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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6833f05 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text diff --git a/19943-8.txt b/19943-8.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..3bbbd7a --- /dev/null +++ b/19943-8.txt @@ -0,0 +1,7601 @@ +The Project Gutenberg eBook, The Hippodrome, by Rachel Hayward + + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + + + + +Title: The Hippodrome + + +Author: Rachel Hayward + + + +Release Date: November 28, 2006 [eBook #19943] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-8859-1 + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE HIPPODROME*** + + +E-text prepared by Al Haines + + + +HIPPODROME + +by + +RACHEL HAYWARD + + + + + + + +George H. Doran Company +New York +Copyright, 1913, +By George H. Doran Company + + + + + +TO + +EDYTH AND ARTHUR APPLIN + +WITH LOVE AND HOMAGE. + + + + "Car vois-tu chaque jour je t'aime davantage, + Aujourd'hui plus qu'hier, et bien moins que demain." + (_Rosemonde Rostand_) + + + + +THE HIPPODROME + + +CHAPTER I + + "Aujourd'hui le primtetemps, Ninon, demain l'hiver. + Quoi! tu nas pas l'étoile, est tu vas sur la mer!" + DE MUSSET. + + +Count Emile Poleski was obliged to be at the Barcelona Station at five +o'clock in the afternoon one hot Friday in May. His business, having +to do with that which was known to himself and his associates as "the +Cause," necessitated careful attention, and required the performance of +certain manoeuvres in such a way that they should be unobserved by the +various detectives to whom he was an object of interest. + +He looked round, scowling, till he found the man he wanted, and who was +to all outward appearances the driver of one of the row of _fiacres_ +that waited outside the station. Cigarettes were exchanged, and a tiny +slip of paper passed imperceptibly from hand to hand, then he turned +ostensibly to watch the incoming train from Port-Bou. As he was on the +platform it would be better to look as if he had come to meet someone, +and as he had nothing particular to do just then it would make a +distraction to watch the various types of humanity arriving at this +continental Buenos Ayres, the city of romance, anarchy, commerce and +varied vices. + +Emile Poleski called it _l'entresol de l'enfer_, and certainly he was +not there by his own choice. It was the centre of intrigue, and to +intrigue his life, intellect, and the little money he had left from his +Polish estates, were devoted. To him life meant "The Cause," and that +exigeant mistress left little room for other and more natural +affections. + +In his career women did not count, at least they did not count as +women. If they had money to spend, or brains and energies that could +be utilised, that was a different matter. He had a trick of studying +people as one studies natural history through a microscope. + +It was all very interesting, but when one had done with the specimens +one threw them away and looked about for fresh material. + +The train came in, slackened speed and stopped, and its contents +resolved themselves into little groups of people all hunting with more +or less excitement for their luggage, and porters to convey the same to +cabs. + +The figure of a girl who had just alighted and was standing alone, +caught and held his roving eyes. The pose of her abnormally slim body +had all the grace of a figure on a Grecian vase in its clean curves and +easy balance. + +Her head was beautifully set upon a long throat, and her feet were +conspicuously slender and delicate in their high French boots of +champagne-coloured kid. Her face, which as far as he could see was of +a startling pallor, was obscured by a white lace veil tied loosely +round her Panama hat, and left to fall down her back in floating ends; +and she wore a rather crumpled, cream-coloured dress. + +She stood, looking round, as if uncertain how to act, evidently in +expectation of someone to meet her. No one appeared and she moved off +in search of a porter. Emile followed at a reasonable distance. Books +he found desperately dull, but humanity in any shape or form was +attractive to him, and the girl's appearance appealed to a deeply +embedded love of the exotic and mysterious. + +He watched with cynical amusement as she tried to explain her wishes in +French to a porter, who spoke only the dialect of Catalonia. Her voice +finally decided Emile on his line of conduct. Low-pitched it was, with +subtle inflections, and with a hoarseness in the lower notes such as +one hears in the voices of Jewish women. + +A woman, whose vocal notes were of that enchanting _timbre_, was likely +to prove interesting. + +He advanced a few steps nearer, saying in French, "I speak the +language. Can I be of any use?" + +The girl turned, giving him a comprehensive glance, and bowed slightly +in acknowledgment. + +"Many thanks, _Monsieur_! I know scarcely any Spanish. Perhaps you +would tell me where one could get lodgings. It seems rather hopeless +for this man and myself to continue arguing in different languages, so +if you would not mind--" + +When they were both in the _fiacre_ she did not speak, but leaned back, +her hands in her lap, her feet crossed, looking straight in front of +her with hazel-green eyes, expressionless as those of the Sphinx. +Count Poleski congratulated himself in silence over his discovery. +Here was a woman so unique that she asked no questions, did not +volunteer after the manner of most women a flood of voluble +information, apparently took everything for granted, and was in no way +embarrassed by himself or his company. + +In some respects she appeared a young girl, but her composure was +certainly not youthful. + +"So you're out from England," he said at last. + +"From Paris," she answered him serenely. "I'm Arithelli of the +Hippodrome." There was a girlish pride in her accents, and she looked +at him sideways to observe the effect of her announcement. + +"_Ma foi_! So it's that, is it? Then I've heard something about you. +I know the Manager pretty well. He said you were _un peu bizarre_." + +"_Peut être plus qu'un peu_," Arithelli retorted quickly. "I see you +think he's right." + +Arrived at the lodgings she sat still, waiting in the cab with the same +apparent indifference while Emile wrangled with the landlady. At +length he came back to her: "You had better try these for a week," he +said. "They're forty _pesetas_. She will want the rent in advance as +you have no recommendation." For the first time Arithelli seemed +disturbed. + +"I'm afraid I can't pay it. I'm to have five pounds a week at the +Hippodrome, but of course I can't ask for that in advance. I had a +second-class ticket out here, and now I've only got four-and-sixpence +left." + +She held out a small blue satin bag, displaying a few coins. "Perhaps +I'd better go and explain to the Manager." Emile shrugged his +shoulders. Obviously the girl was very young. + +"On the whole I think you'd better not," he said. "You know nothing +about either myself or the Manager, and it seems you've got to trust +one of us so it may as well be me." + +When he had arranged matters he departed, saying casually, "I'll come +in again to-night about nine o'clock to see how you are getting on. +Don't do anything insane, such as wandering about the streets, because +you feel dull. It won't hurt you to put up with the dulness for a bit. +You'll have plenty of excitement if you're going to live in Barcelona." + +"_Tiens_!" said Arithelli to herself. "What manners and what dirty +nails! _C'est un homme épouvantable_, but very useful. But for him I +should have been prancing round this place all night, looking for +rooms." + +She dragged her trunk towards her, and proceeded to unpack the +collection of gaudy dresses that she had bought with so much pride at +the _Bon Marché_ in Paris, and which were all in the worst possible +taste. + +Perhaps she had been impelled to a choice of lively colours as being +symbolical in their brightness of the new life on which she was about +to embark. There was a green cloth rendered still more hideous by +being inlet with medallions of pink silk, a cornflower blue with much +silver braid already becoming tarnished in the few times it had been +worn, and a mauve and orange adorned with flamboyant Eastern embroidery. + +When she had tumbled them all out they showed a vivid patch of +ill-assorted tints. Arithelli shivered as she sat back on her heels on +the floor, and looked round the sordid room. The excitement of her +arrival had worn off, and the element of depression reigned supreme in +her mind. Certainly the apartment, which was supposed to be a +bed-sitting-room, but which was merely a bedroom, was not enlivening to +contemplate. No carpet, dirty boards, a large four-poster bed canopied +with faded draperies against the wall facing the window. There was a +feeble attempt at a washstand in a small alcove on the left, furnished +with the usual doll's house crockery affected on the Continent,--no +wardrobe and no dressing table. + +It all looked hopeless, she told herself disgustedly. Surely there +were better rooms to be found in Barcelona for forty _pesetas_ a week! +Either lodgings must be very dear or else Emile Poleski had meant to +take a large commission for his trouble in finding them! + +She was stiff and tired after the long journey and want of proper food, +and every trifle took upon itself huge dimensions. She was daintily +fastidious as to cleanliness, and everything seemed to her filthy +beyond belief. The universal squalor customary in Spanish life had +come as an unpleasant shock. + +When she started from Paris she had conjured visions of a triumphal +entry into her new career. Now she felt rather frightened and +desperately lonely, and the horrible room appeared like a bad omen for +the future. But, she reflected, after all, things might have been +worse. She had found one friend already. Certainly he had +disagreeable manners, especially after the artificial and invariable +politeness of the Frenchmen she had met while travelling, but at least +he promised to be useful. She picked herself up off the floor and +began to consider the disposal of her garments. Three or four wooden +pegs, the only accommodation to be seen, were obviously not sufficient +to hold all her clothes. + +Presently there was an interlude, provided by the advent of the +landlady. Her dishevelment accorded well with the general look of the +house; her slippers clicked on the carpetless boards at every shuffling +step, and she carried a half-cold, slopped-over cup of coffee. To +Arithelli's relief the woman was mistress of a limited amount of French +patois, and in answer to a demand for a wardrobe of some kind, said she +would send up her son. He was a carpenter and would doubtless arrange +something. She gave a curious glance at the girl's witch-like beauty, +a mixture of suspicion and barely-admitted pity in her thoughts. + +As to Emile's share in the drama she had naturally formed conclusions. +After a respectable interval her son arrived, and having delivered +himself of a remark in Spanish and being answered in French, proceeded +to hammer a row of enormous nails into the wall at regular intervals. +Arithelli sat upon her trunk, which she considered cleaner than the +chairs, and watched the process, her green eyes assuming a curious +veiled expression, a hank of copper-tinted hair falling upon her +shoulders. + +There was something uncanny in her capacity for keeping still, and she +had none of the usual and natural fidgetiness of a young girl. In +whatever position of sitting or standing she found herself she was +capable of remaining for an indefinite period. + +When the carpenter's manipulations had ceased she hung up her dresses +carefully, put the rest of her things back into the trunk, as being the +safest place, and sitting down again began to cry in a low, painful +way, utterly unlike the light April shower emotion of the ordinary +woman. + +Here she was in Barcelona, and the fulfilled desire seemed likely to +become already Dead Sea fruit. Supposing she got ill, or failed to +satisfy the audience. She would see her name to-morrow when she went +out in large letters on the posters of the Hippodrome: + +"_Arithelli, the beautiful English equestrienne_," and underneath some +appalling picture of herself in columbine skirts, or jockey's silk +jacket and cap and top boots. + +She had been crazy with delight over her success in getting the +engagement from the manager in Paris, and it had not occurred to her +that her appearance had had a great deal to do with her having been +accepted. She had signed a contract for a year; and looking forward a +year seemed a very long time. There had been opposition at home. + +Her father had said, "I don't approve, but at the same time I don't +know in the least what else you can do. It's Hobson's choice. You can +ride, and you've got looks of the sort to take in a public career." + +Her mother had been frankly brutal. Now that there was no money, she +said, she could not have three great girls at home doing nothing. She +had given them all a good education and they must try and make some use +of it. Neither of the younger sisters, Isobel and Valèrie, were old +enough to do anything for themselves, so Arithelli at the age of +twenty-four had taken her courage, which was the indomitable courage of +her race, in both hands, and launched herself on the world. The +bare-backed riding of her early days in Galway had proved a valuable +asset, and there was not a horse she could not manage. + +Her slim figure seemed born to the saddle, and her nerve was as yet +unshaken. + +The man who had engaged her had been more than a little astonished at +the composure with which she showed off the horses' paces, and went +through various tricks. As she was young and inexperienced, he would +get her cheaply; she could be taught all the stereotyped acts with very +little trouble, and her morbid style of beauty would be a draw in Spain. + +There was nothing of the English miss about her appearance and few +people would have believed her to be only twenty-four. She had no +freshness, no _beautè de diable_. Her beauty was that of line and +modelling. Her quietness was partly the result of a convent education. +An old Irish nun had told her once that good looks were a snare and a +delusion of the Devil, and that hers would never bring her happiness. + +At least they had got her an engagement, and a circus had always +represented to her the very height of romance. + +She wondered how she could manage for money till she got her five +pounds next Friday. It was lucky that all her habits, and so on, were +provided by the management. She wished to-morrow would arrive, for she +felt eager to begin work, and see the horses. She had quite forgotten +all about Emile's promised visit, and was just pulling down the rest of +her hair preparatory to getting ready for bed, when he walked in +without any preliminary knock. + +"How are you getting on? All right?" Then after a momentary +inspection of the many garments that festooned the dirty walls, he +added: "I don't think you've got very good taste in clothes!" + + + + +CHAPTER II + + "All women are good; good for something, or good for nothing." + CERVANTES. + + +The next morning Emile made his entrance with the same complete +disregard of ceremony. Arithelli was still in bed and only half awake. +She raised herself slightly and looked at him with sleepy eyes. + +"Oh!" she said. "I didn't hear you knock." + +There was the same entire lack of embarrassment in her manner that she +had shown on the previous night. Almost before she had finished her +sentence she shut her eyes again, and leant back yawning. It seemed a +matter of the greatest indifference to her whether he was there or not. +Emile's interest rose by several degrees as he sat down on the edge of +the bed. + +"I didn't knock," he said, speaking English fluently enough, but with +the hard, clipped accents of the Slav. "I can't bother about all that +humbug. If you're straight with me I'll be straight with you, and we +may as well be friends. I dare say you think you're very good-looking +and all that, but it doesn't make any difference to me. You're here, +and I'm here, so we may as well be here together." + +"I'm so sorry," Arithelli replied, "but I'm always so stupid and sleepy +in the mornings. Do you mind saying it all over again?" + +And very much to his own surprise Emile Poleski repeated his remarks. +It struck him that there was something of the boy, the _gamin_, about +her in spite of her exotic appearance. That was so much the better and +would suit admirably with his schemes for her. It was better that she +should not be too much of a woman; for in the realms of anarchy there +is no sex, though comradeship is elevated to the dignity of a fine art. + +For chivalry and love making there is neither the time nor the desire, +and those who are wedded to _La Liberté_ find her an all-sufficient +idol for purposes of worship. Human life is held of small account, to +join the Cause being equivalent to the signing of one's own death +warrant. One would probably have to die to-morrow if not to-day, and +whether it were sooner or later mattered little. Emile's fierce +devotion to the cause of his oppressed country had been the means of +leaving him stranded in Barcelona at the age of forty, without hopes, +illusions or ideals. His estates in Russia had been confiscated, his +parents were dead, the woman he had loved was married. + +Now he lived in a dirty back street, in a single room, on two pounds a +week, morbid, suspicious, cynical, keeping his own counsel, owning no +friends, and occupying body and brain with plots, secret meetings, +ciphers and the usual accompaniments of intrigue. The Brotherhood +consisted of fifteen men, though occasionally the number varied. Two +or three would disappear, another one come. There was no feminine +element. An Anarchist seldom marries. To him a woman is either a +machine or the lightest of light episodes. + +Emile had not the least desire to make love to the girl whom he had for +his own purposes befriended. He was a quick and subtle judge of +character, and had seen at a glance that in her he would find a study +of pronounced interest. Also she might prove of some utility. It was +one of the tenets of the fraternity to which he belonged never to waste +any material that might come to hand. In the finely-cut face before +him, with its Oriental modelling and impassivity, he read brains, +refinement and endurance. Her hair was plaited in two long braids, and +drawn down over her ears, showing the contour of a sleek, smooth little +head. + +She had relapsed into silence after disposing of the slovenly meal he +had induced the landlady to provide. The only thing that seemed to +worry her was the superfluous dirt that adorned the cups. + +At length she spoke: + +"And what sort of a place is this Barcelona?" + +"_L'entresol de l'enfer_," answered Emile curtly. "What are your +people doing to allow you to come here alone?" + +"They don't know I am here. I ran away, you see. If I get on well, +I'll write and let them know, and if not--" + +"_Alors_?" + +"Oh, I don't know. But I will get on. Don't you think I ought to make +a success at the Hippodrome?" + +Emile ignored the _naïve_ conceit of the last remark. "But what are +you doing at the Hippodrome at all?" he demanded. + +"I am riding," she answered with an elfish smile in which her eyes took +no part. + +"Obviously! What are you going to do about _déjeuner_? The landlady +won't bring you up all your meals." + +"I don't know," was the unconcerned answer. + +"You'll have to go to one of the _cafés_, and you had better let me +show you which are the most desirable ones. _Enfin_! have you any +intention of getting up this morning?" + +Arithelli yawned again. "I suppose I must go round and present myself +to the Manager. I'm to rehearse a fortnight before I make my +appearance in public." + +"Then I had better come with you," Emile replied with decision. "As I +told you yesterday, I know the Manager fairly well." + +An hour later they walked together through the streets on their way to +the Hippodrome. Emile was a bad advertisement for the secrecy of his +profession, for he looked a typical desperado. His velvet coat had the +air of having been slept in for weeks, and had certainly never been on +terms of acquaintanceship with a brush; and, besides the usual +Anarchist badge, a red tie, a blood red carnation flamed defiance in +his buttonhole. + +Under a battered sombrero he scowled upon the world; a dark skin, +fierce moustache, and arching black eyebrows over hard, grey eyes. + +There are few people who look their parts in life, but Emile might +without addition or alteration, have been transferred to the stage as +the typical villain of a melodrama. + +Arithelli had arrayed herself in the cornflower blue frock, which she +carried with a negligent ease, and she still wore the Panama hat with +the flowing veil. As a matter of fact it was the only piece of +headgear she possessed; for she had been reckless over dresses and +boots in Paris and had found herself drawn up with a jerk in the midst +of her purchases by her small stock of money coming to an abrupt end. + +Of her carriage and general deportment, which were noticeably good even +among Spanish women, Emile approved. The crude blue of her dress, the +tags and ends of tinselled braid set his teeth on edge. In his "Count +Poleski" days he had known the quiet and exquisite taste of the +_mondaines_ of Vienna and St. Petersburg, and like most men he +preferred dark clothes in the street. Later on he proposed to himself +the pleasure of supervising her wardrobe, except her boots, which met +with his fullest approbation. + +He noticed that she did not talk much but observed in silence. He felt +that nothing escaped those heavy-lidded, curious eyes. "Is everything +dirty in Spain?" she said at last. + +"How fussy you are about dirt!" retorted Emile disagreeably. + +"Yes. My mother is a Jewess, you know. I expect we notice these +things more than the dirty Gentiles." + +Her calm assertion of the superior cleanliness of the tribe of Israel, +amused Emile, who had been accustomed to hear the usual contempt of the +English-speaking races for anyone possessing a strain of Jewish blood. +So it was the Jewess in her that accounted for her haunting voice. + +The Manager was a hatchet-faced and haggard man who looked as if he +went to bed about once a week, on an average, and existed principally +on cigarettes and _absinthe_. The simultaneous arrival of Emile and +Arithelli roused him from his normal condition of bored cynicism to +comparative animation. + +Like the landlady he naturally made his own conclusions. + +"When did you arrive?" he demanded of Arithelli. Emile, not being +afflicted with a sense of the necessity for elaborate explanation, +removed himself a few paces and began to roll a cigarette. + +Arithelli stood her ground, listened to the comments on her appearance +which the Manager felt himself entitled to use, returned his cynical +survey with a level glance, and answered his questions with an +unruffled composure. + +It was arranged that she should rehearse every day for two hours in the +morning, and another two hours between the afternoon and evening +performances. For the first act she could wear a habit of any colour +she cared to choose, and a smart hat; for the second act, which +included jumping over gates, and the presence of the inevitable clown, +she would have to wear short skirts. + +"_They_ won't suit me," she said. "You see how long and thin I am, and +look at my long feet. I shall look a burlesque." + +The Manager glared at her. + +"I quite believe you will," he snapped. "I suppose you think you're +going to do the leaping act in a court train and feathers! Is there +anything more you would like to suggest?" + +The intended sarcasm was not a success. Arithelli considered gravely. + +"I don't think so, thank you," she said at last. "But if I _do_ think +of anything else I'll tell you. And I _should_ like to see the horses." + +She was filled with a genuine delight by the four cream-coloured +pure-bred Andalusians, El Rey, Don Quixote, Cavaliero and Don Juan. +They turned intelligent eyes upon her as she entered their stalls, +neighing gently as if they recognised a friend. Both the men +experienced the same feeling of surprise at her evident knowledge and +understanding of animals. In five minutes she had shown that she knew +as much about their harness and food as a competent groom. + +The astute Manager, upon whom no sign of intelligence was wasted, saw a +good opportunity for getting a little extra work out of his youthful +leading lady. He informed her that she must be down at the stables +every morning at eight o'clock to inspect the horses and see them fed +and watered. As a matter of fact the inspection should have been one +of his own duties, but the girl was not likely to cavil at any little +additional work that had not been exactly specified in her contract. +Besides, if she did, he could soon make it uncomfortable for her. +Arithelli made no objection. Though she hated getting up early she +would never have grudged a sacrifice of comfort made on behalf of any +animal. When all the business was completed, Emile took her to the +Café Colomb for lunch. + +Before they left he knew the details of her history. + +The big house in Ireland, with its stud of horses and unlimited +hospitality, and the rapidly vanishing fortune. Her mother, a Viennese +by birth, a cosmopolitan by travel and education, a fine horsewoman, +and extravagance incarnate. Her father, good-natured, careless, manly, +as sportsmanlike and unbusinesslike as most Irishmen. When his horses +died he bought more, keeping always open house for a colony of men as +shiftless and as easy-going as himself. + +As the children grew up the money became less and less. They were sent +to Convent schools in France and Belgium, then to cheap schools in +England. + +At length the final crash came, and the big, picturesque, rambling +house in Galway was sold, and they came to London with an infinitesimal +income partly derived from the grudging charity of relatives. + +Arithelli cleaned the doorsteps and the kitchen stove, blackleaded the +grates and prepared the meals, which more often than not consisted only +of potatoes and tea. + +Their mother, who hated all domestic work, and could never be induced +to see that their loss of money was due to her own extravagance, +retired to bed, where she spent her days in reading Plato in the +original, and writing charming French lyrics. + +When Arithelli ran away she had gone straight to an old friend of her +mother's, the widow of an ambassador in Paris. She had made up her +mind to earn her own living. She would carve out for herself a career. +Having decided that riding was her most saleable accomplishment, she +had gone round to the riding school where the managers of the +Hippodromes of Vienna, Buda-Pesth and Barcelona waited to select +_equestriennes_. + +Luck, youthful confidence, and her tragic, unyouthful beauty, had all +ranged themselves together to procure her the much desired engagement. + +"I made up my mind to get taken on," she concluded. "_Et me voilà_! I +did all sorts of desperate jumps that day. I felt desperate. If I +hadn't got it, there was only the Morgue. I couldn't have gone home." + +Emile listened in silence, and drank _absinthe_ and considered. + +That night at a meeting of the Brotherhood he took the leader, +Sobrenski, aside and said: + +"It was decided the other day that we wanted someone to take messages +and run errands. Someone who could go unnoticed into places where it +would be suspicious for us to be seen. You suggested a boy. Fate has +been so kind as to show me a woman who seems to be in every way +suitable--or at least with a little training she will become so." + +"A woman!" echoed the other. "Are you mad?" + +"I conclude her to be a woman because of her clothes. Otherwise she +seems to be a mixture of a boy and wood-elf. The combination appears +to me to be a fascinating one. She is of good family, half Irish, +speaks three languages, asks no questions, and seems to have an +extraordinary capacity for holding her tongue. It is on that account +that I questioned her sex. Her appearance is excessively feminine. Of +course I do not propose to enrol her among us at once. As I have said +before, there are many ways in which a woman would be useful." + +Sobrenski pulled doubtfully at his reddish, pointed beard. "Does she +know anything about the Cause?" + +"I fancy not, but she appears to have the right ideas, and after I have +judiciously fanned the flame!--girls of that age are always wildly +enthusiastic over something--so she may as well devote her enthusiasm +to us." + + + + +CHAPTER III + + "Out of the uttermost end of things + On the side of life that is seamier, + There lies a land, so its poet sings, + Whose people call it Bohemia. + + "It is not old, it is not new, + It is not false, it is not true, + And they will not answer for what they do, + Far away in Bohemia." + "Love in Bohemia," DOLF WYLLARDE. + + +"I think," Arithelli said with deliberation, "that all your friends are +very fatiguing. They have such bad tempers, and do nothing but argue." + +"They live for the serious things of life," retorted Emile. "Not to +play the fool." + +"Thanks! Is this one of the serious things of life, do you suppose?" +She stuck the large needle with which she had been awkwardly cobbling a +tear in her skirt, into the seat of a chair. + +"What are you doing that for?" demanded Emile. + +"Oh, pardon, I forgot." She extracted the needle. "I don't think I'm +unwomanly but I'm not a good sewer. Emile! don't you think we might +have some music? I really am beginning to sing '_Le Rêve_' quite well." + +Her education in Anarchy had commenced with the teaching of +revolutionary songs. Emile, who was himself music-mad, had discovered +her to be possessed of a rough contralto voice of a curious mature +quality. It would have been an absurd voice for ballads in a +drawing-room, but it suited fiery declamations in praise of _La +Liberté_! + +They were sitting in Emile's room now, for they made use of each +other's lodgings alternately, and there was a battered and rather +out-of-tune piano. Sometimes, after the evening performance, there +would be a gathering of the conspirators, all more or less morose, +unshaven and untidy; and while Emile played for her, Arithelli would +stand in the middle of the room, her green eyes blazing out of her pale +face, her arms folded, singing with a fervour which surprised even her +teacher, the lovely impassioned "_Rêve du prisonnier_" of Rubinstein. +She was always pleased with her own performances, and not in the least +troubled with shyness. Also she was invariably eager to practise. She +shook down her skirt, went across to the piano and began to pick out +the notes. + + "_S'il faut, ah, prends ma vie. + Mais rends-moi la liberté!_" + + +Emile was sewing on buttons. Though he did not look in the least +domesticated, he was far more dexterous at such work than the +long-fingered Arithelli. In fact it was only at his suggestion that +she ever mended anything at all. + +"Do you ever by chance realise what you are singing about?" he demanded. + +"Of course I do. I'm a red hot Socialist. I've read Tolstoi's books +and lots of others. I got in an awful scrape over political things +just the little time I was in Paris. It was when the Dreyfus case was +on. Madame Bertrand was terrified at the way I aired my opinions. You +see politics are so different abroad to what they are in England." + +Emile agreed. The girl was developing even more than he had hoped. + +"Ah! This is the first time I've ever heard about your political +opinions." + +"You've never asked me before. One doesn't know everything about a +person at once." + +Again Emile agreed. Then he said abruptly, "Well, if you have all +these ideas you'd better join the Cause." + +"I'd love to! Shall I have to go to meetings with Sobrenski and all +the rest of them?" + +"Probably. But you'll not be expected to talk. You may be told to do +some writing or carry messages." + +"Is that all?" She seemed rather disappointed. Emile felt for a +moment almost inclined to develop scruples. She evidently regarded +Anarchy at large as a species of particularly exciting diversion. + +"Who are the other women mixed up with it?" she asked. + +"There are no other women. You should feel honoured that we are having +you." + +Emile stood up, having completed his renovating operations. "You want +to sing, eh?" Arithelli assented eagerly. "You will work?" Emile +demanded. + +"Yes!" Her eyes had become suddenly like green jewels, and she looked +almost animated. She was more interested in Emile's music than in any +other part of him. His wild Russian ballads sung with his strange +clipped accent and fiery emphasis, fascinated her. She was content to +listen for an indefinite period of time, her long body in a restful +attitude, her feet crossed, her hands in her lap, as absolutely +immovable as one who is hypnotised. + +Emile, for his part, was equally interested in her exploits in +vocalism, which he found as extraordinary and unexpected as everything +else about her. Her singing voice was so curiously unlike her speaking +voice that it might have belonged to another person. It had tremendous +possibilities and a large range, but it was hoarse and harsh, and yet +full of an uncanny attraction. In such a voice a sorceress of old +might have crooned her incantations. Where did this girl get her soul, +her passion, he wondered; she who was only just beginning life. + +He flung over an untidy pile of music, and dragged out the +magnificently devilish "_Enchantement_" of Massenet. "Try this," he +said abruptly. "It's _your_ kind of song." + +For half-an-hour he exhorted, bullied and instructed, losing both his +composure and his temper. Arithelli lost neither. "I don't understand +music," she observed calmly. "But show me what to do and I'll do it. +Mine's a queer voice, isn't it? A regular croak." + +"You've got a voice; yes, that's true, but you don't know how to +produce it, and you've no technique. You want plenty of scales." + +"Wouldn't that take all the rough off, and make it just like anyone's +voice?" + +Emile stared angrily at the exponent of such heresy, and was about to +annihilate her with sarcasm, when he suddenly changed his mind. After +all, she was right. It was what she called "the rough" that helped to +make her voice unlike the voices of most women. + +"Is that your idea? A good excuse for being lazy! If you don't sing +scales then you must work hard at songs." + +"Yes, I know." She put her hands behind her back and leant against the +piano. "There was a man in Paris, a friend of the manager. He heard +me sing once. He knew I wanted to take up a profession, and he offered +to train me for nothing, and bring me out on the stage. I was to sing +those queer, dramatic, half-monotone songs in which one almost _speaks_ +the words. He meant to write them specially for me, and I was to wear +an oriental costume. He said that every other voice would sound _fâde_ +after mine." + +Emile glanced at her sharply, but her tone and manner was both +absolutely void of conceit. "Well, why didn't you accept his offer?" + +"I don't know. I suppose because it was fated I should come here. He +wanted me to make my _début_ at the _cafés chantants_, but I didn't +like the idea somehow. He said my voice was only fit for the stage, +and would sound horrible in a room." + +Emile twisted his moustache upwards, and his eyebrows climbed in the +same direction. "So! Do you think then that your life at the +Hippodrome is going to be more what you English call respectable, than +the _cafés chantants_?" + +"There are the horses here. If I don't like anything else I can always +like them." + +Emile decided that the man in Paris had been apt in his judgment of +this fantastic voice. Clever of him also to have noticed that she was +Oriental. The setting of her green eyes was of the East. And horses +were the only things she cared about--so far. Like most people whose +lives are a complicated tangle of plots, Emile was not particularly +interested in animals. His life, thoughts and environment were morbid, +and the dumb creation too normal and healthy to appeal greatly to him. +He discovered that his pupil was able to play in much the same +inconsistent fashion that she sang. With a beautiful touch, full of +temperament and expression, she possessed a profound ignorance of the +rudiments of music. She could not read the notes, she said, but she +could copy anything he played if she heard it two or three times. +Emile found her astonishingly intelligent as well as amiable, and +though the music lessons were not conducted on scientific principles, +they produced good results. + +He would give her plenty of music with which to occupy herself till the +time came when she would be fully occupied in serving the Cause. As he +had said, there were no other female conspirators in their circle. +Sobrenski, the red-haired leader, detested women, and thought them all +fools, who generally added the sin of treachery to their foolishness. +Emile himself had taken no interest in any woman since he had lived in +Barcelona. He too had found them treacherous. Since he had lost his +little childish goddess, Marie Roumanoff, he had had no desire to play +the role of lover. If he wanted companionship he preferred men, for as +companions women bored him. + +But Arithelli was not a woman--yet. She appeared able to keep own +counsel, to do as she was told, and to judge by the way she rode, her +courage would be capable of standing a severe test. Also it had +occurred to him that she possessed the art of being a good comrade. It +would amuse him to watch her develop. At present she was full of +illusions about the charm of life in general. Everything for her +showed rose-tinged. Well, it was not his business to dispel illusions. +At present it was all "_Le Rêve_," but after the dream would come +awakening. He took care to leave her very little alone during the +first few days, and arranged her time according to his own ideas, and +escorted her backwards and forwards from her rehearsals at the +Hippodrome. + +When she was free he took her for long walks up the hills where they +could look down upon the gorgeous city, which, as far as natural +loveliness went, might have been compared to Paradise rather than to +the Hell to which he invariably likened it. + +The beautiful harbour, the dry air, the sunlight and splashes of vivid +colour--everything was intoxicating to her. She said very little, but +Emile felt that she missed nothing, and lacked nothing in appreciation. +For himself the place must be always hateful, for he was in exile. +What was the golden sunlight to him when he longed for the snows and +frozen wastes of Russia, that sombre country so like the hearts of +those by whom it is peopled. + +One day he took her for an excursion to Montserrat, three hours' +journey from Barcelona. They left the train at Monistrol, and started +to walk through the vineyards and pine woods towards the famous +mountain that towers up to heaven in grey rugged terraces of rock. All +round, for miles, were undulating waves of green, here and there the +brown towers of some ancient castle, or the buildings of a farmstead; +and below on the plain the glitter of the winding river. They climbed +to the wooded slopes of Olese, where they sat down to rest. Arithelli +threw herself on the short, dry grass, with her arms under her head, +and drew a long breath of pleasure and relief. + +"I love all this; it makes me feel so free." + +Emile sat with his back against a huge plane tree, and rolled +cigarettes, watching her under his heavy eyebrows. She looked in her +proper place here, he thought. There was something wild and +animal-like about the grace of her attitude. + +"So you're out of a convent?" he said, hurling out the remark with his +usual abruptness. "_Tiens_! It's absurd!" + +"But it's true. Convent schools are cheap, you see, that's why we were +sent there. No, I'm not a Catholic. Most of the girls made their +abjurations, but I never did. They told lies there, and they spied. I +hated that. The nuns spied on the children of Mary, and the children +of Mary spied on the ones who were not the children of Mary, and--" she +stopped. + +Emile told her to continue. "I should like to hear more about +your--your religious experiences," he said. "Besides, it will do you +more good to talk than to go to sleep." + +Arithelli complied at once, with unruffled good nature. "Oh, of course +I'll tell you if you like," she said amiably. "I stopped because I +thought you would probably be bored, _ennuyé_, you know." + +She described the nuns mumbling their prayers, and punctuating them +with irate commands to the children; the many and various rules, the +_Mére Supérieure_, the food, the clothes, the eccentricities of +_Monsieur le Directeur_. She had the rare and unwomanlike art of witty +description, though it assorted badly with her tragic face and +unsmiling eyes. As she talked her voice rippled and broke into +suppressed laughter. + +"It was all rather dull, _n'est-ce-pas_?" said Emile, who felt more +amusement than he had any intention of showing. "You'll find the Cause +more exciting." + +Before any practical steps were taken to make her a member of the band +it was necessary to stimulate her enthusiasm, her imagination. He knew +that for all her outward calmness she had no lack of fire. The coldest +countries sometimes produced the most raging volcanoes. + +"It's the only thing you care about--isn't it--the Cause?" she said. +"Tell me more about it. As I'm going in for it I ought to understand. +Of course I like anything that's 'agin the Government.' All the Irish +have always been rebels and patriots. We've helped your country too." + +Emile did not require a second invitation to induce him to expound his +views. "I suppose you think we throw bombs about by way of a little +distraction?" he asked sarcastically. "What have we suffered before we +took to throwing bombs? Before I came here I saw men and women, old +and young together, shot down in the streets of St. Petersburg. +Because they rioted? No! Because they wished to offer a protest +against the brutalities of the Government officials. Are our petitions +ever read, our entreaties ever answered? There were other things too, +but they didn't generally get into the newspapers. Women stripped in +barrack rooms,--and that in winter,--the Russian winter,--and beaten by +common soldiers. Not women of the streets and slums, but women of the +higher classes. Mock trials held with closed doors, the crime,--to +have incurred the displeasure of someone in favour at the Court,--the +end,--Siberia! A student is known to be quiet, a great reader and +interested in the condition of the serfs. He is watched, arrested, and +on the false evidence of the police ends his days in the mines. +Entreaties, reason, appeal! Have we not tried them? Now we have only +one weapon left--retaliation. Sometimes we are able to avenge our +martyrs. The two fiends who guarded Marie Spiridonova were shot by the +members of her Society. She was only a girl too--about the same age as +you. We Anarchists do not serenade women and make them compliments, +but we think it an honour to kiss the hand of such as Marie +Spiridonova. She was tortured, starved, outraged, and came through +worse than death to be transported to a convict settlement. Now she is +in the Malzoff Prison. She will never see the world again, but it may +be years before the life is ground out of her by labour and privations. +Her case will soon be forgotten, except by a few, and thousands of +other women have gone the same road. The details of the tragedy may be +a little different, the thing itself is the same. One day I shall go +back to my own country. In the meantime I carry on the campaign here. + +"It's a losing cause. But if we lose we pay. We don't ask for mercy!" + + * * * * * * + +They sat together that evening at a _café_ on the Rambla, the strolling +place of the Spanish beauties, who promenaded there in an endless +stream, with waving fans and rustling draperies, carnations and roses +burning in dark, elaborately dressed hair. Tziganes made wild, witch +music. At the _cafés_ people laughed and drank. + +Suddenly Arithelli leant across the little table, raising her glass. +"To the Cause!" she whispered under her breath. + +For an instant the two pairs of eyes flamed into each other; then those +of the man, hard and steel-grey, softened into something like +admiration. Their glasses clinked softly together. "To the Cause!" he +repeated. "_Mon Camarade_!" + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + "These were things she came to know, and to take their measure, + When the play was played out so for one man's pleasure." + SWINBURNE. + + +A few days later, Arithelli was duly initiated, and given the badge of +the Cause, a massive buckle with a woman's figure, and on either side +the words _Honneur et Patrie_. At the suggestion of the leader Emile +had been made responsible for her behaviour. If she betrayed them in +any way his life was to pay forfeit. There was a fellow conspirator +working with her at the Hippodrome, a young Austrian of high rank named +Vardri. His father had turned him out of doors, penniless, because of +his political views; and he was now, half-starved, consumptive and +reckless, employed in harnessing the horses and attending to the +stables. There were two men under thirty, but the majority were +middle-aged. They all seemed to Arithelli to have the same wild, +restless eyes. They called her "_Camarade_," and "_Amigo_," and +treated her not unkindly, but with an utter indifference to her sex. +All their sayings showed the most absolute disregard for human life. + +"If a vase is cracked, break it. If your glove is worn out, throw it +away." + +If they heard that some member of the band had found his way to the +fortress of Montjuich there was callous laughter and a speculation as +to whose turn it would be next. + +Their meetings were held in divers places. Sometimes they would engage +a room at the Hotel Catalonia and hold what were supposed to be classes +for astronomy. Sobrenski was the lecturer, the rest posing as +students. If anyone came in unexpectedly it all looked beautifully +innocent--the big telescope by the open window, the books and papers +and charts, and Arithelli at the desk at the end of the room taking +shorthand notes of the lecture. + +There were seldom more than three or four _rendezvous_ held in the same +place, and more than once there were alarms and rumours of a visit from +the police. + +As the days wore on Emile found new reason to congratulate himself upon +his discovery of "Fatalité," as he had nicknamed the girl. She had +shown herself possessed of a charming temper, a fine intelligence, and +a most complete understanding of the law of obedience. + +She made no comments on anything she was asked to do, but delivered +messages and ran errands after the manner of a machine in good working +order. Even Sobrenski, who hated all women, was obliged to admit her +usefulness. + +She was on pleasant terms with everybody down to the strappers,--the +men who harnessed the Hippodrome horses,--who adored her. Even the +cynical Manager was impressed by her pluck and skill, though he +considered it his privilege to regale her with comments on her personal +peculiarities. + +The time arrived for her first performance at the Hippodrome. She made +her appearance in the ring in a turquoise blue habit, trimmed +hussar-fashion with much braid, and a plumed Cavalier hat, the dusky +shadows under her eyes accentuated, and her face powdered. The Manager +would not allow her to use rouge, so under the glaring electric lights +she appeared more than ever spiritual and unearthly. + +Her type, he said, did not require colour; and the people preferred +anything morbid in the shape of looks. + +Emile, who was among the audience on the first night, thought she +looked like a thorough-bred racer as she made a dignified entrance to a +clanging stately gavotte crashed out by the band. He had given her +dresser a couple of _pesetas_ to have her well turned out, and the +result was exceedingly satisfactory even to his critical eyes. + +Her little head with its piled red hair was carried marvellously high, +and she swayed daintily on the back of the high-stepping Don Juan. She +bowed gravely to the various parts of the house, but she had no +stereotyped smile either for the boxes or for the lower seats. Her +slender figure gave the impression of great strength for a young girl. + +"Steel in a velvet sheath, _ma foi_! Body and soul!" was Emile's +inward comment. "So much the better for the Cause." + +A Spanish crowd usually gives but a languid reception unless roused by +something either horrible or sensational, but her bizarre appearance +had the effect which the Manager had foreseen. + +In the second act she apparently changed her personality with her +clothes, and whirled in astride over two horses with neither saddle nor +bridle, guiding them and keeping them together by the pressure of her +feet. She had full skirts, to her knees, of white satin, and +pearl-coloured silk stockings. Her satin bodice was cut heart-shaped +and there was a high jewelled band round her long throat. Her hair +hung down in a thick plait, tied with a bow of blue velvet. + +The horses tore round the ring at full gallop; she jumped over gates +and through hoops, and ended her performance by leaping off one of the +horses which was caught by a groom, and flinging herself on to the +other, face to the tail, for a final reckless canter round the arena. + +The brilliance and nerve with which she carried through the trick, +roused the enthusiasm it deserved, and Arithelli passed out panting and +triumphant to the accompaniment of music and cheers, and showered roses +and carnations. + +The part of her work that she most abhorred was the eight o'clock +compulsory visit to the stables. A circus life is not prone to +encourage the virtue of early rising, and she was by nature indolent in +a panther-like fashion, and was never in bed till half-past one or two +in the morning. If she had known a little more she could have +protested on the grounds that her position of leading lady did not +involve the feeding of her animals. She did it as she had done other +things without complaint, and presently Emile came to the rescue. He +knew as much about the habits and requirements of horses as he knew +about shop-keeping, being entirely ignorant of both. + +"How much are the brutes to have?" he asked of the Manager. "And what +on earth do you give them?" + +"Oh, I generally give 'em fish," was the sarcastic answer. "What are +you doing here, Poleski? This is the girl's business. I thought she +was keen on her horses." + +"She is also keen on her bed," Emile answered. "She does her share of +work." + +The Manager grumbled, but the new arrangement was allowed to stand. + +Arithelli did not consort with the other female members of the +Hippodrome. + +The one exception was Estelle the dancer, with whom Emile allowed her a +slight acquaintance. He neither approved of women in general nor of +their friendships. Estelle was the _bonne amie_ of the sardonic +Manager, who occasionally beat her, after which ceremony it was her +custom to drink _absinthe_. Sometimes, for this reason, she was unable +to appear on the stage. She would come into Arithelli's dressing room +and weep, and smoke innumerable cigarettes, and when things had been +going well, they made a _partie carrée_ at the Café Colomb. + +By way of advertising herself and her performance Arithelli was given a +high, smartly painted carriage in which she drove in the fashionable +promenade of Barcelona, the Paséo de Gracia, with three of the +cream-coloured horses lightly harnessed and jingling with bells. + +On these occasions Emile played the part of lady's maid and escort. He +selected her dress, fastened it, scolded her for putting her hat on +crooked, and laced up her preposterously high boots. + +Then he adjusted the battered sombrero, lit a cigarette and drove +beside her, scowling as usual. + +The appearance of both was sufficiently arresting. Arithelli drove as +she rode, recklessly, and yet with science. Her thin wrists and long +girlish arms were capable of controlling the most fiery animal. + +She had made Emile her banker, and always handed over to him her weekly +salary, some of which went to the expenses of the Cause as well as a +certain portion in fines, for she had no idea of time and was never +ready for anything. + +Nearly every night before she was half-way into her habit the call-boy +came screaming down the passage, calling with the free-and-easy manners +prevalent behind the scenes: + +"Hurry up, Arithelli, or there'll be a row!" + +The question of a disguise for her was discussed at one of the meetings +of the Brotherhood, and it was decided that she should appear as a boy. +Her height would be an advantage, and her long hands and feet would +also help the illusion in a country where every woman possesses small, +plump and highly arched extremities. Besides, when they had to ride +out to places at night, she would be less noticeable. One girl among a +crowd of men might attract suspicion, though in the daytime she was +more useful as a woman. + +It naturally fell upon Emile to provide the details of her +transformation, and he presented himself at her lodgings one afternoon, +bearing an ungainly parcel which he deposited on the table. + +"You'd better try these on," he said. "There is a complete suit of +boy's clothes, a wig and everything you'll want. You will have to put +your own hair out of the way somehow." + +It was the drowsy hour of the _siesta_, when no one moved out if he +could help it, and all work and play were at a standstill. Arithelli +was sitting, as was her custom, absorbed in her own thoughts and +dreams. For a moment she stared with uncomprehending eyes. She felt +tired, she wanted to be alone, and she had not heard a single word. +Emile shrugged irritably and repeated his remarks. + +"Oh, yes," said Arithelli. She rose slowly, took up the parcel and +retired into seclusion behind the curtains, with which she had screened +off the alcove and so made herself an improvised dressing room. The +rest of the apartment she had altered to look as much like a sitting +room as possible, with the exception of the obtrusive four-poster, +which could not be hidden and which upon entering appeared the most +salient feature visible. There was some tawdry jewellery lying about, +and several pairs of the pale-hued Parisian boots she invariably +affected. Emile made and lighted the inevitable cigarette, while he +fidgeted about, turning over the few French and English novels he could +find with an air of disapproval; for her taste in literature did not +commend itself to him any more than did her taste in finery. + +At one period of his life he had steeped himself in books, knowing the +poetry and romance of nearly every nation. Now he disliked them. If +she wanted books he would choose them for her. She would read the +love-songs of the revolutionists to their goddess Liberty, the haunting +words of those who had suffered for a time, and escaped the Siberian +Ice-Hell. The fanaticism of his race and temperament flamed into his +cold eyes as he sat and brooded, and he hardly noticed that Arithelli +had slid into the room in her noiseless fashion, and was standing +before him. + +Emile, though little given to being astonished, marvelled at the +unconcern with which she submitted to his critical inspection. She +stood and walked easily, and looked neither uncomfortable nor unnatural +in her boyish array, in which the perfect poise of her body showed +triumphantly. + +The black wig, under which she had skilfully hidden her red hair, made +her look more pale than ever. The wide sombrero, tilted backwards, +made a picturesque framing to her oval face, and the _manta_ or heavy +cloak, worn by all Spaniards at night, hung, loosely draped over her +left shoulder. Emile promptly twisted it off. + +"This won't do," he said. "The _manta_ is never worn like that. +Besides it's not enough of a disguise. Watch how I put it on." With a +few rough yet dexterous movements he arranged the dark folds so as to +hide her shoulders and the upper part of her body. + +Then he stood back a few paces. "But your green eyes! A disguise for +_them_ will be impossible. One sees them always." + + "_Les yeux verts. + Vont à l'enfer!_" + +"Do you know that, _mon enfant_?" + +"I've heard it before. They've already come as far as _l'entresol_, +according to you." + +Emile grinned. He enjoyed skirmishing, and felt that he had met his +match in words. Before he could think of another retort she added: + +"I can see in the dark with my green eyes, so they're useful at all +events." + +"Then you'll find plenty of use for them when you're working for +us--and the Cause. When you have to ride upon the hills at night you +will find them of great service. You'll have to ride astride too, so +it is better for you in every way to be dressed like this." + +Presently he left her with a few words of praise for her successful +appearance. His first feeling of surprise at her coolness still +lingered. He had expected a scene in a quiet way, a refusal, at least +expostulation. All his first impressions of her were being verified. +Well, he hoped she would continue in her present ways. Undoubtedly she +was an original, certainly she gave no trouble. + +When she heard the street door shut Arithelli sat down, hiding her face +in her hands. Once she shivered involuntarily. Directly she found +herself alone the mask of her assumed nonchalance had fallen suddenly. +As long as there was an audience she had worn a disguise on her soul as +well as her body. She had been feeling moody and depressed all day, +and this last episode was the climax. Everything she had was to be her +own no longer. It was all to be for the Cause--even her green eyes! +What power it possessed over these men. They admitted it to be a +losing Cause, yet it was all they thought about, the sole thing for +which they lived--and died. She had not thought it would be like this +at first. + +She remembered how gaily she had discoursed of Tolstoi and Prince +Kropotkin, and of their writings which had revealed to her a new world. +Her first interview with Sobrenski had shown the relentlessness of the +man she was to serve. She felt that he would sacrifice all alike, men +and women, to his idol, and would never stop to care whether the victim +were willing or unwilling. The fact of her sex would gain her no +consideration at his hands. Lately she had been impressed with the +sensation of being surrounded by an impassable barrier drawn round her, +a circle that was gradually becoming narrowed. She had begun to know +that she was being incessantly watched. If Emile were occupied with +the business of the Society, and could not fetch her from the +Hippodrome himself, he never failed to send an understudy in the shape +of one of his allies, generally one of the older men. When she emerged +from the performers' entrance a silent figure would come forward to +meet her. Often they exchanged no words throughout the walk home, but +she was never left till her own door was reached. + +If she went anywhere to please herself, to a shop, or to see Estelle, +she was expected to give a full account of her doings. It was an +understood thing that she should not go to the _cafés_ or public +gardens alone, nor speak to anyone not already known and approved by +Emile. With all these conditions she had complied. Already one +illusion had vanished. She had thought to find freedom in Barcelona. + +She had indeed found "_La Liberté_." + +But the Fates had chosen to be in an ironical mood, and while making +the discovery she had herself become a slave. In all her day there was +no hour that she could call her own. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + "I have gained her! Her Soul's mine!" + BROWNING. + + +"You slouched last night in the ring, Fatalité," Emile said. + +Arithelli flung up her head. "I didn't!" + +"You looked like a monkey on a stick," proceeded Emile stolidly. "You +were all hunched up. I wonder Don Juan didn't put you off his back on +to the tan." + +"Don Juan knows better! You see animals are usually more kind than +people." + +She was too proud to admit that the long hours, hard work, and want of +proper food and sleep had lately given her furious backaches, which +were a thing unknown to her before, and a cause of bitter resentment. +She had a healthy distaste for illness either in theory or practice. +That night she sat Don Juan erect as a lance, passing Emile in his +accustomed place in the lower tier of seats with a shrug and scornful +eyebrows. + +She had felt more than usually inclined to play the coward during the +last few weeks. The heat, worry and over-fatigue had begun, as they +must have done eventually, to affect her nerves. When she had felt +more than usually depressed and listless Emile had taken her to one of +the _cafés_ and given her _absinthe_ which had made her feel recklessly +well for the moment, and ten times more miserable the next day. He had +also advised her to smoke, saying that it was good for people who had +whims and fancies, but smoking did not appeal to her, and she never +envied the Spanish woman her eternal cigarette. + +She felt as if she would like to sleep, sleep for an indefinite period. +She was wearied to death of The Cause, and the Brotherhood, with their +intrigues and plots and interminable cipher messages. + +She had been three months in Barcelona, and now fully justified Emile's +name for her. Tragic as a veritable mask of Fate, she looked ten years +older than the girl he had met on the station platform. + +The longer she worked for the Cause the more she realised that Anarchy +was no plaything for spare moments, but a juggling with Life and Death. + +At first they had given her but little to do--a few documents to copy, +some cipher messages to carry. Then the demands upon her leisure had +become more frequent. She found she was expected to make no demur at +being sent for miles, and once or twice there had been dreadful +midnight excursions to a hut up in the mountains. + +The realisation of the folly of trying to escape from the burden that +had been laid upon her affected her nerve and seat during her +performances in the ring. + +For the first time she felt her courage failing her when she entered +Sobrenski's house in answer to his summons. When he had given her the +despatch she made an objection on the grounds that the time taken in +conveying it would absorb her few hours of rest. + +"It's too far," she protested. "I can't go there to-day." + +"Then you can go to-morrow," answered Sobrenski in the accents of +finality. He had never cared about the girl's inclusion in their +plots, and took his revenge in exacting from her considerably more than +his pound of flesh. + +Moreover he suspected her of treachery, and disliked her for the +quickness of her wit in argument. + +Even his unseeing eyes told him she looked both ill and haggard, but if +she were there, well, she must work like the rest of them. + +Arithelli hesitated for a moment, and when she spoke for all her pluck +her voice was a little rough and uneven. "I'm tired of being an errand +boy!" + +Sobrenski looked at her, drawing his eyebrows together. Everyone of +the band had a nickname for her, and his own very unpleasant one was +"Deadly Nightshade." Some of the others were "Sapho" and "Becky +Sharp," which latter Emile had also adopted as being particularly +appropriate. + +"Oh, very well," he answered. "Shall it be the messages or a bullet? +You can take your choice. Perhaps you would prefer the latter. It +makes no difference to me. This comes of employing women. When +Poleski brought you here first I was opposed to having you. Women +always give trouble." + +"Would you have got a man to do half the work I do?" she flashed out +with desperate courage. + +"Then _do_ your work and don't talk about it," retorted Sobrenski +sharply. "If you are absolutely ill and in bed, of course we can't +expect you to go to various places, but as long as you can ride every +night at the Hippodrome, you can certainly carry messages." + +He turned his back on her and took up some papers from the table, and +Arithelli went out, beaten and raging. + +Emile found her lying on the bed, her hands clenched by her side, her +proud mouth set in bitter lines. As he came in she turned away from +him, to face the wall. + +"_Tiens_!" he observed, "you are a lazy little trollop." Emile was +proud of his English slang. + +Finding there was no answer he changed his tone. "Hysterics, eh? They +won't do here. Turn over, I want to talk to you." + +The girl moved mechanically, and Emile surveyed her. There were slow +tears forcing themselves under her heavy eyelids. + +"I wish I were dead!" + +"Probably you will be soon. So will the rest of us." + +"What brutes you all are!" + +"Because we don't care whether we die to-day or to-morrow? _Souvent +femme varie_! Just now you seemed so anxious,--besides, if one belongs +to the Cause one knows what to expect." Emile strolled towards the +uncomfortable piece of furniture by the window, that purported to be an +armchair, and sat down. + +"I loathe the Cause! I didn't belong to it from choice. Why did you +make me join?" + +"Because I thought you would be useful. You _are_ useful and probably +will be more so." + +"Suppose I refuse to do anything more?" + +"They will not give you the choice of refusing twice." + +"Emile, I believe you are trying to frighten me. Tell me what they +would do." + +"As I introduced you to the Brotherhood, I should naturally be the one +chosen to execute judgment on you. _Enfin_, my dear Arithelli, I +should be called upon to shoot you. We don't forgive traitors. If we +let everyone draw back from their work simply because they happened to +be afraid, what would become of the Cause? Also let me remind you how +you came to me boasting of your love of freedom. 'I'm a red-hot +Socialist.' That's what you said, didn't you? Perhaps you have +forgotten it. Well, I haven't. Socialism doesn't consist of standing +up in a room to sing." + +Arithelli made no answer. She lay like a dead thing, and after a pause +the slow cynical voice went on. + +"There was another woman in our affair about two years ago. Her name +was Félise Rivaz. She got engaged to one of the men, and then it +suddenly occurred to her that comfortable matrimony and Anarchy didn't +seem likely to be enjoyed at one and the same time. So she persuaded +the man to turn traitor and run away to England with her, where they +proposed to get married. + +"Their plans came out,--naturally,--those things generally do. We all +spy upon each other. They both felt so secure that they came together +to a last meeting--I can show you the house if you like. It's down in +the Parelelo, the revolutionary quarter. + +"They strangled the woman, and cut off her arm above the elbow--I +remember she had a thick gold bracelet round it with a date (a _gage +d'amour_ from her lover I suppose)--and they made him drink the blood. +He went mad afterwards. The best thing he could do under the +circumstances." Emile shrugged. + +"There are plenty more similar _histoires_. But perhaps I have told +you enough to convince you of the futility of attempting to draw back +from what you have undertaken." + +Still there was neither movement nor answer. Emile got up, and came to +the bed. + +"_Allons_! It's time you were dressing. You'll be late again, and one +of these days you'll find yourself dismissed. You must just go on and +put up with it all. Life mostly consists of putting up with things." + +But even this consoling philosophy failed to have a rousing effect. + +For the first time in her life Arithelli had fainted. + + * * * * * * + +When she came to her senses that evening Emile sent the landlady with a +message to the Hippodrome, telling the Manager to substitute another +turn, and then made Arithelli get into bed. Her dress and boots came +off and reposed upon the floor. The rest of her clothes were left on. + +These details did not worry Emile. Then he found a book and sat +reading till she had drifted into a heavy sleep, the sleep of +exhaustion. + +In his own way he was sorry for her, and his feelings were by no means +as brutal as his words. At the same time he did not believe in a +display of sympathy. According to his ideas it was demoralising, and +cured no one of complaints, imaginary or otherwise. + +Also it was likely to make people hysterical. Therefore when Arithelli +woke at six o'clock in the morning, and sat up panting, with a hand at +her left side, he elevated both shoulders and eyebrows. + +"_Qu'est ce-qu vous avez donc_? You're all right now." + +He knew perfectly well that there was no pretence of illness. The +strained eyes, the blue shadows round the mouth told their own tale. + +"Oh, Emile, my heart feels so queer! I'm sure it must be all wrong." + +"_Ma foi_! _Ces femmes la_! _Il y a tou jours quelque chose_! First +a faint, then a heart! How often am I to tell you, Arithelli, that +that part of your--your--how do you say it?--anatomy--is quite without +use here? Have you any brandy in the room?" + +"There's Eau de Cologne on the washstand." + +He mixed water with the spirit and gave her a liberal dose that soon +helped her to look less ghastly. + +She lay back feeling almost comfortable, wishing Emile would see fit to +depart, but Count Poleski returned again to the subject of her +misbehaviour. + +Like most men he was not at his best in the early morning, and the +night's vigil had not improved his temper. + +He sat scowling after his manner, black eyebrows meeting over grey +eyes, hard as flint. "If you are going in for this kind of +performance, what will be the use of you?" he enquired sarcastically. + +Perhaps after all Sobrenski had been right in employing no women. + +"Even the best machine will get out of order sometimes," the girl +replied wearily. + +"And when that happens one sets to work to find another machine to take +its place." + +"I didn't know about the horrors; you ought to have told me. It isn't +fair." + +There was neither passion nor resentment in the low voice. "What shall +I do?" she went on, after waiting for Emile to speak. + +"Put up with it, or better still go in for the Cause seriously." + +"Don't you call this serious? Blood and brutalities and slave-driving? +You talked about _l'entresol de l'enfer_, but I'm beginning to think +I've stepped over the threshold." + +"_Ce n'est que le premier pas qui coute_!" + +Arithelli bit her lips. "I don't feel in the mood for arguing now. I +wish you would leave me alone." + +"On condition that you won't go in for any more hysterics, I'll go and +settle with the Manager that you don't have to appear to-night. It's +lucky there happens to be a new turn with those trapeze people. The +audience won't miss you. Has Sobrenski given you anything to do +to-day?" + +"I don't know. I can't remember. Oh, yes, I was to go to the Baroni's +at two o'clock." + +"I'll see to that. A cipher message?" + +"Yes. It's fastened under my hair." She dragged herself into a +sitting position and extracted the little wad of paper with shaking +hands. Emile took it. + +"Good! I shall be back at five o'clock. You can get up later and come +round to my rooms. Do you understand?" + +"Yes!" + +When he had gone she cowered down into the big bed shivering. Every +bone in her body ached as if she had been beaten. She had the +sensation of one who has been awakened from a bad dream. Was it all +real or not? + +Last night and its doings seemed centuries ago. She still heard +Emile's voice as if from a distance, telling the story of the lovely +siren woman who had been strangled, and then the room rocked, and the +walls closed in upon her. + +His words worked in her brain: "_Go in for the Cause seriously. +Remember it's liberty we are fighting for. A life more or less--what's +that? Yours or mine? What does it matter? Do you wonder we don't +make love to women? It's a goddess and not a woman before whom we burn +incense. Blood and tears, money and life! Is there any sacrifice too +great for her altar?_" + +And she had been both frightened and fascinated. + +This was what Anarchism made of men like the cynical Emile. It had +never occurred to her before that even Sobrenski, whom she regarded +solely as a brutal task-master, was himself a living sacrifice. + +She drowsed and brooded through the day, and having arrived at Emile's +room and finding it empty, she "prowled," as she herself would have +expressed it, among his few belongings, for she possessed a very +feminine curiosity. Under a pile of loose music she found the portrait +of a little blond woman, beautiful of curve and outline, in a lace robe +that could only have been made in Paris or Vienna. + +The picture was signed _Marie Roumanoff_, and on the back was written +"_Tout passe, tout casse, tout lasse!_" There were songs too scrawled +with love-messages in Emile's handwriting. + +She pored over them with a vivid interest quite unmingled with any +thought of jealousy. Emile always said that no revolutionist ever +wasted time or thought on women. + +After all, if she were shot to-morrow who would care? She had written +to her people and sent them photographs and newspapers with the +accounts of her triumph. + +Success was a sure road to approbation. If she had failed she would +not have written. + +The Hippodrome engagement could not last forever. A little +carelessness, a loss of nerve, and her career would be at an end. + +Sometimes when she had been singing "_Le Rêve_," she had really meant +it all. + +"_S'il faut, ah, prends ma vie_!" + +Only a few days ago Emile had stormed at her in his rasping French, +because she had, with the vehemence of youth, denounced the Anarchist +leader as a relentless brute. + +"You think yourself over-worked and ill-used--you!" he said as he +strode up and down the room twisting his fiercely pointed moustache. +"Look at Sobrenski. He works us all, but does he ever spare himself? +Look at Vardri? Rich, well-born, starving at the Hippodrome on a few +_pesetas_ a week. I thought you had better stuff in you. Are you +going to turn out English milk-and-water? You're _not_ English, you +say? No, I suppose you're not, or you wouldn't talk about 'dirty +Gentiles.' If you think Anarchy is all '_Le Rêve_' you'll soon find +yourself mistaken. If some of us dream dreams we have also to face +actions and realities." + +Perhaps the episode of Marie Roumanoff belonged to the days before he +joined the Brotherhood and became an exile from his country. + +She knew that once upon a time he had owned land and estates in Russia, +and Emile the Anarchist of Barcelona had been known as Count Poleski. + +She kept her discoveries to herself, and when Emile returned he found +her crooning over the piano. She appeared to have quite recovered her +boyish good spirits, and demanded a singing lesson, for under his +tuition her passion for music had developed and increased. + +"It's so nice to have a change from the heat and dust and those +horrible electric lights," she said. "Let's enjoy ourselves and try +over all your music. What a lot you have, and it all seems to have +been bought in different places. Rome, Paris, Vienna, Dieppe, London! +Fancy your having been in London!" + +Emile's collection of songs covered a wide field and ranged from the +gypsy ballad of "The Lost Horse," to "The Bridge," in the performance +of which he revelled. + +Arithelli sat in a corner and rocked with inward laughter over his +atrocious English, and evident enjoyment of the morbid sentiments. For +in spite of her face Arithelli had a fine sense of the ridiculous. + +"You don't say the words properly," she said. "You make such mouthfuls +out of them!" + +"And what of you?" Emile retorted in great wrath. "You with your +French all soft, soft like oil!" + +"Yes, that's the Irish half of me." + +"And your Italian so _raûque_ so hard--!" + +"That's the Jewish half of me. Oh, don't let's quarrel! I do want to +learn to sing properly." + +"Then don't fold your arms," her instructor said sharply. "I suppose +you think it looks dramatic, but how can you learn to sing what you +call 'properly,' with your chest all crushed up like that?" + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + "When I look back on the days long fled, + The memory grows still dreamier. + Oh! what fantastic lives they led, + Far away in Bohemia. + + "There were laws that were only made to break, + In a world that never seems half awake + Till the lamps were lit--there were souls at stake. + Far away in Bohemia." + DOLF WYLLARDE. + + +Barcelona in August was like the Hell to which Emile likened it. + +The rich escaped from the heat to their villas up in the mountains, +those whom business, or lack of money, kept in the city, existed in a +parched and sweltering condition. Arithelli still kept her place among +the performers at the Hippodrome, though after the fashion of circus +artists her name had been changed. + +She was now "Madame Mignonne" from Paris, and wore a golden wig, and +came on the stage riding a lion in the character of a heathen goddess +in the spectacular display which always ended the performance. + +She pined for the _haute école_ and trick riding in which she so +excelled, and felt unholy pangs when she saw her beloved white horses +being driven in a chariot by a fat, vulgar English woman, arrayed in +scanty pink tunic and tights. + +She was not afraid of the lion, who was old and toothless enough to be +absolutely safe, but her new role was not a great success. + +The golden hair did not suit her any better than did the classical +draperies, and she grew daily thinner. As a matter of fact she was +practically going through the process of slow starvation. + +She had never, even in her healthily hungry days, been able to eat the +abominable Spanish dishes--meat floating in oil, and other things which +she classed together under the heading of _cochonneries_. + +She generally lived on fruit, a little black bread, coffee, and +_absinthe_. + +Emile would try and bully her into eating more, and occasionally +essayed his talents as a _chef_, and cooked weird looking things in his +rooms over a vilely smelling English oil stove, but the Jewess in +Arithelli found him wanting in the "divers washings" she required of +the saucepans, and they generally ended these Bohemian repasts with a +quarrel. + +She went about her work in a half-stupefied state, as one who is +perpetually in a trance. She was past fear now. Nothing mattered. +Midnight rides on a mule up in the mountains, meetings in the low +quarter of the town, the danger of being arrested while carrying a +despatch. + +"_C'est ainsi que la vie_!" Emile's motto had become also her own. + +She was once more a perfect machine. Even the only thing that +Sobrenski could find to say against her was that her appearance was too +conspicuous for a conspirator and that her hands and feet would betray +her through any disguise. + +Emile, though still outwardly as unsympathetic as ever, was not blind +to the change in her looks and manner. + +Putting the Cause out of the question, he did not wish "Fatalité" to +get ill. Her company amused and distracted him. + +He liked to hear her views on life, and to colour them with his own +cynicism, and he enjoyed teaching her to sing and hearing her argue. + +For all her quiet she was curiously magnetic and had a way of making +her absence felt. She was never noisy or exacting and had none of the +pride or vices of her sex, and though she was often depressed she was +never bored, and in consequence bored no one. + +They had many traits in common, including fatalism and morbidity, for +the Slav temperament is in a hundred ways akin to that of the Celt. + +In spite of his jeering remarks Emile thoroughly appreciated the girl's +pluck, and knew that if she failed it would be purely from physical +reasons. + +"Iron in a velvet sheath," he had described her, and iron did not +bend--it broke. + +After some consideration he approached the very unapproachable Manager. +"It's time you gave your leading _equestrienne_ a holiday," he +observed. "She's getting ill. If you don't let her have a rest soon +she'll be falling off in public, or having some fiasco. She was half +dead the other night after the performance." + +The Manager made profane remarks in the dialect of Silesia, of which +place he was a native. He was fresh from quarrelling for the hundredth +time with Estelle, and was in the last frame of mind to desire rest or +peace for any inhabitant of the globe. + +By himself and everyone else at the Hippodrome, Arithelli was +considered the property of the Anarchist, and Emile had taken very good +care to disabuse no one of the idea, but had rather been at some pains +to create such an impression. + +For her it was the best protection, and kept her free from the insults +and attentions of other men. + +Bouquets and jewellery he was willing that she should receive; they did +no harm and the latter could always be sold. + +In cold and dispassionate argument he explained to the irate Manager +the folly of ruining good material by injudicious use. + +"You pay her as little as you can considering she is a draw. She does +the work of three people, including keeping the books when you are not +in a condition to wrestle with arithmetic. If you had your way she +would be cleaning out the stables." + +"Bah!" sneered the other. "It would do her good--take the devil out of +her--hard work doesn't hurt that type. She's all wire and whipcord, +your She-Wolf, Poleski. Has she been snarling at you?" + +"You'd better give her a week off," proceeded Emile, unmoved. "The +audience will be getting tired of her if you're not careful; she has +been on too long without a break. Get a fresh _artiste_ and take it +out of her salary. I shall give her a week's cruise round the harbour +and see what that will do." + +"Well, try and put a little flesh on her bones," said the Manager +rudely. "I never saw such lean flanks! She's got the expression of a +death's head. It's a good thing the Spanish don't care for cheerful +grins or she wouldn't be here two days." + +And so it came to pass that on the following Sunday Arithelli found +herself sitting on the deck of a yacht anchored far out in the harbour, +with the shores of Barcelona only a faint outline in the distance. + +They had come aboard the previous day. + +Emile had made her no explanations beyond saying that he was going to +take her for a sea trip, and after her custom she had asked no +questions. + +The yacht, which was an uncanny looking craft, painted black and called +"_The Witch_," she knew by reputation, and had often seen it slipping +into the harbour after dusk. It was the property of two Russian +aristocrats, friends of Emile's, who helped the Cause by conveying +bombs and infernal machines, and taking off such members of the band as +had suddenly found Spain an undesirable residence. + +Arithelli was not in the least interested in either of the men, the +dark, handsome, saturnine Vladimir, or the fair-haired, pretty, +effeminate youth to whom he was comrade and hero. + +But she liked their smartness and well-groomed air, and their spotless +clothes, after Emile and his dirty nails and slovenly habits, and she +appreciated to the full the surrounding refinement and comfort, and +enjoyed the daintily served meals, the shining glass and silver and the +deft, silent waiting of the sailors. + +She had been given a luxurious cabin which seemed a paradise after her +dirty, carpetless bedroom, and in it she could laze and lounge in peace +without the eternal practising and rehearsals and running errands that +her soul loathed. + +The hot sun glared down upon her, as she sat watching the racing waves. + +She was a fantastic, slim, _bizarre_ figure with her coppery hair, over +which a lace scarf was tied, and high-heeled slippers on her beautiful +slender feet. + +In her ears dangled huge turquoises, showing vividly against the white +skin that was coated thickly with scented powder. + +The manager had told her that she must not get tanned or red or it +would spoil her type, and she now "made-up" habitually in the daytime. + +Her whole array was tawdry and theatrical, and utterly out of keeping +with her surroundings. + +The two owners of the yacht, who wore immaculate white linen clothes +and canvas shoes, expressed to each other their disapproval of her +whole get-up, and particularly of her clicking heels. In common with +most men, they abominated an _outré_ style of dressing and too much +jewellery, and above all such finery at sea. + +The girl must be mad! Didn't she know that a schooner was not a circus +ring? If she were such a fool Poleski should have taught her better +before bringing her on board. + +They agreed that he had sense enough in other things, and had certainly +trained her not to be a nuisance. + +After _déjeuner_ Emile had hunted up the least doubtful of the French +novels they possessed and sent her up on deck to get the benefit of the +sea air of which she was supposed to stand in need. + +"_Va t'en_, Arithelli," he said. "You don't want to be suffocating +yourself down in a stuffy cabin. You're here to get lots of ozone and +make yourself look a little less like a corpse. Besides, we want to +talk." + +She felt very much depressed and neglected as she sat dangling "_Les +confessions d'une femme mariée_," which were virtuous to dulness and +interested her not at all, in a listless hand, long and delicate like +her feet, and decorated with too many turquoise rings. Below, in the +cabin, she could hear the noise of the men as they argued and shouted +at each other in a polyglot of three different languages. + +Arithelli felt more than a little resentful. Why had they shut her out +and prevented her from hearing their discussions? + +The men at the other meetings had always wanted her in the room. + +She had been entrusted with all their secrets and there was no question +of betrayal. She knew too much about the consequences now to try that. + +When Emile came up from below she asked him why he had insulted her by +turning her out. + +Did he not trust her, or did he think she had not enough intelligence. + +For answer he laughed cynically, "I'll make use of you and your +intelligence fast enough--when I want them. You were cavilling at +being overworked the other day." + +Of Vladimir and Paul she saw nothing in the daytime, for they both +ignored her, but in the evenings they all sat together up on deck, and +Paul sang and played the guitar while Arithelli would listen entranced +and faint with pleasure. + +A love of melody was the birthright of her race, and the boy had a +genius for music. He seemed to have but two ideas in life--that, and a +devotion which almost amounted to idolatry for the older man. + +They would walk up and down for hours, Vladimir with his hand on Paul's +shoulder talking, gesticulating and commanding, while the other, his +eyes on the ground, listened and assented. + +Sometimes Vladimir would speak to him in Russian with an accent that +was in itself a caress, and Arithelli, who watched them curiously, +noticed and wondered to see the boy flush and colour like a woman. + +She always looked forward with the keenest pleasure to those evenings. + +The days bored her, inasmuch as she was capable of being bored, and she +hated the glare and glitter of the sun and sky. + +It was too much like the blue-white lights of the Hippodrome. With +night came the glamour of Fairyland, that magic country in which +Ireland still believes, and which is ever there for those who seek it, +"East o' the Sun, and West o' the Moon." + +The yacht drifting idly at anchor in smooth water, the stars in their +bed of velvet black, the magic of air and space. + +The incense-like scent of Turkish cigarettes and black coffee, the +little group of men lounging in their deck chairs, the resonant, full +notes of the guitar, and Paul's voice rising out of the shadows. + +If he had sung standing on the platform of a brightly lit concert hall +half the charm would have vanished in that distraction which the +personality of a singer creates. + +In the illusion of his surroundings the man himself did not exist. + +There was only the voice--the singer. Hungarian folk-songs that fired +her blood and made her restless with strange longings; "_La vie est +vaine_," eternally sweet and haunting; then some wickedly witty song of +the _cafés_, and melodies of Gounod full of infinite charm. Last of +all came always "_Le Rêve_," in which Emile and Vladimir joined as if +it were some National Anthem, and which left her quivering with +excitement. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + "There would no man do for your sake, I think, + What I would have done for the least word said; + I had wrung life dry for your lips to drink-- + Broken it up for your daily bread." + SWINBURNE. + + +When the week of dreams and rest was over she went back to the +Hippodrome with somewhat of relief in her feelings. + +At least the work prevented her from thinking. Though she was +physically less languid, the sea air had neither succeeded in putting +any more flesh on what the Manager called her "lean flanks," nor had it +made her look much more cheerful. He had the sense to let her take her +place as _equestrienne_ once more, and had announced her reappearance +in flaming posters. + +The stablemen and helpers were all delighted to see her again, and in +token of their satisfaction presented her with a hideous and unwieldy +bouquet, in which all colours were arranged together so as to give the +effect of a kaleidoscope. They liked her for her sweet temper and +invariable courtesy, and respected her for her knowledge of horses. + +Estelle came and embraced her and was voluble over the failings of her +"_bon ami_," the sardonic manager. + +Arithelli received a hearty round of applause as she rode into the ring +on her favourite "Don Juan," whose wavy tail and mane were decorated +with turquoise ribbons that matched her habit. + +At least she was happy on horseback, and she loved the animals and they +her. + +Even the performing sheep and monkey, and the toothless lion came in +for a share in her affections. She had a new and difficult trick to go +through that night, but this particular sort of danger only made her +feel exhilarated. + +Emile's stories of blood and horrors had sickened her, but the chance +of breaking her neck over a high jump held no terrors. + +She made her exit, gaily waving her silver-handled whip, and Vardri, +who was standing at the entrance of the ring, came forward quickly to +lift her off her horse before the groom could reach her. + +"You're wanted to-night in the Calle de Pescadores," he whispered, as +she rested her hand on his shoulder to jump down. "As soon as +possible, and go in carefully--there's a scare about spies." + +He felt her body stiffen and the little smile that came so rarely died +in an instant, leaving her once more "Fatalité." + +She nodded by way of assent and bent down to gather up her habit. + +The ring-master was only a few feet away, and they could never be +certain as to who was to be trusted. + +Vardri stood looking after her as she walked away with her head well up +and her shoulders thrown back as usual. + +The two had become good friends with the comradeship induced by the +similarity in their misfortunes. + +Both were young, reckless and without money beyond what they earned, +though, whereas Arithelli had been more or less tricked into her +present position, Vardri had been infatuated with the Cause from the +time he was old enough to take an interest in anything. The worship of +the goddess Liberty had left with him room also for the adoration of a +human being, and in a boyish chivalrous way he had tried to make things +easier for Arithelli. + +He managed to bring her occasional flowers and music out of his +starvation wages, and was always jealously careful of the way in which +her horses were groomed and turned out. They had a curious resemblance +to each other, and when Arithelli was dressed in boy's clothes for her +journeys up in the mountains, they might have been two brothers. One +was dark and the other fair, but both had the same haggard, +well-modelled faces, the same pale skins, and thin, supple figures. + +They were exactly of a height, too, and when Arithelli disguised +herself, she pushed her red hair under a sombrero and black wig. + +Even Sobrenski's lynx eyes had been at fault in the semi-darkness of +the hut, and he had sworn at her in mistake for Vardri. As the dresser +took off her habit, she asked the woman whether Monsieur Poleski had +been behind the scenes during her turn, and was there a note or message? + +It appeared that there had been no sign of Emile, and she hesitated for +a moment, hardly knowing what to do. + +The order for her presence in the Calle de Pescadores, which of course +had been sent by Sobrenski, had told her to come at once. + +On the other hand, Emile had always told her to wait for him in her +room till he came to fetch her. If she went through the streets alone +there would be a row, and if she were late at the _rendezvous_ there +would also be a row. + +"_C'est ainsi que la vie!_" + +She lifted her thin shoulders after the manner of Emile and decided to +start at once. She wiped all the make-up from her face with a damp +towel, swaying a little as she stood before the glass. + +The excitement of her reception and the ensuing episode had made her +heart beat at distressing speed. + +"You're not ill," she adjured her pale reflection. "It's all +imagination. Emile says all these complaints are. Any way, you're not +going to give in to it." + +She shut both ears and eyes as she sped through the restless city that +even at this hour was astir with life. + +She was only glad that there was no moon. Roused for once out of her +naturally slow and indolent walk, she was soon in the poor quarter and +climbing the stairs to the third floor of a horrible little house, the +back of which looked out on the dark slums of the quarter of the +Parelelo, the breeding-place of revolutions; the district between the +Rambla and the Harbour. + +The house was like the one that Emile had described when telling her of +the murdered woman, Félise Rivaz. + +The very air reeked of intrigue and hidden deeds. + +She looked round first of all for Emile, but he was not there, and only +half the usual number of conspirators were assembled. + +Vardri, who had left the Hippodrome the minute he had delivered his +message, was sitting on the end of the table swinging his feet and +whistling softly. + +He had bribed one of the "strappers" to finish his work, and slipped +out, only arriving a few minutes before her. + +He had risked dismissal, but that was no great matter. + +The Cause came first, and he feared danger for Arithelli, knowing that +if there was anything specially risky to be done she would be the one +chosen. + +Sobrenski was always harder on her than on the others. + +He watched her with the hungry, faithful eyes of an animal, and got up +from his seat with instinctive courtesy. Like all the rest he wore the +Anarchist badge, a red tie, and the hot, vivid colour showed up the +lines of ill-health and suffering about his eyes and mouth. + +In spite of his disreputable clothes and wild hair, there still +remained in him the indefinable signs of breeding, in the thin, shapely +hands that rested on his knee, and in the modulations of his boyish and +eager voice. + +None of the others took the least notice of the girl's entrance. + +Nearly all of them were as well-born as the young Austrian, but to them +she was simply a comrade, a fellow, worker, not a woman. + +She gave him a little friendly gesture and went quietly to a seat +against the wall, where she sat in one of her characteristic attitudes, +her feet crossed, and showing under her short dark blue skirt. + +Emile had made her buy this one plain and unnoticeable garment for use +on these occasions. + +After she had been in the room a minute, Sobrenski turned from the man +to whom he had been talking in a careful under-tone, and bolted the +door. + +"Listen, all of you," he said. "We have received information that this +house will be watched to-night. Whether the spy is one who was +formerly one of us, we do not know--yet. It appears that it is Poleski +who is the suspect. They have some evidence against him that is +dangerous. If he is seen coming in here to-night, they will arrest +him. The next time we will change the place, but for the present all +that can be done is to warn him against coming here. Fortunately he +will be later than usual, because he does not leave the Café Colomb +till after midnight. Someone must be sent there to stop him. It will +not do for any of us to be seen coming out, so she"--he indicated +Arithelli--"must go." + +Arithelli wasted no time in response. She was only too eager to get +out of the abominable place, and was already half way to the door when +Sobrenski stopped her. + +"Not that way!" he said. "What are you thinking of? You will walk +straight into the arms of the spies who are probably watching the house +by this time. No, you must go by the window at the back; the rest of +us will stay here all night." + +"This house gives on the quay by a lucky chance," remarked one of the +older men; "we should be well trapped otherwise. There are several +feet between it and the water." + +Vardri's eyes had never moved from the girl's face. He knew that her +heart was affected, and she had told him once that she would never +attempt to go on the tight-rope or trapeze because the mere thought of +a height always terrified her. + +In answer to Sobrenski's gesture, she moved towards the window, which +another of the conspirators was cautiously opening. + +Vardri pushed himself forward into the group. "She can't go down +there," he said hoarsely, "It's not safe--look at the height!" + +"She'll go down well enough if she holds onto the rope." + +"The rope may break or fray through on the sill." + +"She takes her chance like the rest of us." + +"The rest of us--we're _men_!" + +"There are neither men nor women in the Cause. Do you need to be +taught that now? Stand back!" + +"I'll go down in her place." + +"You will do nothing of the kind. Which of us is the leader here?" + +Sobrenski had twisted the girl's arms behind her back, and he was +holding her by the wrists. He expected her to scream or struggle, but +she remained absolutely passive. + +One of the men was making a slip-knot in a coil of rope. + +Vardri's blood was hot as he looked on. Blind with helpless rage, he +was conscious of nothing but the little set face and defiant head. He +had come suddenly into his heritage of manhood at the sight of her +alone, defenceless and roughly handled by brute beasts who called +themselves men. + +He was mad, too, with a man's jealousy. From the earliest moment he +had seen Arithelli he had given her homage as a woman. The _gamin_, +the "Becky Sharp" that Emile and the others knew, he had never seen, +and he had always resented her numerous irreverent nicknames. + +He could do nothing, nothing! + +Get himself shot or strangled, perhaps, and what use would that be to +her? + +"Come!" said Sobrenski, turning her towards the window. + +For the first time since she had entered the room, Arithelli spoke: +"Leave me alone for a minute. No, I won't move--_parole d'honneur_!" + +When she was released, she put out her left hand. "_Mon ami_, what's +the use of arguing? I'm the errand boy, _vois-tu_? My work is to +carry messages. If you make a scene it's only the worse for me. It's +good of you to want to go instead. I shall not forget." + +The voice, subtle and sweet as ever, the intimacy implied by the +familiar "thou" acted like a charm to the boy's wild fury. Before her +courage and dignity it seemed out of place to make any further protest. + +He crushed the long and lovely hand against his lips with mingled +passion and reverence. + +There was a red streak across the wrist. + +"A fine melodrama!" sneered Sobrenski. "Keep all that for the stage, +it isn't needed here. _Allons_! We can't waste any more time, there +has been too much wasted already." + +Vardri walked to the furthest end of the room, turning his back upon +the group at the window, and thrust his fingers into his ears to deaden +the sound of the scream for which he waited in tortured anticipation. + +Excitable and neurotic, like all consumptives, his imagination made of +those waiting moments a veritable hell. + +She would never get down in safety--an old and hastily knotted rope, a +disregard of all ordinary precautions, and her body in the hands of men +who handled human lives more carelessly than most people would handle +stones. He bit his lip till the blood ran down to his chin. + +Here he stood doing nothing, he who would have been tortured to save +her! + +The window was shut and one of the men said: "She's down all right +after all. I thought by the look of her she would have fainted. She +has some pluck, Mademoiselle Fatalité!" + +"Yes," answered Sobrenski. "Here's the coward and traitor." + +Vardri wheeled round, looking straight into the cold eyes of his +leader. He had heard the last words. She was safe, that was all that +mattered, and for himself he was reckless. + +"Traitor, am I? Yes, if the Cause is to include the ill-treatment of +women!" + +"Women? Again women? Are our meetings to be used as love trysts. +There was a certain episode two years ago--Gaston de Barrés and Félise +Rivaz--you remember it? Ah, I thought so! Then let it be a +warning--in the future you will be suspected and watched. There is no +need for me to dilate upon the punishment for treachery, all that you +knew when you joined us. You may consider yourself lucky to have +escaped so easily to-night. Through the few minutes' delay you have +caused, Poleski may have been arrested." + +Vardri shrugged and sat down. Like Arithelli, he recognized the +futility of mere words upon certain occasions. + +Moreover, now that the flame of his indignation had died down, he had +begun to feel wretchedly ill and spiritless with the reaction that +comes after any great excitement. + +He sat shivering and coughing till the dawn, while the other men talked +in low voices or played cards. One or two slept fitfully in +uncomfortable attitudes on the floor. + +No one grumbled at the discomfort or weariness of the vigil. + +They who looked forward to ultimate prison and perhaps death itself +were not wont to quarrel with such minor inconveniences as the loss of +sleep. + +Sobrenski had pulled the solitary candle in the room towards him and +sat writing rapidly and frowning to himself. + +His fox-like face framed in its red hair and beard looked more +relentless and crafty than ever in the revealing light, and the boy +shivered anew, but not from physical cold. + +He did not fear the leader of the Brotherhood for himself, but for +Arithelli--Arithelli, the drudge, the tool, the "errand boy," as she +had called herself. + +Perhaps in time even she would become a heartless machine. + +Human life had seemed so cheap and of so little account to him once, +but since he had loved her-- + +She could never live among such people and in such scenes, and still +remain unscarred. + +Again the little desperate face rose before him. + +If they did not succeed in killing her soon by their brutalities, she +would commit suicide to escape from the horrors that surrounded her. + +It had never occurred to Vardri to be jealous of Emile. + +With the curious insight that love gives he had formed a true idea of +the relationship between the oddly-assorted pair. He had never thought +of himself as her lover. + +To him she was always the Ideal, the divinity enthroned. + +He was content to kiss her feet, and to lay before them service and +sacrifice. + +Yet, though he might build a wall of love around her, he knew it could +give her no protection against the realities of her present life. + +She had given him dreams, and in them he could forget all other things, +the things that the world calls real. + +Everything had vanished as a mist--the dirty room, the chill of the +dawn, his own physical wretchedness. + +He heard only the honey-sweet voice, saw only the outstretched hand of +friendship. + +"_Mon ami_," she had called him, he who had never aspired higher than +to be known as her servant. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + "For all things born one gate + Opens, . . . and no man sees + Beyond the gods and Fate." + SWINBURNE. + +WHEN Emile arrived at the Hippodrome, only a few minutes after his +usual time, he found no one but the dresser, who was clearing away the +litter of clothes, jewellery, powder-puffs and flowers. + +Arithelli had vanished. + +She had never before failed to wait for him, and he knew she would not +have started alone without some very good reason. He questioned the +dresser and found she knew nothing beyond that "La Nina," as she called +the girl affectionately, had left immediately after her last turn. She +had asked if the Señor had been in yet, but hearing he had not, she had +dressed and gone at once. She had not even stayed to put on a cloak, +and had left her hair still in a plait, and only a _velo_ over it. She +had seemed in great haste (but that was always so with the English!) +and had looked ill. The Señor must not be alarmed, she added, folding +Arithelli's blue habit with wrinkled, careful hands. True, Barcelona +was an evil place for one so young as "La Nina," but the blessed +saints-- + +Emile gave her a _peseta_, and left her to her invocations. In the +long passage that led from the dressing-rooms he ran into Estelle, who +was just sufficiently drunk to be excitable and quarrelsome. She still +had on her dancer's costume of short skirts of poppy-coloured tulle, +and scarlet shoes and tights. She was further adorned with long, +dangling, coral ear-rings, and a black bruise on the left side of her +face under the eye, the outward and visible sign of her last encounter +with the Manager. + +She saluted Emile with a vindictive glare from her black eyes, and +tried to push past him. She hated him in a spiteful feminine way for +his complete appropriation of Arithelli, of whom, thanks to him, she +now saw very little. She had quarrelled with all the other women +employed in the Circus, but Arithelli had always helped her to dress, +and given her cigarettes and listened to her woes. + +Emile blocked the way, catching the dancer by the wrist as she +attempted to slip by, leaving his question unanswered. He repeated it, +and after a minute's sullen refusal to speak, Estelle stamped her foot +savagely upon the floor, and collapsed into a state of hysterical +volubility. No, she had seen nothing, nothing! she protested in +French. Scarcely ever did she see her little friend now, and whose +fault was that? Would Monsieur Poleski answer her? As Monsieur +Poleski did nothing of the kind, she continued to rage. All men were +brutes! Yes, all! She had no friends now and if she did console +herself--what would he have? + +Emile decided that she was speaking the truth, and that there was no +use wasting time in making other enquiries. + +One thing seemed certain--that Arithelli had left the building. From +the Hippodrome he went next to her lodgings, also with no result. He +could only now suppose that Sobrenski had sent her off at a moment's +notice on some unusual errand. The possibility of her having gone to +the house in the Calle de Pescadores did not occur to him. According +to the last arrangement they were not expected there till after +midnight. It was only eleven now. He would go to the Café Colomb, and +spend the hour there. It was no use to search for her further, and as +he assured himself there was not the least reason to become alarmed. +She was not likely to lose her head, and she knew her way about the +place. + +The Colomb was more or less a recognised resort of the many +revolutionaries with whom the city abounded. The proprietor was known +to be in sympathy with their schemes, though he took no active part in +them himself. He was considered trustworthy, for notes and messages +were often left in his charge, and his private room was at the disposal +of those who wished for a few minutes' secret interview. When Emile +entered he was greeted by several of the men who sat in groups of two +and three at little tables, busy with Monte and other card games. + +The smoke of many cigarettes obscured their figures, and clouded the +mirrors with which the place was lined from floor to ceiling. Emile +sat down alone and ordered an _absinthe_. + +When called upon to join in the play, he refused with a scowl and a +rasping oath in his native tongue, and as the evening grew on towards +midnight he was left to himself and his meditations. + +His thoughts were still with Arithelli, the weird witch-girl, whose +eyes were like those of Swinburne's fair woman, + + "Coloured like a water-flower, + And deeper than the green sea's glass." + +He, who now never opened a book, had once known that most un-English of +all poets by heart. + +In her many phases Arithelli passed before him, as he stared moodily at +the shifting opal-coloured liquid in his glass. He thought of her as +he had often seen her, fighting through her work at the Hippodrome, the +little weary head always gallantly carried, and then when she had +dismounted and was in her dressing-room, the rings round her eyes, her +shaking hands and utter weariness. He remembered her consideration for +her horses, her loathing of the ill-treatment of all dumb things so +common here. Once he had found her in the market-place, remonstrating +in her broken Spanish with the country women for the inhuman manner in +which they carried away their purchases of live fowl, tied neck to +neck, and slung across a mule, to die of slow strangulation under the +blazing sun. All the animals at the Hippodrome had been better treated +since she had been there. It was characteristic of the man that he +laughed at her to her face for her campaign against the national +cruelty, and in secret thought of her with admiration. + +In many ways sexless, in others purely a woman, to every mood she +brought the charm of individuality. + +_Tiens_! He was falling in love, he jeered to himself, cynically. In +love with that tall, silent creature, who was never in a hurry and +never in a temper, and who walked as if she had been bred in Andalusia. + +Absurd! He was only interested. She had brains, and she never bored +him. + +Besides, she was only twenty-four, and one could hardly allow a girl of +that age to be thrown warm and living to the wolves and vampires of +Barcelona. Perhaps he had been wrong in letting her do some +things--drink _absinthe_, for example. One lost one's sense of mental +and moral perspective in a place like this. At least he had guarded +her well. If he had not met her that day at the station, she might +have fallen into worse hands than his own. Things could not go on +indefinitely as they had been going. What was to be the end of it all? + +Eventually she would fall in love, and a woman was no more use to the +Cause once that happened. No vows would be strong enough to keep her +from a man's arms once she cared. She would not love lightly or +easily, and where would she find love, here in Barcelona? + +Half unconsciously, he found himself comparing Arithelli with the woman +who had betrayed him. Emile never lied, even to himself, and he knew +now that Marie Roumanoff had almost become a shadow. + +A plaything she had been, a child, a doll, a being made for caresses +and admiration. To a woman of her type camaraderie would have been +impossible. He had not wanted it, and it had not been in her nature to +give it. + +A man, who had been sitting opposite, got up, gesticulated, put on his +hat at a reckless angle, and, with a noisy farewell to his companions, +swaggered out. + +In the mirror that faced him Emile saw the quick furtive glance +bestowed upon him, though he sat apparently unconscious of it. + +Something at the back of his brain suggested to him that he knew the +man's face, that he had seen him before. A spy probably. It was +nothing unusual for any of them to be "shadowed," and for their +out-goings and in-comings to be noted. + +The highly gilded French clock on the mantel-piece at the far end of +the room announced the hour as being a quarter to twelve. Emile +stooped down to pick up his sombrero which had tumbled off a chair on +to the floor, when he remained with outstretched hand, arrested by the +sound of a woman's voice which came through the partly opened door of +the proprietor's private room and office. A woman's voice? It was +Arithelli's unmistakably. + +He recovered himself and the sombrero together, and twisted round in +his seat so as to get a view of the door, which was on his left hand, +half way down the long room. It had a glass top, across which a dark +green curtain was drawn. Emile knew that it was possible to enter this +room without passing through the _café_. There was another door which +led into a passage through the kitchen and back part of the house, and +from thence into a side-street, or rather a small alley. + +He had often been that way, and it was generally used by the +frequenters of the place when they had reason to guard their movements. + +He listened again. + +The voice was even more hoarse than usual and more uncertain. Though +he could not hear the words, the broken sentences gave an impression of +breathlessness. When she stopped speaking he heard the voice of the +proprietor raised in an emphatic stage-whisper. Yes, Monsieur Poleski +was within. Mademoiselle was fortunately in time to find him. If +Mademoiselle would give herself the trouble to wait but for one +moment--. + +The little man fancied himself an adept at intrigue, and his methods +were often a cause of anxiety to those he befriended. His nods and +gestures and meaning glances as he emerged would have been enough to +arouse suspicion in the most guileless. + +He stood blinking his short-sighted eyes through the haze in his effort +to attract Emile's attention without being detected. The latter got up +and sauntered towards him. + +"_Bon soir, Monsieur Lefévre_," he said carelessly. "We have a little +account to settle, you and I, is it not so?" + +Fat Monsieur Lefevre rose gallantly to the occasion. He bowed Emile +into the room, locked the door by which they had entered, and with +another bow and a muttered apology scuttled through the passage into +the back regions. Two minutes later he made his reappearance in the +_café_ by the front way, and went to his place behind the counter with +the satisfied face of a successful diplomatist. + +His little sanctum was typical in its arrangement of the Parisian +_bourgeois_. + +Numerous picture post-cards of a famous chanteuse of the Folies +Bergeres proclaimed Monsieur's taste in beauty. For the rest, +everything was neat and rather bare of furniture. There were chairs +symmetrically arranged like sentinels along the walls, tinted lace +curtains, a gilded mirror, and a few doubtful coloured pictures, all of +women. An unshaded electric light flared in a corner. Arithelli stood +resting one hand on the round polished table in the centre of the +apartment. Her dark blue dress was torn in two places, and smeared +with patches of dust. The _velo_, or piece of drapery worn on ordinary +occasions instead of the mantilla, hung down her back in company with +the long plait of hair, which had come untwisted at the ends. Her face +was strained and haggard, and the tense attitude spoke of tortured +nerves. + +She was still struggling for breath, and appeared almost unable to +speak, but Emile was not minded to allow her much time for recovery. + +Patience was not numbered among such virtues as he possessed. + +"_Tiens_!" he began. "What is it now, Fatalité? You look as if you +had been having adventures. Have you been getting into mischief? And +where have you been?" + +"In the Calle de Pescadores out at Barcelonetta. Sobrenski sent me +with a message to you. The place is being watched. If they see you go +in you may be arrested. The others got to hear about the spies, and +went early. They are going to stay there all night because it isn't +safe to leave." Her tone was that of one who repeats a well-learned +lesson. + +Emile shrugged. "Spies? So that's it! There was a man just now in +the _café_ who looked like it. Probably he is waiting to go outside +now to 'shadow' me. He may wait till--! And how did you get out?" + +"They let me down from a window at the back of the house. I got on to +the quay and came here by the long way and through the Rambla." There +was a pause, and then she said in the same mechanical voice, "Sobrenski +said I was to tell you not to come. It isn't safe." + +Emile did not answer. He could see that she was trembling violently +and on the verge of an hysterical crisis. He rather hoped she would +break down. It would seem more natural. Women were privileged to cry +and scream, not that it was possible to imagine her screaming. He +dragged forward a chair from the immaculate row against the wall. + +As he did so he noticed that she kept her left hand behind her back as +if to conceal something. + +"Sit down," he ordered. "What's the matter with your hand? Are you +hurt?" + +The girl retreated before him. + +"No!" she answered defiantly. + +But Emile's quick eyes had seen a crumpled handkerchief flecked with +red stains. + +"Don't tell lies, Fatalité!" he said sharply. "Give me your hand at +once." + +Arithelli obeyed, holding it out palm upwards. + +Emile looked, and ripped out a fiery exclamation. The smooth flesh was +scarred and torn across in several places, and was still bleeding. The +mark of Sobrenski's grip on her wrist had turned from crimson to a dull +discoloured hue. + +"It doesn't hurt so very much," she said. "Only I can't bear the sight +of blood. All Jewish people are like that. I can't help it. It makes +me feel queer all over." + +She turned her head aside with a shudder. Emile muttered another +expletive, adding: + +"Then if you feel like that, don't look." + +He told her again to sit down, tore her handkerchief into strips, +soaked them in water from a carafe, and bandaged up the wounds in a +rough but effectual fashion. + +She said nothing during the process, but kept her head still turned +away so that he could not see her face. + +"Voilà!" said Emile. "That will be all right to-morrow. What did they +do to you?" + +"I cut my fingers on the window sill when they let me down. There was +a piece of iron or a nail or something. I don't remember. It didn't +hurt at the time." + +"H'm!" commented Emile. "But this?" he touched her wrist lightly. "It +looks like--" + +"That? Oh, Sobrenski did that. He--" + +"Well?" said Emile. He waited but there came no answer, so he +continued the interrogation. "You didn't make a scene, Fatalité?" + +He heard her flinch and draw in her breath as she covered her face with +her free hand. Her low painful sobbing reminded him of the +inarticulate moaning of an animal. + +Even in her grief, her abandonment, she was unlike all other women. +Emile stood beside her in watchful silence, and neither attempted to +interfere nor to console her. He was wise enough to know that to a +highly strung nature like hers too much self-repression might be +dangerous, and he was humane enough to be glad that she had the relief +of tears. + +At length he said quietly, "I didn't know you could cry, Fatalité. I +didn't know you were human enough for that." + +She still fought desperately for composure, thrusting a fold of the +torn _velo_ between her teeth. The naked light shone on her bent head, +and on her glittering rope of hair. + +A strange impulse suddenly moved Emile to finger a loose strand with a +touch that had in it something of a caress. + +Gamin she had been, _equestrienne_, heroine, and now she was only a +sorrowful Dolores. + +At last words came. + +She stood up and faced him, shaking back her hair. + +"Emile! Emile! I must give it up. I can't go on!" + +"And you can't turn back, _mon enfant_." + +"I'll run away." + +"Do you think they wouldn't find you? You know enough about our +organisation now. No one who has once joined us is ever allowed to +escape. You would be found sooner or later, and then--you remember +what I told you once? That I am responsible for you to the +Brotherhood?" + +He spoke calmly, patiently, as if he were explaining things to a child. + +If his associates could have seen the cynical Emile Poleski of ordinary +life they would have found reason to marvel! + +The gesture of uncontrollable horror told him that she understood only +too well. What should the upholders of the Cause care for ties, for +friendships, for pity? + +If she were recaptured Emile would be her executioner. He might +refuse, but that would not save her and he would be shot as well. Why +should he suffer because she had lost her courage and turned traitress? + +She tried to collect her senses, and to think properly. Everything +felt blurred and far off. One thing alone seemed certain--that there +was no way out of the _impasse_. + +Emile had walked to the glass-door and unlocked it. Then he came back +to her. + +"It's time we were going," he said. "It will not do to be here too +long. As our friend the spy is patrolling the street outside in +readiness for my appearance, we will go out the other way. The Calle +Santa Teresa is nearly always deserted. It's just as well you should +be seen with me. They don't know yet that you are working for us, so +it will look less as if I were _en route_ for a meeting. But before we +start, have you decided to be wise and to save me from an unpleasant +duty?" + +"Yes. I'll stay. At least while you are here." + +"While I am here?" the man echoed. "Et alors--?" + +"Then?" She threw out her arms in a hopeless gesture. "Who knows? +Who can read the future? And after all, as you have said, 'What does +one life more or less matter?'" + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + "Ninon, Ninon, que fais-tu de la vie!" + DE MUSSET. + + +Arithelli awoke next day in her comfortless room, and lay wondering +over the waking nightmare of the past hours. Everything seemed so +different in the morning. There was no thrill of excitement now, +nothing to make her blood run quickly. She only felt flat, dull, +stupid, and disinclined to move. How strange and unlike himself Emile +had been. She had lost her nerve, raved, and threatened to run away, +and he had neither sneered nor abused her. Her hand, still wrapped in +stained linen, had now begun to burn and smart considerably, and was +proof sufficient of the reality of her experience. Her spine and the +soles of her feet tingled as she lived again through the horror of the +descent from the window. She could never endure a repetition of that +ordeal. Next time she would refuse and they could add one more murder +to the list of their crimes. + +She dragged herself up and dressed slowly. She remembered that there +was to be a gala performance at the Hippodrome that night in honour of +the presence of one of the Infantas, her husband and suite, who were +passing through the town, and had announced their intention of being +present. For all the performers it meant more work and an extra +rehearsal. + +When Emile came in they shared their coffee and rolls together. She +was thankful that he made no reference to her passionate outburst of +the night before. He was outwardly as curt and dictatorial as ever, +and neither of them discussed the affairs of the Brotherhood. + +"I must go down to practise," Arithelli said after a while. "Shall you +be there to-night? You know there is to be a grand performance in +honour of the loyalties?" + +"No," answered Emile, "I shall be busy. Besides, the Royalties will be +safer if I'm _not_ there! We don't trouble ourselves about these +particular ones though. They're not important enough." + +"I'm sorry you're not coming," Arithelli answered. + +Emile ungratefully disregarded the implied compliment, and threw out a +blunt, "Why?" + +"I don't quite know. I think there is going to be something unlucky." + +"You're going to tumble off, you mean? Better not! You don't want to +get turned out, do you?" + +Arithelli turned to a mirror on the wall. + +"Do I look very ghastly?" she asked. + +"Not much more than usual. None of us look very fresh out here, do we? +Do you think your hat is on straight, you untidy little trollop? Well, +it isn't! Hurry up,--it's late. No, I'm not going down there with +you. I'll stay here, and do some writing." + +The rehearsal that morning seemed interminable. For the first time +since she had ridden in public Arithelli bungled over her tricks. She +jumped short, miscalculated distances, and once barely saved herself +from a severe fall. + +The ring-master, with whom she was a great favourite, shook his head +reproachfully at her, as he paused to rest and wipe his heated +countenance. He was a greasy and affable personage, whose temper was +as easy as his morals. He was more soft-hearted than most of his +compatriots, and he honestly liked Arithelli and admired her riding. + +"What have you there, Mademoiselle?" he enquired pathetically. "Never +have I seen you like this before. You fear the grand people, is it not +so? You have no heart, no courage! But again! Again!" + +In the midst of his exhortation the Manager descended suddenly upon the +scene. As a matter of fact he had been watching for the last ten +minutes from one of the entrances, and he had seen her failure to +accomplish her jumps successfully. + +"This won't do for to-night," he said angrily. "We want your best +work, not your worst. Do you suppose I'm going to stand your laziness?" + +Arithelli was sitting at ease upon Don Juan's back as he paced slowly +round the ring. She did not look up or answer, which enraged the +Manager still further. Her silence was one of the things about her +that always annoyed him most? She was the only woman he had never been +able to bully into a state of collapse. + +He turned on the ring-master, who was grinning to himself. + +"_Allez-vous en_! I'll see to this." + +Señor Valdez looked uncomfortable. For an instant he felt almost +inclined to expostulate on Arithelli's behalf, but the Manager's rages +were well known to his employes, and the little man had no intention of +losing his present position. He flung down his long whip, and retired +muttering vengeance. + +The Manager strode into the centre of the ring, picked up the lash and +drew it through his fingers. + +He swore at Arithelli, he swore at Don Juan, and he started the +rehearsal all over again. + +Arithelli clenched her teeth and rode doggedly forward. The arena swam +before her, and her limbs felt weak and heavy as those of one who is +drugged, and her lacerated hand added to her difficulties. That she +should presume to be ill, had not entered into the Manager's +calculations. If he had realised the fact he would have said that +people who were ill were of no use in a circus, and the sooner she left +it the better. + +The treadmill continued until Arithelli would have welcomed an accident +as a break in the grinding monotony. The exercise instead of making +her hot, had made her shiver as if with great cold. She felt as if she +had been practising for days instead of hours. It was of no use! She +could not go on any longer. She slipped from her standing position on +the broad pad saddle to Don Juan's back, and without waiting for the +word of command, reined him to a standstill in front of the Manager. + +"You must let me go," she said. "I can't do any better now." + +The Manager stepped back a pace, and dropped his whip with sheer +astonishment. For an instant he stared with open mouth, then he found +speech. + +"You sit there, do you, and tell me you refuse to work! You with your +insolence! When you fall and that long neck of yours goes _crack_" (he +snapped a finger and thumb together in expressive pantomime), "then I +shall laugh--_nom d'un chien_!--how I shall laugh." + +Arithelli waited in silence, a faint smile curling her lips. One hand, +laden with rings, moved caressingly up and down Don Juan's silky mane. +She had hitherto answered abuse with maddening indifference. Now she +flung back her head and mocked him. + +"So you hope I'll fall," she said. "Perhaps I hope so too. Do you +think I care, that I'm afraid of breaking my neck?" + +Her voice was not raised a tone from its ordinary level, but passion +and contempt vibrated in every accent. An unwilling admiration stirred +the man's dull brutality. He could dismiss her to-morrow, but he would +never find another woman who would be her match for physique and +endurance. Besides, others would know their value and demand a larger +salary. + +He pointed to the performers' exit. "_Allez_!" + +As she rode past, Arithelli made him a little bow. It was the salute +of a courteous duellist to his adversary. To his profound surprise the +Manager found himself acknowledging it, with like dignity. + +At eight o'clock that evening she sat before the glass in her +dressing-room and awaited the shouted summons of the impish call-boy, +who respected no one on earth, and to whom she was never "Mamzelle" or +"Señora," but only Arithelli. The dresser had gone out for an instant, +leaving the door ajar, and a noisy burst of applause swept along the +passage. + +The audience was in a particularly good temper, and ready to be amused +at anything. In view of the royal guests the Manager had provided +several exciting novelties. There was a wonderful troupe of performing +horses who did everything that a horse is popularly supposed to be +incapable of doing; there was a gypsy girl from Seville with a +marvellous bear, whose intelligence appeared to be of a superior +quality to that of the average human being; there were new jokes, new +tricks, fresh costumes. + +As Arithelli rode in she heard her name called, and her state of frozen +misery suddenly gave way to a hot thrill of excitement. + +Her head went up like a stag, and her nostrils dilated. She inhaled +again the familiar warm scent of freshly strewn tan and hay and +animals. It had intoxicated her as a child of twelve, when she had +been taken to see a travelling circus in Ireland, and it intoxicated +her now. + +The seats were a packed mass of people, and in the upper places and +from the royal box, bright colours flamed, and jewels and restless fans +glittered and moved. In honour of the occasion every woman had draped +herself in the graceful mantilla, either black or white, and even the +poorest wore a scarlet or orange silk-fringed _crêpe_ shawl. + +The usual precautions as to detectives and a guard of soldiers had been +taken, but the buxom and amiable Infanta was popular among the lower +orders, so that no revolutionist outbreak was feared. + +Her charities were famous, her diamonds and Paris toilettes equally so. +She smiled graciously at Arithelli as horse and rider bowed before her, +and pulling out a few blossoms from the bouquet that rested on the +ledge, threw them into the arena. As the girl looked up and the level +unsmiling gaze met hers, the older woman started back. + +"_Santa Vierge_!" she muttered, hastily crossing herself. "She looks +in Purgatory already, with those strange eyes!" + + + + +CHAPTER X + + "The nights that were days, and the days that were nights, + Griefs and glories and vain delights, + With Fame before us in fancy flights, + We mocked each other and cried 'All's well'!" + LOVE IN BOHEMIA. + + +Of her first act Arithelli had no fear. She knew that she was safe in +trusting to the skill and training of her horse to accomplish +successfully all the stereotyped movements of the _haute école_. She +had only to sit still and look graceful, and guide him through his +paces as he waltzed, turned or knelt. She carried a whip for show, but +she had never used it. A word, a caress had always been enough, and +she would have been beaten herself rather than touch the beautiful +creature that carried her. + +In the next act it would be all different. Everything depended on her +own balance and accuracy. It would be all trick work then, not riding. +As she slid out of her habit and into the ugly ballet-skirts she +loathed, her courage vanished and she trembled as she faced the +audience for the second time, transformed in white satin and pale blue, +the thinness of her neck and arms painfully apparent. + +The flying rush through the air as she jumped the hurdles and gates +made her feel horribly dazed and giddy, and unable to collect her +senses in time for the next leap. As she descended lightly in her +heelless silk slippers upon Don Juan's back after the fourth hurdle had +been passed, she swayed and only by a violent effort recovered herself. +Her heart seemed to be beating right up in her throat and choking her. +She put up one hand and pulled at her turquoise collar till the clasp +gave way and thrust the blue stones into the low-cut bodice. The band +sounded louder than ever, the light danced and waved. Round and round +and round again, while the ring-master's whip cracked monotonously. + +The rhythm of the waltz beat in her brain as the music in some +delirious dream. She wondered dully why there was so little applause +now. Was she doing so badly? Once she had jumped too low and knocked +against a hurdle instead of clearing it properly. The grooms had +helped her by lowering everything as much as possible, but all they +could do had not been able to disguise her unwonted awkwardness. + +She would have a few minutes' rest when the clown came on, and perhaps +that would help her to go through the rest of the act without an +absolute breakdown. + +The interlude was all too short, the signal came and she sprang up and +poised herself mechanically. Again the waltz music struck up and Don +Juan's hoofs fell with a soft thud upon the tan. The hurdles and gates +had all been cleared successfully, and now she must dismount and let +her steed go round alone while she ran across from the opposite side of +the ring and vaulted from the ground to the saddle. + +It was the trick she had found impossible to get through at the +rehearsal, the trick she most dreaded. Everything depended on her +coolness and steadiness. She must start exactly at the right time, and +measure the distance with unerring precision. For the first time in +her life she feared the audience. She knew too well the fickle nature +of a Spanish crowd. To a performer who failed to please them they +would be merciless. People who screamed aloud for more blood when the +sport had been tame at a bull-fight, people who habitually tortured +their animals, were not likely to show consideration to one who was +paid to entertain them. They would applaud furiously one minute and +hiss furiously the next. + +As she stood alone, waiting, she glanced instinctively towards the +place where Emile always sat, and wished he had been there. He would +be angry with her if she failed, but she felt somehow that he would be +sorry for her as well. Perhaps he might even make excuses for her, for +he was the only person who knew about the episode of the previous +night, and her injured hand. Sometimes she had loved the swaying crowd +of human beings for whose amusement she risked her life and limbs. Now +she hated the eager watching faces. They only wanted to see her fall, +she told herself. + +She ran blindly across the open space. The next instant she was on her +feet on the ground again and Don Juan had stopped short. Her upward +leap had carried her on to his back, but she had not been able to keep +her balance. + +There was dead silence and then the hissing in the audience broke out, +vehement and unrestrained. + +That she had pleased them hitherto went for nothing in her favour now. +She had been clumsy, ungraceful, had failed--that was enough. + +Arithelli herself scarcely heard the sounds of execration, as she stood +swaying with one hand over her eyes to shut out the horrible glare. +She was conscious only of that and the strident noise of the band, and +the sensation of choking she had felt once before. The instinct of all +animals to hide themselves in the dark when ill, was strong upon her. + +The fat little ring-master who alone had the sense to see there was +something wrong, advanced and spoke to her in an agitated whisper. She +gave him her hand and he led her out, leaving her hurriedly to go back +and apologise to the irate spectators, and to claim their indulgence on +the score of her sudden faintness. + + * * * * * * + +Would she ever get to her room, Arithelli wondered, as she struggled +down the passage. It had never seemed so long before. Her hand went +up to her throat again. She longed for something cool to drink to +relieve the aching and dryness. It must be caused by the heat and dust +of the ring, she thought. + +A man's voice sounded behind her, and then hurrying footsteps. She +pulled her long blue cloak round her and went on without answering or +turning her head. It could only be the Manager coming to upbraid her. + +An arm was flung round her protectingly and she turned with the face of +a hunted animal, and looked up into the wild dark eyes of Vardri. + +"What has happened? You're ill! It's no wonder. _Mon Dieu_, those +brutes last night . . ." + +He pulled her head back against his shoulder, dropping his voice to a +murmur of exquisite gentleness. "_Mon enfant--ma petite enfant_!" + +"You saw me fall?" she whispered. + +"The men told me when they brought Don Juan out. I didn't see what +happened. Were you hurt or only faint?" + +"Oh, my hand? That's nothing. Emile says it will heal in a day or +two. But I felt so stupid. . . . Vardri, you don't think I'm going to +be ill, do you? I've never been ill in my life . . . never!" + +The boy made some incoherent answer. Her piteous entreaty tore at his +heart. Every fibre in his starved body ached with the desire to give +her the rest and peace she needed above all things. + +What could he do without money? His own miserable wages barely served +for necessities. He was only a useless vagabond, an outcast. He +ground his teeth together at the thought of his own impotence. + +"Courage, little one. They will cheer you again to-morrow. They are +cruel, these Spaniards, and fickle. You must not care." + +It did not seem strange to either of them that he should be holding her +in his arms. After last night everything had changed. Love, Youth, +and Nature were hard at work weaving the bonds that drew them together. + +The fact that she suffered his caresses had given him the right of +manhood to protect her, to be her champion, to fight her battles. If +he could do nothing else for her, at least he could fight. For him the +crown of happiness could be found in loyal service. Of love-making in +its ordinary sense, Vardri neither thought nor dreamed. To have found +his Ideal, the one woman, surely that was enough. The innate +fastidiousness that goes with good breeding had kept his life clean, +his hands unsoiled. + +He had hated the other women in the Circus, and felt sorry for them at +the same time; and on their side they liked him and regarded him +somewhat as a fool. Their voices, their coarse expressions, their +light jokes all jarred on him. + +He pitied them, for their lives were as hard as his own, and when he +could he helped them, for among the wanderers in Bohemia there is an +ever-abiding comradeship. The element of fanaticism in his nature, +which had once been absorbed by the Cause, now spent itself upon a +human being. + +The firm yet gentle clasp in which he held her, was the outward symbol +of the love and courage that made him tense as steel. To every man +there comes his hour, and his was now. Both for her sake and his own +he dare not keep her with him. That they had been left undisturbed so +long was a miracle. Besides, as she was ill, the sooner she was in bed +the better. + +He half led, half carried her to the door of her dressing room, and she +thanked him with a smile, a gesture. Her throat hurt so much that all +speech was an effort. + +"You must go now," she whispered. "You will get into trouble again +through me." + +The boy threw a quick furtive glance along the whitewashed passage. +With characteristic recklessness he had forgotten that the chances of +his summary dismissal were looming exceedingly near. + +He had left half his work undone the previous night, he had appeared +late that morning, and now he was in a part of the building to which +all the grooms and stable helpers were forbidden entrance. + +"You'll let me bring you home," he pleaded. + +Arithelli shook her head. "You can't." + +"Is Emile coming for you? You shall not go alone, that I swear!" + +"Emile will send someone. They never let me go alone. If you will, +you may do this. If I am not down at the stables at half-past eight +to-morrow, will you find Emile and ask him to come to me. He will be +there doing my work." + +"And you will sleep and be well to-morrow? To-morrow you will ride +again, and there will be the applause." + +Even as he spoke he knew his words were foolishness. The feverish +skin, dry lips and eyes that were like burning holes in the thin oval +face were signs and tokens enough for the most unseeing of men. And +Vardri had suffered sufficiently himself to be able to recognise +genuine illness. + +She slipped from his arms. + +The little dreary laugh made him shiver. + +"_Mille remerciments, mon camarade_. I'm a failure, and failures are +best left alone. _C'est ainsi que la vie_!" + + * * * * * * + +Hers was the sole fiasco in an otherwise successful performance. + +The final spectacle was a lurid representation of the destruction of +Sodom and Gomorrah. + +This species of scriptural tableaux was frequently given, and was +greatly to the taste of the spectators. + +Such scenes were regularly presented in the theatres and heartily +enjoyed by the superstitious and devout populace, who found in them +nothing incongruous or repulsive to their piety. + +In this particular display the Manager had excelled himself, and +achieved above all things a most vivid realism. + +The gentleman who impersonated the patriarch Lot had a distinctly +modern air, and resembled a third-rate Anarchist in depressing +circumstances. + +He was dark and swarthy, and possessed a ferocious expression, and on +the whole suggested a caricature of Emile in his worst frame of mind. + +He appeared in company with his reluctant spouse, whom he dragged along +by the hand, she meanwhile obviously unwilling to leave the urban +delights of the Cities of the Plain for a pastoral and dull existence +in the desert, and as she was several sizes larger than her husband, +she seemed likely to get the best of the encounter. + +She was the same fat Englishwoman who had driven Arithelli's horses in +the chariot. She was by no means young, she had applied her rouge with +a lavish hand, and her golden wig was an outrage. Her airs and graces +were those of a well-fed operatic soprano. + +She advanced in jerks, she clutched at her plump anatomy and she rolled +her eyes appealingly at the gallery, which responded with delighted +yells. + +In her train came a small flock of dejected-looking, but real sheep, +which were seemingly inspired by sufficient intelligence to wish to +avoid the coming catastrophe. + +The city (or cities) was represented by coarsely-painted scenery, and, +owing to some defect in the perspective, appeared to be only a few feet +from the travellers, though doubtless intended to fill the distant +horizon. + +The fleeing pair jerked slowly across the stage in time to subdued but +brassy music from the Hippodrome band, the sheep followed, and thunder +and lightning were heard and seen. + +Flashes and bangs resounded, the doomed city rocked upon its +foundations, and the audience joined in the uproar. + +Sacks full of flour descended from Heaven and burst, converting the +fleshly Mrs. Lot into the traditional pillar of salt, and the house and +the curtain were brought down together. + +Restored to good-humour, the audience had forgotten the disgrace and +failure of their favourite _equestrienne_. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + "I am tired of tears and laughter + And men that laugh and weep, + Of what may come hereafter + For men that sow and reap. + I am weary of days and hours, + Blown buds of barren flowers, + Desires and dreams and powers, + And everything but sleep." + SWINBURNE. + + +If anyone had told Arithelli that she was in for a sharp attack of +diphtheria, she would have felt surprised and not very much +enlightened. Her ignorance of everything connected with illness was +supreme, and since childhood she had had no recollection of medicine +and doctors. Her parents indulged in theories on the subject of +complaints, the principal one being a large disbelief in their +existence. To them anything unhealthy or ailing was an aversion, a +thing to be avoided rather than pitied. + +For accidents, sprains and breakages their pharmacopoeia suggested and +did not go beyond two ideas,--salt and water and Nature. + +The Oriental strain in her character helped her to endure where an +ordinary woman would have fussed, cried, or grumbled. At home if she +had had a fall or did not look her best she had been expected to +consider herself in disgrace, and to keep out of the way till such time +as she had completely recovered her looks and spirits. + +When she returned to her lodgings, it did not occur to her to rouse the +landlady and demand remedies or attentions. The walk home had been a +nightmare, and now she had all she wanted--solitude and the blessed +darkness. She threw off her dress and boots, and walked the room hour +after hour. She still heard the brazen band, and saw the flaming +lights and her ears echoed to the dreadful sounds of hissing. +Sometimes she had drunk feverishly of the very doubtful water against +which Emile had so often cautioned her. When it was nearly dawn she +gave in, and lay huddled up on the bed, half-delirious with the pain +and feeling of suffocation. + +Two streets away, and in a room more squalid than her own, Vardri was +also enduring his own private Purgatory. Hers was physical, his +mental. That was all the difference. + +Long before half-past eight he was down at the stables and there +received the dismissal he had fully expected, being ordered off the +premises by the head groom, who had received directions the night +before to give Vardri a week's wages, and turn him out of the place +without delay. It was no use protesting. The Manager was not yet +visible, and even if he had been Vardri knew there was no appeal. + +There had been complaints about his negligence more than once, and of +course he had been missed on the previous evening. None of the +"strappers" would have reported him, but one of the clowns, a Spaniard +with whom he had fought for ill-treating a horse, had seen him leaving +the vicinity of the dressing-rooms, and had carried the information to +headquarters. + +The informer had chosen his time well, and had found the Manager raging +over Arithelli's mishap, and ready to dismiss anyone with or without +reason. + +Vardri turned his back on the place whistling defiance, and with his +courage fallen below zero. He would have liked to say good-bye to the +horses, and to some of the men who were his friends. He had never +disliked the actual work, and it was at the Hippodrome that he had +first met Arithelli. Her misfortune and his had come together. At any +other time it would not have been quite so bad. A few months ago he +would not have cared whether he lost his place or not. + +There had been nothing much in life then, and one could always find a +short way out of it _via_ the water or an overdose of something. + +But now the world was changed, and he craved for Life and the fulness +of Life, for he had tasted happiness and stood for a moment in the +outer courts of the House of Love. He had no friends who could have +helped him, and no qualifications for earning his living at any other +trade or profession. He had begun life with a luxurious home, a +refined and useless education, and the mind of a dreamer, an idealist. +None of these things were valuable assets in his present career. + +Like Arithelli he spoke several languages more or less fluently, and +like her again possessed both understanding and a love of horses, but +what avail were these things when he had neither money, references nor +influence, and as a further disadvantage he was known to be an +associate of the revolutionaries, and his tendency to consumption would +keep him out of many kinds of employment. + +He turned over the few coins in his hand. Just enough to keep him for +a week and then--the deluge! + +He waited, prowling up and down the street, impatiently until Emile +appeared in the distance. + +A few minutes later, the two men were at the door of Arithelli's +lodgings. The landlady met them on the stairs, hag-like in the +disarray of the early morning, and evidently terrified out of such +humanity as she possessed by the fear of infection. She had gone up +with the early morning coffee and found Arithelli raving aloud and +tearing at her throat. Her first thought had been to turn the girl out +of doors, or, as she was obviously incapable of moving, to send for a +priest and a nursing sister, and have her taken to the public hospital. +A wholesome fear of Emile prevented her from giving utterance to these +charitable impulses. + +She invoked every saint in the calendar, whose name she could remember, +and crossed herself with automaton-like energy. + +She could not, she protested, be expected to nurse such a dangerous +case of fever as this undoubtedly was. There was her son, the adored +of her old age. _Santa Maria_! If he also were stricken! + +Emile pushed her on one side. "I'll talk to you presently," he said in +her own dialect. "If you are going into hysterics with fright you'll +catch anything that is catching. If you behave sensibly you won't." + +The window was fully open and the green shutters thrown back, and the +fierce sunlight streamed into Arithelli's room, which showed more than +its normal disorder. The tray with the _café complet_ was on the floor +where the landlady had left it on her hasty stampede downstairs, +half-a-dozen turquoise rings lay strewn over a little table, where they +had been thrown when they were dragged off, boys' clothes trailed over +the back of one chair, and a blue skirt over another. The only orderly +thing visible was the immaculate row of fine kid boots, long, narrow, +pearl-grey, tan and champagne-coloured. + +Arithelli lay on the big bed under the faded canopy. She had wrapped +herself in a thin blue _peignoir_, and her face was half hidden in +tangled hair. The tumbled bed-clothes were pulled to one side and +dragging on the dusty boards. She was quite unconscious of anyone's +presence, and moaned softly in a strangled fashion. + +The two men stood without speaking, and watched the writhing, restless +figure. Vardri turned away first with a smothered exclamation. Would +he always be obliged to see her tortured in some way or another? The +Fates were sending him more than any man could bear to look upon. + +"What are you going to do?" he said roughly in French, "I can't stand +seeing this!" + +Emile showed no signs of surprise at the other's manifest anxiety, +possibly because his own was as deep, though his method of expressing +it was different. He felt helpless, and, being a man, resented the +feeling, so by consequence his always rugged manner became even more +unpleasant than usual. + +"Well," he rejoined, "what can you expect in this filthy place? This +street isn't so bad, but of course she has so often been down in those +slums in the Parelelo. The Calle de Pescadores alone is enough to give +anyone a fever. I think Sobrenski has made a point of sending her down +every poisonous street in the place. Ireland's a clean country, you +see, compared with this, so she hasn't much chance, and as she starves +herself half the time that won't make things any better." + +"She must have some woman to look after her. I suppose the landlady +here will be no good?" + +"Not unless you pay her.--Who's going to do that?" + +"There's Estelle." + +"Estelle!" Emile exploded a fierce Russian oath. "Do you want _more_ +hysterics?" Vardri was tramping up and down the room with the +noiseless agility of an animal, his fingers mechanically at work at a +cigarette. + +"She must have a doctor too. Isn't there an English doctor here?" + +"Probably. Do you propose to pay him too?" + +The dryly sarcastic voice, the practical question brought Vardri down +from the clouds to the hard facts of life. Illnesses and doctors were +expensive things. He had no money, and Emile very little. + +"I'll get a _Soeur de Charité_ from one of the convents. She'll come +for nothing. Nursing is their work. I was--I mean I'm a Catholic. +She's a Catholic, too, isn't she?" + +"No, she hates them. She was educated in a convent, where as far as I +can gather from her own account she acquired more learning than piety. +Under the present circumstances I can only suggest the horse-doctor." + +"What's the use of--?" + +"I believe he began by doctoring human beings, but like the rest of us +out here, he is a little under a cloud. He prefers animals now. They +don't tell tales. Human beings do. Besides, he's English, or rather, +Irish. Better go and tell him to come up. You know his rooms. Tell +him it's infectious, and he can bring up a few cigarettes for me if he +feels generous. Don't trouble about your _Soeur de Charité_. I'll see +that the woman here makes herself useful." + +Vardri flung himself out of the room and down the rickety stairs at +breakneck speed, thankful beyond measure for the relief of action. + +Emile subsided into a chair and smoked furiously and meditated upon the +untoward situation. Being of a practical turn of mind he began to make +calculations. Vardri had told him briefly of how Arithelli had failed +in the trick-riding, fallen off her horse, and been hissed out of the +ring. The loss of popularity might mean the end of her career. In any +case he could see she was desperately ill, and there was small chance +of her being about under three weeks, and even then she would not be +able to work at once. Meanwhile they had exactly two pounds a week to +live upon. + +Truly women added to the complications of life! He might borrow money, +but that was a thing to be resorted to only in the last extremity. +Most of the members of his Circle were as poor as himself or poorer. +They were all bound together by the tie of brotherhood, and no one +would have grudged or refused a loan, but Emile scrupled to borrow from +those who were in greater privation than himself. + +Sobrenski was fairly well off, but he lived like an ascetic and gave +everything to the Cause; besides, Sobrenski was out of the question. +To appeal to him on Arithelli's behalf would only be to give him a +chance for refusal and a jeer at female conspirators. + +Her turquoise rings Emile collected from the table, and put them into +his pocket; her collar of turquoises he rescued from the floor, where +it had fallen when she took off her bodice. The jewels could all be +turned into the money they needed so badly. Of course she had not +saved a single _peseta_. Emile had the handling of her salary, and he +knew that anything left over from the expenses of food and lodging went +in clothes and her particular vanity, dainty boots. + +She was lavishly generous to the Hippodrome staff, and there was always +a certain tribute claimed from all its adherents by the Cause. + +He did not hunt further for valuables. If there was either money or +jewellery in Arithelli's possession it was sure to be found in quite a +conspicuous place. + +The varied life of the city surged to and fro beneath the window, the +varied noises floated up into the room, and under the faded red brocade +curtains, Arithelli turned from side to side and moaned with closed +eyes. A seller of fruit passed, crying his wares. + +Emile went down into the street and bought a couple of oranges, and +squeezed the juice into the cup that had been destined for the coffee. + +He had not the least idea as to what particular malady Arithelli had +developed, but he knew that fever and delirium always went together, +and that with fever there is invariably thirst. He lifted her up and +pushed the pillow higher to relieve her breathing, but he could hardly +do more than moisten her parched and bitten lips. Then he "tidied" the +bed with masculine pulls and jerks till it was even more untidy than +before, and went back to his chair. There was nothing more to be done +for her in the way of alleviation till the doctor came. + +He took up a book, and tried to shut his ears and distract his +thoughts. As he stared unseeingly at the printed pages, there suddenly +flashed into his brain the name of Count Vladimir, the owner of "_The +Witch_." Here was the very man to whom he could confidently apply for +help in the present difficulties, for the Russian had made it his +business in life to bestow his wealth in assisting the revolutionaries. +Emile decided that he would write tomorrow, when he had acquired +certain particulars as to the address he wanted. + +Fatalité had done good work for the Cause, he argued, therefore let +those who supported the organisation keep her till she was able to work +again. + +The next task he would have to undertake would be that of bullying or +bribing the landlady into a promise to undertake at least some of the +duties of a sick-room. The rest of the nursing he proposed to do +himself. He grinned as he lit another evil-smelling cigarette, at the +thought of Vardri's proposal. + +He possessed an artistic sense of the fitness of things, and the +suggested _Soeur de Charité_ appealed to him as being quite out of the +picture. Besides Arithelli had no respect for priests or nuns; Emile +remembered her inimitable descriptions of the spying "Children of +Mary," and she should not be worried with either if he could help it. + +Yes, certainly the incapable old landlady would be preferable to a +white-capped _religeuse_, for the latter, though not likely by virtue +of her training to be scared by the physical atmosphere, would +undoubtedly be appalled by the mental and moral one. Most likely she +would take advantage of Arithelli's weakness to persuade her of the +danger of her present way of living. The Church of Rome is never slow +at seizing the chance of making a convert, and the power of the Church +in Spain is a byword. + +Though Emile had a profound scorn for conventions, he had at one time +had his place among that class of human beings that calls itself +"Society," and he knew its rules and ways as he despised its +hypocrisies. He could look at Arithelli's position quite judicially, +and as an outsider. The world, religious and otherwise, would +certainly not give her the benefit of the doubt. + +She was young, she was possessed of a weird and haunting beauty, she +had no women friends, no relations, and no companions but a set of +law-breakers, all of whom were men. No one would believe that she was +untouched, unawakened, that she had been treated as a boy, and her +womanhood not so much respected as ignored. If anyone put the wrong +ideas into her head, Emile reflected, it was sure to be one of her own +sex. + +Having matured his plans he descended to the kitchen regions, +manufacturing impressive threats _en route_. + +Here an answer to his problem presented itself, or rather herself. The +landlady had a niece who came in daily to assist in household matters, +and take part in a duet of feminine gossip. + +She was a solid young woman of unmoved countenance, who was quite +prepared to nurse the ten plagues of Egypt, providing she received +sufficient remuneration. She proposed to get married at the earliest +opportunity and what Emile offered her would be of great assistance in +providing her bridal finery. + +The two came to an agreement rapidly, and Emile climbed the stairs +again, triumphant. + +He began to feel anxious about the doctor. Two hours had passed and +there was no sight of him. He might be out, or he might be drunk. +Emile knew the little weakness of Michael Furness, and as Vardri had +not returned it meant that he was still searching. + +At last the horse-doctor arrived, grunting and ruffling up his crest of +curly black hair. He had a large heart by way of counterbalance to his +many failings, and he was interested in Arithelli, for he had come +across her once or twice in the stables, and had heard various +picturesque stories of her exploits. He might have been a success in +his own profession, but for the two temptations that beset every +Irishman--whisky and horses. + +He had left his practice in the city of Cork, as Emile had said, +somewhat under a cloud, and had given up whisky for the _absinthe_ of +the _cafés_, and had not regretted the exchange. He made his +examination quickly, handling the girl with a surprising skill and +deftness, in spite of his big clumsy-looking hands. + +When he touched her she opened her eyes. + +"_Mais, où suis je_?" she murmured, painfully dragging out the words. +Then followed Emile's name. + +The doctor laid her back gently, and stood holding one of her wrists. +"She thinks it's you, Poleski! 'Tis diphtheria. A bad case, too. +Shall want some looking afther. Who's seeing to her?" + +"I am," responded Emile, coolly. + +"The divil ye are!" The Irishman's long upper lip twitched humorously. +"Well, treat her gintly then, me bhoy! You're wise to be smoking. +Less chance of infection. I'll keep you company." He produced a +couple of thin black cigars, and handed one to Emile. + +"See, now," Michael Furness added seriously, "I may as well be telling +you the truth. Your little friend there hasn't a very big chance. +She's been going to bits for some time. If it hadn't been this it +would have been something else. She's got a grand physique, so there's +hope. If she's worse by to-morrow she ought to have an operation. +Only I can't undertake it, ye see. There's the trouble. My hand isn't +as steady as it was, and I haven't the instruments." + +Emile nodded. He knew nothing of the operation of tracheotomy, and +though he spoke English well he found it difficult to follow Michael's +soft, thick, County Cork speech. + +"She's a grand heap of a girl, isn't she?" continued that gentleman, +regarding Arithelli with kindly eyes. He had all the Celt's love of +romance, and the ingrained reverence of the Irish Catholic for women. +"This isn't the place for girls, at all, at all! And they tell me +she's from the old country. Will I be sending up one of the good +Sisthers to see after her, and put things to rights a bit?" + +For the second time that day Emile ungratefully rejected the +ministrations of the Church. He knew that no one else in Spain ever +thought of employing anyone but the religious orders as nurses, but he +preferred to arrange things in his own way and said so. + +"Ah, well then!" said Michael amiably, "give her something to drink if +she wants it. That's all. I'll look in again this evening. She'll +have taken a turn then one way or the other. It's a quick thing, this." + +Arithelli's ministering angels left in each other's company. Michael +drifted back to his favourite _café_, while Emile betook himself to the +Hippodrome to wage war with that amiable functionary, the Manager. The +strife was both noisy and prolonged, and resulted in only a partial +victory for Emile. With many picturesque oaths the Manager accused +himself of folly unspeakable in not dismissing Arithelli at once. + +She had a contract? Yes! But in it there was no allowance made for +incompetence and non-appearance. It only stipulated that she should be +paid for doing her work. She had not done it, and moreover she had +refused to practise. That he should be expected to continue to pay her +a salary even of the smallest description while she lay in bed was a +monstrous impertinence. + +Would he not have the trouble and expense of getting another artiste to +fill her place? There must be an _equestrienne_ in the programme. If +she found herself taken back again to finish her time after this +illness or whatever it was, then she should be more than grateful, but +as for paying salaries to _employés_ who did not work, why, did people +consider him an imbecile? + +Emile shrugged and sneered at intervals throughout this tirade. He had +wisely begun by asking more than he knew he was at all likely to get, +and was now obliged to be satisfied with the compromise. + +Disappointment followed his search for the whereabouts of Count +Vladimir. The owner of "_The Witch_" was expected back in Barcelona in +a month or so, no one knew exactly when. Letters might be addressed +Poste Restante, Corfu, for he was cruising in his phantom craft through +those sapphire seas that lie round about the Ionian Islands. + +There was nothing to do but to write and wait. One piece of ill-luck +was following close upon another, and Emile felt that he needed all the +consolations that his cynical philosophy could afford. + +His anxiety on Arithelli's behalf was fast becoming an obsession. When +she had first come into his life he had wondered sometimes how she +would stand the late hours and all the hardships of a circus training, +but after her one outburst she had never complained again. + +He thought the sea-trip had done her good. Of course she always looked +pale, but then that was her type. + +He had also been impressed with the unwonted seriousness of Michael, +knowing that in spite of his erratic ways the doctor understood his +craft. + +Emile's instinct prompted him vigorously to go back now and see how she +was getting on, but he dared not neglect the work of his Society. +There were letters to be written, arrangements to be made, all the +usual paraphernalia of intrigue to be kept going. + +He returned to his own rooms and began to write savagely, using all his +will to expel from his brain the vision of the girl as he had seen her +last, semi-conscious, and yet with his name on her lips. + +Michael had promised to see her again at six o'clock. It would be time +enough if he also went then. Besides, the Cause came first always, and +there were many women in the world. His pen tore fiercely over the +paper as something whispered: "Women? Yes. But another Arithelli--?" + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +"I have something more to think of than Love. All the women in the +world would not make me waste an hour." + SAYING OF NAPOLEON. + + +The stolid niece blundered heavily about the room, doing things that +were entirely unnecessary, and raising much dust. She was a +conscientious person in her own way, and felt that she must get through +a certain amount of work in return for the anticipated reward. + +She banged chairs and table about, folded up scattered clothes, +investigated them with much interest, and fingered and re-arranged the +row of boots with muttered ejaculations and covetous eyes. She had +previously contrived to get Arithelli into a night dress, had brushed +her hair back and plaited it, and pulled the green shutters together to +keep out the midday glare. + +As she looked at the livid face patched with scarlet against the coarse +linen, Maria began to feel a little perturbed. Something in the +atmosphere of the room had penetrated even the brick wall of her +stolidity. She hoped the two Señors would soon return and relieve her +of the responsibility of her charge. + +The stillness oppressed her, for Arithelli had ceased her moaning and +muttering for a merciful stupor. + +As the hours went on the fever increased, and the horrible fungus in +her throat spread with an appalling rapidity. + +As Michael Furness had prophesied, the crisis would soon be reached, +and she had everything save youth against her in the fight for life. + +Maria crossed herself perfunctorily and mumbled a few prayers. +Doubtless the Señora was like all the English, a heretic, and +therefore, according to the comfortable tenets of the Roman faith, +eternally damned, but a little prayer would do no harm, and would be +counted to herself as an act of charity. + +That ceremony over, more mundane considerations engrossed her mind. +She could smell the pungent odour of the _olla podrida_, or national +stew, insinuating itself through the half-open door, and she knew that +if she were not present at the meal, there would be more than one +hungry mouth ready to devour her share. + +She drew a breath of relief as she marched heavily downstairs to the +more congenial surroundings of the kitchen. She had done her duty. +Señor Poleski had not told her to stay in the room all the time he was +away, and she could easily be back again before he came in. + +Michael was the first to appear, almost aggressively sober, and +carrying a small wooden box. His interest in his case was as much +human as professional, and instead of wasting the afternoon, after his +usual custom, loafing and drinking, he had gone, after one modest glass +of the rough _Val de Peñas_, to search in out-of-the-way streets for a +certain herbalist of repute. + +This was an aged Spanish Jew, unclean and cadaverous, with patriarchal +grey beard and piercing eyes, a man renowned for his marvellous cures +among the peasantry. + +He was regarded more or less as a wizard, though his wizardry consisted +solely in a knowledge of natural remedies, and the exercise of a power +which would have been described at the Paris Salpêtriére as hypnotic +suggestion. By the aid of this he was able to inspire his patients +with the faith so necessary to a successful treatment. + +Michael was not fettered in any way by the ordinary conventions of a +practitioner. He had neither drugs nor instruments of his own +wherewith to effect a cure on ordinary lines, and what he had seen of +herbalists in Spain had inspired him with a vast respect for the +simplicity and success of their methods. The wooden box contained a +quantity of leaves which, steeped in scalding water, and applied to the +patient's throat, possessed the power of reducing the inflammation and +drawing out the poison through the pores of the skin. Of their +efficacy Michael entertained not the slightest doubt. + +He walked straight to the bed, and glanced at Arithelli's throat, now +almost covered with white patches of membrane. There was no time to +waste if she was to be saved from the ghastliness of slow suffocation. + +He went to the head of the stairs and yelled lustily for Maria, whom he +commanded to produce boiling water immediately, thus further adding to +the reputation of the mad English for haste and unreasonableness. + +Then he took off his coat, rolled up his sleeves, and began busily to +clear a space on the table, on which he emptied the contents of the box. + +All his movements had suddenly become alert and energetic. The joy of +the true physician, the healer, had awakened in him at the prospect of +a duel with Death, and he was no longer merely the slouching, +good-natured wastrel who doctored horses at the Hippodrome. + +He possessed for the moment the dignity of a leader, of the master of a +situation. He smiled to himself as he moved about humming a verse of +"Let Ireland remember," and swept away a _débris_ of books, a rouge +pot, some dead flowers, and a large over-trimmed hat. + +"Shure 'tis back in the surgery again I am," he told himself, while his +lean, ugly face beamed with satisfaction. + +No one who knew Michael Furness had ever suspected the regret by which +he was for ever haunted, regret at the loss of his profession. His +rollicking manner made it impossible to believe him capable of any +depth of feeling, and he had a trick of talking least about the things +for which he cared most. The failing that banned him from his work was +an inherited one. He suffered for the sins of his fathers, for the +indulgences of many generations of hard riding, hard living, reckless +hot-blooded Celts. He was too old to reform now, he would say. +Perhaps later on he would be "making his soul"; in the meantime he +drifted. + +Emile, Maria and the boiling water all made their entrée together. The +eyes of the former travelled first of all to the bed and then to the +heap of vegetation. + +"_Qu 'est-ce que c'est que ca_?" he demanded. "She is better, eh?" + +"No, she's worse," answered Michael. He seized upon the leaves and +began to bundle them into the steaming basin. + +"We shouldn't have been gone so long. What's this did ye say, Poleski? +Well, 'tis the only thing I can do for her. After I left you I went +and got these. They're great believers in herbs in this counthry, and +by the light of what I have seen, so am I. The poor people never use +anything else, and I've seen some fine cures. It's unprofessional, but +it's giving her a chance and as I told you I can't operate." He +withdrew his fingers hurriedly. + +"Faith, that jade with the dark eyes knew what she was doing when she +made this water hot! They're ready now, and I'll want a piece of stuff +to lay them on. Find me a piece of the colleen's finery, something old +that she won't be wanting to use any more." + +He pronounced the last two words as "ANNIE MOORE," and would have been +furious if the fact had been pointed out to him, for like all Irishmen +he would never admit the possession of a brogue. + +A pale blue silk scarf was found, and ruthlessly utilised as a bandage. +Then Emile lifted the inert figure, while the doctor wound it round her +throat and fastened it securely. + +"Lift her higher, man," he adjured Emile. + +"There's only one pillow?--Then use this." He rolled up his coat, and +put it behind her head. + +"We've done all we can now, and must just wait till this begins to +draw. It will make her uncomfortable, and we must watch that she +doesn't pull it off. Give me a cigarette if ye have one, Poleski. +'Tis hot work this." + +He sat down on the bed and took up Arithelli's thin wrist. In his +shirt sleeves, with his hair well on end, and his robust voice very +little subdued below its usual pitch, Michael did not convey the +impression that he was capable of taking either Life or Death in a +serious spirit. He talked on gaily, in no way depressed by his +unsympathetic audience, telling tales of his own escapades in the +matter of fighting and love-making, of wild midnight steeplechases +ridden across unknown country, and the delights of the fair town by the +river Lee. + +Once he stopped talking for a few minutes to boil some more water on +the stove that Arithelli sometimes used for making coffee, and to renew +the application of leaves. The fact that his patient was in exactly +the same condition of stupor, and had not stirred, did not discourage +Michael's optimistic views of her recovery. + +"Ye must give it time, me bhoy," he told Emile. "There's no hurry in +Spain, ye know, with anything. Be careful that ye watch her and keep +her hands off her throat. She'll not be lying so quiet presently." + +Emile growled out an inaudible response. He was in a smouldering +condition of wrath and impatience. Reserved and limited of words as he +himself always was, and now rendered savage by anxiety, he found it +impossible to understand the other man's mercurial temperament. By +this time he was without hope, and certainly without faith in either +Michael or his remedies. + +The doctor having skilfully extracted his crumpled outer garment from +under Arithelli's shoulders, regretfully prepared to depart. He was +obliged to be somewhere about the premises of the Hippodrome during +every performance in case of accident to any of the animals, and +careless as he was where his own benefit was concerned, he had +sufficient wisdom to be always within call. + +When he had vanished Emile walked to the window, and threw open the now +useless shutters. He guessed instinctively that Arithelli needed more +air, and he had himself begun to find the temperature almost +unbearable, for the building was lofty, and the room they were in near +the roof. He rested his folded arms upon the sill and leaned his head +and shoulders far out. + +The house stood at a corner, and while the side of it was in a small +street, the front overlooked one of the many wide and beautiful +_paséos_, with which the city abounded. + +A little breeze borne of the incoming tide in the harbour came sweeping +along, and its coolness stirred him into fresh vitality. + +It was the hour of pleasure, when the inhabitants threw off their +sun-begotten sloth and thronged the _cafés_ and public gardens and +promenades. + +On the Rambla, once the bed of a river, the military bands played waltz +music, and the favourite operas, and hot blood moved faster to the +unfailing enchantment of the Habernera, and the newest works of +Massenet and Charpentier. + +It was now dark, and the stars blazed down upon the never-resting city, +with its sinister record of outrages and crimes, and its charm which +was as the alluring of some wild gypsy queen. + +Men fleeing from the justice or vengeance of their own country could +find here a City of Refuge. Here the tide of life ran swiftly, and +churches and cruelty walked hand in hand, and Hate trod close upon the +heels of Love. + +Here no man's life was safe, for from time to time an epidemic of bomb +throwing would break out. Infernal machines would be hurled in an +apparently purposeless fashion wherever there was a large gathering of +people in street or square. A few policemen, soldiers, or onlookers +would be killed or mutilated, and a panic created, but few arrests were +ever made. The whole of the Press would unite to lift up its voice in +an indignant appeal to the Government, and then everything would be +forgotten till the next explosion. People in Barcelona lived from day +to day and accepted lawlessness as a matter of course. + +Emile's own particular circle had no hand in these promiscuous +destructions of life. Their own attempts were invariably well +organised and directed towards some definite end. They did not destroy +life for mere wanton cruelty, and their victims were marked out and +hunted down with an accurate aim. + + +It suddenly occurred to Emile that during the last few months he had +looked upon Barcelona with a changed vision. He had always seen her +beauties and hated them, as a man may hate the fair body of a despised +mistress, while he yet sees it fair. Now the thought that he might at +any time, and at a few days' notice, be forced to leave the place, +struck him with a feeling of blankness and desolation. + +The sense of exile was almost gone, the nostalgia for his own land no +longer keen. Had he turned traitor to his own country, the country for +whose woes he was now suffering--? + +There he had neither home, parents, friends nor lover. Here he +possessed at least interests. + + +A rustling sound behind him made him turn quickly. In the gloom he +could only see the outline of a white moving figure. He groped for the +matches, struck one and lit a candle. + +Arithelli sat upright in bed; she had pushed back the clothes, and her +long fingers were dragging at the blue scarf. It was knotted at the +back under her plait of hair, and she had almost succeeded in loosening +it. The fatal inertia was passed, and she was beside herself with heat +and pain and the fight for breath. + +A couple of strides brought Emile to the bedside. He caught her hands +between his own and drew them down. + +"Listen, Arithelli," he said quietly. "You mustn't do that. This is +to cure your throat. It may hurt you now, but to-morrow you will be +better, _voyez-vous_?" + +The girl writhed in his grasp, turning her head from side to side. The +wild eyes, the tense, quivering body, made Emile think of some forest +animal in a trap. + +The bandage had fallen from her throat and therefore was useless, and +the aromatic scent of the crushed herbs was pungent in the air. He +remembered Michael's injunction, "See that she keeps it on. It's her +only chance." + +She was still struggling frantically, and he needed both hands. For a +moment he meditated tying her wrists together, but he decided to trust +to his influence over her to make her do as he wished, she had always +obeyed him hitherto, and he knew that she was perfectly conscious now, +and capable of understanding what he wanted. + +He set his teeth and tightened his grip, and spoke again in the same +quiet voice. + +"Look at me! That's right. Put your hands down, and keep them so. +You must not touch your throat." + +He held her eyes with his own as he spoke, and after a momentary +struggle and shrinking she grew quiet, and he felt her body relax. Her +eyes closed and she sank down against the pillow, turning her face +towards him. + +"_Pauvre enfant_!" Emile muttered. + +He released her hands and they lay still, and she made no movement to +hinder him as he re-adjusted the bandage. + +He stood looking down upon her. A vast compassion shone in the grey +eyes, that she had only seen hard and penetrating. The gesture of mute +abandonment, the ready compliance had appealed to his complex nature, +which he kept hidden under an armour of coldness and cynicism. For an +instant his years of outlawry and poverty were blotted out and he had +gone back to the days in Russia when he had first come into his +kingdom, and had believed women faithful and their honour a thing on +which to stake one's own. + +As sweet and yielding Marie Roumanoff had seemed when she had lain in +his arms. A few years hence if Arithelli did not succeed in breaking +her neck in the ring, she would probably also make Paradise and Hell +for some man. + +He could see that the dangerous crisis was over. She would live and +eventually go back to her work again. The swift intelligence, the wit +and charm of her--_À quoi bon_? She had been saved, and to what end? +For a dangerous and toilsome profession, and, in secret, another and +still greater peril. + +Husband and children, and the average woman's uneventful, if happy, +fate could never be hers. Her very beauty was of the type almost +repellent to the strictly normal and healthy man. + +She would no doubt have her hour of triumph, of passion. Some +_connoisseur_ of beauty would purchase her as a rare jewel is bought to +catalogue among his treasures. + +In Paris she might achieve notoriety. Not now, perhaps, but later when +she had developed into a woman and knew her own power. Paris loved all +things strange, and gave homage to the woman who was among her fellows +as the orchid among flowers. + +"_FATALITÉ_," he had named her in jest. Truly a name to bring +misfortune to any woman. Her fate had been in his own hands a few +minutes ago. He could so easily have denied her her chance, her chance +of life. Perhaps the time might come when she would reproach him for +having helped her to live. + +He thrust back the thought and stooped over her. + +"_Mon enfant_, do you want anything to drink? You are thirsty, _n'est +ce pas_?" + +"Yes. And Emile--you won't--go away--yet?" + +"_Ma foi_, no! Drink this and go to sleep." + +He was the Emile of every-day life once more, brusque, blunt and +practical. As he turned away to put the glass back on the table, he +was debating whether it would not be wise to call up Maria. A woman +would understand better what to do for another woman. He knew that +Arithelli would never ask for anything under any circumstances. + +He had taught her too well his own depressing theory that life "mostly +consisted of putting up with things," and in practice thereof the pupil +had outshone her master. + +The rigid tension of her arms and hands as they lay on the coverlet +told of her effort for composure, and he noticed for the first time +that beautiful as the latter still were in shape and colour, one of the +nails was broken, and the finger tips had spread and widened. When +there had been meetings up in the hills at night she had always been +left to see to the unharnessing of the horses and mules, and these +disfigurements were the result of her struggles with saddle-girths and +straps. Her work was usually well done, and if it did not happen to be +satisfactory, she came in for the united grumbles of the whole party. + +Emile bit into his cigarette as his eyes caught the discoloured lines +of Sobrenski's sign-manual on her wrist. + +It was entirely through him, Emile, that she had in the first place +joined the league of conspirators, and this was one of the results. +Sobrenski's judgment had been more far-seeing than his own. One girl +in a roomful of fanatics, (he was one himself, but that did not make +any difference,) would naturally stand a very poor chance if she was +foolish enough to oppose them. + +With masculine thoughtlessness Emile had set the candle close beside +the bed, where it flared full into Arithelli's eyes. + +They were wide open now. The look of desperation had faded, and there +was in them only the appeal of one human being to another for help and +sympathy. + +"_Eh, bien_, Fatalité?" + +She shifted her position wearily and stretched out her hands towards +him, murmuring, "_Je veux dormir_." + +If Emile had possessed either chloroform or any other narcotic he would +at once have given it to her without much thought of the possible +consequences. An inspiration seized him to use the power for soothing +and alleviating provided by Nature. He knew that Arithelli would be an +easy subject for the exercise of animal magnetism, and her morbid +condition would make it even easier for him to send her to sleep. + +He moved away the candle, so as to leave her face in shadow, and +leaning forward he laid his hand across her forehead and eyes, and +began a series of regular and monotonous passes, always in a downward +direction. Once he rested his thumbs lightly on her eyeballs, +remaining so for a few seconds, while his will went out to her, bidding +her sleep and find unconsciousness. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + "There is a woman at the beginning of all great things." + LAMARTINE. + + +The whizzing rush and discordant scream of the electric trams, the sun +warm upon his face, aroused Emile from a restless, fitful sleep of a +few hours. The street cries had begun to swell into a volume of sound, +and at the earliest dawn the whole place teemed with stir and life. +There was no hour in all the night in which Barcelona really slept. +Some of the shops did not close before midnight, and people were +continually passing through the Rambla, and entering and leaving the +_posadas_, which were open for the sale of wine and bread soon after +three o'clock in the morning. + +Emile yawned and stretched, and pulled himself up slowly from the chair +by the open window in which he had fallen asleep. He was cramped and +stiff from his uncomfortable position. Anxiety and strain had deepened +the lines on his face, and his eyes were dull and sunken. He looked +less hard, less alert, and altogether more human and approachable. + +A glance at the bed assured him that Arithelli was still asleep and in +exactly the same attitude as he had left her. Though her sleep was not +a natural one, at least it was better than drugs, and he had given her +a respite, a time of forgetfulness. In a few minutes he would have to +arouse her again to more pain and discomfort, and the inevitable +weariness of convalescence. He stood inhaling the wonderful soft air +and gathering up his energies to face the work of another day. +Arithelli's affairs had to be put straight, and Vardri provided for in +some way. He did not in the least know how this was all to be +accomplished, and at present the problems of the immediate future +seemed likely to prove a little difficult. + +He was not by nature optimistic, and the events of the last few days +had made him even less so than ordinary. He felt that he must go back +to his rooms, and finish out his _siesta_ before he could work out any +more plans. + +Arithelli awoke at once when he touched her and called her name, but +before she had realised where she was Emile was half way downstairs in +search of Maria. + +As it happened it was Sunday morning, and being at least outwardly +devout, the damsel was just on the point of starting for an early Mass, +and was arrayed in her church-going uniform of black gown and _velo_, +and armed with missal and rosary. + +Her round eyes widened and her round mouth grew sulky when she heard +that she was expected to go upstairs without further delay and attend +to Arithelli. Juan would be waiting for her outside the church door, +Maria reflected, and perhaps if she did not come he would seek others. +There was Dolores, of the cigarette factory, for example. The English +Señora could surely wait a few minutes. Her expression, and her +obvious unwillingness, supplied Emile with material for cynical +reflections upon the working value of religion. He did not trouble to +communicate his views to Maria, but merely gave orders and +instructions. His tone and manner were convincing. Like all the rest +of her sex Maria respected a man who knew what he wanted, and showed +that he intended to get it. + +Emile made his way into the cool, shady Rambla, where a double avenue +of plane trees met overhead, and where a grateful darkness could always +be found even at mid-day. On either side of the promenade were the +finest shops, the gaiest _cafés_. A band of students passed him, +waving a scarlet flag and shouting a revolutionary _chanson_ of the +most fiery description. Emile scowled angrily. He had not the least +sympathy with these childish exhibitions of defiance, which he +considered utterly futile and a great waste of time. They did harm to +the serious aims and intentions of the Anarchist community, and were +often the means of getting quite the wrong people arrested. + +At the Flower Market (La Rambla de las Flores) he paused to look at the +heaped roses, gorgeous against the grey stones. Daily they were +brought there in thousands, dew-drenched and fresh from the gardens of +Sária. He took up a loose handful from the piled mass of sweetness and +laid it down again. + +Red roses were not for Fatalité. They would not suit her, and she had +good reason to loathe the colour that was symbolical of blood and +sacrifice. He chose instead a sheaf of lilies, long-stalked and +heavily scented, and despatched them in the care of a picturesque +_gamin_. Sobrenski and the others would certainly have considered him +hopelessly mad if they had known. It was many years since he had sent +flowers to a woman. His present life did not encourage little +courtesies and graceful actions. It was in the natural course of +events that all the comrades should help one another in every possible +way, but none of them made any virtue out of it. It was all done in +the most matter-of-fact way possible. As he had told Arithelli when +they had talked up at Montserrat, one only kissed the hands of a Marie +Spiridonova. And he was sending bouquets as to some _mondaine_ of the +vanished world and of his youth. + +He shrugged and walked slowly on. In passing the house where Michael +Furness lodged, he stopped to leave a message as to Arithelli's +condition, and the advisability of another visit. + +When "_The Witch_" touched at Corfu for letters Count Vladimir found +among them one that twisted afresh the thread of two destinies--his own +and that of a woman. His companion had still the same features and +colouring of the boy who had sung at night under the stars in the +harbour of Barcelona. Pauline Souvaroff still sang through the hours +between dusk and dawn, but her disguise had been discarded, and now +soft skirts trailed as she passed, and the cropped fair hair had grown +and twisted into little rings. Her secret had been no secret to Emile, +though Arithelli with her trick of taking everything for granted had +never guessed that Paul, the singer, was other than the boy he +professed to be. Besides the two women had never talked together +alone, and seldom even seen each other by daylight, for Pauline had +sought no one's company. + +There was for her but one being in the world, and when she could not be +with the man she worshipped she was content to be with her thoughts and +dreams. + +At first she had, like many another Russian woman, yearned to make an +oblation of herself in the service of her horror-ridden country, but +with the coming of love she had put aside all thoughts of vengeance. +The Cause was identified for her with the person of her lover. She +toiled willingly at it still, but from entirely different motives. His +interests were hers, and while he worked for the revolutionary party, +so also must she. + +Pauline Souvaroff had loved much and given freely. All that she +possessed of beauty and charm, her whole body and soul she had laid at +the feet of the man at whose lightest word she flushed and paled, and +on whom she looked with soft, adoring eyes. She lived in dreams, a +life of drugged content in which there was neither past nor future. + +In all the Brotherhood no one could be considered a free agent, and the +ordering of no man's life was in his own hands. The private actions of +each member were almost as well known as his public ones, for each man +spied systematically upon his companions. If the devotion of two +people to one another seemed likely to outrival their devotion to the +Cause, then separation came swiftly. Nothing would be said, no +accusations made, but each would receive orders that sent them in +opposite directions. The supporters of the Red Flag movement were +always particularly ingenious in arranging affairs to suit themselves. +An Anarchist could form no lasting ties. Some time in the future there +was always separation to be faced. + +It was in Vladimir's power to settle matters in his own way by ignoring +Emile's letter, and remaining where he was in enjoyment of the present +idyll. As long as they kept out to sea they were safe. But he had +pledged his word to answer any summons and to give his help, and with +him, as with all men, love came only second to his work. Emile had +also explained Vardri's position, and it would be impossible to adjust +anything without being on the spot. + +He read the letter over again, slowly and carefully. It hinted and +suggested more than it had said. Emile had just come from an interview +with Sobrenski, and there had been a talk of an entire re-organization +of the band. Some of the members would be required to carry on the +propaganda in other countries, Russia, for example. They all knew what +that meant--! + +As he climbed the ladder by the yacht's side, and swung himself onto +the deck, the girl ran up to him with outstretched hands, her white +skirts fluttering behind her in the wind. She was as incapable of +disguising her feelings as a child, and she was a joyous pagan in her +happiness. + +Vladimir slipped his hand under the warm round arm. "Have I been long, +_petite_? Come and walk up and down. I want to talk to you." + +"You have found letters, _mon ami_?" Pauline asked carelessly. + +"From Poleski. Yes. I'm afraid they are rather important ones. We +shall have to talk them over later on." + +"When you like. Vladimir, do you remember the girl Monsieur Poleski +brought on board once for a few days. I never knew her real name. She +always looked so ill and miserable. Do you remember?" + +"It is about this very girl that he has written." + +Pauline looked up quickly. "She is dead?" + +"No! No! I suppose you think that because she always looked such a +tragedy. However, she is very ill, out of danger now, but of course +not able to ride--she was in the Hippodrome, you know--and apparently +she has no money, so one must do something for them. Poleski has +barely enough for two, especially under these circumstances." + +"I am sorry," Pauline said gently. "I remember how she used to sit all +day and look at the sea. Monsieur Poleski left her too much alone, and +always spoke so roughly, but I think he loved her." + +Vladimir gave a short laugh. + +"You're wrong there, child. No, I'm sure that's not the case with +Poleski." + +"But she loves him?" + +"Possibly! She always seemed to me uncanny with those extraordinary +eyes, and that voice. Poleski has certainly failed to educate her as +regards taste in clothes. You saw how she was dressed when she came on +board--!" + +Half an hour later the anchor was up, and they were cutting through the +white-crested waves. The girl pointed to a green headland on the left +that rose suddenly and overhung the water like a sentinel on guard. + +"I have been watching that all the morning in the distance, and I could +think of nothing but the Winged Victory in the Louvre. You remember +how she stands on a rough-hewn pedestal at the head of the marble +staircase, and she is all alone against a dull red background. And as +one looks one goes back all those centuries, and sees her as she was on +the day the Greeks set her up to celebrate their great sea-victory. It +must have all looked just as it does to-day, those centuries ago in the +Island of Samothrace. There was a strong wind blowing, and the waves +met and raced and leapt together, and the sky was the same wonderful +colour that it is now, and there were wild birds hovering and screaming +round her." + +"What will you say to me, when I take you away from all this,--when we +have to go back to Barcelona?" + +"But I shall go with you?" The blue eyes were searching his face, and +there was fear as well as a question in them. + +"Do you suppose I shall leave you here alone, child?" He hated himself +for the evasive answer. + +He turned her thoughts to other things, bidding her talk of those days +they had spent together in Paris. She had named it Paradise, and to +her it had been indeed a place of enchantment, for she saw it for the +first time, and Vladimir was always with her. + +She had seen its treasures of art, and abandoned herself to its glamour +with the enthusiasm and the freshness of a child. + +She had looked out of place in the artificial atmosphere of the +boulevards, among the gas-lit _cafés_, dazzling shop-windows, +_flâneurs_ and gaily dressed women. A man who wrote poetry, and +starved on what he received for his verses in the Quartier Latin, had +stood beside her for a few moments in the Rue de Rivoli, and had gone +home to his garret inspired to produce some lines in which he compared +her to the delicate narcissus blooms that died so quickly in the flower +sellers' baskets. + +Together she and Vladimir had strolled among the wonders of the Louvre, +he critical and unmoved, but indulgent and gratified at her pleasure as +at the pleasure of a child. + +Pauline had never been able to express what she felt. She could only +worship dumbly before the changeless unfading beauty of these relics of +the fairy-cities, of Athens, and Rome, and Alexandria. She had loved +the Greek marbles best. The weird shapes in the Corridor of Pan, the +glorious torso of the Venus Accroupie with the two deep lines in her +side that make her more human and alive than any other Venus, more +divine even than the Milo, faultless in her "serpentining beauty rounds +on rounds," serene and gracious in the shadow of her crimson-hung +alcove. + +And Vladimir was wise, for he allowed her to dream, and did not show +her more than he could help of modern Paris. + +From there they had gone to Brussels, then to Vienna, and last, and +most beautiful of all, Buda-Pesth, the city among the hills. They had +seen it first of all as Buda-Pesth should be seen, at night, hanging +between earth and sky, and with her million lights sparkling against +the soft darkness of the surrounding hills. Pauline's eyes had never +become satiated with the sight of beautiful things. + +Perhaps, as she had told Vladimir, it was her love for him that had +given her this gift of clear-seeing. Without love she might have +allowed herself to be blindfolded as many other women are, by ambition, +or money, or intellect. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + "La vie est vaine, + Un peu d'amour, + Un peu de haine, + Et puis bon jour." + + +In the process of Arithelli's convalescence, comedy fought for place with +tragedy. + +For the first time in her life she felt irritable, and inclined to +grumble, and her racked nerves made the lonely hours appear doubly long +and lonely. + +Day after day, each one seemingly more unending than the last, the sun +poured into her room, and the dust and litter accumulated in all four +corners, and she lay and gazed at the hideous meandering pattern of the +stained wall-paper, and the cracks and blistering paint on the door. The +nights were less terrible, for the darkness veiled all sordid details, +and there was a star-lit patch of sky visible through the open window. + +The attendance she received could only be described as casual. Neither +Emile nor Maria possessed one idea on the subject of hygiene between +them. The methods of the former were, as might be expected, a little +crude, and Maria combined a similar failing with a vast ignorance. +Moreover, she was not original. At the beginning of Arithelli's illness +pineapple juice had seemed to Maria a happy inspiration, and she +continued to provide it daily. What was good to drink on Sunday, she +argued, must also be good on Monday. + +Arithelli's throat had healed quickly, but the depression and weakness +clung to her persistently. She fought it and was ashamed of it, true to +her Spartan traditions, but was forced to realise that it was not in her +own power to hurry her return to the world and work. + +Michael Furness, who was much elated by the success of the Jewish +herbalist's remedy, continued his treatment on the same lines, giving her +various tisanes of leaves and flowers, which if they tasted unpleasant +were at least harmless. He had grown fond of his patient, and she always +looked for his visits with pleasure. He treated her with a genuine, +almost fatherly kindness, and they were drawn together by the kin feeling +of race, so strong among all Celts. In many respects Michael was not +ideal as a medical attendant. + +He smoked vile tobacco,--he dropped some things and knocked over others, +he shaved apparently only on _festas_, and if he happened to arrive late +in the day his speech was thick and his manner excitable. + +Upon one occasion Arithelli had complained that her mane of untended hair +made her uncomfortably hot, and Michael brought out a pocket knife, +clubbed it all together in his hand like a horse's tail, and obligingly +offered to relieve her by cutting it off. Emile had arrived only just in +time to prevent the holocaust, and the two men exchanged fiery words for +the next ten minutes. + +Another day, prompted by a desire to amuse her, Michael introduced into +her room a fat mongrel puppy with disproportionate legs and an alarmed +expression. His wish to provide her with what he was pleased to call a +"divarsion" was, like many of his other good intentions, not entirely +successful. He had deposited the excited animal on the bed, and in the +course of its frantic gambols it overbalanced and fell sprawling to the +floor on its back. The ancient canopied bed was high, and the puppy was +frightened as well as hurt, and lifted up its voice in anguished yells. +When Michael had rescued it, and put it outside the door and finished +laughing, he came back to find Arithelli weeping helplessly with her face +buried in the pillow. His alarmed suggestion that he should fetch Emile +helped her to recover more quickly than any amount of sympathy could have +done. + +Sometimes there were other visitors. The grooms and strappers from the +Hippodrome came often to enquire, and Estelle, forbidden by the Manager +to come at all on account of infection, sat on the stairs and showered +effusive speeches in a high-pitched voice through the open door. + +Arithelli had sent no word of her illness to her parents in London. She +knew their views on the subject of complaints. They would consider the +whole thing due to imagination, there would be unpleasant letters, and it +was perfectly certain that they would send no assistance in the shape of +money. Emile had wished to write, but she had begged him not to do so, +and for once he had yielded to what he called her "whims." + +From the scraps of information she had received from time to time it +appeared that the uncomfortable _ménage_ of her kindred had become even +more disorganised. Her father had turned for consolation to the whisky +of his country, her mother spent whole days in bed reading, and weaving +futile dreams of a recovered fortune, and Isobel and Valerie grew taller +and hungrier, and fought and wrangled after the manner of Hooligans. +Lazy and shiftless, they envied Arithelli the life she had chosen, but +had neither the pluck nor the brains necessary to emulate her example. + +Emile's manner had troubled her of late, for he had been strangely +bad-tempered and variable in his moods. She had become more or less +accustomed to his eccentricities of behaviour and speech, but this was +something different, indefinable. One day he would be extraordinarily +kind and considerate, the next almost brutal, either hardly speaking at +all, or else finding fault with everything she said and did. + +She often felt a presentiment that he had something important to tell +her, but he would come and go without imparting any news, and, as always, +she did not worry him with questions as many women would have done. + +She wondered if he were feeling harassed over "_les affaires +politiques_," or whether he was afraid that the Manager's small stock of +patience would be exhausted before she was able to appear in the ring +again, and that he would cancel her contract. If that happened she felt +that the end of all things would have indeed arrived. She could not +struggle against the Fates any longer, obviously she could not return +home, and it was not fair that Emile should continue to keep her. + +He came in one evening about eight o'clock to find her up for the first +time since her illness, and sitting on the edge of the bed draped in the +long blue cloak she used for covering her circus attire. + +Her hair was parted over her ears, and divided into two long sleek braids +drawn forward and falling over her shoulders, the ends resting on her lap. + +She looked up, as he entered, with the haunting sea-green eyes that +showed larger than ever in contrast to her hollowed cheeks. Something in +her pose, in the arrangement of her hair, reminded Emile vividly of her +first morning in Barcelona, when he had come in early in the morning to +find her dazed with sleep. He remembered also how she had asked him to +repeat his remarks, and how carelessly nonchalant had been her manner. + +"You look like a witch sitting crouched up there, Fatalité," he snapped. +"What's the matter? You don't seem very cheerful." + +"I don't feel very cheerful," the girl responded. She spoke with grave +deliberation, and without moving a muscle. Emile grunted and sat down. + +"There has been another explosion of bombs on the Rambla," he said. "A +market woman killed and two work people injured--I believe one has since +died. Of course a got-up affair of the Government. They hope by doing +this sort of thing often enough to make the populace take vengeance on +us." + +"Then the Anarchists didn't do it?" + +"My dear Fatalité, we don't blow up harmless people simply _pour passer +le temps_. I've told you that before, and being inside the movement +yourself you ought to know. It is a favourite trick of the officials to +excite public feeling against us. They have been doing it now for the +last three years, letting off bombs in various parts of the city. They +take care always to choose the most frequented places and to kill someone +who doesn't matter, and then all the Republican journals have four +columns of indignation with large head-lines, 'LATEST ANARCHIST OUTRAGE.' +They like to get their exploits well talked about. Everything seems to +be against us now. Sobrenski will have it that there is treachery inside +our circle as well as outside. You know whom he suspects?" + +"No." + +"Vardri." + +"That is my fault," Arithelli said quietly. "Sobrenski has felt like +that since the night Vardri made a scene about my being lowered down from +the window. He just stood up for me because I'm a woman. I'm only a +machine to the rest of you." + +She spoke without a touch of resentment. It was purely a statement of +fact. + +"Ah, that's just the point. The feminine side of you is exactly what we +don't want. One Félise Rivaz is enough, most of us think. Try and keep +the elfish boy you were when you arrived. It will be less trouble, +Fatalité, _ma chère_. With the other thing there are always +complications. No, I'm not accusing you of falling in love with Vardri. +I only say, be careful. Even an elf-child can develop suddenly into a +woman once she arrives at a knowledge of the fact that there is a man +ready to make love to her. Perhaps you do not know it yourself, but you +have changed lately. You are losing your fearlessness, your +indifference. I have watched you sometimes when you have not known, and +have seen your eyes soften, your face change. You started when I spoke +just now." + +"How did you learn things about women? From books?" + +"Books? _Ma foi_, no! I liked them well enough at one time, when I +hadn't studied _la vie_. Now they're _fâde_." + +Arithelli was silent for a little while. She knew only too well that +Emile had spoken the truth, had put into blunt words what to herself was +only a vague, half-formed idea. Her illness had been Vardri's golden +harvest time, for it had given him the chance of being often alone with +her. He had read to her, waited upon her, served her with the utmost +chivalry and devotion. He had made of her a Madonna, a goddess, she who +was fair game for all other men in Barcelona. + +Emile's voice broke in upon her meditations. + +"You shouldn't worry, Fatalité. It's not becoming. Have a cigarette to +make yourself a little distraction." + +She shook her head. + +"No, thank you, Emile. I never wanted to smoke, and any way it would not +give me a distraction to-night." + +"Then what are you worrying about?" + +"I've only been wondering what will be the end of me." + +"What has made you suddenly become so anxious about your end?" Emile +looked at her keenly. + +The wide eyes raised to his were tragedy incarnate. The long nervous +fingers were tightly locked together. + +"I'm a coward to-night," the soft hoarse voice went on. "I've never +grumbled before, have I, Emile? I seem to have suddenly realised how +hopeless everything looks for me in the future. I've had time enough to +think it all out since I've been lying in bed. When I first came here I +thought I was going to do all sorts of wonderful things, but now I see +that this life leads to nothing, and I may go on being just a circus +rider for years. When I get well and finish out this contract I shall +have to try and get another engagement in Paris or Vienna. The English +Consul and all the other men wait to see me come out, and throw me +flowers and rings, but when they see me driving with you in the Paséo de +Gracia, they look the other way, especially if they are with their wives +and families. They like 'ARITHELLI OF THE HIPPODROME' in her proper +place,--the ring. Gas and glare, paint and glitter! That is my life. +And they always hope that I shall fall off. I can feel it. It's the +Roman arena all over again. For a long time before I had that accident I +didn't know how to get through the rehearsals. I nearly fell off two or +three times, but there was no one there to see. The more I practised the +more cold I got, and I used to have horrible shivering fits. It's so +queer. I don't believe I'm made like other people. Estelle gets hot and +scarlet when she practises." + +"Poor little child!" + +"Why are you so nice to me? You've never said anything like that before." + +"Because if when you first came here I had begun to pity you it would +have made you realise your position sooner than need be. You were like +one in a dream. It was not my place to awaken you. I left that for +Life, '_la vie_' that you were so anxious to experience. You made +yourself '_Chateaux en Espagne_.' We all do that at some time or other." + +"Nobody really cares what becomes of me except--" she broke off the +sentence and continued steadily. "My people don't mind whether I am here +or not. They won't like it if I come back a failure." + +In his heart Emile cursed the Fates. Her awakening had been a complete +one. At first novelty and excitement had served as merciful +anaesthetics, but they could not last for ever. + +He was not in love with her, he still told himself, but he would miss +her. Women like the Roumanoff were the women to whom men made passionate +love, but Arithelli was unique. She had become part of his life in +Barcelona. Their lives had touched and mingled till it was impossible to +believe that he had only known her for a few short months. A future +without her would be one without interest. For her he could see no +future. She would have to go to the devil some way or another +eventually, and there would be plenty of people ready and willing to +provide her with an escort. + +He threw away his cigarette, and came across the room to her, and his +hands fell heavily upon her shoulders. + +"Look here, Fatalité," he said roughly; "we thought you were dying a +little while ago, and I helped to fight for your life, and all the time, +at the back of my brain I wished you were dead. Yes, you needn't look so +horrified." He gave her a fierce shake. "I hoped to see you in your +coffin. Can't you understand, Fatalité? No, of course you can't, and +you think me a brute. One of these days perhaps you will think +differently. Probably you imagine I don't care for you, but if I didn't +should I mind whether you were alive or dead? You've always been saying +that you feel something is going to happen. It seems you are right. +There have been several unexpected developments during the last few days. +It is most likely that I may be chosen to go back to Russia with +despatches to one of the secret societies there. Here I cannot be +arrested, there I can. Of course it means Siberia--eventually. That's +only what we all expect." + +"Then I shall be here alone." + +"Yes, and there's no future for a woman in this vile place. You know the +proverb they have, 'Can any good thing come out of Barcelona?' Your +looks are against you too." + +"There's always the river." + +"Then when the time comes choose that--if you still have the courage. +You've been _bonne camarade_ to me, Fatalité. The men you will meet +later on may not want that." + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + "I kiss you and the world begins to fade." + W. B. YEATS. + + +Count Vladimir and Emile met and consulted together, the immediate +result of the interview being that Vardri was offered the post of +private secretary to the former. Emile had gone out leaving them +together, and Vladimir had hardly finished speaking when he found +himself faced by an unexpected situation. + +"I accept with pleasure," Vardri said, "but on one condition--that it +means my remaining in Barcelona." + +Vladimir hesitated. "Well, I had not contemplated that. Naturally one +requires one's secretary to be--" + +"I understand, Monsieur. I hope you will not consider me ungrateful, +but there is a reason." + +"It's a woman?" + +Vardri bowed gravely. "Exactly, Monsieur. It's a woman." + +"You are risking a great deal for her. Poleski has told me something +of your circumstances, and it appears that if you do not get some +appointment very soon, you will starve." + +Vardri straightened himself, throwing back his head with a +characteristic gesture. He looked the older man in the eyes, his own +alight and eloquent under finely drawn brows. + +"That's as it may be! I'll take my chance of work. In any case I +cannot leave Barcelona. Of course, I regret greatly that it is +impossible for me to fall in with your arrangements." + +Vladimir smiled and shrugged. He knew the type with which he had to +deal. Quixotic and generous to the verge of folly, the type that will +sacrifice itself without reserve for an illusion, an ideal; the type +that filled monasteries, and Siberian prisons, and made a jest for half +the world. Such men were valuable to the Cause, because they gave +ungrudgingly, and never counted cost. The Russian was a man of +affairs, cautious, cynical and given to analysis, and he was also a +student of human nature. He was moreover interested in the unknown +woman. + +If he had been told that she was Arithelli the circus-rider, who had +sat silently upon the deck of his yacht dressed in gaudy raiment, and +indifferent almost to stupidity, then his smile would have been +contemptuous instead of tolerant. He was interested too in the unknown +woman's champion. Something in Vardri's attitude of courteous defiance +appealed to him by the law that will attract strongly one man's mind to +another, diverse in every way. He could see that Vardri was plainly +consumptive, and that the disease was in its advanced stages. Even +with the aid of good food and an easier life he could not last more +than a year or two, so one might as well make things a little more +smooth for him during the time. + +"I see you have the illusions of youth, my friend," he said carelessly. +"I trust they may remain long unbroken. Myself I am sorry to have +lived beyond the age when they content one. Sit down and talk to me." +He motioned Vardri towards a chair. "Well, since you have refused to +entertain my plan, we must think of something else. I'm at present +writing a series of articles on '_Militarism in France_,' and should +like to have them translated for publication in an English journal. +You speak the language well, better even than Poleski, for you have a +better accent. I have been a good deal in London and I notice the +difference. I suppose you also write it easily?" + +"Yes, I had an English tutor." + +"Good! Then you will undertake this work, and you shall fix the price +of payment. I'm not in the least afraid of your asking more than I +care to give. You are the type that gets rid of money, not the type +that acquires it. Also I will give you an introduction which will +enable you to get on the staff of _Le Combat_. They want another man +there who is a good linguist, as there is a great deal of +correspondence with other countries. As I have an interest in the +paper, you may consider it settled. No, don't thank me. Your thanks +are due to--a woman. She is unknown to me, but perhaps that is the +reason I--I also owe you something, Monsieur Vardri. Your example has +made me feel young again." + +A week later Vardri went swinging quickly down the Calle San Antonio, +on his way to Emile's rooms. He was in exuberant spirits, and whistled +as he walked keeping step to the dancing gaiety of '_La petite +Tonquinoise_.' His headgear, which vied in picturesque disorder with +Emile's historical sombrero, was pushed to the back of his head, +exposing his thick, unruly hair, and over one ear, Spanish fashion, he +had stuck a carnation. + +There was more money in his pocket than he had possessed since his days +of luxury in the Austrian chateau, and for him the sun was shining in a +metaphorical as well as a literal sense. During the last few days he +had been happier than he could have believed possible. He felt in +better health, for he had been able to go to bed at a reasonable time, +and though he missed the horses and the free life of the Hippodrome, +and found the work of a newspaper office somewhat trying, there were +shorter hours and other advantages. + +He had also the joy of knowing that Arithelli was almost well again. +She had not been out yet, but Michael Furness had declared her to be +practically recovered. + +One day Vardri hoped to take her along the sea-front towards the old +quarter of the town, where the fishermen and sailors lived, and where +she could sit on the stone parapet and look across the harbour, and let +the sea-air blow strength and vitality into her. + +After all he told himself, life was good even if one were a vagabond. +Life with adventure, a little money, and love. + +He burst open the door of Emile's sitting-room, and entered headlong. +The sun-blinds were all drawn, making everything appear pitch dark +after the blinding glare of the streets. + +"I want some matches, Poleski! By luck, I've got some cigarettes. One +never has both matches and cigarettes at the same time." He had come +to a dead stop and stood staring. + +"Fatalité! Fatalité! The gods are kind for once! If only I had known +you were here sooner." + +The half-full box of cigarettes descended to the floor, and its +contents went in all directions, and he was kneeling beside her chair +and holding both her hands. It was Arithelli not "Fatalité" who smiled +back at him. The little mask-like face changed and grew soft till she +looked more a girl, less an embodied tragedy. Vardri's wild spirits +were infectious, and, as on the night of the Hippodrome fiasco, Youth +called and Love made answer. + +"_Mon ami_, I am so glad you have come." + +"Is this the first time you have been out? Who said you could get up? +The doctor?" + +"No, it was Emile." + +Vardri nodded towards the communicating door of the bedroom. "Poleski +is here then?" + +"No, and he doesn't know I'm here. He has gone to Sária and will not +be back till late. I was horribly irritable this morning, so he thinks +I'm all right now." A ripple of amusement broke her voice as their +eyes met. + +"My sweet, you must ask me to believe some other little _histoire_." + +"Oh! but it's true. You should have heard us! I knew that it was +funny afterwards, but there was no one to laugh with at the time. It +was about that dreadful old coat of Emile's. He threw it on my bed, +and--I can't help being a Jewess, can I? and I so loathe dust and +dirt, and I said so. Emile was furious. 'Very well,' he said. 'If +you are strong enough to grumble, you are strong enough to get up.' So +when he had gone I dressed and came here. I was so glad to get away +from that room." + +"Not as glad as I am to see you here. And I've heard you laugh, +Fatalité. You're a little girl today." + +"I have moods, dear. I shall depress you sometimes." + +Vardri smiled scornfully, and slid down to the floor, his head resting +against her knee. "_Je suis bien content_! What cool hands you have, +and how still you keep. No other woman in the world was ever so +restful. You love to be quiet, don't you? I know you better to-day +than I ever did. You were always in the wrong atmosphere at the +Hippodrome." + +"And I have to go back to it," the girl said under her breath. "And I +may be hissed again. You will not be there now, and we shall miss you. +I and Don Juan and Cavaliero, and El Rey, and Don Quixote. Some of the +grooms are horrible, and the animals get so badly treated." + +"It seems to me that everything gets badly treated here," Vardri +muttered. "Women and horses, it's all the same. Don't let us talk +about it. It drives me mad to think, I shan't be able to be near you. +I was some use to you there." + +He jumped up and began to move about the room collecting the scattered +cigarettes. + +"Shall I play to you, _mon ange_? I suppose the piano hasn't been +tuned yet." He struck a few notes, and made a rueful grimace. "It's +worse than ever." + +"I'm afraid it never will be tuned now that I've been ill and caused so +much expense. Emile always says he will go without cigarettes to +afford it, and I say I will go without powder, but neither of us keep +our heroic resolutions, and the piano gets worse and worse." + +Vardri shut down the lid with a bang. + +"Well, anyway it doesn't matter," he said, "I don't want to play or do +anything; I just want to be with you." + +"Bring up a chair, and sit and smoke, _mon camarade_." She held out +her hand with a gesture of invitation, and Vardri took it and kissed +it, and went back to his former position at her feet. + +"Shall I read to you?" he asked. "Ah! I'd forgotten there was +something I wanted to tell you. I found a poem the other day, a +love-song of De Musset. Do you know that you lived in this very city +years ago, Fatalité, and he saw you and loved you? How else could he +have written this? + + "_Avez-vous vu en Barcelone, + Une Andalouse au sein bruni, + Pâle comme un beau soir d'Autômne, + C'est ma maitresse, ma lionne, + La Marchesa d'Amagui._" + +Arithelli listened, her eyes dilating, and a little flame of colour +creeping up under the magnolia skin that made her likeness to the woman +of the poem. Her awakening senses thrilled to the eager voice, the +riotous challenging words: + + "_J'ai fait bien de chansons pour elle_." + +He broke off abruptly and continued: "I hate all the rest of it. The +woman isn't like you, further on, and the lover laughs at his own +passion, and the whole thing jars. That first verse haunted me for +days after I'd read it."--The sentence was finished by a convulsive fit +of coughing, which he vainly tried to stifle. + +"This is the first time to-day," he gasped, between the paroxysms. +"I'm quite well really. It's the cigarette. They often have that +effect. Don't look so worried, or I shall think you hate me for being +a nuisance." + +"If you talk so foolishly I shall go." + +She made an attempt to rise, but Vardri caught at her skirts. "You +won't go! You don't want to make me worse, do you? Think how sorry +you'll be if I cough and worry you all the evening!" + +"Can't I get you anything? If only I were not so stupid about illness. +Don't try to talk if it makes you worse." + +"I won't--if you'll stay." + +To Arithelli caresses did not come easily, but during the last few +weeks she had learnt many things. She stroked the dark head that +rested against her knee, wondering how it was that she had never before +noticed till to-day how feverishly brilliant Vardri's eyes were, and +how his skin burnt. She had often heard him coughing before, but he +had always gone away and left her when an attack came on, with some +laughing excuse about the horrible noise he made. After a while he +shifted his position, and smiled up at her. + +"You're getting tired, Fatalité!" + +"No. Tell me, have you anything important to do to-night?" + +"No, dear, and if I had I shouldn't do it. Do you feel well enough to +come out and have dinner with me somewhere? I'll take you to some +place where it's quiet." + +"Why not let us stay here all the evening, and have supper together?" +Arithelli suggested. "We'll take Emile's things. He loves cooking +_cochonneries_, and there is sure to be a _quelque chose_ somewhere in +the cupboard." + +Vardri scrambled to his feet. "_Bon_! Sit still, and I'll go and +_acheter les_--things! We'll leave Emile's _cochonneries_ alone. I'm +rich now, so we will have luxuries." + +"Yes, and I'll hunt for plates and dishes, and wash them properly (not +like the Gentiles do) while you go and _acheter les_--things!" +Arithelli mocked. "What a dreadful mixture of languages we all use! I +used to speak German quite well when I was at the convent, but now I +have forgotten nearly all of it. This place is bad for both one's +French and English, and Emile says that when I try and speak Spanish it +sounds like someone sawing wood." + +Vardri went out still coughing, and came back flushed and excitable, +laden with various untidy parcels, from which some of the contents were +protruding. Long rolls, the materials for a salad, a _pâté_, flowers, +and an enormous cluster of grapes. They pledged each other in the +yellow wine of the country, and presently Vardri set about the +manufacture of what he inaccurately described as Turkish coffee. That +the result of his efforts was half cold and evil-tasting mattered not +to either of them. + +Arithelli's red hair was crowned with vine leaves that he had stripped +from the grape-cluster and twisted into a Bacchante wreath. She leant +her elbow on the table, resting her chin upon her hand. Her eyes +glowed jewel-like, almost the same colour as her garland. The flame of +love had melted into warmth her statue-like coldness, and given her the +one thing she had lacked--expression. Yet the mystery, the charm that +surrounded her clung to her even when she appeared most womanly. To +the boy lover gazing with devouring eyes she seemed that night more +than a woman. He thought of the tales he had heard as a child from the +peasants on winter nights in his own country. Tales of the forests and +legends of the Hartz Mountains, of lonely places haunted by nixies and +wood maidens, fairy shapes with streaming hair and vaporous robes, +seeing which a man would become for ever after mad with longing, and +desire no mortal woman. + +Arithelli's long limbs appeared nymphlike in her plain blue +high-waisted gown of Emile's choosing, that had no superfluous bow or +trimming, and left free her beauty of outline. She possessed no +jewellery now wherewith to deck herself, and there was no trace of +artificial red on face and lips. + +The candles on the table flickered to and fro in the draught from the +open window and she shivered in the midst of some laughing speech and +glanced over her shoulder at the door behind her. + +Vardri, reading her thoughts, said, "You're afraid of something, dear, +what is it?" + +"Nothing, at least I thought someone was listening, was coming in. We +are always talking of spies till one gets absurdly nervous and imagines +all sorts of foolish things. I have never said so to anyone else, but +there is always the feeling of being watched. It is so difficult to +know who is for and who against us, and so easy to give evidence +without meaning to be a traitor. Just before I got ill, Sobrenski sent +me to a little newspaper shop down in the Parelelo quarter. I was to +ask if they sold '_Le Flambeau_.' The man looked at me hard and asked +if there was any connection between that journal and the one published +at number 27 Calle de Pescadores. The sun must have made me feel +stupid, and I answered _Yes_, without thinking. I had taken it for +granted that the man was one of us, and then I knew suddenly that he +wasn't." + +Vardri bent forward across the table. "Did you tell anyone what you +had said?" + +"Not Sobrenski; I told Emile. He looked me up and down, and said +something that I couldn't hear, and then, 'I thought you could hold +your tongue, Fatalité. It seems, after all, you are a woman and +can't!' and then he walked out of the room. Vardri, did you ever feel +as I do when you first began to work for the Cause? Perhaps one gets +used to it in the end and doesn't care." + +"Yes," the boy answered between his teeth, "Yes! One gets used to it. +Dear, your hands are trembling. Do you think anyone can hurt you while +I'm here? You are nervous because you've been ill, that's all. This +is the first time you've been out and you are overtired. I'll take you +back soon. You were all right a few minutes ago. You thing of moods!" + +She tried to smile, "I warned you, _mon ami_." + +"I know. It wasn't any use. That wreath makes you look like the +statue of Ariadne in Rome." + +"I wish you would talk to me about yourself." + +"Myself!" Vardri shrugged expressively, "_Ma foi_!" + +"Tell me what made you join the Cause." + +"Because of a man I believed in. You have heard of Guerchouni who died +early in the year? There was a great funeral in Paris. It was in all +the papers." + +Arithelli nodded, "Yes, I heard the men talking about it at one of the +meetings. I wasn't interested enough to listen then. Was he--?" + +"He was one of our greatest leaders. His death meant something to me, +because it was really through him that I joined the Red Flag. He had a +life sentence in Eastern Siberia and he escaped from there and got to +America. For some time none of us knew exactly where he was, and then +we heard rumours that he was dangerously ill at Geneva. Then came news +of his death and his funeral in Paris. His friends had decided to +bring the body there, so that all the comrades might be present, for +there are many anarchists in Paris. They gave him a guard of honour of +Russian students, men and women surrounding the coffin with linked +hands, and there were hundreds of red roses and red carnations, though +it was in the winter--there had been snow on the ground a few days +before. There was a crown of thorns from those who had been his +companions in prison, and the canopy of the hearse was a red flag. If +only I could have been there to do him homage! + +"There are all sorts of wild stories about his escape from Siberia. I +suppose he bewitched the jailers as he bewitched other men. He was the +first man I ever heard speak about the Cause. He came to Vienna and +held meetings for the propaganda and collected enormous crowds. I had +just begun to take life seriously then, to think about things and to +hate injustice. + +"My father drank and wasted money and treated his servants brutally. +My mother was dead, and when she was alive she was an invalid, and +could do nothing. Most of the people I knew seemed to think the serfs +no better than animals. I remember how sometimes when we were starting +off in the early morning for a boar hunt in the forest, they would come +begging and whining round the horses' heels. + +"They seldom got anything except a kick or a curse. They looked +scarcely human, yet it was ourselves who were the brutes really. + +"Well, Guerchouni spoke and I went and listened to him. A friend with +whom I had gone to the meetings gave me an introduction to him. I was +mad on the Cause long before the interview was over. He was a man +that! If he had looked at me twice, I would have walked through flames +to please him. Oh, I wasn't the only one! We all felt like that more +or less with Guerchouni. I couldn't describe him. He was not a tall +man, but he carried himself well, and he was dark and pale with +wonderful blazing eyes. One knew him at once, and talked as if one had +known him for years. + +"Of course I accepted all his theories and doctrines except two. I +don't believe in '_L'Union fibre_.' (They all do, you know, or nearly +all) and I never was an atheist. + +"A Catholic and an Anarchist! It sounds impossible, doesn't it, +but"--he flushed boyishly--"I believe in _Le bon Dieu_, and the _union +libre_ is hard on women. Yes, I adored Guerchouni. He worked day and +night, he feared nothing, he did impossibilities himself and he made us +do impossibilities." + +"He was like Sobrenski." + +"Yes, he was like Sobrenski in some ways. He will be a loss to the +Cause." + +For a few moments there was silence, and then Arithelli spoke. "Tell +me one more thing. Now we are alone, we can speak the truth to each +other, you and I. Vardri, do you still care for the Cause--in the same +way you did before?" She whispered the question fearfully, yet knowing +well what the answer must be. + +"I don't feel the same about it since I have known you." + +"I have not tried to make you a traitor, have I? Sobrenski always +suspects me of that." + +"My sweet, you have done nothing. I love you, therefore I must feel +differently about the Cause. Why? Because I'm afraid of it for you. +Because these men have no consideration for you as a woman, because +they always make you take the greatest risks. It is always so in this +work. Look what happens to the women in Russia. When there is a +political 'Execution' there, nine times out of ten it is a woman who +throws the bomb. Look at the things they have done lately. At the +printing office we see all the anarchist journals, and the comrades get +news privately. The men do little in risking their lives compared to +the women, and some of them are so young. An article in '_Les temps +Nouveaux_' of last week said that, '_beside the men these young girls +are as artistes beside artisans_.' The last case was Sophia Pervesky. +She was arrested for being in charge of a secret printing-press. +Before the police seized her she nearly found time to put her lighted +cigarette down on a pile of explosives. They wounded her in two +places, threw her down, and stamped on her injuries. Then they took +her to the hospital and kept her there till she had recovered. She +waited two months for death and then they brought her out one morning +in the dawn and hanged her. + +"'You shall see how a Russian woman dies,' she told them as she ran up +the ladder and flung herself into space. + +"You women shame us with your courage. Now every time I hear of a +thing like that, I think of you. You may have to run some great risk +here for a caprice of Sobrenski's." + +"Vardri, Vardri, I wonder what will be the end of it all?" + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +The walls of the Hippodrome were no longer adorned with gaudy posters +whereon flared a travestied portrait of "_The beautiful English +equestrienne_." No longer for Arithelli were showered roses, the +tribute of head-lines in the weekly journals, and the welcome of many +voices. She had been absent for nearly a month, therefore she might as +well have been dead as far as the Spanish public was concerned. + +The Manager had known this and had been careful to provide his patrons +with a new toy, who had come, even as Arithelli herself, from Paris. +This was a female contortionist with a serpent's grace, and a serpent's +flat head, and wicked slit eyes. She had proved a success, so he could +afford to exult, and Estelle dangled in triumph a new pair of diamond +earrings. He had lost nothing and the once famous Arithelli, the +"_She-wolf_" who had been mad enough to defy him, was now simply one of +the crowd. Her name did not appear on the programme. She was not even +Madame Mignonne now, but merely a unit among the many other women who +were grouped in the grand spectacle, or a rider in a procession with +twenty others. He had reduced her salary to a third of what it had +been formerly, and every Saturday she was required to assist with the +correspondence and weekly accounts. If she did not like this +arrangement, he explained, she could fight out the terms of her +contract in the courts. Doubtless she had a great opinion of her own +capabilities, but as she could see for herself her place had been +easily filled. The world was large, and there were plenty of +women--_sacré_, too many! + +As usual he was disappointed in the effect of his remarks. Whether her +silence meant indifference or sheer stupidity he was never quite sure. +As Arithelli had no vanity the loss of her position meant little to her. + +The loss of a private dressing-room meant a great deal. It was a +refined torture to her to be herded among the other women, with their +noise and quarrelling and coarse jokes. She found changes too. Her +friend the toothless lion had succumbed to old age, several of the +helpers had been changed, and Vardri was no longer near at hand to lift +her on to her horse and wait to help her dismount. Whenever he could +get away from Vladimir and the newspaper office, he was among the +spectators, and their thoughts and glances met across the wide arena's +space. Emile did not come regularly now though he took care there was +always someone sent to bring her home. + +Since the night of the alarms in the Calle de Pescadores, the +Brotherhood had decided in council that they must change their place of +meeting, at any rate for a time, and that no part of the city itself +could be considered safe for the purposes of a meeting place. + +They must keep to the hut up in the mountains. This had been seldom +used on account of the difficulty in getting there, and the waste of +time involved by the distance. In all respects it was safer. If they +were surprised it was not likely they would all be caught, for in the +open there was always a chance of escape. The distance and lonely +situation were all in their favour. In a small house in a narrow +street they were like trapped animals. + +The custom was to start at midnight on the outskirts of the town, +collecting by degrees, and when they were well on their way the +cavalcade joined together and formed into Indian file. + +Some were on horseback and some on the more sure-footed mules. + +Not one among the conspirators could ride with the exception of Vardri +and Emile, and the knowledge of the art possessed by the latter was +poor enough. + +The steeds of the general company went at whatever pace they chose and +in what direction they saw fit, and occasionally two or three got +wedged together in some narrow place and there was an interlude of +kicking and squealing. + +Then "Fatalité" was called to the rescue as being the only one among +them capable of managing horseflesh. + +When not required in her office of peacemaker she was sent on in front +as guide to the procession, dressed in her boy's disguise and astride +the most vicious of the mules. These excursions meant less rest for +her than ever for the party seldom returned till five o'clock in the +morning. + +Emile had told her that she must get her sleep up in the hut. + +"You have two hours to yourself," he said. "You can't sleep up there? +Nonsense! Make up your mind to do it and then you will." + +The building in question, which was more like an outhouse than anything +else, she had christened, "The Black Hole of Calcutta." The upper +part, which was approached by a ladder as a loft would be, was used as +a meeting-room, while the ground floor became a temporary stable for +the horses and mules, of which she was left in charge. Since the scene +in that upper room in the Calle de Pescadores she had put herself +outside all consideration; and Sobrenski now excluded her from all work +other than the merest drudgery. Vardri was also kept under +surveillance. It was felt by all that in some quarter treachery lurked +as yet undiscovered, and every man suspected his comrades. There were +indications that someone, hitherto a sworn ally of the Cause, had +turned spy and sold certain information to the authorities. + +Even Sobrenski's iron nerves were stretched to breaking point. + +The rest tried to drown anxiety in _absinthe_, and all grew daily more +morose and uncertain of temper. + +The first sensation came in the shape of a rumour that Count Vladimir's +companion, Pauline Souvaroff, had disappeared. + +Only three people knew that she had vanished utterly and completely on +the same day that she had received a communication from the leader. +The note had been brought to her by Vladimir himself. He could guess +at its contents, but Pauline had revealed nothing. + +Two hours afterwards when he went on shore she was shut up in her +cabin, and he had not interrupted her, thinking she was asleep. When +he returned, and found her door unlocked, and her cabin empty, a +suspicion of the truth occurred to him. + +Everything was left in perfect order, but there was no letter, no word +of explanation. He questioned the crew, and heard that she had been +rowed to shore by two of them soon after he left. She had given the +men orders not to wait, but to return at once to the yacht. For a week +Vladimir hunted through street and slum. At the end of that time he +knew that alive or dead he would never see Pauline Souvaroff again. +The missive he had brought her from Sobrenski had probably meant a +journey for her to one of the great centres of the movement--Amsterdam, +Geneva, or perhaps even London. + +Alphonse of Spain was now in England, having escaped two attempts upon +his life in Paris, and in his own capital. His every moment would be +watched and noted by the destroyers of monarchy. Probably she had been +chosen to obtain information, because women made better spies than men, +and their movements were not so likely to be noticed by the police. +Many a high official whose name was on the list of those condemned to +death by a revolutionary tribunal had been tracked from city to city by +female agents. + +Yet, if she had been sent on such an errand, what reason could she have +had for going in secret, alone and without a word of farewell? He had +supposed it impossible that she could have kept anything from him; of +course there must eventually be separation. He had warned her of that. +And when it came he had expected scenes, tears and a frantic appeal. + +That she should vanish in silence was inconceivable. Perhaps she had +not cared for him so much after all. In any case the episode had been +a charming one, and to him no woman could ever have been more than an +episode. He had shown her some of the many beautiful things and places +of the world, and by her own words he had made her happy. Now their +play time was over. He had his work and she hers. She had come into +his life as a piece of driftwood floats to shore on the edge of a wave, +and gone out of it as noiselessly. + +Vladimir did not discuss his private affairs, so that among all the +conspirators Emile alone knew, and it was Emile alone who guessed the +truth. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + + "Tout passe, tout casse, tout lasse." + + +For some days Arithelli had not seen Emile, and she had wondered. +Since the night she had sat with Vardri in his room, he had scarcely +spoken to her except for a few moments on business matters. + +She thought he looked haggard and worried, and there was a change that +she could not define in his manner towards her. She wondered if he +knew about Vardri, if he thought she was deceiving him. + +She wanted to tell of this new, wonderful thing that had befallen her, +but he had given her no chance, and she had begun to think that he did +not even take sufficient interest in her to care what she thought or +felt as long as she performed her allotted tasks and did not worry him +with complaints or questions. + +The feeling of a barrier between them troubled her vaguely, and she was +glad when she found him one night waiting for her outside the stage +door. + +Half an hour later he was smoking a cigarette in her room while she +brushed her hair. + +They had been silent for some time, and both started when the door was +assaulted by a sudden thump, and the scarecrow-like visage of the +depressed landlady appeared in the opening. + +Having delivered herself of a small cardboard box, and a few grumbling +comments upon the indecent hours and ways of circus performers, she +withdrew, and Arithelli proceeded to cut the string and remove the lid. + +"I can't see what it is in this light," she said; "Emile, may I have +the candle a little nearer? Flowers? No one sends me flowers now. +But these are--" + +Her voice broke and stopped. Emile, who had been on the alert from the +moment of the landlady's entrance, sprang up and pulled the girl to one +side. A mysterious parcel at that hour of the night, too late for any +post. One might have guessed what it meant. + +"What is it?" he asked sharply. The answer was an incoherent one, and +he could see that she was paralysed with terror. + +The opening of the box had revealed a sinister-looking bouquet of +artificial black roses tied with blood-red ribbons. + +In Barcelona there are many strange and ingenious ways of conveying +death by explosives. A clock, a painted casket which might contain +bon-bons; a coffee-pot, a _casserole_--any apparently harmless and +common utensil. + +A bunch of flowers was one of the most common mediums for a bomb. + +The Anarchist colours showed clearly that it must either have been sent +by an enemy who had been formerly one of the band, and who was now +revenging himself by an attempt to see his former associates "hoist +with their own petard," or else it was an affair of the police. In any +case, supposing the thing to be harmless, it was a warning of danger. + +Emile's wits worked swiftly, and he was used to emergencies. He looked +round, and found a jug of water, and the floral tribute floated +harmlessly therein. As it did not sink at once he concluded that there +was no concealed bomb. Then he turned his attention to Arithelli, and +gave her a vigorous shaking, which was probably, under the +circumstances, the best possible restorative. + +"You'll die more than once in imagination before your time comes, +Fatalité. Probably the next parcel you receive will not need as much +investigation." + +She tried to smile. "I'm sorry! They looked so uncanny, and when I +saw red I thought--Emile, what does it all mean?" + +"It means danger, my dear. It means that you are suspected. You +yourself best know whether the suspicion is deserved or not. Of course +it may be only one of the police tricks, but I don't think so. Anyway +whether it was charged or not it's safe enough now. Look in the box +and on the floor to see if there's any note or message. There isn't? +_Eh bien_! I suppose they thought this would speak with sufficient +eloquence." + +He fished the bedraggled bouquet out of the water and hung it like a +trophy across Arithelli's mirror, which was a fetish of its owner and +the one valuable thing she now possessed. It had been the gift of +Michael Furness, who had bought it from the Jewish herbalist. It was +of antique silver gilt in oval shape, and rimmed with rough topaz set +in silver, and was alleged by its former owner to have been the +property of Agnès Sorél. Arithelli had often declared that in it she +could see visions as in a crystal. + +Over it Emile carefully arranged the flowers so that the stained red +ribbons hung limply across the polished surface. Then he sat down +again and lighted another cigarette. + +"You ought not to be afraid of this sort of thing, you know," he said. +"Sudden death is part of our business. In the oath we take we swear to +'Slay or be slain,' if by so doing we can advance the Cause one small +step forward." + +She caught at her breast with a sudden gesture of passion. +Death--could they talk and think of nothing else? And she was a woman +now, not a weapon, and she wanted life. + +"You don't seem very enthusiastic," the cold voice continued. "A few +months ago the dangerous side of the game was rather an attraction to +you than otherwise. Now you shrink and shiver at everything. You do +your work, yes, because, you can't help doing that, but is there any +heart in what you do?" + +"None! Every day I live, I loathe it more!" + +"Take care!" + +"I'm past caring. When I came out here first I was a child playing at +a new game." + +Emile's back was turned to her, and if his answering speech was brutal, +it was because his conscience was awake and crying fiercely. He would +not be likely to make the mistake of interfering with people's lives a +second time. He had seen in her an instrument to be handled at will, +and had charged himself with the burden of her destiny, and now he +supposed she was about to reproach him. + +"You are hysterical. That's the worst of women. They always are--more +or less. You had better go to bed, and not talk nonsense. If you were +a child only a few months ago you are not too old to be treated as one +now." + +It hurt him more than it hurt her, but she would never know that. His +pulses hammered furiously as she dropped at his side with a soft rustle +of garments. Her clasped hands rested on his knee; the strong, slender +hands that had grown rough with work. + +"Emile," she whispered, "can't you see that I've altered? I'm a woman +now. You said I should be one soon. I've wanted to tell you all +along, but I always hoped you had guessed." + +"Perhaps I did, but I preferred that you should tell me yourself. And +since when have you become what you call 'a woman'? No, you needn't +answer. When I knew that you and Vardri had been together in my rooms, +I was certain I had not warned you without reason." + +"You knew before I did myself." + +"_Mon enfant_, I'm neither blind nor a fool. As they say in this +country, 'love and a cough cannot be hidden.' I was sure about Vardri, +but about you;--no, one couldn't say. When you came out here you were +a sexless creature with a brain. It did not seem likely that you would +develop into the ordinary girl with a lover." + +It was the only way he could keep a hold upon himself, by keeping up a +pose of cynicism. The fragrance of her hair, the curved mouth so close +to his own, maddened him. He who could have been her lover had been +only her guardian, her taskmaster. And now she was ready to give +herself to a boy, who thought life was a romance, and who would +probably sit at her feet reading poetry while they both starved. + +"You have been together often?" + +Her head drooped. "Yes. I should have told you before." + +"What plans have you made? I suppose it will be the usual mad scheme +of running away. I ought to betray you, of course, but--" + +"We haven't arranged anything yet; there is plenty of time." + +"Plenty of time--Mon Dieu!" the man rasped out. "How like you, +Fatalité! What a pair! Vardri always living _au clair de la lune_, +and you half asleep, and full of illusions. _Les illusions sont les +hirondelles_. How often have I told you that?" + +"They make life possible," Arithelli answered softly. + +Again the man stared and marvelled. Verily, here was another being who +was neither "Becky Sharp" nor "Fatalité." The exultation, the triumph +of one loved and desired, was hers for the moment. Who, seeing her +now, could have the heart to warn her of inevitable disillusion, the +doubts and fears, the clinging and the torments that are the heritage +of all womenkind. + +He, too, had once dreamed foolish dreams. + +He gripped her by the shoulder and forced her to look at him. + +"Vardri is your lover? You shall answer me before I leave this room." + +She did not flinch, or blush, or look away. + +"I love him." + +Joy shone in her widely open eyes. Love hovered about her mouth, and +the passion that had stirred in him momentarily shrank back ashamed. +He pushed back her hair with a rough caress. + +"It's all right, _ma chère_. You needn't be afraid. I shall not be +here to advise you soon, and all I have to say now is, never imagine +yourself secure for an instant. Sobrenski is bound to discover this in +the course of time, and he has seen this sort of thing before, which +will not make him any more merciful. He has watched human nature long +enough to know that where there is what you would call love, people +want to create, they no longer want to destroy. If, as you say, you +have made no plans, then make them. And now you'd better go to bed, +unless you want to look more like a ghost than usual to-morrow." + +As he went out into the moonlit street Emile knew that he had taken the +first step on his _Via Crucis_. He did not call it that, for of +religion in the orthodox sense he possessed nothing, but he knew that +his feet were set upon the path where snow and blood would mingle in +his footprints. He was going back to Russia, where death would be a +thing to be welcomed and desired. He had listened to the tales of +escaped prisoners, and he knew that no words could exaggerate this +frozen Hell in which flourished vices unnamable, where men rotted +alive, and women strangled themselves with their own hair, or cut their +throats with a scrap of glass to escape the brutalities of a gaoler or +Cossack guard. + +He wondered whether it would be Akatui, or the mines, for him. It was +no use to try and delude himself that he could escape the police. + +He had got out of Russia by the skin of his teeth last time, and, even +if he managed to get his despatches safely delivered, there would be a +raid on the newspaper office, an arrest in the street. Of course there +was always the hope that he might come in for a chance shot in a +scrimmage, but that was too much luck to expect. + +He had nothing to wait for now after what he had heard to-night, and +the sooner he put himself out of the way, the better. He would +volunteer at once for the St. Petersburg mission. The usual custom was +to cast lots, unless some enthusiast begged for the privilege of a +speedy doom. By virtue of his long service he had a right to claim +that privilege. + +If he could go to-morrow so much the better. After what Arithelli had +confessed it would be dangerous for them both if he stayed. For a +moment the primaeval man in him leapt up, telling him that he had only +to pit himself against Vardri, and the victory would be assuredly his +own. His rival was only a boy, and Emile knew that if there came the +struggle between male and male, the odds were all in his own favour. +Arithelli had grown into the habit of obedience to him, and if he +wished it he could make it practically impossible for her to see Vardri +without his knowledge and consent. She would sorrow for her lover at +first, but he was a man, and he could make her forget. + +A thousand little devils crowded close, whispering how easy it would be +to get Vardri sent out of the way. A few words to Sobrenski, and the +whole thing would be done. + +His sense of justice reminded him that he least of all people had a +right to grudge her a few hours of happiness. If he obliterated +himself he was only making her a deserved reparation for some of the +things she had suffered. Through him she had joined the Anarchist +ranks, and through him she had taken vows that despoiled her of the +hopes and joys of womanhood, and transformed her into an instrument of +vengeance. She had apparently never realised that she had been in any +way injured, for she had never blamed him, and been invariably grateful +for anything he had done for her physical comfort. + +She loved Vardri, or imagined that she did. Emile told himself +savagely that he was a fool who deserved no pity, for he had had his +own chance and missed it. He had been with her by night and day, and +her life had been in his own hands all these months, but he had never +made love to her. He had only bullied her, taught her, made her work, +looked after her clothes and food, and, he knew it now too late, loved +her. + +She had never suspected it, and the secret should remain his own. Love +and love-making were two very different things. She did not know that +now, but later on she would, when she was ten years older, perhaps, and +then it would not matter to him, for he would be under two or three +feet of snow in a Siberian convict settlement. + +He had gone about persuading himself that she was still a child, and +this Austrian boy, this wastrel and dreamer, had awakened her. + +It was no use wasting time in sentiment and regrets. _À la Guerre, +comme à la Guerre_. The episode was finished. + +He would have work enough to divert his mind soon. There was nothing +left to him now but the Cause. + +He would see Sobrenski to-morrow, and hurry on all arrangements for +departure. + +After all, as he had once told Arithelli, in any venture it is only the +first step that counts. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + + "Would I lose you now? Would I take you then? + If I lose you now that my heart has need, + And come what may after death to men, + What thing worth this will the dead years breed?" + THE TRIUMPH OF TIME. + + +Three days later the early morning post brought Arithelli a letter. + +She sat up in bed eagerly to receive it, and with the heaviness of +sleep still upon her eyes. As she read, the lace at her throat +trembled with her quickened breathing, and her heart called back an +answer to the tender, reckless phrases. + +Vardri was idealist as well as lover, and graceful turns of expression +came to his pen readily and without effort. In many pages of +characteristic, hurried, irregular writing he set forth wild and +unpractical schemes for their future. + +He urged her to take the dangerous step of leaving Barcelona and +cutting herself free of the bonds of her allegiance to the Cause. + +If there was risk in going, he wrote, there was infinitely more risk in +remaining. + +If he abandoned his political views it was more than likely that his +father would receive him. Their quarrel and parting four years ago had +been solely on those grounds, and he was the only son, and there were +large estates to be inherited. + +If it were the price of gaining her he was prepared to renounce all his +theories, socialist and revolutionist. + +He had been able to save a little money lately, enough for their +journey to Austria. He was sure of a welcome among the officials and +work-people of his former home. The wife of the steward had been his +mother's maid, and she and her husband would give him shelter till he +could see his father and make terms. + +If things turned out well then his life and Arithelli's would be one +long fairy-tale, which should begin where all other fairy-tales ended. +If his father refused to see him then surely they could both find some +engagement in another circus or Hippodrome. + +She had the advantage of the reputation she had gained here, and he +could work in the stables again, and they would be free and together. + +Arithelli kissed the letter, before she put it down, and lay back with +her hands over her eyes, trying to think. She had begun her adventures +by running away from home, and now for the second time her only course +was flight. Even Emile had told her not to waste time in going. For +her it seemed there was never to be any peace or rest. + +If they could only find some haven away from all the world, she +thought. A forest or desert, some unknown spot where there was air and +space and natural savage beauty, a tent to dwell in, a horse to ride, +complete freedom, the life of her remote ancestors, simple, dignified. + +Once she had craved for change. Now she feared it. She knew what +Vardri had ignored, that the moment they both left Barcelona they would +become fugitives. If they were discovered they would be treated simply +as deserters from the ranks of an army. + +Instinctively her thoughts turned to Emile. It was he who must help +her to decide. She slid out of bed, and commenced her toilet, while +she recalled to mind the things that must be got through during the +day. There was a manuscript to be delivered to Sobrenski, an article +of Jean Grave's from _Les Temps Nouveaux_ which she had copied for +reproduction. + +She finished dressing her hair, and pushed the window more widely open, +for the sound of music in the distance had caught her ear. + +Though it was now autumn, and in England there would have been mist and +gloom and fogs, here the sun shone, and the air was sweet and mild. + +The parching, exhausting heat of the summer was gone, and everything +smelt fresh and clean, without any touch of winter cold. + +Down below in the Calle Catriona the music swelled louder and higher +till her attic room was filled with the dancing notes. + +Along the pavement two men walked slowly with guitar and flageolet. + +They walked turning in opposite directions, their heads thrown back, +their feet keeping step, two black-haired, supple vagabonds of gypsy +breed, who had come down to the city from their mountain home on the +heights of Montserrat. + +The guitar twanged merrily, the reed-like notes of the flute were true +and clear as the song of a thrush. The melody turned and climbed and +twisted, rose to a climax, and re-commenced again the same phrase. +Arithelli listened, hypnotised and bewitched, as she always was by +music. + +Something wild and primitive in her responded to the shrill, sweet, +insistent call. She had felt like that before, listening to the +Tziganes on the Rambla, and it was as if the heart were being dragged +out of her body. She thought of the childish story of the Piper of +Hamelin. She could understand now what had made the children follow +him with dancing footsteps, through street to street, on, on from dawn +till dusk. + +The guitar-player glanced up in passing and mocked her with laughing +eyes. An orange-coloured scarf left his brown throat exposed, and +there were gold rings in his ears. She kissed her hand and called down +greetings in Spanish, and stood at the window, watching and listening +and longing to run out into the street and follow as the children +followed through the town of Hamelin. + +All the joy of life was in those oft-repeated and alluring phrases, the +fall of water, the hum of bees, the shiver of aspen leaves, the slow +music of a breaking wave. + +She strained to hear the last faint echoes till all sound was hidden by +a turn of the road, and the brief enchantment was at an end, leaving +her to the realities of life. + +She dressed slowly, singing under her breath as she plaited her hair +before Agnès Sorél's mirror. Before she left the room she thrust the +loose sheets of Vardri's letter between the folds of her blouse, +leaving the envelope lying among the bed clothes. + +Late in the afternoon one of the "comrades" brought her a cipher +message, warning her of a meeting arranged to take place in the "Black +Hole" up in the hills. + +Half an hour after she left the Hippodrome she was in boy's clothes and +riding out to the _rendezvous_ to wait till the others appeared. She +had hoped for the chance of a talk with Emile, but to her surprise he +was not among those who mustered outside the town. She had never known +him to be absent from a meeting before, but it was not her business to +ask questions. + +While the rest of the company occupied themselves with long and +bloodthirsty orations, and hatched fresh schemes for the destruction of +their fellow-creatures, and the regeneration of the whole earth, she +went quietly about her duties as stable boy. + +When she had finished she set the lantern at the furthest end of the +stable, and pulling off her hat and black curly wig stretched herself +wearily at full length on a truss of hay in a dark corner among the +tethered horses. The ways of men she had begun to fear and hate, but +of the beasts she had no fear, for they were always grateful to those +who cared for them, and they also had suffered at the hands of their +masters. + +A lethargy had taken possession of her whole body, and her limbs felt +heavily weighted. She closed her eyes and sank inertly into the bed of +soft and fragrant hay. + +Her loose shirt of faded dusky red had fallen open at the throat, and +showed the dead-white skin. Her feet, in riding boots of brown +leather, were crossed beneath the dark drapery of her cloak. A leather +strap served as a belt for the slender hips that were more like those +of a boy than a woman. The horses fidgeted and stamped, and a mule +dragged at its halter with laid-back ears and vicious sidelong glances. +Sometimes a stirrup or a bit clashed against another with a musical +ring and jingle. + +Arithelli heard nothing till she awoke to find herself in Vardri's +arms, and being lifted into a sitting position with her back against +the wall. + +In answer to her sleepy murmur of surprise, a hand was laid over her +mouth with a whispered--"_Gare à toi petite! ne fais pas de bruit_." + +She sat up fully awake, and swept the veil of hair out of her eyes. + +"Oh! it's you, _mon ami_! Is it time to go? I must get up and see to +the horses." + +But he held her kneeling by her side. + +"No, no! Lie still, dear. There's time enough. Yes, Sobrenski is +still talking. Can't you hear him? You had my letter safely?" + +She laid her hand on her breast. + +"It's here." + +"Thank you! How long is it since I've seen you? It seems like a +century. Those brutes up there were driving me mad with their +cold-blooded arrangements for wholesale murder. The latest idea is to +explode a bomb outside one of the big _cafés_ when Alfonso comes here +next week to inspect the troops. They might as well leave him alone. +What harm has he done them? As long as they can see people flying into +atoms with the help of a little nitroglycerine they are quite happy. +Vengeance, vengeance! That is their eternal cry. Of course in Russia +it's a different thing. One must either be an autocrat and +slave-driver or a Nihilist out there, but here--they are mad, all of +them! They have just settled to draw lots to-morrow night. I wonder +who will have the 'honour' of becoming executioner? I suppose they +can't do it to-night because Poleski isn't here." + +Arithelli shook her head. + +"That is not the reason. They have given Emile other work to do in +Russia. He is leaving here very soon. I thought you knew." + +"Who told you that Poleski is going away? It may not be true." + +"Emile himself. Oh! it's true enough. I don't know when he will go. +He doesn't know himself, but soon." + +"Will you trust me to take care of you when Poleski is gone?" + +"I'll trust you always." + +"Promise me you'll come away with me. If you care you'll come. I'll +give up the Cause for your sake. I've told you so in my letter and now +I say it again." + +"So I've made you a traitor. Sobrenski was right." + +"My sweet, how can I live with violence and death and misery since I +have known you? I want to get away from men and back to Nature to be +healed. It doesn't follow that because I have grown to hate some of +the revolutionist methods that I am against all their theories. I +believe they are right in sharing things, in fighting for those who are +trodden down by the rich, but you and I can still believe all that +without becoming inhuman. Think of Sobrenski. He's a werewolf, not a +man! Promise me that you'll come soon. Let me take you away before +they make you one of their 'angels of vengeance,' as they call these +women of the revolution." + +Excitement and the feverish devil of consumption had turned his blood +to fire. He would take no denial, pay no heed to Arithelli's +entreaties for time to think, and to consult Emile. + +For once he forgot to be gentle, and dragged her head back roughly, +whispering passionate words, his face pressed against her own. For a +moment he saw no longer the goddess on her ivory throne, but a woman of +flesh and blood, warm, living, and fragrant and to be desired after a +man's fashion. + +Arithelli closed her eyes and leant back, yielding herself to his +caresses. The pressure of his hand across her throat hurt her, but in +some strange way it also gave her pleasure. Love, the schoolmaster, +again stood by her side teaching her the lesson learnt sooner or later +by all women, that pain at the hands of one beloved is a thing close +akin to joy. She felt incapable of any struggle or resistance, bodily +or mental. She had given her heart therefore her body was also his to +use as he willed, and feeling her thus abandoned to him all the boy's +chivalry was stirred anew, and the hunger for possession was lost in +the desire to serve and protect. + +Possibly if he had been forty instead of twenty-eight, he would perhaps +have demanded a man's rights. Being, however, according to the world's +standard, a fool and a dreamer, he chose to let the moment pass, to +refuse what the gods offered, to think of Arithelli rather than of +himself. + +"I'm hurting you, dear." His voice shook a little, in spite of his +efforts to control it. + +"No. Nothing hurts now. And I'm glad you love me." + +"I hurt you a minute ago. I was mad and a beast. Will you forgive me? +You are not frightened?" + +"No. I was only thinking of the future of tomorrow." + +"Let us forget to-morrow," the boy pleaded. "Can you not forget for +once?" + +"We have to-day, and each other. '_Aujourd'hui le Printemps, Ninon_.' +It's summer for us now, Fatalité! When one loves there is always +summer." + +He drew her out into the starlight as he heard the noise of the men +pushing back their seats and moving about overhead. + +Several voices were raised in angry altercation. + +He raged inwardly as he thought how in a few minutes he would have to +see her at the orders of them all, sent here and there, at everyone's +call, and forced to work without either thanks or reward. + +"Let me go in, dear," Arithelli said. "They will expect to find things +ready." + +But Vardri held her back. + +"Let them expect! Give them the trouble of looking for you. They keep +you up all night, so they can afford to waste a few minutes extra." + +It was both a foolish and useless protest and Arithelli knew that she +would pay afterwards for these snatched moments, but she did not grudge +the price, for to her they seemed worth the payment required. + +She was glad of the air too. + +She turned a little in Vardri's arms, lifting her face to the soft +night wind. The coolness and the dark were like the touch of a +soothing hand. + +The branches of the tree under which they stood rustled softly, and the +undergrowth stirred with the startled movements of some awakened bird +or small animal. + +A bat flew past, almost brushing them with its velvet wings. From the +marsh lands below the dangerous white mist hovered like a fairy veil. + +"I love the night," Arithelli whispered. "It makes me want to do all +sorts of things. Do you remember the story of Marguerite of France, +who heard the gypsies singing under her window and leant out and called +to them to take her away. I feel like that. Do you understand?" + +Vardri drew her closer. "I know, my heart. Tell me more." + +"There were some gypsies singing under my window this morning," +Arithelli went on. "I wished I could have gone out and followed them +'over the hills and far away' like the children in the old rhymes. The +Irish and Jewish people have always been wanderers. Perhaps that is +why I am fated never to stay long in one place." + +He answered her in the same mood. + +"We'll start at once, shall we, Fatalité? We'll saddle two of the +horses and ride, ride day and night till we come to Montserrat, and +there we shall find your gypsies and their tribe. When you come to my +country there'll be gypsies too, and they shall play and sing for you, +and you'll know what music is for the first time." + +"How foolish we are!" Her eyes were wet, but she was smiling. "If +Emile heard me talking like this he would be so angry." + +"He talked like this once," Vardri replied. "Poleski was young too not +so very long ago, and he loved someone." + +"Yes, I know." She found it almost impossible to think of Emile as a +lover in spite of the photograph she had found, and the words in his +own writing upon his songs. She knew them by heart. "_Emile à Marie. +Sans toi la mort_." And on another, "_Etoile de mon âme! Je vous +adore de tout mon coeur, ton Emile_." + +Perhaps it was the memory of this passion of his youth that had made +him kind to her. + +While they talked and lingered, Sobrenski was descending the rickety +ladder that served as a staircase. + +He had noticed Vardri's exit from the room, as he noticed everything +else. All the other men had been too excited to care whether one more +or less was there or not. In the hot argument that raged in the upper +room, the absence of one of the members of the Brotherhood was +apparently forgotten. + +Their leader, however, did not lose his head or his powers of +observation even when matters of life or death were in the balance. +Whatever he did was always done deliberately and in cold blood. + +All the time he had been apparently presiding over the discussion he +had also been thinking rapidly. + +It would be to his ultimate advantage not to interfere with Arithelli +and Vardri just now, but to let them be together, to see as much of +each other as possible. It was as well that Vardri should become +thoroughly infatuated, as then he would be certain to take some step +that would bring things to a crisis. They would be sure to try to +escape out of the country and hide themselves somewhere. They would +not be the first people who had tried that sort of thing before. + +In the course of his life he had known others who had flung the Cause +and their vows to the winds from fear or passion and tried to hide +themselves under some disguise. + +If they happened to be clever and have plenty of money their escape had +been fairly easy, and they had even been safe for perhaps a year or so. +Then just as they had begun to feel secure and had grown careless, the +vengeance of their own particular circle had overtaken them. There had +been accounts in the newspapers of a mysterious tragedy to which no +motive could be assigned, and for which no one could be brought to +justice, and that was all. + +They were all monotonously alike, these affairs! + +Sobrenski had said little to anyone else of his suspicions. + +No need to declare anyone a traitor till it was proven. Such things +had a demoralising effect, and treachery was an infectious disease. + +He descended the uneven rungs of the ladder, treading soft-footed as a +cat. + +There was no noise of talking, so of course she was asleep. _Sacré_, +these lazy women! So she could not keep awake even for a lover! + +The place was dark except for the glimmering light at the far end, and +he was obliged to feel his way to avoid the mules, who had an evil +trick of lashing out with their heels at anything in the vicinity. + +At the foot of the steps he trod on a riding whip, which he recognised +as one belonging to Vardri. + +In the dim circle of light cast by the smoky lamp there was only a +truss of hay disordered as if someone had lain upon it, and the +_manta_, and other things belonging to Arithelli. + +There was one thing more, a sheet of paper covered closely with an +untidy scrawl. + +The lynx eyes flashed, and Sobrenski bent eagerly forward. + +Bad as the light was it had not taken him long to recognise the writing. + +He held it close to the lamp, and smiled with satisfaction. + +Nothing could be better from his point of view. In the first sentence +there was all, even more, than he wanted. + +He smoothed it out between his pointed fingers, folded it, and bestowed +it carefully in an inside pocket. + +It was just the kind of thing he would have expected from a girl of +Arithelli's type,--to go about dropping letters. She had not method +enough even to put on her clothes decently; they always looked as if +they were falling off, and her hair as if it was coming down. + +_Sapristi_! A fine agent for the Cause! and one fit to be trusted with +important documents. + +Poleski must have been quite mad when he suggested introducing her to +the Brotherhood, and he himself deserved even more blame for having as +much as listened to the suggestion. + +A girl of that age, picked up from nowhere, and like the rest of her +sex a mass of lies and vanity. + +He held the lantern above his head, and peered round. Surely they had +not been so utterly insane as to have attempted to escape to-night? +All the horses and mules were there safe enough, and obviously they +would not attempt to walk. + +He strode towards the door, meeting them on the threshold, and in spite +of himself could not help being impressed by the uncanny likeness +between the two, in form and outline. + +They had even the same trick of movement. + +The thought of what he had found made him feel almost good-humoured, +although he took good care that no one else should benefit by this +unusual mood. + +"You have found yourself a little distraction, _hein_?" he said, +ignoring Arithelli's presence. "We are not up here for amusement all +the same. There's nothing done. I supposed you had come down to see +to the horses." + +Vardri strolled across to a rack, and took down an armful of saddles +and stirrups. + +"I have," he answered laconically. "They'll be ready in five minutes." + +Sobrenski turned to the girl, and spoke to her in an undertone. "What +are you wasting time for? See to your work." Vardri raised his head +from the adjustment of a girth. + +"I'm doing Mademoiselle Arithelli's work. There is no need for her to +trouble." His accents possessed both dignity and command. For an +instant their positions were reversed. The leader smothered an oath; +but said no more. He reflected that he could well afford to wait for +his revenge. The game was absolutely in his own hands if only they had +known it. + +He could see that they were both perfectly unconscious of the fact that +they had lost anything. When they discovered they would most likely +conclude it had happened during the ride up. + +When Arithelli had dragged herself up into her bedroom the sky was +lighting with the dawn. They had mistaken the road and gone a mile or +two out of the way, and one of the men had been thrown off and twisted +his ankle, and made another halt and delay. She drew the curtains +closely and lay down without undressing. + +Before she slept she put her hand into her breast, and felt the rustle +of the thin paper on which Vardri's letter had been written. + +It was not until the landlady had nearly battered down her door that +she stirred four hours later, and then she unfastened her blouse and +drew out instead of the original two sheets, only one. + +She did not feel particularly alarmed; supposing it had been put with +the envelope that she had left about in the morning. Her things so +often got lost, and it was Emile who generally found them. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + + "Must a man have hope to fight? + Can a man not fight in despair?" + "A Polish Insurgent," JAMES THOMPSON. + + +How he lived through his last day in Barcelona Emile never quite knew. +A strong will, strong tobacco, and plenty of work were all aids in +helping him to preserve his sanity. + +He soon arranged things with Sobrenski, and found no difficulty in +obtaining the post of messenger in the St. Petersburg affair. + +He walked to the Hippodrome while the _matinée_ performance was in +progress, and left a message for Arithelli at the stage door. + +Then he went back to his rooms in the Calle San Antonio, and began to +make the few necessary preparations for departure. He was not +encumbered with worldly goods, and his wardrobe was not extensive, so +there remained only to look through and destroy all documents, books, +or letters that could not be carried about or that might involve the +safety of others. + +Certain songs and pieces of music he put together in a pile, the rest +he tore across and threw into a corner. He would have no need of these +amusements now. Cultivation of the fine arts is not encouraged in the +political prisons. + +At five o'clock Arithelli entered the room, her clothes put on +carelessly, the grey pallor of intense weariness upon her face. She +had been working early and late during the past two days, and the +thought of the missing letter worried her from time to time. Sometimes +she felt almost certain that she had dropped it in changing from her +circus clothes, and that it had been appropriated out of curiosity by +one of the women who shared the dressing-room. As it was written in +English, they would probably throw it away at once in disgust, annoyed +at being deprived of the excitement of a romance or scandal. + +She knew it would be useless to make enquiries. If it had been left +there it had been done late at night, and the dressing-rooms were +always cleaned early next morning, and it would have been swept away +with the other rubbish. + +She had not said anything about her loss to Vardri. It would make him +even more anxious than herself, and she must bear the penalty of her +own carelessness. + +She hoped that after all it would come to light in some box or drawer +among her clothes. + +She came forward noiselessly across the polished, carpetless floor. + +"_Bon jour_, Emile! You wanted me?" + +He pointed to a chair. + +"Sit down! Your hat is on crooked--as usual! Are you so little of a +woman that you never use a mirror?" + +A gleam of fun lit up her eyes. + +"You covered mine up the other night with that horrible wreath and +streamers. I can only see myself in little bits now." + +"Well, sit down and I'll talk to you presently." + +Emile returned to the sorting and destruction of his correspondence, +and Arithelli lay back in her chair with a sigh of content, and closed +her eyes. When she opened them again he was standing beside her with a +glass of red wine in his hand. + +"Drink this," he said, giving it to her. + +"It isn't _absinthe_, is it?" she asked. "I can't see in this light, +and I don't want--" + +"It doesn't matter what it is or what you want. Don't argue, but +finish it. How fond you women are of talking!" He waited till she had +obeyed him. + +"You see that music? Well, you can take it back with you. I shall not +have any more use for music when I leave here. And listen to me now, +and don't go to sleep for the next five minutes if you can help it." + +He kept full control of himself and his feelings. If anything his +voice was a little more rasping than usual, and his dry words of +counsel and advice were spoken in his ordinary hard, practical manner. +An outsider would have found it difficult to say which was the more +indifferent in appearance of these two who had been so strangely +intimate for half a year, and who were now about to part. + +The girl was apathetic from physical fatigue and past emotions. + +She thought as she looked round the familiar room how impossible it was +to believe that she would never be there again after to-day, and that +Emile would never again come to her. + +The wine cleared her brain and made her blood run more quickly. She +roused herself to listen to what Emile was saying, and to answer the +questions he was asking her about her own arrangements. She thought he +seemed relieved when she told him of Vardri's scheme, and she +restrained a strong desire to tell him also about the missing letter. + +He gave her an address in the Russian capital to which she could write +during the next month, warning her at the same time to be careful in +what she said, to mention no names, and to avoid all references to +politics, as his correspondence would run the risk of being edited by +the police. Inside the envelope on which the address was written he +had enclosed forty francs. + +"You'll probably find a little money useful one of these days," he +said. "Keep it till you really want it. You can't wear more than one +pair of boots at once, and there are other things more important. I +don't want you to thank me. You can go and sing something instead, and +do your best as it's for the last time." + +Arithelli rose at once and went to the piano, eager to do something +that might give him pleasure. + +She could play for herself now. Emile had succeeded in teaching her a +few easy accompaniments, so that he could listen without distraction. + +She hesitated for a minute, turning over his big music book, and then +chose the popular song of the _café-chantants_ and streets, the famous +"_La Colombe_" with its lilting time, and mingled gaiety and sorrow. +One heard it everywhere, sung in Spanish, in the local patois, and in +French, by _artistes_ in the theatres, by factory girls, and sailors, +and market people. The _gamins_ and beggars whistled and hummed it in +the streets and squares. + +Emile walked up and down the room as he listened. He had made her sing +in the hope of lessening in a small degree the strain he was enduring, +but what had possessed her to choose this song of all others? The +words told of one who was about to set sail, and lingered bidding adieu +to his Nina, the woman he loved. + + "_Le jour où quittant la terre pour l'océan, + Je dis, priez Dieu, priez Dieu pour votre enfant. + Avant que nous mettre en route je crus revoir, + Nina! qui pleurait sans doute de désespoir._" + + +One could hear the rocking of the boat at anchor, the rippling of the +out-going tide. + +In the second verse the time was changed, the words were hurried and +insistent. + + "_Nina! si je succombe, el qu'un beau soir, + Une blanche colombe vient te voir, + Ouvre-lui ta fenêtre car ce sera, + Mon âme qui peut-être te reviendra._" + + +Her voice had grown weaker since her illness, and she sang with visible +exertion and faulty breathing, but it was still the golden voice of the +Israelitish woman, and there was the same _tîmbre_ that had attracted +him, and made him speak to her that afternoon in May at the station. + +And all that had only happened six months ago! When she had finished +he said nothing in approval, but he asked her to sing again, and she +understood, and was pleased. + +"You may thank the Fates for having given you a voice," he told her. +"It's better than a face. It lasts longer. No man having once heard +you would listen to another woman." + +It was the first compliment he had ever made her, but Arithelli did not +answer. Her back was turned towards him as she gathered together the +music. + +He could see that her whole body was trembling with repressed sobs. If +he could only have been sure they were for him, he would have taken her +in his arms. She was sorry he was going, perhaps, in a way, but not in +the way he wanted. She had become dependent upon him, and he had +filled a certain place in her life. If she made a scene it was +entirely his own fault. Farewells were always a mistake, and he had +been foolish enough to allow her to sing sentimental verses about doves +and people's wandering souls. She was over-tired and over-wrought, and +a woman's tears were more often due to physical than to mental reasons. +So he argued, trying to convince himself, yet knowing all the time that +Arithelli was not one of the women whose emotions are on the surface. + +Once before he had seen her cry, and now as then he stood apart. It +was for Vardri to dry her tears. + +He glanced at the clock. Of course it was wrong, but he knew by the +shadows that filled the room that it must be time for her to leave if +she was to appear in public again to-night. + +He must hurry the interview to a close, for he could not play his part +much longer. + +"You ought to be glad to get rid of me, Arithelli. _Vous avez la +chance_! What have I given you but work and grumbles, eh?" + +The soft, broken voice answered him: + +"I shall feel afraid without you." + +"You will have Vardri,--your lover." His tone was brutal as the blow +of a knife. The natural animal jealousy of a man had risen in him +again. When he was between stone walls, she would have the warmth of a +lover's arms; every nerve in his own body would know it, and long for +that which he had himself resigned. + +He would have long hours to sit and think the thoughts that drive men +to insanity or self-destruction. + +"Yes, but one can care in different ways, and you have done so many +things for me." + +The man drew in his breath sharply. The knife was in her hand now, but +she had stabbed unconsciously. He knew that she spoke quite simply, +thinking only of his care for her physical well-being. + +Truly he had done things, things that he would have given several years +of life to undo. + +Now he had that for which he craved,--the assurance that she cared, +that she would miss him. Still he did not delude himself. He knew +that what she felt towards him was not the love between a woman and her +mate, but the affection of dependence, of habit. Yet for such as it +was his soul uttered thanksgiving. Any other woman gifted with a less +sweet nature would have felt for him nothing but hatred, but in +Fatalité's mind neither spite nor malice ever found a place. The petty +vices of womankind had never been hers. He knew now that he had been +something to her, and that knowledge would make sunshine for him even +in the shadow of a prison. It gave him courage also to play out the +tragi-comedy to the end, to make a brave jest, to lie convincingly. + +"We needn't make each other eternal adieux, _mon enfant_. You must not +take all I said about Siberian dungeons _au serieux_. Russia isn't +quite as dangerous as it's made out to be. Of course the police keep a +watch more or less on the 'suspects,' but we know all their tricks, and +how to avoid them. Plenty of us go to St. Petersburg and even to Kara +and come back again. The Schlusselburg fortress is about the only +place we haven't succeeded in getting out of yet. It's fairly easy to +manage a false passport. You can write to me at the address I've given +you." + + * * * * * * + +It was all over now, and he was alone. He had taken both her hands for +an instant, and felt the convulsive clinging of the thin fingers. He +had longed to kiss them, but dared not trust himself. His words were +only such as might have been used by anyone of the Brotherhood. + +"_Au revoir, camarade_!" + +"_Au revoir_!" + +Her tears were falling still, though she answered him steadily enough. + +Then she turned away, pulling down her veil, and he saw her grope +blindly for the fastening of the door. It shut gently behind her, and +he was alone. He sat down by the table with its litter of books and +newspapers, and stared dully round the room which her passing had left +more hopeless and ugly than ever. + +Life itself would be more _fâde_ and ugly now. As well for him that +after to-day he would have no time to sit and brood. It would be all +stern reality soon, enough to cure him of lovesickness. + +First the work and risks of a secret printing press in some cellar or +sordid room behind a shop, and later on the inevitable police-raid, a +trial that would be no trial with the condemnation signed before-hand, +and afterwards the _travaux forcés_, the long marches, the agonies of +farewell at the Siberian boundary-post--not for him, for his were said, +but for his companions in misery--the miseries of the sick and dying, +the partial starvation, and the horrors of dirt and vermin. There were +sure to be some women too among the "politicals," and he would be +obliged to watch their sufferings. + +There would be no imaginary grievances in that life at all events. + +On the floor, as it had dropped from among the music there lay a +photograph, face downwards. + +He picked it up and looked back at the childish, smiling face, the +tiny, rounded figure of Marie Roumanoff. + +"_Tout passe, tout casse, tout lasse_." + +His mouth twisted into a cynical smile. She had been a true prophetess +when she had written that. + +He tore the picture across, and threw it upon the rest of the _débris_. + +The Roumanoff would never haunt his dreams again. + +Her portrait was easily destroyed. A flimsy thing of print and paper, +as slight and fragile as herself. + +Of Arithelli he possessed no tangible likeness, but he would have her +always with him, for her image was seared deep upon both heart and +brain. + +_The Witch_ sailed out of Barcelona harbour with the early morning +tide. Besides Emile and Vladimir, and a small picked crew, she carried +an assortment of strangely-shaped machines, things that looked like the +inside of a clock, and were full of wheels and cogs, firearms, and +ammunition, some copies of a revolutionist manual on street fighting +tactics, and other inflammatory literature. + +Their plan was to enter Russia by way of Finland, leaving all the +things there to be smuggled through by degrees. + +When they came to the frontier they would part company. Emile would +make his way towards the city that holds its trembling autocrat as +closely guarded in his palace as any convict in the mines, while +Vladimir was to go back to Spain overland to report success or failure +in the landing and disposal of their dangerous cargo. + +All day the two men sat together, talking, plotting, preparing for all +contingencies. + +There were no feminine voices to be heard on board the yacht now, no +singing on deck in the evenings, no hint of the presence of a woman, +either as wife, mistress, or companion. + +They neither discussed nor recalled these vanished days, though one had +hours of memory and regret, and the other was consumed with a savage +hunger for that which he had lost. + +Both had taken upon themselves vows that put them outside the pale of +human ties and affections. + +The Goddess whom they both served had risen, claiming their allegiance, +their service, and with the lives and ways of mortal women they had no +concern. The Cause had triumphed. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + + "Do you not know I am a woman?" + AS YOU LIKE IT. + + +Sobrenski was a man who wasted no time in making up his mind. His +success as a leader had depended upon his swiftness of action and +unscrupulousness, and his latest manoeuvres had turned out an admirable +success, upon which he might safely congratulate himself. + +The day following the resolution of the Committee, he had written to +Arithelli, telling her to come to his flat to receive instructions. +She would arrive in due time, and then he would explain things. + +He wondered whether she would faint or scream or perhaps refuse, but +probably she would be easier to manage now that Poleski was safely out +of the way. He had schemed that business well too, and could now spare +all his attention for Vardri and the girl. + +As to the amount of work they both did, they would be no great loss, +for he could easily supply their places by other human machines who +would carry out his desires without question. The majority of the men +who composed the circle were completely dominated by him, and incapable +of opposing his will or argument, and by some he was worshipped as a +hero. Callous of suffering in others, he was equally indifferent to it +for himself, and if he did not spare his tools he also slaved +incessantly day and night. + +The large bare room in which he sat possessed very little furniture and +no signs of comfort. There were a quantity of books piled on the floor +and mantelpiece, and the centre space was filled by an enormous bureau +heaped with a mass of printed and written papers, for besides his +extensive correspondence he was part-editor of one of the Anarchist +journals, which he enlivened by daring and sarcastic contributions. +The fragment of the letter that Arithelli had dropped, lay open in +front of him. He read it through again and smiled to himself. + +"I'll give up even the Cause for your sake," Vardri had written. +"Seeing how these men have made you suffer has changed my views. There +must be something wrong about our ideas if they produce this cruelty to +women. Sobrenski and the others are killing you slowly. I wanted +struggle and excitement at one time, and whether it meant Life or Death +it was all the same. There was no one to care. Now I want Life and +Love and You!" + +Another madman like Gaston de Barrés! How alike all these effusions +were, all in the same strain. They had found a pile of ravings when +they had searched among the property of the heroine of that affair. +These were the people who did an incredible amount of harm, who were +even more dangerous than the ordinary traitor. + +He pushed the letter underneath some others, and Arithelli had knocked +more than once, before he called "_Entrez_!" + +He saluted her with a cold scrutiny, telling her to wait till he had +finished. He invariably made a point of using no title in addressing +her, and never even gave her the customary Anarchist greeting of +_camarade_. He did not invite her to sit down, and she would have been +surprised if he had done so. There was another chair at the far end of +the room, and she did not trouble to fetch it. Her heart was still +further weakened by her illness, and she was breathless after climbing +two long flights of stairs. She leant up against the wall, breathing +quickly, and thankful for a few moments' respite. + +She supposed she was required to play "errand-boy" as usual, and to go +through the well-known routine: A crumpled-up slip of paper, which she +must hide in her hair or dress, a long walk, or a ride in the electric +tram if she happened to have any money, and then perhaps at the end of +it she would find the man for whom she was seeking absent, and then she +would have to wait till he returned. It was never safe to leave a +message. Everything had to be given directly into the hands of those +for whom it was intended, and she had spent many weary hours in the +rooms of Sobrenski's followers. + +She studied his face as he rapidly stamped his letters, flinging them +on to a pile of others that lay ready. It crossed her mind how Emile +had once likened a certain group of the conspirators to a pack of court +cards, saying that they were alternately red and black. + +Sobrenski's hair and small peaked beard were of a curiously unpleasant +colour, and his thin lips, pointed teeth and long sloping jaw gave him +a wolfish appearance. His eyes, deep-set and narrow, were too close +together to satisfy a student of Lavater as to his capacity for +truthfulness. The forehead alone was good, and showed reasoning and +intellect. He was about fifty, and like all fair men looked less than +his age. He was better dressed, and altogether more careful of his +appearance than most of the other men, though he spent nothing on +luxuries and never touched the _absinthe_, to which most of them were +addicted. The sole luxuries in which he indulged were Work and Power. + +"Probably you have heard a great deal of talk about spies lately," he +began, addressing Arithelli in French. "For some time I have suspected +one of our own number of treachery. However, one cannot condemn +without proofs. For these I have been waiting and they have now come +into my hands. I'm perfectly satisfied that the man I have all along +suspected is a traitor, and there is no need to delay action any +longer. I suppose Poleski has informed you of how we treat those who +are unwise enough to betray us?" + +"Yes." + +She was on her guard now, and stood upright, all her languor gone. Why +could he not say what he meant at once? She wondered why he had taken +the trouble to seek for proofs of anyone's guilt. Enough for a man of +his type to find an obstruction in his path. He would need no +authority but his own for removing it. She hated him all the more for +his parade of justice. It had not occurred to her that his speech was +a prelude to anything that concerned Vardri. If anyone was implied she +imagined it was herself. These men were never happy unless they were +suspecting evil of someone. The Anarchist leader found in her +incomprehension merely another sign of feminine stupidity. Her outward +air of indifference was as irritating to him as it had been to the +Hippodrome Manager. Sobrenski's blood had never stirred for any woman, +however charming, and Arithelli's type of looks was repulsive to him. +He loathed her thinness and pallor, her silence and immobility of +expression. He vowed inwardly that she should look less indifferent +before he had finished with her. + +"You do not appear to have the least idea of the identity of the man to +whom I am referring," he continued. "Your friend Vardri is not a very +careful person. He is young, and shall we say, a little foolish. It +is always risky to say or write anything against the Cause one is +supposed to be serving." + +"To say _or write_." It dawned upon her all at once. The piece of the +letter she had missed, had been dropped in the stable up in the hills +and found by Sobrenski. It was all her own fault, sheer rank +carelessness. Emile had so often warned her against her fatal habit of +leaving everything about. She never locked up anything, jewellery, +clothes, money or papers. + +Perhaps in the hurry of dressing that night, she had only taken with +her the first page, and when she was out her rooms had been searched, +and the rest stolen. Sobrenski would stop at nothing to get the +evidence he wanted. If she accused him of having taken it he would +simply deny the charge, and to seem anxious would be further evidence +that the letter contained something that would compromise either Vardri +or herself. In any case it appeared that the mischief was done. To +expect either justice or mercy from her enemy was out of the question. +She would try and fight him with his own weapon, feign ignorance, tell +lies if necessary. + +"Vardri? What has he done?" + +The note of surprise in her voice was well assumed and she could +control her face, but her hands betrayed her. Sobrenski had seen the +blue veins stand out and the knuckles whiten unnaturally with the +pressure on the black fan she carried to shield her eyes in the street. + +"Done?" he echoed contemptuously. "Nothing so far. He has only talked +and written. It is to provide against his doing anything important +that the Committee have decided upon his removal. There was a meeting +held last night and the voting was unanimous. Vardri has been +condemned as a traitor to his vows, and a danger to everyone connected +with our work." + +"Condemned without a hearing!" the girl flamed out. "_Mon Dieu_! Your +justice! What has he done?" + +"Have you a right to question the judgment of the Committee?" The +voice was like a scourge falling on bare flesh. Arithelli drew her +shoulders together involuntarily. + +"No!" she answered. + +"Yet you do it! These womanly inconsistencies are a little fatiguing." + +Sobrenski caressed his beard with a narrow, bloodless hand, on the +middle finger of which was a curious ring of twisted gold wire. + +He waited to see if she would make any further protest, but she set her +lips firmly and refused to speak. There was nothing more to be said on +her side. Evidently Sobrenski had found the letter, and when or where +it had been found mattered not at all. He continued: + +"The sentence has been passed and it falls upon you to execute it." + +The answer came back swiftly: + +"And if I refuse?" + +For once in his life Sobrenski was taken aback, and experienced a new +sensation, that of surprise. He looked at her with almost approval. +If he was cruel he was also courageous, and able to appreciate the +virtue in others. + +"You know what your refusal implies?" he questioned, more gently than +he had yet spoken. "You refused some time ago to carry a message. You +will perhaps remember that I gave you the choice between doing as you +were told, or--" he gesticulated expressively. "You were wise then. I +hope you will be wise now." + +Arithelli's thoughts were going at racing speed. No one could be long +in a room alone with Sobrenski without being impressed by his +overpowering personality. He affected her in a way that no one else +ever did, in provoking her to futile outbursts of defiance and anger. +She had never lost her head with anyone else, but he always made her +incapable of reasoning, raging one minute, and cowed the next. +Hitherto Emile had always been there to screen and protect her, to +stand between her and her enemy. She knew now why he had so often +hoped to see her in her coffin. + +"I can't murder! I undertook to work for the Cause, but not that--_Mon +Dieu_! not that!" + +"We don't talk about murder," Sobrenski sneered. "We merely 'remove' +those who have proved themselves untrustworthy. You undertook to obey +orders, I believe. You may contradict me if I am incorrect." + +He leant forward with the glittering eyes of the fanatic. "You talk of +murder and forget that to us human life is nothing. Do you think you +will save Vardri by refusing? Am I to suppose that he has infected you +also with the taint of disloyalty? It is your business to loathe a +traitor as we do. You wear your badge, but do you never read the words +on it? Poleski used to tell me great things of your enthusiasm, your +devotion. Now I am putting you to the test. You like to act a +picturesque part, it seems, to wear boy's clothes, to sing, to be the +only woman among us, to act the heroine. We do not want acting here. +This is Life, not the stage. Now you are asked to give a practical +proof of your loyalty!" + +The pitiless tongue lashed, and Arithelli shrank against the wall, her +hands over her eyes. There had been stories current among the younger +members of the Barcelona Anarchists that Sobrenski possessed the power +of hypnotism and did not scruple to use it. Some of the most daring +and successful outrages of the past years had been carried out under +his direction, and executed by these youths. He always made a point of +choosing men who were highly strung and impressionable. He was known +to boast that after three interviews with him he could make anyone, +either man or woman, into a will-less automaton. + +He exhorted, jeered, encouraged and derided, finally giving Arithelli +five minutes in which to make her decision. She did not keep him +waiting, though he could scarcely hear the murmured words of assent. +Her nerve was broken at last. She would promise anything, do anything +if only he would let her go. Dazed with fear and misery, she watched +him get up, unlock a drawer of the bureau and come across to her +holding out something. + +"I shall arrange for you to be together one night up in the hut. I +don't know whether you have any idea of shooting, but you can hardly +miss at such close range." + +The brutal words steadied her, and drove back the feeling of mental +paralysis. She realised suddenly all that her promise meant. Vardri +had given her love, and in return she was to give him Death! Her own +dawning love had enabled her to see more clearly what his devotion +meant. With the growth of a woman's soul she had also begun to +experience womanly emotions, fear, anxiety, the need of sympathy and +affection. + +She snatched the pistol from Sobrenski's hand, and he stepped back a +pace, throwing up his arm instinctively as she raised, levelled and +fired. + +The weapon clicked harmlessly, her hand dropped to her side, and she +stood shivering, and wondering at her own madness. The whole thing had +been done without thinking, as an animal driven into a corner turns, +snarling and showing its teeth. + +Sobrenski recovered himself first and laughed. + +"So you thought it was loaded?" he said. "Do you take me for a fool? +Allow me to congratulate you on your--failure!" + +Then changing his tone of sarcasm to command: "You must hide that +pistol carefully. Put it inside your dress or somewhere safe. I +suppose you would like to march down the Paséo de Gracia, carrying it +in your hand, and wearing a tragic expression,--and get locked up by +the first agent de police you meet! You have pluck enough, but you +should avoid these exhibitions of hysteria." + +He gripped her by the shoulder, swung her round, and pointed to the +door, "_Allez_!" + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + + "My crown is without leaves, + For she sits in the dust and grieves, + Now we are come to our kingdom." + "Anthony and Cleopatra," KIPLING. + + +Once more the procession of conspirators toiled on its way up the +irregular mountain path. The horses slipped and stumbled under their +unskilful riders, the mules climbed steadily upwards. No one spoke. + +As usual Arithelli led the way. + +Vardri, who had arrived last of all, rode forward to join her, but was +curtly ordered to the rear by Sobrenski. + +They should see enough of each other later on,--when it was time. + +Before they started on their ride he spoke to Arithelli alone, and gave +her his final instructions, and saw for himself that the pistol she +wore at her belt was properly charged. He never left anything to +chance, especially in important undertakings such as the present one. + +"There will not be a long meeting to-night," he said. "You will have +an hour free to do your work. You hear?" + +His eyes were fixed on hers, compelling an answer. None came, though +she bowed her head in token of acquiescence, and though he could hear +no word Sobrenski was satisfied. He had seen that shrinking attitude, +that mechanical gesture before. In the plot to assassinate General +Morales there had been a young Spanish student who had given some +trouble. He had developed a conscience at the last minute, and vowed +that he could not kill an old and defenceless man, that he would rather +die himself. + +He had died, and so had Morales, and both by the explosion of the bomb +that had been launched by the hand of the former. + +Sobrenski held rightly that those who meddled with politics on either +side must dispense with such useless things as scruples. + +The night was still and sultry, with a full moon hanging low in the +sky. The weather had been unnaturally warm for the time of year, all +day, down in the city. + +They were all glad when they had mounted above the sea-level. + +There was a little breeze met them, and the tired and patiently +plodding horses raised their heads. + +Arithelli drew a long breath of relief as she shifted in her saddle, +and glanced back to see if they were all in sight. + +The _manta_ in which she was wrapped stifled her, and the weight of her +own hair under the wig and sombrero made her head ache and throb +violently. + +As they rode she rehearsed her plans in her own mind, telling herself +over and over again the things that she must say and do when she was +alone with Vardri. + +To-night would see Sobrenski's triumph, his grand coup, and when it was +all over perhaps she would have peace. + +How slowly they all seemed to ride, she thought. She wondered how many +of the other men knew that she was chosen to act the part of murderess. +Some of them had been kind to her in a rough way, especially the older +ones. + +But even if they did pity her a little, not one among them but would +expect her to do the thing that they would consider obviously her duty. + +No one would raise a voice on her behalf, whatever their private +sentiments. + +The majority of them would probably look upon her as a heroine, for she +would have rid them of a spy, a traitor. + +She could only hope that she might keep her brain clear, her courage +firm till the supreme moment. + +Once in the course of that awful day her nerves had given out in +physical collapse, and her shaking hands had let fall the mirror of +Agnès Sorél. + +It lay on the floor in her bedroom, broken in three places. + +Her early days in Ireland had given her a belief in the omens of good +and evil, for in the "emerald gem of the Western world" superstition +runs riot. + +The faith in it was in her blood, though it needed no broken mirror to +tell her what dread thing awaited her, towards which she must advance, +urged by fate. + +She had only written one letter, and that one was to Emile. Now that +he was gone there was no one else who cared. + +Something told her now that his last words had only been an attempt to +comfort her, to ease her mind, and that she would wait in vain for his +return. + +Estelle would weep for a little while, and drink a great deal to drown +her tears, and then forget. They were nearly at the hut now. She +could see it, a grotesque shadow thrown across the silvered earth. + +She slipped off and walked, leading her mule by the bridle. + +Behind her were subdued curses, the rattle of slipping hoofs and +falling stones, as the animals climbed the last and steepest piece of +road, which ended in the plateau on which the building stood. + +In front of it was a single large tree, but most of the ground close by +bore nothing higher than dwarf shrubs and long grass. + +When the cavalcade drew up and dismounted, Vardri was discovered to be +missing. + +He had been late in starting, lagged behind the others and dropped out +of sight before they were scarcely clear of the town. Being the last +of the file his disappearance had not at first been remarked. + +Sobrenski refused to allow of time being wasted in a search. + +He ordered the rest of the men up into the loft, and Arithelli to her +work of unharnessing. + +He himself remained standing in the shadow of the doorway, his eyes +narrowed with anger, his thin lips compressed till they were merely a +line. + +Here was a complication that he had not foreseen. For the first time +in his life his wit and cunning had been at fault. + +He must have been mad not to have kept a sharper lookout on Vardri, but +he had reckoned he was secure with Arithelli as decoy. + +Could it be possible that she had been mad enough to warn Vardri? If +so, then why was she here herself? + +Either she had more courage or else she was more foolish even than he +could have believed it possible for a female creature to be. Women +took good care of their own skins in general! + +If Vardri meant to try and escape, surely they would have gone together. + +Perhaps his, Sobrenski's, detailed descriptions of the fate of others +who had attempted flight had made her decide that it would be safer to +remain and throw herself on the mercy of himself and his companions. + +He might have miscalculated the force of her attraction for Vardri, but +he felt perfectly certain that she was reduced to a state of mechanical +imbecility. She could not escape now at all events, even if she +suddenly changed her mind. + +He would give them both five minutes, and then if Vardri did not +appear--! + +He began to walk up and down outside, like some prowling animal +awaiting its prey. + +At regular intervals his shadow crossed and recrossed the patch of +light from the open door. + +Meanwhile Vardri was riding leisurely up the slope, reining back his +horse, and stopping at intervals to put a fair distance between himself +and the others. He intended to make a chance of seeing Arithelli alone +again, so he meant to wait till the whole crew, and especially +Sobrenski, were safely embarked on their eternal discussions. Then he +would slip in and help her with the animals, and live in Paradise again +for a little space of time. + +He had been to her rooms earlier in the day but she had sent down a +message to beg him to excuse her. She had a headache, and was lying +down, so he had been obliged to go away unsolaced, and longing for the +evening. + +Now that she had given him her promise to go with him to Austria, there +was only to arrange the day and the hour of their departure. For once +he was alive to the necessity for prompt action. There was her safety +to be considered now. When he had been alone it had not mattered how +anything was done or not done, but now everything was different. The +world itself was another place. He had already actually written and +posted a tentative letter to his father, such a letter as he could +never have written if only his interests had been concerned, but he +found any sacrifice an easy one now, even the sacrifice of pride. + +There was no reason why they should not start to-morrow. It would be +safer to get out of the place by going round by the Mediterranean and +thence across by way of Italy. + +Water-travelling was cheaper, too. He laughed to himself to think how +practical he was becoming. How strange it would seem to live in a +civilised fashion again, to not be obliged to look at every sou before +it was spent, to have servants to wait upon one; enough to eat and +drink, and the luxury of cleanliness. + +Yet the vagabond life had had its charm, too. He had encountered +kindness often, generally from those in more evil plight than his own, +and there had been flowers and music and sunshine. True, he had felt +horribly ill and dejected on some days, and his wretched cough was an +annoyance to himself and to other people, but at times he felt ready +for anything, and more energetic than any three of those lazy Spaniards. + +Love and Arithelli would be a sure antidote for any misery or disease. +For her he had created a House of Dreams, and now the dreams were on +the verge of becoming realities. Instead of the sand and stones of +that desert that men call Life, a rainbow-coloured future lay stretched +out before him. Sunshine and the summertime of love, all that he had +ever hoped for, were coming nearer. And joy was hovering near at hand, +till he could almost touch her flying robe. Soon he would hold her in +his arms, would possess her entirely. + +How different Arithelli was from all other women! With her there was +never caprice or fickleness. Whatever she said was his law, whatever +she wished to do was the right thing. + +Now he had abjured the Revolution, his father would be only too glad to +have him back, to see him married to a woman of Arithelli's charm and +breeding. There had never been any quarrel with his family, except +when he had joined the Red Flag party, and it was only natural that +they should quarrel over that. Love or the Revolution? There would +never be any more doubt now as to which he would choose. + +In the old days he had preferred starvation, and the freedom to act, +and think as he liked. He had gloried in being an outcast, in +suffering for the Cause. Life had been hard at times, but he had known +men of ideals and enthusiasms and there had been a certain fascination +in the excitement of being hunted. But now that was all over and a new +day was dawning for them both, for himself and for Arithelli. + +He spoke to his horse and stirred it into a quicker pace. + +They must be well out of the way and she would think he was never +coming. + +Inside the stable Arithelli, tall and straight in her scarlet shirt, +moved to and fro at her work, hanging up saddles and bridles, carrying +pails of water, ranging on either side of the hut the horses and the +mules. Tortured as she was with anxiety, she did not forget the wants +of her friends the animals. It came across her mind how once when she +had said to Vardri, "Let us see to the horses first," he had said half +in jest, "If I were a Spaniard I should be jealous. You always think +of the animals before everything else." + +One by one the rest of the conspirators tramped heavily up the ladder, +leaving her alone with Sobrenski, who stood with his back to the +doorway, following her with his eyes as she moved to and fro in the +shadows cast by the solitary lamps. + +Before he mounted the ladder in his turn, he came across the hut, took +her by the shoulder and spoke to her. "Be careful how you do your +work, for if it is not well done others will do it for you." + +She could not answer; she shuddered at his touch; her hands went up and +covered her face. + +Sobrenski turned and mounted the worn rungs of the narrow ladder with a +lithe, active step. He was quite sure of her now. She would not fail +to carry out his will. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + + "Il n'y a que l'amour et la mort." + + +For a few minutes after he had gone, Arithelli stood motionless, still +with her hands pressed tightly over her eyes, trying to command her +brain to work clearly. Her will and her limbs seemed paralysed. She +could only wait for Vardri's approach. Once she prayed an inarticulate +wordless prayer, that inspiration might be sent her to find a way out +of this _impasse_ in which there seemed neither light nor opening. + +Time was passing, and every moment was bringing her nearer the most +appalling destiny that could ever be meted out to any woman. If she +did Sobrenski's bidding she would be not only a murderess, but the +murderess of the being she loved most in the world. Vardri, who was so +different from all the other men; Vardri, who could never bear anything +to be hurt, or even to be made uncomfortable. She knew that it was +perfectly useless for both of them to attempt to escape. Someone was +most likely posted at the window of the loft, they would get no +distance on foot without being overtaken, and if she attempted to lead +out any of the horses or mules, the noise would probably attract +attention. + +Her hands fell to her side, and her head went up as she listened +intently. So he was coming, after all. In that undisturbed space and +clear dry air, sound travelled quickly, and she could hear the +approaching hoof-beats while he was still some way off. With the +knowledge of his approach the blood flowed again warmly in her veins +and courage and decision came back to her. Her senses, unnaturally +acute, told her that Vardri had now dismounted and was leading his +horse. She could distinguish his footsteps, and then the monotonous +regular footfalls of his mount. She ran out into the patch of +moonlight, casting a hurried backward glance at the side of the hut. +Thank God! the window was on the other side! + +Vardri was coming slowly towards her, his horse's bridle over his arm. +Before she covered the distance between them she made a gesture that +enjoined silence and stopped his greeting. "Don't bring your horse +in," she whispered. "Tie him up out of the way over there, a good way +off the hut. I'll explain presently." + +In another moment Vardri was beside her in the hut and had her in his +arms. + +"What is it, _mon petit_? There must be something wrong. Has +Sobrenski--?" + +"No, no, he has done nothing. It's just that I don't want you to be up +here too long to-night. I want you to do something for me. Will you, +Vardri?" + +"Do you think you'll need to ask me twice to do anything for you, dear?" + +He stood with his hands on her shoulders, his dark eyes gazing down at +her hungrily. "Did you think I was never coming? I stayed behind on +purpose. I felt that Sobrenski intended to prevent our talking +together." Arithelli snatched eagerly at his words. They had given +her the clue she wanted. + +"Yes, that's it. It's dangerous for me if we are seen often together. +I've done something so mad and foolish, Vardri, you must help me to put +it right,--you _can_. Those letters you have written me saying all +sorts of things against the Cause,--I left a piece of one about +somewhere,--I don't know where,--and Sobrenski found it. He has just +told me that in about half an hour's time before all the rest of them +leave, he is going to send on one of the men in advance. He will get +down to the town before us, go to my rooms and yours and collect all +the letters that have passed between us; and use them, as then he will +have what he has always wanted,--the proofs that we are what he would +call traitors. And when he has these proofs, neither of us will be +safe for an instant. It will mean death to both of us sooner or later. +But even Sobrenski can't murder us without sufficient evidence. He +will be obliged to make some formal parade of justice to put it all +before the rest of the society. If he doesn't get our letters he will +not have sufficient evidence." + +"But if we go away together to-night, as we intended? We've got a +start. We can take the best horses. That is the best plan." + +Arithelli shook her head. "Listen to me, dear, and believe in a +woman's wisdom for once. If we go to-night and together, we are bound +to be recaptured before we are out of Barcelona. By doing what I +suggest we avoid suspicion, we give ourselves breathing-space, time to +arrange a disguise, to think of all sorts of things that we have +overlooked. We have everything in our favour to-night, Sobrenski does +not know you are here yet. If you go soon you will get away without +his having seen you at all. Here is the key of my room. Go there +first, and you will find all your own letters in a wooden box in my big +trunk. That isn't locked. Open it and burn them all. Then go on to +your own room, do the same with yours and stay there. If they raid my +room, they will find nothing suspicious. You could pretend you were +ill, and that's the only reason you haven't come tonight, and I am here +doing my work as usual. Nothing could be less suspicious. Then when +they are off their guard we can escape." + +The minutes were flying. Death thrusting his lean face before the rosy +face of Love. Sobrenski's phrase sounded in her ears like the tolling +of a bell. "You have an hour free to do your work." An hour, only an +hour! How long had they been there already? Time and all else alike +seemed blurred. All her will must be concentrated upon one thing--to +make Vardri leave her as quickly as possible. Yet she dare not show a +sign of haste or emotion lest he should suspect something amiss and +refuse to go. + +"Dear, it is a wonderful plan this, of yours," Vardri was saying. "But +how can I leave you here alone with these devils? It makes me cold to +think of it." + +"You'll leave me because I shall be safer alone. You _must_ see that, +_mon ami_." She clung to him, putting up her face towards his. Every +art of womanhood must be used to weave a spell to send him from her and +to save him. "Will you not do as I ask you?" + +"I'll do anything in the world for you," the boy broke out eagerly; +"I'd have my hand cut off to save you a minute's pain." + +"I know, _mon ami_. And this is such a little thing, and so much +depends upon its being done quickly." + +What was that? A step on the ladder? She could not control a violent +start. No, it was only a creaking rung, a stamp from one of the mules. + +"But you haven't broken your promise to me. You swear to come away +with me soon?" + +"To-morrow if you will. Once the letters are burnt we are almost safe. +Only one day more. It doesn't make any difference." + +"It does to me, _mon petit_. Every moment, every hour without you is +time wasted." + +"But you'll go, dear, before Sobrenski sees us together?" + +"My sweet, if it is for your good, of course I will go. You're right +about the letters; I ought to have known it wasn't safe to keep them. +As you say, they've got no circumstantial evidence if those are +destroyed, and it only means a few more hours' delay in our getting +off. I'll go, darling. I'll get down the hills in no time. It's the +best horse of the lot, that one outside. But before I go give me +yourself for a few minutes." + +Arithelli let him lead her unresisting towards the corner of the hut, +and lay her gently back upon a truss of hay that he had covered with a +cloak. She had not the strength to deny him their last few minutes +together. Every fibre in her own nature, the lover, the mother, the +child, were all crying out for him. How gentle he had been, how he had +always cared for her. No one had ever touched her like this before, +spoken to her in this caressing voice. Emile had been kind in his way, +but he had been always rough. Her own emotions had always lain buried +deeply, and now they had been called to life she longed for the natural +expression of her love through the medium of physical things, by word +and touch. + +"Now for my reward," Vardri said. "I want to take your hair down." + +Arithelli bent her head towards him without speaking and he drew the +pins, and undid the braid with deft fingers, spreading it out till it +covered her as with a veil. + +"If only I could paint you! How beautiful you are to-night, but how +still and cold! Fatalité, tell me you love me a little, _mon coeur_!" + +She put her arms round his neck, laying her cheek against his. "_Mon +ami_, I love you!" + +He held her in his arms as one holds a child, rocking her to and fro. +"_Voilà chérie_!" he whispered. "After to-morrow I shall have you +always, I shall never let you go again. My dream is coming true." + +Arithelli listened with dry eyes and an aching heart. She was past +crying, and her brain felt curiously reasonable and alert. She could +not send him from her at once, yet with every passing second Death drew +stealthily nearer and nearer. Time swept on relentless and inflexible. + +"Perhaps you will be disappointed in me one of these days, find me +depressing and full of moods. I've always been so lonely, you know, +till I met you. _Je suis une âme detachée_." + +"Never again while I'm alive! I think of you and with you. When you +are happy I know it, and when you are miserable I know it too. +Fatalité! Fatalité! believe that I don't want anything in return. +I'll wait on you, work for you, lie, starve, steal, do anything. I +only want to know you're there, to have the right to serve you, to feel +you don't hate me. I couldn't go on living it I lost you. Since the +first day I saw you at the Hippodrome you've haunted me. I led Don +Juan down to the entrance to the ring. You don't remember? How should +you? I've never forgotten! You smiled and thanked me. You looked so +strange beside Estelle and those other women." + +He was kneeling beside her, his lips pressed against the hollow of her +arm, from which the loose red sleeve had slipped back to above the +elbow. Under his passionate words Arithelli sat like a being +entranced, unseeing, unhearing. The inscrutable eyes set in the rigid +face gave her the likeness to some carven thing. + +"Fatalité! Fatalité!" + +The sound of his voice came to her as from a distance. She roused +herself, and tried to smile. "_Mon ami_, I'm a little tired to-night, +a little nervous; I was thinking about the letters! I shall feel so +much safer when they're burnt." + +"I'll go at once--just one moment. Arithelli, you do believe that I +love you, and that I want nothing? See, I'll not even touch your hand +if it doesn't please you." + +The soft hand was laid gently on his. "But if it _does_ please me, +_mon camarade_--" + +"_Dieu_! How sweet you are! But don't call me '_Camarade_,' _mon +petit_. Those wolves above call each other that!" + +"I won't, if you hate it. Yes, that's really love to give all and take +nothing." Arithelli spoke dreamily. "Emile made me sing to him before +he went away; you remember 'L'Adieu' of Schubert? He loved it. + + "La mort est une amie, + Qui rend la liberté." + + +"C'est bien vrai ca! I used to sing it without thinking at one time. +How alike all those songs are. Always Death;--Death and Liberty!" + +"Don't talk of those things, dear. It's going to be Life for both of +us--after to-morrow." + +"I was thinking of poor Emile." + +"He was always fond of you. He'll be glad when he hears you're married +and safe." + +"Yes, he'll be glad. Don't talk any more for a minute, dear, then just +say _au revoir_ to me and go as quickly as you can. I want to be +quiet. It's good to be loved. How gentle you are! Emile was always +so rough when he touched me." + +Vardri hung over her, caressing her with infinite tenderness. Of all +men in the world he was surely the happiest to have known this sweet +and womanly Arithelli, the Arithelli that no one else had ever seen. +He kissed the heavy, closed lids and stroked back the hair from her +forehead. + +A faint intoxicating odour of jasmine hovered about her, for she was +Eastern in her love of perfumes. The stifling, dirty hut became a +Paradise while she lay thus in his arms. + +Once again they kissed and clung together. Though Arithelli's lips +burnt, they scorched with the fires of despair rather than with those +of passion. + +In silence Vardri helped her to her feet, and they walked together to +the door. + +"You'll come to me to-morrow," Arithelli said. + +"To-morrow we shall be safe. We'll be out of this hell altogether in +another day or two, _à la bonne heure_! You're not afraid, Fatalité?" + +"I shan't be--when the letters are safe. Take care of yourself, _mon +ami, et à bientot_!" + +"_Mon Dieu_! what pluck you have! How I love you for it! Go back and +rest, dear, till those brutes come down. Give me your hand again, +Fatalité, _bien aimée! gardez-vous, mais gardez-vous_!" + +She answered him steadily. "_À demain_. _Adieu, mon ami_. Ride as +quickly as you can, but lead your horse for the first few minutes." + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + + "Le jeu est fait, rien ne vas plus!" + + +He was gone, and Arithelli was back in the hut again, and now the worst +of it all was still to come. If Vardri was to have a fair start she +must wait out the hour alone, realising every moment of the time what +awaited her at the end of it. + +A mad impulse seized her to rush up the steps to the loft, interrupt +the meeting, defy them all and boast how she had schemed her lover's +escape, and laugh at them and their plots, goad them into shooting her +at once and finishing it all quickly. She felt that she could not +endure any more suspense and strain. Anything would be better than +this interminable, awful waiting in the semi-darkness and loneliness, +with neither friend nor lover at hand, no single human to take her part +or defend her. Emile had gone and now Vardri, and she must face +everything alone. If she waited Vardri would have perhaps half an +hour's grace and while they were dealing with her it would give him +still another few minutes, and every minute counted. + +She fought down the temptation, and began to move about, speaking to +the mules and, horses, taking down saddles and bridles. She must not +be too quiet, or they might suspect something, and come down sooner to +see if she were still there. She must pretend to be busy, play out the +play to the end. + +She unhooked the lantern from its nail and placed it on the ground, and +then stood still again to listen. + +The smothered hum of voices grew louder overhead. It stopped suddenly, +and she could only hear Sobrenski's slow, incisive tones. No doubt +they were listening to him as to one inspired while he preached his +gospel of destruction. Arithelli shivered, pressing her hands over her +ears that she might shut out the sound of that hated voice that had +bidden her outrage her sex. + +She stumbled towards the bed of hay, still warm with the impress of her +own figure, and flung herself upon it face downwards and lay there +whispering to herself over and over again Vardri's name as one whispers +a charm. + +Would he forget her one of these days and marry someone else? Had it +been real, anything of this that she had lived through during these +months in Spain? Was she still that same "Arithelli of the Hippodrome" +who had come gaily into Barcelona with her ridiculous dresses and her +belief in herself and her career? She had known an hour of love and +passion, and that had been worth all the rest Emile had always told her +that people were not meant to be happy long _ici-bas_. She must pay +now for her hour. The gods were angry and must have a sacrifice. + +After she had been out in Barcelona only a week, Emile had taken her to +one of the gambling-hells of the place, where the lights and mirrors +and gilding hurt her tired eyes, and the croupiers called incessantly +through the strained silence, "_Le jeu est fait_. _Rien ne vas plus_!" + +It was like that with her now, "_Le jeu est fait_." How that sentence +heat in her brain! She wondered if she were becoming delirious. Then +she was on her feet, and her hand went to the Browning pistol at her +belt. Sobrenski's figure had appeared at the top of the ladder. He +was shading his eyes with his hand, and peering forward into the gloom. +Only one of them there! The girl or Vardri, which was it? + +Then the whole place was in darkness, for Arithelli had overturned and +extinguished the solitary lamp. The excited whinny of a horse mingled +with the sound of two shots fired in rapid succession, a rustling noise +among the hay, a groan, and silence. Before he set foot on the ladder +Sobrenski shouted to the rest of the conspirators to bring a light. He +did not wait to look at the prone figure, but made straight for the +door. His business it was first to see whether his quarry were still +in sight. + +All the other men were hustling each other in a hasty descent. "_Que +diable_!" one of them said. "What is it now? A spy?" + +The man who had lowered Arithelli from the window of the house in the +Calle de Pescadores, made his way first to where Arithelli lay and +stood beside her. He could only see dimly the outline of a figure +which might have been either that of a man or woman. "Bring a light +here," Valdez called impatiently. "Which of them is it?" Though he +was a revolutionist he was still a human being, and he had always been +as sorry for her as he had dared allow himself to be, and he hoped it +was not the girl. Another man came up carrying a lantern, and flashed +the light on what rested motionless at their feet. Arithelli lay on +her face as she had fallen. Her hair streamed over her shoulders and +mingled with the dark folds of the cloak. The hand that still held the +pistol was flung wide. + +"It's not Vardri," the other man said. "Is it--?" Sobrenski cut +across the question. "A traitor," he said. "What does it matter about +the name? Get back all of you and see to the horses. There should be +two of them and there's only one here. We've got to find the other +one." + +With a sudden brusque movement Valdez knelt down, turned the limp body +over, and rested the head upon his knee. "_Pardieu_!" he ejaculated as +he let it fall gently back. 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You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + + + + +Title: The Hippodrome + + +Author: Rachel Hayward + + + +Release Date: November 28, 2006 [eBook #19943] + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ISO-646-US (US-ASCII) + + +***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE HIPPODROME*** + + +E-text prepared by Al Haines + + + +HIPPODROME + +by + +RACHEL HAYWARD + + + + + + + +George H. Doran Company +New York +Copyright, 1913, +By George H. Doran Company + + + + + +TO + +EDYTH AND ARTHUR APPLIN + +WITH LOVE AND HOMAGE. + + + + "Car vois-tu chaque jour je t'aime davantage, + Aujourd'hui plus qu'hier, et bien moins que demain." + (_Rosemonde Rostand_) + + + + +THE HIPPODROME + + +CHAPTER I + + "Aujourd'hui le primtetemps, Ninon, demain l'hiver. + Quoi! tu nas pas l'etoile, est tu vas sur la mer!" + DE MUSSET. + + +Count Emile Poleski was obliged to be at the Barcelona Station at five +o'clock in the afternoon one hot Friday in May. His business, having +to do with that which was known to himself and his associates as "the +Cause," necessitated careful attention, and required the performance of +certain manoeuvres in such a way that they should be unobserved by the +various detectives to whom he was an object of interest. + +He looked round, scowling, till he found the man he wanted, and who was +to all outward appearances the driver of one of the row of _fiacres_ +that waited outside the station. Cigarettes were exchanged, and a tiny +slip of paper passed imperceptibly from hand to hand, then he turned +ostensibly to watch the incoming train from Port-Bou. As he was on the +platform it would be better to look as if he had come to meet someone, +and as he had nothing particular to do just then it would make a +distraction to watch the various types of humanity arriving at this +continental Buenos Ayres, the city of romance, anarchy, commerce and +varied vices. + +Emile Poleski called it _l'entresol de l'enfer_, and certainly he was +not there by his own choice. It was the centre of intrigue, and to +intrigue his life, intellect, and the little money he had left from his +Polish estates, were devoted. To him life meant "The Cause," and that +exigeant mistress left little room for other and more natural +affections. + +In his career women did not count, at least they did not count as +women. If they had money to spend, or brains and energies that could +be utilised, that was a different matter. He had a trick of studying +people as one studies natural history through a microscope. + +It was all very interesting, but when one had done with the specimens +one threw them away and looked about for fresh material. + +The train came in, slackened speed and stopped, and its contents +resolved themselves into little groups of people all hunting with more +or less excitement for their luggage, and porters to convey the same to +cabs. + +The figure of a girl who had just alighted and was standing alone, +caught and held his roving eyes. The pose of her abnormally slim body +had all the grace of a figure on a Grecian vase in its clean curves and +easy balance. + +Her head was beautifully set upon a long throat, and her feet were +conspicuously slender and delicate in their high French boots of +champagne-coloured kid. Her face, which as far as he could see was of +a startling pallor, was obscured by a white lace veil tied loosely +round her Panama hat, and left to fall down her back in floating ends; +and she wore a rather crumpled, cream-coloured dress. + +She stood, looking round, as if uncertain how to act, evidently in +expectation of someone to meet her. No one appeared and she moved off +in search of a porter. Emile followed at a reasonable distance. Books +he found desperately dull, but humanity in any shape or form was +attractive to him, and the girl's appearance appealed to a deeply +embedded love of the exotic and mysterious. + +He watched with cynical amusement as she tried to explain her wishes in +French to a porter, who spoke only the dialect of Catalonia. Her voice +finally decided Emile on his line of conduct. Low-pitched it was, with +subtle inflections, and with a hoarseness in the lower notes such as +one hears in the voices of Jewish women. + +A woman, whose vocal notes were of that enchanting _timbre_, was likely +to prove interesting. + +He advanced a few steps nearer, saying in French, "I speak the +language. Can I be of any use?" + +The girl turned, giving him a comprehensive glance, and bowed slightly +in acknowledgment. + +"Many thanks, _Monsieur_! I know scarcely any Spanish. Perhaps you +would tell me where one could get lodgings. It seems rather hopeless +for this man and myself to continue arguing in different languages, so +if you would not mind--" + +When they were both in the _fiacre_ she did not speak, but leaned back, +her hands in her lap, her feet crossed, looking straight in front of +her with hazel-green eyes, expressionless as those of the Sphinx. +Count Poleski congratulated himself in silence over his discovery. +Here was a woman so unique that she asked no questions, did not +volunteer after the manner of most women a flood of voluble +information, apparently took everything for granted, and was in no way +embarrassed by himself or his company. + +In some respects she appeared a young girl, but her composure was +certainly not youthful. + +"So you're out from England," he said at last. + +"From Paris," she answered him serenely. "I'm Arithelli of the +Hippodrome." There was a girlish pride in her accents, and she looked +at him sideways to observe the effect of her announcement. + +"_Ma foi_! So it's that, is it? Then I've heard something about you. +I know the Manager pretty well. He said you were _un peu bizarre_." + +"_Peut etre plus qu'un peu_," Arithelli retorted quickly. "I see you +think he's right." + +Arrived at the lodgings she sat still, waiting in the cab with the same +apparent indifference while Emile wrangled with the landlady. At +length he came back to her: "You had better try these for a week," he +said. "They're forty _pesetas_. She will want the rent in advance as +you have no recommendation." For the first time Arithelli seemed +disturbed. + +"I'm afraid I can't pay it. I'm to have five pounds a week at the +Hippodrome, but of course I can't ask for that in advance. I had a +second-class ticket out here, and now I've only got four-and-sixpence +left." + +She held out a small blue satin bag, displaying a few coins. "Perhaps +I'd better go and explain to the Manager." Emile shrugged his +shoulders. Obviously the girl was very young. + +"On the whole I think you'd better not," he said. "You know nothing +about either myself or the Manager, and it seems you've got to trust +one of us so it may as well be me." + +When he had arranged matters he departed, saying casually, "I'll come +in again to-night about nine o'clock to see how you are getting on. +Don't do anything insane, such as wandering about the streets, because +you feel dull. It won't hurt you to put up with the dulness for a bit. +You'll have plenty of excitement if you're going to live in Barcelona." + +"_Tiens_!" said Arithelli to herself. "What manners and what dirty +nails! _C'est un homme epouvantable_, but very useful. But for him I +should have been prancing round this place all night, looking for +rooms." + +She dragged her trunk towards her, and proceeded to unpack the +collection of gaudy dresses that she had bought with so much pride at +the _Bon Marche_ in Paris, and which were all in the worst possible +taste. + +Perhaps she had been impelled to a choice of lively colours as being +symbolical in their brightness of the new life on which she was about +to embark. There was a green cloth rendered still more hideous by +being inlet with medallions of pink silk, a cornflower blue with much +silver braid already becoming tarnished in the few times it had been +worn, and a mauve and orange adorned with flamboyant Eastern embroidery. + +When she had tumbled them all out they showed a vivid patch of +ill-assorted tints. Arithelli shivered as she sat back on her heels on +the floor, and looked round the sordid room. The excitement of her +arrival had worn off, and the element of depression reigned supreme in +her mind. Certainly the apartment, which was supposed to be a +bed-sitting-room, but which was merely a bedroom, was not enlivening to +contemplate. No carpet, dirty boards, a large four-poster bed canopied +with faded draperies against the wall facing the window. There was a +feeble attempt at a washstand in a small alcove on the left, furnished +with the usual doll's house crockery affected on the Continent,--no +wardrobe and no dressing table. + +It all looked hopeless, she told herself disgustedly. Surely there +were better rooms to be found in Barcelona for forty _pesetas_ a week! +Either lodgings must be very dear or else Emile Poleski had meant to +take a large commission for his trouble in finding them! + +She was stiff and tired after the long journey and want of proper food, +and every trifle took upon itself huge dimensions. She was daintily +fastidious as to cleanliness, and everything seemed to her filthy +beyond belief. The universal squalor customary in Spanish life had +come as an unpleasant shock. + +When she started from Paris she had conjured visions of a triumphal +entry into her new career. Now she felt rather frightened and +desperately lonely, and the horrible room appeared like a bad omen for +the future. But, she reflected, after all, things might have been +worse. She had found one friend already. Certainly he had +disagreeable manners, especially after the artificial and invariable +politeness of the Frenchmen she had met while travelling, but at least +he promised to be useful. She picked herself up off the floor and +began to consider the disposal of her garments. Three or four wooden +pegs, the only accommodation to be seen, were obviously not sufficient +to hold all her clothes. + +Presently there was an interlude, provided by the advent of the +landlady. Her dishevelment accorded well with the general look of the +house; her slippers clicked on the carpetless boards at every shuffling +step, and she carried a half-cold, slopped-over cup of coffee. To +Arithelli's relief the woman was mistress of a limited amount of French +patois, and in answer to a demand for a wardrobe of some kind, said she +would send up her son. He was a carpenter and would doubtless arrange +something. She gave a curious glance at the girl's witch-like beauty, +a mixture of suspicion and barely-admitted pity in her thoughts. + +As to Emile's share in the drama she had naturally formed conclusions. +After a respectable interval her son arrived, and having delivered +himself of a remark in Spanish and being answered in French, proceeded +to hammer a row of enormous nails into the wall at regular intervals. +Arithelli sat upon her trunk, which she considered cleaner than the +chairs, and watched the process, her green eyes assuming a curious +veiled expression, a hank of copper-tinted hair falling upon her +shoulders. + +There was something uncanny in her capacity for keeping still, and she +had none of the usual and natural fidgetiness of a young girl. In +whatever position of sitting or standing she found herself she was +capable of remaining for an indefinite period. + +When the carpenter's manipulations had ceased she hung up her dresses +carefully, put the rest of her things back into the trunk, as being the +safest place, and sitting down again began to cry in a low, painful +way, utterly unlike the light April shower emotion of the ordinary +woman. + +Here she was in Barcelona, and the fulfilled desire seemed likely to +become already Dead Sea fruit. Supposing she got ill, or failed to +satisfy the audience. She would see her name to-morrow when she went +out in large letters on the posters of the Hippodrome: + +"_Arithelli, the beautiful English equestrienne_," and underneath some +appalling picture of herself in columbine skirts, or jockey's silk +jacket and cap and top boots. + +She had been crazy with delight over her success in getting the +engagement from the manager in Paris, and it had not occurred to her +that her appearance had had a great deal to do with her having been +accepted. She had signed a contract for a year; and looking forward a +year seemed a very long time. There had been opposition at home. + +Her father had said, "I don't approve, but at the same time I don't +know in the least what else you can do. It's Hobson's choice. You can +ride, and you've got looks of the sort to take in a public career." + +Her mother had been frankly brutal. Now that there was no money, she +said, she could not have three great girls at home doing nothing. She +had given them all a good education and they must try and make some use +of it. Neither of the younger sisters, Isobel and Valerie, were old +enough to do anything for themselves, so Arithelli at the age of +twenty-four had taken her courage, which was the indomitable courage of +her race, in both hands, and launched herself on the world. The +bare-backed riding of her early days in Galway had proved a valuable +asset, and there was not a horse she could not manage. + +Her slim figure seemed born to the saddle, and her nerve was as yet +unshaken. + +The man who had engaged her had been more than a little astonished at +the composure with which she showed off the horses' paces, and went +through various tricks. As she was young and inexperienced, he would +get her cheaply; she could be taught all the stereotyped acts with very +little trouble, and her morbid style of beauty would be a draw in Spain. + +There was nothing of the English miss about her appearance and few +people would have believed her to be only twenty-four. She had no +freshness, no _beaute de diable_. Her beauty was that of line and +modelling. Her quietness was partly the result of a convent education. +An old Irish nun had told her once that good looks were a snare and a +delusion of the Devil, and that hers would never bring her happiness. + +At least they had got her an engagement, and a circus had always +represented to her the very height of romance. + +She wondered how she could manage for money till she got her five +pounds next Friday. It was lucky that all her habits, and so on, were +provided by the management. She wished to-morrow would arrive, for she +felt eager to begin work, and see the horses. She had quite forgotten +all about Emile's promised visit, and was just pulling down the rest of +her hair preparatory to getting ready for bed, when he walked in +without any preliminary knock. + +"How are you getting on? All right?" Then after a momentary +inspection of the many garments that festooned the dirty walls, he +added: "I don't think you've got very good taste in clothes!" + + + + +CHAPTER II + + "All women are good; good for something, or good for nothing." + CERVANTES. + + +The next morning Emile made his entrance with the same complete +disregard of ceremony. Arithelli was still in bed and only half awake. +She raised herself slightly and looked at him with sleepy eyes. + +"Oh!" she said. "I didn't hear you knock." + +There was the same entire lack of embarrassment in her manner that she +had shown on the previous night. Almost before she had finished her +sentence she shut her eyes again, and leant back yawning. It seemed a +matter of the greatest indifference to her whether he was there or not. +Emile's interest rose by several degrees as he sat down on the edge of +the bed. + +"I didn't knock," he said, speaking English fluently enough, but with +the hard, clipped accents of the Slav. "I can't bother about all that +humbug. If you're straight with me I'll be straight with you, and we +may as well be friends. I dare say you think you're very good-looking +and all that, but it doesn't make any difference to me. You're here, +and I'm here, so we may as well be here together." + +"I'm so sorry," Arithelli replied, "but I'm always so stupid and sleepy +in the mornings. Do you mind saying it all over again?" + +And very much to his own surprise Emile Poleski repeated his remarks. +It struck him that there was something of the boy, the _gamin_, about +her in spite of her exotic appearance. That was so much the better and +would suit admirably with his schemes for her. It was better that she +should not be too much of a woman; for in the realms of anarchy there +is no sex, though comradeship is elevated to the dignity of a fine art. + +For chivalry and love making there is neither the time nor the desire, +and those who are wedded to _La Liberte_ find her an all-sufficient +idol for purposes of worship. Human life is held of small account, to +join the Cause being equivalent to the signing of one's own death +warrant. One would probably have to die to-morrow if not to-day, and +whether it were sooner or later mattered little. Emile's fierce +devotion to the cause of his oppressed country had been the means of +leaving him stranded in Barcelona at the age of forty, without hopes, +illusions or ideals. His estates in Russia had been confiscated, his +parents were dead, the woman he had loved was married. + +Now he lived in a dirty back street, in a single room, on two pounds a +week, morbid, suspicious, cynical, keeping his own counsel, owning no +friends, and occupying body and brain with plots, secret meetings, +ciphers and the usual accompaniments of intrigue. The Brotherhood +consisted of fifteen men, though occasionally the number varied. Two +or three would disappear, another one come. There was no feminine +element. An Anarchist seldom marries. To him a woman is either a +machine or the lightest of light episodes. + +Emile had not the least desire to make love to the girl whom he had for +his own purposes befriended. He was a quick and subtle judge of +character, and had seen at a glance that in her he would find a study +of pronounced interest. Also she might prove of some utility. It was +one of the tenets of the fraternity to which he belonged never to waste +any material that might come to hand. In the finely-cut face before +him, with its Oriental modelling and impassivity, he read brains, +refinement and endurance. Her hair was plaited in two long braids, and +drawn down over her ears, showing the contour of a sleek, smooth little +head. + +She had relapsed into silence after disposing of the slovenly meal he +had induced the landlady to provide. The only thing that seemed to +worry her was the superfluous dirt that adorned the cups. + +At length she spoke: + +"And what sort of a place is this Barcelona?" + +"_L'entresol de l'enfer_," answered Emile curtly. "What are your +people doing to allow you to come here alone?" + +"They don't know I am here. I ran away, you see. If I get on well, +I'll write and let them know, and if not--" + +"_Alors_?" + +"Oh, I don't know. But I will get on. Don't you think I ought to make +a success at the Hippodrome?" + +Emile ignored the _naive_ conceit of the last remark. "But what are +you doing at the Hippodrome at all?" he demanded. + +"I am riding," she answered with an elfish smile in which her eyes took +no part. + +"Obviously! What are you going to do about _dejeuner_? The landlady +won't bring you up all your meals." + +"I don't know," was the unconcerned answer. + +"You'll have to go to one of the _cafes_, and you had better let me +show you which are the most desirable ones. _Enfin_! have you any +intention of getting up this morning?" + +Arithelli yawned again. "I suppose I must go round and present myself +to the Manager. I'm to rehearse a fortnight before I make my +appearance in public." + +"Then I had better come with you," Emile replied with decision. "As I +told you yesterday, I know the Manager fairly well." + +An hour later they walked together through the streets on their way to +the Hippodrome. Emile was a bad advertisement for the secrecy of his +profession, for he looked a typical desperado. His velvet coat had the +air of having been slept in for weeks, and had certainly never been on +terms of acquaintanceship with a brush; and, besides the usual +Anarchist badge, a red tie, a blood red carnation flamed defiance in +his buttonhole. + +Under a battered sombrero he scowled upon the world; a dark skin, +fierce moustache, and arching black eyebrows over hard, grey eyes. + +There are few people who look their parts in life, but Emile might +without addition or alteration, have been transferred to the stage as +the typical villain of a melodrama. + +Arithelli had arrayed herself in the cornflower blue frock, which she +carried with a negligent ease, and she still wore the Panama hat with +the flowing veil. As a matter of fact it was the only piece of +headgear she possessed; for she had been reckless over dresses and +boots in Paris and had found herself drawn up with a jerk in the midst +of her purchases by her small stock of money coming to an abrupt end. + +Of her carriage and general deportment, which were noticeably good even +among Spanish women, Emile approved. The crude blue of her dress, the +tags and ends of tinselled braid set his teeth on edge. In his "Count +Poleski" days he had known the quiet and exquisite taste of the +_mondaines_ of Vienna and St. Petersburg, and like most men he +preferred dark clothes in the street. Later on he proposed to himself +the pleasure of supervising her wardrobe, except her boots, which met +with his fullest approbation. + +He noticed that she did not talk much but observed in silence. He felt +that nothing escaped those heavy-lidded, curious eyes. "Is everything +dirty in Spain?" she said at last. + +"How fussy you are about dirt!" retorted Emile disagreeably. + +"Yes. My mother is a Jewess, you know. I expect we notice these +things more than the dirty Gentiles." + +Her calm assertion of the superior cleanliness of the tribe of Israel, +amused Emile, who had been accustomed to hear the usual contempt of the +English-speaking races for anyone possessing a strain of Jewish blood. +So it was the Jewess in her that accounted for her haunting voice. + +The Manager was a hatchet-faced and haggard man who looked as if he +went to bed about once a week, on an average, and existed principally +on cigarettes and _absinthe_. The simultaneous arrival of Emile and +Arithelli roused him from his normal condition of bored cynicism to +comparative animation. + +Like the landlady he naturally made his own conclusions. + +"When did you arrive?" he demanded of Arithelli. Emile, not being +afflicted with a sense of the necessity for elaborate explanation, +removed himself a few paces and began to roll a cigarette. + +Arithelli stood her ground, listened to the comments on her appearance +which the Manager felt himself entitled to use, returned his cynical +survey with a level glance, and answered his questions with an +unruffled composure. + +It was arranged that she should rehearse every day for two hours in the +morning, and another two hours between the afternoon and evening +performances. For the first act she could wear a habit of any colour +she cared to choose, and a smart hat; for the second act, which +included jumping over gates, and the presence of the inevitable clown, +she would have to wear short skirts. + +"_They_ won't suit me," she said. "You see how long and thin I am, and +look at my long feet. I shall look a burlesque." + +The Manager glared at her. + +"I quite believe you will," he snapped. "I suppose you think you're +going to do the leaping act in a court train and feathers! Is there +anything more you would like to suggest?" + +The intended sarcasm was not a success. Arithelli considered gravely. + +"I don't think so, thank you," she said at last. "But if I _do_ think +of anything else I'll tell you. And I _should_ like to see the horses." + +She was filled with a genuine delight by the four cream-coloured +pure-bred Andalusians, El Rey, Don Quixote, Cavaliero and Don Juan. +They turned intelligent eyes upon her as she entered their stalls, +neighing gently as if they recognised a friend. Both the men +experienced the same feeling of surprise at her evident knowledge and +understanding of animals. In five minutes she had shown that she knew +as much about their harness and food as a competent groom. + +The astute Manager, upon whom no sign of intelligence was wasted, saw a +good opportunity for getting a little extra work out of his youthful +leading lady. He informed her that she must be down at the stables +every morning at eight o'clock to inspect the horses and see them fed +and watered. As a matter of fact the inspection should have been one +of his own duties, but the girl was not likely to cavil at any little +additional work that had not been exactly specified in her contract. +Besides, if she did, he could soon make it uncomfortable for her. +Arithelli made no objection. Though she hated getting up early she +would never have grudged a sacrifice of comfort made on behalf of any +animal. When all the business was completed, Emile took her to the +Cafe Colomb for lunch. + +Before they left he knew the details of her history. + +The big house in Ireland, with its stud of horses and unlimited +hospitality, and the rapidly vanishing fortune. Her mother, a Viennese +by birth, a cosmopolitan by travel and education, a fine horsewoman, +and extravagance incarnate. Her father, good-natured, careless, manly, +as sportsmanlike and unbusinesslike as most Irishmen. When his horses +died he bought more, keeping always open house for a colony of men as +shiftless and as easy-going as himself. + +As the children grew up the money became less and less. They were sent +to Convent schools in France and Belgium, then to cheap schools in +England. + +At length the final crash came, and the big, picturesque, rambling +house in Galway was sold, and they came to London with an infinitesimal +income partly derived from the grudging charity of relatives. + +Arithelli cleaned the doorsteps and the kitchen stove, blackleaded the +grates and prepared the meals, which more often than not consisted only +of potatoes and tea. + +Their mother, who hated all domestic work, and could never be induced +to see that their loss of money was due to her own extravagance, +retired to bed, where she spent her days in reading Plato in the +original, and writing charming French lyrics. + +When Arithelli ran away she had gone straight to an old friend of her +mother's, the widow of an ambassador in Paris. She had made up her +mind to earn her own living. She would carve out for herself a career. +Having decided that riding was her most saleable accomplishment, she +had gone round to the riding school where the managers of the +Hippodromes of Vienna, Buda-Pesth and Barcelona waited to select +_equestriennes_. + +Luck, youthful confidence, and her tragic, unyouthful beauty, had all +ranged themselves together to procure her the much desired engagement. + +"I made up my mind to get taken on," she concluded. "_Et me voila_! I +did all sorts of desperate jumps that day. I felt desperate. If I +hadn't got it, there was only the Morgue. I couldn't have gone home." + +Emile listened in silence, and drank _absinthe_ and considered. + +That night at a meeting of the Brotherhood he took the leader, +Sobrenski, aside and said: + +"It was decided the other day that we wanted someone to take messages +and run errands. Someone who could go unnoticed into places where it +would be suspicious for us to be seen. You suggested a boy. Fate has +been so kind as to show me a woman who seems to be in every way +suitable--or at least with a little training she will become so." + +"A woman!" echoed the other. "Are you mad?" + +"I conclude her to be a woman because of her clothes. Otherwise she +seems to be a mixture of a boy and wood-elf. The combination appears +to me to be a fascinating one. She is of good family, half Irish, +speaks three languages, asks no questions, and seems to have an +extraordinary capacity for holding her tongue. It is on that account +that I questioned her sex. Her appearance is excessively feminine. Of +course I do not propose to enrol her among us at once. As I have said +before, there are many ways in which a woman would be useful." + +Sobrenski pulled doubtfully at his reddish, pointed beard. "Does she +know anything about the Cause?" + +"I fancy not, but she appears to have the right ideas, and after I have +judiciously fanned the flame!--girls of that age are always wildly +enthusiastic over something--so she may as well devote her enthusiasm +to us." + + + + +CHAPTER III + + "Out of the uttermost end of things + On the side of life that is seamier, + There lies a land, so its poet sings, + Whose people call it Bohemia. + + "It is not old, it is not new, + It is not false, it is not true, + And they will not answer for what they do, + Far away in Bohemia." + "Love in Bohemia," DOLF WYLLARDE. + + +"I think," Arithelli said with deliberation, "that all your friends are +very fatiguing. They have such bad tempers, and do nothing but argue." + +"They live for the serious things of life," retorted Emile. "Not to +play the fool." + +"Thanks! Is this one of the serious things of life, do you suppose?" +She stuck the large needle with which she had been awkwardly cobbling a +tear in her skirt, into the seat of a chair. + +"What are you doing that for?" demanded Emile. + +"Oh, pardon, I forgot." She extracted the needle. "I don't think I'm +unwomanly but I'm not a good sewer. Emile! don't you think we might +have some music? I really am beginning to sing '_Le Reve_' quite well." + +Her education in Anarchy had commenced with the teaching of +revolutionary songs. Emile, who was himself music-mad, had discovered +her to be possessed of a rough contralto voice of a curious mature +quality. It would have been an absurd voice for ballads in a +drawing-room, but it suited fiery declamations in praise of _La +Liberte_! + +They were sitting in Emile's room now, for they made use of each +other's lodgings alternately, and there was a battered and rather +out-of-tune piano. Sometimes, after the evening performance, there +would be a gathering of the conspirators, all more or less morose, +unshaven and untidy; and while Emile played for her, Arithelli would +stand in the middle of the room, her green eyes blazing out of her pale +face, her arms folded, singing with a fervour which surprised even her +teacher, the lovely impassioned "_Reve du prisonnier_" of Rubinstein. +She was always pleased with her own performances, and not in the least +troubled with shyness. Also she was invariably eager to practise. She +shook down her skirt, went across to the piano and began to pick out +the notes. + + "_S'il faut, ah, prends ma vie. + Mais rends-moi la liberte!_" + + +Emile was sewing on buttons. Though he did not look in the least +domesticated, he was far more dexterous at such work than the +long-fingered Arithelli. In fact it was only at his suggestion that +she ever mended anything at all. + +"Do you ever by chance realise what you are singing about?" he demanded. + +"Of course I do. I'm a red hot Socialist. I've read Tolstoi's books +and lots of others. I got in an awful scrape over political things +just the little time I was in Paris. It was when the Dreyfus case was +on. Madame Bertrand was terrified at the way I aired my opinions. You +see politics are so different abroad to what they are in England." + +Emile agreed. The girl was developing even more than he had hoped. + +"Ah! This is the first time I've ever heard about your political +opinions." + +"You've never asked me before. One doesn't know everything about a +person at once." + +Again Emile agreed. Then he said abruptly, "Well, if you have all +these ideas you'd better join the Cause." + +"I'd love to! Shall I have to go to meetings with Sobrenski and all +the rest of them?" + +"Probably. But you'll not be expected to talk. You may be told to do +some writing or carry messages." + +"Is that all?" She seemed rather disappointed. Emile felt for a +moment almost inclined to develop scruples. She evidently regarded +Anarchy at large as a species of particularly exciting diversion. + +"Who are the other women mixed up with it?" she asked. + +"There are no other women. You should feel honoured that we are having +you." + +Emile stood up, having completed his renovating operations. "You want +to sing, eh?" Arithelli assented eagerly. "You will work?" Emile +demanded. + +"Yes!" Her eyes had become suddenly like green jewels, and she looked +almost animated. She was more interested in Emile's music than in any +other part of him. His wild Russian ballads sung with his strange +clipped accent and fiery emphasis, fascinated her. She was content to +listen for an indefinite period of time, her long body in a restful +attitude, her feet crossed, her hands in her lap, as absolutely +immovable as one who is hypnotised. + +Emile, for his part, was equally interested in her exploits in +vocalism, which he found as extraordinary and unexpected as everything +else about her. Her singing voice was so curiously unlike her speaking +voice that it might have belonged to another person. It had tremendous +possibilities and a large range, but it was hoarse and harsh, and yet +full of an uncanny attraction. In such a voice a sorceress of old +might have crooned her incantations. Where did this girl get her soul, +her passion, he wondered; she who was only just beginning life. + +He flung over an untidy pile of music, and dragged out the +magnificently devilish "_Enchantement_" of Massenet. "Try this," he +said abruptly. "It's _your_ kind of song." + +For half-an-hour he exhorted, bullied and instructed, losing both his +composure and his temper. Arithelli lost neither. "I don't understand +music," she observed calmly. "But show me what to do and I'll do it. +Mine's a queer voice, isn't it? A regular croak." + +"You've got a voice; yes, that's true, but you don't know how to +produce it, and you've no technique. You want plenty of scales." + +"Wouldn't that take all the rough off, and make it just like anyone's +voice?" + +Emile stared angrily at the exponent of such heresy, and was about to +annihilate her with sarcasm, when he suddenly changed his mind. After +all, she was right. It was what she called "the rough" that helped to +make her voice unlike the voices of most women. + +"Is that your idea? A good excuse for being lazy! If you don't sing +scales then you must work hard at songs." + +"Yes, I know." She put her hands behind her back and leant against the +piano. "There was a man in Paris, a friend of the manager. He heard +me sing once. He knew I wanted to take up a profession, and he offered +to train me for nothing, and bring me out on the stage. I was to sing +those queer, dramatic, half-monotone songs in which one almost _speaks_ +the words. He meant to write them specially for me, and I was to wear +an oriental costume. He said that every other voice would sound _fade_ +after mine." + +Emile glanced at her sharply, but her tone and manner was both +absolutely void of conceit. "Well, why didn't you accept his offer?" + +"I don't know. I suppose because it was fated I should come here. He +wanted me to make my _debut_ at the _cafes chantants_, but I didn't +like the idea somehow. He said my voice was only fit for the stage, +and would sound horrible in a room." + +Emile twisted his moustache upwards, and his eyebrows climbed in the +same direction. "So! Do you think then that your life at the +Hippodrome is going to be more what you English call respectable, than +the _cafes chantants_?" + +"There are the horses here. If I don't like anything else I can always +like them." + +Emile decided that the man in Paris had been apt in his judgment of +this fantastic voice. Clever of him also to have noticed that she was +Oriental. The setting of her green eyes was of the East. And horses +were the only things she cared about--so far. Like most people whose +lives are a complicated tangle of plots, Emile was not particularly +interested in animals. His life, thoughts and environment were morbid, +and the dumb creation too normal and healthy to appeal greatly to him. +He discovered that his pupil was able to play in much the same +inconsistent fashion that she sang. With a beautiful touch, full of +temperament and expression, she possessed a profound ignorance of the +rudiments of music. She could not read the notes, she said, but she +could copy anything he played if she heard it two or three times. +Emile found her astonishingly intelligent as well as amiable, and +though the music lessons were not conducted on scientific principles, +they produced good results. + +He would give her plenty of music with which to occupy herself till the +time came when she would be fully occupied in serving the Cause. As he +had said, there were no other female conspirators in their circle. +Sobrenski, the red-haired leader, detested women, and thought them all +fools, who generally added the sin of treachery to their foolishness. +Emile himself had taken no interest in any woman since he had lived in +Barcelona. He too had found them treacherous. Since he had lost his +little childish goddess, Marie Roumanoff, he had had no desire to play +the role of lover. If he wanted companionship he preferred men, for as +companions women bored him. + +But Arithelli was not a woman--yet. She appeared able to keep own +counsel, to do as she was told, and to judge by the way she rode, her +courage would be capable of standing a severe test. Also it had +occurred to him that she possessed the art of being a good comrade. It +would amuse him to watch her develop. At present she was full of +illusions about the charm of life in general. Everything for her +showed rose-tinged. Well, it was not his business to dispel illusions. +At present it was all "_Le Reve_," but after the dream would come +awakening. He took care to leave her very little alone during the +first few days, and arranged her time according to his own ideas, and +escorted her backwards and forwards from her rehearsals at the +Hippodrome. + +When she was free he took her for long walks up the hills where they +could look down upon the gorgeous city, which, as far as natural +loveliness went, might have been compared to Paradise rather than to +the Hell to which he invariably likened it. + +The beautiful harbour, the dry air, the sunlight and splashes of vivid +colour--everything was intoxicating to her. She said very little, but +Emile felt that she missed nothing, and lacked nothing in appreciation. +For himself the place must be always hateful, for he was in exile. +What was the golden sunlight to him when he longed for the snows and +frozen wastes of Russia, that sombre country so like the hearts of +those by whom it is peopled. + +One day he took her for an excursion to Montserrat, three hours' +journey from Barcelona. They left the train at Monistrol, and started +to walk through the vineyards and pine woods towards the famous +mountain that towers up to heaven in grey rugged terraces of rock. All +round, for miles, were undulating waves of green, here and there the +brown towers of some ancient castle, or the buildings of a farmstead; +and below on the plain the glitter of the winding river. They climbed +to the wooded slopes of Olese, where they sat down to rest. Arithelli +threw herself on the short, dry grass, with her arms under her head, +and drew a long breath of pleasure and relief. + +"I love all this; it makes me feel so free." + +Emile sat with his back against a huge plane tree, and rolled +cigarettes, watching her under his heavy eyebrows. She looked in her +proper place here, he thought. There was something wild and +animal-like about the grace of her attitude. + +"So you're out of a convent?" he said, hurling out the remark with his +usual abruptness. "_Tiens_! It's absurd!" + +"But it's true. Convent schools are cheap, you see, that's why we were +sent there. No, I'm not a Catholic. Most of the girls made their +abjurations, but I never did. They told lies there, and they spied. I +hated that. The nuns spied on the children of Mary, and the children +of Mary spied on the ones who were not the children of Mary, and--" she +stopped. + +Emile told her to continue. "I should like to hear more about +your--your religious experiences," he said. "Besides, it will do you +more good to talk than to go to sleep." + +Arithelli complied at once, with unruffled good nature. "Oh, of course +I'll tell you if you like," she said amiably. "I stopped because I +thought you would probably be bored, _ennuye_, you know." + +She described the nuns mumbling their prayers, and punctuating them +with irate commands to the children; the many and various rules, the +_Mere Superieure_, the food, the clothes, the eccentricities of +_Monsieur le Directeur_. She had the rare and unwomanlike art of witty +description, though it assorted badly with her tragic face and +unsmiling eyes. As she talked her voice rippled and broke into +suppressed laughter. + +"It was all rather dull, _n'est-ce-pas_?" said Emile, who felt more +amusement than he had any intention of showing. "You'll find the Cause +more exciting." + +Before any practical steps were taken to make her a member of the band +it was necessary to stimulate her enthusiasm, her imagination. He knew +that for all her outward calmness she had no lack of fire. The coldest +countries sometimes produced the most raging volcanoes. + +"It's the only thing you care about--isn't it--the Cause?" she said. +"Tell me more about it. As I'm going in for it I ought to understand. +Of course I like anything that's 'agin the Government.' All the Irish +have always been rebels and patriots. We've helped your country too." + +Emile did not require a second invitation to induce him to expound his +views. "I suppose you think we throw bombs about by way of a little +distraction?" he asked sarcastically. "What have we suffered before we +took to throwing bombs? Before I came here I saw men and women, old +and young together, shot down in the streets of St. Petersburg. +Because they rioted? No! Because they wished to offer a protest +against the brutalities of the Government officials. Are our petitions +ever read, our entreaties ever answered? There were other things too, +but they didn't generally get into the newspapers. Women stripped in +barrack rooms,--and that in winter,--the Russian winter,--and beaten by +common soldiers. Not women of the streets and slums, but women of the +higher classes. Mock trials held with closed doors, the crime,--to +have incurred the displeasure of someone in favour at the Court,--the +end,--Siberia! A student is known to be quiet, a great reader and +interested in the condition of the serfs. He is watched, arrested, and +on the false evidence of the police ends his days in the mines. +Entreaties, reason, appeal! Have we not tried them? Now we have only +one weapon left--retaliation. Sometimes we are able to avenge our +martyrs. The two fiends who guarded Marie Spiridonova were shot by the +members of her Society. She was only a girl too--about the same age as +you. We Anarchists do not serenade women and make them compliments, +but we think it an honour to kiss the hand of such as Marie +Spiridonova. She was tortured, starved, outraged, and came through +worse than death to be transported to a convict settlement. Now she is +in the Malzoff Prison. She will never see the world again, but it may +be years before the life is ground out of her by labour and privations. +Her case will soon be forgotten, except by a few, and thousands of +other women have gone the same road. The details of the tragedy may be +a little different, the thing itself is the same. One day I shall go +back to my own country. In the meantime I carry on the campaign here. + +"It's a losing cause. But if we lose we pay. We don't ask for mercy!" + + * * * * * * + +They sat together that evening at a _cafe_ on the Rambla, the strolling +place of the Spanish beauties, who promenaded there in an endless +stream, with waving fans and rustling draperies, carnations and roses +burning in dark, elaborately dressed hair. Tziganes made wild, witch +music. At the _cafes_ people laughed and drank. + +Suddenly Arithelli leant across the little table, raising her glass. +"To the Cause!" she whispered under her breath. + +For an instant the two pairs of eyes flamed into each other; then those +of the man, hard and steel-grey, softened into something like +admiration. Their glasses clinked softly together. "To the Cause!" he +repeated. "_Mon Camarade_!" + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + "These were things she came to know, and to take their measure, + When the play was played out so for one man's pleasure." + SWINBURNE. + + +A few days later, Arithelli was duly initiated, and given the badge of +the Cause, a massive buckle with a woman's figure, and on either side +the words _Honneur et Patrie_. At the suggestion of the leader Emile +had been made responsible for her behaviour. If she betrayed them in +any way his life was to pay forfeit. There was a fellow conspirator +working with her at the Hippodrome, a young Austrian of high rank named +Vardri. His father had turned him out of doors, penniless, because of +his political views; and he was now, half-starved, consumptive and +reckless, employed in harnessing the horses and attending to the +stables. There were two men under thirty, but the majority were +middle-aged. They all seemed to Arithelli to have the same wild, +restless eyes. They called her "_Camarade_," and "_Amigo_," and +treated her not unkindly, but with an utter indifference to her sex. +All their sayings showed the most absolute disregard for human life. + +"If a vase is cracked, break it. If your glove is worn out, throw it +away." + +If they heard that some member of the band had found his way to the +fortress of Montjuich there was callous laughter and a speculation as +to whose turn it would be next. + +Their meetings were held in divers places. Sometimes they would engage +a room at the Hotel Catalonia and hold what were supposed to be classes +for astronomy. Sobrenski was the lecturer, the rest posing as +students. If anyone came in unexpectedly it all looked beautifully +innocent--the big telescope by the open window, the books and papers +and charts, and Arithelli at the desk at the end of the room taking +shorthand notes of the lecture. + +There were seldom more than three or four _rendezvous_ held in the same +place, and more than once there were alarms and rumours of a visit from +the police. + +As the days wore on Emile found new reason to congratulate himself upon +his discovery of "Fatalite," as he had nicknamed the girl. She had +shown herself possessed of a charming temper, a fine intelligence, and +a most complete understanding of the law of obedience. + +She made no comments on anything she was asked to do, but delivered +messages and ran errands after the manner of a machine in good working +order. Even Sobrenski, who hated all women, was obliged to admit her +usefulness. + +She was on pleasant terms with everybody down to the strappers,--the +men who harnessed the Hippodrome horses,--who adored her. Even the +cynical Manager was impressed by her pluck and skill, though he +considered it his privilege to regale her with comments on her personal +peculiarities. + +The time arrived for her first performance at the Hippodrome. She made +her appearance in the ring in a turquoise blue habit, trimmed +hussar-fashion with much braid, and a plumed Cavalier hat, the dusky +shadows under her eyes accentuated, and her face powdered. The Manager +would not allow her to use rouge, so under the glaring electric lights +she appeared more than ever spiritual and unearthly. + +Her type, he said, did not require colour; and the people preferred +anything morbid in the shape of looks. + +Emile, who was among the audience on the first night, thought she +looked like a thorough-bred racer as she made a dignified entrance to a +clanging stately gavotte crashed out by the band. He had given her +dresser a couple of _pesetas_ to have her well turned out, and the +result was exceedingly satisfactory even to his critical eyes. + +Her little head with its piled red hair was carried marvellously high, +and she swayed daintily on the back of the high-stepping Don Juan. She +bowed gravely to the various parts of the house, but she had no +stereotyped smile either for the boxes or for the lower seats. Her +slender figure gave the impression of great strength for a young girl. + +"Steel in a velvet sheath, _ma foi_! Body and soul!" was Emile's +inward comment. "So much the better for the Cause." + +A Spanish crowd usually gives but a languid reception unless roused by +something either horrible or sensational, but her bizarre appearance +had the effect which the Manager had foreseen. + +In the second act she apparently changed her personality with her +clothes, and whirled in astride over two horses with neither saddle nor +bridle, guiding them and keeping them together by the pressure of her +feet. She had full skirts, to her knees, of white satin, and +pearl-coloured silk stockings. Her satin bodice was cut heart-shaped +and there was a high jewelled band round her long throat. Her hair +hung down in a thick plait, tied with a bow of blue velvet. + +The horses tore round the ring at full gallop; she jumped over gates +and through hoops, and ended her performance by leaping off one of the +horses which was caught by a groom, and flinging herself on to the +other, face to the tail, for a final reckless canter round the arena. + +The brilliance and nerve with which she carried through the trick, +roused the enthusiasm it deserved, and Arithelli passed out panting and +triumphant to the accompaniment of music and cheers, and showered roses +and carnations. + +The part of her work that she most abhorred was the eight o'clock +compulsory visit to the stables. A circus life is not prone to +encourage the virtue of early rising, and she was by nature indolent in +a panther-like fashion, and was never in bed till half-past one or two +in the morning. If she had known a little more she could have +protested on the grounds that her position of leading lady did not +involve the feeding of her animals. She did it as she had done other +things without complaint, and presently Emile came to the rescue. He +knew as much about the habits and requirements of horses as he knew +about shop-keeping, being entirely ignorant of both. + +"How much are the brutes to have?" he asked of the Manager. "And what +on earth do you give them?" + +"Oh, I generally give 'em fish," was the sarcastic answer. "What are +you doing here, Poleski? This is the girl's business. I thought she +was keen on her horses." + +"She is also keen on her bed," Emile answered. "She does her share of +work." + +The Manager grumbled, but the new arrangement was allowed to stand. + +Arithelli did not consort with the other female members of the +Hippodrome. + +The one exception was Estelle the dancer, with whom Emile allowed her a +slight acquaintance. He neither approved of women in general nor of +their friendships. Estelle was the _bonne amie_ of the sardonic +Manager, who occasionally beat her, after which ceremony it was her +custom to drink _absinthe_. Sometimes, for this reason, she was unable +to appear on the stage. She would come into Arithelli's dressing room +and weep, and smoke innumerable cigarettes, and when things had been +going well, they made a _partie carree_ at the Cafe Colomb. + +By way of advertising herself and her performance Arithelli was given a +high, smartly painted carriage in which she drove in the fashionable +promenade of Barcelona, the Paseo de Gracia, with three of the +cream-coloured horses lightly harnessed and jingling with bells. + +On these occasions Emile played the part of lady's maid and escort. He +selected her dress, fastened it, scolded her for putting her hat on +crooked, and laced up her preposterously high boots. + +Then he adjusted the battered sombrero, lit a cigarette and drove +beside her, scowling as usual. + +The appearance of both was sufficiently arresting. Arithelli drove as +she rode, recklessly, and yet with science. Her thin wrists and long +girlish arms were capable of controlling the most fiery animal. + +She had made Emile her banker, and always handed over to him her weekly +salary, some of which went to the expenses of the Cause as well as a +certain portion in fines, for she had no idea of time and was never +ready for anything. + +Nearly every night before she was half-way into her habit the call-boy +came screaming down the passage, calling with the free-and-easy manners +prevalent behind the scenes: + +"Hurry up, Arithelli, or there'll be a row!" + +The question of a disguise for her was discussed at one of the meetings +of the Brotherhood, and it was decided that she should appear as a boy. +Her height would be an advantage, and her long hands and feet would +also help the illusion in a country where every woman possesses small, +plump and highly arched extremities. Besides, when they had to ride +out to places at night, she would be less noticeable. One girl among a +crowd of men might attract suspicion, though in the daytime she was +more useful as a woman. + +It naturally fell upon Emile to provide the details of her +transformation, and he presented himself at her lodgings one afternoon, +bearing an ungainly parcel which he deposited on the table. + +"You'd better try these on," he said. "There is a complete suit of +boy's clothes, a wig and everything you'll want. You will have to put +your own hair out of the way somehow." + +It was the drowsy hour of the _siesta_, when no one moved out if he +could help it, and all work and play were at a standstill. Arithelli +was sitting, as was her custom, absorbed in her own thoughts and +dreams. For a moment she stared with uncomprehending eyes. She felt +tired, she wanted to be alone, and she had not heard a single word. +Emile shrugged irritably and repeated his remarks. + +"Oh, yes," said Arithelli. She rose slowly, took up the parcel and +retired into seclusion behind the curtains, with which she had screened +off the alcove and so made herself an improvised dressing room. The +rest of the apartment she had altered to look as much like a sitting +room as possible, with the exception of the obtrusive four-poster, +which could not be hidden and which upon entering appeared the most +salient feature visible. There was some tawdry jewellery lying about, +and several pairs of the pale-hued Parisian boots she invariably +affected. Emile made and lighted the inevitable cigarette, while he +fidgeted about, turning over the few French and English novels he could +find with an air of disapproval; for her taste in literature did not +commend itself to him any more than did her taste in finery. + +At one period of his life he had steeped himself in books, knowing the +poetry and romance of nearly every nation. Now he disliked them. If +she wanted books he would choose them for her. She would read the +love-songs of the revolutionists to their goddess Liberty, the haunting +words of those who had suffered for a time, and escaped the Siberian +Ice-Hell. The fanaticism of his race and temperament flamed into his +cold eyes as he sat and brooded, and he hardly noticed that Arithelli +had slid into the room in her noiseless fashion, and was standing +before him. + +Emile, though little given to being astonished, marvelled at the +unconcern with which she submitted to his critical inspection. She +stood and walked easily, and looked neither uncomfortable nor unnatural +in her boyish array, in which the perfect poise of her body showed +triumphantly. + +The black wig, under which she had skilfully hidden her red hair, made +her look more pale than ever. The wide sombrero, tilted backwards, +made a picturesque framing to her oval face, and the _manta_ or heavy +cloak, worn by all Spaniards at night, hung, loosely draped over her +left shoulder. Emile promptly twisted it off. + +"This won't do," he said. "The _manta_ is never worn like that. +Besides it's not enough of a disguise. Watch how I put it on." With a +few rough yet dexterous movements he arranged the dark folds so as to +hide her shoulders and the upper part of her body. + +Then he stood back a few paces. "But your green eyes! A disguise for +_them_ will be impossible. One sees them always." + + "_Les yeux verts. + Vont a l'enfer!_" + +"Do you know that, _mon enfant_?" + +"I've heard it before. They've already come as far as _l'entresol_, +according to you." + +Emile grinned. He enjoyed skirmishing, and felt that he had met his +match in words. Before he could think of another retort she added: + +"I can see in the dark with my green eyes, so they're useful at all +events." + +"Then you'll find plenty of use for them when you're working for +us--and the Cause. When you have to ride upon the hills at night you +will find them of great service. You'll have to ride astride too, so +it is better for you in every way to be dressed like this." + +Presently he left her with a few words of praise for her successful +appearance. His first feeling of surprise at her coolness still +lingered. He had expected a scene in a quiet way, a refusal, at least +expostulation. All his first impressions of her were being verified. +Well, he hoped she would continue in her present ways. Undoubtedly she +was an original, certainly she gave no trouble. + +When she heard the street door shut Arithelli sat down, hiding her face +in her hands. Once she shivered involuntarily. Directly she found +herself alone the mask of her assumed nonchalance had fallen suddenly. +As long as there was an audience she had worn a disguise on her soul as +well as her body. She had been feeling moody and depressed all day, +and this last episode was the climax. Everything she had was to be her +own no longer. It was all to be for the Cause--even her green eyes! +What power it possessed over these men. They admitted it to be a +losing Cause, yet it was all they thought about, the sole thing for +which they lived--and died. She had not thought it would be like this +at first. + +She remembered how gaily she had discoursed of Tolstoi and Prince +Kropotkin, and of their writings which had revealed to her a new world. +Her first interview with Sobrenski had shown the relentlessness of the +man she was to serve. She felt that he would sacrifice all alike, men +and women, to his idol, and would never stop to care whether the victim +were willing or unwilling. The fact of her sex would gain her no +consideration at his hands. Lately she had been impressed with the +sensation of being surrounded by an impassable barrier drawn round her, +a circle that was gradually becoming narrowed. She had begun to know +that she was being incessantly watched. If Emile were occupied with +the business of the Society, and could not fetch her from the +Hippodrome himself, he never failed to send an understudy in the shape +of one of his allies, generally one of the older men. When she emerged +from the performers' entrance a silent figure would come forward to +meet her. Often they exchanged no words throughout the walk home, but +she was never left till her own door was reached. + +If she went anywhere to please herself, to a shop, or to see Estelle, +she was expected to give a full account of her doings. It was an +understood thing that she should not go to the _cafes_ or public +gardens alone, nor speak to anyone not already known and approved by +Emile. With all these conditions she had complied. Already one +illusion had vanished. She had thought to find freedom in Barcelona. + +She had indeed found "_La Liberte_." + +But the Fates had chosen to be in an ironical mood, and while making +the discovery she had herself become a slave. In all her day there was +no hour that she could call her own. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + "I have gained her! Her Soul's mine!" + BROWNING. + + +"You slouched last night in the ring, Fatalite," Emile said. + +Arithelli flung up her head. "I didn't!" + +"You looked like a monkey on a stick," proceeded Emile stolidly. "You +were all hunched up. I wonder Don Juan didn't put you off his back on +to the tan." + +"Don Juan knows better! You see animals are usually more kind than +people." + +She was too proud to admit that the long hours, hard work, and want of +proper food and sleep had lately given her furious backaches, which +were a thing unknown to her before, and a cause of bitter resentment. +She had a healthy distaste for illness either in theory or practice. +That night she sat Don Juan erect as a lance, passing Emile in his +accustomed place in the lower tier of seats with a shrug and scornful +eyebrows. + +She had felt more than usually inclined to play the coward during the +last few weeks. The heat, worry and over-fatigue had begun, as they +must have done eventually, to affect her nerves. When she had felt +more than usually depressed and listless Emile had taken her to one of +the _cafes_ and given her _absinthe_ which had made her feel recklessly +well for the moment, and ten times more miserable the next day. He had +also advised her to smoke, saying that it was good for people who had +whims and fancies, but smoking did not appeal to her, and she never +envied the Spanish woman her eternal cigarette. + +She felt as if she would like to sleep, sleep for an indefinite period. +She was wearied to death of The Cause, and the Brotherhood, with their +intrigues and plots and interminable cipher messages. + +She had been three months in Barcelona, and now fully justified Emile's +name for her. Tragic as a veritable mask of Fate, she looked ten years +older than the girl he had met on the station platform. + +The longer she worked for the Cause the more she realised that Anarchy +was no plaything for spare moments, but a juggling with Life and Death. + +At first they had given her but little to do--a few documents to copy, +some cipher messages to carry. Then the demands upon her leisure had +become more frequent. She found she was expected to make no demur at +being sent for miles, and once or twice there had been dreadful +midnight excursions to a hut up in the mountains. + +The realisation of the folly of trying to escape from the burden that +had been laid upon her affected her nerve and seat during her +performances in the ring. + +For the first time she felt her courage failing her when she entered +Sobrenski's house in answer to his summons. When he had given her the +despatch she made an objection on the grounds that the time taken in +conveying it would absorb her few hours of rest. + +"It's too far," she protested. "I can't go there to-day." + +"Then you can go to-morrow," answered Sobrenski in the accents of +finality. He had never cared about the girl's inclusion in their +plots, and took his revenge in exacting from her considerably more than +his pound of flesh. + +Moreover he suspected her of treachery, and disliked her for the +quickness of her wit in argument. + +Even his unseeing eyes told him she looked both ill and haggard, but if +she were there, well, she must work like the rest of them. + +Arithelli hesitated for a moment, and when she spoke for all her pluck +her voice was a little rough and uneven. "I'm tired of being an errand +boy!" + +Sobrenski looked at her, drawing his eyebrows together. Everyone of +the band had a nickname for her, and his own very unpleasant one was +"Deadly Nightshade." Some of the others were "Sapho" and "Becky +Sharp," which latter Emile had also adopted as being particularly +appropriate. + +"Oh, very well," he answered. "Shall it be the messages or a bullet? +You can take your choice. Perhaps you would prefer the latter. It +makes no difference to me. This comes of employing women. When +Poleski brought you here first I was opposed to having you. Women +always give trouble." + +"Would you have got a man to do half the work I do?" she flashed out +with desperate courage. + +"Then _do_ your work and don't talk about it," retorted Sobrenski +sharply. "If you are absolutely ill and in bed, of course we can't +expect you to go to various places, but as long as you can ride every +night at the Hippodrome, you can certainly carry messages." + +He turned his back on her and took up some papers from the table, and +Arithelli went out, beaten and raging. + +Emile found her lying on the bed, her hands clenched by her side, her +proud mouth set in bitter lines. As he came in she turned away from +him, to face the wall. + +"_Tiens_!" he observed, "you are a lazy little trollop." Emile was +proud of his English slang. + +Finding there was no answer he changed his tone. "Hysterics, eh? They +won't do here. Turn over, I want to talk to you." + +The girl moved mechanically, and Emile surveyed her. There were slow +tears forcing themselves under her heavy eyelids. + +"I wish I were dead!" + +"Probably you will be soon. So will the rest of us." + +"What brutes you all are!" + +"Because we don't care whether we die to-day or to-morrow? _Souvent +femme varie_! Just now you seemed so anxious,--besides, if one belongs +to the Cause one knows what to expect." Emile strolled towards the +uncomfortable piece of furniture by the window, that purported to be an +armchair, and sat down. + +"I loathe the Cause! I didn't belong to it from choice. Why did you +make me join?" + +"Because I thought you would be useful. You _are_ useful and probably +will be more so." + +"Suppose I refuse to do anything more?" + +"They will not give you the choice of refusing twice." + +"Emile, I believe you are trying to frighten me. Tell me what they +would do." + +"As I introduced you to the Brotherhood, I should naturally be the one +chosen to execute judgment on you. _Enfin_, my dear Arithelli, I +should be called upon to shoot you. We don't forgive traitors. If we +let everyone draw back from their work simply because they happened to +be afraid, what would become of the Cause? Also let me remind you how +you came to me boasting of your love of freedom. 'I'm a red-hot +Socialist.' That's what you said, didn't you? Perhaps you have +forgotten it. Well, I haven't. Socialism doesn't consist of standing +up in a room to sing." + +Arithelli made no answer. She lay like a dead thing, and after a pause +the slow cynical voice went on. + +"There was another woman in our affair about two years ago. Her name +was Felise Rivaz. She got engaged to one of the men, and then it +suddenly occurred to her that comfortable matrimony and Anarchy didn't +seem likely to be enjoyed at one and the same time. So she persuaded +the man to turn traitor and run away to England with her, where they +proposed to get married. + +"Their plans came out,--naturally,--those things generally do. We all +spy upon each other. They both felt so secure that they came together +to a last meeting--I can show you the house if you like. It's down in +the Parelelo, the revolutionary quarter. + +"They strangled the woman, and cut off her arm above the elbow--I +remember she had a thick gold bracelet round it with a date (a _gage +d'amour_ from her lover I suppose)--and they made him drink the blood. +He went mad afterwards. The best thing he could do under the +circumstances." Emile shrugged. + +"There are plenty more similar _histoires_. But perhaps I have told +you enough to convince you of the futility of attempting to draw back +from what you have undertaken." + +Still there was neither movement nor answer. Emile got up, and came to +the bed. + +"_Allons_! It's time you were dressing. You'll be late again, and one +of these days you'll find yourself dismissed. You must just go on and +put up with it all. Life mostly consists of putting up with things." + +But even this consoling philosophy failed to have a rousing effect. + +For the first time in her life Arithelli had fainted. + + * * * * * * + +When she came to her senses that evening Emile sent the landlady with a +message to the Hippodrome, telling the Manager to substitute another +turn, and then made Arithelli get into bed. Her dress and boots came +off and reposed upon the floor. The rest of her clothes were left on. + +These details did not worry Emile. Then he found a book and sat +reading till she had drifted into a heavy sleep, the sleep of +exhaustion. + +In his own way he was sorry for her, and his feelings were by no means +as brutal as his words. At the same time he did not believe in a +display of sympathy. According to his ideas it was demoralising, and +cured no one of complaints, imaginary or otherwise. + +Also it was likely to make people hysterical. Therefore when Arithelli +woke at six o'clock in the morning, and sat up panting, with a hand at +her left side, he elevated both shoulders and eyebrows. + +"_Qu'est ce-qu vous avez donc_? You're all right now." + +He knew perfectly well that there was no pretence of illness. The +strained eyes, the blue shadows round the mouth told their own tale. + +"Oh, Emile, my heart feels so queer! I'm sure it must be all wrong." + +"_Ma foi_! _Ces femmes la_! _Il y a tou jours quelque chose_! First +a faint, then a heart! How often am I to tell you, Arithelli, that +that part of your--your--how do you say it?--anatomy--is quite without +use here? Have you any brandy in the room?" + +"There's Eau de Cologne on the washstand." + +He mixed water with the spirit and gave her a liberal dose that soon +helped her to look less ghastly. + +She lay back feeling almost comfortable, wishing Emile would see fit to +depart, but Count Poleski returned again to the subject of her +misbehaviour. + +Like most men he was not at his best in the early morning, and the +night's vigil had not improved his temper. + +He sat scowling after his manner, black eyebrows meeting over grey +eyes, hard as flint. "If you are going in for this kind of +performance, what will be the use of you?" he enquired sarcastically. + +Perhaps after all Sobrenski had been right in employing no women. + +"Even the best machine will get out of order sometimes," the girl +replied wearily. + +"And when that happens one sets to work to find another machine to take +its place." + +"I didn't know about the horrors; you ought to have told me. It isn't +fair." + +There was neither passion nor resentment in the low voice. "What shall +I do?" she went on, after waiting for Emile to speak. + +"Put up with it, or better still go in for the Cause seriously." + +"Don't you call this serious? Blood and brutalities and slave-driving? +You talked about _l'entresol de l'enfer_, but I'm beginning to think +I've stepped over the threshold." + +"_Ce n'est que le premier pas qui coute_!" + +Arithelli bit her lips. "I don't feel in the mood for arguing now. I +wish you would leave me alone." + +"On condition that you won't go in for any more hysterics, I'll go and +settle with the Manager that you don't have to appear to-night. It's +lucky there happens to be a new turn with those trapeze people. The +audience won't miss you. Has Sobrenski given you anything to do +to-day?" + +"I don't know. I can't remember. Oh, yes, I was to go to the Baroni's +at two o'clock." + +"I'll see to that. A cipher message?" + +"Yes. It's fastened under my hair." She dragged herself into a +sitting position and extracted the little wad of paper with shaking +hands. Emile took it. + +"Good! I shall be back at five o'clock. You can get up later and come +round to my rooms. Do you understand?" + +"Yes!" + +When he had gone she cowered down into the big bed shivering. Every +bone in her body ached as if she had been beaten. She had the +sensation of one who has been awakened from a bad dream. Was it all +real or not? + +Last night and its doings seemed centuries ago. She still heard +Emile's voice as if from a distance, telling the story of the lovely +siren woman who had been strangled, and then the room rocked, and the +walls closed in upon her. + +His words worked in her brain: "_Go in for the Cause seriously. +Remember it's liberty we are fighting for. A life more or less--what's +that? Yours or mine? What does it matter? Do you wonder we don't +make love to women? It's a goddess and not a woman before whom we burn +incense. Blood and tears, money and life! Is there any sacrifice too +great for her altar?_" + +And she had been both frightened and fascinated. + +This was what Anarchism made of men like the cynical Emile. It had +never occurred to her before that even Sobrenski, whom she regarded +solely as a brutal task-master, was himself a living sacrifice. + +She drowsed and brooded through the day, and having arrived at Emile's +room and finding it empty, she "prowled," as she herself would have +expressed it, among his few belongings, for she possessed a very +feminine curiosity. Under a pile of loose music she found the portrait +of a little blond woman, beautiful of curve and outline, in a lace robe +that could only have been made in Paris or Vienna. + +The picture was signed _Marie Roumanoff_, and on the back was written +"_Tout passe, tout casse, tout lasse!_" There were songs too scrawled +with love-messages in Emile's handwriting. + +She pored over them with a vivid interest quite unmingled with any +thought of jealousy. Emile always said that no revolutionist ever +wasted time or thought on women. + +After all, if she were shot to-morrow who would care? She had written +to her people and sent them photographs and newspapers with the +accounts of her triumph. + +Success was a sure road to approbation. If she had failed she would +not have written. + +The Hippodrome engagement could not last forever. A little +carelessness, a loss of nerve, and her career would be at an end. + +Sometimes when she had been singing "_Le Reve_," she had really meant +it all. + +"_S'il faut, ah, prends ma vie_!" + +Only a few days ago Emile had stormed at her in his rasping French, +because she had, with the vehemence of youth, denounced the Anarchist +leader as a relentless brute. + +"You think yourself over-worked and ill-used--you!" he said as he +strode up and down the room twisting his fiercely pointed moustache. +"Look at Sobrenski. He works us all, but does he ever spare himself? +Look at Vardri? Rich, well-born, starving at the Hippodrome on a few +_pesetas_ a week. I thought you had better stuff in you. Are you +going to turn out English milk-and-water? You're _not_ English, you +say? No, I suppose you're not, or you wouldn't talk about 'dirty +Gentiles.' If you think Anarchy is all '_Le Reve_' you'll soon find +yourself mistaken. If some of us dream dreams we have also to face +actions and realities." + +Perhaps the episode of Marie Roumanoff belonged to the days before he +joined the Brotherhood and became an exile from his country. + +She knew that once upon a time he had owned land and estates in Russia, +and Emile the Anarchist of Barcelona had been known as Count Poleski. + +She kept her discoveries to herself, and when Emile returned he found +her crooning over the piano. She appeared to have quite recovered her +boyish good spirits, and demanded a singing lesson, for under his +tuition her passion for music had developed and increased. + +"It's so nice to have a change from the heat and dust and those +horrible electric lights," she said. "Let's enjoy ourselves and try +over all your music. What a lot you have, and it all seems to have +been bought in different places. Rome, Paris, Vienna, Dieppe, London! +Fancy your having been in London!" + +Emile's collection of songs covered a wide field and ranged from the +gypsy ballad of "The Lost Horse," to "The Bridge," in the performance +of which he revelled. + +Arithelli sat in a corner and rocked with inward laughter over his +atrocious English, and evident enjoyment of the morbid sentiments. For +in spite of her face Arithelli had a fine sense of the ridiculous. + +"You don't say the words properly," she said. "You make such mouthfuls +out of them!" + +"And what of you?" Emile retorted in great wrath. "You with your +French all soft, soft like oil!" + +"Yes, that's the Irish half of me." + +"And your Italian so _rauque_ so hard--!" + +"That's the Jewish half of me. Oh, don't let's quarrel! I do want to +learn to sing properly." + +"Then don't fold your arms," her instructor said sharply. "I suppose +you think it looks dramatic, but how can you learn to sing what you +call 'properly,' with your chest all crushed up like that?" + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + "When I look back on the days long fled, + The memory grows still dreamier. + Oh! what fantastic lives they led, + Far away in Bohemia. + + "There were laws that were only made to break, + In a world that never seems half awake + Till the lamps were lit--there were souls at stake. + Far away in Bohemia." + DOLF WYLLARDE. + + +Barcelona in August was like the Hell to which Emile likened it. + +The rich escaped from the heat to their villas up in the mountains, +those whom business, or lack of money, kept in the city, existed in a +parched and sweltering condition. Arithelli still kept her place among +the performers at the Hippodrome, though after the fashion of circus +artists her name had been changed. + +She was now "Madame Mignonne" from Paris, and wore a golden wig, and +came on the stage riding a lion in the character of a heathen goddess +in the spectacular display which always ended the performance. + +She pined for the _haute ecole_ and trick riding in which she so +excelled, and felt unholy pangs when she saw her beloved white horses +being driven in a chariot by a fat, vulgar English woman, arrayed in +scanty pink tunic and tights. + +She was not afraid of the lion, who was old and toothless enough to be +absolutely safe, but her new role was not a great success. + +The golden hair did not suit her any better than did the classical +draperies, and she grew daily thinner. As a matter of fact she was +practically going through the process of slow starvation. + +She had never, even in her healthily hungry days, been able to eat the +abominable Spanish dishes--meat floating in oil, and other things which +she classed together under the heading of _cochonneries_. + +She generally lived on fruit, a little black bread, coffee, and +_absinthe_. + +Emile would try and bully her into eating more, and occasionally +essayed his talents as a _chef_, and cooked weird looking things in his +rooms over a vilely smelling English oil stove, but the Jewess in +Arithelli found him wanting in the "divers washings" she required of +the saucepans, and they generally ended these Bohemian repasts with a +quarrel. + +She went about her work in a half-stupefied state, as one who is +perpetually in a trance. She was past fear now. Nothing mattered. +Midnight rides on a mule up in the mountains, meetings in the low +quarter of the town, the danger of being arrested while carrying a +despatch. + +"_C'est ainsi que la vie_!" Emile's motto had become also her own. + +She was once more a perfect machine. Even the only thing that +Sobrenski could find to say against her was that her appearance was too +conspicuous for a conspirator and that her hands and feet would betray +her through any disguise. + +Emile, though still outwardly as unsympathetic as ever, was not blind +to the change in her looks and manner. + +Putting the Cause out of the question, he did not wish "Fatalite" to +get ill. Her company amused and distracted him. + +He liked to hear her views on life, and to colour them with his own +cynicism, and he enjoyed teaching her to sing and hearing her argue. + +For all her quiet she was curiously magnetic and had a way of making +her absence felt. She was never noisy or exacting and had none of the +pride or vices of her sex, and though she was often depressed she was +never bored, and in consequence bored no one. + +They had many traits in common, including fatalism and morbidity, for +the Slav temperament is in a hundred ways akin to that of the Celt. + +In spite of his jeering remarks Emile thoroughly appreciated the girl's +pluck, and knew that if she failed it would be purely from physical +reasons. + +"Iron in a velvet sheath," he had described her, and iron did not +bend--it broke. + +After some consideration he approached the very unapproachable Manager. +"It's time you gave your leading _equestrienne_ a holiday," he +observed. "She's getting ill. If you don't let her have a rest soon +she'll be falling off in public, or having some fiasco. She was half +dead the other night after the performance." + +The Manager made profane remarks in the dialect of Silesia, of which +place he was a native. He was fresh from quarrelling for the hundredth +time with Estelle, and was in the last frame of mind to desire rest or +peace for any inhabitant of the globe. + +By himself and everyone else at the Hippodrome, Arithelli was +considered the property of the Anarchist, and Emile had taken very good +care to disabuse no one of the idea, but had rather been at some pains +to create such an impression. + +For her it was the best protection, and kept her free from the insults +and attentions of other men. + +Bouquets and jewellery he was willing that she should receive; they did +no harm and the latter could always be sold. + +In cold and dispassionate argument he explained to the irate Manager +the folly of ruining good material by injudicious use. + +"You pay her as little as you can considering she is a draw. She does +the work of three people, including keeping the books when you are not +in a condition to wrestle with arithmetic. If you had your way she +would be cleaning out the stables." + +"Bah!" sneered the other. "It would do her good--take the devil out of +her--hard work doesn't hurt that type. She's all wire and whipcord, +your She-Wolf, Poleski. Has she been snarling at you?" + +"You'd better give her a week off," proceeded Emile, unmoved. "The +audience will be getting tired of her if you're not careful; she has +been on too long without a break. Get a fresh _artiste_ and take it +out of her salary. I shall give her a week's cruise round the harbour +and see what that will do." + +"Well, try and put a little flesh on her bones," said the Manager +rudely. "I never saw such lean flanks! She's got the expression of a +death's head. It's a good thing the Spanish don't care for cheerful +grins or she wouldn't be here two days." + +And so it came to pass that on the following Sunday Arithelli found +herself sitting on the deck of a yacht anchored far out in the harbour, +with the shores of Barcelona only a faint outline in the distance. + +They had come aboard the previous day. + +Emile had made her no explanations beyond saying that he was going to +take her for a sea trip, and after her custom she had asked no +questions. + +The yacht, which was an uncanny looking craft, painted black and called +"_The Witch_," she knew by reputation, and had often seen it slipping +into the harbour after dusk. It was the property of two Russian +aristocrats, friends of Emile's, who helped the Cause by conveying +bombs and infernal machines, and taking off such members of the band as +had suddenly found Spain an undesirable residence. + +Arithelli was not in the least interested in either of the men, the +dark, handsome, saturnine Vladimir, or the fair-haired, pretty, +effeminate youth to whom he was comrade and hero. + +But she liked their smartness and well-groomed air, and their spotless +clothes, after Emile and his dirty nails and slovenly habits, and she +appreciated to the full the surrounding refinement and comfort, and +enjoyed the daintily served meals, the shining glass and silver and the +deft, silent waiting of the sailors. + +She had been given a luxurious cabin which seemed a paradise after her +dirty, carpetless bedroom, and in it she could laze and lounge in peace +without the eternal practising and rehearsals and running errands that +her soul loathed. + +The hot sun glared down upon her, as she sat watching the racing waves. + +She was a fantastic, slim, _bizarre_ figure with her coppery hair, over +which a lace scarf was tied, and high-heeled slippers on her beautiful +slender feet. + +In her ears dangled huge turquoises, showing vividly against the white +skin that was coated thickly with scented powder. + +The manager had told her that she must not get tanned or red or it +would spoil her type, and she now "made-up" habitually in the daytime. + +Her whole array was tawdry and theatrical, and utterly out of keeping +with her surroundings. + +The two owners of the yacht, who wore immaculate white linen clothes +and canvas shoes, expressed to each other their disapproval of her +whole get-up, and particularly of her clicking heels. In common with +most men, they abominated an _outre_ style of dressing and too much +jewellery, and above all such finery at sea. + +The girl must be mad! Didn't she know that a schooner was not a circus +ring? If she were such a fool Poleski should have taught her better +before bringing her on board. + +They agreed that he had sense enough in other things, and had certainly +trained her not to be a nuisance. + +After _dejeuner_ Emile had hunted up the least doubtful of the French +novels they possessed and sent her up on deck to get the benefit of the +sea air of which she was supposed to stand in need. + +"_Va t'en_, Arithelli," he said. "You don't want to be suffocating +yourself down in a stuffy cabin. You're here to get lots of ozone and +make yourself look a little less like a corpse. Besides, we want to +talk." + +She felt very much depressed and neglected as she sat dangling "_Les +confessions d'une femme mariee_," which were virtuous to dulness and +interested her not at all, in a listless hand, long and delicate like +her feet, and decorated with too many turquoise rings. Below, in the +cabin, she could hear the noise of the men as they argued and shouted +at each other in a polyglot of three different languages. + +Arithelli felt more than a little resentful. Why had they shut her out +and prevented her from hearing their discussions? + +The men at the other meetings had always wanted her in the room. + +She had been entrusted with all their secrets and there was no question +of betrayal. She knew too much about the consequences now to try that. + +When Emile came up from below she asked him why he had insulted her by +turning her out. + +Did he not trust her, or did he think she had not enough intelligence. + +For answer he laughed cynically, "I'll make use of you and your +intelligence fast enough--when I want them. You were cavilling at +being overworked the other day." + +Of Vladimir and Paul she saw nothing in the daytime, for they both +ignored her, but in the evenings they all sat together up on deck, and +Paul sang and played the guitar while Arithelli would listen entranced +and faint with pleasure. + +A love of melody was the birthright of her race, and the boy had a +genius for music. He seemed to have but two ideas in life--that, and a +devotion which almost amounted to idolatry for the older man. + +They would walk up and down for hours, Vladimir with his hand on Paul's +shoulder talking, gesticulating and commanding, while the other, his +eyes on the ground, listened and assented. + +Sometimes Vladimir would speak to him in Russian with an accent that +was in itself a caress, and Arithelli, who watched them curiously, +noticed and wondered to see the boy flush and colour like a woman. + +She always looked forward with the keenest pleasure to those evenings. + +The days bored her, inasmuch as she was capable of being bored, and she +hated the glare and glitter of the sun and sky. + +It was too much like the blue-white lights of the Hippodrome. With +night came the glamour of Fairyland, that magic country in which +Ireland still believes, and which is ever there for those who seek it, +"East o' the Sun, and West o' the Moon." + +The yacht drifting idly at anchor in smooth water, the stars in their +bed of velvet black, the magic of air and space. + +The incense-like scent of Turkish cigarettes and black coffee, the +little group of men lounging in their deck chairs, the resonant, full +notes of the guitar, and Paul's voice rising out of the shadows. + +If he had sung standing on the platform of a brightly lit concert hall +half the charm would have vanished in that distraction which the +personality of a singer creates. + +In the illusion of his surroundings the man himself did not exist. + +There was only the voice--the singer. Hungarian folk-songs that fired +her blood and made her restless with strange longings; "_La vie est +vaine_," eternally sweet and haunting; then some wickedly witty song of +the _cafes_, and melodies of Gounod full of infinite charm. Last of +all came always "_Le Reve_," in which Emile and Vladimir joined as if +it were some National Anthem, and which left her quivering with +excitement. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + "There would no man do for your sake, I think, + What I would have done for the least word said; + I had wrung life dry for your lips to drink-- + Broken it up for your daily bread." + SWINBURNE. + + +When the week of dreams and rest was over she went back to the +Hippodrome with somewhat of relief in her feelings. + +At least the work prevented her from thinking. Though she was +physically less languid, the sea air had neither succeeded in putting +any more flesh on what the Manager called her "lean flanks," nor had it +made her look much more cheerful. He had the sense to let her take her +place as _equestrienne_ once more, and had announced her reappearance +in flaming posters. + +The stablemen and helpers were all delighted to see her again, and in +token of their satisfaction presented her with a hideous and unwieldy +bouquet, in which all colours were arranged together so as to give the +effect of a kaleidoscope. They liked her for her sweet temper and +invariable courtesy, and respected her for her knowledge of horses. + +Estelle came and embraced her and was voluble over the failings of her +"_bon ami_," the sardonic manager. + +Arithelli received a hearty round of applause as she rode into the ring +on her favourite "Don Juan," whose wavy tail and mane were decorated +with turquoise ribbons that matched her habit. + +At least she was happy on horseback, and she loved the animals and they +her. + +Even the performing sheep and monkey, and the toothless lion came in +for a share in her affections. She had a new and difficult trick to go +through that night, but this particular sort of danger only made her +feel exhilarated. + +Emile's stories of blood and horrors had sickened her, but the chance +of breaking her neck over a high jump held no terrors. + +She made her exit, gaily waving her silver-handled whip, and Vardri, +who was standing at the entrance of the ring, came forward quickly to +lift her off her horse before the groom could reach her. + +"You're wanted to-night in the Calle de Pescadores," he whispered, as +she rested her hand on his shoulder to jump down. "As soon as +possible, and go in carefully--there's a scare about spies." + +He felt her body stiffen and the little smile that came so rarely died +in an instant, leaving her once more "Fatalite." + +She nodded by way of assent and bent down to gather up her habit. + +The ring-master was only a few feet away, and they could never be +certain as to who was to be trusted. + +Vardri stood looking after her as she walked away with her head well up +and her shoulders thrown back as usual. + +The two had become good friends with the comradeship induced by the +similarity in their misfortunes. + +Both were young, reckless and without money beyond what they earned, +though, whereas Arithelli had been more or less tricked into her +present position, Vardri had been infatuated with the Cause from the +time he was old enough to take an interest in anything. The worship of +the goddess Liberty had left with him room also for the adoration of a +human being, and in a boyish chivalrous way he had tried to make things +easier for Arithelli. + +He managed to bring her occasional flowers and music out of his +starvation wages, and was always jealously careful of the way in which +her horses were groomed and turned out. They had a curious resemblance +to each other, and when Arithelli was dressed in boy's clothes for her +journeys up in the mountains, they might have been two brothers. One +was dark and the other fair, but both had the same haggard, +well-modelled faces, the same pale skins, and thin, supple figures. + +They were exactly of a height, too, and when Arithelli disguised +herself, she pushed her red hair under a sombrero and black wig. + +Even Sobrenski's lynx eyes had been at fault in the semi-darkness of +the hut, and he had sworn at her in mistake for Vardri. As the dresser +took off her habit, she asked the woman whether Monsieur Poleski had +been behind the scenes during her turn, and was there a note or message? + +It appeared that there had been no sign of Emile, and she hesitated for +a moment, hardly knowing what to do. + +The order for her presence in the Calle de Pescadores, which of course +had been sent by Sobrenski, had told her to come at once. + +On the other hand, Emile had always told her to wait for him in her +room till he came to fetch her. If she went through the streets alone +there would be a row, and if she were late at the _rendezvous_ there +would also be a row. + +"_C'est ainsi que la vie!_" + +She lifted her thin shoulders after the manner of Emile and decided to +start at once. She wiped all the make-up from her face with a damp +towel, swaying a little as she stood before the glass. + +The excitement of her reception and the ensuing episode had made her +heart beat at distressing speed. + +"You're not ill," she adjured her pale reflection. "It's all +imagination. Emile says all these complaints are. Any way, you're not +going to give in to it." + +She shut both ears and eyes as she sped through the restless city that +even at this hour was astir with life. + +She was only glad that there was no moon. Roused for once out of her +naturally slow and indolent walk, she was soon in the poor quarter and +climbing the stairs to the third floor of a horrible little house, the +back of which looked out on the dark slums of the quarter of the +Parelelo, the breeding-place of revolutions; the district between the +Rambla and the Harbour. + +The house was like the one that Emile had described when telling her of +the murdered woman, Felise Rivaz. + +The very air reeked of intrigue and hidden deeds. + +She looked round first of all for Emile, but he was not there, and only +half the usual number of conspirators were assembled. + +Vardri, who had left the Hippodrome the minute he had delivered his +message, was sitting on the end of the table swinging his feet and +whistling softly. + +He had bribed one of the "strappers" to finish his work, and slipped +out, only arriving a few minutes before her. + +He had risked dismissal, but that was no great matter. + +The Cause came first, and he feared danger for Arithelli, knowing that +if there was anything specially risky to be done she would be the one +chosen. + +Sobrenski was always harder on her than on the others. + +He watched her with the hungry, faithful eyes of an animal, and got up +from his seat with instinctive courtesy. Like all the rest he wore the +Anarchist badge, a red tie, and the hot, vivid colour showed up the +lines of ill-health and suffering about his eyes and mouth. + +In spite of his disreputable clothes and wild hair, there still +remained in him the indefinable signs of breeding, in the thin, shapely +hands that rested on his knee, and in the modulations of his boyish and +eager voice. + +None of the others took the least notice of the girl's entrance. + +Nearly all of them were as well-born as the young Austrian, but to them +she was simply a comrade, a fellow, worker, not a woman. + +She gave him a little friendly gesture and went quietly to a seat +against the wall, where she sat in one of her characteristic attitudes, +her feet crossed, and showing under her short dark blue skirt. + +Emile had made her buy this one plain and unnoticeable garment for use +on these occasions. + +After she had been in the room a minute, Sobrenski turned from the man +to whom he had been talking in a careful under-tone, and bolted the +door. + +"Listen, all of you," he said. "We have received information that this +house will be watched to-night. Whether the spy is one who was +formerly one of us, we do not know--yet. It appears that it is Poleski +who is the suspect. They have some evidence against him that is +dangerous. If he is seen coming in here to-night, they will arrest +him. The next time we will change the place, but for the present all +that can be done is to warn him against coming here. Fortunately he +will be later than usual, because he does not leave the Cafe Colomb +till after midnight. Someone must be sent there to stop him. It will +not do for any of us to be seen coming out, so she"--he indicated +Arithelli--"must go." + +Arithelli wasted no time in response. She was only too eager to get +out of the abominable place, and was already half way to the door when +Sobrenski stopped her. + +"Not that way!" he said. "What are you thinking of? You will walk +straight into the arms of the spies who are probably watching the house +by this time. No, you must go by the window at the back; the rest of +us will stay here all night." + +"This house gives on the quay by a lucky chance," remarked one of the +older men; "we should be well trapped otherwise. There are several +feet between it and the water." + +Vardri's eyes had never moved from the girl's face. He knew that her +heart was affected, and she had told him once that she would never +attempt to go on the tight-rope or trapeze because the mere thought of +a height always terrified her. + +In answer to Sobrenski's gesture, she moved towards the window, which +another of the conspirators was cautiously opening. + +Vardri pushed himself forward into the group. "She can't go down +there," he said hoarsely, "It's not safe--look at the height!" + +"She'll go down well enough if she holds onto the rope." + +"The rope may break or fray through on the sill." + +"She takes her chance like the rest of us." + +"The rest of us--we're _men_!" + +"There are neither men nor women in the Cause. Do you need to be +taught that now? Stand back!" + +"I'll go down in her place." + +"You will do nothing of the kind. Which of us is the leader here?" + +Sobrenski had twisted the girl's arms behind her back, and he was +holding her by the wrists. He expected her to scream or struggle, but +she remained absolutely passive. + +One of the men was making a slip-knot in a coil of rope. + +Vardri's blood was hot as he looked on. Blind with helpless rage, he +was conscious of nothing but the little set face and defiant head. He +had come suddenly into his heritage of manhood at the sight of her +alone, defenceless and roughly handled by brute beasts who called +themselves men. + +He was mad, too, with a man's jealousy. From the earliest moment he +had seen Arithelli he had given her homage as a woman. The _gamin_, +the "Becky Sharp" that Emile and the others knew, he had never seen, +and he had always resented her numerous irreverent nicknames. + +He could do nothing, nothing! + +Get himself shot or strangled, perhaps, and what use would that be to +her? + +"Come!" said Sobrenski, turning her towards the window. + +For the first time since she had entered the room, Arithelli spoke: +"Leave me alone for a minute. No, I won't move--_parole d'honneur_!" + +When she was released, she put out her left hand. "_Mon ami_, what's +the use of arguing? I'm the errand boy, _vois-tu_? My work is to +carry messages. If you make a scene it's only the worse for me. It's +good of you to want to go instead. I shall not forget." + +The voice, subtle and sweet as ever, the intimacy implied by the +familiar "thou" acted like a charm to the boy's wild fury. Before her +courage and dignity it seemed out of place to make any further protest. + +He crushed the long and lovely hand against his lips with mingled +passion and reverence. + +There was a red streak across the wrist. + +"A fine melodrama!" sneered Sobrenski. "Keep all that for the stage, +it isn't needed here. _Allons_! We can't waste any more time, there +has been too much wasted already." + +Vardri walked to the furthest end of the room, turning his back upon +the group at the window, and thrust his fingers into his ears to deaden +the sound of the scream for which he waited in tortured anticipation. + +Excitable and neurotic, like all consumptives, his imagination made of +those waiting moments a veritable hell. + +She would never get down in safety--an old and hastily knotted rope, a +disregard of all ordinary precautions, and her body in the hands of men +who handled human lives more carelessly than most people would handle +stones. He bit his lip till the blood ran down to his chin. + +Here he stood doing nothing, he who would have been tortured to save +her! + +The window was shut and one of the men said: "She's down all right +after all. I thought by the look of her she would have fainted. She +has some pluck, Mademoiselle Fatalite!" + +"Yes," answered Sobrenski. "Here's the coward and traitor." + +Vardri wheeled round, looking straight into the cold eyes of his +leader. He had heard the last words. She was safe, that was all that +mattered, and for himself he was reckless. + +"Traitor, am I? Yes, if the Cause is to include the ill-treatment of +women!" + +"Women? Again women? Are our meetings to be used as love trysts. +There was a certain episode two years ago--Gaston de Barres and Felise +Rivaz--you remember it? Ah, I thought so! Then let it be a +warning--in the future you will be suspected and watched. There is no +need for me to dilate upon the punishment for treachery, all that you +knew when you joined us. You may consider yourself lucky to have +escaped so easily to-night. Through the few minutes' delay you have +caused, Poleski may have been arrested." + +Vardri shrugged and sat down. Like Arithelli, he recognized the +futility of mere words upon certain occasions. + +Moreover, now that the flame of his indignation had died down, he had +begun to feel wretchedly ill and spiritless with the reaction that +comes after any great excitement. + +He sat shivering and coughing till the dawn, while the other men talked +in low voices or played cards. One or two slept fitfully in +uncomfortable attitudes on the floor. + +No one grumbled at the discomfort or weariness of the vigil. + +They who looked forward to ultimate prison and perhaps death itself +were not wont to quarrel with such minor inconveniences as the loss of +sleep. + +Sobrenski had pulled the solitary candle in the room towards him and +sat writing rapidly and frowning to himself. + +His fox-like face framed in its red hair and beard looked more +relentless and crafty than ever in the revealing light, and the boy +shivered anew, but not from physical cold. + +He did not fear the leader of the Brotherhood for himself, but for +Arithelli--Arithelli, the drudge, the tool, the "errand boy," as she +had called herself. + +Perhaps in time even she would become a heartless machine. + +Human life had seemed so cheap and of so little account to him once, +but since he had loved her-- + +She could never live among such people and in such scenes, and still +remain unscarred. + +Again the little desperate face rose before him. + +If they did not succeed in killing her soon by their brutalities, she +would commit suicide to escape from the horrors that surrounded her. + +It had never occurred to Vardri to be jealous of Emile. + +With the curious insight that love gives he had formed a true idea of +the relationship between the oddly-assorted pair. He had never thought +of himself as her lover. + +To him she was always the Ideal, the divinity enthroned. + +He was content to kiss her feet, and to lay before them service and +sacrifice. + +Yet, though he might build a wall of love around her, he knew it could +give her no protection against the realities of her present life. + +She had given him dreams, and in them he could forget all other things, +the things that the world calls real. + +Everything had vanished as a mist--the dirty room, the chill of the +dawn, his own physical wretchedness. + +He heard only the honey-sweet voice, saw only the outstretched hand of +friendship. + +"_Mon ami_," she had called him, he who had never aspired higher than +to be known as her servant. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + "For all things born one gate + Opens, . . . and no man sees + Beyond the gods and Fate." + SWINBURNE. + +WHEN Emile arrived at the Hippodrome, only a few minutes after his +usual time, he found no one but the dresser, who was clearing away the +litter of clothes, jewellery, powder-puffs and flowers. + +Arithelli had vanished. + +She had never before failed to wait for him, and he knew she would not +have started alone without some very good reason. He questioned the +dresser and found she knew nothing beyond that "La Nina," as she called +the girl affectionately, had left immediately after her last turn. She +had asked if the Senor had been in yet, but hearing he had not, she had +dressed and gone at once. She had not even stayed to put on a cloak, +and had left her hair still in a plait, and only a _velo_ over it. She +had seemed in great haste (but that was always so with the English!) +and had looked ill. The Senor must not be alarmed, she added, folding +Arithelli's blue habit with wrinkled, careful hands. True, Barcelona +was an evil place for one so young as "La Nina," but the blessed +saints-- + +Emile gave her a _peseta_, and left her to her invocations. In the +long passage that led from the dressing-rooms he ran into Estelle, who +was just sufficiently drunk to be excitable and quarrelsome. She still +had on her dancer's costume of short skirts of poppy-coloured tulle, +and scarlet shoes and tights. She was further adorned with long, +dangling, coral ear-rings, and a black bruise on the left side of her +face under the eye, the outward and visible sign of her last encounter +with the Manager. + +She saluted Emile with a vindictive glare from her black eyes, and +tried to push past him. She hated him in a spiteful feminine way for +his complete appropriation of Arithelli, of whom, thanks to him, she +now saw very little. She had quarrelled with all the other women +employed in the Circus, but Arithelli had always helped her to dress, +and given her cigarettes and listened to her woes. + +Emile blocked the way, catching the dancer by the wrist as she +attempted to slip by, leaving his question unanswered. He repeated it, +and after a minute's sullen refusal to speak, Estelle stamped her foot +savagely upon the floor, and collapsed into a state of hysterical +volubility. No, she had seen nothing, nothing! she protested in +French. Scarcely ever did she see her little friend now, and whose +fault was that? Would Monsieur Poleski answer her? As Monsieur +Poleski did nothing of the kind, she continued to rage. All men were +brutes! Yes, all! She had no friends now and if she did console +herself--what would he have? + +Emile decided that she was speaking the truth, and that there was no +use wasting time in making other enquiries. + +One thing seemed certain--that Arithelli had left the building. From +the Hippodrome he went next to her lodgings, also with no result. He +could only now suppose that Sobrenski had sent her off at a moment's +notice on some unusual errand. The possibility of her having gone to +the house in the Calle de Pescadores did not occur to him. According +to the last arrangement they were not expected there till after +midnight. It was only eleven now. He would go to the Cafe Colomb, and +spend the hour there. It was no use to search for her further, and as +he assured himself there was not the least reason to become alarmed. +She was not likely to lose her head, and she knew her way about the +place. + +The Colomb was more or less a recognised resort of the many +revolutionaries with whom the city abounded. The proprietor was known +to be in sympathy with their schemes, though he took no active part in +them himself. He was considered trustworthy, for notes and messages +were often left in his charge, and his private room was at the disposal +of those who wished for a few minutes' secret interview. When Emile +entered he was greeted by several of the men who sat in groups of two +and three at little tables, busy with Monte and other card games. + +The smoke of many cigarettes obscured their figures, and clouded the +mirrors with which the place was lined from floor to ceiling. Emile +sat down alone and ordered an _absinthe_. + +When called upon to join in the play, he refused with a scowl and a +rasping oath in his native tongue, and as the evening grew on towards +midnight he was left to himself and his meditations. + +His thoughts were still with Arithelli, the weird witch-girl, whose +eyes were like those of Swinburne's fair woman, + + "Coloured like a water-flower, + And deeper than the green sea's glass." + +He, who now never opened a book, had once known that most un-English of +all poets by heart. + +In her many phases Arithelli passed before him, as he stared moodily at +the shifting opal-coloured liquid in his glass. He thought of her as +he had often seen her, fighting through her work at the Hippodrome, the +little weary head always gallantly carried, and then when she had +dismounted and was in her dressing-room, the rings round her eyes, her +shaking hands and utter weariness. He remembered her consideration for +her horses, her loathing of the ill-treatment of all dumb things so +common here. Once he had found her in the market-place, remonstrating +in her broken Spanish with the country women for the inhuman manner in +which they carried away their purchases of live fowl, tied neck to +neck, and slung across a mule, to die of slow strangulation under the +blazing sun. All the animals at the Hippodrome had been better treated +since she had been there. It was characteristic of the man that he +laughed at her to her face for her campaign against the national +cruelty, and in secret thought of her with admiration. + +In many ways sexless, in others purely a woman, to every mood she +brought the charm of individuality. + +_Tiens_! He was falling in love, he jeered to himself, cynically. In +love with that tall, silent creature, who was never in a hurry and +never in a temper, and who walked as if she had been bred in Andalusia. + +Absurd! He was only interested. She had brains, and she never bored +him. + +Besides, she was only twenty-four, and one could hardly allow a girl of +that age to be thrown warm and living to the wolves and vampires of +Barcelona. Perhaps he had been wrong in letting her do some +things--drink _absinthe_, for example. One lost one's sense of mental +and moral perspective in a place like this. At least he had guarded +her well. If he had not met her that day at the station, she might +have fallen into worse hands than his own. Things could not go on +indefinitely as they had been going. What was to be the end of it all? + +Eventually she would fall in love, and a woman was no more use to the +Cause once that happened. No vows would be strong enough to keep her +from a man's arms once she cared. She would not love lightly or +easily, and where would she find love, here in Barcelona? + +Half unconsciously, he found himself comparing Arithelli with the woman +who had betrayed him. Emile never lied, even to himself, and he knew +now that Marie Roumanoff had almost become a shadow. + +A plaything she had been, a child, a doll, a being made for caresses +and admiration. To a woman of her type camaraderie would have been +impossible. He had not wanted it, and it had not been in her nature to +give it. + +A man, who had been sitting opposite, got up, gesticulated, put on his +hat at a reckless angle, and, with a noisy farewell to his companions, +swaggered out. + +In the mirror that faced him Emile saw the quick furtive glance +bestowed upon him, though he sat apparently unconscious of it. + +Something at the back of his brain suggested to him that he knew the +man's face, that he had seen him before. A spy probably. It was +nothing unusual for any of them to be "shadowed," and for their +out-goings and in-comings to be noted. + +The highly gilded French clock on the mantel-piece at the far end of +the room announced the hour as being a quarter to twelve. Emile +stooped down to pick up his sombrero which had tumbled off a chair on +to the floor, when he remained with outstretched hand, arrested by the +sound of a woman's voice which came through the partly opened door of +the proprietor's private room and office. A woman's voice? It was +Arithelli's unmistakably. + +He recovered himself and the sombrero together, and twisted round in +his seat so as to get a view of the door, which was on his left hand, +half way down the long room. It had a glass top, across which a dark +green curtain was drawn. Emile knew that it was possible to enter this +room without passing through the _cafe_. There was another door which +led into a passage through the kitchen and back part of the house, and +from thence into a side-street, or rather a small alley. + +He had often been that way, and it was generally used by the +frequenters of the place when they had reason to guard their movements. + +He listened again. + +The voice was even more hoarse than usual and more uncertain. Though +he could not hear the words, the broken sentences gave an impression of +breathlessness. When she stopped speaking he heard the voice of the +proprietor raised in an emphatic stage-whisper. Yes, Monsieur Poleski +was within. Mademoiselle was fortunately in time to find him. If +Mademoiselle would give herself the trouble to wait but for one +moment--. + +The little man fancied himself an adept at intrigue, and his methods +were often a cause of anxiety to those he befriended. His nods and +gestures and meaning glances as he emerged would have been enough to +arouse suspicion in the most guileless. + +He stood blinking his short-sighted eyes through the haze in his effort +to attract Emile's attention without being detected. The latter got up +and sauntered towards him. + +"_Bon soir, Monsieur Lefevre_," he said carelessly. "We have a little +account to settle, you and I, is it not so?" + +Fat Monsieur Lefevre rose gallantly to the occasion. He bowed Emile +into the room, locked the door by which they had entered, and with +another bow and a muttered apology scuttled through the passage into +the back regions. Two minutes later he made his reappearance in the +_cafe_ by the front way, and went to his place behind the counter with +the satisfied face of a successful diplomatist. + +His little sanctum was typical in its arrangement of the Parisian +_bourgeois_. + +Numerous picture post-cards of a famous chanteuse of the Folies +Bergeres proclaimed Monsieur's taste in beauty. For the rest, +everything was neat and rather bare of furniture. There were chairs +symmetrically arranged like sentinels along the walls, tinted lace +curtains, a gilded mirror, and a few doubtful coloured pictures, all of +women. An unshaded electric light flared in a corner. Arithelli stood +resting one hand on the round polished table in the centre of the +apartment. Her dark blue dress was torn in two places, and smeared +with patches of dust. The _velo_, or piece of drapery worn on ordinary +occasions instead of the mantilla, hung down her back in company with +the long plait of hair, which had come untwisted at the ends. Her face +was strained and haggard, and the tense attitude spoke of tortured +nerves. + +She was still struggling for breath, and appeared almost unable to +speak, but Emile was not minded to allow her much time for recovery. + +Patience was not numbered among such virtues as he possessed. + +"_Tiens_!" he began. "What is it now, Fatalite? You look as if you +had been having adventures. Have you been getting into mischief? And +where have you been?" + +"In the Calle de Pescadores out at Barcelonetta. Sobrenski sent me +with a message to you. The place is being watched. If they see you go +in you may be arrested. The others got to hear about the spies, and +went early. They are going to stay there all night because it isn't +safe to leave." Her tone was that of one who repeats a well-learned +lesson. + +Emile shrugged. "Spies? So that's it! There was a man just now in +the _cafe_ who looked like it. Probably he is waiting to go outside +now to 'shadow' me. He may wait till--! And how did you get out?" + +"They let me down from a window at the back of the house. I got on to +the quay and came here by the long way and through the Rambla." There +was a pause, and then she said in the same mechanical voice, "Sobrenski +said I was to tell you not to come. It isn't safe." + +Emile did not answer. He could see that she was trembling violently +and on the verge of an hysterical crisis. He rather hoped she would +break down. It would seem more natural. Women were privileged to cry +and scream, not that it was possible to imagine her screaming. He +dragged forward a chair from the immaculate row against the wall. + +As he did so he noticed that she kept her left hand behind her back as +if to conceal something. + +"Sit down," he ordered. "What's the matter with your hand? Are you +hurt?" + +The girl retreated before him. + +"No!" she answered defiantly. + +But Emile's quick eyes had seen a crumpled handkerchief flecked with +red stains. + +"Don't tell lies, Fatalite!" he said sharply. "Give me your hand at +once." + +Arithelli obeyed, holding it out palm upwards. + +Emile looked, and ripped out a fiery exclamation. The smooth flesh was +scarred and torn across in several places, and was still bleeding. The +mark of Sobrenski's grip on her wrist had turned from crimson to a dull +discoloured hue. + +"It doesn't hurt so very much," she said. "Only I can't bear the sight +of blood. All Jewish people are like that. I can't help it. It makes +me feel queer all over." + +She turned her head aside with a shudder. Emile muttered another +expletive, adding: + +"Then if you feel like that, don't look." + +He told her again to sit down, tore her handkerchief into strips, +soaked them in water from a carafe, and bandaged up the wounds in a +rough but effectual fashion. + +She said nothing during the process, but kept her head still turned +away so that he could not see her face. + +"Voila!" said Emile. "That will be all right to-morrow. What did they +do to you?" + +"I cut my fingers on the window sill when they let me down. There was +a piece of iron or a nail or something. I don't remember. It didn't +hurt at the time." + +"H'm!" commented Emile. "But this?" he touched her wrist lightly. "It +looks like--" + +"That? Oh, Sobrenski did that. He--" + +"Well?" said Emile. He waited but there came no answer, so he +continued the interrogation. "You didn't make a scene, Fatalite?" + +He heard her flinch and draw in her breath as she covered her face with +her free hand. Her low painful sobbing reminded him of the +inarticulate moaning of an animal. + +Even in her grief, her abandonment, she was unlike all other women. +Emile stood beside her in watchful silence, and neither attempted to +interfere nor to console her. He was wise enough to know that to a +highly strung nature like hers too much self-repression might be +dangerous, and he was humane enough to be glad that she had the relief +of tears. + +At length he said quietly, "I didn't know you could cry, Fatalite. I +didn't know you were human enough for that." + +She still fought desperately for composure, thrusting a fold of the +torn _velo_ between her teeth. The naked light shone on her bent head, +and on her glittering rope of hair. + +A strange impulse suddenly moved Emile to finger a loose strand with a +touch that had in it something of a caress. + +Gamin she had been, _equestrienne_, heroine, and now she was only a +sorrowful Dolores. + +At last words came. + +She stood up and faced him, shaking back her hair. + +"Emile! Emile! I must give it up. I can't go on!" + +"And you can't turn back, _mon enfant_." + +"I'll run away." + +"Do you think they wouldn't find you? You know enough about our +organisation now. No one who has once joined us is ever allowed to +escape. You would be found sooner or later, and then--you remember +what I told you once? That I am responsible for you to the +Brotherhood?" + +He spoke calmly, patiently, as if he were explaining things to a child. + +If his associates could have seen the cynical Emile Poleski of ordinary +life they would have found reason to marvel! + +The gesture of uncontrollable horror told him that she understood only +too well. What should the upholders of the Cause care for ties, for +friendships, for pity? + +If she were recaptured Emile would be her executioner. He might +refuse, but that would not save her and he would be shot as well. Why +should he suffer because she had lost her courage and turned traitress? + +She tried to collect her senses, and to think properly. Everything +felt blurred and far off. One thing alone seemed certain--that there +was no way out of the _impasse_. + +Emile had walked to the glass-door and unlocked it. Then he came back +to her. + +"It's time we were going," he said. "It will not do to be here too +long. As our friend the spy is patrolling the street outside in +readiness for my appearance, we will go out the other way. The Calle +Santa Teresa is nearly always deserted. It's just as well you should +be seen with me. They don't know yet that you are working for us, so +it will look less as if I were _en route_ for a meeting. But before we +start, have you decided to be wise and to save me from an unpleasant +duty?" + +"Yes. I'll stay. At least while you are here." + +"While I am here?" the man echoed. "Et alors--?" + +"Then?" She threw out her arms in a hopeless gesture. "Who knows? +Who can read the future? And after all, as you have said, 'What does +one life more or less matter?'" + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + "Ninon, Ninon, que fais-tu de la vie!" + DE MUSSET. + + +Arithelli awoke next day in her comfortless room, and lay wondering +over the waking nightmare of the past hours. Everything seemed so +different in the morning. There was no thrill of excitement now, +nothing to make her blood run quickly. She only felt flat, dull, +stupid, and disinclined to move. How strange and unlike himself Emile +had been. She had lost her nerve, raved, and threatened to run away, +and he had neither sneered nor abused her. Her hand, still wrapped in +stained linen, had now begun to burn and smart considerably, and was +proof sufficient of the reality of her experience. Her spine and the +soles of her feet tingled as she lived again through the horror of the +descent from the window. She could never endure a repetition of that +ordeal. Next time she would refuse and they could add one more murder +to the list of their crimes. + +She dragged herself up and dressed slowly. She remembered that there +was to be a gala performance at the Hippodrome that night in honour of +the presence of one of the Infantas, her husband and suite, who were +passing through the town, and had announced their intention of being +present. For all the performers it meant more work and an extra +rehearsal. + +When Emile came in they shared their coffee and rolls together. She +was thankful that he made no reference to her passionate outburst of +the night before. He was outwardly as curt and dictatorial as ever, +and neither of them discussed the affairs of the Brotherhood. + +"I must go down to practise," Arithelli said after a while. "Shall you +be there to-night? You know there is to be a grand performance in +honour of the loyalties?" + +"No," answered Emile, "I shall be busy. Besides, the Royalties will be +safer if I'm _not_ there! We don't trouble ourselves about these +particular ones though. They're not important enough." + +"I'm sorry you're not coming," Arithelli answered. + +Emile ungratefully disregarded the implied compliment, and threw out a +blunt, "Why?" + +"I don't quite know. I think there is going to be something unlucky." + +"You're going to tumble off, you mean? Better not! You don't want to +get turned out, do you?" + +Arithelli turned to a mirror on the wall. + +"Do I look very ghastly?" she asked. + +"Not much more than usual. None of us look very fresh out here, do we? +Do you think your hat is on straight, you untidy little trollop? Well, +it isn't! Hurry up,--it's late. No, I'm not going down there with +you. I'll stay here, and do some writing." + +The rehearsal that morning seemed interminable. For the first time +since she had ridden in public Arithelli bungled over her tricks. She +jumped short, miscalculated distances, and once barely saved herself +from a severe fall. + +The ring-master, with whom she was a great favourite, shook his head +reproachfully at her, as he paused to rest and wipe his heated +countenance. He was a greasy and affable personage, whose temper was +as easy as his morals. He was more soft-hearted than most of his +compatriots, and he honestly liked Arithelli and admired her riding. + +"What have you there, Mademoiselle?" he enquired pathetically. "Never +have I seen you like this before. You fear the grand people, is it not +so? You have no heart, no courage! But again! Again!" + +In the midst of his exhortation the Manager descended suddenly upon the +scene. As a matter of fact he had been watching for the last ten +minutes from one of the entrances, and he had seen her failure to +accomplish her jumps successfully. + +"This won't do for to-night," he said angrily. "We want your best +work, not your worst. Do you suppose I'm going to stand your laziness?" + +Arithelli was sitting at ease upon Don Juan's back as he paced slowly +round the ring. She did not look up or answer, which enraged the +Manager still further. Her silence was one of the things about her +that always annoyed him most? She was the only woman he had never been +able to bully into a state of collapse. + +He turned on the ring-master, who was grinning to himself. + +"_Allez-vous en_! I'll see to this." + +Senor Valdez looked uncomfortable. For an instant he felt almost +inclined to expostulate on Arithelli's behalf, but the Manager's rages +were well known to his employes, and the little man had no intention of +losing his present position. He flung down his long whip, and retired +muttering vengeance. + +The Manager strode into the centre of the ring, picked up the lash and +drew it through his fingers. + +He swore at Arithelli, he swore at Don Juan, and he started the +rehearsal all over again. + +Arithelli clenched her teeth and rode doggedly forward. The arena swam +before her, and her limbs felt weak and heavy as those of one who is +drugged, and her lacerated hand added to her difficulties. That she +should presume to be ill, had not entered into the Manager's +calculations. If he had realised the fact he would have said that +people who were ill were of no use in a circus, and the sooner she left +it the better. + +The treadmill continued until Arithelli would have welcomed an accident +as a break in the grinding monotony. The exercise instead of making +her hot, had made her shiver as if with great cold. She felt as if she +had been practising for days instead of hours. It was of no use! She +could not go on any longer. She slipped from her standing position on +the broad pad saddle to Don Juan's back, and without waiting for the +word of command, reined him to a standstill in front of the Manager. + +"You must let me go," she said. "I can't do any better now." + +The Manager stepped back a pace, and dropped his whip with sheer +astonishment. For an instant he stared with open mouth, then he found +speech. + +"You sit there, do you, and tell me you refuse to work! You with your +insolence! When you fall and that long neck of yours goes _crack_" (he +snapped a finger and thumb together in expressive pantomime), "then I +shall laugh--_nom d'un chien_!--how I shall laugh." + +Arithelli waited in silence, a faint smile curling her lips. One hand, +laden with rings, moved caressingly up and down Don Juan's silky mane. +She had hitherto answered abuse with maddening indifference. Now she +flung back her head and mocked him. + +"So you hope I'll fall," she said. "Perhaps I hope so too. Do you +think I care, that I'm afraid of breaking my neck?" + +Her voice was not raised a tone from its ordinary level, but passion +and contempt vibrated in every accent. An unwilling admiration stirred +the man's dull brutality. He could dismiss her to-morrow, but he would +never find another woman who would be her match for physique and +endurance. Besides, others would know their value and demand a larger +salary. + +He pointed to the performers' exit. "_Allez_!" + +As she rode past, Arithelli made him a little bow. It was the salute +of a courteous duellist to his adversary. To his profound surprise the +Manager found himself acknowledging it, with like dignity. + +At eight o'clock that evening she sat before the glass in her +dressing-room and awaited the shouted summons of the impish call-boy, +who respected no one on earth, and to whom she was never "Mamzelle" or +"Senora," but only Arithelli. The dresser had gone out for an instant, +leaving the door ajar, and a noisy burst of applause swept along the +passage. + +The audience was in a particularly good temper, and ready to be amused +at anything. In view of the royal guests the Manager had provided +several exciting novelties. There was a wonderful troupe of performing +horses who did everything that a horse is popularly supposed to be +incapable of doing; there was a gypsy girl from Seville with a +marvellous bear, whose intelligence appeared to be of a superior +quality to that of the average human being; there were new jokes, new +tricks, fresh costumes. + +As Arithelli rode in she heard her name called, and her state of frozen +misery suddenly gave way to a hot thrill of excitement. + +Her head went up like a stag, and her nostrils dilated. She inhaled +again the familiar warm scent of freshly strewn tan and hay and +animals. It had intoxicated her as a child of twelve, when she had +been taken to see a travelling circus in Ireland, and it intoxicated +her now. + +The seats were a packed mass of people, and in the upper places and +from the royal box, bright colours flamed, and jewels and restless fans +glittered and moved. In honour of the occasion every woman had draped +herself in the graceful mantilla, either black or white, and even the +poorest wore a scarlet or orange silk-fringed _crepe_ shawl. + +The usual precautions as to detectives and a guard of soldiers had been +taken, but the buxom and amiable Infanta was popular among the lower +orders, so that no revolutionist outbreak was feared. + +Her charities were famous, her diamonds and Paris toilettes equally so. +She smiled graciously at Arithelli as horse and rider bowed before her, +and pulling out a few blossoms from the bouquet that rested on the +ledge, threw them into the arena. As the girl looked up and the level +unsmiling gaze met hers, the older woman started back. + +"_Santa Vierge_!" she muttered, hastily crossing herself. "She looks +in Purgatory already, with those strange eyes!" + + + + +CHAPTER X + + "The nights that were days, and the days that were nights, + Griefs and glories and vain delights, + With Fame before us in fancy flights, + We mocked each other and cried 'All's well'!" + LOVE IN BOHEMIA. + + +Of her first act Arithelli had no fear. She knew that she was safe in +trusting to the skill and training of her horse to accomplish +successfully all the stereotyped movements of the _haute ecole_. She +had only to sit still and look graceful, and guide him through his +paces as he waltzed, turned or knelt. She carried a whip for show, but +she had never used it. A word, a caress had always been enough, and +she would have been beaten herself rather than touch the beautiful +creature that carried her. + +In the next act it would be all different. Everything depended on her +own balance and accuracy. It would be all trick work then, not riding. +As she slid out of her habit and into the ugly ballet-skirts she +loathed, her courage vanished and she trembled as she faced the +audience for the second time, transformed in white satin and pale blue, +the thinness of her neck and arms painfully apparent. + +The flying rush through the air as she jumped the hurdles and gates +made her feel horribly dazed and giddy, and unable to collect her +senses in time for the next leap. As she descended lightly in her +heelless silk slippers upon Don Juan's back after the fourth hurdle had +been passed, she swayed and only by a violent effort recovered herself. +Her heart seemed to be beating right up in her throat and choking her. +She put up one hand and pulled at her turquoise collar till the clasp +gave way and thrust the blue stones into the low-cut bodice. The band +sounded louder than ever, the light danced and waved. Round and round +and round again, while the ring-master's whip cracked monotonously. + +The rhythm of the waltz beat in her brain as the music in some +delirious dream. She wondered dully why there was so little applause +now. Was she doing so badly? Once she had jumped too low and knocked +against a hurdle instead of clearing it properly. The grooms had +helped her by lowering everything as much as possible, but all they +could do had not been able to disguise her unwonted awkwardness. + +She would have a few minutes' rest when the clown came on, and perhaps +that would help her to go through the rest of the act without an +absolute breakdown. + +The interlude was all too short, the signal came and she sprang up and +poised herself mechanically. Again the waltz music struck up and Don +Juan's hoofs fell with a soft thud upon the tan. The hurdles and gates +had all been cleared successfully, and now she must dismount and let +her steed go round alone while she ran across from the opposite side of +the ring and vaulted from the ground to the saddle. + +It was the trick she had found impossible to get through at the +rehearsal, the trick she most dreaded. Everything depended on her +coolness and steadiness. She must start exactly at the right time, and +measure the distance with unerring precision. For the first time in +her life she feared the audience. She knew too well the fickle nature +of a Spanish crowd. To a performer who failed to please them they +would be merciless. People who screamed aloud for more blood when the +sport had been tame at a bull-fight, people who habitually tortured +their animals, were not likely to show consideration to one who was +paid to entertain them. They would applaud furiously one minute and +hiss furiously the next. + +As she stood alone, waiting, she glanced instinctively towards the +place where Emile always sat, and wished he had been there. He would +be angry with her if she failed, but she felt somehow that he would be +sorry for her as well. Perhaps he might even make excuses for her, for +he was the only person who knew about the episode of the previous +night, and her injured hand. Sometimes she had loved the swaying crowd +of human beings for whose amusement she risked her life and limbs. Now +she hated the eager watching faces. They only wanted to see her fall, +she told herself. + +She ran blindly across the open space. The next instant she was on her +feet on the ground again and Don Juan had stopped short. Her upward +leap had carried her on to his back, but she had not been able to keep +her balance. + +There was dead silence and then the hissing in the audience broke out, +vehement and unrestrained. + +That she had pleased them hitherto went for nothing in her favour now. +She had been clumsy, ungraceful, had failed--that was enough. + +Arithelli herself scarcely heard the sounds of execration, as she stood +swaying with one hand over her eyes to shut out the horrible glare. +She was conscious only of that and the strident noise of the band, and +the sensation of choking she had felt once before. The instinct of all +animals to hide themselves in the dark when ill, was strong upon her. + +The fat little ring-master who alone had the sense to see there was +something wrong, advanced and spoke to her in an agitated whisper. She +gave him her hand and he led her out, leaving her hurriedly to go back +and apologise to the irate spectators, and to claim their indulgence on +the score of her sudden faintness. + + * * * * * * + +Would she ever get to her room, Arithelli wondered, as she struggled +down the passage. It had never seemed so long before. Her hand went +up to her throat again. She longed for something cool to drink to +relieve the aching and dryness. It must be caused by the heat and dust +of the ring, she thought. + +A man's voice sounded behind her, and then hurrying footsteps. She +pulled her long blue cloak round her and went on without answering or +turning her head. It could only be the Manager coming to upbraid her. + +An arm was flung round her protectingly and she turned with the face of +a hunted animal, and looked up into the wild dark eyes of Vardri. + +"What has happened? You're ill! It's no wonder. _Mon Dieu_, those +brutes last night . . ." + +He pulled her head back against his shoulder, dropping his voice to a +murmur of exquisite gentleness. "_Mon enfant--ma petite enfant_!" + +"You saw me fall?" she whispered. + +"The men told me when they brought Don Juan out. I didn't see what +happened. Were you hurt or only faint?" + +"Oh, my hand? That's nothing. Emile says it will heal in a day or +two. But I felt so stupid. . . . Vardri, you don't think I'm going to +be ill, do you? I've never been ill in my life . . . never!" + +The boy made some incoherent answer. Her piteous entreaty tore at his +heart. Every fibre in his starved body ached with the desire to give +her the rest and peace she needed above all things. + +What could he do without money? His own miserable wages barely served +for necessities. He was only a useless vagabond, an outcast. He +ground his teeth together at the thought of his own impotence. + +"Courage, little one. They will cheer you again to-morrow. They are +cruel, these Spaniards, and fickle. You must not care." + +It did not seem strange to either of them that he should be holding her +in his arms. After last night everything had changed. Love, Youth, +and Nature were hard at work weaving the bonds that drew them together. + +The fact that she suffered his caresses had given him the right of +manhood to protect her, to be her champion, to fight her battles. If +he could do nothing else for her, at least he could fight. For him the +crown of happiness could be found in loyal service. Of love-making in +its ordinary sense, Vardri neither thought nor dreamed. To have found +his Ideal, the one woman, surely that was enough. The innate +fastidiousness that goes with good breeding had kept his life clean, +his hands unsoiled. + +He had hated the other women in the Circus, and felt sorry for them at +the same time; and on their side they liked him and regarded him +somewhat as a fool. Their voices, their coarse expressions, their +light jokes all jarred on him. + +He pitied them, for their lives were as hard as his own, and when he +could he helped them, for among the wanderers in Bohemia there is an +ever-abiding comradeship. The element of fanaticism in his nature, +which had once been absorbed by the Cause, now spent itself upon a +human being. + +The firm yet gentle clasp in which he held her, was the outward symbol +of the love and courage that made him tense as steel. To every man +there comes his hour, and his was now. Both for her sake and his own +he dare not keep her with him. That they had been left undisturbed so +long was a miracle. Besides, as she was ill, the sooner she was in bed +the better. + +He half led, half carried her to the door of her dressing room, and she +thanked him with a smile, a gesture. Her throat hurt so much that all +speech was an effort. + +"You must go now," she whispered. "You will get into trouble again +through me." + +The boy threw a quick furtive glance along the whitewashed passage. +With characteristic recklessness he had forgotten that the chances of +his summary dismissal were looming exceedingly near. + +He had left half his work undone the previous night, he had appeared +late that morning, and now he was in a part of the building to which +all the grooms and stable helpers were forbidden entrance. + +"You'll let me bring you home," he pleaded. + +Arithelli shook her head. "You can't." + +"Is Emile coming for you? You shall not go alone, that I swear!" + +"Emile will send someone. They never let me go alone. If you will, +you may do this. If I am not down at the stables at half-past eight +to-morrow, will you find Emile and ask him to come to me. He will be +there doing my work." + +"And you will sleep and be well to-morrow? To-morrow you will ride +again, and there will be the applause." + +Even as he spoke he knew his words were foolishness. The feverish +skin, dry lips and eyes that were like burning holes in the thin oval +face were signs and tokens enough for the most unseeing of men. And +Vardri had suffered sufficiently himself to be able to recognise +genuine illness. + +She slipped from his arms. + +The little dreary laugh made him shiver. + +"_Mille remerciments, mon camarade_. I'm a failure, and failures are +best left alone. _C'est ainsi que la vie_!" + + * * * * * * + +Hers was the sole fiasco in an otherwise successful performance. + +The final spectacle was a lurid representation of the destruction of +Sodom and Gomorrah. + +This species of scriptural tableaux was frequently given, and was +greatly to the taste of the spectators. + +Such scenes were regularly presented in the theatres and heartily +enjoyed by the superstitious and devout populace, who found in them +nothing incongruous or repulsive to their piety. + +In this particular display the Manager had excelled himself, and +achieved above all things a most vivid realism. + +The gentleman who impersonated the patriarch Lot had a distinctly +modern air, and resembled a third-rate Anarchist in depressing +circumstances. + +He was dark and swarthy, and possessed a ferocious expression, and on +the whole suggested a caricature of Emile in his worst frame of mind. + +He appeared in company with his reluctant spouse, whom he dragged along +by the hand, she meanwhile obviously unwilling to leave the urban +delights of the Cities of the Plain for a pastoral and dull existence +in the desert, and as she was several sizes larger than her husband, +she seemed likely to get the best of the encounter. + +She was the same fat Englishwoman who had driven Arithelli's horses in +the chariot. She was by no means young, she had applied her rouge with +a lavish hand, and her golden wig was an outrage. Her airs and graces +were those of a well-fed operatic soprano. + +She advanced in jerks, she clutched at her plump anatomy and she rolled +her eyes appealingly at the gallery, which responded with delighted +yells. + +In her train came a small flock of dejected-looking, but real sheep, +which were seemingly inspired by sufficient intelligence to wish to +avoid the coming catastrophe. + +The city (or cities) was represented by coarsely-painted scenery, and, +owing to some defect in the perspective, appeared to be only a few feet +from the travellers, though doubtless intended to fill the distant +horizon. + +The fleeing pair jerked slowly across the stage in time to subdued but +brassy music from the Hippodrome band, the sheep followed, and thunder +and lightning were heard and seen. + +Flashes and bangs resounded, the doomed city rocked upon its +foundations, and the audience joined in the uproar. + +Sacks full of flour descended from Heaven and burst, converting the +fleshly Mrs. Lot into the traditional pillar of salt, and the house and +the curtain were brought down together. + +Restored to good-humour, the audience had forgotten the disgrace and +failure of their favourite _equestrienne_. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + "I am tired of tears and laughter + And men that laugh and weep, + Of what may come hereafter + For men that sow and reap. + I am weary of days and hours, + Blown buds of barren flowers, + Desires and dreams and powers, + And everything but sleep." + SWINBURNE. + + +If anyone had told Arithelli that she was in for a sharp attack of +diphtheria, she would have felt surprised and not very much +enlightened. Her ignorance of everything connected with illness was +supreme, and since childhood she had had no recollection of medicine +and doctors. Her parents indulged in theories on the subject of +complaints, the principal one being a large disbelief in their +existence. To them anything unhealthy or ailing was an aversion, a +thing to be avoided rather than pitied. + +For accidents, sprains and breakages their pharmacopoeia suggested and +did not go beyond two ideas,--salt and water and Nature. + +The Oriental strain in her character helped her to endure where an +ordinary woman would have fussed, cried, or grumbled. At home if she +had had a fall or did not look her best she had been expected to +consider herself in disgrace, and to keep out of the way till such time +as she had completely recovered her looks and spirits. + +When she returned to her lodgings, it did not occur to her to rouse the +landlady and demand remedies or attentions. The walk home had been a +nightmare, and now she had all she wanted--solitude and the blessed +darkness. She threw off her dress and boots, and walked the room hour +after hour. She still heard the brazen band, and saw the flaming +lights and her ears echoed to the dreadful sounds of hissing. +Sometimes she had drunk feverishly of the very doubtful water against +which Emile had so often cautioned her. When it was nearly dawn she +gave in, and lay huddled up on the bed, half-delirious with the pain +and feeling of suffocation. + +Two streets away, and in a room more squalid than her own, Vardri was +also enduring his own private Purgatory. Hers was physical, his +mental. That was all the difference. + +Long before half-past eight he was down at the stables and there +received the dismissal he had fully expected, being ordered off the +premises by the head groom, who had received directions the night +before to give Vardri a week's wages, and turn him out of the place +without delay. It was no use protesting. The Manager was not yet +visible, and even if he had been Vardri knew there was no appeal. + +There had been complaints about his negligence more than once, and of +course he had been missed on the previous evening. None of the +"strappers" would have reported him, but one of the clowns, a Spaniard +with whom he had fought for ill-treating a horse, had seen him leaving +the vicinity of the dressing-rooms, and had carried the information to +headquarters. + +The informer had chosen his time well, and had found the Manager raging +over Arithelli's mishap, and ready to dismiss anyone with or without +reason. + +Vardri turned his back on the place whistling defiance, and with his +courage fallen below zero. He would have liked to say good-bye to the +horses, and to some of the men who were his friends. He had never +disliked the actual work, and it was at the Hippodrome that he had +first met Arithelli. Her misfortune and his had come together. At any +other time it would not have been quite so bad. A few months ago he +would not have cared whether he lost his place or not. + +There had been nothing much in life then, and one could always find a +short way out of it _via_ the water or an overdose of something. + +But now the world was changed, and he craved for Life and the fulness +of Life, for he had tasted happiness and stood for a moment in the +outer courts of the House of Love. He had no friends who could have +helped him, and no qualifications for earning his living at any other +trade or profession. He had begun life with a luxurious home, a +refined and useless education, and the mind of a dreamer, an idealist. +None of these things were valuable assets in his present career. + +Like Arithelli he spoke several languages more or less fluently, and +like her again possessed both understanding and a love of horses, but +what avail were these things when he had neither money, references nor +influence, and as a further disadvantage he was known to be an +associate of the revolutionaries, and his tendency to consumption would +keep him out of many kinds of employment. + +He turned over the few coins in his hand. Just enough to keep him for +a week and then--the deluge! + +He waited, prowling up and down the street, impatiently until Emile +appeared in the distance. + +A few minutes later, the two men were at the door of Arithelli's +lodgings. The landlady met them on the stairs, hag-like in the +disarray of the early morning, and evidently terrified out of such +humanity as she possessed by the fear of infection. She had gone up +with the early morning coffee and found Arithelli raving aloud and +tearing at her throat. Her first thought had been to turn the girl out +of doors, or, as she was obviously incapable of moving, to send for a +priest and a nursing sister, and have her taken to the public hospital. +A wholesome fear of Emile prevented her from giving utterance to these +charitable impulses. + +She invoked every saint in the calendar, whose name she could remember, +and crossed herself with automaton-like energy. + +She could not, she protested, be expected to nurse such a dangerous +case of fever as this undoubtedly was. There was her son, the adored +of her old age. _Santa Maria_! If he also were stricken! + +Emile pushed her on one side. "I'll talk to you presently," he said in +her own dialect. "If you are going into hysterics with fright you'll +catch anything that is catching. If you behave sensibly you won't." + +The window was fully open and the green shutters thrown back, and the +fierce sunlight streamed into Arithelli's room, which showed more than +its normal disorder. The tray with the _cafe complet_ was on the floor +where the landlady had left it on her hasty stampede downstairs, +half-a-dozen turquoise rings lay strewn over a little table, where they +had been thrown when they were dragged off, boys' clothes trailed over +the back of one chair, and a blue skirt over another. The only orderly +thing visible was the immaculate row of fine kid boots, long, narrow, +pearl-grey, tan and champagne-coloured. + +Arithelli lay on the big bed under the faded canopy. She had wrapped +herself in a thin blue _peignoir_, and her face was half hidden in +tangled hair. The tumbled bed-clothes were pulled to one side and +dragging on the dusty boards. She was quite unconscious of anyone's +presence, and moaned softly in a strangled fashion. + +The two men stood without speaking, and watched the writhing, restless +figure. Vardri turned away first with a smothered exclamation. Would +he always be obliged to see her tortured in some way or another? The +Fates were sending him more than any man could bear to look upon. + +"What are you going to do?" he said roughly in French, "I can't stand +seeing this!" + +Emile showed no signs of surprise at the other's manifest anxiety, +possibly because his own was as deep, though his method of expressing +it was different. He felt helpless, and, being a man, resented the +feeling, so by consequence his always rugged manner became even more +unpleasant than usual. + +"Well," he rejoined, "what can you expect in this filthy place? This +street isn't so bad, but of course she has so often been down in those +slums in the Parelelo. The Calle de Pescadores alone is enough to give +anyone a fever. I think Sobrenski has made a point of sending her down +every poisonous street in the place. Ireland's a clean country, you +see, compared with this, so she hasn't much chance, and as she starves +herself half the time that won't make things any better." + +"She must have some woman to look after her. I suppose the landlady +here will be no good?" + +"Not unless you pay her.--Who's going to do that?" + +"There's Estelle." + +"Estelle!" Emile exploded a fierce Russian oath. "Do you want _more_ +hysterics?" Vardri was tramping up and down the room with the +noiseless agility of an animal, his fingers mechanically at work at a +cigarette. + +"She must have a doctor too. Isn't there an English doctor here?" + +"Probably. Do you propose to pay him too?" + +The dryly sarcastic voice, the practical question brought Vardri down +from the clouds to the hard facts of life. Illnesses and doctors were +expensive things. He had no money, and Emile very little. + +"I'll get a _Soeur de Charite_ from one of the convents. She'll come +for nothing. Nursing is their work. I was--I mean I'm a Catholic. +She's a Catholic, too, isn't she?" + +"No, she hates them. She was educated in a convent, where as far as I +can gather from her own account she acquired more learning than piety. +Under the present circumstances I can only suggest the horse-doctor." + +"What's the use of--?" + +"I believe he began by doctoring human beings, but like the rest of us +out here, he is a little under a cloud. He prefers animals now. They +don't tell tales. Human beings do. Besides, he's English, or rather, +Irish. Better go and tell him to come up. You know his rooms. Tell +him it's infectious, and he can bring up a few cigarettes for me if he +feels generous. Don't trouble about your _Soeur de Charite_. I'll see +that the woman here makes herself useful." + +Vardri flung himself out of the room and down the rickety stairs at +breakneck speed, thankful beyond measure for the relief of action. + +Emile subsided into a chair and smoked furiously and meditated upon the +untoward situation. Being of a practical turn of mind he began to make +calculations. Vardri had told him briefly of how Arithelli had failed +in the trick-riding, fallen off her horse, and been hissed out of the +ring. The loss of popularity might mean the end of her career. In any +case he could see she was desperately ill, and there was small chance +of her being about under three weeks, and even then she would not be +able to work at once. Meanwhile they had exactly two pounds a week to +live upon. + +Truly women added to the complications of life! He might borrow money, +but that was a thing to be resorted to only in the last extremity. +Most of the members of his Circle were as poor as himself or poorer. +They were all bound together by the tie of brotherhood, and no one +would have grudged or refused a loan, but Emile scrupled to borrow from +those who were in greater privation than himself. + +Sobrenski was fairly well off, but he lived like an ascetic and gave +everything to the Cause; besides, Sobrenski was out of the question. +To appeal to him on Arithelli's behalf would only be to give him a +chance for refusal and a jeer at female conspirators. + +Her turquoise rings Emile collected from the table, and put them into +his pocket; her collar of turquoises he rescued from the floor, where +it had fallen when she took off her bodice. The jewels could all be +turned into the money they needed so badly. Of course she had not +saved a single _peseta_. Emile had the handling of her salary, and he +knew that anything left over from the expenses of food and lodging went +in clothes and her particular vanity, dainty boots. + +She was lavishly generous to the Hippodrome staff, and there was always +a certain tribute claimed from all its adherents by the Cause. + +He did not hunt further for valuables. If there was either money or +jewellery in Arithelli's possession it was sure to be found in quite a +conspicuous place. + +The varied life of the city surged to and fro beneath the window, the +varied noises floated up into the room, and under the faded red brocade +curtains, Arithelli turned from side to side and moaned with closed +eyes. A seller of fruit passed, crying his wares. + +Emile went down into the street and bought a couple of oranges, and +squeezed the juice into the cup that had been destined for the coffee. + +He had not the least idea as to what particular malady Arithelli had +developed, but he knew that fever and delirium always went together, +and that with fever there is invariably thirst. He lifted her up and +pushed the pillow higher to relieve her breathing, but he could hardly +do more than moisten her parched and bitten lips. Then he "tidied" the +bed with masculine pulls and jerks till it was even more untidy than +before, and went back to his chair. There was nothing more to be done +for her in the way of alleviation till the doctor came. + +He took up a book, and tried to shut his ears and distract his +thoughts. As he stared unseeingly at the printed pages, there suddenly +flashed into his brain the name of Count Vladimir, the owner of "_The +Witch_." Here was the very man to whom he could confidently apply for +help in the present difficulties, for the Russian had made it his +business in life to bestow his wealth in assisting the revolutionaries. +Emile decided that he would write tomorrow, when he had acquired +certain particulars as to the address he wanted. + +Fatalite had done good work for the Cause, he argued, therefore let +those who supported the organisation keep her till she was able to work +again. + +The next task he would have to undertake would be that of bullying or +bribing the landlady into a promise to undertake at least some of the +duties of a sick-room. The rest of the nursing he proposed to do +himself. He grinned as he lit another evil-smelling cigarette, at the +thought of Vardri's proposal. + +He possessed an artistic sense of the fitness of things, and the +suggested _Soeur de Charite_ appealed to him as being quite out of the +picture. Besides Arithelli had no respect for priests or nuns; Emile +remembered her inimitable descriptions of the spying "Children of +Mary," and she should not be worried with either if he could help it. + +Yes, certainly the incapable old landlady would be preferable to a +white-capped _religeuse_, for the latter, though not likely by virtue +of her training to be scared by the physical atmosphere, would +undoubtedly be appalled by the mental and moral one. Most likely she +would take advantage of Arithelli's weakness to persuade her of the +danger of her present way of living. The Church of Rome is never slow +at seizing the chance of making a convert, and the power of the Church +in Spain is a byword. + +Though Emile had a profound scorn for conventions, he had at one time +had his place among that class of human beings that calls itself +"Society," and he knew its rules and ways as he despised its +hypocrisies. He could look at Arithelli's position quite judicially, +and as an outsider. The world, religious and otherwise, would +certainly not give her the benefit of the doubt. + +She was young, she was possessed of a weird and haunting beauty, she +had no women friends, no relations, and no companions but a set of +law-breakers, all of whom were men. No one would believe that she was +untouched, unawakened, that she had been treated as a boy, and her +womanhood not so much respected as ignored. If anyone put the wrong +ideas into her head, Emile reflected, it was sure to be one of her own +sex. + +Having matured his plans he descended to the kitchen regions, +manufacturing impressive threats _en route_. + +Here an answer to his problem presented itself, or rather herself. The +landlady had a niece who came in daily to assist in household matters, +and take part in a duet of feminine gossip. + +She was a solid young woman of unmoved countenance, who was quite +prepared to nurse the ten plagues of Egypt, providing she received +sufficient remuneration. She proposed to get married at the earliest +opportunity and what Emile offered her would be of great assistance in +providing her bridal finery. + +The two came to an agreement rapidly, and Emile climbed the stairs +again, triumphant. + +He began to feel anxious about the doctor. Two hours had passed and +there was no sight of him. He might be out, or he might be drunk. +Emile knew the little weakness of Michael Furness, and as Vardri had +not returned it meant that he was still searching. + +At last the horse-doctor arrived, grunting and ruffling up his crest of +curly black hair. He had a large heart by way of counterbalance to his +many failings, and he was interested in Arithelli, for he had come +across her once or twice in the stables, and had heard various +picturesque stories of her exploits. He might have been a success in +his own profession, but for the two temptations that beset every +Irishman--whisky and horses. + +He had left his practice in the city of Cork, as Emile had said, +somewhat under a cloud, and had given up whisky for the _absinthe_ of +the _cafes_, and had not regretted the exchange. He made his +examination quickly, handling the girl with a surprising skill and +deftness, in spite of his big clumsy-looking hands. + +When he touched her she opened her eyes. + +"_Mais, ou suis je_?" she murmured, painfully dragging out the words. +Then followed Emile's name. + +The doctor laid her back gently, and stood holding one of her wrists. +"She thinks it's you, Poleski! 'Tis diphtheria. A bad case, too. +Shall want some looking afther. Who's seeing to her?" + +"I am," responded Emile, coolly. + +"The divil ye are!" The Irishman's long upper lip twitched humorously. +"Well, treat her gintly then, me bhoy! You're wise to be smoking. +Less chance of infection. I'll keep you company." He produced a +couple of thin black cigars, and handed one to Emile. + +"See, now," Michael Furness added seriously, "I may as well be telling +you the truth. Your little friend there hasn't a very big chance. +She's been going to bits for some time. If it hadn't been this it +would have been something else. She's got a grand physique, so there's +hope. If she's worse by to-morrow she ought to have an operation. +Only I can't undertake it, ye see. There's the trouble. My hand isn't +as steady as it was, and I haven't the instruments." + +Emile nodded. He knew nothing of the operation of tracheotomy, and +though he spoke English well he found it difficult to follow Michael's +soft, thick, County Cork speech. + +"She's a grand heap of a girl, isn't she?" continued that gentleman, +regarding Arithelli with kindly eyes. He had all the Celt's love of +romance, and the ingrained reverence of the Irish Catholic for women. +"This isn't the place for girls, at all, at all! And they tell me +she's from the old country. Will I be sending up one of the good +Sisthers to see after her, and put things to rights a bit?" + +For the second time that day Emile ungratefully rejected the +ministrations of the Church. He knew that no one else in Spain ever +thought of employing anyone but the religious orders as nurses, but he +preferred to arrange things in his own way and said so. + +"Ah, well then!" said Michael amiably, "give her something to drink if +she wants it. That's all. I'll look in again this evening. She'll +have taken a turn then one way or the other. It's a quick thing, this." + +Arithelli's ministering angels left in each other's company. Michael +drifted back to his favourite _cafe_, while Emile betook himself to the +Hippodrome to wage war with that amiable functionary, the Manager. The +strife was both noisy and prolonged, and resulted in only a partial +victory for Emile. With many picturesque oaths the Manager accused +himself of folly unspeakable in not dismissing Arithelli at once. + +She had a contract? Yes! But in it there was no allowance made for +incompetence and non-appearance. It only stipulated that she should be +paid for doing her work. She had not done it, and moreover she had +refused to practise. That he should be expected to continue to pay her +a salary even of the smallest description while she lay in bed was a +monstrous impertinence. + +Would he not have the trouble and expense of getting another artiste to +fill her place? There must be an _equestrienne_ in the programme. If +she found herself taken back again to finish her time after this +illness or whatever it was, then she should be more than grateful, but +as for paying salaries to _employes_ who did not work, why, did people +consider him an imbecile? + +Emile shrugged and sneered at intervals throughout this tirade. He had +wisely begun by asking more than he knew he was at all likely to get, +and was now obliged to be satisfied with the compromise. + +Disappointment followed his search for the whereabouts of Count +Vladimir. The owner of "_The Witch_" was expected back in Barcelona in +a month or so, no one knew exactly when. Letters might be addressed +Poste Restante, Corfu, for he was cruising in his phantom craft through +those sapphire seas that lie round about the Ionian Islands. + +There was nothing to do but to write and wait. One piece of ill-luck +was following close upon another, and Emile felt that he needed all the +consolations that his cynical philosophy could afford. + +His anxiety on Arithelli's behalf was fast becoming an obsession. When +she had first come into his life he had wondered sometimes how she +would stand the late hours and all the hardships of a circus training, +but after her one outburst she had never complained again. + +He thought the sea-trip had done her good. Of course she always looked +pale, but then that was her type. + +He had also been impressed with the unwonted seriousness of Michael, +knowing that in spite of his erratic ways the doctor understood his +craft. + +Emile's instinct prompted him vigorously to go back now and see how she +was getting on, but he dared not neglect the work of his Society. +There were letters to be written, arrangements to be made, all the +usual paraphernalia of intrigue to be kept going. + +He returned to his own rooms and began to write savagely, using all his +will to expel from his brain the vision of the girl as he had seen her +last, semi-conscious, and yet with his name on her lips. + +Michael had promised to see her again at six o'clock. It would be time +enough if he also went then. Besides, the Cause came first always, and +there were many women in the world. His pen tore fiercely over the +paper as something whispered: "Women? Yes. But another Arithelli--?" + + + + +CHAPTER XII + +"I have something more to think of than Love. All the women in the +world would not make me waste an hour." + SAYING OF NAPOLEON. + + +The stolid niece blundered heavily about the room, doing things that +were entirely unnecessary, and raising much dust. She was a +conscientious person in her own way, and felt that she must get through +a certain amount of work in return for the anticipated reward. + +She banged chairs and table about, folded up scattered clothes, +investigated them with much interest, and fingered and re-arranged the +row of boots with muttered ejaculations and covetous eyes. She had +previously contrived to get Arithelli into a night dress, had brushed +her hair back and plaited it, and pulled the green shutters together to +keep out the midday glare. + +As she looked at the livid face patched with scarlet against the coarse +linen, Maria began to feel a little perturbed. Something in the +atmosphere of the room had penetrated even the brick wall of her +stolidity. She hoped the two Senors would soon return and relieve her +of the responsibility of her charge. + +The stillness oppressed her, for Arithelli had ceased her moaning and +muttering for a merciful stupor. + +As the hours went on the fever increased, and the horrible fungus in +her throat spread with an appalling rapidity. + +As Michael Furness had prophesied, the crisis would soon be reached, +and she had everything save youth against her in the fight for life. + +Maria crossed herself perfunctorily and mumbled a few prayers. +Doubtless the Senora was like all the English, a heretic, and +therefore, according to the comfortable tenets of the Roman faith, +eternally damned, but a little prayer would do no harm, and would be +counted to herself as an act of charity. + +That ceremony over, more mundane considerations engrossed her mind. +She could smell the pungent odour of the _olla podrida_, or national +stew, insinuating itself through the half-open door, and she knew that +if she were not present at the meal, there would be more than one +hungry mouth ready to devour her share. + +She drew a breath of relief as she marched heavily downstairs to the +more congenial surroundings of the kitchen. She had done her duty. +Senor Poleski had not told her to stay in the room all the time he was +away, and she could easily be back again before he came in. + +Michael was the first to appear, almost aggressively sober, and +carrying a small wooden box. His interest in his case was as much +human as professional, and instead of wasting the afternoon, after his +usual custom, loafing and drinking, he had gone, after one modest glass +of the rough _Val de Penas_, to search in out-of-the-way streets for a +certain herbalist of repute. + +This was an aged Spanish Jew, unclean and cadaverous, with patriarchal +grey beard and piercing eyes, a man renowned for his marvellous cures +among the peasantry. + +He was regarded more or less as a wizard, though his wizardry consisted +solely in a knowledge of natural remedies, and the exercise of a power +which would have been described at the Paris Salpetriere as hypnotic +suggestion. By the aid of this he was able to inspire his patients +with the faith so necessary to a successful treatment. + +Michael was not fettered in any way by the ordinary conventions of a +practitioner. He had neither drugs nor instruments of his own +wherewith to effect a cure on ordinary lines, and what he had seen of +herbalists in Spain had inspired him with a vast respect for the +simplicity and success of their methods. The wooden box contained a +quantity of leaves which, steeped in scalding water, and applied to the +patient's throat, possessed the power of reducing the inflammation and +drawing out the poison through the pores of the skin. Of their +efficacy Michael entertained not the slightest doubt. + +He walked straight to the bed, and glanced at Arithelli's throat, now +almost covered with white patches of membrane. There was no time to +waste if she was to be saved from the ghastliness of slow suffocation. + +He went to the head of the stairs and yelled lustily for Maria, whom he +commanded to produce boiling water immediately, thus further adding to +the reputation of the mad English for haste and unreasonableness. + +Then he took off his coat, rolled up his sleeves, and began busily to +clear a space on the table, on which he emptied the contents of the box. + +All his movements had suddenly become alert and energetic. The joy of +the true physician, the healer, had awakened in him at the prospect of +a duel with Death, and he was no longer merely the slouching, +good-natured wastrel who doctored horses at the Hippodrome. + +He possessed for the moment the dignity of a leader, of the master of a +situation. He smiled to himself as he moved about humming a verse of +"Let Ireland remember," and swept away a _debris_ of books, a rouge +pot, some dead flowers, and a large over-trimmed hat. + +"Shure 'tis back in the surgery again I am," he told himself, while his +lean, ugly face beamed with satisfaction. + +No one who knew Michael Furness had ever suspected the regret by which +he was for ever haunted, regret at the loss of his profession. His +rollicking manner made it impossible to believe him capable of any +depth of feeling, and he had a trick of talking least about the things +for which he cared most. The failing that banned him from his work was +an inherited one. He suffered for the sins of his fathers, for the +indulgences of many generations of hard riding, hard living, reckless +hot-blooded Celts. He was too old to reform now, he would say. +Perhaps later on he would be "making his soul"; in the meantime he +drifted. + +Emile, Maria and the boiling water all made their entree together. The +eyes of the former travelled first of all to the bed and then to the +heap of vegetation. + +"_Qu 'est-ce que c'est que ca_?" he demanded. "She is better, eh?" + +"No, she's worse," answered Michael. He seized upon the leaves and +began to bundle them into the steaming basin. + +"We shouldn't have been gone so long. What's this did ye say, Poleski? +Well, 'tis the only thing I can do for her. After I left you I went +and got these. They're great believers in herbs in this counthry, and +by the light of what I have seen, so am I. The poor people never use +anything else, and I've seen some fine cures. It's unprofessional, but +it's giving her a chance and as I told you I can't operate." He +withdrew his fingers hurriedly. + +"Faith, that jade with the dark eyes knew what she was doing when she +made this water hot! They're ready now, and I'll want a piece of stuff +to lay them on. Find me a piece of the colleen's finery, something old +that she won't be wanting to use any more." + +He pronounced the last two words as "ANNIE MOORE," and would have been +furious if the fact had been pointed out to him, for like all Irishmen +he would never admit the possession of a brogue. + +A pale blue silk scarf was found, and ruthlessly utilised as a bandage. +Then Emile lifted the inert figure, while the doctor wound it round her +throat and fastened it securely. + +"Lift her higher, man," he adjured Emile. + +"There's only one pillow?--Then use this." He rolled up his coat, and +put it behind her head. + +"We've done all we can now, and must just wait till this begins to +draw. It will make her uncomfortable, and we must watch that she +doesn't pull it off. Give me a cigarette if ye have one, Poleski. +'Tis hot work this." + +He sat down on the bed and took up Arithelli's thin wrist. In his +shirt sleeves, with his hair well on end, and his robust voice very +little subdued below its usual pitch, Michael did not convey the +impression that he was capable of taking either Life or Death in a +serious spirit. He talked on gaily, in no way depressed by his +unsympathetic audience, telling tales of his own escapades in the +matter of fighting and love-making, of wild midnight steeplechases +ridden across unknown country, and the delights of the fair town by the +river Lee. + +Once he stopped talking for a few minutes to boil some more water on +the stove that Arithelli sometimes used for making coffee, and to renew +the application of leaves. The fact that his patient was in exactly +the same condition of stupor, and had not stirred, did not discourage +Michael's optimistic views of her recovery. + +"Ye must give it time, me bhoy," he told Emile. "There's no hurry in +Spain, ye know, with anything. Be careful that ye watch her and keep +her hands off her throat. She'll not be lying so quiet presently." + +Emile growled out an inaudible response. He was in a smouldering +condition of wrath and impatience. Reserved and limited of words as he +himself always was, and now rendered savage by anxiety, he found it +impossible to understand the other man's mercurial temperament. By +this time he was without hope, and certainly without faith in either +Michael or his remedies. + +The doctor having skilfully extracted his crumpled outer garment from +under Arithelli's shoulders, regretfully prepared to depart. He was +obliged to be somewhere about the premises of the Hippodrome during +every performance in case of accident to any of the animals, and +careless as he was where his own benefit was concerned, he had +sufficient wisdom to be always within call. + +When he had vanished Emile walked to the window, and threw open the now +useless shutters. He guessed instinctively that Arithelli needed more +air, and he had himself begun to find the temperature almost +unbearable, for the building was lofty, and the room they were in near +the roof. He rested his folded arms upon the sill and leaned his head +and shoulders far out. + +The house stood at a corner, and while the side of it was in a small +street, the front overlooked one of the many wide and beautiful +_paseos_, with which the city abounded. + +A little breeze borne of the incoming tide in the harbour came sweeping +along, and its coolness stirred him into fresh vitality. + +It was the hour of pleasure, when the inhabitants threw off their +sun-begotten sloth and thronged the _cafes_ and public gardens and +promenades. + +On the Rambla, once the bed of a river, the military bands played waltz +music, and the favourite operas, and hot blood moved faster to the +unfailing enchantment of the Habernera, and the newest works of +Massenet and Charpentier. + +It was now dark, and the stars blazed down upon the never-resting city, +with its sinister record of outrages and crimes, and its charm which +was as the alluring of some wild gypsy queen. + +Men fleeing from the justice or vengeance of their own country could +find here a City of Refuge. Here the tide of life ran swiftly, and +churches and cruelty walked hand in hand, and Hate trod close upon the +heels of Love. + +Here no man's life was safe, for from time to time an epidemic of bomb +throwing would break out. Infernal machines would be hurled in an +apparently purposeless fashion wherever there was a large gathering of +people in street or square. A few policemen, soldiers, or onlookers +would be killed or mutilated, and a panic created, but few arrests were +ever made. The whole of the Press would unite to lift up its voice in +an indignant appeal to the Government, and then everything would be +forgotten till the next explosion. People in Barcelona lived from day +to day and accepted lawlessness as a matter of course. + +Emile's own particular circle had no hand in these promiscuous +destructions of life. Their own attempts were invariably well +organised and directed towards some definite end. They did not destroy +life for mere wanton cruelty, and their victims were marked out and +hunted down with an accurate aim. + + +It suddenly occurred to Emile that during the last few months he had +looked upon Barcelona with a changed vision. He had always seen her +beauties and hated them, as a man may hate the fair body of a despised +mistress, while he yet sees it fair. Now the thought that he might at +any time, and at a few days' notice, be forced to leave the place, +struck him with a feeling of blankness and desolation. + +The sense of exile was almost gone, the nostalgia for his own land no +longer keen. Had he turned traitor to his own country, the country for +whose woes he was now suffering--? + +There he had neither home, parents, friends nor lover. Here he +possessed at least interests. + + +A rustling sound behind him made him turn quickly. In the gloom he +could only see the outline of a white moving figure. He groped for the +matches, struck one and lit a candle. + +Arithelli sat upright in bed; she had pushed back the clothes, and her +long fingers were dragging at the blue scarf. It was knotted at the +back under her plait of hair, and she had almost succeeded in loosening +it. The fatal inertia was passed, and she was beside herself with heat +and pain and the fight for breath. + +A couple of strides brought Emile to the bedside. He caught her hands +between his own and drew them down. + +"Listen, Arithelli," he said quietly. "You mustn't do that. This is +to cure your throat. It may hurt you now, but to-morrow you will be +better, _voyez-vous_?" + +The girl writhed in his grasp, turning her head from side to side. The +wild eyes, the tense, quivering body, made Emile think of some forest +animal in a trap. + +The bandage had fallen from her throat and therefore was useless, and +the aromatic scent of the crushed herbs was pungent in the air. He +remembered Michael's injunction, "See that she keeps it on. It's her +only chance." + +She was still struggling frantically, and he needed both hands. For a +moment he meditated tying her wrists together, but he decided to trust +to his influence over her to make her do as he wished, she had always +obeyed him hitherto, and he knew that she was perfectly conscious now, +and capable of understanding what he wanted. + +He set his teeth and tightened his grip, and spoke again in the same +quiet voice. + +"Look at me! That's right. Put your hands down, and keep them so. +You must not touch your throat." + +He held her eyes with his own as he spoke, and after a momentary +struggle and shrinking she grew quiet, and he felt her body relax. Her +eyes closed and she sank down against the pillow, turning her face +towards him. + +"_Pauvre enfant_!" Emile muttered. + +He released her hands and they lay still, and she made no movement to +hinder him as he re-adjusted the bandage. + +He stood looking down upon her. A vast compassion shone in the grey +eyes, that she had only seen hard and penetrating. The gesture of mute +abandonment, the ready compliance had appealed to his complex nature, +which he kept hidden under an armour of coldness and cynicism. For an +instant his years of outlawry and poverty were blotted out and he had +gone back to the days in Russia when he had first come into his +kingdom, and had believed women faithful and their honour a thing on +which to stake one's own. + +As sweet and yielding Marie Roumanoff had seemed when she had lain in +his arms. A few years hence if Arithelli did not succeed in breaking +her neck in the ring, she would probably also make Paradise and Hell +for some man. + +He could see that the dangerous crisis was over. She would live and +eventually go back to her work again. The swift intelligence, the wit +and charm of her--_A quoi bon_? She had been saved, and to what end? +For a dangerous and toilsome profession, and, in secret, another and +still greater peril. + +Husband and children, and the average woman's uneventful, if happy, +fate could never be hers. Her very beauty was of the type almost +repellent to the strictly normal and healthy man. + +She would no doubt have her hour of triumph, of passion. Some +_connoisseur_ of beauty would purchase her as a rare jewel is bought to +catalogue among his treasures. + +In Paris she might achieve notoriety. Not now, perhaps, but later when +she had developed into a woman and knew her own power. Paris loved all +things strange, and gave homage to the woman who was among her fellows +as the orchid among flowers. + +"_FATALITE_," he had named her in jest. Truly a name to bring +misfortune to any woman. Her fate had been in his own hands a few +minutes ago. He could so easily have denied her her chance, her chance +of life. Perhaps the time might come when she would reproach him for +having helped her to live. + +He thrust back the thought and stooped over her. + +"_Mon enfant_, do you want anything to drink? You are thirsty, _n'est +ce pas_?" + +"Yes. And Emile--you won't--go away--yet?" + +"_Ma foi_, no! Drink this and go to sleep." + +He was the Emile of every-day life once more, brusque, blunt and +practical. As he turned away to put the glass back on the table, he +was debating whether it would not be wise to call up Maria. A woman +would understand better what to do for another woman. He knew that +Arithelli would never ask for anything under any circumstances. + +He had taught her too well his own depressing theory that life "mostly +consisted of putting up with things," and in practice thereof the pupil +had outshone her master. + +The rigid tension of her arms and hands as they lay on the coverlet +told of her effort for composure, and he noticed for the first time +that beautiful as the latter still were in shape and colour, one of the +nails was broken, and the finger tips had spread and widened. When +there had been meetings up in the hills at night she had always been +left to see to the unharnessing of the horses and mules, and these +disfigurements were the result of her struggles with saddle-girths and +straps. Her work was usually well done, and if it did not happen to be +satisfactory, she came in for the united grumbles of the whole party. + +Emile bit into his cigarette as his eyes caught the discoloured lines +of Sobrenski's sign-manual on her wrist. + +It was entirely through him, Emile, that she had in the first place +joined the league of conspirators, and this was one of the results. +Sobrenski's judgment had been more far-seeing than his own. One girl +in a roomful of fanatics, (he was one himself, but that did not make +any difference,) would naturally stand a very poor chance if she was +foolish enough to oppose them. + +With masculine thoughtlessness Emile had set the candle close beside +the bed, where it flared full into Arithelli's eyes. + +They were wide open now. The look of desperation had faded, and there +was in them only the appeal of one human being to another for help and +sympathy. + +"_Eh, bien_, Fatalite?" + +She shifted her position wearily and stretched out her hands towards +him, murmuring, "_Je veux dormir_." + +If Emile had possessed either chloroform or any other narcotic he would +at once have given it to her without much thought of the possible +consequences. An inspiration seized him to use the power for soothing +and alleviating provided by Nature. He knew that Arithelli would be an +easy subject for the exercise of animal magnetism, and her morbid +condition would make it even easier for him to send her to sleep. + +He moved away the candle, so as to leave her face in shadow, and +leaning forward he laid his hand across her forehead and eyes, and +began a series of regular and monotonous passes, always in a downward +direction. Once he rested his thumbs lightly on her eyeballs, +remaining so for a few seconds, while his will went out to her, bidding +her sleep and find unconsciousness. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + "There is a woman at the beginning of all great things." + LAMARTINE. + + +The whizzing rush and discordant scream of the electric trams, the sun +warm upon his face, aroused Emile from a restless, fitful sleep of a +few hours. The street cries had begun to swell into a volume of sound, +and at the earliest dawn the whole place teemed with stir and life. +There was no hour in all the night in which Barcelona really slept. +Some of the shops did not close before midnight, and people were +continually passing through the Rambla, and entering and leaving the +_posadas_, which were open for the sale of wine and bread soon after +three o'clock in the morning. + +Emile yawned and stretched, and pulled himself up slowly from the chair +by the open window in which he had fallen asleep. He was cramped and +stiff from his uncomfortable position. Anxiety and strain had deepened +the lines on his face, and his eyes were dull and sunken. He looked +less hard, less alert, and altogether more human and approachable. + +A glance at the bed assured him that Arithelli was still asleep and in +exactly the same attitude as he had left her. Though her sleep was not +a natural one, at least it was better than drugs, and he had given her +a respite, a time of forgetfulness. In a few minutes he would have to +arouse her again to more pain and discomfort, and the inevitable +weariness of convalescence. He stood inhaling the wonderful soft air +and gathering up his energies to face the work of another day. +Arithelli's affairs had to be put straight, and Vardri provided for in +some way. He did not in the least know how this was all to be +accomplished, and at present the problems of the immediate future +seemed likely to prove a little difficult. + +He was not by nature optimistic, and the events of the last few days +had made him even less so than ordinary. He felt that he must go back +to his rooms, and finish out his _siesta_ before he could work out any +more plans. + +Arithelli awoke at once when he touched her and called her name, but +before she had realised where she was Emile was half way downstairs in +search of Maria. + +As it happened it was Sunday morning, and being at least outwardly +devout, the damsel was just on the point of starting for an early Mass, +and was arrayed in her church-going uniform of black gown and _velo_, +and armed with missal and rosary. + +Her round eyes widened and her round mouth grew sulky when she heard +that she was expected to go upstairs without further delay and attend +to Arithelli. Juan would be waiting for her outside the church door, +Maria reflected, and perhaps if she did not come he would seek others. +There was Dolores, of the cigarette factory, for example. The English +Senora could surely wait a few minutes. Her expression, and her +obvious unwillingness, supplied Emile with material for cynical +reflections upon the working value of religion. He did not trouble to +communicate his views to Maria, but merely gave orders and +instructions. His tone and manner were convincing. Like all the rest +of her sex Maria respected a man who knew what he wanted, and showed +that he intended to get it. + +Emile made his way into the cool, shady Rambla, where a double avenue +of plane trees met overhead, and where a grateful darkness could always +be found even at mid-day. On either side of the promenade were the +finest shops, the gaiest _cafes_. A band of students passed him, +waving a scarlet flag and shouting a revolutionary _chanson_ of the +most fiery description. Emile scowled angrily. He had not the least +sympathy with these childish exhibitions of defiance, which he +considered utterly futile and a great waste of time. They did harm to +the serious aims and intentions of the Anarchist community, and were +often the means of getting quite the wrong people arrested. + +At the Flower Market (La Rambla de las Flores) he paused to look at the +heaped roses, gorgeous against the grey stones. Daily they were +brought there in thousands, dew-drenched and fresh from the gardens of +Saria. He took up a loose handful from the piled mass of sweetness and +laid it down again. + +Red roses were not for Fatalite. They would not suit her, and she had +good reason to loathe the colour that was symbolical of blood and +sacrifice. He chose instead a sheaf of lilies, long-stalked and +heavily scented, and despatched them in the care of a picturesque +_gamin_. Sobrenski and the others would certainly have considered him +hopelessly mad if they had known. It was many years since he had sent +flowers to a woman. His present life did not encourage little +courtesies and graceful actions. It was in the natural course of +events that all the comrades should help one another in every possible +way, but none of them made any virtue out of it. It was all done in +the most matter-of-fact way possible. As he had told Arithelli when +they had talked up at Montserrat, one only kissed the hands of a Marie +Spiridonova. And he was sending bouquets as to some _mondaine_ of the +vanished world and of his youth. + +He shrugged and walked slowly on. In passing the house where Michael +Furness lodged, he stopped to leave a message as to Arithelli's +condition, and the advisability of another visit. + +When "_The Witch_" touched at Corfu for letters Count Vladimir found +among them one that twisted afresh the thread of two destinies--his own +and that of a woman. His companion had still the same features and +colouring of the boy who had sung at night under the stars in the +harbour of Barcelona. Pauline Souvaroff still sang through the hours +between dusk and dawn, but her disguise had been discarded, and now +soft skirts trailed as she passed, and the cropped fair hair had grown +and twisted into little rings. Her secret had been no secret to Emile, +though Arithelli with her trick of taking everything for granted had +never guessed that Paul, the singer, was other than the boy he +professed to be. Besides the two women had never talked together +alone, and seldom even seen each other by daylight, for Pauline had +sought no one's company. + +There was for her but one being in the world, and when she could not be +with the man she worshipped she was content to be with her thoughts and +dreams. + +At first she had, like many another Russian woman, yearned to make an +oblation of herself in the service of her horror-ridden country, but +with the coming of love she had put aside all thoughts of vengeance. +The Cause was identified for her with the person of her lover. She +toiled willingly at it still, but from entirely different motives. His +interests were hers, and while he worked for the revolutionary party, +so also must she. + +Pauline Souvaroff had loved much and given freely. All that she +possessed of beauty and charm, her whole body and soul she had laid at +the feet of the man at whose lightest word she flushed and paled, and +on whom she looked with soft, adoring eyes. She lived in dreams, a +life of drugged content in which there was neither past nor future. + +In all the Brotherhood no one could be considered a free agent, and the +ordering of no man's life was in his own hands. The private actions of +each member were almost as well known as his public ones, for each man +spied systematically upon his companions. If the devotion of two +people to one another seemed likely to outrival their devotion to the +Cause, then separation came swiftly. Nothing would be said, no +accusations made, but each would receive orders that sent them in +opposite directions. The supporters of the Red Flag movement were +always particularly ingenious in arranging affairs to suit themselves. +An Anarchist could form no lasting ties. Some time in the future there +was always separation to be faced. + +It was in Vladimir's power to settle matters in his own way by ignoring +Emile's letter, and remaining where he was in enjoyment of the present +idyll. As long as they kept out to sea they were safe. But he had +pledged his word to answer any summons and to give his help, and with +him, as with all men, love came only second to his work. Emile had +also explained Vardri's position, and it would be impossible to adjust +anything without being on the spot. + +He read the letter over again, slowly and carefully. It hinted and +suggested more than it had said. Emile had just come from an interview +with Sobrenski, and there had been a talk of an entire re-organization +of the band. Some of the members would be required to carry on the +propaganda in other countries, Russia, for example. They all knew what +that meant--! + +As he climbed the ladder by the yacht's side, and swung himself onto +the deck, the girl ran up to him with outstretched hands, her white +skirts fluttering behind her in the wind. She was as incapable of +disguising her feelings as a child, and she was a joyous pagan in her +happiness. + +Vladimir slipped his hand under the warm round arm. "Have I been long, +_petite_? Come and walk up and down. I want to talk to you." + +"You have found letters, _mon ami_?" Pauline asked carelessly. + +"From Poleski. Yes. I'm afraid they are rather important ones. We +shall have to talk them over later on." + +"When you like. Vladimir, do you remember the girl Monsieur Poleski +brought on board once for a few days. I never knew her real name. She +always looked so ill and miserable. Do you remember?" + +"It is about this very girl that he has written." + +Pauline looked up quickly. "She is dead?" + +"No! No! I suppose you think that because she always looked such a +tragedy. However, she is very ill, out of danger now, but of course +not able to ride--she was in the Hippodrome, you know--and apparently +she has no money, so one must do something for them. Poleski has +barely enough for two, especially under these circumstances." + +"I am sorry," Pauline said gently. "I remember how she used to sit all +day and look at the sea. Monsieur Poleski left her too much alone, and +always spoke so roughly, but I think he loved her." + +Vladimir gave a short laugh. + +"You're wrong there, child. No, I'm sure that's not the case with +Poleski." + +"But she loves him?" + +"Possibly! She always seemed to me uncanny with those extraordinary +eyes, and that voice. Poleski has certainly failed to educate her as +regards taste in clothes. You saw how she was dressed when she came on +board--!" + +Half an hour later the anchor was up, and they were cutting through the +white-crested waves. The girl pointed to a green headland on the left +that rose suddenly and overhung the water like a sentinel on guard. + +"I have been watching that all the morning in the distance, and I could +think of nothing but the Winged Victory in the Louvre. You remember +how she stands on a rough-hewn pedestal at the head of the marble +staircase, and she is all alone against a dull red background. And as +one looks one goes back all those centuries, and sees her as she was on +the day the Greeks set her up to celebrate their great sea-victory. It +must have all looked just as it does to-day, those centuries ago in the +Island of Samothrace. There was a strong wind blowing, and the waves +met and raced and leapt together, and the sky was the same wonderful +colour that it is now, and there were wild birds hovering and screaming +round her." + +"What will you say to me, when I take you away from all this,--when we +have to go back to Barcelona?" + +"But I shall go with you?" The blue eyes were searching his face, and +there was fear as well as a question in them. + +"Do you suppose I shall leave you here alone, child?" He hated himself +for the evasive answer. + +He turned her thoughts to other things, bidding her talk of those days +they had spent together in Paris. She had named it Paradise, and to +her it had been indeed a place of enchantment, for she saw it for the +first time, and Vladimir was always with her. + +She had seen its treasures of art, and abandoned herself to its glamour +with the enthusiasm and the freshness of a child. + +She had looked out of place in the artificial atmosphere of the +boulevards, among the gas-lit _cafes_, dazzling shop-windows, +_flaneurs_ and gaily dressed women. A man who wrote poetry, and +starved on what he received for his verses in the Quartier Latin, had +stood beside her for a few moments in the Rue de Rivoli, and had gone +home to his garret inspired to produce some lines in which he compared +her to the delicate narcissus blooms that died so quickly in the flower +sellers' baskets. + +Together she and Vladimir had strolled among the wonders of the Louvre, +he critical and unmoved, but indulgent and gratified at her pleasure as +at the pleasure of a child. + +Pauline had never been able to express what she felt. She could only +worship dumbly before the changeless unfading beauty of these relics of +the fairy-cities, of Athens, and Rome, and Alexandria. She had loved +the Greek marbles best. The weird shapes in the Corridor of Pan, the +glorious torso of the Venus Accroupie with the two deep lines in her +side that make her more human and alive than any other Venus, more +divine even than the Milo, faultless in her "serpentining beauty rounds +on rounds," serene and gracious in the shadow of her crimson-hung +alcove. + +And Vladimir was wise, for he allowed her to dream, and did not show +her more than he could help of modern Paris. + +From there they had gone to Brussels, then to Vienna, and last, and +most beautiful of all, Buda-Pesth, the city among the hills. They had +seen it first of all as Buda-Pesth should be seen, at night, hanging +between earth and sky, and with her million lights sparkling against +the soft darkness of the surrounding hills. Pauline's eyes had never +become satiated with the sight of beautiful things. + +Perhaps, as she had told Vladimir, it was her love for him that had +given her this gift of clear-seeing. Without love she might have +allowed herself to be blindfolded as many other women are, by ambition, +or money, or intellect. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + "La vie est vaine, + Un peu d'amour, + Un peu de haine, + Et puis bon jour." + + +In the process of Arithelli's convalescence, comedy fought for place with +tragedy. + +For the first time in her life she felt irritable, and inclined to +grumble, and her racked nerves made the lonely hours appear doubly long +and lonely. + +Day after day, each one seemingly more unending than the last, the sun +poured into her room, and the dust and litter accumulated in all four +corners, and she lay and gazed at the hideous meandering pattern of the +stained wall-paper, and the cracks and blistering paint on the door. The +nights were less terrible, for the darkness veiled all sordid details, +and there was a star-lit patch of sky visible through the open window. + +The attendance she received could only be described as casual. Neither +Emile nor Maria possessed one idea on the subject of hygiene between +them. The methods of the former were, as might be expected, a little +crude, and Maria combined a similar failing with a vast ignorance. +Moreover, she was not original. At the beginning of Arithelli's illness +pineapple juice had seemed to Maria a happy inspiration, and she +continued to provide it daily. What was good to drink on Sunday, she +argued, must also be good on Monday. + +Arithelli's throat had healed quickly, but the depression and weakness +clung to her persistently. She fought it and was ashamed of it, true to +her Spartan traditions, but was forced to realise that it was not in her +own power to hurry her return to the world and work. + +Michael Furness, who was much elated by the success of the Jewish +herbalist's remedy, continued his treatment on the same lines, giving her +various tisanes of leaves and flowers, which if they tasted unpleasant +were at least harmless. He had grown fond of his patient, and she always +looked for his visits with pleasure. He treated her with a genuine, +almost fatherly kindness, and they were drawn together by the kin feeling +of race, so strong among all Celts. In many respects Michael was not +ideal as a medical attendant. + +He smoked vile tobacco,--he dropped some things and knocked over others, +he shaved apparently only on _festas_, and if he happened to arrive late +in the day his speech was thick and his manner excitable. + +Upon one occasion Arithelli had complained that her mane of untended hair +made her uncomfortably hot, and Michael brought out a pocket knife, +clubbed it all together in his hand like a horse's tail, and obligingly +offered to relieve her by cutting it off. Emile had arrived only just in +time to prevent the holocaust, and the two men exchanged fiery words for +the next ten minutes. + +Another day, prompted by a desire to amuse her, Michael introduced into +her room a fat mongrel puppy with disproportionate legs and an alarmed +expression. His wish to provide her with what he was pleased to call a +"divarsion" was, like many of his other good intentions, not entirely +successful. He had deposited the excited animal on the bed, and in the +course of its frantic gambols it overbalanced and fell sprawling to the +floor on its back. The ancient canopied bed was high, and the puppy was +frightened as well as hurt, and lifted up its voice in anguished yells. +When Michael had rescued it, and put it outside the door and finished +laughing, he came back to find Arithelli weeping helplessly with her face +buried in the pillow. His alarmed suggestion that he should fetch Emile +helped her to recover more quickly than any amount of sympathy could have +done. + +Sometimes there were other visitors. The grooms and strappers from the +Hippodrome came often to enquire, and Estelle, forbidden by the Manager +to come at all on account of infection, sat on the stairs and showered +effusive speeches in a high-pitched voice through the open door. + +Arithelli had sent no word of her illness to her parents in London. She +knew their views on the subject of complaints. They would consider the +whole thing due to imagination, there would be unpleasant letters, and it +was perfectly certain that they would send no assistance in the shape of +money. Emile had wished to write, but she had begged him not to do so, +and for once he had yielded to what he called her "whims." + +From the scraps of information she had received from time to time it +appeared that the uncomfortable _menage_ of her kindred had become even +more disorganised. Her father had turned for consolation to the whisky +of his country, her mother spent whole days in bed reading, and weaving +futile dreams of a recovered fortune, and Isobel and Valerie grew taller +and hungrier, and fought and wrangled after the manner of Hooligans. +Lazy and shiftless, they envied Arithelli the life she had chosen, but +had neither the pluck nor the brains necessary to emulate her example. + +Emile's manner had troubled her of late, for he had been strangely +bad-tempered and variable in his moods. She had become more or less +accustomed to his eccentricities of behaviour and speech, but this was +something different, indefinable. One day he would be extraordinarily +kind and considerate, the next almost brutal, either hardly speaking at +all, or else finding fault with everything she said and did. + +She often felt a presentiment that he had something important to tell +her, but he would come and go without imparting any news, and, as always, +she did not worry him with questions as many women would have done. + +She wondered if he were feeling harassed over "_les affaires +politiques_," or whether he was afraid that the Manager's small stock of +patience would be exhausted before she was able to appear in the ring +again, and that he would cancel her contract. If that happened she felt +that the end of all things would have indeed arrived. She could not +struggle against the Fates any longer, obviously she could not return +home, and it was not fair that Emile should continue to keep her. + +He came in one evening about eight o'clock to find her up for the first +time since her illness, and sitting on the edge of the bed draped in the +long blue cloak she used for covering her circus attire. + +Her hair was parted over her ears, and divided into two long sleek braids +drawn forward and falling over her shoulders, the ends resting on her lap. + +She looked up, as he entered, with the haunting sea-green eyes that +showed larger than ever in contrast to her hollowed cheeks. Something in +her pose, in the arrangement of her hair, reminded Emile vividly of her +first morning in Barcelona, when he had come in early in the morning to +find her dazed with sleep. He remembered also how she had asked him to +repeat his remarks, and how carelessly nonchalant had been her manner. + +"You look like a witch sitting crouched up there, Fatalite," he snapped. +"What's the matter? You don't seem very cheerful." + +"I don't feel very cheerful," the girl responded. She spoke with grave +deliberation, and without moving a muscle. Emile grunted and sat down. + +"There has been another explosion of bombs on the Rambla," he said. "A +market woman killed and two work people injured--I believe one has since +died. Of course a got-up affair of the Government. They hope by doing +this sort of thing often enough to make the populace take vengeance on +us." + +"Then the Anarchists didn't do it?" + +"My dear Fatalite, we don't blow up harmless people simply _pour passer +le temps_. I've told you that before, and being inside the movement +yourself you ought to know. It is a favourite trick of the officials to +excite public feeling against us. They have been doing it now for the +last three years, letting off bombs in various parts of the city. They +take care always to choose the most frequented places and to kill someone +who doesn't matter, and then all the Republican journals have four +columns of indignation with large head-lines, 'LATEST ANARCHIST OUTRAGE.' +They like to get their exploits well talked about. Everything seems to +be against us now. Sobrenski will have it that there is treachery inside +our circle as well as outside. You know whom he suspects?" + +"No." + +"Vardri." + +"That is my fault," Arithelli said quietly. "Sobrenski has felt like +that since the night Vardri made a scene about my being lowered down from +the window. He just stood up for me because I'm a woman. I'm only a +machine to the rest of you." + +She spoke without a touch of resentment. It was purely a statement of +fact. + +"Ah, that's just the point. The feminine side of you is exactly what we +don't want. One Felise Rivaz is enough, most of us think. Try and keep +the elfish boy you were when you arrived. It will be less trouble, +Fatalite, _ma chere_. With the other thing there are always +complications. No, I'm not accusing you of falling in love with Vardri. +I only say, be careful. Even an elf-child can develop suddenly into a +woman once she arrives at a knowledge of the fact that there is a man +ready to make love to her. Perhaps you do not know it yourself, but you +have changed lately. You are losing your fearlessness, your +indifference. I have watched you sometimes when you have not known, and +have seen your eyes soften, your face change. You started when I spoke +just now." + +"How did you learn things about women? From books?" + +"Books? _Ma foi_, no! I liked them well enough at one time, when I +hadn't studied _la vie_. Now they're _fade_." + +Arithelli was silent for a little while. She knew only too well that +Emile had spoken the truth, had put into blunt words what to herself was +only a vague, half-formed idea. Her illness had been Vardri's golden +harvest time, for it had given him the chance of being often alone with +her. He had read to her, waited upon her, served her with the utmost +chivalry and devotion. He had made of her a Madonna, a goddess, she who +was fair game for all other men in Barcelona. + +Emile's voice broke in upon her meditations. + +"You shouldn't worry, Fatalite. It's not becoming. Have a cigarette to +make yourself a little distraction." + +She shook her head. + +"No, thank you, Emile. I never wanted to smoke, and any way it would not +give me a distraction to-night." + +"Then what are you worrying about?" + +"I've only been wondering what will be the end of me." + +"What has made you suddenly become so anxious about your end?" Emile +looked at her keenly. + +The wide eyes raised to his were tragedy incarnate. The long nervous +fingers were tightly locked together. + +"I'm a coward to-night," the soft hoarse voice went on. "I've never +grumbled before, have I, Emile? I seem to have suddenly realised how +hopeless everything looks for me in the future. I've had time enough to +think it all out since I've been lying in bed. When I first came here I +thought I was going to do all sorts of wonderful things, but now I see +that this life leads to nothing, and I may go on being just a circus +rider for years. When I get well and finish out this contract I shall +have to try and get another engagement in Paris or Vienna. The English +Consul and all the other men wait to see me come out, and throw me +flowers and rings, but when they see me driving with you in the Paseo de +Gracia, they look the other way, especially if they are with their wives +and families. They like 'ARITHELLI OF THE HIPPODROME' in her proper +place,--the ring. Gas and glare, paint and glitter! That is my life. +And they always hope that I shall fall off. I can feel it. It's the +Roman arena all over again. For a long time before I had that accident I +didn't know how to get through the rehearsals. I nearly fell off two or +three times, but there was no one there to see. The more I practised the +more cold I got, and I used to have horrible shivering fits. It's so +queer. I don't believe I'm made like other people. Estelle gets hot and +scarlet when she practises." + +"Poor little child!" + +"Why are you so nice to me? You've never said anything like that before." + +"Because if when you first came here I had begun to pity you it would +have made you realise your position sooner than need be. You were like +one in a dream. It was not my place to awaken you. I left that for +Life, '_la vie_' that you were so anxious to experience. You made +yourself '_Chateaux en Espagne_.' We all do that at some time or other." + +"Nobody really cares what becomes of me except--" she broke off the +sentence and continued steadily. "My people don't mind whether I am here +or not. They won't like it if I come back a failure." + +In his heart Emile cursed the Fates. Her awakening had been a complete +one. At first novelty and excitement had served as merciful +anaesthetics, but they could not last for ever. + +He was not in love with her, he still told himself, but he would miss +her. Women like the Roumanoff were the women to whom men made passionate +love, but Arithelli was unique. She had become part of his life in +Barcelona. Their lives had touched and mingled till it was impossible to +believe that he had only known her for a few short months. A future +without her would be one without interest. For her he could see no +future. She would have to go to the devil some way or another +eventually, and there would be plenty of people ready and willing to +provide her with an escort. + +He threw away his cigarette, and came across the room to her, and his +hands fell heavily upon her shoulders. + +"Look here, Fatalite," he said roughly; "we thought you were dying a +little while ago, and I helped to fight for your life, and all the time, +at the back of my brain I wished you were dead. Yes, you needn't look so +horrified." He gave her a fierce shake. "I hoped to see you in your +coffin. Can't you understand, Fatalite? No, of course you can't, and +you think me a brute. One of these days perhaps you will think +differently. Probably you imagine I don't care for you, but if I didn't +should I mind whether you were alive or dead? You've always been saying +that you feel something is going to happen. It seems you are right. +There have been several unexpected developments during the last few days. +It is most likely that I may be chosen to go back to Russia with +despatches to one of the secret societies there. Here I cannot be +arrested, there I can. Of course it means Siberia--eventually. That's +only what we all expect." + +"Then I shall be here alone." + +"Yes, and there's no future for a woman in this vile place. You know the +proverb they have, 'Can any good thing come out of Barcelona?' Your +looks are against you too." + +"There's always the river." + +"Then when the time comes choose that--if you still have the courage. +You've been _bonne camarade_ to me, Fatalite. The men you will meet +later on may not want that." + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + "I kiss you and the world begins to fade." + W. B. YEATS. + + +Count Vladimir and Emile met and consulted together, the immediate +result of the interview being that Vardri was offered the post of +private secretary to the former. Emile had gone out leaving them +together, and Vladimir had hardly finished speaking when he found +himself faced by an unexpected situation. + +"I accept with pleasure," Vardri said, "but on one condition--that it +means my remaining in Barcelona." + +Vladimir hesitated. "Well, I had not contemplated that. Naturally one +requires one's secretary to be--" + +"I understand, Monsieur. I hope you will not consider me ungrateful, +but there is a reason." + +"It's a woman?" + +Vardri bowed gravely. "Exactly, Monsieur. It's a woman." + +"You are risking a great deal for her. Poleski has told me something +of your circumstances, and it appears that if you do not get some +appointment very soon, you will starve." + +Vardri straightened himself, throwing back his head with a +characteristic gesture. He looked the older man in the eyes, his own +alight and eloquent under finely drawn brows. + +"That's as it may be! I'll take my chance of work. In any case I +cannot leave Barcelona. Of course, I regret greatly that it is +impossible for me to fall in with your arrangements." + +Vladimir smiled and shrugged. He knew the type with which he had to +deal. Quixotic and generous to the verge of folly, the type that will +sacrifice itself without reserve for an illusion, an ideal; the type +that filled monasteries, and Siberian prisons, and made a jest for half +the world. Such men were valuable to the Cause, because they gave +ungrudgingly, and never counted cost. The Russian was a man of +affairs, cautious, cynical and given to analysis, and he was also a +student of human nature. He was moreover interested in the unknown +woman. + +If he had been told that she was Arithelli the circus-rider, who had +sat silently upon the deck of his yacht dressed in gaudy raiment, and +indifferent almost to stupidity, then his smile would have been +contemptuous instead of tolerant. He was interested too in the unknown +woman's champion. Something in Vardri's attitude of courteous defiance +appealed to him by the law that will attract strongly one man's mind to +another, diverse in every way. He could see that Vardri was plainly +consumptive, and that the disease was in its advanced stages. Even +with the aid of good food and an easier life he could not last more +than a year or two, so one might as well make things a little more +smooth for him during the time. + +"I see you have the illusions of youth, my friend," he said carelessly. +"I trust they may remain long unbroken. Myself I am sorry to have +lived beyond the age when they content one. Sit down and talk to me." +He motioned Vardri towards a chair. "Well, since you have refused to +entertain my plan, we must think of something else. I'm at present +writing a series of articles on '_Militarism in France_,' and should +like to have them translated for publication in an English journal. +You speak the language well, better even than Poleski, for you have a +better accent. I have been a good deal in London and I notice the +difference. I suppose you also write it easily?" + +"Yes, I had an English tutor." + +"Good! Then you will undertake this work, and you shall fix the price +of payment. I'm not in the least afraid of your asking more than I +care to give. You are the type that gets rid of money, not the type +that acquires it. Also I will give you an introduction which will +enable you to get on the staff of _Le Combat_. They want another man +there who is a good linguist, as there is a great deal of +correspondence with other countries. As I have an interest in the +paper, you may consider it settled. No, don't thank me. Your thanks +are due to--a woman. She is unknown to me, but perhaps that is the +reason I--I also owe you something, Monsieur Vardri. Your example has +made me feel young again." + +A week later Vardri went swinging quickly down the Calle San Antonio, +on his way to Emile's rooms. He was in exuberant spirits, and whistled +as he walked keeping step to the dancing gaiety of '_La petite +Tonquinoise_.' His headgear, which vied in picturesque disorder with +Emile's historical sombrero, was pushed to the back of his head, +exposing his thick, unruly hair, and over one ear, Spanish fashion, he +had stuck a carnation. + +There was more money in his pocket than he had possessed since his days +of luxury in the Austrian chateau, and for him the sun was shining in a +metaphorical as well as a literal sense. During the last few days he +had been happier than he could have believed possible. He felt in +better health, for he had been able to go to bed at a reasonable time, +and though he missed the horses and the free life of the Hippodrome, +and found the work of a newspaper office somewhat trying, there were +shorter hours and other advantages. + +He had also the joy of knowing that Arithelli was almost well again. +She had not been out yet, but Michael Furness had declared her to be +practically recovered. + +One day Vardri hoped to take her along the sea-front towards the old +quarter of the town, where the fishermen and sailors lived, and where +she could sit on the stone parapet and look across the harbour, and let +the sea-air blow strength and vitality into her. + +After all he told himself, life was good even if one were a vagabond. +Life with adventure, a little money, and love. + +He burst open the door of Emile's sitting-room, and entered headlong. +The sun-blinds were all drawn, making everything appear pitch dark +after the blinding glare of the streets. + +"I want some matches, Poleski! By luck, I've got some cigarettes. One +never has both matches and cigarettes at the same time." He had come +to a dead stop and stood staring. + +"Fatalite! Fatalite! The gods are kind for once! If only I had known +you were here sooner." + +The half-full box of cigarettes descended to the floor, and its +contents went in all directions, and he was kneeling beside her chair +and holding both her hands. It was Arithelli not "Fatalite" who smiled +back at him. The little mask-like face changed and grew soft till she +looked more a girl, less an embodied tragedy. Vardri's wild spirits +were infectious, and, as on the night of the Hippodrome fiasco, Youth +called and Love made answer. + +"_Mon ami_, I am so glad you have come." + +"Is this the first time you have been out? Who said you could get up? +The doctor?" + +"No, it was Emile." + +Vardri nodded towards the communicating door of the bedroom. "Poleski +is here then?" + +"No, and he doesn't know I'm here. He has gone to Saria and will not +be back till late. I was horribly irritable this morning, so he thinks +I'm all right now." A ripple of amusement broke her voice as their +eyes met. + +"My sweet, you must ask me to believe some other little _histoire_." + +"Oh! but it's true. You should have heard us! I knew that it was +funny afterwards, but there was no one to laugh with at the time. It +was about that dreadful old coat of Emile's. He threw it on my bed, +and--I can't help being a Jewess, can I? and I so loathe dust and +dirt, and I said so. Emile was furious. 'Very well,' he said. 'If +you are strong enough to grumble, you are strong enough to get up.' So +when he had gone I dressed and came here. I was so glad to get away +from that room." + +"Not as glad as I am to see you here. And I've heard you laugh, +Fatalite. You're a little girl today." + +"I have moods, dear. I shall depress you sometimes." + +Vardri smiled scornfully, and slid down to the floor, his head resting +against her knee. "_Je suis bien content_! What cool hands you have, +and how still you keep. No other woman in the world was ever so +restful. You love to be quiet, don't you? I know you better to-day +than I ever did. You were always in the wrong atmosphere at the +Hippodrome." + +"And I have to go back to it," the girl said under her breath. "And I +may be hissed again. You will not be there now, and we shall miss you. +I and Don Juan and Cavaliero, and El Rey, and Don Quixote. Some of the +grooms are horrible, and the animals get so badly treated." + +"It seems to me that everything gets badly treated here," Vardri +muttered. "Women and horses, it's all the same. Don't let us talk +about it. It drives me mad to think, I shan't be able to be near you. +I was some use to you there." + +He jumped up and began to move about the room collecting the scattered +cigarettes. + +"Shall I play to you, _mon ange_? I suppose the piano hasn't been +tuned yet." He struck a few notes, and made a rueful grimace. "It's +worse than ever." + +"I'm afraid it never will be tuned now that I've been ill and caused so +much expense. Emile always says he will go without cigarettes to +afford it, and I say I will go without powder, but neither of us keep +our heroic resolutions, and the piano gets worse and worse." + +Vardri shut down the lid with a bang. + +"Well, anyway it doesn't matter," he said, "I don't want to play or do +anything; I just want to be with you." + +"Bring up a chair, and sit and smoke, _mon camarade_." She held out +her hand with a gesture of invitation, and Vardri took it and kissed +it, and went back to his former position at her feet. + +"Shall I read to you?" he asked. "Ah! I'd forgotten there was +something I wanted to tell you. I found a poem the other day, a +love-song of De Musset. Do you know that you lived in this very city +years ago, Fatalite, and he saw you and loved you? How else could he +have written this? + + "_Avez-vous vu en Barcelone, + Une Andalouse au sein bruni, + Pale comme un beau soir d'Automne, + C'est ma maitresse, ma lionne, + La Marchesa d'Amagui._" + +Arithelli listened, her eyes dilating, and a little flame of colour +creeping up under the magnolia skin that made her likeness to the woman +of the poem. Her awakening senses thrilled to the eager voice, the +riotous challenging words: + + "_J'ai fait bien de chansons pour elle_." + +He broke off abruptly and continued: "I hate all the rest of it. The +woman isn't like you, further on, and the lover laughs at his own +passion, and the whole thing jars. That first verse haunted me for +days after I'd read it."--The sentence was finished by a convulsive fit +of coughing, which he vainly tried to stifle. + +"This is the first time to-day," he gasped, between the paroxysms. +"I'm quite well really. It's the cigarette. They often have that +effect. Don't look so worried, or I shall think you hate me for being +a nuisance." + +"If you talk so foolishly I shall go." + +She made an attempt to rise, but Vardri caught at her skirts. "You +won't go! You don't want to make me worse, do you? Think how sorry +you'll be if I cough and worry you all the evening!" + +"Can't I get you anything? If only I were not so stupid about illness. +Don't try to talk if it makes you worse." + +"I won't--if you'll stay." + +To Arithelli caresses did not come easily, but during the last few +weeks she had learnt many things. She stroked the dark head that +rested against her knee, wondering how it was that she had never before +noticed till to-day how feverishly brilliant Vardri's eyes were, and +how his skin burnt. She had often heard him coughing before, but he +had always gone away and left her when an attack came on, with some +laughing excuse about the horrible noise he made. After a while he +shifted his position, and smiled up at her. + +"You're getting tired, Fatalite!" + +"No. Tell me, have you anything important to do to-night?" + +"No, dear, and if I had I shouldn't do it. Do you feel well enough to +come out and have dinner with me somewhere? I'll take you to some +place where it's quiet." + +"Why not let us stay here all the evening, and have supper together?" +Arithelli suggested. "We'll take Emile's things. He loves cooking +_cochonneries_, and there is sure to be a _quelque chose_ somewhere in +the cupboard." + +Vardri scrambled to his feet. "_Bon_! Sit still, and I'll go and +_acheter les_--things! We'll leave Emile's _cochonneries_ alone. I'm +rich now, so we will have luxuries." + +"Yes, and I'll hunt for plates and dishes, and wash them properly (not +like the Gentiles do) while you go and _acheter les_--things!" +Arithelli mocked. "What a dreadful mixture of languages we all use! I +used to speak German quite well when I was at the convent, but now I +have forgotten nearly all of it. This place is bad for both one's +French and English, and Emile says that when I try and speak Spanish it +sounds like someone sawing wood." + +Vardri went out still coughing, and came back flushed and excitable, +laden with various untidy parcels, from which some of the contents were +protruding. Long rolls, the materials for a salad, a _pate_, flowers, +and an enormous cluster of grapes. They pledged each other in the +yellow wine of the country, and presently Vardri set about the +manufacture of what he inaccurately described as Turkish coffee. That +the result of his efforts was half cold and evil-tasting mattered not +to either of them. + +Arithelli's red hair was crowned with vine leaves that he had stripped +from the grape-cluster and twisted into a Bacchante wreath. She leant +her elbow on the table, resting her chin upon her hand. Her eyes +glowed jewel-like, almost the same colour as her garland. The flame of +love had melted into warmth her statue-like coldness, and given her the +one thing she had lacked--expression. Yet the mystery, the charm that +surrounded her clung to her even when she appeared most womanly. To +the boy lover gazing with devouring eyes she seemed that night more +than a woman. He thought of the tales he had heard as a child from the +peasants on winter nights in his own country. Tales of the forests and +legends of the Hartz Mountains, of lonely places haunted by nixies and +wood maidens, fairy shapes with streaming hair and vaporous robes, +seeing which a man would become for ever after mad with longing, and +desire no mortal woman. + +Arithelli's long limbs appeared nymphlike in her plain blue +high-waisted gown of Emile's choosing, that had no superfluous bow or +trimming, and left free her beauty of outline. She possessed no +jewellery now wherewith to deck herself, and there was no trace of +artificial red on face and lips. + +The candles on the table flickered to and fro in the draught from the +open window and she shivered in the midst of some laughing speech and +glanced over her shoulder at the door behind her. + +Vardri, reading her thoughts, said, "You're afraid of something, dear, +what is it?" + +"Nothing, at least I thought someone was listening, was coming in. We +are always talking of spies till one gets absurdly nervous and imagines +all sorts of foolish things. I have never said so to anyone else, but +there is always the feeling of being watched. It is so difficult to +know who is for and who against us, and so easy to give evidence +without meaning to be a traitor. Just before I got ill, Sobrenski sent +me to a little newspaper shop down in the Parelelo quarter. I was to +ask if they sold '_Le Flambeau_.' The man looked at me hard and asked +if there was any connection between that journal and the one published +at number 27 Calle de Pescadores. The sun must have made me feel +stupid, and I answered _Yes_, without thinking. I had taken it for +granted that the man was one of us, and then I knew suddenly that he +wasn't." + +Vardri bent forward across the table. "Did you tell anyone what you +had said?" + +"Not Sobrenski; I told Emile. He looked me up and down, and said +something that I couldn't hear, and then, 'I thought you could hold +your tongue, Fatalite. It seems, after all, you are a woman and +can't!' and then he walked out of the room. Vardri, did you ever feel +as I do when you first began to work for the Cause? Perhaps one gets +used to it in the end and doesn't care." + +"Yes," the boy answered between his teeth, "Yes! One gets used to it. +Dear, your hands are trembling. Do you think anyone can hurt you while +I'm here? You are nervous because you've been ill, that's all. This +is the first time you've been out and you are overtired. I'll take you +back soon. You were all right a few minutes ago. You thing of moods!" + +She tried to smile, "I warned you, _mon ami_." + +"I know. It wasn't any use. That wreath makes you look like the +statue of Ariadne in Rome." + +"I wish you would talk to me about yourself." + +"Myself!" Vardri shrugged expressively, "_Ma foi_!" + +"Tell me what made you join the Cause." + +"Because of a man I believed in. You have heard of Guerchouni who died +early in the year? There was a great funeral in Paris. It was in all +the papers." + +Arithelli nodded, "Yes, I heard the men talking about it at one of the +meetings. I wasn't interested enough to listen then. Was he--?" + +"He was one of our greatest leaders. His death meant something to me, +because it was really through him that I joined the Red Flag. He had a +life sentence in Eastern Siberia and he escaped from there and got to +America. For some time none of us knew exactly where he was, and then +we heard rumours that he was dangerously ill at Geneva. Then came news +of his death and his funeral in Paris. His friends had decided to +bring the body there, so that all the comrades might be present, for +there are many anarchists in Paris. They gave him a guard of honour of +Russian students, men and women surrounding the coffin with linked +hands, and there were hundreds of red roses and red carnations, though +it was in the winter--there had been snow on the ground a few days +before. There was a crown of thorns from those who had been his +companions in prison, and the canopy of the hearse was a red flag. If +only I could have been there to do him homage! + +"There are all sorts of wild stories about his escape from Siberia. I +suppose he bewitched the jailers as he bewitched other men. He was the +first man I ever heard speak about the Cause. He came to Vienna and +held meetings for the propaganda and collected enormous crowds. I had +just begun to take life seriously then, to think about things and to +hate injustice. + +"My father drank and wasted money and treated his servants brutally. +My mother was dead, and when she was alive she was an invalid, and +could do nothing. Most of the people I knew seemed to think the serfs +no better than animals. I remember how sometimes when we were starting +off in the early morning for a boar hunt in the forest, they would come +begging and whining round the horses' heels. + +"They seldom got anything except a kick or a curse. They looked +scarcely human, yet it was ourselves who were the brutes really. + +"Well, Guerchouni spoke and I went and listened to him. A friend with +whom I had gone to the meetings gave me an introduction to him. I was +mad on the Cause long before the interview was over. He was a man +that! If he had looked at me twice, I would have walked through flames +to please him. Oh, I wasn't the only one! We all felt like that more +or less with Guerchouni. I couldn't describe him. He was not a tall +man, but he carried himself well, and he was dark and pale with +wonderful blazing eyes. One knew him at once, and talked as if one had +known him for years. + +"Of course I accepted all his theories and doctrines except two. I +don't believe in '_L'Union fibre_.' (They all do, you know, or nearly +all) and I never was an atheist. + +"A Catholic and an Anarchist! It sounds impossible, doesn't it, +but"--he flushed boyishly--"I believe in _Le bon Dieu_, and the _union +libre_ is hard on women. Yes, I adored Guerchouni. He worked day and +night, he feared nothing, he did impossibilities himself and he made us +do impossibilities." + +"He was like Sobrenski." + +"Yes, he was like Sobrenski in some ways. He will be a loss to the +Cause." + +For a few moments there was silence, and then Arithelli spoke. "Tell +me one more thing. Now we are alone, we can speak the truth to each +other, you and I. Vardri, do you still care for the Cause--in the same +way you did before?" She whispered the question fearfully, yet knowing +well what the answer must be. + +"I don't feel the same about it since I have known you." + +"I have not tried to make you a traitor, have I? Sobrenski always +suspects me of that." + +"My sweet, you have done nothing. I love you, therefore I must feel +differently about the Cause. Why? Because I'm afraid of it for you. +Because these men have no consideration for you as a woman, because +they always make you take the greatest risks. It is always so in this +work. Look what happens to the women in Russia. When there is a +political 'Execution' there, nine times out of ten it is a woman who +throws the bomb. Look at the things they have done lately. At the +printing office we see all the anarchist journals, and the comrades get +news privately. The men do little in risking their lives compared to +the women, and some of them are so young. An article in '_Les temps +Nouveaux_' of last week said that, '_beside the men these young girls +are as artistes beside artisans_.' The last case was Sophia Pervesky. +She was arrested for being in charge of a secret printing-press. +Before the police seized her she nearly found time to put her lighted +cigarette down on a pile of explosives. They wounded her in two +places, threw her down, and stamped on her injuries. Then they took +her to the hospital and kept her there till she had recovered. She +waited two months for death and then they brought her out one morning +in the dawn and hanged her. + +"'You shall see how a Russian woman dies,' she told them as she ran up +the ladder and flung herself into space. + +"You women shame us with your courage. Now every time I hear of a +thing like that, I think of you. You may have to run some great risk +here for a caprice of Sobrenski's." + +"Vardri, Vardri, I wonder what will be the end of it all?" + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +The walls of the Hippodrome were no longer adorned with gaudy posters +whereon flared a travestied portrait of "_The beautiful English +equestrienne_." No longer for Arithelli were showered roses, the +tribute of head-lines in the weekly journals, and the welcome of many +voices. She had been absent for nearly a month, therefore she might as +well have been dead as far as the Spanish public was concerned. + +The Manager had known this and had been careful to provide his patrons +with a new toy, who had come, even as Arithelli herself, from Paris. +This was a female contortionist with a serpent's grace, and a serpent's +flat head, and wicked slit eyes. She had proved a success, so he could +afford to exult, and Estelle dangled in triumph a new pair of diamond +earrings. He had lost nothing and the once famous Arithelli, the +"_She-wolf_" who had been mad enough to defy him, was now simply one of +the crowd. Her name did not appear on the programme. She was not even +Madame Mignonne now, but merely a unit among the many other women who +were grouped in the grand spectacle, or a rider in a procession with +twenty others. He had reduced her salary to a third of what it had +been formerly, and every Saturday she was required to assist with the +correspondence and weekly accounts. If she did not like this +arrangement, he explained, she could fight out the terms of her +contract in the courts. Doubtless she had a great opinion of her own +capabilities, but as she could see for herself her place had been +easily filled. The world was large, and there were plenty of +women--_sacre_, too many! + +As usual he was disappointed in the effect of his remarks. Whether her +silence meant indifference or sheer stupidity he was never quite sure. +As Arithelli had no vanity the loss of her position meant little to her. + +The loss of a private dressing-room meant a great deal. It was a +refined torture to her to be herded among the other women, with their +noise and quarrelling and coarse jokes. She found changes too. Her +friend the toothless lion had succumbed to old age, several of the +helpers had been changed, and Vardri was no longer near at hand to lift +her on to her horse and wait to help her dismount. Whenever he could +get away from Vladimir and the newspaper office, he was among the +spectators, and their thoughts and glances met across the wide arena's +space. Emile did not come regularly now though he took care there was +always someone sent to bring her home. + +Since the night of the alarms in the Calle de Pescadores, the +Brotherhood had decided in council that they must change their place of +meeting, at any rate for a time, and that no part of the city itself +could be considered safe for the purposes of a meeting place. + +They must keep to the hut up in the mountains. This had been seldom +used on account of the difficulty in getting there, and the waste of +time involved by the distance. In all respects it was safer. If they +were surprised it was not likely they would all be caught, for in the +open there was always a chance of escape. The distance and lonely +situation were all in their favour. In a small house in a narrow +street they were like trapped animals. + +The custom was to start at midnight on the outskirts of the town, +collecting by degrees, and when they were well on their way the +cavalcade joined together and formed into Indian file. + +Some were on horseback and some on the more sure-footed mules. + +Not one among the conspirators could ride with the exception of Vardri +and Emile, and the knowledge of the art possessed by the latter was +poor enough. + +The steeds of the general company went at whatever pace they chose and +in what direction they saw fit, and occasionally two or three got +wedged together in some narrow place and there was an interlude of +kicking and squealing. + +Then "Fatalite" was called to the rescue as being the only one among +them capable of managing horseflesh. + +When not required in her office of peacemaker she was sent on in front +as guide to the procession, dressed in her boy's disguise and astride +the most vicious of the mules. These excursions meant less rest for +her than ever for the party seldom returned till five o'clock in the +morning. + +Emile had told her that she must get her sleep up in the hut. + +"You have two hours to yourself," he said. "You can't sleep up there? +Nonsense! Make up your mind to do it and then you will." + +The building in question, which was more like an outhouse than anything +else, she had christened, "The Black Hole of Calcutta." The upper +part, which was approached by a ladder as a loft would be, was used as +a meeting-room, while the ground floor became a temporary stable for +the horses and mules, of which she was left in charge. Since the scene +in that upper room in the Calle de Pescadores she had put herself +outside all consideration; and Sobrenski now excluded her from all work +other than the merest drudgery. Vardri was also kept under +surveillance. It was felt by all that in some quarter treachery lurked +as yet undiscovered, and every man suspected his comrades. There were +indications that someone, hitherto a sworn ally of the Cause, had +turned spy and sold certain information to the authorities. + +Even Sobrenski's iron nerves were stretched to breaking point. + +The rest tried to drown anxiety in _absinthe_, and all grew daily more +morose and uncertain of temper. + +The first sensation came in the shape of a rumour that Count Vladimir's +companion, Pauline Souvaroff, had disappeared. + +Only three people knew that she had vanished utterly and completely on +the same day that she had received a communication from the leader. +The note had been brought to her by Vladimir himself. He could guess +at its contents, but Pauline had revealed nothing. + +Two hours afterwards when he went on shore she was shut up in her +cabin, and he had not interrupted her, thinking she was asleep. When +he returned, and found her door unlocked, and her cabin empty, a +suspicion of the truth occurred to him. + +Everything was left in perfect order, but there was no letter, no word +of explanation. He questioned the crew, and heard that she had been +rowed to shore by two of them soon after he left. She had given the +men orders not to wait, but to return at once to the yacht. For a week +Vladimir hunted through street and slum. At the end of that time he +knew that alive or dead he would never see Pauline Souvaroff again. +The missive he had brought her from Sobrenski had probably meant a +journey for her to one of the great centres of the movement--Amsterdam, +Geneva, or perhaps even London. + +Alphonse of Spain was now in England, having escaped two attempts upon +his life in Paris, and in his own capital. His every moment would be +watched and noted by the destroyers of monarchy. Probably she had been +chosen to obtain information, because women made better spies than men, +and their movements were not so likely to be noticed by the police. +Many a high official whose name was on the list of those condemned to +death by a revolutionary tribunal had been tracked from city to city by +female agents. + +Yet, if she had been sent on such an errand, what reason could she have +had for going in secret, alone and without a word of farewell? He had +supposed it impossible that she could have kept anything from him; of +course there must eventually be separation. He had warned her of that. +And when it came he had expected scenes, tears and a frantic appeal. + +That she should vanish in silence was inconceivable. Perhaps she had +not cared for him so much after all. In any case the episode had been +a charming one, and to him no woman could ever have been more than an +episode. He had shown her some of the many beautiful things and places +of the world, and by her own words he had made her happy. Now their +play time was over. He had his work and she hers. She had come into +his life as a piece of driftwood floats to shore on the edge of a wave, +and gone out of it as noiselessly. + +Vladimir did not discuss his private affairs, so that among all the +conspirators Emile alone knew, and it was Emile alone who guessed the +truth. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + + "Tout passe, tout casse, tout lasse." + + +For some days Arithelli had not seen Emile, and she had wondered. +Since the night she had sat with Vardri in his room, he had scarcely +spoken to her except for a few moments on business matters. + +She thought he looked haggard and worried, and there was a change that +she could not define in his manner towards her. She wondered if he +knew about Vardri, if he thought she was deceiving him. + +She wanted to tell of this new, wonderful thing that had befallen her, +but he had given her no chance, and she had begun to think that he did +not even take sufficient interest in her to care what she thought or +felt as long as she performed her allotted tasks and did not worry him +with complaints or questions. + +The feeling of a barrier between them troubled her vaguely, and she was +glad when she found him one night waiting for her outside the stage +door. + +Half an hour later he was smoking a cigarette in her room while she +brushed her hair. + +They had been silent for some time, and both started when the door was +assaulted by a sudden thump, and the scarecrow-like visage of the +depressed landlady appeared in the opening. + +Having delivered herself of a small cardboard box, and a few grumbling +comments upon the indecent hours and ways of circus performers, she +withdrew, and Arithelli proceeded to cut the string and remove the lid. + +"I can't see what it is in this light," she said; "Emile, may I have +the candle a little nearer? Flowers? No one sends me flowers now. +But these are--" + +Her voice broke and stopped. Emile, who had been on the alert from the +moment of the landlady's entrance, sprang up and pulled the girl to one +side. A mysterious parcel at that hour of the night, too late for any +post. One might have guessed what it meant. + +"What is it?" he asked sharply. The answer was an incoherent one, and +he could see that she was paralysed with terror. + +The opening of the box had revealed a sinister-looking bouquet of +artificial black roses tied with blood-red ribbons. + +In Barcelona there are many strange and ingenious ways of conveying +death by explosives. A clock, a painted casket which might contain +bon-bons; a coffee-pot, a _casserole_--any apparently harmless and +common utensil. + +A bunch of flowers was one of the most common mediums for a bomb. + +The Anarchist colours showed clearly that it must either have been sent +by an enemy who had been formerly one of the band, and who was now +revenging himself by an attempt to see his former associates "hoist +with their own petard," or else it was an affair of the police. In any +case, supposing the thing to be harmless, it was a warning of danger. + +Emile's wits worked swiftly, and he was used to emergencies. He looked +round, and found a jug of water, and the floral tribute floated +harmlessly therein. As it did not sink at once he concluded that there +was no concealed bomb. Then he turned his attention to Arithelli, and +gave her a vigorous shaking, which was probably, under the +circumstances, the best possible restorative. + +"You'll die more than once in imagination before your time comes, +Fatalite. Probably the next parcel you receive will not need as much +investigation." + +She tried to smile. "I'm sorry! They looked so uncanny, and when I +saw red I thought--Emile, what does it all mean?" + +"It means danger, my dear. It means that you are suspected. You +yourself best know whether the suspicion is deserved or not. Of course +it may be only one of the police tricks, but I don't think so. Anyway +whether it was charged or not it's safe enough now. Look in the box +and on the floor to see if there's any note or message. There isn't? +_Eh bien_! I suppose they thought this would speak with sufficient +eloquence." + +He fished the bedraggled bouquet out of the water and hung it like a +trophy across Arithelli's mirror, which was a fetish of its owner and +the one valuable thing she now possessed. It had been the gift of +Michael Furness, who had bought it from the Jewish herbalist. It was +of antique silver gilt in oval shape, and rimmed with rough topaz set +in silver, and was alleged by its former owner to have been the +property of Agnes Sorel. Arithelli had often declared that in it she +could see visions as in a crystal. + +Over it Emile carefully arranged the flowers so that the stained red +ribbons hung limply across the polished surface. Then he sat down +again and lighted another cigarette. + +"You ought not to be afraid of this sort of thing, you know," he said. +"Sudden death is part of our business. In the oath we take we swear to +'Slay or be slain,' if by so doing we can advance the Cause one small +step forward." + +She caught at her breast with a sudden gesture of passion. +Death--could they talk and think of nothing else? And she was a woman +now, not a weapon, and she wanted life. + +"You don't seem very enthusiastic," the cold voice continued. "A few +months ago the dangerous side of the game was rather an attraction to +you than otherwise. Now you shrink and shiver at everything. You do +your work, yes, because, you can't help doing that, but is there any +heart in what you do?" + +"None! Every day I live, I loathe it more!" + +"Take care!" + +"I'm past caring. When I came out here first I was a child playing at +a new game." + +Emile's back was turned to her, and if his answering speech was brutal, +it was because his conscience was awake and crying fiercely. He would +not be likely to make the mistake of interfering with people's lives a +second time. He had seen in her an instrument to be handled at will, +and had charged himself with the burden of her destiny, and now he +supposed she was about to reproach him. + +"You are hysterical. That's the worst of women. They always are--more +or less. You had better go to bed, and not talk nonsense. If you were +a child only a few months ago you are not too old to be treated as one +now." + +It hurt him more than it hurt her, but she would never know that. His +pulses hammered furiously as she dropped at his side with a soft rustle +of garments. Her clasped hands rested on his knee; the strong, slender +hands that had grown rough with work. + +"Emile," she whispered, "can't you see that I've altered? I'm a woman +now. You said I should be one soon. I've wanted to tell you all +along, but I always hoped you had guessed." + +"Perhaps I did, but I preferred that you should tell me yourself. And +since when have you become what you call 'a woman'? No, you needn't +answer. When I knew that you and Vardri had been together in my rooms, +I was certain I had not warned you without reason." + +"You knew before I did myself." + +"_Mon enfant_, I'm neither blind nor a fool. As they say in this +country, 'love and a cough cannot be hidden.' I was sure about Vardri, +but about you;--no, one couldn't say. When you came out here you were +a sexless creature with a brain. It did not seem likely that you would +develop into the ordinary girl with a lover." + +It was the only way he could keep a hold upon himself, by keeping up a +pose of cynicism. The fragrance of her hair, the curved mouth so close +to his own, maddened him. He who could have been her lover had been +only her guardian, her taskmaster. And now she was ready to give +herself to a boy, who thought life was a romance, and who would +probably sit at her feet reading poetry while they both starved. + +"You have been together often?" + +Her head drooped. "Yes. I should have told you before." + +"What plans have you made? I suppose it will be the usual mad scheme +of running away. I ought to betray you, of course, but--" + +"We haven't arranged anything yet; there is plenty of time." + +"Plenty of time--Mon Dieu!" the man rasped out. "How like you, +Fatalite! What a pair! Vardri always living _au clair de la lune_, +and you half asleep, and full of illusions. _Les illusions sont les +hirondelles_. How often have I told you that?" + +"They make life possible," Arithelli answered softly. + +Again the man stared and marvelled. Verily, here was another being who +was neither "Becky Sharp" nor "Fatalite." The exultation, the triumph +of one loved and desired, was hers for the moment. Who, seeing her +now, could have the heart to warn her of inevitable disillusion, the +doubts and fears, the clinging and the torments that are the heritage +of all womenkind. + +He, too, had once dreamed foolish dreams. + +He gripped her by the shoulder and forced her to look at him. + +"Vardri is your lover? You shall answer me before I leave this room." + +She did not flinch, or blush, or look away. + +"I love him." + +Joy shone in her widely open eyes. Love hovered about her mouth, and +the passion that had stirred in him momentarily shrank back ashamed. +He pushed back her hair with a rough caress. + +"It's all right, _ma chere_. You needn't be afraid. I shall not be +here to advise you soon, and all I have to say now is, never imagine +yourself secure for an instant. Sobrenski is bound to discover this in +the course of time, and he has seen this sort of thing before, which +will not make him any more merciful. He has watched human nature long +enough to know that where there is what you would call love, people +want to create, they no longer want to destroy. If, as you say, you +have made no plans, then make them. And now you'd better go to bed, +unless you want to look more like a ghost than usual to-morrow." + +As he went out into the moonlit street Emile knew that he had taken the +first step on his _Via Crucis_. He did not call it that, for of +religion in the orthodox sense he possessed nothing, but he knew that +his feet were set upon the path where snow and blood would mingle in +his footprints. He was going back to Russia, where death would be a +thing to be welcomed and desired. He had listened to the tales of +escaped prisoners, and he knew that no words could exaggerate this +frozen Hell in which flourished vices unnamable, where men rotted +alive, and women strangled themselves with their own hair, or cut their +throats with a scrap of glass to escape the brutalities of a gaoler or +Cossack guard. + +He wondered whether it would be Akatui, or the mines, for him. It was +no use to try and delude himself that he could escape the police. + +He had got out of Russia by the skin of his teeth last time, and, even +if he managed to get his despatches safely delivered, there would be a +raid on the newspaper office, an arrest in the street. Of course there +was always the hope that he might come in for a chance shot in a +scrimmage, but that was too much luck to expect. + +He had nothing to wait for now after what he had heard to-night, and +the sooner he put himself out of the way, the better. He would +volunteer at once for the St. Petersburg mission. The usual custom was +to cast lots, unless some enthusiast begged for the privilege of a +speedy doom. By virtue of his long service he had a right to claim +that privilege. + +If he could go to-morrow so much the better. After what Arithelli had +confessed it would be dangerous for them both if he stayed. For a +moment the primaeval man in him leapt up, telling him that he had only +to pit himself against Vardri, and the victory would be assuredly his +own. His rival was only a boy, and Emile knew that if there came the +struggle between male and male, the odds were all in his own favour. +Arithelli had grown into the habit of obedience to him, and if he +wished it he could make it practically impossible for her to see Vardri +without his knowledge and consent. She would sorrow for her lover at +first, but he was a man, and he could make her forget. + +A thousand little devils crowded close, whispering how easy it would be +to get Vardri sent out of the way. A few words to Sobrenski, and the +whole thing would be done. + +His sense of justice reminded him that he least of all people had a +right to grudge her a few hours of happiness. If he obliterated +himself he was only making her a deserved reparation for some of the +things she had suffered. Through him she had joined the Anarchist +ranks, and through him she had taken vows that despoiled her of the +hopes and joys of womanhood, and transformed her into an instrument of +vengeance. She had apparently never realised that she had been in any +way injured, for she had never blamed him, and been invariably grateful +for anything he had done for her physical comfort. + +She loved Vardri, or imagined that she did. Emile told himself +savagely that he was a fool who deserved no pity, for he had had his +own chance and missed it. He had been with her by night and day, and +her life had been in his own hands all these months, but he had never +made love to her. He had only bullied her, taught her, made her work, +looked after her clothes and food, and, he knew it now too late, loved +her. + +She had never suspected it, and the secret should remain his own. Love +and love-making were two very different things. She did not know that +now, but later on she would, when she was ten years older, perhaps, and +then it would not matter to him, for he would be under two or three +feet of snow in a Siberian convict settlement. + +He had gone about persuading himself that she was still a child, and +this Austrian boy, this wastrel and dreamer, had awakened her. + +It was no use wasting time in sentiment and regrets. _A la Guerre, +comme a la Guerre_. The episode was finished. + +He would have work enough to divert his mind soon. There was nothing +left to him now but the Cause. + +He would see Sobrenski to-morrow, and hurry on all arrangements for +departure. + +After all, as he had once told Arithelli, in any venture it is only the +first step that counts. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + + "Would I lose you now? Would I take you then? + If I lose you now that my heart has need, + And come what may after death to men, + What thing worth this will the dead years breed?" + THE TRIUMPH OF TIME. + + +Three days later the early morning post brought Arithelli a letter. + +She sat up in bed eagerly to receive it, and with the heaviness of +sleep still upon her eyes. As she read, the lace at her throat +trembled with her quickened breathing, and her heart called back an +answer to the tender, reckless phrases. + +Vardri was idealist as well as lover, and graceful turns of expression +came to his pen readily and without effort. In many pages of +characteristic, hurried, irregular writing he set forth wild and +unpractical schemes for their future. + +He urged her to take the dangerous step of leaving Barcelona and +cutting herself free of the bonds of her allegiance to the Cause. + +If there was risk in going, he wrote, there was infinitely more risk in +remaining. + +If he abandoned his political views it was more than likely that his +father would receive him. Their quarrel and parting four years ago had +been solely on those grounds, and he was the only son, and there were +large estates to be inherited. + +If it were the price of gaining her he was prepared to renounce all his +theories, socialist and revolutionist. + +He had been able to save a little money lately, enough for their +journey to Austria. He was sure of a welcome among the officials and +work-people of his former home. The wife of the steward had been his +mother's maid, and she and her husband would give him shelter till he +could see his father and make terms. + +If things turned out well then his life and Arithelli's would be one +long fairy-tale, which should begin where all other fairy-tales ended. +If his father refused to see him then surely they could both find some +engagement in another circus or Hippodrome. + +She had the advantage of the reputation she had gained here, and he +could work in the stables again, and they would be free and together. + +Arithelli kissed the letter, before she put it down, and lay back with +her hands over her eyes, trying to think. She had begun her adventures +by running away from home, and now for the second time her only course +was flight. Even Emile had told her not to waste time in going. For +her it seemed there was never to be any peace or rest. + +If they could only find some haven away from all the world, she +thought. A forest or desert, some unknown spot where there was air and +space and natural savage beauty, a tent to dwell in, a horse to ride, +complete freedom, the life of her remote ancestors, simple, dignified. + +Once she had craved for change. Now she feared it. She knew what +Vardri had ignored, that the moment they both left Barcelona they would +become fugitives. If they were discovered they would be treated simply +as deserters from the ranks of an army. + +Instinctively her thoughts turned to Emile. It was he who must help +her to decide. She slid out of bed, and commenced her toilet, while +she recalled to mind the things that must be got through during the +day. There was a manuscript to be delivered to Sobrenski, an article +of Jean Grave's from _Les Temps Nouveaux_ which she had copied for +reproduction. + +She finished dressing her hair, and pushed the window more widely open, +for the sound of music in the distance had caught her ear. + +Though it was now autumn, and in England there would have been mist and +gloom and fogs, here the sun shone, and the air was sweet and mild. + +The parching, exhausting heat of the summer was gone, and everything +smelt fresh and clean, without any touch of winter cold. + +Down below in the Calle Catriona the music swelled louder and higher +till her attic room was filled with the dancing notes. + +Along the pavement two men walked slowly with guitar and flageolet. + +They walked turning in opposite directions, their heads thrown back, +their feet keeping step, two black-haired, supple vagabonds of gypsy +breed, who had come down to the city from their mountain home on the +heights of Montserrat. + +The guitar twanged merrily, the reed-like notes of the flute were true +and clear as the song of a thrush. The melody turned and climbed and +twisted, rose to a climax, and re-commenced again the same phrase. +Arithelli listened, hypnotised and bewitched, as she always was by +music. + +Something wild and primitive in her responded to the shrill, sweet, +insistent call. She had felt like that before, listening to the +Tziganes on the Rambla, and it was as if the heart were being dragged +out of her body. She thought of the childish story of the Piper of +Hamelin. She could understand now what had made the children follow +him with dancing footsteps, through street to street, on, on from dawn +till dusk. + +The guitar-player glanced up in passing and mocked her with laughing +eyes. An orange-coloured scarf left his brown throat exposed, and +there were gold rings in his ears. She kissed her hand and called down +greetings in Spanish, and stood at the window, watching and listening +and longing to run out into the street and follow as the children +followed through the town of Hamelin. + +All the joy of life was in those oft-repeated and alluring phrases, the +fall of water, the hum of bees, the shiver of aspen leaves, the slow +music of a breaking wave. + +She strained to hear the last faint echoes till all sound was hidden by +a turn of the road, and the brief enchantment was at an end, leaving +her to the realities of life. + +She dressed slowly, singing under her breath as she plaited her hair +before Agnes Sorel's mirror. Before she left the room she thrust the +loose sheets of Vardri's letter between the folds of her blouse, +leaving the envelope lying among the bed clothes. + +Late in the afternoon one of the "comrades" brought her a cipher +message, warning her of a meeting arranged to take place in the "Black +Hole" up in the hills. + +Half an hour after she left the Hippodrome she was in boy's clothes and +riding out to the _rendezvous_ to wait till the others appeared. She +had hoped for the chance of a talk with Emile, but to her surprise he +was not among those who mustered outside the town. She had never known +him to be absent from a meeting before, but it was not her business to +ask questions. + +While the rest of the company occupied themselves with long and +bloodthirsty orations, and hatched fresh schemes for the destruction of +their fellow-creatures, and the regeneration of the whole earth, she +went quietly about her duties as stable boy. + +When she had finished she set the lantern at the furthest end of the +stable, and pulling off her hat and black curly wig stretched herself +wearily at full length on a truss of hay in a dark corner among the +tethered horses. The ways of men she had begun to fear and hate, but +of the beasts she had no fear, for they were always grateful to those +who cared for them, and they also had suffered at the hands of their +masters. + +A lethargy had taken possession of her whole body, and her limbs felt +heavily weighted. She closed her eyes and sank inertly into the bed of +soft and fragrant hay. + +Her loose shirt of faded dusky red had fallen open at the throat, and +showed the dead-white skin. Her feet, in riding boots of brown +leather, were crossed beneath the dark drapery of her cloak. A leather +strap served as a belt for the slender hips that were more like those +of a boy than a woman. The horses fidgeted and stamped, and a mule +dragged at its halter with laid-back ears and vicious sidelong glances. +Sometimes a stirrup or a bit clashed against another with a musical +ring and jingle. + +Arithelli heard nothing till she awoke to find herself in Vardri's +arms, and being lifted into a sitting position with her back against +the wall. + +In answer to her sleepy murmur of surprise, a hand was laid over her +mouth with a whispered--"_Gare a toi petite! ne fais pas de bruit_." + +She sat up fully awake, and swept the veil of hair out of her eyes. + +"Oh! it's you, _mon ami_! Is it time to go? I must get up and see to +the horses." + +But he held her kneeling by her side. + +"No, no! Lie still, dear. There's time enough. Yes, Sobrenski is +still talking. Can't you hear him? You had my letter safely?" + +She laid her hand on her breast. + +"It's here." + +"Thank you! How long is it since I've seen you? It seems like a +century. Those brutes up there were driving me mad with their +cold-blooded arrangements for wholesale murder. The latest idea is to +explode a bomb outside one of the big _cafes_ when Alfonso comes here +next week to inspect the troops. They might as well leave him alone. +What harm has he done them? As long as they can see people flying into +atoms with the help of a little nitroglycerine they are quite happy. +Vengeance, vengeance! That is their eternal cry. Of course in Russia +it's a different thing. One must either be an autocrat and +slave-driver or a Nihilist out there, but here--they are mad, all of +them! They have just settled to draw lots to-morrow night. I wonder +who will have the 'honour' of becoming executioner? I suppose they +can't do it to-night because Poleski isn't here." + +Arithelli shook her head. + +"That is not the reason. They have given Emile other work to do in +Russia. He is leaving here very soon. I thought you knew." + +"Who told you that Poleski is going away? It may not be true." + +"Emile himself. Oh! it's true enough. I don't know when he will go. +He doesn't know himself, but soon." + +"Will you trust me to take care of you when Poleski is gone?" + +"I'll trust you always." + +"Promise me you'll come away with me. If you care you'll come. I'll +give up the Cause for your sake. I've told you so in my letter and now +I say it again." + +"So I've made you a traitor. Sobrenski was right." + +"My sweet, how can I live with violence and death and misery since I +have known you? I want to get away from men and back to Nature to be +healed. It doesn't follow that because I have grown to hate some of +the revolutionist methods that I am against all their theories. I +believe they are right in sharing things, in fighting for those who are +trodden down by the rich, but you and I can still believe all that +without becoming inhuman. Think of Sobrenski. He's a werewolf, not a +man! Promise me that you'll come soon. Let me take you away before +they make you one of their 'angels of vengeance,' as they call these +women of the revolution." + +Excitement and the feverish devil of consumption had turned his blood +to fire. He would take no denial, pay no heed to Arithelli's +entreaties for time to think, and to consult Emile. + +For once he forgot to be gentle, and dragged her head back roughly, +whispering passionate words, his face pressed against her own. For a +moment he saw no longer the goddess on her ivory throne, but a woman of +flesh and blood, warm, living, and fragrant and to be desired after a +man's fashion. + +Arithelli closed her eyes and leant back, yielding herself to his +caresses. The pressure of his hand across her throat hurt her, but in +some strange way it also gave her pleasure. Love, the schoolmaster, +again stood by her side teaching her the lesson learnt sooner or later +by all women, that pain at the hands of one beloved is a thing close +akin to joy. She felt incapable of any struggle or resistance, bodily +or mental. She had given her heart therefore her body was also his to +use as he willed, and feeling her thus abandoned to him all the boy's +chivalry was stirred anew, and the hunger for possession was lost in +the desire to serve and protect. + +Possibly if he had been forty instead of twenty-eight, he would perhaps +have demanded a man's rights. Being, however, according to the world's +standard, a fool and a dreamer, he chose to let the moment pass, to +refuse what the gods offered, to think of Arithelli rather than of +himself. + +"I'm hurting you, dear." His voice shook a little, in spite of his +efforts to control it. + +"No. Nothing hurts now. And I'm glad you love me." + +"I hurt you a minute ago. I was mad and a beast. Will you forgive me? +You are not frightened?" + +"No. I was only thinking of the future of tomorrow." + +"Let us forget to-morrow," the boy pleaded. "Can you not forget for +once?" + +"We have to-day, and each other. '_Aujourd'hui le Printemps, Ninon_.' +It's summer for us now, Fatalite! When one loves there is always +summer." + +He drew her out into the starlight as he heard the noise of the men +pushing back their seats and moving about overhead. + +Several voices were raised in angry altercation. + +He raged inwardly as he thought how in a few minutes he would have to +see her at the orders of them all, sent here and there, at everyone's +call, and forced to work without either thanks or reward. + +"Let me go in, dear," Arithelli said. "They will expect to find things +ready." + +But Vardri held her back. + +"Let them expect! Give them the trouble of looking for you. They keep +you up all night, so they can afford to waste a few minutes extra." + +It was both a foolish and useless protest and Arithelli knew that she +would pay afterwards for these snatched moments, but she did not grudge +the price, for to her they seemed worth the payment required. + +She was glad of the air too. + +She turned a little in Vardri's arms, lifting her face to the soft +night wind. The coolness and the dark were like the touch of a +soothing hand. + +The branches of the tree under which they stood rustled softly, and the +undergrowth stirred with the startled movements of some awakened bird +or small animal. + +A bat flew past, almost brushing them with its velvet wings. From the +marsh lands below the dangerous white mist hovered like a fairy veil. + +"I love the night," Arithelli whispered. "It makes me want to do all +sorts of things. Do you remember the story of Marguerite of France, +who heard the gypsies singing under her window and leant out and called +to them to take her away. I feel like that. Do you understand?" + +Vardri drew her closer. "I know, my heart. Tell me more." + +"There were some gypsies singing under my window this morning," +Arithelli went on. "I wished I could have gone out and followed them +'over the hills and far away' like the children in the old rhymes. The +Irish and Jewish people have always been wanderers. Perhaps that is +why I am fated never to stay long in one place." + +He answered her in the same mood. + +"We'll start at once, shall we, Fatalite? We'll saddle two of the +horses and ride, ride day and night till we come to Montserrat, and +there we shall find your gypsies and their tribe. When you come to my +country there'll be gypsies too, and they shall play and sing for you, +and you'll know what music is for the first time." + +"How foolish we are!" Her eyes were wet, but she was smiling. "If +Emile heard me talking like this he would be so angry." + +"He talked like this once," Vardri replied. "Poleski was young too not +so very long ago, and he loved someone." + +"Yes, I know." She found it almost impossible to think of Emile as a +lover in spite of the photograph she had found, and the words in his +own writing upon his songs. She knew them by heart. "_Emile a Marie. +Sans toi la mort_." And on another, "_Etoile de mon ame! Je vous +adore de tout mon coeur, ton Emile_." + +Perhaps it was the memory of this passion of his youth that had made +him kind to her. + +While they talked and lingered, Sobrenski was descending the rickety +ladder that served as a staircase. + +He had noticed Vardri's exit from the room, as he noticed everything +else. All the other men had been too excited to care whether one more +or less was there or not. In the hot argument that raged in the upper +room, the absence of one of the members of the Brotherhood was +apparently forgotten. + +Their leader, however, did not lose his head or his powers of +observation even when matters of life or death were in the balance. +Whatever he did was always done deliberately and in cold blood. + +All the time he had been apparently presiding over the discussion he +had also been thinking rapidly. + +It would be to his ultimate advantage not to interfere with Arithelli +and Vardri just now, but to let them be together, to see as much of +each other as possible. It was as well that Vardri should become +thoroughly infatuated, as then he would be certain to take some step +that would bring things to a crisis. They would be sure to try to +escape out of the country and hide themselves somewhere. They would +not be the first people who had tried that sort of thing before. + +In the course of his life he had known others who had flung the Cause +and their vows to the winds from fear or passion and tried to hide +themselves under some disguise. + +If they happened to be clever and have plenty of money their escape had +been fairly easy, and they had even been safe for perhaps a year or so. +Then just as they had begun to feel secure and had grown careless, the +vengeance of their own particular circle had overtaken them. There had +been accounts in the newspapers of a mysterious tragedy to which no +motive could be assigned, and for which no one could be brought to +justice, and that was all. + +They were all monotonously alike, these affairs! + +Sobrenski had said little to anyone else of his suspicions. + +No need to declare anyone a traitor till it was proven. Such things +had a demoralising effect, and treachery was an infectious disease. + +He descended the uneven rungs of the ladder, treading soft-footed as a +cat. + +There was no noise of talking, so of course she was asleep. _Sacre_, +these lazy women! So she could not keep awake even for a lover! + +The place was dark except for the glimmering light at the far end, and +he was obliged to feel his way to avoid the mules, who had an evil +trick of lashing out with their heels at anything in the vicinity. + +At the foot of the steps he trod on a riding whip, which he recognised +as one belonging to Vardri. + +In the dim circle of light cast by the smoky lamp there was only a +truss of hay disordered as if someone had lain upon it, and the +_manta_, and other things belonging to Arithelli. + +There was one thing more, a sheet of paper covered closely with an +untidy scrawl. + +The lynx eyes flashed, and Sobrenski bent eagerly forward. + +Bad as the light was it had not taken him long to recognise the writing. + +He held it close to the lamp, and smiled with satisfaction. + +Nothing could be better from his point of view. In the first sentence +there was all, even more, than he wanted. + +He smoothed it out between his pointed fingers, folded it, and bestowed +it carefully in an inside pocket. + +It was just the kind of thing he would have expected from a girl of +Arithelli's type,--to go about dropping letters. She had not method +enough even to put on her clothes decently; they always looked as if +they were falling off, and her hair as if it was coming down. + +_Sapristi_! A fine agent for the Cause! and one fit to be trusted with +important documents. + +Poleski must have been quite mad when he suggested introducing her to +the Brotherhood, and he himself deserved even more blame for having as +much as listened to the suggestion. + +A girl of that age, picked up from nowhere, and like the rest of her +sex a mass of lies and vanity. + +He held the lantern above his head, and peered round. Surely they had +not been so utterly insane as to have attempted to escape to-night? +All the horses and mules were there safe enough, and obviously they +would not attempt to walk. + +He strode towards the door, meeting them on the threshold, and in spite +of himself could not help being impressed by the uncanny likeness +between the two, in form and outline. + +They had even the same trick of movement. + +The thought of what he had found made him feel almost good-humoured, +although he took good care that no one else should benefit by this +unusual mood. + +"You have found yourself a little distraction, _hein_?" he said, +ignoring Arithelli's presence. "We are not up here for amusement all +the same. There's nothing done. I supposed you had come down to see +to the horses." + +Vardri strolled across to a rack, and took down an armful of saddles +and stirrups. + +"I have," he answered laconically. "They'll be ready in five minutes." + +Sobrenski turned to the girl, and spoke to her in an undertone. "What +are you wasting time for? See to your work." Vardri raised his head +from the adjustment of a girth. + +"I'm doing Mademoiselle Arithelli's work. There is no need for her to +trouble." His accents possessed both dignity and command. For an +instant their positions were reversed. The leader smothered an oath; +but said no more. He reflected that he could well afford to wait for +his revenge. The game was absolutely in his own hands if only they had +known it. + +He could see that they were both perfectly unconscious of the fact that +they had lost anything. When they discovered they would most likely +conclude it had happened during the ride up. + +When Arithelli had dragged herself up into her bedroom the sky was +lighting with the dawn. They had mistaken the road and gone a mile or +two out of the way, and one of the men had been thrown off and twisted +his ankle, and made another halt and delay. She drew the curtains +closely and lay down without undressing. + +Before she slept she put her hand into her breast, and felt the rustle +of the thin paper on which Vardri's letter had been written. + +It was not until the landlady had nearly battered down her door that +she stirred four hours later, and then she unfastened her blouse and +drew out instead of the original two sheets, only one. + +She did not feel particularly alarmed; supposing it had been put with +the envelope that she had left about in the morning. Her things so +often got lost, and it was Emile who generally found them. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + + "Must a man have hope to fight? + Can a man not fight in despair?" + "A Polish Insurgent," JAMES THOMPSON. + + +How he lived through his last day in Barcelona Emile never quite knew. +A strong will, strong tobacco, and plenty of work were all aids in +helping him to preserve his sanity. + +He soon arranged things with Sobrenski, and found no difficulty in +obtaining the post of messenger in the St. Petersburg affair. + +He walked to the Hippodrome while the _matinee_ performance was in +progress, and left a message for Arithelli at the stage door. + +Then he went back to his rooms in the Calle San Antonio, and began to +make the few necessary preparations for departure. He was not +encumbered with worldly goods, and his wardrobe was not extensive, so +there remained only to look through and destroy all documents, books, +or letters that could not be carried about or that might involve the +safety of others. + +Certain songs and pieces of music he put together in a pile, the rest +he tore across and threw into a corner. He would have no need of these +amusements now. Cultivation of the fine arts is not encouraged in the +political prisons. + +At five o'clock Arithelli entered the room, her clothes put on +carelessly, the grey pallor of intense weariness upon her face. She +had been working early and late during the past two days, and the +thought of the missing letter worried her from time to time. Sometimes +she felt almost certain that she had dropped it in changing from her +circus clothes, and that it had been appropriated out of curiosity by +one of the women who shared the dressing-room. As it was written in +English, they would probably throw it away at once in disgust, annoyed +at being deprived of the excitement of a romance or scandal. + +She knew it would be useless to make enquiries. If it had been left +there it had been done late at night, and the dressing-rooms were +always cleaned early next morning, and it would have been swept away +with the other rubbish. + +She had not said anything about her loss to Vardri. It would make him +even more anxious than herself, and she must bear the penalty of her +own carelessness. + +She hoped that after all it would come to light in some box or drawer +among her clothes. + +She came forward noiselessly across the polished, carpetless floor. + +"_Bon jour_, Emile! You wanted me?" + +He pointed to a chair. + +"Sit down! Your hat is on crooked--as usual! Are you so little of a +woman that you never use a mirror?" + +A gleam of fun lit up her eyes. + +"You covered mine up the other night with that horrible wreath and +streamers. I can only see myself in little bits now." + +"Well, sit down and I'll talk to you presently." + +Emile returned to the sorting and destruction of his correspondence, +and Arithelli lay back in her chair with a sigh of content, and closed +her eyes. When she opened them again he was standing beside her with a +glass of red wine in his hand. + +"Drink this," he said, giving it to her. + +"It isn't _absinthe_, is it?" she asked. "I can't see in this light, +and I don't want--" + +"It doesn't matter what it is or what you want. Don't argue, but +finish it. How fond you women are of talking!" He waited till she had +obeyed him. + +"You see that music? Well, you can take it back with you. I shall not +have any more use for music when I leave here. And listen to me now, +and don't go to sleep for the next five minutes if you can help it." + +He kept full control of himself and his feelings. If anything his +voice was a little more rasping than usual, and his dry words of +counsel and advice were spoken in his ordinary hard, practical manner. +An outsider would have found it difficult to say which was the more +indifferent in appearance of these two who had been so strangely +intimate for half a year, and who were now about to part. + +The girl was apathetic from physical fatigue and past emotions. + +She thought as she looked round the familiar room how impossible it was +to believe that she would never be there again after to-day, and that +Emile would never again come to her. + +The wine cleared her brain and made her blood run more quickly. She +roused herself to listen to what Emile was saying, and to answer the +questions he was asking her about her own arrangements. She thought he +seemed relieved when she told him of Vardri's scheme, and she +restrained a strong desire to tell him also about the missing letter. + +He gave her an address in the Russian capital to which she could write +during the next month, warning her at the same time to be careful in +what she said, to mention no names, and to avoid all references to +politics, as his correspondence would run the risk of being edited by +the police. Inside the envelope on which the address was written he +had enclosed forty francs. + +"You'll probably find a little money useful one of these days," he +said. "Keep it till you really want it. You can't wear more than one +pair of boots at once, and there are other things more important. I +don't want you to thank me. You can go and sing something instead, and +do your best as it's for the last time." + +Arithelli rose at once and went to the piano, eager to do something +that might give him pleasure. + +She could play for herself now. Emile had succeeded in teaching her a +few easy accompaniments, so that he could listen without distraction. + +She hesitated for a minute, turning over his big music book, and then +chose the popular song of the _cafe-chantants_ and streets, the famous +"_La Colombe_" with its lilting time, and mingled gaiety and sorrow. +One heard it everywhere, sung in Spanish, in the local patois, and in +French, by _artistes_ in the theatres, by factory girls, and sailors, +and market people. The _gamins_ and beggars whistled and hummed it in +the streets and squares. + +Emile walked up and down the room as he listened. He had made her sing +in the hope of lessening in a small degree the strain he was enduring, +but what had possessed her to choose this song of all others? The +words told of one who was about to set sail, and lingered bidding adieu +to his Nina, the woman he loved. + + "_Le jour ou quittant la terre pour l'ocean, + Je dis, priez Dieu, priez Dieu pour votre enfant. + Avant que nous mettre en route je crus revoir, + Nina! qui pleurait sans doute de desespoir._" + + +One could hear the rocking of the boat at anchor, the rippling of the +out-going tide. + +In the second verse the time was changed, the words were hurried and +insistent. + + "_Nina! si je succombe, el qu'un beau soir, + Une blanche colombe vient te voir, + Ouvre-lui ta fenetre car ce sera, + Mon ame qui peut-etre te reviendra._" + + +Her voice had grown weaker since her illness, and she sang with visible +exertion and faulty breathing, but it was still the golden voice of the +Israelitish woman, and there was the same _timbre_ that had attracted +him, and made him speak to her that afternoon in May at the station. + +And all that had only happened six months ago! When she had finished +he said nothing in approval, but he asked her to sing again, and she +understood, and was pleased. + +"You may thank the Fates for having given you a voice," he told her. +"It's better than a face. It lasts longer. No man having once heard +you would listen to another woman." + +It was the first compliment he had ever made her, but Arithelli did not +answer. Her back was turned towards him as she gathered together the +music. + +He could see that her whole body was trembling with repressed sobs. If +he could only have been sure they were for him, he would have taken her +in his arms. She was sorry he was going, perhaps, in a way, but not in +the way he wanted. She had become dependent upon him, and he had +filled a certain place in her life. If she made a scene it was +entirely his own fault. Farewells were always a mistake, and he had +been foolish enough to allow her to sing sentimental verses about doves +and people's wandering souls. She was over-tired and over-wrought, and +a woman's tears were more often due to physical than to mental reasons. +So he argued, trying to convince himself, yet knowing all the time that +Arithelli was not one of the women whose emotions are on the surface. + +Once before he had seen her cry, and now as then he stood apart. It +was for Vardri to dry her tears. + +He glanced at the clock. Of course it was wrong, but he knew by the +shadows that filled the room that it must be time for her to leave if +she was to appear in public again to-night. + +He must hurry the interview to a close, for he could not play his part +much longer. + +"You ought to be glad to get rid of me, Arithelli. _Vous avez la +chance_! What have I given you but work and grumbles, eh?" + +The soft, broken voice answered him: + +"I shall feel afraid without you." + +"You will have Vardri,--your lover." His tone was brutal as the blow +of a knife. The natural animal jealousy of a man had risen in him +again. When he was between stone walls, she would have the warmth of a +lover's arms; every nerve in his own body would know it, and long for +that which he had himself resigned. + +He would have long hours to sit and think the thoughts that drive men +to insanity or self-destruction. + +"Yes, but one can care in different ways, and you have done so many +things for me." + +The man drew in his breath sharply. The knife was in her hand now, but +she had stabbed unconsciously. He knew that she spoke quite simply, +thinking only of his care for her physical well-being. + +Truly he had done things, things that he would have given several years +of life to undo. + +Now he had that for which he craved,--the assurance that she cared, +that she would miss him. Still he did not delude himself. He knew +that what she felt towards him was not the love between a woman and her +mate, but the affection of dependence, of habit. Yet for such as it +was his soul uttered thanksgiving. Any other woman gifted with a less +sweet nature would have felt for him nothing but hatred, but in +Fatalite's mind neither spite nor malice ever found a place. The petty +vices of womankind had never been hers. He knew now that he had been +something to her, and that knowledge would make sunshine for him even +in the shadow of a prison. It gave him courage also to play out the +tragi-comedy to the end, to make a brave jest, to lie convincingly. + +"We needn't make each other eternal adieux, _mon enfant_. You must not +take all I said about Siberian dungeons _au serieux_. Russia isn't +quite as dangerous as it's made out to be. Of course the police keep a +watch more or less on the 'suspects,' but we know all their tricks, and +how to avoid them. Plenty of us go to St. Petersburg and even to Kara +and come back again. The Schlusselburg fortress is about the only +place we haven't succeeded in getting out of yet. It's fairly easy to +manage a false passport. You can write to me at the address I've given +you." + + * * * * * * + +It was all over now, and he was alone. He had taken both her hands for +an instant, and felt the convulsive clinging of the thin fingers. He +had longed to kiss them, but dared not trust himself. His words were +only such as might have been used by anyone of the Brotherhood. + +"_Au revoir, camarade_!" + +"_Au revoir_!" + +Her tears were falling still, though she answered him steadily enough. + +Then she turned away, pulling down her veil, and he saw her grope +blindly for the fastening of the door. It shut gently behind her, and +he was alone. He sat down by the table with its litter of books and +newspapers, and stared dully round the room which her passing had left +more hopeless and ugly than ever. + +Life itself would be more _fade_ and ugly now. As well for him that +after to-day he would have no time to sit and brood. It would be all +stern reality soon, enough to cure him of lovesickness. + +First the work and risks of a secret printing press in some cellar or +sordid room behind a shop, and later on the inevitable police-raid, a +trial that would be no trial with the condemnation signed before-hand, +and afterwards the _travaux forces_, the long marches, the agonies of +farewell at the Siberian boundary-post--not for him, for his were said, +but for his companions in misery--the miseries of the sick and dying, +the partial starvation, and the horrors of dirt and vermin. There were +sure to be some women too among the "politicals," and he would be +obliged to watch their sufferings. + +There would be no imaginary grievances in that life at all events. + +On the floor, as it had dropped from among the music there lay a +photograph, face downwards. + +He picked it up and looked back at the childish, smiling face, the +tiny, rounded figure of Marie Roumanoff. + +"_Tout passe, tout casse, tout lasse_." + +His mouth twisted into a cynical smile. She had been a true prophetess +when she had written that. + +He tore the picture across, and threw it upon the rest of the _debris_. + +The Roumanoff would never haunt his dreams again. + +Her portrait was easily destroyed. A flimsy thing of print and paper, +as slight and fragile as herself. + +Of Arithelli he possessed no tangible likeness, but he would have her +always with him, for her image was seared deep upon both heart and +brain. + +_The Witch_ sailed out of Barcelona harbour with the early morning +tide. Besides Emile and Vladimir, and a small picked crew, she carried +an assortment of strangely-shaped machines, things that looked like the +inside of a clock, and were full of wheels and cogs, firearms, and +ammunition, some copies of a revolutionist manual on street fighting +tactics, and other inflammatory literature. + +Their plan was to enter Russia by way of Finland, leaving all the +things there to be smuggled through by degrees. + +When they came to the frontier they would part company. Emile would +make his way towards the city that holds its trembling autocrat as +closely guarded in his palace as any convict in the mines, while +Vladimir was to go back to Spain overland to report success or failure +in the landing and disposal of their dangerous cargo. + +All day the two men sat together, talking, plotting, preparing for all +contingencies. + +There were no feminine voices to be heard on board the yacht now, no +singing on deck in the evenings, no hint of the presence of a woman, +either as wife, mistress, or companion. + +They neither discussed nor recalled these vanished days, though one had +hours of memory and regret, and the other was consumed with a savage +hunger for that which he had lost. + +Both had taken upon themselves vows that put them outside the pale of +human ties and affections. + +The Goddess whom they both served had risen, claiming their allegiance, +their service, and with the lives and ways of mortal women they had no +concern. The Cause had triumphed. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + + "Do you not know I am a woman?" + AS YOU LIKE IT. + + +Sobrenski was a man who wasted no time in making up his mind. His +success as a leader had depended upon his swiftness of action and +unscrupulousness, and his latest manoeuvres had turned out an admirable +success, upon which he might safely congratulate himself. + +The day following the resolution of the Committee, he had written to +Arithelli, telling her to come to his flat to receive instructions. +She would arrive in due time, and then he would explain things. + +He wondered whether she would faint or scream or perhaps refuse, but +probably she would be easier to manage now that Poleski was safely out +of the way. He had schemed that business well too, and could now spare +all his attention for Vardri and the girl. + +As to the amount of work they both did, they would be no great loss, +for he could easily supply their places by other human machines who +would carry out his desires without question. The majority of the men +who composed the circle were completely dominated by him, and incapable +of opposing his will or argument, and by some he was worshipped as a +hero. Callous of suffering in others, he was equally indifferent to it +for himself, and if he did not spare his tools he also slaved +incessantly day and night. + +The large bare room in which he sat possessed very little furniture and +no signs of comfort. There were a quantity of books piled on the floor +and mantelpiece, and the centre space was filled by an enormous bureau +heaped with a mass of printed and written papers, for besides his +extensive correspondence he was part-editor of one of the Anarchist +journals, which he enlivened by daring and sarcastic contributions. +The fragment of the letter that Arithelli had dropped, lay open in +front of him. He read it through again and smiled to himself. + +"I'll give up even the Cause for your sake," Vardri had written. +"Seeing how these men have made you suffer has changed my views. There +must be something wrong about our ideas if they produce this cruelty to +women. Sobrenski and the others are killing you slowly. I wanted +struggle and excitement at one time, and whether it meant Life or Death +it was all the same. There was no one to care. Now I want Life and +Love and You!" + +Another madman like Gaston de Barres! How alike all these effusions +were, all in the same strain. They had found a pile of ravings when +they had searched among the property of the heroine of that affair. +These were the people who did an incredible amount of harm, who were +even more dangerous than the ordinary traitor. + +He pushed the letter underneath some others, and Arithelli had knocked +more than once, before he called "_Entrez_!" + +He saluted her with a cold scrutiny, telling her to wait till he had +finished. He invariably made a point of using no title in addressing +her, and never even gave her the customary Anarchist greeting of +_camarade_. He did not invite her to sit down, and she would have been +surprised if he had done so. There was another chair at the far end of +the room, and she did not trouble to fetch it. Her heart was still +further weakened by her illness, and she was breathless after climbing +two long flights of stairs. She leant up against the wall, breathing +quickly, and thankful for a few moments' respite. + +She supposed she was required to play "errand-boy" as usual, and to go +through the well-known routine: A crumpled-up slip of paper, which she +must hide in her hair or dress, a long walk, or a ride in the electric +tram if she happened to have any money, and then perhaps at the end of +it she would find the man for whom she was seeking absent, and then she +would have to wait till he returned. It was never safe to leave a +message. Everything had to be given directly into the hands of those +for whom it was intended, and she had spent many weary hours in the +rooms of Sobrenski's followers. + +She studied his face as he rapidly stamped his letters, flinging them +on to a pile of others that lay ready. It crossed her mind how Emile +had once likened a certain group of the conspirators to a pack of court +cards, saying that they were alternately red and black. + +Sobrenski's hair and small peaked beard were of a curiously unpleasant +colour, and his thin lips, pointed teeth and long sloping jaw gave him +a wolfish appearance. His eyes, deep-set and narrow, were too close +together to satisfy a student of Lavater as to his capacity for +truthfulness. The forehead alone was good, and showed reasoning and +intellect. He was about fifty, and like all fair men looked less than +his age. He was better dressed, and altogether more careful of his +appearance than most of the other men, though he spent nothing on +luxuries and never touched the _absinthe_, to which most of them were +addicted. The sole luxuries in which he indulged were Work and Power. + +"Probably you have heard a great deal of talk about spies lately," he +began, addressing Arithelli in French. "For some time I have suspected +one of our own number of treachery. However, one cannot condemn +without proofs. For these I have been waiting and they have now come +into my hands. I'm perfectly satisfied that the man I have all along +suspected is a traitor, and there is no need to delay action any +longer. I suppose Poleski has informed you of how we treat those who +are unwise enough to betray us?" + +"Yes." + +She was on her guard now, and stood upright, all her languor gone. Why +could he not say what he meant at once? She wondered why he had taken +the trouble to seek for proofs of anyone's guilt. Enough for a man of +his type to find an obstruction in his path. He would need no +authority but his own for removing it. She hated him all the more for +his parade of justice. It had not occurred to her that his speech was +a prelude to anything that concerned Vardri. If anyone was implied she +imagined it was herself. These men were never happy unless they were +suspecting evil of someone. The Anarchist leader found in her +incomprehension merely another sign of feminine stupidity. Her outward +air of indifference was as irritating to him as it had been to the +Hippodrome Manager. Sobrenski's blood had never stirred for any woman, +however charming, and Arithelli's type of looks was repulsive to him. +He loathed her thinness and pallor, her silence and immobility of +expression. He vowed inwardly that she should look less indifferent +before he had finished with her. + +"You do not appear to have the least idea of the identity of the man to +whom I am referring," he continued. "Your friend Vardri is not a very +careful person. He is young, and shall we say, a little foolish. It +is always risky to say or write anything against the Cause one is +supposed to be serving." + +"To say _or write_." It dawned upon her all at once. The piece of the +letter she had missed, had been dropped in the stable up in the hills +and found by Sobrenski. It was all her own fault, sheer rank +carelessness. Emile had so often warned her against her fatal habit of +leaving everything about. She never locked up anything, jewellery, +clothes, money or papers. + +Perhaps in the hurry of dressing that night, she had only taken with +her the first page, and when she was out her rooms had been searched, +and the rest stolen. Sobrenski would stop at nothing to get the +evidence he wanted. If she accused him of having taken it he would +simply deny the charge, and to seem anxious would be further evidence +that the letter contained something that would compromise either Vardri +or herself. In any case it appeared that the mischief was done. To +expect either justice or mercy from her enemy was out of the question. +She would try and fight him with his own weapon, feign ignorance, tell +lies if necessary. + +"Vardri? What has he done?" + +The note of surprise in her voice was well assumed and she could +control her face, but her hands betrayed her. Sobrenski had seen the +blue veins stand out and the knuckles whiten unnaturally with the +pressure on the black fan she carried to shield her eyes in the street. + +"Done?" he echoed contemptuously. "Nothing so far. He has only talked +and written. It is to provide against his doing anything important +that the Committee have decided upon his removal. There was a meeting +held last night and the voting was unanimous. Vardri has been +condemned as a traitor to his vows, and a danger to everyone connected +with our work." + +"Condemned without a hearing!" the girl flamed out. "_Mon Dieu_! Your +justice! What has he done?" + +"Have you a right to question the judgment of the Committee?" The +voice was like a scourge falling on bare flesh. Arithelli drew her +shoulders together involuntarily. + +"No!" she answered. + +"Yet you do it! These womanly inconsistencies are a little fatiguing." + +Sobrenski caressed his beard with a narrow, bloodless hand, on the +middle finger of which was a curious ring of twisted gold wire. + +He waited to see if she would make any further protest, but she set her +lips firmly and refused to speak. There was nothing more to be said on +her side. Evidently Sobrenski had found the letter, and when or where +it had been found mattered not at all. He continued: + +"The sentence has been passed and it falls upon you to execute it." + +The answer came back swiftly: + +"And if I refuse?" + +For once in his life Sobrenski was taken aback, and experienced a new +sensation, that of surprise. He looked at her with almost approval. +If he was cruel he was also courageous, and able to appreciate the +virtue in others. + +"You know what your refusal implies?" he questioned, more gently than +he had yet spoken. "You refused some time ago to carry a message. You +will perhaps remember that I gave you the choice between doing as you +were told, or--" he gesticulated expressively. "You were wise then. I +hope you will be wise now." + +Arithelli's thoughts were going at racing speed. No one could be long +in a room alone with Sobrenski without being impressed by his +overpowering personality. He affected her in a way that no one else +ever did, in provoking her to futile outbursts of defiance and anger. +She had never lost her head with anyone else, but he always made her +incapable of reasoning, raging one minute, and cowed the next. +Hitherto Emile had always been there to screen and protect her, to +stand between her and her enemy. She knew now why he had so often +hoped to see her in her coffin. + +"I can't murder! I undertook to work for the Cause, but not that--_Mon +Dieu_! not that!" + +"We don't talk about murder," Sobrenski sneered. "We merely 'remove' +those who have proved themselves untrustworthy. You undertook to obey +orders, I believe. You may contradict me if I am incorrect." + +He leant forward with the glittering eyes of the fanatic. "You talk of +murder and forget that to us human life is nothing. Do you think you +will save Vardri by refusing? Am I to suppose that he has infected you +also with the taint of disloyalty? It is your business to loathe a +traitor as we do. You wear your badge, but do you never read the words +on it? Poleski used to tell me great things of your enthusiasm, your +devotion. Now I am putting you to the test. You like to act a +picturesque part, it seems, to wear boy's clothes, to sing, to be the +only woman among us, to act the heroine. We do not want acting here. +This is Life, not the stage. Now you are asked to give a practical +proof of your loyalty!" + +The pitiless tongue lashed, and Arithelli shrank against the wall, her +hands over her eyes. There had been stories current among the younger +members of the Barcelona Anarchists that Sobrenski possessed the power +of hypnotism and did not scruple to use it. Some of the most daring +and successful outrages of the past years had been carried out under +his direction, and executed by these youths. He always made a point of +choosing men who were highly strung and impressionable. He was known +to boast that after three interviews with him he could make anyone, +either man or woman, into a will-less automaton. + +He exhorted, jeered, encouraged and derided, finally giving Arithelli +five minutes in which to make her decision. She did not keep him +waiting, though he could scarcely hear the murmured words of assent. +Her nerve was broken at last. She would promise anything, do anything +if only he would let her go. Dazed with fear and misery, she watched +him get up, unlock a drawer of the bureau and come across to her +holding out something. + +"I shall arrange for you to be together one night up in the hut. I +don't know whether you have any idea of shooting, but you can hardly +miss at such close range." + +The brutal words steadied her, and drove back the feeling of mental +paralysis. She realised suddenly all that her promise meant. Vardri +had given her love, and in return she was to give him Death! Her own +dawning love had enabled her to see more clearly what his devotion +meant. With the growth of a woman's soul she had also begun to +experience womanly emotions, fear, anxiety, the need of sympathy and +affection. + +She snatched the pistol from Sobrenski's hand, and he stepped back a +pace, throwing up his arm instinctively as she raised, levelled and +fired. + +The weapon clicked harmlessly, her hand dropped to her side, and she +stood shivering, and wondering at her own madness. The whole thing had +been done without thinking, as an animal driven into a corner turns, +snarling and showing its teeth. + +Sobrenski recovered himself first and laughed. + +"So you thought it was loaded?" he said. "Do you take me for a fool? +Allow me to congratulate you on your--failure!" + +Then changing his tone of sarcasm to command: "You must hide that +pistol carefully. Put it inside your dress or somewhere safe. I +suppose you would like to march down the Paseo de Gracia, carrying it +in your hand, and wearing a tragic expression,--and get locked up by +the first agent de police you meet! You have pluck enough, but you +should avoid these exhibitions of hysteria." + +He gripped her by the shoulder, swung her round, and pointed to the +door, "_Allez_!" + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + + "My crown is without leaves, + For she sits in the dust and grieves, + Now we are come to our kingdom." + "Anthony and Cleopatra," KIPLING. + + +Once more the procession of conspirators toiled on its way up the +irregular mountain path. The horses slipped and stumbled under their +unskilful riders, the mules climbed steadily upwards. No one spoke. + +As usual Arithelli led the way. + +Vardri, who had arrived last of all, rode forward to join her, but was +curtly ordered to the rear by Sobrenski. + +They should see enough of each other later on,--when it was time. + +Before they started on their ride he spoke to Arithelli alone, and gave +her his final instructions, and saw for himself that the pistol she +wore at her belt was properly charged. He never left anything to +chance, especially in important undertakings such as the present one. + +"There will not be a long meeting to-night," he said. "You will have +an hour free to do your work. You hear?" + +His eyes were fixed on hers, compelling an answer. None came, though +she bowed her head in token of acquiescence, and though he could hear +no word Sobrenski was satisfied. He had seen that shrinking attitude, +that mechanical gesture before. In the plot to assassinate General +Morales there had been a young Spanish student who had given some +trouble. He had developed a conscience at the last minute, and vowed +that he could not kill an old and defenceless man, that he would rather +die himself. + +He had died, and so had Morales, and both by the explosion of the bomb +that had been launched by the hand of the former. + +Sobrenski held rightly that those who meddled with politics on either +side must dispense with such useless things as scruples. + +The night was still and sultry, with a full moon hanging low in the +sky. The weather had been unnaturally warm for the time of year, all +day, down in the city. + +They were all glad when they had mounted above the sea-level. + +There was a little breeze met them, and the tired and patiently +plodding horses raised their heads. + +Arithelli drew a long breath of relief as she shifted in her saddle, +and glanced back to see if they were all in sight. + +The _manta_ in which she was wrapped stifled her, and the weight of her +own hair under the wig and sombrero made her head ache and throb +violently. + +As they rode she rehearsed her plans in her own mind, telling herself +over and over again the things that she must say and do when she was +alone with Vardri. + +To-night would see Sobrenski's triumph, his grand coup, and when it was +all over perhaps she would have peace. + +How slowly they all seemed to ride, she thought. She wondered how many +of the other men knew that she was chosen to act the part of murderess. +Some of them had been kind to her in a rough way, especially the older +ones. + +But even if they did pity her a little, not one among them but would +expect her to do the thing that they would consider obviously her duty. + +No one would raise a voice on her behalf, whatever their private +sentiments. + +The majority of them would probably look upon her as a heroine, for she +would have rid them of a spy, a traitor. + +She could only hope that she might keep her brain clear, her courage +firm till the supreme moment. + +Once in the course of that awful day her nerves had given out in +physical collapse, and her shaking hands had let fall the mirror of +Agnes Sorel. + +It lay on the floor in her bedroom, broken in three places. + +Her early days in Ireland had given her a belief in the omens of good +and evil, for in the "emerald gem of the Western world" superstition +runs riot. + +The faith in it was in her blood, though it needed no broken mirror to +tell her what dread thing awaited her, towards which she must advance, +urged by fate. + +She had only written one letter, and that one was to Emile. Now that +he was gone there was no one else who cared. + +Something told her now that his last words had only been an attempt to +comfort her, to ease her mind, and that she would wait in vain for his +return. + +Estelle would weep for a little while, and drink a great deal to drown +her tears, and then forget. They were nearly at the hut now. She +could see it, a grotesque shadow thrown across the silvered earth. + +She slipped off and walked, leading her mule by the bridle. + +Behind her were subdued curses, the rattle of slipping hoofs and +falling stones, as the animals climbed the last and steepest piece of +road, which ended in the plateau on which the building stood. + +In front of it was a single large tree, but most of the ground close by +bore nothing higher than dwarf shrubs and long grass. + +When the cavalcade drew up and dismounted, Vardri was discovered to be +missing. + +He had been late in starting, lagged behind the others and dropped out +of sight before they were scarcely clear of the town. Being the last +of the file his disappearance had not at first been remarked. + +Sobrenski refused to allow of time being wasted in a search. + +He ordered the rest of the men up into the loft, and Arithelli to her +work of unharnessing. + +He himself remained standing in the shadow of the doorway, his eyes +narrowed with anger, his thin lips compressed till they were merely a +line. + +Here was a complication that he had not foreseen. For the first time +in his life his wit and cunning had been at fault. + +He must have been mad not to have kept a sharper lookout on Vardri, but +he had reckoned he was secure with Arithelli as decoy. + +Could it be possible that she had been mad enough to warn Vardri? If +so, then why was she here herself? + +Either she had more courage or else she was more foolish even than he +could have believed it possible for a female creature to be. Women +took good care of their own skins in general! + +If Vardri meant to try and escape, surely they would have gone together. + +Perhaps his, Sobrenski's, detailed descriptions of the fate of others +who had attempted flight had made her decide that it would be safer to +remain and throw herself on the mercy of himself and his companions. + +He might have miscalculated the force of her attraction for Vardri, but +he felt perfectly certain that she was reduced to a state of mechanical +imbecility. She could not escape now at all events, even if she +suddenly changed her mind. + +He would give them both five minutes, and then if Vardri did not +appear--! + +He began to walk up and down outside, like some prowling animal +awaiting its prey. + +At regular intervals his shadow crossed and recrossed the patch of +light from the open door. + +Meanwhile Vardri was riding leisurely up the slope, reining back his +horse, and stopping at intervals to put a fair distance between himself +and the others. He intended to make a chance of seeing Arithelli alone +again, so he meant to wait till the whole crew, and especially +Sobrenski, were safely embarked on their eternal discussions. Then he +would slip in and help her with the animals, and live in Paradise again +for a little space of time. + +He had been to her rooms earlier in the day but she had sent down a +message to beg him to excuse her. She had a headache, and was lying +down, so he had been obliged to go away unsolaced, and longing for the +evening. + +Now that she had given him her promise to go with him to Austria, there +was only to arrange the day and the hour of their departure. For once +he was alive to the necessity for prompt action. There was her safety +to be considered now. When he had been alone it had not mattered how +anything was done or not done, but now everything was different. The +world itself was another place. He had already actually written and +posted a tentative letter to his father, such a letter as he could +never have written if only his interests had been concerned, but he +found any sacrifice an easy one now, even the sacrifice of pride. + +There was no reason why they should not start to-morrow. It would be +safer to get out of the place by going round by the Mediterranean and +thence across by way of Italy. + +Water-travelling was cheaper, too. He laughed to himself to think how +practical he was becoming. How strange it would seem to live in a +civilised fashion again, to not be obliged to look at every sou before +it was spent, to have servants to wait upon one; enough to eat and +drink, and the luxury of cleanliness. + +Yet the vagabond life had had its charm, too. He had encountered +kindness often, generally from those in more evil plight than his own, +and there had been flowers and music and sunshine. True, he had felt +horribly ill and dejected on some days, and his wretched cough was an +annoyance to himself and to other people, but at times he felt ready +for anything, and more energetic than any three of those lazy Spaniards. + +Love and Arithelli would be a sure antidote for any misery or disease. +For her he had created a House of Dreams, and now the dreams were on +the verge of becoming realities. Instead of the sand and stones of +that desert that men call Life, a rainbow-coloured future lay stretched +out before him. Sunshine and the summertime of love, all that he had +ever hoped for, were coming nearer. And joy was hovering near at hand, +till he could almost touch her flying robe. Soon he would hold her in +his arms, would possess her entirely. + +How different Arithelli was from all other women! With her there was +never caprice or fickleness. Whatever she said was his law, whatever +she wished to do was the right thing. + +Now he had abjured the Revolution, his father would be only too glad to +have him back, to see him married to a woman of Arithelli's charm and +breeding. There had never been any quarrel with his family, except +when he had joined the Red Flag party, and it was only natural that +they should quarrel over that. Love or the Revolution? There would +never be any more doubt now as to which he would choose. + +In the old days he had preferred starvation, and the freedom to act, +and think as he liked. He had gloried in being an outcast, in +suffering for the Cause. Life had been hard at times, but he had known +men of ideals and enthusiasms and there had been a certain fascination +in the excitement of being hunted. But now that was all over and a new +day was dawning for them both, for himself and for Arithelli. + +He spoke to his horse and stirred it into a quicker pace. + +They must be well out of the way and she would think he was never +coming. + +Inside the stable Arithelli, tall and straight in her scarlet shirt, +moved to and fro at her work, hanging up saddles and bridles, carrying +pails of water, ranging on either side of the hut the horses and the +mules. Tortured as she was with anxiety, she did not forget the wants +of her friends the animals. It came across her mind how once when she +had said to Vardri, "Let us see to the horses first," he had said half +in jest, "If I were a Spaniard I should be jealous. You always think +of the animals before everything else." + +One by one the rest of the conspirators tramped heavily up the ladder, +leaving her alone with Sobrenski, who stood with his back to the +doorway, following her with his eyes as she moved to and fro in the +shadows cast by the solitary lamps. + +Before he mounted the ladder in his turn, he came across the hut, took +her by the shoulder and spoke to her. "Be careful how you do your +work, for if it is not well done others will do it for you." + +She could not answer; she shuddered at his touch; her hands went up and +covered her face. + +Sobrenski turned and mounted the worn rungs of the narrow ladder with a +lithe, active step. He was quite sure of her now. She would not fail +to carry out his will. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + + "Il n'y a que l'amour et la mort." + + +For a few minutes after he had gone, Arithelli stood motionless, still +with her hands pressed tightly over her eyes, trying to command her +brain to work clearly. Her will and her limbs seemed paralysed. She +could only wait for Vardri's approach. Once she prayed an inarticulate +wordless prayer, that inspiration might be sent her to find a way out +of this _impasse_ in which there seemed neither light nor opening. + +Time was passing, and every moment was bringing her nearer the most +appalling destiny that could ever be meted out to any woman. If she +did Sobrenski's bidding she would be not only a murderess, but the +murderess of the being she loved most in the world. Vardri, who was so +different from all the other men; Vardri, who could never bear anything +to be hurt, or even to be made uncomfortable. She knew that it was +perfectly useless for both of them to attempt to escape. Someone was +most likely posted at the window of the loft, they would get no +distance on foot without being overtaken, and if she attempted to lead +out any of the horses or mules, the noise would probably attract +attention. + +Her hands fell to her side, and her head went up as she listened +intently. So he was coming, after all. In that undisturbed space and +clear dry air, sound travelled quickly, and she could hear the +approaching hoof-beats while he was still some way off. With the +knowledge of his approach the blood flowed again warmly in her veins +and courage and decision came back to her. Her senses, unnaturally +acute, told her that Vardri had now dismounted and was leading his +horse. She could distinguish his footsteps, and then the monotonous +regular footfalls of his mount. She ran out into the patch of +moonlight, casting a hurried backward glance at the side of the hut. +Thank God! the window was on the other side! + +Vardri was coming slowly towards her, his horse's bridle over his arm. +Before she covered the distance between them she made a gesture that +enjoined silence and stopped his greeting. "Don't bring your horse +in," she whispered. "Tie him up out of the way over there, a good way +off the hut. I'll explain presently." + +In another moment Vardri was beside her in the hut and had her in his +arms. + +"What is it, _mon petit_? There must be something wrong. Has +Sobrenski--?" + +"No, no, he has done nothing. It's just that I don't want you to be up +here too long to-night. I want you to do something for me. Will you, +Vardri?" + +"Do you think you'll need to ask me twice to do anything for you, dear?" + +He stood with his hands on her shoulders, his dark eyes gazing down at +her hungrily. "Did you think I was never coming? I stayed behind on +purpose. I felt that Sobrenski intended to prevent our talking +together." Arithelli snatched eagerly at his words. They had given +her the clue she wanted. + +"Yes, that's it. It's dangerous for me if we are seen often together. +I've done something so mad and foolish, Vardri, you must help me to put +it right,--you _can_. Those letters you have written me saying all +sorts of things against the Cause,--I left a piece of one about +somewhere,--I don't know where,--and Sobrenski found it. He has just +told me that in about half an hour's time before all the rest of them +leave, he is going to send on one of the men in advance. He will get +down to the town before us, go to my rooms and yours and collect all +the letters that have passed between us; and use them, as then he will +have what he has always wanted,--the proofs that we are what he would +call traitors. And when he has these proofs, neither of us will be +safe for an instant. It will mean death to both of us sooner or later. +But even Sobrenski can't murder us without sufficient evidence. He +will be obliged to make some formal parade of justice to put it all +before the rest of the society. If he doesn't get our letters he will +not have sufficient evidence." + +"But if we go away together to-night, as we intended? We've got a +start. We can take the best horses. That is the best plan." + +Arithelli shook her head. "Listen to me, dear, and believe in a +woman's wisdom for once. If we go to-night and together, we are bound +to be recaptured before we are out of Barcelona. By doing what I +suggest we avoid suspicion, we give ourselves breathing-space, time to +arrange a disguise, to think of all sorts of things that we have +overlooked. We have everything in our favour to-night, Sobrenski does +not know you are here yet. If you go soon you will get away without +his having seen you at all. Here is the key of my room. Go there +first, and you will find all your own letters in a wooden box in my big +trunk. That isn't locked. Open it and burn them all. Then go on to +your own room, do the same with yours and stay there. If they raid my +room, they will find nothing suspicious. You could pretend you were +ill, and that's the only reason you haven't come tonight, and I am here +doing my work as usual. Nothing could be less suspicious. Then when +they are off their guard we can escape." + +The minutes were flying. Death thrusting his lean face before the rosy +face of Love. Sobrenski's phrase sounded in her ears like the tolling +of a bell. "You have an hour free to do your work." An hour, only an +hour! How long had they been there already? Time and all else alike +seemed blurred. All her will must be concentrated upon one thing--to +make Vardri leave her as quickly as possible. Yet she dare not show a +sign of haste or emotion lest he should suspect something amiss and +refuse to go. + +"Dear, it is a wonderful plan this, of yours," Vardri was saying. "But +how can I leave you here alone with these devils? It makes me cold to +think of it." + +"You'll leave me because I shall be safer alone. You _must_ see that, +_mon ami_." She clung to him, putting up her face towards his. Every +art of womanhood must be used to weave a spell to send him from her and +to save him. "Will you not do as I ask you?" + +"I'll do anything in the world for you," the boy broke out eagerly; +"I'd have my hand cut off to save you a minute's pain." + +"I know, _mon ami_. And this is such a little thing, and so much +depends upon its being done quickly." + +What was that? A step on the ladder? She could not control a violent +start. No, it was only a creaking rung, a stamp from one of the mules. + +"But you haven't broken your promise to me. You swear to come away +with me soon?" + +"To-morrow if you will. Once the letters are burnt we are almost safe. +Only one day more. It doesn't make any difference." + +"It does to me, _mon petit_. Every moment, every hour without you is +time wasted." + +"But you'll go, dear, before Sobrenski sees us together?" + +"My sweet, if it is for your good, of course I will go. You're right +about the letters; I ought to have known it wasn't safe to keep them. +As you say, they've got no circumstantial evidence if those are +destroyed, and it only means a few more hours' delay in our getting +off. I'll go, darling. I'll get down the hills in no time. It's the +best horse of the lot, that one outside. But before I go give me +yourself for a few minutes." + +Arithelli let him lead her unresisting towards the corner of the hut, +and lay her gently back upon a truss of hay that he had covered with a +cloak. She had not the strength to deny him their last few minutes +together. Every fibre in her own nature, the lover, the mother, the +child, were all crying out for him. How gentle he had been, how he had +always cared for her. No one had ever touched her like this before, +spoken to her in this caressing voice. Emile had been kind in his way, +but he had been always rough. Her own emotions had always lain buried +deeply, and now they had been called to life she longed for the natural +expression of her love through the medium of physical things, by word +and touch. + +"Now for my reward," Vardri said. "I want to take your hair down." + +Arithelli bent her head towards him without speaking and he drew the +pins, and undid the braid with deft fingers, spreading it out till it +covered her as with a veil. + +"If only I could paint you! How beautiful you are to-night, but how +still and cold! Fatalite, tell me you love me a little, _mon coeur_!" + +She put her arms round his neck, laying her cheek against his. "_Mon +ami_, I love you!" + +He held her in his arms as one holds a child, rocking her to and fro. +"_Voila cherie_!" he whispered. "After to-morrow I shall have you +always, I shall never let you go again. My dream is coming true." + +Arithelli listened with dry eyes and an aching heart. She was past +crying, and her brain felt curiously reasonable and alert. She could +not send him from her at once, yet with every passing second Death drew +stealthily nearer and nearer. Time swept on relentless and inflexible. + +"Perhaps you will be disappointed in me one of these days, find me +depressing and full of moods. I've always been so lonely, you know, +till I met you. _Je suis une ame detachee_." + +"Never again while I'm alive! I think of you and with you. When you +are happy I know it, and when you are miserable I know it too. +Fatalite! Fatalite! believe that I don't want anything in return. +I'll wait on you, work for you, lie, starve, steal, do anything. I +only want to know you're there, to have the right to serve you, to feel +you don't hate me. I couldn't go on living it I lost you. Since the +first day I saw you at the Hippodrome you've haunted me. I led Don +Juan down to the entrance to the ring. You don't remember? How should +you? I've never forgotten! You smiled and thanked me. You looked so +strange beside Estelle and those other women." + +He was kneeling beside her, his lips pressed against the hollow of her +arm, from which the loose red sleeve had slipped back to above the +elbow. Under his passionate words Arithelli sat like a being +entranced, unseeing, unhearing. The inscrutable eyes set in the rigid +face gave her the likeness to some carven thing. + +"Fatalite! Fatalite!" + +The sound of his voice came to her as from a distance. She roused +herself, and tried to smile. "_Mon ami_, I'm a little tired to-night, +a little nervous; I was thinking about the letters! I shall feel so +much safer when they're burnt." + +"I'll go at once--just one moment. Arithelli, you do believe that I +love you, and that I want nothing? See, I'll not even touch your hand +if it doesn't please you." + +The soft hand was laid gently on his. "But if it _does_ please me, +_mon camarade_--" + +"_Dieu_! How sweet you are! But don't call me '_Camarade_,' _mon +petit_. Those wolves above call each other that!" + +"I won't, if you hate it. Yes, that's really love to give all and take +nothing." Arithelli spoke dreamily. "Emile made me sing to him before +he went away; you remember 'L'Adieu' of Schubert? He loved it. + + "La mort est une amie, + Qui rend la liberte." + + +"C'est bien vrai ca! I used to sing it without thinking at one time. +How alike all those songs are. Always Death;--Death and Liberty!" + +"Don't talk of those things, dear. It's going to be Life for both of +us--after to-morrow." + +"I was thinking of poor Emile." + +"He was always fond of you. He'll be glad when he hears you're married +and safe." + +"Yes, he'll be glad. Don't talk any more for a minute, dear, then just +say _au revoir_ to me and go as quickly as you can. I want to be +quiet. It's good to be loved. How gentle you are! Emile was always +so rough when he touched me." + +Vardri hung over her, caressing her with infinite tenderness. Of all +men in the world he was surely the happiest to have known this sweet +and womanly Arithelli, the Arithelli that no one else had ever seen. +He kissed the heavy, closed lids and stroked back the hair from her +forehead. + +A faint intoxicating odour of jasmine hovered about her, for she was +Eastern in her love of perfumes. The stifling, dirty hut became a +Paradise while she lay thus in his arms. + +Once again they kissed and clung together. Though Arithelli's lips +burnt, they scorched with the fires of despair rather than with those +of passion. + +In silence Vardri helped her to her feet, and they walked together to +the door. + +"You'll come to me to-morrow," Arithelli said. + +"To-morrow we shall be safe. We'll be out of this hell altogether in +another day or two, _a la bonne heure_! You're not afraid, Fatalite?" + +"I shan't be--when the letters are safe. Take care of yourself, _mon +ami, et a bientot_!" + +"_Mon Dieu_! what pluck you have! How I love you for it! Go back and +rest, dear, till those brutes come down. Give me your hand again, +Fatalite, _bien aimee! gardez-vous, mais gardez-vous_!" + +She answered him steadily. "_A demain_. _Adieu, mon ami_. Ride as +quickly as you can, but lead your horse for the first few minutes." + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + + "Le jeu est fait, rien ne vas plus!" + + +He was gone, and Arithelli was back in the hut again, and now the worst +of it all was still to come. If Vardri was to have a fair start she +must wait out the hour alone, realising every moment of the time what +awaited her at the end of it. + +A mad impulse seized her to rush up the steps to the loft, interrupt +the meeting, defy them all and boast how she had schemed her lover's +escape, and laugh at them and their plots, goad them into shooting her +at once and finishing it all quickly. She felt that she could not +endure any more suspense and strain. Anything would be better than +this interminable, awful waiting in the semi-darkness and loneliness, +with neither friend nor lover at hand, no single human to take her part +or defend her. Emile had gone and now Vardri, and she must face +everything alone. If she waited Vardri would have perhaps half an +hour's grace and while they were dealing with her it would give him +still another few minutes, and every minute counted. + +She fought down the temptation, and began to move about, speaking to +the mules and, horses, taking down saddles and bridles. She must not +be too quiet, or they might suspect something, and come down sooner to +see if she were still there. She must pretend to be busy, play out the +play to the end. + +She unhooked the lantern from its nail and placed it on the ground, and +then stood still again to listen. + +The smothered hum of voices grew louder overhead. It stopped suddenly, +and she could only hear Sobrenski's slow, incisive tones. No doubt +they were listening to him as to one inspired while he preached his +gospel of destruction. Arithelli shivered, pressing her hands over her +ears that she might shut out the sound of that hated voice that had +bidden her outrage her sex. + +She stumbled towards the bed of hay, still warm with the impress of her +own figure, and flung herself upon it face downwards and lay there +whispering to herself over and over again Vardri's name as one whispers +a charm. + +Would he forget her one of these days and marry someone else? Had it +been real, anything of this that she had lived through during these +months in Spain? Was she still that same "Arithelli of the Hippodrome" +who had come gaily into Barcelona with her ridiculous dresses and her +belief in herself and her career? She had known an hour of love and +passion, and that had been worth all the rest Emile had always told her +that people were not meant to be happy long _ici-bas_. She must pay +now for her hour. The gods were angry and must have a sacrifice. + +After she had been out in Barcelona only a week, Emile had taken her to +one of the gambling-hells of the place, where the lights and mirrors +and gilding hurt her tired eyes, and the croupiers called incessantly +through the strained silence, "_Le jeu est fait_. _Rien ne vas plus_!" + +It was like that with her now, "_Le jeu est fait_." How that sentence +heat in her brain! She wondered if she were becoming delirious. Then +she was on her feet, and her hand went to the Browning pistol at her +belt. Sobrenski's figure had appeared at the top of the ladder. He +was shading his eyes with his hand, and peering forward into the gloom. +Only one of them there! The girl or Vardri, which was it? + +Then the whole place was in darkness, for Arithelli had overturned and +extinguished the solitary lamp. The excited whinny of a horse mingled +with the sound of two shots fired in rapid succession, a rustling noise +among the hay, a groan, and silence. Before he set foot on the ladder +Sobrenski shouted to the rest of the conspirators to bring a light. He +did not wait to look at the prone figure, but made straight for the +door. His business it was first to see whether his quarry were still +in sight. + +All the other men were hustling each other in a hasty descent. "_Que +diable_!" one of them said. "What is it now? A spy?" + +The man who had lowered Arithelli from the window of the house in the +Calle de Pescadores, made his way first to where Arithelli lay and +stood beside her. He could only see dimly the outline of a figure +which might have been either that of a man or woman. "Bring a light +here," Valdez called impatiently. "Which of them is it?" Though he +was a revolutionist he was still a human being, and he had always been +as sorry for her as he had dared allow himself to be, and he hoped it +was not the girl. Another man came up carrying a lantern, and flashed +the light on what rested motionless at their feet. Arithelli lay on +her face as she had fallen. Her hair streamed over her shoulders and +mingled with the dark folds of the cloak. The hand that still held the +pistol was flung wide. + +"It's not Vardri," the other man said. "Is it--?" Sobrenski cut +across the question. "A traitor," he said. "What does it matter about +the name? Get back all of you and see to the horses. There should be +two of them and there's only one here. We've got to find the other +one." + +With a sudden brusque movement Valdez knelt down, turned the limp body +over, and rested the head upon his knee. "_Pardieu_!" he ejaculated as +he let it fall gently back. 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