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FOR PUBLIC DOMAIN ETEXTS*Ver.04.29.93*END* + + + + + +This etext was prepared by Donald Lainson, charlie@idirect.com. + + + + +LUCILE + +by Owen Meredith + + + + +"Why, let the stricken deer go weep. + The hart ungalled play: + For some must watch, while some must sleep; + Thus runs the world away." + +Hamlet. + + + + +DEDICATION. + +TO MY FATHER. + + +I dedicate to you a work, which is submitted to the public with a +diffidence and hesitation proportioned to the novelty of the effort +it represents. For in this poem I have abandoned those forms of +verse with which I had most familiarized my thoughts, and have +endeavored to follow a path on which I could discover no footprints +before me, either to guide or to warn. + +There is a moment of profound discouragement which succeeds to +prolonged effort; when, the labor which has become a habit having +ceased, we miss the sustaining sense of its companionship, and +stand, with a feeling of strangeness and embarrassment, before the +abrupt and naked result. As regards myself, in the present +instance, the force of all such sensations is increased by the +circumstances to which I have referred. And in this moment of +discouragement and doubt, my heart instinctively turns to you, from +whom it has so often sought, from whom it has never failed to +receive, support. + +I do not inscribe to you this book because it contains anything +that is worthy of the beloved and honored name with which I thus +seek to associate it; nor yet because I would avail myself of a +vulgar pretext to display in public an affection that is best +honored by the silence which it renders sacred. + +Feelings only such as those with which, in days when there existed +for me no critic less gentle than yourself, I brought to you my +childish manuscripts; feelings only such as those which have, in +later years, associated with your heart all that has moved or +occupied my own,--lead me once more to seek assurance from the +grasp of that hand which has hitherto been my guide and comfort +through the life I owe to you. + +And as in childhood, when existence had no toil beyond the day's +simple lesson, no ambition beyond the neighboring approval of the +night, I brought to you the morning's task for the evening's +sanction, so now I bring to you this self-appointed taskwork of +maturer years; less confident indeed of your approval, but not less +confident of your love; and anxious only to realize your presence +between myself and the public, and to mingle with those severer +voices to whose final sentence I submit my work the beloved and +gracious accents of your own. + +OWEN MEREDITH. + + + + +LUCILE + + +PART I. + +CANTO I. + + +I. + + +LETTER FROM THE COMTESSE DE NEVERS TO LORD ALFRED VARGRAVE. + + +"I hear from Bigorre you are there. I am told +You are going to marry Miss Darcy. Of old, +So long since you may have forgotten it now +(When we parted as friends, soon mere strangers to grow), +Your last words recorded a pledge--what you will-- +A promise--the time is now come to fulfil. +The letters I ask you, my lord, to return, +I desire to receive from your hand. You discern +My reasons, which, therefore, I need not explain. +The distance to Luchon is short. I remain +A month in these mountains. Miss Darcy, perchance, +Will forego one brief page from the summer romance +Of her courtship, and spare you one day from your place +At her feet, in the light of her fair English face. +I desire nothing more, and trust you will feel +I desire nothing much. + "Your friend always, + "LUCILE." + + +II. + + +Now in May Fair, of course,--in the fair month of May-- +When life is abundant, and busy, and gay: +When the markets of London are noisy about +Young ladies, and strawberries,--"only just out;" +Fresh strawberries sold under all the house-eaves, +And young ladies on sale for the strawberry-leaves: +When cards, invitations, and three-cornered notes +Fly about like white butterflies--gay little motes +In the sunbeam of Fashion; and even Blue Books +Take a heavy-wing'd flight, and grow busy as rooks; +And the postman (that Genius, indifferent and stern, +Who shakes out even-handed to all, from his urn, +Those lots which so often decide if our day +Shall be fretful and anxious, or joyous and gay) +Brings, each morning, more letters of one sort or other +Than Cadmus, himself, put together, to bother +The heads of Hellenes;--I say, in the season +Of Fair May, in May Fair, there can be no reason +Why, when quietly munching your dry toast and butter, +Your nerves should be suddenly thrown in a flutter +At the sight of a neat little letter, address'd +In a woman's handwriting, containing, half guess'd, +An odor of violets faint as the Spring, +And coquettishly seal'd with a small signet-ring. +But in Autumn, the season of sombre reflection, +When a damp day, at breakfast, begins with dejection; +Far from London and Paris, and ill at one's ease, +Away in the heart of the blue Pyrenees, +Where a call from the doctor, a stroll to the bath, +A ride through the hills on a hack like a lath, +A cigar, a French novel, a tedious flirtation, +Are all a man finds for his day's occupation, +The whole case, believe me, is totally changed, +And a letter may alter the plans we arranged +Over-night, for the slaughter of time--a wild beast, +Which, though classified yet by no naturalist, +Abounds in these mountains, more hard to ensnare, +And more mischievous, too, than the Lynx or the Bear. + + +III. + + +I marvel less, therefore, that, having already +Torn open this note, with a hand most unsteady, +Lord Alfred was startled. + The month is September; +Time, morning; the scene at Bigorre; (pray remember +These facts, gentle reader, because I intend +To fling all the unities by at the end.) +He walk'd to the window. The morning was chill: +The brown woods were crisp'd in the cold on the hill: +The sole thing abroad in the streets was the wind: +And the straws on the gust, like the thoughts in his mind, +Rose, and eddied around and around, as tho' teasing +Each other. The prospect, in truth, was unpleasing: +And Lord Alfred, whilst moodily gazing around it, +To himself more than once (vex'd in soul) sigh'd +. . . . . "Confound it!" + + +IV. + + +What the thoughts were which led to this bad interjection, +Sir, or madam, I leave to your future detection; +For whatever they were, they were burst in upon, +As the door was burst through, by my lord's Cousin John. + +COUSIN JOHN. + +A fool, Alfred, a fool, a most motley fool! + +LORD ALFRED. + + Who? + +JOHN. + +The man who has anything better to do; +And yet so far forgets himself, so far degrades +His position as Man, to this worst of all trades, +Which even a well-brought-up ape were above, +To travel about with a woman in love,-- +Unless she's in love with himself. + +ALFRED. + + Indeed! why +Are you here then, dear Jack? + +JOHN. + + Can't you guess it? + +ALFRED. + + Not I. + +JOHN. + +Because I HAVE nothing that's better to do. +I had rather be bored, my dear Alfred, by you, +On the whole (I must own), than be bored by myself. +That perverse, imperturbable, golden-hair'd elf-- +Your Will-o'-the-wisp--that has led you and me +Such a dance through these hills-- + +ALFRED. + + Who, Matilda? + +JOHN. + + Yes! she, +Of course! who but she could contrive so to keep +One's eyes, and one's feet too, from falling asleep +For even one half-hour of the long twenty-four? + +ALFRED. + +What's the matter? + +JOHN. + + Why, she is--a matter, the more +I consider about it, the more it demands +An attention it does not deserve; and expands +Beyond the dimensions which ev'n crinoline, +When possess'd by a fair face, and saucy Eighteen, +Is entitled to take in this very small star, +Already too crowded, as I think, by far. +You read Malthus and Sadler? + +ALFRED. + + Of course. + +JOHN. + + To what use, +When you countenance, calmly, such monstrous abuse +Of one mere human creature's legitimate space +In this world? Mars, Apollo, Virorum! the case +Wholly passes my patience. + +ALFRED. + + My own is worse tried. + +JOHN. + +Yours, Alfred? + +ALFRED. + + Read this, if you doubt, and decide, + +JOHN (reading the letter). + +"I hear from Bigorre you are there. I am told +You are going to marry Miss Darcy. Of old--" +What is this? + +ALFRED. + + Read it on to the end, and you'll know. + +JOHN (continues reading). + +"When we parted, your last words recorded a vow-- +What you will" . . . + Hang it! this smells all over, I swear, +Of adventurers and violets. Was it your hair +You promised a lock of? + +ALFRED. + + Read on. You'll discern. + +JOHN (continues). + +"Those letters I ask you, my lord, to return." . . . +Humph! . . . Letters! . . . the matter is worse than I guess'd; +I have my misgivings-- + +ALFRED. + + Well, read out the rest, +And advise. + +JOHN. + + Eh? . . . Where was I? +(continues.) + "Miss Darcy, perchance, +Will forego one brief page from the summer romance +Of her courtship." . . . + Egad! a romance, for my part, +I'd forego every page of, and not break my heart! + +ALFRED. + +Continue. + +JOHN (reading). + + "And spare you one day from your place +At her feet." . . . + Pray forgive me the passing grimace. +I wish you had MY place! +(reads) + "I trust you will feel +I desire nothing much. Your friend," . . . + Bless me! "Lucile?" +The Countess de Nevers? + +ALFRED. + + Yes. + +JOHN. + + What will you do? + +ALFRED. + +You ask me just what I would rather ask you. + +JOHN. + +You can't go. + +ALFRED + + I must. + +JOHN. + + And Matilda? + +ALFRED. + + Oh, that +You must manage! + +JOHN. + + Must I? I decline it, though, flat. +In an hour the horses will be at the door, +And Matilda is now in her habit. Before +I have finished my breakfast, of course I receive +A message for "dear Cousin John!" . . . I must leave +At the jeweller's the bracelet which YOU broke last night; +I must call for the music. "Dear Alfred is right: +The black shawl looks best: WILL I change it? Of course +I can just stop, in passing, to order the horse. +Then Beau has the mumps, or St. Hubert knows what; +WILL I see the dog-doctor?" Hang Beau! I will NOT. + +ALFRED. + +Tush, tush! this is serious. + +JOHN. + + It is. + +ALFRED. + + Very well, +You must think-- + +JOHN. + + What excuse will you make, tho'? + +ALFRED. + + Oh, tell +Mrs. Darcy that . . . lend me your wits, Jack! . . . The deuce! +Can you not stretch your genius to fit a friend's use? +Excuses are clothes which, when ask'd unawares, +Good Breeding to Naked Necessity spares, +You must have a whole wardrobe, no doubt. + +JOHN. + + My dear fellow, +Matilda is jealous, you know, as Othello. + +ALFRED. + +You joke. + +JOHN. + + I am serious. Why go to Luchon? + +ALFRED. + +Don't ask me. I have not a choice, my dear John. +Besides, shall I own a strange sort of desire, +Before I extinguish forever the fire +Of youth and romance, in whose shadowy light +Hope whisper'd her first fairy tales, to excite +The last spark, till it rise, and fade far in that dawn +Of my days where the twilights of life were first drawn +By the rosy, reluctant auroras of Love; +In short, from the dead Past the gravestone to move; +Of the years long departed forever to take +One last look, one final farewell; to awake +The Heroic of youth from the Hades of joy, +And once more be, though but for an hour, Jack--a boy! + +JOHN. + +You had better go hang yourself. + +ALFRED. + + No! were it but +To make sure that the Past from the Future is shut, +It were worth the step back. Do you think we should live +With the living so lightly, and learn to survive +That wild moment in which to the grave and its gloom +We consign'd our heart's best, if the doors of the tomb +Were not lock'd with a key which Fate keeps for our sake? +If the dead could return or the corpses awake? + +JOHN. + +Nonsense! + +ALFRED. + + Not wholly. The man who gets up +A fill'd guest from the banquet, and drains off his cup, +Sees the last lamp extinguish'd with cheerfulness, goes +Well contented to bed, and enjoys its repose. +But he who hath supp'd at the tables of kings, +And yet starved in the sight of luxurious things; +Who hath watch'd the wine flow, by himself but half tasted; +Heard the music, and yet miss'd the tune; who hath wasted +One part of life's grand possibilities:--friend, +That man will bear with him, be sure, to the end, +A blighted experience, a rancor within: +You may call it a virtue, I call it a sin. + +JOHN. + +I see you remember the cynical story +Of that wicked old piece Experience--a hoary +Lothario, whom dying, the priest by his bed +(Knowing well the unprincipled life he had led, +And observing, with no small amount of surprise, +Resignation and calm in the old sinner's eyes) +Ask'd if he had nothing that weigh'd on his mind: +"Well, . . . no," . . . says Lothario, "I think not. I find, +On reviewing my life, which in most things was pleasant, +I never neglected, when once it was present, +An occasion of pleasing myself. On the whole, +I have naught to regret;" . . . and so, smiling, his soul +Took its flight from this world. + +ALFRED. + + Well, Regret or Remorse, +Which is best? + +JOHN. + + Why, Regret. + +ALFRED. + + No; Remorse, Jack, of course: +For the one is related, be sure, to the other. +Regret is a spiteful old maid: but her brother, +Remorse, though a widower certainly, yet +HAS been wed to young Pleasure. Dear Jack, hang Regret! + +JOHN. + +Bref! you mean, then, to go? + +ALFRED. + + Bref! I do. + +JOHN. + + One word . . . stay! +Are you really in love with Matilda? + +ALFRED. + + Love, eh? +What a question! Of course. + +JOHN. + + WERE you really in love +With Madame de Nevers? + +ALFRED. + + What; Lucile? No, by Jove, +Never REALLY. + +JOHN. + + She's pretty? + +ALFRED. + + Decidedly so. +At least, so she was, some ten summers ago. +As soft, and as sallow as Autumn--with hair +Neither black, nor yet brown, but that tinge which the air +Takes at eve in September, when night lingers lone +Through a vineyard, from beams of a slow-setting sun. +Eyes--the wistful gazelle's; the fine foot of a fairy; +And a hand fit a fay's wand to wave,--white and airy; +A voice soft and sweet as a tune that one knows. +Something in her there was, set you thinking of those +Strange backgrounds of Raphael . . . that hectic and deep +Brief twilight in which southern suns fall asleep. + +JOHN. + +Coquette? + +ALFRED. + + Not at all. 'Twas her one fault. Not she! +I had loved her the better, had she less loved me. +The heart of a man's like that delicate weed +Which requires to be trampled on, boldly indeed, +Ere it give forth the fragrance you wish to extract. +'Tis a simile, trust me, if not new, exact. + +JOHN. + +Women change so. + +ALFRED. + + Of course. + +JOHN. + + And, unless rumor errs, +I believe, that last year, the Comtesse de Nevers* +Was at Baden the rage--held an absolute court +Of devoted adorers, and really made sport +Of her subjects. + + +* O Shakespeare! how couldst thou ask "What's in a name?" +'Tis the devil's in it, when a bard has to frame +English rhymes for alliance with names that are French: +And in these rhymes of mine, well I know that I trench +All too far on that license which critics refuse, +With just right, to accord to a well-brought-up Muse. +Yet, tho' faulty the union, in many a line, +'Twixt my British-born verse and my French heroine, +Since, however auspiciously wedded they be, +There is many a pair that yet cannot agree, +Your forgiveness for this pair, the author invites, +Whom necessity, not inclination, unites. + + +ALFRED. + + Indeed! + +JOHN. + + When she broke off with you +Her engagement, her heart did not break with it? + +ALFRED. + + Pooh! +Pray would you have had her dress always in black, +And shut herself up in a convent, dear Jack? +Besides, 'twas my fault the engagement was broken. + +JOHN. + +Most likely. How was it? + +ALFRED. + + The tale is soon spoken. +She bored me. I show'd it. She saw it. What next? +She reproach'd. I retorted. Of course she was vex'd. +I was vex'd that she was so. She sulk'd. So did I. +If I ask'd her to sing, she look'd ready to cry. +I was contrite, submissive. She soften'd. I harden'd. +At noon I was banish'd. At eve I was pardon'd. +She said I had no heart. I said she had no reason. +I swore she talk'd nonsense. She sobb'd I talk'd treason. +In short, my dear fellow, 'twas time, as you see, +Things should come to a crisis, and finish. 'Twas she +By whom to that crisis the matter was brought. +She released me. I linger'd. I linger'd, she thought, +With too sullen an aspect. This gave me, of course, +The occasion to fly in a rage, mount my horse, +And declare myself uncomprehended. And so +We parted. The rest of the story you know. + +JOHN. + +No, indeed. + +ALFRED. + + Well, we parted. Of course we could not +Continue to meet, as before, in one spot. +You conceive it was awkward? Even Don Ferdinando +Can do, you remember, no more than he can do. +I think that I acted exceedingly well, +Considering the time when this rupture befell, +For Paris was charming just then. It deranged +All my plans for the winter. I ask'd to be changed-- +Wrote for Naples, then vacant--obtain'd it--and so +Join'd my new post at once; but scarce reach'd it, when lo! +My first news from Paris informs me Lucile +Is ill, and in danger. Conceive what I feel. +I fly back. I find her recover'd, but yet +Looking pale. I am seized with a contrite regret; +I ask to renew the engagement. + +JOHN. + + And she? + +ALFRED. + +Reflects, but declines. We part, swearing to be +Friends ever, friends only. All that sort of thing! +We each keep our letters . . . a portrait . . . a ring . . . +With a pledge to return them whenever the one +Or the other shall call for them back. + +JOHN. + + Pray go on. + +ALFRED. + +My story is finish'd. Of course I enjoin +On Lucile all those thousand good maxims we coin +To supply the grim deficit found in our days, +When love leaves them bankrupt. I preach. She obeys. +She goes out in the world; takes to dancing once more-- +A pleasure she rarely indulged in before. +I go back to my post, and collect (I must own +'Tis a taste I had never before, my dear John) +Antiques and small Elzevirs. Heigho! now, Jack, +You know all. + +JOHN (after a pause). + + You are really resolved to go. back? + +ALFRED. + +Eh, where? + +JOHN. + + To that worst of all places--the past. +You remember Lot's wife? + +ALFRED. + + 'Twas a promise when last +We parted. My honor is pledged to it. + +JOHN. + + Well, +What is it you wish me to do? + +ALFRED. + + You must tell +Matilda, I meant to have call'd--to leave word-- +To explain--but the time was so pressing-- + +JOHN. + + My lord, +Your lordship's obedient! I really can't do . . . + +ALFRED. + +You wish then to break off my marriage? + +JOHN. + + No, no! +But indeed I can't see why yourself you need take +These letters. + +ALFRED. + + Not see? would you have me, then, break +A promise my honor is pledged to? + +JOHN (humming). + + "Off, off +And away! said the stranger" . . . + +ALFRED. + + Oh, good! oh, you scoff! + +JOHN. + +At what, my dear Alfred? + +ALFRED. + + At all things! +JOHN. + Indeed? + + +ALFRED. + +Yes; I see that your heart is as dry as a reed: +That the dew of your youth is rubb'd off you: I see +You have no feeling left in you, even for me! +At honor you jest; you are cold as a stone +To the warm voice of friendship. Belief you have none; +You have lost faith in all things. You carry a blight +About with you everywhere. Yes, at the sight +Of such callous indifference, who could be calm? +I must leave you at once, Jack, or else the last balm +That is left me in Gilead you'll turn into gall. +Heartless, cold, unconcern'd . . . + +JOHN. + + Have you done? Is that all? +Well, then, listen to me! I presume when you made +up your mind to propose to Miss Darcy, you weigh'd +All the drawbacks against the equivalent gains, +Ere you finally settled the point. What remains +But to stick to your choice? You want money: 'tis here. +A settled position: 'tis yours. A career: +You secure it. A wife, young, and pretty as rich, +Whom all men will envy you. Why must you itch +To be running away, on the eve of all this, +To a woman whom never for once did you miss +All these years since you left her? Who knows what may hap? +This letter--to ME--is a palpable trap. +The woman has changed since you knew her. Perchance +She yet seeks to renew her youth's broken romance. +When women begin to feel youth and their beauty +Slip from them, they count it a sort of a duty +To let nothing else slip away unsecured +Which these, while they lasted, might once have procured. +Lucile's a coquette to the end of her fingers, +I will stake my last farthing. Perhaps the wish lingers +To recall the once reckless, indifferent lover +To the feet he has left; let intrigue now recover +What truth could not keep. 'Twere a vengeance, no doubt-- +A triumph;--but why must YOU bring it about? +You are risking the substance of all that you schemed +To obtain; and for what? some mad dream you have dream'd. + +ALFRED. + +But there's nothing to risk. You exaggerate, Jack, +You mistake. In three days, at the most, I am back. + +JOHN. + +Ay, but how? . . . discontented, unsettled, upset, +Bearing with you a comfortless twinge of regret. +Preoccupied, sulky, and likely enough +To make your betroth'd break off all in a huff. +Three days, do you say? But in three days who knows +What may happen? I don't, nor do you, I suppose. + + +V. + + +Of all the good things in this good world around us, +The one most abundantly furnish'd and found us, +And which, for that reason, we least care about, +And can best spare our friends, is good counsel, no doubt. +But advice, when 'tis sought from a friend (though civility +May forbid to avow it), means mere liability +In the bill we already have drawn on Remorse, +Which we deem that a true friend is bound to indorse. +A mere lecture on debt from that friend is a bore. +Thus, the better his cousin's advice was, the more +Alfred Vargrave with angry resentment opposed it. +And, having the worst of the contest, he closed it +With so firm a resolve his bad ground to maintain, +That, sadly perceiving resistance was vain, +And argument fruitless, the amiable Jack +Came to terms and assisted his cousin to pack +A slender valise (the one small condescension +Which his final remonstrance obtain'd), whose dimension +Excluded large outfits; and, cursing his stars, he +Shook hands with his friend and return'd to Miss Darcy. + + +VI. + + +Lord Alfred, when last to the window he turn'd, +Ere he lock'd up and quitted his chamber, discern'd +Matilda ride by, with her cheek beaming bright +In what Virgil has call'd, "Youth's purpureal light" +(I like the expression, and can't find a better). +He sigh'd as he look'd at her. Did he regret her? +In her habit and hat, with her glad golden hair, +As airy and blithe as a blithe bird in air, +And her arch rosy lips, and her eager blue eyes, +With her little impertinent look of surprise, +And her round youthful figure, and fair neck, below +The dark drooping feather, as radiant as snow,-- +I can only declare, that if I had the chance +Of passing three days in the exquisite glance +Of those eyes, or caressing the hand that now petted +That fine English mare, I should much have regretted +Whatever might lose me one little half-hour +Of a pastime so pleasant, when once in my power. +For, if one drop of milk from the bright Milky Way +Could turn into a woman, 'twould look, I dare say, +Not more fresh than Matilda was looking that day. + + +VII. + + +But, whatever the feeling that prompted the sigh +With which Alfred Vargrave now watched her ride by, +I can only affirm that, in watching her ride, +As he turned from the window he certainly sigh'd. + + + +CANTO II. + +I. + + +LETTER FROM LORD ALFRED VARGRAVE TO THE COMTESSE DE NEVERS. + +BIGORRE, TUESDAY. + + +"Your note, Madam, reach'd me to-day, at Bigorre, +And commands (need I add?) my obedience. Before +The night I shall be at Luchon--where a line, +If sent to Duval's, the hotel where I dine, +Will find me, awaiting your orders. Receive +My respects. + "Yours sincerely, + "A. VARGRAVE. + "I leave +In an hour." + + +II. + + + In an hour from the time he wrote this +Alfred Vargrave, in tracking a mountain abyss, +Gave the rein to his steed and his thoughts, and pursued, +In pursuing his course through the blue solitude, +The reflections that journey gave rise to. + And +(Because, without some such precaution, I fear +You might fail to distinguish, them each from the rest +Of the world they belong to; whose captives are drest, +As our convicts, precisely the same one and all, +While the coat cut for Peter is pass'd on to Paul) +I resolve, one by one, when I pick from the mass +The persons I want, as before you they pass, +To label them broadly in plain black and white +On the backs of them. Therefore whilst yet he's in sight, +I first label my hero. + + +III. + + + The age is gone o'er +When a man may in all things be all. We have more +Painters, poets, musicians, and artists, no doubt, +Than the great Cinquecento gave birth to; but out +Of a million of mere dilettanti, when, when +Will a new LEONARDO arise on our ken? +He is gone with the age which begat him. Our own +Is too vast, and too complex, for one man alone +To embody its purpose, and hold it shut close +In the palm of his hand. There were giants in those +Irreclaimable days; but in these days of ours, +In dividing the work, we distribute the powers. +Yet a dwarf on a dead giant's shoulders sees more +Than the 'live giant's eyesight availed to explore; +And in life's lengthen'd alphabet what used to be +To our sires X Y Z is to us A B C. +A Vanini is roasted alive for his pains, +But a Bacon comes after and picks up his brains. +A Bruno is angrily seized by the throttle +And hunted about by thy ghost, Aristotle, +Till a More or Lavater step into his place: +Then the world turns and makes an admiring grimace. +Once the men were so great and so few, they appear, +Through a distant Olympian atmosphere, +Like vast Caryatids upholding the age. +Now the men are so many and small, disengage +One man from the million to mark him, next moment +The crowd sweeps him hurriedly out of your comment; +And since we seek vainly (to praise in our songs) +'Mid our fellows the size which to heroes belongs, +We take the whole age for a hero, in want +Of a better; and still, in its favor, descant +On the strength and the beauty which, failing to find +In any one man, we ascribe to mankind. + + +IV. + + +Alfred Vargrave was one of those men who achieve +So little, because of the much they conceive: +With irresolute finger he knock'd at each one +Of the doorways of life, and abided in none. +His course, by each star that would cross it, was set, +And whatever he did he was sure to regret. +That target, discuss'd by the travellers of old, +Which to one appear'd argent, to one appear'd gold, +To him, ever lingering on Doubt's dizzy margent, +Appear'd in one moment both golden and argent. +The man who seeks one thing in life, and but one, +May hope to achieve it before life be done; +But he who seeks all things, wherever he goes, +Only reaps from the hopes which around him he sows +A harvest of barren regrets. And the worm +That crawls on in the dust to the definite term +Of its creeping existence, and sees nothing more +Than the path it pursues till its creeping be o'er, +In its limited vision, is happier far +Than the Half-Sage, whose course, fix'd by no friendly star +Is by each star distracted in turn, and who knows +Each will still be as distant wherever he goes. + + +V. + + +Both brilliant and brittle, both bold and unstable, +Indecisive yet keen, Alfred Vargrave seem'd able +To dazzle, but not to illumine mankind. +A vigorous, various, versatile mind; +A character wavering, fitful, uncertain, +As the shadow that shakes o'er a luminous curtain, +Vague, flitting, but on it forever impressing +The shape of some substance at which you stand guessing: +When you said, "All is worthless and weak here," behold! +Into sight on a sudden there seem'd to unfold +Great outlines of strenuous truth in the man: +When you said, "This is genius," the outlines grew wan, +And his life, though in all things so gifted and skill'd, +Was, at best, but a promise which nothing fulfill'd. + + +VI. + + +In the budding of youth, ere wild winds can deflower +The shut leaves of man's life, round the germ of his power +Yet folded, his life had been earnest. Alas! +In that life one occasion, one moment, there was +When this earnestness might, with the life-sap of youth, +Lusty fruitage have borne in his manhood's full growth; +But it found him too soon, when his nature was still +The delicate toy of too pliant a will, +The boisterous wind of the world to resist, +Or the frost of the world's wintry wisdom. + He miss'd +That occasion, too rathe in its advent. + Since then, +He had made it a law, in his commerce with men, +That intensity in him, which only left sore +The heart it disturb'd, to repel and ignore. +And thus, as some Prince by his subjects deposed, +Whose strength he, by seeking to crush it, disclosed, +In resigning the power he lack'd power to support +Turns his back upon courts, with a sneer at the court, +In his converse this man for self-comfort appeal'd +To a cynic denial of all he conceal'd +In the instincts and feelings belied by his words. +Words, however, are things: and the man who accords +To his language the license to outrage his soul, +Is controll'd by the words he disdains to control. +And, therefore, he seem'd in the deeds of each day +The light code proclaim'd on his lips to obey; +And, the slave of each whim, follow'd wilfully aught +That perchance fool'd the fancy, or flatter'd the thought. +Yet, indeed, deep within him, the spirits of truth, +Vast, vague aspirations, the powers of his youth, +Lived and breathed, and made moan--stirr'd themselves--strove to start +Into deeds--though deposed, in that Hades, his heart. +Like those antique Theogonies ruin'd and hurl'd, +Under clefts of the hills, which, convulsing the world, +Heaved, in earthquake, their heads the rent caverns above, +To trouble at times in the light court of Jove +All its frivolous gods, with an undefined awe, +Of wrong'd rebel powers that own'd not their law. +For his sake, I am fain to believe that, if born +To some lowlier rank (from the world's languid scorn +Secured by the world's stern resistance) where strife, +Strife and toil, and not pleasure, gave purpose to life, +He possibly might have contrived to attain +Not eminence only, but worth. So, again, +Had he been of his own house the first-born, each gift +Of a mind many-gifted had gone to uplift +A great name by a name's greatest uses. + But there +He stood isolated, opposed, as it were, +To life's great realities; part of no plan; +And if ever a nobler and happier man +He might hope to become, that alone could be when +With all that is real in life and in men +What was real in him should have been reconciled; +When each influence now from experience exiled +Should have seized on his being, combined with his nature, +And form'd as by fusion, a new human creature: +As when those airy elements viewless to sight +(The amalgam of which, if our science be right, +The germ of this populous planet doth fold) +Unite in the glass of the chemist, behold! +Where a void seem'd before, there a substance appears, +From the fusion of forces whence issued the spheres! + + +VII. + + +But the permanent cause why his life fail'd and miss'd +The full value of life was,--where man should resist +The world, which man's genius is call'd to command, +He gave way, less from lack of the power to withstand, +Than from lack of the resolute will to retain +Those strongholds of life which the world strives to gain. +Let this character go in the old-fashion'd way, +With the moral thereof tightly tack'd to it. Say-- +"Let any man once show the world that he feels +Afraid of its bark, and 'twill fly at his heels: +Let him fearlessly face it, 'twill leave him alone: +But 'twill fawn at his feet if he flings it a bone." + + +VIII. + + +The moon of September, now half at the full, +Was unfolding from darkness and dreamland the lull +Of the quiet blue air, where the many-faced hills +Watch'd, well-pleased, their fair slaves, the light, foam-footed rills, +Dance and sing down the steep marble stairs of their courts, +And gracefully fashion a thousand sweet sports, +Lord Alfred (by this on his journeying far) +Was pensively puffing his Lopez cigar, +And brokenly humming an old opera strain, +And thinking, perchance, of those castles in Spain +Which that long rocky barrier hid from his sight; +When suddenly, out of the neighboring night, +A horseman emerged from a fold of the hill, +And so startled his steed that was winding at will +Up the thin dizzy strip of a pathway which led +O'er the mountain--the reins on its neck, and its head +Hanging lazily forward--that, but for a hand +Light and ready, yet firm, in familiar command, +Both rider and horse might have been in a trice +Hurl'd horribly over the grim precipice. + + +IX. + + +As soon as the moment's alarm had subsided, +And the oath with which nothing can find unprovided +A thoroughbred Englishman, safely exploded, +Lord Alfred unbent (as Apollo his bow did +Now and then) his erectness; and looking, not ruder +Than such inroad would warrant, survey'd the intruder, +Whose arrival so nearly cut short in his glory +My hero, and finished abruptly this story. + + +X. + + +The stranger, a man of his own age or less, +Well mounted, and simple though rich in his dress, +Wore his beard and mustache in the fashion of France. +His face, which was pale, gather'd force from the glance +Of a pair of dark, vivid, and eloquent eyes. +With a gest of apology, touch'd with surprise, +He lifted his hat, bow'd and courteously made +Some excuse in such well-cadenced French as betray'd, +At the first word he spoke, the Parisian. + + +XI. + + + I swear +I have wander'd about in the world everywhere; +From many strange mouths have heard many strange tongues; +Strain'd with many strange idioms my lips and my lungs; +Walk'd in many a far land, regretting my own; +In many a language groaned many a groan; +And have often had reason to curse those wild fellows +Who built the high house at which Heaven turn'd jealous, +Making human audacity stumble and stammer +When seized by the throat in the hard gripe of Grammar. +But the language of languages dearest to me +Is that in which once, O ma toute cherie, +When, together, we bent o'er your nosegay for hours, +You explain'd what was silently said by the flowers, +And, selecting the sweetest of all, sent a flame +Through my heart, as, in laughing, you murmur'd + Je t'aime. + + +XII. + + +The Italians have voices like peacocks; the Spanish +Smell, I fancy, of garlic; the Swedish and Danish +Have something too Runic, too rough and unshod, in +Their accents for mouths not descended from Odin; +German gives me a cold in the head, sets me wheezing +And coughing; and Russian is nothing but sneezing; +But, by Belus and Babel! I never have heard, +And I never shall hear (I well know it), one word +Of that delicate idiom of Paris without +Feeling morally sure, beyond question or doubt, +By the wild way in which my heart inwardly flutter'd +That my heart's native tongue to my heart had been utter'd +And whene'er I hear French spoken as I approve +I feel myself quietly falling in love. + + +XIII. + + +Lord Alfred, on hearing the stranger, appeased +By a something, an accent, a cadence, which pleased +His ear with that pledge of good breeding which tells +At once of the world in whose fellowship dwells +The speaker that owns it, was glad to remark +In the horseman a man one might meet after dark +Without fear. + And thus, not disagreeably impress'd, +As it seem'd, with each other, the two men abreast +Rode on slowly a moment. + + +XIV. + + +STRANGER. + + I see, Sir, you are +A smoker. Allow me! + +ALFRED. + + Pray take a cigar. + +STRANGER. + +Many thanks! . . . Such cigars are a luxury here. +Do you go to Luchon? + +ALFRED. + + Yes; and you? + +STRANGER. + + Yes. I fear, +Since our road is the same, that our journey must be +Somewhat closer than is our acquaintance. You see +How narrow the path is. I'm tempted to ask +Your permission to finish (no difficult task!) +The cigar you have given me (really a prize!) +In your company. + +ALFRED. + + Charm'd, Sir, to find your road lies +In the way of my own inclinations! Indeed +The dream of your nation I find in this weed. +In the distant Savannahs a talisman grows +That makes all men brothers that use it . . . who knows? +That blaze which erewhile from the Boulevart out-broke, +It has ended where wisdom begins, Sir,--in smoke. +Messieurs Lopez (whatever your publicists write) +Have done more in their way human kind to unite, +Perchance, than ten Prudhons. + +STRANGER. + + Yes. Ah, what a scene! + +ALFRED. + +Humph! Nature is here too pretentious. Her mien +Is too haughty. One likes to be coax'd, not compell'd, +To the notice such beauty resents if withheld. +She seems to be saying too plainly, "Admire me!" +And I answer, "Yes, madam, I do: but you tire me." + +STRANGER. + +That sunset, just now though . . . + +ALFRED. + + A very old trick! +One would think that the sun by this time must be sick +Of blushing at what, by this time, he must know +Too well to be shocked by--this world. + +STRANGER. + + Ah, 'tis so +With us all. 'Tis the sinner that best knew the world +At Twenty, whose lip is, at sixty, most curl'd +With disdain of its follies. You stay at Luchon? + +ALFRED. + +A day or two only. + +STRANGER. + + The season is done. + + +ALFRED. + +Already? + +STRANGER. + + 'Twas shorter this year than the last. +Folly soon wears her shoes out. She dances so fast +We are all of us tired. + +ALFRED. + + You know the place well? + +STRANGER. + +I have been there two seasons. + +ALFRED. + + Pray who is the Belle +Of the Baths at this moment? + +STRANGER. + + The same who has been +The belle of all places in which she is seen; +The belle of all Paris last winter; last spring +The belle of all Baden. + +ALFRED. + + An uncommon thing! + +STRANGER. + +Sir, an uncommon beauty! . . . I rather should say +An uncommon character. Truly, each day +One meets women whose beauty is equal to hers, +But none with the charm of Lucile de Nevers. + +ALFRED. + +Madame de Nevers! + +STRANGER. + + Do you know her? + +ALFRED. + + I know +Or, rather, I knew her--a long time ago. +I almost forget . . . + +STRANGER. + + What a wit! what a grace +In her language! her movements! what play in her face! +And yet what a sadness she seems to conceal! + +ALFRED. + +You speak like a lover. + +STRANGER. + + I speak as I feel, +But not like a lover. What interests me so +In Lucile, at the same time forbids me, I know, +To give to that interest, whate'er the sensation, +The name we men give to an hour's admiration, +A night's passing passion, an actress's eyes, +A dancing girl's ankles, a fine lady's sighs. + +ALFRED. + +Yes, I quite comprehend. But this sadness--this shade +Which you speak of? . . . it almost would make me afraid +Your gay countrymen, Sir, less adroit must have grown, +Since when, as a stripling, at Paris, I own +I found in them terrible rivals,--if yet +They have all lack'd the skill to console this regret +(If regret be the word I should use), or fulfil +This desire (if desire be the word), which seems still +To endure unappeased. For I take it for granted, +From all that you say, that the will was not wanted. + + +XV. + + +The stranger replied, not without irritation: +"I have heard that an Englishman--one of your nation +I presume--and if so, I must beg you, indeed, +To excuse the contempt which I . . ." + +ALFRED. + + Pray, Sir, proceed +With your tale. My compatriot, what was his crime? + +STRANGER. + +Oh, nothing! His folly was not so sublime +As to merit that term. If I blamed him just now, +It was not for the sin, but the silliness. + +ALFRED. + + How? + +STRANGER. + +I own I hate Botany. Still, . . . dmit, +Although I myself have no passion for it, +And do not understand, yet I cannot despise +The cold man of science, who walks with his eyes +All alert through a garden of flowers, and strips +The lilies' gold tongues, and the roses' red lips, +With a ruthless dissection; since he, I suppose, +Has some purpose beyond the mere mischief he does. +But the stupid and mischievous boy, that uproots +The exotics, and tramples the tender young shoots, +For a boy's brutal pastime, and only because +He knows no distinction 'twixt heartsease and haws,-- +One would wish, for the sake of each nursling so nipp'd, +To catch the young rascal and have him well whipp'd! + +ALFRED. + +Some compatriot of mine, do I then understand, +With a cold Northern heart, and a rude English hand, +Has injured your Rosebud of France? + +STRANGER. + + Sir, I know +But little, or nothing. Yet some faces show +The last act of a tragedy in their regard: +Though the first scenes be wanting, it yet is not hard +To divine, more or less, what the plot may have been, +And what sort of actors have pass'd o'er the scene. +And whenever I gaze on the face of Lucile, +With its pensive and passionless languor, I feel +That some feeling hath burnt there . . . burnt out, and burnt up +Health and hope. So you feel when you gaze down the cup +Of extinguish'd volcanoes: you judge of the fire +Once there, by the ravage you see;--the desire, +By the apathy left in its wake, and that sense +Of a moral, immovable, mute impotence. + +ALFRED. + +Humph! . . . I see you have finished, at last, your cigar; +Can I offer another? + +STRANGER. + + No, thank you. We are +Not two miles from Luchon. + +ALFRED. + + You know the road well? + +STRANGER. + +I have often been over it. + + +XVI. + + + Here a pause fell +On their converse. Still musingly on, side by side, +In the moonlight, the two men continued to ride +Down the dim mountain pathway. But each for the rest +Of their journey, although they still rode on abreast, +Continued to follow in silence the train +Of the different feelings that haunted his brain; +And each, as though roused from a deep revery, +Almost shouted, descending the mountain, to see +Burst at once on the moonlight the silvery Baths, +The long lime-tree alley, the dark gleaming paths, +With the lamps twinkling through them--the quaint wooden roofs-- +The little white houses. + The clatter of hoofs, +And the music of wandering bands, up the walls +Of the steep hanging hill, at remote intervals +Reached them, cross'd by the sound of the clacking of whips, +And here and there, faintly, through serpentine slips +Of verdant rose-gardens deep-sheltered with screens +Of airy acacias and dark evergreens, +They could mark the white dresses and catch the light songs +Of the lovely Parisians that wander'd in throngs, +Led by Laughter and Love through the old eventide +Down the dream-haunted valley, or up the hillside. + + +XVII. + + +At length, at the door of the inn l'HERISSON, +Pray go there, if ever you go to Luchon!) +The two horsemen, well pleased to have reached it, alighted +And exchanged their last greetings. + The Frenchman invited +Lord Alfred to dinner. Lord Alfred declined. +He had letters to write, and felt tired. So he dined +In his own rooms that night. + With an unquiet eye +He watched his companion depart; nor knew why, +Beyond all accountable reason or measure, +He felt in his breast such a sovran displeasure. +"The fellow's good looking," he murmur'd at last, +"And yet not a coxcomb." Some ghost of the past +Vex'd him still. + "If he love her," he thought, "let him win her." +Then he turn'd to the future--and order'd his dinner. + + +XVIII. + + +O hour of all hours, the most bless'd upon earth, +Blessed hour of our dinners! + The land of his birth; +The face of his first love; the bills that he owes; +The twaddle of friends and the venom of foes; +The sermon he heard when to church he last went; +The money he borrow'd, the money he spent;-- +All of these things, a man, I believe, may forget, +And not be the worse for forgetting; but yet +Never, never, oh never! earth's luckiest sinner +Hath unpunish'd forgotten the hour of his dinner! +Indigestion, that conscience of every bad stomach, +Shall relentlessly gnaw and pursue him with some ache +Or some pain; and trouble, remorseless, his best ease, +As the Furies once troubled the sleep of Orestes. + + +XIX. + + +We may live without poetry, music, and art: +We may live without conscience, and live without heart; +We may live without friends; we may live without books; +But civilized man cannot live without cooks. +He may live without books,--what is knowledge but grieving? +He may live without hope,--what is hope but deceiving? +He may live without love,--what is passion but pining? +But where is the man that can live without dining? + + +XX. + + +Lord Alfred found, waiting his coming, a note +From Lucile. + "Your last letter has reach'd me," she wrote. +"This evening, alas! I must go to the ball, +And shall not be at home till too late for your call; +But to-morrow, at any rate, sans faute, at One +You will find me at home, and will find me alone. +Meanwhile, let me thank you sincerely, milord, +For the honor with which you adhere to your word. +Yes, I thank you, Lord Alfred! To-morrow then. + "L." + +XXI. + + +I find myself terribly puzzled to tell +The feelings with which Alfred Vargrave flung down +This note, as he pour'd out his wine. I must own +That I think he, himself, could have hardly explain'd +Those feelings exactly. + "Yes, yes," as he drain'd +The glass down, he mutter'd, "Jack's right, after all. +The coquette!" + "Does milord mean to go to the ball?" +Ask'd the waiter, who linger'd. + "Perhaps. I don't know. +You may keep me a ticket, in case I should go." + + +XXII. + + +Oh, better, no doubt, is a dinner of herbs, +When season'd by love, which no rancor disturbs, +And sweeten'd by all that is sweetest in life, +Than turbot, bisque, ortolans, eaten in strife! +But if, out of humor, and hungry, alone, +A man should sit down to a dinner, each one +Of the dishes of which the cook chooses to spoil +With a horrible mixture of garlic and oil, +The chances are ten against one, I must own, +He gets up as ill-temper'd as when he sat down. +And if any reader this fact to dispute is +Disposed, I say . . . "Allium edat cicutis +Nocentius!" + Over the fruit and the wine +Undisturb'd the wasp settled. The evening was fine. +Lord Alfred his chair by the window had set, +And languidly lighted his small cigarette. +The window was open. The warm air without +Waved the flame of the candles. The moths were about. +In the gloom he sat gloomy. + + +XXIII. + + + Gay sounds from below +Floated up like faint echoes of joys long ago, +And night deepen'd apace; through the dark avenues +The lamps twinkled bright; and by threes and by twos, +The idlers of Luchon were strolling at will, +As Lord Alfred could see from the cool window-sill, +Where his gaze, as he languidly turn'd it, fell o'er +His late travelling companion, now passing before +The inn, at the window of which he still sat, +In full toilet,--boots varnish'd, and snowy cravat, +Gayly smoothing and buttoning a yellow kid glove, +As he turned down the avenue. + Watching above, +From his window, the stranger, who stopp'd as he walk'd +To mix with those groups, and now nodded, now talk'd, +To the young Paris dandies, Lord Alfred discern'd, +By the way hats were lifted, and glances were turn'd, +That this unknown acquaintance, now bound for the hall, +Was a person of rank or of fashion; for all +Whom he bow'd to in passing, or stopped with and chatter'd, +Walk'd on with a look which implied . . . "I feel flatter'd!" + + +XXIV. + + +His form was soon lost in the distance and gloom. + + +XXV. + + +Lord Alfred still sat by himself in his room. +He had finish'd, one after the other, a dozen +Or more cigarettes. He had thought of his cousin; +He had thought of Matilda, and thought of Lucile: +He had thought about many things; thought a great deal +Of himself, of his past life, his future, his present: +He had thought of the moon, neither full moon nor crescent; +Of the gay world, so sad! life, so sweet and so sour! +He had thought, too, of glory, and fortune, and power: +Thought of love, and the country, and sympathy, and +A poet's asylum in some distant land: +Thought of man in the abstract, and woman, no doubt, +In particular; also he had thought much about +His digestion, his debts, and his dinner: and last, +He thought that the night would be stupidly pass'd +If he thought any more of such matters at all: +So he rose and resolved to set out for the ball. + + +XXVI. + + +I believe, ere he finish'd his tardy toilet, +That Lord Alfred had spoil'd, and flung by in a pet, +Half a dozen white neckcloths, and look'd for the nonce +Twenty times in the glass, if he look'd in it once. +I believe that he split up, in drawing them on, +Three pair of pale lavender gloves, one by one. +And this is the reason, no doubt, that at last, +When he reach'd the Casino, although he walk'd fast, +He heard, as he hurriedly enter'd the door, +The church clock strike Twelve. + + +XXVII. + + + The last waltz was just o'er. +The chaperons and dancers were all in a flutter. +A crowd block'd the door: and a buzz and a mutter +Went about in the room as a young man, whose face +Lord Alfred had seen ere he enter'd that place, +But a few hours ago, through the perfumed and warm +Flowery porch, with a lady that lean'd on his arm +Like a queen in a fable of old fairy days, +Left the ballroom. + + +XXVIII. + + + The hubbub of comment and praise +Reach'd Lord Alfred as just then he enter'd. + "Ma foi!" +Said a Frenchman beside him, . . . "That lucky Luvois +Has obtained all the gifts of the gods . . . rank and wealth, +And good looks, and then such inexhaustible health! +He that hath shall have more; and this truth, I surmise, +Is the cause why, to-night, by the beautiful eyes +Of la charmante Lucile more distinguish'd than all, +He so gayly goes off with the belle of the ball." +"Is it true," asked a lady aggressively fat, +Who, fierce as a female Leviathan, sat +By another that look'd like a needle, all steel +And tenuity--"Luvois will marry Lucile?" +The needle seem'd jerk'd by a virulent twitch, +As though it were bent upon driving a stitch +Through somebody's character. + "Madam," replied, +Interposing, a young man who sat by their side, +And was languidly fanning his face with his hat, +"I am ready to bet my new Tilbury that, +If Luvois has proposed, the Comtesse has refused." +The fat and thin ladies were highly amused. +"Refused! . . . what! a young Duke, not thirty, my dear, +With at least half a million (what is it?) a year!" +"That may be," said a third; "yet I know some time since +Castelmar was refused, though as rich, and a Prince. +But Luvois, who was never before in his life +In love with a woman who was not a wife, +Is now certainly serious." + + +XXIX. + + + The music once more +Recommenced. + + +XXX. + + + Said Lord Alfred, "This ball is a bore!" +And return'd to the inn, somewhat worse than before. + + +XXXI. + + +There, whilst musing he lean'd the dark valley above, +Through the warm land were wand'ring the spirits of love. +A soft breeze in the white window drapery stirr'd; +In the blossom'd acacia the lone cricket chirr'd; +The scent of the roses fell faint o'er the night, +And the moon on the mountain was dreaming in light. +Repose, and yet rapture! that pensive wild nature +Impregnate with passion in each breathing feature! +A stone's throw from thence, through the large lime-trees peep'd +In a garden of roses, a white chalet, steep'd +In the moonbeams. The windows oped down to the lawn; +The casements were open; the curtains were drawn; +Lights stream'd from the inside; and with them the sound +Of music and song. In the garden, around +A table with fruits, wine, tea, ices, there set, +Half a dozen young men and young women were met. +Light, laughter, and voices, and music all stream'd +Through the quiet-leaved limes. At the window there seem'd +For one moment the outline, familiar and fair, +Of a white dress, white neck, and soft dusky hair, +Which Lord Alfred remember'd . . . a moment or so +It hover'd, then pass'd into shadow; and slow +The soft notes, from a tender piano upflung, +Floated forth, and a voice unforgotten thus sung:-- + + +"Hear a song that was born in the land of my birth! + The anchors are lifted, the fair ship is free, +And the shout of the mariners floats in its mirth + 'Twixt the light in the sky and the light on the sea. + +"And this ship is a world. She is freighted with souls, + She is freighted with merchandise: proudly she sails +With the Labor that stores, and the Will that controls + The gold in the ingots, the silk in the bales. + +"From the gardens of Pleasure where reddens the rose, + And the scent of the cedar is faint on the air, +Past the harbors of Traffic, sublimely she goes, + Man's hopes o'er the world of the waters to bear! + +"Where the cheer from the harbors of Traffic is heard, + Where the gardens of Pleasure fade fast on the sight, +O'er the rose, o'er the cedar, there passes a bird; + 'Tis the Paradise Bird, never known to alight. + +"And that bird, bright and bold as a poet's desire, + Roams her own native heavens, the realms of her birth. +There she soars like a seraph, she shines like a fire, + And her plumage hath never been sullied by earth. + +"And the mariners greet her; there's song on each lip, + For that bird of good omen, and joy in each eye. +And the ship and the bird, and the bird and the ship, + Together go forth over ocean and sky. + +"Fast, fast fades the land! far the rose-gardens flee, + And far fleet the harbors. In regions unknown +The ship is alone on a desert of sea, + And the bird in a desert of sky is alone. + +"In those regions unknown, o'er that desert of air, + Down that desert of waters--tremendous in wrath-- +The storm-wind Euroclydon leaps from his lair, + And cleaves, thro' the waves of the ocean, his path. + +"And the bird in the cloud, and the ship on the wave, + Overtaken, are beaten about by wild gales; +And the mariners all rush their cargo to save, + Of the gold in the ingots, the silk in the bales. + +"Lo! a wonder, which never before hath been heard, + For it never before hath been given to sight; +On the ship bath descended the Paradise Bird, + The Paradise Bird, never known to alight! + +"The bird which the mariners bless'd, when each lip + Had a song for the omen that gladden'd each eye; +The bright bird for shelter hath flown to the ship + From the wrath on the sea and the wrath in the sky. + +"But the mariners heed not the bird any more. + They are felling the masts--they are cutting the sails; +Some are working, some weeping, and some wrangling o'er + Their gold in the ingots, their silk in the bales. + +"Souls of men are on board; wealth of man in the hold; + And the storm-wind Euroclydon sweeps to his prey; +And who heeds the bird? 'Save the silk and the gold!' + And the bird from her shelter the gust sweeps away! + +"Poor Paradise Bird! on her lone flight once more + Back again in the wake of the wind she is driven-- +To be 'whelmed in the storm, or above it to soar, + And, if rescued from ocean, to vanish in heaven! + +"And the ship rides the waters and weathers the gales: + From the haven she nears the rejoicing is heard. +All hands are at work on the ingots, the bales, + Save a child sitting lonely, who misses--the bird!" + + + +CANTO III. + +I. + + +With stout iron shoes be my Pegasus shod! +For my road is a rough one: flint, stubble, and clod, +Blue clay, and black quagmire, brambles no few, +And I gallop up-hill, now. + + There's terror that's true +In that tale of a youth who, one night at a revel, +Amidst music and mirth lured and wiled by some devil, +Follow'd ever one mask through the mad masquerade, +Till, pursued to some chamber deserted ('tis said), +He unmasked, with a kiss, the strange lady, and stood +Face to face with a Thing not of flesh nor of blood. +In this Mask of the Passions, call'd Life, there's no human +Emotion, though mask'd, or in man or in woman, +But, when faced and unmask'd, it will leave us at last +Struck by some supernatural aspect aghast. +For truth is appalling and eldrich, as seen +By this world's artificial lamplights and we screen +From our sight the strange vision that troubles our life. +Alas! why is Genius forever at strife +With the world, which, despite the world's self, it ennobles? +Why is it that Genius perplexes and troubles +And offends the effete life it comes to renew? +'Tis the terror of truth! 'tis that Genius is true! + + +II. + + +Lucile de Nevers (if her riddle I read) +Was a woman of genius: whose genius, indeed, +With her life was at war. Once, but once, in that life +The chance had been hers to escape from this strife +In herself; finding peace in the life of another +From the passionate wants she, in hers, failed to smother. +But the chance fell too soon, when the crude restless power +Which had been to her nature so fatal a dower, +Only wearied the man it yet haunted and thrall'd; +And that moment, once lost, had been never recall'd. +Yet it left her heart sore: and, to shelter her heart +From approach, she then sought, in that delicate art +Of concealment, those thousand adroit strategies +Of feminine wit, which repel while they please, +A weapon, at once, and a shield to conceal +And defend all that women can earnestly feel. +Thus, striving her instincts to hide and repress, +She felt frighten'd at times by her very success: +She pined for the hill-tops, the clouds, and the stars: +Golden wires may annoy us as much as steel bars +If they keep us behind prison windows: impassion'd +Her heart rose and burst the light cage she had fashion'd +Out of glittering trifles around it. + + Unknown +To herself, all her instincts, without hesitation, +Embraced the idea of self-immolation. +The strong spirit in her, had her life been but blended +With some man's whose heart had her own comprehended, +All its wealth at his feet would have lavishly thrown. +For him she had struggled and striven alone; +For him had aspired; in him had transfused +All the gladness and grace of her nature; and used +For him only the spells of its delicate power: +Like the ministering fairy that brings from her bower +To some maze all the treasures, whose use the fond elf, +More enrich'd by her love, disregards for herself. +But standing apart, as she ever had done, +And her genius, which needed a vent, finding none +In the broad fields of action thrown wide to man's power, +She unconsciously made it her bulwark and tower, +And built in it her refuge, whence lightly she hurl'd +Her contempt at the fashions and forms of the world. + +And the permanent cause why she now miss'd and fail'd +That firm hold upon life she so keenly assail'd, +Was, in all those diurnal occasions that place +Say--the world and the woman opposed face to face, +Where the woman must yield, she, refusing to stir, +Offended the world, which in turn wounded her. + +As before, in the old-fashion'd manner, I fit +To this character, also, its moral: to wit, +Say--the world is a nettle; disturb it, it stings: +Grasp it firmly, it stings not. On one of two things, +If you would not be stung, it behoves you to settle +Avoid it, or crush it. She crush'd not the nettle; +For she could not; nor would she avoid it: she tried +With the weak hand of woman to thrust it aside, +And it stung her. A woman is too slight a thing +To trample the world without feeling its sting. + + +III. + + +One lodges but simply at Luchon; yet, thanks +To the season that changes forever the banks +Of the blossoming mountains, and shifts the light cloud +O'er the valley, and hushes or rouses the loud +Wind that wails in the pines, or creeps murmuring down +The dark evergreen slopes to the slumbering town, +And the torrent that falls, faintly heard from afar, +And the blue-bells that purple the dapple-gray scaur, +One sees with each month of the many-faced year +A thousand sweet changes of beauty appear. +The chalet where dwelt the Comtesse de Nevers +Rested half up the base of a mountain of firs, +In a garden of roses, reveal'd to the road, +Yet withdrawn from its noise: 'twas a peaceful abode. +And the walls, and the roofs, with their gables like hoods +Which the monks wear, were built of sweet resinous woods. +The sunlight of noon, as Lord Alfred ascended +The steep garden paths, every odor had blended +Of the ardent carnations, and faint heliotropes, +With the balms floated down from the dark wooded slopes: +A light breeze at the window was playing about, +And the white curtains floated, now in, and now out. +The house was all hush'd when he rang at the door, +Which was open'd to him in a moment, or more, +By an old nodding negress, whose sable head shined +In the sun like a cocoa-nut polished in Ind, +'Neath the snowy foulard which about it was wound. + + +IV. + + +Lord Alfred sprang forward at once, with a bound. +He remembered the nurse of Lucile. The old dame, +Whose teeth and whose eyes used to beam when he came, +With a boy's eager step, in the blithe days of yore, +To pass, unannounced, her young mistress's door. +The old woman had fondled Lucile on her knee +When she left, as an infant, far over the sea, +In India, the tomb of a mother, unknown, +To pine, a pale flow'ret, in great Paris town. +She had sooth'd the child's sobs on her breast, when she read +The letter that told her, her father was dead. +An astute, shrewd adventurer, who, like Ulysses, +Had studied men, cities, laws, wars, the abysses +Of statecraft, with varying fortunes, was he. +He had wander'd the world through, by land and by sea, +And knew it in most of its phases. Strong will, +Subtle tact, and soft manners, had given him skill +To conciliate Fortune, and courage to brave +Her displeasure. Thrice shipwreck'd, and cast by the wave +On his own quick resources, they rarely had fail'd +His command: often baffled, he ever prevail'd, +In his combat with fate: to-day flatter'd and fed +By monarchs, to-morrow in search of mere bread +The offspring of times trouble-haunted, he came +Of a family ruin'd, yet noble in name. +He lost sight of his fortune, at twenty, in France, +And, half statesman, half soldier, and wholly Freelance, +Had wander'd in search of it, over the world +Into India. + + But scarce had the nomad unfurl'd +His wandering tent at Mysore, in the smile +Of a Rajah (whose court he controll'd for a while, +And whose council he prompted and govern'd by stealth); +Scarce, indeed, had he wedded an Indian of wealth, +Who died giving birth to this daughter, before +He was borne to the tomb of his wife at Mysore. +His fortune, which fell to his orphan, perchance +Had secured her a home with his sister in France, +A lone woman, the last of the race left. Lucile +Neither felt, nor affected, the wish to conceal +The half-Eastern blood, which appear'd to bequeath +(Reveal'd now and then, though but rarely, beneath +That outward repose that concealed it in her) +A something half wild to her strange character. +The nurse with the orphan, awhile broken-hearted, +At the door of a convent in Paris had parted. +But later, once more, with her mistress she tarried, +When the girl, by that grim maiden aunt, had been married +To a dreary old Count, who had sullenly died, +With no claim on her tears--she had wept as a bride. +Said Lord Alfred, "Your mistress expects me." + + The crone +Oped the drawing-room door, and there left him alone. + + +V. + + +O'er the soft atmosphere of this temple of grace +Rested silence and perfume. No sound reach'd the place. +In the white curtains waver'd the delicate shade +Of the heaving acacias, through which the breeze play'd. +O'er the smooth wooden floor, polished dark as a glass, +Fragrant white Indian matting allowed you to pass. +In light olive baskets, by window and door, +Some hung from the ceiling, some crowding the floor, +Rich wild flowers pluck'd by Lucile from the hill, +Seem'd the room with their passionate presence to fill: +Blue aconite, hid in white roses, reposed; +The deep belladonna its vermeil disclosed; +And the frail saponaire, and the tender blue-bell, +And the purple valerian,--each child of the fell +And the solitude flourish'd, fed fair from the source +Of waters the huntsman scarce heeds in his course +Where the chamois and izard, with delicate hoof, +Pause or flit through the pinnacled silence aloof. + + +VI. + + +Here you felt, by the sense of its beauty reposed, +That you stood in a shrine of sweet thoughts. Half unclosed +In the light slept the flowers; all was pure and at rest; +All peaceful; all modest; all seem'd self-possess'd, +And aware of the silence. No vestige nor trace +Of a young woman's coquetry troubled the place. +He stood by the window. A cloud pass'd the sun. +A light breeze uplifted the leaves, one by one. +Just then Lucile enter'd the room, undiscern'd +By Lord Alfred, whose face to the window was turned, +In a strange revery. + The time was, when Lucile, +In beholding that man, could not help but reveal +The rapture, the fear, which wrench'd out every nerve +In the heart of the girl from the woman's reserve. +And now--she gazed at him, calm, smiling,--perchance +Indifferent. + + +VII. + + + Indifferently turning his glance, +Alfred Vargrave encounter'd that gaze unaware. +O'er a bodice snow-white stream'd her soft dusky hair: +A rose-bud half blown in her hand; in her eyes +A half-pensive smile. + + A sharp cry of surprise +Escaped from his lips: some unknown agitation. +An invincible trouble, a strange palpitation, +Confused his ingenious and frivolous wit; +Overtook, and entangled, and paralyzed it. +That wit so complacent and docile, that ever +Lightly came at the call of the lightest endeavor, +Ready coin'd, and availably current as gold, +Which, secure of its value, so fluently roll'd +In free circulation from hand on to hand +For the usage of all, at a moment's command; +For once it rebell'd, it was mute and unstirr'd, +And he looked at Lucile without speaking a word. + + +VIII. + + +Perhaps what so troubled him was, that the face +On whose features he gazed had no more than a trace +Of the face his remembrance had imaged for years. +Yes! the face he remember'd was faded with tears: +Grief had famish'd the figure, and dimmed the dark eyes, +And starved the pale lips, too acquainted with sighs, +And that tender, and gracious, and fond coquetterie +Of a woman who knows her least ribbon to be +Something dear to the lips that so warmly caress +Every sacred detail of her exquisite dress, +In the careless toilet of Lucile--then too sad +To care aught to her changeable beauty to add-- +Lord Alfred had never admired before! +Alas! poor Lucile, in those weak days of yore, +Had neglected herself, never heeding, or thinking +(While the blossom and bloom of her beauty were shrinking) +That sorrow can beautify only the heart-- +Not the face--of a woman; and can but impart +Its endearment to one that has suffer'd. In truth +Grief hath beauty for grief; but gay youth loves gay youth. + + +IX. + + +The woman that now met, unshrinking his gaze, +Seem'd to bask in the silent but sumptuous haze +Of that soft second summer, more ripe than the first, +Which returns when the bud to the blossom hath burst +In despite of the stormiest April. Lucile +Had acquired that matchless unconscious appeal +To the homage which none but a churl would withhold-- +That caressing and exquisite grace--never bold, +Ever present--which just a few women possess. +From a healthful repose, undisturb'd by the stress +Of unquiet emotions, her soft cheek had drawn +A freshness as pure as the twilight of dawn. +Her figure, though slight, had revived everywhere +The luxurious proportions of youth; and her hair-- +Once shorn as an offering to passionate love-- +Now floated or rested redundant above +Her airy pure forehead and throat; gather'd loose +Under which, by one violet knot, the profuse +Milk-white folds of a cool modest garment reposed, +Rippled faint by the breast they half hid, half disclosed, +And her simple attire thus in all things reveal'd +The fine art which so artfully all things conceal'd. + + +X. + + +Lord Alfred, who never conceived that Lucile +Could have look'd so enchanting, felt tempted to kneel +At her feet, and her pardon with passion implore; +But the calm smile that met him sufficed to restore +The pride and the bitterness needed to meet +The occasion with dignity due and discreet. + + +XI. + + +"Madam,"--thus he began with a voice reassured,-- +"You see that your latest command has secured +My immediate obedience--presuming I may +Consider my freedom restored from this day."-- +"I had thought," said Lucile, with a smile gay yet sad, +"That your freedom from me not a fetter has had. +Indeed! . . . in my chains have you rested till now? +I had not so flattered myself, I avow!" +"For Heaven's sake, Madam," Lord Alfred replied, +"Do not jest! has the moment no sadness?" he sigh'd. +"'Tis an ancient tradition," she answer'd, "a tale +Often told--a position too sure to prevail +In the end of all legends of love. If we wrote, +When we first love, foreseeing that hour yet remote, +Wherein of necessity each would recall +From the other the poor foolish records of all +Those emotions, whose pain, when recorded, seem'd bliss, +Should we write as we wrote? But one thinks not of this! +At Twenty (who does not at Twenty?) we write +Believing eternal the frail vows we plight; +And we smile with a confident pity, above +The vulgar results of all poor human love: +For we deem, with that vanity common to youth, +Because what we feel in our bosoms, in truth, +Is novel to us--that 'tis novel to earth, +And will prove the exception, in durance and worth, +To the great law to which all on earth must incline. +The error was noble, the vanity fine! +Shall we blame it because we survive it? ah, no; +'Twas the youth of our youth, my lord, is it not so?" + + +XII. + + +Lord Alfred was mute. He remember'd her yet +A child--the weak sport of each moment's regret, +Blindly yielding herself to the errors of life, +The deceptions of youth, and borne down by the strife +And the tumult of passion; the tremulous toy +Of each transient emotion of grief or of joy. +But to watch her pronounce the death-warrant of all +The illusions of life--lift, unflinching, the pall +From the bier of the dead Past--that woman so fair, +And so young, yet her own self-survivor; who there +Traced her life's epitaph with a finger so cold! +'Twas a picture that pain'd his self-love to behold. +He himself knew--none better--the things to be said +Upon subjects like this. Yet he bow'd down his head: +And as thus, with a trouble he could not command, +He paused, crumpling the letters he held in his hand, +"You know me enough," she continued, "or what +I would say is, you yet recollect (do you not, +Lord Alfred?) enough of my nature, to know +That these pledges of what was perhaps long ago +A foolish affection, I do not recall +From those motives of prudence which actuate all +Or most women when their love ceases. Indeed, +If you have such a doubt, to dispel it I need +But remind you that ten years these letters have rested +Unreclaim'd in your hands." A reproach seem'd suggested +By these words. To meet it, Lord Alfred look'd up +(His gaze had been fix'd on a blue Sevres cup +With a look of profound connoisseurship--a smile +Of singular interest and care, all this while.) +He look'd up, and look'd long in the face of Lucile, +To mark if that face by a sign would reveal +At the thought of Miss Darcy the least jealous pain. +He look'd keenly and long, yet he look'd there in vain. +"You are generous, Madam," he murmur'd at last, +And into his voice a light irony pass'd. +He had look'd for reproaches, and fully arranged +His forces. But straightway the enemy changed +The position. + + +XIII. + + + "Come!" gayly Lucile interposed, +With a smile whose divinely deep sweetness disclosed +Some depth in her nature he never had known, +While she tenderly laid her light hand on his own, +"Do not think I abuse the occasion. We gain +Justice, judgment, with years, or else years are in vain. +From me not a single reproach can you hear. +I have sinn'd to myself--to the world--nay, I fear +To you chiefly. The woman who loves should, indeed, +Be the friend of the man that she loves. She should heed +Not her selfish and often mistaken desires, +But his interest whose fate her own interest inspires; +And rather than seek to allure, for her sake, +His life down the turbulent, fanciful wake +Of impossible destinies, use all her art +That his place in the world find its place in her heart. +I, alas!--I perceived not this truth till too late; +I tormented your youth, I have darken'd your fate. +Forgive me the ill I have done for the sake +Of its long expiation!" + + +XIV. + + + Lord Alfred, awake, +Seem'd to wander from dream on to dream. In that seat +Where he sat as a criminal, ready to meet +His accuser, he found himself turn'd by some change, +As surprising and all unexpected as strange, +To the judge from whose mercy indulgence was sought. +All the world's foolish pride in that moment was naught; +He felt all his plausible theories posed; +And, thrill'd by the beauty of nature disclosed +In the pathos of all he had witness'd, his head +He bow'd, and faint words self-reproachfully said, +As he lifted her hand to his lips. 'Twas a hand +White, delicate, dimpled, warm, languid, and bland. +The hand of a woman is often, in youth, +Somewhat rough, somewhat red, somewhat graceless, in truth; +Does its beauty refine, as its pulses grow calm, +Or as Sorrow has cross'd the life-line in the palm? + + +XV. + + +The more that he look'd, that he listen'd, the more +He discover'd perfections unnoticed before. +Less salient than once, less poetic, perchance, +This woman who thus had survived the romance +That had made him its hero, and breathed him its sighs, +Seem'd more charming a thousand times o'er to his eyes. +Together they talk'd of the years since when last +They parted, contrasting the present, the past. +Yet no memory marr'd their light converse. Lucile +Question'd much, with the interest a sister might feel, +Of Lord Alfred's new life,--of Miss Darcy--her face, +Her temper, accomplishments--pausing to trace +The advantage derived from a hymen so fit. +Of herself, she recounted with humor and wit +Her journeys, her daily employments, the lands +She had seen, and the books she had read, and the hands +She had shaken. + In all that she said there appear'd +An amiable irony. Laughing, she rear'd +The temple of reason, with ever a touch +Of light scorn at her work, reveal'd only so much +As their gleams, in the thyrsus that Bacchanals bear, +Through the blooms of a garland the point of a spear. +But above, and beneath, and beyond all of this, +To that soul, whose experience had paralyzed bliss, +A benignant indulgence, to all things resign'd, +A justice, a sweetness, a meekness of mind, +Gave a luminous beauty, as tender and faint +And serene as the halo encircling a saint. + + +XVI. + + +Unobserved by Lord Alfred the time fleeted by. +To each novel sensation spontaneously +He abandon'd himself with that ardor so strange +Which belongs to a mind grown accustom'd to change. +He sought, with well-practised and delicate art, +To surprise from Lucile the true state of her heart; +But his efforts were vain, and the woman, as ever, +More adroit than the man, baffled every endeavor. +When he deem'd he had touch'd on some chord in her being, +At the touch it dissolved, and was gone. Ever fleeing +As ever he near it advanced, when he thought +To have seized, and proceeded to analyze aught +Of the moral existence, the absolute soul, +Light as vapor the phantom escaped his control. + + +XVII. + + +From the hall, on a sudden, a sharp ring was heard. +In the passage without a quick footstep there stirr'd; +At the door knock'd the negress, and thrust in her head, +"The Duke de Luvois had just enter'd," she said, +"And insisted"-- + "The Duke!" cried Lucile (as she spoke, +The Duke's step, approaching, a light echo woke). +"Say I do not receive till the evening. Explain," +As she glanced at Lord Alfred, she added again, +"I have business of private importance." + There came +O'er Lord Alfred at once, at the sound of that name, +An invincible sense of vexation. He turn'd +To Lucile, and he fancied he faintly discern'd +On her face an indefinite look of confusion. +On his mind instantaneously flash'd the conclusion +That his presence had caused it. + He said, with a sneer +Which he could not repress, "Let not ME interfere +With the claims on your time, lady! when you are free +From more pleasant engagements, allow me to see +And to wait on you later." + The words were not said +Ere he wish'd to recall them. He bitterly read +The mistake he had made in Lucile's flashing eye. +Inclining her head as in haughty reply, +More reproachful perchance than all utter'd rebuke, +She said merely, resuming her seat, "Tell the Duke +He may enter." + And vex'd with his own words and hers, +Alfred Vargrave bow'd low to Lucile de Nevers, +Pass'd the casement and enter'd the garden. Before +His shadow was fled the Duke stood at the door. + + +XVIII. + + +When left to his thoughts in the garden alone, +Alfred Vargrave stood, strange to himself. With dull tone +Of importance, through cities of rose and carnation, +Went the bee on his business from station to station. +The minute mirth of summer was shrill all around; +Its incessant small voices like stings seem'd to sound +On his sore angry sense. He stood grieving the hot +Solid sun with his shadow, nor stirr'd from the spot. +The last look of Lucile still bewilder'd, perplex'd, +And reproach'd him. The Duke's visit goaded and vex'd. +He had not yet given the letters. Again +He must visit Lucile. He resolved to remain +Where he was till the Duke went. In short, he would stay, +Were it only to know when the Duke went away. +But just as he form'd this resolve, he perceived +Approaching towards him, between the thick-leaved +And luxuriant laurels, Lucile and the Duke. +Thus surprised, his first thought was to seek for some nook +Whence he might, unobserved, from the garden retreat. +They had not yet seen him. The sound of their feet +And their voices had warn'd him in time. They were walking +Towards him. The Duke (a true Frenchman) was talking +With the action of Talma. He saw at a glance +That they barr'd the sole path to the gateway. No chance +Of escape save in instant concealment! Deep-dipp'd +In thick foliage, an arbor stood near. In he slipp'd, +Saved from sight, as in front of that ambush they pass'd, +Still conversing. Beneath a laburnum at last +They paused, and sat down on a bench in the shade, +So close that he could not but hear what they said. + + +XIX. + + +LUCILE. + +Duke, I scarcely conceive . . . + +LUVOIS. + + Ah! forgive! . . . I desired +So deeply to see you to-day. You retired +So early last night from the ball . . . this whole week +I have seen you pale, silent, preoccupied . . . speak, +Speak, Lucile, and forgive me! . . . I know that I am +A rash fool--but I love you! I love you, Madame. +More than language can say! Do not deem, O Lucile, +That the love I no longer have strength to conceal +Is a passing caprice! It is strange to my nature, +It has made me, unknown to myself, a new creature. +I implore you to sanction and save the new life +Which I lay at your feet with this prayer--Be my wife +Stoop, and raise me! + Lord Alfred could scarcely restrain +The sudden, acute pang of anger and pain +With which he had heard this. As though to some wind +The leaves of the hush'd, windless laurels behind +The two thus in converse were suddenly stirr'd. +The sound half betrayed him. They started. He heard +The low voice of Lucile; but so faint was its tone +That her answer escaped him. + Luvois hurried on, +As though in remonstrance with what had been spoken. +"Nay, I know it, Lucile! but your heart was not broken +By the trial in which all its fibres were proved. +Love, perchance, you mistrust, yet you need to be loved. +You mistake your own feelings. I fear you mistake +What so ill I interpret, those feelings which make +Words like these vague and feeble. Whatever your heart +May have suffer'd of yore, this can only impart +A pity profound to the love which I feel. +Hush! hush! I know all. Tell me nothing, Lucile." +"You know all, Duke?" she said; "well then, know that, in truth, +I have learn'd from the rude lesson taught to my youth +From my own heart to shelter my life; to mistrust +The heart of another. We are what we must, +And not what we would be. I know that one hour +Assures not another. The will and the power +Are diverse." + "O madam!" he answer'd, "you fence +With a feeling you know to be true and intense. +'Tis not MY life, Lucile, that I plead for alone: +If your nature I know, 'tis no less for your own. +That nature will prey on itself; it was made +To influence others. Consider," he said, +"That genius craves power--what scope for it here? +Gifts less noble to ME give command of that sphere +In which genius IS power. Such gifts you despise? +But you do not disdain what such gifts realize! +I offer you, Lady, a name not unknown-- +A fortune which worthless, without you, is grown-- +All my life at your feet I lay down--at your feet +A heart which for you, and you only, can beat." + +LUCILE. + +That heart, Duke, that life--I respect both. The name +And position you offer, and all that you claim +In behalf of their nobler employment, I feel +To deserve what, in turn, I now ask you-- + +LUVOIS. + + Lucile! + +LUCILE. + +I ask you to leave me-- + +LUVOIS. + + You do not reject? + +LUCILE. + +I ask you to leave me the time to reflect. + +LUVOIS. + +You ask me? + +LUCILE. + + --The time to reflect. + +LUVOIS. + + Say--One word! +May I hope? + The reply of Lucile was not heard +By Lord Alfred; for just then she rose, and moved on. +The Duke bow'd his lips o'er her hand, and was gone. + + +XX. + + +Not a sound save the birds in the bushes. And when +Alfred Vargrave reel'd forth to the sunlight again, +He just saw the white robe of the woman recede +As she entered the house. + Scarcely conscious indeed +Of his steps, he too follow'd, and enter'd. + + +XXI. + + + He enter'd +Unnoticed; Lucile never stirr'd: so concentred +And wholly absorb'd in her thoughts she appear'd. +Her back to the window was turn'd. As he near'd +The sofa, her face from the glass was reflected. +Her dark eyes were fix'd on the ground. Pale, dejected, +And lost in profound meditation she seem'd. +Softly, silently, over her droop'd shoulders stream'd +The afternoon sunlight. The cry of alarm +And surprise which escaped her, as now on her arm +Alfred Vargrave let fall a hand icily cold +And clammy as death, all too cruelly told +How far he had been from her thoughts. + + +XXII. + + + All his cheek +Was disturb'd with the effort it cost him to speak. +"It was not my fault. I have heard all," he said. +"Now the letters--and farewell, Lucile! When you wed +May--" + The sentence broke short, like a weapon that snaps +When the weight of a man is upon it. + "Perhaps," +Said Lucile (her sole answer reveal'd in the flush +Of quick color which up to her brow seem'd to rush +In reply to those few broken words), "this farewell +Is our last, Alfred Vargrave, in life. Who can tell? +Let us part without bitterness. Here are your letters. +Be assured I retain you no more in my fetters!"-- +She laughed, as she said this, a little sad laugh, +And stretched out her hand with the letters. And half +Wroth to feel his wrath rise, and unable to trust +His own powers of restraint, in his bosom he thrust +The packet she gave, with a short angry sigh, +Bow'd his head, and departed without a reply. + + +XXIII. + + +And Lucile was alone. And the men of the world +Were gone back to the world. And the world's self was furl'd +Far away from the heart of the woman. Her hand +Droop'd, and from it, unloosed from their frail silken band, +Fell those early love-letters, strewn, scatter'd, and shed +At her feet--life's lost blossoms! Dejected, her head +On her bosom was bow'd. Her gaze vaguely stray'd o'er +Those strewn records of passionate moments no more. +From each page to her sight leapt some words that belied +The composure with which she that day had denied +Every claim on her heart to those poor perish'd years. +They avenged themselves now, and she burst into tears. + + + +CANTO IV. + +I. + + +LETTER FROM COUSIN JOHN TO COUSIN ALFRED. + + "BIGORRE, THURSDAY. +"Time up, you rascal! Come back, or be hang'd. +Matilda grows peevish. Her mother harangued +For a whole hour this morning about you. The deuce! +What on earth can I say to you?--nothing's of use. +And the blame of the whole of your shocking behavior +Falls on ME, sir! Come back,--do you hear?--or I leave your +Affairs, and, abjure you forever. Come back +To your anxious betroth'd; and perplexed + "COUSIN JACK." + + +II. + + +Alfred needed, in truth, no entreaties from John +To increase his impatience to fly from Luchon. +All the place was now fraught with sensations of pain +Which, whilst in it, he strove to escape from in vain. +A wild instinct warn'd him to fly from a place +Where he felt that some fatal event, swift of pace, +Was approaching his life. In despite his endeavor +To think of Matilda, her image forever +Was effaced from his fancy by that of Lucile. +From the ground which he stood on he felt himself reel. +Scared, alarm'd by those feelings to which, on the day +Just before, all his heart had so soon given way, +When he caught, with a strange sense of fear, for assistance, +And what was, till then, the great fact in existence, +'Twas a phantom he grasp'd. + + +III. + + + Having sent for his guide, +He order'd his horse, and determin'd to ride +Back forthwith to Bigorre. + Then, the guide, who well knew +Every haunt of those hills, said the wild lake of Oo +Lay a league from Luchon; and suggested a track +By the lake to Bigorre, which, transversing the back +Of the mountain, avoided a circuit between +Two long valleys; and thinking, "Perchance change of scene +May create change of thought," Alfred Vargrave agreed, +Mounted horse, and set forth to Bigorre at full speed. + + +IV. + + +His guide rode beside him. + The king of the guides! +The gallant Bernard! ever boldly he rides, +Ever gayly he sings! For to him, from of old, +The hills have confided their secrets, and told +Where the white partridge lies, and the cock o' the woods; +Where the izard flits fine through the cold solitudes; +Where the bear lurks perdu; and the lynx on his prey +At nightfall descends, when the mountains are gray; +Where the sassafras blooms, and the bluebell is born, +And the wild rhododendron first reddens at morn; +Where the source of the waters is fine as a thread; +How the storm on the wild Maladetta is spread; +Where the thunder is hoarded, the snows lie asleep, +Whence the torrents are fed, and the cataracts leap; +And, familiarly known in the hamlets, the vales +Have whisper'd to him all their thousand love-tales; +He has laugh'd with the girls, he has leap'd with the boys; +Ever blithe, ever bold, ever boon, he enjoys +An existence untroubled by envy or strife, +While he feeds on the dews and the juices of life. +And so lightly he sings, and so gayly he rides, +For BERNARD LE SAUTEUR is the king of all guides! + + +V. + + +But Bernard found, that day, neither song not love-tale, +Nor adventure, nor laughter, nor legend avail +To arouse from his deep and profound revery +Him that silent beside him rode fast as could be. + + +VI. + + +Ascending the mountain they slacken'd their pace, +And the marvellous prospect each moment changed face. +The breezy and pure inspirations of morn +Breathed about them. The scarp'd ravaged mountains, all worn +By the torrents, whose course they watch'd faintly meander, +Were alive with the diamonded shy salamander. +They paused o'er the bosom of purple abysses, +And wound through a region of green wildernesses; +The waters went whirling above and around, +The forests hung heap'd in their shadows profound. +Here the Larboust, and there Aventin, Castellon, +Which the Demon of Tempest, descending upon, +Had wasted with fire, and the peaceful Cazeaux +They mark'd; and far down in the sunshine below, +Half dipp'd in a valley of airiest blue, +The white happy homes of the valley of Oo, +Where the age is yet golden. + And high overhead +The wrecks of the combat of Titans were spread. +Red granite, and quartz; in the alchemic sun, +Fused their splendors of crimson and crystal in one; +And deep in the moss gleam'd the delicate shells, +And the dew linger'd fresh in the heavy harebells; +The large violet burn'd; the campanula blue; +And Autumn's own flower, the saffron, peer'd through +The red-berried brambles and thick sassafras; +And fragrant with thyme was the delicate grass; +And high up, and higher, and highest of all, +The secular phantom of snow! + O'er the wall +Of a gray sunless glen gaping drowsy below, +That aerial spectre, reveal'd in the glow +Of the great golden dawn, hovers faint on the eye +And appears to grow in, and grow out of, the sky +And plays with the fancy, and baffles the sight. +Only reach'd by the vast rosy ripple of light, +And the cool star of eve, the Imperial Thing, +Half unreal, like some mythological king +That dominates all in a fable of old, +Takes command of a valley as fair to behold +As aught in old fables; and, seen or unseen, +Dwells aloof over all, in the vast and serene +Sacred sky, where the footsteps of spirits are furl'd +'Mid the clouds beyond which spreads the infinite world +Of man's last aspirations, unfathom'd, untrod, +Save by Even and Morn, and the angels of God. + + +VII. + + +Meanwhile, as they journey'd, that serpentine road, +Now abruptly reversed, unexpectedly show'd +A gay cavalcade some few feet in advance. +Alfred Vargrave's heart beat; for he saw at a glance +The slight form of Lucile in the midst. His next look +Show'd him, joyously ambling beside her, the Duke +The rest of the troop which had thus caught his ken +He knew not, nor noticed them (women and men). +They were laughing and talking together. Soon after +His sudden appearance suspended their laughter. + + +VIII. + + +"You here! . . . I imagined you far on your way +To Bigorre!" . . . said Lucile. "What has caused you to stay?" +"I AM on my way to Bigorre," he replied, +"But since MY way would seem to be YOURS, let me ride +For one moment beside you." And then, with a stoop +At her ear, . . . "and forgive me!" + + +IX. + + + By this time the troop +Had regather'd its numbers. + Lucile was as pale +As the cloud 'neath their feet, on its way to the vale. +The Duke had observed it, nor quitted her side, +For even one moment, the whole of the ride. +Alfred smiled, as he thought, "he is jealous of her!" +And the thought of this jealousy added a spur +To his firm resolution and effort to please. +He talk'd much; was witty, and quite at his ease. + + +X. + + +After noontide, the clouds, which had traversed the east +Half the day, gather'd closer, and rose and increased. +The air changed and chill'd. As though out of the ground, +There ran up the trees a confused hissing sound, +And the wind rose. The guides sniff'd, like chamois, the air, +And look'd at each other, and halted, and there +Unbuckled the cloaks from the saddles. The white +Aspens rustled, and turn'd up their frail leaves in fright. +All announced the approach of the tempest. + Erelong, +Thick darkness descended the mountains among, +And a vivid, vindictive, and serpentine flash +Gored the darkness, and shore it across with a gash. +The rain fell in large heavy drops. And anon +Broke the thunder. + The horses took fright, every one. +The Duke's in a moment was far out of sight. +The guides whoop'd. The band was obliged to alight; +And, dispersed up the perilous pathway, walk'd blind +To the darkness before from the darkness behind. + + +XI. + + +And the Storm is abroad in the mountains! + He fills +The crouch'd hollows and all the oracular hills +With dread voices of power. A roused million or more +Of wild echoes reluctantly rise from their hoar +Immemorial ambush, and roll in the wake +Of the cloud, whose reflection leaves vivid the lake. +And the wind, that wild robber, for plunder descends +From invisible lands, o'er those black mountain ends; +He howls as he hounds down his prey; and his lash +Tears the hair of the timorous wan mountain-ash, +That clings to the rocks, with her garments all torn, +Like a woman in fear; then he blows his hoarse horn +And is off, the fierce guide of destruction and terror, +Up the desolate heights, 'mid an intricate error +Of mountain and mist. + + +XII. + + + There is war in the skies! +Lo! the black-winged legions of tempest arise +O'er those sharp splinter'd rocks that are gleaming below +In the soft light, so fair and so fatal, as though +Some seraph burn'd through them, the thunderbolt searching +Which the black cloud unbosom'd just now. Lo! the lurching +And shivering pine-trees, like phantoms, that seem +To waver above, in the dark; and yon stream, +How it hurries and roars, on its way to the white +And paralyzed lake there, appall'd at the sight +of the things seen in heaven! + + +XIII. + + + Through the darkness and awe +That had gather'd around him, Lord Alfred now saw, +Reveal'd in the fierce and evanishing glare +Of the lightning that momently pulsed through the air +A woman alone on a shelf of the hill, +With her cheek coldly propp'd on her hand,--and as still +As the rock that she sat on, which beetled above +The black lake beneath her. + All terror, all love +Added speed to the instinct with which he rush'd on. +For one moment the blue lightning swathed the whole stone +In its lurid embrace: like the sleek dazzling snake +That encircles a sorceress, charm'd for her sake +And lull'd by her loveliness; fawning, it play'd +And caressingly twined round the feet and the head +Of the woman who sat there, undaunted and calm +As the soul of that solitude, listing the psalm +Of the plangent and laboring tempests roll slow +From the caldron of midnight and vapor below. +Next moment from bastion to bastion, all round, +Of the siege-circled mountains, there tumbled the sound +Of the battering thunder's indefinite peal, +And Lord Alfred had sprung to the feet of Lucile. + + +XIV. + + +She started. Once more, with its flickering wand, +The lightning approach'd her. In terror, her hand +Alfred Vargrave had seized within his; and he felt +The light fingers, that coldly and lingeringly dwelt +In the grasp of his own, tremble faintly. + "See! see! +Where the whirlwind hath stricken and strangled yon tree!" +She exclaim'd, . . . "like the passion that brings on its breath, +To the being it embraces, destruction and death! +Alfred Vargrave, the lightning is round you!" + "Lucile! +I hear--I see--naught but yourself. I can feel +Nothing here but your presence. My pride fights in vain +With the truth that leaps from me. We two meet again +'Neath yon terrible heaven that is watching above +To avenge if I lie when I swear that I love,-- +And beneath yonder terrible heaven, at your feet, +I humble my head and my heart. I entreat +Your pardon, Lucile, for the past--I implore +For the future your mercy--implore it with more +Of passion than prayer ever breathed. By the power +Which invisibly touches us both in this hour, +By the rights I have o'er you, Lucile, I demand--" +"The rights!" . . . said Lucile, and drew from him her hand. + +"Yes, the rights! for what greater to man may belong +Than the right to repair in the future the wrong +To the past? and the wrong I have done you, of yore, +Hath bequeath'd to me all the sad right to restore, +To retrieve, to amend! I, who injured your life, +Urge the right to repair it, Lucile! Be my wife, +My guide, my good angel, my all upon earth, +And accept, for the sake of what yet may give worth +To my life, its contrition!" + + +XV. + + + He paused, for there came +O'er the cheek of Lucile a swift flush like the flame +That illumined at moments the darkness o'erhead. +With a voice faint and marr'd by emotion, she said, +"And your pledge to another?" + + +XVI. + + + "Hush, hush!" he exclaim'd, +"My honor will live where my love lives, unshamed. +'Twere poor honor indeed, to another to give +That life of which YOU keep the heart. Could I live +In the light of those young eyes, suppressing a lie? +Alas, no! YOUR hand holds my whole destiny. +I can never recall what my lips have avow'd; +In your love lies whatever can render me proud. +For the great crime of all my existence hath been +To have known you in vain. And the duty best seen, +And most hallow'd--the duty most sacred and sweet, +Is that which hath led me, Lucile, to your feet. +O speak! and restore me the blessing I lost +When I lost you--my pearl of all pearls beyond cost! +And restore to your own life its youth, and restore +The vision, the rapture, the passion of yore! +Ere our brows had been dimm'd in the dust of the world, +When our souls their white wings yet exulting unfurl'd! +For your eyes rest no more on the unquiet man, +The wild star of whose course its pale orbit outran, +Whom the formless indefinite future of youth, +With its lying allurements, distracted. In truth +I have wearily wander'd the world, and I feel +That the least of your lovely regards, O Lucile, +Is worth all the world can afford, and the dream +Which, though follow'd forever, forever doth seem +As fleeting, and distant, and dim, as of yore +When it brooded in twilight, at dawn, on the shore +Of life's untraversed ocean! I know the sole path +To repose, which my desolate destiny hath, +Is the path by whose course to your feet I return. +And who else, O Lucile, will so truly discern, +And so deeply revere, all the passionate strength, +The sublimity in you, as he whom at length +These have saved from himself, for the truth they reveal +To his worship?" + + +XVII. + + + She spoke not; but Alfred could feel +The light hand and arm, that upon him reposed, +Thrill and tremble. Those dark eyes of hers were half closed. +But, under their languid mysterious fringe, +A passionate softness was beaming. One tinge +Of faint inward fire flush'd transparently through +The delicate, pallid, and pure olive hue +Of the cheek, half averted and droop'd. The rich bosom +Heaved, as when in the heart of a ruffled rose-blossom +A bee is imprison'd and struggles. + + +XVIII. + + + Meanwhile +The sun, in his setting, sent up the last smile +Of his power, to baffle the storm. And, behold! +O'er the mountains embattled, his armies, all gold, +Rose and rested: while far up the dim airy crags, +Its artillery silenced, its banners in rags, +The rear of the tempest its sullen retreat +Drew off slowly, receding in silence, to meet +The powers of the night, which, now gathering afar, +Had already sent forward one bright, signal star +The curls of her soft and luxuriant hair, +From the dark riding-hat, which Lucile used to wear, +Had escaped; and Lord Alfred now cover'd with kisses +The redolent warmth of those long falling tresses. +Neither he, nor Lucile, felt the rain, which not yet +Had ceased falling around them; when, splash'd, drench'd, and wet, +The Duc de Luvois down the rough mountain course +Approached them as fast as the road, and his horse, +Which was limping, would suffer. The beast had just now +Lost his footing, and over the perilous brow +Of the storm-haunted mountain his master had thrown; +But the Duke, who was agile, had leap'd to a stone, +And the horse, being bred to the instinct which fills +The breast of the wild mountaineer in these hills, +Had scrambled again to his feet; and now master +And horse bore about them the signs of disaster, +As they heavily footed their way through the mist, +The horse with his shoulder, the Duke with his wrist, +Bruised and bleeding. + + +XIX. + + + If ever your feet, like my own, +O reader, have traversed these mountains alone, +Have you felt your identity shrink and contract +At the sound of the distant and dim cataract, +In the presence of nature's immensities? Say, +Have you hung o'er the torrent, bedew'd with its spray, +And, leaving the rock-way, contorted and roll'd, +Like a huge couchant Typhon, fold heaped over fold, +Track'd the summits from which every step that you tread +Rolls the loose stones, with thunder below, to the bed +Of invisible waters, whose mistical sound +Fills with awful suggestions the dizzy profound? +And, laboring onwards, at last through a break +In the walls of the world, burst at once on the lake? +If you have, this description I might have withheld. +You remember how strangely your bosom has swell'd +At the vision reveal'd. On the overwork'd soil +Of this planet, enjoyment is sharpen'd by toil; +And one seems, by the pain of ascending the height, +To have conquer'd a claim of that wonderful sight. + + +XX. + + +Hail, virginal daughter of cold Espingo! +Hail, Naiad, whose realm is the cloud and the snow; +For o'er thee the angels have whiten'd their wings, +And the thirst of the seraphs is quench'd at thy springs. +What hand hath, in heaven, upheld thine expanse? +When the breath of creation first fashion'd fair France, +Did the Spirit of Ill, in his downthrow appalling, +Bruise the world, and thus hollow thy basin while falling? +Ere the mammoth was born hath some monster unnamed +The base of thy mountainous pedestal framed? +And later, when Power to Beauty was wed, +Did some delicate fairy embroider thy bed +With the fragile valerian and wild columbine? + + +XXI. + + +But thy secret thou keepest, and I will keep mine; +For once gazing on thee, it flash'd on my soul, +All that secret! I saw in a vision the whole +Vast design of the ages; what was and shall be! +Hands unseen raised the veil of a great mystery +For one moment. I saw, and I heard; and my heart +Bore witness within me to infinite art, +In infinite power proving infinite love; +Caught the great choral chant, mark'd the dread pageant move-- +The divine Whence and Whither of life! But, O daughter +Of Oo, not more safe in the deep silent water +Is thy secret, than mine in my heart. Even so. +What I then saw and heard, the world never shall know. + + +XXII. + + +The dimness of eve o'er the valleys had closed, +The rain had ceased falling, the mountains reposed. +The stars had enkindled in luminous courses +Their slow-sliding lamps, when, remounting their horses, +The riders retraversed that mighty serration +Of rock-work. Thus left to its own desolation, +The lake, from whose glimmering limits the last +Transient pomp of the pageants of sunset had pass'd, +Drew into its bosom the darkness, and only +Admitted within it one image--a lonely +And tremulous phantom of flickering light +That follow'd the mystical moon through the night. + + +XXIII. + + +It was late when o'er Luchon at last they descended. +To her chalet, in silence, Lord Alfred attended +Lucile. As they parted, she whispered him low, +"You have made to me, Alfred, an offer I know +All the worth of, believe me. I cannot reply +Without time for reflection. Good night!--not good by." +"Alas! 'tis the very same answer you made +To the Duc de Luvois but a day since," he said. +"No, Alfred! the very same, no," she replied. +Her voice shook. "If you love me, obey me. Abide +My answer to-morrow." + + +XXIV. + + + Alas, Cousin Jack! +You Cassandra in breeches and boots! turn your back +To the ruins of Troy. Prophet, seek not for glory +Amongst thine own people. + I follow my story. + + + +CANTO V. + + +I. + + +Up!--forth again, Pegasus!--"Many's the slip," +Hath the proverb well said, "'twixt the cup and the lip!" +How blest should we be, have I often conceived, +Had we really achieved what we nearly achieved! +We but catch at the skirts of the thing we would be, +And fall back on the lap of a false destiny. +So it will be, so has been, since this world began! +And the happiest, noblest, and best part of man +Is the part which he never hath fully play'd out: +For the first and last word in life's volume is-- + Doubt. +The face of the most fair to our vision allow'd +Is the face we encounter and lose in the crowd. +The thought that most thrills our existence is one +Which, before we can frame it in language, is gone. +O Horace! the rustic still rests by the river, +But the river flows on, and flows past him forever! +Who can sit down, and say . . . "What I will be, I will"? +Who stand up, and affirm . . . "What I was, I am still"? +Who is that must not, if question'd, say . . . . . . + "What +I would have remain'd or become, I am not"? +We are ever behind, or beyond, or beside +Our intrinsic existence. Forever at hide +And seek with our souls. Not in Hades alone +Doth Sisyphus roll, ever frustrate, the stone, +Do the Danaids ply, ever vainly, the sieve. +Tasks as futile does earth to its denizens give. +Yet there's none so unhappy, but what he hath been +Just about to be happy, at some time, I ween; +And none so beguiled and defrauded by chance, +But what once in his life, some minute circumstance +Would have fully sufficed to secure him the bliss +Which, missing it then, he forever must miss. +And to most of us, ere we go down to the grave, +Life, relenting, accords the good gift we would have; +But, as though by some strange imperfection in fate, +The good gift, when it comes, comes a moment too late. +The Future's great veil our breath fitfully flaps, +And behind it broods ever the mighty Perhaps. +Yet! there's many a slip 'twixt the cup and the lip; +But while o'er the brim of life's beaker I dip, +Though the cup may next moment be shatter'd, the wine +Spilt, one deep health I'll pledge, and that health shall be thine, +O being of beauty and bliss! seen and known +In the deeps of my soul, and possess'd there alone! +My days know thee not; and my lips name thee never. +Thy place in my poor life is vacant forever. +We have met: we have parted. No more is recorded +In my annals on earth. This alone was afforded +To the man whom men know me, or deem me, to be. +But, far down, in the depth of my life's mystery, +(Like the siren that under the deep ocean dwells, +Whom the wind as it wails, and the wave as it swells, +Cannot stir in the calm of her coralline halls, +'Mid the world's adamantine and dim pedestals; +At whose feet sit the sylphs and sea fairies; for whom +The almondine glimmers, the soft samphires bloom)-- +Thou abidest and reignest forever, O Queen +Of that better world which thou swayest unseen! +My one perfect mistress! my all things in all! +Thee by no vulgar name known to men do I call; +For the Seraphs have named thee to me in my sleep, +And that name is a secret I sacredly keep. +But, wherever this nature of mine is most fair, +And its thoughts are the purest--belov'd, thou art there! +And whatever is noblest in aught that I do, +Is done to exalt and to worship thee too. +The world gave thee not to me, no! and the world +Cannot take thee away from me now. I have furl'd +The wings of my spirit above thy bright head; +At thy feet are my soul's immortalities spread. +Thou mightest have been to me much. Thou art more. +And in silence I worship, in darkness adore. +If life be not that which without us we find-- +Chance, accident, merely--but rather the mind, +And the soul which, within us, surviveth these things, +If our real existence have truly its springs +Less in that which we do than in that which we feel, +Not in vain do I worship, not hopeless I kneel! +For then, though I name thee not mistress or wife, +Thou art mine--and mine only,--O life of my life! +And though many's the slip 'twixt the cup and the lip, +Yet while o'er the brim of life's beaker I dip, +While there's life on the lip, while there's warmth in the wine, +One deep health I'll pledge, and that health shall be thine! + + +II. + + +This world, on whose peaceable breast we repose +Unconvulsed by alarm, once confused in the throes +Of a tumult divine, sea and land, moist and dry, +And in fiery fusion commix'd earth and sky. +Time cool'd it, and calm'd it, and taught it to go +The round of its orbit in peace, long ago. +The wind changeth and whirleth continually: +All the rivers run down and run into the sea: +The wind whirleth about, and is presently still'd: +All the rivers run down, yet the sea is not fill'd: +The sun goeth forth from his chambers; the sun +Ariseth, and lo! he descendeth anon. +All returns to its place. Use and Habit are powers +Far stronger than Passion, in this world of ours. +The great laws of life readjust their infraction, +And to every emotion appoint a reaction. + + +III. + + +Alfred Vargrave had time, after leaving Lucile, +To review the rash step he had taken, and feel +What the world would have call'd "his erroneous position." +Thought obtruded its claim, and enforced recognition: +Like a creditor who, when the gloss is worn out +On the coat which we once wore with pleasure, no doubt, +Sends us in his account for the garment we bought. +Ev'ry spendthrift to passion is debtor to thought. + + +IV. + + +He felt ill at ease with himself. He could feel +Little doubt what the answer would be from Lucile. +Her eyes, when they parted--her voice, when they met, +Still enraptured his heart, which they haunted. And yet, +Though, exulting, he deem'd himself loved, where he loved, +Through his mind a vague self-accusation there moved. +O'er his fancy, when fancy was fairest, would rise +The infantine face of Matilda, with eyes +So sad, so reproachful, so cruelly kind, +That his heart fail'd within him. In vain did he find +A thousand just reasons for what he had done; +The vision that troubled him would not be gone. +In vain did he say to himself, and with truth, +"Matilda has beauty, and fortune, and youth; +And her heart is too young to have deeply involved +All its hopes in the tie which must now be dissolved. +'Twere a false sense of honor in me to suppress +The sad truth which I owe it to her to confess. +And what reason have I to presume this poor life +Of my own, with its languid and frivolous strife, +And without what alone might endear it to her, +Were a boon all so precious, indeed, to confer, +Its withdrawal can wrong her? + It is not as though +I were bound to some poor village maiden, I know, +Unto whose simple heart mine were all upon earth, +Or to whose simple fortunes mine own could give worth. +Matilda, in all the world's gifts, will not miss +Aught that I could procure her. 'Tis best as it is!" + + +V. + + +In vain did he say to himself, "When I came +To this fatal spot, I had nothing to blame +Or reproach myself for, in the thoughts of my heart. +I could not foresee that its pulses would start +Into such strange emotion on seeing once more +A woman I left with indifference before. +I believed, and with honest conviction believed, +In my love for Matilda. I never conceived +That another could shake it. I deem'd I had done +With the wild heart of youth, and looked hopefully on +To the soberer manhood, the worthier life, +Which I sought in the love that I vow'd to my wife. +Poor child! she shall learn the whole truth. She shall know +What I knew not myself but a few days ago. +The world will console her--her pride will support-- +Her youth will renew its emotions. In short, +There is nothing in me that Matilda will miss +When once we have parted. 'Tis best as it is!" + + +VI. + + +But in vain did he reason and argue. Alas! +He yet felt unconvinced that 'TWAS best as it was. +Out of reach of all reason, forever would rise +That infantine face of Matilda, with eyes +So sad, so reproachful, so cruelly kind, +That they harrow'd his heart and distracted his mind. + + +VII. + + +And then, when he turned from these thoughts to Lucile, +Though his heart rose enraptured he could not but feel +A vague sense of awe of her nature. Behind +All the beauty of heart, and the graces of mind, +Which he saw and revered in her, something unknown +And unseen in that nature still troubled his own. +He felt that Lucile penetrated and prized +Whatever was noblest and best, though disguised, +In himself; but he did not feel sure that he knew, +Or completely possess'd, what, half hidden from view, +Remained lofty and lonely in HER. + Then, her life, +So untamed and so free! would she yield as a wife +Independence, long claimed as a woman? Her name +So link'd by the world with that spurious fame +Which the beauty and wit of a woman assert, +In some measure, alas! to her own loss and hurt +In the serious thoughts of a man! . . . This reflection +O'er the love which he felt cast a shade of dejection, +From which he forever escaped to the thought +Doubt could reach not . . . "I love her, and all else is naught!" + + +VIII. + + +His hand trembled strangely in breaking the seal +Of the letter which reach'd him at last from Lucile. +At the sight of the very first words that he read, +That letter dropp'd down from his hand like the dead +Leaf in autumn, that, falling, leaves naked and bare +A desolate tree in a wide wintry air. +He pass'd his hand hurriedly over his eyes, +Bewilder'd, incredulous. Angry surprise +And dismay, in one sharp moan, broke from him. Anon +He picked up the page, and read rapidly on. + + +IX. + + +THE COMTESSE DE NEVERS TO LORD ALFRED VARGRAVE: + + "No, Alfred! + If over the present, when last +We two met, rose the glamour and mist of the past, +It hath now rolled away, and our two paths are plain, +And those two paths divide us. + "That hand which again +Mine one moment has clasp'd as the hand of a brother, +That hand and your honor are pledged to another! +Forgive, Alfred Vargrave, forgive me, if yet +For that moment (now past!) I have made you forget +What was due to yourself and that other one. Yes, +Mine the fault, and be mine the repentance. Not less, +In now owning this fault, Alfred, let me own, too, +I foresaw not the sorrow involved in it. + "True, +That meeting, which hath been so fatal, I sought, +I alone! But oh! deem not it was with the thought +Of your heart to regain, or the past to rewaken. +No! believe me, it was with the firm and unshaken +Conviction, at least, that our meeting would be +Without peril to YOU, although haply to me +The salvation of all my existence. + "I own, +When the rumor first reach'd me, which lightly made known +To the world your engagement, my heart and my mind +Suffer'd torture intense. It was cruel to find +That so much of the life of my life, half unknown +To myself, had been silently settled on one +Upon whom but to think it would soon be a crime. +Then I said to myself, 'From the thraldom which time +Hath not weaken'd there rests but one hope of escape. +That image which Fancy seems ever to shape +From the solitude left round the ruins of yore, +Is a phantom. The Being I loved is no more. +What I hear in the silence, and see in the lone +Void of life, is the young hero born of my own +Perish'd youth: and his image, serene and sublime +In my heart rests unconscious of change and of time, +Could I see it but once more, as time and as change +Have made it, a thing unfamiliar and strange, +See, indeed, that the Being I loved in my youth +Is no more, and what rests now is only, in truth, +The hard pupil of life and the world: then, oh, then, +I should wake from a dream, and my life be again +Reconciled to the world; and, released from regret, +Take the lot fate accords to my choice.' + "So we met. +But the danger I did not foresee has occurr'd: +The danger, alas, to yourself! I have err'd. +But happy for both that this error hath been +Discover'd as soon as the danger was seen! +We meet, Alfred Vargrave, no more. I, indeed, +Shall be far from Luchon when this letter you read. +My course is decided; my path I discern: +Doubt is over; my future is fix'd now. + "Return, +O return to the young living love! Whence, alas! +If, one moment, you wander'd, think only it was +More deeply to bury the past love. + "And, oh! +Believe, Alfred Vargrave, that I, where I go +On my far distant pathway through life, shall rejoice +To treasure in memory all that your voice +Has avow'd to me, all in which others have clothed +To my fancy with beauty and worth your betrothed! +In the fair morning light, in the orient dew +Of that young life, now yours, can you fail to renew +All the noble and pure aspirations, the truth, +The freshness, the faith, of your own earnest youth? +Yes! YOU will be happy. I, too, in the bliss +I foresee for you, I shall be happy. And this +Proves me worthy your friendship. And so--let it prove +That I cannot--I do not respond to your love. +Yes, indeed! be convinced that I could not (no, no, +Never, never!) have render'd you happy. And so, +Rest assured that, if false to the vows you have plighted, +You would have endured, when the first brief, excited +Emotion was o'er, not alone the remorse +Of honor, but also (to render it worse) +Disappointed affection. + "Yes, Alfred; you start? +But think! if the world was too much in your heart, +And too little in mine, when we parted ten years +Ere this last fatal meeting, that time (ay, and tears!) +Have but deepen'd the old demarcations which then +Placed our natures asunder; and we two again, +As we then were, would still have been strangely at strife. +In that self-independence which is to my life +Its necessity now, as it once was its pride, +Had our course through the world been henceforth side by side, +I should have revolted forever, and shock'd +Your respect for the world's plausibilities, mock'd, +Without meaning to do so, and outraged, all those +Social creeds which you live by. + "Oh! do not suppose +That I blame you. Perhaps it is you that are right. +Best, then, all as it is! + "Deem these words life's Good-night +To the hope of a moment: no more! If there fell +Any tear on this page, 'twas a friend's. + "So farewell +To the past--and to you, Alfred Vargrave. + "LUCILE." + + +X. + + +So ended that letter. + The room seem'd to reel +Round and round in the mist that was scorching his eyes +With a fiery dew. Grief, resentment, surprise, +Half chocked him; each word he had read, as it smote +Down some hope, rose and grasped like a hand at his throat, +To stifle and strangle him. + Gasping already +For relief from himself, with a footstep unsteady, +He pass'd from his chamber. He felt both oppress'd +And excited. The letter he thrust in his breast, +And, in search of fresh air and of solitude, pass'd +The long lime-trees of Luchon. His footsteps at last +Reach'd a bare narrow heath by the skirts of a wood: +It was sombre and silent, and suited his mood. +By a mineral spring, long unused, now unknown, +Stood a small ruin'd abbey. He reach'd it, sat down +On a fragment of stone, 'mid the wild weed and thistle, +And read over again that perplexing epistle. + + +XI. + + +In re-reading that letter, there roll'd from his mind +The raw mist of resentment which first made him blind +To the pathos breath'd through it. Tears rose in his eyes, +And a hope sweet and strange in his heart seem'd to rise. +The truth which he saw not the first time he read +That letter, he now saw--that each word betray'd +The love which the writer had sought to conceal. +His love was received not, he could not but feel, +For one reason alone,--that his love was not free. +True! free yet he was not: but could he not be +Free erelong, free as air to revoke that farewell, +And to sanction his own hopes? he had but to tell +The truth to Matilda, and she were the first +To release him: he had but to wait at the worst. +Matilda's relations would probably snatch +Any pretext, with pleasure, to break off a match +In which they had yielded, alone at the whim +Of their spoil'd child, a languid approval to him. +She herself, careless child! was her love for him aught +Save the first joyous fancy succeeding the thought +She last gave to her doll? was she able to feel +Such a love as the love he divined in Lucile? +He would seek her, obtain his release, and, oh! then +He had but to fly to Lucile, and again +Claim the love which his heart would be free to command. +But to press on Lucile any claim to her hand, +Or even to seek, or to see, her before +He could say, "I am free! free, Lucile, to implore +That great blessing on life you alone can confer," +'Twere dishonor in him, 'twould be insult to her. +Thus still with the letter outspread on his knee +He follow'd so fondly his own revery, +That he felt not the angry regard of a man +Fix'd upon him; he saw not a face stern and wan +Turn'd towards him; he heard not a footstep that pass'd +And repass'd the lone spot where he stood, till at last +A hoarse voice aroused him. + He look'd up and saw, +On the bare heath before him, the Duc de Luvois. + + +XII. + + +With aggressive ironical tones, and a look +Of concentrated insolent challenge, the Duke +Address'd to Lord Alfred some sneering allusion +To "the doubtless sublime reveries his intrusion +Had, he fear'd, interrupted. Milord would do better, +He fancied, however, to fold up a letter +The writing of which was too well known, in fact, +His remark as he pass'd to have failed to attract." + + +XIII. + + +It was obvious to Alfred the Frenchman was bent +Upon picking a quarrel! and doubtless 'twas meant +From HIM to provoke it by sneers such as these. +A moment sufficed his quick instinct to seize +The position. He felt that he could not expose +His own name, or Lucile's, or Matilda's, to those +Idle tongues that would bring down upon him the ban +Of the world, if he now were to fight with this man. +And indeed, when he look'd in the Duke's haggard face, +He was pain'd by the change there he could not but trace. +And he almost felt pity. + He therefore put by +Each remark from the Duke with some careless reply, +And coldly, but courteously, waving away +The ill-humor the Duke seem'd resolved to display, +Rose, and turn'd, with a stern salutation, aside. + + +XIV. + + +Then the Duke put himself in the path, made one stride +In advance, raised a hand, fix'd upon him his eyes, +And said . . . + "Hold, Lord Alfred! Away with disguise! +I will own that I sought you, a moment ago, +To fix on you a quarrel. I still can do so +Upon any excuse. I prefer to be frank. +I admit not a rival in fortune or rank +To the hand of a woman, whatever be hers +Or her suitor's. I love the Comtesse de Nevers. +I believed, ere you cross'd me, and still have the right +To believe, that she would have been mine. To her sight +You return, and the woman is suddenly changed. +You step in between us: her heart is estranged. +You! who now are betrothed to another, I know: +You! whose name with Lucile's nearly ten years ago +Was coupled by ties which you broke: you! the man +I reproach'd on the day our acquaintance began. +You! that left her so lightly,--I cannot believe +That you love, as I love, her; nor can I conceive +You, indeed, have the right so to love her. + Milord, +I will not thus tamely concede at your word, +What, a few days ago, I believed to be mine! +I shall yet persevere: I shall yet be, in fine, +A rival you dare not despise. It is plain +That to settle this contest there can but remain +One way--need I say what it is?" + + +XV. + + + Not unmoved +With regretful respect for the earnestness proved +By the speech he had heard, Alfred Vargrave replied +In words which he trusted might yet turn aside +The quarrel from which he felt bound to abstain, +And, with stately urbanity, strove to explain +To the Duke that he too (a fair rival at worst!) +Had not been accepted. + + +XVI. + + + "Accepted! say first +Are you free to have offer'd?" + Lord Alfred was mute. + + +XVII. + + +"Ah, you dare not reply!" cried the Duke. "Why dispute, +Why palter with me? You are silent! and why? +Because, in your conscience, you cannot deny +'Twas from vanity, wanton and cruel withal, +And the wish an ascendancy lost to recall, +That you stepp'd in between me and her. If, milord, +You be really sincere, I ask only one word. +Say at once you renounce her. At once, on my part, +I will ask your forgiveness with all truth of heart, +And there CAN be no quarrel between us. Say on!" +Lord Alfred grew gall'd and impatient. This tone +Roused a strong irritation he could not repress. +"You have not the right, sir," he said, "and still less +The power, to make terms and conditions with me. +I refuse to reply." + + +XVIII. + + + As diviners may see +Fates they cannot avert in some figure occult, +He foresaw in a moment each evil result +Of the quarrel now imminent. + There, face to face, +'Mid the ruins and tombs of a long-perish'd race, +With, for witness, the stern Autumn Sky overhead, +And beneath them, unnoticed, the graves, and the dead, +Those two men had met, as it were on the ridge +Of that perilous, narrow, invisible bridge +Dividing the Past from the Future, so small +That if one should pass over, the other must fall. + + +XIX. + + +On the ear, at that moment, the sound of a hoof, +Urged with speed, sharply smote; and from under the roof +Of the forest in view, where the skirts of it verged +On the heath where they stood, at full gallop emerged +A horseman. + A guide he appear'd, by the sash +Of red silk round the waist, and the long leathern lash +With a short wooden handle, slung crosswise behind +The short jacket; the loose canvas trouser, confined +By the long boots; the woollen capote; and the rein, +A mere hempen cord on a curb. + Up the plain +He wheel'd his horse, white with the foam on his flank, +Leap'd the rivulet lightly, turn'd sharp from the bank, +And, approaching the Duke, raised his woollen capote, +Bow'd low in the selle, and deliver'd a note. + + +XX. + + +The two stood astonish'd. The Duke, with a gest +Of apology, turnd, stretch'd his hand, and possess'd +Himself of the letter, changed color, and tore +The page open and read. + Ere a moment was o'er +His whole aspect changed. A light rose to his eyes, +And a smile to his lips. While with startled surprise +Lord Alfred yet watch'd him, he turn'd on his heel, +And said gayly, "A pressing request from Lucile! +You are quite right, Lord Alfred! fair rivals at worst, +Our relative place may perchance be reversed. +You are not accepted,--nor free to propose! +I, perchance, am accepted already; who knows? +I had warned you, milord, I should still persevere. +This letter--but stay! you can read it--look here!" + + +XXI. + + +It was now Alfred's turn to feel roused and enraged. +But Lucile to himself was not pledged or engaged +By aught that could sanction resentment. He said +Not a word, but turn'd round, took the letter, and read . . . + +THE COMTESSE DE NEVERS TO THE DUC DE LUVOIS. + + + "SAINT SAVIOUR. + +"Your letter, which follow'd me here, makes me stay +Till I see you again. With no moment's delay +I entreat, I conjure you, by all that you feel +Or profess, to come to me directly. + "LUCILE." + + +XXII. + + +"Your letter!" He then had been writing to her! +Coldly shrugging his shoulders, Lord Alfred said, "Sir, +Do not let me detain you!" + The Duke smiled and bow'd; +Placed the note in his bosom; address'd, half aloud, +A few words to the messenger, . . . "Say your despatch +Will be answer'd ere nightfall;" then glanced at his watch, +And turn'd back to the Baths. + + +XXIII. + + + Alfred Vargrave stood still, +Torn, distracted in heart, and divided in will. +He turn'd to Lucile's farewell letter to him. +And read over her words; rising tears made them dim: +"Doubt is over; my future is fix'd now," they said. +"My course is decided." Her course? what! to wed +With this insolent rival! With that thought there shot +Through his heart an acute jealous anguish. But not +Even thus could his clear worldly sense quite excuse +Those strange words to the Duke. She was free to refuse +Himself, free the Duke to accept, it was true: +Even then, though, this eager and strange rendezvous, +How imprudent! To some unfrequented lone inn, +And so late (for the night was about to begin)-- +She, companionless there!--had she bidden that man? +A fear, vague, and formless, and horrible, ran +Through his heart. + + +XXIV. + + + At that moment he look'd up, and saw, +Riding fast through the forest, the Duc de Luvois, +Who waved his hand to him, and sped out of sight. +The day was descending. He felt 'twould be night +Ere that man reached Saint Saviour. + + +XXV. + + + He walk'd on, but not +Back toward Luchon: he walk'd on, but knew not in what +Direction, nor yet with what object, indeed, +He was walking, but still he walk'd on without heed. + + +XXVI. + + +The day had been sullen; but, towards his decline, +The sun sent a stream of wild light up the pine. +Darkly denting the red light reveal'd at its back, +The old ruin'd abbey rose roofless and black. +The spring that yet oozed through the moss-paven floor +Had suggested, no doubt, to the monks there, of yore, +The sight of that refuge where back to its God +How many a heart, now at rest 'neath the sod, +Had borne from the world all the same wild unrest +That now prey'd on his own! + + +XXVII. + + + By the thoughts in his breast +With varying impulse divided and torn, +He traversed the scant heath, and reach'd the forlorn +Autumn woodland, in which but a short while ago +He had seen the Duke rapidly enter; and so +He too enter'd. The light waned around him, and pass'd +Into darkness. The wrathful, red Occident cast +One glare of vindictive inquiry behind, +As the last light of day from the high wood declined, +And the great forest sigh'd its farewell to the beam, +And far off on the stillness the voice of the stream +Fell faintly. + + +XXVIII. + + + O Nature, how fair is thy face, +And how light is thy heart, and how friendless thy grace! +Thou false mistress of man! thou dost sport with him lightly +In his hours of ease and enjoyment; and brightly +Dost thou smile to his smile; to his joys thou inclinest, +But his sorrows, thou knowest them not, nor divinest. +While he woos, thou art wanton; thou lettest him love thee; +But thou art not his friend, for his grief cannot move thee; +And at last, when he sickens and dies, what dost thou? +All as gay are thy garments, as careless thy brow, +And thou laughest and toyest with any new comer, +Not a tear more for winter, a smile less for summer! +Hast thou never an anguish to heave the heart under +That fair breast of thine, O thou feminine wonder! +For all those--the young, and the fair, and the strong, +Who have loved thee, and lived with thee gayly and long, +And who now on thy bosom lie dead? and their deeds +And their days are forgotten! O hast thou no weeds +And not one year of mourning,--one out of the many +That deck thy new bridals forever,--nor any +Regrets for thy lost loves, conceal'd from the new, +O thou widow of earth's generations? Go to! +If the sea and the night wind know aught of these things, +They do not reveal it. We are not thy kings. + + + +CANTO VI. + + +I. + + +"The huntsman has ridden too far on the chase, +And eldrich, and eerie, and strange is the place! +The castle betokens a date long gone by. +He crosses the courtyard with curious eye: +He wanders from chamber to chamber, and yet +From strangeness to strangeness his footsteps are set; +And the whole place grows wilder and wilder, and less +Like aught seen before. Each in obsolete dress, +Strange portraits regard him with looks of surprise, +Strange forms from the arras start forth to his eyes; +Strange epigraphs, blazon'd, burn out of the wall: +The spell of a wizard is over it all. +In her chamber, enchanted, the Princess is sleeping +The sleep which for centuries she has been keeping. +If she smile in her sleep, it must be to some lover +Whose lost golden locks the long grasses now cover: +If she moan in her dream, it must be to deplore +Some grief which the world cares to hear of no more. +But how fair is her forehead, how calm seems her cheek! +And how sweet must that voice be, if once she would speak! +He looks and he loves her; but knows he (not he!) +The clew to unravel this old mystery? +And he stoops to those shut lips. The shapes on the wall, +The mute men in armor around him, and all +The weird figures frown, as though striving to say, +'Halt! invade not the Past, reckless child of Today! +And give not, O madman! the heart in thy breast +To a phantom, the soul of whose sense is possess'd +By an Age not thine own!' + "But unconscious is he, +And he heeds not the warning, he cares not to see +Aught but ONE form before him! + "Rash, wild words are o'er, +And the vision is vanish'd from sight evermore! +And the gray morning sees, as it drearily moves +O'er a land long deserted, a madman that roves +Through a ruin, and seeks to recapture a dream. +Lost to life and its uses, withdrawn from the scheme +Of man's waking existence, he wanders apart." +And this is an old fairy-tale of the heart. +It is told in all lands, in a different tongue; +Told with tears by the old, heard with smiles by the young. +And the tale to each heart unto which it is known +Has a different sense. It has puzzled my own. + + +II. + + +Eugene de Luvois was a man who, in part +From strong physical health, and that vigor of heart +Which physical health gives, and partly, perchance, +From a generous vanity native to France, +With the heart of a hunter, whatever the quarry, +Pursued it, too hotly impatient to tarry +Or turn, till he took it. His trophies were trifles: +But trifler he was not. When rose-leaves it rifles, +No less than when oak-trees it ruins, the wind +Its pleasure pursues with impetuous mind. +Both Eugene de Luvois and Lord Alfred had been +Men of pleasure: but men's pleasant vices, which, seen +Floating faint in the sunshine of Alfred's soft mood, +Seem'd amiable foibles, by Luvois pursued +With impetuous passion, seemed semi-Satanic. +Half pleased you see brooks play with pebbles; in panic +You watch them whirl'd down by the torrent. + In truth, +To the sacred political creed of his youth +The century which he was born to denied +All realization. Its generous pride +To degenerate protest on all things was sunk; +Its principles each to a prejudice shrunk. +Down the path of a life that led nowhere he trod, +Where his whims were his guides, and his will was his god, +And his pastime his purpose. + From boyhood possess'd +Of inherited wealth, he had learned to invest +Both his wealth and those passions wealth frees from the cage +Which penury locks, in each vice of an age +All the virtues of which, by the creed he revered, +Were to him illegitimate. + Thus, he appear'd +To the world what the world chose to have him appear,-- +The frivolous tyrant of Fashion, a mere +Reformer in coats, cards, and carriages! Still +'Twas the vigor of nature, and tension of will, +That found for the first time--perhaps for the last-- +In Lucile what they lacked yet to free from the Past, +Force, and faith, in the Future. + And so, in his mind, +To the anguish of losing the woman was join'd +The terror of missing his life's destination, +Which in her had its mystical representation. + + +III. + + +And truly, the thought of it, scaring him, pass'd +O'er his heart, while he now through the twilight rode fast +As a shade from the wing of some great bird obscene +In a wide silent land may be suddenly seen, +Darkening over the sands, where it startles and scares +Some traveller stray'd in the waste unawares, +So that thought more than once darken'd over his heart +For a moment, and rapidly seem'd to depart. +Fast and furious he rode through the thickets which rose +Up the shaggy hillside: and the quarrelling crows +Clang'd above him, and clustering down the dim air +Dropp'd into the dark woods. By fits here and there +Shepherd fires faintly gleam'd from the valleys. Oh, how +He envied the wings of each wild bird, as now +He urged the steed over the dizzy ascent +Of the mountain! Behind him a murmur was sent +From the torrent--before him a sound from the tracts +Of the woodlands that waved o'er the wild cataracts, +And the loose earth and loose stones roll'd momently down +From the hoofs of his steed to abysses unknown. +The red day had fallen beneath the black woods, +And the Powers of the night through the vast solitudes +Walk'd abroad and conversed with each other. The trees +Were in sound and in motion, and mutter'd like seas +In Elfland. The road through the forest was hollow'd. +On he sped through the darkness, as though he were follow'd +Fast, fast by the Erl King! + The wild wizard-work +Of the forest at last open'd sharp, o'er the fork +Of a savage ravine, and behind the black stems +Of the last trees, whose leaves in the light gleam'd like gems, +Broke the broad moon above the voluminous +Rock-chaos,--the Hecate of that Tartarus! +With his horse reeking white, he at last reach'd the door +Of a small mountain inn, on the brow of a hoar +Craggy promontory, o'er a fissure as grim, +Through which, ever roaring, there leap'd o'er the limb +Of the rent rock a torrent of water, from sight, +Into pools that were feeding the roots of the night. +A balcony hung o'er the water. Above +In a glimmering casement a shade seem'd to move. +At the door the old negress was nodding her head +As he reach'd it. "My mistress awaits you," she said. +And up the rude stairway of creeking pine rafter +He follow'd her silent. A few moments after, +His heart almost stunned him, his head seem'd to reel, +For a door closed--Luvois was alone with Lucile. + + +IV. + + +In a gray travelling dress, her dark hair unconfined +Streaming o'er it, and tossed now and then by the wind +From the lattice, that waved the dull flame in a spire +From a brass lamp before her--a faint hectic fire +On her cheek, to her eyes lent the lustre of fever: +They seem'd to have wept themselves wider than ever, +Those dark eyes--so dark and so deep! + "You relent? +And your plans have been changed by the letter I sent?" +There his voice sank, borne down by a strong inward strife. + +LUCILE. + +Your letter! yes, Duke. For it threaten'd man's life-- +Woman's honor. + +Luvois. + + The last, madam, NOT? + +LUCILE. + + Both. I glance +At your own words; blush, son of the knighthood of France, +As I read them! You say, in this letter . . . + "I know +Why now you refuse me: 'tis (is it not so?) +For the man who has trifled before, wantonly, +And now trifles again with the heart you deny +To myself. But he shall not! By man's last wild law, +I will seize on the right (the right, Duc de Luvois!) +To avenge for you, woman, the past, and to give +To the future its freedom. That man shalt not live +To make you as wretched as you have made me!" + +LUVOIS. + +Well, madam, in those words what words do you see +That threatens the honor of woman? + +LUCILE. + + See! . . . what, +What word, do you ask? Every word! would you not, +Had I taken your hand thus, have felt that your name +Was soil'd and dishonor'd by more than mere shame +If the woman that bore it had first been the cause +Of the crime which in these words is menaced? You pause! +Woman's honor, you ask? Is there, sir, no dishonor +In the smile of a woman, when men, gazing on her, +Can shudder, and say, "In that smile is a grave"? +No! you can have no cause, Duke, for no right you have +In the contest you menace. That contest but draws +Every right into ruin. By all human laws +Of man's heart I forbid it, by all sanctities +Of man's social honor! + The Duke droop'd his eyes. +"I obey you," he said, "but let woman beware +How she plays fast and loose thus with human despair, +And the storm in man's heart. Madam, yours was the right, +When you saw that I hoped, to extinguish hope quite. +But you should from the first have done this, for I feel +That you knew from the first that I loved you." + Lucile +This sudden reproach seem'd to startle. + She raised +A slow, wistful regard to his features, and gazed +On them silent awhile. His own looks were downcast. +Through her heart, whence its first wild alarm was now pass'd, +Pity crept, and perhaps o'er her conscience a tear, +Falling softly, awoke it. + However severe, +Were they unjust, these sudden upbraidings, to her? +Had she lightly misconstrued this man's character, +Which had seem'd, even when most impassion'd it seem'd, +Too self-conscious to lose all in love? Had she deem'd +That this airy, gay, insolent man of the world, +So proud of the place the world gave him, held furl'd +In his bosom no passion which once shaken wide +Might tug, till it snapped, that erect lofty pride? +Were those elements in him, which once roused to strife +Overthrow a whole nature, and change a whole life? +There are two kinds of strength. One, the strength of the river +Which through continents pushes its pathway forever +To fling its fond heart in the sea; if it lose +This, the aim of its life, it is lost to its use, +It goes mad, is diffused into deluge, and dies. +The other, the strength of the sea; which supplies +Its deep life from mysterious sources, and draws +The river's life into its own life, by laws +Which it heeds not. The difference in each case is this: +The river is lost, if the ocean it miss; +If the sea miss the river, what matter? The sea +Is the sea still, forever. Its deep heart will be +Self-sufficing, unconscious of loss as of yore; +Its sources are infinite; still to the shore, +With no diminution of pride, it will say, +"I am here; I, the sea! stand aside, and make way!" +Was his love, then, the love of the river? and she, +Had she taken that love for the love of the sea? + + +V. + + +At that thought, from her aspect whatever had been +Stern or haughty departed; and, humble in mien, +She approach'd him and brokenly murmur'd, as though +To herself more than him, "Was I wrong? is it so? +Hear me, Duke! you must feel that, whatever you deem +Your right to reproach me in this, your esteem +I may claim on ONE ground--I at least am sincere. +You say that to me from the first it was clear +That you loved me. But what if this knowledge were known +At a moment in life when I felt most alone, +And least able to be so? a moment, in fact, +When I strove from one haunting regret to retract +And emancipate life, and once more to fulfil +Woman's destinies, duties, and hopes? would you still +So bitterly blame me, Eugene de Luvois, +If I hoped to see all this, or deem'd that I saw +For a moment the promise of this in the plighted +Affection of one who, in nature, united +So much that from others affection might claim, +If only affection were free? Do you blame +The hope of that moment? I deem'd my heart free +From all, saving sorrow. I deem'd that in me +There was yet strength to mould it once more to my will, +To uplift it once more to my hope. Do you still +Blame me, Duke, that I did not then bid you refrain +From hope? alas! I too then hoped!" + +LUVOIS. + + Oh, again, +Yet again, say that thrice blessed word! say, Lucile, +That you then deign'd to hope-- + +LUCILE. + + Yes! to hope I could feel, +And could give to you, that without which all else given +Were but to deceive, and to injure you even:-- +A heart free from thoughts of another. Say, then, +Do you blame that one hope? + +LUVOIS. + + O Lucile! + "Say again," +She resumed, gazing down, and with faltering tone, +"Do you blame me that, when I at last had to own +To my heart that the hope it had cherish'd was o'er, +And forever, I said to you then, 'Hope no more'? +I myself hoped no more!" + With but ill-suppressed wrath +The Duke answer'd . . . "What, then! he recrosses your path, +This man, and you have but to see him, despite +Of his troth to another, to take back that light +Worthless heart to your own, which he wrong'd years ago!" +Lucile faintly, brokenly murmur'd . . . "No! no! +'Tis not that--but alas!--but I cannot conceal +That I have not forgotten the past--but I feel +That I cannot accept all these gifts on your part,-- +In return for what . . . ah, Duke, what is it? . . . a heart +Which is only a ruin!" + With words warm and wild, +"Though a ruin it be, trust me yet to rebuild +And restore it," Luvois cried; "though ruin'd it be, +Since so dear is that ruin, ah, yield it to me!" +He approach'd her. She shrank back. The grief in her eyes +Answer'd, "No!" + An emotion more fierce seem'd to rise +And to break into flame, as though fired by the light +Of that look, in his heart. He exclaim'd, "Am I right? +You reject ME! Accept HIM?" + "I have not done so," +She said firmly. He hoarsely resumed, "Not yet--no! +But can you with accents as firm promise me +That you will not accept him?" + "Accept? Is he free? +Free to offer?" she said. + "You evade me, Lucile," +He replied; "ah, you will not avow what you feel! +He might make himself free? Oh, you blush--turn away! +Dare you openly look in my face, lady, say! +While you deign to reply to one question from me? +I may hope not, you tell me: but tell me, may he? +What! silent? I alter my question. If quite +Freed in faith from this troth, might he hope then?" + He might," +She said softly. + + +VI. + + + Those two whisper'd words, in his breast, +As he heard them, in one maddening moment releast +All that's evil and fierce in man's nature, to crush +And extinguish in man all that's good. In the rush +Of wild jealousy, all the fierce passions that waste +And darken and devastate intellect, chased +From its realm human reason. The wild animal +In the bosom of man was set free. And of all +Human passions the fiercest, fierce jealousy, fierce +As the fire, and more wild than the whirlwind, to pierce +And to rend, rush'd upon him; fierce jealousy, swell'd +By all passions bred from it, and ever impell'd +To involve all things else in the anguish within it, +And on others inflict its own pangs! + At that minute +What pass'd through his mind, who shall say? who may tell +The dark thoughts of man's heart, which the red glare of hell +Can illumine alone? + He stared wildly around +That lone place, so lonely! That silence! no sound +Reach'd that room, through the dark evening air, save drear +Drip and roar of the cataract ceaseless and near! +It was midnight all round on the weird silent weather; +Deep midnight in him! They two,--alone and together, +Himself and that woman defenceless before him! +The triumph and bliss of his rival flash'd o'er him. +The abyss of his own black despair seem'd to ope +At his feet, with that awful exclusion of hope +Which Dante read over the city of doom. +All the Tarquin pass'd into his soul in the gloom, +And uttering words he dared never recall, +Words of insult and menace, he thunder'd down all +The brew'd storm-cloud within him: its flashes scorch'd blind +His own senses. His spirit was driven on the wind +Of a reckless emotion beyond his control; +A torrent seem'd loosen'd within him. His soul +Surged up from that caldron of passion that hiss'd +And seeth'd in his heart. + + +VII. + + + He had thrown, and had miss'd +His last stake. + + +VIII. + + + For, transfigured, she rose from the place +Where he rested o'erawed: a saint's scorn on her face; +Such a dread vade retro was written in light +On her forehead, the fiend would himself, at that sight, +Have sunk back abash'd to perdition. I know +If Lucretia at Tarquin but once had looked so, +She had needed no dagger next morning. + She rose +And swept to the door, like that phantom the snows +Feel at nightfall sweep o'er them, when daylight is gone, +And Caucasus is with the moon all alone. +There she paused; and, as though from immeasurable, +Insurpassable distance, she murmur'd-- + "Farewell! +We, alas! have mistaken each other. Once more +Illusion, to-night, in my lifetime is o'er. +Duc de Luvois, adieu!" + From the heart-breaking gloom +Of that vacant, reproachful, and desolate room, +He felt she was gone--gone forever! + + +IX. + + + No word, +The sharpest that ever was edged like a sword, +Could have pierced to his heart with such keen accusation +As the silence, the sudden profound isolation, +In which he remain'd. + "O return; I repent!" +He exclaimed; but no sound through the stillness was sent, +Save the roar of the water, in answer to him, +And the beetle that, sleeping, yet humm'd her night-hymn: +An indistinct anthem, that troubled the air +With a searching, and wistful, and questioning prayer. +"Return," sung the wandering insect. The roar +Of the waters replied, "Nevermore! nevermore!" +He walked to the window . The spray on his brow +Was flung cold from the whirlpools of water below; +The frail wooden balcony shook in the sound +Of the torrent. The mountains gloom'd sullenly round. +A candle one ray from a closed casement flung. +O'er the dim balustrade all bewilder'd he hung, +Vaguely watching the broken and shimmering blink +Of the stars on the veering and vitreous brink +Of that snake-like prone column of water; and listing +Aloof o'er the languors of air the persisting +Sharp horn of the gray gnat. Before he relinquish'd +His unconscious employment, that light was extinguish'd. +Wheels at last, from the inn door aroused him. He ran +Down the stairs; reached the door--just to see her depart. +Down the mountain the carriage was speeding. + + +X. + + + His heart +Peal'd the knell of its last hope. He rush'd on; but whither +He knew not--on, into the dark cloudy weather-- +The midnight--the mountains--on, over the shelf +Of the precipice--on, still--away from himself! +Till exhausted, he sank 'mid the dead leaves and moss +At the mouth of the forest. A glimmering cross +Of gray stone stood for prayer by the woodside. He sank +Prayerless, powerless, down at its base, 'mid the dank +Weeds and grasses; his face hid amongst them. He knew +That the night had divided his whole life in two. +Behind him a past that was over forever: +Before him a future devoid of endeavor +And purpose. He felt a remorse for the one, +Of the other a fear. What remain'd to be done? +Whither now should he turn? Turn again, as before, +To his old easy, careless existence of yore +He could not. He felt that for better or worse +A change had pass'd o'er him; an angry remorse +Of his own frantic failure and error had marr'd +Such a refuge forever. The future seem'd barr'd +By the corpse of a dead hope o'er which he must tread +To attain it. Life's wilderness round him was spread, +What clew there to cling by? + He clung by a name +To a dynasty fallen forever. He came +Of an old princely house, true through change to the race +And the sword of Saint Louis--a faith 'twere disgrace +To relinquish, and folly to live for! Nor less +Was his ancient religion (once potent to bless +Or to ban; and the crozier his ancestors kneel'd +To adore, when they fought for the Cross, in hard field +With the Crescent) become, ere it reach'd him, tradition; +A mere faded badge of a social position; +A thing to retain and say nothing about, +Lest, if used, it should draw degradation from doubt. +Thus, the first time he sought them, the creeds of his youth +Wholly fail'd the strong needs of his manhood, in truth! +And beyond them, what region of refuge? what field +For employment, this civilized age, did it yield, +In that civilized land? or to thought? or to action? +Blind deliriums, bewilder'd and endless distraction! +Not even a desert, not even the cell +Of a hermit to flee to, wherein he might quell +The wild devil-instincts which now, unreprest, +Ran riot through that ruin'd world in his breast. + + +XI. + + +So he lay there, like Lucifer, fresh from the sight +Of a heaven scaled and lost; in the wide arms of night +O'er the howling abysses of nothingness! There +As he lay, Nature's deep voice was teaching him prayer; +But what had he to pray to? + The winds in the woods, +The voices abroad o'er those vast solitudes, +Were in commune all round with the invisible +Power that walk'd the dim world by Himself at that hour. +But their language he had not yet learn'd--in despite +Of the much he HAD learn'd--or forgotten it quite, +With its once native accents. Alas! what had he +To add to that deep-toned sublime symphony +Of thanksgiving? . . . A fiery finger was still +Scorching into his heart some dread sentence. His will, +Like a wind that is put to no purpose, was wild +At its work of destruction within him. The child +Of an infidel age, he had been his own god, +His own devil. + He sat on the damp mountain sod, +and stared sullenly up at the dark sky. + The clouds +Had heap'd themselves over the bare west in crowds +Of misshapen, incongruous potents. A green +Streak of dreary, cold, luminous ether, between +The base of their black barricades, and the ridge +Of the grim world, gleam'd ghastly, as under some bridge, +Cyclop-sized, in a city of ruins o'erthrown +By sieges forgotten, some river, unknown +And unnamed, widens on into desolate lands. +While he gazed, that cloud-city invisible hands +Dismantled and rent; and reveal'd, through a loop +In the breach'd dark, the blemish'd and half-broken hoop +Of the moon, which soon silently sank; and anon +The whole supernatural pageant was gone. +The wide night, discomforted, conscious of loss, +Darken'd round him. One object alone--that gray cross-- +Glimmer'd faint on the dark. Gazing up, he descried, +Through the void air, its desolate arms outstretch'd, wide, +As though to embrace him. + He turn'd from the sight, +Set his face to the darkness, and fled. + + +XII. + + + When the light +Of the dawn grayly flicker'd and glared on the spent +Wearied ends of the night, like a hope that is sent +To the need of some grief when its need is the sorest, +He was sullenly riding across the dark forest +Toward Luchon. + Thus riding, with eyes of defiance +Set against the young day, as disclaiming alliance +With aught that the day brings to man, he perceived +Faintly, suddenly, fleetingly, through the damp-leaved +Autumn branches that put forth gaunt arms on his way, +The face of a man pale and wistful, and gray +With the gray glare of morning. Eugene de Luvois, +With the sense of a strange second sight, when he saw +That phantom-like face, could at once recognize, +By the sole instinct now left to guide him, the eyes +Of his rival, though fleeting the vision and dim, +With a stern sad inquiry fix'd keenly on him, +And, to meet it, a lie leap'd at once to his own; +A lie born of that lying darkness now grown +Over all in his nature! He answer'd that gaze +With a look which, if ever a man's look conveys +More intensely than words what a man means convey'd +Beyond doubt in its smile an announcement which said, +"I have triumph'd. The question your eyes would imply +Comes too late, Alfred Vargrave!" + And so he rode by, +And rode on, and rode gayly, and rode out of sight, +Leaving that look behind him to rankle and bite. + + +XIII. + + +And it bit, and it rankled. + + +XIV. + + + Lord Alfred, scarce knowing, +Or choosing, or heeding the way he was going, +By one wild hope impell'd, by one wild fear pursued, +And led by one instinct, which seem'd to exclude +From his mind every human sensation, save one +The torture of doubt--had stray'd moodily on, +Down the highway deserted, that evening in which +With the Duke he had parted; stray'd on, through rich +Haze of sunset, or into the gradual night, +Which darken'd, unnoticed, the land from his sight, +Toward Saint Saviour; nor did the changed aspect of all +The wild scenery around him avail to recall +To his senses their normal perceptions, until, +As he stood on the black shaggy brow of the hill +At the mouth of the forest, the moon, which had hung +Two dark hours in a cloud, slipp'd on fire from among +The rent vapors, and sunk o'er the ridge of the world. +Then he lifted his eyes, and saw round him unfurl'd, +In one moment of splendor, the leagues of dark trees, +And the long rocky line of the wild Pyrenees. +And he knew by the milestone scored rough on the face +Of the bare rock, he was but two hours from the place +Where Lucile and Luvois must have met. This same track +The Duke must have traversed, perforce, to get back +To Luchon; not yet then the Duke had returned! +He listen'd, he look'd up the dark, but discern'd +Not a trace, not a sound of a horse by the way. +He knew that the night was approaching to day. +He resolved to proceed to Saint Saviour. The morn, +Which, at last, through the forest broke chill and forlorn, +Reveal'd to him, riding toward Luchon, the Duke. +'Twas then that the two men exchanged look for look. + + +XV. + + +And the Duke's rankled in him. + + +XVI. + + + He rush'd on. He tore +His path through the thicket. He reach'd the inn door, +Roused the yet drowsing porter, reluctant to rise, +And inquired for the Countess. The man rubb'd his eyes, +The Countess was gone. And the Duke? + The man stared +A sleepy inquiry. + With accents that scared +The man's dull sense awake, "He, the stranger," he cried, +"Who had been there that night!" + The man grinn'd and replied, +With a vacant intelligence, "He, oh ay, ay! +He went after the lady." + No further reply +Could he give. Alfred Vargrave demanded no more, +Flung a coin to the man, and so turn'd from the door. +"What! the Duke, then, the night in that lone inn had pass'd? +In that lone inn--with her!" Was that look he had cast +When they met in the forest, that look which remain'd +On his mind with its terrible smile, thus explain'd? + + +XVII. + + +The day was half turn'd to the evening, before +He re-entered Luchon, with a heart sick and sore. +In the midst of a light crowd of babblers, his look, +By their voices attracted, distinguished the Duke, +Gay, insolent, noisy, with eyes sparkling bright, +With laughter, shrill, airy, continuous. + Right +Through the throng Alfred Vargrave, with swift sombre stride, +Glided on. The Duke noticed him, turn'd, stepp'd aside, +And, cordially grasping his hand, whisper'd low, +"O, how right have you been! There can never be--no, +Never--any more contest between us! Milord, +Let us henceforth be friends!" + Having utter'd that word, +He turn'd lightly round on his heel, and again +His gay laughter was heard, echoed loud by that train +Of his young imitators. + Lord Alfred stood still, +Rooted, stunn'd, to the spot. He felt weary and ill, +Out of heart with his own heart, and sick to the soul +With a dull, stifling anguish he could not control. +Does he hear in a dream, through the buzz of the crowd, +The Duke's blithe associates, babbling aloud +Some comment upon his gay humor that day? +He never was gayer: what makes him so gay? +'Tis, no doubt, say the flatterers, flattering in tune, +Some vestal whose virtue no tongue dare impugn +Has at last found a Mars--who, of course, shall be nameless, +That vestal that yields to Mars ONLY is blameless! +Hark! hears he a name which, thus syllabled, stirs +All his heart into tumult? . . . Lucile de Nevers +With the Duke's coupled gayly, in some laughing, light, +Free allusion? Not so as might give him the right +To turn fiercely round on the speaker, but yet +To a trite and irreverent compliment set! + + +XVIII. + + +Slowly, slowly, usurping that place in his soul +Where the thought of Lucile was enshrined, did there roll +Back again, back again, on its smooth downward course +O'er his nature, with gather'd momentum and force, +THE WORLD. + + +XIX. + + + "No!" he mutter'd, "she cannot have sinn'd! +True! women there are (self-named women of mind!) +Who love rather liberty--liberty, yes! +To choose and to leave--than the legalized stress +Of the lovingest marriage. But she--is she so? +I will not believe it. Lucile! O no, no! +Not Lucile! + "But the world? and, ah, what would it say? +O the look of that man, and his laughter, to-day! +The gossip's light question! the slanderous jest! +She is right! no, we could not be happy. 'Tis best +As it is. I will write to her--write, O my heart! +And accept her farewell. OUR farewell! must we part-- +Part thus, then--forever, Lucile? Is it so? +Yes! I feel it. We could not be happy, I know. +'Twas a dream! we must waken!" + + +XX. + + + With head bow'd, as though +By the weight of the heart's resignation, and slow +Moody footsteps, he turned to his inn. + Drawn apart +From the gate, in the courtyard, and ready to start, +Postboys mounted, portmanteaus packed up and made fast, +A travelling-carriage, unnoticed, he pass'd. +He order'd his horse to be ready anon: +Sent, and paid, for the reckoning, and slowly pass'd on, +And ascended the staircase, and enter'd his room. +It was twilight. The chamber was dark in the gloom +Of the evening. He listlessly kindled a light +On the mantel-piece; there a large card caught his sight-- +A large card, a stout card, well-printed and plain, +Nothing flourishing, flimsy, affected, or vain. +It gave a respectable look to the slab +That it lay on. The name was-- + + SIR RIDLEY MACNAB. + +Full familiar to him was the name that he saw, +For 'twas that of his own future uncle-in-law. +Mrs. Darcy's rich brother, the banker, well known +As wearing the longest philacteried gown +Of all the rich Pharisees England can boast of, +A shrewd Puritan Scot, whose sharp wits made the most of +This world and the next; having largely invested +Not only where treasure is never molested +By thieves, moth, or rust; but on this earthly ball +Where interest was high, and security small. +Of mankind there was never a theory yet +Not by some individual instance upset: +And so to that sorrowful verse of the Psalm +Which declares that the wicked expand like the palm +In a world where the righteous are stunted and pent, +A cheering exception did Ridley present. +Like the worthy of Uz, Heaven prosper'd his piety. +The leader of every religious society, +Christian knowledge he labor'd t though life to promote +With personal profit, and knew how to quote +Both the Stocks and the Scripture, with equal advantage +To himself and admiring friends, in this Cant-Age. + + +XXI. + + +Whilst over this card Alfred vacantly brooded, +A waiter his head through the doorway protruded; +"Sir Ridley MacNab with Milord wish'd to speak." +Alfred Vargrave could feel there were tears on his cheek; +He brushed them away with a gesture of pride. +He glanced at the glass; when his own face he eyed, +He was scared by its pallor. Inclining his head, +He with tones calm, unshaken, and silvery, said, +"Sir Ridley may enter." + In three minutes more +That benign apparition appeared at the door. +Sir Ridley, released for a while from the cares +Of business, and minded to breathe the pure airs +Of the blue Pyrenees, and enjoy his release, +In company there with his sister and niece, +Found himself now at Luchon--distributing tracts, +Sowing seed by the way, and collecting new facts +For Exeter Hall; he was starting that night +For Bigorre: he had heard, to his cordial delight, +That Lord Alfred was there, and, himself, setting out +For the same destination: impatient, no doubt! +Here some commonplace compliments as to "the marriage +Through his speech trickled softly, like honey: his carriage +Was ready. A storm seem'd to threaten the weather; +If his young friend agreed, why not travel together? +With a footstep uncertain and restless, a frown +Of perplexity, during this speech, up and down +Alfred Vargrave was striding; but, after a pause +And a slight hesitation, the which seem'd to cause +Some surprise to Sir Ridley, he answer'd--"My dear +Sir Ridley, allow me a few moments here-- +Half an hour at the most--to conclude an affair +Of a nature so urgent as hardly to spare +My presence (which brought me, indeed, to this spot), +Before I accept your kind offer." + "Why not?" +Said Sir Ridley, and smiled. Alfred Vargrave, before +Sir Ridley observed it, had pass'd through the door. +A few moments later, with footsteps revealing +Intense agitation of uncontroll'd feeling, +He was rapidly pacing the garden below. +What pass'd through his mind then is more than I know. +But before one half-hour into darkness had fled, +In the courtyard he stood with Sir Ridley. His tread +Was firm and composed. Not a sign on his face +Betrayed there the least agitation. "The place +You so kindly have offer'd," he said, "I accept." +And he stretch'd out his hand. The two travellers stepp'd +Smiling into the carriage. + And thus, out of sight, +They drove down the dark road, and into the night. + + +XXII. + + +Sir Ridley was one of those wise men who, so far +As their power of saying it goes, say with Zophar, +"We, no doubt, are the people, and wisdom shall die with us!" +Though of wisdom like theirs there is no small supply with us. +Side by side in the carriage ensconced, the two men +Began to converse somewhat drowsily, when +Alfred suddenly thought--"Here's a man of ripe age, +At my side, by his fellows reputed as sage, +Who looks happy, and therefore who must have been wise; +Suppose I with caution reveal to his eyes +Some few of the reasons which make me believe +That I neither am happy nor wise? 'twould relieve +And enlighten, perchance, my own darkness and doubt." +For which purpose a feeler he softly put out. +It was snapp'd up at once. + "What is truth? "jesting Pilate +Ask'd, and pass'd from the question at once with a smile at +Its utter futility. Had he address'd it +To Ridley MacNab, he at least had confess'd it +Admitted discussion! and certainly no man +Could more promptly have answer'd the sceptical Roman +Than Ridley. Hear some street astronomer talk! +Grant him two or three hearers, a morsel of chalk, +And forthwith on the pavement he'll sketch you the scheme +Of the heavens. Then hear him enlarge on his theme! +Not afraid of La Place, nor of Arago, he! +He'll prove you the whole plan in plain A B C. +Here's your sun--call him A; B's the moon; it is clear +How the rest of the alphabet brings up the rear +Of the planets. Now ask Arago, ask La Place, +(Your sages, who speak with the heavens face to face!) +Their science in plain A B C to accord +To your point-blank inquiry, my friends! not a word +Will you get for your pains from their sad lips. Alas! +Not a drop from the bottle that's quite full will pass. +'Tis the half-empty vessel that freest emits +The water that's in it. 'Tis thus with men's wits; +Or at least with their knowledge. A man's capability +Of imparting to others a truth with facility +Is proportion'd forever with painful exactness +To the portable nature, the vulgar compactness, +The minuteness in size, or the lightness in weight, +Of the truth he imparts. So small coins circulate +More freely than large ones. A beggar asks alms, +And we fling him a sixpence, nor feel any qualms; +But if every street charity shook an investment, +Or each beggar to clothe we must strip off a vestment, +The length of the process would limit the act; +And therefore the truth that's summ'd up in a tract +Is most lightly dispensed. + As for Alfred, indeed, +On what spoonfuls of truth he was suffer'd to feed +By Sir Ridley, I know not. This only I know, +That the two men thus talking continued to go +Onward somehow, together--on into the night-- +The midnight--in which they escape from our sight. + + +XXIII. + + +And meanwhile a world had been changed in its place, +And those glittering chains that o'er blue balmy space +Hang the blessing of darkness, had drawn out of sight +To solace unseen hemispheres, the soft night; +And the dew of the dayspring benignly descended, +And the fair morn to all things new sanction extended, +In the smile of the East. And the lark soaring on, +Lost in light, shook the dawn with a song from the sun. +And the world laugh'd. + It wanted but two rosy hours +From the noon, when they pass'd through the thick passion flowers +Of the little wild garden that dimpled before +The small house where their carriage now stopp'd at Bigorre. +And more fair than the flowers, more fresh than the dew, +With her white morning robe flitting joyously through +The dark shrubs with which the soft hillside was clothed, +Alfred Vargrave perceived, where he paused, his betrothed. +Matilda sprang to him, at once, with a face +Of such sunny sweetness, such gladness, such grace, +And radiant confidence, childlike delight, +That his whole heart upbraided itself at that sight. +And he murmur'd, or sigh'd, "O, how could I have stray'd +From this sweet child, or suffer'd in aught to invade +Her young claim on my life, though it were for an hour, +The thought of another?" + "Look up, my sweet flower!" +He whisper'd her softly," my heart unto thee +Is return'd, as returns to the rose the wild bee!" +"And will wander no more?" laughed Matilda. + "No more," +He repeated. And, low to himself, "Yes, 'tis o'er! +My course, too, is decided, Lucile! Was I blind +To have dream'd that these clever Frenchwomen of mind +Could satisfy simply a plain English heart, +Or sympathize with it?" + + +XXIV. + + + And here the first part +Of the drama is over. The curtain falls furl'd +On the actors within it--the Heart, and the World. +Woo'd and wooer have play'd with the riddle of life,-- +Have they solved it? + Appear! answer, Husband and Wife. + + +XXV. + + +Yet, ere bidding farewell to Lucile de Nevers, +Hear her own heart's farewell in this letter of hers. + +THE COMTESSE DE NEVERS TO A FRIEND IN INDIA. + +"Once more, O my friend, to your arms and your heart, +And the places of old . . . never, never to part! +Once more to the palm, and the fountain! Once more +To the land of my birth, and the deep skies of yore +From the cities of Europe, pursued by the fret +Of their turmoil wherever my footsteps are set; +From the children that cry for the birth, and behold, +There is no strength to bear them--old Time is SO old! +From the world's weary masters, that come upon earth +Sapp'd and mined by the fever they bear from their birth: +From the men of small stature, mere parts of a crowd, +Born too late, when the strength of the world hath been bow'd; +Back,--back to the Orient, from whose sunbright womb +Sprang the giants which now are no more, in the bloom +And the beauty of times that are faded forever! +To the palms! to the tombs! to the still Sacred River! +Where I too, the child of a day that is done, +First leaped into life, and look'd up at the sun, +Back again, back again, to the hill-tops of home +I come, O my friend, my consoler, I come! +Are the three intense stars, that we watch'd night by night +Burning broad on the band of Orion, as bright? +Are the large Indian moons as serene as of old, +When, as children, we gather'd the moonbeams for gold? +Do you yet recollect me, my friend? Do you still +Remember the free games we play'd on the hill, +'Mid those huge stones up-heav'd, where we recklessly trod +O'er the old ruin'd fane of the old ruin'd god? +How he frown'd while around him we carelessly play'd! +That frown on my life ever after hath stay'd, +Like the shade of a solemn experience upcast +From some vague supernatural grief in the past. +For the poor god, in pain, more than anger, he frown'd, +To perceive that our youth, though so fleeting, had found, +In its transient and ignorant gladness, the bliss +Which his science divine seem'd divinely to miss. +Alas! you may haply remember me yet +The free child, whose glad childhood myself I forget. +I come--a sad woman, defrauded of rest: +I bear to you only a laboring breast: +My heart is a storm-beaten ark, wildly hurl'd +O'er the whirlpools of time, with the wrecks of a world: +The dove from my bosom hath flown far away: +It is flown and returns not, though many a day +Have I watch'd from the windows of life for its coming. +Friend, I sigh for repose, I am weary of roaming. +I know not what Ararat rises for me +Far away, o'er the waves of the wandering sea: +I know not what rainbow may yet, from far hills, +Lift the promise of hope, the cessation of ills: +But a voice, like the voice of my youth, in my breast +Wakes and whispers me on--to the East! to the East! +Shall I find the child's heart that I left there? or find +The lost youth I recall with its pure peace of mind? +Alas! who shall number the drops of the rain? +Or give to the dead leaves their greenness again? +Who shall seal up the caverns the earthquake hath rent? +Who shall bring forth the winds that within them are pent? +To a voice who shall render an image? or who +From the heats of the noontide shall gather the dew? +I have burn'd out within me the fuel of life. +Wherefore lingers the flame? Rest is sweet after strife. +I would sleep for a while. I am weary. + "My friend, +I had meant in these lines to regather, and send +To our old home, my life's scatter'd links. But 'tis vain! +Each attempt seems to shatter the chaplet again; +Only fit now for fingers like mine to run o'er, +Who return, a recluse, to those cloisters of yore +Whence too far I have wander'd. + "How many long years +Does it seem to me now since the quick, scorching tears, +While I wrote to you, splash'd out a girl's premature +Moans of pain at what women in silence endure! +To your eyes, friend of mine, and to your eyes alone, +That now long-faded page of my life hath been shown +Which recorded my heart's birth, and death, as you know, +Many years since,--how many! + "A few months ago +I seem'd reading it backward, that page! Why explain +Whence or how? The old dream of my life rose again. +The old superstition! the idol of old! +It is over. The leaf trodden down in the mould +Is not to the forest more lost than to me +That emotion. I bury it here by the sea +Which will bear me anon far away from the shore +Of a land which my footsteps will visit no more. +And a heart's requiescat I write on that grave. +Hark! the sigh of the wind, and the sound of the wave, +Seem like voices of spirits that whisper me home! +I come, O you whispering voices, I come! +My friend, ask me nothing. + "Receive me alone +As a Santon receives to his dwelling of stone +In silence some pilgrim the midnight may bring: +It may be an angel that, weary of wing, +Hath paused in his flight from some city of doom, +Or only a wayfarer stray'd in the gloom. +This only I know: that in Europe at least +Lives the craft or the power that must master our East. +Wherefore strive where the gods must themselves yield at last? +Both they and their altars pass by with the Past. +The gods of the household Time thrust from the shelf; +And I seem as unreal and weird to myself +As those idols of old. + "Other times, other men, +Other men, other passions! + "So be it! yet again +I turned to my birthplace, the birthplace of morn, +And the light of those lands where the great sun is born! +Spread your arms, O my friend! on your breast let me feel +The repose which hath fled from my own. + "Your LUCILE." + + + +PART II. + + +CANTO I. + + +I. + + +Hail, Muse! But each Muse by this time has, I know, +Been used up, and Apollo has bent his own bow +All too long; so I leave unassaulted the portal +Of Olympus, and only invoke here a mortal. + +Hail, Murray!--not Lindley,--but Murray and Son. +Hail, omniscient, beneficent, great Two-in-One! +In Albermarle Street may thy temple long stand! +Long enlighten'd and led by thine erudite hand, +May each novice in science nomadic unravel +Statistical mazes of modernized travel! +May each inn-keeper knave long thy judgment revere, +And the postboys of Europe regard thee with fear; +While they feel, in the silence of baffled extortion, +That knowledge is power! Long, long, like that portion +Of the national soil which the Greek exile took +In his baggage wherever he went, may thy book +Cheer each poor British pilgrim, who trusts to thy wit +Not to pay through his nose just for following it! +May'st thou long, O instructor! preside o'er his way, +And teach him alike what to praise and to pay! +Thee, pursuing this pathway of song, once again +I invoke, lest, unskill'd, I should wander in vain. +To my call be propitious, nor, churlish, refuse +Thy great accents to lend to the lips of my Muse; +For I sing of the Naiads who dwell 'mid the stems +Of the green linden-trees by the waters of Ems. +Yes! thy spirit descends upon mine, O John Murray! +And I start--with thy book--for the Baths in a hurry. + + +II. + + +"At Coblentz a bridge of boats crosses the Rhine; +And from thence the road, winding by Ehrenbreitstein, +Passes over the frontier of Nassua. + ("N. B. +No custom-house here since the Zollverein." See +Murray, paragraph 30.) + "The route, at each turn, +Here the lover of nature allows to discern, +In varying prospect, a rich wooded dale: +The vine and acacia-tree mostly prevail +In the foliage observable here: and, moreover, +The soil is carbonic. The road, under cover +Of the grape-clad and mountainous upland that hems +Round this beautiful spot, brings the traveller to--"EMS. +A Schnellpost from Frankfort arrives every day. +At the Kurhaus (the old Ducal mansion) you pay +Eight florins for lodgings. A Restaurateur +Is attach'd to the place; but most travellers prefer +(Including, indeed, many persons of note) +To dine at the usual-priced table d'hote. +Through the town runs the Lahn, the steep green banks of which +Two rows of white picturesque houses enrich; +And between the high road and the river is laid +Out a sort of a garden, call'd 'THE Promenade.' +Female visitors here, who may make up their mind +To ascend to the top of these mountains, will find +On the banks of the stream, saddled all the day long, +Troops of donkeys--sure-footed--proverbially strong;" +And the traveller at Ems may remark, as he passes, +Here, as elsewhere, the women run after the asses. + + +III. + + +'Mid the world's weary denizens bound for these springs +In the month when the merle on the maple-bough sings, +Pursued to the place from dissimilar paths +By a similar sickness, there came to the Baths +Four sufferers--each stricken deep through the heart, +Or the head, by the self-same invisible dart +Of the arrow that flieth unheard in the noon, +From the sickness that walketh unseen in the moon, +Through this great lazaretto of life, wherein each +Infects with his own sores the next within reach. +First of these were a young English husband and wife, +Grown weary ere half through the journey of life. +O Nature, say where, thou gray mother of earth, +Is the strength of thy youth? that thy womb brings to birth +Only old men to-day! On the winds, as of old, +Thy voice in its accent is joyous and bold; +Thy forests are green as of yore; and thine oceans +Yet move in the might of their ancient emotions: +But man--thy last birth and thy best--is no more +Life's free lord, that look'd up to the starlight of yore, +With the faith on the brow, and the fire in the eyes, +The firm foot on the earth, the high heart in the skies; +But a gray-headed infant, defrauded of youth, +Born too late or too early. + The lady, in truth, +Was young, fair, and gentle; and never was given +To more heavenly eyes the pure azure of heaven. +Never yet did the sun touch to ripples of gold +Tresses brighter than those which her soft hand unroll'd +From her noble and innocent brow, when she rose, +An Aurora, at dawn, from her balmy repose, +And into the mirror the bloom and the blush +Of her beauty broke, glowing; like light in a gush +From the sunrise in summer. + Love, roaming, shall meet +But rarely a nature more sound or more sweet-- +Eyes brighter--brows whiter--a figure more fair-- +Or lovelier lengths of more radiant hair-- +Than thine, Lady Alfred! And here I aver +(May those that have seen thee declare if I err) +That not all the oysters in Britain contain +A pearl pure as thou art. + Let some one explain,-- +Who may know more than I of the intimate life +Of the pearl with the oyster,--why yet in his wife, +In despite of her beauty--and most when he felt +His soul to the sense of her loveliness melt-- +Lord Alfred miss'd something he sought for: indeed, +The more that he miss'd it the greater the need; +Till it seem'd to himself he could willingly spare +All the charms that he found for the one charm not there. + + +IV. + + +For the blessings Life lends us, it strictly demands +The worth of their full usufruct at our hands. +And the value of all things exists, not indeed +In themselves, but man's use of them, feeding man's need. +Alfred Vargrave, in wedding with beauty and youth, +Had embraced both Ambition and Wealth. Yet in truth +Unfulfill'd the ambition, and sterile the wealth +(In a life paralyzed by a moral ill-health), +Had remain'd, while the beauty and youth, unredeem'd +From a vague disappointment at all things, but seem'd +Day by day to reproach him in silence for all +That lost youth in himself they had fail'd to recall. +No career had he follow'd, no object obtain'd +In the world by those worldly advantages gain'd +From nuptials beyond which once seem'd to appear, +Lit by love, the broad path of a brilliant career. +All that glitter'd and gleam'd through the moonlight of youth +With a glory so fair, now that manhood in truth +Grasp'd and gather'd it, seem'd like that false fairy gold +Which leaves in the hand only moss, leaves, and mould! + + +V. + + +Fairy gold! moss and leaves! and the young Fairy Bride? +Lived there yet fairy-lands in the face at his side? +Say, O friend, if at evening thou ever hast watch'd +Some pale and impalpable vapor, detach'd +From the dim and disconsolate earth, rise and fall +O'er the light of a sweet serene star, until all +The chill'd splendor reluctantly waned in the deep +Of its own native heaven? Even so seem'd to creep +O'er that fair and ethereal face, day by day, +While the radiant vermeil, subsiding away, +Hid its light in the heart, the faint gradual veil +Of a sadness unconscious. + The lady grew pale +As silent her lord grew: and both, as they eyed +Each the other askance, turn'd, and secretly sigh'd. +Ah, wise friend, what avails all experience can give? +True, we know what life is--but, alas! do we live? +The grammar of life we have gotten by heart, +But life's self we have made a dead language--an art, +Not a voice. Could we speak it, but once, as 'twas spoken +When the silence of passion the first time was broken! +Cuvier knew the world better than Adam, no doubt; +But the last man, at best, was but learned about +What the first, without learning, ENJOYED. What art thou +To the man of to-day, O Leviathan, now? +A science. What wert thou to him that from ocean +First beheld thee appear? A surprise,--an emotion! +When life leaps in the veins, when it beats in the heart, +When it thrills as it fills every animate part, +Where lurks it? how works it? . . . We scarcely detect it. +But life goes: the heart dies: haste, O leech, and dissect it! +This accursed aesthetical, ethical age +Hath so finger'd life's hornbook, so blurr'd every page, +That the old glad romance, the gay chivalrous story +With its fables of faery, its legends of glory, +Is turn'd to a tedious instruction, not new +To the children that read it insipidly through. +We know too much of Love ere we love. We can trace +Nothing new, unexpected, or strange in his face +When we see it at last. 'Tis the same little Cupid, +With the same dimpled cheek, and the smile almost stupid, +We have seen in our pictures, and stuck on our shelves, +And copied a hundred times over, ourselves, +And wherever we turn, and whatever we do, +Still, that horrible sense of the deja connu! + + +VI. + + +Perchance 'twas the fault of the life that they led; +Perchance 'twas the fault of the novels they read; +Perchance 'twas a fault in themselves; I am bound not +To say: this I know--that these two creatures found not +In each other some sign they expected to find +Of a something unnamed in the heart or the mind; +And, missing it, each felt a right to complain +Of a sadness which each found no word to explain. +Whatever it was, the world noticed not it +In the light-hearted beauty, the light-hearted wit. +Still, as once with the actors in Greece, 'tis the case, +Each must speak to the crowd with a mask on his face. +Praise follow'd Matilda wherever she went, +She was flatter'd. Can flattery purchase content? +Yes. While to its voice for a moment she listen'd, +The young cheek still bloom'd and the soft eyes still glisten'd; +And her lord, when, like one of those light vivid things +That glide down the gauzes of summer with wings +Of rapturous radiance, unconscious she moved +Through that buzz of inferior creatures, which proved +Her beauty, their envy, one moment forgot, +'Mid the many charms there, the one charm that was not: +And when o'er her beauty enraptured he bow'd, +(As they turn'd to each other, each flush'd from the crowd,) +And murmur'd those praises which yet seem'd more dear +Than the praises of others had grown to her ear, +She, too, ceased awhile her own fate to regret: +"Yes! . . . he loves me," she sigh'd; "this is love, then--and YET!" + + +VII. + + +Ah, that YET! fatal word! 'tis the moral of all +Thought and felt, seen or done, in this world since the Fall! +It stands at the end of each sentence we learn; +It flits in the vista of all we discern; +It leads us, forever and ever, away +To find in to-morrow what flies with to-day. +'Twas the same little fatal and mystical word +That now, like a mirage, led my lady and lord +To the waters of Ems from the waters of Marah; +Drooping Pilgrims in Fashion's blank, arid Sahara! + + +VIII. + + +At the same time, pursued by a spell much the same, +To these waters two other worn pilgrims there came: +One a man, one a woman: just now, at the latter, +As the Reader I mean by and by to look at her +And judge for himself, I will not even glance. + + +IX. + + +Of the self-crown'd young kings of the Fashion in France +Whose resplendent regalia so dazzled the sight, +Whose horse was so perfect, whose boots were so bright, +Who so hail'd in the salon, so mark'd in the Bois, +Who so welcomed by all, as Eugene de Luvois? +Of all the smooth-brow'd premature debauchees +In that town of all towns, where Debauchery sees +On the forehead of youth her mark everywhere graven,-- +In Paris I mean,--where the streets are all paven +By those two fiends whom Milton saw bridging the way +From Hell to this planet,--who, haughty and gay, +The free rebel of life, bound or led by no law, +Walk'd that causeway as bold as Eugene de Luvois? +Yes! he march'd through the great masquerade, loud of tongue, +Bold of brow: but the motley he mask'd in, it hung +So loose, trail'd so wide, and appear'd to impede +So strangely at times the vex'd effort at speed, +That a keen eye might guess it was made--not for him, +But some brawler more stalwart of stature and limb. +That it irk'd him, in truth, you at times could divine, +For when low was the music, and spilt was the wine, +He would clutch at the garment, as though it oppress'd +And stifled some impulse that choked in his breast. + + +X. + + +What! he, . . . the light sport of his frivolous ease! +Was he, too, a prey to a mortal disease? +My friend, hear a parable: ponder it well: +For a moral there is in the tale that I tell. +One evening I sat in the Palais Royal, +And there, while I laugh'd at Grassot and Arnal, +My eye fell on the face of a man at my side; +Every time that he laugh'd I observed that he sigh'd, +As though vex'd to be pleased. I remark'd that he sat +Ill at ease on his seat, and kept twirling his hat +In his hand, with a look of unquiet abstraction. +I inquired the cause of his dissatisfaction. +"Sir," he said, "if what vexes me here you would know, +Learn that, passing this way some few half-hours ago, +I walk'd into the Francais, to look at Rachel. +(Sir, that woman in Phedre is a miracle!)--Well, +I ask'd for a box: they were occupied all: +For a seat in the balcony: all taken! a stall: +Taken too: the whole house was as full as could be,-- +Not a hole for a rat! I had just time to see +The lady I love tete-a-tete with a friend +In a box out of reach at the opposite end: +Then the crowd push'd me out. What was left me to do? +I tried for the tragedy . . . que voulez-vous? +Every place for the tragedy book'd! . . . mon ami. +The farce was close by: . . . at the farce me voici. +The piece is a new one: and Grassot plays well: +There is drollery, too, in that fellow Ravel: +And Hyacinth's nose is superb: . . . yet I meant +My evening elsewhere, and not thus to have spent. +Fate orders these things by her will, not by ours! +Sir, mankind is the sport of invisible powers." + +I once met the Duc de Luvois for a moment; +And I mark'd, when his features I fix'd in my comment, +O'er those features the same vague disquietude stray +I had seen on the face of my friend at the play; +And I thought that he too, very probably, spent +His evenings not wholly as first he had meant. + + +XI. + + +O source of the holiest joys we inherit, +O Sorrow, thou solemn, invisible spirit! +Ill fares it with man when, through life's desert sand, +Grown impatient too soon for the long-promised land, +He turns from the worship of thee, as thou art, +An expressless and imageless truth in the heart, +And takes of the jewels of Egypt, the pelf +And the gold of the Godless, to make to himself +A gaudy, idolatrous image of thee, +And then bows to the sound of the cymbal the knee. +The sorrows we make to ourselves are false gods: +Like the prophets of Baal, our bosoms with rods +We may smite, we may gash at our hearts till they bleed, +But these idols are blind, deaf, and dumb to our need. +The land is athirst, and cries out! . . . 'tis in vain; +The great blessing of Heaven descends not in rain. + + +XII. + + +It was night; and the lamps were beginning to gleam +Through the long linden-trees, folded each in his dream, +From that building which looks like a temple . . . and is +The Temple of--Health? Nay, but enter! I wis +That never the rosy-hued deity knew +One votary out of that sallow-cheek'd crew +Of Courlanders, Wallacs, Greeks, affable Russians, +Explosive Parisians, potato-faced Prussians; +Jews--Hamburghers chiefly;--pure patriots,--Suabians;-- +"Cappadocians and Elamites, Cretes and Arabians, +And the dwellers in Pontus" . . . My muse will not weary +More lines with the list of them . . . cur fremuere? +What is it they murmur, and mutter, and hum? +Into what Pandemonium is Pentecost come? +Oh, what is the name of the god at whose fane +Every nation is mix'd in so motley a train? +What weird Kabala lies on those tables outspread? +To what oracle turns with attention each head? +What holds these pale worshippers each so devout, +And what are those hierophants busied about? + + +XIII. + + +Here passes, repasses, and flits to and fro, +And rolls without ceasing the great Yes and No: +Round this altar alternate the weird Passions dance, +And the God worshipp'd here is the old God of Chance. +Through the wide-open doors of the distant saloon +Flute, hautboy, and fiddle are squeaking in tune; +And an indistinct music forever is roll'd, +That mixes and chimes with the chink of the gold, +From a vision, that flits in a luminous haze, +Of figures forever eluding the gaze; +It fleets through the doorway, it gleams on the glass, +And the weird words pursue it--Rouge, Impair, et Passe! +Like a sound borne in sleep through such dreams as encumber +With haggard emotions the wild wicked slumber +Of some witch when she seeks, through a nightmare, to grab at +The hot hoof of the fiend, on her way to the Sabbat. + + +XIV. + + +The Duc de Luvois and Lord Alfred had met +Some few evenings ago (for the season as yet +Was but young) in this selfsame Pavilion of Chance. +The idler from England, the idler from France, +Shook hands, each, of course, with much cordial pleasure: +An acquaintance at Ems is to most men a treasure, +And they both were too well-bred in aught to betray +One discourteous remembrance of things pass'd away. +'Twas a sight that was pleasant, indeed, to be seen, +These friends exchange greetings;--the men who had been +Foes so nearly in days that were past. + This, no doubt, +Is why, on the night I am speaking about, +My Lord Alfred sat down by himself at roulette, +Without one suspicion his bosom to fret, +Although he had left, with his pleasant French friend, +Matilda, half vex'd, at the room's farthest end. + + +XV. + + +Lord Alfred his combat with Fortune began +With a few modest thalers--away they all ran-- +The reserve follow'd fast in the rear. As his purse +Grew lighter his spirits grew sensibly worse. +One needs not a Bacon to find a cause for it: +'Tis an old law in physics--Natura abhorret +Vacuum--and my lord, as he watch'd his last crown +Tumble into the bank, turn'd away with a frown +Which the brows of Napoleon himself might have deck'd +On that day of all days when an empire was wreck'd +On thy plain, Waterloo, and he witness'd the last +Of his favorite Guard cut to pieces, aghast! +Just then Alfred felt, he could scarcely tell why, +Within him the sudden strange sense that some eye +Had long been intently regarding him there,-- +That some gaze was upon him too searching to bear. +He rose and look'd up. Was it fact? Was it fable? +Was it dream? Was it waking? Across the green table, +That face, with its features so fatally known-- +Those eyes, whose deep gaze answer'd strangely his own +What was it? Some ghost from its grave come again? +Some cheat of a feverish, fanciful brain? +Or was it herself with those deep eyes of hers, +And that face unforgotten?--Lucile de Nevers! + + +XVI. + + +Ah, well that pale woman a phantom might seem, +Who appear'd to herself but the dream of a dream! +'Neath those features so calm, that fair forehead so hush'd, +That pale cheek forever by passion unflush'd, +There yawn'd an insatiate void, and there heaved +A tumult of restless regrets unrelieved. +The brief noon of beauty was passing away, +And the chill of the twilight fell, silent and gray, +O'er that deep, self-perceived isolation of soul. +And now, as all around her the dim evening stole, +With its weird desolations, she inwardly grieved +For the want of that tender assurance received +From the warmth of a whisper, the glance of an eye, +Which should say, or should look, "Fear thou naught,--I am by!" +And thus, through that lonely and self-fix'd existence, +Crept a vague sense of silence, and horror, and distance: +A strange sort of faint-footed fear,--like a mouse +That comes out, when 'tis dark, in some old ducal house +Long deserted, where no one the creature can scare, +And the forms on the arras are all that move there. + +In Rome,--in the Forum,--there open'd one night +A gulf. All the augurs turn'd pale at the sight. +In this omen the anger of Heaven they read. +Men consulted the gods: then the oracle said:-- +"Ever open this gulf shall endure, till at last +That which Rome hath most precious within it be cast." +The Romans threw in it their corn and their stuff, +But the gulf yawn'd as wide. Rome seem'd likely enough +To be ruin'd ere this rent in her heart she could choke. +Then Curtius, revering the oracle, spoke: +"O Quirites! to this Heaven's question is come: +What to Rome is most precious? The manhood of Rome." +He plunged, and the gulf closed. + The tale is not new; +But the moral applies many ways, and is true. +How, for hearts rent in twain, shall the curse be destroy'd? +'Tis a warm human one that must fill up the void. +Through many a heart runs the rent in the fable; +But who to discover a Curtius is able? + + +XVII. + + +Back she came from her long hiding-place, at the source +Of the sunrise; where, fair in their fabulous course, +Run the rivers of Eden: an exile again, +To the cities of Europe--the scenes, and the men, +And the life, and the ways, she had left: still oppress'd +With the same hungry heart, and unpeaceable breast. +The same, to the same things! The world she had quitted +With a sigh, with a sigh she re-enter'd. Soon flitted +Through the salons and clubs, to the great satisfaction +Of Paris, the news of a novel attraction. +The enchanting Lucile, the gay Countess, once more, +To her old friend, the World, had reopen'd her door; +The World came, and shook hands, and was pleased and amused +With what the World then went away and abused. +From the woman's fair fame it in naught could detract: +'Twas the woman's free genius it vex'd and attack'd +With a sneer at her freedom of action and speech. +But its light careless cavils, in truth, could not reach +The lone heart they aim'd at. Her tears fell beyond +The world's limit, to feel that the world could respond +To that heart's deepest, innermost yearning, in naught, +'Twas no longer this earth's idle inmates she sought: +The wit of the woman sufficed to engage +In the woman's gay court the first men of the age. +Some had genius; and all, wealth of mind to confer +On the world: but that wealth was not lavish'd for her. +For the genius of man, though so human indeed, +When call'd out to man's help by some great human need, +The right to a man's chance acquaintance refuses +To use what it hoards for mankind's nobler uses. +Genius touches the world at but one point alone +Of that spacious circumference, never quite known +To the world; all the infinite number of lines +That radiate thither a mere point combines, +But one only,--some central affection apart +From the reach of the world, in which Genius is Heart, +And love, life's fine centre, includes heart and mind, +And therefore it was that Lucile sigh'd to find +Men of genius appear, one and all in her ken, +When they stoop'd themselves to it, as mere clever men; +Artists, statesmen, and they in whose works are unfurl'd +Worlds new-fashioned for man, as mere men of the world. +And so, as alone now she stood, in the sight +Of the sunset of youth, with her face from the light, +And watch'd her own shadow grow long at her feet, +As though stretch'd out, the shade of some OTHER to meet, +The woman felt homeless and childless: in scorn +She seem'd mock'd by the voices of children unborn; +And when from these sombre reflections away +She turn'd, with a sigh, to that gay world, more gay +For her presence within it, she knew herself friendless; +That her path led from peace, and that path appear'd endless! +That even her beauty had been but a snare, +And her wit sharpen'd only the edge of despair. + + +XVIII. + + +With a face all transfigured and flush'd by surprise, +Alfred turn'd to Lucile. With those deep searching eyes +She look'd into his own. Not a word that she said, +Not a look, not a blush, one emotion betray'd. +She seem'd to smile through him, at something beyond: +When she answer'd his questions, she seem'd to respond +To some voice in herself. With no trouble descried, +To each troubled inquiry she calmly replied. +Not so he. At the sight of that face back again +To his mind came the ghost of a long-stifled pain, +A remember'd resentment, half check'd by a wild +And relentful regret like a motherless child +Softly seeking admittance, with plaintive appeal, +To the heart which resisted its entrance. + Lucile +And himself thus, however, with freedom allow'd +To old friends, talking still side by side, left the crowd +By the crowd unobserved. Not unnoticed, however, +By the Duke and Matilda. Matilda had never +Seen her husband's new friend. + She had follow'd by chance, +Or by instinct, the sudden half-menacing glance +Which the Duke, when he witness'd their meeting, had turn'd +On Lucile and Lord Alfred; and, scared, she discern'd +On his feature the shade of a gloom so profound +That she shudder'd instinctively. Deaf to the sound +Of her voice, to some startled inquiry of hers +He replied not, but murmur'd, "Lucile de Nevers +Once again then? so be it!" In the mind of that man, +At that moment, there shaped itself vaguely the plan +Of a purpose malignant and dark, such alone +(To his own secret heart but imperfectly shown) +As could spring from the cloudy, fierce chaos of thought +By which all his nature to tumult was wrought. + + +XIX. + + +"So!" he thought, "they meet thus: and reweave the old charm! +And she hangs on his voice, and she leans on his arm, +And she heeds me not, seeks me not, recks not of me! +Oh, what if I show'd her that I, too, can be +Loved by one--her own rival--more fair and more young?" +The serpent rose in him; a serpent which, stung, +Sought to sting. + Each unconscious, indeed, of the eye +Fix'd upon them, Lucile and my lord saunter'd by, +In converse which seem'd to be earnest. A smile +Now and then seem'd to show where their thoughts touch'd. Meanwhile +The muse of this story, convinced that they need her, +To the Duke and Matilda returns, gentle Reader. + + +XX. + + +The Duke with that sort of aggressive false praise +Which is meant a resentful remonstrance to raise +From a listener (as sometimes a judge, just before +He pulls down the black cap, very gently goes o'er +The case for the prisoner, and deals tenderly +With the man he is minded to hang by and by), +Had referr'd to Lucile, and then stopp'd to detect +In the face of Matilda the growing effect +Of the words he had dropp'd. There's no weapon that slays +Its victim so surely (if well aim'd) as praise. +Thus, a pause on their converse had fallen: and now +Each was silent, preoccupied; thoughtful. + You know +There are moments when silence, prolong'd and unbroken, +More expressive may be than all words ever spoken. +It is when the heart has an instinct of what +In the heart of another is passing. And that +In the heart of Matilda, what was it? Whence came +To her cheek on a sudden that tremulous flame? +What weighed down her head? + All your eye could discover +Was the fact that Matilda was troubled. Moreover +That trouble the Duke's presence seem'd to renew. +She, however, broke silence, the first of the two. +The Duke was too prudent to shatter the spell +Of a silence which suited his purpose so well. +She was plucking the leaves from a pale blush rose blossom +Which had fall'n from the nosegay she wore in her bosom. +"This poor flower," she said, "seems it not out of place +In this hot, lamplit air, with its fresh, fragile grace?" +She bent her head low as she spoke. With a smile +The Duke watch'd her caressing the leaves all the while, +And continued on his side the silence. He knew +This would force his companion their talk to renew +At the point that he wish'd; and Matilda divined +The significant pause with new trouble of mind. +She lifted one moment her head; but her look +Encounter'd the ardent regard of the Duke, +And dropp'd back on her flowret abash'd. Then, still seeking +The assurance she fancied she show'd him by speaking, +She conceived herself safe in adopting again +The theme she should most have avoided just then. + + +XXI. + + +"Duke," she said, . . . and she felt, as she spoke, her cheek burn'd, +"You know, then, this . . . lady?" + "Too well!" he return'd. + +MATILDA. + +True; you drew with emotion her portrait just now. + +LUVOIS. + +With emotion? + +MATILDA. + + Yes, yes! you described her, I know, +As possess'd of a charm all unrivall'd. + +LUVOIS. + + Alas! +You mistook me completely! You, madam, surpass +This lady as moonlight does lamplight; as youth +Surpasses its best imitations; as truth +The fairest of falsehood surpasses; as nature +Surpasses art's masterpiece; ay, as the creature +Fresh and pure in its native adornment surpasses +All the charms got by heart at the world's looking-glasses! +"Yet you said,"--she continued with some trepidation, +"That you quite comprehended" . . . a slight hesitation +Shook the sentence, . . . "a passion so strong as" . . . + +LUVOIS. + + "True, true! +But not in a man that had once look'd at you. +Nor can I conceive, or excuse, or" . . . + Hush, hush!" +She broke in, all more fair for one innocent blush. +"Between man and woman these things differ so! +It may be that the world pardons . . . (how should I know?) +In you what it visits on us; or 'tis true, +It may be that we women are better than you." + +LUVOIS. + +Who denies it? Yet, madam, once more you mistake. +The world, in its judgment, some difference may make +'Twixt the man and the woman, so far as respects +Its social enchantments; but not as affects +The one sentiment which it were easy to prove, +Is the sole law we look to the moment we love. + +MATILDA. + +That may be. Yet I think I should be less severe. +Although so inexperienced in such things, I fear +I have learn'd that the heart cannot always repress +Or account for the feelings which sway it. + "Yes! yes! +That is too true, indeed!" . . . the Duke sigh'd. + And again +For one moment in silence continued the twain. + + +XXII. + + +At length the Duke slowly, as though he had needed +All this time to repress his emotions, proceeded: +"And yet! . . . what avails, then, to woman the gift +Of a beauty like yours, if it cannot uplift +Her heart from the reach of one doubt, one despair, +One pang of wrong'd love, to which women less fair +Are exposed, when they love?" + With a quick change of tone, +As though by resentment impell'd he went on:-- +"The name that you bear, it is whisper'd, you took +From love, not convention. Well, lady, . . . that look +So excited, so keen, on the face you must know +Throughout all its expressions--that rapturous glow, +Those eloquent features--significant eyes-- +Which that pale woman sees, yet betrays no surprise," +(He pointed his hand, as he spoke, to the door, +Fixing with it Lucile and Lord Alfred) . . . "before, +Have you ever once seen what just now you may view +In that face so familiar? . . . no, lady, 'tis new. +Young, lovely, and loving, no doubt, as you are, +Are you loved?" . . . + + +XXIII. + + + He look'd at her--paused--felt if thus far +The ground held yet. The ardor with which he had spoken, +This close, rapid question, thus suddenly broken, +Inspired in Matilda a vague sense of fear, +As though some indefinite danger were near. +With composure, however, at once she replied:-- +"'Tis three years since the day when I first was a bride, +And my husband I never had cause to suspect; +Nor ever have stoop'd, sir, such cause to detect. +Yet if in his looks or his acts I should see-- +See, or fancy--some moment's oblivion of me, +I trust that I too should forget it,--for you +Must have seen that my heart is my husband's." + The hue +On her cheek, with the effort wherewith to the Duke +She had uttered this vague and half-frightened rebuke, +Was white as the rose in her hand. The last word +Seem'd to die on her lip, and could scarcely be heard. +There was silence again. + A great step had been made +By the Duke in the words he that evening had said. +There, half drown'd by the music, Matilda, that night, +Had listen'd--long listen'd--no doubt, in despite +Of herself, to a voice she should never have heard, +And her heart by that voice had been troubled and stirr'd. +And so having suffer'd in silence his eye +To fathom her own, he resumed, with a sigh: + + +XXIV. + + +"Will you suffer me, lady, your thoughts to invade +By disclosing my own? The position," he said, +"In which we so strangely seem placed may excuse +The frankness and force of the words which I use. +You say that your heart is your husband's: You say +That you love him. You think so, of course, lady . . . nay, +Such a love, I admit, were a merit, no doubt. +But, trust me, no true love there can be without +Its dread penalty--jealousy. + "Well, do not start! +Until now,--either thanks to a singular art +Of supreme self-control, you have held them all down +Unreveal'd in your heart,--or you never have known +Even one of those fierce irresistible pangs +Which deep passion engenders; that anguish which hangs +On the heart like a nightmare, by jealousy bred. +But if, lady, the love you describe, in the bed +Of a blissful security thus hath reposed +Undisturb'd, with mild eyelids on happiness closed, +Were it not to expose to a peril unjust, +And most cruel, that happy repose you so trust, +To meet, to receive, and, indeed, it may be, +For how long I know not, continue to see +A woman whose place rivals yours in the life +And the heart which not only your title of wife, +But also (forgive me!) your beauty alone, +Should have made wholly yours?--You, who gave all your own! +Reflect!--'tis the peace of existence you stake +On the turn of a die. And for whose--for his sake? +While you witness this woman, the false point of view +From which she must now be regarded by you +Will exaggerate to you, whatever they be, +The charms I admit she possesses. To me +They are trivial indeed; yet to your eyes, I fear +And foresee, they will true and intrinsic appear. +Self-unconscious, and sweetly unable to guess +How more lovely by far is the grace you possess, +You will wrong your own beauty. The graces of art, +You will take for the natural charm of the heart; +Studied manners, the brilliant and bold repartee, +Will too soon in that fatal comparison be +To your fancy more fair than the sweet timid sense +Which, in shrinking, betrays its own best eloquence. +O then, lady, then, you will feel in your heart +The poisonous pain of a fierce jealous dart! +While you see her, yourself you no longer will see,-- +You will hear her, and hear not yourself,--you will be +Unhappy; unhappy, because you will deem +Your own power less great than her power will seem. +And I shall not be by your side, day by day, +In despite of your noble displeasure, to say +'You are fairer than she, as the star is more fair +Than the diamond, the brightest that beauty can wear'" + + +XXV. + + +This appeal, both by looks and by language, increased +The trouble Matilda felt grow in her breast. +Still she spoke with what calmness she could-- + "Sir, the while +I thank you," she said, with a faint scornful smile, +"For your fervor in painting my fancied distress: +Allow me the right some surprise to express +At the zeal you betray in disclosing to me +The possible depth of my own misery." +"That zeal would not startle you, madam," he said, +"Could you read in my heart, as myself I have read, +The peculiar interest which causes that zeal--" + +Matilda her terror no more could conceal. +"Duke," she answer'd in accents short, cold and severe, +As she rose from her seat, "I continue to hear; +But permit me to say, I no more understand." +"Forgive!" with a nervous appeal of the hand, +And a well-feign'd confusion of voice and of look, +"Forgive, oh, forgive me!" at once cried the Duke +"I forgot that you know me so slightly. Your leave +I entreat (from your anger those words to retrieve) +For one moment to speak of myself,--for I think +That you wrong me--" + His voice, as in pain, seem'd to sink +And tears in his eyes, as he lifted them, glisten'd. + + +XXVI. + + +Matilda, despite of herself, sat and listen'd. + + +XXVII. + + +"Beneath an exterior which seems, and may be, +Worldly, frivolous, careless, my heart hides in me," +He continued, "a sorrow which draws me to side +With all things that suffer. Nay, laugh not," he cried, +"At so strange an avowal. + "I seek at a ball, +For instance,--the beauty admired by all? +No! some plain, insignificant creature, who sits +Scorn'd of course by the beauties, and shunn'd by the wits. +All the world is accustom'd to wound, or neglect, +Or oppress, claims my heart and commands my respect. +No Quixote, I do not affect to belong, +I admit, to those charter'd redressers of wrong; +But I seek to console, where I can. 'Tis a part +Not brilliant, I own, yet its joys bring no smart." +These trite words, from the tone which he gave them, received +An appearance of truth which might well be believed +By a heart shrewder yet than Matilda's. + And so +He continued . . . "O lady! alas, could you know +What injustice and wrong in this world I have seen! +How many a woman, believed to have been +Without a regret, I have known turn aside +To burst into heartbroken tears undescried! +On how many a lip have I witness'd the smile +Which but hid what was breaking the poor heart the while!" +Said Matilda, "Your life, it would seem, then, must be +One long act of devotion" + "Perhaps so," said he; +"But at least that devotion small merit can boast, +For one day may yet come,--if ONE day at the most,-- +When, perceiving at last all the difference--how great!-- +Twixt the heart that neglects, and the heart that can wait, +Twixt the natures that pity, the natures that pain, +Some woman, that else might have pass'd in disdain +Or indifference by me,--in passing that day +Might pause with a word or a smile to repay +This devotion,--and then" . . . + + +XXVIII. + + + To Matilda's relief +At that moment her husband approach'd. + With some grief +I must own that her welcome, perchance, was express'd +The more eagerly just for one twinge in her breast +Of a conscience disturb'd, and her smile not less warm, +Though she saw the Comtesse de Nevers on his arm. +The Duke turn'd and adjusted his collar. + Thought he, +"Good! the gods fight my battle to-night. I foresee +That the family doctor's the part I must play. +Very well! but the patients my visits shall pay." +Lord Alfred presented Lucile to his wife; +And Matilda, repressing with effort the strife +Of emotions which made her voice shake, murmur'd low +Some faint, troubled greeting. The Duke, with a bow +Which betoken'd a distant defiance, replied +To Lucile's startled cry, as surprised she descried +Her former gay wooer. Anon, with the grace +Of that kindness which seeks to win kindness, her place +She assumed by Matilda, unconscious, perchance, +Or resolved not to notice the half-frighten'd glance, +That follow'd that movement. + The Duke to his feet +Arose; and, in silence, relinquish'd his seat. +One must own that the moment was awkward for all +But nevertheless, before long, the strange thrall +Of Lucile's gracious tact was by every one felt, +And from each the reserve seem'd, reluctant, to melt; +Thus, conversing together, the whole of the four +Thro' the crowd saunter'd smiling. + + +XXIX. + + + Approaching the door, +Eugene de Luvois, who had fallen behind, +By Lucile, after some hesitation, was join'd. +With a gesture of gentle and kindly appeal, +Which appear'd to imply, without words, "Let us feel +That the friendship between us in years that are fled, +Has survived one mad moment forgotten," she said: +"You remain, Duke, at Ems?" + He turn'd on her a look +Of frigid, resentful, and sullen rebuke; +And then, with a more than significant glance +At Matilda, maliciously answer'd, "Perchance. +I have here an attraction. And you?" he return'd. +Lucile's eyes had follow'd his own, and discern'd +The boast they implied. + He repeated, "And you?" +And, still watching Matilda, she answer'd, "I too." +And he thought, as with that word she left him, she sigh'd. +The next moment her place she resumed by the side +Of Matilda; and they soon shook hands at the gate +Of the selfsame hotel. + + +XXX. + + + One depress'd, one elate, +The Duke and Lord Alfred again, thro' the glooms +Of the thick linden alley, return'd to the Rooms. +His cigar each had lighted, a moment before, +At the inn, as they turn'd, arm-in-arm, from the door. +Ems cigars do not cheer a man's spirits, experto +(Me miserum quoties!) crede Roberto. +In silence, awhile, they walk'd onward. + At last +The Duke's thoughts to language half consciously pass'd. + +LUVOIS. + +Once more! yet once more! + +ALFRED. + + What? + +LUVOIS. + + We meet her, once more, +The woman for whom we two madmen of yore +(Laugh, mon cher Alfred, laugh!) were about to destroy +Each other! + +ALFRED. + + It is not with laughter that I +Raise the ghost of that once troubled time. Say! can you +Recall it with coolness and quietude now? + +LUVOIS. + +Now? yes! I, mon cher, am a true Parisien: +Now, the red revolution, the tocsin, and then +The dance and the play. I am now at the play. + +ALFRED. + +At the play, are you now? Then perchance I now may +Presume, Duke, to ask you what, ever until +Such a moment, I waited . . . + +LUVOIS. + + Oh! ask what you will. +Franc jeu! on the table my cards I spread out. +Ask! + +ALFRED. + + Duke, you were called to a meeting (no doubt +You remember it yet) with Lucile. It was night +When you went; and before you return'd it was light. +We met: you accosted me then with a brow +Bright with triumph: your words (you remember them now!) +Were "Let us be friends!" + +LUVOIS. + + Well? + +ALFRED. + + How then, after that +Can you and she meet as acquaintances? + +LUVOIS. + + What! +Did she not then, herself, the Comtesse de Nevers, +Solve your riddle to-night with those soft lips of hers? + +ALFRED. + +In our converse to-night we avoided the past. +But the question I ask should be answer'd at last: +By you, if you will; if you will not, by her. + +LUVOIS. + +Indeed? but that question, milord, can it stir +Such an interest in you, if your passion be o'er? + +ALFRED. + +Yes. Esteem may remain, although love be no more. +Lucile ask'd me, this night, to my wife (understand, +To MY WIFE!) to present her. I did so. Her hand +Has clasp'd that of Matilda. We gentlemen owe +Respect to the name that is ours: and, if so, +To the woman that bears it a twofold respect. +Answer, Duc de Luvois! Did Lucile then reject +The proffer you made of your hand and your name? +Or did you on her love then relinquish a claim +Urged before? I ask bluntly this question, because +My title to do so is clear by the laws +That all gentlemen honor. Make only one sign +That you know of Lucile de Nevers aught, in fine, +For which, if your own virgin sister were by, +From Lucile you would shield her acquaintance, and I +And Matilda leave Ems on the morrow. + + +XXXI. + + + The Duke +Hesitated and paused. He could tell, by the look +Of the man at his side, that he meant what he said, +And there flash'd in a moment these thoughts through his head: +"Leave Ems! would that suit me? no! that were again +To mar all. And besides, if I do not explain, +She herself will . . . et puis, il a raison: on est +Gentilhomme avant tout!" He replied therefore, + "Nay! +Madame de Nevers had rejected me. I, +In those days, I was mad; and in some mad reply +I threatened the life of the rival to whom +That rejection was due, I was led to presume. +She fear'd for his life; and the letter which then +She wrote me, I show'd you; we met: and again +My hand was refused, and my love was denied, +And the glance you mistook was the vizard which Pride +Lends to Humiliation. + "And so," half in jest, +He went on, "in this best world, 'tis all for the best; +You are wedded (bless'd Englishman!) wedded to one +Whose past can be called into question by none: +And I (fickle Frenchman!) can still laugh to feel +I am lord of myself; and the Mode: and Lucile +Still shines from her pedestal, frigid and fair +As yon German moon o'er the linden-tops there! +A Dian in marble that scorns any troth +With the little love gods, whom I thank for us both, +While she smiles from her lonely Olympus apart, +That her arrows are marble as well as her heart. +Stay at Ems, Alfred Vargrave!" + + +XXXII. + + + The Duke, with a smile, +Turn'd and enter'd the Rooms which, thus talking, meanwhile, +They had reach'd. + + +XXXIII. + + + Alfred Vargrave strode on (overthrown +Heart and mind!) in the darkness bewilder'd, alone: +"And so," to himself did he mutter, "and so +'Twas to rescue my life, gentle spirit! and, oh, +For this did I doubt her? . . . a light word--a look-- +The mistake of a moment! . . . for this I forsook-- +For this? Pardon, pardon, Lucile! O Lucile!" +Thought and memory rang, like a funeral peal, +Weary changes on one dirge-like note through his brain, +As he stray'd down the darkness. + + +XXXIV. + + + Re-entering again +The Casino, the Duke smiled. He turned to roulette, +And sat down, and play'd fast, and lost largely, and yet +He still smiled: night deepen'd: he play'd his last number: +Went home: and soon slept: and still smil'd in his slumber. + + +XXXV. + + +In his desolate Maxims, La Rochefoucauld wrote, +"In the grief or mischance of a friend you may note, +There is something which always gives pleasure." + Alas! +That reflection fell short of the truth as it was. +La Rochefoucauld might have as truly set down-- +"No misfortune, but what some one turns to his own +Advantage its mischief: no sorrow, but of it +There ever is somebody ready to profit: +No affliction without its stock-jobbers, who all +Gamble, speculate, play on the rise and the fall +Of another man's heart, and make traffic in it." +Burn thy book, O La Rochefoucauld! + Fool! one man's wit +All men's selfishness how should it fathom? + O sage, +Dost thou satirize Nature? + She laughs at thy page. + + + +CANTO II. + + +I. + + +COUSIN JOHN TO COUSIN ALFRED. + + LONDON, 18-- + + "My dear Alfred, + Your last letters put me in pain. +This contempt of existence, this listless disdain +Of your own life,--its joys and its duties,--the deuce +Take my wits if they find for it half an excuse! +I wish that some Frenchman would shoot off your leg, +And compel you to stump through the world on a peg. +I wish that you had, like myself (more's the pity!), +To sit seven hours on this cursed committee. +I wish that you knew, sir, how salt is the bread +Of another--(what is it that Dante has said?) +And the trouble of other men's stairs. In a word, +I wish fate had some real affliction conferr'd +On your whimsical self, that, at least, you had cause +For neglecting life's duties, and damning its laws! +This pressure against all the purpose of life, +This self-ebullition, and ferment, and strife, +Betoken'd, I grant that it may be in truth, +The richness and strength of the new wine of youth. +But if, when the wine should have mellow'd with time, +Being bottled and binn'd, to a flavor sublime, +It retains the same acrid, incongruous taste, +Why, the sooner to throw it away that we haste +The better, I take it. And this vice of snarling, +Self-love's little lapdog, the overfed darling +Of a hypochondriacal fancy appears, +To my thinking, at least, in a man of your years, +At the midnoon of manhood with plenty to do, +And every incentive for doing it too, +With the duties of life just sufficiently pressing +For prayer, and of joys more than most men for blessing; +With a pretty young wife, and a pretty full purse, +Like poltroonery, puerile truly, or worse! +I wish I could get you at least to agree +To take life as it is, and consider with me, +If it be not all smiles, that it is not all sneers; +It admits honest laughter, and needs honest tears. +Do you think none have known but yourself all the pain +Of hopes that retreat, and regrets that remain? +And all the wide distance fate fixes, no doubt, +'Twixt the life that's within, and the life that's without? +What one of us finds the world just as he likes? +Or gets what he wants when he wants it? Or strikes +Without missing the thing that he strikes at the first? +Or walks without stumbling? Or quenches his thirst +At one draught? Bah! I tell you! I, bachelor John, +Have had griefs of my own. But what then? I push on +All the faster perchance that I yet feel the pain +Of my last fall, albeit I may stumble again. +God means every man to be happy, be sure. +He sends us no sorrows that have not some cure. +Our duty down here is to do, not to know. +Live as though life were earnest, and life will be so. +Let each moment, like Time's last ambassador, come: +It will wait to deliver its message; and some +Sort of answer it merits. It is not the deed +A man does, but the way that he does it, should plead +For the man's compensation in doing it. + "Here, +My next neighbor's a man with twelve thousand a year, +Who deems that life has not a pastime more pleasant +Than to follow a fox, or to slaughter a pheasant. +Yet this fellow goes through a contested election, +Lives in London, and sits, like the soul of dejection, +All the day through upon a committee, and late +To the last, every night, through the dreary debate, +As though he were getting each speaker by heart, +Though amongst them he never presumes to take part. +One asks himself why, without murmur or question, +He foregoes all his tastes, and destroys his digestion, +For a labor of which the result seems so small. +'The man is ambitious,' you say. Not at all. +He has just sense enough to be fully aware +That he never can hope to be Premier, or share +The renown of a Tully;--or even to hold +A subordinate office. He is not so bold +As to fancy the House for ten minutes would bear +With patience his modest opinions to hear. +'But he wants something!' + "What! with twelve thousand a year? +What could Government give him would be half so dear +To his heart as a walk with a dog and a gun +Through his own pheasant woods, or a capital run? +'No; but vanity fills out the emptiest brain; +The man would be more than his neighbor, 'tis plain; +And the drudgery drearily gone through in town +Is more than repaid by provincial renown. +Enough if some Marchioness, lively and loose, +Shall have eyed him with passing complaisance; the goose, +If the Fashion to him open one of its doors, +As proud as a sultan returns to his boors.' +Wrong again! if you think so, + "For, primo; my friend +Is the head of a family known from one end +Of his shire to the other as the oldest; and therefore +He despises fine lords and fine ladies. HE care for +A peerage? no truly! Secondo; he rarely +Or never goes out: dines at Bellamy's sparely, +And abhors what you call the gay world. + "Then, I ask, +What inspires, and consoles, such a self-imposed task +As the life of this man,--but the sense of its duty? +And I swear that the eyes of the haughtiest beauty +Have never inspired in my soul that intense, +Reverential, and loving, and absolute sense +Of heart-felt admiration I feel for this man, +As I see him beside me;--there, wearing the wan +London daylight away, on his humdrum committee; +So unconscious of all that awakens my pity, +And wonder--and worship, I might say? + "To me +There seems something nobler than genius to be +In that dull patient labor no genius relieves, +That absence of all joy which yet never grieves; +The humility of it! the grandeur withal! +The sublimity of it! And yet, should you call +The man's own very slow apprehension to this, +He would ask, with a stare, what sublimity is! +His work is the duty to which he was born; +He accepts it, without ostentation or scorn: +And this man is no uncommon type (I thank Heaven!) +Of this land's common men. In all other lands, even +The type's self is wanting. Perchance, 'tis the reason +That Government oscillates ever 'twixt treason +And tyranny elsewhere. + "I wander away +Too far, though, from what I was wishing to say. +You, for instance, read Plato. You know that the soul +Is immortal; and put this in rhyme, on the whole, +Very well, with sublime illustration. Man's heart +Is a mystery, doubtless. You trace it in art:-- +The Greek Psyche,--that's beauty,--the perfect ideal. +But then comes the imperfect, perfectible real, +With its pain'd aspiration and strife. In those pale +Ill-drawn virgins of Giotto you see it prevail. +You have studied all this. Then, the universe, too, +Is not a mere house to be lived in, for you. +Geology opens the mind. So you know +Something also of strata and fossils; these show +The bases of cosmical structure: some mention +Of the nebulous theory demands your attention; +And so on. + "In short, it is clear the interior +Of your brain, my dear Alfred, is vastly superior +In fibre, and fulness, and function, and fire, +To that of my poor parliamentary squire; +But your life leaves upon me (forgive me this heat +Due to friendship) the sense of a thing incomplete. +You fly high. But what is it, in truth, you fly at? +My mind is not satisfied quite as to that. +An old illustration's as good as a new, +Provided the old illustration be true. +We are children. Mere kites are the fancies we fly, +Though we marvel to see them ascending so high; +Things slight in themselves,--long-tail'd toys, and no more: +What is it that makes the kite steadily soar +Through the realms where the cloud and the whirlwind have birth +But the tie that attaches the kite to the earth? +I remember the lessons of childhood, you see, +And the hornbook I learn'd on my poor mother's knee. +In truth, I suspect little else do we learn +From this great book of life, which so shrewdly we turn, +Saving how to apply, with a good or bad grace, +What we learn'd in the hornbook of childhood. + "Your case +Is exactly in point. + "Fly your kite, if you please, +Out of sight: let it go where it will, on the breeze; +But cut not the one thread by which it is bound, +Be it never so high, to this poor human ground. +No man is the absolute lord of his life. +You, my friend, have a home, and a sweet and dear wife. +If I often have sigh'd by my own silent fire, +With the sense of a sometimes recurring desire +For a voice sweet and low, or a face fond and fair, +Some dull winter evening to solace and share +With the love which the world its good children allows +To shake hands with,--in short, a legitimate spouse, +This thought has consoled me: 'At least I have given +For my own good behavior no hostage to heaven.' +You have, though. Forget it not! faith, if you do, +I would rather break stones on a road than be you. +If any man wilfully injured, or led +That little girl wrong, I would sit on his head, +Even though you yourself were the sinner! + "And this +Leads me back (do not take it, dear cousin, amiss!) +To the matter I meant to have mention'd at once, +But these thoughts put it out of my head for the nonce. +Of all the preposterous humbugs and shams, +Of all the old wolves ever taken for lambs, +The wolf best received by the flock he devours +Is that uncle-in-law, my dear Alfred, of yours. +At least, this has long been my unsettled conviction, +And I almost would venture at once the prediction +That before very long--but no matter! I trust, +For his sake and our own, that I may be unjust. +But Heaven forgive me, if cautious I am on +The score of such men as with both God and Mammon +Seem so shrewdly familiar. + "Neglect not this warning. +There were rumors afloat in the City this morning +Which I scarce like the sound of. Who knows? would he fleece +At a pinch, the old hypocrite, even his own niece? +For the sake of Matilda I cannot importune +Your attention too early. If all your wife's fortune +Is yet in the hands of that specious old sinner, +Who would dice with the devil, and yet rise up winner, +I say, lose no time! get it out of the grab +Of her trustee and uncle, Sir Ridley McNab. +I trust those deposits, at least, are drawn out, +And safe at this moment from danger or doubt. +A wink is as good as a nod to the wise. +Verbum sap. I admit nothing yet justifies +My mistrust; but I have in my own mind a notion +That old Ridley's white waistcoat, and airs of devotion, +Have long been the only ostensible capital +On which he does business. If so, time must sap it all, +Sooner or later. Look sharp. Do not wait, +Draw at once. In a fortnight it may be too late. +I admit I know nothing. I can but suspect; +I give you my notions. Form yours and reflect. +My love to Matilda. Her mother looks well. +I saw her last week. I have nothing to tell +Worth your hearing. We think that the Government here +Will not last our next session. Fitz Funk is a peer, +You will see by the Times. There are symptoms which show +That the ministers now are preparing to go, +And finish their feast of the loaves and the fishes. +It is evident that they are clearing the dishes, +And cramming their pockets with bonbons. Your news +Will be always acceptable. Vere, of the Blues, +Has bolted with Lady Selina. And so +You have met with that hot-headed Frenchman? I know +That the man is a sad mauvais sujet. Take care +Of Matilda. I wish I could join you both there; +But before I am free, you are sure to be gone. +Good-by, my dear fellow. Yours, anxiously, + JOHN." + + +II. + + +This is just the advice I myself would have given +To Lord Alfred, had I been his cousin, which, Heaven +Be praised, I am not. But it reach'd him indeed +In an unlucky hour, and received little heed. +A half-languid glance was the most that he lent at +That time to these homilies. Primum dementat +Quem Deus vult perdere. Alfred in fact +Was behaving just then in a way to distract +Job's self had Job known him. The more you'd have thought +The Duke's court to Matilda his eye would have caught, +The more did his aspect grow listless to hers, +And the more did it beam to Lucile de Nevers. +And Matilda, the less she found love in the look +Of her husband, the less did she shrink from the Duke. +With each day that pass'd o'er them, they each, heart from heart, +Woke to feel themselves further and further apart. +More and more of his time Alfred pass'd at the table; +Played high; and lost more than to lose he was able. +He grew feverish, querulous, absent, perverse,-- +And here I must mention, what made matters worse, +That Lucile and the Duke at the selfsame hotel +With the Vargraves resided. It needs not to tell +That they all saw too much of each other. The weather +Was so fine that it brought them each day all together +In the garden, to listen, of course, to the band. +The house was a sort of phalanstery; and +Lucile and Matilda were pleased to discover +A mutual passion for music. Moreover, +The Duke was an excellent tenor; could sing +"Ange si pure" in a way to bring down on the wing +All the angels St. Cicely play'd to. My lord +Would also, at times, when he was not too bored, +Play Beethoven, and Wagner's new music, not ill; +With some little things of his own, showing skill. +For which reason, as well as for some others too, +Their rooms were a pleasant enough rendezvous. +Did Lucile, then, encourage (the heartless coquette!) +All the mischief she could not but mark? + Patience yet! + +III. + + +In that garden, an arbor, withdrawn from the sun, +By laburnum and lilac with blooms overrun, +Form'd a vault of cool verdure, which made, when the heat +Of the noontide hung heavy, a gracious retreat. +And here, with some friends of their own little world, +In the warm afternoons, till the shadows uncurl'd +From the feet of the lindens, and crept through the grass, +Their blue hours would this gay little colony pass. +The men loved to smoke, and the women to bring, +Undeterr'd by tobacco, their work there, and sing +Or converse, till the dew fell, and homeward the bee +Floated, heavy with honey. Towards eve there was tea +(A luxury due to Matilda), and ice, +Fruit and coffee. [Greek text omitted]! +Such an evening it was, while Matilda presided +O'er the rustic arrangements thus daily provided, +With the Duke, and a small German Prince with a thick head, +And an old Russian Countess both witty and wicked, +And two Austrian Colonels,--that Alfred, who yet +Was lounging alone with his last cigarette, +Saw Lucile de Nevers by herself pacing slow +'Neath the shade of the cool linden-trees to and fro, +And joining her, cried, "Thank the good stars, we meet! +I have so much to say to you!" + "Yes? . . . "with her sweet +Serene voice, she replied to him. . . . "Yes? and I too +Was wishing, indeed, to say somewhat to you." +She was paler just then than her wont was. The sound +Of her voice had within it a sadness profound. +"You are ill?" he exclaim'd. + "No!" she hurriedly said. +"No, no!" + "You alarm me!" + She droop'd down her head. +"If your thoughts have of late sought, or cared, to divine +The purpose of what has been passing in mine, +My farewell can scarcely alarm you." + +ALFRED. + + Lucile! +Your farewell! you go! + +LUCILE. + + Yes, Lord Alfred. + +ALFRED. + + Reveal +The cause of this sudden unkindness. + +LUCILE. + + Unkind? + +ALFRED. + +Yes! what else is this parting? + +LUCILE. + + No, no! are you blind? +Look into your own heart and home. Can you see +No reason for this, save unkindness in me? +Look into the eyes of your wife--those true eyes, +Too pure and too honest in aught to disguise +The sweet soul shining through them. + +ALFRED. + + Lucile! (first and last +Be the word, if you will!) let me speak of the past. +I know now, alas! though I know it too late, +What pass'd at that meeting which settled my fate. +Nay, nay, interrupt me not yet! let it be! +I but say what is due to yourself--due to me, +And must say it. + He rushed incoherently on, +Describing how, lately, the truth he had known, +To explain how, and whence, he had wrong'd her before, +All the complicate coil wound about him of yore, +All the hopes that had flown with the faith that was fled, +"And then, O Lucile, what was left me," he said, +"When my life was defrauded of you, but to take +That life, as 'twas left, and endeavor to make +Unobserved by another, the void which remain'd +Unconceal'd to myself? If I have not attain'd, +I have striven. One word of unkindness has never +Pass'd my lips to Matilda. Her least wish has ever +Received my submission. And if, of a truth, +I have fail'd to renew what I felt in my youth, +I at least have been loyal to what I DO feel, +Respect, duty, honor, affection. Lucile, +I speak not of love now, nor love's long regret: +I would not offend you, nor dare I forget +The ties that are round me. But may there not be +A friendship yet hallow'd between you and me? +May we not be yet friends--friends the dearest?" + "Alas!" +She replied, "for one moment, perchance, did it pass +Through my own heart, that dream which forever hath brought +To those who indulge it in innocent thought +So fatal an evil awaking! But no. +For in lives such as ours are, the Dream-tree would grow +On the borders of Hades: beyond it, what lies? +The wheel of Ixion, alas! and the cries +Of the lost and tormented. Departed, for us, +Are the days when with innocence we could discuss +Dreams like these. Fled, indeed, are the dreams of my life! +Oh trust me, the best friend you have is your wife. +And I--in that pure child's pure virtue, I bow +To the beauty of virtue. I felt on my brow +Not one blush when I first took her hand. With no blush +Shall I clasp it to-night, when I leave you. + "Hush! hush! +I would say what I wish'd to have said when you came. +Do not think that years leave us and find us the same! +The woman you knew long ago, long ago, +Is no more. You yourself have within you, I know, +The germ of a joy in the years yet to be, +Whereby the past years will bear fruit. As for me, +I go my own way,--onward, upward! + "O yet, +Let me thank you for that which ennobled regret +When it came, as it beautified hope ere it fled,-- +The love I once felt for you. True, it is dead, +But it is not corrupted. I too have at last +Lived to learn that love is not--such love as is past, +Such love as youth dreams of at least--the sole part +Of life, which is able to fill up the heart; +Even that of a woman. + "Between you and me +Heaven fixes a gulf, over which you must see +That our guardian angels can bear us no more. +We each of us stand on an opposite shore. +Trust a woman's opinion for once. Women learn, +By an instinct men never attain, to discern +Each other's true natures. Matilda is fair, +Matilda is young--see her now, sitting there!-- +How tenderly fashion'd--(oh, is she not? say,) +To love and be loved!" + + +IV. + + + He turn'd sharply away-- +"Matilda is young, and Matilda is fair; +Of all that you tell me pray deem me aware; +But Matilda's a statue, Matilda's a child; +Matilda loves not--" + Lucile quietly smiled +As she answer'd him--"Yesterday, all that you say +Might be true; it is false, wholly false, though, today." +"How?--what mean you?" + "I mean that to-day," she replied, +"The statue with life has become vivified: +I mean that the child to a woman has grown: +And that woman is jealous." + "What, she!" with a tone +Of ironical wonder, he answer'd--what, she! +She jealous!--Matilda!--of whom, pray?--not me!" +"My lord, you deceive yourself; no one but you +Is she jealous of. Trust me. And thank Heaven, too, +That so lately this passion within her hath grown. +For who shall declare, if for months she had known +What for days she has known all too keenly, I fear, +That knowledge perchance might have cost you more dear?" + +"Explain! explain, madam!" he cried, in surprise; +And terror and anger enkindled his eyes. +"How blind are you men!" she replied. "Can you doubt +That a woman, young, fair, and neglected--" + "Speak out!" +He gasp'd with emotion. "Lucile! you mean--what! +Do you doubt her fidelity?" + "Certainly not. +Listen to me, my friend. What I wish to explain +Is so hard to shape forth. I could almost refrain +From touching a subject so fragile. However, +Bear with me awhile, if I frankly endeavor +To invade for one moment your innermost life. +Your honor, Lord Alfred, and that of your wife, +Are dear to me,--most dear! And I am convinced +That you rashly are risking that honor." + He winced, +And turn'd pale, as she spoke. + She had aim'd at his heart, +And she saw, by his sudden and terrified start, +That her aim had not miss'd. + "Stay, Lucile!" he exclaim'd, +"What in truth do you mean by these words, vaguely framed +To alarm me? Matilda?--my wife?--do you know?"-- + +"I know that your wife is as spotless as snow. +But I know not how far your continued neglect +Her nature, as well as her heart, might affect. +Till at last, by degrees, that serene atmosphere +Of her unconscious purity, faint and yet dear, +Like the indistinct golden and vaporous fleece +Which surrounded and hid the celestials in Greece +From the glances of men, would disperse and depart +At the sighs of a sick and delirious heart,-- +For jealousy is to a woman, be sure, +A disease heal'd too oft by a criminal cure; +And the heart left too long to its ravage in time +May find weakness in virtue, reprisal in crime." + + +V. + + +"Such thoughts could have never," he falter'd, "I know, +Reach'd the heart of Matilda." + "Matilda? oh no! +But reflect! when such thoughts do not come of themselves +To the heart of a woman neglected, like elves +That seek lonely places,--there rarely is wanting +Some voice at her side, with an evil enchanting +To conjure them to her." + "O lady, beware! +At this moment, around me I search everywhere +For a clew to your words"-- + "You mistake them," she said, +Half fearing, indeed, the effect they had made. +"I was putting a mere hypothetical case." +With a long look of trouble he gazed in her face. +"Woe to him, . . ." he exclaim'd . . . "woe to him that shall feel +Such a hope! for I swear, if he did but reveal +One glimpse,--it should be the last hope of his life!" +The clench'd hand and bent eyebrow betoken'd the strife +She had roused in his heart. + "You forget," she began, +"That you menace yourself. You yourself are the man +That is guilty. Alas! must it ever be so? +Do we stand in our own light, wherever we go, +And fight our own shadows forever? O think! +The trial from which you, the stronger ones, shrink, +You ask woman, the weaker one, still to endure; +You bid her be true to the laws you abjure; +To abide by the ties you yourselves rend asunder, +With the force that has fail'd you; and that too, when under +The assumption of rights which to her you refuse, +The immunity claim'd for yourselves you abuse! +Where the contract exists, it involves obligation +To both husband and wife, in an equal relation. +You unloose, in asserting your own liberty, +A knot, which, unloosed, leaves another as free. +Then, O Alfred! be juster at heart: and thank Heaven +That Heaven to your wife such a nature has given +That you have not wherewith to reproach her, albeit +You have cause to reproach your own self, could you see it!" + + +VI. + + +In the silence that follow'd the last word she said, +In the heave of his chest, and the droop of his head, +Poor Lucile mark'd her words had sufficed to impart +A new germ of motion and life to that heart +Of which he himself had so recently spoken +As dead to emotion--exhausted, or broken! +New fears would awaken new hopes in his life. +In the husband indifferent no more to the wife +She already, as she had foreseen, could discover +That Matilda had gain'd at her hands, a new lover. +So after some moments of silence, whose spell +They both felt, she extended her hand to him. . . . + + +VII. + + "Well?" + + +VIII. + + +"Lucile," he replied, as that soft quiet hand +In his own he clasp'd warmly, "I both understand +And obey you." + "Thank Heaven!" she murmur'd. + "O yet, +One word, I beseech you! I cannot forget," +He exclaim'd, "we are parting for life. You have shown +My pathway to me: but say, what is your own?" +The calmness with which until then she had spoken +In a moment seem'd strangely and suddenly broken. +She turn'd from him nervously, hurriedly. + "Nay, +I know not," she murmur'd, "I follow the way +Heaven leads me; I cannot foresee to what end. +I know only that far, far away it must tend +From all places in which we have met, or might meet. +Far away!--onward upward!" + A smile strange and sweet +As the incense that rises from some sacred cup +And mixes with music, stole forth, and breathed up +Her whole face, with those words. + "Wheresoever it be, +May all gentlest angels attend you!" sighed he, +"And bear my heart's blessing wherever you are!" +And her hand, with emotion, he kiss'd. + + +IX. + + + From afar +That kiss was, alas! by Matilda beheld. +With far other emotions: her young bosom swell'd, +And her young cheek with anger was crimson'd. + The Duke +Adroitly attracted towards it her look +By a faint but significant smile. + + +X. + + + Much ill-construed, +Renown'd Bishop Berkeley has fully, for one, strew'd +With arguments page upon page to teach folks +That the world they inhabit is only a hoax. +But it surely is hard, since we can't do without them, +That our senses should make us so oft wish to doubt them! + + + +CANTO III. + + +I. + + +When first the red savage call'd Man strode, a king, +Through the wilds of creation--the very first thing +That his naked intelligence taught him to feel +Was the shame of himself; and the wish to conceal +Was the first step in art. From the apron which Eve +In Eden sat down out of fig-leaves to weave, +To the furbelow'd flounce and the broad crinoline +Of my lady--you all know of course whom I mean-- +This art of concealment has greatly increas'd. +A whole world lies cryptic in each human breast; +And that drama of passions as old as the hills, +Which the moral of all men in each man fulfils, +Is only reveal'd now and then to our eyes +In the newspaper-files and the courts of assize. + + +II. + + +In the group seen so lately in sunlight assembled, +'Mid those walks over which the laburnum-bough trembled, +And the deep-bosom'd lilac, emparadising +The haunts where the blackbird and thrush flit and sing, +The keenest eye could but have seen, and seen only, +A circle of friends, minded not to leave lonely +The bird on the bough, or the bee on the blossom; +Conversing at ease in the garden's green bosom, +Like those who, when Florence was yet in her glories, +Cheated death and kill'd time with Boccaccian stories. +But at length the long twilight more deeply grew shaded, +And the fair night the rosy horizon invaded. +And the bee in the blossom, the bird on the bough, +Through the shadowy garden were slumbering now. +The trees only, o'er every unvisited walk, +Began on a sudden to whisper and talk. +And, as each little sprightly and garrulous leaf +Woke up with an evident sense of relief, +They all seem'd to be saying . . . "Once more we're alone, +And, thank Heaven, those tiresome people are gone!" + + +III. + + +Through the deep blue concave of the luminous air, +Large, loving, and languid, the stars here and there, +Like the eyes of shy passionate women, look'd down +O'er the dim world whose sole tender light was their own, +When Matilda, alone, from her chamber descended, +And enter'd the garden, unseen, unattended. +Her forehead was aching and parch'd, and her breast +By a vague inexpressible sadness oppress'd: +A sadness which led her, she scarcely knew how, +And she scarcely knew why . . . (save, indeed, that just now +The house, out of which with a gasp she had fled +Half stifled, seem'd ready to sink on her head) . . . +Out into the night air, the silence, the bright +Boundless starlight, the cool isolation of night! +Her husband that day had look'd once in her face, +And press'd both her hands in a silent embrace, +And reproachfully noticed her recent dejection +With a smile of kind wonder and tacit affection. +He, of late so indifferent and listless! . . . at last +Was he startled and awed by the change which had pass'd +O'er the once radiant face of his young wife? Whence came +That long look of solicitous fondness? . . . the same +Look and language of quiet affection--the look +And the language, alas! which so often she took +For pure love in the simple repose of its purity-- +Her own heart thus lull'd to a fatal security! +Ha! would he deceive her again by this kindness? +Had she been, then, O fool! in her innocent blindness, +The sport of transparent illusion? ah folly! +And that feeling, so tranquil, so happy, so holy, +She had taken, till then, in the heart, not alone +Of her husband, but also, indeed, in her own, +For true love, nothing else, after all, did it prove +But a friendship profanely familiar? + "And love? . . . +What was love, then? . . . not calm, not secure--scarcely kind, +But in one, all intensest emotions combined: +Life and death: pain and rapture?" + Thus wandering astray, +Led by doubt, through the darkness she wander'd away. +All silently crossing, recrossing the night. +With faint, meteoric, miraculous light, +The swift-shooting stars through the infinite burn'd, +And into the infinite ever return'd. +And silently o'er the obscure and unknown +In the heart of Matilda there darted and shone +Thoughts, enkindling like meteors the deeps, to expire, +Leaving traces behind them of tremulous fire. + + +IV. + + +She enter'd that arbor of lilacs, in which +The dark air with odors hung heavy and rich, +Like a soul that grows faint with desire. + 'Twas the place +In which she so lately had sat face to face, +With her husband,--and her, the pale stranger detested +Whose presence her heart like a plague had infested. +The whole spot with evil remembrance was haunted. +Through the darkness there rose on the heart which it daunted, +Each dreary detail of that desolate day, +So full, and yet so incomplete. Far away +The acacias were muttering, like mischievous elves, +The whole story over again to themselves, +Each word,--and each word was a wound! By degrees +Her memory mingled its voice with the trees. + + +V. + + +Like the whisper Eve heard, when she paused by the root +Of the sad tree of knowledge, and gazed on its fruit, +To the heart of Matilda the trees seem'd to hiss +Wild instructions, revealing man's last right, which is +The right of reprisals. + An image uncertain, +And vague, dimly shaped itself forth on the curtain +Of the darkness around her. It came, and it went; +Through her senses a faint sense of peril it sent: +It pass'd and repass'd her; it went and it came, +Forever returning; forever the same; +And forever more clearly defined; till her eyes +In that outline obscure could at last recognize +The man to whose image, the more and the more +That her heart, now aroused from its calm sleep of yore, +From her husband detach'd itself slowly, with pain. +Her thoughts had return'd, and return'd to, again, +As though by some secret indefinite law,-- +The vigilant Frenchman--Eugene de Luvois! + + +VI. + + +A light sound behind her. She trembled. By some +Night-witchcraft her vision a fact had become. +On a sudden she felt, without turning to view, +That a man was approaching behind her. She knew +By the fluttering pulse which she could not restrain, +And the quick-beating heart, that this man was Eugene. +Her first instinct was flight; but she felt her slight foot +As heavy as though to the soil it had root. +And the Duke's voice retain'd her, like fear in a dream. + + +VII. + + +"Ah, lady! in life there are meetings which seem +Like a fate. Dare I think like a sympathy too? +Yet what else can I bless for this vision of you? +Alone with my thoughts, on this starlighted lawn, +By an instinct resistless, I felt myself drawn +To revisit the memories left in the place +Where so lately this evening I look'd in your face. +And I find,--you, yourself,--my own dream! + "Can there be +In this world one thought common to you and to me? +If so, . . . I, who deem'd but a moment ago +My heart uncompanion'd, save only by woe, +Should indeed be more bless'd than I dare to believe-- +--Ah, but ONE word, but one from your lips to receive" . . . +Interrupting him quickly, she murmur'd, "I sought, +Here, a moment of solitude, silence, and thought, +Which I needed." . . . + "Lives solitude only for one? +Must its charm by my presence so soon be undone? +Ah, cannot two share it? What needs it for this?-- +The same thought in both hearts,--be it sorrow or bliss; +If my heart be the reflex of yours, lady--you, +Are you not yet alone,--even though we be two?" + +"For that," . . . said Matilda, . . . "needs were, you should read +What I have in my heart" . . . + "Think you, lady, indeed, +You are yet of that age when a woman conceals +In her heart so completely whatever she feels +From the heart of the man whom it interests to know +And find out what that feeling may be? Ah, not so, +Lady Alfred? Forgive me that in it I look, +But I read in your heart as I read in a book." + +"Well, Duke! and what read you within it? unless +It be, of a truth, a profound weariness, +And some sadness?" + "No doubt. To all facts there are laws. +The effect has its cause, and I mount to the cause." + + +VIII. + + +Matilda shrank back; for she suddenly found +That a finger was press'd on the yet bleeding wound +She, herself, had but that day perceived in her breast. + +"You are sad," . . . said the Duke (and that finger yet press'd +With a cruel persistence the wound it made bleed)-- +"You are sad, Lady Alfred, because the first need +Of a young and a beautiful woman is to be +Beloved, and to love. You are sad: for you see +That you are not beloved, as you deem'd that you were: +You are sad: for that knowledge hath left you aware +That you have not yet loved, though you thought that you had. +"Yes, yes! . . . you are sad--because knowledge is sad!" + +He could not have read more profoundly her heart. +"What gave you," she cried, with a terrified start, +"Such strange power?" + "To read in your thoughts?" he exclaim'd +"O lady,--a love, deep, profound--be it blamed +Or rejected,--a love, true, intense--such, at least, +As you, and you only, could wake in my breast!" + +"Hush, hush! . . . I beseech you . . . for pity!' she gasp'd, +Snatching hurriedly from him the hand he had clasp'd, +In her effort instinctive to fly from the spot. + +"For pity?" . . . he echoed, "for pity! and what +Is the pity you owe him? his pity for you! +He, the lord of a life, fresh as new-fallen dew! +The guardian and guide of a woman, young, fair, +And matchless! (whose happiness did he not swear +To cherish through life?) he neglects her--for whom? +For a fairer than she? No! the rose in the bloom +Of that beauty which, even when hidd'n, can prevail +To keep sleepless with song the aroused nightingale, +Is not fairer; for even in the pure world of flowers +Her symbol is not, and this pure world of ours +Has no second Matilda! For whom? Let that pass! +'Tis not I, 'tis not you, that can name her, alas! +And I dare not question or judge her. But why, +Why cherish the cause of your own misery? +Why think of one, lady, who thinks not of you? +Why be bound by a chain which himself he breaks through? +And why, since you have but to stretch forth your hand, +The love which you need and deserve to command, +Why shrink? Why repel it?" + "O hush, sir! O hush!" +Cried Matilda, as though her whole heart were one blush. +"Cease, cease, I conjure you, to trouble my life! +Is not Alfred your friend? and am I not his wife?" + + +IX. + + +"And have I not, lady," he answer'd, . . . "respected +HIS rights as a friend, till himself he neglected +YOUR rights as a wife? Do you think 'tis alone +For three days I have loved you? My love may have grown, +I admit, day by day, since I first felt your eyes, +In watching their tears, and in sounding your sighs. +But, O lady! I loved you before I believed +That your eyes ever wept, or your heart ever grieved. +Then I deem'd you were happy--I deem'd you possess'd +All the love you deserved,--and I hid in my breast +My own love, till this hour--when I could not but feel +Your grief gave me the right my own grief to reveal! +I knew, years ago, of the singular power +Which Lucile o'er your husband possess'd. Till the hour +In which he revea'd it himself, did I,--say!-- +By a word, or a look, such a secret betray? +No! no! do me justice. I never have spoken +Of this poor heart of mine, till all ties he had broken +Which bound YOUR heart to him. And now--now, that his love +For another hath left your own heart free to rove, +What is it,--even now,--that I kneel to implore you? +Only this, Lady Alfred! . . . to let me adore you +Unblamed: to have confidence in me: to spend +On me not one thought, save to think me your friend. +Let me speak to you,--ah, let me speak to you still! +Hush to silence my words in your heart if you will. +I ask no response: I ask only your leave +To live yet in your life, and to grieve when you grieve!" + + +X. + + +"Leave me, leave me!" . . . she gasp'd, with a voice thick and low +From emotion. "For pity's sake, Duke, let me go! +I feel that to blame we should both of us be, +Did I linger." + "To blame? yes, no doubt!" . . . answer'd he, +"If the love of your husband, in bringing you peace, +Had forbidden you hope. But he signs your release +By the hand of another. One moment! but one! +Who knows when, alas! I may see you alone +As to-night I have seen you? or when we may meet +As to-night we have met? when, entranced at your feet, +As in this blessed hour, I may ever avow +The thoughts which are pining for utterance now?" +"Duke! Duke!" . . . she exclaim'd, . . . "for Heaven's sake let me go! +It is late. In the house they will miss me, I know. +We must not be seen here together. The night +Is advancing. I feel overwhelm'd with affright! +It is time to return to my lord." + "To your lord?" +He repeated, with lingering reproach on the word. +"To your lord? do you think he awaits you in truth? +Is he anxiously missing your presence, forsooth? +Return to your lord! . . . his restraint to renew? +And hinder the glances which are not for you? +No, no! . . . at this moment his looks seek the face +Of another! another is there in your place! +Another consoles him! another receives +The soft speech which from silence your absence relieves!" + + +XI. + + +"You mistake, sir!" . . . responded a voice, calm, severe, +And sad, . . . "You mistake, sir! that other is here." +Eugene and Matilda both started. + "Lucile!" +With a half-stifled scream, as she felt herself reel +From the place where she stood, cried Matilda. + "Ho, oh! +What! eaves-dropping, madam?" . . . the Duke cried. . . "And so +You were listening?" + "Say, rather," she said, "that I heard, +Without wishing to hear it, that infamous word,-- +Heard--and therefore reply." + "Belle Comtesse," said the Duke, +With concentrated wrath in the savage rebuke, +Which betray'd that he felt himself baffled . . . "you know +That your place is not HERE." + "Duke," she answer'd him slow, +"My place is wherever my duty is clear; +And therefore my place, at this moment, is here. +O lady, this morning my place was beside +Your husband, because (as she said this she sigh'd) +I felt that from folly fast growing to crime-- +The crime of self-blindness--Heaven yet spared me time +To save for the love of an innocent wife +All that such love deserved in the heart and the life +Of the man to whose heart and whose life you alone +Can with safety confide the pure trust of your own." + +She turn'd to Matilda, and lightly laid on her +Her soft quiet hand . . . + "'Tis, O lady, the honor +Which that man has confided to you, that, in spite +Of his friend, I now trust I may yet save to-night-- +Save for both of you, lady! for yours I revere; +Duc de Luvois, what say you?--my place is not here?" + + +XII. + + +And, so saying, the hand of Matilda she caught, +Wound one arm round her waist unresisted and sought +Gently, softly, to draw her away from the spot. +The Duke stood confounded, and follow'd them not, +But not yet the house had they reach'd when Lucile +Her tender and delicate burden could feel +Sink and falter beside her. Oh, then she knelt down, +Flung her arms round Matilda, and press'd to her own +The poor bosom beating against her. + The moon, +Bright, breathless, and buoyant, and brimful of June, +Floated up from the hillside, sloped over the vale, +And poised herself loose in mid-heaven, with one pale, +Minute, scintillescent, and tremulous star +Swinging under her globe like a wizard-lit car, +Thus to each of those women revealing the face +Of the other. Each bore on her features the trace +Of a vivid emotion. A deep inward shame +The cheek of Matilda had flooded with flame. +With her enthusiastic emotion, Lucile +Trembled visibly yet; for she could not but feel +That a heavenly hand was upon her that night, +And it touch'd her pure brow to a heavenly light. +"In the name of your husband, dear lady," she said, +"In the name of your mother, take heart! Lift your head, +For those blushes are noble. Alas! do not trust +To that maxim of virtue made ashes and dust, +That the fault of the husband can cancel the wife's. +Take heart! and take refuge and strength in your life's +Pure silence,--there, kneel, pray, and hope, weep, and wait!" +"Saved, Lucile!" sobb'd Matilda, "but saved to what fate? +Tears, prayers, yes! not hopes." + "Hush!" the sweet voice replied. +"Fool'd away by a fancy, again to your side +Must your husband return. Doubt not this. And return +For the love you can give, with the love that you yearn +To receive, lady. What was it chill'd you both now? +Not the absence of love, but the ignorance how +Love is nourish'd by love. Well! henceforth you will prove +Your heart worthy of love,--since it knows how to love." + + +XIII. + + +"What gives you such power over me, that I feel +Thus drawn to obey you? What are you, Lucile?" +Sigh'd Matilda, and lifted her eyes to the face +Of Lucile. + There pass'd suddenly through it the trace +Of deep sadness; and o'er that fair forehead came down +A shadow which yet was too sweet for a frown. +"The pupil of sorrow, perchance," . . . she replied. +"Of sorrow?" Matilda exclaim'd . . . "O confide +To my heart your affliction. In all you made known +I should find some instruction, no doubt, for my own!" + +"And I some consolation, no doubt; for the tears +Of another have not flow'd for me many years." + +It was then that Matilda herself seized the hand +Of Lucile in her own, and uplifted her; and +Thus together they enter'd the house. + + +XIV. + + + 'Twas the room +Of Matilda. + The languid and delicate gloom +Of a lamp of pure white alabaster, aloft +From the ceiling suspended, around it slept soft. +The casement oped into the garden. The pale +Cool moonlight stream'd through it. One lone nightingale +Sung aloof in the laurels. And here, side by side, +Hand in hand, the two women sat down undescried, +Save by guardian angels. + As when, sparkling yet +From the rain, that, with drops that are jewels, leaves wet +The bright head it humbles, a young rose inclines +To some pale lily near it, the fair vision shines +As one flower with two faces, in hush'd, tearful speech, +Like the showery whispers of flowers, each to each +Link'd, and leaning together, so loving, so fair, +So united, yet diverse, the two women there +Look'd, indeed, like two flowers upon one drooping stem, +In the soft light that tenderly rested on them. +All that soul said to soul in that chamber, who knows? +All that heart gain'd from heart? + Leave the lily, the rose, +Undisturb'd with their secret within them. For who +To the heart of the floweret can follow the dew? +A night full of stars! O'er the silence, unseen, +The footsteps of sentinel angels between +The dark land and deep sky were moving. You heard +Pass'd from earth up to heaven the happy watchword +Which brighten'd the stars as amongst them it fell +From earth's heart, which it eased . . . "All is well! all is well!" + + + +CANTO IV. + + +I. + + +The Poets pour wine; and, when 'tis new, all decry it; +But, once let it be old, every trifler must try it. +And Polonius, who praises no wine that's not Massic, +Complains of my verse, that my verse is not classic. +And Miss Tilburina, who sings, and not badly, +My earlier verses, sighs "Commonplace sadly!" + +As for you, O Polonius, you vex me but slightly; +But you, Tilburina, your eyes beam so brightly +In despite of their languishing looks, on my word, +That to see you look cross I can scarcely afford. +Yes! the silliest woman that smiles on a bard +Better far than Longinus himself can reward +The appeal to her feelings of which she approves; +And the critics I most care to please are the Loves. + +Alas, friend! what boots it, a stone at his head +And a brass on his breast,--when a man is once dead? +Ay! were fame the sole guerdon, poor guerdon were then +Theirs who, stripping life bare, stand forth models for men. +The reformer's?--a creed by posterity learnt +A century after its author is burnt! +The poet's?--a laurel that hides the bald brow +It hath blighted! The painter's?--Ask Raphael now +Which Madonna's authentic! The stateman's?--a name +For parties to blacken, or boys to declaim! +The soldier's?--three lines on the cold Abbey pavement! +Were this all the life of the wise and the brave meant, +All it ends in, thrice better, Neaera, it were +Unregarded to sport with thine odorous hair, +Untroubled to lie at thy feet in the shade +And be loved, while the roses yet bloom overhead, +Than to sit by the lone hearth, and think the long thought, +A severe, sad, blind schoolmaster, envied for naught +Save the name of John Milton! For all men, indeed, +Who in some choice edition may graciously read, +With fair illustration, and erudite note, +The song which the poet in bitterness wrote, +Beat the poet, and notably beat him, in this-- +The joy of the genius is theirs, whilst they miss +The grief of the man: Tasso's song--not his madness! +Dante's dreams--not his waking to exile and sadness! +Milton's music--but not Milton's blindness! . . . + Yet rise, +My Milton, and answer, with those noble eyes +Which the glory of heaven hath blinded to earth! +Say--the life, in the living it, savors of worth: +That the deed, in the doing it, reaches its aim: +That the fact has a value apart from the fame: +That a deeper delight, in the mere labor, pays +Scorn of lesser delights, and laborious days: +And Shakespeare, though all Shakespeare's writings were lost, +And his genius, though never a trace of it crossed +Posterity's path, not the less would have dwelt +In the isle with Miranda, with Hamlet have felt +All that Hamlet hath uttered, and haply where, pure +On its death-bed, wrong'd Love lay, have moan'd with the Moor! + + +II. + + +When Lord Alfred that night to the salon return'd +He found it deserted. The lamp dimly burn'd +As though half out of humor to find itself there +Forced to light for no purpose a room that was bare. +He sat down by the window alone. Never yet +Did the heavens a lovelier evening beget +Since Latona's bright childbed that bore the new moon! +The dark world lay still, in a sort of sweet swoon, +Wide open to heaven; and the stars on the stream +Were trembling like eyes that are loved on the dream +Of a lover; and all things were glad and at rest +Save the unquiet heart in his own troubled breast. +He endeavor'd to think--an unwonted employment, +Which appear'd to afford him no sort of enjoyment. + + +III. + + +"Withdraw into yourself. But, if peace you seek there for, +Your reception, beforehand, be sure to prepare for," +Wrote the tutor of Nero; who wrote, be it said, +Better far than he acted--but peace to the dead! +He bled for his pupil: what more could he do? +But Lord Alfred, when into himself he withdrew, +Found all there in disorder. For more than an hour +He sat with his head droop'd like some stubborn flower +Beaten down by the rush of the rain--with such force +Did the thick, gushing thoughts hold upon him the course +Of their sudden descent, rapid, rushing, and dim, +From the cloud that had darken'd the evening for him. +At one moment he rose--rose and open'd the door, +And wistfully look'd down the dark corridor +Toward the room of Matilda. Anon, with a sigh +Of an incomplete purpose, he crept quietly +Back again to his place in a sort of submission +To doubt, and return'd to his former position,-- +That loose fall of the arms, that dull droop of the face, +And the eye vaguely fix'd on impalpable space. +The dream, which till then had been lulling his life, +As once Circe the winds, had seal'd thought; and his wife +And his home for a time he had quite, like Ulysses, +Forgotten; but now o'er the troubled abysses +Of the spirit within him, aeolian, forth leapt +To their freedom new-found, and resistlessly swept +All his heart into tumult, the thoughts which had been +Long pent up in their mystic recesses unseen. + + +IV. + + +How long he thus sat there, himself he knew not, +Till he started, as though he were suddenly shot, +To the sound of a voice too familiar to doubt, +Which was making some noise in the passage without. +A sound English voice; with a round English accent, +Which the scared German echoes resentfully back sent; +The complaint of a much disappointed cab-driver +Mingled with it, demanding some ultimate stiver; +Then, the heavy and hurried approach of a boot +Which reveal'd by its sound no diminutive foot: +And the door was flung suddenly open, and on +The threshold Lord Alfred by bachelor John +Was seized in that sort of affectionate rage or +Frenzy of hugs which some stout Ursa Major +On some lean Ursa Minor would doubtless bestow +With a warmth for which only starvation and snow +Could render one grateful. As soon as he could, +Lord Alfred contrived to escape, nor be food +Any more for those somewhat voracious embraces. +Then the two men sat down and scann'd each other's faces: +And Alfred could see that his cousin was taken +With unwonted emotion. The hand that had shaken +His own trembled somewhat. In truth he descried +At a glance, something wrong. + + +V. + + + "What's the matter?" he cried. +"What have you to tell me?" + +JOHN. + + What! have you not heard? + +ALFRED. + +Heard what? + +JOHN. + + This sad business-- + +ALFRED. + + I? no, not a word. + +JOHN. + +You received my last letter? + +ALFRED. + + I think so. If not, +What then? + +JOHN. + + You have acted upon it? + +ALFRED. + + On what? + +JOHN. + +The advice that I gave you-- + +ALFRED. + + Advice?--let me see? +You ALWAYS are giving advice, Jack, to me. +About Parliament, was it? + +JOHN. + + Hang Parliament! no, +The Bank, the Bank, Alfred! + +ALFRED. + + What Bank? + +JOHN. + + Heavens! I know +You are careless;--but surely you have not forgotten,-- +Or neglected . . . I warn'd you the whole thing was rotten. +You have drawn those deposits at least? + +ALFRED. + + No, I meant +To have written to-day; but the note shall be sent +To-morrow, however. + +JOHN. + + To-morrow? too late! +Too late! oh, what devil bewitch'd you to wait? + +ALFRED. + +Mercy save us! you don't mean to say . . . + +JOHN. + + Yes, I do. + +ALFRED. + +What! Sir Ridley? + +JOHN. + + Smash'd, broken, blown up, bolted too! + +ALFRED. + +But his own niece? . . . In Heaven's name, Jack . . . + +JOHN. + + Oh, I told you +The old hypocritical scoundrel would . . . + +ALFRED. + + Hold! you +Surely can't mean we are ruin'd? + +JOHN. + + Sit down! +A fortnight ago a report about town +Made me most apprehensive. Alas, and alas! +I at once wrote and warn'd you. Well, now let that pass. +A run on the Bank about five days ago +Confirm'd my forebodings too terribly, though. +I drove down to the city at once; found the door +Of the Bank close: the Bank had stopp'd payment at four. +Next morning the failure was known to be fraud: +Warrant out for McNab: but McNab was abroad: +Gone--we cannot tell where. I endeavor'd to get +Information: have learn'd nothing certain as yet-- +Not even the way that old Ridley was gone: +Or with those securities what he had done: +Or whether they had been already call'd out: +If they are not, their fate is, I fear, past a doubt. +Twenty families ruin'd, they say: what was left,-- +Unable to find any clew to the cleft +The old fox ran to earth in,--but join you as fast +As I could, my dear Alfred?* + + +*These events, it is needless to say, Mr. Morse, +Took place when Bad News as yet travell'd by horse; +Ere the world, like a cockchafer, buzz'd on a wire, +Or Time was calcined by electrical fire; +Ere a cable went under the hoary Atlantic, +Or the word Telegram drove grammarians frantic. + + +VI. + + + He stopp'd here, aghast +At the change in his cousin, the hue of whose face +Had grown livid; and glassy his eyes fix'd on space. +"Courage, courage!" . . . said John, . . . "bear the blow like a man!" +And he caught the cold hand of Lord Alfred. There ran +Through that hand a quick tremor. "I bear it," he said, +"But Matilda? the blow is to her!" And his head +Seem'd forced down, as he said it. + +JOHN. + + Matilda? Pooh, pooh! +I half think I know the girl better than you. +She has courage enough--and to spare. She cares less +Than most women for luxury, nonsense, and dress. + +ALFRED. + +The fault has been mine. + +JOHN. + + Be it yours to repair it: +If you did not avert, you may help her to bear t. + +ALFRED. + +I might have averted. + +JOHN. + + Perhaps so. But now +There is clearly no use in considering how, +Or whence, came the mischief. The mischief is here. +Broken shins are not mended by crying--that's clear! +One has but to rub them, and get up again, +And push on--and not think too much of the pain. +And at least it is much that you see that to her +You owe too much to think of yourself. You must stir +And arouse yourself Alfred, for her sake. Who knows? +Something yet may be saved from this wreck. I suppose +We shall make him disgorge all he can, at the least. + +"O Jack, I have been a brute idiot! a beast! +A fool! I have sinn'd, and to HER I have sinn'd! +I have been heedless, blind, inexcusably blind! +And now, in a flash, I see all things!" + As though +To shut out the vision, he bow'd his head low +On his hands; and the great tears in silence roll'd on +And fell momently, heavily, one after one. +John felt no desire to find instant relief +For the trouble he witness'd. + He guess'd, in the grief +Of his cousin, the broken and heartfelt admission +Of some error demanding a heartfelt contrition: +Some oblivion perchance which could plead less excuse +To the heart of a man re-aroused to the use +Of the conscience God gave him, than simply and merely +The neglect for which now he was paying so dearly. +So he rose without speaking, and paced up and down +The long room, much afflicted, indeed, in his own +Cordial heart for Matilda. + Thus, silently lost +In his anxious reflections, he cross'd and re-cross'd +The place where his cousin yet hopelessly hung +O'er the table; his fingers entwisted among +The rich curls they were knotting and dragging: and there, +That sound of all sounds the most painful to hear, +The sobs of a man! Yet so far in his own +Kindly thoughts was he plunged, he already had grown +Unconscious of Alfred. + And so for a space +There was silence between them. + + +VII. + + + At last, with sad face +He stopp'd short, and bent on his cousin awhile +A pain'd sort of wistful, compassionate smile, +Approach'd him,--stood o'er him,--and suddenly laid +One hand on his shoulder-- + "Where is she?" he said. +Alfred lifted his face all disfigured with tears +And gazed vacantly at him, like one that appears +In some foreign language to hear himself greeted, +Unable to answer. + "Where is she?" repeated +His cousin. + He motioned his hand to the door; +"There, I think," he replied. Cousin John said no more, +And appear'd to relapse to his own cogitations, +Of which not a gesture vouchsafed indications. +So again there was silence. + A timepiece at last +Struck the twelve strokes of midnight. + Roused by them, he cast +A half-look to the dial; then quietly threw +His arm round the neck of his cousin, and drew +The hands down from his face. + "It is time she should know +What has happen'd," he said, . . . "let us go to her now." +Alfred started at once to his feet. + Drawn and wan +Though his face, he look'd more than his wont was--a man. +Strong for once, in his weakness. Uplifted, fill'd through +With a manly resolve. + If that axiom be true +Of the "Sum quia cogito," I must opine +That "id sum quod cogito;"--that which, in fine +A man thinks and feels, with his whole force of thought +And feeling, the man is himself. + He had fought +With himself, and rose up from his self-overthrow +The survivor of much which that strife had laid low +At his feet, as he rose at the name of his wife, +Lay in ruins the brilliant unrealized life +Which, though yet unfulfill'd, seem'd till then, in that name, +To be his, had he claim'd it. The man's dream of fame +And of power fell shatter'd before him; and only +There rested the heart of the woman, so lonely +In all save the love he could give her. The lord +Of that heart he arose. Blush not, Muse, to record +That his first thought, and last, at that moment was not +Of the power and fame that seem'd lost to his lot, +But the love that was left to it; not of the pelf +He had cared for, yet squander'd; and not of himself, +But of her; as he murmur'd, + "One moment, dear jack! +We have grown up from boyhood together. Our track +Has been through the same meadows in childhood: in youth +Through the same silent gateways, to manhood. In truth, +There is none that can know me as you do; and none +To whom I more wish to believe myself known. +Speak the truth; you are not wont to mince it, I know. +Nor I, shall I shirk it, or shrink from it now. +In despite of a wanton behavior, in spite +Of vanity, folly, and pride, Jack, which might +Have turn'd from me many a heart strong and true +As your own, I have never turn'd round and miss'd YOU +From my side in one hour of affliction or doubt +By my own blind and heedless self-will brought about. +Tell me truth. Do I owe this alone to the sake +Of those old recollections of boyhood that make +In your heart yet some clinging and crying appeal +From a judgment more harsh, which I cannot but feel +Might have sentenced our friendship to death long ago? +Or is it . . . (I would I could deem it were so!) +That, not all overlaid by a listless exterior, +Your heart has divined in me something superior +To that which I seem; from my innermost nature +Not wholly expell'd by the world's usurpature? +Some instinct of earnestness, truth, or desire +For truth? Some one spark of the soul's native fire +Moving under the ashes, and cinders, and dust +Which life hath heap'd o'er it? Some one fact to trust +And to hope in? Or by you alone am I deem'd +The mere frivolous fool I so often have seem'd +To my own self?" + +JOHN. + + No, Alfred! you will, I believe, +Be true, at the last, to what now makes you grieve +For having belied your true nature so long. +Necessity is a stern teacher. Be strong! + +"Do you think," he resumed, . . . "what I feel while I speak +Is no more than a transient emotion, as weak +As these weak tears would seem to betoken it?" + +JOHN. + + No! + +ALFRED. + +Thank you, cousin! your hand then. And now I will go +Alone, Jack. Trust to me. + + +VIII. + + +JOHN. + + I do. But 'tis late. +If she sleeps, you'll not wake her? + +ALFRED. + + No, no! it will wait +(Poor infant!) too surely, this mission of sorrow; +If she sleeps, I will not mar her dreams of tomorrow. +He open'd the door, and pass'd out. + Cousin John +Watch'd him wistful, and left him to seek her alone. + + +IX. + + +His heart beat so loud when he knock'd at her door, +He could hear no reply from within. Yet once more +He knock'd lightly. No answer. The handle he tried: +The door open'd: he enter'd the room undescried. + + +X. + + +No brighter than is that dim circlet of light +Which enhaloes the moon when rains form on the night, +The pale lamp an indistinct radiance shed +Round the chamber, in which at her pure snowy bed +Matilda was kneeling; so wrapt in deep prayer +That she knew not her husband stood watching her there. +With the lamplight the moonlight had mingled a faint +And unearthly effulgence which seem'd to acquaint +The whole place with a sense of deep peace made secure +By the presence of something angelic and pure. +And not purer some angel Grief carves o'er the tomb +Where Love lies, than the lady that kneel'd in that gloom. +She had put off her dress; and she look'd to his eyes +Like a young soul escaped from its earthly disguise; +Her fair neck and innocent shoulders were bare, +And over them rippled her soft golden hair; +Her simple and slender white bodice unlaced +Confined not one curve of her delicate waist. +As the light that, from water reflected, forever, +Trembles up through the tremulous reeds of a river, +So the beam of her beauty went trembling in him, +Through the thoughts it suffused with a sense soft and dim. +Reproducing itself in the broken and bright +Lapse and pulse of a million emotions. + That sight +Bow'd his heart, bow'd his knee. Knowing scarce what he did, +To her side through the chamber he silently slid, +And knelt down beside her--and pray'd at her side. + + +XI. + + +Upstarting, she then for the first time descried +That her husband was near her; suffused with the blush +Which came o'er her soft pallid cheek with a gush +Where the tears sparkled yet. + As a young fawn uncouches, +Shy with fear from the fern where some hunter approaches, +She shrank back; he caught her, and circling his arm +Round her waist, on her brow press'd one kiss long and warm. +Then her fear changed in impulse; and hiding her face +On his breast, she hung lock'd in a clinging embrace +With her soft arms wound heavily round him, as though +She fear'd, if their clasp was relaxed, he would go: +Her smooth, naked shoulders, uncared for, convulsed +By sob after sob, while her bosom yet pulsed +In its pressure on his, as the effort within it +Lived and died with each tender tumultuous minute. +"O Alfred, O Alfred! forgive me," she cried-- +"Forgive me!" + "Forgive you, my poor child!" he sigh'd; +"But I never have blamed you for aught that I know, +And I have not one thought that reproaches you now." +From her arms he unwound himself gently. And so +He forced her down softly beside him. Below +The canopy shading their couch, they sat down. +And he said, clasping firmly her hand in his own, +"When a proud man, Matilda, has found out at length, +That he is but a child in the midst of his strength, +But a fool in his wisdom, to whom can he own +The weakness which thus to himself hath been shown? +From whom seek the strength which his need of is sore, +Although in his pride he might perish, before +He could plead for the one, or the other avow +'Mid his intimate friends? Wife of mine, tell me now, +Do you join me in feeling, in that darken'd hour, +The sole friend that CAN have the right or the power +To be at his side, is the woman that shares +His fate, if he falter; the woman that bears +The name dear for HER sake, and hallows the life +She has mingled her own with,--in short, that man's wife?" +"Yes," murmur'd Matilda, "O yes!" + "Then," he cried, +"This chamber in which we two sit, side by side, +(And his arm, as he spoke, seem'd more softly to press her), +Is now a confessional--you, my confessor!" +"I?" she falter'd, and timidly lifted her head. +"Yes! but first answer one other question," he said: +"When a woman once feels that she is not alone: +That the heart of another is warm'd by her own; +That another feels with her whatever she feel +And halves her existence in woe or in weal; +That a man, for her sake, will, so long as he lives, +Live to put forth the strength which the thought of her gives; +Live to shield her from want, and to share with her sorrow; +Live to solace the day, and provide for the morrow: +Will that woman feel less than another, O say, +The loss of what life, sparing this, takes away? +Will she feel (feeling this), when calamities come, +That they brighten the heart, though they darken the home?" +She turn'd, like a soft rainy heav'n, on him +Eyes that smiled through fresh tears, trustful, tender, and dim. +"That woman," she murmur'd, "indeed were thrice blest!" +"Then courage, true wife of my heart!" to his breast +As he folded and gather'd her closely, he cried. +"For the refuge, to-night in these arms open'd wide +To your heart, can be never closed to it again, +And this room is for both an asylum! For when +I pass'd through that door, at the door I left there +A calamity sudden and heavy to bear. +One step from that threshold, and daily, I fear, +We must face it henceforth; but it enters not here, +For that door shuts it out, and admits here alone +A heart which calamity leaves all your own!" +She started . . . "Calamity, Alfred, to you?" +"To both, my poor child, but 'twill bring with it too +The courage, I trust, to subdue it." + "O speak! +Speak!" she falter'd in tones timid, anxious, and weak. +"O yet for a moment," he said, "hear me on! +Matilda, this morn we went forth in the sun, +Like those children of sunshine, the bright summer flies, +That sport in the sunbeam, and play through the skies +While the skies smile, and heed not each other: at last, +When their sunbeam is gone, and their sky overcast, +Who recks in what ruin they fold their wet wings? +So indeed the morn found us,--poor frivolous things! +Now our sky is o'ercast, and our sunbeam is set, +And the night brings its darkness around us. Oh yet +Have we weather'd no storm through those twelve cloudless hours? +Yes; you, too, have wept! + "While the world was yet ours, +While its sun was upon us, its incense stream'd to us, +And its myriad voices of joy seem'd to woo us, +We stray'd from each other, too far, it may be, +Nor, wantonly wandering, then did I see +How deep was my need of thee, dearest, how great +Was thy claim on my heart and thy share in my fate! +But, Matilda, an angel was near us, meanwhile, +Watching o'er us to warn, and to rescue! + "That smile +Which you saw with suspicion, that presence you eyed +With resentment, an angel's they were at your side +And at mine; nor perchance is the day all so far, +When we both in our prayers, when most heartfelt they are, +May murmur the name of that woman now gone +From our sight evermore. + "Here, this evening, alone, +I seek your forgiveness, in opening my heart +Unto yours,--from this clasp be it never to part! +Matilda, the fortune you brought me is gone, +But a prize richer far than that fortune has won +It is yours to confer, and I kneel for that prize, +'Tis the heart of my wife!" With suffused happy eyes +She sprang from her seat, flung her arms wide apart, +And tenderly closing them round him, his heart +Clasp'd in one close embrace to her bosom; and there +Droop'd her head on his shoulder; and sobb'd. + Not despair, +Not sorrow, not even the sense of her loss, +Flow'd in those happy tears, so oblivious she was +Of all save the sense of her own love! Anon, +However, his words rush'd back to her. "All gone, +The fortune you brought me!" + And eyes that were dim +With soft tears she upraised; but those tears were for HIM. +"Gone! my husband?" she said," tell me all! see! I need, +To sober this rapture, so selfish indeed, +Fuller sense of affliction." + "Poor innocent child!" +He kiss'd her fair forehead, and mournfully smiled, +As he told her the tale he had heard--something more, +The gain found in loss of what gain lost of yore. +"Rest, my heart, and my brain, and my right hand, for you; +And with these, my Matilda, what may I not do? +And know not, I knew not myself till this hour, +Which so sternly reveal'd it, my nature's full power." +"And I too," she murmur'd, "I too am no more +The mere infant at heart you have known me before. +I have suffer'd since then. I have learn'd much in life. +O take, with the faith I have pledged as a wife, +The heart I have learn'd as a woman to feel! +For I--love you, my husband!" + As though to conceal +Less from him, than herself, what that motion express'd, +She dropp'd her bright head, and hid all on his breast. +"O lovely as woman, beloved as wife! +Evening star of my heart, light forever my life! +If from eyes fix'd too long on this base earth thus far +You have miss'd your due homage, dear guardian star, +Believe that, uplifting those eyes unto heaven, +There I see you, and know you, and bless the light given +To lead me to life's late achievement; my own, +My blessing, my treasure, my all things in one!" + + +XII. + + +How lovely she look'd in the lovely moonlight, +That stream'd thro' the pane from the blue balmy night! +How lovely she look'd in her own lovely youth, +As she clung to his side, full of trust and of truth! +How lovely to HIM, as he tenderly press'd +Her young head on his bosom, and sadly caress'd +The glittering tresses which now shaken loose +Shower'd gold in his hand, as he smooth'd them! + + +XIII. + + + O Muse, +Interpose not one pulse of thine own beating heart +Twixt these two silent souls! There's a joy beyond art, +And beyond sound the music it makes in the breast. + + +XIV. + + +Here were lovers twice wed, that were happy at least! +No music, save such as the nightingales sung, +Breath'd their bridals abroad; and no cresset, up-hung, +Lit that festival hour, save what soft light was given +From the pure stars that peopled the deep-purple heaven. +He open'd the casement: he led her with him, +Hush'd in heart, to the terrace, dipp'd cool in the dim +Lustrous gloom of the shadowy laurels. They heard +Aloof, the invisible, rapturous bird, +With her wild note bewildering the woodlands: they saw +Not unheard, afar off, the hill-rivulet draw +His long ripple of moon-kindled wavelets with cheer +From the throat of the vale; o'er the dark sapphire sphere +The mild, multitudinous lights lay asleep, +Pastured free on the midnight, and bright as the sheep +Of Apollo in pastoral Thrace; from unknown +Hollow glooms freshen'd odors around them were blown +Intermittingly; then the moon dropp'd from their sight, +Immersed in the mountains, and put out the light +Which no longer they needed to read on the face +Of each other life's last revelation. + The place +Slept sumptuous round them; and Nature, that never +Sleeps, but waking reposes, with patient endeavor +Continued about them, unheeded, unseen, +Her old, quiet toil in the heart of the green +Summer silence, preparing new buds for new blossoms, +And stealing a finger of change o'er the bosoms +Of the unconscious woodlands; and Time, that halts not +His forces, how lovely soever the spot +Where their march lies--the wary, gray strategist, Time, +With the armies of Life, lay encamp'd--Grief and Crime, +Love and Faith, in the darkness unheeded; maturing, +For his great war with man, new surprises; securing +All outlets, pursuing and pushing his foe +To his last narrow refuge--the grave. + + +XV. + + + Sweetly though +Smiled the stars like new hopes out of heaven, and sweetly +Their hearts beat thanksgiving for all things, completely +Confiding in that yet untrodden existence +Over which they were pausing. To-morrow, resistance +And struggle; to-night, Love his hallow'd device +Hung forth, and proclaim'd his serene armistice. + + + +CANTO V. + + +I. + + +When Lucile left Matilda, she sat for long hours +In her chamber, fatigued by long overwrought powers, +'Mid the signs of departure, about to turn back +To her old vacant life, on her old homeless track. +She felt her heart falter within her. She sat +Like some poor player, gazing dejectedly at +The insignia of royalty worn for a night; +Exhausted, fatigued, with the dazzle and light, +And the effort of passionate feigning; who thinks +Of her own meagre, rush-lighted garret, and shrinks +From the chill of the change that awaits her. + + +II. + + From these +Oppressive, and comfortless, blank reveries, +Unable to sleep, she descended the stair +That led from her room to the garden. + The air, +With the chill of the dawn, yet unris'n, but at hand, +Strangely smote on her feverish forehead. The land +Lay in darkness and change, like a world in its grave: +No sound, save the voice of the long river wave +And the crickets that sing all the night! + She stood still, +Vaguely watching the thin cloud that curl'd on the hill. +Emotions, long pent in her breast, were at stir, +And the deeps of the spirit were troubled in her. +Ah, pale woman! what, with that heart-broken look, +Didst thou read then in nature's weird heart-breaking book? +Have the wild rains of heaven a father? and who +Hath in pity begotten the drops of the dew? +Orion, Arcturus, who pilots them both? +What leads forth in his season the bright Mazaroth? +Hath the darkness a dwelling,--save there, in those eyes? +And what name hath that half-reveal'd hope in the skies? +Ay, question, and listen! What answer? + The sound +Of the long river wave through its stone-troubled bound, +And the crickets that sing all the night. + There are hours +Which belong to unknown, supernatural powers, +Whose sudden and solemn suggestions are all +That to this race of worms,--stinging creatures, that crawl, +Lie, and fear, and die daily, beneath their own stings,-- +Can excuse the blind boast of inherited wings. +When the soul, on the impulse of anguish, hath pass'd +Beyond anguish, and risen into rapture at last; +When she traverses nature and space, till she stands +In the Chamber of Fate; where, through tremulous hands, +Hum the threads from an old-fashion'd distaff uncurl'd, +And those three blind old women sit spinning the world. + + +III. + + +The dark was blanch'd wan, overhead. One green star +Was slipping from sight in the pale void afar; +The spirits of change and of awe, with faint breath, +Were shifting the midnight, above and beneath. +The spirits of awe and of change were around +And about, and upon her. + A dull muffled sound, +And a hand on her hand, like a ghostly surprise, +And she felt herself fix'd by the hot hollow eyes +Of the Frenchman before her: those eyes seemed to burn, +And scorch out the darkness between them, and turn +Into fire as they fix'd her. He look'd like the shade +Of a creature by fancy some solitude made, +And sent forth by the darkness to scare and oppress +Some soul of a monk in a waste wilderness. + + +IV. + + +"At last, then,--at last, and alone,--I and thou, +Lucile de Nevers, have we met? + "Hush! I know +Not for me was the tryst. Never mind--it is mine; +And whatever led hither those proud steps of thine, +They remove not, until we have spoken. My hour +Is come; and it holds me and thee in its power, +As the darkness holds both the horizons. 'Tis well! +The timidest maiden that e'er to the spell +Of her first lover's vows listen'd, hush'd with delight, +When soft stars were brightly uphanging the night, +Never listen'd, I swear, more unquestioningly, +Than thy fate hath compell'd thee to listen to me!" +To the sound of his voice, as though out of a dream. +She appear'd with a start to awaken. + The stream, +When he ceased, took the night with its moaning again, +Like the voices of spirits departing in pain. +"Continue," she answer'd, "I listen to hear." +For a moment he did not reply. + Through the drear +And dim light between them, she saw that his face +Was disturb'd. To and fro he continued to pace, +With his arms folded close, and the low restless stride +Of a panther, in circles around her, first wide. +Then narrower, nearer, and quicker. At last +He stood still, and one long look upon her he cast. +"Lucile, dost thou dare to look into my face? +Is the sight so repugnant? ha, well! canst thou trace +One word of thy writing in this wicked scroll, +With thine own name scrawl'd through it, defacing a soul?" +In his face there was something so wrathful and wild, +That the sight of it scared her. + He saw it, and smiled, +And then turn'd him from her, renewing again +That short restless stride; as though searching in vain +For the point of some purpose within him. + "Lucile, +You shudder to look in my face: do you feel +No reproach when you look in your own heart?" + "No, Duke, +In my conscience I do not deserve your rebuke: +Not yours!" she replied. + "No," he mutter'd again, +"Gentle justice! you first bid Life hope not, and then +To Despair you say, 'Act not!'" + + +V. + + + He watch'd her awhile +With a chill sort of restless and suffering smile. +They stood by the wall of the garden. The skies, +Dark, sombre, were troubled with vague prophecies +Of the dawn yet far distant. The moon had long set, +And all in a glimmering light, pale, and wet +With the night-dews, the white roses sullenly loom'd +Round about her. She spoke not. At length he resumed, +"Wrecked creatures we are! I and thou--one and all! +Only able to injure each other and fall, +Soon or late, in that void which ourselves we prepare +For the souls that we boast of! weak insects we are! +O heaven! and what has become of them? all +Those instincts of Eden surviving the Fall: +That glorious faith in inherited things: +That sense in the soul of the length of her wings; +Gone! all gone! and the wail of the night wind sounds human, +Bewailing those once nightly visitants! Woman, +Woman, what hast thou done with my youth? Give again, +Give me back the young heart that I gave thee . . . in vain!" +"Duke!" she falter'd. + "Yes, yes!" he went on, "I was not +Always thus! what I once was, I have not forgot." + + +VI. + + +As the wind that heaps sand in a desert, there stirr'd +Through his voice an emotion that swept every word +Into one angry wail; as, with feverish change, +He continued his monologue, fitful and strange. +"Woe to him in whose nature, once kindled, the torch +Of Passion burns downward to blacken and scorch! +But shame, shame and sorrow, O woman, to thee +Whose hand sow'd the seed of destruction in me! +Whose lip taught the lesson of falsehood to mine! +Whose looks made me doubt lies that look'd so divine! +My soul by thy beauty was slain in its sleep: +And if tears I mistrust, 'tis that thou too canst weep! +Well! . . . how utter soever it be, one mistake +In the love of a man, what more change need it make +In the steps of his soul through the course love began, +Than all other mistakes in the life of a man? +And I said to myself, 'I am young yet: too young +To have wholly survived my own portion among +The great needs of man's life, or exhausted its joys; +What is broken? one only of youth's pleasant toys! +Shall I be the less welcome, wherever I go, +For one passion survived? No! the roses will blow +As of yore, as of yore will the nightingales sing, +Not less sweetly for one blossom cancell'd from Spring! +Hast thou loved, O my heart? to thy love yet remains +All the wide loving-kindness of nature. The plains +And the hills with each summer their verdure renew. +Wouldst thou be as they are? do thou then as they do, +Let the dead sleep in peace. Would the living divine +Where they slumber? Let only new flowers be the sign!' + +"Vain! all vain! . . . For when, laughing, the wine I would quaff, +I remember'd too well all it cost me to laugh. +Through the revel it was but the old song I heard, +Through the crowd the old footsteps behind me they stirr'd, +In the night-wind, the starlight, the murmurs of even, +In the ardors of earth, and the languors of heaven, +I could trace nothing more, nothing more through the spheres, +But the sound of old sobs, and the track of old tears! +It was with me the night long in dreaming or waking, +It abided in loathing, when daylight was breaking, +The burthen of the bitterness in me! Behold, +All my days were become as a tale that is told. +And I said to my sight, 'No good thing shalt thou see, +For the noonday is turned to darkness in me. +In the house of Oblivion my bed I have made.' +And I said to the grave, 'Lo, my father!' and said +To the worm, 'Lo, my sister!' The dust to the dust, +And one end to the wicked shall be with the just!" + + +VII. + + +He ceased, as a wind that wails out on the night +And moans itself mute. Through the indistinct light +A voice clear, and tender, and pure with a tone +Of ineffable pity, replied to his own. +"And say you, and deem you, that I wreck'd your life? +Alas! Duc de Luvois, had I been your wife +By a fraud of the heart which could yield you alone +For the love in your nature a lie in my own, +Should I not, in deceiving, have injured you worse? +Yes, I then should have merited justly your curse, +For I then should have wrong'd you!" + "Wrong'd! ah, is it so? +You could never have loved me?" + "Duke!" + "Never? oh, no!" +(He broke into a fierce, angry laugh, as he said) +"Yet, lady, you knew that I loved you: you led +My love on to lay to its heart, hour by hour, +All the pale, cruel, beautiful, passionless power +Shut up in that cold face of yours! was this well? +But enough! not on you would I vent the wild hell +Which has grown in my heart. Oh, that man! first and last +He tramples in triumph my life! he has cast +His shadow 'twixt me and the sun . . . let it pass! +My hate yet may find him!" + She murmur'd, "Alas! +These words, at least, spare me the pain of reply. +Enough, Duc de Luvois! farewell. I shall try +To forget every word I have heard, every sight +That has grieved and appall'd me in this wretched night +Which must witness our final farewell. May you, Duke, +Never know greater cause your own heart to rebuke +Than mine thus to wrong and afflict you have had! +Adieu!" + "Stay, Lucile, stay!" . . . he groaned, "I am mad, +Brutalized, blind with pain! I know not what I said. +I mean it not. But" (he moan'd, drooping his head) +"Forgive me! I--have I so wrong'd you, Lucile? +I . . . have I . . . forgive me, forgive me!" + "I feel +Only sad, very sad to the soul," she said, "far, +Far too sad for resentment." + "Yet stand as you are +One moment," he murmur'd. "I think, could I gaze +Thus awhile on your face, the old innocent days +Would come back upon me, and this scorching heart +Free itself in hot tears. Do not, do not depart +Thus, Lucile! stay one moment. I know why you shrink, +Why you shudder; I read in your face what you think. +Do not speak to me of it. And yet, if you will, +Whatever you say, my own lips shall be still. +I lied. And the truth, now, could justify nought. +There are battles, it may be, in which to have fought +Is more shameful than, simply, to fail. Yet, Lucile, +Had you help'd me to bear what you forced me to feel--" +"Could I help you," she murmur'd, "but what can I say +That your life will respond to?" "My life?" he sigh'd. "Nay, +My life hath brought forth only evil, and there +The wild wind hath planted the wild weed: yet ere +You exclaim, 'Fling the weed to the flames,' think again +Why the field is so barren. With all other men +First love, though it perish from life, only goes +Like the primrose that falls to make way for the rose. +For a man, at least most men, may love on through life: +Love in fame; love in knowledge; in work: earth is rife +With labor, and therefor, with love, for a man. +If one love fails, another succeeds, and the plan +Of man's life includes love in all objects! But I? +All such loves from my life through its whole destiny +Fate excluded. The love that I gave you, alas! +Was the sole love that life gave to me. Let that pass! +It perish'd, and all perish'd with it. Ambition? +Wealth left nothing to add to my social condition. +Fame? But fame in itself presupposes some great +Field wherein to pursue and attain it. The State? +I, to cringe to an upstart? The Camp? I, to draw +From its sheath the old sword of the Dukes of Luvois +To defend usurpation? Books, then? Science, Art? +But, alas! I was fashion'd for action: my heart, +Wither'd thing though it be, I should hardly compress +'Twixt the leaves of a treatise on Statics: life's stress +Needs scope, not contraction! what rests? to wear out +At some dark northern court an existence, no doubt, +In wretched and paltry intrigues for a cause +As hopeless as is my own life! By the laws +Of a fate I can neither control nor dispute, +I am what I am!" + + +VIII. + + + For a while she was mute. +Then she answer'd, "We are our own fates. Our own deeds +Are our doomsmen. Man's life was made not for men's creeds +But men's actions. And, Duc de Luvois, I might say +That all life attests, that 'the will makes the way.' +Is the land of our birth less the land of our birth, +Or its claim the less strong, or its cause the less worth +Our upholding, because the white lily no more +Is as sacred as all that it bloom'd for of yore? +Yet be that as it may be; I cannot perchance +Judge this matter. I am but a woman, and France +Has for me simpler duties. Large hope, though, Eugene +De Luvois, should be yours. There is purpose in pain, +Otherwise it were devilish. I trust in my soul +That the great master hand which sweeps over the whole +Of this deep harp of life, if at moments it stretch +To shrill tension some one wailing nerve, means to fetch +Its response the truest, most stringent, and smart, +Its pathos the purest, from out the wrung heart, +Whose faculties, flaccid it may be, if less +Sharply strung, sharply smitten, had fail'd to express +Just the one note the great final harmony needs. +And what best proves there's life in a heart?--that it bleeds? +Grant a cause to remove, grant an end to attain, +Grant both to be just, and what mercy in pain! +Cease the sin with the sorrow! See morning begin! +Pain must burn itself out if not fuel'd by sin. +There is hope in yon hill-tops, and love in yon light. +Let hate and despondency die with the night!" + +He was moved by her words. As some poor wretch confined +In cells loud with meaningless laughter, whose mind +Wanders trackless amidst its own ruins, may hear +A voice heard long since, silenced many a year, +And now, 'mid mad ravings recaptured again, +Singing through the caged lattice a once well-known strain, +Which brings back his boyhood upon it, until +The mind's ruin'd crevices graciously fill +With music and memory, and, as it were, +The long-troubled spirit grows slowly aware +Of the mockery round it, and shrinks from each thing +It once sought,--the poor idiot who pass'd for a king, +Hard by, with his squalid straw crown, now confess'd +A madman more painfully mad than the rest.-- +So the sound of her voice, as it there wander'd o'er +His echoing heart, seem'd in part to restore +The forces of thought: he recaptured the whole +Of his life by the light which, in passing, her soul +Reflected on his: he appear'd to awake +From a dream, and perceived he had dream'd a mistake: +His spirit was soften'd, yet troubled in him: +He felt his lips falter, his eyesight grow dim, +But he murmur'd . . . + "Lucile, not for me that sun's light +Which reveals--not restores--the wild havoc of night. +There are some creatures born for the night, not the day. +Broken-hearted the nightingale hides in the spray, +And the owl's moody mind in his own hollow tower +Dwells muffled. Be darkness henceforward my dower. +Light, be sure, in that darkness there dwells, by which eyes +Grown familiar with ruins may yet recognize +Enough desolation." + + +IX. + + + "The pride that claims here +On earth to itself (howsoever severe +To itself it may be) God's dread office and right +Of punishing sin, is a sin in heaven's sight, +And against heaven's service. + "Eugene de Luvois, +Leave the judgment to Him who alone knows the law. +Surely no man can be his own judge, least of all +His own doomsman." + Her words seem'd to fall +With a weight of tears in them. + He look'd up, and saw +That sad serene countenance, mournful as law +And tender as pity, bow'd o'er him: and heard +In some thicket the matinal chirp of a bird. + + +X. + + +"Vulgar natures alone suffer vainly. + "Eugene," +She continued, "in life we have met once again, +And once more life parts us. Yon day-spring for me +Lifts the veil of a future in which it may be +We shall meet nevermore. Grant, oh grant to me yet +The belief that it is not in vain we have met! +I plead for the future. A new horoscope +I would cast: will you read it? I plead for a hope: +I plead for a memory; yours, yours alone, +To restore or to spare. Let the hope be your own, +Be the memory mine. + "Once of yore, when for man +Faith yet lived, ere this age of the sluggard began, +Men aroused to the knowledge of evil, fled far +From the fading rose-gardens of sense, to the war +With the Pagan, the cave in the desert, and sought +Not repose, but employment in action or thought, +Life's strong earnest, in all things! oh, think not of me, +But yourself! for I plead for your own destiny: +I plead for your life, with its duties undone, +With its claims unappeased, and its trophies unwon; +And in pleading for life's fair fulfilment, I plead +For all that you miss, and for all that you need." + + +XI. + + +Through the calm crystal air, faint and far, as she spoke, +A clear, chilly chime from a church-turret broke; +And the sound of her voice, with the sound of the bell, +On his ear, where he kneel'd, softly, soothingly fell. +All within him was wild and confused, as within +A chamber deserted in some roadside inn, +Where, passing, wild travellers paused, over-night, +To quaff and carouse; in each socket each light +Is extinct; crash'd the glasses, and scrawl'd is the wall +With wild ribald ballads; serenely o'er all, +For the first time perceived, where the dawn-light creeps faint +Through the wrecks of that orgy, the face of a saint, +Seen through some broken frame, appears noting meanwhile +The ruin all round with a sorrowful smile. +And he gazed round. The curtains of Darkness half drawn +Oped behind her; and pure as the pure light of dawn +She stood, bathed in morning, and seem'd to his eyes +From their sight to be melting away in the skies +That expanded around her. + + +XII. + + + There pass'd through his head +A fancy--a vision. That woman was dead +He had loved long ago--loved and lost! dead to him, +Dead to all the life left him; but there, in the dim +Dewy light of the dawn, stood a spirit; 'twas hers; +And he said to the soul of Lucile de Nevers: +"O soul to its sources departing away! +Pray for mine, if one soul for another may pray. +I to ask have no right, thou to give hast no power, +One hope to my heart. But in this parting hour +I name not my heart, and I speak not to thine. +Answer, soul of Lucile, to this dark soul of mine, +Does not soul owe to soul, what to heart heart denies, +Hope, when hope is salvation? Behold, in yon skies, +This wild night is passing away while I speak: +Lo, above us, the day-spring beginning to break! +Something wakens within me, and warms to the beam: +Is it hope that awakens? or do I but dream? +I know not. It may be, perchance, the first spark +Of a new light within me to solace the dark +Unto which I return; or perchance it may be +The last spark of fires half extinguish'd in me. +I know not. Thou goest thy way: I my own; +For good or for evil, I know not. Alone +This I know; we are parting. I wish'd to say more, +But no matter! 'twill pass. All between us is o'er. +Forget the wild words of to-night. 'Twas the pain +For long years hoarded up, that rush'd from me again. +I was unjust: forgive me. Spare now to reprove +Other words, other deeds. It was madness, not love, +That you thwarted this night. What is done is now done. +Death remains to avenge it, or life to atone. +I was madden'd, delirious! I saw you return +To him--not to me; and I felt my heart burn +With a fierce thirst for vengeance--and thus . . . let it pass! +Long thoughts these, and so brief the moments, alas! +Thou goest thy way, and I mine. I suppose +'Tis to meet nevermore. Is it not so? Who knows, +Or who heeds, where the exile from Paradise flies? +Or what altars of his in the desert may rise? +Is it not so, Lucile? Well, well! Thus then we part +Once again, soul from soul, as before heart from heart!" + + +XIII. + + +And again clearer far than the chime of a bell, +That voice on his sense softly, soothingly fell. +"Our two paths must part us, Eugene; for my own +Seems no more through that world in which henceforth alone +You must work out (as now I believe that you will) +The hope which you speak of. That work I shall still +(If I live) watch and welcome, and bless far away. +Doubt not this. But mistake not the thought, if I say +That the great moral combat between human life +And each human soul must be single. The strife +None can share, though by all its results may be known. +When the soul arms for battle, she goes forth alone. +I say not, indeed, we shall meet nevermore, +For I know not. But meet, as we have met of yore, +I know that we cannot. Perchance we may meet +By the death-bed, the tomb, in the crowd, in the street, +Or in solitude even, but never again +Shall we meet from henceforth as we have met, Eugene. +For we know not the way we are going, nor yet +Where our two ways may meet, or may cross. Life hath set +No landmarks before us. But this, this alone, +I will promise: whatever your path, or my own, +If, for once in the conflict before you, it chance +That the Dragon prevail, and with cleft shield, and lance +Lost or shatter'd, borne down by the stress of the war, +You falter and hesitate, if from afar +I, still watching (unknown to yourself, it may be) +O'er the conflict to which I conjure you, should see +That my presence could rescue, support you, or guide, +In the hour of that need I shall be at your side, +To warn, if you will, or incite, or control; +And again, once again, we shall meet, soul to soul!" + + +XIV. + + +The voice ceased. + He uplifted his eyes. + All alone +He stood on the bare edge of dawn. She was gone, +Like a star, when up bay after bay of the night, +Ripples in, wave on wave, the broad ocean of light. +And at once, in her place was the Sunrise! It rose +In its sumptuous splendor and solemn repose, +The supreme revelation of light. Domes of gold, +Realms of rose, in the Orient! and breathless, and bold, +While the great gates of heaven roll'd back one by one, +The bright herald angel stood stern in the sun! +Thrice holy Eospheros! Light's reign began +In the heaven, on the earth, in the heart of the man. +The dawn on the mountains! the dawn everywhere! +Light! silence! the fresh innovations of air! +O earth, and O ether! A butterfly breeze +Floated up, flutter'd down, and poised blithe on the trees. +Through the revelling woods, o'er the sharp-rippled stream, +Up the vale slow uncoiling itself out of dream, +Around the brown meadows, adown the hill-slope, +The spirits of morning were whispering, "HOPE!" + + +XV. + + +He uplifted his eyes. In the place where she stood +But a moment before, and where now roll'd the flood +Of the sunrise all golden, he seem'd to behold, +In the young light of sunrise, an image unfold +Of his own youth,--its ardors--its promise of fame-- +Its ancestral ambition; and France by the name +Of his sires seem'd to call him. There, hover'd in light, +That image aloft, o'er the shapeless and bright +And Aurorean clouds, which themselves seem'd to be +Brilliant fragments of that golden world, wherein he +Had once dwelt, a native! + There, rooted and bound +To the earth, stood the man, gazing at it! Around +The rims of the sunrise it hover'd and shone +Transcendent, that type of a youth that was gone; +And he--as the body may yearn for the soul, +So he yearn'd to embody that image. His whole +Heart arose to regain it. + "And is it too late?" +No! for Time is a fiction, and limits not fate. +Thought alone is eternal. Time thralls it in vain. +For the thought that springs upward and yearns to regain +The true source of spirit, there IS no TOO LATE. +As the stream to its first mountain levels, elate +In the fountain arises, the spirit in him +Arose to that image. The image waned dim +Into heaven; and heavenward with it, to melt +As it melted, in day's broad expansion, he felt +With a thrill, sweet and strange, and intense--awed, amazed-- +Something soar and ascend in his soul, as he gazed. + + + +CANTO VI. + + +I. + + +Man is born on a battle-field. Round him, to rend +Or resist, the dread Powers he displaces attend, +By the cradle which Nature, amidst the stern shocks +That have shatter'd creation, and shapen it, rocks. +He leaps with a wail into being; and lo! +His own mother, fierce Nature herself, is his foe. +Her whirlwinds are roused into wrath o'er his head: +'Neath his feet roll her earthquakes: her solitudes spread +To daunt him: her forces dispute his command: +Her snows fall to freeze him: her suns burn to brand: +Her seas yawn to engulf him: her rocks rise to crush: +And the lion and leopard, allied, lurk to rush +On their startled invader. + In lone Malabar, +Where the infinite forest spreads breathless and far, +'Mid the cruel of eye and the stealthy of claw +(Striped and spotted destroyers!) he sees, pale with awe, +On the menacing edge of a fiery sky, +Grim Doorga, blue-limb'd and red-handed, go by, +And the first thing he worships is Terror. + Anon, +Still impell'd by necessity hungrily on, +He conquers the realms of his own self-reliance, +And the last cry of fear wakes the first of defiance. +From the serpent he crushes its poisonous soul; +Smitten down in his path see the dead lion roll! +On toward Heaven the son of Alcmena strides high on +The heads of the Hydra, the spoils of the lion: +And man, conquering terror, is worshipp'd by man. + +A camp has the world been since first it began! +From his tents sweeps the roving Arabian; at peace, +A mere wandering shepherd that follows the fleece; +But, warring his way through a world's destinies, +Lo from Delhi, from Bagdadt, from Cordova, rise +Domes of empiry, dower'd with science and art, +Schools, libraries, forums, the palace, the mart! + +New realms to man's soul have been conquer'd. But those +Forthwith they are peopled for man by new foes! +The stars keep their secrets, the earth hides her own, +And bold must the man be that braves the Unknown! +Not a truth has to art or to science been given, +But brows have ached for it, and souls toil'd and striven; +And many have striven, and many have fail'd, +And many died, slain by the truth they assail'd, +But when Man hath tamed Nature, asserted his place +And dominion, behold! he is brought face to face +With a new foe--himself! + Nor may man on his shield +Ever rest, for his foe is ever afield, +Danger ever at hand, till the armed Archangel +Sound o'er him the trump of earth's final evangel. + + +II. + + +Silence straightway, stern Muse, the soft cymbals of pleasure, +Be all bronzen these numbers, and martial the measure! +Breathe, sonorously breathe, o'er the spirit in me +One strain, sad and stern, of that deep Epopee +Which thou, from the fashionless cloud of far time, +Chantest lonely, when Victory, pale, and sublime +In the light of the aureole over her head, +Hears, and heeds not the wound in her heart fresh and red. +Blown wide by the blare of the clarion, unfold +The shrill clanging curtains of war! + And behold +A vision! + The antique Heraclean seats; +And the long Black Sea billow that once bore those fleets, +Which said to the winds, "Be ye, too, Genoese!" +And the red angry sands of the chafed Cheronese; +And the two foes of man, War and Winter, allied +Round the Armies of England and France, side by side +Enduring and dying (Gaul and Briton abreast!) +Where the towers of the North fret the skies of the East. + + +III. + + +Since that sunrise which rose through the calm linden stems +O'er Lucile and Eugene, in the garden of Ems, +Through twenty-five seasons encircling the sun, +This planet of ours on its pathway hath gone, +And the fates that I sing of have flowed with the fates +Of a world, in the red wake of war, round the gates +Of that doom'd and heroical city, in which +(Fire crowning the rampart, blood bathing the ditch!), +At bay, fights the Russian as some hunted bear, +Whom the huntsmen have hemm'd round at last in his lair. + + +IV. + + +A fang'd, arid plain, sapp'd with underground fire, +Soak'd with snow, torn with shot, mash'd to one gory mire! +There Fate's iron scale hangs in horrid suspense, +While those two famished ogres--the Siege, the Defence, +Face to face, through a vapor frore, dismal, and dun, +Glare, scenting the breath of each other. + The one +Double-bodied, two-headed--by separate ways +Winding, serpent-wise, nearer; the other, each day's +Sullen toil adding size to,--concentrated, solid, +Indefatigable--the brass-fronted, embodied, +And audible [Greek text omitted] gone sombrely forth +To the world from that Autocrat Will of the north! + + +V. + + +In the dawn of a moody October, a pale +Ghostly motionless vapor began to prevail +Over city and camp; like the garment of death +Which (is formed by) the face it conceals. + 'Twas the breath +War, yet drowsily yawning, began to suspire; +Wherethrough, here and there, flash'd an eye of red fire, +And closed, from some rampart beginning to bellow +Hoarse challenge; replied to anon, through the yellow +And sulphurous twilight: till day reel'd and rock'd +And roar'd into dark. Then the midnight was mock'd +With fierce apparitions. Ring'd round by a rain +Of red fire, and of iron, the murtherous plain +Flared with fitful combustion; where fitfully fell +Afar off the fatal, disgorged scharpenelle, +And fired the horizon, and singed the coil'd gloom +With wings of swift flame round that City of Doom. + + +VI. + + +So the day--so the night! So by night, so by day, +With stern patient pathos, while time wears away, +In the trench flooded through, in the wind where it wails, +In the snow where it falls, in the fire where it hails +Shot and shell--link by link, out of hardship and pain, +Toil, sickness, endurance, is forged the bronze chain +Of those terrible siege-lines! + No change to that toil +Save the mine's sudden leap from the treacherous soil. +Save the midnight attack, save the groans of the maim'd, +And Death's daily obolus due, whether claim'd +By man or by nature. + + +VII. + + + Time passes. The dumb, +Bitter, snow-bound, and sullen November is come. +And its snows have been bathed in the blood of the brave; +And many a young heart has glutted the grave: +And on Inkerman yet the wild bramble is gory, +And those bleak heights henceforth shall be famous in story. + + +VIII. + + +The moon, swathed in storm, has long set: through the camp +No sound save the sentinel's slow sullen tramp, +The distant explosion, the wild sleety wind, +That seems searching for something it never can find. +The midnight is turning: the lamp is nigh spent: +And, wounded and lone, in a desolate tent +Lies a young British soldier whose sword . . . + In this place, +However, my Muse is compell'd to retrace +Her precipitous steps and revert to the past. +The shock which had suddenly shatter'd at last +Alfred Vargrave's fantastical holiday nature, +Had sharply drawn forth to his full size and stature +The real man, conceal'd till that moment beneath +All he yet had appear'd. From the gay broider'd sheath +Which a man in his wrath flings aside, even so +Leaps the keen trenchant steel summon'd forth by a blow. +And thus loss of fortune gave value to life. +The wife gain'd a husband, the husband a wife, +In that home which, though humbled and narrow'd by fate, +Was enlarged and ennobled by love. Low their state, +But large their possessions. + Sir Ridley, forgiven +By those he unwittingly brought nearer heaven +By one fraudulent act, than through all his sleek speech +The hypocrite brought his own soul, safe from reach +Of the law, died abroad. + Cousin John, heart and hand, +Purse and person, henceforth (honest man!) took his stand +By Matilda and Alfred; guest, guardian, and friend +Of the home he both shared and assured, to the end, +With his large lively love. Alfred Vargrave meanwhile +Faced the world's frown, consoled by his wife's faithful smile. +Late in life he began life in earnest; and still, +With the tranquil exertion of resolute will, +Through long, and laborious, and difficult days, +Out of manifold failure, by wearisome ways, +Work'd his way through the world; till at last he began +(Reconciled to the work which mankind claims for man), +After years of unwitness'd, unwearied endeavor, +Years impassion'd yet patient, to realize ever +More clear on the broad stream of current opinion +The reflex of powers in himself--that dominion +Which the life of one man, if his life be a truth, +May assert o'er the life of mankind. Thus, his youth +In his manhood renew'd, fame and fortune he won +Working only for home, love, and duty. + One son +Matilda had borne him; but scarce had the boy, +With all Eton yet fresh in his full heart's frank joy, +The darling of young soldier comrades, just glanced +Down the glad dawn of manhood at life, when it chanced +That a blight sharp and sudden was breath'd o'er the bloom +Of his joyous and generous years, and the gloom +Of a grief premature on their fair promise fell: +No light cloud like those which, for June to dispel, +Captious April engenders; but deep as his own +Deep nature. Meanwhile, ere I fully make known +The cause of this sorrow, I track the event. +When first a wild war-note through England was sent, +He, transferring without either token or word, +To friend, parent, or comrade, a yet virgin sword, +From a holiday troop, to one bound for the war, +Had march'd forth, with eyes that saw death in the star +Whence others sought glory. Thus fighting, he fell +On the red field of Inkerman; found, who can tell +By what miracle, breathing, though shatter'd, and borne +To the rear by his comrades, pierced, bleeding, and torn. +Where for long days and nights, with the wound in his side, +He lay, dark. + + +IX. + + + But a wound deeper far, undescried, +The young heart was rankling; for there, of a truth, +In the first earnest faith of a pure pensive youth, +A love large as life, deep and changeless as death, +Lay ensheath'd: and that love, ever fretting its sheath, +The frail scabbard of life pierced and wore through and through. +There are loves in man's life for which time can renew +All that time may destroy. Lives there are, though, in love, +Which cling to one faith, and die with it; nor move, +Though earthquakes may shatter the shrine. + Whence or how +Love laid claim to this young life, it matters not now. + + +X. + + +Oh is it a phantom? a dream of the night? +A vision which fever hath fashion'd to sight? +The wind wailing ever, with motion uncertain, +Sways sighingly there the drench'd tent's tattered curtain, +To and fro, up and down. + But it is not the wind +That is lifting it now: and it is not the mind +That hath moulded that vision. + A pale woman enters, +As wan as the lamp's waning light, which concenters +Its dull glare upon her. With eyes dim and dimmer +There, all in a slumberous and shadowy glimmer, +The sufferer sees that still form floating on, +And feels faintly aware that he is not alone. +She is flitting before him. She pauses. She stands +By his bedside all silent. She lays her white hands +On the brow of the boy. A light finger is pressing +Softly, softly the sore wounds: the hot blood-stain'd dressing +Slips from them. A comforting quietude steals +Through the rack'd weary frame; and, throughout it, he feels +The slow sense of a merciful, mild neighborhood. +Something smooths the toss'd pillow. Beneath a gray hood +Of rough serge, two intense tender eyes are bent o'er him, +And thrill through and through him. The sweet form before him, +It is surely Death's angel Life's last vigil keeping! +A soft voice says . . . "Sleep!" + And he sleeps: he is sleeping. + + +XI. + + +He waked before dawn. Still the vision is there. +Still that pale woman moves not. A minist'ring care +Meanwhile has been silently changing and cheering +The aspect of all things around him. + Revering +Some power unknown, and benignant, he bless'd +In silence the sense of salvation. And rest +Having loosen'd the mind's tangled meshes, he faintly +Sigh'd . . . "Say what thou art, blessed dream of a saintly +And minist'ring spirit!" + A whisper serene +Slid, softer than silence . . . "The Soeur Seraphine, +A poor Sister of Charity. Shun to inquire +Aught further, young soldier. The son of thy sire, +For the sake of that sire, I reclaim from the grave. +Thou didst not shun death: shun not life: 'Tis more brave +To live than to die. Sleep!" + He sleeps: he is sleeping. + + +XII. + + +He waken'd again, when the dawn was just steeping +The skies with chill splendor. And there, never flitting, +Never flitting, that vision of mercy was sitting. +As the dawn to the darkness, so life seemed returning +Slowly, feebly within him. The night-lamp yet burning, +Made ghastly the glimmering daybreak. + He said, +"If thou be of the living, and not of the dead, +Sweet minister, pour out yet further the healing +Of that balmy voice; if it may be, revealing +Thy mission of mercy; whence art thou?" + "O son +Of Matilda and Alfred, it matters not! One +Who is not of the living nor yet of the dead: +To thee, and to others, alive yet" . . . she said . . . +"So long as there liveth the poor gift in me +Of this ministration; to them, and to thee, +Dead in all things beside. A French Nun, whose vocation +Is now by this bedside. A nun hath no nation. +Wherever man suffers, or woman may soothe, +There her land! there her kindred!" + She bent down to smooth +The hot pillow; and added . . . "Yet more than another +Is thy life dear to me. For thy father, thy mother, +I know them--I know them." + "Oh, can it be? you! +My dearest dear father! my mother! you knew,' +You know them?" + She bowed, half averting her head +In silence. + He brokenly, timidly said, +"Do they know I am thus?" + "Hush!" . . . she smiled, as she drew +From her bosom two letters: and--can it be true? +That beloved and familiar writing! + He burst +Into tears . . . "My poor mother--my father! the worst +Will have reach'd them!" + "No, no!" she exclaimed, with a smile, +"They know you are living; they know that meanwhile +I am watching beside you. Young soldier, weep not!" +But still on the nun's nursing bosom, the hot +Fever'd brow of the boy weeping wildly is press'd. +There, at last, the young heart sobs itself into rest: +And he hears, as it were between smiling and weeping, +The calm voice say . . . "Sleep!" + And he sleeps, he is sleeping. + + +XIII. + + +And day follow'd day. And, as wave follow'd wave, +With the tide, day by day, life, re-issuing, drave +Through that young hardy frame novel currents of health. +Yet some strange obstruction, which life's health by stealth +Seemed to cherish, impeded life's progress. And still +A feebleness, less of the frame than the will, +Clung about the sick man--hid and harbor'd within +The sad hollow eyes: pinch'd the cheek pale and thin: +And clothed the wan fingers with languor. + And there, +Day by day, night by night, unremitting in care, +Unwearied in watching, so cheerful of mien, +And so gentle of hand, sat the Soeur Seraphine! + + +XIV. + + +A strange woman truly! not young; yet her face, +Wan and worn as it was, bore about it the trace +Of a beauty which time could not ruin. For the whole +Quiet cheek, youth's lost bloom left transparent, the soul +Seemed to fill with its own light, like some sunny fountain +Everlastingly fed from far off in the mountain +That pours, in a garden deserted, its streams, +And all the more lovely for loneliness seems. +So that, watching that face, you could scarce pause to guess +The years which its calm careworn lines might express, +Feeling only what suffering with these must have past +To have perfected there so much sweetness at last. + + +XV. + + +Thus, one bronzen evening, when day had put out, +His brief thrifty fires, and the wind was about, +The nun, watchful still by the boy, on his own +Laid a firm quiet hand, and the deep tender tone +Of her voice moved the silence. + She said . . . "I have heal'd +These wounds of the body. Why hast thou conceal'd, +Young soldier, that yet open wound in the heart? +Wilt thou trust NO hand near it?" + He winced, with a start, +As of one that is suddenly touched on the spot +From which every nerve derives suffering. + "What? +Lies my heart, then, so bare?" he moaned bitterly. + "Nay," +With compassionate accents she hastened to say, +"Do you think that these eyes are with sorrow, young man, +So all unfamiliar, indeed, as to scan +Her features, yet know them not? + "Oh, was it spoken, +'Go ye forth, heal the sick, lift the low, bind the broken!' +Of the body alone? Is our mission, then, done, +When we leave the bruised hearts, if we bind the bruised bone? +Nay, is not the mission of mercy twofold? +Whence twofold, perchance, are the powers that we hold +To fulfil it, of Heaven! For Heaven doth still +To us, Sisters, it may be, who seek it, send skill +Won from long intercourse with affliction, and art +Help'd of Heaven, to bind up the broken of heart. +Trust to me!" (His two feeble hands in her own +She drew gently.) "Trust to me!" (she said, with soft tone): +"I am not so dead in remembrance to all +I have died to in this world, but what I recall +Enough of its sorrow, enough of its trial, +To grieve for both--save from both haply! The dial +Receives many shades, and each points to the sun. +The shadows are many, the sunlight is one. +Life's sorrows still fluctuate: God's love does not. +And His love is unchanged, when it changes our lot. +Looking up to this light, which is common to all, +And down to these shadows, on each side, that fall +In time's silent circle, so various for each, +Is it nothing to know that they never can reach +So far, but what light lies beyond them forever? +Trust to me! Oh, if in this hour I endeavor +To trace the shade creeping across the young life +Which, in prayer till this hour, I have watch'd through its strife +With the shadow of death, 'tis with this faith alone, +That, in tracing the shade, I shall find out the sun. +Trust to me!" + She paused: he was weeping. Small need +Of added appeal, or entreaty, indeed, +Had those gentle accents to win from his pale +And parch'd, trembling lips, as it rose, the brief tale +Of a life's early sorrow. The story is old, +And in words few as may be shall straightway be told. + + +XVI. + + +A few years ago, ere the fair form of Peace +Was driven from Europe, a young girl--the niece +Of a French noble, leaving an old Norman pile +By the wild northern seas, came to dwell for a while +With a lady allied to her race--an old dame +Of a threefold legitimate virtue, and name, +In the Faubourg Saint Germain. + Upon that fair child, +From childhood, nor father nor mother had smiled. +One uncle their place in her life had supplied, +And their place in her heart: she had grown at his side, +And under his roof-tree, and in his regard, +From childhood to girlhood. + This fair orphan ward +Seem'd the sole human creature that lived in the heart +Of that stern rigid man, or whose smile could impart +One ray of response to the eyes which, above +Her fair infant forehead, look'd down with a love +That seem'd almost stern, so intense was its chill +Lofty stillness, like sunlight on some lonely hill +Which is colder and stiller than sunlight elsewhere. + +Grass grew in the court-yard; the chambers were bare +In that ancient mansion; when first the stern tread +Of its owner awaken'd their echoes long dead: +Bringing with him this infant (the child of a brother), +Whom, dying, the hands of a desolate mother +Had placed on his bosom. 'Twas said--right or wrong-- +That, in the lone mansion, left tenantless long, +To which, as a stranger, its lord now return'd, +In years yet recall'd, through loud midnights had burn'd +The light of wild orgies. Be that false or true, +Slow and sad was the footstep which now wander'd through +Those desolate chambers; and calm and severe +Was the life of their inmate. + Men now saw appear +Every morn at the mass that firm sorrowful face, +Which seem'd to lock up in a cold iron case +Tears harden'd to crystal. Yet harsh if he were, +His severity seem'd to be trebly severe +In the rule of his own rigid life, which, at least, +Was benignant to others. The poor parish priest, +Who lived on his largess, his piety praised. +The peasant was fed, and the chapel was raised, +And the cottage was built, by his liberal hand. +Yet he seem'd in the midst of his good deeds to stand +A lone, and unloved, and unlovable man. +There appear'd some inscrutable flaw in the plan +Of his life, that love fail'd to pass over. + That child +Alone did not fear him, nor shrink from him; smiled +To his frown, and dispell'd it. + The sweet sportive elf +Seem'd the type of some joy lost, and miss'd, in himself. +Ever welcome he suffer'd her glad face to glide +In on hours when to others his door was denied: +And many a time with a mute moody look +He would watch her at prattle and play, like a brook +Whose babble disturbs not the quietest spot, +But soothes us because we need answer it not. + +But few years had pass'd o'er that childhood before +A change came among them. A letter, which bore +Sudden consequence with it, one morning was placed +In the hands of the lord of the chateau. He paced +To and fro in his chamber a whole night alone +After reading that letter. At dawn he was gone. +Weeks pass'd. When he came back again he return'd +With a tall ancient dame, from whose lips the child learn'd +That they were of the same race and name. With a face +Sad and anxious, to this wither'd stock of the race +He confided the orphan, and left them alone +In the old lonely house. + In a few days 'twas known, +To the angry surprise of half Paris, that one +Of the chiefs of that party which, still clinging on +To the banner that bears the white lilies of France, +Will fight 'neath no other, nor yet for the chance +Of restoring their own, had renounced the watchword +And the creed of his youth in unsheathing his sword, +For a Fatherland father'd no more (such is fate!) +By legitimate parents. + And meanwhile, elate +And in no wise disturbed by what Paris might say, +The new soldier thus wrote to a friend far away:-- +"To the life of inaction farewell! After all, +Creeds the oldest may crumble, and dynasties fall, +But the sole grand Legitimacy will endure, +In whatever makes death noble, life strong and pure. +Freedom! action! . . . the desert to breathe in--the lance +Of the Arab to follow! I go! vive la France!" + +Few and rare were the meetings henceforth, as years fled, +'Twixt the child and the soldier. The two women led +Lone lives in the lone house. Meanwhile the child grew +Into girlhood; and, like a sunbeam, sliding through +Her green quiet years, changed by gentle degrees +To the loveliest vision of youth a youth sees +In his loveliest fancies: as pure as a pearl, +And as perfect: a noble and innocent girl, +With eighteen sweet summers dissolved in the light +Of her lovely and lovable eyes, soft and bright! +Then her guardian wrote to the dame, . . . "Let Constance +Go with you to Paris. I trust that in France +I may be ere the close of the year. I confide +My life's treasure to you. Let her see, at your side, +The world which we live in." + To Paris then came +Constance to abide with that old stately dame +In that old stately Faubourg. + The young Englishman +Thus met her. 'Twas there their acquaintance began, +There it closed. That old miracle, Love-at-first-sight, +Needs no explanations. The heart reads aright +Its destiny sometimes. His love neither chidden +Nor check'd, the young soldier was graciously bidden +An habitual guest to that house by the dame. +His own candid graces, the world-honor'd name +Of his father (in him not dishonor'd) were both +Fair titles to favor. His love, nothing loath, +The old lady observed, was return'd by Constance. +And as the child's uncle his absence from France +Yet prolong'd, she (thus easing long self-gratulation) +Wrote to him a lengthen'd and moving narration +Of the graces and gifts of the young English wooer: +His father's fair fame; the boy's deference to her; +His love for Constance,--unaffected, sincere; +And the girl's love for him, read by her in those clear +Limpid eyes; then the pleasure with which she awaited +Her cousin's approval of all she had stated. + +At length from that cousin an answer there came, +Brief, stern; such as stunn'd and astonish'd the dame. + +"Let Constance leave Paris with you on the day +You receive this. Until my return she may stay +At her convent awhile. If my niece wishes ever +To behold me again, understand, she will never +Wed that man. + "You have broken faith with me. Farewell!" +No appeal from that sentence. + It needs not to tell +The tears of Constance, nor the grief of her lover: +The dream they had laid out their lives in was over. +Bravely strove the young soldier to look in the face +Of a life where invisible hands seemed to trace +O'er the threshold these words . . . "Hope no more!" + + Unreturn'd +Had his love been, the strong manful heart would have spurn'd +That weakness which suffers a woman to lie +At the roots of man's life, like a canker, and dry +And wither the sap of life's purpose. But there +Lay the bitterer part of the pain! Could he dare +To forget he was loved? that he grieved not alone? +Recording a love that drew sorrow upon +The woman he loved, for himself dare he seek +Surcease to that sorrow, which thus held him weak, +Beat him down, and destroy'd him? + News reach'd him indeed, +Through a comrade, who brought him a letter to read +From the dame who had care of Constance (it was one +To whom, when at Paris, the boy had been known, +A Frenchman, and friend of the Faubourg), which said +That Constance, although never a murmur betray'd +What she suffer'd, in silence grew paler each day, +And seem'd visibly drooping and dying away. +It was then he sought death. + + +XVII. + + + Thus the tale ends. 'Twas told +With such broken, passionate words, as unfold +In glimpses alone, a coil'd grief. Through each pause +Of its fitful recital, in raw gusty flaws, +The rain shook the canvas, unheeded; aloof, +And unheeded, the night-wind around the tent-roof +At intervals wirbled. And when all was said, +The sick man, exhausted, droop'd backward his head, +And fell into a feverish slumber. + Long while +Sat the Soeur Seraphine, in deep thought. The still smile +That was wont, angel-wise, to inhabit her face +And made it like heaven, was fled from its place +In her eyes, on her lips; and a deep sadness there +Seem'd to darken the lines of long sorrow and care, +As low to herself she sigh'd . . . + "Hath it, Eugene, +Been so long, then, the struggle? . . . and yet, all in vain! +Nay, not all in vain! shall the world gain a man, +And yet Heaven lose a soul? Have I done all I can? +Soul to soul, did he say? Soul to soul, be it so! +And then--soul of mine, whither? whither?" + + +XVIII. + + + Large, slow, +Silent tears in those deep eyes ascended, and fell. +"HERE, at least, I have fail'd not" . . . she mused . . . "this is well!" +She drew from her bosom two letters. + In one, +A mother's heart, wild with alarm for her son, +Breathed bitterly forth its despairing appeal. +"The pledge of a love owed to thee, O Lucile! +The hope of a home saved by thee--of a heart +Which hath never since then (thrice endear'd as thou art!) +Ceased to bless thee, to pray for thee, save! save my son! +And if not" . . . the letter went brokenly on, +"Heaven help us!" + Then follow'd, from Alfred, a few +Blotted heart-broken pages. He mournfully drew, +With pathos, the picture of that earnest youth, +So unlike his own; how in beauty and truth +He had nurtured that nature, so simple and brave! +And how he had striven his son's youth to save +From the errors so sadly redeem'd in his own, +And so deeply repented: how thus, in that son, +In whose youth he had garner'd his age, he had seem'd +To be bless'd by a pledge that the past was redeem'd, +And forgiven. He bitterly went on to speak +Of the boy's baffled love; in which fate seem'd to break +Unawares on his dreams with retributive pain, +And the ghosts of the past rose to scourge back again +The hopes of the future. To sue for consent +Pride forbade: and the hope his old foe might relent +Experience rejected . . . "My life for the boy's!" +(He exclaim'd); "for I die with my son, if he dies! +Lucile! Heaven bless you for all you have done! +Save him, save him, Lucile! save my son! save my son!" + + +XIX. + + +"Ay!" murmur'd the Soeur Seraphine . . . "heart to heart! +THERE, at least, I have fail'd not! Fulfill'd is my part? +Accomplish'd my mission? One act crowns the whole. +Do I linger? Nay, be it so, then! . . . Soul to soul!" +She knelt down, and pray'd. Still the boy slumber'd on, +Dawn broke. The pale nun from the bedside was gone. + + +XX. + +Meanwhile, 'mid his aides-de-camp, busily bent +O'er the daily reports, in his well-order'd tent +There sits a French General--bronzed by the sun +And sear'd by the sands of Algeria. One +Who forth from the wars of the wild Kabylee +Had strangely and rapidly risen to be +The idol, the darling, the dream and the star +Of the younger French chivalry: daring in war, +And wary in council. He enter'd, indeed, +Late in life (and discarding his Bourbonite creed) +The Army of France: and had risen, in part +From a singular aptitude proved for the art +Of that wild desert warfare of ambush, surprise, +And stratagem, which to the French camp supplies +Its subtlest intelligence; partly from chance; +Partly, too, from a name and position which France +Was proud to put forward; but mainly, in fact, +From the prudence to plan, and the daring to act, +In frequent emergencies startlingly shown, +To the rank which he now held,--intrepidly won +With many a wound, trench'd in many a scar, +From fierce Milianah and Sidi-Sakhdar. + + +XXI. + + +All within, and without, that warm tent seems to bear +Smiling token of provident order and care. +All about, a well-fed, well-clad soldiery stands +In groups round the music of mirth-breathing bands. +In and out of the tent, all day long, to and fro, +The messengers come and the messengers go, +Upon missions of mercy, or errands of toil: +To report how the sapper contends with the soil +In the terrible trench, how the sick man is faring +In the hospital tent: and, combining, comparing, +Constructing, within moves the brain of one man, +Moving all. + He is bending his brow o'er some plan +For the hospital service, wise, skilful, humane. +The officer standing behind him is fain +To refer to the angel solicitous cares +Of the Sisters of Charity: one he declares +To be known through the camp as a seraph of grace; +He has seen, all have seen her indeed, in each place +Where suffering is seen, silent, active--the Soeur . . . +Soeur . . . how do they call her? + "Ay, truly, of her +I have heard much," the General, musing, replies; +"And we owe her already (unless rumor lies) +The lives of not few of our bravest. You mean +Ah, how do they call her? . . . the Soeur--Seraphine +(Is it not so?). I rarely forget names once heard." + +"Yes; the Soeur Seraphine. Her I meant." + "On my word, +I have much wish'd to see her. I fancy I trace, +In some facts traced to her, something more than the grace +Of an angel; I mean an acute human mind, +Ingenious, constructive, intelligent. Find, +And if possible, let her come to me. We shall, +I think, aid each other." + "Oui, mon General: +I believe she has lately obtained the permission +To tend some sick man in the Second Division +Of our Ally; they say a relation." + "Ay, so? +A relation?" + "'Tis said so." + "The name do you know?" +Non, mon General." + While they spoke yet, there went +A murmur and stir round the door of the tent. +"A Sister of Charity craves, in a case +Of urgent and serious importance, the grace +Of brief private speech with the General there. +Will the General speak with her?" + "Bid her declare +Her mission." + "She will not. She craves to be seen +And be heard." + "Well, her name, then?" + "The Soeur Seraphine." +"Clear the tent. She may enter." + + +XXII. + + + The tent has been clear'd, +The chieftain stroked moodily somewhat his beard, +A sable long silver'd: and press'd down his brow +On his hand, heavy vein'd. All his countenance, now +Unwitness'd, at once fell dejected, and dreary, +As a curtain let fall by a hand that's grown weary, +Into puckers and folds. From his lips, unrepress'd, +Steals th' impatient sigh which reveals in man's breast +A conflict conceal'd, and experience at strife +With itself,--the vex'd heart's passing protest on life. +He turn'd to his papers. He heard the light tread +Of a faint foot behind him: and, lifting his head, +Said, "Sit, Holy Sister! your worth is well known +To the hearts of our soldiers; nor less to my own. +I have much wish'd to see you. I owe you some thanks; +In the name of all those you have saved to our ranks +I record them. Sit! Now then, your mission?" + The nun +Paused silent. The General eyed her anon +More keenly. His aspect grew troubled. A change +Darken'd over his features. He mutter'd "Strange! strange! +Any face should so strongly remind me of HER! +Fool! again the delirium, the dream! does it stir? +Does it move as of old? Psha! + "Sit, Sister! I wait +Your answer, my time halts but hurriedly. State +The cause why you seek me." + "The cause? ay, the cause!" +She vaguely repeated. Then, after a pause,-- +As one who, awaked unawares, would put back +The sleep that forever returns in the track +Of dreams which, though scared and dispersed, not the less +Settle back to faint eyelids that yield 'neath their stress, +Like doves to a pent-house,--a movement she made, +Less toward him than away from herself; droop'd her head +And folded her hands on her bosom: long, spare, +Fatigued, mournful hands! Not a stream of stray hair +Escaped the pale bands; scarce more pale than the face +Which they bound and lock'd up in a rigid white case. +She fix'd her eyes on him. There crept a vague awe +O'er his sense, such as ghosts cast. + "Eugene de Luvois, +The cause which recalls me again to your side, +Is a promise that rests unfulfill'd," she replied. +"I come to fulfil it." + He sprang from the place +Where he sat, press'd his hand, as in doubt, o'er his face; +And, cautiously feeling each step o'er the ground +That he trod on (as one who walks fearing the sound +Of his footstep may startle and scare out of sight +Some strange sleeping creature on which he would 'light +Unawares), crept towards her; one heavy hand laid +On her shoulder in silence; bent o'er her his head, +Search'd her face with a long look of troubled appeal +Against doubt: stagger'd backward, and murmur'd . . . "Lucile? +Thus we meet then? . . . here! . . . thus?" + "Soul to soul, ay, + Eugene, +As I pledged you my word that we should meet again. +Dead, . . ." she murmur'd, "long dead! all that lived in our lives-- +Thine and mine--saving that which ev'n life's self survives, +The soul! 'Tis my soul seeks thine own. What may reach +From my life to thy life (so wide each from each!) +Save the soul to the soul? To thy soul I would speak. +May I do so?" + He said (work'd and white was his cheek +As he raised it), "Speak to me!" + Deep, tender, serene, +And sad was the gaze which the Soeur Seraphine +Held on him. She spoke. + + +XXIII. + + + As some minstrel may fling, +Preluding the music yet mute in each string, +A swift hand athwart the hush'd heart of the whole, +Seeking which note most fitly must first move the soul; +And, leaving untroubled the deep chords below, +Move pathetic in numbers remote;--even so +The voice which was moving the heart of that man +Far away from its yet voiceless purpose began, +Far away in the pathos remote of the past; +Until, through her words, rose before him, at last, +Bright and dark in their beauty, the hopes that were gone +Unaccomplish'd from life. + He was mute. + + +XXIV. + + + She went on +And still further down the dim past did she lead +Each yielding remembrance, far, far off, to feed +'Mid the pastures of youth, in the twilight of hope, +And the valleys of boyhood, the fresh-flower'd slope +Of life's dawning land! + 'Tis the heart of a boy, +With its indistinct, passionate prescience of joy! +The unproved desire--the unaim'd aspiration-- +The deep conscious life that forestalls consummation +With ever a flitting delight--one arm's length +In advance of the august inward impulse. + The strength +Of the spirit which troubles the seed in the sand +With the birth of the palm-tree! Let ages expand +The glorious creature! The ages lie shut +(Safe, see!) in the seed, at time's signal to put +Forth their beauty and power, leaf by leaf, layer on layer, +Till the palm strikes the sun, and stands broad in blue air. +So the palm in the palm-seed! so, slowly--so, wrought +Year by year unperceived, hope on hope, thought by thought, +Trace the growth of the man from its germ in the boy. +Ah, but Nature, that nurtures, may also destroy! +Charm the wind and the sun, lest some chance intervene! +While the leaf's in the bud, while the stem's in the green, +A light bird bends the branch, a light breeze breaks the bough, +Which, if spared by the light breeze, the light bird, may grow +To baffle the tempest, and rock the high nest, +And take both the bird and the breeze to its breast. +Shall we save a whole forest in sparing one seed? +Save the man in the boy? in the thought save the deed? +Let the whirlwind uproot the grown tree, if it can! +Save the seed from the north wind. So let the grown man +Face our fate. Spare the man-seed in youth. + He was dumb. +She went one step further. + + +XXV. + + + Lo! manhood is come. +And love, the wild song-bird, hath flown to the tree. +And the whirlwind comes after. Now prove we, and see: +What shade from the leaf? what support from the branch? +Spreads the leaf broad and fair? holds the bough strong and staunch? +There, he saw himself--dark, as he stood on that night, +The last when they met and they parted: a sight +For heaven to mourn o'er, for hell to rejoice! +An ineffable tenderness troubled her voice; +It grew weak, and a sigh broke it through. + Then he said +(Never looking at her, never lifting his head, +As though, at his feet, there lay visibly hurl'd +Those fragments), "It was not a love, 'twas a world, +'Twas a life that lay ruin'd, Lucile!" + + +XXVI. + + + She went on. +"So be it! Perish Babel, arise Babylon! +From ruins like these rise the fanes that shall last, +And to build up the future heaven shatters the past." +"Ay," he moodily murmur'd, "and who cares to scan +The heart's perish'd world, if the world gains a man? +From the past to the present, though late, I appeal; +To the nun Seraphine, from the woman Lucile!" + + +XXVII. + + +Lucile! . . . the old name--the old self! silenced long: +Heard once more! felt once more! + As some soul to the throng +Of invisible spirits admitted, baptized +By death to a new name and nature--surprised +'Mid the songs of the seraphs, hears faintly, and far, +Some voice from the earth, left below a dim star, +Calling to her forlornly; and (sadd'ning the psalms +Of the angels, and piercing the Paradise palms!) +The name borne 'mid earthly beloveds on earth +Sigh'd above some lone grave in the land of her birth;-- +So that one word . . . Lucile! . . . stirr'd the Soeur Seraphine, +For a moment. Anon she resumed here serene +And concentrated calm. + "Let the Nun, then, retrace +The life of the soldier!" . . . she said, with a face +That glow'd, gladdening her words. + "To the present I come: +Leave the Past!" + There her voice rose, and seem'd as when some +Pale Priestess proclaims from her temple the praise +Of her hero whose brows she is crowning with bays. +Step by step did she follow his path from the place +Where their two paths diverged. Year by year did she trace +(Familiar with all) his, the soldier's existence. +Her words were of trial, endurance, resistance; +Of the leaguer around this besieged world of ours: +And the same sentinels that ascend the same towers +And report the same foes, the same fears, the same strife, +Waged alike to the limits of each human life. +She went on to speak of the lone moody lord, +Shut up in his lone moody halls: every word +Held the weight of a tear: she recorded the good +He had patiently wrought through a whole neighborhood; +And the blessing that lived on the lips of the poor, +By the peasant's hearthstone, or the cottager's door. +There she paused: and her accents seem'd dipp'd in the hue +Of his own sombre heart, as the picture she drew +Of the poor, proud, sad spirit, rejecting love's wages, +Yet working love's work; reading backwards life's pages +For penance; and stubbornly, many a time, +Both missing the moral, and marring the rhyme. +Then she spoke of the soldier! . . . the man's work and fame, +The pride of a nation, a world's just acclaim! +Life's inward approval! + + +XXVIII. + + + Her voice reach'd his heart, +And sank lower. She spoke of herself: how, apart +And unseen,--far away,--she had watch'd, year by year, +With how many a blessing, how many a tear, +And how many a prayer, every stage in the strife: +Guess'd the thought in the deed: traced the love in the life: +Bless'd the man in the man's work! + "THY work . . . oh, not mine! +Thine, Lucile!" . . . he exclaim'd . . . "all the worth of it thine, +If worth there be in it!" + Her answer convey'd +His reward, and her own: joy that cannot be said +Alone by the voice . . . eyes--face--spoke silently: +All the woman, one grateful emotion! + And she +A poor Sister of Charity! hers a life spent +In one silent effort for others! . . . + She bent +Her divine face above him, and fill'd up his heart +With the look that glow'd from it. + Then slow, with soft art, +Fix'd her aim, and moved to it. + + +XXIX. + + + He, the soldier humane, +He, the hero; whose heart hid in glory the pain +Of a youth disappointed; whose life had made known +The value of man's life! . . . that youth overthrown +And retrieved, had it left him no pity for youth +In another? his own life of strenuous truth +Accomplish'd in act, had it taught him no care +For the life of another? . . . oh no! everywhere +In the camp which she moved through, she came face to face +With some noble token, some generous trace +Of his active humanity . . . + "Well," he replied, +"If it be so?" + "I come from the solemn bedside +Of a man that is dying," she said. "While we speak, +A life is in jeopardy." + "Quick then! you seek +Aid or medicine, or what?" + "'Tis not needed," she said. +"Medicine? yes, for the mind! 'Tis a heart that needs aid! +You, Eugene de Luvois, you (and you only) can +Save the life of this man. Will you save it?" + "What man? +How? . . . where? . . . can you ask?" + She went rapidly on +To her object in brief vivid words . . . The young son +Of Matilda and Alfred--the boy lying there +Half a mile from that tent door--the father's despair, +The mother's deep anguish--the pride of the boy +In the father--the father's one hope and one joy +In the son:---the son now--wounded, dying! She told +Of the father's stern struggle with life: the boy's bold, +Pure, and beautiful nature: the fair life before him +If that life were but spared . . . yet a word might restore him! +The boy's broken love for the niece of Eugene! +Its pathos: the girl's love for him; how, half slain +In his tent, she had found him: won from him the tale; +Sought to nurse back his life; found her efforts still fail +Beaten back by a love that was stronger than life; +Of how bravely till then he had stood in that strife +Wherein England and France in their best blood, at last, +Had bathed from remembrance the wounds of the past. +And shall nations be nobler than men? Are not great +Men the models of nations? For what is a state +But the many's confused imitation of one? +Shall he, the fair hero of France, on the son +Of his ally seek vengeance, destroying perchance +An innocent life,--here, when England and France +Have forgiven the sins of their fathers of yore, +And baptized a new hope in their sons' recent gore? +She went on to tell how the boy had clung still +To life, for the sake of life's uses, until +From his weak hands the strong effort dropp'd, stricken down +By the news that the heart of Constance, like his own, +Was breaking beneath . . . + But there "Hold!" he exclaim'd, +Interrupting, "Forbear!" . . . his whole face was inflamed +With the heart's swarthy thunder which yet, while she spoke, +Had been gathering silent--at last the storm broke +In grief or in wrath . . . + "'Tis to him, then," he cried, . . . +Checking suddenly short the tumultuous stride, +"That I owe these late greetings--for him you are here-- +For his sake you seek me--for him, it is clear, +You have deign'd at the last to bethink you again +Of this long-forgotten existence!" + "Eugene!" +"Ha! fool that I was!" . . . he went on, . . . "and just now, +While you spoke yet, my heart was beginning to grow +Almost boyish again, almost sure of ONE friend! +Yet this was the meaning of all--this the end! +Be it so! There's a sort of slow justice (admit!) +In this--that the word that man's finger hath writ +In fire on my heart, I return him at last. +Let him learn that word--Never!" + "Ah, still to the past +Must the present be vassal?" she said. "In the hour +We last parted I urged you to put forth the power +Which I felt to be yours, in the conquest of life. +Yours, the promise to strive: mine--to watch o'er the strife. +I foresaw you would conquer; you HAVE conquer'd much, +Much, indeed, that is noble! I hail it as such, +And am here to record and applaud it. I saw +Not the less in your nature, Eugene de Luvois, +One peril--one point where I feared you would fail +To subdue that worst foe which a man can assail,-- +Himself: and I promised that, if I should see +My champion once falter, or bend the brave knee, +That moment would bring me again to his side. +That moment is come! for that peril was pride, +And you falter. I plead for yourself, and another, +For that gentle child without father or mother, +To whom you are both. I plead, soldier of France, +For your own nobler nature--and plead for Constance!" +At the sound of that name he averted his head. +"Constance! . . . Ay, she enter'd MY lone life" (he said) +"When its sun was long set; and hung over its night +Her own starry childhood. I have but that light, +In the midst of much darkness! Who names me but she +With titles of love? And what rests there for me +In the silence of age save the voice of that child? +The child of my own better life, undefiled! +My creature, carved out of my heart of hearts!" + "Say," +Said the Soeur Seraphine--"are you able to lay +Your hand as a knight on your heart as a man +And swear that, whatever may happen, you can +Feel assured for the life you thus cherish?" + "How so?" +He look'd up. "if the boy should die thus?" + "Yes, I know +What your look would imply . . . this sleek stranger forsooth! +Because on his cheek was the red rose of youth +The heart of my niece must break for it!" + She cried, +"Nay, but hear me yet further!" + With slow heavy stride, +Unheeding her words, he was pacing the tent, +He was muttering low to himself as he went. +Ay, these young things lie safe in our heart just so long +As their wings are in growing; and when these are strong +They break it, and farewell! the bird flies!" . . . + The nun +Laid her hand on the soldier, and murmur'd, "The sun +Is descending, life fleets while we talk thus! oh, yet +Let this day upon one final victory set, +And complete a life's conquest!" + He said, "Understand! +If Constance wed the son of this man, by whose hand +My heart hath been robb'd, she is lost to my life! +Can her home be my home? Can I claim in the wife +Of that man's son the child of my age? At her side +Shall he stand on my hearth? Shall I sue to the bride +Of . . . enough! + "Ah, and you immemorial halls +Of my Norman forefathers, whose shadow yet falls +On my fancy, and fuses hope, memory, past, +Present,--all, in one silence! old trees to the blast +Of the North Sea repeating the tale of old days, +Nevermore, nevermore in the wild bosky ways +Shall I hear through your umbrage ancestral the wind +Prophesy as of yore, when it shook the deep mind +Of my boyhood, with whispers from out the far years +Of love, fame, the raptures life cools down with tears! +Henceforth shall the tread of a Vargrave alone +Rouse your echoes?" + "O think not," she said, "of the son +Of the man whom unjustly you hate; only think +Of this young human creature, that cries from the brink +Of a grave to your mercy! + "Recall your own words +(Words my memory mournfully ever records!) +How with love may be wreck'd a whole life! then, Eugene, +Look with me (still those words in our ears!) once again +At this young soldier sinking from life here--dragg'd down +By the weight of the love in his heart: no renown, +No fame comforts HIM! nations shout not above +The lone grave down to which he is bearing the love +Which life has rejected! Will YOU stand apart? +You, with such a love's memory deep in your heart! +You the hero, whose life hath perchance been led on +Through the deeds it hath wrought to the fame it hath won, +By recalling the visions and dreams of a youth, +Such as lies at your door now: who have but, in truth, +To stretch forth a hand, to speak only one word, +And by that word you rescue a life!" + He was stirr'd. +Still he sought to put from him the cup, bow'd his face +on his hand; and anon, as though wishing to chase +With one angry gesture his own thoughts aside, +He sprang up, brush'd past her, and bitterly cried, +"No!--Constance wed a Vargrave!"--I cannot consent!" +Then up rose the Soeur Seraphine. + The low tent +In her sudden uprising, seem'd dwarf'd by the height +From which those imperial eyes pour'd the light +Of their deep silent sadness upon him. + No wonder +He felt, as it were, his own stature shrink under +The compulsion of that grave regard! For between +The Duc de Luvois and the Soeur Seraphine +At that moment there rose all the height of one soul +O'er another; she look'd down on him from the whole +Lonely length of a life. There were sad nights and days, +There were long months and years in that heart-searching gaze; +And her voice, when she spoke, with sharp pathos thrill'd through +And transfix'd him. + "Eugene de Luvois, but for you, +I might have been now--not this wandering nun, +But a mother, a wife--pleading, not for the son +Of another, but blessing some child of my own, +His,--the man's that I once loved! . . . Hush! that which is done +I regret not. I breathe no reproaches. That's best +Which God sends. 'Twas his will: it is mine. And the rest +Of that riddle I will not look back to. He reads +In your heart--He that judges of all thoughts and deeds. +With eyes, mine forestall not! This only I say: +You have not the right (read it, you, as you may!) +To say . . . 'I am the wrong'd."' . . . + "Have I wrong'd thee?--wrong'd THEE!" +He falter'd, "Lucile, ah, Lucile!" + "Nay, not me," +She murmur'd, "but man! The lone nun standing here +Has no claim upon earth, and is pass'd from the sphere +Of earth's wrongs and earth's reparations. But she, +The dead woman, Lucile, she whose grave is in me, +Demands from her grave reparation to man, +Reparation to God. Heed, O heed, while you can, +This voice from the grave!" + "Hush!" he moan'd, "I obey +The Soeur Seraphine. There, Lucile! let this pay +Every debt that is due to that grave. Now lead on: +I follow you, Soeur Seraphine! . . . To the son +Of Lord Alfred Vargrave . . . and then," . . . + As he spoke +He lifted the tent-door, and down the dun smoke +Pointed out the dark bastions, with batteries crown'd, +Of the city beneath them . . . + "Then, THERE, underground, +And valete et plaudite, soon as may be! +Let the old tree go down to the earth--the old tree +With the worm at its heart! Lay the axe to the root! +Who will miss the old stump, so we save the young shoot? +A Vargrave! . . . this pays all . . . Lead on! In the seed +Save the forest! . . . + I follow . . . forth, forth! where you lead." + + +XXX. + + +The day was declining; a day sick and damp. +In a blank ghostly glare shone the bleak ghostly camp +Of the English. Alone in his dim, spectral tent +(Himself the wan spectre of youth), with eyes bent +On the daylight departing, the sick man was sitting +Upon his low pallet. These thoughts, vaguely flitting, +Cross'd the silence between him and death, which seem'd near, +--"Pain o'erreaches itself, so is balk'd! else, how bear +This intense and intolerable solitude, +With its eye on my heart and its hand on my blood? +Pulse by pulse! Day goes down: yet she comes not again. +Other suffering, doubtless, where hope is more plain, +Claims her elsewhere. I die, strange! and scarcely feel sad. +Oh, to think of Constance THUS, and not to go mad! +But Death, it would seem, dulls the sense to his own +Dull doings . . ." + + +XXXI. + + + Between those sick eyes and the sun +A shadow fell thwart. + + +XXXII. + + + 'Tis the pale nun once more! +But who stands at her side, mute and dark in the door? +How oft had he watch'd through the glory and gloom +Of the battle, with long, longing looks, that dim plume +Which now (one stray sunbeam upon it) shook, stoop'd +To where the tent-curtain, dividing, was loop'd! +How that stern face had haunted and hover'd about +The dreams it still scared! through what fond fear and doubt +Had the boy yearn'd in heart to the hero. (What's like +A boy's love for some famous man?) . . . Oh, to strike +A wild path through the battle, down striking perchance +Some rash foeman too near the great soldier of France, +And so fall in his glorious regard! . . . Oft, how oft, +Had his heart flash'd this hope out, whilst watching aloft +The dim battle that plume dance and dart--never seen +So near till this moment! how eager to glean +Every stray word, dropp'd through the camp-babble in praise +Of his hero--each tale of old venturous days +In the desert! And now . . . could he speak out his heart +Face to face with that man ere he died! + + +XXXIII. + + + With a start +The sick soldier sprang up: the blood sprang up in him, +To his throat, and o'erthrew him: he reel'd back: a dim +Sanguine haze fill'd his eyes; in his ears rose the din +And rush, as of cataracts loosen'd within, +Through which he saw faintly, and heard, the pale nun +(Looking larger than life, where she stood in the sun) +Point to him and murmur, "Behold!" Then that plume +Seem'd to wave like a fire, and fade off in the gloom +Which momently put out the world. + + +XXXIV. + + + To his side +Moved the man the boy dreaded yet loved . . . "Ah!" . . . he sigh'd, +"The smooth brow, the fair Vargrave face! and those eyes, +All the mother's! The old things again! + "Do not rise. +You suffer, young man?" + +THE BOY. + + Sir, I die. + +THE DUKE. + + Not so young! + +THE BOY. + +So young? yes! and yet I have tangled among +The fray'd warp and woof of this brief life of mine +Other lives than my own. Could my death but untwine +The vext skein . . . but it will not. Yes, Duke, young--so young! +And I knew you not? yet I have done you a wrong +Irreparable! . . . late, too late to repair. +If I knew any means . . . but I know none! . . . I swear, +If this broken fraction of time could extend +Into infinite lives of atonement, no end +Would seem too remote for my grief (could that be!) +To include it! Not too late, however, for me +To entreat: is it too late for you to forgive? + +THE DUKE. + +You wrong--my forgiveness--explain. + +THE BOY. + + Could I live! +Such a very few hours left to life, yet I shrink, +I falter . . . Yes, Duke, your forgiveness I think +Should free my soul hence. + Ah! you could not surmise +That a boy's beating heart, burning thoughts, longing eyes +Were following you evermore (heeded not!) +While the battle was flowing between us: nor what +Eager, dubious footsteps at nightfall oft went +With the wind and the rain, round and round your blind tent, +Persistent and wild as the wind and the rain, +Unnoticed as these, weak as these, and as vain! +Oh, how obdurate then look'd your tent! The waste air +Grew stern at the gleam which said . . . "Off! he is there!" +I know not what merciful mystery now +Brings you here, whence the man whom you see lying low +Other footsteps (not those!) must soon bear to the grave. +But death is at hand, and the few words I have +Yet to speak, I must speak them at once. + Duke, I swear, +As I lie here, (Death's angel too close not to hear!) +That I meant not this wrong to you. Duc de Luvois, +I loved your niece--loved? why, I LOVE her! I saw, +And, seeing, how could I but love her? I seem'd +Born to love her. Alas, were that all! Had I dream'd +Of this love's cruel consequence as it rests now +Ever fearfully present before me, I vow +That the secret, unknown, had gone down to the tomb +Into which I descend . . . Oh why, whilst there was room +In life left for warning, had no one the heart +To warn me? Had any one whisper'd . . . "Depart!" +To the hope the whole world seem'd in league then to nurse! +Had any one hinted . . . "Beware of the curse +Which is coming!" There was not a voice raised to tell, +Not a hand moved to warn from the blow ere it fell, +And then . . . then the blow fell on BOTH! This is why +I implore you to pardon that great injury +Wrought on her, and, through her, wrought on you, Heaven knows +How unwittingly! + +THE DUKE. + + Ah! . . . and, young soldier, suppose +That I came here to seek, not grant, pardon?-- + +THE BOY. + + Of whom? + +THE DUKE. + +Of yourself. + +THE BOY. + + Duke, I bear in my heart to the tomb +No boyish resentment; not one lonely thought +That honors you not. In all this there is naught +'Tis for me to forgive. + Every glorious act +Of your great life starts forward, an eloquent fact, +To confirm in my boy's heart its faith in your own. +And have I not hoarded, to ponder upon, +A hundred great acts from your life? Nay, all these, +Were they so many lying and false witnesses, +Does there rest not ONE voice which was never untrue? +I believe in Constance, Duke, as she does in you! +In this great world around us, wherever we turn, +Some grief irremediable we discern; +And yet--there sits God, calm in Heaven above! +Do we trust one whit less in his justice or love? +I judge not. + +THE DUKE. + + Enough! Hear at last, then, the truth +Your father and I--foes we were in our youth. +It matters not why. Yet thus much understand: +The hope of my youth was sign'd out by his hand. +I was not of those whom the buffets of fate +Tame and teach; and my heart buried slain love in hate. +If your own frank young heart, yet unconscious of all +Which turns the heart's blood in its springtide to gall, +And unable to guess even aught that the furrow +Across these gray brows hides of sin or of sorrow, +Comprehends not the evil and grief of my life, +'Twill at least comprehend how intense was the strife +Which is closed in this act of atonement, whereby +I seek in the son of my youth's enemy +The friend of my age. Let the present release +Here acquitted the past! In the name of my niece, +Whom for my life in yours as a hostage I give, +Are you great enough, boy, to forgive me,--and live? + +Whilst he spoke thus, a doubtful tumultuous joy +Chased its fleeting effects o'er the face of the boy: +As when some stormy moon, in a long cloud confined, +Struggles outward through shadows, the varying wind +Alternates, and bursts, self-surprised, from her prison, +So that slow joy grew clear in his face. He had risen +To answer the Duke; but strength fail'd every limb; +A strange, happy feebleness trembled through him. +With a faint cry of rapturous wonder, he sank +On the breast of the nun, who stood near. + "Yes, boy! thank +This guardian angel," the Duke said. "I--you, +We owe all to her. Crown her work. Live! be true +To your young life's fair promise, and live for her sake!" +"Yes, Duke: I will live. I MUST live--live to make +My whole life the answer you claim," the boy said, +"For joy does not kill!" + Back again the faint head +Declined on the nun's gentle bosom. She saw +His lips quiver, and motion'd the Duke to withdraw +And leave them a moment together. + He eyed +Them both with a wistful regard; turn'd and sigh'd, +And lifted the tent-door, and pass'd from the tent. + + +XXXV. + + +Like a furnace, the fervid, intense occident +From its hot seething levels a great glare struck up +On the sick metal sky. And, as out of a cup +Some witch watches boiling wild portents arise, +Monstrous clouds, mass'd, misshapen, and ting'd with strange dyes, +Hover'd over the red fume, and changed to weird shapes +As of snakes, salamanders, efts, lizards, storks, apes, +Chimeras, and hydras: whilst--ever the same +In the midst of all these (creatures fused by his flame, +And changed by his influence!) changeless, as when, +Ere he lit down to death generations of men, +O'er that crude and ungainly creation, which there +With wild shapes this cloud-world seem'd to mimic in air, +The eye of Heaven's all-judging witness, he shone. +And shall shine on the ages we reach not--the sun! + + + +XXXVI. + + +Nature posted her parable thus in the skies, +And the man's heart bore witness. Life's vapors arise +And fall, pass and change, group themselves and revolve +Round the great central life, which is love: these dissolve +And resume themselves, here assume beauty, there terror; +And the phantasmagoria of infinite error, +And endless complexity, lasts but a while; +Life's self, the immortal, immutable smile +Of God, on the soul in the deep heart of Heaven +Lives changeless, unchanged: and our morning and even +Are earth's alternations, not Heaven's. + + +XXXVII. + + + While he yet +Watched the skies, with this thought in his heart; while he set +Thus unconsciously all his life forth in his mind, +Summ'd it up, search'd it out, proved it vapor and wind, +And embraced the new life which that hour had reveal'd,-- +Love's life, which earth's life had defaced and conceal'd; +Lucile left the tent and stood by him. + Her tread +Aroused him; and, turning towards her, he said: +"O Soeur Seraphine, are you happy?" + "Eugene, +What is happier than to have hoped not in vain?" +She answer'd,--"And you?" + "Yes." + "You do not repent?" +"No." + "Thank Heaven!" she murmur'd. He musingly bent +His looks on the sunset, and somewhat apart +Where he stood, sigh'd, as though to his innermost heart, +"O bless'd are they, amongst whom I was not, +Whose morning unclouded, without stain or spot, +Predicts a pure evening; who, sunlike, in light +Have traversed, unsullied, the world, and set bright!" +But she in response, "Mark yon ship far away, +Asleep on the wave, in the last light of day, +With all its hush'd thunders shut up! Would you know +A thought which came to me a few days ago, +Whilst watching those ships? . . . When the great Ship of Life +Surviving, though shatter'd, the tumult and strife +Of earth's angry element,--masts broken short, +Decks drench'd, bulwarks beaten--drives safe into port; +When the Pilot of Galilee, seen on the strand, +Stretches over the waters a welcoming hand; +When, heeding no longer the sea's baffled roar, +The mariner turns to his rest evermore; +What will then be the answer the helmsman must give? +Will it be . . . 'Lo our log-book! Thus once did we live +In the zones of the South; thus we traversed the seas +Of the Orient; there dwelt with the Hesperides; +Thence follow'd the west wind; here, eastward we turn'd; +The stars fail'd us there; just here land we discern'd +On our lee; there the storm overtook us at last; +That day went the bowsprit, the next day the mast; +There the mermen came round us, and there we saw bask +A siren?' The Captain of Port will he ask +Any one of such questions? I cannot think so! +But . . . 'What is the last Bill of Health you can show?' +Not--How fared the soul through the trials she pass'd? +But--What is the state of that soul at the last?" + +"May it be so!" he sigh'd. "There the sun drops, behold!" +And indeed, whilst he spoke all the purple and gold +In the west had turn'd ashen, save one fading strip +Of light that yet gleam'd from the dark nether lip +Of a long reef of cloud; and o'er sullen ravines +And ridges the raw damps were hanging white screens +Of melancholy mist. + "Nunc dimittis?" she said. +"O God of the living! whilst yet 'mid the dead +And the dying we stand here alive, and thy days +Returning, admit space for prayer and for praise, +In both these confirm us! + "The helmsman, Eugene, +Needs the compass to steer by. Pray always. Again +We two part: each to work out Heaven's will: you, I trust, +In the world's ample witness; and I, as I must, +In secret and silence: you, love, fame, await; +Me, sorrow and sickness. We meet at one gate +When all's over. The ways they are many and wide, +And seldom are two ways the same. Side by side +May we stand at the same little door when all's done! +The ways they are many, the end it is one. +He that knocketh shall enter: who asks shall obtain: +And who seeketh, he findeth. Remember, Eugene!" +She turn'd to depart. + "Whither? whither?" . . . he said. +She stretch'd forth her hand where, already outspread +On the darken'd horizon, remotely they saw +The French camp-fires kindling. +"See yonder vast host, with its manifold heart +Made as one man's by one hope! The hope 'tis your part +To aid towards achievement, to save from reverse +Mine, through suffering to soothe, and through sickness to nurse. +I go to my work: you to yours." + + +XXXVIII. + + + Whilst she spoke, +On the wide wasting evening there distantly broke +The low roll of musketry. Straightway, anon, +From the dim Flag-staff Battery bellow'd a gun. +"Our chasseurs are at it!" he mutter'd. + She turn'd, +Smiled, and pass'd up the twilight. + He faintly discern'd +Her form, now and then, on the flat lurid sky +Rise, and sink, and recede through the mists: by and by +The vapors closed round, and he saw her no more. + + +XXXIX. + + +Nor shall we. For her mission, accomplish'd, is o'er. +The mission of genius on earth! To uplift, +Purify, and confirm by its own gracious gift, +The world, in despite of the world's dull endeavor +To degrade, and drag down, and oppose it forever. +The mission of genius: to watch, and to wait, +To renew, to redeem, and to regenerate. +The mission of woman on earth! to give birth +To the mercy of Heaven descending on earth. +The mission of woman: permitted to bruise +The head of the serpent, and sweetly infuse, +Through the sorrow and sin of earth's register'd curse, +The blessing which mitigates all: born to nurse, +And to soothe, and to solace, to help and to heal +The sick world that leans on her. This was Lucile. + + +XL. + + +A power hid in pathos: a fire veil'd in cloud: +Yet still burning outward: a branch which, though bow'd +By the bird in its passage, springs upward again: +Through all symbols I search for her sweetness--in vain! +Judge her love by her life. For our life is but love +In act. Pure was hers: and the dear God above, +Who knows what His creatures have need of for life, +And whose love includes all loves, through much patient strife +Led her soul into peace. Love, though love may be given +In vain, is yet lovely. Her own native heaven +More clearly she mirror'd, as life's troubled dream +Wore away; and love sigh'd into rest, like a stream +That breaks its heart over wild rocks toward the shore +Of the great sea which hushes it up evermore +With its little wild wailing. No stream from its source +Flows seaward, how lonely soever its course, +But what some land is gladden'd. No star ever rose +And set, without influence somewhere. Who knows +What earth needs from earth's lowest creature? No life +Can be pure in its purpose and strong in its strife +And all life not be purer and stronger thereby. +The spirits of just men made perfect on high, +The army of martyrs who stand by the Throne +And gaze into the face that makes glorious their own, +Know this, surely, at last. Honest love, honest sorrow, +Honest work for the day, honest hope for the morrow, +Are these worth nothing more than the hand they make weary, +The heart they have sadden'd, the life they leave dreary? +Hush! the sevenhold heavens to the voice of the Spirit +Echo: He that o'ercometh shall all things inherit. + + +XLI. + + +The moon was, in fire, carried up through the fog; +The loud fortress bark'd at her like a chained dog. +The horizon pulsed flame, the air sound. All without, +War and winter, and twilight, and terror, and doubt; +All within, light, warmth, calm! + In the twilight, longwhile +Eugene de Luvois with a deep, thoughtful smile +Linger'd, looking, and listening, lone by the tent. +At last he withdrew, and night closed as he went. + + + + + +End of The Project Gutenberg Etext of Lucile, by Owen Meredith + diff --git a/old/lucil10.zip b/old/lucil10.zip Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..e7aef24 --- /dev/null +++ b/old/lucil10.zip |