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-*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK MARY GRESLEY AND AN EDITOR’S TALES ***
-
-
-
-
- MARY GRESLEY
-
- AND
-
- AN EDITOR’S TALES.
-
- BY
-
- ANTHONY TROLLOPE,
-
- AUTHOR OF
- “DOCTOR THORNE,”
- “PHINEAS FINN,”
- “LOTTA SCHMIDT,”
- “ORLEY FARM,”
- ETC.
-
- NEW EDITION.
-
- LONDON:
- CHAPMAN AND HALL, 193, PICCADILLY.
- 1873.
-
- [_The right of translation is reserved._]
-
-
-
-
-CONTENTS.
-
-
- PAGE
-
-MARY GRESLEY 1
-
-THE TURKISH BATH 49
-
-JOSEPHINE DE MONTMORENCI 95
-
-THE PANJANDRUM--
-
-PART I.--HOPE 141
-
-PART II.--DESPAIR 189
-
-THE SPOTTED DOG--
-
-PART I.--THE ATTEMPT 227
-
-PART II.--THE RESULT 275
-
-MRS. BRUMBY 321
-
-
-
-
-MARY GRESLEY.
-
-
-
-
-[Illustration]
-
-
-
-
-MARY GRESLEY.
-
-
-We have known many prettier girls than Mary Gresley, and many handsomer
-women--but we never knew girl or woman gifted with a face which in
-supplication was more suasive, in grief more sad, in mirth more merry.
-It was a face that compelled sympathy, and it did so with the conviction
-on the mind of the sympathiser that the girl was altogether unconscious
-of her own power. In her intercourse with us there was, alas! much more
-of sorrow than of mirth, and we may truly say that in her sufferings we
-suffered; but still there came to us from our intercourse with her much
-of delight mingled with the sorrow; and that delight arose, partly no
-doubt from her woman’s charms, from the bright eye, the beseeching
-mouth, the soft little hand, and the feminine grace of her unpretending
-garments; but chiefly, we think, from the extreme humanity of the girl.
-She had little, indeed none, of that which the world calls society, but
-yet she was pre-eminently social. Her troubles were very heavy, but she
-was making ever an unconscious effort to throw them aside, and to be
-jocund in spite of their weight. She would even laugh at them, and at
-herself as bearing them. She was a little fair-haired creature, with
-broad brow and small nose and dimpled chin, with no brightness of
-complexion, no luxuriance of hair, no swelling glory of bust and
-shoulders; but with a pair of eyes which, as they looked at you, would
-be gemmed always either with a tear or with some spark of laughter, and
-with a mouth in the corners of which was ever lurking some little spark
-of humour, unless when some unspoken prayer seemed to be hanging on her
-lips. Of woman’s vanity she had absolutely none. Of her corporeal self,
-as having charms to rivet man’s love, she thought no more than does a
-dog. It was a fault with her that she lacked that quality of womanhood.
-To be loved was to her all the world; unconscious desire for the
-admiration of men was as strong in her as in other women; and her
-instinct taught her, as such instincts do teach all women, that such
-love and admiration was to be the fruit of what feminine gifts she
-possessed; but the gifts on which she depended,--depending on them
-without thinking on the matter,--were her softness, her trust, her
-woman’s weakness, and that power of supplicating by her eye without
-putting her petition into words which was absolutely irresistible. Where
-is the man of fifty, who in the course of his life has not learned to
-love some woman simply because it has come in his way to help her, and
-to be good to her in her struggles? And if added to that source of
-affection there be brightness, some spark of humour, social gifts, and a
-strong flavour of that which we have ventured to call humanity, such
-love may become almost a passion without the addition of much real
-beauty.
-
-But in thus talking of love we must guard ourselves somewhat from
-miscomprehension. In love with Mary Gresley, after the common sense of
-the word, we never were, nor would it have become us to be so. Had such
-a state of being unfortunately befallen us, we certainly should be
-silent on the subject. We were married and old; she was very young, and
-engaged to be married, always talking to us of her engagement as a thing
-fixed as the stars. She looked upon us, no doubt,--after she had ceased
-to regard us simply in our editorial capacity,--as a subsidiary old
-uncle whom Providence had supplied to her, in order that, if it were
-possible, the troubles of her life might be somewhat eased by assistance
-to her from that special quarter. We regarded her first almost as a
-child, and then as a young woman to whom we owed that sort of protecting
-care which a graybeard should ever be ready to give to the weakness of
-feminine adolescence. Nevertheless we were in love with her, and we
-think such a state of love to be a wholesome and natural condition. We
-might, indeed, have loved her grandmother,--but the love would have been
-very different. Had circumstances brought us into connection with her
-grandmother, we hope we should have done our duty, and had that old lady
-been our friend we should, we trust, have done it with alacrity. But in
-our intercourse with Mary Gresley there was more than that. She charmed
-us. We learned to love the hue of that dark gray stuff frock which she
-seemed always to wear. When she would sit in the low arm-chair opposite
-to us, looking up into our eyes as we spoke to her words which must
-often have stabbed her little heart, we were wont to caress her with
-that inward undemonstrative embrace that one spirit is able to confer
-upon another. We thought of her constantly, perplexing our mind for her
-succour. We forgave all her faults. We exaggerated her virtues. We
-exerted ourselves for her with a zeal that was perhaps fatuous. Though
-we attempted sometimes to look black at her, telling her that our time
-was too precious to be wasted in conversation with her, she soon learned
-to know how welcome she was to us. Her glove,--which, by-the-bye, was
-never tattered, though she was very poor,--was an object of regard to
-us. Her grandmother’s gloves would have been as unacceptable to us as
-any other morsel of old kid or cotton. Our heart bled for her. Now the
-heart may suffer much for the sorrows of a male friend, but it may
-hardly for such be said to bleed. We loved her, in short, as we should
-not have loved her, but that she was young and gentle, and could
-smile,--and, above all, but that she looked at us with those bright,
-beseeching, tear-laden eyes.
-
-Sterne, in his latter days, when very near his end, wrote passionate
-love-letters to various women, and has been called hard names by
-Thackeray,--not for writing them, but because he thus showed himself to
-be incapable of that sincerity which should have bound him to one love.
-We do not ourselves much admire the sentimentalism of Sterne, finding
-the expression of it to be mawkish, and thinking that too often he
-misses the pathos for which he strives from a want of appreciation on
-his own part of that which is really vigorous in language and touching
-in sentiment. But we think that Thackeray has been somewhat wrong in
-throwing that blame on Sterne’s heart which should have been attributed
-to his taste. The love which he declared when he was old and sick and
-dying,--a worn-out wreck of a man,--disgusts us, not because it was
-felt, or not felt, but because it was told;--and told as though the
-teller meant to offer more than that warmth of sympathy which woman’s
-strength and woman’s weakness combined will ever produce in the hearts
-of certain men. This is a sympathy with which neither age, nor crutches,
-nor matrimony, nor position of any sort need consider itself to be
-incompatible. It is unreasoning, and perhaps irrational. It gives to
-outward form and grace that which only inward merit can deserve. It is
-very dangerous because, unless watched, it leads to words which express
-that which is not intended. But, though it may be controlled, it cannot
-be killed. He, who is of his nature open to such impression, will feel
-it while breath remains to him. It was that which destroyed the
-character and happiness of Swift, and which made Sterne contemptible. We
-do not doubt that such unreasoning sympathy, exacted by feminine
-attraction, was always strong in Johnson’s heart;--but Johnson was
-strong all over, and could guard himself equally from misconduct and
-from ridicule. Such sympathy with women, such incapability of
-withstanding the feminine magnet, was very strong with Goethe,--who
-could guard himself from ridicule, but not from misconduct. To us the
-child of whom we are speaking--for she was so then--was ever a child.
-But she bore in her hand the power of that magnet, and we admit that the
-needle within our bosom was swayed by it. Her story,--such as we have to
-tell it,--was as follows.
-
-Mary Gresley, at the time when we first knew her, was eighteen years
-old, and was the daughter of a medical practitioner, who had lived and
-died in a small town in one of the northern counties. For facility in
-telling our story we will call that town Cornboro. Dr. Gresley, as he
-seemed to have been called, though without proper claim to the title,
-had been a diligent man, and fairly successful,--except in this, that he
-died before he had been able to provide for those whom he left behind
-him. The widow still had her own modest fortune, amounting to some
-eighty pounds a year; and that, with the furniture of her house, was her
-whole wealth, when she found herself thus left with the weight of the
-world upon her shoulders. There was one other daughter older than Mary,
-whom we never saw, but who was always mentioned as poor Fanny. There
-had been no sons, and the family consisted of the mother and the two
-girls. Mary had been only fifteen when her father died, and up to that
-time had been regarded quite as a child by all who had known her. Mrs.
-Gresley, in the hour of her need, did as widows do in such cases. She
-sought advice from her clergyman and neighbours, and was counselled to
-take a lodger into her house. No lodger could be found so fitting as the
-curate, and when Mary was seventeen years old she and the curate were
-engaged to be married. The curate paid thirty pounds a year for his
-lodgings, and on this, with their own little income, the widow and her
-two daughters had managed to live. The engagement was known to them all
-as soon as it had been known to Mary. The love-making, indeed, had gone
-on beneath the eyes of the mother. There had been not only no deceit, no
-privacy, no separate interests, but, as far as we ever knew, no question
-as to prudence in the making of the engagement. The two young people had
-been brought together, had loved each other, as was so natural, and had
-become engaged as a matter of course. It was an event as easy to be
-foretold, or at least as easy to be believed, as the pairing of two
-birds. From what we heard of this curate, the Rev. Arthur Donne,--for
-we never saw him,--we fancy that he was a simple, pious, commonplace
-young man, imbued with a strong idea that in being made a priest he had
-been invested with a nobility and with some special capacity beyond that
-of other men, slight in body, weak in health, but honest, true, and
-warm-hearted. Then, the engagement having been completed, there arose
-the question of matrimony. The salary of the curate was a hundred a
-year. The whole income of the vicar, an old man, was, after payment made
-to his curate, two hundred a year. Could the curate, in such
-circumstances, afford to take to himself a penniless wife of seventeen?
-Mrs. Gresley was willing that the marriage should take place, and that
-they should all do as best they might on their joint income. The vicar’s
-wife, who seems to have been a strong-minded, sage, though somewhat hard
-woman, took Mary aside, and told her that such a thing must not be.
-There would come, she said, children, and destitution, and ruin. She
-knew perhaps more than Mary knew when Mary told us her story, sitting
-opposite to us in the low arm-chair. It was the advice of the vicar’s
-wife that the engagement should be broken off; but that, if the
-breaking-off of the engagement were impossible, there should be an
-indefinite period of waiting. Such engagements cannot be broken off.
-Young hearts will not consent to be thus torn asunder. The vicar’s wife
-was too strong for them to get themselves married in her teeth, and the
-period of indefinite waiting was commenced.
-
-And now for a moment we will go further back among Mary’s youthful days.
-Child as she seemed to be, she had in very early years taken a pen in
-her hand. The reader need hardly be told that had not such been the case
-there would not have arisen any cause for friendship between her and us.
-We are telling an Editor’s tale, and it was in our editorial capacity
-that Mary first came to us. Well;--in her earliest attempts, in her very
-young days, she wrote--Heaven knows what; poetry first, no doubt; then,
-God help her, a tragedy; after that, when the curate-influence first
-commenced, tales for the conversion of the ungodly;--and at last, before
-her engagement was a fact, having tried her wing at fiction, in the form
-of those false little dialogues between Tom the Saint and Bob the
-Sinner, she had completed a novel in one volume. She was then seventeen,
-was engaged to be married, and had completed her novel! Passing her in
-the street you would almost have taken her for a child to whom you might
-give an orange.
-
-Hitherto her work had come from ambition,--or from a feeling of
-restless piety inspired by the curate. Now there arose in her young mind
-the question whether such talent as she possessed might not be turned to
-account for ways and means, and used to shorten, perhaps absolutely to
-annihilate, that uncertain period of waiting. The first novel was seen
-by “a man of letters” in her neighbourhood, who pronounced it to be very
-clever;--not indeed fit as yet for publication, faulty in grammar,
-faulty even in spelling,--how I loved the tear that shone in her eye as
-she confessed this delinquency!--faulty of course in construction, and
-faulty in character;--but still clever. The man of letters had told her
-that she must begin again.
-
-Unfortunate man of letters in having thrust upon him so terrible a task!
-In such circumstances what is the candid, honest, soft-hearted man of
-letters to do? “Go, girl, and mend your stockings. Learn to make a pie.
-If you work hard, it may be that some day your intellect will suffice to
-you to read a book and understand it. For the writing of a book that
-shall either interest or instruct a brother human being many gifts are
-required. Have you just reason to believe that they have been given to
-you?” That is what the candid, honest man of letters says who is not
-soft-hearted;--and in ninety-nine cases out of a hundred it will
-probably be the truth. The soft-hearted man of letters remembers that
-this special case submitted to him may be the hundredth; and, unless the
-blotted manuscript is conclusive against such possibility, he reconciles
-it to his conscience to tune his counsel to that hope. Who can say that
-he is wrong? Unless such evidence be conclusive, who can venture to
-declare that this aspirant may not be the one who shall succeed? Who in
-such emergency does not remember the day in which he also was one of the
-hundred of whom the ninety-and-nine must fail;--and will not remember
-also the many convictions on his own mind that he certainly would not be
-the one appointed? The man of letters in the neighbourhood of Cornboro
-to whom poor Mary’s manuscript was shown was not sufficiently
-hard-hearted to make any strong attempt to deter her. He made no
-reference to the easy stockings, or the wholesome pie,--pointed out the
-manifest faults which he saw, and added, we do not doubt with much more
-energy than he threw into his words of censure,--his comfortable
-assurance that there was great promise in the work. Mary Gresley that
-evening burned the manuscript, and began another, with the dictionary
-close at her elbow.
-
-Then, during her work, there occurred two circumstances which brought
-upon her,--and, indeed, upon the household to which she
-belonged,--intense sorrow and greatly-increased trouble. The first of
-these applied more especially to herself. The Rev. Arthur Donne did not
-approve of novels,--of other novels than those dialogues between Tom and
-Bob, of the falsehood of which he was unconscious,--and expressed a
-desire that the writing of them should be abandoned. How far the lover
-went in his attempt to enforce obedience we, of course, could not know;
-but he pronounced the edict, and the edict, though not obeyed, created
-tribulation. Then there came forth another edict which had to be
-obeyed,--an edict from the probable successor of the late Dr.
-Gresley,--ordering the poor curate to seek employment in some clime more
-congenial to his state of health than that in which he was then living.
-He was told that his throat and lungs and general apparatus for living
-and preaching were not strong enough for those hyperborean regions, and
-that he must seek a southern climate. He did do so, and, before I became
-acquainted with Mary, had transferred his services to a small town in
-Dorsetshire. The engagement, of course, was to be as valid as ever,
-though matrimony must be postponed, more indefinitely even than
-heretofore. But if Mary could write novels and sell them, then how
-glorious would it be to follow her lover into Dorsetshire! The Rev.
-Arthur Donne went, and the curate who came in his place was a married
-man, wanting a house, and not lodgings. So Mary Gresley persevered with
-her second novel, and completed it before she was eighteen.
-
-The literary friend in the neighbourhood,--to the chance of whose
-acquaintance I was indebted for my subsequent friendship with Mary
-Gresley,--found this work to be a great improvement on the first. He was
-an elderly man, who had been engaged nearly all his life in the conduct
-of a scientific and agricultural periodical, and was the last man whom I
-should have taken as a sound critic on works of fiction;--but with
-spelling, grammatical construction, and the composition of sentences he
-was acquainted; and he assured Mary that her progress had been great.
-Should she burn that second story? she asked him. She would if he so
-recommended, and begin another the next day. Such was not his advice.
-
-“I have a friend in London,” said he, “who has to do with such things,
-and you shall go to him. I will give you a letter.” He gave her the
-fatal letter, and she came to us.
-
-She came up to town with her novel; but not only with her novel, for she
-brought her mother with her. So great was her eloquence, so excellent
-her suasive power either with her tongue or by that look of supplication
-in her face, that she induced her mother to abandon her home in
-Cornboro, and trust herself to London lodgings. The house was let
-furnished to the new curate, and when I first heard of the Gresleys they
-were living on the second floor in a small street near to the Euston
-Square station. Poor Fanny, as she was called, was left in some humble
-home at Cornboro, and Mary travelled up to try her fortune in the great
-city. When we came to know her well we expressed our doubts as to the
-wisdom of such a step. Yes; the vicar’s wife had been strong against the
-move. Mary confessed as much. That lady had spoken most forcible words,
-had uttered terrible predictions, had told sundry truths. But Mary had
-prevailed, and the journey was made, and the lodgings were taken.
-
-We can now come to the day on which we first saw her. She did not write,
-but came direct to us with her manuscript in her hand. “A young woman,
-Sir, wants to see you,” said the clerk, in that tone to which we were so
-well accustomed, and which indicated the dislike which he had learned
-from us to the reception of unknown visitors.
-
-“Young woman! What young woman?”
-
-“Well, Sir; she is a very young woman;--quite a girl like.”
-
-“I suppose she has got a name. Who sent her? I cannot see any young
-woman without knowing why. What does she want?”
-
-“Got a manuscript in her hand, Sir.”
-
-“I’ve no doubt she has, and a ton of manuscripts in drawers and
-cupboards. Tell her to write. I won’t see any woman, young or old,
-without knowing who she is.”
-
-The man retired, and soon returned with an envelope belonging to the
-office, on which was written, “Miss Mary Gresley, late of Cornboro.” He
-also brought me a note from “the man of letters” down in Yorkshire. “Of
-what sort is she?” I asked, looking at the introduction.
-
-“She aint amiss as to looks,” said the clerk; “and she’s modest-like.”
-Now certainly it is the fact that all female literary aspirants are not
-“modest-like.” We read our friend’s letter through, while poor Mary was
-standing at the counter below. How eagerly should we have run to greet
-her, to save her from the gaze of the public, to welcome her at least
-with a chair and the warmth of our editorial fire, had we guessed then
-what were her qualities! It was not long before she knew the way up to
-our sanctum without any clerk to show her, and not long before we knew
-well the sound of that low but not timid knock at our door made always
-with the handle of the parasol, with which her advent was heralded. We
-will confess that there was always music to our ears in that light tap
-from the little round wooden knob. The man of letters in Yorkshire, whom
-we had known well for many years, had been never known to us with
-intimacy. We had bought with him and sold with him, had talked with him,
-and perhaps, walked with him; but he was not one with whom we had eaten,
-or drunk, or prayed. A dull, well-instructed, honest man he was, fond of
-his money, and, as we had thought, as unlikely as any man to be waked to
-enthusiasm by the ambitious dreams of a young girl. But Mary had been
-potent even over him, and he had written to me, saying that Miss Gresley
-was a young lady of exceeding promise, in respect of whom he had a
-strong presentiment that she would rise, if not to eminence, at least to
-a good position as a writer. “But she is very young,” he added. Having
-read this letter, we at last desired our clerk to send the lady up.
-
-We remember her step as she came to the door, timid enough
-then,--hesitating, but yet with an assumed lightness as though she was
-determined to show us that she was not ashamed of what she was doing.
-She had on her head a light straw hat, such as then was very unusual in
-London,--and is not now, we believe, commonly worn in the streets of the
-metropolis by ladies who believe themselves to know what they are about.
-But it was a hat, worn upon her head, and not a straw plate done up with
-ribbons, and reaching down the incline of the forehead as far as the top
-of the nose. And she was dressed in a gray stuff frock, with a little
-black band round her waist. As far as our memory goes, we never saw her
-in any other dress, or with other hat or bonnet on her head. “And what
-can we do for you,--Miss Gresley?” we said, standing up and holding the
-literary gentleman’s letter in our hand. We had almost said, “my dear,”
-seeing her youth and remembering our own age. We were afterwards glad
-that we had not so addressed her; though it came before long that we did
-call her “my dear,”--in quite another spirit.
-
-She recoiled a little from the tone of our voice, but recovered herself
-at once. “Mr. ---- thinks that you can do something for me. I have
-written a novel, and I have brought it to you.”
-
-“You are very young, are you not, to have written a novel?”
-
-“I am young,” she said, “but perhaps older than you think. I am
-eighteen.” Then for the first time there came into her eye that gleam of
-a merry humour which never was allowed to dwell there long, but which
-was so alluring when it showed itself.
-
-“That is a ripe age,” we said laughing, and then we bade her seat
-herself. At once we began to pour forth that long and dull and ugly
-lesson which is so common to our life, in which we tried to explain to
-our unwilling pupil that of all respectable professions for young women
-literature is the most uncertain, the most heart-breaking, and the most
-dangerous. “You hear of the few who are remunerated,” we said; “but you
-hear nothing of the thousands that fail.”
-
-“It is so noble!” she replied.
-
-“But so hopeless.”
-
-“There are those who succeed.”
-
-“Yes, indeed. Even in a lottery one must gain the prize; but they who
-trust to lotteries break their hearts.”
-
-“But literature is not a lottery. If I am fit, I shall succeed. Mr. ----
-thinks I may succeed.” Many more words of wisdom we spoke to her, and
-well do we remember her reply when we had run all our line off the reel,
-and had completed our sermon. “I shall go on all the same,” she said. “I
-shall try, and try again,--and again.”
-
-Her power over us, to a certain extent, was soon established. Of course
-we promised to read the MS., and turned it over, no doubt with an
-anxious countenance, to see of what kind was the writing. There is a
-feminine scrawl of a nature so terrible that the task of reading it
-becomes worse than the treadmill. “I know I can write well,--though I am
-not quite sure about the spelling,” said Mary, as she observed the
-glance of our eyes. She spoke truly. The writing was good, though the
-erasures and alterations were very numerous. And then the story was
-intended to fill only one volume. “I will copy it for you if you wish
-it,” said Mary. “Though there are so many scratchings out, it has been
-copied once.” We would not for worlds have given her such labour, and
-then we promised to read the tale. We forget how it was brought about,
-but she told us at that interview that her mother had obtained leave
-from the pastrycook round the corner to sit there waiting till Mary
-should rejoin her. “I thought it would be trouble enough for you to have
-one of us here,” she said with her little laugh when I asked her why she
-had not brought her mother on with her. I own that I felt that she had
-been wise; and when I told her that if she would call on me again that
-day week I would then have read at any rate so much of her work as would
-enable me to give her my opinion, I did not invite her to bring her
-mother with her. I knew that I could talk more freely to the girl
-without the mother’s presence. Even when you are past fifty, and intend
-only to preach a sermon, you do not wish to have a mother present.
-
-When she was gone we took up the roll of paper and examined it. We
-looked at the division into chapters, at the various mottoes the poor
-child had chosen, pronounced to ourselves the name of the story,--it was
-simply the name of the heroine, an easy-going, unaffected, well-chosen
-name,--and read the last page of it. On such occasions the reader of the
-work begins his task almost with a conviction that the labour which he
-is about to undertake will be utterly thrown away. He feels all but sure
-that the matter will be bad, that it will be better for all parties,
-writer, intended readers, and intended publisher, that the written
-words should not be conveyed into type,--that it will be his duty after
-some fashion to convey that unwelcome opinion to the writer, and that
-the writer will go away incredulous, and accusing mentally the Mentor of
-the moment of all manner of literary sins, among which ignorance,
-jealousy, and falsehood, will, in the poor author’s imagination, be most
-prominent. And yet when the writer was asking for that opinion,
-declaring his especial desire that the opinion should be candid,
-protesting that his present wish is to have some gauge of his own
-capability, and that he has come to you believing you to be above others
-able to give him that gauge,--while his petition to you was being made,
-he was in every respect sincere. He had come desirous to measure
-himself, and had believed that you could measure him. When coming he did
-not think that you would declare him to be an Apollo. He had told
-himself, no doubt, how probable it was that you would point out to him
-that he was a dwarf. You find him to be an ordinary man, measuring
-perhaps five feet seven, and unable to reach the standard of the
-particular regiment in which he is ambitious of serving. You tell him so
-in what civillest words you know, and you are at once convicted in his
-mind of jealousy, ignorance, and falsehood! And yet he is perhaps a
-most excellent fellow, and capable of performing the best of
-service,--only in some other regiment! As we looked at Miss Gresley’s
-manuscript, tumbling it through our hands, we expected even from her
-some such result. She had gained two things from us already by her
-outward and inward gifts, such as they were,--first that we would read
-her story, and secondly that we would read it quickly; but she had not
-as yet gained from us any belief that by reading it we could serve it.
-
-We did read it,--the most of it before we left our editorial chair on
-that afternoon, so that we lost altogether the daily walk so essential
-to our editorial health, and were put to the expense of a cab on our
-return home. And we incurred some minimum of domestic discomfort from
-the fact that we did not reach our own door till twenty minutes after
-our appointed dinner hour. “I have this moment come from the office as
-hard as a cab could bring me,” we said in answer to the mildest of
-reproaches, explaining nothing as to the nature of the cause which had
-kept us so long at our work.
-
-We must not allow our readers to suppose that the intensity of our
-application had arisen from the overwhelming interest of the story. It
-was not that the story entranced us, but that our feeling for the
-writer grew as we read the story. It was simple, unaffected, and almost
-painfully unsensational. It contained, as I came to perceive afterwards,
-little more than a recital of what her imagination told her might too
-probably be the result of her own engagement. It was the story of two
-young people who became engaged and could not be married. After a course
-of years the man, with many true arguments, asked to be absolved. The
-woman yields with an expressed conviction that her lover is right,
-settles herself down for maiden life, then breaks her heart and dies.
-The character of the man was utterly untrue to nature. That of the woman
-was true, but commonplace. Other interest, or other character there was
-none. The dialogues between the lovers were many and tedious, and hardly
-a word was spoken between them which two lovers really would have
-uttered. It was clearly not a work as to which I could tell my little
-friend that she might depend upon it for fame or fortune. When I had
-finished it I was obliged to tell myself that I could not advise her
-even to publish it. But yet I could not say that she had mistaken her
-own powers or applied herself to a profession beyond her reach. There
-were a grace and delicacy in her work which were charming. Occasionally
-she escaped from the trammels of grammar, but only so far that it would
-be a pleasure to point out to her her errors. There was not a word that
-a young lady should not have written; and there were throughout the
-whole evident signs of honest work. We had six days to think it over
-between our completion of the task and her second visit.
-
-She came exactly at the hour appointed, and seated herself at once in
-the arm-chair before us as soon as the young man had closed the door
-behind him. There had been no great occasion for nervousness at her
-first visit, and she had then, by an evident effort, overcome the
-diffidence incidental to a meeting with a stranger. But now she did not
-attempt to conceal her anxiety. “Well,” she said, leaning forward, and
-looking up into our face, with her two hands folded together.
-
-Even though Truth, standing full panoplied at our elbow, had positively
-demanded it, we could not have told her then to mend her stockings and
-bake her pies and desert the calling that she had chosen. She was simply
-irresistible, and would, we fear, have constrained us into falsehood had
-the question been between falsehood and absolute reprobation of her
-work. To have spoken hard, heart-breaking words to her, would have been
-like striking a child when it comes to kiss you. We fear that we were
-not absolutely true at first, and that by that absence of truth we made
-subsequent pain more painful. “Well,” she said, looking up into our
-face. “Have you read it?” We told her that we had read every word of it.
-“And it is no good?”
-
-We fear that we began by telling her that it certainly was good,--after
-a fashion, very good,--considering her youth and necessary inexperience,
-very good indeed. As we said this she shook her head, and sent out a
-spark or two from her eyes, intimating her conviction that excuses or
-quasi praise founded on her youth would avail her nothing. “Would
-anybody buy it from me?” she asked. No;--we did not think that any
-publisher would pay her money for it. “Would they print it for me
-without costing me anything?” Then we told her the truth as nearly as we
-could. She lacked experience; and if, as she had declared to us before,
-she was determined to persevere, she must try again, and must learn more
-of that lesson of the world’s ways which was so necessary to those who
-attempted to teach that lesson to others. “But I shall try again at
-once,” she said. We shook our head, endeavouring to shake it kindly.
-“Currer Bell was only a young girl when she succeeded,” she added. The
-injury which Currer Bell did after this fashion was almost equal to that
-perpetrated by Jack Sheppard, and yet Currer Bell was not very young
-when she wrote.
-
-She remained with us then for above an hour;--for more than two
-probably, though the time was not specially marked by us; and before her
-visit was brought to a close she had told us of her engagement with the
-curate. Indeed, we believe that the greater part of her little history
-as hitherto narrated was made known to us on that occasion. We asked
-after her mother early in the interview, and learned that she was not on
-this occasion kept waiting at the pastrycook’s shop. Mary had come
-alone, making use of some friendly omnibus, of which she had learned the
-route. When she told us that she and her mother had come up to London
-solely with the view of forwarding her views in her intended profession,
-we ventured to ask whether it would not be wiser for them to return to
-Cornboro, seeing how improbable it was that she would have matter fit
-for the press within any short period. Then she explained that they had
-calculated that they would be able to live in London for twelve months,
-if they spent nothing except on absolute necessaries. The poor girl
-seemed to keep back nothing from us. “We have clothes that will carry
-us through, and we shall be very careful. I came in an omnibus;--but I
-shall walk if you will let me come again.” Then she asked me for advice.
-How was she to set about further work with the best chance of turning it
-to account?
-
-It had been altogether the fault of that retired literary gentleman down
-in the north, who had obtained what standing he had in the world of
-letters by writing about guano and the cattle plague! Divested of all
-responsibility, and fearing no further trouble to himself, he had
-ventured to tell this girl that her work was full of promise. Promise
-means probability, and in this case there was nothing beyond a remote
-chance. That she and her mother should have left their little household
-gods, and come up to London on such a chance, was a thing terrible to
-the mind. But we felt before these two hours were over that we could not
-throw her off now. We had become old friends, and there had been that
-between us which gave her a positive claim upon our time. She had sat in
-our arm-chair, leaning forward with her elbows on her knees and her
-hands stretched out, till we, caught by the charm of her unstudied
-intimacy, had wheeled round our chair, and had placed ourselves, as
-nearly as the circumstances would admit, in the same position. The
-magnetism had already begun to act upon us. We soon found ourselves
-taking it for granted that she was to remain in London and begin another
-book. It was impossible to resist her. Before the interview was over,
-we, who had been conversant with all these matters before she was born;
-we, who had latterly come to regard our own editorial fault as being
-chiefly that of personal harshness; we, who had repulsed aspirant
-novelists by the score,--we had consented to be a party to the creation,
-if not to the actual writing, of this new book!
-
-It was to be done after this fashion. She was to fabricate a plot, and
-to bring it to us, written on two sides of a sheet of letter paper. On
-the reverse sides we were to criticise this plot, and prepare
-emendations. Then she was to make out skeletons of the men and women who
-were afterwards to be clothed with flesh and made alive with blood, and
-covered with cuticles. After that she was to arrange her proportions;
-and at last, before she began to write the story, she was to describe in
-detail such part of it as was to be told in each chapter. On every
-advancing wavelet of the work we were to give her our written remarks.
-All this we promised to do because of the quiver in her lip, and the
-alternate tear and sparkle in her eye. “Now that I have found a friend,
-I feel sure that I can do it,” she said, as she held our hand tightly
-before she left us.
-
-In about a month, during which she had twice written to us and twice
-been answered, she came with her plot. It was the old story, with some
-additions and some change. There was matrimony instead of death at the
-end, and an old aunt was brought in for the purpose of relenting and
-producing an income. We added a few details, feeling as we did so that
-we were the very worst of botchers. We doubt now whether the old, sad,
-simple story was not the better of the two. Then, after another
-lengthened interview, we sent our pupil back to create her skeletons.
-When she came with the skeletons we were dear friends and learned to
-call her Mary. Then it was that she first sat at our editorial table,
-and wrote a love-letter to the curate. It was then mid-winter, wanting
-but a few days to Christmas, and Arthur, as she called him, did not like
-the cold weather. “He does not say so,” she said, “but I fear he is ill.
-Don’t you think there are some people with whom everything is
-unfortunate?” She wrote her letter, and had recovered her spirits before
-she took her leave.
-
-We then proposed to her to bring her mother to dine with us on Christmas
-Day. We had made a clean breast of it at home in regard to our
-heart-flutterings, and had been met with a suggestion that some kindness
-might with propriety be shown to the old lady as well as to the young
-one. We had felt grateful to the old lady for not coming to our office
-with her daughter, and had at once assented. When we made the suggestion
-to Mary there came first a blush over all her face, and then there
-followed the well-known smile before the blush was gone. “You’ll all be
-dressed fine,” she said. We protested that not a garment would be
-changed by any of the family after the decent church-going in the
-morning. “Just as I am?” she asked. “Just as you are,” we said, looking
-at the dear gray frock, adding some mocking assertion that no possible
-combination of millinery could improve her. “And mamma will be just the
-same? Then we will come,” she said. We told her an absolute falsehood,
-as to some necessity which would take us in a cab to Euston Square on
-the afternoon of that Christmas Day, so that we could call and bring
-them both to our house without trouble or expense. “You sha’n’t do
-anything of the kind,” she said. However, we swore to our
-falsehood,--perceiving, as we did so, that she did not believe a word
-of it; but in the matter of the cab we had our own way.
-
-We found the mother to be what we had expected,--a weak, ladylike,
-lachrymose old lady, endowed with a profound admiration for her
-daughter, and so bashful that she could not at all enjoy her
-plum-pudding. We think that Mary did enjoy hers thoroughly. She made a
-little speech to the mistress of the house, praising ourselves with warm
-words and tearful eyes, and immediately won the heart of a new friend.
-She allied herself warmly to our daughters, put up with the schoolboy
-pleasantries of our sons, and before the evening was over was dressed up
-as a ghost for the amusement of some neighbouring children who were
-brought in to play snapdragon. Mrs. Gresley, as she drank her tea and
-crumbled her bit of cake, seated on a distant sofa, was not so happy,
-partly because she remembered her old gown, and partly because our wife
-was a stranger to her. Mary had forgotten both circumstances before the
-dinner was half over. She was the sweetest ghost that ever was seen. How
-pleasant would be our ideas of departed spirits if such ghosts would
-visit us frequently!
-
-They repeated their visits to us not unfrequently during the twelve
-months; but as the whole interest attaching to our intercourse had
-reference to circumstances which took place in that editorial room of
-ours, it will not be necessary to refer further to the hours, very
-pleasant to ourselves, which she spent with us in our domestic life. She
-was ever made welcome when she came, and was known by us as a dear,
-well-bred, modest, clever little girl. The novel went on. That catalogue
-of the skeletons gave us more trouble than all the rest, and many were
-the tears which she shed over it, and sad were the misgivings by which
-she was afflicted, though never vanquished! How was it to be expected
-that a girl of eighteen should portray characters such as she had never
-known? In her intercourse with the curate all the intellect had been on
-her side. She had loved him because it was requisite to her to love some
-one; and now, as she had loved him, she was as true as steel to him. But
-there had been almost nothing for her to learn from him. The plan of the
-novel went on, and as it did so we became more and more despondent as to
-its success. And through it all we knew how contrary it was to our own
-judgment to expect, even to dream of, anything but failure. Though we
-went on working with her, finding it to be quite impossible to resist
-her entreaties, we did tell her from day to day that, even presuming she
-were entitled to hope for ultimate success, she must go through an
-apprenticeship of ten years before she could reach it. Then she would
-sit silent, repressing her tears, and searching for arguments with which
-to support her cause.
-
-“Working hard is apprenticeship,” she said to us once.
-
-“Yes, Mary; but the work will be more useful, and the apprenticeship
-more wholesome, if you will take them for what they are worth.”
-
-“I shall be dead in ten years,” she said.
-
-“If you thought so you would not intend to marry Mr. Donne. But even
-were it certain that such would be your fate, how can that alter the
-state of things? The world would know nothing of that; and if it did,
-would the world buy your book out of pity?”
-
-“I want no one to pity me,” she said; “but I want you to help me.” So we
-went on helping her. At the end of four months she had not put pen to
-paper on the absolute body of her projected novel; and yet she had
-worked daily at it, arranging its future construction.
-
-During the next month, when we were in the middle of March, a gleam of
-real success came to her. We had told her frankly that we would publish
-nothing of hers in the periodical which we were ourselves conducting.
-She had become too dear to us for us not to feel that were we to do so,
-we should be doing it rather for her sake than for that of our readers.
-But we did procure for her the publication of two short stories
-elsewhere. For these she received twelve guineas, and it seemed to her
-that she had found an El Dorado of literary wealth. I shall never forget
-her ecstasy when she knew that her work would be printed, or her renewed
-triumph when the first humble cheque was given into her hands. There are
-those who will think that such a triumph, as connected with literature,
-must be sordid. For ourselves, we are ready to acknowledge that money
-payment for work done is the best and most honest test of success. We
-are sure that it is so felt by young barristers and young doctors, and
-we do not see why rejoicing on such realisation of long-cherished hope
-should be more vile with the literary aspirant than with them. “What do
-you think I’ll do first with it?” she said. We thought she meant to send
-something to her lover, and we told her so. “I’ll buy mamma a bonnet to
-go to church in. I didn’t tell you before, but she hasn’t been these
-three Sundays because she hasn’t one fit to be seen.” I changed the
-cheque for her, and she went off and bought the bonnet.
-
-Though I was successful for her in regard to the two stories, I could
-not go beyond that. We could have filled pages of periodicals with her
-writing had we been willing that she should work without remuneration.
-She herself was anxious for such work, thinking that it would lead to
-something better. But we opposed it, and, indeed, would not permit it,
-believing that work so done can be serviceable to none but those who
-accept it that pages may be filled without cost.
-
-During the whole winter, while she was thus working, she was in a state
-of alarm about her lover. Her hope was ever that when warm weather came
-he would again be well and strong. We know nothing sadder than such hope
-founded on such source. For does not the winter follow the summer, and
-then again comes the killing spring? At this time she used to read us
-passages from his letters, in which he seemed to speak of little but his
-own health.
-
-In her literary ambition he never seemed to have taken part since she
-had declared her intention of writing profane novels. As regarded him,
-his sole merit to us seemed to be in his truth to her. He told her that
-in his opinion they two were as much joined together as though the
-service of the Church had bound them; but even in saying that he spoke
-ever of himself and not of her. Well;--May came, dangerous, doubtful,
-deceitful May, and he was worse. Then, for the first time, the dread
-word, consumption, passed her lips. It had already passed ours,
-mentally, a score of times. We asked her what she herself would wish to
-do. Would she desire to go down to Dorsetshire and see him? She thought
-awhile, and said that she would wait a little longer.
-
-The novel went on, and at length, in June, she was writing the actual
-words on which, as she thought, so much depended. She had really brought
-the story into some shape in the arrangement of her chapters; and
-sometimes even I began to hope. There were moments in which with her
-hope was almost certainty. Towards the end of June Mr. Donne declared
-himself to be better. He was to have a holiday in August, and then he
-intended to run up to London and see his betrothed. He still gave
-details, which were distressing to us, of his own symptoms; but it was
-manifest that he himself was not desponding, and she was governed in her
-trust or in her despair altogether by him. But when August came the
-period of his visit was postponed. The heat had made him weak, and he
-was to come in September.
-
-Early in August we ourselves went away for our annual recreation:--not
-that we shoot grouse, or that we have any strong opinion that August and
-September are the best months in the year for holiday-making,--but that
-everybody does go in August. We ourselves are not specially fond of
-August. In many places to which one goes a-touring mosquitoes bite in
-that month. The heat, too, prevents one from walking. The inns are all
-full, and the railways crowded. April and May are twice pleasanter
-months in which to see the world and the country. But fashion is
-everything, and no man or woman will stay in town in August for whom
-there exists any practicability of leaving it. We went on the
-10th,--just as though we had a moor, and one of the last things we did
-before our departure was to read and revise the last-written chapter of
-Mary’s story.
-
-About the end of September we returned, and up to that time the lover
-had not come to London. Immediately on our return we wrote to Mary, and
-the next morning she was with us. She had seated herself on her usual
-chair before she spoke, and we had taken her hand asked after herself
-and her mother. Then, with something of mirth in our tone, we demanded
-the work which she had done since our departure. “He is dying,” she
-replied.
-
-She did not weep as she spoke. It was not on such occasions as this that
-the tears filled her eyes. But there was in her face a look of fixed and
-settled misery which convinced us that she at least did not doubt the
-truth of her own assertion. We muttered something as to our hope that
-she was mistaken. “The doctor, there, has written to tell mamma that it
-is so. Here is his letter.” The doctor’s letter was a good letter,
-written with more of assurance than doctors can generally allow
-themselves to express. “I fear that I am justified in telling you,” said
-the doctor, “that it can only be a question of weeks.” We got up and
-took her hand. There was not a word to be uttered.
-
-“I must go to him,” she said, after a pause.
-
-“Well;--yes. It will be better.”
-
-“But we have no money.” It must be explained now that offers of slight,
-very slight, pecuniary aid had been made by us both to Mary and to her
-mother on more than one occasion. These had been refused with adamantine
-firmness, but always with something of mirth, or at least of humour,
-attached to the refusal. The mother would simply refer to the daughter,
-and Mary would declare that they could manage to see the twelvemonth
-through and go back to Cornboro, without becoming absolute beggars. She
-would allude to their joint wardrobe, and would confess that there would
-not have been a pair of boots between them but for that twelve guineas;
-and indeed she seemed to have stretched that modest incoming so as to
-cover a legion of purchases. And of these things she was never ashamed
-to speak. We think there must have been at least two gray frocks,
-because the frock was always clean, and never absolutely shabby. Our
-girls at home declared that they had seen three. Of her frock, as it
-happened, she never spoke to us, but the new boots and the new gloves,
-“and ever so many things that I can’t tell you about, which we really
-couldn’t have gone without,” all came out of the twelve guineas. That
-she had taken, not only with delight, but with triumph. But pecuniary
-assistance from ourselves she had always refused. “It would be a gift,”
-she would say.
-
-“Have it as you like.”
-
-“But people don’t give other people money.”
-
-“Don’t they? That’s all you know about the world.”
-
-“Yes; to beggars. We hope we needn’t come to that.” It was thus that she
-always answered us, but always with something of laughter in her eye,
-as though their poverty was a joke. Now, when the demand upon her was
-for that which did not concern her personal comfort, which referred to a
-matter felt by her to be vitally important, she declared, without a
-minute’s hesitation, that she had not money for the journey.
-
-“Of course you can have money,” we said. “I suppose you will go at
-once?”
-
-“Oh yes,--at once. That is, in a day or two,--after he shall have
-received my letter. Why should I wait?” We sat down to write a cheque,
-and she, seeing what we were doing, asked how much it was to be.
-“No;--half that will do,” she said. “Mamma will not go. We have talked
-it over and decided it. Yes; I know all about that. I am going to see my
-lover,--my dying lover; and I have to beg for the money to take me to
-him. Of course I am a young girl; but in such a condition am I to stand
-upon the ceremony of being taken care of? A housemaid wouldn’t want to
-be taken care of at eighteen.” We did exactly as she bade us, and then
-attempted to comfort her while the young man went to get money for the
-cheque. What consolation was possible? It was simply necessary to admit
-with frankness that sorrow had come from which there could be no present
-release. “Yes,” she said. “Time will cure it,--in a way. One dies in
-time, and then of course it is all cured.” “One hears of this kind of
-thing often,” she said afterwards, still leaning forward in her chair,
-still with something of the old expression in her eyes,--something
-almost of humour in spite of her grief; “but it is the girl who dies.
-When it is the girl, there isn’t, after all, so much harm done. A man
-goes about the world and can shake it off; and then, there are plenty of
-girls.” We could not tell her how infinitely more important, to our
-thinking, was her life than that of him whom she was going to see now
-for the last time; but there did spring up within our mind a feeling,
-greatly opposed to that conviction which formerly we had endeavoured to
-impress upon herself,--that she was destined to make for herself a
-successful career.
-
-She went, and remained by her lover’s bed-side for three weeks. She
-wrote constantly to her mother, and once or twice to ourselves. She
-never again allowed herself to entertain a gleam of hope, and she spoke
-of her sorrow as a thing accomplished. In her last interview with us she
-had hardly alluded to her novel, and in her letters she never mentioned
-it. But she did say one word which made us guess what was coming. “You
-will find me greatly changed in one thing,” she said; “so much changed
-that I need never have troubled you.” The day for her return to London
-was twice postponed, but at last she was brought to leave him. Stern
-necessity was too strong for her. Let her pinch herself as she might,
-she must live down in Dorsetshire,--and could not live on his means,
-which were as narrow as her own. She left him; and on the day after her
-arrival in London she walked across from Euston Square to our office.
-
-“Yes,” she said, “it is all over. I shall never see him again on this
-side of heaven’s gates.” We do not know that we ever saw a tear in her
-eyes produced by her own sorrow. She was possessed of some wonderful
-strength which seemed to suffice for the bearing of any burden. Then she
-paused, and we could only sit silent, with our eyes fixed upon the rug.
-“I have made him a promise,” she said at last. Of course we asked her
-what was the promise, though at the moment we thought that we knew. “I
-will make no more attempt at novel writing.”
-
-“Such a promise should not have been asked,--or given,” we said
-vehemently.
-
-“It should have been asked,--because he thought it right,” she answered.
-“And of course it was given. Must he not know better than I do? Is he
-not one of God’s ordained priests? In all the world is there one so
-bound to obey him as I?” There was nothing to be said for it at such a
-moment as that. There is no enthusiasm equal to that produced by a
-death-bed parting. “I grieve greatly,” she said, “that you should have
-had so much vain labour with a poor girl who can never profit by it.”
-
-“I don’t believe the labour will have been vain,” we answered, having
-altogether changed those views of ours as to the futility of the pursuit
-which she had adopted.
-
-“I have destroyed it all,” she said.
-
-“What;--burned the novel?”
-
-“Every scrap of it. I told him that I would do so, and that he should
-know that I had done it. Every page was burned after I got home last
-night, and then I wrote to him before I went to bed.”
-
-“Do you mean that you think it wicked that people should write novels?”
-we asked.
-
-“He thinks it to be a misapplication of God’s gifts, and that has been
-enough for me. He shall judge for me, but I will not judge for others.
-And what does it matter? I do not want to write a novel now.”
-
-They remained in London till the end of the year for which the married
-curate had taken their house, and then they returned to Cornboro. We saw
-them frequently while they were still in town, and despatched them by
-the train to the north just when the winter was beginning. At that time
-the young clergyman was still living down in Dorsetshire, but he was
-lying in his grave when Christmas came. Mary never saw him again, nor
-did she attend his funeral. She wrote to us frequently then, as she did
-for years afterwards. “I should have liked to have stood at his grave,”
-she said; “but it was a luxury of sorrow that I wished to enjoy, and
-they who cannot earn luxuries should not have them. They were going to
-manage it for me here, but I knew I was right to refuse it.” Right,
-indeed! As far as we knew her, she never moved a single point from what
-was right.
-
-All these things happened many years ago. Mary Gresley, on her return to
-Cornboro, apprenticed herself, as it were, to the married curate there,
-and called herself, I think, a female Scripture reader. I know that she
-spent her days in working hard for the religious aid of the poor around
-her. From time to time we endeavoured to instigate her to literary work;
-and she answered our letters by sending us wonderful little dialogues
-between Tom the Saint and Bob the Sinner. We are in no humour to
-criticise them now; but we can assert, that though that mode of
-religious teaching is most distasteful to us, the literary merit shown
-even in such works as these was very manifest. And there came to be
-apparent in them a gleam of humour which would sometimes make us think
-that she was sitting opposite to us and looking at us, and that she was
-Tom the Saint, and that we were Bob the Sinner. We said what we could to
-turn her from her chosen path, throwing into our letters all the
-eloquence and all the thought of which we were masters: but our
-eloquence and our thought were equally in vain.
-
-At last, when eight years had passed over her head after the death of
-Mr. Donne, she married a missionary who was going out to some forlorn
-country on the confines of African colonisation; and there she died. We
-saw her on board the ship in which she sailed, and before we parted
-there had come that tear into her eyes, the old look of supplication on
-her lips, and the gleam of mirth across her face. We kissed her
-once,--for the first and only time,--as we bade God bless her!
-
-
-
-
-THE TURKISH BATH.
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-THE TURKISH BATH.
-
-
-It was in the month of August. The world had gone to the moors and the
-Rhine, but we were still kept in town by the exigencies of our position.
-We had been worked hard during the preceding year, and were not quite as
-well as our best friends might have wished us;--and we resolved upon
-taking a Turkish bath. This little story records the experience of one
-individual man; but our readers, we hope, will, without a grudge, allow
-us the use of the editorial we. We doubt whether the story could be told
-at all in any other form. We resolved upon taking a Turkish bath, and at
-about three o’clock in the day we strutted from the outer to the inner
-room of the establishment in that light costume and with that air of
-Arab dignity which are peculiar to the place.
-
-As everybody has not taken a Turkish bath in Jermyn Street, we will give
-the shortest possible description of the position. We had entered of
-course in the usual way, leaving our hat and our boots and our
-“valuables” among the numerous respectable assistants who throng the
-approaches; and as we had entered we had observed a stout, middle-aged
-gentleman on the other side of the street, clad in vestments somewhat
-the worse for wear, and to our eyes particularly noticeable by reason of
-the tattered condition of his gloves. A well-to-do man may have no
-gloves, or may simply carry in his hands those which appertain to him
-rather as a thing of custom than for any use for which he requires them.
-But a tattered glove, worn on the hand, is to our eyes the surest sign
-of a futile attempt at outer respectability. It is melancholy to us
-beyond expression. Our brother editors, we do not doubt, are acquainted
-with the tattered glove, and have known the sadness which it produces.
-If there be an editor whose heart has not been softened by the feminine
-tattered glove, that editor is not our brother. In this instance the
-tattered glove was worn by a man; and though the usual indication of
-poor circumstances was conveyed, there was nevertheless something jaunty
-in the gentleman’s step which preserved him from the desecration of
-pity. We barely saw him, but still were thinking of him as we passed
-into the building with the oriental letters on it, and took off our
-boots, and pulled out our watch and purse.
-
-We were of course accommodated with two checked towels; and, having in
-vain attempted to show that we were to the manner born by fastening the
-larger of them satisfactorily round our own otherwise naked person, had
-obtained the assistance of one of those very skilful eastern boys who
-glide about the place and create envy by their familiarity with its
-mysteries. With an absence of all bashfulness which soon grows upon one,
-we had divested ourselves of our ordinary trappings beneath the gaze of
-five or six young men lying on surrounding sofas,--among whom we
-recognised young Walker of the Treasury, and hereby testify on his
-behalf that he looks almost as fine a fellow without his clothes as he
-does with them,--and had strutted through the doorway into the
-bath-room, trailing our second towel behind us. Having observed the
-matter closely in the course of perhaps half-a-dozen visits, we are
-prepared to recommend that mode of entry to our young friends as being
-at the same time easy and oriental. There are those who wear the second
-towel as a shawl, thereby no doubt achieving a certain decency of garb;
-but this is done to the utter loss of all dignity; and a feminine
-appearance is produced, such as is sometimes that of a lady of fifty
-looking after her maid-servants at seven o’clock in the morning and
-intending to dress again before breakfast. And some there are who carry
-it under the arm,--simply as a towel; but these are they who, from
-English perversity, wilfully rob the institution of that picturesque
-orientalism which should be its greatest charm. A few are able to wear
-the article as a turban, and that no doubt should be done by all who are
-competent to achieve the position. We have observed that men who can do
-so enter the bath-room with an air and are received there with a respect
-which no other arrangement of the towel will produce. We have tried
-this; but as the turban gets over our eyes, and then falls altogether
-off our brow, we have abandoned it. In regard to personal deportment,
-depending partly on the step, somewhat on the eye, but chiefly on the
-costume, it must be acknowledged that “the attempt and not the deed
-confounds us.” It is not every man who can carry a blue towel as a
-turban, and look like an Arab in the streets of Cairo, as he walks
-slowly down the room in Jermyn Street with his arms crossed on his naked
-breast. The attempt and not the deed does confound one shockingly. We,
-therefore, recommend that the second towel should be trailed. The effect
-is good, and there is no difficulty in the trailing which may not be
-overcome.
-
-We had trailed our way into the bath-room, and had slowly walked to one
-of those arm-chairs in which it is our custom on such occasions to seat
-ourselves and to await sudation. There are marble couches; and if a man
-be able to lie on stone for half an hour without a movement beyond that
-of clapping his hands, or a sound beyond a hollow-voiced demand for
-water, the effect is not bad. But he loses everything if he tosses
-himself uneasily on his hard couch, and we acknowledge that our own
-elbows are always in the way of our own comfort, and that our bones
-become sore. We think that the marble sofas must be intended for the
-younger Turks. If a man can stretch himself on stone without suffering
-for the best part of an hour,--or, more bravely perhaps, without
-appearing to suffer, let him remember that all is not done even then.
-Very much will depend on the manner in which he claps his hands, and the
-hollowness of the voice in which he calls for water. There should, we
-think, be two blows of the palms. One is very weak and proclaims its own
-futility. Even to dull London ears it seems at once to want the eastern
-tone. We have heard three given effectively, but we think that it
-requires much practice; and even when it is perfect, the result is that
-of western impatience rather than of eastern gravity. No word should be
-pronounced, beyond that one word,--Water. The effect should be as though
-the whole mind were so devoted to the sudorific process as to admit of
-no extraneous idea. There should seem to be almost an agony in the
-effort,--as though the man enduring it, conscious that with success he
-would come forth a god, was aware that being as yet but mortal he may
-perish in the attempt. Two claps of the hand and a call for water, and
-that repeated with an interval of ten minutes, are all the external
-signs of life that the young Turkish bather may allow to himself while
-he is stretched upon his marble couch.
-
-We had taken a chair,--well aware that nothing god-like could be thus
-achieved, and contented to obtain the larger amount of human comfort.
-The chairs are placed two and two, and a custom has grown up,--of which
-we scarcely think that the origin has been eastern,--in accordance with
-which friends occupying these chairs will spend their time in
-conversation. The true devotee to the Turkish bath will, we think, never
-speak at all; but when the speaking is low in tone, just something
-between a whisper and an articulate sound, the slight murmuring hum
-produced is not disagreeable. We cannot quite make up our mind whether
-this use of the human voice be or be not oriental; but we think that it
-adds to the mystery, and upon the whole it gratifies. Let it be
-understood, however, that harsh, resonant, clearly-expressed speech is
-damnable. The man who talks aloud to his friend about the trivial
-affairs of life is selfish, ignorant, unpoetical,--and English in the
-very worst sense of the word. Who but an ass proud of his own capacity
-for braying would venture to dispel the illusions of a score of bathers
-by observing aloud that the House sat till three o’clock that morning?
-
-But though friends may talk in low voices, a man without a friend will
-hardly fall into conversation at the Turkish bath. It is said that our
-countrymen are unapt to speak to each other without introduction, and
-this inaptitude is certainly not decreased by the fact that two men meet
-each other with nothing on but a towel a piece. Finding yourself next to
-a man in such a garb you hardly know where to begin. And then there lies
-upon you the weight of that necessity of maintaining a certain dignity
-of deportment which has undoubtedly grown upon you since you succeeded
-in freeing yourself from your socks and trousers. For ourselves we have
-to admit that the difficulty is much increased by the fact that we are
-short-sighted, and are obligated, by the sudorific processes and by the
-shampooing and washing that are to come, to leave our spectacles behind
-us. The delicious wonder of the place is no doubt increased to us, but
-our incapability of discerning aught of those around us in that low
-gloomy light is complete. Jones from Friday Street, or even Walker from
-the Treasury, is the same to us as one of those Asiatic slaves who
-administer to our comfort, and flit about the place with admirable
-decorum and self-respect. On this occasion we had barely seated
-ourselves, when another bather, with slow, majestic step, came to the
-other chair; and, with a manner admirably adapted to the place,
-stretching out his naked legs, and throwing back his naked shoulders,
-seated himself beside us. We are much given to speculations on the
-characters and probable circumstances of those with whom we are brought
-in contact. Our editorial duties require that it should be so. How
-should we cater for the public did we not observe the public in all its
-moods? We thought that we could see at once that this was no ordinary
-man, and we may as well aver here, at the beginning of our story, that
-subsequent circumstances proved our first conceptions to be correct.
-The absolute features of the gentleman we did not, indeed, see plainly.
-The gloom of the place and our own deficiency of sight forbade it. But
-we could discern the thorough man of the world, the traveller who had
-seen many climes, the cosmopolitan to whom East and West were alike, in
-every motion that he made. We confess that we were anxious for
-conversation, and that we struggled within ourselves for an apt subject,
-thinking how we might begin. But the apt subject did not occur to us,
-and we should have passed that half-hour of repose in silence had not
-our companion been more ready than ourselves. “Sir,” said he, turning
-round in his seat with a peculiar and captivating grace, “I shall not, I
-hope, offend or transgress any rule of politeness by speaking to a
-stranger.” There was ease and dignity in his manner, and at the same
-time some slight touch of humour which was very charming. I thought that
-I detected just a hint of an Irish accent in his tone; but if so the
-dear brogue of his country, which is always delightful to me, had been
-so nearly banished by intercourse with other tongues as to leave the
-matter still a suspicion,--a suspicion, or rather a hope.
-
-“By no means,” we answered, turning round on our left shoulder, but
-missing the grace with which he had made his movement.
-
-“There is nothing,” said he, “to my mind so absurd as that two men
-should be seated together for an hour without venturing to open their
-mouths because they do not know each other. And what matter does it make
-whether a man has his breeches on or is without them?”
-
-My hope had now become an assurance. As he named the article of clothing
-which peculiarly denotes a man he gave a picturesque emphasis to the
-word which was certainly Hibernian. Who does not know the dear sound?
-And, as a chance companion for a few idle minutes, is there any one so
-likely to prove himself agreeable as a well-informed, travelled
-Irishman?
-
-“And yet,” said we, “men do depend much on their outward paraphernalia.”
-
-“Indeed and they do,” said our friend. “And why? Because they can trust
-their tailors when they can’t trust themselves. Give me the man who can
-make a speech without any of the accessories of the pulpit, who can
-preach what sermon there is in him without a pulpit.” His words were
-energetic, but his voice was just suited to the place. Had he spoken
-aloud, so that others might have heard him, we should have left our
-chair, and have retreated to one of the inner and hotter rooms at the
-moment. His words were perfectly audible, but he spoke in a fitting
-whisper. “It is a part of my creed,” he continued, “that we should never
-lose even a quarter of an hour. What a strange mass of human beings one
-finds in this city of London!”
-
-“A mighty maze, but not without a plan,” we replied.
-
-“Bedad,--and it’s hard enough to find the plan,” said he. It struck me
-that after that he rose into a somewhat higher flight of speech, as
-though he had remembered and was desirous of dropping his country. It is
-the customary and perhaps the only fault of an Irishman. “Whether it be
-there or not, we can expatiate free, as the poet says. How
-unintelligible is London! New York or Constantinople one can
-understand,--or even Paris. One knows what the world is doing in these
-cities, and what men desire.”
-
-“What men desire is nearly the same in all cities,” we remarked,--and
-not without truth as we think.
-
-“Is it money you mane?” he said, again relapsing. “Yes; money, no doubt,
-is the grand desideratum,--the ‘to prepon,’ the ‘to kalon’ the ‘to
-pan!’” Plato and Pope were evidently at his fingers’ ends. We did not
-conclude from this slight evidence that he was thoroughly imbued with
-the works either of the poet or the philosopher; but we hold that for
-the ordinary purposes of conversation a superficial knowledge of many
-things goes further than an intimacy with one or two. “Money,” continued
-he, “is everything, no doubt;--rem--rem; rem, si possis recte, si
-non,----; you know the rest. I don’t complain of that. I like money
-myself. I know its value. I’ve had it, and,--I’m not ashamed to say it,
-Sir,--I’ve been without it.”
-
-“Our sympathies are completely with you in reference to the latter
-position,” we said,--remembering, with a humility that we hope is
-natural to us, that we were not always editors.
-
-“What I complain of is,” said our new friend still whispering, as he
-passed his hand over his arms and legs, to learn whether the temperature
-of the room was producing its proper effect, “that if a man here in
-London have a diamond, or a pair of boots, or any special skill at his
-command, he cannot take his article to the proper mart, and obtain for
-it the proper price.”
-
-“Can he do that in Constantinople?” we enquired.
-
-“Much better and more accurately than he can in London. And so he can in
-Paris!” We did not believe this; but as we were thinking after what
-fashion we would express our doubts, he branched off so quickly to a
-matter of supply and demand with which we were specially interested,
-that we lost the opportunity of arguing the general question. “A man of
-letters,” he said, “a capable and an instructed man of letters, can
-always get a market for his wares in Paris.”
-
-“A capable and instructed man of letters will do so in London,” we said,
-“as soon as he has proved his claims. He must prove them in Paris before
-they can be allowed.”
-
-“Yes;--he must prove them. By-the-bye, will you have a cheroot?” So
-saying, he stretched out his hand, and took from the marble slab beside
-him two cheroots which he had placed there. He then proceeded to explain
-that he did not bring in his case because of the heat, but that he was
-always “muni,”--that was his phrase,--with a couple, in the hope that he
-might meet an acquaintance with whom to share them. I accepted his
-offer, and when we had walked round the chamber to a light provided for
-the purpose, we reseated ourselves. His manner of moving about the place
-was so good that I felt it to be a pity that he should ever have a rag
-on more than he wore at present. His tobacco, I must own, did not
-appear to me to be of the first class; but then I am not in the habit of
-smoking cheroots, and am no judge of the merits of the weed as grown in
-the East. “Yes;--a man in Paris must prove his capability; but then how
-easily he can do it, if the fact to be proved be there! And how certain
-is the mart, if he have the thing to sell!”
-
-We immediately denied that in this respect there was any difference
-between the two capitals, pointing out what we believe to be a
-fact,--that in one capital as in the other, there exists, and must ever
-exist, extreme difficulty in proving the possession of an art so
-difficult to define as capability of writing for the press. “Nothing but
-success can prove it,” we said, as we slapped our thigh with an energy
-altogether unbecoming our position as a Turkish bather.
-
-“A man may have a talent then, and he cannot use it till he have used
-it! He may possess a diamond, and cannot sell it till he have sold it!
-What is a man to do who wishes to engage himself in any of the
-multifarious duties of the English press? How is he to begin? In New
-York I can tell such a one where to go at once. Let him show in
-conversation that he is an educated man, and they will give him a trial
-on the staff of any news paper;--they will let him run his venture for
-the pages of any magazine. He may write his fingers off here, and not an
-editor of them all will read a word that he writes.”
-
-Here he touched us, and we were indignant. When he spoke of the
-magazines we knew that he was wrong. “With newspapers,” we said, “we
-imagine it to be impossible that contributions from the outside world
-should be looked at; but papers sent to the magazines,--at any rate to
-some of them,--are read.”
-
-“I believe,” said he, “that a little farce is kept up. They keep a boy
-to look at a line or two and then return the manuscript. The pages are
-filled by the old stock-writers, who are sure of the market let them
-send what they will,--padding-mongers who work eight hours a day, and
-hardly know what they write about.” We again loudly expressed our
-opinion that he was wrong, and that there did exist magazines, the
-managers of which were sedulously anxious to obtain the assistance of
-what he called literary capacity, wherever they could find it. Sitting
-there at the Turkish bath with nothing but a towel round us, we could
-not declare ourselves to a perfect stranger, and we think that as a rule
-editors should be impalpable;--but we did express our opinion very
-strongly.
-
-“And you believe,” said he, with something of scorn in his voice, “that
-if a man who had been writing English for the press in other
-countries,--in New York say, or in Doblin,--a man of undoubted capacity,
-mind you, were to make the attempt here, in London, he would get a
-hearing.”
-
-“Certainly he would,” said we.
-
-“And would any editor see him unless he came with an introduction from
-some special friend?”
-
-We paused a moment before we answered this, because the question was to
-us one having a very special meaning. Let an editor do his duty with
-ever so pure a conscience, let him spend all his days and half his
-nights reading manuscripts and holding the balance fairly between the
-public and those who wish to feed the public, let his industry be never
-so unwearied and his impartiality never so unflinching, still he will,
-if possible, avoid the pain of personally repelling those to whom he is
-obliged to give an unfavourable answer. But we at the Turkish bath were
-quite unknown to the outer world, and might hazard an opinion, as any
-stranger might have done. And we have seen very many such visitors as
-those to whom our friend alluded; and may, perhaps, see many more.
-
-“Yes,” said we. “An editor might or might not see such a gentleman:
-but, if pressed, no doubt he would. An English editor would be quite as
-likely to do so as a French editor.” This we declared with energy,
-having felt ourselves to be ruffled by the assertion that these things
-are managed better in Paris or in New York than in London.
-
-“Then, Mr. ----, would you give me an interview, if I call with a little
-manuscript which I have to-morrow morning?” said my Irish friend,
-addressing us with a beseeching tone, and calling us by the very name by
-which we are known among our neighbours and tradesmen. We felt that
-everything was changed between us, and that the man had plunged a dagger
-into us.
-
-Yes; he had plunged a dagger into us. Had we had our clothes on, had we
-felt ourselves to possess at the moment our usual form of life, we think
-that we could have rebuked him. As it was we could only rise from our
-chair, throw away the fag end of the filthy cheroot which he had given
-us, and clap our hands half-a-dozen times for the Asiatic to come and
-shampoo us. But the Irishman was at our elbow. “You will let me see you
-to-morrow?” he said. “My name is Molloy,--Michael Molloy. I have not a
-card about me, because my things are outside there.”
-
-“A card would do no good at all,” we said, again clapping our hands for
-the shampooer.
-
-“I may call, then?” said Mr. Michael Molloy.
-
-“Certainly;--yes, you can call if you please.” Then, having thus
-ungraciously acceded to the request made to us, we sat down on the
-marble bench and submitted ourselves to the black attendant. During the
-whole of the following operation, while the man was pummelling our
-breast and poking our ribs, and pinching our toes,--while he was washing
-us down afterwards, and reducing us gradually from the warm water to the
-cold,--we were thinking of Mr. Michael Molloy, and the manner in which
-he had entrapped us into a confidential conversation. The scoundrel must
-have plotted it from the very first, must have followed us into the
-bath, and taken his seat beside us with a deliberately premeditated
-scheme. He was, too, just the man whom we should not have chosen to see
-with a worthless magazine article in his hand. We think that we can be
-efficacious by letter, but we often feel ourselves to be weak when
-brought face to face with our enemies. At that moment our anger was hot
-against Mr. Molloy. And yet we were conscious of a something of pride
-which mingled with our feelings. It was clear to us that Mr. Molloy was
-no ordinary person; and it did in some degree gratify our feelings that
-such a one should have taken so much trouble to encounter us. We had
-found him to be a well-informed, pleasant gentleman; and the fact that
-he was called Molloy and desired to write for the magazine over which we
-presided, could not really be taken as detracting from his merits. There
-had doubtless been a fraud committed on us,--a palpable fraud. The man
-had extracted assurances from us by a false pretence that he did not
-know us. But then the idea, on his part, that anything could be gained
-by his doing so, was in itself a compliment to us. That such a man
-should take so much trouble to approach us,--one who could quote Horace
-and talk about the “to kalon,”--was an acknowledgment of our power. As
-we returned to the outer chamber we looked round to see Mr. Molloy in
-his usual garments, but he was not as yet there. We waited while we
-smoked one of our own cigars, but he came not. He had, so far, gained
-his aim; and, as we presumed, preferred to run the risk of too long a
-course of hot air to risking his object by seeing us again on that
-afternoon. At last we left the building, and are bound to confess that
-our mind dwelt much on Mr. Michael Molloy during the remainder of that
-evening.
-
-It might be that after all we should gain much by the singular mode of
-introduction which the man had adopted. He was certainly clever, and if
-he could write as well as he could talk his services might be of value.
-Punctually at the hour named he was announced, and we did not now for
-one moment think of declining the interview. Mr. Molloy had so far
-succeeded in his stratagem that we could not now resort to the certainly
-not unusual practice of declaring ourselves to be too closely engaged to
-see any one, and of sending him word that he should confide to writing
-whatever he might have to say to us. It had, too, occurred to us that,
-as Mr. Molloy had paid his three shillings and sixpence for the Turkish
-bath, he would not prove to be one of that class of visitors whose
-appeals to tender-hearted editors are so peculiarly painful. “I am
-willing to work day and night for my wife and children; and if you will
-use this short paper in your next number it will save us from starvation
-for a month! Yes, Sir, from,--starvation!” Who is to resist such an
-appeal as that, or to resent it? But the editor knows that he is bound
-in honesty to resist it altogether,--so to steel himself against it that
-it shall have no effect upon him, at least, as regards the magazine
-which is in his hands. And yet if the short thing be only decently
-written, if it be not absurdly bad, what harm will its publication do
-to anyone? If the waste,--let us call it waste,--of half-a-dozen pages
-will save a family from hunger for a month, will they not be well
-wasted? But yet, again, such tenderness is absolutely incompatible with
-common honesty,--and equally so with common prudence. We think that our
-readers will see the difficulty, and understand how an editor may wish
-to avoid those interviews with tattered gloves. But my friend, Mr.
-Michael Molloy, had had three and sixpence to spend on a Turkish bath,
-had had money wherewith to buy,--certainly, the very vilest of cigars.
-We thought of all this as Mr. Michael Molloy was ushered into our room.
-
-The first thing we saw was the tattered glove; and then we immediately
-recognised the stout middle-aged gentleman whom we had seen on the other
-side of Jermyn Street as we entered the bathing establishment. It had
-never before occurred to us that the two persons were the same, not
-though the impression made by the poverty-stricken appearance of the man
-in the street had remained distinct upon our mind. The features of the
-gentleman we had hardly even yet seen at all. Nevertheless we had known
-and distinctly recognised his outward gait and mien, both with and
-without his clothes. One tattered glove he now wore, and the other he
-carried in his gloved hand. As we saw this we were aware at once that
-all our preconception had been wrong, that that too common appeal would
-be made, and that we must resist it as best we might. There was still a
-certain jauntiness in his air as he addressed us. “I hope thin,” said he
-as we shook hands with him, “ye’ll not take amiss the little ruse by
-which we caught ye.”
-
-“It was a ruse then, Mr. Molloy?”
-
-“Divil a doubt o’ that, Mr. Editor.”
-
-“But you were coming to the Turkish bath independently of our visit
-there?”
-
-“Sorrow a bath I’d’ve cum to at all, only I saw you go into the place.
-I’d just three and ninepence in my pocket, and says I to myself, Mick,
-me boy, it’s a good investment. There was three and sixpence for them
-savages to rub me down, and threepence for the two cheroots from the
-little shop round the corner. I wish they’d been better for your sake.”
-
-It had been a plant from beginning to end, and the “to kalon” and the
-half-dozen words from Horace had all been parts of Mr. Molloy’s little
-game! And how well he had played it! The outward trappings of the man as
-we now saw them were poor and mean, and he was mean-looking too, because
-of his trappings. But there had been nothing mean about him as he
-strutted along with a blue-checked towel round his body. How well the
-fellow had understood it all, and had known his own capacity! “And now
-that you are here, Mr. Molloy, what can we do for you?” we said with as
-pleasant a smile as we were able to assume. Of course we knew what was
-to follow. Out came the roll of paper of which we had already seen the
-end projecting from his breast pocket, and we were assured that we
-should find the contents of it exactly the thing for our magazine. There
-is no longer any diffidence in such matters,--no reticence in preferring
-claims and singing one’s own praises. All that has gone by since
-competitive examination has become the order of the day. No man, no
-woman, no girl, no boy, hesitates now to declare his or her own
-excellence and capability. “It’s just a short thing on social manners,”
-said Mr. Molloy, “and if ye’ll be so good as to cast ye’r eye over it, I
-think ye’ll find I’ve hit the nail on the head. ‘The Five-o’clock
-Tay-table’ is what I’ve called it.”
-
-“Oh!--‘The Five-o’clock Tea-table.’”
-
-“Don’t ye like the name?”
-
-“About social manners, is it?”
-
-“Just a rap on the knuckles for some of ’em. Sharp, short, and
-decisive! I don’t doubt but what ye’ll like it.”
-
-To declare, as though by instinct, that that was not the kind of thing
-we wanted, was as much a matter of course as it is for a man buying a
-horse to say that he does not like the brute’s legs or that he falls
-away in his quarters. And Mr. Molloy treated our objection just as does
-the horse-dealer those of his customers. He assured us with a
-smile,--with a smile behind which we could see the craving eagerness of
-his heart,--that his little article was just the thing for us. Our
-immediate answer was of course ready. If he would leave the paper with
-us, we would look at it and return it if it did not seem to suit us.
-
-There is a half-promise about this reply which too often produces a
-false satisfaction in the breast of a beginner. With such a one it is
-the second interview which is to be dreaded. But my friend Mr. Molloy
-was not new to the work, and was aware that if possible he should make
-further use of the occasion which he had earned for himself at so
-considerable a cost. “Ye’ll read it;--will ye?” he said.
-
-“Oh, certainly. We’ll read it certainly.”
-
-“And ye’ll use it if ye can?”
-
-“As to that, Mr. Molloy, we can say nothing. We’ve got to look solely to
-the interest of the periodical.”
-
-“And, sure, what can ye do better for the periodical than print a paper
-like that, which there is not a lady at the West End of the town won’t
-be certain to read?”
-
-“At any rate we’ll look at it, Mr. Molloy,” said we, standing up from
-our chair.
-
-But still he hesitated in his going,--and did not go. “I’m a married
-man, Mr. ----,” he said. We simply bowed our head at the announcement.
-“I wish you could see Mrs. Molloy,” he added. We murmured something as
-to the pleasure it would give us to make the acquaintance of so
-estimable a lady. “There isn’t a betther woman than herself this side of
-heaven, though I say it that oughtn’t,” said he. “And we’ve three young
-ones.” We knew the argument that was coming;--knew it so well, and yet
-were so unable to accept it as any argument! “Sit down one moment, Mr.
-----,” he continued, “till I tell you a short story.” We pleaded our
-engagements, averring that they were peculiarly heavy at that moment.
-“Sure, and we know what that manes,” said Mr. Molloy. “It’s just,--walk
-out of this as quick as you came in. It’s that what it manes.” And yet
-as he spoke there was a twinkle of humour in his eye that was almost
-irresistible; and we ourselves,--we could not forbear to smile. When we
-smiled we knew that we were lost. “Come, now, Mr. Editor; when you think
-how much it cost me to get the inthroduction, you’ll listen to me for
-five minutes any way.”
-
-“We will listen to you,” we said, resuming our chair,--remembering as we
-did so the three-and-sixpence, the two cigars, the “to kalon,” the line
-from Pope, and the half line from Horace. The man had taken much trouble
-with the view of placing himself where he now was. When we had been all
-but naked together I had taken him to be the superior of the two, and
-what were we that we should refuse him an interview simply because he
-had wares to sell which we should only be too willing to buy at his
-price if they were fit for our use?
-
-Then he told his tale. As for Paris, Constantinople, and New York, he
-frankly admitted that he knew nothing of those capitals. When we
-reminded him, with some ill-nature as we thought afterwards, that he had
-assumed an intimacy with the current literature of the three cities, he
-told us that such remarks were “just the sparkling gims of conversation
-in which a man shouldn’t expect to find rale diamonds.” Of “Doblin” he
-knew every street, every lane, every newspaper, every editor; but the
-poverty, dependence, and general poorness of a provincial press had
-crushed him, and he had boldly resolved to try a fight in the
-“methropolis of litherature.” He referred us to the managers of the
-“Boyne Bouncer,” the “Clontarf Chronicle,” the “Donnybrook Debater,” and
-the “Echoes of Erin,” assuring us that we should find him to be as well
-esteemed as known in the offices of those widely-circulated
-publications. His reading he told us was unbounded, and the pen was as
-ready to his hand as is the plough to the hand of the husbandman. Did we
-not think it a noble ambition in him thus to throw himself into the
-great “areanay,” as he called it, and try his fortune in the
-“methropolis of litherature?” He paused for a reply, and we were driven
-to acknowledge that whatever might be said of our friend’s prudence, his
-courage was undoubted. “I’ve got it here,” said he. “I’ve got it all
-here.” And he touched his right breast with the fingers of his left
-hand, which still wore the tattered glove.
-
-He had succeeded in moving us. “Mr. Molloy,” we said, “we’ll read your
-paper, and we’ll then do the best we can for you. We must tell you
-fairly that we hardly like your subject, but if the writing be good you
-can try your hand at something else.”
-
-“Sure there’s nothing under the sun I won’t write about at your
-bidding.”
-
-“If we can be of service to you, Mr. Molloy, we will.” Then the editor
-broke down, and the man spoke to the man. “I need not tell you, Mr.
-Molloy, that the heart of one man of letters always warms to another.”
-
-“It was because I knew ye was of that sort that I followed ye in
-yonder,” he said, with a tear in his eye.
-
-The butter-boat of benevolence was in our hand, and we proceeded to pour
-out its contents freely. It is a vessel which an editor should lock up
-carefully; and, should he lose the key, he will not be the worse for the
-loss. We need not repeat here all the pretty things that we said to him,
-explaining to him from a full heart with how much agony we were often
-compelled to resist the entreaties of literary suppliants, declaring to
-him how we had longed to publish tons of manuscript,--simply in order
-that we might give pleasure to those who brought them to us. We told him
-how accessible we were to a woman’s tear, to a man’s struggle, to a
-girl’s face, and assured him of the daily wounds which were inflicted on
-ourselves by the impossibility of reconciling our duties with our
-sympathies. “Bedad, thin,” said Mr. Molloy, grasping our hand, “you’ll
-find none of that difficulty wid me. If you’ll sympathise like a man,
-I’ll work for you like a horse.” We assured him that we would, really
-thinking it probable that he might do some useful work for the magazine;
-and then we again stood up waiting for his departure.
-
-“Now I’ll tell ye a plain truth,” said he, “and ye may do just as ye
-plaise about it. There isn’t an ounce of tay or a pound of mait along
-with Mrs. Molloy this moment; and, what’s more, there isn’t a shilling
-between us to buy it. I never begged in my life;--not yet. But if you
-can advance me a sovereign on that manuscript it will save me from
-taking the coat on my back to a pawnbroker’s shop for whatever it’ll
-fetch there.” We paused a moment as we thought of it all, and then we
-handed him the coin for which he asked us. If the manuscript should be
-worthless the loss would be our own. We would not grudge a slice from
-the wholesome home-made loaf after we had used the butter-boat of
-benevolence. “It don’t become me,” said Mr. Molloy, “to thank you for
-such a thrifle as a loan of twenty shillings; but I’ll never forget the
-feeling that has made you listen to me, and that too after I had been
-rather down on you at thim baths.” We gave him a kindly nod of the head,
-and then he took his departure.
-
-“Ye’ll see me again anyways?” he said, and we promised that we would.
-
-We were anxious enough about the manuscript, but we could not examine it
-at that moment. When our office work was done we walked home with the
-roll in our pocket, speculating as we went on the probable character of
-Mr. Molloy. We still believed in him,--still believed in him in spite of
-the manner in which he had descended in his language, and had fallen
-into a natural flow of words which alone would not have given much
-promise of him as a man of letters. But a human being, in regard to his
-power of production, is the reverse of a rope. He is as strong as his
-strongest part, and remembering the effect which Molloy’s words had had
-upon us at the Turkish bath, we still thought that there must be
-something in him. If so, how pleasant would it be to us to place such a
-man on his legs,--modestly on his legs, so that he might earn for his
-wife and bairns that meat and tea which he had told us that they were
-now lacking. An editor is always striving to place some one modestly on
-his legs in literature,--on his or her,--striving, and alas! so often
-failing. Here had come a man in regard to whom, as I walked home with
-his manuscript in my pocket, I did feel rather sanguine.
-
-Of all the rubbish that I ever read in my life, that paper on the
-Five-o’clock Tea-table was, I think, the worst. It was not only vulgar,
-foolish, unconnected, and meaningless; but it was also ungrammatical and
-unintelligible even in regard to the wording of it. The very spelling
-was defective. The paper was one with which no editor, sub-editor, or
-reader would have found it necessary to go beyond the first ten lines
-before he would have known that to print it would have been quite out of
-the question. We went through with it because of our interest in the
-man; but as it was in the beginning, so it was to the end,--a farrago of
-wretched nonsense, so bad that no one, without experience in such
-matters, would believe it possible that even the writer should desire
-the publication of it! It seemed to us to be impossible that Mr. Molloy
-should ever have written a word for those Hibernian periodicals which he
-had named to us. He had got our sovereign; and with that, as far as we
-were concerned, there must be an end of Mr. Molloy. We doubted even
-whether he would come for his own manuscript.
-
-But he came. He came exactly at the hour appointed, and when we looked
-at his face we felt convinced that he did not doubt his own success.
-There was an air of expectant triumph about him which dismayed us. It
-was clear enough that he was confident that he should take away with him
-the full price of his article, after deducting the sovereign which he
-had borrowed. “You like it thin,” he said, before we had been able to
-compose our features to a proper form for the necessary announcement.
-
-“Mr. Molloy,” we said, “it will not do. You must believe us that it will
-not do.”
-
-“Not do?”
-
-“No, indeed. We need not explain further;--but,--but,--you had really
-better turn your hand to some other occupation.”
-
-“Some other occupa-ation!” he exclaimed, opening wide his eyes, and
-holding up both his hands.
-
-“Indeed we think so, Mr. Molloy.”
-
-“And you’ve read it?”
-
-“Every word of it;--on our honour.”
-
-“And you won’t have it?”
-
-“Well;--no, Mr. Molloy, certainly we cannot take it.”
-
-“Ye reject my article on the Five-o’clock Tay-table!” Looking into his
-face as he spoke, we could not but be certain that its rejection was to
-him as astonishing as would have been its acceptance to the readers of
-the magazine. He put his hand up to his head and stood wondering. “I
-suppose ye’d better choose your own subject for yourself,” he said, as
-though by this great surrender on his own part he was getting rid of all
-the difficulty on ours.
-
-“Mr. Molloy,” we began, “we may as well be candid with you----”
-
-“I’ll tell you what it is,” said he, “I’ve taken such a liking to you
-there’s nothing I won’t do to plaise ye. I’ll just put it in my pocket,
-and begin another for ye as soon as the children have had their bit of
-dinner.” At last we did succeed, or thought that we succeeded, in making
-him understand that we regarded the case as being altogether hopeless,
-and were convinced that it was beyond his powers to serve us. “And I’m
-to be turned off like that,” he said, bursting into open tears as he
-threw himself into a chair and hid his face upon the table. “Ah! wirra,
-wirra, what’ll I do at all? Sure, and didn’t I think it was fixed as
-firm between us as the Nelson monument? When ye handselled me with the
-money, didn’t I think it was as good as done and done?” I begged him not
-to regard the money, assuring him that he was welcome to the sovereign.
-“There’s my wife’ll be brought to bed any day,” he went on to say, “and
-not a ha’porth of anything ready for it! ’Deed, thin, and the world’s
-hard. The world’s very hard!” And this was he who had talked to me about
-Constantinople and New York at the baths, and had made me believe that
-he was a well-informed, well-to-do man of the world!
-
-Even now we did not suspect that he was lying to us. Why he should be
-such as he seemed to be was a mystery; but even yet we believed in him
-after a fashion. That he was sorely disappointed and broken-hearted
-because of his wife, was so evident to us, that we offered him another
-sovereign, regarding it as the proper price of that butter-boat of
-benevolence which we had permitted ourselves to use. But he repudiated
-our offer. “I’ve never begged,” said he, “and, for myself, I’d sooner
-starve. And Mary Jane would sooner starve than I should beg. It will be
-best for us both to put an end to ourselves and to have done with it.”
-This was very melancholy; and as he lay with his head upon the table, we
-did not see how we were to induce him to leave us.
-
-“You’d better take the sovereign,--just for the present,” we said.
-
-“Niver!” said he, looking up for a moment, “niver!” And still he
-continued to sob. About this period of the interview, which before it
-was ended was a very long interview, we ourselves made a suggestion the
-imprudence of which we afterwards acknowledged to ourselves. We offered
-to go to his lodgings and see his wife and children. Though the man
-could not write a good magazine article, yet he might be a very fitting
-object for our own personal kindness. And the more we saw of the man,
-the more we liked him,--in spite of his incapacity. “The place is so
-poor,” he said, objecting to our offer. After what had passed between
-us, we felt that that could be no reason against our visit, and we began
-for a moment to fear that he was deceiving us. “Not yet,” he cried, “not
-quite yet. I will try once again;--once again. You will let me see you
-once more?”
-
-“And you will take the other sovereign,” we said,--trying him. He should
-have had the other sovereign if he would have taken it; but we confess
-that had he done so then we should have regarded him as an impostor. But
-he did not take it, and left us in utter ignorance as to his true
-character.
-
-After an interval of three days he came again, and there was exactly the
-same appearance. He wore the same tattered gloves. He had not pawned his
-coat. There was the same hat,--shabby when observed closely, but still
-carrying a decent appearance when not minutely examined. In his face
-there was no sign of want, and at moments there was a cheeriness about
-him which was almost refreshing. “I’ve got a something this time that I
-think ye must like,--unless you’re harder to plaise than Rhadhamanthus.”
-So saying, he tendered me another roll of paper, which I at once opened,
-intending to read the first page of it. The essay was entitled the
-“Church of England;--a Question for the People.” It was handed to me as
-having been written within the last three days; and, from its bulk,
-might have afforded fair work for a fortnight to a writer accustomed to
-treat of subjects of such weight. As we had expected, the first page was
-unintelligible, absurd, and farcical. We began to be angry with
-ourselves for having placed ourselves in such a connection with a man so
-utterly unable to do that which he pretended to do. “I think I’ve hit it
-off now,” said he, watching our face as we were reading.
-
-The reader need not be troubled with a minute narrative of the
-circumstances as they occurred during the remainder of the interview.
-What had happened before was repeated very closely. He wondered, he
-remonstrated, he complained, and he wept. He talked of his wife and
-family, and talked as though up to this last moment he had felt
-confident of success. Judging from his face as he entered the room, we
-did not doubt but that he had been confident. His subsequent despair was
-unbounded, and we then renewed our offer to call on his wife. After some
-hesitation he gave us an address in Hoxton, begging us to come after
-seven in the evening if it were possible. He again declined the offer of
-money, and left us, understanding that we would visit his wife on the
-following evening. “You are quite sure about the manuscript?” he said as
-he left us. We replied that we were quite sure.
-
-On the following day we dined early at our club and walked in the
-evening to the address which Mr. Molloy had given us in Hoxton. It was a
-fine evening in August, and our walk made us very warm. The street named
-was a decent little street, decent as far as cleanliness and newness
-could make it; but there was a melancholy sameness about it, and an
-apparent absence of object, which would have been very depressing to our
-own spirits. It led nowhither, and had been erected solely with the view
-of accommodating decent people with small incomes. We at once priced the
-houses in our mind at ten and sixpence a week, and believed them to be
-inhabited by pianoforte-tuners, coach-builders, firemen, and
-public-office messengers. There was no squalor about the place, but it
-was melancholy, light-coloured and depressive. We made our way to No.
-14, and finding the door open entered the passage. “Come in,” cried the
-voice of our friend; and in the little front parlour we found him seated
-with a child on each knee, while a winning little girl of about twelve
-was sitting in a corner of the room, mending her stockings. The room
-itself and the appearance of all around us were the very opposite of
-what we had expected. Everything no doubt was plain,--was, in a certain
-sense, poor; but nothing was poverty-stricken. The children were
-decently clothed and apparently were well fed. Mr. Molloy himself, when
-he saw me, had that twinkle of humour in his eye which I had before
-observed, and seemed to be afflicted at the moment with none of that
-extreme agony which he had exhibited more than once in our presence.
-“Please, Sir, mother aint in from the hospital,--not yet,” said the
-little girl, rising up from her chair; but it’s past seven and she won’t
-be long. “This announcement created some surprise. We had indeed heard
-that of Mrs. Molloy which might make it very expedient that she should
-seek the accommodation of an hospital, but we could not understand that
-in such circumstances she should be able to come home regularly at
-seven o’clock in the evening. Then there was a twinkle in our friend
-Molloy’s eye which almost made us think for the moment that we had been
-made the subject of some, hitherto unintelligible, hoax. And yet there
-had been the man at the baths in Jermyn Street, and the two manuscripts
-had been in our hands, and the man had wept as no man weeps for a joke.
-“You would come, you know,” said Mr. Molloy, who had now put down the
-two bairns and had risen from his seat to greet us.
-
-“We are glad to see you so comfortable,” we replied.
-
-“Father is quite comfortable, Sir,” said the little girl. We looked into
-Mr. Molloy’s face and saw nothing but the twinkle in the eye. We had
-certainly been “done” by the most elaborate hoax that had ever been
-perpetrated. We did not regret the sovereign so much as those
-outpourings from the butter-boat of benevolence of which we felt that we
-had been cheated. “Here’s mother,” said the girl running to the door.
-Mr. Molloy stood grinning in the middle of the room with the youngest
-child again in his arms. He did not seem to be in the least ashamed of
-what he had done, and even at that moment conveyed to us more of liking
-for his affection for the little boy than of anger for the abominable
-prank that he had played us.
-
-That he had lied throughout was evident as soon as we saw Mrs. Molloy.
-Whatever ailment might have made it necessary that she should visit the
-hospital, it was not one which could interfere at all with her power of
-going and returning. She was a strong hearty-looking woman of about
-forty, with that mixture in her face of practical kindness with severity
-in details which we often see in strong-minded women who are forced to
-take upon themselves the management and government of those around them.
-She courtesied, and took off her bonnet and shawl, and put a bottle into
-a cupboard, as she addressed us. “Mick said as you was coming, Sir, and
-I’m sure we is glad to see you;--only sorry for the trouble, Sir.”
-
-We were so completely in the dark that we hardly knew how to be civil to
-her,--hardly knew whether we ought to be civil to her or not. “We don’t
-quite understand why we’ve been brought here,” we said, endeavouring to
-maintain, at any rate a tone of good-humour. He was still embracing the
-little boy, but there had now come a gleam of fun across his whole
-countenance, and he seemed to be almost shaking his sides with laughter.
-“Your husband represented himself as being in distress,” we said
-gravely. We were restrained by a certain delicacy from informing the
-woman of the kind of distress to which Mr. Molloy had especially
-alluded,--most falsely.
-
-“Lord love you, Sir,” said the woman, “just step in here.” Then she led
-us into a little back room in which there was a bedstead, and an old
-writing-desk or escritoire, covered with papers. Her story was soon
-told. Her husband was a madman.
-
-“Mad!” we said, preparing for escape from what might be to us most
-serious peril.
-
-“He wouldn’t hurt a mouse,” said Mrs. Molloy. “As for the children, he’s
-that good to them, there aint a young woman in all London that’d be
-better at handling ’em.” Then we heard her story, in which it appeared
-to us that downright affection for the man was the predominant
-characteristic. She herself was, as she told us, head day nurse at Saint
-Patrick’s Hospital, going there every morning at eight, and remaining
-till six or seven. For these services she received thirty shillings a
-week and her board, and she spoke of herself and her husband as being
-altogether removed from pecuniary distress. Indeed, while the money part
-of the question was being discussed, she opened a little drawer in the
-desk and handed us back our sovereign, almost without an observation.
-Molloy himself had “come of decent people.” On this point she insisted
-very often, and gave us to understand that he was at this moment in
-receipt of a pension of a hundred a year from his family. He had been
-well educated, she said, having been at Trinity College, Dublin, till he
-had been forced to leave his university for some slight, but repeated
-irregularity. Early in life he had proclaimed his passion for the press,
-and when he and she were married absolutely was earning a living in
-Dublin by some use of the scissors and paste-pot. The whole tenor of his
-career I could not learn, though Mrs. Molloy would have told us
-everything had time allowed. Even during the years of his sanity in
-Dublin he had only been half-sane, treating all the world around him
-with the effusions of his terribly fertile pen. “He’ll write all night
-if I’ll let him have a candle,” said Mrs. Molloy. We asked her why she
-did let him have a candle, and made some enquiry as to the family
-expenditure in paper. The paper, she said, was given to him from the
-office of a newspaper which she would not name, and which Molloy visited
-regularly every day. “There aint a man in all London works harder,” said
-Mrs. Molloy. “He is mad. I don’t say nothing against it. But there is
-some of it so beautiful, I wonder they don’t print it.” This was the
-only word she spoke with which we could not agree. “Ah, Sir,” said she;
-“you haven’t seen his poetry!” We were obliged to tell her that seeing
-poetry was the bane of our existence.
-
-There was an easy absence of sham about this woman, and an acceptance of
-life as it had come to her, which delighted us. She complained of
-nothing, and was only anxious to explain the little eccentricities of
-her husband. When we alluded to some of his marvellously untrue
-assertions, she stopped us at once. “He do lie,” she said. “Certainly he
-do. How he makes them all out is wonderful. But he wouldn’t hurt a fly.”
-It was evident to us that she not only loved her husband, but admired
-him. She showed us heaps of manuscript with which the old drawers were
-crammed; and yet that paper on the Church of England had been new work,
-done expressly for us.
-
-When the story had been told we went back to him, and he received us
-with a smile. “Good-bye, Molloy,” we said. “Good-bye to you, Sir,” he
-replied, shaking hands with us. We looked at him closely, and could
-hardly believe that it was the man who had sat by us at the Turkish
-bath.
-
-He never troubled us again or came to our office, but we have often
-called on him, and have found that others of our class do the same. We
-have even helped to supply him with the paper which he continues to
-use,--we presume for the benefit of other editors.
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-JOSEPHINE DE MONTMORENCI.
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-JOSEPHINE DE MONTMORENCI.
-
-
-The little story which we are about to relate refers to circumstances
-which occurred some years ago, and we desire therefore, that all readers
-may avoid the fault of connecting the personages of the tale,--either
-the editor who suffered so much, and who behaved, we think, so well, or
-the ladies with whom he was concerned,--with any editor or with any
-ladies known to such readers either personally or by name. For though
-the story as told is a true story, we who tell it have used such craft
-in the telling, that we defy the most astute to fix the time or to
-recognise the characters. It will be sufficient if the curious will
-accept it as a fact that at some date since magazines became common in
-the land, a certain editor, sitting in his office, came upon the
-perusal of the following letter, addressed to him by name:--
-
-“19, King-Charles Street,
-
-“1st May, 18--.
-
-“DEAR SIR,
-
- “I think that literature needs no introduction, and, judging of you
- by the character which you have made for yourself in its paths, I
- do not doubt but you will feel as I do. I shall therefore write to
- you without reserve. I am a lady not possessing that modesty which
- should make me hold a low opinion of my own talents, and equally
- free from that feeling of self-belittlement which induces so many
- to speak humbly while they think proudly of their own acquirements.
- Though I am still young, I have written much for the press, and I
- believe I may boast that I have sometimes done so successfully.
- Hitherto I have kept back my name, but I hope soon to be allowed to
- see it on the title-page of a book which shall not shame me.
-
- “My object in troubling you is to announce the fact, agreeable
- enough to myself, that I have just completed a novel in three
- volumes, and to suggest to you that it should make its first
- appearance to the world in the pages of the magazine under your
- control. I will frankly tell you that I am not myself fond of this
- mode of publication; but Messrs. X., Y., Z., of Paternoster Row,
- with whom you are doubtless acquainted, have assured me that such
- will be the better course. In these matters one is still terribly
- subject to the tyranny of the publishers, who surely of all
- cormorants are the most greedy, and of all tyrants are the most
- arrogant. Though I have never seen you, I know you too well to
- suspect for a moment that my words will ever be repeated to my
- respectable friends in the Row.
-
- “Shall I wait upon you with my MS.,--or will you call for it? Or
- perhaps it may be better that I should send it to you. Young ladies
- should not run about,--even after editors; and it might be so
- probable that I should not find you at home. Messrs. X., Y., and Z.
- have read the MS.,--or more probably the young man whom they keep
- for the purpose has done so,--and the nod of approval has been
- vouchsafed. Perhaps this may suffice; but if a second examination
- be needful, the work is at your service.
-
-“Yours faithfully, and in hopes of friendly relations,
-
-“JOSEPHINE DE MONTMORENCI.
-
- “I am English, though my unfortunate name will sound French in your
- ears.”
-
-For facility in the telling of our story we will call this especial
-editor Mr. Brown. Mr. Brown’s first feeling on reading the letter was
-decidedly averse to the writer. But such is always the feeling of
-editors to would-be contributors, though contributions are the very food
-on which an editor must live. But Mr. Brown was an unmarried man, who
-loved the rustle of feminine apparel, who delighted in the brightness of
-a woman’s eye when it would be bright for him, and was not indifferent
-to the touch of a woman’s hand. As editors go, or went then, he knew his
-business, and was not wont to deluge his pages with weak feminine ware
-in return for smiles and flattering speeches,--as editors have done
-before now; but still he liked an adventure, and was perhaps afflicted
-by some slight flaw of judgment, in consequence of which the words of
-pretty women found with him something of preponderating favour. Who is
-there that will think evil of him because it was so?
-
-He read the letter a second time, and did not send that curt,
-heart-rending answer which is so common to editors,--“The editor’s
-compliments and thanks, but his stock of novels is at present so great
-that he cannot hope to find room for the work which has been so kindly
-suggested.”
-
-Of King-Charles Street, Brown could not remember that he had ever heard,
-and he looked it out at once in the Directory. There was a King-Charles
-Street in Camden Town, at No. 19 of which street it was stated that a
-Mr. Puffle resided. But this told him nothing. Josephine de Montmorenci
-might reside with Mrs. Puffle in Camden Town, and yet write a good
-novel,--or be a very pretty girl. And there was a something in the tone
-of the letter which made him think that the writer was no ordinary
-person. She wrote with confidence. She asked no favour. And then she
-declared that Messrs. X., Y., Z., with whom Mr. Brown was intimate, had
-read and approved her novel. Before he answered the note he would call
-in the Row and ask a question or two.
-
-He did call, and saw Mr. Z. Mr. Z. remembered well that the MS. had been
-in their house. He rather thought that X., who was out of town, had seen
-Miss Montmorenci,--perhaps on more than one occasion. The novel had been
-read, and,--well, Mr. Z. would not quite say approved; but it had been
-thought that there was a good deal in it. “I think I remember X. telling
-me that she was an uncommon pretty young woman,” said Z.,--“and there is
-some mystery about her. I didn’t see her myself, but I am sure there was
-a mystery.” Mr. Brown made up his mind that he would, at any rate, see
-the MS.
-
-He felt disposed to go at once to Camden Town, but still had fears that
-in doing so he might seem to make himself too common. There are so many
-things of which an editor is required to think! It is almost essential
-that they who are ambitious of serving under him should believe that he
-is enveloped in MSS. from morning to night,--that he cannot call an hour
-his own,--that he is always bringing out that periodical of his in a
-frenzy of mental exertion,--that he is to be approached only with
-difficulty,--and that a call from him is a visit from a god. Mr. Brown
-was a Jupiter, willing enough on occasions to go a little out of his way
-after some literary Leda, or even on behalf of a Danae desirous of a
-price for her compositions;--but he was obliged to acknowledge to
-himself that the occasion had not as yet arisen. So he wrote to the
-young lady as follows:--
-
-“Office of the Olympus Magazine,
-
-“4th May, 18--.
-
- “The Editor presents his compliments to Miss de Montmorenci, and
- will be very happy to see her MS. Perhaps she will send it to the
- above address. The Editor has seen Mr. Z., of Paternoster Row, who
- speaks highly of the work. A novel, however, may be very clever and
- yet hardly suit a magazine. Should it be accepted by the ‘Olympus,’
- some time must elapse before it appears. The Editor would be very
- happy to see Miss de Montmorenci if it would suit her to call any
- Friday between the hours of two and three.”
-
-When the note was written Mr. Brown felt that it was cold;--but then it
-behoves an editor to be cold. A gushing editor would ruin any
-publication within six months. Young women are very nice; pretty young
-women are especially nice; and of all pretty young women, clever young
-women who write novels are perhaps as nice as any;--but to an editor
-they are dangerous. Mr. Brown was at this time about forty, and had had
-his experiences. The letter was cold, but he was afraid to make it
-warmer. It was sent;--and when he received the following answer, it may
-fairly be said that his editorial hair stood on end:
-
- “DEAR MR. BROWN,
-
- “I hate you and your compliments. That sort of communication means
- nothing, and I won’t send you my MS. unless you are more in
- earnest about it. I know the way in which rolls of paper are shoved
- into pigeon-holes and left there till they are musty, while the
- writers’ hearts are being broken. My heart may be broken some day,
- but not in that way.
-
- “I won’t come to you between two and three on Friday. It sounds a
- great deal too like a doctor’s appointment, and I don’t think much
- of you if you are only at your work one hour in the week. Indeed, I
- won’t go to you at all. If an interview is necessary you can come
- here. But I don’t know that it will be necessary.
-
- “Old X. is a fool and knows nothing about it. My own approval is to
- me very much more than his. I don’t suppose he’d know the inside of
- a book if he saw it. I have given the very best that is in me to my
- work, and I know that it is good. Even should you say that it is
- not I shall not believe you. But I don’t think you will say so,
- because I believe you to be in truth a clever fellow in spite of
- your ‘compliments’ and your ‘two and three o’clock on a Friday.’
-
- “If you want to see my MS., say so with some earnestness, and it
- shall be conveyed to you. And please to say how much I shall be
- paid for it, for I am as poor as Job. And name a date. I won’t be
- put off with your ‘some time must elapse.’ It shall see the light,
- or, at least, a part of it, within six months. That is my
- intention. And don’t talk nonsense to me about clever novels not
- suiting magazines,--unless you mean that as an excuse for
- publishing so many stupid ones as you do.
-
- “You will see that I am frank; but I really do mean what I say. I
- want it to come out in the ‘Olympus;’ and if we can I shall be so
- happy to come to terms with you.
-
-“Yours as I find you,
-
-“JOSEPHINE DE MONTMORENCI.”
-
-“Thursday--King-Charles Street.”
-
-
-
-This was an epistle to startle an editor as coming from a young lady;
-but yet there was something in it that seemed to imply strength. Before
-answering it Mr. Brown did a thing which he must be presumed to have
-done as man and not as editor. He walked off to King-Charles Street in
-Camden Town, and looked at the house. It was a nice little street, very
-quiet, quite genteel, completely made up with what we vaguely call
-gentlemen’s houses, with two windows to each drawing-room, and with a
-balcony to some of them, the prettiest balcony in the street belonging
-to No. 19, near the park, and equally removed from poverty and
-splendour. Brown walked down the street, on the opposite side, towards
-the park, and looked up at the house. He intended to walk at once
-homewards, across the park, to his own little home in St. John’s Wood
-Road; but when he had passed half a street away from the Puffle
-residence, he turned to have another look, and retraced his steps. As he
-passed the door it was opened, and there appeared upon the steps,--one
-of the prettiest little women he had ever seen in his life. She was
-dressed for walking, with that jaunty, broad, open bonnet which women
-then wore, and seemed, as some women do seem, to be an amalgam of
-softness, prettiness, archness, fun, and tenderness,--and she carried a
-tiny blue parasol. She was fair, gray-eyed, dimpled, all alive, and
-dressed so nicely and yet simply, that Mr. Brown was carried away for
-the moment by a feeling that he would like to publish her novel, let it
-be what it might. And he heard her speak. “Charles,” she said, “you
-sha’n’t smoke.” Our editor could, of course, only pass on, and had not
-an opportunity of even seeing Charles. At the corner of the street he
-turned round and saw them walking the other way. Josephine was leaning
-on Charles’s arm. She had, however, distinctly avowed herself to be a
-young lady,--in other words, an unmarried woman. There was, no doubt, a
-mystery, and Mr. Brown felt it to be incumbent on him to fathom it. His
-next letter was as follows:--
-
- “MY DEAR MISS DE MONTMORENCI,
-
- “I am sorry that you should hate me and my compliments. I had
- intended to be as civil and as nice as possible. I am quite in
- earnest, and you had better send the MS. As to all the questions
- you ask, I cannot answer them to any purpose till I have read the
- story,--which I will promise to do without subjecting it to the
- pigeon-holes. If you do not like Friday, you shall come on Monday,
- or Tuesday, or Wednesday, or Thursday, or Saturday, or even on
- Sunday, if you wish it;--and at any hour, only let it be fixed.
-
-“Yours faithfully,
-
-“JONATHAN BROWN.”
-
- “Friday.”
-
-In the course of the next week the novel came, with another short note,
-to which was attached no ordinary beginning or ending. “I send my
-treasure, and, remember, I will have it back in a week if you do not
-intend to keep it. I have not £5 left in the world, and I owe my
-milliner ever so much, and money at the stables where I get a horse. And
-I am determined to go to Dieppe in July. All must come out of my novel.
-So do be a good man. If you are I will see you.” Herein she declared
-plainly her own conviction that she had so far moved the editor by her
-correspondence,--for she knew nothing, of course, of that ramble of his
-through King-Charles Street,--as to have raised in his bosom a desire to
-see her. Indeed, she made no secret of such conviction. “Do as I wish,”
-she said plainly, “and I will gratify you by a personal interview.” But
-the interview was not to be granted till the novel had been accepted and
-the terms fixed,--such terms, too, as it would be very improbable that
-any editor could accord.
-
-“Not so Black as he’s Painted;”--that was the name of the novel which it
-now became the duty of Mr. Brown to read. When he got it home, he found
-that the writing was much worse than that of the letters. It was small,
-and crowded, and carried through without those technical demarcations
-which are so comfortable to printers, and so essential to readers. The
-erasures were numerous, and bits of the story were written, as it were,
-here and there. It was a manuscript to which Mr. Brown would not have
-given a second glance, had there not been an adventure behind it. The
-very sending of such a manuscript to any editor would have been an
-impertinence, if it were sent by any but a pretty woman. Mr. Brown,
-however, toiled over it, and did read it,--read it, or at least enough
-of it to make him know what it was. The verdict which Mr. Z. had given
-was quite true. No one could have called the story stupid. No mentor
-experienced in such matters would have ventured on such evidence to tell
-the aspirant that she had mistaken her walk in life, and had better sit
-at home and darn her stockings. Out of those heaps of ambitious
-manuscripts which are daily subjected to professional readers such
-verdicts may safely be given in regard to four-fifths,--either that the
-aspirant should darn her stockings, or that he should prune his fruit
-trees. It is equally so with the works of one sex as with those of the
-other. The necessity of saying so is very painful, and the actual
-stocking, or the fruit tree itself, is not often named. The cowardly
-professional reader indeed, unable to endure those thorns in the flesh
-of which poor Thackeray spoke so feelingly, when hard-pressed for
-definite answers, generally lies. He has been asked to be candid, but he
-cannot bring himself to undertake a duty so onerous, so odious, and one
-as to which he sees so little reason that he personally should perform
-it. But in regard to these aspirations,--to which have been given so
-much labour, which have produced so many hopes, offsprings which are so
-dear to the poor parents,--the decision at least is easy. And there are
-others in regard to which a hopeful reader finds no difficulty,--as to
-which he feels assured that he is about to produce to the world the
-fruit of some new-found genius. But there are doubtful cases which worry
-the poor judge till he knows not how to trust his own judgment. At this
-page he says, “Yes, certainly;” at the next he shakes his head as he
-sits alone amidst his papers. Then he is dead against the aspirant.
-Again there is improvement, and he asks himself,--where is he to find
-anything that is better? As our editor read Josephine’s novel,--he had
-learned to call her Josephine in that silent speech in which most of us
-indulge, and which is so necessary to an editor,--he was divided between
-Yes and No throughout the whole story. Once or twice he found himself
-wiping his eyes, and then it was all “yes” with him. Then he found the
-pages ran with a cruel heaviness, which seemed to demand decisive
-editorial severity. A whole novel, too, is so great a piece of business!
-There would be such difficulty were he to accept it! How much must he
-cut out! How many of his own hours must he devote to the repairing of
-mutilated sentences, and the remodelling of indistinct scenes! In regard
-to a small piece an editor, when moved that way, can afford to be
-good-natured. He can give to it the hour or so of his own work which it
-may require. And if after all it be nothing--or, as will happen
-sometimes, much worse than nothing,--the evil is of short duration. In
-admitting such a thing he has done an injury,--but the injury is small.
-It passes in the crowd, and is forgotten. The best Homer that ever
-edited must sometimes nod. But a whole novel! A piece of work that would
-last him perhaps for twelve months! No editor can afford to nod for so
-long a period.
-
-But then this tale, this novel of “Not so Black as he’s Painted,” this
-story of a human devil, for whose crimes no doubt some Byronic apology
-was made with great elaboration by the sensational Josephine, was not
-exactly bad. Our editor had wept over it. Some tender-hearted Medora,
-who on behalf of her hyena-in-love had gone through miseries enough to
-kill half a regiment of heroines, had dimmed the judge’s eyes with
-tears. What stronger proof of excellence can an editor have? But then
-there were those long pages of metaphysical twaddle, sure to elicit
-scorn and neglect from old and young. They, at any rate, must be cut
-out. But in the cutting of them out a very mincemeat would be made of
-the story. And yet Josephine de Montmorenci, with her impudent little
-letters, had already made herself so attractive! What was our editor to
-do?
-
-He knew well the difficulty that would be before him should he once dare
-to accept, and then undertake to alter. She would be as a tigress to
-him,--as a tigress fighting for her young. That work of altering is so
-ungracious, so precarious, so incapable of success in its performance!
-The long-winded, far-fetched, high-stilted, unintelligible sentence
-which you elide with so much confidence in your judgment, has been the
-very apple of your author’s eye. In it she has intended to convey to the
-world the fruits of her best meditation for the last twelve months.
-Thinking much over many things in her solitude, she has at last invented
-a truth, and there it lies. That wise men may adopt it, and candid women
-admire it, is the hope, the solace, and at last almost the certainty of
-her existence. She repeats the words to herself, and finds that they
-will form a choice quotation to be used in coming books. It is for the
-sake of that one newly-invented truth,--so she tells herself, though not
-quite truly,--that she desires publication. You come,--and with a dash
-of your pen you annihilate the precious gem! Is it in human nature that
-you should be forgiven? Mr. Brown had had his experiences, and
-understood all this well. Nevertheless he loved dearly to please a
-pretty woman.
-
-And it must be acknowledged that the letters of Josephine were such as
-to make him sure that there might be an adventure if he chose to risk
-the pages of his magazine. The novel had taken him four long evenings to
-read, and at the end of the fourth he sat thinking of it for an hour.
-Fortune either favoured him or the reverse,--as the reader may choose to
-regard the question,--in this, that there was room for the story in his
-periodical if he chose to take it. He wanted a novel,--but then he did
-not want feminine metaphysics. He sat thinking of it, wondering in his
-mind how that little smiling, soft creature with the gray eyes, and the
-dimples, and the pretty walking-dress, could have written those
-interminable pages as to the questionable criminality of crime; whether
-a card-sharper might not be a hero; whether a murderer might not
-sacrifice his all, even the secret of his murder, for the woman he
-loved; whether devil might not be saint, and saint devil. At the end of
-the hour he got up from his chair, stretched himself, with his hands in
-his trousers-pockets, and said aloud, though alone, that he’d be d----
-if he would. It was an act of great self-denial, a triumph of principle
-over passion.
-
-But though he had thus decided, he was not minded to throw over
-altogether either Josephine or her novel. He might still, perhaps, do
-something for her if he could find her amenable to reason. Thinking
-kindly of her, very anxious to know her personally, and still desirous
-of seeing the adventure to the end, he wrote the following note to her
-that evening:--
-
-‘Cross Bank, St. John’s Wood,
-
-“Saturday Night.
-
-“MY DEAR MISS DE MONTMORENCI,
-
- “I knew how it would be. I cannot give you an answer about your
- novel without seeing you. It so often happens that the answer can’t
- be Yes or No. You said something very cruel about dear old X., but
- after all he was quite right in his verdict about the book. There
- is a great deal in it; but it evidently was not written to suit
- the pages of a magazine. Will you come to me, or shall I come to
- you;--or shall I send the MS. back, and so let there be an end of
- it? You must decide. If you direct that the latter course be taken,
- I will obey; but I shall do so with most sincere regret, both on
- account of your undoubted aptitude for literary work, and because I
- am very anxious to become acquainted with my fair correspondent.
- You see I can be as frank as you are yourself.
-
-“Yours most faithfully,
-
-“JONATHAN BROWN.
-
-
-
-“My advice to you would be to give up the idea of publishing this tale
-in parts, and to make terms with X., Y., and Z.,--in endeavouring to do
-which I shall be most happy to be of service to you.’
-
- * * * * *
-
-This note he posted on the following day, and when he returned home on
-the next night from his club, he found three replies from the divine,
-but irritable and energetic, Josephine. We will give them according to
-their chronology.
-
-No. 1. “Monday Morning.--Let me have my MS. back,--and pray, without any
-delay.--J. DE M.”
-
- * * * * *
-
-No. 2. “Monday, 2 o’clock.--How can you have been so ill-natured,--and
-after keeping it twelve days?” His answer had been written within a week
-of the receipt of the parcel at his office, and he had acted with a
-rapidity which nothing but some tender passion would have
-instigated.--“What you say about being clever, and yet not fit for a
-magazine, is rubbish. I know it is rubbish. I do not wish to see you.
-Why should I see a man who will do nothing to oblige me? If X., Y., Z.
-choose to buy it, at once, they shall have it. But I mean to be paid for
-it, and I think you have behaved very ill to me.--JOSEPHINE.”
-
-No. 3. “Monday Evening.--My dear Mr. Brown,--Can you wonder that I
-should have lost my temper and almost my head? I have written twice
-before to-day, and hardly know what I said. I cannot understand you
-editing people. You are just like women;--you will and you won’t. I am
-so unhappy. I had allowed myself to feel almost certain that you would
-take it, and have told that cross man at the stables he should have his
-money. Of course I can’t make you publish it;--but how you can put in
-such yards of stupid stuff, all about nothing on earth, and then send
-back a novel which you say yourself is very clever, is what I can’t
-understand. I suppose it all goes by favour, and the people who write
-are your uncles, and aunts, and grandmothers, and lady-loves. I can’t
-make you do it, and therefore I suppose I must take your advice about
-those old hugger-muggers in Paternoster Row. But there are ever so many
-things you must arrange. I must have the money at once. And I won’t put
-up with just a few pounds. I have been at work upon that novel for more
-than two years, and I know that it is good. I hate to be grumbled at,
-and complained of, and spoken to as if a publisher were doing me the
-greatest favour in the world when he is just going to pick my brains to
-make money of them. I did see old X., or old Z., or old Y., and the
-snuffy old fellow told me that if I worked hard I might do something
-some day. I have worked harder than ever he did,--sitting there and
-squeezing brains, and sucking the juice out of them like an old ghoul. I
-suppose I had better see you, because of money and all that. I’ll come,
-or else send some one, at about two on Wednesday. I can’t put it off
-till Friday, and I must be home by three. You might as well go to X.,
-Y., Z., in the meantime, and let me know what they say.--J. DE M.”
-
-There was an unparalleled impudence in all this which affronted,
-amazed, and yet in part delighted our editor. Josephine evidently
-regarded him as her humble slave, who had already received such favours
-as entitled her to demand from him any service which she might require
-of him. “You might as well go to X., Y., Z., and let me know what they
-say!” And then that direct accusation against him,--that all went by
-favour with him! “I think you have behaved very ill to me!” Why,--had he
-not gone out of his way, very much out of his way indeed, to do her a
-service? Was he not taking on her behalf an immense trouble for which he
-looked for no remuneration,--unless remuneration should come in that
-adventure of which she had but a dim foreboding? All this was
-unparalleled impudence. But then impudence from pretty women is only
-sauciness; and such sauciness is attractive. None but a very pretty
-woman who openly trusted in her prettiness would dare to write such
-letters, and the girl whom he had seen on the door-step was very pretty.
-As to his going to X., Y., Z., before he had seen her, that was out of
-the question. That very respectable firm in the Row would certainly not
-give money for a novel without considerable caution, without much
-talking, and a regular understanding and bargain. As a matter of course,
-they would take time to consider. X., Y., and Z. were not in a hurry to
-make money to pay a milliner or to satisfy a stable-keeper, and would
-have but little sympathy for such troubles;--all which it would be Mr.
-Brown’s unpleasant duty to explain to Josephine de Montmorenci.
-
-But though this would be unpleasant, still there might be pleasure. He
-could foresee that there would be a storm, with much pouting, some
-violent complaint, and perhaps a deluge of tears. But it would be for
-him to dry the tears and allay the storm. The young lady could do him no
-harm, and must at last be driven to admit that his kindness was
-disinterested. He waited, therefore, for the Wednesday, and was careful
-to be at the office of his magazine at two o’clock. In the ordinary way
-of his business the office would not have seen him on that day, but the
-matter had now been present in his mind so long, and had been so much
-considered, had assumed so large a proportion in his thoughts,--that he
-regarded not at all this extra trouble. With an air of indifference he
-told the lad who waited upon him as half clerk and half errand-boy, that
-he expected a lady; and then he sat down, as though to compose himself
-to his work. But no work was done. Letters were not even opened. His
-mind was full of Josephine de Montmorenci. If all the truth is to be
-told, it must be acknowledged that he did not even wear the clothes that
-were common to him when he sat in his editorial chair. He had prepared
-himself somewhat, and a new pair of gloves was in his hat. It might be
-that circumstances would require him to accompany Josephine at least a
-part of the way back to Camden Town.
-
-At half-past two the lady was announced,--Miss de Montmorenci; and our
-editor, with palpitating heart, rose to welcome the very figure, the
-very same pretty walking-dress, the same little blue parasol, which he
-had seen upon the steps of the house in King-Charles Street. He could
-swear to the figure, and to the very step, although he could not as yet
-see the veiled face. And this was a joy to him; for, though he had not
-allowed himself to doubt much, he had doubted a little whether that
-graceful houri might or might not be his Josephine. Now she was there,
-present to him in his own castle, at his mercy as it were, so that he
-might dry her tears and bid her hope, or tell her that there was no hope
-so that she might still weep on, just as he pleased. It was not one of
-those cases in which want of bread and utter poverty are to be
-discussed. A horsekeeper’s bill and a visit to Dieppe were the
-melodramatic incidents of the tragedy, if tragedy it must be. Mr. Brown
-had in his time dealt with cases in which a starving mother or a dying
-father was the motive to which appeal was made. At worst there could be
-no more than a rose-water catastrophe; and it might be that triumph, and
-gratitude, and smiles would come. He rose from his chair, and, giving
-his hand gracefully to his visitor, led her to a seat.
-
-“I am very glad to see you here, Miss de Montmorenci,” he said. Then the
-veil was raised, and there was the pretty face half blushing half
-smiling, wearing over all a mingled look of fun and fear.
-
-“We are so much obliged to you, Mr. Brown, for all the trouble you have
-taken,” she said.
-
-“Don’t mention it. It comes in the way of my business to take such
-trouble. The annoyance is in this, that I can so seldom do what is
-wanted.”
-
-“It is so good of you to do anything!”
-
-“An editor is, of course, bound to think first of the periodical which
-he produces.” This announcement Mr. Brown made, no doubt, with some
-little air of assumed personal dignity. The fact was one which no
-heaven-born editor ever forgets.
-
-“Of course, Sir. And no doubt there are hundreds who want to get their
-things taken.”
-
-“A good many there are, certainly.”
-
-“And everything can’t be published,” said the sagacious beauty.
-
-“No, indeed; very much comes into our hands which cannot be published,”
-replied the experienced editor. “But this novel of yours, perhaps, may
-be published.”
-
-“You think so?”
-
-“Indeed I do. I cannot say what X., Y., and Z. may say to it. I’m afraid
-they will not do more than offer half profits.”
-
-“And that doesn’t mean any money paid at once?” asked the lady
-plaintively.
-
-“I’m afraid not.”
-
-“Ah! if that could be managed!”
-
-“I haven’t seen the publishers, and of course I can say nothing myself.
-You see I’m so busy myself with my uncles, and aunts, and grandmothers,
-and lady-loves----”
-
-“Ah,--that was very naughty, Mr. Brown.”
-
-“And then, you know, I have so many yards of stupid stuff to arrange.”
-
-“Oh, Mr. Brown, you should forget all that!”
-
-“So I will. I could not resist the temptation of telling you of it
-again, because you are so much mistaken in your accusation. And now
-about your novel.”
-
-“It isn’t mine, you know.”
-
-“Not yours?”
-
-“Not my own, Mr. Brown.”
-
-“Then whose is it?”
-
-Mr. Brown, as he asked this question, felt that he had a right to be
-offended. “Are you not Josephine de Montmorenci?”
-
-“Me an author! Oh no, Mr. Brown,” said the pretty little woman. And our
-editor almost thought that he could see a smile on her lips as she
-spoke.
-
-“Then who are you?” asked Mr. Brown.
-
-“I am her sister;--or rather her sister-in-law. My name is Mrs. Puffle.”
-How could Mrs. Puffle be the sister-in-law of Miss de Montmorenci? Some
-such thought as this passed through the editor’s mind, but it was not
-followed out to any conclusion. Relationships are complex things, and,
-as we all know, give rise to most intricate questions. In the
-half-moment that was allowed to him Mr. Brown reflected that Mrs. Puffle
-might be the sister-in-law of a Miss de Montmorenci; or, at least, half
-sister-in-law. It was even possible that Mrs. Puffle, young as she
-looked, might have been previously married to a de Montmorenci. Of all
-that, however, he would not now stop to unravel the details, but
-endeavoured as he went on to take some comfort from the fact that
-Puffle was no doubt Charles. Josephine might perhaps have no Charles.
-And then it became evident to him that the little fair, smiling, dimpled
-thing before him could hardly have written “Not so Black as he’s
-Painted,” with all its metaphysics. Josephine must be made of sterner
-stuff. And, after all, for an adventure, little dimples and a blue
-parasol are hardly appropriate. There should be more of stature than
-Mrs. Puffle possessed, with dark hair, and piercing eyes. The colour of
-the dress should be black, with perhaps yellow trimmings; and the hand
-should not be of pearly whiteness,--as Mrs. Puffle’s no doubt was,
-though the well-fitting little glove gave no absolute information on
-this subject. For such an adventure the appropriate colour of the skin
-would be,--we will not say sallow exactly,--but running a little that
-way. The beauty should be just toned by sadness; and the blood, as it
-comes and goes, should show itself, not in blushes, but in the mellow,
-changing lines of the brunette. All this Mr. Brown understood very well.
-
-“Oh,--you are Mrs. Puffle,” said Brown, after a short but perhaps
-insufficient pause. “You are Charles Puffle’s wife?”
-
-“Do you know Charles?” asked the lady, putting up both her little
-hands. “We don’t want him to hear anything about this. You haven’t told
-him?”
-
-“I’ve told him nothing as yet,” said Mr. Brown.
-
-“Pray don’t. It’s a secret. Of course he’ll know it some day. Oh, Mr.
-Brown, you won’t betray us. How very odd that you should know Charles!”
-
-“Does he smoke as much as ever, Mrs. Puffle?”
-
-“How very odd that he never should have mentioned it! Is it at his
-office that you see him?”
-
-“Well, no; not at his office. How is it that he manages to get away on
-an afternoon as he does?”
-
-“It’s very seldom,--only two or three times in a month,--when he really
-has a headache from sitting at his work. Dear me, how odd! I thought he
-told me everything, and he never mentioned your name.”
-
-“You needn’t mention mine, Mrs. Puffle, and the secret shall be kept.
-But you haven’t told me about the smoking. Is he as inveterate as ever?”
-
-“Of course he smokes. They all smoke. I suppose then he used always to
-be doing it before he married. I don’t think men ever tell the real
-truth about things, though girls always tell everything.”
-
-“And now about your sister’s novel?” asked Mr. Brown, who felt that he
-had mystified the little woman sufficiently about her husband.
-
-“Well, yes. She does want to get some money so badly! And it is
-clever;--isn’t it? I don’t think I ever read anything cleverer. Isn’t it
-enough to take your breath away when Orlando defends himself before the
-lords?” This referred to a very high flown passage which Mr. Brown had
-determined to cut out when he was thinking of printing the story for the
-pages of the “Olympus.” “And she will be so broken-hearted! I hope you
-are not angry with her because she wrote in that way.”
-
-“Not in the least. I liked her letters. She wrote what she really
-thought.”
-
-“That is so good of you! I told her that I was sure you were
-good-natured, because you answered so civilly. It was a kind of
-experiment of hers, you know.”
-
-“Oh,--an experiment!”
-
-“It is so hard to get at people. Isn’t it? If she’d just written, ‘Dear
-Sir, I send you a manuscript,’--you never would have looked at
-it:--would you?”
-
-“We read everything, Mrs. Puffle.”
-
-“But the turn for all the things comes so slowly; doesn’t it? So Polly
-thought----”
-
-“Polly,--what did Polly think?”
-
-“I mean Josephine. We call her Polly just as a nickname. She was so
-anxious to get you to read it at once! And now what must we do?” Mr.
-Brown sat silent awhile, thinking. Why did they call Josephine de
-Montmorenci Polly? But there was the fact of the MS., let the name of
-the author be what it might. On one thing he was determined. He would
-take no steps till he had himself seen the lady who wrote the novel.
-“You’ll go to the gentlemen in Paternoster Row immediately; won’t you?”
-asked Mrs. Puffle, with a pretty little beseeching look which it was
-very hard to resist.
-
-“I think I must ask to see the authoress first,” said Mr. Brown.
-
-“Won’t I do?” asked Mrs. Puffle. “Josephine is so particular. I mean she
-dislikes so very much to talk about her own writings and her own works.”
-Mr. Brown thought of the tenor of the letters which he had received, and
-found that he could not reconcile with it this character which was given
-to him of Miss de Montmorenci. “She has an idea,” continued Mrs. Puffle,
-“that genius should not show itself publicly. Of course, she does not
-say that herself. And she does not think herself to be a genius;--though
-I think it. And she is a genius. There are things in ‘Not so Black as
-he’s Painted’ which nobody but Polly could have written.”
-
-Nevertheless Mr. Brown was firm. He explained that he could not possibly
-treat with Messrs. X., Y., and Z.,--if any treating should become
-possible,--without direct authority from the principal. He must have
-from Miss de Montmorenci’s mouth what might be the arrangements to which
-she would accede. If this could not be done he must wash his hands of
-the affair. He did not doubt, he said, but that Miss de Montmorenci
-might do quite as well with the publishers by herself, as she could with
-any aid from him. Perhaps it would be better that she should see Mr. X.
-herself. But if he, Brown, was to be honoured by any delegated
-authority, he must see the author. In saying this he implied that he had
-not the slightest desire to interfere further, and that he had no wish
-to press himself on the lady. Mrs. Puffle, with just a tear, and then a
-smile, and then a little coaxing twist of her lips, assured him that
-their only hope was in him. She would carry his message to Josephine,
-and he should have a further letter from that lady. “And you won’t tell
-Charles that I have been here,” said Mrs. Puffle as she took her leave.
-
-“Certainly not. I won’t say a word of it.”
-
-“It is so odd that you should have known him.”
-
-“Don’t let him smoke too much, Mrs. Puffle.”
-
-“I don’t intend. I’ve brought him down to one cigar and a pipe a
-day,--unless he smokes at the office.”
-
-“They all do that;--nearly the whole day.”
-
-“What; at the Post Office!”
-
-“That’s why I mention it. I don’t think they’re allowed at any of the
-other offices, but they do what they please there. I shall keep the MS.
-till I hear from Josephine herself.” Then Mrs. Puffle took her leave
-with many thanks, and a grateful pressure from her pretty little hand.
-
-Two days after this there came the promised letter from Josephine.
-
- “DEAR MR. BROWN,
-
- “I cannot understand why you should not go to X., Y., and Z.
- without seeing me. I hardly ever see anybody; but, of course, you
- must come if you will. I got my sister to go because she is so
- gentle and nice, that I thought she could persuade anybody to do
- anything. She says that you know Mr. Puffle quite well, which seems
- to be so very odd. He doesn’t know that I ever write a word, and I
- didn’t think he had an acquaintance in the world whom I don’t know
- the name of. You’re quite wrong about one thing. They never smoke
- at the Post Office, and they wouldn’t be let to do it. If you
- choose to come, you must. I shall be at home any time on Friday
- morning,--that is, after half-past nine, when Charles goes away.
-
-“Yours truly,
-
-“J. DE M.
-
-
-
-“We began to talk about editors after dinner, just for fun; and Charles
-said that he didn’t know that he had ever seen one. Of course we didn’t
-say anything about the ‘Olympus;’ but I don’t know why he should be so
-mysterious.” Then there was a second postscript, written down in a
-corner of the sheet of paper. “I know you’ll be sorry you came.”
-
- * * * * *
-
-Our editor was now quite determined that he would see the adventure to
-an end. He had at first thought that Josephine was keeping herself in
-the background merely that she might enhance the favour of a personal
-meeting when that favour should be accorded. A pretty woman believing
-herself to be a genius, and thinking that good things should ever be
-made scarce, might not improbably fall into such a foible. But now he
-was convinced that she would prefer to keep herself unseen if her doing
-so might be made compatible with her great object. Mr. Brown was not a
-man to intrude himself unnecessarily upon any woman unwilling to receive
-him; but in this case it was, so he thought, his duty to persevere. So
-he wrote a pretty little note to Miss Josephine saying that he would be
-with her at eleven o’clock on the day named.
-
-Precisely at eleven o’clock he knocked at the door of the house in
-King-Charles Street, which was almost instantaneously opened for him by
-the fair hands of Mrs. Puffle herself. “H--sh,” said Mrs. Puffle; “we
-don’t want the servants to know anything about it.” Mr. Brown, who cared
-nothing for the servants of the Puffle establishment, and who was
-becoming perhaps a little weary of the unravelled mystery of the affair,
-simply bowed and followed the lady into the parlour. “My sister is up
-stairs,” said Mrs. Puffle, “and we will go to her immediately.” Then she
-paused, as though she were still struggling with some difficulty;--“I am
-so sorry to say that Polly is not well.--But she means to see you,” Mrs.
-Puffle added, as she saw that the editor, over whom they had so far
-prevailed, made some sign as though he was about to retreat. “She never
-is very well,” said Mrs. Puffle, “and her work does tell upon her so
-much. Do you know, Mr. Brown, I think the mind sometimes eats up the
-body; that is, when it is called upon for such great efforts.” They were
-now upon the stairs, and Mr. Brown followed the little lady into her
-drawing-room.
-
-There, almost hidden in the depths of a low arm-chair, sat a little
-wizened woman, not old indeed,--when Mr. Brown came to know her better,
-he found that she had as yet only counted five-and-twenty summers,--but
-with that look of mingled youth and age which is so painful to the
-beholder. Who has not seen it,--the face in which the eye and the brow
-are young and bright, but the mouth and the chin are old and haggard?
-See such a one when she sleeps,--when the brightness of the eye is
-hidden, and all the countenance is full of pain and decay, and then the
-difference will be known to you between youth with that health which is
-generally given to it, and youth accompanied by premature decrepitude.
-“This is my sister-in-law,” said Mrs. Puffle, introducing the two
-correspondents to each other. The editor looked at the little woman who
-made some half attempt to rise, and thought that he could see in the
-brightness of the eye some symptoms of the sauciness which had appeared
-so very plainly in her letters. And there was a smile too about the
-mouth, though the lips were thin and the chin poor, which seemed to
-indicate that the owner of them did in some sort enjoy this unravelling
-of her riddle,--as though she were saying to herself, “What do you think
-now of the beautiful young woman who has made you write so many letters,
-and read so long a manuscript, and come all the way at this hour of the
-morning to Camden Town?” Mr. Brown shook hands with her, and muttered
-something to the effect that he was sorry not to see her in better
-health.
-
-“No,” said Josephine de Montmorenci, “I am not very well. I never am. I
-told you that you had better put up with seeing my sister.”
-
-We say no more than the truth of Mr. Brown in declaring that he was now
-more ready than ever to do whatever might be in his power to forward the
-views of this young authoress. If he was interested before when he
-believed her to be beautiful, he was doubly interested for her now when
-he knew her to be a cripple;--for he had seen when she made that faint
-attempt to rise that her spine was twisted, and that, when she stood up,
-her head sank between her shoulders. “I am very glad to make your
-acquaintance,” he said, seating himself near her. “I should never have
-been satisfied without doing so.”
-
-“It is so very good of you to come,” said Mrs. Puffle.
-
-“Of course it is good of him,” said Josephine; “especially after the way
-we wrote to him. The truth is, Mr. Brown, we were at our wits’ end to
-catch you.”
-
-This was an aspect of the affair which our editor certainly did not
-like. An attempt to deceive anybody else might have been pardonable; but
-deceit practised against himself was odious to him. Nevertheless, he did
-forgive it. The poor little creature before him had worked hard, and had
-done her best. To teach her to be less metaphysical in her writings, and
-more straightforward in her own practices, should be his care. There is
-something to a man inexpressibly sweet in the power of protecting the
-weak; and no one had ever seemed to be weaker than Josephine. “Miss de
-Montmorenci,” he said, “we will let bygones be bygones, and will say
-nothing about the letters. It is no doubt the fact that you did write
-the novel yourself?”
-
-“Every word of it,” said Mrs. Puffle energetically.
-
-“Oh, yes; I wrote it,” said Josephine.
-
-“And you wish to have it published?”
-
-“Indeed I do.”
-
-“And you wish to get money for it?”
-
-“That is the truest of all,” said Josephine.
-
-“Oughtn’t one to be paid when one has worked so very hard?” said Mrs.
-Puffle.
-
-“Certainly one ought to be paid if it can be proved that one’s work is
-worth buying,” replied the sage mentor of literature.
-
-“But isn’t it worth buying?” demanded Mrs. Puffle.
-
-“I must say that I think that publishers do buy some that are worse,”
-observed Josephine.
-
-Mr. Brown with words of wisdom explained to them as well as he was able
-the real facts of the case. It might be that that manuscript, over which
-the poor invalid had laboured for so many painful hours, would prove to
-be an invaluable treasure of art, destined to give delight to thousands
-of readers, and to be, when printed, a source of large profits to
-publishers, booksellers, and author. Or, again, it might be that, with
-all its undoubted merits,--and that there were such merits Mr. Brown was
-eager in acknowledging,--the novel would fail to make any way with the
-public. “A publisher,”--so said Mr. Brown,--“will hardly venture to pay
-you a sum of money down, when the risk of failure is so great.”
-
-“But Polly has written ever so many things before,” said Mrs. Puffle.
-
-“That counts for nothing,” said Miss de Montmorenci. “They were short
-pieces, and appeared without a name.”
-
-“Were you paid for them?” asked Mr. Brown.
-
-“I have never been paid a halfpenny for anything yet.”
-
-“Isn’t that cruel,” said Mrs. Puffle, “to work, and work, and work, and
-never get the wages which ought to be paid for it?”
-
-“Perhaps there may be a good time coming,” said our editor. “Let us see
-whether we can get Messrs. X., Y., and Z. to publish this at their own
-expense, and with your name attached to it. Then, Miss de
-Montmorenci----”
-
-“I suppose we had better tell him all,” said Josephine.
-
-“Oh, yes; tell everything. I am sure he won’t be angry; he is so
-good-natured,” said Mrs. Puffle.
-
-Mr. Brown looked first at one, and then at the other, feeling himself to
-be rather uncomfortable. What was there that remained to be told? He was
-good-natured, but he did not like being told of that virtue. “The name
-you have heard is not my name,” said the lady who had written the
-novel.
-
-“Oh, indeed! I have heard Mrs. Puffle call you,--Polly.”
-
-“My name is,--Maryanne.”
-
-“It is a very good name,” said Mr. Brown,--“so good that I cannot quite
-understand why you should go out of your way to assume another.”
-
-“It is Maryanne,--Puffle.”
-
-“Oh;--Puffle!” said Mr. Brown.
-
-“And a very good name, too,” said Mrs. Puffle.
-
-“I haven’t a word to say against it,” said Mr. Brown. “I wish I could
-say quite as much as to that other name,--Josephine de Montmorenci.”
-
-“But Maryanne Puffle would be quite unendurable on a title-page,” said
-the owner of the unfortunate appellation.
-
-“I don’t see it,” said Mr. Brown doggedly.
-
-“Ever so many have done the same,” said Mrs. Puffle. “There’s Boz.”
-
-“Calling yourself Boz isn’t like calling yourself Josephine de
-Montmorenci,” said the editor, who could forgive the loss of beauty, but
-not the assumed grandeur of the name.
-
-“And Currer Bell, and Jacob Omnium, and Barry Cornwall,” said poor Polly
-Puffle, pleading hard for her falsehood.
-
-“And Michael Angelo Titmarsh! That was quite the same sort of thing,”
-said Mrs. Puffle.
-
-Our editor tried to explain to them that the sin of which he now
-complained did not consist in the intention,--foolish as that had
-been,--of putting such a name as Josephine de Montmorenci on the
-title-page, but in having corresponded with him,--with him who had been
-so willing to be a friend,--under a false name. “I really think you
-ought to have told me sooner,” he said.
-
-“If we had known you had been a friend of Charles’s we would have told
-you at once,” said the young wife.
-
-“I never had the pleasure of speaking to Mr. Puffle in my life,” said
-Mr. Brown. Mrs. Puffle opened her little mouth, and held up both her
-little hands. Polly Puffle stared at her sister-in-law. “And what is
-more,” continued Mr. Brown, “I never said that I had had that pleasure.”
-
-“You didn’t tell me that Charles smoked at the Post Office,” exclaimed
-Mrs. Puffle,--“which he swears that he never does, and that he would be
-dismissed at once if he attempted it?” Mr. Brown was driven to a smile.
-“I declare I don’t understand you, Mr. Brown.”
-
-“It was his little Roland for our little Oliver,” said Miss Puffle.
-
-Mr. Brown felt that his Roland had been very small, whereas the Oliver
-by which he had been taken in was not small at all. But he was forced to
-accept the bargain. What is a man against a woman in such a matter? What
-can he be against two women, both young, of whom one was pretty and the
-other an invalid? Of course he gave way, and of course he undertook the
-mission to X., Y., and Z. We have not ourselves read “Not so Black as
-he’s Painted,” but we can say that it came out in due course under the
-hands of those enterprising publishers, and that it made what many of
-the reviews called quite a success.
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-THE PANJANDRUM.
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-THE PANJANDRUM.
-
-PART I.--HOPE.
-
-
-We hardly feel certain that we are justified in giving the following
-little story to the public as an Editor’s Tale, because at the time to
-which it refers, and during the circumstances with which it deals, no
-editorial power was, in fact, within our grasp. As the reader will
-perceive, the ambition and the hopes, and something of a promise of the
-privileges, were there; but the absolute chair was not mounted for us.
-The great WE was not, in truth, ours to use. And, indeed, the interval
-between the thing we then so cordially desired, and the thing as it has
-since come to exist, was one of so many years, that there can be no
-right on our part to connect the two periods. We shall, therefore, tell
-our story, as might any ordinary individual, in the first person
-singular, and speak of such sparks of editorship as did fly up around us
-as having created but a dim coruscation, and as having been quite
-insufficient to justify the delicious plural.
-
- * * * * *
-
-It is now just thirty years ago since we determined to establish the
-“Panjandrum” Magazine. The “we” here spoken of is not an editorial we,
-but a small set of human beings who shall be personally introduced to
-the reader. The name was intended to be delightfully meaningless, but we
-all thought that it was euphonious, graphic, also,--and sententious,
-even though it conveyed no definite idea. That question of a name had
-occupied us a good deal, and had almost split us into parties. I,--for I
-will now speak of myself as I,--I had wished to call it by the name of a
-very respectable young publisher who was then commencing business, and
-by whom we intended that the trade part of our enterprise should be
-undertaken. “Colburn’s” was an old affair in those days, and I doubt
-whether “Bentley’s” was not already in existence. “Blackwood’s” and
-“Fraser’s” were at the top of the tree, and, as I think, the
-“Metropolitan” was the only magazine then in much vogue not called by
-the name of this or that enterprising publisher. But some of our
-colleagues would not hear of this, and were ambitious of a title that
-should describe our future energies and excellences. I think we should
-have been called the “Pandrastic,” but that the one lady who joined our
-party absolutely declined the name. At one moment we had almost carried
-“Panurge.” The “Man’s” Magazine was thought of, not as opposed to
-womanhood, but as intended to trump the “Gentleman’s.” But a hint was
-given to us that we might seem to imply that our periodical was not
-adapted for the perusal of females. We meant the word “man” in the great
-generic sense;--but the somewhat obtuse outside world would not have so
-taken it. “The H. B. P.” was for a time in the ascendant, and was
-favoured by the lady, who drew for us a most delightful little circle
-containing the letters illustrated;--what would now be called a
-monogram, only that the letters were legible. The fact that nobody would
-comprehend that “H. B. P.” intended to express the general opinion of
-the shareholders that “Honesty is the Best Policy,” was felt to be a
-recommendation rather than otherwise. I think it was the enterprising
-young publisher who objected to the initials,--not, I am sure, from any
-aversion to the spirit of the legend. Many other names were tried, and I
-shall never forget the look which went round our circle when one young
-and gallant, but too indiscreet reformer, suggested that were it not for
-offence, whence offence should not come, the “Purge” was the very name
-for us;--from all which it will be understood that it was our purpose to
-put right many things that were wrong. The matter held us in discussion
-for some months, and then we agreed to call the great future lever of
-the age,--the “Panjandrum.”
-
-When a new magazine is about to be established in these days, the first
-question raised will probably be one of capital. A very considerable sum
-of money, running far into four figures,--if not going beyond it,--has
-to be mentioned, and made familiar to the ambitious promoters of the
-enterprise. It was not so with us. Nor was it the case that our young
-friend the publisher agreed to find the money, leaving it to us to find
-the wit. I think we selected our young friend chiefly because, at that
-time, he had no great business to speak of, and could devote his time to
-the interests of the “Panjandrum.” As for ourselves we were all poor;
-and in the way of capital a set of human beings more absurdly
-inefficient for any purposes of trade could not have been brought
-together. We found that for a sum of money which we hoped that we might
-scrape together among us, we could procure paper and print for a couple
-of thousand copies of our first number;--and, after that, we were to
-obtain credit for the second number by the reputation of the first.
-Literary advertising, such as is now common to us, was then unknown. The
-cost of sticking up “The Panjandrum” at railway stations and on the tops
-of the omnibuses, certainly would not be incurred. Of railway stations
-there were but few in the country, and even omnibuses were in their
-infancy. A few modest announcements in the weekly periodicals of the day
-were thought to be sufficient; and, indeed, there pervaded us all an
-assurance that the coming of the “Panjandrum” would be known to all men,
-even before it had come. I doubt whether our desire was not concealment
-rather than publicity. We measured the importance of the “Panjandrum” by
-its significance to ourselves, and by the amount of heart which we
-intended to throw into it. Ladies and gentlemen who get up magazines in
-the present day are wiser. It is not heart that is wanted, but very big
-letters on very big boards, and plenty of them.
-
-We were all heart. It must be admitted now that we did not bestow upon
-the matter of literary excellence quite so much attention as that
-branch of the subject deserves. We were to write and edit our magazine
-and have it published, not because we were good at writing or editing,
-but because we had ideas which we wished to promulgate. Or it might be
-the case with some of us that we only thought that we had ideas. But
-there was certainly present to us all a great wish to do some good.
-That, and a not altogether unwholesome appetite for a reputation which
-should not be personal, were our great motives. I do not think that we
-dreamed of making fortunes; though no doubt there might be present to
-the mind of each of us an idea that an opening to the profession of
-literature might be obtained through the pages of the “Panjandrum.” In
-that matter of reputation we were quite agreed that fame was to be
-sought, not for ourselves, nor for this or that name, but for the
-“Panjandrum.” No man or woman was to declare himself to be the author of
-this or that article;--nor indeed was any man or woman to declare
-himself to be connected with a magazine. The only name to be known to a
-curious public was that of the young publisher. All intercourse between
-the writers and the printers was to be through him. If contributions
-should come from the outside world,--as come they would,--they were to
-be addressed to the Editor of the “Panjandrum,” at the publisher’s
-establishment. It was within the scope of our plan to use any such
-contribution that might please us altogether; but the contents of the
-magazine were, as a rule, to come from ourselves. A magazine then, as
-now, was expected to extend itself through something over a hundred and
-twenty pages; but we had no fear as to our capacity for producing the
-required amount. We feared rather that we might jostle each other in our
-requirements for space.
-
-We were six, and, young as I was then, I was to be the editor. But to
-the functions of the editor was to be attached very little editorial
-responsibility. What should and what should not appear in each monthly
-number was to be settled in conclave. Upon one point, however, we were
-fully agreed,--that no personal jealousy should ever arise among us so
-as to cause quarrel or even embarrassment. As I had already written some
-few slight papers for the press, it was considered probable that I might
-be able to correct proofs, and do the fitting and dovetailing. My
-editing was not to go beyond that. If by reason of parity of numbers in
-voting there should arise a difficulty, the lady was to have a double
-vote. Anything more noble, more chivalrous, more trusting, or, I may
-add, more philanthropic than our scheme never was invented; and for the
-persons, I will say that they were noble, chivalrous, trusting, and
-philanthropic;--only they were so young!
-
-Place aux dames. We will speak of the lady first,--more especially as
-our meetings were held at her house. I fear that I may, at the very
-outset of our enterprise, turn the hearts of my readers against her by
-saying that Mrs. St. Quinten was separated from her husband. I must,
-however, beg them to believe that this separation had been occasioned by
-no moral fault or odious misconduct on her part. I will confess that I
-did at that time believe that Mr. St. Quinten was an ogre, and that I
-have since learned to think that he simply laboured under a strong and,
-perhaps, monomaniacal objection to literary pursuits. As Mrs. St.
-Quinten was devoted to them, harmony was impossible, and the marriage
-was unfortunate. She was young, being perhaps about thirty; but I think
-that she was the eldest amongst us. She was good-looking, with an ample
-brow, and bright eyes, and large clever mouth; but no woman living was
-ever further removed from any propensity to flirtation. There resided
-with her a certain Miss Collins, an elderly, silent lady, who was
-present at all our meetings, and who was considered to be pledged to
-secrecy. Once a week we met and drank tea at Mrs. St. Quinten’s house.
-It may be as well to explain that Mrs. St. Quinten really had an
-available income, which was a condition of life unlike that of her
-colleagues,--unless as regarded one, who was a fellow of an Oxford
-college. She could certainly afford to give us tea and muffins once a
-week;--but, in spite of our general impecuniosity, the expense of
-commencing the magazine was to be borne equally by us all. I can assure
-the reader, with reference to more than one of the members, that they
-occasionally dined on bread and cheese, abstaining from meat and pudding
-with the view of collecting the sum necessary for the great day.
-
-The idea had originated, I think, between Mrs. St. Quinten and Churchill
-Smith. Churchill Smith was a man with whom, I must own, I never felt
-that perfect sympathy which bound me to the others. Perhaps among us all
-he was the most gifted. Such at least was the opinion of Mrs. St.
-Quinten and, perhaps, of himself. He was a cousin of the lady’s, and had
-made himself particularly objectionable to the husband by instigating
-his relative to write philosophical essays. It was his own speciality to
-be an unbeliever and a German scholar; and we gave him credit for being
-so deep in both arts that no man could go deeper. It had, however, been
-decided among us very early in our arrangements,--and so decided, not
-without great chance of absolute disruption,--that his infidelity was
-not to bias the magazine. He was to take the line of deep thinking,
-German poetry, and unintelligible speculation generally. He used to talk
-of Comte, whose name I had never heard till it fell from his lips, and
-was prepared to prove that Coleridge was very shallow. He was generally
-dirty, unshorn, and, as I thought, disagreeable. He called Mrs. St.
-Quinten Lydia, because of his cousinship, and no one knew how or where
-he lived. I believe him to have been a most unselfish, abstemious
-man,--one able to control all appetites of the flesh. I think that I
-have since heard that he perished in a Russian prison.
-
-My dearest friend among the number was Patrick Regan, a young Irish
-barrister, who intended to shine at the English Bar. I think the world
-would have used him better had his name been John Tomkins. The history
-of his career shows very plainly that the undoubted brilliance of his
-intellect, and his irrepressible personal humour and good-humour have
-been always unfairly weighted by those Irish names. What attorney, with
-any serious matter in hand, would willingly go to a barrister who
-called himself Pat Regan? And then, too, there always remained with him
-just a hint of a brogue,--and his nose was flat in the middle! I do not
-believe that all the Irishmen with flattened noses have had the bone of
-the feature broken by a crushing blow in a street row; and yet they
-certainly look as though that peculiar appearance had been the result of
-a fight with sticks. Pat has told me a score of times that he was born
-so, and I believe him. He had a most happy knack of writing verses,
-which I used to think quite equal to Mr. Barham’s, and he could rival
-the droll Latinity of Father Prout who was coming out at that time with
-his “Dulcis Julia Callage,” and the like. Pat’s father was an attorney
-at Cork; but not prospering, I think, for poor Pat was always short of
-money. He had, however, paid the fees, and was entitled to appear in wig
-and gown wherever common-law barristers do congregate. He is
-Attorney-General at one of the Turtle Islands this moment, with a salary
-of £400 a year. I hear from him occasionally, and the other day he sent
-me “Captain Crosbie is my name,” done into endecasyllabics. I doubt,
-however, whether he ever made a penny by writing for the press. I cannot
-say that Pat was our strongest prop. He sometimes laughed at
-“Lydia,”--and then I was brought into disgrace, as having introduced
-him to the company.
-
-Jack Hallam, the next I will name, was also intended for the Bar: but, I
-think, never was called. Of all the men I have encountered in life he
-was certainly the most impecunious. Now he is a millionaire. He was one
-as to whom all who knew him,--friends and foes alike,--were decided that
-under no circumstances would he ever work, or by any possibility earn a
-penny. Since then he has applied himself to various branches of
-commerce, first at New York and then at San Francisco; he has laboured
-for twenty-four years almost without a holiday, and has shown a
-capability for sustaining toil which few men have equalled. He had been
-introduced to our set by Walter Watt, of whom I will speak just now; and
-certainly when I remember the brightness of his wit and the flow of his
-words, and his energy when he was earnest, I am bound to acknowledge
-that in searching for sheer intellect,--for what I may call power,--we
-did not do wrong to enrol Jack Hallam. He had various crude ideas in his
-head of what he would do for us,--having a leaning always to the side of
-bitter mirth. I think he fancied that satire might be his forte. As it
-is, they say that no man living has a quicker eye to the erection of a
-block of buildings in a coming city. He made a fortune at Chicago, and
-is said to have erected Omaha out of his own pocket. I am told that he
-pays income-tax in the United States on nearly a million dollars per
-annum. I wonder whether he would lend me five pounds if I asked him? I
-never knew a man so free as Jack at borrowing half-a-crown or a clean
-pocket-handkerchief.
-
-Walter Watt was a fellow of ----. ---- I believe has fellows who do not
-take orders. It must have had one such in those days, for nothing could
-have induced our friend, Walter Watt, to go into the Church. How it came
-to pass that the dons of a college at Oxford should have made a fellow
-of so wild a creature was always a mystery to us. I have since been told
-that at ---- the reward could hardly be refused to a man who had gone
-out a “first” in classics and had got the “Newdegate.” Such had been the
-career of young Watt. And, though I say that he was wild, his moral
-conduct was not bad. He simply objected on principle to all authority,
-and was of opinion that the goods of the world should be in common. I
-must say of him that in regard to one individual his practice went even
-beyond his preaching; for Jack Hallam certainly consumed more of the
-fellowship than did Walter Watt himself. Jack was dark and swarthy.
-Walter was a fair little man, with long hair falling on the sides of his
-face, and cut away over his forehead,--as one sees it sometimes cut in a
-picture. He had round blue eyes, a well-formed nose, and handsome mouth
-and chin. He was very far gone in his ideas of reform, and was quite in
-earnest in his hope that by means of the “Panjandrum” something might be
-done to stay the general wickedness,--or rather ugliness of the world.
-At that time Carlyle was becoming prominent as a thinker and writer
-among us, and Watt was never tired of talking to us of the hero of
-“Sartor Resartus.” He was an excellent and most unselfish man,--whose
-chief fault was an inclination for the making of speeches, which he had
-picked up at an Oxford debating society. He now lies buried at Kensal
-Green. I thought to myself, when I saw another literary friend laid
-there some eight years since, that the place had become very quickly
-populated since I and Regan had seen poor Watt placed in his last home,
-almost amidst a desert.
-
-Of myself, I need only say that at that time I was very young, very
-green, and very ardent as a politician. The Whigs were still in office;
-but we, who were young then, and warm in our political convictions,
-thought that the Whigs were doing nothing for us. It must be remembered
-that things and ideas have advanced so quickly during the last thirty
-years, that the Conservatism of 1870 goes infinitely further in the
-cause of general reform than did the Radicalism of 1840. I was regarded
-as a Democrat because I was loud against the Corn Laws; and was accused
-of infidelity when I spoke against the Irish Church Endowments. I take
-some pride to myself that I should have seen these evils to be evils
-even thirty years ago. But to Household Suffrage I doubt whether even my
-spirit had ascended. If I remember rightly I was great upon annual
-parliaments; but I know that I was discriminative, and did not accept
-all the points of the seven-starred charter. I had an idea in those
-days,--I can confess it now after thirty years,--that I might be able to
-indite short political essays which should be terse, argumentative, and
-convincing, and at the same time full of wit and frolic. I never quite
-succeeded in pleasing even myself in any such composition. At this time
-I did a little humble work for the ----, but was quite resolved to fly
-at higher game than that.
-
-As I began with the lady, so I must end with her. I had seen and read
-sheaves of her MS., and must express my conviction at this day, when all
-illusions are gone, that she wrote with wonderful ease and with some
-grace. A hard critic might perhaps say that it was slip-slop; but still
-it was generally readable. I believe that in the recesses of her
-privacy, and under the dark and secret guidance of Churchill Smith, she
-did give way to German poetry and abstruse thought. I heard once that
-there was a paper of hers on the essence of existence, in which she
-answered that great question, as to personal entity, or as she put it,
-“What is it, to be?” The paper never appeared before the Committee,
-though I remember the question to have been once suggested for
-discussion. Pat Regan answered it at once,--“A drop of something short,”
-said he. I thought then that everything was at an end! Her translation
-into a rhymed verse of a play of Schiller’s did come before us, and
-nobody could have behaved better than she did, when she was told that it
-hardly suited our project. What we expected from Mrs. St. Quinten in the
-way of literary performance I cannot say that we ourselves had exactly
-realised, but we knew that she was always ready for work. She gave us
-tea and muffins, and bore with us when we were loud, and devoted her
-time to our purposes, and believed in us. She had exquisite tact in
-saving us from wordy quarrelling, and was never angry herself, except
-when Pat Regan was too hard upon her. What became of her I never knew.
-When the days of the “Panjandrum” were at an end she vanished from our
-sight. I always hoped that Mr. St. Quinten reconciled himself to
-literature, and took her back to his bosom.
-
-While we were only determining that the thing should be, all went
-smoothly with us. Columns, or the open page, made a little difficulty;
-but the lady settled it for us in favour of the double column. It is a
-style of page which certainly has a wiser look about it than the other;
-and then it has the advantage of being clearly distinguished from the
-ordinary empty book of the day. The word “padding,” as belonging to
-literature, was then unknown; but the idea existed,--and perhaps the
-thing. We were quite resolved that there should be no padding in the
-“Panjandrum.” I think our most ecstatic, enthusiastic, and accordant
-moments were those in which we resolved that it should be all good, all
-better than anything else,--all best. We were to struggle after
-excellence with an energy that should know no relaxing,--and the
-excellence was not to be that which might produce for us the greatest
-number of half-crowns, but of the sort which would increase truth in the
-world, and would teach men to labour hard and bear their burdens nobly,
-and become gods upon earth. I think our chief feeling was one of
-impatience in having to wait to find to what heaven death would usher
-us, who unfortunately had to be human before we could put on divinity.
-We wanted heaven at once,--and were not deterred though Jack Hallam
-would borrow ninepence and Pat Regan make his paltry little jokes.
-
-We had worked hard for six months before we began to think of writing,
-or even of apportioning to each contributor what should be written for
-the first number. I shall never forget the delight there was in having
-the young publisher in to tea, and in putting him through his figures,
-and in feeling that it became us for the moment to condescend to matters
-of trade. We felt him to be an inferior being; but still it was much for
-us to have progressed so far towards reality as to have a real publisher
-come to wait upon us. It was at that time clearly understood that I was
-to be the editor, and I felt myself justified in taking some little lead
-in arranging matters with our energetic young friend. A remark that I
-made one evening was very mild,--simply some suggestion as to the
-necessity of having a more than ordinarily well-educated set of
-printers;--but I was snubbed infinitely by Churchill Smith. “Mr X.,”
-said he, “can probably tell us more about printing than we can tell
-him.” I felt so hurt that I was almost tempted to leave the room at
-once. I knew very well that if I seceded Pat Regan would go with me, and
-that the whole thing must fall to the ground. Mrs. St. Quinten, however,
-threw instant oil upon the waters. “Churchill,” said she, “let us live
-and learn. Mr. X., no doubt, knows. Why should we not share his
-knowledge?” I smothered my feelings in the public cause, but I was
-conscious of a wish that Mr. Smith might fall among the Philistines of
-Cursitor Street, and so of necessity be absent from our meetings. There
-was an idea among us that he crept out of his hiding-place, and came to
-our conferences by by-ways; which was confirmed when our hostess
-proposed that our evening should be changed from Thursday, the day first
-appointed, to Sunday. We all acceded willingly, led away somewhat, I
-fear, by an idea that it was the proper thing for advanced spirits such
-as ours to go to work on that day which by ancient law is appointed for
-rest.
-
-Mrs. St. Quinten would always open our meeting with a little speech.
-“Gentlemen and partners in this enterprise,” she would say, “the tea is
-made, and the muffins are ready. Our hearts are bound together in the
-work. We are all in earnest in the good cause of political reform and
-social regeneration. Let the spirit of harmony prevail among us. Mr.
-Hallam, perhaps you’ll take the cover off.” To see Jack Hallam eat
-muffins was,--I will say “a caution,” if the use of the slang phrase may
-be allowed to me for the occasion. It was presumed among us that on
-these days he had not dined. Indeed, I doubt whether he often did
-dine,--supper being his favourite meal. I have supped with him more than
-once, at his invitation,--when to be without coin in my own pocket was
-no disgrace,--and have wondered at the equanimity with which the vendors
-of shell-fish have borne my friend’s intimation that he must owe them
-the little amount due for our evening entertainment. On these occasions
-his friend Watt was never with him, for Walter’s ideas as to the common
-use of property were theoretical. Jack dashed at once into the more
-manly course of practice. When he came to Mrs. St. Quinten’s one evening
-in my best,--nay, why dally with the truth?--in my only pair of black
-dress trousers, which I had lent him ten days before, on the occasion,
-as I then believed, of a real dinner party, I almost denounced him
-before his colleagues. I think I should have done so had I not felt that
-he would in some fashion have so turned the tables on me that I should
-have been the sufferer. There are men with whom one comes by the worst
-in any contest, let justice on one’s own side be ever so strong and ever
-so manifest.
-
-But this is digression. After the little speech, Jack would begin upon
-the muffins, and Churchill Smith,--always seated at his cousin’s left
-hand,--would hang his head upon his hand, wearing a look of mingled
-thought and sorrow on his brow. He never would eat muffins. We fancied
-that he fed himself with penny hunches of bread as he walked along the
-streets. As a man he was wild, unsociable, untamable; but, as a
-philosopher, he had certainly put himself beyond most of those wants to
-which Jack Hallam and others among us were still subject. “Lydia,” he
-once said, when pressed hard to partake of the good things provided,
-“man cannot live by muffins alone,--no, nor by tea and muffins. That by
-which he can live is hard to find. I doubt we have not found it yet.”
-
-This, to me, seemed to be rank apostasy,--infidelity to the cause which
-he was bound to trust as long as he kept his place in that society. How
-shall you do anything in the world, achieve any success, unless you
-yourself believe in yourself? And if there be a partnership either in
-mind or matter, your partner must be the same to you as yourself.
-Confidence is so essential to the establishment of a magazine! I felt
-then, at least, that the “Panjandrum” could have no chance without it,
-and I rebuked Mr. Churchill Smith. “We know what you mean by that,” said
-I;--“because we don’t talk German metaphysics, you think we aint worth
-our salt.”
-
-“So much worth it,” said he, “that I trust heartily you may find enough
-to save you even yet.”
-
-I was about to boil over with wrath; but Walter Watt was on his legs,
-making a speech about the salt of the earth, before I had my words
-ready. Churchill Smith would put up with Walter when he would endure
-words from no one else. I used to think him mean enough to respect the
-Oxford fellowship, but I have since fancied that he believed that he had
-discovered a congenial spirit. In those days I certainly did despise
-Watt’s fellowship, but in later life I have come to believe that men who
-get rewards have generally earned them. Watt on this occasion made a
-speech to which in my passion I hardly attended; but I well remember
-how, when I was about to rise in my wrath, Mrs. St. Quinten put her hand
-on my arm, and calmed me. “If you,” said she, “to whom we most trust for
-orderly guidance, are to be the first to throw down the torch of
-discord, what will become of us?”
-
-“I haven’t thrown down any torch,” said I.
-
-“Neither take one up,” said she, pouring out my tea for me as she spoke.
-
-“As for myself,” said Regan, “I like metaphysics,--and I like them
-German. Is there anything so stupid and pig-headed as that insular
-feeling which makes us think nothing to be good that is not home-grown?”
-
-“All the same,” said Jack, “who ever eat a good muffin out of London?”
-
-“Mr. Hallam, Mary Jane is bringing up some more,” said our hostess. She
-was an open-handed woman, and the supply of these delicacies never ran
-low as long as the “Panjandrum” was a possibility.
-
-It was, I think, on this evening that we decided finally for columns and
-for a dark gray wrapper,--with a portrait of the Panjandrum in the
-centre; a fancy portrait it must necessarily be; but we knew that we
-could trust for that to the fertile pencil of Mrs. St. Quinten. I had
-come prepared with a specimen cover, as to which I had in truth
-consulted an artistic friend, and had taken with it no inconsiderable
-labour. I am sure, looking back over the long interval of years at my
-feelings on that occasion,--I am sure, I say, that I bore well the
-alterations and changes which were made in that design until at last
-nothing remained of it. But what matters a wrapper? Surely of any
-printed and published work it is by the interior that you should judge
-it. It is not that old conjuror’s head that has given its success to
-“Blackwood,” nor yet those four agricultural boys that have made the
-“Cornhill” what it is.
-
-We had now decided on columns, on the cover, and the colour. We had
-settled on the number of pages, and had thumbed four or five specimens
-of paper submitted to us by our worthy publisher. In that matter we had
-taken his advice, and chosen the cheapest; but still we liked the
-thumbing of the paper. It was business. Paper was paper then, and bore a
-high duty. I do not think that the system of illustration had commenced
-in those days, though a series of portraits was being published by one
-distinguished contemporary. We readily determined that we would attempt
-nothing of that kind. There then arose a question as to the insertion of
-a novel. Novels were not then, as now, held to be absolutely essential
-for the success of a magazine. There were at that time magazines with
-novels and magazines without them. The discreet young publisher
-suggested to us that we were not able to pay for such a story as would
-do us any credit. I myself, who was greedy for work, with bated breath
-offered to make an attempt. It was received with but faint thanks, and
-Walter Watt, rising on his legs, with eyes full of fire and arms
-extended, denounced novels in the general. It was not for such purpose
-that he was about to devote to the production of the “Panjandrum” any
-erudition that he might have acquired and all the intellect that God had
-given him. Let those who wanted novels go for them to the writer who
-dealt with fiction in the open market. As for him, he at any rate would
-search for truth. We reminded him of Blumine.[A] “Tell your novel in
-three pages,” said he, “and tell it as that is told, and I will not
-object to it.” We were enabled, however, to decide that there should be
-no novel in the “Panjandrum.”
-
- [A] See “Sartor Resartus”
-
-Then at length came the meeting at which we were to begin our real work
-and divide our tasks among us. Hitherto Mr. X. had usually joined us,
-but a hint had been given to him that on this and a few following
-meetings we would not trespass on his time. It was quite understood
-that he, as publisher, was to have nothing to do with the preparation or
-arrangement of the matter to be published. We were, I think, a little
-proud of keeping him at a distance when we came to the discussion of
-that actual essence of our combined intellects which was to be issued to
-the world under the grotesque name which we had selected. That mind and
-matter should be kept separated was impressed very strongly upon all of
-us. Now, we were “mind,” and Mr. X. was “matter.” He was matter at any
-rate in reference to this special work, and, therefore, when we had
-arrived at that vital point we told him,--I had been commissioned to do
-so,--that we did not require his attendance just at present. I am bound
-to say that Mr. X. behaved well to the end, but I do not think that he
-ever warmed to the “Panjandrum” after that. I fancy that he owns two or
-three periodicals now, and hires his editors quite as easily as he does
-his butlers,--and with less regard to their characters.
-
-I spent a nervous day in anticipation of that meeting. Pat Regan was
-with me all day, and threatened dissolution. “There isn’t a fellow in
-the world,” said he, “that I love better than Walter Watt, and I’d go to
-Jamaica to serve him;”--when the time came, which it did, oh, so soon!
-he was asked to go no further than Kensal Green;--“but----!” and then
-Pat paused.
-
-“You’re ready to quarrel with him,” said I, “simply because he won’t
-laugh at your jokes.”
-
-“There’s a good deal in that,” said Regan; “and when two men are in a
-boat together each ought to laugh at the other’s jokes. But the question
-isn’t as to our laughing. If we can’t make the public laugh sometimes we
-may as well shut up shop. Walter is so intensely serious that nothing
-less austere than lay sermons will suit his conscience.”
-
-“Let him preach his sermon, and do you crack your jokes. Surely we can’t
-be dull when we have you and Jack Hallam?”
-
-“Jack’ll never write a line,” said Regan; “he only comes for the
-muffins. Then think of Churchill Smith, and the sort of stuff he’ll
-expect to force down our readers’ throats.”
-
-“Smith is sour, but never tedious,” said I. Indeed, I expected great
-things from Smith, and so I told my friend.
-
-“‘Lydia’ will write,” said Pat. We used to call her Lydia behind her
-back. “And so will Churchill Smith and Watt. I do not doubt that they
-have quires written already. But no one will read a word of it. Jack,
-and you, and I will intend to write, but we shall never do anything.”
-
-This I felt to be most unjust, because, as I have said before, I was
-already engaged upon the press. My work was not remunerative, but it was
-regularly done. “I am afraid of nothing,” said I, “but distrust. You can
-move a mountain if you will only believe that you can move it.”
-
-“Just so;--but in order to avoid the confusion consequent on general
-motion among the mountains, I and other men have been created without
-that sort of faith.” It was always so with my poor friend, and,
-consequently, he is now Attorney-General at a Turtle Island. Had he
-believed as I did,--he and Jack,--I still think that the “Panjandrum”
-might have been a great success. “Don’t you look so glum,” he went on to
-say. “I’ll stick to it, and do my best. I did put Lord Bateman into
-rhymed Latin verse for you last night.”
-
-Then he repeated to me various stanzas, of which I still remember one:--
-
- “Tuam duxi, verum est, filiam, sed merum est;
- Si virgo mihi data fuit, virgo tibi redditur.
- Venit in ephippio mihi, et concipio
- Satis est si triga pro reditu conceditur.”
-
-This cheered me a little, for I thought that Pat was good at these
-things, and I was especially anxious to take the wind out of the sails
-of “Fraser” and Father Prout. “Bring it with you,” said I to him, giving
-him great praise. “It will raise our spirits to know that we have
-something ready.” He did bring it; but “Lydia” required to have it all
-translated to her, word by word. It went off heavily, and was at last
-objected to by the lady. For the first and last time during our debates
-Miss Collins ventured to give an opinion on the literary question under
-discussion. She agreed, she said, with her friend in thinking that Mr.
-Regan’s Latin poem should not be used. The translation was certainly as
-good as the ballad, and I was angry. Miss Collins, at any rate, need not
-have interfered.
-
-At last the evening came, and we sat round the table, after the tea-cups
-had been removed, each anxious for his allotted task. Pat had been so
-far right in his views as to the diligence of three of our colleagues,
-that they came furnished with piles of manuscript. Walter Watt, who was
-afflicted with no false shame, boldly placed before him on the table a
-heap of blotted paper. Churchhill Smith held in his hand a roll; but he
-did not, in fact, unroll it during the evening. He was a man very fond
-of his own ideas, of his own modes of thinking and manner of life, but
-not prone to put himself forward. I do not mind owning that I disliked
-him; but he had a power of self-abnegation which was, to say the least
-of it, respectable. As I entered the room, my eyes fell on a mass of
-dishevelled sheets of paper which lay on the sofa behind the chair on
-which Mrs. St. Quinten always sat, and I knew that these were her
-contributions. Pat Regan, as I have said, produced his unfortunate
-translation, and promised with the greatest good-humour to do another
-when he was told that his last performance did not quite suit Mrs. St.
-Quinten’s views. Jack had nothing ready; nor, indeed, was anything
-“ready” ever expected from him. I, however, had my own ideas as to what
-Jack might do for us. For myself, I confess that I had in my pocket from
-two to three hundred lines of what I conceived would be a very suitable
-introduction, in verse, for the first number. It was my duty, I thought,
-as editor, to provide the magazine with a few initiatory words. I did
-not, however, produce the rhymes on that evening, having learned to feel
-that any strong expression of self on the part of one member at that
-board was not gratifying to the others. I did take some pains in
-composing those lines, and thought at the time that I had been not
-unhappy in mixing the useful with the sweet. How many hours shall I say
-that I devoted to them? Alas, alas, it matters not now! Those words
-which I did love well never met any eye but my own. Though I had them
-then by heart, they were never sounded in any ear. It was not personal
-glory that I desired. They were written that the first number of the
-“Panjandrum” might appear becomingly before the public, and the first
-number of the “Panjandrum” never appeared! I looked at them the other
-day, thinking whether it might be too late for them to serve another
-turn. I will never look at them again.
-
-But from the first starting of the conception of the “Panjandrum” I had
-had a great idea, and that idea was discussed at length on the evening
-of which I am speaking. We must have something that should be sparkling,
-clever, instructive, amusing, philosophical, remarkable, and new, all at
-the same time! That such a thing might be achieved in literature I felt
-convinced. And it must be the work of three or four together. It should
-be something that should force itself into notice, and compel attention.
-It should deal with the greatest questions of humanity, and deal with
-them wisely,--but still should deal with them in a sportive spirit.
-Philosophy and humour might, I was sure, be combined. Social science
-might be taught with witty words, and abstract politics made as
-agreeable as a novel. There had been the “Corn Law Rhymes,”--and the
-“Noctes.” It was, however, essentially necessary that we should be new,
-and therefore I endeavoured,--vainly endeavoured,--to get those old
-things out of my head. Fraser’s people had done a great stroke of
-business by calling their Editor Mr. Yorke. If I could get our people to
-call me Mr. Lancaster, something might come of it. But yet it was so
-needful that we should be new! The idea had been seething in my brain so
-constantly that I had hardly eat or slept free from it for the last six
-weeks. If I could roll Churchill Smith and Jack Hallam into one, throw
-in a dash of Walter Watt’s fine political eagerness, make use of Regan’s
-ready poetical facility, and then control it all by my own literary
-experience, the thing would be done. But it is so hard to blend the
-elements!
-
-I had spoken often of it to Pat, and he had assented. “I’ll do anything
-into rhyme,” he used to say, “if that’s what you mean.” It was not quite
-what I meant. One cannot always convey one’s meaning to another; and
-this difficulty is so infinitely increased when one is not quite clear
-in one’s own mind! And then Pat, who was the kindest fellow in the
-world, and who bore with the utmost patience a restless energy which
-must often have troubled him sorely, had not really his heart in it as I
-had. “If Churchill Smith will send me ever so much of his stuff, I’ll
-put it into Latin or English verse, just as you please,--and I can’t say
-more than that.” It was a great offer to make, but it did not exactly
-reach the point at which I was aiming.
-
-I had spoken to Smith about it also. I knew that if we were to achieve
-success, we must do so in a great measure by the force of his
-intellectual energy. I was not seeking pleasure, but success, and was
-willing therefore to endure the probable discourtesy, or at least want
-of cordiality, which I might encounter from the man. I must acknowledge
-that he listened to me with a rapt attention. Attention so rapt is more
-sometimes than one desires. Could he have helped me with a word or two
-now and again I should have felt myself to be more comfortable with him.
-I am inclined to think that two men get on better together in discussing
-a subject when they each speak a little at random. It creates a
-confidence, and enables a man to go on to the end. Churchill Smith heard
-me without a word, and then remarked that he had been too slow quite to
-catch my idea. Would I explain it again? I did explain it again,--though
-no doubt I was flustered, and blundered. “Certainly,” said Churchill
-Smith, “if we can all be witty and all wise, and all witty and wise at
-the same time, and altogether, it will be very fine. But then, you see,
-I’m never witty, and seldom wise.” The man was so uncongenial that there
-was no getting anything from him. I did not dare to suggest to him that
-he should submit the prose exposition of his ideas to the metrical
-talent of our friend Regan.
-
-As soon as we were assembled I rose upon my legs, saying that I proposed
-to make a few preliminary observations. It certainly was the case that
-at this moment Mrs. St. Quinten was rinsing the teapot, and Mary Jane
-had not yet brought in the muffins. We all know that when men meet
-together for special dinners, the speeches are not commenced till the
-meal is over;--and I would have kept my seat till Jack had done his
-worst with the delicacies, had it not been our practice to discuss our
-business with our plates and cups and saucers still before us. “You
-can’t drink your tea on your legs,” said Jack Hallam. “I have no such
-intention,” said I. “What I have to lay before you will not take a
-minute.” A suggestion, however, came from another quarter that I should
-not be so formal; and Mrs. St. Quinten, touching my sleeve, whispered to
-me a precaution against speech making. I sat down, and remarked in a
-manner that I felt to be ludicrously inefficient, that I had been going
-to propose that the magazine should be opened by a short introductory
-paper. As the reader knows, I had the introduction then in my pocket.
-“Let us dash into the middle of our work at once,” said Walter Watt. “No
-one reads introductions,” said Regan;--my own friend, Pat Regan! “I own
-I don’t think an introduction would do us any particular service,” said
-“Lydia,” turning to me with that smile which was so often used to keep
-us in good-humour. I can safely assert that it was never vainly used on
-me. I did not even bring the verses out of my pocket, and thus I escaped
-at least the tortures of that criticism to which I should have been
-subjected had I been allowed to read them to the company. “So be it,”
-said I. “Let us then dash into the middle of our work at once. It is
-only necessary to have a point settled. Then we can progress.”
-
-After that I was silent for awhile, thinking it well to keep myself in
-the background. But no one seemed to be ready for speech. Walter Watt
-fingered his manuscript uneasily, and Mrs. St. Quinten made some remark
-not distinctly audible as to the sheets on the sofa. “But I must get rid
-of the tray first,” she said. Churchill Smith sat perfectly still with
-his roll in his pocket. “Mrs. St. Quinten and gentlemen,” I said, “I am
-happy to tell you that I have had a contribution handed to me which will
-go far to grace our first number. Our friend Regan has done ‘Lord
-Bateman’ into Latin verse with a Latinity and a rhythm so excellent that
-it will go far to make us at any rate equal to anything else in that
-line.” Then I produced the translated ballad, and the little episode
-took place which I have already described. Mrs. St. Quinten insisted on
-understanding in detail, and it was rejected. “Then upon my word I don’t
-know what you are to get,” said I. “Latin translations are not
-indispensable,” said Walter Watt. “No doubt we can live without them,”
-said Pat, with a fine good humour. He bore the disgrace of having his
-first contribution rejected with admirable patience. There was nothing
-he could not bear. To this day he bears being Attorney-General at the
-Turtle Islands.
-
-Something must be done. “Perhaps,” said I, turning to the lady, “Mrs.
-St. Quinten will begin by giving us her ideas as to our first number.
-She will tell us what she intends to do for us herself.” She was still
-embarrassed by the tea-things. And I acknowledge that I was led to
-appeal to her at that moment because it was so. If I could succeed in
-extracting ideas they would be of infinitely more use to us than the
-reading of manuscript. To get the thing “licked into shape” must be our
-first object. As I had on this evening walked up to the sombre street
-leading into the new road in which Mrs. St. Quinten lived I had declared
-to myself a dozen times that to get the thing “licked into shape” was
-the great desideratum. In my own imaginings I had licked it into some
-shape. I had suggested to myself my own little introductory poem as a
-commencement, and Pat Regan’s Latin ballad as a pretty finish to the
-first number. Then there should be some thirty pages of dialogue,--or
-trialogue,--or hexalogue if necessary, between the different members of
-our Board, each giving, under an assumed name, his view of what a
-perfect magazine should be. This I intended to be the beginning of a
-conversational element which should be maintained in all subsequent
-numbers, and which would enable us in that light and airy fashion which
-becomes a magazine to discuss all subjects of politics, philosophy,
-manners, literature, social science, and even religion if necessary,
-without inflicting on our readers the dulness of a long unbroken essay.
-I was very strong about these conversations, and saw my way to a great
-success,--if I could only get my friends to act in concert with me. Very
-much depended on the names to be chosen, and I had my doubts whether
-Watt and Churchill Smith would consent to this slightly theatrical
-arrangement. Mrs. St. Quinten had already given in her adhesion, but was
-doubting whether she would call herself “Charlotte,”--partly after
-Charlotte Corday and partly after the lady who cut bread and butter, or
-“Mrs. Freeman,”--that name having, as she observed, been used before as
-a nom de plume,--or “Sophronie,” after Madame de Sévigné, who was
-pleased so to call herself among the learned ladies of Madame de
-Rambouillet’s bower. I was altogether in favour of Mrs. Freeman, which
-has the merit of simplicity; but that was a minor point. Jack Hallam had
-chosen his appellation. Somewhere in the Lowlands he had seen over a
-small shop-door the name of John Neverapenny; and “John Neverapenny” he
-would be. I turned it over on my tongue a score of times, and thought
-that perhaps it might do. Pat wanted to call himself “The O’Blazes,” but
-was at last persuaded to adopt the quieter name of “Tipperary,” in which
-county his family had been established since Ireland was,--settled I
-think he said. For myself I was indifferent. They might give me what
-title they pleased. I had had my own notion, but that had been rejected.
-They might call me “Jones” or “Walker,” if they thought proper. But I
-was very much wedded to the idea, and I still think that had it been
-stoutly carried out the results would have been happy.
-
-I was the first to acknowledge that the plan was not new. There had been
-the “Noctes,” and some imitations even of the “Noctes.” But then, what
-is new? The “Noctes” themselves had been imitations from older works. If
-Socrates and Hippias had not conversed, neither probably would Mr. North
-and his friends. “You might as well tell me,” said I, addressing my
-colleagues, “that we must invent a new language, find new forms of
-expression, print our ideas in an unknown type, and impress them on some
-strange paper. Let our thoughts be new,” said I, “and then let us select
-for their manifestation the most convenient form with which experience
-provides us.” But they didn’t see it. Mrs. St. Quinten liked the romance
-of being “Sophronie,” and to Jack and Pat there was some fun in the
-nicknames; but in the real thing for which I was striving they had no
-actual faith. “If I could only lick them into shape,” I had said to
-myself at the last moment, as I was knocking at Mrs. St. Quinten’s door.
-
-Mrs. St. Quinten was nearer, to my way of thinking, in this respect than
-the others; and therefore I appealed to her while the tea-things were
-still before her, thinking that I might obtain from her a suggestion in
-favour of the conversations. The introductory poem and the Latin ballad
-were gone. For spilt milk what wise man weeps? My verses had not even
-left my pocket. Not one there knew that they had been written. And I was
-determined that not one should know. But my conversations might still
-live. Ah, if I could only blend the elements! “Sophronie,” said I,
-taking courage, and speaking with a voice from which all sense of shame
-and fear of failure were intended to be banished; “Sophronie will tell
-us what she intends to do for us herself.”
-
-I looked into my friend’s face and saw that she liked it. But she turned
-to her cousin, Churchill Smith, as though for approval,--and met none.
-“We had better be in earnest,” said Churchill Smith, without moving a
-muscle in his face or giving the slightest return to the glance which
-had fallen upon him from his cousin.
-
-“No one can be more thoroughly in earnest than myself,” I replied.
-
-“Let us have no calling of names,” said Churchill Smith. “It is
-inappropriate, and especially so when a lady is concerned.”
-
-“It has been done scores of times,” I rejoined; “and that too in the
-very highest phases of civilisation, and among the most discreet of
-matrons.”
-
-“It seems to me to be twaddle,” said Walter Watt.
-
-“To my taste it’s abominably vulgar,” said Churchill Smith.
-
-“It has answered very well in other magazines,” said I.
-
-“That’s just the reason we should avoid it,” said Walter Watt.
-
-“I think the thing has been about worn out,” said Pat Regan.
-
-I was now thrown upon my mettle. Rising again upon my legs,--for the
-tea-things had now been removed,--I poured out my convictions, my hopes,
-my fears, my ambitions. If we were thus to disagree on every point, how
-should we ever blend the elements? If we could not forbear with one
-another, how could we hope to act together upon the age as one great
-force? If there was no agreement between us, how could we have the
-strength of union? Then I adverted with all the eloquence of which I
-was master to the great objects to be attained by these imaginary
-conversations. “That we may work together, each using his own
-words,--that is my desire,” I said. And I pointed out to them how
-willing I was to be the least among them in this contest, to content
-myself with simply acting as chorus, and pointing to the lessons of
-wisdom which would fall from out of their mouths. I must say that they
-listened to me on this occasion with great patience. Churchill Smith sat
-there, with his great hollow eyes fixed upon me; and it seemed to me, as
-he looked, that even he was being persuaded. I threw myself into my
-words, and implored them to allow me on this occasion to put them on the
-road to success. When I had finished speaking I looked around, and for a
-moment I thought they were convinced. There was just a whispered word
-between our Sophronie and her cousin, and then she turned to me and
-spoke. I was still standing, and I bent down over her to catch the
-sentence she should pronounce. “Give it up,” she said.
-
-And I gave it up. With what a pang this was done few of my readers can
-probably understand. It had been my dream from my youth upwards. I was
-still young, no doubt, and looking back now I can see how insignificant
-were the aspirations which were then in question. But there is no period
-in a man’s life in which it does not seem to him that his ambition is
-then, at that moment, culminating for him,--till the time comes in which
-he begins to own to himself that his life is not fit for ambition. I had
-believed that I might be the means of doing something, and of doing it
-in this way. Very vague indeed had been my notions;--most crude my
-ideas. I can see that now. What it was that my interlocutors were to say
-to each other I had never clearly known. But I had felt that in this way
-each might speak his own speech without confusion and with delight to
-the reader. The elements, I had thought, might be so blent. Then there
-came that little whisper between Churchill Smith and our Sophronie, and
-I found that I had failed. “Give it up,” said she.
-
-“Oh, of course,” I said, as I sat down; “only just settle what you mean
-to do.” For some few minutes I hardly heard what matters were being
-discussed among them, and, indeed, during the remainder of the evening I
-took no real share in the conversation. I was too deeply wounded even to
-listen. I was resolute at first to abandon the whole affair. I had
-already managed to scrape together the sum of money which had been named
-as the share necessary for each of us to contribute towards the
-production of the first number, and that should be altogether at their
-disposal. As for editing a periodical in the management of which I was
-not allowed to have the slightest voice, that was manifestly out of the
-question. Nor could I contribute when every contribution which I
-suggested was rejected before it was seen. My money I could give them,
-and that no doubt would be welcome. With these gloomy thoughts my mind
-was so full that I actually did not hear the words with which Walter
-Watt and Churchill Smith were discussing the papers proposed for the
-first number.
-
-There was nothing read that evening. No doubt it was visible to them all
-that I was, as it were, a blighted spirit among them. They could not but
-know how hard I had worked, how high had been my hopes, how keen was my
-disappointment;--and they felt for me. Even Churchill Smith, as he shook
-hands with me at the door, spoke a word of encouragement. “Do not expect
-to do things too quickly,” said he. “I don’t expect to do anything,”
-said I. “We may do something even yet,” said he, “if we can be humble,
-and patient, and persevering. We may do something though it be ever so
-little.” I was humble enough certainly, and knew that I had persevered.
-As for patience;--well; I would endeavour even to be patient.
-
-But, prior to that, Mrs. St. Quinten had explained to me the programme
-which had now been settled between the party. We were not to meet again
-till that day fortnight, and then each of us was to come provided with
-matter that would fill twenty-one printed pages of the magazine. This,
-with the title-page, would comprise the whole first number. We might all
-do as we liked with our own pages,--each within his allotted
-space,--filling the whole with one essay, or dividing it into two or
-three short papers. In this way there might be scope for Pat Regan’s
-verse, or for any little badinage in which Jack Hallam might wish to
-express himself. And in order to facilitate our work, and for the sake
-of general accommodation, a page or two might be lent or borrowed.
-“Whatever anybody writes then,” I asked, “must be admitted?” Mrs. St.
-Quinten explained to me that this had not been their decision. The whole
-matter produced was of course to be read,--each contributor’s paper by
-the contributor himself, and it was to be printed and inserted in the
-first number, if any three would vote for its insertion. On this
-occasion the author, of course, would have no vote. The votes were to
-be handed in, written on slips of paper, so that there might be no
-priority in voting,--so that no one should be required to express
-himself before or after his neighbour. It was very complex, but I made
-no objection.
-
-As I walked home alone,--for I had no spirits to join Regan and Jack
-Hallam, who went in search of supper at the Haymarket,--I turned over
-Smith’s words in my mind, and resolved that I would be humble, patient,
-and persevering,--so that something might be done, though it were, as he
-said, ever so little. I would struggle still. Though everything was to
-be managed in a manner adverse to my own ideas and wishes, I would still
-struggle. I would still hope that the “Panjandrum” might become a great
-fact in the literature of my country.
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-PART II.--DESPAIR.
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-
-A fortnight had been given to us to prepare our matter, and during that
-fortnight I saw none of my colleagues. I purposely kept myself apart
-from them in order that I might thus give a fairer chance to the scheme
-which had been adopted. Others might borrow or lend their pages, but I
-would do the work allotted to me, and would attend the next meeting as
-anxious for the establishment and maintenance of the Panjandrum as I had
-been when I had hoped that the great consideration which I had given
-personally to the matter might have been allowed to have some weight.
-And gradually, as I devoted the first day of my fortnight to thinking of
-my work, I taught myself to hope again, and to look forward to a time
-when, by the sheer weight of my own industry and persistency, I might
-acquire that influence with my companions of which I had dreamed of
-becoming the master. After all, could I blame them for not trusting me,
-when as yet I had given them no ground for such confidence? What had I
-done that they should be willing to put their thoughts, their
-aspirations, their very brains and inner selves under my control? But
-something might be done which would force them to regard me as their
-leader. So I worked hard at my twenty-one pages, and during the
-fortnight spoke no word of the “Panjandrum” to any human being.
-
-But my work did not get itself done without very great mental distress.
-The choice of a subject had been left free to each contributor. For
-myself I would almost have preferred that some one should have dictated
-to me the matter to which I should devote myself. How would it be with
-our first number if each of us were to write a political essay of
-exactly twenty-one pages, or a poem of that length in blank verse, or a
-humorous narrative? Good Heavens! How were we to expect success with the
-public if there were no agreement between ourselves as to the nature of
-our contributions no editorial power in existence for our mutual
-support. I went down and saw Mr. X., and found him to be almost
-indifferent as to the magazine. “You see, Sir,” said he, “the matter
-isn’t in my hands. If I can give any assistance, I shall be very happy;
-but it seems to me that you want some one with experience.” “I could
-have put them right if they’d have let me,” I replied. He was very
-civil, but it was quite clear to me that Mr. X.’s interest in the matter
-was over since the day of his banishment from Mrs. St. Quinten’s
-tea-table. “What do you think is a good sort of subject,” I asked
-him,--as it were cursorily; “with a view, you know, to the eye of the
-public, just at the present moment?” He declined to suggest any subject,
-and I was thrown back among the depths of my own feelings and
-convictions. Now, could we have blended our elements together, and
-discussed all this in really amicable council, each would have corrected
-what there might have been of rawness in the other, and in the freedom
-of conversation our wits would have grown from the warmth of mutual
-encouragement. Such, at least, was my belief then. Since that I have
-learned to look at the business with eyes less enthusiastic. Let a man
-have learned the trick of the pen, let him not smoke too many cigars
-overnight, and let him get into his chair within half an hour after
-breakfast, and I can tell you almost to a line how much of a magazine
-article he will produce in three hours. It does not much matter what the
-matter be,--only this, that if his task be that of reviewing, he may be
-expected to supply a double quantity. Three days, three out of the
-fourteen, passed by, and I could think of no fitting subject on which to
-begin the task I had appointed myself of teaching the British public.
-Politics at the moment were rather dull, and no very great question was
-agitating the minds of men. Lord Melbourne was Prime Minister, and had
-in the course of the Session been subjected to the usual party attacks.
-We intended to go a great deal further than Lord Melbourne in advocating
-Liberal measures, and were disposed to regard him and his colleagues as
-antiquated fogies in Statecraft; but, nevertheless, as against Sir
-Robert Peel, we should have given him the benefit of our defence. I did
-not, however, feel any special call to write up Lord Melbourne. Lord
-John was just then our pet minister; but even on his behalf I did not
-find myself capable of filling twenty-one closely-printed pages with
-matter which should really stir the public mind. In a first number, to
-stir the public mind is everything. I didn’t think that my colleagues
-sufficiently realised that fact,--though I had indeed endeavoured to
-explain it to them. In the second, third, or fourth publication you may
-descend gradually to an ordinary level; you may become,--not exactly
-dull, for dulness in a magazine should be avoided,--but what I may
-perhaps call “adagio” as compared with the “con forza” movement with
-which the publication certainly should be opened. No reader expects to
-be supplied from month to month with the cayenne pepper and shallot
-style of literature; but in the preparation of a new literary banquet,
-the first dish cannot be too highly spiced. I knew all that,--and then
-turned it over in my mind whether I could not do something about the
-ballot.
-
-It had never occurred to me before that there could be any difficulty in
-finding a subject. I had to reject the ballot because at that period of
-my life I had, in fact, hardly studied the subject. I was Liberal, and
-indeed Radical, in all my political ideas. I was ready to “go in” for
-anything that was undoubtedly Liberal and Radical. In a general way I
-was as firm in my politics as any member of the House of Commons, and
-had thought as much on public subjects as some of them. I was an eager
-supporter of the ballot. But when I took the pen in my hand there came
-upon me a feeling that,--that,--that I didn’t exactly know how to say
-anything about it that other people would care to read. The twenty-one
-pages loomed before me as a wilderness, which, with such a staff, I
-could never traverse. It had not occurred to me before that it would be
-so difficult for a man to evoke from his mind ideas on a subject with
-which he supposed himself to be familiar. And, such thoughts as I had, I
-could clothe in no fitting words. On the fifth morning, driven to
-despair, I did write a page or two upon the ballot; and then,--sinking
-back in my chair, I began to ask myself a question, as to which doubt
-was terrible to me. Was this the kind of work to which my gifts were
-applicable? The pages which I had already written were manifestly not
-adapted to stir the public mind. The sixth and seventh days I passed
-altogether within my room, never once leaving the house. I drank green
-tea. I eat meat very slightly cooked. I debarred myself from food for
-several hours, so that the flesh might be kept well under. I sat up one
-night, nearly till daybreak, with a wet towel round my head. On the next
-I got up, and lit my own fire at four o’clock. Thinking that I might be
-stretching the cord too tight, I took to reading a novel, but could not
-remember the words as I read them, so painfully anxious was I to produce
-the work I had undertaken to perform. On the morning of the eighth day
-I was still without a subject.
-
-I felt like the man who undertook to play the violin at a dance for five
-shillings and a dinner,--the dinner to be paid in advance; but who, when
-making his bargain, had forgotten that he had never learned a note of
-music! I had undertaken even to lead the band, and, as it seemed, could
-not evoke a sound. A horrid idea came upon me that I was struck, as it
-were, with a sudden idiotcy. My mind had absolutely fled from me. I sat
-in my arm-chair, looking at the wall, counting the pattern on the paper,
-and hardly making any real effort to think. All the world seemed at once
-to have become a blank to me. I went on muttering to myself, “No, the
-ballot won’t do;” as though there was nothing else but the ballot with
-which to stir the public mind. On the eighth morning I made a minute and
-quite correct calculation of the number of words that were demanded of
-me,--taking the whole as forty-two pages, because of the necessity of
-recopying,--and I found that about four hours a day would be required
-for the mere act of writing. The paper was there, and the pen and
-ink;--but beyond that there was nothing ready. I had thought to rack my
-brain, but I began to doubt whether I had a brain to rack. Of all those
-matters of public interest which had hitherto been to me the very salt
-of my life, I could not remember one which could possibly be converted
-into twenty-one pages of type. Unconsciously I kept on muttering words
-about the ballot. “The ballot be ----!” I said, aloud to myself in my
-agony.
-
-On that Sunday evening I began to consider what excuse I might best make
-to my colleagues. I might send and say I was very sick. I might face
-them, and quarrel with them,--because of their ill-treatment of me. Or I
-might tell only half a lie, keeping within the letter of the truth, and
-say that I had not yet finished my work. But no. I would not lie at all.
-Late on that Sunday evening there came upon me a grand idea. I would
-stand up before them and confess my inability to do the work I had
-undertaken. I arranged the words of my little speech, and almost took
-delight in them. “I, who have intended to be a teacher, am now aware
-that I have hardly as yet become a pupil.” In such case the “Panjandrum”
-would be at an end. The elements had not been happily blended; but
-without me they could not, I was sure, be kept in any concert. The
-“Panjandrum,”--which I had already learned to love as a mother loves
-her first-born,--the dear old “Panjandrum” must perish before its birth.
-I felt the pity of it! The thing itself,--the idea and theory of it, had
-been very good. But how shall a man put forth a magazine when he finds
-himself unable to write a page of it within the compass of a week? The
-meditations of that Sunday were very bitter, but perhaps they were
-useful. I had long since perceived that mankind are divided into two
-classes,--those who shall speak, and those who shall listen to the
-speech of others. In seeing clearly the existence of such a division I
-had hitherto always assumed myself to belong to the first class. Might
-it not be probable that I had made a mistake, and that it would become
-me modestly to take my allotted place in the second?
-
-On the Monday morning I began to think that I was ill, and resolved that
-I would take my hat and go out into the park, and breathe some air,--let
-the “Panjandrum” live or die. Such another week as the last would, I
-fancied, send me to Hanwell. It was now November, and at ten o’clock,
-when I looked out, there was a soft drizzling rain coming down, and the
-pavement of the street was deserted. It was just the morning for work,
-were work possible. There still lay on the little table in the corner
-of the room the square single sheet of paper, with its margin doubled
-down, all fitted for the printer,--only that the sheet was still blank.
-I looked at the page, and I rubbed my brow, and I gazed into the
-street,--and then determined that a two hours’ ring round the Regent’s
-Park was the only chance left for me.
-
-As I put on my thick boots and old hat and prepared myself for a
-thorough wetting, I felt as though at last I had hit upon the right
-plan. Violent exercise was needed, and then inspiration might come.
-Inspiration would come the sooner if I could divest myself from all
-effort in searching for it. I would take my walk and employ my mind,
-simply, in observing the world around me. For some distance there was
-but little of the world to observe. I was lodging at this period in a
-quiet and eligible street not far from Theobald’s Road. Thence my way
-lay through Bloomsbury Square, Russell Square, and Gower Street, and as
-I went I found the pavement to be almost deserted. The thick soft rain
-came down, not with a splash and various currents, running off and
-leaving things washed though wet, but gently insinuating itself
-everywhere, and covering even the flags with mud. I cared nothing for
-the mud. I went through it all with a happy scorn for the poor
-creatures who were endeavouring to defend their clothes with umbrellas.
-“Let the heavens do their worst to me,” I said to myself as I spun along
-with eager steps; and I was conscious of a feeling that external
-injuries could avail me nothing if I could only cure the weakness that
-was within.
-
-The Park too was nearly empty. No place in London is ever empty now, but
-thirty years ago the population was palpably thinner. I had not come
-out, however, to find a crowd. A damp boy sweeping a crossing, or an old
-woman trying to sell an apple, was sufficient to fill my mind with
-thoughts as to the affairs of my fellow-creatures. Why should it have
-been allotted to that old woman to sit there, placing all her hopes on
-the chance sale of a few apples, the cold rain entering her very bones
-and driving rheumatism into all her joints, while another old woman, of
-whom I had read a paragraph that morning, was appointed to entertain
-royalty, and go about the country with five or six carriages and four?
-Was there injustice in this,--and if so, whence had the injustice come?
-The reflection was probably not new; but, if properly thought out, might
-it not suffice for the one-and-twenty pages? “Sally Brown, the
-barrow-woman, _v._ the Duchess of ----!” Would it not be possible to
-make the two women plead against each other in some imaginary court of
-justice, beyond the limits of our conventional life,--some court in
-which the duchess should be forced to argue her own case, and in which
-the barrow-woman would decidedly get the better of her? If this could be
-done how happy would have been my walk through the mud and slush!
-
-As I was thinking of this I saw before me on the pathway a stout
-woman,--apparently middle-aged, but her back was towards me,--leading a
-girl who perhaps might be ten or eleven years old. They had come up one
-of the streets from the New Road to the Park, and were hurrying along so
-fast that the girl, who held the woman by the arm, was almost running.
-The woman was evidently a servant, but in authority,--an upper nurse
-perhaps, or a housekeeper. Why she should have brought her charge out in
-the rain was a mystery; but I could see from the elasticity of the
-child’s step that she was happy and very eager. She was a well-made
-girl, with long well-rounded legs, which came freely down beneath her
-frock, with strong firm boots, a straw hat, and a plaid shawl wound
-carefully round her throat and waist. As I followed them those rapid
-legs of hers seemed almost to twinkle in their motion as she kept pace
-with the stout woman who was conducting her. The mud was all over her
-stockings; but still there was about her an air of well-to-do comfort
-which made me feel that the mud was no more than a joke to her. Every
-now and then I caught something of a glimpse of her face as she half
-turned herself round in talking to the woman. I could see, or at least I
-could fancy that I saw, that she was fair, with large round eyes and
-soft light brown hair. Children did not then wear wigs upon their backs,
-and I was driven to exercise my fancy as to her locks. At last I
-resolved that I would pass them and have one look at her--and I did so.
-It put me to my best pace to do it, but gradually I overtook them and
-could hear that the girl never ceased talking as she ran. As I went by
-them I distinctly heard the words, “Oh, Anne, I do so wonder what he’s
-like!” “You’ll see, Miss,” said Anne. I looked back and saw that she was
-exactly as I had thought,--a fair, strong, healthy girl, with round eyes
-and large mouth, broad well-formed nose, and light hair. Who was the
-“he,” as to whom her anxiety was so great,--the “he” whom she was
-tripping along through the rain and mud to see, and kiss, and love, and
-wonder at? And why hadn’t she been taken in a cab? Would she be allowed
-to take off those very dirty stockings before she was introduced to her
-new-found brother, or wrapped in the arms of her stranger father?
-
-I saw no more of them, and heard no further word; but I thought a great
-deal of the girl. Ah, me, if she could have been a young unknown,
-newly-found sister of my own, how warmly would I have welcomed her! How
-little should I have cared for the mud on her stockings; how closely
-would I have folded her in my arms; how anxious would I have been with
-Anne as to those damp clothes; what delight would I have had in feeding
-her, coaxing her, caressing her, and playing with her! There had seemed
-to belong to her a wholesome strong health, which it had made me for the
-moment happy even to witness. And then the sweet, eloquent anxiety of
-her voice,--“Oh, Anne, I do so wonder what he’s like!” While I heard her
-voice I had seemed to hear and know so much of her! And then she had
-passed out of my ken for ever!
-
-I thought no more about the duchess and the apple-woman, but devoted my
-mind entirely to the girl and her brother. I was persuaded that it must
-be a brother. Had it been a father there would have been more of awe in
-her tone. It certainly was a brother. Gradually, as the unforced
-imagination came to play upon the matter, a little picture fashioned
-itself in my mind. The girl was my own sister--a sister whom I had never
-seen till she was thus brought to me for protection and love; but she
-was older, just budding into womanhood, instead of running beside her
-nurse with twinkling legs. There, however, was the same broad, honest
-face, the same round eyes, the same strong nose and mouth. She had come
-to me for love and protection, having no other friend in the world to
-trust. But, having me, I proudly declared to myself that she needed
-nothing further. In two short months I was nothing to her,--or almost
-nothing. I had a friend, and in two little months my friend had become
-so much more than I ever could have been!
-
-These wondrous castles in the air never get themselves well built when
-the mind, with premeditated skill and labour, sets itself to work to
-build them. It is when they come uncalled for that they stand erect and
-strong before the mind’s eye, with every mullioned window perfect, the
-rounded walls all there, the embrasures cut, the fosse dug, and the
-drawbridge down. As I had made this castle for myself, as I had sat with
-this girl by my side, calling her the sweetest names, as I had seen her
-blush when my friend came near her, and had known at once, with a mixed
-agony and joy, how the thing was to be, I swear that I never once
-thought of the “Panjandrum.” I walked the whole round of the Regent’s
-Park, perfecting the building; and I did perfect it, took the girl to
-church, gave her away to my friend Walker, and came back and sobbed and
-sputtered out my speech at the little breakfast, before it occurred to
-me to suggest to myself that I might use the thing.
-
-Churchill Smith and Walter Watt had been dead against a novel; and,
-indeed, the matter had been put to the vote, and it had been decided
-that there should be no novel. But, what is a novel? The purport of that
-vote had been to negative a long serial tale, running on from number to
-number, in a manner which has since become well understood by the
-reading public. I had thought my colleagues wrong, and so thinking, it
-was clearly my duty to correct their error, if I might do so without
-infringing that loyalty and general obedience to expressed authority
-which are so essential to such a society as ours. Before I had got back
-to Theobald’s Road I had persuaded myself that a short tale would be the
-very thing for the first number. It might not stir the public mind. To
-do that I would leave to Churchill Smith and Walter Watt. But a
-well-formed little story, such as that of which I had now the full
-possession, would fall on the readers of the “Panjandrum” like sweet
-rain in summer, making things fresh and green and joyous. I was quite
-sure that it was needed. Walter Watt might say what he pleased, and
-Churchill Smith might look at me as sternly as he would, sitting there
-silent with his forehead on his hand; but I knew at least as much about
-a magazine as they did. At any rate, I would write my tale. That very
-morning it had seemed to me to be impossible to get anything written.
-Now, as I hurried up stairs to get rid of my wet clothes, I felt that I
-could not take the pen quickly enough into my hand. I had a thing to
-say, and I would say it. If I could complete my story,--and I did not
-doubt its completion from the very moment in which I realised its
-conception,--I should be saved, at any rate, from the disgrace of
-appearing empty-handed in Mrs. St. Quinten’s parlour. Within a quarter
-of an hour of my arrival at home I had seated myself at my table and
-written the name of the tale,--“The New Inmate.”
-
-I doubt whether any five days in my life were ever happier than those
-which were devoted to this piece of work. I began it that Monday
-afternoon, and finished it on the Friday night. While I was at the task
-all doubt vanished from my mind. I did not care a fig for Watt or
-Smith, and was quite sure that I should carry Mrs. St. Quinten with me.
-Each night I copied fairly what I had written in the day, and I came to
-love the thing with an exceeding love. There was a deal of pathos in
-it,--at least so I thought,--and I cried over it like a child. I had
-strained all my means to prepare for the coming of the girl,--I am now
-going back for a moment to my castle in the air,--and had furnished for
-her a little sitting-room and as pretty a white-curtained chamber as a
-girl ever took pleasure in calling her own. There were books for her,
-and a small piano, and a low sofa, and all little feminine belongings. I
-had said to myself that everything should be for her, and I had sold my
-horse,--the horse of my imagination, the reader will understand, for I
-had never in truth possessed such an animal,--and told my club friends
-that I should no longer be one of them. Then the girl had come, and had
-gone away to Walker,--as it seemed to me at once,--to Walker, who still
-lived in lodgings, and had not even a second sitting-room for her
-comfort,--to Walker, who was, indeed, a good fellow in his way, but
-possessed of no particular attractions either in wit, manners, or
-beauty! I wanted them to change with me, and to take my pretty home. I
-should have been delighted to go to a garret, leaving them everything.
-But Walker was proud, and would not have it so; and the girl protested
-that the piano and the white dimity curtains were nothing to her. Walker
-was everything;--Walker, of whom she had never heard, when she came but
-a few weeks since to me as the only friend left to her in the world! I
-worked myself up to such a pitch of feeling over my story, that I could
-hardly write it for my tears. I saw myself standing all alone in that
-pretty sitting-room after they were gone, and I pitied myself with an
-exceeding pity. “Si vis me flere, dolendum est primum ipsi tibi.” If
-success was to be obtained by obeying that instruction, I might
-certainly expect success.
-
-The way in which my work went without a pause was delightful. When the
-pen was not in my hand I was longing for it. While I was walking,
-eating, or reading, I was still thinking of my story. I dreamt of it. It
-came to me to be a matter that admitted of no doubt. The girl with the
-muddy stockings, who had thus provided me in my need, was to me a
-blessed memory. When I kissed my sister’s brow, on her first arrival,
-she was in my arms,--palpably. All her sweetnesses were present to me,
-as though I had her there, in the little street turning out of
-Theobald’s Road. To this moment I can distinguish the voice in which she
-spoke to me that little whispered word, when I asked her whether she
-cared for Walker. When one thinks of it, the reality of it all is
-appalling. What need is there of a sister or a friend in the flesh,--a
-sister or a friend with probably so many faults,--when by a little
-exercise of the mind they may be there at your elbow, faultless? It came
-to pass that the tale was more dear to me than the magazine. As I read
-it through for the third or fourth time on the Sunday morning, I was
-chiefly anxious for the “Panjandrum,” in order that “The New Inmate”
-might see the world.
-
-We were to meet that evening at eight o’clock, and it was understood
-that the sitting would be prolonged to a late hour, because of the
-readings. It would fall to my lot to take the second reading, as coming
-next to Mrs. St. Quinten, and I should, at any rate, not be subjected to
-a weary audience. We had, however, promised each other to be very
-patient; and I was resolved that, even to the production of Churchill
-Smith, who would be the last, I would give an undivided and eager
-attention. I determined also in my joy that I would vote against the
-insertion of no colleague’s contribution. Were we not in a boat
-together, and would not each do his best? Even though a paper might be
-dull, better a little dulness than the crushing of a friend’s spirit. I
-fear that I thought that “The New Inmate” might atone for much dulness.
-I dined early on that day; then took a walk round the Regent’s Park, to
-renew my thoughts on the very spot on which they had first occurred to
-me, and after that, returning home, gave a last touch to my work. Though
-it had been written after so hurried a fashion, there was not a word in
-it which I had not weighed and found to be fitting.
-
-I was the first at Mrs. St. Quinten’s house, and found that lady very
-full of the magazine. She asked, however, no questions as to my
-contribution. Of her own she at once spoke to me. “What do you think I
-have done at last?” she said. In my reply to her question I made some
-slight allusion to “The New Inmate,” but I don’t think she caught the
-words. “I have reviewed Bishop Berkeley’s whole Theory on Matter,” said
-she. What feeling I expressed by my gesture I cannot say, but I think it
-must have been one of great awe. “And I have done it exhaustively,” she
-continued; “so that the subject need not be continued. Churchill does
-not like continuations.” Perhaps it did not signify much. If she were
-heavy, I at any rate was light. If her work should prove difficult of
-comprehension, mine was easy. If she spoke only to the wise and old, I
-had addressed myself to babes and sucklings. I said something as to the
-contrast, again naming my little story. But she was too full of Bishop
-Berkeley to heed me. If she had worked as I had worked, of course she
-was full of Bishop Berkeley. To me, “The New Inmate” at that moment was
-more than all the bishops.
-
-The other men soon came in, clustering together, and our number was
-complete. Regan whispered to me that Jack Hallam had not written a line.
-“And you?” I asked. “Oh, I am all right,” said he. “I don’t suppose
-they’ll let it pass; but that’s their affair;--not mine.” Watt and Smith
-took their places almost without speaking, and preparation was made for
-the preliminary feast of the body. The after-feast was a matter of such
-vital importance to us that we hardly possessed our customary
-light-hearted elasticity. There was, however, an air of subdued triumph
-about our “Lydia,”--of triumph subdued by the presence of her cousin. As
-for myself, I was supremely happy. I said a word to Watt, asking him as
-to his performance. “I don’t suppose you will like it,” he replied; “but
-it is at any rate a fair specimen of that which it has been my ambition
-to produce.” I assured him with enthusiasm that I was thoroughly
-prepared to approve, and that, too, without carping criticism. “But we
-must be critics,” he observed. Of Churchill Smith I asked no question.
-
-When we had eaten and drunk we began the work of the evening by giving
-in the names of our papers, and describing the nature of the work we had
-done. Mrs. St. Quinten was the first, and read her title from a scrap of
-paper. “A Review of Bishop Berkeley’s Theory.” Churchill Smith remarked
-that it was a very dangerous subject. The lady begged him to wait till
-he should hear the paper read. “Of course I will hear it read,” said her
-cousin. To me it was evident that Smith would object to this essay
-without any scruple, if he did not in truth approve of it. Then it was
-my turn, and I explained in the quietest tone which I could assume that
-I had written a little tale called “The New Inmate.” It was very simple,
-I said, but I trusted it might not be rejected on that score. There was
-silence for a moment, and I prompted Regan to proceed; but I was
-interrupted by Walter Watt. “I thought,” said he, “that we had
-positively decided against ‘prose fiction.’” I protested that the
-decision had been given against novels, against long serial stories to
-be continued from number to number. This was a little thing, completed
-within my twenty-one allotted pages. “Our vote was taken as to prose
-fiction,” said Watt. I appealed to Hallam, who at once took my part,--as
-also did Regan. “Walter is quite correct as to the purport of our
-decision,” said Churchill Smith. I turned to Mrs. St. Quinten. “I don’t
-see why we shouldn’t have a short story,” she said. I then declared that
-with their permission I would at any rate read it, and again requested
-Regan to proceed. Upon this Walter Watt rose upon his feet, and made a
-speech. The vote had been taken, and could not be rescinded. After such
-a vote it was not open to me to read my story. The story, no doubt, was
-very good,--he was pleased to say so,--but it was not matter of the sort
-which they intended to use. Seeing the purpose which they had in view,
-he thought that the reading of the story would be waste of time. “It
-will clearly be waste of time,” said Churchill Smith. Walter Watt went
-on to explain to us that if from one meeting to another we did not allow
-ourselves to be bound by our own decisions, we should never appear
-before the public.
-
-I will acknowledge that I was enraged. It seemed to me impossible that
-such folly should be allowed to prevail, or that after all my efforts I
-should be treated by my own friends after such a fashion. I also got
-upon my legs and protested loudly that Mr. Watt and Mr. Smith did not
-even know what had been the subject under discussion, when the vote
-adverse to novels had been taken. No record was kept of our proceedings;
-and, as I clearly showed to them, Mr. Regan and Mr. Hallam were quite as
-likely to hold correct views on this subject as were Mr. Watt and Mr.
-Smith. All calling of men Pat, and Jack, and Walter, was for the moment
-over. Watt admitted the truth of this argument, and declared that they
-must again decide whether my story of “The New Inmate” was or was not a
-novel in the sense intended when the previous vote was taken. If
-not,--if the decision on that point should be in my favour,--then the
-privilege of reading it would at any rate belong to me. I believed so
-thoroughly in my own work that I desired nothing beyond this. We went to
-work, therefore, and took the votes on the proposition,--Was or was not
-the story of “The New Inmate” debarred by the previous resolution
-against the admission of novels?
-
-The decision manifestly rested with Mrs. St. Quinten. I was master,
-easily master, of three votes. Hallam and Regan were altogether with me,
-and in a matter of such import I had no hesitation in voting for
-myself. Had the question been the acceptance or rejection of the story
-for the magazine, then, by the nature of our constitution, I should have
-had no voice in the matter. But this was not the case, and I recorded my
-own vote in my own favour without a blush. Having done so, I turned to
-Mrs. St. Quinten with an air of supplication in my face of which I
-myself was aware, and of which I became at once ashamed. She looked
-round at me almost furtively, keeping her eyes otherwise fixed upon
-Churchill Smith’s immovable countenance. I did not condescend to speak a
-word to her. What words I had to say, I had spoken to them all, and was
-confident in the justice of my cause. I quickly dropped that look of
-supplication and threw myself back in my chair. The moment was one of
-intense interest, almost of agony, but I could not allow myself to think
-that in very truth my work would be rejected by them before it was seen.
-If such were to be their decision, how would it be possible that the
-“Panjandrum” should ever be brought into existence? Who could endure
-such ignominy and still persevere?
-
-There was silence among us, which to me in the intensity of my feelings
-seemed to last for minutes. Regan was the first to speak. “Now, Mrs. St.
-Quinten,” he said, “it all rests with you.” An idea shot across my mind
-at the moment, of the folly of which we had been guilty in placing our
-most vital interests in the hands of a woman merely on the score of
-gallantry. Two votes had been given to her as against one of ours simply
-because,--she was a woman. It may be that there had been something in
-the arrangement of compensation for the tea and muffins; but if so, how
-poor was the cause for so great an effect! She sat there the arbiter of
-our destinies. “You had better give your vote,” said Smith roughly. “You
-think it is a novel?” she said, appealing to him. “There can be no doubt
-of it,” he replied; “a novel is not a novel because it is long or short.
-Such is the matter which we intended to declare that we would not put
-forth in our magazine.” “I protest,” said I, jumping up,--“I protest
-against this interference.”
-
-Then there was a loud and very angry discussion whether Churchill Smith
-was justified in his endeavour to bias Mrs. St. Quinten; and we were
-nearly brought to a vote upon that. I myself was very anxious to have
-that question decided,--to have any question decided in which Churchill
-Smith could be shown to be in the wrong. But no one would back me, and
-it seemed to me as though even Regan and Jack Hallam were falling off
-from me,--though Jack had never yet restored to me that article of
-clothing to which allusion was made in the first chapter of this little
-history, and I had been almost as anxious for Pat’s Latin translation as
-for my own production. It was decided without a vote that any amount of
-free questioning as to each other’s opinions, and of free answering, was
-to be considered fair. “I tell her my opinion. You can tell her yours,”
-said Churchill Smith. “It is my opinion,” said I, “that you want to
-dictate to everybody and to rule the whole thing.” “I think we did mean
-to exclude all story-telling,” said Mrs. St. Quinten, and so the
-decision was given against me.
-
-Looking back at it I know that they were right on the exact point then
-under discussion. They had intended to exclude all stories. But,--heaven
-and earth,--was there ever such folly as that of which they had been
-guilty in coming to such a resolution? I have often suggested to myself
-since, that had “The New Inmate” been read on that evening, the
-“Panjandrum” might have become a living reality, and that the fortieth
-volume of the publication might now have been standing on the shelves of
-many a well-filled library. The decision, however, had been given
-against me, and I sat like one stricken dumb, paralysed, or turned to
-stone. I remember it as though it were yesterday. I did not speak a
-word, but simply moving my chair an inch or two, I turned my face away
-from the lady who had thus blasted all my hopes. I fear that my eyes
-were wet, and that a hot tear trickled down each cheek. No note of
-triumph was sounded, and I verily believe they all suffered in my too
-conspicuous sufferings. To both Watt and Smith it had been a matter of
-pure conscience. Mrs. St. Quinten, woman-like, had obeyed the man in
-whose strength she trusted. There was silence for a few moments, and
-then Watt invited Regan to proceed. He had divided his work into three
-portions, but what they were called, whether they were verse or prose,
-translations or original, comic or serious, I never knew. I could not
-listen then. For me to continue my services to the “Panjandrum” was an
-impossibility. I had been crushed--so crushed that I had not vitality
-left me to escape from the room, or I should not have remained there.
-Pat Regan’s papers were nothing to me now. Watt I knew had written an
-essay called “The Real Aristocrat,” which was published elsewhere
-afterwards. Jack Hallam’s work was not ready. There was something said
-of his delinquency, but I cared not what. I only wish that my work also
-had been unready. Churchill Smith also had some essay, “On the Basis of
-Political Right.” That, if I remember rightly, was its title. I often
-talked the matter over in after days with Pat Regan, and I know that
-from the moment in which my consternation was made apparent to them, the
-thing went very heavily. At the time, and for some hours after the
-adverse decision, I was altogether unmanned and unable to collect my
-thoughts. Before the evening was over there occurred a further episode
-in our affairs which awakened me.
-
-The names of the papers had been given in, and Mrs. St. Quinten began to
-read her essay. Nothing more than the drone of her voice reached the
-tympanum of my ears. I did not look at her, or think of her, or care to
-hear a word that she uttered. I believe I almost slept in my agony; but
-sleeping or waking I was turning over in my mind, wearily and incapably,
-the idea of declining to give any opinion as to the propriety of
-inserting or rejecting the review of Bishop Berkeley’s theory, on the
-score that my connection with the “Panjandrum” had been severed. But the
-sound of the reading went on, and I did not make up my mind. I hardly
-endeavoured to make it up, but sat dreamily revelling in my own
-grievance, and pondering over the suicidal folly of the “Panjandrum”
-Company. The reading went on and on without interruption, without
-question and without applause. I know I slept during some portion of the
-time, for I remember that Regan kicked my shin. And I remember, also, a
-feeling of compassion for the reader, who was hardly able to rouse
-herself up to the pitch of spirit necessary for the occasion,--but
-allowed herself to be quelled by the cold steady gaze of her cousin
-Churchill. Watt sat immovable, with his hands in his trousers pockets,
-leaning back in his chair, the very picture of dispassionate criticism.
-Jack Hallam amused himself by firing paper pellets at Regan, sundry of
-which struck me on the head and face. Once Mrs. St. Quinten burst forth
-in offence. “Mr. Hallam,” she said, “I am sorry to be so tedious.” “I
-like it of all things,” said Jack. It was certainly very long. Half
-comatose, as I was, with my own sufferings, I had begun to ask myself
-before Mrs. St. Quinten had finished her task whether it would be
-possible to endure three other readings lengthy as this. Ah! if I might
-have read “My New Inmate,” how different would the feeling have been! Of
-what the lady said about Berkeley, I did not catch a word; but the name
-of the philosophical bishop seemed to be repeated usque ad nauseam. Of a
-sudden I was aware that I had snored,--a kick from Pat Regan wounded my
-shin; a pellet from Jack Hallam fell on my nose; and the essay was
-completed. I looked up, and could see that drops of perspiration were
-standing on the lady’s brow.
-
-There was a pause, and even I was now aroused to attention. We were to
-write our verdicts on paper,--simply the word, “Insert,” or
-“Reject,”--and what should I write? Instead of doing so, should I
-declare at once that I was severed from the “Panjandrum” by the
-treatment I had received? That I was severed, in fact, I was very sure.
-Could any human flesh and blood have continued its services to any
-magazine after such humiliation as I had suffered? Nevertheless it might
-perhaps be more manly were I to accept the responsibility of voting on
-the present occasion,--and if so, how should I vote? I had not followed
-a single sentence, and yet I was convinced that matter such as that
-would never stir the British public mind. But as the thing went, we were
-not called upon for our formal verdicts. “Lydia,” as soon as she had
-done reading, turned at once to her cousin. She cared for no verdict but
-his. “Well,” said she, “what do you think of it?” At first he did not
-answer. “I know I read it badly,” she continued, “but I hope you caught
-my meaning.”
-
-“It is utter nonsense,” he said, without moving his head.
-
-“Oh, Churchill!” she exclaimed.
-
-“It is utter nonsense,” he repeated. “It is out of the question that it
-should be published.” She glanced her eyes round the company, but
-ventured no spoken appeal. Jack Hallam said something about unnecessary
-severity and want of courtesy. Watt simply shook his head. “I say it is
-trash,” said Smith, rising from his chair. “You shall not disgrace
-yourself. Give it to me.” She put her hand upon the manuscript, as
-though to save it. “Give it to me,” he said sternly, and took it from
-her unresisting grasp. Then he stalked to the fire, and tearing the
-sheets in pieces, thrust them between the bars.
-
-Of course there was a great commotion. We were all up in a moment,
-standing around her as though to console her. Miss Collins came in and
-absolutely wept over her ill-used friend. For the instant I had
-forgotten “The New Inmate,” as though it had never been written. She was
-deluged in tears, hiding her face upon the table; but she uttered no
-word of reproach, and ventured not a syllable in defence of her essay.
-“I didn’t think it was so bad as that,” she murmured amidst her sobs. I
-did not dare to accuse the man of cruelty. I myself had become so small
-among them that my voice would have had no weight. But I did think him
-cruel, and hated him on her account as well as on my own. Jack Hallam
-remarked that for this night, at least, our work must be considered to
-be over. “It is over altogether,” said Churchill Smith. “I have known
-that for weeks past; and I have known, too, what fools we have been to
-make the attempt. I hope, at least, that we may have learnt a lesson
-that will be of service to us. Perhaps you had better go now, and I’ll
-just say a word or two to my cousin before I leave her.”
-
-How we got out of the room I hardly remember. There was, no doubt, some
-leave-taking between us four and the unfortunate Lydia, but it amounted,
-I think, to no more than mere decency required. To Churchill Smith I
-know that I did not speak. I never saw either of the cousins again; nor,
-as has been already told, did I ever distinctly hear what was their fate
-in life. And yet how intimately connected with them had I been for the
-last six or eight months! For not calling upon her, so that we might
-have mingled the tears of our disappointment together, I much blamed
-myself; but the subject which we must have discussed,--the failure,
-namely, of the “Panjandrum,”--was one so sore and full of sorrow, that I
-could not bring myself to face the interview. Churchill Smith, I know,
-made various efforts to obtain literary employment; but never succeeded,
-because he would yield no inch in the expression of his own violent
-opinions. I doubt whether he ever earned as much as £10 by his writings.
-I heard of his living,--and almost starving,--still in London, and then
-that he went to fight for Polish freedom. It is believed that he died in
-a Russian prison, but I could never find any one who knew with accuracy
-the circumstances of his fate. He was a man who could go forth with his
-life in his hand, and in meeting death could feel that he encountered
-only that which he had expected. Mrs. St. Quinten certainly vanished
-during the next summer from the street in which she had bestowed upon us
-so many muffins, and what became of her I never heard.
-
-On that evening Pat Regan and I consoled ourselves together as best we
-might, Jack Hallam and Walter Watt having parted from us under the walls
-of Marylebone Workhouse. Pat and I walked down to a modest house of
-refreshment with which we were acquainted in Leicester Square, and there
-arranged the obsequies of the “Panjandrum” over a pint of stout and a
-baked potato. Pat’s equanimity was marvellous. It had not even yet been
-ruffled, although the indignities thrown upon him had almost surpassed
-those inflicted on myself. His “Lord Bateman” had been first rejected;
-and, after that, his subsequent contributions had been absolutely
-ignored, merely because Mr. Churchill Smith had not approved his
-cousin’s essay upon Bishop Berkeley! “It was rot; real rot,” said Pat,
-alluding to Lydia’s essay, and apologising for Smith. “But why not have
-gone on and heard yours?” said I. “Mine would have been rot, too,” said
-Pat. “It isn’t so easy, after all, to do this kind of thing.”
-
-We agreed that the obsequies should be very private. Indeed, as the
-“Panjandrum” had as yet not had a body of its own, it was hardly
-necessary to open the earth for the purposes of interment. We agreed
-simply to say nothing about it to any one. I would go to Mr. X. and tell
-him that we had abandoned our project, and there would be an end of it.
-As the night advanced, I offered to read “The New Inmate” to my friend;
-but he truly remarked that of reading aloud they had surely had enough
-that night. When he reflected that but for the violence of Mr. Smith’s
-proceedings we might even then, at that moment, have been listening to
-an essay upon the “Basis of Political Rights,” I think that he rejoiced
-that the “Panjandrum” was no more.
-
-On the following morning I called on Mr. X., and explained to him that
-portion of the occurrences of the previous evening with which it was
-necessary that he should be made acquainted. I thought that he was
-rather brusque; but I cannot complain that he was, upon the whole,
-unfriendly. “The truth is, Sir,” he said, “you none of you exactly knew
-what you wanted to be after. You were very anxious to do something
-grand, but hadn’t got this grand thing clear before your eye. People,
-you know, may have too much genius, or may have too little.” Which of
-the two he thought was our case he did not say; but he did promise to
-hear my story of “The New Inmate” read, with reference to its possible
-insertion in another periodical publication with which he had lately
-become connected. Perhaps some of my readers may remember its appearance
-in the first number of the “Marble Arch,” where it attracted no little
-attention, and was supposed to have given assistance, not altogether
-despicable, towards the establishment of that excellent periodical.
-
-Such was the history of the “Panjandrum.”
-
-
-
-
-THE SPOTTED DOG.
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-
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-
-
-THE SPOTTED DOG.
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-
-PART I.--THE ATTEMPT.
-
-
-Some few years since we received the following letter:--
-
-“DEAR SIR,
-
- “I write to you for literary employment, and I implore you to
- provide me with it if it be within your power to do so. My capacity
- for such work is not small, and my acquirements are considerable.
- My need is very great, and my views in regard to remuneration are
- modest. I was educated at ----, and was afterwards a scholar of
- ---- College, Cambridge. I left the university without a degree, in
- consequence of a quarrel with the college tutor. I was rusticated,
- and not allowed to return. After that I became for awhile a student
- for the Chancery Bar. I then lived for some years in Paris, and I
- understand and speak French as though it were my own language. For
- all purposes of literature I am equally conversant with German. I
- read Italian. I am, of course, familiar with Latin. In regard to
- Greek I will only say that I am less ignorant of it than
- nineteen-twentieths of our national scholars. I am well read in
- modern and ancient history. I have especially studied political
- economy. I have not neglected other matters necessary to the
- education of an enlightened man,--unless it be natural philosophy.
- I can write English, and can write it with rapidity. I am a
- poet;--at least, I so esteem myself. I am not a believer. My
- character will not bear investigation;--in saying which, I mean you
- to understand, not that I steal or cheat, but that I live in a
- dirty lodging, spend many of my hours in a public-house, and cannot
- pay tradesmen’s bills where tradesmen have been found to trust me.
- I have a wife and four children,--which burden forbids me to free
- myself from all care by a bare bodkin. I am just past forty, and
- since I quarrelled with my family because I could not understand
- The Trinity, I have never been the owner of a ten-pound note. My
- wife was not a lady. I married her because I was determined to take
- refuge from the conventional thraldom of so-called ‘gentlemen’
- amidst the liberty of the lower orders. My life, of course, has
- been a mistake. Indeed, to live at all,--is it not a folly?
-
- “I am at present employed on the staff of two or three of the
- ‘Penny Dreadfuls.’ Your august highness in literature has perhaps
- never heard of a ‘Penny Dreadful.’ I write for them matter, which
- we among ourselves call ‘blood and nastiness,’--and which is copied
- from one to another. For this I am paid forty-five shillings a
- week. For thirty shillings a week I will do any work that you may
- impose upon me for the term of six months. I write this letter as a
- last effort to rescue myself from the filth of my present position,
- but I entertain no hope of any success. If you ask it I will come
- and see you; but do not send for me unless you mean to employ me,
- as I am ashamed of myself. I live at No. 3, Cucumber Court, Gray’s
- Inn Lane;--but if you write, address to the care of Mr. Grimes, the
- Spotted Dog, Liquorpond Street. Now I have told you my whole life,
- and you may help me if you will. I do not expect an answer.
-
-“Yours truly,
-
-“JULIUS MACKENZIE.”
-
-
-
-Indeed he had told us his whole life, and what a picture of a life he
-had drawn! There was something in the letter which compelled attention.
-It was impossible to throw it, half read, into the waste-paper basket,
-and to think of it not at all. We did read it, probably twice, and then
-put ourselves to work to consider how much of it might be true and how
-much false. Had the man been a boy at ----, and then a scholar of his
-college? We concluded that, so far, the narrative was true. Had he
-abandoned his dependence on wealthy friends from conscientious scruples,
-as he pretended; or had other and less creditable reasons caused the
-severance? On that point we did not quite believe him. And then, as to
-those assertions made by himself in regard to his own capabilities,--how
-far did they gain credence with us? We think that we believed them all,
-making some small discount,--with the exception of that one in which he
-proclaimed himself to be a poet. A man may know whether he understands
-French, and be quite ignorant whether the rhymed lines which he produces
-are or are not poetry. When he told us that he was an infidel, and that
-his character would not bear investigation, we went with him altogether.
-His allusion to suicide we regarded as a foolish boast. We gave him
-credit for the four children, but were not certain about the wife. We
-quite believed the general assertion of his impecuniosity. That stuff
-about “conventional thraldom” we hope we took at its worth. When he told
-us that his life had been a mistake he spoke to us Gospel truth.
-
-Of the “Penny Dreadfuls,” and of “blood and nastiness,” so called, we
-had never before heard, but we did not think it remarkable that a man so
-gifted as our correspondent should earn forty-five shillings a week by
-writing for the cheaper periodicals. It did not, however, appear to us
-probable that any one so remunerated would be willing to leave that
-engagement for another which should give him only thirty shillings. When
-he spoke of the “filth of his present position,” our heart began to
-bleed for him. We know what it is so well, and can fathom so accurately
-the degradation of the educated man who, having been ambitious in the
-career of literature, falls into that slough of despond by which the
-profession of literature is almost surrounded. There we were with him,
-as brothers together. When we came to Mr. Grimes and the Spotted Dog, in
-Liquorpond Street, we thought that we had better refrain from answering
-the letter,--by which decision on our part he would not, according to
-his own statement, be much disappointed. Mr. Julius Mackenzie! Perhaps
-at this very time rich uncles and aunts were buttoning up their pockets
-against the sinner because of his devotion to the Spotted Dog. There are
-well-to-do people among the Mackenzies. It might be the case that that
-heterodox want of comprehension in regard to The Trinity was the cause
-of it: but we have observed that in most families, grievous as are
-doubts upon such sacred subjects, they are not held to be cause of
-hostility so invincible as is a thorough-going devotion to a Spotted
-Dog. If the Spotted Dog had brought about these troubles, any
-interposition from ourselves would be useless.
-
-For twenty-four hours we had given up all idea of answering the letter;
-but it then occurred to us that men who have become disreputable as
-drunkards do not put forth their own abominations when making appeals
-for aid. If this man were really given to drink he would hardly have
-told us of his association with the public-house. Probably he was much
-at the Spotted Dog, and hated himself for being there. The more we
-thought of it the more we fancied that the gist of his letter might be
-true. It seemed that the man had desired to tell the truth as he himself
-believed it.
-
-It so happened that at that time we had been asked to provide an index
-to a certain learned manuscript in three volumes. The intended publisher
-of the work had already procured an index from a professional compiler
-of such matters; but the thing had been so badly done that it could not
-be used. Some knowledge of the classics was required, though it was not
-much more than a familiarity with the names of Latin and Greek authors,
-to which perhaps should be added some acquaintance, with the names also,
-of the better-known editors and commentators. The gentleman who had had
-the task in hand had failed conspicuously, and I had been told by my
-enterprising friend Mr. X----, the publisher, that £25 would be freely
-paid on the proper accomplishment of the undertaking. The work,
-apparently so trifling in its nature, demanded a scholar’s acquirements,
-and could hardly be completed in less than two months. We had snubbed
-the offer, saying that we should be ashamed to ask an educated man to
-give his time and labour for so small a remuneration;--but to Mr. Julius
-Mackenzie £25 for two months’ work would manifestly be a godsend. If Mr.
-Julius Mackenzie did in truth possess the knowledge for which he gave
-himself credit; if he was, as he said, “familiar with Latin,” and was
-“less ignorant of Greek than nineteen-twentieths of our national
-scholars,” he might perhaps be able to earn this £25. We certainly knew
-no one else who could and who would do the work properly for that money.
-We therefore wrote to Mr. Julius Mackenzie, and requested his presence.
-Our note was short, cautious, and also courteous. We regretted that a
-man so gifted should be driven by stress of circumstances to such need.
-We could undertake nothing, but if it would not put him to too much
-trouble to call upon us, we might perhaps be able to suggest something
-to him. Precisely at the hour named Mr. Julius Mackenzie came to us.
-
-We well remember his appearance, which was one unutterably painful to
-behold. He was a tall man, very thin,--thin we might say as a
-whipping-post, were it not that one’s idea of a whipping-post conveys
-erectness and rigidity, whereas this man, as he stood before us, was
-full of bends, and curves, and crookedness. His big head seemed to lean
-forward over his miserably narrow chest. His back was bowed, and his
-legs were crooked and tottering. He had told us that he was over forty,
-but we doubted, and doubt now, whether he had not added something to his
-years, in order partially to excuse the wan, worn weariness of his
-countenance. He carried an infinity of thick, ragged, wild, dirty hair,
-dark in colour, though not black, which age had not yet begun to
-grizzle. He wore a miserable attempt at a beard, stubbly, uneven, and
-half shorn,--as though it had been cut down within an inch of his chin
-with blunt scissors. He had two ugly projecting teeth, and his cheeks
-were hollow. His eyes were deep-set, but very bright, illuminating his
-whole face; so that it was impossible to look at him and to think him to
-be one wholly insignificant. His eyebrows were large and shaggy, but
-well formed, not meeting across the brow, with single,
-stiffly-projecting hairs,--a pair of eyebrows which added much strength
-to his countenance. His nose was long and well shaped,--but red as a
-huge carbuncle. The moment we saw him we connected that nose with the
-Spotted Dog. It was not a blotched nose, not a nose covered with many
-carbuncles, but a brightly red, smooth, well-formed nose, one glowing
-carbuncle in itself. He was dressed in a long brown great-coat, which
-was buttoned up round his throat, and which came nearly to his feet. The
-binding of the coat was frayed, the buttons were half uncovered, the
-button-holes were tattered, the velvet collar had become party-coloured
-with dirt and usage. It was in the month of December, and a great-coat
-was needed; but this great-coat looked as though it were worn because
-other garments were not at his command. Not an inch of linen or even of
-flannel shirt was visible. Below his coat we could only see his broken
-boots and the soiled legs of his trousers, which had reached that age
-which in trousers defies description. When we looked at him we could not
-but ask ourselves whether this man had been born a gentleman and was
-still a scholar. And yet there was that in his face which prompted us to
-believe the account he had given of himself. As we looked at him we felt
-sure that he possessed keen intellect, and that he was too much of a man
-to boast of acquirements which he did not believe himself to possess. We
-shook hands with him, asked him to sit down, and murmured something of
-our sorrow that he should be in distress.
-
-“I am pretty well used to it,” said he. There was nothing mean in his
-voice;--there was indeed a touch of humour in it, and in his manner
-there was nothing of the abjectness of supplication. We had his letter
-in our hands, and we read a portion of it again as he sat opposite to
-us. We then remarked that we did not understand how he, having a wife
-and family dependent on him, could offer to give up a third of his
-income with the mere object of changing the nature of his work. “You
-don’t know what it is,” said he, “to write for the ‘Penny Dreadfuls.’
-I’m at it seven hours a day, and hate the very words that I write. I
-cursed myself afterwards for sending that letter. I know that to hope is
-to be an ass. But I did send it, and here I am.”
-
-We looked at his nose and felt that we must be careful before we
-suggested to our learned friend Dr. ---- to put his manuscript into the
-hands of Mr. Julius Mackenzie. If it had been a printed book the attempt
-might have been made without much hazard, but our friend’s work, which
-was elaborate, and very learned, had not yet reached the honours of the
-printing-house. We had had our own doubts whether it might ever assume
-the form of a real book; but our friend, who was a wealthy as well as a
-learned man, was, as yet, very determined. He desired, at any rate, that
-the thing should be perfected, and his publisher had therefore come to
-us offering £25 for the codification and index. Were anything other than
-good to befall his manuscript, his lamentations would be loud, not on
-his own score,--but on behalf of learning in general. It behoved us
-therefore to be cautious. We pretended to read the letter again, in
-order that we might gain time for a decision, for we were greatly
-frightened by that gleaming nose.
-
-Let the reader understand that the nose was by no means Bardolphian. If
-we have read Shakespeare aright Bardolph’s nose was a thing of terror
-from its size as well as its hue. It was a mighty vat, into which had
-ascended all the divinest particles distilled from the cellars of the
-hostelrie in Eastcheap. Such at least is the idea which stage
-representations have left upon all our minds. But the nose now before us
-was a well-formed nose, would have been a commanding nose,--for the
-power of command shows itself much in the nasal organ,--had it not been
-for its colour. While we were thinking of this, and doubting much as to
-our friend’s manuscript, Mr. Mackenzie interrupted us. “You think I am a
-drunkard,” said he. The man’s mother-wit had enabled him to read our
-inmost thoughts.
-
-As we looked up the man had risen from his chair, and was standing over
-us. He loomed upon us very tall, although his legs were crooked, and his
-back bent. Those piercing eyes, and that nose which almost assumed an
-air of authority as he carried it, were a great way above us. There
-seemed to be an infinity of that old brown great-coat. He had divined
-our thoughts, and we did not dare to contradict him. We felt that a
-weak, vapid, unmanly smile was creeping over our face. We were smiling
-as a man smiles who intends to imply some contemptuous assent with the
-self-depreciating comment of his companion. Such a mode of expression is
-in our estimation most cowardly, and most odious. We had not intended
-it, but we knew that the smile had pervaded us. “Of course you do,” said
-he. “I was a drunkard, but I am not one now. It doesn’t matter;--only I
-wish you hadn’t sent for me. I’ll go away at once.”
-
-So saying, he was about to depart, but we stopped him. We assured him
-with much energy that we did not mean to offend him. He protested that
-there was no offence. He was too well used to that kind of thing to be
-made “more than wretched by it.” Such was his heart-breaking phrase. “As
-for anger, I’ve lost all that long ago. Of course you take me for a
-drunkard, and I should still be a drunkard, only----”
-
-“Only what?” I asked.
-
-“It don’t matter,” said he. “I need not trouble you more than I have
-said already. You haven’t got anything for me to do, I suppose?” Then I
-explained to him that I had something he might do, if I could venture
-to entrust him with the work. With some trouble I got him to sit down
-again, and to listen while I explained to him the circumstances. I had
-been grievously afflicted when he alluded to his former habit of
-drinking,--a former habit as he himself now stated,--but I entertained
-no hesitation in raising questions as to his erudition. I felt almost
-assured that his answers would be satisfactory, and that no discomfiture
-would arise from such questioning. We were quickly able to perceive that
-we at any rate could not examine him in classical literature. As soon as
-we mentioned the name and nature of the work he went off at score, and
-satisfied us amply that he was familiar at least with the title-pages of
-editions. We began, indeed, to fear whether he might not be too caustic
-a critic on our own friend’s performance. “Dr. ---- is only an amateur
-himself,” said we, deprecating in advance any such exercise of the
-red-nosed man’s too severe erudition. “We never get much beyond
-dilettanteism here,” said he, “as far as Greek and Latin are concerned.”
-What a terrible man he would have been could he have got upon the staff
-of the Saturday Review, instead of going to the Spotted Dog!
-
-We endeavoured to bring the interview to an end by telling him that we
-would consult the learned doctor from whom the manuscript had emanated;
-and we hinted that a reference would be of course acceptable. His
-impudence,--or perhaps we should rather call it his straightforward
-sincere audacity,--was unbounded. “Mr. Grimes of the Spotted Dog knows
-me better than any one else,” said he. We blew the breath out of our
-mouth with astonishment. “I’m not asking you to go to him to find out
-whether I know Latin and Greek,” said Mr. Mackenzie. “You must find that
-out for yourself.” We assured him that we thought we had found that out.
-“But he can tell you that I won’t pawn your manuscript.” The man was so
-grim and brave that he almost frightened us. We hinted, however, that
-literary reference should be given. The gentleman who paid him
-forty-five shillings a week,--the manager, in short, of the “Penny
-Dreadful,”--might tell us something of him. Then he wrote for us a name
-on a scrap of paper, and added to it an address in the close vicinity of
-Fleet Street, at which we remembered to have seen the title of a
-periodical which we now knew to be a “Penny Dreadful.”
-
-Before he took his leave he made us a speech, again standing up over us,
-though we also were on our legs. It was that bend in his neck, combined
-with his natural height, which gave him such an air of superiority in
-conversation. He seemed to overshadow us, and to have his own way with
-us, because he was enabled to look down upon us. There was a footstool
-on our hearth-rug, and we remember to have attempted to stand upon that,
-in order that we might escape this supervision; but we stumbled and had
-to kick it from us, and something was added to our sense of inferiority
-by this little failure. “I don’t expect much from this,” he said. “I
-never do expect much. And I have misfortunes independent of my poverty
-which make it impossible that I should be other than a miserable
-wretch.”
-
-“Bad health?” we asked.
-
-“No;--nothing absolutely personal;--but never mind. I must not trouble
-you with more of my history. But if you can do this thing for me, it may
-be the means of redeeming me from utter degradation.” We then assured
-him that we would do our best, and he left us with a promise that he
-would call again on that day week.
-
-The first step which we took on his behalf was one the very idea of
-which had at first almost moved us to ridicule. We made enquiry
-respecting Mr. Julius Mackenzie, of Mr. Grimes, the landlord of the
-Spotted Dog. Though Mr. Grimes did keep the Spotted Dog, he might be a
-man of sense and, possibly, of conscience. At any rate he would tell us
-something, or confirm our doubts by refusing to tell us anything. We
-found Mr. Grimes seated in a very neat little back parlour, and were
-peculiarly taken by the appearance of a lady in a little cap and black
-silk gown, whom we soon found to be Mrs. Grimes. Had we ventured to
-employ our intellect in personifying for ourselves an imaginary Mrs.
-Grimes as the landlady of a Spotted Dog public-house in Liquorpond
-Street, the figure we should have built up for ourselves would have been
-the very opposite of that which this lady presented to us. She was slim,
-and young, and pretty, and had pleasant little tricks of words, in spite
-of occasional slips in her grammar, which made us almost think that it
-might be our duty to come very often to the Spotted Dog to enquire about
-Mr. Julius Mackenzie. Mr. Grimes was a man about forty,--fully ten years
-the senior of his wife,--with a clear gray eye, and a mouth and chin
-from which we surmised that he would be competent to clear the Spotted
-Dog of unruly visitors after twelve o’clock, whenever it might be his
-wish to do so. We soon made known our request. Mr. Mackenzie had come to
-us for literary employment. Could they tell us anything about Mr.
-Mackenzie?
-
-“He’s as clever an author, in the way of writing and that kind of thing,
-as there is in all London,” said Mrs. Grimes with energy. Perhaps her
-opinion ought not to have been taken for much, but it had its weight. We
-explained, however, that at the present moment we were specially anxious
-to know something of the gentleman’s character and mode of life. Mr.
-Grimes, whose manner to us was quite courteous, sat silent, thinking how
-to answer us. His more impulsive and friendly wife was again ready with
-her assurance. “There aint an honester gentleman breathing;--and I say
-he is a gentleman, though he’s that poor he hasn’t sometimes a shirt to
-his back.”
-
-“I don’t think he’s ever very well off for shirts,” said Mr. Grimes.
-
-“I wouldn’t be slow to give him one of yours, John, only I know he
-wouldn’t take it,” said Mrs. Grimes. “Well now, look here, Sir;--we’ve
-that feeling for him that our young woman there would draw anything for
-him he’d ask--money or no money. She’d never venture to name money to
-him if he wanted a glass of anything,--hot or cold, beer or spirits.
-Isn’t that so, John?”
-
-“She’s fool enough for anything as far as I know,” said Mr. Grimes.
-
-“She aint no fool at all; and I’d do the same if I was there, and so’d
-you, John. There is nothing Mackenzie’d ask as he wouldn’t give him,”
-said Mrs. Grimes, pointing with her thumb over her shoulder to her
-husband, who was standing on the hearth-rug;--“that is, in the way of
-drawing liquor, and refreshments, and such like. But he never raised a
-glass to his lips in this house as he didn’t pay for, nor yet took a
-biscuit out of that basket. He’s a gentleman all over, is Mackenzie.”
-
-It was strong testimony; but still we had not quite got at the bottom of
-the matter. “Doesn’t he raise a great many glasses to his lips?” we
-asked.
-
-“No he don’t,” said Mrs. Grimes,--“only in reason.”
-
-“He’s had misfortunes,” said Mr. Grimes.
-
-“Indeed he has,” said the lady,--“what I call the very troublesomest of
-troubles. If you was troubled like him, John, where’d you be?”
-
-“I know where you’d be,” said John.
-
-“He’s got a bad wife, Sir; the worst as ever was,” continued Mrs.
-Grimes. “Talk of drink;--there is nothing that woman wouldn’t do for it.
-She’d pawn the very clothes off her children’s back in mid-winter to get
-it. She’d rob the food out of her husband’s mouth for a drop of gin. As
-for herself,--she aint no woman’s notions left of keeping herself any
-way. She’d as soon be picked out of the gutter as not;--and as for words
-out of her mouth or clothes on her back, she hasn’t got, Sir, not an
-item of a female’s feelings left about her.”
-
-Mrs. Grimes had been very eloquent, and had painted the “troublesomest
-of all troubles” with glowing words. This was what the wretched man had
-come to by marrying a woman who was not a lady in order that he might
-escape the “conventional thraldom” of gentility! But still the drunken
-wife was not all. There was the evidence of his own nose against
-himself, and the additional fact that he had acknowledged himself to
-have been formerly a drunkard. “I suppose he has drunk, himself?” we
-said.
-
-“He has drunk, in course,” said Mrs. Grimes.
-
-“The world has been pretty rough with him, Sir,” said Mr. Grimes.
-
-“But he don’t drink now,” continued the lady. “At least if he do, we
-don’t see it. As for her, she wouldn’t show herself inside our door.”
-
-“It aint often that man and wife draws their milk from the same cow,”
-said Mr. Grimes.
-
-“But Mackenzie is here every day of his life,” said Mrs. Grimes. “When
-he’s got a sixpence to pay for it, he’ll come in here and have a glass
-of beer and a bit of something to eat. We does make him a little extra
-welcome, and that’s the truth of it. We knows what he is, and we knows
-what he was. As for book learning, Sir;--it don’t matter what language
-it is, it’s all as one to him. He knows ’em all round just as I know my
-catechism.”
-
-“Can’t you say fairer than that for him, Polly?” asked Mr. Grimes.
-
-“Don’t you talk of catechisms, John, nor yet of nothing else as a man
-ought to set his mind to;--unless it is keeping the Spotted Dog. But as
-for Mackenzie;--he knows off by heart whole books full of learning.
-There was some furreners here as come from,--I don’t know where it was
-they come from, only it wasn’t France, nor yet Germany, and he talked to
-them just as though he hadn’t been born in England at all. I don’t think
-there ever was such a man for knowing things. He’ll go on with poetry
-out of his own head till you think it comes from him like web from a
-spider.” We could not help thinking of the wonderful companionship which
-there must have been in that parlour while the reduced man was spinning
-his web and Mrs. Grimes, with her needlework lying idle in her lap, was
-sitting by, listening with rapt admiration. In passing by the Spotted
-Dog one would not imagine such a scene to have its existence within.
-But then so many things do have existence of which we imagine nothing!
-
-Mr. Grimes ended the interview. “The fact is, Sir, if you can give him
-employment better than what he has now, you’ll be helping a man who has
-seen better days, and who only wants help to see ’em again. He’s got it
-all there,” and Mr. Grimes put his finger up to his head.
-
-“He’s got it all here too,” said Mrs. Grimes, laying her hand upon her
-heart. Hereupon we took our leave, suggesting to these excellent friends
-that if it should come to pass that we had further dealings with Mr.
-Mackenzie we might perhaps trouble them again. They assured us that we
-should always be welcome, and Mr. Grimes himself saw us to the door,
-having made profuse offers of such good cheer as the house afforded. We
-were upon the whole much taken with the Spotted Dog.
-
-From thence we went to the office of the “Penny Dreadful,” in the
-vicinity of Fleet Street. As we walked thither we could not but think of
-Mrs. Grimes’s words. The troublesomest of troubles! We acknowledged to
-ourselves that they were true words. Can there be any trouble more
-troublesome than that of suffering from the shame inflicted by a
-degraded wife? We had just parted from Mr. Grimes,--not, indeed, having
-seen very much of him in the course of our interview;--but little as we
-had seen, we were sure that he was assisted in his position by a buoyant
-pride in that he called himself the master, and owner, and husband of
-Mrs. Grimes. In the very step with which he passed in and out of his own
-door you could see that there was nothing that he was ashamed of about
-his household. When abroad he could talk of his “missus” with a
-conviction that the picture which the word would convey to all who heard
-him would redound to his honour. But what must have been the reflections
-of Julius Mackenzie when his mind dwelt upon his wife? We remembered the
-words of his letter. “I have a wife and four children, which burden
-forbids me to free myself from all care with a bare bodkin.” As we
-thought of them, and of the story which had been told to us at the
-Spotted Dog, they lost that tone of rhodomontade with which they had
-invested themselves when we first read them. A wife who is indifferent
-to being picked out of the gutter, and who will pawn her children’s
-clothes for gin, must be a trouble than which none can be more
-troublesome.
-
-We did not find that we ingratiated ourselves with the people at the
-office of the periodical for which Mr. Mackenzie worked; and yet we
-endeavoured to do so, assuming in our manner and tone something of the
-familiarity of a common pursuit. After much delay we came upon a
-gentleman sitting in a dark cupboard, who twisted round his stool to
-face us while he spoke to us. We believe that he was the editor of more
-than one “Penny Dreadful,” and that as many as a dozen serial novels
-were being issued to the world at the same time under his supervision.
-“Oh!” said he, “so you’re at that game, are you?” We assured him that we
-were at no game at all, but were simply influenced by a desire to assist
-a distressed scholar. “That be blowed,” said our brother. “Mackenzie’s
-doing as well here as he’ll do anywhere. He’s a drunken blackguard, when
-all’s said and done. So you’re going to buy him up, are you? You won’t
-keep him long,--and then he’ll have to starve.” We assured the gentleman
-that we had no desire to buy up Mr. Mackenzie; we explained our ideas as
-to the freedom of the literary profession, in accordance with which Mr.
-Mackenzie could not be wrong in applying to us for work; and we
-especially deprecated any severity on our brother’s part towards the
-man, more especially begging that nothing might be decided, as we were
-far from thinking it certain that we could provide Mr. Mackenzie with
-any literary employment. “That’s all right,” said our brother, twisting
-back his stool. “He can’t work for both of us;--that’s all. He has his
-bread here regular, week after week; and I don’t suppose you’ll do as
-much as that for him.” Then we went away, shaking the dust off our feet,
-and wondering much at the great development of literature which latter
-years have produced. We had not even known of the existence of these
-papers;--and yet there they were, going forth into the hands of hundreds
-of thousands of readers, all of whom were being, more or less,
-instructed in their modes of life and manner of thinking by the stories
-which were thus brought before them.
-
-But there might be truth in what our brother had said to us. Should Mr.
-Mackenzie abandon his present engagement for the sake of the job which
-we proposed to put in his hands, might he not thereby injure rather than
-improve his prospects? We were acquainted with only one learned doctor
-desirous of having his manuscripts codified and indexed at his own
-expense. As for writing for the periodical with which we were connected,
-we knew enough of the business to be aware that Mr. Mackenzie’s gifts of
-erudition would very probably not so much assist him in attempting such
-work as would his late training act against him. A man might be able to
-read and even talk a dozen languages,--“just as though he hadn’t been
-born in England at all,”--and yet not write the language with which we
-dealt after the fashion which suited our readers. It might be that he
-would fly much above our heads, and do work infinitely too big for us.
-We did not regard our own heads as being very high. But, for such
-altitude as they held, a certain class of writing was adapted. The
-gentleman whom we had just left would require, no doubt, altogether
-another style. It was probable that Mr. Mackenzie had already fitted
-himself to his present audience. And, even were it not so, we could not
-promise him forty-five shillings a week, or even that thirty shillings
-for which he asked. There is nothing more dangerous than the attempt to
-befriend a man in middle life by transplanting him from one soil to
-another.
-
-When Mr. Mackenzie came to us again we endeavoured to explain all this
-to him. We had in the meantime seen our friend the Doctor, whose
-beneficence of spirit in regard to the unfortunate man of letters was
-extreme. He was charmed with our account of the man, and saw with his
-mind’s eye the work, for the performance of which he was pining,
-perfected in a manner that would be a blessing to the scholars of all
-future ages. He was at first anxious to ask Julius Mackenzie down to his
-rectory, and, even after we had explained to him that this would not at
-present be expedient, was full of a dream of future friendship with a
-man who would be able to discuss the digamma with him, who would have
-studied Greek metres, and have an opinion of his own as to Porson’s
-canon. We were in possession of the manuscript, and had our friend’s
-authority for handing it over to Mr. Mackenzie.
-
-He came to us according to appointment, and his nose seemed to be redder
-than ever. We thought that we discovered a discouraging flavour of
-spirits in his breath. Mrs. Grimes had declared that he drank,--only in
-reason; but the ideas of the wife of a publican,--even though that wife
-were Mrs. Grimes,--might be very different from our own as to what was
-reasonable in that matter. And as we looked at him he seemed to be more
-rough, more ragged, almost more wretched than before. It might be that,
-in taking his part with my brother of the “Penny Dreadful,” with the
-Doctor, and even with myself in thinking over his claims, I had endowed
-him with higher qualities than I had been justified in giving to him. As
-I considered him and his appearance I certainly could not assure myself
-that he looked like a man worthy to be trusted. A policeman, seeing him
-at a street corner, would have had an eye upon him in a moment. He
-rubbed himself together within his old coat, as men do when they come
-out of gin-shops. His eye was as bright as before, but we thought that
-his mouth was meaner, and his nose redder. We were almost disenchanted
-with him. We said nothing to him at first about the Spotted Dog, but
-suggested to him our fears that if he undertook work at our hands he
-would lose the much more permanent employment which he got from the
-gentleman whom we had seen in the cupboard. We then explained to him
-that we could promise to him no continuation of employment.
-
-The violence with which he cursed the gentleman who had sat in the
-cupboard appalled us, and had, we think, some effect in bringing back to
-us that feeling of respect for him which we had almost lost. It may be
-difficult to explain why we respected him because he cursed and swore
-horribly. We do not like cursing and swearing, and were any of our
-younger contributors to indulge themselves after that fashion in our
-presence we should, at the very least,--frown upon them. We did not
-frown upon Julius Mackenzie, but stood up, gazing into his face above
-us, again feeling that the man was powerful. Perhaps we respected him
-because he was not in the least afraid of us. He went on to assert that
-he cared not,--not a straw, we will say,--for the gentleman in the
-cupboard. He knew the gentleman in the cupboard very well; and the
-gentleman in the cupboard knew him. As long as he took his work to the
-gentleman in the cupboard, the gentleman in the cupboard would be only
-too happy to purchase that work at the rate of sixpence for a page of
-manuscript containing two hundred and fifty words. That was his rate of
-payment for prose fiction, and at that rate he could earn forty-five
-shillings a week. He wasn’t afraid of the gentleman in the cupboard. He
-had had some words with the gentleman in the cupboard before now, and
-they two understood each other very well. He hinted, moreover, that
-there were other gentlemen in other cupboards; but with none of them
-could he advance beyond forty-five shillings a week. For this he had to
-sit, with his pen in his hand, seven hours seven days a week, and the
-very paper, pens, and ink came to fifteenpence out of the money. He had
-struck for wages once, and for a halcyon month or two had carried his
-point of sevenpence halfpenny a page; but the gentlemen in the cupboards
-had told him that it could not be. They, too, must live. His matter was
-no doubt attractive; but any price above sixpence a page unfitted it for
-their market. All this Mr. Julius Mackenzie explained to us with much
-violence of expression. When I named Mrs. Grimes to him the tone of his
-voice was altered. “Yes,” said he, “I thought they’d say a word for me.
-They’re the best friends I’ve got now. I don’t know that you ought quite
-to believe her, for I think she’d perhaps tell a lie to do me a
-service.” We assured him that we did believe every word Mrs. Grimes had
-said to us.
-
-After much pausing over the matter we told him that we were empowered to
-trust him with our friend’s work, and the manuscript was produced upon
-the table. If he would undertake the work and perform it, he should be
-paid £8: 6_s._: 8_d._ for each of the three volumes as they were
-completed. And we undertook, moreover, on our own responsibility, to
-advance him money in small amounts through the hands of Mrs. Grimes, if
-he really settled himself to the task. At first he was in ecstasies, and
-as we explained to him the way in which the index should be brought out
-and the codification performed, he turned over the pages rapidly, and
-showed us that he understood at any rate the nature of the work to be
-done. But when we came to details he was less happy. In what workshop
-was this new work to be performed? There was a moment in which we almost
-thought of telling him to do the work in our own room; but we hesitated,
-luckily, remembering that his continual presence with us for two or
-three months would probably destroy us altogether. It appeared that his
-present work was done sometimes at the Spotted Dog, and sometimes at
-home in his lodgings. He said not a word to us about his wife, but we
-could understand that there would be periods in which to work at home
-would be impossible to him. He did not pretend to deny that there might
-be danger on that score, nor did he ask permission to take the entire
-manuscript at once away to his abode. We knew that if he took part he
-must take the whole, as the work could not be done in parts. Counter
-references would be needed. “My circumstances are bad;--very bad
-indeed,” he said. We expressed the great trouble to which we should be
-subjected if any evil should happen to the manuscript. “I will give it
-up,” he said, towering over us again, and shaking his head. “I cannot
-expect that I should be trusted.” But we were determined that it should
-not be given up. Sooner than give the matter up we would make some
-arrangement by hiring a place in which he might work. Even though we
-were to pay ten shillings a week for a room for him out of the money,
-the bargain would be a good one for him. At last we determined that we
-would pay a second visit to the Spotted Dog, and consult Mrs. Grimes. We
-felt that we should have a pleasure in arranging together with Mrs.
-Grimes any scheme of benevolence on behalf of this unfortunate and
-remarkable man. So we told him that we would think over the matter, and
-send a letter to his address at the Spotted Dog, which he should receive
-on the following morning. He then gathered himself up, rubbed himself
-together again inside his coat, and took his departure.
-
-As soon as he was gone we sat looking at the learned Doctor’s
-manuscript, and thinking of what we had done. There lay the work of
-years, by which our dear and venerable old friend expected that he would
-take rank among the great commentators of modern times. We, in truth,
-did not anticipate for him all the glory to which he looked forward. We
-feared that there might be disappointment. Hot discussion on verbal
-accuracies or on rules of metre are perhaps not so much in vogue now as
-they were a hundred years ago. There might be disappointment and great
-sorrow; but we could not with equanimity anticipate the prevention of
-this sorrow by the possible loss or destruction of the manuscript which
-had been entrusted to us. The Doctor himself had seemed to anticipate no
-such danger. When we told him of Mackenzie’s learning and misfortunes,
-he was eager at once that the thing should be done, merely stipulating
-that he should have an interview with Mr. Mackenzie before he returned
-to his rectory.
-
-That same day we went to the Spotted Dog, and found Mrs. Grimes alone.
-Mackenzie had been there immediately after leaving our room, and had
-told her what had taken place. She was full of the subject and anxious
-to give every possible assistance. She confessed at once that the papers
-would not be safe in the rooms inhabited by Mackenzie and his wife. “He
-pays five shillings a week,” she said, “for a wretched place round in
-Cucumber Court. They are all huddled together, any way; and how he
-manages to do a thing at all there,--in the way of author-work,--is a
-wonder to everybody. Sometimes he can’t, and then he’ll sit for hours
-together at the little table in our tap-room.” We went into the tap-room
-and saw the little table. It was a wonder indeed that any one should be
-able to compose and write tales of imagination in a place so dreary,
-dark, and ill-omened. The little table was hardly more than a long slab
-or plank, perhaps eighteen inches wide. When we visited the place there
-were two brewers’ draymen seated there, and three draggled,
-wretched-looking women. The carters were eating enormous hunches of
-bread and bacon, which they cut and put into their mouths slowly,
-solemnly, and in silence. The three women were seated on a bench, and
-when I saw them had no signs of festivity before them. It must be
-presumed that they had paid for something, or they would hardly have
-been allowed to sit there. “It’s empty now,” said Mrs. Grimes, taking no
-immediate notice of the men or of the women; “but sometimes he’ll sit
-writing in that corner, when there’s such a jabber of voices as you
-wouldn’t hear a cannon go off over at Reid’s, and that thick with smoke
-you’d a’most cut it with a knife. Don’t he, Peter?” The man whom she
-addressed endeavoured to prepare himself for answer by swallowing at the
-moment three square inches of bread and bacon, which he had just put
-into his mouth. He made an awful effort, but failed; and, failing,
-nodded his head three times. “They all know him here, Sir,” continued
-Mrs. Grimes. “He’ll go on writing, writing, writing, for hours together;
-and nobody’ll say nothing to him. Will they, Peter?” Peter, who was now
-half-way through the work he had laid out for himself, muttered some
-inarticulate grunt of assent.
-
-We then went back to the snug little room inside the bar. It was quite
-clear to me that the man could not manipulate the Doctor’s manuscript,
-of which he would have to spread a dozen sheets before him at the same
-time, in the place I had just visited. Even could he have occupied the
-chamber alone, the accommodation would not have been sufficient for the
-purpose. It was equally clear that he could not be allowed to use Mrs.
-Grimes’s snuggery. “How are we to get a place for him?” said I,
-appealing to the lady. “He shall have a place,” she said, “I’ll go bail;
-he sha’n’t lose the job for want of a workshop.” Then she sat down and
-began to think it over. I was just about to propose the hiring of some
-decent room in the neighbourhood, when she made a suggestion, which I
-acknowledge startled me. “I’ll have a big table put into my own
-bed-room,” said she, “and he shall do it there. There aint another hole
-or corner about the place as’d suit; and he can lay the gentleman’s
-papers all about on the bed, square and clean and orderly. Can’t he now?
-And I can see after ’em, as he don’t lose ’em. Can’t I now?”
-
-By this time there had sprung up an intimacy between ourselves and Mrs.
-Grimes which seemed to justify an expression of the doubt which I then
-threw on the propriety of such a disarrangement of her most private
-domestic affairs. “Mr. Grimes will hardly approve of that,” we said.
-
-“Oh, John won’t mind. What’ll it matter to John as long as Mackenzie is
-out in time for him to go to bed? We aint early birds, morning or
-night,--that’s true. In our line folks can’t be early. But from ten to
-six there’s the room, and he shall have it. Come up and see, Sir.” So we
-followed Mrs. Grimes up the narrow staircase to the marital bower. “It
-aint large, but there’ll be room for the table, and for him to sit at
-it;--won’t there now?”
-
-It was a dark little room, with one small window looking out under the
-low roof, and facing the heavy high dead wall of the brewery opposite.
-But it was clean and sweet, and the furniture in it was all solid and
-good, old-fashioned, and made of mahogany. Two or three of Mrs. Grimes’s
-gowns were laid upon the bed, and other portions of her dress were hung
-on pegs behind the doors. The only untidy article in the room was a pair
-of “John’s” trousers, which he had failed to put out of sight. She was
-not a bit abashed, but took them up and folded them and patted them, and
-laid them in the capacious wardrobe. “We’ll have all these things away,”
-she said, “and then he can have all his papers out upon the bed just as
-he pleases.”
-
-We own that there was something in the proposed arrangement which
-dismayed us. We also were married, and what would our wife have said had
-we proposed that a contributor,--even a contributor not red-nosed and
-seething with gin,--that any best-disciplined contributor should be
-invited to write an article within the precincts of our sanctum? We
-could not bring ourselves to believe that Mr. Grimes would authorise the
-proposition. There is something holy about the bed-room of a married
-couple; and there would be a special desecration in the continued
-presence of Mr. Julius Mackenzie. We thought it better that we should
-explain something of all this to her. “Do you know,” we said, “this
-seems to be hardly prudent?”
-
-“Why not prudent?” she asked.
-
-“Up in your bed-room, you know! Mr. Grimes will be sure to dislike it.”
-
-“What,--John! Not he. I know what you’re a-thinking of, Mr. ----,” she
-said. “But we’re different in our ways than what you are. Things to us
-are only just what they are. We haven’t time, nor yet money, nor perhaps
-edication, for seemings and thinkings as you have. If you was travelling
-out amongst the wild Injeans, you’d ask any one to have a bit in your
-bed-room as soon as look at ’em, if you’d got a bit for ’em to eat.
-We’re travelling among wild Injeans all our lives, and a bed-room aint
-no more to us than any other room. Mackenzie shall come up here, and
-I’ll have the table fixed for him, just there by the window.” I hadn’t
-another word to say to her, and I could not keep myself from thinking
-for many an hour afterwards, whether it may not be a good thing for men,
-and for women also, to believe that they are always travelling among
-wild Indians.
-
-When we went down Mr. Grimes himself was in the little parlour. He did
-not seem at all surprised at seeing his wife enter the room from above
-accompanied by a stranger. She at once began her story, and told the
-arrangement which she proposed,--which she did, as I observed, without
-any actual request for his sanction. Looking at Mr. Grimes’s face, I
-thought that he did not quite like it; but he accepted it, almost
-without a word, scratching his head and raising his eyebrows. “You
-know, John, he could no more do it at home than he could fly,” said Mrs.
-Grimes.
-
-“Who said he could do it at home?”
-
-“And he couldn’t do it in the tap-room;--could he? If so, there aint no
-other place, and so that’s settled.” John Grimes again scratched his
-head, and the matter was settled. Before we left the house Mackenzie
-himself came in, and was told in our presence of the accommodation which
-was to be prepared for him. “It’s just like you, Mrs. Grimes,” was all
-he said in the way of thanks. Then Mrs. Grimes made her bargain with him
-somewhat sternly. He should have the room for five hours a day,--ten
-till three, or twelve till five; but he must settle which, and then
-stick to his hours. “And I won’t have nothing up there in the way of
-drink,” said John Grimes.
-
-“Who’s asking to have drink there?” said Mackenzie.
-
-“You’re not asking now, but maybe you will. I won’t have it, that’s
-all.”
-
-“That shall be all right, John,” said Mrs. Grimes, nodding her head.
-
-“Women are that soft,--in the way of judgment,--that they’ll go and do
-a’most anything, good or bad, when they’ve got their feelings up.” Such
-was the only rebuke which in our hearing Mr. Grimes administered to his
-pretty wife. Mackenzie whispered something to the publican, but Grimes
-only shook his head. We understood it all thoroughly. He did not like
-the scheme, but he would not contradict his wife in an act of real
-kindness. We then made an appointment with the scholar for meeting our
-friend and his future patron at our rooms, and took our leave of the
-Spotted Dog. Before we went, however, Mrs. Grimes insisted on producing
-some cherry-bounce, as she called it, which, after sundry refusals on
-our part, was brought in on a small round shining tray, in a little
-bottle covered all over with gold sprigs, with four tiny glasses
-similarly ornamented. Mrs. Grimes poured out the liquor, using a very
-sparing hand when she came to the glass which was intended for herself.
-We find it, as a rule, easier to talk with the Grimeses of the world
-than to eat with them or to drink with them. When the glass was handed
-to us we did not know whether or no we were expected to say something.
-We waited, however, till Mr. Grimes and Mackenzie had been provided with
-their glasses. “Proud to see you at the Spotted Dog, Mr. ----,” said
-Grimes. “That we are,” said Mrs. Grimes, smiling at us over her almost
-imperceptible drop of drink. Julius Mackenzie just bobbed his head, and
-swallowed the cordial at a gulp,--as a dog does a lump of meat, leaving
-the impression on his friends around him that he has not got from it
-half the enjoyment which it might have given him had he been a little
-more patient in the process. I could not but think that had Mackenzie
-allowed the cherry-bounce to trickle a little in his palate, as I did
-myself, it would have gratified him more than it did in being chucked
-down his throat with all the impetus which his elbow could give to the
-glass. “That’s tidy tipple,” said Mr. Grimes, winking his eye. We
-acknowledged that it was tidy. “My mother made it, as used to keep the
-Pig and Magpie, at Colchester,” said Mrs. Grimes. In this way we learned
-a good deal of Mrs. Grimes’s history. Her very earliest years had been
-passed among wild Indians.
-
-Then came the interview between the Doctor and Mr. Mackenzie. We must
-confess that we greatly feared the impression which our younger friend
-might make on the elder. We had of course told the Doctor of the red
-nose, and he had accepted the information with a smile. But he was a man
-who would feel the contamination of contact with a drunkard, and who
-would shrink from an unpleasant association. There are vices of which
-we habitually take altogether different views in accordance with the
-manner in which they are brought under our notice. This vice of
-drunkenness is often a joke in the mouths of those to whom the thing
-itself is a horror. Even before our boys we talk of it as being rather
-funny, though to see one of them funny himself would almost break our
-hearts. The learned commentator had accepted our account of the red nose
-as though it were simply a part of the undeserved misery of the wretched
-man; but should he find the wretched man to be actually redolent of gin
-his feelings might be changed. The Doctor was with us first, and the
-volumes of the MS. were displayed upon the table. The compiler of them,
-as he lifted here a page and there a page, handled them with the
-gentleness of a lover. They had been exquisitely arranged, and were very
-fair. The pagings, and the margins, and the chapterings, and all the
-complementary paraphernalia of authorship, were perfect. “A lifetime, my
-friend; just a lifetime!” the Doctor had said to us, speaking of his own
-work while we were waiting for the man to whose hands was to be
-entrusted the result of so much labour and scholarship. We wished at
-that moment that we had never been called on to interfere in the
-matter.
-
-Mackenzie came, and the introduction was made. The Doctor was a
-gentleman of the old school, very neat in his attire,--dressed in
-perfect black, with kneebreeches and black gaiters, with a closely-shorn
-chin, and an exquisitely white cravat. Though he was in truth simply the
-rector of his parish, his parish was one which entitled him to call
-himself a dean, and he wore a clerical rosette on his hat. He was a
-well-made, tall, portly gentleman, with whom to take the slightest
-liberty would have been impossible. His well-formed full face was
-singularly expressive of benevolence, but there was in it too an air of
-command which created an involuntary respect. He was a man whose means
-were ample, and who could afford to keep two curates, so that the
-appanages of a Church dignitary did in some sort belong to him. We doubt
-whether he really understood what work meant,--even when he spoke with
-so much pathos of the labour of his life; but he was a man not at all
-exacting in regard to the work of others, and who was anxious to make
-the world as smooth and rosy to those around him as it had been to
-himself. He came forward, paused a moment, and then shook hands with
-Mackenzie. Our work had been done, and we remained in the background
-during the interview. It was now for the Doctor to satisfy himself with
-the scholarship,--and, if he chose to take cognizance of the matter,
-with the morals of his proposed assistant.
-
-Mackenzie himself was more subdued in his manner than he had been when
-talking with ourselves. The Doctor made a little speech, standing at the
-table with one hand on one volume and the other on another. He told of
-all his work, with a mixture of modesty as to the thing done, and
-self-assertion as to his interest in doing it, which was charming. He
-acknowledged that the sum proposed for the aid which he required was
-inconsiderable;--but it had been fixed by the proposed publisher. Should
-Mr. Mackenzie find that the labour was long he would willingly increase
-it. Then he commenced a conversation respecting the Greek dramatists,
-which had none of the air or tone of an examination, but which still
-served the purpose of enabling Mackenzie to show his scholarship. In
-that respect there was no doubt that the ragged, red-nosed, disreputable
-man, who stood there longing for his job, was the greater proficient of
-the two. We never discovered that he had had access to books in later
-years; but his memory of the old things seemed to be perfect. When it
-was suggested that references would be required, it seemed that he did
-know his way into the library of the British Museum. “When I wasn’t
-quite so shabby,” he said boldly, “I used to be there.” The Doctor
-instantly produced a ten-pound note, and insisted that it should be
-taken in advance. Mackenzie hesitated, and we suggested that it was
-premature; but the Doctor was firm. “If an old scholar mayn’t assist one
-younger than himself,” he said, “I don’t know when one man may aid
-another. And this is no alms. It is simply a pledge for work to be
-done.” Mackenzie took the money, muttering something of an assurance
-that as far as his ability went, the work should be done well. “It
-should certainly,” he said, “be done diligently.”
-
-When money had passed, of course the thing was settled; but in truth the
-bank-note had been given, not from judgment in settling the matter, but
-from the generous impulse of the moment. There was, however, no
-receding. The Doctor expressed by no hint a doubt as to the safety of
-his manuscript. He was by far too fine a gentleman to give the man whom
-he employed pain in that direction. If there were risk, he would now run
-the risk. And so the thing was settled.
-
-We did not, however, give the manuscript on that occasion into
-Mackenzie’s hands, but took it down afterwards, locked in an old
-despatch box of our own, to the Spotted Dog, and left the box with the
-key of it in the hands of Mrs. Grimes. Again we went up into that lady’s
-bed-room, and saw that the big table had been placed by the window for
-Mackenzie’s accommodation. It so nearly filled the room, that as we
-observed, John Grimes could not get round at all to his side of the bed.
-It was arranged that Mackenzie was to begin on the morrow.
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-PART II.--THE RESULT.
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-
-During the next month we saw a good deal of Mr. Julius Mackenzie, and
-made ourselves quite at home in Mrs. Grimes’s bed-room. We went in and
-out of the Spotted Dog as if we had known that establishment all our
-lives, and spent many a quarter of an hour with the hostess in her
-little parlour, discussing the prospects of Mr. Mackenzie and his
-family. He had procured to himself decent, if not exactly new, garments
-out of the money so liberally provided by my learned friend the Doctor,
-and spent much of his time in the library of the British Museum. He
-certainly worked very hard, for he did not altogether abandon his old
-engagement. Before the end of the first month the index of the first
-volume, nearly completed, had been sent down for the inspection of the
-Doctor, and had been returned with ample eulogium and some little
-criticism. The criticisms Mackenzie answered by letter, with true
-scholarly spirit, and the Doctor was delighted. Nothing could be more
-pleasant to him than a correspondence, prolonged almost indefinitely, as
-to the respective merits of a τὀ or a τον, or on the demand for a
-spondee or an iamb. When he found that the work was really in
-industrious hands, he ceased to be clamorous for early publication, and
-gave us to understand privately that Mr. Mackenzie was not to be limited
-to the sum named. The matter of remuneration was, indeed, left very much
-to ourselves, and Mackenzie had certainly found a most efficient friend
-in the author whose works had been confided to his hands.
-
-All this was very pleasant, and Mackenzie throughout that month worked
-very hard. According to the statements made to me by Mrs. Grimes he took
-no more gin than what was necessary for a hard-working man. As to the
-exact quantity of that cordial which she imagined to be beneficial and
-needful, we made no close enquiry. He certainly kept himself in a
-condition for work, and so far all went on happily. Nevertheless, there
-was a terrible skeleton in the cupboard,--or rather out of the
-cupboard, for the skeleton could not be got to hide itself. A certain
-portion of his prosperity reached the hands of his wife, and she was
-behaving herself worse than ever. The four children had been covered
-with decent garments under Mrs. Grimes’s care, and then Mrs. Mackenzie
-had appeared at the Spotted Dog, loudly demanding a new outfit for
-herself. She came not only once, but often, and Mr. Grimes was beginning
-to protest that he saw too much of the family. We had become very
-intimate with Mrs. Grimes, and she did not hesitate to confide to us her
-fears lest “John should cut up rough,” before the thing was completed.
-“You see,” she said, “it is against the house, no doubt, that woman
-coming nigh it.” But still she was firm, and Mackenzie was not disturbed
-in the possession of the bed-room. At last Mrs. Mackenzie was provided
-with some articles of female attire;--and then, on the very next day,
-she and the four children were again stripped almost naked. The wretched
-creature must have steeped herself in gin to the shoulders, for in one
-day she made a sweep of everything. She then came in a state of furious
-intoxication to the Spotted Dog, and was removed by the police under the
-express order of the landlord.
-
-We can hardly say which was the most surprising to us, the loyalty of
-Mrs. Grimes or the patience of John. During that night, as we were told
-two days afterwards by his wife, he stormed with passion. The papers she
-had locked up in order that he should not get at them and destroy them.
-He swore that everything should be cleared out on the following morning.
-But when the morning came he did not even say a word to Mackenzie, as
-the wretched, downcast, broken-hearted creature passed up stairs to his
-work. “You see I knows him, and how to deal with him,” said Mrs. Grimes,
-speaking of her husband. “There aint another like himself
-nowheres;--he’s that good. A softer-hearteder man there aint in the
-public line. He can speak dreadful when his dander is up, and can
-look----; oh, laws, he just can look at you! But he could no more put
-his hands upon a woman, in the way of hurting,--no more than be an
-archbishop.” Where could be the man, thought we to ourselves as this was
-said to us, who could have put a hand,--in the way of hurting,--upon
-Mrs. Grimes?
-
-On that occasion, to the best of our belief, the policeman contented
-himself with depositing Mrs. Mackenzie at her own lodgings. On the next
-day she was picked up drunk in the street, and carried away to the
-lock-up house. At the very moment in which the story was being told to
-us by Mrs. Grimes, Mackenzie had gone to the police office to pay the
-fine, and to bring his wife home. We asked with dismay and surprise why
-he should interfere to rescue her--why he did not leave her in custody
-as long as the police would keep her? “Who’d there be to look after the
-children?” asked Mrs. Grimes, as though she were offended at our
-suggestion. Then she went on to explain that in such a household as that
-of poor Mackenzie the wife is absolutely a necessity, even though she be
-an habitual drunkard. Intolerable as she was, her services were
-necessary to him. “A husband as drinks is bad,” said Mrs. Grimes,--with
-something, we thought, of an apologetic tone for the vice upon which her
-own prosperity was partly built,--“but when a woman takes to it, it’s
-the ---- devil.” We thought that she was right, as we pictured to
-ourselves that man of letters satisfying the magistrate’s demand for his
-wife’s misconduct, and taking the degraded, half-naked creature once
-more home to his children.
-
-We saw him about twelve o’clock on that day, and he had then, too
-evidently, been endeavouring to support his misery by the free use of
-alcohol. We did not speak of it down in the parlour; but even Mrs.
-Grimes, we think, would have admitted that he had taken more than was
-good for him. He was sitting up in the bed-room with his head hanging
-upon his hand, with a swarm of our learned friend’s papers spread on the
-table before him. Mrs. Grimes, when he entered the house, had gone up
-stairs to give them out to him; but he had made no attempt to settle
-himself to his work. “This kind of thing must come to an end,” he said
-to us with a thick, husky voice. We muttered something to him as to the
-need there was that he should exert a manly courage in his troubles.
-“Manly!” he said. “Well, yes; manly. A man should be a man, of course.
-There are some things which a man can’t bear. I’ve borne more than
-enough, and I’ll have an end of it.”
-
-We shall never forget that scene. After awhile he got up, and became
-almost violent. Talk of bearing! Who had borne half as much as he? There
-were things a man should not bear. As for manliness, he believed that
-the truly manly thing would be to put an end to the lives of his wife,
-his children, and himself at one swoop. Of course the judgment of a
-mealy-mouthed world would be against him, but what would that matter to
-him when he and they had vanished out of this miserable place into the
-infinite realms of nothingness? Was he fit to live, or were they? Was
-there any chance for his children but that of becoming thieves and
-prostitutes? And for that poor wretch of a woman, from out of whose
-bosom even her human instincts had been washed by gin,--would not death
-to her be, indeed, a charity? There was but one drawback to all this.
-When he should have destroyed them, how would it be with him if he
-should afterwards fail to make sure work with his own life? In such case
-it was not hanging that he would fear, but the self-reproach that would
-come upon him in that he had succeeded in sending others out of their
-misery, but had flinched when his own turn had come. Though he was drunk
-when he said these horrid things, or so nearly drunk that he could not
-perfect the articulation of his words, still there was a marvellous
-eloquence with him. When we attempted to answer, and told him of that
-canon which had been set against self-slaughter, he laughed us to scorn.
-There was something terrible to us in the audacity of the arguments
-which he used, when he asserted for himself the right to shuffle off
-from his shoulders a burden which they had not been made broad enough
-to bear. There was an intensity and a thorough hopelessness of suffering
-in his case, an openness of acknowledged degradation, which robbed us
-for the time of all that power which the respectable ones of the earth
-have over the disreputable. When we came upon him with our wise saws,
-our wisdom was shattered instantly, and flung back upon us in fragments.
-What promise could we dare to hold out to him that further patience
-would produce any result that could be beneficial? What further harm
-could any such doing on his part bring upon him? Did we think that were
-he brought out to stand at the gallows’ foot with the knowledge that ten
-minutes would usher him into what folks called eternity, his sense of
-suffering would be as great as it had been when he conducted that woman
-out of court and along the streets to his home, amidst the jeering
-congratulations of his neighbours? “When you have fallen so low,” said
-he, “that you can fall no lower, the ordinary trammels of the world
-cease to bind you.” Though his words were knocked against each other
-with the dulled utterances of intoxication, his intellect was terribly
-clear, and his scorn for himself, and for the world that had so treated
-him, was irrepressible.
-
-We must have been over an hour with him up there in the bed-room, and
-even then we did not leave him. As it was manifest that he could do no
-work on that day, we collected the papers together, and proposed that he
-should take a walk with us. He was patient as we shovelled together the
-Doctor’s pages, and did not object to our suggestion. We found it
-necessary to call up Mrs. Grimes to assist us in putting away the “Opus
-magnum,” and were astonished to find how much she had come to know about
-the work. Added to the Doctor’s manuscript there were now the pages of
-Mackenzie’s indexes,--and there were other pages of reference, for use
-in making future indexes,--as to all of which Mrs. Grimes seemed to be
-quite at home. We have no doubt that she was familiar with the names of
-Greek tragedians, and could have pointed out to us in print the
-performances of the chorus. “A little fresh air’ll do you a deal of
-good, Mr. Mackenzie,” she said to the unfortunate man,--“only take a
-biscuit in your pocket.” We got him out to the street, but he angrily
-refused to take the biscuit which she endeavoured to force into his
-hands.
-
-That was a memorable walk. Turning from the end of Liquorpond Street up
-Gray’s Inn Lane towards Holborn, we at once came upon the entrance into
-a miserable court. “There,” said he; “it is down there that I live. She
-is sleeping it off now, and the children are hanging about her,
-wondering whether mother has got money to have another go at it when she
-rises. I’d take you down to see it all, only it’d sicken you.” We did
-not offer to go down the court, abstaining rather for his sake than for
-our own. The look of the place was as of a spot squalid, fever-stricken,
-and utterly degraded. And this man who was our companion had been born
-and bred a gentleman,--had been nourished with that soft and gentle care
-which comes of wealth and love combined,--had received the education
-which the country gives to her most favoured sons, and had taken such
-advantage of that education as is seldom taken by any of those favoured
-ones;--and Cucumber Court, with a drunken wife and four half-clothed,
-half-starved children, was the condition to which he had brought
-himself! The world knows nothing higher nor brighter than had been his
-outset in life,--nothing lower nor more debased than the result. And yet
-he was one whose time and intellect had been employed upon the pursuit
-of knowledge,--who even up to this day had high ideas of what should be
-a man’s career,--who worked very hard and had always worked,--who as far
-as we knew had struck upon no rocks in the pursuit of mere pleasure. It
-had all come to him from that idea of his youth that it would be good
-for him “to take refuge from the conventional thraldom of so-called
-gentlemen amidst the liberty of the lower orders.” His life, as he had
-himself owned, had indeed been a mistake.
-
-We passed on from the court, and crossing the road went through the
-squares of Gray’s Inn, down Chancery Lane, through the little iron gate
-into Lincoln’s Inn, round through the old square,--than which we know no
-place in London more conducive to suicide; and the new square,--which
-has a gloom of its own, not so potent, and savouring only of madness,
-till at last we found ourselves in the Temple Gardens. I do not know why
-we had thus clung to the purlieus of the Law, except it was that he was
-telling us how in his early days, when he had been sent away from
-Cambridge,--as on this occasion he acknowledged to us, for an attempt to
-pull the tutor’s nose, in revenge for a supposed insult,--he had
-intended to push his fortunes as a barrister. He pointed up to a certain
-window in a dark corner of that suicidal old court, and told us that for
-one year he had there sat at the feet of a great Gamaliel in Chancery,
-and had worked with all his energies. Of course we asked him why he had
-left a prospect so alluring. Though his answers to us were not quite
-explicit, we think that he did not attempt to conceal the truth. He
-learned to drink, and that Gamaliel took upon himself to rebuke the
-failing, and by the end of that year he had quarrelled irreconcilably
-with his family. There had been great wrath at home when he was sent
-from Cambridge, greater wrath when he expressed his opinion upon certain
-questions of religious faith, and wrath to the final severance of all
-family relations when he told the chosen Gamaliel that he should get
-drunk as often as he pleased. After that he had “taken refuge among the
-lower orders,” and his life, such as it was, had come of it.
-
-In Fleet Street, as we came out of the Temple, we turned into an
-eating-house and had some food. By this time the exercise and the air
-had carried off the fumes of the liquor which he had taken, and I knew
-that it would be well that he should eat. We had a mutton chop and a hot
-potato and a pint of beer each, and sat down to table for the first and
-last time as mutual friends. It was odd to see how in his converse with
-us on that day he seemed to possess a double identity. Though the
-hopeless misery of his condition was always present to him, was
-constantly on his tongue, yet he could talk about his own career and
-his own character as though they belonged to a third person. He could
-even laugh at the wretched mistake he had made in life, and speculate as
-to its consequences. For himself he was well aware that death was the
-only release that he could expect. We did not dare to tell him that if
-his wife should die, then things might be better with him. We could only
-suggest to him that work itself, if he would do honest work, would
-console him for many sufferings. “You don’t know the filth of it,” he
-said to us. Ah, dear! how well we remember the terrible word, and the
-gesture with which he pronounced it, and the gleam of his eyes as he
-said it! His manner to us on this occasion was completely changed, and
-we had a gratification in feeling that a sense had come back upon him of
-his old associations. “I remember this room so well,” he said,--“when I
-used to have friends and money.” And, indeed, the room was one which has
-been made memorable by Genius. “I did not think ever to have found
-myself here again.” We observed, however, that he could not eat the food
-that was placed before him. A morsel or two of the meat he swallowed,
-and struggled to eat the crust of his bread, but he could not make a
-clean plate of it, as we did,--regretting that the nature of chops did
-not allow of ampler dimensions. His beer was quickly finished, and we
-suggested to him a second tankard. With a queer, half-abashed twinkle of
-the eye, he accepted our offer, and then the second pint disappeared
-also. We had our doubts on the subject, but at last decided against any
-further offer. Had he chosen to call for it he must have had a third;
-but he did not call for it. We left him at the door of the tavern, and
-he then promised that in spite of all that he had suffered and all that
-he had said he would make another effort to complete the Doctor’s work.
-“Whether I go or stay,” he said, “I’d like to earn the money that I’ve
-spent.” There was something terrible in that idea of his going! Whither
-was he to go?
-
-The Doctor heard nothing of the misfortune of these three or four
-inauspicious days; and the work was again going on prosperously when he
-came up again to London at the end of the second month. He told us
-something of his banker, and something of his lawyer, and murmured a
-word or two as to a new curate whom he needed; but we knew that he had
-come up to London because he could not bear a longer absence from the
-great object of his affections. He could not endure to be thus parted
-from his manuscript, and was again childishly anxious that a portion of
-it should be in the printer’s hands. “At sixty-five, Sir,” he said to
-us, “a man has no time to dally with his work.” He had been dallying
-with his work all his life, and we sincerely believed that it would be
-well with him if he could be contented to dally with it to the end. If
-all that Mackenzie said of it was true, the Doctor’s erudition was not
-equalled by his originality, or by his judgment. Of that question,
-however, we could take no cognizance. He was bent upon publishing, and
-as he was willing and able to pay for his whim and was his own master,
-nothing that we could do would keep him out of the printer’s hands.
-
-He was desirous of seeing Mackenzie, and was anxious even to see him
-once at his work. Of course he could meet his assistant in our editorial
-room, and all the papers could easily be brought backwards and forwards
-in the old despatch-box. But in the interest of all parties we hesitated
-as to taking our revered and reverend friend to the Spotted Dog. Though
-we had told him that his work was being done at a public-house, we
-thought that his mind had conceived the idea of some modest inn, and
-that he would be shocked at being introduced to a place which he would
-regard simply as a gin-shop. Mrs. Grimes, or if not Mrs. Grimes, then
-Mr. Grimes, might object to another visitor to their bed-room; and
-Mackenzie himself would be thrown out of gear by the appearance of those
-clerical gaiters upon the humble scene of his labours. We, therefore,
-gave him such reasons as were available for submitting, at any rate for
-the present, to having the papers brought up to him at our room. And we
-ourselves went down to the Spotted Dog to make an appointment with
-Mackenzie for the following day. We had last seen him about a week
-before, and then the task was progressing well. He had told us that
-another fortnight would finish it. We had enquired also of Mrs. Grimes
-about the man’s wife. All she could tell us was that the woman had not
-again troubled them at the Spotted Dog. She expressed her belief,
-however, that the drunkard had been more than once in the hands of the
-police since the day on which Mackenzie had walked with us through the
-squares of the Inns of Court.
-
-It was late when we reached the public-house on the occasion to which we
-now allude, and the evening was dark and rainy. It was then the end of
-January, and it might have been about six o’clock. We knew that we
-should not find Mackenzie at the public-house; but it was probable that
-Mrs. Grimes could send for him, or, at least, could make the
-appointment for us. We went into the little parlour, where she was
-seated with her husband, and we could immediately see, from the
-countenance of both of them, that something was amiss. We began by
-telling Mrs. Grimes that the Doctor had come to town. “Mackenzie aint
-here, Sir,” said Mrs. Grimes, and we almost thought that the very tone
-of her voice was altered. We explained that we had not expected to find
-him at that hour, and asked if she could send for him. She only shook
-her head. Grimes was standing with his back to the fire and his hands in
-his trousers pockets. Up to this moment he had not spoken a word. We
-asked if the man was drunk. She again shook her head. Could she bid him
-to come to us to-morrow, and bring the box and the papers with him?
-Again she shook her head.
-
-“I’ve told her that I won’t have no more of it,” said Grimes; “nor yet I
-won’t. He was drunk this morning,--as drunk as an owl.”
-
-“He was sober, John, as you are, when he came for the papers this
-afternoon at two o’clock.” So the box and the papers had all been taken
-away!
-
-“And she was here yesterday rampaging about the place, without as much
-clothes on as would cover her nakedness,” said Mr. Grimes. “I won’t
-have no more of it. I’ve done for that man what his own flesh and blood
-wouldn’t do. I know that; and I won’t have no more of it. Mary Anne,
-you’ll have that table cleared out after breakfast to-morrow.” When a
-man, to whom his wife is usually Polly, addresses her as Mary Anne, then
-it may be surmised that that man is in earnest. We knew that he was in
-earnest, and she knew it also.
-
-“He wasn’t drunk, John,--no, nor yet in liquor, when he come and took
-away that box this afternoon.” We understood this reiterated assertion.
-It was in some sort excusing to us her own breach of trust in having
-allowed the manuscript to be withdrawn from her own charge, or was
-assuring us that, at the worst, she had not been guilty of the
-impropriety of allowing the man to take it away when he was unfit to
-have it in his charge. As for blaming her, who could have thought of it?
-Had Mackenzie at any time chosen to pass down stairs with the box in his
-hands, it was not to be expected that she should stop him violently. And
-now that he had done so we could not blame her; but we felt that a great
-weight had fallen upon our own hearts. If evil should come to the
-manuscript would not the Doctor’s wrath fall upon us with a crushing
-weight? Something must be done at once. And we suggested that it would
-be well that somebody should go round to Cucumber Court. “I’d go as soon
-as look,” said Mrs. Grimes, “but he won’t let me.”
-
-“You don’t stir a foot out of this to-night;--not that way,” said Mr.
-Grimes.
-
-“Who wants to stir?” said Mrs. Grimes.
-
-We felt that there was something more to be told than we had yet heard,
-and a great fear fell upon us. The woman’s manner to us was altered, and
-we were sure that this had come not from altered feelings on her part,
-but from circumstances which had frightened her. It was not her husband
-that she feared, but the truth of something that her husband had said to
-her. “If there is anything more to tell, for God’s sake tell it,” we
-said, addressing ourselves rather to the man than to the woman. Then
-Grimes did tell us his story. On the previous evening Mackenzie had
-received three or four sovereigns from Mrs. Grimes, being, of course, a
-portion of the Doctor’s payments; and early on that morning all
-Liquorpond Street had been in a state of excitement with the drunken
-fury of Mackenzie’s wife. She had found her way into the Spotted Dog,
-and was being actually extruded by the strength of Grimes himself,--of
-Grimes, who had been brought down, half dressed, from his bed-room by
-the row,--when Mackenzie himself, equally drunk, appeared upon the
-scene. “No, John;--not equally drunk,” said Mrs. Grimes. “Bother!”
-exclaimed her husband, going on with his story. The man had struggled to
-take the woman by the arm, and the two had fallen and rolled in the
-street together. “I was looking out of the window, and it was awful to
-see,” said Mrs. Grimes. We felt that it was “awful to hear.” A man,--and
-such a man, rolling in the gutter with a drunken woman,--himself
-drunk,--and that woman his wife! “There aint to be no more of it at the
-Spotted Dog; that’s all,” said John Grimes, as he finished his part of
-the story.
-
-Then, at last, Mrs. Grimes became voluble. All this had occurred before
-nine in the morning. “The woman must have been at it all night,” she
-said. “So must the man,” said John. “Anyways he came back about dinner,
-and he was sober then. I asked him not to go up, and offered to make him
-a cup of tea. It was just as you’d gone out after dinner, John.”
-
-“He won’t have no more tea here,” said John.
-
-“And he didn’t have any then. He wouldn’t, he said, have any tea, but
-went up stairs. What was I to do? I couldn’t tell him as he shouldn’t.
-Well;--during the row in the morning John had said something as to
-Mackenzie not coming about the premises any more.”
-
-“Of course I did,” said Grimes.
-
-“He was a little cut, then, no doubt,” continued the lady; “and I didn’t
-think as he would have noticed what John had said.”
-
-“I mean it to be noticed now.”
-
-“He had noticed it then, Sir, though he wasn’t just as he should be at
-that hour of the morning. Well;--what does he do? He goes up stairs and
-packs up all the papers at once. Leastways, that’s as I suppose. They
-aint there now. You can go and look if you please, Sir. Well; when he
-came down, whether I was in the kitchen,--though it isn’t often as my
-eyes is off the bar, or in the tap-room, or busy drawing, which I do do
-sometimes, Sir, when there are a many calling for liquor, I can’t
-say;--but if I aint never to stand upright again, I didn’t see him pass
-out with the box. But Miss Wilcox did. You can ask her.” Miss Wilcox was
-the young lady in the bar, whom we did not think ourselves called upon
-to examine, feeling no doubt whatever as to the fact of the box having
-been taken away by Mackenzie. In all this Mrs. Grimes seemed to defend
-herself, as though some serious charge was to be brought against her;
-whereas all that she had done had been done out of pure charity; and in
-exercising her charity towards Mackenzie she had shown an almost
-exaggerated kindness towards ourselves.
-
-“If there’s anything wrong, it isn’t your fault,” we said.
-
-“Nor yet mine,” said John Grimes.
-
-“No, indeed,” we replied.
-
-“It aint none of our faults,” continued he; “only this;--you can’t wash
-a blackamoor white, nor it aint no use trying. He don’t come here any
-more, that’s all. A man in drink we don’t mind. We has to put up with
-it. And they aint that tarnation desperate as is a woman. As long as a
-man can keep his legs he’ll try to steady hisself; but there is women
-who, when they’ve liquor, gets a fury for rampaging. There aint a many
-as can beat this one, Sir. She’s that strong, it took four of us to hold
-her; though she can’t hardly do a stroke of work, she’s that weak when
-she’s sober.”
-
-We had now heard the whole story, and, while hearing it, had determined
-that it was our duty to go round into Cucumber Court and seek the
-manuscript and the box. We were unwilling to pry into the wretchedness
-of the man’s home; but something was due to the Doctor; and we had to
-make that appointment for the morrow, if it were still possible that
-such an appointment should be kept. We asked for the number of the
-house, remembering well the entrance into the court. Then there was a
-whisper between John and his wife, and the husband offered to accompany
-us. “It’s a roughish place,” he said, “but they know me.” “He’d better
-go along with you,” said Mrs. Grimes. We, of course, were glad of such
-companionship, and glad also to find that the landlord, upon whom we had
-inflicted so much trouble, was still sufficiently our friend to take
-this trouble on our behalf.
-
-“It’s a dreary place enough,” said Grimes, as he led us up the narrow
-archway. Indeed it was a dreary place. The court spread itself a little
-in breadth, but very little, when the passage was passed, and there were
-houses on each side of it. There was neither gutter nor, as far as we
-saw, drain, but the broken flags were slippery with moist mud, and here
-and there, strewed about between the houses, there were the remains of
-cabbages and turnip-tops. The place swarmed with children, over whom one
-ghastly gas-lamp at the end of the court threw a flickering and
-uncertain light. There was a clamour of scolding voices, to which it
-seemed that no heed was paid; and there was a smell of damp rotting
-nastiness, amidst which it seemed to us to be almost impossible that
-life should be continued. Grimes led the way without further speech, to
-the middle house on the left hand of the court, and asked a man who was
-sitting on the low threshold of the door whether Mackenzie was within.
-“So that be you, Muster Grimes; be it?” said the man, without stirring.
-“Yes; he’s there I guess, but they’ve been and took her.” Then we passed
-on into the house. “No matter about that,” said the man, as we
-apologised for kicking him in our passage. He had not moved, and it had
-been impossible to enter without kicking him.
-
-It seemed that Mackenzie held the two rooms on the ground floor, and we
-entered them at once. There was no light, but we could see the glimmer
-of a fire in the grate; and presently we became aware of the presence of
-children. Grimes asked after Mackenzie, and a girl’s voice told us that
-he was in the inner room. The publican then demanded a light, and the
-girl with some hesitation, lit the end of a farthing candle, which was
-fixed in a small bottle. We endeavoured to look round the room by the
-glimmer which this afforded, but could see nothing but the presence of
-four children, three of whom seemed to be seated in apathy on the
-floor. Grimes, taking the candle in his hand, passed at once into the
-other room, and we followed him. Holding the bottle something over his
-head, he contrived to throw a gleam of light upon one of the two beds
-with which the room was fitted, and there we saw the body of Julius
-Mackenzie stretched in the torpor of dead intoxication. His head lay
-against the wall, his body was across the bed, and his feet dangled on
-to the floor. He still wore his dirty boots, and his clothes as he had
-worn them in the morning. No sight so piteous, so wretched, and at the
-same time so eloquent had we ever seen before. His eyes were closed, and
-the light of his face was therefore quenched. His mouth was open, and
-the slaver had fallen upon his beard. His dark, clotted hair had been
-pulled over his face by the unconscious movement of his hands. There
-came from him a stertorous sound of breathing, as though he were being
-choked by the attitude in which he lay; and even in his drunkenness
-there was an uneasy twitching as of pain about his face. And there sat,
-and had been sitting for hours past, the four children in the other
-room, knowing the condition of the parent whom they most respected, but
-not even endeavouring to do anything for his comfort. What could they
-do? They knew, by long training and thorough experience, that a fit of
-drunkenness had to be got out of by sleep. To them there was nothing
-shocking in it. It was but a periodical misfortune. “She’ll have to own
-he’s been and done it now,” said Grimes, looking down upon the man, and
-alluding to his wife’s good-natured obstinacy. He handed the candle to
-us, and, with a mixture of tenderness and roughness, of which the
-roughness was only in the manner and the tenderness was real, he raised
-Mackenzie’s head and placed it on the bolster, and lifted the man’s legs
-on to the bed. Then he took off the man’s boots, and the old silk
-handkerchief from the neck, and pulled the trousers straight, and
-arranged the folds of the coat. It was almost as though he were laying
-out one that was dead. The eldest girl was now standing by us, and
-Grimes asked her how long her father had been in that condition. “Jack
-Hoggart brought him in just afore it was dark,” said the girl. Then it
-was explained to us that Jack Hoggart was the man whom we had seen
-sitting on the door-step.
-
-“And your mother?” asked Grimes.
-
-“The perlice took her afore dinner.”
-
-“And you children;--what have you had to eat?” In answer to this the
-girl only shook her head. Grimes took no immediate notice of this, but
-called the drunken man by his name, and shook his shoulder, and looked
-round to a broken ewer which stood on the little table, for water to
-dash upon him;--but there was no water in the jug. He called again and
-repeated the shaking, and at last Mackenzie opened his eyes, and in a
-dull, half-conscious manner looked up at us. “Come, my man,” said
-Grimes, “shake this off and have done with it.”
-
-“Hadn’t you better try to get up?” we asked.
-
-There was a faint attempt at rising, then a smile,--a smile which was
-terrible to witness, so sad was all which it said; then a look of utter,
-abject misery, coming, as we thought, from a momentary remembrance of
-his degradation; and after that he sank back in the dull, brutal,
-painless, death-like apathy of absolute unconsciousness.
-
-“It’ll be morning afore he’ll move,” said the girl.
-
-“She’s about right,” said Grimes. “He’s got it too heavy for us to do
-anything but just leave him. We’ll take a look for the box and the
-papers.”
-
-And the man upon whom we were looking down had been born a gentleman,
-and was a finished scholar,--one so well educated, so ripe in literary
-acquirement, that we knew few whom we could call his equal. Judging of
-the matter by the light of our reason, we cannot say that the horror of
-the scene should have been enhanced to us by these recollections. Had
-the man been a shoemaker or a coalheaver there would have been enough of
-tragedy in it to make an angel weep,--that sight of the child standing
-by the bedside of her drunken father, while the other parent was away in
-custody,--and in no degree shocked at what she saw, because the thing
-was so common to her! But the thought of what the man had been, of what
-he was, of what he might have been, and the steps by which he had
-brought himself to the foul degradation which we witnessed, filled us
-with a dismay which we should hardly have felt had the gifts which he
-had polluted and the intellect which he had wasted been less capable of
-noble uses.
-
-Our purpose in coming to the court was to rescue the Doctor’s papers
-from danger, and we turned to accompany Grimes into the other room. As
-we did so the publican asked the girl if she knew anything of a black
-box which her father had taken away from the Spotted Dog. “The box is
-here,” said the girl.
-
-“And the papers?” asked Grimes. Thereupon the girl shook her head, and
-we both hurried into the outer room. I hardly know who first discovered
-the sight which we encountered, or whether it was shown to us by the
-child. The whole fire-place was strewn with half-burnt sheets of
-manuscript. There were scraps of pages of which almost the whole had
-been destroyed, others which were hardly more than scorched, and heaps
-of paper-ashes all lying tumbled together about the fender. We went down
-on our knees to examine them, thinking at the moment that the poor
-creature might in his despair have burned his own work and have spared
-that of the Doctor. But it was not so. We found scores of charred pages
-of the Doctor’s elaborate handwriting. By this time Grimes had found the
-open box, and we perceived that the sheets remaining in it were tumbled
-and huddled together in absolute confusion. There were pages of the
-various volumes mixed with those which Mackenzie himself had written,
-and they were all crushed, and rolled, and twisted as though they had
-been thrust thither as waste-paper,--out of the way. “‘Twas mother as
-done it,” said the girl, “and we put ’em back again when the perlice
-took her.”
-
-There was nothing more to learn,--nothing more by the hearing which any
-useful clue could be obtained. What had been the exact course of the
-scenes which had been enacted there that morning it little booted us to
-enquire. It was enough and more than enough that we knew that the
-mischief had been done. We went down on our knees before the fire, and
-rescued from the ashes with our hands every fragment of manuscript that
-we could find. Then we put the mass altogether in the box, and gazed
-upon the wretched remnants almost in tears. “You had better go and get a
-bit of some’at to eat,” said Grimes, handing a coin to the elder girl.
-“It’s hard on them to starve ’cause their father’s drunk, Sir.” Then he
-took the closed box in his hand and we followed him out into the street.
-“I’ll send or step up to look after him to-morrow,” said Grimes, as he
-put us and the box into a cab. We little thought when we made to the
-drunkard that foolish request to arise, that we should never speak to
-him again.
-
-As we returned to our office in the cab that we might deposit the box
-there ready for the following day, our mind was chiefly occupied in
-thinking over the undeserved grievances which had fallen upon ourselves.
-We had been moved by the charitable desire to do services to two
-different persons,--to the learned Doctor and to the red-nosed drunkard,
-and this had come of it! There had been nothing for us to gain by
-assisting either the one or the other. We had taken infinite trouble,
-attempting to bring together two men who wanted each other’s
-services,--working hard in sheer benevolence;--and what had been the
-result? We had spent half an hour on our knees in the undignified and
-almost disreputable work of raking among Mrs. Mackenzie’s cinders, and
-now we had to face the anger, the dismay, the reproach, and,--worse than
-all,--the agony of the Doctor. As to Mackenzie,--we asserted to
-ourselves again and again that nothing further could be done for him. He
-had made his bed, and he must lie upon it; but, oh! why,--why had we
-attempted to meddle with a being so degraded? We got out of the cab at
-our office door, thinking of the Doctor’s countenance as we should see
-it on the morrow. Our heart sank within us, and we asked ourselves, if
-it was so bad with us now, how it would be with us when we returned to
-the place on the following morning.
-
-But on the following morning we did return. No doubt each individual
-reader to whom we address ourselves has at some period felt that
-indescribable load of personal, short-lived care, which causes the heart
-to sink down into the boots. It is not great grief that does it;--nor is
-it excessive fear; but the unpleasant operation comes from the mixture
-of the two. It is the anticipation of some imperfectly-understood evil
-that does it,--some evil out of which there might perhaps be an escape
-if we could only see the way. In this case we saw no way out of it. The
-Doctor was to be with us at one o’clock, and he would come with smiles,
-expecting to meet his learned colleague. How should we break it to the
-Doctor? We might indeed send to him, putting off the meeting, but the
-advantage coming from that would be slight, if any. We must see the
-injured Grecian sooner or later; and we had resolved, much as we feared,
-that the evil hour should not be postponed. We spent an hour that
-morning in arranging the fragments. Of the first volume about a third
-had been destroyed. Of the second nearly every page had been either
-burned or mutilated. Of the third but little had been injured.
-Mackenzie’s own work had fared better than the Doctor’s; but there was
-no comfort in that. After what had passed I thought it quite improbable
-that the Doctor would make any use of Mackenzie’s work. So much of the
-manuscript as could still be placed in continuous pages we laid out upon
-the table, volume by volume,--that in the middle sinking down from its
-original goodly bulk almost to the dimensions of a poor sermon;--and the
-half-burned bits we left in the box. Then we sat ourselves down at our
-accustomed table, and pretended to try to work. Our ears were very
-sharp, and we heard the Doctor’s step upon our stairs within a minute or
-two of the appointed time. Our heart went to the very toes of our
-boots. We shuffled in our chair, rose from it, and sat down again,--and
-were conscious that we were not equal to the occasion. Hitherto we had,
-after some mild literary form, patronised the Doctor,--as a man of
-letters in town will patronise his literary friend from the
-country;--but we now feared him as a truant school-boy fears his master.
-And yet it was so necessary that we should wear some air of
-self-assurance!
-
-In a moment he was with us, wearing that bland smile which we knew so
-well, and which at the present moment almost overpowered us. We had been
-sure that he would wear that smile, and had especially feared it. “Ah,”
-said he, grasping us by the hand, “I thought I should have been late. I
-see that our friend is not here yet.”
-
-“Doctor,” we replied, “a great misfortune has happened.”
-
-“A great misfortune! Mr. Mackenzie is not dead?”
-
-“No;--he is not dead. Perhaps it would have been better that he had died
-long since. He has destroyed your manuscript.” The Doctor’s face fell,
-and his hands at the same time, and he stood looking at us. “I need not
-tell you, Doctor, what my feelings are, and how great my remorse.”
-
-“Destroyed it!” Then we took him by the hand and led him to the table.
-He turned first upon the appetising and comparatively uninjured third
-volume, and seemed to think that we had hoaxed him. “This is not
-destroyed,” he said, with a smile. But before I could explain anything,
-his hands were among the fragments in the box. “As I am a living man,
-they have burned it!” he exclaimed. “I--I--I----” Then he turned from
-us, and walked twice the length of the room, backwards and forwards,
-while we stood still, patiently waiting the explosion of his wrath. “My
-friend,” he said, when his walk was over, “a great man underwent the
-same sorrow. Newton’s manuscript was burned. I will take it home with
-me, and we will say no more about it.” I never thought very much of the
-Doctor as a divine, but I hold him to have been as good a Christian as I
-ever met.
-
-But that plan of his of saying no more about it could not quite be
-carried out. I was endeavouring to explain to him, as I thought it
-necessary to do, the circumstances of the case, and he was protesting
-his indifference to any such details, when there came a knock at the
-door, and the boy who waited on us below ushered Mrs. Grimes into the
-room. As the reader is aware, we had, during the last two months, become
-very intimate with the landlady of the Spotted Dog, but we had never
-hitherto had the pleasure of seeing her outside her own house. “Oh, Mr.
-----” she began, and then she paused, seeing the Doctor.
-
-We thought it expedient that there should be some introduction. “Mrs.
-Grimes,” we said, “this is the gentleman whose invaluable manuscript has
-been destroyed by that unfortunate drunkard.”
-
-“Oh, then you’re the Doctor, Sir?” The Doctor bowed and smiled. His
-heart must have been very heavy, but he bowed politely and smiled
-sweetly. “Oh, dear,” she said, “I don’t know how to tell you!”
-
-“To tell us what?” asked the Doctor.
-
-“What has happened since?” we demanded. The woman stood shaking before
-us, and then sank into a chair. Then arose to us at the moment some idea
-that the drunken woman, in her mad rage, had done some great damage to
-the Spotted Dog,--had set fire to the house, or injured Mr. Grimes
-personally, or perhaps run a muck amidst the jugs and pitchers, window
-glass, and gas lights. Something had been done which would give the
-Grimeses a pecuniary claim on me or on the Doctor, and the woman had
-been sent hither to make the first protest. Oh,--when should I see the
-last of the results of my imprudence in having attempted to befriend
-such a one as Julius Mackenzie! “If you have anything to tell, you had
-better tell it,” we said, gravely.
-
-“He’s been, and----”
-
-“Not destroyed himself?” asked the Doctor.
-
-“Oh yes, Sir. He have indeed,--from ear to ear,--and is now a lying at
-the Spotted Dog!”
-
- * * * * *
-
-And so, after all, that was the end of Julius Mackenzie! We need hardly
-say that our feelings, which up to that moment had been very hostile to
-the man, underwent a sudden revulsion. Poor, overburdened, struggling,
-ill-used, abandoned creature! The world had been hard upon him, with a
-severity which almost induced one to make complaint against Omnipotence.
-The poor wretch had been willing to work, had been industrious in his
-calling, had had capacity for work; and he had also struggled gallantly
-against his evil fate, had recognised and endeavoured to perform his
-duty to his children and to the miserable woman who had brought him to
-his ruin!
-
-And that sin of drunkenness had seemed to us to be in him rather the
-reflex of her vice than the result of his own vicious tendencies. Still
-it might be doubtful whether she had not learned the vice from him. They
-had both in truth been drunkards as long as they had been known in the
-neighbourhood of the Spotted Dog; but it was stated by all who had known
-them there that he was never seen to be drunk unless when she had
-disgraced him by the public exposure of her own abomination. Such as he
-was he had now come to his end! This was the upshot of his loud claims
-for liberty from his youth upwards;--liberty as against his father and
-family; liberty as against his college tutor; liberty as against all
-pastors, masters, and instructors; liberty as against the conventional
-thraldom of the world. He was now lying a wretched corpse at the Spotted
-Dog, with his throat cut from ear to ear, till the coroner’s jury should
-have decided whether or not they would call him a suicide!
-
-Mrs. Grimes had come to tell us that the coroner was to be at the
-Spotted Dog at four o’clock, and to say that her husband hoped that we
-would be present. We had seen Mackenzie so lately, and had so much to do
-with the employment of the last days of his life, that we could not
-refuse this request, though it came accompanied by no legal summons.
-Then Mrs. Grimes again became voluble and poured out to us her
-biography of Mackenzie as far as she knew it. He had been married to the
-woman ten years, and certainly had been a drunkard before he married
-her. “As for her, she’d been well-nigh suckled on gin,” said Mrs.
-Grimes, “though he didn’t know it, poor fellow.” Whether this was true
-or not, she had certainly taken to drink soon after her marriage, and
-then his life had been passed in alternate fits of despondency and of
-desperate efforts to improve his own condition and that of his children.
-Mrs. Grimes declared to us that when the fit came on them,--when the
-woman had begun and the man had followed,--they would expend upon drink
-in two days what would have kept the family for a fortnight. “They say
-as how it was nothing for them to swallow forty shillings’ worth of gin
-in forty-eight hours.” The Doctor held up his hands in horror. “And it
-didn’t, none of it, come our way,” said Mrs. Grimes. “Indeed, John
-wouldn’t let us serve it for ’em.”
-
-She sat there for half an hour, and during the whole time she was
-telling us of the man’s life; but the reader will already have heard
-more than enough of it. By what immediate demon the woman had been
-instigated to burn the husband’s work almost immediately on its
-production within her own home, we never heard. Doubtless there had
-been some terrible scene in which the man’s sufferings must have been
-carried almost beyond endurance. “And he had feelings, Sir, he had,”
-said Mrs. Grimes; “he knew as a woman should be decent, and a man’s wife
-especial; I’m sure we pitied him so, John and I, that we could have
-cried over him. John would say a hard word to him at times, but he’d
-have walked round London to do him a good turn. John aint to say
-edicated hisself, but he do respect learning.”
-
-When she had told us all, Mrs. Grimes went, and we were left alone with
-the Doctor. He at once consented to accompany us to the Spotted Dog, and
-we spent the hour that still remained to us in discussing the fate of
-the unfortunate man. We doubt whether an allusion was made during the
-time to the burned manuscript. If so, it was certainly not made by the
-Doctor himself. The tragedy which had occurred in connection with it had
-made him feel it to be unfitting even to mention his own loss. That such
-a one should have gone to his account in such a manner, without hope,
-without belief, and without fear,--as Burley said to Bothwell, and
-Bothwell boasted to Burley,--that was the theme of the Doctor’s
-discourse. “The mercy of God is infinite,” he said, bowing his head,
-with closed eyes and folded hands. To threaten while the life is in the
-man is human. To believe in the execution of those threats when the life
-has passed away is almost beyond the power of humanity.
-
-At the hour fixed we were at the Spotted Dog, and found there a crowd
-assembled. The coroner was already seated in Mrs. Grimes’s little
-parlour, and the body as we were told had been laid out in the tap-room.
-The inquest was soon over. The fact that he had destroyed himself in the
-low state of physical suffering and mental despondency which followed
-his intoxication was not doubted. At the very time that he was doing it,
-his wife was being taken from the lock-up house to the police office in
-the police van. He was not penniless, for he had sent the children out
-with money for their breakfasts, giving special caution as to the
-youngest, a little toddling thing of three years old;--and then he had
-done it. The eldest girl, returning to the house, had found him lying
-dead upon the floor. We were called upon for our evidence, and went into
-the tap-room accompanied by the Doctor. Alas! the very table which had
-been dragged up stairs into the landlady’s bed-room with the charitable
-object of assisting Mackenzie in his work,--the table at which we had
-sat with him conning the Doctor’s pages--had now been dragged down again
-and was used for another purpose. We had little to say as to the matter,
-except that we had known the man to be industrious and capable, and that
-we had, alas! seen him utterly prostrated by drink on the evening before
-his death.
-
-The saddest sight of all on this occasion was the appearance of
-Mackenzie’s wife,--whom we had never before seen. She had been brought
-there by a policeman, but whether she was still in custody we did not
-know. She had been dressed, either by the decency of the police or by
-the care of her neighbours, in an old black gown, which was a world too
-large and too long for her. And on her head there was a black bonnet
-which nearly enveloped her. She was a small woman, and, as far as we
-could judge from the glance we got of her face, pale, and worn, and wan.
-She had not such outward marks of a drunkard’s career as those which
-poor Mackenzie always carried with him. She was taken up to the coroner,
-and what answers she gave to him were spoken in so low a voice that they
-did not reach us. The policeman, with whom we spoke, told us that she
-did not feel it much,--that she was callous now and beyond the power of
-mental suffering. “She’s frightened just this minute, Sir; but it isn’t
-more than that,” said the policeman. We gave one glance along the table
-at the burden which it bore, but we saw nothing beyond the outward lines
-of that which had so lately been the figure of a man. We should have
-liked to see the countenance once more. The morbid curiosity to see such
-horrid sights is strong with most of us. But we did not wish to be
-thought to wish to see it,--especially by our friend the Doctor,--and we
-abstained from pushing our way to the head of the table. The Doctor
-himself remained quiescent in the corner of the room the farthest from
-the spectacle. When the matter was submitted to them, the jury lost not
-a moment in declaring their verdict. They said that the man had
-destroyed himself while suffering under temporary insanity produced by
-intoxication. And that was the end of Julius Mackenzie, the scholar.
-
-On the following day the Doctor returned to the country, taking with him
-our black box, to the continued use of which, as a sarcophagus, he had
-been made very welcome. For our share in bringing upon him the great
-catastrophe of his life, he never uttered to us, either by spoken or
-written word, a single reproach. That idea of suffering as the great
-philosopher had suffered seemed to comfort him. “If Newton bore it,
-surely I can,” he said to us with his bland smile, when we renewed the
-expression of our regret. Something passed between us, coming more from
-us than from him, as to the expediency of finding out some youthful
-scholar who could go down to the rectory, and reconstruct from its ruins
-the edifice of our friend’s learning. The Doctor had given us some
-encouragement, and we had begun to make enquiry, when we received the
-following letter:--
-
-“---- Rectory, ---- ----, 18--.
-
- “DEAR MR. ----, --You were so kind as to say that you would
- endeavour to find for me an assistant in arranging and
- reconstructing the fragments of my work on The Metres of the Greek
- Dramatists. Your promise has been an additional kindness.” Dear,
- courteous, kind old gentleman! For we knew well that no slightest
- sting of sarcasm was intended to be conveyed in these words. “Your
- promise has been an additional kindness; but looking upon the
- matter carefully, and giving to it the best consideration in my
- power, I have determined to relinquish the design. That which has
- been destroyed cannot be replaced; and it may well be that it was
- not worth replacing. I am old now, and never could do again that
- which perhaps I was never fitted to do with any fair prospect of
- success. I will never turn again to the ashes of my unborn child;
- but will console myself with the memory of my grievance, knowing
- well, as I do so, that consolation from the severity of harsh but
- just criticism might have been more difficult to find. When I think
- of the end of my efforts as a scholar, my mind reverts to the
- terrible and fatal catastrophe of one whose scholarship was
- infinitely more finished and more ripe than mine.
-
- “Whenever it may suit you to come into this part of the country,
- pray remember that it will give very great pleasure to myself and
- to my daughter to welcome you at our parsonage.
-
-“Believe me to be,
-
- “My dear Mr. ----,
-
- “Yours very sincerely,
-
- “---- ----.”
-
-
-
-We never have found the time to accept the Doctor’s invitation, and our
-eyes have never again rested on the black box containing the ashes of
-the unborn child to which the Doctor will never turn again. We can
-picture him to ourselves standing, full of thought, with his hand upon
-the lid, but never venturing to turn the lock. Indeed, we do not doubt
-but that the key of the box is put away among other secret treasures, a
-lock of his wife’s hair, perhaps, and the little shoe of the boy who did
-not live long enough to stand at his father’s knee. For a tender,
-soft-hearted man was the Doctor, and one who fed much on the memories of
-the past.
-
-We often called upon Mr. and Mrs. Grimes at the Spotted Dog, and would
-sit there talking of Mackenzie and his family. Mackenzie’s widow soon
-vanished out of the neighbourhood, and no one there knew what was the
-fate of her or of her children. And then also Mr. Grimes went and took
-his wife with him. But they could not be said to vanish. Scratching his
-head one day, he told me with a dolorous voice that he had--made his
-fortune. “We’ve got as snug a little place as ever you see, just two
-mile out of Colchester,” said Mrs. Grimes triumphantly,--“with thirty
-acres of land just to amuse John. And as for the Spotted Dog, I’m that
-sick of it, another year’d wear me to a dry bone.” We looked at her, and
-saw no tendency that way. And we looked at John, and thought that he was
-not triumphant.
-
-Who followed Mr. and Mrs. Grimes at the Spotted Dog we have never
-visited Liquorpond Street to see.
-
-
-
-
-MRS. BRUMBY.
-
-
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-MRS. BRUMBY.
-
-
-We think that we are justified in asserting that of all the persons with
-whom we have been brought in contact in the course of our editorial
-experiences, men or women, boys or girls, Mrs. Brumby was the most
-hateful and the most hated. We are sure of this,--that for some months
-she was the most feared, during which period she made life a burden to
-us, and more than once induced us to calculate whether it would not be
-well that we should abandon our public duties and retire to some private
-corner into which it would be impossible that Mrs. Brumby should follow
-us. Years have rolled on since then, and we believe that Mrs. Brumby has
-gone before the great Judge and been called upon to account for the
-injuries she did us. We know that she went from these shores to a
-distant land when her nefarious projects failed at home. She was then by
-no means a young woman. We never could find that she left relative or
-friend behind her, and we know of none now, except those close and
-dearest friends of our own who supported us in our misery, who remember
-even that she existed. Whether she be alive or whether she be dead, her
-story shall be told,--not in a spirit of revenge, but with strict
-justice.
-
-What there was in her of good shall be set down with honesty; and indeed
-there was much in her that was good. She was energetic, full of
-resources, very brave, constant, devoted to the interests of the poor
-creature whose name she bore, and by no means a fool. She was utterly
-unscrupulous, dishonest, a liar, cruel, hard as a nether mill-stone to
-all the world except Lieutenant Brumby,--harder to him than to all the
-world besides when he made any faintest attempt at rebellion,--and as
-far as we could judge, absolutely without conscience. Had she been a man
-and had circumstances favoured her, she might have been a prime
-minister, or an archbishop, or a chief justice. We intend no silly
-satire on present or past holders of the great offices indicated; but we
-think that they have generally been achieved by such a combination of
-intellect, perseverance, audacity, and readiness as that which Mrs.
-Brumby certainly possessed. And that freedom from the weakness of
-scruple,--which in men who have risen in public life we may perhaps call
-adaptability to compromise,--was in her so strong, that had she been a
-man, she would have trimmed her bark to any wind that blew, and
-certainly have sailed into some port. But she was a woman,--and the
-ports were not open to her.
-
-Those ports were not open to her which had she been a man would have
-been within her reach; but,--fortunately for us and for the world at
-large as to the general question, though so very unfortunately as
-regarded this special case,--the port of literature is open to women. It
-seems to be the only really desirable harbour to which a female captain
-can steer her vessel with much hope of success. There are the Fine Arts,
-no doubt. There seems to be no reason why a woman should not paint as
-well as Titian. But they don’t. With the pen they hold their own, and
-certainly run a better race against men on that course than on any
-other. Mrs. Brumby, who was very desirous of running a race and winning
-a place, and who had seen all this, put on her cap, and jacket, and
-boots, chose her colours, and entered her name. Why, oh why, did she
-select the course upon which we, wretched we, were bound by our duties
-to regulate the running?
-
-We may as well say at once that though Mrs. Brumby might have made a
-very good prime minister, she could not write a paper for a magazine, or
-produce literary work of any description that was worth paper and ink.
-We feel sure that we may declare without hesitation that no perseverance
-on her part, no labour however unswerving, no training however long,
-would have enabled her to do in a fitting manner even a review for the
-“Literary Curricle.” There was very much in her, but that was not in
-her. We find it difficult to describe the special deficiency under which
-she laboured;--but it existed and was past remedy. As a man suffering
-from a chronic stiff joint cannot run, and cannot hope to run, so was it
-with her. She could not combine words so as to make sentences, or
-sentences so as to make paragraphs. She did not know what style meant.
-We believe that had she ever read, Johnson, Gibbon, Archdeacon Coxe, Mr.
-Grote, and Macaulay would have been all the same to her. And yet this
-woman chose literature as her profession, and clung to it for awhile
-with a persistence which brought her nearer to the rewards of success
-than many come who are at all points worthy to receive them.
-
-We have said that she was not a young woman when we knew her. We cannot
-fancy her to have been ever young. We cannot bring our imagination to
-picture to ourselves the person of Mrs. Brumby surrounded by the
-advantages of youth. When we knew her she may probably have been forty
-or forty-five, and she then possessed a rigidity of demeanour and a
-sternness of presence which we think must have become her better than
-any softer guise or more tender phase of manner could ever have done in
-her earlier years. There was no attempt about her to disguise or modify
-her sex, such as women have made since those days. She talked much about
-her husband, the lieutenant, and she wore a double roll of very stiff
-dark brown curls on each side of her face,--or rather over her
-brows,--which would not have been worn by a woman meaning to throw off
-as far as possible her femininity. Whether those curls were or were not
-artificial we never knew. Our male acquaintances who saw her used to
-swear that they were false, but a lady who once saw her, assured us that
-they were real. She told us that there is a kind of hair growing on the
-heads of some women, thick, short, crisp, and shiny, which will
-maintain its curl unbroken and unruffled for days. She told us, also,
-that women blessed with such hair are always pachy-dermatous and
-strong-minded. Such certainly was the character of Mrs. Brumby. She was
-a tall, thin woman, not very tall or very thin. For aught that we can
-remember, her figure may have been good;--but we do remember well that
-she never seemed to us to have any charm of womanhood. There was a
-certain fire in her dark eyes,--eyes which were, we think, quite
-black,--but it was the fire of contention and not of love. Her features
-were well formed, her nose somewhat long, and her lips thin, and her
-face too narrow, perhaps, for beauty. Her chin was long, and the space
-from her nose to her upper lip was long. She always carried a
-well-wearing brown complexion;--a complexion with which no man had a
-right to find fault, but which, to a pondering, speculative man,
-produced unconsciously a consideration whether, in a matter of kissing,
-an ordinary mahogany table did not offer a preferable surface. When we
-saw her she wore, we think always, a dark stuff dress,--a fur tippet in
-winter and a most ill-arranged shawl in summer,--and a large commanding
-bonnet, which grew in our eyes till it assumed all the attributes of a
-helmet,--inspiring that reverence and creating that fear which
-Minerva’s headgear is intended to produce. When we add our conviction
-that Mrs. Brumby trusted nothing to female charms, that she neither
-suffered nor enjoyed anything from female vanity, and that the
-lieutenant was perfectly safe, let her roam the world alone, as she
-might, in search of editors, we shall have said enough to introduce the
-lady to our readers.
-
-Of her early life, or their early lives, we know nothing; but the
-unfortunate circumstances which brought us into contact with Mrs.
-Brumby, made us also acquainted with the lieutenant. The lieutenant, we
-think, was younger than his wife;--a good deal younger we used to
-imagine, though his looks may have been deceptive. He was a confirmed
-invalid, and there are phases of ill-health which give an appearance of
-youthfulness rather than of age. What was his special ailing we never
-heard,--though, as we shall mention further on, we had our own idea on
-that subject; but he was always spoken of in our hearing as one who
-always had been ill, who always was ill, who always would be ill, and
-who never ought to think of getting well. He had been in some regiment
-called the Duke of Sussex’s Own, and his wife used to imagine that her
-claims upon the public as a woman of literature were enhanced by the
-royalty of her husband’s corps. We never knew her attempt to make any
-other use whatever of his services. He was not confined to his bed, and
-could walk at any rate about the house; but she never asked him, or
-allowed him to do anything. Whether he ever succeeded in getting his
-face outside the door we do not know. He wore, when we saw him, an old
-dressing-gown and slippers. He was a pale, slight, light-haired man, and
-we fancy that he took a delight in novels.
-
-Their settled income consisted of his half-pay and some very small
-property which belonged to her. Together they might perhaps have
-possessed £150 per annum. When we knew them they had lodgings in Harpur
-Street, near Theobald’s Road, and she had resolved to push her way in
-London as a woman of literature. She had been told that she would have
-to deal with hard people, and that she must herself be hard;--that
-advantage would be taken of her weakness, and that she must therefore
-struggle vehemently to equal the strength of those with whom she would
-be brought in contact;--that editors, publishers, and brother authors
-would suck her brains and give her nothing for them, and that,
-therefore, she must get what she could out of them, giving them as
-little as possible in return. It was an evil lesson that she had
-learned; but she omitted nothing in the performance of the duties which
-that lesson imposed upon her.
-
-She first came to us with a pressing introduction from an acquaintance
-of ours who was connected with a weekly publication called the “Literary
-Curricle.” The “Literary Curricle” was not in our estimation a strong
-paper, and we will own that we despised it. We did not think very much
-of the acquaintance by whom the strong introductory letter was written.
-But Mrs. Brumby forced herself into our presence with the letter in her
-hand, and before she left us extracted from us a promise that we would
-read a manuscript which she pulled out of a bag which she carried with
-her. Of that first interview a short account shall be given, but it must
-first be explained that the editor of the “Literary Curricle” had
-received Mrs. Brumby with another letter from another editor, whom she
-had first taken by storm without any introduction whatever. This first
-gentleman, whom we had not the pleasure of knowing, had, under what
-pressure we who knew the lady can imagine, printed three or four short
-paragraphs from Mrs. Brumby’s pen. Whether they reached publication we
-never could learn, but we saw the printed slips. He, however, passed
-her on to the “Literary Curricle,”--which dealt almost exclusively in
-the reviewing of books,--and our friend at the office of that
-influential “organ” sent her to us with an intimation that her very
-peculiar and well-developed talents were adapted rather for the creation
-of tales, or the composition of original treatises, than for reviewing.
-The letter was very strong, and we learned afterwards that Mrs. Brumby
-had consented to abandon her connection with the “Literary Curricle”
-only on the receipt of a letter in her praise that should be very strong
-indeed. She rejected the two first offered to her, and herself dictated
-the epithets with which the third was loaded. On no other terms would
-she leave the office of the “Literary Curricle.”
-
-We cannot say that the letter, strong as it was, had much effect upon
-us; but this effect it had perhaps,--that after reading it we could not
-speak to the lady with that acerbity which we might have used had she
-come to us without it. As it was we were not very civil, and began our
-intercourse by assuring her that we could not avail ourselves of her
-services. Having said so, and observing that she still kept her seat, we
-rose from our chair, being well aware how potent a spell that movement
-is wont to exercise upon visitors who are unwilling to go. She kept her
-seat and argued the matter out with us. A magazine such as that which we
-then conducted must, she surmised, require depth of erudition, keenness
-of intellect, grasp of hand, force of expression, and lightness of
-touch. That she possessed all these gifts she had, she alleged, brought
-to us convincing evidence. There was the letter from the editor of the
-“Literary Curricle,” with which she had been long connected, declaring
-the fact! Did we mean to cast doubt upon the word of our own intimate
-friend? For the gentleman at the office of the “Literary Curricle” had
-written to us as “Dear ----,” though as far as we could remember we had
-never spoken half-a-dozen words to him in our life. Then she repeated
-the explanation, given by her godfather, of the abrupt termination of
-the close connection which had long existed between her and the
-“Curricle.” She could not bring herself to waste her energies in the
-reviewing of books. At that moment we certainly did believe that she had
-been long engaged on the “Curricle,” though there was certainly not a
-word in our correspondent’s letter absolutely stating that to be the
-fact. He declared to us her capabilities and excellences, but did not
-say that he had ever used them himself. Indeed, he told us that great
-as they were, they were hardly suited for his work. She, before she had
-left us on that occasion, had committed herself to positive falsehoods.
-She boasted of the income she had earned from two periodicals, whereas
-up to that moment she had never received a shilling for what she had
-written.
-
-We find it difficult, even after so many years,--when the shame of the
-thing has worn off together with the hairs of our head,--to explain how
-it was that we allowed her to get, in the first instance, any hold upon
-us. We did not care a brass farthing for the man who had written from
-the “Literary Curricle.” His letter to us was an impertinence, and we
-should have stated as much to Mrs. Brumby had we cared to go into such
-matter with her. And our first feelings with regard to the lady herself
-were feelings of dislike,--and almost of contempt even, though we did
-believe that she had been a writer for the press. We disliked her nose,
-and her lips, and her bonnet, and the colour of her face. We didn’t want
-her. Though we were very much younger then than we are now, we had
-already learned to set our backs up against strong-minded female
-intruders. As we said before, we rose from our chair with the idea of
-banishing her, not absolutely uncivilly, but altogether unceremoniously.
-It never occurred to us during that meeting that she could be of any
-possible service to us, or that we should ever be of any slightest
-service to her. Nevertheless she had extracted from us a great many
-words, and had made a great many observations herself before she left
-us.
-
-When a man speaks a great many words it is impossible that he should
-remember what they all were. That we told Mrs. Brumby on that occasion
-that we did not doubt but that we would use the manuscript which she
-left in our hands, we are quite sure was not true. We never went so near
-making a promise in our lives,--even when pressed by youth and
-beauty,--and are quite sure that what we did say to Mrs. Brumby was by
-no means near akin to this. That we undertook to read the manuscript we
-think probable, and therein lay our first fault,--the unfortunate slip
-from which our future troubles sprang, and grew to such terrible
-dimensions. We cannot now remember how the hated parcel, the abominable
-roll, came into our hands. We do remember the face and form and figure
-of the woman as she brought it out of the large reticule which she
-carried, and we remember also how we put our hands behind us to avoid
-it, as she presented it to us. We told her flatly that we did not want
-it, and would not have it;--and yet it came into our hands! We think
-that it must have been placed close to our elbow, and that, being used
-to such playthings, we took it up. We know that it was in our hands, and
-that we did not know how to rid ourselves of it when she began to tell
-us the story of the lieutenant. We were hard-hearted enough to inform
-her,--as we have, under perhaps lesser compulsion, informed others
-since,--that the distress of the man or of the woman should never be
-accepted as a reason for publishing the works of the writer. She
-answered us gallantly enough that she had never been weak enough or
-foolish enough so to think “I base my claim to attention,” she said, “on
-quite another ground. Do not suppose, Sir, that I am appealing to your
-pity. I scorn to do so. But I wish you should know my position as a
-married woman, and that you should understand that my husband, though
-unfortunately an invalid, has been long attached to a regiment which is
-peculiarly the Duke of Sussex’s own. You cannot but be aware of the
-connection which His Royal Highness has long maintained with
-literature.”
-
-Mrs. Brumby could not write, but she could speak. The words she had just
-uttered were absolutely devoid of sense. The absurdity of them was
-ludicrous and gross. But they were not without a certain efficacy. They
-did not fill us with any respect for her literary capacity because of
-her connection with the Duke of Sussex, but they did make us feel that
-she was able to speak up for herself. We are told sometimes that the
-world accords to a man that treatment which he himself boldly demands;
-and though the statement seems to be monstrous, there is much truth in
-it. When Mrs. Brumby spoke of her husband’s regiment being “peculiarly
-the Duke of Sussex’s own,” she used a tone which compelled from us more
-courtesy than we had hitherto shown her. We knew that the duke was
-neither a man of letters nor a warrior, though he had a library, and, as
-we were now told, a regiment. Had he been both, his being so would have
-formed no legitimate claim for Mrs. Brumby upon us. But, nevertheless,
-the royal duke helped her to win her way. It was not his royalty, but
-her audacity that was prevailing. She sat with us for more than an hour;
-and when she left us the manuscript was with us, and we had no doubt
-undertaken to read it. We are perfectly certain that at that time we had
-not gone beyond this in the way of promising assistance to Mrs. Brumby.
-
-The would-be author, who cannot make his way either by intellect or
-favour, can hardly do better, perhaps, than establish a grievance. Let
-there be anything of a case of ill-usage against editor or publisher,
-and the aspirant, if he be energetic and unscrupulous, will greatly
-increase his chance of working his way into print. Mrs. Brumby was both
-energetic and unscrupulous, and she did establish her grievance. As soon
-as she brought her first visit to a close, the roll, which was still in
-our hands, was chucked across our table to a corner commodiously
-supported by the wall, so that occasionally there was accumulated in it
-a heap of such unwelcome manuscripts. In the doing of this, in the
-moment of our so chucking the parcel, it was always our conscientious
-intention to make a clearance of the whole heap, at the very furthest,
-by the end of the week. We knew that strong hopes were bound up in those
-various little packets, that eager thoughts were imprisoned there the
-owners of which believed that they were endowed with wings fit for
-aërial soaring, that young hearts,--ay, and old hearts, too,--sore with
-deferred hope, were waiting to know whether their aspirations might now
-be realised, whether those azure wings might at last be released from
-bondage and allowed to try their strength in the broad sunlight of
-public favour. We think, too, that we had a conscience; and, perhaps,
-the heap was cleared as frequently as are the heaps of other editors.
-But there it would grow, in the commodious corner of our big table, too
-often for our own peace of mind. The aspect of each individual little
-parcel would be known to us, and we would allow ourselves to fancy that
-by certain external signs we could tell the nature of the interior. Some
-of them would promise well,--so well as to create even almost an
-appetite for their perusal. But there would be others from which we
-would turn with aversion, which we seemed to abhor, which, when we
-handled the heap, our fingers would refuse to touch, and which, thus
-lying there neglected and ill-used, would have the dust of many days
-added to those other marks which inspired disgust. We confess that as
-soon as Mrs. Brumby’s back was turned her roll was sent in upon this
-heap with that determined force which a strong feeling of dislike can
-lend even to a man’s little finger. And there it lay for,--perhaps a
-fortnight. When during that period we extracted first one packet and
-then another for judgment, we would still leave Mrs. Brumby’s roll
-behind in the corner. On such occasions a pang of conscience will touch
-the heart; some idea of neglected duty will be present to the mind; a
-silent promise will perhaps be made that it shall be the next; some
-momentary sudden resolve will be half formed that for the future a rigid
-order of succession shall be maintained, which no favour shall be
-allowed to infringe. But, alas! when the hand is again at work
-selecting, the odious ugly thing is left behind, till at last it becomes
-infested with strange terrors, with an absolute power of its own, and
-the guilty conscience will become afraid. All this happened in regard to
-Mrs. Brumby’s manuscript. “Dear, dear, yes;--Mrs. Brumby!” we would
-catch ourselves exclaiming with that silent inward voice which
-occasionally makes itself audible to most of us. And then, quite
-silently, without even whispered violence, we would devote Mrs. Brumby
-to the infernal gods. And so the packet remained amidst the
-heap,--perhaps for a fortnight.
-
-“There’s a lady waiting in your room, Sir!” This was said to us one
-morning on our reaching our office by the lad whom we used to call our
-clerk. He is now managing a red-hot Tory newspaper down in Barsetshire,
-has a long beard, a flaring eye, a round belly, and is upon the whole
-the most arrogant personage we know. In the days of Mrs. Brumby he was a
-little wizened fellow about eighteen years old, but looking three years
-younger, modest, often almost dumb, and in regard to ourselves not only
-reverential but timid. We turned upon him in great anger. What business
-had any woman to be in our room in our absence? Were not our orders on
-this subject exact and very urgent? Was he not kept at an expense of
-14_s._ a week,--we did not actually throw the amount in his teeth, but
-such was intended to be the effect of our rebuke,--at 14_s._ a week,
-paid out of our own pocket,--nominally, indeed, as a clerk, but chiefly
-for the very purpose of keeping female visitors out of our room? And
-now, in our absence and in his, there was actually a woman among the
-manuscripts! We felt from the first moment that it was Mrs. Brumby.
-
-With bated breath and downcast eyes the lad explained to us his
-inability to exclude her. “She walked straight in, right over me,” he
-said; “and as for being alone,--she hasn’t been alone. I haven’t left
-her, not a minute.”
-
-We walked at once into our own room, feeling how fruitless it was to
-discuss the matter further with the boy in the passage, and there we
-found Mrs. Brumby seated in the chair opposite to our own. We had
-gathered ourselves up, if we may so describe an action which was purely
-mental, with a view to severity. We thought that her intrusion was
-altogether unwarrantable, and that it behoved us to let her know that
-such was the case. We entered the room with a clouded brow, and intended
-that she should read our displeasure in our eyes. But Mrs. Brumby
-could,--“gather herself up,” quite as well as we could do, and she did
-so. She also could call clouds to her forehead and could flash anger
-from her eyes. “Madam,” we exclaimed, as we paused for a moment, and
-looked at her.
-
-But she cared nothing for our “Madam,” and condescended to no apology.
-Rising from her chair, she asked us why we had not kept the promise we
-had made her to use her article in our next number. We don’t know how
-far our readers will understand all that was included in this
-accusation. Use her contribution in our next number! It had never
-occurred to us as probable, or hardly as possible, that we should use it
-in any number. Our eye glanced at the heap to see whether her fingers
-had been at work, but we perceived that the heap had not been touched.
-We have always flattered ourselves that no one can touch our heap
-without our knowing it. She saw the motion of our eye, and at once
-understood it. Mrs. Brumby, no doubt, possessed great intelligence, and,
-moreover, a certain majesty of demeanour. There was always something of
-the helmet of Minerva in the bonnet which she wore. Her shawl was an old
-shawl, but she was never ashamed of it; and she could always put herself
-forward, as though there were nothing behind her to be concealed, the
-concealing of which was a burden to her. “I cannot suppose,” she said,
-“that my paper has been altogether neglected!”
-
-We picked out the roll with all the audacity we could assume, and
-proceeded to explain how very much in error she was in supposing that we
-had ever even hinted at its publication. We had certainly said that we
-would read it, mentioning no time. We never did mention any time in
-making any such promise. “You named a week, Sir,” said Mrs. Brumby, “and
-now a month has passed by. You assured me that it would be accepted
-unless returned within seven days. Of course it will be accepted now.”
-We contradicted her flatly. We explained, we protested, we threatened.
-We endeavoured to put the manuscript into her hand, and made a faint
-attempt to stick it into her bag. She was indignant, dignified, and
-very strong. She said nothing on that occasion about legal proceedings,
-but stuck manfully to her assertion that we had bound ourselves to
-decide upon her manuscript within a week. “Do you think, Sir,” said she,
-“that I would entrust the very essence of my brain to the keeping of a
-stranger, without some such assurance as that?” We acknowledged that we
-had undertaken to read the paper, but again disowned the week. “And how
-long would you be justified in taking?” demanded Mrs. Brumby. “If a
-month, why not a year? Does it not occur to you, Sir, that when the very
-best of my intellect, my inmost thoughts, lie there at your disposal,”
-and she pointed to the heap, “it may be possible that a property has
-been confided to you too valuable to justify neglect? Had I given you a
-ring to keep you would have locked it up, but the best jewels of my mind
-are left to the tender mercies of your charwoman.” What she said was
-absolutely nonsense,--abominable, villanous trash; but she said it so
-well that we found ourselves apologising for our own misconduct. There
-had perhaps been a little undue delay. In our peculiar business such
-would occasionally occur. When we had got to this, any expression of our
-wrath at her intrusion was impossible. As we entered the room we had
-intended almost to fling her manuscript at her head. We now found
-ourselves handling it almost affectionately while we expressed regret
-for our want of punctuality. Mrs. Brumby was gracious, and pardoned us,
-but her forgiveness was not of the kind which denotes the intention of
-the injured one to forget as well as forgive the trespass. She had
-suffered from us a great injustice; but she would say no more on that
-score now, on the condition that we would at once attend to her essay.
-She thrice repeated the words, “at once,” and she did so without rebuke
-from us. And then she made us a proposition, the like of which never
-reached us before or since. Would we fix an hour within the next day or
-two at which we would call upon her in Harpur Street and arrange as to
-terms? The lieutenant, she said, would be delighted to make our
-acquaintance. Call upon her!--upon Mrs. Brumby! Travel to Harpur Street,
-Theobald’s Road, on the business of a chance bit of scribbling, which
-was wholly indifferent to us except in so far as it was a trouble to us!
-And then we were invited to make arrangements as to terms! Terms!! Had
-the owner of the most illustrious lips in the land offered to make us
-known in those days to the partner of her greatness, she could not have
-done so with more assurance that she was conferring on us an honour,
-than was assumed by Mrs. Brumby when she proposed to introduce us to the
-lieutenant.
-
-When many wrongs are concentrated in one short speech, and great
-injuries inflicted by a few cleverly-combined words, it is generally
-difficult to reply so that some of the wrongs shall not pass unnoticed.
-We cannot always be so happy as was Mr. John Robinson, when in saying
-that he hadn’t been “dead at all,” he did really say everything that the
-occasion required. We were so dismayed by the proposition that we should
-go to Harpur Street, so hurt in our own personal dignity, that we lost
-ourselves in endeavouring to make it understood that such a journey on
-our part was quite out of the question. “Were we to do that, Mrs.
-Brumby, we should live in cabs and spend our entire days in making
-visits.” She smiled at us as we endeavoured to express our indignation,
-and said something as to circumstances being different in different
-cases;--something also, if we remember right, she hinted as to the
-intelligence needed for discovering the differences. She left our office
-quicker than we had expected, saying that as we could not afford to
-spend our time in cabs she would call again on the day but one
-following. Her departure was almost abrupt, but she went apparently in
-good-humour. It never occurred to us at the moment to suspect that she
-hurried away before we should have had time to repudiate certain
-suggestions which she had made.
-
-When we found ourselves alone with the roll of paper in our hands, we
-were very angry with Mrs. Brumby, but almost more angry with ourselves.
-We were in no way bound to the woman, and yet she had in some degree
-substantiated a claim upon us. We piqued ourselves specially on never
-making any promise beyond the vaguest assurance that this or that
-proposed contribution should receive consideration at some altogether
-undefined time; but now we were positively pledged to read Mrs. Brumby’s
-effusion and have our verdict ready by the day after to-morrow. We were
-wont, too, to keep ourselves much secluded from strangers; and here was
-Mrs. Brumby, who had already been with us twice, positively entitled to
-a third audience. We had been scolded, and then forgiven, and then
-ridiculed by a woman who was old, and ugly, and false! And there was
-present to us a conviction that though she was old, and ugly, and false,
-Mrs. Brumby was no ordinary woman. Perhaps it might be that she was
-really qualified to give us valuable assistance in regard to the
-magazine, as to which we must own we were sometimes driven to use
-matter that was not quite so brilliant as, for our readers’ sakes, we
-would have wished it to be. We feel ourselves compelled to admit that
-old and ugly women, taken on the average, do better literary work than
-they who are young and pretty. I did not like Mrs. Brumby, but it might
-be that in her the age would find another De Staël. So thinking, we cut
-the little string, and had the manuscript open in our own hands. We
-cannot remember whether she had already indicated to us the subject of
-the essay, but it was headed, “Costume in 18--.” There were perhaps
-thirty closely-filled pages, of which we read perhaps a third. The
-handwriting was unexceptionable, orderly, clean, and legible; but the
-matter was undeniable twaddle. It proffered advice to women that they
-should be simple, and to men that they should be cleanly in their
-attire. Anything of less worth for the purpose of amusement or of
-instruction could not be imagined. There was, in fact, nothing in it. It
-has been our fate to look at a great many such essays, and to cause them
-at once either to be destroyed or returned. There could be no doubt at
-all as to Mrs. Brumby’s essay.
-
-She came punctual as the clock. As she seated herself in our chair and
-made some remark as to her hope that we were satisfied, we felt
-something like fear steal across our bosom. We were about to give
-offence, and dreaded the arguments that would follow. It was, however,
-quite clear that we could not publish Mrs. Brumby’s essay on Costume,
-and therefore, though she looked more like Minerva now than ever, we
-must go through our task. We told her in half-a-dozen words that we had
-read the paper, and that it would not suit our columns.
-
-“Not suit your columns!” she said, looking at us by no means in sorrow,
-but in great anger. “You do not mean to trifle with me like that after
-all you have made me suffer?” We protested that we were responsible for
-none of her sufferings. “Sir,” she said, “when I was last here you owned
-the wrong you had done me.” We felt that we must protest against this,
-and we rose in our wrath. There were two of us angry now.
-
-“Madam,” we said, “you have kindly offered us your essay, and we have
-courteously declined it. You will allow us to say that this must end the
-matter.” There were allusions here to kindness and courtesy, but the
-reader will understand that the sense of the words was altogether
-changed by the tone of the voice.
-
-“Indeed, Sir, the matter will not be ended so. If you think that your
-position will enable you to trample upon those who make literature
-really a profession, you are very much mistaken.”
-
-“Mrs. Brumby,” we said, “we can give you no other answer, and as our
-time is valuable----”
-
-“Time valuable!” she exclaimed,--and as she stood up an artist might
-have taken her for a model of Minerva had she only held a spear in her
-hand. “And is no time valuable, do you think, but yours? I had, Sir,
-your distinct promise that the paper should be published if it was left
-in your hands above a week.”
-
-“That is untrue, Madam.”
-
-“Untrue, Sir?”
-
-“Absolutely untrue.” Mrs. Brumby was undoubtedly a woman, and might be
-very like a goddess, but we were not going to allow her to palm off upon
-us without flat contradiction so absolute a falsehood as that. “We never
-dreamed of publishing your paper.”
-
-“Then why, Sir, have you troubled yourself to read it,--from the
-beginning to the end?” We had certainly intimated that we had made
-ourselves acquainted with the entire essay, but we had in fact skimmed
-and skipped through about a third of it.
-
-“How dare you say, Sir, you have never dreamed of publishing it, when
-you know that you studied it with that view?”
-
-“We didn’t read it all,” we said, “but we read quite enough.”
-
-“And yet but this moment ago you told me that you had perused it
-carefully.” The word peruse we certainly never used in our life. We
-object to “perusing,” as we do to “commencing” and “performing.” We
-“read,” and we “begin,” and we “do.” As to that assurance which the word
-“carefully” would intend to convey, we believe that we were to that
-extent guilty. “I think, Sir,” she continued, “that you had better see
-the lieutenant.”
-
-“With a view to fighting the gentleman?” we asked.
-
-“No, Sir. An officer in the Duke of Sussex’s Own draws his sword against
-no enemy so unworthy of his steel.” She had told me at a former
-interview that the lieutenant was so confirmed an invalid as to be
-barely able, on his best days, to drag himself out of bed. “One fights
-with one’s equal, but the law gives redress from injury, whether it be
-inflicted by equal, by superior, or by,--INFERIOR.” And Mrs. Brumby, as
-she uttered the last word, wagged her helmet at us in a manner which
-left no doubt as to the position which she assigned to us.
-
-It became clearly necessary that an end should be put to an intercourse
-which had become so very unpleasant. We told our Minerva very plainly
-that we must beg her to leave us. There is, however, nothing more
-difficult to achieve than the expulsion of a woman who is unwilling to
-quit the place she occupies. We remember to have seen a lady take
-possession of a seat in a mail coach to which she was not entitled, and
-which had been booked and paid for by another person. The agent for the
-coaching business desired her with many threats to descend, but she
-simply replied that the journey to her was a matter of such moment that
-she felt herself called upon to keep her place. The agent sent the
-coachman to pull her out. The coachman threatened,--with his hands as
-well as with his words,--and then set the guard at her. The guard
-attacked her with inflamed visage and fearful words about Her Majesty’s
-mails, and then set the ostlers at her. We thought the ostlers were
-going to handle her roughly, but it ended by their scratching their
-heads, and by a declaration on the part of one of them that she was “the
-rummest go he’d ever seen.” She was a woman, and they couldn’t touch
-her. A policeman was called upon for assistance, who offered to lock her
-up, but he could only do so if allowed to lock up the whole coach as
-well. It was ended by the production of another coach, by an exchange of
-the luggage and passengers, by a delay of two hours, and an embarrassing
-possession of the original vehicle by the lady in the midst of a crowd
-of jeering boys and girls. We could tell Mrs. Brumby to go, and we could
-direct our boy to open the door, and we could make motions indicatory of
-departure with our left hand, but we could not forcibly turn her out of
-the room. She asked us for the name of our lawyer, and we did write down
-for her on a slip of paper the address of a most respectable firm, whom
-we were pleased to regard as our attorneys, but who had never yet earned
-six and eightpence from the magazine. Young Sharp, of the firm of Sharp
-and Butterwell, was our friend, and would no doubt see to the matter for
-us should it be necessary;--but we could not believe that the woman
-would be so foolish. She made various assertions to us as to her
-position in the world of literature, and it was on this occasion that
-she brought out those printed slips which we have before mentioned. She
-offered to refer the matter in dispute between us to the arbitration of
-the editor of the “Curricle;” and when we indignantly declined such
-interference, protesting that there was no matter in dispute, she again
-informed us that if we thought to trample upon her we were very much
-mistaken. Then there occurred a little episode which moved us to
-laughter in the midst of our wrath. Our boy, in obedience to our
-pressing commands that he should usher Mrs. Brumby out of our presence,
-did lightly touch her arm. Feeling the degradation of the assault,
-Minerva swung round upon the unfortunate lad and gave him a box on the
-ear which we’ll be bound the editor of the “West Barsetshire Gazette”
-remembers to this day. “Madam,” we said, as soon as we had swallowed
-down the first involuntary attack of laughter, “if you conduct yourself
-in this manner we must send for the police.”
-
-“Do, Sir, if you dare,” replied Minerva, “and every man of letters in
-the metropolis shall hear of your conduct.” There was nothing in her
-threat to move us, but we confess that we were uncomfortable. “Before I
-leave you, Sir,” she said, “I will give you one more chance. Will you
-perform your contract with me and accept my contribution?”
-
-“Certainly not,” we replied. She afterwards quoted this answer as
-admitting a contract.
-
-We are often told that everything must come to an end,--and there was an
-end at last to Mrs. Brumby’s visit. She went from us with an assurance
-that she should at once return home, pick up the lieutenant,--hinting
-that the exertion, caused altogether by our wickedness, might be the
-death of that gallant officer,--and go with him direct to her attorney.
-The world of literature should hear of the terrible injustice which had
-been done to her, and the courts of law should hear of it too.
-
-We confess that we were grievously annoyed. By the time that Mrs. Brumby
-had left the premises, our clerk had gone also. He had rushed off to the
-nearest police-court to swear an information against her on account of
-the box on the ear which she had given him, and we were unable to leave
-our desk till he had returned. We found that for the present the doing
-of any work in our line of business was quite out of the question. A
-calm mind is required for the critical reading of manuscripts, and whose
-mind could be calm after such insults as those we had received? We sat
-in our chair, idle, reflective, indignant, making resolutions that we
-would never again open our lips to a woman coming to us with a letter of
-introduction and a contribution, till our lad returned to us. We were
-forced to give him a sovereign before we could induce him to withdraw
-his information. We object strongly to all bribery, but in this case we
-could see the amount of ridicule which would be heaped upon our whole
-establishment if some low-conditioned lawyer were allowed to
-cross-examine us as to our intercourse with Mrs. Brumby. It was with
-difficulty that the clerk arranged the matter the next day at the police
-office, and his object was not effected without the farther payment by
-us of £1 2s. 6d. for costs.
-
-It was then understood between us and the clerk that on no excuse
-whatever should Mrs. Brumby be again admitted to my room, and I thought
-that the matter was over. “She shall have to fight her way through if
-she does get in,” said the lad. “She aint going to knock me about any
-more,--woman or no woman.” “O, dea, certe,” we exclaimed. “It shall be a
-dear job to her if she touches me again,” said the clerk, catching up
-the sound.
-
-We really thought we had done with Mrs. Brumby, but at the end of four
-or five days there came to us a letter, which we have still in our
-possession, and which we will now venture to make public. It was as
-follows. It was addressed not to ourselves but to Messrs. X., Y., and
-Z., the very respectable proprietors of the periodical which we were
-managing on their behalf.
-
-“Pluck Court, Gray’s Inn, 31st March, 18--.
-
-“GENTLEMEN,
-
- “We are instructed by our client, Lieutenant Brumby, late of the
- Duke of Sussex’s Own regiment, to call upon you for payment of the
- sum of twenty-five guineas due to him for a manuscript essay on
- Costume, supplied by his wife to the ---- Magazine, which is, we
- believe, your property, by special contract with Mr. ----, the
- Editor. We are also directed to require from you and from Mr. ----
- a full apology in writing for the assault committed on Mrs. Brumby
- in your Editor’s room on the 27th instant; and an assurance also
- that the columns of your periodical shall not be closed against
- that lady because of this transaction. We request that £1 13s. 8d.,
- our costs, may be forwarded to us, together with the above-named
- sum of twenty-five guineas.
-
-“We are, gentlemen,
-
-“Your obedient servants,
-
-“BADGER AND BLISTER.
-
-“Messrs. X., Y., Z., Paternoster Row.”
-
-We were in the habit of looking in at the shop in Paternoster Row on the
-first of every month, and on that inauspicious first of April the above
-letter was handed to us by our friend Mr. X. “I hope you haven’t been
-and put your foot in it,” said Mr. X. We protested that we had not put
-our foot in it at all, and we told him the whole story. “Don’t let us
-have a lawsuit, whatever you do,” said Mr. X. “The magazine isn’t worth
-it.” We ridiculed the idea of a lawsuit, but we took away with us
-Messrs. Badger and Blister’s letter and showed it to our legal adviser,
-Mr. Sharp. Mr. Sharp was of opinion that Badger and Blister meant
-fighting. When we pointed out to him the absolute absurdity of the whole
-thing, he merely informed us that we did not know Badger and Blister.
-“They’ll take up any case,” said he, “however hopeless, and work it with
-superhuman energy, on the mere chance of getting something out of the
-defendant. Whatever is got out of him becomes theirs. They never
-disgorge.” We were quite confident that nothing could be got out of the
-magazine on behalf of Mrs. Brumby, and we left the case in Mr. Sharp’s
-hands, thinking that our trouble in the matter was over.
-
-A fortnight elapsed, and then we were called upon to meet Mr. Sharp in
-Paternoster Row. We found our friend Mr. X. with a somewhat unpleasant
-visage. Mr. X. was a thriving man, usually just, and sometimes generous
-but he didn’t like being “put upon.” Mr. Sharp had actually recommended
-that some trifle should be paid to Mrs. Brumby, and Mr. X. seemed to
-think that this expense would, in case that advice were followed, have
-been incurred through fault on our part. “A ten-pound note will set it
-all right,” said Mr. Sharp.
-
-“Yes;--a ten-pound note,--just flung into the gutter. I wonder that you
-allowed yourself to have anything to do with such a woman.” We protested
-against this injustice, giving Mr. X. to know that he didn’t understand
-and couldn’t understand our business. “I’m not so sure of that,” said
-Mr. X. There was almost a quarrel, and we began to doubt whether Mrs.
-Brumby would not be the means of taking the very bread from out of our
-mouths. Mr. Sharp at last suggested that in spite of what he had seen
-from Mrs. Brumby, the lieutenant would probably be a gentleman. “Not a
-doubt about it,” said Mr. X., who was always fond of officers and of the
-army, and at the moment seemed to think more of a paltry lieutenant than
-of his own Editor.
-
-Mr. Sharp actually pressed upon us and upon Mr. X. that we should call
-upon the lieutenant and explain matters to him. Mrs. Brumby had always
-been with us at twelve o’clock. “Go at noon,” said Mr. Sharp, “and
-you’ll certainly find her out.” He instructed us to tell the lieutenant
-“just the plain truth,” as he called it, and to explain that in no way
-could the proprietors of a magazine be made liable to payment for an
-article because the Editor in discharge of his duty had consented to
-read it. “Perhaps the lieutenant doesn’t know that his name has been
-used at all,” said Mr. Sharp. “At any rate, it will be well to learn
-what sort of a man he is.”
-
-“A high minded gentleman, no doubt,” said Mr. X. the name of whose
-second boy was already down at the Horse Guards for a commission.
-
-Though it was sorely against the grain, and in direct opposition to our
-own opinion, we were constrained to go to Harpur Street, Theobald’s
-Road, and to call upon Lieutenant Brumby. We had not explained to Mr. X.
-or to Mr. Sharp what had passed between Mrs. Brumby and ourselves when
-she suggested such a visit, but the memory of the words which we and she
-had then spoken was on us as we endeavoured to dissuade our lawyer and
-our publisher. Nevertheless, at their instigation, we made the visit.
-The house in Harpur Street was small, and dingy, and old. The door was
-opened for us by the normal lodging-house maid-of-all-work, who when we
-asked for the lieutenant, left us in the passage, that she might go and
-see. We sent up our name, and in a few minutes were ushered into a
-sitting-room up two flights of stairs. The room was not untidy, but it
-was as comfortless as any chamber we ever saw. The lieutenant was lying
-on an old horsehair sofa, but we had been so far lucky as to find him
-alone. Mr. Sharp had been correct in his prediction as to the customary
-absence of the lady at that hour in the morning. In one corner of the
-room we saw an old ram-shackle desk, at which, we did not doubt, were
-written those essays on costume and other subjects, in the disposing of
-which the lady displayed so much energy. The lieutenant himself was a
-small gray man, dressed, or rather enveloped, in what I supposed to be
-an old wrapper of his wife’s. He held in his hands a well-worn volume of
-a novel, and when he rose to greet us he almost trembled with dismay and
-bashfulness. His feet were thrust into slippers which were too old to
-stick on them, and round his throat he wore a dirty, once white, woollen
-comforter. We never learned what was the individual character of the
-corps which specially belonged to H.R.H. the Duke of Sussex; but if it
-was conspicuous for dash and gallantry, Lieutenant Brumby could hardly
-have held his own among his brother officers. We knew, however, from his
-wife that he had been invalided, and as an invalid we respected him. We
-proceeded to inform him that we had been called upon to pay him a sum of
-twenty-five guineas, and to explain how entirely void of justice any
-such claim must be. We suggested to him that he might be made to pay
-some serious sum by the lawyers he employed, and that the matter to us
-was an annoyance and a trouble,--chiefly because we had no wish to be
-brought into conflict with any one so respectable as Lieutenant Brumby.
-He looked at us with imploring eyes, as though begging us not to be too
-hard upon him in the absence of his wife, trembled from head to foot,
-and muttered a few words which were nearly inaudible. We will not state
-as a fact that the lieutenant had taken to drinking spirits early in
-life, but that certainly was our impression during the only interview we
-ever had with him. When we pressed upon him as a question which he must
-answer whether he did not think that he had better withdraw his claim,
-he fell back upon his sofa, and began to sob. While he was thus weeping
-Mrs. Brumby entered the room. She had in her hand the card which we had
-given to the maid-of-all-work, and was therefore prepared for the
-interview. “Sir,” she said, “I hope you have come to settle my husband’s
-just demands.”
-
-Amidst the husband’s wailings there had been one little sentence which
-reached our ears. “She does it all,” he had said, throwing his eyes up
-piteously towards our face. At that moment the door had been opened, and
-Mrs. Brumby had entered the room. When she spoke of her husband’s “just
-demands,” we turned to the poor prostrate lieutenant, and were deterred
-from any severity towards him by the look of supplication in his eye,.
-“The lieutenant is not well this morning,” said Mrs. Brumby, “and you
-will therefore be pleased to address yourself to me.” We explained that
-the absurd demand for payment had been made on the proprietors of the
-magazine in the name of Lieutenant Brumby, and that we had therefore
-been obliged, in the performance of a most unpleasant duty, to call upon
-that gentleman; but she laughed our argument to scorn. “You have driven
-me to take legal steps,” she said, “and as I am only a woman I must take
-them in the name of my husband. But I am the person aggrieved, and if
-you have any excuse to make you can make it to me. Your safer course,
-Sir, will be to pay me the money that you owe me.”
-
-I had come there on a fool’s errand, and before I could get away was
-very angry both with Mr. Sharp and Mr. X. I could hardly get a word in
-amidst the storm of indignant reproaches which was bursting over my head
-during the whole of the visit. One would have thought from hearing her
-that she had half filled the pages of the magazine for the last six
-months, and that we, individually, had pocketed the proceeds of her
-labour. She laughed in our face when we suggested that she could not
-really intend to prosecute the suit, and told us to mind our own
-business when we hinted that the law was an expensive amusement. “We,
-Sir,” she said, “will have the amusement, and you will have to pay the
-bill.” When we left her she was indignant, defiant, and self-confident.
-
-And what will the reader suppose was the end of all this? The whole
-truth has been told as accurately as we can tell it. As far as we know
-our own business we were not wrong in any single step we took. Our
-treatment of Mrs. Brumby was courteous, customary, and conciliatory. We
-had treated her with more consideration than we had perhaps ever before
-shown to an unknown, would-be contributor. She had been admitted thrice
-to our presence. We had read at any rate enough of her trash to be sure
-of its nature. On the other hand, we had been insulted, and our clerk
-had had his ears boxed. What should have been the result? We will tell
-the reader what was the result. Mr. X. paid £10 to Messrs. Badger and
-Blister on behalf of the lieutenant; and we, under Mr. Sharp’s advice,
-wrote a letter to Mrs. Brumby in which we expressed deep sorrow for our
-clerk’s misconduct, and our own regret that we should have
-delayed,--“the perusal of her manuscript.” We could not bring ourselves
-to write the words ourselves with our own fingers, but signed the
-document which Mr. Sharp put before us. Mr. Sharp had declared to
-Messrs. X., Y., and Z., that unless some such arrangement were made, he
-thought that we should be cast for a much greater sum before a jury. For
-one whole morning in Paternoster Row we resisted this infamous tax, not
-only on our patience, but,--as we then felt it,--on our honour. We
-thought that our very old friend Mr. X. should have stood to us more
-firmly, and not have demanded from us a task that was so peculiarly
-repugnant to our feelings. “And it is peculiarly repugnant to my
-feelings to pay £10 for nothing,” said Mr. X., who was not, we think,
-without some little feeling of revenge against us; “but I prefer that to
-a lawsuit.” And then he argued that the simple act on our part of
-signing such a letter as that presented to us could cost us no trouble,
-and ought to occasion us no sorrow. “What can come of it? Who’ll know
-it?” said Mr. X. “We’ve got to pay £10, and that we shall feel.” It came
-to that at last, that we were constrained to sign the letter,--and did
-sign it. It did us no harm, and can have done Mrs. Brumby no good but
-the moment in which we signed it was perhaps the bitterest we ever knew.
-
-That in such a transaction Mrs. Brumby should have been so thoroughly
-successful, and that we should have been so shamefully degraded, has
-always appeared to us to be an injury too deep to remain unredressed for
-ever. Can such wrongs be, and the heavens not fall! Our greatest comfort
-has been in the reflection that neither the lieutenant nor his wife ever
-saw a shilling of the £10. That, doubtless, never went beyond Badger and
-Blister.
-
- THE END.
-
- PRINTED BY W. H. SMITH AND SON, 186, STRAND, LONDON.
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-<h1>M A R Y &nbsp; G R E S L E Y<br /><br />
-<small><small>AND</small></small><br /><br />
-<small>AN EDITOR’S TALES.</small></h1>
-
-<p class="c">BY
-ANTHONY TROLLOPE,<br />
-AUTHOR OF<br />
-“DOCTOR THORNE,”<br />
-“PHINEAS FINN,”<br />
-“LOTTA SCHMIDT,”<br />
-“ORLEY FARM,”<br />
-ETC.<br /><br />
-NEW EDITION.<br /><br />
-LONDON:
-CHAPMAN AND HALL, 193, PICCADILLY.<br />
-1873.</p>
-
-<p class="c">[<i>The right of translation is reserved.</i>]
-</p>
-
-<h2><a name="CONTENTS" id="CONTENTS"></a>CONTENTS.</h2>
-
-<table border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" summary="">
-
-<tr><td>&nbsp;</td><td class="rt"><small>PAGE</small></td></tr>
-<tr><td><a href="#MARY_GRESLEY">MARY GRESLEY</a> </td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_001">1</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><td><a href="#THE_TURKISH_BATH">THE TURKISH BATH</a></td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_049">49</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><td><a href="#JOSEPHINE_DE_MONTMORENCI">JOSEPHINE DE MONTMORENCI</a></td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_095">95</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><td><a href="#THE_PANJANDRUM">THE PANJANDRUM&mdash;</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><td class="indd"><a href="#Part_I_Hope">PART I.&mdash;HOPE</a></td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_141">141</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><td class="indd"><a href="#Part_II_Despair">PART II.&mdash;DESPAIR</a></td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_189">189</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><td><a href="#THE_SPOTTED_DOG">THE SPOTTED DOG&mdash;</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><td class="indd"><a href="#Part_I_the_Attempt">PART I.&mdash;THE ATTEMPT</a></td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_227">227</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><td class="indd"><a href="#Part_II_The_Result">PART II.&mdash;THE RESULT</a></td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_275">275</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><td><a href="#MRS_BRUMBY">MRS. BRUMBY</a></td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_321">321</a></td></tr>
-</table>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_001" id="page_001"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_002" id="page_002"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_003" id="page_003"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<h2><a name="MARY_GRESLEY" id="MARY_GRESLEY"></a>MARY GRESLEY.</h2>
-
-<p class="c"><img src="images/mary.jpg"
-alt="[text decoration unavailable.]"
-/>
-</p>
-
-<h2>MARY GRESLEY.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">W</span>E have known many prettier girls than Mary Gresley, and many handsomer
-women&mdash;but we never knew girl or woman gifted with a face which in
-supplication was more suasive, in grief more sad, in mirth more merry.
-It was a face that compelled sympathy, and it did so with the conviction
-on the mind of the sympathiser that the girl was altogether unconscious
-of her own power. In her intercourse with us there was, alas! much more
-of sorrow than of mirth, and we may truly say that in her sufferings we
-suffered; but still there came to us from our intercourse with her much
-of delight mingled with the sorrow; and that delight arose, partly no
-doubt from her woman’s charms, from the bright eye, the beseeching
-mouth, the soft little hand, and the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_004" id="page_004"></a></span> feminine grace of her unpretending
-garments; but chiefly, we think, from the extreme humanity of the girl.
-She had little, indeed none, of that which the world calls society, but
-yet she was pre-eminently social. Her troubles were very heavy, but she
-was making ever an unconscious effort to throw them aside, and to be
-jocund in spite of their weight. She would even laugh at them, and at
-herself as bearing them. She was a little fair-haired creature, with
-broad brow and small nose and dimpled chin, with no brightness of
-complexion, no luxuriance of hair, no swelling glory of bust and
-shoulders; but with a pair of eyes which, as they looked at you, would
-be gemmed always either with a tear or with some spark of laughter, and
-with a mouth in the corners of which was ever lurking some little spark
-of humour, unless when some unspoken prayer seemed to be hanging on her
-lips. Of woman’s vanity she had absolutely none. Of her corporeal self,
-as having charms to rivet man’s love, she thought no more than does a
-dog. It was a fault with her that she lacked that quality of womanhood.
-To be loved was to her all the world; unconscious desire for the
-admiration of men was as strong in her as in other women; and her
-instinct taught her, as such instincts do teach all women, that such
-love and admiration was to be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_005" id="page_005"></a></span> the fruit of what feminine gifts she
-possessed; but the gifts on which she depended,&mdash;depending on them
-without thinking on the matter,&mdash;were her softness, her trust, her
-woman’s weakness, and that power of supplicating by her eye without
-putting her petition into words which was absolutely irresistible. Where
-is the man of fifty, who in the course of his life has not learned to
-love some woman simply because it has come in his way to help her, and
-to be good to her in her struggles? And if added to that source of
-affection there be brightness, some spark of humour, social gifts, and a
-strong flavour of that which we have ventured to call humanity, such
-love may become almost a passion without the addition of much real
-beauty.</p>
-
-<p>But in thus talking of love we must guard ourselves somewhat from
-miscomprehension. In love with Mary Gresley, after the common sense of
-the word, we never were, nor would it have become us to be so. Had such
-a state of being unfortunately befallen us, we certainly should be
-silent on the subject. We were married and old; she was very young, and
-engaged to be married, always talking to us of her engagement as a thing
-fixed as the stars. She looked upon us, no doubt,&mdash;after she had ceased
-to regard us simply in our editorial capacity,&mdash;as a subsidiary old
-uncle whom Providence had supplied to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_006" id="page_006"></a></span> her, in order that, if it were
-possible, the troubles of her life might be somewhat eased by assistance
-to her from that special quarter. We regarded her first almost as a
-child, and then as a young woman to whom we owed that sort of protecting
-care which a graybeard should ever be ready to give to the weakness of
-feminine adolescence. Nevertheless we were in love with her, and we
-think such a state of love to be a wholesome and natural condition. We
-might, indeed, have loved her grandmother,&mdash;but the love would have been
-very different. Had circumstances brought us into connection with her
-grandmother, we hope we should have done our duty, and had that old lady
-been our friend we should, we trust, have done it with alacrity. But in
-our intercourse with Mary Gresley there was more than that. She charmed
-us. We learned to love the hue of that dark gray stuff frock which she
-seemed always to wear. When she would sit in the low arm-chair opposite
-to us, looking up into our eyes as we spoke to her words which must
-often have stabbed her little heart, we were wont to caress her with
-that inward undemonstrative embrace that one spirit is able to confer
-upon another. We thought of her constantly, perplexing our mind for her
-succour. We forgave all her faults. We exaggerated her virtues. We
-exerted ourselves for her with a zeal<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_007" id="page_007"></a></span> that was perhaps fatuous. Though
-we attempted sometimes to look black at her, telling her that our time
-was too precious to be wasted in conversation with her, she soon learned
-to know how welcome she was to us. Her glove,&mdash;which, by-the-bye, was
-never tattered, though she was very poor,&mdash;was an object of regard to
-us. Her grandmother’s gloves would have been as unacceptable to us as
-any other morsel of old kid or cotton. Our heart bled for her. Now the
-heart may suffer much for the sorrows of a male friend, but it may
-hardly for such be said to bleed. We loved her, in short, as we should
-not have loved her, but that she was young and gentle, and could
-smile,&mdash;and, above all, but that she looked at us with those bright,
-beseeching, tear-laden eyes.</p>
-
-<p>Sterne, in his latter days, when very near his end, wrote passionate
-love-letters to various women, and has been called hard names by
-Thackeray,&mdash;not for writing them, but because he thus showed himself to
-be incapable of that sincerity which should have bound him to one love.
-We do not ourselves much admire the sentimentalism of Sterne, finding
-the expression of it to be mawkish, and thinking that too often he
-misses the pathos for which he strives from a want of appreciation on
-his own part of that which is really vigorous in language and touching<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_008" id="page_008"></a></span>
-in sentiment. But we think that Thackeray has been somewhat wrong in
-throwing that blame on Sterne’s heart which should have been attributed
-to his taste. The love which he declared when he was old and sick and
-dying,&mdash;a worn-out wreck of a man,&mdash;disgusts us, not because it was
-felt, or not felt, but because it was told;&mdash;and told as though the
-teller meant to offer more than that warmth of sympathy which woman’s
-strength and woman’s weakness combined will ever produce in the hearts
-of certain men. This is a sympathy with which neither age, nor crutches,
-nor matrimony, nor position of any sort need consider itself to be
-incompatible. It is unreasoning, and perhaps irrational. It gives to
-outward form and grace that which only inward merit can deserve. It is
-very dangerous because, unless watched, it leads to words which express
-that which is not intended. But, though it may be controlled, it cannot
-be killed. He, who is of his nature open to such impression, will feel
-it while breath remains to him. It was that which destroyed the
-character and happiness of Swift, and which made Sterne contemptible. We
-do not doubt that such unreasoning sympathy, exacted by feminine
-attraction, was always strong in Johnson’s heart;&mdash;but Johnson was
-strong all over, and could guard himself equally from<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_009" id="page_009"></a></span> misconduct and
-from ridicule. Such sympathy with women, such incapability of
-withstanding the feminine magnet, was very strong with Goethe,&mdash;who
-could guard himself from ridicule, but not from misconduct. To us the
-child of whom we are speaking&mdash;for she was so then&mdash;was ever a child.
-But she bore in her hand the power of that magnet, and we admit that the
-needle within our bosom was swayed by it. Her story,&mdash;such as we have to
-tell it,&mdash;was as follows.</p>
-
-<p>Mary Gresley, at the time when we first knew her, was eighteen years
-old, and was the daughter of a medical practitioner, who had lived and
-died in a small town in one of the northern counties. For facility in
-telling our story we will call that town Cornboro. Dr. Gresley, as he
-seemed to have been called, though without proper claim to the title,
-had been a diligent man, and fairly successful,&mdash;except in this, that he
-died before he had been able to provide for those whom he left behind
-him. The widow still had her own modest fortune, amounting to some
-eighty pounds a year; and that, with the furniture of her house, was her
-whole wealth, when she found herself thus left with the weight of the
-world upon her shoulders. There was one other daughter older than Mary,
-whom we never saw, but who was always mentioned<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_010" id="page_010"></a></span> as poor Fanny. There
-had been no sons, and the family consisted of the mother and the two
-girls. Mary had been only fifteen when her father died, and up to that
-time had been regarded quite as a child by all who had known her. Mrs.
-Gresley, in the hour of her need, did as widows do in such cases. She
-sought advice from her clergyman and neighbours, and was counselled to
-take a lodger into her house. No lodger could be found so fitting as the
-curate, and when Mary was seventeen years old she and the curate were
-engaged to be married. The curate paid thirty pounds a year for his
-lodgings, and on this, with their own little income, the widow and her
-two daughters had managed to live. The engagement was known to them all
-as soon as it had been known to Mary. The love-making, indeed, had gone
-on beneath the eyes of the mother. There had been not only no deceit, no
-privacy, no separate interests, but, as far as we ever knew, no question
-as to prudence in the making of the engagement. The two young people had
-been brought together, had loved each other, as was so natural, and had
-become engaged as a matter of course. It was an event as easy to be
-foretold, or at least as easy to be believed, as the pairing of two
-birds. From what we heard of this curate, the Rev. Arthur Donne,&mdash;for<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_011" id="page_011"></a></span>
-we never saw him,&mdash;we fancy that he was a simple, pious, commonplace
-young man, imbued with a strong idea that in being made a priest he had
-been invested with a nobility and with some special capacity beyond that
-of other men, slight in body, weak in health, but honest, true, and
-warm-hearted. Then, the engagement having been completed, there arose
-the question of matrimony. The salary of the curate was a hundred a
-year. The whole income of the vicar, an old man, was, after payment made
-to his curate, two hundred a year. Could the curate, in such
-circumstances, afford to take to himself a penniless wife of seventeen?
-Mrs. Gresley was willing that the marriage should take place, and that
-they should all do as best they might on their joint income. The vicar’s
-wife, who seems to have been a strong-minded, sage, though somewhat hard
-woman, took Mary aside, and told her that such a thing must not be.
-There would come, she said, children, and destitution, and ruin. She
-knew perhaps more than Mary knew when Mary told us her story, sitting
-opposite to us in the low arm-chair. It was the advice of the vicar’s
-wife that the engagement should be broken off; but that, if the
-breaking-off of the engagement were impossible, there should be an
-indefinite period of waiting. Such engagements cannot be broken<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_012" id="page_012"></a></span> off.
-Young hearts will not consent to be thus torn asunder. The vicar’s wife
-was too strong for them to get themselves married in her teeth, and the
-period of indefinite waiting was commenced.</p>
-
-<p>And now for a moment we will go further back among Mary’s youthful days.
-Child as she seemed to be, she had in very early years taken a pen in
-her hand. The reader need hardly be told that had not such been the case
-there would not have arisen any cause for friendship between her and us.
-We are telling an Editor’s tale, and it was in our editorial capacity
-that Mary first came to us. Well;&mdash;in her earliest attempts, in her very
-young days, she wrote&mdash;Heaven knows what; poetry first, no doubt; then,
-God help her, a tragedy; after that, when the curate-influence first
-commenced, tales for the conversion of the ungodly;&mdash;and at last, before
-her engagement was a fact, having tried her wing at fiction, in the form
-of those false little dialogues between Tom the Saint and Bob the
-Sinner, she had completed a novel in one volume. She was then seventeen,
-was engaged to be married, and had completed her novel! Passing her in
-the street you would almost have taken her for a child to whom you might
-give an orange.</p>
-
-<p>Hitherto her work had come from ambition,&mdash;or from<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_013" id="page_013"></a></span> a feeling of
-restless piety inspired by the curate. Now there arose in her young mind
-the question whether such talent as she possessed might not be turned to
-account for ways and means, and used to shorten, perhaps absolutely to
-annihilate, that uncertain period of waiting. The first novel was seen
-by “a man of letters” in her neighbourhood, who pronounced it to be very
-clever;&mdash;not indeed fit as yet for publication, faulty in grammar,
-faulty even in spelling,&mdash;how I loved the tear that shone in her eye as
-she confessed this delinquency!&mdash;faulty of course in construction, and
-faulty in character;&mdash;but still clever. The man of letters had told her
-that she must begin again.</p>
-
-<p>Unfortunate man of letters in having thrust upon him so terrible a task!
-In such circumstances what is the candid, honest, soft-hearted man of
-letters to do? “Go, girl, and mend your stockings. Learn to make a pie.
-If you work hard, it may be that some day your intellect will suffice to
-you to read a book and understand it. For the writing of a book that
-shall either interest or instruct a brother human being many gifts are
-required. Have you just reason to believe that they have been given to
-you?” That is what the candid, honest man of letters says who is not
-soft-hearted;&mdash;and in ninety-nine cases<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_014" id="page_014"></a></span> out of a hundred it will
-probably be the truth. The soft-hearted man of letters remembers that
-this special case submitted to him may be the hundredth; and, unless the
-blotted manuscript is conclusive against such possibility, he reconciles
-it to his conscience to tune his counsel to that hope. Who can say that
-he is wrong? Unless such evidence be conclusive, who can venture to
-declare that this aspirant may not be the one who shall succeed? Who in
-such emergency does not remember the day in which he also was one of the
-hundred of whom the ninety-and-nine must fail;&mdash;and will not remember
-also the many convictions on his own mind that he certainly would not be
-the one appointed? The man of letters in the neighbourhood of Cornboro
-to whom poor Mary’s manuscript was shown was not sufficiently
-hard-hearted to make any strong attempt to deter her. He made no
-reference to the easy stockings, or the wholesome pie,&mdash;pointed out the
-manifest faults which he saw, and added, we do not doubt with much more
-energy than he threw into his words of censure,&mdash;his comfortable
-assurance that there was great promise in the work. Mary Gresley that
-evening burned the manuscript, and began another, with the dictionary
-close at her elbow.</p>
-
-<p>Then, during her work, there occurred two circumstances<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_015" id="page_015"></a></span> which brought
-upon her,&mdash;and, indeed, upon the household to which she
-belonged,&mdash;intense sorrow and greatly-increased trouble. The first of
-these applied more especially to herself. The Rev. Arthur Donne did not
-approve of novels,&mdash;of other novels than those dialogues between Tom and
-Bob, of the falsehood of which he was unconscious,&mdash;and expressed a
-desire that the writing of them should be abandoned. How far the lover
-went in his attempt to enforce obedience we, of course, could not know;
-but he pronounced the edict, and the edict, though not obeyed, created
-tribulation. Then there came forth another edict which had to be
-obeyed,&mdash;an edict from the probable successor of the late Dr.
-Gresley,&mdash;ordering the poor curate to seek employment in some clime more
-congenial to his state of health than that in which he was then living.
-He was told that his throat and lungs and general apparatus for living
-and preaching were not strong enough for those hyperborean regions, and
-that he must seek a southern climate. He did do so, and, before I became
-acquainted with Mary, had transferred his services to a small town in
-Dorsetshire. The engagement, of course, was to be as valid as ever,
-though matrimony must be postponed, more indefinitely even than
-heretofore. But if Mary<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_016" id="page_016"></a></span> could write novels and sell them, then how
-glorious would it be to follow her lover into Dorsetshire! The Rev.
-Arthur Donne went, and the curate who came in his place was a married
-man, wanting a house, and not lodgings. So Mary Gresley persevered with
-her second novel, and completed it before she was eighteen.</p>
-
-<p>The literary friend in the neighbourhood,&mdash;to the chance of whose
-acquaintance I was indebted for my subsequent friendship with Mary
-Gresley,&mdash;found this work to be a great improvement on the first. He was
-an elderly man, who had been engaged nearly all his life in the conduct
-of a scientific and agricultural periodical, and was the last man whom I
-should have taken as a sound critic on works of fiction;&mdash;but with
-spelling, grammatical construction, and the composition of sentences he
-was acquainted; and he assured Mary that her progress had been great.
-Should she burn that second story? she asked him. She would if he so
-recommended, and begin another the next day. Such was not his advice.</p>
-
-<p>“I have a friend in London,” said he, “who has to do with such things,
-and you shall go to him. I will give you a letter.” He gave her the
-fatal letter, and she came to us.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_017" id="page_017"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>She came up to town with her novel; but not only with her novel, for she
-brought her mother with her. So great was her eloquence, so excellent
-her suasive power either with her tongue or by that look of supplication
-in her face, that she induced her mother to abandon her home in
-Cornboro, and trust herself to London lodgings. The house was let
-furnished to the new curate, and when I first heard of the Gresleys they
-were living on the second floor in a small street near to the Euston
-Square station. Poor Fanny, as she was called, was left in some humble
-home at Cornboro, and Mary travelled up to try her fortune in the great
-city. When we came to know her well we expressed our doubts as to the
-wisdom of such a step. Yes; the vicar’s wife had been strong against the
-move. Mary confessed as much. That lady had spoken most forcible words,
-had uttered terrible predictions, had told sundry truths. But Mary had
-prevailed, and the journey was made, and the lodgings were taken.</p>
-
-<p>We can now come to the day on which we first saw her. She did not write,
-but came direct to us with her manuscript in her hand. “A young woman,
-Sir, wants to see you,” said the clerk, in that tone to which we were so
-well accustomed, and which indicated the dislike<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_018" id="page_018"></a></span> which he had learned
-from us to the reception of unknown visitors.</p>
-
-<p>“Young woman! What young woman?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, Sir; she is a very young woman;&mdash;quite a girl like.”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose she has got a name. Who sent her? I cannot see any young
-woman without knowing why. What does she want?”</p>
-
-<p>“Got a manuscript in her hand, Sir.”</p>
-
-<p>“I’ve no doubt she has, and a ton of manuscripts in drawers and
-cupboards. Tell her to write. I won’t see any woman, young or old,
-without knowing who she is.”</p>
-
-<p>The man retired, and soon returned with an envelope belonging to the
-office, on which was written, “Miss Mary Gresley, late of Cornboro.” He
-also brought me a note from “the man of letters” down in Yorkshire. “Of
-what sort is she?” I asked, looking at the introduction.</p>
-
-<p>“She aint amiss as to looks,” said the clerk; “and she’s modest-like.”
-Now certainly it is the fact that all female literary aspirants are not
-“modest-like.” We read our friend’s letter through, while poor Mary was
-standing at the counter below. How eagerly should we have run<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_019" id="page_019"></a></span> to greet
-her, to save her from the gaze of the public, to welcome her at least
-with a chair and the warmth of our editorial fire, had we guessed then
-what were her qualities! It was not long before she knew the way up to
-our sanctum without any clerk to show her, and not long before we knew
-well the sound of that low but not timid knock at our door made always
-with the handle of the parasol, with which her advent was heralded. We
-will confess that there was always music to our ears in that light tap
-from the little round wooden knob. The man of letters in Yorkshire, whom
-we had known well for many years, had been never known to us with
-intimacy. We had bought with him and sold with him, had talked with him,
-and perhaps, walked with him; but he was not one with whom we had eaten,
-or drunk, or prayed. A dull, well-instructed, honest man he was, fond of
-his money, and, as we had thought, as unlikely as any man to be waked to
-enthusiasm by the ambitious dreams of a young girl. But Mary had been
-potent even over him, and he had written to me, saying that Miss Gresley
-was a young lady of exceeding promise, in respect of whom he had a
-strong presentiment that she would rise, if not to eminence, at least to
-a good position as a writer. “But she is very young,” he added. Having<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_020" id="page_020"></a></span>
-read this letter, we at last desired our clerk to send the lady up.</p>
-
-<p>We remember her step as she came to the door, timid enough
-then,&mdash;hesitating, but yet with an assumed lightness as though she was
-determined to show us that she was not ashamed of what she was doing.
-She had on her head a light straw hat, such as then was very unusual in
-London,&mdash;and is not now, we believe, commonly worn in the streets of the
-metropolis by ladies who believe themselves to know what they are about.
-But it was a hat, worn upon her head, and not a straw plate done up with
-ribbons, and reaching down the incline of the forehead as far as the top
-of the nose. And she was dressed in a gray stuff frock, with a little
-black band round her waist. As far as our memory goes, we never saw her
-in any other dress, or with other hat or bonnet on her head. “And what
-can we do for you,&mdash;Miss Gresley?” we said, standing up and holding the
-literary gentleman’s letter in our hand. We had almost said, “my dear,”
-seeing her youth and remembering our own age. We were afterwards glad
-that we had not so addressed her; though it came before long that we did
-call her “my dear,”&mdash;in quite another spirit.</p>
-
-<p>She recoiled a little from the tone of our voice, but<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_021" id="page_021"></a></span> recovered herself
-at once. “Mr. &mdash;&mdash; thinks that you can do something for me. I have
-written a novel, and I have brought it to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“You are very young, are you not, to have written a novel?”</p>
-
-<p>“I am young,” she said, “but perhaps older than you think. I am
-eighteen.” Then for the first time there came into her eye that gleam of
-a merry humour which never was allowed to dwell there long, but which
-was so alluring when it showed itself.</p>
-
-<p>“That is a ripe age,” we said laughing, and then we bade her seat
-herself. At once we began to pour forth that long and dull and ugly
-lesson which is so common to our life, in which we tried to explain to
-our unwilling pupil that of all respectable professions for young women
-literature is the most uncertain, the most heart-breaking, and the most
-dangerous. “You hear of the few who are remunerated,” we said; “but you
-hear nothing of the thousands that fail.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is so noble!” she replied.</p>
-
-<p>“But so hopeless.”</p>
-
-<p>“There are those who succeed.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, indeed. Even in a lottery one must gain the prize; but they who
-trust to lotteries break their hearts.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_022" id="page_022"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“But literature is not a lottery. If I am fit, I shall succeed. Mr. &mdash;&mdash;
-thinks I may succeed.” Many more words of wisdom we spoke to her, and
-well do we remember her reply when we had run all our line off the reel,
-and had completed our sermon. “I shall go on all the same,” she said. “I
-shall try, and try again,&mdash;and again.”</p>
-
-<p>Her power over us, to a certain extent, was soon established. Of course
-we promised to read the MS., and turned it over, no doubt with an
-anxious countenance, to see of what kind was the writing. There is a
-feminine scrawl of a nature so terrible that the task of reading it
-becomes worse than the treadmill. “I know I can write well,&mdash;though I am
-not quite sure about the spelling,” said Mary, as she observed the
-glance of our eyes. She spoke truly. The writing was good, though the
-erasures and alterations were very numerous. And then the story was
-intended to fill only one volume. “I will copy it for you if you wish
-it,” said Mary. “Though there are so many scratchings out, it has been
-copied once.” We would not for worlds have given her such labour, and
-then we promised to read the tale. We forget how it was brought about,
-but she told us at that interview that her mother had obtained leave
-from the pastrycook round<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_023" id="page_023"></a></span> the corner to sit there waiting till Mary
-should rejoin her. “I thought it would be trouble enough for you to have
-one of us here,” she said with her little laugh when I asked her why she
-had not brought her mother on with her. I own that I felt that she had
-been wise; and when I told her that if she would call on me again that
-day week I would then have read at any rate so much of her work as would
-enable me to give her my opinion, I did not invite her to bring her
-mother with her. I knew that I could talk more freely to the girl
-without the mother’s presence. Even when you are past fifty, and intend
-only to preach a sermon, you do not wish to have a mother present.</p>
-
-<p>When she was gone we took up the roll of paper and examined it. We
-looked at the division into chapters, at the various mottoes the poor
-child had chosen, pronounced to ourselves the name of the story,&mdash;it was
-simply the name of the heroine, an easy-going, unaffected, well-chosen
-name,&mdash;and read the last page of it. On such occasions the reader of the
-work begins his task almost with a conviction that the labour which he
-is about to undertake will be utterly thrown away. He feels all but sure
-that the matter will be bad, that it will be better for all parties,
-writer, intended readers, and intended<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_024" id="page_024"></a></span> publisher, that the written
-words should not be conveyed into type,&mdash;that it will be his duty after
-some fashion to convey that unwelcome opinion to the writer, and that
-the writer will go away incredulous, and accusing mentally the Mentor of
-the moment of all manner of literary sins, among which ignorance,
-jealousy, and falsehood, will, in the poor author’s imagination, be most
-prominent. And yet when the writer was asking for that opinion,
-declaring his especial desire that the opinion should be candid,
-protesting that his present wish is to have some gauge of his own
-capability, and that he has come to you believing you to be above others
-able to give him that gauge,&mdash;while his petition to you was being made,
-he was in every respect sincere. He had come desirous to measure
-himself, and had believed that you could measure him. When coming he did
-not think that you would declare him to be an Apollo. He had told
-himself, no doubt, how probable it was that you would point out to him
-that he was a dwarf. You find him to be an ordinary man, measuring
-perhaps five feet seven, and unable to reach the standard of the
-particular regiment in which he is ambitious of serving. You tell him so
-in what civillest words you know, and you are at once convicted in his
-mind of jealousy, ignorance, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_025" id="page_025"></a></span> falsehood! And yet he is perhaps a
-most excellent fellow, and capable of performing the best of
-service,&mdash;only in some other regiment! As we looked at Miss Gresley’s
-manuscript, tumbling it through our hands, we expected even from her
-some such result. She had gained two things from us already by her
-outward and inward gifts, such as they were,&mdash;first that we would read
-her story, and secondly that we would read it quickly; but she had not
-as yet gained from us any belief that by reading it we could serve it.</p>
-
-<p>We did read it,&mdash;the most of it before we left our editorial chair on
-that afternoon, so that we lost altogether the daily walk so essential
-to our editorial health, and were put to the expense of a cab on our
-return home. And we incurred some minimum of domestic discomfort from
-the fact that we did not reach our own door till twenty minutes after
-our appointed dinner hour. “I have this moment come from the office as
-hard as a cab could bring me,” we said in answer to the mildest of
-reproaches, explaining nothing as to the nature of the cause which had
-kept us so long at our work.</p>
-
-<p>We must not allow our readers to suppose that the intensity of our
-application had arisen from the overwhelming interest of the story. It
-was not that the story<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_026" id="page_026"></a></span> entranced us, but that our feeling for the
-writer grew as we read the story. It was simple, unaffected, and almost
-painfully unsensational. It contained, as I came to perceive afterwards,
-little more than a recital of what her imagination told her might too
-probably be the result of her own engagement. It was the story of two
-young people who became engaged and could not be married. After a course
-of years the man, with many true arguments, asked to be absolved. The
-woman yields with an expressed conviction that her lover is right,
-settles herself down for maiden life, then breaks her heart and dies.
-The character of the man was utterly untrue to nature. That of the woman
-was true, but commonplace. Other interest, or other character there was
-none. The dialogues between the lovers were many and tedious, and hardly
-a word was spoken between them which two lovers really would have
-uttered. It was clearly not a work as to which I could tell my little
-friend that she might depend upon it for fame or fortune. When I had
-finished it I was obliged to tell myself that I could not advise her
-even to publish it. But yet I could not say that she had mistaken her
-own powers or applied herself to a profession beyond her reach. There
-were a grace and delicacy in her work which were charming. Occasionally<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_027" id="page_027"></a></span>
-she escaped from the trammels of grammar, but only so far that it would
-be a pleasure to point out to her her errors. There was not a word that
-a young lady should not have written; and there were throughout the
-whole evident signs of honest work. We had six days to think it over
-between our completion of the task and her second visit.</p>
-
-<p>She came exactly at the hour appointed, and seated herself at once in
-the arm-chair before us as soon as the young man had closed the door
-behind him. There had been no great occasion for nervousness at her
-first visit, and she had then, by an evident effort, overcome the
-diffidence incidental to a meeting with a stranger. But now she did not
-attempt to conceal her anxiety. “Well,” she said, leaning forward, and
-looking up into our face, with her two hands folded together.</p>
-
-<p>Even though Truth, standing full panoplied at our elbow, had positively
-demanded it, we could not have told her then to mend her stockings and
-bake her pies and desert the calling that she had chosen. She was simply
-irresistible, and would, we fear, have constrained us into falsehood had
-the question been between falsehood and absolute reprobation of her
-work. To have spoken hard, heart-breaking words to her, would have<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_028" id="page_028"></a></span> been
-like striking a child when it comes to kiss you. We fear that we were
-not absolutely true at first, and that by that absence of truth we made
-subsequent pain more painful. “Well,” she said, looking up into our
-face. “Have you read it?” We told her that we had read every word of it.
-“And it is no good?”</p>
-
-<p>We fear that we began by telling her that it certainly was good,&mdash;after
-a fashion, very good,&mdash;considering her youth and necessary inexperience,
-very good indeed. As we said this she shook her head, and sent out a
-spark or two from her eyes, intimating her conviction that excuses or
-quasi praise founded on her youth would avail her nothing. “Would
-anybody buy it from me?” she asked. No;&mdash;we did not think that any
-publisher would pay her money for it. “Would they print it for me
-without costing me anything?” Then we told her the truth as nearly as we
-could. She lacked experience; and if, as she had declared to us before,
-she was determined to persevere, she must try again, and must learn more
-of that lesson of the world’s ways which was so necessary to those who
-attempted to teach that lesson to others. “But I shall try again at
-once,” she said. We shook our head, endeavouring to shake it kindly.
-“Currer Bell was only a young girl when she succeeded,” she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_029" id="page_029"></a></span> added. The
-injury which Currer Bell did after this fashion was almost equal to that
-perpetrated by Jack Sheppard, and yet Currer Bell was not very young
-when she wrote.</p>
-
-<p>She remained with us then for above an hour;&mdash;for more than two
-probably, though the time was not specially marked by us; and before her
-visit was brought to a close she had told us of her engagement with the
-curate. Indeed, we believe that the greater part of her little history
-as hitherto narrated was made known to us on that occasion. We asked
-after her mother early in the interview, and learned that she was not on
-this occasion kept waiting at the pastrycook’s shop. Mary had come
-alone, making use of some friendly omnibus, of which she had learned the
-route. When she told us that she and her mother had come up to London
-solely with the view of forwarding her views in her intended profession,
-we ventured to ask whether it would not be wiser for them to return to
-Cornboro, seeing how improbable it was that she would have matter fit
-for the press within any short period. Then she explained that they had
-calculated that they would be able to live in London for twelve months,
-if they spent nothing except on absolute necessaries. The poor girl
-seemed to keep back<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_030" id="page_030"></a></span> nothing from us. “We have clothes that will carry
-us through, and we shall be very careful. I came in an omnibus;&mdash;but I
-shall walk if you will let me come again.” Then she asked me for advice.
-How was she to set about further work with the best chance of turning it
-to account?</p>
-
-<p>It had been altogether the fault of that retired literary gentleman down
-in the north, who had obtained what standing he had in the world of
-letters by writing about guano and the cattle plague! Divested of all
-responsibility, and fearing no further trouble to himself, he had
-ventured to tell this girl that her work was full of promise. Promise
-means probability, and in this case there was nothing beyond a remote
-chance. That she and her mother should have left their little household
-gods, and come up to London on such a chance, was a thing terrible to
-the mind. But we felt before these two hours were over that we could not
-throw her off now. We had become old friends, and there had been that
-between us which gave her a positive claim upon our time. She had sat in
-our arm-chair, leaning forward with her elbows on her knees and her
-hands stretched out, till we, caught by the charm of her unstudied
-intimacy, had wheeled round our chair, and had placed<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_031" id="page_031"></a></span> ourselves, as
-nearly as the circumstances would admit, in the same position. The
-magnetism had already begun to act upon us. We soon found ourselves
-taking it for granted that she was to remain in London and begin another
-book. It was impossible to resist her. Before the interview was over,
-we, who had been conversant with all these matters before she was born;
-we, who had latterly come to regard our own editorial fault as being
-chiefly that of personal harshness; we, who had repulsed aspirant
-novelists by the score,&mdash;we had consented to be a party to the creation,
-if not to the actual writing, of this new book!</p>
-
-<p>It was to be done after this fashion. She was to fabricate a plot, and
-to bring it to us, written on two sides of a sheet of letter paper. On
-the reverse sides we were to criticise this plot, and prepare
-emendations. Then she was to make out skeletons of the men and women who
-were afterwards to be clothed with flesh and made alive with blood, and
-covered with cuticles. After that she was to arrange her proportions;
-and at last, before she began to write the story, she was to describe in
-detail such part of it as was to be told in each chapter. On every
-advancing wavelet of the work we were to give her our written remarks.
-All this we promised to do because<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_032" id="page_032"></a></span> of the quiver in her lip, and the
-alternate tear and sparkle in her eye. “Now that I have found a friend,
-I feel sure that I can do it,” she said, as she held our hand tightly
-before she left us.</p>
-
-<p>In about a month, during which she had twice written to us and twice
-been answered, she came with her plot. It was the old story, with some
-additions and some change. There was matrimony instead of death at the
-end, and an old aunt was brought in for the purpose of relenting and
-producing an income. We added a few details, feeling as we did so that
-we were the very worst of botchers. We doubt now whether the old, sad,
-simple story was not the better of the two. Then, after another
-lengthened interview, we sent our pupil back to create her skeletons.
-When she came with the skeletons we were dear friends and learned to
-call her Mary. Then it was that she first sat at our editorial table,
-and wrote a love-letter to the curate. It was then mid-winter, wanting
-but a few days to Christmas, and Arthur, as she called him, did not like
-the cold weather. “He does not say so,” she said, “but I fear he is ill.
-Don’t you think there are some people with whom everything is
-unfortunate?” She wrote her letter, and had recovered her spirits before
-she took her leave.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_033" id="page_033"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>We then proposed to her to bring her mother to dine with us on Christmas
-Day. We had made a clean breast of it at home in regard to our
-heart-flutterings, and had been met with a suggestion that some kindness
-might with propriety be shown to the old lady as well as to the young
-one. We had felt grateful to the old lady for not coming to our office
-with her daughter, and had at once assented. When we made the suggestion
-to Mary there came first a blush over all her face, and then there
-followed the well-known smile before the blush was gone. “You’ll all be
-dressed fine,” she said. We protested that not a garment would be
-changed by any of the family after the decent church-going in the
-morning. “Just as I am?” she asked. “Just as you are,” we said, looking
-at the dear gray frock, adding some mocking assertion that no possible
-combination of millinery could improve her. “And mamma will be just the
-same? Then we will come,” she said. We told her an absolute falsehood,
-as to some necessity which would take us in a cab to Euston Square on
-the afternoon of that Christmas Day, so that we could call and bring
-them both to our house without trouble or expense. “You sha’n’t do
-anything of the kind,” she said. However, we swore to our
-falsehood,&mdash;perceiving, as we did<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_034" id="page_034"></a></span> so, that she did not believe a word
-of it; but in the matter of the cab we had our own way.</p>
-
-<p>We found the mother to be what we had expected,&mdash;a weak, ladylike,
-lachrymose old lady, endowed with a profound admiration for her
-daughter, and so bashful that she could not at all enjoy her
-plum-pudding. We think that Mary did enjoy hers thoroughly. She made a
-little speech to the mistress of the house, praising ourselves with warm
-words and tearful eyes, and immediately won the heart of a new friend.
-She allied herself warmly to our daughters, put up with the schoolboy
-pleasantries of our sons, and before the evening was over was dressed up
-as a ghost for the amusement of some neighbouring children who were
-brought in to play snapdragon. Mrs. Gresley, as she drank her tea and
-crumbled her bit of cake, seated on a distant sofa, was not so happy,
-partly because she remembered her old gown, and partly because our wife
-was a stranger to her. Mary had forgotten both circumstances before the
-dinner was half over. She was the sweetest ghost that ever was seen. How
-pleasant would be our ideas of departed spirits if such ghosts would
-visit us frequently!</p>
-
-<p>They repeated their visits to us not unfrequently during the twelve
-months; but as the whole interest<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_035" id="page_035"></a></span> attaching to our intercourse had
-reference to circumstances which took place in that editorial room of
-ours, it will not be necessary to refer further to the hours, very
-pleasant to ourselves, which she spent with us in our domestic life. She
-was ever made welcome when she came, and was known by us as a dear,
-well-bred, modest, clever little girl. The novel went on. That catalogue
-of the skeletons gave us more trouble than all the rest, and many were
-the tears which she shed over it, and sad were the misgivings by which
-she was afflicted, though never vanquished! How was it to be expected
-that a girl of eighteen should portray characters such as she had never
-known? In her intercourse with the curate all the intellect had been on
-her side. She had loved him because it was requisite to her to love some
-one; and now, as she had loved him, she was as true as steel to him. But
-there had been almost nothing for her to learn from him. The plan of the
-novel went on, and as it did so we became more and more despondent as to
-its success. And through it all we knew how contrary it was to our own
-judgment to expect, even to dream of, anything but failure. Though we
-went on working with her, finding it to be quite impossible to resist
-her entreaties, we did tell her from day to day that, even presuming she
-were<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_036" id="page_036"></a></span> entitled to hope for ultimate success, she must go through an
-apprenticeship of ten years before she could reach it. Then she would
-sit silent, repressing her tears, and searching for arguments with which
-to support her cause.</p>
-
-<p>“Working hard is apprenticeship,” she said to us once.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, Mary; but the work will be more useful, and the apprenticeship
-more wholesome, if you will take them for what they are worth.”</p>
-
-<p>“I shall be dead in ten years,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“If you thought so you would not intend to marry Mr. Donne. But even
-were it certain that such would be your fate, how can that alter the
-state of things? The world would know nothing of that; and if it did,
-would the world buy your book out of pity?”</p>
-
-<p>“I want no one to pity me,” she said; “but I want you to help me.” So we
-went on helping her. At the end of four months she had not put pen to
-paper on the absolute body of her projected novel; and yet she had
-worked daily at it, arranging its future construction.</p>
-
-<p>During the next month, when we were in the middle of March, a gleam of
-real success came to her. We had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_037" id="page_037"></a></span> told her frankly that we would publish
-nothing of hers in the periodical which we were ourselves conducting.
-She had become too dear to us for us not to feel that were we to do so,
-we should be doing it rather for her sake than for that of our readers.
-But we did procure for her the publication of two short stories
-elsewhere. For these she received twelve guineas, and it seemed to her
-that she had found an El Dorado of literary wealth. I shall never forget
-her ecstasy when she knew that her work would be printed, or her renewed
-triumph when the first humble cheque was given into her hands. There are
-those who will think that such a triumph, as connected with literature,
-must be sordid. For ourselves, we are ready to acknowledge that money
-payment for work done is the best and most honest test of success. We
-are sure that it is so felt by young barristers and young doctors, and
-we do not see why rejoicing on such realisation of long-cherished hope
-should be more vile with the literary aspirant than with them. “What do
-you think I’ll do first with it?” she said. We thought she meant to send
-something to her lover, and we told her so. “I’ll buy mamma a bonnet to
-go to church in. I didn’t tell you before, but she hasn’t been these
-three Sundays because she hasn’t one fit to be seen.” I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_038" id="page_038"></a></span> changed the
-cheque for her, and she went off and bought the bonnet.</p>
-
-<p>Though I was successful for her in regard to the two stories, I could
-not go beyond that. We could have filled pages of periodicals with her
-writing had we been willing that she should work without remuneration.
-She herself was anxious for such work, thinking that it would lead to
-something better. But we opposed it, and, indeed, would not permit it,
-believing that work so done can be serviceable to none but those who
-accept it that pages may be filled without cost.</p>
-
-<p>During the whole winter, while she was thus working, she was in a state
-of alarm about her lover. Her hope was ever that when warm weather came
-he would again be well and strong. We know nothing sadder than such hope
-founded on such source. For does not the winter follow the summer, and
-then again comes the killing spring? At this time she used to read us
-passages from his letters, in which he seemed to speak of little but his
-own health.</p>
-
-<p>In her literary ambition he never seemed to have taken part since she
-had declared her intention of writing profane novels. As regarded him,
-his sole merit to us seemed to be in his truth to her. He told<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_039" id="page_039"></a></span> her that
-in his opinion they two were as much joined together as though the
-service of the Church had bound them; but even in saying that he spoke
-ever of himself and not of her. Well;&mdash;May came, dangerous, doubtful,
-deceitful May, and he was worse. Then, for the first time, the dread
-word, consumption, passed her lips. It had already passed ours,
-mentally, a score of times. We asked her what she herself would wish to
-do. Would she desire to go down to Dorsetshire and see him? She thought
-awhile, and said that she would wait a little longer.</p>
-
-<p>The novel went on, and at length, in June, she was writing the actual
-words on which, as she thought, so much depended. She had really brought
-the story into some shape in the arrangement of her chapters; and
-sometimes even I began to hope. There were moments in which with her
-hope was almost certainty. Towards the end of June Mr. Donne declared
-himself to be better. He was to have a holiday in August, and then he
-intended to run up to London and see his betrothed. He still gave
-details, which were distressing to us, of his own symptoms; but it was
-manifest that he himself was not desponding, and she was governed in her
-trust or in her despair altogether by him. But when August came<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_040" id="page_040"></a></span> the
-period of his visit was postponed. The heat had made him weak, and he
-was to come in September.</p>
-
-<p>Early in August we ourselves went away for our annual recreation:&mdash;not
-that we shoot grouse, or that we have any strong opinion that August and
-September are the best months in the year for holiday-making,&mdash;but that
-everybody does go in August. We ourselves are not specially fond of
-August. In many places to which one goes a-touring mosquitoes bite in
-that month. The heat, too, prevents one from walking. The inns are all
-full, and the railways crowded. April and May are twice pleasanter
-months in which to see the world and the country. But fashion is
-everything, and no man or woman will stay in town in August for whom
-there exists any practicability of leaving it. We went on the
-10th,&mdash;just as though we had a moor, and one of the last things we did
-before our departure was to read and revise the last-written chapter of
-Mary’s story.</p>
-
-<p>About the end of September we returned, and up to that time the lover
-had not come to London. Immediately on our return we wrote to Mary, and
-the next morning she was with us. She had seated herself on her usual
-chair before she spoke, and we had taken her hand asked after herself
-and her mother. Then, with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_041" id="page_041"></a></span> something of mirth in our tone, we demanded
-the work which she had done since our departure. “He is dying,” she
-replied.</p>
-
-<p>She did not weep as she spoke. It was not on such occasions as this that
-the tears filled her eyes. But there was in her face a look of fixed and
-settled misery which convinced us that she at least did not doubt the
-truth of her own assertion. We muttered something as to our hope that
-she was mistaken. “The doctor, there, has written to tell mamma that it
-is so. Here is his letter.” The doctor’s letter was a good letter,
-written with more of assurance than doctors can generally allow
-themselves to express. “I fear that I am justified in telling you,” said
-the doctor, “that it can only be a question of weeks.” We got up and
-took her hand. There was not a word to be uttered.</p>
-
-<p>“I must go to him,” she said, after a pause.</p>
-
-<p>“Well;&mdash;yes. It will be better.”</p>
-
-<p>“But we have no money.” It must be explained now that offers of slight,
-very slight, pecuniary aid had been made by us both to Mary and to her
-mother on more than one occasion. These had been refused with adamantine
-firmness, but always with something of mirth, or at least of humour,
-attached to the refusal. The mother<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_042" id="page_042"></a></span> would simply refer to the daughter,
-and Mary would declare that they could manage to see the twelvemonth
-through and go back to Cornboro, without becoming absolute beggars. She
-would allude to their joint wardrobe, and would confess that there would
-not have been a pair of boots between them but for that twelve guineas;
-and indeed she seemed to have stretched that modest incoming so as to
-cover a legion of purchases. And of these things she was never ashamed
-to speak. We think there must have been at least two gray frocks,
-because the frock was always clean, and never absolutely shabby. Our
-girls at home declared that they had seen three. Of her frock, as it
-happened, she never spoke to us, but the new boots and the new gloves,
-“and ever so many things that I can’t tell you about, which we really
-couldn’t have gone without,” all came out of the twelve guineas. That
-she had taken, not only with delight, but with triumph. But pecuniary
-assistance from ourselves she had always refused. “It would be a gift,”
-she would say.</p>
-
-<p>“Have it as you like.”</p>
-
-<p>“But people don’t give other people money.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t they? That’s all you know about the world.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; to beggars. We hope we needn’t come to that.” It was thus that she
-always answered us, but always<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_043" id="page_043"></a></span> with something of laughter in her eye,
-as though their poverty was a joke. Now, when the demand upon her was
-for that which did not concern her personal comfort, which referred to a
-matter felt by her to be vitally important, she declared, without a
-minute’s hesitation, that she had not money for the journey.</p>
-
-<p>“Of course you can have money,” we said. “I suppose you will go at
-once?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh yes,&mdash;at once. That is, in a day or two,&mdash;after he shall have
-received my letter. Why should I wait?” We sat down to write a cheque,
-and she, seeing what we were doing, asked how much it was to be.
-“No;&mdash;half that will do,” she said. “Mamma will not go. We have talked
-it over and decided it. Yes; I know all about that. I am going to see my
-lover,&mdash;my dying lover; and I have to beg for the money to take me to
-him. Of course I am a young girl; but in such a condition am I to stand
-upon the ceremony of being taken care of? A housemaid wouldn’t want to
-be taken care of at eighteen.” We did exactly as she bade us, and then
-attempted to comfort her while the young man went to get money for the
-cheque. What consolation was possible? It was simply necessary to admit
-with frankness that sorrow had come from which there could be no present
-release.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_044" id="page_044"></a></span> “Yes,” she said. “Time will cure it,&mdash;in a way. One dies in
-time, and then of course it is all cured.” “One hears of this kind of
-thing often,” she said afterwards, still leaning forward in her chair,
-still with something of the old expression in her eyes,&mdash;something
-almost of humour in spite of her grief; “but it is the girl who dies.
-When it is the girl, there isn’t, after all, so much harm done. A man
-goes about the world and can shake it off; and then, there are plenty of
-girls.” We could not tell her how infinitely more important, to our
-thinking, was her life than that of him whom she was going to see now
-for the last time; but there did spring up within our mind a feeling,
-greatly opposed to that conviction which formerly we had endeavoured to
-impress upon herself,&mdash;that she was destined to make for herself a
-successful career.</p>
-
-<p>She went, and remained by her lover’s bed-side for three weeks. She
-wrote constantly to her mother, and once or twice to ourselves. She
-never again allowed herself to entertain a gleam of hope, and she spoke
-of her sorrow as a thing accomplished. In her last interview with us she
-had hardly alluded to her novel, and in her letters she never mentioned
-it. But she did say one word which made us guess what was coming. “You
-will find<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_045" id="page_045"></a></span> me greatly changed in one thing,” she said; “so much changed
-that I need never have troubled you.” The day for her return to London
-was twice postponed, but at last she was brought to leave him. Stern
-necessity was too strong for her. Let her pinch herself as she might,
-she must live down in Dorsetshire,&mdash;and could not live on his means,
-which were as narrow as her own. She left him; and on the day after her
-arrival in London she walked across from Euston Square to our office.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” she said, “it is all over. I shall never see him again on this
-side of heaven’s gates.” We do not know that we ever saw a tear in her
-eyes produced by her own sorrow. She was possessed of some wonderful
-strength which seemed to suffice for the bearing of any burden. Then she
-paused, and we could only sit silent, with our eyes fixed upon the rug.
-“I have made him a promise,” she said at last. Of course we asked her
-what was the promise, though at the moment we thought that we knew. “I
-will make no more attempt at novel writing.”</p>
-
-<p>“Such a promise should not have been asked,&mdash;or given,” we said
-vehemently.</p>
-
-<p>“It should have been asked,&mdash;because he thought it right,” she answered.
-“And of course it was given.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_046" id="page_046"></a></span> Must he not know better than I do? Is he
-not one of God’s ordained priests? In all the world is there one so
-bound to obey him as I?” There was nothing to be said for it at such a
-moment as that. There is no enthusiasm equal to that produced by a
-death-bed parting. “I grieve greatly,” she said, “that you should have
-had so much vain labour with a poor girl who can never profit by it.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t believe the labour will have been vain,” we answered, having
-altogether changed those views of ours as to the futility of the pursuit
-which she had adopted.</p>
-
-<p>“I have destroyed it all,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“What;&mdash;burned the novel?”</p>
-
-<p>“Every scrap of it. I told him that I would do so, and that he should
-know that I had done it. Every page was burned after I got home last
-night, and then I wrote to him before I went to bed.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you mean that you think it wicked that people should write novels?”
-we asked.</p>
-
-<p>“He thinks it to be a misapplication of God’s gifts, and that has been
-enough for me. He shall judge for me, but I will not judge for others.
-And what does it matter? I do not want to write a novel now.”</p>
-
-<p>They remained in London till the end of the year for<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_047" id="page_047"></a></span> which the married
-curate had taken their house, and then they returned to Cornboro. We saw
-them frequently while they were still in town, and despatched them by
-the train to the north just when the winter was beginning. At that time
-the young clergyman was still living down in Dorsetshire, but he was
-lying in his grave when Christmas came. Mary never saw him again, nor
-did she attend his funeral. She wrote to us frequently then, as she did
-for years afterwards. “I should have liked to have stood at his grave,”
-she said; “but it was a luxury of sorrow that I wished to enjoy, and
-they who cannot earn luxuries should not have them. They were going to
-manage it for me here, but I knew I was right to refuse it.” Right,
-indeed! As far as we knew her, she never moved a single point from what
-was right.</p>
-
-<p>All these things happened many years ago. Mary Gresley, on her return to
-Cornboro, apprenticed herself, as it were, to the married curate there,
-and called herself, I think, a female Scripture reader. I know that she
-spent her days in working hard for the religious aid of the poor around
-her. From time to time we endeavoured to instigate her to literary work;
-and she answered our letters by sending us wonderful little dialogues
-between Tom the Saint and Bob the Sinner. We are in no humour to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_048" id="page_048"></a></span>
-criticise them now; but we can assert, that though that mode of
-religious teaching is most distasteful to us, the literary merit shown
-even in such works as these was very manifest. And there came to be
-apparent in them a gleam of humour which would sometimes make us think
-that she was sitting opposite to us and looking at us, and that she was
-Tom the Saint, and that we were Bob the Sinner. We said what we could to
-turn her from her chosen path, throwing into our letters all the
-eloquence and all the thought of which we were masters: but our
-eloquence and our thought were equally in vain.</p>
-
-<p>At last, when eight years had passed over her head after the death of
-Mr. Donne, she married a missionary who was going out to some forlorn
-country on the confines of African colonisation; and there she died. We
-saw her on board the ship in which she sailed, and before we parted
-there had come that tear into her eyes, the old look of supplication on
-her lips, and the gleam of mirth across her face. We kissed her
-once,&mdash;for the first and only time,&mdash;as we bade God bless her!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_049" id="page_049"></a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="THE_TURKISH_BATH" id="THE_TURKISH_BATH"></a>THE TURKISH BATH.</h2>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_050" id="page_050"></a></span></p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_051" id="page_051"></a></span></p>
-
-<p class="c"><img src="images/turkish.jpg"
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-</p>
-
-<h2>THE TURKISH BATH.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">I</span>T was in the month of August. The world had gone to the moors and the
-Rhine, but we were still kept in town by the exigencies of our position.
-We had been worked hard during the preceding year, and were not quite as
-well as our best friends might have wished us;&mdash;and we resolved upon
-taking a Turkish bath. This little story records the experience of one
-individual man; but our readers, we hope, will, without a grudge, allow
-us the use of the editorial we. We doubt whether the story could be told
-at all in any other form. We resolved upon taking a Turkish bath, and at
-about three o’clock in the day we strutted from the outer to the inner
-room of the establishment in that light costume and with that air of
-Arab dignity which are peculiar to the place.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_052" id="page_052"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>As everybody has not taken a Turkish bath in Jermyn Street, we will give
-the shortest possible description of the position. We had entered of
-course in the usual way, leaving our hat and our boots and our
-“valuables” among the numerous respectable assistants who throng the
-approaches; and as we had entered we had observed a stout, middle-aged
-gentleman on the other side of the street, clad in vestments somewhat
-the worse for wear, and to our eyes particularly noticeable by reason of
-the tattered condition of his gloves. A well-to-do man may have no
-gloves, or may simply carry in his hands those which appertain to him
-rather as a thing of custom than for any use for which he requires them.
-But a tattered glove, worn on the hand, is to our eyes the surest sign
-of a futile attempt at outer respectability. It is melancholy to us
-beyond expression. Our brother editors, we do not doubt, are acquainted
-with the tattered glove, and have known the sadness which it produces.
-If there be an editor whose heart has not been softened by the feminine
-tattered glove, that editor is not our brother. In this instance the
-tattered glove was worn by a man; and though the usual indication of
-poor circumstances was conveyed, there was nevertheless something jaunty
-in the gentleman’s step which preserved him from the desecration of
-pity. We<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_053" id="page_053"></a></span> barely saw him, but still were thinking of him as we passed
-into the building with the oriental letters on it, and took off our
-boots, and pulled out our watch and purse.</p>
-
-<p>We were of course accommodated with two checked towels; and, having in
-vain attempted to show that we were to the manner born by fastening the
-larger of them satisfactorily round our own otherwise naked person, had
-obtained the assistance of one of those very skilful eastern boys who
-glide about the place and create envy by their familiarity with its
-mysteries. With an absence of all bashfulness which soon grows upon one,
-we had divested ourselves of our ordinary trappings beneath the gaze of
-five or six young men lying on surrounding sofas,&mdash;among whom we
-recognised young Walker of the Treasury, and hereby testify on his
-behalf that he looks almost as fine a fellow without his clothes as he
-does with them,&mdash;and had strutted through the doorway into the
-bath-room, trailing our second towel behind us. Having observed the
-matter closely in the course of perhaps half-a-dozen visits, we are
-prepared to recommend that mode of entry to our young friends as being
-at the same time easy and oriental. There are those who wear the second
-towel as a shawl, thereby no doubt achieving a certain decency of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_054" id="page_054"></a></span> garb;
-but this is done to the utter loss of all dignity; and a feminine
-appearance is produced, such as is sometimes that of a lady of fifty
-looking after her maid-servants at seven o’clock in the morning and
-intending to dress again before breakfast. And some there are who carry
-it under the arm,&mdash;simply as a towel; but these are they who, from
-English perversity, wilfully rob the institution of that picturesque
-orientalism which should be its greatest charm. A few are able to wear
-the article as a turban, and that no doubt should be done by all who are
-competent to achieve the position. We have observed that men who can do
-so enter the bath-room with an air and are received there with a respect
-which no other arrangement of the towel will produce. We have tried
-this; but as the turban gets over our eyes, and then falls altogether
-off our brow, we have abandoned it. In regard to personal deportment,
-depending partly on the step, somewhat on the eye, but chiefly on the
-costume, it must be acknowledged that “the attempt and not the deed
-confounds us.” It is not every man who can carry a blue towel as a
-turban, and look like an Arab in the streets of Cairo, as he walks
-slowly down the room in Jermyn Street with his arms crossed on his naked
-breast. The attempt and not the deed does confound one shockingly. We,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_055" id="page_055"></a></span>
-therefore, recommend that the second towel should be trailed. The effect
-is good, and there is no difficulty in the trailing which may not be
-overcome.</p>
-
-<p>We had trailed our way into the bath-room, and had slowly walked to one
-of those arm-chairs in which it is our custom on such occasions to seat
-ourselves and to await sudation. There are marble couches; and if a man
-be able to lie on stone for half an hour without a movement beyond that
-of clapping his hands, or a sound beyond a hollow-voiced demand for
-water, the effect is not bad. But he loses everything if he tosses
-himself uneasily on his hard couch, and we acknowledge that our own
-elbows are always in the way of our own comfort, and that our bones
-become sore. We think that the marble sofas must be intended for the
-younger Turks. If a man can stretch himself on stone without suffering
-for the best part of an hour,&mdash;or, more bravely perhaps, without
-appearing to suffer, let him remember that all is not done even then.
-Very much will depend on the manner in which he claps his hands, and the
-hollowness of the voice in which he calls for water. There should, we
-think, be two blows of the palms. One is very weak and proclaims its own
-futility. Even to dull London ears it seems at once to want the eastern
-tone. We have heard three given<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_056" id="page_056"></a></span> effectively, but we think that it
-requires much practice; and even when it is perfect, the result is that
-of western impatience rather than of eastern gravity. No word should be
-pronounced, beyond that one word,&mdash;Water. The effect should be as though
-the whole mind were so devoted to the sudorific process as to admit of
-no extraneous idea. There should seem to be almost an agony in the
-effort,&mdash;as though the man enduring it, conscious that with success he
-would come forth a god, was aware that being as yet but mortal he may
-perish in the attempt. Two claps of the hand and a call for water, and
-that repeated with an interval of ten minutes, are all the external
-signs of life that the young Turkish bather may allow to himself while
-he is stretched upon his marble couch.</p>
-
-<p>We had taken a chair,&mdash;well aware that nothing god-like could be thus
-achieved, and contented to obtain the larger amount of human comfort.
-The chairs are placed two and two, and a custom has grown up,&mdash;of which
-we scarcely think that the origin has been eastern,&mdash;in accordance with
-which friends occupying these chairs will spend their time in
-conversation. The true devotee to the Turkish bath will, we think, never
-speak at all; but when the speaking is low in tone, just something<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_057" id="page_057"></a></span>
-between a whisper and an articulate sound, the slight murmuring hum
-produced is not disagreeable. We cannot quite make up our mind whether
-this use of the human voice be or be not oriental; but we think that it
-adds to the mystery, and upon the whole it gratifies. Let it be
-understood, however, that harsh, resonant, clearly-expressed speech is
-damnable. The man who talks aloud to his friend about the trivial
-affairs of life is selfish, ignorant, unpoetical,&mdash;and English in the
-very worst sense of the word. Who but an ass proud of his own capacity
-for braying would venture to dispel the illusions of a score of bathers
-by observing aloud that the House sat till three o’clock that morning?</p>
-
-<p>But though friends may talk in low voices, a man without a friend will
-hardly fall into conversation at the Turkish bath. It is said that our
-countrymen are unapt to speak to each other without introduction, and
-this inaptitude is certainly not decreased by the fact that two men meet
-each other with nothing on but a towel a piece. Finding yourself next to
-a man in such a garb you hardly know where to begin. And then there lies
-upon you the weight of that necessity of maintaining a certain dignity
-of deportment which has undoubtedly grown upon you since you succeeded
-in freeing yourself from your<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_058" id="page_058"></a></span> socks and trousers. For ourselves we have
-to admit that the difficulty is much increased by the fact that we are
-short-sighted, and are obligated, by the sudorific processes and by the
-shampooing and washing that are to come, to leave our spectacles behind
-us. The delicious wonder of the place is no doubt increased to us, but
-our incapability of discerning aught of those around us in that low
-gloomy light is complete. Jones from Friday Street, or even Walker from
-the Treasury, is the same to us as one of those Asiatic slaves who
-administer to our comfort, and flit about the place with admirable
-decorum and self-respect. On this occasion we had barely seated
-ourselves, when another bather, with slow, majestic step, came to the
-other chair; and, with a manner admirably adapted to the place,
-stretching out his naked legs, and throwing back his naked shoulders,
-seated himself beside us. We are much given to speculations on the
-characters and probable circumstances of those with whom we are brought
-in contact. Our editorial duties require that it should be so. How
-should we cater for the public did we not observe the public in all its
-moods? We thought that we could see at once that this was no ordinary
-man, and we may as well aver here, at the beginning of our story, that
-subsequent circumstances proved our first conceptions<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_059" id="page_059"></a></span> to be correct.
-The absolute features of the gentleman we did not, indeed, see plainly.
-The gloom of the place and our own deficiency of sight forbade it. But
-we could discern the thorough man of the world, the traveller who had
-seen many climes, the cosmopolitan to whom East and West were alike, in
-every motion that he made. We confess that we were anxious for
-conversation, and that we struggled within ourselves for an apt subject,
-thinking how we might begin. But the apt subject did not occur to us,
-and we should have passed that half-hour of repose in silence had not
-our companion been more ready than ourselves. “Sir,” said he, turning
-round in his seat with a peculiar and captivating grace, “I shall not, I
-hope, offend or transgress any rule of politeness by speaking to a
-stranger.” There was ease and dignity in his manner, and at the same
-time some slight touch of humour which was very charming. I thought that
-I detected just a hint of an Irish accent in his tone; but if so the
-dear brogue of his country, which is always delightful to me, had been
-so nearly banished by intercourse with other tongues as to leave the
-matter still a suspicion,&mdash;a suspicion, or rather a hope.</p>
-
-<p>“By no means,” we answered, turning round on our<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_060" id="page_060"></a></span> left shoulder, but
-missing the grace with which he had made his movement.</p>
-
-<p>“There is nothing,” said he, “to my mind so absurd as that two men
-should be seated together for an hour without venturing to open their
-mouths because they do not know each other. And what matter does it make
-whether a man has his breeches on or is without them?”</p>
-
-<p>My hope had now become an assurance. As he named the article of clothing
-which peculiarly denotes a man he gave a picturesque emphasis to the
-word which was certainly Hibernian. Who does not know the dear sound?
-And, as a chance companion for a few idle minutes, is there any one so
-likely to prove himself agreeable as a well-informed, travelled
-Irishman?</p>
-
-<p>“And yet,” said we, “men do depend much on their outward paraphernalia.”</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed and they do,” said our friend. “And why? Because they can trust
-their tailors when they can’t trust themselves. Give me the man who can
-make a speech without any of the accessories of the pulpit, who can
-preach what sermon there is in him without a pulpit.” His words were
-energetic, but his voice was just suited to the place. Had he spoken
-aloud, so that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_061" id="page_061"></a></span> others might have heard him, we should have left our
-chair, and have retreated to one of the inner and hotter rooms at the
-moment. His words were perfectly audible, but he spoke in a fitting
-whisper. “It is a part of my creed,” he continued, “that we should never
-lose even a quarter of an hour. What a strange mass of human beings one
-finds in this city of London!”</p>
-
-<p>“A mighty maze, but not without a plan,” we replied.</p>
-
-<p>“Bedad,&mdash;and it’s hard enough to find the plan,” said he. It struck me
-that after that he rose into a somewhat higher flight of speech, as
-though he had remembered and was desirous of dropping his country. It is
-the customary and perhaps the only fault of an Irishman. “Whether it be
-there or not, we can expatiate free, as the poet says. How
-unintelligible is London! New York or Constantinople one can
-understand,&mdash;or even Paris. One knows what the world is doing in these
-cities, and what men desire.”</p>
-
-<p>“What men desire is nearly the same in all cities,” we remarked,&mdash;and
-not without truth as we think.</p>
-
-<p>“Is it money you mane?” he said, again relapsing. “Yes; money, no doubt,
-is the grand desideratum,&mdash;the ‘to prepon,’ the ‘to kalon’ the ‘to
-pan!’<span class="lftspc">”</span> Plato and Pope were evidently at his fingers’ ends. We did not<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_062" id="page_062"></a></span>
-conclude from this slight evidence that he was thoroughly imbued with
-the works either of the poet or the philosopher; but we hold that for
-the ordinary purposes of conversation a superficial knowledge of many
-things goes further than an intimacy with one or two. “Money,” continued
-he, “is everything, no doubt;&mdash;rem&mdash;rem; rem, si possis recte, si
-non,&mdash;&mdash;; you know the rest. I don’t complain of that. I like money
-myself. I know its value. I’ve had it, and,&mdash;I’m not ashamed to say it,
-Sir,&mdash;I’ve been without it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Our sympathies are completely with you in reference to the latter
-position,” we said,&mdash;remembering, with a humility that we hope is
-natural to us, that we were not always editors.</p>
-
-<p>“What I complain of is,” said our new friend still whispering, as he
-passed his hand over his arms and legs, to learn whether the temperature
-of the room was producing its proper effect, “that if a man here in
-London have a diamond, or a pair of boots, or any special skill at his
-command, he cannot take his article to the proper mart, and obtain for
-it the proper price.”</p>
-
-<p>“Can he do that in Constantinople?” we enquired.</p>
-
-<p>“Much better and more accurately than he can in London. And so he can in
-Paris!” We did not believe<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_063" id="page_063"></a></span> this; but as we were thinking after what
-fashion we would express our doubts, he branched off so quickly to a
-matter of supply and demand with which we were specially interested,
-that we lost the opportunity of arguing the general question. “A man of
-letters,” he said, “a capable and an instructed man of letters, can
-always get a market for his wares in Paris.”</p>
-
-<p>“A capable and instructed man of letters will do so in London,” we said,
-“as soon as he has proved his claims. He must prove them in Paris before
-they can be allowed.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes;&mdash;he must prove them. By-the-bye, will you have a cheroot?” So
-saying, he stretched out his hand, and took from the marble slab beside
-him two cheroots which he had placed there. He then proceeded to explain
-that he did not bring in his case because of the heat, but that he was
-always “muni,”&mdash;that was his phrase,&mdash;with a couple, in the hope that he
-might meet an acquaintance with whom to share them. I accepted his
-offer, and when we had walked round the chamber to a light provided for
-the purpose, we reseated ourselves. His manner of moving about the place
-was so good that I felt it to be a pity that he should ever have a rag
-on more than he wore at present. His tobacco, I must own,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_064" id="page_064"></a></span> did not
-appear to me to be of the first class; but then I am not in the habit of
-smoking cheroots, and am no judge of the merits of the weed as grown in
-the East. “Yes;&mdash;a man in Paris must prove his capability; but then how
-easily he can do it, if the fact to be proved be there! And how certain
-is the mart, if he have the thing to sell!”</p>
-
-<p>We immediately denied that in this respect there was any difference
-between the two capitals, pointing out what we believe to be a
-fact,&mdash;that in one capital as in the other, there exists, and must ever
-exist, extreme difficulty in proving the possession of an art so
-difficult to define as capability of writing for the press. “Nothing but
-success can prove it,” we said, as we slapped our thigh with an energy
-altogether unbecoming our position as a Turkish bather.</p>
-
-<p>“A man may have a talent then, and he cannot use it till he have used
-it! He may possess a diamond, and cannot sell it till he have sold it!
-What is a man to do who wishes to engage himself in any of the
-multifarious duties of the English press? How is he to begin? In New
-York I can tell such a one where to go at once. Let him show in
-conversation that he is an educated man, and they will give him a trial
-on the staff of any news<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_065" id="page_065"></a></span> paper;&mdash;they will let him run his venture for
-the pages of any magazine. He may write his fingers off here, and not an
-editor of them all will read a word that he writes.”</p>
-
-<p>Here he touched us, and we were indignant. When he spoke of the
-magazines we knew that he was wrong. “With newspapers,” we said, “we
-imagine it to be impossible that contributions from the outside world
-should be looked at; but papers sent to the magazines,&mdash;at any rate to
-some of them,&mdash;are read.”</p>
-
-<p>“I believe,” said he, “that a little farce is kept up. They keep a boy
-to look at a line or two and then return the manuscript. The pages are
-filled by the old stock-writers, who are sure of the market let them
-send what they will,&mdash;padding-mongers who work eight hours a day, and
-hardly know what they write about.” We again loudly expressed our
-opinion that he was wrong, and that there did exist magazines, the
-managers of which were sedulously anxious to obtain the assistance of
-what he called literary capacity, wherever they could find it. Sitting
-there at the Turkish bath with nothing but a towel round us, we could
-not declare ourselves to a perfect stranger, and we think that as a rule
-editors should be impalpable;&mdash;but we did express our opinion very
-strongly.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_066" id="page_066"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“And you believe,” said he, with something of scorn in his voice, “that
-if a man who had been writing English for the press in other
-countries,&mdash;in New York say, or in Doblin,&mdash;a man of undoubted capacity,
-mind you, were to make the attempt here, in London, he would get a
-hearing.”</p>
-
-<p>“Certainly he would,” said we.</p>
-
-<p>“And would any editor see him unless he came with an introduction from
-some special friend?”</p>
-
-<p>We paused a moment before we answered this, because the question was to
-us one having a very special meaning. Let an editor do his duty with
-ever so pure a conscience, let him spend all his days and half his
-nights reading manuscripts and holding the balance fairly between the
-public and those who wish to feed the public, let his industry be never
-so unwearied and his impartiality never so unflinching, still he will,
-if possible, avoid the pain of personally repelling those to whom he is
-obliged to give an unfavourable answer. But we at the Turkish bath were
-quite unknown to the outer world, and might hazard an opinion, as any
-stranger might have done. And we have seen very many such visitors as
-those to whom our friend alluded; and may, perhaps, see many more.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said we. “An editor might or might not see<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_067" id="page_067"></a></span> such a gentleman:
-but, if pressed, no doubt he would. An English editor would be quite as
-likely to do so as a French editor.” This we declared with energy,
-having felt ourselves to be ruffled by the assertion that these things
-are managed better in Paris or in New York than in London.</p>
-
-<p>“Then, Mr. &mdash;&mdash;, would you give me an interview, if I call with a little
-manuscript which I have to-morrow morning?” said my Irish friend,
-addressing us with a beseeching tone, and calling us by the very name by
-which we are known among our neighbours and tradesmen. We felt that
-everything was changed between us, and that the man had plunged a dagger
-into us.</p>
-
-<p>Yes; he had plunged a dagger into us. Had we had our clothes on, had we
-felt ourselves to possess at the moment our usual form of life, we think
-that we could have rebuked him. As it was we could only rise from our
-chair, throw away the fag end of the filthy cheroot which he had given
-us, and clap our hands half-a-dozen times for the Asiatic to come and
-shampoo us. But the Irishman was at our elbow. “You will let me see you
-to-morrow?” he said. “My name is Molloy,&mdash;Michael Molloy. I have not a
-card about me, because my things are outside there.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_068" id="page_068"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“A card would do no good at all,” we said, again clapping our hands for
-the shampooer.</p>
-
-<p>“I may call, then?” said Mr. Michael Molloy.</p>
-
-<p>“Certainly;&mdash;yes, you can call if you please.” Then, having thus
-ungraciously acceded to the request made to us, we sat down on the
-marble bench and submitted ourselves to the black attendant. During the
-whole of the following operation, while the man was pummelling our
-breast and poking our ribs, and pinching our toes,&mdash;while he was washing
-us down afterwards, and reducing us gradually from the warm water to the
-cold,&mdash;we were thinking of Mr. Michael Molloy, and the manner in which
-he had entrapped us into a confidential conversation. The scoundrel must
-have plotted it from the very first, must have followed us into the
-bath, and taken his seat beside us with a deliberately premeditated
-scheme. He was, too, just the man whom we should not have chosen to see
-with a worthless magazine article in his hand. We think that we can be
-efficacious by letter, but we often feel ourselves to be weak when
-brought face to face with our enemies. At that moment our anger was hot
-against Mr. Molloy. And yet we were conscious of a something of pride
-which mingled with our feelings. It was clear to us that Mr. Molloy was
-no ordinary person; and it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_069" id="page_069"></a></span> did in some degree gratify our feelings that
-such a one should have taken so much trouble to encounter us. We had
-found him to be a well-informed, pleasant gentleman; and the fact that
-he was called Molloy and desired to write for the magazine over which we
-presided, could not really be taken as detracting from his merits. There
-had doubtless been a fraud committed on us,&mdash;a palpable fraud. The man
-had extracted assurances from us by a false pretence that he did not
-know us. But then the idea, on his part, that anything could be gained
-by his doing so, was in itself a compliment to us. That such a man
-should take so much trouble to approach us,&mdash;one who could quote Horace
-and talk about the “to kalon,”&mdash;was an acknowledgment of our power. As
-we returned to the outer chamber we looked round to see Mr. Molloy in
-his usual garments, but he was not as yet there. We waited while we
-smoked one of our own cigars, but he came not. He had, so far, gained
-his aim; and, as we presumed, preferred to run the risk of too long a
-course of hot air to risking his object by seeing us again on that
-afternoon. At last we left the building, and are bound to confess that
-our mind dwelt much on Mr. Michael Molloy during the remainder of that
-evening.</p>
-
-<p>It might be that after all we should gain much by the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_070" id="page_070"></a></span> singular mode of
-introduction which the man had adopted. He was certainly clever, and if
-he could write as well as he could talk his services might be of value.
-Punctually at the hour named he was announced, and we did not now for
-one moment think of declining the interview. Mr. Molloy had so far
-succeeded in his stratagem that we could not now resort to the certainly
-not unusual practice of declaring ourselves to be too closely engaged to
-see any one, and of sending him word that he should confide to writing
-whatever he might have to say to us. It had, too, occurred to us that,
-as Mr. Molloy had paid his three shillings and sixpence for the Turkish
-bath, he would not prove to be one of that class of visitors whose
-appeals to tender-hearted editors are so peculiarly painful. “I am
-willing to work day and night for my wife and children; and if you will
-use this short paper in your next number it will save us from starvation
-for a month! Yes, Sir, from,&mdash;starvation!” Who is to resist such an
-appeal as that, or to resent it? But the editor knows that he is bound
-in honesty to resist it altogether,&mdash;so to steel himself against it that
-it shall have no effect upon him, at least, as regards the magazine
-which is in his hands. And yet if the short thing be only decently
-written, if it be not absurdly bad, what harm will its publication do
-to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_071" id="page_071"></a></span> anyone? If the waste,&mdash;let us call it waste,&mdash;of half-a-dozen pages
-will save a family from hunger for a month, will they not be well
-wasted? But yet, again, such tenderness is absolutely incompatible with
-common honesty,&mdash;and equally so with common prudence. We think that our
-readers will see the difficulty, and understand how an editor may wish
-to avoid those interviews with tattered gloves. But my friend, Mr.
-Michael Molloy, had had three and sixpence to spend on a Turkish bath,
-had had money wherewith to buy,&mdash;certainly, the very vilest of cigars.
-We thought of all this as Mr. Michael Molloy was ushered into our room.</p>
-
-<p>The first thing we saw was the tattered glove; and then we immediately
-recognised the stout middle-aged gentleman whom we had seen on the other
-side of Jermyn Street as we entered the bathing establishment. It had
-never before occurred to us that the two persons were the same, not
-though the impression made by the poverty-stricken appearance of the man
-in the street had remained distinct upon our mind. The features of the
-gentleman we had hardly even yet seen at all. Nevertheless we had known
-and distinctly recognised his outward gait and mien, both with and
-without his clothes. One tattered glove he now wore, and the other he
-carried in his gloved<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_072" id="page_072"></a></span> hand. As we saw this we were aware at once that
-all our preconception had been wrong, that that too common appeal would
-be made, and that we must resist it as best we might. There was still a
-certain jauntiness in his air as he addressed us. “I hope thin,” said he
-as we shook hands with him, “ye’ll not take amiss the little ruse by
-which we caught ye.”</p>
-
-<p>“It was a ruse then, Mr. Molloy?”</p>
-
-<p>“Divil a doubt o’ that, Mr. Editor.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you were coming to the Turkish bath independently of our visit
-there?”</p>
-
-<p>“Sorrow a bath I’d’ve cum to at all, only I saw you go into the place.
-I’d just three and ninepence in my pocket, and says I to myself, Mick,
-me boy, it’s a good investment. There was three and sixpence for them
-savages to rub me down, and threepence for the two cheroots from the
-little shop round the corner. I wish they’d been better for your sake.”</p>
-
-<p>It had been a plant from beginning to end, and the “to kalon” and the
-half-dozen words from Horace had all been parts of Mr. Molloy’s little
-game! And how well he had played it! The outward trappings of the man as
-we now saw them were poor and mean, and he was mean-looking too, because
-of his trappings. But there had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_073" id="page_073"></a></span> been nothing mean about him as he
-strutted along with a blue-checked towel round his body. How well the
-fellow had understood it all, and had known his own capacity! “And now
-that you are here, Mr. Molloy, what can we do for you?” we said with as
-pleasant a smile as we were able to assume. Of course we knew what was
-to follow. Out came the roll of paper of which we had already seen the
-end projecting from his breast pocket, and we were assured that we
-should find the contents of it exactly the thing for our magazine. There
-is no longer any diffidence in such matters,&mdash;no reticence in preferring
-claims and singing one’s own praises. All that has gone by since
-competitive examination has become the order of the day. No man, no
-woman, no girl, no boy, hesitates now to declare his or her own
-excellence and capability. “It’s just a short thing on social manners,”
-said Mr. Molloy, “and if ye’ll be so good as to cast ye’r eye over it, I
-think ye’ll find I’ve hit the nail on the head. ‘The Five-o’clock
-Tay-table’ is what I’ve called it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh!&mdash;‘The Five-o’clock Tea-table.’<span class="lftspc">”</span></p>
-
-<p>“Don’t ye like the name?”</p>
-
-<p>“About social manners, is it?”</p>
-
-<p>“Just a rap on the knuckles for some of ’em. Sharp,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_074" id="page_074"></a></span> short, and
-decisive! I don’t doubt but what ye’ll like it.”</p>
-
-<p>To declare, as though by instinct, that that was not the kind of thing
-we wanted, was as much a matter of course as it is for a man buying a
-horse to say that he does not like the brute’s legs or that he falls
-away in his quarters. And Mr. Molloy treated our objection just as does
-the horse-dealer those of his customers. He assured us with a
-smile,&mdash;with a smile behind which we could see the craving eagerness of
-his heart,&mdash;that his little article was just the thing for us. Our
-immediate answer was of course ready. If he would leave the paper with
-us, we would look at it and return it if it did not seem to suit us.</p>
-
-<p>There is a half-promise about this reply which too often produces a
-false satisfaction in the breast of a beginner. With such a one it is
-the second interview which is to be dreaded. But my friend Mr. Molloy
-was not new to the work, and was aware that if possible he should make
-further use of the occasion which he had earned for himself at so
-considerable a cost. “Ye’ll read it;&mdash;will ye?” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, certainly. We’ll read it certainly.”</p>
-
-<p>“And ye’ll use it if ye can?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_075" id="page_075"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“As to that, Mr. Molloy, we can say nothing. We’ve got to look solely to
-the interest of the periodical.”</p>
-
-<p>“And, sure, what can ye do better for the periodical than print a paper
-like that, which there is not a lady at the West End of the town won’t
-be certain to read?”</p>
-
-<p>“At any rate we’ll look at it, Mr. Molloy,” said we, standing up from
-our chair.</p>
-
-<p>But still he hesitated in his going,&mdash;and did not go. “I’m a married
-man, Mr. &mdash;&mdash;,” he said. We simply bowed our head at the announcement.
-“I wish you could see Mrs. Molloy,” he added. We murmured something as
-to the pleasure it would give us to make the acquaintance of so
-estimable a lady. “There isn’t a betther woman than herself this side of
-heaven, though I say it that oughtn’t,” said he. “And we’ve three young
-ones.” We knew the argument that was coming;&mdash;knew it so well, and yet
-were so unable to accept it as any argument! “Sit down one moment, Mr.
-----,” he continued, “till I tell you a short story.” We pleaded our
-engagements, averring that they were peculiarly heavy at that moment.
-“Sure, and we know what that manes,” said Mr. Molloy. “It’s just,&mdash;walk
-out of this as quick as you came in. It’s that what it manes.” And yet
-as he spoke there was a twinkle of humour in his eye that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_076" id="page_076"></a></span> was almost
-irresistible; and we ourselves,&mdash;we could not forbear to smile. When we
-smiled we knew that we were lost. “Come, now, Mr. Editor; when you think
-how much it cost me to get the inthroduction, you’ll listen to me for
-five minutes any way.”</p>
-
-<p>“We will listen to you,” we said, resuming our chair,&mdash;remembering as we
-did so the three-and-sixpence, the two cigars, the “to kalon,” the line
-from Pope, and the half line from Horace. The man had taken much trouble
-with the view of placing himself where he now was. When we had been all
-but naked together I had taken him to be the superior of the two, and
-what were we that we should refuse him an interview simply because he
-had wares to sell which we should only be too willing to buy at his
-price if they were fit for our use?</p>
-
-<p>Then he told his tale. As for Paris, Constantinople, and New York, he
-frankly admitted that he knew nothing of those capitals. When we
-reminded him, with some ill-nature as we thought afterwards, that he had
-assumed an intimacy with the current literature of the three cities, he
-told us that such remarks were “just the sparkling gims of conversation
-in which a man shouldn’t expect to find rale diamonds.” Of “Doblin” he
-knew every street, every lane, every newspaper, every editor; but<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_077" id="page_077"></a></span> the
-poverty, dependence, and general poorness of a provincial press had
-crushed him, and he had boldly resolved to try a fight in the
-“methropolis of litherature.” He referred us to the managers of the
-“Boyne Bouncer,” the “Clontarf Chronicle,” the “Donnybrook Debater,” and
-the “Echoes of Erin,” assuring us that we should find him to be as well
-esteemed as known in the offices of those widely-circulated
-publications. His reading he told us was unbounded, and the pen was as
-ready to his hand as is the plough to the hand of the husbandman. Did we
-not think it a noble ambition in him thus to throw himself into the
-great “areanay,” as he called it, and try his fortune in the
-“methropolis of litherature?” He paused for a reply, and we were driven
-to acknowledge that whatever might be said of our friend’s prudence, his
-courage was undoubted. “I’ve got it here,” said he. “I’ve got it all
-here.” And he touched his right breast with the fingers of his left
-hand, which still wore the tattered glove.</p>
-
-<p>He had succeeded in moving us. “Mr. Molloy,” we said, “we’ll read your
-paper, and we’ll then do the best we can for you. We must tell you
-fairly that we hardly like your subject, but if the writing be good you
-can try your hand at something else.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_078" id="page_078"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Sure there’s nothing under the sun I won’t write about at your
-bidding.”</p>
-
-<p>“If we can be of service to you, Mr. Molloy, we will.” Then the editor
-broke down, and the man spoke to the man. “I need not tell you, Mr.
-Molloy, that the heart of one man of letters always warms to another.”</p>
-
-<p>“It was because I knew ye was of that sort that I followed ye in
-yonder,” he said, with a tear in his eye.</p>
-
-<p>The butter-boat of benevolence was in our hand, and we proceeded to pour
-out its contents freely. It is a vessel which an editor should lock up
-carefully; and, should he lose the key, he will not be the worse for the
-loss. We need not repeat here all the pretty things that we said to him,
-explaining to him from a full heart with how much agony we were often
-compelled to resist the entreaties of literary suppliants, declaring to
-him how we had longed to publish tons of manuscript,&mdash;simply in order
-that we might give pleasure to those who brought them to us. We told him
-how accessible we were to a woman’s tear, to a man’s struggle, to a
-girl’s face, and assured him of the daily wounds which were inflicted on
-ourselves by the impossibility of reconciling our duties with our
-sympathies. “Bedad, thin,” said Mr. Molloy, grasping our hand, “you’ll
-find none of that difficulty<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_079" id="page_079"></a></span> wid me. If you’ll sympathise like a man,
-I’ll work for you like a horse.” We assured him that we would, really
-thinking it probable that he might do some useful work for the magazine;
-and then we again stood up waiting for his departure.</p>
-
-<p>“Now I’ll tell ye a plain truth,” said he, “and ye may do just as ye
-plaise about it. There isn’t an ounce of tay or a pound of mait along
-with Mrs. Molloy this moment; and, what’s more, there isn’t a shilling
-between us to buy it. I never begged in my life;&mdash;not yet. But if you
-can advance me a sovereign on that manuscript it will save me from
-taking the coat on my back to a pawnbroker’s shop for whatever it’ll
-fetch there.” We paused a moment as we thought of it all, and then we
-handed him the coin for which he asked us. If the manuscript should be
-worthless the loss would be our own. We would not grudge a slice from
-the wholesome home-made loaf after we had used the butter-boat of
-benevolence. “It don’t become me,” said Mr. Molloy, “to thank you for
-such a thrifle as a loan of twenty shillings; but I’ll never forget the
-feeling that has made you listen to me, and that too after I had been
-rather down on you at thim baths.” We gave him a kindly nod of the head,
-and then he took his departure.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_080" id="page_080"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Ye’ll see me again anyways?” he said, and we promised that we would.</p>
-
-<p>We were anxious enough about the manuscript, but we could not examine it
-at that moment. When our office work was done we walked home with the
-roll in our pocket, speculating as we went on the probable character of
-Mr. Molloy. We still believed in him,&mdash;still believed in him in spite of
-the manner in which he had descended in his language, and had fallen
-into a natural flow of words which alone would not have given much
-promise of him as a man of letters. But a human being, in regard to his
-power of production, is the reverse of a rope. He is as strong as his
-strongest part, and remembering the effect which Molloy’s words had had
-upon us at the Turkish bath, we still thought that there must be
-something in him. If so, how pleasant would it be to us to place such a
-man on his legs,&mdash;modestly on his legs, so that he might earn for his
-wife and bairns that meat and tea which he had told us that they were
-now lacking. An editor is always striving to place some one modestly on
-his legs in literature,&mdash;on his or her,&mdash;striving, and alas! so often
-failing. Here had come a man in regard to whom, as I walked home with
-his manuscript in my pocket, I did feel rather sanguine.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_081" id="page_081"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>Of all the rubbish that I ever read in my life, that paper on the
-Five-o’clock Tea-table was, I think, the worst. It was not only vulgar,
-foolish, unconnected, and meaningless; but it was also ungrammatical and
-unintelligible even in regard to the wording of it. The very spelling
-was defective. The paper was one with which no editor, sub-editor, or
-reader would have found it necessary to go beyond the first ten lines
-before he would have known that to print it would have been quite out of
-the question. We went through with it because of our interest in the
-man; but as it was in the beginning, so it was to the end,&mdash;a farrago of
-wretched nonsense, so bad that no one, without experience in such
-matters, would believe it possible that even the writer should desire
-the publication of it! It seemed to us to be impossible that Mr. Molloy
-should ever have written a word for those Hibernian periodicals which he
-had named to us. He had got our sovereign; and with that, as far as we
-were concerned, there must be an end of Mr. Molloy. We doubted even
-whether he would come for his own manuscript.</p>
-
-<p>But he came. He came exactly at the hour appointed, and when we looked
-at his face we felt convinced that he did not doubt his own success.
-There was an air of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_082" id="page_082"></a></span> expectant triumph about him which dismayed us. It
-was clear enough that he was confident that he should take away with him
-the full price of his article, after deducting the sovereign which he
-had borrowed. “You like it thin,” he said, before we had been able to
-compose our features to a proper form for the necessary announcement.</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Molloy,” we said, “it will not do. You must believe us that it will
-not do.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not do?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, indeed. We need not explain further;&mdash;but,&mdash;but,&mdash;you had really
-better turn your hand to some other occupation.”</p>
-
-<p>“Some other occupa-ation!” he exclaimed, opening wide his eyes, and
-holding up both his hands.</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed we think so, Mr. Molloy.”</p>
-
-<p>“And you’ve read it?”</p>
-
-<p>“Every word of it;&mdash;on our honour.”</p>
-
-<p>“And you won’t have it?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well;&mdash;no, Mr. Molloy, certainly we cannot take it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ye reject my article on the Five-o’clock Tay-table!” Looking into his
-face as he spoke, we could not but be certain that its rejection was to
-him as astonishing as would have been its acceptance to the readers of
-the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_083" id="page_083"></a></span> magazine. He put his hand up to his head and stood wondering. “I
-suppose ye’d better choose your own subject for yourself,” he said, as
-though by this great surrender on his own part he was getting rid of all
-the difficulty on ours.</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Molloy,” we began, “we may as well be candid with you&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I’ll tell you what it is,” said he, “I’ve taken such a liking to you
-there’s nothing I won’t do to plaise ye. I’ll just put it in my pocket,
-and begin another for ye as soon as the children have had their bit of
-dinner.” At last we did succeed, or thought that we succeeded, in making
-him understand that we regarded the case as being altogether hopeless,
-and were convinced that it was beyond his powers to serve us. “And I’m
-to be turned off like that,” he said, bursting into open tears as he
-threw himself into a chair and hid his face upon the table. “Ah! wirra,
-wirra, what’ll I do at all? Sure, and didn’t I think it was fixed as
-firm between us as the Nelson monument? When ye handselled me with the
-money, didn’t I think it was as good as done and done?” I begged him not
-to regard the money, assuring him that he was welcome to the sovereign.
-“There’s my wife’ll be brought to bed any day,” he went on to say, “and
-not a ha’porth<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_084" id="page_084"></a></span> of anything ready for it! ’Deed, thin, and the world’s
-hard. The world’s very hard!” And this was he who had talked to me about
-Constantinople and New York at the baths, and had made me believe that
-he was a well-informed, well-to-do man of the world!</p>
-
-<p>Even now we did not suspect that he was lying to us. Why he should be
-such as he seemed to be was a mystery; but even yet we believed in him
-after a fashion. That he was sorely disappointed and broken-hearted
-because of his wife, was so evident to us, that we offered him another
-sovereign, regarding it as the proper price of that butter-boat of
-benevolence which we had permitted ourselves to use. But he repudiated
-our offer. “I’ve never begged,” said he, “and, for myself, I’d sooner
-starve. And Mary Jane would sooner starve than I should beg. It will be
-best for us both to put an end to ourselves and to have done with it.”
-This was very melancholy; and as he lay with his head upon the table, we
-did not see how we were to induce him to leave us.</p>
-
-<p>“You’d better take the sovereign,&mdash;just for the present,” we said.</p>
-
-<p>“Niver!” said he, looking up for a moment, “niver!” And still he
-continued to sob. About this period of the interview, which before it
-was ended was a very long<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_085" id="page_085"></a></span> interview, we ourselves made a suggestion the
-imprudence of which we afterwards acknowledged to ourselves. We offered
-to go to his lodgings and see his wife and children. Though the man
-could not write a good magazine article, yet he might be a very fitting
-object for our own personal kindness. And the more we saw of the man,
-the more we liked him,&mdash;in spite of his incapacity. “The place is so
-poor,” he said, objecting to our offer. After what had passed between
-us, we felt that that could be no reason against our visit, and we began
-for a moment to fear that he was deceiving us. “Not yet,” he cried, “not
-quite yet. I will try once again;&mdash;once again. You will let me see you
-once more?”</p>
-
-<p>“And you will take the other sovereign,” we said,&mdash;trying him. He should
-have had the other sovereign if he would have taken it; but we confess
-that had he done so then we should have regarded him as an impostor. But
-he did not take it, and left us in utter ignorance as to his true
-character.</p>
-
-<p>After an interval of three days he came again, and there was exactly the
-same appearance. He wore the same tattered gloves. He had not pawned his
-coat. There was the same hat,&mdash;shabby when observed closely,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_086" id="page_086"></a></span> but still
-carrying a decent appearance when not minutely examined. In his face
-there was no sign of want, and at moments there was a cheeriness about
-him which was almost refreshing. “I’ve got a something this time that I
-think ye must like,&mdash;unless you’re harder to plaise than Rhadhamanthus.”
-So saying, he tendered me another roll of paper, which I at once opened,
-intending to read the first page of it. The essay was entitled the
-“Church of England;&mdash;a Question for the People.” It was handed to me as
-having been written within the last three days; and, from its bulk,
-might have afforded fair work for a fortnight to a writer accustomed to
-treat of subjects of such weight. As we had expected, the first page was
-unintelligible, absurd, and farcical. We began to be angry with
-ourselves for having placed ourselves in such a connection with a man so
-utterly unable to do that which he pretended to do. “I think I’ve hit it
-off now,” said he, watching our face as we were reading.</p>
-
-<p>The reader need not be troubled with a minute narrative of the
-circumstances as they occurred during the remainder of the interview.
-What had happened before was repeated very closely. He wondered, he
-remonstrated, he complained, and he wept. He talked of his wife and
-family, and talked as though up to this last<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_087" id="page_087"></a></span> moment he had felt
-confident of success. Judging from his face as he entered the room, we
-did not doubt but that he had been confident. His subsequent despair was
-unbounded, and we then renewed our offer to call on his wife. After some
-hesitation he gave us an address in Hoxton, begging us to come after
-seven in the evening if it were possible. He again declined the offer of
-money, and left us, understanding that we would visit his wife on the
-following evening. “You are quite sure about the manuscript?” he said as
-he left us. We replied that we were quite sure.</p>
-
-<p>On the following day we dined early at our club and walked in the
-evening to the address which Mr. Molloy had given us in Hoxton. It was a
-fine evening in August, and our walk made us very warm. The street named
-was a decent little street, decent as far as cleanliness and newness
-could make it; but there was a melancholy sameness about it, and an
-apparent absence of object, which would have been very depressing to our
-own spirits. It led nowhither, and had been erected solely with the view
-of accommodating decent people with small incomes. We at once priced the
-houses in our mind at ten and sixpence a week, and believed them to be
-inhabited by pianoforte-tuners, coach-builders, firemen, and
-public-office<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_088" id="page_088"></a></span> messengers. There was no squalor about the place, but it
-was melancholy, light-coloured and depressive. We made our way to No.
-14, and finding the door open entered the passage. “Come in,” cried the
-voice of our friend; and in the little front parlour we found him seated
-with a child on each knee, while a winning little girl of about twelve
-was sitting in a corner of the room, mending her stockings. The room
-itself and the appearance of all around us were the very opposite of
-what we had expected. Everything no doubt was plain,&mdash;was, in a certain
-sense, poor; but nothing was poverty-stricken. The children were
-decently clothed and apparently were well fed. Mr. Molloy himself, when
-he saw me, had that twinkle of humour in his eye which I had before
-observed, and seemed to be afflicted at the moment with none of that
-extreme agony which he had exhibited more than once in our presence.
-“Please, Sir, mother aint in from the hospital,&mdash;not yet,” said the
-little girl, rising up from her chair; but it’s past seven and she won’t
-be long. “This announcement created some surprise. We had indeed heard
-that of Mrs. Molloy which might make it very expedient that she should
-seek the accommodation of an hospital, but we could not understand that
-in such circumstances she should be able to come home regularly<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_089" id="page_089"></a></span> at
-seven o’clock in the evening. Then there was a twinkle in our friend
-Molloy’s eye which almost made us think for the moment that we had been
-made the subject of some, hitherto unintelligible, hoax. And yet there
-had been the man at the baths in Jermyn Street, and the two manuscripts
-had been in our hands, and the man had wept as no man weeps for a joke.
-“You would come, you know,” said Mr. Molloy, who had now put down the
-two bairns and had risen from his seat to greet us.</p>
-
-<p>“We are glad to see you so comfortable,” we replied.</p>
-
-<p>“Father is quite comfortable, Sir,” said the little girl. We looked into
-Mr. Molloy’s face and saw nothing but the twinkle in the eye. We had
-certainly been “done” by the most elaborate hoax that had ever been
-perpetrated. We did not regret the sovereign so much as those
-outpourings from the butter-boat of benevolence of which we felt that we
-had been cheated. “Here’s mother,” said the girl running to the door.
-Mr. Molloy stood grinning in the middle of the room with the youngest
-child again in his arms. He did not seem to be in the least ashamed of
-what he had done, and even at that moment conveyed to us more of liking
-for his affection for the little boy than of anger for the abominable
-prank that he had played us.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_090" id="page_090"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>That he had lied throughout was evident as soon as we saw Mrs. Molloy.
-Whatever ailment might have made it necessary that she should visit the
-hospital, it was not one which could interfere at all with her power of
-going and returning. She was a strong hearty-looking woman of about
-forty, with that mixture in her face of practical kindness with severity
-in details which we often see in strong-minded women who are forced to
-take upon themselves the management and government of those around them.
-She courtesied, and took off her bonnet and shawl, and put a bottle into
-a cupboard, as she addressed us. “Mick said as you was coming, Sir, and
-I’m sure we is glad to see you;&mdash;only sorry for the trouble, Sir.”</p>
-
-<p>We were so completely in the dark that we hardly knew how to be civil to
-her,&mdash;hardly knew whether we ought to be civil to her or not. “We don’t
-quite understand why we’ve been brought here,” we said, endeavouring to
-maintain, at any rate a tone of good-humour. He was still embracing the
-little boy, but there had now come a gleam of fun across his whole
-countenance, and he seemed to be almost shaking his sides with laughter.
-“Your husband represented himself as being in distress,” we said
-gravely. We were restrained by a certain<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_091" id="page_091"></a></span> delicacy from informing the
-woman of the kind of distress to which Mr. Molloy had especially
-alluded,&mdash;most falsely.</p>
-
-<p>“Lord love you, Sir,” said the woman, “just step in here.” Then she led
-us into a little back room in which there was a bedstead, and an old
-writing-desk or escritoire, covered with papers. Her story was soon
-told. Her husband was a madman.</p>
-
-<p>“Mad!” we said, preparing for escape from what might be to us most
-serious peril.</p>
-
-<p>“He wouldn’t hurt a mouse,” said Mrs. Molloy. “As for the children, he’s
-that good to them, there aint a young woman in all London that’d be
-better at handling ’em.” Then we heard her story, in which it appeared
-to us that downright affection for the man was the predominant
-characteristic. She herself was, as she told us, head day nurse at Saint
-Patrick’s Hospital, going there every morning at eight, and remaining
-till six or seven. For these services she received thirty shillings a
-week and her board, and she spoke of herself and her husband as being
-altogether removed from pecuniary distress. Indeed, while the money part
-of the question was being discussed, she opened a little drawer in the
-desk and handed us back our sovereign, almost without an observation.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_092" id="page_092"></a></span>
-Molloy himself had “come of decent people.” On this point she insisted
-very often, and gave us to understand that he was at this moment in
-receipt of a pension of a hundred a year from his family. He had been
-well educated, she said, having been at Trinity College, Dublin, till he
-had been forced to leave his university for some slight, but repeated
-irregularity. Early in life he had proclaimed his passion for the press,
-and when he and she were married absolutely was earning a living in
-Dublin by some use of the scissors and paste-pot. The whole tenor of his
-career I could not learn, though Mrs. Molloy would have told us
-everything had time allowed. Even during the years of his sanity in
-Dublin he had only been half-sane, treating all the world around him
-with the effusions of his terribly fertile pen. “He’ll write all night
-if I’ll let him have a candle,” said Mrs. Molloy. We asked her why she
-did let him have a candle, and made some enquiry as to the family
-expenditure in paper. The paper, she said, was given to him from the
-office of a newspaper which she would not name, and which Molloy visited
-regularly every day. “There aint a man in all London works harder,” said
-Mrs. Molloy. “He is mad. I don’t say nothing against it. But there is
-some of it so beautiful, I wonder they don’t<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_093" id="page_093"></a></span> print it.” This was the
-only word she spoke with which we could not agree. “Ah, Sir,” said she;
-“you haven’t seen his poetry!” We were obliged to tell her that seeing
-poetry was the bane of our existence.</p>
-
-<p>There was an easy absence of sham about this woman, and an acceptance of
-life as it had come to her, which delighted us. She complained of
-nothing, and was only anxious to explain the little eccentricities of
-her husband. When we alluded to some of his marvellously untrue
-assertions, she stopped us at once. “He do lie,” she said. “Certainly he
-do. How he makes them all out is wonderful. But he wouldn’t hurt a fly.”
-It was evident to us that she not only loved her husband, but admired
-him. She showed us heaps of manuscript with which the old drawers were
-crammed; and yet that paper on the Church of England had been new work,
-done expressly for us.</p>
-
-<p>When the story had been told we went back to him, and he received us
-with a smile. “Good-bye, Molloy,” we said. “Good-bye to you, Sir,” he
-replied, shaking hands with us. We looked at him closely, and could
-hardly believe that it was the man who had sat by us at the Turkish
-bath.</p>
-
-<p>He never troubled us again or came to our office, but<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_094" id="page_094"></a></span> we have often
-called on him, and have found that others of our class do the same. We
-have even helped to supply him with the paper which he continues to
-use,&mdash;we presume for the benefit of other editors.</p>
-
-<div class="figcenter">
-<img src="images/ill_094.jpg" width="250" height="140" alt="" title="" />
-</div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_095" id="page_095"></a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="JOSEPHINE_DE_MONTMORENCI" id="JOSEPHINE_DE_MONTMORENCI"></a>JOSEPHINE DE MONTMORENCI.</h2>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_096" id="page_096"></a></span></p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_097" id="page_097"></a></span></p>
-
-<p class="c"><img src="images/josephine.jpg"
-alt="[text decoration unavailable.]"
-/>
-</p>
-
-<h2>JOSEPHINE DE MONTMORENCI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span>HE little story which we are about to relate refers to circumstances
-which occurred some years ago, and we desire therefore, that all readers
-may avoid the fault of connecting the personages of the tale,&mdash;either
-the editor who suffered so much, and who behaved, we think, so well, or
-the ladies with whom he was concerned,&mdash;with any editor or with any
-ladies known to such readers either personally or by name. For though
-the story as told is a true story, we who tell it have used such craft
-in the telling, that we defy the most astute to fix the time or to
-recognise the characters. It will be sufficient if the curious will
-accept it as a fact that at some date since magazines became common in
-the land, a certain editor, sitting in his office, came upon<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_098" id="page_098"></a></span> the
-perusal of the following letter, addressed to him by name:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p class="r">
-“19, King-Charles Street,<br />
-<br />
-“1st May, 18&mdash;.<br />
-</p>
-
-<p class="nind">
-“<span class="smcap">Dear Sir</span>,<br />
-</p>
-
-<p>“I think that literature needs no introduction, and, judging of you
-by the character which you have made for yourself in its paths, I
-do not doubt but you will feel as I do. I shall therefore write to
-you without reserve. I am a lady not possessing that modesty which
-should make me hold a low opinion of my own talents, and equally
-free from that feeling of self-belittlement which induces so many
-to speak humbly while they think proudly of their own acquirements.
-Though I am still young, I have written much for the press, and I
-believe I may boast that I have sometimes done so successfully.
-Hitherto I have kept back my name, but I hope soon to be allowed to
-see it on the title-page of a book which shall not shame me.</p>
-
-<p>“My object in troubling you is to announce the fact, agreeable
-enough to myself, that I have just completed a novel in three
-volumes, and to suggest to you that it should make its first
-appearance to the world in the pages of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_099" id="page_099"></a></span> magazine under your
-control. I will frankly tell you that I am not myself fond of this
-mode of publication; but Messrs. X., Y., Z., of Paternoster Row,
-with whom you are doubtless acquainted, have assured me that such
-will be the better course. In these matters one is still terribly
-subject to the tyranny of the publishers, who surely of all
-cormorants are the most greedy, and of all tyrants are the most
-arrogant. Though I have never seen you, I know you too well to
-suspect for a moment that my words will ever be repeated to my
-respectable friends in the Row.</p>
-
-<p>“Shall I wait upon you with my MS.,&mdash;or will you call for it? Or
-perhaps it may be better that I should send it to you. Young ladies
-should not run about,&mdash;even after editors; and it might be so
-probable that I should not find you at home. Messrs. X., Y., and Z.
-have read the MS.,&mdash;or more probably the young man whom they keep
-for the purpose has done so,&mdash;and the nod of approval has been
-vouchsafed. Perhaps this may suffice; but if a second examination
-be needful, the work is at your service.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-“Yours faithfully, and in hopes of friendly relations,<br />
-
-“<span class="smcap">Josephine de Montmorenci</span>.<br />
-</p>
-
-<p>“I am English, though my unfortunate name will sound French in your
-ears.”</p></div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_100" id="page_100"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>For facility in the telling of our story we will call this especial
-editor Mr. Brown. Mr. Brown’s first feeling on reading the letter was
-decidedly averse to the writer. But such is always the feeling of
-editors to would-be contributors, though contributions are the very food
-on which an editor must live. But Mr. Brown was an unmarried man, who
-loved the rustle of feminine apparel, who delighted in the brightness of
-a woman’s eye when it would be bright for him, and was not indifferent
-to the touch of a woman’s hand. As editors go, or went then, he knew his
-business, and was not wont to deluge his pages with weak feminine ware
-in return for smiles and flattering speeches,&mdash;as editors have done
-before now; but still he liked an adventure, and was perhaps afflicted
-by some slight flaw of judgment, in consequence of which the words of
-pretty women found with him something of preponderating favour. Who is
-there that will think evil of him because it was so?</p>
-
-<p>He read the letter a second time, and did not send that curt,
-heart-rending answer which is so common to editors,&mdash;“The editor’s
-compliments and thanks, but his stock of novels is at present so great
-that he cannot hope to find room for the work which has been so kindly
-suggested.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_101" id="page_101"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>Of King-Charles Street, Brown could not remember that he had ever heard,
-and he looked it out at once in the Directory. There was a King-Charles
-Street in Camden Town, at No. 19 of which street it was stated that a
-Mr. Puffle resided. But this told him nothing. Josephine de Montmorenci
-might reside with Mrs. Puffle in Camden Town, and yet write a good
-novel,&mdash;or be a very pretty girl. And there was a something in the tone
-of the letter which made him think that the writer was no ordinary
-person. She wrote with confidence. She asked no favour. And then she
-declared that Messrs. X., Y., Z., with whom Mr. Brown was intimate, had
-read and approved her novel. Before he answered the note he would call
-in the Row and ask a question or two.</p>
-
-<p>He did call, and saw Mr. Z. Mr. Z. remembered well that the MS. had been
-in their house. He rather thought that X., who was out of town, had seen
-Miss Montmorenci,&mdash;perhaps on more than one occasion. The novel had been
-read, and,&mdash;well, Mr. Z. would not quite say approved; but it had been
-thought that there was a good deal in it. “I think I remember X. telling
-me that she was an uncommon pretty young woman,” said Z.,&mdash;“and there is
-some mystery about her. I didn’t see her myself, but I am sure there was
-a mystery.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_102" id="page_102"></a></span> Mr. Brown made up his mind that he would, at any rate, see
-the MS.</p>
-
-<p>He felt disposed to go at once to Camden Town, but still had fears that
-in doing so he might seem to make himself too common. There are so many
-things of which an editor is required to think! It is almost essential
-that they who are ambitious of serving under him should believe that he
-is enveloped in MSS. from morning to night,&mdash;that he cannot call an hour
-his own,&mdash;that he is always bringing out that periodical of his in a
-frenzy of mental exertion,&mdash;that he is to be approached only with
-difficulty,&mdash;and that a call from him is a visit from a god. Mr. Brown
-was a Jupiter, willing enough on occasions to go a little out of his way
-after some literary Leda, or even on behalf of a Danae desirous of a
-price for her compositions;&mdash;but he was obliged to acknowledge to
-himself that the occasion had not as yet arisen. So he wrote to the
-young lady as follows:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p class="r">
-“Office of the Olympus Magazine,<br />
-<br />
-“4th May, 18&mdash;.<br />
-</p>
-
-<p>“The Editor presents his compliments to Miss de Montmorenci, and
-will be very happy to see her MS. Perhaps she will send it to the
-above address. The<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_103" id="page_103"></a></span> Editor has seen Mr. Z., of Paternoster Row, who
-speaks highly of the work. A novel, however, may be very clever and
-yet hardly suit a magazine. Should it be accepted by the ‘Olympus,’
-some time must elapse before it appears. The Editor would be very
-happy to see Miss de Montmorenci if it would suit her to call any
-Friday between the hours of two and three.” </p></div>
-
-<p>When the note was written Mr. Brown felt that it was cold;&mdash;but then it
-behoves an editor to be cold. A gushing editor would ruin any
-publication within six months. Young women are very nice; pretty young
-women are especially nice; and of all pretty young women, clever young
-women who write novels are perhaps as nice as any;&mdash;but to an editor
-they are dangerous. Mr. Brown was at this time about forty, and had had
-his experiences. The letter was cold, but he was afraid to make it
-warmer. It was sent;&mdash;and when he received the following answer, it may
-fairly be said that his editorial hair stood on end:</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p>“<span class="smcap">Dear Mr. Brown</span>,</p>
-
-<p>“I hate you and your compliments. That sort of communication means
-nothing, and I won’t send you my<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_104" id="page_104"></a></span> MS. unless you are more in
-earnest about it. I know the way in which rolls of paper are shoved
-into pigeon-holes and left there till they are musty, while the
-writers’ hearts are being broken. My heart may be broken some day,
-but not in that way.</p>
-
-<p>“I won’t come to you between two and three on Friday. It sounds a
-great deal too like a doctor’s appointment, and I don’t think much
-of you if you are only at your work one hour in the week. Indeed, I
-won’t go to you at all. If an interview is necessary you can come
-here. But I don’t know that it will be necessary.</p>
-
-<p>“Old X. is a fool and knows nothing about it. My own approval is to
-me very much more than his. I don’t suppose he’d know the inside of
-a book if he saw it. I have given the very best that is in me to my
-work, and I know that it is good. Even should you say that it is
-not I shall not believe you. But I don’t think you will say so,
-because I believe you to be in truth a clever fellow in spite of
-your ‘compliments’ and your ‘two and three o’clock on a Friday.’</p>
-
-<p>“If you want to see my MS., say so with some earnestness, and it
-shall be conveyed to you. And please to say how much I shall be
-paid for it, for I am<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_105" id="page_105"></a></span> as poor as Job. And name a date. I won’t be
-put off with your ‘some time must elapse.’ It shall see the light,
-or, at least, a part of it, within six months. That is my
-intention. And don’t talk nonsense to me about clever novels not
-suiting magazines,&mdash;unless you mean that as an excuse for
-publishing so many stupid ones as you do.</p>
-
-<p>“You will see that I am frank; but I really do mean what I say. I
-want it to come out in the ‘Olympus;’ and if we can I shall be so
-happy to come to terms with you.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-<span style="margin-right: 30%;">“Yours as I find you,</span><br />
-“<span class="smcap">Josephine de Montmorenci</span>.”<br />
-</p>
-<p>
-<small>“Thursday&mdash;King-Charles Street.”</small>
-</p></div>
-
-<p>This was an epistle to startle an editor as coming from a young lady;
-but yet there was something in it that seemed to imply strength. Before
-answering it Mr. Brown did a thing which he must be presumed to have
-done as man and not as editor. He walked off to King-Charles Street in
-Camden Town, and looked at the house. It was a nice little street, very
-quiet, quite genteel, completely made up with what we vaguely call
-gentlemen’s houses, with two windows to each drawing-room,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_106" id="page_106"></a></span> and with a
-balcony to some of them, the prettiest balcony in the street belonging
-to No. 19, near the park, and equally removed from poverty and
-splendour. Brown walked down the street, on the opposite side, towards
-the park, and looked up at the house. He intended to walk at once
-homewards, across the park, to his own little home in St. John’s Wood
-Road; but when he had passed half a street away from the Puffle
-residence, he turned to have another look, and retraced his steps. As he
-passed the door it was opened, and there appeared upon the steps,&mdash;one
-of the prettiest little women he had ever seen in his life. She was
-dressed for walking, with that jaunty, broad, open bonnet which women
-then wore, and seemed, as some women do seem, to be an amalgam of
-softness, prettiness, archness, fun, and tenderness,&mdash;and she carried a
-tiny blue parasol. She was fair, gray-eyed, dimpled, all alive, and
-dressed so nicely and yet simply, that Mr. Brown was carried away for
-the moment by a feeling that he would like to publish her novel, let it
-be what it might. And he heard her speak. “Charles,” she said, “you
-sha’n’t smoke.” Our editor could, of course, only pass on, and had not
-an opportunity of even seeing Charles. At the corner of the street he
-turned round and saw them walking<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_107" id="page_107"></a></span> the other way. Josephine was leaning
-on Charles’s arm. She had, however, distinctly avowed herself to be a
-young lady,&mdash;in other words, an unmarried woman. There was, no doubt, a
-mystery, and Mr. Brown felt it to be incumbent on him to fathom it. His
-next letter was as follows:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p>“<span class="smcap">My dear Miss de Montmorenci</span>,</p>
-
-<p>“I am sorry that you should hate me and my compliments. I had
-intended to be as civil and as nice as possible. I am quite in
-earnest, and you had better send the MS. As to all the questions
-you ask, I cannot answer them to any purpose till I have read the
-story,&mdash;which I will promise to do without subjecting it to the
-pigeon-holes. If you do not like Friday, you shall come on Monday,
-or Tuesday, or Wednesday, or Thursday, or Saturday, or even on
-Sunday, if you wish it;&mdash;and at any hour, only let it be fixed.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-<span style="margin-right: 10%;">“Yours faithfully,</span><br />
-“<span class="smcap">Jonathan Brown</span>.”</p>
-<p><small>“Friday.”</small></p></div>
-
-<p>In the course of the next week the novel came, with another short note,
-to which was attached no ordinary<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_108" id="page_108"></a></span> beginning or ending. “I send my
-treasure, and, remember, I will have it back in a week if you do not
-intend to keep it. I have not £5 left in the world, and I owe my
-milliner ever so much, and money at the stables where I get a horse. And
-I am determined to go to Dieppe in July. All must come out of my novel.
-So do be a good man. If you are I will see you.” Herein she declared
-plainly her own conviction that she had so far moved the editor by her
-correspondence,&mdash;for she knew nothing, of course, of that ramble of his
-through King-Charles Street,&mdash;as to have raised in his bosom a desire to
-see her. Indeed, she made no secret of such conviction. “Do as I wish,”
-she said plainly, “and I will gratify you by a personal interview.” But
-the interview was not to be granted till the novel had been accepted and
-the terms fixed,&mdash;such terms, too, as it would be very improbable that
-any editor could accord.</p>
-
-<p>“Not so Black as he’s Painted;”&mdash;that was the name of the novel which it
-now became the duty of Mr. Brown to read. When he got it home, he found
-that the writing was much worse than that of the letters. It was small,
-and crowded, and carried through without those technical demarcations
-which are so comfortable to printers, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_109" id="page_109"></a></span> so essential to readers. The
-erasures were numerous, and bits of the story were written, as it were,
-here and there. It was a manuscript to which Mr. Brown would not have
-given a second glance, had there not been an adventure behind it. The
-very sending of such a manuscript to any editor would have been an
-impertinence, if it were sent by any but a pretty woman. Mr. Brown,
-however, toiled over it, and did read it,&mdash;read it, or at least enough
-of it to make him know what it was. The verdict which Mr. Z. had given
-was quite true. No one could have called the story stupid. No mentor
-experienced in such matters would have ventured on such evidence to tell
-the aspirant that she had mistaken her walk in life, and had better sit
-at home and darn her stockings. Out of those heaps of ambitious
-manuscripts which are daily subjected to professional readers such
-verdicts may safely be given in regard to four-fifths,&mdash;either that the
-aspirant should darn her stockings, or that he should prune his fruit
-trees. It is equally so with the works of one sex as with those of the
-other. The necessity of saying so is very painful, and the actual
-stocking, or the fruit tree itself, is not often named. The cowardly
-professional reader indeed, unable to endure those thorns in the flesh
-of which poor Thackeray spoke<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_110" id="page_110"></a></span> so feelingly, when hard-pressed for
-definite answers, generally lies. He has been asked to be candid, but he
-cannot bring himself to undertake a duty so onerous, so odious, and one
-as to which he sees so little reason that he personally should perform
-it. But in regard to these aspirations,&mdash;to which have been given so
-much labour, which have produced so many hopes, offsprings which are so
-dear to the poor parents,&mdash;the decision at least is easy. And there are
-others in regard to which a hopeful reader finds no difficulty,&mdash;as to
-which he feels assured that he is about to produce to the world the
-fruit of some new-found genius. But there are doubtful cases which worry
-the poor judge till he knows not how to trust his own judgment. At this
-page he says, “Yes, certainly;” at the next he shakes his head as he
-sits alone amidst his papers. Then he is dead against the aspirant.
-Again there is improvement, and he asks himself,&mdash;where is he to find
-anything that is better? As our editor read Josephine’s novel,&mdash;he had
-learned to call her Josephine in that silent speech in which most of us
-indulge, and which is so necessary to an editor,&mdash;he was divided between
-Yes and No throughout the whole story. Once or twice he found himself
-wiping his eyes, and then it was all “yes” with him. Then he found<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_111" id="page_111"></a></span> the
-pages ran with a cruel heaviness, which seemed to demand decisive
-editorial severity. A whole novel, too, is so great a piece of business!
-There would be such difficulty were he to accept it! How much must he
-cut out! How many of his own hours must he devote to the repairing of
-mutilated sentences, and the remodelling of indistinct scenes! In regard
-to a small piece an editor, when moved that way, can afford to be
-good-natured. He can give to it the hour or so of his own work which it
-may require. And if after all it be nothing&mdash;or, as will happen
-sometimes, much worse than nothing,&mdash;the evil is of short duration. In
-admitting such a thing he has done an injury,&mdash;but the injury is small.
-It passes in the crowd, and is forgotten. The best Homer that ever
-edited must sometimes nod. But a whole novel! A piece of work that would
-last him perhaps for twelve months! No editor can afford to nod for so
-long a period.</p>
-
-<p>But then this tale, this novel of “Not so Black as he’s Painted,” this
-story of a human devil, for whose crimes no doubt some Byronic apology
-was made with great elaboration by the sensational Josephine, was not
-exactly bad. Our editor had wept over it. Some tender-hearted Medora,
-who on behalf of her hyena-in-love had gone<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_112" id="page_112"></a></span> through miseries enough to
-kill half a regiment of heroines, had dimmed the judge’s eyes with
-tears. What stronger proof of excellence can an editor have? But then
-there were those long pages of metaphysical twaddle, sure to elicit
-scorn and neglect from old and young. They, at any rate, must be cut
-out. But in the cutting of them out a very mincemeat would be made of
-the story. And yet Josephine de Montmorenci, with her impudent little
-letters, had already made herself so attractive! What was our editor to
-do?</p>
-
-<p>He knew well the difficulty that would be before him should he once dare
-to accept, and then undertake to alter. She would be as a tigress to
-him,&mdash;as a tigress fighting for her young. That work of altering is so
-ungracious, so precarious, so incapable of success in its performance!
-The long-winded, far-fetched, high-stilted, unintelligible sentence
-which you elide with so much confidence in your judgment, has been the
-very apple of your author’s eye. In it she has intended to convey to the
-world the fruits of her best meditation for the last twelve months.
-Thinking much over many things in her solitude, she has at last invented
-a truth, and there it lies. That wise men may adopt it, and candid women
-admire it, is the hope, the solace, and at last almost the certainty<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_113" id="page_113"></a></span> of
-her existence. She repeats the words to herself, and finds that they
-will form a choice quotation to be used in coming books. It is for the
-sake of that one newly-invented truth,&mdash;so she tells herself, though not
-quite truly,&mdash;that she desires publication. You come,&mdash;and with a dash
-of your pen you annihilate the precious gem! Is it in human nature that
-you should be forgiven? Mr. Brown had had his experiences, and
-understood all this well. Nevertheless he loved dearly to please a
-pretty woman.</p>
-
-<p>And it must be acknowledged that the letters of Josephine were such as
-to make him sure that there might be an adventure if he chose to risk
-the pages of his magazine. The novel had taken him four long evenings to
-read, and at the end of the fourth he sat thinking of it for an hour.
-Fortune either favoured him or the reverse,&mdash;as the reader may choose to
-regard the question,&mdash;in this, that there was room for the story in his
-periodical if he chose to take it. He wanted a novel,&mdash;but then he did
-not want feminine metaphysics. He sat thinking of it, wondering in his
-mind how that little smiling, soft creature with the gray eyes, and the
-dimples, and the pretty walking-dress, could have written those
-interminable pages as to the questionable criminality of crime; whether
-a card-sharper might not be a hero; whether a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_114" id="page_114"></a></span> murderer might not
-sacrifice his all, even the secret of his murder, for the woman he
-loved; whether devil might not be saint, and saint devil. At the end of
-the hour he got up from his chair, stretched himself, with his hands in
-his trousers-pockets, and said aloud, though alone, that he’d be d&mdash;&mdash;
-if he would. It was an act of great self-denial, a triumph of principle
-over passion.</p>
-
-<p>But though he had thus decided, he was not minded to throw over
-altogether either Josephine or her novel. He might still, perhaps, do
-something for her if he could find her amenable to reason. Thinking
-kindly of her, very anxious to know her personally, and still desirous
-of seeing the adventure to the end, he wrote the following note to her
-that evening:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p class="r">
-‘Cross Bank, St. John’s Wood,<br />
-“Saturday Night.<br />
-</p>
-
-<p class="nind">
-“<span class="smcap">My dear Miss de Montmorenci</span>,<br />
-</p>
-
-<p>“I knew how it would be. I cannot give you an answer about your
-novel without seeing you. It so often happens that the answer can’t
-be Yes or No. You said something very cruel about dear old X., but
-after all he was quite right in his verdict about the book. There
-is a great deal in it; but it evidently was not written to suit<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_115" id="page_115"></a></span>
-the pages of a magazine. Will you come to me, or shall I come to
-you;&mdash;or shall I send the MS. back, and so let there be an end of
-it? You must decide. If you direct that the latter course be taken,
-I will obey; but I shall do so with most sincere regret, both on
-account of your undoubted aptitude for literary work, and because I
-am very anxious to become acquainted with my fair correspondent.
-You see I can be as frank as you are yourself.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-<span style="margin-right:20%;">“Yours most faithfully,</span><br />
-
-“<span class="smcap">Jonathan Brown</span>.<br />
-</p></div>
-
-<p>“My advice to you would be to give up the idea of publishing this tale
-in parts, and to make terms with X., Y., and Z.,&mdash;in endeavouring to do
-which I shall be most happy to be of service to you.’</p>
-
-<p>&nbsp;</p>
-
-<p>This note he posted on the following day, and when he returned home on
-the next night from his club, he found three replies from the divine,
-but irritable and energetic, Josephine. We will give them according to
-their chronology.</p>
-
-<p>No. 1. “Monday Morning.&mdash;Let me have my MS. back,&mdash;and pray, without any
-delay.&mdash;<span class="smcap">J. de M.</span>”</p>
-
-<p>&nbsp;</p>
-
-<p>No. 2. “Monday, 2 o’clock.&mdash;How can you have been<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_116" id="page_116"></a></span> so ill-natured,&mdash;and
-after keeping it twelve days?” His answer had been written within a week
-of the receipt of the parcel at his office, and he had acted with a
-rapidity which nothing but some tender passion would have
-instigated.&mdash;“What you say about being clever, and yet not fit for a
-magazine, is rubbish. I know it is rubbish. I do not wish to see you.
-Why should I see a man who will do nothing to oblige me? If X., Y., Z.
-choose to buy it, at once, they shall have it. But I mean to be paid for
-it, and I think you have behaved very ill to me.&mdash;<span class="smcap">Josephine.</span>”</p>
-
-<p>No. 3. “Monday Evening.&mdash;My dear Mr. Brown,&mdash;Can you wonder that I
-should have lost my temper and almost my head? I have written twice
-before to-day, and hardly know what I said. I cannot understand you
-editing people. You are just like women;&mdash;you will and you won’t. I am
-so unhappy. I had allowed myself to feel almost certain that you would
-take it, and have told that cross man at the stables he should have his
-money. Of course I can’t make you publish it;&mdash;but how you can put in
-such yards of stupid stuff, all about nothing on earth, and then send
-back a novel which you say yourself is very clever, is what I can’t
-understand. I suppose it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_117" id="page_117"></a></span> all goes by favour, and the people who write
-are your uncles, and aunts, and grandmothers, and lady-loves. I can’t
-make you do it, and therefore I suppose I must take your advice about
-those old hugger-muggers in Paternoster Row. But there are ever so many
-things you must arrange. I must have the money at once. And I won’t put
-up with just a few pounds. I have been at work upon that novel for more
-than two years, and I know that it is good. I hate to be grumbled at,
-and complained of, and spoken to as if a publisher were doing me the
-greatest favour in the world when he is just going to pick my brains to
-make money of them. I did see old X., or old Z., or old Y., and the
-snuffy old fellow told me that if I worked hard I might do something
-some day. I have worked harder than ever he did,&mdash;sitting there and
-squeezing brains, and sucking the juice out of them like an old ghoul. I
-suppose I had better see you, because of money and all that. I’ll come,
-or else send some one, at about two on Wednesday. I can’t put it off
-till Friday, and I must be home by three. You might as well go to X.,
-Y., Z., in the meantime, and let me know what they say.&mdash;<span class="smcap">J. de M.</span>”</p>
-
-<p>There was an unparalleled impudence in all this which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_118" id="page_118"></a></span> affronted,
-amazed, and yet in part delighted our editor. Josephine evidently
-regarded him as her humble slave, who had already received such favours
-as entitled her to demand from him any service which she might require
-of him. “You might as well go to X., Y., Z., and let me know what they
-say!” And then that direct accusation against him,&mdash;that all went by
-favour with him! “I think you have behaved very ill to me!” Why,&mdash;had he
-not gone out of his way, very much out of his way indeed, to do her a
-service? Was he not taking on her behalf an immense trouble for which he
-looked for no remuneration,&mdash;unless remuneration should come in that
-adventure of which she had but a dim foreboding? All this was
-unparalleled impudence. But then impudence from pretty women is only
-sauciness; and such sauciness is attractive. None but a very pretty
-woman who openly trusted in her prettiness would dare to write such
-letters, and the girl whom he had seen on the door-step was very pretty.
-As to his going to X., Y., Z., before he had seen her, that was out of
-the question. That very respectable firm in the Row would certainly not
-give money for a novel without considerable caution, without much
-talking, and a regular understanding and bargain. As a matter of course,
-they would take time to consider. X., Y.,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_119" id="page_119"></a></span> and Z. were not in a hurry to
-make money to pay a milliner or to satisfy a stable-keeper, and would
-have but little sympathy for such troubles;&mdash;all which it would be Mr.
-Brown’s unpleasant duty to explain to Josephine de Montmorenci.</p>
-
-<p>But though this would be unpleasant, still there might be pleasure. He
-could foresee that there would be a storm, with much pouting, some
-violent complaint, and perhaps a deluge of tears. But it would be for
-him to dry the tears and allay the storm. The young lady could do him no
-harm, and must at last be driven to admit that his kindness was
-disinterested. He waited, therefore, for the Wednesday, and was careful
-to be at the office of his magazine at two o’clock. In the ordinary way
-of his business the office would not have seen him on that day, but the
-matter had now been present in his mind so long, and had been so much
-considered, had assumed so large a proportion in his thoughts,&mdash;that he
-regarded not at all this extra trouble. With an air of indifference he
-told the lad who waited upon him as half clerk and half errand-boy, that
-he expected a lady; and then he sat down, as though to compose himself
-to his work. But no work was done. Letters were not even opened. His
-mind was full of Josephine de Montmorenci. If all the truth is<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_120" id="page_120"></a></span> to be
-told, it must be acknowledged that he did not even wear the clothes that
-were common to him when he sat in his editorial chair. He had prepared
-himself somewhat, and a new pair of gloves was in his hat. It might be
-that circumstances would require him to accompany Josephine at least a
-part of the way back to Camden Town.</p>
-
-<p>At half-past two the lady was announced,&mdash;Miss de Montmorenci; and our
-editor, with palpitating heart, rose to welcome the very figure, the
-very same pretty walking-dress, the same little blue parasol, which he
-had seen upon the steps of the house in King-Charles Street. He could
-swear to the figure, and to the very step, although he could not as yet
-see the veiled face. And this was a joy to him; for, though he had not
-allowed himself to doubt much, he had doubted a little whether that
-graceful houri might or might not be his Josephine. Now she was there,
-present to him in his own castle, at his mercy as it were, so that he
-might dry her tears and bid her hope, or tell her that there was no hope
-so that she might still weep on, just as he pleased. It was not one of
-those cases in which want of bread and utter poverty are to be
-discussed. A horsekeeper’s bill and a visit to Dieppe were the
-melodramatic incidents of the tragedy, if tragedy<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_121" id="page_121"></a></span> it must be. Mr. Brown
-had in his time dealt with cases in which a starving mother or a dying
-father was the motive to which appeal was made. At worst there could be
-no more than a rose-water catastrophe; and it might be that triumph, and
-gratitude, and smiles would come. He rose from his chair, and, giving
-his hand gracefully to his visitor, led her to a seat.</p>
-
-<p>“I am very glad to see you here, Miss de Montmorenci,” he said. Then the
-veil was raised, and there was the pretty face half blushing half
-smiling, wearing over all a mingled look of fun and fear.</p>
-
-<p>“We are so much obliged to you, Mr. Brown, for all the trouble you have
-taken,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t mention it. It comes in the way of my business to take such
-trouble. The annoyance is in this, that I can so seldom do what is
-wanted.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is so good of you to do anything!”</p>
-
-<p>“An editor is, of course, bound to think first of the periodical which
-he produces.” This announcement Mr. Brown made, no doubt, with some
-little air of assumed personal dignity. The fact was one which no
-heaven-born editor ever forgets.</p>
-
-<p>“Of course, Sir. And no doubt there are hundreds who want to get their
-things taken.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_122" id="page_122"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“A good many there are, certainly.”</p>
-
-<p>“And everything can’t be published,” said the sagacious beauty.</p>
-
-<p>“No, indeed; very much comes into our hands which cannot be published,”
-replied the experienced editor. “But this novel of yours, perhaps, may
-be published.”</p>
-
-<p>“You think so?”</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed I do. I cannot say what X., Y., and Z. may say to it. I’m afraid
-they will not do more than offer half profits.”</p>
-
-<p>“And that doesn’t mean any money paid at once?” asked the lady
-plaintively.</p>
-
-<p>“I’m afraid not.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! if that could be managed!”</p>
-
-<p>“I haven’t seen the publishers, and of course I can say nothing myself.
-You see I’m so busy myself with my uncles, and aunts, and grandmothers,
-and lady-loves&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah,&mdash;that was very naughty, Mr. Brown.”</p>
-
-<p>“And then, you know, I have so many yards of stupid stuff to arrange.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Mr. Brown, you should forget all that!”</p>
-
-<p>“So I will. I could not resist the temptation of telling you of it
-again, because you are so much mistaken in your accusation. And now
-about your novel.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_123" id="page_123"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“It isn’t mine, you know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not yours?”</p>
-
-<p>“Not my own, Mr. Brown.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then whose is it?”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Brown, as he asked this question, felt that he had a right to be
-offended. “Are you not Josephine de Montmorenci?”</p>
-
-<p>“Me an author! Oh no, Mr. Brown,” said the pretty little woman. And our
-editor almost thought that he could see a smile on her lips as she
-spoke.</p>
-
-<p>“Then who are you?” asked Mr. Brown.</p>
-
-<p>“I am her sister;&mdash;or rather her sister-in-law. My name is Mrs. Puffle.”
-How could Mrs. Puffle be the sister-in-law of Miss de Montmorenci? Some
-such thought as this passed through the editor’s mind, but it was not
-followed out to any conclusion. Relationships are complex things, and,
-as we all know, give rise to most intricate questions. In the
-half-moment that was allowed to him Mr. Brown reflected that Mrs. Puffle
-might be the sister-in-law of a Miss de Montmorenci; or, at least, half
-sister-in-law. It was even possible that Mrs. Puffle, young as she
-looked, might have been previously married to a de Montmorenci. Of all
-that, however, he would not now stop to unravel the details, but
-endeavoured as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_124" id="page_124"></a></span> he went on to take some comfort from the fact that
-Puffle was no doubt Charles. Josephine might perhaps have no Charles.
-And then it became evident to him that the little fair, smiling, dimpled
-thing before him could hardly have written “Not so Black as he’s
-Painted,” with all its metaphysics. Josephine must be made of sterner
-stuff. And, after all, for an adventure, little dimples and a blue
-parasol are hardly appropriate. There should be more of stature than
-Mrs. Puffle possessed, with dark hair, and piercing eyes. The colour of
-the dress should be black, with perhaps yellow trimmings; and the hand
-should not be of pearly whiteness,&mdash;as Mrs. Puffle’s no doubt was,
-though the well-fitting little glove gave no absolute information on
-this subject. For such an adventure the appropriate colour of the skin
-would be,&mdash;we will not say sallow exactly,&mdash;but running a little that
-way. The beauty should be just toned by sadness; and the blood, as it
-comes and goes, should show itself, not in blushes, but in the mellow,
-changing lines of the brunette. All this Mr. Brown understood very well.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh,&mdash;you are Mrs. Puffle,” said Brown, after a short but perhaps
-insufficient pause. “You are Charles Puffle’s wife?”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you know Charles?” asked the lady, putting up<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_125" id="page_125"></a></span> both her little
-hands. “We don’t want him to hear anything about this. You haven’t told
-him?”</p>
-
-<p>“I’ve told him nothing as yet,” said Mr. Brown.</p>
-
-<p>“Pray don’t. It’s a secret. Of course he’ll know it some day. Oh, Mr.
-Brown, you won’t betray us. How very odd that you should know Charles!”</p>
-
-<p>“Does he smoke as much as ever, Mrs. Puffle?”</p>
-
-<p>“How very odd that he never should have mentioned it! Is it at his
-office that you see him?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, no; not at his office. How is it that he manages to get away on
-an afternoon as he does?”</p>
-
-<p>“It’s very seldom,&mdash;only two or three times in a month,&mdash;when he really
-has a headache from sitting at his work. Dear me, how odd! I thought he
-told me everything, and he never mentioned your name.”</p>
-
-<p>“You needn’t mention mine, Mrs. Puffle, and the secret shall be kept.
-But you haven’t told me about the smoking. Is he as inveterate as ever?”</p>
-
-<p>“Of course he smokes. They all smoke. I suppose then he used always to
-be doing it before he married. I don’t think men ever tell the real
-truth about things, though girls always tell everything.”</p>
-
-<p>“And now about your sister’s novel?” asked Mr.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_126" id="page_126"></a></span> Brown, who felt that he
-had mystified the little woman sufficiently about her husband.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, yes. She does want to get some money so badly! And it is
-clever;&mdash;isn’t it? I don’t think I ever read anything cleverer. Isn’t it
-enough to take your breath away when Orlando defends himself before the
-lords?” This referred to a very high flown passage which Mr. Brown had
-determined to cut out when he was thinking of printing the story for the
-pages of the “Olympus.” “And she will be so broken-hearted! I hope you
-are not angry with her because she wrote in that way.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not in the least. I liked her letters. She wrote what she really
-thought.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is so good of you! I told her that I was sure you were
-good-natured, because you answered so civilly. It was a kind of
-experiment of hers, you know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh,&mdash;an experiment!”</p>
-
-<p>“It is so hard to get at people. Isn’t it? If she’d just written, ‘Dear
-Sir, I send you a manuscript,’&mdash;you never would have looked at
-it:&mdash;would you?”</p>
-
-<p>“We read everything, Mrs. Puffle.”</p>
-
-<p>“But the turn for all the things comes so slowly; doesn’t it? So Polly
-thought&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_127" id="page_127"></a></span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Polly,&mdash;what did Polly think?”</p>
-
-<p>“I mean Josephine. We call her Polly just as a nickname. She was so
-anxious to get you to read it at once! And now what must we do?” Mr.
-Brown sat silent awhile, thinking. Why did they call Josephine de
-Montmorenci Polly? But there was the fact of the MS., let the name of
-the author be what it might. On one thing he was determined. He would
-take no steps till he had himself seen the lady who wrote the novel.
-“You’ll go to the gentlemen in Paternoster Row immediately; won’t you?”
-asked Mrs. Puffle, with a pretty little beseeching look which it was
-very hard to resist.</p>
-
-<p>“I think I must ask to see the authoress first,” said Mr. Brown.</p>
-
-<p>“Won’t I do?” asked Mrs. Puffle. “Josephine is so particular. I mean she
-dislikes so very much to talk about her own writings and her own works.”
-Mr. Brown thought of the tenor of the letters which he had received, and
-found that he could not reconcile with it this character which was given
-to him of Miss de Montmorenci. “She has an idea,” continued Mrs. Puffle,
-“that genius should not show itself publicly. Of course, she does not
-say that herself. And she does not think herself to be a genius;&mdash;though
-I think it. And she is a genius. There<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_128" id="page_128"></a></span> are things in ‘Not so Black as
-he’s Painted’ which nobody but Polly could have written.”</p>
-
-<p>Nevertheless Mr. Brown was firm. He explained that he could not possibly
-treat with Messrs. X., Y., and Z.,&mdash;if any treating should become
-possible,&mdash;without direct authority from the principal. He must have
-from Miss de Montmorenci’s mouth what might be the arrangements to which
-she would accede. If this could not be done he must wash his hands of
-the affair. He did not doubt, he said, but that Miss de Montmorenci
-might do quite as well with the publishers by herself, as she could with
-any aid from him. Perhaps it would be better that she should see Mr. X.
-herself. But if he, Brown, was to be honoured by any delegated
-authority, he must see the author. In saying this he implied that he had
-not the slightest desire to interfere further, and that he had no wish
-to press himself on the lady. Mrs. Puffle, with just a tear, and then a
-smile, and then a little coaxing twist of her lips, assured him that
-their only hope was in him. She would carry his message to Josephine,
-and he should have a further letter from that lady. “And you won’t tell
-Charles that I have been here,” said Mrs. Puffle as she took her leave.</p>
-
-<p>“Certainly not. I won’t say a word of it.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_129" id="page_129"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“It is so odd that you should have known him.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t let him smoke too much, Mrs. Puffle.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t intend. I’ve brought him down to one cigar and a pipe a
-day,&mdash;unless he smokes at the office.”</p>
-
-<p>“They all do that;&mdash;nearly the whole day.”</p>
-
-<p>“What; at the Post Office!”</p>
-
-<p>“That’s why I mention it. I don’t think they’re allowed at any of the
-other offices, but they do what they please there. I shall keep the MS.
-till I hear from Josephine herself.” Then Mrs. Puffle took her leave
-with many thanks, and a grateful pressure from her pretty little hand.</p>
-
-<p>Two days after this there came the promised letter from Josephine.</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p>“<span class="smcap">Dear Mr. Brown</span>,</p>
-
-<p>“I cannot understand why you should not go to X., Y., and Z.
-without seeing me. I hardly ever see anybody; but, of course, you
-must come if you will. I got my sister to go because she is so
-gentle and nice, that I thought she could persuade anybody to do
-anything. She says that you know Mr. Puffle quite well, which seems
-to be so very odd. He doesn’t know that I ever write a word, and I
-didn’t think he had an acquaintance<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_130" id="page_130"></a></span> in the world whom I don’t know
-the name of. You’re quite wrong about one thing. They never smoke
-at the Post Office, and they wouldn’t be let to do it. If you
-choose to come, you must. I shall be at home any time on Friday
-morning,&mdash;that is, after half-past nine, when Charles goes away.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-<span style="margin-right:20%;">“Yours truly,</span><br />
-
-“<span class="smcap">J. de M.</span><br />
-</p></div>
-
-<p>“We began to talk about editors after dinner, just for fun; and Charles
-said that he didn’t know that he had ever seen one. Of course we didn’t
-say anything about the ‘Olympus;’ but I don’t know why he should be so
-mysterious.” Then there was a second postscript, written down in a
-corner of the sheet of paper. “I know you’ll be sorry you came.”</p>
-
-<p>&nbsp;</p>
-
-<p>Our editor was now quite determined that he would see the adventure to
-an end. He had at first thought that Josephine was keeping herself in
-the background merely that she might enhance the favour of a personal
-meeting when that favour should be accorded. A pretty woman believing
-herself to be a genius, and thinking that good things should ever be
-made scarce, might not <span class="pagenum"><a name="page_131" id="page_131"></a></span>improbably fall into such a foible. But now he
-was convinced that she would prefer to keep herself unseen if her doing
-so might be made compatible with her great object. Mr. Brown was not a
-man to intrude himself unnecessarily upon any woman unwilling to receive
-him; but in this case it was, so he thought, his duty to persevere. So
-he wrote a pretty little note to Miss Josephine saying that he would be
-with her at eleven o’clock on the day named.</p>
-
-<p>Precisely at eleven o’clock he knocked at the door of the house in
-King-Charles Street, which was almost instantaneously opened for him by
-the fair hands of Mrs. Puffle herself. “H&mdash;sh,” said Mrs. Puffle; “we
-don’t want the servants to know anything about it.” Mr. Brown, who cared
-nothing for the servants of the Puffle establishment, and who was
-becoming perhaps a little weary of the unravelled mystery of the affair,
-simply bowed and followed the lady into the parlour. “My sister is up
-stairs,” said Mrs. Puffle, “and we will go to her immediately.” Then she
-paused, as though she were still struggling with some difficulty;&mdash;“I am
-so sorry to say that Polly is not well.&mdash;But she means to see you,” Mrs.
-Puffle added, as she saw that the editor, over whom they had so far
-prevailed, made some sign as though he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_132" id="page_132"></a></span> was about to retreat. “She never
-is very well,” said Mrs. Puffle, “and her work does tell upon her so
-much. Do you know, Mr. Brown, I think the mind sometimes eats up the
-body; that is, when it is called upon for such great efforts.” They were
-now upon the stairs, and Mr. Brown followed the little lady into her
-drawing-room.</p>
-
-<p>There, almost hidden in the depths of a low arm-chair, sat a little
-wizened woman, not old indeed,&mdash;when Mr. Brown came to know her better,
-he found that she had as yet only counted five-and-twenty summers,&mdash;but
-with that look of mingled youth and age which is so painful to the
-beholder. Who has not seen it,&mdash;the face in which the eye and the brow
-are young and bright, but the mouth and the chin are old and haggard?
-See such a one when she sleeps,&mdash;when the brightness of the eye is
-hidden, and all the countenance is full of pain and decay, and then the
-difference will be known to you between youth with that health which is
-generally given to it, and youth accompanied by premature decrepitude.
-“This is my sister-in-law,” said Mrs. Puffle, introducing the two
-correspondents to each other. The editor looked at the little woman who
-made some half attempt to rise, and thought that he could see in the
-brightness of the eye some symptoms of the sauciness which had appeared
-so<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_133" id="page_133"></a></span> very plainly in her letters. And there was a smile too about the
-mouth, though the lips were thin and the chin poor, which seemed to
-indicate that the owner of them did in some sort enjoy this unravelling
-of her riddle,&mdash;as though she were saying to herself, “What do you think
-now of the beautiful young woman who has made you write so many letters,
-and read so long a manuscript, and come all the way at this hour of the
-morning to Camden Town?” Mr. Brown shook hands with her, and muttered
-something to the effect that he was sorry not to see her in better
-health.</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Josephine de Montmorenci, “I am not very well. I never am. I
-told you that you had better put up with seeing my sister.”</p>
-
-<p>We say no more than the truth of Mr. Brown in declaring that he was now
-more ready than ever to do whatever might be in his power to forward the
-views of this young authoress. If he was interested before when he
-believed her to be beautiful, he was doubly interested for her now when
-he knew her to be a cripple;&mdash;for he had seen when she made that faint
-attempt to rise that her spine was twisted, and that, when she stood up,
-her head sank between her shoulders. “I am very glad to make your
-acquaintance,” he said, seating himself near<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_134" id="page_134"></a></span> her. “I should never have
-been satisfied without doing so.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is so very good of you to come,” said Mrs. Puffle.</p>
-
-<p>“Of course it is good of him,” said Josephine; “especially after the way
-we wrote to him. The truth is, Mr. Brown, we were at our wits’ end to
-catch you.”</p>
-
-<p>This was an aspect of the affair which our editor certainly did not
-like. An attempt to deceive anybody else might have been pardonable; but
-deceit practised against himself was odious to him. Nevertheless, he did
-forgive it. The poor little creature before him had worked hard, and had
-done her best. To teach her to be less metaphysical in her writings, and
-more straightforward in her own practices, should be his care. There is
-something to a man inexpressibly sweet in the power of protecting the
-weak; and no one had ever seemed to be weaker than Josephine. “Miss de
-Montmorenci,” he said, “we will let bygones be bygones, and will say
-nothing about the letters. It is no doubt the fact that you did write
-the novel yourself?”</p>
-
-<p>“Every word of it,” said Mrs. Puffle energetically.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes; I wrote it,” said Josephine.</p>
-
-<p>“And you wish to have it published?”</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed I do.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_135" id="page_135"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“And you wish to get money for it?”</p>
-
-<p>“That is the truest of all,” said Josephine.</p>
-
-<p>“Oughtn’t one to be paid when one has worked so very hard?” said Mrs.
-Puffle.</p>
-
-<p>“Certainly one ought to be paid if it can be proved that one’s work is
-worth buying,” replied the sage mentor of literature.</p>
-
-<p>“But isn’t it worth buying?” demanded Mrs. Puffle.</p>
-
-<p>“I must say that I think that publishers do buy some that are worse,”
-observed Josephine.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Brown with words of wisdom explained to them as well as he was able
-the real facts of the case. It might be that that manuscript, over which
-the poor invalid had laboured for so many painful hours, would prove to
-be an invaluable treasure of art, destined to give delight to thousands
-of readers, and to be, when printed, a source of large profits to
-publishers, booksellers, and author. Or, again, it might be that, with
-all its undoubted merits,&mdash;and that there were such merits Mr. Brown was
-eager in acknowledging,&mdash;the novel would fail to make any way with the
-public. “A publisher,”&mdash;so said Mr. Brown,&mdash;“will hardly venture to pay
-you a sum of money down, when the risk of failure is so great.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_136" id="page_136"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“But Polly has written ever so many things before,” said Mrs. Puffle.</p>
-
-<p>“That counts for nothing,” said Miss de Montmorenci. “They were short
-pieces, and appeared without a name.”</p>
-
-<p>“Were you paid for them?” asked Mr. Brown.</p>
-
-<p>“I have never been paid a halfpenny for anything yet.”</p>
-
-<p>“Isn’t that cruel,” said Mrs. Puffle, “to work, and work, and work, and
-never get the wages which ought to be paid for it?”</p>
-
-<p>“Perhaps there may be a good time coming,” said our editor. “Let us see
-whether we can get Messrs. X., Y., and Z. to publish this at their own
-expense, and with your name attached to it. Then, Miss de
-Montmorenci&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose we had better tell him all,” said Josephine.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes; tell everything. I am sure he won’t be angry; he is so
-good-natured,” said Mrs. Puffle.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Brown looked first at one, and then at the other, feeling himself to
-be rather uncomfortable. What was there that remained to be told? He was
-good-natured, but he did not like being told of that virtue. “The name
-you have heard is not my name,” said the lady who had written the
-novel.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_137" id="page_137"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Oh, indeed! I have heard Mrs. Puffle call you,&mdash;Polly.”</p>
-
-<p>“My name is,&mdash;Maryanne.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is a very good name,” said Mr. Brown,&mdash;“so good that I cannot quite
-understand why you should go out of your way to assume another.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is Maryanne,&mdash;Puffle.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh;&mdash;Puffle!” said Mr. Brown.</p>
-
-<p>“And a very good name, too,” said Mrs. Puffle.</p>
-
-<p>“I haven’t a word to say against it,” said Mr. Brown. “I wish I could
-say quite as much as to that other name,&mdash;Josephine de Montmorenci.”</p>
-
-<p>“But Maryanne Puffle would be quite unendurable on a title-page,” said
-the owner of the unfortunate appellation.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t see it,” said Mr. Brown doggedly.</p>
-
-<p>“Ever so many have done the same,” said Mrs. Puffle. “There’s Boz.”</p>
-
-<p>“Calling yourself Boz isn’t like calling yourself Josephine de
-Montmorenci,” said the editor, who could forgive the loss of beauty, but
-not the assumed grandeur of the name.</p>
-
-<p>“And Currer Bell, and Jacob Omnium, and Barry Cornwall,” said poor Polly
-Puffle, pleading hard for her falsehood.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_138" id="page_138"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“And Michael Angelo Titmarsh! That was quite the same sort of thing,”
-said Mrs. Puffle.</p>
-
-<p>Our editor tried to explain to them that the sin of which he now
-complained did not consist in the intention,&mdash;foolish as that had
-been,&mdash;of putting such a name as Josephine de Montmorenci on the
-title-page, but in having corresponded with him,&mdash;with him who had been
-so willing to be a friend,&mdash;under a false name. “I really think you
-ought to have told me sooner,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“If we had known you had been a friend of Charles’s we would have told
-you at once,” said the young wife.</p>
-
-<p>“I never had the pleasure of speaking to Mr. Puffle in my life,” said
-Mr. Brown. Mrs. Puffle opened her little mouth, and held up both her
-little hands. Polly Puffle stared at her sister-in-law. “And what is
-more,” continued Mr. Brown, “I never said that I had had that pleasure.”</p>
-
-<p>“You didn’t tell me that Charles smoked at the Post Office,” exclaimed
-Mrs. Puffle,&mdash;“which he swears that he never does, and that he would be
-dismissed at once if he attempted it?” Mr. Brown was driven to a smile.
-“I declare I don’t understand you, Mr. Brown.”</p>
-
-<p>“It was his little Roland for our little Oliver,” said Miss Puffle.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_139" id="page_139"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>Mr. Brown felt that his Roland had been very small, whereas the Oliver
-by which he had been taken in was not small at all. But he was forced to
-accept the bargain. What is a man against a woman in such a matter? What
-can he be against two women, both young, of whom one was pretty and the
-other an invalid? Of course he gave way, and of course he undertook the
-mission to X., Y., and Z. We have not ourselves read “Not so Black as
-he’s Painted,” but we can say that it came out in due course under the
-hands of those enterprising publishers, and that it made what many of
-the reviews called quite a success.</p>
-
-<div class="figcenter">
-<img src="images/ill_139.jpg" width="250" height="61" alt="" title="" />
-</div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_140" id="page_140"></a></span></p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_141" id="page_141"></a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="THE_PANJANDRUM" id="THE_PANJANDRUM"></a>THE PANJANDRUM.</h2>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_142" id="page_142"></a></span></p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_143" id="page_143"></a></span></p>
-
-<p class="c"><img src="images/panjandrum.jpg"
-alt="[text decoration unavailable.]"
-/>
-</p>
-
-<h2>THE PANJANDRUM.</h2>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap"><a name="Part_I_Hope" id="Part_I_Hope"></a>Part I.&mdash;Hope.</span></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">W</span>E hardly feel certain that we are justified in giving the following
-little story to the public as an Editor’s Tale, because at the time to
-which it refers, and during the circumstances with which it deals, no
-editorial power was, in fact, within our grasp. As the reader will
-perceive, the ambition and the hopes, and something of a promise of the
-privileges, were there; but the absolute chair was not mounted for us.
-The great WE was not, in truth, ours to use. And, indeed, the interval
-between the thing we then so cordially desired, and the thing as it has
-since come to exist, was one of so many years, that there can be no
-right on our part to connect the two periods. We shall, therefore, tell
-our story, as might any ordinary individual, in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_144" id="page_144"></a></span> first person
-singular, and speak of such sparks of editorship as did fly up around us
-as having created but a dim coruscation, and as having been quite
-insufficient to justify the delicious plural.</p>
-
-<p>&nbsp;</p>
-
-<p>It is now just thirty years ago since we determined to establish the
-“Panjandrum” Magazine. The “we” here spoken of is not an editorial we,
-but a small set of human beings who shall be personally introduced to
-the reader. The name was intended to be delightfully meaningless, but we
-all thought that it was euphonious, graphic, also,&mdash;and sententious,
-even though it conveyed no definite idea. That question of a name had
-occupied us a good deal, and had almost split us into parties. I,&mdash;for I
-will now speak of myself as I,&mdash;I had wished to call it by the name of a
-very respectable young publisher who was then commencing business, and
-by whom we intended that the trade part of our enterprise should be
-undertaken. “Colburn’s” was an old affair in those days, and I doubt
-whether “Bentley’s” was not already in existence. “Blackwood’s” and
-“Fraser’s” were at the top of the tree, and, as I think, the
-“Metropolitan” was the only magazine then in much vogue not called by
-the name of this or that enterprising publisher. But<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_145" id="page_145"></a></span> some of our
-colleagues would not hear of this, and were ambitious of a title that
-should describe our future energies and excellences. I think we should
-have been called the “Pandrastic,” but that the one lady who joined our
-party absolutely declined the name. At one moment we had almost carried
-“Panurge.” The “Man’s” Magazine was thought of, not as opposed to
-womanhood, but as intended to trump the “Gentleman’s.” But a hint was
-given to us that we might seem to imply that our periodical was not
-adapted for the perusal of females. We meant the word “man” in the great
-generic sense;&mdash;but the somewhat obtuse outside world would not have so
-taken it. “The H. B. P.” was for a time in the ascendant, and was
-favoured by the lady, who drew for us a most delightful little circle
-containing the letters illustrated;&mdash;what would now be called a
-monogram, only that the letters were legible. The fact that nobody would
-comprehend that “H. B. P.” intended to express the general opinion of
-the shareholders that “Honesty is the Best Policy,” was felt to be a
-recommendation rather than otherwise. I think it was the enterprising
-young publisher who objected to the initials,&mdash;not, I am sure, from any
-aversion to the spirit of the legend. Many other names were tried, and I
-shall<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_146" id="page_146"></a></span> never forget the look which went round our circle when one young
-and gallant, but too indiscreet reformer, suggested that were it not for
-offence, whence offence should not come, the “Purge” was the very name
-for us;&mdash;from all which it will be understood that it was our purpose to
-put right many things that were wrong. The matter held us in discussion
-for some months, and then we agreed to call the great future lever of
-the age,&mdash;the “Panjandrum.”</p>
-
-<p>When a new magazine is about to be established in these days, the first
-question raised will probably be one of capital. A very considerable sum
-of money, running far into four figures,&mdash;if not going beyond it,&mdash;has
-to be mentioned, and made familiar to the ambitious promoters of the
-enterprise. It was not so with us. Nor was it the case that our young
-friend the publisher agreed to find the money, leaving it to us to find
-the wit. I think we selected our young friend chiefly because, at that
-time, he had no great business to speak of, and could devote his time to
-the interests of the “Panjandrum.” As for ourselves we were all poor;
-and in the way of capital a set of human beings more absurdly
-inefficient for any purposes of trade could not have been brought
-together. We found that for a sum of money which we hoped that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_147" id="page_147"></a></span> we might
-scrape together among us, we could procure paper and print for a couple
-of thousand copies of our first number;&mdash;and, after that, we were to
-obtain credit for the second number by the reputation of the first.
-Literary advertising, such as is now common to us, was then unknown. The
-cost of sticking up “The Panjandrum” at railway stations and on the tops
-of the omnibuses, certainly would not be incurred. Of railway stations
-there were but few in the country, and even omnibuses were in their
-infancy. A few modest announcements in the weekly periodicals of the day
-were thought to be sufficient; and, indeed, there pervaded us all an
-assurance that the coming of the “Panjandrum” would be known to all men,
-even before it had come. I doubt whether our desire was not concealment
-rather than publicity. We measured the importance of the “Panjandrum” by
-its significance to ourselves, and by the amount of heart which we
-intended to throw into it. Ladies and gentlemen who get up magazines in
-the present day are wiser. It is not heart that is wanted, but very big
-letters on very big boards, and plenty of them.</p>
-
-<p>We were all heart. It must be admitted now that we did not bestow upon
-the matter of literary excellence<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_148" id="page_148"></a></span> quite so much attention as that
-branch of the subject deserves. We were to write and edit our magazine
-and have it published, not because we were good at writing or editing,
-but because we had ideas which we wished to promulgate. Or it might be
-the case with some of us that we only thought that we had ideas. But
-there was certainly present to us all a great wish to do some good.
-That, and a not altogether unwholesome appetite for a reputation which
-should not be personal, were our great motives. I do not think that we
-dreamed of making fortunes; though no doubt there might be present to
-the mind of each of us an idea that an opening to the profession of
-literature might be obtained through the pages of the “Panjandrum.” In
-that matter of reputation we were quite agreed that fame was to be
-sought, not for ourselves, nor for this or that name, but for the
-“Panjandrum.” No man or woman was to declare himself to be the author of
-this or that article;&mdash;nor indeed was any man or woman to declare
-himself to be connected with a magazine. The only name to be known to a
-curious public was that of the young publisher. All intercourse between
-the writers and the printers was to be through him. If contributions
-should come from the outside world,&mdash;as come they would,&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_149" id="page_149"></a></span>they were to
-be addressed to the Editor of the “Panjandrum,” at the publisher’s
-establishment. It was within the scope of our plan to use any such
-contribution that might please us altogether; but the contents of the
-magazine were, as a rule, to come from ourselves. A magazine then, as
-now, was expected to extend itself through something over a hundred and
-twenty pages; but we had no fear as to our capacity for producing the
-required amount. We feared rather that we might jostle each other in our
-requirements for space.</p>
-
-<p>We were six, and, young as I was then, I was to be the editor. But to
-the functions of the editor was to be attached very little editorial
-responsibility. What should and what should not appear in each monthly
-number was to be settled in conclave. Upon one point, however, we were
-fully agreed,&mdash;that no personal jealousy should ever arise among us so
-as to cause quarrel or even embarrassment. As I had already written some
-few slight papers for the press, it was considered probable that I might
-be able to correct proofs, and do the fitting and dovetailing. My
-editing was not to go beyond that. If by reason of parity of numbers in
-voting there should arise a difficulty, the lady was to have a double
-vote. Anything more noble, more chivalrous, more trusting, or, I may
-add,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_150" id="page_150"></a></span> more philanthropic than our scheme never was invented; and for the
-persons, I will say that they were noble, chivalrous, trusting, and
-philanthropic;&mdash;only they were so young!</p>
-
-<p>Place aux dames. We will speak of the lady first,&mdash;more especially as
-our meetings were held at her house. I fear that I may, at the very
-outset of our enterprise, turn the hearts of my readers against her by
-saying that Mrs. St. Quinten was separated from her husband. I must,
-however, beg them to believe that this separation had been occasioned by
-no moral fault or odious misconduct on her part. I will confess that I
-did at that time believe that Mr. St. Quinten was an ogre, and that I
-have since learned to think that he simply laboured under a strong and,
-perhaps, monomaniacal objection to literary pursuits. As Mrs. St.
-Quinten was devoted to them, harmony was impossible, and the marriage
-was unfortunate. She was young, being perhaps about thirty; but I think
-that she was the eldest amongst us. She was good-looking, with an ample
-brow, and bright eyes, and large clever mouth; but no woman living was
-ever further removed from any propensity to flirtation. There resided
-with her a certain Miss Collins, an elderly, silent lady, who was
-present at all our meetings, and who was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_151" id="page_151"></a></span> considered to be pledged to
-secrecy. Once a week we met and drank tea at Mrs. St. Quinten’s house.
-It may be as well to explain that Mrs. St. Quinten really had an
-available income, which was a condition of life unlike that of her
-colleagues,&mdash;unless as regarded one, who was a fellow of an Oxford
-college. She could certainly afford to give us tea and muffins once a
-week;&mdash;but, in spite of our general impecuniosity, the expense of
-commencing the magazine was to be borne equally by us all. I can assure
-the reader, with reference to more than one of the members, that they
-occasionally dined on bread and cheese, abstaining from meat and pudding
-with the view of collecting the sum necessary for the great day.</p>
-
-<p>The idea had originated, I think, between Mrs. St. Quinten and Churchill
-Smith. Churchill Smith was a man with whom, I must own, I never felt
-that perfect sympathy which bound me to the others. Perhaps among us all
-he was the most gifted. Such at least was the opinion of Mrs. St.
-Quinten and, perhaps, of himself. He was a cousin of the lady’s, and had
-made himself particularly objectionable to the husband by instigating
-his relative to write philosophical essays. It was his own speciality to
-be an unbeliever and a German scholar; and we gave him credit for being
-so deep in both arts that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_152" id="page_152"></a></span> no man could go deeper. It had, however, been
-decided among us very early in our arrangements,&mdash;and so decided, not
-without great chance of absolute disruption,&mdash;that his infidelity was
-not to bias the magazine. He was to take the line of deep thinking,
-German poetry, and unintelligible speculation generally. He used to talk
-of Comte, whose name I had never heard till it fell from his lips, and
-was prepared to prove that Coleridge was very shallow. He was generally
-dirty, unshorn, and, as I thought, disagreeable. He called Mrs. St.
-Quinten Lydia, because of his cousinship, and no one knew how or where
-he lived. I believe him to have been a most unselfish, abstemious
-man,&mdash;one able to control all appetites of the flesh. I think that I
-have since heard that he perished in a Russian prison.</p>
-
-<p>My dearest friend among the number was Patrick Regan, a young Irish
-barrister, who intended to shine at the English Bar. I think the world
-would have used him better had his name been John Tomkins. The history
-of his career shows very plainly that the undoubted brilliance of his
-intellect, and his irrepressible personal humour and good-humour have
-been always unfairly weighted by those Irish names. What attorney, with
-any serious matter in hand, would willingly go to a barrister<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_153" id="page_153"></a></span> who
-called himself Pat Regan? And then, too, there always remained with him
-just a hint of a brogue,&mdash;and his nose was flat in the middle! I do not
-believe that all the Irishmen with flattened noses have had the bone of
-the feature broken by a crushing blow in a street row; and yet they
-certainly look as though that peculiar appearance had been the result of
-a fight with sticks. Pat has told me a score of times that he was born
-so, and I believe him. He had a most happy knack of writing verses,
-which I used to think quite equal to Mr. Barham’s, and he could rival
-the droll Latinity of Father Prout who was coming out at that time with
-his “Dulcis Julia Callage,” and the like. Pat’s father was an attorney
-at Cork; but not prospering, I think, for poor Pat was always short of
-money. He had, however, paid the fees, and was entitled to appear in wig
-and gown wherever common-law barristers do congregate. He is
-Attorney-General at one of the Turtle Islands this moment, with a salary
-of £400 a year. I hear from him occasionally, and the other day he sent
-me “Captain Crosbie is my name,” done into endecasyllabics. I doubt,
-however, whether he ever made a penny by writing for the press. I cannot
-say that Pat was our strongest prop. He sometimes laughed at
-“Lydia,”&mdash;and then I was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_154" id="page_154"></a></span> brought into disgrace, as having introduced
-him to the company.</p>
-
-<p>Jack Hallam, the next I will name, was also intended for the Bar: but, I
-think, never was called. Of all the men I have encountered in life he
-was certainly the most impecunious. Now he is a millionaire. He was one
-as to whom all who knew him,&mdash;friends and foes alike,&mdash;were decided that
-under no circumstances would he ever work, or by any possibility earn a
-penny. Since then he has applied himself to various branches of
-commerce, first at New York and then at San Francisco; he has laboured
-for twenty-four years almost without a holiday, and has shown a
-capability for sustaining toil which few men have equalled. He had been
-introduced to our set by Walter Watt, of whom I will speak just now; and
-certainly when I remember the brightness of his wit and the flow of his
-words, and his energy when he was earnest, I am bound to acknowledge
-that in searching for sheer intellect,&mdash;for what I may call power,&mdash;we
-did not do wrong to enrol Jack Hallam. He had various crude ideas in his
-head of what he would do for us,&mdash;having a leaning always to the side of
-bitter mirth. I think he fancied that satire might be his forte. As it
-is, they say that no man living has a quicker eye to the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_155" id="page_155"></a></span> erection of a
-block of buildings in a coming city. He made a fortune at Chicago, and
-is said to have erected Omaha out of his own pocket. I am told that he
-pays income-tax in the United States on nearly a million dollars per
-annum. I wonder whether he would lend me five pounds if I asked him? I
-never knew a man so free as Jack at borrowing half-a-crown or a clean
-pocket-handkerchief.</p>
-
-<p>Walter Watt was a fellow of &mdash;&mdash;. &mdash;&mdash; I believe has fellows who do not
-take orders. It must have had one such in those days, for nothing could
-have induced our friend, Walter Watt, to go into the Church. How it came
-to pass that the dons of a college at Oxford should have made a fellow
-of so wild a creature was always a mystery to us. I have since been told
-that at &mdash;&mdash; the reward could hardly be refused to a man who had gone
-out a “first” in classics and had got the “Newdegate.” Such had been the
-career of young Watt. And, though I say that he was wild, his moral
-conduct was not bad. He simply objected on principle to all authority,
-and was of opinion that the goods of the world should be in common. I
-must say of him that in regard to one individual his practice went even
-beyond his preaching; for Jack Hallam certainly consumed more of the
-fellowship than<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_156" id="page_156"></a></span> did Walter Watt himself. Jack was dark and swarthy.
-Walter was a fair little man, with long hair falling on the sides of his
-face, and cut away over his forehead,&mdash;as one sees it sometimes cut in a
-picture. He had round blue eyes, a well-formed nose, and handsome mouth
-and chin. He was very far gone in his ideas of reform, and was quite in
-earnest in his hope that by means of the “Panjandrum” something might be
-done to stay the general wickedness,&mdash;or rather ugliness of the world.
-At that time Carlyle was becoming prominent as a thinker and writer
-among us, and Watt was never tired of talking to us of the hero of
-“Sartor Resartus.” He was an excellent and most unselfish man,&mdash;whose
-chief fault was an inclination for the making of speeches, which he had
-picked up at an Oxford debating society. He now lies buried at Kensal
-Green. I thought to myself, when I saw another literary friend laid
-there some eight years since, that the place had become very quickly
-populated since I and Regan had seen poor Watt placed in his last home,
-almost amidst a desert.</p>
-
-<p>Of myself, I need only say that at that time I was very young, very
-green, and very ardent as a politician. The Whigs were still in office;
-but we, who were young then, and warm in our political convictions,
-thought that the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_157" id="page_157"></a></span> Whigs were doing nothing for us. It must be remembered
-that things and ideas have advanced so quickly during the last thirty
-years, that the Conservatism of 1870 goes infinitely further in the
-cause of general reform than did the Radicalism of 1840. I was regarded
-as a Democrat because I was loud against the Corn Laws; and was accused
-of infidelity when I spoke against the Irish Church Endowments. I take
-some pride to myself that I should have seen these evils to be evils
-even thirty years ago. But to Household Suffrage I doubt whether even my
-spirit had ascended. If I remember rightly I was great upon annual
-parliaments; but I know that I was discriminative, and did not accept
-all the points of the seven-starred charter. I had an idea in those
-days,&mdash;I can confess it now after thirty years,&mdash;that I might be able to
-indite short political essays which should be terse, argumentative, and
-convincing, and at the same time full of wit and frolic. I never quite
-succeeded in pleasing even myself in any such composition. At this time
-I did a little humble work for the &mdash;&mdash;, but was quite resolved to fly
-at higher game than that.</p>
-
-<p>As I began with the lady, so I must end with her. I had seen and read
-sheaves of her MS., and must express my conviction at this day, when all
-illusions are gone,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_158" id="page_158"></a></span> that she wrote with wonderful ease and with some
-grace. A hard critic might perhaps say that it was slip-slop; but still
-it was generally readable. I believe that in the recesses of her
-privacy, and under the dark and secret guidance of Churchill Smith, she
-did give way to German poetry and abstruse thought. I heard once that
-there was a paper of hers on the essence of existence, in which she
-answered that great question, as to personal entity, or as she put it,
-“What is it, to be?” The paper never appeared before the Committee,
-though I remember the question to have been once suggested for
-discussion. Pat Regan answered it at once,&mdash;“A drop of something short,”
-said he. I thought then that everything was at an end! Her translation
-into a rhymed verse of a play of Schiller’s did come before us, and
-nobody could have behaved better than she did, when she was told that it
-hardly suited our project. What we expected from Mrs. St. Quinten in the
-way of literary performance I cannot say that we ourselves had exactly
-realised, but we knew that she was always ready for work. She gave us
-tea and muffins, and bore with us when we were loud, and devoted her
-time to our purposes, and believed in us. She had exquisite tact in
-saving us from wordy quarrelling, and was never angry herself, except
-when Pat Regan was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_159" id="page_159"></a></span> too hard upon her. What became of her I never knew.
-When the days of the “Panjandrum” were at an end she vanished from our
-sight. I always hoped that Mr. St. Quinten reconciled himself to
-literature, and took her back to his bosom.</p>
-
-<p>While we were only determining that the thing should be, all went
-smoothly with us. Columns, or the open page, made a little difficulty;
-but the lady settled it for us in favour of the double column. It is a
-style of page which certainly has a wiser look about it than the other;
-and then it has the advantage of being clearly distinguished from the
-ordinary empty book of the day. The word “padding,” as belonging to
-literature, was then unknown; but the idea existed,&mdash;and perhaps the
-thing. We were quite resolved that there should be no padding in the
-“Panjandrum.” I think our most ecstatic, enthusiastic, and accordant
-moments were those in which we resolved that it should be all good, all
-better than anything else,&mdash;all best. We were to struggle after
-excellence with an energy that should know no relaxing,&mdash;and the
-excellence was not to be that which might produce for us the greatest
-number of half-crowns, but of the sort which would increase truth in the
-world, and would teach men to labour hard and bear their burdens nobly,
-and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_160" id="page_160"></a></span> become gods upon earth. I think our chief feeling was one of
-impatience in having to wait to find to what heaven death would usher
-us, who unfortunately had to be human before we could put on divinity.
-We wanted heaven at once,&mdash;and were not deterred though Jack Hallam
-would borrow ninepence and Pat Regan make his paltry little jokes.</p>
-
-<p>We had worked hard for six months before we began to think of writing,
-or even of apportioning to each contributor what should be written for
-the first number. I shall never forget the delight there was in having
-the young publisher in to tea, and in putting him through his figures,
-and in feeling that it became us for the moment to condescend to matters
-of trade. We felt him to be an inferior being; but still it was much for
-us to have progressed so far towards reality as to have a real publisher
-come to wait upon us. It was at that time clearly understood that I was
-to be the editor, and I felt myself justified in taking some little lead
-in arranging matters with our energetic young friend. A remark that I
-made one evening was very mild,&mdash;simply some suggestion as to the
-necessity of having a more than ordinarily well-educated set of
-printers;&mdash;but I was snubbed infinitely by Churchill Smith. “Mr X.,”
-said he, “can probably<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_161" id="page_161"></a></span> tell us more about printing than we can tell
-him.” I felt so hurt that I was almost tempted to leave the room at
-once. I knew very well that if I seceded Pat Regan would go with me, and
-that the whole thing must fall to the ground. Mrs. St. Quinten, however,
-threw instant oil upon the waters. “Churchill,” said she, “let us live
-and learn. Mr. X., no doubt, knows. Why should we not share his
-knowledge?” I smothered my feelings in the public cause, but I was
-conscious of a wish that Mr. Smith might fall among the Philistines of
-Cursitor Street, and so of necessity be absent from our meetings. There
-was an idea among us that he crept out of his hiding-place, and came to
-our conferences by by-ways; which was confirmed when our hostess
-proposed that our evening should be changed from Thursday, the day first
-appointed, to Sunday. We all acceded willingly, led away somewhat, I
-fear, by an idea that it was the proper thing for advanced spirits such
-as ours to go to work on that day which by ancient law is appointed for
-rest.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. St. Quinten would always open our meeting with a little speech.
-“Gentlemen and partners in this enterprise,” she would say, “the tea is
-made, and the muffins are ready. Our hearts are bound together in the
-work. We are all in earnest in the good cause of political reform<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_162" id="page_162"></a></span> and
-social regeneration. Let the spirit of harmony prevail among us. Mr.
-Hallam, perhaps you’ll take the cover off.” To see Jack Hallam eat
-muffins was,&mdash;I will say “a caution,” if the use of the slang phrase may
-be allowed to me for the occasion. It was presumed among us that on
-these days he had not dined. Indeed, I doubt whether he often did
-dine,&mdash;supper being his favourite meal. I have supped with him more than
-once, at his invitation,&mdash;when to be without coin in my own pocket was
-no disgrace,&mdash;and have wondered at the equanimity with which the vendors
-of shell-fish have borne my friend’s intimation that he must owe them
-the little amount due for our evening entertainment. On these occasions
-his friend Watt was never with him, for Walter’s ideas as to the common
-use of property were theoretical. Jack dashed at once into the more
-manly course of practice. When he came to Mrs. St. Quinten’s one evening
-in my best,&mdash;nay, why dally with the truth?&mdash;in my only pair of black
-dress trousers, which I had lent him ten days before, on the occasion,
-as I then believed, of a real dinner party, I almost denounced him
-before his colleagues. I think I should have done so had I not felt that
-he would in some fashion have so turned the tables on me that I should
-have been the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_163" id="page_163"></a></span> sufferer. There are men with whom one comes by the worst
-in any contest, let justice on one’s own side be ever so strong and ever
-so manifest.</p>
-
-<p>But this is digression. After the little speech, Jack would begin upon
-the muffins, and Churchill Smith,&mdash;always seated at his cousin’s left
-hand,&mdash;would hang his head upon his hand, wearing a look of mingled
-thought and sorrow on his brow. He never would eat muffins. We fancied
-that he fed himself with penny hunches of bread as he walked along the
-streets. As a man he was wild, unsociable, untamable; but, as a
-philosopher, he had certainly put himself beyond most of those wants to
-which Jack Hallam and others among us were still subject. “Lydia,” he
-once said, when pressed hard to partake of the good things provided,
-“man cannot live by muffins alone,&mdash;no, nor by tea and muffins. That by
-which he can live is hard to find. I doubt we have not found it yet.”</p>
-
-<p>This, to me, seemed to be rank apostasy,&mdash;infidelity to the cause which
-he was bound to trust as long as he kept his place in that society. How
-shall you do anything in the world, achieve any success, unless you
-yourself believe in yourself? And if there be a partnership either in
-mind or matter, your partner must be the same<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_164" id="page_164"></a></span> to you as yourself.
-Confidence is so essential to the establishment of a magazine! I felt
-then, at least, that the “Panjandrum” could have no chance without it,
-and I rebuked Mr. Churchill Smith. “We know what you mean by that,” said
-I;&mdash;“because we don’t talk German metaphysics, you think we aint worth
-our salt.”</p>
-
-<p>“So much worth it,” said he, “that I trust heartily you may find enough
-to save you even yet.”</p>
-
-<p>I was about to boil over with wrath; but Walter Watt was on his legs,
-making a speech about the salt of the earth, before I had my words
-ready. Churchill Smith would put up with Walter when he would endure
-words from no one else. I used to think him mean enough to respect the
-Oxford fellowship, but I have since fancied that he believed that he had
-discovered a congenial spirit. In those days I certainly did despise
-Watt’s fellowship, but in later life I have come to believe that men who
-get rewards have generally earned them. Watt on this occasion made a
-speech to which in my passion I hardly attended; but I well remember
-how, when I was about to rise in my wrath, Mrs. St. Quinten put her hand
-on my arm, and calmed me. “If you,” said she, “to whom we most trust for
-orderly guidance, are to be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_165" id="page_165"></a></span> the first to throw down the torch of
-discord, what will become of us?”</p>
-
-<p>“I haven’t thrown down any torch,” said I.</p>
-
-<p>“Neither take one up,” said she, pouring out my tea for me as she spoke.</p>
-
-<p>“As for myself,” said Regan, “I like metaphysics,&mdash;and I like them
-German. Is there anything so stupid and pig-headed as that insular
-feeling which makes us think nothing to be good that is not home-grown?”</p>
-
-<p>“All the same,” said Jack, “who ever eat a good muffin out of London?”</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Hallam, Mary Jane is bringing up some more,” said our hostess. She
-was an open-handed woman, and the supply of these delicacies never ran
-low as long as the “Panjandrum” was a possibility.</p>
-
-<p>It was, I think, on this evening that we decided finally for columns and
-for a dark gray wrapper,&mdash;with a portrait of the Panjandrum in the
-centre; a fancy portrait it must necessarily be; but we knew that we
-could trust for that to the fertile pencil of Mrs. St. Quinten. I had
-come prepared with a specimen cover, as to which I had in truth
-consulted an artistic friend, and had taken with it no inconsiderable
-labour. I am sure, looking back over the long interval of years at my
-feelings on that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_166" id="page_166"></a></span> occasion,&mdash;I am sure, I say, that I bore well the
-alterations and changes which were made in that design until at last
-nothing remained of it. But what matters a wrapper? Surely of any
-printed and published work it is by the interior that you should judge
-it. It is not that old conjuror’s head that has given its success to
-“Blackwood,” nor yet those four agricultural boys that have made the
-“Cornhill” what it is.</p>
-
-<p>We had now decided on columns, on the cover, and the colour. We had
-settled on the number of pages, and had thumbed four or five specimens
-of paper submitted to us by our worthy publisher. In that matter we had
-taken his advice, and chosen the cheapest; but still we liked the
-thumbing of the paper. It was business. Paper was paper then, and bore a
-high duty. I do not think that the system of illustration had commenced
-in those days, though a series of portraits was being published by one
-distinguished contemporary. We readily determined that we would attempt
-nothing of that kind. There then arose a question as to the insertion of
-a novel. Novels were not then, as now, held to be absolutely essential
-for the success of a magazine. There were at that time magazines with
-novels and magazines without them. The discreet young publisher<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_167" id="page_167"></a></span>
-suggested to us that we were not able to pay for such a story as would
-do us any credit. I myself, who was greedy for work, with bated breath
-offered to make an attempt. It was received with but faint thanks, and
-Walter Watt, rising on his legs, with eyes full of fire and arms
-extended, denounced novels in the general. It was not for such purpose
-that he was about to devote to the production of the “Panjandrum” any
-erudition that he might have acquired and all the intellect that God had
-given him. Let those who wanted novels go for them to the writer who
-dealt with fiction in the open market. As for him, he at any rate would
-search for truth. We reminded him of Blumine.<a name="FNanchor_A_1" id="FNanchor_A_1"></a><a href="#Footnote_A_1" class="fnanchor">[A]</a> “Tell your novel in
-three pages,” said he, “and tell it as that is told, and I will not
-object to it.” We were enabled, however, to decide that there should be
-no novel in the “Panjandrum.”</p>
-
-<div class="footnote"><p><a name="Footnote_A_1" id="Footnote_A_1"></a><a href="#FNanchor_A_1"><span class="label">[A]</span></a> See “Sartor Resartus”</p></div>
-
-<p>Then at length came the meeting at which we were to begin our real work
-and divide our tasks among us. Hitherto Mr. X. had usually joined us,
-but a hint had been given to him that on this and a few following
-meetings we would not trespass on his time. It was quite<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_168" id="page_168"></a></span> understood
-that he, as publisher, was to have nothing to do with the preparation or
-arrangement of the matter to be published. We were, I think, a little
-proud of keeping him at a distance when we came to the discussion of
-that actual essence of our combined intellects which was to be issued to
-the world under the grotesque name which we had selected. That mind and
-matter should be kept separated was impressed very strongly upon all of
-us. Now, we were “mind,” and Mr. X. was “matter.” He was matter at any
-rate in reference to this special work, and, therefore, when we had
-arrived at that vital point we told him,&mdash;I had been commissioned to do
-so,&mdash;that we did not require his attendance just at present. I am bound
-to say that Mr. X. behaved well to the end, but I do not think that he
-ever warmed to the “Panjandrum” after that. I fancy that he owns two or
-three periodicals now, and hires his editors quite as easily as he does
-his butlers,&mdash;and with less regard to their characters.</p>
-
-<p>I spent a nervous day in anticipation of that meeting. Pat Regan was
-with me all day, and threatened dissolution. “There isn’t a fellow in
-the world,” said he, “that I love better than Walter Watt, and I’d go to
-Jamaica to serve him;”&mdash;when the time came, which it did, oh, so<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_169" id="page_169"></a></span> soon!
-he was asked to go no further than Kensal Green;&mdash;“but&mdash;&mdash;!” and then
-Pat paused.</p>
-
-<p>“You’re ready to quarrel with him,” said I, “simply because he won’t
-laugh at your jokes.”</p>
-
-<p>“There’s a good deal in that,” said Regan; “and when two men are in a
-boat together each ought to laugh at the other’s jokes. But the question
-isn’t as to our laughing. If we can’t make the public laugh sometimes we
-may as well shut up shop. Walter is so intensely serious that nothing
-less austere than lay sermons will suit his conscience.”</p>
-
-<p>“Let him preach his sermon, and do you crack your jokes. Surely we can’t
-be dull when we have you and Jack Hallam?”</p>
-
-<p>“Jack’ll never write a line,” said Regan; “he only comes for the
-muffins. Then think of Churchill Smith, and the sort of stuff he’ll
-expect to force down our readers’ throats.”</p>
-
-<p>“Smith is sour, but never tedious,” said I. Indeed, I expected great
-things from Smith, and so I told my friend.</p>
-
-<p>“<span class="lftspc">‘</span>Lydia’ will write,” said Pat. We used to call her Lydia behind her
-back. “And so will Churchill Smith and Watt. I do not doubt that they
-have quires written<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_170" id="page_170"></a></span> already. But no one will read a word of it. Jack,
-and you, and I will intend to write, but we shall never do anything.”</p>
-
-<p>This I felt to be most unjust, because, as I have said before, I was
-already engaged upon the press. My work was not remunerative, but it was
-regularly done. “I am afraid of nothing,” said I, “but distrust. You can
-move a mountain if you will only believe that you can move it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Just so;&mdash;but in order to avoid the confusion consequent on general
-motion among the mountains, I and other men have been created without
-that sort of faith.” It was always so with my poor friend, and,
-consequently, he is now Attorney-General at a Turtle Island. Had he
-believed as I did,&mdash;he and Jack,&mdash;I still think that the “Panjandrum”
-might have been a great success. “Don’t you look so glum,” he went on to
-say. “I’ll stick to it, and do my best. I did put Lord Bateman into
-rhymed Latin verse for you last night.”</p>
-
-<p>Then he repeated to me various stanzas, of which I still remember one:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“Tuam duxi, verum est, filiam, sed merum est;<br /></span>
-<span class="i3">Si virgo mihi data fuit, virgo tibi redditur.<br /></span>
-<span class="i1">Venit in ephippio mihi, et concipio<br /></span>
-<span class="i3">Satis est si triga pro reditu conceditur.”<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_171" id="page_171"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>This cheered me a little, for I thought that Pat was good at these
-things, and I was especially anxious to take the wind out of the sails
-of “Fraser” and Father Prout. “Bring it with you,” said I to him, giving
-him great praise. “It will raise our spirits to know that we have
-something ready.” He did bring it; but “Lydia” required to have it all
-translated to her, word by word. It went off heavily, and was at last
-objected to by the lady. For the first and last time during our debates
-Miss Collins ventured to give an opinion on the literary question under
-discussion. She agreed, she said, with her friend in thinking that Mr.
-Regan’s Latin poem should not be used. The translation was certainly as
-good as the ballad, and I was angry. Miss Collins, at any rate, need not
-have interfered.</p>
-
-<p>At last the evening came, and we sat round the table, after the tea-cups
-had been removed, each anxious for his allotted task. Pat had been so
-far right in his views as to the diligence of three of our colleagues,
-that they came furnished with piles of manuscript. Walter Watt, who was
-afflicted with no false shame, boldly placed before him on the table a
-heap of blotted paper. Churchhill Smith held in his hand a roll; but he
-did not, in fact, unroll it during the evening. He was a man very<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_172" id="page_172"></a></span> fond
-of his own ideas, of his own modes of thinking and manner of life, but
-not prone to put himself forward. I do not mind owning that I disliked
-him; but he had a power of self-abnegation which was, to say the least
-of it, respectable. As I entered the room, my eyes fell on a mass of
-dishevelled sheets of paper which lay on the sofa behind the chair on
-which Mrs. St. Quinten always sat, and I knew that these were her
-contributions. Pat Regan, as I have said, produced his unfortunate
-translation, and promised with the greatest good-humour to do another
-when he was told that his last performance did not quite suit Mrs. St.
-Quinten’s views. Jack had nothing ready; nor, indeed, was anything
-“ready” ever expected from him. I, however, had my own ideas as to what
-Jack might do for us. For myself, I confess that I had in my pocket from
-two to three hundred lines of what I conceived would be a very suitable
-introduction, in verse, for the first number. It was my duty, I thought,
-as editor, to provide the magazine with a few initiatory words. I did
-not, however, produce the rhymes on that evening, having learned to feel
-that any strong expression of self on the part of one member at that
-board was not gratifying to the others. I did take some pains in
-composing those lines, and thought at the time<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_173" id="page_173"></a></span> that I had been not
-unhappy in mixing the useful with the sweet. How many hours shall I say
-that I devoted to them? Alas, alas, it matters not now! Those words
-which I did love well never met any eye but my own. Though I had them
-then by heart, they were never sounded in any ear. It was not personal
-glory that I desired. They were written that the first number of the
-“Panjandrum” might appear becomingly before the public, and the first
-number of the “Panjandrum” never appeared! I looked at them the other
-day, thinking whether it might be too late for them to serve another
-turn. I will never look at them again.</p>
-
-<p>But from the first starting of the conception of the “Panjandrum” I had
-had a great idea, and that idea was discussed at length on the evening
-of which I am speaking. We must have something that should be sparkling,
-clever, instructive, amusing, philosophical, remarkable, and new, all at
-the same time! That such a thing might be achieved in literature I felt
-convinced. And it must be the work of three or four together. It should
-be something that should force itself into notice, and compel attention.
-It should deal with the greatest questions of humanity, and deal with
-them wisely,&mdash;but still should deal with them in a sportive spirit.
-Philosophy<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_174" id="page_174"></a></span> and humour might, I was sure, be combined. Social science
-might be taught with witty words, and abstract politics made as
-agreeable as a novel. There had been the “Corn Law Rhymes,”&mdash;and the
-“Noctes.” It was, however, essentially necessary that we should be new,
-and therefore I endeavoured,&mdash;vainly endeavoured,&mdash;to get those old
-things out of my head. Fraser’s people had done a great stroke of
-business by calling their Editor Mr. Yorke. If I could get our people to
-call me Mr. Lancaster, something might come of it. But yet it was so
-needful that we should be new! The idea had been seething in my brain so
-constantly that I had hardly eat or slept free from it for the last six
-weeks. If I could roll Churchill Smith and Jack Hallam into one, throw
-in a dash of Walter Watt’s fine political eagerness, make use of Regan’s
-ready poetical facility, and then control it all by my own literary
-experience, the thing would be done. But it is so hard to blend the
-elements!</p>
-
-<p>I had spoken often of it to Pat, and he had assented. “I’ll do anything
-into rhyme,” he used to say, “if that’s what you mean.” It was not quite
-what I meant. One cannot always convey one’s meaning to another; and
-this difficulty is so infinitely increased when one is not quite<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_175" id="page_175"></a></span> clear
-in one’s own mind! And then Pat, who was the kindest fellow in the
-world, and who bore with the utmost patience a restless energy which
-must often have troubled him sorely, had not really his heart in it as I
-had. “If Churchill Smith will send me ever so much of his stuff, I’ll
-put it into Latin or English verse, just as you please,&mdash;and I can’t say
-more than that.” It was a great offer to make, but it did not exactly
-reach the point at which I was aiming.</p>
-
-<p>I had spoken to Smith about it also. I knew that if we were to achieve
-success, we must do so in a great measure by the force of his
-intellectual energy. I was not seeking pleasure, but success, and was
-willing therefore to endure the probable discourtesy, or at least want
-of cordiality, which I might encounter from the man. I must acknowledge
-that he listened to me with a rapt attention. Attention so rapt is more
-sometimes than one desires. Could he have helped me with a word or two
-now and again I should have felt myself to be more comfortable with him.
-I am inclined to think that two men get on better together in discussing
-a subject when they each speak a little at random. It creates a
-confidence, and enables a man to go on to the end. Churchill Smith heard
-me without a word, and then remarked that he had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_176" id="page_176"></a></span> been too slow quite to
-catch my idea. Would I explain it again? I did explain it again,&mdash;though
-no doubt I was flustered, and blundered. “Certainly,” said Churchill
-Smith, “if we can all be witty and all wise, and all witty and wise at
-the same time, and altogether, it will be very fine. But then, you see,
-I’m never witty, and seldom wise.” The man was so uncongenial that there
-was no getting anything from him. I did not dare to suggest to him that
-he should submit the prose exposition of his ideas to the metrical
-talent of our friend Regan.</p>
-
-<p>As soon as we were assembled I rose upon my legs, saying that I proposed
-to make a few preliminary observations. It certainly was the case that
-at this moment Mrs. St. Quinten was rinsing the teapot, and Mary Jane
-had not yet brought in the muffins. We all know that when men meet
-together for special dinners, the speeches are not commenced till the
-meal is over;&mdash;and I would have kept my seat till Jack had done his
-worst with the delicacies, had it not been our practice to discuss our
-business with our plates and cups and saucers still before us. “You
-can’t drink your tea on your legs,” said Jack Hallam. “I have no such
-intention,” said I. “What I have to lay before you will not take a
-minute.” A suggestion, however, came from another quarter that I should<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_177" id="page_177"></a></span>
-not be so formal; and Mrs. St. Quinten, touching my sleeve, whispered to
-me a precaution against speech making. I sat down, and remarked in a
-manner that I felt to be ludicrously inefficient, that I had been going
-to propose that the magazine should be opened by a short introductory
-paper. As the reader knows, I had the introduction then in my pocket.
-“Let us dash into the middle of our work at once,” said Walter Watt. “No
-one reads introductions,” said Regan;&mdash;my own friend, Pat Regan! “I own
-I don’t think an introduction would do us any particular service,” said
-“Lydia,” turning to me with that smile which was so often used to keep
-us in good-humour. I can safely assert that it was never vainly used on
-me. I did not even bring the verses out of my pocket, and thus I escaped
-at least the tortures of that criticism to which I should have been
-subjected had I been allowed to read them to the company. “So be it,”
-said I. “Let us then dash into the middle of our work at once. It is
-only necessary to have a point settled. Then we can progress.”</p>
-
-<p>After that I was silent for awhile, thinking it well to keep myself in
-the background. But no one seemed to be ready for speech. Walter Watt
-fingered his manuscript uneasily, and Mrs. St. Quinten made some remark<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_178" id="page_178"></a></span>
-not distinctly audible as to the sheets on the sofa. “But I must get rid
-of the tray first,” she said. Churchill Smith sat perfectly still with
-his roll in his pocket. “Mrs. St. Quinten and gentlemen,” I said, “I am
-happy to tell you that I have had a contribution handed to me which will
-go far to grace our first number. Our friend Regan has done ‘Lord
-Bateman’ into Latin verse with a Latinity and a rhythm so excellent that
-it will go far to make us at any rate equal to anything else in that
-line.” Then I produced the translated ballad, and the little episode
-took place which I have already described. Mrs. St. Quinten insisted on
-understanding in detail, and it was rejected. “Then upon my word I don’t
-know what you are to get,” said I. “Latin translations are not
-indispensable,” said Walter Watt. “No doubt we can live without them,”
-said Pat, with a fine good humour. He bore the disgrace of having his
-first contribution rejected with admirable patience. There was nothing
-he could not bear. To this day he bears being Attorney-General at the
-Turtle Islands.</p>
-
-<p>Something must be done. “Perhaps,” said I, turning to the lady, “Mrs.
-St. Quinten will begin by giving us her ideas as to our first number.
-She will tell us what she intends to do for us herself.” She was still
-embarrassed<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_179" id="page_179"></a></span> by the tea-things. And I acknowledge that I was led to
-appeal to her at that moment because it was so. If I could succeed in
-extracting ideas they would be of infinitely more use to us than the
-reading of manuscript. To get the thing “licked into shape” must be our
-first object. As I had on this evening walked up to the sombre street
-leading into the new road in which Mrs. St. Quinten lived I had declared
-to myself a dozen times that to get the thing “licked into shape” was
-the great desideratum. In my own imaginings I had licked it into some
-shape. I had suggested to myself my own little introductory poem as a
-commencement, and Pat Regan’s Latin ballad as a pretty finish to the
-first number. Then there should be some thirty pages of dialogue,&mdash;or
-trialogue,&mdash;or hexalogue if necessary, between the different members of
-our Board, each giving, under an assumed name, his view of what a
-perfect magazine should be. This I intended to be the beginning of a
-conversational element which should be maintained in all subsequent
-numbers, and which would enable us in that light and airy fashion which
-becomes a magazine to discuss all subjects of politics, philosophy,
-manners, literature, social science, and even religion if necessary,
-without inflicting on our readers the dulness<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_180" id="page_180"></a></span> of a long unbroken essay.
-I was very strong about these conversations, and saw my way to a great
-success,&mdash;if I could only get my friends to act in concert with me. Very
-much depended on the names to be chosen, and I had my doubts whether
-Watt and Churchill Smith would consent to this slightly theatrical
-arrangement. Mrs. St. Quinten had already given in her adhesion, but was
-doubting whether she would call herself “Charlotte,”&mdash;partly after
-Charlotte Corday and partly after the lady who cut bread and butter, or
-“Mrs. Freeman,”&mdash;that name having, as she observed, been used before as
-a nom de plume,&mdash;or “Sophronie,” after Madame de Sévigné, who was
-pleased so to call herself among the learned ladies of Madame de
-Rambouillet’s bower. I was altogether in favour of Mrs. Freeman, which
-has the merit of simplicity; but that was a minor point. Jack Hallam had
-chosen his appellation. Somewhere in the Lowlands he had seen over a
-small shop-door the name of John Neverapenny; and “John Neverapenny” he
-would be. I turned it over on my tongue a score of times, and thought
-that perhaps it might do. Pat wanted to call himself “The O’Blazes,” but
-was at last persuaded to adopt the quieter name of “Tipperary,” in which
-county his family had been established since Ireland was,&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_181" id="page_181"></a></span>settled I
-think he said. For myself I was indifferent. They might give me what
-title they pleased. I had had my own notion, but that had been rejected.
-They might call me “Jones” or “Walker,” if they thought proper. But I
-was very much wedded to the idea, and I still think that had it been
-stoutly carried out the results would have been happy.</p>
-
-<p>I was the first to acknowledge that the plan was not new. There had been
-the “Noctes,” and some imitations even of the “Noctes.” But then, what
-is new? The “Noctes” themselves had been imitations from older works. If
-Socrates and Hippias had not conversed, neither probably would Mr. North
-and his friends. “You might as well tell me,” said I, addressing my
-colleagues, “that we must invent a new language, find new forms of
-expression, print our ideas in an unknown type, and impress them on some
-strange paper. Let our thoughts be new,” said I, “and then let us select
-for their manifestation the most convenient form with which experience
-provides us.” But they didn’t see it. Mrs. St. Quinten liked the romance
-of being “Sophronie,” and to Jack and Pat there was some fun in the
-nicknames; but in the real thing for which I was striving they had no
-actual faith. “If I could only lick them into shape,” I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_182" id="page_182"></a></span> had said to
-myself at the last moment, as I was knocking at Mrs. St. Quinten’s door.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. St. Quinten was nearer, to my way of thinking, in this respect than
-the others; and therefore I appealed to her while the tea-things were
-still before her, thinking that I might obtain from her a suggestion in
-favour of the conversations. The introductory poem and the Latin ballad
-were gone. For spilt milk what wise man weeps? My verses had not even
-left my pocket. Not one there knew that they had been written. And I was
-determined that not one should know. But my conversations might still
-live. Ah, if I could only blend the elements! “Sophronie,” said I,
-taking courage, and speaking with a voice from which all sense of shame
-and fear of failure were intended to be banished; “Sophronie will tell
-us what she intends to do for us herself.”</p>
-
-<p>I looked into my friend’s face and saw that she liked it. But she turned
-to her cousin, Churchill Smith, as though for approval,&mdash;and met none.
-“We had better be in earnest,” said Churchill Smith, without moving a
-muscle in his face or giving the slightest return to the glance which
-had fallen upon him from his cousin.</p>
-
-<p>“No one can be more thoroughly in earnest than myself,” I replied.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_183" id="page_183"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Let us have no calling of names,” said Churchill Smith. “It is
-inappropriate, and especially so when a lady is concerned.”</p>
-
-<p>“It has been done scores of times,” I rejoined; “and that too in the
-very highest phases of civilisation, and among the most discreet of
-matrons.”</p>
-
-<p>“It seems to me to be twaddle,” said Walter Watt.</p>
-
-<p>“To my taste it’s abominably vulgar,” said Churchill Smith.</p>
-
-<p>“It has answered very well in other magazines,” said I.</p>
-
-<p>“That’s just the reason we should avoid it,” said Walter Watt.</p>
-
-<p>“I think the thing has been about worn out,” said Pat Regan.</p>
-
-<p>I was now thrown upon my mettle. Rising again upon my legs,&mdash;for the
-tea-things had now been removed,&mdash;I poured out my convictions, my hopes,
-my fears, my ambitions. If we were thus to disagree on every point, how
-should we ever blend the elements? If we could not forbear with one
-another, how could we hope to act together upon the age as one great
-force? If there was no agreement between us, how could we have the
-strength of union? Then I adverted<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_184" id="page_184"></a></span> with all the eloquence of which I
-was master to the great objects to be attained by these imaginary
-conversations. “That we may work together, each using his own
-words,&mdash;that is my desire,” I said. And I pointed out to them how
-willing I was to be the least among them in this contest, to content
-myself with simply acting as chorus, and pointing to the lessons of
-wisdom which would fall from out of their mouths. I must say that they
-listened to me on this occasion with great patience. Churchill Smith sat
-there, with his great hollow eyes fixed upon me; and it seemed to me, as
-he looked, that even he was being persuaded. I threw myself into my
-words, and implored them to allow me on this occasion to put them on the
-road to success. When I had finished speaking I looked around, and for a
-moment I thought they were convinced. There was just a whispered word
-between our Sophronie and her cousin, and then she turned to me and
-spoke. I was still standing, and I bent down over her to catch the
-sentence she should pronounce. “Give it up,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>And I gave it up. With what a pang this was done few of my readers can
-probably understand. It had been my dream from my youth upwards. I was
-still young, no doubt, and looking back now I can see how insignificant<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_185" id="page_185"></a></span>
-were the aspirations which were then in question. But there is no period
-in a man’s life in which it does not seem to him that his ambition is
-then, at that moment, culminating for him,&mdash;till the time comes in which
-he begins to own to himself that his life is not fit for ambition. I had
-believed that I might be the means of doing something, and of doing it
-in this way. Very vague indeed had been my notions;&mdash;most crude my
-ideas. I can see that now. What it was that my interlocutors were to say
-to each other I had never clearly known. But I had felt that in this way
-each might speak his own speech without confusion and with delight to
-the reader. The elements, I had thought, might be so blent. Then there
-came that little whisper between Churchill Smith and our Sophronie, and
-I found that I had failed. “Give it up,” said she.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, of course,” I said, as I sat down; “only just settle what you mean
-to do.” For some few minutes I hardly heard what matters were being
-discussed among them, and, indeed, during the remainder of the evening I
-took no real share in the conversation. I was too deeply wounded even to
-listen. I was resolute at first to abandon the whole affair. I had
-already managed to scrape together the sum of money which had been named
-as the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_186" id="page_186"></a></span> share necessary for each of us to contribute towards the
-production of the first number, and that should be altogether at their
-disposal. As for editing a periodical in the management of which I was
-not allowed to have the slightest voice, that was manifestly out of the
-question. Nor could I contribute when every contribution which I
-suggested was rejected before it was seen. My money I could give them,
-and that no doubt would be welcome. With these gloomy thoughts my mind
-was so full that I actually did not hear the words with which Walter
-Watt and Churchill Smith were discussing the papers proposed for the
-first number.</p>
-
-<p>There was nothing read that evening. No doubt it was visible to them all
-that I was, as it were, a blighted spirit among them. They could not but
-know how hard I had worked, how high had been my hopes, how keen was my
-disappointment;&mdash;and they felt for me. Even Churchill Smith, as he shook
-hands with me at the door, spoke a word of encouragement. “Do not expect
-to do things too quickly,” said he. “I don’t expect to do anything,”
-said I. “We may do something even yet,” said he, “if we can be humble,
-and patient, and persevering. We may do something though it be ever so
-little.” I was humble enough certainly, and knew that I had persevered.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_187" id="page_187"></a></span>
-As for patience;&mdash;well; I would endeavour even to be patient.</p>
-
-<p>But, prior to that, Mrs. St. Quinten had explained to me the programme
-which had now been settled between the party. We were not to meet again
-till that day fortnight, and then each of us was to come provided with
-matter that would fill twenty-one printed pages of the magazine. This,
-with the title-page, would comprise the whole first number. We might all
-do as we liked with our own pages,&mdash;each within his allotted
-space,&mdash;filling the whole with one essay, or dividing it into two or
-three short papers. In this way there might be scope for Pat Regan’s
-verse, or for any little badinage in which Jack Hallam might wish to
-express himself. And in order to facilitate our work, and for the sake
-of general accommodation, a page or two might be lent or borrowed.
-“Whatever anybody writes then,” I asked, “must be admitted?” Mrs. St.
-Quinten explained to me that this had not been their decision. The whole
-matter produced was of course to be read,&mdash;each contributor’s paper by
-the contributor himself, and it was to be printed and inserted in the
-first number, if any three would vote for its insertion. On this
-occasion the author, of course, would have no vote. The votes were<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_188" id="page_188"></a></span> to
-be handed in, written on slips of paper, so that there might be no
-priority in voting,&mdash;so that no one should be required to express
-himself before or after his neighbour. It was very complex, but I made
-no objection.</p>
-
-<p>As I walked home alone,&mdash;for I had no spirits to join Regan and Jack
-Hallam, who went in search of supper at the Haymarket,&mdash;I turned over
-Smith’s words in my mind, and resolved that I would be humble, patient,
-and persevering,&mdash;so that something might be done, though it were, as he
-said, ever so little. I would struggle still. Though everything was to
-be managed in a manner adverse to my own ideas and wishes, I would still
-struggle. I would still hope that the “Panjandrum” might become a great
-fact in the literature of my country.</p>
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-
-<h3><a name="Part_II_Despair" id="Part_II_Despair"></a><span class="smcap">Part II.&mdash;Despair.</span></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">A</span> FORTNIGHT had been given to us to prepare our matter, and during that
-fortnight I saw none of my colleagues. I purposely kept myself apart
-from them in order that I might thus give a fairer chance to the scheme
-which had been adopted. Others might borrow or lend their pages, but I
-would do the work allotted to me, and would attend the next meeting as
-anxious for the establishment and maintenance of the Panjandrum as I had
-been when I had hoped that the great consideration which I had given
-personally to the matter might have been allowed to have some weight.
-And gradually, as I devoted the first day of my fortnight to thinking of
-my work, I taught myself to hope again, and to look forward to a time
-when, by the sheer weight of my own industry and persistency, I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_190" id="page_190"></a></span> might
-acquire that influence with my companions of which I had dreamed of
-becoming the master. After all, could I blame them for not trusting me,
-when as yet I had given them no ground for such confidence? What had I
-done that they should be willing to put their thoughts, their
-aspirations, their very brains and inner selves under my control? But
-something might be done which would force them to regard me as their
-leader. So I worked hard at my twenty-one pages, and during the
-fortnight spoke no word of the “Panjandrum” to any human being.</p>
-
-<p>But my work did not get itself done without very great mental distress.
-The choice of a subject had been left free to each contributor. For
-myself I would almost have preferred that some one should have dictated
-to me the matter to which I should devote myself. How would it be with
-our first number if each of us were to write a political essay of
-exactly twenty-one pages, or a poem of that length in blank verse, or a
-humorous narrative? Good Heavens! How were we to expect success with the
-public if there were no agreement between ourselves as to the nature of
-our contributions no editorial power in existence for our mutual
-support. I went down and saw Mr. X., and found him to be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_191" id="page_191"></a></span> almost
-indifferent as to the magazine. “You see, Sir,” said he, “the matter
-isn’t in my hands. If I can give any assistance, I shall be very happy;
-but it seems to me that you want some one with experience.” “I could
-have put them right if they’d have let me,” I replied. He was very
-civil, but it was quite clear to me that Mr. X.’s interest in the matter
-was over since the day of his banishment from Mrs. St. Quinten’s
-tea-table. “What do you think is a good sort of subject,” I asked
-him,&mdash;as it were cursorily; “with a view, you know, to the eye of the
-public, just at the present moment?” He declined to suggest any subject,
-and I was thrown back among the depths of my own feelings and
-convictions. Now, could we have blended our elements together, and
-discussed all this in really amicable council, each would have corrected
-what there might have been of rawness in the other, and in the freedom
-of conversation our wits would have grown from the warmth of mutual
-encouragement. Such, at least, was my belief then. Since that I have
-learned to look at the business with eyes less enthusiastic. Let a man
-have learned the trick of the pen, let him not smoke too many cigars
-overnight, and let him get into his chair within half an hour after
-breakfast, and I can tell you almost to a line how much of a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_192" id="page_192"></a></span> magazine
-article he will produce in three hours. It does not much matter what the
-matter be,&mdash;only this, that if his task be that of reviewing, he may be
-expected to supply a double quantity. Three days, three out of the
-fourteen, passed by, and I could think of no fitting subject on which to
-begin the task I had appointed myself of teaching the British public.
-Politics at the moment were rather dull, and no very great question was
-agitating the minds of men. Lord Melbourne was Prime Minister, and had
-in the course of the Session been subjected to the usual party attacks.
-We intended to go a great deal further than Lord Melbourne in advocating
-Liberal measures, and were disposed to regard him and his colleagues as
-antiquated fogies in Statecraft; but, nevertheless, as against Sir
-Robert Peel, we should have given him the benefit of our defence. I did
-not, however, feel any special call to write up Lord Melbourne. Lord
-John was just then our pet minister; but even on his behalf I did not
-find myself capable of filling twenty-one closely-printed pages with
-matter which should really stir the public mind. In a first number, to
-stir the public mind is everything. I didn’t think that my colleagues
-sufficiently realised that fact,&mdash;though I had indeed endeavoured to
-explain it to them. In the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_193" id="page_193"></a></span> second, third, or fourth publication you may
-descend gradually to an ordinary level; you may become,&mdash;not exactly
-dull, for dulness in a magazine should be avoided,&mdash;but what I may
-perhaps call “adagio” as compared with the “con forza” movement with
-which the publication certainly should be opened. No reader expects to
-be supplied from month to month with the cayenne pepper and shallot
-style of literature; but in the preparation of a new literary banquet,
-the first dish cannot be too highly spiced. I knew all that,&mdash;and then
-turned it over in my mind whether I could not do something about the
-ballot.</p>
-
-<p>It had never occurred to me before that there could be any difficulty in
-finding a subject. I had to reject the ballot because at that period of
-my life I had, in fact, hardly studied the subject. I was Liberal, and
-indeed Radical, in all my political ideas. I was ready to “go in” for
-anything that was undoubtedly Liberal and Radical. In a general way I
-was as firm in my politics as any member of the House of Commons, and
-had thought as much on public subjects as some of them. I was an eager
-supporter of the ballot. But when I took the pen in my hand there came
-upon me a feeling that,&mdash;that,&mdash;that I didn’t exactly know<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_194" id="page_194"></a></span> how to say
-anything about it that other people would care to read. The twenty-one
-pages loomed before me as a wilderness, which, with such a staff, I
-could never traverse. It had not occurred to me before that it would be
-so difficult for a man to evoke from his mind ideas on a subject with
-which he supposed himself to be familiar. And, such thoughts as I had, I
-could clothe in no fitting words. On the fifth morning, driven to
-despair, I did write a page or two upon the ballot; and then,&mdash;sinking
-back in my chair, I began to ask myself a question, as to which doubt
-was terrible to me. Was this the kind of work to which my gifts were
-applicable? The pages which I had already written were manifestly not
-adapted to stir the public mind. The sixth and seventh days I passed
-altogether within my room, never once leaving the house. I drank green
-tea. I eat meat very slightly cooked. I debarred myself from food for
-several hours, so that the flesh might be kept well under. I sat up one
-night, nearly till daybreak, with a wet towel round my head. On the next
-I got up, and lit my own fire at four o’clock. Thinking that I might be
-stretching the cord too tight, I took to reading a novel, but could not
-remember the words as I read them, so painfully anxious was I to produce
-the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_195" id="page_195"></a></span> work I had undertaken to perform. On the morning of the eighth day
-I was still without a subject.</p>
-
-<p>I felt like the man who undertook to play the violin at a dance for five
-shillings and a dinner,&mdash;the dinner to be paid in advance; but who, when
-making his bargain, had forgotten that he had never learned a note of
-music! I had undertaken even to lead the band, and, as it seemed, could
-not evoke a sound. A horrid idea came upon me that I was struck, as it
-were, with a sudden idiotcy. My mind had absolutely fled from me. I sat
-in my arm-chair, looking at the wall, counting the pattern on the paper,
-and hardly making any real effort to think. All the world seemed at once
-to have become a blank to me. I went on muttering to myself, “No, the
-ballot won’t do;” as though there was nothing else but the ballot with
-which to stir the public mind. On the eighth morning I made a minute and
-quite correct calculation of the number of words that were demanded of
-me,&mdash;taking the whole as forty-two pages, because of the necessity of
-recopying,&mdash;and I found that about four hours a day would be required
-for the mere act of writing. The paper was there, and the pen and
-ink;&mdash;but beyond that there was nothing ready. I had thought to rack my
-brain, but I began to doubt whether<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_196" id="page_196"></a></span> I had a brain to rack. Of all those
-matters of public interest which had hitherto been to me the very salt
-of my life, I could not remember one which could possibly be converted
-into twenty-one pages of type. Unconsciously I kept on muttering words
-about the ballot. “The ballot be &mdash;&mdash;!” I said, aloud to myself in my
-agony.</p>
-
-<p>On that Sunday evening I began to consider what excuse I might best make
-to my colleagues. I might send and say I was very sick. I might face
-them, and quarrel with them,&mdash;because of their ill-treatment of me. Or I
-might tell only half a lie, keeping within the letter of the truth, and
-say that I had not yet finished my work. But no. I would not lie at all.
-Late on that Sunday evening there came upon me a grand idea. I would
-stand up before them and confess my inability to do the work I had
-undertaken. I arranged the words of my little speech, and almost took
-delight in them. “I, who have intended to be a teacher, am now aware
-that I have hardly as yet become a pupil.” In such case the “Panjandrum”
-would be at an end. The elements had not been happily blended; but
-without me they could not, I was sure, be kept in any concert. The
-“Panjandrum,”&mdash;which I had already learned to love as a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_197" id="page_197"></a></span> mother loves
-her first-born,&mdash;the dear old “Panjandrum” must perish before its birth.
-I felt the pity of it! The thing itself,&mdash;the idea and theory of it, had
-been very good. But how shall a man put forth a magazine when he finds
-himself unable to write a page of it within the compass of a week? The
-meditations of that Sunday were very bitter, but perhaps they were
-useful. I had long since perceived that mankind are divided into two
-classes,&mdash;those who shall speak, and those who shall listen to the
-speech of others. In seeing clearly the existence of such a division I
-had hitherto always assumed myself to belong to the first class. Might
-it not be probable that I had made a mistake, and that it would become
-me modestly to take my allotted place in the second?</p>
-
-<p>On the Monday morning I began to think that I was ill, and resolved that
-I would take my hat and go out into the park, and breathe some air,&mdash;let
-the “Panjandrum” live or die. Such another week as the last would, I
-fancied, send me to Hanwell. It was now November, and at ten o’clock,
-when I looked out, there was a soft drizzling rain coming down, and the
-pavement of the street was deserted. It was just the morning for work,
-were work possible. There still lay on the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_198" id="page_198"></a></span> little table in the corner
-of the room the square single sheet of paper, with its margin doubled
-down, all fitted for the printer,&mdash;only that the sheet was still blank.
-I looked at the page, and I rubbed my brow, and I gazed into the
-street,&mdash;and then determined that a two hours’ ring round the Regent’s
-Park was the only chance left for me.</p>
-
-<p>As I put on my thick boots and old hat and prepared myself for a
-thorough wetting, I felt as though at last I had hit upon the right
-plan. Violent exercise was needed, and then inspiration might come.
-Inspiration would come the sooner if I could divest myself from all
-effort in searching for it. I would take my walk and employ my mind,
-simply, in observing the world around me. For some distance there was
-but little of the world to observe. I was lodging at this period in a
-quiet and eligible street not far from Theobald’s Road. Thence my way
-lay through Bloomsbury Square, Russell Square, and Gower Street, and as
-I went I found the pavement to be almost deserted. The thick soft rain
-came down, not with a splash and various currents, running off and
-leaving things washed though wet, but gently insinuating itself
-everywhere, and covering even the flags with mud. I cared nothing for
-the mud. I went through it all with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_199" id="page_199"></a></span> a happy scorn for the poor
-creatures who were endeavouring to defend their clothes with umbrellas.
-“Let the heavens do their worst to me,” I said to myself as I spun along
-with eager steps; and I was conscious of a feeling that external
-injuries could avail me nothing if I could only cure the weakness that
-was within.</p>
-
-<p>The Park too was nearly empty. No place in London is ever empty now, but
-thirty years ago the population was palpably thinner. I had not come
-out, however, to find a crowd. A damp boy sweeping a crossing, or an old
-woman trying to sell an apple, was sufficient to fill my mind with
-thoughts as to the affairs of my fellow-creatures. Why should it have
-been allotted to that old woman to sit there, placing all her hopes on
-the chance sale of a few apples, the cold rain entering her very bones
-and driving rheumatism into all her joints, while another old woman, of
-whom I had read a paragraph that morning, was appointed to entertain
-royalty, and go about the country with five or six carriages and four?
-Was there injustice in this,&mdash;and if so, whence had the injustice come?
-The reflection was probably not new; but, if properly thought out, might
-it not suffice for the one-and-twenty pages? “Sally Brown, the
-barrow-woman, <span class="pagenum"><a name="page_200" id="page_200"></a></span><i>v.</i> the Duchess of &mdash;&mdash;!” Would it not be possible to
-make the two women plead against each other in some imaginary court of
-justice, beyond the limits of our conventional life,&mdash;some court in
-which the duchess should be forced to argue her own case, and in which
-the barrow-woman would decidedly get the better of her? If this could be
-done how happy would have been my walk through the mud and slush!</p>
-
-<p>As I was thinking of this I saw before me on the pathway a stout
-woman,&mdash;apparently middle-aged, but her back was towards me,&mdash;leading a
-girl who perhaps might be ten or eleven years old. They had come up one
-of the streets from the New Road to the Park, and were hurrying along so
-fast that the girl, who held the woman by the arm, was almost running.
-The woman was evidently a servant, but in authority,&mdash;an upper nurse
-perhaps, or a housekeeper. Why she should have brought her charge out in
-the rain was a mystery; but I could see from the elasticity of the
-child’s step that she was happy and very eager. She was a well-made
-girl, with long well-rounded legs, which came freely down beneath her
-frock, with strong firm boots, a straw hat, and a plaid shawl wound
-carefully round her throat and waist. As I followed them those rapid
-legs of hers seemed almost to twinkle in their motion as she kept<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_201" id="page_201"></a></span> pace
-with the stout woman who was conducting her. The mud was all over her
-stockings; but still there was about her an air of well-to-do comfort
-which made me feel that the mud was no more than a joke to her. Every
-now and then I caught something of a glimpse of her face as she half
-turned herself round in talking to the woman. I could see, or at least I
-could fancy that I saw, that she was fair, with large round eyes and
-soft light brown hair. Children did not then wear wigs upon their backs,
-and I was driven to exercise my fancy as to her locks. At last I
-resolved that I would pass them and have one look at her&mdash;and I did so.
-It put me to my best pace to do it, but gradually I overtook them and
-could hear that the girl never ceased talking as she ran. As I went by
-them I distinctly heard the words, “Oh, Anne, I do so wonder what he’s
-like!” “You’ll see, Miss,” said Anne. I looked back and saw that she was
-exactly as I had thought,&mdash;a fair, strong, healthy girl, with round eyes
-and large mouth, broad well-formed nose, and light hair. Who was the
-“he,” as to whom her anxiety was so great,&mdash;the “he” whom she was
-tripping along through the rain and mud to see, and kiss, and love, and
-wonder at? And why hadn’t she been taken in a cab? Would she be allowed
-to take off those<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_202" id="page_202"></a></span> very dirty stockings before she was introduced to her
-new-found brother, or wrapped in the arms of her stranger father?</p>
-
-<p>I saw no more of them, and heard no further word; but I thought a great
-deal of the girl. Ah, me, if she could have been a young unknown,
-newly-found sister of my own, how warmly would I have welcomed her! How
-little should I have cared for the mud on her stockings; how closely
-would I have folded her in my arms; how anxious would I have been with
-Anne as to those damp clothes; what delight would I have had in feeding
-her, coaxing her, caressing her, and playing with her! There had seemed
-to belong to her a wholesome strong health, which it had made me for the
-moment happy even to witness. And then the sweet, eloquent anxiety of
-her voice,&mdash;“Oh, Anne, I do so wonder what he’s like!” While I heard her
-voice I had seemed to hear and know so much of her! And then she had
-passed out of my ken for ever!</p>
-
-<p>I thought no more about the duchess and the apple-woman, but devoted my
-mind entirely to the girl and her brother. I was persuaded that it must
-be a brother. Had it been a father there would have been more of awe in
-her tone. It certainly was a brother. Gradually, as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_203" id="page_203"></a></span> the unforced
-imagination came to play upon the matter, a little picture fashioned
-itself in my mind. The girl was my own sister&mdash;a sister whom I had never
-seen till she was thus brought to me for protection and love; but she
-was older, just budding into womanhood, instead of running beside her
-nurse with twinkling legs. There, however, was the same broad, honest
-face, the same round eyes, the same strong nose and mouth. She had come
-to me for love and protection, having no other friend in the world to
-trust. But, having me, I proudly declared to myself that she needed
-nothing further. In two short months I was nothing to her,&mdash;or almost
-nothing. I had a friend, and in two little months my friend had become
-so much more than I ever could have been!</p>
-
-<p>These wondrous castles in the air never get themselves well built when
-the mind, with premeditated skill and labour, sets itself to work to
-build them. It is when they come uncalled for that they stand erect and
-strong before the mind’s eye, with every mullioned window perfect, the
-rounded walls all there, the embrasures cut, the fosse dug, and the
-drawbridge down. As I had made this castle for myself, as I had sat with
-this girl by my side, calling her the sweetest names, as I had seen her
-blush when my friend came near her, and had known at<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_204" id="page_204"></a></span> once, with a mixed
-agony and joy, how the thing was to be, I swear that I never once
-thought of the “Panjandrum.” I walked the whole round of the Regent’s
-Park, perfecting the building; and I did perfect it, took the girl to
-church, gave her away to my friend Walker, and came back and sobbed and
-sputtered out my speech at the little breakfast, before it occurred to
-me to suggest to myself that I might use the thing.</p>
-
-<p>Churchill Smith and Walter Watt had been dead against a novel; and,
-indeed, the matter had been put to the vote, and it had been decided
-that there should be no novel. But, what is a novel? The purport of that
-vote had been to negative a long serial tale, running on from number to
-number, in a manner which has since become well understood by the
-reading public. I had thought my colleagues wrong, and so thinking, it
-was clearly my duty to correct their error, if I might do so without
-infringing that loyalty and general obedience to expressed authority
-which are so essential to such a society as ours. Before I had got back
-to Theobald’s Road I had persuaded myself that a short tale would be the
-very thing for the first number. It might not stir the public mind. To
-do that I would leave to Churchill Smith and Walter Watt. But a
-well-formed little story, such as that of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_205" id="page_205"></a></span> which I had now the full
-possession, would fall on the readers of the “Panjandrum” like sweet
-rain in summer, making things fresh and green and joyous. I was quite
-sure that it was needed. Walter Watt might say what he pleased, and
-Churchill Smith might look at me as sternly as he would, sitting there
-silent with his forehead on his hand; but I knew at least as much about
-a magazine as they did. At any rate, I would write my tale. That very
-morning it had seemed to me to be impossible to get anything written.
-Now, as I hurried up stairs to get rid of my wet clothes, I felt that I
-could not take the pen quickly enough into my hand. I had a thing to
-say, and I would say it. If I could complete my story,&mdash;and I did not
-doubt its completion from the very moment in which I realised its
-conception,&mdash;I should be saved, at any rate, from the disgrace of
-appearing empty-handed in Mrs. St. Quinten’s parlour. Within a quarter
-of an hour of my arrival at home I had seated myself at my table and
-written the name of the tale,&mdash;“The New Inmate.”</p>
-
-<p>I doubt whether any five days in my life were ever happier than those
-which were devoted to this piece of work. I began it that Monday
-afternoon, and finished it on the Friday night. While I was at the task
-all doubt<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_206" id="page_206"></a></span> vanished from my mind. I did not care a fig for Watt or
-Smith, and was quite sure that I should carry Mrs. St. Quinten with me.
-Each night I copied fairly what I had written in the day, and I came to
-love the thing with an exceeding love. There was a deal of pathos in
-it,&mdash;at least so I thought,&mdash;and I cried over it like a child. I had
-strained all my means to prepare for the coming of the girl,&mdash;I am now
-going back for a moment to my castle in the air,&mdash;and had furnished for
-her a little sitting-room and as pretty a white-curtained chamber as a
-girl ever took pleasure in calling her own. There were books for her,
-and a small piano, and a low sofa, and all little feminine belongings. I
-had said to myself that everything should be for her, and I had sold my
-horse,&mdash;the horse of my imagination, the reader will understand, for I
-had never in truth possessed such an animal,&mdash;and told my club friends
-that I should no longer be one of them. Then the girl had come, and had
-gone away to Walker,&mdash;as it seemed to me at once,&mdash;to Walker, who still
-lived in lodgings, and had not even a second sitting-room for her
-comfort,&mdash;to Walker, who was, indeed, a good fellow in his way, but
-possessed of no particular attractions either in wit, manners, or
-beauty! I wanted them to change with me, and to take<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_207" id="page_207"></a></span> my pretty home. I
-should have been delighted to go to a garret, leaving them everything.
-But Walker was proud, and would not have it so; and the girl protested
-that the piano and the white dimity curtains were nothing to her. Walker
-was everything;&mdash;Walker, of whom she had never heard, when she came but
-a few weeks since to me as the only friend left to her in the world! I
-worked myself up to such a pitch of feeling over my story, that I could
-hardly write it for my tears. I saw myself standing all alone in that
-pretty sitting-room after they were gone, and I pitied myself with an
-exceeding pity. “Si vis me flere, dolendum est primum ipsi tibi.” If
-success was to be obtained by obeying that instruction, I might
-certainly expect success.</p>
-
-<p>The way in which my work went without a pause was delightful. When the
-pen was not in my hand I was longing for it. While I was walking,
-eating, or reading, I was still thinking of my story. I dreamt of it. It
-came to me to be a matter that admitted of no doubt. The girl with the
-muddy stockings, who had thus provided me in my need, was to me a
-blessed memory. When I kissed my sister’s brow, on her first arrival,
-she was in my arms,&mdash;palpably. All her sweetnesses were present to me,
-as though I had her there, in the little<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_208" id="page_208"></a></span> street turning out of
-Theobald’s Road. To this moment I can distinguish the voice in which she
-spoke to me that little whispered word, when I asked her whether she
-cared for Walker. When one thinks of it, the reality of it all is
-appalling. What need is there of a sister or a friend in the flesh,&mdash;a
-sister or a friend with probably so many faults,&mdash;when by a little
-exercise of the mind they may be there at your elbow, faultless? It came
-to pass that the tale was more dear to me than the magazine. As I read
-it through for the third or fourth time on the Sunday morning, I was
-chiefly anxious for the “Panjandrum,” in order that “The New Inmate”
-might see the world.</p>
-
-<p>We were to meet that evening at eight o’clock, and it was understood
-that the sitting would be prolonged to a late hour, because of the
-readings. It would fall to my lot to take the second reading, as coming
-next to Mrs. St. Quinten, and I should, at any rate, not be subjected to
-a weary audience. We had, however, promised each other to be very
-patient; and I was resolved that, even to the production of Churchill
-Smith, who would be the last, I would give an undivided and eager
-attention. I determined also in my joy that I would vote against the
-insertion of no colleague’s contribution. Were we not in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_209" id="page_209"></a></span> a boat
-together, and would not each do his best? Even though a paper might be
-dull, better a little dulness than the crushing of a friend’s spirit. I
-fear that I thought that “The New Inmate” might atone for much dulness.
-I dined early on that day; then took a walk round the Regent’s Park, to
-renew my thoughts on the very spot on which they had first occurred to
-me, and after that, returning home, gave a last touch to my work. Though
-it had been written after so hurried a fashion, there was not a word in
-it which I had not weighed and found to be fitting.</p>
-
-<p>I was the first at Mrs. St. Quinten’s house, and found that lady very
-full of the magazine. She asked, however, no questions as to my
-contribution. Of her own she at once spoke to me. “What do you think I
-have done at last?” she said. In my reply to her question I made some
-slight allusion to “The New Inmate,” but I don’t think she caught the
-words. “I have reviewed Bishop Berkeley’s whole Theory on Matter,” said
-she. What feeling I expressed by my gesture I cannot say, but I think it
-must have been one of great awe. “And I have done it exhaustively,” she
-continued; “so that the subject need not be continued. Churchill does
-not like continuations.” Perhaps it did not signify much. If she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_210" id="page_210"></a></span> were
-heavy, I at any rate was light. If her work should prove difficult of
-comprehension, mine was easy. If she spoke only to the wise and old, I
-had addressed myself to babes and sucklings. I said something as to the
-contrast, again naming my little story. But she was too full of Bishop
-Berkeley to heed me. If she had worked as I had worked, of course she
-was full of Bishop Berkeley. To me, “The New Inmate” at that moment was
-more than all the bishops.</p>
-
-<p>The other men soon came in, clustering together, and our number was
-complete. Regan whispered to me that Jack Hallam had not written a line.
-“And you?” I asked. “Oh, I am all right,” said he. “I don’t suppose
-they’ll let it pass; but that’s their affair;&mdash;not mine.” Watt and Smith
-took their places almost without speaking, and preparation was made for
-the preliminary feast of the body. The after-feast was a matter of such
-vital importance to us that we hardly possessed our customary
-light-hearted elasticity. There was, however, an air of subdued triumph
-about our “Lydia,”&mdash;of triumph subdued by the presence of her cousin. As
-for myself, I was supremely happy. I said a word to Watt, asking him as
-to his performance. “I don’t suppose you will like it,” he replied; “but
-it is at any rate a fair<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_211" id="page_211"></a></span> specimen of that which it has been my ambition
-to produce.” I assured him with enthusiasm that I was thoroughly
-prepared to approve, and that, too, without carping criticism. “But we
-must be critics,” he observed. Of Churchill Smith I asked no question.</p>
-
-<p>When we had eaten and drunk we began the work of the evening by giving
-in the names of our papers, and describing the nature of the work we had
-done. Mrs. St. Quinten was the first, and read her title from a scrap of
-paper. “A Review of Bishop Berkeley’s Theory.” Churchill Smith remarked
-that it was a very dangerous subject. The lady begged him to wait till
-he should hear the paper read. “Of course I will hear it read,” said her
-cousin. To me it was evident that Smith would object to this essay
-without any scruple, if he did not in truth approve of it. Then it was
-my turn, and I explained in the quietest tone which I could assume that
-I had written a little tale called “The New Inmate.” It was very simple,
-I said, but I trusted it might not be rejected on that score. There was
-silence for a moment, and I prompted Regan to proceed; but I was
-interrupted by Walter Watt. “I thought,” said he, “that we had
-positively decided against ‘prose fiction.’<span class="lftspc">”</span> I protested that the
-decision had been given against novels, against<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_212" id="page_212"></a></span> long serial stories to
-be continued from number to number. This was a little thing, completed
-within my twenty-one allotted pages. “Our vote was taken as to prose
-fiction,” said Watt. I appealed to Hallam, who at once took my part,&mdash;as
-also did Regan. “Walter is quite correct as to the purport of our
-decision,” said Churchill Smith. I turned to Mrs. St. Quinten. “I don’t
-see why we shouldn’t have a short story,” she said. I then declared that
-with their permission I would at any rate read it, and again requested
-Regan to proceed. Upon this Walter Watt rose upon his feet, and made a
-speech. The vote had been taken, and could not be rescinded. After such
-a vote it was not open to me to read my story. The story, no doubt, was
-very good,&mdash;he was pleased to say so,&mdash;but it was not matter of the sort
-which they intended to use. Seeing the purpose which they had in view,
-he thought that the reading of the story would be waste of time. “It
-will clearly be waste of time,” said Churchill Smith. Walter Watt went
-on to explain to us that if from one meeting to another we did not allow
-ourselves to be bound by our own decisions, we should never appear
-before the public.</p>
-
-<p>I will acknowledge that I was enraged. It seemed to me impossible that
-such folly should be allowed to prevail,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_213" id="page_213"></a></span> or that after all my efforts I
-should be treated by my own friends after such a fashion. I also got
-upon my legs and protested loudly that Mr. Watt and Mr. Smith did not
-even know what had been the subject under discussion, when the vote
-adverse to novels had been taken. No record was kept of our proceedings;
-and, as I clearly showed to them, Mr. Regan and Mr. Hallam were quite as
-likely to hold correct views on this subject as were Mr. Watt and Mr.
-Smith. All calling of men Pat, and Jack, and Walter, was for the moment
-over. Watt admitted the truth of this argument, and declared that they
-must again decide whether my story of “The New Inmate” was or was not a
-novel in the sense intended when the previous vote was taken. If
-not,&mdash;if the decision on that point should be in my favour,&mdash;then the
-privilege of reading it would at any rate belong to me. I believed so
-thoroughly in my own work that I desired nothing beyond this. We went to
-work, therefore, and took the votes on the proposition,&mdash;Was or was not
-the story of “The New Inmate” debarred by the previous resolution
-against the admission of novels?</p>
-
-<p>The decision manifestly rested with Mrs. St. Quinten. I was master,
-easily master, of three votes. Hallam and Regan were altogether with me,
-and in a matter of such<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_214" id="page_214"></a></span> import I had no hesitation in voting for
-myself. Had the question been the acceptance or rejection of the story
-for the magazine, then, by the nature of our constitution, I should have
-had no voice in the matter. But this was not the case, and I recorded my
-own vote in my own favour without a blush. Having done so, I turned to
-Mrs. St. Quinten with an air of supplication in my face of which I
-myself was aware, and of which I became at once ashamed. She looked
-round at me almost furtively, keeping her eyes otherwise fixed upon
-Churchill Smith’s immovable countenance. I did not condescend to speak a
-word to her. What words I had to say, I had spoken to them all, and was
-confident in the justice of my cause. I quickly dropped that look of
-supplication and threw myself back in my chair. The moment was one of
-intense interest, almost of agony, but I could not allow myself to think
-that in very truth my work would be rejected by them before it was seen.
-If such were to be their decision, how would it be possible that the
-“Panjandrum” should ever be brought into existence? Who could endure
-such ignominy and still persevere?</p>
-
-<p>There was silence among us, which to me in the intensity of my feelings
-seemed to last for minutes. Regan was the first to speak. “Now, Mrs. St.
-Quinten,” he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_215" id="page_215"></a></span> said, “it all rests with you.” An idea shot across my mind
-at the moment, of the folly of which we had been guilty in placing our
-most vital interests in the hands of a woman merely on the score of
-gallantry. Two votes had been given to her as against one of ours simply
-because,&mdash;she was a woman. It may be that there had been something in
-the arrangement of compensation for the tea and muffins; but if so, how
-poor was the cause for so great an effect! She sat there the arbiter of
-our destinies. “You had better give your vote,” said Smith roughly. “You
-think it is a novel?” she said, appealing to him. “There can be no doubt
-of it,” he replied; “a novel is not a novel because it is long or short.
-Such is the matter which we intended to declare that we would not put
-forth in our magazine.” “I protest,” said I, jumping up,&mdash;“I protest
-against this interference.”</p>
-
-<p>Then there was a loud and very angry discussion whether Churchill Smith
-was justified in his endeavour to bias Mrs. St. Quinten; and we were
-nearly brought to a vote upon that. I myself was very anxious to have
-that question decided,&mdash;to have any question decided in which Churchill
-Smith could be shown to be in the wrong. But no one would back me, and
-it seemed to me as though<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_216" id="page_216"></a></span> even Regan and Jack Hallam were falling off
-from me,&mdash;though Jack had never yet restored to me that article of
-clothing to which allusion was made in the first chapter of this little
-history, and I had been almost as anxious for Pat’s Latin translation as
-for my own production. It was decided without a vote that any amount of
-free questioning as to each other’s opinions, and of free answering, was
-to be considered fair. “I tell her my opinion. You can tell her yours,”
-said Churchill Smith. “It is my opinion,” said I, “that you want to
-dictate to everybody and to rule the whole thing.” “I think we did mean
-to exclude all story-telling,” said Mrs. St. Quinten, and so the
-decision was given against me.</p>
-
-<p>Looking back at it I know that they were right on the exact point then
-under discussion. They had intended to exclude all stories. But,&mdash;heaven
-and earth,&mdash;was there ever such folly as that of which they had been
-guilty in coming to such a resolution? I have often suggested to myself
-since, that had “The New Inmate” been read on that evening, the
-“Panjandrum” might have become a living reality, and that the fortieth
-volume of the publication might now have been standing on the shelves of
-many a well-filled library. The decision, however, had been given
-against me, and I sat like one stricken dumb,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_217" id="page_217"></a></span> paralysed, or turned to
-stone. I remember it as though it were yesterday. I did not speak a
-word, but simply moving my chair an inch or two, I turned my face away
-from the lady who had thus blasted all my hopes. I fear that my eyes
-were wet, and that a hot tear trickled down each cheek. No note of
-triumph was sounded, and I verily believe they all suffered in my too
-conspicuous sufferings. To both Watt and Smith it had been a matter of
-pure conscience. Mrs. St. Quinten, woman-like, had obeyed the man in
-whose strength she trusted. There was silence for a few moments, and
-then Watt invited Regan to proceed. He had divided his work into three
-portions, but what they were called, whether they were verse or prose,
-translations or original, comic or serious, I never knew. I could not
-listen then. For me to continue my services to the “Panjandrum” was an
-impossibility. I had been crushed&mdash;so crushed that I had not vitality
-left me to escape from the room, or I should not have remained there.
-Pat Regan’s papers were nothing to me now. Watt I knew had written an
-essay called “The Real Aristocrat,” which was published elsewhere
-afterwards. Jack Hallam’s work was not ready. There was something said
-of his delinquency, but I cared not what. I only wish that my work also
-had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_218" id="page_218"></a></span> been unready. Churchill Smith also had some essay, “On the Basis of
-Political Right.” That, if I remember rightly, was its title. I often
-talked the matter over in after days with Pat Regan, and I know that
-from the moment in which my consternation was made apparent to them, the
-thing went very heavily. At the time, and for some hours after the
-adverse decision, I was altogether unmanned and unable to collect my
-thoughts. Before the evening was over there occurred a further episode
-in our affairs which awakened me.</p>
-
-<p>The names of the papers had been given in, and Mrs. St. Quinten began to
-read her essay. Nothing more than the drone of her voice reached the
-tympanum of my ears. I did not look at her, or think of her, or care to
-hear a word that she uttered. I believe I almost slept in my agony; but
-sleeping or waking I was turning over in my mind, wearily and incapably,
-the idea of declining to give any opinion as to the propriety of
-inserting or rejecting the review of Bishop Berkeley’s theory, on the
-score that my connection with the “Panjandrum” had been severed. But the
-sound of the reading went on, and I did not make up my mind. I hardly
-endeavoured to make it up, but sat dreamily revelling in my own
-grievance, and pondering over the suicidal folly of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_219" id="page_219"></a></span> “Panjandrum”
-Company. The reading went on and on without interruption, without
-question and without applause. I know I slept during some portion of the
-time, for I remember that Regan kicked my shin. And I remember, also, a
-feeling of compassion for the reader, who was hardly able to rouse
-herself up to the pitch of spirit necessary for the occasion,&mdash;but
-allowed herself to be quelled by the cold steady gaze of her cousin
-Churchill. Watt sat immovable, with his hands in his trousers pockets,
-leaning back in his chair, the very picture of dispassionate criticism.
-Jack Hallam amused himself by firing paper pellets at Regan, sundry of
-which struck me on the head and face. Once Mrs. St. Quinten burst forth
-in offence. “Mr. Hallam,” she said, “I am sorry to be so tedious.” “I
-like it of all things,” said Jack. It was certainly very long. Half
-comatose, as I was, with my own sufferings, I had begun to ask myself
-before Mrs. St. Quinten had finished her task whether it would be
-possible to endure three other readings lengthy as this. Ah! if I might
-have read “My New Inmate,” how different would the feeling have been! Of
-what the lady said about Berkeley, I did not catch a word; but the name
-of the philosophical bishop seemed to be repeated usque ad nauseam. Of a
-sudden I was aware that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_220" id="page_220"></a></span> I had snored,&mdash;a kick from Pat Regan wounded my
-shin; a pellet from Jack Hallam fell on my nose; and the essay was
-completed. I looked up, and could see that drops of perspiration were
-standing on the lady’s brow.</p>
-
-<p>There was a pause, and even I was now aroused to attention. We were to
-write our verdicts on paper,&mdash;simply the word, “Insert,” or
-“Reject,”&mdash;and what should I write? Instead of doing so, should I
-declare at once that I was severed from the “Panjandrum” by the
-treatment I had received? That I was severed, in fact, I was very sure.
-Could any human flesh and blood have continued its services to any
-magazine after such humiliation as I had suffered? Nevertheless it might
-perhaps be more manly were I to accept the responsibility of voting on
-the present occasion,&mdash;and if so, how should I vote? I had not followed
-a single sentence, and yet I was convinced that matter such as that
-would never stir the British public mind. But as the thing went, we were
-not called upon for our formal verdicts. “Lydia,” as soon as she had
-done reading, turned at once to her cousin. She cared for no verdict but
-his. “Well,” said she, “what do you think of it?” At first he did not
-answer. “I know I read it badly,” she continued, “but I hope you caught
-my meaning.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_221" id="page_221"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“It is utter nonsense,” he said, without moving his head.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Churchill!” she exclaimed.</p>
-
-<p>“It is utter nonsense,” he repeated. “It is out of the question that it
-should be published.” She glanced her eyes round the company, but
-ventured no spoken appeal. Jack Hallam said something about unnecessary
-severity and want of courtesy. Watt simply shook his head. “I say it is
-trash,” said Smith, rising from his chair. “You shall not disgrace
-yourself. Give it to me.” She put her hand upon the manuscript, as
-though to save it. “Give it to me,” he said sternly, and took it from
-her unresisting grasp. Then he stalked to the fire, and tearing the
-sheets in pieces, thrust them between the bars.</p>
-
-<p>Of course there was a great commotion. We were all up in a moment,
-standing around her as though to console her. Miss Collins came in and
-absolutely wept over her ill-used friend. For the instant I had
-forgotten “The New Inmate,” as though it had never been written. She was
-deluged in tears, hiding her face upon the table; but she uttered no
-word of reproach, and ventured not a syllable in defence of her essay.
-“I didn’t think it was so bad as that,” she murmured amidst her sobs. I
-did not dare to accuse the man of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_222" id="page_222"></a></span> cruelty. I myself had become so small
-among them that my voice would have had no weight. But I did think him
-cruel, and hated him on her account as well as on my own. Jack Hallam
-remarked that for this night, at least, our work must be considered to
-be over. “It is over altogether,” said Churchill Smith. “I have known
-that for weeks past; and I have known, too, what fools we have been to
-make the attempt. I hope, at least, that we may have learnt a lesson
-that will be of service to us. Perhaps you had better go now, and I’ll
-just say a word or two to my cousin before I leave her.”</p>
-
-<p>How we got out of the room I hardly remember. There was, no doubt, some
-leave-taking between us four and the unfortunate Lydia, but it amounted,
-I think, to no more than mere decency required. To Churchill Smith I
-know that I did not speak. I never saw either of the cousins again; nor,
-as has been already told, did I ever distinctly hear what was their fate
-in life. And yet how intimately connected with them had I been for the
-last six or eight months! For not calling upon her, so that we might
-have mingled the tears of our disappointment together, I much blamed
-myself; but the subject which we must have discussed,&mdash;the failure,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_223" id="page_223"></a></span>
-namely, of the “Panjandrum,”&mdash;was one so sore and full of sorrow, that I
-could not bring myself to face the interview. Churchill Smith, I know,
-made various efforts to obtain literary employment; but never succeeded,
-because he would yield no inch in the expression of his own violent
-opinions. I doubt whether he ever earned as much as £10 by his writings.
-I heard of his living,&mdash;and almost starving,&mdash;still in London, and then
-that he went to fight for Polish freedom. It is believed that he died in
-a Russian prison, but I could never find any one who knew with accuracy
-the circumstances of his fate. He was a man who could go forth with his
-life in his hand, and in meeting death could feel that he encountered
-only that which he had expected. Mrs. St. Quinten certainly vanished
-during the next summer from the street in which she had bestowed upon us
-so many muffins, and what became of her I never heard.</p>
-
-<p>On that evening Pat Regan and I consoled ourselves together as best we
-might, Jack Hallam and Walter Watt having parted from us under the walls
-of Marylebone Workhouse. Pat and I walked down to a modest house of
-refreshment with which we were acquainted in Leicester Square, and there
-arranged the obsequies of the “Panjandrum” over a pint of stout and a
-baked<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_224" id="page_224"></a></span> potato. Pat’s equanimity was marvellous. It had not even yet been
-ruffled, although the indignities thrown upon him had almost surpassed
-those inflicted on myself. His “Lord Bateman” had been first rejected;
-and, after that, his subsequent contributions had been absolutely
-ignored, merely because Mr. Churchill Smith had not approved his
-cousin’s essay upon Bishop Berkeley! “It was rot; real rot,” said Pat,
-alluding to Lydia’s essay, and apologising for Smith. “But why not have
-gone on and heard yours?” said I. “Mine would have been rot, too,” said
-Pat. “It isn’t so easy, after all, to do this kind of thing.”</p>
-
-<p>We agreed that the obsequies should be very private. Indeed, as the
-“Panjandrum” had as yet not had a body of its own, it was hardly
-necessary to open the earth for the purposes of interment. We agreed
-simply to say nothing about it to any one. I would go to Mr. X. and tell
-him that we had abandoned our project, and there would be an end of it.
-As the night advanced, I offered to read “The New Inmate” to my friend;
-but he truly remarked that of reading aloud they had surely had enough
-that night. When he reflected that but for the violence of Mr. Smith’s
-proceedings we might even then, at that moment, have been listening to
-an essay upon<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_225" id="page_225"></a></span> the “Basis of Political Rights,” I think that he rejoiced
-that the “Panjandrum” was no more.</p>
-
-<p>On the following morning I called on Mr. X., and explained to him that
-portion of the occurrences of the previous evening with which it was
-necessary that he should be made acquainted. I thought that he was
-rather brusque; but I cannot complain that he was, upon the whole,
-unfriendly. “The truth is, Sir,” he said, “you none of you exactly knew
-what you wanted to be after. You were very anxious to do something
-grand, but hadn’t got this grand thing clear before your eye. People,
-you know, may have too much genius, or may have too little.” Which of
-the two he thought was our case he did not say; but he did promise to
-hear my story of “The New Inmate” read, with reference to its possible
-insertion in another periodical publication with which he had lately
-become connected. Perhaps some of my readers may remember its appearance
-in the first number of the “Marble Arch,” where it attracted no little
-attention, and was supposed to have given assistance, not altogether
-despicable, towards the establishment of that excellent periodical.</p>
-
-<p>Such was the history of the “Panjandrum.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_226" id="page_226"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_227" id="page_227"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_228" id="page_228"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_229" id="page_229"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<h2><a name="THE_SPOTTED_DOG" id="THE_SPOTTED_DOG"></a>THE SPOTTED DOG.</h2>
-
-<p class="c"><img src="images/spotted.jpg"
-alt="[text decoration unavailable.]"
-/>
-</p>
-
-<h2>THE SPOTTED DOG.</h2>
-
-<h3><a name="Part_I_the_Attempt" id="Part_I_the_Attempt"></a><span class="smcap">Part I.&mdash;the Attempt.</span></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">S</span>OME few years since we received the following letter:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p class="nind">
-“<span class="smcap">Dear Sir</span>,<br />
-</p>
-
-<p>“I write to you for literary employment, and I implore you to
-provide me with it if it be within your power to do so. My capacity
-for such work is not small, and my acquirements are considerable.
-My need is very great, and my views in regard to remuneration are
-modest. I was educated at &mdash;&mdash;, and was afterwards a scholar of
-&mdash;&mdash; College, Cambridge. I left the university without a degree, in
-consequence of a quarrel with the college tutor. I was rusticated,
-and not allowed to return. After that I became for awhile a student
-for the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_230" id="page_230"></a></span> Chancery Bar. I then lived for some years in Paris, and I
-understand and speak French as though it were my own language. For
-all purposes of literature I am equally conversant with German. I
-read Italian. I am, of course, familiar with Latin. In regard to
-Greek I will only say that I am less ignorant of it than
-nineteen-twentieths of our national scholars. I am well read in
-modern and ancient history. I have especially studied political
-economy. I have not neglected other matters necessary to the
-education of an enlightened man,&mdash;unless it be natural philosophy.
-I can write English, and can write it with rapidity. I am a
-poet;&mdash;at least, I so esteem myself. I am not a believer. My
-character will not bear investigation;&mdash;in saying which, I mean you
-to understand, not that I steal or cheat, but that I live in a
-dirty lodging, spend many of my hours in a public-house, and cannot
-pay tradesmen’s bills where tradesmen have been found to trust me.
-I have a wife and four children,&mdash;which burden forbids me to free
-myself from all care by a bare bodkin. I am just past forty, and
-since I quarrelled with my family because I could not understand
-The Trinity, I have never been the owner of a ten-pound note. My
-wife was not a lady. I married her because I was determined to take
-refuge<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_231" id="page_231"></a></span> from the conventional thraldom of so-called ‘gentlemen’
-amidst the liberty of the lower orders. My life, of course, has
-been a mistake. Indeed, to live at all,&mdash;is it not a folly?</p>
-
-<p>“I am at present employed on the staff of two or three of the
-‘Penny Dreadfuls.’ Your august highness in literature has perhaps
-never heard of a ‘Penny Dreadful.’ I write for them matter, which
-we among ourselves call ‘blood and nastiness,’&mdash;and which is copied
-from one to another. For this I am paid forty-five shillings a
-week. For thirty shillings a week I will do any work that you may
-impose upon me for the term of six months. I write this letter as a
-last effort to rescue myself from the filth of my present position,
-but I entertain no hope of any success. If you ask it I will come
-and see you; but do not send for me unless you mean to employ me,
-as I am ashamed of myself. I live at No. 3, Cucumber Court, Gray’s
-Inn Lane;&mdash;but if you write, address to the care of Mr. Grimes, the
-Spotted Dog, Liquorpond Street. Now I have told you my whole life,
-and you may help me if you will. I do not expect an answer.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-<span style="margin-right: 20%;">“Yours truly,</span><br />
-
-“<span class="smcap">Julius Mackenzie</span>.”<br />
-</p></div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_232" id="page_232"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>Indeed he had told us his whole life, and what a picture of a life he
-had drawn! There was something in the letter which compelled attention.
-It was impossible to throw it, half read, into the waste-paper basket,
-and to think of it not at all. We did read it, probably twice, and then
-put ourselves to work to consider how much of it might be true and how
-much false. Had the man been a boy at &mdash;&mdash;, and then a scholar of his
-college? We concluded that, so far, the narrative was true. Had he
-abandoned his dependence on wealthy friends from conscientious scruples,
-as he pretended; or had other and less creditable reasons caused the
-severance? On that point we did not quite believe him. And then, as to
-those assertions made by himself in regard to his own capabilities,&mdash;how
-far did they gain credence with us? We think that we believed them all,
-making some small discount,&mdash;with the exception of that one in which he
-proclaimed himself to be a poet. A man may know whether he understands
-French, and be quite ignorant whether the rhymed lines which he produces
-are or are not poetry. When he told us that he was an infidel, and that
-his character would not bear investigation, we went with him altogether.
-His allusion to suicide we regarded as a foolish boast. We<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_233" id="page_233"></a></span> gave him
-credit for the four children, but were not certain about the wife. We
-quite believed the general assertion of his impecuniosity. That stuff
-about “conventional thraldom” we hope we took at its worth. When he told
-us that his life had been a mistake he spoke to us Gospel truth.</p>
-
-<p>Of the “Penny Dreadfuls,” and of “blood and nastiness,” so called, we
-had never before heard, but we did not think it remarkable that a man so
-gifted as our correspondent should earn forty-five shillings a week by
-writing for the cheaper periodicals. It did not, however, appear to us
-probable that any one so remunerated would be willing to leave that
-engagement for another which should give him only thirty shillings. When
-he spoke of the “filth of his present position,” our heart began to
-bleed for him. We know what it is so well, and can fathom so accurately
-the degradation of the educated man who, having been ambitious in the
-career of literature, falls into that slough of despond by which the
-profession of literature is almost surrounded. There we were with him,
-as brothers together. When we came to Mr. Grimes and the Spotted Dog, in
-Liquorpond Street, we thought that we had better refrain from answering
-the letter,&mdash;by which decision on our part he would not,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_234" id="page_234"></a></span> according to
-his own statement, be much disappointed. Mr. Julius Mackenzie! Perhaps
-at this very time rich uncles and aunts were buttoning up their pockets
-against the sinner because of his devotion to the Spotted Dog. There are
-well-to-do people among the Mackenzies. It might be the case that that
-heterodox want of comprehension in regard to The Trinity was the cause
-of it: but we have observed that in most families, grievous as are
-doubts upon such sacred subjects, they are not held to be cause of
-hostility so invincible as is a thorough-going devotion to a Spotted
-Dog. If the Spotted Dog had brought about these troubles, any
-interposition from ourselves would be useless.</p>
-
-<p>For twenty-four hours we had given up all idea of answering the letter;
-but it then occurred to us that men who have become disreputable as
-drunkards do not put forth their own abominations when making appeals
-for aid. If this man were really given to drink he would hardly have
-told us of his association with the public-house. Probably he was much
-at the Spotted Dog, and hated himself for being there. The more we
-thought of it the more we fancied that the gist of his letter might be
-true. It seemed that the man had desired to tell the truth as he himself
-believed it.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_235" id="page_235"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>It so happened that at that time we had been asked to provide an index
-to a certain learned manuscript in three volumes. The intended publisher
-of the work had already procured an index from a professional compiler
-of such matters; but the thing had been so badly done that it could not
-be used. Some knowledge of the classics was required, though it was not
-much more than a familiarity with the names of Latin and Greek authors,
-to which perhaps should be added some acquaintance, with the names also,
-of the better-known editors and commentators. The gentleman who had had
-the task in hand had failed conspicuously, and I had been told by my
-enterprising friend Mr. X&mdash;&mdash;, the publisher, that £25 would be freely
-paid on the proper accomplishment of the undertaking. The work,
-apparently so trifling in its nature, demanded a scholar’s acquirements,
-and could hardly be completed in less than two months. We had snubbed
-the offer, saying that we should be ashamed to ask an educated man to
-give his time and labour for so small a remuneration;&mdash;but to Mr. Julius
-Mackenzie £25 for two months’ work would manifestly be a godsend. If Mr.
-Julius Mackenzie did in truth possess the knowledge for which he gave
-himself credit; if he was, as he said, “familiar with Latin,” and was
-“less ignorant<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_236" id="page_236"></a></span> of Greek than nineteen-twentieths of our national
-scholars,” he might perhaps be able to earn this £25. We certainly knew
-no one else who could and who would do the work properly for that money.
-We therefore wrote to Mr. Julius Mackenzie, and requested his presence.
-Our note was short, cautious, and also courteous. We regretted that a
-man so gifted should be driven by stress of circumstances to such need.
-We could undertake nothing, but if it would not put him to too much
-trouble to call upon us, we might perhaps be able to suggest something
-to him. Precisely at the hour named Mr. Julius Mackenzie came to us.</p>
-
-<p>We well remember his appearance, which was one unutterably painful to
-behold. He was a tall man, very thin,&mdash;thin we might say as a
-whipping-post, were it not that one’s idea of a whipping-post conveys
-erectness and rigidity, whereas this man, as he stood before us, was
-full of bends, and curves, and crookedness. His big head seemed to lean
-forward over his miserably narrow chest. His back was bowed, and his
-legs were crooked and tottering. He had told us that he was over forty,
-but we doubted, and doubt now, whether he had not added something to his
-years, in order partially to excuse the wan, worn weariness of his
-countenance. He carried an<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_237" id="page_237"></a></span> infinity of thick, ragged, wild, dirty hair,
-dark in colour, though not black, which age had not yet begun to
-grizzle. He wore a miserable attempt at a beard, stubbly, uneven, and
-half shorn,&mdash;as though it had been cut down within an inch of his chin
-with blunt scissors. He had two ugly projecting teeth, and his cheeks
-were hollow. His eyes were deep-set, but very bright, illuminating his
-whole face; so that it was impossible to look at him and to think him to
-be one wholly insignificant. His eyebrows were large and shaggy, but
-well formed, not meeting across the brow, with single,
-stiffly-projecting hairs,&mdash;a pair of eyebrows which added much strength
-to his countenance. His nose was long and well shaped,&mdash;but red as a
-huge carbuncle. The moment we saw him we connected that nose with the
-Spotted Dog. It was not a blotched nose, not a nose covered with many
-carbuncles, but a brightly red, smooth, well-formed nose, one glowing
-carbuncle in itself. He was dressed in a long brown great-coat, which
-was buttoned up round his throat, and which came nearly to his feet. The
-binding of the coat was frayed, the buttons were half uncovered, the
-button-holes were tattered, the velvet collar had become party-coloured
-with dirt and usage. It was in the month of December, and a great-coat
-was needed; but this great-coat looked<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_238" id="page_238"></a></span> as though it were worn because
-other garments were not at his command. Not an inch of linen or even of
-flannel shirt was visible. Below his coat we could only see his broken
-boots and the soiled legs of his trousers, which had reached that age
-which in trousers defies description. When we looked at him we could not
-but ask ourselves whether this man had been born a gentleman and was
-still a scholar. And yet there was that in his face which prompted us to
-believe the account he had given of himself. As we looked at him we felt
-sure that he possessed keen intellect, and that he was too much of a man
-to boast of acquirements which he did not believe himself to possess. We
-shook hands with him, asked him to sit down, and murmured something of
-our sorrow that he should be in distress.</p>
-
-<p>“I am pretty well used to it,” said he. There was nothing mean in his
-voice;&mdash;there was indeed a touch of humour in it, and in his manner
-there was nothing of the abjectness of supplication. We had his letter
-in our hands, and we read a portion of it again as he sat opposite to
-us. We then remarked that we did not understand how he, having a wife
-and family dependent on him, could offer to give up a third of his
-income with the mere object of changing the nature of his work. “You<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_239" id="page_239"></a></span>
-don’t know what it is,” said he, “to write for the ‘Penny Dreadfuls.’
-I’m at it seven hours a day, and hate the very words that I write. I
-cursed myself afterwards for sending that letter. I know that to hope is
-to be an ass. But I did send it, and here I am.”</p>
-
-<p>We looked at his nose and felt that we must be careful before we
-suggested to our learned friend Dr. &mdash;&mdash; to put his manuscript into the
-hands of Mr. Julius Mackenzie. If it had been a printed book the attempt
-might have been made without much hazard, but our friend’s work, which
-was elaborate, and very learned, had not yet reached the honours of the
-printing-house. We had had our own doubts whether it might ever assume
-the form of a real book; but our friend, who was a wealthy as well as a
-learned man, was, as yet, very determined. He desired, at any rate, that
-the thing should be perfected, and his publisher had therefore come to
-us offering £25 for the codification and index. Were anything other than
-good to befall his manuscript, his lamentations would be loud, not on
-his own score,&mdash;but on behalf of learning in general. It behoved us
-therefore to be cautious. We pretended to read the letter again, in
-order that we might gain time for a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_240" id="page_240"></a></span> decision, for we were greatly
-frightened by that gleaming nose.</p>
-
-<p>Let the reader understand that the nose was by no means Bardolphian. If
-we have read Shakespeare aright Bardolph’s nose was a thing of terror
-from its size as well as its hue. It was a mighty vat, into which had
-ascended all the divinest particles distilled from the cellars of the
-hostelrie in Eastcheap. Such at least is the idea which stage
-representations have left upon all our minds. But the nose now before us
-was a well-formed nose, would have been a commanding nose,&mdash;for the
-power of command shows itself much in the nasal organ,&mdash;had it not been
-for its colour. While we were thinking of this, and doubting much as to
-our friend’s manuscript, Mr. Mackenzie interrupted us. “You think I am a
-drunkard,” said he. The man’s mother-wit had enabled him to read our
-inmost thoughts.</p>
-
-<p>As we looked up the man had risen from his chair, and was standing over
-us. He loomed upon us very tall, although his legs were crooked, and his
-back bent. Those piercing eyes, and that nose which almost assumed an
-air of authority as he carried it, were a great way above us. There
-seemed to be an infinity of that old brown great-coat. He had divined
-our thoughts, and we<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_241" id="page_241"></a></span> did not dare to contradict him. We felt that a
-weak, vapid, unmanly smile was creeping over our face. We were smiling
-as a man smiles who intends to imply some contemptuous assent with the
-self-depreciating comment of his companion. Such a mode of expression is
-in our estimation most cowardly, and most odious. We had not intended
-it, but we knew that the smile had pervaded us. “Of course you do,” said
-he. “I was a drunkard, but I am not one now. It doesn’t matter;&mdash;only I
-wish you hadn’t sent for me. I’ll go away at once.”</p>
-
-<p>So saying, he was about to depart, but we stopped him. We assured him
-with much energy that we did not mean to offend him. He protested that
-there was no offence. He was too well used to that kind of thing to be
-made “more than wretched by it.” Such was his heart-breaking phrase. “As
-for anger, I’ve lost all that long ago. Of course you take me for a
-drunkard, and I should still be a drunkard, only&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Only what?” I asked.</p>
-
-<p>“It don’t matter,” said he. “I need not trouble you more than I have
-said already. You haven’t got anything for me to do, I suppose?” Then I
-explained to him that I had something he might do, if I could<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_242" id="page_242"></a></span> venture
-to entrust him with the work. With some trouble I got him to sit down
-again, and to listen while I explained to him the circumstances. I had
-been grievously afflicted when he alluded to his former habit of
-drinking,&mdash;a former habit as he himself now stated,&mdash;but I entertained
-no hesitation in raising questions as to his erudition. I felt almost
-assured that his answers would be satisfactory, and that no discomfiture
-would arise from such questioning. We were quickly able to perceive that
-we at any rate could not examine him in classical literature. As soon as
-we mentioned the name and nature of the work he went off at score, and
-satisfied us amply that he was familiar at least with the title-pages of
-editions. We began, indeed, to fear whether he might not be too caustic
-a critic on our own friend’s performance. “Dr. &mdash;&mdash; is only an amateur
-himself,” said we, deprecating in advance any such exercise of the
-red-nosed man’s too severe erudition. “We never get much beyond
-dilettanteism here,” said he, “as far as Greek and Latin are concerned.”
-What a terrible man he would have been could he have got upon the staff
-of the Saturday Review, instead of going to the Spotted Dog!</p>
-
-<p>We endeavoured to bring the interview to an end by<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_243" id="page_243"></a></span> telling him that we
-would consult the learned doctor from whom the manuscript had emanated;
-and we hinted that a reference would be of course acceptable. His
-impudence,&mdash;or perhaps we should rather call it his straightforward
-sincere audacity,&mdash;was unbounded. “Mr. Grimes of the Spotted Dog knows
-me better than any one else,” said he. We blew the breath out of our
-mouth with astonishment. “I’m not asking you to go to him to find out
-whether I know Latin and Greek,” said Mr. Mackenzie. “You must find that
-out for yourself.” We assured him that we thought we had found that out.
-“But he can tell you that I won’t pawn your manuscript.” The man was so
-grim and brave that he almost frightened us. We hinted, however, that
-literary reference should be given. The gentleman who paid him
-forty-five shillings a week,&mdash;the manager, in short, of the “Penny
-Dreadful,”&mdash;might tell us something of him. Then he wrote for us a name
-on a scrap of paper, and added to it an address in the close vicinity of
-Fleet Street, at which we remembered to have seen the title of a
-periodical which we now knew to be a “Penny Dreadful.”</p>
-
-<p>Before he took his leave he made us a speech, again standing up over us,
-though we also were on our legs. It was that bend in his neck, combined
-with his natural<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_244" id="page_244"></a></span> height, which gave him such an air of superiority in
-conversation. He seemed to overshadow us, and to have his own way with
-us, because he was enabled to look down upon us. There was a footstool
-on our hearth-rug, and we remember to have attempted to stand upon that,
-in order that we might escape this supervision; but we stumbled and had
-to kick it from us, and something was added to our sense of inferiority
-by this little failure. “I don’t expect much from this,” he said. “I
-never do expect much. And I have misfortunes independent of my poverty
-which make it impossible that I should be other than a miserable
-wretch.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bad health?” we asked.</p>
-
-<p>“No;&mdash;nothing absolutely personal;&mdash;but never mind. I must not trouble
-you with more of my history. But if you can do this thing for me, it may
-be the means of redeeming me from utter degradation.” We then assured
-him that we would do our best, and he left us with a promise that he
-would call again on that day week.</p>
-
-<p>The first step which we took on his behalf was one the very idea of
-which had at first almost moved us to ridicule. We made enquiry
-respecting Mr. Julius Mackenzie, of Mr. Grimes, the landlord of the
-Spotted Dog. Though Mr. Grimes did keep the Spotted Dog, he might be a
-man<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_245" id="page_245"></a></span> of sense and, possibly, of conscience. At any rate he would tell us
-something, or confirm our doubts by refusing to tell us anything. We
-found Mr. Grimes seated in a very neat little back parlour, and were
-peculiarly taken by the appearance of a lady in a little cap and black
-silk gown, whom we soon found to be Mrs. Grimes. Had we ventured to
-employ our intellect in personifying for ourselves an imaginary Mrs.
-Grimes as the landlady of a Spotted Dog public-house in Liquorpond
-Street, the figure we should have built up for ourselves would have been
-the very opposite of that which this lady presented to us. She was slim,
-and young, and pretty, and had pleasant little tricks of words, in spite
-of occasional slips in her grammar, which made us almost think that it
-might be our duty to come very often to the Spotted Dog to enquire about
-Mr. Julius Mackenzie. Mr. Grimes was a man about forty,&mdash;fully ten years
-the senior of his wife,&mdash;with a clear gray eye, and a mouth and chin
-from which we surmised that he would be competent to clear the Spotted
-Dog of unruly visitors after twelve o’clock, whenever it might be his
-wish to do so. We soon made known our request. Mr. Mackenzie had come to
-us for literary employment. Could they tell us anything about Mr.
-Mackenzie?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_246" id="page_246"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“He’s as clever an author, in the way of writing and that kind of thing,
-as there is in all London,” said Mrs. Grimes with energy. Perhaps her
-opinion ought not to have been taken for much, but it had its weight. We
-explained, however, that at the present moment we were specially anxious
-to know something of the gentleman’s character and mode of life. Mr.
-Grimes, whose manner to us was quite courteous, sat silent, thinking how
-to answer us. His more impulsive and friendly wife was again ready with
-her assurance. “There aint an honester gentleman breathing;&mdash;and I say
-he is a gentleman, though he’s that poor he hasn’t sometimes a shirt to
-his back.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t think he’s ever very well off for shirts,” said Mr. Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“I wouldn’t be slow to give him one of yours, John, only I know he
-wouldn’t take it,” said Mrs. Grimes. “Well now, look here, Sir;&mdash;we’ve
-that feeling for him that our young woman there would draw anything for
-him he’d ask&mdash;money or no money. She’d never venture to name money to
-him if he wanted a glass of anything,&mdash;hot or cold, beer or spirits.
-Isn’t that so, John?”</p>
-
-<p>“She’s fool enough for anything as far as I know,” said Mr. Grimes.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_247" id="page_247"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>“She aint no fool at all; and I’d do the same if I was there, and so’d
-you, John. There is nothing Mackenzie’d ask as he wouldn’t give him,”
-said Mrs. Grimes, pointing with her thumb over her shoulder to her
-husband, who was standing on the hearth-rug;&mdash;“that is, in the way of
-drawing liquor, and refreshments, and such like. But he never raised a
-glass to his lips in this house as he didn’t pay for, nor yet took a
-biscuit out of that basket. He’s a gentleman all over, is Mackenzie.”</p>
-
-<p>It was strong testimony; but still we had not quite got at the bottom of
-the matter. “Doesn’t he raise a great many glasses to his lips?” we
-asked.</p>
-
-<p>“No he don’t,” said Mrs. Grimes,&mdash;“only in reason.”</p>
-
-<p>“He’s had misfortunes,” said Mr. Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed he has,” said the lady,&mdash;“what I call the very troublesomest of
-troubles. If you was troubled like him, John, where’d you be?”</p>
-
-<p>“I know where you’d be,” said John.</p>
-
-<p>“He’s got a bad wife, Sir; the worst as ever was,” continued Mrs.
-Grimes. “Talk of drink;&mdash;there is nothing that woman wouldn’t do for it.
-She’d pawn the very clothes off her children’s back in mid-winter to get
-it. She’d rob the food out of her husband’s mouth for a drop of gin. As
-for herself,&mdash;she aint no woman’s<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_248" id="page_248"></a></span> notions left of keeping herself any
-way. She’d as soon be picked out of the gutter as not;&mdash;and as for words
-out of her mouth or clothes on her back, she hasn’t got, Sir, not an
-item of a female’s feelings left about her.”</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Grimes had been very eloquent, and had painted the “troublesomest
-of all troubles” with glowing words. This was what the wretched man had
-come to by marrying a woman who was not a lady in order that he might
-escape the “conventional thraldom” of gentility! But still the drunken
-wife was not all. There was the evidence of his own nose against
-himself, and the additional fact that he had acknowledged himself to
-have been formerly a drunkard. “I suppose he has drunk, himself?” we
-said.</p>
-
-<p>“He has drunk, in course,” said Mrs. Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“The world has been pretty rough with him, Sir,” said Mr. Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“But he don’t drink now,” continued the lady. “At least if he do, we
-don’t see it. As for her, she wouldn’t show herself inside our door.”</p>
-
-<p>“It aint often that man and wife draws their milk from the same cow,”
-said Mr. Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“But Mackenzie is here every day of his life,” said Mrs. Grimes. “When
-he’s got a sixpence to pay for it,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_249" id="page_249"></a></span> he’ll come in here and have a glass
-of beer and a bit of something to eat. We does make him a little extra
-welcome, and that’s the truth of it. We knows what he is, and we knows
-what he was. As for book learning, Sir;&mdash;it don’t matter what language
-it is, it’s all as one to him. He knows ’em all round just as I know my
-catechism.”</p>
-
-<p>“Can’t you say fairer than that for him, Polly?” asked Mr. Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t you talk of catechisms, John, nor yet of nothing else as a man
-ought to set his mind to;&mdash;unless it is keeping the Spotted Dog. But as
-for Mackenzie;&mdash;he knows off by heart whole books full of learning.
-There was some furreners here as come from,&mdash;I don’t know where it was
-they come from, only it wasn’t France, nor yet Germany, and he talked to
-them just as though he hadn’t been born in England at all. I don’t think
-there ever was such a man for knowing things. He’ll go on with poetry
-out of his own head till you think it comes from him like web from a
-spider.” We could not help thinking of the wonderful companionship which
-there must have been in that parlour while the reduced man was spinning
-his web and Mrs. Grimes, with her needlework lying idle in her lap, was
-sitting by, listening with rapt admiration. In passing by the Spotted
-Dog one<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_250" id="page_250"></a></span> would not imagine such a scene to have its existence within.
-But then so many things do have existence of which we imagine nothing!</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Grimes ended the interview. “The fact is, Sir, if you can give him
-employment better than what he has now, you’ll be helping a man who has
-seen better days, and who only wants help to see ’em again. He’s got it
-all there,” and Mr. Grimes put his finger up to his head.</p>
-
-<p>“He’s got it all here too,” said Mrs. Grimes, laying her hand upon her
-heart. Hereupon we took our leave, suggesting to these excellent friends
-that if it should come to pass that we had further dealings with Mr.
-Mackenzie we might perhaps trouble them again. They assured us that we
-should always be welcome, and Mr. Grimes himself saw us to the door,
-having made profuse offers of such good cheer as the house afforded. We
-were upon the whole much taken with the Spotted Dog.</p>
-
-<p>From thence we went to the office of the “Penny Dreadful,” in the
-vicinity of Fleet Street. As we walked thither we could not but think of
-Mrs. Grimes’s words. The troublesomest of troubles! We acknowledged to
-ourselves that they were true words. Can there be any trouble more
-troublesome than that of suffering from the shame inflicted by a
-degraded wife? We had just parted<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_251" id="page_251"></a></span> from Mr. Grimes,&mdash;not, indeed, having
-seen very much of him in the course of our interview;&mdash;but little as we
-had seen, we were sure that he was assisted in his position by a buoyant
-pride in that he called himself the master, and owner, and husband of
-Mrs. Grimes. In the very step with which he passed in and out of his own
-door you could see that there was nothing that he was ashamed of about
-his household. When abroad he could talk of his “missus” with a
-conviction that the picture which the word would convey to all who heard
-him would redound to his honour. But what must have been the reflections
-of Julius Mackenzie when his mind dwelt upon his wife? We remembered the
-words of his letter. “I have a wife and four children, which burden
-forbids me to free myself from all care with a bare bodkin.” As we
-thought of them, and of the story which had been told to us at the
-Spotted Dog, they lost that tone of rhodomontade with which they had
-invested themselves when we first read them. A wife who is indifferent
-to being picked out of the gutter, and who will pawn her children’s
-clothes for gin, must be a trouble than which none can be more
-troublesome.</p>
-
-<p>We did not find that we ingratiated ourselves with the people at the
-office of the periodical for which Mr.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_252" id="page_252"></a></span> Mackenzie worked; and yet we
-endeavoured to do so, assuming in our manner and tone something of the
-familiarity of a common pursuit. After much delay we came upon a
-gentleman sitting in a dark cupboard, who twisted round his stool to
-face us while he spoke to us. We believe that he was the editor of more
-than one “Penny Dreadful,” and that as many as a dozen serial novels
-were being issued to the world at the same time under his supervision.
-“Oh!” said he, “so you’re at that game, are you?” We assured him that we
-were at no game at all, but were simply influenced by a desire to assist
-a distressed scholar. “That be blowed,” said our brother. “Mackenzie’s
-doing as well here as he’ll do anywhere. He’s a drunken blackguard, when
-all’s said and done. So you’re going to buy him up, are you? You won’t
-keep him long,&mdash;and then he’ll have to starve.” We assured the gentleman
-that we had no desire to buy up Mr. Mackenzie; we explained our ideas as
-to the freedom of the literary profession, in accordance with which Mr.
-Mackenzie could not be wrong in applying to us for work; and we
-especially deprecated any severity on our brother’s part towards the
-man, more especially begging that nothing might be decided, as we were
-far from thinking it certain that we could provide<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_253" id="page_253"></a></span> Mr. Mackenzie with
-any literary employment. “That’s all right,” said our brother, twisting
-back his stool. “He can’t work for both of us;&mdash;that’s all. He has his
-bread here regular, week after week; and I don’t suppose you’ll do as
-much as that for him.” Then we went away, shaking the dust off our feet,
-and wondering much at the great development of literature which latter
-years have produced. We had not even known of the existence of these
-papers;&mdash;and yet there they were, going forth into the hands of hundreds
-of thousands of readers, all of whom were being, more or less,
-instructed in their modes of life and manner of thinking by the stories
-which were thus brought before them.</p>
-
-<p>But there might be truth in what our brother had said to us. Should Mr.
-Mackenzie abandon his present engagement for the sake of the job which
-we proposed to put in his hands, might he not thereby injure rather than
-improve his prospects? We were acquainted with only one learned doctor
-desirous of having his manuscripts codified and indexed at his own
-expense. As for writing for the periodical with which we were connected,
-we knew enough of the business to be aware that Mr. Mackenzie’s gifts of
-erudition would very probably not so much assist him in attempting such
-work as would his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_254" id="page_254"></a></span> late training act against him. A man might be able to
-read and even talk a dozen languages,&mdash;“just as though he hadn’t been
-born in England at all,”&mdash;and yet not write the language with which we
-dealt after the fashion which suited our readers. It might be that he
-would fly much above our heads, and do work infinitely too big for us.
-We did not regard our own heads as being very high. But, for such
-altitude as they held, a certain class of writing was adapted. The
-gentleman whom we had just left would require, no doubt, altogether
-another style. It was probable that Mr. Mackenzie had already fitted
-himself to his present audience. And, even were it not so, we could not
-promise him forty-five shillings a week, or even that thirty shillings
-for which he asked. There is nothing more dangerous than the attempt to
-befriend a man in middle life by transplanting him from one soil to
-another.</p>
-
-<p>When Mr. Mackenzie came to us again we endeavoured to explain all this
-to him. We had in the meantime seen our friend the Doctor, whose
-beneficence of spirit in regard to the unfortunate man of letters was
-extreme. He was charmed with our account of the man, and saw with his
-mind’s eye the work, for the performance of which he was pining,
-perfected in a manner that would<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_255" id="page_255"></a></span> be a blessing to the scholars of all
-future ages. He was at first anxious to ask Julius Mackenzie down to his
-rectory, and, even after we had explained to him that this would not at
-present be expedient, was full of a dream of future friendship with a
-man who would be able to discuss the digamma with him, who would have
-studied Greek metres, and have an opinion of his own as to Porson’s
-canon. We were in possession of the manuscript, and had our friend’s
-authority for handing it over to Mr. Mackenzie.</p>
-
-<p>He came to us according to appointment, and his nose seemed to be redder
-than ever. We thought that we discovered a discouraging flavour of
-spirits in his breath. Mrs. Grimes had declared that he drank,&mdash;only in
-reason; but the ideas of the wife of a publican,&mdash;even though that wife
-were Mrs. Grimes,&mdash;might be very different from our own as to what was
-reasonable in that matter. And as we looked at him he seemed to be more
-rough, more ragged, almost more wretched than before. It might be that,
-in taking his part with my brother of the “Penny Dreadful,” with the
-Doctor, and even with myself in thinking over his claims, I had endowed
-him with higher qualities than I had been justified in giving to him. As
-I considered him and his appearance I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_256" id="page_256"></a></span> certainly could not assure myself
-that he looked like a man worthy to be trusted. A policeman, seeing him
-at a street corner, would have had an eye upon him in a moment. He
-rubbed himself together within his old coat, as men do when they come
-out of gin-shops. His eye was as bright as before, but we thought that
-his mouth was meaner, and his nose redder. We were almost disenchanted
-with him. We said nothing to him at first about the Spotted Dog, but
-suggested to him our fears that if he undertook work at our hands he
-would lose the much more permanent employment which he got from the
-gentleman whom we had seen in the cupboard. We then explained to him
-that we could promise to him no continuation of employment.</p>
-
-<p>The violence with which he cursed the gentleman who had sat in the
-cupboard appalled us, and had, we think, some effect in bringing back to
-us that feeling of respect for him which we had almost lost. It may be
-difficult to explain why we respected him because he cursed and swore
-horribly. We do not like cursing and swearing, and were any of our
-younger contributors to indulge themselves after that fashion in our
-presence we should, at the very least,&mdash;frown upon them. We did not
-frown upon Julius Mackenzie, but stood up, gazing into his face<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_257" id="page_257"></a></span> above
-us, again feeling that the man was powerful. Perhaps we respected him
-because he was not in the least afraid of us. He went on to assert that
-he cared not,&mdash;not a straw, we will say,&mdash;for the gentleman in the
-cupboard. He knew the gentleman in the cupboard very well; and the
-gentleman in the cupboard knew him. As long as he took his work to the
-gentleman in the cupboard, the gentleman in the cupboard would be only
-too happy to purchase that work at the rate of sixpence for a page of
-manuscript containing two hundred and fifty words. That was his rate of
-payment for prose fiction, and at that rate he could earn forty-five
-shillings a week. He wasn’t afraid of the gentleman in the cupboard. He
-had had some words with the gentleman in the cupboard before now, and
-they two understood each other very well. He hinted, moreover, that
-there were other gentlemen in other cupboards; but with none of them
-could he advance beyond forty-five shillings a week. For this he had to
-sit, with his pen in his hand, seven hours seven days a week, and the
-very paper, pens, and ink came to fifteenpence out of the money. He had
-struck for wages once, and for a halcyon month or two had carried his
-point of sevenpence halfpenny a page; but the gentlemen in the cupboards
-had told him that it could not be.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_258" id="page_258"></a></span> They, too, must live. His matter was
-no doubt attractive; but any price above sixpence a page unfitted it for
-their market. All this Mr. Julius Mackenzie explained to us with much
-violence of expression. When I named Mrs. Grimes to him the tone of his
-voice was altered. “Yes,” said he, “I thought they’d say a word for me.
-They’re the best friends I’ve got now. I don’t know that you ought quite
-to believe her, for I think she’d perhaps tell a lie to do me a
-service.” We assured him that we did believe every word Mrs. Grimes had
-said to us.</p>
-
-<p>After much pausing over the matter we told him that we were empowered to
-trust him with our friend’s work, and the manuscript was produced upon
-the table. If he would undertake the work and perform it, he should be
-paid £8: 6<i>s.</i>: 8<i>d.</i> for each of the three volumes as they were
-completed. And we undertook, moreover, on our own responsibility, to
-advance him money in small amounts through the hands of Mrs. Grimes, if
-he really settled himself to the task. At first he was in ecstasies, and
-as we explained to him the way in which the index should be brought out
-and the codification performed, he turned over the pages rapidly, and
-showed us that he understood at any rate the nature of the work to be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_259" id="page_259"></a></span>
-done. But when we came to details he was less happy. In what workshop
-was this new work to be performed? There was a moment in which we almost
-thought of telling him to do the work in our own room; but we hesitated,
-luckily, remembering that his continual presence with us for two or
-three months would probably destroy us altogether. It appeared that his
-present work was done sometimes at the Spotted Dog, and sometimes at
-home in his lodgings. He said not a word to us about his wife, but we
-could understand that there would be periods in which to work at home
-would be impossible to him. He did not pretend to deny that there might
-be danger on that score, nor did he ask permission to take the entire
-manuscript at once away to his abode. We knew that if he took part he
-must take the whole, as the work could not be done in parts. Counter
-references would be needed. “My circumstances are bad;&mdash;very bad
-indeed,” he said. We expressed the great trouble to which we should be
-subjected if any evil should happen to the manuscript. “I will give it
-up,” he said, towering over us again, and shaking his head. “I cannot
-expect that I should be trusted.” But we were determined that it should
-not be given up. Sooner than give the matter up we would make some
-arrangement by<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_260" id="page_260"></a></span> hiring a place in which he might work. Even though we
-were to pay ten shillings a week for a room for him out of the money,
-the bargain would be a good one for him. At last we determined that we
-would pay a second visit to the Spotted Dog, and consult Mrs. Grimes. We
-felt that we should have a pleasure in arranging together with Mrs.
-Grimes any scheme of benevolence on behalf of this unfortunate and
-remarkable man. So we told him that we would think over the matter, and
-send a letter to his address at the Spotted Dog, which he should receive
-on the following morning. He then gathered himself up, rubbed himself
-together again inside his coat, and took his departure.</p>
-
-<p>As soon as he was gone we sat looking at the learned Doctor’s
-manuscript, and thinking of what we had done. There lay the work of
-years, by which our dear and venerable old friend expected that he would
-take rank among the great commentators of modern times. We, in truth,
-did not anticipate for him all the glory to which he looked forward. We
-feared that there might be disappointment. Hot discussion on verbal
-accuracies or on rules of metre are perhaps not so much in vogue now as
-they were a hundred years ago. There might be disappointment and great
-sorrow; but we could not with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_261" id="page_261"></a></span> equanimity anticipate the prevention of
-this sorrow by the possible loss or destruction of the manuscript which
-had been entrusted to us. The Doctor himself had seemed to anticipate no
-such danger. When we told him of Mackenzie’s learning and misfortunes,
-he was eager at once that the thing should be done, merely stipulating
-that he should have an interview with Mr. Mackenzie before he returned
-to his rectory.</p>
-
-<p>That same day we went to the Spotted Dog, and found Mrs. Grimes alone.
-Mackenzie had been there immediately after leaving our room, and had
-told her what had taken place. She was full of the subject and anxious
-to give every possible assistance. She confessed at once that the papers
-would not be safe in the rooms inhabited by Mackenzie and his wife. “He
-pays five shillings a week,” she said, “for a wretched place round in
-Cucumber Court. They are all huddled together, any way; and how he
-manages to do a thing at all there,&mdash;in the way of author-work,&mdash;is a
-wonder to everybody. Sometimes he can’t, and then he’ll sit for hours
-together at the little table in our tap-room.” We went into the tap-room
-and saw the little table. It was a wonder indeed that any one should be
-able to compose and write tales of imagination in a place so dreary,
-dark, and ill-omened. The<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_262" id="page_262"></a></span> little table was hardly more than a long slab
-or plank, perhaps eighteen inches wide. When we visited the place there
-were two brewers’ draymen seated there, and three draggled,
-wretched-looking women. The carters were eating enormous hunches of
-bread and bacon, which they cut and put into their mouths slowly,
-solemnly, and in silence. The three women were seated on a bench, and
-when I saw them had no signs of festivity before them. It must be
-presumed that they had paid for something, or they would hardly have
-been allowed to sit there. “It’s empty now,” said Mrs. Grimes, taking no
-immediate notice of the men or of the women; “but sometimes he’ll sit
-writing in that corner, when there’s such a jabber of voices as you
-wouldn’t hear a cannon go off over at Reid’s, and that thick with smoke
-you’d a’most cut it with a knife. Don’t he, Peter?” The man whom she
-addressed endeavoured to prepare himself for answer by swallowing at the
-moment three square inches of bread and bacon, which he had just put
-into his mouth. He made an awful effort, but failed; and, failing,
-nodded his head three times. “They all know him here, Sir,” continued
-Mrs. Grimes. “He’ll go on writing, writing, writing, for hours together;
-and nobody’ll say nothing to him. Will they, Peter?” Peter,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_263" id="page_263"></a></span> who was now
-half-way through the work he had laid out for himself, muttered some
-inarticulate grunt of assent.</p>
-
-<p>We then went back to the snug little room inside the bar. It was quite
-clear to me that the man could not manipulate the Doctor’s manuscript,
-of which he would have to spread a dozen sheets before him at the same
-time, in the place I had just visited. Even could he have occupied the
-chamber alone, the accommodation would not have been sufficient for the
-purpose. It was equally clear that he could not be allowed to use Mrs.
-Grimes’s snuggery. “How are we to get a place for him?” said I,
-appealing to the lady. “He shall have a place,” she said, “I’ll go bail;
-he sha’n’t lose the job for want of a workshop.” Then she sat down and
-began to think it over. I was just about to propose the hiring of some
-decent room in the neighbourhood, when she made a suggestion, which I
-acknowledge startled me. “I’ll have a big table put into my own
-bed-room,” said she, “and he shall do it there. There aint another hole
-or corner about the place as’d suit; and he can lay the gentleman’s
-papers all about on the bed, square and clean and orderly. Can’t he now?
-And I can see after ’em, as he don’t lose ’em. Can’t I now?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_264" id="page_264"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>By this time there had sprung up an intimacy between ourselves and Mrs.
-Grimes which seemed to justify an expression of the doubt which I then
-threw on the propriety of such a disarrangement of her most private
-domestic affairs. “Mr. Grimes will hardly approve of that,” we said.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, John won’t mind. What’ll it matter to John as long as Mackenzie is
-out in time for him to go to bed? We aint early birds, morning or
-night,&mdash;that’s true. In our line folks can’t be early. But from ten to
-six there’s the room, and he shall have it. Come up and see, Sir.” So we
-followed Mrs. Grimes up the narrow staircase to the marital bower. “It
-aint large, but there’ll be room for the table, and for him to sit at
-it;&mdash;won’t there now?”</p>
-
-<p>It was a dark little room, with one small window looking out under the
-low roof, and facing the heavy high dead wall of the brewery opposite.
-But it was clean and sweet, and the furniture in it was all solid and
-good, old-fashioned, and made of mahogany. Two or three of Mrs. Grimes’s
-gowns were laid upon the bed, and other portions of her dress were hung
-on pegs behind the doors. The only untidy article in the room was a pair
-of “John’s” trousers, which he had failed to put out of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_265" id="page_265"></a></span> sight. She was
-not a bit abashed, but took them up and folded them and patted them, and
-laid them in the capacious wardrobe. “We’ll have all these things away,”
-she said, “and then he can have all his papers out upon the bed just as
-he pleases.”</p>
-
-<p>We own that there was something in the proposed arrangement which
-dismayed us. We also were married, and what would our wife have said had
-we proposed that a contributor,&mdash;even a contributor not red-nosed and
-seething with gin,&mdash;that any best-disciplined contributor should be
-invited to write an article within the precincts of our sanctum? We
-could not bring ourselves to believe that Mr. Grimes would authorise the
-proposition. There is something holy about the bed-room of a married
-couple; and there would be a special desecration in the continued
-presence of Mr. Julius Mackenzie. We thought it better that we should
-explain something of all this to her. “Do you know,” we said, “this
-seems to be hardly prudent?”</p>
-
-<p>“Why not prudent?” she asked.</p>
-
-<p>“Up in your bed-room, you know! Mr. Grimes will be sure to dislike it.”</p>
-
-<p>“What,&mdash;John! Not he. I know what you’re a-thinking <span class="pagenum"><a name="page_266" id="page_266"></a></span>of, Mr. &mdash;&mdash;,” she
-said. “But we’re different in our ways than what you are. Things to us
-are only just what they are. We haven’t time, nor yet money, nor perhaps
-edication, for seemings and thinkings as you have. If you was travelling
-out amongst the wild Injeans, you’d ask any one to have a bit in your
-bed-room as soon as look at ’em, if you’d got a bit for ’em to eat.
-We’re travelling among wild Injeans all our lives, and a bed-room aint
-no more to us than any other room. Mackenzie shall come up here, and
-I’ll have the table fixed for him, just there by the window.” I hadn’t
-another word to say to her, and I could not keep myself from thinking
-for many an hour afterwards, whether it may not be a good thing for men,
-and for women also, to believe that they are always travelling among
-wild Indians.</p>
-
-<p>When we went down Mr. Grimes himself was in the little parlour. He did
-not seem at all surprised at seeing his wife enter the room from above
-accompanied by a stranger. She at once began her story, and told the
-arrangement which she proposed,&mdash;which she did, as I observed, without
-any actual request for his sanction. Looking at Mr. Grimes’s face, I
-thought that he did not quite like it; but he accepted it, almost
-without a word, scratching his head and raising his eyebrows. “You<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_267" id="page_267"></a></span>
-know, John, he could no more do it at home than he could fly,” said Mrs.
-Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“Who said he could do it at home?”</p>
-
-<p>“And he couldn’t do it in the tap-room;&mdash;could he? If so, there aint no
-other place, and so that’s settled.” John Grimes again scratched his
-head, and the matter was settled. Before we left the house Mackenzie
-himself came in, and was told in our presence of the accommodation which
-was to be prepared for him. “It’s just like you, Mrs. Grimes,” was all
-he said in the way of thanks. Then Mrs. Grimes made her bargain with him
-somewhat sternly. He should have the room for five hours a day,&mdash;ten
-till three, or twelve till five; but he must settle which, and then
-stick to his hours. “And I won’t have nothing up there in the way of
-drink,” said John Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“Who’s asking to have drink there?” said Mackenzie.</p>
-
-<p>“You’re not asking now, but maybe you will. I won’t have it, that’s
-all.”</p>
-
-<p>“That shall be all right, John,” said Mrs. Grimes, nodding her head.</p>
-
-<p>“Women are that soft,&mdash;in the way of judgment,&mdash;that they’ll go and do
-a’most anything, good or bad, when they’ve got their feelings up.” Such
-was the only<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_268" id="page_268"></a></span> rebuke which in our hearing Mr. Grimes administered to his
-pretty wife. Mackenzie whispered something to the publican, but Grimes
-only shook his head. We understood it all thoroughly. He did not like
-the scheme, but he would not contradict his wife in an act of real
-kindness. We then made an appointment with the scholar for meeting our
-friend and his future patron at our rooms, and took our leave of the
-Spotted Dog. Before we went, however, Mrs. Grimes insisted on producing
-some cherry-bounce, as she called it, which, after sundry refusals on
-our part, was brought in on a small round shining tray, in a little
-bottle covered all over with gold sprigs, with four tiny glasses
-similarly ornamented. Mrs. Grimes poured out the liquor, using a very
-sparing hand when she came to the glass which was intended for herself.
-We find it, as a rule, easier to talk with the Grimeses of the world
-than to eat with them or to drink with them. When the glass was handed
-to us we did not know whether or no we were expected to say something.
-We waited, however, till Mr. Grimes and Mackenzie had been provided with
-their glasses. “Proud to see you at the Spotted Dog, Mr. &mdash;&mdash;,” said
-Grimes. “That we are,” said Mrs. Grimes, smiling at us over her almost
-imperceptible drop of drink. Julius<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_269" id="page_269"></a></span> Mackenzie just bobbed his head, and
-swallowed the cordial at a gulp,&mdash;as a dog does a lump of meat, leaving
-the impression on his friends around him that he has not got from it
-half the enjoyment which it might have given him had he been a little
-more patient in the process. I could not but think that had Mackenzie
-allowed the cherry-bounce to trickle a little in his palate, as I did
-myself, it would have gratified him more than it did in being chucked
-down his throat with all the impetus which his elbow could give to the
-glass. “That’s tidy tipple,” said Mr. Grimes, winking his eye. We
-acknowledged that it was tidy. “My mother made it, as used to keep the
-Pig and Magpie, at Colchester,” said Mrs. Grimes. In this way we learned
-a good deal of Mrs. Grimes’s history. Her very earliest years had been
-passed among wild Indians.</p>
-
-<p>Then came the interview between the Doctor and Mr. Mackenzie. We must
-confess that we greatly feared the impression which our younger friend
-might make on the elder. We had of course told the Doctor of the red
-nose, and he had accepted the information with a smile. But he was a man
-who would feel the contamination of contact with a drunkard, and who
-would shrink from an unpleasant association. There are vices of which
-we<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_270" id="page_270"></a></span> habitually take altogether different views in accordance with the
-manner in which they are brought under our notice. This vice of
-drunkenness is often a joke in the mouths of those to whom the thing
-itself is a horror. Even before our boys we talk of it as being rather
-funny, though to see one of them funny himself would almost break our
-hearts. The learned commentator had accepted our account of the red nose
-as though it were simply a part of the undeserved misery of the wretched
-man; but should he find the wretched man to be actually redolent of gin
-his feelings might be changed. The Doctor was with us first, and the
-volumes of the MS. were displayed upon the table. The compiler of them,
-as he lifted here a page and there a page, handled them with the
-gentleness of a lover. They had been exquisitely arranged, and were very
-fair. The pagings, and the margins, and the chapterings, and all the
-complementary paraphernalia of authorship, were perfect. “A lifetime, my
-friend; just a lifetime!” the Doctor had said to us, speaking of his own
-work while we were waiting for the man to whose hands was to be
-entrusted the result of so much labour and scholarship. We wished at
-that moment that we had never been called on to interfere in the
-matter.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_271" id="page_271"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>Mackenzie came, and the introduction was made. The Doctor was a
-gentleman of the old school, very neat in his attire,&mdash;dressed in
-perfect black, with kneebreeches and black gaiters, with a closely-shorn
-chin, and an exquisitely white cravat. Though he was in truth simply the
-rector of his parish, his parish was one which entitled him to call
-himself a dean, and he wore a clerical rosette on his hat. He was a
-well-made, tall, portly gentleman, with whom to take the slightest
-liberty would have been impossible. His well-formed full face was
-singularly expressive of benevolence, but there was in it too an air of
-command which created an involuntary respect. He was a man whose means
-were ample, and who could afford to keep two curates, so that the
-appanages of a Church dignitary did in some sort belong to him. We doubt
-whether he really understood what work meant,&mdash;even when he spoke with
-so much pathos of the labour of his life; but he was a man not at all
-exacting in regard to the work of others, and who was anxious to make
-the world as smooth and rosy to those around him as it had been to
-himself. He came forward, paused a moment, and then shook hands with
-Mackenzie. Our work had been done, and we remained in the background
-during the interview. It was now for<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_272" id="page_272"></a></span> the Doctor to satisfy himself with
-the scholarship,&mdash;and, if he chose to take cognizance of the matter,
-with the morals of his proposed assistant.</p>
-
-<p>Mackenzie himself was more subdued in his manner than he had been when
-talking with ourselves. The Doctor made a little speech, standing at the
-table with one hand on one volume and the other on another. He told of
-all his work, with a mixture of modesty as to the thing done, and
-self-assertion as to his interest in doing it, which was charming. He
-acknowledged that the sum proposed for the aid which he required was
-inconsiderable;&mdash;but it had been fixed by the proposed publisher. Should
-Mr. Mackenzie find that the labour was long he would willingly increase
-it. Then he commenced a conversation respecting the Greek dramatists,
-which had none of the air or tone of an examination, but which still
-served the purpose of enabling Mackenzie to show his scholarship. In
-that respect there was no doubt that the ragged, red-nosed, disreputable
-man, who stood there longing for his job, was the greater proficient of
-the two. We never discovered that he had had access to books in later
-years; but his memory of the old things seemed to be perfect. When it
-was suggested that references would be required, it seemed that he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_273" id="page_273"></a></span> did
-know his way into the library of the British Museum. “When I wasn’t
-quite so shabby,” he said boldly, “I used to be there.” The Doctor
-instantly produced a ten-pound note, and insisted that it should be
-taken in advance. Mackenzie hesitated, and we suggested that it was
-premature; but the Doctor was firm. “If an old scholar mayn’t assist one
-younger than himself,” he said, “I don’t know when one man may aid
-another. And this is no alms. It is simply a pledge for work to be
-done.” Mackenzie took the money, muttering something of an assurance
-that as far as his ability went, the work should be done well. “It
-should certainly,” he said, “be done diligently.”</p>
-
-<p>When money had passed, of course the thing was settled; but in truth the
-bank-note had been given, not from judgment in settling the matter, but
-from the generous impulse of the moment. There was, however, no
-receding. The Doctor expressed by no hint a doubt as to the safety of
-his manuscript. He was by far too fine a gentleman to give the man whom
-he employed pain in that direction. If there were risk, he would now run
-the risk. And so the thing was settled.</p>
-
-<p>We did not, however, give the manuscript on that occasion into
-Mackenzie’s hands, but took it down afterwards,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_274" id="page_274"></a></span> locked in an old
-despatch box of our own, to the Spotted Dog, and left the box with the
-key of it in the hands of Mrs. Grimes. Again we went up into that lady’s
-bed-room, and saw that the big table had been placed by the window for
-Mackenzie’s accommodation. It so nearly filled the room, that as we
-observed, John Grimes could not get round at all to his side of the bed.
-It was arranged that Mackenzie was to begin on the morrow.</p>
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-<h3><a name="Part_II_The_Result" id="Part_II_The_Result"></a><span class="smcap">Part II.&mdash;The Result.</span></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">D</span>URING the next month we saw a good deal of Mr. Julius Mackenzie, and
-made ourselves quite at home in Mrs. Grimes’s bed-room. We went in and
-out of the Spotted Dog as if we had known that establishment all our
-lives, and spent many a quarter of an hour with the hostess in her
-little parlour, discussing the prospects of Mr. Mackenzie and his
-family. He had procured to himself decent, if not exactly new, garments
-out of the money so liberally provided by my learned friend the Doctor,
-and spent much of his time in the library of the British Museum. He
-certainly worked very hard, for he did not altogether abandon his old
-engagement. Before the end of the first month the index of the first
-volume, nearly completed,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_276" id="page_276"></a></span> had been sent down for the inspection of the
-Doctor, and had been returned with ample eulogium and some little
-criticism. The criticisms Mackenzie answered by letter, with true
-scholarly spirit, and the Doctor was delighted. Nothing could be more
-pleasant to him than a correspondence, prolonged almost indefinitely, as
-to the respective merits of a τὀ or a τον, or on the demand for a
-spondee or an iamb. When he found that the work was really in
-industrious hands, he ceased to be clamorous for early publication, and
-gave us to understand privately that Mr. Mackenzie was not to be limited
-to the sum named. The matter of remuneration was, indeed, left very much
-to ourselves, and Mackenzie had certainly found a most efficient friend
-in the author whose works had been confided to his hands.</p>
-
-<p>All this was very pleasant, and Mackenzie throughout that month worked
-very hard. According to the statements made to me by Mrs. Grimes he took
-no more gin than what was necessary for a hard-working man. As to the
-exact quantity of that cordial which she imagined to be beneficial and
-needful, we made no close enquiry. He certainly kept himself in a
-condition for work, and so far all went on happily. Nevertheless, there
-was a terrible skeleton in the cupboard,&mdash;or rather out of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_277" id="page_277"></a></span>
-cupboard, for the skeleton could not be got to hide itself. A certain
-portion of his prosperity reached the hands of his wife, and she was
-behaving herself worse than ever. The four children had been covered
-with decent garments under Mrs. Grimes’s care, and then Mrs. Mackenzie
-had appeared at the Spotted Dog, loudly demanding a new outfit for
-herself. She came not only once, but often, and Mr. Grimes was beginning
-to protest that he saw too much of the family. We had become very
-intimate with Mrs. Grimes, and she did not hesitate to confide to us her
-fears lest “John should cut up rough,” before the thing was completed.
-“You see,” she said, “it is against the house, no doubt, that woman
-coming nigh it.” But still she was firm, and Mackenzie was not disturbed
-in the possession of the bed-room. At last Mrs. Mackenzie was provided
-with some articles of female attire;&mdash;and then, on the very next day,
-she and the four children were again stripped almost naked. The wretched
-creature must have steeped herself in gin to the shoulders, for in one
-day she made a sweep of everything. She then came in a state of furious
-intoxication to the Spotted Dog, and was removed by the police under the
-express order of the landlord.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_278" id="page_278"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>We can hardly say which was the most surprising to us, the loyalty of
-Mrs. Grimes or the patience of John. During that night, as we were told
-two days afterwards by his wife, he stormed with passion. The papers she
-had locked up in order that he should not get at them and destroy them.
-He swore that everything should be cleared out on the following morning.
-But when the morning came he did not even say a word to Mackenzie, as
-the wretched, downcast, broken-hearted creature passed up stairs to his
-work. “You see I knows him, and how to deal with him,” said Mrs. Grimes,
-speaking of her husband. “There aint another like himself
-nowheres;&mdash;he’s that good. A softer-hearteder man there aint in the
-public line. He can speak dreadful when his dander is up, and can
-look&mdash;&mdash;; oh, laws, he just can look at you! But he could no more put
-his hands upon a woman, in the way of hurting,&mdash;no more than be an
-archbishop.” Where could be the man, thought we to ourselves as this was
-said to us, who could have put a hand,&mdash;in the way of hurting,&mdash;upon
-Mrs. Grimes?</p>
-
-<p>On that occasion, to the best of our belief, the policeman contented
-himself with depositing Mrs. Mackenzie at her own lodgings. On the next
-day she was picked<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_279" id="page_279"></a></span> up drunk in the street, and carried away to the
-lock-up house. At the very moment in which the story was being told to
-us by Mrs. Grimes, Mackenzie had gone to the police office to pay the
-fine, and to bring his wife home. We asked with dismay and surprise why
-he should interfere to rescue her&mdash;why he did not leave her in custody
-as long as the police would keep her? “Who’d there be to look after the
-children?” asked Mrs. Grimes, as though she were offended at our
-suggestion. Then she went on to explain that in such a household as that
-of poor Mackenzie the wife is absolutely a necessity, even though she be
-an habitual drunkard. Intolerable as she was, her services were
-necessary to him. “A husband as drinks is bad,” said Mrs. Grimes,&mdash;with
-something, we thought, of an apologetic tone for the vice upon which her
-own prosperity was partly built,&mdash;“but when a woman takes to it, it’s
-the &mdash;&mdash; devil.” We thought that she was right, as we pictured to
-ourselves that man of letters satisfying the magistrate’s demand for his
-wife’s misconduct, and taking the degraded, half-naked creature once
-more home to his children.</p>
-
-<p>We saw him about twelve o’clock on that day, and he had then, too
-evidently, been endeavouring to support<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_280" id="page_280"></a></span> his misery by the free use of
-alcohol. We did not speak of it down in the parlour; but even Mrs.
-Grimes, we think, would have admitted that he had taken more than was
-good for him. He was sitting up in the bed-room with his head hanging
-upon his hand, with a swarm of our learned friend’s papers spread on the
-table before him. Mrs. Grimes, when he entered the house, had gone up
-stairs to give them out to him; but he had made no attempt to settle
-himself to his work. “This kind of thing must come to an end,” he said
-to us with a thick, husky voice. We muttered something to him as to the
-need there was that he should exert a manly courage in his troubles.
-“Manly!” he said. “Well, yes; manly. A man should be a man, of course.
-There are some things which a man can’t bear. I’ve borne more than
-enough, and I’ll have an end of it.”</p>
-
-<p>We shall never forget that scene. After awhile he got up, and became
-almost violent. Talk of bearing! Who had borne half as much as he? There
-were things a man should not bear. As for manliness, he believed that
-the truly manly thing would be to put an end to the lives of his wife,
-his children, and himself at one swoop. Of course the judgment of a
-mealy-mouthed world would<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_281" id="page_281"></a></span> be against him, but what would that matter to
-him when he and they had vanished out of this miserable place into the
-infinite realms of nothingness? Was he fit to live, or were they? Was
-there any chance for his children but that of becoming thieves and
-prostitutes? And for that poor wretch of a woman, from out of whose
-bosom even her human instincts had been washed by gin,&mdash;would not death
-to her be, indeed, a charity? There was but one drawback to all this.
-When he should have destroyed them, how would it be with him if he
-should afterwards fail to make sure work with his own life? In such case
-it was not hanging that he would fear, but the self-reproach that would
-come upon him in that he had succeeded in sending others out of their
-misery, but had flinched when his own turn had come. Though he was drunk
-when he said these horrid things, or so nearly drunk that he could not
-perfect the articulation of his words, still there was a marvellous
-eloquence with him. When we attempted to answer, and told him of that
-canon which had been set against self-slaughter, he laughed us to scorn.
-There was something terrible to us in the audacity of the arguments
-which he used, when he asserted for himself the right to shuffle off
-from his shoulders a burden which they had not been made<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_282" id="page_282"></a></span> broad enough
-to bear. There was an intensity and a thorough hopelessness of suffering
-in his case, an openness of acknowledged degradation, which robbed us
-for the time of all that power which the respectable ones of the earth
-have over the disreputable. When we came upon him with our wise saws,
-our wisdom was shattered instantly, and flung back upon us in fragments.
-What promise could we dare to hold out to him that further patience
-would produce any result that could be beneficial? What further harm
-could any such doing on his part bring upon him? Did we think that were
-he brought out to stand at the gallows’ foot with the knowledge that ten
-minutes would usher him into what folks called eternity, his sense of
-suffering would be as great as it had been when he conducted that woman
-out of court and along the streets to his home, amidst the jeering
-congratulations of his neighbours? “When you have fallen so low,” said
-he, “that you can fall no lower, the ordinary trammels of the world
-cease to bind you.” Though his words were knocked against each other
-with the dulled utterances of intoxication, his intellect was terribly
-clear, and his scorn for himself, and for the world that had so treated
-him, was irrepressible.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_283" id="page_283"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>We must have been over an hour with him up there in the bed-room, and
-even then we did not leave him. As it was manifest that he could do no
-work on that day, we collected the papers together, and proposed that he
-should take a walk with us. He was patient as we shovelled together the
-Doctor’s pages, and did not object to our suggestion. We found it
-necessary to call up Mrs. Grimes to assist us in putting away the “Opus
-magnum,” and were astonished to find how much she had come to know about
-the work. Added to the Doctor’s manuscript there were now the pages of
-Mackenzie’s indexes,&mdash;and there were other pages of reference, for use
-in making future indexes,&mdash;as to all of which Mrs. Grimes seemed to be
-quite at home. We have no doubt that she was familiar with the names of
-Greek tragedians, and could have pointed out to us in print the
-performances of the chorus. “A little fresh air’ll do you a deal of
-good, Mr. Mackenzie,” she said to the unfortunate man,&mdash;“only take a
-biscuit in your pocket.” We got him out to the street, but he angrily
-refused to take the biscuit which she endeavoured to force into his
-hands.</p>
-
-<p>That was a memorable walk. Turning from the end of Liquorpond Street up
-Gray’s Inn Lane towards Holborn, we at once came upon the entrance into
-a miserable court.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_284" id="page_284"></a></span> “There,” said he; “it is down there that I live. She
-is sleeping it off now, and the children are hanging about her,
-wondering whether mother has got money to have another go at it when she
-rises. I’d take you down to see it all, only it’d sicken you.” We did
-not offer to go down the court, abstaining rather for his sake than for
-our own. The look of the place was as of a spot squalid, fever-stricken,
-and utterly degraded. And this man who was our companion had been born
-and bred a gentleman,&mdash;had been nourished with that soft and gentle care
-which comes of wealth and love combined,&mdash;had received the education
-which the country gives to her most favoured sons, and had taken such
-advantage of that education as is seldom taken by any of those favoured
-ones;&mdash;and Cucumber Court, with a drunken wife and four half-clothed,
-half-starved children, was the condition to which he had brought
-himself! The world knows nothing higher nor brighter than had been his
-outset in life,&mdash;nothing lower nor more debased than the result. And yet
-he was one whose time and intellect had been employed upon the pursuit
-of knowledge,&mdash;who even up to this day had high ideas of what should be
-a man’s career,&mdash;who worked very hard and had always worked,&mdash;who as far
-as we knew had struck upon no rocks in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_285" id="page_285"></a></span> pursuit of mere pleasure. It
-had all come to him from that idea of his youth that it would be good
-for him “to take refuge from the conventional thraldom of so-called
-gentlemen amidst the liberty of the lower orders.” His life, as he had
-himself owned, had indeed been a mistake.</p>
-
-<p>We passed on from the court, and crossing the road went through the
-squares of Gray’s Inn, down Chancery Lane, through the little iron gate
-into Lincoln’s Inn, round through the old square,&mdash;than which we know no
-place in London more conducive to suicide; and the new square,&mdash;which
-has a gloom of its own, not so potent, and savouring only of madness,
-till at last we found ourselves in the Temple Gardens. I do not know why
-we had thus clung to the purlieus of the Law, except it was that he was
-telling us how in his early days, when he had been sent away from
-Cambridge,&mdash;as on this occasion he acknowledged to us, for an attempt to
-pull the tutor’s nose, in revenge for a supposed insult,&mdash;he had
-intended to push his fortunes as a barrister. He pointed up to a certain
-window in a dark corner of that suicidal old court, and told us that for
-one year he had there sat at the feet of a great Gamaliel in Chancery,
-and had worked with all his energies. Of course we asked him why he had
-left a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_286" id="page_286"></a></span> prospect so alluring. Though his answers to us were not quite
-explicit, we think that he did not attempt to conceal the truth. He
-learned to drink, and that Gamaliel took upon himself to rebuke the
-failing, and by the end of that year he had quarrelled irreconcilably
-with his family. There had been great wrath at home when he was sent
-from Cambridge, greater wrath when he expressed his opinion upon certain
-questions of religious faith, and wrath to the final severance of all
-family relations when he told the chosen Gamaliel that he should get
-drunk as often as he pleased. After that he had “taken refuge among the
-lower orders,” and his life, such as it was, had come of it.</p>
-
-<p>In Fleet Street, as we came out of the Temple, we turned into an
-eating-house and had some food. By this time the exercise and the air
-had carried off the fumes of the liquor which he had taken, and I knew
-that it would be well that he should eat. We had a mutton chop and a hot
-potato and a pint of beer each, and sat down to table for the first and
-last time as mutual friends. It was odd to see how in his converse with
-us on that day he seemed to possess a double identity. Though the
-hopeless misery of his condition was always present to him, was
-constantly on his tongue, yet he could talk about his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_287" id="page_287"></a></span> own career and
-his own character as though they belonged to a third person. He could
-even laugh at the wretched mistake he had made in life, and speculate as
-to its consequences. For himself he was well aware that death was the
-only release that he could expect. We did not dare to tell him that if
-his wife should die, then things might be better with him. We could only
-suggest to him that work itself, if he would do honest work, would
-console him for many sufferings. “You don’t know the filth of it,” he
-said to us. Ah, dear! how well we remember the terrible word, and the
-gesture with which he pronounced it, and the gleam of his eyes as he
-said it! His manner to us on this occasion was completely changed, and
-we had a gratification in feeling that a sense had come back upon him of
-his old associations. “I remember this room so well,” he said,&mdash;“when I
-used to have friends and money.” And, indeed, the room was one which has
-been made memorable by Genius. “I did not think ever to have found
-myself here again.” We observed, however, that he could not eat the food
-that was placed before him. A morsel or two of the meat he swallowed,
-and struggled to eat the crust of his bread, but he could not make a
-clean plate of it, as we did,&mdash;regretting that the nature of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_288" id="page_288"></a></span> chops did
-not allow of ampler dimensions. His beer was quickly finished, and we
-suggested to him a second tankard. With a queer, half-abashed twinkle of
-the eye, he accepted our offer, and then the second pint disappeared
-also. We had our doubts on the subject, but at last decided against any
-further offer. Had he chosen to call for it he must have had a third;
-but he did not call for it. We left him at the door of the tavern, and
-he then promised that in spite of all that he had suffered and all that
-he had said he would make another effort to complete the Doctor’s work.
-“Whether I go or stay,” he said, “I’d like to earn the money that I’ve
-spent.” There was something terrible in that idea of his going! Whither
-was he to go?</p>
-
-<p>The Doctor heard nothing of the misfortune of these three or four
-inauspicious days; and the work was again going on prosperously when he
-came up again to London at the end of the second month. He told us
-something of his banker, and something of his lawyer, and murmured a
-word or two as to a new curate whom he needed; but we knew that he had
-come up to London because he could not bear a longer absence from the
-great object of his affections. He could not endure to be thus parted
-from his manuscript, and was again childishly anxious that a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_289" id="page_289"></a></span> portion of
-it should be in the printer’s hands. “At sixty-five, Sir,” he said to
-us, “a man has no time to dally with his work.” He had been dallying
-with his work all his life, and we sincerely believed that it would be
-well with him if he could be contented to dally with it to the end. If
-all that Mackenzie said of it was true, the Doctor’s erudition was not
-equalled by his originality, or by his judgment. Of that question,
-however, we could take no cognizance. He was bent upon publishing, and
-as he was willing and able to pay for his whim and was his own master,
-nothing that we could do would keep him out of the printer’s hands.</p>
-
-<p>He was desirous of seeing Mackenzie, and was anxious even to see him
-once at his work. Of course he could meet his assistant in our editorial
-room, and all the papers could easily be brought backwards and forwards
-in the old despatch-box. But in the interest of all parties we hesitated
-as to taking our revered and reverend friend to the Spotted Dog. Though
-we had told him that his work was being done at a public-house, we
-thought that his mind had conceived the idea of some modest inn, and
-that he would be shocked at being introduced to a place which he would
-regard simply as a gin-shop. Mrs. Grimes, or if not Mrs. Grimes, then<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_290" id="page_290"></a></span>
-Mr. Grimes, might object to another visitor to their bed-room; and
-Mackenzie himself would be thrown out of gear by the appearance of those
-clerical gaiters upon the humble scene of his labours. We, therefore,
-gave him such reasons as were available for submitting, at any rate for
-the present, to having the papers brought up to him at our room. And we
-ourselves went down to the Spotted Dog to make an appointment with
-Mackenzie for the following day. We had last seen him about a week
-before, and then the task was progressing well. He had told us that
-another fortnight would finish it. We had enquired also of Mrs. Grimes
-about the man’s wife. All she could tell us was that the woman had not
-again troubled them at the Spotted Dog. She expressed her belief,
-however, that the drunkard had been more than once in the hands of the
-police since the day on which Mackenzie had walked with us through the
-squares of the Inns of Court.</p>
-
-<p>It was late when we reached the public-house on the occasion to which we
-now allude, and the evening was dark and rainy. It was then the end of
-January, and it might have been about six o’clock. We knew that we
-should not find Mackenzie at the public-house; but it was probable that
-Mrs. Grimes could send for him, or, at<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_291" id="page_291"></a></span> least, could make the
-appointment for us. We went into the little parlour, where she was
-seated with her husband, and we could immediately see, from the
-countenance of both of them, that something was amiss. We began by
-telling Mrs. Grimes that the Doctor had come to town. “Mackenzie aint
-here, Sir,” said Mrs. Grimes, and we almost thought that the very tone
-of her voice was altered. We explained that we had not expected to find
-him at that hour, and asked if she could send for him. She only shook
-her head. Grimes was standing with his back to the fire and his hands in
-his trousers pockets. Up to this moment he had not spoken a word. We
-asked if the man was drunk. She again shook her head. Could she bid him
-to come to us to-morrow, and bring the box and the papers with him?
-Again she shook her head.</p>
-
-<p>“I’ve told her that I won’t have no more of it,” said Grimes; “nor yet I
-won’t. He was drunk this morning,&mdash;as drunk as an owl.”</p>
-
-<p>“He was sober, John, as you are, when he came for the papers this
-afternoon at two o’clock.” So the box and the papers had all been taken
-away!</p>
-
-<p>“And she was here yesterday rampaging about the place, without as much
-clothes on as would cover her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_292" id="page_292"></a></span> nakedness,” said Mr. Grimes. “I won’t
-have no more of it. I’ve done for that man what his own flesh and blood
-wouldn’t do. I know that; and I won’t have no more of it. Mary Anne,
-you’ll have that table cleared out after breakfast to-morrow.” When a
-man, to whom his wife is usually Polly, addresses her as Mary Anne, then
-it may be surmised that that man is in earnest. We knew that he was in
-earnest, and she knew it also.</p>
-
-<p>“He wasn’t drunk, John,&mdash;no, nor yet in liquor, when he come and took
-away that box this afternoon.” We understood this reiterated assertion.
-It was in some sort excusing to us her own breach of trust in having
-allowed the manuscript to be withdrawn from her own charge, or was
-assuring us that, at the worst, she had not been guilty of the
-impropriety of allowing the man to take it away when he was unfit to
-have it in his charge. As for blaming her, who could have thought of it?
-Had Mackenzie at any time chosen to pass down stairs with the box in his
-hands, it was not to be expected that she should stop him violently. And
-now that he had done so we could not blame her; but we felt that a great
-weight had fallen upon our own hearts. If evil should come to the
-manuscript would not the Doctor’s wrath fall upon us with a crushing
-weight? Something must<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_293" id="page_293"></a></span> be done at once. And we suggested that it would
-be well that somebody should go round to Cucumber Court. “I’d go as soon
-as look,” said Mrs. Grimes, “but he won’t let me.”</p>
-
-<p>“You don’t stir a foot out of this to-night;&mdash;not that way,” said Mr.
-Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“Who wants to stir?” said Mrs. Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>We felt that there was something more to be told than we had yet heard,
-and a great fear fell upon us. The woman’s manner to us was altered, and
-we were sure that this had come not from altered feelings on her part,
-but from circumstances which had frightened her. It was not her husband
-that she feared, but the truth of something that her husband had said to
-her. “If there is anything more to tell, for God’s sake tell it,” we
-said, addressing ourselves rather to the man than to the woman. Then
-Grimes did tell us his story. On the previous evening Mackenzie had
-received three or four sovereigns from Mrs. Grimes, being, of course, a
-portion of the Doctor’s payments; and early on that morning all
-Liquorpond Street had been in a state of excitement with the drunken
-fury of Mackenzie’s wife. She had found her way into the Spotted Dog,
-and was being actually extruded by the strength of Grimes himself,&mdash;of
-Grimes,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_294" id="page_294"></a></span> who had been brought down, half dressed, from his bed-room by
-the row,&mdash;when Mackenzie himself, equally drunk, appeared upon the
-scene. “No, John;&mdash;not equally drunk,” said Mrs. Grimes. “Bother!”
-exclaimed her husband, going on with his story. The man had struggled to
-take the woman by the arm, and the two had fallen and rolled in the
-street together. “I was looking out of the window, and it was awful to
-see,” said Mrs. Grimes. We felt that it was “awful to hear.” A man,&mdash;and
-such a man, rolling in the gutter with a drunken woman,&mdash;himself
-drunk,&mdash;and that woman his wife! “There aint to be no more of it at the
-Spotted Dog; that’s all,” said John Grimes, as he finished his part of
-the story.</p>
-
-<p>Then, at last, Mrs. Grimes became voluble. All this had occurred before
-nine in the morning. “The woman must have been at it all night,” she
-said. “So must the man,” said John. “Anyways he came back about dinner,
-and he was sober then. I asked him not to go up, and offered to make him
-a cup of tea. It was just as you’d gone out after dinner, John.”</p>
-
-<p>“He won’t have no more tea here,” said John.</p>
-
-<p>“And he didn’t have any then. He wouldn’t, he said, have any tea, but
-went up stairs. What was I to do?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_295" id="page_295"></a></span> I couldn’t tell him as he shouldn’t.
-Well;&mdash;during the row in the morning John had said something as to
-Mackenzie not coming about the premises any more.”</p>
-
-<p>“Of course I did,” said Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“He was a little cut, then, no doubt,” continued the lady; “and I didn’t
-think as he would have noticed what John had said.”</p>
-
-<p>“I mean it to be noticed now.”</p>
-
-<p>“He had noticed it then, Sir, though he wasn’t just as he should be at
-that hour of the morning. Well;&mdash;what does he do? He goes up stairs and
-packs up all the papers at once. Leastways, that’s as I suppose. They
-aint there now. You can go and look if you please, Sir. Well; when he
-came down, whether I was in the kitchen,&mdash;though it isn’t often as my
-eyes is off the bar, or in the tap-room, or busy drawing, which I do do
-sometimes, Sir, when there are a many calling for liquor, I can’t
-say;&mdash;but if I aint never to stand upright again, I didn’t see him pass
-out with the box. But Miss Wilcox did. You can ask her.” Miss Wilcox was
-the young lady in the bar, whom we did not think ourselves called upon
-to examine, feeling no doubt whatever as to the fact of the box having
-been taken away by Mackenzie. In all this Mrs. Grimes seemed to defend
-herself, as though<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_296" id="page_296"></a></span> some serious charge was to be brought against her;
-whereas all that she had done had been done out of pure charity; and in
-exercising her charity towards Mackenzie she had shown an almost
-exaggerated kindness towards ourselves.</p>
-
-<p>“If there’s anything wrong, it isn’t your fault,” we said.</p>
-
-<p>“Nor yet mine,” said John Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“No, indeed,” we replied.</p>
-
-<p>“It aint none of our faults,” continued he; “only this;&mdash;you can’t wash
-a blackamoor white, nor it aint no use trying. He don’t come here any
-more, that’s all. A man in drink we don’t mind. We has to put up with
-it. And they aint that tarnation desperate as is a woman. As long as a
-man can keep his legs he’ll try to steady hisself; but there is women
-who, when they’ve liquor, gets a fury for rampaging. There aint a many
-as can beat this one, Sir. She’s that strong, it took four of us to hold
-her; though she can’t hardly do a stroke of work, she’s that weak when
-she’s sober.”</p>
-
-<p>We had now heard the whole story, and, while hearing it, had determined
-that it was our duty to go round into Cucumber Court and seek the
-manuscript and the box. We were unwilling to pry into the wretchedness
-of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_297" id="page_297"></a></span> man’s home; but something was due to the Doctor; and we had to
-make that appointment for the morrow, if it were still possible that
-such an appointment should be kept. We asked for the number of the
-house, remembering well the entrance into the court. Then there was a
-whisper between John and his wife, and the husband offered to accompany
-us. “It’s a roughish place,” he said, “but they know me.” “He’d better
-go along with you,” said Mrs. Grimes. We, of course, were glad of such
-companionship, and glad also to find that the landlord, upon whom we had
-inflicted so much trouble, was still sufficiently our friend to take
-this trouble on our behalf.</p>
-
-<p>“It’s a dreary place enough,” said Grimes, as he led us up the narrow
-archway. Indeed it was a dreary place. The court spread itself a little
-in breadth, but very little, when the passage was passed, and there were
-houses on each side of it. There was neither gutter nor, as far as we
-saw, drain, but the broken flags were slippery with moist mud, and here
-and there, strewed about between the houses, there were the remains of
-cabbages and turnip-tops. The place swarmed with children, over whom one
-ghastly gas-lamp at the end of the court threw a flickering and
-uncertain light. There was a clamour of scolding<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_298" id="page_298"></a></span> voices, to which it
-seemed that no heed was paid; and there was a smell of damp rotting
-nastiness, amidst which it seemed to us to be almost impossible that
-life should be continued. Grimes led the way without further speech, to
-the middle house on the left hand of the court, and asked a man who was
-sitting on the low threshold of the door whether Mackenzie was within.
-“So that be you, Muster Grimes; be it?” said the man, without stirring.
-“Yes; he’s there I guess, but they’ve been and took her.” Then we passed
-on into the house. “No matter about that,” said the man, as we
-apologised for kicking him in our passage. He had not moved, and it had
-been impossible to enter without kicking him.</p>
-
-<p>It seemed that Mackenzie held the two rooms on the ground floor, and we
-entered them at once. There was no light, but we could see the glimmer
-of a fire in the grate; and presently we became aware of the presence of
-children. Grimes asked after Mackenzie, and a girl’s voice told us that
-he was in the inner room. The publican then demanded a light, and the
-girl with some hesitation, lit the end of a farthing candle, which was
-fixed in a small bottle. We endeavoured to look round the room by the
-glimmer which this afforded, but could see nothing but the presence of
-four children, three of whom<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_299" id="page_299"></a></span> seemed to be seated in apathy on the
-floor. Grimes, taking the candle in his hand, passed at once into the
-other room, and we followed him. Holding the bottle something over his
-head, he contrived to throw a gleam of light upon one of the two beds
-with which the room was fitted, and there we saw the body of Julius
-Mackenzie stretched in the torpor of dead intoxication. His head lay
-against the wall, his body was across the bed, and his feet dangled on
-to the floor. He still wore his dirty boots, and his clothes as he had
-worn them in the morning. No sight so piteous, so wretched, and at the
-same time so eloquent had we ever seen before. His eyes were closed, and
-the light of his face was therefore quenched. His mouth was open, and
-the slaver had fallen upon his beard. His dark, clotted hair had been
-pulled over his face by the unconscious movement of his hands. There
-came from him a stertorous sound of breathing, as though he were being
-choked by the attitude in which he lay; and even in his drunkenness
-there was an uneasy twitching as of pain about his face. And there sat,
-and had been sitting for hours past, the four children in the other
-room, knowing the condition of the parent whom they most respected, but
-not even endeavouring to do anything for his comfort. What could they
-do? They knew, by long training and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_300" id="page_300"></a></span> thorough experience, that a fit of
-drunkenness had to be got out of by sleep. To them there was nothing
-shocking in it. It was but a periodical misfortune. “She’ll have to own
-he’s been and done it now,” said Grimes, looking down upon the man, and
-alluding to his wife’s good-natured obstinacy. He handed the candle to
-us, and, with a mixture of tenderness and roughness, of which the
-roughness was only in the manner and the tenderness was real, he raised
-Mackenzie’s head and placed it on the bolster, and lifted the man’s legs
-on to the bed. Then he took off the man’s boots, and the old silk
-handkerchief from the neck, and pulled the trousers straight, and
-arranged the folds of the coat. It was almost as though he were laying
-out one that was dead. The eldest girl was now standing by us, and
-Grimes asked her how long her father had been in that condition. “Jack
-Hoggart brought him in just afore it was dark,” said the girl. Then it
-was explained to us that Jack Hoggart was the man whom we had seen
-sitting on the door-step.</p>
-
-<p>“And your mother?” asked Grimes.</p>
-
-<p>“The perlice took her afore dinner.”</p>
-
-<p>“And you children;&mdash;what have you had to eat?” In answer to this the
-girl only shook her head. Grimes took no immediate notice of this, but
-called the drunken<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_301" id="page_301"></a></span> man by his name, and shook his shoulder, and looked
-round to a broken ewer which stood on the little table, for water to
-dash upon him;&mdash;but there was no water in the jug. He called again and
-repeated the shaking, and at last Mackenzie opened his eyes, and in a
-dull, half-conscious manner looked up at us. “Come, my man,” said
-Grimes, “shake this off and have done with it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Hadn’t you better try to get up?” we asked.</p>
-
-<p>There was a faint attempt at rising, then a smile,&mdash;a smile which was
-terrible to witness, so sad was all which it said; then a look of utter,
-abject misery, coming, as we thought, from a momentary remembrance of
-his degradation; and after that he sank back in the dull, brutal,
-painless, death-like apathy of absolute unconsciousness.</p>
-
-<p>“It’ll be morning afore he’ll move,” said the girl.</p>
-
-<p>“She’s about right,” said Grimes. “He’s got it too heavy for us to do
-anything but just leave him. We’ll take a look for the box and the
-papers.”</p>
-
-<p>And the man upon whom we were looking down had been born a gentleman,
-and was a finished scholar,&mdash;one so well educated, so ripe in literary
-acquirement, that we knew few whom we could call his equal. Judging of
-the matter by the light of our reason, we cannot say that the horror of
-the scene should have been enhanced to us by<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_302" id="page_302"></a></span> these recollections. Had
-the man been a shoemaker or a coalheaver there would have been enough of
-tragedy in it to make an angel weep,&mdash;that sight of the child standing
-by the bedside of her drunken father, while the other parent was away in
-custody,&mdash;and in no degree shocked at what she saw, because the thing
-was so common to her! But the thought of what the man had been, of what
-he was, of what he might have been, and the steps by which he had
-brought himself to the foul degradation which we witnessed, filled us
-with a dismay which we should hardly have felt had the gifts which he
-had polluted and the intellect which he had wasted been less capable of
-noble uses.</p>
-
-<p>Our purpose in coming to the court was to rescue the Doctor’s papers
-from danger, and we turned to accompany Grimes into the other room. As
-we did so the publican asked the girl if she knew anything of a black
-box which her father had taken away from the Spotted Dog. “The box is
-here,” said the girl.</p>
-
-<p>“And the papers?” asked Grimes. Thereupon the girl shook her head, and
-we both hurried into the outer room. I hardly know who first discovered
-the sight which we encountered, or whether it was shown to us by the
-child. The whole fire-place was strewn with half-burnt sheets of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_303" id="page_303"></a></span>
-manuscript. There were scraps of pages of which almost the whole had
-been destroyed, others which were hardly more than scorched, and heaps
-of paper-ashes all lying tumbled together about the fender. We went down
-on our knees to examine them, thinking at the moment that the poor
-creature might in his despair have burned his own work and have spared
-that of the Doctor. But it was not so. We found scores of charred pages
-of the Doctor’s elaborate handwriting. By this time Grimes had found the
-open box, and we perceived that the sheets remaining in it were tumbled
-and huddled together in absolute confusion. There were pages of the
-various volumes mixed with those which Mackenzie himself had written,
-and they were all crushed, and rolled, and twisted as though they had
-been thrust thither as waste-paper,&mdash;out of the way. “<span class="lftspc">’</span>Twas mother as
-done it,” said the girl, “and we put ’em back again when the perlice
-took her.”</p>
-
-<p>There was nothing more to learn,&mdash;nothing more by the hearing which any
-useful clue could be obtained. What had been the exact course of the
-scenes which had been enacted there that morning it little booted us to
-enquire. It was enough and more than enough that we knew that the
-mischief had been done. We went down on our knees before the fire, and
-rescued from the ashes<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_304" id="page_304"></a></span> with our hands every fragment of manuscript that
-we could find. Then we put the mass altogether in the box, and gazed
-upon the wretched remnants almost in tears. “You had better go and get a
-bit of some’at to eat,” said Grimes, handing a coin to the elder girl.
-“It’s hard on them to starve ’cause their father’s drunk, Sir.” Then he
-took the closed box in his hand and we followed him out into the street.
-“I’ll send or step up to look after him to-morrow,” said Grimes, as he
-put us and the box into a cab. We little thought when we made to the
-drunkard that foolish request to arise, that we should never speak to
-him again.</p>
-
-<p>As we returned to our office in the cab that we might deposit the box
-there ready for the following day, our mind was chiefly occupied in
-thinking over the undeserved grievances which had fallen upon ourselves.
-We had been moved by the charitable desire to do services to two
-different persons,&mdash;to the learned Doctor and to the red-nosed drunkard,
-and this had come of it! There had been nothing for us to gain by
-assisting either the one or the other. We had taken infinite trouble,
-attempting to bring together two men who wanted each other’s
-services,&mdash;working hard in sheer benevolence;&mdash;and what had been the
-result? We had spent half an hour on our<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_305" id="page_305"></a></span> knees in the undignified and
-almost disreputable work of raking among Mrs. Mackenzie’s cinders, and
-now we had to face the anger, the dismay, the reproach, and,&mdash;worse than
-all,&mdash;the agony of the Doctor. As to Mackenzie,&mdash;we asserted to
-ourselves again and again that nothing further could be done for him. He
-had made his bed, and he must lie upon it; but, oh! why,&mdash;why had we
-attempted to meddle with a being so degraded? We got out of the cab at
-our office door, thinking of the Doctor’s countenance as we should see
-it on the morrow. Our heart sank within us, and we asked ourselves, if
-it was so bad with us now, how it would be with us when we returned to
-the place on the following morning.</p>
-
-<p>But on the following morning we did return. No doubt each individual
-reader to whom we address ourselves has at some period felt that
-indescribable load of personal, short-lived care, which causes the heart
-to sink down into the boots. It is not great grief that does it;&mdash;nor is
-it excessive fear; but the unpleasant operation comes from the mixture
-of the two. It is the anticipation of some imperfectly-understood evil
-that does it,&mdash;some evil out of which there might perhaps be an escape
-if we could only see the way. In this case we saw no way out of it. The
-Doctor was to be with us at one<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_306" id="page_306"></a></span> o’clock, and he would come with smiles,
-expecting to meet his learned colleague. How should we break it to the
-Doctor? We might indeed send to him, putting off the meeting, but the
-advantage coming from that would be slight, if any. We must see the
-injured Grecian sooner or later; and we had resolved, much as we feared,
-that the evil hour should not be postponed. We spent an hour that
-morning in arranging the fragments. Of the first volume about a third
-had been destroyed. Of the second nearly every page had been either
-burned or mutilated. Of the third but little had been injured.
-Mackenzie’s own work had fared better than the Doctor’s; but there was
-no comfort in that. After what had passed I thought it quite improbable
-that the Doctor would make any use of Mackenzie’s work. So much of the
-manuscript as could still be placed in continuous pages we laid out upon
-the table, volume by volume,&mdash;that in the middle sinking down from its
-original goodly bulk almost to the dimensions of a poor sermon;&mdash;and the
-half-burned bits we left in the box. Then we sat ourselves down at our
-accustomed table, and pretended to try to work. Our ears were very
-sharp, and we heard the Doctor’s step upon our stairs within a minute or
-two of the appointed time. Our heart went to the very toes<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_307" id="page_307"></a></span> of our
-boots. We shuffled in our chair, rose from it, and sat down again,&mdash;and
-were conscious that we were not equal to the occasion. Hitherto we had,
-after some mild literary form, patronised the Doctor,&mdash;as a man of
-letters in town will patronise his literary friend from the
-country;&mdash;but we now feared him as a truant school-boy fears his master.
-And yet it was so necessary that we should wear some air of
-self-assurance!</p>
-
-<p>In a moment he was with us, wearing that bland smile which we knew so
-well, and which at the present moment almost overpowered us. We had been
-sure that he would wear that smile, and had especially feared it. “Ah,”
-said he, grasping us by the hand, “I thought I should have been late. I
-see that our friend is not here yet.”</p>
-
-<p>“Doctor,” we replied, “a great misfortune has happened.”</p>
-
-<p>“A great misfortune! Mr. Mackenzie is not dead?”</p>
-
-<p>“No;&mdash;he is not dead. Perhaps it would have been better that he had died
-long since. He has destroyed your manuscript.” The Doctor’s face fell,
-and his hands at the same time, and he stood looking at us. “I need not
-tell you, Doctor, what my feelings are, and how great my remorse.”</p>
-
-<p>“Destroyed it!” Then we took him by the hand and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_308" id="page_308"></a></span> led him to the table.
-He turned first upon the appetising and comparatively uninjured third
-volume, and seemed to think that we had hoaxed him. “This is not
-destroyed,” he said, with a smile. But before I could explain anything,
-his hands were among the fragments in the box. “As I am a living man,
-they have burned it!” he exclaimed. “I&mdash;I&mdash;I&mdash;&mdash;” Then he turned from
-us, and walked twice the length of the room, backwards and forwards,
-while we stood still, patiently waiting the explosion of his wrath. “My
-friend,” he said, when his walk was over, “a great man underwent the
-same sorrow. Newton’s manuscript was burned. I will take it home with
-me, and we will say no more about it.” I never thought very much of the
-Doctor as a divine, but I hold him to have been as good a Christian as I
-ever met.</p>
-
-<p>But that plan of his of saying no more about it could not quite be
-carried out. I was endeavouring to explain to him, as I thought it
-necessary to do, the circumstances of the case, and he was protesting
-his indifference to any such details, when there came a knock at the
-door, and the boy who waited on us below ushered Mrs. Grimes into the
-room. As the reader is aware, we had, during the last two months, become
-very intimate with the landlady<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_309" id="page_309"></a></span> of the Spotted Dog, but we had never
-hitherto had the pleasure of seeing her outside her own house. “Oh, Mr.
-----” she began, and then she paused, seeing the Doctor.</p>
-
-<p>We thought it expedient that there should be some introduction. “Mrs.
-Grimes,” we said, “this is the gentleman whose invaluable manuscript has
-been destroyed by that unfortunate drunkard.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, then you’re the Doctor, Sir?” The Doctor bowed and smiled. His
-heart must have been very heavy, but he bowed politely and smiled
-sweetly. “Oh, dear,” she said, “I don’t know how to tell you!”</p>
-
-<p>“To tell us what?” asked the Doctor.</p>
-
-<p>“What has happened since?” we demanded. The woman stood shaking before
-us, and then sank into a chair. Then arose to us at the moment some idea
-that the drunken woman, in her mad rage, had done some great damage to
-the Spotted Dog,&mdash;had set fire to the house, or injured Mr. Grimes
-personally, or perhaps run a muck amidst the jugs and pitchers, window
-glass, and gas lights. Something had been done which would give the
-Grimeses a pecuniary claim on me or on the Doctor, and the woman had
-been sent hither to make the first protest. Oh,&mdash;when should I see the
-last of the results<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_310" id="page_310"></a></span> of my imprudence in having attempted to befriend
-such a one as Julius Mackenzie! “If you have anything to tell, you had
-better tell it,” we said, gravely.</p>
-
-<p>“He’s been, and&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Not destroyed himself?” asked the Doctor.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh yes, Sir. He have indeed,&mdash;from ear to ear,&mdash;and is now a lying at
-the Spotted Dog!”</p>
-
-<p class="astt">* * * * *</p>
-
-<p>And so, after all, that was the end of Julius Mackenzie! We need hardly
-say that our feelings, which up to that moment had been very hostile to
-the man, underwent a sudden revulsion. Poor, overburdened, struggling,
-ill-used, abandoned creature! The world had been hard upon him, with a
-severity which almost induced one to make complaint against Omnipotence.
-The poor wretch had been willing to work, had been industrious in his
-calling, had had capacity for work; and he had also struggled gallantly
-against his evil fate, had recognised and endeavoured to perform his
-duty to his children and to the miserable woman who had brought him to
-his ruin!</p>
-
-<p>And that sin of drunkenness had seemed to us to be in him rather the
-reflex of her vice than the result of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_311" id="page_311"></a></span> his own vicious tendencies. Still
-it might be doubtful whether she had not learned the vice from him. They
-had both in truth been drunkards as long as they had been known in the
-neighbourhood of the Spotted Dog; but it was stated by all who had known
-them there that he was never seen to be drunk unless when she had
-disgraced him by the public exposure of her own abomination. Such as he
-was he had now come to his end! This was the upshot of his loud claims
-for liberty from his youth upwards;&mdash;liberty as against his father and
-family; liberty as against his college tutor; liberty as against all
-pastors, masters, and instructors; liberty as against the conventional
-thraldom of the world. He was now lying a wretched corpse at the Spotted
-Dog, with his throat cut from ear to ear, till the coroner’s jury should
-have decided whether or not they would call him a suicide!</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Grimes had come to tell us that the coroner was to be at the
-Spotted Dog at four o’clock, and to say that her husband hoped that we
-would be present. We had seen Mackenzie so lately, and had so much to do
-with the employment of the last days of his life, that we could not
-refuse this request, though it came accompanied by no legal summons.
-Then Mrs. Grimes again became voluble<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_312" id="page_312"></a></span> and poured out to us her
-biography of Mackenzie as far as she knew it. He had been married to the
-woman ten years, and certainly had been a drunkard before he married
-her. “As for her, she’d been well-nigh suckled on gin,” said Mrs.
-Grimes, “though he didn’t know it, poor fellow.” Whether this was true
-or not, she had certainly taken to drink soon after her marriage, and
-then his life had been passed in alternate fits of despondency and of
-desperate efforts to improve his own condition and that of his children.
-Mrs. Grimes declared to us that when the fit came on them,&mdash;when the
-woman had begun and the man had followed,&mdash;they would expend upon drink
-in two days what would have kept the family for a fortnight. “They say
-as how it was nothing for them to swallow forty shillings’ worth of gin
-in forty-eight hours.” The Doctor held up his hands in horror. “And it
-didn’t, none of it, come our way,” said Mrs. Grimes. “Indeed, John
-wouldn’t let us serve it for ’em.”</p>
-
-<p>She sat there for half an hour, and during the whole time she was
-telling us of the man’s life; but the reader will already have heard
-more than enough of it. By what immediate demon the woman had been
-instigated to burn the husband’s work almost immediately on its
-production<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_313" id="page_313"></a></span> within her own home, we never heard. Doubtless there had
-been some terrible scene in which the man’s sufferings must have been
-carried almost beyond endurance. “And he had feelings, Sir, he had,”
-said Mrs. Grimes; “he knew as a woman should be decent, and a man’s wife
-especial; I’m sure we pitied him so, John and I, that we could have
-cried over him. John would say a hard word to him at times, but he’d
-have walked round London to do him a good turn. John aint to say
-edicated hisself, but he do respect learning.”</p>
-
-<p>When she had told us all, Mrs. Grimes went, and we were left alone with
-the Doctor. He at once consented to accompany us to the Spotted Dog, and
-we spent the hour that still remained to us in discussing the fate of
-the unfortunate man. We doubt whether an allusion was made during the
-time to the burned manuscript. If so, it was certainly not made by the
-Doctor himself. The tragedy which had occurred in connection with it had
-made him feel it to be unfitting even to mention his own loss. That such
-a one should have gone to his account in such a manner, without hope,
-without belief, and without fear,&mdash;as Burley said to Bothwell, and
-Bothwell boasted to Burley,&mdash;that was the theme of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_314" id="page_314"></a></span> Doctor’s
-discourse. “The mercy of God is infinite,” he said, bowing his head,
-with closed eyes and folded hands. To threaten while the life is in the
-man is human. To believe in the execution of those threats when the life
-has passed away is almost beyond the power of humanity.</p>
-
-<p>At the hour fixed we were at the Spotted Dog, and found there a crowd
-assembled. The coroner was already seated in Mrs. Grimes’s little
-parlour, and the body as we were told had been laid out in the tap-room.
-The inquest was soon over. The fact that he had destroyed himself in the
-low state of physical suffering and mental despondency which followed
-his intoxication was not doubted. At the very time that he was doing it,
-his wife was being taken from the lock-up house to the police office in
-the police van. He was not penniless, for he had sent the children out
-with money for their breakfasts, giving special caution as to the
-youngest, a little toddling thing of three years old;&mdash;and then he had
-done it. The eldest girl, returning to the house, had found him lying
-dead upon the floor. We were called upon for our evidence, and went into
-the tap-room accompanied by the Doctor. Alas! the very table which had
-been dragged up stairs into the landlady’s bed-room with the charitable
-object of assisting Mackenzie in his work,&mdash;the table at<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_315" id="page_315"></a></span> which we had
-sat with him conning the Doctor’s pages&mdash;had now been dragged down again
-and was used for another purpose. We had little to say as to the matter,
-except that we had known the man to be industrious and capable, and that
-we had, alas! seen him utterly prostrated by drink on the evening before
-his death.</p>
-
-<p>The saddest sight of all on this occasion was the appearance of
-Mackenzie’s wife,&mdash;whom we had never before seen. She had been brought
-there by a policeman, but whether she was still in custody we did not
-know. She had been dressed, either by the decency of the police or by
-the care of her neighbours, in an old black gown, which was a world too
-large and too long for her. And on her head there was a black bonnet
-which nearly enveloped her. She was a small woman, and, as far as we
-could judge from the glance we got of her face, pale, and worn, and wan.
-She had not such outward marks of a drunkard’s career as those which
-poor Mackenzie always carried with him. She was taken up to the coroner,
-and what answers she gave to him were spoken in so low a voice that they
-did not reach us. The policeman, with whom we spoke, told us that she
-did not feel it much,&mdash;that she was callous now and beyond the power of
-mental suffering. “She’s frightened<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_316" id="page_316"></a></span> just this minute, Sir; but it isn’t
-more than that,” said the policeman. We gave one glance along the table
-at the burden which it bore, but we saw nothing beyond the outward lines
-of that which had so lately been the figure of a man. We should have
-liked to see the countenance once more. The morbid curiosity to see such
-horrid sights is strong with most of us. But we did not wish to be
-thought to wish to see it,&mdash;especially by our friend the Doctor,&mdash;and we
-abstained from pushing our way to the head of the table. The Doctor
-himself remained quiescent in the corner of the room the farthest from
-the spectacle. When the matter was submitted to them, the jury lost not
-a moment in declaring their verdict. They said that the man had
-destroyed himself while suffering under temporary insanity produced by
-intoxication. And that was the end of Julius Mackenzie, the scholar.</p>
-
-<p>On the following day the Doctor returned to the country, taking with him
-our black box, to the continued use of which, as a sarcophagus, he had
-been made very welcome. For our share in bringing upon him the great
-catastrophe of his life, he never uttered to us, either by spoken or
-written word, a single reproach. That idea of suffering as the great
-philosopher had suffered seemed to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_317" id="page_317"></a></span> comfort him. “If Newton bore it,
-surely I can,” he said to us with his bland smile, when we renewed the
-expression of our regret. Something passed between us, coming more from
-us than from him, as to the expediency of finding out some youthful
-scholar who could go down to the rectory, and reconstruct from its ruins
-the edifice of our friend’s learning. The Doctor had given us some
-encouragement, and we had begun to make enquiry, when we received the
-following letter:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p class="r">
-“&mdash;&mdash; Rectory, &mdash;&mdash; &mdash;&mdash;, 18&mdash;.<br />
-</p>
-
-<p>“<span class="smcap">Dear Mr.</span> &mdash;&mdash;, &mdash;You were so kind as to say that you would
-endeavour to find for me an assistant in arranging and
-reconstructing the fragments of my work on The Metres of the Greek
-Dramatists. Your promise has been an additional kindness.” Dear,
-courteous, kind old gentleman! For we knew well that no slightest
-sting of sarcasm was intended to be conveyed in these words. “Your
-promise has been an additional kindness; but looking upon the
-matter carefully, and giving to it the best consideration in my
-power, I have determined to relinquish the design. That which has
-been destroyed cannot be replaced; and it may well be that it was
-not worth replacing. I am old now, and never could do<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_318" id="page_318"></a></span> again that
-which perhaps I was never fitted to do with any fair prospect of
-success. I will never turn again to the ashes of my unborn child;
-but will console myself with the memory of my grievance, knowing
-well, as I do so, that consolation from the severity of harsh but
-just criticism might have been more difficult to find. When I think
-of the end of my efforts as a scholar, my mind reverts to the
-terrible and fatal catastrophe of one whose scholarship was
-infinitely more finished and more ripe than mine.</p>
-
-<p>“Whenever it may suit you to come into this part of the country,
-pray remember that it will give very great pleasure to myself and
-to my daughter to welcome you at our parsonage.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-<span style="margin-right: 30%;">“Believe me to be,</span><br />
-
-<span style="margin-right: 20%;">“My dear Mr. &mdash;&mdash;,</span><br />
-
-<span style="margin-right: 10%;">“Yours very sincerely,</span><br />
-
-“&mdash;&mdash; &mdash;&mdash;.”</p></div>
-
-<p>We never have found the time to accept the Doctor’s invitation, and our
-eyes have never again rested on the black box containing the ashes of
-the unborn child to which the Doctor will never turn again. We can
-picture him to ourselves standing, full of thought, with his hand<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_319" id="page_319"></a></span> upon
-the lid, but never venturing to turn the lock. Indeed, we do not doubt
-but that the key of the box is put away among other secret treasures, a
-lock of his wife’s hair, perhaps, and the little shoe of the boy who did
-not live long enough to stand at his father’s knee. For a tender,
-soft-hearted man was the Doctor, and one who fed much on the memories of
-the past.</p>
-
-<p>We often called upon Mr. and Mrs. Grimes at the Spotted Dog, and would
-sit there talking of Mackenzie and his family. Mackenzie’s widow soon
-vanished out of the neighbourhood, and no one there knew what was the
-fate of her or of her children. And then also Mr. Grimes went and took
-his wife with him. But they could not be said to vanish. Scratching his
-head one day, he told me with a dolorous voice that he had&mdash;made his
-fortune. “We’ve got as snug a little place as ever you see, just two
-mile out of Colchester,” said Mrs. Grimes triumphantly,&mdash;“with thirty
-acres of land just to amuse John. And as for the Spotted Dog, I’m that
-sick of it, another year’d wear me to a dry bone.” We looked at her, and
-saw no tendency that way. And we looked at John, and thought that he was
-not triumphant.</p>
-
-<p>Who followed Mr. and Mrs. Grimes at the Spotted Dog we have never
-visited Liquorpond Street to see.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_320" id="page_320"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_321" id="page_321"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<h2><a name="MRS_BRUMBY" id="MRS_BRUMBY"></a>MRS. BRUMBY.</h2>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_322" id="page_322"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_323" id="page_323"></a></span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p class="c"><img src="images/brumby.jpg"
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-/>
-</p>
-
-<h2>MRS. BRUMBY.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">W</span>E think that we are justified in asserting that of all the persons with
-whom we have been brought in contact in the course of our editorial
-experiences, men or women, boys or girls, Mrs. Brumby was the most
-hateful and the most hated. We are sure of this,&mdash;that for some months
-she was the most feared, during which period she made life a burden to
-us, and more than once induced us to calculate whether it would not be
-well that we should abandon our public duties and retire to some private
-corner into which it would be impossible that Mrs. Brumby should follow
-us. Years have rolled on since then, and we believe that Mrs. Brumby has
-gone before the great Judge and been called upon to account for the
-injuries<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_324" id="page_324"></a></span> she did us. We know that she went from these shores to a
-distant land when her nefarious projects failed at home. She was then by
-no means a young woman. We never could find that she left relative or
-friend behind her, and we know of none now, except those close and
-dearest friends of our own who supported us in our misery, who remember
-even that she existed. Whether she be alive or whether she be dead, her
-story shall be told,&mdash;not in a spirit of revenge, but with strict
-justice.</p>
-
-<p>What there was in her of good shall be set down with honesty; and indeed
-there was much in her that was good. She was energetic, full of
-resources, very brave, constant, devoted to the interests of the poor
-creature whose name she bore, and by no means a fool. She was utterly
-unscrupulous, dishonest, a liar, cruel, hard as a nether mill-stone to
-all the world except Lieutenant Brumby,&mdash;harder to him than to all the
-world besides when he made any faintest attempt at rebellion,&mdash;and as
-far as we could judge, absolutely without conscience. Had she been a man
-and had circumstances favoured her, she might have been a prime
-minister, or an archbishop, or a chief justice. We intend no silly
-satire on present or past holders of the great offices indicated; but we
-think that they have generally been achieved by such<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_325" id="page_325"></a></span> a combination of
-intellect, perseverance, audacity, and readiness as that which Mrs.
-Brumby certainly possessed. And that freedom from the weakness of
-scruple,&mdash;which in men who have risen in public life we may perhaps call
-adaptability to compromise,&mdash;was in her so strong, that had she been a
-man, she would have trimmed her bark to any wind that blew, and
-certainly have sailed into some port. But she was a woman,&mdash;and the
-ports were not open to her.</p>
-
-<p>Those ports were not open to her which had she been a man would have
-been within her reach; but,&mdash;fortunately for us and for the world at
-large as to the general question, though so very unfortunately as
-regarded this special case,&mdash;the port of literature is open to women. It
-seems to be the only really desirable harbour to which a female captain
-can steer her vessel with much hope of success. There are the Fine Arts,
-no doubt. There seems to be no reason why a woman should not paint as
-well as Titian. But they don’t. With the pen they hold their own, and
-certainly run a better race against men on that course than on any
-other. Mrs. Brumby, who was very desirous of running a race and winning
-a place, and who had seen all this, put on her cap, and jacket, and
-boots, chose her colours, and entered her name. Why,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_326" id="page_326"></a></span> oh why, did she
-select the course upon which we, wretched we, were bound by our duties
-to regulate the running?</p>
-
-<p>We may as well say at once that though Mrs. Brumby might have made a
-very good prime minister, she could not write a paper for a magazine, or
-produce literary work of any description that was worth paper and ink.
-We feel sure that we may declare without hesitation that no perseverance
-on her part, no labour however unswerving, no training however long,
-would have enabled her to do in a fitting manner even a review for the
-“Literary Curricle.” There was very much in her, but that was not in
-her. We find it difficult to describe the special deficiency under which
-she laboured;&mdash;but it existed and was past remedy. As a man suffering
-from a chronic stiff joint cannot run, and cannot hope to run, so was it
-with her. She could not combine words so as to make sentences, or
-sentences so as to make paragraphs. She did not know what style meant.
-We believe that had she ever read, Johnson, Gibbon, Archdeacon Coxe, Mr.
-Grote, and Macaulay would have been all the same to her. And yet this
-woman chose literature as her profession, and clung to it for awhile
-with a persistence which brought her nearer to the rewards of success
-than<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_327" id="page_327"></a></span> many come who are at all points worthy to receive them.</p>
-
-<p>We have said that she was not a young woman when we knew her. We cannot
-fancy her to have been ever young. We cannot bring our imagination to
-picture to ourselves the person of Mrs. Brumby surrounded by the
-advantages of youth. When we knew her she may probably have been forty
-or forty-five, and she then possessed a rigidity of demeanour and a
-sternness of presence which we think must have become her better than
-any softer guise or more tender phase of manner could ever have done in
-her earlier years. There was no attempt about her to disguise or modify
-her sex, such as women have made since those days. She talked much about
-her husband, the lieutenant, and she wore a double roll of very stiff
-dark brown curls on each side of her face,&mdash;or rather over her
-brows,&mdash;which would not have been worn by a woman meaning to throw off
-as far as possible her femininity. Whether those curls were or were not
-artificial we never knew. Our male acquaintances who saw her used to
-swear that they were false, but a lady who once saw her, assured us that
-they were real. She told us that there is a kind of hair growing on the
-heads of some women, thick, short, crisp, and shiny,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_328" id="page_328"></a></span> which will
-maintain its curl unbroken and unruffled for days. She told us, also,
-that women blessed with such hair are always pachy-dermatous and
-strong-minded. Such certainly was the character of Mrs. Brumby. She was
-a tall, thin woman, not very tall or very thin. For aught that we can
-remember, her figure may have been good;&mdash;but we do remember well that
-she never seemed to us to have any charm of womanhood. There was a
-certain fire in her dark eyes,&mdash;eyes which were, we think, quite
-black,&mdash;but it was the fire of contention and not of love. Her features
-were well formed, her nose somewhat long, and her lips thin, and her
-face too narrow, perhaps, for beauty. Her chin was long, and the space
-from her nose to her upper lip was long. She always carried a
-well-wearing brown complexion;&mdash;a complexion with which no man had a
-right to find fault, but which, to a pondering, speculative man,
-produced unconsciously a consideration whether, in a matter of kissing,
-an ordinary mahogany table did not offer a preferable surface. When we
-saw her she wore, we think always, a dark stuff dress,&mdash;a fur tippet in
-winter and a most ill-arranged shawl in summer,&mdash;and a large commanding
-bonnet, which grew in our eyes till it assumed all the attributes of a
-helmet,&mdash;inspiring that reverence and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_329" id="page_329"></a></span> creating that fear which
-Minerva’s headgear is intended to produce. When we add our conviction
-that Mrs. Brumby trusted nothing to female charms, that she neither
-suffered nor enjoyed anything from female vanity, and that the
-lieutenant was perfectly safe, let her roam the world alone, as she
-might, in search of editors, we shall have said enough to introduce the
-lady to our readers.</p>
-
-<p>Of her early life, or their early lives, we know nothing; but the
-unfortunate circumstances which brought us into contact with Mrs.
-Brumby, made us also acquainted with the lieutenant. The lieutenant, we
-think, was younger than his wife;&mdash;a good deal younger we used to
-imagine, though his looks may have been deceptive. He was a confirmed
-invalid, and there are phases of ill-health which give an appearance of
-youthfulness rather than of age. What was his special ailing we never
-heard,&mdash;though, as we shall mention further on, we had our own idea on
-that subject; but he was always spoken of in our hearing as one who
-always had been ill, who always was ill, who always would be ill, and
-who never ought to think of getting well. He had been in some regiment
-called the Duke of Sussex’s Own, and his wife used to imagine that her
-claims upon the public as a woman of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_330" id="page_330"></a></span> literature were enhanced by the
-royalty of her husband’s corps. We never knew her attempt to make any
-other use whatever of his services. He was not confined to his bed, and
-could walk at any rate about the house; but she never asked him, or
-allowed him to do anything. Whether he ever succeeded in getting his
-face outside the door we do not know. He wore, when we saw him, an old
-dressing-gown and slippers. He was a pale, slight, light-haired man, and
-we fancy that he took a delight in novels.</p>
-
-<p>Their settled income consisted of his half-pay and some very small
-property which belonged to her. Together they might perhaps have
-possessed £150 per annum. When we knew them they had lodgings in Harpur
-Street, near Theobald’s Road, and she had resolved to push her way in
-London as a woman of literature. She had been told that she would have
-to deal with hard people, and that she must herself be hard;&mdash;that
-advantage would be taken of her weakness, and that she must therefore
-struggle vehemently to equal the strength of those with whom she would
-be brought in contact;&mdash;that editors, publishers, and brother authors
-would suck her brains and give her nothing for them, and that,
-therefore, she must get what she could out of them, giving them as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_331" id="page_331"></a></span>
-little as possible in return. It was an evil lesson that she had
-learned; but she omitted nothing in the performance of the duties which
-that lesson imposed upon her.</p>
-
-<p>She first came to us with a pressing introduction from an acquaintance
-of ours who was connected with a weekly publication called the “Literary
-Curricle.” The “Literary Curricle” was not in our estimation a strong
-paper, and we will own that we despised it. We did not think very much
-of the acquaintance by whom the strong introductory letter was written.
-But Mrs. Brumby forced herself into our presence with the letter in her
-hand, and before she left us extracted from us a promise that we would
-read a manuscript which she pulled out of a bag which she carried with
-her. Of that first interview a short account shall be given, but it must
-first be explained that the editor of the “Literary Curricle” had
-received Mrs. Brumby with another letter from another editor, whom she
-had first taken by storm without any introduction whatever. This first
-gentleman, whom we had not the pleasure of knowing, had, under what
-pressure we who knew the lady can imagine, printed three or four short
-paragraphs from Mrs. Brumby’s pen. Whether they reached publication we
-never could learn,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_332" id="page_332"></a></span> but we saw the printed slips. He, however, passed
-her on to the “Literary Curricle,”&mdash;which dealt almost exclusively in
-the reviewing of books,&mdash;and our friend at the office of that
-influential “organ” sent her to us with an intimation that her very
-peculiar and well-developed talents were adapted rather for the creation
-of tales, or the composition of original treatises, than for reviewing.
-The letter was very strong, and we learned afterwards that Mrs. Brumby
-had consented to abandon her connection with the “Literary Curricle”
-only on the receipt of a letter in her praise that should be very strong
-indeed. She rejected the two first offered to her, and herself dictated
-the epithets with which the third was loaded. On no other terms would
-she leave the office of the “Literary Curricle.”</p>
-
-<p>We cannot say that the letter, strong as it was, had much effect upon
-us; but this effect it had perhaps,&mdash;that after reading it we could not
-speak to the lady with that acerbity which we might have used had she
-come to us without it. As it was we were not very civil, and began our
-intercourse by assuring her that we could not avail ourselves of her
-services. Having said so, and observing that she still kept her seat, we
-rose from our chair, being well aware how potent a spell that movement<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_333" id="page_333"></a></span>
-is wont to exercise upon visitors who are unwilling to go. She kept her
-seat and argued the matter out with us. A magazine such as that which we
-then conducted must, she surmised, require depth of erudition, keenness
-of intellect, grasp of hand, force of expression, and lightness of
-touch. That she possessed all these gifts she had, she alleged, brought
-to us convincing evidence. There was the letter from the editor of the
-“Literary Curricle,” with which she had been long connected, declaring
-the fact! Did we mean to cast doubt upon the word of our own intimate
-friend? For the gentleman at the office of the “Literary Curricle” had
-written to us as “Dear &mdash;&mdash;,” though as far as we could remember we had
-never spoken half-a-dozen words to him in our life. Then she repeated
-the explanation, given by her godfather, of the abrupt termination of
-the close connection which had long existed between her and the
-“Curricle.” She could not bring herself to waste her energies in the
-reviewing of books. At that moment we certainly did believe that she had
-been long engaged on the “Curricle,” though there was certainly not a
-word in our correspondent’s letter absolutely stating that to be the
-fact. He declared to us her capabilities and excellences, but did not
-say that he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_334" id="page_334"></a></span> had ever used them himself. Indeed, he told us that great
-as they were, they were hardly suited for his work. She, before she had
-left us on that occasion, had committed herself to positive falsehoods.
-She boasted of the income she had earned from two periodicals, whereas
-up to that moment she had never received a shilling for what she had
-written.</p>
-
-<p>We find it difficult, even after so many years,&mdash;when the shame of the
-thing has worn off together with the hairs of our head,&mdash;to explain how
-it was that we allowed her to get, in the first instance, any hold upon
-us. We did not care a brass farthing for the man who had written from
-the “Literary Curricle.” His letter to us was an impertinence, and we
-should have stated as much to Mrs. Brumby had we cared to go into such
-matter with her. And our first feelings with regard to the lady herself
-were feelings of dislike,&mdash;and almost of contempt even, though we did
-believe that she had been a writer for the press. We disliked her nose,
-and her lips, and her bonnet, and the colour of her face. We didn’t want
-her. Though we were very much younger then than we are now, we had
-already learned to set our backs up against strong-minded female
-intruders. As we said before, we rose from our chair with the idea<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_335" id="page_335"></a></span> of
-banishing her, not absolutely uncivilly, but altogether unceremoniously.
-It never occurred to us during that meeting that she could be of any
-possible service to us, or that we should ever be of any slightest
-service to her. Nevertheless she had extracted from us a great many
-words, and had made a great many observations herself before she left
-us.</p>
-
-<p>When a man speaks a great many words it is impossible that he should
-remember what they all were. That we told Mrs. Brumby on that occasion
-that we did not doubt but that we would use the manuscript which she
-left in our hands, we are quite sure was not true. We never went so near
-making a promise in our lives,&mdash;even when pressed by youth and
-beauty,&mdash;and are quite sure that what we did say to Mrs. Brumby was by
-no means near akin to this. That we undertook to read the manuscript we
-think probable, and therein lay our first fault,&mdash;the unfortunate slip
-from which our future troubles sprang, and grew to such terrible
-dimensions. We cannot now remember how the hated parcel, the abominable
-roll, came into our hands. We do remember the face and form and figure
-of the woman as she brought it out of the large reticule which she
-carried, and we remember also how we put our hands<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_336" id="page_336"></a></span> behind us to avoid
-it, as she presented it to us. We told her flatly that we did not want
-it, and would not have it;&mdash;and yet it came into our hands! We think
-that it must have been placed close to our elbow, and that, being used
-to such playthings, we took it up. We know that it was in our hands, and
-that we did not know how to rid ourselves of it when she began to tell
-us the story of the lieutenant. We were hard-hearted enough to inform
-her,&mdash;as we have, under perhaps lesser compulsion, informed others
-since,&mdash;that the distress of the man or of the woman should never be
-accepted as a reason for publishing the works of the writer. She
-answered us gallantly enough that she had never been weak enough or
-foolish enough so to think “I base my claim to attention,” she said, “on
-quite another ground. Do not suppose, Sir, that I am appealing to your
-pity. I scorn to do so. But I wish you should know my position as a
-married woman, and that you should understand that my husband, though
-unfortunately an invalid, has been long attached to a regiment which is
-peculiarly the Duke of Sussex’s own. You cannot but be aware of the
-connection which His Royal Highness has long maintained with
-literature.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_337" id="page_337"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brumby could not write, but she could speak. The words she had just
-uttered were absolutely devoid of sense. The absurdity of them was
-ludicrous and gross. But they were not without a certain efficacy. They
-did not fill us with any respect for her literary capacity because of
-her connection with the Duke of Sussex, but they did make us feel that
-she was able to speak up for herself. We are told sometimes that the
-world accords to a man that treatment which he himself boldly demands;
-and though the statement seems to be monstrous, there is much truth in
-it. When Mrs. Brumby spoke of her husband’s regiment being “peculiarly
-the Duke of Sussex’s own,” she used a tone which compelled from us more
-courtesy than we had hitherto shown her. We knew that the duke was
-neither a man of letters nor a warrior, though he had a library, and, as
-we were now told, a regiment. Had he been both, his being so would have
-formed no legitimate claim for Mrs. Brumby upon us. But, nevertheless,
-the royal duke helped her to win her way. It was not his royalty, but
-her audacity that was prevailing. She sat with us for more than an hour;
-and when she left us the manuscript was with us, and we had no doubt
-undertaken to read it. We are perfectly certain that at that time we had
-not<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_338" id="page_338"></a></span> gone beyond this in the way of promising assistance to Mrs. Brumby.</p>
-
-<p>The would-be author, who cannot make his way either by intellect or
-favour, can hardly do better, perhaps, than establish a grievance. Let
-there be anything of a case of ill-usage against editor or publisher,
-and the aspirant, if he be energetic and unscrupulous, will greatly
-increase his chance of working his way into print. Mrs. Brumby was both
-energetic and unscrupulous, and she did establish her grievance. As soon
-as she brought her first visit to a close, the roll, which was still in
-our hands, was chucked across our table to a corner commodiously
-supported by the wall, so that occasionally there was accumulated in it
-a heap of such unwelcome manuscripts. In the doing of this, in the
-moment of our so chucking the parcel, it was always our conscientious
-intention to make a clearance of the whole heap, at the very furthest,
-by the end of the week. We knew that strong hopes were bound up in those
-various little packets, that eager thoughts were imprisoned there the
-owners of which believed that they were endowed with wings fit for
-aërial soaring, that young hearts,&mdash;ay, and old hearts, too,&mdash;sore with
-deferred hope, were waiting to know whether their aspirations might now
-be realised, whether those<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_339" id="page_339"></a></span> azure wings might at last be released from
-bondage and allowed to try their strength in the broad sunlight of
-public favour. We think, too, that we had a conscience; and, perhaps,
-the heap was cleared as frequently as are the heaps of other editors.
-But there it would grow, in the commodious corner of our big table, too
-often for our own peace of mind. The aspect of each individual little
-parcel would be known to us, and we would allow ourselves to fancy that
-by certain external signs we could tell the nature of the interior. Some
-of them would promise well,&mdash;so well as to create even almost an
-appetite for their perusal. But there would be others from which we
-would turn with aversion, which we seemed to abhor, which, when we
-handled the heap, our fingers would refuse to touch, and which, thus
-lying there neglected and ill-used, would have the dust of many days
-added to those other marks which inspired disgust. We confess that as
-soon as Mrs. Brumby’s back was turned her roll was sent in upon this
-heap with that determined force which a strong feeling of dislike can
-lend even to a man’s little finger. And there it lay for,&mdash;perhaps a
-fortnight. When during that period we extracted first one packet and
-then another for judgment, we would still leave Mrs. Brumby’s roll<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_340" id="page_340"></a></span>
-behind in the corner. On such occasions a pang of conscience will touch
-the heart; some idea of neglected duty will be present to the mind; a
-silent promise will perhaps be made that it shall be the next; some
-momentary sudden resolve will be half formed that for the future a rigid
-order of succession shall be maintained, which no favour shall be
-allowed to infringe. But, alas! when the hand is again at work
-selecting, the odious ugly thing is left behind, till at last it becomes
-infested with strange terrors, with an absolute power of its own, and
-the guilty conscience will become afraid. All this happened in regard to
-Mrs. Brumby’s manuscript. “Dear, dear, yes;&mdash;Mrs. Brumby!” we would
-catch ourselves exclaiming with that silent inward voice which
-occasionally makes itself audible to most of us. And then, quite
-silently, without even whispered violence, we would devote Mrs. Brumby
-to the infernal gods. And so the packet remained amidst the
-heap,&mdash;perhaps for a fortnight.</p>
-
-<p>“There’s a lady waiting in your room, Sir!” This was said to us one
-morning on our reaching our office by the lad whom we used to call our
-clerk. He is now managing a red-hot Tory newspaper down in Barsetshire,
-has a long beard, a flaring eye, a round belly, and is<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_341" id="page_341"></a></span> upon the whole
-the most arrogant personage we know. In the days of Mrs. Brumby he was a
-little wizened fellow about eighteen years old, but looking three years
-younger, modest, often almost dumb, and in regard to ourselves not only
-reverential but timid. We turned upon him in great anger. What business
-had any woman to be in our room in our absence? Were not our orders on
-this subject exact and very urgent? Was he not kept at an expense of
-14<i>s.</i> a week,&mdash;we did not actually throw the amount in his teeth, but
-such was intended to be the effect of our rebuke,&mdash;at 14<i>s.</i> a week,
-paid out of our own pocket,&mdash;nominally, indeed, as a clerk, but chiefly
-for the very purpose of keeping female visitors out of our room? And
-now, in our absence and in his, there was actually a woman among the
-manuscripts! We felt from the first moment that it was Mrs. Brumby.</p>
-
-<p>With bated breath and downcast eyes the lad explained to us his
-inability to exclude her. “She walked straight in, right over me,” he
-said; “and as for being alone,&mdash;she hasn’t been alone. I haven’t left
-her, not a minute.”</p>
-
-<p>We walked at once into our own room, feeling how fruitless it was to
-discuss the matter further with the boy<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_342" id="page_342"></a></span> in the passage, and there we
-found Mrs. Brumby seated in the chair opposite to our own. We had
-gathered ourselves up, if we may so describe an action which was purely
-mental, with a view to severity. We thought that her intrusion was
-altogether unwarrantable, and that it behoved us to let her know that
-such was the case. We entered the room with a clouded brow, and intended
-that she should read our displeasure in our eyes. But Mrs. Brumby
-could,&mdash;“gather herself up,” quite as well as we could do, and she did
-so. She also could call clouds to her forehead and could flash anger
-from her eyes. “Madam,” we exclaimed, as we paused for a moment, and
-looked at her.</p>
-
-<p>But she cared nothing for our “Madam,” and condescended to no apology.
-Rising from her chair, she asked us why we had not kept the promise we
-had made her to use her article in our next number. We don’t know how
-far our readers will understand all that was included in this
-accusation. Use her contribution in our next number! It had never
-occurred to us as probable, or hardly as possible, that we should use it
-in any number. Our eye glanced at the heap to see whether her fingers
-had been at work, but we perceived that the heap had not been touched.
-We have always flattered<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_343" id="page_343"></a></span> ourselves that no one can touch our heap
-without our knowing it. She saw the motion of our eye, and at once
-understood it. Mrs. Brumby, no doubt, possessed great intelligence, and,
-moreover, a certain majesty of demeanour. There was always something of
-the helmet of Minerva in the bonnet which she wore. Her shawl was an old
-shawl, but she was never ashamed of it; and she could always put herself
-forward, as though there were nothing behind her to be concealed, the
-concealing of which was a burden to her. “I cannot suppose,” she said,
-“that my paper has been altogether neglected!”</p>
-
-<p>We picked out the roll with all the audacity we could assume, and
-proceeded to explain how very much in error she was in supposing that we
-had ever even hinted at its publication. We had certainly said that we
-would read it, mentioning no time. We never did mention any time in
-making any such promise. “You named a week, Sir,” said Mrs. Brumby, “and
-now a month has passed by. You assured me that it would be accepted
-unless returned within seven days. Of course it will be accepted now.”
-We contradicted her flatly. We explained, we protested, we threatened.
-We endeavoured to put the manuscript into her hand, and made a faint
-attempt to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_344" id="page_344"></a></span> stick it into her bag. She was indignant, dignified, and
-very strong. She said nothing on that occasion about legal proceedings,
-but stuck manfully to her assertion that we had bound ourselves to
-decide upon her manuscript within a week. “Do you think, Sir,” said she,
-“that I would entrust the very essence of my brain to the keeping of a
-stranger, without some such assurance as that?” We acknowledged that we
-had undertaken to read the paper, but again disowned the week. “And how
-long would you be justified in taking?” demanded Mrs. Brumby. “If a
-month, why not a year? Does it not occur to you, Sir, that when the very
-best of my intellect, my inmost thoughts, lie there at your disposal,”
-and she pointed to the heap, “it may be possible that a property has
-been confided to you too valuable to justify neglect? Had I given you a
-ring to keep you would have locked it up, but the best jewels of my mind
-are left to the tender mercies of your charwoman.” What she said was
-absolutely nonsense,&mdash;abominable, villanous trash; but she said it so
-well that we found ourselves apologising for our own misconduct. There
-had perhaps been a little undue delay. In our peculiar business such
-would occasionally occur. When we had got to this, any expression of our
-wrath at her intrusion was impossible.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_345" id="page_345"></a></span> As we entered the room we had
-intended almost to fling her manuscript at her head. We now found
-ourselves handling it almost affectionately while we expressed regret
-for our want of punctuality. Mrs. Brumby was gracious, and pardoned us,
-but her forgiveness was not of the kind which denotes the intention of
-the injured one to forget as well as forgive the trespass. She had
-suffered from us a great injustice; but she would say no more on that
-score now, on the condition that we would at once attend to her essay.
-She thrice repeated the words, “at once,” and she did so without rebuke
-from us. And then she made us a proposition, the like of which never
-reached us before or since. Would we fix an hour within the next day or
-two at which we would call upon her in Harpur Street and arrange as to
-terms? The lieutenant, she said, would be delighted to make our
-acquaintance. Call upon her!&mdash;upon Mrs. Brumby! Travel to Harpur Street,
-Theobald’s Road, on the business of a chance bit of scribbling, which
-was wholly indifferent to us except in so far as it was a trouble to us!
-And then we were invited to make arrangements as to terms! Terms!! Had
-the owner of the most illustrious lips in the land offered to make us
-known in those days to the partner of her greatness, she could not have<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_346" id="page_346"></a></span>
-done so with more assurance that she was conferring on us an honour,
-than was assumed by Mrs. Brumby when she proposed to introduce us to the
-lieutenant.</p>
-
-<p>When many wrongs are concentrated in one short speech, and great
-injuries inflicted by a few cleverly-combined words, it is generally
-difficult to reply so that some of the wrongs shall not pass unnoticed.
-We cannot always be so happy as was Mr. John Robinson, when in saying
-that he hadn’t been “dead at all,” he did really say everything that the
-occasion required. We were so dismayed by the proposition that we should
-go to Harpur Street, so hurt in our own personal dignity, that we lost
-ourselves in endeavouring to make it understood that such a journey on
-our part was quite out of the question. “Were we to do that, Mrs.
-Brumby, we should live in cabs and spend our entire days in making
-visits.” She smiled at us as we endeavoured to express our indignation,
-and said something as to circumstances being different in different
-cases;&mdash;something also, if we remember right, she hinted as to the
-intelligence needed for discovering the differences. She left our office
-quicker than we had expected, saying that as we could not afford to
-spend our time in cabs she would call again on the day but one
-following. Her departure was almost abrupt,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_347" id="page_347"></a></span> but she went apparently in
-good-humour. It never occurred to us at the moment to suspect that she
-hurried away before we should have had time to repudiate certain
-suggestions which she had made.</p>
-
-<p>When we found ourselves alone with the roll of paper in our hands, we
-were very angry with Mrs. Brumby, but almost more angry with ourselves.
-We were in no way bound to the woman, and yet she had in some degree
-substantiated a claim upon us. We piqued ourselves specially on never
-making any promise beyond the vaguest assurance that this or that
-proposed contribution should receive consideration at some altogether
-undefined time; but now we were positively pledged to read Mrs. Brumby’s
-effusion and have our verdict ready by the day after to-morrow. We were
-wont, too, to keep ourselves much secluded from strangers; and here was
-Mrs. Brumby, who had already been with us twice, positively entitled to
-a third audience. We had been scolded, and then forgiven, and then
-ridiculed by a woman who was old, and ugly, and false! And there was
-present to us a conviction that though she was old, and ugly, and false,
-Mrs. Brumby was no ordinary woman. Perhaps it might be that she was
-really qualified to give us valuable assistance in regard to the
-magazine, as to which we must own<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_348" id="page_348"></a></span> we were sometimes driven to use
-matter that was not quite so brilliant as, for our readers’ sakes, we
-would have wished it to be. We feel ourselves compelled to admit that
-old and ugly women, taken on the average, do better literary work than
-they who are young and pretty. I did not like Mrs. Brumby, but it might
-be that in her the age would find another De Staël. So thinking, we cut
-the little string, and had the manuscript open in our own hands. We
-cannot remember whether she had already indicated to us the subject of
-the essay, but it was headed, “Costume in 18&mdash;.” There were perhaps
-thirty closely-filled pages, of which we read perhaps a third. The
-handwriting was unexceptionable, orderly, clean, and legible; but the
-matter was undeniable twaddle. It proffered advice to women that they
-should be simple, and to men that they should be cleanly in their
-attire. Anything of less worth for the purpose of amusement or of
-instruction could not be imagined. There was, in fact, nothing in it. It
-has been our fate to look at a great many such essays, and to cause them
-at once either to be destroyed or returned. There could be no doubt at
-all as to Mrs. Brumby’s essay.</p>
-
-<p>She came punctual as the clock. As she seated herself in our chair and
-made some remark as to her hope<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_349" id="page_349"></a></span> that we were satisfied, we felt
-something like fear steal across our bosom. We were about to give
-offence, and dreaded the arguments that would follow. It was, however,
-quite clear that we could not publish Mrs. Brumby’s essay on Costume,
-and therefore, though she looked more like Minerva now than ever, we
-must go through our task. We told her in half-a-dozen words that we had
-read the paper, and that it would not suit our columns.</p>
-
-<p>“Not suit your columns!” she said, looking at us by no means in sorrow,
-but in great anger. “You do not mean to trifle with me like that after
-all you have made me suffer?” We protested that we were responsible for
-none of her sufferings. “Sir,” she said, “when I was last here you owned
-the wrong you had done me.” We felt that we must protest against this,
-and we rose in our wrath. There were two of us angry now.</p>
-
-<p>“Madam,” we said, “you have kindly offered us your essay, and we have
-courteously declined it. You will allow us to say that this must end the
-matter.” There were allusions here to kindness and courtesy, but the
-reader will understand that the sense of the words was altogether
-changed by the tone of the voice.</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed, Sir, the matter will not be ended so. If you<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_350" id="page_350"></a></span> think that your
-position will enable you to trample upon those who make literature
-really a profession, you are very much mistaken.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mrs. Brumby,” we said, “we can give you no other answer, and as our
-time is valuable&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Time valuable!” she exclaimed,&mdash;and as she stood up an artist might
-have taken her for a model of Minerva had she only held a spear in her
-hand. “And is no time valuable, do you think, but yours? I had, Sir,
-your distinct promise that the paper should be published if it was left
-in your hands above a week.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is untrue, Madam.”</p>
-
-<p>“Untrue, Sir?”</p>
-
-<p>“Absolutely untrue.” Mrs. Brumby was undoubtedly a woman, and might be
-very like a goddess, but we were not going to allow her to palm off upon
-us without flat contradiction so absolute a falsehood as that. “We never
-dreamed of publishing your paper.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then why, Sir, have you troubled yourself to read it,&mdash;from the
-beginning to the end?” We had certainly intimated that we had made
-ourselves acquainted with the entire essay, but we had in fact skimmed
-and skipped through about a third of it.</p>
-
-<p>“How dare you say, Sir, you have never dreamed of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_351" id="page_351"></a></span> publishing it, when
-you know that you studied it with that view?”</p>
-
-<p>“We didn’t read it all,” we said, “but we read quite enough.”</p>
-
-<p>“And yet but this moment ago you told me that you had perused it
-carefully.” The word peruse we certainly never used in our life. We
-object to “perusing,” as we do to “commencing” and “performing.” We
-“read,” and we “begin,” and we “do.” As to that assurance which the word
-“carefully” would intend to convey, we believe that we were to that
-extent guilty. “I think, Sir,” she continued, “that you had better see
-the lieutenant.”</p>
-
-<p>“With a view to fighting the gentleman?” we asked.</p>
-
-<p>“No, Sir. An officer in the Duke of Sussex’s Own draws his sword against
-no enemy so unworthy of his steel.” She had told me at a former
-interview that the lieutenant was so confirmed an invalid as to be
-barely able, on his best days, to drag himself out of bed. “One fights
-with one’s equal, but the law gives redress from injury, whether it be
-inflicted by equal, by superior, or by,&mdash;<span class="smcap">Inferior</span>.” And Mrs. Brumby, as
-she uttered the last word, wagged her helmet at us in a manner which
-left no doubt as to the position which she assigned to us.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_352" id="page_352"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>It became clearly necessary that an end should be put to an intercourse
-which had become so very unpleasant. We told our Minerva very plainly
-that we must beg her to leave us. There is, however, nothing more
-difficult to achieve than the expulsion of a woman who is unwilling to
-quit the place she occupies. We remember to have seen a lady take
-possession of a seat in a mail coach to which she was not entitled, and
-which had been booked and paid for by another person. The agent for the
-coaching business desired her with many threats to descend, but she
-simply replied that the journey to her was a matter of such moment that
-she felt herself called upon to keep her place. The agent sent the
-coachman to pull her out. The coachman threatened,&mdash;with his hands as
-well as with his words,&mdash;and then set the guard at her. The guard
-attacked her with inflamed visage and fearful words about Her Majesty’s
-mails, and then set the ostlers at her. We thought the ostlers were
-going to handle her roughly, but it ended by their scratching their
-heads, and by a declaration on the part of one of them that she was “the
-rummest go he’d ever seen.” She was a woman, and they couldn’t touch
-her. A policeman was called upon for assistance, who offered to lock her
-up, but he could only do so if allowed to lock up the whole<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_353" id="page_353"></a></span> coach as
-well. It was ended by the production of another coach, by an exchange of
-the luggage and passengers, by a delay of two hours, and an embarrassing
-possession of the original vehicle by the lady in the midst of a crowd
-of jeering boys and girls. We could tell Mrs. Brumby to go, and we could
-direct our boy to open the door, and we could make motions indicatory of
-departure with our left hand, but we could not forcibly turn her out of
-the room. She asked us for the name of our lawyer, and we did write down
-for her on a slip of paper the address of a most respectable firm, whom
-we were pleased to regard as our attorneys, but who had never yet earned
-six and eightpence from the magazine. Young Sharp, of the firm of Sharp
-and Butterwell, was our friend, and would no doubt see to the matter for
-us should it be necessary;&mdash;but we could not believe that the woman
-would be so foolish. She made various assertions to us as to her
-position in the world of literature, and it was on this occasion that
-she brought out those printed slips which we have before mentioned. She
-offered to refer the matter in dispute between us to the arbitration of
-the editor of the “Curricle;” and when we indignantly declined such
-interference, protesting that there was no matter in dispute, she again
-informed us that if we<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_354" id="page_354"></a></span> thought to trample upon her we were very much
-mistaken. Then there occurred a little episode which moved us to
-laughter in the midst of our wrath. Our boy, in obedience to our
-pressing commands that he should usher Mrs. Brumby out of our presence,
-did lightly touch her arm. Feeling the degradation of the assault,
-Minerva swung round upon the unfortunate lad and gave him a box on the
-ear which we’ll be bound the editor of the “West Barsetshire Gazette”
-remembers to this day. “Madam,” we said, as soon as we had swallowed
-down the first involuntary attack of laughter, “if you conduct yourself
-in this manner we must send for the police.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do, Sir, if you dare,” replied Minerva, “and every man of letters in
-the metropolis shall hear of your conduct.” There was nothing in her
-threat to move us, but we confess that we were uncomfortable. “Before I
-leave you, Sir,” she said, “I will give you one more chance. Will you
-perform your contract with me and accept my contribution?”</p>
-
-<p>“Certainly not,” we replied. She afterwards quoted this answer as
-admitting a contract.</p>
-
-<p>We are often told that everything must come to an end,&mdash;and there was an
-end at last to Mrs. Brumby’s<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_355" id="page_355"></a></span> visit. She went from us with an assurance
-that she should at once return home, pick up the lieutenant,&mdash;hinting
-that the exertion, caused altogether by our wickedness, might be the
-death of that gallant officer,&mdash;and go with him direct to her attorney.
-The world of literature should hear of the terrible injustice which had
-been done to her, and the courts of law should hear of it too.</p>
-
-<p>We confess that we were grievously annoyed. By the time that Mrs. Brumby
-had left the premises, our clerk had gone also. He had rushed off to the
-nearest police-court to swear an information against her on account of
-the box on the ear which she had given him, and we were unable to leave
-our desk till he had returned. We found that for the present the doing
-of any work in our line of business was quite out of the question. A
-calm mind is required for the critical reading of manuscripts, and whose
-mind could be calm after such insults as those we had received? We sat
-in our chair, idle, reflective, indignant, making resolutions that we
-would never again open our lips to a woman coming to us with a letter of
-introduction and a contribution, till our lad returned to us. We were
-forced to give him a sovereign before we could induce him to withdraw
-his information. We object strongly to all<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_356" id="page_356"></a></span> bribery, but in this case we
-could see the amount of ridicule which would be heaped upon our whole
-establishment if some low-conditioned lawyer were allowed to
-cross-examine us as to our intercourse with Mrs. Brumby. It was with
-difficulty that the clerk arranged the matter the next day at the police
-office, and his object was not effected without the farther payment by
-us of £1 2s. 6d. for costs.</p>
-
-<p>It was then understood between us and the clerk that on no excuse
-whatever should Mrs. Brumby be again admitted to my room, and I thought
-that the matter was over. “She shall have to fight her way through if
-she does get in,” said the lad. “She aint going to knock me about any
-more,&mdash;woman or no woman.” “O, dea, certe,” we exclaimed. “It shall be a
-dear job to her if she touches me again,” said the clerk, catching up
-the sound.</p>
-
-<p>We really thought we had done with Mrs. Brumby, but at the end of four
-or five days there came to us a letter, which we have still in our
-possession, and which we will now venture to make public. It was as
-follows. It was addressed not to ourselves but to Messrs. X., Y., and
-Z., the very respectable proprietors of the periodical which we were
-managing on their behalf.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_357" id="page_357"></a></span></p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p class="r">
-“Pluck Court, Gray’s Inn, 31st March, 18&mdash;.<br />
-</p>
-
-<p class="nind">
-“<span class="smcap">Gentlemen</span>,<br />
-</p>
-
-<p>“We are instructed by our client, Lieutenant Brumby, late of the
-Duke of Sussex’s Own regiment, to call upon you for payment of the
-sum of twenty-five guineas due to him for a manuscript essay on
-Costume, supplied by his wife to the &mdash;&mdash; Magazine, which is, we
-believe, your property, by special contract with Mr. &mdash;&mdash;, the
-Editor. We are also directed to require from you and from Mr. &mdash;&mdash;
-a full apology in writing for the assault committed on Mrs. Brumby
-in your Editor’s room on the 27th instant; and an assurance also
-that the columns of your periodical shall not be closed against
-that lady because of this transaction. We request that £1 13s. 8d.,
-our costs, may be forwarded to us, together with the above-named
-sum of twenty-five guineas.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-<span style="margin-right: 20%;">“We are, gentlemen,</span><br />
-
-<span style="margin-right: 10%;">“Your obedient servants,</span><br />
-
-“<span class="smcap">Badger and Blister</span>.<br />
-</p>
-
-<p><small>“Messrs. X., Y., Z., Paternoster Row.”</small></p></div>
-
-<p>We were in the habit of looking in at the shop in Paternoster Row on the
-first of every month, and on that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_358" id="page_358"></a></span> inauspicious first of April the above
-letter was handed to us by our friend Mr. X. “I hope you haven’t been
-and put your foot in it,” said Mr. X. We protested that we had not put
-our foot in it at all, and we told him the whole story. “Don’t let us
-have a lawsuit, whatever you do,” said Mr. X. “The magazine isn’t worth
-it.” We ridiculed the idea of a lawsuit, but we took away with us
-Messrs. Badger and Blister’s letter and showed it to our legal adviser,
-Mr. Sharp. Mr. Sharp was of opinion that Badger and Blister meant
-fighting. When we pointed out to him the absolute absurdity of the whole
-thing, he merely informed us that we did not know Badger and Blister.
-“They’ll take up any case,” said he, “however hopeless, and work it with
-superhuman energy, on the mere chance of getting something out of the
-defendant. Whatever is got out of him becomes theirs. They never
-disgorge.” We were quite confident that nothing could be got out of the
-magazine on behalf of Mrs. Brumby, and we left the case in Mr. Sharp’s
-hands, thinking that our trouble in the matter was over.</p>
-
-<p>A fortnight elapsed, and then we were called upon to meet Mr. Sharp in
-Paternoster Row. We found our friend Mr. X. with a somewhat unpleasant
-visage. Mr. X. was a thriving man, usually just, and sometimes generous<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_359" id="page_359"></a></span>
-but he didn’t like being “put upon.” Mr. Sharp had actually recommended
-that some trifle should be paid to Mrs. Brumby, and Mr. X. seemed to
-think that this expense would, in case that advice were followed, have
-been incurred through fault on our part. “A ten-pound note will set it
-all right,” said Mr. Sharp.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes;&mdash;a ten-pound note,&mdash;just flung into the gutter. I wonder that you
-allowed yourself to have anything to do with such a woman.” We protested
-against this injustice, giving Mr. X. to know that he didn’t understand
-and couldn’t understand our business. “I’m not so sure of that,” said
-Mr. X. There was almost a quarrel, and we began to doubt whether Mrs.
-Brumby would not be the means of taking the very bread from out of our
-mouths. Mr. Sharp at last suggested that in spite of what he had seen
-from Mrs. Brumby, the lieutenant would probably be a gentleman. “Not a
-doubt about it,” said Mr. X., who was always fond of officers and of the
-army, and at the moment seemed to think more of a paltry lieutenant than
-of his own Editor.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sharp actually pressed upon us and upon Mr. X. that we should call
-upon the lieutenant and explain matters to him. Mrs. Brumby had always
-been with us at twelve o’clock. “Go at noon,” said Mr. Sharp, “and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_360" id="page_360"></a></span>
-you’ll certainly find her out.” He instructed us to tell the lieutenant
-“just the plain truth,” as he called it, and to explain that in no way
-could the proprietors of a magazine be made liable to payment for an
-article because the Editor in discharge of his duty had consented to
-read it. “Perhaps the lieutenant doesn’t know that his name has been
-used at all,” said Mr. Sharp. “At any rate, it will be well to learn
-what sort of a man he is.”</p>
-
-<p>“A high minded gentleman, no doubt,” said Mr. X. the name of whose
-second boy was already down at the Horse Guards for a commission.</p>
-
-<p>Though it was sorely against the grain, and in direct opposition to our
-own opinion, we were constrained to go to Harpur Street, Theobald’s
-Road, and to call upon Lieutenant Brumby. We had not explained to Mr. X.
-or to Mr. Sharp what had passed between Mrs. Brumby and ourselves when
-she suggested such a visit, but the memory of the words which we and she
-had then spoken was on us as we endeavoured to dissuade our lawyer and
-our publisher. Nevertheless, at their instigation, we made the visit.
-The house in Harpur Street was small, and dingy, and old. The door was
-opened for us by the normal lodging-house maid-of-all-work, who when we
-asked for the lieutenant, left us in the passage, that she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_361" id="page_361"></a></span> might go and
-see. We sent up our name, and in a few minutes were ushered into a
-sitting-room up two flights of stairs. The room was not untidy, but it
-was as comfortless as any chamber we ever saw. The lieutenant was lying
-on an old horsehair sofa, but we had been so far lucky as to find him
-alone. Mr. Sharp had been correct in his prediction as to the customary
-absence of the lady at that hour in the morning. In one corner of the
-room we saw an old ram-shackle desk, at which, we did not doubt, were
-written those essays on costume and other subjects, in the disposing of
-which the lady displayed so much energy. The lieutenant himself was a
-small gray man, dressed, or rather enveloped, in what I supposed to be
-an old wrapper of his wife’s. He held in his hands a well-worn volume of
-a novel, and when he rose to greet us he almost trembled with dismay and
-bashfulness. His feet were thrust into slippers which were too old to
-stick on them, and round his throat he wore a dirty, once white, woollen
-comforter. We never learned what was the individual character of the
-corps which specially belonged to H.R.H. the Duke of Sussex; but if it
-was conspicuous for dash and gallantry, Lieutenant Brumby could hardly
-have held his own among his brother officers. We knew, however, from his
-wife<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_362" id="page_362"></a></span> that he had been invalided, and as an invalid we respected him. We
-proceeded to inform him that we had been called upon to pay him a sum of
-twenty-five guineas, and to explain how entirely void of justice any
-such claim must be. We suggested to him that he might be made to pay
-some serious sum by the lawyers he employed, and that the matter to us
-was an annoyance and a trouble,&mdash;chiefly because we had no wish to be
-brought into conflict with any one so respectable as Lieutenant Brumby.
-He looked at us with imploring eyes, as though begging us not to be too
-hard upon him in the absence of his wife, trembled from head to foot,
-and muttered a few words which were nearly inaudible. We will not state
-as a fact that the lieutenant had taken to drinking spirits early in
-life, but that certainly was our impression during the only interview we
-ever had with him. When we pressed upon him as a question which he must
-answer whether he did not think that he had better withdraw his claim,
-he fell back upon his sofa, and began to sob. While he was thus weeping
-Mrs. Brumby entered the room. She had in her hand the card which we had
-given to the maid-of-all-work, and was therefore prepared for the
-interview. “Sir,” she said, “I hope you have come to settle my husband’s
-just demands.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_363" id="page_363"></a></span></p>
-
-<p>Amidst the husband’s wailings there had been one little sentence which
-reached our ears. “She does it all,” he had said, throwing his eyes up
-piteously towards our face. At that moment the door had been opened, and
-Mrs. Brumby had entered the room. When she spoke of her husband’s “just
-demands,” we turned to the poor prostrate lieutenant, and were deterred
-from any severity towards him by the look of supplication in his eye,.
-“The lieutenant is not well this morning,” said Mrs. Brumby, “and you
-will therefore be pleased to address yourself to me.” We explained that
-the absurd demand for payment had been made on the proprietors of the
-magazine in the name of Lieutenant Brumby, and that we had therefore
-been obliged, in the performance of a most unpleasant duty, to call upon
-that gentleman; but she laughed our argument to scorn. “You have driven
-me to take legal steps,” she said, “and as I am only a woman I must take
-them in the name of my husband. But I am the person aggrieved, and if
-you have any excuse to make you can make it to me. Your safer course,
-Sir, will be to pay me the money that you owe me.”</p>
-
-<p>I had come there on a fool’s errand, and before I could get away was
-very angry both with Mr. Sharp and Mr.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_364" id="page_364"></a></span> X. I could hardly get a word in
-amidst the storm of indignant reproaches which was bursting over my head
-during the whole of the visit. One would have thought from hearing her
-that she had half filled the pages of the magazine for the last six
-months, and that we, individually, had pocketed the proceeds of her
-labour. She laughed in our face when we suggested that she could not
-really intend to prosecute the suit, and told us to mind our own
-business when we hinted that the law was an expensive amusement. “We,
-Sir,” she said, “will have the amusement, and you will have to pay the
-bill.” When we left her she was indignant, defiant, and self-confident.</p>
-
-<p>And what will the reader suppose was the end of all this? The whole
-truth has been told as accurately as we can tell it. As far as we know
-our own business we were not wrong in any single step we took. Our
-treatment of Mrs. Brumby was courteous, customary, and conciliatory. We
-had treated her with more consideration than we had perhaps ever before
-shown to an unknown, would-be contributor. She had been admitted thrice
-to our presence. We had read at any rate enough of her trash to be sure
-of its nature. On the other hand, we had been insulted, and our clerk
-had had his ears boxed. What should<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_365" id="page_365"></a></span> have been the result? We will tell
-the reader what was the result. Mr. X. paid £10 to Messrs. Badger and
-Blister on behalf of the lieutenant; and we, under Mr. Sharp’s advice,
-wrote a letter to Mrs. Brumby in which we expressed deep sorrow for our
-clerk’s misconduct, and our own regret that we should have
-delayed,&mdash;“the perusal of her manuscript.” We could not bring ourselves
-to write the words ourselves with our own fingers, but signed the
-document which Mr. Sharp put before us. Mr. Sharp had declared to
-Messrs. X., Y., and Z., that unless some such arrangement were made, he
-thought that we should be cast for a much greater sum before a jury. For
-one whole morning in Paternoster Row we resisted this infamous tax, not
-only on our patience, but,&mdash;as we then felt it,&mdash;on our honour. We
-thought that our very old friend Mr. X. should have stood to us more
-firmly, and not have demanded from us a task that was so peculiarly
-repugnant to our feelings. “And it is peculiarly repugnant to my
-feelings to pay £10 for nothing,” said Mr. X., who was not, we think,
-without some little feeling of revenge against us; “but I prefer that to
-a lawsuit.” And then he argued that the simple act on our part of
-signing such a letter as that presented to us could cost us no trouble,
-and ought to occasion us<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_366" id="page_366"></a></span> no sorrow. “What can come of it? Who’ll know
-it?” said Mr. X. “We’ve got to pay £10, and that we shall feel.” It came
-to that at last, that we were constrained to sign the letter,&mdash;and did
-sign it. It did us no harm, and can have done Mrs. Brumby no good but
-the moment in which we signed it was perhaps the bitterest we ever knew.</p>
-
-<p>That in such a transaction Mrs. Brumby should have been so thoroughly
-successful, and that we should have been so shamefully degraded, has
-always appeared to us to be an injury too deep to remain unredressed for
-ever. Can such wrongs be, and the heavens not fall! Our greatest comfort
-has been in the reflection that neither the lieutenant nor his wife ever
-saw a shilling of the £10. That, doubtless, never went beyond Badger and
-Blister.</p>
-
-<p class="c">
-THE END.<br />
-<br /><br />
-<small>PRINTED BY W. H. SMITH AND SON, 186, STRAND, LONDON.</small>
-</p>
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