the bread or instruction or amusement we give people vicariously, but the +effect of our gift--even if that gift be only a cup of cold water--in +illuminating and changing their lives. And it will avail any church +little to have a dozen settlement houses while her members acquiesce in +a State which refuses to relieve her citizens from sickness and poverty. +Charity bends down only to lift others up. And with all our works, our +expenditure and toil, how many have we lifted up?" + +Gordon Atterbury's indignation got the better of him. For he was the +last man to behold with patience the shattering of his idols. + +"I think you have cast an unwarranted reflection on those who have built +and made this church what it is, Mr. Hodder," he exclaimed. "And that +you will find there are in it many--a great many earnest Christians who +were greatly shocked by the words you spoke yesterday, who will not +tolerate any interference with their faith. I feel it my duty to speak +frankly, Mr Hodder, disagreeable though it be, in view of our former +relations. I must tell you that I am not alone in the opinion that you +should resign. It is the least you can do, in justice to us, in justice +to yourself. There are other bodies--I cannot call them churches--which +doubtless would welcome your liberal, and I must add atrophying, +interpretation of Christianity. And I trust that reflection will +convince you of the folly of pushing this matter to the extreme. We +should greatly deplore the sensational spectacle of St. John's being +involved in an ecclesiastical trial, the unpleasant notoriety into which +it would bring a church hitherto untouched by that sort of thing. And I +ought to tell you that I, among others, am about to send an Information +to the bishop." + +Gordon Atterbury hesitated a moment, but getting no reply save an +inclination of the head, took up his hat. + +"Ahem--I think that is all I have to say, Mr. Hodder. Good morning." + +Even then Hodder did not answer, but rose and held open the door. As he +made his exit under the strange scrutiny of the clergyman's gaze the +little vestryman was plainly uncomfortable. He cleared his throat once +more, halted, and then precipitately departed. + +Hodder went to the window and thoughtfully watched the hurrying figure +of Mr. Atterbury until it disappeared, almost skipping, around the corner +. . . . The germ of truth, throughout the centuries, had lost nothing +of its dynamic potentialities. If released and proclaimed it was still +powerful enough to drive the world to insensate anger and opposition.... + +As he stood there, lost in reflection, a shining automobile drew up at +the curb, and from it descended a firm lady in a tight-fitting suit whom +he recognized as Mrs Wallis Plimpton. A moment later she had invaded the +office--for no less a word may be employed to express her physical +aggressiveness, the glowing health which she radiated. + +"Good morning, Mr. Hodder," she said, seating herself in one of the +straight-backed chairs. "I have been so troubled since you preached that +sermon yesterday, I could scarcely sleep. And I made up my mind I'd come +to you the first thing this morning. Mr. Plimpton and I have been +discussing it. In fact, people are talking of nothing else. We dined +with the Laureston Greys last night, and they, too, were full of it." +Charlotte Plimpton looked at him, and the flow of her words suddenly +diminished. And she added, a little lamely for her, "Spiritual matters +in these days are so difficult, aren't they?" + +"Spiritual matters always were difficult, Mrs. Plimpton," he said. + +"I suppose so," she assented hurriedly, with what was intended for a +smile. "But what I came to ask you is this--what are we to teach our +children?" + +"Teach them the truth," the rector replied. + +"One of the things which troubled me most was your reference to modern +criticism," she went on, recovering her facility. "I was brought up to +believe that the Bible was true. The governess--Miss Standish, you know, +such a fine type of Englishwoman--reads the children Bible stories every +Sunday evening. They adore them, and little Wallis can repeat them +almost by heart--the pillar of cloud by day, Daniel in the lions' den, +and the Wise Men from the East. If they aren't true, some one ought to +have told us before now." + +A note of injury had crept into her voice. + +"How do you feel about these things yourself?" Holder inquired. + +"How do I feel? Why, I have never thought about them very much--they +were there, in the Bible!" + +"You were taught to believe them?" + +"Of course," she exclaimed, resenting what seemed a reflection on the +Gore orthodoxy. + +"Do they in any manner affect your conduct?" + +"My conduct?" she repeated. "I don't know what you mean. I was brought +up in the church, and Mr. Plimpton has always gone, and we are bringing +up the children to go. Is that what you mean?" + +"No," Hodder answered, patiently, "that is not what I mean. I ask +whether these stories in any way enter into your life, become part of +you, and tend to make you a more useful woman?" + +"Well--I have never considered them in that way," she replied, a little +perplexed. + +"Do you believe in them yourself?" + +"Why--I don't know,--I've never thought. I don't suppose I do, +absolutely--not in those I have mentioned." + +"And you think it right to teach things to your children which you do not +yourself believe?" + +"How am I to decide?" she demanded. + +"First by finding out yourself what you do believe," he replied, with a +touch of severity. + +"Mr. Hodder!" she cried in a scandalized voice, "do you mean to say that +I, who have been brought up in this church, do not know what Christianity +is." + +He looked at her and shook his head. + +"You must begin by being honest with yourself," he went on, not heeding +her shocked expression. "If you are really in earnest in this matter, +I should be glad to help you all I can. But I warn you there is no +achievement in the world more difficult than that of becoming a, +Christian. It means a conversion of your whole being something which you +cannot now even imagine. It means a consuming desire which,--I fear,--in +consideration of your present mode of life, will be difficult to +acquire." + +"My present mode of life!" she gasped. + +"Precisely," said the rector. He was silent, regarding, her. There was +discernible not the slightest crack of crevice in the enamel of this +woman's worldly armour. + +For the moment her outraged feelings were forgotten. The man had +fascinated her. To be told, in this authoritative manner, that she was +wicked was a new and delightful experience. It brought back to her the +real motive of her visit, which had in reality been inspired not only by +the sermon of the day before, but by sheer curiosity. + +"What would you have me do?" she demanded. + +"Find yourself." + +"Do you mean to say that I am not--myself?" she asked, now completely +bewildered. + +"I mean to say that you are nobody until you achieve conviction." + +For Charlotte Plimpton, nee Gore, to be told in her own city, by the +rector of her own church that she was nobody was an event hitherto +inconceivable! It was perhaps as extraordinary that she did not resent. +it. Curiosity still led her on. + +"Conviction?" she repeated. "But I have conviction, Mr. Hodder. I +believe in the doctrines of the Church." + +"Belief!" he exclaimed, and checked himself strongly. "Conviction +through feeling. Not until then will you find what you were put in the +world for." + +"But my husband--my children? I try to do my duty." + +"You must get a larger conception of it," Hodder replied. + +"I suppose you mean," she declared, "that I am to spend the rest of my +life in charity." + +"How you would spend the rest of your life would be revealed to you," +said the rector. + +It was the weariness in his tone that piqued her now, the intimation +that he did not believe in her sincerity--had not believed in it from +the first. The life-long vanity of a woman used to be treated with +consideration, to be taken seriously, was aroused. This extraordinary +man had refused to enter into the details which she inquisitively craved. + +Charlotte Plimpton rose. + +"I shall not bother you any longer at present, Mr. Hodder," she said +sweetly. "I know you must have, this morning especially, a great deal to +trouble you." + +He met her scrutiny calmly. + +"It is only the things we permit to trouble us that do so, Mrs. +Plimpton," he replied. "My own troubles have arisen largely from a lack +of faith on the part of those whom I feel it is my duty to influence." + +It was then she delivered her parting shot, which she repeated, with much +satisfaction, to her husband that evening. She had reached the door. +Was there a special service at Calvary yesterday?" she asked innocently, +turning back. + +"Not that I know of." + +"I wondered. Mr. Parr was there; I'm told--and he's never been known +to desert St. John's except on the rarest occasions. But oh, Mr. Hodder, +I must congratulate you on your influence with Alison. When she has been +out here before she never used to come to church at all." + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +Church as a means of doling out ill-gotten gains to the poor +Hastened to deny, although it was exactly what she had meant +It is only the things we permit to trouble us that do so +Priests, had gone from murder to mass and from mass to murder +Religion was a form of insurance of the soul +She--had she grown? or merely wandered? +Subtlety in such affairs is not a masculine trait (love affairs) +Wasted opportunity +Without explanations + + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK INSIDE OF THE CUP, V6, BY CHURCHILL *** + +************ This file should be named wc24w10.txt or wc24w10.zip ************ + +Corrected EDITIONS of our eBooks get a new NUMBER, wc24w11.txt +VERSIONS based on separate sources get new LETTER, wc24w10a.txt + +This eBook was produced by David Widger <widger@cecomet.net> + +Project Gutenberg eBooks are often created from several printed +editions, all of which are confirmed as Public Domain in the US +unless a copyright notice is included. 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