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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/16946-8.txt b/16946-8.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..095c218 --- /dev/null +++ b/16946-8.txt @@ -0,0 +1,3914 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of Kitty Canary, by Kate Langley Bosher + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Kitty Canary + +Author: Kate Langley Bosher + +Release Date: October 25, 2005 [EBook #16946] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK KITTY CANARY *** + + + + +Produced by Al Haines + + + + + + + + + + +[Frontispiece: Kitty Canary.] + + + + + + +Kitty Canary + +A NOVEL + + +BY + +KATE LANGLEY BOSHER + + + + + +AUTHOR OF + +"MARY CARY" ETC. + + + + + + +HARPER & BROTHERS PUBLISHERS + +NEW YORK AND LONDON + + + + +HARPER & BROTHERS, NEW YORK + +ESTABLISHED 1817 + + + + +Copyright, 1913, by Harper & Brothers + +Printed in the United States of America + +Published February, 1918 + + + + +KITTY CANARY + + +CHAPTER I + +I am in love. It is the most scrumptious thing I have ever been in. +Perfectly magnificent! Every time I think of it I feel as if I were +going down an elevator forty floors and my heart flippity-flops so my +teeth mortify me. He used to be engaged to Elizabeth Hamilton Carter, +the niece of the lady at whose house I am boarding this summer, but he +did something he ought not to have done, or he didn't do something he +ought to have done, and they had a fuss. No one seems to know the +cause of it, but it was probably from her wanting him to be blind to +everything on earth but her, and a man isn't going to be blind when he +wants to see, and then she got _hurt_. I'd rather live in a house with +a cackling hen or a grunting pig than the sort of person who is always +getting hurt. But she's very pretty. Pink-and-white pretty, with +uplifting eyes and a little mouth that shuts itself when mad and says +nothing, and oozes more disagreeableness than if it talked. He still +thinks there isn't another girl in town who can touch her in looks. I +don't suppose a man ever gets over a real case of pink-and-white. It's +the kind that makes a tender memory if it isn't the best sort to live +with, and men like to have a memory to sigh over in secret. Her +rejected one may sigh in secret, but in public he does not seem to be +suffering. He isn't suffering. We like each other very much. + +The reason I am glad I am in love is that I am sixteen and I was +getting afraid I wasn't ever going to fall in love. Three or four +times I have thought I was in it, but I wasn't, and I was beginning to +be sure I was the sort of person who doesn't fall. And, besides, it is +good for Billy, who, because he is twenty, thinks he is old enough to +have some things settled which there is no need to settle too soon. +Settled things are not exciting. I love excitement and not knowing +what a day may bring forth. Billy doesn't. He wants his ducks to be +always in a row. + +Ever since he fished me out of the water-barrel sunk in Grandmother +Hatley's garden, when I was four and he eight, he has seemed to think I +belonged to him; and, though he doesn't imagine I know it and never +mentions it, he is always around when I am in danger or trouble, to get +me out. I suppose saving my life three or four times makes him feel I +can't take care of myself and therefore he must take care of me, but +that's a mistake. I have never had a horse to run away with me but +once. Billy did tell me not to ride her, and when she ran and would +have pitched me over her head and down a gully he caught her in the +nick of time and caught me, too, but that's the only time a thing of +that sort ever happened. He was real nice about it and never said +anything concerning having told me so and didn't make remarks of the +sort which other people rub in, but the next day the horse was sent +away. That's the thing which makes me fighting furious with Billy +sometimes. He doesn't say things. He does them. I wasn't afraid of +that horse and was going to keep on riding her, but the next day there +was no Lady-Bird to ride. The reason he sent her away was I wouldn't +promise not to ride her. Our summer homes are on adjoining places and +Horson, their stableman, a nice, drinky old person, lets me take out +anything I want, anything of Billy's, and, knowing he couldn't trust +Horson any more than me, he lent Lady-Bird to a man miles and miles +away and I never saw her again until she was a tame old thing I did not +want to ride. Billy behaves as if I were a child! + +And then the very next winter I fell through the ice and he had to jump +in and get me out. He told me not to go to a certain part of the lake. +He had been all over it and tried it before I got my skates on, but I +forgot and went. A boy was with me, a skunky little rat, who, when he +saw the ice was cracking, tried to pull me back, and then he let go my +hand and flop I went in and flop came Billy behind me while the little +Fur Coat stood off and bawled for help and said afterward he didn't +know how to swim. Having on heavy clothes, I went down quick and was +hard to get up, and I would be an angel this minute if Billy hadn't +been there. But Billy is always there, which is what makes this summer +so queer. He isn't here. + +On account of servants and things his mother didn't want to open their +country place this year, and my mother didn't want to open hers, so two +houses are closed. That means a scatteration for both families and is +why I am here and Billy in Europe; and if he is having as good a time +as I am he isn't grunting at the change. He didn't want to go to +Europe. His father made him. His mother and two sisters needed a man +along and, as Mr. Sloane couldn't go, Billy had to, and he was a great +big silent growl when he went off. I wasn't. I wanted to come to +Twickenham Town. We had passed through it once on our way to Florida +and I have been crazy to come back ever since, and when I found Mother +was going with Florine and Jessica to a splashy place I didn't want to +go to I begged her to let me come here and board with Miss Susanna +Mason and--glory be--she let me do it! + +She is a sort of relation, Miss Susanna is, a farback one, but nothing +is too far back to claim here, and everybody who is anybody is kin to +one another, or kin to some one else's kin, which makes for +sociableness, and I am having a perfectly grand time. In all the world +there isn't another place like the one I am in this summer, and I am +getting so familiar with a new kind of natural history that maybe some +day I will be an authority on it. Ancestry is the chief asset of +Twickenham Town, and though you speak with the tongues of men and of +angels and have not ancestors it profiteth you nothing. That is, among +the natives. Being an outsider, I have decided not to have ancestors, +and I am going to see if the people won't take me in for myself. I +have always believed a nice person was nice if there weren't any family +shrubs and things, and a nasty one was nasty no matter how many coats +of arms there were or how heirloomy their houses, so I have asked Miss +Susanna please to excuse me if I don't call her cousin (we are seventh +removed, I think she said), and also, unless she has to, I hope she +won't tell any one my real name is Katherine Bird, but let everybody +call me Kitty Canary, as everybody does at home. I think she thought +it was very queer in me to say such things, but she smiled her +precious, patient little smile, and, though she didn't promise, she +evidently hasn't mentioned my sure-enough name, as no one here calls me +by any other than the one Billy gave me when I wasn't much bigger than +a baby. Just Kitty Canary will do for me. + + + + +CHAPTER II + +The way I met Whythe (he's the one I'm almost perfectly certain I am in +love with) was this. When I got to the station in Twickenham Town +there was no one to meet me and take me to Rose Hill, which is Miss +Susanna Mason's home and right far out, because the train was three +hours late, and Uncle Henry, who drives the hack, and Mr. Briggs, who +runs the automobile, had gone home. There wasn't even anybody to take +my bag. I told Mother I had written Miss Susanna what train I would be +on, and because she was so busy and Father away she trusted me to do +things she had never trusted me to do before and didn't write herself, +which is why I wasn't met. I did write the letter saying I was coming, +but I forgot to mail it and found it in my bag when I got off the train +and was looking for my trunk check. It was nearly eleven o'clock and +nobody around but some train people who looked at me and said nothing. +And then a young man who had got off the same train came up and took +off his hat and asked if he could not do something for me, and I told +him I hoped he could and I certainly would be obliged if he would do it +as quick as possible, as it was getting later every minute and Mother +would be terribly worried if she knew I hadn't been met. + +"But where are you going?" he asked, and his eyes, which are his +best-looking part, took me in from top to toe. When I told him I was a +boarder for Miss Susanna Mason and would like to get to her house he +said if I didn't mind a pretty good walk he would take me there with +pleasure, and we started off. It was a perfectly gorgeous night. The +stars were as thick as buttercups in spring, and the moon was +magnificent and the air full of all sorts of old-fashioned fragrances, +as if honeysuckle and mignonette and tea-roses and heliotrope were all +mixed together; and as there didn't seem any real need of grieving +because there was no one to meet me, I thought I might as well enjoy +myself. I did. I could not help the train being late, and I didn't +forget to mail my letter on purpose; and it was an accident, or +coincidence, that a nice man should be on the same train I was, who +lived in the place I was going to spend the summer in, and knew very +well the house I wanted to get to. I didn't know he had been engaged +to the niece of the house and hadn't been to the latter since the +engagement was broken, and I must say as we walked along he didn't show +any evidences of despair or things of that sort. He couldn't possibly +have been naturaler or in better spirits, and he laughed from the time +we left the station until we reached Rose Hill. Not knowing his +history, I told him I had come to Twickenham Town because I thought it +was the most delicious old place in America; the sweetest, slowest, +self-satisfiedest, cocksuredest place on earth, and everybody in it was +a character--that is, everybody over thirty. He said that let him out, +as he was only twenty-five, but he wasn't sure some under twenty-five +were not somewhat queer. They are, I have found out since. + +He had left his bag at the station, but he had mine, which was right +heavy, and seeing there was a good stretch of open road before we began +to go up the hill on the top of which was Miss Susanna's home, I told +him he had better sit down a minute and rest, and I got up on the worm +fence and twisted my feet around the rail below, and looked at him +before he knew what I was going to do. He coughed a little and looked +at his watch and said it was rather late to be resting, as Miss Susanna +might be going to bed, and that if I were not too tired he thought we +had better go on; and I told him all right. And then, because I +couldn't help it, I stood up on the top of the fence, balanced myself +on it, and, opening my arms as if I were going to fly, sprang off and +ran up the road ahead of him. + +At the gate, which was open and through which I could see the +rose-bordered path leading up to the white-pillared porch on which Miss +Susanna and her niece were sitting, he shook hands with me and told me +good night and said he hoped he would see me very often while I was in +town, and I said I hoped he would. He put my bag down and told me to +send one of the servants out for it, and went on down the road, which I +thought was the queerest behavior I had ever seen in my life. I didn't +know, of course, about embarrassments and broken engagements and things +of that sort, and for a moment I stared at his back and then picked up +my bag and went up to the porch with it. All the boarders had gone to +bed and only Miss Susanna and her niece were on the porch, and as I +came up the steps they got up and stared at me as if I had risen from +the grave. + +I hadn't thought there was anything wrong in my coming from the station +at that time of night with a strange man until I saw the look on Miss +Susanna's face when I told her I had done it. If I had been a brand +snatched from the burning I could not have been folded to her bosom +with more fervent thanksgiving or a more pained expression, and at +first, still not understanding, I thought I had done right off the +worst thing a person could do in Twickenham Town. I had walked a long +way with a man who didn't have ancestors, perhaps. He had seemed all +right to me, and I was awfully glad to have him, as otherwise I might +have had to sit on my suit-case all night, for I certainly couldn't +have come up with the man who swung a lantern, and he was the only +other white one in sight. But I found out later it wasn't lack of +ancestors that caused the sudden chill which fell over us when I +mentioned Mr. Eppes's name. It was something else and--oh, my +granny!--the look that pretty little pink-and-white person gave me when +I said what I had done! + +"Oh, my dear, my dear!" Miss Susanna put her arms around me as if I +were a little ewe lamb that had been lost and was found, and in the +moonlight her beautiful little wrinkles reddened as if she were +responsible for a most grievous calamity, "To think of your being alone +at a public station at this time of night! A young girl! And I had +promised your mother to take such good care of you! I wouldn't have +had such a thing occur for--" + +"There hasn't anything occurred." I took off my hat and fanned hard +and then followed Miss Susanna up-stairs into a big square room with a +big tester bed in it, and if she hadn't been looking at me I would have +climbed up in it and gone to sleep in my clothes, I was so tired; but +she didn't leave me for some time. She couldn't get over my walking +two miles with a strange man late at night, and presently I found out +she hoped I wouldn't mention it to any one in the town, as in a little +place-- + +"Oh, I know--" I sat down in another chair. "I know little places. I +was in one once for a month. Every one in it knew everything every +other person did and didn't do, and said and didn't say, and if they +sneezed what for, and if they didn't sneeze why not, and it was more +fun! But I won't tell if you don't want me to, and did my horse come? +Father had her sent three days ago, and I hope you won't get uneasy if +I am not always back on time--" + +I stopped. She was putting my hat on the top shelf of the biggest old +mahogany wardrobe that was ever built for human apparel, and I knew +right off that was one of the things the matter with pretty Miss +Pink-and-White. She was spoiled to death. I picked up the coat I had +dropped on the table and hung it up myself, and saw I would have to be +the thing I hate most on earth--an Example. I must be careful or that +precious old soul would be waiting on me just as she waits on everybody +else, and I wasn't going to stand for it. And then she asked me if I +were not hungry--said she knew I must be after such a long trip; and I +told her I was starving, but I would not eat of a feast of the gods if +it were right in front of me, as the only thing I wanted to do was to +go to sleep, and for fear she might keep on inquiring about all my +relations I kissed her good night and walked with her to the door and +asked if she would mind if I did not come down to breakfast, and she +said of course I must not come, that Elizabeth never came if she had +been up late the night before, and that decided me. I was the first +one down the next morning. + + + + +CHAPTER III + +It was a perfectly grand feeling---the feeling I had the next day and +have had every day since I got here--that I was in a place where there +wasn't a single member of my family to tell me not to do things I +wanted to do or to do what I did not want to do; and usually as I dress +in the morning I dance a new kind of highland fling which I made up for +times when I feel particularly happy. Everybody is well and Mother and +the girls are having a lovely time in a place where I would have had a +stupid one, being neither grown up nor a kid, but an in-betweener--too +young for some ages and not old enough for others; and here in +Twickenham Town I am as free as air, and Father is coming to see me as +often as he can. I can't let myself think much about Father or I would +take the train straight home. + +I had begged him to let me stay with him, but neither he nor Mother +would agree. Just because I got the Grome medal at school they +imagined I had studied too hard and needed a quiet, restful summer in +the mountains; but I will never study too hard while on this little +planet called the earth. I got the medal because Billy said I'd never +sit still long enough to study for it, and just to show him he very +often does not know what he is talking about I made up my mind to get +it. + +The only thing I ever expect to work hard over is one book. I am going +to write one book that the critics will call a Discovery. It is to be +dull and dry and dreary, and therefore it will be thought deep and +strong and big, and only a few people will know that it has been +written. After that I am going to write books that sell, write what +people want to read--things that make them forget for a few moments +that at times this world is but a fleeting show and there is a good +deal of rot in it. If I can I am going to make people laugh, though I +don't think I can do much in that line. I see the funny side of things +too quickly to ever be able to write them down, as that takes time; but +I am certainly going to be cheerful, and I am not going to croak. I +don't mean I am going to be smiling all the time. I am not. Perpetual +smilers are more than human nature can stand. Nothing is ever wrong, +everything is beautiful, their smiles seem to say, which isn't so. +There is a lot of life that is wrong, and any day horrid, hurting +things may pop up, but that doesn't mean you've got to sit down and +make a bosom friend of dolefulness. Some of the things you can shake +your fist at, and some turn your back on, and some you have to face; +but no matter what happens you can buck up and begin again if you get +knocked out or hit in the back. And that's what I hope I will have +sense enough to do--get up and get a move on when things go wrong. + +So far nothing has gone wrong in Twickenham. Everybody has been lovely +to me, and all sorts of ages have been to see me and asked me to their +homes, and if they know my name is not really and truly Kitty Canary +they never say so or mention my family, which is very nice of them, for +I am sure they must talk of who I am and where I came from, that being +the first thing done here when a stranger arrives. The reason I think +they haven't let me off among themselves is that one of Miss Susanna's +boarders started to say something to me on the subject one day and I +told her I was a very plain person, almost common, and she could tell +any one she chose. She has never mentioned the subject since. Just +Kitty Canary is all I am going to be this summer, and if anybody +doesn't care for me as Kitty Canary I don't care for them to care for +me as Katherine Bird. So endeth that. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +I have seen him every day since I came--seen my station help in time of +need--and I must say he bears bravely the dispensations of a female +person. He is not dejected, and he still seems to find life worth +living; and if he weeps in secret, he shows no sign in public of +regrets; neither does he hide himself from the gaze of others, but is +always to be seen when one goes down-town or to the homes of other +people. I don't know how we happen to meet so often, but I never go +out that he doesn't appear; and though he does not come in at Rose +Hill, he comes to the gate, and I am afraid we stand at it a little +longer than is necessary, especially if Elizabeth Hamilton Carter is +sitting on the porch. + +I wonder why Satan walks right into me every time I see that piece of +pretty pink-and-whiteness! He has never taken possession of me in that +way before; but something about her just starts him off, and before I +know it I am doing what I wouldn't think of doing if she were not +around. She is perfectly furious with me, and I must say her manners, +if they are Southern, could be improved. At best she is not much of a +talker, I have been told; but since I arrived her little mouth has been +shut so tight that I wonder how she breathes; and if she has spoken a +dozen words to me since the night I came, they were too +between-the-teethy for me to hear. I didn't want her beau, and I +wouldn't have dreamed of noticing him if I had known how she felt about +him; but after she tried the freezing act on me I didn't tell Satan to +get behind me, as I suppose I should have done. I just went along and +took things as they came, and the first thing I knew I was in love +myself, and from the words of his mouth concerning the meditations of +his heart he seemingly has recovered from a former attack and is in for +a new one. Maybe we were not as considerate of the rejecter as we +might have been. Of course, I never knew for a long time why the +engagement was broken. He didn't tell me and no one else seemed to +know, and when I found out-- But that was a long time after--when I +found out. + +His name is Whythe Rives Eppes. The only things I don't like about him +are his front teeth and his relations. He could get three new teeth, +but nothing in human power could rid him of his relatives. There are +four of them--Mother, Sister, Sister Edwina, and Miss Lily Lou, and may +God have mercy on the girl who marries the male member of the family +and goes into their home to live! He is a perfectly grand sort to be +in love with, and I am almost sure I am in love or I wouldn't feel so +thrilly when I see him coming. But being in love is one thing and +getting married is a very different other, and there isn't a man person +living I want to think of marrying yet. It's awfully interesting, too, +to learn the different ways in which love can be made. Twickenham Town +may be slow about many things, but in others it is so quick it takes +your breath away. Whythe became personal in conversation the fourth +time I was with him. It was at the Braxtons' party and conditions were +favorable, but, not expecting the turn that was taken, I was as excited +as if I had never heard remarks of a similar character before, and the +first thing I knew I had promised Whythe (he begged me to call him +Whythe) to go horseback-riding with him the next day. We went--I on +Skylark, who is the joy of my life, and he on a borrowed horse, and we +had a perfectly wonderful time. I don't think Whythe will ever be much +of a lawyer, but as a love-maker he hasn't an equal on earth--that is, +any I have ever heard. + +As we rode down the main street of Twickenham everybody in the town +seemed on it. Princess Street is the only one called by a name, though +of course the others have names, and it is the place where everybody +meets everybody else and learns all the news; and if anybody went to +sleep that night without knowing that Whythe and I had started on a +ride at ten o'clock in the morning and didn't get back until three it +was because that person was too deaf to hear and couldn't understand +the movement of lips. I didn't know I was doing anything I oughtn't, +and if I did it I am not sorry. I had a grand time. It was a gorgeous +day and cool enough for me to wear my brown-linen riding-habit and high +boots, which, with a stock collar and small sailor hat, made me look +real nice, and the way the people stared at me you would have thought +they had never seen a divided skirt before, and--oh, my granny!--the +faces of the family (Whythe's family) as we passed their house! I +smiled the politest and properest I knew and they bowed back, but in a +way that made me laugh out loud when out of sight, and so did Whythe. +And then we forgot them, forgot everything except it was awfully good +to be alive. + + + + +CHAPTER V + +The place we went to is very historic and interesting. Something +happened there that was very important in American history, but I have +forgotten what it was. Whythe told me, and as it doesn't matter, being +over for such a long time, I haven't tried to remember. The sky was so +wonderful and the river so winding and lovely and the air so delicious +that yesterdays did not seem important and only to-day counted; and it +was when we were sitting under a beautiful big water-oak that Whythe +began to be terribly sentimental and say things that would have been +more suitable for moonlight and shadows and things of that sort. But +suitable or not, they were thrilly to hear, and I would have enjoyed +hearing them if it hadn't been for an abominable feeling that Billy was +right beside me hearing every word also, and with a look on his face as +if he thought my new friend was the foolest yet. And presently when I +couldn't stand it any longer (I mean stand Billy standing by) I got up +suddenly and told Whythe it was time to go home. + +I interrupted him in the midst of a beautiful sentence about my +eyelashes, I think, or maybe it was something else, I don't remember; +but anyhow when I jumped up he was very much surprised and wanted to +know what was the matter. I couldn't tell him, but I was perfectly +furious with Billy and the look on his face, which seemed to say what +I'd heard him say often about fool-flum talk and feather-headed fellows +and things of that sort. And I was so mad I rode so fast Whythe +couldn't keep up with me or continue the conversation, but it has been +continued since. That is the main theme, though the variations are +always different. Whythe never seems to give out on variations. + +Of course, all of Miss Susanna's boarders, which are only four besides +myself, had something to say in general about the faithlessness of men +and the flirtatiousness of girls, and how times had changed, and how +you couldn't put your hand on any human being and feel you could trust +him in these days, and how men were gobbled up before they had got +their breath good after painful experiences, and dozens of other things +on that order. And I had such a good time listening to them, though +they didn't talk directly to me, that I'd forget at times and nearly +screech out loud at the tones of voice in which they did me up, and +then I would remember and try to look serious. But seriousness doesn't +seem to fit my face--that is, seriousness over sillinesses--and it +wouldn't stay on very long. + +They thought it very indelicate in me to walk away with Elizabeth's +sweetheart right before her eyes--that is, Mrs. General Games did, but +Miss Araminta Armstrong, who is over fifty and by nature sentimental +and sympathetic, said she supposed it was natural for youth to seek +consolation, and Whythe, poor dear, had been so heartbroken at +Elizabeth's behavior that he had been receptive to other influences of +a pleasing nature, and she didn't think they ought to be so hard on +him. And then, after more talk of that sort, she would sigh and look +away at the mountains in the distance with a loved-and-lost look in her +eyes, and Miss Bettie Simcoe would sit up and snort. + +There's nothing sentimental or sympathetic about Miss Bettie. Neither +is there anything in the earth below or the heavens above that she has +not an opinion of her own about, but the one concerning which she has +the most decided opinions is Man. She doesn't mince matters when she +gets on him. Also, she is an authority on God. She can tell you +exactly why He does things, and she quotes Him as if He were her most +confidential friend, and the only thing which stumps her is why He made +such a mess of what is considered His most important work. Mention a +male person's name and up go her eyebrows and down come the corners of +her lips and on the side goes her head, and nothing need be said for +her opinion to be understood. She is positively triumphant over +Whythe. She goes around with a "Didn't-I-tell-you-so?" expression +oozing out of every feature of her face, and I think she tells +Elizabeth she is fortunate to have discovered his fickleness so soon. + +If Elizabeth thinks she is fortunate she has a queer way of showing it. +She must cry a good deal at night, judging by her eyes in the morning, +but the thing that's most the matter with her is madness. She can't +take it in that Whythe is showing no signs of anxiousness to make up. +She imagined, I suppose, when they had their fuss that it wouldn't last +very long and that he would give in to whatever she wanted, and now +that he isn't giving in she is so freezingly furious with me she barely +speaks to me. She seems to think it is my fault and that my coming +just when I did is the cause of the whole trouble. Though she never +says anything directly to me, she makes remarks in my presence about +the way men flirt in Twickenham Town and how dangerous it is, +especially for young girls who have never had any experience in things +of that sort and are deceived by it; and as she talks I just rock and +rock if in a chair, and swing and swing if in a hammock, until she has +said a good many nasty things, and then I get up and go up-stairs and +bring down a box of candy Whythe has sent me and offer it to her with +my most Christian forgiveness and most understanding smile, and, +strange to say, she never takes a piece! + +I don't mind her remarks. They're natural, and if she wasn't such a +horrid little teapot I'd do anything I could to straighten out things; +but until she behaves herself I won't. I am having a very interesting +time being in love, and why should I stop just because a man she broke +with isn't grieving, but is keeping himself in practice saying to me +what he used to say to her? I am not going to stop until I think it is +time and until both have learned a few things they ought to know before +they get married. She is a vain, selfish, pretty piece of spoiledness, +and I don't believe she knows what real loving means. She is the sort +that wants what it hasn't got, and all the more if she thinks anybody +else is apt to get it. If she had any sense she would get a beau _pro +tem_. That is the best thing on earth to bring a man back to the +straight and narrow, and Whythe is the kind of man who needs to be +brought every now and then. + +I gave her that for nothing one morning--I mean the suggestion in +general, though of course not personal--and she looked at me as if +trying to understand. And then something came in her face that must +have been an idea in her brain (her brain is slow), for, two days +afterward, she said she was going away. A week later she went to see a +rich aunt on her father's side who has a summer home somewhere and +corrals young men and compels them to come to it, Miss Bettie Simcoe +says. When she was gone a great weight seemed lifted off everybody, +and even the servants breathed better. As for Miss Susanna, she was +that lightened and relieved, though naturally not saying so, that she +looked ten years younger, and I know now it is true that some people in +a house are like fruit-cake on a weak stomach. They make life hard. I +didn't say my prayers that night. I just sang the Doxology three times +as loud as I could and jumped into bed. Praise is prayer. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +I have been here four weeks to-day. If there are any people in or +around Twickenham Town that I do not know, it is because they are not +knowable. I love people, and, being naturally sociable and not very +particular, I have had a perfectly grand time making acquaintances with +the high and the low and, the in-betweeners; and the sick and well, and +the dear and the queer, and the ancestrals and up-comers, and the rich +and the poor, and every other variety that grows; and now I am as +familiar with most of the family histories as the oldest inhabitant. +That's the nice part of living in a small place. Something depends on +you and you depend on all the rest of the town, but at home you're lost +in numbers and only a few know you're living. Here everybody knows, +also they know some things that perhaps had better be unknown. As for +talk, they are the best talkers on earth, and there's no subject under +the sun they won't talk about. It's an inheritance, Father says, and +has been handed down from ages past, and, though they don't read very +much, they can do more with a little knowledge than most learned people +with their information, and they make anything they mention interesting +from the way they mention it. I love to hear them, and I've heard a +good deal. + +Dear, precious Miss Susanna in the secrecy of my bedroom gave me a +little talk a few nights ago, and said she hoped I wouldn't mind, but +as I was young and inexperienced she thought it her duty to tell me +that I must be careful and not too informal, for certain people +wouldn't understand; and that while the Holts were a very good, +respectable family, still they were not-- She stopped and coughed a +little, and of course I understood, but I pretended I didn't, and told +her they were perfectly healthy and I had had more fun with the Holt +children than with any in town, but if she preferred they should not +come to her house to see me I would just stop in theirs sometimes, as I +would not like them to think I was afraid to go with them. I wasn't, +for while I knew they were not historic, they were the most interesting +children I'd ever seen, and it seemed pretty cruel that they were left +out of things because they didn't have forefathers to hang on to, or +money, which of course would speak for itself. And dear, angelic Miss +Susanna, who is so worn out with boarders and their special kind of +human-nature horridness at times that she's hardly got body enough to +cover her soul, said I mustn't misunderstand her, but the Holts had +never gone in the same circles as the other people I had met, and that +customs, though unkind, were hard to overcome, and the oldest son-- + +I told her not to worry about the oldest son. He could go anywhere he +wanted and with any one he wanted by the time he was through college, +which his parents were working themselves to death to send him through, +and it was very probable that several girls in town would be glad to +add their grandfathers to his natural endowments before many years were +over. But if she didn't care for me to accept his attentions, as Miss +Araminta Armstrong called them, I could always have an engagement when +he asked me to go anywhere. She looked so shocked and distressed that +I told her I didn't approve of telling stories any more than she did, +and for most sorts people ought to be branded, but I'd much rather tell +one of that land than hurt a person's feelings. And it wouldn't be +untrue to say I had an engagement, for I always had one to go +everywhere and anywhere, even if I didn't keep it; and again she +coughed and looked so pained that I took her in my arms and whirled +around the room with her and told her not to worry about me, either. I +wouldn't disgrace her by knowing the wrong people too well, but +everybody had their peculiarities and one of mine was I was going to +know anybody I wanted to. I always thought a lady could, and, besides, +I liked any kind of person who was interesting, and the best born ones +were often very stupid, which of course was the wrong thing to say. So +I had to give her another whirl, and by the time she got her breath it +was time to see about supper, and she has never referred to the subject +since. + +Miss Susanna is a darling little lady of the old school (whatever the +old school was) and I love her, but I am of my time as she is of hers, +and I don't see her way any more than she sees mine. She ought to wear +hoop-skirts and brocaded silks and lace fichus and mits, and sit with +her beautiful hands folded in her lap and her tiny little feet on a +footstool, and instead she works from morning to night trying to help +the good-for-nothingest servants that were ever hired by tired ladies, +except Uncle Henson, and Aunt Mandy, the cook, who have been with her +for years and years. She's worn out. That's what's the matter with +Miss Susanna, and that selfish, lazy little piece of pinkness who is +now away doesn't lift her hand to help her unless it is to make a cake +occasionally. I don't know how to make cake and never expect to know, +as very good kinds can be bought, but I can wash dishes. I do it every +morning and she dries them, so limp Eliza can go up-stairs and clean up +the bedrooms, and we have a beautiful time talking about what a change +comes over human beings when they board. That is, I do the talking and +she shakes her head at me, but it does her good, as it gives sound to +things she can't say. Most of her time has to be spent in thinking +what to put in people's stomachs and fixing it to be put; and, from the +quantity that goes in, boarders must have much better appetites than +people who keep house. They eat and yet are never full. There'll be +no hope of heaven for me if I ever have to keep boarders. I'd sweep +them out with a broom certainly once a week. That is, in my mind, if +my hands didn't. But Miss Susanna will never sweep them out. The +sanctuary in which I let out for her is the pantry, and all the things +she won't say I say for her. Yesterday she laughed so she broke a cup. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +Father is coming to-morrow! I am so excited and happy that to-day, +after I was safely out of Twickenham Town and there was no one to see +me, I stood up on Skylark's back and held the bridle with one hand and +waved the other in the air; and then I tried standing on one foot with +the other one out, but I came near losing my balance and just did catch +myself in time. Seeing a woman coming down the road in a buggy, with a +baby in her lap, I got back in place before she saw what I was doing, +but I needn't have done it, for it was just Mrs. Pettigrew, and she +wouldn't have cared whether it was my head or my heels which were on +the horse. She has eleven children and no husband to speak of, and +what people do or don't do doesn't bother her. We stopped for a little +talk and she told me about the roof leaking and the pig eating the +baby's bonnet which Miss Katie Spain had given it last Christmas, and +which was too small for its head, but was all it had; and that a kettle +of soft soap had fallen off the stove and burned two toes of Sammy, the +next to the youngest boy, and she would still be telling me things, but +I told her Father was coming and I had to attend to something, and so +she drove on. + +I did have something to attend to, but I didn't attend right away, for +the day was so wonderful I couldn't go in for a long time. The +sunshine looked as if it had been washed and ironed, it was so clear +and clean and crisp, and the wind in the trees said all sorts of lovely +things to me, and I made up my mind that, no matter what happened in +life, I was always going to remember that warm and sweet and sunny +things are sure to come again, if at times they seem dead and buried, +and that I would try not to see the cranks and queernesses of people as +much as I was by nature inclined to do; and then I went right back to +Miss Susanna's, and before I knew it I had said something I oughtn't, +and to Mr. Willie Prince. + +Every time I see Mr. Willie I thank God he is no relation of mine. He +is the only man boarder in the house, which is another thing to be +thankful for; but, though he is hard to stand, he is nearly sixty and a +human being, and I ought to remember what I forget and yesterday I +didn't remember. He was the only son of his mother and should have +been a daughter, and in trying to make him one his maternal parent +succeeded better than in anything else she ever attempted, Miss Bettie +Simcoe says--and she ought to know, being his first cousin. His +business is telling people what they don't want to hear; and, though he +doesn't do any work, a hound dog couldn't run a rabbit down quicker +than he can a piece of gossip, and when he isn't sitting on somebody's +front porch fanning himself with a palm-leaf fan, from which he is +never separated in summer, he is down at the drug-store hearing and +being heard. He thinks he is handsome, and he is as proud of his pink +cheeks as a goose of her gander, and I'm sure he puts something on them +on cool days. If he could wear some blue ribbon on his sandy hair and +have trousers and coats to match his fancy vests he would be perfectly +happy. As a man he is a poor job, but as a Miss Nancy he is perfect, +and when yesterday I came in from my ride he made me so mad that I +popped out something I shouldn't have popped and before I knew I was +going to do it. + +He was sitting on the porch when I came up, fanning as hard as he could +fan, and as I went by he stopped me. "I would advise you to be more +careful when you go in wading at the creek, Miss Kitty," he said, "It +isn't customary for young ladies in Twickenham Town to do such things +and--" + +"And where I came from it isn't customary for gentlemen to follow young +ladies and see what they do," I said, and the minute the words were out +I knew I shouldn't have said them, for his face got as red as a beet +and he jumped up and walked into the house. + +I don't know that he really followed Sallie Sclater, who's a visiting +girl, and myself to see if we went wading, but we certainly went and +had a good time doing it, though we had to dry our feet with my +petticoat. But from the way his face went he must have made it +convenient to walk in that direction and must have seen us, or he +wouldn't have known anything about our going, as we were careful to +look around before we took off our shoes and stockings. I can't endure +him, but he is nearly sixty and I am only sixteen, and I shouldn't have +spoken as I did; and possibly because I was so happy over Father's +coming I told him last night that if I had said anything I shouldn't I +hoped he would forget it and I, too, would forget what had been said. +And that, of course, I knew gentlemen in Twickenham Town never did +anything gentlemen shouldn't, and that my quickness of speech was +always getting ahead of me; and he looked so relieved that I am +perfectly certain he followed us. But, anyhow, he was very pleasant +last night and told a scream of a story about poor little Miss Lily Lou +Eppes when she thought she had a beau. She had almost landed him when +he got away. He's never been heard from since. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +It's over--Father's visit is. He has been gone a week, and it will be +a whole month before he can come again. He has to divide up between +Mother and the girls and me, and he can only get away once in two +weeks, because his partner is ill and business has something the matter +with it and has to be watched, which is why he could stay only four +days in Twickenham Town. I don't see why fathers have to work so hard, +and why wives and daughters must have so many unnecessary things, and +such big houses and so many new clothes and automobiles and parties and +pleasures, which aren't real fun after you have them. But most women +seem to want them, and keep on scrambling for what other people +scramble for, and only a few have sense enough to see how foolish it +all is and stop. Maybe they are wound up so tight they can't stop. I +don't know. I only know I do not want to live the life a lot of women +I know live, and I am not going to do it. + +I wish Father could see it the way I do--about working so hard, I +mean--and I think he might, for he says I am a chip off the block and +he is the block, and in almost everything we feel alike; but there's +Mother and the girls, who care for things I don't care for, and of +course they must have them. He gives them everything they want, but he +looked so awfully tired the day he came I could think of nothing else +the night he left, which is why I cried so under the sheet, and then +when the tears were out and I felt lighter I got up and wrote him a +long letter and told him I loved him so it hurt, and that he was the +best and dearest father on all this big, big earth, and if he would let +me come and keep house for him I would fly back. But he wouldn't let +me come. He wrote me a letter, though, that I shall keep with my +treasures, and I wish what he said was so. It isn't so. He just +thinks it, but it does your heart good to know somebody cares an awful +lot about you and no matter what you do is going to stand by. What he +wrote me was this: + + +_Dear little Nut-brown Maid all mine, of course you would come, but you +mustn't. It is too hot and you need what you are getting, and nothing +could help me here so much as to know of that wonderful color of yours +and that you are so well and strong again. That you are getting health +and happy memories for the winter of work and study ahead is the best +tonic I can take, and every morning when I go to my desk I get out that +little picture of you and, nobody being by, I kiss it and send you my +love, and it is a breath of life-giving air to know you are mine. +Since the first time I saw you--you were exactly one hour old and +laughing even then--you have been the joy and delight of my heart, and +I can't afford to run any risk with summer heat and the joy of my +heart. I didn't deserve you, for I wanted a son so badly, and was +fearfully disappointed that you were not a boy. You seemed to +understand and did not get mad about it, and I've often wanted you to +know that no son could mean to me now what my little harum-scarum +daughter means. There has never been a day since you first looked into +my eyes that I haven't thanked God for you, and the thing I am most +afraid of in life is that you may get sick or not be strong, and that +is why I am so glad for you to be in such a charming old place as +Twickenham Town. You were wise, little daughter of mine, to choose so +quaint and queer and dear a place in which to spend your summer, for +there real things still count, and there is more time for the fine +courtesies of life, and the hurry and rush of it, the push and scramble +for place and power, is out of key with its quiet serenity and the +poise that comes from a sense of values that by many of us is to-day +forgotten. I am coming back as soon as I can, for I, too, want the +refreshment and novelty of being where money is not talked and +apologies never made for the absence of things that money gets. Miss +Susanna Mason is a liberal education in herself and no "Course in +Culture" could equal the advantage of being in her society. I have +written her, of course, but tell her again of my sense of privilege, +and my great pleasure, in being a guest in her home, and remember +always you are in your father's heart. Always he is thinking of you._ + + +Now wasn't that a nice letter to get from a father? I'm nothing to be +thankful for; but, if he thinks I am, I am thankful for that, and it +makes life a different thing to know somebody is thankful for you. And +another thing I think would make life nicer, make working and living +not so hard, is to tell people you like them and you believe they are +trying to do their best, even if their best is powerful poor. Of +course, all people don't try to do their best. Some are by nature and +practice mean and horrid and ought to have facts handed out to them, +but most people try to do right, and maybe they would try harder if +they got a little encouragement now and then. Anyhow, I've often +noticed it makes a person take fresh hold again for somebody to give +them a lift in the way of a friendly word or so, and it doesn't cost +much--kindness doesn't. I wonder why we don't have more of it. + +The reason why Father liked Twickenham Town so much was that nobody +talked business to him, and if anybody knew he was the head of Bird & +Roller, bankers and brokers, they never mentioned it to him or talked +shop at all, and for four days he forgot stocks and bonds and the ups +and downs of the money-market and let go. And yet I am almost sure Mr. +Willie Prince knows all about him--the business part, I mean--and that, +of course, will mean everybody in Twickenham will know pretty soon. +The reason I think he knows is that I went into the bank to get a check +cashed the morning after Father got here, and I saw Mr. Willie sitting +at a table in a corner of the bank with a copy of Bradstreet open +before him and his eyes close to it. I made it convenient to walk up +to the table and look down at the book, and I saw he was running his +finger down the letter "B," and when he saw me he shut the book quick. +I just smiled and passed on. But not talking business is only one of +the reasons Father liked Twickenham Town so much. Another was because +everybody was so nice to him. He had so many invitations to dinner and +supper, and even breakfast, that he was on a dead go from morning until +night, and he never ate so much in his life as he ate in those four +days. It did him good, and he didn't look tired a bit when he left. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +The day Father got here was a beautiful day. The train was due at +six-thirty in the morning, but it never hurries and has only been on +time three times since it has been running, and Uncle Henson said there +was no use getting to the station until seven o'clock, but I told him +if he wasn't in front of the porch by six o'clock I'd send for Mr. +Briggs and go down in his automobile, and there was no need to say +anything more. Mention automobile to Uncle Henson and his back begins +to go up just like a cat's. There are only a few automobiles in town, +though a good many people have Fords, and several offered to lend me +theirs, but not wanting to hurt Miss Susanna, who has been sending the +same carriage to the station for over thirty years, I didn't accept +their offers, but went down in the coach, as Uncle Henson calls it. +Its top is still upholstered in a sun-shaped thing which was once +yellow satin and now tattered and torn, and hardly anybody ever rides +in it, but when a new boarder comes Miss Susanna always says, in that +queenly way of hers, "You will take the carriage to the station, +Henson," and Uncle Henson's old gray head bows as if at royal orders, +and they do not know they are playing a part that belongs to the days +that are no more. That is what Tennyson, I think, calls a time that +will never be the same again. + +Uncle Henson's coachman's coat, long and faded and once brass-buttoned, +and a battered hat to match, are always put on to meet the train; and +when he held the door open for Father to get in the old, ramshackle +thing he did it in a way that could be sold for big money, if manner +could be bought, and Father got inside with equal elegance. After he +was in and Uncle Henson couldn't see him, he looked at me as if to ask +if I thought it would stand, and I nodded back yes, and slipped my hand +in his and hugged him again, I was so glorious glad to see him! He is +such a splendid Father--my Father is, I am so sorry for girls who +haven't one like mine, and not one of them has. He is the only one of +his kind on earth. + +Everybody was on the porch to meet us when we drove up, and Miss +Susanna gave him such a gracious welcome, and was so sweet and stately +and quaint and lovely in her white dotted Swiss muslin dress which Miss +Araminta Armstrong says she has been wearing for six summers, and which +has the dearest little darns in it, that Father's face got real +flushed, and once I really believe there were tears in his eyes. He +might have been an ambassador at some court who was being received, for +at no court in Europe could a lady bow as Mrs. General Gaines bows, and +she gave her best to Father when he was presented. I don't like her, +but she certainly is an old swell. And then Isham (he's Uncle Henson +and Aunt Mandy's grandson, and totes water all day long from the well +up into the house, when he isn't playing a Jew's-harp in the sun) came +out and got Father's bags and things and took them up-stairs, and a +little later Uncle Henson brought up on a silver tray one of those mint +juleps, about which Father told Mr. Willie Prince, who made it, that +the half could never be told, and at eight o'clock we had breakfast. +Usually Father doesn't take anything at home but grape-fruit and +coffee, but that morning, and every morning he was here, he ate +waffles, and batter-bread, and beaten biscuits, and everything else +Miss Susanna would urge him to try, and he said he couldn't understand +how he could eat so much. I didn't tell him, but I think it was +because of the juleps. They're the best things for poor appetites ever +invented yet, Major Hairston says, and he ought to know, being over +seventy and never having missed taking two a day since he could fix +them for himself. After breakfast we talked for a while on the porch, +and then I took Father out to show him the town. + +I wouldn't have taken him out if the day had been hot, but it wasn't +hot. It was one of those gorgeous days that sometimes come in summer +after a thunder-storm and which have the feel and taste of early +October; and being in the mountains it was cooler on that account, and +I could see Father breathe deep, and the tiredness began to go away as +we walked and talked. That is, I talked. He tried to at first, and +then gave up. Everybody in town knew he was coming--I had told +them--and they came down from their porches and shook hands with him, +and said they were so glad to see him and they hoped he was going to +stay some time, and that they would call as soon as he was rested, and +a whole lot of other nice things, so that Father almost got flurried, +he was so pleased and warmed up. At home he is always hurrying in the +morning to get to the office, and at night hurrying to get away, and of +course we don't have neighbors, and it was so queer to find everybody +so friendly and interested that by the time we got back to Rose Hill he +looked like another man. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +I took him down Princess Street first, of course, and showed him the +bank and post-office and moving-picture places, and the court-house and +churches and stores, and specially the drug-store, which is a sort of +standing-up club for the men; and I told him whose were the offices; +and Whythe came out of his and spoke to him in a perfectly perfect way, +and said he hoped he would be permitted to show him some of the things +of interest in the neighborhood. And also he said if it was convenient +to us he would call in a car (Whythe hasn't even a Ford, but he has a +Twin-Six manner) in the morning and we would drive to Horseshoe Falls, +and from there go on to Spruce Mountain, where something historic +happened during the Revolution, I think; and only once when talking did +he look right in my eyes. His sent a message, and my heart flopped +around so it felt like a frog in a can of milk, and, I was so afraid +Father would hear, I told Whythe we would go with pleasure and were +much obliged, but we couldn't stop any longer, as there was a good deal +to see before dinner. He shook hands twice with Father, who, when he +was out of hearing, asked me how a young man could leave his business +in the morning and go riding. I told him business could always be left +in Twickenham Town, and he laughed and said he wished he lived in a +town of that sort. I wish he did. + +We stopped just a minute to speak to Mr. Bugg, who sells vegetables and +eggs and things, and whose wife has just had twins again, and this time +has a milk-leg also, and Father shook hands with him and asked about +the babies, I thinking just in time to tell him to do it, and then we +had some soda-water at Mrs. Grump's. It is the most awful soda-water +in the world, Mrs. Grump's is, but it is wet and cold, and you can sit +down when drinking it, and while we sat she touched up the town and +Father nearly fell out of his chair at the way she did it. If Mrs. +Grump were for sale, I'd sell everything I own to get enough to buy +her, for the way she can put into words what she thinks of human beings +would make a graven image come to life. She never smiles herself. + +After we got through with Princess Street we turned in by Colonel +Rixby's and then went down by the Baconses' and into The Court, whose +trees were planted by order of some lordly person, kin to the Aikens +who have been sitting under the shade of their greatness ever since, +and then we strolled by the Eppes house, for I wanted Father to see it. +It is the stateliest old place in town and its garden of old-fashioned +flowers makes one think the twentieth century is a mistake and ought +never to have been, but ordinarily I pass it quickly, as I don't care +for its owners. The house has perfect lines and the dearest little +panes of glass in its deep, wide windows; and inside it has big +fireplaces and beautifully carved woodwork and wonderful old furniture +and fearful old portraits, and I certainly wanted Father to see +everything in it, but I didn't expect him to do it, for the House of +Eppes doesn't admire me any more than I admire it--and then the +unexpected happened. + +As we reached the gate we saw the whole bunch sitting in the wide, cool +hall--Sister reading aloud, Sister Edwina making tatting, and Miss Lily +Lou peeling a peach for Mother from a basket on the table beside her, +and I was going to pass by and just bow to Mother as pleasantly and +politely as I could (she was the only one who saw us), when to my +surprise she got up and ordered me to stop by a wave of her hand. I +stopped. She does not approve of me. She thinks it very indelicate in +me to accept the attentions of one whose engagement had so recently +been broken, and, while she will never recover from stupefaction that +Elizabeth should disagree with her son, she attributed that action on +Elizabeth's part to lack of sense and does not hesitate to say so, just +as she has not hesitated to say things about me that were not as +Christian as they might have been. She knew, however, what was +expected of Twickenham Town and that personal feelings were to be paid +no attention to where politeness was concerned, and with a sort of +scepter movement she beckoned to me and commanded us to come in. We +went. + +It is a queer thing how nice disagreeable people can be when they want +to, and that morning the entire Eppes family (even Sister Edwina, who's +the limit) were so polite and pleasant that Father never would have +imagined how cocky and sniffy they usually are. I behaved as well as +they did, and when we came away I couldn't remember a thing I had said +that I shouldn't. We didn't stay but half an hour. I wouldn't have +held out a whole hour, and neither would they, and so, after we had +seen all the beautiful old things downstairs and been introduced to all +the painted ancestors, I got away quick, for Miss Anna was showing +signs I didn't think were safe. They don't know that they worship +idols of wood and glass and silver and china, and images in old gilt +frames, but they do, and the steel trust hasn't money enough to buy +them. It's a pity they won't sell a few and put the money in some new +clothes, for those they wear are a sight to behold. As we were +leaving, Mother Eppes invited us to take dinner with her on Sunday in a +way that was more a command than an invitation and we accepted in a +manner to match, though inside I was raging to think we'd have to go. +And then I remembered it would be a regular thriller to be eating at +the table with Whythe and his family and my family, and I hoped I'd +remember to call him Mr. Eppes, as down here they do that up to the day +of the marriage, the first name being thought too familiar until after +the ceremony, and even then in public. Grace Marvin, who is engaged to +Richard Clarke, calls him Dick, but that is because she isn't +ancestral; just accepted, Mrs. Grump says, and she knows, being +familiar with the history of everybody in town. + +They were perfect days, the four Father spent in Twickenham Town, and +he was made over when he went away. Every morning Mr. Willie Prince +sent him up a mint julep that started the day so cheerfully he was +happy through its every minute; and Major Roke, who makes the best ones +in town, would come for him at twelve o'clock and take him to his +house, and Mr. Letcher always managed to get hold of him about six in +the afternoon, and at bedtime some one else would send one in. And +poor Father, who never drinks anything at home, it not being good for +him, was in an awful state of mind at first, and then he decided he +would rather die than hurt the feelings of the senders and he'd take +the chance on his health. He took. + +I'm a fighting disbeliever in whisky, and if I had any say I'd say it +couldn't be made except for sickness, but you couldn't get certain +Twickenham-Towners to believe it is a dangerous thing, and to take a +little something for the stomach's sake is a recommendation in the +Bible they approve of and obey. It doesn't seem to kill people here or +some would have been a long time dead, but there are one or two it is a +pity it hasn't killed. It does much worse than kill; it ruins. I hope +next time Father will say the doctor doesn't permit him to touch +anything. I didn't tell him so, of course, and I am afraid he will +manage not to see the doctor before he leaves; but, anyhow, the morning +and night juleps can be thrown out of the window after a sip to get the +smell on if he wants to throw. I wouldn't take a bet that he will +want, but I'm hoping. + +I didn't see much of Whythe while Father was here--that is, by himself. +He was awfully nice to Father and he liked him very much (Father liked +Whythe, I mean), but he couldn't understand why he didn't get more of a +move on and make business for himself. I told him in Twickenham Town +people waited for business to come to them, and everybody knew Whythe +was a lawyer, and if they needed his services they would let him know, +and if they didn't there was no use waiting around, which was why he +was out of his office so much of the time. And then Father asked me +when I had heard from Billy and when he was coming home; and, thankful +to change the subject, I told him all I knew and got out the cards and +showed them to him. + +We had so many things to talk about--Mother and the girls and the home +people and things, and the people he had met in Twickenham Town--that +he hadn't talked about Billy, and when I showed him the cards he said +Billy must have mighty little to do but write them, as there were +fifty-six and he hadn't been gone but five weeks. He seemed to think +that right many, so I didn't say anything much about his letters, which +are long and once a week, but told him Billy would sail on September +16th, and get back before I did--that is, if I stayed until the 27th. +He said I could if I wanted to, and that he would come down for the +last week and take me back with him, and I was so happy I swirled him +around in my arms and danced a dance I made up as I went along, and +both Billy and Whythe Eppes were out of his mind when he stopped for +breath. And that night he went away. Also that night I almost cried +my eyes out for sorrow at his going and for gladness that he was my +Father. I wonder if all girls love their fathers as I love mine! + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +Billy has been pretty good about writing. Much better than I have +been. I told him I would tell him all about Twickenham and the people, +and what they did and how they did, and I intended to do it, but that +is my chief trouble. I'm a grand intender and a poor doer. Billy +never promises and always does. He sends cards from every place, he +goes to, and a good many from the same place so I can see what he is +seeing, which I couldn't do if he wrote a book of descriptions. He +doesn't tell much about the cities and towns, most of which I have been +in myself and am glad he leaves out, but he writes awfully interesting +things about the places he pokes into by himself and the people he +meets, and I almost die laughing over his accounts of his sister and a +beau his mother has caught for her. She is a dandy-looking girl, his +sister is, and wears the smartest clothes I ever saw except Florine's, +and if Patricia has really landed a duke or a count or a thing of that +sort, his mother will have a wedding that will fit the fellow all +right. He's apt to be landed. + +I never have understood how Billy was born of his parents. He cares no +more for flum-foolishness than I do, which is why we have so much fun +over the efforts certain mothers we know make to help their daughters +get married, and we've decided to be failures as social successes and +enjoy ourselves. My mother isn't at all like his mother. She is a +precious mother, mine is, and adores Father and her children, but she +is in the parade and has to keep step, not having courage to get out, +and she thinks she must give her daughters every opportunity, and for +daughters in Mother's world opportunity means marriage. Until she gets +us settled she won't feel as if her duty had been done. That's why she +has gone with Florine and Jessica to the same place Florine went to +last summer with the Logans. Florine has had a good many beaux, but +none of them has been just what she had set her mind on, and last +summer she met a man I believe she fell in love with. Anyhow, she has +gone where it will be convenient for him to see her if he wants to, and +he must want, as Mother says in every one of her letters that Mr. +Jeffry has just come or just gone. He came to see Florine last winter, +and a blind person could tell he was worth having. I hope they will +take each other. Mother would be so pleased. Jessica and I are not +apt to do much for ourselves in the marrying line, so it is left to +Florine to make the catch. + +She is very beautiful, Florine is. She knows it and she loves +beautiful things and wouldn't think of marrying any one who could not +give them to her. She wouldn't marry a man who isn't decent and +straight and all that, not being that kind, but neither is she +romantic, and nothing on earth could make her lose her head. She is +cool and deliberate and far-seeing, and not apt to ask herself too many +questions about love alone when thinking about marriage. She is a +dream to look at, which Jessica isn't, but I love Jessica best. + +Last night in bed I got to thinking about old Jess, and wondering how +she was making out with that bunch up there, and I almost rolled out at +the way her nose must be turning up inside of her at some of the things +she was seeing and hearing and had to take part in; and I laughed so +loud that Miss Susanna came in my room to see if anything were the +matter. I told her no, and that I was just thinking of something, so +she pattered back, and I put my face in the pillow to keep her from +hearing me again. But it was hard not to let it come out. Mother's +daughters are a mixture all right, and no more alike than if they +weren't related to one another. Being a parent must be an anxious job. +I hope I will have a dozen children, but they'll probably be right much +to manage. If I turn out to be a childless old maid, I'll adopt a boy +and girl, anyhow. I can do that if I can't do anything else. + +Jessica is the clever one of our family. Florine has the beauty and +Jessica the brains, and so far nothing has shown signs in me, but +something may turn up yet. Jessica is an A.M., and she has Ideas and +Views and Opinions which she isn't stingy with and lets anybody have +who is within hearing, and she wanted to be something, have a Career +and get an Identity, which she says a woman has no chance of doing as +long as she sinks herself in marriage; but Father said she couldn't go +to any more colleges until she had had a fling at fun, for it wasn't +fair to Mother. She came out last winter and had a fearful rush +because she was so different from the other girls. + +I don't believe Jessica would ever have wasted a winter doing the +things she did last year if she hadn't wanted to see for herself what +was in it, anyhow, in society I mean, so she took a header and plunged +all right. She says she has a scientific and analytical mind and she +worked it all out--the number of hours and days and weeks and months +she had spent flopping around from one party to another, and doing the +things she was supposed to do, and saying the things she wasn't +supposed to say, and then she estimated the cost in time and strength +and money and wear and tear on her character, and announced that it +wasn't a paying business, and at the end of the year she was going to +get out. The year won't be up until October and that is why she is +with Mother and Florine this summer. + +What she is going in for when it is up I don't believe she knows +herself, yet. She says woman to-day is in the most unsettled and +uncertain state that any animal has ever been in since the first one, a +mollusk, or something without a backbone started to get one. And that +it will take time for woman to evolute into being the best kind of a +human being she is capable of becoming, and that the next step in the +evoluting is to get out of her head some of the foolishness put in it +by men people who didn't know what they were talking about. Mother +thinks it fearful in her to talk as she does, and can't understand how +she can be so daring and so indelicate as to speak about coming from +mollusks and things which don't have spinal columns and nervous +systems, but Jessica says that is because Mother belongs to a day that +didn't know about such things, and that the modern woman is shedding +the shucks which have kept her a caterpillar much longer than was +necessary. A good many old ideas she thinks are shucks--that is, she +pretends to; but she is an old dear just the same, if she does say +things about people which it isn't polite to say. + +I love old Jess. She isn't but twenty-two, and she will be less sniffy +some of these days and not so scornful and impatient with repeaters and +parasiters and people like that, but just now she says they aren't +worth wasting time on. She can talk you right into seeing her way, and +the first thing you know you are agreeing with her, and she has landed +you before you realized the net was out. Landed outsiders, I mean. +She will never land Mother and Florine. I love to hear her talk, +though I don't think I am going to be a Careering person. I'd like to +be one, but with a dozen children I am afraid there won't be time. I +wouldn't tell old Jess, but I don't think she is going to Career very +long, either. I believe she is in love with the man who taught her +some of the ologies she is so interested in. He is awfully nice, but +not very practical. He is a psychological sociologist or a +sociological psychologist, I don't know which, but it doesn't matter. +If Jess marries him she will run him and the house. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +I wonder what made me get on the subject of my sisters when I began +with Billy and the reason I had not written him as often as he has +written me, but that is the way I do everything in life. If I were a +preacher I wouldn't hold my job long, for the thing I started on would +have about as much connection with the thing I ended with as the moon +with milk. Not that that would be unusual, for a good many ministers +have the same failing and skip about just as I do, but my trouble would +be in hopping from one subject to another so fast that the congregation +would be in Jericho one minute and in Jerusalem the next and never know +how it made the jump. As I am never going to be a preacher, I am not +worrying about my unfitness to be one, but what does worry me sometimes +is that my hopping habit will be my ruination when I begin to write a +book. My characters will never keep together, or do the proper things +or say suitable ones. They will probably get so jumbled up no one will +be able to tell which is the chief hero or heroine, and there will be +no logical development at all, which my English teacher insists is an +elemental requirement of fiction if it isn't of life. I thought this +summer I was going to begin some sort of book just for practice, but by +the time I get through putting down the things I scribble about the +day's doings, and write to Father and send my weekly letter to Mother +and the girls, and run off something every now and then to Billy, and +answer the notes I get from Whythe and some of the kiddies around here +who think they're grown, I don't feel like writing on a book, which is +why I haven't begun one yet. I will never be able to write one that +tells of dark deeds and treacherous doings and love-sick lovers, or one +which has suspended interest or rapid action and narrow escapes, for I +know very little of such things, and I will never do much with plots. +The people I know do not have very exciting lives and here in +Twickenham they trot along and do the same thing over and over, and one +day is very much like the other, so there isn't much inspiration for a +thriller, and thrillers are the style in books to-day. That is one +reason I thought I had better wait until the style changes and while +waiting enjoy myself with the people here who know how to do that +better than any people on earth. I'm enjoying myself all right. + +Of course, now that I am in love, I could write volumes on how +scrumptious it is and how floppy I feel whenever I see Whythe, +especially when he keeps his deep, dark eyes on me as if he were trying +to read my soul when we happen to meet at the foot of the hill and sit +on the worm fence for a while. I don't think he is trying to really +read my soul, for he isn't much on reading anything, but he certainly +can say beautiful things. They aren't so, but they sound well, and I +must admit I enjoy hearing them. They make me feel so grown-upy, and +then, too, it will be a great help when I begin my book to remember +what a man says on certain occasions and how he says it. They are +natural couriers, the men in this town are, but they don't always mean +to be taken in earnest, and Mr. James Burke came near getting in an +awful mess by paying a girl a lot of compliments he oughtn't to have +paid, he being a married man and she not knowing it. She was a very +serious person and believed all that was told her and came near +breaking her engagement with another man on account of the pretty +speeches Mr. Burke made to her. She was from Rhode Island and visiting +May Strudwick, who told her for mercy's sake not to pay any attention +to speeches of that sort and to hold on to the Rhode-Islander, for Mr. +Burke said the same fluff to all the girls who came to Twickenham, and +as long as it was just eyebrows and things of that kind no harm was +done. But she couldn't understand and went home sooner than she +expected. I understand. It's lots of fun--the different ways of +saying the same thing--and all enlightenment is advantageous. + +A few nights ago Whythe got fearfully sentimental and said all sorts of +thrilly, foolish nonsense, and the way he said it certainly added to +its enjoyment. He's a corking courter, and if he could teach the way +he does it he would have crowded classes all right. We were at Bessie +Debree's party, and just before supper we went out on the side porch, +which has bushels of roses on it and no lights, and sat down on a +rustic bench in the corner where we could hear the music and see the +moon and not be seen, and the minute we sat I knew what was coming. + +Whythe put his elbow on the back of the seat and, chin in the palm of +his hand, looked at me as if we were on a desert island and there was +no one else in all the world but me, and he would ask for no one else +if I alone was there; and then with his other hand he tried to take out +of my fingers a rose he had just pulled and given me. I remembered in +time that Jess had told me to keep my hands to myself if anybody seemed +interested in them, so I put the rose on the bench and sat on my hands +and asked him if he did not think Marjorie Graham a perfectly beautiful +person; and he said he hadn't noticed her sufficiently to know what she +looked like, as he never saw but one face now. And then he leaned a +little closer and asked me if I knew how wonderful I was and what my +eyes could do to a man's heart if I would only let come in them what +could come, and which he hoped would some day come only for him; and I +asked him what it was, not knowing, as it had never been mentioned +before, and he said it was a thing a man would die for. And then he +took the rose up and put it to his lips and asked me if I would marry +him; asked me if I could never care for him as he cared for me, for he +knew now that he had never really loved before, and if I would promise +to marry him he would be in heaven, his happiness would be so great. + +It was perfectly thrilling, much better than anything I have ever seen +on the stage. He tried to get one of the hands I was still sitting on, +but I thought I had better not let him have it, as we were not engaged, +and Jess had said no affectionaries until you are engaged. And then, +too, I remembered he had probably said the same things several times +before, he seemed so familiar with them, and I had a feeling that Billy +was standing by, perfectly disgusted, but ready to fish me out if I +fell in. I came pretty near falling, and then I told Whythe I wouldn't +be through college until I was twenty and I didn't believe in waiting +for anything on earth for four years, and though it was awfully nice in +him to ask me to marry him, my father would have fits if he thought I +was listening to him do it, and that we had better go in. + +I wish I had had a kodak and could have snapped the look that came over +his face when I suggested going in. He was perfectly astonished. Also +he was indignant and grieved and the look he bent upon me was truly +burning. As for his voice--Sothern couldn't have surpassed it. After +a while he said he thought I had more sympathy, more understanding of a +love such as his, and if I realized its depth I would not keep him +waiting four years, as four years at college was all nonsense for a +woman; and then he got my hand, anyhow, and I jumped up, for somebody +was coming, and, besides, if we hadn't gone in we'd have been in an +argument right off, with love left out, on the subject of education and +women. I did not want him to think I was not appreciative, however, +and though I went in with Mr. Keane, who had come for his dance, I gave +Whythe a little look that was not unfriendly as I left him. I am +afraid it was not even discouraging, but he seemed so mysterious and +tragic and amazed that I should leave him at such a critical time that +I thought a little look wouldn't hurt. I noticed, as we reached the +door, that he was lighting a cigarette, and I knew his feelings would +soon be soothed. Man has no sorrow that smoking may not cure. + +When we went home that night other people were in the automobile (I +always see that that happens, knowing how Mother would feel about it) +and Whythe, of course, had no chance to continue a former conversation, +but his silence said a lot, and when he helped me out of the car he +helped much more than was necessary and held my hands so tight he +nearly broke my little finger; and the look he gave me was a thriller +all right. Every time I've thought of it since my heart has thumped so +I know I must be in love, for all books say that is a reliable symptom. +Being proposed to is awfully interesting, and the reason I like it so +much is that I am not apt to have many proposals of Whythe's sort, as +that kind has gone out of fashion, owing to golf and tennis and country +clubs and so much association. Plain statement is about all a girl +gets nowadays, I am told. Jacqueline Smith told Florine Mr. Smith had +wired her he had to go to South America and asked her if she would +marry him and go with him, and she wired back she would, and that was +all the courting they had, though they seem very happy. And a girl +Jess knows said the man she married had asked her how he stood with +her, that she stood all right with him, and that was the way they knew +they cared for each other. But I'm not that sort. I am very romantic +and I like a lot of words, which is why I am just crazy about Whythe's +letters. + +If Whythe doesn't make a success of law or politics he could certainly +make a living writing letters of a certain sort. He's an expert at +them and greatly gifted, and though I don't say much in mine, thinking +it safer to telephone than write, I do tell him that his are perfectly +lovely, at which he doesn't seem displeased. He still begs me to marry +him, and is so fearfully polite about it that I don't like to ask him +what he has to marry on, and so far as I know he has only nerve and his +mother's home. I would not like to spend eternity as a maiden lady, +but I'd much rather so spend it than dwell under the vine and fig-tree +of the person who would be a mother-in-law to Whythe's wife. My heart +goes out to Elizabeth every time I think of the fate that will +eventually be hers. Also it goes out to the House of Eppes. When +opposing elements meet something usually happens. I'm betting on +Elizabeth, but I may be wrong. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +Jehoshaphat the Golden! For two days Twickenham Town has been standing +on its head and wriggling its heels in the air, and nothing has been +talked about since it appeared except its appearance. Every tongue in +town has had its say, and everybody in town has been on somebody else's +porch and talked it over; and as for Miss Susanna, I believe she cried +the whole night through, last night. The first night she was too dazed +to take it in. The Twickenham Town _Sentinel_ had it on its front page +in the middle column in letters indecently large, Miss Bettie Simcoe +says, and it certainly did make a sensation: "Mrs. Roger S. Payne +announces the engagement of her niece Elizabeth Hamilton Carter to Mr. +Algernon Grice Baker, of Perryville, Wisconsin," was what the +Twickenham-Towners waked up and read on Wednesday the 1st of August, +and if the dynamite-plant which has made business so good for Buzzard +Brothers, the undertakers, had exploded, it couldn't have caused more +of a stir. Twickenham wasn't only amazed; it was indignant, and it +couldn't believe it was true. But it was true, for the next day Miss +Susanna got a letter from Elizabeth, telling her all about her +engagement and that she would be home very soon and bring him with her, +and it was the night of the day the letter was received that Miss +Susanna went early to her room and locked her door for a while (that +is, my door, for she is sleeping in my room during the August rush) and +cried all night long. I had to pretend I didn't know, for she didn't +want me to know how hurt and distressed she was that Elizabeth should +have so treated her, and as I didn't sleep any more than she did, +though, owing to very different feelings about Elizabeth, I made up my +mind as to some things I would say to her when she got back. And if +she has never read "King Lear" I will see that she hears it read before +very long with a glossary, and comments of my own on ingratitude and +things of that sort. Also she may hear some other things. + +I have been perfectly furious with Elizabeth for the way she has +treated the aunt who has been mother and father and all things else to +her, but I can't help laughing at the way Twickenham Town has taken the +engagement. + +As for Whythe--I have wished for Billy a dozen times of late, for only +Billy could see what a scream it is, the shock to Whythe's vanity that +Elizabeth's beau is proving. I can't speak of it to any one else, and +keeping it to myself is a great strain. At first he seemed dazed with +unbelief, and then he became scorny and sniffy and shruggy and smiley, +and though he says little about his successor, whom he hasn't seen yet, +his manner indicates that as a substitute for himself he considers him +an insult. + +Last night at the gate he talked to me about it for a while, and then +he asked me when I was going to tell him I would marry him, and why was +it I would not engage myself to him and take him out of his miserable +state of uncertainty and make him the happiest man in the world, and +why-- Oh, my granny! he spieled it off so beautifully and his eyes +helped so wonderfully, also the moon, which was half out and half in, +that I stayed a little longer at the gate than I should, perhaps, and +let him say things he shouldn't, but his fluency was so enjoyable I +couldn't get away. After a while, however, when he had run down a +little, I told him I didn't think it would be respectful to what might +have been if I engaged myself to him, and that sixteen was too young to +be engaged, and then, too, it wasn't positively certain that a certain +young person was going to marry another young person just because she +was at present engaged to him. At which he got perfectly furious and +said he would not marry that certain person if she was the only woman +left on earth; that she had treated him as no lady should treat a +gentleman, and that she was vain and mercenary and ambitious, and he +was mortified to think he had ever imagined he had loved so shallow and +weak and changeable a girl, and-- + +"But you did love her, didn't you?" I got up on the gate-post, swung +my feet down, and put my hands in my lap and out of reach, the post not +being big enough for two. "Everybody says you were frightfully in love +with her and you didn't think she was shallow and weak and mercenary +until you had the break, and maybe you may change your mind back again +about her some day, and then where would I be?" I put my chin in my +hands and my elbows in my lap and looked down at him, and he looked so +hurt and surprised that I saw he had not thought of his own real gift +for changing, and I realized that his attention ought to be drawn to +some things he was apt to forget. Quick as a flash, though, he said I +had opened new worlds to him; that I stimulated and inspired him as no +one had ever done, and that he would never love any one as he loved me, +and that he would wait forever if necessary for me. Also he said he +would never change back again to a certain person, as she had killed +his love, and would I not promise to be just his? And I had to sit +tight on my hands, his manner was so very imploring; and then, before I +could say anything, I heard Mr. Willie Prince, who was sitting on the +front porch, fanning, cough rather loud and come down the steps and +call Ben, who was barking, and I knew Mr. Willie was doing what he +thought was his duty, and I got down from the post and told Whythe good +night. He went away like the young man in the Bible, very sorrowful, +and I went in. + +It wasn't late, but everybody had gone in except Miss Susanna and Mr. +Willie, and when I sat down in a rocking-chair Miss Susanna looked at +me as if she didn't know whether to say anything or not, and I saw she +was worried. But before I could ask what was the matter she got up and +kissed me good night and went in, so I asked Mr. Willie. + +He wouldn't tell me at first, though I could see he was dying to do it, +but after a while he said Miss Susanna was the sort that found life of +the present day a hard thing to accept, and, fanning himself with his +palm leaf, he looked at me as if I were one of the reasons she found +life hard. "Miss Susanna," he said, "is a lady of the old school where +love and honor were placed above riches and mere material things, and +it was a blow to her to find how readily young people could change +their affections and break their plighted vows and be blind to their +best interests, which was to keep along the same path and not be +tempted out of it by passing people and worldly ambitions." And as he +talked in his fine little cambric-needle voice that sounded as if it +came out of a squeaky cabinet, I knew he was meaning more than he was +saying, and I sat up and listened until he stopped for breath. + +"Is that all?" I asked, and got up to go in, "for if it is I don't +think Miss Susanna need worry herself. People in one generation aren't +very different from people in another where self-interest is concerned. +Everybody knows Mrs. Loraine married her husband for his money, though +loving Mr. Spence, and Miss Susanna was one of her bridesmaids; and if +Elizabeth prefers to marry a rich man to a poor one, I don't see +anything new about that." And also I said it wasn't likely that love +and honor were ever going to die out, and a few other things would live +a long time yet, and he need not bother any more than Miss Susanna +concerning present-day young people; and then to my surprise he asked +me to sit down and told me what he enjoyed telling very much. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +"Everybody has been talking about the way Whythe Eppes has been rushing +you," he began, fanning as hard as he could fan, "and several people +have been to see Miss Susanna and told her they thought your parents +ought to know--" + +He didn't get any further. I stopped him. It was silly in me to get +hot, but I got hot all right, and in all my life I never wanted anybody +as I wanted Billy right then at my side. He doesn't get mad the way I +do. He would see that talk he did not like was stopped in two minutes, +but I was too fighting angry to stop my own tongue, and I said things +to fat Miss Nancy Willie Prince I oughtn't to have said. Among them +that my parents would not have permitted me to come to this town or any +other if not perfectly certain I knew how to behave myself wherever I +went, and that whatever was advisable for them to know concerning me +they would know without the assistance of Miss Bettie Simcoe or Mrs. +Caperton (she is a frisky little widow who has no use for young girls) +or any other Twickenham-Towner. And then, perhaps because he was so +flustered he didn't know what he was saying, he told me riches were a +great temptation to any young man, and everybody, of course, knew my +father was wealthy, though he must say it had not been learned from the +family. And that Whythe, being poor from a money standpoint, had +naturally been tempted, especially as his engagement had been so +recently broken with a girl he had been in love with since childhood, +and I, being young, didn't understand and was under the impression that +young men meant all they said, and-- + +He would be talking now if I had not stamped my foot and stopped his +rambling. His insinuations sounded as if I were a feeble-minded +creature and couldn't tell truth from untruth, or know when a man meant +or didn't mean what he said, and had never heard things of the same +sort before. I've heard them before, and in several different places. +I am a good many things I ought not to be, but I am not feeble-minded. +I told him-- It does not matter what I told him, but I made him +understand I could take care of myself without the help of the town, +and, while I appreciated his effort to keep me from thinking the men in +Twickenham did not mean what they said, and were not to be relied on, +and not to be trusted, and that honor was not held very high by them +where young girls were concerned, it was difficult to believe it, for I +had been made to understand by others that certain old-fashioned things +were still held sacred there, and the dangers and temptations of the +city were absent. When I saw how red his fat, round face got and how +squirmy his legs and how hard he fanned I knew I had better go in. I +went, but I didn't say good night. + +Mad! Was I mad? I was. For a long time I sat by the window and +talked to Billy in my mind and told him what I thought of men old-maids +and prissy places and gossipy spinsters and flirtatious widows, and of +people who didn't have anything to talk of but one another; and then, +as the moon came out clearer, I seemed to see myself clearer also, and +after a while it came over me that maybe I had been a little nicer to +Whythe than was necessary just to see if a man couldn't get comforted +sooner than he thought. I had been doing a little scientific +experimenting along a different way from Jess's way; and then my eyes +got open wide and I saw what Mr. Willie had been trying to tell me, +which was that Whythe was probably taking practical consolation and was +not ignorant of the fact that my Father was not a poor man. + +At the thought something got into my backbone and I sat up. I had been +fooling myself and didn't know it. I don't mean I had believed all the +thrilly love things Whythe had been saying. They came natural to him +and he might have said them to some other girl if not to me, but I had +not dreamed he had any thought of an advantageous alliance, as Billy +calls the thing his mother is hoping his sister will make, or that any +one could associate such a thought with me. It didn't seem possible, +and I don't believe Whythe is that sort. Still, men are queer ducks, +Jess says, and one never can tell what is in the back of their brain +from the words of their mouth, and if Whythe was imagining I had any +value outside of my own self I would like to find it out. How I was +going to find out I did not know, and when I said my prayers I started +to pray that a rattling good way would turn up, but I remembered it +wasn't exactly a thing to pray about and that watching might be better. + +I had had a grand time being in love. Every day there was some new +evidence of how nice a beau is, and though the other boys didn't let +Whythe have it all his own way, as they called it, and we had a jolly +time together and I danced and rode and picnicked and pleasured with +all of them, still, it was understood that Whythe was my steady and +they gave him right much chance. It had been loads of fun having a +steady, and I knew now how excited Mazie, one of our maids at home, +must have felt the day she became engaged to hers, who was the milkman. +But I had somehow thought that nobody but girls of Mazie's sort had +steadies, and I had wished I could be a maid for a few weeks just to +find out how it would feel to possess some one and be possessed by him. +I guess it amounts to about the same thing, though, love does, no +matter in what way it comes to one or by what name we call it, if it is +the genuine thing. I have certainly never felt about Whythe in the way +Mazie must have felt about her milkman, judging by her face, but I had +been enjoying myself and I didn't intend to stop with too much +suddenness. Mr. Willie had warned me and I would remember, but it is +against the law to condemn a man unheard. The Bible says so. I would +go slowly for once in my life and give Whythe a chance to conduct his +own defense. It wouldn't be necessary to mention that a case was being +tried or that I would be both judge and jury. There are times in life +when it is well to keep some things to oneself. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + +Yesterday it poured in torrents all day. None of us could get out of +the house, so while Miss Araminta darned my stockings, which hadn't +been touched since I came to Twickenham Town, I read aloud to the whole +bunch in the library and we had a very nice time. Miss Araminta has +tried to teach me to darn since I have been here, but she has not +succeeded in doing it! I will never be a darner. I have asked Mother +not to get me all-over silk stockings, as the Lisle-thread feet last +much longer, but she doesn't seem to remember, and one of my charities +is giving my nice stockings away when they can no longer be worn with +self-respect. Clarissa, Mother's maid, is supposed to keep them in +order, but she doesn't do it, and she has headaches so often I don't +like to say anything to her, with the result that Mother thinks I wear +out an awful lot, and yet I know she wouldn't want me to wear stockings +with holes in them. I found out early in life that it is foolish to +try to do things you are not by nature fitted to do, and I am not +fitted by nature to sit still for hours and fill up a little hole in a +stocking to save a few cents or a dollar or so. I don't do it. I +would rather save in some other way. + +Miss Araminta loves to darn. Also she loves pretty clothes in a way +that is truly pitiful, not having the means to get them, and she has +about as much idea how to have her few things made as a Comanche Indian +has of _vers-libre_. If she would wear those that suited her style she +would look dear, but she wears clothes of many colors made, as she +thinks, in the prevailing fashion, and of course she is a sight for all +beholders. While I was reading _Pendennis_ out loud I was wondering at +the same time what Miss Araminta was going to wear to the reception +Judge and Mrs. Maclean are going to give to their two married daughters +and their husbands on the 17th of August, which is the big thing of the +year for Twickenham Town; but of course I couldn't ask her. I knew she +had nothing suitable or that had not been the subject of nudges and +remarks under the breath, and smiles that could be heard. And I also +knew nothing could keep her away, for she dearly loves to go to parties +and is not often invited, being of an inconvenient age for +entertainments, and I wished something could come to pass that would be +to her interest. + +As I read I poked around in my mind trying to think what might be done, +and suddenly something came to me, and after a while I put the book +down and began to talk of the different things that were going on in +town and the many visitors who were already there, and then I asked +Miss Araminta if she didn't think lavender was a lovely color. She +said it was the one she loved best and all her life she had longed for +a lavender satin with everything to match, but she knew now she would +never have it and she rarely let herself wish for things any more. And +she sighed the softest little sigh, like a mother whose baby had died a +long time ago, but who always kept it in her heart, and I said to +myself, "Go up-stairs, Kitty Canary, and think out a way," and +up-stairs I went. + +August is The Season in Twickenham Town, and there is hardly a family +in it that doesn't have company or boarders, or whose sons and +daughters don't come home for their holiday, and Miss Bettie Simcoe +says it's perfectly scandalous, the flirting that goes on. Miss Bettie +thinks anything matrimonial is close to scandalous, and she is +continually raising her eyebrows and making a half moon of her mouth at +what she says is the forwardness and freeness of present-day young +people. Miss Susanna always has a crowded house in August. A Doctor +Macafee and his wife and two daughters are here from Florida, and a +Miss LeRoy from New Hampshire, and Judge Lampton and his wife from +Alabama, and how she manages to put them away is known only to herself. + +When I heard she was going to give up her room and take a tiny one in +the garret I made up my mind I would have an awful dream that night, a +regular nightmare, that would scare her to death and make her come in +my room to see what was the matter. I had it and she came, and I told +her I was subject to nightmares and ought not to sleep in a room by +myself, though I hadn't mentioned it before, and I wished she would +please sleep in mine with me and take the four-poster, which I thought +gave me bad dreams, as I wasn't accustomed to such high beds. And if +she would I would take the cot, as I liked cots much better. I am +subject to nightmares, or anything else that is advisable to have at +the proper time, and if I had known how many people were coming and +that Miss Susanna was going to give up her room, I would have had one +before, so she wouldn't think they had come on pretty sudden. But she +is not apt to think. She is a darling little old lady, not brought up +to think, and now too busy to do it, and she just works herself to +death with her head up and a smile on her face, and doesn't realize she +is spending all she makes in good things for the people who come here +and nearly kill themselves eating. She never buys herself any +clothes--that is, until Elizabeth has all she needs--and when I went up +to my room yesterday to think out a way of getting that lavender satin +for Miss Araminta, another thought came into my head, which was a black +satin for Miss Susanna. + +Feelings are things one has to be awfully careful about in Twickenham +Town, and not for a billion dollars put in my pocket would I hurt +anybody's here, and I couldn't let Miss Araminta or Miss Susanna think +for a moment that their dresses were not all right, and how to get them +new ones I couldn't imagine. I started to pray about it, and then I +remembered I was in an awful hurry and it would be better to get to +work, and, going over to the bureau, I opened its top drawer, and there +looking up at me was my bank-book lying on a pile of handkerchiefs. +Father had put a very respectable sum of money in the Twickenham bank +for me and told me to use it whenever I could do it in the right way, +and he would trust me to find the right way; but though I had tried to +get rid of some of it, there were few opportunities (so it wouldn't be +manifest, I mean), and now one popped right up in my face. + +For fear it might pop out again I ran downstairs as quick as I could, +and, seeing Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta were by themselves, I began +to talk about the Pettigrew children and what they had told me they +wanted Santa Claus to bring them Christmas. And that reminded me +suddenly that Christmas would soon be here, and I told them that in +August I always began to think about what to get Mother and Aunt +Celeste, who were my chief Christmas worries, and I wondered if they +thought I could get something in Twickenham that I could take back with +me. I felt, as I talked, that I was on a tight rope forty feet in the +air and mighty little to balance myself with, but I managed to put in +words what I wanted to say, and like little angels they fell in and +never dreamed I had thought the thing out before I spoke. + +I told them that Mother and Aunt Celeste had much more than they needed +in life, and it was hard to get anything new and different for them, as +there were so many to give them presents, and that I liked to get +something odd if I could. The things they were crazy about were old +silver and old jewelry, especially old settings, and it was hard to +find them in our town, and I wondered if they could help me get a piece +of silver like one of Miss Susanna's pitchers for Mother, and a set of +sapphires like Miss Araminta's for Aunt Celeste. Also I said I didn't +want to trouble them and I hoped they wouldn't mind my asking them. + +Miss Araminta said no indeed, she didn't mind, and that she had got +into the state of mind Miss Virginia Hill was in, and she wasn't going +to keep on keeping a lot of things that were no use just because they +had belonged to long-dead grandmothers. And while she wouldn't go as +far as Miss Virginia, who would sell every ancestor she had for a +million dollars, she would part with some other things for much less, +and if I wanted to buy the sapphire set (pin and ear-rings) she would +be glad to sell them. She would have to tell me, though, they had been +her great-grandmother's, and not her great-great's, as the pearls were, +and that she would take forty-five dollars for them, and if that was +too much she would take forty. + +I almost lost my breath at her good sense, not expecting it, but I told +her it would be cheating if I paid less than seventy-five for them (I +had calculated that it would take about that to get the lavender satin +with things to match), and if she would get them for me I would take +them right away, and I was awfully obliged to her, as it would be such +a relief to get Aunt Celeste off my mind. I admitted I didn't always +pay as much as seventy-five for her present (I usually give her a +five-dollar one which Mother pays for), but Father wanted me to bring +her something quaint from Twickenham if I could find it, and he would +be delighted to know of the sapphires. + +I fiddled along about other things for a moment or two and then I asked +Miss Susanna if she would think me a very piggy person to want to buy +one of those precious old silver pitchers of hers, as Mother would love +so to have one of that pattern (Mother had never mentioned it, but I +knew she would long for one of that pattern if she could see it), and I +waited with terrible anxiousness in my heart and a hot face for her +answer. Miss Susanna's got a lovely pinky color, and for a moment she +didn't say anything, and then Miss Araminta spoke for her and showed +more sensibleness than I thought was in her. + +"Why don't you, Susanna?" she said, and nodded at her. They are first +cousins and very good friends. "Why don't you let the child have one +of those old pitchers? You have too much silver, anyhow, and with +servants of the present day any sort of silver is too great a burden to +be borne, much less ancestral sort. Young people want to buy their own +things, and reverence for the past is a thing of the past; and besides, +you have no one to leave yours to except some one who won't appreciate +it. Why don't you let her have it?" + +"I would be glad for her to have it. Glad to help her out with her +Christmas difficulties, but"--Miss Susanna bit her lip and the pink in +her face became rose--"I have never done anything of this sort, and it +does not seem just right. I would be pleased for her mother to have +one of the pitchers. In a sense they are connected with her family as +our great-great-great-grandmothers were the same, and--" + +"Oh, you precious person!" I jumped up and took Miss Susanna in my +arms and whirled around the room with her. I was afraid she would get +on the grandparent subject, and I didn't want to hear it. To head her +off I gave her a squeeze and a skip or two and then I sat her down and +kissed her, and asked her if she thought seventy-five dollars was +enough for the pitcher, and if so I would get the checks while Miss +Araminta got the sapphires. And before they had time to change their +minds their things were mine and my money (Father's) was theirs, and we +were all a little more excited than we were willing to admit. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +They are in my trunk, the two Christmas presents, and we have had a +grand time, Miss Araminta and Miss Susanna and I, buying their party +dresses and things, and it is as true as Scripture that at times there +is nothing better for the soul than pretty clothes for the body. And +nothing so chirps up a woman as to have on becoming ones that fit and +are fresh and make her feel she can walk across the floor without +wishing she had a shawl on. The way Miss Araminta has bloomed out is +as amazing as a moon-plant. And Miss Susanna has such a pleased smile +on her boarder-tired face that I have been up in the air just from +looking at her, and the best time I've ever had in my life has been in +taking charge of their money and spending it for them. The way they +agreed to get the dresses was this: + +I told them it would be awfully exciting to have a secret and spring a +surprise on Mrs. General Gaines and Miss Bettie Simcoe and a few others +in town, and if they were willing I would design a dress for each of +them and Miss Fannie Cross would make the dresses, which would be of a +kind to suit their particular styles, and they could have them for the +party on the 17th. And if they didn't get them at once something would +happen to make them spend the money and it would be gone and they no +better off than before. And I mentioned that there was the loveliest +piece of black charmeuse at Mr. Peter Smith's, and that he was +expecting a piece of lavender satin on Thursday. I had been to see Mr. +Peter and the lavender was ordered before I told them it was coming. +Also a few other things had been ordered by wire, I going with him to +the telegraph-office to see him do it, being afraid to trust his +memory, which, like his methods, is right put-offy. Also I told them +there would be no time to hesitate. They got so flustrated at being +managed and so dazed by the pictures I showed them of the dresses I had +drawn that they were lambs, perfect lambs. They let me do everything I +told them ought to be done. + +It was a real relief to them to have some one go ahead and decide +things and not give them time to think whether they should do this or +do that, or whether they had not better spend the money some other way. +Miss Susanna said, feebly, something about the roof needing to be +fixed, and that the cellar ought to have a new floor, but I told her it +would be sacrilegious to put a great-grandmother's silver pitcher on +the roof or in the cellar, and that it would mortify her heavenly +ancestors to know such a thing was being done, and I was surprised at +her mentioning it. The only suitable way in which it would be proper +to use the pitcher was in something personal, and as I was afraid Mr. +Peter Smith would sell the satin, it was so lovely and only a little +more than enough for a dress, I had told him to put it aside and I had +to let him know that afternoon if it was wanted. And another thing I +told her was that all her life other people had been getting her share +of nice things, and practicalities had eaten up everything pretty she +had wanted for years, and there was an end to making over, and that she +owed it to memories of the past to have a new dress for herself and not +let all the newness always appear on a certain person's back just +because that certain person happened to be young. Uncle Henson would +be at the door with the carriage at four o'clock, I told her, to take +us down-town, and she must be ready in time, as there was a good deal +to do. I wouldn't take a mint of money for the look that came in her +face as I talked. I have put it away for low-down days. + +As for Miss Araminta--I wish I could write a book and put Miss Araminta +Armstrong in it. If the lady who wrote _Cranford_ had known her she +would have put her in, and it is a loss to literature that no one can +do again for little places and the Miss Aramintas of life what the +_Cranford_ writer did. She has told me right much about herself, and I +don't smile any more, even to myself, as I couldn't help doing at first +in the dark when I was so afraid I would roll on the floor and whoop +that I had to hold on to my chair with both hands. It is still funny +to hear her tell of her beaux who never quite came to the point, and +who were always snatched away at the critical moment by a +jealous-minded person who was close kin but whose name she never +mentions. But it isn't as funny as it used to be. It's queer how much +tragedy there is in the comic things of life. Ever since she was born +Miss Araminta has been a pieced-and-patched-up person, and never once +has she had everything new and to match at the same time. When I told +her about some of the things that must go with the lavender satin she +began to cry a little and said she oughtn't to let herself think about +indulgences of that sort, as her poor brother was not in business at +present and needed-- + +"Now look here, Miss Araminta," I said. "The first preparation you +have got to make for the party is to forget you have a brother and +remember your own body, which needs attention. It has come down from a +long line of people who took very good care to put expensive things on +theirs. And another thing you ought to remember is that if your +brother didn't know he could call on you every time he lost his job--" + +"My brother has never had a job." Miss Araminta sat up at once and +wiped her eyes and left, unknowing, a streak of white down a pink cheek +that turned purple at the word "job." "He has been unfortunate in not +being able to retain certain positions he has once held, but his +health--" + +"Rats!" It came out without thinking, but when a man has a worn-out +wife and seven children and won't do this and won't do that because it +is beneath his lordly ideas of what a well-born person should do, it is +better for me not to speak of him out loud. I told Miss Araminta she +must excuse me, but there were some sorts of men I couldn't mention +with safety and I thought "job" was a very good word, and I would +rather have one that paid a dollar a day than borrow money to pay my +bills, and that I'd sweep the streets before I would sit down and do +nothing if I had a wife and seven children. The look on her face I +tucked away, too, to take out on days when there isn't a thing in sight +to laugh at. She can't help it, Miss Araminta can't. She was born +that way and, not being an evoluting kind, words are wasted when it +comes to trying to make her see what she doesn't want to see. There is +a lot of bummy rot in this world which has nothing to do with the +proper kind of pride, and it's my belief we are mighty apt to fill the +place in life we are fitted to fill. If a dollar a day is all I am +worth it is all I ought to get until I make myself worth more. Of +course if people are feeble-minded that's a different thing. When they +are, the State ought to step in and take charge of them in order to +protect itself, Jess says, and also she says feeble-mindeders always +have the largest families, and even a feeble-minded person knows that +is not right. + +I didn't mean to hurt Miss Araminta's feelings, but that brother of +hers is a snuff-the-moon old snob, and I was determined he shouldn't +get a penny of that sapphire money if I could help it, and I told Miss +Araminta a few firm facts. After a while she blew her nose and wiped +her eyes and I had no further trouble. But I was afraid to trust +either her or Miss Susanna with their money, so I took the checks back +and told them it was better for me to keep them, as money had such a +queer way of disappearing. Any that was handy was used when needed, +and when the time came to get the things the money was for there might +not be any to get. They handed it back as meek as little lambs. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta are crazy about the designs I have +sketched for their dresses, and so is Miss Fannie Cross. It is the +only talent I have, designing clothes is, and if I ever have to earn my +living I am going to be "Katrine" and have a shop on a fine street and +charge like old glory for my things. That will make them wanted, and +those who think a gown is desirable according to its price can pay +enough to make up for those who can't pay much, and I'll have a great +time charging the payers. I am going to get ready to earn a living, +anyhow, because every girl ought to, Fathers or Billys notwithstanding. +Life is a very up-and-downy thing, and it is good to know, should it +get down, that you can give it a lift up yourself and not have to wait +for a shover. + +It was a private matinée, watching Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta buy +the things that Mr. Peter Smith had ordered and which they couldn't +understand his having in stock. The trimmings and linings and gloves +and stockings were exactly what was needed and they couldn't get over +how fortunate it was. They paid for them themselves, as I had handed +their money to them when we started out, holding back only enough to +pay Miss Fannie Cross; but though they took some time to do the buying, +and felt and smoothed everything they bought and put the satin to their +cheeks to be sure of its quality, and looked at each other every now +and then as if what they were doing was wicked, perhaps, but fearfully +enjoyable, still in two days everything was at Miss Fannie's, and it +was then I had to be awfully firm with Miss Araminta. + +There are some things some women can never take in, and one is that an +old sheep should never dress lamb fashion. It was all Miss Fannie +(she's a corking-good dressmaker for a small place) and I could do to +hold Miss Araminta down when it came to colors, and the cut of her +skirt, and some trimmings she wanted to put on the waist. She thinks +she loves lavender, but Joseph's coat would have been a colorless piece +of apparel beside her dress if we finally hadn't sat on her and told +her certain things couldn't be done. She was crazy to pile on a bunch +of ancestral lace, yellow and dowdy; but we told her not much, told her +freshness and daintiness suited her style much better, and she wasn't +old enough to emphasize ancestral lace, and she blushed and gave in. +But nothing would have made her do it if Miss Fannie hadn't thought to +throw out the age-line. She caught on and agreed, and after that we +did not have a great deal of trouble. + +Miss Susanna was a little crankier than I thought she was going to be, +and wanted a practical dress that she could wear anywhere at any time, +and we had to argue with her a good deal. I told her a train was the +thing for her, and I intended to walk behind her the night of the party +and keep everybody back far enough to see how grand she looked. When a +woman is sixty-six and pretty worn, short skirts for evenings are not +impressive, and, though we didn't mention age, we said finally she owed +it to her mother's memory to dress in a style suitable to the position +into which she had been born, and that settled it. She's the real +thing, Miss Susanna is. She doesn't have to play a part. + +I had told Miss Fannie on the quiet that the price of making the +dresses would be doubled if she would have them ready for the 17th of +August, and they were ready. Miss Araminta and Miss Susanna thought it +was a bad example to set, as it might not be just to the other +Twickenham-Towners to pay more than they could pay, and it stuck Miss +Araminta pretty deep to hand out more than was necessary. But I told +her it was an emergency operation and that kind always came high. And +also I told them that Miss Fannie charged entirely too little for her +work, and it was poor religion to go to church on Sunday and sing +praises to God and underpay a poor little dressmaker. They said they +supposed it was, but I don't think they thought it very reverential in +me to speak of God in connection with a dress-maker and what she got +for sewing. I gave each one a list of their expenditures, with the +cost of everything on it, and each had a little left over after getting +their slippers and some sachet powder and a bottle of violet-water +apiece, and, after all, that brother of Miss Araminta's got a little of +the sapphire money. But it wasn't much. I saw to that. It's been +awfully exciting in Twickenham lately. + +The event of the year is the MacLean party and the best of everything +is saved for it, and in itself it makes every tongue in town talk until +you wonder why tongues are the only things that never tire, and then, +lo and behold! two days before it came off back comes Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter, bringing her beau behind her, and off start the same +tongues on a new lap and no breath taken in between. + +I wish Billy could see it, the thing Elizabeth brought back! He wears +men's clothes (very good ones) and he is twenty-seven years old, and +has large hands and feet and ears and a feeble mustache, but as a man +he isn't much. He looks like a hatter and is seemingly dumb, and he +blinks his eyes so continually that no one can tell their color. Also +he bites his finger-nails. I advised Elizabeth to get a beau _pro +tem._, but I didn't mean anything like that. If she wants jealousy to +bring Whythe back to her she should keep something on hand to be +jealous of. Elizabeth has an iron will and a copper determination, but +about as much judgment as a horse-fly. + +Miss Bettie Simcoe's eyebrows haven't come down good since the night +the _engagées_ arrived. She has an explanation for the situation, as +she calls it, there never yet being a situation she couldn't explain, +and she says the engagement is a piece of management on the part of +Elizabeth's aunt on her father's side, the aunt she has been visiting. +This aunt is society crazy, and, knowing you can't keep step in society +without money, she arranged the whole thing. Anyhow, Elizabeth has a +gorgeous ring and a magnificent pin, and of course she ought to be +happy if diamonds and things mean happiness, but she isn't happy, and +for the first time since I met her I can't make her out. Before I know +it I am going to feel sorry for her, and then good-by to in-loveness +for me! I have very little sense at times, and no hold-outness at all +when certain things come to pass. + +Elizabeth still loves Whythe. Engaged or not to some one else, she +still cares only for him. I don't want him. I wonder how it might be +managed--getting them to take in how silly they have been. I believe +I'll try and see if something can't be done. Watchful waiting may be +all right in some cases, but I never cared for waiting. Milton says +all things come to him who hustles while he waits. You get a move on, +Kitty Canary, and see what you can do! + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +The party is over. Everybody who is anybody was at it and we had a +perfectly scrumptious time. I never saw so many good things to eat on +a hot summer night in all my life, but the heat didn't affect +appetites, and Miss Kate Norris, who lives in the Wellington Home +(memorial for a dead wife or a live conscience, I don't remember +which), ate three platefuls of supper and three helpings of ice-cream. +She is fearfully ancestral and an awful eater, and also a sour +remarker, and I stay out of her way, but that night I couldn't help +seeing the way she made food disappear. No low-born person could have +done it quicker. + +It was a perfectly beautiful party. The two married daughters of Judge +and Mrs. MacLean, who live in the city and always come home for August, +were as dear and lovely as if they had never left old Twickenham Town, +and their clothes were a liberal education to the stay-at-homers. They +were well taken in by the latter, but the sensation of the evening was +the arrival and appearance of My Girls, and--oh, my granny!--I was so +excited I couldn't stand on both feet at once, and I had to get in a +corner and put my back against the wall to keep from making movement. +When they came in the room there was a little hush, and then there were +so many exclamations of surprise and admiration that I had to fan as +hard as Mr. Willie Prince to keep down the blazing red in my face which +was there from pride in the dear old darlings and not from heat. And I +saw clearer than I had ever seen before that fine things behind one +count a good deal, and ancestors of the right kind leave something to +their descendants that comes out when needed, and at that party the +desirable things came out. + +They looked like pictures--Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta--for the +prevailing modes, as Miss Araminta calls them, and which she loves so +dearly and hits at but never touches, had not been paid very particular +attention to, and the thing that suited each had been made for them. +They were as becoming to the dresses as the dresses to them. +Twickenham nearly lost its breath as they came into the long +drawing-room of the MacLean house and walked through it after speaking +to the receiving party, and I know now how a mother feels when her +debutante daughters are a success. I will have more sympathy with +Mother than I used to have, and I will try to behave myself and do the +stunts all right for the first year. But she already knows I do not +expect to keep on doing them. I have told her. + +Nobody can say again that women can't keep a secret, for not even Miss +Bettie Simcoe, who knows what the Lord is going to do before He does +it, had any idea of the dresses; and though I don't think she or Mrs. +General Gaines liked not being told, they were very nice about it and +said much kinder things than I thought they were capable of saying. +And I really think Elizabeth was pleased also. She actually smiled +when she saw her aunt come in with Miss Araminta. Smiles of late have +been faint and feeble on the face of the affianced young lady, who +isn't playing her part as a person with ancestors ought to play it. +She bounced her old beau and took unto herself a new one, and what I +can't understand is, having done it, why she doesn't carry it off with +a rip-roaring bluff that might fool even herself for a while. But +Elizabeth isn't that sort. Everybody is talking about how miserable +she looks. I'm afraid I put the beau idea in her head, and the idea +has got her in a hole and she doesn't know how to get out of it. I +wish Billy was here. He can get a person out of any sort of hole. + +I went to the party with Whythe. He has been away for a week, and +while away got a new dress suit, which, of course, he wore to the party +and looked perfectly grand in it. I think his mother gave the suit to +him, though he didn't say, but he was off attending to some business +for her, and I'm sure he took it out in the new clothes. It would have +been more sensible to have had his teeth fixed, or gotten three new +ones, the rest being all right, but it was natural to prefer the suit, +and much less painful. Whythe is never going to do anything +disagreeable that he can keep from doing. + +He was so nice the night of the party that I hadn't the courage to +begin finding out the truth or untruth of what Mr. Willie Prince had +mentioned as the reason of the rush he had been giving me, and as I +don't believe Whythe has ever thought of Father's money, there was no +need to be in a hurry to learn whether he had or not. I've had a jolly +good time being in love with him, and being made love to, and as an +experience it may come in when I begin to write my book. I always did +want to know how many ways love can be made in, which, of course, I can +never know, for there are as many ways, I guess, as there are men to +make it, and the variations on the main theme are as infinitesimal as +the tongues that tell the story. It is truly wonderful how differently +the same words can be trimmed up and handed out, and I like the +crescendoes and diminuendoes and shades of feeling which give emphasis +and expression, as my music teacher says I must be careful of when +playing. There is never going to be any crescendo or diminuendo +business about Billy's love-making, and I might as well make up my mind +to that in the beginning. It's going to be pure staccato with +him--short and quick and soon over. But it will last forever, Billy's +will. He isn't going to stand for foolishness about it when he starts, +either. He has two more years at college and then he is going in his +father's office. + +I don't know what's the matter with Billy. I haven't had a letter from +him for a week, or a single card. He must be crazy. I've been so busy +I have not written for ten days, and if I don't get a letter soon he +won't get one from me for another ten. He can't expect me to do what +he doesn't do, and besides, a man doesn't want what he gets too easy, +even letters. I don't suppose he could be sick. If he was-- I am not +going to let myself think sickness or automobile accidents or sliding +off mountain peaks (they are in Switzerland now and Billy would get to +the top of anything he started for or die trying). And though I say to +myself forty times a day he is all right, I wake up at night and wonder +if anything could be the matter. I am wondering all the time. + +Maybe that is why I was a little nicer to Whythe at the party than I +need to have been, because I wanted to forget something it was not well +to remember if I was out to enjoy myself. After I had danced with half +a dozen boys and spoken to everybody on the place, we went out on the +lawn, Whythe and I, and sat on a rustic seat under a great maple-tree +to cool off and rest awhile; and though everybody could see us and +several couples were under several other trees (a number of cases being +on hand and apt to culminate in August), Miss Bettie Simcoe had remarks +to make, of course. She made them the next day at breakfast. + +I wish I could buy a beau for Miss Bettie and make a present of him to +her, but, being a member of the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty +to Animals, I couldn't very well do it. I never yet have seen a man I +would be that hard on. But it would be the only way she could be made +to see some things, and maybe it might make her feel young again. Jess +says there's nothing so kittenish as a spinster who's caught an +unexpected beau. He is the most rejuvenating thing on earth to a woman +who wants one. All don't want them. There are a great many more +sensible women in this world than people realize, but in certain small +places matrimony is still the chief pursuit in which women can engage +without being thought unwomanly. Miss Bettie doesn't pursue, and men +are good dodgers in this part of the world, but if one of them would +say a few things to her of the sort that Whythe knows how to say so +well, her sniffing and snorting and seeing might grow less. + +I don't like her, but I feel sorry for her, for nobody really loves +her, and it must be awful to have nobody to love you best of all on +earth. I couldn't live if nobody loved me. I could not. I might live +without food and live without drink, and do without clothes and do +without air--the right kinds of those things, I mean--but I couldn't +and I wouldn't live without loving. As long as I am on this little +planet I expect to love a lot of people and I hope they will love me in +return. When Miss Bettie makes me so mad I have to go out of the room +to keep from saying things I shouldn't, and Miss Araminta simpers so +when any one mentions Mr. Sparks's name (he's the new widower minister +of the Presbyterian church, with no chance of escape), and Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter makes me ashamed of my sex, and I feel like I have +swallowed concentrated extract of Human Peculiarities, I remember that +not one of them has a father of any sort, much less my sort, or a +precious mother and two dandy sisters and a good many nice relations +and some bully friends--when I remember all that, remember how many I +have to love me, I spit out the peculiarities and try not to mind them, +try to see how funny they are. But sometimes the taste sticks right +long. I don't suppose I spit right. What I can't understand is that +if people want to be loved--and everybody does--why in the name of +goodness don't they do a little loving on their own account? You +needn't expect to get what you don't give. I'm glad I was born with a +taste for liking, though I don't like every one, by a jugful. When I +come across a righteous hypocrite I get out of the way, if it isn't +convenient to make the hypocrite get out of mine. There are some +people I could never congeal with and I am never even going to try. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +I wonder what made me waste time thinking about Miss Bettie Simcoe and +human peculiarities when I started to say something about sitting under +the trees with Whythe at the MacLean party, but, born a rambler, I will +ramble unto death, and there's no use wasting time lamenting natural +deficiencies. Whythe, of course, couldn't very conveniently make +personal remarks, as people were passing pretty close, though he did +say I looked like a dream, which I did not, being too brown for a +dream; but I did look real nice. I fished out one of the party dresses +Mother made Clarissa put in my trunk, which I haven't worn since I have +been here, and I suppose it suited my brownness, as it was creamy and +stuck out in the silly way skirts stick now, and it was new-fashioned +enough to make everybody look at it and nudge a little. Whythe thought +it was lovely, and told me so sixteen times, which was tiresome, and +then I saw he was watching Elizabeth, who was on the porch with her new +beau and did not know really whether my dress was blue or pink. The +only thing he was thinking of was that not far from him was a +superseder in possession of something which was once his. Whythe +doesn't like to be superseded in anything affecting his personal +estimate of himself. + +The Lord certainly let loose a lot of contradictions when he started +the human race. When I saw the way Whythe was watching Elizabeth, and +remembered how she had looked at him when he passed her a few minutes +before, I knew two specimens of a common variety were before me, and I +made up a parable as I watched them watch each other. The two +specimens had been in love and been engaged. They had a fuss. The +engagement was broken. She was mad, and he was mad, and each thought +the other would make the first advance to own up and make up; but +before it could be done a young person appeared and distracted +temporarily the attention of the man, and the girl went away to see +what she could do. The man repaired the damage done unto him by saying +pretty things to the new person, which was good for his pride and kept +him in practice, and all was going well when the first maiden returned +with a new possession. + +The new possession was a son of great wealth, but the Faithless One was +made to understand, without words, that his Cruelty was driving the +Maid to Marriage with another, and his Vanity was appeased, and in his +heart he rejoiced and said unto himself: "It is even as I thought, and +that piece of punk she has brought back is bitter unto her, and in +comparison to me he is nothingness indeed. And I would arise and punch +his head if it were not for the New Person who may love me very much." +And the young man was sorrowful when he thought on these things and yet +glad also, for the heart of man is receptive to the love of all kinds +of women, and it is pleasing unto him to believe he is pleasing unto +them. + +And seeing that which had come to pass, the New Young Person made up +her mind that the Young Man and the Young Maid who had once loved must +love again, and in her heart she said it is a vain thing to believe in +the words of a man. They cometh out as cometh breath, then pass away +and are remembered by him no more. And she took counsel with herself +as to how she might bring to pass that which the simple souls knew not +how to bring, and, lo! as she thought it came unto her. That's a true +parable! + + +What came was the thought of a picnic. Whythe and Elizabeth must +accidentally have a chance to come across each other and have it out, +and the best way they could do it would be outdoors, where it is +convenient to wander off and get away from nudgers and commenters; and +being nothing but impulse, I turned to Whythe, who was still +unconsciously watching Elizabeth, and asked him if he would help me +with something I was anxious to do. He said of course, and wanted to +know what it was. When I told him I would tell him the next day he +asked me to drive with him in the morning, and didn't like it because I +declined. That is, he didn't like my reason, which was that, as he had +been out of his office for some time, his business must need attending +to, and I didn't think it ought to be left any longer. He seemed to +think that a very unnecessary remark, and I realized he liked +Elizabeth's kind better. She would never have dreamed of telling him +his business needed attention. Elizabeth is the Admired and Honored +type of Womanhood which does not think it is ladylike to have knowledge +of business matters. + +Seeing the look on his face, I said to myself: "Kitty Canary, it is all +over. A pin has been stuck in your balloon and the air is out." And I +got up and went in and danced with every man dancer in the room, and +hardly knew who they were, the breaks were so often. I had a good +time, but also I had a right sinky feeling, for it's pretty wabbly to +realize that nothing human is to be depended on very long, and that a +girl may be engaged one day to a man and not speaking to him the next. +Not that I had ever been engaged. I hadn't, not caring for what goes +with engagements, but I might have been if I hadn't remembered about +the different things I have fallen in and been fished out of when there +was some one by to haul me out. Nobody being by, I had to take care of +myself, and I thought it best to go only so far and no farther. + +On the way home Whythe tried to say some things pretty low about how he +had missed me while away, but Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta were in +the back seat of the car (it was Mr. Lipscomb's Ford, and borrowed, of +course), and he had to be so careful it was a strain, and as I didn't +answer he stopped after a while. It takes two to do more things than +make a bargain, and to battledore love without having it shuttlecocked +back isn't much fun. He wanted to know what was the matter when I got +out, and I told him it was sleep. He didn't seem to like that, either. +It's hard to please men. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + +I didn't see Whythe for the next few days, as I thought it best not to, +and, besides, I had bushels of letters to write and a very special one +to Father, and I had no time for him. The thing I had to write Father +about was money. I wanted five hundred dollars, and the only way I +knew how to get it was to ask him to give it to me; so I asked. I +always did believe that the person who gives the money ought to be told +what is to be done with it, and that is why I wrote Father as I did; +and, besides, he likes to hear little bits of news about the +Twickenham-Towners, and asking for the money gave me a chance to tell +him. + +He had told me, when he was here, that if there was any way in which I +could be of service in the right way to let him know and he would put +up the money part, if I would manage the other part, and it would be a +little secret between us and nobody else need know anything about it. +When, last week, I heard Mrs. Richard Stafford say she would rather go +to a hospital for a month than do anything on earth, I thought my +chance had come. At the hospital, she said, a person had the right to +be waited on and do nothing, and not think about food or servants, and +not feel they were bothering other people by being sick; and while she +wasn't sick exactly, a hospital would seem like heaven if she could be +in one for a little while. She had laughed when she said it, and +didn't dream of its being taken in earnest, but I took it in earnest, +for the tiredness in her face makes me ache every time I see her, and +right up in my mind popped the little secret Father and I and Miss Polk +could have. What I wrote was this: + + +_Father dear, will you please send me five hundred dollars, and if you +can do it by return mail I will be very much obliged. The person I +want part of it for is so tired that she might not be able to ever get +rested unless she has a chance pretty quick to lie down and do nothing +for a month, anyhow, and that is why I am in a hurry. Tiredness is a +very wearing disease and if it runs on too long it runs a person into a +state that is almost impossible to get out of, and the whole family has +to pay up for letting it go on. Home gets hell-y when there's too much +tiredness in it. What I want the money for is this: Mrs. Stafford is +worn out. You know her. She was Miss Mary Shirley, and married a +perfectly useless man when she was eighteen, and she is now the mother +of seven children, and has a mother-in-law living with her, and also +Miss Lou Barbee, who won't go away. And, of course, the man whom she +can't turn out. He isn't bad. Just lazy, with nothing to him, but she +loves him and I will skip over that part. She needs a rest and ought +to have it. It's nothing but scrimp and scrape and strive to keep up +appearances day in and day out, year in and year out, until she is all +to pieces and the children don't realize what is the matter. And, of +course, the Male Person doesn't, for he says that Woman's Place is in +the Home. When he told me that yesterday (his heels were on the +railing of his porch, where he generally keeps them, and his pipe in +his mouth) I thought to myself that if he were mine he would have to +get out of my home or prove he had a better right to share it with me +than he had ever proved to his wife. But I won't get on that, either. +I'll go back to Mrs. Stafford._ + +_Half the time she doesn't have a servant, and all the time she has a +mother-in-law, who is pie crust, and Miss Lou Barbee, who's a bagpipe, +and with the doors locked and windows shut so no one can see, she has +worked herself to death. What I want done is to have an invitation +sent her from an old friend to be the guest of the hospital here for a +month, and you will be the friend and she will never know it. Miss +Polk, the superintendent of the hospital, will manage things. I've +talked it over with her, and she understands. Miss Polk is a perfectly +grand person. For Simon-pure sense there isn't her equal on earth. +She and I have decided on what we would do if we had money. We'd have +a Fund for Tired Mothers and Fathers. It would be used to give them a +Rest before Death._ + +_I hope you won't mind sending the money. I don't think you will, for +everybody says business is so prosperous it's actually unrighteous, and +it's in the Bible that you ought to put your treasures where you can +find them again, or something like that. If you can't send it I know +there will be a good reason for your not sending it, but I would like +to have it by Monday if possible, so Mrs. Stafford can go to the +Hospital the next day. Later, four other people can have their turn. +It is to be used not for illness, but for Tiredness; for broken-downers +and worn-outers who need being waited on and fed up and allowed to keep +still. Miss Polk and I are going to decide on who needs a rest the +most before I go away, and I send you for it, Father dear, an armful of +squeezes and the biggest bunch of kisses the mail-man can take._ + + +That was all I told him about the Rest money, but I said a little +something about the picnic I thought I ought to give. Everybody in +town has given something, and, having accepted, I have to return, and +the picnic will be the best thing for Whythe and Elizabeth. I didn't +mention the ex-lovers to Father, of course. Even to a father one +doesn't have to tell everything in life. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +I haven't seen Whythe alone but once since the night of the MacLean +party, and then I stopped any tendencies that showed signs of being +personal, and talked most of the time about the picnic which we can't +have until late in the month. Every day is engaged up to the +twenty-fourth. Whythe tried to talk of Mr. Algernon Grice Baker, but I +cut that out also. Sarcasm doesn't suit him, and some day he might be +sorry. The Superseder has gone, however, and every day Elizabeth +passes Whythe's office, and every day Whythe happens to be at his +window at the time of passing. They speak, but so far that is all. I +am sorry the picnic has to wait so long. They are two silly children. +Their fingers aren't in their mouths, but their heads are on the side +when they see each other, and the thing's getting on my nerves. Almost +any kind of sin is easier to stand than some sorts of silliness. + +I wonder why I stay awake so much at night! It's very unusual, and I +try my best to go to sleep, but I can't sleep. Always I am thinking of +Mr. William Spencer Sloane and the things I would say to him if he were +in hearing distance. Not one line have I had from him for more than +two weeks. Not a card or a little present, which he usually sends from +every place he goes to, or any sign to show he is living. I got so mad +when I realized he hadn't noticed me for fourteen days that I couldn't +keep in things which had to come out, and, seeing Miss Susanna was +sleeping the sleep of worn-outness, I got up the other night and +lighted a candle behind the bed, and on the floor I wrote a letter that +maybe wasn't altogether as accurate as it might have been. I wouldn't +have sent it the next day if it hadn't been for a letter I got from +Jess, but after I read hers I sent mine flying. + +I haven't cooled down yet from reading Jess's letter. I am not going +to cool down until I see the cause of it face to face, and if Billy +thinks it makes the least difference to me how he amuses himself or +with whom he spends his time sightseeing he thinks Wrong! I was going +to tear up the letter I had written him in the middle of the night for +the relief of indignations and because in the middle of the night +things seem so much bigger and harder and stranger than in the +daylight; but after I read the letter from Jess I added a postscript to +mine and almost ran down to the post-office to mail it, for fear if I +didn't do it quick I mightn't do it at all. Ever since I sent it off I +have been perfectly horrid, and I can hardly stand myself. I have put +off trying to make Whythe and Elizabeth see how stupid they are, and as +Elizabeth hasn't been very nice to me I haven't felt it to be my duty +to show her what a goose she is. Neither have I told Whythe that +almost any girl who adored him would do for his wife. As I don't adore +I wouldn't do, and I think he is beginning to take it in. A dozen +times of late he has told me he doesn't understand me. He does not. +And never will. + +The thing in Jess's letter which made me hot was this: "What is the +matter with you and Billy? Pat says (Pat is Patricia, Billy's sister) +that you've been pretty horrid about writing him, and he's been +blue-black at not getting letters from you; but at present he is having +a good time with a very jolly girl from the West who is at their hotel. +Chirp him something cheerful, Canary Bird. If I were younger or Billy +older you shouldn't have him. I'd have him myself. I'm not going to +stand for bad treatment of him, and if those Southern boys who make +love to every pretty girl they see, and make it better than any boys on +earth, have made you forget an old friend, I'm coming down and take you +back home. Behave yourself, Kitty Canary, and write Billy the sort of +letter we scream over up here." And then she went on with other things. + +It is ridiculous in Pat to say I haven't written Billy! I have. Three +long letters and three cards, and certainly he can't expect more than +that, as he hasn't been gone but two months and five days; and, +besides, friends ought to have such confidence in each other that they +don't need letters to prove their friendship. Not a word have I had +from him in more than two weeks, and if Jess thinks I am going to write +him a chirp letter (which he won't have time to read if he is going +around so much with a Western girl and having so much fun) she, too, +thinks Wrong. That Westerner explains why I haven't heard from him for +so long. It is outrageous in Billy to behave as he has been behaving. +All men are alike. Every one of them. It was ignorance in me to +imagine Billy was different. He isn't. The more I thought of how +mistaken I had been in him the madder I got, and I just wrote a +postscript to my letter and flew to the post-office with it. It seemed +providential that my letter was ready to send. I hope he will read it +while on one of his joyous excursions with the Western Woman, who is +doubtless twenty-five, maybe thirty, and just making use of Billy, who +hasn't sense enough to see it. I nearly cried my eyes out last night, +before Miss Susanna came up to bed, because it was necessary to send +him such a letter. Still, Billy has to learn things in life and he +might as well learn them early. What I wrote was this: + + +_Dear Billy,--I have been having such a perfectly grand time lately +that it has been impossible to squeeze out a scrap in which to write +you, and yet I have wanted to do so, for I am sure you will be glad to +know how fearfully happy I am and what is causing the happiness. I am +in love. It is the most wonderful thing I have ever been in, and +thrillingly interesting. I suppose you have been in it many times, but +not my way, or you would have mentioned it, just as I am doing to you, +as we are such old friends, and friends have the right to know of +important happenings. I hope you will like each other when you meet, +for, though you are very unlike, you are both made of male material, +and I have often noticed that men have many peculiarities in common. +One of them is out of sight out of love, and a great readiness to be +admired and entertained. He is a lawyer and couldn't be better born, +though he might be better educated; still, one mustn't expect all +things in one man, and his eyes are so wonderful, and he uses such +poetic prose, that the lack of money and a few other lacks shouldn't +count. He lives in a beautiful old house which has proud traditions +and no bathrooms, and his family is one of the oldest and most +disagreeable in America; still, we would not have to live with them if +we were married. Nothing on earth could make me sleep under the same +roof with his sisters, who are so churchy that the minister himself is +subject under them. And neither would it be safe for me to be too +closely associated with his mother. However, things of that sort are +in the distance, which may be far or may not, and I am not thinking of +immediate marriage, but just how magnificent it is to have somebody in +love with you who knows how to say so in the most delicious way, and +with a voice that, when the moon is out, is truly heavenly. I am +telling you about it because I thought you might be interested and +would like to know of my happiness; but, of course, I don't want you to +tell any one else, as it is still a secret and all so indefinite that +it wouldn't do to speak of it to any one but you. I am scribbling this +in the middle of the night, because I can't sleep for thinking of some +one, and because there is no time in the day in which to write. I hope +you are having a great time. Give my love to the family and write me +of your gladness at knowing of mine._ + + _As ever, + Kitty._ + + +Now what do you suppose made me write such slush as that? And why is a +female person born with such horridness in her that she can say things +that are not so with a smile in public and cry her eyes out when alone? +That's what I have been doing lately, though I can't let tears have +much time, for I am not by nature a crier, and they would disturb Miss +Susanna at night. In my secret heart I just wrote that letter to Billy +because I was indignant with him for not writing to me for more than +two weeks, and I didn't intend to let him think I was sitting on a +tombstone waving a willow branch in one hand and wiping tears away with +the other. And, besides, I have been in love. Summer love. And it +has been exciting. No one could expect me to go through life and not +have but one experience in love making and hearing, and because a girl +enjoys the different manners of expression it doesn't mean she is not +particular about the story not being illustrated. I don't illustrate +or allow illustrations, which, of course, lessens some of the thrill, +but I promised Jess I would always draw the line at the right time, and +I have. I have not been engaged for half a minute, and I wouldn't have +added the postscript if it hadn't been for her letter and what she told +me about that girl from some Western town who is no more his sort than +I am her brother's. Billy is perfectly blind about some things, and +has no discrimination where it is most needed. Anyhow, I added the +postscript: + + +_P.S.--By the time you get this I may be engaged. Thank you for what +you would say if here._ + +_K. C._ + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +It was after I sent the letter that I got so restless I couldn't sit +still, and as there was nothing I enjoyed doing I spent a good deal of +my tune at the hospital with Miss Polk, who is a very splendid person, +and every day I went in to see Mrs. Stafford. She is having the +grandest rest, with rubs and good eats and nothing to do but be waited +on and cared for, that a tired person ever had, and I am the only one +who is allowed to see her, which is beyond the understanding of +Twickenham Town. I'm cheerful is the reason I'm allowed to see her, +the town is told, and that's enough for it to know. + +It certainly is queer how some things happen in the nick of time. +Father sent me the money, but told me to try to be as practical as +possible, knowing I am given to doing impractical things; and I took it +to Miss Polk, and nobody but she and I know where it came from. And +then she invited Mrs. Stafford to be a guest of the hospital for a +month. I happened to be at the house when the note came. I thought it +best to be there accidentally, in case there should be argument and +talk, and the Man of the House should still think Woman's Place was in +the Home, and sure enough there was. Mrs. Stafford read the note, and +her face got as white as death, and after a minute she said it would be +heaven to go, but of course she couldn't. And the noble creature who +is her husband said it was very presumptuous in whoever had invited her +to be the guest of the hospital, and that he wasn't in the habit of +having his wife visit such places on the invitation of unknown +interferers, and of course she couldn't go. And just as he said that +Mrs. Stafford keeled over in a dead faint right at his feet, as if +something had given out at the thought of rest. I knew that was my +chance, and I took it. + +"Stop that automobile!" I waved to a man who was coming down the +street, and as he stopped I knelt and did the things Billy had made me +learn how to do the first year we went to camp. And seeing the poor, +tired soul had just fainted, and would come to in a minute, I spoke +quick to the man looking down at her, scared to death, as were the +children, who began to cry, and told him he wouldn't have a wife much +longer to be interfered with if he didn't come down from that horse he +thought he was riding and have some common sense. + +"Don't you see she is worn out," I said, "and got nothing to go on +with? Everything has given out, and the next time she drops over in +this way she may never get up again." I was putting some water on her +face as I spoke, and, seeing her eyes begin to open a little, I called +to Mr. Everett, who had gotten out of his car and was on the porch, to +help Mr. Stafford put his wife in and take her to the hospital, and the +frightened husband for once did as he was told. I hopped in with her +and held her up and told Mr. Everett to drive like old Scratch, and he +drove. It was all over so quickly nobody knew what had happened. + +It was like somebody being kidnapped and dragged off by highwaymen, +taking her away so hurriedly, but if it hadn't been done that way there +would have been endless talk and a thousand reasons why she couldn't +go; and if she hadn't she would have soon gone for good. Sometimes +somebody has to be high-handed, and even if that billy-goat of a +husband pretends to resent what I did his wife isn't resenting it, and +she is the one that counts. I always agree with her that it was such a +strange thing I happened to be there the day the note came. And also +she thinks it strange I decided so quickly to take her to the hospital, +when she had just said she couldn't go. I tell her I do a good many +things on the spur of the moment, and getting the men to pick her up +and hurry away with her was just another case of spur, and she shuts +her eyes when I say that and looks as if she is praying. The lucky +part was her fainting at the right time. Anyhow, she is at the +hospital, and that old rooster of hers is finding out a good many +things it took her absence from home for him to learn. I never expect +to get married. NEVER! + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +I have just found out why Elizabeth and Whythe had their break. Miss +Bettie Simcoe told me. It took Miss Bettie some time to get at the +bottom of it, but Elizabeth told her last night, and this morning I was +given the information at the first moment Miss Bettie could get me to +herself. + +Elizabeth was dead right in the stand she took, but her little spurt of +independence didn't last long, and she is now ready to give in when the +chance comes to give. Miss Bettie added that on her own account. +Whythe couldn't afford to be married, but that wasn't to interfere with +his marriage. He had expected to take Elizabeth to his mother's home +and plant her in it, but when he told her Elizabeth balked. She +preferred to stay with her aunt Susanna after her marriage to going to +Whythe's home, and when she so informed him he said things he +shouldn't, and then both sent off skyrockets and the whole thing went +up in the air. And then I came. + +She has now changed her mind and is willing to follow her husband +wherever he leads. She is truly womanly, also she is still wearing the +ring of the beau with whom she sought to bring Whythe to terms, and to +please her worldly aunt. But she will return the ring when it is +proper to do so. She is waiting to find out. + +Elizabeth had more sense than I gave her credit for in refusing to live +in the House of Eppes; but it's either live there or not live with +Whythe, and she evidently can't live without him. I'd hate love to +make me lose the little gumption I was born with, and even my little +knows no house is big enough for a son's wife and a mother-in-law and +three in-law sisters. It won't be a Home, Sweet Home, place when +Elizabeth enters the Eppes house, and it will be nip and tuck as to who +wins out, but that's not my business. I'm sorry for both sides, and +thankful I'm not related to either. Also, I will get out of the way as +soon as possible, but until the picnic there doesn't seem a possible +way. + +There is nothing in life that is not over if life is long enough, and +my little love affair with Mr. Whythe Rives Eppes belongs to the past. +Elizabeth can have him any minute she wants, and unless actions do not +speak louder than words she wants him right away, and he her. I do not +see how she is possibly going to stand his teeth. Still, there are a +great many things I do not understand in life. + + +The picnic is over. By giving it I brought down a good deal of comment +and criticism on my brown and curly head, but it does not matter. +Nothing except sin really matters if we have sense enough to see it. I +invited everybody in Twickenham Town that I liked to the picnic, and +some few I didn't, the latter being relations of those I did. I don't +think a person ought to be punished for their relations, any more than +being held responsible for them, and so I included them, too. What I +was criticized for was asking to the picnic quite a number of people +who don't usually go to the same places at the same time the +Historicals go, and it made talk. That night Miss Araminta Armstrong, +on the quiet, told me she knew I meant to do right, but one had to use +judgment in life, and it wasn't well to put ideas in some people's +heads. I told her I knew it, knew certain kinds of heads couldn't take +in certain ideas, one of which was that people could enjoy friendliness +and outdoorness and a lunch they didn't have to prepare for themselves, +even if they were not high-born, and as the ones referred to did not +have contagious diseases their presence wouldn't prove dangerous and +the Ancestrals needn't be uneasy. Also I told her I didn't care for +judgment as much as I ought, and if human beings knew one another +better they might find they were not as unlike as they thought. She +didn't say anything more. Neither did any one else say anything to me. +To one another they said a good deal. + +It was at the picnic I had a little talk with Whythe. We went down to +a stream under a big willow-tree, and he started on the usual, but I +told him he must not say anything more to me on that subject, and if he +were the man I thought him he would not allow Elizabeth to marry the +Compensator she was no more in love with than I was. Also, I said a +few more things that were pleasant for him to hear, such as Elizabeth's +heart was breaking (it was, as much as her kind of heart could break), +and I told him it was foolishness to ruin one's life because of a +misunderstanding, and that both had doubtless been in the wrong. And +incidentally I let drop that if, after years of preparation, I ever got +married I would have nothing to bring my husband but myself, as my +father had made up his mind that young people should make their own way +in life (he ought to have so made it up if he hasn't), and Whythe said +that cut no figure with him, and asked me point-blank if I did not love +him. It didn't sound polite to say no, and yet I couldn't truthfully +say yes, so I just sighed and shook my head. When he asked me if I +could give him no hope, I answered _no_ with such uncomplimentary +quickness that I had to cough to overcome it, and then I told him it +was impossible for a girl of Elizabeth's taste and training and +character, who had once loved such a man as he, to really care for any +one else. And the blackness in his face, caused by my unnecessary +emphasis, died out, and I saw he was agreeing with me concerning +Elizabeth, and that I would not have to insist on what I said being so. +A man's appetite for flattery is never poor, and usually it is hearty. +When we got up to go back to where lunch was being served Whythe had +quite a determined air about him. I told him if I could help in any +way to let me know. An hour later I saw him and Elizabeth going down +to the same stream and the same old willow tree. + +When the time came to go home I pretended I had to see Florence Kensey +about something that was important, and in the confusion of getting the +people in the cars I managed to have Whythe put Elizabeth in his, and +told them to get away quick and I would come on with Mason Page. They +got. And the next day Elizabeth looked like some one who had been +unbandaged and was letting out breath that for a long time had been +held in. Also, she looked pinker and whiter than ever, and so Pure +that it was not possible for me to stay close to her, so I got away. +No longer Hurt and Misunderstood, she went about smiling in sweet +triumphantness that was not put in words, but oozed without them, and +her manner to me was one of deepest sympathy. Poor Whythe! + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +There are some things not required of human nature to stand. Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter is one of them. I was glad to give her back her beau. +I felt truly Virginian in doing it, for Virginians always say, when +giving you something, that they don't want it; I certainly didn't want +Whythe. I wouldn't have known what to do with him after the summer was +over, and I was conscious of great relief in getting him off my hands +without further loss or trouble. I couldn't tell Elizabeth this, of +course, though there were times when it took a good deal of something I +did not know I had to keep from doing so. Also, it took more strength +to keep several other things to myself than I knew I possessed. It +took praying and the end of the sheet to do it, but I did it, and I'm +getting encouraged about K. C. + +What encourages me is this: Two nights after the picnic Elizabeth came +to my room and asked if she might have a little talk with me, as she +felt she ought to. I told her she could, and she sat down and began. +Miss Susanna was back in her own quarters, the people from Florida +having gone, and I had just finished saying my prayers and was ready to +hop into bed when Elizabeth knocked at my door. I knew what was coming +from the look on her face and her manner of walking, and the way she +held her head. + +If ever I write that book I am always thinking about I am going to put +Elizabeth in it as well as Miss Araminta Armstrong, and if I could get +some men to match them I would have some corking characters to begin +with. But no kind of pen-and-ink picture of Elizabeth would do her +justice. Her sweetness of speech when she is particularly nasty is +beyond the power of human portrayal. I got in bed quick when she said +she wanted to talk, because I was afraid I might have to hit something, +and the pillow was the only thing I could manage without sound. I put +it where I could give it a dig when politeness required control, and +told her to go ahead. + +In her last sleep Elizabeth will pose. She took her seat near the +window where the moonlight could shine on her (she looked very pretty +in her pink-silk kimono, a hand-over from her rich aunt, and shabby but +becoming in color), and for a moment she didn't say anything, just +fooled with the pink ribbon on her hair. And then she said she had a +secret to tell me; said it so soft, with her head on the side, that I +had to ask her to speak louder please, and I got nearer the edge of the +bed. Elbow on it and chin in the palm of one hand, I prayed hard to be +polite in my own room, and reached out for an end of the sheet with the +other. Again I told her to go ahead. After a minute she went. + +"You and Whythe have been such friends that I think you should be the +first to know that--" + +"Have you and Whythe made up?" I stuck my bare foot over the edge of +the bed and wriggled it. "If you have you had better be married quick +and not take any more chances. I'm awfully glad if things are settled. +Have you bounced the other fellow yet?" + +It was cruel in me to take out of her mouth what she was moistening her +lips to say, but I was sleepy and I didn't want details. She had no +idea of being cut out of saying what it was her determination to say, +however, considering I had been responsible for some unhappy days +during the past two months, and before she got through she had said all +she wanted me to hear. If it hadn't been for the pillow I would have +rolled out of bed. The nerve of her! The belief of her! And, oh, my +granny! the punishment, as she imagined, of me! + +Before she left the room she told me she could no longer hold out +against Whythe's pleadings. Told me he had suffered so during the +summer she was uneasy about him, and, though he had tried to forget, it +had been useless, and, unable to endure it any longer, he had come to +her and told her he could stand no more, and if she did not promise to +marry him at once he would--he would-- Her voice trailed, but I said +nothing, the end of the sheet being stuffed into my mouth for +politeness' sake, and when her tears had been wiped away she began +again. + +"It is hard to forgive Whythe, because you are so young, and he knows +how fascinating he is and how little experience you have had with young +men, but his father was a flirt before him" (poor Father! I thought of +the retribution that had come to him in Mother, and I pushed in more +sheet), "and it is natural in a man to seek amusement and entertainment +when he is suffering as Whythe was. I hope you will forgive him. It +is because he may have made you imagine things that were not so, and +because you have been so nice to him, that I thought you should be the +first to know." + +I rolled back to the side of the bed facing her, from which I had +rolled the other way for safety, and took the end of the sheet out of +my mouth. "Have you told IT?" I asked. "It doesn't make any +difference about my knowing as I knew before you did, but something is +due that which you brought back with you. Have you told IT, Elizabeth?" + +"Told who? I don't understand." She sat up. "I don't know who you +are talking about." + +"Don't you?" I too sat up and swung my bare feet over the side of the +bed. "I am talking about the person to whom I read in the Twickenham +Town Sentinel that you were engaged. He dresses like a man, and he may +be one, but even if he isn't he deserves to be treated decently by the +lady who had promised to marry him. I suppose he knows." I nodded to +her hand, on which was the ring he had given her and which she had been +twirling as she talked. "That is, if you have had time to tell him." + +"That is entirely my affair!" When not hurt or injured Elizabeth is +superior, and she added scorn to the tone of her voice, but stopped +fooling with the ring, which I know she hated to send back. "I see you +do not appreciate the confidence I am putting in you or the compliment +I am paying you by telling you first, and if that is the case I will +go." She made movement as if to get up, but she had no idea of going, +so I didn't notice it, but kept on swinging my feet, and then I asked +her if she had told Miss Susanna, and if she hadn't she ought to at +once, Miss Susanna being closely related and I nothing but a summer +boarder. And I said I hoped she would be married right away, as I +would love to be at the wedding, and if she would ask me to be one of +the bridesmaids I would be one with pleasure. But she wouldn't answer +me. Seeing she still had something to say, and wouldn't leave until +she said it, I put my feet back in bed and lay flat with my hands under +my head and my eyes shut, and when at last I was fixed and quiet she +began for a third time. + +I don't remember a thing after that except a sort of monotone voice and +something about people talking about me because I had accepted Whythe's +attentions when everybody knew--I didn't hear what everybody knew, and +not until I did hear a sound at the door did I wake up good, and then I +jumped as if shot and asked her, half-asleep, if she were going to live +with Mother and Sister and Sister Edwina and Miss Lily Lou when she was +married, but she answered not. And since her midnight confession she +hath not opened her mouth unto me and her little lips get together when +she sees me coming, and from her friends I have learned that she is +deeply distressed at my treatment of her. And to her friends I have +said Rats! and so endeth the efforts at friendship which she imagined +she had made. I am never going to pretend to be friends with a person +who is not truthful, and whom I understand as I understand Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter. I don't like her, and though it is not necessary to +say so unless occasion requires, neither is it necessary to appear to +be what I am not. I like Whythe, and when I saw him a few days after +Elizabeth gave herself the satisfaction of communicating to me the +return of his tempted affections, I shook hands with him good and hard +and wished him all the happiness I knew there was little chance of his +getting. If I were a man and had to live in the house with a female +who shut her mouth tight every time she got mad and was continually +hurt and always sensitive, there would likely be in that house battle, +murder, or sudden death. Any kind of outspokenness is better to be +endured than silent offense. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +This is the last day of August, and it is a day +Twickenham Town is going to remember for +a long time. I have done again that which I +should not have done, and I guess I had better go +home. I had expected to stay until the twenty-seventh +of September and return with Father, who +was to spend a week here with me, but he can't come. + +I suppose it was the awful disappointment of +knowing Father couldn't come, and being so miserable +myself (not one line yet from that person named +William Spencer Sloane, who is probably married +to an elderly woman by this time), and because +of my sureness that no human being could be +depended on in time of temptation, especially +vigorous, aggressive temptations that come out +of the West, that I gave help where help seemed +to be needed, and now again I am in everybody's +mouth. Also my ankles are still a little sore from +the weight of the window being on them as I hung +out, but they are nearly well, and even if they +were not it would not matter. Two young hearts +are happy and a proud person is not, and the +blame is on me. That also doesn't matter. I am +soon going away. + +The thing I did, which maybe I shouldn't have +done, was to help little Amy Frances Winston +get married. She is the property of her +grandmother, who is a very important part of +Twickenham Town. Having no parents or sisters or +brothers, and only enough money of her own for +her keep, and no spunk or spirit, she has gone on +for years loving an awfully nice chap named +Taylor French, with little chance of ever marrying +him, and then in hops this Miss Frisk, who asks +her why she doesn't quit fumbling and stop fearing, +and the thing is done. + +There is nothing the matter with Taylor French +except he is not Ancestral. Mrs. Brandon, Amy's +grandmother, is diseased on the subject of +ancestry, and the first thing she asks about a man +is who is he. Knowing she would want to know +who I was, I mentioned to her one day that I +had never had any grandparents on either side +(living ones I meant), and that we were not +historic, and no member of our family had ever +been distinguished (for righteousness, though I +didn't use the word), and that we had made our +own way in life, which was true, for Father didn't +have a thing but what he was making when he +married Mother. I also told her I did not mind +in the least, and if I did I would try to remember +that Christ was a carpenter and St. Paul a +sail-maker, though I'd never care to be intimate +with St. Paul. And I told her I thought it was +yourself that counted most, after all, and not dead +people, though it must be nice to know somebody +in your family had been something if you were not. +All she said was, "Are you a suffragist?" When +I said I was and I hoped I didn't look as if I +were not, for I wouldn't like anybody to be +mistaken about it, she gave me a long look and left +the room. + +She did not exactly draw her skirts aside with +her hand as she passed me, but she did it inwardly; +that is, I imagined she did from the expression +of her face, and the next day she must have +fumigated the house, for when I went by an awful +smell of sulphur was coming from it. She is a +low bender and bower in church at the mention +of a name belonging to one she believes a Prince +in disguise, who in another life will receive her +into His kingdom, and whom she professes to +follow in the expectation of being rewarded for so +doing, but her head is held high when she doesn't +care to see the lowly ones He came to give light +and life to. I don't mean she doesn't give old +clothes and food and sometimes a little wood to +old Mrs. Snicker, who can't move, from +rheumatism, but she would no more speak other than +stiffly to some of the people I know here than she +would go in for suffrage. She doesn't realize she +is a living woman. She thinks she is an Ancestor. +For years she has forbidden Taylor French to +come to her house, and Amy has to see him elsewhere. + +She has seen a good deal of him lately, Amy +has. Taylor doesn't live in Twickenham Town +now. He is living in North Carolina and has a +good position, and is able to get married (I know +because I asked him), and any minute day or +night in the past eighteen months in which Amy +would have agreed he would have married her +and taken her away, but Amy wouldn't agree. +Things have been dragging along this way so +long that the nerves of both are frazzled out, and +there's nothing to hope for but death, and, of +course, it isn't respectful to think too hopefully +of death and a grandmother. And then I popped +in and gave things a little push and the curtain dropped. + +The way it dropped was this. I mean the way +they got married. Taylor was in town the last +two weeks in August, and, as everybody invited +him to their parties, he and Amy managed to see +a good deal of each other (also the seeing wasn't +altogether at places where other people were +around). But she wasn't allowed to meet him +on the square or to receive letters from him +straight. And sometimes, if he wanted to say +something in a hurry, or send her candy or a new +book, or any of the usuals, he had to give a signal +by throwing pebbles on her window at night, +and then she would throw out a string and he +would tie the thing to it and she would haul +up, and the Personage, who was usually asleep, +would be none the wiser. The Personage is deaf, +which is a great help. + +Well, one night three of the town girls and +myself, with a boy apiece, had been to see Amy, +and when we went up-stairs (just the girls) to +see a new hat a city cousin had sent her, we heard +a little tap at the west window. It had been +raining, which accounted for our being indoors +with the windows lowered, and when we heard +the tapping we were so excited we could hardly +breathe. It was fearfully thrilly, just like things +one reads about in books, and I told the girls +to put out the light quick, and when it was out +I went to the window and saw Taylor standing +in the shadow of a big tree. He signaled me to +drop the line, but when I threw the piece of +twine Amy gave me I threw it wrong and it got +caught in a broken piece of shingle on the edge +of the porch and hung there. I couldn't get it +back and Taylor couldn't get it down, and, +seeing it was necessary for something to be done, I +pushed aside the curtains (they were made of +striped calico, blue and white) and told the girls +I was going to lean out of the window on the roof +of the porch to get the string loose, and they +must hold on to my feet, for the roof sloped and +I might slip if they didn't. They tried to stop +me, and Amy wrung her hands, being very +nervous from living on a strain and loving in +secret, but I was out head foremost in a jiffy, +and all four made a grab for my feet and legs. +Being flat on my stomach, and having long arms, +I got the string off from the piece of shingle, and +just as I did it and threw it to Taylor I heard +a noise and a little cry from the girls, something +about, "Oh, my goodness! here she comes!" and +I knew what had happened. + +"Pull the window down on my feet and let +go," I called, as loud as I dared, "and draw the +curtains so she won't see my shoes. If she asks +where I am, tell her I am outdoors. Quick! +Let it down!" + +They got it down and drew the curtains just +as her Royal Highness walked in, and as she went +toward the window Katherine Hardy says that +never before had she prayed as she prayed that +minute, and then she thought of mice, which was +a quick answer. She gave a little scream and +jumped with her hands over her eyes and bumped +into the lady, who, being a woman first, was also +afraid of mice, and she moved, too. Seeing the +girls flying around, she told them to stop, told +them Maud Hendren's mother had telephoned +that she must come home at once and, not +missing me, owing to the girls moving about so +she wouldn't notice, she went out of the room, +skirts still held up, and the minute she was out +they rushed for the window and pulled me in. + +My dress was a sight when I got in, and I +didn't have much skin on my elbows, and my +hands were stuck up with splinters, as I had to +hold on to anything I could clutch, being afraid +the window would not hold my feet and the +shingles being rotten. But otherwise no damage +was done, and I got the note Taylor had tied +to the string, which I had pulled up by the time +the Ogress had departed. I gave it to Amy and +told her to read it quick. + +She read it, and after doing it turned so white +and looked so queer we were frightened. For a +minute she couldn't speak, then she handed me +the note, and when I asked if I must read it +aloud she nodded her head and sat down, as if +to stand up was impossible. I glanced over it +first so as to leave out the little love decorations +and just read the practical part, and what +Taylor told her was that he had just gotten a +telegram from his house (it's iron-works I think) +saying he must leave on important business for +South America on the 6th of September. The +house had been talking of sending him for some +time, and had been waiting for certain developments +which had suddenly developed, and he +would have to go. Would she go with him, and +if she would not he never expected to come back +again, but would stay over there and take charge +of the South-American branch of the house he was +going to establish. She would have to decide +at once, as he couldn't stay a minute later +than the 30th. They could be married anywhere +she said, only it must be quickly done. He had +gotten the telegram an hour before, and in the +morning she must get Kitty Canary to fix things +so he could see her and talk more fully. Kitty +could be depended on and would manage +somehow. The rest being private and personal, I +skipped it and gave the note back to Amy, who +was as white as the dress she had on, and her +hands as limp as wet kid gloves. + +Excited! To my dying day I will never +forget the thrill of it. Being in love myself, as I +had once thought, wasn't a circumstance to it, +and the other girls were as bad as I. To help +a heart-yearning, backboneless young girl +escape from the captivity of a cast-iron +grandparent was something no red-blooded person +could refuse, and every one of us agreed that the +only thing for Amy to do was to walk into the +den of lions and tell the head lioness the truth; +ask her permission to many the man she loved, +and, if she would not give it, to take it, anyhow, +and tell her farewell and leave at once for South +America. That, at least, was what I thought +ought to be done, and after a while the others +thought so, too. At first there was a lot of +argument, but I told them I would never agree to +Amy's running away to be married without her +first telling her grandmother she was going to do +it. That is, if she would not let her be married +at home. If the G. M. would not let, then Amy +could take the first train out, but she mustn't +take it until she had shown her grandmother the +respect she did not deserve. I never could bear +runaway marriages. There's always something +so common about them, and I wasn't going to be +party to one if I could help it. + +All the time we were talking we left Amy out +of it, and never once asked her what she +preferred in the matter. The reason we didn't was +the poor little thing was so frightened and +distressed that she could not open her lips. We +would not let her come down-stairs with us, and +when we said good night I whispered that I would +see Taylor on my way to Rose Hill, and at ten +o'clock the next morning we would meet her at +the back of Miss Susanna's vegetable garden +under the big locust-tree, and that she mustn't +worry, we'd fix it, he and I. Also I told her she +might bring up some toilet things and little +traveling necessities and leave them with me; +and though she clung to me like a frightened +child and didn't speak, she was down by the +barn the next morning at ten, and so was Taylor. +I let them get there a little ahead of me. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +They are married and gone, and for two days Twickenham Town has talked +of nothing else. It made a regular soup of the marriage. The bride +and groom were the stock, the grandparent and maiden aunts were the +thickening, and I was the seasoning; but all that does not matter now. +The ancestralized person has learned that the twentieth century sees +some things clearer than the eighteenth did, but she will never admit +that she has learned it. Taylor and Amy were not unmindful of what was +due her, however. Taylor wrote her a very nice letter, asking her +permission to marry her granddaughter and take her to South America, +and her answer was low-down. He wrote as a gentleman should, and she +answered as a lady shouldn't, for her answer was insulting, and a real +lady never humiliates any one. After reading it Taylor told Amy to +meet him at seven o'clock on Wednesday morning, and they would be +married in the church with no one present but his brother (the only +relative Taylor has in town is a bachelor brother), and the sexton, the +minister, and me. She met and the marriage took place. + +We didn't tell a soul about the marriage. The night before Amy spent +with me at Rose Hill, and, thinking it best Taylor should not be there, +I told him not to come, and sent the other boys home early. In my room +I packed my suitcase and put in it two dresses I had never worn, which +I was glad to do, as it would mean that much less to pack when I went +home, and also I put in some other things; and though Amy cried a good +deal and didn't think she ought to take them, she was very particular +about how they went in. She is very neat and careful, and I'm +fearfully quick, so it was well she watched me. I told her she was +doing me a favor to dispossess me of what I didn't want and what was in +my way, and as we were the same height, though Amy is a little thinner, +owing to secret love and distress of mind, I knew the things would fit +her, and I was more than glad to get rid of them. Also she didn't have +any of her own convenient, and she might as well be sensible. She was, +and put in her own tooth brush and powder and left the rest to me, and +by eleven o'clock everything was ready. + +When the next day the news flew around that the marriage had taken +place and I had been the leading spirit in it, I went to bed and stayed +there until the town had finished chewing me up, and then I came out +again. It was the most sensible thing I ever did and saved a lot of +talk and argument. + +Another reason I went to bed was because I was so homesick and so +lonely, and so something I had no name for, that I knew it was wiser to +be by myself. I can't be much in life, but I can keep from being a +nuisance, and when you feel you haven't a friend on earth outside of +your family, who sometimes are queer also, you're apt to be a trial to +those you come in contact with. For two whole days I stayed in my room +and thought of nothing but a big, brawny, domineering, dictating girl +from the West who was giving Billy no time to write letters; and though +I would die before I would let anybody know it, even Jess, I nearly +cried my eyes out under the bedclothes the day of the marriage. + +Life is a poor thing at times. And it is never so poor as when you +think a friend has failed you. There was nothing on earth that could +have made me believe Billy would ever fail me when we had known each +other since children, and he had saved my life three or four times; but +how can I help believing it when he is letting a perfectly ordinary, +straight-haired, large-footed girl from the West make him forget that I +am living and spending the summer in Twickenham Town? If he had not +forgotten, would he not write? He would. I am miserable and I will +never be happy until I can say some things to William Spencer Sloane +that he ought to hear. But I'm trying to keep my miserableness to +myself. People aren't interested in other people's miseries. I wonder +if I will ever again get a letter from Billy! + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +It is a perfectly magnificent thing to be alive! And this world is a +perfectly glorious place to be alive in! There isn't a bird in +Twickenham Town that isn't singing to-day, or a flower that isn't +blooming, and, owing to the rain last night, the dust is laying. As +for the sun--there couldn't be a more shining one, and the sky is a +blue so gorgeous that it seems heaven turned inside out, and in the air +is the snap of coolness that makes one want to walk and walk and walk, +and its crispness means fall is coming. I love the fall. I can't +think of anything I do not love to-day except Elizabeth Hamilton Carter +and Grandmother Brandon, and I don't exactly abhor them. I just don't +like them, and prefer to stay out of their way. But everybody else in +town is a dear, and I wish I knew I was coming back next summer. That +is-- + +It doesn't matter what is or what isn't. The thing that matters is +that this morning I went to the post-office, as usual, but, what was +not as usual, I got what I had long been looking for, and which had +come not for endless, endless days. When I saw the big batch of +letters and things from Billy, and knew that all my fears were at an +end, I was so excited I could not speak without signs that shouldn't +show, and, lest some one stop me, I put the mail inside my shirt-waist +and hopped on Skylark and flew out of town. + +I didn't stop until I got to a big chestnut-tree about three miles from +Rose Hill, and there I took off Skylark's bridle and let her have all +the grass she could eat, and then I sat down and sorted the letters +out. There were four from Billy and twelve cards and two packages, and +at first I couldn't understand why they had been held up, why I hadn't +gotten them before; and then I saw they were postmarked from the same +place, and had been mailed within three days of one another. That +puzzled me, so I decided to open them and find out what was the +matter--whether it was the Western girl or something else. + +I ought to have known it was something else! And I have been +wondering, ever since I read the letters and found out about the +accident to Billy's eyes, when he came near being shot and the powder +got in them and nearly put them out, why it is that people are so +mistrusting and why we let one thing we can't understand make us forget +what we ought to understand very well. Ten thousand kind things, right +things, nice things we take for granted, and then at the first thing we +think isn't kind or right or nice we forget the others and howl and +snort about the one we do not like. At least that is what I did. Not +outwardly, of course, but inwardly, for I'm pretty toplofty about being +treated right, and I flare out and say things I shouldn't at times, and +afterward I am so ashamed of myself that a worm of the dust is a perky +animal to me for a few minutes. That condition of mind doesn't last +very long, however. I am not by nature a humble-minded person. While +it does last it is awful. Perfectly awful. + +When I read Billy's letter I laid right down on the grass and put my +face deep down in it, and there wasn't anything abominable that anybody +could have said about me that I would not have agreed to. All the time +I had been furious with him for not writing as usual, he had been shut +up in a dark room, not able to see the food he was eating, much less +able to write letters, and then when they took the bandages off he +wrote so much they had to be put back again, and he was forbidden to +write more than a few lines, which accounted for so many cards. He +wouldn't let any one else write me, and I don't understand exactly how +it happened except he saw a drunken man on the street waving a pistol, +and there were some children around, and before the policeman could get +to him Billy had caught his hand and the thing had gone off and some of +the powder got in his eyes. He made light of it, but I know exactly +what he did. I thought it was a Western product that was engrossing +him, and it was the children he was trying to save. Oh, Billy, I'm a +pig! A perfectly horrid pig! + +And then I suddenly thought of the astonishing letter I had written +about being in love and maybe engaged, and I prayed hard that he would +never get it; but I knew it was too late for prayers. And then I got +mad with Pat for writing to Jess about the girl from the West, and with +Jess for writing what Pat had written, and not for some time did I come +to my senses and realize I was the only person I had any right to get +mad with. I got, all right. And then I wondered what to do. Billy +said they would sail on the 21st and reach New York on the 29th, so I +decided to go back to Rose Hill and begin to pack. + +Father could not come to me, so I would go to Father and be home by the +time Billy got there. It was only the 3d of September, but I decided I +would leave as soon as I could do so without remarks being made about +my going sooner than I expected, and to prevent remarks I would have to +invent a good reason for getting away. Father's loneliness would make +a perfect reason for Twickenham Town, and a most dutiful one, and no +one would be apt to ask me why I hadn't thought of his loneliness +before; but it wouldn't do for the family. They wanted me to stay out +of the city as long as possible, and while I was wondering what I could +do to get back, Mrs. Pettigrew passed with five of the children in the +buggy and asked if I knew there was a telegram for me at the station. +I told her I did not, and my heart got right where hearts always get +when telegrams are mentioned, and in the twinkling of an eye Skylark's +bridle was on and I on Skylark, and we raced like mad to town. + +On the way I was thinking all the awful things that telegrams start one +to thinking, and I remembered it was just eleven days since I had sent +the letter to Billy, who had, of course, gotten it by this time, and, +not realizing how fast I was going, I was at the station before it +seemed possible to get there, and so out of breath I could not speak. +I slipped off the horse and held out my hand to Mr. Pepper for the +telegram, and when he handed me the yellow envelope I slid down on a +bench and held it as if it were a death-warrant, and not for some time +could I open it. I was positive it was about Mother, who wasn't very +well when she last wrote, and everything I had ever done that I ought +not to have done, and everything I had left undone which I should have +done, walked right up in front of me and clutched me by the throat, and +I had to shut my eyes to keep my head steady. I had inside the same +sinky feeling I felt the first time I went to Europe, on the first day +out. + +Mr. Pepper was looking at me, and so were several other people who +happened to be standing around, so I tried to get a grip on, and after +awhile I opened the envelope; but at first I couldn't see the words on +it. Finally I took them in after three times reading them over, and at +last I understood. + + +Cut it out. You are engaged to me. Sailing to-morrow. See you +September fifteenth.--BILLY. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + +There never was a sinner saved by grace who so wanted to make a noise +as I wanted to make one when I got into my head what had happened. The +relief from fear and the joyfulness of knowing I had been pulled out of +another ditch made me dizzy for a moment, and down went my elbows into +my lap and down my face into my hands, and not until Mr. Pepper said +something to me did I lift my head and get up. Then I threw my +riding-crop in the air, tossed up the Pepper baby, danced around with +him, and, suddenly seeing all present were watching me, and knowing +they felt they had a right to hear what was in the telegram without +waiting for Mr. Pepper to tell them, I said an old friend of mine, who +was anxious to know Twickenham Town, was coming to see it when he got +back from Europe. After which I gave Mr. Pepper a little wink which he +understood, and I am sure no one was told the wording of the message I +had received. Mr. Pepper has a good deal of sense. + +Happy? I was the happiest girl in all the world that day. I nearly +sang my throat off when I got to my room, but I did not mention the +telegram to anybody save Miss Susanna, and I didn't go into details +with her about it. I just said a friend was coming to see me when he +got back from Europe, and I said it in such a way she didn't think I +was interested very much. She is so astonished by Elizabeth's +behavior, and so surprised at her marriage, which is to be in November, +that I don't think she paid any attention to what I said and got the +impression it was a friend of Father's who was coming to Twickenham +Town. I let her keep it. I did not give it to her knowingly, but +there was no need to take it away. + +And last night, not being able to sleep, I knew I had not been in love +with Whythe at all. I don't know a thing in the world about being in +love. I had tried to think I knew something, but I was mistaken. I +must say I enjoyed hearing Whythe's crescendo, obligato, diminuendo way +of making it, but I realize now I am not the sort of person to really +fall in love with strange men. Certainly I could never do it with a +wabbly, changery, one-or-the-othery kind of man that Whythe is, and +while it was pretty scrumptious thinking a twenty-five-year-older was +in love with me, I soon found out it was a summer case and not at all +serious. And I am thankful I never thought I was enough in love to +become engaged. There might have been things to remember that one +likes to forget when the real one comes along, and I have nothing of +that sort to be sorry for. I'm right particular at times. + +If I am ever really and truly engaged I wonder if I will be as +particular as a sixteen-year-old person, a girl person, ought to be? I +guess it will depend on whom I am engaged to, but, of course, not being +in love, I couldn't be engaged, and there is no use in thinking what I +might do under circumstances that might warrant the doing of it, and +when I see Billy I will just shake hands; that is-- + +Every time I think of his coming I feel like opening my arms so wide I +could take the whole world in, but I don't open them. I just go look +at the calendar to see if another day hasn't gone by yet. When this +morning I saw it was the 14th and realized there wasn't but one more +day to wait, I went to the window and did open my arms, and I sent a +message into the air. And then, because I felt so sorry for Miss +Araminta Armstrong, who has nothing to wait for but older age, and for +Miss Bettie Simcoe, who has long since stopped hoping, I went +down-stairs and asked them if they wouldn't like to motor to Glade +Springs, and they said they would, and we went. Also Mr. Willie +Prince. I didn't want to ask him, but I couldn't leave him out, and of +course he wanted to go. The going made the day pass a little quicker, +but it has been a long day! Awful long! + +For the last week I have been going around to almost every house in +town to say good-by. I don't know the exact day I will leave, as that +will depend on when Mother says I must be home; but I didn't want to go +away and not say good-by to everybody and tell them what a good time I +have had, and I started telling very soon after I got Billy's message +saying he was coming. I have thanked everybody for their niceness and +kindness to me, and told every one I hope to come back next summer, and +sometimes we have had little weeps, for they put their arms around me +and held me so tight I could hardly breathe. And I know now there is +nothing as good as friendliness, and loving-kindness is more to be +desired than all things else on earth, and I am going to try to make it +grow wherever I live. I will have a garden of it--have it in my heart. + +I am afraid I will always have some practical things in my heart, too, +for of late I've been thinking about all that money Billy had to spend +in cabling me from Europe. When Billy wants to do a thing he never +lets obstacles stand in his way, and he would have sent that cable if +he'd had to borrow the money from the Bank of England at an awful rate +of interest. What he did do I guess was to get it from his mother. +She would take her head off and her heart out and hand both over if he +wanted them, and it isn't her fault that William, as she calls him, +isn't a ruined person. + +I know she hated him to leave ahead of time, which he had to do to get +here on the 15th, the rest not sailing, Jess says, until the 20th; but +that's William again. He doesn't waste time when he has anything to +attend to, and I know exactly what he said to his mother. He will make +every arrangement and fix everything for them and then tell them +good-by. He isn't much with words, Billy isn't. He acts. There's no +fumble in him, and even his mother, who thinks his mold was broken when +he was born and that the Lord never made but one like him, has to admit +he is a high-handed person when occasion requires. I don't agree with +his mother in a good many things concerning William, but in some I do. +I wish he wasn't an only son. An only son for a husband is hard on a +wife. + +The thing I have been thinking about most since I got his cable, +however, is a certain thing that was in it. I've worn the paper out +reading it, and at first there was no argument in my mind, but it is +coming, argument is. And though I know it is a bad habit, especially +in girls and women and disliked by the other sex, how can you help it +when things are said that are not so? Billy said, "You are engaged to +me." How does he know? I never told him so. He hasn't exactly asked +me--that is, in a way that I would answer him--and he always got so +choky when on such subjects that I changed them quick, and yet he +announces that I am his, and with never so much as by your leave! + +I am afraid, I'm terribly afraid, I am going to agree with him. It's a +relief to have some things settled for you, and as he imagines I will +always be falling overboard, he doubtless thinks he had better keep a +life-preserver on me in case he isn't near enough to jump in after me. +He knows if I ever agree to put one on I will keep it on. I have a +good deal of Father in me, and when I give my word I stick to it. + +If any one had told me when I came to Twickenham Town that the chief +thing I would find out before I went away was that I wouldn't really +mind owning a life-preserver, my head would have gone up and I would +have been as chesty as a hen who tries to crow; and now I'm nothing but +a humble-minded person waiting for a high-handed one to come and take +me back home. And I am perfectly willing to go. Another thing I have +found out this summer is that it doesn't much matter where you are or +what you are doing; whether there is purple and fine linen or just +ancestors, or both together, or neither; if the one you want most isn't +with you, you will be pretty lonely after a while. + +I have had a grand time in Twickenham Town, but I don't want to come +here again by myself. If Mrs. William Spencer Sloane wants to take her +son away with her next summer, she won't be able to do it. Her son +will be twenty-one next summer, and though I hope he will always be +respectful and obedient, as far as possible, to his mother's wishes, +still, she will have to remember there are other wishes in this world +besides hers. I trust she will be nice about the discovery. Mrs. +Sloane is a very handsome woman, but spoiled. And very fond of having +her own way. + +We are not apt to have much money, Billy and I. We have often said we +thought young people ought to do their own scrambling, and I think +that's what we'll have to do, as our fathers think much the same way. +I'm not fond of herbs, but I can stand a dinner of them if Billy can, +and besides, it will be nice for us to work up together and not have +too quick a shove. And another thing we agree about. We know the +thing that counts most, and we are going to keep a good deal of it on +hand. Father says neither poverty nor riches can kill love if it is +the right sort. I know Billy's is the right sort, but I am crazy to +hear him put it into words. + +He will have traveled thousands of miles to say something he could have +written, to tell me I am engaged to him and I might as well understand +it; but there won't be an extra sentence in the way he says it. He +will be here to-morrow, and I bet the best thing I've got that all he +will say is: "Kitty Canary, we are going to decide right now on the day +and the month and the year. I will wait until you get through college, +as you say I've got to, but I won't wait a day longer. Let's get a +calendar and work it out." + +And I, being a weak-minded person at times, will say, "All right, +Billy," and then-- + + + + +THE END + + + + + + + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of Kitty Canary, by Kate Langley Bosher + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK KITTY CANARY *** + +***** This file should be named 16946-8.txt or 16946-8.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + https://www.gutenberg.org/1/6/9/4/16946/ + +Produced by Al Haines + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Kitty Canary + +Author: Kate Langley Bosher + +Release Date: October 25, 2005 [EBook #16946] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK KITTY CANARY *** + + + + +Produced by Al Haines + + + + + +</pre> + + +<A NAME="img-front"></A> +<CENTER> +<IMG SRC="images/img-front.jpg" ALT="Kitty Canary." BORDER="2" WIDTH="364" HEIGHT="518"> +<H4> +[Frontispiece: Kitty Canary.] +</H4> +</CENTER> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H1 ALIGN="center"> +Kitty Canary +</H1> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +A NOVEL +</H3> + +<BR><BR> + +<H4 ALIGN="center"> +BY +</H4> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +KATE LANGLEY BOSHER +</H3> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H4 ALIGN="center"> +AUTHOR OF +<BR><BR> +"MARY CARY" ETC. +</H4> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H4 ALIGN="center"> +HARPER & BROTHERS PUBLISHERS +<BR><BR> +NEW YORK AND LONDON +</H4> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<H5 ALIGN="center"> +HARPER & BROTHERS, NEW YORK +<BR><BR> +ESTABLISHED 1817 +<BR><BR><BR> +Copyright, 1913, by Harper & Brothers +<BR><BR> +Printed in the United States of America +<BR><BR> +Published February, 1918 +</H5> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<CENTER> + +<TABLE WIDTH="80%"> +<TR> +<TH ALIGN="center" VALIGN="top" COLSPAN="4">CONTENTS</TH> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap01"> Chapter I </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap08"> Chapter VIII </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap15"> Chapter XV </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap22"> Chapter XXII </A></TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap02"> Chapter II </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap09"> Chapter IX </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap16"> Chapter XVI </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap23"> Chapter XXIII </A></TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap03"> Chapter III </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap10"> Chapter X </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap17"> Chapter XVII </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap24"> Chapter XXIV </A></TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap04"> Chapter IV </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap11"> Chapter XI </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap18"> Chapter XVIII </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap25"> Chapter XXV </A></TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap05"> Chapter V </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap12"> Chapter XII </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap19"> Chapter XIX </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap26"> Chapter XXVI </A></TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap06"> Chapter VI </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap13"> Chapter XIII </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap20"> Chapter XX </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap27"> Chapter XXVII </A></TD> +</TR> + +<TR> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap07"> Chapter VII </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap14"> Chapter XIV </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap21"> Chapter XXI </A></TD> +<TD ALIGN="left" VALIGN="top"><A HREF="#chap28"> Chapter XXVIII </A></TD> +</TR> + +</TABLE> + +</CENTER> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap01"></A> +<H1 ALIGN="center"> +KITTY CANARY +</H1> + +<BR> + +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER I +</H3> + +<P> +I am in love. It is the most scrumptious thing I have ever been in. +Perfectly magnificent! Every time I think of it I feel as if I were +going down an elevator forty floors and my heart flippity-flops so my +teeth mortify me. He used to be engaged to Elizabeth Hamilton Carter, +the niece of the lady at whose house I am boarding this summer, but he +did something he ought not to have done, or he didn't do something he +ought to have done, and they had a fuss. No one seems to know the +cause of it, but it was probably from her wanting him to be blind to +everything on earth but her, and a man isn't going to be blind when he +wants to see, and then she got <I>hurt</I>. I'd rather live in a house with +a cackling hen or a grunting pig than the sort of person who is always +getting hurt. But she's very pretty. Pink-and-white pretty, with +uplifting eyes and a little mouth that shuts itself when mad and says +nothing, and oozes more disagreeableness than if it talked. He still +thinks there isn't another girl in town who can touch her in looks. I +don't suppose a man ever gets over a real case of pink-and-white. It's +the kind that makes a tender memory if it isn't the best sort to live +with, and men like to have a memory to sigh over in secret. Her +rejected one may sigh in secret, but in public he does not seem to be +suffering. He isn't suffering. We like each other very much. +</P> + +<P> +The reason I am glad I am in love is that I am sixteen and I was +getting afraid I wasn't ever going to fall in love. Three or four +times I have thought I was in it, but I wasn't, and I was beginning to +be sure I was the sort of person who doesn't fall. And, besides, it is +good for Billy, who, because he is twenty, thinks he is old enough to +have some things settled which there is no need to settle too soon. +Settled things are not exciting. I love excitement and not knowing +what a day may bring forth. Billy doesn't. He wants his ducks to be +always in a row. +</P> + +<P> +Ever since he fished me out of the water-barrel sunk in Grandmother +Hatley's garden, when I was four and he eight, he has seemed to think I +belonged to him; and, though he doesn't imagine I know it and never +mentions it, he is always around when I am in danger or trouble, to get +me out. I suppose saving my life three or four times makes him feel I +can't take care of myself and therefore he must take care of me, but +that's a mistake. I have never had a horse to run away with me but +once. Billy did tell me not to ride her, and when she ran and would +have pitched me over her head and down a gully he caught her in the +nick of time and caught me, too, but that's the only time a thing of +that sort ever happened. He was real nice about it and never said +anything concerning having told me so and didn't make remarks of the +sort which other people rub in, but the next day the horse was sent +away. That's the thing which makes me fighting furious with Billy +sometimes. He doesn't say things. He does them. I wasn't afraid of +that horse and was going to keep on riding her, but the next day there +was no Lady-Bird to ride. The reason he sent her away was I wouldn't +promise not to ride her. Our summer homes are on adjoining places and +Horson, their stableman, a nice, drinky old person, lets me take out +anything I want, anything of Billy's, and, knowing he couldn't trust +Horson any more than me, he lent Lady-Bird to a man miles and miles +away and I never saw her again until she was a tame old thing I did not +want to ride. Billy behaves as if I were a child! +</P> + +<P> +And then the very next winter I fell through the ice and he had to jump +in and get me out. He told me not to go to a certain part of the lake. +He had been all over it and tried it before I got my skates on, but I +forgot and went. A boy was with me, a skunky little rat, who, when he +saw the ice was cracking, tried to pull me back, and then he let go my +hand and flop I went in and flop came Billy behind me while the little +Fur Coat stood off and bawled for help and said afterward he didn't +know how to swim. Having on heavy clothes, I went down quick and was +hard to get up, and I would be an angel this minute if Billy hadn't +been there. But Billy is always there, which is what makes this summer +so queer. He isn't here. +</P> + +<P> +On account of servants and things his mother didn't want to open their +country place this year, and my mother didn't want to open hers, so two +houses are closed. That means a scatteration for both families and is +why I am here and Billy in Europe; and if he is having as good a time +as I am he isn't grunting at the change. He didn't want to go to +Europe. His father made him. His mother and two sisters needed a man +along and, as Mr. Sloane couldn't go, Billy had to, and he was a great +big silent growl when he went off. I wasn't. I wanted to come to +Twickenham Town. We had passed through it once on our way to Florida +and I have been crazy to come back ever since, and when I found Mother +was going with Florine and Jessica to a splashy place I didn't want to +go to I begged her to let me come here and board with Miss Susanna +Mason and—glory be—she let me do it! +</P> + +<P> +She is a sort of relation, Miss Susanna is, a farback one, but nothing +is too far back to claim here, and everybody who is anybody is kin to +one another, or kin to some one else's kin, which makes for +sociableness, and I am having a perfectly grand time. In all the world +there isn't another place like the one I am in this summer, and I am +getting so familiar with a new kind of natural history that maybe some +day I will be an authority on it. Ancestry is the chief asset of +Twickenham Town, and though you speak with the tongues of men and of +angels and have not ancestors it profiteth you nothing. That is, among +the natives. Being an outsider, I have decided not to have ancestors, +and I am going to see if the people won't take me in for myself. I +have always believed a nice person was nice if there weren't any family +shrubs and things, and a nasty one was nasty no matter how many coats +of arms there were or how heirloomy their houses, so I have asked Miss +Susanna please to excuse me if I don't call her cousin (we are seventh +removed, I think she said), and also, unless she has to, I hope she +won't tell any one my real name is Katherine Bird, but let everybody +call me Kitty Canary, as everybody does at home. I think she thought +it was very queer in me to say such things, but she smiled her +precious, patient little smile, and, though she didn't promise, she +evidently hasn't mentioned my sure-enough name, as no one here calls me +by any other than the one Billy gave me when I wasn't much bigger than +a baby. Just Kitty Canary will do for me. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap02"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER II +</H3> + + +<P> +The way I met Whythe (he's the one I'm almost perfectly certain I am in +love with) was this. When I got to the station in Twickenham Town +there was no one to meet me and take me to Rose Hill, which is Miss +Susanna Mason's home and right far out, because the train was three +hours late, and Uncle Henry, who drives the hack, and Mr. Briggs, who +runs the automobile, had gone home. There wasn't even anybody to take +my bag. I told Mother I had written Miss Susanna what train I would be +on, and because she was so busy and Father away she trusted me to do +things she had never trusted me to do before and didn't write herself, +which is why I wasn't met. I did write the letter saying I was coming, +but I forgot to mail it and found it in my bag when I got off the train +and was looking for my trunk check. It was nearly eleven o'clock and +nobody around but some train people who looked at me and said nothing. +And then a young man who had got off the same train came up and took +off his hat and asked if he could not do something for me, and I told +him I hoped he could and I certainly would be obliged if he would do it +as quick as possible, as it was getting later every minute and Mother +would be terribly worried if she knew I hadn't been met. +</P> + +<P> +"But where are you going?" he asked, and his eyes, which are his +best-looking part, took me in from top to toe. When I told him I was a +boarder for Miss Susanna Mason and would like to get to her house he +said if I didn't mind a pretty good walk he would take me there with +pleasure, and we started off. It was a perfectly gorgeous night. The +stars were as thick as buttercups in spring, and the moon was +magnificent and the air full of all sorts of old-fashioned fragrances, +as if honeysuckle and mignonette and tea-roses and heliotrope were all +mixed together; and as there didn't seem any real need of grieving +because there was no one to meet me, I thought I might as well enjoy +myself. I did. I could not help the train being late, and I didn't +forget to mail my letter on purpose; and it was an accident, or +coincidence, that a nice man should be on the same train I was, who +lived in the place I was going to spend the summer in, and knew very +well the house I wanted to get to. I didn't know he had been engaged +to the niece of the house and hadn't been to the latter since the +engagement was broken, and I must say as we walked along he didn't show +any evidences of despair or things of that sort. He couldn't possibly +have been naturaler or in better spirits, and he laughed from the time +we left the station until we reached Rose Hill. Not knowing his +history, I told him I had come to Twickenham Town because I thought it +was the most delicious old place in America; the sweetest, slowest, +self-satisfiedest, cocksuredest place on earth, and everybody in it was +a character—that is, everybody over thirty. He said that let him out, +as he was only twenty-five, but he wasn't sure some under twenty-five +were not somewhat queer. They are, I have found out since. +</P> + +<P> +He had left his bag at the station, but he had mine, which was right +heavy, and seeing there was a good stretch of open road before we began +to go up the hill on the top of which was Miss Susanna's home, I told +him he had better sit down a minute and rest, and I got up on the worm +fence and twisted my feet around the rail below, and looked at him +before he knew what I was going to do. He coughed a little and looked +at his watch and said it was rather late to be resting, as Miss Susanna +might be going to bed, and that if I were not too tired he thought we +had better go on; and I told him all right. And then, because I +couldn't help it, I stood up on the top of the fence, balanced myself +on it, and, opening my arms as if I were going to fly, sprang off and +ran up the road ahead of him. +</P> + +<P> +At the gate, which was open and through which I could see the +rose-bordered path leading up to the white-pillared porch on which Miss +Susanna and her niece were sitting, he shook hands with me and told me +good night and said he hoped he would see me very often while I was in +town, and I said I hoped he would. He put my bag down and told me to +send one of the servants out for it, and went on down the road, which I +thought was the queerest behavior I had ever seen in my life. I didn't +know, of course, about embarrassments and broken engagements and things +of that sort, and for a moment I stared at his back and then picked up +my bag and went up to the porch with it. All the boarders had gone to +bed and only Miss Susanna and her niece were on the porch, and as I +came up the steps they got up and stared at me as if I had risen from +the grave. +</P> + +<P> +I hadn't thought there was anything wrong in my coming from the station +at that time of night with a strange man until I saw the look on Miss +Susanna's face when I told her I had done it. If I had been a brand +snatched from the burning I could not have been folded to her bosom +with more fervent thanksgiving or a more pained expression, and at +first, still not understanding, I thought I had done right off the +worst thing a person could do in Twickenham Town. I had walked a long +way with a man who didn't have ancestors, perhaps. He had seemed all +right to me, and I was awfully glad to have him, as otherwise I might +have had to sit on my suit-case all night, for I certainly couldn't +have come up with the man who swung a lantern, and he was the only +other white one in sight. But I found out later it wasn't lack of +ancestors that caused the sudden chill which fell over us when I +mentioned Mr. Eppes's name. It was something else and—oh, my +granny!—the look that pretty little pink-and-white person gave me when +I said what I had done! +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, my dear, my dear!" Miss Susanna put her arms around me as if I +were a little ewe lamb that had been lost and was found, and in the +moonlight her beautiful little wrinkles reddened as if she were +responsible for a most grievous calamity, "To think of your being alone +at a public station at this time of night! A young girl! And I had +promised your mother to take such good care of you! I wouldn't have +had such a thing occur for—" +</P> + +<P> +"There hasn't anything occurred." I took off my hat and fanned hard +and then followed Miss Susanna up-stairs into a big square room with a +big tester bed in it, and if she hadn't been looking at me I would have +climbed up in it and gone to sleep in my clothes, I was so tired; but +she didn't leave me for some time. She couldn't get over my walking +two miles with a strange man late at night, and presently I found out +she hoped I wouldn't mention it to any one in the town, as in a little +place— +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, I know—" I sat down in another chair. "I know little places. I +was in one once for a month. Every one in it knew everything every +other person did and didn't do, and said and didn't say, and if they +sneezed what for, and if they didn't sneeze why not, and it was more +fun! But I won't tell if you don't want me to, and did my horse come? +Father had her sent three days ago, and I hope you won't get uneasy if +I am not always back on time—" +</P> + +<P> +I stopped. She was putting my hat on the top shelf of the biggest old +mahogany wardrobe that was ever built for human apparel, and I knew +right off that was one of the things the matter with pretty Miss +Pink-and-White. She was spoiled to death. I picked up the coat I had +dropped on the table and hung it up myself, and saw I would have to be +the thing I hate most on earth—an Example. I must be careful or that +precious old soul would be waiting on me just as she waits on everybody +else, and I wasn't going to stand for it. And then she asked me if I +were not hungry—said she knew I must be after such a long trip; and I +told her I was starving, but I would not eat of a feast of the gods if +it were right in front of me, as the only thing I wanted to do was to +go to sleep, and for fear she might keep on inquiring about all my +relations I kissed her good night and walked with her to the door and +asked if she would mind if I did not come down to breakfast, and she +said of course I must not come, that Elizabeth never came if she had +been up late the night before, and that decided me. I was the first +one down the next morning. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap03"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER III +</H3> + + +<P> +It was a perfectly grand feeling—-the feeling I had the next day and +have had every day since I got here—that I was in a place where there +wasn't a single member of my family to tell me not to do things I +wanted to do or to do what I did not want to do; and usually as I dress +in the morning I dance a new kind of highland fling which I made up for +times when I feel particularly happy. Everybody is well and Mother and +the girls are having a lovely time in a place where I would have had a +stupid one, being neither grown up nor a kid, but an in-betweener—too +young for some ages and not old enough for others; and here in +Twickenham Town I am as free as air, and Father is coming to see me as +often as he can. I can't let myself think much about Father or I would +take the train straight home. +</P> + +<P> +I had begged him to let me stay with him, but neither he nor Mother +would agree. Just because I got the Grome medal at school they +imagined I had studied too hard and needed a quiet, restful summer in +the mountains; but I will never study too hard while on this little +planet called the earth. I got the medal because Billy said I'd never +sit still long enough to study for it, and just to show him he very +often does not know what he is talking about I made up my mind to get +it. +</P> + +<P> +The only thing I ever expect to work hard over is one book. I am going +to write one book that the critics will call a Discovery. It is to be +dull and dry and dreary, and therefore it will be thought deep and +strong and big, and only a few people will know that it has been +written. After that I am going to write books that sell, write what +people want to read—things that make them forget for a few moments +that at times this world is but a fleeting show and there is a good +deal of rot in it. If I can I am going to make people laugh, though I +don't think I can do much in that line. I see the funny side of things +too quickly to ever be able to write them down, as that takes time; but +I am certainly going to be cheerful, and I am not going to croak. I +don't mean I am going to be smiling all the time. I am not. Perpetual +smilers are more than human nature can stand. Nothing is ever wrong, +everything is beautiful, their smiles seem to say, which isn't so. +There is a lot of life that is wrong, and any day horrid, hurting +things may pop up, but that doesn't mean you've got to sit down and +make a bosom friend of dolefulness. Some of the things you can shake +your fist at, and some turn your back on, and some you have to face; +but no matter what happens you can buck up and begin again if you get +knocked out or hit in the back. And that's what I hope I will have +sense enough to do—get up and get a move on when things go wrong. +</P> + +<P> +So far nothing has gone wrong in Twickenham. Everybody has been lovely +to me, and all sorts of ages have been to see me and asked me to their +homes, and if they know my name is not really and truly Kitty Canary +they never say so or mention my family, which is very nice of them, for +I am sure they must talk of who I am and where I came from, that being +the first thing done here when a stranger arrives. The reason I think +they haven't let me off among themselves is that one of Miss Susanna's +boarders started to say something to me on the subject one day and I +told her I was a very plain person, almost common, and she could tell +any one she chose. She has never mentioned the subject since. Just +Kitty Canary is all I am going to be this summer, and if anybody +doesn't care for me as Kitty Canary I don't care for them to care for +me as Katherine Bird. So endeth that. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap04"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER IV +</H3> + + +<P> +I have seen him every day since I came—seen my station help in time of +need—and I must say he bears bravely the dispensations of a female +person. He is not dejected, and he still seems to find life worth +living; and if he weeps in secret, he shows no sign in public of +regrets; neither does he hide himself from the gaze of others, but is +always to be seen when one goes down-town or to the homes of other +people. I don't know how we happen to meet so often, but I never go +out that he doesn't appear; and though he does not come in at Rose +Hill, he comes to the gate, and I am afraid we stand at it a little +longer than is necessary, especially if Elizabeth Hamilton Carter is +sitting on the porch. +</P> + +<P> +I wonder why Satan walks right into me every time I see that piece of +pretty pink-and-whiteness! He has never taken possession of me in that +way before; but something about her just starts him off, and before I +know it I am doing what I wouldn't think of doing if she were not +around. She is perfectly furious with me, and I must say her manners, +if they are Southern, could be improved. At best she is not much of a +talker, I have been told; but since I arrived her little mouth has been +shut so tight that I wonder how she breathes; and if she has spoken a +dozen words to me since the night I came, they were too +between-the-teethy for me to hear. I didn't want her beau, and I +wouldn't have dreamed of noticing him if I had known how she felt about +him; but after she tried the freezing act on me I didn't tell Satan to +get behind me, as I suppose I should have done. I just went along and +took things as they came, and the first thing I knew I was in love +myself, and from the words of his mouth concerning the meditations of +his heart he seemingly has recovered from a former attack and is in for +a new one. Maybe we were not as considerate of the rejecter as we +might have been. Of course, I never knew for a long time why the +engagement was broken. He didn't tell me and no one else seemed to +know, and when I found out— But that was a long time after—when I +found out. +</P> + +<P> +His name is Whythe Rives Eppes. The only things I don't like about him +are his front teeth and his relations. He could get three new teeth, +but nothing in human power could rid him of his relatives. There are +four of them—Mother, Sister, Sister Edwina, and Miss Lily Lou, and may +God have mercy on the girl who marries the male member of the family +and goes into their home to live! He is a perfectly grand sort to be +in love with, and I am almost sure I am in love or I wouldn't feel so +thrilly when I see him coming. But being in love is one thing and +getting married is a very different other, and there isn't a man person +living I want to think of marrying yet. It's awfully interesting, too, +to learn the different ways in which love can be made. Twickenham Town +may be slow about many things, but in others it is so quick it takes +your breath away. Whythe became personal in conversation the fourth +time I was with him. It was at the Braxtons' party and conditions were +favorable, but, not expecting the turn that was taken, I was as excited +as if I had never heard remarks of a similar character before, and the +first thing I knew I had promised Whythe (he begged me to call him +Whythe) to go horseback-riding with him the next day. We went—I on +Skylark, who is the joy of my life, and he on a borrowed horse, and we +had a perfectly wonderful time. I don't think Whythe will ever be much +of a lawyer, but as a love-maker he hasn't an equal on earth—that is, +any I have ever heard. +</P> + +<P> +As we rode down the main street of Twickenham everybody in the town +seemed on it. Princess Street is the only one called by a name, though +of course the others have names, and it is the place where everybody +meets everybody else and learns all the news; and if anybody went to +sleep that night without knowing that Whythe and I had started on a +ride at ten o'clock in the morning and didn't get back until three it +was because that person was too deaf to hear and couldn't understand +the movement of lips. I didn't know I was doing anything I oughtn't, +and if I did it I am not sorry. I had a grand time. It was a gorgeous +day and cool enough for me to wear my brown-linen riding-habit and high +boots, which, with a stock collar and small sailor hat, made me look +real nice, and the way the people stared at me you would have thought +they had never seen a divided skirt before, and—oh, my granny!—the +faces of the family (Whythe's family) as we passed their house! I +smiled the politest and properest I knew and they bowed back, but in a +way that made me laugh out loud when out of sight, and so did Whythe. +And then we forgot them, forgot everything except it was awfully good +to be alive. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap05"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER V +</H3> + + +<P> +The place we went to is very historic and interesting. Something +happened there that was very important in American history, but I have +forgotten what it was. Whythe told me, and as it doesn't matter, being +over for such a long time, I haven't tried to remember. The sky was so +wonderful and the river so winding and lovely and the air so delicious +that yesterdays did not seem important and only to-day counted; and it +was when we were sitting under a beautiful big water-oak that Whythe +began to be terribly sentimental and say things that would have been +more suitable for moonlight and shadows and things of that sort. But +suitable or not, they were thrilly to hear, and I would have enjoyed +hearing them if it hadn't been for an abominable feeling that Billy was +right beside me hearing every word also, and with a look on his face as +if he thought my new friend was the foolest yet. And presently when I +couldn't stand it any longer (I mean stand Billy standing by) I got up +suddenly and told Whythe it was time to go home. +</P> + +<P> +I interrupted him in the midst of a beautiful sentence about my +eyelashes, I think, or maybe it was something else, I don't remember; +but anyhow when I jumped up he was very much surprised and wanted to +know what was the matter. I couldn't tell him, but I was perfectly +furious with Billy and the look on his face, which seemed to say what +I'd heard him say often about fool-flum talk and feather-headed fellows +and things of that sort. And I was so mad I rode so fast Whythe +couldn't keep up with me or continue the conversation, but it has been +continued since. That is the main theme, though the variations are +always different. Whythe never seems to give out on variations. +</P> + +<P> +Of course, all of Miss Susanna's boarders, which are only four besides +myself, had something to say in general about the faithlessness of men +and the flirtatiousness of girls, and how times had changed, and how +you couldn't put your hand on any human being and feel you could trust +him in these days, and how men were gobbled up before they had got +their breath good after painful experiences, and dozens of other things +on that order. And I had such a good time listening to them, though +they didn't talk directly to me, that I'd forget at times and nearly +screech out loud at the tones of voice in which they did me up, and +then I would remember and try to look serious. But seriousness doesn't +seem to fit my face—that is, seriousness over sillinesses—and it +wouldn't stay on very long. +</P> + +<P> +They thought it very indelicate in me to walk away with Elizabeth's +sweetheart right before her eyes—that is, Mrs. General Games did, but +Miss Araminta Armstrong, who is over fifty and by nature sentimental +and sympathetic, said she supposed it was natural for youth to seek +consolation, and Whythe, poor dear, had been so heartbroken at +Elizabeth's behavior that he had been receptive to other influences of +a pleasing nature, and she didn't think they ought to be so hard on +him. And then, after more talk of that sort, she would sigh and look +away at the mountains in the distance with a loved-and-lost look in her +eyes, and Miss Bettie Simcoe would sit up and snort. +</P> + +<P> +There's nothing sentimental or sympathetic about Miss Bettie. Neither +is there anything in the earth below or the heavens above that she has +not an opinion of her own about, but the one concerning which she has +the most decided opinions is Man. She doesn't mince matters when she +gets on him. Also, she is an authority on God. She can tell you +exactly why He does things, and she quotes Him as if He were her most +confidential friend, and the only thing which stumps her is why He made +such a mess of what is considered His most important work. Mention a +male person's name and up go her eyebrows and down come the corners of +her lips and on the side goes her head, and nothing need be said for +her opinion to be understood. She is positively triumphant over +Whythe. She goes around with a "Didn't-I-tell-you-so?" expression +oozing out of every feature of her face, and I think she tells +Elizabeth she is fortunate to have discovered his fickleness so soon. +</P> + +<P> +If Elizabeth thinks she is fortunate she has a queer way of showing it. +She must cry a good deal at night, judging by her eyes in the morning, +but the thing that's most the matter with her is madness. She can't +take it in that Whythe is showing no signs of anxiousness to make up. +She imagined, I suppose, when they had their fuss that it wouldn't last +very long and that he would give in to whatever she wanted, and now +that he isn't giving in she is so freezingly furious with me she barely +speaks to me. She seems to think it is my fault and that my coming +just when I did is the cause of the whole trouble. Though she never +says anything directly to me, she makes remarks in my presence about +the way men flirt in Twickenham Town and how dangerous it is, +especially for young girls who have never had any experience in things +of that sort and are deceived by it; and as she talks I just rock and +rock if in a chair, and swing and swing if in a hammock, until she has +said a good many nasty things, and then I get up and go up-stairs and +bring down a box of candy Whythe has sent me and offer it to her with +my most Christian forgiveness and most understanding smile, and, +strange to say, she never takes a piece! +</P> + +<P> +I don't mind her remarks. They're natural, and if she wasn't such a +horrid little teapot I'd do anything I could to straighten out things; +but until she behaves herself I won't. I am having a very interesting +time being in love, and why should I stop just because a man she broke +with isn't grieving, but is keeping himself in practice saying to me +what he used to say to her? I am not going to stop until I think it is +time and until both have learned a few things they ought to know before +they get married. She is a vain, selfish, pretty piece of spoiledness, +and I don't believe she knows what real loving means. She is the sort +that wants what it hasn't got, and all the more if she thinks anybody +else is apt to get it. If she had any sense she would get a beau <I>pro +tem</I>. That is the best thing on earth to bring a man back to the +straight and narrow, and Whythe is the kind of man who needs to be +brought every now and then. +</P> + +<P> +I gave her that for nothing one morning—I mean the suggestion in +general, though of course not personal—and she looked at me as if +trying to understand. And then something came in her face that must +have been an idea in her brain (her brain is slow), for, two days +afterward, she said she was going away. A week later she went to see a +rich aunt on her father's side who has a summer home somewhere and +corrals young men and compels them to come to it, Miss Bettie Simcoe +says. When she was gone a great weight seemed lifted off everybody, +and even the servants breathed better. As for Miss Susanna, she was +that lightened and relieved, though naturally not saying so, that she +looked ten years younger, and I know now it is true that some people in +a house are like fruit-cake on a weak stomach. They make life hard. I +didn't say my prayers that night. I just sang the Doxology three times +as loud as I could and jumped into bed. Praise is prayer. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap06"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER VI +</H3> + + +<P> +I have been here four weeks to-day. If there are any people in or +around Twickenham Town that I do not know, it is because they are not +knowable. I love people, and, being naturally sociable and not very +particular, I have had a perfectly grand time making acquaintances with +the high and the low and, the in-betweeners; and the sick and well, and +the dear and the queer, and the ancestrals and up-comers, and the rich +and the poor, and every other variety that grows; and now I am as +familiar with most of the family histories as the oldest inhabitant. +That's the nice part of living in a small place. Something depends on +you and you depend on all the rest of the town, but at home you're lost +in numbers and only a few know you're living. Here everybody knows, +also they know some things that perhaps had better be unknown. As for +talk, they are the best talkers on earth, and there's no subject under +the sun they won't talk about. It's an inheritance, Father says, and +has been handed down from ages past, and, though they don't read very +much, they can do more with a little knowledge than most learned people +with their information, and they make anything they mention interesting +from the way they mention it. I love to hear them, and I've heard a +good deal. +</P> + +<P> +Dear, precious Miss Susanna in the secrecy of my bedroom gave me a +little talk a few nights ago, and said she hoped I wouldn't mind, but +as I was young and inexperienced she thought it her duty to tell me +that I must be careful and not too informal, for certain people +wouldn't understand; and that while the Holts were a very good, +respectable family, still they were not— She stopped and coughed a +little, and of course I understood, but I pretended I didn't, and told +her they were perfectly healthy and I had had more fun with the Holt +children than with any in town, but if she preferred they should not +come to her house to see me I would just stop in theirs sometimes, as I +would not like them to think I was afraid to go with them. I wasn't, +for while I knew they were not historic, they were the most interesting +children I'd ever seen, and it seemed pretty cruel that they were left +out of things because they didn't have forefathers to hang on to, or +money, which of course would speak for itself. And dear, angelic Miss +Susanna, who is so worn out with boarders and their special kind of +human-nature horridness at times that she's hardly got body enough to +cover her soul, said I mustn't misunderstand her, but the Holts had +never gone in the same circles as the other people I had met, and that +customs, though unkind, were hard to overcome, and the oldest son— +</P> + +<P> +I told her not to worry about the oldest son. He could go anywhere he +wanted and with any one he wanted by the time he was through college, +which his parents were working themselves to death to send him through, +and it was very probable that several girls in town would be glad to +add their grandfathers to his natural endowments before many years were +over. But if she didn't care for me to accept his attentions, as Miss +Araminta Armstrong called them, I could always have an engagement when +he asked me to go anywhere. She looked so shocked and distressed that +I told her I didn't approve of telling stories any more than she did, +and for most sorts people ought to be branded, but I'd much rather tell +one of that land than hurt a person's feelings. And it wouldn't be +untrue to say I had an engagement, for I always had one to go +everywhere and anywhere, even if I didn't keep it; and again she +coughed and looked so pained that I took her in my arms and whirled +around the room with her and told her not to worry about me, either. I +wouldn't disgrace her by knowing the wrong people too well, but +everybody had their peculiarities and one of mine was I was going to +know anybody I wanted to. I always thought a lady could, and, besides, +I liked any kind of person who was interesting, and the best born ones +were often very stupid, which of course was the wrong thing to say. So +I had to give her another whirl, and by the time she got her breath it +was time to see about supper, and she has never referred to the subject +since. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Susanna is a darling little lady of the old school (whatever the +old school was) and I love her, but I am of my time as she is of hers, +and I don't see her way any more than she sees mine. She ought to wear +hoop-skirts and brocaded silks and lace fichus and mits, and sit with +her beautiful hands folded in her lap and her tiny little feet on a +footstool, and instead she works from morning to night trying to help +the good-for-nothingest servants that were ever hired by tired ladies, +except Uncle Henson, and Aunt Mandy, the cook, who have been with her +for years and years. She's worn out. That's what's the matter with +Miss Susanna, and that selfish, lazy little piece of pinkness who is +now away doesn't lift her hand to help her unless it is to make a cake +occasionally. I don't know how to make cake and never expect to know, +as very good kinds can be bought, but I can wash dishes. I do it every +morning and she dries them, so limp Eliza can go up-stairs and clean up +the bedrooms, and we have a beautiful time talking about what a change +comes over human beings when they board. That is, I do the talking and +she shakes her head at me, but it does her good, as it gives sound to +things she can't say. Most of her time has to be spent in thinking +what to put in people's stomachs and fixing it to be put; and, from the +quantity that goes in, boarders must have much better appetites than +people who keep house. They eat and yet are never full. There'll be +no hope of heaven for me if I ever have to keep boarders. I'd sweep +them out with a broom certainly once a week. That is, in my mind, if +my hands didn't. But Miss Susanna will never sweep them out. The +sanctuary in which I let out for her is the pantry, and all the things +she won't say I say for her. Yesterday she laughed so she broke a cup. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap07"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER VII +</H3> + + +<P> +Father is coming to-morrow! I am so excited and happy that to-day, +after I was safely out of Twickenham Town and there was no one to see +me, I stood up on Skylark's back and held the bridle with one hand and +waved the other in the air; and then I tried standing on one foot with +the other one out, but I came near losing my balance and just did catch +myself in time. Seeing a woman coming down the road in a buggy, with a +baby in her lap, I got back in place before she saw what I was doing, +but I needn't have done it, for it was just Mrs. Pettigrew, and she +wouldn't have cared whether it was my head or my heels which were on +the horse. She has eleven children and no husband to speak of, and +what people do or don't do doesn't bother her. We stopped for a little +talk and she told me about the roof leaking and the pig eating the +baby's bonnet which Miss Katie Spain had given it last Christmas, and +which was too small for its head, but was all it had; and that a kettle +of soft soap had fallen off the stove and burned two toes of Sammy, the +next to the youngest boy, and she would still be telling me things, but +I told her Father was coming and I had to attend to something, and so +she drove on. +</P> + +<P> +I did have something to attend to, but I didn't attend right away, for +the day was so wonderful I couldn't go in for a long time. The +sunshine looked as if it had been washed and ironed, it was so clear +and clean and crisp, and the wind in the trees said all sorts of lovely +things to me, and I made up my mind that, no matter what happened in +life, I was always going to remember that warm and sweet and sunny +things are sure to come again, if at times they seem dead and buried, +and that I would try not to see the cranks and queernesses of people as +much as I was by nature inclined to do; and then I went right back to +Miss Susanna's, and before I knew it I had said something I oughtn't, +and to Mr. Willie Prince. +</P> + +<P> +Every time I see Mr. Willie I thank God he is no relation of mine. He +is the only man boarder in the house, which is another thing to be +thankful for; but, though he is hard to stand, he is nearly sixty and a +human being, and I ought to remember what I forget and yesterday I +didn't remember. He was the only son of his mother and should have +been a daughter, and in trying to make him one his maternal parent +succeeded better than in anything else she ever attempted, Miss Bettie +Simcoe says—and she ought to know, being his first cousin. His +business is telling people what they don't want to hear; and, though he +doesn't do any work, a hound dog couldn't run a rabbit down quicker +than he can a piece of gossip, and when he isn't sitting on somebody's +front porch fanning himself with a palm-leaf fan, from which he is +never separated in summer, he is down at the drug-store hearing and +being heard. He thinks he is handsome, and he is as proud of his pink +cheeks as a goose of her gander, and I'm sure he puts something on them +on cool days. If he could wear some blue ribbon on his sandy hair and +have trousers and coats to match his fancy vests he would be perfectly +happy. As a man he is a poor job, but as a Miss Nancy he is perfect, +and when yesterday I came in from my ride he made me so mad that I +popped out something I shouldn't have popped and before I knew I was +going to do it. +</P> + +<P> +He was sitting on the porch when I came up, fanning as hard as he could +fan, and as I went by he stopped me. "I would advise you to be more +careful when you go in wading at the creek, Miss Kitty," he said, "It +isn't customary for young ladies in Twickenham Town to do such things +and—" +</P> + +<P> +"And where I came from it isn't customary for gentlemen to follow young +ladies and see what they do," I said, and the minute the words were out +I knew I shouldn't have said them, for his face got as red as a beet +and he jumped up and walked into the house. +</P> + +<P> +I don't know that he really followed Sallie Sclater, who's a visiting +girl, and myself to see if we went wading, but we certainly went and +had a good time doing it, though we had to dry our feet with my +petticoat. But from the way his face went he must have made it +convenient to walk in that direction and must have seen us, or he +wouldn't have known anything about our going, as we were careful to +look around before we took off our shoes and stockings. I can't endure +him, but he is nearly sixty and I am only sixteen, and I shouldn't have +spoken as I did; and possibly because I was so happy over Father's +coming I told him last night that if I had said anything I shouldn't I +hoped he would forget it and I, too, would forget what had been said. +And that, of course, I knew gentlemen in Twickenham Town never did +anything gentlemen shouldn't, and that my quickness of speech was +always getting ahead of me; and he looked so relieved that I am +perfectly certain he followed us. But, anyhow, he was very pleasant +last night and told a scream of a story about poor little Miss Lily Lou +Eppes when she thought she had a beau. She had almost landed him when +he got away. He's never been heard from since. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap08"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER VIII +</H3> + + +<P> +It's over—Father's visit is. He has been gone a week, and it will be +a whole month before he can come again. He has to divide up between +Mother and the girls and me, and he can only get away once in two +weeks, because his partner is ill and business has something the matter +with it and has to be watched, which is why he could stay only four +days in Twickenham Town. I don't see why fathers have to work so hard, +and why wives and daughters must have so many unnecessary things, and +such big houses and so many new clothes and automobiles and parties and +pleasures, which aren't real fun after you have them. But most women +seem to want them, and keep on scrambling for what other people +scramble for, and only a few have sense enough to see how foolish it +all is and stop. Maybe they are wound up so tight they can't stop. I +don't know. I only know I do not want to live the life a lot of women +I know live, and I am not going to do it. +</P> + +<P> +I wish Father could see it the way I do—about working so hard, I +mean—and I think he might, for he says I am a chip off the block and +he is the block, and in almost everything we feel alike; but there's +Mother and the girls, who care for things I don't care for, and of +course they must have them. He gives them everything they want, but he +looked so awfully tired the day he came I could think of nothing else +the night he left, which is why I cried so under the sheet, and then +when the tears were out and I felt lighter I got up and wrote him a +long letter and told him I loved him so it hurt, and that he was the +best and dearest father on all this big, big earth, and if he would let +me come and keep house for him I would fly back. But he wouldn't let +me come. He wrote me a letter, though, that I shall keep with my +treasures, and I wish what he said was so. It isn't so. He just +thinks it, but it does your heart good to know somebody cares an awful +lot about you and no matter what you do is going to stand by. What he +wrote me was this: +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +<I> +Dear little Nut-brown Maid all mine, of course you would come, but you +mustn't. It is too hot and you need what you are getting, and nothing +could help me here so much as to know of that wonderful color of yours +and that you are so well and strong again. That you are getting health +and happy memories for the winter of work and study ahead is the best +tonic I can take, and every morning when I go to my desk I get out that +little picture of you and, nobody being by, I kiss it and send you my +love, and it is a breath of life-giving air to know you are mine. +Since the first time I saw you—you were exactly one hour old and +laughing even then—you have been the joy and delight of my heart, and +I can't afford to run any risk with summer heat and the joy of my +heart. I didn't deserve you, for I wanted a son so badly, and was +fearfully disappointed that you were not a boy. You seemed to +understand and did not get mad about it, and I've often wanted you to +know that no son could mean to me now what my little harum-scarum +daughter means. There has never been a day since you first looked into +my eyes that I haven't thanked God for you, and the thing I am most +afraid of in life is that you may get sick or not be strong, and that +is why I am so glad for you to be in such a charming old place as +Twickenham Town. You were wise, little daughter of mine, to choose so +quaint and queer and dear a place in which to spend your summer, for +there real things still count, and there is more time for the fine +courtesies of life, and the hurry and rush of it, the push and scramble +for place and power, is out of key with its quiet serenity and the +poise that comes from a sense of values that by many of us is to-day +forgotten. I am coming back as soon as I can, for I, too, want the +refreshment and novelty of being where money is not talked and +apologies never made for the absence of things that money gets. Miss +Susanna Mason is a liberal education in herself and no "Course in +Culture" could equal the advantage of being in her society. I have +written her, of course, but tell her again of my sense of privilege, +and my great pleasure, in being a guest in her home, and remember +always you are in your father's heart. Always he is thinking of you. +</I> +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +Now wasn't that a nice letter to get from a father? I'm nothing to be +thankful for; but, if he thinks I am, I am thankful for that, and it +makes life a different thing to know somebody is thankful for you. And +another thing I think would make life nicer, make working and living +not so hard, is to tell people you like them and you believe they are +trying to do their best, even if their best is powerful poor. Of +course, all people don't try to do their best. Some are by nature and +practice mean and horrid and ought to have facts handed out to them, +but most people try to do right, and maybe they would try harder if +they got a little encouragement now and then. Anyhow, I've often +noticed it makes a person take fresh hold again for somebody to give +them a lift in the way of a friendly word or so, and it doesn't cost +much—kindness doesn't. I wonder why we don't have more of it. +</P> + +<P> +The reason why Father liked Twickenham Town so much was that nobody +talked business to him, and if anybody knew he was the head of +Bird & Roller, bankers and brokers, they never mentioned it to him or talked +shop at all, and for four days he forgot stocks and bonds and the ups +and downs of the money-market and let go. And yet I am almost sure Mr. +Willie Prince knows all about him—the business part, I mean—and that, +of course, will mean everybody in Twickenham will know pretty soon. +The reason I think he knows is that I went into the bank to get a check +cashed the morning after Father got here, and I saw Mr. Willie sitting +at a table in a corner of the bank with a copy of Bradstreet open +before him and his eyes close to it. I made it convenient to walk up +to the table and look down at the book, and I saw he was running his +finger down the letter "B," and when he saw me he shut the book quick. +I just smiled and passed on. But not talking business is only one of +the reasons Father liked Twickenham Town so much. Another was because +everybody was so nice to him. He had so many invitations to dinner and +supper, and even breakfast, that he was on a dead go from morning until +night, and he never ate so much in his life as he ate in those four +days. It did him good, and he didn't look tired a bit when he left. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap09"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER IX +</H3> + + +<P> +The day Father got here was a beautiful day. The train was due at +six-thirty in the morning, but it never hurries and has only been on +time three times since it has been running, and Uncle Henson said there +was no use getting to the station until seven o'clock, but I told him +if he wasn't in front of the porch by six o'clock I'd send for Mr. +Briggs and go down in his automobile, and there was no need to say +anything more. Mention automobile to Uncle Henson and his back begins +to go up just like a cat's. There are only a few automobiles in town, +though a good many people have Fords, and several offered to lend me +theirs, but not wanting to hurt Miss Susanna, who has been sending the +same carriage to the station for over thirty years, I didn't accept +their offers, but went down in the coach, as Uncle Henson calls it. +Its top is still upholstered in a sun-shaped thing which was once +yellow satin and now tattered and torn, and hardly anybody ever rides +in it, but when a new boarder comes Miss Susanna always says, in that +queenly way of hers, "You will take the carriage to the station, +Henson," and Uncle Henson's old gray head bows as if at royal orders, +and they do not know they are playing a part that belongs to the days +that are no more. That is what Tennyson, I think, calls a time that +will never be the same again. +</P> + +<P> +Uncle Henson's coachman's coat, long and faded and once brass-buttoned, +and a battered hat to match, are always put on to meet the train; and +when he held the door open for Father to get in the old, ramshackle +thing he did it in a way that could be sold for big money, if manner +could be bought, and Father got inside with equal elegance. After he +was in and Uncle Henson couldn't see him, he looked at me as if to ask +if I thought it would stand, and I nodded back yes, and slipped my hand +in his and hugged him again, I was so glorious glad to see him! He is +such a splendid Father—my Father is, I am so sorry for girls who +haven't one like mine, and not one of them has. He is the only one of +his kind on earth. +</P> + +<P> +Everybody was on the porch to meet us when we drove up, and Miss +Susanna gave him such a gracious welcome, and was so sweet and stately +and quaint and lovely in her white dotted Swiss muslin dress which Miss +Araminta Armstrong says she has been wearing for six summers, and which +has the dearest little darns in it, that Father's face got real +flushed, and once I really believe there were tears in his eyes. He +might have been an ambassador at some court who was being received, for +at no court in Europe could a lady bow as Mrs. General Gaines bows, and +she gave her best to Father when he was presented. I don't like her, +but she certainly is an old swell. And then Isham (he's Uncle Henson +and Aunt Mandy's grandson, and totes water all day long from the well +up into the house, when he isn't playing a Jew's-harp in the sun) came +out and got Father's bags and things and took them up-stairs, and a +little later Uncle Henson brought up on a silver tray one of those mint +juleps, about which Father told Mr. Willie Prince, who made it, that +the half could never be told, and at eight o'clock we had breakfast. +Usually Father doesn't take anything at home but grape-fruit and +coffee, but that morning, and every morning he was here, he ate +waffles, and batter-bread, and beaten biscuits, and everything else +Miss Susanna would urge him to try, and he said he couldn't understand +how he could eat so much. I didn't tell him, but I think it was +because of the juleps. They're the best things for poor appetites ever +invented yet, Major Hairston says, and he ought to know, being over +seventy and never having missed taking two a day since he could fix +them for himself. After breakfast we talked for a while on the porch, +and then I took Father out to show him the town. +</P> + +<P> +I wouldn't have taken him out if the day had been hot, but it wasn't +hot. It was one of those gorgeous days that sometimes come in summer +after a thunder-storm and which have the feel and taste of early +October; and being in the mountains it was cooler on that account, and +I could see Father breathe deep, and the tiredness began to go away as +we walked and talked. That is, I talked. He tried to at first, and +then gave up. Everybody in town knew he was coming—I had told +them—and they came down from their porches and shook hands with him, +and said they were so glad to see him and they hoped he was going to +stay some time, and that they would call as soon as he was rested, and +a whole lot of other nice things, so that Father almost got flurried, +he was so pleased and warmed up. At home he is always hurrying in the +morning to get to the office, and at night hurrying to get away, and of +course we don't have neighbors, and it was so queer to find everybody +so friendly and interested that by the time we got back to Rose Hill he +looked like another man. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap10"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER X +</H3> + + +<P> +I took him down Princess Street first, of course, and showed him the +bank and post-office and moving-picture places, and the court-house and +churches and stores, and specially the drug-store, which is a sort of +standing-up club for the men; and I told him whose were the offices; +and Whythe came out of his and spoke to him in a perfectly perfect way, +and said he hoped he would be permitted to show him some of the things +of interest in the neighborhood. And also he said if it was convenient +to us he would call in a car (Whythe hasn't even a Ford, but he has a +Twin-Six manner) in the morning and we would drive to Horseshoe Falls, +and from there go on to Spruce Mountain, where something historic +happened during the Revolution, I think; and only once when talking did +he look right in my eyes. His sent a message, and my heart flopped +around so it felt like a frog in a can of milk, and, I was so afraid +Father would hear, I told Whythe we would go with pleasure and were +much obliged, but we couldn't stop any longer, as there was a good deal +to see before dinner. He shook hands twice with Father, who, when he +was out of hearing, asked me how a young man could leave his business +in the morning and go riding. I told him business could always be left +in Twickenham Town, and he laughed and said he wished he lived in a +town of that sort. I wish he did. +</P> + +<P> +We stopped just a minute to speak to Mr. Bugg, who sells vegetables and +eggs and things, and whose wife has just had twins again, and this time +has a milk-leg also, and Father shook hands with him and asked about +the babies, I thinking just in time to tell him to do it, and then we +had some soda-water at Mrs. Grump's. It is the most awful soda-water +in the world, Mrs. Grump's is, but it is wet and cold, and you can sit +down when drinking it, and while we sat she touched up the town and +Father nearly fell out of his chair at the way she did it. If Mrs. +Grump were for sale, I'd sell everything I own to get enough to buy +her, for the way she can put into words what she thinks of human beings +would make a graven image come to life. She never smiles herself. +</P> + +<P> +After we got through with Princess Street we turned in by Colonel +Rixby's and then went down by the Baconses' and into The Court, whose +trees were planted by order of some lordly person, kin to the Aikens +who have been sitting under the shade of their greatness ever since, +and then we strolled by the Eppes house, for I wanted Father to see it. +It is the stateliest old place in town and its garden of old-fashioned +flowers makes one think the twentieth century is a mistake and ought +never to have been, but ordinarily I pass it quickly, as I don't care +for its owners. The house has perfect lines and the dearest little +panes of glass in its deep, wide windows; and inside it has big +fireplaces and beautifully carved woodwork and wonderful old furniture +and fearful old portraits, and I certainly wanted Father to see +everything in it, but I didn't expect him to do it, for the House of +Eppes doesn't admire me any more than I admire it—and then the +unexpected happened. +</P> + +<P> +As we reached the gate we saw the whole bunch sitting in the wide, cool +hall—Sister reading aloud, Sister Edwina making tatting, and Miss Lily +Lou peeling a peach for Mother from a basket on the table beside her, +and I was going to pass by and just bow to Mother as pleasantly and +politely as I could (she was the only one who saw us), when to my +surprise she got up and ordered me to stop by a wave of her hand. I +stopped. She does not approve of me. She thinks it very indelicate in +me to accept the attentions of one whose engagement had so recently +been broken, and, while she will never recover from stupefaction that +Elizabeth should disagree with her son, she attributed that action on +Elizabeth's part to lack of sense and does not hesitate to say so, just +as she has not hesitated to say things about me that were not as +Christian as they might have been. She knew, however, what was +expected of Twickenham Town and that personal feelings were to be paid +no attention to where politeness was concerned, and with a sort of +scepter movement she beckoned to me and commanded us to come in. We +went. +</P> + +<P> +It is a queer thing how nice disagreeable people can be when they want +to, and that morning the entire Eppes family (even Sister Edwina, who's +the limit) were so polite and pleasant that Father never would have +imagined how cocky and sniffy they usually are. I behaved as well as +they did, and when we came away I couldn't remember a thing I had said +that I shouldn't. We didn't stay but half an hour. I wouldn't have +held out a whole hour, and neither would they, and so, after we had +seen all the beautiful old things downstairs and been introduced to all +the painted ancestors, I got away quick, for Miss Anna was showing +signs I didn't think were safe. They don't know that they worship +idols of wood and glass and silver and china, and images in old gilt +frames, but they do, and the steel trust hasn't money enough to buy +them. It's a pity they won't sell a few and put the money in some new +clothes, for those they wear are a sight to behold. As we were +leaving, Mother Eppes invited us to take dinner with her on Sunday in a +way that was more a command than an invitation and we accepted in a +manner to match, though inside I was raging to think we'd have to go. +And then I remembered it would be a regular thriller to be eating at +the table with Whythe and his family and my family, and I hoped I'd +remember to call him Mr. Eppes, as down here they do that up to the day +of the marriage, the first name being thought too familiar until after +the ceremony, and even then in public. Grace Marvin, who is engaged to +Richard Clarke, calls him Dick, but that is because she isn't +ancestral; just accepted, Mrs. Grump says, and she knows, being +familiar with the history of everybody in town. +</P> + +<P> +They were perfect days, the four Father spent in Twickenham Town, and +he was made over when he went away. Every morning Mr. Willie Prince +sent him up a mint julep that started the day so cheerfully he was +happy through its every minute; and Major Roke, who makes the best ones +in town, would come for him at twelve o'clock and take him to his +house, and Mr. Letcher always managed to get hold of him about six in +the afternoon, and at bedtime some one else would send one in. And +poor Father, who never drinks anything at home, it not being good for +him, was in an awful state of mind at first, and then he decided he +would rather die than hurt the feelings of the senders and he'd take +the chance on his health. He took. +</P> + +<P> +I'm a fighting disbeliever in whisky, and if I had any say I'd say it +couldn't be made except for sickness, but you couldn't get certain +Twickenham-Towners to believe it is a dangerous thing, and to take a +little something for the stomach's sake is a recommendation in the +Bible they approve of and obey. It doesn't seem to kill people here or +some would have been a long time dead, but there are one or two it is a +pity it hasn't killed. It does much worse than kill; it ruins. I hope +next time Father will say the doctor doesn't permit him to touch +anything. I didn't tell him so, of course, and I am afraid he will +manage not to see the doctor before he leaves; but, anyhow, the morning +and night juleps can be thrown out of the window after a sip to get the +smell on if he wants to throw. I wouldn't take a bet that he will +want, but I'm hoping. +</P> + +<P> +I didn't see much of Whythe while Father was here—that is, by himself. +He was awfully nice to Father and he liked him very much (Father liked +Whythe, I mean), but he couldn't understand why he didn't get more of a +move on and make business for himself. I told him in Twickenham Town +people waited for business to come to them, and everybody knew Whythe +was a lawyer, and if they needed his services they would let him know, +and if they didn't there was no use waiting around, which was why he +was out of his office so much of the time. And then Father asked me +when I had heard from Billy and when he was coming home; and, thankful +to change the subject, I told him all I knew and got out the cards and +showed them to him. +</P> + +<P> +We had so many things to talk about—Mother and the girls and the home +people and things, and the people he had met in Twickenham Town—that +he hadn't talked about Billy, and when I showed him the cards he said +Billy must have mighty little to do but write them, as there were +fifty-six and he hadn't been gone but five weeks. He seemed to think +that right many, so I didn't say anything much about his letters, which +are long and once a week, but told him Billy would sail on September +16th, and get back before I did—that is, if I stayed until the 27th. +He said I could if I wanted to, and that he would come down for the +last week and take me back with him, and I was so happy I swirled him +around in my arms and danced a dance I made up as I went along, and +both Billy and Whythe Eppes were out of his mind when he stopped for +breath. And that night he went away. Also that night I almost cried +my eyes out for sorrow at his going and for gladness that he was my +Father. I wonder if all girls love their fathers as I love mine! +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap11"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XI +</H3> + + +<P> +Billy has been pretty good about writing. Much better than I have +been. I told him I would tell him all about Twickenham and the people, +and what they did and how they did, and I intended to do it, but that +is my chief trouble. I'm a grand intender and a poor doer. Billy +never promises and always does. He sends cards from every place, he +goes to, and a good many from the same place so I can see what he is +seeing, which I couldn't do if he wrote a book of descriptions. He +doesn't tell much about the cities and towns, most of which I have been +in myself and am glad he leaves out, but he writes awfully interesting +things about the places he pokes into by himself and the people he +meets, and I almost die laughing over his accounts of his sister and a +beau his mother has caught for her. She is a dandy-looking girl, his +sister is, and wears the smartest clothes I ever saw except Florine's, +and if Patricia has really landed a duke or a count or a thing of that +sort, his mother will have a wedding that will fit the fellow all +right. He's apt to be landed. +</P> + +<P> +I never have understood how Billy was born of his parents. He cares no +more for flum-foolishness than I do, which is why we have so much fun +over the efforts certain mothers we know make to help their daughters +get married, and we've decided to be failures as social successes and +enjoy ourselves. My mother isn't at all like his mother. She is a +precious mother, mine is, and adores Father and her children, but she +is in the parade and has to keep step, not having courage to get out, +and she thinks she must give her daughters every opportunity, and for +daughters in Mother's world opportunity means marriage. Until she gets +us settled she won't feel as if her duty had been done. That's why she +has gone with Florine and Jessica to the same place Florine went to +last summer with the Logans. Florine has had a good many beaux, but +none of them has been just what she had set her mind on, and last +summer she met a man I believe she fell in love with. Anyhow, she has +gone where it will be convenient for him to see her if he wants to, and +he must want, as Mother says in every one of her letters that Mr. +Jeffry has just come or just gone. He came to see Florine last winter, +and a blind person could tell he was worth having. I hope they will +take each other. Mother would be so pleased. Jessica and I are not +apt to do much for ourselves in the marrying line, so it is left to +Florine to make the catch. +</P> + +<P> +She is very beautiful, Florine is. She knows it and she loves +beautiful things and wouldn't think of marrying any one who could not +give them to her. She wouldn't marry a man who isn't decent and +straight and all that, not being that kind, but neither is she +romantic, and nothing on earth could make her lose her head. She is +cool and deliberate and far-seeing, and not apt to ask herself too many +questions about love alone when thinking about marriage. She is a +dream to look at, which Jessica isn't, but I love Jessica best. +</P> + +<P> +Last night in bed I got to thinking about old Jess, and wondering how +she was making out with that bunch up there, and I almost rolled out at +the way her nose must be turning up inside of her at some of the things +she was seeing and hearing and had to take part in; and I laughed so +loud that Miss Susanna came in my room to see if anything were the +matter. I told her no, and that I was just thinking of something, so +she pattered back, and I put my face in the pillow to keep her from +hearing me again. But it was hard not to let it come out. Mother's +daughters are a mixture all right, and no more alike than if they +weren't related to one another. Being a parent must be an anxious job. +I hope I will have a dozen children, but they'll probably be right much +to manage. If I turn out to be a childless old maid, I'll adopt a boy +and girl, anyhow. I can do that if I can't do anything else. +</P> + +<P> +Jessica is the clever one of our family. Florine has the beauty and +Jessica the brains, and so far nothing has shown signs in me, but +something may turn up yet. Jessica is an A.M., and she has Ideas and +Views and Opinions which she isn't stingy with and lets anybody have +who is within hearing, and she wanted to be something, have a Career +and get an Identity, which she says a woman has no chance of doing as +long as she sinks herself in marriage; but Father said she couldn't go +to any more colleges until she had had a fling at fun, for it wasn't +fair to Mother. She came out last winter and had a fearful rush +because she was so different from the other girls. +</P> + +<P> +I don't believe Jessica would ever have wasted a winter doing the +things she did last year if she hadn't wanted to see for herself what +was in it, anyhow, in society I mean, so she took a header and plunged +all right. She says she has a scientific and analytical mind and she +worked it all out—the number of hours and days and weeks and months +she had spent flopping around from one party to another, and doing the +things she was supposed to do, and saying the things she wasn't +supposed to say, and then she estimated the cost in time and strength +and money and wear and tear on her character, and announced that it +wasn't a paying business, and at the end of the year she was going to +get out. The year won't be up until October and that is why she is +with Mother and Florine this summer. +</P> + +<P> +What she is going in for when it is up I don't believe she knows +herself, yet. She says woman to-day is in the most unsettled and +uncertain state that any animal has ever been in since the first one, a +mollusk, or something without a backbone started to get one. And that +it will take time for woman to evolute into being the best kind of a +human being she is capable of becoming, and that the next step in the +evoluting is to get out of her head some of the foolishness put in it +by men people who didn't know what they were talking about. Mother +thinks it fearful in her to talk as she does, and can't understand how +she can be so daring and so indelicate as to speak about coming from +mollusks and things which don't have spinal columns and nervous +systems, but Jessica says that is because Mother belongs to a day that +didn't know about such things, and that the modern woman is shedding +the shucks which have kept her a caterpillar much longer than was +necessary. A good many old ideas she thinks are shucks—that is, she +pretends to; but she is an old dear just the same, if she does say +things about people which it isn't polite to say. +</P> + +<P> +I love old Jess. She isn't but twenty-two, and she will be less sniffy +some of these days and not so scornful and impatient with repeaters and +parasiters and people like that, but just now she says they aren't +worth wasting time on. She can talk you right into seeing her way, and +the first thing you know you are agreeing with her, and she has landed +you before you realized the net was out. Landed outsiders, I mean. +She will never land Mother and Florine. I love to hear her talk, +though I don't think I am going to be a Careering person. I'd like to +be one, but with a dozen children I am afraid there won't be time. I +wouldn't tell old Jess, but I don't think she is going to Career very +long, either. I believe she is in love with the man who taught her +some of the ologies she is so interested in. He is awfully nice, but +not very practical. He is a psychological sociologist or a +sociological psychologist, I don't know which, but it doesn't matter. +If Jess marries him she will run him and the house. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap12"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XII +</H3> + + +<P> +I wonder what made me get on the subject of my sisters when I began +with Billy and the reason I had not written him as often as he has +written me, but that is the way I do everything in life. If I were a +preacher I wouldn't hold my job long, for the thing I started on would +have about as much connection with the thing I ended with as the moon +with milk. Not that that would be unusual, for a good many ministers +have the same failing and skip about just as I do, but my trouble would +be in hopping from one subject to another so fast that the congregation +would be in Jericho one minute and in Jerusalem the next and never know +how it made the jump. As I am never going to be a preacher, I am not +worrying about my unfitness to be one, but what does worry me sometimes +is that my hopping habit will be my ruination when I begin to write a +book. My characters will never keep together, or do the proper things +or say suitable ones. They will probably get so jumbled up no one will +be able to tell which is the chief hero or heroine, and there will be +no logical development at all, which my English teacher insists is an +elemental requirement of fiction if it isn't of life. I thought this +summer I was going to begin some sort of book just for practice, but by +the time I get through putting down the things I scribble about the +day's doings, and write to Father and send my weekly letter to Mother +and the girls, and run off something every now and then to Billy, and +answer the notes I get from Whythe and some of the kiddies around here +who think they're grown, I don't feel like writing on a book, which is +why I haven't begun one yet. I will never be able to write one that +tells of dark deeds and treacherous doings and love-sick lovers, or one +which has suspended interest or rapid action and narrow escapes, for I +know very little of such things, and I will never do much with plots. +The people I know do not have very exciting lives and here in +Twickenham they trot along and do the same thing over and over, and one +day is very much like the other, so there isn't much inspiration for a +thriller, and thrillers are the style in books to-day. That is one +reason I thought I had better wait until the style changes and while +waiting enjoy myself with the people here who know how to do that +better than any people on earth. I'm enjoying myself all right. +</P> + +<P> +Of course, now that I am in love, I could write volumes on how +scrumptious it is and how floppy I feel whenever I see Whythe, +especially when he keeps his deep, dark eyes on me as if he were trying +to read my soul when we happen to meet at the foot of the hill and sit +on the worm fence for a while. I don't think he is trying to really +read my soul, for he isn't much on reading anything, but he certainly +can say beautiful things. They aren't so, but they sound well, and I +must admit I enjoy hearing them. They make me feel so grown-upy, and +then, too, it will be a great help when I begin my book to remember +what a man says on certain occasions and how he says it. They are +natural couriers, the men in this town are, but they don't always mean +to be taken in earnest, and Mr. James Burke came near getting in an +awful mess by paying a girl a lot of compliments he oughtn't to have +paid, he being a married man and she not knowing it. She was a very +serious person and believed all that was told her and came near +breaking her engagement with another man on account of the pretty +speeches Mr. Burke made to her. She was from Rhode Island and visiting +May Strudwick, who told her for mercy's sake not to pay any attention +to speeches of that sort and to hold on to the Rhode-Islander, for Mr. +Burke said the same fluff to all the girls who came to Twickenham, and +as long as it was just eyebrows and things of that kind no harm was +done. But she couldn't understand and went home sooner than she +expected. I understand. It's lots of fun—the different ways of +saying the same thing—and all enlightenment is advantageous. +</P> + +<P> +A few nights ago Whythe got fearfully sentimental and said all sorts of +thrilly, foolish nonsense, and the way he said it certainly added to +its enjoyment. He's a corking courter, and if he could teach the way +he does it he would have crowded classes all right. We were at Bessie +Debree's party, and just before supper we went out on the side porch, +which has bushels of roses on it and no lights, and sat down on a +rustic bench in the corner where we could hear the music and see the +moon and not be seen, and the minute we sat I knew what was coming. +</P> + +<P> +Whythe put his elbow on the back of the seat and, chin in the palm of +his hand, looked at me as if we were on a desert island and there was +no one else in all the world but me, and he would ask for no one else +if I alone was there; and then with his other hand he tried to take out +of my fingers a rose he had just pulled and given me. I remembered in +time that Jess had told me to keep my hands to myself if anybody seemed +interested in them, so I put the rose on the bench and sat on my hands +and asked him if he did not think Marjorie Graham a perfectly beautiful +person; and he said he hadn't noticed her sufficiently to know what she +looked like, as he never saw but one face now. And then he leaned a +little closer and asked me if I knew how wonderful I was and what my +eyes could do to a man's heart if I would only let come in them what +could come, and which he hoped would some day come only for him; and I +asked him what it was, not knowing, as it had never been mentioned +before, and he said it was a thing a man would die for. And then he +took the rose up and put it to his lips and asked me if I would marry +him; asked me if I could never care for him as he cared for me, for he +knew now that he had never really loved before, and if I would promise +to marry him he would be in heaven, his happiness would be so great. +</P> + +<P> +It was perfectly thrilling, much better than anything I have ever seen +on the stage. He tried to get one of the hands I was still sitting on, +but I thought I had better not let him have it, as we were not engaged, +and Jess had said no affectionaries until you are engaged. And then, +too, I remembered he had probably said the same things several times +before, he seemed so familiar with them, and I had a feeling that Billy +was standing by, perfectly disgusted, but ready to fish me out if I +fell in. I came pretty near falling, and then I told Whythe I wouldn't +be through college until I was twenty and I didn't believe in waiting +for anything on earth for four years, and though it was awfully nice in +him to ask me to marry him, my father would have fits if he thought I +was listening to him do it, and that we had better go in. +</P> + +<P> +I wish I had had a kodak and could have snapped the look that came over +his face when I suggested going in. He was perfectly astonished. Also +he was indignant and grieved and the look he bent upon me was truly +burning. As for his voice—Sothern couldn't have surpassed it. After +a while he said he thought I had more sympathy, more understanding of a +love such as his, and if I realized its depth I would not keep him +waiting four years, as four years at college was all nonsense for a +woman; and then he got my hand, anyhow, and I jumped up, for somebody +was coming, and, besides, if we hadn't gone in we'd have been in an +argument right off, with love left out, on the subject of education and +women. I did not want him to think I was not appreciative, however, +and though I went in with Mr. Keane, who had come for his dance, I gave +Whythe a little look that was not unfriendly as I left him. I am +afraid it was not even discouraging, but he seemed so mysterious and +tragic and amazed that I should leave him at such a critical time that +I thought a little look wouldn't hurt. I noticed, as we reached the +door, that he was lighting a cigarette, and I knew his feelings would +soon be soothed. Man has no sorrow that smoking may not cure. +</P> + +<P> +When we went home that night other people were in the automobile (I +always see that that happens, knowing how Mother would feel about it) +and Whythe, of course, had no chance to continue a former conversation, +but his silence said a lot, and when he helped me out of the car he +helped much more than was necessary and held my hands so tight he +nearly broke my little finger; and the look he gave me was a thriller +all right. Every time I've thought of it since my heart has thumped so +I know I must be in love, for all books say that is a reliable symptom. +Being proposed to is awfully interesting, and the reason I like it so +much is that I am not apt to have many proposals of Whythe's sort, as +that kind has gone out of fashion, owing to golf and tennis and country +clubs and so much association. Plain statement is about all a girl +gets nowadays, I am told. Jacqueline Smith told Florine Mr. Smith had +wired her he had to go to South America and asked her if she would +marry him and go with him, and she wired back she would, and that was +all the courting they had, though they seem very happy. And a girl +Jess knows said the man she married had asked her how he stood with +her, that she stood all right with him, and that was the way they knew +they cared for each other. But I'm not that sort. I am very romantic +and I like a lot of words, which is why I am just crazy about Whythe's +letters. +</P> + +<P> +If Whythe doesn't make a success of law or politics he could certainly +make a living writing letters of a certain sort. He's an expert at +them and greatly gifted, and though I don't say much in mine, thinking +it safer to telephone than write, I do tell him that his are perfectly +lovely, at which he doesn't seem displeased. He still begs me to marry +him, and is so fearfully polite about it that I don't like to ask him +what he has to marry on, and so far as I know he has only nerve and his +mother's home. I would not like to spend eternity as a maiden lady, +but I'd much rather so spend it than dwell under the vine and fig-tree +of the person who would be a mother-in-law to Whythe's wife. My heart +goes out to Elizabeth every time I think of the fate that will +eventually be hers. Also it goes out to the House of Eppes. When +opposing elements meet something usually happens. I'm betting on +Elizabeth, but I may be wrong. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap13"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XIII +</H3> + + +<P> +Jehoshaphat the Golden! For two days Twickenham Town has been standing +on its head and wriggling its heels in the air, and nothing has been +talked about since it appeared except its appearance. Every tongue in +town has had its say, and everybody in town has been on somebody else's +porch and talked it over; and as for Miss Susanna, I believe she cried +the whole night through, last night. The first night she was too dazed +to take it in. The Twickenham Town <I>Sentinel</I> had it on its front page +in the middle column in letters indecently large, Miss Bettie Simcoe +says, and it certainly did make a sensation: "Mrs. Roger S. Payne +announces the engagement of her niece Elizabeth Hamilton Carter to Mr. +Algernon Grice Baker, of Perryville, Wisconsin," was what the +Twickenham-Towners waked up and read on Wednesday the 1st of August, +and if the dynamite-plant which has made business so good for Buzzard +Brothers, the undertakers, had exploded, it couldn't have caused more +of a stir. Twickenham wasn't only amazed; it was indignant, and it +couldn't believe it was true. But it was true, for the next day Miss +Susanna got a letter from Elizabeth, telling her all about her +engagement and that she would be home very soon and bring him with her, +and it was the night of the day the letter was received that Miss +Susanna went early to her room and locked her door for a while (that +is, my door, for she is sleeping in my room during the August rush) and +cried all night long. I had to pretend I didn't know, for she didn't +want me to know how hurt and distressed she was that Elizabeth should +have so treated her, and as I didn't sleep any more than she did, +though, owing to very different feelings about Elizabeth, I made up my +mind as to some things I would say to her when she got back. And if +she has never read "King Lear" I will see that she hears it read before +very long with a glossary, and comments of my own on ingratitude and +things of that sort. Also she may hear some other things. +</P> + +<P> +I have been perfectly furious with Elizabeth for the way she has +treated the aunt who has been mother and father and all things else to +her, but I can't help laughing at the way Twickenham Town has taken the +engagement. +</P> + +<P> +As for Whythe—I have wished for Billy a dozen times of late, for only +Billy could see what a scream it is, the shock to Whythe's vanity that +Elizabeth's beau is proving. I can't speak of it to any one else, and +keeping it to myself is a great strain. At first he seemed dazed with +unbelief, and then he became scorny and sniffy and shruggy and smiley, +and though he says little about his successor, whom he hasn't seen yet, +his manner indicates that as a substitute for himself he considers him +an insult. +</P> + +<P> +Last night at the gate he talked to me about it for a while, and then +he asked me when I was going to tell him I would marry him, and why was +it I would not engage myself to him and take him out of his miserable +state of uncertainty and make him the happiest man in the world, and +why— Oh, my granny! he spieled it off so beautifully and his eyes +helped so wonderfully, also the moon, which was half out and half in, +that I stayed a little longer at the gate than I should, perhaps, and +let him say things he shouldn't, but his fluency was so enjoyable I +couldn't get away. After a while, however, when he had run down a +little, I told him I didn't think it would be respectful to what might +have been if I engaged myself to him, and that sixteen was too young to +be engaged, and then, too, it wasn't positively certain that a certain +young person was going to marry another young person just because she +was at present engaged to him. At which he got perfectly furious and +said he would not marry that certain person if she was the only woman +left on earth; that she had treated him as no lady should treat a +gentleman, and that she was vain and mercenary and ambitious, and he +was mortified to think he had ever imagined he had loved so shallow and +weak and changeable a girl, and— +</P> + +<P> +"But you did love her, didn't you?" I got up on the gate-post, swung +my feet down, and put my hands in my lap and out of reach, the post not +being big enough for two. "Everybody says you were frightfully in love +with her and you didn't think she was shallow and weak and mercenary +until you had the break, and maybe you may change your mind back again +about her some day, and then where would I be?" I put my chin in my +hands and my elbows in my lap and looked down at him, and he looked so +hurt and surprised that I saw he had not thought of his own real gift +for changing, and I realized that his attention ought to be drawn to +some things he was apt to forget. Quick as a flash, though, he said I +had opened new worlds to him; that I stimulated and inspired him as no +one had ever done, and that he would never love any one as he loved me, +and that he would wait forever if necessary for me. Also he said he +would never change back again to a certain person, as she had killed +his love, and would I not promise to be just his? And I had to sit +tight on my hands, his manner was so very imploring; and then, before I +could say anything, I heard Mr. Willie Prince, who was sitting on the +front porch, fanning, cough rather loud and come down the steps and +call Ben, who was barking, and I knew Mr. Willie was doing what he +thought was his duty, and I got down from the post and told Whythe good +night. He went away like the young man in the Bible, very sorrowful, +and I went in. +</P> + +<P> +It wasn't late, but everybody had gone in except Miss Susanna and Mr. +Willie, and when I sat down in a rocking-chair Miss Susanna looked at +me as if she didn't know whether to say anything or not, and I saw she +was worried. But before I could ask what was the matter she got up and +kissed me good night and went in, so I asked Mr. Willie. +</P> + +<P> +He wouldn't tell me at first, though I could see he was dying to do it, +but after a while he said Miss Susanna was the sort that found life of +the present day a hard thing to accept, and, fanning himself with his +palm leaf, he looked at me as if I were one of the reasons she found +life hard. "Miss Susanna," he said, "is a lady of the old school where +love and honor were placed above riches and mere material things, and +it was a blow to her to find how readily young people could change +their affections and break their plighted vows and be blind to their +best interests, which was to keep along the same path and not be +tempted out of it by passing people and worldly ambitions." And as he +talked in his fine little cambric-needle voice that sounded as if it +came out of a squeaky cabinet, I knew he was meaning more than he was +saying, and I sat up and listened until he stopped for breath. +</P> + +<P> +"Is that all?" I asked, and got up to go in, "for if it is I don't +think Miss Susanna need worry herself. People in one generation aren't +very different from people in another where self-interest is concerned. +Everybody knows Mrs. Loraine married her husband for his money, though +loving Mr. Spence, and Miss Susanna was one of her bridesmaids; and if +Elizabeth prefers to marry a rich man to a poor one, I don't see +anything new about that." And also I said it wasn't likely that love +and honor were ever going to die out, and a few other things would live +a long time yet, and he need not bother any more than Miss Susanna +concerning present-day young people; and then to my surprise he asked +me to sit down and told me what he enjoyed telling very much. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap14"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XIV +</H3> + + +<P> +"Everybody has been talking about the way Whythe Eppes has been rushing +you," he began, fanning as hard as he could fan, "and several people +have been to see Miss Susanna and told her they thought your parents +ought to know—" +</P> + +<P> +He didn't get any further. I stopped him. It was silly in me to get +hot, but I got hot all right, and in all my life I never wanted anybody +as I wanted Billy right then at my side. He doesn't get mad the way I +do. He would see that talk he did not like was stopped in two minutes, +but I was too fighting angry to stop my own tongue, and I said things +to fat Miss Nancy Willie Prince I oughtn't to have said. Among them +that my parents would not have permitted me to come to this town or any +other if not perfectly certain I knew how to behave myself wherever I +went, and that whatever was advisable for them to know concerning me +they would know without the assistance of Miss Bettie Simcoe or Mrs. +Caperton (she is a frisky little widow who has no use for young girls) +or any other Twickenham-Towner. And then, perhaps because he was so +flustered he didn't know what he was saying, he told me riches were a +great temptation to any young man, and everybody, of course, knew my +father was wealthy, though he must say it had not been learned from the +family. And that Whythe, being poor from a money standpoint, had +naturally been tempted, especially as his engagement had been so +recently broken with a girl he had been in love with since childhood, +and I, being young, didn't understand and was under the impression that +young men meant all they said, and— +</P> + +<P> +He would be talking now if I had not stamped my foot and stopped his +rambling. His insinuations sounded as if I were a feeble-minded +creature and couldn't tell truth from untruth, or know when a man meant +or didn't mean what he said, and had never heard things of the same +sort before. I've heard them before, and in several different places. +I am a good many things I ought not to be, but I am not feeble-minded. +I told him— It does not matter what I told him, but I made him +understand I could take care of myself without the help of the town, +and, while I appreciated his effort to keep me from thinking the men in +Twickenham did not mean what they said, and were not to be relied on, +and not to be trusted, and that honor was not held very high by them +where young girls were concerned, it was difficult to believe it, for I +had been made to understand by others that certain old-fashioned things +were still held sacred there, and the dangers and temptations of the +city were absent. When I saw how red his fat, round face got and how +squirmy his legs and how hard he fanned I knew I had better go in. I +went, but I didn't say good night. +</P> + +<P> +Mad! Was I mad? I was. For a long time I sat by the window and +talked to Billy in my mind and told him what I thought of men old-maids +and prissy places and gossipy spinsters and flirtatious widows, and of +people who didn't have anything to talk of but one another; and then, +as the moon came out clearer, I seemed to see myself clearer also, and +after a while it came over me that maybe I had been a little nicer to +Whythe than was necessary just to see if a man couldn't get comforted +sooner than he thought. I had been doing a little scientific +experimenting along a different way from Jess's way; and then my eyes +got open wide and I saw what Mr. Willie had been trying to tell me, +which was that Whythe was probably taking practical consolation and was +not ignorant of the fact that my Father was not a poor man. +</P> + +<P> +At the thought something got into my backbone and I sat up. I had been +fooling myself and didn't know it. I don't mean I had believed all the +thrilly love things Whythe had been saying. They came natural to him +and he might have said them to some other girl if not to me, but I had +not dreamed he had any thought of an advantageous alliance, as Billy +calls the thing his mother is hoping his sister will make, or that any +one could associate such a thought with me. It didn't seem possible, +and I don't believe Whythe is that sort. Still, men are queer ducks, +Jess says, and one never can tell what is in the back of their brain +from the words of their mouth, and if Whythe was imagining I had any +value outside of my own self I would like to find it out. How I was +going to find out I did not know, and when I said my prayers I started +to pray that a rattling good way would turn up, but I remembered it +wasn't exactly a thing to pray about and that watching might be better. +</P> + +<P> +I had had a grand time being in love. Every day there was some new +evidence of how nice a beau is, and though the other boys didn't let +Whythe have it all his own way, as they called it, and we had a jolly +time together and I danced and rode and picnicked and pleasured with +all of them, still, it was understood that Whythe was my steady and +they gave him right much chance. It had been loads of fun having a +steady, and I knew now how excited Mazie, one of our maids at home, +must have felt the day she became engaged to hers, who was the milkman. +But I had somehow thought that nobody but girls of Mazie's sort had +steadies, and I had wished I could be a maid for a few weeks just to +find out how it would feel to possess some one and be possessed by him. +I guess it amounts to about the same thing, though, love does, no +matter in what way it comes to one or by what name we call it, if it is +the genuine thing. I have certainly never felt about Whythe in the way +Mazie must have felt about her milkman, judging by her face, but I had +been enjoying myself and I didn't intend to stop with too much +suddenness. Mr. Willie had warned me and I would remember, but it is +against the law to condemn a man unheard. The Bible says so. I would +go slowly for once in my life and give Whythe a chance to conduct his +own defense. It wouldn't be necessary to mention that a case was being +tried or that I would be both judge and jury. There are times in life +when it is well to keep some things to oneself. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap15"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XV +</H3> + + +<P> +Yesterday it poured in torrents all day. None of us could get out of +the house, so while Miss Araminta darned my stockings, which hadn't +been touched since I came to Twickenham Town, I read aloud to the whole +bunch in the library and we had a very nice time. Miss Araminta has +tried to teach me to darn since I have been here, but she has not +succeeded in doing it! I will never be a darner. I have asked Mother +not to get me all-over silk stockings, as the Lisle-thread feet last +much longer, but she doesn't seem to remember, and one of my charities +is giving my nice stockings away when they can no longer be worn with +self-respect. Clarissa, Mother's maid, is supposed to keep them in +order, but she doesn't do it, and she has headaches so often I don't +like to say anything to her, with the result that Mother thinks I wear +out an awful lot, and yet I know she wouldn't want me to wear stockings +with holes in them. I found out early in life that it is foolish to +try to do things you are not by nature fitted to do, and I am not +fitted by nature to sit still for hours and fill up a little hole in a +stocking to save a few cents or a dollar or so. I don't do it. I +would rather save in some other way. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Araminta loves to darn. Also she loves pretty clothes in a way +that is truly pitiful, not having the means to get them, and she has +about as much idea how to have her few things made as a Comanche Indian +has of <I>vers-libre</I>. If she would wear those that suited her style she +would look dear, but she wears clothes of many colors made, as she +thinks, in the prevailing fashion, and of course she is a sight for all +beholders. While I was reading <I>Pendennis</I> out loud I was wondering at +the same time what Miss Araminta was going to wear to the reception +Judge and Mrs. Maclean are going to give to their two married daughters +and their husbands on the 17th of August, which is the big thing of the +year for Twickenham Town; but of course I couldn't ask her. I knew she +had nothing suitable or that had not been the subject of nudges and +remarks under the breath, and smiles that could be heard. And I also +knew nothing could keep her away, for she dearly loves to go to parties +and is not often invited, being of an inconvenient age for +entertainments, and I wished something could come to pass that would be +to her interest. +</P> + +<P> +As I read I poked around in my mind trying to think what might be done, +and suddenly something came to me, and after a while I put the book +down and began to talk of the different things that were going on in +town and the many visitors who were already there, and then I asked +Miss Araminta if she didn't think lavender was a lovely color. She +said it was the one she loved best and all her life she had longed for +a lavender satin with everything to match, but she knew now she would +never have it and she rarely let herself wish for things any more. And +she sighed the softest little sigh, like a mother whose baby had died a +long time ago, but who always kept it in her heart, and I said to +myself, "Go up-stairs, Kitty Canary, and think out a way," and +up-stairs I went. +</P> + +<P> +August is The Season in Twickenham Town, and there is hardly a family +in it that doesn't have company or boarders, or whose sons and +daughters don't come home for their holiday, and Miss Bettie Simcoe +says it's perfectly scandalous, the flirting that goes on. Miss Bettie +thinks anything matrimonial is close to scandalous, and she is +continually raising her eyebrows and making a half moon of her mouth at +what she says is the forwardness and freeness of present-day young +people. Miss Susanna always has a crowded house in August. A Doctor +Macafee and his wife and two daughters are here from Florida, and a +Miss LeRoy from New Hampshire, and Judge Lampton and his wife from +Alabama, and how she manages to put them away is known only to herself. +</P> + +<P> +When I heard she was going to give up her room and take a tiny one in +the garret I made up my mind I would have an awful dream that night, a +regular nightmare, that would scare her to death and make her come in +my room to see what was the matter. I had it and she came, and I told +her I was subject to nightmares and ought not to sleep in a room by +myself, though I hadn't mentioned it before, and I wished she would +please sleep in mine with me and take the four-poster, which I thought +gave me bad dreams, as I wasn't accustomed to such high beds. And if +she would I would take the cot, as I liked cots much better. I am +subject to nightmares, or anything else that is advisable to have at +the proper time, and if I had known how many people were coming and +that Miss Susanna was going to give up her room, I would have had one +before, so she wouldn't think they had come on pretty sudden. But she +is not apt to think. She is a darling little old lady, not brought up +to think, and now too busy to do it, and she just works herself to +death with her head up and a smile on her face, and doesn't realize she +is spending all she makes in good things for the people who come here +and nearly kill themselves eating. She never buys herself any +clothes—that is, until Elizabeth has all she needs—and when I went up +to my room yesterday to think out a way of getting that lavender satin +for Miss Araminta, another thought came into my head, which was a black +satin for Miss Susanna. +</P> + +<P> +Feelings are things one has to be awfully careful about in Twickenham +Town, and not for a billion dollars put in my pocket would I hurt +anybody's here, and I couldn't let Miss Araminta or Miss Susanna think +for a moment that their dresses were not all right, and how to get them +new ones I couldn't imagine. I started to pray about it, and then I +remembered I was in an awful hurry and it would be better to get to +work, and, going over to the bureau, I opened its top drawer, and there +looking up at me was my bank-book lying on a pile of handkerchiefs. +Father had put a very respectable sum of money in the Twickenham bank +for me and told me to use it whenever I could do it in the right way, +and he would trust me to find the right way; but though I had tried to +get rid of some of it, there were few opportunities (so it wouldn't be +manifest, I mean), and now one popped right up in my face. +</P> + +<P> +For fear it might pop out again I ran downstairs as quick as I could, +and, seeing Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta were by themselves, I began +to talk about the Pettigrew children and what they had told me they +wanted Santa Claus to bring them Christmas. And that reminded me +suddenly that Christmas would soon be here, and I told them that in +August I always began to think about what to get Mother and Aunt +Celeste, who were my chief Christmas worries, and I wondered if they +thought I could get something in Twickenham that I could take back with +me. I felt, as I talked, that I was on a tight rope forty feet in the +air and mighty little to balance myself with, but I managed to put in +words what I wanted to say, and like little angels they fell in and +never dreamed I had thought the thing out before I spoke. +</P> + +<P> +I told them that Mother and Aunt Celeste had much more than they needed +in life, and it was hard to get anything new and different for them, as +there were so many to give them presents, and that I liked to get +something odd if I could. The things they were crazy about were old +silver and old jewelry, especially old settings, and it was hard to +find them in our town, and I wondered if they could help me get a piece +of silver like one of Miss Susanna's pitchers for Mother, and a set of +sapphires like Miss Araminta's for Aunt Celeste. Also I said I didn't +want to trouble them and I hoped they wouldn't mind my asking them. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Araminta said no indeed, she didn't mind, and that she had got +into the state of mind Miss Virginia Hill was in, and she wasn't going +to keep on keeping a lot of things that were no use just because they +had belonged to long-dead grandmothers. And while she wouldn't go as +far as Miss Virginia, who would sell every ancestor she had for a +million dollars, she would part with some other things for much less, +and if I wanted to buy the sapphire set (pin and ear-rings) she would +be glad to sell them. She would have to tell me, though, they had been +her great-grandmother's, and not her great-great's, as the pearls were, +and that she would take forty-five dollars for them, and if that was +too much she would take forty. +</P> + +<P> +I almost lost my breath at her good sense, not expecting it, but I told +her it would be cheating if I paid less than seventy-five for them (I +had calculated that it would take about that to get the lavender satin +with things to match), and if she would get them for me I would take +them right away, and I was awfully obliged to her, as it would be such +a relief to get Aunt Celeste off my mind. I admitted I didn't always +pay as much as seventy-five for her present (I usually give her a +five-dollar one which Mother pays for), but Father wanted me to bring +her something quaint from Twickenham if I could find it, and he would +be delighted to know of the sapphires. +</P> + +<P> +I fiddled along about other things for a moment or two and then I asked +Miss Susanna if she would think me a very piggy person to want to buy +one of those precious old silver pitchers of hers, as Mother would love +so to have one of that pattern (Mother had never mentioned it, but I +knew she would long for one of that pattern if she could see it), and I +waited with terrible anxiousness in my heart and a hot face for her +answer. Miss Susanna's got a lovely pinky color, and for a moment she +didn't say anything, and then Miss Araminta spoke for her and showed +more sensibleness than I thought was in her. +</P> + +<P> +"Why don't you, Susanna?" she said, and nodded at her. They are first +cousins and very good friends. "Why don't you let the child have one +of those old pitchers? You have too much silver, anyhow, and with +servants of the present day any sort of silver is too great a burden to +be borne, much less ancestral sort. Young people want to buy their own +things, and reverence for the past is a thing of the past; and besides, +you have no one to leave yours to except some one who won't appreciate +it. Why don't you let her have it?" +</P> + +<P> +"I would be glad for her to have it. Glad to help her out with her +Christmas difficulties, but"—Miss Susanna bit her lip and the pink in +her face became rose—"I have never done anything of this sort, and it +does not seem just right. I would be pleased for her mother to have +one of the pitchers. In a sense they are connected with her family as +our great-great-great-grandmothers were the same, and—" +</P> + +<P> +"Oh, you precious person!" I jumped up and took Miss Susanna in my +arms and whirled around the room with her. I was afraid she would get +on the grandparent subject, and I didn't want to hear it. To head her +off I gave her a squeeze and a skip or two and then I sat her down and +kissed her, and asked her if she thought seventy-five dollars was +enough for the pitcher, and if so I would get the checks while Miss +Araminta got the sapphires. And before they had time to change their +minds their things were mine and my money (Father's) was theirs, and we +were all a little more excited than we were willing to admit. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap16"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XVI +</H3> + + +<P> +They are in my trunk, the two Christmas presents, and we have had a +grand time, Miss Araminta and Miss Susanna and I, buying their party +dresses and things, and it is as true as Scripture that at times there +is nothing better for the soul than pretty clothes for the body. And +nothing so chirps up a woman as to have on becoming ones that fit and +are fresh and make her feel she can walk across the floor without +wishing she had a shawl on. The way Miss Araminta has bloomed out is +as amazing as a moon-plant. And Miss Susanna has such a pleased smile +on her boarder-tired face that I have been up in the air just from +looking at her, and the best time I've ever had in my life has been in +taking charge of their money and spending it for them. The way they +agreed to get the dresses was this: +</P> + +<P> +I told them it would be awfully exciting to have a secret and spring a +surprise on Mrs. General Gaines and Miss Bettie Simcoe and a few others +in town, and if they were willing I would design a dress for each of +them and Miss Fannie Cross would make the dresses, which would be of a +kind to suit their particular styles, and they could have them for the +party on the 17th. And if they didn't get them at once something would +happen to make them spend the money and it would be gone and they no +better off than before. And I mentioned that there was the loveliest +piece of black charmeuse at Mr. Peter Smith's, and that he was +expecting a piece of lavender satin on Thursday. I had been to see Mr. +Peter and the lavender was ordered before I told them it was coming. +Also a few other things had been ordered by wire, I going with him to +the telegraph-office to see him do it, being afraid to trust his +memory, which, like his methods, is right put-offy. Also I told them +there would be no time to hesitate. They got so flustrated at being +managed and so dazed by the pictures I showed them of the dresses I had +drawn that they were lambs, perfect lambs. They let me do everything I +told them ought to be done. +</P> + +<P> +It was a real relief to them to have some one go ahead and decide +things and not give them time to think whether they should do this or +do that, or whether they had not better spend the money some other way. +Miss Susanna said, feebly, something about the roof needing to be +fixed, and that the cellar ought to have a new floor, but I told her it +would be sacrilegious to put a great-grandmother's silver pitcher on +the roof or in the cellar, and that it would mortify her heavenly +ancestors to know such a thing was being done, and I was surprised at +her mentioning it. The only suitable way in which it would be proper +to use the pitcher was in something personal, and as I was afraid Mr. +Peter Smith would sell the satin, it was so lovely and only a little +more than enough for a dress, I had told him to put it aside and I had +to let him know that afternoon if it was wanted. And another thing I +told her was that all her life other people had been getting her share +of nice things, and practicalities had eaten up everything pretty she +had wanted for years, and there was an end to making over, and that she +owed it to memories of the past to have a new dress for herself and not +let all the newness always appear on a certain person's back just +because that certain person happened to be young. Uncle Henson would +be at the door with the carriage at four o'clock, I told her, to take +us down-town, and she must be ready in time, as there was a good deal +to do. I wouldn't take a mint of money for the look that came in her +face as I talked. I have put it away for low-down days. +</P> + +<P> +As for Miss Araminta—I wish I could write a book and put Miss Araminta +Armstrong in it. If the lady who wrote <I>Cranford</I> had known her she +would have put her in, and it is a loss to literature that no one can +do again for little places and the Miss Aramintas of life what the +<I>Cranford</I> writer did. She has told me right much about herself, and I +don't smile any more, even to myself, as I couldn't help doing at first +in the dark when I was so afraid I would roll on the floor and whoop +that I had to hold on to my chair with both hands. It is still funny +to hear her tell of her beaux who never quite came to the point, and +who were always snatched away at the critical moment by a +jealous-minded person who was close kin but whose name she never +mentions. But it isn't as funny as it used to be. It's queer how much +tragedy there is in the comic things of life. Ever since she was born +Miss Araminta has been a pieced-and-patched-up person, and never once +has she had everything new and to match at the same time. When I told +her about some of the things that must go with the lavender satin she +began to cry a little and said she oughtn't to let herself think about +indulgences of that sort, as her poor brother was not in business at +present and needed— +</P> + +<P> +"Now look here, Miss Araminta," I said. "The first preparation you +have got to make for the party is to forget you have a brother and +remember your own body, which needs attention. It has come down from a +long line of people who took very good care to put expensive things on +theirs. And another thing you ought to remember is that if your +brother didn't know he could call on you every time he lost his job—" +</P> + +<P> +"My brother has never had a job." Miss Araminta sat up at once and +wiped her eyes and left, unknowing, a streak of white down a pink cheek +that turned purple at the word "job." "He has been unfortunate in not +being able to retain certain positions he has once held, but his +health—" +</P> + +<P> +"Rats!" It came out without thinking, but when a man has a worn-out +wife and seven children and won't do this and won't do that because it +is beneath his lordly ideas of what a well-born person should do, it is +better for me not to speak of him out loud. I told Miss Araminta she +must excuse me, but there were some sorts of men I couldn't mention +with safety and I thought "job" was a very good word, and I would +rather have one that paid a dollar a day than borrow money to pay my +bills, and that I'd sweep the streets before I would sit down and do +nothing if I had a wife and seven children. The look on her face I +tucked away, too, to take out on days when there isn't a thing in sight +to laugh at. She can't help it, Miss Araminta can't. She was born +that way and, not being an evoluting kind, words are wasted when it +comes to trying to make her see what she doesn't want to see. There is +a lot of bummy rot in this world which has nothing to do with the +proper kind of pride, and it's my belief we are mighty apt to fill the +place in life we are fitted to fill. If a dollar a day is all I am +worth it is all I ought to get until I make myself worth more. Of +course if people are feeble-minded that's a different thing. When they +are, the State ought to step in and take charge of them in order to +protect itself, Jess says, and also she says feeble-mindeders always +have the largest families, and even a feeble-minded person knows that +is not right. +</P> + +<P> +I didn't mean to hurt Miss Araminta's feelings, but that brother of +hers is a snuff-the-moon old snob, and I was determined he shouldn't +get a penny of that sapphire money if I could help it, and I told Miss +Araminta a few firm facts. After a while she blew her nose and wiped +her eyes and I had no further trouble. But I was afraid to trust +either her or Miss Susanna with their money, so I took the checks back +and told them it was better for me to keep them, as money had such a +queer way of disappearing. Any that was handy was used when needed, +and when the time came to get the things the money was for there might +not be any to get. They handed it back as meek as little lambs. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap17"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XVII +</H3> + + +<P> +Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta are crazy about the designs I have +sketched for their dresses, and so is Miss Fannie Cross. It is the +only talent I have, designing clothes is, and if I ever have to earn my +living I am going to be "Katrine" and have a shop on a fine street and +charge like old glory for my things. That will make them wanted, and +those who think a gown is desirable according to its price can pay +enough to make up for those who can't pay much, and I'll have a great +time charging the payers. I am going to get ready to earn a living, +anyhow, because every girl ought to, Fathers or Billys notwithstanding. +Life is a very up-and-downy thing, and it is good to know, should it +get down, that you can give it a lift up yourself and not have to wait +for a shover. +</P> + +<P> +It was a private matinée, watching Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta buy +the things that Mr. Peter Smith had ordered and which they couldn't +understand his having in stock. The trimmings and linings and gloves +and stockings were exactly what was needed and they couldn't get over +how fortunate it was. They paid for them themselves, as I had handed +their money to them when we started out, holding back only enough to +pay Miss Fannie Cross; but though they took some time to do the buying, +and felt and smoothed everything they bought and put the satin to their +cheeks to be sure of its quality, and looked at each other every now +and then as if what they were doing was wicked, perhaps, but fearfully +enjoyable, still in two days everything was at Miss Fannie's, and it +was then I had to be awfully firm with Miss Araminta. +</P> + +<P> +There are some things some women can never take in, and one is that an +old sheep should never dress lamb fashion. It was all Miss Fannie +(she's a corking-good dressmaker for a small place) and I could do to +hold Miss Araminta down when it came to colors, and the cut of her +skirt, and some trimmings she wanted to put on the waist. She thinks +she loves lavender, but Joseph's coat would have been a colorless piece +of apparel beside her dress if we finally hadn't sat on her and told +her certain things couldn't be done. She was crazy to pile on a bunch +of ancestral lace, yellow and dowdy; but we told her not much, told her +freshness and daintiness suited her style much better, and she wasn't +old enough to emphasize ancestral lace, and she blushed and gave in. +But nothing would have made her do it if Miss Fannie hadn't thought to +throw out the age-line. She caught on and agreed, and after that we +did not have a great deal of trouble. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Susanna was a little crankier than I thought she was going to be, +and wanted a practical dress that she could wear anywhere at any time, +and we had to argue with her a good deal. I told her a train was the +thing for her, and I intended to walk behind her the night of the party +and keep everybody back far enough to see how grand she looked. When a +woman is sixty-six and pretty worn, short skirts for evenings are not +impressive, and, though we didn't mention age, we said finally she owed +it to her mother's memory to dress in a style suitable to the position +into which she had been born, and that settled it. She's the real +thing, Miss Susanna is. She doesn't have to play a part. +</P> + +<P> +I had told Miss Fannie on the quiet that the price of making the +dresses would be doubled if she would have them ready for the 17th of +August, and they were ready. Miss Araminta and Miss Susanna thought it +was a bad example to set, as it might not be just to the other +Twickenham-Towners to pay more than they could pay, and it stuck Miss +Araminta pretty deep to hand out more than was necessary. But I told +her it was an emergency operation and that kind always came high. And +also I told them that Miss Fannie charged entirely too little for her +work, and it was poor religion to go to church on Sunday and sing +praises to God and underpay a poor little dressmaker. They said they +supposed it was, but I don't think they thought it very reverential in +me to speak of God in connection with a dress-maker and what she got +for sewing. I gave each one a list of their expenditures, with the +cost of everything on it, and each had a little left over after getting +their slippers and some sachet powder and a bottle of violet-water +apiece, and, after all, that brother of Miss Araminta's got a little of +the sapphire money. But it wasn't much. I saw to that. It's been +awfully exciting in Twickenham lately. +</P> + +<P> +The event of the year is the MacLean party and the best of everything +is saved for it, and in itself it makes every tongue in town talk until +you wonder why tongues are the only things that never tire, and then, +lo and behold! two days before it came off back comes Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter, bringing her beau behind her, and off start the same +tongues on a new lap and no breath taken in between. +</P> + +<P> +I wish Billy could see it, the thing Elizabeth brought back! He wears +men's clothes (very good ones) and he is twenty-seven years old, and +has large hands and feet and ears and a feeble mustache, but as a man +he isn't much. He looks like a hatter and is seemingly dumb, and he +blinks his eyes so continually that no one can tell their color. Also +he bites his finger-nails. I advised Elizabeth to get a beau <I>pro +tem.</I>, but I didn't mean anything like that. If she wants jealousy to +bring Whythe back to her she should keep something on hand to be +jealous of. Elizabeth has an iron will and a copper determination, but +about as much judgment as a horse-fly. +</P> + +<P> +Miss Bettie Simcoe's eyebrows haven't come down good since the night +the <I>engagées</I> arrived. She has an explanation for the situation, as +she calls it, there never yet being a situation she couldn't explain, +and she says the engagement is a piece of management on the part of +Elizabeth's aunt on her father's side, the aunt she has been visiting. +This aunt is society crazy, and, knowing you can't keep step in society +without money, she arranged the whole thing. Anyhow, Elizabeth has a +gorgeous ring and a magnificent pin, and of course she ought to be +happy if diamonds and things mean happiness, but she isn't happy, and +for the first time since I met her I can't make her out. Before I know +it I am going to feel sorry for her, and then good-by to in-loveness +for me! I have very little sense at times, and no hold-outness at all +when certain things come to pass. +</P> + +<P> +Elizabeth still loves Whythe. Engaged or not to some one else, she +still cares only for him. I don't want him. I wonder how it might be +managed—getting them to take in how silly they have been. I believe +I'll try and see if something can't be done. Watchful waiting may be +all right in some cases, but I never cared for waiting. Milton says +all things come to him who hustles while he waits. You get a move on, +Kitty Canary, and see what you can do! +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap18"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XVIII +</H3> + + +<P> +The party is over. Everybody who is anybody was at it and we had a +perfectly scrumptious time. I never saw so many good things to eat on +a hot summer night in all my life, but the heat didn't affect +appetites, and Miss Kate Norris, who lives in the Wellington Home +(memorial for a dead wife or a live conscience, I don't remember +which), ate three platefuls of supper and three helpings of ice-cream. +She is fearfully ancestral and an awful eater, and also a sour +remarker, and I stay out of her way, but that night I couldn't help +seeing the way she made food disappear. No low-born person could have +done it quicker. +</P> + +<P> +It was a perfectly beautiful party. The two married daughters of Judge +and Mrs. MacLean, who live in the city and always come home for August, +were as dear and lovely as if they had never left old Twickenham Town, +and their clothes were a liberal education to the stay-at-homers. They +were well taken in by the latter, but the sensation of the evening was +the arrival and appearance of My Girls, and—oh, my granny!—I was so +excited I couldn't stand on both feet at once, and I had to get in a +corner and put my back against the wall to keep from making movement. +When they came in the room there was a little hush, and then there were +so many exclamations of surprise and admiration that I had to fan as +hard as Mr. Willie Prince to keep down the blazing red in my face which +was there from pride in the dear old darlings and not from heat. And I +saw clearer than I had ever seen before that fine things behind one +count a good deal, and ancestors of the right kind leave something to +their descendants that comes out when needed, and at that party the +desirable things came out. +</P> + +<P> +They looked like pictures—Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta—for the +prevailing modes, as Miss Araminta calls them, and which she loves so +dearly and hits at but never touches, had not been paid very particular +attention to, and the thing that suited each had been made for them. +They were as becoming to the dresses as the dresses to them. +Twickenham nearly lost its breath as they came into the long +drawing-room of the MacLean house and walked through it after speaking +to the receiving party, and I know now how a mother feels when her +debutante daughters are a success. I will have more sympathy with +Mother than I used to have, and I will try to behave myself and do the +stunts all right for the first year. But she already knows I do not +expect to keep on doing them. I have told her. +</P> + +<P> +Nobody can say again that women can't keep a secret, for not even Miss +Bettie Simcoe, who knows what the Lord is going to do before He does +it, had any idea of the dresses; and though I don't think she or Mrs. +General Gaines liked not being told, they were very nice about it and +said much kinder things than I thought they were capable of saying. +And I really think Elizabeth was pleased also. She actually smiled +when she saw her aunt come in with Miss Araminta. Smiles of late have +been faint and feeble on the face of the affianced young lady, who +isn't playing her part as a person with ancestors ought to play it. +She bounced her old beau and took unto herself a new one, and what I +can't understand is, having done it, why she doesn't carry it off with +a rip-roaring bluff that might fool even herself for a while. But +Elizabeth isn't that sort. Everybody is talking about how miserable +she looks. I'm afraid I put the beau idea in her head, and the idea +has got her in a hole and she doesn't know how to get out of it. I +wish Billy was here. He can get a person out of any sort of hole. +</P> + +<P> +I went to the party with Whythe. He has been away for a week, and +while away got a new dress suit, which, of course, he wore to the party +and looked perfectly grand in it. I think his mother gave the suit to +him, though he didn't say, but he was off attending to some business +for her, and I'm sure he took it out in the new clothes. It would have +been more sensible to have had his teeth fixed, or gotten three new +ones, the rest being all right, but it was natural to prefer the suit, +and much less painful. Whythe is never going to do anything +disagreeable that he can keep from doing. +</P> + +<P> +He was so nice the night of the party that I hadn't the courage to +begin finding out the truth or untruth of what Mr. Willie Prince had +mentioned as the reason of the rush he had been giving me, and as I +don't believe Whythe has ever thought of Father's money, there was no +need to be in a hurry to learn whether he had or not. I've had a jolly +good time being in love with him, and being made love to, and as an +experience it may come in when I begin to write my book. I always did +want to know how many ways love can be made in, which, of course, I can +never know, for there are as many ways, I guess, as there are men to +make it, and the variations on the main theme are as infinitesimal as +the tongues that tell the story. It is truly wonderful how differently +the same words can be trimmed up and handed out, and I like the +crescendoes and diminuendoes and shades of feeling which give emphasis +and expression, as my music teacher says I must be careful of when +playing. There is never going to be any crescendo or diminuendo +business about Billy's love-making, and I might as well make up my mind +to that in the beginning. It's going to be pure staccato with +him—short and quick and soon over. But it will last forever, Billy's +will. He isn't going to stand for foolishness about it when he starts, +either. He has two more years at college and then he is going in his +father's office. +</P> + +<P> +I don't know what's the matter with Billy. I haven't had a letter from +him for a week, or a single card. He must be crazy. I've been so busy +I have not written for ten days, and if I don't get a letter soon he +won't get one from me for another ten. He can't expect me to do what +he doesn't do, and besides, a man doesn't want what he gets too easy, +even letters. I don't suppose he could be sick. If he was— I am not +going to let myself think sickness or automobile accidents or sliding +off mountain peaks (they are in Switzerland now and Billy would get to +the top of anything he started for or die trying). And though I say to +myself forty times a day he is all right, I wake up at night and wonder +if anything could be the matter. I am wondering all the time. +</P> + +<P> +Maybe that is why I was a little nicer to Whythe at the party than I +need to have been, because I wanted to forget something it was not well +to remember if I was out to enjoy myself. After I had danced with half +a dozen boys and spoken to everybody on the place, we went out on the +lawn, Whythe and I, and sat on a rustic seat under a great maple-tree +to cool off and rest awhile; and though everybody could see us and +several couples were under several other trees (a number of cases being +on hand and apt to culminate in August), Miss Bettie Simcoe had remarks +to make, of course. She made them the next day at breakfast. +</P> + +<P> +I wish I could buy a beau for Miss Bettie and make a present of him to +her, but, being a member of the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty +to Animals, I couldn't very well do it. I never yet have seen a man I +would be that hard on. But it would be the only way she could be made +to see some things, and maybe it might make her feel young again. Jess +says there's nothing so kittenish as a spinster who's caught an +unexpected beau. He is the most rejuvenating thing on earth to a woman +who wants one. All don't want them. There are a great many more +sensible women in this world than people realize, but in certain small +places matrimony is still the chief pursuit in which women can engage +without being thought unwomanly. Miss Bettie doesn't pursue, and men +are good dodgers in this part of the world, but if one of them would +say a few things to her of the sort that Whythe knows how to say so +well, her sniffing and snorting and seeing might grow less. +</P> + +<P> +I don't like her, but I feel sorry for her, for nobody really loves +her, and it must be awful to have nobody to love you best of all on +earth. I couldn't live if nobody loved me. I could not. I might live +without food and live without drink, and do without clothes and do +without air—the right kinds of those things, I mean—but I couldn't +and I wouldn't live without loving. As long as I am on this little +planet I expect to love a lot of people and I hope they will love me in +return. When Miss Bettie makes me so mad I have to go out of the room +to keep from saying things I shouldn't, and Miss Araminta simpers so +when any one mentions Mr. Sparks's name (he's the new widower minister +of the Presbyterian church, with no chance of escape), and Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter makes me ashamed of my sex, and I feel like I have +swallowed concentrated extract of Human Peculiarities, I remember that +not one of them has a father of any sort, much less my sort, or a +precious mother and two dandy sisters and a good many nice relations +and some bully friends—when I remember all that, remember how many I +have to love me, I spit out the peculiarities and try not to mind them, +try to see how funny they are. But sometimes the taste sticks right +long. I don't suppose I spit right. What I can't understand is that +if people want to be loved—and everybody does—why in the name of +goodness don't they do a little loving on their own account? You +needn't expect to get what you don't give. I'm glad I was born with a +taste for liking, though I don't like every one, by a jugful. When I +come across a righteous hypocrite I get out of the way, if it isn't +convenient to make the hypocrite get out of mine. There are some +people I could never congeal with and I am never even going to try. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap19"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XIX +</H3> + + +<P> +I wonder what made me waste time thinking about Miss Bettie Simcoe and +human peculiarities when I started to say something about sitting under +the trees with Whythe at the MacLean party, but, born a rambler, I will +ramble unto death, and there's no use wasting time lamenting natural +deficiencies. Whythe, of course, couldn't very conveniently make +personal remarks, as people were passing pretty close, though he did +say I looked like a dream, which I did not, being too brown for a +dream; but I did look real nice. I fished out one of the party dresses +Mother made Clarissa put in my trunk, which I haven't worn since I have +been here, and I suppose it suited my brownness, as it was creamy and +stuck out in the silly way skirts stick now, and it was new-fashioned +enough to make everybody look at it and nudge a little. Whythe thought +it was lovely, and told me so sixteen times, which was tiresome, and +then I saw he was watching Elizabeth, who was on the porch with her new +beau and did not know really whether my dress was blue or pink. The +only thing he was thinking of was that not far from him was a +superseder in possession of something which was once his. Whythe +doesn't like to be superseded in anything affecting his personal +estimate of himself. +</P> + +<P> +The Lord certainly let loose a lot of contradictions when he started +the human race. When I saw the way Whythe was watching Elizabeth, and +remembered how she had looked at him when he passed her a few minutes +before, I knew two specimens of a common variety were before me, and I +made up a parable as I watched them watch each other. The two +specimens had been in love and been engaged. They had a fuss. The +engagement was broken. She was mad, and he was mad, and each thought +the other would make the first advance to own up and make up; but +before it could be done a young person appeared and distracted +temporarily the attention of the man, and the girl went away to see +what she could do. The man repaired the damage done unto him by saying +pretty things to the new person, which was good for his pride and kept +him in practice, and all was going well when the first maiden returned +with a new possession. +</P> + +<P> +The new possession was a son of great wealth, but the Faithless One was +made to understand, without words, that his Cruelty was driving the +Maid to Marriage with another, and his Vanity was appeased, and in his +heart he rejoiced and said unto himself: "It is even as I thought, and +that piece of punk she has brought back is bitter unto her, and in +comparison to me he is nothingness indeed. And I would arise and punch +his head if it were not for the New Person who may love me very much." +And the young man was sorrowful when he thought on these things and yet +glad also, for the heart of man is receptive to the love of all kinds +of women, and it is pleasing unto him to believe he is pleasing unto +them. +</P> + +<P> +And seeing that which had come to pass, the New Young Person made up +her mind that the Young Man and the Young Maid who had once loved must +love again, and in her heart she said it is a vain thing to believe in +the words of a man. They cometh out as cometh breath, then pass away +and are remembered by him no more. And she took counsel with herself +as to how she might bring to pass that which the simple souls knew not +how to bring, and, lo! as she thought it came unto her. That's a true +parable! +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +What came was the thought of a picnic. Whythe and Elizabeth must +accidentally have a chance to come across each other and have it out, +and the best way they could do it would be outdoors, where it is +convenient to wander off and get away from nudgers and commenters; and +being nothing but impulse, I turned to Whythe, who was still +unconsciously watching Elizabeth, and asked him if he would help me +with something I was anxious to do. He said of course, and wanted to +know what it was. When I told him I would tell him the next day he +asked me to drive with him in the morning, and didn't like it because I +declined. That is, he didn't like my reason, which was that, as he had +been out of his office for some time, his business must need attending +to, and I didn't think it ought to be left any longer. He seemed to +think that a very unnecessary remark, and I realized he liked +Elizabeth's kind better. She would never have dreamed of telling him +his business needed attention. Elizabeth is the Admired and Honored +type of Womanhood which does not think it is ladylike to have knowledge +of business matters. +</P> + +<P> +Seeing the look on his face, I said to myself: "Kitty Canary, it is all +over. A pin has been stuck in your balloon and the air is out." And I +got up and went in and danced with every man dancer in the room, and +hardly knew who they were, the breaks were so often. I had a good +time, but also I had a right sinky feeling, for it's pretty wabbly to +realize that nothing human is to be depended on very long, and that a +girl may be engaged one day to a man and not speaking to him the next. +Not that I had ever been engaged. I hadn't, not caring for what goes +with engagements, but I might have been if I hadn't remembered about +the different things I have fallen in and been fished out of when there +was some one by to haul me out. Nobody being by, I had to take care of +myself, and I thought it best to go only so far and no farther. +</P> + +<P> +On the way home Whythe tried to say some things pretty low about how he +had missed me while away, but Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta were in +the back seat of the car (it was Mr. Lipscomb's Ford, and borrowed, of +course), and he had to be so careful it was a strain, and as I didn't +answer he stopped after a while. It takes two to do more things than +make a bargain, and to battledore love without having it shuttlecocked +back isn't much fun. He wanted to know what was the matter when I got +out, and I told him it was sleep. He didn't seem to like that, either. +It's hard to please men. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap20"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XX +</H3> + + +<P> +I didn't see Whythe for the next few days, as I thought it best not to, +and, besides, I had bushels of letters to write and a very special one +to Father, and I had no time for him. The thing I had to write Father +about was money. I wanted five hundred dollars, and the only way I +knew how to get it was to ask him to give it to me; so I asked. I +always did believe that the person who gives the money ought to be told +what is to be done with it, and that is why I wrote Father as I did; +and, besides, he likes to hear little bits of news about the +Twickenham-Towners, and asking for the money gave me a chance to tell +him. +</P> + +<P> +He had told me, when he was here, that if there was any way in which I +could be of service in the right way to let him know and he would put +up the money part, if I would manage the other part, and it would be a +little secret between us and nobody else need know anything about it. +When, last week, I heard Mrs. Richard Stafford say she would rather go +to a hospital for a month than do anything on earth, I thought my +chance had come. At the hospital, she said, a person had the right to +be waited on and do nothing, and not think about food or servants, and +not feel they were bothering other people by being sick; and while she +wasn't sick exactly, a hospital would seem like heaven if she could be +in one for a little while. She had laughed when she said it, and +didn't dream of its being taken in earnest, but I took it in earnest, +for the tiredness in her face makes me ache every time I see her, and +right up in my mind popped the little secret Father and I and Miss Polk +could have. What I wrote was this: +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +<I> +Father dear, will you please send me five hundred dollars, and if you +can do it by return mail I will be very much obliged. The person I +want part of it for is so tired that she might not be able to ever get +rested unless she has a chance pretty quick to lie down and do nothing +for a month, anyhow, and that is why I am in a hurry. Tiredness is a +very wearing disease and if it runs on too long it runs a person into a +state that is almost impossible to get out of, and the whole family has +to pay up for letting it go on. Home gets hell-y when there's too much +tiredness in it. What I want the money for is this: Mrs. Stafford is +worn out. You know her. She was Miss Mary Shirley, and married a +perfectly useless man when she was eighteen, and she is now the mother +of seven children, and has a mother-in-law living with her, and also +Miss Lou Barbee, who won't go away. And, of course, the man whom she +can't turn out. He isn't bad. Just lazy, with nothing to him, but she +loves him and I will skip over that part. She needs a rest and ought +to have it. It's nothing but scrimp and scrape and strive to keep up +appearances day in and day out, year in and year out, until she is all +to pieces and the children don't realize what is the matter. And, of +course, the Male Person doesn't, for he says that Woman's Place is in +the Home. When he told me that yesterday (his heels were on the +railing of his porch, where he generally keeps them, and his pipe in +his mouth) I thought to myself that if he were mine he would have to +get out of my home or prove he had a better right to share it with me +than he had ever proved to his wife. But I won't get on that, either. +I'll go back to Mrs. Stafford. +</I> +</P> + +<P> +<I> +Half the time she doesn't have a servant, and all the time she has a +mother-in-law, who is pie crust, and Miss Lou Barbee, who's a bagpipe, +and with the doors locked and windows shut so no one can see, she has +worked herself to death. What I want done is to have an invitation +sent her from an old friend to be the guest of the hospital here for a +month, and you will be the friend and she will never know it. Miss +Polk, the superintendent of the hospital, will manage things. I've +talked it over with her, and she understands. Miss Polk is a perfectly +grand person. For Simon-pure sense there isn't her equal on earth. +She and I have decided on what we would do if we had money. We'd have +a Fund for Tired Mothers and Fathers. It would be used to give them a +Rest before Death. +</I> +</P> + +<P> +<I> +I hope you won't mind sending the money. I don't think you will, for +everybody says business is so prosperous it's actually unrighteous, and +it's in the Bible that you ought to put your treasures where you can +find them again, or something like that. If you can't send it I know +there will be a good reason for your not sending it, but I would like +to have it by Monday if possible, so Mrs. Stafford can go to the +Hospital the next day. Later, four other people can have their turn. +It is to be used not for illness, but for Tiredness; for broken-downers +and worn-outers who need being waited on and fed up and allowed to keep +still. Miss Polk and I are going to decide on who needs a rest the +most before I go away, and I send you for it, Father dear, an armful of +squeezes and the biggest bunch of kisses the mail-man can take. +</I> +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +That was all I told him about the Rest money, but I said a little +something about the picnic I thought I ought to give. Everybody in +town has given something, and, having accepted, I have to return, and +the picnic will be the best thing for Whythe and Elizabeth. I didn't +mention the ex-lovers to Father, of course. Even to a father one +doesn't have to tell everything in life. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap21"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXI +</H3> + + +<P> +I haven't seen Whythe alone but once since the night of the MacLean +party, and then I stopped any tendencies that showed signs of being +personal, and talked most of the time about the picnic which we can't +have until late in the month. Every day is engaged up to the +twenty-fourth. Whythe tried to talk of Mr. Algernon Grice Baker, but I +cut that out also. Sarcasm doesn't suit him, and some day he might be +sorry. The Superseder has gone, however, and every day Elizabeth +passes Whythe's office, and every day Whythe happens to be at his +window at the time of passing. They speak, but so far that is all. I +am sorry the picnic has to wait so long. They are two silly children. +Their fingers aren't in their mouths, but their heads are on the side +when they see each other, and the thing's getting on my nerves. Almost +any kind of sin is easier to stand than some sorts of silliness. +</P> + +<P> +I wonder why I stay awake so much at night! It's very unusual, and I +try my best to go to sleep, but I can't sleep. Always I am thinking of +Mr. William Spencer Sloane and the things I would say to him if he were +in hearing distance. Not one line have I had from him for more than +two weeks. Not a card or a little present, which he usually sends from +every place he goes to, or any sign to show he is living. I got so mad +when I realized he hadn't noticed me for fourteen days that I couldn't +keep in things which had to come out, and, seeing Miss Susanna was +sleeping the sleep of worn-outness, I got up the other night and +lighted a candle behind the bed, and on the floor I wrote a letter that +maybe wasn't altogether as accurate as it might have been. I wouldn't +have sent it the next day if it hadn't been for a letter I got from +Jess, but after I read hers I sent mine flying. +</P> + +<P> +I haven't cooled down yet from reading Jess's letter. I am not going +to cool down until I see the cause of it face to face, and if Billy +thinks it makes the least difference to me how he amuses himself or +with whom he spends his time sightseeing he thinks Wrong! I was going +to tear up the letter I had written him in the middle of the night for +the relief of indignations and because in the middle of the night +things seem so much bigger and harder and stranger than in the +daylight; but after I read the letter from Jess I added a postscript to +mine and almost ran down to the post-office to mail it, for fear if I +didn't do it quick I mightn't do it at all. Ever since I sent it off I +have been perfectly horrid, and I can hardly stand myself. I have put +off trying to make Whythe and Elizabeth see how stupid they are, and as +Elizabeth hasn't been very nice to me I haven't felt it to be my duty +to show her what a goose she is. Neither have I told Whythe that +almost any girl who adored him would do for his wife. As I don't adore +I wouldn't do, and I think he is beginning to take it in. A dozen +times of late he has told me he doesn't understand me. He does not. +And never will. +</P> + +<P> +The thing in Jess's letter which made me hot was this: "What is the +matter with you and Billy? Pat says (Pat is Patricia, Billy's sister) +that you've been pretty horrid about writing him, and he's been +blue-black at not getting letters from you; but at present he is having +a good time with a very jolly girl from the West who is at their hotel. +Chirp him something cheerful, Canary Bird. If I were younger or Billy +older you shouldn't have him. I'd have him myself. I'm not going to +stand for bad treatment of him, and if those Southern boys who make +love to every pretty girl they see, and make it better than any boys on +earth, have made you forget an old friend, I'm coming down and take you +back home. Behave yourself, Kitty Canary, and write Billy the sort of +letter we scream over up here." And then she went on with other things. +</P> + +<P> +It is ridiculous in Pat to say I haven't written Billy! I have. Three +long letters and three cards, and certainly he can't expect more than +that, as he hasn't been gone but two months and five days; and, +besides, friends ought to have such confidence in each other that they +don't need letters to prove their friendship. Not a word have I had +from him in more than two weeks, and if Jess thinks I am going to write +him a chirp letter (which he won't have time to read if he is going +around so much with a Western girl and having so much fun) she, too, +thinks Wrong. That Westerner explains why I haven't heard from him for +so long. It is outrageous in Billy to behave as he has been behaving. +All men are alike. Every one of them. It was ignorance in me to +imagine Billy was different. He isn't. The more I thought of how +mistaken I had been in him the madder I got, and I just wrote a +postscript to my letter and flew to the post-office with it. It seemed +providential that my letter was ready to send. I hope he will read it +while on one of his joyous excursions with the Western Woman, who is +doubtless twenty-five, maybe thirty, and just making use of Billy, who +hasn't sense enough to see it. I nearly cried my eyes out last night, +before Miss Susanna came up to bed, because it was necessary to send +him such a letter. Still, Billy has to learn things in life and he +might as well learn them early. What I wrote was this: +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +<I> +Dear Billy,—I have been having such a perfectly grand time lately +that it has been impossible to squeeze out a scrap in which to write +you, and yet I have wanted to do so, for I am sure you will be glad to +know how fearfully happy I am and what is causing the happiness. I am +in love. It is the most wonderful thing I have ever been in, and +thrillingly interesting. I suppose you have been in it many times, but +not my way, or you would have mentioned it, just as I am doing to you, +as we are such old friends, and friends have the right to know of +important happenings. I hope you will like each other when you meet, +for, though you are very unlike, you are both made of male material, +and I have often noticed that men have many peculiarities in common. +One of them is out of sight out of love, and a great readiness to be +admired and entertained. He is a lawyer and couldn't be better born, +though he might be better educated; still, one mustn't expect all +things in one man, and his eyes are so wonderful, and he uses such +poetic prose, that the lack of money and a few other lacks shouldn't +count. He lives in a beautiful old house which has proud traditions +and no bathrooms, and his family is one of the oldest and most +disagreeable in America; still, we would not have to live with them if +we were married. Nothing on earth could make me sleep under the same +roof with his sisters, who are so churchy that the minister himself is +subject under them. And neither would it be safe for me to be too +closely associated with his mother. However, things of that sort are +in the distance, which may be far or may not, and I am not thinking of +immediate marriage, but just how magnificent it is to have somebody in +love with you who knows how to say so in the most delicious way, and +with a voice that, when the moon is out, is truly heavenly. I am +telling you about it because I thought you might be interested and +would like to know of my happiness; but, of course, I don't want you to +tell any one else, as it is still a secret and all so indefinite that +it wouldn't do to speak of it to any one but you. I am scribbling this +in the middle of the night, because I can't sleep for thinking of some +one, and because there is no time in the day in which to write. I hope +you are having a great time. Give my love to the family and write me +of your gladness at knowing of mine. +</I> +</P> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +<I>As ever,<BR> + Kitty.</I><BR> +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +Now what do you suppose made me write such slush as that? And why is a +female person born with such horridness in her that she can say things +that are not so with a smile in public and cry her eyes out when alone? +That's what I have been doing lately, though I can't let tears have +much time, for I am not by nature a crier, and they would disturb Miss +Susanna at night. In my secret heart I just wrote that letter to Billy +because I was indignant with him for not writing to me for more than +two weeks, and I didn't intend to let him think I was sitting on a +tombstone waving a willow branch in one hand and wiping tears away with +the other. And, besides, I have been in love. Summer love. And it +has been exciting. No one could expect me to go through life and not +have but one experience in love making and hearing, and because a girl +enjoys the different manners of expression it doesn't mean she is not +particular about the story not being illustrated. I don't illustrate +or allow illustrations, which, of course, lessens some of the thrill, +but I promised Jess I would always draw the line at the right time, and +I have. I have not been engaged for half a minute, and I wouldn't have +added the postscript if it hadn't been for her letter and what she told +me about that girl from some Western town who is no more his sort than +I am her brother's. Billy is perfectly blind about some things, and +has no discrimination where it is most needed. Anyhow, I added the +postscript: +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +<I>P.S.—By the time you get this I may be engaged. Thank you for what +you would say if here.</I> +</P> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +<I>K. C.</I> +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap22"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXII +</H3> + + +<P> +It was after I sent the letter that I got so restless I couldn't sit +still, and as there was nothing I enjoyed doing I spent a good deal of +my tune at the hospital with Miss Polk, who is a very splendid person, +and every day I went in to see Mrs. Stafford. She is having the +grandest rest, with rubs and good eats and nothing to do but be waited +on and cared for, that a tired person ever had, and I am the only one +who is allowed to see her, which is beyond the understanding of +Twickenham Town. I'm cheerful is the reason I'm allowed to see her, +the town is told, and that's enough for it to know. +</P> + +<P> +It certainly is queer how some things happen in the nick of time. +Father sent me the money, but told me to try to be as practical as +possible, knowing I am given to doing impractical things; and I took it +to Miss Polk, and nobody but she and I know where it came from. And +then she invited Mrs. Stafford to be a guest of the hospital for a +month. I happened to be at the house when the note came. I thought it +best to be there accidentally, in case there should be argument and +talk, and the Man of the House should still think Woman's Place was in +the Home, and sure enough there was. Mrs. Stafford read the note, and +her face got as white as death, and after a minute she said it would be +heaven to go, but of course she couldn't. And the noble creature who +is her husband said it was very presumptuous in whoever had invited her +to be the guest of the hospital, and that he wasn't in the habit of +having his wife visit such places on the invitation of unknown +interferers, and of course she couldn't go. And just as he said that +Mrs. Stafford keeled over in a dead faint right at his feet, as if +something had given out at the thought of rest. I knew that was my +chance, and I took it. +</P> + +<P> +"Stop that automobile!" I waved to a man who was coming down the +street, and as he stopped I knelt and did the things Billy had made me +learn how to do the first year we went to camp. And seeing the poor, +tired soul had just fainted, and would come to in a minute, I spoke +quick to the man looking down at her, scared to death, as were the +children, who began to cry, and told him he wouldn't have a wife much +longer to be interfered with if he didn't come down from that horse he +thought he was riding and have some common sense. +</P> + +<P> +"Don't you see she is worn out," I said, "and got nothing to go on +with? Everything has given out, and the next time she drops over in +this way she may never get up again." I was putting some water on her +face as I spoke, and, seeing her eyes begin to open a little, I called +to Mr. Everett, who had gotten out of his car and was on the porch, to +help Mr. Stafford put his wife in and take her to the hospital, and the +frightened husband for once did as he was told. I hopped in with her +and held her up and told Mr. Everett to drive like old Scratch, and he +drove. It was all over so quickly nobody knew what had happened. +</P> + +<P> +It was like somebody being kidnapped and dragged off by highwaymen, +taking her away so hurriedly, but if it hadn't been done that way there +would have been endless talk and a thousand reasons why she couldn't +go; and if she hadn't she would have soon gone for good. Sometimes +somebody has to be high-handed, and even if that billy-goat of a +husband pretends to resent what I did his wife isn't resenting it, and +she is the one that counts. I always agree with her that it was such a +strange thing I happened to be there the day the note came. And also +she thinks it strange I decided so quickly to take her to the hospital, +when she had just said she couldn't go. I tell her I do a good many +things on the spur of the moment, and getting the men to pick her up +and hurry away with her was just another case of spur, and she shuts +her eyes when I say that and looks as if she is praying. The lucky +part was her fainting at the right time. Anyhow, she is at the +hospital, and that old rooster of hers is finding out a good many +things it took her absence from home for him to learn. I never expect +to get married. NEVER! +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap23"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXIII +</H3> + + +<P> +I have just found out why Elizabeth and Whythe had their break. Miss +Bettie Simcoe told me. It took Miss Bettie some time to get at the +bottom of it, but Elizabeth told her last night, and this morning I was +given the information at the first moment Miss Bettie could get me to +herself. +</P> + +<P> +Elizabeth was dead right in the stand she took, but her little spurt of +independence didn't last long, and she is now ready to give in when the +chance comes to give. Miss Bettie added that on her own account. +Whythe couldn't afford to be married, but that wasn't to interfere with +his marriage. He had expected to take Elizabeth to his mother's home +and plant her in it, but when he told her Elizabeth balked. She +preferred to stay with her aunt Susanna after her marriage to going to +Whythe's home, and when she so informed him he said things he +shouldn't, and then both sent off skyrockets and the whole thing went +up in the air. And then I came. +</P> + +<P> +She has now changed her mind and is willing to follow her husband +wherever he leads. She is truly womanly, also she is still wearing the +ring of the beau with whom she sought to bring Whythe to terms, and to +please her worldly aunt. But she will return the ring when it is +proper to do so. She is waiting to find out. +</P> + +<P> +Elizabeth had more sense than I gave her credit for in refusing to live +in the House of Eppes; but it's either live there or not live with +Whythe, and she evidently can't live without him. I'd hate love to +make me lose the little gumption I was born with, and even my little +knows no house is big enough for a son's wife and a mother-in-law and +three in-law sisters. It won't be a Home, Sweet Home, place when +Elizabeth enters the Eppes house, and it will be nip and tuck as to who +wins out, but that's not my business. I'm sorry for both sides, and +thankful I'm not related to either. Also, I will get out of the way as +soon as possible, but until the picnic there doesn't seem a possible +way. +</P> + +<P> +There is nothing in life that is not over if life is long enough, and +my little love affair with Mr. Whythe Rives Eppes belongs to the past. +Elizabeth can have him any minute she wants, and unless actions do not +speak louder than words she wants him right away, and he her. I do not +see how she is possibly going to stand his teeth. Still, there are a +great many things I do not understand in life. +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +The picnic is over. By giving it I brought down a good deal of comment +and criticism on my brown and curly head, but it does not matter. +Nothing except sin really matters if we have sense enough to see it. I +invited everybody in Twickenham Town that I liked to the picnic, and +some few I didn't, the latter being relations of those I did. I don't +think a person ought to be punished for their relations, any more than +being held responsible for them, and so I included them, too. What I +was criticized for was asking to the picnic quite a number of people +who don't usually go to the same places at the same time the +Historicals go, and it made talk. That night Miss Araminta Armstrong, +on the quiet, told me she knew I meant to do right, but one had to use +judgment in life, and it wasn't well to put ideas in some people's +heads. I told her I knew it, knew certain kinds of heads couldn't take +in certain ideas, one of which was that people could enjoy friendliness +and outdoorness and a lunch they didn't have to prepare for themselves, +even if they were not high-born, and as the ones referred to did not +have contagious diseases their presence wouldn't prove dangerous and +the Ancestrals needn't be uneasy. Also I told her I didn't care for +judgment as much as I ought, and if human beings knew one another +better they might find they were not as unlike as they thought. She +didn't say anything more. Neither did any one else say anything to me. +To one another they said a good deal. +</P> + +<P> +It was at the picnic I had a little talk with Whythe. We went down to +a stream under a big willow-tree, and he started on the usual, but I +told him he must not say anything more to me on that subject, and if he +were the man I thought him he would not allow Elizabeth to marry the +Compensator she was no more in love with than I was. Also, I said a +few more things that were pleasant for him to hear, such as Elizabeth's +heart was breaking (it was, as much as her kind of heart could break), +and I told him it was foolishness to ruin one's life because of a +misunderstanding, and that both had doubtless been in the wrong. And +incidentally I let drop that if, after years of preparation, I ever got +married I would have nothing to bring my husband but myself, as my +father had made up his mind that young people should make their own way +in life (he ought to have so made it up if he hasn't), and Whythe said +that cut no figure with him, and asked me point-blank if I did not love +him. It didn't sound polite to say no, and yet I couldn't truthfully +say yes, so I just sighed and shook my head. When he asked me if I +could give him no hope, I answered <I>no</I> with such uncomplimentary +quickness that I had to cough to overcome it, and then I told him it +was impossible for a girl of Elizabeth's taste and training and +character, who had once loved such a man as he, to really care for any +one else. And the blackness in his face, caused by my unnecessary +emphasis, died out, and I saw he was agreeing with me concerning +Elizabeth, and that I would not have to insist on what I said being so. +A man's appetite for flattery is never poor, and usually it is hearty. +When we got up to go back to where lunch was being served Whythe had +quite a determined air about him. I told him if I could help in any +way to let me know. An hour later I saw him and Elizabeth going down +to the same stream and the same old willow tree. +</P> + +<P> +When the time came to go home I pretended I had to see Florence Kensey +about something that was important, and in the confusion of getting the +people in the cars I managed to have Whythe put Elizabeth in his, and +told them to get away quick and I would come on with Mason Page. They +got. And the next day Elizabeth looked like some one who had been +unbandaged and was letting out breath that for a long time had been +held in. Also, she looked pinker and whiter than ever, and so Pure +that it was not possible for me to stay close to her, so I got away. +No longer Hurt and Misunderstood, she went about smiling in sweet +triumphantness that was not put in words, but oozed without them, and +her manner to me was one of deepest sympathy. Poor Whythe! +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap24"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXIV +</H3> + + +<P> +There are some things not required of human nature to stand. Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter is one of them. I was glad to give her back her beau. +I felt truly Virginian in doing it, for Virginians always say, when +giving you something, that they don't want it; I certainly didn't want +Whythe. I wouldn't have known what to do with him after the summer was +over, and I was conscious of great relief in getting him off my hands +without further loss or trouble. I couldn't tell Elizabeth this, of +course, though there were times when it took a good deal of something I +did not know I had to keep from doing so. Also, it took more strength +to keep several other things to myself than I knew I possessed. It +took praying and the end of the sheet to do it, but I did it, and I'm +getting encouraged about K. C. +</P> + +<P> +What encourages me is this: Two nights after the picnic Elizabeth came +to my room and asked if she might have a little talk with me, as she +felt she ought to. I told her she could, and she sat down and began. +Miss Susanna was back in her own quarters, the people from Florida +having gone, and I had just finished saying my prayers and was ready to +hop into bed when Elizabeth knocked at my door. I knew what was coming +from the look on her face and her manner of walking, and the way she +held her head. +</P> + +<P> +If ever I write that book I am always thinking about I am going to put +Elizabeth in it as well as Miss Araminta Armstrong, and if I could get +some men to match them I would have some corking characters to begin +with. But no kind of pen-and-ink picture of Elizabeth would do her +justice. Her sweetness of speech when she is particularly nasty is +beyond the power of human portrayal. I got in bed quick when she said +she wanted to talk, because I was afraid I might have to hit something, +and the pillow was the only thing I could manage without sound. I put +it where I could give it a dig when politeness required control, and +told her to go ahead. +</P> + +<P> +In her last sleep Elizabeth will pose. She took her seat near the +window where the moonlight could shine on her (she looked very pretty +in her pink-silk kimono, a hand-over from her rich aunt, and shabby but +becoming in color), and for a moment she didn't say anything, just +fooled with the pink ribbon on her hair. And then she said she had a +secret to tell me; said it so soft, with her head on the side, that I +had to ask her to speak louder please, and I got nearer the edge of the +bed. Elbow on it and chin in the palm of one hand, I prayed hard to be +polite in my own room, and reached out for an end of the sheet with the +other. Again I told her to go ahead. After a minute she went. +</P> + +<P> +"You and Whythe have been such friends that I think you should be the +first to know that—" +</P> + +<P> +"Have you and Whythe made up?" I stuck my bare foot over the edge of +the bed and wriggled it. "If you have you had better be married quick +and not take any more chances. I'm awfully glad if things are settled. +Have you bounced the other fellow yet?" +</P> + +<P> +It was cruel in me to take out of her mouth what she was moistening her +lips to say, but I was sleepy and I didn't want details. She had no +idea of being cut out of saying what it was her determination to say, +however, considering I had been responsible for some unhappy days +during the past two months, and before she got through she had said all +she wanted me to hear. If it hadn't been for the pillow I would have +rolled out of bed. The nerve of her! The belief of her! And, oh, my +granny! the punishment, as she imagined, of me! +</P> + +<P> +Before she left the room she told me she could no longer hold out +against Whythe's pleadings. Told me he had suffered so during the +summer she was uneasy about him, and, though he had tried to forget, it +had been useless, and, unable to endure it any longer, he had come to +her and told her he could stand no more, and if she did not promise to +marry him at once he would—he would— Her voice trailed, but I said +nothing, the end of the sheet being stuffed into my mouth for +politeness' sake, and when her tears had been wiped away she began +again. +</P> + +<P> +"It is hard to forgive Whythe, because you are so young, and he knows +how fascinating he is and how little experience you have had with young +men, but his father was a flirt before him" (poor Father! I thought of +the retribution that had come to him in Mother, and I pushed in more +sheet), "and it is natural in a man to seek amusement and entertainment +when he is suffering as Whythe was. I hope you will forgive him. It +is because he may have made you imagine things that were not so, and +because you have been so nice to him, that I thought you should be the +first to know." +</P> + +<P> +I rolled back to the side of the bed facing her, from which I had +rolled the other way for safety, and took the end of the sheet out of +my mouth. "Have you told IT?" I asked. "It doesn't make any +difference about my knowing as I knew before you did, but something is +due that which you brought back with you. Have you told IT, Elizabeth?" +</P> + +<P> +"Told who? I don't understand." She sat up. "I don't know who you +are talking about." +</P> + +<P> +"Don't you?" I too sat up and swung my bare feet over the side of the +bed. "I am talking about the person to whom I read in the Twickenham +Town Sentinel that you were engaged. He dresses like a man, and he may +be one, but even if he isn't he deserves to be treated decently by the +lady who had promised to marry him. I suppose he knows." I nodded to +her hand, on which was the ring he had given her and which she had been +twirling as she talked. "That is, if you have had time to tell him." +</P> + +<P> +"That is entirely my affair!" When not hurt or injured Elizabeth is +superior, and she added scorn to the tone of her voice, but stopped +fooling with the ring, which I know she hated to send back. "I see you +do not appreciate the confidence I am putting in you or the compliment +I am paying you by telling you first, and if that is the case I will +go." She made movement as if to get up, but she had no idea of going, +so I didn't notice it, but kept on swinging my feet, and then I asked +her if she had told Miss Susanna, and if she hadn't she ought to at +once, Miss Susanna being closely related and I nothing but a summer +boarder. And I said I hoped she would be married right away, as I +would love to be at the wedding, and if she would ask me to be one of +the bridesmaids I would be one with pleasure. But she wouldn't answer +me. Seeing she still had something to say, and wouldn't leave until +she said it, I put my feet back in bed and lay flat with my hands under +my head and my eyes shut, and when at last I was fixed and quiet she +began for a third time. +</P> + +<P> +I don't remember a thing after that except a sort of monotone voice and +something about people talking about me because I had accepted Whythe's +attentions when everybody knew—I didn't hear what everybody knew, and +not until I did hear a sound at the door did I wake up good, and then I +jumped as if shot and asked her, half-asleep, if she were going to live +with Mother and Sister and Sister Edwina and Miss Lily Lou when she was +married, but she answered not. And since her midnight confession she +hath not opened her mouth unto me and her little lips get together when +she sees me coming, and from her friends I have learned that she is +deeply distressed at my treatment of her. And to her friends I have +said Rats! and so endeth the efforts at friendship which she imagined +she had made. I am never going to pretend to be friends with a person +who is not truthful, and whom I understand as I understand Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter. I don't like her, and though it is not necessary to +say so unless occasion requires, neither is it necessary to appear to +be what I am not. I like Whythe, and when I saw him a few days after +Elizabeth gave herself the satisfaction of communicating to me the +return of his tempted affections, I shook hands with him good and hard +and wished him all the happiness I knew there was little chance of his +getting. If I were a man and had to live in the house with a female +who shut her mouth tight every time she got mad and was continually +hurt and always sensitive, there would likely be in that house battle, +murder, or sudden death. Any kind of outspokenness is better to be +endured than silent offense. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap25"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXV +</H3> + + +<P> +This is the last day of August, and it is a day +Twickenham Town is going to remember for +a long time. I have done again that which I +should not have done, and I guess I had better go +home. I had expected to stay until the twenty-seventh +of September and return with Father, who +was to spend a week here with me, but he can't come. +</P> + +<P> +I suppose it was the awful disappointment of +knowing Father couldn't come, and being so miserable +myself (not one line yet from that person named +William Spencer Sloane, who is probably married +to an elderly woman by this time), and because +of my sureness that no human being could be +depended on in time of temptation, especially +vigorous, aggressive temptations that come out +of the West, that I gave help where help seemed +to be needed, and now again I am in everybody's +mouth. Also my ankles are still a little sore from +the weight of the window being on them as I hung +out, but they are nearly well, and even if they +were not it would not matter. Two young hearts +are happy and a proud person is not, and the +blame is on me. That also doesn't matter. I am +soon going away. +</P> + +<P> +The thing I did, which maybe I shouldn't have +done, was to help little Amy Frances Winston +get married. She is the property of her +grandmother, who is a very important part of +Twickenham Town. Having no parents or sisters or +brothers, and only enough money of her own for +her keep, and no spunk or spirit, she has gone on +for years loving an awfully nice chap named +Taylor French, with little chance of ever marrying +him, and then in hops this Miss Frisk, who asks +her why she doesn't quit fumbling and stop fearing, +and the thing is done. +</P> + +<P> +There is nothing the matter with Taylor French +except he is not Ancestral. Mrs. Brandon, Amy's +grandmother, is diseased on the subject of +ancestry, and the first thing she asks about a man +is who is he. Knowing she would want to know +who I was, I mentioned to her one day that I +had never had any grandparents on either side +(living ones I meant), and that we were not +historic, and no member of our family had ever +been distinguished (for righteousness, though I +didn't use the word), and that we had made our +own way in life, which was true, for Father didn't +have a thing but what he was making when he +married Mother. I also told her I did not mind +in the least, and if I did I would try to remember +that Christ was a carpenter and St. Paul a +sail-maker, though I'd never care to be intimate +with St. Paul. And I told her I thought it was +yourself that counted most, after all, and not dead +people, though it must be nice to know somebody +in your family had been something if you were not. +All she said was, "Are you a suffragist?" When +I said I was and I hoped I didn't look as if I +were not, for I wouldn't like anybody to be +mistaken about it, she gave me a long look and left +the room. +</P> + +<P> +She did not exactly draw her skirts aside with +her hand as she passed me, but she did it inwardly; +that is, I imagined she did from the expression +of her face, and the next day she must have +fumigated the house, for when I went by an awful +smell of sulphur was coming from it. She is a +low bender and bower in church at the mention +of a name belonging to one she believes a Prince +in disguise, who in another life will receive her +into His kingdom, and whom she professes to +follow in the expectation of being rewarded for so +doing, but her head is held high when she doesn't +care to see the lowly ones He came to give light +and life to. I don't mean she doesn't give old +clothes and food and sometimes a little wood to +old Mrs. Snicker, who can't move, from +rheumatism, but she would no more speak other than +stiffly to some of the people I know here than she +would go in for suffrage. She doesn't realize she +is a living woman. She thinks she is an Ancestor. +For years she has forbidden Taylor French to +come to her house, and Amy has to see him elsewhere. +</P> + +<P> +She has seen a good deal of him lately, Amy +has. Taylor doesn't live in Twickenham Town +now. He is living in North Carolina and has a +good position, and is able to get married (I know +because I asked him), and any minute day or +night in the past eighteen months in which Amy +would have agreed he would have married her +and taken her away, but Amy wouldn't agree. +Things have been dragging along this way so +long that the nerves of both are frazzled out, and +there's nothing to hope for but death, and, of +course, it isn't respectful to think too hopefully +of death and a grandmother. And then I popped +in and gave things a little push and the curtain dropped. +</P> + +<P> +The way it dropped was this. I mean the way +they got married. Taylor was in town the last +two weeks in August, and, as everybody invited +him to their parties, he and Amy managed to see +a good deal of each other (also the seeing wasn't +altogether at places where other people were +around). But she wasn't allowed to meet him +on the square or to receive letters from him +straight. And sometimes, if he wanted to say +something in a hurry, or send her candy or a new +book, or any of the usuals, he had to give a signal +by throwing pebbles on her window at night, +and then she would throw out a string and he +would tie the thing to it and she would haul +up, and the Personage, who was usually asleep, +would be none the wiser. The Personage is deaf, +which is a great help. +</P> + +<P> +Well, one night three of the town girls and +myself, with a boy apiece, had been to see Amy, +and when we went up-stairs (just the girls) to +see a new hat a city cousin had sent her, we heard +a little tap at the west window. It had been +raining, which accounted for our being indoors +with the windows lowered, and when we heard +the tapping we were so excited we could hardly +breathe. It was fearfully thrilly, just like things +one reads about in books, and I told the girls +to put out the light quick, and when it was out +I went to the window and saw Taylor standing +in the shadow of a big tree. He signaled me to +drop the line, but when I threw the piece of +twine Amy gave me I threw it wrong and it got +caught in a broken piece of shingle on the edge +of the porch and hung there. I couldn't get it +back and Taylor couldn't get it down, and, +seeing it was necessary for something to be done, I +pushed aside the curtains (they were made of +striped calico, blue and white) and told the girls +I was going to lean out of the window on the roof +of the porch to get the string loose, and they +must hold on to my feet, for the roof sloped and +I might slip if they didn't. They tried to stop +me, and Amy wrung her hands, being very +nervous from living on a strain and loving in +secret, but I was out head foremost in a jiffy, +and all four made a grab for my feet and legs. +Being flat on my stomach, and having long arms, +I got the string off from the piece of shingle, and +just as I did it and threw it to Taylor I heard +a noise and a little cry from the girls, something +about, "Oh, my goodness! here she comes!" and +I knew what had happened. +</P> + +<P> +"Pull the window down on my feet and let +go," I called, as loud as I dared, "and draw the +curtains so she won't see my shoes. If she asks +where I am, tell her I am outdoors. Quick! +Let it down!" +</P> + +<P> +They got it down and drew the curtains just +as her Royal Highness walked in, and as she went +toward the window Katherine Hardy says that +never before had she prayed as she prayed that +minute, and then she thought of mice, which was +a quick answer. She gave a little scream and +jumped with her hands over her eyes and bumped +into the lady, who, being a woman first, was also +afraid of mice, and she moved, too. Seeing the +girls flying around, she told them to stop, told +them Maud Hendren's mother had telephoned +that she must come home at once and, not +missing me, owing to the girls moving about so +she wouldn't notice, she went out of the room, +skirts still held up, and the minute she was out +they rushed for the window and pulled me in. +</P> + +<P> +My dress was a sight when I got in, and I +didn't have much skin on my elbows, and my +hands were stuck up with splinters, as I had to +hold on to anything I could clutch, being afraid +the window would not hold my feet and the +shingles being rotten. But otherwise no damage +was done, and I got the note Taylor had tied +to the string, which I had pulled up by the time +the Ogress had departed. I gave it to Amy and +told her to read it quick. +</P> + +<P> +She read it, and after doing it turned so white +and looked so queer we were frightened. For a +minute she couldn't speak, then she handed me +the note, and when I asked if I must read it +aloud she nodded her head and sat down, as if +to stand up was impossible. I glanced over it +first so as to leave out the little love decorations +and just read the practical part, and what +Taylor told her was that he had just gotten a +telegram from his house (it's iron-works I think) +saying he must leave on important business for +South America on the 6th of September. The +house had been talking of sending him for some +time, and had been waiting for certain developments +which had suddenly developed, and he +would have to go. Would she go with him, and +if she would not he never expected to come back +again, but would stay over there and take charge +of the South-American branch of the house he was +going to establish. She would have to decide +at once, as he couldn't stay a minute later +than the 30th. They could be married anywhere +she said, only it must be quickly done. He had +gotten the telegram an hour before, and in the +morning she must get Kitty Canary to fix things +so he could see her and talk more fully. Kitty +could be depended on and would manage +somehow. The rest being private and personal, I +skipped it and gave the note back to Amy, who +was as white as the dress she had on, and her +hands as limp as wet kid gloves. +</P> + +<P> +Excited! To my dying day I will never +forget the thrill of it. Being in love myself, as I +had once thought, wasn't a circumstance to it, +and the other girls were as bad as I. To help +a heart-yearning, backboneless young girl +escape from the captivity of a cast-iron +grandparent was something no red-blooded person +could refuse, and every one of us agreed that the +only thing for Amy to do was to walk into the +den of lions and tell the head lioness the truth; +ask her permission to many the man she loved, +and, if she would not give it, to take it, anyhow, +and tell her farewell and leave at once for South +America. That, at least, was what I thought +ought to be done, and after a while the others +thought so, too. At first there was a lot of +argument, but I told them I would never agree to +Amy's running away to be married without her +first telling her grandmother she was going to do +it. That is, if she would not let her be married +at home. If the G. M. would not let, then Amy +could take the first train out, but she mustn't +take it until she had shown her grandmother the +respect she did not deserve. I never could bear +runaway marriages. There's always something +so common about them, and I wasn't going to be +party to one if I could help it. +</P> + +<P> +All the time we were talking we left Amy out +of it, and never once asked her what she +preferred in the matter. The reason we didn't was +the poor little thing was so frightened and +distressed that she could not open her lips. We +would not let her come down-stairs with us, and +when we said good night I whispered that I would +see Taylor on my way to Rose Hill, and at ten +o'clock the next morning we would meet her at +the back of Miss Susanna's vegetable garden +under the big locust-tree, and that she mustn't +worry, we'd fix it, he and I. Also I told her she +might bring up some toilet things and little +traveling necessities and leave them with me; +and though she clung to me like a frightened +child and didn't speak, she was down by the +barn the next morning at ten, and so was Taylor. +I let them get there a little ahead of me. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap26"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXVI +</H3> + + +<P> +They are married and gone, and for two days Twickenham Town has talked +of nothing else. It made a regular soup of the marriage. The bride +and groom were the stock, the grandparent and maiden aunts were the +thickening, and I was the seasoning; but all that does not matter now. +The ancestralized person has learned that the twentieth century sees +some things clearer than the eighteenth did, but she will never admit +that she has learned it. Taylor and Amy were not unmindful of what was +due her, however. Taylor wrote her a very nice letter, asking her +permission to marry her granddaughter and take her to South America, +and her answer was low-down. He wrote as a gentleman should, and she +answered as a lady shouldn't, for her answer was insulting, and a real +lady never humiliates any one. After reading it Taylor told Amy to +meet him at seven o'clock on Wednesday morning, and they would be +married in the church with no one present but his brother (the only +relative Taylor has in town is a bachelor brother), and the sexton, the +minister, and me. She met and the marriage took place. +</P> + +<P> +We didn't tell a soul about the marriage. The night before Amy spent +with me at Rose Hill, and, thinking it best Taylor should not be there, +I told him not to come, and sent the other boys home early. In my room +I packed my suitcase and put in it two dresses I had never worn, which +I was glad to do, as it would mean that much less to pack when I went +home, and also I put in some other things; and though Amy cried a good +deal and didn't think she ought to take them, she was very particular +about how they went in. She is very neat and careful, and I'm +fearfully quick, so it was well she watched me. I told her she was +doing me a favor to dispossess me of what I didn't want and what was in +my way, and as we were the same height, though Amy is a little thinner, +owing to secret love and distress of mind, I knew the things would fit +her, and I was more than glad to get rid of them. Also she didn't have +any of her own convenient, and she might as well be sensible. She was, +and put in her own tooth brush and powder and left the rest to me, and +by eleven o'clock everything was ready. +</P> + +<P> +When the next day the news flew around that the marriage had taken +place and I had been the leading spirit in it, I went to bed and stayed +there until the town had finished chewing me up, and then I came out +again. It was the most sensible thing I ever did and saved a lot of +talk and argument. +</P> + +<P> +Another reason I went to bed was because I was so homesick and so +lonely, and so something I had no name for, that I knew it was wiser to +be by myself. I can't be much in life, but I can keep from being a +nuisance, and when you feel you haven't a friend on earth outside of +your family, who sometimes are queer also, you're apt to be a trial to +those you come in contact with. For two whole days I stayed in my room +and thought of nothing but a big, brawny, domineering, dictating girl +from the West who was giving Billy no time to write letters; and though +I would die before I would let anybody know it, even Jess, I nearly +cried my eyes out under the bedclothes the day of the marriage. +</P> + +<P> +Life is a poor thing at times. And it is never so poor as when you +think a friend has failed you. There was nothing on earth that could +have made me believe Billy would ever fail me when we had known each +other since children, and he had saved my life three or four times; but +how can I help believing it when he is letting a perfectly ordinary, +straight-haired, large-footed girl from the West make him forget that I +am living and spending the summer in Twickenham Town? If he had not +forgotten, would he not write? He would. I am miserable and I will +never be happy until I can say some things to William Spencer Sloane +that he ought to hear. But I'm trying to keep my miserableness to +myself. People aren't interested in other people's miseries. I wonder +if I will ever again get a letter from Billy! +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap27"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXVII +</H3> + + +<P> +It is a perfectly magnificent thing to be alive! And this world is a +perfectly glorious place to be alive in! There isn't a bird in +Twickenham Town that isn't singing to-day, or a flower that isn't +blooming, and, owing to the rain last night, the dust is laying. As +for the sun—there couldn't be a more shining one, and the sky is a +blue so gorgeous that it seems heaven turned inside out, and in the air +is the snap of coolness that makes one want to walk and walk and walk, +and its crispness means fall is coming. I love the fall. I can't +think of anything I do not love to-day except Elizabeth Hamilton Carter +and Grandmother Brandon, and I don't exactly abhor them. I just don't +like them, and prefer to stay out of their way. But everybody else in +town is a dear, and I wish I knew I was coming back next summer. That +is— +</P> + +<P> +It doesn't matter what is or what isn't. The thing that matters is +that this morning I went to the post-office, as usual, but, what was +not as usual, I got what I had long been looking for, and which had +come not for endless, endless days. When I saw the big batch of +letters and things from Billy, and knew that all my fears were at an +end, I was so excited I could not speak without signs that shouldn't +show, and, lest some one stop me, I put the mail inside my shirt-waist +and hopped on Skylark and flew out of town. +</P> + +<P> +I didn't stop until I got to a big chestnut-tree about three miles from +Rose Hill, and there I took off Skylark's bridle and let her have all +the grass she could eat, and then I sat down and sorted the letters +out. There were four from Billy and twelve cards and two packages, and +at first I couldn't understand why they had been held up, why I hadn't +gotten them before; and then I saw they were postmarked from the same +place, and had been mailed within three days of one another. That +puzzled me, so I decided to open them and find out what was the +matter—whether it was the Western girl or something else. +</P> + +<P> +I ought to have known it was something else! And I have been +wondering, ever since I read the letters and found out about the +accident to Billy's eyes, when he came near being shot and the powder +got in them and nearly put them out, why it is that people are so +mistrusting and why we let one thing we can't understand make us forget +what we ought to understand very well. Ten thousand kind things, right +things, nice things we take for granted, and then at the first thing we +think isn't kind or right or nice we forget the others and howl and +snort about the one we do not like. At least that is what I did. Not +outwardly, of course, but inwardly, for I'm pretty toplofty about being +treated right, and I flare out and say things I shouldn't at times, and +afterward I am so ashamed of myself that a worm of the dust is a perky +animal to me for a few minutes. That condition of mind doesn't last +very long, however. I am not by nature a humble-minded person. While +it does last it is awful. Perfectly awful. +</P> + +<P> +When I read Billy's letter I laid right down on the grass and put my +face deep down in it, and there wasn't anything abominable that anybody +could have said about me that I would not have agreed to. All the time +I had been furious with him for not writing as usual, he had been shut +up in a dark room, not able to see the food he was eating, much less +able to write letters, and then when they took the bandages off he +wrote so much they had to be put back again, and he was forbidden to +write more than a few lines, which accounted for so many cards. He +wouldn't let any one else write me, and I don't understand exactly how +it happened except he saw a drunken man on the street waving a pistol, +and there were some children around, and before the policeman could get +to him Billy had caught his hand and the thing had gone off and some of +the powder got in his eyes. He made light of it, but I know exactly +what he did. I thought it was a Western product that was engrossing +him, and it was the children he was trying to save. Oh, Billy, I'm a +pig! A perfectly horrid pig! +</P> + +<P> +And then I suddenly thought of the astonishing letter I had written +about being in love and maybe engaged, and I prayed hard that he would +never get it; but I knew it was too late for prayers. And then I got +mad with Pat for writing to Jess about the girl from the West, and with +Jess for writing what Pat had written, and not for some time did I come +to my senses and realize I was the only person I had any right to get +mad with. I got, all right. And then I wondered what to do. Billy +said they would sail on the 21st and reach New York on the 29th, so I +decided to go back to Rose Hill and begin to pack. +</P> + +<P> +Father could not come to me, so I would go to Father and be home by the +time Billy got there. It was only the 3d of September, but I decided I +would leave as soon as I could do so without remarks being made about +my going sooner than I expected, and to prevent remarks I would have to +invent a good reason for getting away. Father's loneliness would make +a perfect reason for Twickenham Town, and a most dutiful one, and no +one would be apt to ask me why I hadn't thought of his loneliness +before; but it wouldn't do for the family. They wanted me to stay out +of the city as long as possible, and while I was wondering what I could +do to get back, Mrs. Pettigrew passed with five of the children in the +buggy and asked if I knew there was a telegram for me at the station. +I told her I did not, and my heart got right where hearts always get +when telegrams are mentioned, and in the twinkling of an eye Skylark's +bridle was on and I on Skylark, and we raced like mad to town. +</P> + +<P> +On the way I was thinking all the awful things that telegrams start one +to thinking, and I remembered it was just eleven days since I had sent +the letter to Billy, who had, of course, gotten it by this time, and, +not realizing how fast I was going, I was at the station before it +seemed possible to get there, and so out of breath I could not speak. +I slipped off the horse and held out my hand to Mr. Pepper for the +telegram, and when he handed me the yellow envelope I slid down on a +bench and held it as if it were a death-warrant, and not for some time +could I open it. I was positive it was about Mother, who wasn't very +well when she last wrote, and everything I had ever done that I ought +not to have done, and everything I had left undone which I should have +done, walked right up in front of me and clutched me by the throat, and +I had to shut my eyes to keep my head steady. I had inside the same +sinky feeling I felt the first time I went to Europe, on the first day +out. +</P> + +<P> +Mr. Pepper was looking at me, and so were several other people who +happened to be standing around, so I tried to get a grip on, and after +awhile I opened the envelope; but at first I couldn't see the words on +it. Finally I took them in after three times reading them over, and at +last I understood. +</P> + +<BR> + +<P> +Cut it out. You are engaged to me. Sailing to-morrow. See you +September fifteenth.—BILLY. +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<A NAME="chap28"></A> +<H3 ALIGN="center"> +CHAPTER XXVIII +</H3> + + +<P> +There never was a sinner saved by grace who so wanted to make a noise +as I wanted to make one when I got into my head what had happened. The +relief from fear and the joyfulness of knowing I had been pulled out of +another ditch made me dizzy for a moment, and down went my elbows into +my lap and down my face into my hands, and not until Mr. Pepper said +something to me did I lift my head and get up. Then I threw my +riding-crop in the air, tossed up the Pepper baby, danced around with +him, and, suddenly seeing all present were watching me, and knowing +they felt they had a right to hear what was in the telegram without +waiting for Mr. Pepper to tell them, I said an old friend of mine, who +was anxious to know Twickenham Town, was coming to see it when he got +back from Europe. After which I gave Mr. Pepper a little wink which he +understood, and I am sure no one was told the wording of the message I +had received. Mr. Pepper has a good deal of sense. +</P> + +<P> +Happy? I was the happiest girl in all the world that day. I nearly +sang my throat off when I got to my room, but I did not mention the +telegram to anybody save Miss Susanna, and I didn't go into details +with her about it. I just said a friend was coming to see me when he +got back from Europe, and I said it in such a way she didn't think I +was interested very much. She is so astonished by Elizabeth's +behavior, and so surprised at her marriage, which is to be in November, +that I don't think she paid any attention to what I said and got the +impression it was a friend of Father's who was coming to Twickenham +Town. I let her keep it. I did not give it to her knowingly, but +there was no need to take it away. +</P> + +<P> +And last night, not being able to sleep, I knew I had not been in love +with Whythe at all. I don't know a thing in the world about being in +love. I had tried to think I knew something, but I was mistaken. I +must say I enjoyed hearing Whythe's crescendo, obligato, diminuendo way +of making it, but I realize now I am not the sort of person to really +fall in love with strange men. Certainly I could never do it with a +wabbly, changery, one-or-the-othery kind of man that Whythe is, and +while it was pretty scrumptious thinking a twenty-five-year-older was +in love with me, I soon found out it was a summer case and not at all +serious. And I am thankful I never thought I was enough in love to +become engaged. There might have been things to remember that one +likes to forget when the real one comes along, and I have nothing of +that sort to be sorry for. I'm right particular at times. +</P> + +<P> +If I am ever really and truly engaged I wonder if I will be as +particular as a sixteen-year-old person, a girl person, ought to be? I +guess it will depend on whom I am engaged to, but, of course, not being +in love, I couldn't be engaged, and there is no use in thinking what I +might do under circumstances that might warrant the doing of it, and +when I see Billy I will just shake hands; that is— +</P> + +<P> +Every time I think of his coming I feel like opening my arms so wide I +could take the whole world in, but I don't open them. I just go look +at the calendar to see if another day hasn't gone by yet. When this +morning I saw it was the 14th and realized there wasn't but one more +day to wait, I went to the window and did open my arms, and I sent a +message into the air. And then, because I felt so sorry for Miss +Araminta Armstrong, who has nothing to wait for but older age, and for +Miss Bettie Simcoe, who has long since stopped hoping, I went +down-stairs and asked them if they wouldn't like to motor to Glade +Springs, and they said they would, and we went. Also Mr. Willie +Prince. I didn't want to ask him, but I couldn't leave him out, and of +course he wanted to go. The going made the day pass a little quicker, +but it has been a long day! Awful long! +</P> + +<P> +For the last week I have been going around to almost every house in +town to say good-by. I don't know the exact day I will leave, as that +will depend on when Mother says I must be home; but I didn't want to go +away and not say good-by to everybody and tell them what a good time I +have had, and I started telling very soon after I got Billy's message +saying he was coming. I have thanked everybody for their niceness and +kindness to me, and told every one I hope to come back next summer, and +sometimes we have had little weeps, for they put their arms around me +and held me so tight I could hardly breathe. And I know now there is +nothing as good as friendliness, and loving-kindness is more to be +desired than all things else on earth, and I am going to try to make it +grow wherever I live. I will have a garden of it—have it in my heart. +</P> + +<P> +I am afraid I will always have some practical things in my heart, too, +for of late I've been thinking about all that money Billy had to spend +in cabling me from Europe. When Billy wants to do a thing he never +lets obstacles stand in his way, and he would have sent that cable if +he'd had to borrow the money from the Bank of England at an awful rate +of interest. What he did do I guess was to get it from his mother. +She would take her head off and her heart out and hand both over if he +wanted them, and it isn't her fault that William, as she calls him, +isn't a ruined person. +</P> + +<P> +I know she hated him to leave ahead of time, which he had to do to get +here on the 15th, the rest not sailing, Jess says, until the 20th; but +that's William again. He doesn't waste time when he has anything to +attend to, and I know exactly what he said to his mother. He will make +every arrangement and fix everything for them and then tell them +good-by. He isn't much with words, Billy isn't. He acts. There's no +fumble in him, and even his mother, who thinks his mold was broken when +he was born and that the Lord never made but one like him, has to admit +he is a high-handed person when occasion requires. I don't agree with +his mother in a good many things concerning William, but in some I do. +I wish he wasn't an only son. An only son for a husband is hard on a +wife. +</P> + +<P> +The thing I have been thinking about most since I got his cable, +however, is a certain thing that was in it. I've worn the paper out +reading it, and at first there was no argument in my mind, but it is +coming, argument is. And though I know it is a bad habit, especially +in girls and women and disliked by the other sex, how can you help it +when things are said that are not so? Billy said, "You are engaged to +me." How does he know? I never told him so. He hasn't exactly asked +me—that is, in a way that I would answer him—and he always got so +choky when on such subjects that I changed them quick, and yet he +announces that I am his, and with never so much as by your leave! +</P> + +<P> +I am afraid, I'm terribly afraid, I am going to agree with him. It's a +relief to have some things settled for you, and as he imagines I will +always be falling overboard, he doubtless thinks he had better keep a +life-preserver on me in case he isn't near enough to jump in after me. +He knows if I ever agree to put one on I will keep it on. I have a +good deal of Father in me, and when I give my word I stick to it. +</P> + +<P> +If any one had told me when I came to Twickenham Town that the chief +thing I would find out before I went away was that I wouldn't really +mind owning a life-preserver, my head would have gone up and I would +have been as chesty as a hen who tries to crow; and now I'm nothing but +a humble-minded person waiting for a high-handed one to come and take +me back home. And I am perfectly willing to go. Another thing I have +found out this summer is that it doesn't much matter where you are or +what you are doing; whether there is purple and fine linen or just +ancestors, or both together, or neither; if the one you want most isn't +with you, you will be pretty lonely after a while. +</P> + +<P> +I have had a grand time in Twickenham Town, but I don't want to come +here again by myself. If Mrs. William Spencer Sloane wants to take her +son away with her next summer, she won't be able to do it. Her son +will be twenty-one next summer, and though I hope he will always be +respectful and obedient, as far as possible, to his mother's wishes, +still, she will have to remember there are other wishes in this world +besides hers. I trust she will be nice about the discovery. Mrs. +Sloane is a very handsome woman, but spoiled. And very fond of having +her own way. +</P> + +<P> +We are not apt to have much money, Billy and I. We have often said we +thought young people ought to do their own scrambling, and I think +that's what we'll have to do, as our fathers think much the same way. +I'm not fond of herbs, but I can stand a dinner of them if Billy can, +and besides, it will be nice for us to work up together and not have +too quick a shove. And another thing we agree about. We know the +thing that counts most, and we are going to keep a good deal of it on +hand. Father says neither poverty nor riches can kill love if it is +the right sort. I know Billy's is the right sort, but I am crazy to +hear him put it into words. +</P> + +<P> +He will have traveled thousands of miles to say something he could have +written, to tell me I am engaged to him and I might as well understand +it; but there won't be an extra sentence in the way he says it. He +will be here to-morrow, and I bet the best thing I've got that all he +will say is: "Kitty Canary, we are going to decide right now on the day +and the month and the year. I will wait until you get through college, +as you say I've got to, but I won't wait a day longer. Let's get a +calendar and work it out." +</P> + +<P> +And I, being a weak-minded person at times, will say, "All right, +Billy," and then— +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR> + +<P CLASS="noindent"> +THE END +</P> + +<BR><BR><BR><BR> + + + + + + + + +<pre> + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of Kitty Canary, by Kate Langley Bosher + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK KITTY CANARY *** + +***** This file should be named 16946-h.htm or 16946-h.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + https://www.gutenberg.org/1/6/9/4/16946/ + +Produced by Al Haines + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Kitty Canary + +Author: Kate Langley Bosher + +Release Date: October 25, 2005 [EBook #16946] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK KITTY CANARY *** + + + + +Produced by Al Haines + + + + + + + + + + +[Frontispiece: Kitty Canary.] + + + + + + +Kitty Canary + +A NOVEL + + +BY + +KATE LANGLEY BOSHER + + + + + +AUTHOR OF + +"MARY CARY" ETC. + + + + + + +HARPER & BROTHERS PUBLISHERS + +NEW YORK AND LONDON + + + + +HARPER & BROTHERS, NEW YORK + +ESTABLISHED 1817 + + + + +Copyright, 1913, by Harper & Brothers + +Printed in the United States of America + +Published February, 1918 + + + + +KITTY CANARY + + +CHAPTER I + +I am in love. It is the most scrumptious thing I have ever been in. +Perfectly magnificent! Every time I think of it I feel as if I were +going down an elevator forty floors and my heart flippity-flops so my +teeth mortify me. He used to be engaged to Elizabeth Hamilton Carter, +the niece of the lady at whose house I am boarding this summer, but he +did something he ought not to have done, or he didn't do something he +ought to have done, and they had a fuss. No one seems to know the +cause of it, but it was probably from her wanting him to be blind to +everything on earth but her, and a man isn't going to be blind when he +wants to see, and then she got _hurt_. I'd rather live in a house with +a cackling hen or a grunting pig than the sort of person who is always +getting hurt. But she's very pretty. Pink-and-white pretty, with +uplifting eyes and a little mouth that shuts itself when mad and says +nothing, and oozes more disagreeableness than if it talked. He still +thinks there isn't another girl in town who can touch her in looks. I +don't suppose a man ever gets over a real case of pink-and-white. It's +the kind that makes a tender memory if it isn't the best sort to live +with, and men like to have a memory to sigh over in secret. Her +rejected one may sigh in secret, but in public he does not seem to be +suffering. He isn't suffering. We like each other very much. + +The reason I am glad I am in love is that I am sixteen and I was +getting afraid I wasn't ever going to fall in love. Three or four +times I have thought I was in it, but I wasn't, and I was beginning to +be sure I was the sort of person who doesn't fall. And, besides, it is +good for Billy, who, because he is twenty, thinks he is old enough to +have some things settled which there is no need to settle too soon. +Settled things are not exciting. I love excitement and not knowing +what a day may bring forth. Billy doesn't. He wants his ducks to be +always in a row. + +Ever since he fished me out of the water-barrel sunk in Grandmother +Hatley's garden, when I was four and he eight, he has seemed to think I +belonged to him; and, though he doesn't imagine I know it and never +mentions it, he is always around when I am in danger or trouble, to get +me out. I suppose saving my life three or four times makes him feel I +can't take care of myself and therefore he must take care of me, but +that's a mistake. I have never had a horse to run away with me but +once. Billy did tell me not to ride her, and when she ran and would +have pitched me over her head and down a gully he caught her in the +nick of time and caught me, too, but that's the only time a thing of +that sort ever happened. He was real nice about it and never said +anything concerning having told me so and didn't make remarks of the +sort which other people rub in, but the next day the horse was sent +away. That's the thing which makes me fighting furious with Billy +sometimes. He doesn't say things. He does them. I wasn't afraid of +that horse and was going to keep on riding her, but the next day there +was no Lady-Bird to ride. The reason he sent her away was I wouldn't +promise not to ride her. Our summer homes are on adjoining places and +Horson, their stableman, a nice, drinky old person, lets me take out +anything I want, anything of Billy's, and, knowing he couldn't trust +Horson any more than me, he lent Lady-Bird to a man miles and miles +away and I never saw her again until she was a tame old thing I did not +want to ride. Billy behaves as if I were a child! + +And then the very next winter I fell through the ice and he had to jump +in and get me out. He told me not to go to a certain part of the lake. +He had been all over it and tried it before I got my skates on, but I +forgot and went. A boy was with me, a skunky little rat, who, when he +saw the ice was cracking, tried to pull me back, and then he let go my +hand and flop I went in and flop came Billy behind me while the little +Fur Coat stood off and bawled for help and said afterward he didn't +know how to swim. Having on heavy clothes, I went down quick and was +hard to get up, and I would be an angel this minute if Billy hadn't +been there. But Billy is always there, which is what makes this summer +so queer. He isn't here. + +On account of servants and things his mother didn't want to open their +country place this year, and my mother didn't want to open hers, so two +houses are closed. That means a scatteration for both families and is +why I am here and Billy in Europe; and if he is having as good a time +as I am he isn't grunting at the change. He didn't want to go to +Europe. His father made him. His mother and two sisters needed a man +along and, as Mr. Sloane couldn't go, Billy had to, and he was a great +big silent growl when he went off. I wasn't. I wanted to come to +Twickenham Town. We had passed through it once on our way to Florida +and I have been crazy to come back ever since, and when I found Mother +was going with Florine and Jessica to a splashy place I didn't want to +go to I begged her to let me come here and board with Miss Susanna +Mason and--glory be--she let me do it! + +She is a sort of relation, Miss Susanna is, a farback one, but nothing +is too far back to claim here, and everybody who is anybody is kin to +one another, or kin to some one else's kin, which makes for +sociableness, and I am having a perfectly grand time. In all the world +there isn't another place like the one I am in this summer, and I am +getting so familiar with a new kind of natural history that maybe some +day I will be an authority on it. Ancestry is the chief asset of +Twickenham Town, and though you speak with the tongues of men and of +angels and have not ancestors it profiteth you nothing. That is, among +the natives. Being an outsider, I have decided not to have ancestors, +and I am going to see if the people won't take me in for myself. I +have always believed a nice person was nice if there weren't any family +shrubs and things, and a nasty one was nasty no matter how many coats +of arms there were or how heirloomy their houses, so I have asked Miss +Susanna please to excuse me if I don't call her cousin (we are seventh +removed, I think she said), and also, unless she has to, I hope she +won't tell any one my real name is Katherine Bird, but let everybody +call me Kitty Canary, as everybody does at home. I think she thought +it was very queer in me to say such things, but she smiled her +precious, patient little smile, and, though she didn't promise, she +evidently hasn't mentioned my sure-enough name, as no one here calls me +by any other than the one Billy gave me when I wasn't much bigger than +a baby. Just Kitty Canary will do for me. + + + + +CHAPTER II + +The way I met Whythe (he's the one I'm almost perfectly certain I am in +love with) was this. When I got to the station in Twickenham Town +there was no one to meet me and take me to Rose Hill, which is Miss +Susanna Mason's home and right far out, because the train was three +hours late, and Uncle Henry, who drives the hack, and Mr. Briggs, who +runs the automobile, had gone home. There wasn't even anybody to take +my bag. I told Mother I had written Miss Susanna what train I would be +on, and because she was so busy and Father away she trusted me to do +things she had never trusted me to do before and didn't write herself, +which is why I wasn't met. I did write the letter saying I was coming, +but I forgot to mail it and found it in my bag when I got off the train +and was looking for my trunk check. It was nearly eleven o'clock and +nobody around but some train people who looked at me and said nothing. +And then a young man who had got off the same train came up and took +off his hat and asked if he could not do something for me, and I told +him I hoped he could and I certainly would be obliged if he would do it +as quick as possible, as it was getting later every minute and Mother +would be terribly worried if she knew I hadn't been met. + +"But where are you going?" he asked, and his eyes, which are his +best-looking part, took me in from top to toe. When I told him I was a +boarder for Miss Susanna Mason and would like to get to her house he +said if I didn't mind a pretty good walk he would take me there with +pleasure, and we started off. It was a perfectly gorgeous night. The +stars were as thick as buttercups in spring, and the moon was +magnificent and the air full of all sorts of old-fashioned fragrances, +as if honeysuckle and mignonette and tea-roses and heliotrope were all +mixed together; and as there didn't seem any real need of grieving +because there was no one to meet me, I thought I might as well enjoy +myself. I did. I could not help the train being late, and I didn't +forget to mail my letter on purpose; and it was an accident, or +coincidence, that a nice man should be on the same train I was, who +lived in the place I was going to spend the summer in, and knew very +well the house I wanted to get to. I didn't know he had been engaged +to the niece of the house and hadn't been to the latter since the +engagement was broken, and I must say as we walked along he didn't show +any evidences of despair or things of that sort. He couldn't possibly +have been naturaler or in better spirits, and he laughed from the time +we left the station until we reached Rose Hill. Not knowing his +history, I told him I had come to Twickenham Town because I thought it +was the most delicious old place in America; the sweetest, slowest, +self-satisfiedest, cocksuredest place on earth, and everybody in it was +a character--that is, everybody over thirty. He said that let him out, +as he was only twenty-five, but he wasn't sure some under twenty-five +were not somewhat queer. They are, I have found out since. + +He had left his bag at the station, but he had mine, which was right +heavy, and seeing there was a good stretch of open road before we began +to go up the hill on the top of which was Miss Susanna's home, I told +him he had better sit down a minute and rest, and I got up on the worm +fence and twisted my feet around the rail below, and looked at him +before he knew what I was going to do. He coughed a little and looked +at his watch and said it was rather late to be resting, as Miss Susanna +might be going to bed, and that if I were not too tired he thought we +had better go on; and I told him all right. And then, because I +couldn't help it, I stood up on the top of the fence, balanced myself +on it, and, opening my arms as if I were going to fly, sprang off and +ran up the road ahead of him. + +At the gate, which was open and through which I could see the +rose-bordered path leading up to the white-pillared porch on which Miss +Susanna and her niece were sitting, he shook hands with me and told me +good night and said he hoped he would see me very often while I was in +town, and I said I hoped he would. He put my bag down and told me to +send one of the servants out for it, and went on down the road, which I +thought was the queerest behavior I had ever seen in my life. I didn't +know, of course, about embarrassments and broken engagements and things +of that sort, and for a moment I stared at his back and then picked up +my bag and went up to the porch with it. All the boarders had gone to +bed and only Miss Susanna and her niece were on the porch, and as I +came up the steps they got up and stared at me as if I had risen from +the grave. + +I hadn't thought there was anything wrong in my coming from the station +at that time of night with a strange man until I saw the look on Miss +Susanna's face when I told her I had done it. If I had been a brand +snatched from the burning I could not have been folded to her bosom +with more fervent thanksgiving or a more pained expression, and at +first, still not understanding, I thought I had done right off the +worst thing a person could do in Twickenham Town. I had walked a long +way with a man who didn't have ancestors, perhaps. He had seemed all +right to me, and I was awfully glad to have him, as otherwise I might +have had to sit on my suit-case all night, for I certainly couldn't +have come up with the man who swung a lantern, and he was the only +other white one in sight. But I found out later it wasn't lack of +ancestors that caused the sudden chill which fell over us when I +mentioned Mr. Eppes's name. It was something else and--oh, my +granny!--the look that pretty little pink-and-white person gave me when +I said what I had done! + +"Oh, my dear, my dear!" Miss Susanna put her arms around me as if I +were a little ewe lamb that had been lost and was found, and in the +moonlight her beautiful little wrinkles reddened as if she were +responsible for a most grievous calamity, "To think of your being alone +at a public station at this time of night! A young girl! And I had +promised your mother to take such good care of you! I wouldn't have +had such a thing occur for--" + +"There hasn't anything occurred." I took off my hat and fanned hard +and then followed Miss Susanna up-stairs into a big square room with a +big tester bed in it, and if she hadn't been looking at me I would have +climbed up in it and gone to sleep in my clothes, I was so tired; but +she didn't leave me for some time. She couldn't get over my walking +two miles with a strange man late at night, and presently I found out +she hoped I wouldn't mention it to any one in the town, as in a little +place-- + +"Oh, I know--" I sat down in another chair. "I know little places. I +was in one once for a month. Every one in it knew everything every +other person did and didn't do, and said and didn't say, and if they +sneezed what for, and if they didn't sneeze why not, and it was more +fun! But I won't tell if you don't want me to, and did my horse come? +Father had her sent three days ago, and I hope you won't get uneasy if +I am not always back on time--" + +I stopped. She was putting my hat on the top shelf of the biggest old +mahogany wardrobe that was ever built for human apparel, and I knew +right off that was one of the things the matter with pretty Miss +Pink-and-White. She was spoiled to death. I picked up the coat I had +dropped on the table and hung it up myself, and saw I would have to be +the thing I hate most on earth--an Example. I must be careful or that +precious old soul would be waiting on me just as she waits on everybody +else, and I wasn't going to stand for it. And then she asked me if I +were not hungry--said she knew I must be after such a long trip; and I +told her I was starving, but I would not eat of a feast of the gods if +it were right in front of me, as the only thing I wanted to do was to +go to sleep, and for fear she might keep on inquiring about all my +relations I kissed her good night and walked with her to the door and +asked if she would mind if I did not come down to breakfast, and she +said of course I must not come, that Elizabeth never came if she had +been up late the night before, and that decided me. I was the first +one down the next morning. + + + + +CHAPTER III + +It was a perfectly grand feeling---the feeling I had the next day and +have had every day since I got here--that I was in a place where there +wasn't a single member of my family to tell me not to do things I +wanted to do or to do what I did not want to do; and usually as I dress +in the morning I dance a new kind of highland fling which I made up for +times when I feel particularly happy. Everybody is well and Mother and +the girls are having a lovely time in a place where I would have had a +stupid one, being neither grown up nor a kid, but an in-betweener--too +young for some ages and not old enough for others; and here in +Twickenham Town I am as free as air, and Father is coming to see me as +often as he can. I can't let myself think much about Father or I would +take the train straight home. + +I had begged him to let me stay with him, but neither he nor Mother +would agree. Just because I got the Grome medal at school they +imagined I had studied too hard and needed a quiet, restful summer in +the mountains; but I will never study too hard while on this little +planet called the earth. I got the medal because Billy said I'd never +sit still long enough to study for it, and just to show him he very +often does not know what he is talking about I made up my mind to get +it. + +The only thing I ever expect to work hard over is one book. I am going +to write one book that the critics will call a Discovery. It is to be +dull and dry and dreary, and therefore it will be thought deep and +strong and big, and only a few people will know that it has been +written. After that I am going to write books that sell, write what +people want to read--things that make them forget for a few moments +that at times this world is but a fleeting show and there is a good +deal of rot in it. If I can I am going to make people laugh, though I +don't think I can do much in that line. I see the funny side of things +too quickly to ever be able to write them down, as that takes time; but +I am certainly going to be cheerful, and I am not going to croak. I +don't mean I am going to be smiling all the time. I am not. Perpetual +smilers are more than human nature can stand. Nothing is ever wrong, +everything is beautiful, their smiles seem to say, which isn't so. +There is a lot of life that is wrong, and any day horrid, hurting +things may pop up, but that doesn't mean you've got to sit down and +make a bosom friend of dolefulness. Some of the things you can shake +your fist at, and some turn your back on, and some you have to face; +but no matter what happens you can buck up and begin again if you get +knocked out or hit in the back. And that's what I hope I will have +sense enough to do--get up and get a move on when things go wrong. + +So far nothing has gone wrong in Twickenham. Everybody has been lovely +to me, and all sorts of ages have been to see me and asked me to their +homes, and if they know my name is not really and truly Kitty Canary +they never say so or mention my family, which is very nice of them, for +I am sure they must talk of who I am and where I came from, that being +the first thing done here when a stranger arrives. The reason I think +they haven't let me off among themselves is that one of Miss Susanna's +boarders started to say something to me on the subject one day and I +told her I was a very plain person, almost common, and she could tell +any one she chose. She has never mentioned the subject since. Just +Kitty Canary is all I am going to be this summer, and if anybody +doesn't care for me as Kitty Canary I don't care for them to care for +me as Katherine Bird. So endeth that. + + + + +CHAPTER IV + +I have seen him every day since I came--seen my station help in time of +need--and I must say he bears bravely the dispensations of a female +person. He is not dejected, and he still seems to find life worth +living; and if he weeps in secret, he shows no sign in public of +regrets; neither does he hide himself from the gaze of others, but is +always to be seen when one goes down-town or to the homes of other +people. I don't know how we happen to meet so often, but I never go +out that he doesn't appear; and though he does not come in at Rose +Hill, he comes to the gate, and I am afraid we stand at it a little +longer than is necessary, especially if Elizabeth Hamilton Carter is +sitting on the porch. + +I wonder why Satan walks right into me every time I see that piece of +pretty pink-and-whiteness! He has never taken possession of me in that +way before; but something about her just starts him off, and before I +know it I am doing what I wouldn't think of doing if she were not +around. She is perfectly furious with me, and I must say her manners, +if they are Southern, could be improved. At best she is not much of a +talker, I have been told; but since I arrived her little mouth has been +shut so tight that I wonder how she breathes; and if she has spoken a +dozen words to me since the night I came, they were too +between-the-teethy for me to hear. I didn't want her beau, and I +wouldn't have dreamed of noticing him if I had known how she felt about +him; but after she tried the freezing act on me I didn't tell Satan to +get behind me, as I suppose I should have done. I just went along and +took things as they came, and the first thing I knew I was in love +myself, and from the words of his mouth concerning the meditations of +his heart he seemingly has recovered from a former attack and is in for +a new one. Maybe we were not as considerate of the rejecter as we +might have been. Of course, I never knew for a long time why the +engagement was broken. He didn't tell me and no one else seemed to +know, and when I found out-- But that was a long time after--when I +found out. + +His name is Whythe Rives Eppes. The only things I don't like about him +are his front teeth and his relations. He could get three new teeth, +but nothing in human power could rid him of his relatives. There are +four of them--Mother, Sister, Sister Edwina, and Miss Lily Lou, and may +God have mercy on the girl who marries the male member of the family +and goes into their home to live! He is a perfectly grand sort to be +in love with, and I am almost sure I am in love or I wouldn't feel so +thrilly when I see him coming. But being in love is one thing and +getting married is a very different other, and there isn't a man person +living I want to think of marrying yet. It's awfully interesting, too, +to learn the different ways in which love can be made. Twickenham Town +may be slow about many things, but in others it is so quick it takes +your breath away. Whythe became personal in conversation the fourth +time I was with him. It was at the Braxtons' party and conditions were +favorable, but, not expecting the turn that was taken, I was as excited +as if I had never heard remarks of a similar character before, and the +first thing I knew I had promised Whythe (he begged me to call him +Whythe) to go horseback-riding with him the next day. We went--I on +Skylark, who is the joy of my life, and he on a borrowed horse, and we +had a perfectly wonderful time. I don't think Whythe will ever be much +of a lawyer, but as a love-maker he hasn't an equal on earth--that is, +any I have ever heard. + +As we rode down the main street of Twickenham everybody in the town +seemed on it. Princess Street is the only one called by a name, though +of course the others have names, and it is the place where everybody +meets everybody else and learns all the news; and if anybody went to +sleep that night without knowing that Whythe and I had started on a +ride at ten o'clock in the morning and didn't get back until three it +was because that person was too deaf to hear and couldn't understand +the movement of lips. I didn't know I was doing anything I oughtn't, +and if I did it I am not sorry. I had a grand time. It was a gorgeous +day and cool enough for me to wear my brown-linen riding-habit and high +boots, which, with a stock collar and small sailor hat, made me look +real nice, and the way the people stared at me you would have thought +they had never seen a divided skirt before, and--oh, my granny!--the +faces of the family (Whythe's family) as we passed their house! I +smiled the politest and properest I knew and they bowed back, but in a +way that made me laugh out loud when out of sight, and so did Whythe. +And then we forgot them, forgot everything except it was awfully good +to be alive. + + + + +CHAPTER V + +The place we went to is very historic and interesting. Something +happened there that was very important in American history, but I have +forgotten what it was. Whythe told me, and as it doesn't matter, being +over for such a long time, I haven't tried to remember. The sky was so +wonderful and the river so winding and lovely and the air so delicious +that yesterdays did not seem important and only to-day counted; and it +was when we were sitting under a beautiful big water-oak that Whythe +began to be terribly sentimental and say things that would have been +more suitable for moonlight and shadows and things of that sort. But +suitable or not, they were thrilly to hear, and I would have enjoyed +hearing them if it hadn't been for an abominable feeling that Billy was +right beside me hearing every word also, and with a look on his face as +if he thought my new friend was the foolest yet. And presently when I +couldn't stand it any longer (I mean stand Billy standing by) I got up +suddenly and told Whythe it was time to go home. + +I interrupted him in the midst of a beautiful sentence about my +eyelashes, I think, or maybe it was something else, I don't remember; +but anyhow when I jumped up he was very much surprised and wanted to +know what was the matter. I couldn't tell him, but I was perfectly +furious with Billy and the look on his face, which seemed to say what +I'd heard him say often about fool-flum talk and feather-headed fellows +and things of that sort. And I was so mad I rode so fast Whythe +couldn't keep up with me or continue the conversation, but it has been +continued since. That is the main theme, though the variations are +always different. Whythe never seems to give out on variations. + +Of course, all of Miss Susanna's boarders, which are only four besides +myself, had something to say in general about the faithlessness of men +and the flirtatiousness of girls, and how times had changed, and how +you couldn't put your hand on any human being and feel you could trust +him in these days, and how men were gobbled up before they had got +their breath good after painful experiences, and dozens of other things +on that order. And I had such a good time listening to them, though +they didn't talk directly to me, that I'd forget at times and nearly +screech out loud at the tones of voice in which they did me up, and +then I would remember and try to look serious. But seriousness doesn't +seem to fit my face--that is, seriousness over sillinesses--and it +wouldn't stay on very long. + +They thought it very indelicate in me to walk away with Elizabeth's +sweetheart right before her eyes--that is, Mrs. General Games did, but +Miss Araminta Armstrong, who is over fifty and by nature sentimental +and sympathetic, said she supposed it was natural for youth to seek +consolation, and Whythe, poor dear, had been so heartbroken at +Elizabeth's behavior that he had been receptive to other influences of +a pleasing nature, and she didn't think they ought to be so hard on +him. And then, after more talk of that sort, she would sigh and look +away at the mountains in the distance with a loved-and-lost look in her +eyes, and Miss Bettie Simcoe would sit up and snort. + +There's nothing sentimental or sympathetic about Miss Bettie. Neither +is there anything in the earth below or the heavens above that she has +not an opinion of her own about, but the one concerning which she has +the most decided opinions is Man. She doesn't mince matters when she +gets on him. Also, she is an authority on God. She can tell you +exactly why He does things, and she quotes Him as if He were her most +confidential friend, and the only thing which stumps her is why He made +such a mess of what is considered His most important work. Mention a +male person's name and up go her eyebrows and down come the corners of +her lips and on the side goes her head, and nothing need be said for +her opinion to be understood. She is positively triumphant over +Whythe. She goes around with a "Didn't-I-tell-you-so?" expression +oozing out of every feature of her face, and I think she tells +Elizabeth she is fortunate to have discovered his fickleness so soon. + +If Elizabeth thinks she is fortunate she has a queer way of showing it. +She must cry a good deal at night, judging by her eyes in the morning, +but the thing that's most the matter with her is madness. She can't +take it in that Whythe is showing no signs of anxiousness to make up. +She imagined, I suppose, when they had their fuss that it wouldn't last +very long and that he would give in to whatever she wanted, and now +that he isn't giving in she is so freezingly furious with me she barely +speaks to me. She seems to think it is my fault and that my coming +just when I did is the cause of the whole trouble. Though she never +says anything directly to me, she makes remarks in my presence about +the way men flirt in Twickenham Town and how dangerous it is, +especially for young girls who have never had any experience in things +of that sort and are deceived by it; and as she talks I just rock and +rock if in a chair, and swing and swing if in a hammock, until she has +said a good many nasty things, and then I get up and go up-stairs and +bring down a box of candy Whythe has sent me and offer it to her with +my most Christian forgiveness and most understanding smile, and, +strange to say, she never takes a piece! + +I don't mind her remarks. They're natural, and if she wasn't such a +horrid little teapot I'd do anything I could to straighten out things; +but until she behaves herself I won't. I am having a very interesting +time being in love, and why should I stop just because a man she broke +with isn't grieving, but is keeping himself in practice saying to me +what he used to say to her? I am not going to stop until I think it is +time and until both have learned a few things they ought to know before +they get married. She is a vain, selfish, pretty piece of spoiledness, +and I don't believe she knows what real loving means. She is the sort +that wants what it hasn't got, and all the more if she thinks anybody +else is apt to get it. If she had any sense she would get a beau _pro +tem_. That is the best thing on earth to bring a man back to the +straight and narrow, and Whythe is the kind of man who needs to be +brought every now and then. + +I gave her that for nothing one morning--I mean the suggestion in +general, though of course not personal--and she looked at me as if +trying to understand. And then something came in her face that must +have been an idea in her brain (her brain is slow), for, two days +afterward, she said she was going away. A week later she went to see a +rich aunt on her father's side who has a summer home somewhere and +corrals young men and compels them to come to it, Miss Bettie Simcoe +says. When she was gone a great weight seemed lifted off everybody, +and even the servants breathed better. As for Miss Susanna, she was +that lightened and relieved, though naturally not saying so, that she +looked ten years younger, and I know now it is true that some people in +a house are like fruit-cake on a weak stomach. They make life hard. I +didn't say my prayers that night. I just sang the Doxology three times +as loud as I could and jumped into bed. Praise is prayer. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + +I have been here four weeks to-day. If there are any people in or +around Twickenham Town that I do not know, it is because they are not +knowable. I love people, and, being naturally sociable and not very +particular, I have had a perfectly grand time making acquaintances with +the high and the low and, the in-betweeners; and the sick and well, and +the dear and the queer, and the ancestrals and up-comers, and the rich +and the poor, and every other variety that grows; and now I am as +familiar with most of the family histories as the oldest inhabitant. +That's the nice part of living in a small place. Something depends on +you and you depend on all the rest of the town, but at home you're lost +in numbers and only a few know you're living. Here everybody knows, +also they know some things that perhaps had better be unknown. As for +talk, they are the best talkers on earth, and there's no subject under +the sun they won't talk about. It's an inheritance, Father says, and +has been handed down from ages past, and, though they don't read very +much, they can do more with a little knowledge than most learned people +with their information, and they make anything they mention interesting +from the way they mention it. I love to hear them, and I've heard a +good deal. + +Dear, precious Miss Susanna in the secrecy of my bedroom gave me a +little talk a few nights ago, and said she hoped I wouldn't mind, but +as I was young and inexperienced she thought it her duty to tell me +that I must be careful and not too informal, for certain people +wouldn't understand; and that while the Holts were a very good, +respectable family, still they were not-- She stopped and coughed a +little, and of course I understood, but I pretended I didn't, and told +her they were perfectly healthy and I had had more fun with the Holt +children than with any in town, but if she preferred they should not +come to her house to see me I would just stop in theirs sometimes, as I +would not like them to think I was afraid to go with them. I wasn't, +for while I knew they were not historic, they were the most interesting +children I'd ever seen, and it seemed pretty cruel that they were left +out of things because they didn't have forefathers to hang on to, or +money, which of course would speak for itself. And dear, angelic Miss +Susanna, who is so worn out with boarders and their special kind of +human-nature horridness at times that she's hardly got body enough to +cover her soul, said I mustn't misunderstand her, but the Holts had +never gone in the same circles as the other people I had met, and that +customs, though unkind, were hard to overcome, and the oldest son-- + +I told her not to worry about the oldest son. He could go anywhere he +wanted and with any one he wanted by the time he was through college, +which his parents were working themselves to death to send him through, +and it was very probable that several girls in town would be glad to +add their grandfathers to his natural endowments before many years were +over. But if she didn't care for me to accept his attentions, as Miss +Araminta Armstrong called them, I could always have an engagement when +he asked me to go anywhere. She looked so shocked and distressed that +I told her I didn't approve of telling stories any more than she did, +and for most sorts people ought to be branded, but I'd much rather tell +one of that land than hurt a person's feelings. And it wouldn't be +untrue to say I had an engagement, for I always had one to go +everywhere and anywhere, even if I didn't keep it; and again she +coughed and looked so pained that I took her in my arms and whirled +around the room with her and told her not to worry about me, either. I +wouldn't disgrace her by knowing the wrong people too well, but +everybody had their peculiarities and one of mine was I was going to +know anybody I wanted to. I always thought a lady could, and, besides, +I liked any kind of person who was interesting, and the best born ones +were often very stupid, which of course was the wrong thing to say. So +I had to give her another whirl, and by the time she got her breath it +was time to see about supper, and she has never referred to the subject +since. + +Miss Susanna is a darling little lady of the old school (whatever the +old school was) and I love her, but I am of my time as she is of hers, +and I don't see her way any more than she sees mine. She ought to wear +hoop-skirts and brocaded silks and lace fichus and mits, and sit with +her beautiful hands folded in her lap and her tiny little feet on a +footstool, and instead she works from morning to night trying to help +the good-for-nothingest servants that were ever hired by tired ladies, +except Uncle Henson, and Aunt Mandy, the cook, who have been with her +for years and years. She's worn out. That's what's the matter with +Miss Susanna, and that selfish, lazy little piece of pinkness who is +now away doesn't lift her hand to help her unless it is to make a cake +occasionally. I don't know how to make cake and never expect to know, +as very good kinds can be bought, but I can wash dishes. I do it every +morning and she dries them, so limp Eliza can go up-stairs and clean up +the bedrooms, and we have a beautiful time talking about what a change +comes over human beings when they board. That is, I do the talking and +she shakes her head at me, but it does her good, as it gives sound to +things she can't say. Most of her time has to be spent in thinking +what to put in people's stomachs and fixing it to be put; and, from the +quantity that goes in, boarders must have much better appetites than +people who keep house. They eat and yet are never full. There'll be +no hope of heaven for me if I ever have to keep boarders. I'd sweep +them out with a broom certainly once a week. That is, in my mind, if +my hands didn't. But Miss Susanna will never sweep them out. The +sanctuary in which I let out for her is the pantry, and all the things +she won't say I say for her. Yesterday she laughed so she broke a cup. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + +Father is coming to-morrow! I am so excited and happy that to-day, +after I was safely out of Twickenham Town and there was no one to see +me, I stood up on Skylark's back and held the bridle with one hand and +waved the other in the air; and then I tried standing on one foot with +the other one out, but I came near losing my balance and just did catch +myself in time. Seeing a woman coming down the road in a buggy, with a +baby in her lap, I got back in place before she saw what I was doing, +but I needn't have done it, for it was just Mrs. Pettigrew, and she +wouldn't have cared whether it was my head or my heels which were on +the horse. She has eleven children and no husband to speak of, and +what people do or don't do doesn't bother her. We stopped for a little +talk and she told me about the roof leaking and the pig eating the +baby's bonnet which Miss Katie Spain had given it last Christmas, and +which was too small for its head, but was all it had; and that a kettle +of soft soap had fallen off the stove and burned two toes of Sammy, the +next to the youngest boy, and she would still be telling me things, but +I told her Father was coming and I had to attend to something, and so +she drove on. + +I did have something to attend to, but I didn't attend right away, for +the day was so wonderful I couldn't go in for a long time. The +sunshine looked as if it had been washed and ironed, it was so clear +and clean and crisp, and the wind in the trees said all sorts of lovely +things to me, and I made up my mind that, no matter what happened in +life, I was always going to remember that warm and sweet and sunny +things are sure to come again, if at times they seem dead and buried, +and that I would try not to see the cranks and queernesses of people as +much as I was by nature inclined to do; and then I went right back to +Miss Susanna's, and before I knew it I had said something I oughtn't, +and to Mr. Willie Prince. + +Every time I see Mr. Willie I thank God he is no relation of mine. He +is the only man boarder in the house, which is another thing to be +thankful for; but, though he is hard to stand, he is nearly sixty and a +human being, and I ought to remember what I forget and yesterday I +didn't remember. He was the only son of his mother and should have +been a daughter, and in trying to make him one his maternal parent +succeeded better than in anything else she ever attempted, Miss Bettie +Simcoe says--and she ought to know, being his first cousin. His +business is telling people what they don't want to hear; and, though he +doesn't do any work, a hound dog couldn't run a rabbit down quicker +than he can a piece of gossip, and when he isn't sitting on somebody's +front porch fanning himself with a palm-leaf fan, from which he is +never separated in summer, he is down at the drug-store hearing and +being heard. He thinks he is handsome, and he is as proud of his pink +cheeks as a goose of her gander, and I'm sure he puts something on them +on cool days. If he could wear some blue ribbon on his sandy hair and +have trousers and coats to match his fancy vests he would be perfectly +happy. As a man he is a poor job, but as a Miss Nancy he is perfect, +and when yesterday I came in from my ride he made me so mad that I +popped out something I shouldn't have popped and before I knew I was +going to do it. + +He was sitting on the porch when I came up, fanning as hard as he could +fan, and as I went by he stopped me. "I would advise you to be more +careful when you go in wading at the creek, Miss Kitty," he said, "It +isn't customary for young ladies in Twickenham Town to do such things +and--" + +"And where I came from it isn't customary for gentlemen to follow young +ladies and see what they do," I said, and the minute the words were out +I knew I shouldn't have said them, for his face got as red as a beet +and he jumped up and walked into the house. + +I don't know that he really followed Sallie Sclater, who's a visiting +girl, and myself to see if we went wading, but we certainly went and +had a good time doing it, though we had to dry our feet with my +petticoat. But from the way his face went he must have made it +convenient to walk in that direction and must have seen us, or he +wouldn't have known anything about our going, as we were careful to +look around before we took off our shoes and stockings. I can't endure +him, but he is nearly sixty and I am only sixteen, and I shouldn't have +spoken as I did; and possibly because I was so happy over Father's +coming I told him last night that if I had said anything I shouldn't I +hoped he would forget it and I, too, would forget what had been said. +And that, of course, I knew gentlemen in Twickenham Town never did +anything gentlemen shouldn't, and that my quickness of speech was +always getting ahead of me; and he looked so relieved that I am +perfectly certain he followed us. But, anyhow, he was very pleasant +last night and told a scream of a story about poor little Miss Lily Lou +Eppes when she thought she had a beau. She had almost landed him when +he got away. He's never been heard from since. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + +It's over--Father's visit is. He has been gone a week, and it will be +a whole month before he can come again. He has to divide up between +Mother and the girls and me, and he can only get away once in two +weeks, because his partner is ill and business has something the matter +with it and has to be watched, which is why he could stay only four +days in Twickenham Town. I don't see why fathers have to work so hard, +and why wives and daughters must have so many unnecessary things, and +such big houses and so many new clothes and automobiles and parties and +pleasures, which aren't real fun after you have them. But most women +seem to want them, and keep on scrambling for what other people +scramble for, and only a few have sense enough to see how foolish it +all is and stop. Maybe they are wound up so tight they can't stop. I +don't know. I only know I do not want to live the life a lot of women +I know live, and I am not going to do it. + +I wish Father could see it the way I do--about working so hard, I +mean--and I think he might, for he says I am a chip off the block and +he is the block, and in almost everything we feel alike; but there's +Mother and the girls, who care for things I don't care for, and of +course they must have them. He gives them everything they want, but he +looked so awfully tired the day he came I could think of nothing else +the night he left, which is why I cried so under the sheet, and then +when the tears were out and I felt lighter I got up and wrote him a +long letter and told him I loved him so it hurt, and that he was the +best and dearest father on all this big, big earth, and if he would let +me come and keep house for him I would fly back. But he wouldn't let +me come. He wrote me a letter, though, that I shall keep with my +treasures, and I wish what he said was so. It isn't so. He just +thinks it, but it does your heart good to know somebody cares an awful +lot about you and no matter what you do is going to stand by. What he +wrote me was this: + + +_Dear little Nut-brown Maid all mine, of course you would come, but you +mustn't. It is too hot and you need what you are getting, and nothing +could help me here so much as to know of that wonderful color of yours +and that you are so well and strong again. That you are getting health +and happy memories for the winter of work and study ahead is the best +tonic I can take, and every morning when I go to my desk I get out that +little picture of you and, nobody being by, I kiss it and send you my +love, and it is a breath of life-giving air to know you are mine. +Since the first time I saw you--you were exactly one hour old and +laughing even then--you have been the joy and delight of my heart, and +I can't afford to run any risk with summer heat and the joy of my +heart. I didn't deserve you, for I wanted a son so badly, and was +fearfully disappointed that you were not a boy. You seemed to +understand and did not get mad about it, and I've often wanted you to +know that no son could mean to me now what my little harum-scarum +daughter means. There has never been a day since you first looked into +my eyes that I haven't thanked God for you, and the thing I am most +afraid of in life is that you may get sick or not be strong, and that +is why I am so glad for you to be in such a charming old place as +Twickenham Town. You were wise, little daughter of mine, to choose so +quaint and queer and dear a place in which to spend your summer, for +there real things still count, and there is more time for the fine +courtesies of life, and the hurry and rush of it, the push and scramble +for place and power, is out of key with its quiet serenity and the +poise that comes from a sense of values that by many of us is to-day +forgotten. I am coming back as soon as I can, for I, too, want the +refreshment and novelty of being where money is not talked and +apologies never made for the absence of things that money gets. Miss +Susanna Mason is a liberal education in herself and no "Course in +Culture" could equal the advantage of being in her society. I have +written her, of course, but tell her again of my sense of privilege, +and my great pleasure, in being a guest in her home, and remember +always you are in your father's heart. Always he is thinking of you._ + + +Now wasn't that a nice letter to get from a father? I'm nothing to be +thankful for; but, if he thinks I am, I am thankful for that, and it +makes life a different thing to know somebody is thankful for you. And +another thing I think would make life nicer, make working and living +not so hard, is to tell people you like them and you believe they are +trying to do their best, even if their best is powerful poor. Of +course, all people don't try to do their best. Some are by nature and +practice mean and horrid and ought to have facts handed out to them, +but most people try to do right, and maybe they would try harder if +they got a little encouragement now and then. Anyhow, I've often +noticed it makes a person take fresh hold again for somebody to give +them a lift in the way of a friendly word or so, and it doesn't cost +much--kindness doesn't. I wonder why we don't have more of it. + +The reason why Father liked Twickenham Town so much was that nobody +talked business to him, and if anybody knew he was the head of Bird & +Roller, bankers and brokers, they never mentioned it to him or talked +shop at all, and for four days he forgot stocks and bonds and the ups +and downs of the money-market and let go. And yet I am almost sure Mr. +Willie Prince knows all about him--the business part, I mean--and that, +of course, will mean everybody in Twickenham will know pretty soon. +The reason I think he knows is that I went into the bank to get a check +cashed the morning after Father got here, and I saw Mr. Willie sitting +at a table in a corner of the bank with a copy of Bradstreet open +before him and his eyes close to it. I made it convenient to walk up +to the table and look down at the book, and I saw he was running his +finger down the letter "B," and when he saw me he shut the book quick. +I just smiled and passed on. But not talking business is only one of +the reasons Father liked Twickenham Town so much. Another was because +everybody was so nice to him. He had so many invitations to dinner and +supper, and even breakfast, that he was on a dead go from morning until +night, and he never ate so much in his life as he ate in those four +days. It did him good, and he didn't look tired a bit when he left. + + + + +CHAPTER IX + +The day Father got here was a beautiful day. The train was due at +six-thirty in the morning, but it never hurries and has only been on +time three times since it has been running, and Uncle Henson said there +was no use getting to the station until seven o'clock, but I told him +if he wasn't in front of the porch by six o'clock I'd send for Mr. +Briggs and go down in his automobile, and there was no need to say +anything more. Mention automobile to Uncle Henson and his back begins +to go up just like a cat's. There are only a few automobiles in town, +though a good many people have Fords, and several offered to lend me +theirs, but not wanting to hurt Miss Susanna, who has been sending the +same carriage to the station for over thirty years, I didn't accept +their offers, but went down in the coach, as Uncle Henson calls it. +Its top is still upholstered in a sun-shaped thing which was once +yellow satin and now tattered and torn, and hardly anybody ever rides +in it, but when a new boarder comes Miss Susanna always says, in that +queenly way of hers, "You will take the carriage to the station, +Henson," and Uncle Henson's old gray head bows as if at royal orders, +and they do not know they are playing a part that belongs to the days +that are no more. That is what Tennyson, I think, calls a time that +will never be the same again. + +Uncle Henson's coachman's coat, long and faded and once brass-buttoned, +and a battered hat to match, are always put on to meet the train; and +when he held the door open for Father to get in the old, ramshackle +thing he did it in a way that could be sold for big money, if manner +could be bought, and Father got inside with equal elegance. After he +was in and Uncle Henson couldn't see him, he looked at me as if to ask +if I thought it would stand, and I nodded back yes, and slipped my hand +in his and hugged him again, I was so glorious glad to see him! He is +such a splendid Father--my Father is, I am so sorry for girls who +haven't one like mine, and not one of them has. He is the only one of +his kind on earth. + +Everybody was on the porch to meet us when we drove up, and Miss +Susanna gave him such a gracious welcome, and was so sweet and stately +and quaint and lovely in her white dotted Swiss muslin dress which Miss +Araminta Armstrong says she has been wearing for six summers, and which +has the dearest little darns in it, that Father's face got real +flushed, and once I really believe there were tears in his eyes. He +might have been an ambassador at some court who was being received, for +at no court in Europe could a lady bow as Mrs. General Gaines bows, and +she gave her best to Father when he was presented. I don't like her, +but she certainly is an old swell. And then Isham (he's Uncle Henson +and Aunt Mandy's grandson, and totes water all day long from the well +up into the house, when he isn't playing a Jew's-harp in the sun) came +out and got Father's bags and things and took them up-stairs, and a +little later Uncle Henson brought up on a silver tray one of those mint +juleps, about which Father told Mr. Willie Prince, who made it, that +the half could never be told, and at eight o'clock we had breakfast. +Usually Father doesn't take anything at home but grape-fruit and +coffee, but that morning, and every morning he was here, he ate +waffles, and batter-bread, and beaten biscuits, and everything else +Miss Susanna would urge him to try, and he said he couldn't understand +how he could eat so much. I didn't tell him, but I think it was +because of the juleps. They're the best things for poor appetites ever +invented yet, Major Hairston says, and he ought to know, being over +seventy and never having missed taking two a day since he could fix +them for himself. After breakfast we talked for a while on the porch, +and then I took Father out to show him the town. + +I wouldn't have taken him out if the day had been hot, but it wasn't +hot. It was one of those gorgeous days that sometimes come in summer +after a thunder-storm and which have the feel and taste of early +October; and being in the mountains it was cooler on that account, and +I could see Father breathe deep, and the tiredness began to go away as +we walked and talked. That is, I talked. He tried to at first, and +then gave up. Everybody in town knew he was coming--I had told +them--and they came down from their porches and shook hands with him, +and said they were so glad to see him and they hoped he was going to +stay some time, and that they would call as soon as he was rested, and +a whole lot of other nice things, so that Father almost got flurried, +he was so pleased and warmed up. At home he is always hurrying in the +morning to get to the office, and at night hurrying to get away, and of +course we don't have neighbors, and it was so queer to find everybody +so friendly and interested that by the time we got back to Rose Hill he +looked like another man. + + + + +CHAPTER X + +I took him down Princess Street first, of course, and showed him the +bank and post-office and moving-picture places, and the court-house and +churches and stores, and specially the drug-store, which is a sort of +standing-up club for the men; and I told him whose were the offices; +and Whythe came out of his and spoke to him in a perfectly perfect way, +and said he hoped he would be permitted to show him some of the things +of interest in the neighborhood. And also he said if it was convenient +to us he would call in a car (Whythe hasn't even a Ford, but he has a +Twin-Six manner) in the morning and we would drive to Horseshoe Falls, +and from there go on to Spruce Mountain, where something historic +happened during the Revolution, I think; and only once when talking did +he look right in my eyes. His sent a message, and my heart flopped +around so it felt like a frog in a can of milk, and, I was so afraid +Father would hear, I told Whythe we would go with pleasure and were +much obliged, but we couldn't stop any longer, as there was a good deal +to see before dinner. He shook hands twice with Father, who, when he +was out of hearing, asked me how a young man could leave his business +in the morning and go riding. I told him business could always be left +in Twickenham Town, and he laughed and said he wished he lived in a +town of that sort. I wish he did. + +We stopped just a minute to speak to Mr. Bugg, who sells vegetables and +eggs and things, and whose wife has just had twins again, and this time +has a milk-leg also, and Father shook hands with him and asked about +the babies, I thinking just in time to tell him to do it, and then we +had some soda-water at Mrs. Grump's. It is the most awful soda-water +in the world, Mrs. Grump's is, but it is wet and cold, and you can sit +down when drinking it, and while we sat she touched up the town and +Father nearly fell out of his chair at the way she did it. If Mrs. +Grump were for sale, I'd sell everything I own to get enough to buy +her, for the way she can put into words what she thinks of human beings +would make a graven image come to life. She never smiles herself. + +After we got through with Princess Street we turned in by Colonel +Rixby's and then went down by the Baconses' and into The Court, whose +trees were planted by order of some lordly person, kin to the Aikens +who have been sitting under the shade of their greatness ever since, +and then we strolled by the Eppes house, for I wanted Father to see it. +It is the stateliest old place in town and its garden of old-fashioned +flowers makes one think the twentieth century is a mistake and ought +never to have been, but ordinarily I pass it quickly, as I don't care +for its owners. The house has perfect lines and the dearest little +panes of glass in its deep, wide windows; and inside it has big +fireplaces and beautifully carved woodwork and wonderful old furniture +and fearful old portraits, and I certainly wanted Father to see +everything in it, but I didn't expect him to do it, for the House of +Eppes doesn't admire me any more than I admire it--and then the +unexpected happened. + +As we reached the gate we saw the whole bunch sitting in the wide, cool +hall--Sister reading aloud, Sister Edwina making tatting, and Miss Lily +Lou peeling a peach for Mother from a basket on the table beside her, +and I was going to pass by and just bow to Mother as pleasantly and +politely as I could (she was the only one who saw us), when to my +surprise she got up and ordered me to stop by a wave of her hand. I +stopped. She does not approve of me. She thinks it very indelicate in +me to accept the attentions of one whose engagement had so recently +been broken, and, while she will never recover from stupefaction that +Elizabeth should disagree with her son, she attributed that action on +Elizabeth's part to lack of sense and does not hesitate to say so, just +as she has not hesitated to say things about me that were not as +Christian as they might have been. She knew, however, what was +expected of Twickenham Town and that personal feelings were to be paid +no attention to where politeness was concerned, and with a sort of +scepter movement she beckoned to me and commanded us to come in. We +went. + +It is a queer thing how nice disagreeable people can be when they want +to, and that morning the entire Eppes family (even Sister Edwina, who's +the limit) were so polite and pleasant that Father never would have +imagined how cocky and sniffy they usually are. I behaved as well as +they did, and when we came away I couldn't remember a thing I had said +that I shouldn't. We didn't stay but half an hour. I wouldn't have +held out a whole hour, and neither would they, and so, after we had +seen all the beautiful old things downstairs and been introduced to all +the painted ancestors, I got away quick, for Miss Anna was showing +signs I didn't think were safe. They don't know that they worship +idols of wood and glass and silver and china, and images in old gilt +frames, but they do, and the steel trust hasn't money enough to buy +them. It's a pity they won't sell a few and put the money in some new +clothes, for those they wear are a sight to behold. As we were +leaving, Mother Eppes invited us to take dinner with her on Sunday in a +way that was more a command than an invitation and we accepted in a +manner to match, though inside I was raging to think we'd have to go. +And then I remembered it would be a regular thriller to be eating at +the table with Whythe and his family and my family, and I hoped I'd +remember to call him Mr. Eppes, as down here they do that up to the day +of the marriage, the first name being thought too familiar until after +the ceremony, and even then in public. Grace Marvin, who is engaged to +Richard Clarke, calls him Dick, but that is because she isn't +ancestral; just accepted, Mrs. Grump says, and she knows, being +familiar with the history of everybody in town. + +They were perfect days, the four Father spent in Twickenham Town, and +he was made over when he went away. Every morning Mr. Willie Prince +sent him up a mint julep that started the day so cheerfully he was +happy through its every minute; and Major Roke, who makes the best ones +in town, would come for him at twelve o'clock and take him to his +house, and Mr. Letcher always managed to get hold of him about six in +the afternoon, and at bedtime some one else would send one in. And +poor Father, who never drinks anything at home, it not being good for +him, was in an awful state of mind at first, and then he decided he +would rather die than hurt the feelings of the senders and he'd take +the chance on his health. He took. + +I'm a fighting disbeliever in whisky, and if I had any say I'd say it +couldn't be made except for sickness, but you couldn't get certain +Twickenham-Towners to believe it is a dangerous thing, and to take a +little something for the stomach's sake is a recommendation in the +Bible they approve of and obey. It doesn't seem to kill people here or +some would have been a long time dead, but there are one or two it is a +pity it hasn't killed. It does much worse than kill; it ruins. I hope +next time Father will say the doctor doesn't permit him to touch +anything. I didn't tell him so, of course, and I am afraid he will +manage not to see the doctor before he leaves; but, anyhow, the morning +and night juleps can be thrown out of the window after a sip to get the +smell on if he wants to throw. I wouldn't take a bet that he will +want, but I'm hoping. + +I didn't see much of Whythe while Father was here--that is, by himself. +He was awfully nice to Father and he liked him very much (Father liked +Whythe, I mean), but he couldn't understand why he didn't get more of a +move on and make business for himself. I told him in Twickenham Town +people waited for business to come to them, and everybody knew Whythe +was a lawyer, and if they needed his services they would let him know, +and if they didn't there was no use waiting around, which was why he +was out of his office so much of the time. And then Father asked me +when I had heard from Billy and when he was coming home; and, thankful +to change the subject, I told him all I knew and got out the cards and +showed them to him. + +We had so many things to talk about--Mother and the girls and the home +people and things, and the people he had met in Twickenham Town--that +he hadn't talked about Billy, and when I showed him the cards he said +Billy must have mighty little to do but write them, as there were +fifty-six and he hadn't been gone but five weeks. He seemed to think +that right many, so I didn't say anything much about his letters, which +are long and once a week, but told him Billy would sail on September +16th, and get back before I did--that is, if I stayed until the 27th. +He said I could if I wanted to, and that he would come down for the +last week and take me back with him, and I was so happy I swirled him +around in my arms and danced a dance I made up as I went along, and +both Billy and Whythe Eppes were out of his mind when he stopped for +breath. And that night he went away. Also that night I almost cried +my eyes out for sorrow at his going and for gladness that he was my +Father. I wonder if all girls love their fathers as I love mine! + + + + +CHAPTER XI + +Billy has been pretty good about writing. Much better than I have +been. I told him I would tell him all about Twickenham and the people, +and what they did and how they did, and I intended to do it, but that +is my chief trouble. I'm a grand intender and a poor doer. Billy +never promises and always does. He sends cards from every place, he +goes to, and a good many from the same place so I can see what he is +seeing, which I couldn't do if he wrote a book of descriptions. He +doesn't tell much about the cities and towns, most of which I have been +in myself and am glad he leaves out, but he writes awfully interesting +things about the places he pokes into by himself and the people he +meets, and I almost die laughing over his accounts of his sister and a +beau his mother has caught for her. She is a dandy-looking girl, his +sister is, and wears the smartest clothes I ever saw except Florine's, +and if Patricia has really landed a duke or a count or a thing of that +sort, his mother will have a wedding that will fit the fellow all +right. He's apt to be landed. + +I never have understood how Billy was born of his parents. He cares no +more for flum-foolishness than I do, which is why we have so much fun +over the efforts certain mothers we know make to help their daughters +get married, and we've decided to be failures as social successes and +enjoy ourselves. My mother isn't at all like his mother. She is a +precious mother, mine is, and adores Father and her children, but she +is in the parade and has to keep step, not having courage to get out, +and she thinks she must give her daughters every opportunity, and for +daughters in Mother's world opportunity means marriage. Until she gets +us settled she won't feel as if her duty had been done. That's why she +has gone with Florine and Jessica to the same place Florine went to +last summer with the Logans. Florine has had a good many beaux, but +none of them has been just what she had set her mind on, and last +summer she met a man I believe she fell in love with. Anyhow, she has +gone where it will be convenient for him to see her if he wants to, and +he must want, as Mother says in every one of her letters that Mr. +Jeffry has just come or just gone. He came to see Florine last winter, +and a blind person could tell he was worth having. I hope they will +take each other. Mother would be so pleased. Jessica and I are not +apt to do much for ourselves in the marrying line, so it is left to +Florine to make the catch. + +She is very beautiful, Florine is. She knows it and she loves +beautiful things and wouldn't think of marrying any one who could not +give them to her. She wouldn't marry a man who isn't decent and +straight and all that, not being that kind, but neither is she +romantic, and nothing on earth could make her lose her head. She is +cool and deliberate and far-seeing, and not apt to ask herself too many +questions about love alone when thinking about marriage. She is a +dream to look at, which Jessica isn't, but I love Jessica best. + +Last night in bed I got to thinking about old Jess, and wondering how +she was making out with that bunch up there, and I almost rolled out at +the way her nose must be turning up inside of her at some of the things +she was seeing and hearing and had to take part in; and I laughed so +loud that Miss Susanna came in my room to see if anything were the +matter. I told her no, and that I was just thinking of something, so +she pattered back, and I put my face in the pillow to keep her from +hearing me again. But it was hard not to let it come out. Mother's +daughters are a mixture all right, and no more alike than if they +weren't related to one another. Being a parent must be an anxious job. +I hope I will have a dozen children, but they'll probably be right much +to manage. If I turn out to be a childless old maid, I'll adopt a boy +and girl, anyhow. I can do that if I can't do anything else. + +Jessica is the clever one of our family. Florine has the beauty and +Jessica the brains, and so far nothing has shown signs in me, but +something may turn up yet. Jessica is an A.M., and she has Ideas and +Views and Opinions which she isn't stingy with and lets anybody have +who is within hearing, and she wanted to be something, have a Career +and get an Identity, which she says a woman has no chance of doing as +long as she sinks herself in marriage; but Father said she couldn't go +to any more colleges until she had had a fling at fun, for it wasn't +fair to Mother. She came out last winter and had a fearful rush +because she was so different from the other girls. + +I don't believe Jessica would ever have wasted a winter doing the +things she did last year if she hadn't wanted to see for herself what +was in it, anyhow, in society I mean, so she took a header and plunged +all right. She says she has a scientific and analytical mind and she +worked it all out--the number of hours and days and weeks and months +she had spent flopping around from one party to another, and doing the +things she was supposed to do, and saying the things she wasn't +supposed to say, and then she estimated the cost in time and strength +and money and wear and tear on her character, and announced that it +wasn't a paying business, and at the end of the year she was going to +get out. The year won't be up until October and that is why she is +with Mother and Florine this summer. + +What she is going in for when it is up I don't believe she knows +herself, yet. She says woman to-day is in the most unsettled and +uncertain state that any animal has ever been in since the first one, a +mollusk, or something without a backbone started to get one. And that +it will take time for woman to evolute into being the best kind of a +human being she is capable of becoming, and that the next step in the +evoluting is to get out of her head some of the foolishness put in it +by men people who didn't know what they were talking about. Mother +thinks it fearful in her to talk as she does, and can't understand how +she can be so daring and so indelicate as to speak about coming from +mollusks and things which don't have spinal columns and nervous +systems, but Jessica says that is because Mother belongs to a day that +didn't know about such things, and that the modern woman is shedding +the shucks which have kept her a caterpillar much longer than was +necessary. A good many old ideas she thinks are shucks--that is, she +pretends to; but she is an old dear just the same, if she does say +things about people which it isn't polite to say. + +I love old Jess. She isn't but twenty-two, and she will be less sniffy +some of these days and not so scornful and impatient with repeaters and +parasiters and people like that, but just now she says they aren't +worth wasting time on. She can talk you right into seeing her way, and +the first thing you know you are agreeing with her, and she has landed +you before you realized the net was out. Landed outsiders, I mean. +She will never land Mother and Florine. I love to hear her talk, +though I don't think I am going to be a Careering person. I'd like to +be one, but with a dozen children I am afraid there won't be time. I +wouldn't tell old Jess, but I don't think she is going to Career very +long, either. I believe she is in love with the man who taught her +some of the ologies she is so interested in. He is awfully nice, but +not very practical. He is a psychological sociologist or a +sociological psychologist, I don't know which, but it doesn't matter. +If Jess marries him she will run him and the house. + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +I wonder what made me get on the subject of my sisters when I began +with Billy and the reason I had not written him as often as he has +written me, but that is the way I do everything in life. If I were a +preacher I wouldn't hold my job long, for the thing I started on would +have about as much connection with the thing I ended with as the moon +with milk. Not that that would be unusual, for a good many ministers +have the same failing and skip about just as I do, but my trouble would +be in hopping from one subject to another so fast that the congregation +would be in Jericho one minute and in Jerusalem the next and never know +how it made the jump. As I am never going to be a preacher, I am not +worrying about my unfitness to be one, but what does worry me sometimes +is that my hopping habit will be my ruination when I begin to write a +book. My characters will never keep together, or do the proper things +or say suitable ones. They will probably get so jumbled up no one will +be able to tell which is the chief hero or heroine, and there will be +no logical development at all, which my English teacher insists is an +elemental requirement of fiction if it isn't of life. I thought this +summer I was going to begin some sort of book just for practice, but by +the time I get through putting down the things I scribble about the +day's doings, and write to Father and send my weekly letter to Mother +and the girls, and run off something every now and then to Billy, and +answer the notes I get from Whythe and some of the kiddies around here +who think they're grown, I don't feel like writing on a book, which is +why I haven't begun one yet. I will never be able to write one that +tells of dark deeds and treacherous doings and love-sick lovers, or one +which has suspended interest or rapid action and narrow escapes, for I +know very little of such things, and I will never do much with plots. +The people I know do not have very exciting lives and here in +Twickenham they trot along and do the same thing over and over, and one +day is very much like the other, so there isn't much inspiration for a +thriller, and thrillers are the style in books to-day. That is one +reason I thought I had better wait until the style changes and while +waiting enjoy myself with the people here who know how to do that +better than any people on earth. I'm enjoying myself all right. + +Of course, now that I am in love, I could write volumes on how +scrumptious it is and how floppy I feel whenever I see Whythe, +especially when he keeps his deep, dark eyes on me as if he were trying +to read my soul when we happen to meet at the foot of the hill and sit +on the worm fence for a while. I don't think he is trying to really +read my soul, for he isn't much on reading anything, but he certainly +can say beautiful things. They aren't so, but they sound well, and I +must admit I enjoy hearing them. They make me feel so grown-upy, and +then, too, it will be a great help when I begin my book to remember +what a man says on certain occasions and how he says it. They are +natural couriers, the men in this town are, but they don't always mean +to be taken in earnest, and Mr. James Burke came near getting in an +awful mess by paying a girl a lot of compliments he oughtn't to have +paid, he being a married man and she not knowing it. She was a very +serious person and believed all that was told her and came near +breaking her engagement with another man on account of the pretty +speeches Mr. Burke made to her. She was from Rhode Island and visiting +May Strudwick, who told her for mercy's sake not to pay any attention +to speeches of that sort and to hold on to the Rhode-Islander, for Mr. +Burke said the same fluff to all the girls who came to Twickenham, and +as long as it was just eyebrows and things of that kind no harm was +done. But she couldn't understand and went home sooner than she +expected. I understand. It's lots of fun--the different ways of +saying the same thing--and all enlightenment is advantageous. + +A few nights ago Whythe got fearfully sentimental and said all sorts of +thrilly, foolish nonsense, and the way he said it certainly added to +its enjoyment. He's a corking courter, and if he could teach the way +he does it he would have crowded classes all right. We were at Bessie +Debree's party, and just before supper we went out on the side porch, +which has bushels of roses on it and no lights, and sat down on a +rustic bench in the corner where we could hear the music and see the +moon and not be seen, and the minute we sat I knew what was coming. + +Whythe put his elbow on the back of the seat and, chin in the palm of +his hand, looked at me as if we were on a desert island and there was +no one else in all the world but me, and he would ask for no one else +if I alone was there; and then with his other hand he tried to take out +of my fingers a rose he had just pulled and given me. I remembered in +time that Jess had told me to keep my hands to myself if anybody seemed +interested in them, so I put the rose on the bench and sat on my hands +and asked him if he did not think Marjorie Graham a perfectly beautiful +person; and he said he hadn't noticed her sufficiently to know what she +looked like, as he never saw but one face now. And then he leaned a +little closer and asked me if I knew how wonderful I was and what my +eyes could do to a man's heart if I would only let come in them what +could come, and which he hoped would some day come only for him; and I +asked him what it was, not knowing, as it had never been mentioned +before, and he said it was a thing a man would die for. And then he +took the rose up and put it to his lips and asked me if I would marry +him; asked me if I could never care for him as he cared for me, for he +knew now that he had never really loved before, and if I would promise +to marry him he would be in heaven, his happiness would be so great. + +It was perfectly thrilling, much better than anything I have ever seen +on the stage. He tried to get one of the hands I was still sitting on, +but I thought I had better not let him have it, as we were not engaged, +and Jess had said no affectionaries until you are engaged. And then, +too, I remembered he had probably said the same things several times +before, he seemed so familiar with them, and I had a feeling that Billy +was standing by, perfectly disgusted, but ready to fish me out if I +fell in. I came pretty near falling, and then I told Whythe I wouldn't +be through college until I was twenty and I didn't believe in waiting +for anything on earth for four years, and though it was awfully nice in +him to ask me to marry him, my father would have fits if he thought I +was listening to him do it, and that we had better go in. + +I wish I had had a kodak and could have snapped the look that came over +his face when I suggested going in. He was perfectly astonished. Also +he was indignant and grieved and the look he bent upon me was truly +burning. As for his voice--Sothern couldn't have surpassed it. After +a while he said he thought I had more sympathy, more understanding of a +love such as his, and if I realized its depth I would not keep him +waiting four years, as four years at college was all nonsense for a +woman; and then he got my hand, anyhow, and I jumped up, for somebody +was coming, and, besides, if we hadn't gone in we'd have been in an +argument right off, with love left out, on the subject of education and +women. I did not want him to think I was not appreciative, however, +and though I went in with Mr. Keane, who had come for his dance, I gave +Whythe a little look that was not unfriendly as I left him. I am +afraid it was not even discouraging, but he seemed so mysterious and +tragic and amazed that I should leave him at such a critical time that +I thought a little look wouldn't hurt. I noticed, as we reached the +door, that he was lighting a cigarette, and I knew his feelings would +soon be soothed. Man has no sorrow that smoking may not cure. + +When we went home that night other people were in the automobile (I +always see that that happens, knowing how Mother would feel about it) +and Whythe, of course, had no chance to continue a former conversation, +but his silence said a lot, and when he helped me out of the car he +helped much more than was necessary and held my hands so tight he +nearly broke my little finger; and the look he gave me was a thriller +all right. Every time I've thought of it since my heart has thumped so +I know I must be in love, for all books say that is a reliable symptom. +Being proposed to is awfully interesting, and the reason I like it so +much is that I am not apt to have many proposals of Whythe's sort, as +that kind has gone out of fashion, owing to golf and tennis and country +clubs and so much association. Plain statement is about all a girl +gets nowadays, I am told. Jacqueline Smith told Florine Mr. Smith had +wired her he had to go to South America and asked her if she would +marry him and go with him, and she wired back she would, and that was +all the courting they had, though they seem very happy. And a girl +Jess knows said the man she married had asked her how he stood with +her, that she stood all right with him, and that was the way they knew +they cared for each other. But I'm not that sort. I am very romantic +and I like a lot of words, which is why I am just crazy about Whythe's +letters. + +If Whythe doesn't make a success of law or politics he could certainly +make a living writing letters of a certain sort. He's an expert at +them and greatly gifted, and though I don't say much in mine, thinking +it safer to telephone than write, I do tell him that his are perfectly +lovely, at which he doesn't seem displeased. He still begs me to marry +him, and is so fearfully polite about it that I don't like to ask him +what he has to marry on, and so far as I know he has only nerve and his +mother's home. I would not like to spend eternity as a maiden lady, +but I'd much rather so spend it than dwell under the vine and fig-tree +of the person who would be a mother-in-law to Whythe's wife. My heart +goes out to Elizabeth every time I think of the fate that will +eventually be hers. Also it goes out to the House of Eppes. When +opposing elements meet something usually happens. I'm betting on +Elizabeth, but I may be wrong. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + +Jehoshaphat the Golden! For two days Twickenham Town has been standing +on its head and wriggling its heels in the air, and nothing has been +talked about since it appeared except its appearance. Every tongue in +town has had its say, and everybody in town has been on somebody else's +porch and talked it over; and as for Miss Susanna, I believe she cried +the whole night through, last night. The first night she was too dazed +to take it in. The Twickenham Town _Sentinel_ had it on its front page +in the middle column in letters indecently large, Miss Bettie Simcoe +says, and it certainly did make a sensation: "Mrs. Roger S. Payne +announces the engagement of her niece Elizabeth Hamilton Carter to Mr. +Algernon Grice Baker, of Perryville, Wisconsin," was what the +Twickenham-Towners waked up and read on Wednesday the 1st of August, +and if the dynamite-plant which has made business so good for Buzzard +Brothers, the undertakers, had exploded, it couldn't have caused more +of a stir. Twickenham wasn't only amazed; it was indignant, and it +couldn't believe it was true. But it was true, for the next day Miss +Susanna got a letter from Elizabeth, telling her all about her +engagement and that she would be home very soon and bring him with her, +and it was the night of the day the letter was received that Miss +Susanna went early to her room and locked her door for a while (that +is, my door, for she is sleeping in my room during the August rush) and +cried all night long. I had to pretend I didn't know, for she didn't +want me to know how hurt and distressed she was that Elizabeth should +have so treated her, and as I didn't sleep any more than she did, +though, owing to very different feelings about Elizabeth, I made up my +mind as to some things I would say to her when she got back. And if +she has never read "King Lear" I will see that she hears it read before +very long with a glossary, and comments of my own on ingratitude and +things of that sort. Also she may hear some other things. + +I have been perfectly furious with Elizabeth for the way she has +treated the aunt who has been mother and father and all things else to +her, but I can't help laughing at the way Twickenham Town has taken the +engagement. + +As for Whythe--I have wished for Billy a dozen times of late, for only +Billy could see what a scream it is, the shock to Whythe's vanity that +Elizabeth's beau is proving. I can't speak of it to any one else, and +keeping it to myself is a great strain. At first he seemed dazed with +unbelief, and then he became scorny and sniffy and shruggy and smiley, +and though he says little about his successor, whom he hasn't seen yet, +his manner indicates that as a substitute for himself he considers him +an insult. + +Last night at the gate he talked to me about it for a while, and then +he asked me when I was going to tell him I would marry him, and why was +it I would not engage myself to him and take him out of his miserable +state of uncertainty and make him the happiest man in the world, and +why-- Oh, my granny! he spieled it off so beautifully and his eyes +helped so wonderfully, also the moon, which was half out and half in, +that I stayed a little longer at the gate than I should, perhaps, and +let him say things he shouldn't, but his fluency was so enjoyable I +couldn't get away. After a while, however, when he had run down a +little, I told him I didn't think it would be respectful to what might +have been if I engaged myself to him, and that sixteen was too young to +be engaged, and then, too, it wasn't positively certain that a certain +young person was going to marry another young person just because she +was at present engaged to him. At which he got perfectly furious and +said he would not marry that certain person if she was the only woman +left on earth; that she had treated him as no lady should treat a +gentleman, and that she was vain and mercenary and ambitious, and he +was mortified to think he had ever imagined he had loved so shallow and +weak and changeable a girl, and-- + +"But you did love her, didn't you?" I got up on the gate-post, swung +my feet down, and put my hands in my lap and out of reach, the post not +being big enough for two. "Everybody says you were frightfully in love +with her and you didn't think she was shallow and weak and mercenary +until you had the break, and maybe you may change your mind back again +about her some day, and then where would I be?" I put my chin in my +hands and my elbows in my lap and looked down at him, and he looked so +hurt and surprised that I saw he had not thought of his own real gift +for changing, and I realized that his attention ought to be drawn to +some things he was apt to forget. Quick as a flash, though, he said I +had opened new worlds to him; that I stimulated and inspired him as no +one had ever done, and that he would never love any one as he loved me, +and that he would wait forever if necessary for me. Also he said he +would never change back again to a certain person, as she had killed +his love, and would I not promise to be just his? And I had to sit +tight on my hands, his manner was so very imploring; and then, before I +could say anything, I heard Mr. Willie Prince, who was sitting on the +front porch, fanning, cough rather loud and come down the steps and +call Ben, who was barking, and I knew Mr. Willie was doing what he +thought was his duty, and I got down from the post and told Whythe good +night. He went away like the young man in the Bible, very sorrowful, +and I went in. + +It wasn't late, but everybody had gone in except Miss Susanna and Mr. +Willie, and when I sat down in a rocking-chair Miss Susanna looked at +me as if she didn't know whether to say anything or not, and I saw she +was worried. But before I could ask what was the matter she got up and +kissed me good night and went in, so I asked Mr. Willie. + +He wouldn't tell me at first, though I could see he was dying to do it, +but after a while he said Miss Susanna was the sort that found life of +the present day a hard thing to accept, and, fanning himself with his +palm leaf, he looked at me as if I were one of the reasons she found +life hard. "Miss Susanna," he said, "is a lady of the old school where +love and honor were placed above riches and mere material things, and +it was a blow to her to find how readily young people could change +their affections and break their plighted vows and be blind to their +best interests, which was to keep along the same path and not be +tempted out of it by passing people and worldly ambitions." And as he +talked in his fine little cambric-needle voice that sounded as if it +came out of a squeaky cabinet, I knew he was meaning more than he was +saying, and I sat up and listened until he stopped for breath. + +"Is that all?" I asked, and got up to go in, "for if it is I don't +think Miss Susanna need worry herself. People in one generation aren't +very different from people in another where self-interest is concerned. +Everybody knows Mrs. Loraine married her husband for his money, though +loving Mr. Spence, and Miss Susanna was one of her bridesmaids; and if +Elizabeth prefers to marry a rich man to a poor one, I don't see +anything new about that." And also I said it wasn't likely that love +and honor were ever going to die out, and a few other things would live +a long time yet, and he need not bother any more than Miss Susanna +concerning present-day young people; and then to my surprise he asked +me to sit down and told me what he enjoyed telling very much. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + +"Everybody has been talking about the way Whythe Eppes has been rushing +you," he began, fanning as hard as he could fan, "and several people +have been to see Miss Susanna and told her they thought your parents +ought to know--" + +He didn't get any further. I stopped him. It was silly in me to get +hot, but I got hot all right, and in all my life I never wanted anybody +as I wanted Billy right then at my side. He doesn't get mad the way I +do. He would see that talk he did not like was stopped in two minutes, +but I was too fighting angry to stop my own tongue, and I said things +to fat Miss Nancy Willie Prince I oughtn't to have said. Among them +that my parents would not have permitted me to come to this town or any +other if not perfectly certain I knew how to behave myself wherever I +went, and that whatever was advisable for them to know concerning me +they would know without the assistance of Miss Bettie Simcoe or Mrs. +Caperton (she is a frisky little widow who has no use for young girls) +or any other Twickenham-Towner. And then, perhaps because he was so +flustered he didn't know what he was saying, he told me riches were a +great temptation to any young man, and everybody, of course, knew my +father was wealthy, though he must say it had not been learned from the +family. And that Whythe, being poor from a money standpoint, had +naturally been tempted, especially as his engagement had been so +recently broken with a girl he had been in love with since childhood, +and I, being young, didn't understand and was under the impression that +young men meant all they said, and-- + +He would be talking now if I had not stamped my foot and stopped his +rambling. His insinuations sounded as if I were a feeble-minded +creature and couldn't tell truth from untruth, or know when a man meant +or didn't mean what he said, and had never heard things of the same +sort before. I've heard them before, and in several different places. +I am a good many things I ought not to be, but I am not feeble-minded. +I told him-- It does not matter what I told him, but I made him +understand I could take care of myself without the help of the town, +and, while I appreciated his effort to keep me from thinking the men in +Twickenham did not mean what they said, and were not to be relied on, +and not to be trusted, and that honor was not held very high by them +where young girls were concerned, it was difficult to believe it, for I +had been made to understand by others that certain old-fashioned things +were still held sacred there, and the dangers and temptations of the +city were absent. When I saw how red his fat, round face got and how +squirmy his legs and how hard he fanned I knew I had better go in. I +went, but I didn't say good night. + +Mad! Was I mad? I was. For a long time I sat by the window and +talked to Billy in my mind and told him what I thought of men old-maids +and prissy places and gossipy spinsters and flirtatious widows, and of +people who didn't have anything to talk of but one another; and then, +as the moon came out clearer, I seemed to see myself clearer also, and +after a while it came over me that maybe I had been a little nicer to +Whythe than was necessary just to see if a man couldn't get comforted +sooner than he thought. I had been doing a little scientific +experimenting along a different way from Jess's way; and then my eyes +got open wide and I saw what Mr. Willie had been trying to tell me, +which was that Whythe was probably taking practical consolation and was +not ignorant of the fact that my Father was not a poor man. + +At the thought something got into my backbone and I sat up. I had been +fooling myself and didn't know it. I don't mean I had believed all the +thrilly love things Whythe had been saying. They came natural to him +and he might have said them to some other girl if not to me, but I had +not dreamed he had any thought of an advantageous alliance, as Billy +calls the thing his mother is hoping his sister will make, or that any +one could associate such a thought with me. It didn't seem possible, +and I don't believe Whythe is that sort. Still, men are queer ducks, +Jess says, and one never can tell what is in the back of their brain +from the words of their mouth, and if Whythe was imagining I had any +value outside of my own self I would like to find it out. How I was +going to find out I did not know, and when I said my prayers I started +to pray that a rattling good way would turn up, but I remembered it +wasn't exactly a thing to pray about and that watching might be better. + +I had had a grand time being in love. Every day there was some new +evidence of how nice a beau is, and though the other boys didn't let +Whythe have it all his own way, as they called it, and we had a jolly +time together and I danced and rode and picnicked and pleasured with +all of them, still, it was understood that Whythe was my steady and +they gave him right much chance. It had been loads of fun having a +steady, and I knew now how excited Mazie, one of our maids at home, +must have felt the day she became engaged to hers, who was the milkman. +But I had somehow thought that nobody but girls of Mazie's sort had +steadies, and I had wished I could be a maid for a few weeks just to +find out how it would feel to possess some one and be possessed by him. +I guess it amounts to about the same thing, though, love does, no +matter in what way it comes to one or by what name we call it, if it is +the genuine thing. I have certainly never felt about Whythe in the way +Mazie must have felt about her milkman, judging by her face, but I had +been enjoying myself and I didn't intend to stop with too much +suddenness. Mr. Willie had warned me and I would remember, but it is +against the law to condemn a man unheard. The Bible says so. I would +go slowly for once in my life and give Whythe a chance to conduct his +own defense. It wouldn't be necessary to mention that a case was being +tried or that I would be both judge and jury. There are times in life +when it is well to keep some things to oneself. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + +Yesterday it poured in torrents all day. None of us could get out of +the house, so while Miss Araminta darned my stockings, which hadn't +been touched since I came to Twickenham Town, I read aloud to the whole +bunch in the library and we had a very nice time. Miss Araminta has +tried to teach me to darn since I have been here, but she has not +succeeded in doing it! I will never be a darner. I have asked Mother +not to get me all-over silk stockings, as the Lisle-thread feet last +much longer, but she doesn't seem to remember, and one of my charities +is giving my nice stockings away when they can no longer be worn with +self-respect. Clarissa, Mother's maid, is supposed to keep them in +order, but she doesn't do it, and she has headaches so often I don't +like to say anything to her, with the result that Mother thinks I wear +out an awful lot, and yet I know she wouldn't want me to wear stockings +with holes in them. I found out early in life that it is foolish to +try to do things you are not by nature fitted to do, and I am not +fitted by nature to sit still for hours and fill up a little hole in a +stocking to save a few cents or a dollar or so. I don't do it. I +would rather save in some other way. + +Miss Araminta loves to darn. Also she loves pretty clothes in a way +that is truly pitiful, not having the means to get them, and she has +about as much idea how to have her few things made as a Comanche Indian +has of _vers-libre_. If she would wear those that suited her style she +would look dear, but she wears clothes of many colors made, as she +thinks, in the prevailing fashion, and of course she is a sight for all +beholders. While I was reading _Pendennis_ out loud I was wondering at +the same time what Miss Araminta was going to wear to the reception +Judge and Mrs. Maclean are going to give to their two married daughters +and their husbands on the 17th of August, which is the big thing of the +year for Twickenham Town; but of course I couldn't ask her. I knew she +had nothing suitable or that had not been the subject of nudges and +remarks under the breath, and smiles that could be heard. And I also +knew nothing could keep her away, for she dearly loves to go to parties +and is not often invited, being of an inconvenient age for +entertainments, and I wished something could come to pass that would be +to her interest. + +As I read I poked around in my mind trying to think what might be done, +and suddenly something came to me, and after a while I put the book +down and began to talk of the different things that were going on in +town and the many visitors who were already there, and then I asked +Miss Araminta if she didn't think lavender was a lovely color. She +said it was the one she loved best and all her life she had longed for +a lavender satin with everything to match, but she knew now she would +never have it and she rarely let herself wish for things any more. And +she sighed the softest little sigh, like a mother whose baby had died a +long time ago, but who always kept it in her heart, and I said to +myself, "Go up-stairs, Kitty Canary, and think out a way," and +up-stairs I went. + +August is The Season in Twickenham Town, and there is hardly a family +in it that doesn't have company or boarders, or whose sons and +daughters don't come home for their holiday, and Miss Bettie Simcoe +says it's perfectly scandalous, the flirting that goes on. Miss Bettie +thinks anything matrimonial is close to scandalous, and she is +continually raising her eyebrows and making a half moon of her mouth at +what she says is the forwardness and freeness of present-day young +people. Miss Susanna always has a crowded house in August. A Doctor +Macafee and his wife and two daughters are here from Florida, and a +Miss LeRoy from New Hampshire, and Judge Lampton and his wife from +Alabama, and how she manages to put them away is known only to herself. + +When I heard she was going to give up her room and take a tiny one in +the garret I made up my mind I would have an awful dream that night, a +regular nightmare, that would scare her to death and make her come in +my room to see what was the matter. I had it and she came, and I told +her I was subject to nightmares and ought not to sleep in a room by +myself, though I hadn't mentioned it before, and I wished she would +please sleep in mine with me and take the four-poster, which I thought +gave me bad dreams, as I wasn't accustomed to such high beds. And if +she would I would take the cot, as I liked cots much better. I am +subject to nightmares, or anything else that is advisable to have at +the proper time, and if I had known how many people were coming and +that Miss Susanna was going to give up her room, I would have had one +before, so she wouldn't think they had come on pretty sudden. But she +is not apt to think. She is a darling little old lady, not brought up +to think, and now too busy to do it, and she just works herself to +death with her head up and a smile on her face, and doesn't realize she +is spending all she makes in good things for the people who come here +and nearly kill themselves eating. She never buys herself any +clothes--that is, until Elizabeth has all she needs--and when I went up +to my room yesterday to think out a way of getting that lavender satin +for Miss Araminta, another thought came into my head, which was a black +satin for Miss Susanna. + +Feelings are things one has to be awfully careful about in Twickenham +Town, and not for a billion dollars put in my pocket would I hurt +anybody's here, and I couldn't let Miss Araminta or Miss Susanna think +for a moment that their dresses were not all right, and how to get them +new ones I couldn't imagine. I started to pray about it, and then I +remembered I was in an awful hurry and it would be better to get to +work, and, going over to the bureau, I opened its top drawer, and there +looking up at me was my bank-book lying on a pile of handkerchiefs. +Father had put a very respectable sum of money in the Twickenham bank +for me and told me to use it whenever I could do it in the right way, +and he would trust me to find the right way; but though I had tried to +get rid of some of it, there were few opportunities (so it wouldn't be +manifest, I mean), and now one popped right up in my face. + +For fear it might pop out again I ran downstairs as quick as I could, +and, seeing Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta were by themselves, I began +to talk about the Pettigrew children and what they had told me they +wanted Santa Claus to bring them Christmas. And that reminded me +suddenly that Christmas would soon be here, and I told them that in +August I always began to think about what to get Mother and Aunt +Celeste, who were my chief Christmas worries, and I wondered if they +thought I could get something in Twickenham that I could take back with +me. I felt, as I talked, that I was on a tight rope forty feet in the +air and mighty little to balance myself with, but I managed to put in +words what I wanted to say, and like little angels they fell in and +never dreamed I had thought the thing out before I spoke. + +I told them that Mother and Aunt Celeste had much more than they needed +in life, and it was hard to get anything new and different for them, as +there were so many to give them presents, and that I liked to get +something odd if I could. The things they were crazy about were old +silver and old jewelry, especially old settings, and it was hard to +find them in our town, and I wondered if they could help me get a piece +of silver like one of Miss Susanna's pitchers for Mother, and a set of +sapphires like Miss Araminta's for Aunt Celeste. Also I said I didn't +want to trouble them and I hoped they wouldn't mind my asking them. + +Miss Araminta said no indeed, she didn't mind, and that she had got +into the state of mind Miss Virginia Hill was in, and she wasn't going +to keep on keeping a lot of things that were no use just because they +had belonged to long-dead grandmothers. And while she wouldn't go as +far as Miss Virginia, who would sell every ancestor she had for a +million dollars, she would part with some other things for much less, +and if I wanted to buy the sapphire set (pin and ear-rings) she would +be glad to sell them. She would have to tell me, though, they had been +her great-grandmother's, and not her great-great's, as the pearls were, +and that she would take forty-five dollars for them, and if that was +too much she would take forty. + +I almost lost my breath at her good sense, not expecting it, but I told +her it would be cheating if I paid less than seventy-five for them (I +had calculated that it would take about that to get the lavender satin +with things to match), and if she would get them for me I would take +them right away, and I was awfully obliged to her, as it would be such +a relief to get Aunt Celeste off my mind. I admitted I didn't always +pay as much as seventy-five for her present (I usually give her a +five-dollar one which Mother pays for), but Father wanted me to bring +her something quaint from Twickenham if I could find it, and he would +be delighted to know of the sapphires. + +I fiddled along about other things for a moment or two and then I asked +Miss Susanna if she would think me a very piggy person to want to buy +one of those precious old silver pitchers of hers, as Mother would love +so to have one of that pattern (Mother had never mentioned it, but I +knew she would long for one of that pattern if she could see it), and I +waited with terrible anxiousness in my heart and a hot face for her +answer. Miss Susanna's got a lovely pinky color, and for a moment she +didn't say anything, and then Miss Araminta spoke for her and showed +more sensibleness than I thought was in her. + +"Why don't you, Susanna?" she said, and nodded at her. They are first +cousins and very good friends. "Why don't you let the child have one +of those old pitchers? You have too much silver, anyhow, and with +servants of the present day any sort of silver is too great a burden to +be borne, much less ancestral sort. Young people want to buy their own +things, and reverence for the past is a thing of the past; and besides, +you have no one to leave yours to except some one who won't appreciate +it. Why don't you let her have it?" + +"I would be glad for her to have it. Glad to help her out with her +Christmas difficulties, but"--Miss Susanna bit her lip and the pink in +her face became rose--"I have never done anything of this sort, and it +does not seem just right. I would be pleased for her mother to have +one of the pitchers. In a sense they are connected with her family as +our great-great-great-grandmothers were the same, and--" + +"Oh, you precious person!" I jumped up and took Miss Susanna in my +arms and whirled around the room with her. I was afraid she would get +on the grandparent subject, and I didn't want to hear it. To head her +off I gave her a squeeze and a skip or two and then I sat her down and +kissed her, and asked her if she thought seventy-five dollars was +enough for the pitcher, and if so I would get the checks while Miss +Araminta got the sapphires. And before they had time to change their +minds their things were mine and my money (Father's) was theirs, and we +were all a little more excited than we were willing to admit. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +They are in my trunk, the two Christmas presents, and we have had a +grand time, Miss Araminta and Miss Susanna and I, buying their party +dresses and things, and it is as true as Scripture that at times there +is nothing better for the soul than pretty clothes for the body. And +nothing so chirps up a woman as to have on becoming ones that fit and +are fresh and make her feel she can walk across the floor without +wishing she had a shawl on. The way Miss Araminta has bloomed out is +as amazing as a moon-plant. And Miss Susanna has such a pleased smile +on her boarder-tired face that I have been up in the air just from +looking at her, and the best time I've ever had in my life has been in +taking charge of their money and spending it for them. The way they +agreed to get the dresses was this: + +I told them it would be awfully exciting to have a secret and spring a +surprise on Mrs. General Gaines and Miss Bettie Simcoe and a few others +in town, and if they were willing I would design a dress for each of +them and Miss Fannie Cross would make the dresses, which would be of a +kind to suit their particular styles, and they could have them for the +party on the 17th. And if they didn't get them at once something would +happen to make them spend the money and it would be gone and they no +better off than before. And I mentioned that there was the loveliest +piece of black charmeuse at Mr. Peter Smith's, and that he was +expecting a piece of lavender satin on Thursday. I had been to see Mr. +Peter and the lavender was ordered before I told them it was coming. +Also a few other things had been ordered by wire, I going with him to +the telegraph-office to see him do it, being afraid to trust his +memory, which, like his methods, is right put-offy. Also I told them +there would be no time to hesitate. They got so flustrated at being +managed and so dazed by the pictures I showed them of the dresses I had +drawn that they were lambs, perfect lambs. They let me do everything I +told them ought to be done. + +It was a real relief to them to have some one go ahead and decide +things and not give them time to think whether they should do this or +do that, or whether they had not better spend the money some other way. +Miss Susanna said, feebly, something about the roof needing to be +fixed, and that the cellar ought to have a new floor, but I told her it +would be sacrilegious to put a great-grandmother's silver pitcher on +the roof or in the cellar, and that it would mortify her heavenly +ancestors to know such a thing was being done, and I was surprised at +her mentioning it. The only suitable way in which it would be proper +to use the pitcher was in something personal, and as I was afraid Mr. +Peter Smith would sell the satin, it was so lovely and only a little +more than enough for a dress, I had told him to put it aside and I had +to let him know that afternoon if it was wanted. And another thing I +told her was that all her life other people had been getting her share +of nice things, and practicalities had eaten up everything pretty she +had wanted for years, and there was an end to making over, and that she +owed it to memories of the past to have a new dress for herself and not +let all the newness always appear on a certain person's back just +because that certain person happened to be young. Uncle Henson would +be at the door with the carriage at four o'clock, I told her, to take +us down-town, and she must be ready in time, as there was a good deal +to do. I wouldn't take a mint of money for the look that came in her +face as I talked. I have put it away for low-down days. + +As for Miss Araminta--I wish I could write a book and put Miss Araminta +Armstrong in it. If the lady who wrote _Cranford_ had known her she +would have put her in, and it is a loss to literature that no one can +do again for little places and the Miss Aramintas of life what the +_Cranford_ writer did. She has told me right much about herself, and I +don't smile any more, even to myself, as I couldn't help doing at first +in the dark when I was so afraid I would roll on the floor and whoop +that I had to hold on to my chair with both hands. It is still funny +to hear her tell of her beaux who never quite came to the point, and +who were always snatched away at the critical moment by a +jealous-minded person who was close kin but whose name she never +mentions. But it isn't as funny as it used to be. It's queer how much +tragedy there is in the comic things of life. Ever since she was born +Miss Araminta has been a pieced-and-patched-up person, and never once +has she had everything new and to match at the same time. When I told +her about some of the things that must go with the lavender satin she +began to cry a little and said she oughtn't to let herself think about +indulgences of that sort, as her poor brother was not in business at +present and needed-- + +"Now look here, Miss Araminta," I said. "The first preparation you +have got to make for the party is to forget you have a brother and +remember your own body, which needs attention. It has come down from a +long line of people who took very good care to put expensive things on +theirs. And another thing you ought to remember is that if your +brother didn't know he could call on you every time he lost his job--" + +"My brother has never had a job." Miss Araminta sat up at once and +wiped her eyes and left, unknowing, a streak of white down a pink cheek +that turned purple at the word "job." "He has been unfortunate in not +being able to retain certain positions he has once held, but his +health--" + +"Rats!" It came out without thinking, but when a man has a worn-out +wife and seven children and won't do this and won't do that because it +is beneath his lordly ideas of what a well-born person should do, it is +better for me not to speak of him out loud. I told Miss Araminta she +must excuse me, but there were some sorts of men I couldn't mention +with safety and I thought "job" was a very good word, and I would +rather have one that paid a dollar a day than borrow money to pay my +bills, and that I'd sweep the streets before I would sit down and do +nothing if I had a wife and seven children. The look on her face I +tucked away, too, to take out on days when there isn't a thing in sight +to laugh at. She can't help it, Miss Araminta can't. She was born +that way and, not being an evoluting kind, words are wasted when it +comes to trying to make her see what she doesn't want to see. There is +a lot of bummy rot in this world which has nothing to do with the +proper kind of pride, and it's my belief we are mighty apt to fill the +place in life we are fitted to fill. If a dollar a day is all I am +worth it is all I ought to get until I make myself worth more. Of +course if people are feeble-minded that's a different thing. When they +are, the State ought to step in and take charge of them in order to +protect itself, Jess says, and also she says feeble-mindeders always +have the largest families, and even a feeble-minded person knows that +is not right. + +I didn't mean to hurt Miss Araminta's feelings, but that brother of +hers is a snuff-the-moon old snob, and I was determined he shouldn't +get a penny of that sapphire money if I could help it, and I told Miss +Araminta a few firm facts. After a while she blew her nose and wiped +her eyes and I had no further trouble. But I was afraid to trust +either her or Miss Susanna with their money, so I took the checks back +and told them it was better for me to keep them, as money had such a +queer way of disappearing. Any that was handy was used when needed, +and when the time came to get the things the money was for there might +not be any to get. They handed it back as meek as little lambs. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta are crazy about the designs I have +sketched for their dresses, and so is Miss Fannie Cross. It is the +only talent I have, designing clothes is, and if I ever have to earn my +living I am going to be "Katrine" and have a shop on a fine street and +charge like old glory for my things. That will make them wanted, and +those who think a gown is desirable according to its price can pay +enough to make up for those who can't pay much, and I'll have a great +time charging the payers. I am going to get ready to earn a living, +anyhow, because every girl ought to, Fathers or Billys notwithstanding. +Life is a very up-and-downy thing, and it is good to know, should it +get down, that you can give it a lift up yourself and not have to wait +for a shover. + +It was a private matinee, watching Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta buy +the things that Mr. Peter Smith had ordered and which they couldn't +understand his having in stock. The trimmings and linings and gloves +and stockings were exactly what was needed and they couldn't get over +how fortunate it was. They paid for them themselves, as I had handed +their money to them when we started out, holding back only enough to +pay Miss Fannie Cross; but though they took some time to do the buying, +and felt and smoothed everything they bought and put the satin to their +cheeks to be sure of its quality, and looked at each other every now +and then as if what they were doing was wicked, perhaps, but fearfully +enjoyable, still in two days everything was at Miss Fannie's, and it +was then I had to be awfully firm with Miss Araminta. + +There are some things some women can never take in, and one is that an +old sheep should never dress lamb fashion. It was all Miss Fannie +(she's a corking-good dressmaker for a small place) and I could do to +hold Miss Araminta down when it came to colors, and the cut of her +skirt, and some trimmings she wanted to put on the waist. She thinks +she loves lavender, but Joseph's coat would have been a colorless piece +of apparel beside her dress if we finally hadn't sat on her and told +her certain things couldn't be done. She was crazy to pile on a bunch +of ancestral lace, yellow and dowdy; but we told her not much, told her +freshness and daintiness suited her style much better, and she wasn't +old enough to emphasize ancestral lace, and she blushed and gave in. +But nothing would have made her do it if Miss Fannie hadn't thought to +throw out the age-line. She caught on and agreed, and after that we +did not have a great deal of trouble. + +Miss Susanna was a little crankier than I thought she was going to be, +and wanted a practical dress that she could wear anywhere at any time, +and we had to argue with her a good deal. I told her a train was the +thing for her, and I intended to walk behind her the night of the party +and keep everybody back far enough to see how grand she looked. When a +woman is sixty-six and pretty worn, short skirts for evenings are not +impressive, and, though we didn't mention age, we said finally she owed +it to her mother's memory to dress in a style suitable to the position +into which she had been born, and that settled it. She's the real +thing, Miss Susanna is. She doesn't have to play a part. + +I had told Miss Fannie on the quiet that the price of making the +dresses would be doubled if she would have them ready for the 17th of +August, and they were ready. Miss Araminta and Miss Susanna thought it +was a bad example to set, as it might not be just to the other +Twickenham-Towners to pay more than they could pay, and it stuck Miss +Araminta pretty deep to hand out more than was necessary. But I told +her it was an emergency operation and that kind always came high. And +also I told them that Miss Fannie charged entirely too little for her +work, and it was poor religion to go to church on Sunday and sing +praises to God and underpay a poor little dressmaker. They said they +supposed it was, but I don't think they thought it very reverential in +me to speak of God in connection with a dress-maker and what she got +for sewing. I gave each one a list of their expenditures, with the +cost of everything on it, and each had a little left over after getting +their slippers and some sachet powder and a bottle of violet-water +apiece, and, after all, that brother of Miss Araminta's got a little of +the sapphire money. But it wasn't much. I saw to that. It's been +awfully exciting in Twickenham lately. + +The event of the year is the MacLean party and the best of everything +is saved for it, and in itself it makes every tongue in town talk until +you wonder why tongues are the only things that never tire, and then, +lo and behold! two days before it came off back comes Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter, bringing her beau behind her, and off start the same +tongues on a new lap and no breath taken in between. + +I wish Billy could see it, the thing Elizabeth brought back! He wears +men's clothes (very good ones) and he is twenty-seven years old, and +has large hands and feet and ears and a feeble mustache, but as a man +he isn't much. He looks like a hatter and is seemingly dumb, and he +blinks his eyes so continually that no one can tell their color. Also +he bites his finger-nails. I advised Elizabeth to get a beau _pro +tem._, but I didn't mean anything like that. If she wants jealousy to +bring Whythe back to her she should keep something on hand to be +jealous of. Elizabeth has an iron will and a copper determination, but +about as much judgment as a horse-fly. + +Miss Bettie Simcoe's eyebrows haven't come down good since the night +the _engagees_ arrived. She has an explanation for the situation, as +she calls it, there never yet being a situation she couldn't explain, +and she says the engagement is a piece of management on the part of +Elizabeth's aunt on her father's side, the aunt she has been visiting. +This aunt is society crazy, and, knowing you can't keep step in society +without money, she arranged the whole thing. Anyhow, Elizabeth has a +gorgeous ring and a magnificent pin, and of course she ought to be +happy if diamonds and things mean happiness, but she isn't happy, and +for the first time since I met her I can't make her out. Before I know +it I am going to feel sorry for her, and then good-by to in-loveness +for me! I have very little sense at times, and no hold-outness at all +when certain things come to pass. + +Elizabeth still loves Whythe. Engaged or not to some one else, she +still cares only for him. I don't want him. I wonder how it might be +managed--getting them to take in how silly they have been. I believe +I'll try and see if something can't be done. Watchful waiting may be +all right in some cases, but I never cared for waiting. Milton says +all things come to him who hustles while he waits. You get a move on, +Kitty Canary, and see what you can do! + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +The party is over. Everybody who is anybody was at it and we had a +perfectly scrumptious time. I never saw so many good things to eat on +a hot summer night in all my life, but the heat didn't affect +appetites, and Miss Kate Norris, who lives in the Wellington Home +(memorial for a dead wife or a live conscience, I don't remember +which), ate three platefuls of supper and three helpings of ice-cream. +She is fearfully ancestral and an awful eater, and also a sour +remarker, and I stay out of her way, but that night I couldn't help +seeing the way she made food disappear. No low-born person could have +done it quicker. + +It was a perfectly beautiful party. The two married daughters of Judge +and Mrs. MacLean, who live in the city and always come home for August, +were as dear and lovely as if they had never left old Twickenham Town, +and their clothes were a liberal education to the stay-at-homers. They +were well taken in by the latter, but the sensation of the evening was +the arrival and appearance of My Girls, and--oh, my granny!--I was so +excited I couldn't stand on both feet at once, and I had to get in a +corner and put my back against the wall to keep from making movement. +When they came in the room there was a little hush, and then there were +so many exclamations of surprise and admiration that I had to fan as +hard as Mr. Willie Prince to keep down the blazing red in my face which +was there from pride in the dear old darlings and not from heat. And I +saw clearer than I had ever seen before that fine things behind one +count a good deal, and ancestors of the right kind leave something to +their descendants that comes out when needed, and at that party the +desirable things came out. + +They looked like pictures--Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta--for the +prevailing modes, as Miss Araminta calls them, and which she loves so +dearly and hits at but never touches, had not been paid very particular +attention to, and the thing that suited each had been made for them. +They were as becoming to the dresses as the dresses to them. +Twickenham nearly lost its breath as they came into the long +drawing-room of the MacLean house and walked through it after speaking +to the receiving party, and I know now how a mother feels when her +debutante daughters are a success. I will have more sympathy with +Mother than I used to have, and I will try to behave myself and do the +stunts all right for the first year. But she already knows I do not +expect to keep on doing them. I have told her. + +Nobody can say again that women can't keep a secret, for not even Miss +Bettie Simcoe, who knows what the Lord is going to do before He does +it, had any idea of the dresses; and though I don't think she or Mrs. +General Gaines liked not being told, they were very nice about it and +said much kinder things than I thought they were capable of saying. +And I really think Elizabeth was pleased also. She actually smiled +when she saw her aunt come in with Miss Araminta. Smiles of late have +been faint and feeble on the face of the affianced young lady, who +isn't playing her part as a person with ancestors ought to play it. +She bounced her old beau and took unto herself a new one, and what I +can't understand is, having done it, why she doesn't carry it off with +a rip-roaring bluff that might fool even herself for a while. But +Elizabeth isn't that sort. Everybody is talking about how miserable +she looks. I'm afraid I put the beau idea in her head, and the idea +has got her in a hole and she doesn't know how to get out of it. I +wish Billy was here. He can get a person out of any sort of hole. + +I went to the party with Whythe. He has been away for a week, and +while away got a new dress suit, which, of course, he wore to the party +and looked perfectly grand in it. I think his mother gave the suit to +him, though he didn't say, but he was off attending to some business +for her, and I'm sure he took it out in the new clothes. It would have +been more sensible to have had his teeth fixed, or gotten three new +ones, the rest being all right, but it was natural to prefer the suit, +and much less painful. Whythe is never going to do anything +disagreeable that he can keep from doing. + +He was so nice the night of the party that I hadn't the courage to +begin finding out the truth or untruth of what Mr. Willie Prince had +mentioned as the reason of the rush he had been giving me, and as I +don't believe Whythe has ever thought of Father's money, there was no +need to be in a hurry to learn whether he had or not. I've had a jolly +good time being in love with him, and being made love to, and as an +experience it may come in when I begin to write my book. I always did +want to know how many ways love can be made in, which, of course, I can +never know, for there are as many ways, I guess, as there are men to +make it, and the variations on the main theme are as infinitesimal as +the tongues that tell the story. It is truly wonderful how differently +the same words can be trimmed up and handed out, and I like the +crescendoes and diminuendoes and shades of feeling which give emphasis +and expression, as my music teacher says I must be careful of when +playing. There is never going to be any crescendo or diminuendo +business about Billy's love-making, and I might as well make up my mind +to that in the beginning. It's going to be pure staccato with +him--short and quick and soon over. But it will last forever, Billy's +will. He isn't going to stand for foolishness about it when he starts, +either. He has two more years at college and then he is going in his +father's office. + +I don't know what's the matter with Billy. I haven't had a letter from +him for a week, or a single card. He must be crazy. I've been so busy +I have not written for ten days, and if I don't get a letter soon he +won't get one from me for another ten. He can't expect me to do what +he doesn't do, and besides, a man doesn't want what he gets too easy, +even letters. I don't suppose he could be sick. If he was-- I am not +going to let myself think sickness or automobile accidents or sliding +off mountain peaks (they are in Switzerland now and Billy would get to +the top of anything he started for or die trying). And though I say to +myself forty times a day he is all right, I wake up at night and wonder +if anything could be the matter. I am wondering all the time. + +Maybe that is why I was a little nicer to Whythe at the party than I +need to have been, because I wanted to forget something it was not well +to remember if I was out to enjoy myself. After I had danced with half +a dozen boys and spoken to everybody on the place, we went out on the +lawn, Whythe and I, and sat on a rustic seat under a great maple-tree +to cool off and rest awhile; and though everybody could see us and +several couples were under several other trees (a number of cases being +on hand and apt to culminate in August), Miss Bettie Simcoe had remarks +to make, of course. She made them the next day at breakfast. + +I wish I could buy a beau for Miss Bettie and make a present of him to +her, but, being a member of the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty +to Animals, I couldn't very well do it. I never yet have seen a man I +would be that hard on. But it would be the only way she could be made +to see some things, and maybe it might make her feel young again. Jess +says there's nothing so kittenish as a spinster who's caught an +unexpected beau. He is the most rejuvenating thing on earth to a woman +who wants one. All don't want them. There are a great many more +sensible women in this world than people realize, but in certain small +places matrimony is still the chief pursuit in which women can engage +without being thought unwomanly. Miss Bettie doesn't pursue, and men +are good dodgers in this part of the world, but if one of them would +say a few things to her of the sort that Whythe knows how to say so +well, her sniffing and snorting and seeing might grow less. + +I don't like her, but I feel sorry for her, for nobody really loves +her, and it must be awful to have nobody to love you best of all on +earth. I couldn't live if nobody loved me. I could not. I might live +without food and live without drink, and do without clothes and do +without air--the right kinds of those things, I mean--but I couldn't +and I wouldn't live without loving. As long as I am on this little +planet I expect to love a lot of people and I hope they will love me in +return. When Miss Bettie makes me so mad I have to go out of the room +to keep from saying things I shouldn't, and Miss Araminta simpers so +when any one mentions Mr. Sparks's name (he's the new widower minister +of the Presbyterian church, with no chance of escape), and Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter makes me ashamed of my sex, and I feel like I have +swallowed concentrated extract of Human Peculiarities, I remember that +not one of them has a father of any sort, much less my sort, or a +precious mother and two dandy sisters and a good many nice relations +and some bully friends--when I remember all that, remember how many I +have to love me, I spit out the peculiarities and try not to mind them, +try to see how funny they are. But sometimes the taste sticks right +long. I don't suppose I spit right. What I can't understand is that +if people want to be loved--and everybody does--why in the name of +goodness don't they do a little loving on their own account? You +needn't expect to get what you don't give. I'm glad I was born with a +taste for liking, though I don't like every one, by a jugful. When I +come across a righteous hypocrite I get out of the way, if it isn't +convenient to make the hypocrite get out of mine. There are some +people I could never congeal with and I am never even going to try. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +I wonder what made me waste time thinking about Miss Bettie Simcoe and +human peculiarities when I started to say something about sitting under +the trees with Whythe at the MacLean party, but, born a rambler, I will +ramble unto death, and there's no use wasting time lamenting natural +deficiencies. Whythe, of course, couldn't very conveniently make +personal remarks, as people were passing pretty close, though he did +say I looked like a dream, which I did not, being too brown for a +dream; but I did look real nice. I fished out one of the party dresses +Mother made Clarissa put in my trunk, which I haven't worn since I have +been here, and I suppose it suited my brownness, as it was creamy and +stuck out in the silly way skirts stick now, and it was new-fashioned +enough to make everybody look at it and nudge a little. Whythe thought +it was lovely, and told me so sixteen times, which was tiresome, and +then I saw he was watching Elizabeth, who was on the porch with her new +beau and did not know really whether my dress was blue or pink. The +only thing he was thinking of was that not far from him was a +superseder in possession of something which was once his. Whythe +doesn't like to be superseded in anything affecting his personal +estimate of himself. + +The Lord certainly let loose a lot of contradictions when he started +the human race. When I saw the way Whythe was watching Elizabeth, and +remembered how she had looked at him when he passed her a few minutes +before, I knew two specimens of a common variety were before me, and I +made up a parable as I watched them watch each other. The two +specimens had been in love and been engaged. They had a fuss. The +engagement was broken. She was mad, and he was mad, and each thought +the other would make the first advance to own up and make up; but +before it could be done a young person appeared and distracted +temporarily the attention of the man, and the girl went away to see +what she could do. The man repaired the damage done unto him by saying +pretty things to the new person, which was good for his pride and kept +him in practice, and all was going well when the first maiden returned +with a new possession. + +The new possession was a son of great wealth, but the Faithless One was +made to understand, without words, that his Cruelty was driving the +Maid to Marriage with another, and his Vanity was appeased, and in his +heart he rejoiced and said unto himself: "It is even as I thought, and +that piece of punk she has brought back is bitter unto her, and in +comparison to me he is nothingness indeed. And I would arise and punch +his head if it were not for the New Person who may love me very much." +And the young man was sorrowful when he thought on these things and yet +glad also, for the heart of man is receptive to the love of all kinds +of women, and it is pleasing unto him to believe he is pleasing unto +them. + +And seeing that which had come to pass, the New Young Person made up +her mind that the Young Man and the Young Maid who had once loved must +love again, and in her heart she said it is a vain thing to believe in +the words of a man. They cometh out as cometh breath, then pass away +and are remembered by him no more. And she took counsel with herself +as to how she might bring to pass that which the simple souls knew not +how to bring, and, lo! as she thought it came unto her. That's a true +parable! + + +What came was the thought of a picnic. Whythe and Elizabeth must +accidentally have a chance to come across each other and have it out, +and the best way they could do it would be outdoors, where it is +convenient to wander off and get away from nudgers and commenters; and +being nothing but impulse, I turned to Whythe, who was still +unconsciously watching Elizabeth, and asked him if he would help me +with something I was anxious to do. He said of course, and wanted to +know what it was. When I told him I would tell him the next day he +asked me to drive with him in the morning, and didn't like it because I +declined. That is, he didn't like my reason, which was that, as he had +been out of his office for some time, his business must need attending +to, and I didn't think it ought to be left any longer. He seemed to +think that a very unnecessary remark, and I realized he liked +Elizabeth's kind better. She would never have dreamed of telling him +his business needed attention. Elizabeth is the Admired and Honored +type of Womanhood which does not think it is ladylike to have knowledge +of business matters. + +Seeing the look on his face, I said to myself: "Kitty Canary, it is all +over. A pin has been stuck in your balloon and the air is out." And I +got up and went in and danced with every man dancer in the room, and +hardly knew who they were, the breaks were so often. I had a good +time, but also I had a right sinky feeling, for it's pretty wabbly to +realize that nothing human is to be depended on very long, and that a +girl may be engaged one day to a man and not speaking to him the next. +Not that I had ever been engaged. I hadn't, not caring for what goes +with engagements, but I might have been if I hadn't remembered about +the different things I have fallen in and been fished out of when there +was some one by to haul me out. Nobody being by, I had to take care of +myself, and I thought it best to go only so far and no farther. + +On the way home Whythe tried to say some things pretty low about how he +had missed me while away, but Miss Susanna and Miss Araminta were in +the back seat of the car (it was Mr. Lipscomb's Ford, and borrowed, of +course), and he had to be so careful it was a strain, and as I didn't +answer he stopped after a while. It takes two to do more things than +make a bargain, and to battledore love without having it shuttlecocked +back isn't much fun. He wanted to know what was the matter when I got +out, and I told him it was sleep. He didn't seem to like that, either. +It's hard to please men. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + +I didn't see Whythe for the next few days, as I thought it best not to, +and, besides, I had bushels of letters to write and a very special one +to Father, and I had no time for him. The thing I had to write Father +about was money. I wanted five hundred dollars, and the only way I +knew how to get it was to ask him to give it to me; so I asked. I +always did believe that the person who gives the money ought to be told +what is to be done with it, and that is why I wrote Father as I did; +and, besides, he likes to hear little bits of news about the +Twickenham-Towners, and asking for the money gave me a chance to tell +him. + +He had told me, when he was here, that if there was any way in which I +could be of service in the right way to let him know and he would put +up the money part, if I would manage the other part, and it would be a +little secret between us and nobody else need know anything about it. +When, last week, I heard Mrs. Richard Stafford say she would rather go +to a hospital for a month than do anything on earth, I thought my +chance had come. At the hospital, she said, a person had the right to +be waited on and do nothing, and not think about food or servants, and +not feel they were bothering other people by being sick; and while she +wasn't sick exactly, a hospital would seem like heaven if she could be +in one for a little while. She had laughed when she said it, and +didn't dream of its being taken in earnest, but I took it in earnest, +for the tiredness in her face makes me ache every time I see her, and +right up in my mind popped the little secret Father and I and Miss Polk +could have. What I wrote was this: + + +_Father dear, will you please send me five hundred dollars, and if you +can do it by return mail I will be very much obliged. The person I +want part of it for is so tired that she might not be able to ever get +rested unless she has a chance pretty quick to lie down and do nothing +for a month, anyhow, and that is why I am in a hurry. Tiredness is a +very wearing disease and if it runs on too long it runs a person into a +state that is almost impossible to get out of, and the whole family has +to pay up for letting it go on. Home gets hell-y when there's too much +tiredness in it. What I want the money for is this: Mrs. Stafford is +worn out. You know her. She was Miss Mary Shirley, and married a +perfectly useless man when she was eighteen, and she is now the mother +of seven children, and has a mother-in-law living with her, and also +Miss Lou Barbee, who won't go away. And, of course, the man whom she +can't turn out. He isn't bad. Just lazy, with nothing to him, but she +loves him and I will skip over that part. She needs a rest and ought +to have it. It's nothing but scrimp and scrape and strive to keep up +appearances day in and day out, year in and year out, until she is all +to pieces and the children don't realize what is the matter. And, of +course, the Male Person doesn't, for he says that Woman's Place is in +the Home. When he told me that yesterday (his heels were on the +railing of his porch, where he generally keeps them, and his pipe in +his mouth) I thought to myself that if he were mine he would have to +get out of my home or prove he had a better right to share it with me +than he had ever proved to his wife. But I won't get on that, either. +I'll go back to Mrs. Stafford._ + +_Half the time she doesn't have a servant, and all the time she has a +mother-in-law, who is pie crust, and Miss Lou Barbee, who's a bagpipe, +and with the doors locked and windows shut so no one can see, she has +worked herself to death. What I want done is to have an invitation +sent her from an old friend to be the guest of the hospital here for a +month, and you will be the friend and she will never know it. Miss +Polk, the superintendent of the hospital, will manage things. I've +talked it over with her, and she understands. Miss Polk is a perfectly +grand person. For Simon-pure sense there isn't her equal on earth. +She and I have decided on what we would do if we had money. We'd have +a Fund for Tired Mothers and Fathers. It would be used to give them a +Rest before Death._ + +_I hope you won't mind sending the money. I don't think you will, for +everybody says business is so prosperous it's actually unrighteous, and +it's in the Bible that you ought to put your treasures where you can +find them again, or something like that. If you can't send it I know +there will be a good reason for your not sending it, but I would like +to have it by Monday if possible, so Mrs. Stafford can go to the +Hospital the next day. Later, four other people can have their turn. +It is to be used not for illness, but for Tiredness; for broken-downers +and worn-outers who need being waited on and fed up and allowed to keep +still. Miss Polk and I are going to decide on who needs a rest the +most before I go away, and I send you for it, Father dear, an armful of +squeezes and the biggest bunch of kisses the mail-man can take._ + + +That was all I told him about the Rest money, but I said a little +something about the picnic I thought I ought to give. Everybody in +town has given something, and, having accepted, I have to return, and +the picnic will be the best thing for Whythe and Elizabeth. I didn't +mention the ex-lovers to Father, of course. Even to a father one +doesn't have to tell everything in life. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +I haven't seen Whythe alone but once since the night of the MacLean +party, and then I stopped any tendencies that showed signs of being +personal, and talked most of the time about the picnic which we can't +have until late in the month. Every day is engaged up to the +twenty-fourth. Whythe tried to talk of Mr. Algernon Grice Baker, but I +cut that out also. Sarcasm doesn't suit him, and some day he might be +sorry. The Superseder has gone, however, and every day Elizabeth +passes Whythe's office, and every day Whythe happens to be at his +window at the time of passing. They speak, but so far that is all. I +am sorry the picnic has to wait so long. They are two silly children. +Their fingers aren't in their mouths, but their heads are on the side +when they see each other, and the thing's getting on my nerves. Almost +any kind of sin is easier to stand than some sorts of silliness. + +I wonder why I stay awake so much at night! It's very unusual, and I +try my best to go to sleep, but I can't sleep. Always I am thinking of +Mr. William Spencer Sloane and the things I would say to him if he were +in hearing distance. Not one line have I had from him for more than +two weeks. Not a card or a little present, which he usually sends from +every place he goes to, or any sign to show he is living. I got so mad +when I realized he hadn't noticed me for fourteen days that I couldn't +keep in things which had to come out, and, seeing Miss Susanna was +sleeping the sleep of worn-outness, I got up the other night and +lighted a candle behind the bed, and on the floor I wrote a letter that +maybe wasn't altogether as accurate as it might have been. I wouldn't +have sent it the next day if it hadn't been for a letter I got from +Jess, but after I read hers I sent mine flying. + +I haven't cooled down yet from reading Jess's letter. I am not going +to cool down until I see the cause of it face to face, and if Billy +thinks it makes the least difference to me how he amuses himself or +with whom he spends his time sightseeing he thinks Wrong! I was going +to tear up the letter I had written him in the middle of the night for +the relief of indignations and because in the middle of the night +things seem so much bigger and harder and stranger than in the +daylight; but after I read the letter from Jess I added a postscript to +mine and almost ran down to the post-office to mail it, for fear if I +didn't do it quick I mightn't do it at all. Ever since I sent it off I +have been perfectly horrid, and I can hardly stand myself. I have put +off trying to make Whythe and Elizabeth see how stupid they are, and as +Elizabeth hasn't been very nice to me I haven't felt it to be my duty +to show her what a goose she is. Neither have I told Whythe that +almost any girl who adored him would do for his wife. As I don't adore +I wouldn't do, and I think he is beginning to take it in. A dozen +times of late he has told me he doesn't understand me. He does not. +And never will. + +The thing in Jess's letter which made me hot was this: "What is the +matter with you and Billy? Pat says (Pat is Patricia, Billy's sister) +that you've been pretty horrid about writing him, and he's been +blue-black at not getting letters from you; but at present he is having +a good time with a very jolly girl from the West who is at their hotel. +Chirp him something cheerful, Canary Bird. If I were younger or Billy +older you shouldn't have him. I'd have him myself. I'm not going to +stand for bad treatment of him, and if those Southern boys who make +love to every pretty girl they see, and make it better than any boys on +earth, have made you forget an old friend, I'm coming down and take you +back home. Behave yourself, Kitty Canary, and write Billy the sort of +letter we scream over up here." And then she went on with other things. + +It is ridiculous in Pat to say I haven't written Billy! I have. Three +long letters and three cards, and certainly he can't expect more than +that, as he hasn't been gone but two months and five days; and, +besides, friends ought to have such confidence in each other that they +don't need letters to prove their friendship. Not a word have I had +from him in more than two weeks, and if Jess thinks I am going to write +him a chirp letter (which he won't have time to read if he is going +around so much with a Western girl and having so much fun) she, too, +thinks Wrong. That Westerner explains why I haven't heard from him for +so long. It is outrageous in Billy to behave as he has been behaving. +All men are alike. Every one of them. It was ignorance in me to +imagine Billy was different. He isn't. The more I thought of how +mistaken I had been in him the madder I got, and I just wrote a +postscript to my letter and flew to the post-office with it. It seemed +providential that my letter was ready to send. I hope he will read it +while on one of his joyous excursions with the Western Woman, who is +doubtless twenty-five, maybe thirty, and just making use of Billy, who +hasn't sense enough to see it. I nearly cried my eyes out last night, +before Miss Susanna came up to bed, because it was necessary to send +him such a letter. Still, Billy has to learn things in life and he +might as well learn them early. What I wrote was this: + + +_Dear Billy,--I have been having such a perfectly grand time lately +that it has been impossible to squeeze out a scrap in which to write +you, and yet I have wanted to do so, for I am sure you will be glad to +know how fearfully happy I am and what is causing the happiness. I am +in love. It is the most wonderful thing I have ever been in, and +thrillingly interesting. I suppose you have been in it many times, but +not my way, or you would have mentioned it, just as I am doing to you, +as we are such old friends, and friends have the right to know of +important happenings. I hope you will like each other when you meet, +for, though you are very unlike, you are both made of male material, +and I have often noticed that men have many peculiarities in common. +One of them is out of sight out of love, and a great readiness to be +admired and entertained. He is a lawyer and couldn't be better born, +though he might be better educated; still, one mustn't expect all +things in one man, and his eyes are so wonderful, and he uses such +poetic prose, that the lack of money and a few other lacks shouldn't +count. He lives in a beautiful old house which has proud traditions +and no bathrooms, and his family is one of the oldest and most +disagreeable in America; still, we would not have to live with them if +we were married. Nothing on earth could make me sleep under the same +roof with his sisters, who are so churchy that the minister himself is +subject under them. And neither would it be safe for me to be too +closely associated with his mother. However, things of that sort are +in the distance, which may be far or may not, and I am not thinking of +immediate marriage, but just how magnificent it is to have somebody in +love with you who knows how to say so in the most delicious way, and +with a voice that, when the moon is out, is truly heavenly. I am +telling you about it because I thought you might be interested and +would like to know of my happiness; but, of course, I don't want you to +tell any one else, as it is still a secret and all so indefinite that +it wouldn't do to speak of it to any one but you. I am scribbling this +in the middle of the night, because I can't sleep for thinking of some +one, and because there is no time in the day in which to write. I hope +you are having a great time. Give my love to the family and write me +of your gladness at knowing of mine._ + + _As ever, + Kitty._ + + +Now what do you suppose made me write such slush as that? And why is a +female person born with such horridness in her that she can say things +that are not so with a smile in public and cry her eyes out when alone? +That's what I have been doing lately, though I can't let tears have +much time, for I am not by nature a crier, and they would disturb Miss +Susanna at night. In my secret heart I just wrote that letter to Billy +because I was indignant with him for not writing to me for more than +two weeks, and I didn't intend to let him think I was sitting on a +tombstone waving a willow branch in one hand and wiping tears away with +the other. And, besides, I have been in love. Summer love. And it +has been exciting. No one could expect me to go through life and not +have but one experience in love making and hearing, and because a girl +enjoys the different manners of expression it doesn't mean she is not +particular about the story not being illustrated. I don't illustrate +or allow illustrations, which, of course, lessens some of the thrill, +but I promised Jess I would always draw the line at the right time, and +I have. I have not been engaged for half a minute, and I wouldn't have +added the postscript if it hadn't been for her letter and what she told +me about that girl from some Western town who is no more his sort than +I am her brother's. Billy is perfectly blind about some things, and +has no discrimination where it is most needed. Anyhow, I added the +postscript: + + +_P.S.--By the time you get this I may be engaged. Thank you for what +you would say if here._ + +_K. C._ + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +It was after I sent the letter that I got so restless I couldn't sit +still, and as there was nothing I enjoyed doing I spent a good deal of +my tune at the hospital with Miss Polk, who is a very splendid person, +and every day I went in to see Mrs. Stafford. She is having the +grandest rest, with rubs and good eats and nothing to do but be waited +on and cared for, that a tired person ever had, and I am the only one +who is allowed to see her, which is beyond the understanding of +Twickenham Town. I'm cheerful is the reason I'm allowed to see her, +the town is told, and that's enough for it to know. + +It certainly is queer how some things happen in the nick of time. +Father sent me the money, but told me to try to be as practical as +possible, knowing I am given to doing impractical things; and I took it +to Miss Polk, and nobody but she and I know where it came from. And +then she invited Mrs. Stafford to be a guest of the hospital for a +month. I happened to be at the house when the note came. I thought it +best to be there accidentally, in case there should be argument and +talk, and the Man of the House should still think Woman's Place was in +the Home, and sure enough there was. Mrs. Stafford read the note, and +her face got as white as death, and after a minute she said it would be +heaven to go, but of course she couldn't. And the noble creature who +is her husband said it was very presumptuous in whoever had invited her +to be the guest of the hospital, and that he wasn't in the habit of +having his wife visit such places on the invitation of unknown +interferers, and of course she couldn't go. And just as he said that +Mrs. Stafford keeled over in a dead faint right at his feet, as if +something had given out at the thought of rest. I knew that was my +chance, and I took it. + +"Stop that automobile!" I waved to a man who was coming down the +street, and as he stopped I knelt and did the things Billy had made me +learn how to do the first year we went to camp. And seeing the poor, +tired soul had just fainted, and would come to in a minute, I spoke +quick to the man looking down at her, scared to death, as were the +children, who began to cry, and told him he wouldn't have a wife much +longer to be interfered with if he didn't come down from that horse he +thought he was riding and have some common sense. + +"Don't you see she is worn out," I said, "and got nothing to go on +with? Everything has given out, and the next time she drops over in +this way she may never get up again." I was putting some water on her +face as I spoke, and, seeing her eyes begin to open a little, I called +to Mr. Everett, who had gotten out of his car and was on the porch, to +help Mr. Stafford put his wife in and take her to the hospital, and the +frightened husband for once did as he was told. I hopped in with her +and held her up and told Mr. Everett to drive like old Scratch, and he +drove. It was all over so quickly nobody knew what had happened. + +It was like somebody being kidnapped and dragged off by highwaymen, +taking her away so hurriedly, but if it hadn't been done that way there +would have been endless talk and a thousand reasons why she couldn't +go; and if she hadn't she would have soon gone for good. Sometimes +somebody has to be high-handed, and even if that billy-goat of a +husband pretends to resent what I did his wife isn't resenting it, and +she is the one that counts. I always agree with her that it was such a +strange thing I happened to be there the day the note came. And also +she thinks it strange I decided so quickly to take her to the hospital, +when she had just said she couldn't go. I tell her I do a good many +things on the spur of the moment, and getting the men to pick her up +and hurry away with her was just another case of spur, and she shuts +her eyes when I say that and looks as if she is praying. The lucky +part was her fainting at the right time. Anyhow, she is at the +hospital, and that old rooster of hers is finding out a good many +things it took her absence from home for him to learn. I never expect +to get married. NEVER! + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +I have just found out why Elizabeth and Whythe had their break. Miss +Bettie Simcoe told me. It took Miss Bettie some time to get at the +bottom of it, but Elizabeth told her last night, and this morning I was +given the information at the first moment Miss Bettie could get me to +herself. + +Elizabeth was dead right in the stand she took, but her little spurt of +independence didn't last long, and she is now ready to give in when the +chance comes to give. Miss Bettie added that on her own account. +Whythe couldn't afford to be married, but that wasn't to interfere with +his marriage. He had expected to take Elizabeth to his mother's home +and plant her in it, but when he told her Elizabeth balked. She +preferred to stay with her aunt Susanna after her marriage to going to +Whythe's home, and when she so informed him he said things he +shouldn't, and then both sent off skyrockets and the whole thing went +up in the air. And then I came. + +She has now changed her mind and is willing to follow her husband +wherever he leads. She is truly womanly, also she is still wearing the +ring of the beau with whom she sought to bring Whythe to terms, and to +please her worldly aunt. But she will return the ring when it is +proper to do so. She is waiting to find out. + +Elizabeth had more sense than I gave her credit for in refusing to live +in the House of Eppes; but it's either live there or not live with +Whythe, and she evidently can't live without him. I'd hate love to +make me lose the little gumption I was born with, and even my little +knows no house is big enough for a son's wife and a mother-in-law and +three in-law sisters. It won't be a Home, Sweet Home, place when +Elizabeth enters the Eppes house, and it will be nip and tuck as to who +wins out, but that's not my business. I'm sorry for both sides, and +thankful I'm not related to either. Also, I will get out of the way as +soon as possible, but until the picnic there doesn't seem a possible +way. + +There is nothing in life that is not over if life is long enough, and +my little love affair with Mr. Whythe Rives Eppes belongs to the past. +Elizabeth can have him any minute she wants, and unless actions do not +speak louder than words she wants him right away, and he her. I do not +see how she is possibly going to stand his teeth. Still, there are a +great many things I do not understand in life. + + +The picnic is over. By giving it I brought down a good deal of comment +and criticism on my brown and curly head, but it does not matter. +Nothing except sin really matters if we have sense enough to see it. I +invited everybody in Twickenham Town that I liked to the picnic, and +some few I didn't, the latter being relations of those I did. I don't +think a person ought to be punished for their relations, any more than +being held responsible for them, and so I included them, too. What I +was criticized for was asking to the picnic quite a number of people +who don't usually go to the same places at the same time the +Historicals go, and it made talk. That night Miss Araminta Armstrong, +on the quiet, told me she knew I meant to do right, but one had to use +judgment in life, and it wasn't well to put ideas in some people's +heads. I told her I knew it, knew certain kinds of heads couldn't take +in certain ideas, one of which was that people could enjoy friendliness +and outdoorness and a lunch they didn't have to prepare for themselves, +even if they were not high-born, and as the ones referred to did not +have contagious diseases their presence wouldn't prove dangerous and +the Ancestrals needn't be uneasy. Also I told her I didn't care for +judgment as much as I ought, and if human beings knew one another +better they might find they were not as unlike as they thought. She +didn't say anything more. Neither did any one else say anything to me. +To one another they said a good deal. + +It was at the picnic I had a little talk with Whythe. We went down to +a stream under a big willow-tree, and he started on the usual, but I +told him he must not say anything more to me on that subject, and if he +were the man I thought him he would not allow Elizabeth to marry the +Compensator she was no more in love with than I was. Also, I said a +few more things that were pleasant for him to hear, such as Elizabeth's +heart was breaking (it was, as much as her kind of heart could break), +and I told him it was foolishness to ruin one's life because of a +misunderstanding, and that both had doubtless been in the wrong. And +incidentally I let drop that if, after years of preparation, I ever got +married I would have nothing to bring my husband but myself, as my +father had made up his mind that young people should make their own way +in life (he ought to have so made it up if he hasn't), and Whythe said +that cut no figure with him, and asked me point-blank if I did not love +him. It didn't sound polite to say no, and yet I couldn't truthfully +say yes, so I just sighed and shook my head. When he asked me if I +could give him no hope, I answered _no_ with such uncomplimentary +quickness that I had to cough to overcome it, and then I told him it +was impossible for a girl of Elizabeth's taste and training and +character, who had once loved such a man as he, to really care for any +one else. And the blackness in his face, caused by my unnecessary +emphasis, died out, and I saw he was agreeing with me concerning +Elizabeth, and that I would not have to insist on what I said being so. +A man's appetite for flattery is never poor, and usually it is hearty. +When we got up to go back to where lunch was being served Whythe had +quite a determined air about him. I told him if I could help in any +way to let me know. An hour later I saw him and Elizabeth going down +to the same stream and the same old willow tree. + +When the time came to go home I pretended I had to see Florence Kensey +about something that was important, and in the confusion of getting the +people in the cars I managed to have Whythe put Elizabeth in his, and +told them to get away quick and I would come on with Mason Page. They +got. And the next day Elizabeth looked like some one who had been +unbandaged and was letting out breath that for a long time had been +held in. Also, she looked pinker and whiter than ever, and so Pure +that it was not possible for me to stay close to her, so I got away. +No longer Hurt and Misunderstood, she went about smiling in sweet +triumphantness that was not put in words, but oozed without them, and +her manner to me was one of deepest sympathy. Poor Whythe! + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +There are some things not required of human nature to stand. Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter is one of them. I was glad to give her back her beau. +I felt truly Virginian in doing it, for Virginians always say, when +giving you something, that they don't want it; I certainly didn't want +Whythe. I wouldn't have known what to do with him after the summer was +over, and I was conscious of great relief in getting him off my hands +without further loss or trouble. I couldn't tell Elizabeth this, of +course, though there were times when it took a good deal of something I +did not know I had to keep from doing so. Also, it took more strength +to keep several other things to myself than I knew I possessed. It +took praying and the end of the sheet to do it, but I did it, and I'm +getting encouraged about K. C. + +What encourages me is this: Two nights after the picnic Elizabeth came +to my room and asked if she might have a little talk with me, as she +felt she ought to. I told her she could, and she sat down and began. +Miss Susanna was back in her own quarters, the people from Florida +having gone, and I had just finished saying my prayers and was ready to +hop into bed when Elizabeth knocked at my door. I knew what was coming +from the look on her face and her manner of walking, and the way she +held her head. + +If ever I write that book I am always thinking about I am going to put +Elizabeth in it as well as Miss Araminta Armstrong, and if I could get +some men to match them I would have some corking characters to begin +with. But no kind of pen-and-ink picture of Elizabeth would do her +justice. Her sweetness of speech when she is particularly nasty is +beyond the power of human portrayal. I got in bed quick when she said +she wanted to talk, because I was afraid I might have to hit something, +and the pillow was the only thing I could manage without sound. I put +it where I could give it a dig when politeness required control, and +told her to go ahead. + +In her last sleep Elizabeth will pose. She took her seat near the +window where the moonlight could shine on her (she looked very pretty +in her pink-silk kimono, a hand-over from her rich aunt, and shabby but +becoming in color), and for a moment she didn't say anything, just +fooled with the pink ribbon on her hair. And then she said she had a +secret to tell me; said it so soft, with her head on the side, that I +had to ask her to speak louder please, and I got nearer the edge of the +bed. Elbow on it and chin in the palm of one hand, I prayed hard to be +polite in my own room, and reached out for an end of the sheet with the +other. Again I told her to go ahead. After a minute she went. + +"You and Whythe have been such friends that I think you should be the +first to know that--" + +"Have you and Whythe made up?" I stuck my bare foot over the edge of +the bed and wriggled it. "If you have you had better be married quick +and not take any more chances. I'm awfully glad if things are settled. +Have you bounced the other fellow yet?" + +It was cruel in me to take out of her mouth what she was moistening her +lips to say, but I was sleepy and I didn't want details. She had no +idea of being cut out of saying what it was her determination to say, +however, considering I had been responsible for some unhappy days +during the past two months, and before she got through she had said all +she wanted me to hear. If it hadn't been for the pillow I would have +rolled out of bed. The nerve of her! The belief of her! And, oh, my +granny! the punishment, as she imagined, of me! + +Before she left the room she told me she could no longer hold out +against Whythe's pleadings. Told me he had suffered so during the +summer she was uneasy about him, and, though he had tried to forget, it +had been useless, and, unable to endure it any longer, he had come to +her and told her he could stand no more, and if she did not promise to +marry him at once he would--he would-- Her voice trailed, but I said +nothing, the end of the sheet being stuffed into my mouth for +politeness' sake, and when her tears had been wiped away she began +again. + +"It is hard to forgive Whythe, because you are so young, and he knows +how fascinating he is and how little experience you have had with young +men, but his father was a flirt before him" (poor Father! I thought of +the retribution that had come to him in Mother, and I pushed in more +sheet), "and it is natural in a man to seek amusement and entertainment +when he is suffering as Whythe was. I hope you will forgive him. It +is because he may have made you imagine things that were not so, and +because you have been so nice to him, that I thought you should be the +first to know." + +I rolled back to the side of the bed facing her, from which I had +rolled the other way for safety, and took the end of the sheet out of +my mouth. "Have you told IT?" I asked. "It doesn't make any +difference about my knowing as I knew before you did, but something is +due that which you brought back with you. Have you told IT, Elizabeth?" + +"Told who? I don't understand." She sat up. "I don't know who you +are talking about." + +"Don't you?" I too sat up and swung my bare feet over the side of the +bed. "I am talking about the person to whom I read in the Twickenham +Town Sentinel that you were engaged. He dresses like a man, and he may +be one, but even if he isn't he deserves to be treated decently by the +lady who had promised to marry him. I suppose he knows." I nodded to +her hand, on which was the ring he had given her and which she had been +twirling as she talked. "That is, if you have had time to tell him." + +"That is entirely my affair!" When not hurt or injured Elizabeth is +superior, and she added scorn to the tone of her voice, but stopped +fooling with the ring, which I know she hated to send back. "I see you +do not appreciate the confidence I am putting in you or the compliment +I am paying you by telling you first, and if that is the case I will +go." She made movement as if to get up, but she had no idea of going, +so I didn't notice it, but kept on swinging my feet, and then I asked +her if she had told Miss Susanna, and if she hadn't she ought to at +once, Miss Susanna being closely related and I nothing but a summer +boarder. And I said I hoped she would be married right away, as I +would love to be at the wedding, and if she would ask me to be one of +the bridesmaids I would be one with pleasure. But she wouldn't answer +me. Seeing she still had something to say, and wouldn't leave until +she said it, I put my feet back in bed and lay flat with my hands under +my head and my eyes shut, and when at last I was fixed and quiet she +began for a third time. + +I don't remember a thing after that except a sort of monotone voice and +something about people talking about me because I had accepted Whythe's +attentions when everybody knew--I didn't hear what everybody knew, and +not until I did hear a sound at the door did I wake up good, and then I +jumped as if shot and asked her, half-asleep, if she were going to live +with Mother and Sister and Sister Edwina and Miss Lily Lou when she was +married, but she answered not. And since her midnight confession she +hath not opened her mouth unto me and her little lips get together when +she sees me coming, and from her friends I have learned that she is +deeply distressed at my treatment of her. And to her friends I have +said Rats! and so endeth the efforts at friendship which she imagined +she had made. I am never going to pretend to be friends with a person +who is not truthful, and whom I understand as I understand Elizabeth +Hamilton Carter. I don't like her, and though it is not necessary to +say so unless occasion requires, neither is it necessary to appear to +be what I am not. I like Whythe, and when I saw him a few days after +Elizabeth gave herself the satisfaction of communicating to me the +return of his tempted affections, I shook hands with him good and hard +and wished him all the happiness I knew there was little chance of his +getting. If I were a man and had to live in the house with a female +who shut her mouth tight every time she got mad and was continually +hurt and always sensitive, there would likely be in that house battle, +murder, or sudden death. Any kind of outspokenness is better to be +endured than silent offense. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +This is the last day of August, and it is a day +Twickenham Town is going to remember for +a long time. I have done again that which I +should not have done, and I guess I had better go +home. I had expected to stay until the twenty-seventh +of September and return with Father, who +was to spend a week here with me, but he can't come. + +I suppose it was the awful disappointment of +knowing Father couldn't come, and being so miserable +myself (not one line yet from that person named +William Spencer Sloane, who is probably married +to an elderly woman by this time), and because +of my sureness that no human being could be +depended on in time of temptation, especially +vigorous, aggressive temptations that come out +of the West, that I gave help where help seemed +to be needed, and now again I am in everybody's +mouth. Also my ankles are still a little sore from +the weight of the window being on them as I hung +out, but they are nearly well, and even if they +were not it would not matter. Two young hearts +are happy and a proud person is not, and the +blame is on me. That also doesn't matter. I am +soon going away. + +The thing I did, which maybe I shouldn't have +done, was to help little Amy Frances Winston +get married. She is the property of her +grandmother, who is a very important part of +Twickenham Town. Having no parents or sisters or +brothers, and only enough money of her own for +her keep, and no spunk or spirit, she has gone on +for years loving an awfully nice chap named +Taylor French, with little chance of ever marrying +him, and then in hops this Miss Frisk, who asks +her why she doesn't quit fumbling and stop fearing, +and the thing is done. + +There is nothing the matter with Taylor French +except he is not Ancestral. Mrs. Brandon, Amy's +grandmother, is diseased on the subject of +ancestry, and the first thing she asks about a man +is who is he. Knowing she would want to know +who I was, I mentioned to her one day that I +had never had any grandparents on either side +(living ones I meant), and that we were not +historic, and no member of our family had ever +been distinguished (for righteousness, though I +didn't use the word), and that we had made our +own way in life, which was true, for Father didn't +have a thing but what he was making when he +married Mother. I also told her I did not mind +in the least, and if I did I would try to remember +that Christ was a carpenter and St. Paul a +sail-maker, though I'd never care to be intimate +with St. Paul. And I told her I thought it was +yourself that counted most, after all, and not dead +people, though it must be nice to know somebody +in your family had been something if you were not. +All she said was, "Are you a suffragist?" When +I said I was and I hoped I didn't look as if I +were not, for I wouldn't like anybody to be +mistaken about it, she gave me a long look and left +the room. + +She did not exactly draw her skirts aside with +her hand as she passed me, but she did it inwardly; +that is, I imagined she did from the expression +of her face, and the next day she must have +fumigated the house, for when I went by an awful +smell of sulphur was coming from it. She is a +low bender and bower in church at the mention +of a name belonging to one she believes a Prince +in disguise, who in another life will receive her +into His kingdom, and whom she professes to +follow in the expectation of being rewarded for so +doing, but her head is held high when she doesn't +care to see the lowly ones He came to give light +and life to. I don't mean she doesn't give old +clothes and food and sometimes a little wood to +old Mrs. Snicker, who can't move, from +rheumatism, but she would no more speak other than +stiffly to some of the people I know here than she +would go in for suffrage. She doesn't realize she +is a living woman. She thinks she is an Ancestor. +For years she has forbidden Taylor French to +come to her house, and Amy has to see him elsewhere. + +She has seen a good deal of him lately, Amy +has. Taylor doesn't live in Twickenham Town +now. He is living in North Carolina and has a +good position, and is able to get married (I know +because I asked him), and any minute day or +night in the past eighteen months in which Amy +would have agreed he would have married her +and taken her away, but Amy wouldn't agree. +Things have been dragging along this way so +long that the nerves of both are frazzled out, and +there's nothing to hope for but death, and, of +course, it isn't respectful to think too hopefully +of death and a grandmother. And then I popped +in and gave things a little push and the curtain dropped. + +The way it dropped was this. I mean the way +they got married. Taylor was in town the last +two weeks in August, and, as everybody invited +him to their parties, he and Amy managed to see +a good deal of each other (also the seeing wasn't +altogether at places where other people were +around). But she wasn't allowed to meet him +on the square or to receive letters from him +straight. And sometimes, if he wanted to say +something in a hurry, or send her candy or a new +book, or any of the usuals, he had to give a signal +by throwing pebbles on her window at night, +and then she would throw out a string and he +would tie the thing to it and she would haul +up, and the Personage, who was usually asleep, +would be none the wiser. The Personage is deaf, +which is a great help. + +Well, one night three of the town girls and +myself, with a boy apiece, had been to see Amy, +and when we went up-stairs (just the girls) to +see a new hat a city cousin had sent her, we heard +a little tap at the west window. It had been +raining, which accounted for our being indoors +with the windows lowered, and when we heard +the tapping we were so excited we could hardly +breathe. It was fearfully thrilly, just like things +one reads about in books, and I told the girls +to put out the light quick, and when it was out +I went to the window and saw Taylor standing +in the shadow of a big tree. He signaled me to +drop the line, but when I threw the piece of +twine Amy gave me I threw it wrong and it got +caught in a broken piece of shingle on the edge +of the porch and hung there. I couldn't get it +back and Taylor couldn't get it down, and, +seeing it was necessary for something to be done, I +pushed aside the curtains (they were made of +striped calico, blue and white) and told the girls +I was going to lean out of the window on the roof +of the porch to get the string loose, and they +must hold on to my feet, for the roof sloped and +I might slip if they didn't. They tried to stop +me, and Amy wrung her hands, being very +nervous from living on a strain and loving in +secret, but I was out head foremost in a jiffy, +and all four made a grab for my feet and legs. +Being flat on my stomach, and having long arms, +I got the string off from the piece of shingle, and +just as I did it and threw it to Taylor I heard +a noise and a little cry from the girls, something +about, "Oh, my goodness! here she comes!" and +I knew what had happened. + +"Pull the window down on my feet and let +go," I called, as loud as I dared, "and draw the +curtains so she won't see my shoes. If she asks +where I am, tell her I am outdoors. Quick! +Let it down!" + +They got it down and drew the curtains just +as her Royal Highness walked in, and as she went +toward the window Katherine Hardy says that +never before had she prayed as she prayed that +minute, and then she thought of mice, which was +a quick answer. She gave a little scream and +jumped with her hands over her eyes and bumped +into the lady, who, being a woman first, was also +afraid of mice, and she moved, too. Seeing the +girls flying around, she told them to stop, told +them Maud Hendren's mother had telephoned +that she must come home at once and, not +missing me, owing to the girls moving about so +she wouldn't notice, she went out of the room, +skirts still held up, and the minute she was out +they rushed for the window and pulled me in. + +My dress was a sight when I got in, and I +didn't have much skin on my elbows, and my +hands were stuck up with splinters, as I had to +hold on to anything I could clutch, being afraid +the window would not hold my feet and the +shingles being rotten. But otherwise no damage +was done, and I got the note Taylor had tied +to the string, which I had pulled up by the time +the Ogress had departed. I gave it to Amy and +told her to read it quick. + +She read it, and after doing it turned so white +and looked so queer we were frightened. For a +minute she couldn't speak, then she handed me +the note, and when I asked if I must read it +aloud she nodded her head and sat down, as if +to stand up was impossible. I glanced over it +first so as to leave out the little love decorations +and just read the practical part, and what +Taylor told her was that he had just gotten a +telegram from his house (it's iron-works I think) +saying he must leave on important business for +South America on the 6th of September. The +house had been talking of sending him for some +time, and had been waiting for certain developments +which had suddenly developed, and he +would have to go. Would she go with him, and +if she would not he never expected to come back +again, but would stay over there and take charge +of the South-American branch of the house he was +going to establish. She would have to decide +at once, as he couldn't stay a minute later +than the 30th. They could be married anywhere +she said, only it must be quickly done. He had +gotten the telegram an hour before, and in the +morning she must get Kitty Canary to fix things +so he could see her and talk more fully. Kitty +could be depended on and would manage +somehow. The rest being private and personal, I +skipped it and gave the note back to Amy, who +was as white as the dress she had on, and her +hands as limp as wet kid gloves. + +Excited! To my dying day I will never +forget the thrill of it. Being in love myself, as I +had once thought, wasn't a circumstance to it, +and the other girls were as bad as I. To help +a heart-yearning, backboneless young girl +escape from the captivity of a cast-iron +grandparent was something no red-blooded person +could refuse, and every one of us agreed that the +only thing for Amy to do was to walk into the +den of lions and tell the head lioness the truth; +ask her permission to many the man she loved, +and, if she would not give it, to take it, anyhow, +and tell her farewell and leave at once for South +America. That, at least, was what I thought +ought to be done, and after a while the others +thought so, too. At first there was a lot of +argument, but I told them I would never agree to +Amy's running away to be married without her +first telling her grandmother she was going to do +it. That is, if she would not let her be married +at home. If the G. M. would not let, then Amy +could take the first train out, but she mustn't +take it until she had shown her grandmother the +respect she did not deserve. I never could bear +runaway marriages. There's always something +so common about them, and I wasn't going to be +party to one if I could help it. + +All the time we were talking we left Amy out +of it, and never once asked her what she +preferred in the matter. The reason we didn't was +the poor little thing was so frightened and +distressed that she could not open her lips. We +would not let her come down-stairs with us, and +when we said good night I whispered that I would +see Taylor on my way to Rose Hill, and at ten +o'clock the next morning we would meet her at +the back of Miss Susanna's vegetable garden +under the big locust-tree, and that she mustn't +worry, we'd fix it, he and I. Also I told her she +might bring up some toilet things and little +traveling necessities and leave them with me; +and though she clung to me like a frightened +child and didn't speak, she was down by the +barn the next morning at ten, and so was Taylor. +I let them get there a little ahead of me. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +They are married and gone, and for two days Twickenham Town has talked +of nothing else. It made a regular soup of the marriage. The bride +and groom were the stock, the grandparent and maiden aunts were the +thickening, and I was the seasoning; but all that does not matter now. +The ancestralized person has learned that the twentieth century sees +some things clearer than the eighteenth did, but she will never admit +that she has learned it. Taylor and Amy were not unmindful of what was +due her, however. Taylor wrote her a very nice letter, asking her +permission to marry her granddaughter and take her to South America, +and her answer was low-down. He wrote as a gentleman should, and she +answered as a lady shouldn't, for her answer was insulting, and a real +lady never humiliates any one. After reading it Taylor told Amy to +meet him at seven o'clock on Wednesday morning, and they would be +married in the church with no one present but his brother (the only +relative Taylor has in town is a bachelor brother), and the sexton, the +minister, and me. She met and the marriage took place. + +We didn't tell a soul about the marriage. The night before Amy spent +with me at Rose Hill, and, thinking it best Taylor should not be there, +I told him not to come, and sent the other boys home early. In my room +I packed my suitcase and put in it two dresses I had never worn, which +I was glad to do, as it would mean that much less to pack when I went +home, and also I put in some other things; and though Amy cried a good +deal and didn't think she ought to take them, she was very particular +about how they went in. She is very neat and careful, and I'm +fearfully quick, so it was well she watched me. I told her she was +doing me a favor to dispossess me of what I didn't want and what was in +my way, and as we were the same height, though Amy is a little thinner, +owing to secret love and distress of mind, I knew the things would fit +her, and I was more than glad to get rid of them. Also she didn't have +any of her own convenient, and she might as well be sensible. She was, +and put in her own tooth brush and powder and left the rest to me, and +by eleven o'clock everything was ready. + +When the next day the news flew around that the marriage had taken +place and I had been the leading spirit in it, I went to bed and stayed +there until the town had finished chewing me up, and then I came out +again. It was the most sensible thing I ever did and saved a lot of +talk and argument. + +Another reason I went to bed was because I was so homesick and so +lonely, and so something I had no name for, that I knew it was wiser to +be by myself. I can't be much in life, but I can keep from being a +nuisance, and when you feel you haven't a friend on earth outside of +your family, who sometimes are queer also, you're apt to be a trial to +those you come in contact with. For two whole days I stayed in my room +and thought of nothing but a big, brawny, domineering, dictating girl +from the West who was giving Billy no time to write letters; and though +I would die before I would let anybody know it, even Jess, I nearly +cried my eyes out under the bedclothes the day of the marriage. + +Life is a poor thing at times. And it is never so poor as when you +think a friend has failed you. There was nothing on earth that could +have made me believe Billy would ever fail me when we had known each +other since children, and he had saved my life three or four times; but +how can I help believing it when he is letting a perfectly ordinary, +straight-haired, large-footed girl from the West make him forget that I +am living and spending the summer in Twickenham Town? If he had not +forgotten, would he not write? He would. I am miserable and I will +never be happy until I can say some things to William Spencer Sloane +that he ought to hear. But I'm trying to keep my miserableness to +myself. People aren't interested in other people's miseries. I wonder +if I will ever again get a letter from Billy! + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +It is a perfectly magnificent thing to be alive! And this world is a +perfectly glorious place to be alive in! There isn't a bird in +Twickenham Town that isn't singing to-day, or a flower that isn't +blooming, and, owing to the rain last night, the dust is laying. As +for the sun--there couldn't be a more shining one, and the sky is a +blue so gorgeous that it seems heaven turned inside out, and in the air +is the snap of coolness that makes one want to walk and walk and walk, +and its crispness means fall is coming. I love the fall. I can't +think of anything I do not love to-day except Elizabeth Hamilton Carter +and Grandmother Brandon, and I don't exactly abhor them. I just don't +like them, and prefer to stay out of their way. But everybody else in +town is a dear, and I wish I knew I was coming back next summer. That +is-- + +It doesn't matter what is or what isn't. The thing that matters is +that this morning I went to the post-office, as usual, but, what was +not as usual, I got what I had long been looking for, and which had +come not for endless, endless days. When I saw the big batch of +letters and things from Billy, and knew that all my fears were at an +end, I was so excited I could not speak without signs that shouldn't +show, and, lest some one stop me, I put the mail inside my shirt-waist +and hopped on Skylark and flew out of town. + +I didn't stop until I got to a big chestnut-tree about three miles from +Rose Hill, and there I took off Skylark's bridle and let her have all +the grass she could eat, and then I sat down and sorted the letters +out. There were four from Billy and twelve cards and two packages, and +at first I couldn't understand why they had been held up, why I hadn't +gotten them before; and then I saw they were postmarked from the same +place, and had been mailed within three days of one another. That +puzzled me, so I decided to open them and find out what was the +matter--whether it was the Western girl or something else. + +I ought to have known it was something else! And I have been +wondering, ever since I read the letters and found out about the +accident to Billy's eyes, when he came near being shot and the powder +got in them and nearly put them out, why it is that people are so +mistrusting and why we let one thing we can't understand make us forget +what we ought to understand very well. Ten thousand kind things, right +things, nice things we take for granted, and then at the first thing we +think isn't kind or right or nice we forget the others and howl and +snort about the one we do not like. At least that is what I did. Not +outwardly, of course, but inwardly, for I'm pretty toplofty about being +treated right, and I flare out and say things I shouldn't at times, and +afterward I am so ashamed of myself that a worm of the dust is a perky +animal to me for a few minutes. That condition of mind doesn't last +very long, however. I am not by nature a humble-minded person. While +it does last it is awful. Perfectly awful. + +When I read Billy's letter I laid right down on the grass and put my +face deep down in it, and there wasn't anything abominable that anybody +could have said about me that I would not have agreed to. All the time +I had been furious with him for not writing as usual, he had been shut +up in a dark room, not able to see the food he was eating, much less +able to write letters, and then when they took the bandages off he +wrote so much they had to be put back again, and he was forbidden to +write more than a few lines, which accounted for so many cards. He +wouldn't let any one else write me, and I don't understand exactly how +it happened except he saw a drunken man on the street waving a pistol, +and there were some children around, and before the policeman could get +to him Billy had caught his hand and the thing had gone off and some of +the powder got in his eyes. He made light of it, but I know exactly +what he did. I thought it was a Western product that was engrossing +him, and it was the children he was trying to save. Oh, Billy, I'm a +pig! A perfectly horrid pig! + +And then I suddenly thought of the astonishing letter I had written +about being in love and maybe engaged, and I prayed hard that he would +never get it; but I knew it was too late for prayers. And then I got +mad with Pat for writing to Jess about the girl from the West, and with +Jess for writing what Pat had written, and not for some time did I come +to my senses and realize I was the only person I had any right to get +mad with. I got, all right. And then I wondered what to do. Billy +said they would sail on the 21st and reach New York on the 29th, so I +decided to go back to Rose Hill and begin to pack. + +Father could not come to me, so I would go to Father and be home by the +time Billy got there. It was only the 3d of September, but I decided I +would leave as soon as I could do so without remarks being made about +my going sooner than I expected, and to prevent remarks I would have to +invent a good reason for getting away. Father's loneliness would make +a perfect reason for Twickenham Town, and a most dutiful one, and no +one would be apt to ask me why I hadn't thought of his loneliness +before; but it wouldn't do for the family. They wanted me to stay out +of the city as long as possible, and while I was wondering what I could +do to get back, Mrs. Pettigrew passed with five of the children in the +buggy and asked if I knew there was a telegram for me at the station. +I told her I did not, and my heart got right where hearts always get +when telegrams are mentioned, and in the twinkling of an eye Skylark's +bridle was on and I on Skylark, and we raced like mad to town. + +On the way I was thinking all the awful things that telegrams start one +to thinking, and I remembered it was just eleven days since I had sent +the letter to Billy, who had, of course, gotten it by this time, and, +not realizing how fast I was going, I was at the station before it +seemed possible to get there, and so out of breath I could not speak. +I slipped off the horse and held out my hand to Mr. Pepper for the +telegram, and when he handed me the yellow envelope I slid down on a +bench and held it as if it were a death-warrant, and not for some time +could I open it. I was positive it was about Mother, who wasn't very +well when she last wrote, and everything I had ever done that I ought +not to have done, and everything I had left undone which I should have +done, walked right up in front of me and clutched me by the throat, and +I had to shut my eyes to keep my head steady. I had inside the same +sinky feeling I felt the first time I went to Europe, on the first day +out. + +Mr. Pepper was looking at me, and so were several other people who +happened to be standing around, so I tried to get a grip on, and after +awhile I opened the envelope; but at first I couldn't see the words on +it. Finally I took them in after three times reading them over, and at +last I understood. + + +Cut it out. You are engaged to me. Sailing to-morrow. See you +September fifteenth.--BILLY. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + +There never was a sinner saved by grace who so wanted to make a noise +as I wanted to make one when I got into my head what had happened. The +relief from fear and the joyfulness of knowing I had been pulled out of +another ditch made me dizzy for a moment, and down went my elbows into +my lap and down my face into my hands, and not until Mr. Pepper said +something to me did I lift my head and get up. Then I threw my +riding-crop in the air, tossed up the Pepper baby, danced around with +him, and, suddenly seeing all present were watching me, and knowing +they felt they had a right to hear what was in the telegram without +waiting for Mr. Pepper to tell them, I said an old friend of mine, who +was anxious to know Twickenham Town, was coming to see it when he got +back from Europe. After which I gave Mr. Pepper a little wink which he +understood, and I am sure no one was told the wording of the message I +had received. Mr. Pepper has a good deal of sense. + +Happy? I was the happiest girl in all the world that day. I nearly +sang my throat off when I got to my room, but I did not mention the +telegram to anybody save Miss Susanna, and I didn't go into details +with her about it. I just said a friend was coming to see me when he +got back from Europe, and I said it in such a way she didn't think I +was interested very much. She is so astonished by Elizabeth's +behavior, and so surprised at her marriage, which is to be in November, +that I don't think she paid any attention to what I said and got the +impression it was a friend of Father's who was coming to Twickenham +Town. I let her keep it. I did not give it to her knowingly, but +there was no need to take it away. + +And last night, not being able to sleep, I knew I had not been in love +with Whythe at all. I don't know a thing in the world about being in +love. I had tried to think I knew something, but I was mistaken. I +must say I enjoyed hearing Whythe's crescendo, obligato, diminuendo way +of making it, but I realize now I am not the sort of person to really +fall in love with strange men. Certainly I could never do it with a +wabbly, changery, one-or-the-othery kind of man that Whythe is, and +while it was pretty scrumptious thinking a twenty-five-year-older was +in love with me, I soon found out it was a summer case and not at all +serious. And I am thankful I never thought I was enough in love to +become engaged. There might have been things to remember that one +likes to forget when the real one comes along, and I have nothing of +that sort to be sorry for. I'm right particular at times. + +If I am ever really and truly engaged I wonder if I will be as +particular as a sixteen-year-old person, a girl person, ought to be? I +guess it will depend on whom I am engaged to, but, of course, not being +in love, I couldn't be engaged, and there is no use in thinking what I +might do under circumstances that might warrant the doing of it, and +when I see Billy I will just shake hands; that is-- + +Every time I think of his coming I feel like opening my arms so wide I +could take the whole world in, but I don't open them. I just go look +at the calendar to see if another day hasn't gone by yet. When this +morning I saw it was the 14th and realized there wasn't but one more +day to wait, I went to the window and did open my arms, and I sent a +message into the air. And then, because I felt so sorry for Miss +Araminta Armstrong, who has nothing to wait for but older age, and for +Miss Bettie Simcoe, who has long since stopped hoping, I went +down-stairs and asked them if they wouldn't like to motor to Glade +Springs, and they said they would, and we went. Also Mr. Willie +Prince. I didn't want to ask him, but I couldn't leave him out, and of +course he wanted to go. The going made the day pass a little quicker, +but it has been a long day! Awful long! + +For the last week I have been going around to almost every house in +town to say good-by. I don't know the exact day I will leave, as that +will depend on when Mother says I must be home; but I didn't want to go +away and not say good-by to everybody and tell them what a good time I +have had, and I started telling very soon after I got Billy's message +saying he was coming. I have thanked everybody for their niceness and +kindness to me, and told every one I hope to come back next summer, and +sometimes we have had little weeps, for they put their arms around me +and held me so tight I could hardly breathe. And I know now there is +nothing as good as friendliness, and loving-kindness is more to be +desired than all things else on earth, and I am going to try to make it +grow wherever I live. I will have a garden of it--have it in my heart. + +I am afraid I will always have some practical things in my heart, too, +for of late I've been thinking about all that money Billy had to spend +in cabling me from Europe. When Billy wants to do a thing he never +lets obstacles stand in his way, and he would have sent that cable if +he'd had to borrow the money from the Bank of England at an awful rate +of interest. What he did do I guess was to get it from his mother. +She would take her head off and her heart out and hand both over if he +wanted them, and it isn't her fault that William, as she calls him, +isn't a ruined person. + +I know she hated him to leave ahead of time, which he had to do to get +here on the 15th, the rest not sailing, Jess says, until the 20th; but +that's William again. He doesn't waste time when he has anything to +attend to, and I know exactly what he said to his mother. He will make +every arrangement and fix everything for them and then tell them +good-by. He isn't much with words, Billy isn't. He acts. There's no +fumble in him, and even his mother, who thinks his mold was broken when +he was born and that the Lord never made but one like him, has to admit +he is a high-handed person when occasion requires. I don't agree with +his mother in a good many things concerning William, but in some I do. +I wish he wasn't an only son. An only son for a husband is hard on a +wife. + +The thing I have been thinking about most since I got his cable, +however, is a certain thing that was in it. I've worn the paper out +reading it, and at first there was no argument in my mind, but it is +coming, argument is. And though I know it is a bad habit, especially +in girls and women and disliked by the other sex, how can you help it +when things are said that are not so? Billy said, "You are engaged to +me." How does he know? I never told him so. He hasn't exactly asked +me--that is, in a way that I would answer him--and he always got so +choky when on such subjects that I changed them quick, and yet he +announces that I am his, and with never so much as by your leave! + +I am afraid, I'm terribly afraid, I am going to agree with him. It's a +relief to have some things settled for you, and as he imagines I will +always be falling overboard, he doubtless thinks he had better keep a +life-preserver on me in case he isn't near enough to jump in after me. +He knows if I ever agree to put one on I will keep it on. I have a +good deal of Father in me, and when I give my word I stick to it. + +If any one had told me when I came to Twickenham Town that the chief +thing I would find out before I went away was that I wouldn't really +mind owning a life-preserver, my head would have gone up and I would +have been as chesty as a hen who tries to crow; and now I'm nothing but +a humble-minded person waiting for a high-handed one to come and take +me back home. And I am perfectly willing to go. Another thing I have +found out this summer is that it doesn't much matter where you are or +what you are doing; whether there is purple and fine linen or just +ancestors, or both together, or neither; if the one you want most isn't +with you, you will be pretty lonely after a while. + +I have had a grand time in Twickenham Town, but I don't want to come +here again by myself. If Mrs. William Spencer Sloane wants to take her +son away with her next summer, she won't be able to do it. Her son +will be twenty-one next summer, and though I hope he will always be +respectful and obedient, as far as possible, to his mother's wishes, +still, she will have to remember there are other wishes in this world +besides hers. I trust she will be nice about the discovery. Mrs. +Sloane is a very handsome woman, but spoiled. And very fond of having +her own way. + +We are not apt to have much money, Billy and I. We have often said we +thought young people ought to do their own scrambling, and I think +that's what we'll have to do, as our fathers think much the same way. +I'm not fond of herbs, but I can stand a dinner of them if Billy can, +and besides, it will be nice for us to work up together and not have +too quick a shove. And another thing we agree about. We know the +thing that counts most, and we are going to keep a good deal of it on +hand. Father says neither poverty nor riches can kill love if it is +the right sort. I know Billy's is the right sort, but I am crazy to +hear him put it into words. + +He will have traveled thousands of miles to say something he could have +written, to tell me I am engaged to him and I might as well understand +it; but there won't be an extra sentence in the way he says it. He +will be here to-morrow, and I bet the best thing I've got that all he +will say is: "Kitty Canary, we are going to decide right now on the day +and the month and the year. I will wait until you get through college, +as you say I've got to, but I won't wait a day longer. Let's get a +calendar and work it out." + +And I, being a weak-minded person at times, will say, "All right, +Billy," and then-- + + + + +THE END + + + + + + + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of Kitty Canary, by Kate Langley Bosher + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK KITTY CANARY *** + +***** This file should be named 16946.txt or 16946.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + https://www.gutenberg.org/1/6/9/4/16946/ + +Produced by Al Haines + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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